,,the ,,comrade ,,in ,,white ,by ,the ,rev4 ,w4 ,h4 ,leathem1 ,m4 ,a4 ,introduction ,by ,hugh ,black ,i shall not fear the battle ,if ,thou art by my side4 #aiaf ,,introduction ,the ,great ,war has put a strain on the resources of human nature1 as well as on material resources4 ,men who have come through the hell of the trenches have discovered some of the secrets of life and death4 ,many of them have known a reinforcement of spiritual power4 ,it is quite natural that this fact should often be described in emotional form as direct interposition of angels and other supernatural agencies4 ,among these the most beautiful and tender stories are those of ,the ,comrade in ,white4 ,in essence they are all testimony to the perennial fount of strength and comfort of religion--the human need which in all generations has looked up and found ,god a present help in times of trouble4 ,the origin of the many stories brought back to ,england from the battle fronts by her soldiers is that to the average ,briton this a religious crusade1 and men have gone with an exaltation of soul1 willing to make the ultimate sacrifice1 willing to die that the world might live4 ,men and women are face to face with eternal realities1 and are driven by the needs of their hearts to the eternal refuge4 ,unless we see this we miss the most potent fact in the whole situation4 ,the tender stories in this little volume are a reflex of the great religious stirring of the nation4 ,they describe in a gracious and pathetic way the various abysmal needs of this tragic time1 and they indicate how many human souls are finding comfort and healing and strength4 ,they are finding peace as of old1 through the assurance that earth has no sorrows1 that heaven cannot heal4 ,,hugh ,,black4 ,,new ,,york4 ,,the ,,white ,,comrade ,i ,when soldiers of the ,cross waged ,holy ,war1 ,with courage high1 and hearts that did not quail ,before the foe1 in olden times they saw ,the blessed vision of the ,holy ,grail4 ,tho' ,christ was gone1 ,his pledge was with them yet1 ,for1 borne on wings of angels1 from the skies1 ,they saw the chalice that once held the wine ,as emblem of the ,saviour's sacrifice ,for men1 and knew that still the ,master met1 ,with ,his own friends1 in fellowship divine4 ,,ii ,christ has ,his soldiers now4 ,though years have rolled ,away1 the warriors of the ,cross are strong ,to fight ,his battles1 as the saints of old1 ,against oppression1 tyranny1 and wrong4 ,and still amid the conflict1 they can trace ,the ,saviour's influence4 ,not the ,holy ,grail ,which once as ,his remembrance was adored1 ,but ,christ ,himself is with them4 ,for a veil ,is lifted from their eyes1 and1 face to face ,they meet the presence of the risen ,lord4 ,,iii ,o blessed vision6 ,after all the years1 ,thou'rt with us yet4 ,to-day1 as heretofore1 ,men see ,thee still and they cast off their fears1 ,and take fresh courage to press on once more4 ,the soldiers1 bearing from the desperate fight ,a wounded brother1 see ,thee1 in the way1 ,and know ,thee for the ,saviour1 ,healer1 ,friend1 ,for once again1 ,thy loved ones hear ,thee say 7,o ,christ6 ,white ,comrade1 in their stand for right67 ,lo1 ,i am with you alway1 to the end4 ,fidei ,defensor4 ,,contents ,i4 ,,in ,,the ,,trenches ,,ii4 ,,the ,,messenger ,,iii4 ,,maimed ,,or ,,perfected8 ,,iv4 ,,the ,,prayer ,,circle ,i4 ,,in ,,the ,,trenches ,and immediately ,he talked with them1 and saith unto them1 ',be of good cheer2 it is ,i2 be not afraid4' --,,the ,,gospel ,,according ,,to ,,makk1 chap1 vi3 #ej4 ,and ,his raiment was white as snow4 --,,the ,,gospel ,,according ,,to ,,matthew1 chap4 xvii3 #b4 ,the ,battle of ,mons1 which saved the ,british ,army from annihilation1 was1 for the most of those who fought with the angels1 a sepulchre4 ,they saved the ,british ,army1 but they saved it at fearful cost4 ,no 'great host' withdrew from that field of destruction2 the great host strewed the ground with their bodies4 ,only a remnant of those who stood in the actual furnace