,,sa9t ,,augu/9 ,,by ,,l\is ,,b]tr& ,,translat$ ,,by ,,v9c5t ,o',,sullivan ,,translator',s ,,note ,! quotations f ,sa9t ,augu/9's ,confessions are tak5 f ,canon ,bigg's s*ol>ly v]sion1 :i* seems to me ! be/ 9 ,engli%4 ,b !re are places :]e ,m4 ,b]tr&'s read+ ( ! orig9al text diff]s f ,dr4 ,bigg's1 & 9 su* cases ,i h felt myself oblig$ to foll[ ! au?or ( ?is book4 ,^! diff]5ces nev] s]i\sly affect ! mean+ ( a passage2 sometimes x is a m]e matt] ( *oice1 z ) ! ^w collactaneum 7i1 #g7 :i* ,dr4 ,bigg translates tw91 & ,m4 ,b]tr&1 l ,pusey1 frre de lait1 or fo/]-bro!r4 ,z a rule1 ,dr4 ,bigg *ooses ! quiete/ t]ms1 & ,m4 ,b]tr& ! mo/ =cible4 ,^? curi\s 9 su* matt]s may l to see an in/ance4 ,! orig9al text runs3-- ,avulsa a lat]e meo tanquam imp$im5to conjugii1 cum qu cub>e solitus eram1 cor ubi adha]ebat1 concisum et vuln]atum mihi erat1 et trahebat sangu9em4 7,confessiones1 vi1 #ae47 ,m4 ,b]tr& translates3-- ,qu& on arra*a de mes flancs1 s\s prtexte qu'elle emp*ait mon m>iage1 celle avec qui j'avais c\tume de dormir1 depuis si longtemps1 l o mon coeur tait atta* au si51 il se d*ira1 et je tranais mon sang avec ma blessure4 ,canon ,bigg's v]sion is3-- ,my mi/ress 0 torn f my side z an ob/acle to my m>riage1 & my he>t1 :i* clung to h]1 0 torn & w\nd$ till x bl$4 ,9 ?is place1 x w be obs]v$ t ,dr4 ,bigg does n emphasize ! ^w ubi :i*1 z ! read] w f9d on turn+ to page #ahe ( ?is volume1 ,m4 ,b]tr& ?9ks s significant4 ,! rema9+ ,engli% v]sions ( ! writ+s ( ,sa9t ,augu/9 & ( ! o!r ,lat9 au?ors quot$ are my own1 except ! passages f ,! ,city ( ,god1 includ+ ! v]se translation ( ,p]sius1 :i* are tak51 ) "s necess>y alt]ations1 f ! ,sev5te5? c5tury translation ascrib$ to ,john ,healey4 ,v4 ,o',s4 ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,,prologue ,,! ,,fir/ ,,"p ,,days ,,( ,,*ildhood ,i4 ,,an ,,african ,,free-,,t[n ,,subject ,,to ,,rome ,,ii4 ,,! ,,family ,,( ,a ,,sa9t ,,iii4 ,,! ,,com=t ,,( ,,! ,,milk ,,iv4 ,,! ,,fir/ ,,games ,v4 ,,! ,,s*oolboy ,,( ,,madaura ,,vi4 ,,! ,,holidays ,,at ,,?aga/e ,,! ,,second ,,"p ,,! ,,en*antm5t ,,( ,,c>?age ,i4 ,,c>?ago ,,v5]is ,,ii4 ,,! ,,african ,,rome ,,iii4 ,,! ,,c>?age ,,/ud5t ,,iv4 ,,! ,,sweetness ,,( ,,te>s ,v4 ,,! ,,sil5ce ,,( ,,god ,,! ,,?ird ,,"p ,,! ,,return ,i4 ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,gold ,,ii4 ,,! ,,f9al ,,disillusion ,,iii4 ,,! ,,meet+ ,,betwe5 ,,ambrose ,,& ,,augu/9 ,,iv4 ,,plans ,,( ,,m>riage ,v4 ,,! ,,*ri/ ,,9 ,,! ,,g>d5 ,,! ,,f\r? ,,"p ,,! ,,hidd5 ,,life ,i4 ,,! ,,la/ ,,smile ,,( ,,! ,,muse ,,ii4 ,,! ,,ec/asy ,,( ,,sa9t ,,monnica ,,iii4 ,,! ,,monk ,,( ,,?aga/e ,,iv4 ,,augu/9 ,a ,,prie/ ,,! ,,fif? ,,"p ,,! ,,apo/le ,,( ,,peace ,,& ,,( ,,ca?olic ,,unity ,i4 ,,! ,,bi%op ,,( ,,hippo ,,ii4 ,,:at ,,0 ,,he>d ,,9 ,,! ,,basilica ,,( ,,peace ,,iii4 ,,! ,,bi%op',s ,,bur!n ,,iv4 ,,aga9/ ,,! ,,ro>+ ,,lions ,,! ,,six? ,,"p ,,face ,,to ,,face ,,) ,,! ,,b>b>ians ,i4 ,,! ,,sack ,,( ,,rome ,,ii4 ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,god ,,iii4 ,,! ,,b>b>ian ,,desolation ,,iv4 ,,sa9t ,,augu/9 ,,index ,,sa9t ,,augu/9 ,,prologue ,inquietum e/ cor no/rum donec requiescat 9 te4 ,our he>t f9ds no re/ until x re/s 9 ,!e4 ,confessions1 ,i1 i4 ,sa9t ,augu/9 is n[ little m ?an a celebrat$ "n4 ,outside ( le>n$ or !ological circles p no long] read him4 ,su* is true r5[n3 we admire ! sa9ts1 z we d great m51 on tru/4 ,ev5 8 ,confessions are g5]ally spok5 ( only f he>say4 ,by ?is neglect1 is he aton+ = ! r5ewal ( glory 9 :i* he %one dur+ ! sev5te5? c5tury1 :5 ! ,jans5i/s1 9 _! invet]ate ob/9acy1 id5tifi$ him ) ! def5ce ( _! cause8 ,! reputation ( s\r au/]ity & ( argum5tative & tiresome prolixity :i* atta*es to ! remembrance ( all ! writ]s ( ,port-,royal1 save ,pascal--has t affect$ too ! "w ( ,augu/91 enli/$ 9 spite ( himself 9 ! ranks ( ^! pi\s s*ismatics8 ,& yet1 if !re h ev] be5 any be+s :o d n resemble ,augu/91 & :om probably he w\ld h attack$ ) all 8 eloqu5ce & all ! =ce ( 8 dialectic1 !y are ! ,jans5i/s4 ,d\btless he w\ld h said ) contempt3 ,! p>ty ( ,jans51 ev5 z 9 8 own day1 ) 8 devotion to ,ca?olic unity1 he said3 ,! p>ty ( ,donatus4 ,x mu/ be ackn[l$g$ also t ! v sight ( 8 works is t]rify+1 :e!r we take ! enorm\s folios 9 two columns ( ! ,b5$ict9e edition1 or ! volumes1 almo/ z compact1 & mu* m num]\s1 ( rec5t editions4 ,beh9d su* a ramp>t ( pr9t$ matt] he is well def5d$ aga9/ pr(ane curiosity4 ,x ne$s c\rage & p]sev]ance to p5etrate into ?is labyr9? ( text1 all bri/l+ ) !ology & exegesis & metaphysics4 ,b only cross ! ?re%old ( ! repell5t enclosure1 gr[ us$ to ! ord] & %ape ( ! build+1 & x w n be long ere y are ov]come by a w>m sympa?y1 & !n by a /eadily increas+ admiration = ! ho/ :o dwells !re4 ,! hi]atic face ( ! old bi%op lights up1 becomes /rangely liv+1 almo/ mod]n1 9 expression4 ,y discov] "u ! text "o ( ! mo/ passionate lives1 mo/ busy & ri*e/ 9 in/ruction1 t hi/ory has to %ew4 ,:at x tea*es is applicable to ourselves1 answ]s to our int]e/s ( ye/]day & to-day4 ,?is exi/5ce1 & ! c5tury 9 :i* x 0 pass$1 recall our own c5tury & ourselves4 ,! return ( simil> circum/ances has br\ght simil> situations & *>act]s2 x is almo/ our portrait4 ,& we feel half ready to conclude t at ! pres5t mom5t !re is no subject m actual ?an ,/4 ,augu/94 ,at lea/ he is "o ( ! mo/ int]e/+4 ,:at1 inde$1 is m romantic ?an ?is w&]+ life ( rhetorician & /ud5t t ! y\?ful ,augu/9 l$1 f ,?aga/e to ,c>?age1 f ,c>?age to ,milan & to ,rome--begun 9 ! pleasures & tumult ( great cities1 & end+ 9 ! p5it5ce1 ! sil5ce1 & recollection ( a mona/]y8 ,& aga91 :at drama is m full ( col\r & m pr(itable to consid] ?an t la/ agony ( ! ,empire1 ( :i* ,augu/9 0 a spectator1 &1 ) all 8 he>t fai?ful to ,rome1 w\ld h prev5t$ if he c\ld8 ,& !n1 :at trag$y m /irr+ & pa9ful ?an ! crisis ( s\l & consci5ce :i* tore 8 life8 ,well may x be said t1 reg>d$ z a :ole1 ! life ( ,augu/9 0 b a cont9ual spiritual /ruggle1 a battle ( ! s\l4 ,x is ! battle ( e mom5t1 ! nev]-ceas+ combat ( body & _s1 :i* ! poets ( t "t dramatiz$1 & :i* is ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ri/ian ( all times4 ,! /ake ( ! battle is a s\l4 ,! up%ot is ! f9al triumph1 ! r$emption ( a s\l4 ,:at makes ! life ( ,augu/9 s complete & s truly typical is t he f\ght ! good fight1 n only aga9/ himself1 b aga9/ all ! enemies ( ! ,*ur* & ! ,empire4 ,if he 0 a doctor & a sa9t1 s 0 he too ! type ( ! man ( action 9 "o ( ! mo/ di%e>t5$ p]iods4 ,t he triumph$ ov] 8 passions--?is1 9 tru?1 conc]ns only ,god & himself4 ,t he prea*$1 wrote1 %ook cr[ds1 di/urb$ m9ds1 may seem )\t importance to ^? :o reject 8 doctr9e4 ,b t across ! c5turies 8 s\l1 afire ) *>ity1 cont9ues to w>m our own2 t )\t our k he /ill %apes u2 & t1 9 a way m or less remote1 he is /ill ! ma/] ( our he>ts1 &1 9 c]ta9 aspects1 ( our m9ds--!re is :at t\*es ea* & all ( u1 )\t di/9ction4 ,n only has ,augu/9 always 8 great place 9 ! liv+ communion ( all *ri/5$ p1 b ! ,we/]n s\l is m>k$ ) ! /amp ( 8 s\l4 ,fir/ ( all1 8 fate is confus$ ) t ( ! dy+ ,empire4 ,he witness$1 if n ! utt] disappe>ance1 at lea/ ! gradual swoon+ away ( t admirable ?+ call$ ! ,roman ,empire1 image ( ,ca?olic unity4 ,well1 we are ! wreckage ( ! ,empire4 ,usually1 we turn away ) contempt f ^? wret*$ c5turies :i* und]w5t ! desc5ts ( ! ,b>b>ians4 ,= u1 t is ! ,l[]-,empire1 a "t ( %ameful decad5ce :i* des]ves no?+ b our scorn4 ,h[ev]1 x is out ( ?is *aos & ?is degradation t we h aris54 ,! w>s ( ! ,roman republic conc]n u less ?an ! outlawry ( ! ,b>b>ian *iefs :o sep>at$ our ,gaul f ! ,empire1 & )\t kn[+ x1 prep>$ ! dawn ( ,france4 ,aft] all1 :at are ! rivalries ( ,m>ius & ,sylla to u8 ,! victory ( ,atius ov] ! ,huns 9 ! pla9s ( ,*alons conc]ns u a good deal m4 ,fur!r1 x is unfair to ! ,l[]-,empire to view x only z a "t ( feebl5ess & c[>dice & corruption4 ,x 0 also an epo* ( imm5se activity1 prolific ( d>+ & high-fly+ adv5tur]s1 "s ( !m h]oic4 ,ev5 ! mo/ deg5]ate ( ! la/ ,emp]ors nev] lo/ ! conviction ( ,roman maje/y & gr&eur4 ,unto ! v end1 !y employ$ all ! ruses ( _! diplomacy to prev5t ! ,b>b>ian *iefs f imag9+ !mselves any?+ else b vassals ( ! ,empire4 ,honorius1 at bay 9 ,rav5na1 p]si/$ 9 refus+ ,al>ic ! title ( comm&] ( ! ,cohortes ,urban1 ev5 ?\gh 8 refusal 7 to lead to ! sack ( ,rome & imp]il 8 own life4 ,simply by 8 fidelity to ! ,empire1 ,augu/9 %ews himself "o l ourselves--a ,lat9 ( ,occitania4 ,b /ill clos] resemblances draw him ne> to u4 ,8 "t 0 v l our own "t4 ,^u ev5 a slight famili>ity ) 8 books we recognize 9 him a bro!r-s\l :o has suff]$1 felt1 ?\ght1 pretty ne>ly l u4 ,he came into an end+ _w1 on ! eve ( ! great cataclysm :i* 0 go+ to c>ry away an entire civilization--a tragic turn+-po9t ( hi/ory1 a "t tr\bl$ & (t5 v griev\s1 :i* 0 h>d to live 9 = all1 & to ev5 ! mo/ det]m9$ m9ds mu/ h appe>$ desp]ate4 ,! peace ( ! ,*ur* 0 n yet settl$2 consci5ces 7 divid$4 ,p hesitat$ betwe5 ! belief ( ye/]day & ! belief ( to-morr[4 ,augu/9 0 among ^? :o _h ! c\rage to *oose1 & :o1 hav+ once *os5 _! fai?1 proclaim$ x )\t weak5+4 ,! belief ( a ?\s& ye>s 0 dy+ out1 qu5*$ by a "y belief to :i* 0 promis$ an et]nal duration4 ,h[ _m delicate s\ls mu/ h suff]$ f ?is division1 :i* cut !m (f f _! traditions & oblig$ !m1 z !y ?\ght1 to be false to _! dead along ) ! religion ( _! ance/ors6 ,all ! irritations :i* ! fanatics ( to-day inflict ^u believ+ s\ls1 _m mu/ h _h to suff] !n4 ,! sceptics 7 infus$ by ! intol]ance ( ! o!rs4 ,b ! wor/ 7ev5 z x is to-day7 0 to wat* ! torr5t ( fooli%ness :i*1 "u cov] ( religion1 philosophy1 or miracle-work+1 pret5d$ to ! conque/ ( m9d & w4 ,amid ?is mass ( wilde/ doctr9es & h]esies1 9 ?is orgy ( vapid intellectualism1 !y _h inde$ solid heads :o 7 able to resi/ ! g5]al intoxication4 ,& among all ^! p talk+ nons5se1 ,augu/9 appe>s admirable ) 8 good s5se4 ,?is intellectual1 ?is my/ic1 0 n only a man ( pray] & m$itation4 ,! prud5ce ( ! man ( action & ! adm9i/rator balanc$ 8 outbur/s ( dialectical subtility1 (t5 c>ri$ too f>4 ,he _h t s5se ( realities su* z we flatt] ourselves t we h2 he _h a k ( life & passion4 ,comp>$ to ! exp]i5ce (1 say1 ,bossuet1 h[ mu* wid] 0 ,augu/9's6 ,& ) all t1 a quiv]+ s5sitiv5ess :i* is aga9 l our own--! s5sitiv5ess ( times ( int5se culture1 :]e9 ! abuse ( ?\ght has multipli$ ! ways ( suff]+ 9 exasp]at+ ! desire = pleasure4 ,! s\l ( antiquity 0 rude & va94 ,x 01 above all1 limit$4 ,! s\l ( ,augu/9 is t5d] & s]i\s1 eag] = c]ta9ties & ^? enjoym5ts :i* d n betray4 ,x is va/ & sonor\s2 let x be /irr$ ev] s little1 & f x g =? deep vibrations :i* r5d] ! s\nd ( ! inf9ite4 ,augu/91 be=e 8 conv]sion1 _h ! appreh5sions ( our ,romantics1 ! causeless melan*oly & sadness1 ! imm5se ye>n+s = any:]e b "h1 :i* ov]:elm$ our fa!rs4 ,he is really v close to u4 ,he has broad5$ our ,lat9 s\ls by reconcil+ u ) ! ,b>b>ian4 ,! ,lat91 l ! ,greek1 only und]/ood himself4 ,! ,b>b>ian _h n ! "r to express himself 9 ! language ( ! ,empire4 ,! _w 0 split into two p>ts :i* endeav\r$ to ignore ea* o!r1 ,augu/9 has made u consci\s ( ! nameless regions1 ! vague c\ntries ( ! s\l1 :i* hi!rto _h la9 %r\d$ 9 ! d>kness ( b>b>ism4 ,by him ! union ( ! ,semitic & ! ,occid5tal g5ius is consummat$4 ,he has act$ z our int]pret] = ! ,bible4 ,! h>% ,hebraic words become s(t to our e>s by _! passage ?r\gh ! cultivat$ m\? ( ! rhetorician4 ,he has subjugat$ u ) ! ^w ( ,god4 ,he is a ,lat9 :o speaks to u ( ,jehovah4 ,o!rs1 no d\bt1 _h done x be=e him4 ,b none _h f\nd a simil> emotion1 a note ( t5d]ness s mov+4 ,! g5tle viol5ce ( 8 *>ity w9s ! adh]5ce ( he>ts4 ,he brea!s only *>ity4 ,aft] ,/4 ,john1 x is he :o is ! ,apo/le ( ,love4 ,8 tireless voice dom9at$ ! :ole ( ! ,we/4 ,! ,middle ,ages /ill he>d x4 ,= c5turies 8 s]mons & treatises 7 copi$ ov] & ov] aga92 !y 7 repeat$ 9 ca!drals1 comm5t$ 9 ab/racts ( !ology4 ,p came to accept ev5 8 !ory ( ! f9e arts4 ,all t we h inh]it$ f ! anci5ts rea*es u ?r\gh ,augu/94 ,he is ! great tea*]4 ,9 8 h&s ! doctr9al demon/ration ( ! ,ca?olic religion takes firm %ape4 ,to indicate ! ?ree great /ages ( ! onw>d m>* ( ! tru?1 "o may say3 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,/4 ,paul1 ,/4 ,augu/94 ,ne>e/ to our weakness is ! la/4 ,he is truly our spiritual fa!r4 ,he has taught u ! language ( pray]4 ,! words ( ,augu/9's pray]s are /ill ^u ! lips ( ! dev\t4 ,?is univ]sal g5ius1 :o dur+ =ty ye>s 0 ! speak+-trumpet ( ,*ri/5dom1 0 also ! man ( "o special c5tury & c\ntry4 ,augu/9 ( ,?aga/e is ! great ,african4 ,well may we be pr\d ( him & adopt him z "o ( our glories--we :o h kept up1 = n[ almo/ a c5tury1 a /ruggle l to t :i* he ma9ta9$ = ! unity ( ! ,roman ,empire1 we :o consid] ,africa z an ext5sion ( ,france4 ,m ?an any o!r writ]1 he has express$ ! temp]am5t & ! g5ius ( 8 c\ntry4 ,?is motley ,africa1 ) its et]nal mixture ( races at odds ) "o ano!r1 its jeal\s sect>ianism1 ! v>iety ( its sc5]y & climate1 ! viol5ce ( its s5sations & passions1 its s]i\sness ( "* & its quick-*ang+ hum\r1 its m9d at once practical & frivol\s1 its mat]ialism & its my/icism1 its au/]ity & its luxury1 its resignation to s]vitude & its in/9cts ( indep5d5ce1 its hung] to rule--all t comes out ) s+ul>ly vivid t\*es 9 ! "w ( ,augu/94 ,n only 0 he 8 c\ntry's voice1 b1 z f> z he c\ld1 he realiz$ its old dream ( dom9ion4 ,! supremacy 9 spiritual matt]s t ,c>?age disput$ s long & bitt]ly ) ,rome1 x end$ by obta9+1 ?anks to ,augu/94 ,z long z he liv$1 ! ,african ,*ur* 0 ! mi/ress ( ! ,*ur*es ( ! ,we/4 ,z = me--if ,i may v5ture to ref] to myself 9 su* a matt]--,i h _h ! joy to recognize 9 him1 besides ! ,sa9t & ,tea*] :om ,i rev]e1 ! ideal type ( ! ,lat9 ( ,africa4 ,! image ( :i* ,i descri$ ! outl9e long ago ?r\gh ! mirages ( ! ,s\? 9 foll[+ ! waggons ( my rugg$ h]oes1 ,i h se5 at la/ become def9ite1 gr[ cle>1 wax noble & increase to ! v heav51 9 foll[+ ! traces ( ,augu/94 ,& ev5 suppos+ t ! life ( ?is *ild ( ,?aga/e1 ! son ( ,monnica1 7 n int]m+l$ s deeply ) ours1 ?\gh he 7 = u only a =eign] born 9 a f>-(f l&1 nev]!less he w\ld /ill rema9 "o ( ! mo/ fasc9at+ & lum9\s s\ls :o h %one amid our d>kness & w>m$ our sadness--"o ( ! mo/ human & mo/ div9e creatures :o h trod our highways4 ,,! ,,fir/ ,,"p ,,days ,,( ,,*ildhood ,s$ delectabat lud]e4 ,only1 ,i lik$ to play4 ,confessions1 ,i1 #i4 ,i ,,an ,,african ,,free-,,t[n ,,subject ,,to ,,rome ,little /reets1 q :ite1 :i* climb up to clay-=m$ hills deeply furr[$ by ! heavy w9t] ra9s2 betwe5 ! d\ble r[ ( h\ses1 brilliant 9 ! morn+ sun1 glimpses ( sky ( a v t5d] blue2 "h & !re1 9 ! /rip ( deep %ade :i* lies along ! ?re%olds1 :ite figures cr\*$ ^u ru%-mats--indol5t outl9es1 drap$ ) bright col\rs1 or muffl$ 9 r\gh & sombre wool-/uffs2 a horseman :o passes1 b5t almo/ 9 two 9 8 saddle1 ! big hat ( ! ,s\? flung back ov] 8 %\ld]s1 & enc\rag+ ) 8 heel ! graceful trot ( 8 horse--su* is ,?aga/e z we see x to-day1 & su* und\bt$ly x appe>$ to ! travell] 9 ! days ( ,augu/94 ,l ! ,fr5* t[n built ^u its ru9s1 ! ,african free-city lay 9 a sort ( pla9 tak5 betwe5 ?ree r\nd hills4 ,"o ( !m1 ! highe/ "o1 :i* is n[ protect$ by a bordj1 mu/ h be5 def5d$ 9 old days by a ca/ellum4 ,full-fl[+ wat]s moi/5 ! l&4 ,to ^? com+ f ! /ony regions ab\t ,con/ant9e & ,setif1 or ! va/ b>e pla9 ( ! ,m$j]da1 ,?aga/e gives an impression ( fre%ness & cool4 ,x is a laugh+ place1 full ( gre5]y & runn+ wat]4 ,to ! ,africans x (f]s a picture ( ^? nor!rn c\ntries :i* !y h nev] se51 ) its wood$ m\nta9s cov]$ by p9es & cork trees & ilex4 ,x pres5ts itself z a l& ( m\nta9 & =e/--especially =e/4 ,x is a hunt]'s c\ntry4 ,game is pl5tiful !re--bo>1 h>e1 r$w+1 quail1 p>tridge4 ,9 ,augu/9's "t1 wild bea/s 7 app>5tly m num]\s 9 ! di/rict ?an !y are to-day4 ,:5 he comp>es 8 adv]s>ies1 ! ,donati/s1 to ro>+ lions1 he speaks l a man :o kn[s :at a lion is4 ,to ! ea/ & we/1 wide /ret*es ( woodl&1 r\nd$ hill-summits1 /reams & torr5ts :i* p\r ?r\gh ! valleys & gl5s--!re y h ,?aga/e & ! c\ntry r\nd ab\t--! _w1 9 fact1 z x reveal$ itself to ! eyes ( ! *ild ,augu/94 ,b t[>ds ! s\? ! v]dure gr[s sp>se2 arid m\nta9-tops appe>1 cru%$ d[n z blunt$ cones1 or jutt$ 9 slim ,tables ( ! ,law2 ! /]ility ( ! des]t becomes p]ceptible amid ! weal? ( vegetation4 ,?is full-foliag$ l& has its h>% & /]n localities4 ,! ,african light1 h[ev]1 s(t5s all t4 ,! deep gre5 ( ! oaks & p9es runs into waves ( w>m & ev]-alt]+ t9ts :i* are a c>ess & a delight = ! eye4 ,a man has x ?or\ghly br\ght home to him t he is 9 a l& ( ! sun4 ,to say ! lea/1 x is a c\ntry ( /rongly m>k$ features :i* af=ds ! /range/ contra/ ) ! surr\nd+ di/ricts4 ,?is wood$ ,numidia1 ) its fl[+ brooks1 its fields :]e ! cattle graze1 diff]s 9 ! highe/ degree f ! ,numidia t[>ds ,setif--a wide1 desolate pla91 :]e ! /ubble ( ! :eat-fields1 ! s&y /eppes1 roll away 9 monoton\s undulations to ! cl\dy b>ri] ( ,m\nt ,atlas :i* closes ! horizon4 ,& ?is r\gh & melan*oly pla9 9 its turn (f]s a /rik+ contra/ ) ! coa/ region ( ,b\jeiah & ,hippo1 :i* is n unlike ! ,italian ,campania 9 its mell[ness & gaiety4 ,su* cle>-cut diff]5ces betwe5 ! v>i\s p>ts ( ! same prov9ce d\btless expla9 ! ess5tial peculi>ities ( ! ,numidian "*4 ,! bi%op ,augu/91 :o c>ri$ 8 pa/oral cross f "o end to ! o!r ( ?is c\ntry1 & 0 its act+ & ?9k+ s\l1 may p]haps h ow$ to x ! contra/s & _m-sid$ness ( 8 own ri* nature4 ,( c\rse1 ,?aga/e did n pret5d to be a capital4 ,x 0 a free-t[n ( ! second or ?ird ord]2 b its di/ance f ! great c5tres gave x a c]ta9 importance4 ,! neighb\r+ free-t[ns1 ,?ubursicum1 ,?agura1 7 small4 ,madaura & ,!ve/e1 r l>g]1 _h n p]haps ! same comm]cial importance4 ,?aga/e 0 plac$ at ! junction ( _m ,roman roads4 ,!re ! little ,augu/91 ) o!r *ildr5 ( 8 age1 w\ld h a *ance to admire ! out-rid]s & equipages ( ! ,imp]ial ,mail1 halt$ be=e ! inns ( ! t[n4 ,:at we c be sure ( is t ,?aga/e1 !n z n[1 0 a t[n ( passage & ( traffic1 a half-way /opp+-place = ! s\!rn & coa/ t[ns1 z well z = ^? ( ! ,proconsulate & ,numidia4 ,& l ! pres5t ,s\k-,ahras1 ,?aga/e mu/ h be5 above all a m>ket4 ,bread-/uffs & ,numidian w9es 7 b>t]$ = ! flocks ( ! ,aures1 lea!r1 dates1 & ! esp>to basket-"w ( ! regions ( ,sah>a4 ,! m>bles ( ,simit?u1 ! citron-wood ( :i* !y made preci\s tables1 7 d\btless h&l$ !re4 ,! neighb\r+ =e/s c\ld furni% build+ mat]ials to ! :ole c\ntry4 ,?aga/e 0 ! great m>t ( woodl& ,numidia1 ! w>eh\se & ! baza>1 :]e to ?is day ! nomad comes to lay 9 a /ock ( provisions1 & />es ) *ildi% delight at ! f9e ?+s produc$ by ! inv5tive tal5t ( ! work]s :o live 9 t[ns4 ,?us images ( pl5ty & joy surr\nd$ ! cradle ( ,augu/94 ,! smile ( ,lat9 beauty welcom$ him also f 8 e>lie/ /eps4 ,x is true t ,?aga/e 0 n :at is call$ a f9e city4 ,! fragm5ts ( antiquity :i* h be5 une>!d !re are ( r inf]ior workman%ip4 ,b h[ little is ne$$ to give w+s to ! imag9ation ( an intellig5t *ild6 ,at all ev5ts1 ,?aga/e _h a ba?+-hall pav$ ) mosaics & p]haps ornam5t$ ) /atues2 ,augu/9 us$ to ba! !re ) 8 fa!r4 ,& aga91 x is probable t1 l ! neighb\r+ ,?ubursicum & o!r free-cities ( ! same level1 x _h its !atre1 its =um1 its nymph-f\nta9s1 p]haps ev5 its amphi!atre4 ,( all t no?+ has be5 f\nd4 ,c]ta9 inscrib$ /one tablets1 capitals & %afts ( columns1 a /one ) an inscription :i* belong$ to a ,ca?olic *ur*--t is all :i* has be5 discov]$ up to ?is pres5t "t4 ,let u n ask = ! impossible4 ,?aga/e _h columns--nay1 p]haps a :ole /reet betwe5 a d\ble range ( columns1 z at ,?imgad4 ,t w\ld be q en\gh to delight ! eyes ( a little wond]+ boy4 ,a column1 ev5 injur$1 or sc>cely cleans$ f wrack & rubbi%1 has ab\t x some?+ impressive4 ,x is l a free melody s++ among ! heavy masses ( ! build+4 ,to ?is h\r1 9 our ,alg]ian villages1 ! m]e sight ( a brok5 column entrances & *e]s u--a :ite gho/ ( beauty /ream+ up f ! ru9s among ! mod]n hovels4 ,!re 7 columns at ,?aga/e4 ,,ii ,,! ,,family ,,( ,a ,,sa9t ,x 0 9 ?is pleasant little t[n1 %ad$ & beautifi$ = _m ye>s n[ by ! arts ( ,rome1 t ! p>5ts ( ,augu/9 liv$4 ,8 fa!r1 ,patricius1 af=ds u a good en\gh type ( ! ,romaniz$ ,african4 ,he belong$ to ! ord] ( ,decuriones1 to ! v brilliant urban c\ncil ( ,?aga/e 7spl5didissimus ordo ,?aga/5sis71 z an inscription at ,s\k-,ahras puts x4 ,al?\gh ^! /rong epi!ts may be said to be "p ( ! ord9>y (ficial phraseology1 !y indicate1 j ! same1 ! importance :i* w5t ) su* a position4 ,9 8 t[n%ip1 ,patricius 0 a k9d ( p]sonage4 ,8 son assures u t he 0 poor1 b we may suspect ! holy bi%op ( exagg]at+ ?r\gh ,*ri/ian humility4 ,patricius mu/ c]ta9ly h own$ m ?an tw5ty-five acres ( l&1 = ?is 0 made a condition ( be+ elect$ to ! curia4 ,he _h v9ey>ds & or*>ds1 ( :i* ,augu/9 lat] on recall$ ! pl5tiful & sweet-ta/+ fruits4 ,9 %ort1 he liv$ 9 consid]able /yle4 ,x is true t 9 ,africa h\sehold exp5ses h nev] at any "t be5 a great extravagance4 ,/ill1 ! sons ( ,patricius _h a p$agogue1 a slave specially engag$ to keep !m "u 8 eye1 l all ! *ildr5 ( families com=tably (f4 ,x has be5 said t z ,augu/9's fa!r 0 a memb] ( ! curia1 he mu/ h be5 a ru9$ man4 ,! ,decurions1 :o levi$ taxes & made !mselves responsible = _! collection1 7 oblig$ to supply any defici5cy 9 ! rev5ue out ( _! own money4 ,patricius1 x is ?\ght1 mu/ h be5 "o ( ! num]\s victims ( ?is disa/r\s sy/em4 ,b no d\bt !re 7 a good _m exceptions4 ,besides1 !re is no?+ 9 ,augu/9's rem9isc5ces :i* au?orizes u to believe t 8 fa!r ev] knew emb>rassm5t1 to say no?+ ( actual pov]ty4 ,:at seems by f> ! mo/ probable is t he liv$ z well z he c\ld ^u ! income ( 8 e/ate z a small c\ntry l&[n]4 ,9 ,africa p are satisfi$ ) v little4 ,save = an unusually bad ye> foll[+ a "t ( long dr\ght1 or a desc5t ( locu/s1 ! l& always gives =? en\gh to fe$ its ma/]4 ,to hunt1 to ride horseback1 n[ & !n to g on p>ade1 to look aft] 8 small-hold]s & agricultural slaves1 to drive "o ( ^? b>ga9s 9 :i* ,african cunn+ triumphs--su* 7 ! employm5ts ( ,patricius4 ,9 %ort1 he drift$ ?r\gh life on 8 little demesne4 ,sometimes ?is indol5t man 0 ov]come by a sudd5 passion = "w2 or aga9 he 0 seiz$ by furi\s rages4 ,he 0 viol5t & brutal4 ,at su* mom5ts he /ruck out "r & left4 ,he w\ld ev5 h hit 8 wife or flogg$ ! sk9 (f h] back if ! quietude ( ?is woman1 h] dignity & ,*ri/ian mildness1 _h n ov]aw$ him4 ,let u n judge ?is k9d ( conduct by our own2 we %all nev] und]/& x4 ,! anci5t cu/oms1 especially ! ,african cu/oms1 7 a disconc]t+ mixture ( int5se ref9em5t & he$less brutality4 ,t is :y x w n d to exagg]ate ! outbur/s ( ,patricius1 :i* 8 son m5tions discreetly4 ,al?\gh he may n h be5 v fai?ful to 8 wife1 t 0 9 ^? days1 m ?an 9 ours1 a v5ial s9 9 ! eyes ( ! _w4 ,at he>t ! ,african has always long$ = a h>em 9 8 h\se2 he incl9es naturally to ! polygamy ( ,muslemism4 ,9 ,c>?age1 & else:]e1 public op9ion 0 full ( indulg5ce = ! husb& :o all[$ himself lib]ties ) ! s]v+-wom54 ,p laugh$ at x1 & excus$ ! man4 ,x is true !y 7 r h>d] on ! matron :o took ! same k9d ( lib]ty ) h] m5-slaves4 ,h[ev]1 t w5t on too4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,hippo1 9 8 s]mons1 /rongly rebuk$ ! ,*ri/ian m>ri$ c\ples = ^! frequ5t adult]ies :i* 7 sc>cely reg>d$ z errors4 ,patricius 0 a pagan1 & ?is p>tly expla9s 8 laxity4 ,x w\ld d\btless be go+ too f> to say t he rema9$ fai?ful to paganism all 8 life4 ,x is n likely t ?is urban c\ncillor ( ,?aga/e 0 a p>ticul>ly assur$ pagan4 ,speculative & intellectual consid]ations made a v mod]ate appeal to him4 ,he 0 n an argu] l 8 son4 ,he 0 pagan f habit1 f t in/9ctive cons]vatism ( ! citiz5 & l&[n] :o /icks ob/9ately to 8 class & family traditions4 ,prud5ce & diplomacy _h also some?+ to d ) x4 ,_m great l&lords cont9u$ to def5d & practise paganism1 probably f motives simil> to ^? ( ,patricius himself4 ,z = him1 he _h no desire to get wrong ) ! important & influ5tial p ( ! c\ntry2 he might h ne$ ( _! protection to save 8 small prop]ty f ! rav5\s public treasury4 ,moreov]1 ! be/-paid po/s 7 /ill controll$ by ! pagan prie/hood4 ,& s ,augu/9's fa!r ?\ght himself v wise 9 deal+ cauti\sly ) a religion :i* 0 always s p[]ful1 & rew>d$ its adh]5ts s well4 ,b = all t1 x is und5iable t paganism ab\t ?is "t 0 9 an awkw>d position f a political po9t ( view4 ,! ,gov]nm5t ey$ x ) disapproval4 ,s9ce ! dea? ( ,con/ant9e1 ! accurs$ emp]ors _h wag$ aga9/ x a furi\s w>4 ,9 #cec1 j be=e ! bir? ( ,augu/91 ,con/antius promulgat$ an edict r5ew+ ! ord] = ! clos+ ( ! temples & ! abolition ( sacrifices--& t too "u pa9 ( dea? & confiscation4 ,b 9 di/ant prov9ces1 su* z ,numidia1 ! action ( ! c5tral p[] 0 sl[ & irregul>4 ,x 0 (t5 repres5t$ by (ficials :o 7 ho/ile or indiff]5t to ,*ri/ianity4 ,! local ari/ocracy & _! foll[+ sc(f$ at x m or less op5ly4 ,9 _! imm5se villas1 beh9d ! walls ( _! p>ks1 ! ri* l&[n]s (f]$ sacrifices & organiz$ processions & fea/s z if !re 7 no law at all4 ,patricius knew all t4 ,&1 on ! o!r side1 he c\ld take note ( ! encroa*m5ts ( ! new religion4 ,dur+ ! fir/ half ( ! f\r? c5tury ,?aga/e _h be5 conqu]$ by ! ,donati/s4 ,s9ce ! edict ( ,con/ans aga9/ ^! s*ismatics1 ! inhabitants ( ! little city _h come back to ,ca?olicism out ( fe> ( ! sev]ity ( ! imp]ial gov]nm5t4 ,b ! settlem5t 0 f> f be+ complete & f9al4 ,z a consequ5ce ( ! edict1 ! :ole region ( ! ,aures _h be5 9 revolution4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,bagai1 =tifi$ 9 8 episcopal city & basilica1 _h /ood an actual siege f ! ,roman troops4 ,almo/ ev]y:]e ! /ruggle betwe5 ,donati/s & ,ca?olics /ill w5t on bel[ ! surface4 ,!re _c be ! lea/ d\bt t ,?aga/e took its %>e 9 ^! qu>rels4 ,to ^? :o urg$ him to be baptiz$1 ! fa!r ( ,augu/9 might well answ] ) ironic polit5ess3 ,i am only wait+ till y agree among y\rselves1 to see :]e ! tru? lies4 ,9 8 he>t ?is r lukew>m pagan _h no invet]ate dislike to ,*ri/ianity4 ,:at proves x at once is t he m>ri$ a ,*ri/ian4 ,h[ did ,monnica become ! wife ( ,patricius8 ,h[ did ^! two be+s1 s little alike1 betwe5 :om !re 0 su* a great diff]5ce ( age1 n to m5tion all ! re/1 come to jo9 _! fate8 ,^? are que/ions :i* x w\ld nev] h occurr$ to ! p ( ,?aga/e to ask4 ,patricius m>ri$ to be l ev]ybody else--& also because he 0 well ov] =ty1 & 8 "m an old woman :o w\ld soon be no long] able to run 8 h\se4 ,monnica also _h h] "m4 ,! two old wom5 _h a meet+1 ) _m polit5esses & c]emoni\s b[+s1 & because ! ?+ appe>$ to !m reasonable & mo/ suitable1 !y settl$ ! m>riage4 ,_h ,patricius ev] se5 ! girl t he 0 go+ to take1 accord+ to cu/om1 s z to h a *ild-be>] & h\sewife8 ,x is q likely he _h n4 ,0 %e pretty1 ri*1 or poor8 ,he consid]$ su* matt]s z second>y1 s9ce ! m>riage 0 n a love-mat* b a traditional duty to fulfil4 ,if ! union 0 respectable1 t 0 q en\gh4 ,b h[ev] ! matt] fell out1 :at is c]ta9 is t ,monnica 0 v "y4 ,%e 0 tw5ty-two :5 ,augu/9 0 born1 & he 0 probably n h] fir/ *ild4 ,we "k t %e 0 h>dly m>riageable :5 %e 0 h&$ ov]1 z ,arab p>5ts d to-day ) _! adolesc5t or little girls1 to ! man :o 0 go+ to m>ry h]4 ,n[ 9 ,africa girls become m>riageable at a v e>ly age4 ,!y are m>ri$ at f\rte51 sometimes ev5 at twelve4 ,p]haps %e 0 sev5te5 or eighte5 at mo/ :5 %e m>ri$ ,patricius4 ,%e mu/ h _h fir/ a son1 ,navigius1 :om we %all meet lat] on at ,milan1 & also a daught]1 ( :om we d n ev5 "k ! "n1 b :o became a nun1 & sup]ior ( a conv5t 9 ! diocese ( ,hippo4 ,= u ! features ( ^! two o!r *ildr5 ( ,monnica & ,patricius are oblit]at$4 ,!y are conceal$ by ! radiance ( _! illu/ri\s great bro!r4 ,monnica 0 fond ( tell+ /ories ( h] girlhood to h] son4 ,he has h&$ d[n "s ( !m to u4 ,%e 0 br\ght up /rictly1 accord+ to ! sy/em ( t "t4 ,bo? h] p>5ts came ( families :i* _h be5 ,*ri/ian1 & ,ca?olic-,*ri/ian1 = _m g5]ations4 ,!y _h nev] be5 c>ri$ away by ! ,donati/ s*ism2 !y 7 p v ob/9ate 9 _! convictions--a "* q z frequ5t 9 ,africa z its opposite1 ! k9d ( ,numidian or ,moor1 :o is v]satile & flighty4 ,x is n unimportant t ,augu/9 came f ?is h>d-head$ race1 = ?is x 01 ) ! aid ( ,god's grace1 t sav$ him--! en]getic temp] ( 8 w4 ,/ill1 if ! fai? ( ! "y ,monnica 0 confirm$ f h] e>lie/ ye>s1 x is n s mu* to ! lessons ( h] "m t %e ow$ x1 z to ! tra9+ ( an old woman-s]vant ( :om %e always spoke ) gratitude4 ,9 ! family ( h] ma/]1 ?is old woman _h a place l ! "o :i* to-day 9 a ,turki% family is held by ! nurse1 ! dada1 :o is respect$ by all ! h>em & all ! h\sehold4 ,d\btless %e h]self 0 born 9 ! h\se & _h se5 all ! *ildr5 born4 ,%e _h c>ri$ ,monnica's fa!r on h] back :5 he 0 little1 j z ! ,kabylian wom5 or ! ,b$\9 nomads c>ry _! babies /ill4 ,%e 0 a devot$ slave1 j a bit unreasonable--a v]itable h\s$og :o 9 ! zeal ( gu>dian%ip b>ks m ?an is necess>y at ! /rang] :o passes4 ,%e 0 l ! negress 9 ! ,arab h\ses to-day1 :o is (t5 a bett] ,muslem1 m ho/ile to ! ,*ri/ian1 ?an h] employ]s4 ,! old woman 9 ,monnica's family _h witness$ ! la/ p]secutions2 %e _h p]haps visit$ ! confessors 9 prison2 p]haps %e _h se5 fl[ ! blood ( ! m>tyrs4 ,^! excit+ & t]rible sc5es w\ld h be5 grav5 on h] memory4 ,:at inflam$ /ories ! old s]vant mu/ h told h] "y mi/resses1 :at vital lessons ( con/ancy & h]oism6 ,monnica li/5$ to !m eag]ly4 ,because ( h] great fai?1 ?is simple slave 0 rev]$ z a sa9t by h] own]s1 :o entru/$ h] ) ! sup]vision ( _! daught]s4 ,%e prov$ a /]n gov]ness1 :o w\ld /& no trifl+ ) h] rules4 ,%e prev5t$ ^! girls f dr9k+ ev5 wat] except at meals4 ,cruel suff]+ = little ,africans6 ,?aga/e is n f> f ! c\ntry ( ?ir/4 ,b ! old woman said to !m3 ,y dr9k wat] n[ because y c't get at ! w9e4 ,9 "t to come1 :5 y are m>ri$ & h b9s & cell>s ( y\r own1 y'll turn up y\r nose at wat]1 & y\r habit ( dr9k+ w be too mu* = y4 ,monnica came ne> fulfill+ ! prophecy ( ! hone/ woman4 ,x 0 be=e %e 0 m>ri$4 ,z %e 0 v well-behav$ & v temp]ate1 %e us$ to be s5t to ! cell> to draw ! w9e f ! cask4 ,be=e p\r+ x into ! flagon %e w\ld sip j a little4 ,be+ unaccu/om$ to w9e1 %e 0 n able to dr9k m2 x 0 too /rong = h] gullet4 ,%e did ?is1 n because %e lik$ ! w9e1 b f naught9ess1 to play a trick on h] p>5ts :o tru/$ h]1 & also1 ( c\rse1 because x 0 prohibit$4 ,ea* "t %e swall[$ a little m1 & s x w5t on till %e end$ by f9d+ x r nice1 & came to dr9k+ gre$ily "o cup aft] ano!r4 ,"o day a slave-girl1 :o w5t ) h] to ! cell>1 began to grumble4 ,monnica gave h] a %>p answ]4 ,^u ?is ! girl call$ ,monnica a drunk>d4444 ,drunk>d6 ,?is bitt] taunt s humiliat$ ! self-respect ( ! future sa9t1 t %e got ! bett] ( h] ta/e = dr9k4 ,augu/9 does n say x 0 ?r\gh piety %e did ?is1 b because %e felt ! ugl9ess ( su* a vice4 ,!re is a c]ta9 r\ghness 9 ?is /ory ( *ildhood1 ! r\ghness ( anci5t cu/oms1 ) :i* is always m+l$ "s dec5cy or dignity4 ,*ri/ianity did ! "w ( poli%+ ! s\l ( ,monnica4 ,at ! "t we are deal+ )1 if %e 0 already a v dev\t "y girl1 %e 0 f> z yet f be+ ! gr& ,*ri/ian t %e became aft]w>ds4 ,:5 %e m>ri$ ,patricius %e 0 a girl v res]v$ & cold to all appe>ances 79 reality1 %e 0 v passionate71 precise 9 att5d+ to h] religi\s duties1 ev5 a little /rict1 ) h] exagg]ation ( ! ,*ri/ian au/]ity 9 h] hate ( all ! brutalities & all ! c>eless morals t paganism condon$4 ,nev]!less1 ?is rigid s\l knew h[ to b5d :5 x 0 necess>y4 ,monnica _h tact1 suppl5ess1 &1 :5 x 0 ne$$1 a v acute & v reasonable practical s5se ( :i* %e gave _m a pro( 9 ! br++ up & managem5t ( h] son ,augu/94 ,?is s\l1 h>d = h]self1 veil$ h] uncompromis+ religion "u an un*angeable sweetness :i* 0 9 h] r ! "w ( grace ?an a natural gift4 ,!re c be little d\bt t h] behavi\r & "* greatly di/urb$ ,patricius at ! beg9n+ ( _! m>ri$ life4 ,p]haps he regrett$ ! m>riage4 ,:at use _h he = ?is nun alongside ( him6 ,bo? ( !m mu/ h suff]$ ! usual annoyances :i* always appe>$ be=e long 9 unions ( ?is k9d betwe5 pagan & ,*ri/ian4 ,true1 x 0 no long] ! "t ( ,t]tullian1 ! h]oic c5tury ( p]secutions1 :5 ! ,*ri/ian wom5 glid$ into ! prisons to kiss ! %ackles ( ! m>tyrs4 7,:at a rev5ge did woman take !n = h] long & en=c$ conf9em5t to ! wom5's ap>tm5ts6 ,& h[ outrage\s su* conduct mu/ h seem$ to a husb& br\ght up 9 ! ,roman way67 ,b ! practices ( ! ,*ri/ian life e/abli%$ a k9d ( int]mitt5t divorce betwe5 husb&s & wives ( diff]5t religion4 ,monnica (t5 w5t out1 ei!r alone1 or accompani$ by a fai?ful bondwoman4 ,%e _h to att5d ! s]vices ( ! ,*ur*1 to g ab\t ! t[n visit+ ! poor & giv+ alms4 ,& !re 7 ! fa/-days :i* occurr$ two or ?ree times a week1 & especially ! long fa/ ( ,l5t--a griev\s nuisance :5 ! husb& want$ to give a d9n]-p>ty j on ^? p>ticul> days6 ,on ! vigil ( fe/ivals1 ,monnica w\ld sp5d a good "p ( ! night 9 ! ,basilica4 ,regul>ly1 d\btless on ,sundays1 %e betook h]self to ! cemet]y1 or to "s *apel rais$ to ! memory ( a m>tyr :o 0 (t5 buri$ !re--9 fact1 !y call$ ^! *apels ,memorials 7memori74 ,!re 7 _m ( ^! *apels--ev5 too _m 9 ! op9ion ( au/]e ,*ri/ians4 ,monnica w5t f "o to ano!r c>ry+ 9 a l>ge basket made ( will[ bran*es "s pieces ( m9c$ meat1 bread1 & w9e mix$ ) wat]4 ,%e met h] fri5ds 9 ^! places4 ,!y w\ld sit d[n ar\nd ! tombs1 ( :i* "s 7 %ap$ l tables1 unpack ! provisions1 & eat & dr9k pi\sly 9 hon\r ( ! m>tyr4 ,?is 0 a residue ( pagan sup]/ition among ! ,*ri/ians4 ,^! pi\s agap1 or love-fea/s1 (t5 turn$ into disgu/+ orgies4 ,:5 ,augu/9 became ,bi%op ( ,hippo he _h consid]able tr\ble to get 8 p out ( ! habit ( !m4 ,not)/&+ 8 ef=ts1 ! tradition /ill la/s4 ,e ,friday ! ,muslem wom5 keep up ! cu/om ( visit+ ! cemet]ies & ! m>ab\ts4 ,j z 9 ! "t ( ,/4 ,monnica1 !y sit ar\nd ! tombs1 s cool ) _! cas+ ( pa9t$ tiles1 9 ! %ade ( ! cypress & eucalyptus4 ,!y gobble sweetmeats1 !y gossip1 !y laugh1 !y enjoy !mselves--! husb&s are n !re4 ,monnica made ^! visits 9 a really pi\s /ate ( m9d1 & 0 f> f try+ to f9d 9 !m opportunities = lewdness or c>\se4 ,%e 0 cont5t to dr9k a little w9e v c>efully--%e always bore 9 m9d h] y\?ful s94 ,besides1 ?is w9e weak5$ ) wat] t %e br\ght f ! h\se1 0 tepid by ! "t %e rea*$ ! cemet]y2 x w\ld be a dr9k ( v mod]ate reli%1 little likely to /imulate ! s5ses4 ,%e di/ribut$ :at 0 left ( x among ! ne$y1 toge!r ) ! cont5ts ( h] basket1 & came back mode/ly to h] h\se4 ,b h[ev] /aid & res]v$ %e might be1 /ill ^! out+s gave rise to sc&al\s talk4 ,!y annoy$ a suspici\s husb&4 ,all ! ,africans are t4 ,m>ital jeal\sy 0 n inv5t$ by ,islam4 ,moreov]1 9 ,monnica's "t m5 & wom5 took "p 9 ^! fun]al love-fea/s & m+l$ toge!r di/urb+ly4 ,patricius got cross ab\t x1 & ab\t a good _m o!r ?+s too4 ,8 old "m *af$ 8 suspicions by c>ry+ to him ! ugly gossip & ev5 ! lies ( ! s]vants ab\t 8 wife4 ,by d9t ( pati5ce & mildness & att5tions1 ,monnica end$ by dis>m+ h] "m-9-law & mak+ x cle> t h] conduct 0 p]fect4 ,! old woman flew into a rage ) ! s]vants :o _h li$ to h]1 & d5\nc$ !m to h] son4 ,patricius1 l a good head ( a h\sehold1 _h !m :ipp$ to tea* !m n to lie any m4 ,?anks to ?is exempl>y puni%m5t1 & ! good s5se ( ! "y wife1 peace reign$ once m 9 ! family4 ,wom51 fri5ds ( ,monnica1 7 amaz$ t ! good und]/&+ 0 n (t5] upset1 at lea/ 9 an op5 mann]1 betwe5 husb& & wife4 ,ev]ybody 9 ,?aga/e knew ! quick-temp]$ & viol5t "* ( ,patricius4 ,& yet !re 7 no signs t he beat 8 wife4 ,nor did any "o say he did4 ,o!r wom5 :o _h less passionate husb&s 7 nev]!less beat5 by !m4 ,:5 !y came to ,monnica's h\se !y %ew$ h] ! m>ks ( ! :acks !y _h got1 _! faces swoll5 f bl[s1 & !y bur/ out 9 abuse ( m51 clam\r+ aga9/ _! le*]y1 :i*1 said ^! matrons1 0 ! cause ( ! ill-treatm5t !y _h to endure4 ,blame y\r own tongue1 retort$ ,monnica4 ,accord+ to h]1 wom5 %\ld close _! eyes to ! infidelities ( _! husb&s & avoid argu+ ) !m :5 !y 7 angry4 ,sil5ce1 submissiv5ess1 7 ! all-p[]ful arms4 ,& s9ce1 z a "y woman1 %e _h a c]ta9 natural m]rim5t1 %e add$1 laugh+3 ,rememb] :at 0 read to y on y\r w$d+-day4 ,y 7 told t y are ! h&maids ( y\r husb&s4 ,don't rebel aga9/ y\r ma/]s6444 ,possibly ?is 0 a ke5 criticism ( ! pagan code1 s h>d 9 its rules4 ,/ill1 9 ?is matt]1 ! ,roman law 0 9 agreem5t ) ! ,gospel4 ,s9c]e ,*ri/ian z %e 01 ! wife ( ,patricius nev] _h any qu>rel ) him on acc\nt ( 8 infidelities4 ,s mu* k9dness & resignation t\*$ ! dissolute & brutal husb&1 :o besides 0 an excell5t man & w>m-he>t$4 ,! mode/y ( 8 wife1 aft] a :ile1 made h] attractive 9 8 eyes4 ,he lov$ h]1 s to speak1 on ! /r5g? ( 8 respect & admiration = h]4 ,he w\ld inde$ h be5 a *url to f9d fault ) a wife :o int]f]$ ) him s little & :o 0 a p]fect h\sekeep]1 z we %all see lat] on :5 we come to h] life at ,cassicium4 ,9 "o po9t1 :]e ev5 %e did n int5d x1 %e =w>d$ ! int]e/s ( h] husb& by ga9+ him ! good-w ( ! ,*ri/ians 9 ,?aga/e2 :ile he1 on 8 side1 c\ld say to ! pagans :o look$ askance at 8 m>riage3 ,am ,i n "o ( y\rselves8 ,9 spite ( all ! diff]5ces betwe5 him & ,monnica1 ,patricius 0 a cont5t$ husb&4 ,,iii ,,! ,,com=t ,,( ,,! ,,milk ,augu/9 came into ?is _w ! ?irte5? ( ,novemb] ( ! ye> ( ,*ri/ #ced4 ,x 0 j "o little *ild m 9 ?is s5sual & pleasure-lov+ ,africa1 l& ( s9 & ( c>nal productiv5ess1 :]e *ildr5 are born & die l ! leaves4 ,b ! son ( ,monnica & ,patricius 0 pr$e/9$3 he 0 n to die 9 ! cradle l s _m o!r t9y ,africans4 ,ev5 if he _h n be5 int5d$ = great ?+s1 if he _h be5 only a head 9 ! cr[d1 ! arrival ( ?is baby ought1 all ! same1 to affect u1 = to ! ,*ri/ian1 ! de/9y ( ! obscure/ & humble/ ( s\ls is a matt] ( importance4 ,=ty ye>s aft]w>ds1 ,augu/91 9 8 ,confessions1 pond]$ ?is slight ord9>y fact ( 8 bir?1 :i* happ5$ almo/ unnotic$ by ! inhabitants ( ,?aga/e1 & 9 tru? x seems to him a great ev5t1 n because x conc]ns himself1 bi%op & ,fa!r ( ! ,*ur*1 b because x is a s\l :i* at ?is imp]ceptible po9t ( "t comes into ! _w4 ,let u cle>ly und]/& ,augu/9's ?\ght4 ,s\ls h be5 ransom$ by a ,victim ( inf9ite value4 ,!y h !mselves an inf9ite value4 ,no?+ :i* goes on 9 !m c be ignor$4 ,_! mo/ trifl+ s9s1 _! feeble/ /irr+s t[>ds virtue1 are vital = ! et]nity ( _! lot4 ,all %all be attribut$ to !m by ! j ,judge4 ,! !ft ( an apple w weigh p]haps z heavily 9 ! scales z ! seizure ( a prov9ce or a k+dom4 ,! evil ( s9 is 9 ! evil int5tion4 ,n[ ! fate ( a s\l1 creat$ by ,god1 on ,him dep5ds4 ,h5ce ev]y?+ 9 a human life assumes an extreme s]i\sness & importance4 ,9 ! hi/ory ( a creature1 all is wor?y ( be+ exam9$1 weigh$1 /udi$1 & p]haps also1 = ! edification ( o!rs1 told4 ,"h is an altoge!r new way ( reg>d+ life1 &1 proce$+ f t1 ( und]/&+ art4 ,ev5 z ! slaves1 ?anks to ,*ri/ianity1 came into ! spiritual city1 s ! mo/ m9ute realities by ?is outlook are to be includ$ 9 lit]ature4 ,! ,confessions w be ! fir/ model ( ! art ( ! new era4 ,a deep & magnific5t realism1 because x goes ev5 to ! v dep?s ( ! div9e--utt]ly di/9ct1 at any rate1 f our surface realism ( m]e amusem5t--is ab\t to arise f ?is new conception4 ,)\t d\bt1 9 ,augu/9's eyes1 beauty dwells 9 all ?+s1 9 s f> =? z beauty is a reflection ( ! ord] & ! ?\ght ( ! ,^w4 ,b x has also a m ess5tial "*--x has a moral signification & value4 ,ev]y?+1 9 a ^w1 c be ! in/rum5t ( ! loss or ! r$emption ( a s\l4 ,! mo/ insignificant ( our actions rev]b]ates to inf9itude on our fate4 ,reg>d$ f ?is po9t1 bo? ?+s & be+s comm5ce to live a life m closely leagu$ toge!r & at ! same "t m private2 m individual & m g5]al4 ,all is 9 ! lump1 & nev]!less all is sep>ate4 ,our salvation conc]ns only ourselves1 & yet ?r\gh *>ity x becomes involv$ ) ! salvation ( our fell[s4 ,9 ?is _s let u look at ! cradle ( ,augu/94 ,let u look at x ) ! eyes ( ,augu/9 himself1 & also1 p]*ance1 ( ,monnica4 ,b5d+ ov] ! frail body ( ! little *ild he once 01 he puts to himself all ! great desp]ate que/ions :i* h %ak5 humanity = ?\s&s ( ye>s4 ,! my/]y ( life & dea? rises be=e him1 =midable4 ,x tortures him to ! po9t ( angui%1 ( confusion3 ,yet suff] me to speak be=e ,?y m]cy1 me :o am b du/ & a%es4 ,yea1 suff] me to speak1 =1 behold1 ,i speak n to man :o scorns me1 b to ,?y m]cy4 ,ev5 ,?\ p]haps do/ scorn me1 b ,?\ wilt turn & h pity4 ,= :at is x t ,i w\ld say1 ,o ,"l my ,god1 save t ,i "k n :5ce ,i came hi!r into ?is dy+ life1 %all ,i call x1 or liv+ dea?8444 ,&1 lo1 my infancy has long be5 dead1 & ,i live4 ,b ,?\1 ,o ,"l1 :o ev] live/ & 9 :om no?+ ev] dies--tell me1 ,i besee* ,!e1 ,o ,god1 & h m]cy on my mis]y1 tell me :e!r ano!r life ( m9e di$ be=e my infancy began4 ,"o is rem9d$ "h ( ,pascal's fam\s prosopopoeia3 ,i "k n :o has put me into ! _w1 nor :at ! _w is1 nor myself4 ,i am 9 a t]rible ignorance ab\t ev]y?+4444 ,all ,i "k is t ,i mu/ soon die1 b :at ,i "k lea/ ( all is ?is v dea? :i* ,i _c escape4 ,! phrases ( ! ,p5ses are only ! e*o ( ! phrases ( ! ,confessions4 ,b h[ diff]5t is ! tone6 ,pascal's *>ge aga9/ human ignorance is m]ciless4 ,! ,god ( ,port-,royal has ! h>d & motionless face ( ! anci5t ,de/9y3 ,he )draws into ! cl\ds1 & only %ews ,himself at ! end to raise up ,8 poor creature4 ,9 ,augu/9 ! acc5t is t5d]1 tru/+1 really l a son1 & ?\gh he be h>ass$1 "o c disc]n ! ?rill ( an unconqu]able hope4 ,in/ead ( cru%+ man "u ! iron h& ( ! ,ju/ice-deal]1 he makes him feel ! k9dness ( ! ,fa!r :o has got all ready1 long be=e its bir?1 = ! feeble little *ild3 ,! com=ts ( ,?y pity receiv$ me1 z ,i h he>d f ! fa!r & "m ( my fle%4444 ,& s ! com=t ( woman's milk 0 ready = me4 ,= my "m & my nurses did n fill _! own bosoms1 b ,?\1 ,o ,"l1 by _! means gave/ me ! food ( infancy1 accord+ to ,?y ord9ance4444 ,& see6 8 he>t ov]fl[s at ?is remembrance ( 8 "m's milk4 ,! great doctor humbles 8 /yle1 makes x simple & famili>1 to tell u ( 8 fir/ mewl+s1 & ( 8 baby ang]s & joys4 ,he too 0 a fa!r2 he knew :at is a new-born *ild1 & a "y "m :o gives x suck1 because he _h se5 t ) 8 own eyes close beside him4 ,all ! small bo!rs :i* m+le ) ! pleasures ( fa!rhood he _h exp]i5c$ himself4 ,9 8 own son he /udi$ himself4 99 99 99 99 99 ,?is *ild1 born ( a ,*ri/ian "m1 & :o 0 to become ! great def5d] ( ! fai?1 0 n *ri/5$ at 8 bir?4 ,9 ! e>ly ,*ur*1 & especially 9 ! ,african ,*ur*1 x 0 n usual to d s4 ,! baptismal day 0 put z f> (f z possible1 f ! conviction t ! s9s committ$ aft] ! sacram5t 7 mu* m s]i\s ?an ^? :i* w5t be=e4 ,! ,africans1 v practical folk1 cle>ly =esaw t !y w\ld s9 aga9 ev5 aft] baptism1 b !y want$ to s9 at a bett] rate1 & less5 ! inflictions ( p5ance4 ,?is p5ance 9 ,augu/9's "t 0 f> f be+ z h>d z 9 ! c5tury be=e4 ,nev]!less1 ! remembrance ( ! old sev]ity always rema9$1 & ! habit 0 tak5 to put (f baptism s z n to disc\rage s9n]s ov]mu*4 ,monnica1 always s$ul\s to con=m ) ! cu/oms ( h] c\ntry & ! traditions ( h] ,*ur*1 fell 9 ) ?is practice4 ,p]haps %e may h _h also ! opposition ( h] husb& to face1 = he be+ a pagan w\ld n h c>$ to give too _m pl$ges to ! ,*ri/ians1 nor to compromise himself 9 ! eyes ( 8 fell[-pagans by %ew+ t he 0 s f> "u ! control ( ,*ri/ian zealots z to h 8 *ild baptiz$ out ( ! ord9>y way4 ,!re 0 a middle c\rse1 & ?is 0 to inscribe ! *ild among ! cate*um5s4 ,accord+ to ! rite ( ! fir/ admission to ! l[e/ ord] ( cate*um5s1 ! sign ( ! cross 0 made on ,augu/9's =ehead1 & ! symbolic salt plac$ betwe5 8 lips4 ,& s !y did n baptize him4 ,possibly ?is affect$ 8 :ole life4 ,he lack$ ! baptismal mode/y4 ,ev5 :5 he 0 become a bi%op1 he nev] q ca/ (f ! old man t _h spla%$ ?r\gh all ! pagan uncleannesses4 ,"s ( 8 words are pa9fully broad = *a/e e>s4 ,! influ5ce ( ,african conditions does n altoge!r acc\nt = ?is4 ,x is only too pla9 t ! son ( ,patricius _h nev] kn[n entire virg9ity ( s\l4 ,!y nam$ him ,aurelius ,augu/9us4 ,0 ,aurelius 8 family "n8 ,we _c tell4 ,! ,africans always appli$ v fanta/ically ! rules ( ,roman nom5clature4 ,anyh[1 ?is "n 0 common en\gh 9 ,africa4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,c>?age1 primate ( ! prov9ce & a fri5d ( ,augu/91 0 also call$ ,aurelius4 ,pi\s comm5tators h s\ght to f9d 9 ?is "n an om5 ( ,augu/9's future r5[n z an orator4 ,!y h rem>k$ t ! ^w aurum1 gold1 is conta9$ 9 ,aurelius--a prophetic indication ( ! gold5 m\? ( ! great prea*] ( ,hippo4 ,mean:ile1 he 0 a baby l any o!r baby1 :o only knew1 z he tells u1 h[ to take 8 "m's brea/4 ,h[ev]1 he speaks ( nurses :o suckl$ him2 no d\bt ^! 7 s]vants or slaves ( ! h\sehold4 ,!y gave him _! milk1 l ^? ,alg]ian wom5 :o1 to-day1 if _! neighb\r is call$ away1 take h] *ild & fe$ x4 ,besides1 ) !m *ildr5 are wean$ mu* lat] ?an ) u4 ,y c see mo!rs sitt+ at _! doors put d[n _! "w & call to a *ild ( two or ?ree play+ 9 ! /reet = him to come & take ! brea/4 ,did ,augu/9 rememb] ^! ?+s8 ,at lea/ he recall$ 8 nurses' games1 & ! ef=ts !y made to appease him1 & ! *ildi% words !y taught him to /amm]4 ,! fir/ ,lat9 words he repeat$1 he pick$ up f 8 "m & ! s]vants1 :o mu/ also h spok5 ,punic1 ! ord9>y tongue ( ! populace & small trad] class4 ,he le>n$ ,punic )\t ?9k+ ab\t x1 9 play+ ) o!r *ildr5 ( ,?aga/e1 j z ! sons ( our coloni/s le>n ,arab 9 play+ ) little boys :o we> *e*ias on _! heads4 ,he is a ,*ri/ian1 a bi%op1 already a v5]at$ ,fa!r1 consult$ by ! :ole ,ca?olic _w1 & he tells u all t4 ,he tells x 9 a s]i\s & contrite way1 ) a manife/ anxiety to attribute to ,god1 z ! sole cause1 all ! b5efits :i* embelli%$ 8 *ildhood1 z well z to deplore 8 faults & wret*$ness1 fatal consequ5ce ( ! orig9al ,fall4 ,& /ill1 we c make out cle>ly t ^! suave & f>-(f memories h a *>m = him :i* he _c q gu>d himself aga9/4 ,! attitude ( ! au?or ( ! ,confessions is ambigu\s & a little con/ra9$4 ,! fa!r :o has lov$ 8 *ild1 :o has jo9$ 9 8 games1 /ruggles 9 him aga9/ ! !ologian :o lat] on 0 to uphold ! doctr9e ( ,grace aga9/ ! h]etics4 ,he feels t he mu/ %ew1 n only t ,grace is necess>y = salvation & t little *ildr5 ought to be baptiz$1 b t !y are capable ( s9n+4 ,yes1 ! *ildr5 s9 ev5 at nurse4 ,& ,augu/9 relates ?is /ory ( a baby t he _h se53 ,i "k1 because ,i h se51 jeal\sy 9 a babe4 ,x c\ld n speak1 yet x ey$ its fo/]-bro!r ) pale *eeks & looks ( hate4 ,*ildr5 are already m54 ,! egoism & gre$9ess ( ! gr[n man may be already descri$ 9 ! newly born4 ,h[ev]1 ! !ologian ( ,grace 0 n able to drive f 8 m9d ?is v]se ( ! ,gospel3 ,s9ite ad me p>vulos v5ire--,suff] little *ildr5 to come unto ,me4 ,b he int]prets ?is 9 a v n>r[ s5se1 lur+ x into an argum5t :i* fur!rs 8 case4 ,= him1 ! small height ( *ildr5 is a symbol ( ! humility )\t :i* no "o c ent] ,god's k+dom4 ,! ,ma/]1 accord+ to him1 nev] int5d$ u to take *ildr5 z an example4 ,!y are b fle% ( s94 ,he only drew f _! littl5ess "o ( ^? similitudes :i* ,he1 ) ,8 fondness = symbols1 fav\r$4 ,well1 let u d>e to say x3 ,augu/9 goes wrong "h4 ,su* is ! p5alty ( human ?\ght1 :i* 9 its ju/e/ /atem5ts always w\nds "s tru? less cle> or mutilates "s t5d] s5tim5t4 ,radically1 ,augu/9 is "r4 ,! *ild is wick$ z man is4 ,we "k x4 ,b aga9/ ! rel5tlessness ( ! !ologian we place ! div9e g5tl5ess ( ,*ri/3 ,suff] little *ildr5 to come unto ,me1 = ( su* is ! ,k+dom ( ,god4 ,,iv ,,! ,,fir/ ,,games ,i lov$ to play1 ,augu/9 says1 9 tell+ u ( ^? f>-(f ye>s4 ,is x surpris+ if ?is quick & supple intellig5ce1 :o ma/]$ )\t ef=t1 & z if by in/9ct1 ! encyclopdic k ( 8 age1 :o f\nd himself at 8 ease amid/ ! deepe/ ab/ractions1 did1 at ! beg9n+1 take life z a game8 ,! amusem5ts ( ! little ,africans ( to-day are n v _m1 nor v v>i\s ei!r4 ,!y h no inv5tive imag9ation4 ,9 ?is matt] _! ,fr5* playfell[s h taught !m a good deal4 ,if !y play m>bles1 or hopscot*1 or r\nd]s1 x is 9 imitation ( ! ,r\mis4 ,& yet !y are great little play]s4 ,games ( *ance attract !m above all4 ,at ^! !y sp5d h\r aft] h\r1 /ret*$ out flat on _! /oma*s 9 "s %ady corn]1 & !y play ) an a/oni%+ int5sity ( passion4 ,all _! att5tion is absorb$ 9 :at !y are ab\t2 !y employ on ! game all ! cunn+ ( _! wits1 precoci\sly develop$1 & s soon /uck fa/ 9 mat]ial ?+s4 ,:5 ,augu/9 recalls ! games ( 8 *ildhood1 he only m5tions nuts1 h&ball1 & birds4 ,to capture a bird1 t w+$1 light1 & brilliant ?+1 is :at all *ildr5 long to d 9 e c\ntry on e>?4 ,b 9 ,africa1 :]e !re are pl5ty ( birds1 big p z well z little love !m4 ,9 ! ,moori% cafs1 9 ! wret*$e/ g\rbis1 cages made ( re$s are hung on ! walls1 all ru/l+ ) trills & flutt]+ ( w+s4 ,quail1 ?ru%es1 night+ales are imprison$ 9 !m4 ,! night+ale1 ! s++-bird beyond all o!rs1 s difficult to tame1 is ! hon\r$ gue/1 ! privileg$ dwell] 9 ^! ru/ic cages4 ,) ! rose1 he is an ess5tial "p ( ,arab poetry4 ,! woods r\nd ab\t ,?aga/e 7 full ( night+ales4 ,n ! lea/ d\bt t ! *ild ,augu/9 _h felt ! little musical ?roats ( ^! s++-birds ?rob betwe5 8 h&s4 ,8 s]mons1 8 heavie/ treatises1 h a recollection ( !m4 ,he draws f !m an evid5ce 9 fav\r ( ! creat+ ,^w :o has put beauty & h>mony ev]y:]e4 ,9 ! song ( ! night+ale he f9ds1 z x 71 an e*o ( ! music ( ! sph]es4 ,if he lov$ birds1 z a poet :o kn[s n t he is a poet1 did he love z well to play at nuts8 ,nuts1 or ?imble-rigg+1 is only a graceful & crafty game1 too crafty = a dream+ & c>eless little boy4 ,x calls = wat*fulness & pres5ce ( m9d4 ,gr[n m5 play at x z well z *ildr54 ,a /ep ( a /aircase is us$ z a table by ! play]s1 or ! pavem5t ( a c\rty>d4 ,?ree %ells are laid on ! /one & a dri$ pea4 ,!n1 ) rapid baffl+ movem5ts1 h&s br[n & al]t fly f "o %ell to ano!r1 %uffle !m1 mix !m up1 juggle ! dri$ pea sometimes "u ?is %ell1 sometimes "u t1--& ! po9t is to guess :i* %ell ! pea has got "u4 ,by means ( c]ta9 a/ute me?ods1 an artful play] c make ! pea /ick to 8 f+]s1 or to ! inside ( ! %ell1 & ! oppon5t loses e "t4 ,!y *eat ) a calm %amelessness4 ,augu/9 *eat$ too--:i* did n prev5t him f bitt]ly d5\nc+ ! *eat+ ( 8 fell[-play]s4 ,! tru? is1 t he w\ld n h q belong$ to 8 c\ntry if he _h n li$ & /ol5 n[ & !n4 ,he li$ to 8 tutor & to 8 s*oolma/]s4 ,he /ole at 8 p>5ts' table1 9 ! kit*51 & 9 ! cell>4 ,b he /ole l a man ( quality1 to make pres5ts & to w9 ov] 8 playfell[s3 he rul$ ! o!r boys by 8 pres5ts--a notewor?y *>act]i/ic 9 ?is future rul] ( s\ls4 ,morals l ^!1 a little r\gh1 %ape free & bold natures4 ,^? ,african *ildr5 7 mu* less coddl$1 mu* less scold$1 ?an to-day4 ,monnica _h some?+ else to d ?an to look aft] ! boys4 ,s = !m x 0 a cont9ual life 9 ! op5 air1 :i* makes ! body /rong & h>d4 ,augu/9 & 8 companions %\ld be pictur$ z "y wild-cats4 ,?is r\ghness came out /rong at games ( ball1 & g5]ally at all ! games 9 :i* !re are two sides1 conqu]ors & prison]s1 or fights ) /icks & /ones4 ,/one-?r[+ is an incurable habit among ! little ,africans4 ,ev5 n[ 9 ! t[ns our police are oblig$ to take measures aga9/ ^! f]oci\s *ildr54 ,9 ,augu/9's "t1 at ,*]*ell1 :i* is ! anci5t ,cs>ea ,mauretani1 ! *ildi% population 0 split into two ho/ile camps :i* /on$ ea* o!r4 ,on c]ta9 holidays ! fa!rs & big bro!rs jo9$ ! *ildr52 blood fl[$1 & !re 7 dea?s4 ,! bi%op ,augu/9 recalls ) sev]ity ! sup]b victories he won 9 j\/s ( ?is k9d4 ,b ,i f9d x h>d to believe t su* a delicate *ild 7he 0 sickly almo/ all 8 life7 c\ld h got mu* pleasure out ( ^! brutal sports4 ,if he 0 drawn into !m by ! example ( o!rs1 x mu/ h be5 ?r\gh ! imag9ation !y appeal$ to him4 ,9 ^! battles1 :]e9 sides took ! field z ,romans aga9/ ,c>?ag9ians1 ,greeks aga9/ ,trojans1 he believ$ himself ,scipio or ,hannibal1 ,a*illes or ,hector4 ,he exp]i5c$ be=eh&1 z a rhetorician1 ! intoxication ( a triumph :i* playfell[s :o 7 /rong] & bett] provid$ ) muscles gave him a h>d fight =4 ,he did n always get ! upp] h&1 except p]haps :5 he brib$ ! enemy4 ,b an eag] "y s\l1 su* z he 01 c h>dly be cont5t ) half-victories2 he wants to excel4 ,accord+ly1 he s\ght 8 rev5ge 9 ^? games :]e9 ! m9d has ! *ief "p4 ,he li/5$ to /ories ) delight1 & 9 8 turn repeat$ !m to 8 little fri5ds1 ?us try+ ^u an audi5ce ( boys t *>m ( spee* by :i* lat] he 0 to subdue cr[ds4 ,!y also play$ at act+1 at gladiators1 at driv]s & horses4 ,"s ( ,augu/9's companions 7 sons ( weal?y citiz5s :o gave spl5did ent]ta9m5ts to _! fell[-c\ntrym54 ,z ^! dramatic repres5tations1 or games ( ! ar5a or circus1 drew ne>1 ! little *ild-_w 0 ov]come by a fev] ( imitation4 ,all ! *ildr5 ( ,?aga/e imitat$ ! actors1 ! mirmillones1 or ! horsem5 9 ! amphi!atre1 j z ! "y ,spani>ds ( to-day imitate ! tor]os4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ^! amusem5ts ,augu/9 fell ill2 he _h fev] & viol5t pa9s 9 ! /oma*4 ,!y ?\ght he 0 go+ to die4 ,x appe>s t x 0 himself :o 9 ?is extreme situation ask$ = baptism4 ,monnica 0 mak+ all ha/e to h ! sacram5t adm9i/]$1 :5 sudd5ly1 aga9/ all expectation1 ! *ild recov]$4 ,aga9 0 baptism po/pon$1 & f ! same reason3 to less5 ! gravity ( ! s9s :i* "y ,augu/9 0 b\nd to commit4 ,8 "m1 :o no d\bt =esaw "s ( !m1 aga9 fell 9 ) ! cu/om4 ,x is possible t ,patricius int]f]$ ?is "t 9 a m decid$ way4 ,j at ?is p]iod ,ca?olicism 0 9 an unfav\rable situation4 ,! %ort reign ( ,julian _h />t$ a viol5t pagan reaction4 ,ev]y:]e ! temples 7 reop5+1 ! sacrifices beg9n+ aga94 ,moreov]1 ! ,donati/s secretly aid$ ! pagans4 ,_! ,seids1 m or less ackn[l$g$1 ! ,circoncelliones1 b&s ( fanatical peasants1 sc\r$ ?r\gh ! ,numidian c\ntry1 attack+ ! ,ca?olics1 ravag+ & pillag+1 & burn+ _! f>ms & villas4 ,0 ?is a good "t to make a noisy pr(ession ( fai?1 to be enroll$ among ! ranks ( ! conqu]$ p>ty8 ,little ,augu/9 knew no?+ ( all ^! calculations ( mo!rly prud5ce & fa!rly diplomacy3 he begg$ = baptism1 s he tells u4 ,?is seems v rem>kable 9 s "y a *ild4 ,b he liv$ 9 a h\se :]e all ! s]vice 0 done by ,*ri/ians4 ,he he>d ! talk ( ,monnica's fri5ds2 p]haps1 too1 ( 8 gr&p>5ts1 :o 7 ,ca?olics fai?ful & au/]e4 ,& !n1 8 s\l 0 naturally religi\s4 ,t expla9s ev]y?+3 he ask$ = baptism to be l gr[n-up p1 & because he 0 pr$e/9$4 ,among *ildr51 ! *os5 h ^! sudd5 fla%es ( light4 ,at c]ta9 mom5ts !y feel :at "o day !y %all be4 ,anyh[1 ,monnica mu/ h se5 ?is sign ) joy4 ,he got well1 & took up aga9 8 little boy's life1 divid$ betwe5 play1 & dawdl+1 & s*ool4 ,s*ool6 pa9ful memory = ,augu/96 ,!y s5t him to ! primus magi/]1 ! elem5t>y tea*]1 a real t]ror1 arm$ ) a long swit* :i* came d[n )\t pity on idle boys4 ,seat$ on b5*es ar\nd him1 or cr\*$ on mats1 ! boys sang out all toge!r3 ,"o & "o are two1 two & two are f\r--horrible refra9 :i* deaf5$ ! :ole neighb\rhood4 ,! s*ool 0 (t5 a m]e %$1 or a p]gola 9 ! fields :i* 0 protect$ fairly well f sun & ra9 by clo?s /ret*$ ov]head--a hut r5t$ = a trifle1 wide op5 to ! w9ds1 ) a mosquito-net /ret*$ out be=e ! entrance4 ,all :o 7 !re mu/ h froz5 9 w9t] & broil$ 9 summ]4 ,augu/9 rememb]$ x z a slaves' *a9-prison 7erga/ulum7 ( boyhood4 ,he hat$ s*ool & :at !y taught !re--! alphabet1 c\nt+1 & ! rudim5ts ( ,lat9 & ,greek gramm>4 ,he _h a p]fect horror ( lessons--( ,greek above all4 ,?is s*oolboy1 :o became1 :5 8 turn came1 a ma/]1 object$ to ! me?ods ( s*ool4 ,8 m9d1 :i* grasp$ ?+s in/9ctively at a s+le b\nd1 c\ld n /& ! gradual proc$ure ( ! tea*+ faculty4 ,he ei!r ma/]$ difficulties at once1 or gave !m up4 ,augu/9 0 "o ( ! num]\s victims ( ! ev]la/+ mi/ake ( s*oolma/]s1 :o d n "k h[ to arrange _! lessons to accord ) v>i\s k9ds ( m9d4 ,l mo/ ( ^? :o ev5tually become great m51 he 0 no good z a pupil4 ,he 0 (t5 puni%$1 ?ra%$--& cruelly ?ra%$4 ,! ma/]'s sc\rge fill$ him ) an unspeakable t]ror4 ,:5 he 0 sm>t+ all ov] f cuts & came to compla9 to 8 p>5ts1 !y laugh$ at him or made fun ( him--yes1 ev5 ! pi\s ,monnica4 ,!n ! poor lad1 n kn[+ :om to turn to1 rememb]$ he>+ 8 "m & ! s]vants talk ( a ,be+1 v p[]ful & v good1 :o def5ds ! orphan & ! oppress$4 ,& he said f ! dep?s ( 8 he>t3 ,o my ,god1 please grant t ,i am n :ipp$ at s*ool4 ,b ,god did n he> 8 pray] because he 0 n a good boy4 ,augu/9 0 9 despair4 ,x is evid5t t ^! puni%m5ts 7 cruel1 because =ty ye>s aft]w>ds he d5\nces !m ) horror4 ,9 8 m9d1 !y are tortures comp>able to ! wood5 horse or ! iron p9c]s4 ,no?+ is small = *ildr51 especially = a s5sitive *ild l ,augu/94 ,_! s5sitiv5ess & _! imag9ation exagg]ate all ?+s out ( due measure4 ,9 ?is matt]1 also1 s*oolma/]s (t5 g wrong4 ,!y d n "k h[ to h&le delicate organizations4 ,!y /rike fi]cely1 :5 a few words said at ! "r mom5t w\ld h mu* m effect on ! culprit4444 ,monnica's son suff]$ z mu* f ! rod z he took pride 9 8 successes at games4 ,if1 z ,scipio1 he 0 fill$ ) a s5sation ( glory 9 8 battles aga9/ o!r boys1 no d\bt he pictur$ himself a m>tyr1 a ,/4 ,laur5ce or ,/4 ,seba/ian1 :5 he 0 swi%$4 ,he nev] p>don$--save z a ,*ri/ian--8 s*oolma/]s = hav+ brutaliz$ him4 ,nev]!less1 despite 8 hatr$ = ill-ord]$ lessons1 8 precoci\s intellig5ce 0 rem>k$ by ev]ybody4 ,x 0 cle> t su* lucky gifts %\ld n be neglect$4 ,monnica1 no d\bt1 0 ! fir/ to get ?is into h] head1 & %e advis$ ,patricius to make ,augu/9 read = a le>n$ pr(ession4 ,! bus9ess ( ! curia 0 n exactly brilliant1 & s he may h p]ceiv$ t 8 son might raise _! =tunes if he _h def9ite employm5t4 ,augu/91 a pr(essor ( eloqu5ce or a celebrat$ plead]1 might be ! savi\r & ! b5efactor ( 8 family4 ,! t[n c\ncils1 & ev5 ! ,imp]ial treasury1 paid l>ge sal>ies to rhetoricians4 ,9 ^? days1 rhetoric l$ to ev]y?+4 ,"s ( ! pr(essors :o w5t f t[n to t[n giv+ lectures made consid]able =tunes4 ,at ,?aga/e !y po9t$ ) admiration to ! example ( ! rhetorician ,victor9us1 an ,african1 a fell[-c\ntryman1 :o _h made a big reputation ov]-seas1 & _h 8 /atue 9 ! ,roman ,=um4 ,& _m ye>s be=e1 _h n ,m4 ,cornelius ,fronto1 ( ,cirta1 ano!r ,african1 become ! tutor ( ,m>cus ,aurelius1 :o cov]$ him ) hon\rs & weal? & f9ally rais$ him to ! ,consul%ip8 ,p]t9ax himself1 did he n beg9 z a simple tea*] ( gramm>1 & become ,proconsul ( ,africa & !n ,emp]or ( ,rome8 ,h[ _m /imulants = prov9cial ambition6444 ,augu/9's p>5ts reason$ z ! middle-class p>5ts ( to-day4 ,!y disc\nt$ ! future1 & h[ev] h>d up !y 71 !y resolv$ to make sacrifices = 8 education4 ,& z ! s*ools ( ,?aga/e 7 inadequate1 x 0 decid$ to s5d ?is v promis+ boy to ,madaura4 ,v ,,! ,,s*oolboy ,,( ,,madaura ,a new _w op5$ be=e ,augu/94 ,x 0 p]haps ! fir/ "t he _h ev] gone away f ,?aga/e4 ,( c\rse1 ,madaura is n v f> (f2 !re are ab\t ?irty miles at mo/ betwe5 ! two t[ns4 ,b !re are no %ort j\rneys = *ildr54 ,?is "o lay along ! milit>y road :i* ran f ,hippo to ,!ve/e--a great ,roman causeway pav$ ) l>ge flags on ! outskirts ( t[ns1 & c>efully pebbl$ ov] all ! re/ ( ! di/ance4 ,erect ^u ! high saddle ( 8 horse1 ,augu/91 :o 0 to become a tireless travell] & move ab\t ceaselessly ov] ,african roads dur+ all 8 episcopal life--,augu/9 got 8 fir/ glimpse ( ! poetry ( ! op5 road1 a poetry :i* we h lo/ = ev]4 ,h[ amus+ !y 71 ! ,african roads ( ^? days1 h[ full ( sights6 ,pauses 7 made at inns ) walls ?ick z ! ramp>ts ( citadels1 _! int]iors bord]$ by /ables built 9 arcades1 heap$ up ) travell]s' packs & h>ness4 ,9 ! c5tre 7 ! tr\gh & ci/]n2 & to ! little rooms op5+ 9 a circle on to ! balcony1 drift$ up a smell ( oil & fodd]1 & ! noise ( m5 & ( bea/s ( bur!n1 & ( ! camels z !y ent]$ maje/ically1 curv+ _! long necks "u ! l9tel ( ! door4 ,!n !re 0 talk ) ! m]*ants1 j arriv$ f ! s\?1 :o br\ght news ( ! nomad c\ntries1 & _h /ories to tell4 ,& !n1 )\t hurry+1 a />t 0 made aga9 = ! next /age4 ,long files ( *>iots 7 enc\nt]$ c>ry+ provisions to soldi]s g>rison$ on ! fronti]1 or ! ,/ate-di/ribut$ corn ( ! ,roman p to ! sea-ports2 or aga91 f "t to "t1 ! lectica1 br\ght along by slaves or mules1 ( a bi%op on a visitation2 & !n ! litt]1 ) close-drawn curta9s1 ( a matron or "s great p]sonage4 ,( a sudd5 all pull$ %>p to "o side2 ! vehicles l9$ up on ! edge ( ! road2 & !re pass$ at full spe$1 9 a cl\d ( du/1 a mess5g] ( ! ,imp]ial ,po/4444 ,c]ta9ly ?is road f ,hippo to ,!ve/e 0 "o ( ! busie/ & mo/ picturesque 9 ! prov9ce3 x 0 "o ( its ma9 art]ies4 ,at fir/ ! look ( ! c\ntry is r l ! neighb\rhood ( ,?aga/e4 ,! wood$ & m\nta9\s l&scape /ill spreads out its little brea/-%ap$ hills & its %eets ( v]dure4 ,"h & !re ! road skirts ! deeply-rav9$ valley ( ! ,m$j]da4 ,at ! foot ( ! precipit\s slopes1 ! riv] c be he>d brawl+ 9 a torr5t ov] its /ony b$1 & !re are %>p desc5ts among ?ickets ( junip] & ! fr+$ roots ( ! dw>f-p9es4 ,!n1 z ! desc5t cont9ues1 ! l& becomes ?9n] & spaces b>e ( vegetation appe> (t5]4 ,at la/1 ^u a piece ( tablel&1 ,madaura comes into view1 all :ite 9 ! mid/ ( ! va/ tawny pla91 :]e to-day no?+ is to be se5 b a mausoleum 9 ru9s1 ! rema9s ( a ,byzant9e =tress1 & vague traces vani%+ away4 ,?is is ! fir/ rise ( ! great pla9 :i* decl9es t[>ds ,!ve/e & ! gr\p ( ! ,aures ,m\nta9s4 ,com+ f ! woodl& c\ntry ( ,?aga/e1 ! nak$ness ( x is />tl+4 ,"h & !re1 ?9 c[s crop />vel+ %rubs :i* h gr[n on ! bank ( "s ou$ run dry4 ,little asses1 turn$ loose1 save !mselves at a gallop t[>ds ! t5ts ( ! nomads1 spread out1 black & hairy1 l imm5se bats on ! :it5ess ( ! l&4 ,ne>]1 a woman's r$ haick int]poses1 ! s+le /a9 ( bright col\r break+ ! indef9ite br[n & grey ( ! pla94 ,"h is felt ! h>%ness ( ,numidia2 x is almo/ ! />k spaces ( ! des]t _w4 ,b on ! side t[>ds ! ea/1 ! ar*itecture ( m\nta9s1 wildly sculptur$1 /&s aga9/ ! level rea*es ( ! horizon4 ,^u ! cle> backgr\nd ( ! sky1 %ew1 di/9ctly1 lat]al spurs & a cone l to ! my/ic repres5tation ( ,tanit4 ,t[>ds ! s\?1 crumbl+ isolat$ crags appe>1 scatt]$ ab\t l gigantic p$e/als uncr[n$ ( _! /atues1 or l ! pipes ( an organ rais$ !re to capture & attune ! cry ( ! great w9ds ( ! /eppe4 ,?is c\ntry is *>act]iz$ by a diff]5t k9d ( en]gy f ,?aga/e4 ,!re is m air & light & space4 ,if ! plantation is sp>se1 ! beautiful %ape ( ! l& may be obs]v$ all ! bett]4 ,no?+ breaks or less5s ! gr& effects ( ! light4444 ,& let no "o say t ,augu/9's eyes c>$ n = all t1 he :o wrote aft] 8 conv]sion1 & 9 all ! au/]ity ( 8 rep5tance3 ,if s5ti5t ?+s _h n a s\l1 we %\ld n love !m s mu*4 ,x is "h1 betwe5 ,madaura & ,?aga/e1 dur+ ! eag] ye>s ( y\?1 t he ga!r$ toge!r ! se$s ( s5sations & images :i*1 lat] on1 7 to bur/ =? into fi]y & boil+ metaphors 9 ! ,confessions1 & 9 8 homilies & p>aphrases ( ,holy ,scripture4 ,lat] on1 he w n h ! "t to obs]ve1 or he w h lo/ ! p[]4 ,rhetoric w /ret* its commonplace veil betwe5 him & ! unceas+ spr+tide ( ! e>?4 ,ambition w turn him away f ^? sights :i* reveal !mselves only to he>ts unselfi% & indiff]5t4 ,!n1 lat] on1 ,fai? w seize hold ( him to ! exclusion ( all else4 ,he w no long] p]ceive ! creation save at odd mom5ts 9 a k9d ( metaphysical dream1 &1 s to speak1 across ! glory ( ! ,creator4 ,b 9 ^! y\?ful ye>s all ?