,,amiel',s ,,j\rnal ,by ,h5ri-,frdric ,amiel ,! ,j\rnal ,intime ( ,h5ri-,frdric ,amiel ,translat$1 ,) an ,introduction & ,notes by ,mrs4 ,humphrey ,w>d ,,preface ,,to ,,! ,,second ,,edition4 ,9 ?is second edition ( ! ,engli% translation ( ,amiel's 8,j\rnal ,intime10 ,i h ins]t$ a good _m new passages1 tak5 f ! la/ ,fr5* edition 7,c9quime dition1 revue et augm5te47 ,b ,i h n translat$ all ! fre% mat]ial to be f\nd 9 t edition nor h ,i omitt$ c]ta9 sections ( ! ,j\rnal :i* 9 ^! two rec5t volumes h be5 omitt$ by _! ,fr5* editors4 ,x w\ld be ( no int]e/ to give my reasons = ^! v>iations at l5g?4 ,!y dep5d ^u c]ta9 diff]5ces betwe5 ! ,engli% & ! ,fr5* public1 :i* are m readily felt ?an expla9$4 ,"s ( ! passages :i* ,i h left untranslat$ seem$ to me to ov]weight ! introspective side ( ! ,j\rnal1 already s full--to ov]weight x1 at any rate1 = ,engli% read]s4 ,o!rs :i* ,i h reta9$1 ?\gh !y (t5 relate to local names & books1 m or less unfamili> to ! g5]al public1 yet seem$ to me valuable z supply+ "s ( t surr\nd+ detail1 t sett+1 :i* helps "o to und]/& a life4 ,besides1 we ,engli% are 9 _m ways m ak9 to ,prote/ant & ,puritan ,g5eva ?an ! ,fr5* read]s to :om ! orig9al ,j\rnal prim>ily addresses itself1 & "s ( ! entries ,i h kept h probably1 by ! nature ( ?+s1 m savor = u ?an = !m4 ,m4 ,a4 ,w4 ,,preface4 ,?is translation ( ,amiel's 8,j\rnal ,intime0 is prim>ily address$ to ^? ^: k ( ,fr5*1 :ile x may be suffici5t to c>ry !m ) m or less complete und]/&+ ?r\gh a novel or a newspap]1 is yet n en\gh to all[ !m to und]/& & appreciate a book conta9+ subtle & complicat$ =ms ( expression4 ,i believe !re are _m su* to be f\nd among ! read+ public1 & among ^? :o w\ld naturally take a /rong int]e/ 9 su* a life & m9d z ,amiel's1 7 x n = ! b>ri] ( language4 ,x is1 at any rate1 9 ! hope t a c]ta9 numb] ( additional read]s may be !reby attract$ to ! 8,j\rnal ,intime0 t ?is translation ( x has be5 und]tak54 ,! difficulties ( ! translation h be5 sometimes consid]able1 ow+1 fir/ ( all1 to ^? elliptical modes ( spee* :i* a man naturally employs :5 he is writ+ = himself & n = ! public1 b :i* a translator at all ev5ts is b\nd 9 "s degree to exp&4 ,e "h & !re ,amiel expresses himself 9 a k9d ( %or?&1 p]fectly intelligible to a ,fr5*man1 b = :i* an ,engli% equival5t1 at once t]se & cle>1 is h>d to f9d4 ,ano!r difficulty has be5 8 con/ant use ( a te*nical philosophical language1 :i*1 accord+ to 8 ,fr5* critics1 is n ,fr5*--ev5 philosophical ,fr5*--b ,g]man4 ,v (t5 x has be5 impossible to give any o!r ?an a lit]al r5d]+ ( su* passages1 if ! ?\ght ( ! orig9al 0 to be pres]v$2 b 9 ^? cases :]e a *oice 0 op5 to me1 ,i h pref]r$ ! m lit]>y to ! m te*nical expression2 & ,i h be5 enc\rag$ to d s by ! fact t ,amiel1 :5 he came to prep>e = publication a c]ta9 numb] ( 8,p5ses10 extract$ f ! ,j\rnal1 & pr9t$ at ! end ( a volume ( poems publi%$ 9 #ahec1 frequ5tly s(t5$ 8 phrases1 s t s5t5ces :i* survive 9 ! ,j\rnal 9 a m te*nical =m are to be f\nd 9 a m lit]>y =m 9 ! 8,gra9s de ,mil40 ,9 two or ?ree cases--n m1 ,i ?9k--,i h all[$ myself to transpose a s5t5ce bodily1 & 9 a few in/ances ,i h add$ "s explanatory words to ! text1 :i* :]ev] ! addition 0 ( any importance1 are indicat$ by squ>e brackets4 ,my w>me/ ?anks are due to my fri5d & critic1 ,m4 ,edmond ,s*]]1 f ^: valuable & int]e/+ /udy1 prefix$ to ! ,fr5* ,j\rnal1 z well z f c]ta9 mat]ials 9 8 possession :i* he has v k9dly all[$ me to make use (1 ,i h drawn by f> ! great] "p ( ! biographical mat]ial embodi$ 9 ! ,introduction4 ,m4 ,s*]] has also giv5 me help & advice ?r\gh ! :ole process ( translation--advice :i* 8 s*ol>ly k ( ,engli% has made especially wor? hav+4 ,9 ! translation ( ! m te*nical philosophical passages ,i h be5 greatly help$ by ano!r fri5d1 ,mr4 ,b]n>d ,bosanquet1 ,fell[ ( ,univ]sity ,college1 ,ox=d1 ! translator ( ,lotze1 ( ^: c>e & pa9s 9 ! matt] ,i *]i% a grateful remembrance4 ,b ) all ! help t has be5 s freely giv5 me1 n only by ^! fri5ds b by o!rs1 ,i confide ! little book to ! public ) _m a misgiv+6 ,may x at lea/ w9 a few m fri5ds & read]s "h & !re = "o :o liv$ alone1 & di$ sadly p]suad$ t 8 life _h be5 a b>r5 mi/ake2 :]eas1 all ! :ile--su* is ! irony ( ?+s--he _h be5 9 reality work+ out ! mission assign$ him 9 ! spiritual economy1 & fai?fully obey+ ! secret m&ate :i* _h impress$ itself ^u 8 y\?ful consci\sness3 8,let ! liv+ live2 & y1 ga!r toge!r y\r ?\ghts1 leave beh9d y a legacy ( feel+ & ideas2 y w be mo/ useful s40 ,,m>y ,a4 ,,w>d4 ,,introduction ,x 0 9 ! la/ days ( ,decemb]1 #ahhb1 t ! fir/ volume ( ,h5ri ,frdric ,amiel's 8,j\rnal ,intime0 0 publi%$ at ,g5eva4 ,! book1 ( :i* ! g5]al lit]>y _w knew no?+ prior to its appe>ance1 conta9$ a long & rem>kable ,introduction f ! p5 ( ,m4 ,edmond ,s*]]1 ! well-kn[n ,fr5* critic1 :o _h be5 = _m ye>s "o ( ,amiel's mo/ valu$ fri5ds1 & x 0 prefac$ also by a little ,av]tissem5t1 9 :i* ! 8,editors0--t is to say1 ! ,g5evese fri5ds to :om ! c>e & publication ( ! ,j\rnal _h be5 9 ! fir/ in/ance entru/$--describ$ 9 a few res]v$ & sob] words ! g5esis & objects ( ! publication4 ,"s ?\s&s ( %eets ( ,j\rnal1 cov]+ a p]iod ( m ?an ?irty ye>s1 _h come into ! h&s ( ,amiel's lit]>y heirs4 8,!y 7 writt510 said ! ,av]tissem5t1 8) sev]al ends 9 view4 ,amiel record$ 9 !m 8 v>i\s occupations1 & ! incid5ts ( ea* day4 ,he pres]v$ 9 !m 8 psy*ological obs]vations1 & ! impressions produc$ on him by books4 ,b 8 ,j\rnal 01 above all1 ! confidant ( 8 mo/ private & intimate ?\ghts2 a means :]eby ! ?9k] became consci\s ( 8 own inn] life2 a safe %elt] :]e9 8 que/ion+s ( fate & ! future1 ! voice ( grief1 ( self-exam9ation & confession1 ! s\l's cry = inw>d peace1 might make !mselves freely he>d4 8444 ,9 ! directions conc]n+ 8 pap]s :i* he left beh9d him1 ,amiel express$ ! wi% t 8 lit]>y executors %\ld publi% ^? p>ts ( ! ,j\rnal :i* might seem to !m to possess ei!r int]e/ z ?\ght or value z exp]i5ce4 ,! publication ( ?is volume is ! fulfillm5t ( ?is desire4 ,! read] w f9d 9 x1 n a volume ( ,memoirs1 b ! confid5ces ( a solit>y ?9k]1 ! m$itations ( a philosoph] = :om ! ?+s ( ! s\l 7 ! sov]eign realities ( exi/5ce40 ,?us mode/ly ann\nc$1 ! little volume made its quiet db4 ,x conta9$ no?+1 or almo/ no?+1 ( ord9>y biographical mat]ial4 ,m4 ,s*]]'s ,introduction suppli$ su* facts z 7 absolutely necess>y to ! und]/&+ ( ,amiel's intellectual hi/ory1 b no?+ m4 ,ev]y?+ ( a local or private "* t c\ld be exclud$ 0 exclud$4 ,! object ( ! editors 9 _! *oice ( passages = publication 0 decl>$ to be simply 8! reproduction ( ! moral & intellectual physiognomy ( _! fri5d10 :ile ,m4 ,s*]] expressly disclaim$ any biographical int5tions1 & limit$ 8 ,introduction z f> z possible to 8a /udy ( ! "* & ?\ght ( ,amiel40 ,! cont5ts ( ! volume1 !n1 7 purely lit]>y & philosophical2 its prevail+ tone 0 a tone ( introspection1 & ! public :i* c admit ! claims & ov]look ! inh]5t defects ( introspective lit]ature has always be5 a small "o4 ,! writ] ( ! ,j\rnal _h be5 dur+ 8 lifetime :olly unkn[n to ! g5]al ,european public4 ,9 ,g5eva itself he _h be5 commonly reg>d$ z a man :o _h signally disappo9t$ ! hopes & expectations ( 8 fri5ds1 ^: res]ve & indecision ( "* _h 9 _m respects spoil$ 8 life1 & ali5at$ ! society ar\nd him2 :ile 8 pr(essional lectures 7 g5]ally pron\nc$ dry & unattractive1 & ! few volumes ( poems :i* repres5t$ almo/ 8 only contributions to lit]ature _h n[h]e met ) any real cordiality ( reception4 ,^? conc]n$1 !re=e1 9 ! publication ( ! fir/ volume ( ! ,j\rnal c h>dly h _h mu* expectation ( a wide success4 ,g5eva is n a favorable />t+-po9t = a ,fr5* book1 & x may well h seem$ t n ev5 ! support ( ,m4 ,s*]]'s "n w\ld be likely to c>ry ! volume beyond a small local circle4 ,b 8wisdom is ju/ifi$ ( h] *ildr560 ,x is n[ ne>ly ?ree ye>s s9ce ! fir/ volume ( ! 8,j\rnal ,intime0 appe>$2 ! impression made by x 0 deep5$ & ext5d$ by ! publication ( ! second volume 9 #ahhd2 & x is n[ n too mu* to say t ?is rem>kable record ( a life has made its way to :at promises to be a p]man5t place 9 lit]ature4 ,among ^? :o ?9k & read x is beg9n+ to be g5]ally recogniz$ t ano!r book has be5 add$ to ! books :i* live--n to ^?1 p]haps1 :i* live 9 ! public view1 mu* discuss$1 mu* prais$1 ! objects ( feel+ & ( /ruggle1 b to ^? 9 :i* a g]m ( p]man5t life has be5 deposit$ sil5tly1 almo/ secretly1 :i* compel no homage & excite no rivalry1 & :i* owe ! place t ! _w half-unconsci\sly yields to !m to no?+ b t inde/ructible sympa?y ( man ) man1 t et]nal answ]+ ( feel+ to feel+1 :i* is "o ( ! great pr9ciples1 p]haps ! greate/ pr9ciple1 at ! root ( lit]ature4 ,m4 ,s*]] naturally 0 ! fir/ among ! recogniz$ guides ( op9ion to attempt ! plac+ ( 8 fri5d's ,j\rnal4 8,! man :o1 dur+ 8 lifetime1 0 incapable ( giv+ u any delib]ate or consci\s "w wor?y ( 8 p[]s1 has n[ left u1 aft] 8 dea?1 a book :i* w n die4 ,= ! secret ( ,amiel's malady is sublime1 & ! expression ( x wond]ful40 ,s ran "o ( ! la/ p>agraphs ( ! ,introduction1 & "o may see 9 ! s5t5ces ano!r in/ance ( t c\rage1 t reason$ ra%ness1 :i* di/+ui%es ! good f ! m$iocre critic4 ,= x is z true n[ z x 0 9 ! days :5 ,la ,bruyre rat$ ! critics ( 8 "t = _! incapacity to praise1 & praise at once1 t 8! sure/ te/ ( a man's critical p[] is 8 judgm5t ( contempor>ies40 ,m4 ,r5an1 ,i ?9k1 ) t exquisite lit]>y s5se ( 81 0 ! next among ! au?orities to m5tion ,amiel's "n ) ! emphasis x des]v$4 ,he quot$ a passage f ! ,j\rnal 9 8 ,preface to ! 8,s\v5irs d',enfance et de ,jeunesse10 describ+ x z ! say+ 8d'un p5seur di/+u1 ,m4 ,amiel de ,g5ve40 ,s9ce !n ,m4 ,r5an has devot$ two curi\s articles to ! complet$ ,j\rnal 9 ! ,j\rnal des ,desbats4 ,! fir/ object ( ^! reviews1 no d\bt1 0 n s mu* ! critical appreciation ( ,amiel z ! developm5t ( c]ta9 p>adoxes :i* h be5 haunt+ v>i\s corn]s ( ,m4 ,r5an's m9d = sev]al ye>s pa/1 & to :i* x is to be hop$ he has n[ giv5 expression ) suffici5t emphasis & brusqu]ie to satisfy ev5 8 passion = intellectual adv5ture4 ,/ill1 ! rank ( ! book 0 fully recogniz$1 & ! fir/ article especially conta9$ "s rem>kable criticisms1 to :i* we %all f9d occasion to recur4 8,9 ^! two volumes ( p5ses10 said ,m4 ,r5an1 8)\t any sacrifice ( tru? to arti/ic effect1 we h bo? ! p]fect mirror ( a mod]n m9d ( ! be/ type1 matur$ by ! be/ mod]n culture1 & also a /rik+ picture ( ! suff]+s :i* beset ! /]ility ( g5ius4 ,^! two volumes may c]ta9ly be reckon$ among ! mo/ int]e/+ philosophical writ+s :i* h appe>$ ( late ye>s40 ,m4 ,c>o's article on ! fir/ volume ( ! ,j\rnal1 9 ! ,revue des ,deux ,mondes = ,febru>y1 #ahhc1 may p]haps c\nt z ! fir/ introduction ( ! book to ! g5]al cultivat$ public4 ,he gave a c>eful analysis ( ! fir/ half ( ! ,j\rnal--resum$ eighte5 mon?s lat] 9 ! same p]iodical on ! appe>ance ( ! second volume--&1 :ile prote/+ aga9/ :at he conceiv$ to be ! g5]al t5d5cy & effect ( ,amiel's m5tal /ory1 he %[$ himself fully consci\s ( ! r>e & delicate qualities ( ! new writ]4 8,la rv]ie a russi notre auteur10 he says1 a little reluctantly--= ,m4 ,c>o has 8 d\bts z to ! legitimacy ( rv]ie2 8,il en aufait une oeuvure qui re/]a40 ,! same f9al judgm5t1 accompani$ by a v diff]5t s]ies ( comm5ts1 0 pron\nc$ on ! ,j\rnal a ye> lat] by ,m4 ,paul ,b\rget1 a "y & ris+ writ]1 ^: article is p]haps *iefly int]e/+ z %[+ ! k9d ( effect produc$ by ,amiel's ?\ght on m9ds ( a type ess5tially ali5 f 8 own4 ,!re is a leav5 ( some?+ positive & au/]e1 ( some?+ :i*1 = want ( a bett] "n1 "o calls ,puritanism1 9 ,amiel1 :i* escapes ! au?or ( 8,une ,cruelle ,enigme40 ,b :e!r he has und]/ood ,amiel or no1 ,m4 ,b\rget is fully alive to ! m>k :i* ! ,j\rnal is likely to make among mod]n records ( m5tal hi/ory4 ,he1 too1 insi/s t ! book is already fam\s & w rema9 s2 9 ! fir/ place1 because ( its inexorable realism & s9c]ity2 9 ! second1 because x is ! mo/ p]fect example available ( a c]ta9 v>iety ( ! mod]n m9d4 ,among ourselves1 al?\gh ! ,j\rnal has attract$ ! att5tion ( all :o keep a vigilant eye on ! progress ( =eign lit]ature1 & al?\gh "o or two appreciative articles h appe>$ on x 9 ! magaz9es1 ! book has /ill to become g5]ally kn[n4 ,"o rem>kable ,engli% te/imony to x1 h[ev]1 mu/ be quot$4 ,six mon?s aft] ! publication ( ! fir/ volume1 ! late ,m>k ,pattison1 :o s9ce !n has himself bequea!d to lit]ature a /range & memorable fragm5t ( autobiography1 address$ a lett] to ,m4 ,s*]] z ! editor ( ! 8,j\rnal ,intime10 :i* ,m4 ,s*]] has s9ce publi%$1 ne>ly a ye> aft] ! dea? ( ! writ]4 ,! words h a /rong & melan*oly int]e/ = all :o knew ,m>k ,pattison2 & !y c]ta9ly des]ve a place 9 any attempt to e/imate ! impression already made on contempor>y ?\ght by ! 8,j\rnal ,intime40 8,i wi% to convey to y1 sir10 writes ! rector ( ,l9coln1 8! ?anks ( "o at lea/ ( ! public = giv+ ! light to ?is preci\s record ( a unique exp]i5ce4 ,i say unique1 b ,i c v\* t !re is 9 exi/5ce at lea/ "o o!r s\l :i* has liv$ ?r\gh ! same /ruggles1 m5tal & moral1 z ,amiel4 ,9 y\r pa!tic description ( ! volont qui v\drait v\loir1 mais impuissante se f\rnir elle-mme des motifs--( ! repugnance = all action--! s\l petrifi$ by ! s5tim5t ( ! inf9ite1 9 all ?is ,i recognize myself4 ,celui qui a d*iffr le secret de la vie f9ie1 qui en a lu le mot1 e/ sorti du monde des vivants1 il e/ mort de fait4 ,i c feel =cibly ! tru? ( ?is1 z x applies to myself6 8,x is n1 h[ev]1 ) ! view ( ?ru/+ my egotism ^u y t ,i h v5tur$ ^u address+ y4 ,z ,i _c suppose t s peculi> a psy*ological revelation w enjoy a wide popul>ity1 ,i ?9k x a duty to ! editor to assure him t !re are p]sons 9 ! _w ^: s\ls respond1 9 ! dep?s ( _! inmo/ nature1 to ! cry ( angui% :i* makes itself he>d 9 ! pages ( ^! rem>kable confessions40 ,s mu* = ! place :i* ! ,j\rnal--! fruit ( s _m ye>s ( pa9ful ?\ght & disappo9t$ ef=t2 seems to be at la/ secur+ = its au?or among ^? contempor>ies :o 9 8 lifetime knew no?+ ( him4 ,x is a natural consequ5ce ( ! success ( ! book t ! m x p5etrates1 ! great] desire !re is to "k some?+ m ?an its orig9al editors & ,m4 ,s*]] h yet told u ab\t ! p]sonal hi/ory ( ! man :o wrote x--ab\t 8 education1 8 habits1 & 8 fri5ds4 ,p]haps "s day ?is wi% may f9d its satisfaction4 ,x is an innoc5t "o1 & ! public may ev5 be said to h a k9d ( "r to "k z mu* z c be told x ( ! p]sonalities :i* move & /ir x4 ,at pres5t ! biographical mat]ial available is extremely scanty1 & if x 7 n = ! k9dness ( ,m4 ,s*]]1 :o has all[$ ! pres5t writ] access to c]ta9 manuscript mat]ial 9 8 possession1 ev5 ! sket* :i* foll[s1 vague & imp]fect z x necess>ily is1 w\ld h be5 impossible4 ,footnote3 ,f\r or five articles on ! subject ( ,amiel's life h be5 contribut$ to ! ,rvue ,int]nationale by ,mdlle4 ,b]! ,vadi] dur+ ! passage ( ! pres5t book ?r\gh ! press4 ,my k ( !m1 h[ev]1 came too late to enable me to make use ( !m = ! purposes ( ! pres5t introduction4 ,h5ri ,frdric ,amiel 0 born at ,g5eva 9 ,septemb]1 #ahba4 ,he belong$ to "o ( ! emigrant families1 ( :i* a m or less /eady supply _h enri*$ ! little republic dur+ ! ?ree c5turies foll[+ ! ,re=mation4 ,amiel's ance/ors1 l ^? ( ,sismondi1 left ,langu$oc = ,g5eva aft] ! revocation ( ! ,edict ( ,nantes4 ,8 fa!r mu/ h be5 a y\? at ! "t :5 ,g5eva pass$ into ! p[] ( ! ,fr5* republic1 & w\ld seem to h m>ri$ & settl$ 9 ! halcyon days foll[+ ! re/oration ( ,g5evese indep5d5ce 9 #ahad4 ,amiel 0 born :5 ! prosp]ity ( ,g5eva 0 at its height1 :5 ! little /ate 0 adm9i/]$ by m5 ( ,european reputation1 & ,g5evese society _h p[] to attract di/+ui%$ visitors & admir]s f all p>ts4 ,! vet]an ,bon/ett51 :o _h be5 ! fri5d ( ,gray & ! associate ( ,voltaire1 0 /ill talk+ & enjoy+ life 9 8 app>tem5t ov]look+ ! woods ( ,la ,btie4 ,rossi & ,sismondi 7 busy lectur+ to ! ,g5evese y\?1 or tak+ "p 9 ,g5evese legislation2 an active sci5tific gr\p1 head$ by ! ,pictets1 ,de la ,rive1 & ! botani/ ,augu/e-,pyrame de ,c&olle1 kept ! c\ntry abrea/ ( ,european ?\ght & speculation1 :ile ! mix$ nationality ( ! place--! bl5d+ 9 x ( ,fr5* ke5ness ) ,prote/ant en?usiasms & ,prote/ant solidity--0 beg9n+ to f9d inimitable & *>act]i/ic expression 9 ! /ories ( ,tpff]4 ,! c\ntry 0 gov]n$ by an ari/ocracy1 :i* 0 n s mu* an ari/ocracy ( bir? z "o ( m]it & intellect1 & ! mod]ate con/itutional ideas :i* repres5t$ ! ,lib]alism ( ! po/-,wat]loo p]iod 7 n[h]e m w>mly embrac$ or m intellig5tly c>ri$ out ?an 9 ,g5eva4 ,dur+ ! ye>s1 h[ev]1 :i* imm$iately foll[$ ,amiel's bir?1 "s signs ( decad5ce began to be visible 9 ?is brilliant ,g5evese society4 ,! g5]ation :i* _h wait$ =1 prep>$1 & controll$1 ! ,re/oration ( #ahad1 0 fall+ into ! backgr\nd1 & ! y\ng] g5]ation1 ) all its respectability1 want$ en]gy1 above all1 want$ lead]s4 ,! revolution>y =ces 9 ! /ate1 :i* _h made !mselves viol5tly felt dur+ ! civil turmoils ( ! p]iod prec$+ ! assembly ( ! ,fr5* ,/ates ,g5]al1 & _h aft]w>d produc$ ! m9iature ,t]ror :i* =c$ ,sismondi into exile1 _h be5 = a:ile laid to sleep by ! ev5ts ( #ahad4 ,b ! slumb] 0 a %ort "o at ,g5eva z else:]e1 & :5 ,rossi quitt$ ! republic = ,france 9 #ahcc1 he did s ) a m9d full ( misgiv+s z to ! political future ( ! little /ate :i* _h giv5 him--an exile & a ,ca?olic--s g5]\s a welcome 9 #ahai4 ,! ideas ( #ahcj 7 %ak+ ! fabric & di/urb+ ! equilibrium ( ! ,swiss ,conf$]ation z a :ole1 & ( _m ( ! cantons compos+ x4 ,g5eva 0 /ill app>5tly tranquil :ile h] neighbors 7 di/urb$1 b no "o look+ back on ! hi/ory ( ! republic1 & able to measure ! /r5g? ( ! ,radical =ce 9 ,europe aft] ! fall ( ,*>les ,x41 c\ld h felt mu* d\bt b t a few m ye>s w\ld br+ ,g5eva also into ! :irlpool ( political *ange4 ,9 ! same ye>--#ahcc--t ,m4 ,rossi _h left ,g5eva1 ,h5ri ,frdric ,amiel1 at twelve ye>s old1 0 left orphan$ ( bo? 8 p>5ts4 ,!y _h di$ comp>atively "y--8 "m 0 only j ov] ?irty1 & 8 fa!r _c h be5 mu* old]4 ,on ! dea? ( ! "m ! little family 0 brok5 up1 ! boy pass+ into ! c>e ( "o relative1 8 two si/]s into t ( ano!r4 ,c]ta9 notes 9 ,m4 ,s*]]'s possession ?r[ a little light "h & !re ^u a *ildhood & y\? :i* mu/ necess>ily h be5 a little b>e & =lorn4 ,!y %[ u a s5sitive1 impressionable boy1 ( heal? r delicate ?an robu/1 already dispos$ to a m or less melan*oly & dreamy view ( life1 & %[+ a deep int]e/ 9 ^? religi\s problems & ideas 9 :i* ! air ( ,g5eva has be5 /eep$ s9ce ! days ( ,calv94 ,! religi\s tea*+ :i* a ,g5evese lad und]goes prior to 8 admission to full *ur* memb]%ip1 made a deep impression on him1 & c]ta9 my/ical elem5ts ( "*1 :i* rema9$ /rong 9 him to ! end1 %[$ !mselves v e>ly4 ,at ! college or public s*ool ( ,g5eva1 & at ! acadmie1 he w\ld seem to h done only mod]ately z f> z prizes & honors 7 conc]n$4 ,we are told1 h[ev]1 t he read enorm\sly1 & t he 01 g5]ally speak+1 incl9$ r to make fri5ds ) m5 old] ?an himself ?an ) 8 contempor>ies4 ,he fell specially "u ! influ5ce ( ,adolphe ,pictet1 a brilliant philologi/ & man ( lett]s belong+ to a well-kn[n ,g5evese family1 & 9 lat] life he 0 able1 :ile review+ "o ( ,m4 ,pictet's books1 to give grateful expression to 8 s5se ( obligation4 ,writ+ 9 #ahef he describes ! effect produc$ 9 ,g5eva by ,m4 ,pictet's ,lectures on ,ae/hetics 9 #ahdj--! fir/ ev] deliv]$ 9 a t[n 9 :i* ! ,beautiful _h be5 = c5turies reg>d$ z ! rival & enemy ( ! ,true4 8,he :o is n[ writ+10 says ,amiel1 80 !n among ,m4 ,pictet's y\nge/ he>]s4 ,s9ce !n tw5ty exp]i5ces ( ! same k9d h foll[$ ea* o!r 9 8 intellectual exp]i5ce1 yet none has effac$ ! deep impression made ^u him by ^! lectures4 ,com+ z !y did at a favorable mom5t1 & answ]+ _m a positive "q & _m a vague aspiration ( y\?1 !y ex]cis$ a decisive influ5ce ov] 8 ?\ght2 !y 7 to him an important /ep 9 t cont9u\s initiation :i* we call life1 !y fill$ him ) fre% intuitions1 !y br\ght ne> to him ! horizons ( 8 dreams4 ,&1 z always happ5s ) a fir/-rate man1 :at /ruck him ev5 m ?an ! tea*+ 0 ! tea*]4 ,s t ?is memory ( #ahdj is /ill de> & preci\s to him1 & = ?is d\ble s]vice1 :i* is n ( ! k9d "o =gets1 ! /ud5t ( ^? days delights 9 express+ to ! pr(essor ( #ahdj 8 s9c]e & filial gratitude40 ,amiel's fir/ lit]>y production1 or practically 8 fir/1 seems to h be5 ! result p>tly ( ^! lectures1 & p>tly ( a visit to ,italy :i* began 9 ,novemb]1 #ahda4 ,9 #ahdb1 a ye> :i* 0 sp5t entirely 9 ,italy & ,sicily1 he contribut$ ?ree articles on ,m4 ,rio's book1 8,l',art ,*rti510 to ! ,biblio?que ,univ]selle de ,g5ve4 ,we see 9 !m ! "y /ud5t consci5ti\sly writ+ 8 fir/ review--writ+ x at inord9ate l5g?1 z "y review]s are apt to d1 & treat+ ! subject ab ovo 9 a grave1 pontifical way1 :i* is a little nave & inexp]i5c$ inde$1 b /ill promis+1 z all s]i\sness ( "w & purpose is promis+4 ,all t is individual 9 x is fir/ ( all ! /rong ,*ri/ian feel+ :i* mu* ( x %[s1 & secondly1 ! tone ( melan*oly :i* already makes itself felt "h & !re1 especially 9 "o r rem>kable passage4 ,z to ! ,*ri/ian feel+1 we f9d ,m4 ,rio describ$ z belong+ to 8t noble s*ool ( m5 :o are /riv+ to rek9dle ! dead beliefs ( ,france1 to rescue ,fr5*m5 f ! camp ( mat]iali/ic or pan!i/ic ideas1 & rally !m r\nd t ,*ri/ian bann] :i* is ! bann] ( true progress & true civilization40 ,! ,r5aissance is treat$ z a disa/r\s b inevitable crisis1 9 :i* ! idealism ( ! ,middle ,ages 0 de?ron$ by ! naturalism ( mod]n times--8,! ,r5aissance p]haps robb$ u ( m ?an x gave u0--& s on4 ,! tone ( criticism is in/ructive en\gh to ! /ud5t ( ,amiel's m9d1 b ! product itself has no p>ticul> savor ( its own4 ,! occasional note ( depression & disc\ragem5t1 h[ev]1 is a diff]5t ?+2 "h1 = ^? :o "k ! 8,j\rnal ,intime10 !re is already some?+ *>act]i/ic1 some?+ :i* =etells ! future4 ,= in/ance1 aft] dwell+ ) evid5t ze/ on ! nature ( ! metaphysical problems ly+ at ! root ( art 9 g5]al1 & ,*ri/ian art 9 p>ticul>1 ! writ] goes on to set ! difficulty ( ,m4 ,rio's task aga9/ its attractiv5ess1 to insi/ on ! intricacy ( ! inve/igations involv$1 & on ! impossibility ( mak+ ! two in/rum5ts on :i* _! success dep5ds--! imag9ative & ! analytical faculty--"w h>moni\sly & effectively toge!r4 ,& suppos+ ! goal a*iev$1 suppos+ a man by insight & pati5ce has succe$$ 9 =c+ 8 way f>!r ?an any previ\s explor] into ! recesses ( ! ,beautiful or ! ,true1 !re /ill rema9s ! enorm\s1 ! insup]able difficulty ( expression1 ( fit & adequate communication f m9d to m9d2 !re /ill rema9s ! "q :e!r1 aft] all1 8he :o discov]s a new _w 9 ! dep?s ( ! invisible w\ld n d wisely to plant on x a flag kn[n to himself alone1 &1 l ,a*illes1 #8dev\r 8 he>t 9 secret2' :e!r ! greate/ problems :i* h ev] be5 guess$ on e>? _h n bett] h rema9$ buri$ 9 ! bra9 :i* _h f\nd ! key to !m1 & :e!r ! deepe/ ?9k]s--^? ^: h& has be5 bolde/ 9 draw+ aside ! veil1 & _! eye ke5e/ 9 fa?om+ ! my/]ies beyond x--_h n bett]1 l ! prophetess ( ,ilion1 h kept = heav51 & heav5 only1 secrets & my/]ies :i* human tongue _c truly express1 nor human intellig5ce conceive40 ,curi\s words = a beg9n] ( tw5ty-"o6 ,!re is a t\*1 no d\bt1 ( y\? & fatuity 9 ! passage2 "o feels h[ mu* ! vague sonor\s phrases h pleas$ ! writ]'s immature lit]>y s5se2 b !re is some?+ else too--!re is a brea? ( t same speculative passion :i* burns 9 ! ,j\rnal1 & "o he>s1 z x 71 ! fir/ acc5ts ( a melan*oly1 ! fir/ expression ( a mood ( m9d1 :i* became 9 aft] ye>s ! fix$ *>act]i/ic ( ! writ]4 8,at tw5ty he 0 already pr\d1 timid1 & melan*oly10 writes an old fri5d2 & a little f>!r on1 8,disc\ragem5t took possession ( him v e>ly40 ,h[ev]1 9 spite ( ?is inbr$ t5d5cy1 :i* 0 probably h]$it>y & inevitable1 ! ye>s :i* foll[$ ^! articles1 f #ahdb to ,*ri/mas1 #ahdh1 7 ye>s ( happ9ess & /eady intellectual expansion4 ,!y 7 ,amiel's ,w&]jahre1 sp5t 9 a free1 w&]+ /ud5t life1 :i* left deep m>ks on 8 intellectual developm5t4 ,dur+ f\r ye>s1 f #ahdd to #ahdh1 8 headqu>t]s 7 at ,b]l92 b e vacation saw him explor+ "s new c\ntry or fre% intellectual c5t]--,sc&9avia 9 #ahde1 ,holl& 9 #ahdf1 ,vi5na1 ,muni*1 & ,tb+5 9 #ahdh1 :ile ,p>is _h already attract$ him 9 #ahda1 & he 0 to make acqua9tance ) ,london t5 ye>s lat]1 9 #ahea4 ,no circum/ances c\ld h be5 m favorable1 "o w\ld h ?\ght1 to ! developm5t ( su* a nature4 ,) 8 extraord9>y p[] ( 8?r[+ himself into ! object0--( effac+ himself & 8 own p]sonality 9 ! pres5ce ( ! ?+ to be und]/ood & absorb$--he mu/ h pass$ ^! ye>s ( travel & acquisition 9 a /ate ( cont9u\s intellectual en]gy & excitem5t4 ,x is 9 no _s ( conceit t he says 9 #aheg1 comp>+ himself ) ,ma9e de ,biran1 8,?is nature is1 z x 71 only "o ( ! m5 :i* exi/ 9 me4 ,my horizon is va/]2 ,i h se5 mu* m ( m51 ?+s1 c\ntries1 peoples1 books2 ,i h a great] mass ( exp]i5ces40 ,?is fact1 inde$1 ( a wide & v>i$ p]sonal exp]i5ce1 mu/ nev] be =gott5 9 any critical e/imate ( ,amiel z a man or writ]4 ,we may s easily conceive him z a s$5t>y pr(essor1 ) ! ord9>y pr(essorial k1 or r ignorance1 ( m5 & ! _w1 fall+ into introspection "u ! pressure ( circum/ance1 & = want1 z x 71 ( some?+ else to ?9k ab\t4 ,n at all4 ,! man :o has left u ^! microscopic analyses ( 8 own moods & feel+s1 _h p5etrat$ m or less into ! social & intellectual life ( half a doz5 ,european c\ntries1 & 0 famili> n only ) ! books1 b1 to a l>ge ext5t also1 ) ! m5 ( 8 g5]ation4 ,! m$itative & introspective gift 0 9 him1 n ! product1 b ! mi/ress ( circum/ance4 ,x took f ! out] _w :at t _w _h to give1 & !n made ! /uff s ga9$ subs]vi5t to its own ends4 ,( ^! ye>s ( travel1 h[ev]1 ! f\r ye>s sp5t at ,b]l9 7 by f> ! mo/ important4 8,x 0 at ,heidelb]g & ,b]l910 says ,m4 ,s*]]1 8t ! _w ( sci5ce & speculation fir/ op5$ on ! dazzl$ eyes ( ! "y man4 ,he 0 accu/om$ to speak ( 8 f\r ye>s at ,b]l9 z #88 intellectual phase1' & "o felt t he incl9$ to reg>d !m z ! happie/ p]iod ( 8 life4 ,! spell :i* ,b]l9 laid ^u him la/$ long40 ,probably 8 happ9ess 9 ,g]many 0 p>tly ow+ to a s5se ( reaction aga9/ ,g5eva4 ,!re are signs t he _h felt himself some:at isolat$ at s*ool & college1 & t 9 ! ,g]man _w 8 special individuality1 ) its dream9ess & its melan*oly1 f\nd cong5ial surr\nd+s f> m readily ?an _h be5 ! case 9 ! dri] & h>%] atmosph]e ( ! ,prote/ant ,rome4 ,h[ev] ?is may be1 x is c]ta9 t ,g]man ?\ght took possession ( him1 t he became /eep$ n only 9 ,g]man me?ods ( speculation1 b 9 ,g]man modes ( expression1 9 ,g]man =ms ( s5tim5t1 :i* clung to him ?r\gh life1 & vitally affect$ bo? 8 op9ions & 8 /yle4 ,m4 ,r5an & ,m4 ,b\rget %ake _! heads ov] ! ,g]manisms1 :i*1 accord+ to ! latt]1 give a c]ta9 8b>b>\s0 air to _m passages ( ! ,j\rnal4 ,b bo? admit t ,amiel's individuality owes a great "p ( its p5etrat+ =ce to t int]m+l+ ( ,g]man ) ,fr5* elem5ts1 ( :i* !re are su* abundant traces 9 ! 8,j\rnal ,intime40 ,amiel1 9 fact1 is "o m typical product ( a movem5t :i* is c]ta9ly ( enorm\s importance 9 ! hi/ory ( mod]n ?\ght1 ev5 ?\gh we may n be prep>$ to ass5t to all ! sweep+ t]ms 9 :i* a writ] l ,m4 ,ta9e describes x4 8,f #aghj to #ahcj10 says ,m4 ,ta9e1 8,g]many produc$ all ! ideas ( our hi/orical age1 & dur+ ano!r half-c5tury1 p]haps ano!r c5tury1 notre gr&e affaire s]a de les rep5s]40 ,he is incl9$ to comp>e ! influ5ce ( ,g]man ideas on ! mod]n _w to ! f]m5t ( ! ,r5aissance4 ,no spiritual =ce 8m orig9al1 m univ]sal1 m fruitful 9 consequ5ces ( e sort & be>+1 m capable ( trans=m+ & remak+ ev]y?+ pres5t$ to x1 has aris5 dur+ ! la/ ?ree hundr$ ye>s4 ,l ! _s ( ! ,r5aissance & ( ! classical age1 x attracts into its orbit all ! great works ( contempor>y intellig5ce40 ,qu9et1 pursu+ a some:at diff]5t l9e ( ?\ght1 reg>ds ! wor%ip ( ,g]man ideas inaugurat$ 9 ,france by ,madame de ,/al z ! natural result ( reaction f ! eighte5? c5tury & all its ways4 8,g]man sy/ems1 ,g]man hypo!ses1 beliefs1 & poetry1 all 7 eag]ly welcom$ z a cure = he>ts cru%$ by ! mock]y ( ,c&ide & ! mat]ialism ( ! ,revolution4444 ,"u ! ,re/oration ,france cont9u$ to /udy ,g]man philosophy & poetry ) pr(\nd v5]ation & submission4 ,we imitat$1 translat$1 compil$1 & !n aga9 we compil$1 translat$1 imitat$40 ,! importance ( ! "p play$ by ,g]man influ5ce 9 ,fr5* ,romanticism has inde$ be5 mu* disput$1 b ! debt ( ,fr5* metaphysics1 ,fr5* philology1 & ,fr5* hi/orical /udy1 to ,g]man me?ods & ,g]man rese>* dur+ ! la/ half-c5tury is beyond dispute4 ,& ! movem5t to-day is z /rong z ev]4 ,a mod]n critic l ,m4 ,d>m/ett] reg>ds x z a mis=tune t ! artificial /imulus giv5 by ! w> to ! /udy ( ,g]man has1 to "s ext5t1 *eck$ ! /udy ( ,engli% 9 ,france4 ,he ?9ks t ! ,fr5* h m to ga9 f our lit]ature--tak+ lit]ature 9 its g5]al & popul> s5se--?an f ,g]man lit]ature4 ,b he raises no "q z to ! inevitable subjection ( ! ,fr5* to ! ,g]man m9d 9 matt]s ( exact ?\ght & k4 8,to /udy philology1 my?ology1 hi/ory1 )\t read+ ,g]man10 he is z ready to confess z any "o else1 8is to condemn "o's self to rema9 9 e dep>tm5t tw5ty ye>s beh9d ! progress ( sci5ce40 ,( ?is great movem5t1 already s productive1 ,amiel is !n a fre% & rem>kable in/ance4 ,hav+ caught f ! ,g]mans n only _! love ( exact k b also _! love ( va/ horizons1 _! insatiable curiosity z to ! :5ce & :i!r ( all ?+s1 _! s5se ( my/]y & imm5sity 9 ! univ]se1 he !n br+s ^? elem5ts 9 him :i* belong to 8 ,fr5* inh]itance--& some?+ individual besides1 :i* is n ,fr5* b ,g5evese--to be> on 8 new acquisitions1 & ! result is ( ! highe/ lit]>y int]e/ & value4 ,n t he succe$s altoge!r 9 ! task ( fusion4 ,= "o :o 0 to write & ?9k 9 ,fr5*1 he 0 p]haps too long 9 ,g]many2 he _h drunk too deeply ( ,g]man ?\ght2 he _h be5 too mu* dazzl$ by ! spectacle ( ,b]l9 & its impos+ intellectual activities4 8,z to 8 lit]>y tal5t10 says ,m4 ,s*]]1 aft] dwell+ on ! rapid gr[? ( 8 intellectual p[]s "u ,g]man influ5ce1 8! pr(it :i* ,amiel d]iv$ f 8 /ay at ,b]l9 is m d\btful4 ,too long contact ) ! ,g]man m9d _h l$ to ! developm5t 9 him ( c]ta9 /rang5esses ( /yle :i* he _h aft]w>d to get rid (1 & ev5 p]haps ( "s habits ( ?\ght :i* he aft]w>d felt ! ne$ ( *eck+ & correct+40 ,?is is v true4 ,amiel is no d\bt (t5 guilty1 z ,m4 ,c>o puts x1 ( attempts 8to write ,g]man 9 ,fr5*10 & !re are 9 8 ?\ght itself ve9s ( my/icism1 elem5ts ( ,s*wrm]ei1 "h & !re1 ( :i* a good deal mu/ be laid to ! acc\nt ( 8 ,g]man tra9+4 ,m4 ,r5an regrets t aft] ,g5eva & aft] ,b]l9 he nev] came to ,p>is4 ,p>is1 he ?9ks1 w\ld h c\nt]act$ ! ,hegelian influ5ces br\ght to he> ^u him at ,b]l91 ,footnote3 ,see a n1 h[ev]1 on ! subject ( ,amiel's philosophical relation%ips1 pr9t$ z an ,app5dix to ! pres5t volume4 w\ld h taught him *e]fulness1 & taught him also ! art ( writ+1 n beautiful fragm5ts1 b a book4 ,possibly--b h[ mu* we %\ld h lo/6 ,in/ead ( ! ,amiel we "k1 we %\ld h _h "o accompli%$ ,fr5* critic ! m4 ,in/ead ( ! spiritual drama ( ! 8,j\rnal ,intime10 "s fur!r additions to ,fr5* belles lettres2 in/ead ( some?+ to love1 some?+ to admire6 ,no1 !re is no wi%+ ! ,g]man elem5t 9 ,amiel away4 ,its invad+1 tr\bl+ effect ^u 8 ?\ght & temp]am5t goes f> to expla9 ! int]e/ & sugge/iv5ess ( 8 m5tal hi/ory4 ,! language he speaks is ! language ( t ,fr5* criticism :i*--we h ,sa9te-,beuve's au?ority = x--is be/ describ$ by ! motto ( ,montaigne1 8,un peu de *aque *ose et ri5 de l'ensemble1 la franaise10 & ! ?\ght he tries to express 9 x is ?\ght torn & /ra9$ by ! con/ant ef=t to rea* ! ,all1 ! totality ( ?+s3 8,:at ,i desire is ! sum ( all desires1 & :at ,i seek to "k is ! sum ( all diff]5t k9ds ( k4 ,always ! complete1 ! absolute1 ! t]es atque rotundum40 ,& x 0 ?is antagonism1 or r ?is fusion ( traditions 9 him1 :i* w5t f> to make him orig9al1 :i* op5$ to him1 t is to say1 s _m new lights on old pa?s1 & /irr$ 9 him su* capacities ( fre% & individual expression4 ,we h be5 c>ri$ =w>d1 h[ev]1 a little too f> by ?is g5]al discussion ( ,amiel's debts to ,g]many4 ,let u take up ! biographical ?read aga94 ,9 #ahdh 8 ,b]l9 appr5tice%ip came to an end1 & he return$ to ,g5eva4 8,h[ _m places1 h[ _m impressions1 obs]vations1 ?\ghts--h[ _m =ms ( m5 & ?+s--h pass$ be=e me & 9 me s9ce ,april1 #ahdc10 he writes 9 ! ,j\rnal1 two or ?ree mon?s aft] 8 return4 8,! la/ sev5 ye>s h be5 ! mo/ important ( my life2 !y h be5 ! novitiate ( my intellig5ce1 ! initiation ( my be+ into be+40 ,! fir/ lit]>y evid5ce ( 8 matur$ p[]s is to be f\nd 9 two extremely int]e/+ pap]s on ,b]l91 :i* he contribut$ to ! ,biblio?que ,univ]selle 9 #ahdh1 app>5tly j be=e he left ,g]many4 ,"h = ! fir/ "t we h ! ,amiel ( ! 8,j\rnal ,intime40 ,! "y man :o five ye>s be=e _h writt5 8 pa9/ak+ review ( ,m4 ,rio is n[ 9 8 turn a ma/]4 ,he speaks ) dignity & au?ority1 he has a graphic1 vigor\s prose at comm&1 ! =m ( expression is cond5s$ & epigrammatic1 & !re is a mixture ( en?usiasm & criticism 9 8 description ( ! p[]ful intellectual ma*9e !n work+ 9 ! ,prussian capital :i* repres5ts a p]man5t note ( "*1 a la/+ attitude ( m9d4 ,a great deal1 ( c\rse1 9 ! two pap]s is te*nical & /ati/ic1 b :at !re is ( g5]al comm5t & criticism is s good t "o is tempt$ to make "s melan*oly comp>isons betwe5 !m & ano!r article 9 ! ,biblio?que1 t on ,adolphe ,pictet1 writt5 9 #ahef1 & f :i* we h already quot$4 ,9 #ahdh ,amiel 0 = a:ile ma/] ( 8 p[]s & 8 k2 no fatal divorce _h yet tak5 place 9 him betwe5 ! accumulat+ & produc+ faculties2 he writes readily ev5 = ! public1 )\t labor1 )\t affectations4 ,eight ye>s lat] ! reflective faculty has outgr[n 8 control2 composition1 :i* repres5ts ! practical side ( ! intellectual life1 has become difficult & pa9ful to him1 & he has develop$ :at he himself calls 8a wav]+ mann]1 born ( d\bt & scruple40 ,h[ few c\ld h =ese5 ! failure 9 public & practical life :i* lay be=e him at ! mom5t ( 8 reappe>ance at ,g5eva 9 #ahdh6 8,my fir/ meet+ ) him 9 #ahdi is /ill vividly pres5t to me10 says ,m4 ,s*]]4 8,he 0 tw5ty-eight1 & he _h j come f ,g]many lad5 ) sci5ce1 b he wore 8 k lightly1 8 looks 7 attractive1 8 conv]sation animat$1 & no affectation spoil$ ! favorable impression he made on ! by/&]--! :ole effect1 inde$1 0 ( some?