,,! ,,conque/ ,,( ,,fe> ,,basil ,,k+ ,,) ,a ,,new ,,introduction ,,by ,,h5ry ,c4 ,,l9k ,,cont5ts ,,introduction ,i4 ,,fe> ,,& ,,! ,,life-,,pr9ciple ,,ii4 ,,! ,,life-,,pr9ciple ,,& ,,god ,,iii4 ,,god ,,& ,,8 ,,self-,,expression ,,iv4 ,,god',s ,,self-,,expression ,,& ,,! ,,m9d ,,( ,,to-,,day ,v4 ,,! ,,m9d ,,( ,,to-,,day ,,& ,,! ,,_w ,,z ,,x ,,is ,,vi4 ,,! ,,_w ,,z ,,x ,,is ,,& ,,! ,,false ,,god ,,( ,,fe> ,,vii4 ,,! ,,false ,,god ,,( ,,fe> ,,& ,,! ,,fe> ,,( ,,dea? ,,viii4 ,,! ,,fe> ,,( ,,dea? ,,& ,,abundance ,,( ,,life ,,introduction by ,h5ry ,c4 ,l9k1 ,ph4,d4 ,au?or ( ,,! ,,r$iscov]y ,,( ,,man1 ,,! ,,return ,,to ,,religion1 etc4 ,!re are _m books :i* give "s help to _m p4 ,!re are books :i* give a set ( rules1 or ev5 "o ma/] rule1 by :i* to meet ! problems ( life4 ,?is is n su* a book4 ,x sugge/s no simple recipe = ! conque/ ( fe>4 ,in/ead1 x pres5ts1 :at all too few ( u to-day possess1 a philosophy ( life4 ,moreov]1 9 contra/ to ! dom9ant ?9k+ ( our age1 :i* is mat]iali/ic1 ,k+'s philosophy is spiritual & religi\s4 ,inde$1 ! ideas 9 ?is book are s pr(\ndly diff]5t f ! commonly accept$ ideas ( our times t !y w come z a %ock to _m read]s4 ,"o purpose ( ?is introduction is to prep>e ! read] = su* a %ock4 ,i h said t ! dom9ant ?9k+ ( our age is mat]iali/ic1 & by t ,i mean also physical4 ,let me illu/rate ?is broad /atem5t ) ref]5ce to ! subject ( fe>s alone4 ,! conque/ ( fe> has gone on ye> aft] ye> *iefly ?r\gh physical means4 ,physical pa9 has always be5 "o ( ! great s\rces ( fe>4 ,n[ e!r & o!r anae/hetics h elim9at$ ! *ief pa9s ( major op]ations4 ,old] p c /ill rememb] _! fe> ( ! d5ti/1 :5 kill+ a n]ve or pull+ a too? caus$ excruciat+ pa94 ,n[ local anae/hetics ev5 9 m9or tr\bles h made d5ti/ry almo/ pa9less4 ,we h n conqu]$ ^! fe>s ( pa9--r _! cause has be5 remov$4 ,twilight sleep1 ! artificial sleep to alleviate ! pa9s ( *ildbir?1 is ! p]fect expression ( ! sci5tific & mat]iali/ic elim9ation ( fe>4 ,by a *emical black\t ( ! m9d1 a dimm+ ( ! consci\s self1 ! p]son is enabl$ to escape ! necessity ( fac+ & conqu]+ fe> ?r\gh 8 own res\rces4 ,i am n condemn+ ! physical alleviation ( pa9 or ! progress ( physical sci5ce4 ,i am only describ+ a tr5d1 & t is ! gr[+ emphasis on ! elim9ation ( fe>s by sci5ce r ?an on _! conque/ by ! individual4 ,illness has always be5 a great s\rce ( fe>1 & /ill is4 ,! dread ( canc] is "o ( ! t]rify+ fe>s ( our "t & =tunes are sp5t 9 canc] rese>* & education4 ,,! ,,conque/ ,,( ,,fe> 0 writt5 z a result ( ! au?or's ?reat5$ total bl9dness4 ,he fac$ a fact = :i* !re seem$ no physical rem$y--h5ce 8 great ne$ = a spiritual conque/ ( ?is great fe>4 ,& yet1 ye> by ye>1 physical sci5ce has be5 elim9at+ or r$uc+ ! dang]s ( sickness4 ,vacc9es = ! prev5tion ( ! dread disease1 small-pox1 are n[ a matt] ( c\rse4 ,vacc9es & specifics aga9/ ! deadly tetanus1 aga9/ typhoid fev]1 diph!ria1 syphilis1 & o!r fe>ful diseases h become commonplace4 ,! fe> ( pneumonia has be5 almo/ elim9at$ ?r\gh ! discov]ies ( ! miracul\s sulpha drugs4 ,sci5ce has done wond]s t[>d ! elim9ation ( su* fe>s4 ,a man ne$ h>dly conqu] ! fe> ( any p>ticul> sickness--!re is left = 8 conque/ *iefly ! fe> ( dy+4 ,9 addition to physical disease1 our civilization has n[ develop$ m5tal ailm5ts ( all k9ds4 ,^! include a l>ge category ( fe>s call$ phobias--clau/rophobia1 agoraphobia1 photophobia1 altaphobia1 phonophobia1 etc4 ,?ree fields or pr(essions1 o!r ?an religion & philosophy1 h s\ght to deal ) ^! fe>s1 ! psy*iatric1 ! psy*oanalytic1 & ! psy*ological4 ,! m$ical psy*iatric pr(ession has naturally emphasiz$ physical rem$ies beg9n+ ) s$atives & bromides to induce artificial relaxation & end+ up ) lobectomy or ! complete cutt+ (f ( ! frontal lobes ( ! bra91 ! c5t]s ( man's highe/ ?\ght processes4 ,betwe5 ^! two extremes are ! %ock treatm5ts 9 :i* an injection ( insul9 or metrazol into ! blood /ream causes ! p]son to fall into a sort ( epileptic fit dur+ :i* he loses consci\sness4 ,?r\gh a s]ies ( su* %ock treatm5ts "s ( ! high] n]ve c5t]s or n]ve pa?ways are de/roy$4 ,by ?is process a p]son's fe>s may also be elim9at$ & he may be p]man5tly or tempor>ily cur$4 ,9 %ort1 ! p]son does n conqu] ! fe>s 9 8 m9d2 ! psy*iatri/ or neurologi/1 by physically de/roy+ a "p ( ! p]son's bra91 de/roys also ! fe>s4 ,h[ /rongly ?is physical approa* has tak5 hold ( p 0 made pla9 to me ?r\gh an article ( m9e on h[ to conqu] fe>s4 ,! emphasis 9 ?is article 0 on h[ p c\ld ov]come _! fe>s & worries ?r\gh _! own ef=ts4 ,to illu/rate ! opposite extreme1 ,i m5tion$ ! bra9 op]ations & %ock treatm5ts by :i* psy*iatry n[ (t5 deals ) fe>s4 ,among ! _m p :o wrote to me z a result ( ?is article1 ! majority inquir$ :]e !y c\ld obta9 su* an op]ation6 ,to su* extremes h _m p gone 9 _! desire to elim9ate fe> by physical means r ?an conqu] x ?r\gh _! own spiritual p[]s4 ,! psy*oanaly/ deals ) a p]son's phobias ?r\gh :at seems l an intellectual or rational process4 ,accord+ to psy*oanalysis1 phobias or fe>s are due to "s buri$ or subconsci\s complex4 ,by daily or frequ5t talks ) a psy*oanaly/ = a p]iod ( six mon?s or a ye>1 a p]son's subconsci\s di/urbance may be br\ght to light1 & if s1 ! fe> is suppos$ automatically to disappe>4 ,ev5 if true1 ?is process is a highly mat]iali/ic "o1 at lea/ 9 ! s5se t only p :o c sp5d ?\s&s ( doll>s c af=d su* treatm5ts4 ,! psy*ologi/1 z well z "s psy*iatri/s :o h /udi$ normal psy*ology1 reg>d _m fe>s z normal exp]i5ces :i* ! individual c cope ) l>gely ?r\gh 8 own res\rces & ) v little help 9 ! way ( visits or treatm5t4 ,! tr\ble arises 9 ! case ( ^? p :o h no p]sonal res\rces to draw on4 ,_! lives are s lack+ 9 spiritual p[]1 or s full ( intellectual scepticism & di/ru/1 t !y _c help !mselves4 ,!y h no religi\s convictions or c]ta9ties by :i* to obta9 lev]age 9 _! /ruggles4 ,!y h no firm philosophy ( life on :i* !y or ^? :o w\ld help !m c lay hold4 ,!y are putty 9 ! h&s ( ! fe>s & =ces t beset !m f )\t4 ,! psy*ologi/ & ! psy*iatri/ bo? f9d x difficult to d mu* to help su* a p]son4 ,& yet1 ?is is ! k9d ( p]son our civilization & education t5ds increas+ly to produce4 ,by ! physical elim9ation ( ! causes ( fe> we h gradually und]m9$ man's inn] res\rces = ! conque/ ( fe>4 ,?is mat]iali/ic tr5d has receiv$ a new impetus f ! fields ( political sci5ce1 economics1 & sociology4 ,a doz5 ye>s ago economic disa/] ?reat5$ to /amp$e ! nation4 ,millions :o _h lo/ _! jobs began to fe> p5ury & want4 ,millions :o /ill _h jobs fe>$ t !y w\ld lose !m4 ,o!r millions began to fe> ! loss ( _! money & possessions4 ,ri* & poor1 becom+ afraid t ! c\ntry 0 go+ to pieces1 ru%$ to ! banks to )draw _! sav+s & br\ght on ! nation-wide bank clos+s4 ,^? 7 days :5 ev]yone knew p>alyz+ fe>s4 ,hi/ory w record ! fact t ^! fe>s 7 met1 n by conque/1 n by draw+ on ! moral res\rces & inn] =titude ( ! ,am]ican citiz51 b by a collection ( :olesale mat]iali/ic s*emes4 ,^! s*emes includ$ su* devices z inflat+ ! doll>1 rais+ prices1 exp&+ ! gov]nm5t debt1 pay+ f>m]s n to produce crops1 gov]nm5t h\s+ projects1 & _m o!rs4 ,! fe>s ( unemploym5t & pov]ty 9 old age 7 to be elim9at$ :olesale ?r\gh a plann$ economy1 a new social ord]4 ,by an elaborate sy/em ( book-keep+ call$ ,social ,security1 a :ole nation 0 to w9 fre$om f want & fre$om f fe>4 ,b :ile we 7 build+ our smug little h\se ( ,social ,security1 ! :ole _w 0 cra%+ ar\nd u4 ,in/ead ( a*iev+ local security we f9d ourselves n[ 9 ! mid/ ( _w-wide insecurity4 ,f> f hav+ elim9at$ ! economic causes ( fe>1 we n[ f9d ^! causes multipli$ _m times4 ,to ! fe> ( los+ our money is n[ add$ ! fe> ( los+ our sons4 ,to ! fe> ( los+ our jobs is add$ ! fe> ( los+ our lives4 ,to ! fe> ( depression & inflation is add$ ! fe> ( los+ ! v fre$oms = :i* ! w> is be+ f\ght4 ,at la/ we see1 or are on ! po9t ( see+1 t mat]ialism bre$s worse fe>s ?an x cures2 t economics & sociology create m social problems ?an !y solve2 t sci5ce makes x possible to de/roy weal? & lives mu* fa/] ?an x c build !m4 ,x took ye>s ( sci5ce to a*ieve ! airplane & to elim9ate p's fe> ( fly+4 ,n[1 sudd5ly1 ! airplane has become ! greate/ s\rce ( de/ruction & ( fe> on ! globe4 ,cities :i* 7 decades 9 ! build+ are bla/$ out ( be+ 9 a night4 ,millions ( p mu/ regulate _! lives 9 fe> ( ^! dread visitors4 ,?is is ! backgr\nd aga9/ :i* ! conque/ ( fe> pres5ts its philosophy ( c\rage & ( hope4 ,x is a philosophy diametrically oppos$ to ! dom9ant beliefs & practices ( our mat]iali/ic age4 ,"o hesitates to use ! words spiritual & moral because !y h become cat* words4 ,nev]!less1 ,k+'s philosophy is a spiritual & a moral "o1 & ! read] w ga9 f x a cle>] concept ( :at ^! words really mean4 ,:5 ,i rememb] my reactions to ! fir/ portion ( ?is book1 ,i c readily picture ! impati5ce & ev5 scorn ( _m intellectuals & pseudo-intellectuals4 ,because ( its emphasis on ! religi\s nature ( ! univ]se & on ! spiritual p[] ( ! individual1 x may seem to !m nave4 ,because ( its consi/5t condemnation ( ,mammon1 ( mat]ialism & ! economic-sociological int]pretation ( life1 x may seem to !m old-fa%ion$4 ,actually1 ! book is highly sophi/icat$ & is m novel to-day ?an ! day x 0 writt5 because s9ce t "t we h /ray$ tw5ty ye>s fur!r f ! tru?4 ,"o day ,i 0 hav+ lun*eon ) a man :o1 dur+ ! c\rse ( ! conv]sation1 rem>k$3 ,i want to tell y h[ mu* ,i enjoy$ y\r late/ book1-- ,z almo/ any writ] w\ld1 ,i prick$ up my e>s expectantly4 ,yes1 he w5t on1 ,i got a great deal out ( y\r rec5t book1 b ! book :i* help$ me m ?an any ,i h ev] read is a book call$ ,,! ,,conque/ ,,( ,,fe>1 by ,basil ,k+4 ,d y happ5 to "k x8 ,"k x6 ,i exclaim$4 ,i n only "k x1 ,i am j on ! po9t ( writ+ an introduction to a new edition ( ! book4 ,w\ld y m9d tell+ me h[ x help$ y8 ,he !reupon relat$ h[1 at a c]ta9 p]iod ( 8 life1 he _h left an excell5t position to take a new "o :i* seem$ m promis+4 ,x soon develop$ t ! difficulties ( ?is position 7 su* z to make 8 success seem almo/ hopeless4 ,he became obsess$ ) ! idea t ! p ) :om he _h to deal 7 out to get him4 ,8 fe>s ( ! job & ( 8 associates grew to ! po9t :]e a n]v\s breakd[n seem$ inevitable4 ,"o day 8 daught] told him t %e ne$$ a book 9 h] s*ool "w :i* he rememb]$ hav+ pack$ 9 a box t _h be5 /or$ 9 ! attic & n yet op5$4 ,:5 he op5$ ! box1 ! fir/ book :i* he pick$ up 0 ,,! ,,conque/ ,,( ,,fe>4 ,x 0 evid5tly "o ( ^? books :i* _h someh[ come into ! possession ( 8 family1 b :i* he _h nev] read4 ,?is "t1 h[ev]1 he sat d[n 9 ! attic & began to read x4 ,dur+ ! c\rse ( ! next ye> or s he read x c>efully n once b f\r or five times4 ,x m>k$ ! turn+ po9t 9 my life1 he told me4 ,x enabl$ me to conqu] ! fe>s :i* 7 ?reat5+ to ru9 me at ! "t1 & x gave me a philosophy :i* has /ood me 9 good /ead ev] s9ce4 ,a philosophy :i* m>k$ ! turn+ po9t 9 8 life & :i* has /ood him 9 good /ead ev] s9ce6 ,,! ,,conque/ ,,( ,,fe> (f]s su* a philosophy n only to individuals suff]+ f fe>s peculi> to !m1 b to a _w ( individuals suff]+1 or ab\t to suff]1 f ! collapse ( _w-wide mat]ialism4 ,9 ?is day ( *aos & unc]ta9ty1 "h is ! mod]n v]sion ( ! p>able ( ! man :o built 8 h\se ^u a rock in/ead ( on ! s&3 & ! ra9 desc5d$1 & ! floods came1 & ! w9ds blew1 & beat ^u t h\se2 & x fell n = x 0 f\nd$ ^u a rock4 ,h4 ,c4 ,l4 ,,*apt] ,i ,,fe> ,,& ,,! ,,life-,,pr9ciple ,i ,:5 ,i say t dur+ mo/ ( my consci\s life ,i h be5 a prey to fe>s ,i take x = grant$ t ,i am express+ ! case ( ! majority ( p4 ,i _c rememb] ! "t :5 a dread ( "o k9d or ano!r 0 n 9 ! air4 ,9 *ildhood x 0 ! fe> ( go+ to b$1 ( t my/]i\s "t :5 regul> life 0 /ill go+ on d[n/airs1 :ile ,i 0 buri$ alive "u %eets & blankets4 ,lat] x 0 ! fe> ( s*ool1 ! fir/ contact ( ! t5d] little s\l ) life's crud5ess4 ,lat] /ill !re 0 ! exp]i5ce :i* all ( u "k ( wak+ 9 ! morn+ ) a feel+ ( dismay at :at we h to d on gett+ up2 ! obvi\s duties 9 :i* p]haps we h gr[n /ale2 ! ?+s we h neglect$2 ^? 9 :i* we h made mi/akes2 ^? z to :i* we h wilfully done wrong2 ^? :i* we>y or bore or annoy or disc\rage u4 ,sometimes !re are m s]i\s ?+s /ill3 b]eavem5ts1 or frightfully adv]se conditions1 or h>d%ips we nev] expect$ br\ght on u by someone else4 ,x is unnecess>y to catalogue ^! situations1 s9ce we all at times 9 our lives h to face !m daily4 ,fe> dogs "o ( u 9 "o way & ano!r 9 ano!r1 b ev]yone 9 "s way4 ,look at ! p y run up aga9/ 9 ! c\rse ( a few h\rs4 ,ev]yone is liv+ or work+ 9 fe>4 ,! "m is afraid = h] *ildr54 ,! fa!r is afraid = 8 bus9ess4 ,! cl]k is afraid = 8 job4 ,! work] is afraid ( 8 boss or 8 competitor4 ,!re is h>dly a man :o is n afraid t "s o!r man w d him a bad turn4 ,!re is h>dly a woman :o is n afraid t ?+s %e craves may be d5i$ h]1 or t :at %e loves may be snat*$ away4 ,!re is n a home or an (fice or a factory or a s*ool or a *ur* 9 :i* "s hang-dog appreh5sion is n eat+ at ! he>ts ( ! m51 wom51 & *ildr5 :o g 9 & out4 ,i am ready to guess t all ! mis]ies wr\ght by s9 & sickness put toge!r w\ld n equal ^? we br+ on ourselves by ! means :i* p]haps we d lea/ to c\nt]act4 ,we are n sick all ! "t2 we are n s9n+ all ! "t2 b all ! "t all ( u--or practically all ( u--are afraid ( someone or some?+4 ,if1 !re=e1 "o has ! feeble/ contribution to make to ! defeat ( su* a foe x becomes difficult to )hold x4 ,,ii ,b ev5 ) a view to conqu]+ fe> ,i %\ld n presume to (f] to o!rs ideas work$ out purely = myself _h ,i n be5 s invit$4 ,i d n affirm t ,i h conqu]$ fe>1 b only t 9 self-def5ce ,i h be5 oblig$ to d some?+ 9 t direction4 ,i take x = grant$ t :at goes 9 t direction w g all ! way if pursu$ ) p]sev]ance & good w4 ,hav+ ?us made "s simple exp]im5ts--*iefly m5tal--) :at to me are effective results1 ,i c h>dly refuse to tell :at !y h be5 :5 o!rs are s good z to ask me4 ,& 9 mak+ ?is attempt ,i mu/ write f my own exp]i5ce4 ,no o!r me?od w\ld be wor? :ile4 ,! m]e exposition ( a !sis w\ld h little or no value4 ,x is a case 9 :i* no?+ c be helpful to o!rs :i* has n be5 demon/rat$ = oneself1 ev5 ?\gh ! demon/ration be b p>tial4 ,9 writ+ f my own exp]i5ce ,i mu/ ask ! read]'s p>don if ,i seem egoi/ic or autobiographical4 ,)\t tak+ oneself too smugly or too s]i\sly "o f9ds x ! only way ( reproduc+ ! ?+ t has happ5$ 9 "o's own life & :i* "o actually kn[s4 ,& :5 ,i speak above ( ideas work$ out purely = myself ,i d n1 ( c\rse1 mean t ^! ideas are orig9al ) me4 ,all ,i h done has be5 to put ideas ?r\gh ! mill ( my own m9d1 co-ord9at+ !m to suit my own ne$s4 ,! ideas !mselves come f _m s\rces4 ,"s ( ^! s\rces are1 s deep 9 ! pa/ t ,i c\ld no long] trace !m2 "s are s rec5t t ,i "k ! day & h\r :5 !y reveal$ !mselves1 l brooks 9 ! way4 ,x w\ld be possible to say to ! read]1 ,i owe ?is to su* & su* a tea*+1 & t to su* & su* a man1 only t ref]5ces ( ! k9d w\ld be t$i\s4 ,i fall back on :at ,em]son says3 ,?\ght is ! prop]ty ( him :o c ent]ta9 x2 & ( him :o c adequately place x4 ,a c]ta9 awkw>dness m>ks ! use ( borr[$ ?\ghts2 b1 z soon z we h le>n$ :at to d ) !m1 !y become our own4 ,?us all orig9ality is relative4 ,! ?\ghts t ,i %all express are my own to ! ext5t t ,i h liv$ !m--or tri$ to live !m--?\gh ! w9d t bl[e? :]e x li/e? may h br\ght !m to my m9d4 ,nor d ,i ?9k = a mom5t t :at ,i h f\nd helpful to me mu/ ( necessity be helpful to ev]yone4 ,x may be helpful to someone4 ,t is ! limit ( my hope4 ,x is simple fact t no "o c greatly help anyone else4 ,! utmo/ we c d is to ?r[ out an idea "h & !re :i* ano!r may seize1 & by :i* he may help himself4 ,borr[$ help has ! awkw>dness :i* ,em]son attributes to borr[$ ?\ghts4 ,x is only :5 a concept has la9 = a "t 9 a man's be+1 g]m9at$ !re1 & sprung into active life1 t x is ( mu* use to him2 b by t "t x has become 8 own4 ,! k+dom ( heav5 mu/ beg9 )9 oneself or we %all probably n f9d x any:]e4 ,^! pages w conta91 !n1 no recipe = ! conque/ ( fe>2 !y w (f]1 ) mu* misgiv+ & diffid5ce1 no m ?an ! record ( :at "o individual has done t[>d conqu]+ x4 ,?is record is pres5t$ m]ely = :at x is wor?4 ,x may be wor? no?+4 ,on ! o!r h&1 someone may f9d x wor? some?+1 & 9 t case all t ! writ] hopes = w be atta9$4 ,,iii ,z a matt] ( fact1 9 my own case ! reaction aga9/ fe> 0 f ! beg9n+ m or less in/9ctive4 ,) ! fir/ ex]cise ( ! reason+ faculty ,i tri$ to argue aga9/ ! emotion4 ,i rememb] t z a little boy ,i 0 afraid ( a c]ta9 dog t b>k$ at me :5 ,i w5t to a c]ta9 h\se to :i* ,i 0 s5t p]haps two or ?ree times a week4 ,! h\se _h a driveway1 & f ! m9ute ( pass+ ! entrance my knees trembl$ "u me4 ,b ev5 !n1 ,i recall1 x seem$ to me t ?is t]ror 0 an incongru\s ?+ 9 life1 t x _h no rightful place !re1 & t1 if ! _w 0 :at my eld]s told me x 01 !re mu/ be 9 x a law ( peace & h>mony :i* z yet ,i hadn't arriv$ at4 ,i _c say t :5 ! dog b>k$ ?is reason+ did m ?an n]ve me to drag my quak+ limbs up to ! door/ep1 :5ce my enemy1 a ,skye t]ri]1 inv>iably took flight4 ,dur+ a some:at /ormy *ildhood & boyhood1 9 :i* !re 0 a good deal ( emotional /ress1 ,i nev] got beyond ?is po9t4 ,specific tr\bles 7 n few1 & by ! "t ,i rea*$ e>ly manhood a habit ( look+ = !m _h be5 e/abli%$4 ,:at's x go+ to be n[8 became a =mula ( anticipation be=e e new ev5t4 ,new ev5ts pres5t$ !mselves mo/ frequ5tly z m5aces4 ,hopes r>ely loom$ up )\t accompany+ probabilities ( disappo9tm5t4 ,"o adopt$ ! plan ( expect+ disappo9tm5t z a means ( *eat+ ! j9x4 ,i am n pa9t+ my e>ly life z any d>k] ?an mo/ lives4 ,x 01 ,i fancy1 z bright z ! av]age life ( y\?4 ,,iv ,b1 contr>y to :at is g5]ally held1 ,i v5ture to ?9k t y\? is n a specially happy p]iod4 ,because "y p r>ely voice _! tr\bles we are likely to ?9k !m s]5e & unafraid4 ,t has n be5 my exp]i5ce ei!r ) !m or ( !m4 ,:ile x is true t c>es ( a c]ta9 type increase ) age ! k ( h[ to deal ) !m increases1 or ought to increase1 9 ! same progression4 ,) no practical exp]i5ce to support !m ! "y are up aga9/ ! unkn[n & problematical--occupation1 m>riage1 sexual urge1 life 9 g5]al--ar\nd :i* cl+s t t]ror ( ! d>k :i* fright5$ !m 9 *ildhood4 ,home tra9+1 s*ool tra9+1 college tra9+1 religi\s tra9+1 social influ5ces ( e k9d1 ?r[ ! emphasis on dang]s r ?an on securities1 s t ! "y life em]ges into a haunt$ _w4 ,"s are reckless ( ^! dang]s1 "s gr[ h>d5$ to !m1 "s enjoy ! tussle ) !m1 "s turn _! m9ds away f !m1 :ile o!rs1 *iefly ! imag9ative or ! intellectual1 %r9k f !m ) ! discom=t :i*1 z ye>s g on1 becomes worry1 anxiety1 =ebod+1 or any o!r ( ! _m =ms ( c>e4 ,v ,my own life foll[$ :at ,i assume to be ! usual c\rse1 ?\gh 9 say+ ?is ,i am anxi\s n to give an exagg]at$ impression4 ,x 0 ! usual c\rse1 n an unusual "o4 ,!re's always some?+ came to be a common m5tal phrase1 & ! some?+ 01 z a rule1 n *e]+4 ,nei!r1 z a rule1 0 x t]rible4 ,x 0 j some?+--a s5se ( ! c>k+ hang+ ov] life1 & n[ & !n turn+ to a real mis*ance or a he>ta*e4 ,x /rikes me z /range1 on look+ back1 t s little attempt 0 made to combat fe> by religion4 ,9 fact1 z f> z ,i "k1 little attempt 0 made to combat fe> 9 any way4 ,"o's att5tion 0 n call$ to x o!rwise ?an z a :olly inevitable /ate4 ,y 7 born subject to fe> z y 7 born subject to dea?1 & t 0 an end ( x4 ,br\ght up 9 an atmosph]e 9 :i* religion 0 our ma9 preoccupation1 ,i _c recall ev] he>+ x appeal$ to z a c\nt]ag5t to ?is mo/ p]si/5t enemy ( man4 ,9 deal+ ) y\r daily dreads y simply c\nt$ ,god out4 ,ei!r ,he _h no?+ to d ) !m or ,he br\ght !m ^u y4 ,9 any case ,8 int]v5tion on y\r behalf 0 n suppos$ to be 9 ?is _w1 & to look = rew>ds f ,him "h & n[ 0 consid]$ a =m ( impiety4 ,y 7 to be will+ to s]ve ,god = naught2 aft] :i* unexpect$ fav\rs might be accord$ y1 b y 7 to hope = no?+ z a "r4 ,i d n say t ?is is :at ,i 0 taught2 x 0 :at ,i und]/ood2 b to ! be/ ( my memory x 0 ! g5]al und]/&+ r\nd ab\t me4 ,9 my fight aga9/ fe>1 9 z f> z ,i made "o1 ,god 0 = _m ye>s ( no help to me1 or ( no help ( :i* ,i 0 aw>e4 ,i %all return to ! po9t lat] 9 tell+ h[ ,i came to discov] ,god = myself1 b n q ! same ,god1 or n q ! same concept ( ,god1 :i* my y\?ful m9d _h suppos$ to be ! only "o4 ,,vi ,at ! same "t x 0 to a small detail 9 my religi\s tra9+--or to be m exact 9 ! explanation ( ! ,bible giv5 me z a boy--t ,i h>k$ back :5 x became pla9 to me t ei!r ,i mu/ conqu] fe> or fe> mu/ conqu] me4 ,hav+ fall5 into my m9d l a se$1 x lay = well on to ?irty ye>s ) no sign ( g]m9ation1 till t ne$1 ( :i* ,i %all h m to say pres5tly1 call$ x into life4 ,let me /ate 9 a few words h[ ! ne$ made itself press+4 ,x 01 z life goes1 a tol]ably d>k h\r4 ,i 0 on ! bord]l& betwe5 "y manhood & e>ly middle age4 ,= "s ye>s ,i _h be5 los+ my sight1 on top ( :i* came "o ( ^? tr\bles ) ! ?yroid gl& :i* m$ical sci5ce /ill f9ds obscure4 ,= reasons :i* ,i ne$ n g into ,i 0 sp5d+ an autumn at ,v]sailles 9 ,france1 unoccupi$ & alone4 ,if y "k ,v]sailles y "k t x comb9es all t civilisation has to (f] ( beauty1 magnific5ce1 & m\rnfulness4 ,a day's visit f ,p>is w give y an inkl+ ( ?is1 b only an inkl+4 ,to get x all y mu/ live !re1 to be int]p5etrat$ by its glory ( decay4 ,x is always ! autumn ( ! _s at ,v]sailles1 ev5 9 summ]1 ev5 9 spr+2 b 9 ! autumn ( ! ye> ! autumnal emotion ( ! s\l is poignant beyond expression4 ,sad g>d5s /ret* into sad p>ks2 sad p>ks into /ori$ & haunt+ =e/s4 ,long av5ues lead to =gott5 *teaux mell[+ into ru94 ,gho/ly :ite /atues a/oni% y f> 9 ! dep?s ( woods :]e ! wild ?+s are n[ ! mo/ frequ5t visitors4 ,a ,temple ( ,love--pill>$1 ,cor9?ian1 lovely--lo/ 9 a glade to :i* lov]s h probably n come 9 a hundr$ ye>s--w rem9d y t !re 7 once happy p :]e n[ ! fri5dlie/ s\nd is t ( ! wood-*opp]'s axe or ! horn ( "s f>-away hunt4 ,all ! old tales ( passion1 ambition1 feud1 hatr$1 viol5ce1 lu/1 & intrigue are s(t5$ "h to an a*+ s5se ( pity4 ,at night y w he> ! ca/le clock1 :i* is said nev] once to h fail$ to /rike ! h\r s9ce ,l\is ! ,f\rte5? put x 9 its place1 toll+ away y\r life z x has toll$ away epo*s4 ,amid ^! surr\nd+s a man ill1 lonely1 ?reat5$ ) bl9dness1 c easily feel :at ,i may call ! spiritual *all5ge ( ! ages4 ,he mu/ ei!r be /rong & rule2 or he mu/ be weak & g d[n4 ,he mu/ get ! dom9ion ov] circum/ance1 or circum/ance mu/ get ! dom9ion ov] him4 ,to be m]ely knock$ ab\t by fate & submit to x1 ev5 9 ! case ( seem+ly inevitable physical infirmity1 began to /rike me z unwor?y ( a man4 ,x is "o ?+1 h[ev]1 to feel ! impulse to get up & d some?+1 & ano!r to see :at y c get up & d4 ,= a "t ! spectre ( fe> _h me 9 its p[]4 ,! physical facts c\ldn't be d5i$1 & beyond ! physical facts ,i c\ld disc]n no?+4 ,x 0 conceivable t "o might react aga9/ a m5tal condition2 b to react aga9/ a my/]i\s malady c\pl$ ) possibly approa*+ bl9dness 0 h>dly to be ?\ght (4 ,:5 "o add$ "o's incapacity to "w & e>n a liv+1 ) all t t implies1 x seem$ z if x w\ld take ! fai? t moves m\nta9s to ?r[ (f ! weight oppress+ me4 ,x is true t to move m\nta9s y only ne$ fai? z a gra9 ( mu/>d se$1 b z f> z "o c judge n _m ( u h t mu*4 ,x 0 !n t my m9d w5t back all ( a sudd5 to ! k]nel plant$ s _m ye>s be=e1 9 my isl& home1 9 ! ,gulf ( ,/4 ,lawr5ce4 ,if ,i become prolix ov] ?is x is only t ,i want to %[ h[ (t5 x happ5s to p>5ts1 tea*]s1 & o!rs :o deal ) *ildr51 to ?r[ out a ?\ght :i* aft] ly+ dormant = ye>s w become a factor 9 ! life4 ,_h x n be5 = ! few words spok5 !n ,i %\ld n1 z f> z ,i c see1 n[ h su* ma/]y ov] self z ,i h s9ce atta9$--n v mu*--b ,i %\ld n be writ+ ^! l9es4 ,,vii ,my boyhood 0 plac$ 9 ! times :5 ,d>w9's ,orig9 ( ,species & ,desc5t ( ,man _h ?r[n ! sci5tific & religi\s worlds into convulsion4 ,! /ruggle betwe5 ! old ideas & ! new calls = no m ?an a ref]5ce "h2 b ! tea*] to :om ,i owe mo/ 0 "o :o1 :ile valu+ ! old1 saw only an enri*m5t 9 ! new1 expla9+ ! ,bible 9 t _s4 ,s x happ5$ t he spoke "o day ( ! extraord9>y +5uity ( ! life-pr9ciple1 :i* someh[ came to ! e>?1 9 adapt+ itself to p]petually new conditions4 ,no?+ defeat$ x4 ,= millions ( ye>s x 0 ?reat5$ by climatic *anges1 by ! lack ( food1 by ! f]ocity ( fell[-creatures4 ,heat1 cold1 flood1 dr\ght1 e>?quake1 & volcanic eruption 7 =ev] aga9/ x4 ,/ruggl+ f /age to /age upw>d f ! slime a new dang] 0 always to x a new inc5tive to f9d+ a new res\rce4 ,pursu$ ?r\gh ! wat] x s\ght ! l&4 ,pursu$ on ! l& x s\ght ! air4 ,pursu$ 9 ! air x develop$ fleetness ( w+1 & 9 fleetness ( w+ a capacity = so>+1 circl+1 balanc+1 dipp+1 & sw++ on itself ( :i* ! grace mu/ n bl9d u to ! m>vell\s p[] ( inv5tion4 ,9 o!r words1 ! impulses lead+ to ! orig9 ( species proclaim a res\rcefulness on ! "p ( :at we call life :i* we h e reason to ?9k inexhau/ible4 ,:atev] ! ,f\nt ( ,be+ f :i* ! life-pr9ciple fir/ came into ! wat]s ( our e>? !re is no "q b t ) x came a conque/-pr9ciple z well4 ,_h x be5 possible to ext]m9ate ! life-pr9ciple x w\ld nev] h gone fur!r ?an ! age :i* saw ! ext9ction ( ! great reptiles4 ,! great reptiles w5t1 b ! life-pr9ciple /ay$ on1 ) ! ability to assume1 )9 our limit$ obs]vation1 all ! =ms betwe5 ! bacillus & ! elephant1 :ile z to :at lies beyond our obs]vation ! possibilities are inf9ite4 ,long be=e x works up to man we see ?is amaz+ =ce /emm+ an unc\ntable numb] ( attacks1 & meet+ ru9\s conditions ) d>+ contrivances4 ,= "o k9d ( dang] x develops a %ell1 = ano!r a /+1 = ano!r a poison1 = ano!r a protective col\ration4 ,to brea! 9 ! sea x puts =? gills1 & makes lungs = itself :5 /r&$ on ! l&4 ,9 glacial cold x f9ds ! means ( gr[+ fur2 :5 heat & cold assail x by turns x packs itself ) fea!rs2 :5 climates become temp]ate x produces hair4 ,= ! creature :i* keeps to ! wat] x webs ! foot2 = t :i* takes to ! trees x makes ! toes preh5sile2 = ! "o :i* le>ns to /& erect & run along ! gr\nd x flatt5s ! sole1 mak+ x /eady & support+4 ,to resi/1 to survive1 to w9 ?r\gh1 is ! end to :i* ! life-pr9ciple sets itself ) su* s+l5ess ( aim z to unfold a weal? ( pot5tiality a/\nd+ to u 9 look+ backw>d4 ,,viii ,?is 0 ! idea :i* came back to me t autumn at ,v]sailles1 & f :i* 9 ! c\rse ( "t ,i drew my conclusions4 ,briefly1 ^? conclusions 7 to ! effect t z individuals we ne$ difficulties to ov]come1 & t fe> is a /imulus to ov]com+ !m4 ,o!rwise express$1 fe> loses mu* ( its fe>fulness :5 we see x z ! summons to putt+ =? new en]gies4 ,unless we 7 consci\s ( ! en]gies su* a call w\ld n rea* u4 ,! creatures prec$+ man c\ld h felt no misgiv+1 s9ce !y lack$ ! imag9ation ess5tial to a dread4 ,su* fe> z !y 7 equal to mu/ h seiz$ !m 9 p>oxysms ( t]ror :5 calamities ?reat5$ to ov]:elm !m4 ,if !y made good _! escape no trace ( ! fe> rema9$ beh9d1 ! bra9 hav+ little or no p[] ( ret5tion4 ,we may take x = grant$ t ! pt]odactyl & ! tra*odon _h none ( ! =ebod+ bas$ on exp]i5ce :i* de/roys ! peace ( man4 ,fe>1 z we und]/& x1 0 9 itself a signal ( advance4 ,x c\ld only h begun ) ! ex]cise ( reason4 ,arriv$ at ! rudim5ts ( memory ! creature mu/ h be5 able to p]ceive1 h[ev] dimly1 t ! ?+ :i* _h happ5$ might happ5 aga94 ,add+ ! fir/ /irr+s ( imag9ation he mu/ h con/ruct$ possible ev5ts 9 :i* ! dang] w\ld come f ! same causes z be=e4 ,) ! faculties to rememb]1 to reason1 & to imag9e all at "w we rea* ! fir/ /ages ( man4 ,man 0 born into fe> 9 t he 0 born into a _w ( :i* mo/ ( ! en]gies 7 set aga9/ him4 ,he 0 a lone ?+ fight+ 8 own battle4 ,! in/9ct = association :i* made ! mammals diff]5t f o!r animals didn't help him mu*1 s9ce association did n br+ mutual help z a matt] ( c\rse1 & nev] has done s4 ,a man c\ld c\nt on no "o b himself4 ,n only 7 prodigi\s natural =ces always m5ac+ him ) de/ruction2 n only 0 ! bea/ 8 enemy & he ! enemy ( ! bea/2 b 8 h& 0 aga9/ 8 fell[-man & 8 fell[-man's h& aga9/ him4 ,?is mutual ho/ility foll[$ m5 9 _! fir/ gr\p+s into communities1 & only to a degree h we liv$ x d[n 9 ! tw5tie? c5tury4 ,p]haps ?is conviction t a man's /r5g? lay 9 /&+ s+le-h&$ aga9/ circum/ance 0 ! fir/ small discov]y ,i made 9 my own fight ) fe>4 ,look+ back on ! developm5ts :i* _h br\ght man into ! _w ,i saw a m>vell\s p[] ( gett+ r\nd difficulties :5 y c\ldn't cut ?r\gh !m4 ,j z a riv] :i* _c fl[ ov] a rock c glide ab\t its feet & turn x into a picturesque promontory1 s ,i recognis$ 9 myself an inborn human faculty = side/epp+ t :i* block$ my way1 :5 ,i c\ldn't break x d[n4 ,i left ,v]sailles ) j t mu* to ! good--a p]ception t ! ages _h bequea!d me a /ore ( abilities :i* ,i 0 all[+ to lie lat5t4 ,mov+ into ,p>is1 to m *e]ful surr\nd+s1 ,i took up aga9 ! writ+ ( ! book ,i _h ab&on$ m ?an a ye> previ\sly4 ,aft] long seclusion ,i began to see a few p1 f9d+ !m responsive & welcom+4 ,my object 9 /at+ ^! unimportant details is m]ely to %[ t 9 proportion z ,i ceas$ to %[ fe> ! life-pr9ciple ha/5$ to my aid4 ,little by little ,i came to ! belief t ! _w ab\t me 0 a sy/em ( co-op]ative fri5dl9ess1 & t x 0 my "p to use x 9 t way4 ,,ix ,to use x 9 t way 0 n easy4 ,i 0 s accu/om$ to ! ?