of ,mons escaped with their lives 444 ,let those who mourn1 take encouragement from these stories of visions on the battlefield1 quietly and with a child's confidence1 cultivate within themselves a waiting1 receptive and desiring spirit4 ,let them empty themselves of prejudice and self4444 ,let them detach themselves more and more from the obsessions of worldly life4 ,serenity is the path by which the thoughts of ,god travel to us2 and ,faith is the invitation which brings them to the table of our souls4 --,,on ,,the ,,side ,,of ,,the ,,angels4 ,,in ,,the ,,trenches ,strange tales reached us in the trenches4 ,rumours raced up and down that three-hundred-mile line from ,switzerland to the sea4 ,we knew neither the source of them nor the truth of them4 ,they came quickly1 and they went quickly4 ,yet somehow ,i remember the very hour when ,george ,casey turned to me with a queer look in his blue eyes1 and asked if ,i had seen the ,friend of the ,wounded4 ,and then he told me all he knew4 ,after many a hot engagement a man in white had been seen bending over the wounded4 ,snipers sniped at him4 ,shells fell all around4 ,nothing had power to touch him4 ,he was either heroic beyond all heroes1 or he was something greater still4 ,this mysterious one1 whom the ,french called ,the ,comrade in ,white1 seemed to be everywhere at once4 ,at ,nancy1 in the ,argonne1 at ,soissons and ,ypres1 everywhere men were talking of him with hushed voices4 ,but some laughed and said the trenches were telling on men's nerves4 ,i1 who was often reckless enough in my talk1 exclaimed that for me seeing was believing1 and that ,i didn't expect any help but an enemy's knife if ,i was found lying out there wounded4 ,it was the next day that things got lively on this bit of the front4 ,our big guns roared from sunrise to sunset1 and began again in the morning4 ,at noon we got word to take the trenches in front of us4 ,they were two hundred yards away1 and we weren't well started till we knew that the big guns had failed in their work of preparation4 ,it needed a stout heart to go on1 but not a man wavered4 ,we had advanced one hundred and fifty yards when we found it was no good4 ,our ,captain called to us to take cover1 and just then ,i was shot through both legs4 ,by ,god's mercy ,i fell into a hole of some sort4 ,i suppose ,i fainted1 for when ,i opened my eyes ,i was all alone4 ,the pain was horrible1 but ,i didn't dare to move lest the enemy should see me1 for they were only fifty yards away1 and ,i did not expect mercy4 ,i was glad when the twilight came4 ,there were men in my own company who would run any risk in the darkness if they thought a comrade was still alive4 ,the night fell1 and soon ,i heard a step1 not stealthy1 as ,i expected1 but quiet and firm1 as if neither darkness nor death could check those untroubled feet4 ,so little did ,i guess what was coming that1 even when ,i saw the gleam of white in the darkness1 ,i thought it was a peasant in a white smock1 or perhaps a woman deranged4 ,suddenly1 with a little shiver of joy or of fear1 ,i don't know which1 ,i guessed that it was ,the ,comrade in ,white4 ,and at that very moment the enemy's rifles began to shoot4 ,the bullets could scarcely miss such a target1 for he flung out his arms as though in entreaty1 and then drew them hack till he stood like one of those wayside crosses that we saw so often as we marched through ,france4 ,and he spoke4 ,the words sounded familiar1 but all ,i remember was the beginning4 ,if thou hadst known1 and the ending1 but now they are hid from thine eyes4 ,and then he stooped and gathered me into his arms--me1 the biggest man in the regiment--and carried me as if ,i had been a child4 ,i must have fainted again1 for ,i woke to consciousness in a little cave by a stream1 and ,the ,comrade in ,white was washing my wounds and binding them up4 ,it seems foolish to say it1 for ,i was in terrible pain1 but ,i was happier at that moment than ever ,i remember to have been in all my life before4 ,i can't explain it1 but it seemed as if all my days ,i had been waiting for this without knowing it4 ,as long as that hand touched me and those eyes pitied me1 ,i did not seem to care any more about sickness or health1 about life or death4 ,and while he swiftly removed every trace of blood and mire ,i felt as if my whole nature were being washed1 as if all the grime and soil of sin were going1 and as if ,i were once more a little child4 ,i suppose ,i slept1 for when ,i awoke this feeling was gone4 ,i was a man1 and ,i wanted to know what ,i could do for my friend to help him or to serve him4 ,he was looking towards the stream1 and his hands were clasped in prayer2 and then ,i saw that he too had been wounded4 ,i could see1 as it were1 a shot-wound in his hand1 and as he prayed a drop of blood gathered and fell to the ground4 ,i cried out4 ,i could not help it1 for that wound of his seemed to me a more awful thing than any that bitter war had shown me4 ,you are wounded too1 ,i said faintly4 ,perhaps he heard me1 perhaps it was the look on my face1 but he answered gently1 ,this is an old wound1 but it has troubled me of late4 ,and then ,i noticed sorrowfully that the same cruel mark was on his feet4 ,you will wonder that ,i did not know sooner4 ,i wonder myself4 ,but it was only when ,i saw ,his feet that ,i knew ,him4 ,the ,living ,christ--,i had heard the ,chaplain speak of ,him a few weeks before1 but now ,i knew that ,he had come to me--to me who had put ,him out of my life in the hot fever of my youth4 ,i was longing to speak and to thank ,him1 but no words came4 ,and then ,he rose swiftly and said1 ,lie here to-day by the water4 ,i will come for you tomorrow4 ,i have work for you to do1 and you will do it for me4 ,in a moment ,he was gone4 ,and while ,i wait for ,him ,i write this down that ,i may not lose the memory of it4 ,i feel weak and lonely and my pain increases1 but ,i have ,his promise4 ,i know that ,he will come for me to-morrow4 ,,ii4 ,,the ,,messenger ,and as they thus spake1 ,jesus himself stood in the midst of them1 and saith unto them1 ,peace be unto you4 --,,the ,,gospel ,,according ,,to ,,luke1 chap4 xxiv3 #cf4 ,the ,war has powerfully changed the 'psychological atmosphere1' and the thoughts of a great multitude are turned towards the spiritual aspect of existence4 ,in this vast but connected universe we are not the only self-conscious beings4 ,life is working here as elsewhere1 for some sublime purpose4 ,the day is at hand when we shall turn from the child-like amusements and excitements of physical science to the unimaginable adventures of super-physical discovery2 and in that day we shall not only flash our messages to the stars1 but hold communion with our dead4 --,,harold ,,begbie4 ,,the ,,messenger ,the ,parish ,church stood high perched in the ,glen1 and through its clear windows we could see the white1 winding road that was our one link with the great world beyond the mountains4 ,perhaps our eyes strayed from the preacher's face more than was seemly1 and in spring time we had this excuse1 that the fresh green of the larches against the dark rocks made a picture fairer to the eye than our plain old ,church and its high pulpit4 ,but that ,sunday in the spring of the ,great ,war the minister had us all1 even the young and thoughtless1 in the hollow of his hand4 ,it was the #ahth chapter of ,second ,samuel that he had read earlier in the ,service1 and now he was opening its meaning to us with deep-felt realisation of those great dramatic episodes4 ,we saw the young man ,absalom die4 ,we saw ,cushi start to bear his tidings to the king4 ,we watched ,ahimaaz swift on his track4 ,we marked the king's anxious waiting1 and the fixed gaze of the watchman on the city walls4 ,we strained in the long strain of the runners4 ,we fainted with the fears of a father's heart4 ,we saw ,ahimaaz outrun his rival yet falter in his message4 ,and we heard the blow upon ,david's heart of ,cushi's stroke4 ,and the king said unto ,cushi1 ,is