+ brilliant & /rik+4 ,9 8 "y al]tness ,amiel seem$ to be ent]+ ^u life z a conqu]or2 "o w\ld h said ! future 0 all 8 own40 ,8 return1 moreov]1 0 m>k$ by a success :i* seem$ to secure him at once an important position 9 8 native t[n4 ,aft] a public competition he 0 appo9t$1 9 #ahdi1 pr(essor ( e/hetics & ,fr5* lit]ature at ! ,academy ( ,g5eva1 a po/ :i* he held = f\r ye>s1 ex*ang+ x = ! pr(essor%ip ( moral philosophy 9 #ahed4 ,?us at tw5ty-eight1 )\t any /ruggle to succe$1 he _h ga9$1 x w\ld h seem$1 t safe foo?old 9 life :i* %\ld be all ! philosoph] or ! critic wants to secure ! full & fruitful developm5t ( 8 gifts4 ,un=tunately ! appo9tm5t1 in/ead ( ! f\ndation & support1 0 to be ! /umbl+ block ( 8 c>e]4 ,g5eva at ! "t 0 9 a /ate ( social & political f]m5t4 ,aft] a long /ruggle1 beg9n+ ) ! revolution>y outbreak ( ,novemb]1 #ahda1 ! ,radical p>ty1 l$ by ,james ,fazy1 _h succe$$ 9 ou/+ ! ,cons]vatives--t is to say1 ! gov]n+ class1 :i* _h rul$ ! republic s9ce ! ,re/oration--f p[]4 ,& ) ! adv5t ( ! democratic con/itution ( #ahdf1 & ! exclusion ( ! old ,g5evese families f ! adm9i/ration !y _h s long monopoliz$1 a numb] ( subsidi>y *anges 7 effect$1 n less important to ! ultimate success ( ,radicalism ?an ! *ange 9 political ma*9]y introduc$ by ! new con/itution4 ,among !m 0 ! disappe>ance ( almo/ ! :ole exi/+ /aff ( ! academy1 !n & n[ ! c5t] ( ,g5evese education1 & up to #ahdg ! /ronghold ( ! mod]ate ideas ( #ahad1 foll[$ by ! appo9tm5t ( new m5 less likely to hamp] ! ,radical ord] ( ?+s4 ,( ^! new m5 ,amiel 0 "o4 ,he _h be5 abs5t f ,g5eva dur+ ! ye>s ( conflict :i* _h prec$$ ,fazy's triumph2 he seems to h _h no family or p>ty connections ) ! lead]s ( ! defeat$ side1 & z ,m4 ,s*]] po9ts out1 he c\ld accept a non-political po/ at ! h&s ( ! new gov]nm5t1 two ye>s aft] ! viol5t measures :i* _h m>k$ its accession1 )\t break+ any pl$ges or sacrific+ any convictions4 ,b none ! less ! /ep 0 a fatal "o4 ,m4 ,r5an is s f> 9 ! "r4 ,if any timely fri5d _h at t mom5t succe$$ 9 tempt+ ,amiel to ,p>is1 z ,guizot tempt$ ,rossi 9 #ahcc1 !re c be little "q t ! "y pr(essor's aft] life w\ld h be5 happi] & san]4 ,z x 01 ,amiel ?rew himself into ! competition = ! *air1 0 appo9t$ pr(essor1 & !n f\nd himself 9 a hopelessly false position1 plac$ on ! ?re%old ( life1 9 relations & surr\nd+s = :i* he 0 radically unfitt$1 & cut (f by no fault ( 8 own f ! milieu to :i* he rightly belong$1 & 9 :i* 8 s5sitive individuality might h exp&$ normally & freely4 ,= ! defeat$ upp] class v naturally %ut _! doors on ! nom9ees ( ! new rgime1 & z ?is class repres5t$ at t mom5t almo/ ev]y?+ t 0 intellectually di/+ui%$ 9 ,g5eva1 z x 0 ! gu>dian1 broadly speak+1 ( ! sci5tific & lit]>y traditions ( ! little /ate1 we c easily imag9e h[ gall+ su* a social o/racism mu/ h be5 to ! "y pr(essor1 accu/om$ to ! /imulat+ atmosph]e1 ! common intellectual int]e/s ( ,b]l91 & torm5t$ ) p]haps m ?an ! ord9>y crav+ ( y\? = sympa?y & = affection4 ,9 a great city1 conta9+ )9 x a numb] ( diff]5t circles ( life1 ,amiel w\ld easily h f\nd 8 own circle1 nor c\ld political discords h affect$ 8 social com=t to any?+ l ! same ext5t4 ,b 9 a t[n n mu* l>g] ?an ,ox=d1 & 9 :i* ! cultur$ class _h hi!rto =m$ a m or less homog5e\s & unit$ :ole1 x 0 almo/ impossible = ,amiel to escape f 8 grievance & e/abli% a suffici5t b>ri] ( fri5dly int]e/s betwe5 himself & ! society :i* ignor$ him4 ,!re c be no d\bt t he suff]$1 bo? 9 m9d & "*1 f ! /ruggle ! position involv$4 ,he _h no natural sympa?y ) radicalism4 ,8 ta/e1 :i* 0 extremely fa/idi\s1 8 judgm5t1 8 passionate respect = tru?1 7 all (f5d$ by ! noise1 ! n>r[ness1 ! dogmatism ( ! triumphant democracy4 ,s t !re 0 no mak+ up on ! "o side = :at he _h lo/ on ! o!r1 & he pr\dly resign$ himself to an isolation & a res]ve :i*1 re9=c+1 z !y did1 c]ta9 native weaknesses ( "*1 _h ! mo/ un=tunate effect ^u 8 life4 ,9 a passage ( ! ,j\rnal writt5 ne>ly ?irty ye>s aft] 8 election he all[s himself a few pa!tic words1 half ( accusation1 half ( self-reproa*1 :i* make u realize h[ deeply ?is unt[>dness ( social circum/ance _h affect$ him4 ,he is discuss+ "o ( ,madame de ,/al's favorite words1 ! ^w consid]ation4 8,:at is consid]ation80 he asks4 8,h[ does a man obta9 x8 h[ does x diff] f fame1 e/eem1 admiration80 ,& !n he turns ^u himself4 8,x is curi\s1 b ! idea ( consid]ation has be5 to me s little ( a motive t ,i h n ev5 be5 consci\s ( su* an idea4 ,b ought ,i n to h be5 consci\s ( x80 he asks himself anxi\sly--8ought ,i n to h be5 m c>eful to w9 ! good op9ion ( o!rs1 m det]m9$ to conqu] _! ho/ility or indiff]5ce8 ,x w\ld h be5 a joy to me to be smil$ ^u1 lov$1 enc\rag$1 welcom$1 & to obta9 :at ,i 0 s ready to give1 k9dness & goodwill4 ,b to hunt d[n consid]ation & reputation--to =ce ! e/eem ( o!rs--seem$ to me an ef=t unwor?y ( myself1 almo/ a degradation4 ,a /ruggle ) unfavorable op9ion has seem$ to me b5ea? me1 = all ! :ile my he>t has be5 full ( sadness & disappo9tm5t1 & ,i h kn[n & felt t ,i h be5 sy/ematically & delib]ately isolat$4 ,untimely despair & ! deepe/ disc\ragem5t h be5 my con/ant portion4 ,incapable ( tak+ any int]e/ 9 my tal5ts = _! own sake1 ,i let ev]y?+ slip z soon z ! hope ( be+ lov$ = !m & by !m _h =sak5 me4 ,a h]mit aga9/ my w1 ,i h n ev5 f\nd peace 9 solitude1 because my inmo/ consci5ce has n be5 any bett] satisfi$ ?an my he>t40 ,/ill "o may no d\bt easily exagg]ate ?is lonel9ess ( ,amiel's4 ,8 social difficulties repres5t r a dull discom=t 9 8 life1 :i* 9 c\rse ( "t1 & 9 comb9ation ) a good _m o!r causes1 produc$ c]ta9 unfavorable results on 8 temp]am5t & on 8 public c>e]1 ?an any?+ v tragic & acute4 ,!y 7 real1 & he1 be+ :at he 01 0 specially unfitt$ to cope ) & conqu] !m4 ,b he _h 8 fri5ds1 8 pleasures1 & ev5 to "s ext5t 8 successes1 l o!r m54 8,he _h an ela/icity ( m9d10 says ,m4 ,s*]]1 speak+ ( him z he knew him 9 y\?1 8:i* react$ aga9/ vexations f )\t1 & 8 *e]fulness 0 readily re/or$ by conv]sation & ! society ( a few k9dr$ spirits4 ,we 7 accu/om$1 two or ?ree fri5ds & ,i1 to walk e ,?ursday to ! ,salve1 ,lam>t9e's ,salve aux flancs azurs2 we d9$ !re1 & did n return till nightfall40 ,!y 7 days devot$ to dbau*es platonici5nes1 to 8! free ex*ange ( ideas1 ! free play ( fancy & ( gayety4 ,amiel 0 n "o ( ! orig9al memb]s ( ^! ,?ursday p>ties2 b :5ev] he jo9$ u we reg>d$ x z a fte-day4 ,9 s]i\s discussion he 0 a ma/] ( ! unexpect$1 & 8 en]gy1 8 entra91 affect$ u all4 ,if 8 grammatical que/ions1 8 discussions ( rhymes & synonyms1 a/oni%$ u at times1 h[ (t51 on ! o!r h&1 did he n give u cause to admire ! v>iety ( 8 k1 ! precision ( 8 ideas1 ! *>m ( 8 quick intellig5ce6 ,we f\nd him always1 besides1 k9dly & amiable1 a nature "o might tru/ & lean ^u ) p]fect security4 ,he awak5$ 9 u b "o regret2 we c\ld n und]/& h[ x 0 a man s ri*ly gift$ produc$ no?+1 or only trivialities40 ,9 ^! la/ words ( ,m4 ,s*]]'s we h come across ! det]m9+ fact ( ,amiel's life 9 its relation to ! out] _w--t 8/]ility ( g5ius10 ( :i* he 0 ! victim4 ,= social o/racism & political anxiety w\ld h matt]$ to him comp>atively little if he c\ld b h lo/ himself 9 ! fruitful activities ( ?\ght1 9 ! /ruggles & ! victories ( composition & creation4 ,a ,g]man pr(essor ( ,amiel's k w\ld h want$ no?+ beyond 8 ,fa*1 & n9e m5 out ( t5 9 8 circum/ances w\ld h made !mselves ! slave ( a magnum opus1 & =gott5 ! vexations ( ev]yday life 9 ! 8d\ces joies de la sci5ce40 ,b !re 7 c]ta9 *>act]i/ics 9 ,amiel :i* made x impossible--:i* neutraliz$ 8 p[]s1 8 k1 8 intellig5ce1 & condemn$ him1 s f> z 8 public p]=mance 0 conc]n$1 to b>r5ness & failure4 ,:at 7 ^! *>act]i/ics1 ?is elem5t ( uns\ndness & disease1 :i* ,m4 ,c>o calls 8la maladie de l'idal80 ,be=e we c answ] ! "q we mu/ g back a little & try to realize ! intellectual & moral equipm5t ( ! "y man ( tw5ty-eight1 :o seem$ to ,m4 ,s*]] to h ! _w at 8 feet4 ,:at 7 ! *ief qualities ( m9d & he>t :i* ,amiel br\ght back ) him f ,b]l98 ,9 ! fir/ place1 an omnivor\s desire to "k3 8,amiel10 says ,m4 ,s*]]1 8read ev]y?+40 ,9 ! second1 an extraord9>y p[] ( su/a9$ & conc5trat$ ?\ght1 & a passionate1 almo/ a religi\s1 delight 9 ! ex]cise ( 8 p[]4 ,k1 sci5ce1 /irr$ 9 him no m]e s5se ( curiosity or cold critical in/9ct--8he came to 8 desk z to an alt>40 8,a fri5d :o knew him well10 says ,m4 ,s*]]1 8rememb]s hav+ he>d him speak ) deep emotion ( t l(ty s]5ity ( mood :i* he _h exp]i5c$ dur+ 8 ye>s 9 ,g]many :5ev]1 9 ! e>ly morn+ be=e dawn1 ) 8 read+-lamp beside him1 he _h f\nd himself p5etrat+ once m into ! region ( pure ?\ght1 #8conv]s+ ) ideas1 enjoy+ ! inmo/ life ( ?+s4'0 8,?\ght10 he says some:]e 9 ! ,j\rnal1 8is l opium4 ,x c intoxicate u & yet leave u broad awake40 ,to ?is intoxication ( ?\ght he seems to h be5 always specially liable1 & 8 ,g]man exp]i5ce--unbalanc$1 z su* an exp]i5ce g5]ally is ) a "y man1 by family life1 or by any heal?y commonplace int]e/s & pleasures--develop$ ! intellectual passion 9 him to an abnormal degree4 ,= f\r ye>s he _h devot$ himself to ! alt]nate excitem5t & satisfaction ( ?is passion4 ,he _h read enorm\sly1 ?\ght enorm\sly1 & 9 ! abs5ce ( any imp]ative claim on ! practical side ( him1 ! accumulative1 reflective faculties _h gr[n out ( all proportion to ! re/ ( ! p]sonality4 ,nor _h any special subject ! p[] to fix him4 ,_h he be5 9 ,france1 :at ,sa9te-,beuve calls ! ,fr5* 8imag9ation de dtail0 w\ld probably h attract$ 8 pliant1 responsive nature1 & he w\ld h f\nd happy occupation 9 "s "o ( ! innum]able dep>tm5ts ( rese>* on :i* ! ,fr5* h be5 pati5tly sp5d+ _! analytical gift s9ce t g5]al wid5+ ( horizons :i* accompani$ & gave value to ! ,romantic movem5t4 ,b in/ead he 0 at ,b]l91 9 ! c5t] ( t speculative f]m5t :i* foll[$ ! dea? ( ,hegel & ! break-up ( ! ,hegelian idea into a numb] ( diff]5t & conflict+ sections ( philosophical op9ion4 ,he 0 "u ! spell ( ,g]man syn!sis1 ( t traditional1 involunt>y ef=t :i* ! ,g]man m9d makes1 g5]ation aft] g5]ation1 to f9d ! unity ( exp]i5ce1 to range its accumulations f life & ?\ght "u a m & m p]fect1 a m & m exhau/ive1 =mula4 ,n ?is /udy or t /udy1 n ?is detail or t1 b ! :ole ( ?+s1 ! sum ( ,k1 ! ,inf9ite1 ! ,absolute1 alone _h value or reality4 ,9 8 own words3 8,!re is no repose = ! m9d except 9 ! absolute2 = feel+ except 9 ! inf9ite2 = ! s\l except 9 ! div9e4 ,no?+ f9ite is true1 is int]e/+1 is wor?y to fix my att5tion4 ,all t is p>ticul> is exclusive1 & all t is exclusive repels me4 ,!re is no?+ non-exclusive b ! ,all2 my end is communion ) ,be+ ?r\gh ! :ole ( ,be+40 ,x 0 n1 inde$1 t he neglect$ ! /udy ( detail2 he _h a /rong natural aptitude = x1 & 8 k 0 wide & real2 b detail 0 ultimately valuable to him1 n 9 itself1 b z food = a speculative hung]1 = :i*1 aft] all1 !re is no real satisfaction4 ,all ! pleasant pa?s :i* trav]se ! k+dom ( ,k1 9 :i* s _m ( u f9d %elt] & life-long means ( happ9ess1 l$ ,amiel /raight into ! wild]ness ( ab/ract speculation4 ,& ! long] he l+]$ 9 ! wild]ness1 un*eck$ by any s5se ( intellectual responsibility1 & f> f ! s\nds ( human life1 ! /rang] & ! weird] grew ! halluc9ations ( ?\ght4 ,! ,j\rnal gives m>vel\s expression to !m3 8,i c f9d no words = :at ,i feel4 ,my consci\sness is )drawn into itself2 ,i he> my he>t beat+1 & my life pass+4 ,x seems to me t ,i h become a /atue on ! banks ( ! riv] ( "t1 t ,i am ! spectator ( "s my/]y1 & %all issue f x old1 or no long] capable ( age40 ,or aga93 8,i am a spectator1 s to speak1 ( ! molecul> :irlw9d :i* m5 call individual life2 ,i am consci\s ( an incessant metamorphosis1 an irresi/ible movem5t ( exi/5ce1 :i* is go+ on )9 me--& ?is ph5om5ology ( myself s]ves z a w9d[ op5$ ^u ! my/]y ( ! _w4 ,i am1 or r my s5sible consci\sness is1 conc5trat$ ^u ?is ideal /&+-po9t1 ?is invisible ?re%old1 z x 71 :5ce "o he>s ! impetu\s passage ( "t1 ru%+ & foam+ z x fl[s out into ! *angeless ocean ( et]nity4 ,aft] all ! bewild]+ di/ractions ( life--aft] hav+ dr[n$ myself 9 a multiplicity ( trifles & 9 ! caprices ( ?is fugitive exi/5ce1 yet )\t ev] atta9+ to self-intoxication or self-delusion--,i come aga9 ^u ! fa?omless abyss1 ! sil5t & melan*oly cav]n1 :]e dwell #8,die ,mtt]1' :]e sleeps t :i* nei!r lives nor dies1 :i* has nei!r movem5t nor *ange1 nor ext5sion1 nor =m1 & :i* la/s :5 all else passes away40 ,wond]ful s5t5ces6 8,prodiges de la p5se speculative1 dcrits dans une langue non mo9s prodigieuse10 z ,m4 ,s*]] says ( ! innum]able passages :i* describe ei!r ?is intoxication ( ! inf9ite1 or ! v>i\s =ms & consequ5ces ( t dead5+ ( p]sonality :i* ! ab/ract processes ( ?\ght t5d to produce4 ,b x is easy to und]/& t a man 9 :om exp]i5ces ( ?is k9d become habitual is likely to lose 8 hold ^u ! normal int]e/s ( life4 ,:at are politics or lit]ature to su* a m9d b fragm5ts )\t real importance--dw>f$ reflections ( ideal tru?s = :i* nei!r language nor in/itutions provide any adequate expression6 ,h[ is x possible to take s]i\sly :at is s manife/ly relative & tempor>y z ! v>i\s exi/+ =ms ( human activity8 ,above all1 h[ is x possible to take "o's self s]i\sly1 to sp5d "o's ?\ght on ! petty int]e/s ( a petty individuality1 :5 ! beatific vision ( univ]sal k1 ( absolute be+1 has once dawn$ on ! dazzl$ behold]8 ,! *>m & ! savor ( ev]y?+ relative & ph5om5al is gone4 ,a man may g on talk+1 tea*+1 writ+--b ! spr+ ( p]sonal action is brok52 8 actions are l ! actions ( a somnambuli/4 ,no d\bt to "s ext5t ?is mood is famili> to all m9ds end[$ ) ! true speculative g5ius4 ,! philosoph] has always t5d$ to become unfit = practical life2 8 unfitness1 inde$1 is "o ( ! comic motives1 s to speak1 ( lit]ature4 ,b a mood :i*1 9 ! great majority ( ?9k]s1 is int]mitt5t1 & is easily kept )9 b\nds by ! practical ne$s1 ! m]e physical in/9cts ( life1 0 9 ,amiel almo/ con/ant1 & ! natural impulse ( ! human animal t[>d heal?y movem5t & a normal play ( function1 nev] v /rong 9 him1 0 gradually weak5$ & de/roy$ by an unt[>d comb9ation ( circum/ances4 ,! l[ heal? f :i* he suff]$ m or less f 8 boyhood1 & !n ! depress+ influ5ces ( ! social difficulties we h describ$1 made x m & m difficult = ! re/ ( ! organism to react aga9/ ! tyranny ( ! bra94 ,& z ! normal human motives lo/ _! =ce1 :at he calls 8! ,buddhi/ t5d5cy 9 me0 ga!r$ /r5g? ye> by ye>1 until1 l "s /range misgr[?1 x _h absorb$ ! :ole en]gies & dra9$ ! inn]mo/ life-blood ( ! p]sonality :i* _h develop$ x4 ,& ! result is ano!r s\l's trag$y1 ano!r /ory ( conflict & failure1 :i* ?r[s fre% light on ! my/]i\s capacities ( human nature1 & w>ns u1 z ! lett]s ( ,ob]mann 9 _! day w>n$ ! g5]ation ( ,george ,s&1 t ) ! rise ( new intellectual p]ceptions new spiritual dang]s come into be+1 & t across ! pa? ( cont9u\s evolution :i* ! mod]n m9d is trav]s+ !re lies _m a selva oscura1 _m a lonely & desolate tract1 9 :i* loss & pa9 await x4 ,! /ory ( ! 8,j\rnal ,intime0 is a /ory to make u ?9k1 to make u anxi\s2 b at ! same "t1 9 ! case ( a nature l ,amiel's1 !re is s mu* high poetry ?r[n (f f ! long process ( conflict1 ! p[] ( vision & ( reproduction :i* ! intellect ga9s at ! exp5se ( ! re/ ( ! p]sonality is 9 _m respects s real & s spl5did1 & produces results s /irr+ (t5 to ! he>t & imag9ation ( ! li/5]1 t 9 ! end we put d[n ! record n s mu* ) a ?rob ( pity z ) an impulse ( gratitude4 ,! individual error & suff]+ is almo/ =gott52 all t we c realize is ! enri*m5t ( human feel+1 ! quick5$ s5se ( spiritual reality bequea!d to u by ! baffl$ & solit>y ?9k] ^: via dolorosa is be=e u4 ,! mann] 9 :i* ?is intellectual idiosyncrasy we h be5 describ+ gradually affect$ ,amiel's life supplies abundant pro( ( its actuality & s9c]ity4 ,x is a pitiful /ory4 ,amiel might h be5 sav$ f despair by love & m>riage1 by pat]nity1 by /r5u\s & successful lit]>y production2 & ?is m5tal habit ( 8--?is tyranny ( ideal conceptions1 help$ by ! natural accompanim5t ( su* a tyranny1 a critical s5se ( abnormal acut5ess--/ood betwe5 him & ev]y?+ heal+ & re/or+4 8,i am afraid ( an imp]fect1 a faulty syn!sis1 & ,i l+] 9 ! provisional1 f timidity & f loyalty40 8,z soon z a ?+ attracts me ,i turn away f x2 or r1 ,i _c ei!r be cont5t ) ! second-be/1 or discov] any?+ :i* satisfies my aspiration4 ,! real disgu/s me1 & ,i _c f9d ! ideal40 ,& s "o ?+ aft] ano!r is put away4 ,family life attract$ him p]petually4 8,i _c escape10 he writes1 8f ! ideal ( x4 ,a companion1 ( my life1 ( my "w1 ( my ?\ghts1 ( my hopes2 )9 a common wor%ip--t[>d ! _w outside k9dness & b5efic5ce2 education to und]take2 ! ?\s& & "o moral relations :i* develop r\nd ! fir/--all ^! ideas intoxicate me sometimes40 ,b 9 va94 8,reality1 ! pres5t1 ! irrep>able1 ! necess>y1 repel & ev5 t]rify me4 ,i h too mu* imag9ation1 consci5ce1 & p5etration & n en\gh "*4 ,! life ( ?\ght alone seems to me to h en\gh ela/icity & imm5sity1 to be free en\gh f ! irrep>able2 practical life makes me afraid4 ,i am di/ru/ful ( myself & ( happ9ess because ,i "k myself4 ,! ideal poisons = me all imp]fect possession4 ,& ,i abhor useless regrets & rep5tance40 ,x is ! same1 at bottom1 ) 8 pr(essional "w4 ,he protects ! intellectual fre$om1 z x 71 ( 8 /ud5ts ) ! same jeal\sy z he protects 8 own4 ,!re %all be no oratorical device1 no p]suad+1 no cajol+ ( ! m9d ?is way or t4 8,a pr(essor is ! prie/ ( 8 subject1 & %\ld d ! honors ( x gravely & ) dignity40 ,& s ! man :o 9 8 private ,j\rnal is ma/] ( an eloqu5ce & a poetry1 capable ( illum9at+ ! mo/ difficult & ab/ract ( subjects1 becomes 9 ! lecture-room a dry comp5dium ( univ]sal k4 8,l$ by 8 passion = ! :ole10 says ,m4 ,s*]]1 8,amiel (f]$ 8 he>]s1 n s mu* a s]ies ( positive tea*+s1 z an index ( subjects1 a framework--:at ! ,g]mans call a ,s*ematismus4 ,! skeleton 0 admirably put toge!r1 & excell5t ( its k9d1 & l5t itself admirably to a c]ta9 k9d ( analysis & demon/ration2 b x 0 a skeleton--fle%1 body1 & life 7 want+40 ,s t z a pr(essor he made no m>k4 ,he 0 consci5ti\sness itself 9 :atev] he conceiv$ to be 8 duty4 ,b ) all ! critical & philosophical p[] :i*1 z we "k f ! ,j\rnal1 he might h lavi%$ on 8 tea*+1 _h ! conditions be5 o!r ?an !y 71 ! /udy ( lit]ature1 & ! /udy ( philosophy z su*1 owe him no?+4 ,b = ! ,j\rnal 8 ye>s ( tra9+ & 8 ye>s ( tea*+ w\ld h left equally little record beh9d !m4 8,8 pupils at ,g5eva10 writes "o :o 0 himself among ! numb]1 ,footnote3 ,m4 ,alphonse ,rivi]1 n[ ,pr(essor ( ,int]national ,law at ! ,univ]sity ( ,brussels4 8nev] le>n$ to appreciate him at 8 true wor?4 ,we did ju/ice no d\bt to a k z v>i$ z x 0 wide1 to 8 va/ /ores ( read+1 to t cosmopolitanism ( ! be/ k9d :i* he _h br\ght back ) him f 8 travels2 we lik$ him = 8 indulg5ce1 8 k9dly wit4 ,b ,i look back )\t any s5se ( pleasure to 8 lectures40 ,_m a /ud5t1 h[ev]1 has %runk f ! burd5 & risks ( family life1 & has f\nd himself incapable ( tea*+ effectively :at he kn[s1 & has yet r$eem$ all o!r incapacities 9 ! field ( lit]>y production4 ,& "h inde$ we come to ! /range/ feature 9 ,amiel's c>e]--8 lit]>y /]ility4 ,t he possess$ lit]>y p[] ( ! highe/ ord] is abundantly prov$ by ! 8,j\rnal ,intime40 ,k1 insight1 eloqu5ce1 critical p[]--all 7 84 ,& ! impulse to produce1 :i* is ! natural1 ?\gh by no means ! inv>iable1 accompanim5t ( ! lit]>y gift1 mu/ h be5 fairly /rong 9 him also4 ,= ! 8,j\rnal ,intime0 runs to #ag1jjj folio pages ( ,,ms41 & 8 half doz5 volumes ( poems1 ?\gh ! actual quantity is n l>ge1 repres5t an am\nt ( labor :i* w\ld h m ?an c>ri$ him ?r\gh "s s]i\s piece ( critical or philosophical "w1 & s enabl$ him to cont5t ! j expectations ( 8 _w4 ,he began to write e>ly1 z is prov$ by ! fact t at tw5ty he 0 a contributor to ! be/ lit]>y p]iodical :i* ,g5eva possess$4 ,he 0 a *>m+ correspond5t1 & 9 spite ( 8 passion = ab/ract ?\ght1 8 intellectual int]e/1 at any rate1 9 all ! activities ( ! day--politics1 religi\s organizations1 lit]ature1 art--0 ( ! ke5e/ k9d4 ,& yet at ! "t ( 8 dea? all t ?is f9e critic & pr(\nd ?9k] _h giv5 to ! _w1 aft] a life entirely sp5t 9 ! pursuit ( lett]s1 01 9 ! fir/ place1 a few volumes ( poems :i* _h _h no effect except on a small numb] ( sympa!tic fri5ds2 a few pages ( p5ses int]m+l$ ) ! poems1 &1 z we n[ "k1 extract$ f ! ,j\rnal2 & f\r or five scatt]$ essays1 ! l5g? ( magaz9e articles1 on ,mme4 de ,/al1 ,r\sseau1 ! hi/ory ( ! ,academy ( ,g5eva1 ! lit]ature ( ,fr5*-speak+ ,switz]l&1 & s on6 ,& m ?an ?is1 ! production1 su* z x 01 _h be5 a production born ( ef=t & difficulty2 & ! labor squ&]$ on poetical =ms1 on metrical exp]im5ts & intricate problems ( translation1 z well z ! occasional affectations ( ! prose /yle1 might well h conv9c$ ! critical by/&] t ! m9d ( :i* ^! ?+s 7 ! (fspr+ c\ld h no real importance1 no pr(itable message1 = ! _w4 ,! :ole 8,j\rnal ,intime0 is 9 "s s5se ,amiel's explanation ( ^! facts4 ,9 x he has made full & bitt] confession ( 8 weakness1 8 failure2 he has endeavor$1 ) an acut5ess ( analysis no o!r h& c rival1 to make ! reasons ( 8 failure & isolation cle> bo? to himself & o!rs4 8,to love1 to dream1 to feel1 to le>n1 to und]/&--all ^! are possible to me if only ,i may be disp5s$ f will+--,i h a sort ( primitive horror ( ambition1 ( /ruggle1 ( hatr$1 ( all :i* dissipates ! s\l & makes x dep5d5t on ext]nal ?+s & aims4 ,! joy ( becom+ once m consci\s ( myself1 ( li/5+ to ! passage ( "t & ! fl[ ( ! univ]sal life1 is sometimes en\gh to make me =get e desire & to qu5* 9 me bo? ! wi% to produce & ! p[] to execute40 ,x is ! result ( :at he himself calls 8l'bl\issem5t de l'inf9i40 ,he no soon] makes a /ep t[>d production1 t[>d action & ! realization ( himself1 ?an a vague s5se ( p]il ov]takes him4 ,! inn] life1 ) its b\ndless horizons & its indescribable exaltations1 seems endang]$4 ,is he n ab\t to place betwe5 himself & ! =ms ( speculative tru? "s b>ri] ( s5se & matt]--to give up ! real = ! app>5t1 ! sub/ance = ! %ad[8 ,"o is rem9d$ ( ,cl\gh's cry "u a some:at simil> exp]i5ce3 8,if ?is pure solace %\ld des]t my m9d1 ,:at 7 all else8 ,i d>e n risk ! loss4 ,to ! old pa?s1 my s\l60 ,& 9 close comb9ation ) ! speculative s5se1 ) ! t5d5cy :i* c>ries a man t[>d ! contemplative /udy ( life & nature z a :ole1 is ! critical s5se--! t5d5cy :i*1 9 ! realm ( action & concrete p]=mance1 c>ries him1 z ,amiel expresses x1 8droit au dfaut10 & makes him consci\s at once ( ! weak po9t1 ! g]m ( failure 9 a project or an action4 ,x is ano!r aspect ( ! same idiosyncrasy4 8,! po9t ,i h rea*$ seems to be expla9$ by a too re/less se>* = p]fection1 by ! abuse ( ! critical faculty1 & by an unreasonable di/ru/ ( fir/ impulses1 fir/ ?\ghts1 fir/ words4 ,confid5ce & spontaneity ( life are drift+ out ( my rea*1 & ?is is :y ,i c no long] act40 ,= abuse ( ! critical faculty br+s ) x its natural consequ5ces--timidity ( s\l1 p>alysis ( ! w1 complete self-di/ru/4 8,to "k is en\gh = me2 expression seems to me (t5 a pr(anity4 ,:at ,i lack is "*1 w1 individuality40 8,by :at my/]y10 he writes to ,m4 ,s*]]1 8d o!rs expect mu* f me8 :]eas ,i feel myself to be incapable ( any?+ s]i\s or important40 ,dfiance & impuissance are ! words con/antly on 8 lips4 8,my fri5ds see :at ,i might h be52 ,i see :at ,i am40 ,& yet ! lit]>y in/9ct rema9s1 & mu/ 9 "s way be satisfi$4 ,& s he takes refuge 9 :at he himself calls scales1 ex]cises1 t\rs de =ce 9 v]se-translation ( ! mo/ labori\s & difficult k9d1 9 +5i\s v]s d'occasion1 9 metrical exp]im5ts & o!r lit]>y trifl+1 z 8 fri5ds ?9k x1 ( ! same sort4 8,i am afraid ( greatness4 ,i am n afraid ( +5uity2 all my publi%$ lit]>y essays are little else ?an /udies1 games1 ex]cises1 = ! purpose ( te/+ myself4 ,i play scales1 z x 72 ,i run up & d[n my in/rum5t4 ,i tra9 my h& & make sure ( its capacity & skill4 ,b ! "w itself rema9s una*iev$4 ,i am always prep>+ & nev] accompli%+1 & my en]gy is swall[$ up 9 a k9d ( b>r5 curiosity40 ,n t he surr5d]s himself to ! nature :i* is /rong] ?an he all at once4 ,8 s5se ( duty rebels1 8 consci5ce suff]s1 & he makes resolution aft] resolution to %ake himself free f ! m5tal tradition :i* _h tak5 su* hold ^u him--to write1 to produce1 to satisfy 8 fri5ds4 ,9 #ahfa1 a ye> aft] ,m4 ,s*]] _h left ,g5eva1 ,amiel wrote to him1 describ+ 8 difficulties & 8 disc\ragem5ts1 & ask+1 z "o may ask an old fri5d ( "o's y\?1 = help & c\nsel4 ,m4 ,s*]]1 mu* t\*$ by ! appeal1 answ]$ x pla9ly & frankly--describ$ ! feel+ ( ^? :o knew him z !y wat*$ 8 life slipp+ away unm>k$ by any ( ! a*ievem5ts ( :i* 8 y\? _h giv5 promise1 & po9t$ out v>i\s lit]>y op5+s 9 :i*1 if he 7 to put out 8 p[]s1 he c\ld n b succe$4 ,to beg9 )1 he urg$ him to jo9 ! ,revue ,g]manique1 !n be+ />t$ by ,*>les ,dollfus1 ,r5an1 ,littr1 & o!rs4 ,amiel left ! lett] = ?ree mon?s unansw]$ & !n wrote a reply :i* ,m4 ,s*]] probably receiv$ ) a sigh ( impati5ce4 ,=1 rightly int]pret$1 x meant t old habits 7 too /rong1 & t ! mom5t>y impulse _h di$ away4 ,:51 a little lat]1 8,les ,etrangres10 a collection ( v]se-translations1 came out1 x 0 d$icat$ to ,m4 ,s*]]1 :o did n1 h[ev]1 pret5d to give x any v cordial reception4 ,amiel took 8 fri5d's coolness 9 v good "p1 call+ him 8 8de> ,rhadaman?us40 8,h[ little ,i knew60 cries ,m4 ,s*]]4 8,:at ,i regret is to h discov]$ too late by means ( ! ,j\rnal1 ! key to a problem :i* seem$ to me h>dly s]i\s1 & :i* ,i n[ feel to h be5 tragic4 ,a k9d ( remorse seizes me t ,i 0 n able to und]/& my fri5d bett]1 & to soo! 8 suff]+ by a sympa?y :i* w\ld h be5 a mixture ( pity & admiration40 ,0 x t all ! :ile ,amiel felt himself sure ( 8 revan*e t he knew ! value ( all ^? %eets ( ,j\rnal :i* 7 sl[ly accumulat+ "u 8 h&8 ,did he say to himself sometimes3 8,my fri5ds are wrong2 my gifts & my k are n lo/2 ,i h giv5 expression to !m 9 ! only way possible to me1 & :5 ,i die x w be f\nd t ,i too1 l o!r m51 h p]=m$ ! task appo9t$ me1 & contribut$ my quota to ! human /ore80 ,x is cle> t v e>ly he began to reg>d x z possible t portions ( ! ,j\rnal %\ld be publi%$ aft] 8 dea?1 &1 z we h se51 he left c]ta9 8lit]>y in/ructions10 dat$ sev5 ye>s be=e 8 la/ illness1 9 :i* 8 executors 7 direct$ to publi% su* p>ts ( x z might seem to !m to possess any g5]al int]e/4 ,b x is cle> also t ! ,j\rnal 0 n1 9 any s5se1 writt5 = publication4 8,^! pages10 say ! ,g5eva editors1 8writt5 au c\rant de la plume--sometimes 9 ! morn+1 b m (t5 at ! end ( ! day1 )\t any idea ( composition or publicity--are m>k$ by ! repetition1 ! lacunae1 ! c>elessness1 inh]5t 9 ?is k9d ( monologue4 ,! ?\ghts & s5tim5ts express$ h no o!r aim ?an s9c]ity ( r5d]+40 ,& 8 e/imate ( ! value ( ! record ?us produc$ 01 9 g5]al1 a l[ "o1 especially dur+ ! depression & disc\ragem5t ( 8 lat] ye>s4 8,?is ,j\rnal ( m9e10 he writes 9 #ahgf1 8repres5ts ! mat]ial ( a good _m volumes2 :at prodigi\s wa/e ( "t1 ( ?\ght1 ( /r5g?6 ,x w be useful to nobody1 & ev5 = myself--x has r help$ me to %irk life ?an to practice x40 ,& aga93 8,is ev]y?+ ,i h produc$1 tak5 toge!r--my correspond5ce1 ^! ?\s&s ( ,j\rnal pages1 my lectures1 my articles1 my poems1 my notes ( diff]5t k9ds--any?+ bett] ?an )]$ leaves8 ,to :om & to :at h ,i be5 useful8 ,w my "n survive me a s+le day1 & w x ev] mean any?+ to anybody8 ,a life ( no acc\nt6 ,:5 all is add$ up--no?+60 ,9 passages l ^! !re is no anticipation ( any po/hum\s triumph ov] ! disapproval ( 8 fri5ds & ! criticism ( 8 fell[-citiz5s4 ,! ,j\rnal 0 a relief1 ! means ( satisfy+ a ne$ ( expression :i* o!rwise c\ld f9d no outlet2 8a grief-*eat+ device10 b no?+ m4 ,x did n /ill ! s5se ( remorse = wa/$ gifts & opportunities :i* foll[$ poor ,amiel ?r\gh ! pa9ful mon?s ( 8 la/ illness4 ,l ,keats1 he pass$ away1 feel+ t all 0 ov]1 & ! great game ( life lo/ =ev]4 ,x /ill rema9s = u to ga!r up a few facts & impressions ( a diff]5t k9d f ^? :i* we h be5 dwell+ on1 :i* may s]ve to complete & correct ! picture we h s f> drawn ( ! au?or ( ! ,j\rnal4 ,= ,amiel is full ( contradictions & surprises1 :i*1 are inde$ "o great s\rce ( 8 attractiv5ess4 ,_h he only be5 ! ?9k]1 ! critic1 ! ideali/ we h be5 describ+1 he w\ld nev] h t\*$ our feel+ z he n[ does2 :at makes him s int]e/+ is t !re 0 9 him a fond ( h]$ity1 a temp]am5t & disposition1 :i* 7 p]petually react+ aga9/ ! oppression ( ! intellect & its accumulations4 ,9 8 h\rs ( intellectual conc5tration he fre$ himself f all trammels ( c\ntry or society1 or ev51 z he insi/s1 f all s5se ( p]sonality4 ,b at o!r times he 0 ! dutiful son ( a c\ntry :i* he lov$1 tak+ a w>m int]e/ 9 ev]y?+ ,g5evese1 especially 9 ev]y?+ t repres5t$ ! old] life ( ! t[n4 ,:5 x 0 a "q ( sep>at+ ! ,g5evese /ate f ! *ur*1 :i* _h be5 ! c5t] ( ! national life dur+ ?ree c5turies ( honorable hi/ory1 ,amiel ! philosoph]1 ! cosmopolitan1 ?rew himself ard5tly on to ! side ( ! oppon5ts ( sep>ation1 & rejoic$ 9 _! victory4 ,a l>ge proportion ( 8 poems deal ) national subjects4 ,he 0 "o ( ! fir/ memb]s ( 8,l',in/itut ,g5evois10 f\nd$ 9 #ahec1 & he took a w>m int]e/ 9 ! movem5t />t$ by ,m4 ,eug5e ,ramb]t t[>d #ahgj1 = ! improvem5t ( second>y education ?r\gh\t ,fr5*-speak+ ,switz]l&4 ,"o ( 8 fri5ds dwells ) emphasis on 8 8s5s pr(ond des nationalits1 des langues1 des villes0--on 8 love = local *>act]i/ics1 = ev]y?+ deep-root$ 9 ! pa/1 & help+ to su/a9 ! pres5t4 ,he is conv9c$ t no /ate c live & ?rive )\t a c]ta9 numb] ( national prejudices1 )\t priori beliefs & traditions4 ,x pleases him to see t !re is a =ce 9 ! ,g5evese nationality :i* resi/s ! level+ influ5ces ( a crude radicalism2 x rejoices him t ,g5eva 8has n yet become a m]e copy ( any?+1 & t %e is /ill capable ( decid+ = h]self4 ,^? :o say to h]1 #8,d z !y d at ,new ,york1 at ,p>is1 at ,rome1 at ,b]l91' are /ill 9 ! m9ority4 ,! doctr9aires :o w\ld split h] up & de/roy h] unity wa/e _! brea? ^u h]4 ,%e div9es ! sn>e laid = h]1 & turns away4 ,i l ?is pro( ( vitality40 ,8 love ( travel+ nev] left him4 ,p>is attract$ him1 z x attracts all :o cl+ to lett]s1 & he ga9$ at "o "t or ano!r a c]ta9 am\nt ( acqua9tance ) ,fr5* lit]>y m54 ,9 #aheb we f9d him = a "t br\ght into contact ) ,?i]ry1 ,lam5nais1 ,brang]1 ,mignet1 etc41 z well z ) ,romantics l ,alfr$ de ,vigny & ,?ophile ,gauti]4 ,!re are poems address$ to ,de ,vigny & ,gauti] 9 8 fir/ publi%$ volume ( #ahed4 ,he revisit$ ,italy & 8 old haunts & fri5ds 9 ,g]many m ?an once1 & 9 g5]al kept ! curr5t ( 8 life fre% & vigor\s by 8 op5ness to impressions & additions f )\t4 ,he 01 z we h said1 a delightful correspond5t1 8tak+ pa9s ) ! smalle/ note10 & )9 a small circle ( fri5ds mu* lik$4 ,8 0 n a nature to be g5]ally appreciat$ at its true value2 ! motives :i* gov]n$ 8 life 7 too remote f ! ord9>y motives ( human conduct1 & 8 *>act]i/ics j ^? :i* h always excit$ ! di/ru/1 if n ! scorn1 ( ! m practical & vigor\s ord] ( m9ds4 ,probably1 too--especially 9 8 lat] ye>s--!re 0 a c]ta9 am\nt ( self-consci\sness & artificiality 9 8 attitude t[>d ! out] _w1 :i* 0 ! result p>tly ( ! social difficulties we h describ$1 p>tly ( 8 own s5se ( diff]5ce f 8 surr\nd+s1 & p>tly aga9 ( t timidity ( nature1 t self-di/ru/1 :i* is reveal$ to u 9 ! ,j\rnal4 ,s t he 0 by no means g5]ally popul>1 & ! great success ( ! ,j\rnal is /ill a my/]y to ! majority ( ^? :o knew him m]ely z a fell[-citiz5 & acqua9tance4 ,b 8 fri5ds lov$ him & believ$ 9 him1 & ! res]v$ /ud5t1 ^: mann]s 7 ?\ght affect$ 9 g5]al society1 c\ld & did make himself delightful to ^? :o und]/ood him1 or ^? :o look$ to him = affection4 8,accord+ to my remembrance ( him10 writes ,m4 ,s*]]1 8he 0 bright1 sociable1 a *>m+ companion4 ,o!rs :o knew him bett] & long] ?an ,i say ! same4 ,! mobility ( 8 disposition c\nt]act$ 8 t5d5cy to exagg]ations ( feel+4 ,9 spite ( 8 fits ( melan*oly1 8 natural turn ( m9d 0 *e]ful2 up to ! end he 0 "y1 a *ild ev51 amus$ by m]e no?+s2 & :oev] _h he>d him laugh 8 he>ty /ud5t's laugh w\ld h f\nd x difficult to id5tify him ) ! au?or ( s _m somb] pages40 ,m4 ,rivi]1 8 old pupil1 rememb]s him z 8/rong & active1 /ill h&some1 delightful 9 conv]sation1 ready to amuse & be amus$40 ,inde$1 if ! photographs ( him are to be tru/$1 !re mu/ h be5 some?+ specially attractive 9 ! s5sitive1 expressive face1 ) its l(ty br[1 f9e eyes1 & k9dly m\?4 ,x is ! face ( a poet r ?an ( a /ud5t1 & makes "o und]/& c]ta9 o!r little po9ts :i* 8 fri5ds lay /ress on--= in/ance1 8 love = & popul>ity ) *ildr54 ,9 8 poems1 or at any rate 9 ! e>li] ones1 ?is light] side f9ds m expression1 proportionally1 ?an 9 ! ,j\rnal4 ,9 ! volume call$ 8,gra9s de ,mil10 publi%$ 9 #ahed1 & conta9+ v]se writt5 betwe5 ! ages ( eighte5 & ?irty1 !re are poems address$1 n[ to 8 si/]1 n[ to old ,g5evese fri5ds1 & n[ to fam\s m5 ( o!r c\ntries :om he _h se5 & made fri5ds ) 9 pass+1 :i*1 read side by side ) ! 8,j\rnal ,intime10 br+ a c]ta9 gleam & sp>kle into an o!rwise somb] picture4 ,amiel 0 nev] a ma/] ( poetical =m2 8 v]se1 comp>$ to 8 prose1 is tame & fett]$2 x nev] rea*es ! gl[ & spl5dor ( expression :i* m>k ! f9e/ passages ( ! ,j\rnal4 ,x has ability1 ?\ght--beauty ev51 ( a c]ta9 k9d1 b no pla/ic p[]1 none ( ! incommunicable magic :i* a ,george ,eliot seeks = 9 va91 :ile x comes unask$1 to deck ) imp]i%able *>m ! commonplace metaphysic & ! simpl] emotions ( a ,t5nyson or a ,burns4 ,/ill z ,amiel's "w1 8 poetry has an int]e/ = ^? :o are int]e/$ 9 him4 ,s9c]ity is writt5 9 e l9e ( x4 ,mo/ ( ! ?