\ght ( ,nature z a complex ( self-seek+ cruelties1 ! /rong prey+ on ! weak1 & ! weak def5celess1 t ! m]e idea ( its conta9+ a rul+ co-op]ative pr9ciple seem$ at times f>-fet*$4 ,to ! common op9ion ( ! day1 my own includ$1 ! conception ( a univ]se t w\ld come to a man's aid ! m9ute a man came to 8 own 0 too mu* l a fairy tale4 ,x may inde$ be a fairy tale4 ,all ,i "k is t 9 my own case x is ! way 9 :i* x seems to h work$4 ,i ?9k ,i h caught a glimpse ( a con/ructive use = t :i* ,i _h previ\sly ?\ght ( z only de/ructive & t]rible4 ,?is is :at ,i mean4 ,! life-pr9ciple hav+1 ?r\gh unkn[n millions ( ye>s1 develop$ ! conque/-pr9ciple by meet+ difficulties & ov]com+ !m1 ! difficulties _h a value4 ,to man1 especially1 ! m5ace ( ,nature1 ! f]ocity ( ! bea/1 & ! enmity ( 8 fell[-man furni%$ ! inc5tive to 8 upw>d climb4 ,_h all be5 easy he w\ld h /ay$ :]e he 04 ,he w\ld nev] h call$ m5tal p[]s to 8 physical aid1 nor appeal$ to spiritual faculties :5 ! m5tal fell %ort ( 8 requirem5ts4 ,spurr$ on by a necessity :i* grew m urg5t 9 proportion z ! life-pr9ciple wid5$ its scope1 ! conque/-pr9ciple became an impulse :i* w\ld brook no d5y+4 ,man grew by x2 b ! fact rema9s t he w\ld n h gr[n _h !re be5 no?+ = him to /ruggle )4 ,to me x seems basic to ! gett+ rid ( fe> to "k t our trials1 ( :atev] nature1 are n motiveless4 ,9 our pres5t /age ( developm5t we c\ld h>dly d )\t !m4 ,s (t5 look+ l m]e ugly excresc5ces on life !y are 9 reality ! bran*es by :i* we cat* on & climb4 ,!y are n ob/acles to happ9ess = ! reason t ! only satisfy+ happ9ess we are equal to z yet is t ( wre/l+ ) ! difficult & ov]com+ x4 ,e call ( duty has its place 9 ?is ideal2 e irksome job1 e we>isome responsibility4 ,! fact t we are n always aw>e ( x 9 no way annuls ! o!r fact t x is s4 ,bor$om1 monotony1 drudg]y1 b]eavem5t1 lonel9ess1 all ! clam\r ( unsatisfi$ ambitions & a*+ s5sibilities1 h _! %>e 9 ?is div9e ye>n+ ( ! _s to grasp :at z yet is beyond its rea*4 ,all ( t hack+ ( ! man to fit ! job r ?an ! %ap+ ( ! job to fit ! man1 :i* is1 ,i imag9e1 ! s\rce ( mo/ ( ! discont5t on e>?1 has its place "h1 z well z ! hundr$s ( ?+s we %\ldn't d if we 7 n compell$ to4 ,:atev] summons u to conflict summons u to life1 & life1 z we le>n f a glance at ! pa/1 nev] %irks ! *all5ge4 ,x nev] %irks ! *all5ge1 &1 :at is m1 x nev] fails to f9d ! exp$i5t by :i* ! new dem& is to be satisfi$4 ,to ! conque/ ( fe> t plank mu/ be f\ndational4 ,z f> z we c le>n !re nev] 0 an em]g5cy yet :i* ! life-pr9ciple 0 n equipp$ to meet4 ,:5 all exi/+ me?ods _h be5 us$ up x inv5t$ new ones2 :5 seem+ly at ! end ( its new res\rces x 0 only beg9n+ to g on aga94 ,x ,! d$uction ,i make is ?is1 t a law :i* 0 op]ative on su* a scale be=e man _h come into ! _w at all mu/ be /ill m effective n[ t we c help to c>ry x out4 ,! life-pr9ciple is n less +5i\s ?an x ev] 01 :ile ! conque/-pr9ciple mu/ h widely exp&$4 ,x is an axiom 9 all progress t ! m we conqu] ! m easily we conqu]4 ,we =m a habit ( conqu]+ z insi/5t z any o!r habit4 ,victory becomes1 to "s degree1 a /ate ( m9d4 ,kn[+ ourselves sup]ior to ! anxieties1 tr\bles1 & worries :i* obsess u1 we are sup]ior4 ,x is a "q ( attitude 9 confront+ !m4 ,x is m m5tal ?an x is mat]ial4 ,to be 9 h>mony ) ! life-pr9ciple & ! conque/-pr9ciple is to be 9 h>mony ) p[]2 & to be 9 h>mony ) p[] is to be /rong z a matt] ( c\rse4 ,! individual is ?us at lib]ty to say3 ,! =ce :i* nev] fail$ be=e is n likely to fail 9 my case4 ,! f]tility ( res\rce :i* circumv5t$ e k9d ( ob/acle to make me :at ,i am--a v]tebrate1 brea?+1 walk+1 ?9k+ entity1 capable ( "s creative expression ( my own--w probably n fall %ort n[ t ,i h imm$iate use = x4 ,( :at ,i get f ! pa/1 prehi/oric & hi/oric1 p]haps ! mo/ subtle di/illation is ! fact t s f> is ! life-pr9ciple f balk+ at ne$1 ne$ is ess5tial to its activity4 ,:]e !re is no ne$ x seems to be quiesc5t2 :]e !re is some?+ to be met1 cont5d$ )1 & ov]come1 x is furi\sly 'on ! job4' ,t life-pr9ciple is my pr9ciple4 ,x is ! se$ f :i* ,i spr+4 ,x is my blood1 my brea?1 my bra94 ,i _c cut myself (f f x2 x _c cut itself (f f me4 ,hav+ =m$ ! ma/odon to meet "o set ( ne$s & ! butt]fly to meet ano!r1 x w =m1 some?+ to meet m9e1 ev5 if some?+ altoge!r new4 ,! new--or :at seems new to me--is app>5tly ! m$ium 9 :i* x is mo/ at home4 ,x repeats itself nev]--n 9 two rosebuds1 n 9 two sn[flakes4 ,:o am ,i t ,i %\ld be ov]look$ by x1 or miss be+ made ! expression ( its inf9ite en]gies8 ,,xi ,:at ?is reason+ did = me f ! />t 0 to give me a new attitude t[>d ! multifold activity we call life4 ,i saw x z conta9+ a pr9ciple t w\ld "w ) me if ,i c\ld "w ) x4 ,my work+ ) x 0 ! ma9 po9t1 s9ce x 0 work+ ) me always4 ,exactly :at t pr9ciple 0 ,i c\ld n at ! "t h said2 ,i m]ely recognis$ x z be+ !re4 ,! me?od ( work+ ) x 0 simple 9 idea1 h[ev] difficult 9 practice4 ,x 0 a "q ( my own ori5tation4 ,i _h to get m5tally into h>mony ) ! p & conditions ,i f\nd ab\t me4 ,i 0 n to di/ru/ !m2 /ill less 0 ,i to run away f !m4 ,i 0 to make a p>able ( my *ildi% exp]i5ce ) ! ,skye t]ri]1 assum+ t life 0 organis$ to d me good4 ,i rememb]$ h[ _m times ! ,bible beg9s "s bit ( plead+ or injunction ) ! words1 ,fe> n4 ,o!r simil> appeals came back to me4 ,say to !m t are ( a fe>ful he>t1 ,be /rong ,i fe> n4#a ,quit y\rselves l m52 be /rong4#b ,o man greatly belov$1 fe> n6 ,peace be unto !e6 ,be /rong1 yea1 be ,/rong4#c ,:51 at "s occasional te/1 dismay or self-pity took hold ( me ,i =m$ a habit ( say+ to myself1 9 our expressive ,am]ican idiom3 ,?is is y\r special /unt4 ,x's up to y to d ?is ?+ j z if y _h all ! facilities4 ,g at x boldly1 & y'll f9d unexpect$ =ces clos+ r\nd y & ,com+ to y\r aid4 #a ,! ,book ( ,isaiah4 #b ,fir/ ,book ( ,samuel4 #c ,book ( ,daniel4 ,:i* is j :at ,i did f9d4 ,to an amaz+ degree p 7 fri5dly1 :ile conditions became easi]4 ,fe> dim9i%$ because ,i _h few] ?+s to be afraid (4 ,hav+ few] ?+s to be afraid ( my m9d 0 cle>] = "w4 ,"w becom+ n only m ( a res\rce b m remun]ative z well1 all life grew bright]4 ,fe> 0 n ov]come2 ,i _h only made a m or less hesitat+ /& aga9/ x2 b ev5 f do+ t ,i got positive results4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,! ,,life-,,pr9ciple ,,& ,,god ,i ,x is obvi\s t "o c\ld n dwell mu* on ! p[] ( ! life-pr9ciple )\t com+ soon] or lat] to ! ?\ght ( ,god4 ,z already h9t$1 ,i did n come to x at once because my conception ( ,god made ,him ( s little use to me4 ,& yet1 9 popul> phraseology1 ,i _h s]v$ ,god all my life4 ,t is1 br\ght up 9 an atmosph]e 9 :i* ! ,*ur* 0 a div9ely in/itut$ sy/em = utilis+ ,god1 ,i s]v$ ! sy/em1 )\t gett+ mu* beyond ! surface plane ( :at 7 te*nically kn[n z s]vices4 ,:5 trial came su* s]vices (f]$ me an anodyne1 b n a cure4 ,,ii ,! fir/ sugge/ion1 t my concept ( ,god might n be suffici5t to my ne$s came out ( a conv]sation 9 ,new ,york4 ,x 0 ) a lady :om ,i met b t once1 )9 a ye> or two aft] my exp]i5ce at ,v]sailles4 ,i h =gott5 h[ we *anc$ on ! subject1 b ,i rememb] t %e ask$ me ^! que/ions3 ,:5 y ?9k ( ,god h[ d y ?9k ( ,him8 ,h[ d y picture ,him8 ,:at does ,he seem l8 ,try+ to reply ,i recognis$ a c]ta9 naivete1 a c]ta9 *ildi%ness1 9 my words ev5 z ,i utt]$ !m4 ,9 my ?\ghts ,i saw ,god z ?ree sup]nal m51 seat$ on ?ree sup]nal ?rones1 en%r9$ 9 "s vague cele/ial portion ( space :i* ,i d5om9at$ ,heav54 ,betwe5 ,him & me !re 0 an incalculable di/ance :i* ,he c\ld bridge b ,i c\ld n4 ,always ,he _h me at ! disadvantage t ,he saw :at ,i did1 he>d :at ,i said1 read :at ,i ?\ght1 puni%+ me = ev]y?+ amiss1 :ile ,i c\ld rea* ,him only by ! unc]ta9 telephony ( :at ,i und]/ood z pray]4 ,ev5 !n my telephone work$ imp]fectly4 ,ei!r ! help ,i implor$ wasn't good = me1 or my voice c\ldn't so> to ,8 ?rone4 ,! lady smil$1 b said no?+4 ,! smile 0 significant4 ,x made me feel t a ,god :o 0 no m ?an :at ,i _h describ$ c\ld h>dly be ! ,univ]sal ,fa!r1 & set me to ?9k+ on my own acc\nt4 ,,iii ,i wi% x 7 possible to speak ( ,god )\t ! implication ( deal+ ) religion4 ,by ?is ,i mean t ,i am anxi\s to keep religion out ( ?is :ole subject ( ! conque/ ( fe>4 ,! m9ute y t\* on religion1 z commonly und]/ood1 y rea* ! sect>ian4 ,! m9ute y rea* ! sect>ian y />t enmities4 ,! m9ute y />t enmities y get m5tal discords4 ,& ! m9ute y get m5tal discords no /& aga9/ fe> is possible4 ,b ,i mean a little m ?an ?is4 ,man1 z at pres5t develop$1 has %[n t he h>dly kn[s :at to d ) religion1 or :]e to put x 9 8 life4 ,?is is especially true ( ! ,caucasian1 ! lea/ spiritually intellig5t ( all ! great types ( our race4 ,fundam5tally ! :ite man is ho/ile to religion4 ,he attacks x z a bull a r$ cloak1 gor+ x1 /amp+ on x1 te>+ x to %r$s4 ,) ! ,caucasian z he is ?is fury is in/9ctive4 ,recognis+ religion z ! foe ( ! mat]iali/ic ideal he has made 8 own he does 8 be/ to r5d] x ineffective4 ,( ?is we ne$ no bett] illu/ration ?an ! /ate ( :at we conv5tionally "k z ,*ri/5dom4 ,*ri/5dom z we see x is a purely ,caucasian phase ( man's /ruggle upw>d1 ) ,caucasian m]its & ,caucasian defects4 ,n[h]e is its defectiv5ess m visible ?an 9 :at ! ,caucasian has made ( ! tea*+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x 0 probably a mis=tune = ! _w t almo/ f ! beg9n+ t tea*+ pass$ into ,caucasian gu>dian%ip4 ,i see 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t no indication on ! "p ( ,our ,"l & ! ,apo/les ( wi%+ to sep>ate !mselves f ,semitic co-op]ation4 ,! =m] taught daily 9 ! ,temple2 ! latt]1 z !y w5t ab\t ! _w1 made ! synagogue ! base ( all _! missions4 ,! responsibility = ! brea* is n "u discussion "h4 ,x is en\gh to note t x took place1 & t ,caucasian mat]ialism 0 ?us depriv$ ( a c\nt]ag5t 9 ,hebrew spiritual wisdom4 ,_h ?is corrective ma9ta9$ its place x is possible t religion might n[ be a p]vasive elem5t 9 ! ,caucasian's life in/ead ( be+ pigeon-hol$4 ,,iv ,! ,caucasian pigeon-holes ,god4 ,o!rwise express$1 he keeps ,god 9 a specially labell$ comp>tm5t ( life1 to be br\ght out = occasional use1 & put back :5 ! ne$ is ov]4 ,x is difficult to m5tion ,god to a ,caucasian read] )\t induc+ an artificial frame ( m9d4 ,z !re are p :o put on = /rang]s & gue/s an affect$1 unnatural polit5ess diff]5t f _! usual breezy spontaneity1 s ! ,caucasian assumes at ! ?\ght ( ,god a m5tal habit :i* c only be describ$ z sanctimoni\s4 ,god is n natural to ! ,caucasian2 ! ,caucasian is n natural ) ,god4 ,! m]e concept takes him into regions 9 :i* he feels uneasy4 ,he may call 8 uneas9ess res]ve or rev]5ce1 or by "s o!r dignifi$ "n2 b at bottom x is nei!r m nor less ?an uneas9ess4 ,to m9imise ?is di/ress he relegates ,god to special days1 to special h\rs1 to s]vices & c]emonials4 ,he c ?us we> & be> 8 uncom=table cloak ( gravity = special times1 aft] :i* he c be himself aga94 ,to appeal to ,god o!rwise ?an accord+ to ! tacitly accept$ protocol is to ! av]age ,caucasian ei!r annoy+ or 9 bad =m4 ,i %\ld l1 !n1 to dissociate ! ?\ght ( ,god f ! artificial1 sanctimoni\s1 pret]naturally solemn connotations :i* ! ,"n is c]ta9 to br+ up4 ,i want to speak ( ,him ) ! same k9d ( ease z ( ! life-pr9ciple4 ,i repeat1 t ,i nev] f\nd ,him ( mu* use 9 allay+ fe> till ,i releas$ ,him f ! ,caucasian pigeon-hole to see ,him1 z x 71 9 ! op54 ,once 9 ! op5 ,i got rid1 to "s degree1 ( ! ,caucasian limitations ( ?9k+ along ! l9es ( sect1 j z 9 ! inf9itude ( ! air y c =get = a m9ute h\ses ) rooms & walls4 ,! discov]y--t is1 discov]y = myself--t ,god is ,univ]sal1 :i* is n s obvi\s z x s\nds1 01 ,i ?9k1 ! fir/ great /ep ,i made 9 f9d+ t )9 t ,univ]sal fe> %\ld be impossible4 ,v ,ab\t ! same "t ,i *anc$ on a passage writt5 by ,joseph ,j\b]t1 an eighte5?-c5tury ,fr5* ,ca?olic1 n s well kn[n to ! mod]n read] z he ought to be1 :i* impress$ me deeply4 ,l'me ne peut se m\voir1 s'veill]1 ouvrir les yeux1 sans santir ,dieu4 ,on s5t ,dieu avec l'me comme on s5t l'air avec le corps4 ,os]aije le dire8 ,on connat ,dieu facilem5t p\rvu qu'on ne se contraigne pas le def9ir--,! s\l _c move1 wake1 or op5 ! eyes )\t p]ceiv+ ,god4 ,we p]ceive ,god ?r\gh ! s\l z we feel air on ! body4 ,d>e ,i say x8 ,we c "k ,god easily s long z we d n feel x necess>y to def9e ,him4 ,i began to see t1 l mo/ ,caucasian ,*ri/ians1 ,i _h be5 lay+ too mu* /ress on ! def9ition4 ,! ,tr9ity _h1 s to speak1 come betwe5 me & ! ,godhead4 ,i _h1 unconsci\sly1 atta*$ m importance to ,god's be+ ,?ree ?an to ,8 be+ ,god4 ,see+ ,him z ,?ree ,i in/9ctively saw ,him z ,?ree ,p]sons4 ,see+ ,him z ,?ree ,p]sons ,i did n reflect t ! ^w ,p]son z appli$ to ,god mu/ be us$ 9 a s5se :olly diff]5t f t 9 :i* we employ x ) reg>d to m54 ,to get into :at ,i call ! op5 ,i _h to br+ myself to und]/& t we _c enclose ! ,inf9ite 9 a %ape1 or ?ree %apes1 resembl+ 9 any way ! be+ ) dige/ive organs1 arms1 & legs1 :i* work$ its way up f slime4 ,t is1 9 ord] to dwell 9 ! secret place ( ! ,mo/ ,high1#d :]e "o is immune f fe>1 ,i 0 oblig$ to give up ! habit ( embody+ ,god 9 any =m4 ,i _h to confess t :at is meant by ! ,?ree ,p]sons 9 ,"o ,god ,i did n "k4 ,fur!rmore1 ,i saw no necessity = ?9k+ t ,i knew1 s9ce su* k mu/ transc5d all scope ( ! human m9d4 ,! =mula1 if y mu/ h a =mula1 is "o ?+2 b ! turn+ x into a /atute ( limitations & apply+ x to ! ,illimitable is ano!r4 #d ,! ,book ( ,psalms4 ,to make my position cle>]1 & to avoid ! subject ( religion1 let me add t1 inf]r+ f ! ,bible t !re is a ,fa!r1 a ,son1 & a ,holy ,gho/1 ,i did n feel x imp]ative on my "p to g beyond ?is use ( t]ms4 ,m]ely to ab/a9 f def9ition 0 l a load tak5 (f my m9d4 ,h[ ! ,son 0 begott5 ( ! ,fa!r1 or ! ,holy ,gho/ proce$$ f !m bo?1 or :at et]nal my/]ies 7 symbolis$ 9 ?is purely human phraseology1 71 x seem$ to me1 matt]s ) :i* ,i ne$ n conc]n myself1 see+ t !y pass$ all my compreh5sion4 ,n ! ,tr9ity %\ld come fir/ to p[]s s limit$ z m9e--b ,god4 ,x dawn$ on me1 too1 t ,god ne$ n necess>ily be to me :at ,he is to o!rs1 nor to o!rs :at ,he is to me4 ,( ! ,inf9ite ! f9ite m9d c only cat* a f9ite glimpse4 ,i see :at ,i c see2 ano!r sees :at he c see4 ,! visions may be diff]5t1 & yet ea* vision may be true4 ,j z two pa9t]s pa9t+ ! same l&scape w give dissimil> views ( x1 s two m9ds contemplat+ ,god w take ( ,him only :at ea* is fitt$ to receive4 ,wat] p\r$ into diff]5tly col\r$ glasses w take on ! col\r ( ! cup :i* x fills1 ev5 ?\gh x be ! self-same wat] 9 !m all4 ,if ,i f9d ,god = myself ,i %all probably n behold 9 ,him exactly :at anyone else 9 ! :ole _w or 9 all "t has ev] beheld 9 ,him be=e4 ,i saw1 too1 t f a c]ta9 po9t ( view ! /& ( ! agno/ic is a "r "o4 ,we _c "k ,god 9 ! s5se ( kn[+ ,8 be+ or ,8 ,p]sonality1 any m ?an we c "k ! ess5ce ( ! life-pr9ciple4 ,j z we "k ! life-pr9ciple only f :at x does1 s we "k ,god only f su* manife/ations ( ,himself z rea* our obs]vation4 ,ev]y?+ else is inf]5ce4 ,because we see some?+ ( ,8 goodness we inf] t ,he is good2 because we exp]i5ce some?+ ( ,8 love we inf] t ,he is lov+2 because we behold some?+ ( ,8 p[] we inf] t ,he is almighty4 ,x is fir/ ( all a matt] ( draw+ our conclusions1 & !n ( mak+ ^? conclusions ! food ( ! inn] spiritual man ^: life is indep5d5t ( ! mortal he>t & bra94 ,b a s5se 9 :i* ,god is unkn[able to u has to be admitt$4 ,i make ?is /atem5t n[ 9 ord] n to be misund]/ood :5 lat] ,i may say t ,god mu/ be ?is or t4 ,?\gh ,i %all d s = ! sake ( brevity x w always be 9 ! s5se t1 if ,god is :at we h inf]r$ f ,8 manife/ations1 ,he mu/ be ?is or t4 ,9 o!r words1 hav+ to "s degree work$ my own way out ( fe> ,i mu/ tell h[ ,i came to feel t ,i "k ! ,unkn[able1 do+ x ) ! inexact phraseology :i* is all ,i f9d to h&4 ,,vi ,rea*+ ! conclusions not$ above ,i 0 reliev$ ( ! pressure ( traditions & in/ructions4 ,traditions & in/ructions help$ me 9 t !y built ! %ip 9 :i* ,i 0 to put to sea4 ,! discov]ies _h to be my own4 ,! ,god ( :om ,i _h he>d at my "m's knee1 z ! phrase goes1 _h always be5 %ad[y to me2 ! ,god :o 0 s]v$ by s]vices _h always seem$ remote4 ,a ,god :o %\ld be my ,god1 z ! psalmi/s say s (t51 mu/1 ,i felt1 be f\nd by me myself1 ?r\gh liv+1 se>*+1 suff]+1 & /ruggl+ onw>d a /ep or two at a "t4 ,t's pretty ne> free-?9k+1 isn't x8 a cl]gyman1 to :om ,i tri$ to expla9 myself1 once said to me4 ,no1 ,i repli$2 b x is pretty ne> ?9k+ free4 ,to ?9k freely ab\t ,god became a fir/ necessity2 to ?9k simply a second "o4 ,! ,univ]sal ,fa!r _h be5 almo/ lo/ to me beh9d veil aft] veil ( complexities4 ,! approa*es to ,him seem$ to h be5 made s r\ndab\t1 requir+ s _m int]m$i>ies4 ,long be=e ,i _h d>$ to ?9k ( :at ,i may call emancipation1 ! s*eme ( salvation1 z x 0 t]m$1 _h /ruck me z an excessively complicat$ sy/em ( ma*9]y1 consid]+ ! millions ^u millions :o _h ne$ ( x4 ,9 !ory y 7 told1 accord+ to ,/4 ,paul1 to come boldly be=e ! ?rone ( ! heav5ly grace1 b 9 practice y 7 expect$ to d x timidly4 ,y 7 expect$ to d x timidly because ! pigeon-hol$ ,caucasian ,god 0 repres5t$--unconsci\sly p]haps--z difficult1 ung5ial1 easily (f5d$4 ,he measur$ y\r bl9dness & weakness by ! /&>d ( ,8 own k & almight9ess4 ,a puritan ,god1 extremely preoccupi$ ) morals z "s p saw !m1 ,he 0 l5i5t1 app>5tly1 to ! n>r[-m9d$1 ! bitt] ( tongue1 & ! intol]ant 9 he>t4 ,he 0 n g5]\s4 ,he 0 m]ciful only :5 y paid = ,8 m]cy 9 advance4 ,to a n inconsid]able degree ,he 0 ! h>d ,caucasian bus9ess man1 ( :om ,he 0 ! reflection1 only glorifi$ & cr[n$4 ,x w be evid5t1 ( c\rse1 t ,i am n speak+ ( ! ,fa!r ( ! ,new ,te/am5t1 nor ( ! (ficial tea*+ ( any *ur* or !ology4 ,to ! rank & file ( ,caucasians ! ,fa!r ( ! ,new ,te/am5t is v little kn[n1 :ile ! (ficial tea*+ ( *ur*es & !ologies is s h>d to expla9 t n mu* ( x gets ov] to ! masses ( ^? will+ to subscribe to x4 ,i ref] only to ! impression on ! m9d ( ! man 9 ! /reet2 & to ! man 9 ! /reet ,god1 z he und]/&s ,him1 is nei!r a v fri5dly nor a v compreh5sible elem5t 9 life4 ,in/ead ( mitigat+ fe> ,he adds to x1 n 9 ! ,biblical s5se ( fe>+ ,god1 b 9 t ( %e] animal di/ru/4 ,,vii ,:ile turn+ ^! ?+s ov] 9 my m9d ,i got "s help f two ( ! words mo/ curr5tly 9 ,*ri/ian use4 ,i _h long kn[n t ! ,engli% equival5ts ( ! ,lat9 equival5ts ( ! t]ms ! ,new ,te/am5t writ]s us$ gave b a di/ort$ idea ( ! orig9al s5se2 b ,i _h let t k lie fall[4 ,! fir/ ( ^! words 0 ,rep5tance4 ,9 ^! syllables !re is almo/ no h9t ( ! idea :i* fell f ! evangeli/ic p51 :ile ! ^w has be5 soak$ 9 emotional & s5tim5tal associations x 0 nev] int5d$ to be mix$ )4 ,! ,metanoia2 :i* pa9t$ a sob]1 reflective turn+ ( ! m9d1 _h be5 s ov]*>g$ ) ! dramatic t sob]1 reflective p c\ld h>dly use ! expression any m4 ,rep5tance _h come to h s /rong a gloss ( ! hy/]ical z to be almo/ discr$it$ by m5 ( common s5se4 ,x 0 a relief1 !re=e1 to rememb] t x impli$ no m ?an a turn+ to ,god by a process ( ?\ght2 & t a process ( ?\ght w\ld f9d ,him4 ,! o!r ^w 0 ,salvation4 ,"h aga9 our t]m ( ,lat9 d]ivation gives no m ?an ! fa9te/ impression ( ! beauty beyond beauty 9 t :i* ! sacr$ writ] us$4 ,sot]ia--a ,safe ,return6 ,t is all4 ,no?+ complicat$2 no?+ high-/rung2 no?+ casui/ical4 ,only a--,safe ,return6 ,yet all human exp]i5ce c be read into ! little phrase1 ) all human lib]ty to w&]--& come back4 ,true1 "o son may nev] leave ! ,fa!r's home1 s t all t x conta9s is 82 b !re is no re/ra9t on ! o!r son f gett+ 8 k z he w1 ev5 to ! ext5t ( becom+ a prodigal4 ,! ess5tial is 9 ! ,safe ,return1 ! ,sot]ia1 :5 ! h>lots & ! husks h be5 tri$ & f\nd want+4 ,i d n exagg]ate :5 ,i say t ! simplicity ( ^! conceptions 0 s refre%+ z almo/ to give me a new life4 ,"o c\ld say to ,god1 ) ! psalmi/1 ,?\ art my hid+ place2 ?\ %alt pres]ve me f tr\ble2 ?\ %alt compass me ab\t ) songs ( deliv]ance--& mean x4 ,"o c\ld conceive ( x z possible to turn t[>d ,him--& rea*1 ! objective4 ,! way 0 op52 ! access 0 free2 ! progress z rapid z ?\ght c\ld make x4 ,"o c\ld ?9k ( oneself z kn[+ ,god1 & be aw>e ( no =c+ ( ! note4 ,we c "k ,god easily s long z we d n feel x necess>y to def9e ,him4 ,once hav+ grasp$ ?is tru? ,i began to see h[ natural kn[+ ,god became4 ,! difficulty ( ! =c$1 ( ! artificial1 ( ! m]e ass5t to :at o!r p say1 ( :i* ! ,caucasian to 8 cr$it is always impati5t1 seem$ by degrees to melt away f me4 ,no long] def9+ ,god ,i no long] tri$ to "k ,him 9 s5ses obvi\sly impossible4 ,i ceas$ try+ to imag9e ,him4 ,see+ ,him z inf9ite1 et]nal1 *angeless1 =mless because transc5d+ =m1 & indescribable because transc5d+ words & ?\ghts1 ,i c\ld give myself up to f9d+ ,him 9 ! ways 9 :i* ,he w\ld naturally be reveal$ to me4 ,,viii ,^!1 ( c\rse1 7 9 ,8 qualities & ,8 works4 ,let me speak ( ! latt] fir/4 ,i ?9k light 0 ! m$ium ?r\gh :i* ,i at once felt myself to be see+ ,god4 ,by ?is ,i mean no?+ pan!i/ic--n t ! light 0 ,god--b ,god's fir/ & mo/ evid5t great sign4 ,!n !re 0 ! re/ful d>kness4 ,!re 7 ! moon & ! />s1 ! ho/s ( heav51 z ! ,hebrews aptly call$ !m1 becom+ m & m amaz+ z an expression ( ,god ! m we le>n h[ to read !m4 ,!n !re 7 ! elem5ts1 ! purify+ w9d1 ! fruitful ra91 ! exhil>ation ( sn[-/orms1 ! action & reaction f heat & cold4 ,!n !re 0 beauty3 fir/1 ! beauty ( ! e>?1 ( m\nta9s1 ( seas1 & all wat]s1 ( mead[s1 gra9fields1 or*>ds1 g>d5s1 & all gr[+ ?+s2 !n1 ! beauty ( s\nd1 f ! s\gh+ ( ! w9d 9 ! p9es to ! song ( ! h]mit-?ru%4 ,!re 0 ! beauty wr\ght by man1 music1 pa9t+1 lit]ature1 & all art4 ,!re 7 ! myriad =ms ( life4 ,!re 7 k9dness & fri5d%ip & family affection & fun--b ! "t w\ld fail me6 ,god be+ ! summ+ up ( all good ?+s1 s9ce all good ?+s proce$ f ,him1 mu/ be se5 by me 9 all good ?+s x ,i am to see ,him at all4 ,i _h he>d f *ildhood ( a _w 9 :i* ,god 0 se51 & ( ano!r _w1 ?is _w1 9 :i* ,he 0 n se54 ,i came to ! conclusion t !re 0 no su* fanta/ic1 unnatural division 9 :at we call creation--t !re 0 only "o _w--! _w 9 :i* ,god is se54 ,! s\l _c move1 wake1 or op5 ! eyes )\t p]ceiv+ ,god4 ,x is a "q ( physical vision1 ) spiritual compreh5sion4 ,,ix ,see+ ,god break+ ?r\gh all t ,i _h previ\sly ?\ght ( z b>ri]s1 x 0 easy to beg9 to ?9k ( ,him z ,univ]sal4 ,i say beg9 to ?9k1 because ,god's ,inf9itude _h be5 only a ^w to me hi!rto1 n a quality realis$ & felt4 ,i d n presume to say t to any adequate degree ,i feel & realise x n[2 b ! habit ( look+ on e good ?+ z a sign ( ,8 activity _c b br+ ,him close to me4 ,t is my *ief po9t ) reg>d to ! ,inf9ite--t x mu/ be "h4 ,z ,i us$ to ?9k ( inf9ity ,i saw x /ret*+ to b\ndless rea*es away f me2 b only f ! po9t ( view ( pres5t ,good be+ pres5t ,god did ! value ( ! ,inf9ite come to lie 9 its ne>ness r ?an 9 its p[] ( fill+ unimag9able space4 ,on my "p x 0 inv]se m5tal action1 seek+ ,god :]e ,i 0 capable ( f9d+ ,him1 & n 9 regions ,i c\ld nev] range4 ,b hav+ grasp$ ! fact t ! ,univ]sal1 :]ev] else x 01 mu/ be ) me ! purely ab/ract became a liv+ influ5ce4 ,i felt ?is ! m :5 to ! concept ( ,inf9itude ,i add$ t ( ,intellig5ce4 ,i use ! mu*-work$ ^w intellig5ce because !re is no o!r2 b :5 "o ?9ks = a second ( :at mu/ be ! und]/&+ ( an ,inf9ite ,m9d1 intellig5ce z a descriptive t]m becomes absurdly inadequate4 ,?is 0 ! next fact :i*1 if ,i may s express myself1 ,i made my own--t n only ! ,univ]sal is ev] ) me1 b t x is ev] ) me ) ev]-active conc]n4 ,!re 0 a "t :5 x 0 h>d = me to believe t a ,m9d busi$ ) ! imm5sities ( ! univ]se c\ld come d[n to su* trivial affairs z m9e4 ,important z ,i might be to myself ,i c\ld h>dly be o!rwise ?an lo/ amid ! billions ( =ms ( life :i* _h come into exi/5ce ?r\gh ! ages4 ,to ! ,?ree 9 ,"o1 on ! ,great ,:ite ,?rone1 9 ! f>-away ,heav51 ,i mu/ be a negligible ?+1 except :5 ,i =c$ myself on ! div9e att5tion4 ,ev5 !n x 0 h>dly conceivable t1 ) :ole sol> sy/ems to regulate1 ,i c\ld claim m ?an a pass+ glance f ! all-see+ eye4 ,b to an ,inf9ite ,m9d ba?+ me r\nd & r\nd ,i mu/ be z mu* ! object ( reg>d z any sol> sy/em4 ,to su* a ,m9d no?+ is small1 no "o ?+ f>!r f its scope ?an ano!r4 ,god c\ld h no difficulty 9 att5d+ to me1 see+ t f ! nature ( ,8 m5tal activity1 to put x 9 t way1 ,he c\ld n lose sight ( me nor let me g4 ,:5 an object is imm]s$ 9 wat] x gives no extra tr\ble to ! wat] to close r\nd x4 ,x c't help do+ x4 ,! object may be z small z a gra9 ( du/ or z big z a w>%ip2 to ! wat] x is all ! same4 ,imm]s$ 9 ! ,inf9ite ,m9d1 clos$ r\nd by x1 x 0 giv+ ,god no extra tr\ble to ?9k ( me1 ( my "w1 my desires1 ! objects ) :i* ,i 0 liv+1 s9ce by ! nature ( ,8 ,be+ ,he c\ld d no?+ else4 ,hav+ e/abli%$ x ) myself t ,univ]sal ,pres5ce 0 also ,univ]sal ,?\ght ,i _h made ano!r /ep t[>d ! elim9ation ( fe>4 ,i took /ill ano!r :5 ,i add$ ! tru? ( ,univ]sal ,love4 ,i ne$ h>dly say t ?is progression 0 n ( necessity 9 a /rictly consecutive ord]1 nor did x come by a process ( reason+ out f po9t to po9t4 ,i 0 simply ! man 9 ! /reet deal+ ) great ideas ( :i* he _h he>d ev] s9ce he _h be5 able to he> any?+1 b try+ at la/ to see :at !y meant to him4 ,my position might h be5 describ$ 9 ! words us$ by ,william ,james 9 "o ( 8 ,lett]s to indicate 8 own4 ,! ,div9e1 = my active life1 is limit$ to ab/ract concepts1 :i*1 z ideals1 int]e/ & det]m9e me1 b d s b fa9tly1 9 comp>ison ) :at a feel+ ( ,god might effect1 if ,i _h "o4 ,x is l>gely a "q ( int5sity1 b diff]5ces ( int5sity may make ! :ole c5tre ( "o's en]gy %ift4 ,i did h a feel+ ( ,god h[ev] vague2 b ,i _h m ( ! feel+ ( a ,*ur*4 ,i c\ld dimly disc]n ! ,way1 )\t go+ on to ! ,tru? & ! ,life :i* give ! ,way its value4 ,x w be evid5t !n t if my discov]ies along ^! l9es 7 discov]ies 9 ! obvi\s1 x 0 9 t obvi\s to :i* we mortals s (t5 rema9 bl9d4 ,dur+ _m ye>s ! expression1 ! love ( ,god1 0 to me l a w9t] sun%9e1 bright )\t yield+ w>m?4 ,i lik$ ! words2 ,i knew !y express$ a tru?2 b betwe5 me & ! tru? !re 0 ! same k9d ( di/ance :i* ,i felt to lie betwe5 myself & ,god4 ,x is l>gely a "q ( int5sity1 to repeat :at has j be5 quot$ f ,william ,james1 b diff]5ces ( int5sity may make ! :ole c5tre ( "o's en]gy %ift4 ,my conception ( ! love ( ,god lack$ j t quality--int5sity4 ,x came1 to "s degree1 ) ! realisation t ! ,univ]sal ,?\ght mu/ be ) me4 ,a non-lov+ ,univ]sal ,?\ght 0 too mon/r\s a concept to ent]ta94 ,! ,god :o broke ?r\gh my _m misund]/&+s ) s mu* good & beauty c\ld h only "o pr$om9at+ motive4 ,! com+ ( my spiritual be+ to ?is planet might be a my/]y wrapp$ 9 d>kness1 & yet ,i c\ld n b believe t ! ,univ]sal ,fa!r 0 beh9d t com+ & t ,i 0 ,8 son4 ,i c\ld re/ my case !re4 ,! love ( ,god1 aft] hav+ long be5 l a doctr9al t5et = :i* "o _h to /rive1 became reasonable1 natural1 some?+ to be und]/ood4 ,f9d+ t love 9 s _m places 9 :i* ,i _h se5 m]e physical ph5om5a1 & 9 s _m lovely ?+s ,i _h nev] plac$ to its cr$it1 ,i began to feel t life c\ld be infus$ & trans=m$ by x1 9 proportion z my own p]ception grew4 ,s1 little by little1 ! c5tre ( en]gy %ift$1 z "o came to und]/& :at ! ,sons ( ,korah meant :5 !y sang1 ,god is our refuge & /r5g?1 a v pres5t help 9 tr\ble4 ,!re=e w we n fe> ?\gh ! e>? be remov$1 & ?\gh ! m\nta9s be c>ri$ into1 ! mid/ ( ! sea4#e ,) ,univ]sal ,?\ght conc5trat$ 9 love ^u oneself fe> mu/ be =c$ backw>d4 #e ,! ,book ( ,psalms4 ,& especially :5 y add to t ! concept ( ,almighty ,p[]4 ,?is f\r? & la/ ( ! great attributes is ! "o ) :i* ,i1 z an individual1 h f\nd x mo/ difficult to clo! ! ,inf9ite4 ,i mean t x is ! "o = :i* x is h>de/ = me to develop :at ,william ,james calls a feel+1 an inn] realisation4 ,i lay no /ress ^u ?is4 ,x is a "q ( gr[?4 ,! ,pres5ce1 ! ,?\ght1 ! ,love h become to me :at ,i may be p]mitt$ to call tremul\sly vivid4 ,9 proportion z !y are vivid ,i get ! feel+ ( ,almight9ess ex]cis$ on my behalf2 9 proportion z !y are tremul\s ! ,almight9ess may rema9 9 my consci\sness1 b x seems ex]cis$ on my behalf b slightly4 ,9 o!r words1 ! ,inf9itude ( ,?\ght & ,love are1 to "s ext5t1 appreh5d$ by my inn] self1 :ile ! ,inf9itude ( ,p[] is z yet to me r an intellectual ab/raction4 ,:at my inn] self may be ,i am n prep>$ to say1 b ,i "k t x is !re1 z ev]yone else kn[s t x is 9 him4 ,/r5g!n$ ) might by ! ,_s 9 ! inn] man1#f is :at ,/4 ,paul says1 & ,i suppose mo/ ( u recognise ! fact t our inn] self is /rong] or weak] 9 proportion z x is m n\ri%$ or less n\ri%$ by our s5se ( ! ,be+ ( ,god4 ,x is l>gely a "q ( int5sity4 ,if ,i int]pret ,william ,james aright he means by a feel+ an intellectual concept aft] x has pass$ beyond ! prelim9>y keep+ ( ! bra91 & become ! possession ( t inn] man :i* is ! vital self4 ,to ?is vital self ! s5se ( ,almighty ,p[] really us$ = me is /ill1 to a great degree1 outside my range4 #f ,epi/le to ! ,ephesians4 ,i make ! confession n because x is ( int]e/1 b because x illu/rates a ma9 d$uction :i* ,i %\ld n[ l to draw4 ,x is to ! effect t ,god is ) u to be utilis$4 ,8 ,p[]1 ,8 ,love1 ,8 ,?\ght1 ,8 ,pres5ce1 mu/ be at our disposal1 l o!r great =ces1 su* z sun%9e & w9d & ra94 ,we c use !m or n1 z we please4 ,t we c\ld use !m to _! full pot5tiality is1 ( c\rse1 n to be ?\ght (2 b we c use !m 9 proportion to our ability4 ,if ,i1 ! individual1 /ill lack _m ?