+s bur/ ^u him ) extraord9>y viol5ce & ec/asy4 ,8 undull$ s5ses swall[$ gre$ily ! :ole banquet (f]$ by ?is wide _w to 8 hung] = pleasure4 ,! fugitive beauty ( ?+s & be+s1 ) all _! *>ms1 reveal$ itself to him 9 its newness3 novissim>um r]um fugaces pul*ritud9es1 e>umque suavitates4 ,?is crav+ = s5sation w /ill exi/ 9 ! great ,*ri/ian tea*]1 & betray itself 9 ! w>m & col\r$ figures ( 8 /yle4 ,( c\rse1 he 0 n z a worldly describ]1 :o /udies to produce phrases :i* pres5t an image1 or arranges glitt]+ pictures--all su* endeav\rs he knew no?+ ab\t4 ,b by in/9ct1 & ?anks to 8 w>m ,african temp]am5t1 he 0 a k9d ( impressioni/ & metaphysical poet4 ,if ! rural l&scape ( ,?aga/e is reflect$ 9 c]ta9 passages--! pleasante/ & mo/ well kn[n--( ! ,confessions1 all ! intellectual "p ( ,augu/9's "w f9ds its symbolical comm5t>y "h 9 ?is arid & light-spla%$ pla9 ( ,madaura4 ,l x1 ! ?\ght ( ,augu/9 has no %ad[s4 ,l x too1 x is light5$ by /range & spl5did t9ts :i* seem to come f f> (f1 f a focal fire invisible to human eyes4 ,no mod]n writ] has bett] prais$ ! light--n only ! immortal light ( ! bless$1 b t light :i* re/s on ! ,african fields1 & is on l& & sea2 & nobody has spok5 ( x ) m amplitude & wond]4 ,! tru? is1 t 9 no c\ntry 9 ! _w1 n ev5 9 ,egypt1 9 ! rose-col\r$ l&s ( ,k>nak & ,luxor1 is ! light m pure & admirable ?an 9 ^! great b>e pla9s ( ,numidia & ! region ( ! ,sah>a4 ,is !re n en*antm5t = ! eyes ( ! metaphysician 9 ?is play ( light1 ^! nameless int]fulg5t col\rs :i* appe> flimsy z ! play ( ?\ght8 ,= ! gl[+ float+ haze is made ( no?+--( l9es1 ( gleam1 ( unregulat$ spl5d\r4 ,& all ?is triumph ( fluctuat+ light & elusive col\r is qu5*$ ) ! sun1 sm\ld]s into d>kness1 ev5 z ideas 9 ! obscure dep?s ( ! intellig5ce :i* reposes4444 ,n less ?an ?is l&1 /]n ev5 to sadness1 b hot & sumptu\s1 ! t[n ( ,madaura mu/ h impress$ ,augu/94 ,x 0 an old ,numidian city1 pr\d ( its antiquity4 ,long be=e ! ,roman conque/1 x _h be5 a =tress ( ,k+ ,syphax4 ,aft]w>ds1 ! conqu]ors settl$ !re1 & 9 ! second c5tury ( our era1 ,apuleius1 ! mo/ fam\s ( its *ildr51 c\ld /ate be=e a proconsul1 n )\t pride1 t ,madaura 0 a v prosp]\s colony4 ,x is probable t ?is old t[n 0 n s mu* ,romaniz$ z its neighb\rs1 ,?imgad & ,lambesa1 :i* 7 ( rec5t f\ndation & _h be5 built all at once by decree ( ! ,gov]nm5t4 ,b x may well h be5 z ,roman z ,!ve/e1 a no less anci5t city1 :]e ! population 0 probably j z mix$4 ,madaura1 l ,!ve/e1 _h its temples ) pill>s & ,cor9?ian porticoes1 its triumphal ar*es 7^! 7 run up ev]y:]e71 its =um surr\nd$ by a cov]$ gall]y & peopl$ ) /atues4 ,/atues also 7 v lib]ally di/ribut$ 9 ^? days4 ,we "k ( at lea/ ?ree at ,madaura :i* ,augu/9 m5tions 9 "o ( 8 lett]s3 ,a god ,m>s 9 8 h]oic nak$ness1 & ano!r ,m>s arm$ f head to foot2 opposite1 ! /atue ( a man1 9 reali/ic /yle1 /ret*+ out ?ree f+]s to neutralize ! evil eye4 ,^! famili> figures rema9$ v cle> 9 ! recollection ( ,augu/94 ,9 ! ev5+1 or at ! h\r ( ! sie/a1 he _h /ret*$ himself "u _! p$e/als & play$ at dice or bones 9 ! cool %ade ( ! god ,m>s1 or ( ! ,man ) out/ret*$ f+]s4 ,! slabs ( m>ble ( ! portico made a good place to play or sleep4 ,among ^! /atues1 !re 0 "o p]haps :i* int]e/$ ! lad & /imulat$ all 8 e>ly ambitions--t ( ,apuleius1 ! great man ( ,madaura1 ! orator1 philosoph]1 sorc]]1 :o 0 spok5 ( f "o end to ! o!r ( ,africa4 ,by d9t ( gaz+ at ?is1 & li/5+ to ! praises ( ! great local au?or1 did ! "y s*ol> become aw>e ( 8 vocation8 ,did he h f ?is "t a confus$ sort ( wi% to become "o day ano!r ,apuleius1 a ,*ri/ian ,apuleius--to surpass ! reputation ( ?is celebrat$ pagan8 ,^! impressions & admirations ( y\? h always a m or less direct influ5ce ^u :at use a boy makes ( 8 tal5ts4 ,be t z x w1 ,augu/9 c\ld n take a /ep 9 ,madaura )\t runn+ aga9/ ! leg5d ( ,apuleius1 :o 0 become almo/ a div9ity = 8 fell[-c\ntrym54 ,he 0 look$ ^u n only z a sage1 b z a mo/ wily nigromanc]4 ,! pagans comp>$ him to ,*ri/--nay1 put him high] ?an ,*ri/4 ,9 _! view he _h work$ mu* m a/oni%+ miracles ?an ^? ( ,jesus or ( ,apollonius ( ,tyana4 ,& p told ! extravagant /ories out ( 8 ,metamorphoses z real1 z hav+ actually happ5$4 ,no?+ 0 se5 on all sides b wiz>ds1 m5 *ang$ into animals1 animals1 or m5 & wom51 "u "s spell4 ,9 ! inns1 a man wat*$ ) a suspici\s look ! ways ( ! maids]vant :o p\r$ out 8 dr9k or h&$ him a di%4 ,p]haps "s magic potion 0 m+l$ ) ! *eese or bread t %e 0 lay+ on ! table4 ,x 0 an atmosph]e ( fev]i% & deliri\s cr$ulity4 ,! pagan madness got ! bett] ( ! ,*ri/ians !mselves4 ,augu/91 :o _h liv$ 9 ?is atmosph]e1 w lat] f9d consid]able tr\ble 9 ma9ta9+ 8 /rong common s5se amid su* an ov]fl[ ( m>vels4 ,= ! mom5t1 ! fantasy ( tales fill$ him ) at lea/ z mu* en?usiasm z ! sup]natural4 ,at ,madaura he liv$ 9 a miracul\s _w1 :]e ev]y?+ *>m$ 8 s5ses & 8 m9d1 & ev]y?+ /imulat$ 8 precoci\s in/9ct = ,beauty4 ,m ?an ,?aga/e1 no d\bt1 ,madaura bore ! m>ks ( ! build+ g5ius ( ! ,romans4 ,ev5 to-day _! desc5dants1 ! ,italians1 are ! masons ( ! _w1 aft] hav+ be5 ! ar*itects4 ,! ,romans 7 ! build+ nation above all o!rs4 ,!y x 0 :o rais$ & e/abli%$ t[ns ^u ! same model & accord+ to ! same ideal z an oration or a poem4 ,!y really inv5t$ ! h\se1 mansio1 n only ! %elt] :]e "o lives1 b ! build+ :i* itself lives1 :i* triumphs ov] ye>s & c5turies1 a huge con/ruction ornam5tal & sightly1 exi/+ z mu*--& p]haps m--= ! delight ( ! eyes z = usefulness4 ,! h\se1 ! ,t[n-)-deep-/reets1 p]fectly ord]$1 7 a great matt] ( amazem5t = ! ,african nomad--he :o passes & nev] settles d[n any:]e4 ,he hat$ !m1 d\btless1 z ! haunts ( ! soldi] & ! publican1 8 oppressors1 b he also reg>d$ !m ) admiration mix$ ) jeal\sy z ! true expression ( a race :i*1 :5 x ent]$ a c\ntry1 plant$ itself = et]nity1 & claim$ to jo9 magnific5ce & beauty to ! manife/ation ( its /r5g?4 ,! ,roman ru9s :i* are scatt]$ ov] mod]n ,alg]ia humiliate ourselves by _! pomp--u :o flatt] ourselves t we are resum+ ! "w ( ! ,empire & cont9u+ its tradition4 ,!y are a p]man5t reproa* to our m$iocrity1 a cont9ual incitem5t to gr&eur & beauty4 ,( c\rse1 ! ,roman ar*itecture c\ld n h _h on ,augu/91 ?is /ill un=m$ "y ,african1 ! same effect z x has to-day on a ,fr5*man or a man f ,nor!rn ,europe4 ,b x is c]ta9 t x =m$1 )\t 8 k1 8 ?\ght & 8 p[] ( s5sation1 & ext5d$ = him ! lessons ( ! ,lat9 rhetoricians & gramm>ians4 ,all t 0 n exactly v ,*ri/ian4 ,b f ^! e>ly s*ool ye>s ,augu/9 got fur!r & fur!r away f ,*ri/ianity1 & ! examples he _h "u 8 eyes1 at ,madaura 7 h>dly likely to /r5g!n him 9 8 fai?4 ,x 0 h>dly an edify+ atmosph]e !re = a ,ca?olic y\? :o _h a lively imag9ation1 a pleasure-lov+ temp]am5t1 & :o lik$ pagan lit]ature4 ,! greate/ "p ( ! population 7 pagans1 especially among ! ari/ocrats4 ,! ,decurions cont9u$ to preside at fe/ivals 9 hon\r ( ! old idols4 ,^! fe/ivals 7 frequ5t4 ,! lea/ excuse 0 tak5 to eng>l& pi\sly ! doors ( h\ses ) bran*es1 to ble$ ! sacrificial pig1 or slaught] ! lamb4 ,9 ! ev5+1 squ>es & /reet corn]s 7 illum9at$4 ,little c&les burn$ on all ! ?re%olds4 ,dur+ ! my/]ies ( ,bac*us1 ! t[n c\ncillors !mselves head$ ! popul> rejoic+s4 ,x 0 an ,african c>nival1 brutal & full ( col\r4 ,p got tipsy1 pret5d$ !y 7 mad4 ,= ! sport ( ! ?+1 !y assault$ ! pass]s & robb$ !m4 ,! dull bl[s on tamb\r9es1 ! hy/]ical & nasal preludes ( ! flutes1 excit$ an imm5se elation1 at once s5sual & my/ic4 ,& all quiet$ d[n among ! cups & lea!r flagons ( w9e1 ! grease & meats ( banquets 9 ! op5 air4 ,ev5 9 a c\ntry z sob] z ,africa1 ! pagan fea/s 7 nev] mu* else ?an excuses = gorg+ & orgies4 ,augu/91 :o aft] 8 conv]sion _h only s>casms = ! c>nival ( ,madaura1 d\btless w5t ) ! cr[d1 l _m o!r ,*ri/ians4 ,ri* & influ5tial p gave ! example4 ,!re 0 dang] ( annoy+ !m by mak+ a gr\p ap>t4 ,& !n1 !re 0 no resi/+ ! agreeabl5ess ( su* fe/ivals4 ,p]haps he 0 ev5 br\ght to ^! love-fea/s by ^? 9 ^: *>ge he 04 ,=1 9 fact1 to :om _h he be5 entru/$8 ,d\btless to "s ho/ ( ,patricius1 a pagan l himself4 ,or did he lodge ) 8 ma/]1 a gramm>ian1 :o kept a bo>d+-h\se = ! boys8 ,almo/ all ^! s*oolma/]s 7 pagan too4 ,is x wond]ful t ! ,*ri/ian lessons ( ,monnica & ! nurses at ,?aga/e became m & m blurr$ 9 ,augu/9's m9d8 ,_m ye>s aft]1 an old ,madaura gramm>ian1 call$ ,maximus1 wrote to him 9 a tone ( lov+ reproa*3 ,?\ ha/ drawn away f u--a secta no/ra devia/i4 ,did he wi% to h9t t at ?is "t ,augu/9 _h glid$ into paganism8 ,no?+ is m unlikely4 ,he himself assures u t ! "n ( ,*ri/ rema9$ always grav5 on 8 he>t4 ,b :ile he 0 at ,madaura he liv$ indiff]5tly ) pagans & ,*ri/ians4 ,besides t1 ! tea*+ he got 0 altoge!r pagan 9 tone4 ,no d\bt he pick$ out1 z he always did1 ! subjects :i* suit$ him4 ,m9ds su* z 8 fl+ !mselves ^u t :i* is likely to n\ri% !m3 !y ?r[ aside all ! re/1 or suff] x v unwill+ly4 ,?us ,augu/9 nev] wav]$ 9 8 dislike = ,greek3 he 0 a poor ,greek s*ol>4 ,he dete/$ ! ,greeks by in/9ct4 ,accord+ to ,we/]n prejudice1 ^! m5 ( ! ,ea/ 7 all rascals or amus]s4 ,augu/91 z a practical ,african1 always reg>d$ ! ,greeks z va91 disc\rs+ wits4 ,9 a ^w1 !y 7 n s9c]e p :om x w\ld be safe to tru/4 ,! entirely local patriotism ( ! classical ,greek au?ors fur!r annoy$ ?is ,roman citiz5 :o 0 us$ to reg>d ! _w z 8 c\ntry3 he ?\ght !m v n>r[-m9d$ to take s mu* int]e/ 9 ! hi/ory ( "s little t[n4 ,z = him1 he look$ high] & f>!r4 ,x mu/ be rememb]$ t 9 ! second half ( ! f\r? c5tury ! ,greek attitude1 broad5$ & fully consci\s ( itself1 set itself m & m aga9/ ,lat9ism1 above all1 politically4 ,!re x lay1 a ho/ile & imp5etrable block be=e ! ,we/]n peoples4 ,& "h 0 a /rong] reason = a ,romaniz$ ,african to dislike ! ,greeks4 ,s he pa9fully con/ru$ ! ,iliad & ,odyssey1 v cross at ! difficulties ( a =eign language :i* prev5t$ him f grasp+ ! plots ( ! f9e1 fabul\s n>ratives4 ,!re 71 h[ev]1 abridgm5ts us$ 9 ! s*ools1 a k9d ( summ>ies ( ! ,trojan ,w>1 writt5 by ,lat9 gramm>ians "u ! odd pseudonyms ( ,d>es ! ,phrygian & ,dictys ( ,crete4 ,b ^! abridgm5ts 7 v dry = an imag9ation l ,augu/9's4 ,he mu* pref]r$ ! neid1 ! poem admir$ above all by ! ,africans1 on acc\nt ( ! episode devot$ to ! f\ndation ( ,c>?age4 ,virgil 0 8 passion4 ,he read & re-read him cont9ually2 he knew him by he>t4 ,to ! end ( 8 life1 9 8 sev]e/ writ+s1 he quot$ v]ses or :ole passages out ( 8 mu*-lov$ poet4 ,dido's adv5ture mov$ him to te>s4 ,!y _h to pluck ! book out ( 8 h&s4 ,n[ ! reason is t !re 0 a secret h>mony betwe5 ,virgil's s\l & ! s\l ( ,augu/94 ,bo? 7 graci\s & s]i\s4 ,"o1 ! great poet1 & "o1 ! humble s*oolboy1 !y bo? _h pity on ! ,que5 ( ,c>?age1 !y w\ld h lik$ to save h]1 or at any rate to mitigate h] sadness1 to alt] a little ! call\sness ( neas & ! h>%ness ( ! ,fates4 ,b ?9k ( x6 ,love is a div9e sickness1 a *a/isem5t s5t by ! gods4 ,x is j1 :5 all's said1 t ! guilty "o %\ld endure h] agony to ! v end4 ,& !n1 su* v great ?+s are go+ to arise out ( ?is poor love6 ,^u x dep5ds ! lot ( two ,empires4 ,:at c\nts a woman be=e ,rome & ,c>?age8 ,besides1 %e 0 b\nd to p]i%3 ! gods _h decre$ x4444 ,!re 0 9 all t a conc5trat$ emotion1 a dep? ( s5tim5t1 a religi\s appeal :i* /irr$ ,augu/9's he>t1 /ill unaw>e ( itself4 ,?is ob$i5ce ( ! ,virgilian h]o to ! heav5ly w1 0 already an adumbration ( ! humility ( ! future ,*ri/ian4 ,c]ta9ly1 ,augu/9 did n p]ceive v pla9ly 9 ^! turbid ye>s ( 8 y\? ! full religi\s significance ( ,virgil's poem4 ,c>ri$ away by 8 head/rong nature1 he yield$ to ! he>t-r5d+ *>m ( ! romantic /ory3 he liv$ x1 lit]ally1 ) ! h]o9e4 ,:5 8 s*oolma/]s desir$ him to elaborate ! lam5t ( ! dy+ ,que5 ,dido 9 ,lat9 prose1 :at he wrote _h a v]itable quiv] ( angui%4 ,)\t ! lea/ def5ce aga9/ lu/ & ! delusions ( ! he>t1 he sp5t intellectually & 9 a s+le outbur/ all ! /r5g? ( passion4 ,he absorb$ e love-poem ) ! eag]ness ( a p>ticipat+ s\l4 ,if he took pleasure 9 ! lic5ti\sness ( ,plautus & ,t]5ce1 if he read delightfully ^? com$ies :]e9 ! wor/ weaknesses are excus$ & glorifi$1 ,i believe t he took /ill m pleasure 9 ! ,lat9 ,elegiacs :o pres5t )\t any %ame ! romantic madness ( ,alex&r9e love4 ,= :at s+ ^! poets ev5 to we>9ess1 unless x be t no "o c resi/ ! ,cyprian goddess1 t life has no o!r end b love8 ,love = itself1 to love = ! sake ( lov+--!re is ! con/ant subject ( ^! s5suali/s1 ( ,catullus1 ,prop]tius1 ,tibullus1 ,ovid4 ,aft] ! /ory ( ,dido1 ! y\?ful read] 0 ravi%$ by ! /ory ( ,ariadne1 ev5 m di/urb+1 because no remorse modifies ! fr5zy ( x4 ,he read3 ,n[ :ile ! c>eless h]o flees1 beat+ ! wave ) 8 & ca/+ to ! gales ( ! op5 sea 8 idle promises1--!re1 /&+ among ! %+le ( ! bea*1 ! daught] ( ,m9os foll[s him1 alas6 ) h] beautiful sad eyes3 %e />es1 a/oni$1 l to a ,bac*ante *ang$ into a /atue4 ,%e looks =?1 & h] he>t floats ^u ! great waves ( h] grief4 ,%e lets slip f h] head h] f9e-spun coif1 %e te>s away ! ?9 veils :i* cov] h] bosom1 & ! smoo? c9cture :i* supports h] quiv]+ brea/s4 ,all t slips f h] body into ! salt foam :i* ripples r\nd h] feet4 ,b little %e c>es = h] coif or = h] app>el c>ri$ away by ! tide6 ,lo/1 bewild]$1 ) all h] he>t & all h] s\l1 %e is cl++ to !e1 ,o ,!seus4 ,& if ,augu/91 :5 he _h read ^! burn+ v]ses ( ,catullus1 look$ ?r\gh ! ,an?ologies :i* 7 popul> 9 ! ,african s*ools1 he w\ld come ^u ,! ,vigil ( ,v5us1 t eclogue :i* ends ) su* a passionate cry3 ,o my spr+time1 :5 wilt ?\ come8 ,:5 %all ,i be z ! swall[8 ,:5 %all ,i cease to be sil5t8444 ,may he love to-morr[1 he has n lov$ yet4 ,& he :o has already lov$1 may he love aga9 to-morr[4 ,imag9e ! effect ( su* exhortations on a y\? ( fifte56 ,truly1 ?is spr+tide ( love1 :i* ! poet cries = 9 8 di/ress1 ! son ( ,monnica knew well 0 come = him4 ,h[ he mu/ h li/5$ to ! musical & melan*oly c\nsellor :o told 8 pa9 to ! leaves ( ! book6 ,:at /imulant & :at food = 8 boyi% long+s & dreams6 ,& :at a div9e *orus ( beauties ! great love-h]o9es ( anci5t epic & elegy1 ,hel51 ,m$ea1 ,ariadne1 ,phdra1 =m$ & re-=m$ cont9ually 9 8 dazzl$ memory6 ,:5 we ( to-day read su* v]ses at ,augu/9's age1 "s bitt]ness is mix$ ) our delight4 ,^! h]oes & h]o9es are too f> f u4 ,^! almo/ *im]ical be+s )draw f u into outly+ l&s1 to a vani%$ _w :i* w nev] come aga94 ,b = ,augu/91 ?is 0 ! _w he 0 born into--x 0 8 pagan ,africa :]e pleasure 0 ! :ole ( life1 & "o liv$ only = ! lu/s ( ! fle%4 ,& ! race ( fabul\s pr9cesses--!y 7 n dead1 ^? ladies3 !y 7 ev] wait+ = ! well-belov$ 9 ! palaces at ,c>?age4 ,yes1 ! s*ol> ( ,madaura liv$ wond]ful h\rs1 dream+ ?us ( love betwe5 ! pages ( ! poets4 ,^! "y dreams be=e love comes are m bewit*+ ?an love itself3 a :ole unkn[n _w sudd5ly discov]$ & ent]$ ) a quiv]+ joy ( discov]y at ea* /ep4 ,! unus$ /r5g? ( illusion appe>s inexhau/ible1 space becomes deep] & ! he>t m /rong4444 ,a long "t aft]w>ds1 :51 recov]$ f all t1 ,augu/9 speaks to u ( ! ,div9e love1 he w "k fully ! inf9ite value ( x f hav+ gone ?r\gh all ! pa9ful entrancem5ts ( ! o!r4 ,& he w say to u1 ) ! sur5ess ( exp]i5ce3 ,! pleasure ( ! human he>t 9 ! light ( tru? & ! abundance ( wisdom--yea1 ! pleasure ( ! human he>t1 ( ! fai?ful he>t1 & ( ! he>t :i* is holy1 /&s alone4 ,y w f9d no?+ 9 any voluptu\sness fit to be comp>$ to x4 ,i say n t ?is o!r pleasure is less1 = t :i* is call$ less ha? only to increase to become equal4 ,no1 ,i %all n say t all o!r pleasure is less4 ,no comp>ison c be made4 ,x is ano!r k9d1 x is ano!r reality4 ,,vi ,,! ,,holidays ,,at ,,?aga/e ,9 ! city ( ,apuleius1 ! ,*ri/ian ,monnica's son became simply a pagan4 ,he 0 ne> 8 sixte5? ye>3 ! awkw>d "t ( e>ly virility 0 beg9n+ = him4 ,prep>$ at ,madaura1 x sudd5ly bur/ out at ,?aga/e4 ,augu/9 came back to 8 p>5ts1 no d\bt dur+ ! vacation4 ,b ?is vacation la/$ p]haps a :ole ye>4 ,he _h come to ! end ( 8 juv5ile /udies4 ,! gramm>ians at ,madaura c\ld tea* him no?+ m4 ,to r\nd (f 8 acquirem5ts1 x w\ld be necess>y to att5d ! lectures ( "s well-kn[n rhetorician4 ,n[ !re 7 v good rhetoricians only at ,c>?age4 ,besides1 x 0 a fa%ion1 & po9t ( hon\r1 = ,numidian families to s5d _! sons to f9i% _! education 9 ! prov9cial capital4 ,patricius 0 mo/ eag] to d ?is = 8 son1 :o at ,madaura _h %ewn himself a v brilliant pupil & ought n !re=e to be pull$ up half-way d[n ! c\rse4 ,b ! life ( a /ud5t co/ a good deal1 & ,patricius _h no money4 ,8 affairs 7 always muddl$4 ,he 0 oblig$ to wait = ! r5ts f 8 f>ms1 to gr9d d[n 8 t5ants1 &1 ultimately1 despair+ ( any o!r way out ( x1 to ask = an advance ( money f a ri* patron4 ,t ne$$ "t & diplomacy4 ,days & mon?s w5t by1 & ,augu/91 ) no?+ to d1 jo9$ 9 ) easily-made fri5ds & gave himself up to ! pleasures ( 8 "t ( life1 l all ! "y t[nsm5 ( ,?aga/e--pleasures r r\gh & little v>i\s1 su* z 7 to be got 9 a little free-t[n ( ^? days1 & z !y h rema9$ = ! natives ( to-day1 :e!r !y live a t[n or c\ntry life4 ,to hunt1 to ride horseback1 to play at games ( *ance1 to dr9k1 eat1 & make love--!y want$ no?+ beyond t4 ,:5 ,augu/9 9 8 ,confessions accuses himself ( 8 y\?ful escapades he uses ! mo/ sca?+ language4 ,he speaks ( !m ) horror & disgu/4 ,once m we are tempt$ to believe t he exagg]ates ?r\gh an excess ( ,*ri/ian remorse4 ,!re are ev5 "s :o1 put on _! gu>d by ?is vehem5t tone1 h que/ion$ ! hi/orical value ( ! ,confessions4 ,!y argue t :5 ! ,bi%op ( ,hippo wrote ^! ?+s 8 views & feel+s _h alt]$4 ,he c\ld no long] judge ) ! same eye & 9 ! same _s ! happ5+s ( 8 y\?4 ,all ?is is only too c]ta93 :5 he wrote1 x 0 z a ,*ri/ian he judg$ himself1 & n z a cold hi/orian :o refuses to g beyond ! brutal fact4 ,he tri$ to unravel ! orig9 & to trace ! consequ5ces ( ! humble/ ( 8 actions1 because ?is is ( ! highe/ importance = salvation4 ,b h[ev] sev]e 8 judgm5t may be1 x does n impair ! reality ( ! fact itself4 ,moreov]1 9 natures l 81 acts :i* o!rs w\ld h>dly ?9k ( h a vibration out ( all proportion ) ! act itself4 ,! evil ( s9 dep5ds ^u ! consci\sness ( ! s9 & ! pleasure tak5 9 x4 ,augu/9 0 v intellig5t & v s5sual4 ,9 any case1 "y ,africans develop e>ly1 & ! le*]y ( ! race is prov]bial4 ,x mu/ h be5 a good deal /rong] at a "t :5 ,*ri/ianity /ill _h to fight aga9/ pagan slackness 9 ^! matt]s1 ere ,islam _h impos$ its hypocritical au/]ity ^u ! g5]al conduct4 ,!re is ev5 room = wond] t 9 ,augu/9's case ?is crisis ( developm5t did n happ5 e>li] ?an 8 sixte5? ye>4 ,x seems t x 0 only m viol5t4 ,9 :at language he describes x6 ,i d>$ to roam ! woods & pursue my vagrant loves b5ea? ! %ade4 ,b he 0 n yet 9 love--?is he po9ts out himself4 ,9 8 case !n x 0 simple lu/4 ,f ! quagmire ( concupisc5ce1 f ! well ( pub]ty1 exhal$ a mi/ :i* cl\d$ & befogg$ my he>t1 s t ,i c\ld n di/+ui% betwe5 ! cle> %9+ ( affection & ! d>kness ( lu/4444 ,i c\ld n keep )9 ! k+dom ( light1 :]e fri5d%ip b9ds s\l to s\l4444 ,& s ,i pollut$ ! brook ( fri5d%ip ) ! sewage ( lu/4 ,let u n try to make x cle>] ?an he has left x himself4 ,:5 "o ?9ks ( all ! ,african vices1 "o d>e n dwell ^u su* av[als4 ,"l1 he says1 ,i 0 loa?some 9 ,?y sight4 ,& ) pitiless ju/ice he analyses ! effect ( ! evil3 ,x /orm$ confus$ly )9 me1 :irl+ my ?\ghtless y\? ov] ! precipices ( desire4 ,& ,i w&]$ /ill fur!r f ,!e1 & ,?\ did/ leave me to myself2 ! torr5t ( my =nications toss$ & swell$ & boil$ & ran ov]4 ,& dur+ ?is "t3 ,?\ said/ no?+1 ,o my ,god6 ,?is sil5ce ( ,god is ! t]rible sign ( h>d5$ s91 ( hopeless damnation4 ,x meant utt] depravity ( ! w2 he did n ev5 feel remorse any m4 ,"h he is1 !n1 z if unfa/5$ f 8 *ild's s\l--sep>at$ f himself4 ,! object ( 8 y\?ful fai? has no m mean+ = him4 ,he und]/&s no long]1 & x is all "o to him t he does n4 ,?us1 told by himself1 does ?is fir/ crisis ( ,augu/9's life em]ge f ! autobiography2 & x takes on a g5]al significance4 ,once = all1 "u a def9ite =m1 & to a c]ta9 degree classic1 he has diagnos$ ) 8 subtle exp]i5ce ( doctor ( s\ls ! pubesc5t crisis 9 all "y m5 ( 8 age1 9 all ! "y ,*ri/ians :o are to come aft] him4 ,= ! /ory ( ,augu/9 is ! /ory ( ea* ( u4 ,! loss ( fai? always occurs :5 ! s5ses fir/ awak54 ,at ?is critical mom5t1 :5 nature claims u = h] s]vice1 ! consci\sness ( spiritual ?+s is1 9 mo/ cases1 ei!r eclips$ or totally de/roy$4 ,! gradual usage to ! brutalities ( ! in/9ct ends by kill+ ! s5sitiv5ess ( ! inw>d feel+s4 ,x is n reason :i* turns ! "y man f ,god2 x is ! fle%4 ,scepticism b provides him ) excuses = ! new life he is lead+4 ,?us />t$1 ,augu/9 0 n able to pull up half-way on ! road ( pleasure2 he nev] did any?+ by halves4 ,9 ^! vulg> revels ( ! ord9>y wild y\?1 he want$ aga9 to be be/1 he want$ to be fir/ z he 0 at s*ool4 ,he /irr$ up 8 companions & drew !m aft] him4 ,!y 9 _! turn drew him4 ,among !m 0 f\nd t ,alypius1 :o 0 ! fri5d ( all 8 life1 :o %>$ 8 faults & mi/akes1 :o foll[$ him ev5 9 8 conv]sion1 & became ,bi%op ( ,?aga/e4 ,^! two future %eph]ds ( ,*ri/ roam$ ! /reets ) ! lo/ %eep4 ,!y sp5t ! nights 9 ! op5 spaces ( ! t[n1 play+1 or wantonly dream+ be=e cups ( cool dr9ks4 ,!y l\ng$ !re1 /ret*$ out on mats1 ) a cr[n ( leaves on ! head1 a jasm9e g>l& r\nd ! neck1 a rose or m>igold ?ru/ above ! e>4 ,!y nev] knew :at to d next to kill "t4 ,s "o f9e ev5+ ! reckless crew took x into _! heads to rifle a pe> tree ( "o ( ,patricius's neighb\rs4 ,?is pe> tree 0 j beyond ! v9ey>d belong+ to ,augu/9's fa!r4 ,! rascals %ook d[n ! pe>s4 ,!y took a few bites to f9d out ! ta/e1 & hav+ decid$ ?is to be r disappo9t+1 !y *uck$ all ! re/ to ! hogs4 ,9 ?is !ft1 done m]ely = ! pleasure ( ! ?+1 ,augu/9 sees an evid5ce ( diabolical mis*ief4 ,d\btless he committ$ _m ano!r misde$ :]e1 l ?is1 ! :ole attraction lay 9 ! ,satanic joy ( break+ ! law4 ,8 fury = dissolute c\rses knew no re/4 ,did ,monnica obs]ve any?+ ( ?is *ange 9 ,augu/98 ,! boy1 gr[n big1 _h escap$ f ! sup]vision ( ! wom5's ap>tm5ts4 ,if ! "m guess$ any?+1 %e did n guess all4 ,x fell to h] husb& to op5 h] eyes4 ,) ! fre$om ( mann]s among ! anci5ts1 ,augu/9 relates ! fact q pla9ly4444 ,t took place 9 ! ba?-build+s at ,?aga/e4 ,he 0 ba?+ ) 8 fa!r1 probably 9 ! pisc9a ( cold ba?s4 ,! ba!rs :o came out ( ! wat] ) dripp+ limbs 7 pr9t+ wet m>ks ( _! feet ^u ! mosaic floor+1 :5 ,patricius1 :o 0 wat*+ !m1 sudd5ly p]ceiv$ t 8 son _h ab\t him ! signs ( manhood1 t he 0 already be>+--z ,augu/9 says himself 9 8 picturesque language--! fir/ signs ( turbul5t y\?1 l ano!r toga praetexta4 ,patricius1 z a good pagan1 welcom$ ) jubilation ?is promise ( gr&-*ildr51 & ru%$ (f joy\sly to brag ( 8 discov]y to ,monnica4 ,%e took ! news 9 q ano!r way4 ,fright5$ at ! idea ( ! dang]s to :i* h] son's virtue 0 expos$1 %e lectur$ him 9 private4 ,b ,augu/91 f ! height ( 8 sixte5 ye>s1 laugh$ at h]4 ,a lot ( old-wom5's gossip6 ,:y does %e want to talk ab\t ?+s %e c't und]/&6444 ,tir$ out at la/1 ,monnica tri$ to get a promise f h] son t he w\ld at lea/ h "s re/ra9t 9 8 dissipation--t he w\ld avoid wom5 ( ! t[n1 & above all1 t he w\ld h no?+ to d ) m>ri$ wom54 ,= ! re/1 %e put him 9 ,god's h&s4 ,x may be wond]$--,augu/9 himself wond]s--t %e did n ?9k ( f9d+ him a wife4 ,!y m>ry e>ly 9 ,africa4 ,ev5 n[ any ,arab lab\r] buys a wife = 8 son1 h>dly turn$ sixte51 s t ! fires ( a too w>m y\? may be qu5*$ 9 m>riage4 ,b ,monnica1 :o 0 n yet a sa9t1 act$ 9 ?is matt] l a =esee+ & practical woman ( ! prosp]\s class4 ,a wife w\ld be a drag = a "y man l ,augu/91 :o seem$ likely to h su* a brilliant c>e]4 ,a too e>ly m>riage w\ld jeop>dize 8 future4 ,be=e all ?+s1 x 0 important t he %\ld become an illu/ri\s rhetorician1 & raise ! =tunes ( ! family4 ,= h]1 all else yield$ to ?is consid]ation4 ,b %e hop$ at lea/ t ! head/rong /ud5t might cons5t to be good into ! b>ga94 ,?is 0 also ,patricius's way ( look+ at ! matt]4 ,& s1 says ,augu/91 ,my fa!r gave himself no conc]n h[ ,i grew t[>ds ,!e1 or h[ *a/e ,i 01 provid$ only t ,i became a man ( culture--h[ev] de/itute ( ,?y culture1 ,o ,god4444 ,my "m & he slack5$ ! curb )\t reg>d to due sev]ity1 & ,i 0 suff]$ to enjoy myself accord+ to my dissolute fancy4 ,mean:ile1 ,patricius 0 n[ become 7v t>dily7 a cate*um54 ,! entreaties ( 8 wife _h won him to ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,b 8 s5tim5ts 7 n mu* m ,*ri/ian--,he h>dly ?\ght ( ,!e1 my ,god1 ackn[l$ges 8 son1 :o nev]!less 0 pleas$ at ?is conv]sion4 ,if ,patricius decid$ to get conv]t$1 x 0 probably f political reasons4 ,s9ce ! dea? ( ,julian ! ,apo/ate1 paganism appe>$ f9ally conqu]$4 ,! ,emp]or ,val5t9ianus _h j proclaim$ heavy p5alties aga9/ night-sacrifices4 ,9 ,africa1 ! ,c\nt ,romanus p]secut$ ! ,donati/s4 ,all ! ,*ri/ians 9 ,?aga/e 7 ,ca?olic4 ,:at 0 ! good ( keep+ up a useless & dang]\s resi/ance8 ,p]haps ! end ( ,patricius--:i* 0 ne>--0 z edify+ z ,monnica c\ld wi%4 ,b at all ev5ts1 at ! pres5t mom5t1 he 0 n ! man to int]f]e ) ,augu/9's pleasures3 he only ?\ght ( ! ev5tual =tune ( ! "y man4 ,alone1 ,monnica might h _h "s influ5ce on him1 & %e h]self 0 fasc9at$ by 8 future c>e] 9 ! _w4 ,p]haps1 to quiet h] consci5ce1 %e said to h]self t ?is frivol\s education w\ld be m or less ( a help to h] son t[>ds br++ him back to ,god1 t a day w\ld come :5 ! fam\s rhetorician w\ld plead ! cause ( ,*ri/8444 ,sc&aliz$ ?\gh %e might be at 8 conduct1 x is h[ev] app>5t t x 0 ab\t ?is "t %e began to get fond] ( him1 to worry ov] him z h] fav\rite *ild4 ,b x 0 n till mu* lat] t ! union betwe5 "m & son became q complete4 ,too _m old cu/oms /ill rema9$ prev5t+ close int]c\rse betwe5 ! m5 & wom5 ( a family4 ,& x w h>dly d to picture su* intimacy f ! intimacy :i* may exi/ betwe5 a "m & son ( our own "t4 ,!re 0 none ( ! spoil+1 or indulg5ce1 or culpable weakness :i* en]vates mat]nal t5d]ness & makes x injuri\s to ! en]gy ( a manly "*4 ,monnica 0 sev]e & a little r\gh4 ,if %e let h] feel+s be se51 x 0 solely be=e ,god4 ,& yet x is mo/ c]ta9 t 9 ! dep? ( h] he>t %e lov$ ,augu/91 n only z a future memb] ( ,*ri/1 b humanly1 z a woman fru/rat$ ( love 9 a badly assort$ m>riage may sp5d h] love on h] *ild4 ,! brutality ( pagan ways revolt$ h]1 & %e p\r$ on ?is "y head all h] /or$-up affection4 ,9 ,augu/9 %e lov$ ! be+ %e wi%$ %e c\ld love 9 h] husb&4 ,a numb] ( p]sonal consid]ations 7 no d\bt involv$ 9 ! deep & unselfi% atta*m5t %e _h = h] son3 in/9ctively1 %e look$ = him to protect h] aga9/ ! fa!r's viol5ce4 ,%e felt t he w\ld be ! support ( h] old age1 & also1 %e =esaw dimly :at "o day he w\ld be4 ,all ?is aid$ to br+ ab\t ! tie1 ! und]/&+1 :i* grew m & m close betwe5 ,augu/9 & ,monnica4 ,& s f ?is "t !y bo? appe> to u z !y 7 to appe> to all po/]ity--! patt]n ( ! ,*ri/ian ,"m & ,son4 ,?anks to !m1 ! h>d law ( ! anci5ts has be5 abrogat$4 ,!re %all be no m b>ri]s betwe5 ! "m & h] *ild4 ,no long] %all x be va9 ext]ior rites :i* draw toge!r ! memb]s ( ! same family3 !y %all communicate 9 _s & tru?4 ,he>t speake? to he>t4 ,! fell[%ip ( s\ls is f\nd$1 & ! ties ( ! dome/ic he>? are drawn close1 z !y nev] 7 9 antiquity4 ,no m %all !y "w 9 conc]t only = mat]ial ?+s2 !y w jo9 toge!r to love--& to love ea* o!r m4 ,! son w belong m to 8 "m4 ,at ! "t we h n[ come to1 ,monnica 0 already und]tak+ ! conque/ ( ,augu/9's s\l4 ,%e pray$ = him f]v5tly4 ,! "y man c>$ v little3 gratitude came to him only aft] 8 conv]sion4 ,at ?is "t he 0 ?9k+ ( no?+ b amusem5t4 ,= ?is he ev5 =got 8 c>e]4 ,b ,monnica & ,patricius ?\ght ( x con/antly--especially ,patricius1 :o gave himself enorm\s tr\ble to enable ?is /ud5t on a holiday to f9i% 8 /udies4 ,ev5tually he got toge!r ! necess>y money1 possibly borr[$ en\gh to make up ! sum f "s ri* l&[n] :o 0 ! patron ( ! p ( small means 9 ,?aga/e--say1 t gorge\s ,romanianus1 to :om ,augu/91 9 ackn[l$gm5t1 d$icat$ "o ( 8 fir/ books4 ,! "y man c\ld n[ take ! road = ,c>?age4 ,he left by himself1 crav+ = k & glory & pleasure1 8 he>t full ( long+ = :at he knew n1 & melan*oly )\t cause4 ,:at 0 go+ to become ( him 9 ! great1 unkn[n city8 ,,! ,,second ,,"p ,,! ,,en*antm5t ,,( ,,c>?age ,am>e et am>i4 ,to love & to be lov$4 ,confessions1 ,,iii1 i4 ,i ,,c>?ago ,,v5]is ,i w5t to ,c>?age1 :]e %ameful loves bubbl$ r\nd me l boil+ oil4 ,?is cry ( rep5tance1 utt]$ by ! conv]t$ ,augu/9 tw5ty-five ye>s lat]1 does n altoge!r /ifle 8 words ( admiration = ! old capital ( 8 c\ntry4 ,"o c see ?is patriotic admiration /irr+ betwe5 ! l9es4 ,c>?age made a v /rong impression on him4 ,he gave x 8 he>t & rema9$ fai?ful to ! end4 ,8 enemies1 ! ,donati/s1 call$ him ! ,c>?ag9ian argu]4 ,aft] he became ,bi%op ( ,hippo1 he 0 cont9ually go+ to ,c>?age to prea*1 or dispute1 or consult 8 colleagues1 or to ask some?+ f m5 9 (fice4 ,:5 he is n !re1 he is ev] speak+ ( x 9 8 treatises & pla9 s]mons4 ,he takes comp>isons f x3 ,y :o h be5 to ,c>?age-- he (t5 says to 8 li/5]s4 ,= ! boy f little ,?aga/e to g to ,c>?age1 0 ab\t ! same z = our y\?s f ! prov9ces to g to ,p>is4 ,v5i ,c>?ag9em--9 ^! simple words !re is a t\* ( naive emphasis :i* reveals ! bewild]m5t ( ! ,numidian /ud5t j l&$ 9 ! great city4 ,&1 9 fact1 x 0 "o ( ! five great capitals ( ! ,empire3 !re 7 ,rome1 ,con/ant9ople1 ,antio*1 ,alex&ria--,c>?age4 ,c>?age 0 ! sea-port capital ( ! :ole we/]n ,m$it]ranean4 ,) its l>ge new /reets1 its villas1 its temples1 its palaces1 its docks1 its v>i\sly dress$ cosmopolitan population1 x a/oni%$ & delight$ ! s*oolboy f ,madaura4 ,:atev] local m>ks 7 left ab\t him1 or signs ( ! ru/ic simpleton1 x bru%$ (f4 ,at fir/1 ,augu/9 mu/ h felt himself z good z lo/ !re4 ,!re he 01 8 own ma/]1 ) nobody to c\nsel & direct him4 ,he does inde$ m5tion 8 fell[-c\ntryman1 t ,romanianus1 ! patron ( 8 fa!r & ( o!r p 9 ,?aga/e1 z a high & g5]\s fri5d :o invit$ him to 8 h\se :5 he1 a poor y\?1 came to f9i% 8 /udies 9 a /range city1 & help$ him1 n only ) 8 purse1 b ) 8 fri5d%ip4 ,un=tunately ! allusion is n v cle>4 ,/ill1 x does seem to %ew t ,augu/91 9 ! fir/ days aft] 8 arrival at ,c>?age1 /ay$ ) ,romanianus4 ,x is n 9 ! lea/ improbable t ,romanianus _h a h\se at ,c>?age & sp5t ! w9t] !re3 dur+ ! re/ ( ! ye> he w\ld be 9 8 c\ntry h\ses r\nd ab\t ,?aga/e4 ,?is opul5t b5efactor might n h be5 satisfi$ ) giv+ ,augu/9 a good tip = 8 j\rney :5 he 0 leav+ 8 native t[n1 b may also h put him up 9 8 own h\se at ,c>?age4 ,su* 0 ! atonem5t = ^? enorm\s =tunes ( antiquity3 ! ri* _h to give freely & con/antly4 ,) ! p>cell+ out ( weal? we h become mu* m egoi/ical4 ,9 any case1 ,romanianus1 tak5 up ) 8 pleasures & bus9ess1 c\ld n h be5 mu* ( a guide = ,monnica's son4 ,augu/9 0 !re=e )\t control1 or v ne>ly4 ,no d\bt he came to ,c>?age ) a /rong desire to increase 8 k & get r5[n1 b /ill m a?ir/ = love & ! emotions ( s5tim5t4 ,! love-prelude 0 deliri\sly prolong$ = him4 ,he 0 at t "t s ov]:elm$ by x1 t x is ! fir/ ?+ he ?9ks ( :5 he relates 8 ye>s at ,c>?age4 ,to love & be lov$ seems to him1 z to 8 de> ,alex&r9e poets1 ! s+le object ( life4 ,yet he 0 n 9 love1 b he lov$ ! idea ( love4 ,nondum amabam1 et am>e amabam 444 am>e amans4444 ,truly1 nev] a pagan poet _h hi!rto f\nd su* language to speak ( love4 ,^! subtle phrases are n only ! "w ( a m>vell\s ^w-smi?3 ?r\gh _! almo/ imp]ceptible %ades ( mean+ may be descri$ an entirely new s\l1 ! pleasure-lov+ s\l ( ! old _w awak5+ to spiritual life4 ,mod]n p h repeat$ ! words m ?an en\gh1 b by translat+ !m too lit]ally--,i lov$ to love--!y h p]haps di/ort$ ! s5se4 ,!y h made ,augu/9 a k9d ( ,romantic l ,alfr$ de ,musset1 a dilettante 9 love4 ,augu/9 is n s mod]n1 al?\gh he (t5 seems "o ( ourselves4 ,:5 he wrote ^? words he 0 a bi%op & a p5it5t4 ,:at /rikes him above all 9 look+ back ^u 8 uneasy & fev]i% life z a y\? & "y man1 is ! great onru% ( all 8 be+ :i* swept him t[>ds love4 ,pla9ly1 man is made = love1 s9ce he loves )\t object & )\t cause1 s9ce 9 itself alone ! idea ( love is already = him a beg9n+ ( love4 ,only he falls into error 9 giv+ to creatures a he>t t ! ,creator alone c fill & satisfy4 ,9 ?is love = love's sake1 ,augu/9 disc]n$ ! sign ( ! pr$e/9$ s\l ^: t5d]ness w f9d no re/ b 9 ,god4 ,t is :y he repeats ?is ^w ,love ) a k9d ( intoxication4 ,he kn[s t ^? :o love l him _c love long ) a human love4 ,nor does he blu% to ackn[l$ge x3--he lov$--he lov$ ) all 8 s\l--he lov$ to ! po9t ( lov+ ! com+ ( love4 ,happy intimation = ! ,*ri/ian6 ,a he>t s afire is pl$g$ to ! et]nal m>riage4 ,) ?is heat ( passion1 ?is lively s5sibility1 ,augu/9 0 a prey = ,c>?age4 ,! voluptu\s city took complete hold on him by its *>m & its beauty1 by all ! s$uctions ( m9d & s5se1 by its promises ( easy enjoym5t4 ,fir/ ( all1 x s(t5$ ?is "y prov9cial1 us$ to ! h>d] c\ntry life ( 8 home2 x relax$ ! ,numidian contract$ by ! r\ghness ( 8 climate2 x cool$ 8 eyes burn$ by ! sun 9 ! full-fl[+ ( its wat]s & ! suavity ( its horizons4 ,x 0 a city ( laz9ess1 & above all1 ( pleasure1 z well = ^? plung$ 9 bus9ess z = ! idl]s4 ,!y call$ x ,c>?ago ,v5]is--,c>?age ( ,v5us4 ,& c]ta9ly ! old ,pho5ician ,tanit always reign$ !re4 ,s9ce ! rebuild+ ( h] temple by ! ,romans1 %e _h trans=m$ h]self into ,virgo ,coele/is4 ,?is ,virg9 ( ,heav5 0 ! great ,our ,lady ( un*a/ity1 t[>ds :om /ill m\nt$ ! adoration ( ! ,african l& f\r hundr$ ye>s aft] ! bir? ( ,*ri/4 ,/range ,virg91 ,augu/9 0 to say lat]1 :o c only be hon\r$ by ! loss ( virg9ity4 ,h] dissolv+ influ5ce seem$ to ov]come ! :ole region4 ,!re is no m fem99e c\ntry ?an ?is ,c>?ag9ian p59sula1 ravi%$ on all sides by ! c>ess ( ! wat]s4 ,/ret*$ out betwe5 h] lakes on ! edge ( ! sea1 ,c>?age l\ng$ 9 ! humid w>m? ( h] mi/s1 z if 9 ! suffocat+ atmosph]e ( h] vap\r-ba?s4 ,%e /ole away ! en]gies1 b %e 0 an en*antm5t = ! eyes4 ,f ! top ( ! impressive flight ( /eps :i* l$ up to ! temple ( sculapius on ! summit ( ! ,acropolis1 ,augu/9 c\ld see at 8 feet ! huge1 ev5-plann$ city1 ) its citadel walls :i* spread out indef9itely1 its g>d5s1 blue wat]s1 flax5 pla9s1 & ! m\nta9s4 ,did he pause on ! /eps at sunset1 ! two h>b\rs1 r\nd$ cup-%ape1 %one1 rimm$ by ! quays1 l l5ses ( ruby4 ,to ! left1 ! ,lake ( ,tunis1 /irless1 )\t a ripple1 z ri* 9 e!real lights z a ,v5etian lagoon1 radiat$ 9 ev]-alt]+ %e5s1 delicate & spl5did4 ,9 front1 across ! bay1 dott$ ) ! sails ( %ips close-haul$ to ! w9d1 beyond ! w9d-swept & %imm]+ int]vals1 ! m\nta9s ( ,rhodes rais$ _! a]ial summit-l9es aga9/ ! sky4 ,:at an outlook on ! _w = a "y man dream+ ( fame6 ,& :at m exhil>at+ spot ?an ?is ,m\nt ,byrsa1 :]e1 9 deep lay]s1 s _m h]oic memories 7 ga!r$ & sup]impos$4 ,! great du/y pla9s :i* bury !mselves f> (f 9 ! s&s ( ! des]t1 ! m\nta9s--yes1 & isles & headl&s1 all b[$ be=e ! ,hill t ,virgil sang & seem$ to d h] rev]5ce4 ,%e held 9 awe ! innum]able tribes ( ! b>b>ic cont95t2 %e 0 mi/ress ( ! sea4 ,rome h]self1 f ! height ( h] ,palat9e1 surg$ less imp]ial4 ,m ?an any o!r ( ! "y m5 seat$ ) him on ! b5*es ( ! s*ool ( rhetoric1 ,augu/9 he>k5$ to ! dumb appeals :i* came f ! anci5t ru9s & new palaces ( ,c>?age4 ,b ! supple & trea*]\s city knew ! secret ( en*a9+ ! w4 ,%e tempt$ him by ! op5 display ( h] amusem5ts4 ,"u ?is sun :i* t\*es to beauty ! pla/] ( a hut1 ! grosse/ pleasures h an attraction :i* m5 ( ! ,nor? _c und]/&4 ,! ov]fl[+ ( lu/ surr\nds y4 ,?is prolific sw>m+1 all ^! bodies1 close-press$ & s(t ) sweat1 give =? z x 7 a brea? ( =nication :i* melts ! w4 ,augu/9 brea!d 9 ) delight ! heavy burn+ air1 load$ ) human od\rs1 :i* fill$ ! /reets & squ>es ( ,c>?age4 ,to all ! bold solicit+1 to all ! h&s /ret*$ out to deta9 him z he walk$1 he yield$4 ,b = a m9d l 8 ,c>?age _h m subtle allurem5ts 9 res]ve4 ,he 0 tak5 by h] !atres1 by ! v]ses ( h] poets & ! melodies ( h] musicians4 ,he %$ te>s at ! plays ( ,m5&] & ,t]5ce2 he lam5t$ ^u ! mis=tunes ( sep>at$ lov]s2 he %>$ _! qu>rels1 rejoic$ & despair$ ) !m4 ,& /ill he await$ ! epiphany ( ,love--t ,love :i* ! p]=mance ( ! actors %ew$ him to be s t\*+ & f9e4 ,su* !n 0 ,augu/91 giv5 ov] to ! irresponsibility ( 8 eighte5 ye>s--a he>t spoil$ by romantic lit]ature1 a m9d impati5t to try e sort ( intellectual adv5ture 9 ! mo/ corrupt+ & bewit*+ city kn[n to ! pagan c5turies1 set amid/ "o ( ! mo/ entranc+ l&scapes 9 ! _w4 ,,ii ,,! ,,african ,,rome ,c>?age did n (f] only pleasures to ,augu/92 x 0 besides an extraord9>y subject to ?9k ab\t = an und]/&+ s al]t & all-embrac+ z 84 ,at ,c>?age he und]/ood ! ,roman gr&eur z he c\ld n at ,madaura & ! ,numidian t[ns4 ,"h1 z else:]e1 ! ,romans made a po9t ( impress+ ! m9ds ( conqu]$ races by ! display ( _! /r5g? & magnific5ce4 ,above all1 !y aim$ at ! imm5se4 ,! t[ns built by !m (f]$ ! same decorative & monum5tal "* ( ! ,greek cities ( ! ,hell5i/ic p]iod1 :i* ! ,romans _h fur!r exagg]at$--a "* n )\t emphasis & ov]-elaboration1 b :i* 0 b\nd to a/oni%1 & t 0 ! ma9 ?+ 9 _! view4 ,9 %ort1 _! ideal 0 n p]ceptibly diff]5t f t ( our mod]n t[n c\ncillors4 ,to lay out /reets :i* int]sect$ at "r angles2 to create t[ns cut into ev5 blocks l *essbo>ds2 to multiply prospects & huge ar*itectural masses--all ! ,roman cities ( ?is p]iod reveal$ su* an aim1 ) an almo/ id5tical plan4 ,erect$ aft] ?is type1 ! new ,c>?age caus$ ! old to be =gott54 ,ev]ybody agre$ t x 0 second only to ,rome4 ,! ,african writ]s squ&]$ ! mo/ hyp]bolical praises ^u x4 ,= !m x is ,! spl5did1 ! augu/1 ! sublime ,c>?age4 ,al?\gh !re may well be a c]ta9 am\nt ( triviality or ( patriotic exagg]ation 9 ^! praises1 x is c]ta9 t ! ,roman capital ( ! ,prov9ce ( ,africa 0 no less consid]able ?an ! old metropolis ( ! ,hanno & ,b>c9e factions4 ,) a population almo/ z l>ge z t ( ,rome1 x _h almo/ z great a circumf]5ce4 ,x mu/ fur!r be recall$ t z x _h no ramp>ts till ! ,v&al invasion1 ! city ov]fl[$ into ! c\ntry4 ,) its g>d5s1 villas1 & burial-places ( ! dead1 x cov]$ ne>ly ! entire p59sula1 to-day depopulat$4 ,c>?age1 z well z ,rome1 _h h] ,capitol & ,palat9e ^u ,m\nt ,byrsa1 :]e rose no d\bt a temple consecrat$ to ! ,capitolean triune deities1 ,jupit]1 ,juno1 & ,m9]va1 n f> f ! great temple ( sculapius1 a mod]n trans=mation ( ! old ,punic ,es*m\m4 ,h>d by ^! sanctu>ies1 ! ,proconsul's palace dom9at$ ,c>?age f ! height ( ! acclivity ( ! ,acropolis4 ,! ,=um 0 at ! foot ( ! hill1 probably 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ! ports--a ,=um built & arrang$ 9 ! ,roman way1 ) its %ops ( bank]s & money-*ang]s plac$ "u ! circul> gall]ies1 ) ! traditional image ( ,m>syas1 & a numb] ( /atues ( local celebrities4 ,apuleius no d\bt _h 8 !re4 ,fur!r (f 0 ! ,h>b\r ,squ>e1 :]e ga!r$ =eign]s rec5tly l&$ & ! idl]s ( ! city 9 se>* ( news1 & :]e ! booksell]s (f]$ ! new books & pamphlets4 ,!re 0 to be se5 "o ( ! curiosities ( ,c>?age--a mosaic repres5t+ fabul\s mon/]s1 m5 )\t heads1 & m5 ) only "o leg & "o foot--a huge foot "u :i*1 ly+ ^u _! backs1 !y %elt]$ f ! sun1 z "u a p>asol4 ,on acc\nt ( ?is feature !y 7 call$ ! sciapodes4 ,augu/91 :o l ev]ybody else _h paus$ be=e ^! grotesque figures1 recalls !m some:]e to 8 read]s4444 ,beside ! sea1 9 ! l[] t[n & ^u ! two ne> hills ( ! ,acropolis1 7 a numb] ( deta*$ build+s t ! old au?ors h pres]v$ ! names ( & briefly describ$4 ,?anks to ! zeal ( ar*ologi/s1 x is n[ become impossible to tell :]e !y /ood4 ,! pagan sanctu>ies 7 num]\s4 ,t ( ! goddess ,coele/is1 ! great patroness ( ,c>?age1 occupi$ a space ( five ?\s& feet4 ,x compris$1 besides ! actual ,greek3 hi]on1 :]e /ood ! image ( ! goddess1 g>d5s1 sacr$ groves1 & c\rts surr\nd$ ) columns4 ,! anci5t ,pho5ician ,molo* _h also 8 temple "u ! "n ( ,saturn4 ,!y call$ him ,! ,old ,"o1 s ,augu/9 tells u1 & 8 wor%ipp]s 7 fall+ away4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,c>?age _h ano!r sanctu>y :i* 0 v fa%ionable1 a ,s]apeum z at ,alex&ria1 :]e 7 manife/$ ! pomps ( ! ,egyptian ritual1 celebrat$ by ,apuleius4 ,neighb\r+ ! holy places1 came ! places ( amusem5t3 ! !atre1 ! ,odeum1 circus1 /adium1 & amphi!atre--?is la/1 ( equal dim5sions ) ! ,colosseum at ,rome1 its gall]y ris+ ^u gall]y1 & its reali/ic sculptures ( animals & artisans4 ,!n !re 7 ! build+s = ! public s]vice3 ! imm5se ci/]ns ( ! ,ea/ & ! ,malga1 ! great aqu$uct1 :i*1 aft] be+ c>ri$ along a di/ance ( fifty-five miles1 empti$ ! wat] ( ! ,zagh\an into ! res]voirs at ,c>?age4 ,f9ally1 !re 7 ! ,ba?s1 "s ( :i* we "k--^? ( ,anton9us & ( ,maximianus1 & ^? ( ,g>gilius1 :]e "o ( ! mo/ important ,c\ncils kn[n to ! hi/ory ( ! ,african ,*ur* assembl$4 ,!re 7 likewise _m ,*ri/ian basilicas at ! "t ( ,augu/94 ,! au?ors m5tion sev5te53 x is likely !re 7 m4 ,t ( ,dam\s-el-,k>ita1 ! only "o ( :i* consid]able traces h be5 f\nd1 0 va/ & ri*ly decorat$1 & 0 p]haps ! ca!dral ( ,c>?age4 ,:at o!r build+s !re 7 are utt]ly lo/ to hi/ory4 ,x may be conjectur$1 h[ev]1 t ,c>?age1 z well z ,rome1 _h a septizonium--a decorative build+ ) p]i/yles "o above ! o!r :i* surr\nd$ a res]voir4 ,9 fact1 x is claim$ t ! "o at ,rome 0 copi$ f ,c>?age4 ,/raight /reets pav$ ) l>ge flags int]sect$ ar\nd ^! build+s1 =m+ a network ( long av5ues1 v bright & v5tilat$4 ,"s ( !m 7 celebrat$ 9 ! anci5t _w ei!r = _! beauty or ! animation ( _! trade3 ! /reet ( ! ,jewell]s1 ! /reet ( ,heal?1 ( ,saturn1 ( ,coele/is1 too1 or ( ,juno4 ,! fig & vegetable m>kets & ! public gran>ies 7 also "s ( ! ma9 c5tres ( ,c>?ag9ian life4 ,x is unque/ionable t ,c>?age1 ) its build+s & /atues1 its squ>es1 av5ues & public g>d5s1 look$ l a l>ge capital1 & 0 a p]fect example ( t ideal ( r brutal magnific5ce & /r5g? :i* ! ,romans obtrud$ ev]y:]e4 ,& ev5 :ile x dazzl$ ! "y prov9cial f ,?aga/e1 ! ,african ,rome %ew$ him ! virtue ( ord]--social & political ord]4 ,c>?age1 ! metropolis ( ,we/]n ,africa1 ma9ta9$ an army ( (ficials :o h&l$ ! gov]nm5t 9 its smalle/ details4 ,fir/ ( all1 !re 7 ! repres5tatives ( ! c5tral p[]1 ! imp]ial rul]s--! ,proconsul1 a sort ( vice-emp]or1 :o 0 surr\nd$ by a full c\rt1 a civil & milit>y /aff1 a privy c\ncil1 an (ficium :i* includ$ a cr[d ( dignit>ies & subalt]n cl]ks4 ,!n !re 0 ! ,proprtor ( ,africa :o1 be+ 9 control ( ! gov]nm5t ( ! :ole ,african prov9ce1 _h an (ficium /ill l>g] p]haps ?an ! ,proconsul's4 ,aft] !m came ! city magi/rates1 :o 7 aid$ 9 _! functions by ! ,c\ncil ( ! ,decurions--! ,s5ate ( ,c>?age4 ,^! ,c>?ag9ian s5ators cut a consid]able figure3 = !m _! colleagues at ,rome 7 full ( airs & graces1 & ! ,emp]ors endeav\r$ to keep !m 9 a good-hum\r4 ,all ! details ( city gov]nm5t came "u _! sup]vision3 ! slaught]-h\ses1 build+s1 ! ga!r+ ( municipal taxes1 & ! police1 :i* compris$ ev5 ! gu>dians ( ! ,=um4 ,!n !re 7 ! army & navy4 ,! home port ( a gra9-c>ry+ fleet :i* convey$ ! ,african c]eals to ,o/ia1 ,c>?age c\ld />ve ,rome if %e lik$4 ,! gra9 & oil ( all c\ntries lay 9 h] docks--! /oreh\ses ( ! /ate provisions1 :i* 7 9 *>ge ( a special prefect :o _h "u 8 ord]s a :ole corporation ( ov]se]s & cl]ks4 ,augu/9 mu/ h he>d a good deal ( grumbl+ at ,c>?age aga9/ ?is excess ( (ficialism4 ,b1 all ! same1 s well-gov]n$ a city 0 a v good s*ool = a "y man :o 0 to comb9e lat] ! duties ( bi%op1 judge1 & gov]nor4 ,! bless+s ( ord]1 ( :at 0 call$ ! ,roman peace no d\bt impress$ him ! m1 z he himself came f a turbul5t di/rict (t5 turn$ upside d[n by ! qu>rels ( religi\s sects & by ! depr$ations ( ! nomads--a b\nd>y-l& ( ! ,sah>a regions :]e x 0 mu* h>d] to br+ ! c5tral gov]nm5t into play ?an 9 ,c>?age & ! coa/-t[ns4 ,to appreciate ! beauty ( gov]nm5t1 !re is no?+ l liv+ 9 a c\ntry :]e all is at ! m]cy ( =ce or ! fir/-com]'s w4 ,su* ( ! ,b>b>ians :o came 9 contact ) ,roman civilization 7 ov]come ) admiration = ! good ord] t x e/abli%$4 ,b :at a/oni%$ !m m ?an any?+ else 0 t ! ,empire 0 ev]y:]e4 ,no man1 :atev] 8 race or c\ntry1 c\ld help feel+ pr\d to belong to ! ,roman city4 ,he 0 at home 9 all ! c\ntries 9 ! _w subject to ,rome4 ,our ,europe1 split into nationalities1 c h>dly und]/& n[ ?is feel+ ( pride1 s diff]5t f our n>r[ patriotisms4 ,! way to feel some?+ ( x is to g to ! colonies3 out !re ! lea/ ( u may believe himself a sov]eign1 simply f ! fact t he is a subject ( ! gov]n+ c\ntry4 ,?is feel+ 0 v /rong 9 ! old _w4 ,c>?age1 :]e ! /rik+ effect ( ! ,empire appe>$ 9 all its brilliancy1 w\ld increase x 9 ,augu/94 ,he _h only to look ar\nd him to value ! ext5t ( ! privilege conf]r$ by ,rome on h] citiz5s4 ,m5 com+ f all c\ntries1 )\t exception ( race1 71 s to speak1 made p>tn]s ( ! ,empire & collaborat$ 9 ! gr&eur ( ! ,roman s*eme4 ,if ! ,proconsul :o !n occupi$ ! ,byrsa palace1 ! celebrat$ ,symma*us1 belong$ to an old ,italian family1 he :om he repres5t$1 ! ,emp]or ,val5t9ian1 0 ! son ( a ,pannonian soldi]4 ,! ,c\nt ,!odosius1 ! g5]al :o suppress$ ! insurrection ( ,firmus 9 ,mauretania1 0 a ,spani>d1 & ! army he l$ into ,africa 0 made up1 = ! mo/ "p1 ( ,gauls4 ,lat] on1 "u ,arcadius1 ano!r ,gaul1 ,ruf9us1 %all be ma/] ( ! :ole ( ! ,ea/4 ,an active m9d l ,augu/9's c\ld n rema9 indiff]5t be=e ?is spectacle ( ! _w ?r[n op5 by ,rome to all m5 ( tal5t4 ,he _h ! s\l ( a poet1 quick to en?usiasm2 ! sight ( ! ,eagles plant$ on ! ,acropolis at ,c>?age mov$ him 9 a way he nev] =got4 ,he acquir$ ! habit ( see+ big1 & began to ca/ (f race prejudices & all ! petty n>r[ness ( a local _s4 ,:5 he became a ,*ri/ian he did n close himself up1 l ! ,donati/s1 )9 ! ,african ,*ur*4 ,8 dream 0 t ,*ri/'s ,empire ^u e>? %\ld equal ! ,empire ( ! ,cs>s4 ,/ill1 x is desirable n to fall into error ^u ?is ,roman unity4 ,beh9d ! impos+ front x %ew$ f "o end to ! o!r ( ! ,m$it]ranean1 ! v>iety ( peoples1 ) _! mann]s1 traditions1 special religions1 0 always !re1 & 9 ,africa m ?an else:]e4 ,! population ( ,c>?age 0 a/oni%+ly mix$4 ,! hybrid "* ( ?is c\ntry )\t unity 0 illu/rat$ by ! /reaks f\nd 9 ! ,c>?ag9ian cr[ds4 ,all ! specim5s ( ,african races elb[$ "o ano!r 9 ! /reets1 f ! nigg]1 br\ght f 8 native ,s\dan by ! slave-m]*ant1 to ! ,romaniz$ ,numidian4 ,! infl[1 cont9ually r5ew$1 ( traffick]s & cosmopolitan adv5tur]s increas$ ?is confusion4 ,& s ,c>?age 0 a ,babel ( races1 ( co/umes1 ( beliefs & ideas4 ,augu/91 :o 0 at he>t a my/ic1 b also a dialectician extremely fond ( %[y discussions1 f\nd 9 ,c>?age a lively summ>y ( ! religions & philosophies ( 8 day4 ,dur+ ^! ye>s ( /udy & reflection he captur$ booty ( k & obs]vation :i* he w\ld "k h[ to make use ( 9 ! future4 ,9 ! ,c>?age sanctu>ies & s*ools1 9 ! squ>es & ! /reets1 he c\ld see pass ! disciples ( all ! sy/ems1 ! props ( all ! sup]/itions1 ! devotees ( all ! religions4 ,he he>d ! %rill clam\r ( disputes1 ! tumult ( fights & riots4 ,:5 a man 0 at ! end ( 8 argum5ts1 he knock$ d[n 8 oppon5t4 ,! au?orities _h a good deal ( tr\ble to keep ord]4 ,augu/91 :o 0 an intrepid logician1 mu/ h long$ to take 8 %>e 9 ^! r[s4 ,b "o _c exactly improvise a fai? betwe5 to-day & to-morr[4 ,:ile he await$ ! enlight5m5t ( ! tru?1 he /udi$ ! ,c>?ag9ian ,babel4 ,fir/ ( all1 !re 0 ! (ficial religion1 ! mo/ obvi\s & p]haps ! mo/ brilliant1 t ( ! ,div9ity ( ! ,emp]ors1 :i* 0 /ill kept up ev5 "u ! ,*ri/ian ,cs>s4 ,ea* ye>1 at ! end ( ,octob]1 ! elect$ delegates ( ! entire prov9ce1 hav+ at _! head ! ,sac]dos prov9ce1 ! prov9cial prie/1 arriv$ at ,c>?age4 ,_! lead]1 clad 9 a robe broid]$ ) palms1 gold cr[n on head1 made 8 solemn entry into ! city4 ,x 0 a p]fect invasion1 ea* memb] dragg+ 9 8 wake a mob ( cli5ts & s]vants4 ,! ,africans1 ) _! ta/e = pomp & col\r1 seiz$ ! *ance to give !mselves ov] to a display ( ru9\s sumptuosities3 ri* dresses1 exp5sive horses spl5didly cap>ison$1 processions1 sacrifices1 public banquets1 games at ! circus & amphi!atre4 ,^! /rang]s s ov]cr[d$ ! city t ! imp]ial ,gov]nm5t _h to =bid !m1 "u sev]e p5alties1 to /ay long] ?an five days4 ,a v prud5t measure6 ,at ^! times1 collisions 7 inevitable betwe5 pagans & ,*ri/ians4 ,x 0 desirable to scatt] su* cr[ds z soon z possible1 = riots 7 always sm\ld]+ 9 _! mid/4 ,no less ?rong$ 7 ! fe/ivals ( ! ,virg9 ( ,heav54 ,a survival ( ! national religion1 ^! fea/s 7 de> to ! he>ts ( ! ,c>?ag9ians4 ,augu/9 w5t to !m ) 8 fell[-/ud5ts4 ,we troop$ !re f e qu>t]1 he says4 ,!re 0 a great ga!r+ ( p 9 ! int]ior c\rt :i* l$ up to ! temple4 ,! /atue1 tak5 f its sanctu>y1 0 plac$ be=e ! p]i/yle ^u a k9d ( repository4 ,wantons1 array$ ) b>b>\s lavi%ness1 danc$ ar\nd ! holy image2 actors p]=m$ & sang hymns4 ,our eag] eyes1 ,augu/9 adds malici\sly1 re/$ 9 turn on ! goddess1 & on ! girls1 h] ador]s4 ,! ,great ,"m ( ! ,gods1 ! ,goddess ( ,m\nt ,b]ecyntus1 0 wor%ipp$ ) simil> lic5se4 ,e ye> ! p ( ,c>?age w5t to wa% h] solemnly 9 ! sea4 ,h] /atue1 c>ri$ 9 a spl5did litt]1 rob$ ) preci\s /uffs1 curl$ & f>d$1 pass$ ?r\gh ! /reets ( ! city1 ) its gu>d ( mumm]s & ,corybants4 ,^! la/1 ) hair greasy f pomade1 pale faces1 & a loose & effem9ate walk1 held out b[ls = alms to ! onlook]s4 ,! devotion to ,isis 0 yet ano!r excuse = processions3 ! ,s]apeum 0 a rival attraction to ! temple ( ! ,heav5ly ,maid54 ,if we may tru/ ,t]tullian1 ! ,africans swore only by ,s]apis4 ,possibly ,mi?ras _h also wor%ipp]s 9 ,c>?age4 ,anyh[1 ! occult religions 7 fully repres5t$ !re4 ,miracle-work+ 0 becom+ m & m ! basis ev5 ( paganism4 ,nev] _h ! soo?say]s be5 m fl\ri%+4 ,ev]ybody1 9 secret1 pri$ into ! entrails ( ! sacrificial victims1 or us$ magic spells4 ,z to ! wiz>ds & a/rologi/s1 !y did bus9ess op5ly4 ,augu/9 himself consult$ !m1 l all ! ,c>?ag9ians4 ,! public cr$ulity _h no limits4 ,on ! opposite side f ! pagan wor%ip1 ! sects :i* _h sprung f ,*ri/ianity spr\t$4 ,true1 ,africa has giv5 bir? to b a small numb] ( h]esies3 ! ,africans _h n ! subtle m9d ( ! ,ori5tals & !y 7 n giv5 to !oriz+4 ,b a good _m ( ! ,ea/]n h]esies _h got into ,c>?age4 ,augu/9 mu/ h /ill met ,arians !re1 al?\gh at ?is p]iod ,arianism 0 dy+ out 9 ,africa4 ,:at is c]ta9 is t or?odox ,ca?olicism 0 9 a v critical /ate4 ,! ,donati/s captur$ its congregations & *ur*es2 !y 7 unque/ionably 9 ! majority4 ,!y rais$ alt> aga9/ alt>4 ,if ,g5e?lius 0 ! ,ca?olic bi%op1 ! ,donati/ bi%op 0 ,p>m5ianus4 ,& !y claim$ to be m ,ca?olic ?an _! oppon5ts4 ,!y boa/$ t !y 7 ! ,*ur*1 ! s+le1 ! unique ,*ur*1 ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,b ^! s*ismatics !mselves 7 already splitt+ up into _m sects4 ,at ! "t ,augu/9 0 /udy+ at ,c>?age1 ,rogatus1 ,bi%op ( ,t5es1 _h j brok5 publicly ) ,p>m5ian's p>ty4 ,ano!r ,donati/1 ,tyconius1 publi%$ books :]e9 he trav]s$ _m pr9ciples de> to 8 fell[-religioni/s4 ,d\bt d>k5$ consci5ces4 ,amid ^! controv]sies1 :]e 0 ! tru?8 ,among :om did ! ,apo/olic tradition dwell8 ,to put ! f9i%+ t\* on ?is an>*y1 a sect :i* likewise d]iv$ f ,*ri/ianity--,mani*eeism--began to h num]\s adepts 9 ,africa4 ,wat*$ ) suspicion by ! ,gov]nm5t1 x conceal$ "p ( its doctr9e1 ! mo/ sc&al\s & subv]sive4 ,b ! v my/]y :i* envelop$ x1 help$ x to get adh]5ts4 ,among all ^! apo/les prea*+ _! gospel1 ^! devotees beat+ ! drum be=e _! god1 ^! !ologians reciprocally insult+ & excommunicat+ "o ano!r1 ,augu/9 br\ght ! sup]ficial scepticism ( 8 eighte5? ye>4 ,he want$ no m ( ! religion 9 :i* 8 "m _h br\ght him up4 ,he 0 a good talk]1 a clev] dialectician2 he 0 9 a hurry to emancipate himself1 to w9 fre$om = 8 way ( ?9k+ z = 8 way ( life2 & he meant to enjoy 8 y\?4 ,) su* gifts1 & ) su* dispositions1 he c\ld only *oose among all ^! doctr9es t :i* w\ld help mo/ ! qualities ( 8 m9d1 at once flatt]+ 8 intellectual pret5sions1 & leav+ 8 pleasure-lov+ in/9cts a loose re94 ,,iii ,,! ,,c>?age ,,/ud5t ,h[ev] /rong 7 ! attractions ( ! great city1 ,augu/9 well knew t he _h n be5 s5t !re to amuse himself1 or to trifle z an amateur ) philosophy4 ,he 0 poor1 & he _h to secure 8 future--make 8 =tune4 ,8 family c\nt$ on him4 ,nei!r 0 he ignorant ( ! difficult position ( 8 p>5ts & by :at sacrifices !y _h suppli$ him ) ! means to f9i% 8 /udies4 ,necess>ily he 0 oblig$ to be a /ud5t :o work$4 ,) 8 extraord9>y facility1 he /ood out at once among 8 fell[-/ud5ts4 ,9 ! rhetoric s*ool1 :]e he att5d$ lectures1 he 01 he tells u1 n only at ! top1 b he 0 ! lead] ( 8 companions4 ,he l$ 9 ev]y?+4 ,at t "t1 rhetoric 0 extremely f>-rea*+3 x _h come to take 9 all ! divisions ( education1 includ+ sci5ce & philosophy4 ,augu/9 claims to h le>n$ all t ! ma/]s ( 8 "t _h to tea*3 rhetoric1 dialectic1 geometry1 music1 ma!matics4 ,hav+ gone ?r\gh ! :ole s*ola/ic sy/em1 he ?\ght ( /udy+ law1 & aid$ by 8 gift ( words1 to become a b>ri/]4 ,= a gift$ "y man x 0 ! %orte/ & sure/ road to money & hon\rs4 ,unhappily = him1 h>dly 0 he settl$ d[n at ,c>?age ?an 8 fa!r di$4 ,?is made 8 future aga9 problematical4 ,h[ 0 he to keep up 8 /udies )\t ! sums com+ f 8 fa!r8 ,! affairs ( ,patricius mu/ h be5 left 9 ! mo/ p>l\s condition4 ,b ,monnica1 cl++ to h] ambiti\s plans = h] son1 knew h[ to triumph ov] all difficulties1 & %e cont9u$ to s5d ,augu/9 money4 ,romanianus1 ! ,mc5as ( ,?aga/e1 :o 0 d\btless appli$ to by h]1 came once m to ! rescue ( ! h>d-up /ud5t4 ,! "y man1 set at ease ab\t 8 exp5ses1 resum$ light-he>t$ly 8 /udi\s & dissipat$ life4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ?is family b]eavem5t does n seem to h caus$ him mu* grief4 ,9 ! ,confessions he m5tions ! dea? ( 8 fa!r 9 a few words1 &1 s to speak1 9 p>5!sis1 z an ev5t long =ese5 )\t mu* importance4 ,& yet he ow$ him a great deal4 ,patricius 0 h>d press$1 & he took imm5se tr\ble to provide ! means = 8 son's education4 ,b ) ! f9e egotism ( y\?1 ,augu/9 p]haps ?\ght x en\gh to h pr(it$ by 8 fa!r's sacrifices1 & disp5s$ himself f gratitude4 ,9 any case1 8 affection = 8 fa!r mu/ h be5 r lukew>m2 ! natural diff]5ces betwe5 !m ran too deep4 ,9 ^! ye>s1 ,monnica fill$ all ! he>t ( ,augu/94 ,b ! influ5ce ( ,monnica h]self 0 v slight ^u ?is gr[n-up y\?1 eighte5 ye>s old4 ,he _h =gott5 h] lessons1 & x did n tr\ble him mu* if 8 conduct add$ to ! worries ( ! wid[1 :o 0 n[ /ruggl+ ) h] husb&'s cr$itors4 ,at he>t he 0 a good son & he deeply lov$ 8 "m1 b inevitably ! pressure ( ! life ar\nd him swept him along4 ,he has pictur$ 8 companions = u1 aft] 8 conv]sion1 z t]rible blackgu>ds4 ,no d\bt he is too sev]e4 ,^? "y m5 7 nei!r bett] nor worse ?an else:]e4 ,!y 7 r[dy1 z !y 7 9 ! o!r cities ( ! ,empire1 & z "o always is at t age4 ,imp]ial regulations enjo9$ ! police to h an eye on ! /ud5ts1 to note _! conduct & :at company !y kept4 ,!y 7 n to become memb]s ( prohibit$ societies1 n to g too (t5 to ! !atre1 nor to wa/e _! "t 9 rak+ & fea/+s4 ,if _! conduct became too outrage\s1 !y 7 to be beat5 ) rods & s5t back to _! p>5ts4 ,at ,c>?age !re 0 a h>d-liv+ set ( m5 :o call$ !mselves ,! ,wreck]s4 ,_! great pleasure 0 to g & make a r[ at a pr(essor's lecture2 !y w\ld bur/ noisily into ! classroom & sma% up any?+ !y c\ld lay hold (4 ,!y amus$ !mselves also by ragg+ ! fre%m51 je]+ at _! simplicity1 & play+ !m a ?\s& tricks4 ,?+s hav5't mu* *ang$ s9ce !n4 ,! fell[-/ud5ts ( ,augu/9 7 s l /ud5ts ( to-day t ! mo/ mod]n t]ms sugge/ !mselves to describe _! p]=mances4 ,augu/91 :o 0 on ! :ole well conduct$1 &1 z behov$ a future pr(essor1 _h a respect = discipl9e1 disapprov$ ( ,! ,wreck]s & _! viol5ce4 ,?is did n prev5t him f enjoy+ himself 9 _! society4 ,he 0 ov]come ) %ame because he c\ld n keep pace ) !m--we mu/ believe x at lea/1 s9ce he tells u s himself4 ,) a c]ta9 lack ( assurance1 bl5d$ h[ev] ) mu* juv5ile vanity1 he jo9$ ! b&4 ,he li/5$ to t c\nsel ( vulg> wisdom :i* is disa/r\s to s\ls l 83 ,d z o!rs d4 ,he accord+ly did d z ! o!rs2 he knew all _! debau*]y1 or he imag9$ he did1 = h[ev] l[ he w5t1 he 0 nev] able to d any?+ mean4 ,he 0 !n s f> f ! fai? t he arrang$ love-try/s 9 ! *ur*es4 ,i 0 n afraid to ?9k ( my lu/1 & plan a s*eme = secur+ ! deadly fruit ( s91 ev5 )9 ! walls ( ,?y *ur* dur+ ! celebration ( ,?y my/]ies4 ,we might be read+ ! confession ( a s5suali/ ( to-day4 ,"o gr[s a/oni%$ at ^! morals1 at once s old & s mod]n4 ,:at1 already6 ,^! "y ,*ri/ian basilicas1 b newly sprung out ( ! e>?1 :]e ! m5 7 /rictly sep>at$ f ! wom5--7 !y already become places ( assignation1 :]e love-lett]s 7 slipp$ into h&s1 & procuresses sold _! furtive s]vices6444 ,at l5g? ! great happ9ess = :i* ,augu/9 _h s long be5 sigh+ 0 grant$ him3 he lov$ & he 0 lov$4 ,he lov$ z he inde$ 0 able to love1 ) all ! impetuosity ( 8 nature & all ! fire ( 8 temp]am5t1 ) all 8 he>t & all 8 s5ses4 ,i plung$ headlong into love1 ^: fett]s ,i long$ to we>4 ,b z he w5t at once to extremes1 z he meant to give himself altoge!r1 & expect$ all 9 return1 he grew irritat$ at n receiv+ ?is same k9d ( love4 ,x 0 nev] en\gh love = him4 ,yet he 0 lov$1 & ! v c]ta9ty ( ?is love1 always too poor to 8 m9d1 exasp]at$ ! viol5ce & p]t9acity ( 8 desire4 ,because ,i 0 lov$1 ,i pr\dly rivet$ r\nd myself ! *a9 ( woe1 to be soon sc\rg$ ) ! r$-hot iron rods ( jeal\sy1 torn by suspicions1 fe>s1 ang]1 & qu>rels4 ,?is 0 passion ) *orus & or*e/ra1 a little !atrical1 ) its viol5ces1 its alt]nations betwe5 fury & ec/asy1 su* z an ,african1 /eep$ 9 romantic lit]ature1 w\ld conceive x4 ,deceiv$1 he flung himself 9 desp]ate pursuit ( ! ev]-flitt+ love4 ,he _h c]ta9ly m ?an "o passion4 ,ea* "o left him m hungry ?an ! la/4 ,he 0 s5sual1 & he felt ea* "t h[ brief is pleasure1 9 :at a limit$ circle all enjoym5t turns4 ,he 0 t5d]1 eag] to give himself2 & he saw pla9ly t "o nev] gives oneself q altoge!r1 t ev5 9 ! madde/ h\rs ( surr5d] "o always res]ves oneself 9 secret1 keep+ = oneself some?+ ( oneself2 & he felt t mo/ ( ! "t 8 t5d]ness got no answ]4 ,:5 ! joy\s he>t br+s ! (f]+ ( its love1 ! he>t ( h] he loves is abs5t4 ,& :5 x is !re1 on ! edge ( ! lips1 deck$ & smil+ to meet ! lov$ "o1 x is ! o!r :o is abs5t4 ,almo/ nev] d !y jo9 toge!r1 & !y nev] jo9 toge!r altoge!r4 ,& s ?is ,love1 :i* claims to be con/ant & ev5 et]nal1 ought to be1 if x w\ld prolong itself1 a cont9ual act ( fai?1 & hope1 & *>ity4 ,to believe 9 x 9 spite ( its d>k5+ & fall+ away2 to hope its return1 (t5 aga9/ all evid5ce2 to p>don its inju/ices & sometimes its f\l actions--h[ _m are capable ( su* abnegation8 ,augu/9 w5t ?r\gh all t4 ,he 0 9 despair ab\t x4 ,& !n1 ! no/algia ( pr$e/9$ s\ls took hold ( him4 ,he _h an indi/9ct feel+ t ^! human loves 7 unwor?y ( him1 & t if he mu/ h a ma/]1 he 0 born to s]ve ano!r ,ma/]4 ,he _h a desire to %ake (f ! platitude ( "h bel[1 ! melan*oly f5 :]e /agnat$ :at he calls ! m>% ( ! fle%2 to escape1 9 a ^w1 f ! wret*$ huts :]e9 = a little he _h %elt]$ 8 he>t2 to burn all beh9d him1 & s prev5t ! weakness ( a return2 & to g & pit* 8 t5t fur!r1 high]1 he knew n :]e--^u "s unapproa*able m\nta9 :]e ! air is icy1 b be=e ! eyes1 ! va/y /ret*es ( light & space4444 ,^! fir/ loves ( ,augu/9 7 really too fi]ce to la/4 ,!y burn$ up !mselves4 ,augu/9 did n keep !m up long4 ,!re 0 9 him1 besides1 an in/9ct :i* c\nt]act$ 8 exub]ant1 amor\s s5tim5tality--! s5se ( beauty4 ,t 9 itself 0 en\gh to make him pause on ! d[nhill ( riot4 ,! an>*y & commotion ( passion 0 repell5t to a m9d devot$ to cle>ness & ord]4 ,b !re 0 /ill ano!r ?+--! son ( ! ,?aga/e freehold] _h any am\nt ( common s5se4 ,t at lea/ 0 left to him ( ! pat]nal h]itage4 ,a y\? ( :at we call ! l[] middle class1 /rictly br\ght up 9 ! h>d & frugal discipl9e ( ! prov9ces1 he felt ! effects ( 8 tra9+4 ,! bohemianism 9 :i* 8 fri5ds revell$ c\ld n hold him indef9itely4 ,besides ?is1 ! c>e] he desir$1 t ( a b>ri/] or pr(essor1 _h a prelim9>y obligation to ma9ta9 a c]ta9 outw>d decorum4 ,he himself tells u s2 9 ! mid/ ( 8 mo/ disreputable p]=mances he aspir$ to be kn[n = 8 fa%ion & wit--elegans atque urbanus4 ,polit5ess ( spee* & mann]s1 ! c\rte\s mutual def]5ce ( ! be/ society--su*1 0 ! ideal ( ?is budd+ pr(essor ( rhetoric4 ,anxiety ab\t 8 future1 jo9$ to 8 rapid dis5*antm5ts1 ere long sob]$ ! /ud5t3 he j took 8 fl+ & !n settl$ d[n4 ,love turn$ = him into s5sual habit4 ,8 head became cle> = /udy & m$itation4 ,! appr5tice to rhetoric lik$ 8 bus9ess4 ,up to 8 la/ brea?1 despite 8 ef=ts to *ange1 he cont9u$1 l all 8 contempor>ies1 to love rhetoric4 ,he h&l$ words l a work] 9 v]bals :o is aw>e ( _! price & kn[s all _! res\rces4 ,ev5 aft] 8 conv]sion1 if he condemns pr(ane lit]ature z a poison] ( s\ls1 he absolves ! beauty ( language4 ,i accuse n words1 he says4 ,words are *oice & preci\s vessels4 ,i accuse ! w9e ( error t drunk5 doctors p\r out = u into ^! fair goblets4 ,at ! ,rhetoric ,s*ool he took extreme pleasure 9 declaim+4 ,he 0 applaud$2 ! pr(essor gave him z an example to ! o!rs4 ,^! s*ola/ic triumphs =etold o!rs m celebrat$ & rev]b]at+4 ,& s1 9 8 he>t1 lit]>y vanity & ambition disput$ ! ev]-lively illusions ( love4 ,& !n1 above all6 he _h to live2 ,monnica's remittances 7 necess>ily small2 ! g5]osity ( ,romanianus _h its limit4 ,s he beat ab\t to enl>ge 8 small /ud5t's purse4 ,he wrote v]ses = poetic competitions4 ,p]haps already he 0 able to act z tutor to c]ta9 ( 8 fell[-/ud5ts1 less advanc$4 ,if ! ne$ ( lov+ torm5t$ 8 s5tim5tal he>t1 he tri$ to assuage x 9 fri5d%ip4 ,he lov$ fri5d%ip z he lov$ love4 ,he 0 a passionate & fai?ful fri5d up to 8 dea?4 ,at ?is "t ( 8 life1 he 0 rivet+ fri5d%ips :i* 7 nev] to be brok54 ,he _h beside him 8 fell[-c\ntryman1 ,alypius1 ! future ,bi%op ( ,?aga/e1 :o _h foll[$ him to ,c>?age & w\ld1 lat] on1 foll[ him to ,milan2 ,nebridius1 a n less de> companion1 fat$ to die e>ly2 ,honoratus1 :om he drew into 8 errors & lat] did 8 be/ to enlight52 &1 f9ally1 t my/]i\s "y man1 ^: "n he does n tell u1 & ^: loss he m\rn$ z nev] any "o has m\rn$ ! dea? ( a fri5d4 ,!y liv$ 9 daily & h\rly intimacy1 9 cont9ual f]v\r & en?usiasm4 ,!y 7 great !atre-go]s1 :]e ,augu/9 0 able to satisfy 8 desire = t5d] emotions & romantic adv5tures4 ,!y _h musical p>ties2 !y tri$ ov] aga9 ! popul> airs he>d at ! ,odeum or "s o!r ( ! innum]able !atres at ,c>?age4 ,all ! ,c>?ag9ians1 ev5 ! populace1 7 mad ab\t music4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,hippo1 9 8 s]mons1 recalls a mason ^u 8 scaffold+1 or a %oemak] 9 8 /all1 s++ away ! tunes ( well-kn[n musicians4 ,!n our /ud5ts /roll$ on ! quays or 9 ! ,h>b\r ,squ>e1 contemplat+ ! _m-col\r$ sea1 ?is spl5d\r ( wat]s at ! sett+ sun1 :i* ,augu/9 w extol "o day ) an inspiration unkn[n to ! anci5t poets4 ,above all1 !y fell into discussions1 comm5t$ :at !y _h lately read1 or built up a/oni%+ plans = ! future4 ,s fl[$ by a happy & *>m+ life1 abruptly int]polat$ ) sup]b anticipations4 ,) :at a full he>t ! ,*ri/ian p5it5t calls x back = u6--,:at delight$ me 9 ! int]c\rse ( my fri5ds1 0 ! talk1 ! laught]1 ! good turns we did ea* o!r1 ! common /udy ( ! ma/]s ( eloqu5ce1 ! comrade%ip1 n[ grave n[ gay1 ! diff]5ces t left no /+1 z ( a man diff]+ ) himself1 ! spice ( disagreem5t :i* season$ ! monotony ( cons5t4 ,ea* by turns w\ld in/ruct or li/52 impati5tly we miss$ ! abs5t fri5d1 & sav\r$ ! joy ( 8 return4 ,we lov$ ea* o!r ) all our he>ts1 & su* tok5s ( fri5d%ip spr++ f ! he>t & display$ by a ^w1 a glance1 an expression1 by a ?