\ghts & exp]i5ces ) :i* "o gr[s famili> 9 ! ,j\rnal are repeat$ 9 x2 ! same joys1 ! same aspirations1 ! same sorr[s are visible ?r\gh\t x1 s t 9 read+ x "o is m & m impress$ ) ! =ce & reality ( ! inn] life :i* has left beh9d x s def9ite an image ( itself4 ,& e n[ & !n ! poems add a detail1 a new impression1 :i* seems by contra/ to give fre% value to ! f9e-spun speculations1 ! l(ty despairs1 ( ! ,j\rnal4 ,take ^! v]ses1 writt5 at tw5ty-"o1 to 8 y\ng] si/]3 8,treize ans6 et sur ton front aucun bais] de mre ,ne vi5dra1 pauvre enfant1 invoqu] le bonheur2 ,treize ans6 et dans ce j\r mil reg>d de ton pre ,ne f]a d'allgresse pan\ir ton coeur4 8,orphel9e1 c'e/ l le nom dont tu t'appelles1 ,oiseau n dans un nid que la f\dre a bris2 ,de la c\ve1 hlas6 seuls1 trois petits1 sans ailes ,fur5t lancs au v5t1 lo9 du re/e cras4 8,et1 sems p> l'clair sur les monts1 dans les pla9es1 ,un mme toit encor n'a pu les abrit]1 ,et du foy] natal1 malgr leurs pla9tes va9es ,dieu1 peut-tre longtemps1 v\dra les c>t]4 8,p\rtant console-toi6 p5se1 dans tes al>mes1 ,qu'un d\ble bi5 te re/e1 espoir et s\v5ir2 ,une ma9 dans le ciel p\r essuy] tes l>mes2 ,une ma9 ici-bas1 enfant1 p\r te bnir40 ,! la/ /anza is especially poor1 & 9 none ( !m is !re mu* poetical promise4 ,b ! pa!tic image ( a =lorn & orphan$ *ildhood1 8un nid que la f\dre a bris10 :i* x calls up1 & ! tone ( bro!rly affection1 l+] 9 "o's memory4 ,& ?r\gh mu* ( ! volume ( #ahfc1 9 ! v]ses to 8,my ,godson10 or 9 ! *>m+ poem to ,l\l\1 ! little girl :o at five ye>s old1 daisy 9 h&1 _h sworn him et]nal fri5d%ip ov] ,gret*5's game ( 8,er liebt mi*--liebt mi* ni*t10 "o he>s ! same t5d] note4 8,m]ci1 prophtique fleurette1 ,corolle l'oracle va9queur1 ,c> voil trois ans1 paqu]ette1 ,que tu m'ouvris un petit coeur4 8,et depuis trois hiv]s1 ma belle1 ,l'enfant aux gr&s yeux de vel\rs ,ma9ti5t son petit coeur fidle1 ,fidle comme aux premi]s j\rs40 ,8 la/ poetical volume1 8,j\r ,j\r10 publi%$ 9 #ahhj1 is f> m uni=mly melan*oly & didactic 9 tone ?an ! two e>li] collections f :i* we h be5 quot+4 ,b ?\gh ! dom9ant note is "o ( pa9 & au/]ity1 ( philosophy t\*$ ) emotion1 & ! g5]al tone m purely introspective1 !re are _m traces 9 x ( ! y\ng] ,amiel1 de>1 = v ord9>y human reasons1 to 8 si/]s & 8 fri5ds4 ,&1 9 g5]al1 ! pa!tic int]e/ ( ! book = all ^: sympa?y answ]s to :at ,george ,s& calls 8les tragdies que la p5se ap]oit et que l'oeil ne voit po9t0 is v great4 ,amiel publi%$ x a ye> be=e 8 dea?1 & ! /ruggle ) fail+ p[] :i* ! ,j\rnal reveals to u 9 its sadde/ & mo/ intimate reality1 is "h express$ 9 m res]v$ & measur$ =m4 ,fai?1 d\bt1 submission1 t5d]ness ( feel+1 inf9ite aspiration1 moral passion1 t /ra9+ hope ( some?+ beyond1 :i* is ! life ( ! religi\s s\l--!y are all "h1 & ! ,d]ni] ,mot ) :i* ! sad little volume ends is poor ,amiel's epitaph on himself1 8 consci\s f>ewell to t m public aspect ( 8 life 9 :i* he _h suff]$ mu* & a*iev$ comp>atively s little4 8,n\s avons plaisir compliqu le bonheur1 ,et p> un idal frivole et suborneur ,atta* nos coeurs la t]re2 ,dupes des faux dehors t5us p\r l'important1 ,mille *oses p\r n\s ont du prix 444 et p\rtant ,une seule tait ncessaire4 8,sans f9 n\s prodiguons calculs1 ef=ts1 travaux2 ,cep5dant1 au milieu des succs1 des bravos ,en n\s quelque *ose s\pire2 ,multipliant nos pas et nos so9s de f\rmis1 ,n\s vondrions n\s faire une f\le d'amis4444 ,p\rtant un seul p\vait suffire4 8,victime des dsirs1 esclave des regrets1 ,l'homme s'agite1 et s'use1 et vieillit sans progrs ,sur sa toile de ,pnlope2 ,comme un sage m\rant1 puissions-n\s dire en paix ,j'ai trop longtemps err1 *]*2 je me trompais2 ,t\t e/ bi51 mon ,dieu m'enveloppe40 ,^u ! small rema9s ( ,amiel's prose outside ! ,j\rnal !re is no occasion to dwell4 ,! two essays on ,madame de ,/al & ,r\sseau conta9 mu* f9e critical rem>k1 & might f9d a place p]haps z an app5dix to "s future edition ( ! ,j\rnal2 & "s ( ! 8,p5ses10 publi%$ 9 ! latt] half ( ! volume conta9+ ! 8,gra9s de ,mils10 are wor?y ( pres]vation4 ,b 9 g5]al1 :atev] he himself publi%$ 0 inf]ior to :at might ju/ly h be5 expect$ ( him1 & no "o 0 m consci\s ( ! fact ?an himself4 ,! /ory ( 8 fatal illness1 ( ! we>y /ruggle = heal? :i* fill$ ! la/ sev5 ye>s ( 8 life1 is abundantly told 9 ! ,j\rnal--we mu/ n repeat x "h4 ,he _h nev] be5 a /rong man1 & at fifty-?ree he receiv$1 at 8 doctor's h&s1 8 arrt de mort4 ,we are told t :at kill$ him 0 8he>t disease1 complicat$ by disease ( ! l>ynx10 & t he suff]$ 8mu* & long40 ,he 0 buri$ 9 ! cemet]y ( ,cl>5s1 n f> f 8 great contempor>y ,alex&] ,v9et2 & ! affection ( a sculptor fri5d provid$ ! monum5t :i* n[ m>ks 8 re/+-place4 ,we h ?us exhau/$ all ! biographical mat]ial :i* is at pres5t available = ! description ( ,amiel's life & relations t[>d ! outside _w4 ,x is to be hop$ t ! fri5ds to :om ! *>ge ( 8 memory has be5 specially committ$ may see _! way 9 ! future1 if n to a =mal biography1 :i* is v likely bett] left unattempt$1 at lea/ to a volume ( ,lett]s1 :i* w\ld complete ! 8,j\rnal ,intime10 z ,j\b]t's 8,correspond5ce0 completes ! 8,p5ses40 ,!re mu/ be ample mat]ial = x2 & ,amiel's lett]s w\ld probably supply u ) m ( t lit]>y & critical reflection :i* 8 m9d produc$ s freely & s well1 z long z !re 0 no "q ( publication1 b :i* is at pres5t some:at ov]weight$ 9 ! 8,j\rnal ,intime40 ,b :e!r biography or correspond5ce is ev] =?com+ or n1 ! ,j\rnal rema9s--& ! ,j\rnal is ! important matt]4 ,we %all read ! ,lett]s if !y appe>1 z we n[ read ! ,poems1 = ! ,j\rnal's sake4 ,! man himself1 z poet1 tea*]1 & littrateur1 produc$ no appreciable effect on 8 g5]ation2 b ! po/hum\s record ( 8 inn] life has /irr$ ! he>ts ( read]s all ov] ,europe1 & won him a ni*e 9 ! ,h\se ( ,fame4 ,:at are ! reasons = ?is /rik+ trans=mation ( a man's position--a trans=mation :i*1 z ,m4 ,s*]] says1 w rank among ! curiosities ( lit]>y hi/ory8 ,9 o!r words1 :at has giv5 ! 8,j\rnal ,intime0 its sudd5 & unexpect$ success8 ,9 ! fir/ place1 no d\bt1 its poetical quality1 its beauty ( mann]--t f9e lit]>y expression 9 :i* ,amiel has be5 able to clo! ! subtl] processes ( ?\ght1 no less ?an ! secrets ( religi\s feel+1 or ! aspects ( natural sc5]y4 ,/yle is :at gives value & curr5cy to ?\ght1 & ,amiel1 9 spite ( all 8 ,g]manisms1 has /yle ( ! be/ k9d4 ,he possesses 9 prose t indisp5sable magic :i* he lacks 9 poetry4 ,8 /yle1 inde$1 is by no means always 9 h>mony ) ! c5tral ,fr5* tradition4 ,probably a ,fr5*man w be incl9$ to apply ,sa9te-,beuve's rem>ks on ,amiel's eld] c\ntryman1 ,rodolphe ,tpff]1 to ,amiel himself3 8,c'e/ a9si qu'on crit dans les littratures qui n'ont po9t de capitale1 de qu>ti] gnral classique1 ou d',acadmie2 c'e/ a9si qu'un ,allem&1 qu'un ,amrica91 ou mme un ,anglais1 use son gr de sa langue4 ,en ,france au contraire1 o il y a une ,acadmie ,franaise 444 on doit tr\v] qu'un tel /yle e/ une trs-gr&e n\veaut et le succs qu'il a obt5u un evnem5t3 il a fallu bi5 des circon/ances p\r y prp>]40 ,no d\bt ! prep>atory circum/ance 9 ,amiel's case has be5 j t ,g]manization ( ! ,fr5* m9d on :i* ,m4 ,ta9e & ,m4 ,b\rget dwell ) s mu* emphasis4 ,b1 be ?is z x may1 !re is no mi/ak+ ! en?usiasm ) :i* "s ( ! be/ liv+ writ]s ( ,fr5* h hail$ ^! pages--in/9ct1 z "o decl>es1 8) a /range & m>vel\s poetry20 full ( phrases 8d'une int5se sugge/ion de beaut20 accord+ to ano!r4 ,n t ! :ole ( ! ,j\rnal fl[s ) ! same ease1 ! same felicity4 ,!re are a c]ta9 numb] ( passages :]e ,amiel ceases to be ! writ]1 & becomes ! te*nical philosoph]2 !re are o!rs1 ?\gh n _m1 into :i* a c]ta9 ,g]man heav9ess & diffus5ess has crept1 dull+ ! edge ( ! s5t5ces1 & ret>d+ ! developm5t ( ! ?\ght4 ,:5 all d$uctions h be5 made1 h[ev]1 ,amiel's claim is /ill fir/ & =emo/1 ! claim ( ! poet & ! arti/2 ( ! man ^: ?\ght uses at w ! h>monies & res\rces ( spee*1 & :o has atta9$1 9 words ( 8 own1 8to ! full & ma/]ly expression ( himself40 ,!n to ! poetical beauty ( mann] :i* fir/ help$ ! book to p5etrate1 faire sa tr\e1 z ! ,fr5* say1 we mu/ add its extraord9>y psy*ological int]e/4 ,bo? z poet & z psy*ologi/1 ,amiel makes ano!r l9k 9 a special tradition2 he adds ano!r "n to ! li/ ( ^? :o h won a he>+ f _! fell[s z int]pret]s ( ! inn] life1 z ! reveal]s ( man to himself4 ,he is ! successor ( ,/4 ,augu/9e & ,dante2 he is ! bro!r ( ,ob]mann & ,maurice de ,gur94 ,:at o!rs h done = ! spiritual life ( o!r g5]ations he has done = ! spiritual life ( ?is1 & ! weal? ( poetical1 sci5tific1 & psy*ological faculty :i* he has br\ght to ! analysis ( human feel+ & human p]ceptions places him--s f> z ! pres5t c5tury is conc]n$--at ! head ( ! small & delicately-gift$ class to :i* he belongs4 ,= beside 8 spiritual exp]i5ce ,ob]mann's is sup]ficial1 & ,maurice de ,gur9's a pass+ tr\ble1 a m]e quick outbur/ ( passionate feel+4 ,amiel inde$ has nei!r ! cont9u\s romantic beauty nor ! ri* descriptive weal? ( ,s5anc\r4 ,! ,d5t du ,midi1 ) its untrodd5 solitude1 its primeval sil5ces & its hov]+ eagles1 ! ,swiss l&scape describ$ 9 ! 8,fragm5t on ! ,ranz des ,va*es10 ! summ] moonlight on ! ,lake ( ,neuf*tel--^! v>i\s pictures are ! "w ( "o ( ! mo/ f9i%$ arti/s 9 words t lit]ature has produc$4 ,b h[ true ,george ,s&'s criticism is6 8,*ez ,ob]mann la s5sibilit e/ active1 l'intellig5ce e/ p>esseuse ou insuffisante40 ,he has a c]ta9 antique p[] ( mak+ ! truisms ( life spl5did & impressive4 ,no "o c write m poetical ex]cises ?an he on ! old text ( pulvis et umbra sumus1 b beyond ?is 8 philosophical p[] fails him4 ,z soon z he leaves ! region ( romantic description h[ we>isome ! pages are apt to gr[6 ,in/ead ( a poet1 8un ergoteur ,voltairi520 in/ead ( ! explor] ( fre% secrets ( ! he>t1 a ,p>isian talk+ a *eap cynicism6 ,intellectually1 ! gr\nd gives way2 !re is no solidity ( k1 no range ( ?\ght4 ,above all1 ! sci5tific idea 9 our s5se is almo/ abs5t2 s t :ile ,amiel repres5ts ! mod]n m9d at its ke5e/ & be/1 deal+ at w ) ! va/ additions to k :i* ! la/ fifty ye>s h br\ght =?1 ,s5anc\r is /ill 9 ! eighte5?-c5tury /age1 talk+ l ,r\sseau ( a return to primitive mann]s1 & discuss+ ,*ri/ianity 9 ! tone ( ! 8,encyclopdie40 ,maurice de ,gur91 aga91 is ! inv5tor ( new t]ms 9 ! language ( feel+1 a poet z ,amiel & ,s5anc\r are4 ,8 love ( nature1 ! e>?-passion :i* brea!s 9 8 lett]s & j\rnal1 has a /range savor1 a =ce & flame :i* is all 8 own4 ,beside 8 actual s5se ( community ) ! visible _w1 ,amiel's love ( l&scape has a tame1 didactic air4 ,! ,swiss ?9k] is too ready to make nature a m]e vehicle ( moral or philosophical ?\ght2 ,maurice de ,gur9 loves h] = h]self alone1 & has f\nd words to describe h] influ5ce ov] him ( extraord9>y individuality & p[]4 ,b = ! re/ ! /ory ( 8 inn] life has b small value 9 ! hi/ory ( ?\ght4 ,8 difficulties d n g deep en\gh2 8 /ruggle is intellectually n s]i\s en\gh--we see 9 x only a common incid5t ( mod]n exp]i5ce poetically told2 x ?r[s no light on ! g5esis & progress ( ! great =ces :i* are mold+ & r5ovat+ ! ?\ght ( ! pres5t--x tells u no?+ = ! future4 ,no--!re is mu* m 9 ! 8,j\rnal ,intime0 ?an ! imag9ation or ! poetical gl[ :i* ,amiel %>es ) 8 imm$iate pr$ecessors 9 ! art ( confession-writ+4 ,8 book is repres5tative ( human exp]i5ce 9 its m intimate & p]sonal =ms to an ext5t h>dly equal$ s9ce ,r\sseau4 ,= 8 /udy ( himself is only a means to an end4 8,:at int]e/s me 9 myself10 he decl>es1 8is t ,i f9d 9 my own case a g5u9e example ( human nature1 & !re=e a specim5 ( g5]al value40 ,x is ! human consci\sness ( to-day1 ( ! mod]n _w1 9 its two-fold relation--its relation t[>d ! inf9ite & ! unkn[able1 & its relation t[>d ! visible univ]se :i* conditions x--:i* is ! real subject ( ! 8,j\rnal ,intime40 ,!re are few elem5ts ( our pres5t life :i*1 9 a great] or less degree1 are n made vocal 9 ^! pages4 ,amiel's intellectual int]e/ is untir+4 ,philosophy1 sci5ce1 lett]s1 art--he has p5etrat$ ! _s ( !m all2 !re is no?+1 or almo/ no?+1 )9 ! wide range ( mod]n activities :i* he has n at "o "t or o!r felt ! attraction (1 & le>n$ 9 "s s5se to und]/&4 8,amiel10 says ,m4 ,r5an1 8has 8 defects1 b he 0 c]ta9ly "o ( ! /ronge/ speculative heads :o1 dur+ ! p]iod f #ahde to #ahhj1 h reflect$ on ! nature ( ?+s40 ,&1 al?\gh a c]ta9 fatal spiritual weakness deb>r$ him to a great ext5t f ! _w ( practical life1 8 sympa?y ) action1 :e!r x 0 ! action ( ! politician or ! social re=m]1 or m]ely t /eady half-consci\s p]=mance ( its daily duty :i* keeps humanity sweet & liv+1 0 unfail+4 ,8 horizon 0 n b\nd$ by 8 own 8prison-cell10 or by t dream-_w :i* he has describ$ ) s mu* subtle beauty2 r ! en]gies :i* %\ld h f\nd _! natural expression 9 lit]>y or family life1 p5t up )9 ! m9d itself1 excit$ 9 x a p]petual eag]ness = intellectual discov]y1 & new p[]s ( sympa?y ) :atev] cross$ its field ( vision4 ,s t ! ?9k]1 ! hi/orian1 ! critic1 w f9d himself at home ) ,amiel4 ,! p[] ( organiz+ 8 ?\ght1 ! art ( writ+ a book1 monum5tum a]e p]5nius1 0 inde$ d5i$ him--he lam5ts x bitt]ly2 b1 on ! o!r h&1 he is receptivity itself1 responsive to all ! great =ces :i* move ! "t1 cat*+ & reflect+ on ! mobile mirror ( 8 m9d :atev] w9ds are bl[+ f ! hills ( ?\ght4 ,& if ! ?9k] is at home ) him1 s too are ! religi\s m9ds1 ! natures = :om ,god & duty are ! f\ndation ( exi/5ce4 ,"h1 inde$1 we come to ! inn]mo/ secret ( ,amiel's *>m1 ! fact :i* probably goes f>!r ?an any o!r to expla9 8 fasc9ation = a l>ge & gr[+ class ( read]s4 ,=1 :ile he repres5ts all ! intellectual complexities ( a "t bewild]$ by ! range & numb] ( its own acquisitions1 ! religi\s in/9ct 9 him is z /rong & t5aci\s z 9 any ( ! repres5tative expon5ts ( ! life ( fai?4 ,! intellect is cle> & unwav]+2 b ! he>t cl+s to old traditions1 & /eadies itself on ! rock ( duty4 ,8 ,calv9i/ic tra9+ l+]s long 9 him2 & :at deta*es him f ! ,hegelian s*ool1 ) :i* he has mu* 9 common1 is 8 own /rong] s5se ( p]sonal ne$1 8 preoccupation ) ! idea ( 8s940 8,he speaks10 says ,m4 ,r5an contemptu\sly1 8( s91 ( salvation1 ( r$emption1 & conv]sion1 z if ^! ?+s 7 realities4 ,he asks me #8,:at does ,m4 ,r5an make ( s98' ,eh bi51 je crois que je le supprime40 ,b x is j because ,amiel is pr(\ndly s5sitive to ! problems ( evil & responsibility1 & ,m4 ,r5an dismisses !m ) ?is half-tol]ant1 half-skeptical smile1 t ,m4 ,r5an's 8,s\v5irs0 in=m & ent]ta9 u1 :ile ! 8,j\rnal ,intime0 makes a deep impression on t moral s5se :i* is at ! root ( individual & national life4 ,! ,j\rnal is full1 inde$1 ( ?is note ( p]sonal religion4 ,religion1 ,amiel decl>es aga9 & aga91 _c be replac$ by philosophy4 ,! r$emption ( ! intellig5ce is n ! r$emption ( ! he>t4 ,! philosoph] & critic may succe$ 9 demon/rat+ t ! v>i\s def9ite =ms into :i* ! religi\s ?\ght ( man has ?r[n itself ?r\gh\t hi/ory are n absolute tru?1 b only ! tempor>y creations ( a ne$ :i* gradually & surely outgr[s !m all4 8,! ,tr9ity1 ! life to come1 p>adise & hell1 may cease to be dogmas & spiritual realities1 ! =m & ! lett] may vani% away--! "q ( humanity rema9s3 ,:at is x :i* saves80 ,amiel's answ] to ! "q w recall to a wide ,engli% circle ! me?od & _s ( an ,engli% tea*]1 ^: de> memory lives to-day 9 _m a he>t1 & is guid+ _m an ef=t 9 ! cause ( good--! me?od & _s ( ! late ,pr(essor ,gre5 ( ,balliol4 ,9 _m respects !re 0 a gulf ( diff]5ce betwe5 ! two m54 ,! "o _h all ! w & =ce ( p]sonality :i* ! o!r lack$4 ,b ! ultimate cre$ ( bo?1 ! way 9 :i* bo? int]pret ! facts ( nature & consci\sness1 is practically ! same4 ,9 ,amiel's case1 we h to ga!r x ?r\gh all ! v>iations & inevitable contradictions ( a ,j\rnal :i* is ! reflection ( a life1 n ! sy/ematic expression ( a s]ies ( ideas1 b ! ma9 results are cle> en\gh4 ,man is sav$ by love & duty1 & by ! hope :i* spr+s f duty1 or r f ! moral facts ( consci\sness1 z a fl[] spr+s f ! soil4 ,consci5ce & ! moral progress ( ! race--^! are 8 po9ts ( dep>ture4 ,fai? 9 ! reality ( ! moral law is :at he cl+s to :5 8 inh]it$ cre$ has yield$ to ! pressure ( ! intellect1 & aft] all ! /orms ( pessimism & necessit>ianism h pass$ ov] him4 ,! reconciliation ( ! two c]titudes1 ! two me?ods1 ! sci5tific & ! religi\s1 8is to be s\ght = 9 t moral law :i* is also a fact1 & e /ep ( :i* requires = its explanation ano!r cosmos ?an ! cosmos ( necessity40 8,nature is ! virtuality ( m9d1 ! s\l ! fruit ( life1 & lib]ty ! fl[] ( necessity40 ,consci\sness is ! "o fix$ po9t 9 ?is b\ndless & bottomless gulf ( ?+s1 & ! s\l's inw>d law1 z x has be5 pa9fully elaborat$ by human hi/ory1 ! only revelation ( ,god4 ,! only b ! suffici5t revelation6 ,= ?is fir/ article ( a reasonable cre$ is ! key to all else--! clue :i* leads ! m9d safely ?r\gh ! labyr9? ( d\bt into ! pres5ce ( ! ,et]nal4 ,)\t attempt+ to def9e ! indef9able1 ! s\l rises f ! belief 9 ! reality ( love & duty to ! belief 9 8a holy w at ! root ( nature & de/9y0--= 8if man is capable ( conceiv+ goodness1 ! g5]al pr9ciple ( ?+s1 :i* _c be inf]ior to man1 mu/ be good40 ,& !n ! religi\s consci\sness seizes on ?is intellectual d$uction1 & clo!s x 9 language ( ! he>t1 9 ! t5d] & beautiful language ( fai?4 8,!re is b "o ?+ ne$ful--to possess ,god4 ,all our s5ses1 all our p[]s ( m9d & s\l1 are s _m ways ( approa*+ ! ,div9e1 s _m modes ( ta/+ & ador+ ,god4 ,religion is n a me?od2 x is a life--a high] & sup]natural life1 my/ical 9 its root & practical 9 its fruits2 a communion ) ,god1 a calm & deep en?usiasm1 a love :i* radiates1 a =ce :i* acts1 a happ9ess :i* ov]fl[s40 ,& ! fai? ( 8 y\? & 8 maturity be>s ! %ock ( suff]+1 & supports him ?r\gh 8 la/ h\rs4 ,he writes a few mon?s be=e ! end3 8,! animal expires2 man surr5d]s 8 s\l to ! au?or ( ! s\l40 444 8,we dream alone1 we suff] alone1 we die alone1 we inhabit ! la/ re/+-place alone4 ,b !re is no?+ to prev5t u f op5+ our solitude to ,god4 ,& s :at 0 an au/]e monologue becomes dialogue1 reluctance becomes docility1 r5unciation passes into peace1 & ! s5se ( pa9ful defeat is lo/ 9 ! s5se ( recov]$ lib]ty0--8,t\t e/ bi51 mon ,dieu m'enveloppe40 ,nor is ?is all4 ,x is n only t ,amiel's inmo/ ?\ght & affections are /ay$ on ?is conception ( 8a holy w at ! root ( nature & de/9y0--9 a c]ta9 v real s5se he is a ,*ri/ian4 ,no "o is m s5sitive ?an he to ! contribution :i* ,*ri/ianity has made to ! religi\s weal? ( mank9d2 no "o m p5etrat$ ?an he ) ! tru? ( its ess5tial doctr9e 8dea? unto s9 & a new bir? unto righte\sness40 8,! religion ( s91 ( rep5tance & reconciliation10 he cries1 8! religion ( ! new bir? & ( et]nal life1 is n a religion to be a%am$ (40 ,! _w has f\nd inspiration & guidance = eighte5 c5turies 9 ! religi\s consci\sness ( ,jesus4 8,! gospel has modifi$ ! _w & consol$ mank9d10 & s 8we may hold alo( f ! *ur*es & yet b[ ourselves be=e ,jesus4 ,we may be suspici\s ( ! cl]gy & refuse to h any?+ to d ) cate*isms1 & yet love ! ,holy & ! ,j :o came to save & n to curse40 ,& 9 fact ,amiel's :ole life & ?\ght are /eep$ 9 ,*ri/ianity4 ,he is ! spiritual desc5dant ( "o ( ! int5se/ & mo/ individual =ms ( ,*ri/ian belief1 & traces ( 8 religi\s ance/ry are visible 9 him at e /ep4 ,prote/antism ( ! s9c]] & nobl] k9d leaves an indelible impression on ! nature :i* has once surr\nd$ itself to ! au/]e & p5etrat+ influ5ces fl[+ f ! religion ( s9 & grace2 & s f> z feel+ & temp]am5t are conc]n$1 ,amiel reta9$ ?r\gh\t 8 life ! m>ks ( ,calv9ism & ,g5eva4 ,& yet h[ cle> ! intellect rema9s1 ?r\gh all ! anxieties ( ?\ght1 & 9 ! face ( ! s\l's de>e/ memories & mo/ passionate ne$s6 ,amiel1 z soon z 8 reason+ faculty has once rea*$ its maturity1 nev] deceives himself z to ! special claims ( ! religion :i* by in/9ct & inh]itance he loves2 he makes no compromise ) dogma or ) miracle4 ,beyond ! religions ( ! pres5t he sees always ! ess5tial religion :i* la/s :5 all local =ms & m>vels h pass$ away2 & z ye>s g on1 ) m & m cle>ness ( conviction1 he le>ns to reg>d all special beliefs & sy/ems z 8prejudices1 useful 9 practice1 b /ill n>r[nesses ( ! m9d20 misgr[?s ( ?\ght1 necess>y 9 _! "t & place1 b /ill ( no absolute value1 & hav+ no f9al claim on ! ?\ght ( man4 ,& x is j "h--9 ?is mixture ( ! fai? :i* cl+s & aspires1 ) ! intellectual pliancy :i* all[s ! m9d to sway freely "u ! pressure ( life & exp]i5ce1 & ! deep respect = tru?1 :i* w all[ no?+ to int]f]e betwe5 ?\ght & its appo9t$ tasks--t ,amiel's special claim ^u u lies4 ,x is ?is balance ( =ces 9 him :i* makes him s widely repres5tative ( ! mod]n m9d--( its d\bts1 its convictions1 its hopes4 ,he speaks = ! life ( to-day z no o!r s+le voice has yet spok5 = x2 9 8 contradictions1 8 fe>s1 8 despairs1 & yet 9 ! con/ant /ra9+ t[>d ! unse5 & ! ideal :i* gives a fundam5tal unity to 8 inn] life1 he is ! type ( a g5]ation univ]sally t\*$ ) d\bt1 & yet z s5sitive to ! ne$ ( fai? z any t h gone be=e x2 m widely consci\s ?an its pr$ecessors ( ! limitations ( ! human m9d1 & ( ! iron pressure ( man's physical environm5t2 b at ! same "t--p>adox z x may seem--m consci\s ( man's greatness1 m deeply ?rill$ by ! spectacle ( ! nobility & beauty int]wov5 ) ! univ]se4 ,& he plays ?is "p ( 8 s mode/ly1 ) s mu* hesitation1 s mu* d\bt ( 8 ?\ght & ( himself6 ,he is no prea*]1 l ,em]son & ,c>lyle1 ) :om1 z poet & ideali/1 he has s mu* 9 common2 !re is little resemblance betwe5 him & ! m5 :o speak1 z x 71 f a height to ! cr[d b5ea?1 sure always ( !mselves & :at !y h to say4 ,& "h aga9 he repres5ts ! pres5t & =e%ad[s ! future4 ,= ! age ( ! prea*]s is pass+ ^? :o speak ) au?ority on ! riddles ( life & nature z ! prie/s ( ?is or t all-expla9+ dogma1 are becom+ less important z k spreads1 & ! complexity ( exp]i5ce is made evid5t to a wid] range ( m9ds4 ,! =ce ( ?+s is aga9/ ! c]ta9 p4 ,aga9 & aga9 tru? escapes f ! prisons made = h] by mortal h&s1 & z humanity c>ries on ! endless pursuit %e w pay m & m respectful he$ to voices l ?is voice ( ! lonely ,g5evese ?9k]--) its pa!tic alt]ations ( hope & fe>1 & ! moral /eadfa/ness :i* is ! inmo/ note ( x--to ^! m$itative lives1 :i*1 ?r\gh all ! ebb & fl[ ( ?\ght1 & 9 ! dim ways ( d\bt & suff]+1 ri* 9 k1 & yet ri* 9 fai?1 grasp 9 new =ms1 & proclaim to u 9 new words1 8,! mighty hopes :i* make u m540 ,,amiel',s ,,j\rnal4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:]e no o!r "n is m5tion$1 ,g5eva is to be und]/ood z ! au?or's place ( resid5ce4 ,,b]l91 ,july #af4 #ahdh4--,!re is b "o ?+ ne$ful--to possess ,god4 ,all our s5ses1 all our p[]s ( m9d & s\l1 all our ext]nal res\rces1 are s _m ways ( approa*+ ! div9ity1 s _m modes ( ta/+ & ( ador+ ,god4 ,we mu/ le>n to deta* ourselves f all t is capable ( be+ lo/1 to b9d ourselves absolutely only to :at is absolute & et]nal1 & to enjoy ! re/ z a loan1 a usufruct4444 ,to adore1 to und]/&1 to receive1 to feel1 to give1 to act3 !re is my law my duty1 my happ9ess1 my heav54 ,let come :at come w--ev5 dea?4 ,only be at peace ) self1 live 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 9 communion ) ,him1 & leave ! guidance ( exi/5ce to ^? univ]sal p[]s aga9/ :om ?\ can/ d no?+6 ,if dea? gives me "t1 s mu* ! bett]4 ,if its summons is ne>1 s mu* ! bett] /ill2 if a half-dea? ov]take me1 /ill s mu* ! bett]1 = s ! pa? ( success is clos$ to me only t ,i may f9d op5+ be=e me ! pa? ( h]oism1 ( moral greatness & resignation4 ,e life has its pot5tiality ( greatness1 & z x is impossible to be outside ,god1 ! be/ is consci\sly to dwell 9 ,him4 ,,b]l91 ,july #bj1 #ahdh4--;,x gives lib]ty & bread? to ?\ght1 to le>n to judge our own epo* f ! po9t ( view ( univ]sal hi/ory1 hi/ory f ! po9t ( view ( geological p]iods1 geology f ! po9t ( view ( a/ronomy4 ,:5 ! duration ( a man's life or ( a p's life appe>s to u z microscopic z t ( a fly & inv]sely1 ! life ( a gnat z inf9ite z t ( a cele/ial body1 ) all its du/ ( nations1 we feel ourselves at once v small & v great1 & we are able1 z x 71 to survey f ! height ( ! sph]es our own exi/5ce1 & ! little :irlw9ds :i* agitate our little ,europe4 ,at bottom !re is b "o subject ( /udy3 ! =ms & metamorphoses ( m9d4 ,all o!r subjects may be r$uc$ to t2 all o!r /udies br+ u back to ?is /udy4 ,,g5eva1 ,april #bj1 #ahdi4--;,x is six ye>s ,footnote3 ,amiel left ,g5eva = ,p>is & ,b]l9 9 ,april1 #ahdh1 ! prec$+ ye>1 #ahda-db1 hav+ be5 sp5t 9 ,italy & ,sicily4 to-day s9ce ,i la/ left ,g5eva4 ,h[ _m j\rneys1 h[ _m impressions1 obs]vations1 ?\ghts1 h[ _m =ms ( m5 & ?+s h s9ce !n pass$ be=e me & 9 me6 ,! la/ sev5 ye>s h be5 ! mo/ important ( my life3 !y h be5 ! novitiate ( my intellig5ce1 ! initiation ( my be+ into be+4 ,?ree sn[/orms ?is aft]noon4 ,poor blossom+ plum-trees & pea* trees6 ,:at a diff]5ce f six ye>s ago1 :5 ! *]ry-trees1 adorn$ 9 _! gre5 spr+ dress & lad5 ) _! bridal fl[]s1 smil$ at my dep>ture along ! ,vaudois fields1 & ! lilacs ( ,burgundy ?rew great gu/s ( p]fume into my face6444 ,may #c1 #ahdi4--;,i h nev] felt any inw>d assurance ( g5ius1 or any pres5tim5t ( glory or ( happ9ess4 ,i h nev] se5 myself 9 imag9ation great or fam\s1 or ev5 a husb&1 a fa!r1 an influ5tial citiz54 ,?is indiff]5ce to ! future1 ?is absolute self-di/ru/1 are1 no d\bt1 to be tak5 z signs4 ,:at dreams ,i h are all vague & indef9ite2 ,i ought n to live1 = ,i am n[ sc>cely capable ( liv+4 ,recognize y\r place2 let ! liv+ live2 & y1 ga!r toge!r y\r ?\ghts1 leave beh9d y a legacy ( feel+ & ideas2 y w be mo/ useful s4 ,r5\nce y\rself1 accept ! cup giv5 y1 ) its honey & its gall1 z x comes4 ,br+ ,god d[n into y\r he>t4 ,embalm y\r s\l 9 ,him n[1 make )9 y a temple = ! ,holy ,_s1 be dilig5t 9 good works1 make o!rs happi] & bett]4 ,put p]sonal ambition away f y1 & !n y w f9d consolation 9 liv+ or 9 dy+1 :atev] may happ5 to y4 ,may #bg1 #ahdi4--,to be misund]/ood ev5 by ^? :om "o loves is ! cross & bitt]ness ( life4 ,x is ! secret ( t sad & melan*oly smile on ! lips ( great m5 :i* s few und]/&2 x is ! cruele/ trial res]v$ = self-devotion2 x is :at mu/ h (t5e/ wrung ! he>t ( ! ,son ( man2 & if ,god c\ld suff]1 x w\ld be ! w\nd we %\ld be =ev] inflict+ ^u ,him4 ,he also--,he above all--is ! great misund]/ood1 ! lea/ compreh5d$4 ,alas6 alas6 nev] to tire1 nev] to gr[ cold2 to be pati5t1 sympa!tic1 t5d]2 to look = ! budd+ fl[] & ! op5+ he>t2 to hope always1 l ,god2 to love always--?is is duty4 ,june #c1 #ahdi4--;,fre% & delici\s wea!r4 ,a long morn+ walk4 ,surpris$ ! haw?orn & wild rose-trees 9 fl[]4 ,f ! fields vague & heal?-giv+ sc5ts4 ,! ,voirons fr+$ ) dazzl+ mi/s1 & t9ts ( exquisite s(tness ov] ! ,salve4 ,"w 9 ! fields1 two delightful donkeys1 "o pull+ gre$ily at a h$ge ( b>b]ry4 ,!n ?ree little *ildr54 ,i felt a b\ndless desire to c>ess & play ) !m4 ,to be able to enjoy su* leisure1 ^! peaceful fields1 f9e wea!r1 cont5tm5t2 to h my two si/]s ) me2 to re/ my eyes on balmy mead[s & blossom+ or*>ds2 to li/5 to ! life s++ 9 ! grass & on ! trees2 to be s calmly happy--is x n too mu*8 is x des]v$8 ,o let me enjoy x ) gratitude4 ,! days ( tr\ble come soon en\gh & are _m en\gh4 ,i h no pres5tim5t ( happ9ess4 ,all ! m let me pr(it by ! pres5t4 ,come1 k9d nature1 smile & en*ant me6 ,veil f me a:ile my own griefs & ^? ( o!rs2 let me see only ! folds ( ?y que5ly mantle1 & hide all mis]able & ignoble ?+s f me "u ?y b\nties & spl5dors6 ,octob] #a1 #ahdi4--,ye/]day1 ,sunday1 ,i read ?r\gh & made extracts f ! gospel ( ,/4 ,john4 ,x confirm$ me 9 my belief t ab\t ,jesus we mu/ believe no "o b ,himself1 & t :at we h to d is to discov] ! true image ( ! f\nd] beh9d all ! prismatic reactions ?r\gh :i* x comes to u1 & :i* alt] x m or less4 ,a ray ( heav5ly light trav]s+ human life1 ! message ( ,*ri/ has be5 brok5 into a ?\s& ra9b[ colors & c>ri$ 9 a ?\s& directions4 ,x is ! hi/orical task ( ,*ri/ianity to assume ) e succe$+ age a fre% metamorphosis1 & to be =ev] spiritualiz+ m & m h] und]/&+ ( ! ,*ri/ & ( salvation4 ,i am a/\nd$ at ! incr$ible am\nt ( ,judaism & =malism :i* /ill exi/s n9ete5 c5turies aft] ! ,r$eem]'s proclamation1 8x is ! lett] :i* kille?0--aft] 8 prote/ aga9/ a dead symbolism4 ,! new religion is s pr(\nd t x is n und]/ood ev5 n[1 & w\ld seem a blasphemy to ! great] numb] ( ,*ri/ians4 ,! p]son ( ,*ri/ is ! c5t] ( x4 ,r$emption1 et]nal life1 div9ity1 humanity1 propitiation1 inc>nation1 judgm5t1 ,satan1 heav5 & hell--all ^! beliefs h be5 s mat]ializ$ & co>s5$1 t ) a /range irony !y pres5t to u ! spectacle ( ?+s hav+ a pr(\nd mean+ & yet c>nally int]pret$4 ,*ri/ian boldness & ,*ri/ian lib]ty mu/ be reconqu]$2 x is ! *ur* :i* is h]etical1 ! *ur* ^: sight is tr\bl$ & h] he>t timid4 ,:e!r we w or no1 !re is an esot]ic doctr9e1 !re is a relative revelation2 ea* man ent]s into ,god s mu* z ,god ent]s into him1 or z ,angelus1 ,footnote3 ,angelus ,silesius1 o!rwise ,johannes ,soheffl]1 ! ,g]man sev5te5? c5tury hymn-writ]1 ^: t5d] & my/ical v]ses h be5 popul>iz$ 9 ,engl& by ,miss ,w9kwor?'s translations 9 ! ,lyra ,g]manica4 ,i ?9k1 said1 8! eye by :i* ,i see ,god is ! same eye by :i* ,he sees me40 ,*ri/ianity1 if x is to triumph ov] pan!ism1 mu/ absorb x4 ,to our pusillanim\s eyes ,jesus w\ld h borne ! m>ks ( a hateful pan!ism1 = he confirm$ ! ,biblical phrase 8ye are gods10 & s w\ld ,/4 ,paul1 :o tells u t we are ( 8! race ( ,god40 ,our c5tury wants a new !ology--t is to say1 a m pr(\nd explanation ( ! nature ( ,*ri/ & ( ! light :i* x fla%es ^u heav5 & ^u humanity4 99 99 99 99 99 ,h]oism is ! brilliant triumph ( ! s\l ov] ! fle%--t is to say1 ov] fe>3 fe> ( pov]ty1 ( suff]+1 ( calumny1 ( sickness1 ( isolation1 & ( dea?4 ,!re is no s]i\s piety )\t h]oism4 ,h]oism is ! dazzl+ & glori\s conc5tration ( c\rage4 99 99 99 99 99 ,duty has ! virtue ( mak+ u feel ! reality ( a positive _w :ile at ! same "t deta*+ u f x4 99 99 99 99 99 ,decemb] #cj1 #ahej4--,! relation ( ?\ght to action fill$ my m9d on wak+1 & ,i f\nd myself c>ri$ t[>d a biz>re =mula1 :i* seems to h some?+ ( ! night /ill cl++ ab\t x3 ,action is b co>s5$ ?\ght2 ?\ght become concrete1 obscure1 & unconsci\s4 ,x seem$ to me t our mo/ trifl+ actions1 ( eat+1 walk+1 & sleep+1 7 ! cond5sation ( a multitude ( tru?s & ?\ghts1 & t ! weal? ( ideas involv$ 0 9 direct proportion to ! commonness ( ! action 7z our dreams are ! m active1 ! deep] our sleep74 ,we are hemm$ r\nd ) my/]y1 & ! greate/ my/]ies are conta9$ 9 :at we see & d e day4 ,9 all spontaneity ! "w ( creation is reproduc$ 9 analogy4 ,:5 ! spontaneity is unconsci\s1 y h simple action2 :5 x is consci\s1 intellig5t & moral action4 ,at bottom ?is is no?+ m ?an ! proposition ( ,hegel3 8,:at is rational is real2 & :at is real is rational20 b x _h nev] seem$ to me m evid5t1 m palpable4 ,ev]y?+ :i* is1 is ?\ght1 b n consci\s & individual ?\ght4 ,! human intellig5ce is b ! consci\sness ( be+4 ,x is :at ,i h =mulat$ be=e3 ,ev]y?+ is a symbol ( a symbol1 & a symbol ( :at8 ( m9d4 444 ,i h j be5 look+ ?r\gh ! complete works ( ,montesquieu1 & _c yet make pla9 to myself ! impression left on me by ?is s+ul> /yle1 ) its mixture ( gravity & affectation1 ( c>elessness & precision1 ( /r5g? & delicacy2 s full ( sly int5tion = all its coldness1 express+ at once inquisitiv5ess & indiff]5ce1 abrupt1 piecemeal1 l notes ?r[n toge!r haphaz>d1 & yet delib]ate4 ,i seem to see an intellig5ce naturally grave & au/]e donn+ a dress ( wit = conv5tion's sake4 ,! au?or desires to ent]ta9 z mu* z to tea*1 ! ?9k] is also a bel-esprit1 ! jurisconsult has a t\* ( ! coxcomb1 & a p]fum$ brea? f ! temple ( ,v5us has p5etrat$ ! tribunal ( ,m9os4 ,"h we h au/]ity1 z ! c5tury und]/ood x1 9 philosophy or religion4 ,9 ,montesquieu1 ! art1 if !re is any1 lies n 9 ! words b 9 ! matt]4 ,! words run freely & lightly1 b ! ?\ght is self-consci\s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,ea* bud fl[]s b once & ea* fl[] has b its m9ute ( p]fect beauty2 s1 9 ! g>d5 ( ! s\l ea* feel+ has1 z x 71 its fl[]+ in/ant1 its "o & only mom5t ( expansive grace & radiant k+%ip4 ,ea* /> passes b once 9 ! night ?r\gh ! m]idian ov] our heads & %9es !re b an in/ant2 s1 9 ! heav5 ( ! m9d ea* ?\ght t\*es its z5i? b once1 & 9 t mom5t all its brilliancy & all its greatness culm9ate4 ,arti/1 poet1 or ?9k]1 if y want to fix & immortalize y\r ideas or y\r feel+s1 seize !m at ?is precise & fleet+ mom5t1 = x is _! highe/ po9t4 ,be=e x1 y h b vague outl9es or dim pres5tim5ts ( !m4 ,aft] x y w h only weak5$ rem9isc5ce or p[]less regret2 t mom5t is ! mom5t ( y\r ideal4 ,spite is ang] :i* is afraid to %[ itself1 x is an impot5t fury consci\s ( its impot5ce4 99 99 99 99 99 ,no?+ resembles pride s mu* z disc\ragem5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to repel "o's cross is to make x heavi]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,9 ! conduct ( life1 habits c\nt = m ?an maxims1 because habit is a liv+ maxim1 becomes fle% & in/9ct4 ,to re=m "o's maxims is no?+3 x is b to *ange ! title ( ! book4 ,to le>n new habits is ev]y?+1 = x is to rea* ! sub/ance ( life4 ,life is b a tissue ( habits4 99 99 99 99 99 ,febru>y #ag1 #ahea4--;,i h be5 read+1 = six or sev5 h\rs )\t /opp+ ! ,p5ses ( ,j\b]t4 ,i felt at fir/ a v /rong attraction t[>d ! book1 & a deep int]e/ 9 x1 b ,i h already a good deal cool$ d[n4 ,^! scatt]$ & fragm5t>y ?\ghts1 fall+ ^u "o )\t a pause1 l drops ( light1 tire1 n my head1 b reason+ p[]4 ,! m]its ( ,j\b]t consi/ 9 ! grace ( ! /yle1 ! vivacity or f9esse ( ! criticisms1 ! *>m ( ! metaphors2 b he />ts _m m problems ?an he solves1 he notices & records m ?an he expla9s4 ,8 philosophy is m]ely lit]>y & popul>2 8 orig9ality is only 9 detail & 9 execution4 ,altoge!r1 he is a writ] ( reflections r ?an a philosoph]1 a critic ( rem>kable gifts1 end[$ ) exquisite s5sibility1 b1 z an intellig5ce1 de/itute ( ! capacity = co-ord9ation4 ,he wants conc5tration & cont9uity4 ,x is n t he has no claims to be consid]$ a philosoph] or an arti/1 b r t he is bo? imp]fectly1 = he ?9ks & writes m>vel\sly1 on a small scale4 ,he is an entomologi/1 a lapid>y1 a jewel]1 a co9] ( s5t5ces1 ( adages1 ( criticisms1 ( aphorisms1 c\nsels1 problems2 & 8 book1 extract$ f ! accumulations ( 8 j\rnal dur+ fifty ye>s ( 8 life1 is a collection ( preci\s /ones1 ( butt]flies1 co9s & engrav$ gems4 ,! :ole1 h[ev]1 is m subtle ?an /rong1 m poetical ?an pr(\nd1 & leaves ^u ! read] r ! impression ( a great weal? ( small curiosities ( value1 ?an ( a great intellectual exi/5ce & a new po9t ( view4 ,! place ( ,j\b]t seems to me !n1 bel[ & v f> f ! philosoph]s & ! true poets1 b honorable among ! morali/s & ! critics4 ,he is "o ( ^? m5 :o are sup]ior to _! works1 & :o h !mselves ! unity :i* ^! lack4 ,?is fir/ judgm5t is1 besides1 indiscrim9ate & sev]e4 ,i %all h to modify x lat]4 ,febru>y #bj?4--,i h almo/ f9i%$ ^! two volumes ( ,p5ses & ! great] "p ( ! ,correspondance4 ,?is la/ has especially *>m$ me2 x is rem>kable = grace1 delicacy1 atticism1 & precision4 ,! *apt]s on metaphysics & philosophy are ! mo/ insignificant4 ,all t has to d ) l>ge views ) ! :ole ( ?