+s2 if ,i am /ill a prey to l+]+ fe>s2 x is probably because ,i h n yet root$ out a /ubborn disbelief 9 ,8 ,p[]4 ,if ,i succe$ 9 ?is ,i %all d\btless be able to seize m ( ,8 b\nty4 ,x is n a "q ( ,8 giv+1 b ( my capacity to take4 ,! contr>y1 ,i v5ture to ?9k1 is ! po9t ( view ( mo/ ( u4 ,we consid] ,god some:at z we d a weal?y man :om we "k to be a mis]1 =m+ ! %rewd surmise t we %all n get mu* out ( him4 ,! ,god :o fails to protect u f fe> fails1 ,i believe1 because we see ,him fir/ ( all z a nigg>d ,god4 ,he is a nigg>d n m]ely ) reg>d to money b all ! good ?+s = :i* ,he has giv5 u a desire1 ) no int5tion ( all[+ t desire to be gratifi$4 ,once m1 ,he is ! h>d ,caucasian bus9ess man1 :om ,8 subord9ates s]ve because !y don't see :at else to d1 b :om !y r>ely love4 ,we %all n1 9 my judgm5t1 ov]come fe> till we see ,him z ,he surely mu/ be1 g5]\s beyond all our conceptions ( g5]osity4 ,ye>s1 exp]i5ce1 _m trials1 & "s k ( ! _w1 h conv9c$ me t we h no lawful or h>mless crav+s = :i*1 z f> z ,god is conc]n$1 !re is n abundant satisfaction4 ,i am conv9c$ t absolute confid5ce 9 ,god's ov]fl[+ lib]ality ( e sort is ess5tial to ! conque/ ( fe>4 ,if we don't pr(it by t lib]ality ! fault is n ,8 b our own4 ,i am tempt$ to ?9k t ! belief ( s _m g5]ations ( nom9al ,*ri/ians 9 a ,god ^: p[] 0 *iefly %[n 9 repressions1 d5ials1 & caprici\s disappo9tm5ts is responsible1 9 s small measure1 = our pres5t _w-di/ress4 ,9 my own case x 0 a matt] ( re-education4 ,to f9d ,god = myself ,i _h to be will+ to let "s ( my old *]i%$ ideas g4 ,!y may h be5 true ( ,god z ,he reveals ,himself to o!rs2 !y are n true ( ,him z ,he makes ,himself kn[n to me4 ,! ,way t leads me to ! ,tru? & ! ,life is und\bt$ly ! ,way ,i mu/ foll[4 ,do+ t ,i h f\nd s mu*1 m5tally1 emotionally1 mat]ially1 :i* ,i nev] _h be=e1 t ,i _c b look = m z my absorb+ p[] increases4 ,! process is ak9 to t ( ! un%rivell+ ( ! inn] man1 z a bud w unfold :5 ! sun%9e becomes /rong en\gh4 ,! trans=mation mu/ be 9 ?\ght4 ,!re mu/ be fir/ ! ,metanoia1 ! *ange ( m9d1 ! new set ( concepts2 & !n ! ,sot]ia1 ! ,safe ,return1 to ! high1 sane ideal ( a co-op]ative ,univ]se1 ) a lov+1 lavi% ,univ]sal ,he>t beh9d x4 ,to ! *ief ,musician = ! ,sons ( ,korah3 ',god is our refuge & /r5g?1 a v pres5t help 9 tr\ble4 ,!re=e w we n fe> ?\gh ! e>? be remov$1 & ?\gh ! m\nta9s be c>ri$ into ! mid/ ( ! sea4444 ,come1 behold ! works ( ! ,"l4444 ,he make? w>s to cease unto ! end ( ! e>?2 he breake? ! b[1 he cutte? ! spe> 9 sund]1 he burne? ! *>iot 9 ! fire4444 ,be /ill !n1 & "k t ,i am ,god1'#g #g ,book ( ,psalms4 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,god ,,& ,,8 ,,self-,,expression ,i ,x w be cle> f :at ,i h said already t ,i see no fundam5tal conque/ ( fe> t is n bas$ 9 ,god4 ,!re may be knacks by :i* fe> c be nipp$ & exp$i5ts by :i* x may be outwitt$1 b its ext]m9ation c be br\ght ab\t1 x seems to me1 only 9 "o way4 ,accord+ to our capacity & our individual ne$s we mu/ "k ,god2 & kn[+ ,god is n z difficult z ! ,caucasian m9d is apt to ?9k4 ,x /&s to reason t if kn[+ ,god1 9 ! s5ses 9 :i* x is possible to "k ,him1 is s ess5tial to mank9d x c\ld n be difficult4 ,! mak+ x difficult is "p ( ! du/ ! ,caucasian ?r[s 9 8 own eyes4 ,we "k ,god ?r\gh ,8 ,self-,expression1 & ,8 ,self-,expression is r\nd ab\t u 9 e =m4 ,except ?r\gh ,8 ,self-,expression !re is no way ( our kn[+ ,him4 ,no speculation or !ory w tea* u to "k ,him4 ,x mu/ be ,8 own revelation ( ,himself1 or no?+4 ,,ii ,su* little k ( ,him z has come to me came mu* m freely :5 ,i began to look = t revelation n alone 9 solemn my/]ies1 or ?r\gh ! m$ium%ip ( prophets1 apo/les1 & anci5t scriptures1 b 9 ! sights & s\nds & happ5+s ( e day4 ,"h ,i mu/ ask n to be misund]/ood4 ,! solemn my/]ies h _! place1 b x is "o ( climax4 ,! m$ium%ip ( prophets1 apo/les1 & anci5t scriptures is ( unreckonable value1 aft] ,i h done some?+ = myself4 ,by ?is ,i d n mean t all _c "w toge!r simultane\sly1 b r t x is useless = ! s\l to /rike only at ! m advanc$1 hav+ ignor$ ! elem5t>y4 ,z ,i write ,i look out on a /reet full ( ! t\*es ( spr+4 ,! ra9-wa%$ grass is ( bright new gre54 ,! elms are 9 t5d]e/ leaf1 ! haw?orn bur/+ into fl[]4 ,"h & !re a yell[ clump ( =sy?ia is l a spot ( sun%9e4 ,tulips are op5+ _! v>iegat$ cups1 & daffodils l9e ! walls4 ,dogs are cap]+ ab\t1 a collie1 a sett]1 a ,bo/on t]ri]4 ,birds are c>ry+ /raws or bits ( /r+ to weave into _! ne/s--or s++--or fly+--or p]*+ on b\ghs4 ,*ildr5 are play+--boys on bicycles eag]ly rac+ n[h]e--little girls ) arms r\nd ea* o!rs' wai/s1 prattl+ aft] _! k9d4 ,ov]head is a sky ( t peculi> blue = :i* ! ,*9ese h a ^w :i* means ! blue ( ! sky aft] ra91 a hue :i* only ^! ma/]s 9 col\r h1 to my k1 specially obs]v$4 ,h[ c ,i help see+ s mu* beauty & sweetness z ! manife/ation ( ,god8 ,h[ c\ld ,he %[ ,himself to me m smil+ly8 ,h[ c ,i talk ( n see+ ,god :5 ,i see ?is8 ,true1 x may be no m ?an ! tip ( ! fr+e ( ! hem ( ! robe 9 :i* ,8 ,be+ is array$2 b at lea/ x mu/ be t4 ,true1 also1 t beautiful z ^! ?+s appe> to physical eyes !y mu/ be /ill m beautiful to spiritual eyes--! eyes ( ^? :o h pass$ on1 = in/ance--to say no?+ ( ! delight :i* ,god mu/ h 9 !m ,himself4 ,b ev5 ) my imp]fect mortal vision !y are raptur\sly good1 a v]itable glimpse ( ! ,div9e4 ,?is is :at ,i mean by ! elem5t>y--! common1 prim>y ?+1 ! ?+ ,i look at e day & h>dly ev] accr$it to its s\rce4 ,i am n speak+ pan!i/ically "h1 any m ?an :5 ,i spoke ( light4 ,^! ?+s are n ,god1 or "p ( ,god4 ,!y are expressions ( ,god4 ,if ,i speak ( see+ ,god 9 !m ,i mean t 9 !m1 z well z 9 _m o!r simple ?+s1 we see ,him z ne>ly z is possible to su* compreh5sion z ours4 ,no human eye1 writes ,/4 ,john1 has ev] se5 ,god3 ! only ,son1 :o is 9 ! ,fa!r's bosom--,he has made ,him kn[n4#h ,he made ,him kn[n 9 ,8 own ,p]son2 b ,he appeal$ also to ! ev]yday sights & s\nds1 ! lily ( ! field1 ! bl[+ w9d1 ! sp>r[ fall+1 ! *ildr5 at _! mo!rs' knees1 = ! evid5ce to decl>e ,him4 ,z expressions ( ,him !y may be mis9t]pret$ by ! error 9 my physical s5ses1 or di/ort$ by my limitations ( spiritual p]ception2 b ev5 !n !y br+ ,him ne> to me 9 ! k9d ( radiance :i* ,i c cat*4 #h ,mo/ ( ! quotations f ! ,new ,te/am5t are tak5 f a rec5t translation1 ,! ,new ,te/am5t 9 ,mod]n ,spee*1 by ,r4,f4 ,weym\? & ,e4 ,hampd5-,cook4 ,,iii ,9 ord] to bani% fe> ,i ?9k x necess>y to tra9 ! ?\ght to see+ ,god z express+ ,himself 9 all ! good & pleasant & enjoyable ?+s t come to u4 ,?is means =m+ a habit4 ,x means say+ to oneself daily1 h\rly1 ,?is is ,god1 ,t is ,god1 ( incid5ts1 p]sons1 & ?+s we h r>ely ?\ght ( 9 t relation4 ,to d ?is is n z easy z x w\ld be if our race-m9d work$ t way2 b un=tunately x does n4 ,9 g5]al we take our good ?+s = grant$1 compla9+ t !y are n bett]4 ,! ?+s we lack are m vivid to u1 z a rule1 ?an ^? we h acquir$4 ,hav+ hung1 z x 71 a cl\d ab\t ourselves we disreg>d ! unc\ntable ways 9 :i* ,god p]si/s 9 %9+ ?r\gh1 9 spite ( our ef=ts to %ut ,him out4 ,to try to enum]ate ! unc\ntable w\ld be folly4 ,y _c reckon ! good :i* comes to e "o ( u ?r\gh su* *annels z family1 home1 fri5d%ip1 income1 bus9ess1 amusem5ts1 /udies1 holidays1 j\rneys1 sports1 books1 pictures1 music1 & ! o!r h>dly notic$ pleasures ( any s+le day4 ,we are us$ to !m4 ,to ascribe !m specially to ,god w\ld seem to u f>-fet*$4 ,t is1 !oretically we may ascribe !m to ,god1 b practically we dissociate ,him f !m4 ,few ( u1 ,i ?9k1 ev] pause to rememb] t ?r\gh !m ,he is mak+ ,himself kn[n to u be=e do+ x 9 any o!r way4 ,& yet1 x seems to me1 ?is is ! beg9n+ ( our recognition ( ! ,div9e4 ,i h little hesitation 9 say+ t ?is is :at p>5ts %\ld tea* *ildr5 be=e !y tea* !m to lisp pray]s4 ,! pray]s h h>dly any mean+ to ! baby-m9d1 & n mu* m ?an a s5tim5tal influ5ce on ! lat] life1 if !y h z mu* z t4 ,b any *ild1 f ! v budd+ ( ! intellig5ce1 c\ld grasp ! idea ( a great1 lov+ ,sup]-,fa!r1 :o 0 mak+ ,himself visible ?r\gh gifts & c>e4 ,if he pray$ to ,him lat] he w\ld "k to :om he 0 pray+4 ,z x is1 ! lat] pray]s are neglect$1 or def9itely giv5 up1 (t5] ?an n1 because ?is is precisely :at ! *ild does n "k4 ,he does n "k x because he 0 nev] taught x2 & he 0 nev] taught x because 8 p>5ts h probably n be5 aw>e ( x !mselves4 ,,iv ,i myself 0 nev] taught x4 ,not)/&+ all = :i* ,i am truly grateful1 ,i regret mo/ deeply t s _m ye>s ( my life w5t by be=e ,i 0 l$ to ! fact4 ,i am will+ to believe t ! lack ( und]/&+ 0 my own fault1 b a lack ( und]/&+ !re 04 ,i got ! impression t ,god1 s f> f mak+ ,himself kn[n to me1 0 hid+ away f me1 & t ,i mu/ h fai? to believe 9 ,"o ( :om ,i _h no m ?an he>say evid5ce4 ,if ,i c\ld d ?is viol5ce to su* measure ( reason z ,i possess$ ,i c\ld c\nt on a rew>d 9 "s o!r _w ?an ?is1 ?\gh on little or no?+ "h4 ,fai? ,i saw z ( ! nature ( a t\r de =ce4 ,y took x z y took a leap4 ,x 0 spiritually acrobatic4 ,y didn't und]/& b y believ$4 ,! less y und]/ood ! m cr$it y\r belief became to y4 ,! m hidd5 & difficult & my/]i\s & un9telligible ,god made ,himself ! great] y\r m]it 9 hav+ fai? 9 spite ( ev]y?+4 ,i am f> f say+ t ?is is ! common und]/&+ ( ,*ri/ians1 or f hold+ o!rs responsible = my misconceptions4 ,i speak ( ^! misconceptions only because !y 7 m9e1 & x 0 ,i :o _h to "w away f !m4 ,= ?is reason1 too1 ,i speak ( my rea*+ ! idea ( a ,god :o _h be5 visibly smil+ at me all my life :ile ,i _h nev] se5 ,him1 z a discov]y4 ,to me x 0 a discov]y2 & x came at a mom5t :5 ,i sorely ne$$ some?+ ( ! k9d4 ,v ,x 0 p]haps ?ree or f\r ye>s aft] ! turn+-po9t at ,v]sailles4 ,! int]v5+ "t _h be5 "o ( :at ,i may call spiritual ups & d[ns4 ,x _h n all be5 /raight progress by any means4 ,i _h got hold ( :at = me 0 a great idea1 r\nd :i* o!r great ideas gr\p$ !mselves2 b ,i grasp$ !m wav]+ly or int]mitt5tly4 ,nev]!less1 dur+ seasons 9 ,bo/on1 ,nice1 ,cannes1 ,muni*1 ,london1 & ,b]l91 life on ! :ole w5t hopefully4 ,! malady ,i h already m5tion$ t5d$ to gr[ bett] r ?an worse2 ! advanc+ bl9dness became def9itely arre/$4 ,i work$ easily1 happily1 successfully4 ,return+ to ! ,new ,engl& city :i* _h become my adopt$ home1 ,i b\ght a h\se & settl$ d[n to ,am]ican life once m4 ,i m5tion ^! facts only because !y help me to make myself cle>]4 ,= all at once my affairs1 l ! *>iots ( ,ph>aoh 9 cross+ ! ,r$ ,sea1 began to drive heavily4 ,tru/ 9 an all-conqu]+ life-pr9ciple :i* _h meant mu* to me = a "t no long] seem$ effective4 ,difficulties mass$ !mselves4 ,bus9ess misund]/&+s sprang up4 ,fri5d%ips on :i* ,i _h c\nt$ sudd5ly grew cold4 ,worse ?an all1 ! work+ impulse gave out4 ,!re 7 two :ole ye>s 9 :i* ,i slav$ at produc+ little m ?an :at _h to be ?r[n away4 ,my active life _h app>5tly come to ano!r dead5+ full /op4 ,i rea*$ ! decision t !re 0 b "o ?+ to d--give up ! pret5ce at work+1 sell ! h\se to :i* ,i _h gr[n atta*$1 & resume once m ! life ( aimless1 b at t "t inexp5sive1 ,european w&]+4 ,!re came a day :5 ,i actually (f]$ my h\se = sale4 ,& yet t day prov$ to be ano!r turn+-po9t4 ,on ! v morn+ :5 ,i _h put my h\se 9 ! m>ket ! *a9 ( small ev5ts :i* we commonly call accid5ts br\ght me into t\* ) a man ,i _h nev] se5 be=e4 ,dur+ a fir/ meet+1 z well z 9 sev]al t foll[$1 he made c]ta9 matt]s cle> to me :i* *ang$ my c\rse n only !n b ev] s9ce4 ,^! explanations came "u ?ree di/9ct head+s1 to ea* ( :i* ,i %\ld l to give a little space4 ,,vi ,( ^! ! "o ,i put fir/ is probably famili> to mo/ ( my read]s1 b to me1 ,i confess1 x 0 new4 ,god among ,8 o!r functions mu/ be a tireless activity work+ t[>ds an end4 ,ev]y?+ ,he calls into be+ works t[>d t end1 ,i myself ) ! re/4 ,i am n a purposeless bit ( jetsam flung out on ! ocean ( "t to be toss$ ab\t helplessly4 ,god c\ldn't s w an exi/5ce4 ,x w\ld n be 9 keep+ ) ,8 economy to h any entity wa/$4 ,z ,our ,"l puts x1 ! sp>r[ _c fall )\t ,him2 )\t ,him ! lilies are n deck$2 ! k possess$ by ,8 inf9ite intellig5ce is s m9ute t ! v hairs ( ! head are numb]$4 ,my life1 my "w1 myself--all are z mu* a necess>y "p ( ,8 design z ! ?read ! weav] weaves into ! patt]n 9 a c>pet4 ,9 o!r words1 ,i am n a free ag5t4 ,i am ,8 ag5t4 ,n only am ,i responsible to him1 b ,he is responsible = me4 ,8 responsibility = me w be se5 z soon z ,i give up be+ responsible = myself4 ,x 0 ^u ?is la/ po9t t ,i seiz$ ) mo/ avidity4 ,i 0 tir$ ( try+ to /e] a c\rse = myself1 ) no compass to g by4 ,i 0 tir$ ( incessantly travell+ along roads :i* seem$ to lead to no?+ b bl9d-ends4 ,to *ange ! figure to "o ,i us$ n infrequ5tly at t "t1 my life seem$ pit*=k$1 fir/ 9 "o way & !n 9 ano!r1 no way br++ me any:]e4 ,x _h no ev5 t5or4 ,x 0 a s]ies ( seismic pulls & j]ks4 ,b 9 ! light ( :at my new fri5d told me ,i saw ,i _h be5 too busily engag$ 9 direct+ my life = myself4 ,i 0 l a *ild :o hopes to make a smoo?ly work+ ma*9e g /ill m smoo?ly by prodd+ x4 ,i c\ldn't leave x alone4 ,x _h n occurr$ to me t ! c\rse ( t life 0 ,god's own bus9ess1 & t if ,i c\ld foll[ ! psalmi/'s advice & commit my way unto him he w\ld br+ x to pass4 ,x _h seem$ to me t no?+ w\ld be br\ght to pass unless ,i worri$ & frett$ ov] x myself1 :]eas ! same wise old psalmi/ says1 9 words :i* our g5]ation w\ld d well to lay to he>t1 fret n ?yself else %all ?\ be mov$ to d evil4 ,tru/ 9 ! ,"l & d good1 he goes on2 s %alt ?\ dwell 9 ! l&1 & v]ily ?\ %alt be f$4 ,delight ?yself also 9 ! ,"l1 & he %all give !e ! desires ( ?9e he>t4 ,?is 0 no?+ new2 x 0 only new to me4 ,to feel t ,i c\ld give up be+ responsible = results & devote myself to my "w 0 9 itself a relief4 ,if ,i tri$ to tru/ 9 ! ,"l & d good--by :i* ,i suppose is meant do+ my duty to ! be/ ( my small ability--,he w\ld look aft] ! re/4 ,my position 0 some:at t ( a tru/$ subord9ate giv5 a free h&1 b hav+ ov] him a supreme au?ority tak+ *>ge ( all consequ5ces4 ,i 0 n work+ on :at our mod]n idiom neatly summ>ises z my own4 ,i 0 ,8 ag5t4 ,?us x might be said to be to ,8 int]e/ to see t z ,8 ag5t ,i 0 %elt]$1 clo!d1 f$1 & 9 e way kept 9 su* condition z to be up to ! highe/ /&>d ( ,8 "w4 ,?is provision w\ld naturally include ^? dep5d5t on me1 & )\t ^: well-be+ ,i c\ld n h peace ( m9d4 ,i ne$ worry ab\t !m no m ?an ab\t myself4 ,!y1 too1 7 ,8 ag5ts4 ,9 c]ta9 conditions ,he might provide = !m ?r\gh me1 or 9 c]ta9 conditions ,he might provide = me ?r\gh !m2 b 9 all conditions ,he w\ld provide = all ( u4 ,,vii ,! second po9t 0 ?is3 ^? ) :om ,i _h _h misund]/&+s 7 equally ,8 ag5ts4 ,!y might n be m aw>e ( ! fact ?an ,i2 b ?is 9 no way disqualifi$ !m z ,8 tru/$ subord9ates giv5 a free h&4 ,_! "w ) me & m9e ) !m1 :atev] its nature1 wr\ght "o ( ! inf9ite numb] ( bl5ds go+ to make up ! va/ complexity ( ,8 design4 ,x 01 !re=e1 out ( ! range ( possibility t "u ,him !re c\ld be opposition or contradiction betwe5 "o ( ,8 ag5ts & ano!r4 ,x w\ld be inconsi/5t ) ,8 be+ t "o man's advantage %\ld be br\ght ab\t at ano!r man's co/4 ,:]e t 0 app>5tly ! case x 0 due to bo? sides tak+ ! au?ority into _! own h&s1 & nei!r suffici5tly recognis+ ,him4 ,if ,8 tru/$ subord9ates 9 be+ giv5 a free h& play$ ,him false1 !y naturally play$ ea* o!r false1 & play$ false to !mselves fir/ ( all4 ,:]e "o 0 afraid ( ano!r & /rove to outwit him !re 0 trea*]y aga9/ ! supreme comm&4 ,aga9 !re 0 no?+ new 9 ?is2 b to me x 0 a new po9t ( view ) reg>d to ^? ) :om & = :om ,i work$4 ,= ! fir/ "t ,i saw _! true relation to me1 z m9e to !m1 & some?+ ( ! pr9ciple ( bro!rhood4 ,up to ?is "t bro!rhood _h be5 a *>m+1 s5tim5tal ^w to me1 & n mu* m4 ,*ildr5 ( "o ,fa!r1 yes2 b discordant *ildr51 ) no re/ra9t t ,i c\ld see on _! natural cut-?roat enmities4 ,b "h 0 a tru? :i* made all o!r m5 my necess>y helpmates1 & me ! necess>y helpmate ( all o!r m54 ,i c\ldn't d )\t !m2 !y c\ldn't d )\t me4 ,ho/ility betwe5 u 0 z out ( place z betwe5 m5 pull+ toge!r on ! rope :i* is to save all _! lives4 ,if p]il c\ld br+ ab\t unity ,god c\ld br+ x ab\t ev5 m effectively4 ,god 0 ! great positive1 ! solv5t 9 :i* irritation & unfri5dl9ess mu/ necess>ily melt away4 ,,viii ,! ?ird po9t1 involv+ my obvi\s fir/ /ep1 0 to put suspicion out ( my own m9d4 ,i 0 to see myself z ,god's ,self-,expression work+ ) o!rs :o 7 also ,8 ,self-,expression to ! same ext5t z ,i4 ,x 0 9 ! fact ( our unit+ toge!r to produce ,8 ,self-,expression t ,i 0 to look = my security4 ,no "o c\ld effectively "w aga9/ me :ile ,i 0 consci\sly try+ to "w ) ,god4 ,moreov]1 x 0 probable t no "o 0 work+ aga9/ me1 or _h any int5tion ( work+ aga9/ me1 b t my own po9t ( view be+ wrong ,i _h put ! h>moni\s action ( my life out ( ord]4 ,suspicion always be+ likely to see :at x suspects ! *ances 7 _m t ,i 0 creat+ ! v ?+ ,i suff]$ f4 ,?is does n mean t 9 our ef=t to reproduce h>moni\s action we %\ld %ut our eyes to :at is evid5tly wrong1 or bl&ly ignore :at is pla9ly be+ done to our disadvantage4 ,( c\rse n6 ,"o uses all ! common-s5se me?ods ( gett+ ju/ice = oneself & protect+ "o's own int]e/s4 ,b x does mean t :5 ,i c no long] protect my own int]e/s1 :5 my affairs dep5d ^u o!rs f> m ?an on myself--a condition 9 :i* we all occasionally f9d ourselves--,i am n to fret myself1 n to *urn my _s into nameless fe>s4 ,i am n a free ag5t4 ,^? ) :om ,i am associat$ are n free ag5ts4 ,god is ! "o supreme comm&4 ,he expresses ,himself ?r\gh me2 ,he expresses ,himself ?r\gh !m2 we all4 ,i z well z !y1 !y z well z ,i1 are p>tak]s ( ,8 ,son%ip2 & ! ,son--,8 ,expression--is always 9 ! ,fa!r's bosom1 #i 9 ,8 love & c>e4 #i ,/4 ,john ,,ix ,hav+ grasp$ ?is idea ! new ori5tation 0 n difficult4 ,!re 0 9 x too mu* solace to all[ ( its be+ difficult4 ,if ,i /ate ! results x is once m n because ,i consid] !m important to anyone b myself1 b only because !y became ! />t+-po9t ( a new advance 9 ! conque/ ( fe>4 ,)9 =ty-eight h\rs1 ) no action on my "p except ! ,metanoia1 ! *ange 9 my po9t ( view1 all misund]/&+s _h be5 cle>$ away4 ,! o!r side _h tak5 ! entire initiative1 ,i mak+ no advance :atev] t[>d !m4 ,a telegram express+ _! he>ty good w 0 foll[$ by an int]view1 aft] :i* ,i 0 at "w aga94 ,i h n only work$ easily ev] s9ce b ) su* fecundity t "o plan is always =m$ be=e ,i h its pr$ecessor (f my h&s4 ,?is says no?+ ( ! quality ( my "w1 :i*1 humble z x may be1 is simply ! be/ ,i "k h[ to d4 ,i ref] only to its abundance4 ,i h f\nd t 9 work+ toge!r ) ,god1 ,i am less involv$ 9 conflicts ( wills ?an ,i 0 be=e1 & t ! words ( ,amos are lit]ally fulfill$ to me1 t ! pl[man %all ov]take ! reap]1 & ! tread] ( grapes him t s[e? se$4 ,i say x )\t knock+ on wood1 & ) no fe> le/ my good luck w be )drawn1 t f t "t to ?is ,i h _h pl5ty ( "w :i* ,i h accompli%$ happily1 & h nev] lack$ a m>ket = my mode/ w>es4 ,x ,f all ( :i* ,i h drawn "o ma9 inf]5ce--! imp]ative urg5cy ( ,tru/4 ,i _h hi!rto ?\ght ( tru/ z a gritt+ ( ! tee? & a /iff5+ ( ! n]ves to believe & endure1 no matt] :at compulsion "o put ^u oneself4 ,gradually1 9 ! light ( ! exp]i5ce sket*$ above1 ,i came to see x z simply ! k t ! supreme comm& rules ev]y?+ to ev]yone's advantage4 ,! m we c re/ m5tally1 keep ourselves at peace1 be /ill & "k t x is ,god1#aj ! s+le & sole ,director1 ! m our int]e/s w be safe4 ,?is1 ,i take x1 is ! k9d ( tru/ = :i* ! great pione]s ( tru? plead s p]si/5tly 9 bo? ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5ts4 #aj ,! ,book ( ,psalms4 ,tru/1 !n1 is n a =ce we wre/ f ourselves aga9/ reason1 aga9/ ! gra94 ,to be tru/ at all x mu/ be lov+ & spontane\s4 ,x _c be lov+ & spontane\s unless !re is a natural impulse beh9d x4 ,& !re c be no natural impulse beh9d x unless we h some?+ 9 our own exp]i5ce :i* corroborates ! m]e he>say te/imony t !re is a ,p[] wor? tru/+ to4 ,job's ,?\gh ,he slay me yet w ,i tru/ 9 ,him1 c\ld only h be5 wrung f a he>t :i* _h prov$ ! ,div9e ,good ,w a ?\s& times & knew :at x 0 do+4 ,"s exp]i5ce ( our own we mu/ h4 ,x is an absolute necessity4 ,desp]ate hope 9 ano!r man's ,god may d some?+ = u1 b x _c d mu*4 ,a small ?+ :i* ,i h prov$ = myself is a bett] f\ndation = tru/ ?an a ,bible le>nt p>rot-l by rote & n put to ! practical te/4 ,once ,i h f\nd out = myself t to re/ 9 ! ,"l & wait pati5tly = ,him is ! sure/ way to security & peace ,i h ! m will+ confid5ce 9 do+ x4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,god',s ,,self-,,expression ,,& ,,! ,,m9d ,,( ,,to-,,day ,i ,to ! m9d ( to-day tru/ w\ld be easi] 7 x n = ! t]ror le/ ,god's plans involve u 9 fe>ful ?+s f :i* we %r9k4 ,we h he>d s mu* ( ! trials ,he s5ds2 ( ! gifts ( ,tantalus ,he keeps =ev] 9 our sight b j beyond our rea*2 ( ! bless+s ,he actually be/[s ^u u only to snat* !m away :5 we h come to love !m mo/--we h he>d s mu* ( ?is t we are (t5 afraid ( ,8 w z ! greate/ among ! evils ( :i* we /& 9 dread4 ,9 _m cases ?is is ! root ( our fe>4 ,we _c tru/ )\t misgiv+ to ! love ( ,god4 ,:at is !re !n t we c tru/ to8 ,we c't tru/ to ourselves2 /ill less c we tru/ to our fell[-m54 ,^? :om we love & 9 :om we h confid5ce be+ z weak z ourselves1 if n weak] ?an we1 e/abli% our spirits n at all4 ,if1 !re=e1 we m5tally poison ! well ( ,univ]sal ,good-int5t at its v s\rce :at h we to dep5d on8 ,i h already ref]r$ to ! ,god ( repressions & d5ials1 & n[ mu/ speak a little m freely ( ?is trave/y on ! ,fa!r1 z express$ to u 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,( all ! ob/acles to ! root+ out ( fe> ! l+]+ belief 9 su* a di/ortion ( ,div9e ,love is to my m9d ! mo/ deeply bas$4 ,i (t5 ?9k x a pro( ( ! vital tru? 9 ! message ( ,jesus ,*ri/ t x p]si/s 9 hold+ ! he>t 9 spite ( ! ugly ?+ :i*1 f s _m po9ts ( view1 ! ,caucasian has manag$ to make ( x4 ,n[h]e is ! cruelty ( ,caucasian mis9t]pretation m evid5t ?an 9 ! mean+s giv5 to ! glori\s phrase1 ! ,w ( ,god4 ,i d n exagg]ate :5 ,i say t 9 mo/ ,caucasian m9ds ! ,w ( ,god is a bitt]1 ru?less =ce1 to :i* we c only drug ourselves into submission4 ,x is always ready to ?w>t u1 to /ab u 9 ! back1 or to /rike u :]e our affections are t5d]e/4 ,we hold our bless+s only on ! t5ure ( its caprice4 ,our pleasures are b ! /ol5 mom5ts we c snat* f its inatt5tion4 ,z an example ,i quote "s /anzas f a hymn frequ5tly sung :]e ,engli%-speak+ p wor%ip1 & m or less expressive ( ! :ole ,caucasian attitude t[>d ,god's ,w4 ,my ,god1 my ,fa!r1 :ile ,i /ray ,f> f my home on life's r\gh way1 ,oh1 tea* me f my he>t to say1 ,?y ,w be done4 ,?\gh d>k my pa? & sad my lot1 ,let me be /ill1 & murmur n1 ,or brea! ! pray] div9ely taught1 ,?y ,w be done4 ,:at ?\gh 9 lonely grief ,i sigh ,= fri5ds belov$ no long] nigh1 ,submissive /ill w\ld ,i reply1 ,?y ,w be done4 ,if ?\ %\ld/ call me to resign ,:at mo/ ,i prize1 x ne'er 0 m9e2 ,i only yield !e :at is ?9e2 ,?y ,w be done4 ,^! l9es1 typical ( a :ole class ( s5tim5tal hymnology1 are important only 9 z f> z !y are widely kn[n & express a m or less /&>dis$ po9t ( view4 ,! implication !y conta9 is t all deprivation is br\ght ^u u by ! ,w ( ,god1 & t our wise/ c\rse is to beat ourselves d[n be=e t :i* we _c modify4 ,b5ea? ! c> ( ?is ,jugg]naut we mu/ fl\t our judgm5ts & cru% our affections4 ,z ,he kn[s s well :]e to hit u we mu/ /ifle our moans :5 ,he does s4 ,z ,he kn[s s well :at w r+ our he>ts we mu/ be cont5t to let ,him give s t ,he c ! m poignantly take away4 ,! highe/ ex]cise ( our own free w is to be /ill & murmur n--to admit t we ne$ ! *a/isem5t--to cr\* b5ea? ! bl[s :i* we tell ourselves are deliv]$ 9 love1 ev5 ?\gh x is h>d to see :]e ! love comes 94 ,,ii ,i "k no?+ m tragic ?an ^? ef=ts on ! "p ( he>t-brok5 p1 com+ )9 ! exp]i5ce ( all ( u1 to make !mselves feel t ?is t]rible ,w ( ,god mu/ be "r1 no matt] h[ mu* x seems wrong4 ,a "y man ) a wife & family to support is /ruck d[n by a l+]+ illness :i* makes him a burd54 ,all 8 ,job's com=t]s tell him t ,god has br\ght ! affliction ^u him1 & t to b[ to ! ,inscrutable ,w mu/ be 8 fir/ act ( piety4 ,a "y "m is rejoic+ 9 h] baby :5 its little life is sudd5ly snuff$ out4 ,%e mu/ s*ool h]self to say1 q irrespective ( ! _s ( r5unciation :i* inspires ! words1 ,! ,"l gave & ! ,"l ha? tak5 away2 bless$ be ! ,"n ( ! ,"l4 ,a woman is left a wid[ to e>n a liv+ = h]self1 & br+ up h] *ildr5 fa!rless4 ,%e mu/ assume t ! ,"l _h "s good purpose 9 leav+ h] ?us b]eft & mu/ drill h]self into wait+ on a ,w s impossible to compreh5d4 ,/orms s9k %ips1 dr[n+ pass5g]s & crew2 lightn+ sets fire to h\ses & /rikes human be+s dead2 e>?quakes swall[ up :ole di/ricts de/roy+ indu/ry & human life2 tidal waves sweep inl& c>ry+ away t[ns2 & our legal phraseology c ?9k ( no bett] explanation ( su* calamity ?an to ascribe x to ! act ( ,god4 ,x is ne$less to multiply ^! in/ances4 ,our own k supplies !m by ! score4 ,our p]sonal lives are full ( !m4 ,god's ,w1 ,god's ,love1 ,god's ,m]cy1 become /rangely ironic =ces1 grim beyond any op5 enmity4 ,!y rem9d u ( ! love1 ! pity1 ! m]cy1 9 :i* ! or?odox s5t ! h]etic to ! hangman or ! /ake1 de/roy+ ! body to save ! s\l4 ,x is a f> cry f ?is appall+ vision ( ! ,fa!r to ! psalmi/'s ,delight ?\ 9 ! ,"l & he %all give !e ! desires ( ?9e he>t4 ,h[ c\ld anyone delight 9 ! ,caucasian ,god1 z ! majority ( ,caucasians conceive ( ,him8 ,z a matt] ( fact1 h[ _m ,caucasians !mselves1 h[ev] dev\t1 h[ev] or?odox1 attempt to delight1 or pret5d to delight1 9 ! ,god to :om on occasions !y b[ d[n8 ,delight is a /rong ^w1 & a lovely "o2 b us$ ( ! ,caucasian & 8 ,deity x is n )\t its elem5ts ( hum\r4 ,,iii ,naturally en\gh6 ,x is impossible = any human be+ to delight 9 a ,god ^: fir/ impulse 9 do+ u good is s (t5 to ravage our prosp]ity & affections4 ,s long z we believe 9 ,him fe> w rule our lives4 ,x is because ! ,caucasian believes 9 ,him t he lives 9 fe> & dies 9 fe>4 ,to attempt to elim9ate fe> & reta9 ?is concept ( ,god is va94 ,und]/&+ ?is ! av]age ,caucasian has made little or no ef=t to elim9ate fe>4 ,he w\ld r live & die 9 fe> ?an *ange ?is concept ( ,god4 ,x is de> to him4 ,he f9ds x useful4 ,to its %\ld]s he c %ift ! ills ( :i* he is unwill+ himself to accept ! responsibility4 ,:]e ,god is a puzzle life is a puzzle2 & :]e life is a puzzle ! ,caucasian gets 8 *ance = mak+ ! mat]iali/ic ideal ! only "o t seems practical4 ,9 a _w :i* 0 to any noticeable degree fre$ f ! spectre ( fe> mo/ ( our exi/+ sy/ems ( gov]nm5t1 religion1 bus9ess1 law1 & national & int]national politics1 w\ld h to be remodell$4 ,!re w\ld be little or no use = !m4 ,built on fe> & run by fe>1 fe> is z ess5tial to _! exi/5ce z coal to our indu/ries4 ,a society t _h escap$ f fe> w\ld escape f _! control4 ,9 ?is pres5t spr+ ( #aiba we are hav+ an exhibition ( fe> on a scale s colossal t ! he>t ( man is daz$ by x4 ,!re is n a gov]nm5t :i* is n afraid ( "s o!r gov]nm5t4 ,!re is n a gov]nm5t :i* is n afraid ( its own p4 ,!re is n a p :i* is n afraid ( its own gov]nm5t4 ,!re is n a c\ntry 9 :i* "o gr\p is n afraid ( "s o!r gr\p4 ,all is rivalry1 enmity1 suspicion1 confusion1 & di/ru/1 :ile m5's he>ts are fa9t+ = fe>1 & = anxi\s expectation ( :at is com+ on ! _w4 ,all /atesm51 all m9i/]s1 all ambassadors1 all politicians1 all bank]s1 all bus9ess m51 all pr(essional m51 all j\rnali/s1 all f>m]s1 all labor]s1 all work]s 9 ! arts1 all m5 & wom5 ( all k9ds--) ! exception ( "o "h & !re :o has rea*$ ! und]/&+ ( ! love :i* ca/e? out fe>--live & "w 9 fe>1 & 9 mi/ru/ ( _! colleagues4 ,f ! supreme c\ncils ( ! ,allies d[n to ! crooks & conspirators 9 dives & jo9ts ev]yone is afraid ( be+ d\ble-cross$4 ,!re is s mu* d\ble-cross+ ev]y:]e t we h be5 oblig$ to inv5t ?is "n = ! op]ation4 ,engl& is afraid ( be+ d\ble-cross$ by ,g]many1 ,france by ,engl&1 ,italy by ,france1 ! ,unit$ ,/ates by ,europe1 & ,japan by ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 :ile )9 ^! g5]al limitations m9or d\ble-cross+ int]e/s see! l bact]ia 9 a drop ( poison$ blood4 ,! nations are infect$ ) fe> because !y elect to believe 9 a ,god ( fe>1 & ! ,caucasians m ?an o!rs because !y h *os5 to see a ,god ( fe> 9 ,him :o 0 put be=e !m z a ,god ( ,love4 ,,iv ,i see no way out ( all ?is except z "o ( u aft] ano!r rea*es ! ,metanoia1 ! new po9t ( view z reg>ds ,god4 ,o!r ways h be5 s\ght1 & h be5 f\nd no m ?an bl9d alleys4 ,mu* ref]5ce is made n[adays to ! disillusionm5t ( ^? :o hop$ t ! w> w\ld lead to social & spiritual r5ovation2 b any su* hope 0 doom$ 9 advance1 s long z ! ,caucasian concept ( ,god 0 un*ang$4 ,:5 y _c tru/ ,god y _c tru/ any?+2 & :5 y _c tru/ any?+ y get ! condition ( ! _w z x is to-day4 ,& t y _c tru/ a ,god ^: love w p>alyse ! h& by :i* y h to e>n a liv+1 or snat* y\r baby f y\r brea/--to say no?+ ( a ?\s& +5i\s =ms ( torture inflict$ j because ,he sees t x is be/ = y1 aft] hav+ l$ y to see o!rwise--t y _c tru/ a ,god l t mu/ be m or less self-evid5t4 ,if y are "p ( ,8 ,self-,expression ,he _c practise futilities ?r\gh y\r exp]i5ce & p]sonality4 ,he mu/ be k9d ) a common-s5se k9dness1 lov+ ) a common-s5se love4 ,:atev] explanation ( our suff]+s & failures !re may be we mu/ n %uffle !m (f on ,god4 ,let u hold ,god to be true1 ,/4 ,paul writes1 ?