\s& pretty complaisances1 supply ! heat :i* welds s\ls toge!r1 & ( _m make "o4 ,x is easily und]/ood t su* ties z ^! _h giv5 ,augu/9 a p]man5t disgu/ = 8 r[dy comrades ( a =m] "t3 he w5t no m ) ,! ,wreck]s4 ,! small circle he took pleasure 9 0 quiet & *e]ful4 ,its m]rim5t 0 controll$ by ! ,african gravity4 ,he & 8 fri5ds come be=e my eyes1 a little l ^? /ud5ts ( !ology1 or ^? cultivat$ "y ,arabs1 :o discuss poetry1 loll+ indol5tly ^u ! cu%ions ( a divan1 :ile !y roll betwe5 _! f+]s ! amb] beads ( _! ros>y1 or walk+ sl[ly "u ! arcades ( a mosque1 drap$ 9 _! :ite-silk sim>s1 ) a s]i\s & m$itative air1 ge/ures elegant & measur$1 c\rte\s & h>moni\s spee*1 & some?+ discreet1 polite1 & already cl]ical 9 _! tone & mann]s4 ,9 fact1 ! life :i* ,augu/9 0 at t "t reli%+ 0 ! pagan life on its be/ & g5tle/ side4 ,! subtle network ( habits & daily occupations envelop$ him little by little4 ,!re 0 "s risk ( 8 gr[+ torpid 9 ?is s(t k9d ( life1 :5 sudd5ly a rude %ock r\s$ him4444 ,x 0 a *ance1 b 9 8 eyes a provid5tial *ance1 :i* put ! ,hort5sius ( ,cic]o betwe5 8 h&s4 ,augu/9 0 ab\t n9ete51 /ill a /ud5t2 accord+ to ! ord] :i* prevail$ 9 ! s*ools1 ! "t _h come = him to read & expla9 ?is philosophical dialogue4 ,he _h no curiosity ab\t ! book4 ,he took x f 8 s5se ( duty z a /ud5t1 because x figur$ on ! s*$ule4 ,he unroll$ ! book1 & began x1 d\btless ) calm indiff]5ce4 ,all ( a sudd51 a great unexpect$ light %one betwe5 ! l9es4 ,8 he>t ?robb$4 ,8 :ole s\l sprang t[>ds ^! phrases1 s dazzl+ & reveal+4 ,he awoke f 8 long dr[s9ess4 ,be=e him %one a m>vell\s vision4444 ,z ?is dialogue is lo/1 we c h>dly to-day acc\nt = su* en?usiasm1 & we hold t ! ,roman orator 0 a v middl+ philosoph]4 ,we "k1 h[ev]1 ?r\gh ,augu/9 himself1 t ! book conta9$ an eloqu5t praise ( wisdom4 ,& !n1 words are naught )\t ! s\l ( ! read]2 all ?is1 fall+ into ,augu/9's s\l1 r5d]$ a prolong$ & magnific5t s\nd4 ,x is evid5t1 too1 t j at ! mom5t :5 he unroll$ ! book he 0 9 a condition to receive ?is uplift+ summons4 ,9 su* m9utes1 :5 ! he>t1 ignorant ( itself1 swells l ! sea be=e a /orm1 :5 all ! inn] ri*es ( ! be+ ov]fl[1 ! slighte/ glimm] is en\gh to reveal all ^! imprison$ =ces1 & ! lea/ %ock to set !m free4 ,he has at lea/ pres]v$ = u1 9 pi\s & fai?ful gratitude1 "s phrases ( ?is dialogue :i* mov$ him s deeply4 ,especially does he admire ?is passage1 :]e9 ! au?or1 aft] a long discussion1 ends 9 ^! t]ms3 ,if1 z pret5d ! philosoph]s ( old "t1 :o are also ! greate/ & mo/ illu/ri\s1 we h a s\l immortal & div9e1 x behoves u to ?9k1 t ! m x has p]sev]$ 9 its way1 t is to say1 9 reason1 love1 & ! pursuit ( tru?1 & ! less x has be5 int]m+l$ & /a9$ 9 human error & passion1 ! easi] w x be = x to raise itself & so> aga9 to ! skies4 ,su* phrases1 read 9 a c]ta9 /ate ( m9d1 might well ov]:elm ?is "y man1 :o 0 ere long to ye>n = ! cloi/] & 0 de/9$ to be ! f\nd] ( ,african mona/icism4 ,to give 8 :ole life to ! /udy ( wisdom1 to compel himself t[>ds ! contemplation ( ,god1 to live "h bel[ an almo/ div9e life--?is ideal1 impossible to pagan wisdom1 ,augu/9 0 call$ to realize 9 ! "n ( ,*ri/4 ,t _h dawn$ on him1 all at once1 :ile he 0 read+ ! ,hort5sius4 ,& ?is ideal appe>$ to him s beautiful1 s well wor? ! sacrifice ( all he _h hi!rto lov$1 t no?+ else c\nt$ = him any m4 ,he despis$ rhetoric1 ! va9 /udies x compell$ him to pursue1 ! hon\r & glory x promis$ him4 ,:at 0 all t to ! prize ( wisdom8 ,= wisdom he felt himself ready to give up ! _w4444 ,b ^! h]oic outbur/s d n1 z a rule1 keep up v long 9 natures s *angeable & impressionable z ,augu/9's4 ,yet !y are n entirely ?r[n away4 ,?us1 9 e>ly y\?1 come dim revelations ( ! future4 ,!re comes a pres5tim5t ( ! port to :i* "o w "s day be sail+2 a glimpse ( ! task to fulfil1 ! "w to build up2 & all ?is rises be=e ! eyes 9 an entrancem5t ( ! :ole be+4 ,?\gh ! bright image be eclips$1 p]haps = ye>s1 ! remembrance ( x p]si/s amid ! wor/ degradations or ! wor/ m$iocrities4 ,he :o "o s+le "t has se5 x pass1 c nev] aft]w>ds live q l o!r p4 ,?is fev] calm$1 ,augu/9 set himself to reflect4 ,! anci5t philosoph]s promis$ him wisdom4 ,b ,*ri/ also promis$ x6 ,0 x n possible to reconcile !m8 ,& 0 n ! ,gospel ideal ess5tially m human ?an t ( ! pagan philosoph]s8 ,suppose he tri$ to submit to t1 to br+ ! fai? ( 8 *ildhood into l9e ) 8 ambitions z a "y man ( intellect8 ,to be good aft] ! mann] ( 8 "m1 ( 8 gr&p>5ts1 ( ! good ,?aga/e s]vants1 ( all ! humble ,*ri/ian s\ls ^: virtues he _h be5 taught to respect1 & at ! same "t to rival a ,plato by ! /r5g? ( ?\ght--:at a dream6 ,0 x possible8444 ,he tells u himself t ! illusion 0 brief1 & t he grew cool ab\t ! ,hort5sius because he did n f9d ! "n ( ,*ri/ 9 x4 ,he deceives himself1 probably4 ,at ?is "t he 0 n s ,*ri/ian4 ,he yields to ! temptation ( a f9e phrase3 :5 he wrote 8 ,confessions he _h n yet entirely lo/ ?is habit4 ,b :at rema9s true is1 t feel+ ! inadequat5ess ( pagan philosophy1 he return$ = a mom5t t[>ds ,*ri/ianity4 ,! ,cic]onian dialogue1 by disappo9t+ 8 ?ir/ = ! tru?1 gave him ! idea ( knock+ at ! door ( ! ,*ur* & try+ to f9d out if on t side !re might n be a practicable road = him4 ,?is is :y ! read+ ( ,hort5sius is 9 ,augu/9's eyes "o ( ! great dates ( 8 life4 ,al?\gh he fell back 9 8 errors1 he takes cr$it = 8 ef=t4 ,he recognizes 9 x ! fir/ sign1 &1 z x 71 a promise ( 8 conv]sion4 ,!nce=?1 my ,god1 began my upw>d way1 & my return t[>ds ,!e4 ,he began !n to /udy ! ,holy ,scriptures ) a m or less s]i\s int5tion to in/ruct himself 9 !m4 ,b to g to ! ,bible by way ( ,cic]o 0 to take ! wor/ road4 ,augu/9 got lo/ !re4 ,?is direct popul> /yle1 :i* only c>es ab\t say+ ?+s1 & n ab\t h[ !y are said1 c\ld only repel ! pupil ( ,c>?age rhetoricians1 ! imitator ( ! h>moni\s ,cic]onian s5t5ces4 ,n only _h he mu* too spoil$ a ta/e 9 lit]ature1 b !re 0 also too mu* lit]ature 9 ?is pose ( a "y man :o />ts (f "o f9e morn+ to conqu] wisdom4 ,he 0 puni%$ = 8 lack ( s9c]ity1 & especially ( humility4 ,he und]/ood no?+ ( ! ,scripture1 & ,i f\nd x1 he says1 a ?+ n kn[n to ! pr\d1 nor yet laid op5 to *ildr51 b poor 9 appe>ance1 l(ty 9 op]ation1 & veil$ 9 my/]ies4 ,at t "t1 ,i 0 n ! man to b[ my head s z to pass 9 at its door4444 ,he grew tir$ v quickly4 ,he turn$ 8 back on ! ,bible1 z he _h ?r[n aside ,hort5sius1 & he w5t to f9d pa/ure else:]e4 ,nev]!less1 8 m9d _h be5 set 9 motion4 ,nev]more 0 he to "k repose1 till he _h f\nd tru?4 ,he dem&$ ?is tru? f all ! sects & all ! *ur*es4 ,s x 01 t 9 despair he flung himself into ,mani*eeism4 ,"s h pr(ess$ amazem5t t ?is hone/ & practical m9d %\ld h /uck fa/ 9 a doctr9e s tortu\s1 s equivocal1 contam9at$ by fancies s grossly absurd4 ,b p]haps x is =gott5 t !re 0 ev]y?+ 9 ,mani*eeism4 ,! lead]s ( ! sect did n deliv] ! bulk ( ! doctr9e all at once to _! cate*um5s2 ! entire initiation 0 a matt] ( sev]al degrees4 ,n[ ,augu/9 nev] w5t high] ?an a simple auditor 9 ! ,mani*ean ,*ur*4 ,:at attract$ specially f9e m9ds to ! ,mani*ees1 0 t !y began by decl>+ !mselves rationali/s4 ,to reconcile fai? ) natural sci5ce & philosophy has be5 ! fad ( h]esi>*s & free-?9k]s 9 all ages4 ,! ,mani*eans bragg$ t !y _h succe$$4 ,!y w5t ev]y:]e1 cry+ out3 ,tru?1 ,tru?6 ,t suit$ ,augu/9 v well3 x 0 j :at he 0 look+ =4 ,he ha/5$ to ! prea*+s ( ^! humbugs1 impati5t to receive at la/ ?is tru?1 s noisily ann\nc$4 ,f :at !y said1 x 0 conta9$ 9 sev]al l>ge books writt5 by _! prophet "u ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,!re 0 q a libr>y ( !m4 ,by way ( bamboozl+ ! cr[d1 !y produc$ "s ( !m :i* look$ v important1 pond]\s z ,tables ( ! ,law1 ri*ly b\nd 9 vellum1 & embelli%$ ) /rik+ illum9ations4 ,h[ 0 x possible to d\bt t ! entire revelation 0 conta9$ 9 su* beautiful books8 ,"o felt at once full ( respect = a religion :i* 0 able to produce 9 its fav\r ! te/imony ( su* a mass ( writ+s4 ,h[ev]1 ! prie/s did n op5 !m4 ,to allay ! impati5ce ( _! he>]s1 !y amus$ !m by criticiz+ ! books & dogmas ( ! ,ca?olics4 ,?is prelim9>y criticism 0 ! fir/ lesson ( _! in/ruction4 ,!y po9t$ out any numb] ( incoh]5ces1 absurdities1 & int]polations 9 ! ,bible3 accord+ to !m1 a great "p ( ! ,scriptures _h be5 foi/$ on ! _w by ! ,jews4 ,b !y triumph$ especially 9 detect+ ! contradictions ( ! ,gospel n>ratives4 ,!y sapp$ !m ) syllogisms4 ,x is easy to und]/& t ^! ex]cises 9 logic %\ld h at once attract$ ! y\?ful ,augu/94 ,) 8 extraord9>y dialectical subtilty1 he soon became v good at x himself--mu* bett] ev5 ?an 8 ma/]s4 ,he made spee*es 9 _! assemblies1 f5c$ aga9/ a text1 p]emptorily refut$ x1 & r$uc$ 8 adv]s>ies to sil5ce4 ,he 0 applaud$1 cov]$ ) praise4 ,a religion :i* br\ght him su* successes mu/ be ! true "o4 ,aft] he became a bi%op1 he tri$ to expla9 to himself h[ x 0 t he fell into ,mani*eeism1 & c\ld f9d only two reasons4 ,! fir/1 he says1 0 a fri5d%ip :i* took hold ( me "u ,i "k n :at appe>ance ( k9dness1 & 0 l a cord ab\t my neck4444 ,! second 0 ^? unhappy victories t ,i almo/ always won 9 our disputes4 ,b !re is /ill ano!r :i* he m5tions else:]e1 & x _h p]haps ! mo/ weight4 ,?is 0 ! loose moral code :i* ,mani*eeism au?oriz$4 ,?is doctr9e taught t we are n responsible = ! evil we d4 ,our s9s & vices are ! "w ( ! evil ,pr9ciple--! ,god ( ,d>kness1 enemy ( ! ,god ( ,light4 ,n[ at ! mom5t :5 ,augu/9 0 receiv$ z auditor by ! ,mani*ees1 he _h a special ne$ ( excus+ 8 conduct by a moral sy/em s conv5i5t & indulg5t4 ,he _h j =m$ 8 connection ) h] :o 0 to become ! "m ( 8 *ild4 ,,iv ,,! ,,sweetness ,,( ,,te>s ,augu/9 0 ne>ly tw5ty4 ,he _h f9i%$ 8 /udies 9 rhetoric )9 ! requir$ "t4 ,accord+ to ! notions ( t age1 a "y man ought to h conclud$ 8 c\rse by 8 tw5tie? ye>4 ,if n1 he 0 consid]$ pa/ m5d+ & s5t back !re & !n to 8 family4 ,x may appe> surpris+ t a gift$ /ud5t l ,augu/9 did n f9i% 8 rhetoric c\rse soon]4 ,b aft] 8 t]ms at ,madaura1 he _h lo/ ne>ly a ye> at ,?aga/e4 ,besides1 ! life ( ,c>?age _h s _m *>ms = him t d\btless he 0 9 no hurry to leave4 ,h[ev] t may be1 ! mom5t 0 n[ come = him to make up 8 m9d ab\t 8 c>e]4 ,! wi%es ( 8 p>5ts1 ! advice ( 8 ma/]s1 z well z 8 own ambitions & qualities1 urg$ him1 z we "k1 to become a b>ri/]4 ,b n[1 sudd5ly1 all 8 projects = ! future *ang$4 ,n only did he give up ! law1 b at ! v mom5t :5 all appe>$ to smile on him1 at ! op5+ ( 8 y\?1 he left ,c>?age to g & bury himself z a tea*] ( gramm> 9 ! little free-t[n 8 bir?place4 ,z he has neglect$ to give any explanation ( ?is sudd5 det]m9ation1 we are r$uc$ to conjectures4 ,x is likely t 8 "m 0 bo!r$ ab\t h\sehold exp5ses & c\ld no long] af=d to keep him at ,c>?age4 ,besides1 %e _h o!r *ildr51 a son & daught]1 to />t 9 life4 ,augu/9 0 on ! po9t ( be+1 if n poor1 at lea/ v h>d up4 ,he mu/ d some?+ to e>n 8 liv+1 & z quickly z possible4 ,9 ^! conditions1 ! quicke/ way out ( ! difficulty 0 to sell to o!rs :at he _h b\ght f 8 ma/]s4 ,to live1 he w\ld op5 a ^w-%op1 z he calls x disda9fully4 ,b z he _h only j ceas$ to be a /ud5t1 he c\ld n dream ( becom+ a pr(essor 9 a great city su* z ,c>?age1 & sett+ himself up 9 rivalry to s _m celebrat$ ma/]s4 ,! be/ ?+ he c\ld d1 if he did n want to vegetate1 0 to fall back on "s m mode/ po/4 ,n[ 8 protector1 ,romanianus1 want$ him to g to ,?aga/e4 ,?is ri* man _h a son almo/ gr[n up1 :om x 0 necess>y to put z soon z possible 9 ! h&s ( a tutor4 ,augu/91 s (t5 help$ by ! fa!r1 0 naturally ?\ght ( to look aft] ! y\?4 ,fur!rmore1 ,romanianus1 :o appreciat$ ,augu/9's tal5t1 mu/ h be5 anxi\s to attract him to ,?aga/e & keep him !re4 ,) an eye to ! int]e/s ( 8 free-t[n1 he desir$ to h su* a %9+ light 9 ! place4 ,s he ask$ ?is "y man1 :om he patroniz$1 to return to 8 native di/rict & op5 a gramm> s*ool4 ,he promis$ him pupils1 &1 above all1 ! support ( 8 influ5ce1 :i* 0 consid]able1 ,monnica1 z we may conjecture1 add$ h] entreaties to ^? ( ! great head ( ! ,?aga/e municipality4 ,augu/9 yield$4 ,did x grieve him v mu* to make up 8 m9d to ?is exile8 ,x mu/ h be5 extremely h>d = a "y man ( tw5ty to give up ,c>?age & its pleasures4 ,moreov]1 x is pretty ne>ly c]ta9 t at ?is "t he _h already />t$ t connection :i* 0 to la/ s long4 ,to leave a mi/ress :om he lov$1 & t 9 all ! fre%ness ( a passion j beg9n+--"o wond]s h[ he 0 able to make up 8 m9d to x4 ,& yet he did leave1 & sp5t ne>ly a ye> at ,?aga/e4 ,"o peculi> m>k ( ! y\?1 & ev5 ( ! :ole life ( ,augu/91 is ! ease ) :i* he unle>ns & breaks (f 8 habits--! s5tim5tal z well z ! intellectual4 ,he us$ up a good _m doctr9es be=e re/+ 9 ! ,ca?olic tru?2 & ev5 aft]w>ds1 9 ! c\rse ( a long life1 he contradict$ & correct$ himself m ?an once 9 8 controv]sies & !ological writ+s4 ,8 ,retractations prove ?is4 ,"o might say t ! accu/om$ weighs on him z a h9drance to 8 lib]ty2 t ! look ( ! places :]e he lives becomes hateful to him z a ?reat ( s]vitude4 ,he feels dimly t 8 true c\ntry is else:]e1 & t if he mu/ settle any:]e x is 9 ! h\se ( 8 ,heav5ly ,fa!r4 ,inquietum e/ cor no/rum1 donec requiescat 9 te4444 ,re/less are our he>ts1 ,o my ,god1 until !y re/ 9 ,!e4 ,long be=e ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi1 he practis$ ! my/ic rule3 ,z a /rang] & a pilgrim4 ,x is true t 9 8 tw5tie? ye> he 0 v f> f be+ a my/ic4 ,b he already felt t re/lessness :i* made him cross ! sea & roam ,italy f ,rome to ,milan4 ,he is an impulsive4 ,he _c resi/ ! mirages ( 8 he>t or 8 imag9ation4 ,he is always ready to leave4 ,! road & its *ances tempt him4 ,he is eag] = ! unkn[n4 ,he lets himself be c>ri$ 9 delight by ! bl[+ w9d4 ,god calls him2 he obeys )\t kn[+ :]e he goes4 ,?is unsettl$ "y man1 halt+ betwe5 contr>y passions1 :o feels at home n[h]e1 has already ! s\l ( an apo/le4 ,?is *angeabl5ess ( mood 0 probably ! true cause ( 8 dep>ture = ,?aga/e4 ,b o!r m app>5t reasons1 reasons m pat5t to a juv5ile consci\sness1 guid$ him also4 ,no d\bt he 0 n sorry to reappe> 9 8 little t[n1 al?\gh he 0 s "y1 ) ! importance & au?ority ( a ma/]4 ,8 =m] companions 7 go+ to become 8 pupils4 ,& !n ! ,mani*ees _h fanaticiz$ him4 ,c>ri$ away by ! neophyte's bubbl+ zeal1 elevat$ by 8 triumphs at ! public meet+s 9 ,c>?age1 he meant to %9e be=e 8 fell[-c\ntrym51 & p]haps conv]t !m4 ,he dep>t$ ) 8 m9d made up to proselytize4 ,let u believe also1 t 9 spite ( 8 dissolute life1 & ! new passion t fill$ 8 he>t1 he did n come back to ,?aga/e )\t an affectionate ?\ght at ! back ( 8 head = 8 "m4 ,! reception t ,monnica _h 9 res]ve = him 0 go+ to surprise him consid]ably4 ,s9ce h] wid[hood1 ! wife ( ,patricius _h s+ul>ly advanc$ 9 ! way ( ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,! e>ly ,*ur* n only (f]$ wid[s ! moral help ( its sacram5ts & consolations1 x also grant$ a special dignity ) c]ta9 privileges to ^? :o made a v[ to refra9 f sex-int]c\rse4 ,!y _h 9 ! basilicas1 ev5 z ! consecrat$ virg9s1 a place ( hon\r1 divid$ f t ( ! o!r matrons by a balu/rade4 ,!y wore a special dress4 ,!y 7 oblig$ to a conduct :i* w\ld %ew !m wor?y ( all ! out] m>ks ( respect :i* surr\nd$ !m4 ,! au/]ity ( ,monnica _h increas$ ) ! zeal ( h] fai?4 ,%e set an example to ! ,*ur* p at ,?aga/e4 ,docile to ! tea*+s ( h] prie/s1 eag] to s]ve h] bre?r51 multiply+ alms z mu* z %e c\ld ) h] /rait5$ means1 %e 0 unfail+ at ! s]vices ( ! ,*ur*4 ,twice daily1 morn+ & ev5+1 %e might be se51 exact to ! h\r ( pray] & s]mon4 ,%e did n g !re1 h] son assures u1 to m+le 9 cabals & ! gossip ( pi\s females1 b to he> ,god's ^w 9 homily1 & t ,god might he> h] 9 pray]4 ,! wid[ compell$ all :o 7 ab\t h] to ! same sev]e rule :i* %e h]self obs]v$4 ,9 ?is rigid atmosph]e ( 8 home1 ! /ud5t f ,c>?age1 ) 8 free1 fa%ionable airs1 mu/ h caus$ a pa9ful a/oni%m5t4 ,monnica felt at once t %e & h] son und]/ood ea* o!r no long]4 ,%e began by remon/rat+ ) him4 ,augu/9 rebell$4 ,?+s got worse :51 ) 8 presumption ( ! "y pr(essor new-enamell$ by ! s*ools1 ! h>% & aggressive assurance ( ! h]esi>*1 he boa/$ z l\d z he c\ld ( be+ a ,mani*ee4 ,monnica1 deeply w\nd$ 9 h] piety & mo!rly t5d]ness1 ord]$ him to give up 8 errors4 ,he refus$1 & only repli$ by s>casms to ! poor woman's compla9ts4 ,!n %e mu/ h believ$ t ! sep>ation 0 f9al1 t ,augu/9 _h committ$ an irrep>able crime4 ,be+ an ,african ,*ri/ian1 absolute 9 h] fai? & passionate = its def5ce1 %e reg>d$ h] son z a public dang]4 ,%e 0 fill$ ) horror at 8 treason4 ,x is possible1 too1 t guid$ by ! second-sight ( h] affection1 %e saw cle>] into ,augu/9's he>t ?an he did himself4 ,%e 0 plung$ 9 sorr[ t he mi/ook himself to ?is ext5t1 & refus$ ! ,grace :i* desir$ to w9 him to ! ,ca?olic unity4 ,& z he 0 n cont5t ) los+ himself1 b also drew o!rs into p]il--disput+1 spee*-mak+ be=e 8 fri5ds1 abus+ 8 p[] ( language to ?r[ tr\ble into consci5ces--,monnica f9ally made up h] m9d4 ,%e =bade h] son to eat at h] table1 or to sleep "u h] ro(4 ,%e drove him f ! h\se4 ,?is mu/ h be5 a big sc&al 9 ,?aga/e4 ,x does n appe>1 h[ev]1 t ,augu/9 c>$ mu*4 ,9 all ! conceit ( 8 false k1 he _h t k9d ( inhumanity :i* drives ! intellectual to make litt] ( ! sweete/ & deepe/ feel+s z a sacrifice to 8 ab/ract idol4 ,n only did he n m9d v mu* if 8 apo/asy made 8 "m weep1 b he did n tr\ble1 ei!r1 to reconcile ! *im]as ( 8 bra9 ) ! liv+ reality ( 8 s\l & ! ?+s ( life4 ,:atev] he f\nd inconv5i5t1 he tranquilly d5i$1 cont5t if he _h talk$ well & entangl$ 8 adv]s>y 9 ! net ( 8 syllogisms4 ,put 9 int]dict by ,monnica1 he simply w5t & qu>t]$ himself on ,romanianus4 ,! sumptu\s hospitality he receiv$ !re v soon consol$ him = 8 exile f 8 home4 ,& if 8 self-e/eem _h be5 affront$1 ! pride ( liv+ famili>ly ) s important a p]sonage 01 = a va9 "y man1 a v full comp5sation4 ,9 fact1 ?is ,romanianus r\s$ ! admiration ( ! :ole c\ntry by 8 luxury & lavi% exp5diture4 ,he 0 b\nd to ru9 himself 9 ! long run1 or1 at any rate1 to raise up envi\s p b5t ^u 8 ru94 ,be+ at ! head ( ! ,decurions1 he 0 ! protector1 n only ( ,?aga/e1 b ( ! neighb\r+ t[ns4 ,he 0 ! great patron1 ! influ5tial man1 :o _h ne>ly ! :ole c\ntry = 8 dep5d5ts4 ,! t[n c\ncil1 ?r\gh gratitude & flatt]y1 _h _h 8 "n engrav$ ^u tables ( brass1 & _h put up /atues to him4 ,x _h ev5 conf]r$ p[]s on him wid] ?an municipal p[]s4 ,! tru? is t ,romanianus did n dole out 8 b5efactions to 8 fell[-citiz5s4 ,he gave !m be>-fights & o!r spectacles till !n unkn[n at ,?aga/e4 ,he did n grudge public banquets1 & e day a free meal 0 to be got at 8 h\se4 ,! gue/s 7 s]v$ pl5tifully4 ,aft] hav+ eat5 8 d9n]1 !y dipp$ 9 ! purse ( ! ho/4 ,romanianus knew ! art ( do+ an oblig+ ?+ discreetly1 & ev5 h[ to anticipate reque/s :i* might be pa9ful4 ,s he 0 proclaim$ unanim\sly1 ! mo/ humane1 ! mo/ lib]al1 ! mo/ polite & happie/ ( m54 ,g5]\s to 8 dep5d5ts1 he did n =get himself4 ,he built a villa :i*1 by ! space x occupi$1 0 a real palace1 ) !rm wall$ 9 preci\s m>bles4 ,he pass$ 8 "t 9 ! ba?s1 or gam+1 or hunt+--9 %ort1 he l$ ! life ( a great l&$ proprietor ( ^? days4 ,no d\bt ^! villas _h nei!r ! beauty nor ! art-value ( ! great ,italian villas1 :i* 7 a k9d ( museums 9 a pretty1 or gr&1 natural frame2 b !y did n lack *>m4 ,"s ( !m1 l t ( ,romanianus1 7 built & decorat$ at lavi% exp5se4 ,imm5sely l>ge1 !y took 9 sometimes an entire village2 & sometimes1 also1 ! villa1 prop]ly speak+1 ! "p ( ! build+ :]e ! ma/] dwelt1 0 =tifi$1 clos$ 9 by walls & t[]s l a feudal ca/le4 ,^u ! out] gates & ! entrance door might be read 9 big lett]s3 ,! ,prop]ty ( ,s-&-s4 ,(t51 ! inscription 0 repeat$ ^u ! walls ( an enclosure or ( a f>m1 :i* really belong$ to a dep5d5t ( ! great man4 ,"u ! %elt] ( ! "l's "n1 ^! small-hold]s def5d$ !mselves bett] aga9/ fiscal tyranny1 or 7 includ$ 9 ! immunities ( _! patrons4 ,s 0 =m$1 "u ! cov] ( patronage1 a sort ( ,african feudalism4 ,augu/9's fa!r1 :o own$ v9ey>ds1 0 c]ta9ly a vassal ( ,romanianus4 ,z ! ,african villa 0 a c5tre ( agricultural activity1 x ma9ta9$ on ! e/ate a :ole population ( slaves1 workm51 & small-hold]s4 ,! *ief h]dsman's h\se neighb\r$ t ( ! =e/]4 ,?r\gh de]-p>ks1 enclos$ by lattic$ f5ces1 w&]$ gazelles4 ,oil factories1 vats & cell>s = w9e1 ran on f ! ba?-build+s & ! (fices4 ,!n !re 0 ! ma9 build+ ) its imm5se doorway1 its belv$]e ( _m /ories1 z 9 ! ,roman villas1 its int]ior gall]ies1 & w+s to ! "r & left ( ! atrium4 ,9 front lay ! t]races1 ! g>d5s ) /raight walks =m$ by closely-clipp$ h$ges ( box :i* l$ to pools & jets ( wat]1 to arb\rs cov]$ ) ivy1 to nymph-f\nta9s ornam5t$ ) columns & /atues4 ,9 ^! g>d5s 0 a p>ticul> place call$ ! philosoph]'s corn]4 ,! mi/ress ( ! h\se us$ to g !re to read or dream4 ,h] *air1 or fold+-seat1 0 plac$ "u ! %ade ( a palm tree4 ,h] philosoph] foll[$ h]1 hold+ h] p>asol & lead+ h] little fav\rite dog4 ,x is easy to realize t ,augu/9 manag$ to /& 8 "m's sev]ity )\t ov]mu* di/ress 9 "o ( ^! f9e c\ntry h\ses4 ,to be com=table !re1 he _h only to foll[ 8 natural incl9ation1 :i* 01 he tells u1 epicureanism4 ,x is mo/ c]ta9 t at ?is p]iod ! only ?+ he c>$ ab\t & s\ght aft] 0 pleasure4 ,/ay+ ) ,romanianus1 he took 8 %>e 9 all ! pleasant ?+s ( life1 suavitates illius vit--%>$ ! amusem5ts ( 8 ho/1 & only bo!r$ ab\t 8 pupils :5 he _h no?+ bett] to d4 ,he mu/ h be5 z little ( a gramm>ian z possible--he hadn't ! "t4 ,) ! tyrannical fri5d%ip ( ri* p1 :o are h>d put to x to f9d occupation1 ,romanianus d\btless monopoliz$ him f morn+ till night4 ,!y hunt$ toge!r1 or d9$1 or read poetry1 or discuss$ 9 ! ev]gre5 alleys ( ! g>d5 or ! philosoph]'s corn]4 ,& naturally1 ! rec5t conv]t to ,mani*eeism did 8 be/ to indoctr9ate & conv]t 8 patron--s f> at lea/ z a c>eless man l ,romanianus c\ld be conv]t$4 ,augu/9 accuses himself ( hav+ flung ,romanianus into 8 own errors4 ,augu/9 probably 0 n s guilty4 ,8 weal?y fri5d does n seem to h _h any v firm convictions4 ,9 all likelihood1 he 0 a pagan1 a sceptical or hesitat+ pagan1 su* z exi/$ 9 numb]s at t "t4 ,l$ by ,augu/91 he drew ne> to ,mani*eeism4 ,!n1 :5 ,augu/9 gave up ,mani*eeism = ,platonic philosophy1 we see ,romanianus take ! airs ( a philosoph]4 ,lat]1 :5 ,augu/9 came back to ,ca?olicism1 he drew ,romanianus 9 8 wake t[>ds t religion4 ,?is man ( fa%ion 0 "o ( ^? frivol\s p :o nev] g deep into ?+s1 = :om ideas are only a pa/ime1 & :o consid] philosoph]s or m5 ( lett]s z amus]s4 ,b x is c]ta9 t he lik$ to li/5 to ,augu/91 & let himself be influ5c$4 ,if he trifl$ ) ,mani*eeism1 ! reason 0 t ,augu/9 dazzl$ him ) 8 argum5ts & f9e phrases4 ,?is orator ( tw5ty _h already extraord9>y *>m4 ,s ,augu/9 l$ a delightful life ) ,romanianus4 ,ev]y?+ pleas$ him--8 talk+ triumphs1 ! admiration ( 8 he>]s1 ! flatt]y & luxury :i* surr\nd$ him4 ,mean:ile1 ,monnica 0 plung$ 9 grief at 8 conduct1 & implor$ ,god to draw him f 8 errors4 ,%e began to be sorry t %e _h s5t him away1 & ) ! cle>-sight$ness ( ! ,*ri/ian1 %e p]ceiv$ t ,romanianus' h\se 0 n good = ! prodigal4 ,x w\ld be bett] to h him back4 ,ne> h] he w\ld run less risk ( be+ corrupt$4 ,?r\gh int5se pray+1 came to h] a dream :i* quick5$ h] det]m9ation4 ,%e dream$ t %e 0 weep+ & lam5t+1 ) h] feet plant$ on a wood5 rule1 :5 %e saw com+ t[>ds h] a radiant y\? :o smil$ ^u h] *e]fully4 ,he ask$ ! reason ( h] sorr[ & h] daily te>s 444 & :5 %e told him %e 0 bewail+ my p]dition1 he bade h] be ( good com=t1 look & see1 = :]e %e 01 !re 0 ,i also4 ,%e look$1 & saw me /&+ by h] side on ! same rule4 ,fill$ ) joy by ?is promise f on high1 ,monnica ask$ h] son to come home4 ,he did come back1 b ) ! quibbles ( ! ,sophi/1 ! rhetorician cavill$ aga9/ 8 "m4 ,he tri$ to upset h] happ9ess4 ,he said to h]3 ,s9ce1 accord+ to y\r dream1 we are to be bo? /&+ on ! same rule1 t means t y are go+ to be a ,mani*ean4 ,no1 answ]$ ,monnica4 ,he did n say1 :]e he is y w be1 b :]e y are he w be4 ,augu/9 confesses t ?is /rong good s5se made a c]ta9 impression on him4 ,nev]!less he did n *ange4 ,= /ill n9e ye>s he rema9$ a ,mani*ee4 ,z a la/ res\rce1 ,monnica begg$ a bi%op %e knew1 a man deeply read 9 ! ,scriptures1 to speak ) h] son & refute 8 errors4 ,b s great 0 ! reputation ( ,augu/9 z an orator & dialectician t ! holy man d>$ n try a fall ) su* a vigor\s j\/]4 ,he answ]$ ! "m v wisely1 t a m9d s subtle & acute c\ld n long cont9ue 9 su* gross sophisms4 ,& he (f]$ 8 own example1 = he1 too1 _h be5 a ,mani*ee4 ,b ,monnica press$ him ) entreaties & te>s4 ,at la/ ! bi%op1 annoy$ by h] p]si/5ce1 b at ! same "t mov$ by h] te>s1 answ]$ ) a r\ghness m+l$ ) k9dness & compassion3 ,g1 g6 ,leave me alone4 ,live on z y are liv+4 ,x _c be t ! son ( su* te>s %\ld be lo/4 ,filius i/>um lacrym>um3 ! son ( su* te>s6444 ,0 x inde$ ! c\ntry bi%op1 or r ! rhetorician ,augu/9 :o1 9 a bur/ ( gratitude1 hit ^u ?is sublime s5t5ce8 ,c]ta9 x is t lat] on ,augu/9 saw 9 8 "m's te>s z x 7 a fir/ baptism :5ce he came =? reg5]ate4 ,aft] hav+ borne him accord+ to ! fle%1 ,monnica1 by h] te>s & moans1 gave him bir? into ! spiritual life4 ,monnica wept because ( ,augu/94 ,monnica wept = ,augu/94 ,?is is r a/oni%+ 9 ! case ( s sev]e a "m--?is ,african a trifle r\gh4 ,! expressions--te>s & moans & weep+--occur s (t5 9 h] son's writ+s1 t we are at fir/ tempt$ to take !m = pi\s metaphors--figures ( a sacr$ rhetoric4 ,we suspect t ,monnica's te>s mu/ come f ! ,bible1 an imitation ( ,k+ ,david's p5it5tial te>s4 ,b x w\ld be q an error to believe t4 ,monnica wept real te>s4 ,9 h] :ole-he>t$ pray]s %e b$ew$ ! pavem5t ( ! basilica2 %e moi/5$ ! balu/rade aga9/ :i* %e leant h] =ehead4 ,?is au/]e woman1 ?is wid[ ^: face nobody saw any m1 ^: body 0 %apeless by reason ( ! mass ( /uffs1 grey & black1 :i* wrapp$ h] f head to foot--?is rigid ,*ri/ian conceal$ a he>t full ( love4 ,love su* z ?is 0 !n a p]fectly new ?+4 ,t an ,african woman %\ld c>ry h] piety to ! po9t ( fanaticism2 t %e %\ld "w to conqu] h] son to h] fai?2 t1 if he /ray$ f x1 %e %\ld hate him & drive him out ) curses--?is has be5 se5 9 ,africa at all times4 ,b t a "m %\ld m\rn at ! ?\ght t h] *ild is lo/ = ano!r life2 t %e gr[s t]ror-/rick5 & despair+ :5 %e ?9ks t %e may possess a happ9ess 9 :i* he w h no "p1 & walk 9 ! g>d5s ( ,heav5 :ile h] *ild w n be !re--no1 ?is _h nev] be5 se5 be=e4 ,:]e ,i am y w be1 ne> me1 aga9/ my he>t1 our two he>ts meet+ 9 ! "o same love--9 ?is union ( s\ls1 cont9u$ beyond ! grave1 lies all ! ,*ri/ian sweetness & hope4 ,augu/9 0 no long]1 or n yet1 a ,*ri/ian4 ,b 9 8 te>s he is ! true son ( 8 "m4 ,?is gift ( te>s t ,sa9t ,lewis ( ,france begg$ ,god ) s mu* e>ne/ness & contrition to grant him1 ,monnica's son _h to ! full4 ,= him to weep 0 a pleasure4 #a ,he inebriat$ himself ) 8 te>s4 ,n[1 j :ile he 0 at ,?aga/e1 he lo/ a fri5d :om he lov$ int5sely4 ,?is dea? set free ! f\nta9 ( te>s4 ,!y are n yet ! holy te>s :i* he w %$ lat] be=e ,god1 b only poor human te>s1 m pa!tic p]haps to our own weakness4 ,footnote #a3 ,sa9te-,beuve4 ,:o 0 ?is fri5d8 ,he tells u 9 v vague t]ms4 ,we only "k t !y _h gr[n up z boys toge!r & _h gone to ! same s*ools2 t !y _h j pass$ a ye> toge!r1 probably at ,c>?age2 t ?is "y man1 p]suad$ by him1 0 become a ,mani*ee2 & t1 9 a ^w1 !y lov$ passionately4 ,augu/91 :ile speak+ ( him1 recalls 9 a deep] s5se :at ,horace said ( 8 fri5d ,virgil3 dimidium anim--,o ?\ half ( my s\l6 ,well1 ?is "y man fell gravely sick ( a fev]4 ,z all hope 0 at an end1 !y baptiz$ him1 accord+ to ! cu/om4 ,he grew bett]1 0 almo/ cur$1 ,z soon z ,i 0 able to talk to him1 says ,augu/9--& t 0 z soon z he c\ld be> x1 = ,i nev] left 8 side1 & we 7 b\nd up 9 "o ano!r--,i v5tur$ a je/1 ?9k+ t he w\ld je/ too1 ab\t ! baptism :i* he _h receiv$1 :5 he c\ld nei!r ?9k nor feel4 ,b by ?is "t he _h be5 told ( 8 baptism4 ,he %rank f me z f an enemy1 & ) a wond]ful new-f\nd c\rage1 w>n$ me nev] to speak s to him aga91 if ,i wi%$ to rema9 8 fri5d4 ,i 0 s a/\nd$ & confus$ t ,i said no m1 resolv+ to wait till he %\ld rega9 8 /r5g?1 :5 ,i w\ld tell him frankly :at ,i ?\ght4 ,s1 at ?is s]i\s mom5t1 he :om !y call$ ! ,c>?ag9ian disput] 0 sorry n to be able to measure himself 9 a b\t ( dialectics ) 8 half-dead fri5d4 ,! intellectual poison _h s p]v]t$ 8 m9d1 t x almo/ de/roy$ 9 him ! feel+s ( common dec5cy4 ,b if 8 head1 z he ackn[l$ges1 0 v mu* spoil$1 8 he>t rema9$ intact4 ,8 fri5d di$ a few days aft]1 & ,augu/9 0 n !re4 ,he 0 /unn$ by x4 ,8 grief wr\ght itself up to wildness & despair4 ,?is sorr[ fell l d>kness on my he>t1 & :]ev] ,i look$ ,i saw no?+ b dea?4 ,my c\ntry became a torture1 my fa!r's h\se a mis]y4 ,all ! pleasures t ,i _h %>$ ) him1 turn$ into hide\s angui% n[ t he 0 gone4 ,my eyes s\ght = him ev]y:]e1 & f\nd him n4 ,i hat$ ! famili> sc5es because he 0 n !re1 & !y c\ld no m cry to me1 ',lo6 he w come4' z !y us$ :5 he 0 abs5t b alive4444 ,!n ,augu/9 began to weep l\d]1 he prolong$ 8 weep+1 f9d+ consolation only 9 te>s4 ,monnica's t5d]ness 0 re/ra9$2 9 him x 0 giv5 full v5t & exagg]at$4 ,at t "t1 ! ,*ri/ian mod]ation 0 unkn[n to him1 z well z ! measure :i* ! good ta/e ( ! anci5ts prompt$4 ,he has (t5 be5 comp>$ to ! mo/ t\*+ g5iuses1 to ,virgil1 to ,rac9e1 :o _h also ! gift ( te>s4 ,b ,augu/9's t5d]ness is m ab&on$1 &1 s to speak1 m romantic4 ,x ev5 works up1 sometimes1 into an unheal?y excitem5t4 ,to be full ( feel+1 z ,augu/9 0 !n1 is n only to feel ) excessive s5sitiv5ess ! lea/ w\nds1 ! slighte/ t\*es ( love or hate1 nor is x only to give oneself ) transport2 b x is especially to take delight 9 ! gift ( oneself1 to feel at ! mom5t ( full ab&onm5t t "o is communicat+ ) some?+ inf9itely sweet1 :i* already has ceas$ to be ! creature lov$4 ,x is love = love1 x is to weep = ! pleasure ( te>s1 x is to mix ) t5d]ness a k9d ( egoism avid ( exp]i5ces4 ,hav+ lo/ 8 fri5d1 ,augu/9 loa!s all ! _w4 ,he repeats3 ,te>s 7 my only com=t4 ,i 0 wret*$1 & my wret*$ness 0 de> to me4 ,& accord+ly1 he did n want to be consol$4 ,b z1 little by little1 ! t]rors ( t p>t+ subsid$1 he p]ceiv$ himself t he play$ ) grief & made a joy ( 8 te>s4 ,my te>s1 he says1 7 de>] to me ?an my fri5d _h be54 ,by degrees ! fri5d is almo/ =gott54 ,?\gh ,augu/9 may hate life because 8 fri5d has gone1 he confesses naively t he w\ld n h sacrific$ 8 exi/5ce = ! sake ( ! dead4 ,he surmises t :at is told ( ,ore/es & ,pylades cont5d+ to die = ea* o!r is b a fable4 ,ultimately1 he comes to write3 ,p]haps ,i fe>$ to die1 le/ ! o!r half ( him :om ,i _h lov$ s de>ly1 %\ld p]i%4 ,he himself1 9 8 ,retractations1 condemns ?is phrase z pure rhetoric4 ,x rema9s true t :at 0 p]haps ! deepe/ sorr[ ( 8 life--?is sorr[ s s9c]e & pa9ful :i* _h r5t & bloodi$ 8 s\l--end$ ) a /rik+ phrase4 ,x %\ld be add$1 t 9 a /ormy nature l 81 grief1 l love1 we>s itself out quickly4 ,x burns up passion & s5tim5t z x does ideas4 ,:5 at l5g? he rega9$ 8 calm1 ev]y?+ appe>$ drab4 ,?aga/e became intol]able4 ,) 8 impulsive temp]am5t1 8 *angeable hum\r1 he all at once hit ^u a plan3 ,to g back to ,c>?age & op5 a rhetoric s*ool4 ,p]haps1 too1 ! woman he lov$ & _h ab&on$ !re 0 press+ him to return4 ,p]haps %e told him t %e 0 ab\t to become a "m4 ,always ready to g away1 ,augu/9 sc>cely hesitat$4 ,x is m ?an likely t he did n consult ,monnica4 ,he only told ,romanianus1 :o1 z he _h all k9ds ( reasons = want+ to keep ,augu/9 at ,?aga/e1 at fir/ /rongly object$4 ,b ! "y man po9t$ to 8 future1 8 ambition to w9 fame4 ,0 he go+ to bury all t 9 a little t[n8 ,romanianus yield$1 & ) a g5]osity t is no long] se51 he paid ! exp5ses ?is "t too4 ,v ,,! ,,sil5ce ,,( ,,god ,augu/9 0 go+ to live n9e ye>s at ,c>?age--n9e ye>s t he squ&]$ 9 obscure tasks1 9 disputes /]ile or un=tunate = himself & o!rs--briefly1 9 an utt] =getfulness ( 8 true vocation4 ,& dur+ ?is "t ,?\ w]t sil5t1 ,o my ,god6 he cries1 9 recall+ only ! faults ( 8 e>ly y\?4 ,n[1 ! sil5ce ( ,god lay heavy4 ,& yet ev5 9 ^? ye>s 8 torm5t$ s\l _h n ceas$ to appeal4 ,:]e w]t ,?\ !n1 ,o my ,god1 :ile ,i look$ = ,!e8 ,?\ w]t be=e me4 ,b ,i _h drawn away f myself & ,i c\ld n f9d myself4 ,h[ mu* less1 !n1 c\ld ,i f9d ,!e4 ,?is 0 c]ta9ly ! mo/ uneasy1 &1 at mom5ts1 ! mo/ pa9ful "t ( 8 life4 ,h>dly 0 he got back to ,c>?age ?an he _h to /ruggle aga9/ ev]-increas+ money difficulties4 ,n only _h he to get 8 own liv+1 b ! liv+ ( o!rs--possibly 8 "m's & t ( 8 bro!r & si/]--at all ev5ts1 he _h to support 8 mi/ress & ! *ild4 ,x is possible t ! infant 0 born be=e its fa!r left ,?aga/e2 if n1 ! bir? mu/ h occurr$ %ortly aft]4 ,! *ild 0 call$ ,adeodatus4 ,!re is a k9d ( irony 9 ?is "n1 :i* 0 !n usual1 ( ,adeodatus--,gift ( ,god4 ,?is son ( 8 s91 z ,augu/9 calls him1 ?is son :om he did n want1 & ! news ( ^: bir? mu/ h be5 a pa9ful %ock--?is poor *ild 0 a gift ( ,heav5 :i* ! fa!r c\ld h well done )\t4 ,& !n1 :5 he saw him1 he 0 fill$ ) joy1 & he *]i%$ him z a real gift f ,god4 ,he accept$ 8 fa!rhood c\rage\sly1 &1 z x happ5s 9 su* cases1 he 0 drawn clos] to 8 mi/ress1 _! association tak+ on some?+ ( conjugal dignity4 ,did ! "m ( ,adeodatus ju/ify su* atta*m5t--an atta*m5t :i* 0 to la/ m ?an t5 ye>s8 ,! my/]y 9 :i* ,augu/9 int5d$ t ! woman he _h lov$ ! mo/ %\ld rema9 envelop$ = all "t1 is ne>ly imp5etrable to u4 ,no d\bt %e 0 ( a v humble1 n to say l[ class1 s9ce ,monnica judg$ x impossible to br+ ab\t a m>riage betwe5 ! ill-assort$ pair4 ,!re mu/ h be5 an extreme inequality betwe5 ! bir? & education ( ! lov]s4 ,?is did n prev5t ,augu/9 f lov+ 8 mi/ress passionately1 = h] beauty p]haps1 or p]haps = h] goodness ( he>t1 or bo?4 ,nev]!less1 x is surpris+1 t 9 view ( 8 *ang+ hum\r1 & 8 prompt & impressionable s\l1 he rema9$ fai?ful to h] s long4 ,:at 0 to prev5t 8 tak+ 8 son & go+ (f8 ,anci5t cu/om au?oriz$ su* an act4 ,b ,augu/9 0 t5d]-he>t$4 ,he 0 afraid to cause pa92 he dread$ = o!rs ! w\nds t caus$ him s mu* suff]+ himself4 ,s he /ay$ on f k9dness1 f pity1 habit too1 & also because1 9 spite ( ev]y?+1 he lov$ ! "m ( 8 *ild4 ,up to ! "t ( 8 conv]sion1 !y liv$ l husb& & wife4 ,s n[1 to keep 8 family1 he really turns a deal] 9 words4 ,9 spite ( 8 y\? 7he 0 b>ely tw5ty7 ! t]ms he _h kept at ,?aga/e z a tea*] ( gramm> all[$ him to take 8 place among ! rhetoricians at ,c>?age4 ,?anks to ,romanianus1 he got pupils at once4 ,8 protector at ,?aga/e s5t 8 son1 t "y ,lic5tius ^: education ,augu/9 _h already begun1 ) "o ( 8 bro!rs1 d\btless y\ng]4 ,x seems likely t ! two y\?s liv$ 9 ,augu/9's h\se4 ,a small fact :i* _! ma/] has pres]v$1 looks l a pro( ( ?is4 ,a spoon hav+ be5 lo/ 9 ! h\se1 ,augu/91 to f9d out :]e x 01 told ,lic5tius to g & consult a wiz>d1 "o ,albic]ius1 :o _h1 j !n1 a great "n 9 ,c>?age4 ,?is message is sc>cely to be expla9$ unless we suppose ! lad 0 lodg+ 9 8 pr(essor's h\se4 ,ano!r ( ! pupils is kn[n to u4 ,?is is ,eulogius1 :o 0 lat] on a rhetorician at ,c>?age1 & ( :om ,augu/9 relates an extraord9>y dream4 ,f9ally1 !re 0 ,alypius1 a little y\ng] ?an himself1 8 fri5d--! bro!r ( 8 he>t1 z he calls him4 ,alypius _h be5 att5d+ 8 lessons at ,?aga/e4 ,:5 ! s*oolma/] abruptly ?rew up 8 employm5t1 ! fa!r ( ! pupil 0 angry1 & 9 s5d+ 8 son to ,c>?age1 he =bade him to g ne> ,augu/9's class4 ,b x 0 difficult to keep su* eag] fri5ds ap>t4 ,little by little1 ,alypius ov]came 8 fa!r's objections1 & became a pupil ( 8 fri5d4 ,augu/9's k1 :5 he began to lecture1 c\ld n h be5 v deep1 = he _h only lately quitt$ ! /ud5t's b5* himself4 ,8 duties =c$ him to le>n :at he did n "k4 ,9 tea*+ he taught himself4 ,x 0 at ?is "t t he did mo/ ( ! read+ :i* aft]w>ds add$ sub/ance to 8 polemics & treatises4 ,he tells u himself t he read 9 ^? days all t he c\ld lay h&s on4 ,he is v pr\d ( hav+ read by himself & und]/ood )\t any assi/ance f a ma/]1 ! ,t5 ,categories ( ,ari/otle1 :i* 0 consid]$ "o ( ! mo/ ab/ruse works ( ! ,/agirite4 ,9 an age :5 in/ruction 0 pr9cipally by ^w ( m\?1 & books comp>atively r>e1 x is obvi\s t ,augu/9 0 n :at we call an all-dev\r+ read]4 ,we d n "k if ,c>?age _h _m libr>ies1 or :at ! libr>ies 7 wor?4 ,x is no less true t ! au?or ( ,! ,city ( ,god is ! la/ ( ! ,lat9 writ]s :o _h a really all-r\nd k4 ,x is he :o is ! l9k betwe5 mod]n times & pagan antiquity4 ,! ,middle ,age h>dly knew classical lit]ature1 save by ! allusions & quotations ( ,augu/94 ,s 9 spite ( family & pr(essional c>es1 he did n lose 8 intellectual proclivities4 ,! conque/ ( tru? rema9$ always 8 great ambition4 ,he /ill hop$ to f9d x 9 ,mani*eeism1 b he began to ?9k t x 0 a long "t com+4 ,! lead]s ( ! sect c\ld n h tru/$ him ?or\ghly4 ,!y fe>$ 8 acute & subtle m9d1 s quick to detect ! flaw 9 a !sis or argum5t4 ,t is :y !y po/pon$ 8 initiation into _! secret doctr9es4 ,augu/9 rema9$ a simple auditor 9 _! ,*ur*4 ,by way ( appeas+ ! enorm\s activity ( 8 intellig5ce1 !y turn$ him on to controv]sy1 & ! critical discussion ( ! ,scriptures4 ,giv+ !mselves out = ,*ri/ians1 !y adopt$ a "p ( !m1 & flung aside z int]polat$ or =g$ all t 0 n 9 tune ) _! !ology4 ,augu/91 z we "k1 triumph$ 9 disputes ( ?is k9d1 & 0 va9 because he excell$ 9 !m4 ,& :5 he grew tir$ ( ?is negative criticism & ask$ 8 evangeli/s to give him m sub/antial food1 !y put him on "s exot]ic doctr9e calculat$ to appeal to a "y imag9ation by its poetic or philosophical col\r+4 ,! cate*um5 0 n satisfi$1 b he put up ) x = lack ( any?+ bett]4 ,v prettily he comp>es ^! enemies ( ! ,scriptures to ! sn>]s ( birds1 :o defile or fill ) e>? all ! wat]-places :]e ! birds use to dr9k1 save "o m]e2 & ab\t ?is !y set _! sn>es4 ,! birds all fly !re1 n because ! wat] is bett]1 b because !re is no o!r wat]1 & !y "k n :]e else to g & dr9k4 ,s ,augu/91 n kn[+ :]e to qu5* 8 ?ir/ = tru?1 0 fa9 to make ! be/ ( ! confus$ pan!ism ( ! ,mani*ees4 ,:at rema9s notewor?y is1 t h[ev] un/able 8 own convictions 71 he yet conv]t$ ev]ybody ab\t him4 ,x 0 ?r\gh him t 8 fri5ds became ,mani*ees3 ,alypius "o ( ! fir/2 !n ,nebridius1 ! son ( a great l&[n] ne> ,c>?age2 ,honoratius1 ,m>cianus2 p]haps1 too1 ! y\nge/ ( 8 pupils1 ,lic5tius & 8 bro!r--all victims ( 8 p]suasive tongue1 :i* he ex]t$ lat] on to draw !m back f _! errors4 ,s great 0 8 *>m--s deep1 especially1 0 public cr$ulity6 ,?is f\r? c5tury 0 no long] a c5tury ( /rong ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! la/ agony ( paganism 0 m>k$ by a new attack ( ! l[e/ cr$ulity & sup]/ition4 ,z ! ,*ur* en]getically combat$ bo? "o & ! o!r1 x is n surpris+ t x 0 *iefly ! pagans :o 7 contam9at$4 ,! old religion 0 to end by f\nd]+ 9 magic4 ,! greate/ m9ds ( ! p]iod1 ! neo-,platoni/s1 ! ,emp]or ,julian himself1 7 miracle-work]s1 or at any rate1 adepts 9 ! occult sci5ces4 ,augu/91 :o 0 !n sep>at$ f ,*ri/ianity1 foll[$ ! g5]al impulse1 toge!r ) ! "y m5 he knew4 ,j n[ we saw him s5d+ to consult ! soo?say]1 ,albic]ius1 ab\t ! loss ( a spoon4 ,& ?is man ( intellect believ$ also 9 a/rolog]s & nigromanc]s4 ,/rips ( lead h be5 f\nd at ,c>?age ^u :i* are writt5 magic spells aga9/ horses ent]$ = races 9 ! circus4 ,j l ! ,c>?ag9ian jockeys1 ,augu/9 _h rec\rse to ^! hidd5 & fraudul5t practices1 to make sure ( success4 ,on ! eve ( a v]se competition 9 ! !atre1 he fell 9 ) a wiz>d :o (f]$1 if !y c\ld agree ab\t ! price1 to sacrifice a c]ta9 numb] ( animals to buy ! victory4 ,^u ?is1 ,augu/91 v mu* annoy$1 decl>$ t if ! prize 7 a cr[n ( immortal gold1 n a fly %\ld be sacrific$ to help him w9 x4 ,really1 magic 0 repell5t to ! hone/y ( 8 m9d1 z well z to 8 n]ves1 by reason ( ! suspici\s & brutal "p ( its op]ations4 ,z a rule1 x 0 involv$ ) h>uspicy1 & _h a side ( sacr$ anatomy & ! kit*5 :i* revolt$ ! s5sitive--dissection ( fle%1 inspection ( entrails1 n to m5tion ! slaught]+ & /rangl+ ( victims4 ,fanatics1 su* z ,julian1 gave !mselves up ) delight to ^! disgu/+ manipulations4 ,:at we "k ( ,augu/9's s\l makes x q cle> :y he recoil$ ) horror4 ,a/rology1 on ! contr>y1 attract$ him by its app>5t sci5ce4 ,its adepts call$ !mselves ma!maticians1 & ?us seem$ to borr[ f ! exact sci5ces some?+ ( _! solidity4 ,augu/9 (t5 discuss$ a/rology ) a ,c>?age physician1 ,v9dicianus1 a man ( great s5se & wide le>n+1 :o ev5 rea*$ ,proconsul> hon\rs4 ,9 va9 did he po9t out to ! "y rhetorician t ! pret5d$ prophecies ( ! ma!maticians 7 ! effect ( *ance2 9 va9 did ,nebridius1 less cr$ul\s ?an 8 fri5d1 jo9 8 argum5ts to ^? ( ! crafty physician2 ,augu/9 clung ob/9ately to 8 *im]a4 ,8 dialectical m9d discov]$ +5i\s ju/ifications = :at ! a/rolog]s claim$4 ,?us1 dazzl$ by all ! intellectual phantasms1 he /ray$ f "o sci5ce to ano!r1 repeat+ mean:ile 9 8 he>t ! motto ( 8 ,mani*ean ma/]s3 ,! ,tru?1 ! ,tru?64 ,b :atev] might be ! attractions ( ! speculative life1 he _h fir/ to face ! ne$s ( actual life4 ,! sight ( 8 *ild call$ him back to a s5se ( 8 position4 ,to get money1 & = t purpose to pu% himself =w>d1 put himself 9 evid5ce1 increase 8 reputation--,augu/9 work$ at t z h>d z he c\ld4 ,x l$ him to ent] = ! prize ( dramatic poetry4 ,he 0 decl>$ ! w9n]4 ,8 old fri5d1 ! physician ,v9dicianus1 :o 0 !n ,proconsul1 plac$ ! cr[n1 z he says1 ^u 8 disord]$ head4 ,! future ,fa!r ( ! ,*ur* writ+ = ! !atre--& :at a !atre x 0 !n6--is n ! lea/ extraord9>y ?+ 9 ?is life s di/urb$ &1 at fir/ sight1 s contradictory4 ,x 0 also f lit]>y ambition t ab\t ! same "t he wrote a book on /hetics call$ ,^u ! ,beautiful & ! ,fit1 :i* he d$icat$ to a fam\s colleague1 ! ,syrian ,hi]ius1 orator to ! ,city ( ,rome1 "o ( ! pr(essors ( ! (ficial education appo9t$ ei!r by ! ,roman municipality or ! ,imp]ial treasury4 ,?is ,levant9e rhetorician _h an imm5se success 9 ! capital ( ! ,empire4 ,8 r5[n _h got beyond academical & fa%ionable circles & cross$ ! sea4 ,augu/9 admir$ him on tru/1 l ev]ybody else4 ,x is cle> t1 at ?is "t he c\ld n imag9e a m glori\s =tune = himself ?an to become1 l ,hi]ius1 orator to ! ,city ( ,rome4 ,lat] 9 life1 ! ,bi%op ( ,hippo1 :ile condemn+ ! vanity ( 8 y\?ful ambitions1 mu/ h made "s extremely ironical reflections z to _! mode/y4 ,h[ mi/ak5 he 0 ab\t himself6 ,an ,augu/9 _h dream$ ( equall+ "o day ?is obscure p$agogue1 ( :om nobody1 save = him1 w\ld ev] h spok5 aga94 ,m5 ( in/9ct1 l ,augu/91 cont9ually g wrong 9 ?is way ab\t _! object & ! means to employ4 ,b _! mi/akes are only 9 appe>ance4 ,a w /rong] ?an _! own leads !m1 by my/]i\s ways1 :i!r !y ought to g4 ,?is fir/ book ( ,augu/9's is lo/1 & we are unable to say :e!r !re be any reason to regret x4 ,he himself recalls x to u 9 a v indiff]5t tone & r vague t]ms4 ,x w\ld seem1 h[ev]1 t 8 /hetic _h a basis ( ,mani*ean metaphysics4 ,b :at is significant = u1 9 ?is y\?ful essay1 is t ! fir/ "t ,augu/9 wrote z an au?or x 0 to def9e & to praise ,beauty4 ,he did n yet "k1 at lea/ n directly f ! text1 ! dialogues ( ,plato1 & he is already incl9$ to ,platonism4 ,he 0 ?is by nature4 ,8 ,*ri/ianity w be a religion all ( light & beauty4 ,= him1 ! supreme ,beauty is id5tical ) ! supreme ,love4 ,d we love any?+1 he us$ to say to 8 fri5ds1 except :at is beautiful8 ,num amamus aliquid1 nisi pul*rum8 ,aga91 at ! end ( 8 life1 :5 he /rives 9 ,! ,city ( ,god to make cle> = u ! dogma ( ! resurrection ( ! body1 he ?9ks our bodies %all rise free f all e>?ly flaws1 9 all ! spl5d\r ( ! p]fect human type4 ,no?+ ( ! body w be lo/4 ,x w keep all its limbs & all its organs because !y are beautiful4 ,"o recognizes 9 ?is passage1 n only ! ,platoni/1 b ! travell] & art-lov]1 :o _h gaz$ ^u "s ( ! f9e/ specim5s ( anci5t /atu>y4 ,?is fir/ book _h h>dly any success4 ,augu/9 does n ev5 say :e!r ! celebrat$ ,hi]ius paid him a complim5t ab\t x1 & he has an air ( giv+ u to und]/& t he _h no o!r admir] b himself4 ,new disappo9tm5ts1 m s]i\s mortifications1 *ang$ little by little 8 /ate ( m9d & 8 plans = ! future4 ,he 0 oblig$ to ackn[l$ge t aft] ye>s ( ef=t he 0 sc>cely m advanc$ ?an at ! />t4 ,!re 0 no *ance to delude himself ) va9 pret5ces3 x 0 q pla9 to ev]ybody t ! rhetorician ,augu/9 0 n a success4 ,n[1 :y 0 ?is8 ,0 x t he lack$ ! gift ( tea*+8 ,p]haps he _h n ! knack ( keep+ ord]1 :i* is ! mo/ indisp5sable ( all = a s*oolma/]4 ,:at suit$ him be/ no d\bt 0 a small & select audi5ce :i* he *>m$ r ?an rul$4 ,l>ge & noisy classes he c\ld n manage4 ,at ,c>?age1 ^! rhetoric classes 7 p>ticul>ly difficult to keep 9 ord]1 because ! /ud5ts 7 m r[dy ?an else:]e4 ,at any mom5t ,! ,wreck]s might bur/ 9 & make a r[4 ,augu/91 :o _h n jo9$ 9 ^! rags :5 he 0 a /ud5t1 saw himself oblig$ to endure !m z a pr(essor4 ,he _h no?+ worse to compla9 ( ?an 8 fell[-pr(essors1 9 ^: classes ! same k9d ( di/urbance took place4 ,t 0 ! cu/om &1 9 a mann] ( speak+1 ! rule 9 ! ,c>?age s*ools4 ,= all t1 a little m au?oritative be>+ w\ld n h h>m$ him 9 ! eyes ( ^! disord]ly boys4 ,b he _h /ill grav] defects = a pr(essor :o wants to get on3 he 0 n a s*em]1 & he c\ld n make ! mo/ ( himself4 ,x is q possible t he did n possess ! qualities :i* j !n pleas$ ! pagan public 9 a rhetorician4 ,! importance t ! anci5ts atta*$ to physical advantages 9 an orator is well kn[n4 ,n[1 accord+ to an old tradition1 ,augu/9 0 a little man & n /rong3 till ! end ( 8 life he compla9$ ( 8 heal?4 ,he _h a weak voice1 a delicate *e/1 & 0 (t5 ho>se4 ,surely ?is injur$ him be=e audi5ces us$ to all ! outw>d emphasis & all ! /udi$ graces ( ,roman eloqu5ce4 ,f9ally1 8 writt5 & spok5 language _h none ( ^? brilliant & +5i\s curiosities ( phrase :i* pleas$ 9 lit]>y & fa%ionable circles4 ,?is inexhau/ibly prolific writ] is n 9 ! lea/ a /yli/4 ,9 ?is respect he is inf]ior to ,apuleius1 or ,t]tullian1 ?\gh he leaves !m f> beh9d 9 ! qualities ( s9c]e & deep s5tim5t1 poetic fl[1 col\r1 ! vividness ( metaphor1 &1 besides1 ! emotion1 ! suavity ( ! tone4 ,) all t1 no matt] h[ h>d he tri$1 he c\ld nev] grasp :at ! rhetoricians ( 8 "t und]/ood by /yle4 ,?is is :y 8 writ+s1 z well z 8 addresses1 7 n v mu* lik$4 ,nev]!less1 good judges recogniz$ 8 value1 & guess$ ! p[]s1 ly+ /ill un=m$ )9 him1 :i* he 0 misus+ ere !y 7 mature4 ,he 0 receiv$ at ! h\se ( ! ,proconsul ,v9dicianus1 :o lik$ to talk ) him1 & treat$ him ) q fa!rly k9dness4 ,augu/9 knew p 9 ! be/ society4 ,he did all 8 life4 ,8 *>m & captivat+ mann]s made him welcome 9 ! mo/ exclusive circles4 ,b j because he 0 valu$ by fa%ionable society1 x came home to him m pa9fully t he _h n ! position he des]v$ ) ! public at l>ge4 ,little by little 8 hum\r grew bitt]4 ,9 ?is angry /ate ( m9d he 0 no long] able to consid] ?+s ) ! same confid5ce & s]5ity4 ,8 m5tal disquietudes took hold ( him aga94 ,8 ideas 7 affect$1 fir/ ( all4 ,he began to h d\bts1 m & m def9ite1 ab\t ,mani*eeism4 ,he began by suspect+ ! r !atrical au/]ity :i* ! initiat$ ( ! sect made su* a great p>ade (4 ,among o!r turpitudes1 he saw "o day 9 "o ( ! busie/ p>ts ( ,c>?age ?ree ( ! ,elect :9ny aft] "s wom5 or o!r :o 7 pass+1 & beg9 mak+ su* obsc5e signs t !y surpass$ ! co>se/ p = impud5ce & %amelessness4 ,he 0 sc&aliz$ at t2 b1 aft] all1 x 0 a small ?+4 ,he himself 0 n s v virtu\s !n4 ,g5]ally y\r intellectual worries v little ab\t squ>+ 8 conduct ) 8 pr9ciples1 & does n bo!r ab\t ! practical "p4 ,no2 :at 0 mu* worse 9 8 eyes is t ! ,mani*ean physical sci5ce1 a cong]ies ( fables m or less symbolical1 sudd5ly /ruck him z ru9\s4 ,he _h j be5 /udy+ a/ronomy1 & he f\nd t ! cosmology ( ! ,mani*ees--( ^! m5 :o call$ !mselves mat]iali/s--did n agree ) sci5tific facts4 ,!re=e ,mani*eeism mu/ be wrong univ]sally1 s9ce x ran c\nt] to reason confirm$ by exp]i5ce4 ,augu/9 spoke ab\t 8 d\bts1 n only to 8 fri5ds1 b to ! prie/s ( 8 sect4 ,^! got out ( ! difficulty by evasions & ! mo/ dazzl+ promises4 ,a ,mani*ee bi%op1 a c]ta9 ,fau/us1 0 com+ to ,c>?age4 ,he 0 a man ( imm5se le>n+4 ,mo/ c]ta9ly he w\ld refute e objection )\t ! lea/ tr\ble4 ,he w\ld confirm ! "y auditors 9 _! fai?4444 ,s ,augu/9 & 8 fri5ds wait$ = ,fau/us z = a ,messiah4 ,_! disappo9tm5t 0 imm5se4 ,! suppos$ doctor turn$ out to be an ignorant man1 :o possess$ no t9cture ( sci5ce or philosophy1 & ^: intellectual baggage consi/$ ( no?+ b a little gramm>4 ,a delightful talk] & a wit1 ! mo/ he c\ld d 0 to disc\rse pleasantly on lit]ature4 ,?is disappo9tm5t1 jo9$ to ! set-backs 9 8 pr(ession1 br\ght ab\t a crisis ( s\l & consci5ce 9 ,augu/94 ,s ?is ,tru? :i* he _h sigh$ aft] s long1 :i* _h be5 s mu* promis$ to him1 0 only a decoy6 ,"o mu/ be cont5t n to "k6444 ,!n :at 0 left to d s9ce tru? 0 unapproa*able8 ,possibly =tune & hon\rs w\ld console him = x4 ,b he 0 f> en\gh f !m too4 ,he felt t he 0 on ! wrong road1 t he 0 gett+ into a rut at ,c>?age1 z he _h got into a rut at ,?aga/e4 ,he mu/ succe$1 :atev] ! co/6444 ,& !n he gave way to "o ( ^? mom5ts ( we>9ess1 :5 a man has no fur!r hope ( sav+ himself save by "s desp]ate /ep4 ,he 0 sick ( :]e he 0 & ( ^? ab\t him4 ,8 fri5ds1 :om he knew too well1 _h no?+ m to tea* him1 & c\ld n help him 9 ! only se>* :i* passionately int]e/$ him4 ,& 8 entanglem5t became irksome4 ,"h 0 n9e ye>s t ?is %>+ ( b$ & bo>d _h la/$4 ,8 son 0 at t unattractive age :i* r bores a "y fa!r ?an x revives an affection already old4 ,no d\bt he did n want to ab&on him4 ,he did n int5d to break altoge!r ) 8 mi/ress4 ,b he felt ! ne$ ( a *ange ( air1 to take himself (f some:]e else1 :]e he c\ld brea! m freely & get fre% c\rage = 8 task4 ,!n x dawn$ on him to try 8 =tune at ,rome4 ,x 0 !re t lit]>y reputations 7 made4 ,he w\ld f9d !re1 no d\bt1 bett] judges ?an at ,c>?age4 ,he w\ld v likely end by gett+ a po/ 9 ! public in/ruction1 ) a /eady sal>y--?is w\ld relieve him ( pres5t worries1 at all ev5ts4 ,probably he _h already ?is plan 9 8 head :5 he s5t 8 treatise ,on ! ,beautiful to ,hi]ius1 orator to ! ,city ( ,rome2 he ?\ght t by ?is polit5ess he might dep5d1 lat]1 on ! back+ ( ! well-kn[n rhetorician4 ,la/ly1 8 fri5ds1 ,honoratius1 ,m>cianus1 & ! o!rs1 e>ne/ly p]suad$ him to g & f9d a /age wor?y ( him at ,rome4 ,alypius1 :o 0 at ?is "t f9i%+ 8 law /udies !re1 & mu/ h felt _! sep>ation1 press$ him to come to ,rome & promis$ him success4 ,once m1 ,augu/9 0 ready to g away4 ,he 0 n long 9 mak+ up 8 m9d4 ,he 0 go+ to leave all belong+ to him1 8 mi/ress1 8 *ild1 till ! "t :5 8 new position w\ld enable him to s5d = !m4 ,he himself tells u t ! *ief motive :i* l$ him to decide on ?is j\rney 0 t ! ,roman /ud5ts 7 said to be bett] discipl9$ & less noisy ?an ! /ud5ts at ,c>?age4 ,evid5tly1 t is a reason :i* w\ld weigh ) a pr(essor :o object$ to act ! policeman 9 8 class4 ,b besides ! reasons we h giv51 !re 7 o!rs :i* mu/ h influ5c$ 8 decision4 ,!odosius _h lately ord]$ v heavy p5alties aga9/ ! ,mani*ees4 ,n only did he condemn !m to dea?1 b he _h in/itut$ a p]fect ,inquisition1 ) ! special duty ( spy+ ^u & prosecut+ ^! h]etics4 ,did x occur to ,augu/9 t he might hide bett] 9 ,rome1 :]e he 0 unkn[n1 ?an 9 a city :]e he 0 a m>k$ man on acc\nt ( 8 proselytiz+ zeal8 ,9 any case1 8 dep>ture gave rise to calumnies :i* 8 adv]s>ies1 ! ,donati/s1 did n fail _m ye>s lat] to br+ up aga9 & make worse4 ,!y accus$ him ( hav+ run away f prosecution2 he fl$ ! c\ntry1 s !y said1 on acc\nt ( a judgm5t :i* 0 out aga9/ him1 pron\nc$ by ! ,proconsul ,messianus4 ,augu/9 _h no tr\ble 9 refut+ ^! false ins9uations4 ,b all ^! facts seem to prove t ! mo/ ord9>y prud5ce w>n$ him to cross ! sea z soon z possible4 ,accord+ly1 he prep>$ to set sail4 ,let u hope t 9 spite ( 8 l(ty indiff]5ce to mat]ial ?+s1 he made "s provision = ! exi/5ce ( ! woman & *ild he left beh9d4 ,z = h]1 %e appe>$ to agree )\t ov]-_m viol5t sc5es to ?is p>t+1 :i*1 he said1 0 tempor>y4 ,x 0 n ! same ) 8 "m4 ,! v idea ( ,rome1 :i* seem$ to h] ano!r ,babylon1 t]rifi$ ?is au/]e ,african woman4 ,:at spiritual dang]s lay 9 wait = h] son !re6 ,%e want$ to keep him ne> h]1 bo? to br+ him to ! fai? & also to love him--?is ,augu/9 :o _h be5 h] only human love4 ,& !n he 0 d\btless ! *ief support ( ! wid[4 ,)\t him1 :at 0 go+ to become ( h]8 ,! fugitive 0 =c$ to put a trick on ,monnica s z to c>ry out 8 plan4 ,%e w\ld n leave him a mom5t1 fold$ him 9 h] arms1 implor$ him ) te>s n to g4 ,! night he 0 to sail %e foll[$ him d[n to ! dock1 al?\gh ,augu/91 to allay h] suspicions1 _h told h] a lie4 ,he pret5d$ t he 0 only go+ d[n to ! %ip ) a fri5d to see him (f4 ,b ,monnica1 only half believ+1 foll[$4 ,night fell4 ,mean:ile1 ! %ip1 an*or$ 9 a little bay to ! nor? ( ! city1 did n move4 ,! sailors 7 wait+ till a w9d rose to slip _! moor+s4 ,! wea!r 0 moi/ & oppressive1 z x usually is 9 ! ,m$it]ranean 9 ,augu/ & ,septemb]4 ,!re 0 n a brea? ( air4 ,! h\rs pass$ on4 ,monnica1 ov]come by heat & fatigue1 c\ld h>dly /&4 ,!n ,augu/9 cunn+ly p]suad$ h] to g & pass ! night 9 a *apel h>d by1 s9ce x 0 pla9 t ! %ip w\ld n weigh an*or till dawn4 ,aft] _m remon/rances1 %e at l5g? agre$ to re/ 9 ?is *apel--a memoria consecrat$ to ,/4 ,cyprian1 ! great m>tyr & patron ( ,c>?age4 ,l mo/ ( ! ,african sanctu>ies ( ^? days1 & ! m>ab\ts ( to-day1 ?is "o mu/ h be5 ei!r surr\nd$1 or approa*$1 by a c\rt ) a portico 9 arcades1 :]e x 0 possible to sleep4 ,monnica sat d[n on ! gr\nd "u h] heap ( veils among o!r poor p & travell]s1 :o 7 come l h] to try to f9d a little cool air on ?is /ifl+ night ne> ! relics ( ! bless$ ,cyprian4 ,%e pray$ = h] *ild1 (f]+ to ,god ! blood ( h] he>t1 begg+ ,god n to let him g1 = %e lov$ to keep me ) h] says ,augu/91 z mo!rs are wont1 yes1 f> m ?an mo/ mo!rs4 ,& l a true daught] ( ,eve1 weep+ & cry+1 %e s\ght aga9 ) groans ! son %e _h br\ght =? ) groans4 ,%e pray$ = a long "t2 !n1 worn out ) sorr[1 %e slept4 ,! port] ( ! *apel1 )\t kn[+ x1 wat*$ t night n only ! "m ( ! rhetorician ,augu/91 b ! ance/or ( an innum]able l9e ( s\ls2 ?is humble woman1 :o slept !re on ! gr\nd1 on ! flags ( ! c\rty>d1 c>ri$ 9 h] he>t all ! ye>n+ ( all ! mo!rs ( ! future4 ,:ile %e slept1 ,augu/9 w5t /eal?ily on bo>d4 ,! sil5ce & ! temp]$ spl5d\r ( ! night weigh$ him d[n4 ,sometimes ! cry ( ! sailors on wat* took a /range note 9 ! lu/r\s vapor\s spaces4 ,! ,gulf ( ,c>?age gleam$ f> (f "u ! sc9tillation ( ! />s1 "u ! palpitat+ ( a milky way all :ite l ! fl[]s ( ! g>d5 ( ,heav54 ,b ,augu/9's he>t 0 heavy1 heavi] ?an ! air weight$ by ! heat & sea-damp--heavy f ! lie & ! cruelty he _h j committ$4 ,he saw already ! awak5+ & sorr[ ( 8 "m4 ,8 consci5ce 0 tr\bl$1 ov]come by remorse & =ebod+s4444 ,mean:ile1 8 fri5ds tri$ to *e] him1 & urg$ him to h c\rage & hope4 ,m>cianus1 :ile embrac+ him1 rem9d$ him ( ! v]ses ( ,t]5ce3 ,?is day :i* br+s to !e ano!r life ,dem&s t ?\ ano!r man %alt be4 ,augu/9 smil$ sadly4 ,at la/ ! %ip began to move4 ,! w9d _h ris51 ! w9d ( ! gr& voyage :i* 0 be>+ him to ! unkn[n4444 ,sudd5ly1 at ! ke5 fre%ness ( ! op5 sea1 he ?rill$4 ,8 /r5g? & confid5ce ru%$ back4 ,to g away6 ,:at en*antm5t = all ^? :o _c fa/5 !mselves to a corn] ( ! e>?1 :o "k by in/9ct t !y belong else:]e1 :o always pass z /rang]s & z pilgrims1 & :o g away ) relief1 z if !y ca/ a bur!n beh9d !m4 ,augu/9 0 ( ^? p--( ^? :o1 among ! faire/ attractions ( ! ,road1 nev] cease to ?9k ( ! ,return4 ,b he knew n :]e ,god 0 lead+ him4 ,m>cianus 0 "r3 a new life 0 really beg9n+ = him2 only x 0 n ! life t ei!r ( !m hop$ =4 ,he :o dep>t$ z a rhetorician1 to sell words1 0 to come back z an apo/le1 to conqu] s\ls4 ,,! ,,?ird ,,"p ,,! ,,return ,et ecce ibi es 9 corde eorum1 9 corde confit5tium tibi1 et projici5tium se 9 te1 et plorantium 9 s9u tuo1 po/ vias suas difficiles4 ,& behold6 ,?\ art !re 9 _! he>ts1 9 ! he>ts ( t confess to ,!e1 & ca/ !mselves ^u ,!e1 & sob ^u ,?y brea/1 aft] _! we>y ways4 ,confessions1 ,v1 #b4 ,i ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,gold ,augu/9 fell ill j aft] he got to ,rome4 ,x w\ld seem t he arriv$ !re t[>ds ! end ( ,augu/ or beg9n+ ( ,septemb]1 be=e ! /ud5ts reassembl$1 j at ! "t ( heat & fev]s1 :5 all ,romans :o c\ld leave ! city fl$ to ! summ] resorts on ! coa/4 ,l all ! great cosmopolitan c5tres at t "t1 ,rome 0 unheal?y4 ,! diseases ( ! :ole e>?1 br\ght by ! cont9ual infl[ ( =eign]s1 fl\ri%$ !re4 ,accord+ly1 ! inhabitants _h a panic fe> ( infection1 l our own contempor>ies4 ,p )drew prud5tly f ^? suff]+ f infecti\s disord]s1 :o 7 left to _! unhappy fate4 ,if1 f a s5se ( %ame1 !y s5t a slave to ! pati5t's b$side1 he 0 ord]$ to ! sweat+-rooms1 & !re dis9fect$ f head to foot1 be=e he c\ld ent] ! h\se aga94 ,augu/9 mu/ h _h at lea/ ! good luck to be well look$ aft]1 s9ce he recov]$4 ,he _h gone to ! dwell+ ( "o ( 8 ,mani*ee bre?r51 an auditor l himself1 & an excell5t k9d ( man1 :om he /ay$ ) all ! "t he 0 9 ,rome4 ,/ill1 he _h su* a bad attack ( fev] t he v ne>ly di$4 ,i 0 p]i%+1 he says2 & ,i 0 all b lo/4 ,he is fright5$ at ! idea ( hav+ se5 dea? s ne>1 at a mom5t :5 he 0 s f> f ,god--s f>1 9 fact1 t x nev] occurr$ to him to ask = baptism1 z he _h done1 9 l case1 :5 he 0 little4 ,:at a desp]ate bl[ w\ld t h be5 = ,monnica6 ,he /ill %udd]s :5 he recalls ! dang]3 ,_h my "m's he>t be5 smitt5 ) t w\nd1 x nev] c\ld h be5 heal$4 ,= ,i _c express h] t5d] love t[>ds me1 or ) h[ f> great] angui% %e travail$ ( me n[ 9 ! _s1 ?an :5 %e bore me 9 ! fle%4 ,b ,monnica pray$4 ,augu/9 0 sav$4 ,he ascribes 8 recov]y to ! f]v5t pray]s ( 8 "m1 :o1 9 begg+ ( ,god ! welf>e ( 8 s\l1 obta9$1 )\t kn[+ x1 ! welf>e ( 8 body4 ,z soon z he 0 convalesc5t1 he _h to set to "w to get pupils4 ,he 0 oblig$ to ask ! fav\rs ( _m an important p]sonage1 to knock at _m an inhospitable door4 ,?is un=tunate beg9n+1 ! almo/ mortal illness :i* he 0 only j recov]+ f1 ?is =c$ drudg]y--all t did n make him v fond ( ,rome4 ,x seems q pla9 t he nev] lik$ x1 & till ! end ( 8 life he kept a grudge aga9/ x = ! sorry reception x gave him4 ,9 ! :ole body ( 8 writ+s x is impossible to f9d a ^w ( praise = ! beauty ( ! ,et]nal ,city1 :ile1 on ! contr>y1 "o c make out ?r\gh 8 invectives aga9/ ! vices ( ,c>?age1 8 secret p>tiality = ! ,african ,rome4 ,! old rivalry betwe5 ! two cities 0 n yet dead aft] s _m c5turies4 ,9 8 he>t1 ,augu/91 l a good ,c>?ag9ian--& because he 0 a ,c>?ag9ian--did n l ,rome4 ,! mo/ annoy+ ?+s jo9$ toge!r z if on purpose to disgu/ him ) x4 ,! bad season ( ! ye> 0 nigh :5 he began to reside !re4 ,autumn ra9s _h />t$1 & ! morn+s & ev5+s 7 cold4 ,:at ) 8 delicate *e/1 & 8 ,african con/itution s5sitive to cold1 he mu/ h suff]$ f ?is damp cold climate4 ,rome seem$ to him a nor!rn city4 ,) 8 eyes /ill full ( ! w>m light ( 8 c\ntry1 & ! joy\s :it5ess ( ! ,c>?age /reets1 he w&]$ z "o exil$ betwe5 ! gloomy ,roman palaces1 sadd5$ by ! grey walls & muddy pavem5ts4 ,comp>isons1 involunt>y & cont9ual1 betwe5 ,c>?age & ,rome1 made him unju/ to ,rome4 ,9 8 eyes x _h a h>d1 self-consci\s1 declamatory look1 & gaz+ at ! b>r5 ,roman campagna1 he rememb]$ ! laugh+ ,c>?age suburbs1 ) g>d5s1 villas1 v9ey>ds1 olivets1 circl$ ev]y:]e by ! brilliance ( ! sea & ! lagoons4 ,& !n1 besides1 ,rome c\ld n be a v delightful place to live 9 = a poor rhetoric ma/] come !re to bett] 8 =tune4 ,o!r /rang]s be=e him _h compla9$ ( x4 ,always to be go+ up & d[n ! flights ( /eps & ! asc5ts1 (t5 v /eep1 ( ! city ( ! ,sev5 ,hills2 to be ru%+ betwe5 ! ,av5t9e & ,sallu/'s g>d51 & !nce to ! ,esquil9e & ,janiculum6 ,to bruise ! feet on ! po9t$ cobbles ( slop+ alley-ways6 ,^! walks 7 exhau/+1 & !re seem$ to be no end to ?is city4 ,c>?age 0 also l>ge--z l>ge almo/ z ,rome4 ,b !re ,augu/9 0 n seek+ employm5t4 ,:5 he w5t = a walk !re1 he /roll$4 ,"h1 ! bu/le ( ! cr[ds1 & ! numb] ( equipages1 di/urb$ & exasp]at$ ! s\!rn] ) 8 l\ng+ habits4 ,any mom5t !re 0 a risk ( be+ run ov] by c>s te>+ at full gallop ?r\gh ! n>r[ /reets3 m5 ( fa%ion j !n _h a craze = driv+ fa/4 ,or aga91 ! pass5g] 0 oblig$ to /ep aside s t "s lady might g by 9 h] litt]1 escort$ by h] h\sehold1 f ! h&icraft slaves & ! kit*5 /aff1 to ! eunu*s & h\se-s]vants--all ?is army manoeuvr+ "u ! ord]s ( a lead] :o held a rod 9 8 h&1 ! sign ( 8 (fice4 ,:5 ! /reet became cle> once m1 & at la/ ! palace ( ! influ5tial p]sonage to :om a visit _h to be paid 0 rea*$1 !re 0 no admittance )\t greas+ ! knock]4 ,9 ord] to be pres5t$ to ! ma/]1 x 0 necess>y to buy ! good graces ( ! slave :o took ! "n 7nom5clator71 & :o n only introduc$ ! suppliant1 b might1 ) a ^w1 recomm5d or injure4 ,ev5 aft] all ^! precautions1 "o 0 n yet sure ( ! goodwill ( ! patron4 ,"s ( ^! great lords1 :o 7 n always !mselves sprung f old ,roman families1 prid$ !mselves ^u _! uncompromis+ nationalism1 & made a po9t ( treat+ =eign]s ) consid]able haught9ess4 ,! ,africans 7 reg>d$ unfav\rably 9 ,rome1 especially 9 ,ca?olic circles4 ,augu/9 mu/ h _h an unpleasant exp]i5ce ( ?is4 ,?r\gh ! long /reets1 brilliantly light$ at ev5+ 7x w\ld seem t ! artificial light+ ( ,rome almo/ equall$ ! daylight71 he w\ld return tir$ out to ! dwell+ ( 8 ho/1 ! ,mani*ee4 ,?is dwell+1 accord+ to an old tradition1 0 9 ! ,velabrum di/rict1 9 a /reet :i* is /ill to-day call$ ,via ,greca1 & skirts ! v old *ur* ( ,santa ,m>ia-9-,cosm$9a--a poor qu>t] :]e sw>m$ a fil?y mass ( ,ori5tals1 & :]e ! immigrants f ! ,levant9e c\ntries1 ,greeks1 ,syrians1 ,arm5ians1 ,egyptians1 lodg$4 ,! w>eh\ses on ! ,tib] 7 n v f> (f1 & no d\bt !re 7 numb]s ( lab\r]s1 port]s1 & wat]m5 liv+ 9 ?is neighb\rhood4 ,:at a place = him :o _h be5 at ,?aga/e ! gue/ ( ! magnific5t ,romanianus1 & intimate ) ! ,proconsul at ,c>?age6 ,:5 he _h climb$ up ! six flights ( /airs to 8 lodg+1 & cr\*$ %iv]+ ov] ! ill-burn+ movable he>?1 9 ! p>simoni\s light ( a small bronze or e>!nw>e lamp1 :ile ! raw damp sweat$ ?r\gh ! walls1 he felt m & m 8 pov]ty & lonel9ess4 ,he hat$ ,rome & ! /upid ambition :i* _h br\ght him !re4 ,& yet ,rome %\ld h made a vivid appeal to ?is cultur$ man1 ?is /hete s alive to beauty4 ,al?