+s1 is v little at ,j\b]t's comm&2 he has no philosophy ( hi/ory1 no speculative intuition4 ,he is ! ?9k] ( detail1 & 8 prop] field is psy*ology & matt]s ( ta/e4 ,9 ?is sph]e ( ! subtleties & delicacies ( imag9ation & feel+1 )9 ! circle ( p]sonal affectation & preoccupations1 ( social & educational int]e/s1 he ab\nds 9 +5uity & sagacity1 9 f9e criticisms1 9 exquisite t\*es4 ,x is l a bee go+ f fl[] to fl[]1 a teas+1 plund]+1 wayw>d zephyr1 an ,aeolian h>p1 a ray ( furtive light /eal+ ?r\gh ! leaves4 ,tak5 z a :ole1 !re is some?+ impalpable & immat]ial ab\t him1 :i* ,i w n v5ture to call effem9ate1 b :i* is sc>cely manly4 ,he wants bone & body3 timid1 dreamy1 & clairvoyant1 he hov]s f> above reality4 ,he is r a s\l1 a brea?1 ?an a man4 ,x is ! m9d ( a woman 9 ! "* ( a *ild1 s t we feel = him less admiration ?an t5d]ness & gratitude4 ,febru>y #bg1 #ahea4--,read ov] ! fir/ book ( ,emile4 ,i 0 revolt$1 contr>y to all expectation1 = ,i op5$ ! book ) a sort ( hung] = /yle & beauty4 ,i 0 consci\s in/ead ( an impression ( heav9ess & h>%ness1 ( labor$1 hamm]+ emphasis1 ( some?+ viol5t1 passionate1 & ob/9ate1 )\t s]5ity1 greatness1 nobility4 ,bo? ! qualities & ! defects ( ! book produc$ 9 me a s5se ( lack ( good mann]s1 a blaze ( tal5t1 b no grace1 no di/9ction1 ! acc5t ( good company want+4 ,i und]/ood h[ x is t ,r\sseau r\ses a p>ticul> k9d ( repugnance1 ! repugnance ( good ta/e1 & ,i felt ! dang] to /yle involv$ 9 su* a model z well z ! dang] to ?\ght aris+ f a tru? s alloy$ & sophi/icat$4 ,:at !re is ( true & /rong 9 ,r\sseau did n escape me1 & ,i /ill admir$ him1 b 8 bad sides appe>$ to me ) a cle>ness relatively new4 7,same day47--,! p5se-writ] is to ! philosoph] :at ! dilettante is to ! arti/4 ,he plays ) ?\ght1 & makes x produce a cr[d ( pretty ?+s 9 detail1 b he is m anxi\s ab\t tru?s ?an tru?1 & :at is ess5tial 9 ?\ght1 its sequ5ce1 its unity1 escapes him4 ,he h&les 8 in/rum5t agreeably1 b he does n possess x1 /ill less does he create x4 ,he is a g>d5] & n a geologi/2 he cultivates ! e>? only s mu* z is necess>y to make x produce = him fl[]s & fruits2 he does n dig deep en\gh into x to und]/& x4 ,9 a ^w1 ! p5se-writ] deals ) :at is sup]ficial & fragm5t>y4 ,he is ! lit]>y1 ! oratorical1 ! talk+ or writ+ philosoph]2 :]eas ! philosoph] is ! sci5tific p5se-writ]4 ,! p5se-writ]s s]ve to /imulate or to popul>ize ! philosoph]s4 ,!y h ?us a d\ble use1 besides _! *>m4 ,!y are ! pione]s ( ! army ( read]s1 ! doctors ( ! cr[d1 ! money-*ang]s ( ?\ght1 :i* !y conv]t into curr5t co94 ,! writ] ( p5se is a man ( lett]s1 ?\gh ( a s]i\s type1 & !re=e he is popul>4 ,! philosoph] is a speciali/1 z f> z ! =m ( 8 sci5ce goes1 ?\gh n 9 sub/ance1 & !re=e he c nev] become popul>4 ,9 ,france1 = "o philosoph] 7,desc>tes7 !re h be5 ?irty writ]s ( p5ses2 9 ,g]many1 = t5 su* writ]s !re h be5 tw5ty philosoph]s4 ,m>* #be1 #ahea4--;,h[ _m illu/ri\s m5 :om ,i h kn[n h be5 already reap$ by dea?1 ,/eff5s1 ,m>he9eke1 ,ne&]1 ,m5delssohn1 ,?orwalds51 ,oel5s*lg]1 ,geij]1 ,tegn]1 ,o]/$1 ,/uhr1 ,la*mann2 & ) u1 ,sismondi1 ,tpff]1 de ,c&olle1 savants1 arti/s1 poets1 musicians1 hi/orians4 ,footnote3 ,( ^! ,m>he9eke1 ,ne&]1 & ,la*mann _h be5 lectur+ at ,b]l9 dur+ ,amiel's resid5ce !re4 ,! ,dani% dramatic poet ,oel5s*lg] & ! ,sw$i% writ] ,tegn] 7 among ! ,sc&9avian m5 ( lett]s ) :om he made acqua9tance dur+ 8 t\r ( ,sw$5 & ,d5m>k 9 #ahde4 ,he probably came across ! ,sw$i% hi/orian ,geij] on ! same occasion4 ,s*ell+ & ,alex&] von ,humboldt1 m5tion$ a little l[] d[n1 7 also /ill hold+ sway at ,b]l9 :5 he 0 a /ud5t4 ,!re is an int]e/+ description 9 "o ( 8 articles on ,b]l91 publi%$ 9 ! ,biblio?que ,univ]selle de ,g5ve1 ( a univ]sity c]emonial !re 9 or ab\t #ahdg1 & ( ! effect produc$ on ! /ud5t's "y imag9ation by ! sight ( half ! lead]s ( ,european rese>* ga!r$ into a s+le room4 ,he saw ,s*loss]1 ! vet]an hi/orian1 at ,heidelb]g at ! end ( #ahdc4 ,! old g5]ation is go+4 ,:at w ! new br+ u8 ,:at %all we ourselves contribute8 ,a few great old m5--,s*ell+1 ,alex&] von ,humboldt1 ,s*loss]--/ill l9k u ) ! glori\s pa/4 ,:o is prep>+ to be> ! weight ( ! future8 ,a %iv] seizes u :5 ! ranks gr[ ?9 ar\nd u1 :5 age is /eal+ ^u u1 :5 we approa* ! z5i?1 & :5 de/9y says to u3 8,%[ :at is 9 !e6 ,n[ is ! mom5t1 n[ is ! h\r1 else fall back into no?+ness6 ,x is ?y turn6 ,give ! _w ?y measure1 say ?y ^w1 reveal ?y nullity or ?y capacity4 ,come =? f ! %ade6 ,x is no long] a "q ( promis+1 ?\ mu/ p]=m4 ,! "t ( appr5tice%ip is ov]4 ,s]vant1 %[ u :at ?\ ha/ done ) ?y tal5t4 ,speak n[1 or be sil5t =ev]40 ,?is appeal ( ! consci5ce is a solemn summons 9 ! life ( e man1 solemn & awful z ! trumpet ( ! la/ judgm5t4 ,x cries1 8,art ?\ ready8 ,give an acc\nt4 ,give an acc\nt ( ?y ye>s1 ?y leisure1 ?y /r5g?1 ?y /udies1 ?y tal5t1 & ?y works4 ,n[ & "h is ! h\r ( great he>ts1 ! h\r ( h]oism & ( g5ius40 ,april #f1 #ahea4--,0 !re ev] any "o s vuln]able z ,i8 ,if ,i 7 a fa!r h[ _m griefs & vexations1 a *ild might cause me4 ,z a husb& ,i %\ld h a ?\s& ways ( suff]+ because my happ9ess dem&s a ?\s& conditions ,i h a he>t too easily rea*$1 a too re/less imag9ation2 despair is easy to me1 & e s5sation rev]b]ates aga9 & aga9 )9 me4 ,:at might be1 spoils = me :at is4 ,:at ought to be consumes me ) sadness4 ,s ! reality1 ! pres5t1 ! irrep>able1 ! necess>y1 repel & ev5 t]rify me4 ,i h too mu* imag9ation1 consci5ce & p5etration1 & n en\gh "*4 ,! life ( ?\ght alone seems to me to h en\gh ela/icity & imm5sity1 to be free en\gh f ! irrep>able2 practical life makes me afraid4 ,& yet1 at ! same "t x attracts me2 ,i h ne$ ( x4 ,family life1 especially1 9 all its delightfulness1 9 all its moral dep?1 appeals to me almo/ l a duty4 ,sometimes ,i _c escape f ! ideal ( x4 ,a companion ( my life1 ( my "w1 ( my ?\ghts1 ( my hopes2 )91 a common wor%ip1 t[>d ! _w outside1 k9dness & b5efic5ce2 educations to und]take1 ! ?\s& & "o moral relations :i* develop r\nd ! fir/1 all ^! ideas intoxicate me sometimes4 ,b ,i put !m aside because e hope is1 z x 71 an egg :5ce a s]p5t may issue in/ead ( a dove1 because e joy miss$ is a /ab2 because e se$ confid$ to de/9y conta9s an e> ( grief :i* ! future may develop4 ,i am di/ru/ful ( myself & ( happ9ess because ,i "k myself4 ,! ideal poisons = me all imp]fect possession4 ,ev]y?+ :i* compromises ! future or de/roys my inn] lib]ty1 :i* enslaves me to ?+s or obliges me to be o!r ?an ,i c\ld & ought to be1 all :i* injures my idea ( ! p]fect man1 hurts me mortally1 degrades & w\nds me 9 m9d1 ev5 be=eh&4 ,i abhor useless regrets & rep5tances4 ,! fatality ( ! consequ5ces :i* foll[ ^u e human act1 ! lead+ idea ( dramatic art & ! mo/ tragic elem5t ( life1 arre/s me m c]ta9ly ?an ! arm ( ! ,comm&eur4 ,i only act ) regret1 & almo/ by =ce4 ,to be dep5d5t is to me t]rible2 b to dep5d ^u :at is irrep>able1 arbitr>y & un=ese51 & above all to be s dep5d5t by my fault & ?r\gh my own error1 to give up lib]ty & hope1 to slay sleep & happ9ess1 ?is w\ld be hell6 ,all t is necess>y1 provid5tial1 9 %ort1 unimputable1 ,i c\ld be>1 ,i ?9k1 ) "s /r5g? ( m9d4 ,b responsibility mortally env5oms grief2 & z an act is ess5tially volunt>y1 !re=e ,i act z little z possible4 ,la/ outbreak ( a rebelli\s & deceitful self-w1 crav+ = repose = satisfaction1 = indep5d5ce6 is !re n "s relic ( selfi%ness 9 su* a dis9t]e/$ness1 su* a fe>1 su* idle susceptibility4 ,i wi% to fulfill my duty1 b :]e is x1 :at is x8 ,"h incl9ation comes 9 aga9 & int]prets ! oracle4 ,& ! ultimate "q is ?is3 ,does duty consi/ 9 obey+ "o's nature1 ev5 ! be/ & mo/ spiritual8 or 9 conqu]+ x8 ,life1 is x ess5tially ! education ( ! m9d & intellig5ce1 or t ( ! w8 ,& does w %[ itself 9 /r5g? or 9 resignation8 ,if ! aim ( life is to tea* u r5unciation1 !n welcome sickness1 h9drances1 suff]+s ( e k9d6 ,b if its aim is to produce ! p]fect man1 !n "o mu/ wat* ov] "o's integrity ( m9d & body4 ,to c\rt trial is to tempt ,god4 ,at bottom1 ! ,god ( ju/ice veils f me ! ,god ( love4 ,i tremble in/ead ( tru/+4 ,:5ev] consci5ce speaks ) a divid$1 unc]ta91 & disput$ voice1 x is n yet ! voice ( ,god4 ,desc5d /ill deep] into y\rself1 until y he> no?+ b a cle> & undivid$ voice1 a voice :i* does away ) d\bt & br+s ) x p]suasion1 light & s]5ity4 ,happy1 says ! apo/le1 are !y :o are at peace ) !mselves1 & ^: he>t condemne? !m n 9 ! "p !y take4 ,?is inn] id5tity1 ?is unity ( conviction1 is all ! m difficult ! m ! m9d analyzes1 discrim9ates1 & =esees4 ,x is difficult1 inde$1 = lib]ty to return to ! frank unity ( in/9ct4 ,alas6 we mu/ !n re-climb a ?\s& times ! peaks already scal$1 & reconqu] ! po9ts ( view already won1 we mu/ fight ! fight6 ,! human he>t1 l k+s1 signs m]e truces "u a pret5ce ( p]petual peace4 ,! et]nal life is et]nally to be re-won4 ,alas1 yes6 peace itself is a /ruggle1 or r x is /ruggle & activity :i* are ! law4 ,we only f9d re/ 9 ef=t1 z ! flame only f9ds exi/5ce 9 combu/ion4 ,o ,h]aclitus6 ! symbol ( happ9ess is aft] all ! same z t ( grief2 anxiety & hope1 hell & heav51 are equally re/less4 ,! alt> ( ,ve/a & ! sacrifice ( ,beelzebub burn ) ! same fire4 ,ah1 yes1 !re y h life--life d\ble-fac$ & d\ble-edg$4 ,! fire :i* enlight5s is also ! fire :i* consumes2 ! elem5t ( ! gods may become t ( ! accurs$4 ,april #g1 #ahea4--,read a "p ( ,ruge's ,footnote3 ,arnold ,ruge1 born 9 #ahjc1 di$ at ,brighton 9 #ahhj1 pr9cipal editor ( ! ,hallis*e1 aft]w>d ! ,deuts*e ,jahrb*] 7#ahch-dc71 9 :i* ,/rauss1 ,bruno ,bau]1 & ,l\is ,feu]ba* wrote4 ,he 0 a memb] ( ! p>liam5t ( ,frank=t4 volume 8,die ,academie0 7#ahdh7 :]e ! humanism ( ! neo-,hegelians 9 politics1 religion1 & lit]ature is repres5t$ by correspond5ts or articles 7,kuno ,fis*]1 ,kolla*1 etc74 ,!y recall ! philosophi/ p>ty ( ! la/ c5tury1 able to dissolve any?+ by reason & reason+1 b unable to con/ruct any?+2 = con/ruction re/s ^u feel+1 in/9ct1 & w4 ,"o f9ds !m mi/ak+ philosophic consci\sness = realiz+ p[]1 ! r$emption ( ! intellig5ce = ! r$emption ( ! he>t1 t is to say1 ! "p = ! :ole4 ,^! pap]s make me und]/& ! radical diff]5ce betwe5 morals & intellectualism4 ,! writ]s ( !m wi% to supplant religion by philosophy4 ,man is ! pr9ciple ( _! religion1 & intellect is ! climax ( man4 ,_! religion1 !n1 is ! religion ( intellect4 ,!re y h ! two worlds3 ,*ri/ianity br+s & prea*es salvation by ! conv]sion ( ! w1 humanism by ! emancipation ( ! m9d4 ,"o attacks ! he>t1 ! o!r ! bra94 ,bo? wi% to enable man to rea* 8 ideal4 ,b ! ideal diff]s1 if n by its cont5t1 at lea/ by ! disposition ( its cont5t1 by ! pr$om9ance & sov]eignty giv5 to ?is = t inn] p[]4 ,= "o1 ! m9d is ! organ ( ! s\l2 = ! o!r1 ! s\l is an inf]ior /ate ( ! m9d2 ! "o wi%es to enlight5 by mak+ bett]1 ! o!r to make bett] by enlight5+4 ,x is ! diff]5ce betwe5 ,socrates & ,jesus4 ,! c>d9al "q is t ( s94 ,! "q ( imman5ce or ( dualism is second>y4 ,! tr9ity1 ! life to come1 p>adise & hell1 may cease to be dogmas1 & spiritual realities1 ! =m & ! lett] may vani% away1 ! "q ( humanity rema9s3 ,:at is x :i* saves8 ,h[ c man be l$ to be truly man8 ,is ! ultimate root ( 8 be+ responsibility1 yes or no8 ,& is do+ or kn[+ ! "r1 act+ or ?9k+1 8 ultimate end8 ,if sci5ce does n produce love x is insuffici5t4 ,n[ all t sci5ce gives is ! amor intellectualis ( ,sp9oza1 light )\t w>m?1 a resignation :i* is contemplative & gr&iose1 b inhuman1 because x is sc>cely transmissible & rema9s a privilege1 "o ( ! r>e/ ( all4 ,moral love places ! c5t] ( ! individual 9 ! c5t] ( be+4 ,x has at lea/ salvation 9 pr9ciple1 ! g]m ( et]nal life4 ,to love is virtually to "k2 to "k is n virtually to love2 !re y h ! relation ( ^! two modes ( man4 ,! r$emption wr\ght by sci5ce or by intellectual love is !n inf]ior to ! r$emption wr\ght by w or by moral love4 ,! fir/ may free a man f himself1 x may enfran*ise him f egotism4 ,! second drives ! ego out ( itself1 makes x active & fruitful4 ,! "o is critical1 purify+1 negative2 ! o!r is vivify+1 f]tiliz+1 positive4 ,sci5ce1 h[ev] spiritual & sub/antial x may be 9 itself1 is /ill =mal relatively to love4 ,moral =ce is !n ! vital po9t4 ,& ?is =ce is only produc$ by moral =ce4 ,l alone acts ^u l4 ,!re=e d n am5d by reason+1 b by example2 approa* feel+ by feel+2 d n hope to excite love except by love4 ,be :at y wi% o!rs to become4 ,let y\rself & n y\r words prea* = y4 ,philosophy1 !n1 to return to ! subject1 c nev] replace religion2 revolution>ies are n apo/les1 al?\gh ! apo/les may h be5 revolution>ies4 ,to save f ! outside to ! inside--& by ! outside ,i und]/& also ! intellig5ce relatively to ! w--is an error & dang]4 ,! negative "p ( ! humani/'s "w is good2 x w /rip ,*ri/ianity ( an out] %ell1 :i* has become sup]flu\s2 b ,ruge & ,feu]ba* _c save humanity4 ,%e mu/ h h] sa9ts & h] h]oes to complete ! "w ( h] philosoph]s4 ,sci5ce is ! p[] ( man1 & love 8 /r5g?2 man becomes man only by ! intellig5ce1 b he is man only by ! he>t4 ,k1 love1 p[]--!re is ! complete life4 ,june #af1 #ahea4--,?is ev5+ ,i walk$ up & d[n on ! ,pont des ,b]gues1 "u a cle>1 moonless heav5 delight+ 9 ! fre%ness ( ! wat]1 /reak$ ) light f ! two quays1 & glimm]+ "u ! tw9kl+ />s4 ,meet+ all ^! diff]5t gr\ps ( "y p1 families1 c\ples & *ildr51 :o 7 return+ to _! homes1 to _! g>rets or _! draw+-rooms1 s++ or talk+ z !y w5t1 ,i felt a movem5t ( sympa?y = all ^! pass]s-by2 my eyes & e>s became ^? ( a poet or a pa9t]2 :ile ev5 "o's m]e k9dly curiosity seems to br+ ) x a joy 9 liv+ & 9 see+ o!rs live4 ,augu/ #ae1 #ahea4--,to "k h[ to be ready1 a great ?+1 a preci\s gift1 & "o t implies calculation1 grasp & decision4 ,to be always ready a man mu/ be able to cut a knot1 = ev]y?+ _c be unti$2 he mu/ "k h[ to dis5gage :at is ess5tial f ! detail 9 :i* x is enwrapp$1 = ev]y?+ _c be equally consid]$2 9 a ^w1 he mu/ be able to simplify 8 duties1 8 bus9ess1 & 8 life4 ,to "k h[ to be ready1 is to "k h[ to />t4 ,x is a/oni%+ h[ all ( u are g5]ally cumb]$ up ) ! ?\s& & "o h9drances & duties :i* are n su*1 b :i* nev]!less w9d u ab\t ) _! spid] ?reads & fett] ! movem5t ( our w+s4 ,x is ! lack ( ord] :i* makes u slaves2 ! confusion ( to-day disc\nts ! fre$om ( to-morr[4 ,confusion is ! enemy ( all com=t1 & confusion is born ( procra/9ation4 ,to "k h[ to be ready we mu/ be able to f9i%4 ,no?+ is done b :at is f9i%$4 ,! ?+s :i* we leave dragg+ beh9d u w />t up aga9 lat] on be=e u & h>ass our pa?4 ,let ea* day take ?\ght = :at conc]ns x1 liquidate its own affairs & respect ! day :i* is to foll[1 & !n we %all be always ready4 ,to "k h[ to be ready is at bottom to "k h[ to die4 ,septemb] #b1 #ahea4--,read ! "w ( ,tocqueville 78,de la ,democratie en ,amrique407 ,my impression is z yet a mix$ "o4 ,a f9e book1 b ,i feel 9 x a little too mu* imitation ( ,montesquieu4 ,?is ab/ract1 piquant1 s5t5ti\s /yle1 too1 is a little dry1 ov]-ref9$ & monoton\s4 ,x has too mu* clev]ness & n en\gh imag9ation4 ,x makes "o ?9k1 m ?an x *>ms1 & ?\gh really s]i\s1 x seems flippant4 ,8 me?od ( splitt+ up a ?\ght1 ( illum9at+ a subject by successive facets1 has s]i\s inconv5i5ces4 ,we see ! details too cle>ly1 to ! detrim5t ( ! :ole4 ,a multitude ( sp>ks gives b a poor light4 ,nev]!less1 ! au?or is evid5tly a ripe & p5etrat+ intellig5ce1 :o takes a compreh5sive view ( 8 subject1 :ile at ! same "t possess+ a p[] ( acute & exhau/ive analysis4 ,septemb] #f?4--,tocqueville's book has on ! :ole a calm+ effect ^u ! m9d1 b x leaves a c]ta9 s5se ( disgu/ beh9d4 ,x makes "o realize ! necessity ( :at is happ5+ ar\nd u & ! inevitabl5ess ( ! goal prep>$ = u2 b x also makes x pla9 t ! era ( m$iocrity 9 ev]y?+ is beg9n+1 & m$iocrity freezes all desire4 ,equality eng5d]s uni=mity1 & x is by sacrific+ :at is excell5t1 rem>kable1 & extraord9>y t we get rid ( :at is bad4 ,! :ole becomes less b>b>\s1 & at ! same "t m vulg>4 ,! age ( great m5 is go+2 ! epo* ( ! ant-hill1 ( life 9 multiplicity1 is beg9n+4 ,! c5tury ( individualism1 if ab/ract equality triumphs1 runs a great risk ( see+ no m true individuals4 ,by cont9ual level+ & division ( labor1 society w become ev]y?+ & man no?+4 ,z ! floor ( valleys is rais$ by ! d5udation & wa%+ d[n ( ! m\nta9s1 :at is av]age w rise at ! exp5se ( :at is great4 ,! exceptional w disappe>4 ,a plateau ) few] & few] undulations1 )\t contra/s & )\t oppositions1 su* w be ! aspect ( human society4 ,! /ati/ician w regi/] a gr[+ progress1 & ! morali/ a gradual decl9e3 on ! "o h&1 a progress ( ?+s2 on ! o!r1 a decl9e ( s\ls4 ,! useful w take ! place ( ! beautiful1 indu/ry ( art1 political economy ( religion1 & ari?metic ( poetry4 ,! sple5 w become ! malady ( a level+ age4 ,is ?is inde$ ! fate res]v$ = ! democratic era8 ,may n ! g5]al well-be+ be pur*as$ too de>ly at su* a price8 ,! creative =ce :i* 9 ! beg9n+ we see =ev] t5d+ to produce & multiply diff]5ces1 w x aft]w>d retrace its /eps & oblit]ate !m "o by "o8 ,& equality1 :i* 9 ! dawn ( exi/5ce is m]e in]tia1 torpor1 & dea?1 is x to become at la/ ! natural =m ( life8 ,or r1 above ! economic & political equality to :i* ! sociali/ & non-sociali/ democracy aspires1 tak+ x too (t5 = ! t]m ( its ef=ts1 w !re n arise a new k+dom ( m9d1 a *ur* ( refuge1 a republic ( s\ls1 9 :i*1 f> beyond ! region ( m]e "r & sordid utility1 beauty1 devotion1 hol9ess1 h]oism1 en?usiasm1 ! extraord9>y1 ! inf9ite1 %all h a wor%ip & an abid+ city8 ,utilit>ian mat]ialism1 b>r5 well-be+1 ! idolatry ( ! fle% & ( ! 8,i10 ( ! temporal & ( mammon1 are !y to be ! goal if our ef=ts1 ! f9al recomp5se promis$ to ! labors ( our race8 ,i d n believe x4 ,! ideal ( humanity is some?+ diff]5t & high]4 ,b ! animal 9 u mu/ be satisfi$ fir/1 & we mu/ fir/ bani% f among u all suff]+ :i* is sup]flu\s & has its orig9 9 social arrangem5ts1 be=e we c return to spiritual goods4 ,septemb] #g1 #ahea4 7,aix74--,x is t5 o'clock at night4 ,a /range & my/ic moonlight1 ) a fre% breeze & a sky cross$ by a few w&]+ cl\ds1 makes our t]race delightful4 ,^! pale & g5tle rays %$ f ! z5i? a subdu$ & p5etrat+ peace2 x is l ! calm joy or ! p5sive smile ( exp]i5ce1 comb9$ ) a c]ta9 /oic /r5g?4 ,! />s %9e1 ! leaves tremble 9 ! silv] light4 ,n a s\nd 9 all ! l&scape2 great gulfs ( %ad[ "u ! gre5 alleys & at ! corn]s ( ! /eps4 ,ev]y?+ is secret1 solemn1 my/]i\s4 ,o night h\rs1 h\rs ( sil5ce & solitude6 ) y are grace & melan*oly2 y sadd5 & y console4 ,y speak to u ( all t has pass$ away1 & ( all t mu/ /ill die1 b y say to u1 8c\rage60 & y promise u re/4 ,novemb] #i1 #ahea4 7,sunday74--,at ! *ur* ( ,/4 ,g]vais1 a second s]mon f ,adolphe ,monod1 less gr&iose p]haps b almo/ m orig9al1 & to me m edify+ ?an t ( la/ ,sunday4 ,! subject 0 ,/4 ,paul or ! active life1 8 =m] "o hav+ be5 ,/4 ,john or ! inn] life1 ( ! ,*ri/ian4 ,i felt ! gold5 spell ( eloqu5ce3 ,i f\nd myself hang+ on ! lips ( ! orator1 fasc9at$ by 8 boldness1 8 grace1 8 en]gy1 & 8 art1 8 s9c]ity1 & 8 tal5t2 & x 0 borne 9 ^u me t = "s m5 difficulties are a s\rce ( inspiration1 s t :at w\ld make o!rs /umble is = !m ! occasion ( _! highe/ triumphs4 ,he made ,/4 ,paul cry dur+ an h\r & a half2 he made an old nurse ( him1 he hunt$ up 8 old cloak1 8 prescriptions ( wat] & w9e to ,timo?y1 ! canvas t he m5d$1 8 fri5d ,ty*icus1 9 %ort1 all t c\ld raise a smile2 & f x he drew ! mo/ unfail+ pa?os1 ! mo/ au/]e & p5etrat+ lessons4 ,he made ! :ole ,/4 ,paul1 m>tyr1 apo/le & man1 8 grief1 8 *>ities1 8 t5d]ness1 live aga9 be=e u1 & ?is ) a gr&eur1 an unction1 a w>m? ( reality1 su* z ,i _h nev] se5 equal$4 ,h[ /irr+ is su* an apo!osis ( pa9 9 our c5tury ( com=t1 :5 %eph]ds & %eep alike s9k b5umb$ 9 ,capuan languors1 su* an apo!osis ( ard5t *>ity 9 a "t ( coldness & indiff]5ce t[>d s\ls1 su* an apo!osis ( a human1 natural1 inbr$ ,*ri/ianity1 9 an age1 :5 "s put x1 s to speak1 above man1 & o!rs bel[ man6 ,f9ally1 z a p]oration1 he dwelt ^u ! necessity = a new p1 = a /rong] g5]ation1 if ! _w is to be sav$ f ! tempe/s :i* ?reat5 x4 8,p ( ,god1 awake6 ,s[ 9 te>s1 t ye may reap 9 triumph60 ,:at a /udy is su* a s]mon6 ,i felt all ! extraord9>y lit]>y skill ( x1 :ile my eyes 7 /ill dim ) te>s4 ,diction1 composition1 similes1 all is in/ructive & preci\s to rememb]4 ,i 0 a/oni%$1 %ak51 tak5 hold (4 ,novemb] #ah1 #ahea4--,! en]getic subjectivity1 :i* has fai? 9 itself1 :i* does n fe> to be some?+ p>ticul> & def9ite )\t any consci\sness or %ame ( its subjective illusion1 is unkn[n to me4 ,i am1 s f> z ! intellectual ord] is conc]n$1 ess5tially objective1 & my di/9ctive speciality1 is to be able to place myself 9 all po9ts ( view1 to see ?r\gh all eyes1 to emancipate myself1 t is to say1 f ! individual prison4 ,h5ce aptitude = !ory & irresolution 9 practice2 h5ce critical tal5t & difficulty 9 spontane\s production4 ,h5ce1 also1 a cont9u\s unc]ta9ty ( conviction & op9ion1 s long z my aptitude rema9$ m]e in/9ct2 b n[ t x is consci\s & possesses itself1 x is able to conclude & affirm 9 its turn1 s t1 aft] hav+ br\ght disquiet1 x n[ br+s peace4 ,x says3 8,!re is no repose = ! m9d except 9 ! absolute2 = feel+1 except 9 ! inf9ite2 = ! s\l1 except 9 ! div9e40 ,no?+ f9ite is true1 is int]e/+1 or wor?y to fix my att5tion4 ,all t is p>ticul> is exclusive1 & all t is exclusive1 repels me4 ,!re is no?+ non-exclusive b ! ,all2 my end is communion ) ,be+ ?r\gh ! :ole ( ,be+4 ,!n1 9 ! light ( ! absolute1 e idea becomes wor? /udy+2 9 t ( ! inf9ite1 e exi/5ce wor? respect+2 9 t ( ! div9e1 e creature wor? lov+4 ,decemb] #b1 #ahea4--,let my/]y h its place 9 y2 d n be always turn+ up y\r :ole soil ) ! pl[%>e ( self-exam9ation1 b leave a little fall[ corn] 9 y\r he>t ready = any se$ ! w9ds may br+1 & res]ve a nook ( %ad[ = ! pass+ bird2 keep a place 9 y\r he>t = ! unexpect$ gue/s1 an alt> = ! unkn[n ,god4 ,!n if a bird s+ among y\r bran*es1 d n be too eag] to tame x4 ,if y are consci\s ( some?+ new--?\ght or feel+1 wak5+ 9 ! dep?s ( y\r be+--d n be 9 a hurry to let 9 light ^u x1 to look at x2 let ! spr++ g]m h ! protection ( be+ =gott51 h$ge x r\nd ) quiet1 & d n break 9 ^u its d>kness2 let x take %ape & gr[1 & n a ^w ( y\r happ9ess to any "o6 ,sacr$ "w ( nature z x is1 all conception %\ld be enwrapp$ by ! triple veil ( mode/y1 sil5ce & night4 99 99 99 99 99 ,k9dness is ! pr9ciple ( tact1 & respect = o!rs ! fir/ condition ( savoir-vivre4 99 99 99 99 99 ,he :o is sil5t is =gott52 he :o ab/a9s is tak5 at 8 ^w2 he :o does n advance1 falls back2 he :o /ops is ov]:elm$1 di/anc$1 cru%$2 he :o ceases to gr[ great] becomes small]2 he :o leaves (f1 gives up2 ! /ation>y condition is ! beg9n+ ( ! end--x is ! t]rible symptom :i* prec$es dea?4 ,to live1 is to a*ieve a p]petual triumph2 x is to ass]t "o's self aga9/ de/ruction1 aga9/ sickness1 aga9/ ! annull+ & disp]sion ( "o's physical & moral be+4 ,x is to w )\t ceas+1 or r to refre% "o's w day by day4 99 99 99 99 99 ,x is n hi/ory :i* tea*es consci5ce to be hone/2 x is ! consci5ce :i* educates hi/ory4 ,fact is corrupt+1 x is we :o correct x by ! p]si/5ce ( our ideal4 ,! s\l moralizes ! pa/ 9 ord] n to be demoraliz$ by x4 ,l ! al*emi/s ( ! middle ages1 %e f9ds 9 ! crucible ( exp]i5ce only ! gold t %e h]self has p\r$ into x4 99 99 99 99 99 ,febru>y #a1 #aheb4 7,sunday74--,pass$ ! aft]noon 9 read+ ! ,monologues ( ,s*lei]ma*]4 ,?is little book made an impression on me almo/ z deep z x did twelve ye>s ago1 :5 ,i read x = ! fir/ "t4 ,x replung$ me into ! inn] _w1 to :i* ,i return ) joy :5ev] ,i may h =sak5 x4 ,i 0 able besides1 to measure my progress s9ce !n by ! transp>5cy ( all ! ?\ghts to me1 & by ! fre$om ) :i* ,i ent]$ into & judg$ ! po9t ( view4 ,x is great1 p[]ful1 pr(\nd1 b !re is /ill pride 9 x1 & ev5 selfi%ness4 ,= ! c5t] ( ! univ]se is /ill ! self1 ! great ,i* ( ,fi*te4 ,! tameless lib]ty1 ! div9e dignity ( ! individual _s1 exp&+ till x admits nei!r any limit nor any?+ =eign to itself1 & consci\s ( a /r5g? in/9ct ) creative =ce1 su* is ! po9t ( view ( ! ,monologues4 ,! inn] life 9 its enfran*isem5t f "t1 9 its d\ble end1 ! realization ( ! species & ( ! individuality1 9 its pr\d dom9ion ov] all ho/ile circum/ances1 9 its prophetic c]ta9ty ( ! future1 9 its immortal y\?1 su* is _! !me4 ,?r\gh !m we are enabl$ to ent] into a life ( monum5tal int]e/1 :olly orig9al & beyond ! influ5ce ( any?+ ext]ior1 an a/oni%+ example ( ! autonomy ( ! ego1 an impos+ type ( "*1 ,z5o & ,fi*te 9 "o4 ,b /ill ! motive p[] ( ?is life is n religi\s2 x is r moral & philosophic4 ,i see 9 x n s mu* a magnific5t model to imitate z a preci\s subject ( /udy4 ,?is ideal ( a lib]ty1 absolute1 indefeasible1 inviolable1 respect+ itself above all1 disda9+ ! visible & ! univ]se1 & develop+ itself aft] its own laws alone1 is also ! ideal ( ,em]son1 ! /oic ( a "y ,am]ica4 ,accord+ to x1 man f9ds 8 joy 9 himself1 &1 safe 9 ! inaccessible sanctu>y1 ( 8 p]sonal consci\sness1 becomes almo/ a god4 ,footnote3 ,comp>e ,cl\gh's l9es3 8,:]e are ! great1 :om ?\ w\ld'/ wi% to praise !e8 ,:]e are ! pure1 :om ?\ w\ld'/ *oose to love !e8 ,:]e are ! brave1 to /& supreme above !e8 ,^: high comm&s w\ld *e]1 ^: *id+s raise !e8 ,seek1 seek]1 9 ?yself2 submit to f9d ,9 ! /ones1 bread1 & life 9 ! blank m9d40 ,he is himself pr9ciple1 motive1 & end ( 8 own de/9y2 he is himself1 & t is en\gh = him4 ,?is sup]b triumph ( life is n f> f be+ a sort ( impiety1 or at lea/ a displacem5t ( adoration4 ,by ! m]e fact t x does away ) humility1 su* a sup]human po9t ( view becomes dang]\s2 x is ! v temptation to :i* ! fir/ man succumb$1 t ( becom+ 8 own ma/] by becom+ l unto ! ,elohim4 ,"h !n ! h]oism ( ! philosoph] approa*es tem]ity1 & ! ,monologues are !re=e op5 to ?ree reproa*es3 ,ontologically1 ! position ( man 9 ! spiritual univ]se is wrongly indicat$2 ! individual s\l1 n be+ unique & n spr++ f itself1 c x be conceiv$ )\t ,god8 ,psy*ologically1 ! =ce ( spontaneity 9 ! ego is all[$ a dom9ion too exclusive ( any o!r4 ,z a fact1 x is n ev]y?+ 9 man4 ,morally1 evil is sc>cely nam$1 & conflict1 ! condition ( true peace1 is left out ( c\nt4 ,s t ! peace describ$ 9 ! ,monologues is nei!r a conque/ by man nor a grace f heav52 x is r a /roke ( good =tune4 ,febru>y #b;d4--,/ill ! ,monologues4 ,critically ,i def5d$ myself en\gh aga9/ !m ye/]day2 ,i may ab&on myself n[1 )\t scruple & )\t dang]1 to ! admiration & ! sympa?y ) :i* !y inspire me4 ,?is life s pr\dly indep5d5t1 ?is sov]eign conception ( human dignity1 ?is actual possession ( ! univ]se & ! inf9ite1 ?is p]fect emancipation f all :i* passes1 ?is calm s5se ( /r5g? & sup]iority1 ?is inv9cible en]gy ( w1 ?is infallible cle>ness ( self-vision1 ?is autocracy ( ! consci\sness :i* is its own ma/]1 all ^! decisive m>ks ( a royal p]sonality ( a nature ,olympian1 pr(\nd1 complete1 h>moni\s1 p5etrate ! m9d ) joy & he>t ) gratitude4 ,:at a life6 :at a man6 ,^! glimpses into ! inn] regions ( a great s\l d "o good4 ,contact ( ?is k9d /r5g!ns1 re/ores1 refre%es4 ,c\rage returns z we gaze2 :5 we see :at has be51 we d\bt no m t x c be aga94 ,at ! sight ( a man we too say to ourselves1 let u also be m54 ,m>* #c1 #aheb4--,op9ion has its value & ev5 its p[]3 to h x aga9/ u is pa9ful :5 we are among fri5ds1 & h>mful 9 ! case ( ! out] _w4 ,we %\ld nei!r flatt] op9ion nor c\rt x2 b x is bett]1 if we c help x1 n to ?r[ x on to a false sc5t4 ,! fir/ error is a meanness2 ! second an imprud5ce4 ,we %\ld be a%am$ ( ! "o2 we may regret ! o!r4 ,look to y\rself2 y are mu* giv5 to ?is la/ fault1 & x has already done y great h>m4 ,be ready to b5d y\r pride2 abase y\rself ev5 s f> z to %[ y\rself ready & clev] l o!rs4 ,?is _w ( skillful egotisms & active ambitions1 ?is _w ( m51 9 :i* "o mu/ deceive by smiles1 conduct1 & sil5ce z mu* z by actual words1 a _w revolt+ to ! pr\d & upright s\l1 x is our bus9ess to le>n to live 9 x6 ,success is requir$ 9 x3 succe$4 ,only =ce is recogniz$ !re3 be /rong4 ,op9ion seeks to impose h] law ^u all1 in/ead ( sett+ h] at defiance1 x w\ld be bett] to /ruggle ) h] & conqu]4444 ,i und]/& ! indignation ( contempt1 & ! wi% to cru%1 r\s$ irresi/ibly by all t creeps1 all t is tortu\s1 oblique1 ignoble4444 ,b ,i _c ma9ta9 su* a mood1 :i* is a mood ( v5geance1 = long4 ,?is _w is a _w ( m51 & ^! m5 are our bro!rs4 ,we mu/ n bani% f u ! div9e brea?1 we mu/ love4 ,evil mu/ be conqu]$ by good2 & be=e all ?+s "o mu/ keep a pure consci5ce4 ,prud5ce may be prea*$ f ?is po9t ( view too4 8,be ye simple z ! dove & prud5t z ! s]p5t10 are ! words ( ,jesus4 ,be c>eful ( y\r reputation1 n ?r\gh vanity1 b t y may n h>m y\r life's "w1 & out ( love = tru?4 ,!re is /ill some?+ ( self-seek+ 9 ! ref9$ dis9t]e/$ness :i* w n ju/ify itself1 t x may feel itself sup]ior to op9ion4 ,x requires ability1 to make :at we seem agree ) :at we are1 & humility1 to feel t we are no great ?+s4 ,!re1 ?anks to ?is j\rnal1 my excitem5t has pass$ away4 ,i h j read ! la/ book ( x ?r\gh aga91 & ! morn+ has pass$ by4 ,on ! way ,i h be5 consci\s ( a c]ta9 am\nt ( monotony4 ,x does n signify6 ,^! pages are n writt5 to be read2 !y are writt5 = my own consolation & w>n+4 ,!y are l&m>ks 9 my pa/2 & "s ( ! l&m>ks are fun]al crosses1 /one pyramids1 )]$ /alks gr[n gre5 aga91 :ite pebbles1 co9s--all ( !m helpful t[>d f9d+ "o's way aga9 ?r\gh ! ,elysian fields ( ! s\l4 ,! pilgrim has m>k$ 8 /ages 9 x2 he is able to trace by x 8 ?\ghts1 8 te>s1 8 joys4 ,?is is my travel+ di>y3 if "s passages f x may be useful to o!rs1 & if sometimes ev5 ,i h communicat$ su* passages to ! public1 ^! ?\s& pages z a :ole are only ( value to me & to ^? :o1 aft] me1 may take "s int]e/ 9 ! it9]>y ( an obscurely condition$ s\l1 f> f ! _w's noise & fame4 ,^! %eets w be monoton\s :5 my life is s2 !y w repeat !mselves :5 feel+s repeat !mselves2 tru? at any rate w be always !re1 & tru? is _! only muse1 _! only pretext1 _! only duty4 ,april #b1 #aheb4--,:at a lovely walk6 ,sky cle>1 sun ris+1 all ! t9ts bright1 all ! outl9es %>p1 save = ! s(t & mi/y inf9ite ( ! lake4 ,a p9* ( :ite fro/1 p[d]$ ! fields1 l5d+ a metallic relief to ! h$ges ( gre5 box1 & to ! :ole l&scape1 /ill )\t leaves1 an air ( heal? & vigor1 ( y\? & fre%ness4 8,ba!1 ,o disciple1 ?y ?ir/y s\l 9 ! dew ( ! dawn60 says ,fau/1 to u1 & he is "r4 ,! morn+ air brea!s a new & laugh+ en]gy into ve9s & m>r[4 ,if e day is a repetition ( life1 e dawn gives signs z x 7 a new contract ) exi/5ce4 ,at dawn ev]y?+ is fre%1 light1 simple1 z x is = *ildr54 ,at dawn spiritual tru?1 l ! atmosph]e1 is m transp>5t1 & our organs1 l ! "y leaves1 dr9k 9 ! light m eag]ly1 brea! 9 m e!r1 & less ( ?+s e>?ly4 ,if night & ! />ry sky speak to ! m$itative s\l ( ,god1 ( et]nity & ! inf9ite1 ! dawn is ! "t = projects1 = resolutions1 = ! bir? ( action4 ,:ile ! sil5ce & ! 8sad s]5ity ( ! azure vault10 incl9e ! s\l to self-recollection1 ! vigor & gayety ( nature spread into ! he>t & make x eag] = life & liv+4 ,spr+ is ^u u4 ,primroses & violets h already hail$ h] com+4 ,ra% blooms are %[+ on ! pea* trees2 ! swoll5 buds ( ! pe> trees & ! lilacs po9t to ! blossom+ t is to be2 ! honeysuckles are already gre54 ,april #bf1 #aheb4--,?is ev5+ a feel+ ( empt9ess took possession ( me2 & ! solemn ideas ( duty1 ! future1 solitude1 press$ !mselves ^u me4 ,i gave myself to m$itation1 a v necess>y def5se aga9/ ! disp]sion & di/raction br\ght ab\t by ! day's "w & its detail4 ,read a "p ( ,krause's book 8,urbild d] ,m5s*heit0 ,footnote3 ,*ri/ian ,fr$]ick ,krause1 di$ #ahcb1 ,hegel's y\ng] contempor>y1 & ! au?or ( a sy/em :i* he call$ pan5!ism--,amiel alludes to x lat] on4 :i* answ]$ m>vel\sly to my ?\ght & my ne$4 ,?is philosoph] has always a b5efic5t effect ^u me2 8 sweet religi\s s]5ity ga9s ^u me & invades me4 ,he inspires me ) a s5se ( peace & inf9ity4 ,/ill ,i miss some?+1 common wor%ip1 a positive religion1 %>$ ) o!r p4 ,ah6 :5 w ! *ur* to :i* ,i belong 9 he>t rise into be+8 ,i _c l ,s*]]1 cont5t myself ) be+ 9 ! "r all alone4 ,i mu/ h a less solit>y ,*ri/ianity4 ,my religi\s ne$s are n satisfi$ any m ?an my social ne$s1 or my ne$s ( affection4 ,g5]ally ,i am able to =get !m & lull !m to sleep4 ,b at times !y wake up ) a sort ( pa9ful bitt]ness 444 ,i wav] betwe5 languor & ennui1 betwe5 fritt]+ myself away on ! inf9itely little1 & long+ aft] :at is unkn[n & di/ant4 ,x is l ! situation :i* ,fr5* noveli/s are s fond (1 ! /ory ( a vie de prov9ce2 only ! prov9ce is all t is n ! c\ntry ( ! s\l1 e place :]e ! he>t feels itself /range1 dissatisfi$1 re/less & ?ir/y4 ,alas6 well und]/ood1 ?is place is ! e>?1 ?is c\ntry ( "o's dreams is heav51 & ?is suff]+ is ! et]nal homesickness1 ! ?ir/ = happ9ess4 8,9 d] ,bes*rnkung zeigt si* er/ d] ,mei/]10 says ,goe!4 ,mle rsignation1 ?is also is ! motto ( ^? :o are ma/]s ( ! art ( life2 8manly10 t is to say1 c\rage\s1 active1 resolute1 p]sev]+1 8resignation10 t is to say1 self-sacrifice1 r5unciation1 limitation4 ,en]gy 9 resignation1 !re lies ! wisdom ( ! sons ( e>?1 ! only s]5ity possible 9 ?is life ( /ruggle & ( combat4 ,9 x is ! peace ( m>tyrdom1 9 x too ! promise ( triumph4 ,april #bh1 #aheb4 7,lancy47 ,footnote3 ,a village ne> ,g5eva4--,once m ,i feel ! spr+ languor creep+ ov] me1 ! spr+ air ab\t me4 ,?is morn+ ! poetry ( ! sc5e1 ! song ( ! birds1 ! tranquil sunlight1 ! breeze bl[+ ov] ! fre% gre5 fields1 all rose into & fill$ my he>t4 ,n[ all is sil5t4 ,o sil5ce1 ?\ art t]rible6 t]rible z t calm ( ! ocean :i* lets ! eye p5etrate ! fa?omless abysses bel[4 ,?\ %[e/ u 9 ourselves dep?s :i* make u giddy1 inext+ui%able ne$s1 treasures ( suff]+4 ,welcome tempe/s6 at lea/ !y blur & tr\ble ! surface ( ^! wat]s ) _! t]rible secrets4 ,welcome ! passion bla/s :i* /ir ! w>es ( ! s\l1 & s veil f u its bottomless gulfs6 ,9 all ( u1 *ildr5 ( du/1 sons ( "t1 et]nity inspires an involunt>y angui%1 & ! inf9ite1 a my/]i\s t]ror4 ,we seem to be ent]+ a k+dom ( ! dead4 ,poor he>t1 ?y crav+ is = life1 = love1 = illusions6 ,& ?