\gh e man %\ld prove false4#aa ,let u hold t ,god w\ld n hurt u1 h[ev] mu* we may wilfully hurt ea* o!r or ourselves4 #aa ,epi/le to ! ,romans4 ,v ,i %\ld n lay s mu* emphasis on ?is if s mu* emphasis 7 n laid on x 9 ! o!r direction4 ,god has s p]si/5tly1 & = s _m g5]ations1 be5 held up to u z a ,god :o tries & torm5ts & puni%es t we c h>dly see ,him z any?+ else4 ,torture comes1 9 ! m9ds ( _m ( u1 to be n only ,8 ma9 function b ,8 only function4 ,i am all "r1 is ! unspok5 ?\ght 9 _m a he>t1 s long z ,i am n ov]tak5 by ! ,w ( ,god4 ,:5 t calamity falls on me my poor little human happ9ess w be wreck$ l a skiff 9 a cyclone4 ,?is is n an exagg]ation4 ,x is ! secret m5tal attitude ( p]haps n9ety p]c5t ( ^? ,caucasians :o believe 9 a ,god ( any k9d4 ,_! root-conviction is t if ,god w\ld only let !m alone !y w\ld get along well en\gh2 b z a t]rible av5g+ _s1 l ! ,fury or ! ,nemesis ( ! anci5ts1 he is always track+ !m d[n4 ,! av]sion f ,god s noticeable 9 ! m9d ( to-day is1 ,i v5ture to ?9k1 *iefly inspir$ by ! in/9ct to get away f1 or to hide f1 ! pursuit ( ?is ,av5g]4 ,,vi ,& 9 a measure ?is impulse to flight c be und]/ood4 ,i c und]/& t common-s5se m5 %\ld be cold t[>d ! ,caucasian ,god1 & t !y %\ld ev5 r5\nce & d5\nce him4 ,i w g s f> z to say t ,i c m easily und]/& ! a!i/ ?an ,i c _m ( my own fri5ds :o pa!tically try to love & adore _! caprici\s un-,*ri/like ,deity4 ,to my c]ta9 k _m ( !m are do+ x aga9/ _! own natural & bett] in/9cts1 because !y d>e n =sake ! tradition 9 :i* !y h be5 dy$4 ,i try to love ,god & ,i c't1 has be5 said to me _m a "t by consci5ti\s p :o felt t ! fault mu/ lie 9 !mselves4 ,!re 0 no fault 9 !mselves4 ,if _! ,god c\ld h be5 lov$ !y w\ld h lov$ him4 ,,vii ,i come "h to a po9t ( no small importance to ! conque/ ( fe>1 ! c\rage to release oneself f ! te!r ( tradition4 ,few p h x1 9 ! s5se ( reject+ old !ories because ( hav+ work$ out to new spiritual k4 ,:5 x comes to ! et]nal v]ities _m ( u are c[>dly2 ne>ly all ( u are timid4 ,! imm5se majority ( u pref] a ,god at second or ?ird h&4 ,we w accept :at somebody else has le>n$1 r ?an incur ! tr\ble or ! responsibility ( le>n+ any?+ = ourselves4 ,we take our k ( ,god z we take our doses ( m$ic9e1 f a prescription :i* "o man has writt5 d[n1 & ano!r has put up1 & /ill ano!r adm9i/]s4 ,by ! "t ?is traditional1 h&$-on k ( ,god has rea*$ ourselves x is dilut$ by all k9ds ( outside op9ions & p]sonalities4 ,x is n /range t :5 we h swall[$ ! dose x does little to effect a cure4 ,i d n d5y t a second or ?ird h& k ( ,god may d some?+4 ,i only d5y t x c d mu*4 ,to support my d5ial ,i ne$ only po9t to :at ! _w has become 9 a second & ?ird h& ,*ri/5dom4 ,! illu/ration is en\gh4 ,x %\ld be pla91 ,i ?9k1 t no "o w ev] be releas$ f fe> by cl++ to ! tea*+s :i* h inspir$ fe>4 ,we are fe>less 9 proportion z we gr[ indep5d5t en\gh to "k = ourselves4 ,i _c b /ress ?is po9t to "s ext5t1 = ! reason t ,i myself suff]$ s long f inability to let ! traditional g4 ,x seem$ to me to h a sanctity j because x 0 traditional4 ,! fact t o!r p _h accept$ c]ta9 ideas _h weight 9 mak+ me feel t ,i %\ld accept !m too4 ,to g (f on a l9e ( my own seem$ dang]\s4 ,i might make mi/akes4 ,i might g f> wrong4 ,safety 0 spell$ by hang+ ) ! cr[d4 ,x 0 ! *ance rem>k ( an old acqua9tance :i* dislodg$ me f ?is position4 ,9 ! lobby ( a hotel we _h met by *ance1 aft] n hav+ se5 ea* o!r = a good _m ye>s4 ,! conv]sation1 hav+ t\*$ on "o !me & ano!r1 drift$ to subjects ak9 to t :i* ,i am n[ discuss+4 ,i v5tur$ to disclose "s ( my own seek+ ,god1 if p]haps ,i c\ld grope = ,him & f9d ,him4#ab #ab ,acts ( ! ,apo/les4 ,my fri5d /raight5$ himself & squ>$ 8 %\ld]s4 ,i /& exactly :]e ,i did ?irty ye>s ago4 ,!re 0 a pride 9 ! /atem5t ) reg>d to :i* my fir/ feel+ 0 a pang ( envy4 ,a rapid calculation told me t ?irty ye>s ago he _h be5 ab\t tw5ty2 & ! sup]iority ( a man :o at tw5ty _h atta9$ to s mu* spiritual insight t he _h n ne$$ to le>n any?+ m 9 ! int]im 0 evid5t4 ,i 0 two or ?ree days turn+ ?is incid5t ov] 9 my m9d be=e ! exclamation came to me1 ,h[ t]rible6 ,to h liv$ ?r\gh ! ?irty ye>s ( ! ri*e/ exp]i5ce ! ord9>y man ev] kn[s & /ill h rema9$ on precisely ! same spot z to spiritual ?+s /ruck me !n z a woeful confession4 ,i beg to say "h t ,i am n talk+ ( ext]nal & (ficial religi\s connections4 ,i am try+ to avoid ! subject ( ext]nal & (ficial religion altoge!r4 ,i am speak+ n ( religion b ( ,god4 ,to my m9d ! two h no m ?an ! relation ( ! words ( a song & ! music ( its sett+4 ,y may use !m toge!r or y may consid] !m ap>t4 ,i am consid]+ !m ap>t1 & conf9+ myself :olly to ! words ( ! song4 ,:at is kn[n z *ur*-affiliation1 ! music ( ! sett+1 ,i am n conc]n$ )4 ,my only topic is ! way 9 :i* ! mean+ ( ! words gets ov] to ! av]age inn] man1 & ! effect ^u him m5tally4 ,i rev]t1 !re=e1 to ! /atem5t t to make ! k9d ( spiritual progress :i* w ov]come fe> x w be (t5 necess>y to let g ! ?+ we h outliv$4 ,(t5 ! ?+ we h outliv$ w be some?+ de> to u1 because !re 0 once a "t :5 x s]v$ our turn4 ,b our turn to-day may ne$ some?+ diff]5t f ! turn ( ye/]day1 & ! refusal to foll[ new light simply because x is new leads 9 ! end to m5tal p>alysis4 ,i 0 once ask$ to sign a petition to ! mayor ( a city pray+ t1 on ! gr\nd ( its novelty1 electric light+ might be exclud$ f ! /reet 9 :i* ,i liv$4 ,exactly ?is same reluctance (t5 keeps u f mak+ *anges ( ano!r sort1 ev5 :5 we feel t ! light :i* hi!rto 0 en\gh = u has be5 outgr[n & outclass$4 ,! dang] ( ! lone que/ lead+ a man a/ray c be easily exagg]at$4 ,x is n z if ,god 7 difficult to f9d4 ,! s\l _c move1 wake1 or op5 ! eyes1 )\t p]ceiv+ ,god4 ,= ?is comm&m5t :i* ,i comm& !e ?is day1 x is n hidd5 f !e1 nei!r is x f> (f4 ,x is n 9 heav5 t ?\ %\lde/ say1 ,:o %all g up = u to heav5 & br+ x d[n unto u t we may he> x & d x8 ,nei!r is x beyond ! sea t ?\ %\lde/ say1 ,:o %all g ov] ! sea = u & br+ x unto u t we may he> x & d x8 ,b ! ^w is v nigh unto !e1 9 ?y m\? & 9 ?y he>t4#ac ,no motion t[>d ! ,univ]sal c miss ! ,univ]sal4 ,i _c escape f ! ,ev]-,pres5t2 ! ,ev]-,pres5t _c escape f me4 ,intellectually ,i may make mi/akes 9 d$uction1 b spiritually ,i _c b f9d ,god4 ,! little ,i le>n ( ,god = myself is to me wor? m ?an all ! second & ?ird h& k ,i c ga!r f ! sa9ts4 #ac ,! ,book ( ,deut]onomy4 ,,viii ,x is ! m necess>y to dwell on ?is = ! reason t :atev] ,metanoia1 or new ori5tation1 is to be br\ght ab\t mu/ be on ! "p ( individuals4 ,!re is no hope = l>ge numb]s act+ toge!r1 or = any k9d ( gr\p-impulse4 ,gr\p-impulse among ,caucasians is ne>ly always fright5$1 cons]vative1 reaction>y1 or d]isive ( ! =w>d /ep4 ,!re is h>dly an exception to ?is 9 ! :ole hi/ory ( ,caucasian ideas4 ,o!rwise x w\ld be a pleasant dream to imag9e :at might n[ be happ5+ on ! great int]national /age4 ,let u suppose t ! lead]s ( ! s-call$ ,*ri/ian c\ntries 7 all conv9c$ ( ! ?ree ma9 l9es ( ,god's direction ,i h already tri$ to sket*4 ,let u ?9k ( su* m5 z ,lloyd ,george1 ,clem5ceau1 ,s=za1 ,presid5t ,h>d+1 & ! heads ( gov]nm5t 9 ,belgium1 ,russia1 ,g]many1 & all o!r c\ntries affect$ by ! pres5t w> ( moves & c\nt]-moves--let u ?9k ( !m z agre$ on ! pr9ciples3 #a4 ,t ea* kn[s himself & 8 c\ntry z an ag5t 9 ! h& ( ,god1 direct$ surely t[>d a good end2 #b4 ,t ea* kn[s ea* ( 8 colleagues & 8 c\ntry z equally an ag5t 9 ! h& ( ,god1 direct$ surely t[>d a simil> good end2 #c4 ,t ea* kn[s t betwe5 ,god's ag5ts !re c be nei!r conflict+ int]e/s nor cla% ( wills1 & t suspicion & c\nt]-suspicion mu/ be out ( place1 s9ce "u ,god's direction no d\ble-cross+ is possible4 ,! picture is almo/ comic 9 its incongruity ) :at actually is4 ,! m]e ?\ght ( ^! protagoni/s ( ! c5tury work+ 9 h>mony to "o great purpose1 )\t di/ru/ ( ea* o!r's motives1 & ) no necessity = anyone's dodg+ political f\l play1 summons ! smile ( irony4 ,mutual tru/ 0 nev] s mu* a sugge/ion to laugh d[n4 ,! m]e h9t t x might be possible w\ld make "o a t>get = ! wit ( ! exp]i5c$4 ,9 :at we call ! practical _w ( to-day !re is no appeal f ! ,god ( ,fe> b to ! ,god ( ,fe>4 ,! great mass ( ,caucasians w n h x o!rwise4 ,& x requires no prophetic vision to =esee ! results ( ! ef=ts to br+ ab\t int]national h>mony :ile all are obey+ ! decrees ( ! ,goddess ( ,discord4 ,ne>ly ?ree ye>s aft] ! sign+ ( ! armi/ice ! _w is 9 a m hopeless situation ?an x 0 :5 at w>4 ,up to ! pres5t ea* new move only makes matt]s worse4 ,!re are ^? :o believe t our phase ( civilisation is /agg]+ into ! abyss & t no?+1 z f> z c n[ be descri$1 w save x f ! deluge4 ,,ix ,possibly6 ,fe> t5ds always to produce ! ?+ x is afraid (4 ,i m5tion ?is d>k outlook only = ! reason t ev5 if ! cataclysm 7 to come ! individual c escape f x4 ,cataclysms are n new 9 ! hi/ory ( our race4 ,! rise & fall ( civilisations may be call$ mank9d's lessons 9 h[ n to d x4 ,( ^! lessons !re are no su* records z ^? :i* we f9d 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t2 & 9 ^! records x is unfail+ly po9t$ out t :atev] ! calamity :i* ov]takes ! _w at l>ge ! individual has1 if he *ooses1 a way ( safety4 ,! innoc5t are n ov]:elm$ ) ! guilty1 except :5 ! innoc5t delib]ately %ut _! eyes to ! op5+ t[>d ! ,sot]ia--! ,safe ,return4 ,b t1 unhappily1 ! innoc5t d s %ut _! eyes is "o ( ! commone/ facts 9 life4 ,back 9 t twilight ( hi/ory ( :i* ! lat] tale c\ld be told only by "s symbol1 "s leg5d>y hi]oglyph1 !re 0 already an ,ark by :i* ! fai?ful few c\ld be sav$ f ! ,flood4 ,! symbol became p]man5t4 ,! ,ark ( ! ,cov5ant--! sign ( a great spiritual und]/&+--rema9$ z a tok5 to man t 9 ,god he _h a sure refuge4 ,x 0 laid up 9 8 ,holy ( ,holies1 a my/ic1 consecrat$ pl$ge1 till ! ru?less ,caucasian came & rifl$ x4 ,b no rifl+ c\ld deprive mank9d ( its significance4 ,t endures4 ,to br+ x home to ! desolate & oppress$ 0 a l>ge "p ( ! mission ( psalmi/s & prophets4 ,! ,ark ( ! ,cov5ant--( ! ,great ,und]/&+--meant z mu* to ^? :o s\ght ,god 9 ! anci5t _w z ! ,cross does to ,*ri/5dom4 ,x meant t :atev] ! collapse1 national or g5]al1 ?r\gh siege or sack or fam9e1 ^? :o w\ld escape c\ld escape by ! simple process ( m5tally tak+ refuge 9 ,god4 ,! ,ark ( ,god w\ld be> !m safely :5 all mat]ial help fail$4 ,among ! !mes :i* run ?r\gh ! ,old ,te/am5t ?is is ( p>am\nt importance4 ,x is impossible to d m ?an ref] to ! _m times ! spiritually m9d$ 7 implor$ to seek ?is protection4 ,x 0 ne$ful to implore !m s9ce !y f\nd ! assurance s difficult to believe4 ,no matt] h[ (t5 x 0 prov$ to !m !y /ill d\bt$ x4 ,sav$ by ?is me?od once !y w\ld reject x :5 x came to dang] ! second "t4 ,sav$ ! second "t !y reject$ x ! ?ird4 ,?\ %alt keep him 9 p]fect peace ^: m9d is /ay$ on !e1 because he tru/e? 9 !e1 is ! decl>ation ( ,j]emiah1 :o p]haps m ?an any o!r 0 a prophet ( disa/]4 ,simil> /atem5ts are scatt]$ ?r\gh ! ,old ,te/am5t by ! score1 by ! hundr$4 ,x 0 a po9t on :i* lead]s1 se]s1 & tea*]s insi/$ ) a passionate insi/5ce4 ,!y knew4 ,!y _h te/$ ! tru? = !mselves4 ,disa/] 0 a common feature 9 _! hi/ory4 ,dur+ ! ?ree ?\s& ye>s & m :i* _! exp]i5ces cov] ^! ,israelites _h se5 m ?an "o invasion sweep across _! l&1 m ?an "o civilisation come & g4 ,all t ,belgium knew 9 ! ,great ,w> !y knew "t & "t aga94 ,betwe5 ,egypt & ,assyria1 ! ,france & ,g]many ( t special epo*1 !irs 0 a k9d ( buff] /ate ov] :i* e new angui% roll$4 ,let x roll1 0 ! cry ( _! prophets4 ,! ,"l w fight = y4 ,/& /ill & see :at he w d4 ,8 arm is n %ort5$ nei!r 8 /r5g? dim9i%$4 ,x is ( ! ,"l to save :e!r by _m or by few4 ,tru/ 9 ! ,"l & be do+ good1 s %alt ?\ dwell 9 ! l&1 & v]ily ?\ %alt be f$4 ,oh1 h[ great is ?y goodness :i* ?\ ha/ wr\ght = !m t tru/ 9 !e be=e ! sons ( m54 ,i said 9 my ha/e1 ,i am cut (f6 ,nev]!less ?\ he>de/ ! voice ( my supplication :5 ,i cri$ unto !e4 ,be ( good c\rage & he %all /r5g!n y\r he>t1 all ye t hope 9 ! ,"l4#ad #ad ,v>i\s ,old ,te/am5t ,s\rces4 ,x ,9 _m ways ?is is ! burd5 ( ! m anci5t ,scriptures--! protection :i* surr\nds ^? :o "k t protection is ,god4 ,x 0 a gospel t _h to be prea*$ ) te>s & besee*+s f "o g5]ation to ano!r4 ,no g5]ation accept$ x4 ,! belief 9 mat]ial p[] 0 always too d5se4 ,x is /ill too d5se4 ,9 ! ,ark ( ! ,great ,und]/&+ ! ,caucasian has practically nev] se5 m ?an a symbol t has gone out ( date4 ,lo/ mat]ially 9 ! ,tib] mud x 01 = him1 lo/ =ev]4 ,b n s4 ,its significance rema9s z vital to mank9d z :51 veil$ & v5]at$1 x /ood betwe5 ! *]ubim4 ,! "t may be close at h& :5 we %all ne$ ?is assurance z we ne$ no?+ else4 ,h[ev] optimi/ic we try to keep ourselves1 no ?9k+ man or woman c be free1 at ?is crisis 9 _w-hi/ory1 f deep =ebod+4 ,= ! memory to g back t5 ye>s is1 ev5 = u 9 ! ,new ,_w1 l return+ to a ,gold5 ,age2 :ile = ! ,old ,_w m]e recollection mu/ be poignant4 ,! possibility t all c\ntries 9 bo? hemisph]es may f9d !mselves 9 "s su* agony z t ( ! ,russia ( to-day is n too extravagant to be ent]ta9$4 ,?is is n say+ t !y are likely s to f9d !mselves2 x means only t 9 ! _w z x is ! safe/ is n v safe4 ,my po9t is t :e!r cata/rophe ov]:elms u or n1 he :o *ooses n to fe> c be free f fe>4 ,!re is a refuge = him1 a def5ce1 a safegu>d :i* no mat]ial attack c break d[n4 ,he t dwelle? 9 ! secret place ( ! ,mo/ ,high %all abide "u ! %ad[ ( ! ,almighty4 ,i w say ( ! ,"l1 ,he is my refuge--my =tress--my ,god4 ,9 ,him w ,i tru/4#ae ,!re is ?is ,ark = me1 ?is ,ark ( ! ,great ,und]/&+1 & ,i c retire into x4 ,i c also h ?is fur!r assurance3 ,because ?\ ha/ made ! ,"l :i* is my refuge--ev5 ! ,mo/ ,high--?y habitation1 !re %all no evil befall !e1 nei!r %all any plague come nigh ?y dwell+4 ,= he %all give 8 angels *>ge ov] !e to keep !e 9 all ?y ways4#af #ae ,! ,book ( ,psalms4 #af ,! ,book ( ,psalms4 ,,xi ,?is is ! et]nal agreem5t1 b an agreem5t ( :i* we f9d x difficult to accept ! t]ms4 ,to ! mat]ial alone we are 9 ! habit ( ascrib+ p[]4 ,?\gh we repeat a ?\s& times 9 ! c\rse ( a ye>1 ,= ?9e is ! k+dom1 ! p[]1 & ! glory1 we d n believe x4 ,to few ( u is x m ?an a sonor\s phrase4 ,i rememb] ! impression ( ?is :i* "o receiv$ at ! great ?anksgiv+ = peace 9 ,/4 ,paul's ,ca!dral 9 ,london "s tw5ty ye>s ago4 ,! ,bo] ,w> _h end$ 9 an ,engli% victory1 & :ile ! ?anksgiv+ 0 n precisely = ?is1 x did express ! relief ( an anxi\s nation t peace 0 aga9 re/or$4 ,x 0 :at is g5]ally kn[n z a mo/ impressive s]vice4 ,all t a great spectacle c (f] to ,god x (f]$4 ,k+1 que51 pr9ces1 pr9cesses1 ambassadors1 m9i/]s1 cl]gy1 admirals1 g5]als1 & a va/ assembly ( citiz5s fill$ ! *oir & nave ) col\r & life1 :ile ! music 0 ( t passionless beauty ( :i* ! ,engli% ca!dral *oirs gu>d ! secret4 ,b ! detail ,i rememb] be/ 0 ! way 9 :i* ! repetition ( ! ,"l's ,pray] roll$ f ! lips ( ! assembly l ! s\nd ( ! surg+ ( ! sea4 ,x 0 ! emotional effect ( a /rongly emotional mom5t4 ,"o felt t5se4 ,x 0 h>d to re/ra9 te>s4 ,z f> z cr[d-sympa?y has any spiritual value x 0 !re4 ,! ,caucasian ,god 0 tak5 out ( ,8 pigeon-hole & publicly recognis$4 ,!n ,he 0 put back4 ,i take ?is s]vice m]ely z an in/ance ( :at happ5s 9 all ! s-call$ ,*ri/ian capitals 9 mom5ts ( national /ress4 ,outw>dly x happ5s less 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ?an x does else:]e1 = ! reason t ?is c\ntry has no "o repres5tative spiritual expression2 b x does happ5 "h 9 diffus$ & g5]al effect4 ,z a ,*ri/ian nation we ascribe 9 common ) o!r ,*ri/ian nations ! k+dom1 ! p[]1 & ! glory to ,god--on occasions4 ,we d x ) ! pi\s ge/ure & ! sonor\s phrase4 ,!n we =get x4 ,! habit ( mat]ial tru/ is too /rong = u4 ,k+s1 que5s1 presid5ts1 pr9ces1 prime m9i/]s1 congresses1 p>liam5ts1 & all o!r repres5tatives ( mat]ial /r5g?1 may repeat = =mal use ! conv5tional clause2 b !re is always :at we flippantly "k z a jok] 9 ! lip-recitation4 ,k+dom1 p[]1 & glory1 we c he> ourselves say+ 9 a he>t-aside1 lie 9 money1 guns1 comm]ce1 & police4 ,god is n suffici5tly a =ce 9 ! affairs ( ?is _w = u to give ,him m ?an ! consid]ation ( an act ( c\rtesy4 ,practically t is all we ev] get f gr\p-impulse--an act ( c\rtesy4 ,i repeat & repeat aga9 t :atev] is done t[>d ! conque/ ( fe> mu/ be done by ! individual4 ,i mu/ d :at ,i c to conqu] fe> 9 myself1 reg>dless ( ! attitude or op9ions ( m5 9 g5]al4 ,to m5 9 g5]al ! appeal to spiritual =ce to br+ to naught mat]ial =ce is little %ort ( fanatical4 ,x has nev] be5 o!rwise z yet2 x w probably n be o!rwise = long g5]ations to come4 ,mean:ile x is mu* = ! individual to "k t he c act on 8 own initiative1 & t :5 x comes to mak+ ,god 8 refuge he c g into t refuge alone4 ,he ne$s no nation1 or gov]nm5t1 or society1 or companions be=e him or beh9d him4 ,he ne$s nei!r lead] nor guide nor fri5d4 ,9 ! =tress ( ,god he is free to ent] m]ely z himself1 & !re "k t he is safe amid a _w 9 agony4 ,,xii ,?is is n !ory2 x is n doctr9e2 x is n op9ion4 ,x is :at ! great pione]s ( tru? h fir/ d$uc$ f :at !y und]/ood to be ! ess5tial b5efic5ce ( ,god1 & !n prov$ by actual demon/ration4 ,anyone else c demon/rate x :o *ooses to make ! exp]im5t4 ,my own weakness is su* t ,i h made ! exp]im5t b p>tially2 b p>tial exp]im5t conv9ces me beyond all fur!r que/ion+ t ! witness ( ! great pione]s is true4 ,,xiii ,nor is ?is conviction to be class$ z idealism1 or ecclesia/icism1 or my/icism1 or any?+ else to :i* we c put a tag4 ,x is n sect>ian2 x is n peculi>ly ,*ri/ian4 ,x is ! g5]al possession ( mank9d4 ,true1 x is easi] = ! ,*ri/ian ?an = any o!r to ent] on ?is h]itage1 s9ce 8 spiritual desc5t is m directly f ! pione]s ( tru? :o fir/ discov]$ ,god to be ,8 *ildr5's safety2 b ! ,univ]sal is ! ,univ]sal1 ! prop]ty ( all4 ,discov]y gives no "o an exclusive hold on x4 ,anyone ) a consci\sness ( ,almighty1 ,ev]-,pres5t ,intellig5ce mu/ h "s degree ( access to x1 ?\gh 8 access may n be to ! fulle/ or ! easie/4 ,x is n possible t ! ,univ]sal ,fa!r %\ld be ! special prop]ty ( ! ,*ri/ian or ( anyone else4 ,! ,*ri/ian view ( ! ,fa!r is und\bt$ly ! true/2 b e view is true 9 proportion to its grasp ( tru?4 ,no "o w d5y t ! ,buddhi/1 ! ,mahometan1 ! ,confuciani/1 h _! grasp ( tru?4 ,ev5 ! primitive idolat] has "s fa9t gleam ( x1 di/ort$ ?\gh x may h become4 ,v well1 !n2 ! fa9te/ gleam ( su* k w n g )\t its recomp5se4 ,,xiv ,exclusiv5ess is too mu* our ,caucasian habit ( m9d4 ,x is l9k$ ) our in/9ct = own]%ip4 ,because ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/ we h a cle>] view ( a great] segm5t ( ! ,univ]sal1 if ,i may s express myself1 ?an ! ,buddhi/ c h ?r\gh ,buddha or ! ,mahometan ?r\gh ,mahomet1 our t5d5cy is to ?9k t we "k ! :ole ( ! ,univ]sal1 & h x to give away4 ,any o!r view ( ! ,univ]sal is to u s false z to m]it n m]ely condemnation b extirpation4 ,extirpation has be5 ! wat*word ) :i* ,caucasian ,*ri/ianity has gone ab\t ! _w4 ,we h tak5 t[>d o!r views ( tru? no su* sympa!tic /& z ,/4 ,paul to t :i* he f\nd 9 ,greece1 & :i* is wor? recall+3 ,m5 ( ,a!ns1 ,i p]ceive t y are 9 e respect rem>kably religi\s4 ,= z ,i pass$ along & obs]v$ ! ?+s y wor%ip1 ,i f\nd also an alt> ) ?is inscription1 ,,to ,,! ,,unkn[n ,,god4 ,! ,be+1 !re=e1 :om y1 )\t kn[+ x1 rev]e1 ,him ,i n[ proclaim to y4 ,god :o made ! univ]se & ev]y?+ 9 x--,he be+ ,"l ( heav5 & e>?--does n dwell 9 sanctu>ies built by m54 ,nor is ,he adm9i/]$ to by human h&s z ?\gh ,he ne$$ any?+--b ,he ,himself gives to all m5 life & brea? & all ?+s4 ,he caus$ to spr+ f "o =efa!r p ( e race1 = !m to live on ! :ole surface ( ! e>?1 & m>k$ = !m an appo9t$ span ( life1 & ! b\nd>ies ( _! homes2 t !y might seek ,god1 if p]haps !y might grope = ,him & f9d ,him4 ,yes1 ?\gh ,he is n f> f any "o ( u4 ,= x is 9 close/ union ) ,him t we live & move & h our be+2 z 9 fact "s ( ! poets 9 repute among y\rselves h said1 ',= we are also ,8 (fspr+4'#ag #ag ,acts ( ! ,apo/les4 ,to ! conque/ ( fe> ?is spl5did univ]salism is ano!r ess5tial4 ,god be+ n f> f any "o ( u _c be f> f me4 ,he :o gives to all m5 life & brea? & all ?+s w n possibly d5y me ! ?+s ,i require mo/ urg5tly4 ,our :ole civilisation may g to pieces2 ! job by :i* ,i e>n a liv+ may cease to be a job2 ! money ,i h inve/$ may become ( no m value ?an ,russian bonds2 ! *ildr5 :om ,i hop$ ,i _h provid$ = may h to face life empty-h&$2 all my accu/om$ l&m>ks may be remov$1 & my social moor+s swept away2 nev]!less1 ! ,univ]sal _c fail me4 ,al?\gh ! figtree %all n blossom nor fruit be 9 ! v9es2 ?\gh ! lab\r ( ! olive %all fail1 & ! fields yield no meat2 ?\gh ! flocks be cut (f f ! fold & !re be no h]d 9 ! /alls2 yet ,i w rejoice 9 ,god1 ,i w joy 9 ! ,god ( my salvation4 ,x is safe to say t ?is confid5ce on ! "p ( ,habakkuk 0 n due to m]e grim =c+ ( ! w4 ,x 0 ! fruit ( exp]i5ce1 ( k1 ( demon/ration4 ,9 spite ( ! dang]s national & p]sonal he saw ?reat5+1 8 c]ta9ty ( ,god mu/ h be5 spontane\s4 ,anyone1 9 any c\ntry1 9 any epo*1 & ( any cre$ or no cre$1 :o has %>$ ?is exp]i5ce %>es also ?is assurance4 ,to ! ,*ri/ian x comes easie/2 b t x does n come easy ev5 to ! ,*ri/ian is a matt] ( common obs]vation4 ,x c only come easily :5 "s demon/ration has be5 made = oneself1 aft] :i* !re is no m disput+ x4 ,,xv ,nor is x a "q ( morals or morality4 ,i mu/ v5ture "h on delicate gr\nd & say :at ,i %\ld hesitate to say 7 ! contr>y n s /rongly und]scor$4 ,i mean t ,god1 f :at we und]/& to be ,8 nature1 c\ld n accord u ,8 protection by weigh+ ! good & ! evil 9 our conduct1 & giv+ or )hold+ help accord+ to our wor?9ess4 ,! ,univ]sal is too great to be measur$ & dol$ 9 t way4 ,no?+ b our own p9*beck ideas c\ld ascribe to ,him ?is pett9ess4 ,z x is ! k9d ( slid+ scale we ourselves adopt1 we limit ! ,div9e ,g5]osity by our own limitations4 ,n s 0 ! und]/&+ ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,t we %\ld be k9d to ! s-call$ evil z we are to ! s-call$ good 0 a po9t on :i* ,he dwelt 9 ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt4 ,to discrim9ate betwe5 !m :5 x comes to ! possibility ( conf]r+ b5efits is 9 ,8 op9ion small4 ,y h he>d t x 0 said1 ',?\ %alt love ?y neighbor1 & hate ?9e enemy4' ,b ,i comm& y all1 ,love y\r enemies1 & pray = y\r p]secutors2 t s y may become true sons ( y\r ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,= ,he causes ,8 sun to rise on ! wick$ z well z on ! good1 & s5ds ra9 ^u ^? :o d "r & ^? :o d wrong4#ah #ah ,/4 ,mat!w4 ,9 o!r words1 we are n to feel ourselves turn$ out ( our habitation 9 ,god by a s5se ( our moral lapses4 ,moral lapses are to be regrett$1 ( c\rse2 b !y d n vitiate our /atus z ! ,sons ( ,god4 ,x is possible t no "o believes !y d2 b mu* ( ! loose /atem5t curr5t among ^? :o lay emphasis on morals w\ld give t impression4 ,!re is a :ole v]nacul> 9 vogue 9 :i* s\ls are lo/ or sav$ accord+ to ! degree to :i* !y con=m or d n con=m to o!r p's views z to :at !y ought to d4 ,mu* ( our pietism is to ! effect t ,god is at ! be/[al n m]ely ( a sect1 b ( "s section ( a sect1 & _c be f\nd ?r\gh any o!r s\rce4 ,,xvi ,?is br+s me to ! di/9ction betwe5 morals & righte\sness1 :i* is "o = ! m9d ( to-day to keep z cle>ly z possible be=e x4 ,i h said t ! refuge 9 ,god is n a "q ( morals2 b x is "o ( righte\sness4 ,betwe5 righte\sness & morals ! diff]5ce is important4 ,morals /& = a code ( obs]vances2 righte\sness = a direction ( ! life4 ,morals repres5t j :at ! ^w implies1 ! cu/oms ( an age1 a c\ntry1 or a phase 9 civilisation4 ,!y h no absolute /&>d4 ,! morals ( "o c5tury are n ^? ( ano!r4 ,! morals ( "o race are n ^? ( ano!r ev5 9 ! same c5tury4 ,9 _m respects ! morals ( ! ,ori5tal diff] radically f ^? ( ! ,occid5tal1 age-long usage be+ beh9d ea*4 ,x is z h>d to conv9ce ei!r t 8 are ! inf]ior z x w\ld be to make him ?9k s ( 8 "m-tongue4 ,i once ask$ a cultivat$ ,*9aman1 a graduate ( "o ( ! great ,am]ican univ]sities & a ,*ri/ian ( ! ?ird g5]ation1 9 :at ma9 respect he ?\ght ,*9a sup]ior to ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,9 morals1 he repli$1 promptly2 b ev5 z a ,*ri/ian educat$ 9 ,am]ica 8 !ory ( morals 0 diff]5t f ours4 ,among ourselves 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ! ess5ce ( morals is by no means a subject ( unanim\s agreem5t4 ,y might say t a /&>d ( morals is entirely a matt] ( op9ion4 ,!re are millions ( p :o ?9k x immoral to play c>ds1 to g to ! !atre1 to dance1 or to dr9k w9e4 ,!re are millions ( o!r p :o hold all ^! acts to be consi/5t ) ! highe/ moral conduct4 ,moreov]1 :]ev] ! emphasis is ?r[n on morals z di/9ct f righte\sness !re is a t5d5cy to put ! weight on two or ?ree po9ts 9 :i* nations or individuals excel1 & to ignore ! re/4 ,= example1 n to g outside ourselves1 ! ,am]ican p may be fairly said to exemplify two ( ! great virtues3 ,on ! :ole !y are1 fir/1 sob]2 secondly1 cont95t4 ,z a result we acc5tuate morals 9 ^! respects1 b n 9 any o!rs4 ,= in/ance1 ! curr5t expression1 an immoral man1 is almo/ c]ta9 to apply only "u ! two head+s cit$ above1 & probably only "u "o4 ,all o!r morals & immoralities g by ! bo>d4 ,we %\ld n class a di%one/ man z an immoral man1 nor an untru?ful man1 nor a pr(ane1 or spiteful1 or ung5ial1 or bad-temp]$1 man4 ,our notion ( morals h>dly ev] rises above ! av]age cu/om ( ! community 9 :i* we happ5 to live4 ,except 9 ! r>e/ in/ances we nev] pause to reflect z to :e!r ! cu/oms ( t community are or are n well f\nd$4 ,! consequ5ce is t our cities1 villages1 c\ntrysides1 & social gr\p+s are fill$ ) m5 & wom5 moral en\gh z f> z ! cu/om ( ! c\ntry goes1 b q noticeably unrighte\s4 ,x is also a fact t :]e y f9d "o or two virtues s+l$ out = obs]vance & ! re/ obscur$ !re y f9d1 too1 ?rongs ( outw>dly moral p ) corrod$ he>ts4 ,villages1 *ur*es1 & all ! quiet] communities are notori\s = ?is1 ! peculi>ity hav+ =m$ = a hundr$ & fifty ye>s ! /ock-9-trade ( noveli/s4 ,sobriety & cont95ce be+ m or less 9 evid5ce ! assumption is t all ! requirem5ts h be5 fulfill$4 ,! community is moral not)/&+ ! back-bit+s1 he>t-burn+s1 sl&]s1 *eat+s1 envies1 hatr$s1 & bitt]nesses t may p]meate x ?r\gh & ?r\gh4 ,z ,i write1 ! cramp$1 v5om\s1 unlovely life ( ! ,am]ican small t[n is ! fav\rite !me ( our au?ors & read]s ( fiction4 ,s9ce a numb] ( ! works n[ on ! m>ket h met ) national approval "o mu/ assume t ! pictures !y pa9t are accurate4 ,! conditions are appall+1 b1 accord+ to ! cu/om ( ! c\ntry1 !y are moral4 ,! %ad[ ( insobriety & incont95ce doesn't t\* ! *>act]s :o move across ^! pages1 & yet ! level ( ! life is pictur$ z debas$1 & habits z hide\s4 ,,xvii ,) morals 9 ?is accept$ ,am]ican s5se righte\sness has little to d4 ,! two are diff]5t 9 orig94 ,morals imply ! compulsion ( m51 & are nev] m b9d+ ?an ! cu/oms ( m5 r5d] !m4 ,!y are ?us impos$ f )\t1 :ile righte\sness spr+s f )94 ,! ess5ce ( righte\sness lies 9 ! turn+ ( ! individual t[>d ,god4 ,i ?9k x safe to say t righte\sness is express$ m accurately 9 attitude ?an 9 conduct4 ,x is express$ 9 conduct1 ( c\rse2 b conduct may fail :ile ! attitude c rema9 con/ant4 ,x is wor?y ( rem>k t "s ( ! great examples ( righte\sness cit$ 9 ! ,bible 7 conspicu\sly s9n]s4 ,t is to say1 !y 7 m5 ( /rong human impulses aga9/ :i* !y 7 n always suffici5tly on gu>d1 b :o turn$ t[>ds ,god 9 spite ( ev]y?+4 ,9 ! long l9e spann+ ! c5turies betwe5 ,noah & ,abraham & ,pet] & ,paul--f ! almo/ prehi/oric out into ! light ( day--n "o is put be=e u except 9 8 weakness z well z 9 8 /r5g?4 ,"s ( !m commit gross s9s2 b app>5tly ev5 gross s9s d n deb> !m f _! privileges 9 ,god's love4 ,?is pr9ciple 0 express$ 9 ! words ( ,samuel3 ,fe> n3 ye h done all ?is wick$ness2 yet turn n aside f foll[+ ! ,"l4444 ,= ! ,"l w n =sake 8 p = 8 great "n's sake4 ,t ! ,univ]sal :o has all ! bless+s ( creation to be/[ %\ld deprive me ( any?+ j because 9 my folly or weakness ,i h committ$ s9s is n consi/5t ) 8 great "n's sake4 ,x w\ld n be caus+ ,8 sun to rise on ! wick$ z well z on ! good nor s5d+ ra9 on ^? :o d "r & ^? :o d wrong4 ,i am too small = ,8 imm5sity to cru% ) its puni%m5ts1 b n too small to be ! object ( ,8 entire love4 ,,xviii ,i hope x is pla9 t ,i say ?is n to make little ( do+ wrong b to put ! love & fulness ( ,god 9 ! dom9at+ place4 ,i mu/ make x cle> to myself t ,he does n %ut me out ( ,8 he>t because ,i am guilty ( s9s4 ,i may %ut myself out ( ,8 he>t1 unless ,i direct my m9d rightly2 b ,he is always !re1 un*ang$1 un*angeable1 ! ev]-lov+1 ev]-welcom+ ,fa!r4 ,:atev] ,i h done ,i c return to ,him ) ! k t ,he w take me back4 ,f> f sure ( myself1 ,i c always be sure ( ,him4 ,!re are ^? :o w\ld w>n me aga9/ say+ ?is ?r\gh fe> le/ x %\ld be int]pret$ z1 ,don't be afraid to s9 s long z y keep m5tally close to ,god4 ,i pref] to run t risk4 ,! dread figure ( an angry ,god has be5 s work$ to t]rorise m5 t l>ge numb]s ( u h be5 t]roris$4 ,b exp]i5ce %[s u e day t be+ t]roris$ nev] produces ! results at :i* x aims4 ,x does n w9 u2 x drives u away4 ,mu* ( ! ali5ation f ,god 9 ! m9d ( to-day is due to rebellion on ! "p ( our s5se ( ju/ice4 ,we are s9n]s1 ( c\rse2 b n su* s9n]s z to m]it ! rev5ge :i* an outrag$ deity is describ$ z plann+ aga9/ u4 ,t ! ,all-lov+ & ,all-mighty %\ld smite u 9 our de>e/ aims or our sweete/ affections j because we h n con=m$ to ! lop-sid$ morality ( m5 is revolt+ to our in/9cts4 ,we are repuls$ by ! ,god ( ,fe> :5 we are drawn1 com=t$1 /r5g!n$1 & *ang$ by ,him :o is nev] any?