\gh ! transf] ( ! ,c\rt to ,milan _h drawn away "s ( its livel9ess & glitt]1 x 0 /ill all illum9at$ by its gr& memories1 & nev] _h x be5 m beautiful4 ,x seems impossible t ,augu/9 %\ld n h be5 /ruck by x1 despite 8 ,african prejudices4 ,h[ev] well built ! new ,c>?age might be1 x c\ld n pret5d to comp>e ) a city m ?an a ?\s& ye>s old1 :i* at all p]iods ( its hi/ory _h ma9ta9$ ! pr9cely ta/e = build+1 & :i* a long l9e ( emp]ors _h nev] ceas$ to embelli%4 ,:5 ,augu/9 l&$ at ,o/ia1 he saw rise be=e him1 clos+ ! p]spective ( ! ,via ,appia1 ! ,septizonium ( ,septimus ,sev]us--an imitation1 d\btless1 on a f> l>g] scale1 ( ! "o at ,c>?age4 ,?is huge con/ruction1 wat]-works probably ( enorm\s size1 ) its ord]$ columns plac$ l9e above l9e1 01 s to speak1 ! portico :5ce op5$ ! mo/ wond]ful & colossal ar*itectural mass kn[n to ! anci5t _w4 ,mod]n ,rome has no?+ at all to %ew :i* comes any:]e ne> x4 ,dom9at+ ! ,roman ,=um1 & ! ,=a ( v>i\s ,emp]ors--labyr9?s ( temples1 basilicas1 porticoes1 & libr>ies--! ,capitol & ! ,palat9e rose up l two /one m\nta9s1 fa%ion$ & sculptur$1 "u ! heap ( _! palaces & sanctu>ies4 ,all ^! blocks root$ 9 ! soil1 susp5d$1 & t[]+ up f ! flanks ( ! hills1 ^! int]m9able regim5ts ( columns & pila/]s1 ?is pr(usion ( preci\s m>bles1 metals1 mosaics1 /atues1 obelisks--9 all t !re 0 some?+ enorm\s1 a lack ( re/ra9t :i* di/urb$ ! ta/e & floor$ ! imag9ation4 ,b x 01 above all1 ! excessive use ( gold & gild+ t a/oni%$ ! visitor4 ,orig9ally indig5t1 ,rome became not$ = its gre$ ( gold4 ,:5 ! gold ( conqu]$ nations began to come into its h&s1 x spread x all ov] ) ! r indiscreet display ( ! up/>t4 ,:5 ,n]o built ! ,gold5 ,h\se he realiz$ its dream4 ,! ,capitol _h gold5 doors4 ,/atues1 bronzes1 ! ro(s ( temples1 7 all gild$4 ,all ?is gold1 spread ov] ! brilliant surfaces & angles ( ! ar*itecture1 dazzl$ & tir$ ! eyes3 ,acies /upet igne metalli1 said ,claudian4 ,= ! poets :o h celebrat$ x1 ,rome is ! city ( gold--aurata ,roma4 ,a ,greek1 su* z ,lucian1 _h p]haps a "r to be %ock$ by ?is ar*itectural debau*1 ?is beauty too cru%+ & too ri*4 ,a ,c>?age rhetorician1 l ,augu/91 c\ld feel at ! sight ( x no?+ b ! same irritat$ admiration & secret jeal\sy z ! ,emp]or ,con/ans felt :5 he visit$ 8 capital = ! fir/ "t4 ,ev5 z ! ,byzant9e ,cs>1 & all ! prov9cials1 ,augu/91 no d\bt1 exam9$ ! curiosities & celebrat$ works :i* 7 po9t$ out to /rang]s3 ! temple ( ,jupit] ,capitol9us2 ! ba?s ( ,c>acalla & ,diocletian2 ! ,pan!on2 ! temple ( ,roma & ( ,v5us2 ! ,place ( ,concord2 ! !atre ( ,pompey2 ! ,odeum1 & ! ,/adium4 ,?\gh he might be /upefi$ by all ?is1 he w\ld rememb]1 too1 all t ! ,republic _h tak5 f ! prov9ces to con/ruct ^! wond]s1 & w\ld say to himself3 ',tis we :o h paid = !m4 ,9 tru?1 all ! _w _h be5 ransack$ to make ,rome beautiful4 ,= "s "t a muffl$ ho/ility _h be5 brew+ 9 prov9cial he>ts aga9/ ! tyranny ( ! c5tral p[]1 especially s9ce x _h %ewn itself incapable ( ma9ta9+ peace1 & ! ,b>b>ians 7 ?reat5+ ! fronti]s4 ,worn out by s _m insurrections1 w>s1 massacres1 & pillages1 ! prov9ces _h come to ask if ! great complicat$ ma*9e ( ! ,empire 0 wor? all ! blood & money t x co/4 ,= ,augu/91 moreov]1 ! crisis 0 draw+ ne> :i* 0 to end 9 8 return to ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,he _h be5 a ,*ri/ian1 & z su* br\ght up 9 pr9ciples ( humility4 ,) ^! s5tim5ts1 he w\ld p]haps decide t ! pride & vanity ( ! creature at ,rome claim$ f> too mu* att5tion1 & 0 ev5 sacrilegi\s4 ,x 0 n only ! emp]ors :o disput$ ! privileges ( immortality ) ! gods1 b anybody :o took x into 8 head1 provid$ t he 0 ri* or _h any k9d ( notoriety4 ,amid ! h>% & bl9d+ gilt ( palaces & temples1 h[ _m /atues1 h[ _m inscriptions endeav\r$ to keep an obscure memory gre51 or ! features ( "s unkn[n man6 ,( c\rse1 at ,c>?age too1 :]e !y copi$ ,rome1 z 9 all ! big cities1 !re 7 /atues & inscriptions 9 abundance ^u ! ,=um1 ! squ>es1 & 9 ! public ba?s4 ,b :at _h n %ock$ ,augu/9 9 8 native l&1 did %ock him 9 a /range city4 ,8 home-sick eyes op5$ to faults :i* till !n _h be5 veil$ by usage4 ,9 any case1 ?is craze = /atues & inscriptions prevail$ at ,rome m ?an any:]e else4 ,! numb] ( /atues on ! ,=um became s inconv5i5t1 t on _m occasions c]ta9 ones 7 m>k$ = fell+1 & ! m insignificant %ift$4 ,! m5 ( /one drove out ! liv+ m51 & =c$ ! gods into _! temples4 ,& ! inscriptions on ! walls bewild]$ ! m9d ) su* a noise ( human praise1 t ambition c\ld dream ( no?+ beyond4 ,x 0 all a k9d ( idolatry :i* revolt$ ! /rict ,*ri/ians2 & 9 ,augu/91 ev5 at ?is "t1 x mu/ h (f5d$ ! c&\r ( a s\l :i* dete/$ exagg]ation & bomba/4 ,! vices ( ! ,roman p1 ) :om he 0 oblig$ to live *eek by j[l1 gall$ him /ill m pa9fully4 ,& to beg9 )1 ! natives hat$ /rang]s4 ,at ! !atres !y us$ to %\t3 ,d[n ) ! =eign resid5ts6 ,acute attacks ( x5ophobia (t5 caus$ riots 9 ! city4 ,"s ye>s be=e ,augu/9 arriv$1 a panic ab\t ! food supply l$ to ! expulsion1 z useless m\?s1 ( all =eign]s domicil$ 9 ,rome1 ev5 ! pr(essors4 ,fam9e 0 an endemic disease !re4 ,& !n1 ^! lazy p 7 always hungry4 ,! gluttony & drunk5ness ( ! ,romans r\s$ ! wond] & also ! disgu/ ( ! sob] races ( ! ,empire--( ! ,greeks z well z ! ,africans4 ,!y ate ev]y:]e--9 ! /reets1 at ! !atre1 at ! circus1 ar\nd ! temples4 ,! sight 0 s ignoble1 & ! public intemp]ance s sc&al\s1 t ! ,prefect1 ,ampelius1 0 oblig$ to issue an ord] prohibit+ p :o _h any self-respect f eat+ 9 ! /reet1 ! keep]s ( w9e-%ops f op5+ _! places be=e t5 o'clock 9 ! morn+1 & ! hawk]s f sell+ cook$ meat 9 ! /reets e>li] ?an a c]ta9 h\r ( ! day4 ,b he might z well h sav$ himself ! tr\ble4 ,religion itself enc\rag$ ?is gre$9ess4 ,! pagan sacrifices 7 sc>cely m ?an pretexts = /uff+4 ,"u ,julian1 :o c>ri$ ! great public sacrifices ( ox5 to an abusive ext5t1 ! soldi]s got drunk & gorg$ !mselves ) meat 9 ! temples1 & came out /agg]+4 ,!n !y w\ld seize hold ( any pass]s-by1 :om !y =c$ to c>ry !m %\ld]-high to _! b>racks4 ,all ?is mu/ be kept 9 m9d s z to und]/& ! /rictness & unyield+ attitude ( ! ,*ri/ian reaction4 ,?is ,roman p1 l ! pagans 9 g5]al1 0 frightfully mat]ial & s5sual4 ,! difficulty ( %ak+ himself free f matt] & ! s5ses is go+ to be ! great ob/acle :i* delays ,augu/9's conv]sion2 & if x 0 s ) him1 a fa/idi\s & intellectual man1 :at ab\t ! cr[d8 ,^? p ?\ght ( no?+ b eat+ & dr9k+ & lewdness4 ,:5 !y left ! tav]n or _! squalid rooms1 !y _h only ! obsc5ities ( mimes1 or ! tumbles ( ! driv]s 9 ! circus1 or ! but*]ies 9 ! amphi!atre to elevate !m4 ,!y pass$ ! night !re "u ! awn+s provid$ by ! municipality4 ,_! passion = horse-races & actors & actresses1 curb$ ?\gh x 0 by ! ,*ri/ian emp]ors1 cont9u$ ev5 aft] ! sack ( ,rome by ! ,b>b>ians4 ,at ! "t ( ! fam9e1 :5 ! /rang]s 7 expell$1 !y except$ f ?is :olesale bani%m5t ?ree ?\s& female danc]s ) ! memb]s ( _! *oirs1 & _! lead]s ( or*e/ra4 ,! ari/ocracy did n manife/ ta/es mu* sup]ior4 ,save a few cultivat$ m9ds1 s9c]ely fond ( lit]ature1 ! greate/ numb] only saw 9 ! lit]>y pose an easy way ( be+ fa%ionable4 ,^! became infatuat$ ab\t an unkn[n au?or1 or an anci5t au?or ^: books 7 n to be _h4 ,!y _h ^! books s\ght = & beautifully copi$4 ,!y1 :o hat$ /udy l poison1 spoke only ( _! fav\rite au?or3 ! o!rs did n exi/ = !m4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 music _h ou/$ lit]ature3 ! libr>ies 7 clos$ l sepul*res4 ,b fa%ionable p 7 int]e/$ 9 an hydraulic organ1 & !y ord]$ f ! lute-mak]s lyres ! size ( *>iots4 ,( c\rse1 ?is musical craze 0 %e] affectation4 ,actually1 !y 7 only int]e/$ 9 sports3 to race1 to arrange races1 to bre$ horses1 to tra9 a?letes & gladiators4 ,z a pa/ime1 !y collect$ ,ori5tal /uffs4 ,silk 0 !n fa%ionable1 & s 7 preci\s /ones1 enamels1 heavy goldsmi?s' "w4 ,r[s ( r+s 7 worn on ea* f+]4 ,p took ! air 9 silk robes1 held toge!r by broo*es c>v$ 9 ! figures ( animals1 a p>asol 9 "o h&1 & a fan ) gold fr+es 9 ! o!r4 ,! co/umes & fa%ions ( ,con/ant9ople encroa*$ ^u ! old ,rome & ! re/ ( ! ,we/]n _w4 ,imm5se =tunes1 :i* _h ga!r$ 9 ! h&s ( c]ta9 p1 ei!r ?r\gh inh]itance or sw9dl+1 enabl$ !m to keep up a s5seless exp5diture4 ,l ! ,am]ican millionaires ( to-day1 :o h _! h\ses & prop]ties 9 bo? hemisph]es1 ^! great ,roman lords possess$ !m 9 e c\ntry 9 ! ,empire4 ,symma*us1 :o 0 ,prefect ( ! ,city :5 ,augu/9 0 9 ,rome1 _h consid]able e/ates n only 9 ,italy & 9 ,sicily1 b ev5 9 ,mauretania4 ,& yet1 9 spite ( all _! weal? & all ! privileges !y enjoy$1 ^! ri* p 7 nei!r happy nor at ease4 ,at ! lea/ suspicion ( a despotic p[]1 _! lives & prop]ty 7 ?reat5$4 ,accusations ( magic1 ( disrespect to ! ,cs>1 ( plots aga9/ ! ,emp]or--any pretext 0 good to plund] !m4 ,dur+ ! prec$+ reign1 t ( ! pitiless ,val5t9ian1 ! ,roman nobility _h be5 lit]ally decimat$ by ! execution]4 ,a c]ta9 vice-,prefect1 ,maxim9us1 _h ga9$ a s9i/] reputation = clev]ness 9 ! art ( manufactur+ suspects4 ,by 8 ord]s1 a basket at ! end ( a /r+ 0 hung out f "o ( ! w9d[s ( ! ,prtorium1 into :i* d5unciations might be ca/4 ,! basket 0 9 use day & night4 ,x is cle> t at ! "t t ,augu/9 settl$ 9 ,rome ?is abom9able sy/em 0 a little mod]at$4 ,b accusation by detectives 0 always 9 ! air4 ,& liv+ 9 ?is atmosph]e ( mi/ru/1 hypocrisy1 brib]y1 & cruelty--small wond] if ! ,c>?ag9ian fell into bitt] reflections ^u ,roman corruption4 ,h[ev] impressive f ! front1 ! ,empire 0 n nice to look at close at h&4 ,b ,augu/9 01 above all1 home-sick4 ,:5 he /roll$ t9d] ! %ady trees ( ! ,janiculum or ,sallu/'s g>d5s1 he already said to himself :at he w\ld repeat lat] to 8 li/5]s at ,hippo3 ,take an ,african1 put him 9 a place cool & gre51 & he won't /ay !re4 ,he w feel he mu/ g away & come back to 8 blaz+ des]t4 ,z = himself1 he _h some?+ bett] to regret ?an a blaz+ des]t4 ,9 front ( ! ,city ( ,gold1 /ret*$ out at 8 feet1 & ! horizon ( ! ,sab9e ,hills1 he rememb]$ ! fem99e s(tness ( ! twilights ^u ! ,lake ( ,tunis1 ! en*antm5t ( moonlit nights ^u ! ,gulf ( ,c>?age1 & t a/oni%+ l&scape to be discov]$ f ! height ( ! t]race ( ,byrsa1 :i* all ! gr&eur ( ! ,roman campagna c\ld n make him =get4 ,,ii ,,! ,,f9al ,,disillusion ',! new pr(essor _h manag$ to secure a c]ta9 numb] ( pupils :om he ga!r$ toge!r 9 8 rooms4 ,he c\ld make en\gh to live at ,rome by himself1 if he c\ld n support !re ! woman & *ild he _h left beh9d at ,c>?age4 ,9 ?is matt] ( f9d+ "w1 8 ho/ & 8 ,mani*ee fri5ds _h done him "s v good turns4 ,al?\gh =c$ to conceal _! beliefs s9ce ! edict ( ,!odosius1 !re 7 a good _m ,mani*ees 9 ! city4 ,!y =m$ an occult ,*ur*1 /rongly organiz$1 & its adepts _h relations ) all classes ( ,roman society4 ,possibly ,augu/9 pres5t$ himself z "o driv5 out ( ,africa by ! p]secution4 ,"s comp5sation w\ld be ow+ to ?is "y man :o _h suff]$ = ! good cause4 ,x 0 8 fri5d ,alypius1 ! bro!r ( 8 he>t1 :o1 hav+ prec$$ him to ,rome to /udy law at 8 p>5ts' wi%es1 n[ 0 ! mo/ useful 9 help+ ,augu/9 to make himself kn[n & f9d pupils4 ,himself a ,mani*ee1 conv]t$ by ,augu/91 & a memb] ( "o ( ! lead+ families 9 ,?aga/e1 he _h n long to wait = an important appo9tm5t 9 ! ,imp]ial adm9i/ration4 ,he 0 assessor to ! ,treasur]-,g5]al1 or ,c\nt ( ! ,italian ,b\nty ,(fice1 & decid$ fiscal que/ions4 ,?anks to 8 influ5ce1 z well z to 8 acqua9tances among ! ,mani*ees1 he 0 a valuable fri5d = ! new arrival1 a fri5d :o c\ld aid him1 n only ) 8 purse1 b ) advice4 ,)\t mu* capacity = !oriz+1 ?is ,alypius 0 a practical _s1 a /raight & ess5tially hone/ s\l1 ^: influ5ce 0 excell5t = 8 impetu\s fri5d4 ,( v *a/e habits1 he urg$ ,augu/9 to re/ra9t4 ,& ev5 9 ab/ract /udies1 ! religi\s controv]sies :i* ,augu/9 dragg$ him into1 8 /rong good s5se mod]at$ ! imag9ative da%es1 ! ov]mu* subtilty :i* sometimes l$ ! o!r beyond heal?y reason4 ,unhappily !y 7 bo? v busy--! judge & ! rhetorician--& al?\gh _! fri5d%ip became /ill great] dur+ ?is /ay 9 ,rome1 !y 7 n able to see ea* o!r z mu* z !y desir$4 ,_! pleasures1 too1 7 p]haps n ! same4 ,augu/9 did n 9 ! lea/ c>e ab\t be+ *a/e1 & ,alypius _h a passion = ! amphi!atre--a passion :i* 8 fri5d disapprov$ (4 ,"s "t e>li]1 at ,c>?age1 ,augu/9 _h fill$ him ) disgu/ ( ! circus4 ,b h>dly 0 ,alypius arriv$ 9 ,rome1 ?an he became mad ab\t ! gladiatorial %[s4 ,"s fell[-/ud5ts took him to ! amphi!atre1 almo/ by =ce4 ,!reupon1 he said t he w\ld /ay1 s9ce !y _h dragg$ him !re2 b he bet t he w\ld keep 8 eyes %ut all ?r\gh ! fight1 & t no?+ c\ld make him op5 !m4 ,he sat d[n on ! b5*es ) ^? :o _h br\ght him1 8 eyelids press$ d[n1 refus+ to look4 ,sudd5ly !re 0 a ro> ( %\t+1 ! %\t ( ! cr[d hail+ ! fall ( ! fir/ w\nd$4 ,8 lids p>t$ ( !mselves2 he saw ! fl[ ( blood4 ,at ! sight ( ! blood says ,augu/91 he drank 9 ru?lessness2 no long] did he turn away1 b fix$ 8 gaze1 & he became mad--& he knew no m4444 ,he 0 fasc9at$ by ! crim9al atrocity ( ?is battle1 & drunk ) ! pleasure ( blood4 ,^! brea?less phrases ( ! ,confessions seem to ?rob /ill ) ! wild fr5zy ( ! cr[d4 ,!y convey to u directly ! k9d ( ,sadic excitem5t :i* p w5t to f9d ab\t ! ar5a4 ,really1 a :olesome sight = future ,*ri/ians1 = all ! s\ls t ! brutality ( pagan cu/oms revolt$6 ,! v ye> t ,augu/9 0 at ,rome1 c]ta9 prison]s ( w>1 ,s>matian soldi]s1 condemn$ to kill ea* o!r 9 ! amphi!atre1 *ose suicide r ?an ?is %ameful dea?4 ,!re 0 9 ?is some?+ to make him reflect--him & 8 fri5ds4 ,! fundam5tal inju/ices :]eon ! anci5t _w re/$--! cru%+ ( ! slave & ! conqu]$1 ! contempt = human life--^! ?+s !y t\*$ ) ! f+] :5 !y look$ on at ! but*]ies 9 ! amphi!atre4 ,all ^? ^: he>ts sick5$ ) disgu/ & horror be=e ^! slaught]-h\se sc5es1 all ^? :o long$ = a little m mildness1 a little m ju/ice1 7 all recruits m>k$ out = ! peaceful army ( ! ,*ri/4 ,= ,alypius1 especially1 x 0 n a bad ?+ to h kn[n ?is blood-drunk5ness at fir/ h&3 he %all be only ! m a%am$ :5 he falls at ! feet ( ! m]ciful ,god4 ,equally useful 0 x = him to h p]sonal exp]i5ce ( ! h>%ness ( m5's ju/ice2 & 9 ! fulfilm5t ( 8 duties z a judge to obs]ve its errors & flaws4 ,:ile he 0 a /ud5t at ,c>?age he j escap$ be+ condemn$ to dea? ^u a false accusation ( !ft--! !ft ( a piece ( lead6 ,already !y 7 dragg+ him1 if n to ! place ( capital puni%m5t1 at lea/ to prison1 :5 a *ance meet+ ) a fri5d ( 8 :o 0 a s5ator sav$ him f ! ?reat5+ mob4 ,at ,rome1 :ile ,assessor to ! ,c\nt ( ! ,italian ,b\nty ,(fice1 he _h to resi/ an attempt to bribe him1 & by do+ s risk$ los+ 8 appo9tm5t1 &1 no d\bt1 some?+ worse too4 ,(ficial v5ality & di%one/y 7 evils s deeply root$1 t he himself ne>ly succumb$4 ,he want$ "s books copi$1 & he _h ! temptation to get ?is done at ! *>ge ( ! ,treasury4 ,?is peculation _h1 9 8 eyes1 a good en\gh excuse1 & x 0 c]ta9 to g undetect$4 ,nev]!less1 :5 he ?\ght x ov] he *ang$ 8 m9d1 & virtu\sly refra9$ f giv+ himself a libr>y at ! exp5se ( ! ,/ate4 ,augu/91 :o relates ^! anecdotes1 draws ! same moral f !m z we d1 to wit--t = a man :o 0 go+ to be a bi%op &1 z su*1 adm9i/rator & judge1 ?is "t sp5t 9 ! ,gov]nm5t s]vice 0 a good prep>atory s*ool4 ,mo/ ( ! o!r great lead]s ( ?is g5]ation ( ,*ri/ians _h also be5 (ficials2 be=e ord9ation1 !y _h be5 mix$ up 9 bus9ess & politics1 & _h liv$ freely ! life ( _! c5tury4 ,s x 0 ) ,/4 ,ambrose1 ) ,/4 ,paul9us ( ,nola1 ) ,augu/9 himself1 & ,evodius & ,alypius1 8 fri5ds4 ,& yet1 h[ev] absorb$ 9 _! "w ! two ,africans might be1 x is pretty ne> c]ta9 t intellectual que/ions took ! lead ( all o!rs4 ,?is is manife/ 9 ,augu/9's case at lea/4 ,he mu/ h a/oni%$ ! good ,alypius :5 he got to ,rome by ackn[l$g+ t he h>dly believ$ 9 ,mani*eeism any long]4 ,& he set =? 8 d\bts ab\t _! ma/]s' cosmogony & physical sci5ce1 8 suspicions t\*+ ! hidd5 immorality ( ! sect4 ,z = himself1 ! controv]sies1 :i* 7 ! ,mani*ees' /rong po9t1 did n dazzle him any long]4 ,at ,c>?age1 b lately1 he _h he>d a ,ca?olic1 a c]ta9 ,helpidius1 oppose to !m argum5ts f ,scripture1 :i* !y 7 unable to refute4 ,to make matt]s worse1 ! ,mani*ee ,bi%op ( ,rome made a bad impression on him f ! v outset4 ,?is man1 he tells u1 0 ( r\gh appe>ance1 )\t culture or polite mann]s4 ,d\btless ?is unmann]ly peasant1 9 8 reception ( ! "y pr(essor1 _h n %ewn himself suffici5tly alive to 8 m]its1 & ! pr(essor felt aggriev$4 ,f !n1 8 ke5 dialectic & 8 satirical _s 7,augu/9 _h =midable p[]s ( ridicule all ?r\gh 8 life7 7 ex]cis$ ^u ! backs ( 8 fell[-religioni/s4 ,provisionally1 he _h admitt$ z indisputable ! basic pr9ciples ( ,mani*eeism3 fir/ ( all1 ! primordial antagonism ( ! two sub/ances1 ! ,god ( ,light & ! ,god ( ,d>kness2 !n1 ?is o!r dogma1 t p>ticles ( t ,div9e ,light1 :i* _h be5 c>ri$ away 9 a tempor>y victory ( ! army ( ,d>kness1 7 imm]s$ 9 c]ta9 plants & liquors4 ,h5ce1 ! di/9ction !y made betwe5 clean & unclean food4 ,all ^? foods 7 pure :i* conta9$ "s "p ( ! ,div9e ,light2 impure1 ^? :i* did n4 ,! purity ( food became evid5t by c]ta9 qualities ( ta/e1 smell1 & appe>ance4 ,b n[ ,augu/9 f\nd a good deal ( arbitr>9ess 9 ^! di/9ctions1 & a good deal ( simplicity 9 ! belief t ! ,div9e ,light dwelt 9 a vegetable4 ,are !y n a%am$1 he said1 to se>* ,god ) _! palates or ) _! nose8 ,& if ,8 pres5ce is reveal$ by a special brilliancy1 by ! goodness ( ! ta/e or ! smell1 :y all[ t di% & condemn ?is1 :i* is ( equal sav\r1 light1 & p]fume8 ,yea1 :y d !y look ^u ! gold5 melon z come out ( ,god's treasure-h\se1 & yet w h none ( ! gold5 fat ( ! ham or ! yell[ ( an egg8 ,:y does ! :it5ess ( lettuce proclaim to !m ! ,div9ity1 & ! :it5ess ( cream no?+ at all8 ,& :y ?is horror ( meat8 ,=1 look y1 roa/ suck+-pig (f]s u a brilliant col\r1 an agreeable smell1 & an appetiz+ ta/e--sure signs1 accord+ to !m1 ( ! ,div9e ,pres5ce4444 ,once />t$ on ?is topic1 ,augu/9's vivacity has no limits4 ,he ev5 drops into jokes :i* w\ld (f5d mod]n %amefac$ness by _! ,ari/ophanic bread?4 ,^! argum5ts1 to say ! tru?1 did n %ake ! f\ndations ( ! doctr9e1 & if a doctr9e mu/ be judg$ accord+ to its works1 ! ,mani*ees might entr5* !mselves beh9d _! rigid moral rules1 & _! conduct4 ,contr>y to ! m accommodat+ ,ca?olicism1 !y p>ad$ a puritan intol]ance4 ,b ,augu/9 _h f\nd out at ,c>?age t ?is au/]ity 0 = ! mo/ "p hypocrisy4 ,at ,rome he 0 ?or\ghly enlight5$4 ,! ,elect ( ! religion made a great impression by _! fa/s & _! ab/95ce f meat4 ,n[ x became cle> t ^! dev\t p]sonages1 "u pi\s pretexts1 lit]ally de/roy$ !mselves by ov]-eat+ & indige/ion4 ,!y held1 9 fact1 t ! *ief "w ( piety consi/$ 9 sett+ free p>ticles ( ! ,div9e ,light1 imprison$ 9 matt] by ! wiles ( ! ,god ( ,d>kness4 ,!y be+ ! ,pure1 !y purifi$ matt] by absorb+ x into _! bodies4 ,! fai?ful br\ght !m /ores ( fruit & vegetables1 s]v$ !m ) real fea/s1 s t by eat+ ^! ?+s !y might lib]ate a little ( ! ,div9e ,sub/ance4 ,( c\rse1 !y ab/a9$ f all fle%1 fle% be+ ! dwell+-place ( ! ,d>k ,god1 & also f f]m5t$ w9e1 :i* !y call$ ! devil's gall4 ,b h[ !y made up = x ov] ! re/6 ,augu/9 makes great fun ( ^! p :o w\ld ?9k x a s9 if !y took z a full meal a small bit ( bacon & cabbage1 ) two or ?ree m\?fuls ( undilut$ w9e1 & yet ord]$ to be s]v$ up1 f ?ree o'clock 9 ! aft]noon1 all k9ds ( fruit & vegetables1 ! mo/ exquisite too1 r5d]$ piquant by spices1 ! ,mani*ees hold+ t spices 7 v full ( fi]y & lum9\s pr9ciples4 ,!n1 _! palates titillat+ f pepp]1 !y swall[$ l>ge draughts ( mull$ w9e or w9e & honey1 & ! juice ( oranges1 lemons1 & grapes4 ,& ^! junket+s began ov] aga9 at nightfall4 ,!y _h a pref]5ce = c]ta9 cakes1 & especially = truffles & mu%rooms--vegetables m p>ticul>ly my/ic4 ,su* a diet put human gluttony to a heavy te/4 ,_m a sc&al came to light 9 ! ,roman community4 ,! ,elect made !mselves sick by dev\r+ ! prodigi\s quantity ( good *e] br\ght to !m ) a view to purification4 ,z x 0 a sacrilege to let any be lo/1 ! unhappy p =c$ !mselves to get d[n ! lot4 ,!re 7 ev5 victims3 *ildr51 gorg$ ) delicacies1 di$ ( /uff+4 ,= *ildr51 be+ innoc5t ?+s1 7 deem$ to h q special purify+ virtues4 ,augu/9 0 beg9n+ to get indignant at all ?is nons5se4 ,/ill1 except = ^! extravagances1 he cont9u$ to believe 9 ! asceticism ( ! ,elect--asceticism ( su* sev]ity t ! ma9 "p ( ! fai?ful f\nd x impossible to practise4 ,& see6 j at ?is mom5t1 :om %\ld he discov] v /range ?+s ab\t b ,bi%op ,fau/us1 t ,fau/us :om he _h look$ = at ,c>?age z a ,messiah4 ,! holy man1 :ile he prea*$ r5unciation1 grant$ himself a good _m indulg5ces3 he lay1 = "o ?+1 on fea!rs1 or ^u s(t goatsk9 rugs4 ,& ^! puritans 7 n ev5 hone/4 ,! ,mani*ee ,bi%op ( ,rome1 t man ( r\gh mann]s :o _h s (f5d$ ,augu/91 0 on ! po9t ( be+ convict$ ( /eal+ ! g5]al ca%-box4 ,la/ly1 !re 7 rum\rs 9 ! air1 accus+ ! ,elect ( giv+ !mselves ov] to repreh5sible practices 9 _! private meet+s4 ,!y condemn$ m>riage & *ild-be>+ z works ( ! devil1 b !y au?oriz$ =nication1 & ev51 x is said1 c]ta9 acts aga9/ nature4 ,t1 = ,augu/91 0 ! f9al disillusion4 ,9 spite ( x1 he did n sep>ate op5ly f ! sect4 ,he kept 8 rank ( auditor 9 ! ,mani*ee ,*ur*4 ,:at held him to x1 7 "s plausible consid]ations on ! intellectual side4 ,mani*eeism1 ) its di/9ction ( two ,pr9ciples1 acc\nt$ conv5i5tly = ! problem ( evil & human responsibility4 ,nei!r ,god nor man 0 answ]able = s9 & pa91 s9ce x 0 ! o!r1 ! ,d>k ,pr9ciple1 :o di/ribut$ !m ?r\gh ! _w among m54 ,augu/91 :o cont9u$ to s91 cont9u$ likewise to be v com=table ) su* a sy/em ( morals & metaphysics4 ,besides1 he 0 n "o ( ^? conv9c$1 d[nright m9ds :o feel ! ne$ to qu>rel noisily ) :at !y take to be error4 ,no "o has oppos$ h]esies m p[]fully1 & ) a m tireless pati5ce1 ?an he has4 ,b he always put "s consid]ation into ! bus9ess4 ,he knew by exp]i5ce h[ easy x is to fall into error1 & he said ?is *>itably to ^? :om he wi%$ to p]suade4 ,!re 0 no?+ ab\t him l ,/4 ,j]ome4 ,p]sonal reasons1 moreov]1 oblig$ him n to break ) 8 fell[-religioni/s :o _h support$ him1 nurs$ him ev51 on 8 arrival at ,rome1 & :o1 z we %all see 9 a mom5t1 might /ill d him s]vices4 ,augu/9 0 n1 l 8 fri5d ,alypius1 a practical m9d1 b he _h tact1 & 9 spite ( all ! impulsiv5ess & mettle ( 8 nature1 a c]ta9 suppl5ess :i* enabl$ him to manoeuvre )\t too _m collisions 9 ! mid/ ( ! mo/ emb>rass+ conjunctures4 ,?r\gh in/9ctive prud5ce he prolong$ 8 indecision4 ,little by little1 he :o _h =m]ly flung himself s en?usia/ically 9 pursuit ( ,tru?1 glid$ into scepticism--! scepticism ( ! ,academics 9 its usual =m4 ,& at ! same "t t he lo/ 8 ta/e = speculative ?9k+1 new annoyances 9 8 pr(ession put ! f9i%+ t\* on 8 disc\ragem5t4 ,if ! ,roman /ud5ts 7 less noisy ?an ^? ( ,c>?age1 !y _h a deplorable habit ( walk+ (f & leav+ _! ma/]s unpaid4 ,augu/9 0 ere long victimiz$ 9 ?is way3 he lo/ 8 "t & 8 words4 ,z at ,c>?age1 s at ,rome1 he _h to face ! fact t he c\ld n live by 8 pr(ession4 ,:at 0 he to d8 ,w\ld he h to g back home8 ,he _h fall5 into despair1 :5 an un=ese5 *ance turn$ up = him4 ,! t[n c\ncil ( ,milan ?rew op5 a pr(essor%ip ( ,rhetoric to public competition4 ,x w\ld be salvation = him if he c\ld get appo9t$4 ,= a long "t he _h want$ a po/ 9 ! ,/ate education4 ,9 receipt ( a fix$ sal>y1 he w\ld no long] h to worry ab\t beat+ up a class1 or to gu>d aga9/ ! di%one/y ( 8 pupils4 ,he put 8 "n d[n imm$iately among ! c&idates4 ,b no m 9 ^? days ?an 9 ours 0 simple m]it by itself en\gh4 ,x 0 necess>y to pull /r+s4 ,8 fri5ds ! ,mani*ees und]took to d ?is = him4 ,!y urg$ 8 claims w>mly on ! ,prefect ,symma*us1 :o d\btless presid$ at ! competitive trials4 ,by an amus+ irony ( fate1 ,augu/9 ow$ 8 place to p he 0 gett+ ready to sep>ate f1 :om ev5 he 0 soon go+ to attack1 & also to a man :o 0 9 a way ! (ficial enemy ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,! pagan ,symma*us appo9t+ to an important po/ a future ,ca?olic bi%op--!re is matt] = surprise 9 t6 ,b ,symma*us1 :o _h be5 ,proconsul at ,c>?age1 protect$ ! ,africans 9 ,rome4 ,fur!rmore1 x is likely t ! ,mani*ees repres5t$ _! c&idate to him z a man ho/ile to ,ca?olics4 ,n[ 9 ?is ye>1 ,a4,d4 #chd1 ! ,prefect _h j begun an op5 /ruggle ) ! ,ca?olics4 ,he believ$1 !re=e1 t he made a good *oice 9 appo9t+ ,augu/94 ,s a *a9 ( ev5ts1 ) :i* 8 w _h h>dly any?+ to d1 0 go+ to draw ! "y rhetorician to ,milan--yes1 & h[ mu* f>!r6--to :]e he did n want to g1 to :]e ! pray]s ( ,monnica summon$ him unceas+ly3 ,:]e ,i am1 !re %all y be also4 ,:5 he 0 leav+ ,rome1 he did n mu* expect t4 ,:at he *iefly ?\ght ( 0 t he _h at la/ won an indep5d5t f9ancial position1 & t he 0 become an (ficial ( "s importance4 ,he _h a flatt]+ evid5ce ( ?is at once3 ,x 0 at ! exp5se ( ! city ( ,milan & 9 ! ,imp]ial c>riages t he travell$ ?r\gh ,italy to take up 8 new po/4 ,,iii ,,! ,,meet+ ,,betwe5 ,,ambrose ,,& ,,augu/9 ,be=e he left ,rome1 & dur+ 8 j\rney to ,milan1 ,augu/9 mu/ h recall$ m ?an once ! v]ses ( ,t]5ce :i* 8 fri5d ,m>cianus _h quot$ by way ( enc\ragem5t & advice ! night he set sail = ,italy3 ,?is day :i* br+s to !e ano!r life ,dem&s t ?\ ano!r man %alt be4 ,he 0 ?irty ye>s old4 ,! "t ( y\?ful wilfulness 0 ov]4 ,age1 disappo9tm5ts1 ! difficulties ( life1 _h develop$ 8 "*4 ,he 0 n[ become a man ( position1 an em95t (ficial1 9 a v l>ge city :i* 0 ! second capital ( ! ,we/]n ,empire & ! pr9cipal resid5ce ( ! ,c\rt4 ,if he wi%$ to avoid fur!r set-backs 9 8 c>e]1 x behov$ him to *oose a l9e ( conduct c>efully ?\ght out4 ,& fir/ ( all1 x 0 "t to get rid ( ,mani*eeism4 ,a ,mani*ee w\ld h made a sc&al 9 a city :]e ! greate/ "p ( ! population 0 ,*ri/ian1 & ! ,c\rt 0 ,ca?olic1 al?\gh x did n conceal its sympa?y ) ,arianism4 ,x 0 a long "t n[ s9ce ,augu/9 _h be5 a ,mani*ee 9 8 he>t4 ,accord+ly1 he 0 n oblig$ to feign 9 ord] to re-ent] a ,*ur* :i* already includ$ him =mally among its cate*um5s4 ,d\btless he 0 a v lukew>m cate*um51 s9ce at int]vals he incl9$ to scepticism4 ,b he ?\ght x dec5t to rema91 at lea/ = ! "t be+1 9 ! ,ca?olic body1 9 :i* 8 "m _h br\ght him up1 until ! day :5 "s sure light %\ld arise to direct 8 pa?4 ,n[ ,/4 ,ambrose 0 at t "t ! ,ca?olic ,bi%op ( ,milan4 ,augu/9 0 v eag] to ga9 8 goodwill4 ,ambrose 0 an und\bt$ political p[]1 an important p]sonage1 a celebrat$ orator ^: r5[n 0 %$ all across ! ,roman _w4 ,he belong$ to an illu/ri\s family4 ,8 fa!r _h be5 ,prtorian prefect ( ,gaul4 ,he himself1 ) ! title ( ,consul1 0 gov]n+ ! prov9ces ( ,emilia & ,liguria :5 ! ,milanese =c$ him1 mu* aga9/ 8 w1 to become _! bi%op4 ,baptiz$1 orda9$ prie/1 & consecrat$1 "o on top ( ! o!r1 x 0 only app>5tly t he gave up 8 civil functions4 ,f ! height ( 8 episcopal ?rone he always p]sonifi$ ! highe/ au?ority 9 ! c\ntry4 ,z soon z he arriv$ at ,milan1 ,augu/9 hurri$ to call ^u 8 bi%op4 ,kn[+ him z we d1 he mu/ h approa*$ ,ambrose 9 a great transport ( en?usiasm4 ,8 imag9ation1 too1 0 k9dl$4 ,9 8 ?\ght ?is 0 a man ( lett]s1 an orator1 a fam\s writ]1 almo/ a fell[-work]1 t he 0 go+ to see4 ,! "y pr(essor admir$ 9 ,bi%op ,ambrose all ! glory t he 0 ambiti\s (1 & all t he already believ$ himself to be4 ,he fanci$1 t h[ev] great might be ! diff]5ce 9 _! positions1 he w\ld f9d himself at once on an equal foot+ ) ?is high p]sonage1 & w\ld h a famili> talk ) him1 z he us$ to h at ,c>?age ) ! ,proconsul ,v9dicianus4 ,he told himself also t ,ambrose 0 a prie/1 t is to say1 a doctor ( s\ls3 he meant to op5 to him all 8 spiritual wret*$ness1 ! angui% ( 8 m9d & he>t4 ,he expect$ consolation f him1 if n cure4 ,well1 he 0 mi/ak54 ,al?\gh 9 all 8 writ+s he speaks ( ! holy ,bi%op ( ,milan ) feel+s ( s9c]e respect & admiration1 he lets x be und]/ood t 8 expectations 7 n realiz$4 ,if ! ,mani*ean bi%op ( ,rome _h (f5d$ him by 8 r\gh mann]s1 ,ambrose disconc]t$ him alike by 8 polit5ess1 8 k9dl9ess1 & by ! res]ve1 p]haps involunt>ily haughty1 ( 8 reception4 ,he receiv$ me1 says ,augu/91 l a fa!r1 & z a bi%op he 0 pleas$ en\gh at my com+3--p]egr9ationem meam satis episcopalit] dilexit4 ,?is satis episcopalit] looks v l a sly bant] at ! exp5se ( ! sa9t4 ,x is inf9itely probable t ,/4 ,ambrose receiv$ ,augu/91 n exactly z a man ( no acc\nt1 b /ill1 z a %eep ( 8 flock1 & n z a gift$ orator1 & t1 9 %ort1 he %ew$ him ! same episcopal b5evol5ce z he _h f a s5se ( duty = all 8 he>]s4 ,x is possible too t ,ambrose 0 on 8 gu>d f ! outset ) ?is ,african1 appo9t$ a municipal pr(essor ?r\gh ! good (fices ( ! pagan ,symma*us1 8 p]sonal enemy4 ,9 ! op9ion ( ! ,italian ,ca?olics1 no?+ good came f ,c>?age3 ^! ,c>?ag9ians 7 g5]ally ,mani*ees or ,donati/s--sect>ies ! m dang]\s because !y claim$ to be or?odox1 &1 m+l+ ) ! fai?ful1 hypocritically contam9at$ !m4 ,& !n ,ambrose1 ! great "l1 ! =m] ,gov]nor ( ,liguria1 ! c\nsellor ( ! ,emp]ors1 may n h q conceal$ a c]ta9 ironic commis]ation = ?is deal] 9 words1 ?is "y rhetorician :o 0 /ill puff$ up ) 8 own importance4 ,be ?is z x w1 x 0 a lesson 9 humility t ,/4 ,ambrose1 )\t int5d+ x1 gave to ,augu/94 ,! lesson 0 n und]/ood4 ,! rhetoric pr(essor ga!r$ only "o ?+ f ! visit1 :i* 01 t ! ,bi%op ( ,milan _h receiv$ him well4 ,& z human vanity imm$iately l5ds va/ significance to ! lea/ advances ( di/+ui%$ or p[]ful p]sons1 ,augu/9 felt ?ankful = x4 ,he began to love ,ambrose almo/ z mu* z he admir$ him1 & he admir$ him = reasons altoge!r worldly4 ,ambrose ,i c\nt$ "o ( ! happy ones ( ?is _w1 because he 0 held 9 su* hon\r by ! great4 ,! qualification :i* imm$iately foll[s %ews naively en\gh ! s5sual ,augu/9's /ate ( m9d at t "t3 ,only x seem$ to me t celibacy mu/ be a heavy bur!n ^u him4 ,9 ^? ye>s ! ,bi%op ( ,milan might1 inde$1 pass = a happy man 9 ! eyes ( ! _w4 ,he 0 ! fri5d ( ! v glori\s & v victori\s ,!odosius2 he _h be5 ! advis] ( ! "y ,emp]or ,gratian1 b lately assass9at$2 & al?\gh ! ,empress ,ju/9a1 devot$ to ! ,arians1 plott$ aga9/ him1 he _h /ill great influ5ce 9 ! c\ncil ( ,val5t9ian ,,ii--a little ,emp]or ?irte5 ye>s old1 :om a ,c\rt ( pagans & ,arians endeav\r$ to draw into an anti-,ca?olic reaction4 ,almo/ z soon z ,augu/9 arriv$ 9 ,milan1 he 0 able to see = himself ! great au?ority & e/eem :i* ,ambrose possess$1 ! occasion be+ a dispute :i* made a great noise4 ,two ye>s e>li]1 ,gratian _h _h ! /atue & alt> ( ,victory remov$ f ! ,curia1 decl>+ t ?is pagan emblem & its accompanim5ts no long] s]v$ any purpose 9 an assembly ( :i* ! majority 0 ,*ri/ian4 ,by ! same /roke1 he suppress$ ! incomes ( ! sac]dotal colleges ) all _! privileges1 p>ticul>ly ^? ( ! ,ve/als2 confiscat$ = ! rev5ue ! sums grant$ = ! ex]cise ( religion2 seiz$ ! prop]ty ( ! temples2 & =bade ! prie/s to receive beque/s ( real e/ate4 ,?is meant ! complete sep>ation ( ! ,/ate & ! anci5t religion4 ,! pagan m9ority 9 ! ,s5ate1 ) ,symma*us1 ! ,prefect1 at its head1 prote/$ aga9/ ?is edict4 ,a deputation 0 s5t to ,milan to place ! pagan grievances be=e ! ,emp]or4 ,gratian refus$ to receive !m4 ,x 0 ?\ght t 8 successor1 ,val5t9ian ,,ii1 be+ feebl]1 w\ld be m oblig+4 ,a new s5atorial committee pres5t$ !mselves ) a petition drawn up by ,symma*us--a g5u9e piece ( oratory :i* ,ambrose himself admir$1 or pret5d$ to admire4 ,?is spee* made a deep impression :5 x 0 read 9 ! ,imp]ial ,c\ncil4 ,b ,ambrose int]v5$ ) all 8 eloqu5ce4 ,he dem&$ t ! common law %\ld be appli$ equally to pagans z to ,*ri/ians1 & x 0 he :o won ! day4 ,victory 0 n replac$ 9 ! ,roman ,curia1 nei!r 7 ! goods ( ! temples return$4 ,augu/9 mu/ h be5 v mu* /ruck by ?is advantage :i* ,ca?olicism _h ga9$4 ,x became cle> t h5ce=? ?is 0 to be ! ,/ate religion4 ,& he :o envi$ s mu* ! =tunate ( ! _w1 might take note1 besides1 t ! new religion br\ght1 along ) ! fai?1 ri*es & hon\rs to its adepts4 ,at ,rome he _h li/5$ to ! disp>ag+ by pagans & 8 ,mani*ee fri5ds ( ! popes & _! cl]gy4 ,!y made fun ( ! fa%ionable cl]ics & legacy hunt]s4 ,x 0 relat$ t ! ,roman ,pontiff1 s]vant ( ! ,god ( ! poor1 ma9ta9$ a gorge\s e/abli%m5t1 & t 8 table rivall$ ! ,imp]ial table 9 luxury4 ,! prefect ,prtextatus1 a resolute pagan1 said sc(f+ly to ,pope ,damasus3 ,make me ,bi%op ( ,rome1 & ,i'll become a ,*ri/ian at once4 ,c]ta9ly1 commonplace human reasons c nei!r br+ ab\t nor acc\nt = a s9c]e conv]sion4 ,conv]sion is a div9e "w4 ,b human reasons1 arrang$ by a my/]i\s ,w ) reg>d to ?is "w1 may at lea/ prep>e a s\l = x4 ,anyh[1 x _c be neglect$ t ,augu/91 com+ to ,milan full ( ambiti\s plans1 !re saw ,ca?olicism treat$ ) s mu* importance 9 ! p]son ( ,ambrose4 ,?is religion1 :i* till !n he _h despis$1 n[ appe>$ to him z a triumphant religion wor? s]v+4 ,b ?\gh su* consid]ations might attract ,augu/9's att5tion1 !y took no hold on 8 consci5ce4 ,x 0 well en\gh = an intrigu] ab\t ! ,c\rt to get conv]t$ f self-int]e/4 ,z = him1 he want$ all or no?+2 ! *ief good 9 8 eyes 0 c]ta9ty & tru?4 ,he sc>cely believ$ 9 ?is any long]1 & surely _h no hope ( f9d+ x among ! ,ca?olics2 b /ill he w5t to he> ,ambrose's s]mons4 ,he w5t 9 ! fir/ place z a critic ( language1 ) ! r jeal\s curiosity ( ! tra9$ man :o wat*es h[ ano!r man does x4 ,he want$ to judge himself if ! sacr$ orator 0 z good z 8 reputation4 ,! firm & sub/antial eloqu5ce ( ?is =m] (ficial1 ?is /atesman :o 0 m ?an any?+ a man ( action1 imm$iately got control ( ! frivol\s rhetorician4 ,to be sure1 he did n f9d 9 ,ambrose's s]mons ! exhil>ation or ! v]bal c>ess :i* _h captivat$ him 9 ^? ( ,fau/us ! ,mani*ean2 b yet !y _h a p]suasive grace :i* held him4 ,augu/9 he>d ! bi%op ) pleasure4 ,/ill1 if he lik$ to he> him talk1 he rema9$ contemptu\s ( ! doctr9e he prea*$4 ,!n1 little by little1 ?is doctr9e =c$ itself on 8 m$itations3 he p]ceiv$ t x 0 m s]i\s ?an he _h ?\ght hi!rto1 or1 at lea/1 t x c\ld be def5d$4 ,ambrose _h />t$ 9 ,italy ! exegetical me?ods ( ! ,ori5tals4 ,he discov]$ 9 ,scripture allegorical mean+s1 sometimes edify+1 sometimes deep1 always satisfy+ = a reasonable m9d4 ,augu/91 :o 0 incl9$ to subtilty1 mu* reli%$ ^! explanations :i*1 if +5i\s1 7 (t5 =c$4 ,! ,bible no long] seem$ to him s absurd4 ,f9ally1 ! immoralities :i* ! ,mani*ees made su* a great po9t ( aga9/ ! ,holy ,writ1 7 ju/ifi$1 accord+ to ,ambrose1 by hi/orical consid]ations3 :at ,god did n all[ to-day1 ,he all[$ =m]ly by reason ( ! conditions ( exi/5ce4 ,h[ev]1 ?\gh ! ,bible might be nei!r absurd nor contr>y to morals1 ?is did n prove t x 0 true4 ,augu/9 f\nd no outlet = 8 d\bts4 ,he w\ld h be5 glad to h ,ambrose help him to get rid ( !m4 ,_m a "t he tri$ to h a talk ) him ab\t ^! ?+s4 ,b ! ,bi%op ( ,milan 0 s v busy a p]sonage6 ,i c\ld n ask him1 says ,augu/91 :at ,i want$ z ,i want$1 because ! %oals ( busy p :o consult$ him ab\t _! affairs1 & to ^: infirmities he m9i/]$1 came betwe5 me & 8 e> & lips4 ,& 9 ! few mom5ts :5 he 0 n ?us surr\nd$1 he 0 refre%+ ei!r 8 body ) ne$ful food1 or 8 m9d ) read+4 ,:ile he read 8 eye w&]$ along ! page & 8 he>t se>*$ out ! mean+1 b 8 voice & 8 tongue 7 at re/4 ,(t5 :5 we att5d$ 7= ! door 0 op5 to all1 & no "o 0 ann\nc$71 we saw him read+ sil5tly1 b nev] o!rwise1 & aft] sitt+ = "s "t )\t speak+ 7= :o w\ld presume to tr\ble "o s occupi$87 we w5t away aga94 ,we div9$ t1 = ! little space ( "t :i* 0 all t he c\ld secure = ! refre%m5t ( 8 m9d1 he all[$ himself a holiday f ! di/raction ( o!r p's bus9ess1 & did n wi% to be int]rupt$2 & p]haps he 0 afraid le/ eag] li/5]s %\ld invite him to expla9 ! h>d] passages ( 8 au?or1 or to ent] ^u ! discussion ( difficult topics1 & h9d] him f p]us+ z _m volumes z he wi%$4444 ,( c\rse ! reason t guid$ a man ( su* rem>kable virtue mu/ h be5 good4444 ,nobody c\ld comm5t m subtly--nor1 be x said also1 m malici\sly--! attitude ( ,/4 ,ambrose t[>ds ,augu/91 ?an ,augu/9 himself does x "h4 ,at ! "t he wrote ?is page1 ! ev5ts he 0 relat+ _h happ5$ a long "t ago4 ,b he is a ,*ri/ian1 &1 9 8 turn1 he is a bi%op3 he und]/&s n[ :at he c\ld n und]/& !n4 ,he feels ?or\ghly at he>t t if ,ambrose )drew himself1 x 0 because ! pr(essor ( rhetoric 0 n 9 a /ate ( m9d to h a pr(itable discussion ) a believ]3 he lack$ ! necess>y humility ( he>t & intellect4 ,b at ! mom5t1 he mu/ h tak5 ?+s 9 q ano!r way1 & h felt r hurt1 n to say m1 at ! bi%op's app>5t indiff]5ce4 ,j picture a "y writ] ( to-day1 pretty well conv9c$ ( 8 value1 b uneasy ab\t 8 future1 com+ to ask advice ( an old] man already fam\s--well1 ,augu/9's advances to ,ambrose 7 n unlike t1 save t !y _h a mu* m s]i\s "*1 s9ce x 0 n a "q ( lit]ature1 b ( ! salvation ( a s\l4 ,at ?is p]iod1 :at ,augu/9 saw 9 ,ambrose1 ev5 :5 he consult$ him on sacr$ matt]s1 0 *iefly ! orator1 t is to say1 a r old] rival4444 ,he ent]s4 ,he is %ewn into ! private room ( ! great man1 )\t be+ ann\nc$1 l any ord9>y p]son4 ,! great man does n lay aside 8 book to greet him1 does n ev5 speak a ^w to him4444 ,:at w\ld ! (ficial pr(essor ( ,rhetoric to ! ,city ( ,milan ?9k ( su* a reception8 ,"o c make out cle>ly en\gh ?r\gh ! l9es ( ! ,confessions4 ,he said to himself t ,ambrose1 be+ a bi%op1 _h *>ge ( s\ls1 & he 0 surpris$ t ! bi%op1 no matt] h[ great a "l he might be1 made no attempt :atev] to (f] him spiritual aid4 ,& z he 0 /ill devoid ( ,*ri/ian *>ity1 no d\bt he ?\ght too t ,ambrose 0 consci\s t he _h n ! ability to wre/le ) a dialectician ( ,augu/9's /r5g?1 & t1 into ! b>ga91 ! prelate 0 to seek 9 k ( ! ,scriptures4 ,&1 9 tru?1 ,ambrose _h be5 made a bi%op s sudd5ly t he mu/ h f\nd himself oblig$ to improvise a ha/y k4 ,anyh[1 ,augu/9 conclud$ t if he refus$ to discuss1 x 0 because he 0 afraid ( be+ at a disadvantage4 ,v surely ,/4 ,ambrose _h no notion ( :at ! cate*um5 0 ?9k+4 ,he so>$ too high to tr\ble ab\t mis]able /+s to self-respect4 ,9 8 m9i/ry he 0 = all alike1 & he w\ld h ?\ght x aga9/ ,*ri/ian equality to %ew any special fav\r to ,augu/94 ,if1 9 ! brief talks he _h ) ! "y rhetorician1 he 0 able to ga!r any?+ ( 8 "*1 he c\ld n h =m$ a v fav\rable op9ion ( x4 ,! high-/rung temp]am5t ( ! ,african1 ^! vague ye>n+s ( ! _s1 ^! /]ile melan*olies1 ?is cont9ual temporiz+ be=e ! fai?--all t c\ld only displease ,ambrose1 ! practical ,roman1 ! (ficial us$ all 8 life to comm&4 ,h[ev] t 01 ,augu/91 9 foll[+ ye>s1 nev] all[$ himself ! lea/ reproa* t[>ds ,ambrose4 ,on ! contr>y1 ev]y:]e he loads him ) praise1 quotes him repeat$ly 9 8 treatises1 & takes refuge on 8 au?ority4 ,he calls him 8 fa!r4 ,b once1 :5 he is speak+ ( ! spiritual desolation 9 :i* he 0 plung$ at ,milan1 !re does escape him some?+ l a veil$ compla9t :i* appe>s to be aim$ at ,ambrose4 ,aft] recall+ ! eag]ness ) :i* he s\ght tru? 9 ^? days1 he adds3 ,if any "o c\ld h be5 f\nd !n to tr\ble ab\t in/ruct+ me1 he w\ld h _h a mo/ will+ & docile pupil4 ,?is phrase1 9 su* m>k$ contra/ ) s _m laudatory passages 9 ! ,confessions ab\t ,/4 ,ambrose1 seems to be inde$ a /atem5t ( ! pla9 tru?4 ,if ,god made use ( ,ambrose to conv]t ,augu/91 x is nev]!less likely t ,ambrose p]sonally did no?+1 or v little1 to br+ ab\t ?is conv]sion4 ,,iv ,,plans ,,( ,,m>riage ,b ev5 z he draws ne>] ! goal1 ,augu/9 w\ld appe>1 on ! contr>y1 to get f>!r away f x4 ,su* are ,god's secret paces1 ,:o snat*es s\ls l a ?ief3 ,he drops on !m )\t w>n+4 ,till ! v eve ( ! day :5 ,*ri/ %all come to take him1 ,augu/9 w be all tak5 up ) ! _w & ! c>e ( mak+ a good figure 9 x4 ,al?\gh ,ambrose's s]mons /imulat$ him to reflect ^u ! great hi/orical reality :i* ,*ri/ianity is1 he _h z yet b dim glimpses ( x4 ,he _h giv5 up 8 sup]ficial unbelief1 & yet did n believe 9 any?+ def9ite4 ,he drift$ into a sort ( agno/icism comp\nd$ ( m5tal indol5ce & disc\ragem5t4 ,:5 he scrut9iz$ 8 consci5ce to ! dep?s1 ! mo/ he c\ld f9d 0 a belief 9 ! exi/5ce ( ,god & ,8 provid5ce--q ab/ract ideas :i* he 0 incapable ( enliv5+4 ,b :atev] 0 ! use ( speculat+ ^u ,tru? & ! ,sov]eign ,good6 ,! ma9 ?+ to d 0 to live4 ,n[ t 8 future 0 c]ta91 ,augu/9 endeav\r$ to arrange 8 life ) a view to 8 tranquillity4 ,he _h no long] v l>ge ambitions4 ,:at he pr9cipally want$ to d 0 to create = himself a nice little exi/5ce1 peaceful & agreeable1 "o might almo/ say1 middle-class4 ,8 pres5t =tune1 al?\gh small1 0 /ill en\gh = t1 & he 0 9 a hurry to enjoy x4 ,accord+ly1 he _h n be5 long 9 ,milan ere he s5t = 8 mi/ress & 8 son4 ,he _h r5t$ an ap>tm5t 9 a h\se :i* gave on a g>d54 ,! own]1 :o did n live !re1 all[$ him ! use ( ! :ole h\se4 ,a h\se1 ! dream ( ! sage6 ,& a g>d5 9 ,virgil's c\ntry6 ,augu/91 ! pr(essor1 %\ld h be5 wond]fully happy4 ,8 "m soon jo9$ him4 ,gradually a :ole tribe ( ,africans came d[n on him1 & took advantage ( 8 hospitality4 ,"h 0 8 bro!r1 ,navigius1 8 two c\s9s1 ,ru/icus & ,la/idianus1 8 fri5d ,alypius1 :o c\ld n make up 8 m9d to "p f him1 & probably ,nebridius1 ano!r ( 8 ,c>?age fri5ds4 ,no?+ c\ld be m 9 h>mony ) ! cu/oms ( ! "t4 ,! ,rhetorician to ! ,city ( ,milan _h a po/ :i* w\ld pass = sup]b 9 ! eyes ( 8 poor relations4 ,he 0 acqua9t$ ) v important p1 & _h access to ! ,imp]ial ,c\rt1 :5ce fav\rs & b\nties came4 ,imm$iately1 ! family ran to put !mselves "u 8 protection & be enroll$ b5efici>ies1 to get :at !y c\ld out ( 8 new =tune & cr$it4 ,& !n ^! immigrations ( ,africans & ,ori5tals into ! nor!rn c\ntries always come ab\t 9 ! same way4 ,x is en\gh if "o ( !m gets on !re3 he becomes imm$iately ! drop ( ink on ! blott+-pap]4 ,! mo/ important p]son 9 ?is little ,african phalan/]y 0 unque/ionably ,monnica1 :o _h tak5 9 h& ! moral & mat]ial control ( ! h\se4 ,%e 0 n v old--n q fifty-f\r--b %e want$ to be 9 h] own c\ntry4 ,t %e %\ld h left x1 & fac$ ! we>9ess ( a long j\rney ov] sea & l&1 %e mu/ h _h v s]i\s reasons4 ,! pov]ty into :i* %e _h fall5 s9ce ! dea? ( h] husb& w\ld n be an adequate explanation ( h] dep>ture f h] native l&4 ,%e _h /ill "s small prop]ty at ,?aga/e2 %e c\ld h liv$ !re4 ,! true motives ( h] dep>ture 7 ( an altoge!r diff]5t ord]4 ,fir/ ( all1 %e passionately lov$ h] son1 to ! po9t t %e 0 n able to live away f him4 ,let u recall ,augu/9's t\*+ words3 ,= %e lov$ to keep me ) h]1 z mo!rs are wont1 yes1 f> m ?an mo/ mo!rs4 ,besides t1 %e want$ to save him4 ,%e completely believ$ t ?is 0 h] "w 9 ! _w4 ,beg9n+ f n[1 %e is no long] ! wid[ ( ,patricius3 %e is already ,sa9t ,monnica4 ,liv+ l a nun1 %e fa/$1 pray$1 mortifi$ h] body4 ,by long m$itat+ on ! ,scriptures1 %e _h develop$ )9 h] ! s5se ( spiritual realities1 s t be=e long %e a/oni%$ ,augu/9 himself4 ,%e _h visions2 p]haps %e _h trances4 ,z %e came ov] ! sea f ,c>?age to ,o/ia1 ! %ip :i* c>ri$ h] ran into a wild gale4 ,! dang] became extreme1 & ! sailors !mselves c\ld no long] hide _! fe>4 ,b ,monnica intrepidly enc\rag$ !m4 ,nev] y fe>1 we %all arrive 9 port safe & s\nd6 ,god1 %e decl>$1 _h promis$ h] ?is4 ,if1 9 h] ,*ri/ian life1 %e knew o!r m9utes m div9e1 t 0 truly ! mo/ h]oic4 ,across ,augu/9's calm n>rative1 we witness ! sc5e4 ,?is woman ly+ on ! deck among pass5g]s half dead f fatigue & t]ror1 sudd5ly fl+s back h] veils1 /&s up be=e ! madd5$ sea1 & ) a sudd5 flame gleam+ ov] h] pale face1 %e cries to ! sailors3 ,:at d y fe>8 ,we %all get to port4 ,i am sure ( x6 ,! glori\s act ( fai?6 ,at ?is solemn mom5t1 :5 %e saw dea? s ne>1 %e _h a cle> revelation ( h] de/9y2 %e knew ) absolute c]ta9ty t %e 0 entru/$ ) a message = h] son1 & t h] son w\ld receive ?is message1 9 spite ( all1 9 spite ( ! wildness ( ! sea--aye1 9 spite ( 8 own he>t4 ,:5 ?is sublime emotion _h subsid$1 x left ) h] ! conviction t soon] or lat] ,augu/9 w\ld *ange 8 ways4 ,he _h lo/ himself1 he 0 mi/ak5 ab\t himself4 ,?is bus9ess ( rhetorician 0 unwor?y ( him4 ,! ,ma/] ( ! field _h *os5 him to be "o ( ! great reap]s 9 ! "t ( h>ve/4 ,= a long :ile ,monnica _h =ese5 ! exceptional place t ,augu/9 0 to take 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,:y fritt] away 8 tal5t & intellig5ce 9 sell+ va9 words1 :5 !re 7 h]esies to combat1 ! ,tru? to make %9e =?1 :5 ! ,donati/s 7 captur+ ! ,african basilicas f ! ,ca?olics8 ,:at1 9 fact1 0 ! mo/ celebrat$ rhetorician comp>$ to a bi%op--protector ( cities1 c\nsellor ( emp]ors1 repres5tative ( ,god on e>?8 ,all ?is might ,augu/9 be4 ,& he rema9$ /ubborn 9 8 error6 ,pray]s & ef=ts mu/ be r$\bl$ to draw him f t4 ,x 0 also = h]self t %e /ruggl$1 = ! de>e/ ( h] hopes z a "m4 ,to be> a s\l to ,jesus ,*ri/--& a *os5 s\l :o w\ld save 9 8 turn s\ls )\t numb]--= ?is only _h %e liv$4 ,& s x 0 t on ! deck1 tir$ by ! roll+ ( ! %ip1 dr5*$ by ! seas t 7 break+ on bo>d1 & h>dly able to /& 9 ! tee? ( ! w9d1 %e cri$ out to ! sailors3 ,:at d y fe>8 ,we %all get to port4 ,i am sure ( x4444 ,at ,milan %e 0 reg>d$ by ,bi%op ,ambrose z a model p>i%ion]4 ,%e nev] miss$ 8 s]mons & hung ^u 8 lips z a f\nta9 ( wat] spr++ up to et]nal life4 ,& yet x does n appe> t ! great bi%op und]/ood ! "m any bett] ?an he did ! son3 he _h n ! "t4 ,= him ,monnica 0 a wor?y ,african woman1 p]haps a little odd 9 h] devotion1 & giv5 to _m a sup]/iti\s practice4 ,?us1 %e cont9u$ to c>ry baskets ( bread & w9e & pulse to ! tombs ( ! m>tyrs1 accord+ to ! use at ,c>?age & ,?aga/e4 ,:51 c>ry+ h] basket1 %e came to ! door ( "o ( ! ,milanese basilicas1 ! doorkeep] =bade h] to ent]1 say+ t x 0 aga9/ ! bi%op's ord]s1 :o _h solemnly condemn$ su* practices because !y smack$ ( idolatry4 ,! mom5t %e le>n$ t ?is cu/om 0 prohibit$ by ,ambrose1 ,monnica1 v mu* mortifi$1 submitt$ to take away h] basket1 = 9 h] eyes ,ambrose 0 ! provid5tial apo/le :o w\ld lead h] son to salvation4 ,& yet x mu/ h griev$ h] to give up ?is old cu/om ( h] c\ntry4 ,save = ! fe> ( displeas+ ! bi%op1 %e w\ld h kept x up4 ,ambrose 0 gratifi$ by h] ob$i5ce1 h] f]v\r & *>ity4 ,:5 by *ance he met ! son1 he congratulat$ him on hav+ su* a "m4 ,augu/91 :o did n yet despise human praise1 no d\bt expect$ t ,ambrose w\ld 9 turn pay "s complim5ts to himself4 ,b ,ambrose did n praise him at all1 & p]haps he felt r vex$4 ,he himself1 h[ev]1 0 always v busy2 he _h h>dly any "t to pr(it by ! pi\s exhortations ( ! bi%op4 ,8 day 0 fill$ by 8 "w & 8 social duties4 ,9 ! morn+ he lectur$4 ,! aft]noon w5t 9 fri5dly visits1 or 9 look+ up m5 ( position :om he appli$ to = himself or 8 relations4 ,9 ! ev5+1 he prep>$ to-morr['s lecture4 ,9 spite ( ?is v full & /irr+ life1 :i* w\ld seem to satisfy all 8 ambitions1 he c\ld n manage to /ifle ! cry ( 8 he>t 9 di/ress4 ,he did n feel really happy4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 x is d\btful :e!r he lik$ ,milan any bett] ?an ,rome4 ,he felt ! cold !re v mu*4 ,! ,milanese w9t]s are v try+1 especially = a s\!rn]4 ,?ick fogs rise f ! canals & ! m>% l&s :i* surr\nd ! city4 ,! ,alp9e sn[s are v ne>4 ,?is climate1 damp] & fro/i] ev5 ?an at ,rome1 did no good to 8 *e/4 ,he suff]$ cont9ually f ho>s5ess2 he 0 oblig$ to int]rupt 8 lectures--a mo/ disa/r\s necessity = a man ^: bus9ess x is to talk4 ,^! attacks became s frequ5t t he 0 =c$ to wond] if he c\ld keep on long 9 ?is /ate4 ,already he felt t he might be oblig$ to give up 8 pr(ession4 ,!n1 9 ^? h\rs :5 he lo/ he>t1 he flung to ! w9ds all 8 y\?ful ambitions4 ,z a la/ resort1 ! voiceless rhetorician w\ld take a po/ 9 "o ( ! adm9i/rative dep>tm5ts ( ! ,empire4 ,! idea ( be+ "o day a prov9cial gov]nor did n r\se any special repugnance4 ,:at a fall = him6 ,yes1 b x is ! wise/1 ! wise/ ?+1 retort$ ! ill-advis+ voice1 ! "o we are tempt$ to li/5 to :5 we d\bt ourselves4 ,fri5d%ip1 z always ) ,augu/91 consol$ him = 8 hopeless ?\ghts4 ,ne> him 0 ! bro!r ( 8 he>t1 ! fai?ful ,alypius1 & also ,nebridius1 t "y man s fond ( metaphysical discussions4 ,nebridius _h left 8 ri* e/ate 9 ! ,c>?ag9ian suburbs1 & a "m :o lov$ him1 simply to live ) ,augu/9 9 ! pursuit ( tru?4 ,romanianus 0 also !re1 b = a less dis9t]e/$ reason4 ,! ,mc5as ( ,?aga/e1 aft] 8 o/5tati\s exp5diture1 f\nd t 8 =tune 0 ?reat5$4 ,a p[]ful enemy1 :o _h />t$ a law-suit aga9/ him1 work$ to br+ ab\t 8 d[nfall4 ,romanianus _h come to ,milan to def5d himself be=e ! ,emp]or1 & to w9 ! support ( influ5tial p]sonages ab\t ! ,c\rt4 ,& s x came ab\t t he saw a great deal ( ,augu/94 ,besides ?is little b& ( fell[-c\ntrym51 ! pr(essor ( rhetoric _h "s v di/+ui%$ fri5ds among ! ari/ocracy4 ,he 0 especially intimate ) t ,manlius ,!odorus :om ! poet ,claudian celebrates1 & to :om he himself lat] on 0 to d$icate "o ( 8 books4 ,?is ri* man1 :o _h be5 ,proconsul at ,c>?age1 :]e no d\bt he _h met ,augu/91 liv$ at ?is "t retir$ 9 ! c\ntry1 divid+ 8 leisure h\rs betwe5 ! /udy ( ! ,greek philosoph]s1 especially ( ! ,platoni/s1 & ! cultivation ( 8 v9ey>ds & olive trees4 ,"h1 z at ,?aga/e1 9 ^! beautiful villas on ! %ores ( ! ,italian lakes1 ! son ( ,monnica gave himself up once m to ! sweetness ( life4 ,i lik$ an easy life1 he av[s 9 all simplicity4 ,he felt himself to be m ,epicurean ?an ev]4 ,he might h *os5 ,epicureanism altoge!r1 if he _h n always kept a fe> ( :at is beyond life4 ,b :5 he 0 ! gue/ ( ,manlius ,!odoras1 front+ ! dim blue m\nta9s ( lake ,como1 fram$ 9 ! high w9d[s ( ! tricl9ium1 he did n ?9k mu* ab\t :at is beyond life4 ,he said to himself3 ,:y desire ! impossible8 ,s v little is ne$$ to satisfy a human s\l4 ,! en]vat+ contact ( luxury & com=t imp]ceptibly corrupt$ him4 ,he became l ^? fa%ionable p :om he knew s well h[ to *>m ) 8 talk4 ,l ! fa%ionable p ( all times1 ^! designat$ victims ( ! ,b>b>ians built1 ) _! small daily pleasures1 a ramp>t aga9/ all (f5sive or sadd5+ realities1 leav+ ! important que/ions )\t answ]1 no long] ev5 ask+ !m4 ,& !y said3 ,i h beautiful books1 a well-heat$ h\se1 well-tra9$ slaves1 a delightfully arrang$ ba?room1 a com=table vehicle3 life is sweet4 ,i don't wi% = a bett]4 ,:at's ! use8 ,?is "o is good en\gh = me4 ,at ! mom5t :5 8 tir$ intellect gave up ev]y?+1 ,augu/9 0 tak5 9 ! sn>e ( easy enjoym5t1 & desir$ to resemble ^! p at all po9ts1 to be "o ( !m4 ,b to be "o ( !m he mu/ h a high] po/ ?an a rhetorician's1 & *iefly x w\ld be necess>y to put all ! outside =ms & ext]ior respectability into 8 life t ! _w ( fa%ion %ews4 ,?us1 little by little1 he began to ?9k s]i\sly ( m>riage4 ,8 mi/ress 0 ! only ob/acle 9 ! way ( ?is plan4 ,he got rid ( h]4 ,t 0 a real dome/ic drama1 :i* he has tri$ to hide2 b x mu/ h be5 extremely pa9ful = him1 to judge by ! lam5ts :i* he gives v5t to1 despite himself1 9 "s phrases1 v brief &1 z x 71 a%am$4 ,9 ?is drama ,monnica 0 c]ta9ly ! lead]1 ?\gh x is likely t ,augu/9's fri5ds also play$ _! p>ts4 ,no d\bt1 !y object$ to ! pr(essor ( rhetoric1 t he 0 injur+ 8 reputation z well z 8 future by liv+ ?us publicly ) a concub9e4 ,b ,monnica's reasons 7 m =cible & ( q ano!r value4 ,to beg9 )1 x is v natural t %e %\ld h suff]$ 9 h] mat]nal dignity1 z well z 9 h] consci5ce z a ,*ri/ian1 by hav+ to put up ) ! company ( a /rang] :o 0 h] son's mi/ress4 ,h[ev] l>ge we may suppose ! h\se :]e ! ,african tribe dwelt1 a c]ta9 cla%+ betwe5 ! gue/s 0 unavoidable4 ,g5]ally1 disputes z to :o %all direct ! dome/ic arrangem5ts divide "m-9-law & daught]-9-law :o live "u "o ro(4 ,:at c\ld be ,monnica's feel+s t[>ds a woman :o 0 n ev5 a daught]-9-law & 0 reg>d$ by h] z an intrud]8 ,%e did n consid] x wor? :ile to make any attempt at regulat+ ! entanglem5t ( h] son by m>ry+ !m3 ?is p]son 0 ( f> too l[ a class4 ,x is all v well to be a sa9t1 b "o does n =get t "o is ! wid[ ( a man ( curial rank1 & t a middle-class family ) self-respect does n l[] itself by admitt+ ! fir/-com] into its ranks by m>riage4 ,b ^! 7 second>y consid]ations 9 h] eyes4 ,! only "o :i* c\ld h really prey$ on h] m9d is t ?is woman delay$ ,augu/9's conv]sion4 ,on acc\nt ( h]1 z ,monnica saw pla9ly1 he put (f 8 baptism indef9itely4 ,%e 0 ! *a9 ( s91 ! unclean pa/ "u ^: weight he /ifl$4 ,he mu/ be fre$ f h] z soon z possible4 ,conv9c$ !re=e t su* 0 h] b\nd5 duty1 %e work$ cont9ually to make him break (f4 ,by way ( putt+ him 9 "s sort face to face ) a de$ impossible to undo1 %e se>*$ to f9d him a wife1 ) ! f9e eag]ness t mo!rs usually put into ?is k9d ( hunt4 ,%e discov]$ a girl :o fill$1 z !y say1 all ! requirem5ts1 & :o realiz$ all ! hopes ( ,augu/94 ,%e _h a =tune consid]able en\gh n to be a bur!n on h] husb&4 ,h] money1 add$ to ! pr(essor's sal>y1 w\ld all[ ! pair to live 9 ease & com=t4 ,s !y 7 betro!d4 ,9 ! unc]ta9ty ab\t all ?+s :i* 0 ,augu/9's /ate j !n1 he all[$ 8 "m to "w at ?is m>riage4 ,no d\bt he approv$1 & l a good (ficial he ?\ght x 0 "t = him to settle d[n4 ,f t mom5t1 ! sep>ation became inevitable4 ,h[ did ! poor creature :o _h be5 fai?ful to him dur+ s _m ye>s feel at ?is ignom9i\s dismissal8 ,:at mu/ h be5 ! p>t+ betwe5 ! *ild ,adeodatus & 8 "m8 ,h[1 inde$1 c\ld ,augu/9 cons5t to take him f h]8 ,"h1 aga91 he has decid$ to keep sil5t on ?is pa9ful drama1 f a feel+ ( %ame easy to und]/&4 ,( c\rse1 he 0 no long] /rongly 9 love ) 8 mi/ress1 b he 0 atta*$ to h] by "s rema9s ( t5d]ness1 & by t v /rong tie ( pleasure %>$4 ,he has said x 9 words burn+ ) regret4 ,:5 !y took f my side1 z an ob/acle to my m>riage1 h] ) :om ,i _h be5 us$ = su* a long "t to sleep1 my he>t 0 torn at ! place :]e x 0 /uck to h]s1 & ! w\nd 0 ble$+4 ,! phrase ca/s light :ile x burns4 ,at ! place :]e my he>t /uck to h]s--cor ubi adhrebat4 ,he ackn[l$ges !n t ! union 0 no long] complete1 s9ce at _m po9ts he _h drawn ap>t4 ,if ! s\l ( 8 mi/ress _h rema9$ ! same1 8 _h *ang$3 h[ev] mu* he might /ill love h]1 he 0 already f> f h]4 ,be t z x w1 %e behav$ spl5didly 9 ! affair--?is =sak5 woman1 ?is poor creature :om !y deem$ unwor?y ( ,augu/94 ,%e 0 a ,*ri/ian2 p]haps %e p]ceiv$ 7= a lov+ woman might well h ?is k9d ( second-sight7 t x 0 a "q n only ( ! salvation ( a lov$ be+1 b ( a div9e mission to :i* he 0 pr$e/9$4 ,%e sacrific$ h]self t ,augu/9 might be an apo/le & a sa9t--a great s]vant ( ,god4 ,s %e w5t back to h] ,africa1 & to %ew t %e p>don$1 if %e c\ld n =get1 %e v[$ t %e w\ld nev] "k any o!r man4 ,%e :o _h slept ) ,augu/9 c\ld nev] be ! wife ( any "o else4 ,h[ev] l[ %e may h be5 to beg9 )1 ! unhappy woman 0 great at ?is crisis4 ,h] nobility ( s\l humiliat$ ,augu/91 & ,monnica h]self1 & puni%m5t 0 n sl[ 9 fall+ on !m bo?--on him1 = lett+ himself be c>ri$ away by sordid plans = success 9 life1 & ^u h]1 ! sa9t1 = hav+ be5 too accommodat+4 ,z soon z 8 mi/ress 0 gone1 ,augu/9 suff]$ f be+ alone4 ,i ?\ght t ,i %\ld be mis]able1 says he1 )\t ! embraces ( a woman4 ,n[ 8 promis$ bride 0 too "y3 two ye>s mu/ pass be=e he c\ld m>ry h]4 ,h[ c\ld he control himself till !n8 ,augu/9 did n hesitate3 he f\nd ano!r mi/ress4 ,!re 0 ,monnica's puni%m5t1 cruelly deceiv$ 9 h] pi\s int5tions4 ,9 va9 did %e hope a great deal ( good f ?is approa*+ m>riage3 ! sil5ce ( ,god %ew$ h] t %e 0 on ! wrong track4 ,%e begg$ = a vision1 "s sign :i* w\ld reveal to h] h[ ?is new-plann$ m>riage w\ld turn out4 ,h] pray] 0 n he>d4 ,mean:ile1 says ,augu/91 my s9s 7 be+ multipli$4 ,b he did n limit himself to 8 own s9s3 he l$ o!rs into temptation4 ,ev5 9 matrimonial matt]s1 he felt ! ne$ ( mak+ proselytes4 ,s he fell ^u ! wor?y ,alypius4 ,he1 to be sure1 gu>d$ himself *a/ely f wom51 al?\gh 9 ! outset ( 8 y\?1 to be l ev]ybody else1 he _h tri$ pleasure ) wom52 b he _h f\nd t x did n suit 8 ta/e4 ,h[ev]1 ,augu/9 put conjugal delights be=e him ) s mu* heat1 t he too began to turn 8 ?\ghts t way1 n t he 0 ov]come by ! desire ( pleasure1 b out ( curiosity4 ,= ,alypius1 m>riage w\ld be a sort ( philosophic & s5tim5tal exp]i5ce4 ,"h are q mod]n expressions to translate v old conditions ( s\l4 ,! fact is1 t ^! "y m51 ,augu/9's fri5ds & ,augu/9 himself1 7 />tl+ly l ^? ( a g5]ation already left beh9d1 alas6 :o w probably keep 9 hi/ory ! presumptu\s "n !y gave !mselves3 ,! ,intellectuals4 ,l u1 ^! "y ,lat9s ( ,africa1 pupils ( ! rhetoricians & ! pagan philosoph]s1 believ$ 9 h>dly any?+ b ideas4 ,all b ready to affirm t ,tru? is n to be come at1 !y ?\ght1 j ! same1 t a va9 hunt aft] x 0 a glori\s risk to run1 or1 at ! v lea/1 an excit+ game4 ,= !m ?is game made ! :ole dignity & value ( life4 ,al?\gh !y _h spasms ( worldly ambition1 !y really despis$ :atev] 0 n pure speculation4 ,9 _! eyes1 ! _w 0 ugly2 action degrad+4 ,!y b>r$ !mselves )9 ! ideal g>d5 ( ! sage1 ! philosoph]'s corn]1 z !y call$ x1 & jeal\sly !y /opp$ up all ! holes ?r\gh :i* ! pa9ful reality might h crept ?r\gh to !m4 ,b :]e !y diff]$ f u1 is t !y _h mu* less dryness ( s\l1 ) e bit z mu* p$antry--b su* +5u\s p$antry6 ,t's :at sav$ !m--_! g5]osity ( s\l1 ! y\? ( _! he>ts4 ,!y lov$ ea* o!r1 & !y end$ by gr[+ fond ( life & gett+ 9 contact ) x aga94 ,nebridius j\rney$ f ,c>?age to ,milan1 ab&on+ 8 "m & family1 neglect+ consid]able int]e/s1 n only to talk philosophy ) ,augu/91 b to live ) him z a fri5d4 ,f ?is mom5t !y might h be5 putt+ 9 practice ^? words ( ! ,psalm1 :i* ,augu/9 ere long w be expla9+ to 8 monks ) su* t5d] eloqu5ce3 ,behold1 h[ good & h[ pleasant x is = bre?r5 to dwell toge!r 9 unity6 ,?is is n baseless hypo!sis3 !y _h really a plan = e/abli%+ a k9d ( lay mona/]y1 :]e ! sole rule w\ld be ! se>* aft] ,tru? & ! happy life4 ,!re w\ld be ab\t a doz5 solit>ies4 ,!y w\ld make a common /ock ( :at means !y possess$4 ,! ri*e/1 & among ^! ,romanianus1 promis$ to devote _! :ole =tune to ! community4 ,b ! recollection ( _! wives br\ght ?is naive plan to no?+4 ,!y _h neglect$ to ask ! op9ions ( _! wives1 & if ^!1 z 0 likely1 %\ld refuse to ent] ! conv5ts ) _! husb&s1 ! m>ri$ m5 c\ld n face ! s*eme ( liv+ )\t !m4 ,augu/9 especially1 :o 0 on ! po9t ( />t+ a new connection1 decl>$ t he w\ld nev] f9d ! c\rage = x4 ,he _h also =gott5 t he _h _m dep5d5ts3 8 :ole family liv$ on him4 ,c\ld he leave 8 "m1 8 son1 8 bro!r1 & 8 c\s9s8 ,9 company ) ,alypius & ,nebridius1 he s9c]ely lam5t$ t ?is fair dream ( co5obite life 0 impracticable4 ,we 7 ?ree fami%+ m\?s1 he says1 compla9+ ( our di/ress "o to ano!r1 & wait+ ^u ,!e t ,?\ mighte/ give u our meat 9 due season4 ,& 9 all ! bitt]ness t ,?y m]cy put into our worldly pursuits1 we s\ght ! reason :y we suff]$2 & all 0 d>kness4 ,!n we turn$ to ea* o!r %udd]+1 & ask$3 ',h[ mu* long] c ?is la/8'444 ,"o day1 a slight commonplace fact :i* !y happ5$ ^u br\ght home to !m /ill m cruelly _! intellectual pov]ty4 ,augu/91 9 8 (ficial position z municipal orator1 _h j deliv]$ ! (ficial panegyric ( ! ,emp]or4 ,! new ye> 0 op5+3 ! :ole city 0 giv5 ov] to mir?4 ,& yet he 0 ca/ d[n1 kn[+ well t he _h j utt]$ _m an untru?1 & *iefly because he despair$ ( ev] be+ happy4 ,8 fri5ds 7 walk+ ) him4 ,sudd5ly1 z !y cross$ ! /reet1 !y came ^u a begg>1 q drunk1 :o 0 indulg+ 9 ! jollie/ pranks4 ,s !re 0 a happy man6 ,a few p5ce _h be5 en\gh to give him p]fect felicity1 :]eas !y1 ! philosoph]s1 despite ! greate/ ef=ts & all _! k1 c\ld n manage to w9 happ9ess4 ,no d\bt1 z soon z ! drunk>d grew sob]1 he w\ld be m wret*$ ?an be=e4 ,:at matt]s t1 if ?is poor joy--yes1 ?\gh x be an illusion--c s mu* *e] a poor creature1 ?us raise him s f> above himself6 ,t m9ute1 at lea/1 he %all h liv$ 9 full bliss4 ,& to ,augu/9 came ! temptation to d z ! begg>-man1 to ?r[ ov]bo>d 8 philosophical lumb] & set himself simply to live )\t aft]?\ghts1 s9ce life is sometimes good4 ,b an in/9ct1 /rong] ?an ! in/9ct ( pleasure1 said to him3 ,!re is some?+ else6--,suppose t 7 true8--,p]haps y might be able to f9d out4 ,?is ?\ght torm5t$ him unceas+ly4 ,n[ eag]1 n[ di%e>t5$1 he set ab\t try+ to f9d ! some?+ else4 ,v ,,! ,,*ri/ ,,9 ,,! ,,g>d5 ,i 0 tir$ ( dev\r+ "t & ( be+ dev\r$ by x4 ,! :ole moral crisis t ,augu/9 is ab\t to und]go might be summ$ up 9 ^! few words s conc5trat$ & s /rong4 ,no m to scatt] himself among ! multitude ( va9 ?+s1 no m to let himself fl[ along ) ! m9utes z !y fl[$2 b to pull himself toge!r1 to escape f ! r\t s z to e/abli% himself ^u ! incorruptible & et]nal1 to break ! *a9s ( ! old slave he cont9ues to be s z to blossom =? 9 lib]ty1 9 ?\ght1 9 love--t is ! salvation he longs =4 ,if x be n yet ! ,*ri/ian salvation1 he is on ! road :i* leads to t4 ,"o might amuse oneself by draw+ a k9d ( ideal map-r\te ( 8 conv]sion1 & fa/5+ into "o solid *a9 ! reasons :i* made him em]ge at ! act ( fai?3 he himself p]haps1 9 8 ,confessions1 has giv5 way too mu* to ?is incl9ation4 ,9 reality1 conv]sion is an int]ior fact1 & 7let u repeat x7 a div9e fact1 :i* is indep5d5t ( all control by ! reason4 ,be=e x breaks into light1 !re is a long prep>ation 9 t d>k region ( ! s\l :i* to-day is call$ ! subconsci\s4 ,n[ nobody has m liv$ 8 ideas ?an did ,augu/9 at ?is "t ( 8 life4 ,he took !m1 left !m1 took !m up aga91 p]si/$ 9 8 desp]ate ef=t4 ,!y reflect 9 _! disord] 8 v>iable s\l1 & ! misgiv+s :i* tr\bl$ x to its dep?s4 ,& yet x _c be t ?is int]ior fact %\ld be 9 viol5t contradiction ) logic4 ,! head ought n to h9d] ! he>t4 ,) ! future believ]1 a p>allel "w goes on 9 ! feel+s & 9 ! ?\ght4 ,if we are n able to reproduce ! m>*es & c\nt]-m>*es1 or foll[ _! repeat$ly brok5 l9e1 we c at lea/ %ew ! ma9 halt+-places4 ,let u recall ,augu/9's /ate ( m9d :5 he came to ,milan4 ,he 0 a sceptic1 ! k9d ( sceptic :o reg>ds z useless all speculation ^u ! orig9 ( ?+s1 & = :om cognition is b an approximation ( ! true4 ,vaguely dei/1 he saw 9 ,jesus ,*ri/ only a wise man among ! wise4 ,he believ$ 9 ,god & ! provid5ces ( ,god1 :i* am\nts to ?is3 ,t al?\gh mat]iali/ by t5d5cy1 he admitt$ ! div9e int]f]5ce 9 human affairs--! miracle4 ,?is is an important po9t :i* diff]5tiates him f mod]n mat]iali/s4 ,next1 he li/5$ to ! prea*+ ( ,ambrose4 ,! ,bible no long] seem$ to him absurd or at v>iance ) a moral s*eme4 ,ambrose's exegesis1 half allegorical1 half hi/oric1 might be accept$1 tak5 altoge!r1 by self-respect+ m9ds4 ,b :at1 above all1 /ruck ,augu/9 9 ! ,scriptures1 0 ! wisdom1 ! practical effici5cy4 ,^? :o liv$ by ! ,*ri/ian rule 7 n only happy p1 b1 z ,pascal w\ld say1 good sons1 good husb&s1 good fa!rs1 good citiz5s4 ,he began to suspect t ?is life "h bel[ is be>able & has a mean+ only :5 x is fa/5$ to ! life on high4 ,ev5 z = nations glory is daily bread1 s = ! individual ! sacrifice to some?+ :i* is beyond ! _w is ! only way ( liv+ 9 ! _w4 ,s1 little by little1 ,augu/9 correct$ ! false notions t ! ,mani*ees _h fill$ him ) ab\t ,ca?olicism4 ,he ackn[l$g$ t 9 attack+ x he _h be5 b>k+ aga9/ ! va9 imag9ations ( c>nal ?\ghts4 ,/ill1 he f\nd great difficulty 9 gett+ free ( all 8 ,mani*ean prejudices4 ,! problem ( ,evil rema9$ inexplicable = him1 ap>t f ,mani*ee tea*+s4 ,god c\ld n be ! au?or ( evil4 ,?is tru? admitt$1 he w5t on f x to ?9k1 aga9/ 8 =m] ma/]s1 t no?