\ art "r aft] all1 = life is sacr$4 ,9 ^! mom5ts ( tte--tte ) ! inf9ite1 h[ diff]5t life looks6 ,h[ all t usually occupies & excites u becomes sudd5ly pu]ile1 frivol\s & va94 ,we seem to ourselves m]e puppets1 m>ionettes1 /rutt+ s]i\sly ?r\gh a fanta/ic %[1 & mi/ak+ gewgaws = ?+s ( great price4 ,at su* mom5ts1 h[ ev]y?+ becomes trans=m$1 h[ ev]y?+ *anges6 ,b]keley & ,fi*te seem "r1 ,em]son too2 ! _w is b an allegory2 ! idea is m real ?an ! fact2 fairy tales1 leg5ds1 are z true z natural hi/ory1 & ev5 m true1 = !y are emblems ( great] transp>5cy4 ,! only sub/ance prop]ly s call$ is ! s\l4 ,:at is all ! re/8 ,m]e %ad[1 pretext1 figure1 symbol1 or dream4 ,consci\sness alone is immortal1 positive1 p]fectly real4 ,! _w is b a firework1 a sublime phantasmagoria1 de/9$ to *e] & =m ! s\l4 ,consci\sness is a univ]se1 & its sun is love4444 ,already ,i am fall+ back into ! objective life ( ?\ght4 ,x deliv]s me f--%all ,i say8 no1 x deprives me ( ! intimate life ( feel+4 ,reflection solves rev]ie & burns h] delicate w+s4 ,?is is :y sci5ce does n make m51 b m]ely entities & ab/ractions4 ,ah1 let u feel & live & bew>e ( too mu* analysis6 ,let u put spontaneity1 navet1 be=e reflection1 exp]i5ce be=e /udy2 let u make life itself our /udy4 ,%all ,i !n nev] h ! he>t ( a woman to re/ ^u8 a son 9 :om to live aga91 a little _w :]e ,i may see fl[]+ & bloom+ all t is /ifl$ 9 me8 ,i %r9k & draw back1 = fe> ( break+ my dream4 ,i h /ak$ s mu* on ?is c>d t ,i d>e n play x4 ,let me dream aga94444 ,d no viol5ce to y\rself1 respect 9 y\rself ! oscillations ( feel+4 ,!y are y\r life & y\r nature2 ,"o wis] ?an y orda9$ !m4 ,d n ab&on y\rself altoge!r ei!r to in/9ct or to w4 ,in/9ct is a sir51 w a despot4 ,be nei!r ! slave ( y\r impulses & s5sations ( ! mom5t1 nor ( an ab/ract & g5]al plan2 be op5 to :at life br+s f )9 & )\t1 & welcome ! un=ese52 b give to y\r life unity1 & br+ ! un=ese5 )9 ! l9es ( y\r plan4 ,let :at is natural 9 y raise itself to ! level ( ! spiritual1 & let ! spiritual become once m natural4 ,?us w y\r developm5t be h>moni\s1 & ! peace ( heav5 w %9e ^u y\r br[2 always on condition t y\r peace is made1 & t y h climb$ y\r ,calv>y4 ,aft]noon--,%all ,i ev] enjoy aga9 ^? m>vel\s rev]ies ( pa/ days1 z1 = in/ance1 once1 :5 ,i 0 /ill q a y\?1 9 ! e>ly dawn1 sitt+ among ! ru9s ( ! ca/le ( ,faucigny2 ano!r "t 9 ! m\nta9s above ,lavey1 "u ! midday sun1 ly+ "u a tree & visit$ by ?ree butt]flies2 & aga9 ano!r night on ! s&y %ore ( ! ,nor? ,sea1 /ret*$ full l5g? ^u ! bea*1 my eyes w&]+ ov] ! ,milky ,way8 ,w !y ev] return to me1 ^? gr&iose1 immortal1 cosmogonic dreams1 9 :i* "o seems to c>ry ! _w 9 "o's brea/1 to t\* ! />s1 to possess ! inf9ite8 ,div9e mom5ts1 h\rs ( ec/asy1 :5 ?\ght flies f _w to _w1 p5etrates ! great enigma1 brea!s ) a respiration l>ge1 tranquil1 & pr(\nd1 l t ( ! ocean1 & hov]s s]5e & b\ndless l ! blue heav56 ,visits f ! muse1 ,urania1 :o traces ar\nd ! =eheads ( ^? %e loves ! phosphoresc5t nimbus ( contemplative p[]1 & :o p\rs into _! he>ts ! tranquil intoxication1 if n ! au?ority ( g5ius1 mom5ts ( irresi/ible intuition 9 :i* a man feels himself great l ! univ]se & calm l a god6 ,f ! cele/ial sph]es d[n to ! %ell or ! moss1 ! :ole ( creation is !n submitt$ to our gaze1 lives 9 our brea/1 & accompli%es 9 u its et]nal "w ) ! regul>ity ( de/9y & ! passionate ardor ( love4 ,:at h\rs1 :at memories6 ,! traces :i* rema9 to u ( !m are en\gh to fill u ) respect & en?usiasm1 z ?\gh !y _h be5 visits ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,& !n1 to fall back aga9 f ^! heights ) _! b\ndless horizons into ! muddy ruts ( triviality6 :at a fall6 ,poor ,moses6 ,?\ too sawe/ undulat+ 9 ! di/ance ! ravi%+ hills ( ! promis$ l&1 & x 0 ?y fate nev]!less to lay ?y we>y bones 9 a grave dug 9 ! des]t6 ,:i* ( u has n 8 promis$ l&1 8 day ( ec/asy & 8 dea? 9 exile8 ,:at a pale c\nt]feit is real life ( ! life we see 9 glimpses1 & h[ ^! flam+ lightn+s ( our prophetic y\? make ! twilight ( our dull monoton\s manhood m d>k & dre>y6 ,april #bi 7,lancy74--,?is morn+ ! air 0 calm1 ! sky slightly veil$4 ,i w5t out into ! g>d5 to see :at progress ! spr+ 0 mak+4 ,i /roll$ f ! irises to ! lilacs1 r\nd ! fl[]-b$s1 & 9 ! %rubb]ies4 ,delightful surprise6 at ! corn] ( ! walk1 half hidd5 "u a ?ick clump ( %rubs1 a small leav$ *or*orus _h fl[]$ dur+ ! night4 ,gay & fre% z a bun* ( bridal fl[]s1 ! little %rub glitt]$ be=e me 9 all ! attraction ( its op5+ beauty4 ,:at spr+like innoc5ce1 :at s(t & mode/ lovel9ess1 !re 0 9 ^! :ite corollas1 op5+ g5tly to ! sun1 l ?\ghts :i* smile ^u u at wak+1 & p]*$ ^u _! "y leaves ( virg9al gre5 l bees ^u ! w+6 ,"m ( m>vels1 my/]i\s & t5d] nature1 :y d we n live m 9 !e8 ,! poetical flneurs ( ,tpff]1 8 ,*>les & ,jules1 ! fri5ds & passionate lov]s ( ?y secret graces1 ! dazzl$ & ravi%$ behold]s ( ?y beauties1 rose up 9 my memory1 at once a reproa* & a lesson4 ,a mode/ g>d5 & a c\ntry rectory1 ! n>r[ horizon ( a g>ret1 conta9 = ^? :o "k h[ to look & to wait m in/ruction ?an a libr>y1 ev5 ?an t ( ,mon oncle4 ,footnote3 ,! allusions 9 ?is passage are to ,tpff]'s be/ kn[n books--8,la ,presbytre0 & 8,la ,biblio?que de mon ,oncle10 t airy *ronicle ( a hundr$ romantic or vivaci\s no?+s :i* has ! "y /ud5t ,jules = its c5t]4 ,yes1 we are too busy1 too encumb]$1 too mu* occupi$1 too active6 ,we read too mu*6 ,! "o ?+ ne$ful is to ?r[ (f all "o's load ( c>es1 ( preoccupations1 ( p$antry1 & to become aga9 "y1 simple1 *ild-l1 liv+ happily & gratefully 9 ! pres5t h\r4 ,we mu/ "k h[ to put occupation aside1 :i* does n mean t we mu/ be idle4 ,9 an inaction :i* is m$itative & att5tive ! wr9kles ( ! s\l are smoo!d away1 & ! s\l itself spreads1 unfolds1 & spr+s afre%1 &1 l ! trodd5 grass ( ! roadside or ! bruis$ leaf ( a plant1 repairs its injuries1 becomes new1 spontane\s1 true1 & orig9al4 ,rev]ie1 l ! ra9 ( night1 re/ores color & =ce to ?\ghts :i* h be5 blan*$ & we>i$ by ! heat ( ! day4 ,) g5tle f]tiliz+ p[] x awak5s )9 u a ?\s& sleep+ g]ms1 & z ?\gh 9 play1 ga!rs r\nd u mat]ials = ! future1 & images = ! use ( tal5t4 ,rev]ie is ! ,sunday ( ?\ght2 & :o kn[s :i* is ! m important & fruitful = man1 ! labori\s t5sion ( ! week1 or ! life-giv+ repose ( ! ,sabba?8 ,! fln]ie s exquisitely glorifi$ & sung by ,tpff] is n only delici\s1 b useful4 ,x is l a ba? :i* gives vigor & suppl5ess to ! :ole be+1 to ! m9d z to ! body2 x is ! sign & fe/ival ( lib]ty1 a joy\s & :olesome banquet1 ! banquet ( ! butt]fly w&]+ f fl[] to fl[] ov] ! hills & 9 ! fields4 ,& rememb]1 ! s\l too is a butt]fly4 ,may #b1 #aheb4 7,sunday7 ,lancy4--,?is morn+ read ! epi/le ( ,/4 ,james1 ! exegetical volume ( ,cellri] ,footnote3 ,jacob-lyse ,cellri]1 pr(essor ( !ology at ! ,academy ( ,g5eva1 & son ( ! pa/or ( ,satigny m5tion$ 9 ,madame de ,/al's 8,l',allemagne40 on ?is epi/le1 & a great deal ( ,pascal1 aft] hav+ fir/ ( all pass$ m ?an an h\r 9 ! g>d5 ) ! *ildr54 ,i made !m closely exam9e ! fl[]s1 ! %rubs1 ! gras%opp]s1 ! snails1 9 ord] to practice !m 9 obs]vation1 9 wond]1 9 k9dness4 ,h[ enorm\sly important are ^! fir/ conv]sations ( *ildhood6 ,i felt x ?is morn+ ) a sort ( religi\s t]ror4 ,innoc5ce & *ildhood are sacr$4 ,! s[] :o ca/s 9 ! se$1 ! fa!r or "m ca/+ 9 ! fruitful ^w are accompli%+ a pontifical act & ought to p]=m x ) religi\s awe1 ) pray] & gravity1 = !y are labor+ at ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,all se$-s[+ is a my/]i\s ?+1 :e!r ! se$ fall into ! e>? or into s\ls4 ,man is a husb&man2 8 :ole "w rightly und]/ood is to develop life1 to s[ x ev]y:]e4 ,su* is ! mission ( humanity1 & ( ?is div9e mission ! great in/rum5t is spee*4 ,we =get too (t5 t language is bo? a se$-s[+ & a revelation4 ,! influ5ce ( a ^w 9 season1 is x n incalculable8 ,:at a my/]y is spee*6 ,b we are bl9d to x1 because we are c>nal & e>?y4 ,we see ! /ones & ! trees by ! road1 ! furniture ( our h\ses1 all t is palpable & mat]ial4 ,we h no eyes = ! invisible phalanxes ( ideas :i* p ! air & hov] incessantly ar\nd ea* "o ( u4 ,e life is a pr(ession ( fai?1 & ex]cises an inevitable & sil5t propag&a4 ,z f> z lies 9 its p[]1 x t5ds to trans=m ! univ]se & humanity into its own image4 ,?us we h all a cure ( s\ls4 ,e man is ! c5t] ( p]petual radiation l a lum9\s body2 he is1 z x 71 a beacon :i* entices a %ip ^u ! rocks if x does n guide x into port4 ,e man is a prie/1 ev5 involunt>ily2 8 conduct is an unspok5 s]mon1 :i* is =ev] prea*+ to o!rs2 b !re are prie/s ( ,baal1 ( ,molo*1 & ( all ! false gods4 ,su* is ! high importance ( example4 ,!nce comes ! t]rible responsibility :i* weighs ^u u all4 ,an evil example is a spiritual poison3 x is ! proclamation ( a sacrilegi\s fai?1 ( an impure ,god4 ,s9 w\ld be only an evil = him :o commits x1 7 x n a crime t[>d ! weak bre?r51 :om x corrupts4 ,!re=e1 x has be5 said3 8,x 7 bett] = a man n to h be5 born ?an to (f5d "o ( ^! little ones40 ,may #f1 #aheb4--;,x is wom5 :o1 l m\nta9 fl[]s1 m>k ) mo/ *>act]i/ic precision ! gradation ( social zones4 ,! hi]>*y ( classes is pla9ly visible among !m2 x is blurr$ 9 ! o!r sex4 ,) wom5 ?is hi]>*y has ! av]age regul>ity ( nature2 among m5 we see x brok5 by ! incalculable v>ieties ( human fre$om4 ,! reason is t ! man on ! :ole1 makes himself by 8 own activity1 & t ! woman1 is1 on ! :ole1 made by h] situation2 t ! "o modifies & %apes circum/ance by 8 own en]gy1 :ile ! g5tl5ess ( ! o!r is dom9at$ by & reflects circum/ance2 s t woman1 s to speak1 incl9es to be species1 & man to be individual4 ,?us1 :i* is curi\s1 wom5 are at once ! sex :i* is mo/ con/ant & mo/ v>iable4 ,mo/ con/ant f ! moral po9t ( view1 mo/ v>iable f ! social4 ,a confrat]nity 9 ! fir/ case1 a hi]>*y 9 ! second4 ,all degrees ( culture & all conditions ( society are cle>ly m>k$ 9 _! outw>d appe>ance1 _! mann]s & _! ta/es2 b ! inw>d frat]nity is traceable 9 _! feel+s1 _! in/9cts1 & _! desires4 ,! fem99e sex repres5ts at ! same "t natural & hi/orical inequality2 x ma9ta9s ! unity ( ! species & m>ks (f ! categories ( society1 x br+s toge!r & divides1 x ga!rs & sep>ates1 x makes ca/es & breaks ?r\gh !m1 accord+ z x int]prets its tw(old rle 9 ! "o s5se or ! o!r4 ,at bottom1 woman's mission is ess5tially cons]vative1 b %e is a cons]vative )\t discrim9ation4 ,on ! "o side1 %e ma9ta9s ,god's "w 9 man1 all t is la/+1 noble1 & truly human1 9 ! race1 poetry1 religion1 virtue1 t5d]ness4 ,on ! o!r1 %e ma9ta9s ! results ( circum/ance1 all t is pass+1 local1 & artificial 9 society2 t is to say1 cu/oms1 absurdities1 prejudices1 littl5esses4 ,%e surr\nds ) ! same respectful & t5aci\s fai? ! s]i\s & ! frivol\s1 ! good & ! bad4 ,well1 :at !n8 ,isolate if y c1 ! fire f its smoke4 ,x is a div9e law t y are trac+1 & !re=e good4 ,! woman pres]ves2 %e is tradition z ! man is progress4 ,& if !re is no family & no humanity )\t ! two sexes1 )\t ^! two =ces !re is no hi/ory4 ,may #ad1 #aheb4 7,lancy47--,ye/]day ,i 0 full ( ! philosophy ( joy1 ( y\?1 ( ! spr+1 :i* smiles & ! roses :i* intoxicate2 ,i prea*$ ! doctr9e ( /r5g?1 & ,i =got t1 tri$ & afflict$ l ! two fri5ds ) :om ,i 0 walk+1 ,i %\ld probably h reason$ & felt z !y did4 ,our sy/ems1 x has be5 said1 are ! expression ( our "*1 or ! !ory ( our situation1 t is to say1 we l to ?9k ( :at has be5 giv5 z hav+ be5 acquir$1 we take our nature = our own "w1 & our lot 9 life = our own conque/1 an illusion born ( vanity & also ( ! crav+ = lib]ty4 ,we are unwill+ to be ! product ( circum/ances1 or ! m]e expansion ( an inn] g]m4 ,& yet we h receiv$ ev]y?+1 & ! "p :i* is really ours1 is small inde$1 = x is mo/ly made up ( negation1 resi/ance1 faults4 ,we receive ev]y?+1 bo? life & happ9ess2 b ! mann] 9 :i* we receive1 ?is is :at is /ill ours4 ,let u !n1 receive tru/fully )\t %ame or anxiety4 ,let u humbly accept f ,god ev5 our own nature1 & treat x *>itably1 firmly1 intellig5tly4 ,n t we are call$ ^u to accept ! evil & ! disease 9 u1 b let u accept ourselves 9 spite ( ! evil & ! disease4 ,& let u nev] be afraid ( innoc5t joy2 ,god is good1 & :at ,he does is well done2 resign y\rself to ev]y?+1 ev5 to happ9ess2 ask = ! _s ( sacrifice1 ( deta*m5t1 ( r5unciation1 & above all1 = ! _s ( joy & gratitude1 t g5u9e & religi\s optimism :i* sees 9 ,god a fa!r1 & asks no p>don = ,8 b5efits4 ,we mu/ d>e to be happy1 & d>e to confess x1 reg>d+ ourselves always z ! deposit>ies1 n z ! au?ors ( our own joy4 99 99 99 99 99 444 ,?is ev5+ ,i saw ! fir/ gl[-worm ( ! season 9 ! turf beside ! little w9d+ road :i* desc5ds f ,lancy t[>d ! t[n4 ,x 0 crawl+ furtively "u ! grass1 l a timid ?\ght or a dawn+ tal5t4 ,june #ag1 #aheb4--;,e despotism has a specially ke5 & ho/ile in/9ct = :atev] keeps up human dignity1 & indep5d5ce4 ,& x is curi\s to see sci5tific & reali/ tea*+ us$ ev]y:]e z a means ( /ifl+ all fre$om ( inve/igation z address$ to moral que/ions "u a dead weight ( facts4 ,mat]ialism is ! auxili>y doctr9e ( e tyranny1 :e!r ( ! "o or ( ! masses4 ,to cru% :at is spiritual1 moral1 human s to speak1 9 man1 by specializ+ him2 to =m m]e :eels ( ! great social ma*9e1 in/ead ( p]fect individuals2 to make society & n consci5ce ! c5t] ( life1 to enslave ! s\l to ?+s1 to de-p]sonalize man1 ?is is ! dom9ant drift ( our epo*4 ,ev]y:]e y may see a t5d5cy to sub/itute ! laws ( dead matt] 7numb]1 mass7 = ! laws ( ! moral nature 7p]suasion1 adhesion1 fai?7 equality1 ! pr9ciple ( m$iocrity1 becom+ a dogma2 unity aim$ at ?r\gh uni=mity2 numb]s do+ duty = argum5t2 negative lib]ty1 :i* has no law 9 itself1 & recognizes no limit except 9 =ce1 ev]y:]e tak+ ! place ( positive lib]ty1 :i* means action guid$ by an inn] law & curb$ by a moral au?ority4 ,socialism v]sus individualism3 ?is is h[ ,v9et put ! dilemma4 ,i %\ld say r t x is only ! et]nal antagonism betwe5 lett] & _s1 betwe5 =m & matt]1 betwe5 ! outw>d & ! inw>d1 appe>ance & reality1 :i* is always pres5t 9 e conception & 9 all ideas4 ,mat]ialism co>s5s & petrifies ev]y?+2 makes ev]y?+ vulg> & e tru? false4 ,& !re is a religi\s & political mat]ialism :i* spoils all t x t\*es1 lib]ty1 equality1 individuality4 ,s t !re are two ways ( und]/&+ democracy4444 ,:at is ?reat5$ to-day is moral lib]ty1 consci5ce1 respect = ! s\l1 ! v nobility ( man4 ,to def5d ! s\l1 its int]e/s1 its rights1 its dignity1 is ! mo/ press+ duty = :oev] sees ! dang]4 ,:at ! writ]1 ! tea*]1 ! pa/or1 ! philosoph]1 has to d1 is to def5d humanity 9 man4 ,man6 ! true man1 ! ideal man6 ,su* %\ld be _! motto1 _! rally+ cry4 ,w> to all t debases1 dim9i%es1 h9d]s1 & degrades him2 protection = all t =tifies1 ennobles1 & raises him4 ,! te/ ( e religi\s1 political1 or educational sy/em1 is ! man :i* x =ms4 ,if a sy/em injures ! intellig5ce x is bad4 ,if x injures ! "* x is vici\s4 ,if x injures ! consci5ce x is crim9al4 ,augu/ #ab1 #aheb4 7,lancy47--,ea* sph]e ( be+ t5ds t[>d a high] sph]e1 & has already revelations & pres5tim5ts ( x4 ,! ideal "u all its =ms is ! anticipation & ! prophetic vision ( t exi/5ce1 high] ?an 8 own1 t[>d :i* e be+ p]petually aspires4 ,& ?is high] & m dignifi$ exi/5ce is m inw>d 9 "*1 t is to say1 m spiritual4 ,j z volcanoes reveal to u ! secrets ( ! int]ior ( ! globe1 s en?usiasm & ec/asy are ! pass+ explosions ( ?is inn] _w ( ! s\l2 & human life is b ! prep>ation & ! means ( approa* to ?is spiritual life4 ,! degrees ( initiation are innum]able4 ,wat*1 !n1 disciple ( life1 wat* & labor t[>d ! developm5t ( ! angel )9 !e6 ,= ! div9e ,odyssey is b a s]ies ( m & m e!real metamorphoses1 9 :i* ea* =m1 ! result ( :at goes be=e1 is ! condition ( ^? :i* foll[4 ,! div9e life is a s]ies ( successive dea?s1 9 :i* ! m9d ?r[s (f its imp]fections & its symbols1 & yields to ! gr[+ attraction ( ! ineffable c5t] ( gravitation1 ! sun ( intellig5ce & love4 ,creat$ spirits 9 ! accompli%m5t ( _! de/9ies t5d1 s to speak1 to =m con/ellations & milky ways )9 ! empyrean ( ! div9ity2 9 becom+ gods1 !y surr\nd ! ?rone ( ! sov]eign ) a sp>kl+ c\rt4 ,9 _! greatness lies _! homage4 ,! div9ity ) :i* !y are inve/$ is ! noble/ glory ( ,god4 ,god is ! fa!r ( spirits1 & ! con/itution ( ! et]nal k+dom re/s on ! vassal%ip ( love4 ,septemb] #bg1 #aheb4 7,lancy47--,to-day ,i complete my ?irty-fir/ ye>4444 ,! mo/ beautiful poem !re is1 is life--life :i* disc]ns its own /ory 9 ! mak+1 9 :i* inspiration & self-consci\sness g toge!r & help ea* o!r1 life :i* kn[s itself to be ! _w 9 little1 a repetition 9 m9iature ( ! div9e univ]sal poem4 ,yes1 be man2 t is to say1 be nature1 be _s1 be ! image ( ,god1 be :at is greate/1 mo/ beautiful1 mo/ l(ty 9 all ! sph]es ( be+1 be inf9ite w & idea1 a reproduction ( ! great :ole4 ,& be ev]y?+ :ile be+ no?+1 effac+ ?yself1 lett+ ,god ent] into !e z ! air ent]s an empty space1 r$uc+ ! ego to ! m]e vessel :i* conta9s ! div9e ess5ce4 ,be humble1 dev\t1 sil5t1 t s ?\ maye/ he> )9 ! dep?s ( ?yself ! subtle & pr(\nd voice2 be spiritual & pure1 t s ?\ maye/ h communion ) ! pure _s4 ,)draw ?yself (t5 into ! sanctu>y ( ?y inmo/ consci\sness2 become once m po9t & atom1 t s ?\ maye/ free ?yself f space1 "t1 matt]1 temptation1 disp]sion1 t ?\ maye/ escape ?y v organs !mselves & ?9e own life4 ,t is to say1 die (t51 & exam9e ?yself 9 ! pres5ce ( ?is dea?1 z a prep>ation = ! la/ dea?4 ,he :o c )\t %udd]+ confront bl9dness1 deafness1 p>alysis1 disease1 betrayal1 pov]ty2 he :o c )\t t]ror appe> be=e ! sov]eign ju/ice1 he alone c call himself prep>$ = p>tial or total dea?4 ,h[ f> am ,i f any?+ ( ! sort1 h[ f> is my he>t f any su* /oicism6 ,b at lea/ we c try to deta* ourselves f all t c be tak5 away f u1 to accept ev]y?+ z a loan & a gift1 & to cl+ only to ! imp]i%able--?is at any rate we c attempt4 ,to believe 9 a good & fa!rly ,god1 :o educates u1 :o temp]s ! w9d to ! %orn lamb1 :o puni%es only :5 he mu/1 & takes away only ) regret2 ?is ?\ght1 or r ?is conviction1 gives c\rage & security4 ,oh1 :at ne$ we h ( love1 ( t5d]ness1 ( affection1 ( k9dness1 & h[ vuln]able we are1 we ! sons ( ,god1 we1 immortal & sov]eign be+s6 ,/rong z ! univ]se or feeble z ! worm1 accord+ z we repres5t ,god or only ourselves1 z we lean ^u inf9ite be+1 or z we /& alone4 ,! po9t ( view ( religion1 ( a religion at once active & moral1 spiritual & pr(\nd1 alone gives to life all ! dignity & all ! en]gy ( :i* x is capable4 ,religion makes invuln]able & inv9cible4 ,e>? c only be conqu]$ 9 ! "n ( heav54 ,all good ?+s are giv5 ov] & above to him :o desires b righte\sness4 ,to be dis9t]e/$ is to be /rong1 & ! _w is at ! feet ( him :om x _c tempt4 ,:y8 ,because _s is "l ( matt]1 & ! _w belongs to ,god4 8,be ( good *e]10 sai? a heav5ly voice1 8,i h ov]come ! _w40 ,"l1 l5d ?y /r5g? to ^? :o are weak 9 ! fle%1 b will+ 9 ! _s6 ,octob] #ca1 #aheb4 7,lancy47--,walk$ = half an h\r 9 ! g>d54 ,a f9e ra9 0 fall+1 & ! l&scape 0 t ( autumn4 ,! sky 0 hung ) v>i\s %ades ( gray1 & mi/s hov]$ ab\t ! di/ant m\nta9s1 a melan*oly nature4 ,! leaves 7 fall+ on all sides l ! la/ illusions ( y\? "u ! te>s ( irrem$iable grief4 ,a brood ( *att]+ birds 7 *as+ ea* o!r ?r\gh ! ,%rubb]ies1 & play+ games among ! bran*es1 l a knot ( hid+ s*oolboys4 ,! gr\nd /rewn ) leaves1 br[n1 yell[1 & r$di%2 ! trees half-/ripp$1 "s m1 "s less1 & deck$ 9 ragg$ spl5dors ( d>k-r$1 sc>let1 & yell[2 ! r$d5+ %rubs & plantations2 a few fl[]s /ill l+]+ beh9d1 roses1 na/urtiums1 dahlias1 %$d+ _! petals r\nd !m2 ! b>e fields1 ! ?9n$ h$ges2 & ! fir1 ! only gre5 ?+ left1 vigor\s & /oical1 l et]nal y\? brav+ decay2 all ^! innum]able & m>vel\s symbols :i* =ms colors1 plants1 & liv+ be+s1 ! e>? & ! sky1 yield at all times to ! eye :i* has le>n$ to look = !m1 *>m$ & en?rall$ me4 ,i wield$ a poetic w&1 & _h b to t\* a ph5om5on to make x r5d] up to me its moral significance4 ,e l&scape is1 z x 71 a /ate ( ! s\l1 & :oev] p5etrates into bo? is a/oni%$ to f9d h[ mu* lik5ess !re is 9 ea* detail4 ,true poetry is tru] ?an sci5ce1 because x is syn!tic1 & seizes at once :at ! comb9ation ( all ! sci5ces is able at mo/ to atta9 z a f9al result4 ,! s\l ( nature is div9$ by ! poet2 ! man ( sci5ce1 only s]ves to accumulate mat]ials = its demon/ration4 ,novemb] #f1 #aheb4--;,i am capable ( all ! passions1 = ,i be> !m all )9 me4 ,l a tam] ( wild bea/s1 ,i keep !m cag$ & lasso$1 b ,i sometimes he> !m gr[l+4 ,i h /ifl$ m ?an "o nasc5t love4 ,:y8 ,because ) t prophetic c]ta9ty :i* belongs to moral intuition1 ,i felt x lack+ 9 true life1 & less durable ?an myself4 ,i *ok$ x d[n 9 ! "n ( ! supreme affection to come4 ,! loves ( s5se1 ( imag9ation1 ( s5tim5t1 ,i h se5 ?r\gh & reject$ !m all2 ,i s\ght ! love :i* spr+s f ! c5tral pr(undities ( be+4 ,& ,i /ill believe 9 x4 ,i w h none ( ^? passions ( /raw :i* dazzle1 burn up1 & )]2 ,i invoke1 ,i await1 & ,i hope = ! love :i* is great1 pure & e>ne/1 :i* lives & works 9 all ! fibres & ?r\gh all ! p[]s ( ! s\l4 ,& ev5 if ,i g lonely to ! end1 ,i w\ld r my hope & my dream di$ ) me1 ?an t my s\l %\ld cont5t itself ) any mean] union4 ,novemb] #h1 #aheb4--,responsibility is my invisible nightm>e4 ,to suff] ?r\gh "o's own fault is a torm5t wor?y ( ! lo/1 = s grief is env5om$ by ridicule1 & ! wor/ ridicule ( all1 t :i* spr+s f %ame ( "o's self4 ,i h only =ce & en]gy :]e) to meet evils com+ f outside2 b an irrep>able evil br\ght ab\t by myself1 a r5unciation = life ( my lib]ty1 my peace ( m9d1 ! v ?\ght ( x is madd5+--,i expiate my privilege inde$4 ,my privilege is to be spectator ( my life drama1 to be fully consci\s ( ! tragi-com$y ( my own de/9y1 &1 m ?an t1 to be 9 ! secret ( ! tragi-comic itself1 t is to say1 to be unable to take my illusions s]i\sly1 to see myself1 s to speak1 f ! !at] on ! /age1 or to be l a man look+ f beyond ! tomb into exi/5ce4 ,i feel myself =c$ to feign a p>ticul> int]e/ 9 my individual "p1 :ile all ! "t ,i am liv+ 9 ! confid5ce ( ! poet :o is play+ ) all ^! ag5ts :i* seem s important1 & kn[s all t !y are ignorant (4 ,x is a /range position1 & "o :i* becomes pa9ful z soon z grief obliges me to betake myself once m to my own little rle1 b9d+ me closely to x1 & w>n+ me t ,i am go+ too f> 9 imag9+ myself1 because ( my conv]sations ) ! poet1 disp5s$ f tak+ up aga9 my mode/ "p ( valet 9 ! piece4 ,%akespe>e mu/ h exp]i5c$ ?is feel+ (t51 & ,hamlet1 ,i ?9k1 mu/ express x some:]e4 ,x is a ,doppelgng]ei1 q ,g]man 9 "*1 & :i* expla9s ! disgu/ ) reality & ! repugnance to public life1 s common among ! ?9k]s ( ,g]many4 ,!re is1 z x 71 a degradation a gno/ic fall1 9 ?us fold+ "o's w+s & go+ back aga9 into ! vulg> %ell ( "o's own individuality4 ,)\t grief1 :i* is ! /r+ ( ?is v5turesome kite1 man w\ld so> too quickly & too high1 & ! *os5 s\ls w\ld be lo/ = ! race1 l balloons :i*1 save = gravitation1 w\ld nev] return f ! empyrean4 ,h[1 !n1 is "o to recov] c\rage en\gh = action8 ,by /riv+ to re/ore 9 "o's self some?+ ( t unconsci\sness1 spontaneity1 in/9ct1 :i* reconciles u to e>? & makes man useful & relatively happy4 ,by believ+ m practically 9 ! provid5ce :i* p>dons & all[s ( rep>ation4 ,by accept+ our human condition 9 a m simple & *ildlike _s1 fe>+ tr\ble less1 calculat+ less1 hop+ m4 ,= we decrease our responsibility1 if we decrease our cle>ness ( vision1 & fe> less5s ) ! less5+ ( responsibility4 ,by extract+ a ri*] exp]i5ce out ( our losses & lessons4 ,novemb] #i1 #aheb4--;,a few pages ( ! ,*re/oma?ie ,franaise & ,v9et's rem>kable lett] at ! head ( ! volume1 h giv5 me "o or two delightful h\rs4 ,z a ?9k]1 z a ,*ri/ian1 & z a man1 ,v9et occupies a typical place4 ,8 philosophy1 8 !ology1 8 e/hetics1 9 %ort1 8 "w1 w be1 or has be5 already surpass$ at all po9ts4 ,8 0 a great s\l & a f9e tal5t4 ,b nei!r 7 well en\gh s]v$ by circum/ances4 ,we see 9 him a p]sonality wor?y ( all v5]ation1 a man ( s+ul> goodness & a writ] ( di/9ction1 b n q a great man1 nor yet a great writ]4 ,pr(undity & purity1 ^! are :at he possesses 9 a high degree1 b n greatness1 prop]ly speak+4 ,= t1 he is a little too subtle & analytical1 too +5i\s & f9e-spun2 8 ?\ght is ov]lad5 ) detail1 & has n en\gh fl[1 eloqu5ce1 imag9ation1 w>m?1 & l>g5ess4 ,ess5tially & con/antly m$itative1 he has n /r5g? en\gh left to deal ) :at is outside him4 ,! casui/ries ( consci5ce & ( language1 et]nal self-suspicion1 & self-exam9ation1 8 tal5t lies 9 ^! ?+s1 & is limit$ by !m4 ,v9et wants passion1 abundance1 entranem5t1 & !re=e popul>ity4 ,! individualism :i* is 8 title to glory is also ! cause ( 8 weakness4 ,we f9d 9 him always ! solit>y & ! ascetic4 ,8 ?\ght is1 z x 71 p]petually at *ur*2 x is p]petually devis+ trials & p5ances = itself4 ,h5ce ! air ( scruple & anxiety :i* *>act]izes x ev5 9 its bold] flights4 ,moral en]gy1 balanc$ by a disquiet+ delicacy ( fibre2 a f9e organization m>r$1 s to speak1 by l[ heal?1 su* is ! impression x makes ^u u4 ,is x reproa* or praise to say ( ,v9et's m9d t x seems to "o a =ce p]petually react+ ^u itself8 ,a w>m] & m self-=getful mann]2 m muscles1 z x 71 ar\nd ! n]ves1 m circles ( intellectual & hi/orical life ar\nd ! individual circle1 ^! are :at ,v9et1 ( all writ]s p]haps ! "o :o makes u ?9k mo/1 is /ill lack+ 94 ,less reflexivity & m pla/icity1 ! eye m on ! object1 w\ld raise ! /yle ( ,v9et1 s ri* 9 sub/ance1 s n]v\s1 s full ( ideas1 & v>iety1 into a gr& /yle4 ,v9et1 to sum up1 is consci5ce p]sonifi$1 z man & z writ]4 ,happy ! lit]ature & ! society :i* is able to c\nt at "o "t two or ?ree l him1 if n equal to him6 ,novemb] #aj1 #aheb4--;,h[ mu* h we n to le>n f ! ,greeks1 ^? immortal ance/ors ( ours6 ,& h[ mu* bett] !y solv$ _! problem ?an we h solv$ ours4 ,_! ideal man is n ours1 b !y und]/ood inf9itely bett] ?an we h[ to rev]5ce1 cultivate & ennoble ! man :om !y knew4 ,9 a ?\s& respects we are /ill b>b>ians beside !m1 z ,brang] said to me ) a sigh 9 #ahdc3 b>b>ians 9 education1 9 eloqu5ce1 9 public life1 9 poetry1 9 matt]s ( art1 etc4 ,we mu/ h millions ( m5 9 ord] to produce a few elect spirits3 a ?\s& 0 en\gh 9 ,greece4 ,if ! measure ( a civilization is to be ! numb] ( p]fect$ m5 t x produces1 we are /ill f> f ?is model p4 ,! slaves are no long] bel[ u1 b !y are among u4 ,b>b>ism is no long] at our fronti]s2 x lives side by side ) u4 ,we c>ry )9 u mu* great] ?+s ?an !y1 b we ourselves are small]4 ,x is a /range result4 ,objective civilization produc$ great m5 :ile mak+ no consci\s ef=t t[>d su* a result2 subjective civilization produces a mis]able & imp]fect race1 contr>y to its mission & its e>ne/ desire4 ,! _w gr[s m maje/ic b man dim9i%es4 ,:y is ?is8 ,we h too mu* b>b>ian blood 9 our ve9s1 & we lack measure1 h>mony & grace4 ,*ri/ianity1 9 break+ man up into out] & inn]1 ! _w into e>? & heav51 hell & p>adise1 has decompos$ ! human unity1 9 ord]1 x is true1 to recon/ruct x m pr(\ndly & m truly4 ,b ,*ri/ianity has n yet dige/$ ?is p[]ful leav54 ,%e has n yet conqu]$ ! true humanity2 %e is /ill liv+ "u ! antimony ( s9 & grace1 ( "h bel[ & !re above4 ,%e has n p5etrat$ into ! :ole he>t ( ,jesus4 ,%e is /ill 9 ! n>!x ( p5it5ce2 %e is n reconcil$1 & ev5 ! *ur*es /ill we> ! liv]y ( s]vice1 & h none ( ! joy ( ! daught]s ( ,god1 baptiz$ ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,!n1 aga91 !re is our excessive division ( labor2 our bad & fooli% education :i* does n develop ! :ole man2 & ! problem ( pov]ty4 ,we h aboli%$ slav]y1 b )\t hav+ solv$ ! "q ( labor4 ,9 law !re are no m slaves1 9 fact1 !re are _m4 ,& :ile ! majority ( m5 are n free1 ! free man1 9 ! true s5se ( ! t]m c nei!r be conceiv$ nor realiz$4 ,"h are en\gh causes = our inf]iority4 ,novemb] #ab1 #aheb4--,/4 ,m>t9's summ] is /ill l+]+1 & ! days all beg9 9 mi/4 ,i ran = a qu>t] ( an h\r r\nd ! g>d5 to get "s w>m? & suppl5ess4 ,no?+ c\ld be loveli] ?an ! la/ rosebuds1 or ?an ! delicate gaufr$ edges ( ! /rawb]ry leaves embroid]$ ) ho>-fro/1 :ile above !m ,ara*ne's delicate webs hung sway+ 9 ! gre5 bran*es ( ! p9es1 little ball-rooms = ! fairies c>pet$ ) p[d]$ pe>ls & kept 9 place by a ?\s& dewy /r&s hang+ f above l ! *a9s ( a lamp & support+ !m f bel[ l ! an*ors ( a vessel4 ,^! little airy edifices _h all ! fanta/ic lightness ( ! elf-_w & all ! vapor\s fre%ness ( dawn4 ,!y recall$ to me ! poetry ( ! nor?1 waft+ to me a brea? f ,cal$onia or ,icel& or ,sw$51 ,fri?i( & ! ,edda1 ,ossian & ! ,hebrides4 ,all t _w ( cold & mi/1 ( g5ius & ( rev]ie1 :]e w>m? comes n f ! sun b f ! he>t :]e man is m noticeable ?an nature--t *a/e & vigor\s _w 9 :i* w plays a great] "p ?an s5sation & ?\ght has m p[] ?an in/9ct--9 %ort ! :ole romantic cycle ( ,g]man & nor!rn poetry1 awoke little by little 9 my memory & laid claim ^u my sympa?y4 ,x is a poetry ( brac+ quality1 & acts ^u "o l a moral tonic4 ,/range *>m ( imag9ation6 ,a twig ( p9e wood & a few spid]-webs are en\gh to make c\ntries1 epo*s1 & nations live aga9 be=e h]4 ,decemb] #bf1 #aheb4 7,sunday47--,if ,i reject _m portions ( our !ology & ( our *ur* sy/em1 x is t ,i may ! bett] rea* ! ,*ri/ himself4 ,my philosophy all[s me ?is4 ,x does n /ate ! dilemma z "o ( religion or philosophy1 b z "o ( religion accept$ or exp]i5c$1 und]/ood or n und]/ood4 ,= me philosophy is a mann] ( appreh5d+ ?+s1 a mode ( p]ception ( reality4 ,x does n create nature1 man or ,god1 b x f9ds !m & seeks to und]/& !m4 ,philosophy is consci\sness tak+ acc\nt ( itself ) all t x conta9s4 ,n[ consci\sness may conta9 a new life--! facts ( reg5]ation & ( salvation1 t is to say1 ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce4 ,! und]/&+ ( ! ,*ri/ian consci\sness is an integral "p ( philosophy1 z ! ,*ri/ian consci\sness is a lead+ =m ( religi\s consci\sness1 & religi\s consci\sness an ess5tial =m ( consci\sness4 99 99 99 99 99 ,an error is ! m dang]\s 9 proportion to ! degree ( tru? :i* x conta9s4 ,look twice1 if :at y want is a j conception2 look once1 if :at y want is a s5se ( beauty4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a man only und]/&s :at is ak9 to some?+ already exi/+ 9 himself4 99 99 99 99 99 ,common s5se is ! measure ( ! possible2 x is compos$ ( exp]i5ce & prevision2 x is calculation appli$ to life4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! weal? ( ea* m9d is proportion$ to ! numb] & to ! precision ( its categories & its po9ts ( view4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to feel himself fre] ?an 8 neighbor is ! rew>d ( ! critic4 ,mode/y 7pudeur7 is always ! sign & safegu>d ( a my/]y4 ,x is expla9$ by its contr>y--pr(anation4 ,%yness or mode/y is1 9 tru?1 ! half-consci\s s5se ( a secret ( nature or ( ! s\l too intimately individual to be giv5 or surr5d]$4 ,x is ex*ang$4 ,to surr5d] :at is mo/ pr(\nd & my/]i\s 9 "o's be+ & p]sonality at any price less ?an t ( absolute reciprocity is pr(anation4 ,janu>y #f1 #ahec4--,self-gov]nm5t ) t5d]ness--"h y h ! condition ( all au?ority ov] *ildr54 ,! *ild mu/ discov] 9 u no passion1 no weakness ( :i* he c make use2 he mu/ feel himself p[]less to deceive or to tr\ble u2 !n he w recognize 9 u 8 natural sup]iors1 & he w atta* a special value to our k9dness1 because he w respect x4 ,! *ild :o c r\se 9 u ang]1 or impati5ce1 or excitem5t1 feels himself /rong] ?an we1 & a *ild only respects /r5g?4 ,! "m %\ld consid] h]self z h] *ild's sun1 a *angeless & ev] radiant _w1 :i!r ! small re/less creature1 quick at te>s & laught]1 light1 fickle1 passionate1 full ( /orms1 may come = fre% /ores ( light1 w>m?1 & electricity1 ( calm & ( c\rage4 ,! "m repres5ts goodness1 provid5ce1 law2 t is to say1 ! div9ity1 "u t =m ( x :i* is accessible to *ildhood4 ,if %e is h]self passionate1 %e w inculcate on h] *ild a caprici\s & despotic ,god1 or ev5 sev]al discordant gods4 ,! religion ( a *ild dep5ds on :at its "m & its fa!r are1 & n on :at !y say4 ,! inn] & unconsci\s ideal :i* guides _! life is precisely :at t\*es ! *ild2 _! words1 _! remon/rances1 _! puni%m5ts1 _! bur/s ( feel+ ev51 are = him m]ely ?und] & com$y2 :at !y wor%ip1 ?is x is :i* 8 in/9ct div9es & reflects4 ,! *ild sees :at we are1 beh9d :at we wi% to be4 ,h5ce 8 reputation z a physiognomi/4 ,he ext5ds 8 p[] z f> z he c ) ea* ( u2 he is ! mo/ subtle ( diplomati/s4 ,unconsci\sly he passes "u ! influ5ce ( ea* p]son ab\t him1 & reflects x :ile trans=m+ x aft] 8 own nature4 ,he is a magnify+ mirror4 ,?is is :y ! fir/ pr9ciple ( education is3 tra9 y\rself2 & ! fir/ rule to foll[ if y wi% to possess y\rself ( a *ild's w is3 ma/] y\r own4 ,febru>y #e1 #ahec 7sev5 o'clock 9 ! morn+74--,i am always a/oni%$ at ! diff]5ce betwe5 "o's inw>d mood ( ! ev5+ & t ( ! morn+4 ,! passions :i* are dom9ant 9 ! ev5+1 9 ! morn+ leave ! field free = ! contemplative "p ( ! s\l4 ,our :ole be+1 irritat$ & ov]/rung by ! n]v\s excitem5t ( ! day1 arrives 9 ! ev5+ at ! culm9at+ po9t ( its human vitality2 ! same be+1 tranquiliz$ by ! calm ( sleep1 is 9 ! morn+ ne>] heav54 ,we %\ld weigh a resolution 9 ! two balances1 & exam9e an idea "u ! two lights1 if we wi% to m9imize ! *ances ( error by tak+ ! av]age ( our daily oscillations4 ,our inn] life describes regul> curves1 b>ometical curves1 z x 71 indep5d5t ( ! accid5tal di/urbances :i* ! /orms ( s5tim5t & passion may raise 9 u4 ,e s\l has its climate1 or r1 is a climate2 x has1 s to speak1 its own meteorology 9 ! g5]al meteorology ( ! s\l4 ,psy*ology1 !re=e1 _c be complete s long z ! physiology ( our planet is itself incomplete--t sci5ce to :i* we give n[adays ! insuffici5t "n ( physics ( ! globe4 ,i became consci\s ?is morn+ t :at appe>s to u impossible is (t5 an impossibility altoge!r subjective4 ,our m9d1 "u ! action ( ! passions1 produces by a /range mirage gigantic ob/acles1 m\nta9s or abysses1 :i* /op u %ort4 ,brea! ^u ! passion & ! phantasmagoria w vani%4 ,?is p[] ( mirage1 by :i* we are able to delude & fasc9ate ourselves1 is a moral ph5om5on wor?y ( att5tive /udy4 ,we make = ourselves1 9 tru?1 our own spiritual _w mon/]s1 *im]as1 angels1 we make objective :at f]m5ts 9 u4 ,all is m>vel\s = ! poet2 all is div9e = ! sa9t2 all is great = ! h]o2 all is wret*$1 mis]able1 ugly1 & bad = ! base & sordid s\l4 ,! bad man creates ar\nd him a p&emonium1 ! arti/1 an ,olympus1 ! elect s\l1 a p>adise1 :i* ea* ( !m sees = himself alone4 ,we are all vision>ies1 & :at we see is our s\l 9 ?