+ t[>d u b ! ,fa!r4 ,i h no hesitation1 !re=e1 9 ?r[+ ! emphasis 9 :at ,i h to say on ! fact t ,he is a place to hide me 9--! ,ark ( ! ,great ,und]/&+--always op5 to my approa*--into :i*1 :atev] ,i h done1 ,i c g boldly4 ,,*apt] ,v ,,! ,,m9d ,,( ,,to-,,day ,,& ,,! ,,_w ,,z ,,x ,,is ,i ,mu* ( :at ,i h writt5 w seem inconsi/5t ) ! fact t 9 ! _w z x is !re are und5iable & inevitable h>d%ips4 ,true6 ,i d n escape !m m ?an any o!r man1 ! relative relief f fe> sav+ me f only "s ( !m4 ,i h n meant to say t ev5 ) "o's refuge 9 ,god !re is no?+ left to /ruggle )4 ,my po9t is t :atev] !re may be to /ruggle ) !re is no?+ to be afraid (4 ,fre$om f /ruggle w\ld pr(it u n at all4 ,on ! contr>y1 x w\ld r5d] u n]veless1 flabby1 flaccid1 & in]t4 ,b fe>1 z a rule1 be+ connect$ ) our /ruggles1 x is important1 ,i ?9k1 to be z cle> z we c conc]n+ ! purport ( ^? /ruggles1 & _! s\rce4 ,we h already se5 t fe> is dim9i%$ 9 proportion z we und]/& t our trials are n motiveless1 & p]haps ?is is ! po9t at :i* to consid] briefly :at ! motives are4 ,,ii ,/ruggle we may def9e z ! act ( wre/l+ ) trial1 s z to come out ( x victori\sly4 ,x is a con/ant elem5t 9 e human life4 ,fur!rmore1 ,i am incl9$ to ?9k t1 tak+ trial z an av]age1 ! am\nt :i* ent]s into "o life diff]s little f t :i* ent]s into ano!r4 ,!re 0 a "t :5 ,i did n ?9k s4 ,"s lives /ruck me z s+l$ out = tr\ble2 o!rs 7 left comp>atively immune f x4 ,"o w\ld h said t de/9ies _h be5 mapp$ ) a /range disreg>d = ju/ice4 ,^? :o didn't des]ve x suff]$2 ^? :om suff]+ might h purifi$ w5t scot free4 ,"s 7 ri*1 o!rs 7 poor2 "s _h high positions1 o!rs humble ones2 "s _h ! respect ( ! _w f ! day !y 7 born1 o!rs crept along f bir? to dea? 9 re/riction & obscurity4 ,! contra/s 7 s cruel t !y scor*$ ! eyes ( ! s\l4 ,?is is true1 ( c\rse2 & ,i am n say+ t 9 ! te/+ to :i* ev]yone is subject$ all h an equal %>e ( ! opportunities = triumph+4 ,i am speak+ = ! mom5t only ( ! degree to :i* ! te/+ comes4 ,z to t1 ,i am incl9$ to feel t !re is little to *oose betwe5 "o life & ano!r1 s9ce ea* ( u seems to be tri$ = all t he c be>4 ,"o is impress$ ) t 9 "o's read+ ( biography4 ,only ! lives ( :at we may call ! fav\r$ few get into pr9t1 & ( ^? few x is *iefly ! ext]nal ev5ts t are giv5 u4 ,glimpses ( ! inn] exp]i5ce may be obta9$ f "t to "t1 b !y are r>ely m ?an glimpses4 ,( :at ! man or ! woman has endur$ 9 ! secret fa/nesses ( ! inn] life practically no?+ c be told4 ,& yet ev5 ) ! little t f9ds its way into words h[ mu* !re is ( desp]ate fight+4 ,to ?is !re is nev] an exception4 ,! great /atesman1 ! great poet1 ! great prie/1 ! great sci5ti/1 ! great explor]1 ! great pa9t]1 ! great noveli/--n "o b suff]s z anyone suff]s1 & ( n "o w\ld ! read]1 z a rule1 put himself 9 ! place4 ,i br+ up ?is fact because we s (t5 feel t ! o!r man has an easi] task ?an ourselves4 ,! v ?+ ,i lack is t ) :i* he is bless$4 ,i see him smil+ & debonair at ! m9ute :5 ,i am 9 a f]m5t4 ,:ile ,i h>dly "k h[ to make bo? ends meet he is build+ a big h\se or buy+ a new motor-c>4 ,:ile ,i am bury+ hope or love he is 9 ! full enjoym5t ( all t makes = happ9ess & prosp]ity4 ,we are always prone to contra/ our d>k] m9utes ) our fri5ds' bright] ones4 ,we =get1 or p]haps we nev] "k1 t !y d ! same ) u4 ,at times we are z mu* ! object ( _! envy z !y ev] are ( ours4 ,i say ?is n on ! pr9ciple t mis]y loves company1 b 9 ord] to d away ) ! hea!n suspicion l+]+ 9 _m m9ds t ,god s+les me out = trial1 heap+ b5efits on o!rs :o des]ve !m no m ?an ,i d4 ,god s+les no "o out = trial4 ,:5 trials come !y spr+1 z ne>ly z ,i c obs]ve1 f "o or all ( ! ?ree foll[+ s\rces4 ,!re are3 ,a4 ,! trials :i* come f a _w ( matt]2 ,b4 ,! trials :i* come f a _w ( m52 ,c4 ,! trials we br+ on ourselves4 ,,iii ,a4 ,! m9ute we speak ( matt] we speak ( a m$ium :i* ! m9d ( to-day is j beg9n+ to und]/&4 ,! m9d ( o!r days did n und]/& x at all4 ,few phases ( mod]n advance seem to me m significant ( a clos] approa* to ! und]/&+ ( spiritual ?+s ?an t :i* has be5 made along ^! l9es4 ,to all ! g5]ations be=e our own matt] 0 a %e] & positive d5sity4 ,its h>dness1 solidity1 & actuality c\ld n be ga9said4 ,e>? 0 e>?2 iron 0 iron2 wood 0 wood4 ,blood 0 blood2 fle% 0 fle%2 bone 0 bone4 ,a man 0 a mat]ial be+ atta*$ to a mat]ial planet1 z a sponge is atta*$ to ! bottom ( ! sea4 ,all t he t\*$ & ate & wore & us$ 0 ( ! same mat]ial ,absolute4 ,z to ! spiritual !re c\ld be a "q2 z to ! mat]ial !re c\ld be none4 ,! speculation ( occasional philosoph]s1 t matt] might n aft] all be m ?an a m5tal ph5om5on1 0 inv>iably hoot$ d[n4 ,i "k t matt] is matt] by /&+ on x1 are 9 sub/ance ! words attribut$ to ev5 s spiritually-m9d$ a man z ! great ,dr4 ,johnson4 ,on ?is po9t1 z p]haps on "s o!rs1 he may be tak5 z a spokesman = ! ,caucasian portion ( our race4 ,& n[ comes mod]n physical sci5ce r$uc+ matt] to a t5u\sness only "o remove f ! purely spiritual1 if x is z mu* z t4 ,gone is ! mass ( ! m\nta9s1 ! /on9ess ( rocks1 ! h>d solidity ( iron4 ,! human body1 z someone puts x1 is no m ?an a few pails ( wat] & a h&ful ( a%4 ,a% & wat] are alike dissipat$ into gases1 & gases into elem5ts m subtle /ill4 ,keep+ /rictly to ! mat]ial mod]n sci5ce has rea*$ ! conf9es ( mat]iality4 ,:]e x w lead u next no man kn[s4 ,b ! inf]5ce is n unfair t ! _w ( matt] is to a consid]able degree1 & p]haps altoge!r1 a _w ( man's own creation4 ,t is to say1 :ile ,god is do+ "o ?+ ) x1 ! human m9d und]/&s ano!r4 ,= ! human po9t ( view to develop & develop & develop till x becomes id5tical ) ,god's is p]haps ! :ole purpose ( exi/5ce4 ,,iv ,to me p]sonally x 0 no small help 9 ov]com+ fe> :5 ,i saw ! purpose ( exi/5ce z express$ 9 ! s+le ^w1 ,gr[?4 ,t1 at lea/1 is a legitimate inf]5ce to draw f ! hi/ory ( life on ?is planet4 ,assum+ t ! univ]se conta9s an intelligible design ( any sort1 & t life on ?is planet is "p ( x1 a va/ developm5t go+ on et]nally t[>d complete und]/&+ ( ,inf9ite ,"r & ,happ9ess w\ld give u "s explanation ( ! my/]y ( our be+ "h4 ,beg9n+1 = reasons at :i* we c only guess1 f> away f t und]/&+1 we are =ev] approa*+ x1 ) =ev] ! joy ( some?+ new to ma/] or to le>n4 ,new p]ceptions1 new compreh5sions1 new insights ga9$1 new victories1 ev5 little victories1 won1 con/itute1 ,i ?9k1 our treasures laid up 9 t heav5 :]e nei!r mo? nor we>-&-te> de/roys1 & :]e ?ieves d n break 9 & /eal4 ,:]e ?is treasure is1 !re1 naturally en\gh1 our he>ts w be also4 ,look+ back ov] ! ages s9ce ! life-pr9ciple fir/ glid$ into our planet wat]s--h[ x did s is z yet "p ( our unsolv$ my/]y--:at we *iefly see is a great surg+ ( ! liv+ ?+ upw>d & upw>d t[>d t ,highe/ ,univ]sal to :i* we give ! "n ( ,god4 ,v ,t is a po9t :i* we d n suffici5tly seize--t ,god is n reveal$ to u by "o av5ue ( tru? alone1 b by all ! av5ues ( tru? work+ toge!r4 ,) our t5d5cy to keep ! ,univ]sal 9 a special comp>tm5t ( life we see ,him z mak+ ,himself kn[n ?r\gh a l9e ( tea*]s culm9at+ 9 a ,*ur* or a complex ( *ur*es2 & we r>ely ?9k ( ,him z mak+ ,himself kn[n 9 any o!r way4 ,to *ange ! figure1 ,he trickles to u l a brook in/ead ( ba?+ u r\nd & r\nd l light or air4 ,b all good ?+s mu/ express ! ,univ]sal2 & all discov]y ( tru?1 :e!r by religion1 sci5ce1 philosophy1 or imag9ative art1 mu/ be discov]y 9 ,god4 ,! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts & ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt are discov]ies 9 ,god1 b s are ! advances 9 k made by ,plato1 ,ari/otle1 ,rog] ,bacon1 & ,?omas ,edison4 ,he %[s ,himself ?r\gh ,abraham1 ,moses1 ,isaiah1 & ,/4 ,paul1 b also ?r\gh ,hom]1 ,%akespe>e1 ,mi*ael ,angelo1 ,bee?ov51 ,d>w91 ,george ,eliot1 ,william ,james1 & ,h5ry ,irv+4 ,i take ! names at r&om z illu/rat+ diff]5t bran*es ( endeav\r1 & if ,i use only great ones x is n t ! less] are exclud$4 ,no "o dep>tm5t ( human ef=t is specially ,81 or is ,8 special expression4 ,! ,*ur* _c be s m ?an ! /age1 or music m ?an philosophy4 ,8 ,holy ,_s c be no m outp\r$ on ! bi%op or ! eld] = 8 "w ?an on ! inv5tor or ! sci5ti/ = 8 "w4 ,i say s n to m9imise ! outp\r+ on ! bi%op or ! eld]1 b to magnify t on ev]yone work+ = progress4 ,?is1 ,i take x1 is :at ,/4 ,john means :5 he says1 ,god does n give ! ,_s ) limitations4 ,he :o always gives all to all ,8 *ildr5 _c give m4 ,:5 our ,"l re/ores sight to a bl9d man1 or ,pet] & ,john cause a lame man to walk1 we see manife/ations ( ,god2 b we see equal manife/ations ( ,god :5 "o man gives u ! telephone1 ano!r ! motor-c>1 & ano!r wireless telegraphy4 ,:atev] decl>es ,8 p[] decl>es ,him2 & :atev] decl>es ,him is a means by :i* we press upw>d to ! p]ception ( ,8 lov+ almight9ess4 ,! advance may be irregul> b x is advance2 & all advance is advance t[>d ,him4 ,,vi ,t is to say1 we are ris+ above a conception ( life 9 :i* matt] is our ma/]2 & yet we are ris+ above x sl[ly4 ,?is is my *ief po9t "h1 because by und]/&+ x we see :y we /ill suff] f mat]ial afflictions4 ,we h ov]come "s ( !m1 b only "s ( !m4 ,x is a "q ( racial developm5t4 ,z we glance backw>d we see h[ mu* ( ! way we h cov]$2 z we look r\nd on our pres5t conditions we see h[ mu* !re is /ill to be a*iev$4 ,to dim9i% fe> we %\ld h x1 ,i ?9k1 cle>ly be=e u t ! human race has done z yet only "p ( its "w1 & put u 9 possession ( only "p ( ! res\rces :i* w "o day belong to u4 ,if we c\ld comp>e ourselves ) our ance/ors 9 ! days1 let u say1 ( ,*ri/oph] ,columbus or ,william ! ,conqu]or we %\ld seem 9 relation to !m l *ildr5 ( a high] phase ( creation4 ,if we c\ld comp>e ourselves ) our desc5dants ( five hundr$ or a ?\s& ye>s h5ce we %\ld probably be amaz$ at our pres5t futility & grossness4 ,our ance/ors 9 ! ,middle ,ages c\ld d c]ta9 great ?+s1 z we1 too1 c d c]ta9 great ?+s2 b 9 g5]al access to ! ,univ]sal ,/oreh\se :i* is ,god we h made progress 9 ways unkn[n to !m1 z our *ildr5 w make su* progress aft] u4 ,b we h made only ! progress we h made4 ,we h its advantages1 b !re are advantages to :i* we h n yet atta9$4 ,we might lik5 ourselves to p :o h rea*$ ! f\r? or fif? /ep ( a /airway 9 :i* !re are tw5ty or ?irty4 ,we h climb$ to a c]ta9 height1 b we are f> f hav+ rea*$ ! plane to :i* we are asc5d+4 ,,vii ,x is wor? not+ ?is = ! reason t we are s likely to ?9k ( ourselves z ! climax to :i* ! ages h work$ up1 & aft] :i* !re is no beyond4 ,we are ! f9al ^w1 or z ! ,fr5* express x1 ! la/ cry1 le d]ni] cri4 ,all t c be felt we h felt1 all t c be kn[n we h exp]i5c$4 ,= ! mo/ "p ?is /& is tak5 by ! intellectuals 9 all mod]n c\ntries4 ,9 u ( to-day1 ( ?is v h\r1 ! wave ( ,et]nity has brok51 ?r[+ no?+ at our feet b fro?4 ,! lit]ature ( ! pa/ t5 ye>s is soak$ 9 ! pessimism ( ^? :o regret t ?is %\ld be all t ! travail ( ,"t c\ld produce = u4 ,9 view ( ?is moan f s _m ( ! writ]s :o h ! public e>1 especially 9 ,europe1 x is ! m important to keep be=e u ! fact t we are *ildr5 ( a race b p>tially develop$ at be/4 ,comp>$ ) :at w "o day be )9 human scope our actual rea* is only a little beyond impot5ce4 ,i say ?is n m]ely at a v5ture1 b on ! /r5g? ( :at has happ5$ 9 ! pa/4 ,we are n a p :i* has accompli%$ mu*1 b "o on ! way to accompli%m5t4 ,! a*ievem5ts ( :i* we c boa/ are relatively l ^? ( a *ild ( five :o boa/s t he c c\nt4 ,our :ole _w-condition %[s u to be racially incompet5t1 & able to produce no m ?an incompet5t lead]s4 ,t is our pres5t high-wat] m>k1 & ) our high-wat] m>k we mu/ le>n to be satisfi$4 ,escap+ f matt] we are /ill )9 ! grasp ( matt]1 & %all probably s cont9ue = g5]ations to come4 ,our /ruggles mu/ !re=e be l>gely ) matt]1 till little by little we a*ieve its dom9ation4 ,9 proportion z ! individual does s n[ he reaps ! rew>d ( 8 victory2 & 9 proportion z he reaps t rew>d fe> is ov]come4 ,our prim>y fe> be+ fe> ( matt]1 mu* is ga9$ by grasp+ ! fact :i* mod]n sci5ce = ! pa/ t5 or fifte5 ye>s has be5 c>efully putt+ be=e u--va9ly z f> z mo/ ( u are conc]n$--t :at we call matt] is a =ce subject to ! control ( m9d1 :ile ! direct+ ( m9d re/s :olly ) ourselves4 ,s9ce we h controll$ matt] to make x 9 s _m ways a ho/ile =ce1 x ought to be )9 our p[] to turn x 9 our fav\r4 ,,viii ,:i* is1 ,i suppose1 ! tr5d we are foll[+1 ev5 if we foll[ x unconsci\sly4 ,= ! turn+ ( ! matt] 9 our fav\r we h =tunately "s notable examples4 ,our race has produc$ "o p]fectly normal man to :om all ( u sub-normals c look z ! type ( :at we are "o day to become4 ,i ?9k x a pity t s mu* ( our ?\ght ( ,him makes ,him an exception to human possibilities4 ,9 speak+ ( ,him z ! ,son ( ,god we fancy ,him z be+ 9 ano!r category f ourselves4 ,we =get t we1 too1 are sons ( ,god--heirs ( ,god & co-heirs ) ,*ri/4#ai ,x is true t ,he realis$ t ,son%ip to a degree :i* we d n2 b x is also true t we ourselves realise x to "s degree4 ,9 ! detail ( ! ma/]y ( matt] to :i* we %all atta9 x is fair1 ,i ?9k1 to take ,him z our /&>d4 #ai ,epi/le to ! ,romans4 ,tak+ ,him z our /&>d we %all "w out1 ,i v5ture to ?9k1 to ! foll[+ po9ts ( progress4 a4 ,! control ( matt] 9 furni%+ ourselves ) food & dr9k1 by means m direct ?an at pres5t employ$1 z ,he turn$ wat] into w9e & f$ ! multitudes ) ! loaves & fi%es4 b4 ,! control ( matt] by putt+ away f ourselves1 by me?ods m sure & less r\ndab\t ?an ^? ( to-day1 sickness1 bl9dness1 infirmity1 & de=mity4 c4 ,! control ( matt] by regulat+ our atmosph]ic conditions z ,he /ill$ ! tempe/4 d4 ,! control ( matt] by re/or+ to ?is phase ( exi/5ce ^? :o h pass$ out ( x be=e _! "t1 or :o c ill be sp>$ f x1 z ,he rais$ ?ree "y p f ! dead & ,pet] & ,paul foll[$ ,8 example4 e4 ,! control ( matt] 9 putt+ x (f & on at w1 z ,he 9 ,8 dea? & resurrection4 f4 ,! control ( matt] 9 pass+ altoge!r out ( x1 z ,he 9 :at we call ,8 ,asc5sion into ,heav54 ,,ix ,x w be obs]v$ t ,i take z hi/oric records ! /atem5ts ( ! ,bible4 ,?is ,i d 9 face ( ! ef=ts ( _m ( ! cl]gy 9 a numb] ( ! *ur*es to make me see 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t *iefly a collection ( my?s1 & 9 ! ,new a s]ies ( compilations by irresponsible h&s1 ( d\btful date & au?ority1 leav+1 9 ! case ( our ,"l1 only a sub/ratum :i* c be reli$ on z biographical4 ,z an in/ance ( :at ,i mean ,i quote ! foll[+3 ,a few weeks ago ,i happ5$ to m5tion to ! di/+ui%$ head ( "o ( ! mo/ important !ological s*ools ( "o ( ! l>ge/ d5om9ations 9 ! c\ntry1 our ,"l's turn+ ! wat] into w9e4 ,i've no idea t ,he ev] did any?+ ( ! k9d1 7 ! words ) :i* he dismiss$ ! subject1 :i* ,i did n take up aga94 ,i am n argu+ "h aga9/ 8 po9t ( view4 ,i m]ely /ate t ,i d n %>e x1 & = ^! two ma9 reasons3 ,fir/1 because ! s-call$ ,high] ,criticism on :i* x is bas$ is a purely evanesc5t phase ( man's le>n+1 likely to be reject$ to-morr[ by ^? :o accept x to-day1 z has be5 ! case ) o!r su* phases2 ,secondly1 because ,i feel sure t1 ) ! ma/]y ( matt] to :i* we h already atta9$1 ! future developm5t ( our race w ju/ify ^! seem+ miracles1 & make !m z natural & commonplace z telegraphy & telephony4 ,i speak only = myself :5 ,i say t ! m ,i c feel r\nd me ! atmosph]e ( omnipot5ce ! less ,i am aw>e ( fe>4 ,x is a matt] ( c\rse t ! "o %\ld exclude ! o!r4 ,! s5se ( be+ myself1 9 a measure1 ! inh]itor ( omnipot5ce1 z an heir ( ,god & a co-heir ) ,*ri/1 becomes1 !re=e1 "o to cultivate4 ,?is ,i c d only 9 proportion z ,i see t my ,/&>d & ,example cultivat$ x be=e me4 ,9 my capacity z a son ( ,god ,i take z apply+ to myself ! words report$ by ,/4 ,john3 ,9 mo/ solemn tru? ,i tell y t ! ,son c d no?+ ( ,himself--,he c only d :at ,he sees ! ,fa!r do+2 = :atev] ,he does1 t ! ,son does 9 l mann]4 ,:ile say+s l ^!1 ( :i* !re are _m 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t1 apply d\btless1 9 ! fir/ place1 to ,him :o be/ exemplifies ! ,son%ip ( ,god1 !y mu/ apply1 9 ! second place1 ,i suppose1 to all :o exemplify t ,son%ip to any degree :atev]4 ,man is ! ,son ( ,god2 & x is wor? not+ t ,he :o is specially t]m$ ! ,son ( ,god is also specially t]m$ ! ,son ( ,man4 ,de> fri5ds1 ,/4 ,john writes1 else:]e1 we are n[ ,god's *ildr51 b :at we are to be 9 ! future has n be5 fully reveal$ to u4 ,i take x1 !re=e1 z no presumption on my "p to emphasise 9 my daily ?\ght my place z a co-heir ) ,*ri/1 feel+ t n only is ,god's almight9ess ex]cis$ on my behalf1 b t z mu* ( x z ,i "k h[ to use is plac$ 9 my h&s4 ,x ,?is la/1 ( c\rse1 is v little4 ,ev5 t little ,i use d\btfully1 timidly1 trembl+ly4 ,t is ! utmo/ rea* to :i* pres5t race-developm5t & p]sonal developm5t h br\ght me4 ,) reg>d to ! opportunities all r\nd me ,i am z if ,i /ood beside an air%ip 9 :i* ,i c\ld fly if ,i knew h[ to "w its eng9es1 :i* ,i d n4 ,o!r conv5i5ces besides air%ips w\ld be ( no good at all to me if someone m skilful ?an ,i didn't come to my aid4 ,!re is probably no p]son liv+ ( :om ! same is n true4 ,l>ge portions ( omnipot5ce are plac$ )9 h&s :i* are too busy grasp+ o!r ?+s to seize all t !y c\ld hold4 ,i rememb] ! enc\ragem5t x 0 to me :5 ,i und]/ood t to hold any?+ at all 0 s mu* to ! good z a />t+-po9t4 ,i _h be5 9 ! habit ( dwell+ on ! mu* ,i _h miss$ r ?an on ! little ,i _h appreh5d$4 ,b ! little ,i _h appreh5d$ 01 aft] all1 my real possession1 & "o ,i c\ld increase4 ,x is l ! few doll>s a man has 9 a sav+s bank4 ,t at lea/ is 81 not)/&+ ! millions he might h possess$ if he _h only kn[n h[ to acquire !m4 ,!re are _m in/ances ( a few doll>s 9 ! sav+s bank becom+ ! se$l+ ( millions be=e ! span ( a man's life is pass$4 ,to be glad ( :at we c d :ile kn[+ x is only a portion ( :at w "o day be done is to me a helpful po9t ( view4 ,!re may be tru? 9 all ?is1 is ! obs]vation ( a "y lady :o has scann$ :at ,i h writt51 & yet ,i don't believe t we %all ev] conqu] fe>4 ,t1 x seems to me1 is to tie *a9s & iron weights ab\t "o's feet :5 />t+ on a race4 ,if we are to keep 9 ! race at all1 to say no?+ ( w9n+ x1 ! _s mu/ be free4 ,"o mu/ add ! c\rage :i* spr+s f a p>tial k ( ! tru? to ! pati5ce "o gets f ! und]/&+ t z yet our k ( ! tru? is b p>tial4 ,,xi ,i (t5 ?9k t if ! *ur*es c\ld come to ?is la/ admission x w\ld be a help to !mselves & to all ( u4 ,z already h9t$ ,i am anxi\s to keep away f ! subject ( *ur*es ?r\gh a natural dread ( bitt]ness2 b ?is mu* ,i feel at lib]ty to say1 say+ x z ,i d 9 deep respect = ! bodies :i* h kept alive ! glimm] ( ,div9e ,light 9 a _w :i* w\ld h bl[n x out4 ,9 a p>tially develop$ race ! *ur*es c h no m ?an a p>tially develop$ grasp ( tru?4 ,a p>tially develop$ grasp ( tru? is mu*--x is pricelessly mu*--b x is n a k ( ! :ole tru?4 ,n be+ a k ( ! :ole tru? x %\ld be humble1 tol]ant1 & eag] to exp&4 ,! weakness ( ! ecclesia/ical sy/em /rikes me z ly+ 9 ! assumption1 or practical assumption1 on ! "p ( ea* sect t x is ! sole repository ( tru?1 & ( all ! tru?4 ,!re is no sect :i* does n claim m ?an all mank9d c claim4 ,moreov]1 !re is no sect :i* does n make its claims exclusively1 ass]t+ n only t ^! claims are "r1 b t all o!r claims are wrong4 ,to ! be/ ( my k1 ! sect has n yet ris5 :i* w\ld make m ?an %ad[y concessions to any o!r sect4 ,true1 x mu/ n be =gott5 t no sect bases its tea*+ on :at x has work$ out = itself1 b on ! revelation made to x 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,e sect w\ld admit t its own view ( tru? might h be5 p>tial 7 x n = ! fact t 9 ,jesus ,*ri/ x has ev]y?+4 ,:]e ! !ories ( m5 might be inadequate ,8 imm5se k comes 9 z supplem5t>y4 ,?is might be s _h ,he ,himself und]tak5 to give m ?an a p>tial view ( tru?4 ,b ,he says expressly t ,he does n4 ,he gives :at ,8 he>]s might be assum$ to be able to assimilate2 b t is all4 ,i h mu* m to say to y1 b y are unable at pres5t to be> ! burd5 ( x4#bj ,x be+ an axiom 9 tea*+ to give ! pupil only :at he c receive1 ?is is ! utmo/ t our ,"l attempts4 #bj ,/4 ,john4 ,he goes on1 h[ev]1 to add ^! words1 :i* are significant3 ,b :5 ,he has come--! ,_s ( ,tru?--,he w guide y into all ! tru?4#ba ,no d\bt t process is ev5 n[ go+ on1 & w cont9ue to g on 9 proportion z our race develops4 ,we are be+ guid$ into all ! tru?1 ?r\gh all k9ds ( *annels1 spiritual1 lit]>y1 sci5tific1 philosophical4 ,! nave supposition t ?is promise 0 kept on ! ,day ( ,p5teco/1 :5 a sudd5 access ( k committ$ all tru? to ! apo/les & ?r\gh !m to ! ,*ur* =ev]more1 is contradict$ by ! facts4 ,! apo/les _h no su* k & made no claims to its possession4 ,! ,*ur* has nev] _h x1 ei!r4 ,all tru? cov]s mu* m gr\nd ?an d que/ions ( ecclesia/ical =ms ( gov]nm5t or ( ! nature ( ! sacram5ts4 ,all tru? mu/ g z f> z ! ,univ]sal goes1 leav+ no?+ outside its range4 ,all tru? mu/ surely be su* self-evid5t tru? z to admit ( no fur!r diss5sions4 #ba ,/4 ,john4 ,tak+ tru? z a circle1 ! symbol ( p]fection1 we may assume t our ,"l disclos$ a view ( a v l>ge arc 9 its circumf]5ce4 ,b ( ! arc :i* ,he disclos$ no "o gr\p ( ,8 foll[]s has z yet p]ceiv$ ! :ole4 ,at ! same "t x is probable t ea* gr\p has p]ceiv$ "s arc ( t arc1 & an arc p]ceiv$ by no o!r gr\p4 ,all tru? be+ too l>ge = any "o gr\p to grasp1 ! ,bapti/ sees 8 segm5t1 ! ,ca?olic 81 ! ,me?odi/ 81 ! ,anglican 81 ! ,congregationali/ 81 until ! vision ( ,*ri/ is made up4 ,i "n only ! gr\ps ) :i* we are commonly mo/ famili>1 ?\gh we might g ?r\gh ! hundr$s ( ,*ri/ian sects & agree t ea* has its angle f :i* x sees :at is visible f no o!r4 ,?\gh !re is likely to be error 9 all su* p]ceptions a consid]able portion ( tru? mu/ be !re1 or ! sect 9 "q w\ld n survive4 ,x is safe to say t no sect comes into exi/5ce1 ?rives1 & endures1 unless x is to supply t :i* has be5 miss$ else:]e4 ,,xii ,:at place is !re !n = int]sect>ian or ecclesia/ical arrogance8 ,! "q is f> f =eign to my subject4 ,fe> is :at arrogance fe$s ^u2 fe> is :at arrogance produces2 & arrogance is ! special immorality ( *ur*es4 ,to my m9d ! *ur*es are almo/ preclud$ f combat+ fe>1 = ! reason t arrogance is to s m>k$ a degree _! out/&+ vice4 ,! ,ca?olic is arrogant t[>d ! ,prote/ant2 ! ,prote/ant is arrogant t[>d ! ,ca?olic2 ! ,anglican is arrogant to him :om he calls a ,diss5t] 9 ,engl&1 & m]ely un*ur*es 9 ,am]ica2 ! ,unit>ian is arrogant to ^? :om he ?9ks less intellectual ?an himself2 ^? :o believe 9 ! ,tr9ity are arrogant t[>d ! ,unit>ian4 ,all o!r ,*ri/ian bodies h _! own %ades ( arrogance1 entirely p]mitt$ by _! codes1 l scorn ( ! weak to ! knights ( ,ar?ur's c\rt4 ,an active1 recognis$1 & mutual arrogance all r\nd is ! reason :y x is s r>e to see any two or ?ree or half a doz5 ,*ri/ian sects "w = any cause 9 h>mony4 ,arrogance begets fe> z surely & prolifically z c]ta9 ( ! rod5ts beget (fspr+4 ,mu* has be5 writt5 dur+ ! pa/ fifty ye>s on ! beautiful !me ( ! reunion ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,r>ely does any great synod or conv5tion or c\ncil meet )\t "s s*eme or "s aspiration t[>d ?is end4 ,e n[ & !n a programme is put =?1 n[ by ?is body1 n[ by t1 ) ye>n+ & good int5tions4 ,& 9 e su* programme ! same grim hum\r is to be read beh9d ! bro!rly invitation4 ,we c all unite--if o!rs w ?9k z we d4 ,is x any wond] t no?+ ev] comes ( ^! ef=ts8 ,& yet1 ,i am p]suad$1 a day w dawn :5 some?+ w4 ,,xiii ,:5 he has come--! ,_s ( ,tru?--he w guide y into all ! tru?4 ,t w be 9 ! c\rse ( our race-developm5t4 ,z /ep is add$ to /ep1 z mile/one is pass$ aft] mile/one1 z we see m cle>ly :at c\nts & :at doesn't c\nt1 z we outgr[ *ildi%ness1 z we come m ne>ly to :at ,/4 ,paul calls mature manhood1 ! /ature ( full-gr[n m5 9 ,*ri/1#bb we %all d _m ?+s t n[ seem impossible4 ,among !m ,i ?9k we %all view int]sect>ian arrogance z a m>k ( enfeebl$ intellig5ce4 ,!re w come an era ( ecclesia/ical climb+ d[n4 ,we %all see m di/9ctly our own segm5t ( ! arc :i* our ,"l has reveal$1 & because ( t we %all "k t ano!r man sees :at we h miss$4 ,! ,me?odi/ w !n ackn[l$ge t he has mu* to le>n f ! ,ca?olic2 ! ,ca?olic w "k ! same ( ! ,bapti/2 ! ,anglican ( ! ,presbyt]ian2 ! ,unit>ian ( ! ,anglican2 & a co-op]ative univ]se be reflect$ 9 a co-op]ative ,*ur*4 ,ea* w lose some?+ ( 8 pres5t cocksur5ess & exclusiv5ess4 ,god w be se5 z too big = any sect1 :ile all ! sects toge!r w s9k out ( sight 9 ,god4 #bb ,epi/le to ! ,ephesians4 ,9 ! meantime we are only work+ t[>d t end1 b t[>d x we are work+4 ,e man :o believes 9 a *ur* is do+ some?+ to br+ t end ab\t :5 he gives a k9dly ?\ght to any o!r *ur*4 ,i say ?is ! m s9c]ely ow+ to ! fact t ,i myself am naturally bigot$1 & su* k9dly ?\ght does n come to me easily4 ,!re are sects ,i dislike s mu* t my eyes jump f ! v p>agraphs 9 ! newspap]s :i* m5tion !m4 ,& yet :5 ,i curb myself1 :5 ,i =ce myself to read !m1 :5 ,i =ce myself to read !m sympa!tically & ) a good wi% 9 my he>t1 my m5tal atmosph]e gr[s wid] & ,i am 9 a /rong]1 sur]1 /eadi]1 & m fe>less _w4 ,mu* criticism has be5 levell$ at ! ,*ur* )9 ! pa/ few ye>s2 b x %\ld be rememb]$ t ! ,*ur* no m ?an gov]nm5t1 no m ?an bus9ess1 no m ?an education1 c be ahead ( ! only p>tially develop$ race ( :i* %e is "o ( ! expressions4 ,%e is n yet out ( ! _w ( matt]1 ?\gh %e is em]g+4 ,9 proportion z h] concepts1 hopes1 & aims rema9 mat]ial %e w be z incompet5t z any o!r body ) ! same h&icaps & limitations4 ,9 proportion z %e le>ns to ov]?r[ arrogant reckon+s & e /ronghold t t[]s high 9 defiance ( ! k ( ,god1#bc %e w become ! lead] ( ! _w1 & our great deliv]] f fe>4 #bc ,second ,epi/le to ! ,cor9?ians4 ,,xiv ,b4 ,( ! trials br\ght ^u u by a _w ( m5 p]haps our *ief res5tm5t spr+s f _! unreasonabl5ess4 ,!y are n necess>y2 !y might be avoid$2 at _! wor/ !y c\ld be temp]$4 ,= ?is reason1 too1 !y take u by surprise4 ,^? :o br+ !m on u seem capti\s1 ?\ghtless1 cruel4 ,:5 !y c\ld s easily (f] u a help+ h& !y ob/ruct u = ! m]e sport ( do+ s4 ,p t[>d :om we h nev] _h an unk9dly ?\ght w (t5 g out ( _! way to d u a bad turn4 ,i %all n enl>ge on ?is1 s9ce mo/ ( u are 9 a position to enl>ge on x = ourselves4 ,!re is sc>cely an individual = :om ! way1 h>d en\gh at any "t1 has n be5 made h>d] by ! b>b$ wire entanglem5ts :i* o!r p ?r[ across 8 pa?4 ,almo/ any?+ we plan we plan 9 ! tee? ( someone's opposition2 almo/ any?+ ) :i* we try to associate ourselves is fraught ) discords & irritations t (t5 inspire disgu/4 ,! worlds 9 :i* co-op]ation is ess5tial1 f t ( gov]nm5tal politics to t ( (fices & homes1 are c5tres ( animosities & suspicions1 & !re=e bre$+-gr\nds ( fe>4 ,i suppose mo/ gr[n-up p c recall ! w\nd$ amazem5t ) :i* !y fir/ f\nd !mselves attack$ by someone to :om !y 7 n consci\s ( ev] hav+ giv5 cause4 ,"s are s5sitive to ?is sort ( ?+2 "s gr[ call\s to x2 "s are indiff]5t2 & "s are said to enjoy x4 ,9 ! ma9 ,i ?9k we are s5sitive & rema9 s5sitive4 ,i h be5 told by a relative ( "o ( ! ?ree or f\r greate/ liv+ writ]s ( ,engli% t ! unfav\rable comm5t ( a *ild w\ld affect him s t he w\ld be depress$ = h\rs4 ,/atesm5 & politicians1 ,i und]/&1 suff] f> m deeply 9 ! inn] self ?an ! out] self ev] gives a sign (4 ,! fact t our own weakness or folly or recklessness or wrong-do+ lays u op5 to a bl[ is n mu* consolation :5 x falls4 ,,xv ,= myself all ?is became m tol]able :5 ,i _h fully grasp$ ! fact t we are /ill to a consid]able degree a race ( savages4 ,f savages "o _c expect too mu*1 n ev5 f oneself4 ,we h advanc$ beyond ! /age at :i* "o naturally attack$ a /rang] simply because he 0 a /rang]1 b we h n advanc$ v f>4 ,! in/9ct to d "o ano!r h>m is /ill /rong 9 u4 ,we d "o ano!r h>m :5 x w\ld be j z easy1 p]haps easi]1 to d "o ano!r good4 ,j z ! ,a%anti hid+ 9 ! bu% w hurl 8 assegai at a pass]-by = no o!r reason ?an t he is pass+1 s our love ( do+ h>m w spit itself out on p j because we "k _! names4 ,p]sonally ,i f9d myself (t5 do+ x4 ,i c\ld on ! spur ( ! mom5t write z _m z tw5ty names ( p ( :om ,i am accu/om$ to speak ill )\t really kn[+ mu* ab\t !m4 ,i make x an excuse t !y are 9 ! public eye1 t ,i don't l _! politics1 or _! social op9ions1 or _! lit]>y output1 or ! ?+s !y d on ! /age4 ,any?+ w s]ve s long z x gives me ! opportunity to hurl my assegai z ,i see !m pass4 ,"o does x in/9ctively1 vici\sly1 because l o!r semi-savages "o is undevelop$ m5tally1 & x is to be expect$4 ,by expect+ x f o!rs half our res5tm5t is =e/all$4 ,kn[+ t f a race su* z ours we %all n get any?+ else we le>n to take x philosophically4 ,if ,i hurl my assegai at ano!r1 ano!r hurls 8 assegai at me1 & 9 a measure we are quits4 ,ev5 if1 try+ to rise above my inborn savag]y1 ,i )hold my assegai1 x is no sign t ano!r w )hold 81 & ,i may be w\nd$ ev5 9 ! ef=t to d my be/4 ,v well2 t1 too1 is to be expect$ & mu/ be tak5 manfully4 ,! le>n+ to take x manfully is :at z individuals we get out ( x4 ,= ! mo/ "p we are s(t at he>t1 s(t1 ,i mean1 n 9 ! s5se ( be+ t5d]1 b 9 t ( be+ flabby4 ,on myself ?is 0 borne 9 less ?an a ye> ago4 ,i _h = "s mon?s be5 work+ h>d at a picture-play :i* :5 put be=e ! public 0 l>gely misund]/ood4 ,:ile "s ( ! pap]s prais$ x o!rs criticis$ x sev]ely1 b :e!r !y prais$ or blam$ ,i 0 se5 z tea*+ a lesson1 a presumption f :i* ,i %r9k4 ,x is n t !re is any h>m 9 tea*+ a lesson if a man is qualifi$1 b ,i no long] consid] myself qualifi$4 ,%>+ ideas is "o ?