the young man ,absalom safe8 ,and ,cushi answered1 ,the enemies of my lord the king1 and all that rise against thee to do thee hurt1 be as that young man is4 ,there were tears in the women's eyes as the preacher called us to see the stricken and weeping king climbing with weary step to the chamber over the gate4 ,and in a solemn hush we heard the cry of his anguish --,o my son ,absalom6 my son1 my son ,absalom6 would ,god ,i had died for thee4 ,o ,absalom1 my son1 my son6 ,we had anxious fathers and mothers and wives and sisters in the ,church that day1 and it was as though our own sorrows were all gathered up into the old1 unhappy1 far-off things of which the preacher spoke4 ,i had a dear one to be concerned for1 but ,i was thinking now of some one else4 ,for ,widow ,mc,donald was there1 and the days had grown into weeks since last she had tidings of ,john--and he was her only boy4 ,suddenly she rose and slipped out4 ,i followed her1 for there was an odd1 silent friendship between us1 and ,i thought that ,i might help4 ,to my surprise she did not turn homewards1 but down the ,glen1 and there ,i saw that some one was waiting for her by the pine wood4 ,i saw your sign1 sir1 she said1 and ,i guessed you brought news of ,john4 ,oh1 sir1 tell me quick1 is he safe8 ,he is safe1 the stranger answered4 ,i could not see ,his face1 but ,he seemed weary and far-travelled4 ,it was ,his voice that made me wonder4 ,for as ,he said safe1 it was as a new word to me1 so full of healing and of peace that it laid to rest every fear of my unquiet heart4 ,and will he be home soon8 ,it was the mother who was speaking now4 ,i have taken the dear lad home1 answered the stranger4 ,his room has been long prepared for him in my ,father's house4 ,he has fought a good fight4 ,he was wounded1 but his wounds are healed4 ,he was weary1 but he has found rest4 ,and so speaking ,he looked at us1 and as the mother clasped my hand ,i knew that the truth was breaking on her too4 ,he is dead1 she sobbed4 ,no1 said the stranger1 he is alive1 for he has laid down his life that he might take it again4 ,there was silence then1 and the stranger turned to leave us4 ,even in her grief the mourner was mindful of what was due to ,him who had taken upon ,himself the burden of sorrowful tidings4 ,come back with us1 and break bread1 and rest a while1 she said1 for1 sir1 you seem spent1 and it is out of a kind heart that you have spoken4 ,i may not tarry1 ,he made answer1 for there are many who need me1 and ,i must go to them1 but for thy comfort thou shalt first know who hath brought thee tidings of thy son's passage through death to life4 ,i dare not try to tell what happened then under the shadow of the pines1 but somehow we knew our eyes looked into the face of the soldiers' ,the ,comrade in ,white2 and we knew ,him4 ,and then ,his hand was lifted in blessing1 and we heard this word1 that is now as the music of our daily lives3 ,peace ,i leave with you1 my peace ,i give unto you3 not as the world giveth1 give ,i unto you4 ,let not your heart be troubled1 neither let it be afraid4 99 99 99 99 99 ,we walked in a strange1 calm silence to the widow's cottage1 and then as we parted she turned to me a face filled with heavenly peace--,my dear boy lives1 she said4 ,,iii4 ,,maimed ,,or ,,perfected8 ,now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous but grievous3 nevertheless1 afterward1 it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby4 --,,hebrews xii3#aa4 ,six months passed within the danger zone1 produces a subtle but marked change4 ,bright lads become men1 who bear all the marks of having passed through a solemn purification by fire4 ,and the subtle influence1 as thus depicted1 is communicated to us4444 ,to say that the horrors of war have subdued and overawed them is but part of the explanation4 ,it seems nearer to the truth to add1 that these harrowing experiences1 whatever they may have been1 have only helped to make our young men susceptible to spiritual influences of the