+s4 ,we rew>d ourselves & puni% ourselves )\t kn[+ x1 s t all appe>s to *ange :5 we *ange4 ,! s\l is ess5tially active1 & ! activity ( :i* we are consci\s is b a "p ( our activity1 & volunt>y activity is b a "p ( our consci\s activity4 ,"h we h ! basis ( a :ole psy*ology & sy/em ( morals4 ,man reproduc+ ! _w1 surr\nd+ himself ) a nature :i* is ! objective r5d]+ ( 8 spiritual nature1 rew>d+ & puni%+ himself2 ! univ]se id5tical ) ! div9e nature1 & ! nature ( ! p]fect _s only becom+ und]/ood accord+ to ! measure ( our p]fection2 intuition ! recomp5se ( inw>d purity2 sci5ce z ! result ( goodness2 9 %ort1 a new ph5om5ology m complete & m moral1 9 :i* ! total s\l ( ?+s becomes _s4 ,?is %all p]haps be my subject = my summ] lectures4 ,h[ mu* is conta9$ 9 x6 ! :ole doma9 ( inn] education1 all t is my/]i\s 9 our life1 ! relation ( nature to _s1 ( ,god & all o!r be+s to man1 ! repetition 9 m9iature ( ! cosmogony1 my?ology1 !ology1 & hi/ory ( ! univ]se1 ! evolution ( m9d1 9 a ^w ! problem ( problems into :i* ,i h (t5 plung$ b f :i* f9ite ?+s1 details1 m9utiae1 h turn$ me back a ?\s& times4 ,i return to ! br9k ( ! great abyss ) ! cle> p]ception t "h lies ! problem ( sci5ce1 t to s\nd x is a duty1 t ,god hides ,himself only 9 light & love1 t ,he calls ^u u to become spirits1 to possess ourselves & to possess ,him 9 ! measure ( our /r5g? & t x is our incr$ulity1 our spiritual c[>dice1 :i* is our infirmity & weakness4 ,dante1 gaz+ into ! ?ree worlds ) _! div]s heav5s1 saw "u ! =m ( an image :at ,i w\ld fa9 seize "u a pur] =m4 ,b he 0 a poet1 & ,i %all only be a philosoph]4 ,! poet makes himself und]/ood by human g5]ations & by ! cr[d2 ! philosoph] addresses himself only to a few r>e m9ds4 ,! day has brok54 ,x br+s ) x disp]sion ( ?\ght 9 action4 ,i feel myself de-magnetiz$1 pure clairvoyance gives place to /udy1 & ! e!real dep? ( ! heav5 ( contemplation vani%es be=e ! glitt] ( f9ite ?+s4 ,is x to be regrett$8 ,no4 ,b x proves t ! h\rs mo/ apt = philosophical ?\ght are ^? :i* prec$e ! dawn4 ,febru>y #aj1 #ahec4--,?is aft]noon ,i made an excursion to ! ,salve ) my p>ticul> fri5ds1 ,*>les ,heim1 ,edmond ,s*]]1 lie ,lec\ltre1 & ,erne/ ,naville4 ,! conv]sation 0 ( ! mo/ int]e/+ k9d1 & prev5t$ u f notic+ ! deep mud :i* h9d]$ our walk+4 ,x 0 especially ,s*]]1 ,naville1 & ,i :o kept x alive4 ,lib]ty 9 ,god1 ! ess5ce ( ,*ri/ianity1 new publications 9 philosophy1 ^! 7 our ?ree subjects ( conv]sation4 ,! pr9ciple result = me 0 an excell5t ex]cise 9 dialectic & 9 argum5tation ) solid *ampions4 ,if ,i le>n$ no?+1 _m ( my ideas ga9$ new confirmation1 & ,i 0 able to p5etrate m deeply into ! m9ds ( my fri5ds4 ,i am mu* ne>] to ,s*]] ?an to ,naville1 b f him also ,i am 9 "s degree sep>at$4 ,x is a /rik+ fact1 n unlike ! *ang+ ( swords 9 8,hamlet10 t ! ab/ract m9ds1 ^? :i* move f ideas to facts1 are always fight+ on behalf ( concrete reality2 :ile ! concrete m9ds1 :i* move f facts to ideas1 are g5]ally ! *ampions ( ab/ract notions4 ,ea* pret5ds to t ov] :i* he has lea/ p[]2 ea* aims in/9ctively at :at he himself lacks4 ,x is an unconsci\s prote/ aga9/ ! incomplet5ess ( ea* sep>ate nature4 ,we all t5d t[>d t :i* we possess lea/ (1 & our po9t ( arrival is ess5tially diff]5t f our po9t ( dep>ture4 ,! promis$ l& is ! l& :]e "o is n4 ,! mo/ intellectual ( natures adopts an e?ical !ory ( m9d2 ! mo/ moral ( natures has an intellectual !ory ( morals4 ,?is reflection 0 br\ght home to me 9 ! c\rse ( our ?ree or f\r h\rs' discussion4 ,no?+ is m hidd5 f u ?an ! illusion :i* lives ) u day by day1 & our greate/ illusion is to believe t we are :at we ?9k ourselves to be4 ,! ma!matical intellig5ce & ! hi/orical intellig5ce 7! two classes ( intellig5ces7 c nev] und]/& ea* o!r4 ,:5 !y succe$ 9 do+ s z to words1 !y diff] z to ! ?+s :i* ! words mean4 ,at ! bottom ( e discussion ( detail betwe5 !m reappe>s ! problem ( ! orig9 ( ideas4 ,if ! problem is n pres5t to !m1 !re is confusion2 if x is pres5t to !m1 !re is sep>ation4 ,!y only agree z to ! goal--tru?2 b nev] z to ! road1 ! me?od1 & ! crit]ion4 ,heim repres5t$ ! imp>tiality ( consci\sness1 ,naville ! morality ( consci\sness1 ,lec\ltre ! religion ( consci\sness1 ,s*]] ! intellig5ce ( consci\sness1 & ,i ! consci\sness ( consci\sness4 ,a common gr\nd1 b diff]+ individualities4 ,discrim5 +5iorum4 ,:at *>m$ me mo/ 9 ?is long discussion 0 ! s5se ( m5tal fre$om :i* x awak5$ 9 me4 ,to be able to set 9 motion ! greate/ subjects ( ?\ght )\t any s5se ( fatigue1 to be great] ?an ! _w1 to play ) "o's /r5g?1 ?is is :at makes ! well-be+ ( intellig5ce1 ! ,olympic fe/ival ( ?\ght4 ,hab]e1 non hab]i4 ,!re is an equal happ9ess 9 ! s5se ( reciprocal confid5ce1 ( fri5d%ip1 & e/eem 9 ! mid/ ( conflict2 l a?letes1 we embrace ea* o!r be=e & aft] ! combat1 & ! combat is b a deploy+ ( ! =ces ( free & equal m54 ,m>* #bj1 #ahec4--;,i sat up alone2 two or ?ree times ,i paid a visit to ! *ildr5's room4 ,x seem$ to me1 "y mo!rs1 t ,i und]/ood y6 sleep is ! my/]y ( life2 !re is a pr(\nd *>m 9 ?is d>kness brok5 by ! tranquil light ( ! night-lamp1 & 9 ?is sil5ce measur$ by ! rhy?mic brea?+s ( two "y sleep+ creatures4 ,x 0 br\ght home to me t ,i 0 look+ on at a m>vel\s op]ation ( nature1 & ,i wat*$ x 9 no pr(ane _s4 ,i sat sil5tly li/5+1 a mov$ & hu%$ spectator ( ?is poetry ( ! cradle1 ?is anci5t & ev] new b5$iction ( ! family1 ?is symbol ( creation1 sleep+ "u ! w+ ( ,god1 ( our consci\sness )draw+ into ! %ade t x may re/ f ! burd5 ( ?\ght1 & ( ! tomb1 t div9e b$1 :]e ! s\l 9 its turn re/s f life4 ,to sleep is to /ra9 & purify our emotions1 to deposit ! mud ( life1 to calm ! fev] ( ! s\l1 to return into ! bosom ( mat]nal nature1 !nce to re-issue1 heal$ & /rong4 ,sleep is a sort ( innoc5ce & purification4 ,bless$ be ,he :o gave x to ! poor sons ( m5 z ! sure & fai?ful companion ( life1 our daily heal] & consol]4 ,april #bg1 #ahec4--,?is ev5+ ,i read ! treatise by ,nicole s mu* admir$ by ,mme4 de ,svign3 8,des moy5s de cons]v] la paix avec les hommes40 ,wisdom s g5tle & s ins9uat+1 s %rewd1 pi]c+1 & yet humble1 :i* div9es s well ! hidd5 ?\ghts & secrets ( ! he>t1 & br+s !m all into ! sacr$ bondage ( love to ,god & man1 h[ good & delightful a ?+ x is6 ,ev]y?+ 9 x is smoo?1 ev5 well put toge!r1 well ?\ght out1 b no display1 no t9sel1 no worldly ornam5ts ( /yle4 ,! morali/ =gets himself & 9 u appeals only to ! consci5ce4 ,he becomes a confessor1 a fri5d1 a c\nsellor4 ,may #aa1 #ahec4--,psy*ology1 poetry1 philosophy1 hi/ory1 & sci5ce1 ,i h swept rapidly to-day on ! w+s ( ! invisible hippogriff ?r\gh all ^! sph]es ( ?\ght4 ,b ! g5]al impression has be5 "o ( tumult & angui%1 temptation & disquiet4 ,i love to plunge deep into ! ocean ( life2 b x is n )\t los+ sometimes all s5se ( ! axis & ! pole1 )\t los+ myself & feel+ ! consci\sness ( my own nature & vocation gr[+ fa9t & wav]+4 ,! :irlw9d ( ! w&]+ ,jew c>ries me away1 te>s me f my little famili> enclosure1 & makes me behold all ! empires ( m54 ,9 my volunt>y ab&onm5t to ! g5]ality1 ! univ]sal1 ! inf9ite1 my p>ticul> ego evaporates l a drop ( wat] 9 a furnace2 x only cond5ses itself anew at ! return ( cold1 aft] en?usiasm has di$ out & ! s5se ( reality has return$4 ,alt]nate expansion & cond5sation1 ab&onm5t & recov]y ( self1 ! conque/ ( ! _w to be pursu$ on ! "o side1 ! deep5+ ( consci\sness on ! o!r--su* is ! play ( ! inn] life1 ! m>* ( ! microcosmic m9d1 ! m>riage ( ! individual s\l ) ! univ]sal s\l1 ! f9ite ) ! inf9ite1 :5ce spr+s ! intellectual progress ( man4 ,o!r betro?als unite ! s\l to ,god1 ! religi\s consci\sness ) ! div9e2 ^! belong to ! hi/ory ( ! w4 ,& :at prec$es w is feel+1 prec$$ itself by in/9ct4 ,man is only :at he becomes--pr(\nd tru?2 b he becomes only :at he is1 tru? /ill m pr(\nd4 ,:at am ,i8 ,t]rible "q6 ,problem ( pr$e/9ation1 ( bir?1 ( lib]ty1 !re lies ! abyss4 ,& yet "o mu/ plunge into x1 & ,i h done s4 ,! prelude ( ,ba* ,i he>d ?is ev5+ pr$ispos$ me to x2 x pa9ts ! s\l torm5t$ & appeal+ & f9ally seiz+ ^u ,god1 & possess+ itself ( peace & ! inf9ite ) an all-prevail+ f]vor & passion4 ,may #ad1 #ahec4--,?ird qu>tet conc]t4 ,x 0 %ort4 ,v>iations = piano & viol9 by ,bee?ov51 & two qu>tets1 n m4 ,! qu>tets 7 p]fectly cle> & easy to und]/&4 ,"o 0 by ,moz>t & ! o!r by ,bee?ov51 s t ,i c\ld comp>e ! two ma/]s4 ,_! individuality seem$ to become pla9 to me3 ,moz>t--grace1 lib]ty1 c]ta9ty1 fre$om1 & precision ( /yle1 & exquisite & ari/ocratic beauty1 s]5ity ( s\l1 ! heal? & tal5t ( ! ma/]1 bo? on a level ) 8 g5ius2 ,bee?ov5--m pa!tic1 m passionate1 m torn ) feel+1 m intricate1 m pr(\nd1 less p]fect1 m ! slave ( 8 g5ius1 m c>ri$ away by 8 fancy or 8 passion1 m mov+1 & m sublime ?an ,moz>t4 ,moz>t refre%es y1 l ! 8,dialogues0 ( ,plato2 he respects y1 reveals to y y\r /r5g?1 gives y fre$om & balance4 ,bee?ov5 seizes ^u y2 he is m tragic & oratorical1 :ile ,moz>t is m dis9t]e/$ & poetical4 ,moz>t is m ,greek1 & ,bee?ov5 m ,*ri/ian4 ,"o is s]5e1 ! o!r s]i\s4 ,! fir/ is /rong] ?an de/9y1 because he takes life less pr(\ndly2 ! second is less /rong1 because he has d>$ to measure himself aga9/ deep] sorr[s4 ,8 tal5t is n always equal to 8 g5ius1 & pa?os is 8 dom9ant feature1 z p]fection is t ( ,moz>t4 ,9 ,moz>t ! balance ( ! :ole is p]fect1 & art triumphs2 9 ,bee?ov5 feel+ gov]ns ev]y?+ & emotion tr\bles 8 art 9 proportion z x deep5s x4 ,july #bf1 #ahec4--,:y d ,i f9d x easi] & m satisfactory1 z a writ] ( v]se1 to compose 9 ! %ort metres ?an 9 ! long & s]i\s ones8 ,:y1 9 g5]al1 am ,i bett] fitt$ = :at is difficult ?an = :at is easy8 ,always = ! same reason4 ,i _c br+ myself to move freely1 to %[ myself )\t a veil1 to act on my own acc\nt & act s]i\sly1 to believe 9 & ass]t myself1 :]eas a piece ( bad9age :i* div]ts att5tion f myself to ! ?+ 9 h&1 f ! feel+ to ! skill ( ! writ]1 puts me at my ease4 ,x is timidity :i* is at ! bottom ( x4 ,!re is ano!r reason1 too--,i am afraid ( greatness1 ,i am n afraid ( +5uity1 & di/ru/ful z ,i am bo? ( my gift & my in/rum5t1 ,i l to reassure myself by an elaborate practice ( execution4 ,all my publi%$ lit]>y essays1 !re=e1 are little else ?an /udies1 games1 ex]cises = ! purpose ( te/+ myself4 ,i play scales1 z x 72 ,i run up & d[n my in/rum5t1 ,i tra9 my h& & make sure ( its capacity & skill4 ,b ! "w itself rema9s una*iev$4 ,my ef=t expires1 & satisfi$ ) ! p[] to act ,i nev] arrive at ! w to act4 ,i am always prep>+ & nev] accompli%+1 & my en]gy is swall[$ up 9 a k9d ( b>r5 curiosity4 ,timidity1 !n1 & curiosity--^! are ! two ob/acles :i* b> aga9/ me a lit]>y c>e]4 ,nor mu/ procra/9ation be =gott54 ,i am always res]v+ = ! future :at is great1 s]i\s1 & important1 & mean:ile1 ,i am eag] to exhau/ :at is pretty & trifl+4 ,sure ( my devotion to ?+s t are va/ & pr(\nd1 ,i am always l+]+ 9 _! contr>ies le/ ,i %\ld neglect !m4 ,s]i\s at bottom1 ,i am frivol\s 9 appe>ance4 ,a lov] ( ?\ght1 ,i seem to c>e above all1 = expression2 ,i keep ! sub/ance = myself1 & res]ve ! =m = o!rs4 ,s t ! net result ( my timidity is t ,i nev] treat ! public s]i\sly1 & t ,i only %[ myself to x 9 :at is amus+1 enigmatical1 or caprici\s2 ! result ( my curiosity is t ev]y?+ tempts me1 ! %ell z well z ! m\nta91 & t ,i lose myself 9 endless rese>*2 :ile ! habit ( procra/9ation keeps me =ev] at prelim9>ies & antec$5ts1 & production itself is nev] ev5 begun4 ,b if t is ! fact1 ! fact might be diff]5t4 ,i und]/& myself1 b ,i d n approve myself4 ,augu/ #a1 #ahec4--;,i h j f9i%$ ,pelletan's book1 8,pr(ession de foi du dix-neuvime ,sicle40 ,x is a f9e book ,only "o ?+ is want+ to x--! idea ( evil4 ,x is a k9d ( supplem5t to ! !ory ( ,condorcet--indef9ite p]fectibility1 man ess5tially good1 life1 :i* is a physiological notion1 dom9at+ virtue1 duty1 & hol9ess1 9 %ort1 a non-e?ical conception ( hi/ory1 lib]ty id5tifi$ ) nature1 ! natural man tak5 = ! :ole man4 ,! aspirations :i* su* a book repres5ts are g5]\s & poetical1 b 9 ! fir/ place dang]\s1 s9ce !y lead to an absolute confid5ce 9 in/9ct2 & 9 ! second1 cr$ul\s & unpractical1 = !y set be=e u a m]e dream man1 & ?r[ a veil ov] bo? pres5t & pa/ reality4 ,! book is at once ! plea ju/ificatory ( progress1 conceiv$ z fatal & irresi/ible1 & an en?usia/ic hymn to ! triumph ( humanity4 ,x is e>ne/1 b morally sup]ficial2 poetical1 b fanciful & untrue4 ,x conf\nds ! progress ( ! race ) ! progress ( ! individual1 ! progress ( civilization ) ! advance ( ! inn] life4 ,:y8 ,because its crit]ion is quantitative1 t is to say1 purely ext]ior 7hav+ reg>d to ! weal? ( life71 & n qualitative 7! goodness ( life74 ,always ! same t5d5cy to take ! appe>ance = ! ?+1 ! =m = ! sub/ance1 ! law = ! ess5ce1 always ! same abs5ce ( moral p]sonality1 ! same obtus5ess ( consci5ce1 :i* has nev] recogniz$ s9 pres5t 9 ! w1 :i* places evil outside ( man1 moralizes f outside1 & trans=ms to its own lik+ ! :ole lesson ( hi/ory6 ,:at is at fault is ! philosophic sup]ficiality ( ,france1 :i* %e owes to h] fatal notion ( religion1 itself due to a life fa%ion$ by ,ca?olicism & by absolute mon>*y4 ,ca?olic ?\ght _c conceive ( p]sonality z supreme & consci\s ( itself4 ,its boldness & its weakness come f "o & ! same cause--f an abs5ce ( ! s5se ( responsibility1 f t vassal /ate ( consci5ce :i* kn[s only slav]y or an>*y1 :i* proclaims b does n obey ! law1 because ! law is outside x1 n )9 x4 ,ano!r illusion is t ( ,qu9et & ,mi*elet1 :o imag9e x possible to come out ( ,ca?olicism )\t ent]+ into any o!r positive =m ( religion1 & ^: idea is to fight ,ca?olicism by philosophy1 a philosophy :i* is1 aft] all1 ,ca?olic at bottom1 s9ce x spr+s f anti-,ca?olic reaction4 ,! m9d & ! consci5ce1 :i* h be5 =m$ by ,ca?olicism1 are p[]less to rise to any o!r =m ( religion4 ,f ,ca?olicism1 z f ,epicureanism !re is no return4 ,octob] #aa1 #ahec4--,my ?ird day at ,tur91 is n[ ov]4 ,i h be5 able to p5etrate f>!r ?an ev] be=e into ! special g5ius ( ?is t[n & p4 ,i h felt x live1 h realiz$ x little by little1 z my intuition became m di/9ct4 ,t is :at ,i c>e = mo/3 to seize ! s\l ( ?+s1 ! s\l ( a nation2 to live ! objective life1 ! life outside self2 to f9d my way into a new moral c\ntry4 ,i long to assume ! citiz5%ip ( ?is unkn[n _w1 to enri* myself ) ?is fre% =m ( exi/5ce1 to feel x f )91 to l9k myself to x1 & to reproduce x sympa!tically2 ?is is ! end & ! rew>d ( my ef=ts4 ,to-day ! problem grew cle> to me z ,i /ood on ! t]race ( ! milit>y hospital1 9 full view ( ! ,alps1 ! wea!r fre% & cle> 9 spite ( a /ormy sky4 ,su* an intuition aft] all is no?+ out a syn!sis wr\ght by in/9ct1 a syn!sis to :i* ev]y?+--/reets1 h\ses1 l&scape1 acc5t1 dialect1 physiognomies1 hi/ory1 & habits contribute _! %>e4 ,i might call x ! ideal integration ( a p or its r$uction to ! g5]at+ po9t1 or an ent]+ into its consci\sness4 ,?is g5]at+ po9t expla9s ev]y?+ else1 art1 religion1 hi/ory1 politics1 mann]s2 & )\t x no?+ c be expla9$4 ,! anci5ts realiz$ _! consci\sness 9 ! national ,god4 ,mod]n nationalities1 m complicat$ & less arti/ic1 are m difficult to deciph]4 ,:at "o seeks = 9 !m is ! daemon1 ! fatum1 ! inn] g5ius1 ! mission1 ! primitive disposition1 bo? :at !re is desire = & :at !re is p[] =1 ! =ce 9 !m & its limitations4 ,a pure & life-giv+ fre%ness ( ?\ght & ( ! spiritual life seem$ to play ab\t me1 borne on ! breeze desc5d+ f ! ,alps4 ,i brea!d an atmosph]e ( spiritual fre$om1 & ,i hail$ ) emotion & rapture ! m\nta9s :5ce 0 waft$ to me ?is feel+ ( /r5g? & purity4 ,a ?\s& s5sations1 ?\ghts1 & analogies cr[d$ ^u me4 ,hi/ory1 too1 ! hi/ory ( ! sub-,alp9e c\ntries1 f ! ,ligurians to ,hannibal1 f ,hannibal to ,*>lemagne1 f ,*>lemagne to ,napoleon1 pass$ ?r\gh my m9d4 ,all ! possible po9ts ( view1 71 s to speak1 pil$ ^u ea* o!r1 & "o caught glimpses ( "s ecc5trically across o!rs4 ,i 0 enjoy+ & ,i 0 le>n+4 ,sight pass$ into vision )\t a trace ( halluc9ation1 & ! l&scape 0 my guide1 my ,virgil4 ,all ?is made me v s5sible ( ! diff]5ce betwe5 me & ! majority ( travel]s1 all ( :om h a special object1 & cont5t !mselves ) "o ?+ or ) sev]al1 :ile ,i desire all or no?+1 & am =ev] /ra9+ t[>d ! total1 :e!r ( all possible objects1 or ( all ! elem5ts pres5t 9 ! reality4 ,9 o!r words1 :at ,i desire is ! sum ( all desires1 & :at ,i seek to "k is ! sum ( all diff]5t k9ds ( k4 ,always ! complete1 ! absolute2 ! t]es atque rotundum1 sph]icity1 non-resignation4 ,octob] #bg1 #ahec4--;,i ?ank ,!e1 my ,god1 = ! h\r t ,i h j pass$ 9 ,?y pres5ce4 ,?y w 0 cle> to me2 ,i measur$ my faults1 c\nt$ my griefs1 & felt ,?y goodness t[>d me4 ,i realiz$ my own no?+ness1 ,?\ gave/ me ,?y peace4 ,9 bitt]ness !re is sweetness2 9 affliction1 joy2 9 submission1 /r5g?2 9 ! ,god :o puni%es1 ! ,god :o loves4 ,to lose "o's life t "o may ga9 x1 to (f] x t "o may receive x1 to possess no?+ t "o may conqu] all1 to r5\nce self t ,god may give ,himself to u1 h[ impossible a problem1 & h[ sublime a reality6 ,no "o truly kn[s happ9ess :o has n suff]$1 & ! r$eem$ are happi] ?an ! elect4 7,same day47--,! div9e miracle p> excell5ce consi/s surely 9 ! apo!osis ( grief1 ! transfiguration ( evil by good4 ,! "w ( creation f9ds its consummation1 & ! et]nal w ( ! inf9ite m]cy f9ds its fulfillm5t only 9 ! re/oration ( ! free creature to ,god & ( an evil _w to goodness1 ?r\gh love4 ,e s\l 9 :i* conv]sion has tak5 place is a symbol ( ! hi/ory ( ! _w4 ,to be happy1 to possess et]nal life1 to be 9 ,god1 to be sav$1 all ^! are ! same4 ,all alike mean ! solution ( ! problem1 ! aim ( exi/5ce4 ,& happ9ess is cumulative1 z mis]y may be4 ,an et]nal gr[? is an un*angeable peace1 an ev] pr(\nd] dep? ( appreh5sion1 a possession con/antly m int5se & m spiritual ( ! joy ( heav5--?is is happ9ess4 ,happ9ess has no limits1 because ,god has nei!r bottom nor b\nds1 & because happ9ess is no?+ b ! conque/ ( ,god ?r\gh love4 ,! c5t] ( life is nei!r 9 ?\ght nor 9 feel+1 nor 9 w1 nor ev5 9 consci\sness1 s f> z x ?9ks1 feels1 or wi%es4 ,= moral tru? may h be5 p5etrat$ & possess$ 9 all ^! ways1 & escape u /ill4 ,deep] ev5 ?an consci\sness !re is our be+ itself1 our v sub/ance1 our nature4 ,only ^? tru?s :i* h ent]$ into ?is la/ region1 :i* h become ourselves1 become spontane\s & involunt>y1 in/9ctive & unconsci\s1 are really our life--t is to say some?+ m ?an our prop]ty4 ,s long z we are able to di/+ui% any space :atev] betwe5 ! tru? & u we rema9 outside x4 ,! ?\ght1 ! feel+1 ! desire1 ! consci\sness ( life1 are n yet q life4 ,b peace & repose c n[h]e be f\nd except 9 life1 & 9 et]nal life & ! et]nal life is ! div9e life1 is ,god4 ,to become div9e is !n ! aim ( life3 !n only c tru? be said to be ours beyond ! possibility ( loss1 because x is no long] outside u1 nor ev5 9 u1 b we are x1 & x is we2 we ourselves are a tru?1 a w1 a "w ( ,god4 ,lib]ty has become nature2 ! creature is "o ) its creator--"o ?r\gh love4 ,x is :at x ought to be2 its education is f9i%$1 & its f9al happ9ess beg9s4 ,! sun ( "t decl9es & ! light ( et]nal bless$ness arises4 ,our fle%ly he>ts may call ?is my/icism4 ,x is ! my/icism ( ,jesus3 8,i am "o ) my ,fa!r2 ye %all be "o ) me4 ,we w be "o ) y40 ,d n despise y\r situation2 9 x y mu/ act1 suff]1 & conqu]4 ,f e po9t on e>? we are equally ne> to heav5 & to ! inf9ite4 ,!re are two /ates or conditions ( pride4 ,! fir/ is "o ( self-approval1 ! second "o ( self-contempt4 ,pride is se5 probably at its pure/ 9 ! la/4 99 99 99 99 99 ,x is by tea*+ t we tea* ourselves1 by relat+ t we obs]ve1 by affirm+ t we exam9e1 by %[+ t we look1 by writ+ t we ?9k1 by pump+ t we draw wat] into ! well4 99 99 99 99 99 ,febru>y #a1 #ahed4--;,a walk4 ,! atmosph]e incr$ibly pure1 a w>m c>ess+ g5tl5ess 9 ! sun%9e--joy 9 "o's :ole be+4 ,seat$ motionless ^u a b5* on ! ,tran*es1 beside ! slopes clo!d ) moss & tape/ri$ ) gre51 ,i pass$ "s int5se delici\s mom5ts1 all[+ great ela/ic waves ( music1 waft$ to me f a milit>y b& on ! t]race ( ,/4 ,anto9e1 to surge & b\nd ?r\gh me4 ,e way ,i 0 happy1 z idl]1 z pa9t]1 z poet4 ,=gott5 impressions ( *ildhood & y\? came back to me--all ^? indescribable effects wr\ght by color1 %ad[1 sunlight1 gre5 h$ges1 & songs ( birds1 ^u ! s\l j op5+ to poetry4 ,i became aga9 "y1 wond]+1 & simple1 z c&or & ignorance are simple4 ,i ab&on$ myself to life & to nature1 & !y cradl$ me ) an inf9ite g5tl5ess4 ,to op5 "o's he>t 9 purity to ?is ev] pure nature1 to all[ ?is immortal life ( ?+s to p5etrate into "o's s\l1 is at ! same "t to li/5 to ! voice ( ,god4 ,s5sation may be a pray]1 & self-ab&onm5t an act ( devotion4 ,febru>y #ah1 #ahed4--;,ev]y?+ t5ds to become fix$1 solidifi$1 & cry/alliz$ 9 ?is ,fr5* tongue ( ours1 :i* seeks =m & n sub/ance1 ! result & n its =mation1 :at is se5 r ?an :at is ?\ght1 ! outside r ?an ! inside4 ,we l ! accompli%$ end & n ! pursuit ( ! end1 ! goal & n ! road1 9 %ort1 ideas ready-made & bread ready-bak$1 ! rev]se ( ,less+'s pr9ciple4 ,:at we look = above all are conclusions4 ,?is cle>ness ( ! 8ready-made0 is a sup]ficial cle>ness--physical1 outw>d1 sol> cle>ness1 s to speak1 b 9 ! abs5ce ( a s5se = orig9 & g5esis x is ! cle>ness ( ! incompreh5sible1 ! cle>ness ( opacity1 ! cle>ness ( ! obscure4 ,we are always trifl+ on ! surface4 ,our temp] is =mal--t is to say1 frivol\s & mat]ial1 or r arti/ic & n philosophical4 ,= :at x seeks is ! figure1 ! fa%ion & mann] ( ?+s1 n _! deepe/ life1 _! s\l1 _! secret4 ,m>* #af1 #ahed4 7,f ,veevay to ,g5eva47--,:at message _h ?is lake = me1 ) its sad s]5ity1 its s(t & ev5 tranquility1 9 :i* 0 mirror$ ! cold monoton\s pallor ( m\nta9s & cl\ds8 ,t dis5*ant$ disillusion$ life may /ill be trav]s$ by duty1 lit by a memory ( heav54 ,i 0 visit$ by a cle> & pr(\nd intuition ( ! flight ( ?+s1 ( ! fatality ( all life1 ( ! melan*oly :i* is bel[ ! surface ( all exi/5ce1 b also ( t deepe/ dep? :i* subsi/s =ev] b5ea? ! fleet+ wave4 ,decemb] #ag1 #ahed4--,:5 we are do+ no?+ 9 p>ticul>1 x is !n t we are liv+ ?r\gh all our be+2 & :5 we cease to add to our gr[? x is only t we may rip5 & possess ourselves4 ,w is susp5d$1 b nature & "t are always active & if our life is no long] our "w1 ! "w goes on none ! less4 ,) u1 )\t u1 or 9 spite ( u1 our exi/5ce travels ?r\gh its appo9t$ phases1 our invisible ,psy*e weaves ! silk ( its *rysalis1 our de/9y fulfills itself1 & all ! h\rs ( life "w toge!r t[>d t fl[]+ "t :i* we call dea?4 ,?is activity1 !n1 is inevitable & fatal2 sleep & idl5ess d n int]rupt x1 b x may become free & moral1 a joy in/ead ( a t]ror4 ,no?+ is m *>act]i/ic ( a man ?an ! mann] 9 :i* he behaves t[>d fools4 ,x co/s u a great deal ( tr\ble n to be ( ! same op9ion z our self-love1 & n to be ready to believe 9 ! good ta/e ( ^? :o believe 9 our m]its4 ,does n true humility consi/ 9 accept+ "o's infirmity z a trial1 & "o's evil disposition z a cross1 9 sacrific+ all "o's pret5sions & ambitions1 ev5 ^? ( consci5ce8 ,true humility is cont5tm5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a man only und]/&s t ( :i* he has already ! beg9n+s 9 himself4 ,let u be true3 ?is is ! highe/ maxim ( art & ( life1 ! secret ( eloqu5ce & ( virtue1 & ( all moral au?ority4 99 99 99 99 99 ,m>* #bh1 #ahee4--,n a blade ( grass b has a /ory to tell1 n a he>t b has its romance1 n a life :i* does n hide a secret :i* is ei!r its ?orn or its spur4 ,ev]y:]e grief1 hope1 com$y1 trag$y2 ev5 "u ! petrifaction ( old age1 z 9 ! twi/$ =ms ( fossils1 we may discov] ! agitations & tortures ( y\?4 ,?is ?\ght is ! magic w& ( poets & ( prea*]s3 x /rips ! scales f our fle%ly eyes1 & gives u a cle> view into human life2 x op5s to ! e> a _w ( unkn[n melodies1 & makes u und]/& ! ?\s& languages ( nature4 ,?w>t$ love makes a man a polyglot1 & grief trans=ms him into a div9] & a sorc]]4 ,april #af1 #ahee4--;,i realiz$ ?is morn+ ! prodigi\s effect ( climate on "o's /ate ( m9d4 ,i 0 ,italian or ,spani%4 ,9 ?is blue & limpid air1 & "u ?is s\!rn sun1 ! v walls smile at y4 ,all ! *e/nut trees 7 en fete2 ) _! gli/5+ buds %9+ l little flames at ! curv$ ends ( ! bran*es1 !y 7 ! c&elabra ( ! spr+ deck+ ! fe/ival ( et]nal nature4 ,h[ "y ev]y?+ 01 h[ k9dly1 h[ graci\s6 ! moi/ fre%ness ( ! grass1 ! transp>5t %ad[s 9 ! c\rty>ds1 ! /r5g? ( ! old ca!dral t[]s1 ! :ite edges ( ! roads4 ,i felt myself a *ild2 ! sap ( life m\nt$ aga9 into my ve9s z x does 9 plants4 ,h[ sweet a ?+ is a little simple enjoym5t6 ,& n[1 a brass b& :i* has /opp$ 9 ! /reet makes my he>t leap z x did at eighte54 ,?anks be to ,god2 !re h be5 s _m weeks & mon?s :5 ,i ?\ght myself an old man4 ,come poetry1 nature1 y\?1 & love1 knead my life aga9 ) y\r fairy h&s2 weave r\nd me once m y\r immortal spells2 s+ y\r sir5 melodies1 make me dr9k ( ! cup ( immortality1 lead me back to ! ,olympus ( ! s\l4 ,or r1 no paganism6 ,god ( joy & ( grief1 d ) me :at ,?\ wilt2 grief is good1 & joy is good also4 ,?\ art lead+ me n[ ?r\gh joy4 ,i take x f ,?y h&s1 & ,i give ,!e ?anks = x4 ,april #ag1 #ahee4--,! wea!r is /ill incr$ibly brilliant1 w>m1 & cle>4 ,! day is full ( ! s++ ( birds1 ! night is full ( />s1 nature has become all k9dness1 & x is a k9dness clo!d ^u ) spl5dor4 ,= ne>ly two h\rs h ,i be5 lo/ 9 ! contemplation ( ?is magnific5t spectacle4 ,i felt myself 9 ! temple ( ! inf9ite1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! worlds1 ,god's gue/ 9 ?is va/ nature4 ,! />s w&]+ 9 ! pale e!r drew me f> away f e>?4 ,:at peace beyond ! p[] ( words1 :at dews ( life et]nal1 !y %$ on ! ador+ s\l6 ,i felt ! e>? float+ l a boat 9 ?is blue ocean4 ,su* deep & tranquil delight n\ri%es ! :ole man1 x purifies & ennobles4 ,i surr5d]$ myself1 ,i 0 all gratitude & docility4 ,april #ba1 #ahee4--;,i h be5 read+ a great deal3 e?nography1 comp>ative anatomy1 cosmical sy/ems4 ,i h trav]s$ ! univ]se f ! deepe/ dep?s ( ! empyrean to ! p]i/altic movem5ts ( ! atoms 9 ! elem5t>y cell4 ,i h felt myself exp&+ 9 ! inf9ite1 & enfran*is$ 9 _s f ! b\nds ( "t & space1 able to trace back ! :ole b\ndless creation to a po9t )\t dim5sions1 & see+ ! va/ multitude ( suns1 ( milky ways1 ( />s1 & nebulae1 all exi/5t 9 ! po9t4 ,& on all sides /ret*$ my/]ies1 m>vels & prodigies1 )\t limit1 )\t numb]1 & )\t end4 ,i felt ! unfa?omable ?\ght ( :i* ! univ]se is ! symbol live & burn )9 me2 ,i t\*$1 prov$1 ta/$1 embrac$ my no?+ness & my imm5sity2 ,i kiss$ ! hem ( ! g>m5ts ( ,god1 & gave ,him ?anks = be+ ,_s & = be+ life4 ,su* mom5ts are glimpses ( ! div9e4 ,!y make "o consci\s ( "o's immortality2 !y br+ home to "o t an et]nity is n too mu* = ! /udy ( ! ?\ghts & works ( ! et]nal2 !y awak5 9 u an ador+ ec/asy & ! ard5t humility ( love4 ,may #bc1 #ahee4--;,e hurtful passion draws u to x1 z an abyss does1 by a k9d ( v]tigo4 ,feebl5ess ( w br+s ab\t weakness ( head1 & ! abyss 9 spite ( its horror1 comes to fasc9ate u1 z ?\gh x 7 a place ( refuge4 ,t]rible dang]6 ,= ?is abyss is )9 u2 ?is gulf1 op5 l ! va/ jaws ( an inf]nal s]p5t b5t on dev\r+ u1 is 9 ! dep? ( our own be+1 & our lib]ty floats ov] ?is void1 :i* is always seek+ to swall[ x up4 ,our only talisman lies 9 t conc5tration ( moral =ce :i* we call consci5ce1 t small inext+ui%able flame ( :i* ! light is duty & ! w>m? love4 ,?is little flame %\ld be ! /> ( our life2 x alone c guide our trembl+ ark across ! tumult ( ! great wat]s2 x alone c enable u to escape ! temptations ( ! sea1 ! /orms & ! mon/]s :i* are ! (fspr+ ( night & ! deluge4 ,fai? 9 ,god1 9 a holy1 m]ciful1 fa!rly ,god1 is ! div9e ray :i* k9dles ?is flame4 ,h[ deeply ,i feel ! pr(\nd & t]rible poetry ( all ^! primitive t]rors f :i* h issu$ ! v>i\s !ogonies ( ! _w1 & h[ x all gr[s cle> to me1 & becomes a symbol ( ! "o great un*ang+ ?\ght1 ! ?\ght ( ,god ab\t ! univ]se6 ,h[ pres5t & s5sible to my inn] s5se is ! unity ( ev]y?+6 ,x seems to me t ,i am able to pi]ce to ! sublime motive :i*1 9 all ! inf9ite sph]es ( exi/5ce1 & ?r\gh all ! modes ( space & "t1 e creat$ =m reproduces & s+s )9 ! bond ( an et]nal h>mony4 ,f ! inf]nal %ades ,i feel myself m\nt+ t[>d ! regions ( light2 my flight across *aos f9ds its re/ 9 p>adise4 ,heav51 hell1 ! _w1 are )9 u4 ,man is ! great abyss4 ,july #bg1 #ahee4--,s life passes away1 toss$ l a boat by ! waves up & d[n1 hi!r & ?i!r1 dr5*$ by ! spray1 /a9$ by ! foam1 n[ ?r[n ^u ! bank1 n[ drawn back aga9 accord+ to ! endless caprice ( ! wat]4 ,su*1 at lea/1 is ! life ( ! he>t & ! passions1 ! life :i* ,sp9oza & ! /oics reprove1 & :i* is ! exact opposite ( t s]5e & contemplative life1 always equable l ! />light1 9 :i* man lives at peace1 & sees ev]y?+ t9d] its et]nal aspect2 ! opposite also ( ! life ( consci5ce1 9 :i* ,god alone speaks1 & all self-w surr5d]s itself to ,8 w made manife/4 ,i pass f "o to ano!r ( ^! ?ree exi/5ces1 :i* are equally kn[n to me2 b ?is v mobility deprives me ( ! advantages ( ea*4 ,= my he>t is worn ) scruples1 ! s\l 9 me _c cru% ! ne$s ( ! he>t1 & ! consci5ce is tr\bl$ & no long] kn[s h[ to di/+ui%1 9 ! *aos ( contradictory incl9ations1 ! voice ( duty or ! w ( ,god4 ,! want ( simple fai?1 ! indecision :i* spr+s f di/ru/ ( self1 t5d to make all my p]sonal life a matt] ( d\bt & unc]ta9ty4 ,i am afraid ( ! subjective life1 & recoil f e ent]prise1 dem&1 or promise :i* may oblige me to realize myself2 ,i feel a t]ror ( action1 & am only at ease 9 ! imp]sonal1 dis9t]e/$1 & objective life ( ?\ght4 ,! reason seems to be timidity1 & ! timidity spr+s f ! excessive developm5t ( ! reflective p[] :i* has almo/ de/roy$ 9 me all spontaneity1 impulse1 & in/9ct1 & !re=e all boldness & confid5ce4 ,:5ev] ,i am =c$ to act1 ,i see cause = error & rep5tance ev]y:]e1 ev]y:]e hidd5 ?reats & mask$ vexations4 ,f a *ild ,i h be5 liable to ! disease ( irony1 & t x may n be altoge!r cru%$ by de/9y1 my nature seems to h arm$ itself ) a caution /rong en\gh to prevail aga9/ any ( life's bl&i%m5ts4 ,x is j ?is /r5g? :i* is my weakness4 ,i h a horror ( be+ dup$1 above all1 dup$ by myself1 & ,i w\ld r cut myself (f f all life's joys ?an deceive or be deceiv$4 ,humiliation1 !n1 is ! sorr[ :i* ,i fe> ! mo/1 & !re=e x w\ld seem z if pride 7 ! deepe/ root$ ( my faults4 ,?is may be logical1 b x is n ! tru?3 x seems to me t x is really di/ru/1 incurable d\bt ( ! future1 a s5se ( ! ju/ice b n ( ! goodness ( ,god--9 %ort1 unbelief1 :i* is my mis=tune & my s94 ,e act is a ho/age deliv]$ ov] to av5g+ de/9y--!re is ! in/9ctive belief :i* *ills & freezes2 e act is a pl$ge confid$ to a fa!rly provid5ce1 !re is ! belief :i* calms4 ,pa9 seems to me a puni%m5t & n a m]cy3 ?is is :y ,i h a secret horror ( x4 ,& z ,i feel myself vuln]able at all po9ts1 & ev]y:]e accessible to pa91 ,i pref] to rema9 motionless1 l a timid *ild1 :o1 left alone 9 8 fa!r's laboratory1 d>es n t\* any?+ = fe> ( spr+s2 explosions1 & cata/rophes1 :i* may bur/ f e corn] at ! lea/ movem5t ( 8 inexp]i5c$ h&s4 ,i h tru/ 9 ,god directly & z reveal$ 9 nature1 b ,i h a deep di/ru/ ( all free & evil ag5ts4 ,i feel or =esee evil1 moral & physical1 z ! consequ5ce ( e error1 fault1 or s91 & ,i am a%am$ ( pa94 ,at bottom1 is x n a m]e b\ndless self-love1 ! purism ( p]fection1 an incapacity to accept our human condition1 a tacit prote/ aga9/ ! ord] ( ! _w1 :i* lies at ! root ( my in]tia8 ,x means all or no?+1 a va/ ambition made inactive by disgu/1 a ye>n+ t _c be utt]$ = ! ideal1 jo9$ ) an (f5d$ dignity & a w\nd$ pride :i* w h no?+ to say to :at !y consid] b5ea? !m4 ,x spr+s f ! ironical temp] :i* refuses to take ei!r self or reality s]i\sly1 because x is =ev] comp>+ bo? ) ! dimly-se5 inf9ite ( its dreams4 ,x is a /ate ( m5tal res]vation 9 :i* "o l5ds "o's self to circum/ances = =m's sake1 b refuses to recognize !m 9 "o's he>t because "o _c see ! necessity or ! div9e ord] 9 !m4 ,i am dis9t]e/$ because ,i am indiff]5t2 ,i h no?+ to say aga9/ :at is1 & yet ,i am nev] satisfi$4 ,i am too weak to conqu]1 & yet ,i w n be ,conqu]$--x is ! isolation ( ! dis5*ant$ s\l1 :i* has put ev5 hope away f x4 ,b ev5 ?is is a trial laid ^u "o4 ,its provid5tial purpose is no d\bt to lead "o to t true r5unciation ( :i* *>ity is ! sign & symbol4 ,x is :5 "o expects no?+ m = "o's self t "o is able to love4 ,to d good to m5 because we love !m1 to use e tal5t we h s z to please ! ,fa!r f :om we hold x = ,8 s]vice1 !re is no o!r way ( rea*+ & cur+ ?is deep discont5t ) life :i* hides itself "u an appe>ance ( indiff]5ce4 ,septemb] #d1 #ahee4--;,9 ! gov]nm5t ( ! s\l ! p>liam5t>y =m succe$s ! mon>*ical4 ,good s5se1 consci5ce1 desire1 reason1 ! pres5t & ! pa/1 ! old man & ! new1 prud5ce & g5]osity1 take up _! p>able 9 turn2 ! reign ( argum5t beg9s2 *aos replaces ord]1 & d>kness light4 ,simple w repres5ts ! autocratic rgime1 int]m9able discussion ! delib]ate regime ( ! s\l4 ,! "o is pref]able f ! !oretical po9t ( view1 ! o!r f ! practical4 ,k & action are _! two respective advantages4 ,b ! be/ ( all w\ld be to be able to realize ?ree p[]s 9 ! s\l4 ,besides ! man ( c\nsel we want ! man ( action & ! man ( judgm5t4 ,9 me1 reflection comes to no useful end1 because x is =ev] return+ ^u itself1 disput+ & debat+4 ,i am want+ 9 bo? ! g5]al :o comm&s & ! judge :o decides4 ,analysis is dang]\s if x ov]rules ! syn!tic faculty2 reflection is to be fe>$ if x de/roys our p[] ( intuition1 & inquiry is fatal if x supplants fai?4 ,decomposition becomes deadly :5 x surpasses 9 /r5g? ! comb9+ & con/ructive en]gies ( life1 & ! sep>ate action ( ! p[]s ( ! s\l t5ds to m]e dis9tegration & de/ruction z soon z x becomes impossible to br+ !m to be> z "o undivid$ =ce4 ,:5 ! sov]eign abdicates an>*y beg9s4 ,x is j "h t my dang] lies4 ,unity ( life1 ( =ce1 ( action1 ( expression1 is becom+ impossible to me2 ,i am legion1 division1 analysis1 & reflection2 ! passion = dialectic1 = f9e di/9ctions1 absorbs & weak5s me4 ,! po9t :i* ,i h rea*$ seems to be expla9$ by a too re/less se>* = p]fection1 by ! abuse ( ! critical faculty1 & by an unreasonable di/ru/ ( fir/ impulses1 fir/ ?