+1 & ! highe/ pleasure ( ! reason2 b ! assumption t because y sugge/ an idea y seek to conv]t is q ano!r ?+4 ,if ,i fail$ to make x pla9 t 9 ?is pres5t book ,i 0 m]ely (f]+ ideas = inspection1 & 9 ! hope ( gett+ o!rs 9 return1 ,i %\ld put x 9 ! fire4 ,my picture-play once h&$ ov] to ! public ,i exp]i5c$ an int5se reaction ( depression4 ,to figure ?r\gh ! c\ntry1 :]ev] !re are scre5s1 z tea*+ a lesson seem$ m ?an ,i c\ld be>4 ,x 0 m ?an ,i c\ld be>1 till x fla%$ on me t ,i c\ldn't be> x m]ely because ,i 0 inw>dly flabby4 ,i 0 n tak+ ! exp]i5ce manfully4 ,i 0 n /&+ up to x1 nor gett+ f x t t\gh5+ ( ! inn] fibre :i* x _h to yield4 ,z usual 9 my case1 ow+ to an acqua9tance ) ! ,bible imp>t$ to me 9 *ildhood1 a sugge/ion f ! ,bible 0 t :i* right$ me aga9 t[>d *e]fulness4 ,x came1 z su* ?+s always d1 )\t any seek+1 or o!r op]ation beyond t ( ! subconsci\s self4 ,?\ !re=e endure h>dness1 z a good soldi] ( ,jesus ,*ri/4#bd #bd ,/ ,paul's ,second ,epi/le to ,timo?y4 ,x 0 exactly :at ,i ne$$ to d--to endure h>dness--to take x--to be> x--to be m ( a man = x4 ,moreov]1 ! idea 0 a new sugge/ion4 ,i _h n und]/ood be=e t to ! conque/ ( fe> ! h>d5+ ( ! inn] man is an auxili>y4 ,my object _h be5 to w>d (f fe> s t x %\ldn't t\* me2 b to let x /rike & reb\nd because x c\ld make no impact 0 an enl>g+ ( ! pr9ciple4 ,view+ ! exp]i5ce z a /r5g!n+ process enabl$ me n only to g ?r\gh x b to d s ) s]5ity4 ,?is1 ,i imag9e1 is ! ma9 ?+ we are to get out ( ! /ruggle br\ght on u ?r\gh liv+ 9 a _w ( m5 su* z m5 are to-day4 ,x is a pity !y are n bett]1 b be+ no bett] ?an !y are we c get t mu* f ! fact--! inn] h>d5+4 ,:51 ju/ly or unju/ly1 o!rs attack or hurt or worry or ang] or annoy me1 ! k t ?r\gh ! v trial ,i am t\gh5+ )91 :]e s (t5 ,i am )\t moral muscle1 c be a p]ceptible support4 ,,xvi ,c4 ,( ! two ma9 trials we br+ on ourselves ,i suppose x w\ld be only "r to put sickness fir/4 ,"u sickness ,i include ev]y?+ t makes = age1 decay1 & ! conditions commonly class$ z break+ up4 ,x is becom+ m & m recognis$1 ,i ?9k1 t physical collapse has g5]ally beh9d x a m5tal cause1 or a long s]ies ( m5tal causes too subtle = tabulation4 ,i %all n dwell on ?is1 = ! reason t dur+ ! pa/ fifty ye>s s mu* has be5 writt5 on ! subject4 ,a numb] ( movem5ts = human bett]m5t h kept ! :ole idea 9 ! =efront ( ! public m9d4 ,x is an idea only p>tially accept$ z yet1 ar\s+ z mu* opposition among ! cons]vative z hope on ! "p ( ! progressive4 ,s9ce1 h[ev]1 sci5ce & religion are bo?1 9 _! diff]5t ways1 work+ on x toge!r1 "s pr9ciple :i* c no long] be que/ion$ is likely to be work$ out )9 ! next few g5]ations4 ,all ,i %all attempt to d n[ is to re-/ate :at seems to me ! fact--/at$ by o!rs ) k & au?ority--t ,god1 rightly und]/ood1 is ! cure ( disease & n ! cause ( x4 ,!re is some?+ repugnant 9 ! ?\ght ( ,univ]sal ,intellig5ce propagat+ h>mful bact]ia1 & select+ ! crises at :i* we %all succumb to _! effects4 ,! belief t ,god s5ds sickness ^u u am\nts to nei!r less nor m ?an t4 ,! bacilli :i* we try to de/roy ,he uses ,8 almighty p[] to cultivate1 s t ev5 our ef=ts to protect ourselves become defiances ( ,8 ,w4 ,surely ! foll[+ incid5t1 :i* gives our ,"l's attitude t[>d disease1 af=ds a reasonable basis = our own4 ,once ,he 0 tea*+ on ! ,sabba? 9 "o ( ! synagogues :]e a woman 0 pres5t :o = eighte5 ye>s _h be5 a confirm$ invalid2 %e 0 b5t d\ble1 & 0 unable to lift h]self to h] full height4 ,b ,jesus saw h]1 & call+ to h]1 ,he said to h]1 ',woman1 y are free f y\r weakness4' ,& ,he put ,8 h&s on h]1 & %e imm$iately /ood upright & began to give glory to ,god4 ,!n ! ,w>d5 ( ! ,synagogue1 indignant t ,jesus _h cur$ h] on ! ,sabba? day1 said to ! cr[d1 ',!re are six days 9 ! week on :i* p ought to "w4 ,on ^? days !re=e come & get y\rselves cur$1 & n on ! ,sabba? day4' ,b ! ,"l's reply to him 01 ',hypocrites1 does n ea* ( y on ! ,sabba? day untie 8 bullock or 8 ass f ! /all & lead him to wat]8 ,& ?is woman1 daught] ( ,abraham z %e is1 :om ,satan _h b\nd = no less ?an eighte5 ye>s1 0 %e n to be loos$ f ?is *a9 because x is ! ,sabba? day8' ,:5 ,he _h said ?is all ,8 oppon5ts 7 a%am$1 :ile ! :ole multitude 0 delight$ at ! _m glori\s ?+s cont9ually done by ,him4#be #be ,/4 ,luke4 ,x 0 n ,god1 9 ,8 op9ion1 :o _h afflict$ ?is woman2 x 0 ,satan1 ! p]sonification ( all evil4 ,b 9 ord] t su* ref]5ces %\ld n be misund]/ood ,he _h said ( ,satan1 only a %ort "t be=e1 ,i beheld ,satan z lightn+ fall f heav54#bf #bf ,/4 ,luke4 ,heav51 ,i take x1 is creation z its ,creator sees x4 ,god saw ev]y?+ t he _h made1 & behold x 0 v good4#bg ,& f ?is creation1 ) ! rapidity ( ! quicke/ ?+ we "k any?+ ab\t1 a fla% ( lightn+1 our ,"l saw ! p]sonification ( evil blott$ out4 ,:at ?\ght _h =m$ ?\ght c\ld de/roy4 ,! spectre :i* misund]/&+ ( ,god _h rais$ 9 a life 9 :i* ev]y?+ 0 v good became no?+ at ! in/ant :5 ,god 0 und]/ood4 #bg ,! ,book ( ,g5esis4 ,! occasion ( ,8 speak+ ! words ,i h quot$ is wor? not+ z be>+ on ! subject4 ,a little e>li] ,he _h s5t out sev5ty ( ,8 disciples to be ! h]alds ( ! ,k+dom4 ,cure ! sick 9 t t[n1 & tell !m ! ,k+dom ( ,god is n[ at y\r door4#bh ,by ?is "t ! sev5ty _h return$1 exclaim+ joyfully1 ,ma/]1 ev5 ! demons submit to u :5 we utt] y\r "n4#bi ,x 0 app>5tly ! use ( ?is ^w demons :i* call$ =? f ,him t explanation1 ,i beheld ,satan z lightn+ fall f heav54 ,9 o!r words1 ,satan is ! creation ( wrong ?\ght2 ! demons are ! creations ( wrong ?\ght4 ,:]e ! ,univ]sal ,good is all !re c be no place = evil or evil spirits4 ,bani% ! concept & y bani% ! ?+4 ,! action is z quick z ?\ght1 & ?\ght is z quick z lightn+4 ,i h giv5 y p[]1 ,he goes on to add1 to tread s]p5ts & scorpions und]foot1 & to trample on all ! p[] ( ! ,enemy2 & 9 no case %all any?+ d y h>m4#cj #bh ,/4 ,luke4 #bi ,/4 ,luke4 #cj ,/4 ,luke4 ,?is 0 no special gift be/[$ on !m & only on !m4 ,god has nev]1 z f> z we c see1 dealt 9 special & tempor>y gifts4 ,he helps u to see ^? we possess already4 ,:at our ,"l seems anxi\s to make cle> is ! p[] ov] evil ) :i* ! human be+ is always end[$4 ,x is probably to be "o ( our great future discov]ies t 9 no case %all any?+ d u h>m4 ,z yet we sc>cely believe x4 ,only an individual "h & !re sees t fre$om & dom9ation mu/ belong to u4 ,b1 if ,i read ! signs ( ! times aright1 ! re/ ( u are sl[ly com+ to ! same conclusion4 ,we are less scornful ( spiritual p[] ?an we 7 ev5 a few ye>s ago4 ,! cocksure sci5tific :i* 9 its "t 0 n a :it less arrogant ?an ! cocksure ecclesia/ical is giv+ place to a consci\sness t man is ! ma/] ( _m ?+s ( :i* he 0 once suppos$ to be ! slave4 ,9 proportion z ! wis] among u are able to corroborate t :i* we simpl] ones feel by a six? or sev5? s5se1 a long /ep w be tak5 t[>d ! immunity f suff]+ :i* our ,"l knew to be ideally our inh]itance4 ,,xvii ,sickness1 age1 decay1 ) all ! horrors ) :i* we inve/ our exit f ?is phase ( exi/5ce1 ,i take to be a misread+ ( ,god's int5tions4 ,we %all le>n to read bett] by & by1 & h already begun to d s4 ,to ?is beg9n+ ,i attribute ! improvem5t :i* 9 "o way or ano!r has tak5 place 9 our g5]al heal?--an improvem5t 9 :i* sci5ce & religion h work$ toge!r1 (t5 )\t p]ceiv+ ! association--& 9 ! prolong+ ( y\? :i* 9 c\ntries l ! ,briti% ,empire & ! ,unit$ ,/ates is1 )9 ?irty or =ty ye>s1 to be not$ easily4 ,misread+ ( ,god's int5tions ,i might comp>e to t misread+ ( 8 p>5t's int5tions :i* goes on 9 ! m9d ( e *ild ( six or sev54 ,he sees ! happ5+s 9 ! h\sehold1 b sees !m 9 a light ( 8 own4 ,ye>s aft]w>ds1 :5 _! real significance comes to him1 he smiles at 8 *ildi% di/ortions ( ! obvi\s4 ,9 comp>ison ) :at ,/4 ,paul calls mature manhood1 ! /ature ( full-gr[n m5 9 ,*ri/1 our pres5t rat+ might be t ( a *ild ( ?is age4 ,x is no high]4 ,misread+ is all t we are equal to1 b x is some?+ to be able to misread4 ,x is a /ep on ! way to read+ correctly4 ,?\gh our impulse to le>n works feebly x works re/lessly2 & a day w surely come :5 we %all be able to int]pret ,god aright4 ,,xviii ,next to sickness ,i %\ld place pov]ty z ! second ( ! two great trials we br+ ^u ourselves4 ,"u pov]ty ,i class all s5se ( re/riction1 limitation1 & mat]ial helplessness4 ,z ! subject w be tak5 up m 9 detail else:]e ,i wi% = ! m9ute to say no m ?an ?is3 t1 9 an exi/5ce ( :i* ,gr[? seems to be ! purpose1 ,god c\ld n int5d t any ( u %\ld be )\t full p[] ( expansion4 ,:at we are wor? to him we mu/ be wor? z individuals2 & :at we are wor? z individuals mu/ dep5d on ! peculi> comb9ation ( qualities :i* goes to make up ea* "o ( u4 ,i1 poor creature t ,i sometimes seem to o!rs & always to myself1 am s compos$ t ,god nev] be=e _h any?+ exactly l me 9 ! :ole r\nd ( ,8 creation4 ,my value lies 9 a special bl5d ( pot5tialities4 ,( ! billions & trillions ( human be+s :o h pass$ across ?is planet n "o c\ld ev] h done :at ,i c d1 or h fill$ my place t[>d ,god & ,8 designs4 ,among ! billions & trillions ,i may seem trivial--to m54 ,i may ev5 seem trivial to myself4 ,to su* numb]s z ^! ,i c add s little :5 ,i come1 & take away s little f !m :5 ,i g1 t ,i am n wor? c\nt+4 ,q s--to all human reckon+4 ,b my value is n my value to m52 x is n ev5 my value to myself2 x is my value to ,god4 ,he alone kn[s my use1 & ! peculi> beauty ,i br+ to ! ages 9 mak+ my contribution4 ,x is no presumptu\s ?+ to say t ,he c\ld no m sp>e me ?an any o!r fa!r ( a normal & lov+ family c\ld sp>e "o ( ! *ildr5 ( 8 fle% & blood4 ,n[1 my value to ,god is my fir/ reckon+4 ,we commonly make x ! la/1 if we ev] make x at all2 b x is ! fir/ & ! rul+ "o4 ,:at ,i am to my family1 my c\ntry1 myself1 is all second>y4 ,!y det]m9e only ! second>y results4 ,! fir/ results come f my fir/ relation%ip1 & my fir/ relation%ip is to ,god4 ,z ! *ild ( my p>5ts1 z a citiz5 ( my c\ntry1 z a d5iz5 ( ?is planet1 my place is a tempor>y "o4 ,z ! son ( ,god ,i am f ev]la/+ to ev]la/+1 a spl5did be+ ) ! univ]se z my home4 ,n[ ?is1 x seems to me1 is my po9t ( dep>ture = ! e/imate ( my possible res\rces4 ,i _c expect less ( ! good ?+s ( ! univ]se ?an ,god w\ld naturally be/[ on ,8 son4 ,to expect less is to get less1 s9ce x is to dw>f my own p[] ( receiv+4 ,if ,i close ! op5+ ?r\gh :i* abundance fl[s x _c be /range if ,i %ut abundance out4 ,& t is precisely :at we f9d ?r\gh\t ! human race1 millions ^u millions ( lives tightly %ut aga9/ ,8 g5]osity4 ,! mo/ g5]\s treatm5t = :i* ! majority ( u look is man's4 ,! only /&>d by :i* ! majority ( u appraise our "w is man's4 ,y h a job2 y get y\r tw5ty or ?irty or fifty or a hundr$ doll>s a week = x2 & by ^? doll>s y judge y\r e>n+ capacity & all[ x to be judg$4 ,y h>dly ev] pause to rememb] t !re is an e/imate ( e>n+ capacity :i* measures indu/ry & good w & integrity & devotion1 & puts !m above all tricks ( trade & rew>ds !m--rew>ds !m1 ,i mean1 n m]ely 9 my/ical bless+s 9 eons f> (f1 possibly ! highe/ bless+s we %all ev] "k1 b rew>ds !m 9 a way t w satisfy y n[4 ,he satisfie? ! empty s\l1 writes ! psalmi/1 9 "o ( ! sublime/ lyrics ev] p5n$1 & fille? ! hungry s\l ) goodness4 ,yes1 ( c\rse1 says ! ,caucasian4 ,:5 y h cru%$ out all y\r pres5t crav+s & =gott5 !m1 ,he w give y joys ( :i* n[ y h no conception4 ,b are n my pres5t crav+s ^? :i* c\nt = me8 & d !y n make up precisely t "* :i* r5d]s me unique8 ,true1 my long+s n[ may h to ! long+s ,i %all "o day ent]ta9 only ! relation ( y\r little boy's crav+ = an alphabetic picture-book to ! c\rse 9 philosophy he w take :5 he is tw5ty-five2 b s long z ! picture-book is ! ?+ he c appreciate y give x to him4 ,is n ?is common s5se8 ,& c we expect ! ,fa!r ( u all to act 9 o!r ?an common-s5se ways8 ,x is because we d s expect--because we d s almo/ univ]sally--t we h block$ ! *annels ( ,8 bless+s4 ,! _w is cr[d$ ) m5 & wom5 work+ _! f+]s to ! bone1 & ev5 s j squeak+ along betwixt life & dea? & dragg+ _! *ildr5 aft] !m4 ,!y are ! great problem ( mank9d2 !y r5d ! he>t ) pity4 ,!y r5d ! he>t ) pity all ! m = ! reason t !re is no s5se 9 _! pov]ty4 ,!re is no ne$ ( x4 ,god nev] will$ x1 & :at ,god nev] will$ c g out ( life ) ! spe$ ( ,satan out ( ,heav54 ,we h only to fulfil c]ta9 conditions1 c]ta9 conditions q easy to fulfil1 to f9d ! /ores ( ! ,univ]sal laid z a matt] ( c\rse at ! feet ( ! sons ( ,god4 ,prove me n[ h]e)1 sai? ! ,"l ( ,ho/s1 are ! /rik+ words ( ! prophet ,mala*i1 if ,i w n op5 y ! w9d[s ( heav5 & p\r y out a bless+ t !re %all n be room en\gh to receive x4444 ,& all nations %all call y bless$1 = ye %all be a delightsome l&1 ,,xix ,b x is ! old /ory3 we d n believe x4 ,x is too good to be true1 s we put x away f u4 ,9 a _w :]e ! mat]ial is s press+ we use only mat]ial measures1 & b[ only to mat]ial =ce4 ,s be x6 ,t is app>5tly z f> z our race-developm5t takes u4 ,x takes u into suff]+1 b n out ( x4 ,individuals h come into x & work$ _! way out aga92 b mo/ ( u c g no fa/] ?an ! cr[d4 ,9 t case we mu/ suff]4 ,9 a t]rible crisis 9 8 hi/ory1 & aft] _m s9s1 ,david 0 able to write ^! words3 ,i s\ght ! ,"l 444 & ,he deliv]$ me out ( all my fe>s4 ,x is ! royal av5ue1 & x is op5 to anyone4 ,& yet if we d n take x1 x /ill does n foll[ t all is lo/4 ,( ! _w z x is ! out/&+ fact is ! necessity = /ruggle4 ,/ruggle may conceivably ent] into e o!r _w4 ,!re is some?+ 9 u :i* requires x1 :i* craves = x4 ,a /atic heav5 9 :i* all is won & !re is no?+ =ev]more b to enjoy has nev] made mu* appeal to u4 ,if et]nal life means et]nal gr[? we %all always h some?+ ) :i* to /rive1 s9ce gr[? means ov]com+4 ,:ile sorry1 !n1 t we h n releas$ ourselves to a great] degree ?an we h1 we may take he>t ( grace f :at we h a*iev$4 ,we mu/ simply /ruggle on4 ,/ruggle w cont9ue to make & %ape u4 ,:e!r our problems spr+ f a _w ( matt]1 f a _w ( m51 or f ourselves1 _! solv+ br+s u a full] grasp ( tru?4 ,! progress may be sl[ b x is progress4 ,h>d%ip by h>d%ip1 task by task1 failure by failure1 conque/ by conque/1 we pull ourselves up a little high] 9 ! scale4 ,"s day we %all see 9 ! ,univ]sal all t we h be5 look+ =1 & be deliv]$ out ( all our fe>s4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,! ,,_w ,,z ,,x ,,is ,,& ,,! ,,false ,,god ,,( ,,fe> ,i ,( all fe>s ! mo/ dogg+ & haunt+ are ^? connect$ ) money4 ,ev]yone kn[s !m1 ev5 ! ri*4 ,= _m ye>s ,i 0 _! victim1 & w n[ try to tell h[ ,i got rid ( !m s effectively t ,i may call x entirely4 ,hav+ a good _m responsibilities ,i liv$ 9 t]ror ( n be+ able to keep pace ) _! dem&s4 ,! dread 0 l a malign invisible pres5ce1 nev] leav+ me4 ,) mu* 9 ! way ( travel1 fri5d%ip1 & v>iety ( exp]i5ce1 :i* ,i c\ld h enjoy$1 ! evil ?+ 0 =ev] at my side4 ,?is is all v well1 x w\ld :isp] 9 mom5ts ( pleasure1 b x w be ov] 9 an h\r or two1 & !n y'll be alone ) me z be=e4 ,i c recall m9utes :5 ! delight 9 l&scape1 or art1 or social int]c\rse1 became ali5 to me1 some?+ to be ?ru/ away4 ,once 9 driv+ ?r\gh ri*1 lu%1 /ori$ ,w>wick%ire on ! way to ,/rat=d-on-,avon--once 9 a great ,p>isian re/aurant :]e ! ref9em5t1 brilliancy1 & luxury ( ! _w seem$ cru%$ into epitome--once at a /up5d\s p]=mance ( ,gtt]dmm]ung at ,muni*--once :ile /&+ on ! %ores ( a lovely ,new ,hamp%ire lake look+ up at a m\nta9 r\nd :i*1 z ,em]son says1 ! ,_s ( ,my/]y hov]s & broods--b ^! are only rememb]$ high po9ts ( a con/ant dread ( n be+ able to meet my ne$s & und]tak+s4 ,!re us$ to be an h\r 9 ! v e>ly morn+--! c[>d h\r be=e ! dawn1 x is call$ by a poet-fri5d ( my own--:5 ,i 0 9 ! habit ( wak+1 only to he> ! sleepless ?+ say+1 z my s5ses /ruggl$ back into play1 ,my ,god1 c y be sleep+ peacefully1 ) possible ru9 j ahead ( y8 ,aft] t fur!r sleep w\ld become impossible = an h\r or two1 su* wak+s occurr+1 9 p]iods ( /ress1 z (t5 z two & ?ree times a week4 ,,ii ,x 0 ! spiritually m9d$ man :om ,i h already quot$ z giv+ me ! ?ree great po9ts z to ,god's direction :o fir/ help$ me to see t1 on ! "p ( anyone work+ h>d & try+ on ! :ole to d "r1 ! fe> ( be+ left )\t means am\nts 9 effect to d5ial ( ,god4 ,?9k+ ?is ov] = myself dur+ ! c\rse ( "s ye>s1 ?is fe> has come to seem to me ( ! nature ( blasphemy4 ,x is l ! ,curse ,god & die1 ( ! wife ( ,job4 ,i %all n hesitate to speak /rongly on ! subject1 because s few are speak+ on x /rongly--:ile ! urg5cy is press+4 ,,iii ,i h already said t x does n seem reasonable t ! ,fa!r %\ld put u into ,8 univ]se to exp&1 & !n d5y u ! p[] ( exp&+4 ,! p[] ( exp&+ is n wrapp$ up 9 money1 b 9 ! _w z x is ! indep5d5ce ( ! "o ( ! o!r is n v great4 ,"o ( ! h>de/ ?+s ,i ev] _h to d1 a "m said to me1 n long ago1 0 to tell my little girl t h] fa!r & ,i c\ld n af=d to s5d h] to college4 ,t is :at ,i mean4 ,to mo/ ( u exp&+ & af=d+ am\nt to ! same ?+4 ,true1 !re are natures :i* transc5d ! limitations ( af=d+1 & by innate /r5g? d :at o!rs resign !mselves to n do+4 ,= in/ance1 !re are m5 & wom5 :o put !mselves ?r\gh college1 do+ simil> ?+s :i* br+ out ! be/ 9 _! *>act]s4 ,^! are ! exceptions2 & !y are ! exceptions precisely = ! reason t1 :e!r !y "k x or n1 !y are ne>] ?an _! fell[s to ! div9e work+ pr9ciple4 ,x is n necess>y = u to be consci\s ( t pr9ciple 9 ord] to get mu* ( its result1 ?\gh consci\sness enables u to get m ( x4 ,! /rong are /rong because ( h>mony ) ,god1 at lea/ to "s ext5t4 ,!y may misuse _! /r5g?1 z we c misuse any?+2 b ! m]e fact ( possess+ x %[s a c]ta9 degree ( t\* ) ! ,univ]sal4 ,b ,i am speak+ *iefly ( ! weak1 ( ^? :o ?9k fir/ ( all 9 t]ms ( re/riction r ?an 9 ^? ( privilege to come & g & be & d4 ,i repeat t ?\gh ?is privilege is n dep5d5t on money1 money expresses x to ! av]age m9d4 ,& :at is money aft] all8 ,x is only a c\nt] = :at we call goods4 ,goods is ! ^w ) :i*1 accord+ to our ,anglo-,saxon g5ius = ! "r phrase1 we sum up ! good ?+s ) :i* ! ,fa!r blesses ,8 *ildr54 ,! root connection betwe5 good1 goods1 & ,god is wor? ev]yone's att5tion1 ,a hundr$ doll>s is simply a /&>d ( measurem5t = s mu* ( ,god's good ?+s4 ,a ?\s& doll>s repres5ts s mu* m2 a million doll>s s mu* m aga94 ,b x is important to note t ?is is n ,god's /&>d ( measurem5t2 x is man's1 & adopt$ only = man's conv5i5ce4 ,z = ,god's /&>d ( measurem5t x is inconceivable t ! ,univ]sal ,fa!r %\ld give to "o ( ,8 *ildr5 f> m ( ,8 goods ?an he c use1 :ile d5y+ to ano!r t :i* he is 9 absolute ne$ (4 ,! ,univ]sal ,fa!r c\ld surely n d o!rwise ?an bless all alike4 ,) ,8 comm& ( res\rces ,he mu/ bless all alike1 n by depriv+ anyone1 b by enri*+ ev]yone4 ,if ev]yone does n enjoy pl5ty x mu/ be because ( ! br++ 9 ( "s pr9ciple ( di/ribution :i* c\ld nev] h be5 ,84 ,,iv ,! "r & ! wrong pr9ciples ( di/ribution are indirectly plac$ be=e u by our ,"l 9 "o ( ! mo/ beautiful passages :i* ev] fell f human lips4 ,famili> z x is1 ,i v5ture to quote x at l5g?1 = ! reason t ! mod]n translation makes "s ( ! po9ts cle>] ?an !y are 9 ! ,k+ ,james v]sion :i* mo/ ( u "k be/4 ,no man c be ! bonds]vant ( two ma/]s2 = ei!r he w dislike "o & l ! o!r1 or he w atta* himself to "o & ?9k slight+ly ( ! o!r4 ,y _c be ! bonds]vants bo? ( ,god & ( gold4 ,= ?is reason ,i *>ge y n to be ov]-anxi\s ab\t y\r lives1 inquir+ :at y are to eat or :at y are to dr9k1 nor yet ab\t y\r bodies1 inquir+ :at clo!s y are to put on4 ,is n ! life m preci\s ?an its food1 & ! body ?an its clo?+8 ,look at ! birds :i* fly 9 ! air2 !y d n s[ or reap or /ore up 9 b>ns1 b y\r ,heav5ly ,fa!r fe$s !m2 are y n ( mu* great] value ?an !y8 ,:i* ( y by be+ ov]-anxi\s c add a s+le foot to 8 height8 ,& :y be anxi\s ab\t clo?+8 ,le>n a lesson ( ! wild lilies4 ,wat* _! gr[?4 ,!y nei!r toil nor sp91 & yet ,i tell y t n ev5 ,solomon 9 all 8 magnific5ce c\ld array himself l "o ( ^!4 ,& yet if ,god s clo!s ! wild h]bage :i* to-day fl\ri%es & to-morr[ is ca/ into ! ov51 is x n mu* m c]ta9 t he w clo! y1 y m5 ( little fai?8 ,d n ev5 beg9 to be anxi\s1 !re=e1 say+1 ',:at %all we eat8' or ',:at %all we dr9k8' or ',:at %all we we>8' ,= all ^! are que/ions t ,g5tiles are always ask+2 b y\r ,heav5ly ,fa!r kn[s t y ne$ ^! ?+s--all ( !m4 ,b make ,8 ,k+dom & righte\sness y\r *ief aim1 & !n ^! ?+s %all be giv5 y 9 addition4 ,d n be ov]-anxi\s1 !re=e1 ab\t to-morr[1 = to-morr[ w br+ its own c>es4 ,en\gh = ea* day are its own tr\bles4 ,9 ?is passage !re are two po9ts1 ea* ( :i* may m]it a few words z a means ( elim9at+ fe>4 ,v ,! fir/ po9t is ! ref]5ce to :at we are to make our *ief aim--! ,k+dom ( ,god & righte\sness4 ,i feel sure we g5]ally miss ! =ce ( ^! words ?r\gh our ,caucasian sanctimoni\sness4 ,we c ?9k ( ,god's ,k+dom & righte\sness only 9 ! light ( ! pieti/ic4 ,! m9ute !y are m5tion$ we /rike :at ,i h already call$ our artificial pose1 our fun]eal frame ( m9d4 ,i am n flippant :5 ,i say t 9 ! m9d ( ! ,caucasian ! fir/ /ep t[>d seek+ ! ,k+dom ( ,god & righte\sness is 9 pull+ a long face4 ,we c h>dly ?9k ( righte\sness except z dress$ 9 our ,sunday clo!s1 & look+ & feel+ wobegone4 ,to mo/ ( u ! seek+ ( righte\sness sugge/s at once an increase 9 att5d+ *ur* s]vices1 or go+ to pray]-meet+s1 or mak+ mission>y ef=ts--excell5t practices 9 !mselves--accord+ to ! =m ( pietism we are mo/ famili> )4 ,^? ( u :o h no =m ( pietism feel cut (f f mak+ ! attempt at all4 ,oh1 to be simple6--to be natural6--to be spontane\s6--to be free f ! concept ( a ,god %ut up )9 ! f\r walls ( a build+ & ^: *ief int]e/s are ! s]mon & ! numb] ( p>i%ion]s6 ,! ,k+dom ( ,god is ! ,univ]sal ,k+dom1 includ+ ev]yone & ev]y?+--all int]e/s1 all comm]ce1 all gov]nm5t1 all inv5tion1 all art1 all amusem5t1 all ! /aid pursuits ( ! old & all ! ard\r ( ! "y1 all sport1 all laught]1 all t makes = gladness4 ,x is ! ,k+dom ( ! bird & ! fl[] & ! horse & ! motor-c> & ! motion-picture h\se & ! (fice & ! !atre & ! ballroom & ! s*ool & ! college & ev]y?+ else t man has evolv$ = himself4 ,he has evolv$ ^! ?+s wrongly because n9e times out ( t5 he has se5 !m z outside ,god's ,k+dom1 in/ead z be+ ,god's own und]tak+s because !y are ours4 ,all t we h to d to seek ,8 ,k+dom is to d :at we are do+ e day1 ) en]gy & fun1 b to d x kn[+ we are ,8 ag5ts & co-work]s4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 mo/ ( u are1 to "s ext5t1 do+ t already1 gett+ food1 %elt]1 clo?+1 & all o!r necess>y ?+s z our rew>d4 ,:at we d n get is relief f fe>1 because we d n und]/& t fe> above all ?+s is :at ,he w\ld take away f u4 ,,vi ,! second po9t is a curi\s "o1 & all ! m emphatic = be+ curi\s4 ,our ,"l inv5ts a false god4 ,he names ! false god ( fe>1 :o 0 nev] nam$ be=e4 ,mammon is ! ^w :i* ! mod]n translator gives z gold4 ,z ,mammon x is translat$ 9 ! ,au?oris$ ,v]sion1 :5ce we get ! famili> phrase1 ,ye _c s]ve ,god & ,mammon4 ,b ,mammon 0 nev] ! "n ( an idol or o!r =m ( false deity4 ,! ^w1 :i* is ,syriac1 means money4 ,our ,"l1 app>5tly1 made x ! "n ( a false god 9 ord] to set be=e u1 & make vivid to u1 a false pr9ciple4 ,t false pr9ciple is 9 ! belief t ! mat]ial ess5tials = liv+ & exp&+ are dep5d5t on man's economic laws4 ,?is is a po9t ( va/ importance to ! individual :o desires to /rike out beyond ! cr[d1 n only gett+ :at he ne$s1 b ridd+ himself ( fe>4 ,! law ( supply & dem& is ! mo/ practical :i* ! human race 9 its pres5t /age has be5 able to evolve4 ,t x is n an ideal law is obvi\s4 ,!re are ways 9 :i* x works1 & ways 9 :i* x does n4 ,:5 ! ,*ri/ians began to act = !mselves !y e/abli%$ a community ( goods1 su* z _h obta9$ among ! little b& :o ga!r$ r\nd our ,"l4 ,almo/ at once x 0 giv5 up1 presumably z be+ too advanc$ = ! exi/+ _w ( m54 ,i suppose we might say ! same ( ! v>i\s sy/ems ( ,socialism & ,communism urg$ on u at ! pres5t day4 ,h[ev] good !y may be1 we are n ready to put !m into practice4 ,t1 ,i judge--)\t positively kn[+--is ! reason :y c]ta9 great ,*ri/ian bodies oppose bo?4 ,^! bodies1 ,i assume1 are n ho/ile to equal di/ribution 9 itself1 b only to equal di/ribution be=e m5 are develop$ to a /age at :i* x w\ld be wise4 ,b my po9t is indep5d5t ( all m5's !ories1 & re/s simply on ! fact t1 :atev] ! law ( man1 ,god is n b\nd by x4 ,if we c believe ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5ts--:i*1 ( c\rse1 "s ( u d n--,he has %[n on _m1 _m occasions t ,he is f> f be+ b\nd by x4 ,"t aft] "t ,he comes to ! individual's relief accord+ to ,8 own law4 ,we reject ^! occurr5ces z my?ical on ! gr\nd t ! laws ( supply & dem&--& "s o!r laws z law is und]/ood by u--d n support !m2 & yet x is 9 ! p[] ( ! individual to te/ ! tru? = himself4 ,t is "o ( ! burd5s ( bo? ,te/am5ts4 ,! individual is implor$ to see ! only real sy/em = ! di/ribution ( goods z ,god's4 ,x is n express$ 9 t way1 b t is :at x comes to4 ,god owns & disposes ( ev]y?+4 ,he has n put u into ,8 ,univ]se & left u to f5d = ourselves4 ,he foll[s u4 ,he c>es = u4 ,n "o is =gott5 or ov]look$ by ,him4 ,x is p]sonal wat*+ & brood+ & def5ce4 ,he is our ,fa!r1 n m]ely = ! purpose ( he>+ u s+ hymns1 & =giv+ our s9s :5 we /op committ+ !m1 b = all our aims & objects4 ,no?+ t conc]ns u is s small b t ,8 ,inf9ite ,intellig5ce foll[s x2 no ne$ ( ours is s l>ge b t ,8 ,all-,own]%ip c meet x4 ,d n two sp>r[s sell = a half-p5ny8 is our ,"l's illu/ration on ?is po9t1 yet n "o ( !m w fall to ! gr\nd )\t y\r ,fa!r's leave4 ,b z = y1 ,he reasons1 9 ord] t we may und]/& ! inf9itesimal nature ( ,god's c>e1 ! v hairs on y\r heads are all numb]$4 ,away !n ) fe>6#ca #ca ,/ ,mat!w4 ,,vii ,away !n ) fe>1 because our fir/ & ov]-rul+ & all-det]m9+ relation%ip is to ,him4 ,9 elim9at+ money-fe>s f my own life t 0 ! fact :i* help$ me mo/4 ,i _h n only to seize x intellectually1 b to get :at ,william ,james calls ! feel+ ( x1 ! appreh5sion ( x 9 my subconsci\sness4 ,x 0 l acquir+ a new in/9ct4 ,! ,metanoia1 ! re-direct+ ( my ?\ght1 0 a ?or\gh & basic *ange4 ,x meant gett+ up 9 ! morn+ ) a new conception z to :y ,i 0 work+ & = :om4 ,i _h tak5 x = grant$ hi!rto t ,i 0 work+ = su* & su* a firm1 = z mu* money z !y w\ld pay me4 ,z mu* money z !y w\ld pay me 0 ! limit ( my expectation4 ,beyond ! law ( supply & dem& ,i _h no vision2 & :5ev] ! dem& fell %ort fe> 0 ! result4 ,! *ange 9 my base 0 9 see+ t work+ = su* & su* a firm1 = z mu* money z !y w\ld pay me1 0 m]ely incid5tal4 ,x 0 second>y4 ,x 0 n :at det]m9$ my position4 ,x 0 n :at det]m9$ my rew>d4 ,x 0 a small way ( look+ at a situation :i* 0 big4 ,x 0 a small way ( look+ at a situation :i* 0 big1 m]ely to conf9e my objective to su* sell+ & buy+ z goes on 9 ! planet call$ ! ,e>?4 ,i 0 work+ = ! ,ma/] ( ! ,univ]se1 :o _h all ! res\rces ( ! univ]se ) :i* to pay me = :at ,i 0 wor? to ,him4 ,,viii ,x is ?is la/ fact1 z ,i h h9t$ already1 :i* fixes my true value4 ,to ! firm = :i* ,i am work+ ,i am wor? s _m doll>s & c5ts1 & if = any reason ,i am unable to d _! "w !y w get someone else :o c4 ,i am n ess5tial to !m 9 any way1 h[ev] ess5tial !y may be to me4 ,x is my "p to keep my job1 s9ce if ,i don't ,i may f9d x h>d to get ano!r4 ,if ,i d get ano!r x w be on ! same pr9ciple1 ( be+ paid :at ,i c be made to "w =1 & n a p5ny m4 ,b 9 work+ = ! ,ma/] ( ! ,univ]se ,i am work+ = ,"o to :om ,i am ess5tial4 ,my job c\ld n be swung by anyone else1 s9ce ev]yone else is ess5tial to ! sw++ ( 8 own4 ,i am n tak5 on to d :at anyone else c\ld d z well2 ,i am positively ne$$ = ?is ?+ & = no o!r ?+4 ,! nature ( ?is ?+ = :i* ,i am ne$$ may be se5 9 ! obvi\s duties ( my situation--z reg>ds my family1 my employ]s1 & my surr\nd+s1 :i* sum up my responsibilities t[>d m5 9 g5]al4 ,no explanation ( myself c be indep5d5t ( m5 9 g5]al1 s9ce my "w is = !m 9 its f9al aim4 ,if ,i =get !m ,i =get ,god1 ,god express+ ,himself to me ?r\gh m5 9 g5]al1 z ?r\gh my family & my employ]s 9 p>ticul>4 ,incid5tally1 !n1 ,i "w = m51 b ess5tially & consci\sly ,i "w = ,god1 & look to ,god = my recomp5se4 ,n[ ,god is ! mo/ g5]\s ( all payma/]s4 ,x is natural en\gh t ,he %\ld be s4 ,he :o delights 9 ! grace ( a bird or ! col\r ( a fl[] mu/ delight 9 a man 9 proportion to a man's high] place 9 ! creative scale4 ,z our ,"l po9ts out1 t is no m ?an common s5se4 ,&1 delight+ 9 u z ,he does1 ,god c\ld n possibly /9t u 9 :at we e>n f ,him4 ,m]ely to suppose s is to di%on\r ,him4 ,a l>ge "p ( ,8 joy mu/ be 9 our joy4 ,! simple/ way 9 :i* ,i c express x is t 9 consci\sly try+ to "w ) ,god1 n man1 z our employ]1 ?+s happ5 to u :i*1 to ! be/ ( our =esight1 w\ld n h happ5$ o!rwise4 ,(t5 !y seem accid5tal1 & possibly we ascribe !m to accid5t till ! co9cid5ces become too num]\s to expla9 by co9cid5ce & no?