highest quality4 ,in fine1 they have been following in the footsteps of ,him who is ,the ,great ,sacrifice1 and even amid the bursting shells have caught a glimpse of wounds that transform and consecrate their own4 --,the ,great ,sacrifices1 ,,john ,,adams4 ,,maimed ,,or ,,perfected8 ,my heart grew bitter in me when the news came of ,harry's operation4 ,i had been half relieved when ,i heard that he was wounded1 and that the wound was not dangerous4 ,for the grim alternative was seldom out of my thoughts1 and at least his dear life was safe4 ,now ,i was crushed by the brave1 pathetic letter in which he told me that his right leg had been amputated1 and that he was lucky to get off so easily4 ,that made me rebellious and very1 very bitter4 ,and it was against ,god that ,i felt worst--,god who had allowed this unthinkable thing to be4 ,harry a cripple6 ,harry of all people6 ,i could not imagine it1 nor accept it1 nor even face the truth of it4 ,and away at the bottom of my heart lurked the thought that it had been better for himself that he had died in the strength and beauty of his manhood4 ,why should his spirit be doomed to live on in a ruined home8 ,harry is my only brother1 and he has been my hero always4 ,manliness1 strength1 courage1 unselfishness--,i know what these things mean2 they mean ,harry4 ,and of course ,i was proud when he got his double blue at ,cambridge4 ,cricket and football were more than pastimes to him4 ,he put his heart and soul into them1 and when he made #ajf not out against ,oxford he was as happy as if he had found a new continent4 ,and now the great athlete1 the pride of his ,college1 the big clean-limbed giant was a cripple4 ,i could not weep for it1 because ,i could not believe it4 ,i took the thought and flung it from me4 ,and then ,i picked it up again1 and gazed at it with hard1 unseeing eyes4 ,it was at that time ,i stopped praying4 ,what was prayer but a mockery1 if ,harry was maimed8 ,harry was at ,cairo1 and ,i could not go to him4 ,and though that made me feel helpless1 and almost mad with inaction1 yet in my heart ,i dreaded meeting him1 seeing him1 taking in the bitterness of it through the eyes4 ,i was a coward1 you see1 and my love for him a poor thing at the best4 ,but there are some who will understand how ,i felt1 and will forgive me4 ,his letters were all right1 not a word of complaint1 for ,harry never grumbled1 and many a good story of the hospital and its patients and its staff4 ,but there was something else1 a kind of gentle seriousness as if life were different now4 ,and ,i read my own misery into that1 and pictured him a man devoured by a secret despair1 while he smiled his brave undefeated smile in the face of all the world4 ,the weeks passed1 and ,i braced myself for the coming ordeal4 ,then everything came with a rush at the last1 and there ,i was at the docks giving my brave soldier his welcome home4 ,it was not any easier than ,i expected4 ,i tried my hardest1 as you may guess1 to be all joy and brightness1 but when we were alone in the motor together my eyes were full of tears1 and ,i broke down utterly4 ,poor ,harry1 poor ,harry1 why are physical calamities so awful and so irrevocable8 ,he let me cry1 and then he said suddenly1 ,come1 ,mary1 look at the real 'me1' don't bother about that old leg1 but look into my face1 and tell me what you see4 ,there is something good for you to see if you will look for it4 ,he said it so strangely that ,i was myself in a moment1 and doing what he told me just as in the good old days before the war4 ,and then ,i saw that ,harry was a new ,harry altogether1 and that he was radiantly happy4 ,his face was pale and thin1 but his eyes were ablaze with something mysterious and wonderful4 ,don't ask me anything now1 he said2 wait till we are in my old den1 and then ,i will tell you everything4 ,and by this time ,i was so comforted that ,i was content to lie back and watch that dear1 happy face of his4 ,i shall never forget the talk we had afterwards4 ,mary1 he