+ is bad 9 itself--bad because x has )9 x a corrupt+ pr9ciple4 ,on ! contr>y1 all ?+s are good1 ?\gh 9 v>y+ degrees4 ,! app>5t defects ( creation1 p]ceiv$ by our s5ses1 bl5d into ! h>mony ( ! :ole4 ,! toad & ! vip] h _! place 9 ! op]ation ( a p]fectly arrang$ _w4 ,b physical ill is n ! only ill2 !re is also ! evil t we d & ! evil t o!rs d u4 ,crime & pa9 are t]rible argum5ts aga9/ ,god4 ,n[ ! ,*ri/ians hold t ! fir/ is ! product solely ( ! human w1 ( lib]ty corrupt$ by orig9al s91 & t ! o!r is p]mitt$ by ,god z a means ( purify+ s\ls4 ,( c\rse1 ?is 0 a solution1 b x impli$ a belief 9 ! dogmas ( ! ,fall & ( ! ,r$emption4 ,augu/9 did n accept !m yet4 ,he 0 too pr\d to recognize an impair$ w & ! ne$ ( a ,savi\r4 ,my puff$-out face1 he says1 clos$ up my eyes4 ,nev]!less he _h tak5 a great /ep 9 reject+ ! fundam5tal dogma ( ,mani*eeism--! d\ble ,pr9ciple ( good & evil4 ,h5ce=? = ,augu/9 !re exi/s only "o ,pr9ciple1 unique & incorruptible--! ,good1 :i* is ,god4 ,b 8 view ( ?is div9e sub/ance is /ill q mat]iali/ic1 to su* an ext5t is he gov]n$ by 8 s5ses4 ,9 8 ?\ght1 x is corporeal1 spatial1 & inf9ite4 ,he pictures x z a k9d ( limitless sea1 :]e9 is a huge sponge ba?+ ! _w t x p]vades ?r\gh\t4444 ,he 0 at ?is po9t1 :5 "o ( 8 acqua9tances1 a man puff$ up ) imm5se vanity1 gave him "s ( ! ,dialogues ( ,plato1 translat$ into ,lat9 by ! fam\s rhetorician ,victor9us ,af]4 ,x is wor? not+1 z we pass1 t ,augu/91 n[ ?irty-two ye>s old1 a rhetorician by pr(ession & a philosoph] by ta/e1 _h n yet read ,plato4 ,?is is yet ano!r pro( to :at ext5t ! in/ruction ( ! anci5ts 0 oral1 resembl+ 9 ?is ! ,mussulmans' in/ruction ( to-day4 ,up to n[1 he _h only kn[n ,plato by he>say4 ,he read him1 & x 0 z a revelation4 ,he le>n$ t a reality c\ld exi/ )\t diffusion ?r\gh space4 ,he saw ,god z unext5d$ & yet inf9ite4 ,! s5se ( ! div9e ,s\l 0 giv5 to him4 ,!n ! primordial necessity ( ! ,m$iator or ,^w 0 borne 9 ^u 8 m9d4 ,x is ! ,^w :i* has creat$ ! _w4 ,x is ?r\gh ! ,^w t ! _w1 & ,god1 & all ?+s1 includ+ ourselves1 become compreh5sible to u4 ,:at an a/oni%m5t6 ,plato correspond$ ) ,/4 ,john6 ,9 ! beg9n+ 0 ! ,^w--9 pr9cipio erat v]bum--said ! f\r? ,gospel4 ,b x 0 n only an ,evangeli/ t ,augu/9 discov]$ 9 ! ,platoni/ dialogues1 x 0 almo/ all ! ess5tial "p ( ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/4 ,he saw pla9ly ! pr(\nd diff]5ces1 b = ! mom5t he 0 /ruck by ! resemblances1 & !y c>ri$ him away4 ,:at delight$ him1 fir/ ( all1 is ! beauty ( ! _w1 con/ruct$ aft] ,8 own lik5ess by ! ,demiurgus4 ,god is ,beauty2 ! _w is fair z ,he :o made x4 ,?is metaphysical vision entranc$ ,augu/92 8 :ole he>t leap$ t[>ds ?is ineffably beautiful ,div9ity4 ,c>ri$ away by en?usiasm he cries3 ,i m>vell$ to f9d t n[ ,i lov$ ,!e1 ,o my ,god1 & n a phantasm 9 ,?y /ead4 ,if ,i 0 n yet 9 a /ate to enjoy ,!e1 ,i 0 swept up to ,!e by ,?y beauty4 ,b su* an ab&onm5t c\ld n endure3 ,i 0 n yet 9 a /ate to enjoy ,!e4 ,!re is ,augu/9's ma9 objection to ,platonism4 ,he felt t in/ead ( t\*+ ,god1 ( enjoy+ ,him1 he w\ld be held by purely m5tal conceptions1 t he w\ld be always los+ 8 way among ! phantasmagoria ( idealism4 ,:at 0 ! use ( giv+ up ! illusory realities ( ! s5ses1 if x 7 n to get hold ( m solid realities8 ,?\gh 8 intellig5ce1 8 poet's imag9ation1 might be attract$ by ! glam\r ( ,platonism1 8 he>t 0 n satisfi$4 ,x is "o ?+1 he says1 f "s wood$ height to behold ! l& ( peace1 ano!r ?+ to m>* ?i!r along ! high road4 ,/4 ,paul x 0 :o %ew$ him ?is road4 ,he began to read ! ,epi/les c>efully1 & ! m he read ( !m ! m he became aw>e ( ! abyss :i* sep>ates philosophy f wisdom--! "o :i* m>%als ! ideas ( ?+s1 ! o!r :i*1 ignor+ ideas1 leads "r up to ! div9e realities :]eon ! o!rs are susp5d$4 ,! ,apo/le taught ,augu/9 t x 0 n en\gh to get a glimpse ( ,god ?r\gh ! cry/al ( concepts1 b t x is necess>y to be unit$ to ,him 9 _s & 9 tru?--to possess & enjoy ,him4 ,& to unite itself to ?is ,good1 ! s\l mu/ get itself into a fit /ate = su* a union1 purify & cure itself ( all its fle%ly maladies1 descry its place 9 ! _w & hold to x4 ,necessity ( rep5tance1 ( humility1 ( ! contrite & humble he>t4 ,only ! contrite & humble he>t %all see ,god4 ,! brok5 he>t %all be cur$1 says ! ,scripture1 b ! he>t ( ! pr\d man %all be %att]$4 ,s ,augu/91 ! intellectual1 _h to *ange 8 me?ods1 & he felt t ?is *ange 0 "r4 ,if ! writ] :o wants to write beautiful ?+s ought to put himself be=eh& into "s sort ( a /ate ( grace1 :]e9 n only vile actions1 b unwor?y ?\ghts become impossible1 ! ,*ri/ian1 9 l mann]1 mu/ cleanse & prep>e 8 inw>d eye to p]ceive ! div9e v]ities4 ,augu/9 grasp$ ?is ?\ght 9 read+ ,/4 ,paul4 ,b :at1 above all1 appeal$ to him 9 ! ,epi/les1 0 _! pat]nal voice1 ! mildness & graci\sness hidd5 b5ea? ! uncultivat$ r\ghness ( ! phrases4 ,he 0 *>m$ by ?is4 ,h[ diff]5t f ! philosoph]s6 ,^? celebrat$ pages h no trace ( ! pi\s s\l1 ! te>s ( rep5tance1 nor ( ,?y sacrifice1 ,o my ,god1 nor ( ! tr\bl$ _s4444 ,no "o !re he>k5$ to ! ,*ri/ t calle?1 ',come unto ,me1 all ye t lab\r6' ,!y ?9k x scorn to le>n f ,him1 because ,he is meek & l[ly ( he>t4 ,= ,?\ ha/ hidd5 ^! ?+s f ! wise & prud5t1 & ha/ reveal$ !m unto babes4 ,b x is n mu* to b5d3 :at is1 above all1 requisite = him is to get rid ( 8 passions4 ,n[ ,augu/9's passions 7 old fri5ds4 ,h[ c\ld he "p ) !m8 ,he lack$ c\rage = ?is h]oic treatm5t4 ,j ?9k ( :at a "y man ( ?irty-two is4 ,he is always ?9k+ ( wom54 ,lu/ holds him by ! entanglem5ts ( habit1 & he takes pleasure 9 ! impurity ( 8 he>t4 ,:51 yield+ to ! exhortations ( ! ,apo/le1 he tri$ to %ape 8 conduct to 8 new way ( ?9k+1 ! old fri5ds troop$ to beg ( him n to d any?+ ( ! k9d4 ,!y pull$ me1 he says1 by ! coat ( my fle%1 & !y murmur$ 9 my e>--,:at1 are y leav+ u8 ,%all we be no m ) y1 = ev]8 ,non erimus tecum ultra 9 aet]num8444 ,& f t in/ant1 ! ?+ y well "k1 & /ill ano!r ?+1 w be =bidd5 y = ev]--= et]nity4444 ,et]nity6 ,dread ^w4 ,augu/9 %ook ) fe>4 ,!n1 calm+ himself1 he said to !m3 ,i "k y2 ,i "k y too well6 ,y are ,desire )\t hope1 ! ,gulf )\t s\nd+s t no?+ c fill up4 ,i h suff]$ en\gh because ( y4 ,& ! angui%$ dialogue cont9u$3 ,:at matt]s t6 ,if ! only possible happ9ess = y is to suff] on our acc\nt1 to fl+ y\r body into ! voraci\s gulf1 )\t end1 )\t hope6--,let c[>ds act s6444 ,= me !re is ano!r happ9ess ?an y\rs4 ,!re is some?+ else3 ,i am c]ta94 ,!n ! fri5ds1 put a little out ( c\nt5ance by ?is conv9c$ tone1 mutt]$ 9 a l[] voice3 ,/ill1 j suppose y are los+ ?is wret*$ pleasure = a phantasm /ill m empty4444 ,besides1 y are mi/ak5 ab\t y\r /r5g?4 ,y _c--no1 y nev] c exi/ )\t u4 ,!y _h t\*$ ! gall+ spot3 ,augu/9 knew 8 weakness only too well4 ,& 8 burn+ imag9ation pres5t$ to him ) extraord9>y lucidity ^! pleasures :i* he c\ld n d )\t4 ,!y 7 n only embracem5ts1 b also ^? trifles1 ^? sup]flu\s no?+s1 ^? light pleasantnesses :i* make u fond ( life4 ,! p]fidi\s old fri5ds cont9u$ to :isp]3 ,wait a bit yet6 ,! ?+s y despise h a *>m ( _! own2 !y br+ ev5 no small sweetness4 ,y ought n to cut y\rself (f light-he>t$ly1 = x w\ld be %ameful to return to !m aft]w>ds4 ,he pass$ 9 review all ! ?+s he 0 go+ to give up2 he saw !m %9e be=e him t9t$ 9 ! mo/ allur+ col\rs3 gam+1 elaborate ent]ta9m5ts1 music1 song1 p]fumes1 books1 poetry1 fl[]s1 ! coolness ( =e/s 7he rememb]$ ! woods ab\t ,?aga/e1 & 8 hunt+ days ) ,romanianus7--9 a ^w1 all t he _h ev] c>$ ab\t1 ev5 to t fre%ness ( ! light1 s k9d to human eyes4 ,augu/9 0 n able to decide 9 ?is conflict betwe5 temptation & ! decree ( 8 consci5ce1 & he became desp]ate4 ,8 w1 enfeebl$ by s91 0 unable to /ruggle aga9/ itself4 ,& s he cont9u$ to endure life & to be dev\r$ by "t4 ,! life ( t p>ticul> p]iod1 if x 0 endurable = quiet folk :o 7 c>eful to h no?+ to d ) politics--?is life ( ! ,empire ne> its end1 c\ld be no?+ b a sc&al\s spectacle = an hone/-m9d$ & high-s\l$ man su* z ,augu/94 ,x ought to h disgu/$ him at once ) rema9+ 9 ! _w4 ,at ,milan1 connect$ z he 0 ) ! ,c\rt1 he 0 9 a good position to see h[ mu* bas5ess & f]ocity may spr+ f human av>ice & ambition4 ,if ! pres5t 0 hide\s1 ! future promis$ to be s9i/]4 ,! ,roman ,empire no long] exi/$ save 9 "n4 ,=eign]s1 come f all ! c\ntries ( ! ,m$it]ranean1 plund]$ ! prov9ces "u its au?ority4 ,! army 0 almo/ altoge!r 9 ! h&s ( ! ,b>b>ians4 ,!y 7 ,go?ic tribunes :o kept ord] outside ! basilica :]e ,ambrose _h clos$ himself 9 ) 8 p to )/& ! ord] ( ! ,empress ,ju/9a1 :o wi%$ to h& ov] ?is *ur* to ! ,arians4 ,levant9e eunu*s dom9e]$ ov] ! ex*equ]-cl]ks 9 ! palace1 & (ficials ( all ranks4 ,all ^! p plund]$ :]e !y c\ld4 ,! ,empire1 ev5 gr[n feeble1 0 always an excell5t ma*9e to rule m5 & extract gold f nations4 ,accord+ly1 ambiti\s m5 & adv5tur]s1 :]ev] !y came f1 tri$ = ! ,purple3 x 0 /ill wor? risk+ "o's sk9 =4 ,ev5 m ?an ! patriots 7& !re 7 /ill "s v en]getic m5 ( ?is sort :o 7 ov]come ) grief at ! /ate ( ?+s71 ! m5 ( rap9e & viol5ce 7 int]e/$ 9 ma9ta9+ ! ,empire4 ,! ,b>b>ians !mselves desir$ to be includ$1 s t !y might pillage x ) m impunity4 ,z = ! emp]ors1 ev5 s9c]e ,*ri/ians1 !y 7 oblig$ to become abom9able tyrants to def5d _! con/antly ?reat5$ lives4 ,nev] 7 executions m frequ5t or m cruel ?an at ?is "t4 ,at ,milan !y might h %ewn ,augu/91 h>d by ! ,imp]ial sleep+ ap>tm5ts1 ! cave :]e ! prec$+ ,emp]or1 *ol]ic ,val5t9ian1 kept two be>s1 ,bit ( ,gold & ,innoc5ce1 :o 7 8 rapid execution]s4 ,he f$ !m ) ! fle% ( ^? condemn$ to die4 ,possibly ,bit ( ,gold 0 /ill liv+4 ,innoc5ce--obs]ve ! atroci\s irony ( ?is "n--_h be5 re/or$ to ! lib]ty ( h] native =e/s1 z a rew>d = h] good & loyal s]vices4 ,0 ,augu/91 :o /ill ?\ght ( becom+ an (ficial1 go+ to mix 9 ) ?is lot ( sw9dl]s1 assass9s1 & brute bea/s8 ,z he /udi$ !m ne> at h&1 he felt 8 goodwill gr[ weak4 ,l all ^? :o belong to worn-out g5]ations1 he mu/ h be5 disgu/$ ) action & ! villa9ies x involves4 ,j be=e great cata/rophes1 or j aft]1 !re is an epidemic ( black pessimism :i* freezes delicate s\ls4 ,besides1 he 0 ill--a fav\rable circum/ance = a disappo9t$ man if he ent]ta9s ?\ghts ( giv+ up ! _w4 ,9 ! fogs ( ,milan 8 *e/ & ?roat became worse & worse4 ,& !n x is likely en\gh t he 0 n succe$+ bett] z rhetorician ?an he _h at ,rome4 ,x 0 a k9d ( fatality = all ,africans4 ,h[ev] great _! reputation 9 _! own c\ntry1 t 0 ! end ( x z soon z !y cross$ ! sea4 ,apuleius1 ! great man ( ,c>?age1 _h tri$ ! exp]im5t to 8 co/4 ,!y _h made fun ( 8 guttural ,c>?ag9ian pronunciation4 ,! same k9d ( ?+ happ5$ to ,augu/94 ,! ,milanese turn$ 8 ,african acc5t into ridicule4 ,he ev5 f\nd among !m c]ta9 puri/s :o discov]$ solecisms 9 8 phrases4 ,b ^! scrat*es at 8 self-respect1 ?is increas+ disgu/ ( m5 & ?+s1 7 small matt]s comp>$ to :at 0 go+ on )9 him4 ,augu/9 _h a sick s\l4 ,! =ebod+s he _h always be5 subject to 7 n[ become ! suff]+ ( e mom5t4 ,at c]ta9 times he 0 assail$ by ^? great waves ( sadness :i* unfurl all ( a sudd5 f ! dep?s ( ! unkn[n4 ,9 su* m9utes we believe t ! :ole _w is hurl+ itself aga9/ u4 ,! great wave roll$ him ov]2 he got up aga9 all w\nd$4 ,& he felt /ret* =? 9 him a new w :i* 0 n 8 own1 "u :i* ! o!r1 ! w to s91 /ruggl$4 ,x 0 l ! approa* ( an invisible be+ ^: contact ov]came him ) an angui% :i* 0 full ( pleasure4 ,?is be+ want$ to op5 out )9 him1 b ! weight ( 8 old s9s prev5t$4 ,!n 8 s\l cri$ out 9 pa94 ,9 ^? mom5ts1 :at a relief x 0 to let himself float on ! canticles ( ! ,*ur*6 ,! liturgical *ants 7 !n some?+ new 9 ! ,we/4 ,x 0 9 ! v ye> we are deal+ ) t ,/4 ,ambrose />t$ ! cu/om 9 ! ,milanese basilicas4 ,! *ildhood ( our hymns6 ,"o _c ?9k ab\t t )\t be+ mov$4 ,"o envies ,augu/9 = hav+ he>d !m 9 _! spr+ fre%ness4 ,^! lovely musics1 :i* 7 to s\nd dur+ s _m c5turies1 & /ill so> aga9/ ! vaults ( ca!drals1 7 leav+ ! ne/ = ! fir/ "t4 ,we _c ?9k t a day w come :5 !y w fold _! w+s & fall sil5t4 ,s9ce human bodies1 temples ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 w live aga9 9 glory1 "o w\ld l to believe ) ,dante t ! hymns1 temples ( ! ,^w1 are likewise immortal1 & t !y w /ill be he>d 9 ! ev]la/+4 ,d\btless 9 ! twilight gl5s ( ,purgatory ! bewail+ s\ls cont9ue to s+ ! ,te lucis ante t]m9um1 ev5 z 9 ! />-circles1 :]e ! ,bless$ move ev]1 w always leap up ! triumphant notes ( ! ,magnificat4444 ,ev5 on ^? :o h lo/ ! fai?1 ! p[] ( ^! hymns is irresi/ible4 ,if y knew1 said ,r5an1 ! *>m t ! ,b>b>ian magicians knew h[ to put into _! canticles4 ,:5 ,i rememb] !m1 my he>t melts4 ,! he>t ( ,augu/91 :o _h n yet ! fai?1 melt$ too 9 he>+ !m3 ,h[ ,i h cri$1 my ,god1 ov] ! hymns & canticles :5 ! sweet s\nd ( ! music ( ,?y ,*ur* ?rill$ my s\l6 ,z ! music fl[$ into my e>s1 & ,?y tru? trickl$ into my he>t1 ! tide ( devotion swell$ high )9 me1 & ! te>s ran d[n1 & !re 0 gladness 9 ^? te>s4 ,8 he>t ca/ (f its heav9ess1 :ile 8 m9d 0 %ak5 by ! heav5ly music4 ,augu/9 lov$ music passionately4 ,at ?is "t he conceiv$ ,god z ! ,great ,musician ( ! sph]es2 & soon he w write t we are a /rophe 9 a poem4 ,at ! same "t1 ! vivid & lightn+ figures ( ! ,psalms1 sweep+ ov] ! insipid metaphors ( ! rhetoric :i* encumb]$ 8 memory1 awoke 9 ! dep?s ( him 8 wild ,african imag9ation & s5t him so>+4 ,& !n ! affectionate note1 ! pla9t 9 ^? sacr$ songs3 ,deus1 ,deus meus6--,o ,god6 ,o my ,god6 ,! ,div9ity 0 no long] a cold ab/raction1 a phantom t )drew into an unapproa*able inf9ite2 ,he became ! actual possession ( ! lov+ s\l4 ,he leant ov] ,8 poor sc>r$ creature1 took him 9 ,8 arms1 & com=t$ him l a k9d fa!r4 ,augu/9 wept ) t5d]ness & ec/asy1 b also ) despair4 ,he wept ^u himself4 ,he saw t he _h n ! c\rage to be happy ) ! only possible happ9ess4 ,:at1 inde$1 0 he seek+1 unless x 7 to capture ?is bless$ life :i* he _h pursu$ s long8 ,:at he _h tri$ to get out ( all 8 loves 0 ! complete gift ( 8 s\l--to realize himself completely4 ,n[1 ?is complet5ess ( self is only 9 ,god--9 ,deo salut>i meo4 ,! s\ls we h w\nd$ are 9 unison ) u1 & ) !mselves1 only 9 ,god4444 ,& ! sweet ,*ri/ian symbolism invit$ him ) its mo/ entic+ images3 ! ,%ades ( ,p>adise2 ! ,f\nta9 ( ,liv+ ,wat]2 ! ,repose 9 ! ,"l ,god2 ! gre5 ,bran* ( ! ,dove1 h>b+] ( peace4444 ,b ! passions /ill resi/$4 ,to-morr[6 ,wait a little yet6 ,%all we be no m ) y1 = ev]8 ,non erimus tecum ultra 9 aet]num8444 ,:at a dismal s\nd 9 ^! syllables1 & h[ t]rify+ = a timid s\l6 ,!y fell1 heavy z bronze1 on ! s\l ( ,augu/94 ,an end _h to be put to x someh[4 ,:at 0 ne$$ 0 "s "o :o w\ld =ce him out ( 8 indecision4 ,in/9ctively1 l$ by t my/]i\s w :i* he felt _h aris5 )9 him1 he w5t to see1 & consult 9 8 di/ress1 an old prie/ nam$ ,simplicianus1 :o _h conv]t$ or direct$ ,bi%op ,ambrose 9 8 "y days4 ,no d\bt ,augu/9 spoke to him ( :at he _h lately be5 read+1 & p>ticul>ly ( 8 ,platoni/ /udies1 & ( all ! ef=ts he made to ent] ! communion ( ,*ri/4 ,he ackn[l$g$ t he 0 conv9c$1 b he c\ld n b5d to ! practice ( ! ,*ri/ian life4 ,!n1 v skilfully1 z "o artful 9 diff]5tiat+ s\ls1 p]ceiv+ t vanity 0 n yet dead 9 ,augu/91 ,simplicianus (f]$ him z an example ! v translator ( ^? ,platonic books :i* he _h j be5 read+ s en?usia/ically--t fam\s ,victor9us ,af]1 t orator s le>n$ & admir$1 :o _h 8 /atue 9 ! ,roman ,=um4 ,because ( "s rema9s ( philosophical pride1 & also f fe> ( (f5d+ 8 fri5ds among ! ,roman ari/ocracy1 :o 7 /ill almo/ altoge!r pagan1 ,victor9us 0 a ,*ri/ian only 9 8 head4 ,9 va9 ,simplicianus po9t$ out to him h[ illogical 8 conduct 04 ,b sudd5ly & unexpect$ly he decid$4 ,! day ( ! baptism ( ! cate*um5s1 ?is celebrat$ man m\nt$ ! plat=m set up 9 ! basilica = ! pr(ession ( fai? ( ! newly conv]t$1 & !re1 l ! meane/ ( ! fai?ful1 he deliv]$ 8 pr(ession be=e all ! assembl$ p4 ,t 0 a dramatic /roke4 ,! cr[d1 jubilant ov] ?is f9e p]=mance1 *e]$ ! neophyte4 ,& on all sides !y %\t$3 ,victor9us6 ,victor9us6 ,augu/9 li/5$ to ?is little /ory1 :]e( all ! details 7 s happily *os5 to act on an imag9ation l 83--! /atue 9 ! ,roman ,=um2 ! plat=m f ! height ( :i* ! orator _h spok5 a language s new & unexpect$2 ! exult+ %\ts ( ! cr[d3 ,victor9us6 ,victor9us6 ,already he saw himself 9 ! same position4 ,!re he 0 9 ! basilica1 on ! plat=m1 9 pres5ce ( ,bi%op ,ambrose2 he too repeat$ 8 pr(ession ( fai?1 & ! p ( ,milan clapp$ _! h&s--,augu/96 ,augu/96 ,b c a humble & contrite he>t ?us take pleasure 9 human adulation8 ,if ,augu/9 did become a conv]t1 x w\ld be entirely = ,god & be=e ,god4 ,v quickly he put aside ! temptation4444 ,nev]!less1 ?is example1 com+ f s exalt$ a man1 made a v deep & b5eficial impression4 ,he look$ ^u x z a provid5tial sign1 a lesson 9 c\rage :i* conc]n$ him p]sonally4 ,"s "t aft] t1 he receiv$ a visit f a fell[-c\ntryman1 a c]ta9 ,pontitianus1 :o _h a high position 9 ! ,imp]ial h\sehold4 ,augu/9 happ5$ to be alone 9 ! h\se ) 8 fri5d ,alypius4 ,!y sat d[n to talk1 & by *ance ! visitor notic$ ! ,epi/les ( ,/4 ,paul ly+ on a table = play+ games4 ,?is />t$ ! conv]sation4 ,pontitianus1 :o 0 a ,*ri/ian1 prais$ ! ascetic life1 & especially ! wond]s ( hol9ess wr\ght by ,antony & 8 companions 9 ! ,egyptian des]ts4 ,?is subject 0 9 ! air4 ,9 ,ca?olic circles at ,rome1 !y spoke ( little else ?an ^! ,egyptian solit>ies1 & ( ! numb]1 gr[+ l>g] & l>g]1 ( ^? :o /ripp$ !mselves ( _! worldly goods to live 9 utt] r5unciation4 ,:at 0 ! good ( keep+ ^! worldly goods1 t ! av>ice ( ,gov]nm5t taxation confiscat$ s easily1 & t ! ,b>b>ians wat*$ covet\sly f af>6 ,! brutes :o came d[n f ,g]many w\ld get hold ( !m soon] or lat]4 ,& ev5 suppos+ "o might save !m1 reta9 an ev]-unc]ta9 enjoym5t ( !m1 0 ! life ( ! "t really wor? ! tr\ble ( liv+8 ,!re 0 no?+ m to hope = ! ,empire4 ,! h\r ( ! great desolation 0 at h&4444 ,pontitianus1 obs]v+ ! effect ( 8 words on 8 he>]s1 0 l$ to tell !m a q private adv5ture ( 8 own4 ,he 0 at ,trves1 9 att5dance on ! ,c\rt4 ,well1 "o aft]noon :ile ! ,emp]or 0 at ! circus1 he & ?ree ( 8 fri5ds1 l himself atta*$ to ! h\sehold1 w5t = a /roll beyond ! city walls4 ,two ( !m p>t$ f ! o!rs & w5t (f into ! c\ntry1 & !re !y came ^u a hut :]e dwelt c]ta9 h]mits4 ,!y w5t 91 & f\nd a book--,! ,life ( ,/4 ,antony4 ,!y read 9 x2 & = !m t 0 a conv]sion ?und]-/rik+1 in/antane\s4 ,! two c\rti]s resolv$ to jo9 ! solit>ies !re & !n1 & !y nev] w5t back to ! ,palace4 ,& !y 7 betro!d6444 ,! tone ( ,pontitianus z he recall$ ?is consci5ce-drama :i* he _h witness$1 betray$ a /range emotion :i* gradually took hold ( ,augu/94 ,8 gue/'s words res\nd$ 9 him l ! bl[s ( a clapp] 9 a bell4 ,he saw himself 9 ! two c\rti]s ( ,trves4 ,he too 0 tir$ ( ! _w1 he too 0 betro!d4 ,0 he go+ to d z ! ,emp]or--rema9 9 ! circus tak5 up ) idle pleasures1 :ile o!rs took ! road to ! sole happ9ess8 ,:5 ,pontitianus 0 gone1 ,augu/9 0 9 a desp]ate /ate4 ,! rep5tant s\l ( ! two c\rti]s _h pass$ into 84 ,8 w uprose 9 griev\s conflict & tortur$ itself4 ,he seiz$ ,alypius r\ghly by ! arm & cri$ out to him 9 extraord9>y excitem5t3 ,:at are we ab\t8 ,yes1 ,i say1 :at are we ab\t8 ,did y n he>8 ,simple m5 arise & take ,heav5 by viol5ce1 & we ) all our he>tless le>n+--look h[ we are wall[+ 9 fle% & blood6 ,alypius />$ at him1 /upefi$4 ,! tru? is1 adds ,augu/91 t ,i sc>cely knew :at ,i said4 ,my face1 my eyes1 my col\r1 & ! *ange 9 my voice express$ my mean+ mu* bett] ?an my words4 ,if he guess$ f ?is upheaval ( 8 :ole frame h[ close at h& 0 ! heav5ly visitation1 all he felt at ! mom5t 0 a great ne$ to weep1 & he want$ solitude to weep freely4 ,he w5t d[n into ! g>d54 ,alypius1 feel+ uneasy1 foll[$ at a di/ance1 & 9 sil5ce sat d[n beside him on ! b5* :]e he _h paus$4 ,augu/9 did n ev5 notice t 8 fri5d 0 !re4 ,8 agony ( _s began aga94 ,all 8 faults1 all 8 old /a9s came once m to 8 m9d1 & he grew furi\s aga9/ 8 c[>dly feebl5ess z he felt h[ mu* he /ill clung to !m4 ,oh1 to te> himself free f all ^! mis]ies--to f9i% ) !m once = all6444 ,sudd5ly he sprang up4 ,x 0 z if a gu/ ( ! tempe/ _h /ruck him4 ,he ru%$ to ! end ( ! g>d51 flung himself on 8 knees "u a fig-tree1 & ) 8 =ehead press$ aga9/ ! e>? he bur/ into te>s4 ,ev5 z ! olive-tree at ,j]usalem :i* %elt]$ ! la/ wat* ( ! ,div9e ,ma/]1 ! fig-tree ( ,milan saw fall ^u its roots a sweat ( blood4 ,augu/91 brea?less 9 ! victori\s embrace ( ,grace1 pant$3 ,h[ long1 h[ long8444 ,to-morr[ & to-morr[8444 ,:y n n[8 ,:y n ?is h\r make an end ( my vil5ess8444 ,n[1 at ?is v mom5t a *ild's voice f ! neighb\r+ h\se began repeat+ 9 a k9d ( *ant3 ,take & read1 take & read4 ,augu/9 %udd]$4 ,:at 0 ?is refra98 ,0 x a nurs]y-rhyme t ! little *ildr5 ( ! c\ntryside us$ to s+8 ,he c\ld n recollect x2 he _h nev] he>d x be=e4444 ,imm$iately1 z ^u a div9e comm&1 he rose to 8 feet & ran back to ! place :]e ,alypius 0 sitt+1 = he _h left ,/4 ,paul's ,epi/les ly+ !re4 ,he op5$ ! book1 & ! passage on :i* 8 eyes fir/ fell 0 ?is3 ,put ye on ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 & make n provision = ! fle% to fulfil ! lu/s !re(4444 ,! fle%6444 ,! sacr$ text aim$ at him directly--at him1 ,augu/91 /ill s full ( lu/6 ,?is comm& 0 ! answ] f on high4444 ,he put 8 f+] betwe5 ! leaves1 clos$ ! volume4 ,8 fr5zy _h pass$ away4 ,a great peace 0 %$ ^u him--x 0 all ov]4 ,) a calm face he told ,alypius :at _h happ5$1 & )\t l+]+ he w5t into ,monnica's room to tell h] also4 ,! ,sa9t 0 n surpris$4 ,x 0 long n[ s9ce %e _h be5 told1 ,:]e ,i am1 !re %alt ?\ be also4 ,b %e gave way to an outbur/ ( joy4 ,h] mission 0 done4 ,n[ %e might s+ h] canticle ( ?anksgiv+ & ent] into ,god's peace4 ,mean:ile1 ! good ,alypius1 always circumspect & practical1 _h op5$ ! book aga9 & %ewn 8 fri5d :at foll[$ ! v]se1 = ,augu/91 9 8 excitem5t1 _h neglect$ to read fur!r4 ,! ,apo/le said1 ,him t is weak 9 ! fai? receive ye4 ,?is also appli$ to ,augu/94 ,t 0 only too c]ta93 8 new fai? 0 /ill v un/eady4 ,let n presumption bl9d him6 ,yes1 no d\bt ) all 8 s\l he desir$ to be a ,*ri/ian4 ,x n[ rema9$ = him to become "o4 ,,! ,,f\r? ,,"p ,,! ,,hidd5 ,,life ,fac me1 ,pat]1 qua]]e te4 ,cause me to seek ,!e1 ,o my ,fa!r4 ,soliloquies1 ,i1 i4 ,i ,,! ,,la/ ,,smile ,,( ,,! ,,muse ,n[ t ,augu/9 _h be5 at la/ t\*$ by grace1 0 he aft] all go+ to make a s5sational conv]sion l 8 pr(essional bro!r1 ! celebrat$ ,victor9us8 ,he knew well en\gh t !re is a good example set by ^! noisy conv]sions :i* works on a va/ numb] ( p4 ,& h[ev] contrite & humble 8 he>t might be1 he 0 q aw>e t 9 ,milan he 0 an important p]sonage4 ,:at excitem5t1 if he 7 to resign 8 pr(essor%ip on ! gr\nd t he wi%$ to sp5d ! re/ ( 8 life 9 ! ascetic way ( ! ,*ri/ians6444 ,b he pref]r$ to avoid ! sc&al on "o side1 & ! l\d praise on ! o!r4 ,god alone & "s v de> fri5ds %\ld witness 8 rep5tance4 ,!re 7 n[ h>dly tw5ty days be=e ! vacation4 ,he w\ld be pati5t till !n4 ,?us1 ! p>5ts ( 8 pupils w\ld n h any gr\nd to reproa* him = leav+ !m be=e ! end ( t]m1 & z 8 heal? 0 gett+ worse1 he w\ld h a good excuse to give up 8 po/4 ,! dampness ( ! climate _h giv5 him a sort ( *ronic bron*itis :i* ! summ] _h n cur$4 ,he _h difficulty 9 brea?+2 8 voice 0 muffl$ & ?9--s mu* s1 t he began to ?9k 8 lungs 7 attack$4 ,augu/9's heal? really ne$$ c>e4 ,?is 0 a q good en\gh reason to int]rupt 8 lectures4 ,hav+ fulfill$ 8 pr(essional duties to ! v end--& he assures u t x took "s c\rage--he left ! pr(essorial *air ) ! decl>$ int5tion ( nev] occupy+ x aga94 ,"h1 !n1 he is free f all worldly ties4 ,f n[ on he c prep>e himself = baptism 9 sil5ce & retreat4 ,b /ill he mu/ live someh[6 ,augu/9 _h m s\ls dep5d+ on him ?an ev]3 8 son1 8 "m1 8 bro!r1 8 c\s9s--a heavy bur!n :i* he _h be5 /ruggl+ "u = a long "t4 ,x is probable t once m ,romanianus1 :o 0 /ill 9 ,milan1 came to 8 assi/ance4 ,x w be rememb]$ t ! ,mc5as ( ,?aga/e _h tak5 up w>mly ! plan ( a lay mona/]y :i* ,augu/9 & 8 fri5ds _h lo/ _! heads ov]1 & he _h promis$ to subscribe a l>ge sum4 ,augu/9's retreat 0 a fir/ /ep t[>ds realiz+ ?is plan 9 a new %ape4 ,romanianus1 no d\bt1 approv$ ( x4 ,9 any case1 he ask$ ,augu/9 to keep on giv+ lessons to 8 son ,lic5tius4 ,ano!r "y man1 ,trygetius1 begg$ = ! same fav\r4 ,augu/9 !re=e did n int5d to give up 8 employm5t altoge!r4 ,he _h *ang$1 = ! pres5t at lea/1 f a ,gov]nm5t pr(essor into a private "o4 ,?is meant t he _h a c]ta9 liv+4 ,all he want$ n[ 0 a %elt]4 ,a fri5d1 a colleague1 ! gramm>ian ,v]ecundus1 graci\sly (f]$ him ?is4 ,v]ecundus ?us repaid a fav\r :i* ,augu/9 _h q rec5tly done him4 ,x 0 at ,augu/9's reque/ t ,nebridius1 :o 0 a fri5d ( bo?1 agre$ to take ov] ! classes ( ! gramm>ian1 :o 0 oblig$ to g away4 ,al?\gh ri*1 full ( tal5t1 & v eag] = peace & solitude1 ,nebridius1 simply out ( good-nature1 0 will+ to take ! place ( ,v]ecundus 9 8 v mode/ employm5t4 ,"o _c too mu* admire ! g5]osity & k9dl9ess ( ^! anci5t & ,*ri/ian mann]s4 ,9 ^? days1 fri5d%ip knew no?+ ( our n>r[ & %abby egoisms4 ,n[ ,v]ecundus own$ a c\ntry h\se j outside ,milan1 at ,cassicium4 ,he sugge/$ to ,augu/9 to sp5d ! vacation !re1 & ev5 to live !re p]man5tly ) all 8 p1 on condition ( look+ aft] ! prop]ty & keep+ x up4 ,attempts h be5 made to f9d traces ( ?is hospitable dwell+ :]e ! future monk ( ,?aga/e & ,hippo bade f>ewell to ! _w4 ,cassicium has disappe>$4 ,! imag9ation is free to rebuild x fancifully 9 any "p ( ! ri* c\ntry :i* lies ab\t ,milan4 ,/ill1 if ! y\?ful ,lic5tius has n yield$ too mu* to metaphor 9 ! v]ses :]e9 he recalls to ,augu/9 ,dep>t$ suns among ,italian m\nta9-heights1 x is likely t ! e/ate ( ,v]ecundus lay ^u ^? fir/ m\nta9-slopes :i* roll into ! ,brianza range4 ,ev5 to-day1 ! ri* ,milanese h _! c\ntry h\ses among ^? hills4 ,to ,augu/9 & 8 companions ?is fl\ri%+ ,lomb>dy mu/ h seem$ ano!r promis$ l&4 ,! c\ntry1 wond]fully f]tile & cultivat$1 is "o or*>d1 :]e fruit trees clu/]1 &1 9 all ways1 deep /reams w9d1 sl[-fl[+ & /ock$ ) fi%4 ,ev]y:]e is ! tremor ( runn+ wat]--inconceivably fre% music = ,african e>s4 ,a sc5t ( m9t & anise$2 fields ) grass gr[+ high & /raight 9 :i* y plunge up to ! knees4 ,"h & !re1 deeply engulf$ little valleys ) _! bun*es ( gre5 cov]t1 sla%$ ) ! rose plumes ( ! lime trees & ! burni%$ leaves ( ! hazels1 & :]e already ! nor!rn firs lift _! black ne$les4 ,f> (f1 bl5d$ 9 "o violet mass1 ! ,alps1 peak ^u peak1 cov]$ ) sn[2 & ne>] 9 view1 %e] cliffs1 jutt+ fa/nesses1 pl\gh$ ?r\gh ) black gorges :i* make fl>e out pla9] ! bronze-gold ( _! slopes4 ,n f> (f1 ! en*ant$ lakes slumb]4 ,x seems t an emblazonm5t fluctuates f _! wat]s1 & wri?+ above ! crags :i* imprison !m drifts a?w>t a sky sometimes a little *ill--,leon>do's p5sive sky ( %ad[$ ame?y/--aga9 ( a flu%$ blue1 :]eupon float great cl\ds1 silk5 & ruddy1 z 9 ! backgr\nds ( ,v]onese's pictures4 ,! beauty ( ! light light5s & beautifies ! ov]-heavy opul5ce ( ! l&4 ,& :]ev] ! c\ntry h\se ( ,v]ecundus may be plac$1 "s bit ( ?is triumphal l&scape w be f\nd4 ,z = ! h\se itself1 ,augu/9 has said en\gh ab\t x = u to see x fairly well4 ,x 0 no d\bt "o ( ^? old ru/ic build+s1 inhabit$ only "s few mon?s ( ! ye>1 9 ! w>me/ season1 & = ! re/ ( ! "t giv5 ov] to ! frolics ( mice & rats4 ,)\t any pret5ce to ar*itectural =m1 x _h be5 enl>g$ & r5ovat$ simply = ! great] conv5i5ce ( ^? :o liv$ !re4 ,!re 0 no attempt at symmetry2 ! ma9 door 0 n 9 ! middle ( ! build+1 & !re 0 ano!r door on "o ( ! sides4 ,! sole luxury ( ?is c\ntry h\se 0 p]haps ! ba?-h\ses4 ,^! ba?s1 h[ev] simple !y might be1 nev]!less rem9d$ ,augu/9 ( ! decoration ( gymnasiums4 ,does ?is mean t he f\nd !re ri* pavem5ts1 mosaics1 & /atues8 ,^! 7 q usual ?+s 9 ,roman villas4 ,! ,italians h always _h1 at all p]iods1 a great fondness = /atues & mosaics4 ,n v p>ticul> ab\t ! quality1 !y made up = x by ! quantity4 ,& :5 !y c\ld n treat !mselves to ! real ?+1 x 0 good en\gh to give !mselves ! make-believe 9 pa9t+4 ,i c imag9e easily en\gh ,v]ecundus' h\se1 pa9t$ 9 fresco f top to bottom1 inside & out1 l ^? h\ses at ,pompeii1 or ! mod]n ,milanese villas4 ,!re 0 no attempt at ornam5tal g>d5s at ,cassicium4 ,! surr\nd+s mu/ h be5 kit*5-g>d51 graz+-l&1 or pl\gh$ fields1 z 9 a f>m4 ,a mead[--n 9 ! lea/ ! lawns f\nd 9 front ( a l>ge c\ntry h\se--lay be=e ! dwell+1 :i* 0 protect$ f sun & w9d by clumps ( *e/nut trees4 ,!re1 /ret*$ on ! grass "u ! %ade ( "o ( ^! spread+ trees1 !y *att$ gaily :ile li/5+ to ! brok5 song ( ! brook1 z x fl[$ "u ! w9d[s ( ! ba?s4 ,!y liv$ v close to nature1 almo/ ! life ( field-till]s4 ,! :ole *>m ( ,cassicium consi/$ 9 its sil5ce1 its peace1 &1 above all1 its fre% air4 ,augu/9's tir$ lungs brea!d !re a pur] air ?an 9 ,milan1 :]e ! humid summ] heat is cru%+4 ,8 s\l1 ye>n+ = retirem5t1 discov]$ a retreat "h 9 h>mony ) 8 new desires1 a c\ntry solitude ( :i* ! ,virgilian grace /ill appeal$ to 8 lit]>y imag9ation4 ,! days he pass$ !re 7 days ( bless$ness = him4 ,long aft]w>ds he 0 deeply mov$ :5 he recall$ !m1 & 9 an outbur/ ( gratitude t[>ds 8 ho/1 he pray$ ,god to pay him 8 debt4 ,?\ wilt recomp5se him1 ,o ,"l1 on ! day ( ! resurrection ( ! j4444 ,= t c\ntry h\se at ,cassicium :]e we f\nd %elt] 9 ,!e f ! burn+ summ] ( our "t1 ,?\ wilt repay to ,v]ecundus ! coolness & ev]gre5 %ade ( ,?y p>adise4444 ,t 0 an unequall$ mom5t 9 ,augu/9's life4 ,foll[+ imm$iately ^u ! m5tal crisis :i* _h ev5 worn out 8 body1 he seems to be exp]i5c+ ! pleasure ( convalesc5ce4 ,he slack5s1 &1 z he says himself1 he re/s4 ,8 excitem5t is qu5*$1 b 8 fai? rema9s z firm z ev]4 ,) a cairn & supremely lucid m9d he judges 8 condition2 he sees cle>ly all t he has /ill to d ere he becomes a ?or\gh ,*ri/ian4 ,fir/1 he mu/ gr[ famili> ) ! ,scripture1 solve c]ta9 urg5t que/ions--t ( ! s\l1 = example1 its nature & orig9--:i* possess$ him j !n4 ,!n he mu/ *ange 8 conduct1 alt] 8 ways ( ?\ght1 &1 if "o may s speak1 dis9fect 8 m9d /ill all saturat$ ) pagan influ5ces3 a delicate "w--yes1 & an uneasy1 at times ev5 pa9ful1 :i* w\ld take m ?an "o day4 ,aft] tw5ty c5turies ( ,*ri/ianity1 & 9 spite ( our claim to und]/& all ?+s1 we d n yet realize v well :at an abyss lies betwe5 u & paganism4 ,:5 by *ance we come ^u pagan traces 9 c]ta9 primitive regions ( ! ,s\? ( ,europe1 we get muddl$1 & attribute to ,ca?olicism :at is b a survival ( old aboli%$ cu/oms1 s f> f u t we _c recognize !m any m4 ,augu/91 on ! contr>y1 0 "r next to !m4 ,:5 he /roll$ ov] ! fields & ?r\gh ! woods ar\nd ,cassicium1 ! ,fauns & woodl& ,nymphs ( ! old my?ology haunt$ 8 memory1 & all b /ood be=e 8 eyes4 ,he c\ld n take a walk )\t com+ ^u "o ( _! *apels1 or /rik+ aga9/ a b\nd>y-m>k /ill all greasy f ! oil ) :i* ! sup]/iti\s peasants _h dr5*$ x4 ,l himself1 ! old pagan l& _h n yet q put on ! ,*ri/ ( ! new era4 ,he 0 l t ,h]mes ,criophorus1 :o awkw>dly symboliz$ ! ,savi\r on ! walls ( ! ,catacombs4 ,ev5 z ! ,be>] ( ,rams *ang$ little by little into ! ,good ,%eph]d1 ! ,bi%op ( ,hippo em]g$ sl[ly f ! rhetorician ,augu/94 ,he became aw>e ( x dur+ t languid autumn at ,cassicium--t autumn heavy ) all ! rott+ ( summ]1 b :i* already promis$ ! great w9t] peace4 ,! yell[ leaves ( ! *e/nuts 7 heap$ by ! roadside4 ,!y fell 9 ! brook :i* fl[$ ne> ! ba?s1 & ! sl[$ wat] ceas$ to s+4 ,augu/9 /ra9$ 8 e>s = x4 ,8 s\l also 0 block$1 *ok$ up by all ! deposit ( 8 passions4 ,b he knew t soon ! *ant ( 8 new life w\ld beg9 9 triumphal fa%ion1 & he said ov] to himself ! words ( ! psalm3 ,cantate mihi canticum novum--,s+ unto me a new song4 ,un=tunately = ,augu/91 8 s\l & its salvation 0 n 8 only c>e at ,cassicium3 he _h a ?\s& o!rs4 ,s x %all be ) him ?r\gh\t 8 life4 ,till ! v end he w long = solitude1 = ! life 9 ,god1 & till ! end ,god w *>ge him ) ! c>e ( 8 bre?r54 ,?is great _s %all live above all by *>ity4 ,at ! h\se ( ,v]ecundus he 0 n only ! head1 b he _h a complete c\ntry e/ate to direct & sup]vise4 ,probably all ! gue/s 9 ! h\se help$ him4 ,!y divid$ ! duties4 ,! good ,alypius1 :o 0 us$ to bus9ess & v]s$ 9 ! twi/$ ways ( ! law1 took ov] ! =eign affairs--! buy+ & sell+1 probably ! acc\nts also4 ,he 0 cont9ually on ! road to ,milan4 ,augu/9 att5d$ to ! correspond5ce1 & e morn+ appo9t$ _! "w to ! f>m-lab\r]s4 ,monnica look$ aft] ! h\sehold1 no easy "w 9 a h\se :]e n9e sat d[n to table e day4 ,b ! ,sa9t fulfill$ h] humble duties ) t\*+ k9dness & =getfulness ( self3 ,%e took c>e ( u1 says ,augu/91 z if we _h all be5 h] *ildr51 & %e s]v$ u z if ea* ( u _h be5 h] fa!r4 ,let u look a little at ^! *ildr5 ( ,monnica4 ,besides ,alypius1 :om we "k already1 !re 0 ! "y ,adeodatus1 ! *ild ( s9--my son ,adeodatus1 ^: gifts gave promise ( great ?+s1 unless my love = him betrays me4 ,?us speaks 8 fa!r4 ,?is little boy 01 x seems1 a prodigy1 z %all be ! little ,blaise ,pascal lat]3 ,8 intellig5ce fill$ me ) awe--horrori mihi erat illud +5ium--says ! fa!r aga94 ,:at is c]ta9 is t he _h a s\l l an angel4 ,"s say+s ( 8 h be5 pres]v$ by ,augu/94 ,!y are fragrant z a bun* ( lilies4 ,! o!r memb]s ( ! family are ne>] ! e>?4 ,navigius1 ,augu/9's bro!r1 an excell5t man ( :om we "k no?+ save t he _h a bad liv]--! ict]us ( ! ,african coloni/--& t on ?is acc\nt he ab/a9$ f sweetmeats4 ,ru/icus & ,la/idianus1 ! two c\s9s1 p]sons z %ad[y z ! sup]s 9 a trag$y4 ,f9ally1 ,augu/9's pupils1 ,trygetius & ,lic5tius4 ,! fir/1 :o _h lately s]v$ "s "t 9 ! army1 0 passionately fond ( hi/ory1 l a vet]an4 ,al?\gh 8 ma/] 9 "s ( 8 ,dialogues has made him 8 int]locutor1 8 "* rema9s = u undevelop$4 ,) ,lic5tius x is diff]5t4 ,?is son ( ,romanianus1 ! ,mc5as ( ,?aga/e1 0 ,augu/9's belov$ pupil4 ,x is easy to make t out4 ,all ! phrases he devotes to ,lic5tius h a w>m? ( tone1 a col\r & relief :i* ?rill4 ,?is ,lic5tius comes be=e u z ! type ( ! spoil$ *ild1 ! son ( a weal?y family1 caprici\s1 va91 presum+1 unaba%$1 nev] hesitat+ if he sees a *ance to h a joke ) 8 ma/]4 ,=getful1 besides1 prone to sudd5 fancies1 sup]ficial1 & r blund]+4 ,) all t1 ! be/ boy 9 ! _w--a bad head1 b a good he>t4 ,he 0 a frank pagan1 & ,i believe rema9$ a pagan all 8 life1 9 spite ( ! remon/rances ( ,augu/9 & ^? ( ! g5tle ,paul9us ( ,nola1 :o lectur$ him 9 prose & v]se4 ,a great eat] & a f9e dr9k]1 he f\nd himself oblig$ to d p5ance at ,/4 ,monnica's r frugal table4 ,b :5 ! fev] ( inspiration took hold ( him1 he =got eat+ & dr9k+1 & 9 8 poetical ?ir/ he w\ld w\ld h dra9$--s 8 ma/] says--all ! f\nta9s ( ,helicon4 ,lic5tius _h a passion = v]sify+3 ,he is an almo/ p]fect poet1 wrote ,augu/9 to ,romanianus4 ,! =m] rhetorician knew ! _w1 & ! way to talk to ! fa!r ( a weal?y pupil1 especially if he is y\r b5efactor4 ,at ,cassicium1 "u ,augu/9's indulg5t eyes1 ! pupil turn$ into v]se ! romantic adv5ture ( ,pyramus & ,?isbe4 ,he declaim$ bits ( x to ! gue/s 9 ! h\se1 = he _h a f9e l\d voice4 ,!n he flung aside ! unf9i%$ poem & sudd5ly fell 9 love ) ,greek trag$ies ( :i*1 z x happ5$1 he und]/ood no?+ at all1 ?\gh ?is did n prev5t him f bor+ ev]ybody he met ) !m4 ,ano!r day x 0 ! ,*ur* music1 !n q new1 :i* flung him into en?usiasm4 ,t day !y he>d ,lic5tius s++ canticles f morn+ till night4 ,9 connection ) ?is1 ,augu/9 relates ) c&id fre$om an anecdote :i* to-day ne$s ! indulg5ce ( ! read] to make x acceptable4 ,z x gives light ^u t half-pagan1 half-,*ri/ian way ( life :i* 0 /ill ,augu/9's1 ,i w repeat x 9 all its pla9ness4 ,x happ5$1 !n1 "o ev5+ aft] d9n]1 t ,lic5tius w5t out & took 8 way to a c]ta9 my/]i\s retreat1 & !re he sudd5ly began s++ ?is v]se ( ! ,psalm3 ,turn u aga91 ,o ,"l ,god ( ho/s1 cause ,?y face to %9e2 & we %all be sav$4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 he _h h>dly sung any?+ else = a long "t4 ,he kept on repeat+ ?is v]se ov] & ov] aga91 z p d ) a tune !y h j pick$ up4 ,b ! pi\s ,monnica1 :o he>d him1 c\ld n tol]ate ! s++ ( su* holy words 9 su* a place4 ,%e spoke %>ply to ! (f5d]4 ,^u ?is ! "y scatt]-bra9s answ]$ r flippantly3 ,suppos+1 good "m1 t an enemy _h %ut me up 9 t place--d y mean to say t ,god w\ldn't h he>d me j ! same8 ,! next day he ?\ght no m ab\t x1 & :5 ,augu/9 rem9d$ him1 he decl>$ t he felt no remorse4 ,z f> z ,i am conc]n$1 repli$ ! excell5t ma/]1 ,i am n 9 ! lea/ %ock$ by x4444 ,! tru? is1 t nei!r t place1 :i* has s mu* sc&aliz$ my "m1 nor ! d>kness ( night1 is altoge!r inappropriate to ?is canticle4 ,= :5ce1 ?9k y1 d we implore ,god to drag u1 s t we may be conv]t$ & gaze ^u ,8 face8 ,is x n f t jakes ( ! s5ses :]e9 our s\ls are plung$1 & f t d>kness ( :i* ! error is ar\nd u8444 ,& z !y 7 discuss+ t day ! ord] e/abli%$ by ,provid5ce1 ,augu/9 made x a pretext to give a little edify+ lecture to 8 pupil4 ,hav+ he>d ! s]mon to ! end1 ! %>p ,lic5tius put 9 ) sly malici\sness3 ,i say1 :at a spl5did arrangem5t ( ev5ts to %ew me t no?+ happ5s except 9 ! be/ way1 & = our great good6 ,?is reply gives u ! tone ( ! conv]sation betwe5 ,augu/9 & 8 pupils4 ,nev]!less1 h[ev] free & m]ry ! talks might be1 ! purpose 0 always in/ructive1 & x 0 always sub/antial4 ,let u n =get t ! ,milanese rhetorician is /ill a pr(essor4 ,! be/ "p ( 8 days 0 devot$ to ^! two y\?s :o _h be5 put "u 8 *>ge4 ,z soon z he _h settl$ ! bus9ess ( ! f>m1 talk$ to ! peasants1 & giv5 8 ord]s to ! workm51 he fell back ^u 8 bus9ess ( rhetorician4 ,9 ! morn+ !y w5t ov] ,virgil's ,eclogues toge!r4 ,at night !y discuss$ philosophy4 ,:5 ! wea!r 0 f9e !y walk$ 9 ! fields1 & ! discussion cont9u$ "u ! %ade ( ! *e/nut trees4 ,if x ra9$1 !y took refuge 9 ! )draw+-room adjo9+ ! ba?s4 ,b$s 7 !re1 cu%ions1 s(t *airs conv5i5t = talk+1 & ! equal temp]ature f ! vap\r-ba?s close at h& 0 good = ,augu/9's bron*ial tubes4 ,!re is no /iffness 9 ^! dialogues1 no?+ :i* smacks ( ! s*ool4 ,! discussion />ts f ?+s :i* !y _h "u ! eyes1 (t5 f "s slight accid5tal happ5+4 ,"o night :5 ,augu/9 c\ld n sleep--he (t5 suff]$ f insomnia--! dispute began 9 b$1 = ! ma/] & 8 pupils slept 9 ! same room4 ,ly+ !re 9 ! d>k1 he li/5$ to ! brok5 murmur ( ! /ream4 ,he 0 try+ to ?9k out an explanation ( ! pauses 9 ! s\nd1 :5 ,lic5tius %ift$ "u ! b$clo!s1 & rea*+ out = a piece ( /ick ly+ on ! floor1 he rapp$ ) x on ! foot ( ! b$ to fright5 ! mice4 ,s he 0 n asleep ei!r1 nor ,trygetius1 :o 0 /irr+ ab\t 9 8 b$4 ,augu/9 0 delight$3 he _h two li/5]s4 ,imm$iately he put ?is "q3 ,:y d ^? pauses come 9 ! fl[ ( ! /ream8 ,d !y n foll[ "s secret law8444 ,!y _h hit ^u a subject = debate4 ,dur+ _m days !y discuss$ ! ord] ( ! _w4 ,ano!r "t1 z !y 7 go+ into ! ba?s1 !y /opp$ to look at two cocks fight+4 ,augu/9 call$ ! att5tion ( ! y\?s to a c]ta9 ord] full ( propriety 9 all ! movem5ts ( ^! f[ls depriv$ ( reason4 ,look at ! conqu]or1 said he4 ,he cr[s triumphantly4 ,he /ruts & plumes himself z a pr\d sign ( victory4 ,& n[ look at ! beat5 "o1 )\t voice1 8 neck unfea!r$1 a look ( %ame4 ,all t has ,i "k n :at beauty1 9 h>mony ) ! laws ( nature4444 ,new argum5t 9 fav\r ( ord]3 ! debate ( ! night be=e is />t$ roll+ aga94 ,= u1 too1 x is well wor? :ile to pause on ?is little homely sc5e4 ,x reveals to u an ,augu/9 n only v s5sitive to beauty1 b v att5tive to ! sights ( ! _w surr\nd+ him4 ,cockfights 7 /ill v popul> 9 ?is ,roman society at ! end+ ( ! ,empire4 ,= a long "t sculptors _h f\nd _m graci\s subjects 9 ! sport4 ,read+ ?is passage ( ,augu/9's1 "o recalls1 among o!r simil> designs1 t fun]al urn at ! ,lat]an ^u :i* are repres5t$ two little boys1 "o cry+ ov] 8 beat5 cock1 :ile ! o!r holds 8 t5d]ly 9 8 arms & kisses x--! cock t won1 id5tifi$ by ! cr[n held 9 its spurs4 ,augu/9 is always v close to ^! humble realities4 ,e mom5t outside ?+s />t up 9 ! dialogues betwe5 ! ma/] & 8 pupils4444 ,!y are 9 b$ on a ra9y night 9 ,novemb]4 ,gradually1 a vague gleam re/s on ! w9d[s4 ,!y ask ea* o!r if t c be ! moon1 or ! break ( day4444 ,ano!r "t1 ! sun rises 9 all its spl5d\r1 & !y decide to g into ! mead[ & sit on ! grass4 ,or else1 ! sky d>k5s & lights are br\ght 94 ,or aga91 x is ! appe>ance ( dilig5t ,alyphis1 j come back f ,milan4444 ,9 ! same way z he notes ^! light details 9 pass+1 ,augu/9 welcomes all 8 gue/s into 8 dialogues & admits !m to ! debate3 8 "m1 8 bro!r1 ! c\s9s1 ,alypius betwe5 8 bus9ess j\rneys1 d[n to ! *ild ,adeodatus4 ,he knew ! value ( ord9>y good s5se1 ! second-sight ( a pure he>t1 or ( a pi\s s\l /r5g!n$ by pray]4 ,monnica us$ (t5 to come into ! room :5 !y 7 argu+1 to let !m "k t d9n] 0 ready1 or = some?+ ( ! k9d4 ,h] son ask$ h] to rema94 ,mode/ly %e %ew$ h] a/oni%m5t at su* an hon\r4 ,"m1 said ,augu/91 d y n love tru?8 ,!n :y %\ld ,i blu% to give y a place among u8 ,ev5 if y\r love = tru? 7 only half-he>t$1 ,i ought /ill to receive y & li/5 to y4 ,h[ mu* m !n1 s9ce y love x m ?an y love me1 & ,i "k h[ mu* y love me4444 ,no?+ c sep>ate y f tru?1 nei!r fe>1 nor pa9 ( :atev] k9d x be--no1 nor dea? itself4 ,d n all agree t ?is is ! highe/ /age ( philosophy8 ,h[ c ,i hesitate aft] t to call myself y\r disciple8 ,& ,monnica1 utt]ly confus$ by su* praise1 answ]$ ) affectionate gruffness3 ,/op talk+6 ,y h nev] told bigg] lies4 ,mo/ ( ! "t ^! conv]sations 7 simply dialectic games 9 ! ta/e ( ! p]iod1 games a little p$antic1 & fatigu+ f subtilty4 ,! boi/]\s ,lic5tius did n always enjoy himself4 ,he 0 (t5 inatt5tive2 & 8 ma/] scold$ him4 ,b all ! same1 ! ma/] und]/ood h[ to amuse 8 two fo/]-*ildr5 :ile he ex]cis$ _! intellig5ce4 ,at ! end ( "o discussion he said to !m laugh+3 ,j at ?is h\r1 ! sun w>ns me to put ! play?+s ,i _h br\ght = ! *ildr5 back 9 ! basket4444 ,let u rem>k 9 pass+ t ?is is ! la/ "t1 be=e ^? c5turies :i* are com+ ( univ]sal intellectual sil5ce or arid s*ola/icism--! la/ "t t high que/ions w be discuss$ 9 ?is graceful light way1 & ) ! same fre$om ( m9d4 ,! tradition begun by ,socrates "u ! plane-trees on ! banks ( ! ,ilissus1 is end+ ) ,augu/9 "u ! *e/nuts ( ,cassicium4 ,& yet1 h[ev] gay & caprici\s ! =m1 ! sub/ance ( ^! dialogues1 ,on ! ,academics1 ,on ,ord]1 & ,on ! ,happy ,life1 is s]i\s1 & ev5 v s]i\s4 ,! be/ pro( ( _! importance 9 ,augu/9's eyes is1 t aft] tak+ c>e to h !m report$ 9 %or?&1 he ev5tually publi%$ !m4 ,! not>ii att5d$ ^! discussions & let no?+ be lo/4 ,! rise ( ! scriv5]1 ( ! not>y1 dates f ?is p]iod4 ,! adm9i/ration ( ! ,l[]-,empire 0 frightfully giv5 to scribbl+4 ,by contact ) x1 ! ,*ur* became s too4 ,let u n press our compla9ts ab\t x1 s9ce ?is craze = writ+ has procur$ = u1 ) a good deal ( %ot-rubbi%1 "s preci\s hi/orical docum5ts4 ,9 ,augu/9's case1 ^! reports ( 8 lectures at ,cassicium h at lea/ ! value ( %ew+ u ! /ate ( s\l ( ! future ,bi%op ( ,hippo at a decisive mom5t ( 8 life4 ,= ^! ,dialogues1 al?\gh !y look l s*ool ex]cises1 reveal ! intimate ?\ghts ( ,augu/9 on ! morr[ ( 8 conv]sion4 ,:ile he seems to be refut+ ! ,academics1 he is fight+ ! errors f :i* he1 p]sonally1 _h suff]$ s long4 ,he cl>ifi$ 8 new ideal4 ,no2 ! se>* = tru?1 )\t hope ( ev] rea*+ x1 _c give happ9ess4 ,& g5u9e happ9ess is only 9 ,god4 ,& if a rhy?m is to be f\nd 9 ?+s1 !n x is necess>y to make ! s\l rhy?mic also & s enable x to contemplate ,god4 ,x is necess>y to /ill )9 x ! noise ( ! passions4 ,h5ce1 ! ne$ ( inw>d re=mation1 &1 at a f9al analysis1 ( asceticism4 ,b ,augu/9 knew full well t ^! tru?s mu/ be adapt$ to ! weakness ( ! two lads he 0 tea*+1 & also to ! common run ( mank9d4 ,he has n yet 9 ^! ye>s ! uncompromis+ attitude :i* ere long w give him a /]n] virtue--an attitude1 h[ev]1 unceas+ly temp]$ by 8 *>ity & by ! p]si/5t recollections ( 8 read+4 ,x 0 n[ t he %ap$ ! rule ( conduct 9 worldly morals & education :i* ! ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce ( ! future w adopt3 ,if y h always ord] 9 y\r he>ts1 he said to 8 pupils1 y mu/ return to y\r v]ses4 ,= a k ( lib]al sci5ces1 b a controll$ & exact k1 =ms m5 :o w love ! tru?4444 ,b !re are o!r m51 or1 to put x bett]1 o!r s\ls1 :o1 al?\gh held 9 ! body1 are s\ght = ! et]nal m>riage by ! be/ & faire/ ( sp\ses4 ,= ^! s\ls x is n en\gh to live2 !y wi% to live happy4444 ,b z = y1 g1 mean:ile1 & f9d y\r ,muses6 ,g & f9d y\r ,muses6 ,:at a f9e say+6 ,h[ human & h[ wise6 ,"h is cle>ly indicat$ ! d\ble ideal ( ^? :o cont9ue to live 9 ! _w accord+ to ! ,*ri/ian law ( re/ra9t & mod]ation1 & ( ^? :o ye>n to live 9 ,god4 ,) ,augu/9 ! *oice is made4 ,he w nev] m look back4 ,^! ,dialogues at ,cassicium are 8 supreme f>ewell to ! pagan ,muse4 ,,ii ,,! ,,ec/asy ,,( ,,sa9t ,,monnica ,!y /ay$ ?r\gh ! w9t] at ,cassicium4 ,h[ev] tak5 up he might be by ! "w ( ! e/ate & ! c>e ( 8 pupils1 ,augu/9 devot$ himself *iefly to ! great bus9ess ( 8 salvation4 ,! ,soliloquies1 :i* he wrote !n1 r5d] ev5 ! passionate tone ( ! m$itations :i* he p]petually gave way to dur+ 8 wat*es & nights ( insomnia4 ,he se>*$ = ,god1 moan+3 ,fac me1 ,pat]1 qur]e te--,cause me to seek ,!e1 ,o my ,fa!r4 ,b /ill1 he s\ght ,him m z a philosoph] ?an z a ,*ri/ian4 ,! old man 9 him 0 n dead4 ,he _h n q /ripp$ (f ! rhetorician or ! intellectual4 ,! ov]-t5d] he>t rema9$1 :i* _h s mu* sacrific$ to human love4 ,9 ^? ard5t dialogues betwe5 himself & 8 reason1 x is pla9 to see t reason is n q ! mi/ress4 ,i love only ,god & ! s\l1 ,augu/9 /ates ) a t\* ( presumption4 ,& 8 reason1 :i* kn[s him well1 answ]s3 ,d y n !n love y\r fri5ds8--,i love ! s\l2 h[ !re=e %\ld ,i n love !m8 ,:at does ?is phrase1 ( su* exquisite s5sibility1 & ev5 already s alo( f worldly ?\ghts--:at does x lack to give =? a s\nd entirely ,*ri/ian8 ,j a slight *ange ( acc5t4 ,he himself began to see t he w\ld d bett] n to philosophize s mu* & to draw ne>] ! ,scripture1 9 li/5+ to ! wisdom ( t ) a contrite & humble he>t4 ,^u ! directions ( ,ambrose1 ^: advice he _h ask$ by lett]1 he tri$ to read ! prophet ,isaiah1 because ,isaiah is ! cle>e/ =etell] ( ! ,r$emption4 ,he f\nd ! book s difficult t he lo/ he>t1 & he put x aside till lat]4 ,mean:ile1 he _h =w>d$ 8 resignation z pr(essor ( ,rhetoric to ! ,milan municipality4 ,!n1 :5 ! "t 0 come1 he s5t to ,bi%op ,ambrose a writt5 confession ( 8 errors & faults1 & repres5t$ to him 8 v firm int5tion to be baptiz$4 ,he 0 quietly baptiz$ on ! tw5ty-fif? ( ,april1 dur+ ! ,ea/] season ( ! ye> #chg1 toge!r ) 8 son ,adeodatus1 & 8 fri5d ,alypius4 ,alypius _h prep>$ mo/ pi\sly1 discipl9+ himself ) ! h>%e/ au/]ities1 to ! po9t ( walk+ b>efoot on ! froz5 soil4 ,s n[ ! solit>ies ( ,cassicium are back 9 ,milan4 ,augu/9's two pupils 7 gone4 ,trygetius d\btless _h rejo9$ ! army4 ,lic5tius _h gone to live 9 ,rome4 ,b ano!r fell[-c\ntryman1 an ,african f ,?aga/e1 ,evodius1 =m]ly a cl]k 9 ! ,m9i/ry ( ! ,int]ior1 came to jo9 ! small gr\p ( new conv]ts4 ,evodius1 ! future ,bi%op ( ,uzalis1 9 ,africa1 & baptiz$ be=e ,augu/91 0 a man ( scrupul\s piety & unque/ion+ fai?4 ,he talk$ ( dev\t subjects ) 8 fri5d1 :o1 j fre% f baptism1 exp]i5c$ all ! quietude ( grace4 ,!y spoke ( ! community :i* ,/4 ,ambrose _h ei!r f\nd$ or organiz$ at ! gates ( ,milan1 & 9 comp>ison ) a life s au/]e1 ,augu/9 p]ceiv$ t ! life he _h l$ at ,cassicium 0 /ill /a9$ ) paganism4 ,he mu/ c>ry out 8 conv]sion to ! end & live z a h]mit aft] ! mann] ( ,antony & ! solit>ies ( ! ,!baid4 ,!n x occurr$ to him t he /ill own$ a little prop]ty at ,?aga/e--a h\se & fields4 ,!re !y w\ld settle & live 9 self-d5ial l ! monks4 ,! purity ( ! "y ,adeodatus pr$e/9$ him to ?is ascetic exi/5ce4 ,z = ,monnica1 :o long s9ce _h tak5 ! wid['s veil1 %e _h to make no *ange 9 h] ways to lead a sa9tly life 9 ! company ( h] son & gr&son4 ,x 0 agre$ among !m all to g back to ,africa1 & to />t z soon z possible4 ,?us1 j aft] 8 baptism1 ,augu/9 %ews b "o desire3 to bury himself 9 a retreat1 to lead a humble & hidd5 life1 divid$ betwe5 ! /udy ( ! ,scripture & ! contemplation ( ,god4 ,lat] on1 8 enemies 7 to accuse him ( hav+ become a conv]t f ambition1 9 view ( ! hon\rs & ri*es ( ! episcopate4 ,?is is %e] calumny4 ,8 conv]sion c\ld n h be5 m s9c]e1 m dis9t]e/$--nor m h]oic ei!r3 he 0 ?irty-?ree ye>s old4 ,:5 we ?9k ( all he _h lov$ & all he gave up1 we c only b[ ! head & b5d ! knee be=e ! l(ty virtue ( su* an example4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! summ] ! c>avan />t$ & cross$ ! ,ap5n9es to set sail at ,o/ia4 ,! date ( ?is exodus has nev] be5 made q cle>4 ,p]haps ,augu/9 & 8 companions fl$ be=e ! hordes ( ! usurp] ,maximus1 :o1 t[>ds ! end ( ,augu/1 cross$ ! ,alps & m>*$ on ,milan1 :ile ! "y ,val5t9ian ) all 8 ,c\rt took refuge at ,aquileia4 ,9 any case1 x 0 a try+ j\rney1 especially 9 ! hot wea!r4 ,:5 ,monnica arriv$ %e 0 v enfeebl$4 ,at ,o/ia !y _h to wait till a %ip 0 sail+ = ,africa4 ,propiti\s conditions did n (f] e day4 ,at ?is p]iod1 travell]s 7 at ! m]cy ( ! sea1 ( ! w9d1 & ( a ?\s& o!r circum/ances4 ,"t did n c\nt2 x 0 wa/$ freely4 ,! %ip sail$ %ort di/ances at a "t1 skirt+ ! coa/s1 :]e ! l5g? ( ! /ay at e po9t t\*$ dep5d$ on ! ma/]4 ,on bo>d ^! %ips--feluccas h>dly deck$ ov]--if ! cross+ 0 endless & unsafe1 x 01 above all1 mo/ uncom=table4 ,p 7 9 no hurry to und]go ! tortures ( x1 & spac$ !m out z mu* z possible by frequ5t /oppages4 ,on acc\nt ( all ^! reasons1 our ,africans made a r long /ay at ,o/ia4 ,!y lodg$1 no d\bt1 ) ,*ri/ian bre?r51 ho/s ( ,augu/9 or ,monnica1 9 a tranquil h\se f> out ( e>%ot ( ! cosmopolitan cr[d :i* ov]fl[$ 9 ! hotels on ! quay4 ,o/ia1 situat$ at ! m\? ( ! ,tib]1 0 bo? ! port & bond-w>eh\se ( ,rome4 ,! ,gov]nm5t /ores-%ips l&$ ! ,african oil & corn !re4 ,x 0 a junction = comm]ce1 ! po9t :]e immigrants f all p>ts ( ! ,m$it]ranean disb>k$4 ,to-day !re is only left a wret*$ little village4 ,b at "s di/ance f ?is hamlet1 ! excavations ( ar*ologi/s h lately br\ght to light ! rema9s ( a l>ge t[n4 ,!y h discov]$ at ! entrance a place ( burial ) arcosol-tombs2 & "h p]haps ! body ( ,/4 ,monnica 0 laid4 ,9 ?is place ( graves !y came ^u also a beautiful /atue injur$--a fun]al ,g5ius1 or a ,victory1 ) l>ge fold$ w+s l ^? ( ! ,*ri/ian angels4 ,fur!r on1 ! =um ) its %ops1 ! gu>d-h\se ( ! night-cohort1 ba?s1 a !atre1 _m l>ge temples1 arcad$ /reets pav$ ) l>ge flags1 w>eh\ses = m]*&ise4 ,!re may /ill be se51 l9+ ! walls1 ! holes 9 :i* ! ends ( ! amphor us$ to be dropp$ to keep !m upright4 ,all ?is wreckage gives an idea ( a popul\s c5tre :]e ! /ir ( traffic & %ipp+ 0 int5se4 ,& yet 9 ?is noisy t[n1 ,augu/9 & 8 "m f\nd means to )draw !mselves & jo9 toge!r 9 m$itation & pray]4 ,amid ?is r vulg> activity1 9 a noise ( trade & seaf>+1 a my/ic sc5e develops :]e ! purifi$ love ( "m & son gleams ^u u z 9 a light ( apo!osis4 ,!y _h at ,o/ia a =eta/e1 s to speak1 ( ! et]nal union 9 ,god4 ,?is 0 9 ! h\se :]e !y _h come on arrival4 ,!y talk$ s(tly1 re/+ aga9/ a w9d[ :i* look$ ^u ! g>d54444 ,b ! sc5e has be5 made popul> by ,ary ,s*eff]'s too well-kn[n pa9t+4 ,y rememb] x3 two faces1 pale1 bloodless1 /ripp$ ( fle%1 9 :i* live only ! burn+ eyes ca/ upw>d to ! sky--a d5se sky1 baffl+1 heavy ) all ! secrets ( et]nity4 ,no visible object1 no?+1 absolutely no?+1 di/racts !m f _! contemplation4 ,! sea itself1 al?\gh indicat$ by ! pa9t]1 almo/ bl5ds into ! blue l9e ( ! horizon4 ,two s\ls & ! sky--!re y h ! :ole subject4 ,x is liv+ poetry congeal$ 9 ab/ract ?\ght4 ,! attitude ( ! *>act]s1 maje/ically seat$1 in/ead ( lean+ on ! w9d[-l$ge1 has1 9 ,s*eff]'s picture1 ,i "k n :at t\* ( /iffness1 ( slightly !atrical4 ,& ! g5]al impression is a cold dryness :i* contra/s ) ! lyric w>m? ( ! /ory 9 ! ,confessions4 ,= my "p1 ,i always ?\ght1 p]haps on ! te/imony ( ! picture1 t ! w9d[ ( ! h\se at ,o/ia op5$ above ! g>d5 9 view ( ! sea4 ,! sea1 symbol ( ! inf9ite1 ought to be pres5t--s x seem$ to me--at ! f9al conv]sation betwe5 ,monnica & ,augu/94 ,at ,o/ia itself ,i 0 oblig$ to give up ?is too lit]>y notion2 ! sea is n visible !re4 ,no d\bt at t "t ! *annel 0 n s silt$ up z x is to-day4 ,b ! coa/ lies s l[1 t j h>d by ! actual m\? ( ! ,tib]1 ! ne>ness ( ! sea c only be guess$ by ! reflection ( ! waves 9 ! atmosph]e1 a sort ( pe>ly halo1 trembl+ on ! edge ( ! sky4 ,at pres5t ,i am incl9$ to ?9k t ! w9d[ ( ! h\se at ,o/ia 0 v likely turn$ t[>ds ! va/ melan*oly horizon ( ! ,agro ,romano4 ,we pass$ ?r\gh1 "o aft] ano!r1 says ,augu/91 all ! ?+s ( a mat]ial ord]1 unto heav5 itself4 ,is x n natural to suppose t ^! ?+s ( a mat]ial ord]--^! %apes ( ! e>? ) its plantations1 its riv]s1 t[ns1 & m\nta9s--7 "u _! eyes8 ,! bleak spectacle :i* unroll$ be=e _! gaze agre$1 at all ev5ts1 ) ! disposition ( _! s\ls4 ,?is great desolate pla9 has no?+ oppressive1 no?+ :i* reta9s ! eyes ^u details too mat]ial4 ,! col\rs ab\t x are pale & slight1 z if on ! po9t ( swoon+ away4 ,imm5se /]ile /ret*es1 fawn-col\r$ ?r\gh\t1 ) "h & !re %9+ a little p9k1 a little gre52 gorse1 furze-bu%es by ! deep banks ( ! riv]1 or a few bos*etti ) du/y leaves1 :i* feebly /& out ^u ! blondness ( ! soil4 ,to ! "r1 a p9e =e/4 ,to ! left1 ! undulations ( ! ,roman hills expire into an empt9ess inf9itely sad4 ,af>1 ! violet s*eme ( ! ,alban m\nta9s1 ) veil$ & dream-l di/ances1 %ape indef9itely aga9/ ! pe>l light1 limpid & s]5e1 ( ! sky4 ,augu/9 & ,monnica1 re/+ on ! w9d[-l$ge1 look$ =?4 ,d\btless x 0 t[>ds ev5+1 at ! h\r :5 s\!rn w9d[s are ?r[n op5 to ! cool aft] a burn+ day4 ,!y look$ =?4 ,we m>vell$1 says ,augu/91 at ! beauty ( ,?y works1 ,o my ,god6444 ,rome 0 back !re beyond ! hills1 ) its palaces1 its temples1 ! gleam ( its gild+ & its m>bles4 ,b ! f>-(f image ( ! imp]ial city c\ld n conqu] ! et]nal sadness :i* rises f ! ,agro4 ,an air ( fun]al lonel9ess lay above ?is pla91 ready to be engulf$ by ! creep+ %ad[s4 ,h[ easy x 0 to break free ( ^! va9 corporeal appe>ances :i* decompos$ ( !mselves6 ,!n1 ,augu/9 resumes1 we so>$ ) gl[+ he>ts /ill high]4 7,he speaks z if he & 8 "m 7 ris5 ) equal flight to ! vision4 ,x is m probable t he 0 drawn up by ,monnica1 long s9ce famili> ) ! ways ( ! _s1 us$ to visions1 & to my/ic talks ) ,god44447 ,:]e 0 ?is ,god8 ,all ! creatures1 que/ion$ by _! angui%$ entreaty1 answ]$3 ,qure sup] nos--,seek above u6 ,!y s\ght2 !y m\nt$ high] & high]3 ,& s we came to our own m9ds1 & pass$ beyond !m into ! region ( unfail+ pl5ty1 :]e ,?\ fe$e/ ,israel = ev] ) ! food ( tru?4444 ,& z we talk$1 & we /rove eag]ly t[>ds ?is div9e region1 by a leap ) ! :ole =ce ( our he>ts1 we t\*$ x = an in/ant4444 ,!n we sigh$1 we fell back1 & left !re fa/5$ ! fir/ fruits ( ! ,_s1 & he>d aga9 ! babble ( our own tongues1 ?is mortal spee* :]e9 ea* ^w has a beg9n+ & an end+4 ,we fell back6 ,! m>vell\s vision _h vani%$4 ,b a great sil5ce 0 ab\t !m1 sil5ce ( ?+s1 sil5ce ( ! s\l4 ,& !y said to ea* o!r3 ,if ! tumult ( ! fle% 7 hu%$2 hu%$ ^! %ad[s ( e>?1 sea1 sky2 suppose ?is vision endur$1 & all o!r f> inf]ior modes ( vision 7 tak5 away1 & ?is alone 7 to ravi% ! behold]1 & absorb him1 & plunge him 9 my/ic joy1 s t et]nal life might be l ?is mom5t ( compreh5sion :i* has made u sigh ) ,love--might n t be ! fulfilm5t ( ',ent] ?\ into ! joy ( ?y ,"l'8 ,ah1 :5 %all ?is be8 ,%all x n be1 ,o my ,god1 :5 we rise aga9 among ! dead4448 ,little by little !y came d[n to e>?4 ,! dy+ col\rs ( ! sunset-tide sm\ld]$ into ! :ite mi/s ( ! ,agro4 ,! _w ent]$ into night4 ,!n ,monnica1 impell$ by a c]ta9 pres5tim5t1 said to ,augu/93 ,my son1 z = me1 ,i f9d no fur!r pleasure 9 life4 ,:at ,i am /ill to d1 or :y ,i /ill l+] "h1 ,i "k n4444 ,!re 0 only "o ?+ made me want to t>ry a little long] 9 ?is life1 t ,i might see y a ,*ri/ian & a ,ca?olic be=e ,i di$4 ,my ,god has grant$ me ?is boon f> beyond :at ,i hop$ =4 ,s :at am ,i do+ "h8 ,%e felt x2 h] "w 0 done4 ,%e _h exhau/$1 z ,augu/9 says1 all ! hope ( ! c5tury--consumpta spe sculi4 ,= h] ! p>t+ 0 ne>4 ,?is ec/asy 0 t ( "o dy+1 :o has rais$ a corn] ( ! veil1 & :o no long] belongs to ?is _w4 99 99 99 99 99 ,&1 9 fact1 five or six days lat] %e fell ill4 ,%e _h fev]4 ,! climate ( ,o/ia br$ fev]s1 z x does to-day1 & x 0 always unsanit>y on acc\nt ( all ! =eign]s :o br\ght 9 e infection ( ! ,ori5t4 ,fur!rmore1 ! we>9ess ( a long j\rney 9 summ] _h worn out ?is woman1 old be=e h] "t4 ,%e _h to g to b$4 ,soon %e got worse1 & !n lo/ consci\sness4 ,!y believ$ %e 0 9 ! agony4 ,!y all came r\nd h] b$--,augu/91 8 bro!r ,navigius1 ,evodius1 ! two c\s9s f ,?aga/e1 ,ru/icus1 & ,la/idianus4 ,b sudd5ly %e %udd]$1 rais$ h]self1 & ask$ 9 a bewild]$ way3 ,:]e 0 ,i8 ,!n1 see+ ! grief on _! faces1 %e knew t %e 0 lo/1 & %e said 9 a /eady voice3 ,y w bury y\r "m "h4 ,navigius1 fright5$ by ?is sight ( dea?1 prote/$ ) all 8 affection = h]3 ,no4 ,y w get well1 "m4 ,y w come home aga94 ,y won't die 9 a =eign l&4 ,%e look$ at him ) sorr[ful eyes1 z if hurt t he spoke s little l a ,*ri/ian1 & turn+ to ,augu/93 ,see h[ he talks1 %e said4 ,& aft] a sil5ce1 %e w5t on 9 a firm] voice1 z if to impress on h] sons h] f9al wi%es3 ,lay ?is body :]e y w1 & be n anxi\s ab\t x4 ,only ,i besee* y1 rememb] me at ! alt> ( ,god1 :]ev] y are4 ,t 0 ! supreme r5unciation4 ,h[ c\ld an ,african woman1 s mu* atta*$ to h] c\ntry1 agree to be buri$ 9 a /rang] soil8 ,pagan notions 7 /ill v /rong 9 ?is community1 & ! place ( burial 0 an important consid]ation4 ,monnica1 l all o!r wid[s1 _h settl$ ^u h]s4 ,at ,?aga/e %e _h _h h] place prep>$ beside h] husb& ,patricius4 ,& "h n[ %e appe>$ to give t up4 ,augu/9's companions 7 a/oni%$ at su* abnegation4 ,z = himself1 he m>vell$ at ! complet5ess ( ! *ange work$ 9 8 "m's s\l by ,grace4 ,& z he ?\ght ov] all ! virtues ( h] life1 ! /r5g? ( h] fai?--f t mom5t1 he _h no d\bt t %e 0 a sa9t4 ,%e /ill l+]$ = "s "t4 ,f9ally1 on ! n9? day ( h] illness1 %e di$ at ! age ( fifty-six4 ,augu/9 clos$ h] eyes4 ,a great sorr[ surg$ into 8 he>t4 ,& yet he :o 0 s quick to te>s _h ! c\rage n to cry4444 ,sudd5ly a noise ( weep+ rose 9 ! room ( dea?3 x 0 ! "y ,adeodatus1 :o lam5t$ at ! sight ( ! corpse4 ,he sobb$ 9 su* a he>tbrok5 way t ^? :o 7 !re1 demoraliz$ by ! di/ress ( x1 7 oblig$ to rebuke him4 ,?is /ruck ,augu/9 s deeply1 t _m ye>s aft]w>ds ! brok5 s\nd ( ?is sobb+ /ill haunt$ 8 e>s4 ,me?\ght1 he says1 t x 0 my own *ildi% s\l :i* ?us broke out 9 ! weep+ ( my son4 ,z = him1 ) ! :ole ef=t ( 8 reason /ruggl+ aga9/ 8 he>t1 he only want$ to ?9k ( ! glory :i* ! sa9t _h j ent]$ into4 ,8 companions felt likewise4 ,evodius caught up a psalt]1 & be=e ,monnica's body1 n yet cold1 he began to *ant ! ,psalm1 ,my song %all be ( m]cy & judgm5t2 unto ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 w ,i s+4 ,all :o 7 9 ! h\se took up ! responses4 ,9 ! meantime1 :ile ! lay]s-out 7 prep>+ ! corpse = burial1 ! bre?r5 drew ,augu/9 into ano!r room4 ,8 fri5ds & relations /ood r\nd him4 ,he consol$ ! o!rs & himself4 ,he spoke1 z ! cu/om 01 ^u ! deliv]ance ( ! fai?ful s\l & ! happ9ess :i* is promis$4 ,!y might h imag9$ t he _h no s5se ( grief1 ,b 9 ,?y he>+1 ,o my ,god1 :]e none ( !m c\ld he>1 ,i 0 *id+ ! s(tness ( my he>t1 & hold+ back ! tide ( sorr[4444 ,alas6 well did ,i "k :at ,i 0 *ok+ d[n 9 my he>t4 ,n ev5 at ! *ur*1 :]e ! sacrifice 0 (f]$ = ,monnica's s\l1 nor at ! cemet]y be=e ! c(f91 did he weep4 ,f a s5se ( ,*ri/ian seeml9ess1 he fe>$ to sc&alize 8 bre?r5 by imitat+ ! desolation ( ! pagans & ( ^? :o die )\t hope4 ,b ?is v ef=t t he made to keep back 8 te>s became ano!r cause ( suff]+4 ,! day end$ 9 a black sadness1 a sadness he c\ld n %ake (f4 ,x /ifl$ him4 ,!n he rememb]$ ! ,greek prov]b--,! ba? drives away sorr[2 & he det]m9$ to g & ba!4 ,he w5t into ! tepid>ium & /ret*$ himself out on ! hot slab4 ,useless rem$y6 ,! bitt]ness ( my tr\ble 0 n c>ri$ f my he>t ) ! sweat t fl[$ f my limbs4 ,! att5dants roll$ him 9 w>m t[els & l$ him to ! re/+-c\*4 ,worn out by tir$ness & s _m emotions1 he fell into a heavy sleep4 ,! next day1 ^u awak+1 a fre% briskness 0 9 all 8 be+4 ,"s v]ses came s++ into 8 memory2 !y 7 ! fir/ words ( ! confid5t & joy\s hymn ( ,/4 ,ambrose3 ,creator ( ! e>? & sky1 ,rul+ ! firmam5t on high1 ,clo?+ ! day ) robes ( light1 ,bless+ ) graci\s sleep ! night1-- ,t re/ may com=t we>y m5 ,to face _! usual toil aga91 ,& soo! a:ile ! h>ass$ m9d1 ,& sorr['s heavy load unb9d4 ,sudd5ly1 at ! ^w sorr[1 ! ?\ght ( 8 dead "m came back to him1 ) ! regret = t k9d he>t he _h lo/4 ,a wave ( despair ov]:elm$ him4 ,he flung himself sobb+ on ! b$1 & at la/ wept all ! te>s he _h p5t up s long4 ,,iii ,,! ,,monk ,,( ,,?aga/e ,almo/ a ye> w5t by be=e ,augu/9 cont9u$ 8 j\rney4 ,x is h>d to acc\nt = ?is delay4 ,:y %\ld he ?us put (f 8 return to ,africa1 he :o 0 s anxi\s to fly ! _w8 ,x is likely t ,monnica's illness1 ! arrangem5ts ab\t h] fun]al1 & o!r matt]s to settle1 kept him at ,o/ia till ! beg9n+ ( w9t]4 ,! wea!r became /ormy1 ! sea dang]\s4 ,navigation 0 regul>ly int]rupt$ f ,novemb]--sometimes ev5 e>li]1 f ! fir/ days ( ,octob]1 if ! tempe/s & ! equ9ox 7 exceptionally viol5t4 ,x w\ld !n be necess>y to wait till spr+4 ,besides1 ^w came t ! fleet ( ! usurp] ,maximus1 !n at w> ) ,!odosius1 blockad$ ! ,african coa/4 ,travell]s ran ! risk ( be+ captur$ by ! enemy4 ,f all ^! reasons1 ,augu/9 w\ld be prev5t$ f sail+ be=e ! end ( ! foll[+ summ]4 ,9 ! meantime1 he w5t to live 9 ,rome4 ,he employ$ 8 leisure to "w up a case aga9/ ! ,mani*ees1 8 bre?r5 ( ! day be=e4 ,once he _h adopt$ ,ca?olicism1 he mu/ h expect$ passionate attacks f 8 =m] bro!rs 9 religion4 ,to close _! m\?s1 he ga!r$ aga9/ !m an elaborate mass ( docum5ts1 bri/l+ ) ! late/ sc&als4 ,he busi$ himself also ) a ?or\gh /udy ( _! doctr9es1 ! bett] to refute !m3 9 him ! dialectician nev] slept4 ,!n1 :5 he _h an opportunity1 he visit$ ! ,roman mona/]ies1 /udy+ _! rule & organization1 s z to decide on a model = ! conv5t :i* he always int5d$ to e/abli% 9 8 own c\ntry4 ,at la/1 he w5t back to ,o/ia "s "t 9 ,augu/ or ,septemb]1 #chh1 :]e he f\nd a %ip b\nd = ,c>?age4 ,f\r ye>s e>li]1 ab\t ! same "t ( ye>1 he _h made ! same voyage1 com+ ! opposite way4 ,he _h a calm cross+2 h>dly c\ld "o notice ! movem5t ( ! %ip4 ,x is ! season ( smoo? seas 9 ! ,m$it]ranean4 ,nev] is x m e!rial ?an 9 ^! summ] mon?s4 ,! vague blue sky is confus$ ) ! blea*$ sea1 spread out 9 a l>ge %eet )\t creases--liquid & flexible silk1 swept by quiv]+ amb] gl[ & orange saffron :5 ! sun falls4 ,no di/9ct %ape1 only /range suffusions ( s(t light1 a pe>l-l haze1 ! wi/ful blue rea*+ away indef9ably4 ,at ,c>?age1 ,augu/9 _h gr[n us$ to ! magnific5ce ( ?is pageantry ( ! sea4 ,n[1 ! sea _h ! same appeas$ & gleam+ face he _h se5 f\r ye>s soon]4 ,b h[ mu* 8 s\l _h s9ce be5 *ang$6 ,in/ead ( ! tumult & falsehood :i* r5t 8 he>t & fill$ x ) d>kness1 ! s]5e light ( ,tru?1 & deep] ?an ! sea's peace1 ! great appeasem5t ( ,grace4 ,augu/9 dream$4 ,f> (f ! olian isles 7 gloom$ 9 ! imp5d+ %ad[s1 ! smoky crat] ( ,/romboli 0 no m ?an a black po9t circl$ by ! d\ble blue ( waves & sky4 ,s ! remembrance ( 8 passions1 ( all t e>li] life1 sank "u ! triumphant upris+ ( heav5ly peace4 ,he believ$ t ?is blissful /ate 0 go+ to cont9ue & fill all ! h\rs ( 8 new life1 & he knew ( no?