\ghts1 fir/ words4 ,unity & simplicity ( be+1 confid5ce1 & spontaneity ( life1 are drift+ out ( my rea*1 & ?is is :y ,i c no long] act4 ,give up1 !n1 ?is try+ to "k all1 to embrace all4 ,le>n to limit y\rself1 to cont5t y\rself ) "s def9ite ?+1 & "s def9ite "w2 d>e to be :at y are1 & le>n to resign ) a good grace all t y are n1 & to believe 9 y\r own individuality4 ,self-di/ru/ is de/roy+ y2 tru/1 surr5d]1 ab&on y\rself2 8believe & ?\ %alt be heal$40 ,unbelief is dea?1 & depression & self-satire are alike unbelief4 99 99 99 99 99 ,f ! po9t ( view ( happ9ess1 ! problem ( life is insoluble1 = x is our highe/ aspirations :i* prev5t u f be+ happy4 ,f ! po9t ( view ( duty1 !re is ! same difficulty1 = ! fulfillm5t ( duty br+s peace1 n happ9ess4 ,x is div9e love1 ! love ( ! holie/1 ! possession ( ,god by fai?1 :i* solves ! difficulty2 = if sacrifice has itself become a joy1 a la/+1 gr[+ & imp]i%able joy--! s\l is !n secure ( an all-suffici5t & unfail+ n\ri%m5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,janu>y #ba1 #ahef4--,ye/]day seems to me z f> (f z ?\gh x 7 la/ ye>4 ,my memory holds no?+ m ( ! pa/ ?an its g5]al plan1 j z my eye p]ceives no?+ m 9 ! />ry heav54 ,x is no m possible = me to recov] "o ( my days f ! dep?s ( memory ?an if x 7 a glass ( wat] p\r$ into a lake2 x is n s mu* a lo/ ?+ z a ?+ melt$ & fus$2 ! individual has return$ into ! :ole4 ,! divisions ( "t are categories :i* h no p[] to mold my life1 & leave no m la/+ impression ?an l9es trac$ by a /ick 9 wat]4 ,my life1 my individuality1 are fluid1 !re is no?+ = x b to resign "o's self4 ,april #i1 #ahef4--;,h[ true x is t our de/9ies are decid$ by no?+s & t a small imprud5ce help$ by "s insignificant accid5t1 z an acorn is f]tiliz$ by a drop ( ra91 may raise ! trees on :i* p]haps we & o!rs %all be crucifi$4 ,:at happ5s is q diff]5t f t we plann$2 we plann$ a bless+ & !re spr+s f x a curse4 ,h[ _m times ! s]p5t ( fatality1 or r ! law ( life1 ! =ce ( ?+s1 int]tw9+ itself ) "s v simple facts1 _c be cut away by any ef=t1 & ! logic ( situations & *>act]s leads inevitably to a dread$ dn\em5t4 ,x is ! fatal spell ( de/9y1 :i* obliges u to fe$ our grief f our own h&1 to prolong ! exi/5ce ( our vulture1 to ?r[ into ! furnace ( our puni%m5t & expiation1 our p[]s1 our qualities1 our v virtues1 "o by "o1 & s =ces u to recognize our no?+ness1 our dep5d5ce & ! implacable maje/y ( law4 ,fai? 9 a provid5ce s(t5s puni%m5t b does n d away ) x4 ,! :eels ( ! div9e *>iot cru% u fir/ ( all t ju/ice may be satisfi$ & an example giv5 to m51 & !n a h& is /ret*$ out to u to raise u up1 or at lea/ to reconcile u ) ! love hidd5 "u ! ju/ice4 ,p>don _c prec$e rep5tance & rep5tance only beg9s ) humility4 ,& s long z any fault :atev] appe>s trifl+ to u1 s long z we see1 n s mu* ! culpability ( z ! excuses = imprud5ce or neglig5ce1 s long1 9 %ort1 z ,job murmurs & z provid5ce is ?\ght to be too sev]e1 s long z !re is any inn] prote/ation aga9/ fate1 or d\bt z to ! p]fect ju/ice ( ,god1 !re is n yet entire humility or true rep5tance4 ,x is :5 we accept ! expiation t x c be sp>$ u2 x is :5 we submit s9c]ely t grace c be grant$ to u4 ,only :5 grief f9ds its "w done c ,god disp5se u f x4 ,trial !n only /ops :5 x is useless3 t is :y x sc>cely ev] /ops4 ,fai? 9 ! ju/ice & love ( ! ,fa!r is ! be/ & inde$ ! only support "u ! suff]+s ( ?is life4 ,! f\ndation ( all ( our pa9s is unbelief2 we d\bt :e!r :at happ5s to u ought to happ5 to u2 we ?9k ourselves wis] ?an provid5ce1 because to avoid fatalism we believe 9 accid5t4 ,lib]ty 9 submission--:at a problem6 ,& yet t is :at we mu/ always come back to4 ,may #g1 #ahef4--;,i h be5 read+ ,ros5krantz's 8,hi/ory ( ,poetry0 ,footnote3 8,ges*i*te d] ,poesie10 by ,ros5krantz1 ! pupil & biograph] ( ,hegel all day3 x t\*es ^u all ! great names ( ,spa91 ,portugal1 & ,france1 z f> z ,l\is ,,xv4 ,x is a good ?+ to take ^! rapid surveys2 ! %ift+ po9t ( view gives a p]petual fre%ness to ! subject & to ! ideas pres5t$1 a lit]>y exp]i5ce :i* is always pleasant & brac+4 ,= "o ( my temp]am5t1 ?is philosophic & morphological mode ( embrac+ & exp\nd+ lit]>y hi/ory has a /rong attraction4 ,b x is ! antipodes ( ! ,fr5* me?od ( proce$+1 :i* takes1 z x 71 only ! peaks ( ! subject1 l9ks !m toge!r by !oretical figures & triangulations1 & !n assumes ^! l9es to repres5t ! g5u9e face ( ! c\ntry4 ,! real process ( =mation ( a g5]al op9ion1 ( a public ta/e1 ( an e/abli%$ g5re1 _c be laid b>e by an ab/ract me?od1 :i* suppresses ! p]iod ( gr[? 9 favor ( ! f9al fruit1 :i* pref]s cle>ness ( outl9e to fullness ( /atem5t1 & sacrifices ! prep>ation to ! result1 ! multitude to ! *os5 type4 ,?is ,fr5* me?od1 h[ev]1 is em95tly *>act]i/ic1 & x is l9k$ by invisible ties to _! respect = cu/om & fa%ion1 to ! ,ca?olic & duali/ in/9ct :i* admits two tru?s1 two contradictory worlds1 & accepts q naturally :at is magical1 incompreh5sible1 & arbitr>y 9 ,god1 ! k+1 or language4 ,x is ! philosophy ( accid5t become habit1 in/9ct1 nature & belief1 x is ! religion ( caprice4 ,by "o ( ^? et]nal contra/s :i* r$ress ! balance ( ?+s1 ! romance peoples1 :o excel 9 ! practical matt]s ( life1 c>e no?+ = ! philosophy ( x2 :ile ! ,g]mans1 :o "k v little ab\t ! practice ( life1 are ma/]s ( its !ory4 ,e liv+ be+ seeks in/9ctively to complete itself2 ?is is ! secret law accord+ to :i* t nation ^: s5se ( life is fulle/ & ke5e/1 drifts mo/ readily t[>d a ma!matical rigidity ( !ory4 ,matt] & =m are ! et]nal oppositions1 & ! ma!matical intellects are (t5 attract$ by ! facts ( life1 j z ! s5su\s m9ds are (t5 drawn t[>d ! /udy ( ab/ract law4 ,?us /rangely en\gh1 :at we ?9k we are is j :at we are n3 :at we desire to be is :at suits u lea/2 our !ories condemn u1 & our practice gives ! lie to our !ories4 ,& ! contradiction is an advantage1 = x is ! s\rce ( conflict1 ( movem5t1 & !re=e a condition ( progress4 ,e life is an inw>d /ruggle1 e /ruggle supposes two contr>y =ces2 no?+ real is simple1 & :atev] ?9ks itself simple is 9 reality ! f>!/ f simplicity4 ,!re=e x w\ld seem t e /ate is a mom5t 9 a s]ies2 e be+ a compromise betwe5 contr>ies4 ,9 concrete dialectic we h ! key :i* op5s to u ! und]/&+ ( be+s 9 ! s]ies ( be+s1 ( /ates 9 ! s]ies ( mom5ts2 & x is 9 dynamics t we h ! explanation ( equilibrium4 ,e situation is an equilibrium ( =ces2 e life is a /ruggle betwe5 oppos+ =ces work+ )9 ! limits ( a c]ta9 equilibrium4 ,^! two pr9ciples h be5 (t5 cle> to me1 b ,i h nev] appli$ !m widely or rigor\sly en\gh4 ,july #a1 #ahef4--;,a man & /ill m a woman1 always betrays some?+ ( 8 or h] nationality4 ,! wom5 ( ,russia1 = in/ance1 l ! lakes & riv]s ( _! native c\ntry1 seem to be subject to sudd5 & prolong$ fits ( torpor4 ,9 _! movem5t1 undulat+ & c>ess+ l t ( wat]1 !re is always a ?reat ( un=ese5 fro/4 ,! high latitude1 ! difficulty ( life1 ! inflexibility ( _! autocratic rgime1 ! heavy & m\rnful sky1 ! inexorable climate1 all ^! h>% fatalities h left _! m>k ^u ! ,muscovite race4 ,a c]ta9 somb] ob/9acy1 a k9d ( primitive f]ocity1 a f\ndation ( savage h>%ness :i*1 "u ! influ5ce ( circum/ances1 might become implacable & pitiless2 a cold /r5g?1 an indomitable p[] ( resolution :i* w\ld r wreck ! :ole _w ?an yield1 ! inde/ructible in/9ct ( ! b>b>ian tribe1 p]ceptible 9 ! half-civiliz$ nation1 all ^! traits are visible to an att5tive eye1 ev5 9 ! h>mless extravagances & caprices ( a "y woman ( ?is p[]ful race4 ,ev5 9 _! bad9age !y betray some?+ ( t fi]ce & rigid nationality :i* burns its own t[ns & z ,napoleon said keeps battalions ( dead soldi]s on _! feet4 ,:at t]rible rul]s ! ,russians w\ld be if ev] !y %\ld spread ! night ( _! rule ov] ! c\ntries ( ! s\?6 ,!y w\ld br+ u a pol> despotism1 tyranny su* z ! _w has nev] kn[n1 sil5t z d>kness1 rigid z ice1 ins5sible z bronze1 deck$ ) an out] amiability & glitt]+ ) ! cold brilliancy ( sn[1 a slav]y )\t comp5sation or relief4 ,probably1 h[ev]1 !y w gradually lose bo? ! virtues & ! defects ( _! semi-b>b>ism4 ,! c5turies z !y pass w rip5 ^! sons ( ! nor?1 & !y w ent] into ! conc]t ( peoples 9 "s o!r capacity ?an z a m5ace or a dissonance4 ,!y h only to trans=m _! h>d9ess into /r5g?1 _! cunn+ into grace1 _! ,muscovitism into humanity1 to w9 love in/ead ( inspir+ av]sion or fe>4 ,july #c1 #ahef4--,! ,g]man admires =m1 b he has no g5ius = x4 ,he is ! opposite ( ! ,greek2 he has critical in/9ct1 aspiration1 & desire1 b no s]5e comm& ( beauty4 ,! s\?1 m arti/ic1 m self-satisfi$1 m capable ( execution1 re/s idly 9 ! s5se ( its own p[] to a*ieve4 ,on "o side y h ideas1 on ! o!r side1 tal5t4 ,! realm ( ,g]many is beyond ! cl\ds2 t ( ! s\!rn peoples is on ?is e>?4 ,! ,g]manic race ?9ks & feels2 ! s\!rn]s feel & express2 ! ,anglo-,saxons w & d4 ,to "k1 to feel1 to act1 !re y h ! trio ( ,g]many1 ,italy1 ,engl&4 ,france =mulates1 speaks1 decides1 & laughs4 ,?\ght1 tal5t1 w1 spee*2 or1 9 o!r words sci5ce1 art1 action1 proselytism4 ,s ! p>ts ( ! qu>tet are assign$4 ,july #ba1 #ahef4--,mit sack und pack "h ,i am back aga9 9 my t[n rooms4 ,i h said good-bye to my fri5ds & my c\ntry joys1 to v]dure1 fl[]s1 & happ9ess4 ,:y did ,i leave !m aft] all8 ,! reason ,i gave myself 0 t ,i 0 anxi\s ab\t my poor uncle1 :o is ill4 ,b at bottom are !re n o!r reasons8 ,yes1 sev]al4 ,!re is ! fe> ( mak+ myself a burd5 ^u ! two or ?ree families ( fri5ds :o %[ me incessant k9dness1 = :i* ,i c make no return4 ,!re are my books1 :i* call me back4 ,!re is ! wi% to keep fai? ) myself4 ,b all t w\ld be no?+1 ,i ?9k1 )\t ano!r in/9ct1 ! in/9ct ( ! w&]+ ,jew1 :i* snat*es f me ! cup ,i h b j rais$ to my lips1 :i* =bids me any prolong$ enjoym5t1 & cries 8g =w>d6 ,let !re be no fall+ asleep1 no /opp+1 no atta*+ y\rself to ?is or t60 ,?is re/less feel+ is n ! ne$ ( *ange4 ,x is r ! fe> ( :at ,i love1 ! mi/ru/ ( :at *>ms me1 ! unre/ ( happ9ess4 ,:at a biz>re t5d5cy1 & :at a /range nature6 n to be able to enjoy any?+ simply1 navely1 )\t scruple1 to feel a =ce ^u "o impell+ "o to leave ! table1 = fe> ! meal %\ld come to an end4 ,contradiction & my/]y6 n to use1 = fe> ( abus+2 to ?9k "o's self oblig$ to g1 n because "o has _h en\gh1 b because "o has /ay$ a:ile4 ,i am inde$ always ! same2 ! be+ :o w&]s :5 he ne$ n1 ! volunt>y exile1 ! et]nal travel]1 ! man incapable ( repose1 :o1 driv5 on by an inw>d voice1 builds n[h]e1 buys & labors n[h]e1 b passes1 looks1 camps1 & goes4 ,& is !re n ano!r reason = all ?is re/lessness1 9 a c]ta9 s5se ( void8 ( incessant pursuit ( some?+ want+8 ( long+ = a tru] peace & a m entire satisfaction8 ,neighbors1 fri5ds1 relations1 ,i love !m all2 & s long z ^! affections are active1 !y leave 9 me no room = a s5se ( want4 ,b yet !y d n fill my he>t2 & t is :y !y h no p[] to fix x4 ,i am always wait+ = ! woman & ! "w :i* %all be capable ( tak+ entire possession ( my s\l1 & ( becom+ my end & aim4 8,prom5ant p> t\t sj\r ,le deuil que tu cles1 ,psy*-papillon1 un j\r ,puisses-tu tr\v] l'am\r ,et p]dre tes ailes60 ,i h n giv5 away my he>t3 h5ce ?is re/lessness ( _s4 ,i w n let x be tak5 captive by t :i* _c fill & satisfy x2 h5ce ?is in/9ct ( pitiless deta*m5t f all t *>ms me )\t p]man5tly b9d+ me2 s t x seems z if my love ( movem5t1 :i* looks s l incon/ancy1 0 at bottom only a p]petual se>*1 a hope1 a desire1 & a c>e1 ! malady ( ! ideal4 444 ,life inde$ mu/ always be a compromise betwe5 common s5se & ! ideal1 ! "o abat+ no?+ ( its dem&s1 ! o!r accommodat+ itself to :at is practicable & real4 ,b m>riage by common s5se6 arriv$ at by a b>ga96 ,c x be any?+ b a pr(anation8 ,on ! o!r1 h&1 is t n a vici\s ideal :i* h9d]s life f complet+ itself1 & de/roys ! family 9 g]m8 ,is !re n too mu* ( pride 9 my ideal1 pride :i* w n accept ! common de/9y8444 ,noon4--,i h be5 dream+--my head 9 my h&4 ,ab\t :at8 ,ab\t happ9ess4 ,i h z x 71 be5 asleep on ! fa!rly brea/ ( ,god4 ,8 w be done6 ,augu/ #c1 #ahef4--;,a delightful ,sunday aft]noon at ,pressy4 ,return$ late1 "u a great sky magnific5tly />r$1 ) summ] lightn+ play+ f a po9t beh9d ! ,jura4 ,drunk ) poetry1 & ov]:elm$ by s5sation aft] s5sation1 ,i came back sl[ly1 bless+ ! ,god ( life1 & plung$ 9 ! joy ( ! inf9ite4 ,"o ?+ only ,i lack$1 a s\l ) :om to %>e x all--= emotion & en?usiasm ov]fl[$ l wat] f a full cup4 ,! ,milky ,way1 ! great black popl>s1 ! ripple ( ! waves1 ! %oot+ />s1 di/ant songs1 ! lamp-lit t[n1 all spoke to me 9 ! language ( poetry4 ,i felt myself almo/ a poet4 ,! wr9kles ( sci5ce disappe>$ "u ! magic brea? ( admiration2 ! old ela/icity ( s\l1 tru/ful1 free1 & liv+ 0 m9e once m4 ,i 0 once m "y1 capable ( self-ab&onm5t & ( love4 ,all my b>r5ness _h disappe>$2 ! heav5ly dew _h f]tiliz$ ! dead & gn>l$ /ick2 x began to be gre5 & fl[] aga94 ,my ,god1 h[ wret*$ %\ld we be )\t beauty6 ,b ) x1 ev]y?+ is born afre% 9 u2 ! s5ses1 ! he>t1 imag9ation1 reason1 w1 come toge!r l ! dead bones ( ! prophet1 & become "o s+le & self-same en]gy4 ,:at is happ9ess if x is n ?is pl5titude ( exi/5ce1 ?is close union ) ! univ]sal & div9e life8 ,i h be5 happy a :ole half day1 & ,i h be5 brood+ ov] my joy1 /eep+ myself 9 x to ! v dep?s ( consci\sness4 ,octob] #bb1 #ahef4--,we mu/ le>n to look ^u life z an appr5tice%ip to a progressive r5unciation1 a p]petual dim9ution 9 our pret5sions1 our hopes1 our p[]s1 & our lib]ty4 ,! circle gr[s n>r[] & n>r[]2 we began ) be+ eag] to le>n ev]y?+1 to see ev]y?+1 to tame & conqu] ev]y?+1 & 9 all directions we rea* our limit--non plus ultra4 ,=tune1 glory1 love1 p[]1 heal?1 happ9ess1 long life1 all ^! bless+s :i* h be5 possess$ by o!r m5 seem at fir/ promis$ & accessible to u1 & !n we h to put ! dream away f u1 to )draw "o p]sonal claim aft] ano!r to make ourselves small & humble1 to submit to feel ourselves limit$1 feeble1 dep5d5t1 ignorant & poor1 & to ?r[ ourselves ^u ,god = all1 recogniz+ our own wor?lessness1 & t we h no "r to any?+4 ,x is 9 ?is no?+ness t we recov] some?+ ( life--! div9e sp>k is !re at ! bottom ( x4 ,resignation comes to u1 &1 9 believ+ love1 we reconqu] ! true greatness4 ,octob] #bg1 #ahef4--;,9 all ! *ief matt]s ( life we are alone1 & our true hi/ory is sc>cely ev] deciph]$ by o!rs4 ,! *ief "p ( ! drama is a monologue1 r an intimate debate betwe5 ,god1 our consci5ce1 & ourselves4 ,te>s1 griefs1 depressions1 disappo9tm5ts1 irritations1 good & evil ?\ghts1 decisions1 unc]ta9ties1 delib]ations1 all ^! belong to our secret1 & are almo/ all incommunicable & intransmissible1 ev5 :5 we try to speak ( !m1 & ev5 :5 we write !m d[n4 ,:at is mo/ preci\s 9 u nev] %[s itself1 nev] f9ds an issue ev5 9 ! close/ intimacy4 ,only a "p ( x rea*es our consci\sness1 x sc>cely ent]s into action except 9 pray]1 & is p]haps only p]ceiv$ by ,god1 = our pa/ rapidly becomes /range to u4 ,our monad may be influ5c$ by o!r monads1 b none ! less does x rema9 imp5etrable to !m 9 its ess5ce2 & we ourselves1 :5 all is said1 rema9 outside our own my/]y4 ,! c5t] ( our consci\sness is unconsci\s1 z ! k]nel ( ! sun is d>k4 ,all t we are1 desire1 d1 & "k1 is m or less sup]ficial1 & bel[ ! rays & lightn+s ( our p]iph]y !re rema9s ! d>kness ( unfa?omable sub/ance4 ,i 0 !n well-advis$ :51 9 my !ory ( ! inn] man1 ,i plac$ at ! f\ndation ( ! self1 aft] ! sev5 sph]es :i* ! self conta9s _h be5 successively dis5gag$1 a l[e/ dep? ( d>kness1 ! abyss ( ! un-reveal$1 ! virtual pl$ge ( an inf9ite future1 ! obscure self1 ! pure subjectivity :i* is incapable ( realiz+ itself 9 m9d1 consci5ce1 or reason1 9 ! s\l1 ! he>t1 ! imag9ation1 or ! life ( ! s5ses1 & :i* makes = itself attributes & conditions out ( all ^! =ms ( its own life4 ,b ! obscure only exi/s t x may cease to exi/4 ,9 x lies ! opportunity ( all victory & all progress4 ,:e!r x call itself fatality1 dea?1 night1 or matt]1 x is ! p$e/al ( life1 ( light1 ( lib]ty1 & ! _s4 ,= x repres5ts resi/ance--t is to say1 ! fulcrum ( all activity1 ! occasion = its developm5t & its triumph4 ,decemb] #ag1 #ahef4--,?is ev5+ 0 ! second qu>tet conc]t4 ,x /irr$ me mu* m ?an ! fir/2 ! music *os5 0 l(ti] & /rong]4 ,x 0 ! qu>tet 9 ,d m9or ( ,moz>t1 & ! qu>tet 9 ,c major ( ,bee?ov51 sep>at$ by a ,spohr conc]to4 ,?is la/1 vivid1 & brilliant z a :ole1 has fire 9 ! allegro1 feel+ 9 ! adagio1 & elegance 9 ! f9ale1 b x is ! product ( "o f9e gift 9 a m$iocre p]sonality4 ,) ! two o!rs y are at once 9 contact ) g5ius2 y are admitt$ to ! secrets ( two great s\ls4 ,moz>t /&s = inw>d lib]ty1 ,bee?ov5 = ! p[] ( en?usiasm4 ,! "o sets u free1 ! o!r ravi%es u out ( ourselves4 ,i d n ?9k ,i ev] felt m di/9ctly ?an to-day1 or ) m int5sity1 ! diff]5ce betwe5 ^! two ma/]s4 ,_! two p]sonalities became transp>5t to me1 & ,i seem$ to read !m to _! dep?s4 ,! "w ( ,moz>t1 p5etrat$ z x is ) m9d & ?\ght1 repres5ts a solv$ problem1 a balance /ruck betwe5 aspiration & executive capacity1 ! sov]eignty ( a grace :i* is always mi/ress ( itself1 m>vel\s h>mony & p]fect unity4 ,8 qu>tet describes a day 9 "o ( ^? ,attic s\ls :o pre-figure on e>? ! s]5ity ( ,elysium4 ,! fir/ sc5e is a pleasant conv]sation1 l t ( ,socrates on ! banks ( ! ,ilissus2 its *ief m>k is an exquisite urbanity4 ,! second sc5e is deeply pa!tic4 ,a cl\d has ris5 9 ! blue ( ?is ,greek heav54 ,a /orm1 su* z life inevitably br+s ) x1 ev5 9 ! case ( great s\ls :o love & e/eem ea* o!r1 has come to tr\ble ! orig9al h>mony4 ,:at is ! cause ( x--a misund]/&+1 apiece ( neglect8 ,impossible to say1 b x breaks out not)/&+4 ,! &ante is a sc5e ( reproa* & compla9t1 b z betwe5 immortals4 ,:at l(t9ess 9 compla9t1 :at dignity1 :at feel+1 :at noble sweetness 9 reproa*6 ,! voice trembles & gr[s grav]1 b rema9s affectionate & dignifi$4 ,!n1 ! /orm has pass$1 ! sun has come back1 ! explanation has tak5 place1 peace is re-e/abli%$4 ,! ?ird sc5e pa9ts ! brightness ( reconciliation4 ,love1 9 its re/or$ confid5ce1 & z ?\gh 9 sly self-te/+1 p]mits itself ev5 g5tle mock+ & fri5dly bad9age4 ,& ! f9ale br+s u back to t temp]$ gaiety & happy s]5ity1 t supreme fre$om1 fl[] ( ! inn] life1 :i* is ! lead+ motive ( ! :ole composition4 ,9 ,bee?ov5's on ! o!r h&1 a _s ( tragic irony pa9ts = y ! mad tumult ( exi/5ce z x dances =ev] above ! ?reat5+ abyss ( ! inf9ite4 ,no m unity1 no m satisfaction1 no m s]5ity6 ,we are spectators ( ! et]nal duel betwe5 ! great =ces1 t ( ! abyss :i* absorbs all f9ite ?+s1 & t ( life :i* def5ds & ass]ts itself1 exp&s1 & enjoys4 ,! fir/ b>s break ! seals & op5 ! cav]ns ( ! great deep4 ,! /ruggle beg9s4 ,x is long4 ,life is born1 & disports itself gay & c>eless z ! butt]fly :i* flutt]s above a precipice4 ,!n x exp&s ! realm ( its conque/s1 & *ants its successes4 ,x f\nds a k+dom1 x con/ructs a sy/em ( nature4 ,b ! typhon rises f ! yawn+ gulf1 & ! ,titans beat ^u ! gates ( ! new empire4 ,a battle ( giants beg9s4 ,y he> ! tumultu\s ef=ts ( ! p[]s ( *aos4 ,life triumphs at la/1 b ! victory is n f9al1 & ?r\gh all ! intoxication ( x !re is a c]ta9 note ( t]ror & bewild]m5t4 ,! s\l ( ,bee?ov5 0 a torm5t$ s\l4 ,! passion & ! awe ( ! inf9ite seem$ to toss x to & fro f heav5 to hell1 ,h5ce its va/ness4 ,:i* is ! great]1 ,moz>t or ,bee?ov58 ,idle "q6 ,! "o is m p]fect1 ! o!r m colossal4 ,! fir/ gives y ! peace ( p]fect art1 beauty1 at fir/ sight4 ,! second gives y sublimity1 t]ror1 pity1 a beauty ( second impression4 ,! "o gives t = :i* ! o!r r\ses a desire4 ,moz>t has ! classic purity ( light & ! blue ocean2 ,bee?ov5 ! romantic gr&eur :i* belongs to ! /orms ( air & sea1 & :ile ! s\l ( ,moz>t seems to dwell on ! e!real peaks ( ,olympus1 t ( ,bee?ov5 climbs %udd]+ ! /orm-beat5 sides ( a ,s9ai4 ,bless$ be !y bo?6 ,ea* repres5ts a mom5t ( ! ideal life1 ea* does u good4 ,our love is due to bo?4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to judge is to see cle>ly1 to c>e = :at is j & !re=e to be imp>tial1 m exactly1 to be dis9t]e/$1 m exactly /ill1 to be imp]sonal4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to d easily :at is difficult = o!rs is ! m>k ( tal5t4 ,to d :at is impossible = tal5t is ! m>k ( g5ius4 99 99 99 99 99 ,our duty is to be useful1 n accord+ to our desires b accord+ to our p[]s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,if nationality is cons5t1 ! /ate is compulsion4 99 99 99 99 99 ,self-int]e/ is b ! survival ( ! animal 9 u4 ,humanity only beg9s = man ) self-surr5d]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! man :o insi/s ^u see+ ) p]fect cle>ness be=e he decides1 nev] decides4 ,accept life1 & y mu/ accept regret4 99 99 99 99 99 ,)\t passion man is a m]e lat5t =ce & possibility1 l ! fl9t :i* awaits ! %ock ( ! iron be=e x c give =? its sp>k4 ,febru>y #c1 #aheg4--,! phantasmagoria ( ! s\l cradles & soo!s me z ?\gh ,i 7 an ,indian yoghi1 & ev]y?+1 ev5 my own life1 becomes to me smoke1 %ad[1 vapor1 & illusion4 ,i hold s lightly to all ph5om5a t !y end by pass+ ov] me l gleams ov] a l&scape1 & are gone )\t leav+ any impression4 ,?\ght is a k9d ( opium2 x c intoxicate u1 :ile /ill broad awake2 x c make transp>5t ! m\nta9s & ev]y?+ t exi/s4 ,x is by love only t "o keeps hold ^u reality1 t "o recov]s "o's prop] self1 t "o becomes aga9 w1 =ce1 & individuality4 ,love c\ld d ev]y?+ ) me2 by myself & = myself ,i pref] to be no?+4444 ,i h ! imag9ation ( regret & n t ( hope4 ,my cle>-sight$ness is retrospective1 & ! result ) me ( dis9t]e/$ness & prud5ce is t ,i atta* myself to :at ,i h no *ance ( obta9+4444 ,may #bg1 #aheg4 7,v&oeuvres4 ,footnote3 ,also a village 9 ! neighborhood ( ,g5eva47--,we are go+ d[n to ,g5eva to he> ! 8,tannhus]0 ( ,ri*>d ,wagn] p]=m$ at ! !at] by ! ,g]man tr\p n[ pass+ ?r\gh4 ,wagn]'s is a p[]ful m9d end[$ ) /rong poetical s5sitiv5ess4 ,8 "w is ev5 m poetical ?an musical4 ,! suppression ( ! lyrical elem5t1 & !re=e ( melody1 is ) him a sy/ematic p>ti pris4 ,no m duos or trios2 monologue & ! aria are alike done away )4 ,!re rema9s only declamation1 ! recitative1 & ! *oruses4 ,9 ord] to avoid ! conv5tional 9 s++1 ,wagn] falls into ano!r conv5tion--t ( n s++ at all4 ,he subord9ates ! voice to articulate spee*1 & = fe> le/ ! muse %\ld take flight he clips h] w+s4 ,s t 8 works are r symphonic dramas ?an op]as4 ,! voice is br\ght d[n to ! rank ( an in/rum5t1 put on a level ) ! viol9s1 ! hautboys1 & ! drums1 & treat$ in/rum5tally4 ,man is depos$ f 8 sup]ior position1 & ! c5t] ( gravity ( ! "w passes into ! baton ( ! conductor4 ,x is music dep]sonaliz$1 neo-,hegelian music--music multiple in/ead ( individual4 ,if ?is is s1 x is inde$ ! music ( ! future1 ! music ( ! sociali/ democracy replac+ ! art :i* is ari/ocratic1 h]oic1 or subjective4 ,! ov]ture pleas$ me ev5 less ?an at ! fir/ he>+3 x is l nature be=e man appe>$4 ,ev]y?+ 9 x is enorm\s1 savage1 elem5t>y1 l ! murmur ( =e/s & ! ro> ( animals4 ,x is =bidd+ & obscure1 because man1 t is to say1 m9d1 ! key ( ! enigma1 p]sonality1 ! spectator1 is want+ to x4 ,! idea ( ! piece is gr&4 ,x is no?+ less ?an ! /ruggle ( passion & pure love1 ( fle% & _s1 ( ! animal & ! angel 9 man4 ,! music is always expressive1 ! *oruses v beautiful1 ! or*e/ration skillful1 b ! :ole is fatigu+ & excessive1 too full1 too labori\s4 ,:5 all is said1 x lacks gayety1 ease1 naturalness & vivacity--x has no smile1 no w+s4 ,poetically "o is fasc9at$1 b "o's musical enjoym5t is hesitat+1 (t5 d\btful1 & "o recalls no?+ b ! g5]al impression--,wagn]'s music repres5ts ! abdication ( ! self1 & ! emancipation ( all ! =ces once "u its rule4 ,x is a fall+ back into ,sp9ozism--! triumph ( fatality4 ,?is music has its root & its fulcrum 9 two t5d5cies ( ! epo*1 mat]ialism & socialism--ea* ( !m ignor+ ! true value ( ! human p]sonality1 & dr[n+ x 9 ! totality ( nature or ( society4 ,june #ag1 #aheg4 7,v&oeuvres74--,i h j foll[$ ,ma9e de ,biran f 8 tw5ty-eigh? to 8 =ty-eigh? ye> by means ( 8 j\rnal1 & a cr[d ( ?\ghts h besieg$ me4 ,let me dis5gage ^? :i* conc]n myself4 ,9 ?is et]nal self-*ronicl] & obs]v] ,i seem to see myself reflect$ ) all my faults1 indecision1 disc\ragem5t1 ov]-dep5d5ce on sympa?y1 difficulty ( f9i%+1 ) my habit ( wat*+ myself feel & live1 ) my gr[+ incapacity = practical action1 ) my aptitude = psy*ological /udy4 ,b ,i h also discov]$ "s diff]5ces :i* *e] & console me4 ,?is nature is1 z x 71 only "o ( ! m5 :i* exi/ 9 me4 ,x is "o ( my dep>tm5ts4 ,x is n ! :ole ( my t]ritory1 ! :ole ( my inn] k+dom4 ,intellectually1 ,i am m objective & m con/ructive2 my horizon is va/]2 ,i h se5 mu* m ( m51 ?+s1 c\ntries1 peoples & books2 ,i h a great] mass ( exp]i5ces--9 a ^w1 ,i feel t ,i h m culture1 great] weal?1 range1 & fre$om ( m9d1 9 spite ( my wants1 my limits1 & my weaknesses4 ,:y does ,ma9e de ,biran make w ! :ole ( man8 ,p]haps because he _h too little w4 ,a man e/eems mo/ highly :at he himself lacks1 & exagg]ates :at he longs to possess4 ,ano!r incapable ( ?\ght1 & m$itation1 w\ld h made self-consci\sness ! supreme ?+4 ,only ! totality ( ?+s has an objective value4 ,z soon z "o isolates a "p f ! :ole1 z soon z "o *ooses1 ! *oice is involunt>ily & in/9ctively dictat$ by subjective incl9ations :i* obey "o or o!r ( ! two oppos+ laws1 ! attraction ( simil>s or ! aff9ity ( contr>ies4 ,five o'clock4--,! morn+ has pass$ l a dream4 ,i w5t on ) ! j\rnal ( ,ma9e de ,biran d[n to ! end ( #ahag4 ,aft] d9n] ,i pass$ my "t ) ! birds 9 ! op5 air1 w&]+ 9 ! %ady walks :i* w9d along "u ,pressy4 ,! sun 0 brilliant & ! air cle>4 ,! midday or*e/ra ( nature 0 at its be/4 ,aga9/ ! humm+ backgr\nd made by a ?\s& invisible insects !re rose ! delicate caprices & improvisations ( ! night+ale s++ f ! a%-trees1 or ( ! h$ge-sp>r[s & ! *aff9*es 9 _! ne/s4 ,! h$ges are hung ) wild roses1 ! sc5t ( ! acacia /ill p]fumes ! pa?s2 ! light d[n ( ! popl> se$s float$ 9 ! air l a k9d ( w>m1 fair-wea!r sn[4 ,i felt myself z gay z a butt]fly4 ,on com+ 9 ,i read ! ?ree fir/ books ( t poem 8,cor9ne10 :i* ,i h n se5 s9ce ,i 0 a y\?4 ,n[ z ,i read x aga91 ,i look at x across int]pos+ memories2 ! romantic int]e/ ( x seems to me to h vani%$1 b n ! poetical1 pa!tic1 or moral int]e/4 ,june #ah?4--,i h j be5 sp5d+ ?ree h\rs 9 ! or*>d "u ! %ade ( ! h$ge1 comb9+ ! spectacle ( a beautiful morn+ ) read+ & tak+ a turn betwe5 ea* *apt]4 ,n[ ! sky is aga9 cov]$ ) its :ite veil ( cl\d1 & ,i h come up ) ,biran1 ^: 8,p5se0 ,i h j f9i%$1 & ,cor9ne1 :om ,i h foll[$ ) ,oswald 9 _! excursions among ! monum5ts ( ! et]nal city4 ,no?+ is s melan*oly & we>isome z ?is j\rnal ( ,ma9e de ,biran4 ,?is un*ang+ monotony ( p]petual reflection has an en]vat+ & depress+ effect ^u "o4 ,"h1 !n1 is ! life ( a di/+ui%$ man se5 9 its mo/ intimate aspects6 ,x is "o long repetition1 9 :i* ! only *ange is an almo/ imp]ceptible displacem5t ( c5t] 9 ! writ]'s mann] ( view+ himself4 ,?is ?9k] takes ?irty ye>s to move f ! ,epicurean quietude to ! quietism ( ,fnlon1 & ?is only speculatively1 = 8 practical life rema9s ! same1 & all 8 an?ropological discov]y consi/s 9 return+ to ! !ory ( ! ?ree lives1 l[]1 human1 & high]1 :i* is 9 ,pascal & 9 ,ari/otle4 ,& ?is is :at !y call a philosoph] 9 ,france6 ,beside ! great philosoph]s1 h[ poor & n>r[ seems su* an intellectual life6 ,x is ! j\rney ( an ant1 b\nd$ by ! limits ( a field2 ( a mole1 :o sp5ds 8 days 9 ! con/ruction ( a mole-hill4 ,h[ n>r[ & /ifl+ ! swall[ :o flies across ! :ole ,old ,_w1 & ^: sph]e ( life embraces ,africa & ,europe1 w\ld f9d ! circle ) :i* ! mole & ! ant are cont5t6 ,?is volume ( ,biran produces 9 me a sort ( asphyxia2 z ,i assimilate x1 x seems to p>alyze me2 ,i am *a9$ to x by "s spell ( secret sympa?y4 ,i pity1 & ,i am afraid ( my pity1 = ,i feel h[ ne> ,i am to ! same evils & ! same faults4444 ,erne/ ,naville's introductory essay is full ( int]e/1 writt5 9 a s]i\s & noble /yle2 b x is almo/ z sad z x is ripe & mature4 ,:at displeases me 9 x a little is its exagg]ation ( ! m]its ( ,biran4 ,= ! re/1 ! small critical impati5ce :i* ! volume has /irr$ 9 me w be gone by to-morr[4 ,ma9e de ,biran is an important l9k 9 ! ,fr5* lit]>y tradition4 ,x is f him t our ,swiss critics desc5d1 ,naville fa!r & son1 ,secrtan4 ,he is ! s\rce ( our be/ contempor>y psy*ology1 = ,/apf]1 ,roy]-,coll>d1 & ,c\s9 call$ him _! ma/]1 & ,ampre1 8 junior by n9e ye>s1 0 8 fri5d4 ,july #be1 #aheg4 7,v&oeuvres74--,at t5 o'clock ?is ev5+1 "u a />lit sky1 a gr\p ( ru/ics "u ! w9d[s ( ! salon employ$ !mselves 9 %\t+ disagreeable songs4 ,:y is x t ?is tuneless %riek+ ( false notes & sc(f+ words delights ^! p8 ,:y is x t ?is o/5tati\s p>ade ( ugl9ess1 ?is j>r+ vulg>ity & grimac+ is _! way ( f9d+ expression & expansion 9 ! great solit>y & tranquil night8 ,:y8 ,because ( a sad & secret in/9ct4 ,because ( ! ne$ !y h ( realiz+ !mselves z individuals1 ( ass]t+ !mselves exclusively1 egoti/ically1 idolatr\sly--oppos+ ! self 9 !m to ev]y?+ else1 plac+ x 9 h>% contra/ ) ! nature :i* enwraps u1 ) ! poetry :i* raises u above ourselves1 ) ! h>mony :i* b9ds u to o!rs1 ) ! adoration :i* c>ries u t[>d ,god4 ,no1 no1 no6 ,myself only1 & t is en\gh6 ,myself by negation1 by ugl9ess1 by grimace & irony6 ,myself1 9 my caprice1 9 my indep5d5ce1 9 my irresponsible sov]eignty2 myself1 set free by laught]1 free z ! demons are1 & exult+ 9 my fre$om2 ,i1 ma/] ( myself1 inv9cible & self-suffici5t1 liv+ = ?is "o "t yet by & = myself6 ,?is is :at seems to me at ! bottom ( ?is m]ry-mak+4 ,"o he>s 9 x an e*o ( ,satan1 ! temptation to make self ! c5t] ( all ?+s1 to be l an ,elohim1 ! wor/ & la/ revolt ( man4 ,x means also1 p]haps1 "s rapid p]ception ( :at is absolute 9 p]sonality1 "s r\gh exaltation ( ! subject1 ! individual1 :o ?us claims1 by abas+ !m1 ! rights ( subjective exi/5ce4 ,if s1 x is ! c>icature ( our mo/ preci\s privilege1 ! p>ody ( our apo!osis1 a vulg>iz+ ( our highe/ greatness4 ,%\t away1 !n1 drunk>ds6 ,y\r ignoble conc]t1 ) all its repulsive vulg>ity1 /ill reveals to u1 )\t kn[+ x1 some?+ ( ! maje/y ( life & ! sov]eign p[] ( ! s\l4 ,septemb] #ae1 #aheg4--;,i h j f9i%$ ,sismondi's j\rnal & correspond5ce4 ,sismondi is ess5tially ! hone/ man1 consci5ti\s1 upright1 respectable1 ! fri5d ( ! public good & ! devot$ uphold] ( a great cause1 ! amelioration ( ! common lot ( m54 ,"* & he>t are ! dom9ant elem5ts 9 8 individuality1 & cordiality is ! sali5t feature ( 8 nature4 ,sismondi's is a mo/ enc\rag+ example4 ,) av]age faculties1 v little imag9ation1 n mu* ta/e1 n mu* tal5t1 )\t subtlety ( feel+1 )\t great elevation or wid? or pr(undity ( m9d1 he yet succe$$ 9 a*iev+ a c>e] :i* 0 almo/ illu/ri\s1 & he has left beh9d him "s sixty volumes1 well-kn[n & well spok5 (4 ,h[ 0 ?is8 ,8 love = m5 on ! "o side1 & 8 passion = "w on ! o!r1 are ! two factors 9 8 fame4 ,9 political economy1 9 lit]>y or political hi/ory1 9 p]sonal action1 ,sismondi %[$ no g5ius--sc>cely tal5t2 b 9 all he did !re 0 solidity1 loyalty1 good s5se & integrity4 ,! poetical1 arti/ic & philosophic s5se is defici5t 9 him1 b he attracts & int]e/s u by 8 moral s5se4 ,we see 9 him ! s9c]e writ]1 a man ( excell5t he>t1 a good citiz5 & w>m fri5d1 wor?y & hone/ 9 ! wide/ s5se ( t]ms1 n brilliant1 b inspir+ tru/ & confid5ce by 8 "*1 8 pr9ciples & 8 virtues4 ,m ?an ?is1 he is ! be/ type ( good ,g5evese lib]alism1 republican b n democratic1 ,prote/ant b n ,calv9i/1 human b n sociali/1 progressive b )\t any sympa?y ) viol5ce4 ,he 0 a cons]vative )\t ei!r egotism or hypocrisy1 a patriot )\t n>r[ness4 ,9 8 !ories he 0 gov]n$ by exp]i5ce & obs]vation1 & 9 8 practice by g5]al ideas4 ,a labori\s philan?ropi/1 ! pa/ & ! pres5t 7 to him b fields ( /udy1 f :i* useful lessons might be glean$4 ,positive & reasonable 9 temp]1 8 m9d 0 set ^u a high av]age well-be+ = human society1 & 8 ef=ts 7 direct$ t[>d f\nd+ su* a social sci5ce z might mo/ readily promote x4 ,septemb] #bd1 #aheg4--;,9 ! c\rse ( mu* ?\ght ye/]day ab\t 8,atala0 & 8,r510 ,*teaubri& became cle> to me4 ,i saw 9 him a great arti/ b n a great man1 imm5se tal5t b a /ill va/] pride--a nature at once dev\r$ ) ambition & unable to f9d any?+ to love or admire 9 ! _w except itself--indefatigable 9 labor & capable ( ev]y?+ except ( true devotion1 self-sacrifice & fai?4 ,jeal\s ( all success1 he 0 always on ! opposition side1 t he might be ! bett] able to disav[ all s]vices receiv$1 & to hold alo( f any o!r glory b 8 own4 ,legitimi/ "u ! empire1 a p>liam5t>ian t9d] ! legitimi/ rgime1 republican "u ! con/itutional mon>*y1 def5d+ ,*ri/ianity :5 ,france 0 philosophical1 & tak+ a di/a/e = religion z soon z x became once m a s]i\s p[]1 ! secret ( ^! endless contradictions 9 him 0 simply ! desire to reign alone l ! sun--a dev\r+ ?ir/ = applause1 an incurable & insatiable vanity1 :i*1 ) ! true1 fi]ce in/9ct ( tyranny1 w\ld endure no bro!r ne> ! ?rone4 ,a man ( magnific5t imag9ation b ( poor "*1 ( indisputable p[]1 b curs$ ) a cold egotism & an incurable b>r5ness ( feel+1 :i* made x impossible = him to tol]ate ab\t him anybody b slaves or ador]s4 ,a torm5t$ s\l & mis]able life1 :5 all is said1 "u its aureole ( glory & its cr[n ( laurels6 ,ess5tially jeal\s & *ol]ic1 ,*teaubri& f ! beg9n+ 0 inspir$ by mi/ru/1 by ! passion = contradict+1 = cru%+ & conqu]+4 ,?is motive may always be trac$ 9 him4 ,r\sseau seems to me 8 po9t ( dep>ture1 ! man :o sugge/$ to him by contra/ & opposition all 8 replies & attacks1 ,r\sseau is revolution>y3 ,*teaubri& !re=e writes 8 8,essay on ,revolutions40 ,r\sseau is republican & ,prote/ant2 ,*teaubri& w be royali/ & ,ca?olic4 ,r\sseau is b\rgeois2 ,*ateaubri& w glorify no?+ b noble bir?1 honor1 *ivalry & de$s ( arms4 ,r\sseau conqu]$ nature = ,fr5* lett]s1 above all ! nature ( ! m\nta9s & ( ! ,swiss & ,savoy1 & lakes4 ,he plead$ = h] aga9/ civilization4 ,*teaubri& w take possession ( a new & colossal nature1 ( ! ocean1 ( ,am]ica2 b he w make 8 savages speak ! language ( ,l\is ,,xiv41 he w b[ ,atala be=e a ,ca?olic mission>y1 & sanctify passions born on ! banks ( ! ,mississippi by ! solemnities ( ,ca?olic c]emonial4 ,r\sseau 0 ! apologi/ ( rev]ie2 ,*teaubri& w build ! monum5t ( x 9 ord] to break x 9 ,r54 ,r\sseau prea*es ,deism ) all 8 eloqu5ce 9 ! 