+ m4 ,x con/antly happ5s to myself1 = in/ance1 to f9d ! :ole solution ( "s tangl$ f9ancial problem hang+ on ! *ance turn+ ( my /eps to someone's (fice1 & ! *ance turn+ ( ! conv]sation to "s specific obs]vation4 ,*ance is ! explanation :i* comes to me fir/1 till ,i reflect on ! f9espun *a9 :i* br\ght me to t p>ticul> spot & ^? p>ticul> words4 ,lead+ is :at ,i see !n2 & see+ x once ,i am m confid5t ( be+ l$ ! next "t4 ,! next "t1 !re=e1 ,i am ! less afraid1 hav+ ! def9ite exp]i5ce to support me4 ,!re are millions ( m5 & wom5 to :om life br+s no m ?an ! monotony ( a treadmill r\nd1 ye> 9 & ye> out1 ) a cramp+ ( m9d1 _s1 & ambition1 :o might h be5 free _h !y measur$ !mselves by ,god's /&>ds & n by m5's4 ,x is simply ! tak+ ( a po9t ( view1 & adju/+ ! life to x4 ,9 do+ "o's "w prim>ily = ,god1 ! fe> ( undue re/riction is put1 soon] or lat]1 out ( ! "q4 ,he pays me & ,he pays me well4 ,he pays me & ,he w n fail to pay me4 ,he pays me n m]ely = ! rule ( ?umb task :i* is all t m5 recognise1 b = ev]y?+ else ,i br+ to my job 9 ! way ( indu/ry1 good int5tion1 & *e]fulness4 ,if ! ,"l love? a *e]ful giv]1 z ,/ ,paul says1 we may dep5d ^u x t ,he love? a *e]ful work]2 & :]e we c cleave ! way to ,8 love !re we f9d ,8 endless g5]osity4 ,9 my own case ?is g5]osity has mo/ frequ5tly be5 %[n 9 op5+ doors = me :]e ,i saw no?+ b blank walls4 ,he has made fav\rable ?+s happ54 ,x may be said t !y w\ld h happ5$ anyh[2 b :5 !y h happ5$ on my look+ to ,him1 & h n happ5$ :5 ,i did n look to ,him1 x is only fair to draw ! conclusion t ,he 0 beh9d ! ev5t4 ,,ix ,x may also be urg$ t if !re 0 really a ,god :o delight$ 9 u ,he w\ld make fav\rable ?+s happ5 to u :e!r we look$ to ,him or n4 ,s ,he does4 ,e life1 ev5 among ^? :o nev] ?9k ( ,him1 is full ( su* occurr5ces4 ,e individual gets "s measure ( supply = 8 necessities1 & 9 _m in/ances a lib]al "o4 ,god's sun rises on ! wick$ z well z on ! good1 & ,8 ra9 falls on ^? :o d "r & ^? :o d wrong4 ,at ! same "t !re is a =ce g5]at$ by work+ consci\sly ) ,him :i* we h to g )\t :5 we disreg>d ,him4 ,x is n1 ,i suppose1 t ,he refuses to co-op]ate ) u1 b t x is out ( our p[] to co-op]ate ) ,him4 ,if ,8 is ! only "r way to our success & prosp]ity1 & we are1 to any ext5t1 tak+ ! wrong1 x /&s to reason t to t ext5t we mu/ fail4 ,x is d\btless = ?is reason t our ,"l emphasises seek+ ,8 righte\sness z well z ,8 ,k+dom4 ,8 ,k+dom might be r\ghly def9$ z ,8 p[]2 righte\sness z ! "r way ( do+ any?+4 ,b y nev] obta9 p[] by go+ ! wrong way to "w2 :]eas by work+ 9 ! "r way y get y\r result4 ,! conclusion is obvi\s4 ,x ,x is (t5 object$ to ! po9t ( view ,i h be5 try+ to express t s mu* weight is ?r[n on mat]ial bless+4 ,god gives spiritual rew>ds1 x is cont5d$1 n mat]ial ones4 ,to expect ! mat]ial f ,him is to make ,him gross1 & to become gross ourselves4 ,& yet ^? :o put =? ?is objection are do+ _! utmo/ to secure mat]ial com=ts1 & to make mat]ial provision = ! future4 ,are !y do+ x indep5d5tly ( ,god8 ,are !y work+ 9 a m$ium into :i* ,god _c ent]8 ,is x argu$ = a s+le m9ute t goods are n ,god's good ?+s1 & t money is n _! tok58 ,true1 ! love ( money is ! root ( all evil4 ,( c\rse--:5 y sep>ate money f ,god1 z ,caucasians mo/ly d2 n :5 y take money z "o ( ! mat]ial symbols = ,god's love t[>d 8 sons4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 we dig a gulf betwe5 ! mat]ial & ! spiritual :i* does n exi/4 ,we h se5 t mod]n physical sci5ce is %[+ u h[ ne> to _s matt] comes1 :ile x is highly probable t fur!r rese>* w dim9i% ev5 ! slight exi/+ diff]5ce betwe5 !m4 ,matt] may really be consid]$ z our s5su\s misread+ ( ! spiritual4 ,t is to say1 ,god sees "o ?+2 our s5ses see ano!r4 ,9 ! wild lily cit$ by our ,"l our s5ses see a ?+ exquisite 9 =m & col\r2 & yet1 relatively speak+1 x is no m ?an a di/ortion ( :at ,god beholds & delights 94 ,x is a commonplace fact t1 ev5 )9 ! limitations ( ! s5ses1 our s5se-faculties p]ceive few ?+s1 if any?+1 q accurately4 ,matt] may !re=e be consid]$ z our wrong view ( :at ,god sees rightly4 ,bo? = ,him & = u ! object is !re2 b x is !re ) high] qualities ?an we c appreciate or und]/&4 ,! situation is n unkn[n among ourselves4 ,a picture by a great ma/] hangs on a wall4 ,two m5 look at x--! "o ) an exp]t k ( pa9t+1 ! o!r ) none4 ,! untra9$ eye w translate into daubs ( col\r & mean+less =ms :at ! skill$ und]/&+ w p]ceive z a ma/]ly sett+ =? ( beauty4 ,s ! good ?+s--! goods--) :i* ,god blesses u1 z well z ! money :i* is _! symbol1 may be tak5 z hav+ to ,god a mean+ :i* !y d n possess = u1 b n z be+ outside ! sph]e ( ,8 int]e/ & control4 ,,xi ,x is ! t5d5cy to puts goods & money outside ! sph]e ( ,8 int]e/ & control :i* has impell$ u--& p]haps ! ,caucasian especially--to h "o ,god = ! spiritual & ano!r = ! mat]ial4 ,we try to s]ve ,god & ,mammon to an ext5t f> beyond any?+ we are g5]ally aw>e (4 ,x is n m]ely ! individual :o is do+ x2 x is "p ( our collective1 social1 & national life4 ,our civilisation is m or less bas$ on ! pr9ciple4 ,x is a mi/ake to suppose t a =mal belief 9 ,"o ,almighty1 ,all-kn[+1 ,all-lov+ ,god has1 to ! imm5se majority ( u1 ev] be5 m ?an an ideal4 ,x is a mi/ake to suppose t because ! false god is no long] erect$ be=e u 9 silv] or /one he is no long] s]v$4 ,! _w has nev] outgr[n idolatry1 ! s-call$ ,*ri/ian _w no m ?an any o!r4 ,de> *ildr51 are ! words ) :i* ,/4 ,john closes "o ( 8 epi/les1 gu>d y\rselves f idols4 ,he at lea/ did n ?9k t ! idol _h be5 =sak5 because ! use ( 8 "n 0 giv5 up4 ,we may def9e z a god any =ce to :i* we ascribe a supreme & controll+ p[] 9 our lives4 ,x is ( little consequ5ce :e!r or n we give x "n & p]sonality1 s long z t =ce rules u4 ,s long1 too1 z x wields a p[] :i* ! ,"o ,god does n1 s long z we make ! false god great] ?an ! true1 & m influ5tial4 ,?is is no m]e figure ( spee*2 x is fact4 ,we h nev] gu>d$ ourselves f idols4 ,we h nev] done m t[>d recognis+ ! ,fa!r ?an ! putt+ ,him 9 ! pan!on ) our o!r gods4 ,ev5 ?\gh we h inscrib$ ! :ole pan!on ) ,8 "n1 ! o!r gods h be5 9 x4 ,,xii ,i h said t our :ole collective life is bas$ on ! pr9ciple ( "o ,god = ! s\l & ano!r = ! body2 & s x is4 ,9 :at we call our temporal life ,god gets only a =mal recognition1 :ile ,mammon is ! ref]ee4 ,beyond ! controll+ p[] ( money we h no vision1 & we see no laws4 ,! sph]e ( mat]ial productivity be+ "o 9 :i*1 accord+ to our =egone conclusion1 ,god does n op]ate1 we h to make ! controll+ p[] ( money our only practical /&>d4 ,x has its laws--*iefly ! laws ( supply & dem&--)9 ^: work+ we human be+s are caught l flies 9 spid]-webs4 ,?\gh we /ruggle1 & "k we are /ruggl+1 we take x = grant$ t !re is no?+ to d b /ruggle1 & /ruggle va9ly4 ,we take x = grant$ t we are born into a va/ indu/rial spid]-web1 :5ce !re is no possibility ( gett+ out1 & 9 :i* we c only *urn our spirits rebelli\sly4 ,9 proportion z ,god is a ,god ( love1 ,mammon is a god ( torture2 b su* is our sup95ess ( spiritual en]gy t we g on s]v+ ,mammon4 ,,xiii ,b ,i am writ+ only = ! individual4 ,i am try+ to sugge/ to him t h[ev] mu* 8 race1 8 nation1 8 society1 may s]ve ,mammon1 he is free to r5\nce ! idol & escape ! idol's laws4 ,escap+ ! idol's laws he comes )9 ! realm ( ,god's laws2 & com+ )9 ! realm ( ,god's laws he rea*es ! region ( pl5ty4 ,he may be ! poore/ & mo/ ill-paid lab\r]2 b ,god w recognise 8 indu/ry n 9 proportion to its te*nical skill1 b accord+ to ! spiritual excell5ce :i* goes into x4 ,te*nical skill dep5ds l>gely on ! "r man f9d+ ! "r job2 b z our _w is organis$ at pres5t ! "r man1 m (t5 ?an n1 is put into ! wrong job & has to d 8 be/ ) x4 ,god sees & e/imates t be/2 & z surely z ,he makes ,8 sun to rise & ,8 ra9 to fall w give x its j comp5sation4 ,,xiv ,our indu/rial que/ions are prim>ily spiritual4 ,t is :y !y c nev] be settl$ on a purely economic basis1 & :y e attempt to settle !m on a purely economic basis leads to conditions m confus$ ?an ^? f :i* we h em]g$4 ,! s-call$ purely economic basis is ! basis :]e only ,mammon's laws are consid]$1 & ,god's are held to be impractical4 ,q s6 ,b ev5 !n ! individual is free4 ,work+ ) ,god he is always ma/] ( ! situation z x affects him4 ,! problem ( ,capital & ,lab\r1 = example1 has1 9 "o =m or ano!r1 be5 be=e ! _w = ?\s&s ( ye>s4 ,! m acute x becomes ! fur!r we are f a solution1 & 7 nev] s f> f a solution z we are to-day4 ,pov]ty1 aga91 is ! cank] at ! he>t ( bo? ,*ur* & ,/ate1 & has be5 s 9 e /age ( our civilisation4 ,9 #aiba x is no m "u control ?an x 0 9 ! days ( ,*>lemagne or ,attila or ,x]xes4 ,*>itable ef=ts to relieve x h prov$ z effective z tickl+ ) a fea!r to cure disease4 ,or aga91 high prices & l[ wages1 high wages creat+ high prices1 res5t$ conditions lead+ to /rikes1 /rikes br++ confusion to bo? wages & prices alike--^! ?+s p]plex ! mo/ cle>-sight$ among u1 compell+ u to wond] z to :at new tr\bles we are heap+ up4 ,or aga91 taxes crippl+ incomes & gnaw+ at ! he>t ( indu/ry vex u ea* ye> ) a s5se ( ! futility ( all man's ef=ts = ! common good1 & ! uselessness ( our en]gies4 ,^! difficulties1 ) _m k9dr$ ones1 are ! work+ ( ! laws ( ,mammon4 ,! case is simple4 ,we %all nev] be free f ! difficulties till we are free f ! laws4 ,! bonds]vants ( ,mammon w g on f mis]y to mis]y1 till ! w :i* opposes ,god is brok5 d[n4 ,!re is no o!r way4 ,! colossal dis9tegration ( ! _w n[ tak+ place be=e our eyes may be ! beg9n+ ( ?is end4 ,,xv ,b ,i return to ! po9t ,i h emphasis$ already1 ! only po9t to ?is book4 ,! individual c act on 8 own acc\nt4 ,he does n h to wait till ! race z a :ole gives up ! s]vice ( ,mammon1 or ev5 ! nation to :i* he belongs4 ,he c set himself free1 & enjoy ! b5efits ( fre$om4 ,!re mu/ be _m to :om1 z to myself1 ! k+dom ( heav5 w really be at h& :5 !y are deliv]$ f ! sn>es & entanglem5ts ( man's economic sy/ems4 ,caught 9 ^? sy/ems1 imprison$ 9 !m1 m hopelessly enme%$ ! m !y /ruggle to save !mselves1 ! sugge/ion t a *ange 9 po9t ( view w take u out ( !m w seem to "s ( u too amaz+ to be true4 ,no?+ w prove x true b a man's own exp]i5ce4 ,m9e w conv9ce nobody2 no o!r man's c conv9ce me4 ,demon/ration mu/ be p]sonal be=e we c make any?+ our own4 ,b ! fact rema9s1 z sure z ! sure/ ?+ we "k any?+ ab\t1 t ! law ( ,mammon does n "w1 :ile ! law ( ,god does "w1 & w "w = anyone :o calls x to 8 aid4 ,no "o :o has ev] se5 ! e>ly morn+ tra9s into any great city vomit+ =? _! hundr$s ( ?\s&s ( m5 & wom51 trudg+ m or less dispirit$ly to uncong5ial jobs1 c h felt any?+ b pity = s _m lives squeez$ into ! smalle/ possible limitations4 ,admitt+ *e]fulness1 admitt+ a measure ( cont5t1 & a l>g] measure ( acceptance ( :at c't be help$1 !re /ill rema9s ov] ^! hordes ! %ad[ ( a cl\d f :i* !y "k !y nev] w escape4 ,cl]ks1 factory h&s1 tradesm51 work+ m5 & wom5 ( e /amp & occupation1 !y b[ to ! fact t !y w always "w h>d at tasks :i* are r>ely _! own *oice1 t !y w always "w = little money1 t !y w always be d5i$ _! desires = expansion2 t z x 0 ) _! fa!rs & mo!rs be=e !m1 s x w be ) !m1 & s x w be ) _! *ildr5 aft] !m4 ,) ! sup95ess ( our race mo/ ( !m =ce !mselves to be satisfi$ ) :at comes4 ,b "h & !re is a rebel4 ,"h & !re is a man or a woman :o feels t joyless "w1 & small pay1 & little or no?+ to look =w>d to1 are cruel elem5ts 9 life1 n fair1 n j1 on ! "p ( ,god or man4 ,b :at c !y d8 ,!y are 9 man's economic ma*9e4 ,! ma*9e turns r\nd & !y turn ) x4 ,!y c d no?+ else b turn ) x4 ,!y see no prospect except ( turn+ ) x till !y die4 ,x is out ( su* m5 & wom5 t our mod]n _w bre$s revolutioni/s1 t exalt$ & yet dang]\s b& :o seek r$ress f ! laws ( ,mammon by appeal+ to ! laws ( ,mammon1 s mak+ confusion worse conf\nd$4 ,,xvi ,a revolution inde$ is ne$$2 b a revolution 9 po9t ( view4 ,political revolution1 = ! sake ( right+ gov]nm5tal abuses1 has be5 kn[n to produce b5efic5t results4 ,mat]ial revolution1 ! attack ( ! poor on ! ri* to take away _! possessions1 has nev] a*iev$ any?+4 ,_m a "t x has be5 tri$1 & _m a "t x has fail$4 ,be+ "p ( ! sy/em ( ,mammon x c\ld d no?+ else ?an fail4 ,! evils :i* ,mammon has wr\ght ,mammon w nev] rem$y4 ,!re may be in/ances 9 hi/ory ( economic cures = economic ills2 b ,i ?9k !y are few4 ,9 g5]al su* cures are ( ! nature ( our settlem5ts ( /rikes4 ,!y settle to-day :at is aga9 unsettl$ to-morr[1 leav+ ! "w to be done all ov] aga91 & s on into a f> future4 ,! revolution 9 po9t ( view has ^! great advantages3 ,fir/1 x conta9s )9 x ! se$s ( success1 s9ce x is revolution t[>d ,god1 ! own] ( ! ,e>? & ! fulness !re(2 ,next1 x takes place )9 ! individual himself1 do+ no "o else any h>m2 ,la/ly1 x does n run c\nt] to man's economic laws2 x only uses & transc5ds !m4 ,x directs & corrects !m4 ,work+ along _! l9es x /imulates _! fruit4 ,lett+ ! inn] man out ( ! economic trap x sets him 9 a _w 9 :i* fir/1 & la/1 & be=e ev]y?+ else1 he is ,god's s]vant 9 ,god's pay4 ,god's pay be+ sure1 & paid 9 ! way we ne$ x1 we no long] h money-fe> to be afraid (4 ,money-fe> be+ set aside we c ! m easily give ourselves to ! k t ! ,k+dom ( ,god does n consi/ ( eat+ & dr9k+1 b ( "r conduct1 peace1 & joy1 ?r\gh ! ,holy ,_s2 & :oev] 9 ?is way devot$ly s]ves ,*ri/1 ,god takes pleasure 9 him1 & m5 comm5d him highly4#cb #cb ,epi/le to ! ,romans4 ,,xvii ,& le/ :at ,i h said %\ld seem fanciful or *im]ical let me add t ,i am n say+ ^! ?+s m]ely on my own responsibility4 ,to my c]ta9 k !re are hundr$s ( ?\s&s--"s millions--( p ?r\gh\t ! _w :o at ?is v m9ute are liv+ accord+ to ?is pr9ciple1 & prov+ t x works 9 practical effect4 ,nei!r am ,i speak+ !oretically1 z ,i h tri$ to make pla94 ,to a degree t conv9ces myself ,i h made ! demon/ration4 ,:]e my life 0 l a d>k & crook$ lane 9 :i* ,i might easily be lo/1 x has n[ become z an easy & op5 highway2 :]e money-fe> 0 ! v air ,i brea!d1 x is n[ no m ?an a nebul\s %r$ on a f> horizon4 ,money-fe> comes occasionally2 b only z ! memory ( pa9 to a w\nd :i* y "k to be heal$4 ,x comes2 b1 l ,satan out ( ,heav51 ,i c ca/ x f me ) a ?\ght4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,! ,,false ,,god ,,( ,,fe> ,,& ,,! ,,fe> ,,( ,,dea? ,i ,! fe> ( dea? 0 greatly dim9i%$ = me on grasp+ ! pr9ciple ( ev]la/+ ,gr[?4 ,?is pr9ciple we ga!r f :atev] we "k ( life4 ,our obs]vation ( life is1 ( c\rse1 limit$ to ?is planet2 b z f> z x goes x %[s u a p]si/5t & p]petual sy/em ( developm5t4 ,we h only to let our imag9ations g back to ! fir/ feeble /irr+s ( life 9 ! ooze ( ! primeval seas1 contra/+ t ) :at x became 9 ,plato1 ,sophocles1 ,/4 ,pet]1 ,/4 ,paul1 ,raphael1 ,%akespe>e1 & ,d>w91 to see h[ high ! climb upw>d has rea*$4 ,jesus ( ,naz>e? ,i put on a plane to :i* we h n yet atta9$1 ?\gh 9 sight z ! great objective4 ,,ii ,t ! same law op]ates 9 ! individual life is a matt] ( ev]yone's exp]i5ce4 ,su* k z ea* man has ( himself is t ( a gr[+ entity4 ,ea* ye>1 ea* day1 exp&s him a little fur!r1 ) increas$ fulness ( "*4 ,at ?irty he is m ?an he 0 at tw5ty2 at fifty m ?an he 0 at ?irty2 at eighty m ?an he 0 at fifty4 ,no?+ b a p]v]t$ mortal po9t ( view /&s 9 ! way ( fur!r expansion /ill4 ,! p]v]t$ mortal po9t ( view is "o ( ! impulses we h to /ruggle )4 ,! mortal t5d5cy1 :i* means ! deadly t5d5cy1 always seeks to kill :atev] has ! pr9ciple ( life4 ,?is t5d5cy is 9 e "o ( u2 b 9 "s ( u m ?an 9 o!rs4 ,y c see x at "w 9 ! morbid m9d1 9 ! m9d t is easily depress$1 & 9 ! m9d t easily closes4 ,p]haps x is 9 ?is la/ t x becomes our mo/ p]nici\s enemy4 ,! clos+ m9d is f\nd 9 all our ranks2 ! clos$ m9d is ! deadwood ( all our pr(essions4 ,x is n only deadwood2 x is dea?-9-life1 ! foe ( ! develop+ life-pr9ciple1 ! enemy ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,t ! dead m9d %\ld be f\nd among p :o h _h few intellectual advantages is n surpris+4 ,on !m x is =c$ f )\t1 by %e] pressure ( circum/ance4 ,:]e x is mo/ pa9ful is precisely :]e x does mo/ h>m1 among ! classes we call pr(essional4 ,!re1 too1 x seems commone/4 ,lawy]s1 doctors1 cl]gym51 tea*]s1 writ]s1 politicians1 bus9ess m5 ) dead m9ds *oke all ! highways ( life4 ,to ! ext5t t !y h influ5ce !y are ob/acles to progress2 b soon] or lat] ! "t comes :5 !y no long] h influ5ce4 ,life %elves !m on ! plea t !y are old2 b t is n ! reason4 ,!y are %elv$ because !y h kill$ _! m9ds1 becom+ liv+ dead m54 ,z a matt] ( fact1 "o ( ! mo/ valuable ( our social & national assets is ! old man :o has kept 8 m9d op54 ,f\nd all too r>ely1 he is nev] %elv$1 = ! reason t life _c d )\t him4 ,hav+ ! habit ( expansion he cont9ues to exp&1 keep+ abrea/ ( y\? & ev5 a little 9 advance ( x4 ,! exception r ?an ! rule1 !re is no reason :y he %\ld n be ! racial type4 ,,iii ,he is n ! racial type because s _m ( u beg9 to die almo/ z soon z we h begun to live4 ,our v fe> ( ! dea?-pr9ciple admits x into our consci\sness4 ,admitt$ into our consci\sness x />ts its "w ( kill+ u4 ,x wr9kles ! face1 x turns ! hair grey1 x enfeebles ! limbs1 x /upefies ! bra94 ,"o ( its mo/ deadly weapons is fatigue1 or ! simulation ( fatigue4 ,! tir$ bus9ess man1 :o rules ,am]ican life1 is (t5] ?an n a dead bus9ess man4 ,if he look$ ahead he w\ld see :at we idiomatically "k z 8 f9i%4 ,he is n only dy+ b he infuses dea? into mann]s1 lit]ature1 & art1 s9ce he s l>gely sets ! /&>d :i* becomes ! rule4 ,w> on ! dea?-pr9ciple %\ld be1 x seems to me1 "o ( ! aims to :i* ! individual gives 8 /r5g?2 & once m he c d x on 8 own acc\nt4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 he c wat* himself1 t he does n m5tally beg9 to gr[ old4 ,to beg9 m5tally to gr[ old is to beg9 m5tally to die4 ,he mu/ ?9k ( himself z an exp&+ be+1 n z a contract+ "o4 ,he mu/ keep 9 sympa!tic t\* ) ! new1 damn+ ! "k-x-all frame ( m9d4 ,he mu/ keep 9 sympa!tic t\* ) y\?1 kn[+ t y\? is ! next g5]ation 9 advance4 ,! secrets ( "o g5]ation are n ^? ( ano!r2 b if he :o possesses ! e>li] ma/]s also ! lat] he is t mu* ! ri*] & wis]4 ,! gulf :i* sep>ates p>5ts & *ildr5 is "o :i* ! p>5ts mu/ cross4 ,!y c "w onw>d1 :ile ! *ildr5 _c "w backw>d4 ,up to a c]ta9 po9t ! old] tea* ! y\ng]2 beyond a c]ta9 po9t ! y\ng] tea* ! old]4 ,he :o w\ld g on liv+ & n beg9 to die mu/ be will+ to be taught1 reap+ ! h>ve/ ( bo? y\? & age4 ,9 ! second place1 he :o w\ld live mu/ n kill anyone else4 ,! deadly t5d5cy 9 ourselves is =ev] at "w on ^? ab\t u1 *iefly on ^? we love4 ,we wat*1 tabulate1 & rec\nt _! symptoms ( decay4 ,mak+ notes ( !m = ourselves we disc\rse ( !m to o!rs4 ,he beg9s to look old1 is a commonplace4 ,! response w probably emphasise ! fact4 ,by response to response we sp9 r\nd a fri5d ! age-web :i* l5g!ns into ! dea?-web4 ,9 our expressive ,am]ican v]nacul> we speak ( wi%+ conditions on o!rs1 an in/9ctive folk-recognition ( ! =ce ( m5tality4 ,we d x 9 a s9i/] s5se m (t5 ?an by way ( helpfulness4 ,we wi% by ?9k+1 by talk+1 by creat+ an atmosph]e1 by =c+ ?+s into ! g5]al consci\sness4 ,old age & decay1 bad en\gh 9 !mselves1 we int5sify by our habits ( m9d4 ,dea?1 :i* 9 any case awaits our fri5ds1 we woo to !m by anticipations ( demise4 ,x is n ill-int5tion$4 ,x comes out ( a subconsci\sness 9 :i* dea? & n life is ! base4 ,,iv ,= mo/ ( u ! fe> ( dea? is a subconsci\s r ?an an active fe>4 ,x becomes active = ^? :o ?r\gh illness1 or 9 "s o!r way1 see a s5t5ce ( dea? hang+ ov] !m2 b dur+ ! great] "p ( ! life-span we are able to beat x (f4 ,z to ! life-span itself !re is reason to suppose t x is meant to be m regul> ?an man all[s x to become4 ,!re may easily be an appo9t$ "t to :i* we d n suff] ourselves1 or ea* o!r1 to atta94 ,^? /range1 inequalities by :i* "o human be+ is left to pass ov] ! c5tury m>k1 ano!r is cut (f j :5 he is mo/ ne$$1 :ile a ?ird does no m ?an t\* ?is plane = an h\r or two1 may be ! results ( our misread+s ( ,god's ,w1 & n ! decrees ( t ,w itself4 ,we are "h on gr\nd :i* may be t]m$ t ( speculation2 & yet speculation is n q ! "r ^w4 ,i d>e to ?9k t we h rea*$ a /age ( our developm5t at :i* we are entitl$ to make ) reg>d to dea? c]ta9 inf]5ces :i* 7 h>dly possible be=e our "t4 ,we may make !m timidly1 ) all hesitation & res]ve1 aw>e t we _c prop\nd !m z facts2 & yet we may make !m4 ,! human m9d is no long] :]e x 0 a hundr$ ye>s ago1 /ill less :]e x 0 five hundr$ ye>s ago4 ,?\gh we make little progress we make "s4 ,we are n always m>k+ "t on ! same spot ( ignorance & helplessness4 ,:at is my/]y = "o age is n ( necessity my/]y = ano!r4 ,ev5 :5 my/]ies rema91 !y d n ( necessity rema9 )\t "s h9t ( a dawn :i* may broad5 into day4 ,_m ( our mo/ preci\s illum9ations h come 9 j ?is way2 a fa9t light--:i* sl[ly1 feebly1 ?r\gh c5turies p]haps1 waxes till x becomes a radiance4 ,v ,i talk$ "s "t ago to an or?odox ,*ri/ian lady ^: bro!r _h rec5tly di$1 & :o 0 speak+ ( dea?4 ,! "o my/]y1 %e call$ x1 on :i* no s+le ray ( light has be5 v\*saf$ 9 all ! ages man has be5 on e>?4 ,i did n agree ) h]1 b kn[+ h] to be an or?odox ,*ri/ian lady ,i did n v5ture to express my op9ion4 ,b h]s is ! position :i* _m1 p]haps mo/1 ( u take4 ,no "o has ev] come back1 we say1 to tell u :at 8 exp]i5ce has be51 & we drop ! subject !re4 ,n only d we drop ! subject !re1 b we res5t x if ev]yone else does n drop ! subject !re4 ,god has hidd5 x f u1 we decl>e1 & :at ,he has hidd5 f u x is presumption = u to pry into4 ,x is useless to urge ! fact t ?is way ( reason+ w\ld h kept u /ill 9 ! ,/one ,age2 we are n to be rea*$ by argum5t4 ,let me say at once t ,i am n tak+ up ! "q ( ! psy*ic1 or ent]+ into x at all4 ,i %all keep myself to ! two po9ts ( view :i* h help$ me1 z an individual1 to ov]come1 to "s degree1 ! fe> ( dea?1 consid]+ !m 9 rev]se ord] f t 9 :i* ,i h m5tion$ !m4 ,^? two po9ts ( view are3 ,a4 ,t1 accord+ to ,god's ,w1 we come into ?is phase ( be+ = an appo9t$ "t :i* we d n always rea*2 ,b4 ,t we pass out ( ?is phase ( be+ z we came into x1 = ,gr[?4 ,,vi ,a4 ,! "q ( an appo9t$ "t seems important *iefly to ! "r und]/&+ ( ,god's love4 ,betwe5 u & ! und]/&+ ( t love b]eavem5t is (t5 a great ob/acle4 ,(t5] /ill x is a great puzzle4 ,i d n h to catalogue ! conditions 9 :i* ! tak+ away ( m51 wom51 & *ildr51 sorely ne$$ "h if = no o!r purpose ?an to love1 has mov$ u to deep p]plexity1 or to some?+ l a d\bt ( ,god4 ,we h probably all kn[n cases :]e su* trag$y has driv5 suff]]s to r5\nce ,god altoge!r1 & to curse ,him4 ,"s ( u :o h be5 smitt5 may h come ne> to do+ ?is ourselves1 or may h done x4 ,,vii ,i h already spok5 ( ! ,caucasian's habit ( %uffl+ (f on ,god ^? ills = :i* he w n face ! responsibility himself1 & ,i am incl9$ to ?9k t ?is is "o ( !m4 ,9 my own exp]i5ce ! explanation ( ,god's ,w made to ! "m ( a little family left fa!rless1 or to ! p>5ts ( a dead baby1 or to a "y man ) a "y wife 9 h] c(f91 has always be5 revolt+4 ,i h made x2 ,i h tri$1 on ! fai? ( o!rs1 to ?9k x mu/ be s4 ,i h long s9ce ceas$ to ?9k x1 & feel happi] = n cr$it+ ! ,univ]sal ,fa!r ) any su* futile tricks4 ,i %\ld n g s f> z to say t we human be+s h misappli$ ! laws ( life 9 su* a way z to kill ^? :o are de> to u2 r1 ,i ?9k1 we h nev] le>n$ ^? laws except 9 _! m]e/ rudim5ts4 ,we are n yet prep>$ to d m ?an bungle ! good ?+s (f]$ u on e>?1 & m or less misuse !m4 ,we misuse !m ourselves2 we tea* o!rs to misuse !m2 we create sy/ems ( :i* ! pressure is s t]rible t "u x ! weak c d no?+ b die4 ,we give !m no *ance4 ,we squeeze ! life out ( !m4 ,& !n we say pi\sly1 ,! bless$ ,w ( ,god6 ,z an illu/ration ( :at ,i mean let me cite ! two foll[+ cases among p ,i h kn[n3 ,a "y lady belong+ to a family ( means 0 f\nd to be suff]+ f incipi5t tub]culosis4 ,! doctors ord]$ h] to ,s>anac4 ,to ,s>anac %e w5t1 ) two nurses4 ,)9 eighte5 mon?s %e 0 home aga91 q re/or$ to heal?4 ,?is 0 z x %\ld h be54 ,at ! same "t ,i knew a c>-conductor1 m>ri$ "s six or sev5 ye>s1 & ! fa!r ( ?ree *ildr54 ,he1 too1 0 f\nd to be suff]+ f incipi5t tub]culosis4 ,he1 too1 0 ord]$ to ,s>anac4 ,b hav+ a wife & ?ree *ildr5 to support1 ,s>anac 0 out ( ! "q4 ,he w5t on conduct+ 8 c> till 8 c\gh became di/ress+1 :]eupon he 0 fir$4 ,a m9imum all[ance f 8 *ur* kept ! family f />vation1 :ile ! ne>e/ approa* to ,s>anac t c\ld be contriv$ 0 an arrangem5t by :i* he slept ) 8 head out ! w9d[4 ,9 c\rse ( "t he di$1 & 8 wid[ 0 exhort$ to submit to ! ,w ( ,god4 ,,viii ,i cite ! latt] case z typical ( millions & millions ( dea?s ( ! k9d at :i* we /& agha/ at ,god's extraord9>y rul+s4 ,:y is x1 we ask1 t ,he snat*es away ^? :o are ne$$1 leav+ ^? :o might be sp>$8 ,z to ! latt] "p ( ! "q ,i h no?+ to say2 b :5 x comes to snat*+ away ,i feel x important to absolve ,god ( ! blame = x4 ,9 ! in/ance ,i h quot$ ! blame = x is cle>4 ,fall+ on no "o individual1 x does fall on an organisation ( life :i* gives all ! *ances to "s1 d5y+ !m to o!rs4 ,s long z we feel unable to improve on ?is organisation we %all h ^! inequalities4 ,b let u face hone/ly ! consequ5ces !y br+4 ,let u n confuse all ! issues ( life & dea? z we d1 by saddl+ ! good & beautiful ,w ( ,god ) ! ills we make = ourselves4 ,,ix ,all untimely b]eavem5t is1 ( c\rse1 n ( ! nature ( ! above illu/ration4 ,& yet ,i v5ture to believe t 9 all untimely b]eavem5t "s simil> explanation c\ld be f\nd4 ,= example1 9 ! int]vals ( writ+ ^! l9es ,i h be5 read+ a rec5t biography ( ,madame de ,ma9t5on4 ,9 x is a *apt] describ+ ! s]ies ( cata/rophes :i* fell on ,l\is ! ,f\rte5?1 & ! ,fr5* k+dom1 )9 little m ?an a twelvemon?4 ,8 son & heir1 8 gr&son1 ! second heir1 8 great-gr&son1 ! ?ird heir1 ! second heir's wife1 & /ill ano!r gr&son 7 all c>ri$ (f by smallpox4 ,9 ! ap>tm5ts ( ,madame de ,ma9t5on1 8 wife1 ! ag$ mon>* 0 c\nsell$ to submit to ! awful ,w ( ,god :i* saw fit ?us to smite him4 ,:at no "o p]ceiv$ 0 t by cr[d+ r\nd ! b$ ( ea* suff]] 9 turn ! survivors c\rt$ contagion4 ,b1 !re aga91 x is n mu* m ?an a c5tury s9ce ?is fact became kn[n to anyone4 ,easily )9 liv+ memory is ! discov]y t disease is due to bact]ia4 ,our :ole sy/em ( sanitation is ( rec5t developm5t1 & obta9s only among ! ,engli% & ! ,am]icans ev5 n[4 ,9 _m p>ts ( ,europe & ,am]ica1 to say no?+ ( ,asia & ,africa1 p /ill live z 9 ! ,middle ,ages1 & infant mortality is appall+4 ,^? ( u :o pay mo/ att5tion to sanit>y laws live unheal?ily1 dim9i%+ our p[]s to resi/ attack4 ,i m5tion ^! facts1 n z mak+ a li/ ( !m1 b to indicate ! _m causes ?r\gh :i* we br+ b]eavem5t on ourselves1 :5 ! ,w ( ,god w\ld naturally make = survival & happ9ess4 ,x mu/ nev] be =gott5 t 9 ?is phase ( our exi/5ce we nev] c>ry out t ,w except to a remote degree4 ,we only /ruggle t[>ds do+ x4 ,:5 great sorr[s come x is because 9 ! /ruggle we h n be5 successful4 ,ei!r we ourselves h fail$2 or ! failure ( o!rs affects u indirectly4 ,:ile ,god's ,w may be = our happ9ess1 we c atta9 to nei!r ! happ9ess nor ! ,w--z yet4 ,nev]!less1 we w\ld n h x o!rwise4 ,9 our m ?\ghtless or m agonis$ m9utes we are likely to cry out = a life 9 :i* ! conditions ensur+ our happ9ess c\ld n s easily misc>ry2 b t w\ld mean a /atic life1 & a /atic life1 above all ?+s1 we w n endure4 ,z already se51 we ask = difficulties to conqu]1 successes to a*ieve4 ,to cont5d is our in/9ct1 n to be passive & enjoy4 ,difficulties to conqu] c only exi/ side by side ) ! possibility ( n conqu]+ !m4 ,! victory :i* is m]ely a walk-ov] is sc>cely a victory4 ,a*ievem5t c\nts only :5 some?+ has be5 ov]come4 ,ev5 !n ! ov]com+ ( "o ?+ m]ely spurs u on to ov]come ano!r4 ,to re/ on our laurels is doom4 ,= a race :i* has ! inf9ite z its goal ! ^w mu/ be on & on4 ,! /atic heav5 ( be>+ palms & play+ h>ps & bliss1 :i* ! nave int]pretation ( our fa!rs drew f ! imag]y ( ! ,apocalypse1 has long s9ce made u rebelli\s4 ,some?+ to /rive = we dem&1 ev5 at ! risk ( b]eavem5t4 ,x ,x is at once ! disadvantage & ! glory ( our own g5]ation t x is only on ! f\r? or fif? /ep ( ! /airway by :i* we are climb+4 ,b at lea/ x is heir to ! conque/s :i* g to its /age ( advance4 ,untimely b]eavem5t is less common to-day ?an x 0 a few c5turies ago2 x is m common to-day ?an x w be a few c5turies h5ce4 ,su* /orms ( affliction z 9 #agab swept ov] ! h\se ( ,l\is ,quatorze occur less frequ5tly n[4 ,b !y /ill occur4 ,we h n got beyond !m4 ,!y are only b\nd to occur less & less frequ5tly1 till !y become no m ?an matt]s ( sc>cely cr$ible record4 ,9 ! mean:ile x may be a com=t to o!rs1 z x is to me1 to be able to absolve ,god f ! *>ge ( caprici\s & intol]able ?w>t+ ( our love4 ,to me1 at lea/1 ! bl[ is easi] to be> :5 ,i "k t ,8 belov$ h& didn't /rike x4 ,i _c und]/& be+ tortur$ out ( %e] love1 :ile pati5ce ) :at leaves me ) my :ole life maim$ is only ! pati5ce ( ! vanqui%$4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,i c be> ) my mi/akes1 ,i c be> ) ! mi/akes ( o!rs1 ,i c be> ) ! failures :i* are ! fruit ( our lack ( race-developm5t1 s long z ,i "k t ,god is on my side4 ,! affliction :i* w\ld be too poignant z com+ directly f ,him is half soo!d already :5 ,i "k t ,he is soo?