+ s sweet4444 ,?is "t1 aga91 he 0 mi/ak5 ab\t himself4 ,^u ! ?9 plank ( ! boat :i* c>ri$ him1 he did n feel ! =ce ( ! imm5se elem5t1 asleep n[ "u 8 feet1 b quick to be un*a9$ at ! fir/ gu/ ( w9d2 & he did n feel ei!r ! ov]fl[+ en]gy swell+ 8 he>t r5ew$ by ,grace--an en]gy :i* 0 go+ to set 9 motion "o ( ! mo/ complete & /r5u\s exi/5ces1 "o ( ! ri*e/ 9 ?\ght1 *>ity1 & works :i* h enlight5$ hi/ory4 ,?9k+ only ( ! cloi/]1 amid/ ! fri5ds :o surr\nd$ him1 no d\bt he repeat$ ! words ( ! ,psalm3 ,behold1 h[ good & h[ pleasant x is = bre?r5 to dwell toge!r 9 unity4 ,he press$ ! h&s ( ,alypius & ,evodius1 & te>s came to 8 eyes4 ,! sun 0 gone4 ,all ! cold wa/e ( wat]s1 =sak5 by ! gleam1 blurr$ gradually 9 vague angui% b5ea? ! fall ( night4 99 99 99 99 99 ,aft] skirt+ ! ,sicilian coa/s1 !y arriv$ at la/ at ,c>?age4 ,augu/9 did n l+] !re2 he 0 eag] to see ,?aga/e once m1 & to retire f9ally f ! _w4 ,fav\rable om5s drew him to ! place1 & seem$ to he>t5 him 9 8 resolution4 ,a dream _h =etold 8 return to 8 =m] pupil1 ,elogius1 ! rhetorician4 ,he 0 pres5t1 too1 at ! miracul\s cure ( a ,c>?age lawy]1 ,innoc5tius1 9 ^: h\se he dwelt ) 8 fri5ds4 ,accord+ly1 he left = ,?aga/e z soon z he c\ld4 ,!re he made himself popul> at once by giv+ to ! poor1 z ! ,gospel prescrib$1 :at little rema9$ ( 8 fa!r's h]itage4 ,b he does n make cle> en\gh :at ?is volunt>y privation exactly meant4 ,he speaks ( a h\se & "s little mead[s--paucis agellulis--t he seque/rat$4 ,/ill1 he did n cease to live 9 ! h\se all ! "t he 0 at ,?aga/e4 ,! probability is t he did sell ! few acres ( l& he /ill own$ & be/[$ ! product ( ! sale on ! poor4 ,z to ! h\se1 he mu/ h made x ov] ) ! outbuild+s to ! ,ca?olic body ( 8 native t[n1 on condition ( keep+ ! usufruct & ( receiv+ = himself & 8 bre?r5 ! necessities ( life4 ,at ?is p]iod _m pi\s p]sons act$ 9 ?is way :5 !y gave _! prop]ty to ! ,*ur*4 ,*ur* goods be+ unseizable1 & exempt f taxation1 ?is 0 a r\ndab\t way ( gett+ ! bett] ( fiscal extortion1 :e!r 9 ! %ape ( arbitr>y confiscations1 or eviction by =ce ( arms4 ,9 any case1 su* s\ls z 7 tir$ ( ! _w & long+ = repose1 f\nd 9 ^! beque/s an h]oic me?od ( sav+ !mselves ! tr\ble ( look+ aft] a =tune or a l&$ e/ate4 ,:5 ^! =tunes & l&s 7 ext5sive1 ! g5]\s donors felt1 we are told1 an actual relief 9 gett+ rid ( !m4 ,?is f9ancial "q settl$1 ,augu/9 took up ! task ( turn+ ! h\se into a mona/]y1 l ^? he _h se5 at ,rome & ,milan4 ,8 son ,adeodatus1 8 fri5ds ,alypius & ,evodius1 ,sev]us1 :o became ,bi%op ( ,milevia1 %>$ 8 solitude4 ,b x is c]ta9 t he _h o!r solit>ies ) him :om he alludes to 9 8 lett]s4 ,_! rule 0 z yet a little easy1 no d\bt4 ,! bro!rs ( ,?aga/e 7 n conf9$ 9 a cloi/]4 ,!y 7 simply oblig$ to fa/s1 to a special diet1 to pray]s & m$itations 9 common4 ,9 ?is half-ru/ic retreat 7! mona/]y 0 situat$ at ! gates ( ! t[n7 ,augu/9 0 happy3 he _h at la/ realiz$ ! project he _h _h s long at he>t4 ,to ent] into himself1 pray1 above all1 to /udy ! ,scripture1 to fa?om ev5 its mo/ obscure places1 to comm5t x ) ! f]v\r & piety :i* ! ,african ( all times has br\ght to :at is writt5 d[n--x seem$ to him t he _h en\gh !re to fill all ! m9utes ( 8 life4 ,b no man c tea*1 lecture1 discuss1 write1 dur+ tw5ty ye>s1 9 va94 ,h[ev] mu* ,augu/9 might be conv]t$1 he rememb]$ ! s*ool at ,?aga/e1 j z he did at ,cassicium4 ,/ill1 x 0 necess>y to f9i% ) ?is sort ( ?+ once = all4 ,! new monk made :at may be call$ 8 w z a pr(essor4 ,he f9i%$1 at ?is "t1 or revis$ 8 s*ool treatises1 :i* he _h begun at ,milan1 compris+ all ! lib]al arts--gramm>1 dialectic1 rhetoric1 geometry1 ari?metic1 philosophy1 music4 ,( all ^! books he only f9i%$ ! fir/1 ! treatise on gramm>4 ,! o!rs 7 only summ>ies1 & are n[ lo/4 ,on ! o!r h&1 we h /ill ! six books on music1 likewise begun at ,milan1 :i* he f9i%$1 almo/ z an amusem5t1 at ,?aga/e4 ,!y are dialogues betwe5 himself & 8 pupil1 ! poet ,lic5tius1 ^u metre & scansion4 ,b we "k f himself t he int5d$ to make ?is book long]1 & to write a second "p ^u melody1 t is to say1 music1 prop]ly s call$4 ,he nev] f\nd ! "t3 ,once1 he says1 ! bur!n ( ecclesia/ical affairs 0 plac$ on my %\ld]s1 all ^! pleasant ?+s slipp$ f my h&s4 ,?us1 ! monk ,augu/9 only re/s f pray] & m$itation to /udy music & poetry4 ,he has ?\ght x necess>y to excuse himself4 ,9 all t1 says he1 ,i _h b "o purpose4 ,=1 z ,i did n wi% to pluck away too sudd5ly ei!r "y m51 or ^? ( ano!r age1 on :om ,god _h be/[$ good wits1 f ideas ( ! s5ses & c>nal lit]ature1 ?+s x is v h>d = !m n to be atta*$ to1 ,i h tri$ by reason+ lessons to turn !m little by little1 & by ! love ( un*ang+ tru?1 to atta* !m to ,god1 sole ma/] ( all ?+s4444 ,he :o reads ^! books w see t if ,i h t\*$ ^u ! poets & gramm>ians1 'twas m by ! exig5cy ( ! j\rney ?an by any desire to settle among !m4444 ,su* is ! life ,i h *os5 to walk ) ! feeble1 n be+ v /rong myself1 r ?an to hurl myself out on ! void ) w+s /ill half-fl$g$4444 ,"h aga91 h[ human all t is1 & wise--yes1 & mode/ too4 ,augu/9 has no :it ( ! fanatic ab\t him4 ,no /raight] consci5ce ?an 81 or ev5 m p]si/5t 9 uproot+ error4 ,b he kn[s :at man is1 t life "h bel[ is a voyage among o!r m5 weak z himself1 & he fits 9 ) ! ne$s ( ! voyage4 ,oh1 yes1 no d\bt1 = ! ,*ri/ian :o has arriv$ at supreme r5unciation--:at is poetry1 :at is k1 :at is ev]y?+ t is n et]nal8 ,b ?is c>nal lit]ature & sci5ce are s _m /eps ( a height proportionate to our feebl5ess1 to lead u imp]ceptibly to ! conceptual _w4 ,z a prud5t guide ( s\ls1 ,augu/9 did n wi% to make ! asc5t too rapidly4 ,z = music1 he has /ill m indulg5ce = t ?an = any ( ! o!r arts1 = x is by s\nds t we be/ p]ceive ! p[] ( numb]s 9 e v>iety ( movem5t1 & _! /udy ?us leads u gradually to ! close/ & highe/ secrets ( tru?1 & discov]s to ^? :o love & seek x ! div9e ,wisdom & ,provid5ce 9 all ?+s4444 ,he is always com+ back to x--to ?is music he loves s mu*2 he comes back to x 9 spite ( himself4 ,lat]1 9 great sev]ity1 he w reproa* himself = ! pleasure he takes 9 ! liturgical *ants1 b nev]!less ! old in/9ct w rema94 ,he 0 born a musician4 ,he w rema9 "o to 8 la/ gasp4 ,if he did n break completely ) pr(ane art & lett]s at ?is pres5t mom5t ( 8 life1 8 *ief reasons 7 ( a practical ord]4 ,/ill ano!r object may be disc]n$ 9 ^! educational treatises--namely1 to prove to ! pagans t "o may be a ,*ri/ian & yet n be a b>b>ian & ignorant4 ,augu/9's position 9 front ( 8 adv]s>ies is v /rong inde$4 ,none ( !m c attempt to cope ) him ei!r 9 bread? ( k1 or 9 happy v]satility1 or 9 pl5itude ( intellectual gifts4 ,he _h ! entire h]itage ( ! anci5t _w betwe5 8 h&s4 ,well might he say to ! pagans3 ,:at y admire 9 y\r orators & philosoph]s1 ,i h made my own4 ,behold x6 ,on my lips recognize ! acc5t ( y\r orators4444 ,well1 all t1 :i* y deem s high1 ,i despise4 ,! k ( ?is _w is no?+ )\t ! wisdom ( ,*ri/4 ,( c\rse1 ,augu/9 has paid ! price ( ?is all-r\nd k--too f>-rea*+1 p]haps1 at c]ta9 po9ts4 ,he has (t5 too mu* p>ad$ 8 k1 8 dialectic & oratorical tal5ts4 ,:at matt]s t1 if ev5 9 ?is excess he aims solely at ! welf>e ( s\ls--to edify !m & set !m agl[ ) ! fire ( 8 *>ity8 ,at ,?aga/e1 he disputes ) 8 bre?r51 ) 8 son ,adeodatus4 ,he is always ! ma/]--he kn[s x2 b :at humility he puts into ?is dang]\s "p6 ,! conclusion ( 8 book1 ,! ,ma/]1 :i* he wrote !n1 is t all ! words ( him :o tea*es are useless1 if ! hidd5 ,ma/] reveal n ! tru? to him :o li/5s4 ,s1 "u 8 unga9ly monk's habit1 he cont9ues 8 pr(ession ( rhetorician4 ,he has come to ,?aga/e ) ! int5tion ( retir+ f ! _w & liv+ 9 ,god2 & "h he is disput+1 lectur+1 writ+ m ?an ev]4 ,! _w pursues him & occupies him ev5 9 8 retreat4 ,he says to himself t d[n !re at ,rome1 at ,c>?age1 at ,hippo1 !re are m5 speak+ 9 ! =ums or 9 ! basilicas1 :isp]+ 9 secret meet+s1 s$uc+ poor s\ls def5celess aga9/ error4 ,^! impo/ors mu/ be imm$iately unmask$1 conf\nd$1 r$uc$ to sil5ce4 ,) all 8 he>t ,augu/9 ?r[s himself into ?is "w at :i* he excels4 ,above all1 he attacks 8 old fri5ds ! ,mani*ees4444 ,he wrote _m tracts aga9/ !m4 ,f ! animosity he put into ^!1 may be judg$ to :at ext5t ,mani*eeism fill$ 8 ?\ghts1 & also ! progress ( ! sect 9 ,africa4 ,?is campaign 0 ev5 ! cause ( a complete *ange 9 8 way ( writ+4 ,) ! object ( rea*+ ! pla9e/ sort ( p1 he began to employ ! popul> language1 n recoil+ be=e a solecism1 :5 ! solecism appe>$ to him indisp5sable to expla9 8 ?\ght4 ,?is mu/ h be5 a cruel mortification = him4 ,9 8 v late/ writ+s he made a po9t ( %ew+ t no elegance ( language 0 unkn[n to him4 ,b 8 real orig9ality is n 9 t4 ,:5 he writes ! f9e /yle1 8 p]iod is heavy1 entangl$1 (t5 obscure4 ,on ! o!r h&1 no?+ is m lively1 cle> & col\r$1 &1 z we say to-day1 m direct1 ?an ! famili> language ( 8 s]mons & c]ta9 ( 8 treatises4 ,?is language he has really creat$4 ,he want$ to cl>ify1 comm5t1 give details1 & he felt h[ awkw>d classical ,lat9 is to decompose ideas & r5d] %ades4 ,& s1 9 a popul> ,lat91 already v close to ! ,romance languages1 he has ?r[n out ! plan ( analytical prose1 ! in/rum5t ( ?\ght ( ! mod]n ,we/4 ,n only did he battle aga9/ ! h]etics1 b 8 re/less fri5d%ip cont9ually scal$ ! walls ( 8 cell to fly to ! abs5t ones de> to 8 he>t4 ,he feels t he mu/ exp& to 8 fri5ds1 & make !m %>]s 9 8 m$itations3 ?is n]v\s man1 9 poor heal?1 sp5ds a "p ( 8 nights m$itat+4 ,! argum5t he has hit ^u 9 la/ night's insomnia--8 fri5ds mu/ be told t6 ,he heaps 8 lett]s on !m4 ,he writes to ,nebridius1 to ,romanianus1 to ,paul9us ( ,nola2 to p unkn[n & celebrat$1 9 ,africa1 ,italy1 ,spa91 & ,pale/9e4 ,a "t w come :5 8 lett]s w be real encyclicals1 read ?r\gh\t ,*ri/5dom4 ,he writes s mu* t he is (t5 %ort ( pap]4 ,he has n tablets en\gh to put d[n 8 notes4 ,he asks ,romanianus to give him "s4 ,8 beautiful tablets1 ! ivory ones1 are us$ up2 he has us$ ! la/ "o = a c]emonial lett]1 & he asks 8 fri5d's p>don = writ+ to him on a wret*$ bit ( vellum4 ,besides all t1 he int]e/s himself 9 ! affairs ( 8 fell[-t[nsm54 ,augu/9 is a p]sonage at ,?aga/e4 ,! good folk ( ! free-t[n are well aw>e t he is eloqu5t1 t he has a f>-rea*+ acqua9tance1 & t he has great influ5ce 9 high qu>t]s4 ,!y ask = 8 protection & 8 int]f]5ce4 ,x is ev5 possible t !y oblig$ him to def5d !m 9 ! c\rts4 ,!y 7 pr\d ( _! ,augu/94 ,& z !y 7 afraid t "s neighb\r+ t[n might /eal away _! great man1 !y kept a gu>d r\nd 8 h\se4 ,!y prev5t$ him f %ew+ himself too mu* 9 ! neighb\rhood4 ,augu/9 himself agre$ ) ?is1 & liv$ retir$ z f> z he c\ld1 = he 0 afraid !y w\ld make him a bi%op or prie/ 9 spite ( himself4 ,9 ^? days t 0 a dang] incurr$ by all ,*ri/ians :o 7 ri* or _h tal5t4 ,! ri* gave _! goods to ! poor :5 !y took ord]s4 ,! m5 ( tal5t def5d$ ! int]e/s ( ! community1 or attract$ opul5t b5efactors4 ,& because ( all ^! reasons1 ! ne$y or badly manag$ *ur*es /alk$ z a prey ! celebrat$ ,augu/94 ,9 spite ( ?is sup]vision1 ?is unremitt+ ru% ( bus9ess1 ! "w ( all k9ds :i* he und]took1 he exp]i5c$ at ,?aga/e a peace :i* he 0 nev] to f9d aga94 ,"o might say t he pauses & ga!rs toge!r all 8 /r5g? be=e ! great exhau/+ lab\r ( 8 apo/olate4 ,9 ?is ,numidian c\ntry1 s v]dant & cool1 :]e a ?\s& memories ( *ildhood encompass$ him1 :]e he 0 n able to take a /ep )\t enc\nt]+ ! ev]-liv+ image ( 8 "m1 he so>$ t[>ds ,god ) m confid5ce4 ,he :o s\ght 9 ! ?+s ( s5se ladd]-rungs :]eby to m\nt to spiritual realities1 /ill turn$ k9dly eyes on ! natural sc5e4 ,f ! w9d[s ( 8 room he saw ! =e/ p9es r\nd+ _! heads1 l little cry/al goblets ) /ems slim & ?94 ,8 sc>r$ *e/ brea!d 9 deliri\sly ! res9\s brea? ( ! f9e trees4 ,he li/5$ l a musician to ! or*e/ra ( birds4 ,! *ang+ sc5es ( c\ntry life always attract$ him4 ,x is n[ t he wrote3 ,tell me1 does n ! night+ale seem to y to modulate h] voice delightfully8 ,is n h] song1 s h>moni\s1 s suave1 s well attun$ to ! season1 ! v voice ( ! spr+8444 ,,iv ,,augu/9 ,a ,,prie/ ,?is halt did n la/ long4 ,soon 0 go+ to beg9 = ,augu/9 ! "t ( tribulation1 t ( 8 /ruggles & apo/olic j\rneys4 ,& fir/1 he mu/ m\rn 8 son ,adeodatus1 t "y man :o seem$ de/9$ to su* great ?+s4 ,x is inde$ mo/ probable t ! "y monk di$ at ,?aga/e dur+ ! ?ree ye>s t 8 fa!r sp5t !re4 ,augu/9 0 deeply griev$2 b1 z 9 ! case ( 8 "m's dea?1 he ma/]$ 8 sorr[ by all ! =ce ( 8 ,*ri/ian hope4 ,no d\bt he lov$ 8 son z mu* z he 0 pr\d ( him4 ,x w be rememb]$ :at words he us$ to speak ( ?is y\?ful g5ius1 ^: precocity fright5$ him4 ,little by little 8 grief quiet5$ d[n1 & 9 its place came a mild resignation4 ,"s ye>s lat] he w write ab\t ,adeodatus3 ,"l1 e>ly did/ ,?\ cut (f 8 life f ?is e>?1 b ,i rememb] him )\t a %ad[ ( misgiv+4 ,my remembrance is n mix$ ) any fe> = 8 boyhood1 or ! y\? he 01 or ! man he w\ld h be54 ,no fe>6 ,:at a diff]5ce betwe5 ?is & ! habitual feel+s ( ! ,jans5i/s1 :o believ$ !mselves 8 disciples6 ,:ile ,augu/9 ?9ks ( 8 son's dea? ) a calm & grave joy :i* he c sc>ce hide1 ^? ( ,port ,royal c\ld only ?9k 9 trembl+ ( ! judgm5t ( ,god4 ,_! fai? did n mu* resemble ! lum9\s & confid5t fai? ( ,augu/94 ,= him1 salvation is ! conque/ ( joy4 ,at ,?aga/e he liv$ 9 joy4 ,e morn+ 9 awak+ be=e ! =e/ p9es1 gli/5+ ) ! dews ( ! morn+1 he might well say ) a full he>t3 ,my ,god1 give me ! grace to live "h "u ! %ades ( ,?y peace1 :ile await+ t ( ,?y ,p>adise4 ,b ! ,*ri/ians cont9u$ to wat* him4 ,x 0 to ! int]e/ ( a numb] ( p t ?is light %\ld n be hid "u a bu%el4 ,p]haps a sn>e 0 delib]ately laid = him4 ,at any rate1 he 0 imprud5t en\gh to come out ( 8 retreat & travel to ,hippo4 ,he ?\ght he might be safe !re1 because1 z ! t[n _h a bi%op already1 !y w\ld n h any excuse to get him consecrat$ 9 spite ( himself4 ,an inhabitant ( ,hippo1 a cl]k ( ! ,imp]ial ,m9i/ry ( ! ,int]ior1 begg$ 8 spiritual assi/ance4 ,d\bts1 he ma9ta9$1 /ill delay$ him on ! way to an entire conv]sion4 ,augu/9 alone c\ld help him to get cle> ( !m4 ,s ,augu/91 c\nt+ already on a new recruit = ! ,?aga/e mona/]y1 w5t ov] !re at ! reque/ ( ?is (ficial4 ,n[1 if !re 0 a bi%op at ,hippo 7a c]ta9 ,val]ius71 prie/s 7 lack+4 ,fur!rmore1 ,val]ius 0 gett+ on 9 ye>s4 ,orig9ally ,greek1 he knew ,lat9 badly1 & n a ^w ( ,punic--a great h9drance = him 9 8 duties ( judge1 adm9i/rator1 & cate*i/4 ,! k ( ! two languages 0 indisp5sable to an ecclesia/ic 9 su* a c\ntry1 :]e ! majority ( ! rural population spoke only ! old ,c>?ag9ian idiom4 ,all ?is proves to u t ,ca?olicism 0 9 bad %ape 9 ! diocese ( ,hippo4 ,n only 0 !re a lack ( prie/s1 b ! bi%op 0 a =eign]1 little famili> ) ,african cu/oms4 ,!re 0 a g5]al dem& = a native to take 8 place--"o "y1 active1 & well en\gh furni%$ ) le>n+ to hold 8 own aga9/ ! h]etics & ! s*ismatics ( ! p>ty ( ,donatus1 & also suffici5tly able to wat* ov] ! int]e/s ( ! ,*ur* at ,hippo1 & above all1 to make x prosp]\s4 ,let u n =get t at ?is "t1 9 ! eyes ( a cr[d ( poor wret*es1 ,*ri/ianity 0 fir/ & =emo/ ! religion :i* gave out bread4 ,ev5 9 ^? e>ly days1 ! ,*ur* did its be/ to solve ! et]nal social "q4 ,:ile ,augu/9 0 at ,hippo1 ,val]ius prea*$ a s]mon 9 ! basilica 9 :i*1 precisely1 he deplor$ ?is lack ( prie/s ! community suff]$ f4 ,m+l$ ) ! congregation1 ,augu/9 li/5$1 sure t he w\ld be unrecogniz$4 ,b ! secret ( 8 pres5ce _h leak$ out4 ,p po9t$ to him :ile ! bi%op 0 prea*+4 ,! next ?+ 0 t "s furi\s en?usia/s seiz$ hold ( him & dragg$ him to ! foot ( ! episcopal *air1 yell+3 ,augu/9 a prie/6 ,augu/9 a prie/6 ,su* 7 ! democratic ways ( ! ,*ur* 9 ^? days4 ,! inconv5i5ces are pla9 en\gh4 ,:at is c]ta9 is1 t if ,augu/9 _h resi/$1 he might h lo/ 8 life1 & t ! bi%op w\ld h provok$ a riot 9 refus+ him ! prie/hood4 ,9 ,africa1 religi\s passions are n to be trifl$ )1 especially :5 !y are exasp]at$ by que/ions ( pr(it or politics4 ,9 8 he>t1 ! bi%op 0 delight$ ) ?is brutal capture :i* ga9$ him ! di/9ction ( su* a well-kn[n fell[-work]4 ,!re & !n he orda9$ ! ,?aga/e monk4 ,& s1 z ,augu/9's pupil1 ,possidius1 ! future ,bi%op ( ,guelma1 puts x1 ,?is %9+ lamp1 :i* s\ght ! d>kness ( solitude1 0 plac$ ^u ! lamp-/&444 ,augu/91 :o saw ! f+] ( ,god 9 ?is adv5ture1 submitt$ to ! popul> w4 ,nev]!less1 he 0 9 despair1 & he wept at ! *ange !y 7 =c+ on him4 ,!n1 "s ( ^? pres5t1 mi/ak+ ! significance ( 8 te>s1 said to console him3 ,yes1 y are "r4 ,! prie/hood is n good en\gh = y\r m]its4 ,b y may be c]ta9 t y w be our bi%op4 ,augu/9 well knew all t ! cr[d meant by t1 & :at x expect$ ( its bi%op4 ,he :o only ?\ght ( leav+ ! _w1 grew fright5$ at ! practical c>es he w\ld h to take ov]4 ,& ! spiritual side ( 8 jurisdiction fright5$ him no less4 ,to speak ( ,god6 ,proclaim ! ^w ( ,god6 ,he deem$ himself unwor?y ( s high a privilege4 ,he 0 s ill-prep>$6 ,to rem$y ?is fault ( prep>ation1 z well z he c\ld1 he desir$ t he might be giv5 a little leisure till ! foll[+ ,ea/]4 ,9 a lett] address$ to ,val]ius1 & no d\bt int5d$ to be made public1 he humbly set =? ! reasons :y he ask$ = delay4 ,!y 7 s apposite & s cr$itable1 t v likely ! bi%op yield$4 ,! new prie/ receiv$ p]mission to retire to a c\ntry h\se ne> ,hippo4 ,8 flock1 :o did n feel at all sure ( _! %eph]d1 w\ld n h let him g too f> (f4 ,he took up 8 duties z soon z possible4 ,little by little he became1 to all int5ts1 ! coadjutor ( ! bi%op1 :o *>g$ him ) ! prea*+ & ! baptism ( cate*um5s4 ,^! 7 ! two mo/ important among ! episcopal pr]ogatives4 ,! bi%ops made a po9t ( do+ ^! ?+s !mselves4 ,c]ta9 colleagues ( ,val]ius ev5 grew sc&aliz$ t he %\ld all[ a simple prie/ to prea* be=e him 9 8 own *ur*4 ,b soon o!r bi%ops1 /ruck by ! advantages ( ?is innovation1 foll[$ ! example ( ,val]ius1 & all[$ _! cl]ks to prea* ev5 9 _! pres5ce4 ,! prie/ ( ,hippo did n lose 8 head among s _m hon\rs4 ,he felt *iefly ! p]ils ( !m1 & he reg>d$ !m z a trial s5t by ,god4 ,i h be5 =c$ into ?is1 he said1 d\btless 9 puni%m5t ( my s9s2 = f :at o!r motive c ,i ?9k t ! second place at ! helm %\ld be giv5 to me--to me :o d n ev5 "k h[ to hold an o>4444 ,mean:ile1 he _h n rel9qui%$ 8 purpose ( mona/ic life4 ,?\gh a prie/1 he meant to rema9 a monk4 ,x 0 he>t-break+ = him to be oblig$ to leave 8 mona/]y at ,?aga/e4 ,he spoke ( 8 regret to ,val]ius1 :o1 p]ceiv+ ! usefulness ( a conv5t z a sem9>y = future prie/s1 gave him an or*>d belong+ to ! *ur* ( ,hippo1 t he might f\nd a new community !re4 ,s 0 e/abli%$ ! mona/]y :i* 0 go+ to supply a great numb] ( cl]ks & bi%ops to all ! ,african prov9ces4 ,among ! ru9s ( ,hippo1 t old ,roman & ,pho5ician city1 !y se>* = ! place :]e ,augu/9's mona/]y /ood1 )\t mu* hope ( ev] f9d+ x4 ,"s h ?\ght to locate x ^u t hill :]e ! wat] br\ght f ! ne> m\nta9s by an aqu$uct us$ to p\r into imm5se res]voirs1 & :]e to-day rises a new basilica :i* attracts all eyes out at sea4 ,beh9d ! basilica is a conv5t :]e ! ,little ,si/]s ( ! ,poor lodge ab\t a hundr$ old p4 ,s is ma9ta9$ among ! ,african ,mussulmans ! remembrance ( ! gr& ,*ri/ian m>ab\t4 ,"o might possibly wi% to see !re a build+ m 9 ! pure & quiet ta/e ( antiquity4 ,b aft] all1 ! piety ( ! int5tion is en\gh4 ,?is hospital s]ves admirably to call up ! memory ( ! illu/ri\s bi%op :o 0 *>ity itself4 ,z = ! basilica1 ,africa has done all %e c to make x wor?y ( him4 ,%e has giv5 h] mo/ preci\s m>bles1 & "o ( h] faire/ l&scapes z a frame4 ,x is *iefly 9 ! ev5+1 9 ! clos+ dusk1 t ?is l&scape reveals all its special *>m & its f9] values4 ,! roseate gl[ ( ! sett+ sun ?r[s into %>p relief ! black pr(ile ( ! m\nta9s1 :i* comm& ! ,seyb\se valley4 ,"u ! mu/]+ %ad[s1 ! pallid riv] w9ds sl[ly to ! sea4 ,! gulf1 /ret*+ limitless1 %9es l a slab ( salt /rangely bespangl$4 ,9 ?is atmosph]e )\t mi/s1 ! %>p outl9es ( ! coa/1 ! d5se movelessness ( ! aspect1 has an indescribable effect4 ,x is l a hi!rto unkn[n & virg9al revelation ( ! e>?4 ,!n ! />s bloom out1 ) a flame1 an halluc9at+ palpability4 ,*>les's ,wa91 burn+ l[ on ! gorges ( ! ,ed\gh1 seems l a gold5 waggon roll+ ?r\gh ! fields ( ,heav54 ,a deep peace settles ^u f>ml& & mead[ c\ntry1 only brok5 by a wat*-dog's b>k n[ & !n4444 ,b x matt]s n :i* spot is *os5 9 ! surr\nd+s ( ,hippo to place ,augu/9's mona/]y1 ! view w be equally beautiful4 ,f all p>ts ( ! pla91 m\nd$ by heaps ( ru9s1 ! sea c be se5--a wide bay circl$ 9 s(t bl& curves1 l at ,naples4 ,all ar\nd1 an ar5a ( m\nta9s--! gre5 rav9es ( ! ,ed\gh & its wood$ slopes4 ,along ! surbas$ roads rise ! great sonor\s p9es1 & ?r\gh !m w&]s ! olian compla9t ( ! sea-w9ds4 ,blue ( ! sea1 blue ( ! sky1 noble foliage ( ,italy's anci5t groves--x is "o ( ,lam>t9e's l&scapes "u a m burn+ sun4 ,! gaiety ( ! morn+s !re is a physical luxury = he>t & eyes1 :5 ! new-born light laughs ^u ! pa9t$ cupolas ( ! h\ses1 & d>k blue veils float betwe5 ! walls1 gl>+ :ite1 ( ! /eep /reets4 ,among ! olives & orange-trees ( ,hippo1 ,augu/9 mu/ h se5 happy days pass by1 z at ,?aga/e4 ,! rule he _h giv5 ! conv5t1 :i* he himself obey$ l any "o else1 0 nei!r too slack nor too /rict--9 a ^w1 su* z x %\ld be = m5 :o h liv$ 9 ! culture ( lett]s & works ( ! m9d4 ,!re 0 no affectation ( excessive au/]ity4 ,augu/9 & 8 monks wore v simple clo!s & %oes1 b suitable = a bi%op & 8 cl]ks4 ,l laym51 !y wore ! byrrhus1 a g>m5t ) a hood1 :i* seems v l ! ance/or ( ! ,arab burn\s4 ,to keep an ev5 l9e betwe5 da9t9ess & neglig5ce 9 co/ume1 to h no exagg]ation 9 any?+1 is :at ,augu/9 aim$ at4 ,! poet ,rutilius ,numatianus1 :o ab\t t "t 0 attack+ ! sordid & culture-hat+ monks ) sombre irony1 w\ld h _h a *ance to admire a re/ra9t & decorum 9 ! ,hippo mona/]y :i* recall$ :at 0 be/ 9 ! mann]s ( ! anci5t _w4 ,at table1 a l mod]ation4 ,vegetables 7 g5]ally provid$1 & sometimes meat :5 any "o 0 sick1 or gue/s arriv$4 ,!y drank a little w9e1 contr>y to ! regulations ( ,/4 ,j]ome1 :o condemn$ w9e z a dr9k = devils4 ,:5 a monk infr+$ ! rule1 8 %>e ( ! w9e 0 /opp$4 ,?r\gh "s rema9s ( fa/idi\s habits 9 ,augu/91 or p]haps because he _h no?+ else1 ! table s]vice he us$ himself 0 silv]4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! pots & di%es 7 ( e>!nw>e1 or wood1 or common alaba/]4 ,augu/91 :o 0 v temp]ate 9 eat+ & dr9k+1 seem$ at table to pay att5tion only to :at 0 be+ read or talk$ ab\t4 ,he c>$ v little :at he ate1 provid$ ! food 0 n a /imulant to lubricity4 ,he us$ to say to ^? ,*ri/ians :o p>ad$ a ,ph>isaic sev]ity3 ,x is ! pure he>t :i* makes pure food4 ,!n1 ) 8 con/ant desire = *>ity1 he prohibit$ all spiteful gossip 9 ! conv]sation 9 ! refectory4 ,9 ^? times ( religi\s /ruggle1 ! cl]ics f]oci\sly black5$ ea* o!r's *>act]s4 ,augu/9 caus$ to h writt5 on ! walls a di/i*1 :i* ran ?us3 ,he :o takes pleasure 9 sl&]+ ! life ( ! abs5t1 ,%\ld "k he is unwor?y to sit at ?is table4 ,"o day1 says ,possidius1 "s ( 8 intimate fri5ds1 ev5 o!r bi%ops1 hav+ =gott5 ?is s5t5ce1 he reproa*$ !m w>mly1 & v mu* p]turb$1 he cri$ out t he 0 go+ to remove ^? v]ses f ! refectory1 or rise f table & )draw to 8 cell4 ,i 0 pres5t ) _m o!rs :5 ?is happ5$4 ,x 0 n only sl&]\s talk or int]ior diss5sions :i* tr\bl$ ,augu/9's peace ( m9d4 ,he comb9$ ! duties ( prie/1 ( a head ( a conv5t1 & ( an apo/le4 ,he _h to prea*1 in/ruct ! cate*um5s1 battle aga9/ ! disaffect$4 ,! t[n ( ,hippo 0 v unruly1 full ( h]etics1 s*ismatics1 pagans4 ,^? ( ! p>ty ( ,donatus 7 triumphant1 driv+ ! ,ca?olics f _! *ur*es & l&s4 ,:5 ,augu/9 came into ! c\ntry1 ,ca?olicism 0 v l[4 ,& !n ! in]adicable ,mani*ees cont9u$ to recruit proselytes4 ,he nev] /opp$ writ+ tracts1 disput+ aga9/ !m1 ov]:elm+ !m "u ! close logic ( 8 argum5ts4 ,at ! reque/ ( ! ,donati/s !mselves1 he _h an argum5t ) "o ( _! prie/s1 a c]ta9 ,=tunatus1 9 ! ba?s ( ,sossius at ,hippo4 ,he r$uc$ ?is man to sil5ce & to flight4 ,n 9 ! lea/ disc\rag$ 7 ! ,mani*ees3 !y s5t ano!r prie/4 ,if ! enemies ( ! ,*ur* %ew$ !mselves /ubborn1 ,augu/9's own congregation 7 s+ul>ly turbul5t1 h>d to manage4 ,! weakness ( old ,val]ius mu/ h all[$ a good _m abuses to creep into ! community4 ,ere long ! prie/ ( ,hippo _h a =eta/e ( ! difficulties :i* await$ him z bi%op4 ,foll[+ ! example ( ,ambrose1 he und]took to aboli% ! cu/om ( fea/s 9 ! basilicas & on ! tombs ( ! m>tyrs4 ,?is 0 a survival ( paganism1 ( :i* ! fe/ivals includ$ glutton\s eat+ & orgies4 ,at e solemnity1 & !y 7 frequ5t1 ! pagans ate 9 ! c\rts & "u ! porticoes ar\nd ! temples4 ,9 ,africa1 above all1 ^! public repa/s gave an opportunity = repugnant sc5es ( /uff+ & drunk5ness4 ,z a rule1 ! ,african is v sob]2 b :5 he does let himself g he is t]rible4 ,?is is q easily se5 to-day1 9 ! great ,muslem fea/s1 :5 ! ri* di/ribute brok5 bits ( meat to ! poor ( _! di/rict4 ,z soon z ^! p1 us$ to dr9k wat] & to eat a little boil$ rice1 h ta/$ meat1 or drunk only "o cup ( w9e1 !re is no hold+ !m3 !re are fights1 /abb+ mat*es1 a g5]al brawl 9 ! hovels4 ,j picture ?is popul> debau* 9 full bla/ 9 ! cemet]ies & ! c\rts ( ! basilicas1 & x w be und]/ood :y ,augu/9 did 8 be/ to put an end to su* sc&als4 ,= ?is purpose1 he jo9$ h&s fir/ ( all ) 8 bi%op1 ,val]ius1 & !n ) ! ,primate ( ,c>?age1 ,aurelius1 :o %all be h5ce=? 8 firme/ support 9 8 /ruggle aga9/ ! s*ismatics4 ,dur+ ,l5t1 ! subject fitt+ 9 naturally ) ! season1 he spoke aga9/ ^! pagan orgies2 & ?is gave rise to a good deal ( discont5t1 outside4 ,ea/] w5t by )\t tr\ble4 ,b ! day aft] ! ,asc5sion1 ! p ( ,hippo 7 us$ to celebrate :at !y call$ ! ,joy-day1 by a traditional good fe$ & dr9k4 ,! day be=e1 :i* 0 ! religi\s fe/ival1 ,augu/9 intrepidly spoke aga9/ ! ,joy-day4 ,!y int]rupt$ ! prea*]4 ,"s ( !m %\t$ t z mu* 0 done at ,rome 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s basilica4 ,at ,c>?age1 !y danc$ r\nd ! tomb ( ,/4 ,cyprian4 ,to ! %rill+ ( flutes1 amid ! dull bl[s ( ! gongs1 mimes gave !mselves up to obsc5e contortions1 :ile ! spectators sang to ! clapp+ ( _! h&s4444 ,augu/9 knew all ab\t t4 ,he decl>$ t ^! abom9ations might h be5 tol]at$ 9 =m] times s z n to disc\rage ! pagans f becom+ conv]ts2 b t h5ce=? ! p1 altoge!r ,*ri/ian1 %\ld give !m up4 ,9 ! end1 he spoke ) su* t\*+ eloqu5ce t ! audi5ce bur/ into te>s4 ,he believ$ he _h won4 ,! next day x 0 all to d ov] aga94 ,agitators _h work$ among ! cr[d to su* an ext5t t a riot 0 fe>$4 ,nev]!less1 ,augu/91 prec$$ by 8 bi%op1 ent]$ ! basilica at ! h\r ( s]vice4 ,at ! same mom5t ! ,donati/s 7 banquet+ 9 _! *ur*1 :i* 0 q ne>4 ,?r\gh ! walls ( _! own *ur* ! ,ca?olics he>d ! noise ( ?is c>\se4 ,x requir$ ! coadjutor's mo/ urg5t remon/rances to keep !m f imitat+ _! neighb\rs4 ,! la/ murmurs di$ d[n1 & ! c]emony end$ ) ! s++ ( ! sacr$ hymns4 ,augu/9 _h c>ri$ ! position4 ,b ! conflict _h got to ! po9t t he _h to ?reat5 ! p ) 8 resignation1 &1 z he wrote to ,alypius1 to %ake out on !m ! du/ f 8 clo!s4 ,all ?is promis$ v ill = ! future4 ,he :o already consid]$ ! prie/hood z a trial1 saw ) t]ror ! bi%opric draw+ ne>4 ,,! ,,fif? ,,"p ,,! ,,apo/le ,,( ,,peace ,,& ,,( ,,ca?olic ,,unity ,dic eis i/a1 ut plor5t 444 et sic eos rape tecum ad ,deum3 quia de spiritu ejus haec dicis eis1 si dicis ard5s igne c>itatis4 ,tell !m ?is1 ,o my s\l1 t !y may weep 444 & ?us c>ry !m up ) ?yself to ,god2 because by ,8 ,_s ?\ saye/ ^! ?+s1 if ,?\ speake/ burn+ ) ! flame ( *>ity4 ,confessions1 ,,iv1 #ab4 ,i ,,! ,,bi%op ,,( ,,hippo ,9 8 mona/]y1 ,augu/9 0 /ill spi$ ^u by ! neighb\r+ ,*ur*es1 :o want$ him = _! bi%op4 ,!y w\ld capture him on ! fir/ opportunity4 ,! old ,val]ius1 fe>+ 8 prie/ w\ld be tak5 unaw>es1 urg$ him to hide himself4 ,b he knew by ! v case ( ,augu/91 =c$ into ! prie/hood 9 spite ( himself1 t ! greate/ precautions are useless aga9/ ^? det]m9$ to ga9 _! ends by any means4 ,x w\ld be safe/ to anticipate ! dang]4 ,he det]m9$ !re=e to %>e ! bi%opric ) ,augu/91 to h him consecrat$ dur+ 8 own lifetime1 & to indicate him z 8 successor4 ,?is 0 aga9/ ! ,african usage1 & :at 0 m1 aga9/ ! ,canons ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,nice--?\gh x is true t ,val]ius1 l ,augu/9 himself1 0 unaw>e ( ?is latt] po9t4 ,b surely ! rule c\ld be waiv$ 9 view ( ! exceptional m]its ( ! prie/ ( ,hippo4 ,! old bi%op began by s\nd+ ,aurelius1 ! ,primate ( ,c>?age1 & :5 he 0 satisfi$ z to ! agreem5t & support ( ?is high p]sonage1 he took ! opportunity ( a religi\s solemnity to make kn[n 8 int5tions to ! p4 ,"s ( ! neighb\r+ bi%ops--,megalius1 ,bi%op ( ,guelma & ,primate ( ,numidia1 among !m--be+ ga!r$ at ,hippo to consecrate a new bi%op1 ,val]ius ann\nc$ publicly 9 ! basilica t he wi%$ ,augu/9 to be consecrat$ at ! same c]emony4 ,?is _h be5 ! wi% ( 8 p = a long "t4 ,really1 9 dem&+ ?is hon\r = 8 prie/1 ! old bi%op did no m ?an foll[ ! wi% ( ! public4 ,imm$iately1 8 words 7 receiv$ ) *e]s4 ,! fai?ful ) l\d %\ts dem&$ ,augu/9's consecration4 ,megalius alone object$4 ,he ev5 made himself ! voice ( c]ta9 calumnies1 s z to h ! c&idate put aside z unwor?y4 ,!re is no?+ a/oni%+ 9 su* an attitude4 ,?is ,megalius 0 old 7he di$ a %ort "t aft]71 &1 l all old m51 he took ! gloomie/ view ( innovations4 ,already1 9 ! face ( settl$ cu/om1 _h ,val]ius grant$ ,augu/9 ! "r to prea* 9 8 pres5ce4 ,& see n[1 by a new s9k+1 he 0 attempt+ to place two bi%ops at once 9 ! see ( ,hippo6 ,:atev] ?is "y prie/'s tal5ts might be1 en\gh1 _h be5 done = him--a rec5t conv]t into ! b>ga91 &1 :at 0 /ill m s]i\s1 a refugee f ! ,mani*eans4 ,:at 0 n relat$ ab\t ! abom9ations committ$ 9 ! my/]ies ( ^? p8 ,j h[ f> _h ,augu/9 dipp$ into !m8 ,!y sn>l$ aga9/ him ev]y:]e at ,hippo1 & at ,c>?age too1 :]e he _h compromis$ himself by 8 excessive zeal2 ,ca?olics & ,donati/s alike gossip$4 ,megalius1 a punctili\s def5d] ( discipl9e & ! hi]>*y1 no d\bt ga!r$ up ^! malevol5t rum\rs ) pleasure4 ,he us$ !m z an excuse = mak+ ,augu/9 m>k "t1 s to speak4 ,commonplace p always feel a secret delight 9 humiliat+ to ! common rule ^? :om !y c feel are be+s ( a diff]5t quality f !mselves4 ,"o ( ! sl&]s set abroad ab\t ,val]ius' prie/1 ,megalius seems to h believ$4 ,he all[$ himself to be p]suad$ t ,augu/9 _h giv5 a philtre to a woman1 "o ( 8 p5it5ts1 :om he wi%$ to possess4 ,x 0 !n ! fa%ion among ! pi\s to ex*ange eulogies1 or bits ( holy bread1 to signify a spiritual communion4 ,augu/9 0 said to h mix$ c]ta9 magic potions ) "s ( ^! breads & (f]$ !m hypocritically to ! woman he 0 9 love )4 ,?is accusation />t$ a big sc&al1 & ! remembrance ( x p]si/$ long1 because five or six ye>s lat] ! ,donati/ ,petilian 0 /ill repeat+ x4 ,augu/9 cle>$ himself victori\sly4 ,megalius av[$ 8 mi/ake4 ,he did bett]3 n only did he apologize to him he _h sl&]$1 b he solemnly ask$ =giv5ess f 8 fell[-bi%ops = hav+ misl$ !m ^u false rum\rs4 ,x is probable t "s "t dur+ ! inquiry he _h got to "k ,val]ius' coadjutor bett]4 ,augu/9's *>m1 tak5 ) ! au/]ity ( 8 life1 act$ ^u ! vex$ old man & alt]$ 8 views4 ,be t s or n1 x 0 at any rate by ,megalius1 ,bi%op ( ,guelma & ,primate ( ,numidia1 t ,augu/9 0 consecrat$ ,bi%op ( ,hippo4 ,he 0 9 con/]nation ov] 8 rise4 ,he has said x aga9 & aga94 ,we may take 8 ^w = x4 ,yet ! hon\rs & advantages ( ! episcopate 7 !n s consid]able t 8 enemies 7 able to describe him z an ambiti\s man4 ,no?+ c\ld agree less ) 8 "*4 ,9 8 he>t1 ,augu/9 only wi%$ to live 9 quiet4 ,s9ce 8 retreat at ,cassicium1 =tune he _h giv5 up1 z well z lit]>y glory4 ,8 sole wi% 0 to live 9 pond]+ ! div9e tru?s1 & to draw ne>] to ,god4 ,videte et gu/ate quam mitis sit ,dom9us--,o ta/e & see t ! ,"l is good4 ,?is p]haps1 ( ! :ole ,bible1 is ! v]se he lik$ be/1 :i* answ]$ be/ to ! close desire ( 8 s\l2 & he quotes x (t5e/ 9 8 s]mons4 ,!n1 to /udy ! ,holy ,writ+s1 scan ! lea/ syllables ( !m1 s9ce all tru? lies !re--well1 a :ole life is n too mu* = su* lab\r z t6 ,& to d x1 "o %\ld sev] all ties ) ! _w1 take refuge =bidd+ly 9 ! cloi/]4 ,b ?is s9c]e ,*ri/ian analys$ himself too skilfully n to p]ceive t he _h a dang]\s t5d5cy to isolation4 ,he took too mu* pleasure 9 cutt+ himself (f f ! society ( mank9d to en%r\d himself 9 /udy & m$itation4 ,he :o ackn[l$g$ a secret t5d5cy to ! ,epicurean indol5ce--0 he go+ to live a life ( ! dilettante & ! self-indulg5t "u cov] ( hol9ess8 ,alone c\ld action save him f selfi%ness4 ,o!rs d\btless fulfill$ ! laws ( *>ity 9 pray+1 9 mortify+ !mselves = _! bre?r54 ,b :51 l him1 a man has exceptional faculties ( p]suasion & eloqu5ce1 su* vig\r 9 dialectics1 su* widespread culture1 su* p[] to br+ to naught ! wrong--w\ld x n be insult+ to ,god to let su* gifts lie idle1 & a s]i\s failure 9 *>ity to deprive 8 bre?r5 ( ! support ( su* an eng9e8 ,besides t1 he well knew t no man draws ne> to tru? )\t a purifi$ he>t4 ,might n 8 passions1 :i* 7 s viol5t1 beg9 to torm5t him aga9 aft] ?is respite ) great] fr5zy ?an be=e 8 conv]sion8 ,aga9/ t1 too1 action 0 ! ma9 antidote4 ,9 ! duties ( ! bi%opric he saw a means ( asceticism--a k9d ( c\rage\s purification4 ,he w\ld load himself ( 8 own w ) s _m anxieties & s mu* "w t he w\ld h no "t left to li/5 to ! insidi\s voice ( 8 old fri5ds4 ,c\ld he manage to sil5ce !m at once8 ,?is unhe>d-( grace--w\ld x be grant$ to him8 ,or w\ld n r ! /ruggle cont9ue 9 ! dep?s ( 8 consci5ce8 ,:at comes out z c]ta9 is t ^? t]rible passions :i* turn$ 8 y\? upside d[n1 nev]more play any "p 9 8 life4 ,f ! mom5t he fell on 8 knees "u ! fig-tree at ,milan1 8 s9ful he>t is a dead he>t4 ,he has be5 fre$ f almo/ all ! weaknesses ( ! old nature1 n only f its vices & c>nal affections1 b f its mo/ p>donable lapses--save1 p]haps1 "s old s$im5t ( intellectual & lit]>y vanity4 ,8 books1 at ! fir/ glance1 %ew u him no m save z ! doctor1 & already ! sa9t4 ,:at is se5 at once is an entirely b>e intellig5ce1 an entirely pure he>t1 fir$ only by ! div9e love4 ,& yet ! affectionate & t5d] he>t :i* 8 _h be51 always w>ms 8 discussions & 8 mo/ ab/ract exegesis4 ,x does n take long to feel ! heat ( !m1 ! p[] ( p\r+ =? emotion4 ,augu/9 takes no he$ ( t4 ,( himself he no long] ?9ks2 he no long] belongs to himself4 ,if he has accept$ ! episcopate1 x is s z to give himself altoge!r to ! ,*ur*1 to be all ?+s to all m54 ,he is ! man-^w1 ! man-p51 ! s\nd+-bo>d ( ! tru?4 ,he becomes ! man ( ! mis]able cr[ds :i* ! ,savi\r cov]$ ) ,8 pity4 ,he is !irs1 to conv9ce !m & cure !m ( _! errors4 ,he is a ma*9e :i* works )\t ev] /opp+ = ! great] glory ( ,*ri/4 ,bi%op1 pa/or1 lead] ( s\ls--he has no desire = any?+ else4 ,b x 0 a heavy lab\r = ?is intellectual1 :o till !n _h liv$ only among books & ideas4 ,! day aft] 8 consecration1 he mu/ h reg>d$ x ) m t]ror ?an ev]4 ,dur+ 8 nights ( insomnia1 or at ! recreation h\r 9 ! mona/]y g>d51 he ?\ght ov] x ) great di/ress4 ,8 eyes wide op5 9 ! d>kness ( 8 cell1 he s\ght to def9e a !ory ^u ! nature & orig9 ( ! s\l2 or else1 at ! fall ( day1 he saw betwe5 ! olive bran*es ! sea put on fluctuat+ %ades l veils ( a ?\s& col\rs1 sometimes gre51 a gre5 ( inf9ite t9ts2 sometimes purple2 blue sometimes4444 ,& 8 s\l1 easily /irr$ to poetry1 at once arose f ^! mat]ial spl5d\rs to ! invisible region ( ideas4 ,!n1 imm$iately1 he caught himself up3 x 0 n a "q ( all t6 ,he said to himself t he 0 h5ce=? ! bi%op ,augu/91 t he _h *>ge ( s\ls1 t he mu/ "w = ! ne$s ( 8 flock4 ,he w\ld h to /ruggle 9 a combat )\t a mom5t's respite4 ,!reupon he arrang$ 8 plans ( attack & def5ce4 ,) a s+le glance he gaug$ ! huge "w be=e him4 ,a cru%+ "w1 truly6 ,he 0 ,bi%op ( ,hippo1 b a bi%op almo/ )\t a flock1 9 comp>ison ) ! rival community ( ,donati/s4 ,! bi%op ( ! diss5ti5ts1 ,proculeianus1 boa/$ t he 0 ! true repres5tative ( or?odoxy1 & z he _h on 8 side ! advantage ( numb]s1 he c]ta9ly cut a mu* great] figure 9 ! t[n ?an ! successor ( ,val]ius1 ) all 8 k & all 8 eloqu5ce4 ,! s*ismatics' *ur*1 z we h se51 0 q ne> ! ,ca?olic *ur*4 ,_! noise int]f]$ ) ,augu/9's s]mons4 ,possibly ! situation _h become slightly bett] 9 ,hippo s9ce ! edict ( ,!odosius4 ,b x 0 n s long ago t ^? ( ! ,donati/ p>ty _h ! upp] h&4 ,a little be=e ! arrival ( ! new bi%op1 ! ,donati/ cl]gy =bade _! fai?ful to bake bread = ,ca?olics4 ,a fanatical bak] _h ev5 refus$ a ,ca?olic deacon :o 0 8 l&lord4 ,^! s*ismatics believ$ !mselves /rong en\gh to put ^? :o did n belong to !m "u int]dict4 ,! r\t ( ,ca?olicism appe>$ to be an accompli%$ fact f "o end to ! o!r ( ,africa4 ,q rec5tly a m]e fraction ( ! ,donati/ p>ty _h be5 able to s5d ?ree hundr$ & t5 bi%ops to ! ,c\ncil ( ,bagai1 :o 7 to judge ! recalcitrants ( _! own sect4 ,among ^! bi%ops1 ! t]rible ,optatus ( ,?imgad became m>k$ on acc\nt ( 8 bloody zeal1 rambl+ r\nd ,numidia & ev5 ! ,proconsulate at ! head ( arm$ b&s1 burn+ f>ms & villas1 rebaptiz+ ! ,ca?olics by ma9 =ce1 spread+ t]ror on all sides4 ,augu/9 knew all ?is1 & :5 he s\ght help f ! local au?orities he 0 oblig$ to ackn[l$ge sadly t !re 0 no support to be expect$ f ,c\nt ,gildo1 :o _h tyranniz$ ov] ,c>?age & ,africa = ne>ly t5 ye>s4 ,?is ,gildo 0 a native1 a ,moor1 to :om ! m9i/]s ( ! "y ,val5t9ian ,,ii _h ?\ght x a good /roke ( policy to confide ! gov]nm5t ( ! prov9ce4 ,kn[+ ! weakness ( ! ,empire1 ! ,moor only ?\ght ( cutt+ out = himself an indep5d5t pr9cipality 9 ,africa4 ,he op5ly fav\r$ ,donatism1 :i* 0 ! mo/ num]\s & influ5tial p>ty4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,?imgad1 ,optatus1 swore only by him1 reg>d+ him z 8 ma/] & 8 god4 ,9 consequ5ce1 he 0 call$ ! ,gildonian4 ,aga9/ su* enemies1 ! ,imp]ial au?ority c\ld only act irregul>ly4 ,augu/9 0 well aw>e ( x4 ,he knew t ! ,we/]n ,empire 0 9 a critical position4 ,!odosius _h j di$1 9 ! mid/ ( w> ) ! usurp] ,eug5ius4 ,! ,b>b>ians1 :o made up ! great] "p ( ! ,roman armies1 %ew$ !mselves m & m ?reat5+4 ,al>ic1 entr5*$ 9 ! ,peloponnesus1 0 gett+ ready to invade ,italy4 ,h[ev]1 ! all-p[]ful m9i/] ( ! "y ,honorius1 ! half-,b>b>ian ,/ili*o1 did 8 be/ to conciliate ! ,ca?olics1 & assur$ !m t he w\ld cont9ue ! protection !y _h _h f ,!odosius1 ,augu/9 !re=e turn$ to ! c5tral p[]4 ,x alone c\ld br+ ab\t a little ord] 9 ! prov9ces--& !n1 besides1 ! new emp]ors 7 firmly atta*$ to ! def5ce ( ,ca?olicism4 ,! ,ca?olic ,bi%op ( ,hippo did 8 be/1 accord+ly1 to keep on good t]ms ) ! repres5tatives ( ! ,metropolitan ,gov]nm5t--! proconsuls2 ! proprtors2 ! c\nts2 & ! tribunes1 or ! secret>ies1 s5t by ! ,emp]or z ,gov]nm5t commission]s4 ,!re 0 no suspicion ( flatt]y 9 8 attitude1 no idolatry ( p[]4 ,at ,milan1 ,augu/9 _h be5 ne> en\gh to ! ,c\rt to "k :at ! ,imp]ial function>ies 7 wor?4 ,n[1 he simply adapt$ himself z well z he c\ld to ! ne$s ( ! mom5t4 ,& ) all t1 he c\ld h wi%$ 9 ! dep?s ( 8 he>t t ?is p[] 7 /rong]1 s z to give ! ,*ur* m effective support4 ,?is cultur$ man1 br\ght up 9 ! respect ( ! ,roman maje/y1 0 by in/9ct a fai?ful s]vant ( ! ,cs>s4 ,a man :o held to au?ority & tradition1 he ma9ta9$ t ob$i5ce is due to pr9ces3 ,!re is a g5]al agreem5t1 he said1 ( human society to obey its ,k+s4 ,9 "o ( 8 s]mons he comp>es ?\ght1 :i* comm&s ! body1 to ! ,emp]or seat$ ^u 8 ?rone1 & f ! dep?s ( 8 palace dictat+ ord]s :i* set ! :ole ,empire mov+--a purely ideal image ( ! sov]eign ( t "t1 b "o :i* pleas$ 8 ,lat9 imag9ation4 ,alas6 ,augu/9 _h no illusions ab\t ! effect ( ,imp]ial edicts2 he knew too well h[ little !y 7 reg>d$1 especially 9 ,africa4 ,s he c\ld h>dly c\nt ^u ,gov]nm5t support = ! def5ce ( ,ca?olic unity & peace4 ,he f\nd he mu/ tru/ to himself2 & all 8 /r5g? 0 9 8 intellig5ce1 9 8 *>ity1 9 8 deeply compassionate s\l4 ,mo/ e>ne/ly did he wi% t ,ca?olicism might be a religion ( love1 op5 to all ! nations ( ! e>?1 ev5 z its ,div9e ,f\nd] ,himself _h wi%$4 ,a gl[+ & dom9at+ intellig5ce1 *>ity :i* nev] tir$--^? 7 ,augu/9's arms4 ,& !y 7 en\gh4 ,^! qualities gave him an ov]:elm+ sup]iority ov] all ! m5 ( 8 "t4 ,among !m1 pagans or ,*ri/ians1 he looks l a colossus4 ,f :at a height he cru%es1 n only ! pr(essors :o _h be5 8 colleagues1 su* z ,nect>ius ( ,guelma or ,maximus ( ,madaura1 b ! mo/ celebrat$ writ]s ( 8 "t--,symma*us1 = in/ance1 & ,ammianus ,m>cell9us4 ,aft] read+ a treatise ( ,augu/9's1 "o is a/\nd$ by ! intellectual meagr5ess ( ^! la/ pagans4 ,! n>r[ness ( _! m9d & platitude ( ?\ght is a ?+ t leaves "o agha/4 ,ev5 ! illu/ri\s ,apuleius1 :o belong$ to ! gold5 age ( ,african lit]ature1 ! au?or ( ,! ,doctr9e ( ,plato1 praises philosophy & ! ,supreme ,be+ 9 t]ms :i* recall ! pr(essions ( fai? ( ! *emi/ & druggi/1 ,homais1 9 ,madame ,bov>y4 ,nor among ^? :o surr\nd$ ,augu/91 8 fell[-bi%ops1 0 !re "o fit to be comp>$ ) him1 ev5 at a di/ance4 ,except p]haps ,nebridius1 8 de>e/ fri5ds1 ,alypius1 ,sev]us1 or ,evodius1 are m]ely disciples1 n to say s]vants ( 8 ?\ght4 ,aurelius1 ,primate ( ,c>?age1 an en]getic adm9i/rator1 a firm & upright "*1 if he is n on ,augu/9's level1 is at any rate capable ( und]/&+ & support+ him4 ,! o!rs are dec5t m51 l t ,samsucius1 ,bi%op ( ,t\rs1 v ne>ly illit]ate1 b full ( good s5se & exp]i5ce1 & on ?is gr\nd consult$ respectfully by 8 colleague ( ,hippo4 ,or else !y are plott]s1 giv5 to debau*1 engag$ 9 bus9ess1 l ,paulus1 ,bi%op ( ,cataqua1 :o became involv$ 9 risky speculations1 sw9dl$ ! rev5ue1 & by 8 exp5sive way ( life ru9$ 8 diocese4 ,o!rs1 on ! ,donati/ side1 are m]e swa%buckl]s1 half-brig&s1 half-fanatics1 l ! ,gildonian ,optatus1 ,bi%op ( ,?imgad1 a manife/ation 9 advance ( ! ,mussulman m>ab\t :o prea*$ ! holy w> aga9/ ! ,ca?olics1 raid+1 kill+1 burn+1 conv]t+ by sabre bl[s & bludgeon+4 ,amid ^! insignificant or viol5t m51 ,augu/9 w endeav\r to realize to ! full ! admirable type ( bi%op1 at once spiritual fa!r1 protector1 & support ( 8 p4 ,he _h promis$ himself to sacrifice no :it ( 8 ideal ( ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,z bi%op1 he w rema9 a monk1 z he did dur+ 8 prie/hood4 ,beside ! mona/]y e/abli%$ 9 ,val]ius' g>d51 :]e x is impossible to receive prop]ly 8 gue/s & visitors1 he w />t ano!r 9 ! episcopal resid5ce4 ,he w con=m to ! mona/ic rule z f> z 8 duties all[4 ,he w pray1 /udy ! ,scriptures1 def9e dogmas1 refute h]esies4 ,at ! same "t1 he means to neglect no?+ ( 8 mat]ial "w4 ,he has m\?s to fe$1 prop]ty to look aft]1 law-cases to exam9e4 ,he w lab\r at all t4 ,= ?is my/ic & !ori/ x means a nev]-ceas+ immolation4 ,fir/1 to give ! poor _! daily bread4 ,l all ! communities ( t "t1 ,hippo ma9ta9$ a population ( begg>s4 ,(t5 en\gh1 ! diocesan ca%-box 0 empty4 ,augu/9 0 oblig$ to hold out ! h&1 to deliv] f ! height ( 8 pulpit pa!tic appeals = *>ity4 ,!n1 !re are hospitals to be built = ! sick1 a lodg+-h\se = poor w&]]s4 ,! bi%op />t$ ^! in/itutions 9 h\ses bequea!d to ! *ur* ( ,hippo4 ,= reasons ( economy1 he ?\ght bett] n to build4 ,t w\ld ov]load 8 budget4 ,next came ! greate/ ( all 8 c>es--! adm9i/ration ( ,*ur* prop]ty4 ,to increase ?is prop]ty1 he /ipulat$ t 8 cl]gy %\ld give up all !y possess$ 9 fav\r ( ! community1 ?us giv+ ! fai?ful an example ( volunt>y pov]ty4 ,he also accept$ gifts f private p]sons4 ,b he also (t5 refus$ ^!--= example1 ! beque/ ( a fa!r or "m1 :o1 9 a mom5t ( ang]1 dis9h]it$ _! *ildr54 ,he did n wi% to pr(it by ! bad feel+s ( p>5ts to plund] orphans4 ,on ano!r side1 he object$ to engage ! ,*ur* 9 suits at law ) ! ex*equ] ^u receiv+ c]ta9 h]itages4 ,:5 a bus9ess man at ,hippo left to ! diocese 8 %>e ( pr(its 9 ! s]vice ( boats = c>ry+ ,gov]nm5t /ores1 ,augu/9 came to ! conclusion t x w\ld be bett] to refuse4 ,9 case ( %ipwreck1 !y w\ld be oblig$ to make good ! lo/ corn to ! ,treasury1 or else to put ! capta9 & surviv+ sailors to ! torture to prove t ! crew 0 n responsible = ! loss ( ! %ip4 ,augu/9 w\ld n he> tell ( x4 ,is x fit1 he said1 t a bi%op %\ld be a %ip[n]8444 ,a bi%op a tortur]8 ,oh1 no2 t does n agree at all ) a s]vant ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,! p ( ,hippo did n %>e 8 views4 ,!y blam$ ,augu/9's scruples4 ,!y accus$ him ( compromis+ ! int]e/s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,"o day he _h to expla9 himself f ! pulpit3 ,well ,i "k1 my bro!rs1 t y (t5 say betwe5 y\rselves3 ',:y d n p give any?+ to ! ,*ur* ( ,hippo8 ,:y d n ! dy+ make x _! heir8 ,! reason is t ,bi%op ,augu/9 is too easy2 he gives all back to ! *ildr52 he keeps no?+6' ,i ackn[l$ge x1 ,i only accept gifts :i* are good & pi\s4 ,:oev] dis9h]its 8 son to make ! ,*ur* 8 heir1 let him f9d somebody will+ to accept 8 gifts4 ,x is n ,i :o w d x1 & by ,god's grace1 ,i hope x w n be anybody4444 ,yes1 ,i h refus$ _m legacies1 b ,i h also accept$ _m4 ,ne$ ,i "n !m to y8 ,i w give only "o in/ance4 ,i accept$ ! h]itage ( ,julian4 ,:y8 ,because he di$ )\t *ildr54444 ,! li/5]s ?\ght t _! bi%op really put too f9e a po9t on ?+s4 ,!y fur!r reproa*$ him ) n kn[+ h[ to attract & flatt] ! ri* b5efactors4 ,augu/9 w\ld n all[1 ei!r1 t !y _h any "r to =ce a pass+ /rang] to receive ! prie/hood & consequ5tly to give up 8 goods to ! poor4 ,all ?is really 0 v wise1 n only accord+ to ! _s ( ! ,gospel1 b accord+ to human prud5ce4 ,if ,augu/91 = ! sake ( ! good fame ( 8 ,*ur*1 did n wi% to incur ! accusation ( grasp+ & av>ice1 he dread$ no?+ s mu* z a law-case4 ,to accept lightly ! gifts & legacies (f]$ 0 to lay himself op5 to exp5sive pettifogg+4 ,f> bett] to refuse ?an to lose bo? 8 money & reputation4 ,s 7 reconcil$1 9 ?is man ( pray] & m$itation1 practical good s5se ) ! high dis9t]e/$ness ( ! ,*ri/ian tea*+4 ,! bi%op 0 dis9t]e/$2 8 p 7 covet\s4 ,! p ( ^? times wi%$ ! ,*ur* to gr[ ri*1 because !y 7 ! fir/ to pr(it by its ri*es4 ,n[ ^! ri*es 7 pr9cipally 9 h\ses & l&4 ,! diocese ( ,hippo _h to deal ) _m h\ses & imm5se fundi1 ^u :i* liv$ an entire population ( artisans & fre$-m51 agricultural lab\r]s1 & ev5 art-work]s--smelt]s1 embroid]]s1 *isell]s on metals4 ,^u ! ,*ur* l&s1 ^! small p 7 protect$ f taxes & ! extortions ( ! rev5ue (fic]s1 & no d\bt !y f\nd ! episcopal gov]nm5t m fa!rly & mild ?an ! civil4 ,augu/91 :o _h made a v[ ( pov]ty & giv5 8 h]itage to ! poor1 became by a cruel irony a great l&[n] z soon z he 0 elect$ ,bi%op ( ,hippo4 ,d\btless he _h /ew>ds "u him to look aft] ! prop]ty ( ! diocese4 ,?is did n save him f go+ into details ( managem5t & sup]vis+ 8 ag5ts4 ,he he>d ! compla9ts1 n only ( 8 own t5ants1 b also ( ^? :o belong$ to o!r e/ates & 7 victimiz$ by di%one/ bailiffs4 ,anyh[1 we h a ?\s& signs to %ew t no detail ( c\ntry life 0 unfamili> to him4 ,on horseback or muleback1 he rode = miles ?r\gh ! c\ntry ab\t ,hippo to visit 8 v9ey>ds & olivets4 ,he exam9$1 f\nd out ?+s1 que/ion$ ! workm51 w5t into ! presses & ! mills4 ,he knew ! grape good to eat1 & ! grape to make w9e )4 ,he po9t$ out :]e ! ensilage pits _h be5 dug 9 too m>%y l&1 :i* endang]$ ! "y corn4 ,z a capable l&[n] he 0 abrea/ ( ! law1 c>eful ab\t ! t]ms ( contracts4 ,he knew ! =mulas employ$ = sales or b5efactions4 ,he saw to x t *>coal 0 buri$ ar\nd ! l&m>ks 9 ! fields1 s t if ! po/ disappe>$1 its place c\ld be f\nd4 ,& z he 0 a poet1 he ga!r$ on 8 c\rse a :ole booty ( rural images :i* lat] on w5t to bright5 8 s]mons4 ,he made +5i\s comp>isons ) ! citron-tree1 :i* is se5 to give fl[]s & fruits all ! ye> if x be wat]$ con/antly1 or else ) ! goat :o gets ^u h] two h9d legs to crop ! bitt] leaves ( ! wild olive4 ,^! j\rneys 9 ! op5 air1 h[ev] tir+ !y might be1 7 aft] all a re/ = 8 ov]work$ bra94 ,b !re 0 "o among 8 episcopal duties :i* we>i$ him to disgu/4 ,e day he _h to li/5 to p>ties 9 dispute & give judgm5t4 ,foll[+ rec5t ,imp]ial legislation1 ! bi%op became judge 9 civil cases--a tiresome & endless "w 9 a c\ntry :]e tricky quibbl+ rag$ ) ob/9ate fury4 ,! litigants pursu$ ,augu/91 ov]ran 8 h\se1 l ^? fellahs 9 dirty burn\s :o block our law-c\rts ) _! rags4 ,9 ! secret>ium ( ! basilica1 or "u ! portico ( ! c\rt lead+ to ! *ur*1 ,augu/9 sat l a ,mussulman cadi 9 ! c\rt ( ! mosque4 ,! emp]ors _h only regulat$ an old cu/om ( apo/olic times 9 plac+ ! ,*ri/ians "u ! jurisdiction ( _! bi%op4 ,9 accordance ) ,/4 ,paul's advice1 ! prie/s did _! utmo/ to settle diff]5ces among ! fai?ful4 ,lat]1 :5 _! numb] _h consid]ably increas$1 ! ,gov]nm5t adopt$ a sy/em n unlike ! ,capitulations 9 c\ntries "u ! ,ottoman suz]a9ty4 ,lawsuits betwe5 cl]ics & laym5 c\ld n be equitably judg$ by civil s]vants1 :o 7 (t5 pagans4 ,moreov]1 ! p>ties bas$ _! claims on !ological pr9ciples or religi\s laws t ! arbitrator g5]ally knew no?+ ab\t4 ,9 ^! conditions1 x 0 natural en\gh t ! ,imp]ial au?ority %\ld say to ! disputants1 ,fight x out among y\rselves4 ,& x happ5$1 j at ! mom5t :5 ,augu/9 began to fill ! see ( ,hippo1 t ,!odosius broad5$ /ill m ! judicial pr]ogatives ( ! bi%ops4 ,! unhappy judge 0 ov]:elm$ ) law-cases4 ,e day he sat till ! h\r ( 8 meal1 & sometimes ! :ole day :5 he fa/$4 ,to ^? :o accus$ him ( laz9ess1 he answ]$3 ,i c decl>e on my s\l t if x 7 "q ( my own conv5i5ce1 ,i %\ld l mu* bett] to "w at "s manual lab\r at c]ta9 h\rs ( ! day1 z ! rule is 9 well-gov]n$ mona/]ies1 & h ! re/ ( ! "t free to read or pray or m$itate ^u ! ,holy ,scripture1 in/ead ( be+ tr\bl$ ) all ! complications & dull talk ( lawsuits4 ,! rascality ( ! litigants made him indignant4 ,f ! pulpit he gave !m advice full ( ,*ri/ian wisdom1 b :i* c\ld n h be5 mu* reli%$4 ,a suit at law1 accord+ to him1 0 a loss ( "t & a cause ( sorr[4 ,x w\ld be bett] to let ! oppon5t h ! money1 ?an to lose "t & be fill$ ) uneas9ess4 ,nor 0 ?is1 add$ ! prea*] 9 all good fai?1 to enc\rage inju/ice2 = ! robb] w\ld be robb$ 9 8 turn by a great] robb] ?an himself4 ,^! reasons seem$ only mod]ately conv9c+4 ,! pettifogg]s did n get disc\rag$4 ,on ! contr>y1 !y infe/$ ! bi%op ) _! pleas4 ,z soon z he appe>$1 !y ru%$ up to him 9 a mob1 surr\nd$ him1 kiss$ 8 h& & 8 %\ld]1 prote/+ _! respect & ob$i5ce1 urg+ him1 con/ra9+ him to busy himself ab\t _! affairs4 ,augu/9 yield$4 ,b ! next day 9 a vehem5t s]mon he cri$ out to !m3 ,disc$ite a me1 maligni6--,g f> f me1 ye wick$ ones1 & let me /udy 9 peace ! comm&m5ts ( my ,god6 ,,ii ,,:at ,,0 ,,he>d ,,9 ,,! ,,basilica ,,( ,,peace ,let u try to see ,augu/9 9 8 pulpit & 9 8 episcopal city4 ,we _c d mu* m ?an recon/ruct !m by analogy4 ,royal ,hippo is utt]ly gone4 ,bona1 :i* has tak5 its place1 is ab\t a mile & a half away1 & ! fragm5ts :i* h be5 dug out ( ! soil ( ! dead city are v inadequate4 ,b ,africa is full ( ,*ri/ian ru9s1 & *iefly ( basilicas4 ,rome has no?+ equal to (f]4 ,& t is easily und]/ood4 ,! ,roman basilicas1 always liv+1 h be5 *ang$ 9 ! c\rse ( c5turies1 & h put on1 "t aft] "t1 ! g>b =c$ ^u !m by ! fa%ion4 ,^? ( ,africa h rema9$ j z !y 7--at lea/ 9 _! pr9cipal l9es--on ! morr[ ( ! ,arab invasion1 z ,augu/9's eyes _h se5 !m4 ,!y are ru9s1 no d\bt1 & "s v mutilat$1 b ru9s ( :i* no re/oration has alt]$ ! plan or *ang$ ! features4 ,z ! traces ( ,hippo & its *ur* are swept away or deeply buri$1 we are oblig$1 9 ord] to get "s approximate idea1 to turn t[>ds ano!r ,african t[n :i* has suff]$ less f "t & deva/ation4 ,!ve/e ) its basilica1 ! be/ pres]v$1 ! f9e/ & l>ge/ 9 all ,africa1 c re/ore to u a little ( ! look & col\r & atmosph]e ( ,hippo 9 ^? f9al ye>s ( ! f\r? c5tury4 ,anci5t ,!ve/e 0 mu* l>g] ?an ! pres5t t[n1 ! ,fr5* ,tebessa4 ,?is1 ev5 r$uc$ to ! p]imet] ( ! ,byzant9e =tress built "u ,ju/9ian1 /ill surprises ! travell] by its s+ul>ly orig9al aspect4 ,amid ! wide pla9s ( alfa-grass :i* surr\nd x1 ) its quadrangul> enclosure1 its roads on ! projection ( ! walls beh9d ! battlem5ts1 its squat turrets1 x has a look z ar*aic1 z /range1 z our own ,aigues-,mortes amid its m>%y f54 ,no?+ c be m ri* & joy\s to ! eye ?an ! ru/ :i* cov]s its ru9s--a complete gild+ t "o w\ld say _h be5 laid on by ! h& ( man4 ,x has a little temple :i* is a wond] & has be5 comp>$ to ! anci5t ,roman temple--! ,maison ,c>re--at ,nmes4 ,b h[ mu* w>m]1 m liv+ are ! /ones6 ,! %afts ( ! columns1 & ! pila/]s ( ! p]i/yle1 b>k$ by "t1 seem z scaly & full ( sap z ! trunks ( palm-trees4 ,! c>v$ acan?us-leaves 9 ! capitals ( ! pill>s droop l bun*es ( palms r$d5$ by ! summ]4 ,q ne>1 at ! end ( a n>r[ /reet1 l9$ ) mod]n & squalid hovels1 ! triumphal ar* ( ,septimus ,sev]us & ( ,c>acalla ext5ds its lum9\s b[2 & high above ! heavy mass ( ar*itecture1 re/+ ^u slim a]ial little columns1 a buoyant diculus %9es l a coral tab]nacle or a c(f] ( yell[ ivory4 ,all ab\t1 =ms 9 long drap]ies are huddl$4 ,! ,numidian burn\s has ! :it5ess ( ! toga4 ,x has also ! same graceful folds4 ,at ! sight ( !m y sudd5ly feel y\rself to be 9 a /range l&--c>ri$ back v f> across ! c5turies4 ,no soon] is ! vision ( antiquity outl9$ ?an x gr[s firm4 ,d[n bel[ !re1 a horseman1 clad 9 :ite1 is fram$ ) 8 :ite horse 9 ! m\ld$ c9cture ( a door4 ,he passes1 & ^u ! :ite wall ( ! ne> t[] 8 %ad[ re/s a mom5t1 l a bas-relief ^u ! m>ble ( a frieze4 ,beyond ! ,byzant9e enclosure1 ! basilica1 ) its m9or build+s1 =ms ano!r t[n almo/ z l>ge z ! pres5t ,!ve/e1 & also clos$ 9 by a belt ( t[]s & ramp>ts4 ,"o is imm$iately /ruck by ! opul5t col\r ( ! /ones--rose1 gr[n pale & ?9n] 9 ! sun2 & next1 by ! solid workman%ip & ! /ructural f9i%4 ,! /ones1 z 9 ! ,greek temples1 are plac$ on top ( "o ano!r 9 regul> lay]s3 ! :ole holds toge!r by ! weight ( ! blocks & ! poli% ( ! surfaces4 ,! proportions are on a l>ge scale4 ,!re 0 no grudg+ = ! build+s1 or ! mat]ials1 or ! l&4 ,9 front ( ! basilica is a wide rectangul> c\rt bord]$ ) t]races2 a portico at ! f> end2 & 9 ! middle f\r l>ge f\nta9s to wat] ! walk4 ,a flagg$ av5ue1 clos$ by two gateways1 divides ?is c\rt f ! basilica1 prop]ly s call$1 :i* is rea*$ by a /aircase betwe5 two columns4 ,! /aircase leads to ! atrium decorat$ by a ,cor9?ian portico4 ,9 ! c5tre is ! font = purifications1 a huge monoli?ic bason 9 ! %ape ( a f\r-leav$ clov]4 ,?ree doors give entrance f ! atrium to ! basilica1 :i* is divid$ by r[s ( gre5 m>ble columns into ?ree aisles4 ,! gall]ies spread out along ! side aisles4 ,! floor 0 9 mosaic4 ,9 ! apse1 beh9d ! alt>1 /ood ! bi%op's ?rone4 ,ar\nd ! ma9 build+ clu/]$ a great numb] ( o!rs3 a bapti/ry2 _m *apels 7"o vault$ 9 ! %ape ( a ?ree-leav$ clov]7 d$icat$1 probably1 to local m>tyrs2 a gravey>d2 a conv5t ) its cells1 & its w9d[s n>r[ z loop-holes2 /ables1 %$s1 & b>ns4 ,%elt]$ )9 its walls & t[]s1 amid its g>d5s & outbuild+s1 ! basilica ( ,!ve/e ?us e>ly resembl$ "o ( our great mona/]ies ( ! ,middle ,age1 & also 9 c]ta9 ways ! great mosques ( ,islam--! "o at ,cordova1 or t at ,damascus1 ) _! ve/ibules surr\nd$ by arcades1 _! basons = purification1 & _! walks bord]$ ) orange-trees4 ,! fai?ful & ! pilgrims 7 at home !re4 ,!y might sp5d ! day /ret*$ ^u ! flags ( ! porticoes1 9 loaf+ or sleep+ 9 ! blue %ade ( ! columns & ! cool ( ! f\nta9s4 ,9 ! full s5se ( ! ^w1 ! *ur* 0 ! ,h\se ( ,god1 op5 to all4 ,v likely ! basilicas at ,hippo _h nei!r ! size nor ! spl5d\r ( ?is "o4 ,nor 7 !re v _m4 ,at ! "t ,augu/9 0 orda9$ prie/1 t is to say1 :5 ! ,donati/s _h /ill a majority 9 ! t[n1 x seems cle> t ! or?odox community own$ b "o s+le *ur*1 ! ,basilica major1 or ,basilica ( ,peace4 ,its v "n proves ?is4 ,) ! s*ismatics1 ,peace 0 ! (ficial "n = ,ca?olicism4 ,basilica ( ,peace meant simply ,ca?olic ,basilica4 ,0 n ?is z mu* z to say t ! o!rs belong$ to ! diss5t]s8 ,d\btless !y re/or$ lat] on1 aft] ! promulgations ( ,honorius1 ! ,leontian ,basilica1 f\nd$ by ,leontius1 ,bi%op ( ,hippo1 & a m>tyr4 ,a ?ird 0 built by ,augu/9 dur+ 8 episcopate--! ,basilica ( ! ,eight ,m>tyrs ( ! ,:ite ,mace4 ,x 0 9 ! ,major1 or ,ca!dral1 t ,augu/9 g5]ally prea*$4 ,to prea* 0 n only a duty1 b "o ( ! privileges ( a bi%op4 ,z has be5 said1 ! bi%op alone _h ! "r to prea* 9 8 *ur*4 ,?is arose f ! fact t ! ,african dioceses1 al?\gh comp>atively widespread1 _h sc>cely m p ?an "o ( our l>ge p>i%es to-day4 ,! position ( a bi%op 0 l t ( "o ( our p>i% prie/s4 ,!re 7 almo/ z _m z !re 7 villages1 & !y 7 c\nt$ by hundr$s4 ,h[ev] t may be1 prea*+1 ! real apo/olic m9i/ry1 0 an exhau/+ task4 ,augu/9 prea*$ almo/ e day1 & (t5 _m times a day--r\gh "w = a man ) su* a fragile *e/4 ,?us x (t5 happ5$ t1 to save 8 voice1 he _h to ask 8 audi5ce to keep /ill4 ,he spoke )\t /udy1 9 a language v ne> ! language ( ! common p4 ,/5ograph]s took d[n 8 s]mons z he improvis$ !m3 h5ce ^? repetitions & l5g?9esses :i* a/oni% ! read] :o does n "k ! reason = !m4 ,!re is no plan evid5t 9 ^! addresses4 ,sometimes ! speak] has n en\gh "t to develop 8 ?\ght4 ,!n he puts (f ! cont9uation till ! next day4 ,sometimes he comes ) a subject all prep>$1 & !n treats ( ano!r1 9 ob$i5ce to a sudd5 inspiration :i* has come to him ) a v]se ( ,scripture he has j read4 ,o!r times1 he comm5ts _m passages 9 succession1 )\t ! lea/ c>e = unity or composition4 ,let u li/5 to him 9 ?is ,basilica ( ,peace1 :]e dur+ ?irty-five ye>s he nev] fail$ to ann\nce ! ,^w ( ,god4444 ,! *ant ( ! ,psalms has j di$ away4 ,at ! f> end ( ! apse1 ,augu/9 rises f 8 ?rone ) its back to ! wall1 8 pale face di/9ct aga9/ ! gold5 hue ( ! mosaic4 ,f t place1 z f ! height ( a pulpit1 he comm&s ! congregation1 look+ at !m above ! alt>1 :i* is a pla9 wood5 table plac$ at ! end ( ! great aisle4 ,! congregation is /&+1 ! m5 on "o side1 ! wom5 on ! o!r4 ,on ! o!r side ( ! balu/rade :i* sep>ates !m f ! cr[d1 are ! wid[s & consecrat$ virg9s1 wrapp$ 9 _! veils black or purple4 ,"s matrons1 r ov]dress$1 lean =w>d 9 ! front rank ( ! gall]ies4 ,_! *eeks are pa9t$1 _! eyela%es & eyebr[s black5$1 _! e>s & necks ov]load$ ) jewels4 ,augu/9 has notic$ !m2 aft] a :ile he w read !m a lesson4 ,?is audi5ce is all alive ) sympa?y & curiosity be=e he beg9s4 ,) all its fai? & all its passion x collaborates ) ! orator4 ,x is turbul5t also4 ,x expresses its op9ions & emotions ) p]fect fre$om4 ,! democratic cu/oms ( ^? ,african ,*ur*es surprise u to-day4 ,p made a noise z at ! !atre or ! circus4 ,!y applaud$2 !y int]rupt$ ! prea*]4 ,c]ta9 among !m disput$ :at 0 said1 quot+ passages f ! ,bible4 ,augu/9 is ?us 9 p]petual communication ) 8 audi5ce4 ,nobody has done less so>+ ?an he4 ,he keeps 8 eye on ! facial expressions & ! attitudes ( 8 public4 ,he talks to !m famili>ly4 ,:5 8 s]mon is a little l5g?y1 he wants to "k if 8 li/5]s are gett+ tir$--he has kept !m /&+ s long6 ,! "t ( ! morn+ meal draws ne>4 ,bellies are fa/+1 /oma*s wax impati5t4 ,!n says he to !m ) lov+ good-fell[%ip3 ,g1 my v de> bro!rs & si/]s1 g & re/ore y\r /r5g?--,i d n mean t ( y\r m9ds1 = ,i see well t !y are tireless1 b ! /r5g? ( y\r bodies :i* are ! s]vants ( y\r s\ls4 ,g !n & re/ore y\r bodies s t !y may d _! "w well1 & :5 !y are re/or$1 come back "h & take y\r spiritual food4 ,^u c]ta9 days1 a bla/ ( ! sirocco has pass$ ov] ! t[n4 ,! fai?ful1 cr[d$ 9 ! aisles1 are /ifl+1 cov]$ ) sweat4 ,! prea*] himself1 :o is v mu* work$ up1 has 8 face dripp+1 & 8 clo!s are all wet4 ,by ?is he p]ceives t once m he has be5 extremely long4 ,he excuses himself mode/ly4 ,or aga91 he jokes l a r\gh apo/le :o is n repell$ by ! od\r ( a lot ( human-k9d ga!r$ toge!r4 ,oh1 :at a smell6 says he4 ,i mu/ h be5 speak+ a long :ile to-day4 ,^! good-natur$ ways won ! he>ts ( ! simple folk :o li/5$ to him4 ,he is aw>e ( ! *>m he ex]ts on !m1 & ( ! sympa?y !y give him back 9 gratitude = 8 *>ity4 ,y h lov$ to come & he> me1 my bro!rs1 he said to !m4 ,b :om h y lov$8 ,if x is me--ah1 ev5 t is good1 my bro!rs1 = ,i want to be lov$ by y1 if ,i d n want to be lov$ = myself4 ,z = me1 ,i love y 9 ,*ri/4 ,& y too1 d y love me 9 ,him4 ,let our love = "o ano!r moan toge!r up to ,god--& t is ! moan+ ( ! ,dove spok5 ( 9 ! ,scripture4444 ,al?\gh he prea*es f ! height ( 8 episcopal ?rone1 he is anxi\s t 8 he>]s %\ld reg>d him1 ,*ri/ianly1 z _! equal4 ,s he seems z little ( ! bi%op z possible4 ,all ,*ri/ians are s]vants ( ! same ma/]4444 ,i h be5 9 ! place :]e y are--y1 my bro!rs1 :o li/5 to me4 ,& n[1 if ,i give ! spiritual bread f ! height ( ?is *air to ! s]vants ( ! ,ma/] ( u all--well1 x is b a few ye>s s9ce ,i receiv$ ?is spiritual food ) !m 9 a l[] place4 ,a bi%op1 ,i speak to laym51 b ,i "k to h[ _m future bi%ops ,i speak4444 ,s he puts himself on an equal foot+ ) 8 audi5ce by ! bro!rly acc5t 9 8 words4 ,x is n ,*ri/5dom1 ! ,univ]sal ,*ur*1 or ,i "k n :at ab/ract li/5] he addresses1 b ! ,africans1 ! p ( ,hippo1 ! p>i%ion]s ( ! ,basilica ( ,peace4 ,he kn[s ! allusions1 ! comp>isons drawn f local cu/oms1 :i* are likely to impress _! m9ds4 ,! day ( ! fe/ival ( ,/4 ,crisp9a1 a m>tyr ( ^? p>ts1 aft] he _h develop$ 8 subject at v great l5g?1 he ask$ p>don 9 ^! t]ms3 ,let u ?9k1 bro!rs1 t ,i h invit$ y to celebrate ! bir?day ( ! bless$ ,crisp9a1 & t ,i h kept up ! fea/ a little too long4 ,well1 might n ! same ?+ happ5 if "s soldi] 7 to ask y to d9n] & oblig$ y to dr9k m ?an is wise8 ,let me d z mu* = ! ,^w ( ,god1 ) :i* y %\ld be drunk & surfeit$4 ,m>riages1 z well z bir?day fea/s1 suppli$ ! orator ) vivid allegories4 ,?us he says t :5 a m>riage fea/ is made 9 a h\se1 organs play ^u ! ?re%old1 & musicians & danc]s beg9 to s+ & to act _! songs4 ,& yet h[ poor are ^! e>?ly enjoym5ts :i* pass away s soon6444 ,9 ! ,h\se ( ,god1 ! fea/ has no end4 ,cont9ually1 ?r\gh ! comm5t>ies on ! ,psalms1 l comp>isons rise to ! surface--p>ables suit$ to /ir ! imag9ation ( ,africans4 ,a ?