said1 in his straight1 direct way1 ,i've come back a better man4 ,i have been all my life a healthy1 happy pagan4 ,we were brought up1 you and ,i1 on the theory of a healthy mind in a healthy body1 and1 of course1 it's a good theory so far as it goes4 ,but it did for me what it does for many a fellow4 ,it made me forget my soul4 ,sport did a lot for me1 ,i know1 but sport became my world4 ,the life ,i lived there was wholesome enough1 but at the best what a poor1 contracted1 limited thing is the body1 and its joy4 ,and what a big1 splendid world ,i've found the door to now4 ,how did it come about1 ,harry8 ,i said1 and the frost and the bitterness and the anger against ,god were all gone out of my heart and voice4 ,well1 ,i don't quite know4 ,that's the queer thing about it4 ,i don't deny ,i was a bit savage at first at what had happened4 ,and ,i often wished ,i were dead1 for ,i saw my old self wasn't much good for this new life ,i was up against4 ,then one ,sunday the padre1 who was a very decent sort1 gave us a straight talk that opened my eyes a bit4 ,he was speaking about ,paul and the difference ,christ made in his life4 ,paul was a splendid fellow1 and as good as good could be1 and just like many a man to-day who seems all right without ,christ4 ,but what a difference ,christ made in him for all that6 ,and how ,he made the old ,saul of ,tarsus seem a poor thing in comparison with ,paul the apostle6 ,there was something1 too1 about ,paul's thorn in the flesh1 but ,i forget that bit4 ,anyhow ,i did some furious thinking that ,sunday in ,cairo1 though ,i saw nothing clearly1 and didn't lay much store by my own future4 ,that night the strange thing happened4 ,i woke up in the early hours when no one was astir1 and ,i saw a man come in by the door and walk down the ward4 ,he gave a sort of understanding1 tender look at every face as he passed1 and when he saw that ,i was awake he came close beside me and held my hand for a moment4 ,then he said1 ',will you let me help you with this burden of yours8' ,i thought at first it was the new doctor we were expecting4 ,then ,i knew quite suddenly that it was ,the ,comrade in ,white1 and that ,he wanted me very much to say ',yes4' ,and as ,i said it ,i felt the first real happiness that ,i had known since ,i was wounded4 ,and then ,he smiled and went away4 ,i told myself next day that it was a dream1 and perhaps it was1 but that strange1 odd happiness has never left me since4 ,i wouldn't be back again in the old way1 not for all the world could give me1 not even to have my leg restored4 ,and is ,he really helping you with your burden8 ,i whispered4 ,why1 ,mary child1 can't you see1 he exclaimed1 with his merry laugh2 can't you see that ,he has carried my burden quite away8 ,i was but half a man before4 ,he has made me whole4 ,,iv4 ,,the ,,prayer ,,circle 444 ,more things are wrought by prayer ,than this world dreams of4 ,wherefore1 let thy voice ,rise like a fountain for me night and day4 ,for what are men better than sheep or goats ,that nourish a blind life within the brain1 ,if1 knowing ,god1 they lift not hands of prayer ,both for themselves and those who call them friend8 ,for so the whole round earth is every way ,bound by gold chains about the feet of ,god4 --,the ,passing of ,arthur1 ,,alfred1 ,,lord ,,tennyson4 ,fight the good fight with all thy might1 ,christ is thy strength1 and ,christ thy right1 ,lay hold on life1 and it shall be ,thy joy and crown eternally4 99 99 99 99 99 ,faint not1 nor fear1 ,his arms are near1 ,he changeth not1 and thou art dear3 ,only believe1 and thou shalt see ,that ,christ is all in all to thee4 --,j4,s4,b4 ,,monsell4 ,,the ,,prayer ,,circle ,lieutenant ,roger ,fenton had a lump in his throat when he said good-bye to his boys4 ,there they were in a bunch on the station platform1 the ten wayward lads into whom he had sought to instil the fear of ,god on ,tuesday evenings in winter1 and with whom he had rambled and played cricket every ,saturday afternoon in summer4 ,boys