+ x4 ,i may h lo/ :at ,he gave2 b f> f snat*+ x f me ,he w\ld h _h me keep x4 ,( all my com=ts t assurance is ! fir/4 ,9 addition1 ,i h ! satisfaction--a meagre satisfaction y may call x1 b a satisfaction all ! same--( kn[+ t by ! pl\gh+ & h>r[+ ( my he>t a /ep is tak5 t[>d t future 9 :i* he>ts %all be less h>r[$ & pl\gh$4 ,x mu/ nev] happ5 aga94 ,t is :at we keep say+ ) reg>d to ! ,great ,w>4 ,well1 x may happ5 aga94 ,we h z yet no tru/wor?y pl$ge to ! contr>y4 ,b ( ?is we may be sure1 t x w n happ5 aga9 v (t54 ,x is less likely to happ5 aga9 = ! v reason t x has happ5$4 ,if ! ,great ,w> does n prove to be ! la/ w> x is ! m probable t ! next w> w4 ,i mean t we d le>n our lessons1 ?\gh we le>n !m only z feeble-m9d$ *ildr5 le>n !irs4 ,agony by agony1 some?+ is ga9$1 & my p]sonal agony c\nts ) ! re/4 ,! fact may give me no m ?an ! fa9te/ consolation1 & possibly none at all2 & /ill 9 ! long1 sl[ /ages ( our upw>d climb my agony c\nts1 :e!r its c\nt+ consoles me or n4 ,,xi ,! inf]5ce t we come into ! life ( ?is planet = an appo9t$ "t we draw f :at we see ( ,god's sy/em ( ord]4 ,all o!r ?+s d s1 z f> z we obs]ve4 ,! plant spr+s1 to gr[ & bloom1 to be> fruit & se$1 & s r5ew itself4 ,fi%1 bird1 & animal h _! appo9t$ r\nd v>y+ only 9 detail f t ( ! plant4 ,man's appo9t$ r\nd w\ld seem to v>y only 9 detail f t ( ! animal1 except t he himself int]f]es ) x4 ,to ! be/ ( my k ! plant1 f ! blade ( grass to ! oak or ! or*id1 always fulfils its life-span1 unless "s act or accid5t cripples or de/roys x4 ,i mean t we nev] see ,god br++ ! %oot above ! soil j to nip x be=e x unfolds4 ,we nev] see ,him br+ ! bud to ! eve ( blossom+ j to )] x4 ,hav+ giv5 x its mission ,he supplies x ) ra91 sun1 & su/5ance to br+ t mission to its end4 ,true1 ! plant has enemies1 l ev]y?+ else1 enemies :i* x may n escape4 ,b g5]ally speak+1 x does escape !m1 & lives to f9i% its task4 ,s1 too1 ) ! m active liv+ ?+4 ,x1 too1 has its enemies4 ,x1 too1 may n escape !m4 ,b assum+ t x does1 ,god all[s x1 to ! be/ ( our obs]vation1 to "w out its full developm5t4 ,! only b]eavem5t he br+s to ! lion1 ! ?ru%1 or ! elephant1 or any o!r creature capable ( grief is1 app>5tly1 f ^? ho/ile s\rces ( :i* ! ho/ility is m or less gratuit\s4 ,a man %oots a lion1 or ! lion kills an antelope2 b !y d s ?r\gh misread+ ( ,god's ,w1 n ?r\gh fulfill+ x4 ,= ! l[] ranks ( creation misread t ,w 9 _! way z mu* z ! high] 9 !irs4 ,all f]ocity mu/ be mis9t]pretation ( ! div9e law ( h>mony & mutual help4 ,int]nec9e de/ruction probably has a mean+ we c only guess at4 ,guess+ at x we are at lib]ty to surmise t :at ,god sees z lov+ cont5tion = excell5ce1 ea* ga9+ by ! o!r's ga91 we und]/& z bitt] /rife1 & consumption ( ! fle% & blood4 ,! rivalry we c be/ appreciate is t ( brutality2 ! *ief b5efit ! /rong] creature seeks f ! weak] is 9 kill+ & eat+ him4 ,:y ?is %\ld be "p ( our /ruggle ,i d n "k2 b "p ( our /ruggle x seems to be--f ! humble/ organism up to man--! mi/ak+ ( ,god's ,w be=e le>n+ to und]/& x4 ,& le/ ,i %\ld seem to assume too mu*1 9 say+ ?is1 let me add t our progress out ( ?is /ate ( prey+ on ea* o!r has long be5 =ese5 by ! pione]s ( tru?4 ,! vision is at lea/ z anci5t z ,isaiah1 :5 he descri$ f af> ! accompli%$ rule ( ! ,son ( ,david3 ,) righte\sness %all he judge ! poor1 & reprove ) equity = ! meek ( ! e>?4444 ,& righte\sness %all be ! girdle ( 8 lo9s1 & fai?fulness ! girdle ( 8 re9s4 ,! wolf also %all dwell ) ! lamb1 & ! leop>d %all lie d[n ) ! kid2 & ! calf & ! "y lion & ! fatl+ toge!r2 & a little *ild %all lead !m4 ,& ! c[ & ! be> %all fe$2 _! "y ones %all lie d[n toge!r4444 ,& ! suck+ *ild %all play on ! hole ( ! asp1 & ! wean$ *ild %all put 8 h& on ! add]'s d54 ,!y %all n hurt nor de/roy 9 all my holy m\nta92 = ! e>? %all be full ( ! k ( ! ,"l1 z ! wat]s cov] ! seas4 ,,xii ,if ,i am correct 9 ?9k+ t our passage across ! life ( ?is planet is meant to la/ = an appo9t$ "t1 ,i presume t t "t w\ld be measur$ by exp]i5ce r ?an by ye>s4 ,!re exi/s :at we vaguely call ! r\nd ( life4 ,we are born2 we gr[2 we "k family int]e/s2 we le>n2 we "w2 we love2 we m>ry2 we beget *ildr52 we tra9 !m to take our places2 we pass beyond4 ,!re are v>iations on ?is r\t9e1 "s ( u hav+ m1 "s ( u hav+ less2 b 9 g5]al x may be tak5 z typical4 ,x is our mission1 z ! plants & ! l[] liv+ ?+s h !irs4 ,x seems reasonable1 !n1 to ?9k t ea* baby born is meant by ! ,fa!r's ,w to reap ?is exp]i5ce be=e x proce$s to fur!r exp]i5ce4 ,x mu/ be a /age 9 its gr[? or x w\ld n come into x4 ,:5 x is balk$ ( x some?+ is amiss4 ,! *ild :o dies 9 infancy has lo/ some?+4 ,! lad or ! girl :om our organis$ life drives f ?is plane be=e rea*+ fruition has lo/ some?+4 ,! p>5t :om our conditions =ce onw>d be=e he has br\ght 8 task to a /age at :i* he c peacefully lay x d[n has lo/ some?+4 ,i am n say+ t ,god does n control res\rces by :i* t loss c be abundantly made up1 b only t ! loss w\ld seem to be !re4 ,x is loss = ! "o :o dep>ts z well z = ^? :o rema9 beh9d4 ,,xiii ,t is :at ,i ga!r f ! in/ances 9 ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5t 9 :i* ^? :o _h gone on be=e _! "t 7 call$ back aga94 ,!re are six ( ^! in/ances 9 all3 "o 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t1 & five 9 ! ,new4 ,( f\r ( !m we are expressly told t ^? re/or$ 7 "y2 ( ! o!r two no?+ is said z to age1 b "o at lea/ 0 probably "y1 :ile ! o!r 0 greatly ne$$4 ,! *ild call$ back by ,eli%a 0 /ill a little boy4 ,! daught] ( ,jairus 0 /ill a little girl4 ,! son ( ! wid[ ( ,na9 0 a "y man1 z 0 also ,euty*us rais$ by ,/4 ,paul4 ,?\gh we are n told ! age ( ,laz>us we judge t he 0 at mo/ no m ?an 9 man's maturity4 ,dorcas ( ,lydda may h be5 ( any age1 b1 judg+ by ! circum/ances1 %e _h n complet$ h] task4 ,,xiv ,my po9t is ?is1 t if ^! ?+s happ5$1 !y seem to be> out my sugge/ion t our own inducem5t ( premature dea? cuts u (f f fulfill+ our appo9t$ "t & gett+ our appo9t$ exp]i5ce4 ,only on "s su* gr\nd c we believe t any w\ld be p]mitt$ to return4 ,%\ld ?is be s we w\ld be 9 a position to assume t all :o g ov] ahead ( "t w\ld be all[$ to come back1 if we _h suffici5t spiritual p[] to recall !m4 ,b t p[] is ( ! r>e/4 ,our ,"l1 app>5tly1 0 9 control ( x only at times1 & on at lea/ "o occasion1 t ( ! rais+ ( ,laz>us1 its ex]cise 0 n :at we %\ld call easy4 ,b t ,he believ$ x to be at human comm& to "s ext5t is cle> f ! fact t its use became "o ( ,8 f\r basic pr9ciples4 ,raise ! dead1 0 ! second ( ! comm&s ) :i* ,he s5t out 8 fir/ sev5ty disciples4 ,,xv ,i dwell on ! subject only because ( its be>+ on ! love ( ,god4 ,if x becomes pla9 to u t by ! und]/&+ ( ,god's ,w we ga9 a ri*] exp]i5ce1 ) less fe> ( be+ cut (f be=e our "w is done1 t ,w makes a /rong] appeal = be+ und]/ood4 ,t we h n und]/ood x e>li]1 t we h n p>ticul>ly c>$ to und]/& x1 is due1 ,i ?9k1 to our assumption ( its caprici\sness4 ,x has be5 s und]scor$ z inscrutable--! ^w g5]ally appli$ to x--t ! man 9 ! /reet has felt my/ifi$ by x f ! />t4 ,be+ my/ifi$ he has settl$ d[n to ?9k z little ab\t x z he c\ld4 ,b a great =ce /riv+ ) man to put common s5se into 8 me?ods is wor? compreh5d+4 ,x does n compel u to common-s5se me?ods = ! reason t we value only t :i* we "w out = ourselves4 ,we "w no?+ out b ?r\gh suff]+4 ,we le>n no?+1 we take no =w>d /ep1 except z we are :ipp$ to x by angui%4 ,t is :y !re is s mu* m\rn+ 9 ! _w4 ,god does n cause x2 we br+ x on ourselves2 b ea* "t we br+ x on ourselves we creep "o t9y /ep ne>] t race-conclusion :i* is n[ com+ to u ab\t w>1 & w "o day come to u ab\t dea?1 t ,x mu/ nev] happ5 aga94 ,,xvi ,9 o!r words1 dea? w be aboli%$ by race-unanimity n to submit to x4 ,we %all h travell$ f> 9 ?is direction :5 ! av]age m9d beg9s to p]ceive t ,god did n s5d dea? into ,8 creation1 b t we ourselves develop$ x4 ,hav+ develop$ x ourselves we mu/ get rid ( x ourselves1 & already "s ( t "w has be5 done4 ,= see+ t dea? came ?r\gh man1 are ! words ( ,/4 ,paul1 ?r\gh man comes also ! resurrection ( ! dead4 ,:5 he speaks ( ,jesus ,*ri/ :o ha? aboli%$ dea?1 8 words are /rong] /ill4 ,he has put an end to dea? & has br\ght ,life & ,immortality to light by ! ,good ,news1 ( :i* ,i h be5 appo9t$ a prea*]1 apo/le1 & tea*]4 ,?is ,life & ,immortality are n to be relegat$ to o!r ages & worlds2 !y are = u to "w out n[4 ,! degree to :i* we "w !m out dep5ds on our own ef=ts4 ,dea? w be our doom = _m g5]ations to come1 because s few ( u h ! en]gy to /rive aga9/ x4 ,release c come only :5 ! race at l>ge is will+ to ca/ ! evil ?+ (f4 ,"o w\ld suppose t we w\ld be will+ n[2 b we are f> f be+ will+4 ,we %all g on =c+ our de> ones to die be=e _! "t1 fall+ sick ourselves1 endur+ agonies1 & rott+ 9 graves1 till we h suff]$ to ! po9t at :i* we cry out t we h _h en\gh4 ,!re w be a day :5 9 pres5ce ( ! useless ?+ we %all say1 ) some?+ am\nt+ to "o accord1 ,x mu/ /op4 ,t day w be ! beg9n+ ( ! end ( ! age-long curse to :i* we /ill submit ourselves4 ,9 ! language ( ,/4 ,paul1 ,! la/ enemy to be de/roy$ is dea?1 leav+ u ) ! belief t1 :5 we h progress$ to ! ov]?r[ ( o!r =ces oppos$ to u1 we %all g on to ! ov]?r[ ( ?is "o--& t x w be ov]?r[n4 ,,xvii ,f "o k9d ( fe> ?is reason+ has almo/ entirely deliv]$ me--t ( be+ tak5 away 9 ! mid/ ( my responsibilities1 & be=e my "w is done4 ,i am n s audaci\s z to say t x may n happ52 b only t1 reason+ z ,i d1 ,i am no long] a prey to appreh5sions on ! po9t4 ,!y us$ to come to me1 n l ! money-fe>1 an abid+ visitant1 b 9 spells ( int5se dread4 ,i suppose t mo/ m5 ) families1 & mu* unf9i%$ bus9ess1 "k ?is dread1 & h suff]$ f x4 ,y ?9k ( ! home y h built up1 & ( :at x w\ld be )\t y4 ,y ?9k ( y\r wife1 grappl+ ) a k9d ( difficulty to :i* %e is unaccu/om$4 ,y ?9k ( y\r *ildr5 :o turn to y z _! c5tral po9t1 & :o w\ld be left )\t y\r guidance4 ,y ?9k ( o!r duties y h und]tak51 & wond] :o w c>ry !m ?r\gh4 ,y seem to be s ess5tial to ev]yone & ev]y?+2 & yet1 y h be5 told1 x may be ! ,w ( ,god to remove y f !m1 & ei!r let y\r plans collapse1 or put _! execution on ! %\ld]s ( someone else4 ,i am n s presumptu\s z to say t = me ?is may n happ54 ,i only say t ,i d n ?9k x w4 ,i d n ?9k s because1 accord+ to my judgm5t1 ,he hav+ help$ me to g z f> z ,i h gone1 w help me to f9i% my task be=e giv+ me ano!r "o4 ,my task1 ,i ?9k1 ,he mu/ e/imate z ,i d4 ,t is1 my duties to o!rs be+ n :olly ( my *oos+1 b hav+ come to me accord+ to :at ,i may call ,8 weigh+ & measur+1 ,i take !m to be ! duties ,he w\ld h me p]=m4 ,if s1 ,he w\ld naturally h me p]=m !m till ,i come to ! place :]e ,i c reasonably lay !m d[n4 ,!re=e1 ,i dismiss ! fe> ( untimely sep>ation f my appo9t$ "w4 ,su* a sep>ation may come2 b if x does1 x w probably come by "s su* means z ,i h briefly tri$ to sket*2 my own mi/akes2 ! mi/akes ( o!rs2 ! effect ( race-pressure4 ,9 any case1 my p]sonal resi/ance1 x seems to me1 is made ! /\t] by feel+ t my tasks are ,8 tasks1 & s t s long z ,i am ne$ful to _! accompli%m5t1 ,i rema94 ,if ,i g1 x w be because ,he has ! succession ( ev5ts s plann$ z to r$uce collapse1 failure1 or suff]+ to a m9imum4 ,,xviii ,b4 ,! ?\ght t ! m9ute aft] dea? w only be ano!r little /ep 9 ,gr[?1 to be foll[$ by ano!r & !n ano!r1 z we are us$ to gr[+ "h1 greatly dim9i%es "o's %r9k+ at ! *ange4 ,x is entirely a mod]n ?\ght4 ,! pa/1 ev5 ( a few c5turies ago1 nev] ent]ta9$ x4 ,x is d\btful if x 0 m5tally prep>$ to ent]ta9 x1 or evolve ! idea4 ,?is is n to depreciate our fa!rs' m5tal p[]s4 ,diff]5t g5]ations h diff]5t gifts4 ,"o age works along "o l9e1 ano!r along ano!r4 ,! pa/ _h a c]ta9 revelation ( tru?2 b ! revelation ( tru? did n end ) ! pa/4 ,our ance/ors receiv$ z mu* z !y c\ld take4 ,:at1 x seems1 !y 7 unable to take 0 any?+ :i* made dea? less horrible4 ,we may say1 9 fact1 t !y didn't want x4 ,!y lik$ hav+ dea? made horrible4 ,_m p l x /ill4 ,! mitigation ( t horror !y condemn1 res5t1 & (t5 ascribe to ! devil4 ,& yet !re is a t5d5cy to see light ?r\gh ?is gloom1 & to seek views ( dea? m 9 ! l9e ( common s5se ?an ^? :i* h come d[n to u4 ,x is n a /rong t5d5cy1 b x exi/s4 ,x exi/s 9 ! face ( opposition on ! "p ( ^? religi\s cons]vatives :o ?9k cons]vatism & or?odoxy ! same ?+2 & x runs ! gauntlet ( ! sne]s & je]s ( ! mat]ially m9d$ :o make common cause ) ! old gu>d ( ! *ur*es2 b x exi/s4 ,x exi/s1 & goes =w>d1 becom+ a factor 9 ! ?\ght-life ( our "t4 ,x is n yet two hundr$ ye>s s9ce ! plea 0 put =? on behalf ( mank9d t1 9 ! adm9i/ration ( div9e ju/ice1 no "o suff]s less ?an he des]ves1 b also t no "o suff]s m4 ,! ho/ility to ?is seem+ly h>mless tea*+ 0 ( ! mo/ int5se4 ,!re is ho/ility to x /ill1 b mild z comp>$ ) t felt by our great-great-gr&fa!rs4 ,t no "o %\ld suff] less ?an he des]ves w5t )\t say+2 b t no "o %\ld suff] m 0 decl>$ a black h]esy4 ,z !re are ^? :o decl>e x a black h]esy to-day1 x may be wor? :ile1 9 ! int]e/s ( ! conque/ ( fe>1 to say a ^w z to ! relation ( ,god & puni%m5t4 ,,xix ,to my m9d x is *iefly v]bal4 ,x is p]missible to say t !re is no su* ?+ z puni%m5t2 !re are only wrong results4 ,x dep5ds ^u y\r way ( putt+ x4 ,! wrong me?od produces wrong results 9 proportion z x is wrong4 ,wrong results mean wrong conditions2 & wrong conditions mean suff]+4 ,y may call ?is ! law ( ,god1 b x is ! law ( any?+4 ,x is n positive law1 x is negative4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,god does n ne$ to put =? a law on ! po9t s9ce ev]y?+ works t way4 ,:at we call s9 is simply a wrong me?od4 ,x may be a wrong me?od meant to produce wrong2 or x may be a wrong me?od 9 ! hope ( produc+ "r4 ,9 any case x br+s its consequ5ce 9 pa94 ,t consequ5ce may be correct$ 9 ?is phase ( our be+1 or x may be c>ri$ ov] into ! next4 ,c>ri$ ov] into ! next ! individual1 accord+ to our ance/ral tea*+1 comes "u ! s5t5ce 9 :i* our fa!rs delight$ z damnation4 ,n only did damnation involve ! mo/ fi5di% torture ! ,almighty c\ld inv5t1 b ! torture 0 inflict$1 )\t an in/ant ( relief1 ?r\gh\t ! eons ( et]nity4 ,i recall a s]mon to :i* ,i li/5$ z a boy ( n9e4 ,x 0 on a summ]'s ev5+1 :5 ! w9d[s ( ! *ur* 7 op54 ,a mo? flutt]$ ab\t a light4 ,! *ur* /ood at ! foot ( a m\nta94 ,! prea*] 0 try+ to expla9 to u ! et]nal duration ( ,god's puni%m5t4 ,?9k ( t mo?1 he said1 c>ry+ away "o gra9 ( s& f t m\nta91 & go+ (f = a million ye>s1 aft] :i* x w\ld return & take away ano!r gra94 ,& ?9k ( x keep+ ?is up1 "o gra9 e million ye>s1 till ! :ole m\nta9 0 remov$4 ,well1 t w\ld be only a mom5t z comp>$ ) ! "t y w\ld be 9 hell4 ,on ! g5]ations com=t$ & =tifi$ by ?is sort ( tea*+ ,i h no comm5t to make2 b we ( ano!r g5]ation %\ld surely n be reprov$ = mov+ away f x4 ,we move away f x 9 ! direction ( common s5se1 s9ce common s5se mu/ be an attribute ( ! ,univ]sal ,fa!r z x is ( ! wis] among mank9d4 ,,xx ,i rev]t1 !n1 to my /atem5t t ,god's relation to puni%m5t is *iefly v]bal4 ,8 wra? aga9/ s9 is a way ( putt+ x4 ,if y c be/ express ! suff]+ :i* spr+s f wrong me?ods z ,god's wra? y are at lib]ty s to express y\rself2 b we %\ld n lose sight ( ! fact t ! wrong me?ods produce ! suff]+1 & n an outbur/ ( fury on ! "p ( ,"o :o is put be=e u z ,love4 ,! fact t ! ,hebrew writ]s (t5 us$ a vivid =m ( w>n+ & invective is n a reason :y we %\ld keep on do+ x4 ,! ,hebrew writ] 0 a primitive speak+ to primitives4 ,mean+ :at we mean1 he requir$ a /rong]1 fi]c] vocabul>y ?an we ev] ne$4 ,9 say+ ?is ,i am n dodg+ ! issue2 ,i am /at+ a fact :i* rules 9 all hi/orical int]pretation4 ,to make ! phraseology ( two ?\s& ye>s be=e ,*ri/ ! lit]al expression ( ! ?\ght ( two ?\s& ye>s aft] ,him is to be ar*aic beyond reason4 ,hav+ grasp$ a pr9ciple1 we phrase x 9 ! language ( our "t4 ,! language ( our "t makes1 on ! :ole1 = re/ra9t1 sobriety1 & exactitude ( /atem5t4 ,few ( our habits modify !mselves m con/antly & m rapidly ?an our =ms ( spee*4 ,n only does ea* g5]ation f9d some?+ special to itself1 b ea* ye> & ea* season4 ,to me x seems t mu* ( our misund]/&+ ( ,god spr+s f ! ef=t to fix on ,him =ev]more ! peculi>ities we inf] f ! idiom ( five ?\s& ye>s ago4 ,only to a degree does t idiom convey to u :at is convey$ to ^? :o he>d x z a liv+ tongue2 & ( t degree mu* is lo/ :5 x p]colates ?r\gh translation4 ,to cl+ to words :5 all we ne$ is to "k pr9ciples1 clo?+ !m 9 our own way1 seems to me n only absurd 9 fact b lam5table 9 result4 ,i v5ture to ?9k t m p h be5 ali5at$ f ,god by a pi\s b misappli$ v]bal use ?an 7 ev] e/rang$ f ,him by s94 ,,xxi ,our anci5t ,hebrew pr$ecessors und]/ood ,god 9 _! own way4 ,we und]/& ,him 9 ! same way1 b ) ! cl>ification wr\ght by ! int]v5+ ye>s ( progress4 ,9 o!r words1 !y bequea? u a treasure :i* we are free to enri* ) our own discov]ies4 ,among our own discov]ies is a cle>] compreh5sion ( pa9 z result+ f wrong me?ods1 & ( ,god's deta*m5t f pa94 ,m & m1 puni%m5t becomes a concept we reject4 ,ev5 9 our p5al in/itutions1 :i* h be5 = s _m c5turies a b>b>\s tok5 ( our incompet5ce1 we beg9 to sub/itute = puni%m5t some?+ m ne>ly ak9 to cure4 ,if we f9d m]e v5geance unwor?y ( ourselves we mu/ f9d x unwor?y ( ! ,univ]sal ,fa!r4 ,if we conc$e to ! crim9al ! "r to a fur!r *ance we conc$e x to ourselves4 ,if we recognise ! fact t ! s9n] on e>? may r$eem himself1 work+ f error t[>ds righte\sness1 ! same pr9ciple %\ld rule 9 ! :ole range ( exi/5ce4 ,!re is no?+ ab\t ! e>?-life to make x ! only phase ( ef=t & probation4 ,ef=t & probation are probably conditions ( et]nity4 ,!y w be 9 our next exp]i5ce z !y h be5 9 ?is1 lead+ u on f /r5g? to /r5g?4 ,,xxii ,"o ma9 diff]5ce betwe5 ! m9d ( ! pa/ & ! mod]n m9d is t ! m9d ( ! pa/ t5d$ to be /atic1 :ile ! m9d ( to-day is m & m attun$ to a dynamic univ]se4 ,civilisation be=e ! n9ete5? c5tury 0 accu/om$ to long p]iods ) relatively little *ange4 ,mo/ p sp5t _! entire lives 9 ! same t[n or ! same c\ntryside4 ,9 ! class 9 :i* !y 7 born !y liv$ & di$1 ) little ?\ght ( gett+ out ( x4 ,?is be+ s !y look$ = ! same /atic conditions aft] dea? z !y saw be=e x4 ,a *angeless heav5 appall$ !m ) no s5se ( monotony1 nor did a *angeless hell d any?+ to %ake _! n]ves4 ,_! n]ves 7 n easily %ak54 ,!y 7 a phlegmatic race1 placid1 unimag9ative1 reposeful4 ,because we ( to-day are m re/less x does n foll[ t our views %\ld be tru]4 ,we only "k !y are tru] because we are s mu* ne>] ! tru? ?an !y _h ! opportunity to come4 ,we prove t we are ne>] ! tru? by our great] comm& ( ! ,fa!r's res\rces4 ,if our :ole horizon ( tru? 7 n broad5$1 we c\ld n possess ?is comm&4 ,,xxiii ,*ang+ our /atic conception ( life to t ( a dynamic w to unfold1 we see ! climax we commonly call dea? z only a new /ep 9 unfoldm5t4 ,:atev] ,i h be51 ! /ep mu/ be "o 9 advance4 ,x w\ld n be 9 accord ) creative en]gy t ,i %\ld g backw>d4 ,! advance may entail suff]+1 s9ce x is probable t x w give me a height5$ p]ception ( ! wrong 9 my me?ods2 b !re are conditions 9 :i* suff]+ signifies advance4 ,& yet if ,i suff] x c only be ) :at ,i may call a curative suff]+4 ,x w be suff]+ t comes f ! recognition ( mi/ake2 n ! hopeless angui% ( ! damn$4 ,hav+ le>n$ h[ n to d x1 ,i p]ceive h[ to d x--& g on4 ,b ! p]ception ( h[ to d x is precisely :at mo/ ( u h be5 acquir+4 ,i v5ture to ?9k t few ( u w come face to face ) dea? )\t be+ m or less prep>$ = x4 ,life is s organis$ t1 at its wor/1 all b ! r>e exceptions make progress daily1 ?r\gh ob$i5ce to ! laws ( righte\sness4 ,9 say+ ?is we mu/ c\nt z righte\sness n m]ely ! c>ry+ out ( a rule ( ?umb laid d[n by man's s-call$ morality1 or ! te*nical regulations prescrib$ by ! *ur*es = ! use ( _! adh]5ts2 we mu/ include e response to e high call4 ,we mu/ rememb] t all a man does 9 ! way ( ef=t to be a good son1 a good bro!r1 a good husb&1 a good fa!r1 a good workman1 a good citiz51 is ( ! nature ( sl[ly creep+ =w>d4 ,above e o!r =m ( tra9+ ( ! self ?is endeav\r det]m9es a man's spiritual /&+1 & 8 /ate ( wor?9ess4 ,he may "k "s failure 9 ea* ( ^! details2 & yet ! fact t 9 ! ma9 he is set--z ,i am conv9c$ ! great majority are set--t[>d fulfill+ 8 responsibilities helps him to be ready :5 ! "t comes to put ! mat]ial away4 ,! great common s5se ( ! nations br\ght u to ?is p]ception dur+ ! ye>s :5 ! "y m5 ( ! _w 7 go+ d[n l :eat be=e ! reap+ ma*9e4 ,= ! mo/ "p1 d\btless1 !y 7 "y m5 9 :om ! ladies :o att5d our *ur*es w\ld h se5 mu* to reprim&4 ,! moral cu/oms ( _! c\ntries 7 possibly held by !m lightly4 ,! two po9ts :i* con/itute pretty ne>ly all ( ,am]ican morality !y may h disreg>d$4 ,& yet we felt t _! answ] to ! summons1 :i* to !m at lea/ 0 a summons to sacrifice1 %[$ !m z m5 :o _h l>gely work$ out _! r$emption4 ,:atev] our traditions1 we 7 sure t ^? :o 7 ready to d any?+ s great c\ld g to ! ,fa!r )\t fe>4 ,b w> calls = no m ?an a summ+ up & di/illation ( ! qualities we cultivate 9 peace4 ,^! m5 7 ready because homes1 (fices1 banks1 %ops1 factories1 & f>ms _h tra9$ !m to be ready4 ,s !y are tra9+ all ( u4 ,traditions help2 ! *ur*es help2 b :5 x comes to ! direct+ ( ! life t[>d righte\sness--! ef=t to d ev]y?+ rightly--no "o ?+ has ! monopoly4 ,,xxiv ,go+ to ! ,fa!r )\t fe>6 ,all ! joy ( life seems to me to hang on t little phrase4 ,i us$ x j n[ ( ! "y m5 :o pass$ ov] f ! battlefield2 b ,i us$ x !re ) limitations4 ,go+ to ! ,fa!r )\t fe> is a privilege = e m9ute ( ! day4 ,m & m k ( ! ,fa!r is ! progress = :i* we crave1 s9ce m k ( ! ,fa!r means a full] view ( all t makes up ! spiritual univ]se4 ,into t k we are advanc+ e h\r we live2 into t k we %all /ill be advanc+ at ! h\r :5 we die4 ,! ,fa!r w /ill be %[+ u some?+ new2 ! some?+ new w /ill be %[+ u ! ,fa!r4 ,x w be some?+ new1 z we c receive x4 ,he :o c receive little w be giv5 little2 he :o c receive mu* w be giv5 mu*4 ,9 gr[? all is adju/$ to capacity2 x is n meant to %ock1 =ce1 or fright54 ,! next /ep 9 gr[? be+ always an easy /ep1 ,i c feel sure ( mov+ onw>ds easily--f /r5g? to /r5g?1 9 ! words ( "o ( ! ,songs = ! ,sons ( ,korah1 until unto ! ,god ( gods appe>e? ev]yone ( !m 9 ,zion4#cc #cc ,! ,book ( ,psalms4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,! ,,fe> ,,( ,,dea? ,,& ,,abundance ,,( ,,life ,i ,aft] all1 ! conque/ ( fe> is l>gely a "q ( vitality4 ,^? :o h mo/ life are mo/ fe>less4 ,! ma9 "q is z to ! s\rce f :i* an increase ( life is to be obta9$4 ,an important psy*ological tru? 0 involv$ :5 our ,"l made ! decl>ation1 ,i am come t !y might h life1 & t !y might h x m abundantly4 ,?is1 ,i ?9k1 0 ! fir/ pla9 /atem5t ev] made t life 0 a quantitative en]gy2 t x is less or m dynamic accord+ to ! measure 9 :i* ! individual seizes x4 ,b once m ! ,caucasian has /ultifi$ ! mean+ ( ,jesus ( ,naz>e? by evaporat+ x to ! t5u\s wisp :i* he und]/&s z spiritual4 ,betwe5 ! pale gho/ ( su* spiritual life z he has evok$ f ! ,savi\r's words & manly & womanly vig\r 9 full-blood$ ex]cise he has se5 no connection4 ,,ii ,few ( u d see a connection betwe5 /r5g? ( _s & /r5g? ( limb2 b x is !re4 ,i am n say+ t a /rong _s _c coexi/ ) a feeble frame2 b ! feeble frame is a mi/ake4 ,x is ! result ( appreh5sion & misappreh5sion1 & br$ ( race-fe>4 ,! /rong _s w\ld h put =? a /rong frame if we _h giv5 x a *ance4 ,abundant life mu/ be life1 heal?y1 active1 & radiant4 ,x %\ld %[ ! life-pr9ciple no long] driv5 f sea to l&1 & f l& to air1 or battl+ ) a million foes1 b vigor\s & triumphant4 ,?is vig\r & triumph we ought to "w into our po9t ( view1 s knead+ x into our subconsci\sness4 ,/rong 9 proportion z our subconsci\sness is /rong1 fe>less 9 proportion z our subconsci\sness is fe>less1 ! go+ f /r5g? to /r5g? becomes a matt] ( c\rse to u4 ,urg+ u on 9 %e] joy ( p[]1 abundance ( life becomes /ill m abundant ?r\gh ! indwell+ ( ! life-pr9ciple4 ,t my/ic resi/less =ce1 :i* has fa%ion$ already s _m =ms1 is =ev] at "w fa%ion+ a high] type ( man4 ,ea* "o ( u is t high] type ( man pot5tially4 ,?\gh we c =ge b little ahead ( our "t & g5]ation1 x is mu* to "k t ! ,holy ,gho/ ( ,life is our animat+ brea?1 pu%+ u on to ! ov]com+ ( all ob/acles4 ,= me z an individual x is a support to feel t ! pr9ciple :i* 0 nev] yet defeat$ is my pr9ciple1 & t :atev] ! task ( to-day or to-morr[ ,i h ! ability to p]=m x well4 ,! hesitation t may seize me1 or ! que/ion+ :i* = an in/ant may %ake my fai?1 is b a rem9d] t ! life-pr9ciple is n only ) me1 b m abundantly ) me 9 proportion to my ne$4 ,my ne$ is its call4 ,! spasm ( fe> :i* crosses my he>t summons x to my aid4 ,x n only nev] des]ts me1 b x nev] delays1 & is nev] at a loss = "s new +5uity to meet new requirem5ts4 ,f /r5g? to /r5g? is its law1 c>ry+ me on ) ! impetus ( its own m\nt+ t[>d ,god4 ,,iii ,& ! impetus ( its own m\nt+ t[>d ,god is n conf9$ to :at we view z ! great ?+s ( life4 ,betwe5 great & small x makes no di/9ction4 ,x is z eag] on behalf ( ! man beh9d a c\nt] z on t ( him :o is gov]n+ a c\ntry4 ,! woman :o has on h] %\ld]s ! social duties ( an embassy1 or ! f9ancial c>es ( a great bus9ess1 has x no m at h] comm& ?an %e :o is nurs+ h] baby or reckon+ h] p5nies to make bo? ends meet4 ,x ru%es to ! help ( all4 ,:]ev] !re is duty or responsibility x is begg+ at ! doors ( our he>ts to be let 91 to %>e ! "w & ease ! burd54 ,z ,i get up ea* morn+1 x is !re4 ,z ,i plan my day :ile ,i dress myself1 x is !re4 ,z ,i ?9k ) misgiv+ ( "s lett] ,i tremble at receiv+1 or ) di/a/e at "s job ,i mu/ tackle be=e night1 x is !re4 ,x is !re1 n only ) its help1 b ) its absolute k ( ! "r way = me to act4 ,! c>e t worries me may be s big z to involve millions ( o!r p's money1 or x may be z small z ! typ+ ( a lett]2 b ! "r way ( fulfill+ ei!r task is plead+ to be all[$ to ent] my intellig5ce4 ,my task is its task4 ,my success w be its success4 ,my failure w react on x1 s9ce failure sets back by t degree ! :ole procession ( ! ages4 ,:e!r ,i am pa9t+ a great ma/]piece or sew+ on a button my success is ess5tial to ! ,holy ,gho/ ( ,life4 ,,iv ,s ,i1 ! individual1 try to confront ea* day ) ! k t ,i am infus$ ) a guid+1 animat+ pr9ciple :i* w n let me drop beh9d1 or lose my mode/ rew>d1 s long z ,i tru/ to ! =ce :i* c>ries me along4 ,by tru/+ to x ,i mean re/+ on x quietly1 )\t worry+1 )\t be+ afraid t x w fail me4 ,fret n ?yself1 else %alt ?\ be mov$ to d evil4#cd ,by do+ evil1 ,i presume is meant mak+ a mi/ake1 tak+ ! wrong c\rse4 ,if1 h[ev] great ! cause1 ,i fret myself ,i di/urb ! "r conditions4 ,by di/urb+ ! "r conditions ,i *oke (f ! fl[ ( ! life-pr9ciple ?r\gh my en]gies4 #cd ,! ,book ( ,psalms4 ,v ,at a mom5t :5 ! little buff] /ate betwe5 ,egypt & ,assyria 0 afraid ( be+ ov]run by ! "o or ! o!r x 0 frantically ca/+ ab\t to decide ) :i* x w\ld ?r[ 9 its lot4 ,) nei!r1 a great prophet ?und]$ 9 ! e>s ( ! p4 ,9 calmly re/+ y\r safety lie?2 9 quiet tru/ %all be y\r /r5g?4#ce #ce ,! ,book ( ,isaiah4 ,my small exp]i5ce 9 ! conque/ ( fe> c be cond5s$ into ^! f\r words3 ,calmly re/+6 quiet tru/6 ,t amid ! turmoil ( ! "t & ! fev]i%ness ( our days x is always easy ,i d n pret5d4 ,/ill less d ,i pret5d t ,i accompli% x4 ,i h said1 a few l9es above1 t ,i tri$4 ,try+ is z f> z ,i h gone2 b ev5 try+ is productive ( wond]ful results4 ,,vi ,lea/ ( all d ,i claim to h cov]$ ! :ole gr\nd1 or to h discuss$ to its fulness any "o ( ! po9ts :i* ,i h rais$4 ,:ole regions ( ?\ght :i* be> on my subject--su* z psy*ology1 philosophy1 & religion z ,i und]/& ! ^w--,i h c>efully endeav\r$ to avoid4 ,my object has be5 to keep z closely z possible to ! l9e ( p]sonal exp]i5ce1 :i* has a value only because x is p]sonal4 ,tell+ no m ?an :at "o man has endeav\r$ to "w out1 :at ,i h writt5 seeks no conv]ts4 ,?\gh1 = ! sake ( brevity1 x may at times seem to take a hortatory tone1 x is a record & no m4 ,9 x ! read] w d\btless f9d mu* to correct1 & possibly to reject2 & ?is mu/ be z x happ5s4 ,:at ,i hope he w nei!r correct nor reject is ! s9c]ity ( ! long+ to f9d ,god's relations to ! ph5om5a ( life1 & ! ext5t to :i* ! ph5om5a ( life reflect ,god4 ,,vii ,9 ! end we come back to t1 ! et]nal /ruggle :]eby t :i* is unlike ,god becomes m & m l ,him4 ,9 wat*+ ! process1 & tak+ "p 9 x1 !re is1 :5 all is said & done1 a s5se ( glori\s /riv+ & success4 ,) ea* g5]ation "s veil :i* hid ! ,creator f ! creature is torn =ev] aside4 ,god1 :o is always "h1 is se5 a little m cle>ly by ea* g5]ation z be+2 "h4 ,god1 :o ev] s9ce ,8 sun fir/ rose & ,8 ra9 fir/ fell has be5 mak+ ,himself kn[n to u1 is by ea* g5]ation a little bett] und]/ood4 ,god1 :om we h tri$ to lock up 9 *ur*es or bani% to ,sundays & special holy days1 is break+ ?r\gh all our prohibitions1 gr[+ m & m a =ce 9 our homes & our s*ools1 9 our %ops & our factories1 9 our (fices & our banks1 9 our embassies1 congresses1 p>liam5ts1 & seats ( gov]nm5t4 ,into ,8 light we advance sl[ly1 unwill+ly1 driv5 by our pa92 b we advance4 ,! fur!r we advance ! m we p]ceive ( p[]4 ,! m we p]ceive ( p[] ! m we are fre$ f fe>4 ,! m we are fre$ f fe> ! m exultantly we feel our abundance ( life4 ,! m exultantly we feel our abundance ( life ! m we reject dea? 9 any ( its =ms4 ,& ! m we reject dea? 9 any ( its =ms ! m we reflect t ,holy ,gho/ ( ,life :i* urges u on f conque/ to conque/1 f /r5g? to /r5g?1 to ! fulfill+ ( ourselves4