\s& details borr[$ f local habits & daily life enliv5 ! exegesis ( ! ,bi%op ( ,hippo4 ,! mules & horses t buck :5 "o is try+ to cure !m1 are 8 symbol = ! recalcitrant ,donati/s4 ,! little donkeys1 ob/9ate & cunn+1 t trot 9 ! n>r[ lanes ( ,alg]ian casbahs1 appe> "h & !re 9 8 s]mons4 ,! gnats bite 9 !m4 ,! un5durable flies pla/] !mselves 9 buzz+ pat*es on ! tables & walls4 ,!n !re are ! illnesses & drugs ( t c\ntry3 ! oph?almias & collyrium4 ,:at else8 ,! t>5tulas t run along ! beams on ! ceil+2 ! h>es t scurry )\t w>n+ betwe5 ! horses' feet on ! great ,numidian pla9s4 ,else:]e1 he rem9ds 8 audi5ce ( ^? m5 :o we> an e>r+ z a talisman2 ( ! deal+s betwe5 trad]s & sailors--a comp>ison :i* w\ld g home to ?is seaf>+ p4 ,! ev5ts ( ! "t1 ! little happ5+s ( ! mom5t1 glide into 8 s]mons4 ,at ! same "t z ! s]vice 9 *ur* to-day1 !re is go+ to be horse-rac+ at ! circus1 & fights ( wild bea/s or gladiators at ! ar5a4 ,9 consequ5ce1 !re w n be _m p 9 ! ,basilica4 ,s mu* ! bett]1 says ,augu/94 ,my lungs w get "s re/4 ,ano!r "t1 x is adv]tis$ ?r\gh ! t[n t mo/ s5sational attractions w be (f]$ at ! !atre--!re w be a sc5e repres5t+ ! op5 sea4 ,! prea*] laughs at ^? :o h des]t$ ! *ur* to g & see ?is illusion3 ,!y w h1 says he1 ! sea on ! /age2 b we1 bro!rs--ah1 we %all h our port 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?is ,saturday1 :ile he is prea*+1 "s ,jewi% wom5 set !mselves to dance & s+ on ! t]races ( ! ne> h\ses1 by way ( celebrat+ ! ,sabba?4 ,9 ! basilica1 ! ba%+ ( ! crotolos c be he>d1 & ! ?uds ( ! tamb\r9es4 ,!y w\ld d bett]1 says ,augu/91 to "w & sp9 _! wool4 ,he dwells ^u ! cata/rophes :i* 7 !n convuls+ ! ,roman _w4 ,! news ( !m spread ) wond]ful rapidity4 ,al>ic's ,b>b>ians h tak5 ,rome & put x to fire & sword4 ,at ,j]usalem has be5 an e>?quake1 & ! bi%op ,john organizes a subscription = ! suff]]s ?r\gh\t ,*ri/5dom4 ,at ,con/ant9ople1 globes ( fire h be5 se5 9 ! sky4 ,! ,s]apeum ( ,alex&ria has j be5 de/roy$ 9 a riot4444 ,all ^! ?+s foll[ ea* o!r 9 lively pictures1 )\t any app>5t ord]1 ?r\gh\t ,augu/9's s]mons4 ,x is n he :o divides 8 disc\rse into ?ree p>ts1 & refra9s f pass+ to ! second till he has le>n$ly exp\nd$ ! fir/4 ,:e!r he comm5ts ^u ! ,psalms or ! ,gospels1 8 s]mons are no m ?an explanations ( ! ,scriptures :i* he int]prets1 sometimes 9 a lit]al s5se1 & sometimes 9 an allegoric4 ,let u ackn[l$ge x--8 allegoric disc\rses repel u by _! extreme subtilty1 sometimes by _! bad ta/e2 & :5 he conf9es himself to ! lett] ( ! text1 he /umbles among small po9ts ( gramm> :i* we>y ! att5tion4 ,we foll[ him no long]4 ,we ?9k 8 audi5ce 0 v oblig+ to li/5 s long--& on _! feet--to ^! endless diss]tations4444 ,& !n1 sudd5ly1 a great lyrical & oratorical outbur/ :i* c>ries u away--a w9d :i* bl[s f ! high m\nta9s1 & 9 ! w9k ( an eye sweeps away l du/ all ^? f9e-spun reason+s4 ,he is fond ( c]ta9 commonplaces1 & also ( c]ta9 books ( ! ,bible--= in/ance1 ,! ,song ( ,songs & ! ,gospel ( ,/4 ,john1 ! "o satisfy+ 9 him ! intellectual1 & ! o!r ! my/ic ( love4 ,he confronts ! v]se ( ! ,psalm3 ,be=e ! morn+ /> h ,i begott5 !e1 ) ! sublime op5+ ( ! ,f\r? ,gospel3 ,9 ! beg9n+ 0 ! ,^w4 ,he l+]s ^u ! beauty ( ,*ri/3 ,speciosus =ma pr filiis hom9um1 ,?\ art fair] ?an ! *ildr5 ( m54 ,?is is :y he is always repeat+ ) ! ,psalmi/3 ,?y face1 ,"l1 h ,i s\ght--,qusivi vultum tuum1 ,dom9e4 ,& ! orator1 c>ri$ away by en?usiasm1 adds3 ,magnific5t say+6 ,no?+ m div9e c\ld be said4 ,^? feel x :o truly love4 ,ano!r ( 8 fav\rite subjects is ! k9dness ( ,god3 ,videte et gu/ate quam mitis sit ,dom9us--,o ta/e & see t ! ,"l is good4 ,naught c equal ! pleasure ( ?is contemplation1 ( ?is life 9 ,god4 ,augu/9 conceives x z a musician :o has fa?om$ ! secret ( numb]s4 ,let y\r life1 he said1 be "o prolong$ song4444 ,we d n s+ only ) ! voice & lips :5 we intone a canticle1 b 9 u is an inw>d s++1 because !re is also 9 u ,"s ,"o :o li/5s4444 ,to live ?is rhy?mic & div9e life we mu/ get free ( ourselves1 give ourselves up utt]ly 9 a great outbur/ ( *>ity4 ,:y1 he cries--,oh1 :y d y hesitate to give y\rselves le/ y %\ld lose y\rselves8 ,x is r by n giv+ y\rselves t y lose y\rselves4 ,*>ity h]self speaks to y by ! m\? ( ,wisdom & upholds y aga9/ ! t]ror :i* fills y at ! s\nd ( ^? words3 ',give y\rself4' ,if "s "o want$ to sell y a piece ( l&1 he w\ld say to y3 ',give me y\r gold4' ,& = some?+ else1 he w\ld say3 ',give me y\r silv]1 give me y\r money4' ,li/5 to :at ,*>ity says to y by ! m\? ( ,wisdom3 ',my son1 give me ?y he>t4' ',give me1' quo? %e4 ,give :at8 ',my son1 give me ?y he>t4'444 ,?y he>t 0 n happy :5 x 0 gov]n$ by !e1 & 0 ?9e1 = x turn$ ?is way & t way aft] gawds1 aft] impure & dang]\s loves4 ',tis f !re ?y he>t mu/ be drawn4 ,:i!r lift x up8 ,:]e to place x8 ',give me ?y he>t1' says ,wisdom1 'let x be m9e1 & x w belong to !e = always4' ,aft] ! *ant ( love1 ! *ant ( ! ,resurrection4 ,cantate mihi canticum novum--,s+ to me a new song6 ,augu/9 repeats ^! words ov] & ov] aga94 ,we wi% to rise f ! dead1 cry s\ls crav+ = et]nity4 ,& ! ,*ur* answ]s3 ,v]ily1 ,i say unto y1 t y %all rise f ! dead4 ,resurrection ( bodies1 resurrection ( s\ls1 ye %all be altoge!r reborn4 ,augu/9 has expla9$ no dogma m passionately4 ,none 0 m pleas+ to ! fai?ful ( ^? times4 ,ceaselessly !y begg$ to be /r5g!n$ 9 ! conviction ( immortality & ( meet+ aga9 bro!rlike 9 ,god4 ,) :at intrepid delight x rose--?is song ( ! ,resurrection 9 ^? cle> ,african basilicas swimm+ 9 light1 ) all _! brilliant ornam5tation ( mosaics & m>bles ( a ?\s& col\rs6 ,& :at artless & confid5t language ^? symbolic figures spoke :i* peopl$ _! walls--! lambs br[s+ among clu/]s ( asphodels1 ! doves1 ! gre5 trees ( ,p>adise4 ,z 9 ! ,gospel p>ables1 ! birds ( ! field & f>my>d1 ! fruits ( ! e>?1 figur$ ! ,*ri/ian tru?s & virtues4 ,_! purifi$ =ms accompani$ man 9 8 asc5sion t[>ds ,god4 ,ar\nd ! my/ic *risms1 circl$ g>l&s ( oranges & pe>s & pomegranates4 ,cocks1 ducks1 p>tridges1 flam+oes1 s\ght _! pa/ure 9 ! ,p>adisal fields pa9t$ ^u ! walls ( *ur*es & cemet]ies4 ,^? "y basilicas 7 truly ! temples ( ! ,resurrection1 :]e all ! creatures ( ! ,ark sav$ f ! wat]s _h f\nd _! refuge4 ,nev] m 9 ! c5turies to foll[ %all humanity "k ?is frank joy at hav+ triumph$ ov] dea?--?is y\? ( hope4 ,,iii ,,! ,,bi%op',s ,,bur!n ,augu/9 is n only ! mo/ human ( all ! sa9ts1 he is also "o ( ! mo/ amiable 9 all ! s5ses ( t hackney$ ^w--amiable accord+ to ! _w1 amiable accord+ to ,*ri/4 ,to be conv9c$ ( ?is1 he %\ld be obs]v$ 9 8 deal+s ) 8 he>]s1 ) 8 correspond5ts1 ev5 ) ^? he attacks--) ! bitt]e/ enemies ( ! fai?4 ,prea*+1 ! adm9i/ration ( prop]ty1 & sitt+ 9 judgm5t 7 b a "p ( t episcopal bur!n1 ,s>c9a episcopatus1 "u :i* he s (t5 groan$4 ,he _h fur!rmore to cate*ize1 baptize1 direct consci5ces1 gu>d ! fai?ful aga9/ error1 & dispute ) all ^? :o ?reat5$ ,ca?olicism4 ,augu/9 0 a light ( ! ,*ur*4 ,he knew x4 ,do+ 8 be/1 ) admirable consci5ti\sness & *>ity he und]took ^! tasks4 ,god kn[s :at x mu/ h co/ ?is ,intellectual to fulfil precisely all ! duties ( 8 m9i/ry1 d[n to ! humble/4 ,:at he w\ld h lik$1 above all1 0 to pass 8 life 9 /udy+ ! ,scriptures & m$itat+ on ! dogmas--n f a love ( trifl+ ) !ories1 b because he believ$ su* k necess>y to :oev] gave =? ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,mo/ ( ! prie/s ( t age arriv$ at ! prie/hood )\t any previ\s /udy4 ,!y _h to improvise1 z quick z !y c\ld1 a complete education 9 religi\s subjects4 ,we are left a/\nd$ be=e ! huge lab\r :i* ,augu/9 mu/ h giv5 to acquire 84 ,be=e long he ev5 dom9at$ ! :ole exegetical & !ological k ( 8 "t4 ,9 8 zeal = div9e lett]s1 he knew sleep no m4 ,& yet he did n neglect any ( 8 tasks4 ,l ! lea/ ( our p>i% prie/s1 he prep>$ ! neophytes = ! ,sacram5ts4 ,he 0 an incomp>able cate*i/1 s cle>-sight$ & scrupul\s t 8 in/ructions may /ill be tak5 z models by ! cate*i/s ( to-day4 ,nei!r did he1 z an ari/ocrat ( ! intellig5ce1 only tr\ble himself ) p]sons ( culture1 & leave to 8 deacons ! c>e ( ,god's common p4 ,all _h a "r to 8 lessons1 ! simple peasants z well z ! ri* & s*ol>ly4 ,"o day1 a f>m] he 0 tea*+ walk$ (f & left him !re 9 ! middle ( 8 disc\rse4 ,! poor man1 :o _h fa/$1 & n[ li/5$ to 8 bi%op /&+1 0 fa9t f hung] & felt 8 legs tremble "u him4 ,he ?\ght x bett] to run away ?an to fall d[n exhau/$ at ! feet ( ! le>n$ prea*]4 ,) 8 k ( m51 ,augu/9 c>efully /udi$ ! k9d ( p 8 cate*um5s 71 & adapt$ 8 in/ructions to ! "* ( ea*4 ,if !y 7 city folk1 ,c>?ag9ians1 us$ to sp5d+ _! "t 9 !atres & tav]ns1 drunk5 & lazy1 he took a diff]5t tone ) !m f :at he us$ ) ru/ics :o _h nev] left _! native g\rbi4 ,if he 7 deal+ ) fa%ionable p :o _h a ta/e = lit]ature1 he did n fail to exalt ! beauties ( ! ,scripture1 al?\gh1 he w\ld say1 !y _h !re a v trifl+ attraction comp>$ to ! tru?s conta9$ 9 x4 ,( all ! cate*um5s1 ! h>de/ to deal )1 ! mo/ fe>some 9 8 eyes1 7 ! pr(essors--! rhetoricians & ! gramm>ians4 ,^! m5 are bloat$ ) vanity1 puff$ up ) intellectual pride4 ,augu/9 knew some?+ ab\t t4 ,x w be necess>y to r\se !m viol5tly1 & be=e any?+ else1 to exhort !m to humility ( m9d4 ,! good sa9t goes fur!r4 ,n only is he anxi\s ab\t ! s\ls1 b also ab\t ! bodies ( 8 li/5]s4 ,are !y com=table = li/5+8 ,z soon z !y feel tir$ !y mu/ n hesitate to sit d[n1 z is ! usage 9 ! basilicas beyond seas4 ,w\ld n our arrogance be unbe>able1 he ask$1 if we =bade m5 :o are our bro!rs to sit d[n 9 our pres5ce1 &1 mu* m1 m5 :om we ought to try ) all possible c>e to make our bro!rs8444 ,if !y are se5 to yawn1 !n ?+s ought to be said to !m to awak5 _! att5tion1 or to scatt] ! sad ?\ghts :i* may h come into _! m9ds4 ,! cate*i/ %\ld %ew1 n[ a s]5e joy--! joy ( c]ta9ty2 n[ a gaiety :i* *>ms p into belief2 & always t light-he>t$ness we %\ld h 9 tea*+4 ,ev5 if we ourselves are sad f ?is reason or t1 let u rememb] t ,jesus ,*ri/ di$ = ^? :o are li/5+ to u4 ,is n ! ?\ght ( br++ ,him disciples en\gh to make u joyful8 ,bi%op ,augu/9 set ! example = 8 prie/s4 ,x is n en\gh to h prep>$ ! conv]sion ( 8 cate*um5s ) ! subtlety ( ! psy*ologi/1 & su* p]fect ,*ri/ian *>ity2 b he accompanies !m to ! v end1 & *>ges !m once m be=e ! baptismal pisc9a4 ,h[ he is *ang$6 ,"o ?9ks ( ! boon-fell[ ( ,romanianus & ( ,manlius ,!odorus1 ( ! "y man :o foll[$ ! hunts at ,?aga/e1 & :o held =? on lit]ature & philosophy 9 a select company be=e ! beautiful horizons ( ! lake ( ,como4 ,"h he is n[ ) peasants1 slaves1 sailors1 & trad]s4 ,& he takes pleasure 9 _! society4 ,x is 8 flock4 ,he ought to love x ) all 8 s\l 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,:at an ef=t & :at a victory ^u himself an attitude s /range reveals to u6 ,= really ?is lik+ = mean p 0 n natural to him4 ,he mu/ h put an h]oic w-p[] into x1 help$ by ,grace4 ,a l s9k+ ( 8 pref]5ces is evid5t 9 ! director ( consci5ces he became4 ,"h he 0 oblig$ to give himself m ?or\ghly4 ,he 0 at ! m]cy ( ! s\ls :o que/ion$ him1 :o consult$ him z _! physician4 ,he sp5ds 8 "t 9 advis+ !m1 & ex]cises a nev]-fail+ sup]vision ( _! morals4 ,x is an almo/ disc\rag+ ent]prise to b5d ^! h>d5$ pagans--above all1 ^! ,africans--to ,*ri/ian discipl9e4 ,augu/9 is cont9ually reproa*+ _! drunk5ness1 gluttony1 & lu/4 ,! populace 7 n ! only ones to get drunk & ov]-eat !mselves4 ,! ri* at _! fea/s lit]ally /uff$ till !y *ok$4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,hippo nev] lets a *ance g by to recall !m to sobriety4 ,(t5] /ill1 he recalls !m to *a/ity4 ,he writes long lett]s on ?is subject :i* are actual treatises4 ,! morals ( ! age & c\ntry are fully disclos$ 9 !m4 ,husb&s are f\nd l\dly claim+ a "r to free love = !mselves1 :ile !y =ce _! wives to conjugal fidelity4 ,! adult]y !y all[ !mselves1 !y puni% ) dea? 9 _! wives4 ,!y make an abusive practice ( divorce4 ,^u ! mo/ futile reasons1 !y s5d ! wife ! libellus repudii--! bill repudiat+ ! m>riage--z ! v>i\s peoples ( ,islam d /ill4 ,?is society 9 a /ate ( transition 0 always creat+ cases ( consci5ce = /rict ,*ri/ians4 ,= example3 ,if a man ca/ (f 8 wife "u pretext ( adult]y1 might he m>ry aga98 ,augu/9 held t no m>riage c be dissolv$ z long z bo? p>ties are liv+4 ,b may n ?is prohibition provoke husb&s to kill _! adult]\s wives1 s z to be free to take a new wife8 ,ano!r problem3 ,a cate*um5 divorc$ "u ! pagan law & s9ce rem>ri$1 pres5ts himself = baptism4 ,is he n an adult]] 9 ! eyes ( ! ,*ur*8 ,a man :o lives ) a woman & does n hide x1 :o ev5 decl>es 8 firm int5tion ( cont9u+ to live ) 8 concub9e--c he be admitt$ to baptism8 ,augu/9 has to answ] all ^! que/ions1 & g into ! v smalle/ details ( casui/ry4 ,is x =bidd5 to eat ! meats consecrat$ to idols1 ev5 :5 a man or woman is dy+ ( hung]8 ,may "o ent] into agreem5ts ) native camel-driv]s & c>ri]s :o swe> by _! gods to keep ! b>ga98 ,may a lie be told 9 c]ta9 conditions8--say1 s z to get among h]etics 9 pret5d+ to be "o ( !mselves1 & ?us be able to spy on !m & d5\nce !m8 ,may adult]y be practis$ ) a woman :o promises 9 ex*ange to po9t out h]etics8444 ,! ,bi%op ( ,hippo sev]ely condemns all ^! devi\s or %ameful ways1 all ^! compromises :i* are contr>y to ! pure moral tea*+ ( ! ,gospel4 ,b he does ?is )\t affect+ intol]ance & rigidity1 & ) a rem9d] t ! evil ( s9 lies altoge!r 9 ! int5tion1 & 9 ! cons5t ( ! w4 ,9 a ^w1 "o mu/ tol]ate & put up ) :at "o is p[]less to h9d]4 ,o!r que/ions1 :i* x is q impossible to repeat "h1 give u a /range idea ( ! corruption ( pagan morals4 ,augu/9 _h all he c\ld d to ma9ta9 ! ,*ri/ian rule 9 su* surr\nd+s1 :]e ! ,*ri/ians !mselves 7 m or less ta9t$ ) paganism4 ,b if ?is troop ( s9n]s & backslid]s 0 h>d to drive1 ! dev\t 7 p]haps h>d]4 ,!re 7 ! cont95ts--! wid[]s & wid[s :o _h made a v[ ( *a/ity & f\nd ?is v[ heavy2 ! consecrat$ virg9s :o liv$ 9 too worldly a fa%ion2 ! nuns :o rebell$ aga9/ _! spiritual director or _! sup]ior2 ! monks1 ei!r =m] slaves :o did n want to d ano!r /roke ( "w1 or *>latans :o play$ ^u public cr$ulity 9 sell+ talismans & miracul\s o9tm5ts4 ,!n1 ! m>ri$ wom5 :o refus$ !mselves to _! husb&s2 & ^? :o gave away _! goods to ! poor )\t _! husb&s' cons5t2 & also ! pr\d virg9s & wid[s :o despis$ & condemn$ m>riage4 ,!n came ! cr[d ( pi\s s\ls :o que/ion$ ,augu/9 on po9ts ( dogma1 :o want$ to "k all1 to cle> up ev]y?+2 ^? :o ?\ght !y %\ld be able "h bel[ to see ,god face to face1 to "k h[ we %all arise1 & :o ask$ if ! angels _h bodies4444 ,augu/9 compla9s t !y are annoy+1 :5 he has s _m o!r ?+s to tr\ble him1 & t !y take him f 8 /udies4 ,b he tries *>itably to satisfy !m all4 ,besides all ?is1 he 0 oblig$ to keep up a correspond5ce ) a great numb] ( p4 ,9 addition to 8 fri5ds & fell[-bi%ops1 he wrote to unkn[n p & =eign]s2 to m5 9 high place & to l[ly p2 to ! proconsuls1 ! c\nts & ! vic>s ( ,africa2 to ! v mighty ,olympius1 ,ma/] ( ! ,h\sehold to ! ,emp]or ,honorius2 or aga91 to ! ,"r ,hon\rable ,lady ,maxima1 to ! ,illu/ri\s ,ladies ,proba & ,juliana1 to ! ,v ,holy ,lady ,alb9a--wom5 :o belong$ ei!r to ! prov9cial nobility1 or to ! highe/ ari/ocracy ( ,rome4 ,to :om did he n write8444 ,& :at is admirable 9 ^! lett]s is t he does n answ] neglig5tly to get rid ( a tiresome duty4 ,almo/ all ( !m are full ( sub/antial tea*+1 long ?\ght ov]4 ,_m 7 int5d$ to be publi%$--!y are practically *>ges4 ,& yet1 h[ev] grave ! tone ( !m may be1 ! cultivat$ man ( ! _w he _h be5 may be trac$4 ,8 correspond5ts1 aft] ! fa%ion ( ! "t1 ov]:elm ! bi%op ) ! mo/ fulsome praises4 ,^! he accepts1 ) mu* c]emony inde$1 b he does accept !m z evid5ce ( ! *>ity ( 8 bre?r54 ,+5u\sly1 he does 8 be/ to return !m4 ,let u n gr[ ov]-sc&aliz$ because our m5 ( lett]s ( to-day h debas$ ! value ( complim5t>y language by squ&]+ & exagg]at+ x4 ,! mo/ au/]e cotempor>ies ( ,augu/91 & ,augu/9 himself1 outdid !m by a long way 9 ! art & 9 ! abuse ( complim5ts4 ,paul9us ( ,nola1 always befl[]$ & elegant1 wrote to ,augu/93 ,y\r lett]s are a lum9\s collyrium spread ov] ! eyes ( my m9d4 ,augu/91 :o remon/rat$ ) him ^u ! sc>city ( 8 own lett]s1 replies 9 language :i* our own ,prcieuses w\ld n h dis[n$3 ,:at6 ,y all[ me to pass two summ]s--& two ,african summ]s6--9 su* ?ir/8444 ,w\ld to ,god t y w\ld all[ ent] to ! opul5t banquet ( y\r book1 ! long fa/ f y\r writ+s :i* y h put me ^u dur+ all a ye>6 ,if ?is banquet be n ready1 ,i %all n give ov] my compla9ts1 unless1 inde$1 t 9 ! "t betwe51 y s5d me some?+ to keep up my /r5g?4 ,a c]ta9 ,audax1 :o begg$ ! hon\r ( a special lett] f ! great man1 calls him ! oracle ( ! ,law2 prote/s t ! :ole _w celebrates & admires him2 & f9ally1 at ! end ( 8 argum5ts1 conjures him 9 v]se to ,let fall ^u me ! dew ( ?y div9e ^w4 ,augu/91 ) mode/y & b5ignity1 returns 8 complim5ts1 b n )\t slipp+ into 8 reply a t\* ( bant]3 ,all[ me to po9t out to y t y\r fif? l9e has sev5 feet4 ,has y\r e> betray$ y1 or did y want to f9d out if ,i 0 /ill capable ( judg+ ^! ?+s8444 ,truly1 he is always capable ( judg+ ^! ?+s1 nor is he sorry to h x kn[n4 ,a "y ,greek nam$ ,dioscorus1 :o is pass+ ?r\gh ,c>?age1 que/ions him ^u ! philosophy ( ,cic]o4 ,augu/9 exclaims at any "o d>+ to int]rupt a bi%op ab\t su* trifles4 ,!n1 little by little1 he gr[s mild]1 & c>ri$ away by 8 old passion1 he ends by s5d+ ! "y man q a diss]tation on ?is good subject4 ,^? are among 8 innoc5t :imsicalities4 ,!n1 alongside ( lett]s ei!r too lit]>y1 or erudite1 or pr(\nd1 !re are o!rs :i* are simply exquisite1 su* z ! "o he wrote to a "y ,c>?age girl call$ ,sapida4 ,%e _h embroid]$ a tunic = h] bro!r4 ,he 0 dead1 & %e ask$ ,augu/9 k9dly to we> ?is tunic1 tell+ him t if he w\ld d ?is1 x w\ld be a great com=t = h] 9 h] grief4 ,! bi%op cons5t$ v will+ly4 ,i accept ?is g>m5t1 he said to h]1 & ,i h begun to we> x be=e writ+ to y4444 ,!n g5tly he pities h] sorr[1 & p]suades h] to resignation & hope4 ,we %\ld n rebuke p = weep+ ov] ! dead :o are de> to !m4444 ,:5 we ?9k ( !m1 & ?r\gh habit we look = !m /ill ar\nd u1 !n ! he>t breaks1 & ! te>s fall l ! blood ( our brok5 he>t4444 ,at ! end1 9 magnific5t words1 he *ants ! hymn ( ! ,resurrection3 ,my daught]1 y\r bro!r lives 9 8 s\l1 if 9 8 body he sleeps4 ,does n ! sleep] wake8 ,god1 :o has receiv$ 8 s\l1 w put x aga9 9 ! body ,he has tak5 f him1 n to de/roy x--oh1 no1 b "s day to give x to him back4 99 99 99 99 99 ,?is correspond5ce1 volum9\s z x is1 is no?+ beside 8 numb]less treatises 9 dogma & polemic4 ,^! 7 ! "w ( 8 life1 & x is by ^! po/]ity has kn[n him4 ,! !ologian & ! disput] end$ by hid+ ! man 9 ,augu/94 ,to-day1 ! man p]haps int]e/s u m4 ,& ?is is a mi/ake4 ,he himself w\ld n h all[$ = a mom5t t 8 ,confessions %\ld be pref]r$ to 8 treatises on ,grace4 ,to /udy1 to comm5t ! ,scriptures1 to draw m exact def9itions f ! dogmas--he saw no high] employm5t = 8 m9d1 or obligation m important = a bi%op4 ,to believe s z to und]/&1 to und]/& ! bett] to believe--x is a ceaseless movem5t ( ! intellig5ce :i* goes f fai? to ,god & f ,god to fai?4 ,he ?r[s himself into ?is great lab\r )\t a %ade ( any attempt to make lit]ature1 ) a complete s9k+ ( 8 ta/es & 8 p]sonal op9ions1 & 9 x he entirely =gets himself4 ,"o s+le "t he has ?\ght ( himself1 & x is precisely 9 ! ,confessions1 ! _s ( :i* mod]n p und]/& s ill1 & :]e !y try to f9d some?+ q diff]5t f :at ! au?or int5d$4 ,he compos$ !m j aft] he 0 rais$ to ! bi%opric1 to def5d himself aga9/ ! calumnies spread ab\t 8 conduct4 ,x seems z if he want$ to say to 8 detractors3 ,y believe me guilty4 ,well1 ,i am s1 & m p]haps ?an y ?9k1 b n 9 ! way y ?9k4 ,a great religi\s idea alt]s ?is p]sonal def5ce4 ,x is less a confession1 or an excuse = 8 faults1 9 ! pres5t s5se ( ! ^w1 ?an a cont9ual glorification ( ! div9e m]cy4 ,x is less ! %ame ( 8 s9s he confesses1 ?an ! glory ( ,god4 ,aft] t1 he nev] ?\ght aga9 ( any?+ b ,tru? & ! ,*ur*1 & ! enemies ( ,tru? & ! ,*ur*3 ! ,mani*ees1 ! ,arians1 ! ,pelagians--! ,donati/s1 above all4 ,he lets no error g by )\t refut+ x1 no libel )\t an answ]4 ,he is always on ! brea*4 ,he might well be comp>$1 9 mu* ( 8 writ+s1 to "o ( our fight+ j\rnali/s4 ,he put into ?is g5]ally ?ankless bus9ess a wond]ful vig\r & dialectical subtlety4 ,always & ev]y:]e he _h to h ! la/ ^w4 ,he br\ght eloqu5ce to x1 yet m *>ity--sometimes ev5 wit4 ,& la/ly1 he _h a pati5ce :i* no?+ c\ld di%e>t54 ,he repeats ! same ?+s a hundr$ times ov]4 ,^! tiresome repetitions1 into :i* he 0 driv5 by ! ob/9acy ( 8 oppon5ts1 caus$ him real pa94 ,e "t x became necess>y1 he took up aga9 ! endless demon/ration )\t lett+ himself gr[ tir$4 ,! mom5t x became a "q ( ! ,tru?1 ,augu/9 c\ld n see t he _h any "r to keep quiet4 ,9 ,africa & else:]e !y made fun ( :at !y call$ 8 craze = scribbl+4 ,he himself1 9 8 ,retractations1 is />tl$ by ! numb] ( 8 works4 ,he turns ov] ! ,scripture say+ :i* ! ,donati/s amus+ly oppos$ to him3 ,v mullum loqu5tibus--,woe unto !m ( _m words4 ,b call+ ,god to witness1 he says to ,him3 ,v tac5tibus de te--,woe unto ^? :o keep sil5t ^u ,!e4 ,9 ! eyes ( ,augu/91 ! conditions 7 su* t sil5ce w\ld h be5 c[>dly4 ,& else:]e he adds3 ,!y may believe me or n z !y w1 b ,i l mu* bett] to read ?an to write books4444 ,9 any case1 8 mode/y 0 evid5t4 ,i am myself1 he ackn[l$ges1 almo/ always dissatisfi$ ) :at ,i say4 ,to ! h]etics he decl>es1 ) a glance back at 8 own errors1 ,i "k by exp]i5ce h[ easy x is to be wrong4 ,:5 !re is "s d\bt 9 que/ions ( dogma1 he does n =ce 8 explanations1 b sugge/s !m to 8 read]s4 ,h[ mu* intellectual humility is 9 t pray] :i* ends 8 great "w on ! ,tr9ity3 ,"l my ,god1 "o ,tr9ity1 if 9 ^! books ,i h said any?+ :i* comes f ,!e1 may ,?\ & ,?y *os5 receive x4 ,b if x is f me x comes1 may ,?\ & ,?9e =give me4 ,& aga91 h[ mu* tol]ance & *>ity 9 ^? c\nsels to ! fai?ful ( 8 diocese :o1 hav+ be5 =m]ly p]secut$ by ! ,donati/s1 n[ burn$ to get _! rev5ge3 ,x is ! voice ( y\r bi%op1 my bro!rs1 s\nd+ 9 y\r e>s4 ,he implores y1 all ( y :o are 9 ?is *ur*1 to keep y\rselves f insult+ ^? :o are outside1 b r to pray t !y may ent] ) y into communion4 ,else:]e1 he rem9ds 8 prie/s t !y mu/ prea* at ! ,jews 9 a _s ( fri5dl9ess & lov+-k9dness1 )\t tr\bl+ to "k if !y li/5 ) gratitude or indignation4 ,we ought n1 said he1 to be> ourselves pr\dly aga9/ ^! brok5 bran*es ( ,*ri/'s tree4444 ,?is *>ity & mod]ation took no?+ f ! firmness ( 8 "*4 ,?is he prov$ 9 a />tl+ way 9 ! discussion he _h ) ,/4 ,j]ome ov] a passage ,9 ! ,epi/le to ! ,galatians1 & ^u ! new translation1 ( ! ,bible :i* ,j]ome _h und]tak54 ,! solit>y ( ,be?lehem saw a fe9t on ! "p ( ,/4 ,paul 9 ! disput$ passage3 ,augu/9 said1 a lie4 ,:at1 !n1 w\ld become ( evangelic tru? if 9 su* a place ! ,apo/le _h li$8 ,& w\ld n ?is be a means ( au?oriz+ all ! exegetical fantasies ( h]esi>*s1 :o already reject$ z alt]$ or =g$ all v]ses ( ! holy books :i* conflict$ ) _! own doctr9es8444 ,z to ! new translation ( ! ,bible1 x w\ld br+ ab\t tr\ble 9 ! ,african *ur*es1 :]e !y 7 accu/om$ to ! anci5t v]sion ( ! ,septuag9t4 ,! mi/ranslations1 po9t$ out by ,j]ome 9 ! old v]sion1 w\ld upset ! fai?ful & lead !m to suspect t ! entire ,scripture 0 false4 ,9 ?is d\ble matt]1 ,augu/9 def5d$ at once or?odoxy & tradition f v praisewor?y reasons ( prud5ce4 ,j]ome retort$ 9 a mo/ aggressive & (f5sive tone4 ,he flatly accus$ ! ,bi%op ( ,hippo ( be+ jeal\s ( him & ( wi%+ to cut out a reputation = le>n+ at 8 exp5se4 ,9 front ( 8 y\ng] & m supple adv]s>y1 he took on ! air ( an old wre/l] :o 0 /ill capable ( knock+ out any "o :o _h ! audacity to attack him4 ,he hurl$ at ,augu/9 ?is phrase heavy ) m5aces3 ,! tir$ ox /&s firm] ?an ev] on 8 f\r legs4 ,= all t1 ,augu/9 /uck to 8 op9ion1 & he conf9$ himself to reply+ g5tly3 ,9 any?+ ,i say1 ,i am n only always ready to receive y\r obs]vations ^u :at y f9d w\nd+ & contr>y to y\r feel+s1 b ,i ev5 ask y\r advice z e>ne/ly z ,i c4444 ,,iv ,,aga9/ ,,! ,,ro>+ ,,lions ,"o day 7?is 0 soon aft] he became bi%op7 ,augu/9 w5t to visit a ,ca?olic f>m] 9 ! suburbs ( ,hippo1 ^: daught] _h be5 lesson$ by ! ,donati/s1 & _h j enroll$ h]self among _! consecrat$ virg9s4 ,! fa!r at fir/ _h %\t$ at ! des]t]1 & flogg$ h] unm]cifully by way ( improv+ h] /ate ( m9d4 ,augu/91 :5 he he>d ( ! affair1 condemn$ ! f>m]'s brutality & decl>$ t he w\ld nev] receive ! girl back into ! community unless %e came ( h] own free w4 ,he !n w5t out to ! place to try & settle ! matt]4 ,on ! way1 z he 0 cross+ an e/ate :i* belong$ to a ,ca?olic matron1 he fell 9 ) a prie/ ( ! ,donati/ ,*ur* at ,hippo4 ,! prie/ at once began to insult him & 8 companions1 & yell$3 ,d[n ) ! traitors6 ,d[n ) ! p]secutors6 ,& he vomit$ out abom9ations aga9/ ! matron h]self :o own$ ! l&4 ,z mu* f prud5ce z f ,*ri/ian *>ity1 ,augu/9 did n answ]4 ,he ev5 prev5t$ ^? ) him f fall+ ^u ! insult]4 ,incid5ts ( ?is k9d happ5$ almo/ e day4 ,ab\t ! same "t1 ! ,donati/s ( ,hippo made a great noise ov] ! rebaptiz+ ( ano!r apo/ate f ! ,ca?olic community4 ,?is 0 a good-=-no?+ loaf] :o beat 8 old "m1 & ! bi%op sev]ely rebuk$ 8 mon/r\s conduct4 ,well1 z y talk 9 t tone ( voice1 said ! loaf]1 ,i'm go+ to be a ,donati/4 ,?r\gh bravado1 he cont9u$ to ill-treat ! poor old woman1 & to make ! wor/ k9d ( ?reats4 ,he ro>$ 9 savage fury3 ,yes1 ,i'll become a ,donati/1 & ,i'll h y\r blood4 ,& ! "y ruffian did really g ov] to ! ,donati/ p>ty4 ,9 accordance ) ! cu/om among ! h]etics1 he 0 solemnly rebaptiz$ 9 _! basilica1 & he exhibit$ himself on ! plat=m clad 9 ! :ite robe ( ! purifi$4 ,p 9 ,hippo 7 mu* %ock$4 ,augu/91 full ( indignation1 address$ 8 prote/s to ,proculeianus1 ! ,donati/ bi%op4 ,:at6 is ?is man1 all bloody ) a murd] 9 8 consci5ce1 to walk ab\t = eight days 9 :ite robes z a model ( innoc5ce & purity8 ,b ,proculeianus did n condesc5d to reply4 ,^! cynical proce$+s 7 trifl+ comp>$ to ! vexations :i* ! ,donati/s daily inflict$ on _! oppon5ts4 ,n only did !y tamp] ) ,augu/9's p1 b ! c\ntry dwell]s ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 7 cont9ually int]f]$ ) on _! l&s1 pillag$1 ravag$1 & burn$ out by mobs ( fanatical brig&s :o organiz$ a rule ( t]ror f "o end ( ,numidia to ! o!r4 ,support$ 9 secret by ! ,donati/s1 !y call$ !mselves ! ,a?letes ( ,*ri/4 ,! ,ca?olics _h giv5 !m ! contemptu\s "n ( ,circoncelliones1 or pr[l]s ar\nd cell>s1 because !y g5]ally plund]$ cell>s & gra9-h\ses4 ,troops ( fanaticiz$ & hy/]ical wom5 rambl$ r\nd ) !m1 sc\r+ ! c\ntry l y\r true bac*antes1 claw+ ! un=tunate wret*es :o fell into _! h&s1 burn+ f>ms & h>ve/s1 broa*+ b>rels ( w9e & oil1 & cr[n+ ^! exploits by orgies ) ! ,a?letes ( ,*ri/4 ,:5 !y saw a hay/ack blaz+ 9 ! fields1 ! c\ntry-folk 7 panic-/rick5--! ,circoncelliones 7 n f> (f4 ,soon !y appe>$1 br&i%+ _! clubs & bell[+ _! w> cry3 ,deo laudes6--,praise be to ,god4 ,y\r %\t1 said ,augu/9 to !m1 is m dread$ by our p ?an ! ro>+ ( lions4 ,some?+ _h to be done to quell ^! furi\s mon/]s1 & to resi/ ! encroa*m5ts & =cible acts ( ! h]etics4 ,^!1 by way ( fright5+ ! ,ca?olic bi%ops1 told !m r\ndly3 ,we don't want any ( y\r disputes1 & we are go+ to rebaptize j z x suits u4 ,we are go+ to lay sn>es = y\r %eep & to r5d !m l wolves4 ,z = y1 if y are good %eph]ds1 keep quiet6 ,augu/9 0 n a man to keep quiet1 nor yet to sp5d 8 /r5g? 9 small local qu>rels4 ,he saw big2 he did n imprison himself )9 ! limits ( 8 diocese4 ,he knew t ,numidia & a good "p ( ,africa 7 9 ! h&s ( ! ,donati/s2 t !y _h a rival primate to ! ,ca?olic primate at ,c>?age2 t !y _h ev5 s5t a ,pope ( _! community to ,rome4 ,9 a ^w1 !y 7 9 ! majority4 ,ev]y:]e a diss5t+ ,*ur* rose above ! or?odox ,*ur*1 :5 x did n succe$ 9 /ifl+ x altoge!r4 ,at all co/s ! progress ( ?is sect mu/ be /opp$4 ,9 ,augu/9's eyes !re 0 no m urg5t "w4 ,= him & 8 flock x 0 a "q ( insur+ _! lives1 s9ce !y 7 attack$ ev5 9 _! fields & h\ses4 ,f ! mom5t he fir/ came to ,hippo1 z a simple prie/1 he _h ?r[n himself intrepidly into ?is /ruggle4 ,he nev] ceas$ till ,donatism 0 conqu]$ & trampl$ und]foot4 ,to e/abli% peace & ,ca?olic unity ev]y:]e 0 ! great lab\r ( 8 episcopate4 ,:o1 !n1 7 ^! t]rible ,donati/s :om we h be5 cont9ually /rik+ aga9/ s9ce ! beg9n+ ( ?is hi/ory8 ,x w\ld soon be a c5tury s9ce !y _h be5 di/urb+ & desolat+ ,africa4 ,j aft] ! great p]secution ( ,diocletian1 ! sect 0 born1 & x increas$ ) amaz+ rapidity4 ,dur+ ?is p]secution1 evid5ce _h n be5 want+ ( ! moral slackness 9 ! ,african ,*ur*4 ,a l>ge numb] ( lay p apo/atiz$1 & a good numb] ( bi%ops & prie/s h&$ ov] to ! pagan au?orities1 besides ! devotional objects1 ! ,scriptures & ! munim5ts ( _! communities4 ,9 ,numidia1 & especially at ,con/ant9e1 sc&al\s sc5es took place4 ,! c[>dice ( ! cl]gy 0 lam5table4 ,public op9ion br&$ ) ! names ( traditors1 or traitors1 ^? :o _h weak5$ & giv5 ov] ! sacr$ books to ! pagans4 ,! dang] once ov]1 ! ,numidians1 ^: behavi\r _h be5 s little brilliant1 det]m9$ to r$eem !mselves by audacity1 & to prove ) sup]b impud5ce t !y _h be5 brav] ?an ! o!rs4 ,s !y set !mselves to %\t traditor aga9/ :oev] displeas$ !m1 & p>ticul>ly aga9/ ^? ( ,c>?age & ! ,proconsulate4 ,at bottom x 0 ! old rivalry betwe5 ! two ,africas1 ,ea/ & ,we/4 ,"u ! reign ( ,con/ant9e a peace _h be5 pat*$ up1 :5 x fell out t a new ,bi%op ( ,c>?age _h to be elect$1 & ! ,ar*deacon ,ccilianus1 ^: "n 0 put =w>d1 0 accus$ ( prev5t+ ! fai?ful f visit+ ! m>tyrs 9 _! prisons4 ,! zealots cont5d$ t 9 collusion ) 8 bi%op1 ,m5surius1 he _h giv5 up ! ,holy ,scriptures to ! ,roman au?orities to be burn$4 ,! election promis$ to be /ormy4 ,! support]s ( ! ,ar*deacon1 :o fe>$ ! ho/ility ( ! ,numidian bi%ops1 did n wait = _! arrival4 ,!y hurri$ ?+s ov]4 ,ccilianus 0 elect$ & consecrat$ by ?ree bi%ops ( ! di/rict1 ( :om "o 0 a c]ta9 ,felix ( ,ab?ugni4 ,at once ! opposite clan1 back$ up by ! ,numidians1 object$4 ,at _! head 0 a weal?y ,spani% woman nam$ ,lucilla1 an unbalanc$ devotee1 :o1 x seem$1 always c>ri$ ab\t h] p]son a bone ( a m>tyr1 & a d\btful "o at t4 ,%e w\ld o/5tati\sly kiss h] relic be=e receiv+ ! ,eu*>i/4 ,! ,ar*deacon ,ccilianus =bade ?is devotion z sup]/iti\s1 & ?us made a rel5tless enemy ( ! fanatical ,spani>d4 ,all ! =m] accusations 7 r5ew$ aga9/ him1 & x 0 add$ t ,felix ( ,ab?ugni1 :o _h consecrat$ him1 0 a traditor4 ,h5ce ! election 0 void1 by ! s+le fact ( ! unwor?9ess ( ! consecrat+ bi%ops4 ,lucilla1 hav+ brib$ a section ( ! bi%ops assembl$ 9 c\ncil1 ,ccilianus 0 depos$1 & ! deacon ,major9us elect$ 9 8 room4 ,he himself 0 soon aft] succe$$ by ,donatus1 an active1 clev]1 & en]getic man1 :o organiz$ resi/ance s ably1 & :o repres5t$ s well ! _s ( ! sect1 t he left x 8 "n4 ,h5ce=?1 ,donatism ent]s into hi/ory4 ,b ,ccilianus _h on 8 side ! bi%ops ov]seas & ! ,imp]ial ,gov]nm5t4 ,! ,pope ( ,rome & ! ,emp]or recogniz$ him z legitimately elect$4 ,besides t1 he cle>$ himself ( all ! grievances urg$ aga9/ him4 ,f9ally1 an inquiry1 conduct$ by laym51 prov$ t ,felix ( ,ab?ugni 0 n a traditor4 ,! ,donati/s appeal$ to ,con/ant9e1 !n to two ,c\ncils convok$ successively at ,rome & ,arles4 ,ev]y:]e !y 7 condemn$4 ,moreov]1 ! ,c\ncil ( ,arles decl>$ t ! "* ( him :o conf]s ! ,sacram5ts has no influ5ce :atev] on _! validity4 ,?us1 baptism & ord9ation1 ev5 conf]r$ by a traditor1 7 canonically s\nd4 ,?is decision 0 reg>d$ z an abom9able h]esy by ! ,donati/s4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 !re 0 an old ,african tradition1 accept$ by ,/4 ,cyprian himself1 t an unwor?y prie/ c\ld n adm9i/] ! ,sacram5ts4 ,! local prejudice w\ld n yield3 all 7 rebaptiz$ :o _h be5 baptiz$ by ! ,ca?olics--t is to say1 by ! support]s ( ! traditors4 ,! !ological "q 0 complicat$ ) a "q ( prop]ty :i* 0 all b insoluble4 ,s9ce ! ,donati/ bi%ops 7 resolv$ to sep>ate f ! ,ca?olic communion1 did !y mean to give up1 ) _! title1 _! basilicas & ! prop]ty belong+ to _! *ur*es8 ,suppos+ t !y !mselves 7 dis9t]e/$1 !y _h beh9d !m ! cr[d ( cli5ts & l&-till]s :o got _! liv+ out ( ! ,*ur*1 & dwelt on ,*ur* prop]ty4 ,nev] w\ld ^! p all[ a rival p>ty to alt] ! direction ( ! *>ities1 to plant !mselves 9 _! fields & _! g\rbis1 to expel !m f _! cemet]ies & basilicas4 ,o!r reasons1 /ill deep] p]haps1 induc$ ! ,donati/s to p]sev]e 9 ! s*ism4 ,^! religi\s diss5sions 7 agreeable to t old _s ( division :i* at all times has be5 ! evil g5ius ( ,africa4 ,! ,africans h always felt ! ne$ ( segregat+ !mselves f "o ano!r 9 ho/ile c(s4 ,!y hate ea* o!r f "o village to ano!r--= no?+1 j1 = ! pleasure ( hat+ & fell+ ea* o!r to ! gr\nd4 ,at bottom1 "h is :at ,donatism really 03 ,x 0 an extra %>p attack ( ,african individualism4 ,^! rebels br\ght 9 no?+ new 9 dogma4 ,!y w\ld n ev5 h be5 h]etics )\t _! claim to rebaptize4 ,!y limit$ !mselves to reta9 a position ga9$ long ago2 to keep _! *ur*es & prop]ties1 or to seize ^? ( ! ,ca?olics ^u ! pret5ce t !y 7 !mselves ! legitimate own]s4 ,) t1 !y affect$ a respect = tradition1 an au/]ity 9 morals & discipl9e1 :i* made !m p]fect puritans4 ,yes1 !y 7 ! pure1 ! irreconcilables1 :o alone _h n b5t be=e ! ,roman (ficials4 ,all ?is 0 v pleas+ to ! discont5t$ & qu>relsome1 & c>ess$ ! popul> in/9ct 9 its t5d5cy to p>ticul>ism4 ,t is :y ! sect became1 little by little1 mi/ress ( almo/ ! :ole c\ntry4 ,!n x subdivid$1 crumbl$ up into little *ur*es :i* excommunicat$ ea* o!r4 ,9 ,s\!rn ,numidia1 ! citadels ( or?odox ,donatism1 s to speak1 7 ,?imgad & ,bagai4 ,c>?age1 ) its primate1 0 ! (ficial c5tre4 ,b 9 ! ,byzac5a & ,tripolitana ,regio1 !re 7 ! ,maximiani/s1 & ! ,rogati/s 9 ,mauretania1 :o _h cut !mselves (f f ! ,great ,*ur*4 ,^! divisions ( ! s*ism correspond$ closely en\gh to ! natural comp>tm5ts ( ,nor? ,africa4 ,!re mu/ be "s incompatibility ( temp] betwe5 ^! v>i\s regions4 ,to ?is day1 ,algi]s prides itself on n ?9k+ l ,con/ant9e1 :i* does n ?9k l ,bona or l ,tunis4 ,are we to see 9 ,donatism a nationali/ or sep>ati/ movem5t direct$ aga9/ ! ,roman occupation8 ,t w\ld be to transport q mod]n ideas into antiquity4 ,no m 9 ,augu/9's "t ?an 9 our own 0 !re su* a ?+ z ,african nationality4 ,b if ! sect>ies _h no lea/ ?\ght ( sep>at+ f ,rome1 x is none ! less true t !y 7 9 rebellion aga9/ h] repres5tatives1 temporal z well z spiritual4 ,suppos+ t ,rome _h yield$ to !m--an impossible ev5t1 ( c\rse--t w\ld h meant a surr5d] to ! claims ( ,africans :o wi%$ to be ma/]s ( _! prop]ty z well z ( _! religi\s beliefs 9 _! own c\ntry4 ,:at m c\ld !y h want$8 ,x little matt]$ to !m :o 0 ! nom9al ma/]1 provid$ t !y _h ! realities ( gov]nm5t 9 _! h&s4 ,altoge!r1 ,donatism is a regionali/ rev9dication1 v /rongly *>act]iz$4 ,x is a rem>kable fact t x 0 among ! indig5\s population1 ignorant ( ,lat91 t ! mo/ ( its adh]5ts 7 recruit$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,su* 0 ! position ( ! ,*ur* 9 ,africa :5 ,augu/9 0 nam$ ,bi%op ( ,hippo4 ,he judg$ x at once1 ) 8 cle>-sight$ness1 8 /rong good s5se1 8 broad outlook ( a ,roman citiz5 fre$ f ! smallnesses ( a local _s1 8 ,*ri/ian idealism :i* took no he$ ( ! accid5ts or consid]ations ( worldly prosp]ity4 ,:at6 0 ,ca?olicism to become an ,african religion1 a re/rict$ sect1 wret*$ly ti$ to ! lett] ( tradition1 to ! ext]ior practices ( wor%ip8 ,to reign 9 a little corn] ( ! _w--did ,*ri/ die = t8 ,nev]6 ,*ri/ di$ = ! wide _w4 ,! only limits ( ,8 ,*ur* are ! limits ( ! univ]se4 ,& besides1 9 ?is resolution to exclude1 :at becomes ( ! great pr9ciple ( ,*>ity8 ,x is by *>ity1 above all1 t we are ,*ri/ians4 ,fai? )\t love is a fai? /agnant & dead4444 ,augu/9 also =esaw ! consequ5ces ( spiritual sep>ation2 he _h !m already "u 8 eyes4 ,! ,*ur* is ! great spr+1 n only ( love1 b ( intellig5ce4 ,once cut away f ?is reviv+ spr+1 ,donatism w\ld become dry & /unt$ l a bran* /ripp$ f a tree4 ,! deep s5se ( its dogmas w\ld become impov]i%$ z its works empti$ !mselves ( ! _s ( *>ity4 ,ob/9acy1 n>r[ness1 lack ( und]/&+1 fanaticism1 & cruelty--!re y _h ! inevitable fruits ( s*ism4 ,augu/9 knew ! rud5ess & ignorance ( 8 oppon5ts1 ev5 ( ! mo/ cultivat$ among !m3 he might well ask himself 9 angui% :at w\ld become ( ! ,african ,*ur* depriv$ ( ! b5efit ( ,roman culture1 isolat$ f ! great intellectual curr5t :i* unit$ all ! *ur*es beyond seas4 ,f9ally1 he knew 8 fell[-c\ntrym52 he knew t ! ,donati/s1 ev5 victori\s1 ev5 sole ma/]s ( ! l&1 w\ld turn aga9/ !mselves ! fury !y n[ satisfi$ aga9/ ! ,ca?olics1 & nev] /op te>+ ea* o!r 9 pieces4 ,"h 0 n[ ne>ly a hundr$ ye>s t !y _h kept ,africa 9 fire & blood4 ,?is meant be=e v long a return to b>b>ism4 ,sep>at$ f ,ca?olicism1 !y w\ld really sep>ate f ! ,empire & ev5 f civilization4 ,& s x 0 t 9 fight+ = ,ca?olic unity1 ,augu/9 f\ght = ! ,empire & = civilization4 ,confront$ ) ^! b>b>ians & sect>ies1 8 attitude c\ld n be d\btful = a s+le mom5t4 ,he mu/ d 8 be/ to br+ !m back to ! ,*ur*4 ,x 0 only a matt] ( hitt+ ^u ! mo/ effectual means4 ,prea*+1 = an orator su* z he 01 %\ld be an excell5t weapon4 ,8 eloqu5ce1 8 dialectic1 8 pr(ane & sacr$ le>n+1 gave him an imm5se sup]iority ov] ! def5d]s ( ! opposite side4 ,he c]ta9ly kept 9 ! ,*ur* _m ,ca?olics :o 7 ready to apo/atize4 ,b be=e ! cr[d ( s*ismatics1 all ^! high gifts 7 z good z lo/4 ,! p 7 9 no wise anxi\s to "k ^u :i* side tru? 0 to be f\nd4 ,!y 7 ,donati/s1 z !y 7 ,numidians or ,c>?ag9ians1 )\t kn[+ :y--because ev]ybody ab\t !m 04 ,_m might h answ]$ l t gramm>ian ( ,con/ant9e1 :o told ! ,inquisitors ) a/ute simplicity3 ,i am a pr(essor ( ,roman lit]ature1 a tea*] ( ,lat9 gramm>4 ,my fa!r 0 a decurion at ,con/ant9e2 my gr&fa!r 0 a soldi] & _h s]v$ 9 ! gu>d4 ,our family is ( ,moori% blood4444 ,z = me1 ,i am q ignorant ab\t ! orig9 ( ! s*ism3 ,i am j "o ( ! ord9>y fai?ful ( ! p call$ ,*ri/ians4 ,:5 ,i 0 at ,c>?age1 ,bi%op ,secundus came !re "o day4 ,i he>d tell t !y f\nd out t ,bi%op ,ccilianus _h be5 orda9$ irregul>ly by ,i don't "k :o1 & !y elect$ ano!r bi%op aga9/ him4 ,t's h[ ! s*ism began at ,c>?age4 ,i h no means ( kn[+ mu* ab\t ! orig9 ( ! s*ism1 because !re has nev] be5 m ?an "o *ur* 9 our city4 ,if !re has be5 a s*ism "h1 we "k no?+ ab\t x4 ,:5 a gramm>ian talk$ ?us1 :at c\ld h be5 ! ?\ghts ( agricultural lab\r]s1 city workm51 & slaves8 ,!y belong$ to an e/ate1 or a qu>t] ( a t[n1 :]e no o!r fai? ?an !irs _h ev] be5 pr(ess$4 ,!y 7 ,donati/s l _! employ]s1 l _! neighb\rs1 l ! o!r p ( ! c( to :i* !y _h belong$ f fa!r to son4 ,! !ological side ( ! "q left !m absolutely indiff]5t4 ,if ,augu/9 tri$ to debate ) !m1 !y refus$ to li/5 & ref]r$ him to _! bi%ops4 ,t 0 ! ^w ( comm&4 ,! bi%ops1 on _! side1 avoid$ all discussion4 ,augu/9 tri$ 9 va9 to arrange an argum5t ) ,proculeianus1 8 ,donati/ colleague at ,hippo4 ,& if "s ( !m %ew$ !mselves m oblig+1 ! evasions & retic5ces ( ! antagoni/1 & sometimes outside circum/ances1 made ! debate utt]ly futile4 ,at ,?ubursicum ! audi5ce rais$ su* a noise 9 ! place :]e ,augu/9 0 debat+ ) ! bi%op ,=tunius1 t !y 7 no long] able to he> ea* o!r4 ,at o!r times1 ! meet+ sank to an oratorical j\/1 :]e9 !y tir$ !mselves out passad+ aga9/ words1 in/ead ( attack+ ! matt]s at issue4 ,augu/9 felt t he 0 los+ 8 "t4 ,besides1 ! ,donati/ bi%ops pres5t$ an ob/9ate front aga9/ :i* ev]y?+ sma%$4 ,leave u 9 our errors1 !y said ironically4 ,if we are lo/ 9 y\r eyes1 :y foll[ u ab\t8 ,we don't want to be sav$4 ,& !y prohibit$ _! flocks f salut+ ,ca?olics1 f speak+ to !m1 f go+ into _! *ur*es or into _! h\ses1 f sitt+ d[n 9 ! mid/ ( !m4 ,!y laid an int]dict on _! adv]s>ies4 ,primanius1 ! ,donati/ ,primate ( ,c>?age1 ^u be+ invit$ to a conf]5ce1 answ]$ pr\dly3 ,! sons ( ! m>tyrs c h no?+ to d ) ! race ( traitors4 ,?is be+ ! /ate ( ! case1 no me?od ( pacification 0 left b writt5 controv]sy4 ,augu/9 %ew$ himself tireless at x4 ,x 0 *iefly 9 ^! lett]s & treatises aga9/ ! ,donati/s t he 0 n afraid to repeat himself4 ,he knew t he 0 deal+ ) ! deaf1 & ) ! deaf :o did n want to he>3 he 0 oblig$ to raise 8 voice4 ,) admirable self-d5ial he reit]at$ ! same argum5ts a hundr$ times ov]1 a hundr$ times took up ! hi/ory ( ! qu>rel f ! beg9n+1 spread+ su* a light ov] ! quibbles & ref9+s ( 8 contradictors1 t x %\ld h br\ght conviction to ! blunte/ m9ds4 ,no1 he repeat$1 ,ccilianus 0 n a traditor1 nor ,felix ( ,ab?ugni ei!r :o consecrat$ him bi%op4 ,! docum5ts are !re to prove ?is4 ,& ev5 suppos+ !y 71 c ! fault ( a s+le man be *>g$ to ! :ole ,*ur*8444 ,!n :y d y baptize ! ,ca?olics "u ! pret5ce t _! prie/s are traditors & z su* unwor?y to adm9i/] ! ,sacram5ts8 ,x is ! sacrifice ( ,jesus ,*ri/ & n ! virtue ( ! prie/ :i* r5d]s baptism efficaci\s4 ,if x 7 o!rwise1 :at 0 ! good ( ! ,r$emption8 ,x is ! fact t by ! volunt>y dea? ( ,*ri/1 all m5 h be5 call$ to salvation4 ,salvation is n ! privilege ( ,africans only4 ,be+ ,ca?olic1 ! ,*ur* %\ld take 9 ! :ole _w4444 ,9 ! long run1 ^! cont9ual repetitions end by seem+ we>isome to mod]n read]s3 = u !re arises out ( all ^! discussions a d5se & intol]able bor$om4 ,b let u rememb] t all ?is 0 s+ul>ly liv+ = ,augu/9's cotempor>ies1 t ^! ?ankless developm5ts 7 read ) passion4 ,& !n1 too1 x 0 a "q ( ! unity ( ! ,*ur* :i* involv$1 z we _c too (t5 repeat1 ! int]e/ ( ! ,empire & civilization4 ,aga9/ s p]suasive a p[] ! ,donati/s oppos$ a conspiracy ( sil5ce4 ,_! bi%ops =bade ! p to read :at ,augu/9 wrote4 ,!y did m--!y conceal$ _! own libels s t x 0 impossible to reply to !m4 ,b ,augu/9 us$ all 8 skill to une>? !m4 ,he refut$ !m1 & _h 8 refutations recopi$ & po/$ on ! walls ( ! basilicas4 ,! copies circulat$ ?r\gh ! prov9ce & ! :ole ,roman _w4 ,?is w\ld h _h an excell5t result if ! qu>rel _h be5 entirely ov] que/ions ( !ory4 ,b imm5se prop]ty int]e/s came into x1 & ranc\rs & t]rible hates4 ,augu/9 0 =c$ to pass f v]bal polemics to direct action--def5sive action1 at fir/1 & !n attack4 ,:ile he & 8 fell[-bi%ops did _! utmo/ to prea* peace1 ! ,donati/ bi%ops urg$ _! foll[]s to ! holy w>4 ,augu/9 ev5 receiv$ ?reats on 8 life4 ,dur+ "o ( 8 visitations1 he 0 ne>ly assass9at$4 ,m5 9 ambu% lay 9 wait = him4 ,by a provid5tial *ance1 he took ! wrong road1 & ow$ 8 life to ?is mi/ake4 ,8 pupil ,possidius1 :o 0 !n ,bi%op ( ,guelma1 0 n s lucky4 ,br\ght to bay 9 a h\se by ! ,donati/ bi%op ,crisp9us1 he def5d$ himself desp]ately4 ,!y set fire to ! h\se to turn him out4 ,:5 !re 0 no?+ else left b to be burn$ alive1 he did come out4 ,! b& ( ,donati/s seiz$ him1 & w\ld h beat5 8 bra9s out1 if ,crisp9us himself1 fe>+ a prosecution = murd]1 _h n int]f]$4 ,b ! assailants sack$ ! prop]ty & slaught]$ all ! horses & mules 9 ! /ables4 ,at ,bagai1 ,bi%op ,maximianus 0 /abb$ 9 8 basilica4 ,a furi\s mob sma%$ ! alt> & began to /rike ! victim ) ! fragm5ts1 & left him = dead on ! flags4 ,! ,ca?olics lift$ up 8 body1 b ! ,donati/s pluck$ him out ( _! h&s & flung him f ! top ( a t[]1 & he fell on a dunghill :i* broke ! fall4 ,! unhappy man /ill brea!d1 & by a miracle he recov]$4 ,mean:ile1 ! ,circoncelliones1 arm$ ) _! bludgeons1 cont9u$ to pillage & burn ! f>ms4 ,!y tortur$ ! own]s to extract _! money f !m4 ,!y made !m toil r\nd ! mill-pa? l bea/s ( bur!n1 :ile !y la%$ at !m ) :ips4 ,at _! back1 ! ,donati/ prie/s invad$ ! ,ca?olic *ur*es & l&s4 ,!re & !n !y rebaptiz$ ! lab\r]s4 ,^! do+s 71 inde$1 v l ! practices ( ! ,african ,mussulmans to-day1 :o1 9 l circum/ances1 always beg9 by conv]t+ ! ,*ri/ian f>m-h&s by ma9 =ce4 ,!n !y purifi$ ! basilicas by scrap+ d[n ! walls & wa%+ ! floors ) big d\*es ( wat]2 & aft] demoli%+ ! alt>1 !y scatt]$ salt :]e x _h /ood4 ,x 0 a p]fect dis9fection4 ,! ,donati/s treat$ ! ,ca?olics l ! plague-/rick54 ,su* acts cri$ out = v5geance4 ,augu/91 :o up till ?is "t _h recoil$ f ask+ ! public au?orities to prosecute1 :o1 z an obs]v] ( ! apo/olic tradition1 did n recognize ! int]f]5ce ( ! civil p[] 9 ,*ur* matt]s--well1 ,augu/9 _h to give way to circum/ances1 & also to ! pressure br\ght to be> on him by 8 colleagues4 ,c\ncils assembl$ at ,c>?age petition$ ! ,emp]or to take exceptional measures aga9/ ! ,donati/s1 :o laugh$ at all ! laws direct$ aga9/ h]etics4 ,:5 !y 7 summon$ be=e ! c\rts !y demon/rat$ to ! judges1 :o 7 (t5 pagans incompet5t to decide 9 ^! que/ions1 t x 0 !y :o really belong$ to ! only or?odox ,*ur*4 ,some?+ mu/ be done to end ?is equivocal position1 & to br+ ab\t once = all a categorical condemnation ( ! s*ism4 ,augu/91 act+ 9 conc]t ) ! primate ,aurelius1 0 ! rul+ _s ( ^! meet+s4 ,let u n judge 8 conduct by mod]n ideas1 or be 9 a hurry to exclaim aga9/ 8 intol]ance4 ,he & ! ,ca?olic bi%ops1 9 act+ ?us1 7 comply+ ) ! old tradition :i* _h influ5c$ all ! pagan gov]nm5ts4 ,rome1 p>ticul>ly1 ?\gh x recogniz$ all ! local sects1 all ! =eign religions1 nev] all[$ any ( its subjects to refuse to fall 9 ) ! (ficial religion4 ,! p]secutions ( ! ,*ri/ians & ! ,jews _h no o!r motive4 ,n[ t x 0 become ! ,/ate religion1 ,*ri/ianity1 will+ly or unwill+ly1 _h to summon p to ! same ob$i5ce4 ,! ,emp]ors made a special po9t ( ?is f political reasons easy to und]/&--to prev5t riots & ma9ta9 public ord]4 ,ev5 if ! bi%ops _h refra9$ f all compla9t1 ! ,imp]ial ,gov]nm5t w\ld h act$ )\t !m & suppress$ ! di/urbances caus$ by ! h]etics4 ,j look at ! situation & ! m5 z !y 7 at t mom5t 9 ,africa4 ,x 0 ! ,ca?olics :o 7 p]secut$1 & t ) revolt+ fury & cruelty4 ,!y 7 oblig$ to def5d !mselves4 ,9 ! next place1 ! di/ribution ( prop]ty 9 ^? c\ntries made conv]sions 9 bat*es s+ul>ly easy4 ,multitudes ( f>m t5ants1 workm51 & agricultural slaves1 liv$ ^u ! imm5se e/ates ( "o own]4 ,)\t any int]e/ 9 dogmatic que/ions1 !y 7 ,donati/s simply because _! ma/] 04 ,to *ange ^! dev\r+ wolves into tranquil %eep1 x 0 (t5 q en\gh if ! ma/] got conv]t$4 ,! great bless+ ( peace dep5d$ ^u pressure be+ br\ght to be> on c]ta9 p]sons4 ,:5 all day & e day !re 0 a risk ( be+ murd]$ or burn$ out by irresponsible ruffians1 ! temptation 0 v /rong to fall back on su* a prompt & simple rem$y4 ,augu/9 & 8 colleagues end$ by mak+ up _! m9ds to d s4 ,= t matt]1 !y _h no *oice4 ,!y 7 b\nd to /rike1 or be !mselves suppress$ by _! enemies4 ,h[ev]1 be=e resort+ to rigor\s measures1 !y resolv$ to s5d =? a supreme appeal = reconciliation4 ,! ,ca?olics propos$ a meet+ to ! ,donati/s 9 :i* !y w\ld loyally exam9e "o ano!r's grievances4 ,z p]sonal or mat]ial que/ions made ! great b> to an und]/&+1 !y promis$ t e ,donati/ bi%op :o turn$ conv]t %\ld keep 8 see4 ,9 places :]e a s*ismatic & an or?odox bi%op 7 f\nd toge!r1 !y w\ld come to a fri5dly agreem5t to gov]n ! diocese by turns4 ,:]e x 0 impossible = ?is to be done1 x 0 propos$ t ! ,ca?olic %\ld resign 9 fav\r ( ! o!r4 ,augu/9 l5t all 8 eloqu5ce to c>ry ?is motion1 :i* 0 suffici5tly h]oic = a good numb] ( bi%ops :o 7 n s deta*$ z he f ! goods ( ?is _w4 ,& "o mu/ all[ t x 0 difficult to g mu* fur!r 9 ! way ( self-d5ial4 ,aft] a good deal ( skirmi%+ & hesitation on ! side ( ! s*ismatics1 ! ,conf]5ce met at ,c>?age 9 ,june ( ! ye> #daa1 "u ! presid5cy ( an ,imp]ial commission]1 ! tribune ,m>cell9us4 ,once aga91 ! ,donati/s saw !mselves condemn$4 ,^u ! report ( ! commission]1 a decree ( ,honorius class$ !m def9itely among h]etics4 ,!y 7 =bidd5 to rebaptize or to assemble toge!r1 "u p5alties ( f9e & confiscation4 ,refractory c\ntrym5 & slaves w\ld be liable to corporal puni%m5t1 & z = ! cl]ics1 !y w\ld be bani%$4 ,! effect ( ^! new laws 0 n long 9 appe>+1 & x fully answ]$ ! wi%es ( ! or?odox bi%ops4 ,_m populations return$1 or pret5d$ to return1 to ! ,ca?olic communion4 ,?is result 0 l>gely ! "w ( ,augu/91 :o = tw5ty ye>s _h work$ to br+ x ab\t by prea*+ & controv]sy4 ,b1 z might be expect$1 he did n ov]do 8 triumph4 ,)\t delay1 he set himself to prea* mod]ation to ! conqu]ors4 ,nor _h he wait$ till ! enemy 0 defeat$ to d t4 ,t5 ye>s be=e1 :ile ! ,donati/s 7 besett+ ! ,ca?olics ev]y:]e1 he said to ! prie/s ( 8 communion3 ,rememb] ?is1 my bro!rs1 s z to practise & prea* x ) nev]-v>y+ g5tl5ess4 ,love ! m52 kill ! lie6 ,lean on tru? )\t pride2 fight = x )\t cruelty4 ,pray = ^? :om y *ide1 & = ^? to :om y %ew _! error4 ,h[ev]1 ! victory ( ! p>ty ( peace 0 n s ?or\gh z x _h seem$ at fir/4 ,a good _m fanatics "h & !re grew ob/9ate 9 _! resi/ance4 ,! ,circoncelliones1 madd5$1 di/+ui%$ !mselves by a new outbreak ( ravages & cruelties4 ,!y tortur$ & mutilat$ all ! ,ca?olics :o fell into _! h&s4 ,!y _h inv5t$ an unhe>d-( ref9em5t ( torture1 :i* 0 to cov] ) lime dilut$ ) v9eg> ! eyes ( _! victims4 ,! prie/ ,re/itutus 0 assass9at$ 9 ! suburbs ( ,hippo4 ,a bi%op _h 8 tongue & 8 h& cut (f4 ,if ! t[ns 7 pretty quiet1 t]ror began to reign once m 9 ! c\ntry places4 ,! ,roman au?orities ex]t$ !mselves to put an end to ^! bloody sc5es4 ,!y heavily *a/is$ ! (f5d]s :5ev] !y c\ld cat* !m4 ,9 8 *>ity1 ,augu/9 int]c$$ = !m ) ! judges4 ,he wrote to ! tribune ,m>cell9us3 ,we w\ld n t ! s]vants ( ,god %\ld be rev5g$ by hurts l to ^? !y suff]$4 ,surely1 we are n aga9/ depriv+ ! guilty ( ! means to d h>m1 b we consid] x w be en\gh1 )\t tak+ _! lives or wr5*+ any limb f !m1 to turn !m f _! s5seless tumult by ! re/ra9+ p[] ( ! laws1 9 br++ !m back to calm & reason2 or1 9 a la/ resort1 to take away ! opportunity = crim9al actions by employ+ !m 9 "s useful "w4444 ,*ri/ian judge1 9 ?is matt] fulfil ! duty ( a fa!r1 & :ile repress+ inju/ice1 d n =get humanity4 ,?is compassion ( ,augu/9 0 %ewn p>ticul>ly 9 8 meet+ ) ,em]itus1 ! ,donati/ ,bi%op ( ,*]*ell 7or z x 0 !n call$1 ,mauretanian ,cs>ea71 "o ( ! mo/ /ubborn among ! irreconcilables4 ,8 attitude 9 deal+ ) ?is uncompromis+ enemy 0 n only humane1 b c\rte\s1 full ( graci\sness1 & ( ! mo/ s5sitive *>ity4 ,?is fell out 9 ! autumn ( ! ye> #dah1 sev5 ye>s aft] ! great ,conf]5ce at ,c>?age4 ,augu/9 0 sixty-f\r ye>s old4 ,h[ 0 x t he :o _h always _h su* feeble heal? und]took at ?is age ! long j\rney f ,hippo to ,cs>ea8 ,we "k t ! ,pope1 ,zozimus1 _h entru/$ him ) a mission to ! ,*ur* ( t t[n4 ,) 8 tireless zeal1 always ready to m>* = ! glory ( ,*ri/1 ! old bi%op d\btless saw 9 ?is j\rney a fre% opportunity = an apo/le4 ,s he />t$ (f1 9 spite ( ! roads1 :i* 7 v unsafe 9 ^? tr\bl\s times1 9 spite ( ! cru%+ heat ( ! season--! end ( ,septemb]4 ,he travell$ six hundr$ miles across ! endless ,numidian pla9 & ! m\nta9\s regions ( ! ,atlas1 prea*+ 9 ! *ur*es1 halt+ 9 ! t[ns & ! hamlets to decide que/ions ( private int]e/1 ev] pursu$ by a ?\s& bus9ess worries & by ! squabbles ( litigants & ! discont5t$4 ,at la/1 aft] _m weeks ( fatigue & tribulation1 he rea*$ ,*]*ell1 :]e he 0 ! gue/ ( ,deut]ius1 ! metropolitan ,bi%op ( ,mauretania4 ,n[ ,em]itus1 ! depos$ bi%op1 liv$ my/]i\sly 9 ! suburbs1 9 con/ant fe> ( "s =cible action on ! "p ( ! au?orities4 ,:5 he le>n$ ! fri5dly int5tions ( ,augu/91 he came out ( 8 hid+-place & %ew$ himself 9 ! t[n4 ,9 "o ( ! squ>es ( ,cs>ea ! two prelates met4 ,augu/91 :o _h =m]ly se5 ,em]itus at ,c>?age1 recogniz$ him1 hurri$ ov] to him1 salut$ him1 & at once sugge/$ a fri5dly talk4 ,let u g into ! *ur*1 he said4 ,?is squ>e is h>dly suitable = a talk betwe5 two bi%ops4 ,em]itus1 flatt]$1 agre$4 ,! conv]sation cont9u$ 9 su* a cordial tone t ,augu/9 0 already rejoic+ ^u hav+ won back ! s*ismatic4 ,deut]ius1 foll[+ ! l9e ( conduct :i* ! ,ca?olic bi%ops _h adopt$1 spoke ( resign+ & h&+ ov] ! see to ! o!r4 ,x 0 agre$ t )9 two days ,em]itus %\ld come to ! ca!dral = a public discussion ) 8 colleague ( ,hippo4 ,at ! appo9t$ h\r he appe>$4 ,a great cr[d ( p ga!r$ to he> ! two orators4 ,! basilica 0 full4 ,!n ,augu/91 turn+ to ! imp5it5t ,donati/1 said to him mildly3 ,em]itus1 my bro!r1 y are "h4 ,y 7 also at our ,conf]5ce at ,c>?age4 ,if y 7 beat5 !re1 :y d y come "h n[8 ,if1 on ! o!r h&1 y ?9k t y 7 n beat51 tell u :at leads y to believe t y _h ! advantage4444 ,:at *ange _h ,em]itus und]gone 9 two days8 ,:atev] x 01 he disappo9t$ ! hopes ( ,augu/9 & ! p ( ,cs>ea4 ,he return$ only ambigu\s phrases to ! mo/ press+ & bro!rly urg+4 ,f9ally1 he took refuge 9 an angry sil5ce f :i* x 0 f\nd impossible to draw him4 ,augu/9 w5t home )\t hav+ conv]t$ ! h]etic4 ,no d\bt he 0 sorely disappo9t$4 ,nev]!less1 he %ew$ no res5tm5t2 he ev5 took measures to ensure ! safety ( ! recalcitrant1 9 a *>itable fe> less ! r\s$ p might d him a bad turn4 ,) all t1 :5 he look$ back at ! results ( ne>ly ?irty ye>s ( /ruggle aga9/ s*ism1 he might well say to himself t he _h done good "w = ! ,*ur*4 ,donatism1 9 fact1 0 conqu]$1 & conqu]$ by him4 ,0 he at la/ to h a *ance to re/ himself1 ) ! only re/ suitable to a s\l l 81 9 a /eady m$itation & /udy ( ! ,scriptures8 ,h5ce=?1 w\ld he be all[$ to live a little less z a bi%op & a little m z a monk8 ,?is 0 always ! /rong desire ( 8 he>t4444 ,b new & worse trials await$ him at ,hippo4 ,,! ,,six? ,,"p ,,face ,,to ,,face ,,) ,,! ,,b>b>ians ,et nunc v5iant omnes quicumque amant ,p>adisum1 locum quietis1 locum securitatis1 locum p]petuae felicitatis1 locum 9 quo non p]timescas ,b>b>um4 ,& n[ let all ^? come :o love ,p>adise1 ! place ( quiet1 ! place ( safety1 ! place ( et]nal happ9ess1 ! place :]e ! ,b>b>ian ne$ be fe>$ no m4 ,s]mon ^u ! ,b>b>ian ,p]secution1 vii1 #i4 ,i ,,! ,,sack ,,( ,,rome ,dur+ ,june ( ! ye> #djc1 an a/oni%+ ev5t convuls$ ! =m] capital ( ! ,empire4 ,! y\?ful ,honorius1 att5d$ by ! reg5t ,/ili*o1 came !re to celebrate 8 triumph ov] ,al>ic & ! ,go?ic army1 defeat$ at ,poll5tia4 ,! pageantry ( a triumph 0 inde$ a v a/oni%+ sight = ! ,romans ( t p]iod4 ,!y _h got s unus$ to !m6 ,& no less wond]ful 0 ! pres5ce ( ! ,emp]or at ! ,palat9e4 ,s9ce ,con/ant9e's reign1 ! ,imp]ial palaces _h be5 des]t$4 ,!y _h h>dly be5 visit$ f\r times 9 a c5tury by _! ma/]4 ,rome _h nev] got reconcil$ to ! des]tion ( h] pr9ces4 ,:5 ! ,c\rt 0 mov$ to ,milan1 & !n to ,rav5na1 %e felt %e _h be5 uncr[n$4 ,"t aft] "t ! ,s5ate appeal$ to ,honorius to %ew himself1 at lea/1 to 8 ,roman subjects1 s9ce political reasons 7 aga9/ 8 dwell+ among !m4 ,?is j\rney 0 always put (f4 ,! tru? is1 ! ,*ri/ian ,cs>s did n l ,rome1 & mi/ru/$ h] /ill half-pagan ,s5ate & p4 ,x ne$$ ?is unhop$-= victory to br+ ,honorius & 8 c\ncillors to make up _! m9ds4 ,! feel+ ( a common dang] _h = ! mom5t drawn ! two oppos+ religions toge!r1 & "h !y 7 app>5tly mak+ fri5ds 9 ! same patriotic delight4 ,old hates 7 =gott54 ,9 fact1 ! pagan ari/ocracy _h hopes ( bett] treatm5t f ,/ili*o4 ,on acc\nt ( all ^! reasons1 ! triumphant ,cs> 0 receiv$ at ,rome ) deliri\s joy4 ,! ,c\rt1 ^u leav+ ,rav5na1 _h cross$ ! ,ap5n9es4 ,a halt 0 call$ on ! banks ( ! ,clitumnus1 :]e 9 anci5t times ! great :ite h]ds 7 f\nd :i* 7 sacrific$ at ! ,capitol dur+ a triumph4 ,b ! gods ( ! l& _h fall52 !re w\ld be no opiman bull ?is "t on _! alt>s4 ,! pagans felt bitt] ab\t x4 ,!nce1 by ,n>nia & ! ,tib] valley1 !y made _! way d[n into ! pla94 ,! measur$ /ep ( ! legions rang ^u ! l>ge flags ( ! ,flam9ian way4 ,!y cross$ ! ,mulvius bridge--& old ,rome rose l a new city4 ,9 anticipation ( a siege1 ! reg5t _h repair$ ! ,aurelian wall4 ,! r$ bricks ( ! enclosure & ! fre% mason-"w ( ! t[]s gleam$ 9 ! sun4 ,f9ally1 /rik+ into ! ,via lata1 ! procession m>*$ to ! ,palat9e4 ,! cr[d 0 pack$ 9 ?is long1 n>r[ /reet1 & ov]fl[$ into ! ne>e/ alleys4 ,wom51 elaborately dress$1 ?rong$ ! balconies1 & ev5 ! t]races ( ! palace4 ,all at once ! p rem>k$ t ! ,s5ate 0 n walk+ be=e ! ,imp]ial *>iot4 ,/ili*o1 :o wi%$ to conciliate _! good graces1 _h1 contr>y to cu/om1 disp5s$ !m f m>*+ on foot be=e ! conqu]or4 ,p talk$ ) approval ( ?is wily measure 9 :i* !y saw a promise ( new lib]ties4 ,b applause & en?usia/ic *e]s greet$ ! "y ,honorius z he pass$ by1 %>+ ) ,/ili*o ! hon\r ( ! triumphal c>4 ,! unequall$ spl5d\r ( 8 trabea1 ( :i* ! embroid]ies disappe>$ "u ! numb] & fla% ( col\r ( ! jewels1 left ! populace gap+4 ,! diadem1 a ma/]piece ( goldsmi?'s "w1 press$ heavily on 8 temples4 ,em]ald p5dants tw9kl$ on ea* side ( 8 neck1 :i*1 z x 0 r fat1 ) almo/ fem99e curves1 sugge/$ at once to ! onlook]s a comp>ison ) ,bac*us4 ,!y f\nd he _h an agreeable face1 & ev5 a soldi]ly air ) 8 squ>e %\ld]s & /ocky neck4 ,matrons gaz$ ) t5d] eyes on ?is ,cs> ( n9ete51 :o _h1 at t "t1 a c]ta9 beauty1 & ! brilliance1 s to speak1 ( y\?4 ,?is deg5]ate ,spani>d1 :o 0 really a cr[n$ eunu*1 & 0 to sp5d 8 life 9 ! society ( ! palace eunu*s & die ( dropsy--?is son ( ,!odosius 0 j !n fond ( viol5t ex]cise1 ( hunt+ & horses4 ,b he 0 ev5 n[ becom+ pond]\s ) unheal?y fat4 ,8 build & bloat$ fle% gave ^? :o saw him at a di/ance a false notion ( 8 /r5g?4 ,! ,romans 7 mo/ fav\rably impress$ by him1 especially ! "y m54 ,b ! army1 ! safegu>d ( ! c\ntry1 0 p]haps ev5 m admir$ ?an ! ,emp]or4 ,! legions1 foll[+ ! rul]1 _h almo/ des]t$ ! capital4 ,! fl[] ( ! troops 7 almo/ unkn[n !re4 ,9 consequ5ce1 ! m>* pa/ ( ! cavalry 0 q a new sight = ! p4 ,a great murmur ( admiration s\nd$ z ! cataphracti appe>$1 gleam+ 9 ! coats ( mail :i* cov]$ !m f head to foot4 ,^u _! horses1 cap>ison$ 9 def5sive arm\r1 !y look$ l eque/rian1 /atues--l silv] horsem5 on bronze horses4 ,*ildi% cries greet$ ea* dracon>ius z he m>*$ by c>ry+ 8 ensign--a dragon embroid]$ on a long piece ( clo? :i* flapp$ 9 ! w9d4 ,& ! cr[d po9t$ at ! cre/s ( ! helmets plum$ ) peacock fea!rs1 & ! sc>fs ( sc>let silk fl[+ ov] ! camb] ( ! gild$ cuirasses4444 ,! milit>y %[ p\r$ into ! ,=um1 swept up ! ,via ,sacra1 & :5 x _h pass$ "u ! triumphal ar*es ( ! old emp]ors1 halt$ at ! ,palace ( ,septimus ,sev]us4 ,9 ! ,/adium1 ! cr[d await$ ,honorius4 ,:5 he appe>$ on ! balcony ( ! ,imp]ial box1 wild *e]+ bur/ out on all ! r[s ( seats4 ,! ,emp]or1 diadem on head1 b[$ to ! p4 ,^u t ! *e]s became a tempe/4 ,rome did n "k h[ to express h] happ9ess at hav+ at la/ got h] ma/] back4 ,on ! eve ( ! wor/ cata/rophes %e _h ?is supreme day ( glory1 ( desp]ate pride1 ( unconqu]able fai? 9 h] de/9y4 ,! public fr5zy enc\rag$ !m 9 ! madde/ hopes4 ,! poet ,claudian1 :o _h foll[$ ! ,c\rt1 became ! m\?piece ( ^! p]il\s illusions4 ,arise6 he cri$ to ,rome1 ,i pri!e arise1 ,o v5]able que56 ,tru/ 9 ! goodwill ( ! gods4 ,o city1 fl+ away ! mean fe>s ( age1 ?\ :o art immortal z ! heav5s6444 ,= all t1 ! ,b>b>ian dang] cont9u$ to ?reat54 ,! victory ( ,poll5tia1 :i*1 moreov]1 0 n a complete victory1 _h settl$ no?+4 ,al>ic 0 9 flight 9 ! ,alps1 b he kept 8 eye op5 = a fav\rable *ance to fall back ^u ,italy & wr5* concessions ( money & hon\rs f ! ,c\rt ( ,rav5na4 ,support$ by 8 army ( m]c5>ies & adv5tur]s 9 ! pay ( ! ,empire l himself1 8 deal+s ) ,honorius 7 a k9d ( cont9ual blackmail4 ,if ! ,imp]ial ,gov]nm5t refus$ to pay ! sums :i* he prote/$ x ow$ him = ! ma9t5ance ( 8 troops1 he w\ld pay himself by =ce4 ,rome1 :]e fabul\s ri*es _h accumulat$ = s _m c5turies1 0 an obvi\s prey = him & 8 m54 ,he _h covet$ x = a long "t2 & to get up 8 c\rage = ?is d>+ exploit1 z well z to "w ^u 8 soldi]s1 he pret5d$ t he _h a mission f ,heav5 to *a/ise & de/roy ! new ,babylon4 ,9 8 ,pannonian =e/s x w\ld seem he _h he>d my/]i\s voices :i* said to him3 ,advance1 & ?\ %alt de/roy ! city6 ,?is lead] ( clans _h no?+ ( ! conqu]or ab\t him4 ,he und]/ood t he 0 9 no wise cut out to we> ! purple2 he himself felt ! ,b>b>ian's cureless inf]iority4 ,b he also felt t nei!r 0 he born to obey4 ,if he ask$ = ! title ( ,prefect ( ! ,city1 & if he p]si/$ 9 (f]+ 8 s]vices to ! ,empire1 x 0 z a means to get ! upp] h& ( x m surely4 ,repuls$1 disda9$ by ! ,c\rt1 he tri$ to raise himself 9 8 own eyes & 9 ! eyes ( ! common p by giv+ himself ! airs ( an in/rum5t ( ju/ice1 a man design$ by fate1 :o m>*es bl9dly to a t]rible purpose indicat$ by ! div9e wra?4 ,x (t5 happ5$ t he 0 dup$ by 8 own mumm]y4 ,?is turbid ,b>b>ian s\l 0 prone to ! mo/ sup]/iti\s t]rors4 ,not)/&+ 8 rodomontades1 x is c]ta9 t 9 8 he>t he 0 sc>$ by ,rome4 ,he h>dly d>$ to attack x4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 x 0 n at all a conv5i5t op]ation = him4 ,8 army ( m]c5>ies _h no prop] implem5ts to und]take ! siege ( ?is huge city1 ( :i* ! def5ce l9es 7 ?r[n out 9 s wide a p]imet]4 ,he _h to come back to x twice1 be=e he c\ld make up 8 m9d to inve/ x s]i\sly4 ,! fir/ "t1 9 #djh1 he 0 satisfi$ ) />v+ ! ,romans by cutt+ (f ! food supply4 ,he _h pit*$ 8 camp on ! banks ( ! ,tib] 9 su* a way z to capture ! %ipp+ betwe5 ! capital & ! great /ore-h\ses built ne> ! m\? ( ! riv]4 ,f ! ramp>ts1 ! ,romans c\ld see ! ,b>b>ian soldi]s mov+ ab\t1 ) _! %eepsk9 coats dy$ to a crude r$4 ,panic-/rick51 ! ari/ocracy fl$ to its villas 9 ,campania1 or ,sicily1 or ,africa4 ,!y took ) !m :atev] !y 7 able to c>ry4 ,!y s\ght refuge 9 ! ne>e/ isl&s1 ev5 9 ,s>d9ia & ,corsica1 despite _! reputation = unheal?9ess4 ,!y ev5 hid among ! rocks ( ! sea%ore4 ,! t]ror 0 s great t ! ,s5ate agre$ to ev]y?+ dem&$ by ,al>ic4 ,he 0 paid an enorm\s indemnity :i* he claim$ z a condition ( 8 )drawal4 ,! foll[+ ye> he us$ ! same me?od ( intimidation to =ce on ! p an emp]or he _h *os51 & to get conf]r$ on him ! title ( ,prefect ( ! ,city :i* he _h desir$ s long4 ,f9ally1 9 ! ye> #daj1 he /ruck ! supreme bl[4 ,! ,b>b>ian knew :at he 0 ab\t1 & t he did n risk mu* 9 blockad+ ,rome4 ,fam9e w\ld op5 ! gates to him soon] or lat]4 ,all :o 7 able _h left ! city1 especially ! ri*4 ,!re 0 no g>rison to def5d x4 ,only a lazy populace rema9$ beh9d ! walls1 unus$ to arms1 & /ill m enfeebl$ by long />vation4 ,& yet ?is wret*$ & decimat$ population1 9 an outbur/ ( patriotism1 resi/$ ) desp]ate en]gy4 ,! siege 0 long4 ,d\btless x began be=e ! spr+2 x end$ only at ! end ( ! summ]4 ,9 ! night ( ! tw5ty-f\r? ( ,augu/1 #daj1 amid ! gl>e ( lightn+ & cra%es ( ?und]1 ,al>ic ent]$ ,rome by ! ,sal>ian gate4 ,x is c]ta9 t he only manag$ x ev5 !n by trea*]y4 ,! prey 0 h&$ to him4 ,! sack ( ,rome seems to h la/$ = ?ree days & ?ree nights4 ,"p ( ! t[n 0 burn$4 ,! conqu]$ p und]w5t all ! horrors :i* accompany su* ev5ts--viol5t & /upid de/ruction1 rapes1 murd]s ( individuals1 :olesale slaught]1 torture1 & mutilation4 ,b 9 reality ! ,b>b>ians only want$ ! ,roman gold4 ,!y act$ l p]fect highway robb]s4 ,if !y tortur$ _! victims )\t di/9ction ( age or sex1 x 0 to pluck ! secret ( _! treasure-h\ses out ( !m4 ,x is ev5 said t 9 ^! conditions ! ,roman av>ice produc$ "s admirable examples ( firmness4 ,"s let !mselves be tortur$ to _! la/ gasp r ?an reveal :]e _! treasures 7 hid4 ,at la/1 :5 ,al>ic decid$ t 8 army 0 gorg$ en\gh ) spoil1 he gave ! ord] to evacuate ! city1 & took to ! roads ) 8 baggage-waggons full4 ,let u be c>eful n to judge ^! do+s aft] our mod]n notions4 ,! capture ( ,rome by ,al>ic 0 n a national disa/]4 ,x 0 plund]+ on a huge scale4 ,! ,go? _h no ?