of fourteen to seventeen are a tough proposition1 and though ,fenton would answer for their bowling and batting he wasn't over sanguine about their religion4 ,but they had filled a big place in his lonely life in the dull little country town1 and now he had to leave them and lose them4 ,for the great call had reached him1 and he bore the ,king's commission1 and in his heart of hearts he had the feeling that he would never come back4 ,now the chaff and the parting words of good luck were over1 and the train was panting to be off4 ,boys1 he cried suddenly1 ,i want you to do something for me1 something hard4 ,anything you like1 sir1 they answered eagerly4 ,but their faces fell when they heard their teacher's word4 ,look here1 he said1 it's this4 ,you'll meet in the old place every ,tuesday evening for a few minutes and pray for me that ,i may do my duty1 and1 if it please ,god1 that ,i may come back to you all4 ,and ,i'll pray for you at the same time even if ,i'm in the thick of battle4 ,is it a bargain8 ,i wish you had seen the dismay on those ten faces4 ,it was any odds on their blurting out a shamefaced refusal1 but ,ted ,harper1 their acknowledged chief1 pulled himself together just in time1 and called out as the train began to move3--,we'll do it1 sir4 ,i don't know how we'll manage it1 but we'll do our best4 ,we'll not go back on you4 ,as ,fenton sank into his corner he was aware of the mocking looks of his brother officers4 ,i say1 said one of them1 you don't really think those chaps are going to hold a prayer-meeting for you every week1 and if they did you can't believe it would stop an enemy's bullet or turn an enemy's shell4 ,it's all very well to be pious1 but that's a bit too thick4 ,fenton flushed1 but he took it in good part4 ,prayer's a big bit of our religion1 he said1 and ,i've a notion these prayers will help me4 ,anyhow ,i'm sure my lads will do their part4 ,where ,ted ,harper leads1 they follow4 ,and sure enough the boys did their part4 ,it was fine to see them starting out in the wrong direction1 and twisting and doubling through the crooked lanes till they worked round to the ,mission ,hall1 and then in with a rush and a scuttle1 that as few as possible might see4 ,the doings of the ,fenton crowd1 as they were known locally1 were the talk of the town in those first days after ,roger departed4 ,would they meet8 ,would they keep it up8 ,would they bear the ridicule of the other boys of their own age8 ,and how in the world would they pray8 ,time answered all these questions except the last4 ,they met1 they continued to meet1 they faced ridicule like heroes4 ,but how did they pray8 ,that mystery was as deep and insoluble as before1 for whatever awful oath of secrecy bound them to silence not a whisper of the doings of those ,tuesday evenings was divulged to the outside world4 ,i was the only one who ever knew1 and ,i found out by chance4 ,ted ,harper had borrowed ,fights for the ,flag from me1 and when ,i got it back there was a soiled piece of paper in it with something written in ,ted's ungainly hand4 ,i thought he had been copying a passage1 and anxious to see what had struck him1 ,i opened the sheet out and read these words3--,o ,god1 it's a hard business praying4 ,but ,roger made me promise4 ,and you know how decent he's been to me and the crowd4 ,listen to us now1 and excuse the wrong words1 and bring him back safe4 ,and1 ,o ,god1 make him the bravest soldier that ever was1 and give him the ,v4,c4 ,that's what we all want for him4 ,and don't let the war be long1 for ,christ's sake4 ,amen4 ,i felt a good deal ashamed of myself when ,i came to the end of this artless prayer4 ,i had got their secret4 ,i could see them kneeling round the ,mission forms1 two or three with crumpled papers in their hands4 ,they were unutterably shy of religious expression1 and to read was their only chance4 ,the boys on whom the fatal lot fell the previous ,tuesday were bound to appear with their written devotions a week later4 ,this war has given us back the supernatural1 but no miracle seems more wonderful to me than those ten lads and their ill-written prayers4 ,and1 remember1 that liturgical service lasted six months1 and never a break in the ,tuesday meeting4 ,what a grand thing a boy's heart is1 when you capture its loyalty and its affection6 ,it was a black day when the news came4 ,the local ,territorials had advanced too far on the wing of a great offensive1 and had been almost annihilated4 ,the few survivors had dug themselves in1 and held on till that bitter ,tuesday faded into darkness and night4 ,when relief came1 one man was left alive4 ,he was wounded in four places1 but he was still loading and firing1 and he wept when they picked him up and carried him away for first aid4 ,that solitary hero1 absolutely the only survivor of our local regiment1 was ,lieutenant ,roger ,fenton1 ,v4,c4 ,when his wounds were healed1 and the ,king had done the needful bit of decoration1 we got him home4 ,we did not make the fuss they did in some places4 ,our disaster was too awful1 and the pathos of that solitary survivor too piercing4 ,but some of us were at the station1 and there in the front row were the ten men of prayer4 ,poor ,roger quite broke down when he saw them4 ,and he could find no words to thank them4 ,but he wrung their hands till they winced with the pain of that iron grip4 ,that night ,i got a chance of a talk with him alone4 ,he was too modest to tell me anything of his own great exploit4 ,but there was evidently something he wanted to say1 and it was as if he did not know how to begin4 ,at last he said1 ,i have a story to tell that not one in fifty would listen to4 ,that ,tuesday evening when ,i was left alone1 and had given up all hope1 ,i remembered it was the hour of the old meeting1 and ,i kept my promise and prayed for the boys of my ,class4 ,then everything around me faded from my mind1 and ,i saw the dear lads in the ,mission ,room at prayer4 ,i don't mean that ,i went back in memory4 ,i knew with an absolute certainty that ,i was there invisible in that night's meeting4 ,whether in the body or out of the body1 ,i cannot say1 but there ,i was1 watching and listening4 ,how wonderful6 ,i said4 ,that's not all1 there's something stranger still1 he went on4 ,they were kneeling on the floor1 and ,ted ,harper was reading a prayer1 and when it was done they said ',amen' as with one voice4 ,i counted to see if they were all there4 ,i got to ten right enough1 but ,i did not stop there4 ,i counted again1 and this is the odd thing--there were eleven of them6 ,in my dream or vision or trance1 call it what you will1 ,i was vaguely troubled by this unexpected number4 ,i saw the ten troop out in their old familiar way1 and ,i turned back to find the eleventh1 ,the ,comrade in ,white1 and to speak to ,him4 ,i felt ,his presence still1 and was glad of it1 for the trouble and perplexity were all gone and in their place a great expectation4 ,i seemed to know the very place where ,he had been kneeling1 and ,i hurried forward4 ,but there was nothing to be seen1 nothing but the well-remembered text staring down at me from the wall--',for where two or three are gathered together in my name1 there am ,i in the midst of them4' ,i remembered no more1 till ,i found myself in the base hospital4 ,but of course ,i knew then how ,i had been saved1 and what my boys had done for me4 ,it makes a man feel strange to have his life given back to him like that2 it's as if ,god would expect a great deal in return4 ,but there's a stronger feeling still in my heart4 ,i believe the lads got their answer not for my sake but for their own4 ,think what it means to them4 ,they've got their feet now on the rock of prayer4 ,they know the truth of ,god4 ,i'm not sure1 but ,i don't think ,i'll ever tell them that ,i saw ,christ in their midst4 ,they know it in their own way1 and perhaps their own way is best4 ,and as he said it1 ,i saw that ,lieutenant ,roger ,fenton was prouder of his boys than of his ,victoria ,cross4