\ght at all ( de/roy+ ! ,empire4 ,he 0 only a m]c5>y 9 rebellion--an ambiti\s m]c5>y1 no d\bt--b1 above all1 a loot]4 ,z a consequ5ce ( ?is attack on ! ,et]nal ,city1 "o aft] ano!r caught ! disease ( plund]1 :i* contam9at$ ev5 ! function>ies & ! subjects ( ,rome4 ,amid ! g5]al an>*y1 :]e impunity seem$ c]ta91 nobody re/ra9$ himself any long]4 ,9 ,africa especially1 :]e ! old in/9ct ( piracy is always half-awake1 !y appli$ !mselves to ransack ! fugitive ,romans & ,italians4 ,_m ri* p 7 come !re1 seek+ a place ( safety 9 ! belief t !y w\ld be m secure :5 !y _h put ! sea betwe5 !mselves & ! ,b>b>ians4 ,! report ( _! ri*es _h prec$$ !m1 exagg]at$ out ( all measure by popul> rum\r4 ,among !m 7 m5tion$ patricians su* z ! ,anicii1 ^: prop]ty 0 s imm5se & _! palaces s spl5did t !y c\ld n f9d pur*as]s4 ,^! multi-millionaires 9 flight 7 a miracul\s w9dfall = ! c\ntry4 ,!y 7 bl$ )\t m]cy4 ,quick] ?an any "o else1 ! milit>y gov]nor ( ,africa1 ,c\nt ,h]aclianus1 0 on ! spot to pick ! pockets ( ! ,italian immigrants4 ,no soon] 7 !y (f ! boat ?an he _h v di/+ui%$ ladies seiz$1 & only releas$ !m :5 he _h extort$ a l>ge ransom4 ,he sold ^? unable to pay to ! ,greek & ,syrian slave-m]*ants :o provid$ human fle% = ! ,ori5tal h>ems4 ,:5 ! example came f su* a height1 ! subord9ates d\btless said to !mselves t !y w\ld be v wrong to h ! lea/ %ame4 ,f "o end ( ! prov9ce to ! o!r1 ev]ybody /ruggl$ to extract z mu* z possible f ! un=tunate fugitives4 ,augu/9's own p>i%ion]s at ,hippo und]took to te> a donation f "o ( ^? gorge\s ,anicii1 ^: l&s /ret*$ fur!r ?an a kite c\ld fly--f ,p9ian1 ! husb& ( ,/4 ,melania ! y\ng]4 ,!y want$ to =ce him to be orda9$ prie/ 9 spite ( himself1 :i*1 z has be5 expla9$1 involv$ ! h&+ ov] ( 8 goods to ! ,ca?olic community4 ,augu/91 :o oppos$ ?is1 _h to give 9 to ! cr[d4 ,!re 0 almo/ a riot 9 ! basilica4 ,su* 7 ! f>-(f rev]b]ations ( ! capture ( ,rome by ,al>ic4 ,c>?ag9ians & ,numidians pillag$ ! ,romans j l ! ,b>b>ians4 ,n[1 h[ did x come ab\t t ?is mon/r\s loot took on be=e ! eyes ( contempor>ies ! magnitude ( a _w-cata/rophe8 ,= really no?+ 0 utt]ly lo/4 ,! ,empire rema9$ /&+4 ,aft] ,al>ic's retreat1 ! ,romans _h come back to _! city & !y work$ to build up ! ru9s4 ,ere long1 ! populace 7 cry+ out l\d t if ! circus & amphi!atre games 7 giv5 back to !m1 !y w\ld look ^u ! desc5t ( ! ,go?s z a bad dream4 ,x is no less c]ta9 t ?is s5sational occurr5ce _h /ruck ! :ole ,m$it]ranean _w into a p]fect /upor4 ,x seiz$ ^u ! imag9ations ( all4 ,! idea t ,rome c\ld n be tak51 t x 0 integral & almo/ sacr$1 _h su* a hold on p's m9ds1 t !y refus$ to cr$it ! s9i/] news4 ,nobody reflect$ t ! sack ( ,rome by ! ,b>b>ians %\ld h be5 long ago =ese5--t ,rome1 depriv$ ( a g>rison1 ab&on$ by ! ,imp]ial army1 0 b\nd to attract ! covet\sness ( ! ,go?s1 & t ! pillage ( a place )\t def5ce1 already enfeebl$ by fam9e1 0 n a v glori\s feat1 v difficult1 or v extraord9>y4 ,p only saw ! brutal fact3 ! ,et]nal ,city _h be5 captur$ & burn$ by ! m]c5>ies4 ,all 7 "u ! influ5ce ( ! %ock caus$ by ! n>ratives ( ! refugees4 ,9 "o ( 8 s]mons1 ,augu/9 has transmitt$ to u an e*o ( ! g5]al panic3 ,horrible ?+s1 said he1 h be5 told u4 ,!re h be5 ru9s1 & fires1 & rap9e1 & murd]1 & torture4 ,t is true2 we h he>d x _m times2 we h %udd]$ at all ?is disa/]2 we h (t5 wept1 & we h h>dly be5 able to console ourselves4 ,?is capture ( ,rome 0 pla9ly a t]rible w>n+ = ! future4 ,b p>ty _s /rangely exagg]at$ ! importance & mean+ ( ! calamity4 ,= pagans & ,*ri/ians alike x became a subject = spee*es1 a commonplace ( religi\s polemic4 ,bo? saw ! ev5t z a manife/ation ( ! wra? ( ,heav54 ,:ile we sacrific$ to our gods1 ! pagan said1 ,rome 0 /&+1 ,rome 0 happy4 ,n[ t our sacrifices are =bidd51 y see :at has become ( ,rome4444 ,& !y w5t ab\t repeat+ t ,*ri/ianism 0 responsible = ! ru9 ( ! ,empire4 ,on _! side1 ! ,*ri/ians answ]$3 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,rome has n fall53 x is always /&+4 ,x has be5 only *a/is$1 & ?is happ5$ because x is /ill half pagan4 ,by ?is frightful puni%m5t 7& !y height5$ ! description ( ! horrors committ$71 ,god has giv5 x a w>n+4 ,let x be conv]t$1 let x return to ! virtues ( its ance/ors1 & x w become aga9 ! mi/ress ( nations4 ,!re is :at ,augu/9 & ! bi%ops said4 ,/ill1 ! flock ( ! fai?ful 7 only half conv9c$4 ,x 0 all well en\gh to remon/rate to !m t ! ,*ri/ians ( ,rome1 & ev5 a good numb] ( pagans1 _h be5 sp>$ at ! "n ( ,*ri/1 & t ! ,b>b>ian lead] _h be/[$ a q special protection & respect ^u ! basilicas ( ! holy apo/les2 x 0 impossible to prev5t _! ?9k+ t _m ,*ri/ians _h p]i%$ 9 ! sack ( ! city1 t consecrat$ virg9s _h exp]i5c$ ! la/ outrages1 & t1 z a matt] ( fact1 all ! inhabitants _h be5 robb$ ( _! prop]ty4444 ,0 x ?us t ,god protect$ ,8 *os58 ,:at advantage 0 !re 9 be+ ,*ri/ian if !y _h ! same treatm5t z ! idolat]s8 ,?is /ate ( m9d became extremely fav\rable = paganism to come back aga9 on ! (f5sive4 ,s9ce ! v h>d laws ( ,!odosius1 :i* =bade ! wor%ip ( ! anci5t gods1 ev5 )9 ! h\se1 ! pagans _h n ov]look$ any *ance to prote/ aga9/ ! ,imp]ial sev]ity4 ,at ,c>?age !re 7 always fights 9 ! /reets betwe5 pagans & ,*ri/ians1 n to say riots4 ,9 ! colony ( ,suffetula1 sixty ,*ri/ians _h be5 massacr$4 ,! ye> be=e ! capture ( ,rome1 !re _h be5 tr\ble ) ! pagans at ,guelma4 ,h\ses belong+ to ! ,*ur* 7 burn$1 a monk kill$ 9 a brawl4 ,:5ev] ! ,gov]nm5t inspection relax$1 or ! political situation appe>$ fav\rable1 ! pagans hurri$ to proclaim _! belief4 ,only j lately1 9 ,rome beleagu]$ by ,al>ic1 ! new consul1 ,t]tullus1 _h ?\ght fit to revive ! old cu/oms4 ,be=e assum+ (fice1 he /udi$ gravely ! sacr$ f[ls 9 _! cages1 trac$ circles 9 ! sky ) ! augur's w&1 & m>k$ ! flight ( birds4 ,besides1 a pagan oracle circulat$ p]si/5tly among ! p1 promis+ t aft] a reign ( ?ree hundr$ & sixty-five ye>s ,*ri/ianity w\ld be conqu]$4 ,! c5turies ( ! great desolation 7 fulfill$2 ! era ( rev5ge 0 ab\t to beg9 = ! outca/ gods4 ,^! w>like symptoms did n escape ,augu/9's vigilance4 ,8 indignation no long] arose only f ! fact t paganism 0 s sl[ 9 dy+2 he 0 n[ afraid t ! feebl5ess ( ! ,empire might all[ x to take on an appe>ance ( life4 ,x mu/ be end$1 z ,donatism _h be5 end$4 ,! old apo/le 0 summon$ to a new campaign1 & 9 x he w\ld sp5d ! be/ ( 8 /r5g? to ! eve ( 8 dea?4 ,,ii ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,god ,= ?irte5 or f\rte5 ye>s1 ?r\gh a ?\s& employm5ts & a ?\s& c>es1 amid ! panics & cont9ual al>ums :i* kept ! ,africans on ! al]t 9 ^? times1 ,augu/9 work$ at 8 ,city ( ,god1 ! mo/ =midable ma*9e ( w> ev] direct$ aga9/ paganism1 & also ! ars5al fulle/ ( pro(s & refutations :i* ! disputants & def5d]s ( ,ca?olicism h ev] _h at _! disposal4 ,x is n = u to exam9e ! details ( ?is imm5se "w1 = our sole aim is to /udy ,augu/9's s\l1 & we quote sc>cely any?+ f 8 books save ^? p>ts :]e9 a little ( ?is ard5t s\l pulsates--^? :i* are /ill liv+ = u ( ! tw5tie? c5tury1 :i* conta9 tea*+s & ways ( feel+ /ill likely to move u4 ,n[1 ,augu/9's attitude t[>ds paganism is "o ( ^? :i* ?r[ ! greate/ light on 8 nature & "*4 ,& x may ev5 yet come to be our own attitude :5 we f9d oppos$ to u a conception ( life & ! _w :i* may inde$ be ru9$ = a "t1 b is reborn z soon z ! s5se ( spirituality disappe>s or gr[s feeble4 ,immortal ,paganism1 art ?\ dead8 ,s !y say4 ,b ,pan sc(fs "u 8 brea?1 & ! ,*imra laughs4 #a ,footnote #a3 ,sa9te-,beuve4 ,l ourselves1 ,augu/91 br\ght up by a ,*ri/ian "m1 knew x only ?r\gh lit]ature1 &1 s to speak1 /hetically4 ,recollections ( s*ool1 ! emotions & admirations ( a cultivat$ man--!re is :at ! old religion meant = him4 ,nev]!less1 he _h "o great advantage ov] u = kn[+ x well3 ! sight ( ! pagan cu/oms & sup]/itions 0 /ill "u 8 eyes4 ,t ! lascivi\s1 romantic1 & poetic adv5tures ( ! anci5t gods1 _! /atues1 _! temples1 & all ! arts aris+ f _! religion1 _h beguil$ him & fill$ him ) en?usiasm be=e 8 conv]sion1 is only too c]ta94 ,b all ?is my?ology & pla/ic art 7 look$ ^u z second>y ?+s !n1 ev5 by pagans4 ,! s]i\s1 ! ess5tial "p ( ! religion 0 n 9 t4 ,paganism1 a religion ( ,beauty1 is an inv5tion ( our mod]n /hetes2 x 0 h>dly ?\ght ( 9 t way 9 ,augu/9's "t4 ,long be=e ?is1 ! ,roman ,v>ro1 ! great compil] ( ! religi\s antiquities ( paganism1 made a ?reefold di/9ction ( ! doctr9e conc]n+ ! gods4 ,! fir/--t ( ! !atre1 z he calls x1 or fabul\s my?ology1 adapt$ to poets1 dramati/s1 sculptors1 & je/]s4 ,inv5t$ by ^!1 x is only a fantasy1 a play ( imag9ation1 an ornam5t ( life4 ,! ?ird is civil !ology1 s]i\s & solid1 :i* claims ! respect & piety ( all4 ,x is t :i* m5 9 cities1 & *iefly ! prie/s1 ought to be cunn+ 94 ,x tea*es :i* gods to wor%ip 9 public1 & ) :at c]emonies & sacrifices ea* "o mu/ be s]v$4 ,f9ally1 ! second1 physical or metaphysical !ology1 is res]v$ = philosoph]s & exceptional m9ds2 x is altoge!r !oretical4 ,! only important & truly religi\s "o1 :i* puts an obligation on ! believ]1 is ! ?ird--! civil !ology4 ,n[1 we nev] take acc\nt ( ?is4 ,:at we p]si/ 9 reg>d+ z paganism is :at ,v>ro himself call$ a religion = ! !atre--matt] ( op]a1 pretext = ballets1 = sc5]y1 & = dance po/ures4 ,transpos$ into ano!r key by our poets1 ?is my?ology is inflat$ n[ & !n by my/icism1 or by a vague symbolism4 ,play?+s ( our pretty wits6 ,! liv+ paganism1 :i* ,augu/9 /ruggl$ aga9/1 :i* cr[ds def5d$ at ! price ( _! blood1 9 :i* ! poor believ$ & ! wise/ /atesm5 deem$ indisp5sable z a safegu>d ( cities--t paganism is q ano!r matt]4 ,l all religions :i* are possible1 x impli$ & x en=c$ n only beliefs1 b ritual1 sacrifices1 fe/ivals4 ,& ?is is :at ,augu/91 ) ! o!r ,*ri/ians ( t "t1 spurn$ ) disgu/ & decl>$ to be unbe>able4 ,he saw1 or he _h se5 ) 8 own eyes1 ! reality ( ! pagan wor%ip1 & ! mo/ repell5t ( all to our mod]n delicacy--! sacrifices4 ,at ! p]iod :5 he wrote ,! ,city ( ,god1 private sacrifices1 z well z public1 7 =bidd54 ,?is did n prev5t ! dev\t f break+ ! law :5ev] a *ance (f]$4 ,!y hid !mselves m or less :5 !y sacrific$ be=e a temple1 a *apel1 or on "s private e/ate4 ,! rites c\ld n be c>ri$ out accord+ to all ! m9ute in/ructions ( ! pontifical books4 ,x 0 no m ?an a %ad[ ( ! c]emonies ( =m] times4 ,b 9 8 *ildhood1 9 ! reign ( ,julian1 = in/ance1 ,augu/9 c\ld h att5d$ sacrifices :i* 7 celebrat$ ) full pomp & accord+ to all ! ritual =ms4 ,!y 7 v]itable sc5es ( but*]y4 ,= ,heav5's sake let u =get ! frieze ( ! ,p>!non1 & its sacrific]s ) _! graceful l9es6 ,if we want to h a lit]al translation ( ?is sculpture1 & f9d ! mod]n repres5tation ( a hecatomb1 we mu/ g to ! slaught]-h\ses at ,la ,villette4 ,among ! heaps ( brok5 fle%1 ! puddles ( blood1 ! my/ic ,julian 0 attack$ by a k9d ( drunk5ness4 ,!re 7 nev] en\gh bea/s /rangl$ or slaught]$ to suit him4 ,no?+ satisfi$ 8 fury = sacr$ c>nage4 ,! pagans !mselves made fun ( ?is craze = sacrific+4 ,dur+ ! ?ree ye>s 8 reign la/$ ! alt>s /ream$ ) blood4 ,ox5 by hundr$s 7 sla9 ^u ! floors ( ! temples1 & ! but*]s ?rottl$ s _m %eep & o!r dome/ic animals t !y gave up keep+ c\nt ( !m4 ,?\s&s ( :ite birds1 pigeons or sea-gulls1 7 de/roy$ day by day by ! piety ( ! pr9ce4 ,he 0 call$ ! ,victim>ius1 & :5 he />t$ ^u 8 campaign aga9/ ! ,p]sians1 an epigram 0 circulat$ once m :i* _h be5 =m]ly compos$ aga9/ ,m>cus ,aurelius 7! philosophic emp]or67 :o 0 equally g5]\s ( hecatombs3 ,to ,m>cus ,cs> f ! :ite ox54 ,x w be all ov] ) u if y come back a conqu]or4 ,p said t ,julian1 on 8 return1 w\ld depopulate /ables & pa/ure-l&s4 ,! populace1 :o ga!r$ _! v consid]able pr(it f ^! but*]ies1 naturally enc\rag$ su* an excess ( devotion4 ,at ,rome1 "u ,caligula1 m ?an a hundr$ & sixty ?\s& victims 7 immolat$ 9 ?ree mon?s--ne>ly two ?\s& a day4 ,& ^! massacres took place ^u ! approa*es ( ! temples2 9 ! middle ( ! city2 on ! =ums2 9 n>r[ squ>es cr[d$ ) public build+s & /atues4 ,j try to call up ! sc5e 9 summ]1 betwe5 walls at a :ite heat1 ) ! smells & ! flies4 ,spectators & victims rubb$ aga9/ "o ano!r1 press$ close 9 ! re/rict$ space4 ,"o day1 ,caligula1 :ile he 0 att5d+ a sacrifice1 0 spla%$ all ov] by ! blood ( a flam+o z !y cut its neck4 ,b ! augu/ ,cs> 0 n s fa/idi\s2 he himself op]at$ 9 ^! c]emonies arm$ ) a mallet & clad 9 ! %ort %irt ( ! kill]s4 ,! ignom9y ( all ?is revolt$ ! ,*ri/ians1 & :oev] _h n]ves at all s5sitive4 ,! bloody mud 9 :i* pass]s slipp$1 ! hiss+ ( ! fat1 ! heavy od\r ( fle%1 7 sick5+4 ,t]tullian held 8 nose be=e ! /9k+ fires on :i* ! victims 7 roa/+4 ,& ,/4 ,ambrose compla9$ t 9 ! ,roman ,curia ! s5ators :o 7 ,*ri/ians 7 oblig$ to brea! 9 ! smoke & receive full 9 ! face ! a%es ( ! alt> rais$ be=e ! /atue ( ,victory4 ,! manipulations ( ! h>uspic9a seem$ an ev5 worse abom9ation 9 ! eyes ( ! ,*ri/ians4 ,dissection ( b[els1 exam9ation ( entrails1 7 practices v mu* 9 fa%ion 9 all classes ( society4 ,! pagans g5]ally took m or less int]e/ 9 magic4 ,"o 0 sc>cely a philosoph] )\t be+ a miracle-work]4 ,9 ?is !re 0 a k9d ( p]fidi\s rivalry to ! ,*ri/ian miracles4 ,! ambiti\s or ! discont5t$ op5$ ! bellies ( animals to le>n :5 ! ,emp]or 0 go+ to die1 & :o w\ld succe$ him4 ,b al?\gh x did n pret5d to magic1 ! h>uspic9a made an ess5tial "p ( ! sacrifices4 ,z soon z ! dismemb]m5t 0 done1 ! div9]s exam9$ ! appe>ance ( ! entrails4 ,consult+ toge!r1 !y turn$ !m ov] frequ5tly ) anxi\s att5tion4 ,?is bus9ess might cont9ue = a long "t4 ,plut>* relates t ,philip1 ,k+ ( ,mac$onia1 :5 sacrific+ an ox on ! ,i?oma1 ) ,aratus ( ,sicyon & ,demetrius ( ,ph>os1 wi%$ to inquire out f ! entrails ( ! victim conc]n+ ! wisdom ( a piece ( /rategy4 ,! h>uspex put ! smok+ mass 9 8 h&s4 ,! ,k+ %ew$ x to 8 companions1 :o d]iv$ contradictory presages f x4 ,he li/5$ to "o side & ! o!r1 hold+ mean:ile ! ox's entrails 9 8 h&s4 ,ev5tually1 he decid$ = ! op9ion ( ,aratus1 & !n tranquilly gave ! h&ful back to ! sacrific]4444 ,no d\bt 9 ,augu/9's "t ^! rites 7 no long] practis$ op5ly4 ,= all t1 !y 7 ( ! fir/ importance 9 ! anci5t religion1 :i* desir$ no?+ bett] ?an to re/ore !m4 ,x is easy to und]/& ! repulsion !y caus$ 9 ! au?or ( ,! ,city ( ,god4 ,he :o w\ld n h a fly kill$ to make sure ( ! gold cr[n 9 ! conte/ ( poets1 look$ ) horror on ^! sacr$ but*]s1 & mangl]s1 & cooks4 ,he flung ! g>bage ( ! sacrifices into ! sew]1 & %ew$ pr\dly to ! pagans ! pure oblation ( ! eu*>i/ic ,bread & ,w9e4 ,b :at1 above all1 he attack$1 because x 0 a pres5t & p]man5t sc&al1 0 ! gluttony1 ! drunk5ness1 & lu/ ( ! pagans4 ,let u n exagg]ate ^! vices--n ! two fir/1 at lea/4 ,augu/9 c\ld n judge !m z we c4 ,x is c]ta9 t ! ,africans ( 8 "t--& = t matt]1 ^? ( to-day--w\ld h /ruck u mod]n p z v sob]4 ,! outbur/s ( intemp]ance :i* he accuses !m ( only happ5$ at int]vals1 at times ( public fe/ivity or "s family celebration4 ,b z soon z !y did beg9 !y 7 t]rible4 ,:5 "o ?9ks ( ! orgies ( our ,arabs beh9d lock$ doors6 ,b x is no less true t ! pagan vices spread !mselves out cynically "u ! protect+ %ad[ ( religion4 ,popul> s\ses ( eat+ & dr9k+ 7 ! obligatory accompanim5ts ( ! fe/ivals & sacrifices4 ,a religi\s fe/ival meant a c>\se1 loads ( victuals1 b>rels ( w9e broa*$ 9 ! /reet4 ,^! 7 call$ ! ,di%es1 ,f]cula1 or else1 ! ,rejoic+1 ,ltitia4 ,! poor p1 :o knew meat only by sight1 ate x on ^! days1 & !y drank w9e4 ,! effect ( ?is unaccu/om$ pl5ty 0 felt at once4 ,! :ole populace 7 drunk4 ,! ri* 9 _! h\ses possibly did x ) m c]emony1 b x 0 really ! same bruti%ness4 ,! elegant ,ovid1 :o 9 ! ,art ( ,love tea*es f9e mann]s to ! beg9n]s 9 love1 advises !m n to vomit at table1 & to avoid gett+ drunk l ! husb&s ( _! mi/resses4 ,pla9ly1 religion 0 only an excuse = ^! excesses4 ,augu/9 goes too f> :5 he makes ! gods responsible = ?is riot ( s5suality4 ,:at is true is t !y did no?+ to h9d] x4 ,& x is also true t ! le*]y1 :i* he fl+s s acridly 9 ! face ( ! pagans1 ! gross /age-plays1 ! songs1 dances1 & ev5 pro/itution1 7 all m or less includ$ 9 ! ess5ce ( paganism4 ,! !atre1 l ! games ( ! ar5a & circus1 0 a div9e in/itution4 ,at c]ta9 fea/s1 & 9 c]ta9 temples1 =nication became sacr$4 ,all ! _w knew :at took place at ,c>?age 9 ! c\rts & "u ! porticoes ( ! ,cele/ial ,virg91 & :at ! e>s ( ! mo/ *a/e matrons 7 oblig$ to he>1 & also :at ! use 0 ( ! ca/rat$ prie/s ( ! ,great ,"m ( ! gods4 ,augu/91 :o declaims aga9/ ^! fil?y sports1 has n =c$ ! note ( 8 d5unciation to make out a good case4 ,if anybody wants to "k 9 m detail ! sights enjoy$ at ! !atre1 or :at 7 ! habits ( c]ta9 pi\s confrat]nities1 he has only to read :at is told by ,apuleius1 ! mo/ dev\t ( pagans4 ,he takes evid5t pleasure 9 ^! /ories1 or1 if he sometimes waxes indignant1 x is ! depravity ( m5 he accuses4 ,! gods so> at a great height above ^! wret*$ trifles4 ,to ,augu/91 on ! contr>y1 ! gods are unclean devils :o fill _! bellies ) lu/ & obsc5ities1 z if !y 7 hank]+ = ! blood & grease ( sacrifices4 ,& s he puts 8 f+] on ! op5 w\nd ( paganism--its basic immorality1 or1 if y l1 its unmorality4 ,l our sci5tism ( to-day1 x 0 unable to lay d[n a sy/em ( morals4 ,x did n ev5 try to4 ,:at ,augu/9 has writt5 on ?is subject 9 ,! ,city ( ,god1 is p]haps ! /ronge/ argum5t ev] object$ to poly!ism4 ,anyh[1 pages l ?is are v timely inde$ to consid]3 ,b su* fri5ds & su* wor%ipp]s ( ^? gods1 :om !y rejoice to foll[ & imitate 9 all villa9ies & mis*iefs--d !y tr\ble !mselves ab\t ! corruption & great decay ( ! ,republic8 ,n s4 ,let x b /&1 say !y2 let x b prosp] by ! numb] ( its troops & be glori\s by its victories2 or1 :i* is be/ ( all1 let x b enjoy security & peace1 & :at c>e we8 ,yes1 :at we c>e = above all is t e "o may h ! means to increase 8 weal?1 to pay ! exp5ses ( 8 usual luxury1 & t ! p[]ful may /ill keep "u ! weak4 ,let ! poor cr\* to ! ri* to be f$1 or to live at ease "u _! protection2 let ! ri* abuse ! poor z ?+s at _! s]vice1 & to %ew h[ _m !y h solicit+ !m4 ,let ! p applaud su* z provide !m ) pleasures1 n su* z h a c>e = _! int]e/s4 ,let naught t is h>d be enjo9$1 no?+ impure be prohibit$4444 ,let n subdu$ prov9ces obey _! gov]nors z sup]visors ( _! morality1 b z ma/]s ( _! =tune & ! procur]s ( _! pleasures4 ,:at matt]s x if ?is submission has no s9c]ity1 b re/s ^u a bad & s]vile fe>6 ,let ! law protect e/ates r ?an fair ju/ice4 ,let !re be a good numb] ( public h>lots1 ei!r = all t please to enjoy !mselves 9 _! company1 or = ^? t _c keep private ones4 ,let /ately & sumptu\s h\ses be erect$1 s t night & day ea* "o accord+ to 8 lik+ or 8 means may gamble & dr9k & revel & vomit4 ,let ! rhy?m$ t9kl+ ( dances be ord9>y1 ! cries1 ! uncontroll$ delights1 ! upro> ( all pleasures1 ev5 ! bloodie/ & mo/ %ameful 9 ! !atres4 ,he :o %all assay to dissuade f ^! pleasures1 let him be condemn$ z a public enemy4 ,& if any "o try to alt] or suppress !m--let ! p /ifle 8 voice1 let !m bani% him1 let !m kill him4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ^? t %all procure ! p ^! pleasures1 & au?orize _! enjoym5t1 let !m be et]niz$ = ! true gods4444 ,h[ev]1 ,augu/9 ackn[l$ges a numb] ( praisewor?y m9ds among pagans--^? philosoph]s1 ) ,plato 9 ! fir/ rank1 :o h done _! be/ to put morality into ! religion4 ,! ,*ri/ian tea*] r5d]s a magnific5t tribute to ,platonism4 ,b ^! high doctr9es h sc>cely got beyond ! portals ( ! s*ools1 & ?is moral tea*+ :i* paganism vaunts (1 is practically limit$ to ! sanctu>ies4 ,let !m n talk1 says he1 ( "s closely mutt]$ in/ructions1 taught 9 secret1 & :isp]$ 9 ! e> ( a few adepts1 :i* hold ,i "k n :at lessons ( uprightness & virtue4 ,b let !m %ew ! temples orda9$ = su* pi\s meet+s1 :]e9 7 no sports ) lascivi\s ge/ures & loose songs4444 ,let !m %ew u ! places :]e ! gods' doctr9e 0 he>d aga9/ covet\sness1 ! suppression ( ambition1 ! bridl+ ( luxury1 & :]e wret*es might le>n :at ! poet ,p]sius ?und]s unto !m1 say+3 ',le>n1 wret*es1 & conceive ! c\rse ( ?+s1 ,:at man is1 & :y nature =? him br+s2444 ,h[ to use money2 h[ to help a fri5d2 ,:at we on e>?1 & ,god 9 u1 int5d4' ,let !m %ew :]e _! in/ruct+ gods 7 us$ to give su* lessons2 & :]e _! wor%ipp]s us$ to g (t5 to he> ^! matt]s4 ,z = u1 we c po9t to our *ur*es1 built = ?is sole purpose1 :]esoev] ! religion ( ,*ri/ is diffus$4 ,c x surprise1 !n1 if m5 s ignorant ( high morality1 & s deeply emb$d$ 9 matt]1 7 also plung$ 9 ! grosse/ sup]/itions8 ,mat]ialism 9 morals always ends by produc+ a l[ cr$ulity4 ,"h ,augu/9 triumphs4 ,he s5ds m>*+ "u our eyes1 9 a burlesque array1 ! innum]able army ( gods :om ! ,romans believ$ 94 ,!re are s _m t he comp>es !m to sw>ms ( gnats4 ,al?\gh he expla9s t he is n able to m5tion !m all1 he amuses himself by /upefy+ u ) ! prodigi\s numb] ( ^? he discov]s4 ,dragg$ into op5 day by him1 a :ole div9e population is br\ght out ( ! d>kness & =getfulness :]e x _h be5 sleep+ p]haps = c5turies3 ! little gods :o "w 9 ! fields1 :o make ! corn gr[ & keep (f ! blight1 ^? :o wat* ov] *ildr51 :o aid wom5 9 lab\r1 :o protect ! he>?1 :o gu>d ! h\se4 ,x 0 impossible to take a /ep among ! pagans1 to make a movem5t1 )\t ! help ( a god or goddess4 ,m5 & ?+s 7 z if fett]$ & imprison$ by ! gods4 ,9 a h\se1 says ,augu/9 sc(f+ly1 !re is b "o port]4 ,he is b a m]e man1 yet he is suffici5t = t (fice4 ,b x takes ?ree gods1 ,=culus = ! door1 ,c>dea = ! h+e1 ,lim5t9us = ! ?re%old4 ,d\btless1 ,=culus all alone c\ld n possibly look aft] ?re%old1 door & h+es4 ,& if x is a case ( a man & woman retir+ to ! bridal *amb] aft] ! w$d+1 a :ole squadron ( div9ities are set 9 motion = an act s simple & natural4 ,i besee* y1 cries ,augu/91 leave some?+ = ! husb& to d6 ,?is ,african1 :o _h su* a /rong s5se ( ! unity & fa?omless inf9ity ( ,god1 wax$ indignant at ?is sacrilegi\s p>cell+ ( ! div9e sub/ance4 ,b ! pagans1 foll[+ ,v>ro1 w\ld answ] t x 0 necess>y to di/+ui%1 among all ^! gods1 ^? :o 7 j ! imag9ation ( poets1 & ^? :o 7 real be+s--betwe5 ! gods ( fable & ! gods ( religion4 ,!n1 z ,t]tullian _h said already1 if ! gods be *os5 z onions are rop$1 x is obvi\s t :at is n *os5 is condemn$4 ,t]tullian c>ries 8 fancy too f>1 comm5ts ,augu/94 ,! gods refus$ z fabul\s are n held reprobate on t acc\nt4 ,! tru? is1 !y are a cut ( ! same piece z ! admitt$ gods4 ,h n ! pontiffs1 l ! poets1 a be>d$ ,jupit] & a ,m]cury )\t be>d8444 ,are ! old ,saturn & ! "y ,apollo s mu* ! prop]ty ( ! poets t we d n see _! /atues too 9 ! temples8444 ,& ! philosoph]s1 9 _! turn1 h[ev] mu* !y may prote/ aga9/ ! heap ( fabul\s gods &1 l ,plato & ,porphyry1 decl>e t !re exi/s b "o ,god1 s\l ( ! univ]se1 yet !y no less accept$ ! m9or gods1 & int]m$i>ies or mess5g]s betwixt gods & m51 :om !y call$ demons4 ,^! hybrid be+s1 :o p]ta9$ to humanity by _! passions1 & to ! div9ity by ! privilege ( immortality1 _h to be appeas$ by sacrifices1 que/ion$ & gratifi$ by magic spells4 ,& !re is :at ! highe/ pagan wisdom end$ 9--yes1 9 call+ up spirits1 & ! %ady op]ations ( wiz>ds & wond]-smi?s4 ,t is :at ! pagans def5d$1 & dem&$ ! cont9uation ( ) s mu* ob/9acy & fanaticism4 ,by no means1 repli$ ,augu/94 ,x does n des]ve to survive4 ,x is n ! =sak+ ( ^! beliefs & sup]/iti\s practices :i* has br\ght ab\t ! decay ( ! ,empire4 ,if y are ask+ = ! temples ( y\r gods to be op5$1 x is because !y are easy to y\r passions4 ,at he>t1 y sc(f at !m & ! ,empire2 all y want is fre$om & impunity = y\r vices4 ,!re we h ! real cause ( ! decad5ce6 ,little matt] ! idle grimaces be=e alt>s & /atues4 ,become *a/e1 sob]1 brave1 & poor1 z y\r ance/ors 74 ,h *ildr51 agree to compulsory milit>y s]vice1 & y w conqu] z !y did4 ,n[1 all ^! virtues are enjo9$ & enc\rag$ by ,*ri/ianity4 ,:atev] c]ta9 h]etics may say1 ! religion ( ,*ri/ is n contr>y to m>riage or ! soldi]'s pr(ession4 ,! ,patri>*s ( ! old law 7 ble/ 9 m>riage1 & !re are j & holy w>s4 ,& ev5 suppos+1 t 9 spite ( all ef=ts to save x1 ! ,empire is condemn$1 mu/ we !re=e despair8 ,we %\ld be prep>$ = ! end ( ! ,roman city4 ,l all ! ?+s ( ?is _w1 x is liable to old age & dea?4 ,x w die !n1 "o day4 ,f> f be+ ca/ d[n1 let u /r5g!n ourselves aga9/ ?is disa/] by ! realization ( ! et]nal4 ,let u /r5g!n our hold ^u t :i* passes n4 ,above ! e>?ly city1 rises ! ,city ( ,god1 :i* is ! communion ( holy s\ls1 ! only "o :i* gives complete & nev]-fail+ joy4 ,let u try to be ! citiz5s ( t city1 & to live ! only life wor? call+ life4 ,= ! life "h bel[ is b ! %ad[ ( a %ad[4444 ,! p ( ^? times 7 wond]fully prep>$ to he>k5 to su* exhortations4 ,on ! eve ( ! ,b>b>ian invasions1 ^! ,*ri/ians1 = :om ! dogma ( ! ,resurrection 0 p]haps ! *ief reason ( _! fai?1 ^! p1 sick at he>t1 :o look$ on 9 torture at ! end+ ( a _w1 mu/ h consid]$ ?is pres5t life z a bad dream1 f :i* !re %\ld be no delay 9 escap+4 ,at ! v mom5t ev5 t ,augu/9 began to write ,! ,city ( ,god1 8 fri5d ,evodius1 ,bi%op ( ,uzalis1 told him ?is /ory4 ,he _h z secret>y a v "y man1 ! son ( a prie/ 9 ! neighb\rhood4 ,?is "y man _h begun by obta9+ a po/ z /5ograph] 9 ! (fice ( ! ,proconsul ( ,africa4 ,evodius1 :o 0 al>m$ at :at might happ5 to 8 virtue 9 su* surr\nd+s1 hav+ fir/ made c]ta9 ( 8 absolute *a/ity1 (f]$ to take him into 8 s]vice4 ,9 ! bi%op's h\se1 :]e he _h sc>cely any?+ to d b read ! ,holy ,scripture1 8 fai? became s en?usia/ic t he long$ = no?+ n[ b dea?4 ,to g out ( ?is life1 to be ) ,*ri/1 0 8 eag] wi%4 ,x 0 he>d4 ,aft] sixte5 days ( illness he di$ 9 ! h\se ( 8 p>5ts4 ,n[1 two days aft] 8 fun]al1 a virtu\s woman ( ,figes1 a s]vant ( ,god1 a wid[ = twelve ye>s1 _h a dream1 & 9 h] dream %e saw a deacon :o _h be5 dead "s f\r ye>s1 toge!r ) m51 & wom5 too1 virg9s & wid[s--%e saw ^! s]vants ( ,god gett+ ready a palace4 ,?is dwell+ 0 s ri* t x %one ) light1 & y w\ld h believ$ x 0 all made ( silv]4 ,& :5 ! wid[ ask$ :om ^! prep>ations 7 =1 ! deacon repli$ t !y 7 = a "y man1 dead ! ev5+ be=e1 ! son ( a prie/4 ,9 ! same palace1 %e saw an old man1 all rob$ 9 :ite1 & he told two o!r p]sons1 also rob$ 9 :ite1 to g to ! tomb ( ?is "y man1 & lift out ! body1 & c>ry x to ,heav54 ,:5 ! body _h be5 drawn f ! tomb & c>ri$ to ,heav51 !re arose 7said %e7 out ( ! tomb a bu% ( virg9-roses1 :i* are ?us nam$ because !y nev] op54444 ,s ! son ( ! prie/ _h *os5 ! bett] "p4 ,:at 0 ! good ( rema9+ 9 ?is abom9able _w1 :]e !re 0 always a risk ( be+ burn$ or murd]$ by ,go?s & ,v&als1 :51 9 ! o!r _w1 angels 7 prep>+ = y palaces ( light8 ,,iii ,,! ,,b>b>ian ,,desolation ,augu/9 0 sev5ty-two ye>s old :5 he f9i%$ ! ,city ( ,god4 ,?is 0 9 #dbf4 ,t ye>1 an ev5t ( mu* importance occurr$ at ,hippo1 & ! report ( x 0 ins]t$ 9 ! public acts ( ! community4 ,! six? ( ! cal5ds ( ,octob]1 ,! ,acts set =?1 ! v glori\s ,!odosius be+ consul = ! twelf? "t1 & ,val5t9ian ,augu/us = ! second1 ,augu/9 ! bi%op1 accompani$ by ,religianus & ,m>t9ianus1 8 fell[-bi%ops1 hav+ tak5 8 place 9 ! ,basilica ( ,peace at ,hippo1 & ! prie/s ,saturnius1 ,leporius1 ,b>naby1 ,=tunatianus1 ,laz>us1 & ,h]aclius1 be+ pres5t1 ) all ! cl]gy & a va/ cr[d ( p--,augu/9 ! bi%op said3 ',let u )\t delay look to ! bus9ess :i* ,i decl>$ ye/]day to y\r *>ity1 & = :i* ,i desir$ y to ga!r "h 9 l>ge numb]s1 z ,i see y h done4 ,if ,i 7 to talk to y ( any?+ else1 y might be less att5tive1 see+ ! expectation y are 94 ',my bro!rs1 we are all mortal 9 ?is life1 & no man kn[s 8 la/ day4 ,god will$ t ,i %\ld come to dwell 9 ?is t[n 9 ! =ce ( my age4 ,b1 z ,i 0 a "y man !n--see1 ,i am old n[1 & z ,i "k t at ! dea? ( bi%ops1 peace is tr\bl$ by rivalry or ambition 7?is h ,i (t5 se5 & bewail$ x7--,i ought1 s f> z x re/s ) me1 to turn away s great a mis*ief f y\r city4444 ,i am go+ !n to tell y t my w1 :i* ,i believe also to be ! w ( ,god1 is t ,i h z successor ! prie/ ,h]aclius4' ,at ^! words all ! p cri$ out3 ',?anks be to ,god6 ,praise be to ,*ri/6' ,& ?is cry !y repeat$ ?ree-&-tw5ty times4 ',*ri/1 he> u6 ,pres]ve u ,augu/96' ,?is cry !y repeat$ sixte5 times4 ',be our fa!r6 ,be our bi%op6' ,?is cry !y repeat$ eight times4 ,:5 ! p became sil5t1 ! bi%op ,augu/9 spoke aga9 9 ^! words3 ',!re is no ne$ = me to praise ,h]aclius4 ,z mu* z ,i d ju/ice to 8 wisdom1 9 equal measure %\ld ,i sp>e 8 mode/y4444 ,z y p]ceive1 ! secret>ies ( ! *ur* ga!r up :at we say & :at y say4 ,my words & y\r %\ts d n fall to ! gr\nd4 ,to put x briefly1 ^! are ecclesia/ical decrees t we are n[ draw+ up1 & ,i desire by ^! means1 z f> z x is 9 ! p[] ( man1 to confirm :at ,i h decl>$ to y4' ,"h ! p cri$ out3 ',?anks be to ,god6 ,praise be to ,*ri/6' 99 99 99 99 99 ',be our fa!r1 & let ,h]aclius be our bi%op6' ,:5 sil5ce 0 made aga91 ,augu/9 ! bi%op ?us spoke3 ',i und]/& :at y w\ld say4 ,b ,i d n wi% t x happ5 to him z x happ5$ to me4 ,_m ( y "k :at 0 done at t "t4444 ,i 0 consecrat$ bi%op dur+ ! lifetime ( my fa!r & bi%op1 ! ag$ ,val]ius1 ( bless$ memory1 & ) him ,i %>$ ! see4 ,i 0 ignorant1 z he 01 t ?is 0 =bidd5 by ! ,c\ncil ( ,nice4 ,i w\ld n !re=e t m5 %\ld blame 9 ,h]aclius1 my son1 :at !y blam$ 9 me4' ,) t ! p cri$ out ?irte5 times3 ',?anks be to ,god6 ,praise be to ,*ri/6' ,aft] a little sil5ce1 ,augu/9 ! bi%op said aga93 ',s he w rema9 a prie/ till x %all please ,god = him to be a bi%op4 ,b ) ! aid & m]cy ( ,*ri/1 ,i %all d 9 future :at up to n[ ,i h n be5 able to d4444 ,y w rememb] :at ,i want$ to d "s ye>s ago1 & y h n all[$ me4 ,= a "w ^u ! ,holy ,scriptures1 ) :i* my bro!rs & my fa!rs ! bi%ops _h deign$ to *>ge me 9 ! two ,c\ncils ( ,numidia & ,c>?age1 ,i 0 n to be di/urb$ by anybody dur+ five days ( ! week4 ,t 0 a ?+ agre$ ^u betwe5 y & me4 ,! act 0 drawn up1 & y all approv$ ( x aft] he>+ x read4 ,b y\r promise did n la/ long4 ,i 0 soon encroa*$ ^u & ov]run by y all4 ,i am no long] free to /udy z ,i desire4 ,morn+ & aft]noon1 ,i am entangl$ 9 y\r worldly affairs4 ,i beg ( y & supplicate y 9 ,*ri/'s "n to suff] me to %ift ! bur!n ( all ^! c>es ^u ?is "y man1 ! prie/ ,h]aclius1 :om ,i signal1 9 ,8 "n1 z my successor 9 ! bi%opric4' ,^u ?is ! p cri$ out six-&-tw5ty times3 ',we ?ank !e = ?y *oice6' ,& ! p hav+ become sil5t1 ,augu/9 ! bi%op said3 ',i ?ank y = y\r *>ity & goodwill1 or r1 ,i ?ank ,god = !m4 ,s1 my bro!rs1 y w address y\rselves to ,h]aclius ^u all ! po9ts y are us$ to submit to me4 ,:5ev] he ne$s c\nsel1 my c>e & my help w n be want+4444 ,9 ?is way1 )\t any loss to y1 ,i %all be able to devote ! rema9d] ( life :i* x may please ,god /ill to leave me1 n to laz9ess & re/1 b to ! /udy ( ! ,holy ,scriptures4 ,?is "w w be useful to ,h]aclius1 & h5ce to y\rselves4 ,let nobody !n envy my leisure1 = ?is leisure w be v busy4444 ',x only rema9s = me to ask y1 at lea/ ^? :o c1 to sign ^! acts4 ,y\r agreem5t ,i _c d )\t2 s k9dly let me le>n x by y\r voices4' ,at ^! words ! p %\t$3 ',let x be s6 ,let x be s6' 99 99 99 99 99 ,:5 all !re became sil5t1 ,augu/9 ! bi%op made an end1 say+3 ',x is well4 ,n[ let u fulfil our duty to ,god4 ,:ile we (f] ,him ! ,sacrifice1 & dur+ ?is h\r ( supplication1 ,i w\ld urge ( y\r *>ity to lay aside all bus9ess & p]sonal c>es1 & to pray ! ,"l ,god = ?is *ur*1 = me1 & = ! prie/ ,h]aclius4' ,! dryness & (ficial word+ ( ! docum5t d n succe$ 9 /ifl+ ! vividness & col\r ( ?is cr[d$ sc5e4 ,?r\gh ! piety ( ! =mal cries1 x is easy to see t ,augu/9's he>]s 7 h>d to manage4 ,?is flock1 :i* he lov$ & scold$ s mu*1 0 no easi] to lead n[ ?an :5 he fir/ became bi%op4 ,truly x 0 no s9ecure to rule & adm9i/rate ! diocese ( ,hippo6 ,! bi%op 0 lit]ally ! s]vant ( ! fai?ful4 ,n only _h he to fe$ & clo! !m1 to sp5d 8 "t ov] _! bus9ess & qu>rels & lawsuits1 b he belong$ to !m body & s\l4 ,!y kept a jeal\s eye on ! employm5t ( 8 "t2 if he w5t away1 !y ask$ = an explanation4 ,:5ev] ,augu/9 w5t to prea* at ,c>?age or ,utica1 he apologiz$ to 8 own p4 ,& be=e he c und]take a comm5t>y on ! ,scriptures1 a comm5t>y1 moreov]1 :i* he has be5 ask$ by two ,c\ncils to prep>e1 he mu/ get _! p]mission1 or1 at any rate1 _! agreem5t4 ,at la/1 at sev5ty-two ye>s old1 aft] he _h be5 a bi%op = ?irty-"o ye>s1 he got _! leave to take a little re/4 ,b :at a re/6 ,he himself said3 ,?is leisure w be v busy--?is leisure :i* is go+ to fill ! five holidays 9 ! week4 ,he int5ds to /udy & fa?om ! ,scripture1 & ?is1 besides1 to ! pr(it ( 8 p & cl]gy & ! :ole ,*ur*4 ,x is ! fonde/ dream ( 8 life--! plan he 0 nev] able to realize4 ,all t1 at fir/ sight1 a/oni%es u4 ,we ask ourselves1 ,:at else _h he be5 do+ up to ?is "t 9 8 treatises & lett]s & s]mons1 9 all t sea ( words & writ+s :i* 8 enemies ?rew up at him1 if he 0 n /udy+ & expla9+ ! ,holy ,scriptures8 ,! fact is1 t 9 mo/ ( ^! writ+s & s]mons he elucidates ! tru? only 9 "p1 or else he is confut+ h]esi>*s4 ,:at he want$ to d 0 to /udy ! tru? = its own sake1 )\t hav+ to ?9k ( & be h9d]$ by ! exposure ( errors2 & above all1 to seize x 9 all its bread? & all its dep?s1 to h done ) ?is blight+ & irritat+ eri/ic1 & to reflect 9 a va/ ,mirror ! :ole & pure/ light ( ! sacr$ dogmas4 ,he nev] f\nd ! "t = x4 ,he _h to limit himself to a h&book ( practical morals1 publi%$ "u ?is title be=e 8 dea?1 & n[ lo/4 ,once m ! h]esi>*s prev5t$ him f lead+ a life ( speculation4 ,dur+ 8 la/ ye>s1 amid ! cruelle/ anxieties1 he _h to battle ) ! enemies ( ,grace & ! enemies ( ! ,tr9ity1 ) ,arius & ,pelagius4 ,pelagius _h f\nd an able disciple 9 a "y ,italian bi%op1 ,julian ( ,eclanum1 :o 0 a =midable oppon5t to ! ag$ ,augu/94 ,z = ,arianism1 :i* _h seem$ ext+ui%$ 9 ! ,we/1 "h x 0 giv5 a new life by ! ,b>b>ian invasion4 ,x 0 a grave mom5t = ,ca?olicism1 z x 0 = ! ,empire4 ,! ,go?s1 ! ,alani1 & ! ,v&als1 aft] hav+ laid wa/e ,gaul & ,spa91 7 tak+ measures to pass ov] into ,africa4 ,%\ld !y r5ew ! attempts ( ,al>ic & ,radagaisus aga9/ ,italy1 !y w\ld soon be ma/]s ( ! entire ,occid5t4 ,n[ ^! ,b>b>ians 7 ,arians4 ,suppos+ 7& x seem$ m & m likely7 t ,africa & ,italy 7 vanqui%$ aft] ,gaul & ,spa91 !n x 0 all ov] ) ,we/]n ,ca?olicism4 ,= ! invad]s c>ri$ _! religion 9 _! baggage1 & =c$ x on ! conqu]$4 ,augu/91 :o _h *]i%$ ! hope ( equall+ ! e>?ly k+dom ( ,*ri/ to t ( ! ,cs>s1 0 go+ to see ! ru9 ( bo?4 ,8 t]rifi$ imag9ation exagg]at$ /ill m ! only too real & ?reat5+ p]il4 ,he mu/ h liv$ h\rs ( agony1 expect+ a disa/]4 ,if only ! tru? might be sav$1 might swim 9 ?is sea ( errors :i* spread l a flood 9 ! wake ( ! ,b>b>ian onfl[6 ,x 0 f ?is wi%1 no d\bt1 t sprang ! tireless p]si/5ce :i* ! old bi%op put into a la/ battle ) h]esy4 ,if he select$ ,pelagius specially to fall ^u ) fury1 if he =c$ 8 pr9ciples to _! la/ consequ5ces 9 8 !ory ( ,grace1 ! dread ( ! ,b>b>ian p]il _h p]haps some?+ to d ) x4 ,?is s\l1 s mild1 s mod]ate1 s t5d]ly human1 promulgat$ a pitiless doctr9e :i* does n agree ) 8 "*4 ,b he reason$1 no d\bt1 t x 0 impossible to drive home too h>d ! ne$ ( ! ,r$emption & ! div9ity ( ! ,r$eem] 9 front ( ^! ,arians1 ^! ,pelagians1 ^! enemies ( ,*ri/1 :o to-morr[ p]haps w\ld be ma/]s ( ! ,empire4 ,!re=e1 ,augu/9 cont9u$ to write1 & discuss1 & disprove4 ,!re came a "t :5 he _h to ?9k ( fight+ o!rwise ?an ) ! p54 ,8 life1 ! lives ( 8 flock1 7 ?reat5$4 ,he _h to see to ! bodily def5ce ( 8 c\ntry & city4 ,! fact 01 t "s "t be=e ! great drive ( ! ,v&als1 =]unn]s ( !m1 9 ! %ape ( hordes ( ,african ,b>b>ians1 _h begun to lay wa/e ! prov9ces4 ,! ,circoncelliones 7 n dead1 nor _! good fri5ds ! ,donati/s ei!r4 ,^! sect>ies1 enc\rag$ by ! widespread an>*y1 came out ( _! hid+-places & %ew$ !mselves m insol5t & aggressive ?an ev]4 ,possibly !y hop$ = "s effective support aga9/ ! ,roman ,*ur* f ! ,arian ,v&als :o 7 draw+ ne>1 or at lea/ a recognition ( :at !y believ$ to be _! rights4 ,day aft] day1 b&s ( ,b>b>ians 7 l&+ f ,spa94 ,9 ! re> ( ^! w&]+ troops ( brig&s or irregul> soldi]s1 ! old enemies ( ! ,roman peace & civilization1 ! ,nomads ( ! ,s\?1 ! ,moors ( ! ,atlas1 ! ,kabylian m\nta9e]s1 flung !mselves ^u c\ntry & t[n1 pillag+1 kill+1 & burn+ ev]y?+ t got 9 _! way4 ,all 0 laid desolate4 ,c\ntries b lately prosp]\s & populat$ h be5 *ang$ into solitudes1 said ,augu/94 ,at la/1 9 ! spr+ ( ! ye> #dbi1 ! ,v&als & ! ,alani1 hav+ jo9$ =ces on ! ,spani% coa/ "u _! ,k+1 ,g5s]ic1 cross$ ! ,/raits ( ,gibralt>4 ,x 0 deva/ation on a l>ge scale ?is "t4 ,an army ( eighty ?\s& m5 set !mselves me?odically to plund] ! ,african prov9ces4 ,*]*ell1 :i* _h already be5 sorely tri$ dur+ ! revolt ( ,firmus ! ,moor1 0 captur$ aga9 & burn$4 ,all ! t[ns & =tifi$ places on ! coa/ fell1 "o aft] ano!r4 ,con/ant9e alone1 f ! height ( its rock1 kept ! invad]s at bay4 ,to />ve out ^? :o fl$ f t[ns & f>ms & took refuge 9 ! fa/nesses ( ! ,atlas1 ! ,b>b>ians de/roy$ ! h>ve/1 burn$ ! gra9-h\ses1 & cut d[n ! v9es & fruit trees4 ,& !y set fire to ! =e/s :i* cov]$ ! slopes ( ! m\nta9s1 to =ce ! refugees out ( _! hid+-places4 ,?is /upid ravag+ 0 aga9/ ! int]e/ ( ! ,v&als !mselves1 because !y 7 injur+ ! natural ri*es ( ,africa1 ! report ( :i* _h br\ght !m !re4 ,africa 0 = !m ! l& ( pl5ty1 :]e p c\ld dr9k m w9e ?an !y want$ & eat :eat5 bread4 ,x 0 ! c\ntry :]e life 0 com=table1 easy1 & happy4 ,x 0 ! gran>y ( ! ,m$it]ranean1 ! great supply-/ore ( ,rome4 ,b _! s5seless crav+ = gold l$ !m to ru9 prov9ces1 9 :i*1 nev]!less1 !y c\nt$ ^u settl+4 ,!y behav$ 9 ,africa z !y _h behav$ 9 ,rome "u ,al>ic4 ,by way ( te>+ gold out ( ! inhabitants1 !y tortur$ !m z !y _h tortur$ ! weal?y ,romans4 ,!y inv5t$ worse ones4 ,*ildr51 be=e _! p>5ts' eyes1 7 slic$ 9 two l animals 9 a slaught]h\se4 ,or else _! skulls 7 sma%$ aga9/ ! pavem5ts & walls ( h\ses4 ,! ,*ur* 0 believ$ to be v ri*2 & p]haps1 z x _h manag$ to comprise 9 its doma9s ! greate/ "p ( ! l&$ e/ates1 x 0 ^u x *iefly t ! ,b>b>ians flung !mselves4 ,! prie/s & bi%ops 7 tortur$ ) unhe>d-( improvem5ts ( cruelty4 ,!y 7 dragg$ 9 ! re> ( ! army l slaves1 s t heavy ransoms might be extract$ f ! fai?ful 9 ex*ange = _! pa/ors4 ,!y 7 oblig$ to c>ry ! baggage l ! camels & mules1 & :5 !y gave out ! ,b>b>ians prodd$ !m ) lances4 ,_m sank d[n beside ! road & nev] rose m4 ,b x is c]ta9 t fanaticism add$ to ! covet\sness & f]ocity ( ! ,v&als4 ,^! ,arians bore a special grudge aga9/ ,ca?olicism1 :i* 01 besides1 9 _! eyes1 ! religion ( ! ,roman dom9ation4 ,?is is :y !y made _! *ief attacks on basilicas1 conv5ts1 hospitals1 & all ! prop]ty ( ! ,*ur*4 ,& ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry public wor%ip 0 /opp$4 ,9 ,hippo1 ^! atrocities 7 kn[n be=e ! ,b>b>ians arriv$4 ,! p mu/ h await$ !m & prep>$ to receive !m ) gloomy resignation4 ,africa _h n be5 tranquil = a c5tury4 ,aft] ! ris+s ( ,firmus & ,gildo1 came ! loot+s ( ! s\!rn ,nomads & ! ,b]b] m\nta9e]s4 ,& x 0 n s long s9ce ! ,circoncelliones 7 keep+ p con/antly on ! al]t4 ,b ?is "t ev]ybody felt t ! great ru9 0 at h&4 ,!y 7 /unn$ by ! news t "s t[n or =tifi$ place _h be5 captur$ by ! ,v&als1 or t "s f>m or villa 9 ! neighb\rhood 0 on fire4 ,amid ! g5]al dismay1 ,augu/9 did 8 be/ to keep calm4 ,he1 inde$1 saw beyond ! mat]ial de/ruction1 & at e new rum\r ( massacre or burn+ he w\ld repeat to 8 cl]ics & p ! words ( ! ,wise ,man3 ,do? ! firm ( he>t grieve to see fall ! /ones & beams1 & dea? seize ! *ildr5 ( m58 ,!y accus$ him ( be+ call\s4 ,!y did n und]/& him4 ,:ile all ab\t him m\rn$ ! pres5t mis=tunes1 he 0 already lam5t+ ov] ! evil to come1 & ?is cle>-sight$ness pa9$ him m ?an ! %ock ( ! daily horrors committ$ by ! ,b>b>ians4 ,8 disciple ,possidius1 ! ,bi%op ( ,guelma1 :o 0 ) him 9 ^! sad days1 naively appli$ to him ! say+ out ( ,ecclesia/es3 ,9 mu* wisdom is mu* grief4 ,augu/9 did really suff] m ?an o!rs1 because he ?\ght m pr(\ndly on ! disa/]4 ,he =esaw t ,africa 0 go+ to be lo/ to ! ,empire1 & consequ5tly to ! ,*ur*4 ,!y 7 b\nd toge!r 9 8 m9d4 ,:at 0 !re to d aga9/ brutal /r5g?8 ,all ! eloqu5ce & all ! *>ity 9 ! _w w\ld be z no?+ aga9/ t un*a9$ elem5tal mass ( ,v&als4 ,x 0 z impossible to conv]t ! ,b>b>ians z x _h be5 to conv]t ! ,donati/s4 ,=ce 0 ! only res\rce aga9/ =ce4 ,!n 9 despair ! man ( ,god turn$ once m to ,cs>4 ,! monk appeal$ to ! soldi]4 ,he *>g$ ,boniface1 ,c\nt ( ,africa1 to save ,rome & ! ,*ur*4 ,?is ,boniface1 a r ambigu\s p]sonage1 0 a f9e type ( ! swa%buckl] & (ficial ( ! ,l[]-,empire4 ,?racian by orig91 he jo9$ ! trick]y ( ! ,ori5tal to all ! vices ( ! ,b>b>ian4 ,he 0 /rong1 clev] 9 all bodily ex]cises l ! soldi]s ( ^? days1 ov]fl[+ ) vig\r & heal?1 & ev5 brave at times4 ,9 addition1 he 0 fond ( w9e & wom51 & ate & drank l a true pagan4 ,he 0 m>ri$ twice1 & aft] 8 second m>riage he kept 9 ! sight & k ( ev]ybody a h>em ( concub9es4 ,he 0 s5t1 fir/ ( all1 to ,africa z a ,tribune--t is to say1 z ,commission] ( ! ,imp]ial ,gov]nm5t1 probably to c>ry out ! decrees ( ,honorius aga9/ ! ,donati/s2 & ere long he 0 made comm&] ( ! milit>y =ces ( ! prov9ce1 ) ! title ( ,c\nt4 ,9 reality1 :ile seem+ to protect ! c\ntry1 he set himself to plund] x1 z ! tradition 0 among ! ,roman (ficials4 ,8 (ficium1 /ill m grasp+ ?an himself1 p]suad$ him to de$s :i* ! ,bi%op ( ,hippo1 :o 01 h[ev]1 anxi\s to rema9 on ! "r side ( him1 prote/$ aga9/ by h9ts4 ,boniface 0 oblig$ to ov]look mu* robb]y & pillage on ! "p ( 8 subord9ates s z to keep !m fai?ful4 ,moreov]1 he himself /ole4 ,he 0 b\nd to close 8 eyes to ! depr$ations ( o!rs1 t 8 own might be w9k$ at4 ,once become ! accomplice ( ?is b& ( robb]s1 he _h no long] ! au?ority to control !m4 ,h[ did ,augu/9 ev] believe 9 ! goodwill & good fai? ( ?is adv5tur] full ( co>se passions1 s f> z to put 8 f9al hopes 9 him8 ,augu/9 knew m5 v well2 he c\ld detect l[ & hypocritical natures at a di/ance4 ,h[ came x t he 0 tak5 9 by ,boniface8 ,well1 ,augu/9 want$ 8 support1 fir/ ( all1 :5 he came z ,imp]ial ,commission] to ,c>?age to br+ ! ,donati/s into l9e4 ,g5]ally1 we see only ! good po9ts ( p :o d u good turns4 ,besides1 9 ord] to propitiate ! bi%op1 & ! dev\t ,c\rt at ,rav5na1 ! ,tribune adv]tis$ 8 great zeal 9 fav\r ( ,ca?olicism4 ,8 fir/ wife1 a v pi\s woman :om he seems to h lov$ mu*1 enc\rag$ him 9 ?is4 ,:5 %e di$1 he 0 s ov]come by despair t he took refuge 9 ! extreme/ practices ( religion--& 9 ?is1 p]haps1 he 0 q s9c]e4 ,x is also possible t he 0 becom+ discr$it$ at ,rav5na1 :]e !y mu/ h kn[n ab\t 8 oppressions & suspect$ 8 ambiti\s intrigues4 ,anyh[1 :e!r he 0 really disgu/$ ) ! _w1 or :e!r he deem$ x prud5t to ?r[ a little oblivion ov] himself j !n1 he spoke on all h&s ( resign+ 8 po/ & liv+ 9 retreat l a monk4 ,x 0 j at ?is mom5t t ,augu/9 & ,alypius begg$ him n to des]t ! ,african army4 ,!y met ! ,comm&]-9-,*ief at ,?ubun1 9 ,s\!rn ,numidia1 :]e1 no d\bt1 he 0 r$uc+ ! ,nomads4 ,we mu/ rem>k once m ,augu/9's en]gy 9 travell+1 to ! v eve ( 8 dea?4 ,x 0 a long & dang]\s road f ,hippo to ,?ubun4 ,be=e mak+ up 8 m9d to s mu* fatigue1 ! old bi%op mu/ h judg$ ! situation to be v s]i\s4 ,at ,?ubun1 0 ,boniface play+ a game1 or 0 he1 inde$1 s cru%$ by 8 grief t ! _w _h become unbe>able & he pond]$ g5u9e ?\ghts ( *ang+ 8 way ( life8 ,:at is sure is1 t he gave ! two prelates ! mo/ edify+ talk4 ,:5 !y he>d ! ,c\nt ( ,africa speak+ ) unction ( ! cloi/] & ( 8 desire to retire !re1 !y 7 a little a/oni%$ at s mu* piety 9 a soldi]4 ,besides1 ^! excell5t resolutions 7 mo/ inconv5i5t = _! plans4 ,!y remon/rat$ ) him t x 0 q possible to save "o's s\l 9 ! army1 & quot$ ! example ( ,david1 ! w>rior k+4 ,!y end$ by tell+ him all ! expectations !y f\nd$ ^u 8 res\rce & firmness4 ,!y begg$ him to protect ! *ur*es & conv5ts aga9/ fre% attacks ( ! ,donati/s1 & especially aga9/ ! ,b>b>ians ( ,africa4 ,^! 7 at ?is mom5t break+ d[n all ! old def5ce l9es & lay+ wa/e ! t]ritories ( ! ,empire4 ,boniface all[$ himself to be easily conv9c$--promis$ :atev] he 0 ask$4 ,b he nev] budg$4 ,f n[ on1 8 conduct becomes mo/ s+ul>4 ,he is 9 comm& ( all ! milit>y /r5g? ( ! prov9ce1 & he takes no /eps to suppress ! ,african loot]s4 ,x w\ld seem z if he only ?\ght ( fill+ ! c(f]s ( himself & 8 fri5ds4 ,! c\ntry 0 s sy/ematically sc\r$ by !m t1 z ,augu/9 said1 !re 0 no?+ m left to take4 ,?is inactivity l5t col\r to ! rum\rs ( treason4 ,nor is x impossible t he _h *]i%$ a plan f ! beg9n+ ( 8 comm& to cut out an indep5d5t pr9cipality = himself 9 ,africa4 ,0 ?is ! reason t he dealt s(tly ) ! native tribes1 s z to make c]ta9 ( _! help 9 case ( a conflict ) ! ,imp]ial army8 ,h[ev] t may be1 8 behavi\r 0 n frank4 ,"s ye>s lat]1 he l&$ on ! ,spani% coa/ to w> aga9/ ! ,v&als "u ! comm& ( ! ,prefect ,ca/9us1 & !re he m>ri$ a ,b>b>ian pr9cess :o 0 by religion an ,arian4 ,x is true t ! new ,c\ntess ( ,africa became a conv]t to ,ca?olicism4 ,b h] fir/ *ild 0 baptiz$ by ,arian prie/s1 :o rebaptiz$1 at ! same "t1 ! ,ca?olic slaves ( ,boniface's h\sehold4 ,?is m>riage ) a ,v&al1 ^! concessions to ,arianism1 gave imm5se sc&al to ! or?odox4 ,rum\rs ( treason began to float ab\t aga94 ,no d\bt ,boniface took great advantage ( 8 fidelity to ! ,empress ,placidia4 ,b he 0 /&+ betwe5 ! all-p[]ful ,b>b>ians & ! und]m9$ ,empire4 ,he want$ to rema9 on good t]ms ) bo?1 & !n1 :5 ! h\r came1 to g ov] to ! /rong]4 ,?is d\ble-fac$ diplomacy caus$ 8 d[nfall4 ,8 rival ,atius accus$ him ( high treason be=e ,placidia4 ,! ,c\rt ( ,rav5na decl>$ him an enemy ( ! ,empire1 & an army 0 s5t aga9/ him4 ,boniface did n hesitate2 he w5t into op5 rebellion aga9/ ,rome4 ,augu/9 0 ?und]/ruck by 8 des]tion4 ,b :at way 0 !re to make ?is viol5t man li/5 to reason1 :o _h at lea/ ! appe>ances ( "r on 8 side1 s9ce !re 0 a *ance !y _h sl&]$ him to ! ,empress1 & :o ?\ght x q natural to take v5geance on 8 enemies8 ,8 rec5t successes _h /ill m intoxicat$ him4 ,he _h j defeat$ ! two g5]als :o _h be5 s5t to r$uce him1 & he 0 accord+ly ma/] ( ! situation 9 ,africa4 ,:at 0 he go+ to d8 ,! wor/ resolutions 7 to be fe>$ f ?is conqu]or1 all sm>t+1 & hungry = rev5ge4444 ,nev]!less1 ,augu/9 resolv$ to write to him4 ,8 lett] is a ma/]piece ( tact1 ( prud5ce1 & also ( ,*ri/ian & episcopal firmness4 ,x w\ld h be5 dang]\s to decl>e to ?is triumphant rebel3 ,y are 9 ! wrong4 ,y\r duty is to submit to ! ,emp]or1 y\r ma/]4 ,boniface 0 q capable ( answ]+3 ,:at are y int]f]+ =8 ,politics are no bus9ess ( y\rs4 ,look aft] y\r ,*ur*6 ,?is is :y ,augu/9 v clev]ly speaks to him f beg9n+ to end ( 8 lett] simply z a bi%op1 eag] = ! salvation ( a v de> son 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,& s1 by keep+ /rictly to 8 (fice ( spiritual director1 he ga9$ 8 end m surely & entirely2 &1 z a doctor ( s\ls1 he v5tur$ to rem9d ,boniface ( c]ta9 tru?s :i* he w\ld nev] h d>$ to m5tion z c\nsellor4 ,accord+ to ,augu/91 ! disgrace ( ! ,c\nt1 & ! evils :i* ?is ev5t _h br\ght on ,africa1 came pr9cipally f 8 atta*m5t to worldly b5efits4 ,x 0 ! ambition & covet\sness ( himself & 8 foll[]s :i* _h done all ! h>m4 ,let him free himself f p]i%able ?+s1 let him prev5t ! !fts & plund]+ ( ^? "u him4 ,let him1 :o "s "t ago wi%$ to live 9 p]fect celibacy1 n[ keep at lea/ to 8 wife & no o!r4 ,f9ally1 let him rememb] 8 sworn allegiance4 ,augu/9 did n mean to g into ! qu>rel betwe5 ,boniface & ,placidia1 & he gave no op9ion z to ! grievances ( ei!r4 ,he conf9$ himself to say+ to ! g5]al 9 rebellion3 ,if y h receiv$ s _m b5efits f ! ,roman ,empire1 d n r5d] evil = good4 ,if1 on ! o!r h&1 y h receiv$ evil1 d n r5d] evil = evil4 ,x is cle> t ! ,bi%op ( ,hippo c\ld sc>cely h giv5 any o!r advice to ! ,c\nt ( ,africa4 ,to play ! "p ( political c\nsellor 9 ! v entangl$ /ate ( affairs 0 extremely risky4 ,h[ 0 x possible to exhort a victori\s g5]al to lay d[n 8 arms be=e ! conqu]$8 ,& yet1 9 e/imat+ ! situation f ! ,*ri/ian /&po9t alone1 ,augu/9 _h f\nd a way to say ev]y?+ ess5tial1 all t c\ld pr(itably be said at ! mom5t4 ,h[ did ,boniface take a lett] :i* 01 9 ! circum/ances1 s c\rage\s8 ,:at we "k is t he did n alt] 8 plans4 ,x w\ld inde$ h be5 v difficult = him to )draw & yield2 & m ?an ev] s9ce a new army "u ,sigisvultus _h be5 s5t aga9/ him 9 all ha/e4 ,a real fatality compell$ him to rema9 9 revolt aga9/ ,rome4 ,did he believe he 0 ru9$1 z has be5 /at$1 or else1 ?r\gh 8 family connections--let u rememb] t 8 wife 0 a ,b>b>ian--_h he be5 = a long "t plott+ ) ,g5s]ic to divide ,africa8 ,he has be5 accus$ ( t4 ,:at comes out is1 t z soon z he he>d ( ! arrival ( ,sigisvultus & ! new exp$ition>y =ce1 he call$ 9 ! ,v&als to 8 aid4 ,?is 0 ! great invasion ( #dbi4 ,ere long1 ! ,b>b>ians ent]$ ,numidia4 ,! bord]l&s ab\t ,hippo 7 ?reat5$4 ,/rick5 ) t]ror1 ! inhabitants 9 a mass fl$ be=e ! enemy1 leav+ ! t[ns empty4 ,^? :o 7 caught 9 !m ru%$ into ! *ur*es1 implor+ ! bi%ops & prie/s to help !m4 ,or else1 giv+ up all hope ( life1 !y cri$ out to be baptiz$1 confess$1 did p5ance 9 public4 ,! ,v&als1 z we h se51 aim$ specially at ! cl]gy2 !y believ$ t ! ,ca?olic prie/s 7 ! s\l ( ! resi/ance4 ,%\ld n ^! prie/s1 !n1 9 ! v int]e/ ( ! ,*ur*1 save !mselves = quiet] times1 & escape ! p]secution by flight8 ,_m %elt]$ !mselves beh9d ! words ( ,*ri/3 ,:5 !y p]secute y 9 ?is city1 flee ye into ano!r4 ,b ,augu/9 /rongly condemn$ ! c[>dl9ess ( ! des]t]s4 ,9 a lett] address$ to 8 fell[-bi%op1 ,honoratus1 & int5d$ to be read by all ! cl]gy 9 ,africa1 he decl>es t bi%ops & prie/s %\ld n ab&on _! *ur*es & dioceses1 b /ay at _! po/ till ! end--till dea? & till m>tyrdom--to fulfil ! duties ( _! m9i/ry4 ,if ! fai?ful 7 able to )draw into a safe place1 _! pa/ors might accompany !m2 if n1 !y %\ld die 9 ! mid/ ( !m4 ,?us !y w\ld h at lea/ ! consolation ( l5d+ aid to ! dy+ 9 _! la/ mom5ts1 & especially ( prev5t+ ! apo/asies :i* readily took place "u ! %ock ( ! t]ror4 ,= ,augu/91 :o =esaw ! future1 ! ess5tial ?+ 0 t lat]1 :5 ! ,v&al wave _h swept away1 ,ca?olicism might fl\ri% aga9 9 ,africa4 ,to ?is end1 ! ,ca?olics mu/ be made to rema9 9 ! c\ntry1 & ! greate/ possible numb] be /r5g!n$ 9 _! fai?4 ,o!rwise1 ! "w ( ?ree c5turies w\ld h to be done all ov] aga94 ,we mu/ admire ?is c\rage & cle>-m9d$ness 9 an old man ( sev5ty-five1 :o 0 be+ cont9ually h>ass$ by ! compla9ts & lam5tations ( a cr[d ( demoraliz$ fugitives4 ,! position became m & m critical4 ,! siege l9es 7 draw+ clos]4 ,b 9 ! mid/ ( all ?is dread1 ,augu/9 0 giv5 a gleam ( hope3 ,boniface made 8 peace ) ! ,empire4 ,h5ce=w>d1 8 army1 turn+ aga9/ ! ,b>b>ians1 might protect ,hippo & p]haps save ,africa4 ,_h ,augu/9 a h& 9 ?is reconciliation8 ,!re is n ! lea/ d\bt t he desir$ x mo/ e>ne/ly4 ,9 a lett] to ,c\nt ,d>ius1 ! special envoy s5t f ,rav5na to treat ) ! rebel g5]al1 he w>mly congratulates ! ,imp]ial pl5ipot5ti>y on 8 mission ( peace4 ,y are s5t1 he said to him1 to /op ! %$d+ ( blood4 ,!re=e rejoice1 illu/ri\s & v de> son 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 rejoice 9 ?is great & real bless+1 & rejoice ^u x 9 ! ,"l1 ,:o has made y :at y are1 & entru/$ to y a task s beautiful & important4 ,may ,god seal ! good "w ,he has done = u ?r\gh y6 444 ,& ,d>ius answ]$3 ,may y be sp>$ to pray su* pray]s = ! ,empire & ! ,roman ,/ate a long "t yet1 my ,fa!r4 ,b ! ,empire 0 lo/ 9 ,africa4 ,if ! reconciliation ( ! rebelli\s ,c\nt _h giv5 "s illusions to ,augu/91 !y did n la/ long4 ,boniface1 hav+ fail$ 9 8 endeav\rs to negotiate ! retreat ( ! ,v&als1 0 defeat$ by ,g5s]ic1 & oblig$ to fall back into ,hippo ) an army ( m]c5>y ,go?s4 ,?us x came ab\t t ,b>b>ians held aga9/ o!r ,b>b>ians "o ( ! la/ ,roman citadels 9 ,africa4 ,f ! end ( ,may1 #dcj1 ,hippo 0 blockad$ on ! l& side & on ! side ( ! sea4 ,9 great tribulation1 ,augu/9 resign$ himself to ?is supreme humiliation1 & to all ! horrors :i* w\ld h to be endur$ if ! city 7 captur$4 ,z a ,*ri/ian1 he left all to ! w ( ,god1 & he w\ld repeat to ^? ab\t him ! words ( ! ,psalm3 ,righte\s art ,?\1 ,o ,"l1 & upright are ,?y judgm5ts4 ,a numb] ( fugitive prie/s1 & among !m ,possidius1 ,bi%op ( ,guelma1 _h tak5 refuge 9 ! episcopal resid5ce4 ,"o day1 :5 he lo/ he>t1 ,augu/91 :o 0 at table ) !m1 said3 ,9 front ( all ^! disa/]s1 ,i ask ,god to deliv] ?is city f ! siege1 or1 if t be n ,8 decree1 to give ,8 s]vants ! necess>y /r5g? to d ,8 w1 or at lea/ to take me f ?is _w & receive me into ,8 bosom4 ,b x is m ?an probable t disc\ragem5t ( t k9d 0 only mom5t>y ) him1 & t 9 8 s]mons1 z well z 9 8 conv]sations ) ,boniface1 he did 8 utmo/ to /imulate ! c\rage ( ! p & ! g5]al4 ,8 correspond5ce includes a s]ies ( lett]s writt5 ab\t ?is "t to ! ,c\nt ( ,africa1 :i* manife/ "h & !re a v w>like _s4 ,^! lett]s are mo/ c]ta9ly apocryphal4 ,yet !y d reveal some?+ ( :at mu/ h be5 ! s5tim5ts j !n ( ! p ( ,hippo & ( ,augu/9 himself4 ,"o ( ^! lett]s emphatically congratulates ,boniface ^u an advantage ga9$ ov] ! ,b>b>ians4 ,y\r ,excell5cy kn[s1 ,i believe1 t ,i am /ret*$ ^u my b$1 & t ,i long = my la/ day to come4 ,i am ov]joy$ at y\r victory4 ,i urge y to save ! ,roman city4 ,rule y\r soldi]s l a good ,c\nt4 ,d n tru/ too mu* to y\r own /r5g?4 ,put y\r glory 9 ,him ,:o gives c\rage1 & y w nev] fe> any enemy4 ,f>ewell6 ,! words d n matt] mu*4 ,:atev] may h be5 ,augu/9's la/ f>ewell to ! def5d] ( ,hippo1 x 0 no d\bt c\*$ 9 language n unlike ?is4 ,9 any case1 po/]ity has wi%$ to believe t ! dy+ bi%op ma9ta9$ to ! end 8 unyield+ demean\r face to face ) ! ,b>b>ians4 ,x w\ld be a misuse ( words to repres5t him z a patriot 9 ! pres5t s5se ( ! t]m4 ,x is no less true t ?is ,african1 ?is ,*ri/ian1 0 an admirable s]vant ( ,rome4 ,until 8 dea? he kept 8 respect = x1 because 9 8 eyes ! ,empire meant ord]1 peace1 civilization1 ! unity ( fai? 9 ! unity ( rule4 ,,iv ,,sa9t ,,augu/9 ,9 ! ?ird mon? ( ! siege1 he fell ill4 ,he _h a fev]--no d\bt an infecti\s fev]4 ,! c\ntry p1 ! w\nd$ soldi]s :o _h tak5 refuge 9 ,hippo aft] ! r\t ( ,boniface1 mu/ h br\ght 9 ! g]ms ( disease4 ,x 01 moreov]1 ! end ( ,augu/1 ! season ( epidemics1 ( damp heats & oppressive ev5+s1 ! "t ( ! ye> mo/ dang]\s & try+ = sick p4 ,all at once1 ,augu/9 took to 8 b$4 ,b ev5 !re1 ^u ! b$ 9 :i* he 0 go+ to die1 he 0 n left 9 quiet4 ,p came to ask 8 pray]s = "s possess$ by devils4 ,! old bi%op 0 t\*$2 he wept & ask$ ,god to give him ?is grace1 & ! devils w5t out ( ^? poor crazy m54 ,?is cure1 z may well be ?\ght1 made a great noise 9 ! city4 ,a man br\ght him ano!r "o sick to be heal$4 ,augu/91 be+ mo/ we>y1 said to ! man3 ,my son1 y see ! /ate ,i am 94 ,if ,i _h any p[] ov] illnesses1 ,i %\ld beg9 by cur+ myself4 ,b ! man _h no idea ( be+ put (f3 he _h _h a dream4 ,a my/]i\s voice _h said to him1 ,g & see ,augu/93 he w put 8 h&s on ! sick p]son1 :o w rise up cur$4 ,&1 9 fact1 he did4 ,i ?9k ^! are ! only miracles ! sa9t made 9 8 life4 ,b :at matt]s t1 :5 ! cont9ual miracle ( 8 *>ity & 8 apo/olate is consid]$8 ,soon ! bi%op's illness grew worse4 ,ev5tually1 he succe$$ 9 p]suad+ !m n to di/urb him any m1 & t !y w\ld let him prep>e = dea? 9 sil5ce & recollection4 ,dur+ ! t5 days t he /ill l+]$1 nobody ent]$ 8 cell save ! physicians1 & ! s]vants :o br\ght him a little food4 ,he avail$ himself ( ! quiet to rep5t ( 8 faults4 ,= he 0 us$ to say to 8 cl]gy t ev5 aft] baptism1 ,*ri/ians--nay1 prie/s1 h[ev] holy !y might be1 ought nev] g out ( life )\t hav+ made a g5]al confession4 ,& ! bett] to r\se 8 contrition1 he _h desir$ !m to copy out on leaves ! ,p5it5tial ,psalms1 & to put ^! leaves on ! wall ( 8 room4 ,he read !m cont9ually f 8 pill[4 ,"h1 !n1 he is alone ) himself & ,god4 ,a solemn mom5t = ! great old man6 ,he call$ up 8 pa/ life1 & :at /ruck him mo/1 & sadd5$ him1 0 ! f\nd]+ ( all 8 human hopes4 ,! enemies ( ! ,*ur*1 :om he _h battl$ ) almo/ )\t ceas+ = =ty ye>s1 & _h reason to believe conqu]$--all ^! enemies 7 rais+ _! heads3 ,donati/s1 ,arians1 ,b>b>ians4 ,) ! ,b>b>ians' help1 ! ,arians 7 go+ to be ! ma/]s ( ,africa4 ,! *ur*es1 re=m$ at ! price ( su* long ef=ts1 w\ld be once m de/roy$4 ,& see n[6 ! au?ority :i* might h support$ !m1 :i* he _h p]haps too mu* reli$ ^u--well1 ! ,empire 0 s9k+ too4 ,x 0 ! end ( ord]1 ( sub/antial peace1 ( t m9imum ( safety :i* is indisp5sable = all spiritual ef=t4 ,f "o end to ! o!r ( ! ,we/]n _w1 ,b>b>ism triumph$4 ,sometimes1 amid ^! sad ?\ghts ( ! dy+ man1 ! clang\r ( cl>ions bl>$ out--!re 0 a call to arms on ! ramp>ts4 ,& ^! musics came to him 9 8 half-deliri\s /ate v m\rnfully1 l ! trumpets proclaim+ ! ,judgm5t ,day4 ,yes1 x might well be fe>$ t ! ,day ( ,wra? 0 "h6 ,0 x really ! end ( ! _w1 or only ! end ( a _w8444 ,truly1 !re 7 !n en\gh horrors & calamities to make p ?9k ( ! morr[ ) dismay4 ,_m ( ! signs pr$ict$ by ,scripture daz$ ! imag9ation3 desolations1 w>s1 p]secutions ( ! ,*ur*1 increas$ ) t]rific /ead9ess & cruelty4 ,yet all ! signs =etold 7 n !re4 ,h[ _m times already _h humanity be5 deceiv$ 9 its fe> & its hope6 ,9 reality1 ?\gh all seem$ to %ew t ! end ( "t 0 draw+ nigh1 no "o c\ld tell ! day nor ! h\r ( ! ,judgm5t4 ,h5ce1 m5 %\ld wat* always1 accord+ to ! words ( ,*ri/4444 ,b if ?is trial ( ,b>b>ian w> 0 to pass l ! o!rs1 h[ woeful x 0 :ile x endur$6 ,h[ h>d = ,augu/91 above all1 :o saw ne>ly ! :ole ( 8 "w ?r[n d[n4 ,"o ?\ght at lea/ consol$ him1 t s9ce 8 conv]sion1 = =ty ye>s & m1 he _h done all he 0 able--he _h work$ = ,*ri/ ev5 beyond 8 /r5g?4 ,he said to himself t he left beh9d him ! fruit ( a huge lab\r1 a :ole body ( doctr9e & apology :i* w\ld safegu>d aga9/ error :atev] 0 left ( 8 flock & ( ! ,african ,*ur*4 ,he himself _h f\nd$ a ,*ur* :i* might s]ve z an example1 8 de> ,*ur* ( ,hippo1 t he _h done 8 be/ to fa%ion aft] ! div9e plan4 ,& he _h also f\nd$ conv5ts1 & a libr>y full ( books1 :i* _h become /ill l>g] rec5tly ?r\gh ! g5]osity ( ,c\nt ,d>ius4 ,he _h lesson$ 8 cl]gy :o1 once ! disa/]s 7 pa/1 w\ld scatt] ! good se$ ( ,tru?4 ,books1 mona/]ies1 prie/s1 a sure & solid n\ri%m5t = ! m9d1 %elt]s & guides = s\ls--!re is :at he bequea!d to ! work]s ( ! future4 ,& ) a little joy m+l+ ) 8 sorr[1 he read on ! corn] ( ! wall :]e 8 b$ 01 ?is v]se ( ! ,psalm3 ,exibit homo ad opus suum et op]ationem suam usque ad vesp]um--,man goe? =? unto 8 "w & to 8 lab\r until ! ev5+4 ,he1 too1 _h work$ until ev5+4 ,if ! e>?ly rew>d seem$ to slip f him n[1 if all 0 s9k+ ar\nd him1 if 8 episcopal city 0 beleagu]$1 if he himself1 al?\gh /ill a /rong man--he _h ! use ( all 8 limbs1 says ,possidius2 a ke5 e> & p]fect sight--if he himself 0 dy+ too soon1 x 0 d\btless 9 expiation = ! s9s ( 8 y\?4 ,at ?is remembrance ( 8 disord]s1 ! te>s fell ov] 8 face4444 ,& yet1 h[ev] wild _h be5 8 conduct at t "t1 he c\ld descry 9 x ! sure m>ks ( 8 vocation4 ,he recall$ ! despair & te>s ( 8 "m1 b also 8 en?usiasm :5 he read ! ,hort5sius2 8 disgu/ = ! _w & all ?+s :5 he lo/ 8 fri5d4 ,9 ! old man he recogniz$ ! new4 ,& he said to himself3 ,nay6 b t 0 myself4 ,i h n *ang$4 ,i h only f\nd myself4 ,i h only *ang$ my ways4 ,9 my y\?1 9 ! /ronge/ "t ( my mi/akes1 ,i _h already ris5 to turn to ,!e1 my ,god6 ,8 wor/ fooli%ness _h be5 ! desire to und]/& all ?+s4 ,he _h fail$ 9 humility ( m9d4 ,!n ,god _h giv5 him ! grace to submit 8 intellig5ce to ! fai?4 ,he _h believ$1 & !n he _h und]/ood1 z well z he c\ld1 z mu* z he c\ld4 ,9 ! beg9n+1 he ackn[l$g$ v pla9ly t he did n und]/&4 ,& !n fai? _h ?r[n op5 ! roads ( und]/&+4 ,he _h spl5didly employ$ 8 reason1 )9 ! limits laid d[n aga9/ mortal weakness4 ,_h t n be5 ! pr\d desire ( 8 y\?8 ,to und]/&6 ,:at great] de/9y8 ,to love also4 ,aft] he _h fre$ himself f c>nal passions1 he _h mu* employ$ 8 he>t4 ,he ?\ght ( all ! *>ity he _h p\r$ out ^u 8 p & ! ,*ur*1 ^u all he _h lov$ 9 ,god--^u all he _h done1 ^u all ! consequ5ce ( 8 lab\r1 inspir$ & /r5g!n$ by ! div9e love4444 ,yes1 to love--all 0 9 t6 ,let ! ,b>b>ians come6 ,_h n ,*ri/ said3 ,lo1 ,i am ) y alway1 ev5 unto ! end ( ! _w8 ,s long z !re %all be two m5 ga!r$ toge!r = love ( ,him1 ! _w w n be entirely lo/1 ! ,*ur* & civilization w be sav$4 ,! religion ( ,*ri/ is a leav5 ( action1 und]/&+1 sacrifice1 & *>ity4 ,if ! _w be n at ?is h\r already condemn$1 if ! ,day ( ,judgm5t be /ill f> (f1 x is f ?is religion t %all arise ! new influ5ces ( ! future4444 ,& s ,augu/9 =got 8 suff]+s & 8 human disappo9tm5ts 9 ! ?\ght t1 9 spite ( all1 ! ,*ur* is et]nal4 ,! ,city ( ,god ga!r$ 9 ! wreckage ( ! e>?ly city3 ,! ,go? _c capture :at ,*ri/ protects--,non tollit ,go?us quod cu/odit ,*ri/us4 ,& z 8 suff]+s increas$1 he turn$ all 8 ?\ghts on ?is un5d+ ,city1 :]e we re/1 :]e we see1 :]e we love1 :]e we f9d aga9 all ! belov$ ones :o h gone away4 ,all--he call$ !m all 9 ?is supreme mom5t3 ,monnica1 ,adeodatus1 & h] :o _h ne>ly lo/ h]self = him1 & all ^? he _h held de>4444 ,on ! fif? day ( ! cal5ds ( ,septemb]1 ,augu/91 ! bi%op1 0 v l[4 ,!y 7 pray+ = him 9 ! *ur*es at ,hippo1 & especially 9 ! ,basilica ( ,peace1 :]e he _h prea*$ & work$ = o!rs s long4 ,possidius ( ,guelma 0 9 ! bi%op's room1 & ! prie/s & monks4 ,!y s5t up _! pray]s ) ^? ( ! dy+ man4 ,& no d\bt !y sang = ! la/ "t be=e him "o ( ^? liturgical *ants :i* long ago at ,milan _h t\*$ him ev5 to te>s1 & n[1 s9ce ! siege1 9 ! panic caus$ by ! ,b>b>ians1 !y d>$ n s+ any m4 ,augu/91 gu>d+ himself ev5 n[ aga9/ ! too poignant sweetness ( ! melody1 att5d$ only to ! s5se ( ! words4 ,& he said3 ,my s\l ?ir/s aft] ! liv+ ,god4 ,:5 %all ,i appe> be=e ,8 face8 ,or aga93 ,he ,:o is ,life has come d[n into ?is _w4 ,he has suff]$ our dea?1 & ,he has caus$ x to die by ! fullness ( ,8 life4444 ,life has come d[n to y--& w y n asc5d t[>ds ,him & live8444 ,he 0 pass+ into ,life & into ,glory4 ,he 0 go+ v quietly1 amid ! *ant+ ( hymns & ! murmur ( pray]s4444 ,little by little 8 eyes 7 veil$1 ! l9es ( 8 face became rigid4 ,8 lips mov$ no m4 ,possidius1 ! fai?ful disciple1 b5t ov] him4 ,l a patri>* ( ! ,scriptures1 ,augu/9 ( ,?aga/e slept ) 8 fa!rs4444 99 99 99 99 99 ,& n[1 :atev] may be ! wor? ( ?is book1 :i* has be5 plann$ & c>ri$ out 9 a _s ( v5]ation & love = ! sa9t1 = ! great he>t & ! great intellect t ,augu/9 01 = ?is unique type ( ! ,*ri/ian1 ! mo/ p]fect & ! mo/ admirable p]haps t has ev] be5 se5--! au?or c only repeat 9 all humility :at 0 said fifte5 hundr$ ye>s ago by ! ,bi%op ( ,guelma1 ,augu/9's fir/ biograph]3 ,i d desire ( ! *>ity ( ^? into ^: h&s ?is "w %all fall1 to jo9 ) me 9 ?anksgiv+ & bless+ to ,our ,"l1 ,:o has inspir$ me to make kn[n ?is life to ^? pres5t & ^? abs5t1 & has giv5 me ! /r5g? to d x4 ,pray = me & ) me1 t ,i may try "h bel[ to foll[ 9 ! /eps ( ?is pe]less man1 :om1 by ,god's goodness1 ,i h _h ! happ9ess ( liv+ ) = su* a long "t4444 ,,! ,,end