8,vicaire ,savoy>d20 ,*teaubri& surr\nds ! ,roman cre$ ) all ! g>l&s ( 8 poetry 9 ! 8,gnie du ,*ri/ianisme40 ,r\sseau appeals to natural law & pleads = ! future ( nations2 ,*teaubri& w only s+ ! glories ( ! pa/1 ! a%es ( hi/ory & ! noble ru9s ( empires4 ,always a rle to be fill$1 clev]ness to be display$1 a p>ti-pris to be upheld & fame to be won--8 !me1 "o ( imag9ation1 8 fai? "o to ord]1 b s9c]ity1 loyalty1 c&or1 seldom or nev]6 ,always a real indiff]5ce simulat+ a passion = tru?2 always an imp]i\s ?ir/ = glory in/ead ( devotion to ! good2 always ! ambiti\s arti/1 nev] ! citiz51 ! believ]1 ! man4 ,*teaubri& pos$ all 8 life z ! we>i$ ,colossus1 smil+ pitifully ^u a pygmy _w1 & contemptu\sly affect+ to desire no?+ f x1 ?\gh at ! same "t wi%+ x to be believ$ t he c\ld if he pleas$ possess himself ( ev]y?+ by m]e =ce ( g5ius4 ,he is ! type ( an unt[>d race1 & ! fa!r ( a disagreeable l9eage4 ,b to return to ! two episodes4 8,r50 seems to me v sup]ior to 8,atala4'0 ,bo? ! /ories %[ a tal5t ( ! fir/ rank1 b ( ! two ! beauty ( 8,atala0 is ( ! m transitory k9d4 ,! attempt to r5d] 9 ! /yle ( ,v]sailles ! loves ( a ,nat*ez & a ,sem9ole1 & to describe ! mann]s ( ! ador]s ( ! ,manit\s 9 ! tone ( ,ca?olic s5tim5t1 0 an attempt too viol5t to succe$4 ,b ! "w is a t\r de =ce ( /yle1 & x 0 only by ! poli%$ classicism ( ! =m1 t ! romantic matt] ( ! s5tim5ts & ! descriptions c\ld h be5 import$ into ! colorless lit]ature ( ! empire4 8,atala0 is already old-fa%ion$ & !atrical 9 all ! p>ts :i* are n descriptive or ,european--t is to say1 ?r\gh\t all ! s5tim5tal savag]y4 8,r50 is inf9itely m durable4 ,its !me1 :i* is ! malady ( a :ole g5]ation--di/a/e = life br\ght ab\t by idle rev]ie & ! ravages ( a vague & unmeasur$ ambition--is true to reality4 ,)\t kn[+ or wi%+ x1 ,*teaubri& has be5 s9c]e1 = ,r5 is himself4 ,?is little sket* is 9 e respect a ma/]piece4 ,x is n1 l 8,atala10 spoilt arti/ically by int5tions ali5 to ! subject1 by be+ made ! means ( expression ( a p>ticul> t5d5cy4 ,in/ead ( tak+ a passion = ,r51 inde$1 future g5]ations w scorn & wond] at him2 in/ead ( a h]o !y w see 9 him a pa?ological case2 b ! "w itself1 l ! ,sph9x1 w endure4 ,a "w ( art w be> all k9ds ( int]pretations2 ea* 9 turn f9ds a basis 9 x1 :ile ! "w itself1 because x repres5ts an idea1 & !re=e p>takes ( ! ri*ness & complexity :i* belong to ideas1 suffices = all & survives all4 ,a portrait proves :atev] "o asks ( x4 ,ev5 9 its =ms ( /yle1 9 ! disda9ful g5]ality ( ! t]ms 9 :i* ! /ory is told1 9 ! t]s5ess ( ! s5t5ces1 9 ! sequ5ce ( ! images & ( ! pictures1 trac$ ) classic purity & m>vel\s vigor1 8,r50 ma9ta9s its monum5tal "*4 ,c>v$1 z x 71 9 mat]ial ( ! pres5t c5tury1 ) ! tools ( classical art1 8,r50 is ! immortal cameo ( ,*teaubri&4 ,we are nev] m discont5t$ ) o!rs ?an :5 we are discont5t$ ) ourselves4 ,! consci\sness ( wrong-do+ makes u irritable1 & our he>t 9 its cunn+ qu>rels ) :at is outside x1 9 ord] t x may deaf5 ! clamor )94 99 99 99 99 99 ,! faculty ( intellectual metamorphosis is ! fir/ & indisp5sable faculty ( ! critic2 )\t x he is n apt at und]/&+ o!r m9ds1 & ought1 !re=e1 if he love tru?1 to hold 8 peace4 ,! consci5ti\s critic mu/ fir/ criticise himself2 :at we d n und]/& we h n ! "r to judge4 99 99 99 99 99 ,june #ad1 #aheh4--,sadness & anxiety seem to be increas+ ^u me4 ,l cattle 9 a burn+ /able1 ,i cl+ to :at consumes me1 to ! solit>y life :i* does me s mu* h>m4 ,i let myself be dev\r$ by inw>d suff]+4444 ,ye/]day1 h[ev]1 ,i /ruggl$ aga9/ ?is fatal t5d5cy4 ,i w5t out into ! c\ntry1 & ! *ildr5's c>esses re/or$ to me some?+ ( s]5ity & calm4 ,aft] we _h d9$ out ( doors all ?ree sang "s songs & s*ool hymns1 :i* 7 delightful to li/5 to4 ,! spr+ fairy _h be5 scatt]+ fl[]s ov] ! fields ) lavi% h&s2 x 0 a little glimpse ( p>adise4 ,x is true1 inde$1 t ! s]p5t too 0 n f> (f4 ,ye/]day !re 0 a robb]y close by ! h\se1 & dea? _h visit$ ano!r neighbor4 ,s9 & dea? lurk ar\nd e ,ed51 & sometimes )9 x4 ,h5ce ! tragic beauty1 ! melan*oly poetry ( human de/9y4 ,fl[]s1 %ade1 a f9e view1 a sunset sky1 joy1 grace1 feel+1 abundance & s]5ity1 t5d]ness & song--"h y h ! elem5t ( beauty3 ! dang]s ( ! pres5t & ! trea*]ies ( ! future1 "h is ! elem5t ( pa?os4 ,! fa%ion ( ?is _w passe? away4 ,unless we h laid hold ^u et]nity1 unless we take ! religi\s view ( life1 ^! bright1 fleet+ days c only be a subject = t]ror4 ,happ9ess %\ld be a pray]--& grief also4 ,fai? 9 ! moral ord]1 9 ! protect+ fa!rhood ( ,god1 appe>$ to me 9 all its s]i\s sweetness4 8,p5se1 aime1 agis et s\ffre en ,dieu ,c'e/ la gr&e sci5ce40 ,july #ah1 #aheh4--,to-day ,i h be5 deeply mov$ by ! no/algia ( happ9ess & by ! appeals ( memory4 ,my old self1 ! dreams :i* us$ to haunt me 9 ,g]many1 passionate impulses1 high aspirations1 all reviv$ 9 me at once ) unexpect$ =ce4 ,! dread le/ ,i %\ld h miss$ my de/9y & /ifl$ my true nature1 le/ ,i %\ld h buri$ myself alive1 pass$ ?r\gh me l a %udd]4 ,?ir/ = ! unkn[n1 passionate love ( life1 ! ye>n+ = ! blue vaults ( ! inf9ite & ! /range worlds ( ! ineffable1 & t sad ec/asy :i* ! ideal wak5s 9 its behold]s--all ^! c>ri$ me away 9 a :irlw9d ( feel+ t ,i _c describe4 ,0 x a w>n+1 a puni%m5t1 a temptation8 ,0 x a secret prote/1 or a viol5t act ( rebellion on ! "p ( a nature :i* is unsatisfi$8--! la/ agony ( happ9ess & ( a hope t w n die8 ,:at rais$ all ?is /orm8 ,no?+ b a book--! fir/ numb] ( ! 8,revue ,g]manique40 ,! articles ( ,dollfus1 ,r5an1 ,littr1 ,montgut1 ,taill&i]1 by recall+ to me "s old & favorite subjects1 made me =get t5 wa/$ ye>s1 & c>ri$ me back to my univ]sity life4 ,i 0 tempt$ to ?r[ (f my ,g5evese g>b & to set (f1 /ick 9 h&1 = any c\ntry t might (f]--/ripp$ & poor1 b /ill "y1 en?usia/ic1 & alive1 full ( ardor & ( fai?4 444 ,i h be5 dream+ alone s9ce t5 o'clock at ! w9d[1 :ile ! />s tw9kl$ among ! cl\ds1 & ! lights ( ! neighbors disappe>$ "o by "o 9 ! h\ses r\nd4 ,dream+ ( :at8 ,( ! mean+ ( ?is tragic com$y :i* we call life4 ,alas6 alas6 ,i 0 z melan*oly z ! prea*]4 ,a hundr$ ye>s seem$ to me a dream1 life a brea?1 & ev]y?+ a no?+4 ,:at tortures ( m9d & s\l1 & all t we may die 9 a few m9utes6 ,:at %\ld int]e/ u1 & :y8 8,le temps n'e/ ri5 p\r l'me1 enfant1 ta vie e/ ple9e1 ,et ce j\r vaut c5t ans1 s'il te fait tr\v] ,dieu40 ,to make an object = myself1 to hope1 to /ruggle1 seems to me m & m impossible & amaz+4 ,at tw5ty ,i 0 ! embodim5t ( curiosity1 ela/icity & spiritual ubiquity2 at ?irty-sev5 ,i h n a w1 a desire1 or a tal5t left2 ! fireworks ( my y\? h left no?+ b a h&ful ( a%es beh9d !m4 ,decemb] #ac1 #aheh4--;,consid] y\rself a refractory pupil = :om y are responsible z m5tor & tutor4 ,to sanctify s9ful nature1 by br++ x gradually "u ! control ( ! angel )9 u1 by ! help ( a holy ,god1 is really ! :ole ( ,*ri/ian p$agogy & ( religi\s morals4 ,our "w--my "w--consi/s 9 tam+1 subdu+1 evangeliz+ & angeliz+ ! evil self2 & 9 re/or+ h>mony ) ! good self4 ,salvation lies 9 ab&on+ ! evil self 9 pr9ciple & 9 tak+ refuge ) ! o!r1 ! div9e self1 9 accept+ ) c\rage & pray] ! task ( liv+ ) "o's own demon1 & mak+ x into a less & less rebelli\s in/rum5t ( good4 ,! ,abel 9 u mu/ labor = ! salvation ( ! ,ca94 ,to und]take x is to be conv]t$1 & ?is conv]sion mu/ be repeat$ day by day4 ,abel only r$eems & t\*es ,ca9 by ex]cis+ him con/antly 9 good works4 ,to d "r is 9 "o s5se an act ( viol5ce2 x is suff]+1 expiation1 a cross1 = x means ! conque/ & enslavem5t ( self4 ,9 ano!r s5se x is ! appr5tice%ip to heav5ly ?+s1 sweet & secret joy1 cont5tm5t & peace4 ,sanctification implies p]petual m>tyrdom1 b x is a m>tyrdom :i* glorifies4 ,a cr[n ( ?orns is ! sad et]nal symbol ( ! life ( ! sa9ts4 ,! be/ measure ( ! pr(undity ( any religi\s doctr9e is giv5 by its conception ( s9 & ! cure ( s94 ,a duty is no soon] div9$ ?an f t v mom5t x becomes b9d+ ^u u4 99 99 99 99 99 ,lat5t g5ius is b a presumption4 ,ev]y?+ t c be1 is b\nd to come into be+1 & :at nev] comes into be+ is no?+4 ,july #ad1 #ahei4--;,i h j read 8,fau/0 aga94 ,alas1 e ye> ,i am fasc9at$ afre% by ?is somb] figure1 ?is re/less life4 ,x is ! type ( suff]+ t[>d :i* ,i myself gravitate1 & ,i am always f9d+ 9 ! poem words :i* /rike /raight to my he>t4 ,immortal1 malign1 accurs$ type6 ,spect] ( my own consci5ce1 gho/ ( my own torm5t1 image ( ! ceaseless /ruggle ( ! s\l :i* has n yet f\nd its true alim5t1 its peace1 its fai?--art ?\ n ! typical example ( a life :i* fe$s ^u itself1 because x has n f\nd its ,god1 & :i*1 9 its w&]+ flight across ! worlds1 c>ries )9 x1 l a comet1 an inext+ui%able flame ( desire1 & an agony ( incurable disillusion8 ,i also am r$uc$ to no?+ness1 & ,i %iv] on ! br9k ( ! great empty abysses ( my inn] be+1 /ifl$ by long+ = ! unkn[n1 consum$ ) ! ?ir/ = ! inf9ite1 pro/rate be=e ! ineffable4 ,i also am torn sometimes by ?is bl9d passion = life1 ^! desp]ate /ruggles = happ9ess1 ?\gh m (t5 ,i am a prey to complete exhau/ion & taciturn despair4 ,:at is ! reason ( x all8 ,d\bt--d\bt ( "o's self1 ( ?\ght1 ( m51 & ( life--d\bt :i* en]vates ! w & weak5s all our p[]s1 :i* makes u =get ,god & neglect pray] & duty--t re/less & corrosive d\bt :i* makes exi/5ce impossible & meets all hope ) satire4 ,july #ag1 #ahei4--;,always & ev]y:]e salvation is torture1 deliv]ance means dea?1 & peace lies 9 sacrifice4 ,if we w\ld w9 our p>don1 we mu/ kiss ! fi]y crucifix4 ,life is a s]ies ( agonies1 a ,calv>y1 :i* we c only climb on bruis$ & a*+ knees4 ,we seek di/ractions2 we w&] away2 we deaf5 & /upefy ourselves t we may escape ! te/2 we turn away o> eyes f ! via dolorosa2 & yet !re is no help = x--we mu/ come back to x 9 ! end4 ,:at we h to recognize is t ea* ( u c>ries )9 himself 8 own execution]--8 demon1 8 hell1 9 8 s92 t 8 s9 is 8 idol1 & t ?is idol1 :i* s$uces ! desire ( 8 he>t1 is 8 curse4 ,die unto s96 ,?is great say+ ( ,*ri/ianity rema9s /ill ! highe/ !oretical solution ( ! inn] life4 ,only 9 x is !re any peace ( consci5ce2 & )\t ?is peace !re is no peace4444 ,i h j read sev5 *apt]s ( ! gospel4 ,no?+ calms me s mu*4 ,to d "o's duty 9 love & ob$i5ce1 to d :at is "r--^! are ! ideas :i* rema9 ) "o4 ,to live 9 ,god & to d 8 "w--?is is religion1 salvation1 life et]nal2 ?is is bo? ! effect & ! sign ( love & ( ! ,holy ,_s2 ?is is ! new man ann\nc$ by ,jesus1 & ! new life into :i* we ent] by ! second bir?4 ,to be born aga9 is to r5\nce ! old life1 s91 & ! natural man1 & to take to "o's self ano!r pr9ciple ( life4 ,x is to exi/ = ,god ) ano!r self1 ano!r w1 ano!r love4 ,augu/ #i1 #ahei4--,nature is =getful3 ! _w is almo/ m s4 ,h[ev] little ! individual may l5d himself to x1 oblivion soon cov]s him l a %r\d4 ,?is rapid & inexorable expansion ( ! univ]sal life1 :i* cov]s1 ov]fl[s1 & swall[s up all individual be+1 :i* effaces our exi/5ce & annuls all memory ( u1 fills me ) unbe>able melan*oly4 ,to be born1 to /ruggle1 to disappe>--!re is ! :ole ephem]al drama ( human life4 ,except 9 a few he>ts1 & n ev5 always 9 "o1 our memory passes l a ripple on ! wat]1 or a breeze 9 ! air4 ,if no?+ 9 u is immortal1 :at a small ?+ is life4 ,l a dream :i* trembles & dies at ! fir/ glimm] ( dawn1 all my pa/1 all my pres5t1 dissolve 9 me1 & fall away f my consci\sness at ! mom5t :5 x returns ^u itself4 ,i feel myself !n /ripp$ & empty1 l a convalesc5t :o rememb]s no?+4 ,my travels1 my read+1 my /udies1 my projects1 my hopes1 h fad$ f my m9d4 ,x is a s+ul> /ate4 ,all my faculties drop away f me l a cloak t "o takes (f1 l ! *rysalis case ( a l>va4 ,i feel myself return+ into a m elem5t>y =m4 ,i behold my own unclo?+2 ,i =get1 /ill m ?an ,i am =gott52 ,i pass g5tly into ! grave :ile /ill liv+1 & ,i feel1 z x 71 ! indescribable peace ( annihilation1 & ! dim quiet ( ! ,nirvana4 ,i am consci\s ( ! riv] ( "t pass+ be=e & 9 me1 ( ! impalpable %ad[s ( life glid+ pa/ me1 b no?+ breaks ! cateleptic tranquillity :i* enwraps me4 ,i come to und]/& ! ,buddhi/ trance ( ! ,s\fis1 ! kief ( ! ,turk1 ! 8ec/asy0 ( ! ori5tals1 & yet ,i am consci\s all ! "t t ! pleasure ( x is deadly1 t1 l ! use ( opium or ( ha%ee%1 x is a k9d ( sl[ suicide1 inf]ior 9 all respects to ! joys ( action1 to ! sweetness ( love1 to ! beauty ( en?usiasm1 to ! sacr$ savor ( accompli%$ duty4 ,novemb] #bh1 #ahei4--,?is ev5+ ,i he>d ! fir/ lecture ( ,erne/ ,naville ,footnote3 ,! well-kn[n ,g5evese prea*] & writ]1 ,erne/ ,naville1 ! son ( a ,g5evese pa/or1 0 born 9 #ahaf1 became pr(essor at ! ,academy ( ,g5eva 9 #ahdd1 lo/ 8 po/ aft] ! revolution ( #ahdf1 &1 except = a %ort int]val 9 #ahfj1 has s9ce !n held no (ficial position4 ,8 c\rses ( !ological lectures1 deliv]$ at int]vals f #ahei onw>d1 7 an extraord9>y success4 ,!y 7 at fir/ conf9$ to m5 only1 & an audi5ce ( two ?\s& p]sons sometimes assembl$ to he> !m4 ,to lit]ature he is ma9ly kn[n z ! editor ( ,ma9e de ,biran's ,j\rnal4 on 8,! ,et]nal ,life40 ,x 0 admirably sure 9 t\*1 true1 cle>1 & noble ?r\gh\t4 ,he prov$ t1 :e!r we w\ld or no1 we 7 b\nd to face ! "q ( ano!r life4 ,beauty ( "*1 =ce ( expression1 dep? ( ?\ght1 7 all equally visible 9 ?is extemporiz$ address1 :i* 0 z closely reason$ z a book1 & c sc>cely be dis5tangl$ f ! quotations ( :i* x 0 full4 ,! great room ( ! ,cas9o 0 full to ! doors1 & "o saw a fairly l>ge numb] ( :ite heads4 ,decemb] #ac1 #ahei4--;,fif? lecture on 8,! ,et]nal ,life0 78,! ,pro( ( ! ,gospel by ! ,sup]natural407 ,! same tal5t & great eloqu5ce2 b ! orator does n und]/& t ! sup]natural mu/ ei!r be hi/orically prov$1 or1 suppos+ x _c be prov$1 t x mu/ r5\nce all pret5sions to ov]/ep ! doma9 ( fai? & to encroa* ^u t ( hi/ory & sci5ce4 ,he quotes ,/rauss1 ,r5an1 ,s*]]1 b he t\*es only ! lett] ( !m1 n ! _s4 ,ev]y:]e "o sees ! ,c>tesian dualism & a /rik+ want ( ! g5etic1 hi/orical1 & critical s5se4 ,! idea ( a liv+ evolution has n p5etrat$ into ! consci\sness ( ! orator4 ,) e int5tion ( deal+ ) ?+s z !y are1 he rema9s1 9 spite ( himself1 subjective & oratorical4 ,!re is ! inconv5i5ce ( h&l+ a matt] polemically in/ead ( 9 ! _s ( ! /ud5t4 ,naville's moral s5se is too /rong = 8 disc]nm5t & prev5ts him f see+ :at he does n wi% to see4 ,9 8 metaphysic1 w is plac$ above intellig5ce1 & 9 8 p]sonality ! "* is sup]ior to ! und]/&+1 z "o might logically expect4 ,& ! consequ5ce is1 t he may prop up :at is tott]+1 b he makes no conque/s2 he may help to pres]ve exi/+ tru?s & beliefs1 b he is de/itute ( initiative or vivify+ p[]4 ,he is a moraliz+ b n a sugge/ive or /imulat+ influ5ce4 ,a popul>iz]1 apologi/ & orator ( ! greate/ m]it1 he is a s*oolman at bottom2 8 argum5ts are ( ! same type z ^? ( ! twelf? c5tury1 & he def5ds ,prote/antism 9 ! same way 9 :i* ,ca?olicism has be5 commonly def5d$4 ,! be/ way ( demon/rat+ ! insuffici5cy ( ?is po9t ( view is to %[ by hi/ory h[ incompletely x has be5 sup]s$$4 ,! *im]a ( a simple & absolute tru? is :olly ,ca?olic & anti-hi/oric4 ,! m9d ( ,naville is ma!matical & 8 objects moral4 ,8 /r5g? lies 9 ma!maticiz+ morals4 ,z soon z x becomes a "q ( developm5t1 metamorphosis1 organization--z soon z he is br\ght into contact ) ! mobile _w ( actual life1 especially ( ! spiritual life1 he has no long] any?+ s]viceable to say4 ,language is = him a sy/em ( fix$ signs2 a man1 a p1 a book1 are s _m geometrical figures ( :i* we h only to discov] ! prop]ties4 ,decemb] #ae?4--,naville's six? lecture1 an admirable "o1 because x did no?+ m ?an exp\nd ! ,*ri/ian doctr9e ( et]nal life4 ,z an extempore p]=mance--m>vel\sly exact1 f9i%$1 cle> & noble1 m>k$ by a /rong & discipl9$ eloqu5ce4 ,!re 0 n a s+le res]vation to make 9 ! "n ( criticism1 hi/ory or philosophy4 ,x 0 all beautiful1 noble1 true & pure4 ,x seems to me t ,naville has improv$ 9 ! art ( spee* dur+ ^! latt] ye>s4 ,he has always _h a k9d ( dignifi$ & didactic beauty1 b he has n[ add$ to x ! contagi\s cordiality & w>m? ( feel+ :i* complete ! orator2 he moves ! :ole man1 beg9n+ ) ! intellect b f9i%+ ) ! he>t4 ,he is n[ v ne> to ! true virile eloqu5ce1 & possesses "o species ( x inde$ v ne>ly 9 p]fection4 ,he has arriv$ at ! complete comm& ( ! res\rces ( 8 own nature1 at an adequate & ma/]ly expression ( himself4 ,su* expression is ! joy & glory ( ! oratorical arti/ z ( e o!r4 ,naville is rapidly becom+ a model 9 ! art ( prem$itat$ & self-controll$ eloqu5ce4 ,!re is ano!r k9d ( eloqu5ce--t :i* seems inspir$1 :i* f9ds1 discov]s1 & illum9ates by b\nds & fla%es1 :i* is born 9 ! sight ( ! audi5ce & transports x4 ,su* is n ,naville's k9d4 ,is x bett] wor? hav+8 ,i d n "k4 99 99 99 99 99 ,e real ne$ is /ill$1 & e vice is /imulat$ by satisfaction4 99 99 99 99 99 ,ob/9acy is w ass]t+ itself )\t be+ able to ju/ify itself4 ,x is p]si/5ce )\t a plausible motive4 ,x is ! t5acity ( self-love sub/itut$ = ! t5acity ( reason or consci5ce4 ,x is n :at he has1 nor ev5 :at he does1 :i* directly expresses ! wor? ( a man1 b :at he is4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:at com=t1 :at /r5g?1 :at economy !re is 9 ord]--mat]ial ord]1 intellectual ord]1 moral ord]4 ,to "k :]e "o is go+ & :at "o wi%es--?is is ord]2 to keep "o's ^w & "o's engagem5ts--aga9 ord]2 to h ev]y?+ ready "u "o's h&1 to be able to dispose ( all "o's =ces1 & to h all "o's means ( :atev] k9d "u comm&--/ill ord]2 to discipl9e "o's habits1 "o's ef=t1 "o's wi%es2 to organize "o's life1 to di/ribute "o's "t1 to take ! measure ( "o's duties & make "o's rights respect$2 to employ "o's capital & res\rces1 "o's tal5t & "o's *ances pr(itably--all ?is belongs to & is includ$ 9 ! ^w ord]4 ,ord] means light & peace1 inw>d lib]ty & free comm& ov] "o's self2 ord] is p[]4 ,ae/hetic & moral beauty consi/1 ! fir/ 9 a true p]ception ( ord]1 & ! second 9 submission to x1 & 9 ! realization ( x1 by1 91 & ar\nd "o's self4 ,ord] is man's greate/ ne$ & 8 true well-be+4 ,april #ag1 #ahfj4--,! cl\d has lift$2 ,i am bett]4 ,i h be5 able to take my usual walk on ! ,treille2 all ! buds 7 op5+ & ! "y %oots 7 gre5 on all ! bran*es4 ,! rippl+ ( cle> wat]1 ! m]rim5t ( birds1 ! "y fre%ness ( plants1 & ! noisy play ( *ildr51 produce a /range effect ^u an invalid4 ,or r x 0 /range to me to be look+ at su* ?+s ) ! eyes ( a sick & dy+ man2 x 0 my fir/ introduction to a new phase ( exp]i5ce4 ,!re is a deep sadness 9 x4 ,"o feels "o's self cut (f f nature--outside h] communion z x 74 ,%e is /r5g? & joy & et]nal heal?4 8,room = ! liv+10 %e cries to u2 8d n come to d>k5 my blue sky ) y\r mis]ies2 ea* has 8 turn3 begone60 ,b to /r5g!n our own c\rage1 we mu/ say to ourselves1 ,no2 x is good = ! _w to see suff]+ & weakness2 ! sight adds ze/ to ! joy ( ! happy & ! c>eless1 & is ri* 9 w>n+ = all :o ?9k4 ,life has be5 l5t to u1 & we owe x to our travel+ companions to let !m see :at use we make ( x to ! end4 ,we mu/ %[ our bre?r5 bo? h[ to live & h[ to die4 ,^! fir/ summonses ( illness h besides a div9e value2 !y give u glimpses beh9d ! sc5es ( life2 !y tea* u some?+ ( its awful reality & its inevitable end4 ,!y tea* u sympa?y4 ,!y w>n u to r$eem ! "t :ile x is yet day4 ,!y awak5 9 u gratitude = ! bless+s :i* are /ill ours1 & humility = ! gifts :i* are 9 u4 ,s t1 evils ?\gh !y seem1 !y are really an appeal to u f on high1 a t\* ( ,god's fa!rly sc\rge4 ,h[ frail a ?+ is heal?1 & :at a ?9 envelope protects our life aga9/ be+ swall[$ up f )\t1 or disorganiz$ f )96 ,a brea?1 & ! boat spr+s a leak or f\nd]s2 a no?+1 & all is endang]$2 a pass+ cl\d1 & all is d>kness6 ,life is inde$ a fl[] :i* a morn+ )]s & ! beat ( a pass+ w+ breaks d[n2 x is ! wid['s lamp1 :i* ! slighte/ bla/ ( air ext+ui%es4 ,9 ord] to realize ! poetry :i* cl+s to morn+ roses1 "o ne$s to h j escap$ f ! claws ( t vulture :i* we call illness4 ,! f\ndation & ! height5+ ( all ?+s is ! gravey>d4 ,! only c]ta9ty 9 ?is _w ( va9 agitations & endless anxieties1 is ! c]ta9ty ( dea?1 & t :i* is ! =eta/e & small *ange ( dea?--pa94 ,z long z we turn our eyes away f ?is implacable reality1 ! trag$y ( life rema9s hidd5 f u4 ,z soon z we look at x face to face1 ! true proportions ( ev]y?+ reappe>1 & exi/5ce becomes solemn aga94 ,x is made cle> to u t we h be5 frivol\s & petulant1 intractable & =getful1 & t we h be5 wrong4 ,we mu/ die & give an acc\nt ( our life3 "h 9 all its simplicity is ! tea*+ ( sickness6 8,d ) all dilig5ce :at y h to d2 reconcile y\rself ) ! law ( ! univ]se2 ?9k ( y\r duty2 prep>e y\rself = dep>ture30 su* is ! cry ( consci5ce & ( reason4 ,may #c1 #ahfj4--;,edg> ,qu9et has attempt$ ev]y?+3 he has aim$ at no?+ b ! greate/ ?+s2 he is ri* 9 ideas1 a ma/] ( spl5did imag]y1 s]i\s1 en?usia/ic1 c\rage\s1 a noble writ]4 ,h[ is x1 !n1 t he has n m reputation8 ,because he is too pure2 because he is too uni=mly ec/atic1 fanta/ic1 inspir$--a mood :i* soon palls on ,fr5*m54 ,because he is too s+le-m9d$1 c&id1 !oretical1 & speculative1 too ready to believe 9 ! p[] ( words & ( ideas1 too expansive & confid+2 :ile at ! same "t he is lack+ 9 ! qualities :i* amuse clev] p--9 s>casm1 irony1 cunn+ & f9esse4 ,he is an ideali/ revel+ 9 color3 a ,platoni/ br&i%+ ! ?yrsus ( ! ,m5ads4 ,at bottom 8 is a m9d ( no p>ticul> c\ntry4 ,x is 9 va9 t he satirizes ,g]many & abuses ,engl&2 he does n make himself any m ( a ,fr5*man by do+ s4 ,x is a nor!rn intellect w$d$ to a s\!rn imag9ation1 b ! m>riage has n be5 a happy "o4 ,he has ! disease ( *ronic magniloqu5ce1 ( invet]ate sublimity2 ab/ractions = him become p]sonifi$ & colossal be+s1 :i* act or speak 9 colossal fa%ion2 he is intoxicat$ ) ! inf9ite4 ,b "o feels all ! "t t 8 creations are only individual monologues2 he _c escape f ! b\nds ( a subjective lyrism4 ,ideas1 passions1 ang]1 hopes1 compla9ts--he himself is pres5t 9 !m all4 ,we nev] h ! delight ( escap+ f 8 magic circle1 ( see+ tru? z x is1 ( ent]+ into relation ) ! ph5om5a & ! be+s ( :om he speaks1 ) ! reality ( ?+s4 ,?is imprisonm5t ( ! au?or )9 8 p]sonality looks l conceit4 ,b on ! contr>y1 x is because ! he>t is g5]\s t ! m9d is egoti/ical4 ,x is because ,qu9et ?9ks himself s mu* ( a ,fr5*man t he is x s little4 ,^! ironical comp5sations ( de/9y are v famili> to me3 ,i h (t5 obs]v$ !m4 ,man is no?+ b contradiction3 ! less he kn[s x ! m dupe he is4 ,9 consequ5ce ( 8 small capacity = see+ ?+s z !y are1 ,qu9et has nei!r mu* accuracy nor mu* balance ( m9d4 ,he recalls ,victor ,hugo1 ) mu* less arti/ic p[] b m hi/orical s5se4 ,8 pr9cipal gift is a great comm& ( imag]y & symbolism4 ,he seems to me a ,grres ,footnote3 ,joseph ,go]res1 a ,g]man my/ic & disciple ( ,s*ell+4 ,he publi%$1 among o!r works1 8,my!nges*i*te d] ,asiatis*5 ,welt10 & 8,*ri/li*e ,my/ik40 transplant$ to ,fran*e ,comt1 a sort ( sup]num]>y prophet1 ) :om 8 nation h>dly kn[s :at to d1 see+ t %e loves nei!r enigmas nor ec/asy nor inflation ( language1 & t ! intoxication ( ! tripod bores h]4 ,! real excell5ce ( ,qu9et seems to me to lie 9 8 hi/orical works 78,m>nix10 8,l',italie10 8,les ,r\ma9s071 & especially 9 8 /udies ( nationalities4 ,he 0 born1 to und]/& ^! s\ls1 at once m va/ & m sublime ?an individual s\ls4 7,lat]74--,i h be5 translat+ into v]se t page ( ,goe!'s 8,fau/0 9 :i* is conta9$ 8 pan!i/ic confession ( fai?4 ,! translation is n bad1 ,i ?9k4 ,b :at a diff]5ce betwe5 ! two languages 9 ! matt] ( precision6 ,x is l ! diff]5ce betwe5 /ump & grav+-tool--! "o %[+ ! ef=t1 ! o!r not+ ! result ( ! act2 ! "o mak+ y feel all t is m]ely dream$ or vague1 =mless or vacant1 ! o!r det]m9+1 fix+1 giv+ %ape ev5 to ! indef9ite2 ! "o repres5t+ ! cause1 ! =ce1 ! limbo :5ce ?+s issue1 ! o!r ! ?+s !mselves4 ,g]man has ! obscure dep? ( ! inf9ite1 ,fr5* ! cle> brightness ( ! f9ite4 ,may #e1 #ahfj4--,to gr[ old is m difficult ?an to die1 because to r5\nce a good once & = all1 co/s less ?an to r5ew ! sacrifice day by day & 9 detail4 ,to be> ) "o's own decay1 to accept "o's own less5+ capacity1 is a h>d] & r>] virtue ?an to face dea?4 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re is a halo r\nd tragic & premature dea?2 !re is b a long sadness 9 decl9+ /r5g?4 ,b look clos]3 s /udi$1 a resign$ & religi\s old age w (t5 move u m ?an ! h]oic ardor ( "y ye>s4 ,! maturity ( ! s\l is wor? m ?an ! fir/ brilliance ( its faculties1 or ! pl5titude ( its /r5g?1 & ! et]nal 9 u c b pr(it f all ! ravages made by "t4 ,!re is com=t 9 ?is ?\ght4 ,may #bb1 #ahfj4--,!re is 9 me a secret incapacity = express+ my true feel+1 = say+ :at pleases o!rs1 = be>+ witness to ! pres5t--a res]ve :i* ,i h (t5 notic$ 9 myself ) vexation4 ,my he>t nev] d>es to speak s]i\sly1 ei!r because x is a%am$ ( be+ ?\ght to flatt]1 or afraid le/ x %\ld n f9d exactly ! "r expression4 ,i am always trifl+ ) ! pres5t mom5t4 ,feel+ 9 me is retrospective4 ,my refractory nature is sl[ to recognize ! solemnity ( ! h\r 9 :i* ,i actually /&4 ,an ironical in/9ct1 born ( timidity1 makes me pass lightly ov] :at ,i h on pret5ce ( wait+ = "s o!r ?+ at "s o!r "t4 ,fe> ( be+ c>ri$ away1 & di/ru/ ( myself pursue me ev5 9 mom5ts ( emotion2 by a sort ( inv9cible pride1 ,i c nev] p]suade myself to say to any p>ticul> in/ant3 8,/ay6 decide = me2 be a supreme mom5t6 /& out f ! monoton\s dep?s ( et]nity & m>k a unique exp]i5ce 9 my life60 ,i trifle1 ev5 ) happ9ess1 out ( di/ru/ ( ! future4 ,may #bg1 #ahfj4 7,sunday74--,i he>d ?is morn+ a s]mon on ! ,holy ,_s--good b insuffici5t4 ,:y 0 ,i n edifi$8 ,because !re 0 no unction4 ,:y 0 !re no unction8 ,because ,*ri/ianity f ?is rationali/ic po9t ( view is a ,*ri/ianity ( dignity1 n ( humility4 ,p5it5ce1 ! /ruggles ( weakness1 au/]ity1 f9d no place 9 x4 ,! law is effac$1 hol9ess & my/icism evaporate2 ! specifically ,*ri/ian acc5t is want+4 ,my impression is always ! same--fai? is made a dull poor ?+ by ^! attempts to r$uce x to simple moral psy*ology4 ,i am oppress$ by a feel+ ( inappropriat5ess & malaise at ! sight ( philosophy 9 ! pulpit4 8,!y h tak5 away my ,savi\r1 & ,i "k n :]e !y h laid him20 s ! simple folk h a "r to say1 & ,i repeat x ) !m4 ,?us1 :ile "s %ock me by _! sac]dotal dogmatism1 o!rs repel me by _! rationaliz+ laicism4 ,x seems to me t good prea*+ ought to comb9e1 z ,s*lei]ma*] did1 p]fect moral humility ) en]getic indep5d5ce ( ?\ght1 a pr(\nd s5se ( s9 ) respect = criticism & a passion = tru?4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! free be+ :o ab&ons ! conduct ( himself1 yields himself to ,satan2 9 ! moral _w !re is no gr\nd )\t a ma/]1 & ! wa/e l&s belong to ! ,evil ,"o4 ,! poetry ( *ildhood consi/s 9 simulat+ & =e/all+ ! future1 j z ! poetry ( mature life consi/s (t5 9 go+ backw>d to "s gold5 age4 ,poetry is always 9 ! di/ance4 ,! :ole art ( moral gov]nm5t lies 9 ga9+ a direct+ & %ap+ hold ov] ! poetical ideals ( an age4 ,janu>y #i1 #ahfa4--;,i h j come f ! inaugural lecture ( ,victor ,*]buliez 9 a /ate ( bewild]$ admiration4 ,z a lecture x 0 exquisite3 if x 0 a recitation ( prep>$ matt]1 x 0 admirable2 if an extempore p]=mance1 x 0 amaz+4 ,9 ! face ( sup]iority & p]fection1 says ,s*ill]1 we h b "o res\rce--to love !m1 :i* is :at ,i h done4 ,i _h ! pleasure1 m+l$ ) a little surprise1 ( feel+ 9 myself no sort ( jeal\sy t[>d ?is "y conqu]or4 ,m>* #ae?4--,?is la/ lecture 9 ,victor ,*]buliez's c\rse on 8,*ivalry10 :i* is j ov]1 %[$ ! same magical p[] ov] 8 subject z t ) :i* he began ! s]ies two mon?s ago4 ,x 0 a triumph & a h>ve/ ( laurels4 ,c]vantes1 ,ignatius ,loyola1 & ! h]itage ( *ivalry--t is to say1 individualism1 honor1 ! poetry ( ! pres5t & ! poetry ( contra/s1 mod]n lib]ty & progress--h be5 ! subjects ( ?is lecture4 ,! g5]al impression left ^u me all along has be5 "o ( admiration = ! union 9 him ( extraord9>y skill 9 execution ) admirable cultivation ( m9d4 ,) :at fre$om ( _s he uses & wields 8 va/ erudition1 & :at capacity = close att5tion he mu/ h to be able to c>ry ! weight ( a :ole improvis$ spee* ) ! same ease z ?\gh x 7 a s+le s5t5ce6 ,i d n "k if ,i am p>tial1 b ,i f9d no occasion = any?+ b praise 9 ?is "y wiz>d & 8 lectures4 ,! fact is1 t 9 my op9ion we h n[ "o m fir/ rate m9d1 "o m ma/] ( language among u4 ,?is c\rse1 ) ! 8,caus]ies ,a?ni5nes10 seems to me to e/abli% ,victor ,*]buliez's position at ,g5eva4 ,m>* #ag1 #ahfa4--,?is aft]noon a homicidal languor seiz$ hold ^u me--disgu/1 we>9ess ( life1 mortal sadness4 ,i w&]$ out into ! *ur*y>d1 hop+ to f9d quiet & peace !re1 & s to reconcile myself ) duty4 ,va9 dream6 ,! place ( re/ itself _h become inhospitable4 ,workm5 7 /ripp+ & c>ry+ away ! turf1 ! trees 7 dry1 ! w9d cold1 ! sky gray--some?+ arid1 irrev]5t1 & prosaic di%onor$ ! re/+-place ( ! dead4 ,i 0 /ruck ) some?+ want+ 9 our national feel+--respect = ! dead1 ! poetry ( ! tomb1 ! piety ( memory4 ,our *ur*es are too little op52 our *ur*y>ds too mu*4 ,! result 9 bo? cases is ! same4 ,! tortur$ & trembl+ he>t :i* seeks1 outside ! sc5e ( its daily mis]ies1 to f9d "s place :]e x may pray 9 peace1 or p\r out its grief be=e ,god1 or m$itate 9 ! pres5ce ( et]nal ?+s1 ) u has n[h]e to g4 ,our *ur* ignores ^! wants ( ! s\l in/ead ( div9+ & meet+ !m4 ,%e %[s v little compassionate c>e = h] *ildr51 v little wise consid]ation = ! m delicate griefs1 & no intuition ( ! deep] my/]ies ( t5d]ness1 no religi\s suavity4 ,"u a pretext ( spirituality we are always *eck+ legitimate aspirations4 ,we h lo/ ! my/ical s5se2 & :at is religion )\t my/icism8 ,a rose )\t p]fume4 ,! words rep5tance & sanctification are always on our lips4 ,b adoration & consolation are also two ess5tial elem5ts 9 religion1 & we ought p]haps to make m room = !m ?an we d4 ,april #bh1 #ahfa4--;,9 ! same way z a dream trans=ms accord+ to its nature1 ! incid5ts ( sleep1 s ! s\l conv]ts into psy*ical ph5om5a ! ill-def9$ impressions ( ! organism4 ,an uncom=table attitude becomes nightm>e2 an atmosph]e *>g$ ) /orm becomes moral torm5t4 ,n me*anically & by direct causality2 b imag9ation & consci5ce eng5d]1 accord+ to _! own nature1 analog\s effects2 !y translate into _! own language1 & ca/ into _! own mold1 :atev] rea*es !m f outside4 ,?us dreams may be helpful to m$ic9e & to div9ation1 & /ates ( wea!r may /ir up & set free )9 ! s\l vague & hidd5 evils4 ,! sugge/ions & solicitations :i* act ^u life come f outside1 b life produces no?+ b itself aft] all4 ,orig9ality consi/s 9 rapid & cle> reaction aga9/ ^! outside influ5ces1 9 giv+ to !m our individual /amp4 ,to ?9k is to )draw1 z x 71 into "o's impression--to make x cle> to "o's self1 & !n to put x =? 9 ! %ape ( a p]sonal judgm5t4 ,9 ?is also consi/s self-deliv]ance1 self-enfran*isem5t1 self-conque/4 ,all t comes f outside is a "q to :i* we owe an answ]--a pressure to be met by c\nt]-pressure1 if we are to rema9 free & liv+ ag5ts4 ,! developm5t ( our unconsci\s nature foll[s ! a/ronomical laws ( ,ptolemy2 ev]y?+ 9 x is *ange--cycle1 epi-cycle1 & metamorphosis4 ,e man !n possesses 9 himself ! analogies & rudim5ts ( all ?+s1 ( all be+s1 & ( all =ms ( life4 ,he :o kn[s h[ to div9e ! small beg9n+s1 ! g]ms & symptoms ( ?+s1 c retrace 9 himself ! univ]sal me*anism1 & div9e by intuition ! s]ies :i* he himself w n f9i%1 su* z vegetable & animal exi/5ces1 human passions & crises1 ! diseases ( ! s\l & ^? ( ! body4 ,! m9d :i* is subtle & p[]ful may p5etrate all ^! pot5tialities1 & make e po9t fla% out ! _w :i* x conta9s4 ,?is is to be consci\s ( & to possess ! g5]al life1 ?is is to ent] into ! div9e sanctu>y ( contemplation4 ,septemb] #ab1 #ahfa4--;,9 me an intellect :i* w\ld fa9 =get itself 9 ?+s1 is contradict$ by a he>t :i* ye>ns to live 9 human be+s4 ,! unit+ l9k ( ! two contradictions is ! t5d5cy t[>d self-ab&onm5t1 t[>d ceas+ to w & exi/ = "o's self1 t[>d lay+ d[n "o's own p]sonality1 & los+--dissolv+--"o's self 9 love & contemplation4 ,:at ,i lack above all ?+s is "*1 w1 individuality4 ,b1 z always happ5s1 ! appe>ance is exactly ! contr>y ( ! reality1 & my outw>d life ! rev]se ( my true & deepe/ aspiration4 ,i ^: :ole be+--he>t & intellect--?ir/s to absorb itself 9 reality1 9 its neighbor man1 9 nature & 9 ,god1 ,i1 :om solitude dev\rs & de/roys1 ,i %ut myself up 9 solitude & seem to delight only 9 myself & to be suffici5t = myself4 ,pride & delicacy ( s\l1 timidity ( he>t1 h made me ?us d viol5ce to all my in/9cts & inv]t ! natural ord] ( my life4 ,x is n a/oni%+ t ,i %\ld be un9telligible to o!rs4 ,9 fact ,i h always avoid$ :at attract$ me1 & turn$ my back ^u ! po9t :]e secretly ,i desir$ to be4 8,deux in/9cts sont en moi3 v]tige et draison2 ,j'ai l'effroi du bonheur et la soif du poison40 ,x is ! ,nemesis :i* dogs ! /eps ( life1 ! secret in/9ct & p[] ( dea? 9 u1 :i* labors cont9ually = ! de/ruction ( all t seeks to be1 to take =m1 to exi/2 x is ! passion = de/ruction1 ! t5d5cy t[>d suicide1 id5tify+ itself ) ! in/9ct ( self-pres]vation4 ,?is antipa?y t[>d all t does "o good1 all t n\ri%es & heals1 is x n a m]e v>iation ( ! antipa?y to moral light & reg5]ative tru?8 ,does n s9 also create a ?ir/ = dea?1 a gr[+ passion = :at does h>m8 ,disc\ragem5t has be5 my s94 ,disc\ragem5t is an act ( unbelief4 ,gr[+ weakness has be5 ! consequ5ce ( x2 ! pr9ciple ( dea? 9 me & ! influ5ce ( ! ,pr9ce ( ,d>kness h wax$ /rong] toge!r4 ,my w 9 abdicat+ has yield$ up ! scept] to in/9ct2 & z ! corruption ( ! be/ results 9 :at is wor/1 love ( ! ideal1 t5d]ness1 unworldl9ess1 h l$ me to a /ate 9 :i* ,i %r9k f hope & crave = annihilation4 ,action is my cross4 ,octob] #aa1 #ahfa4 7,heidelb]g74--,aft] elev5 days j\rney1 "h ,i am "u ! ro( ( my fri5ds1 9 _! hospitable h\se on ! banks ( ! ,neck>1 ) its g>d5 climb+ up ! side ( ! ,heilig5b]g4444 ,blaz+ sun2 my room is flood$ ) light & w>m?4 ,sitt+ opposite ! ,geisb]g1 ,i write to ! murmur ( ! ,neck>1 :i* rolls its gre5 waves1 fleck$ ) silv]1 exactly b5ea? ! balcony on :i* my room op5s4 ,a great b>ge com+ f ,heilbron passes sil5tly "u my eyes1 :ile ! :eels ( a c>t :i* ,i _c see are dimly he>d on ! road :i* skirts ! riv]4 ,di/ant voices ( *ildr51 ( cocks1 ( *irp+ sp>r[s1 ! clock ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,holy ,_s1 :i* *imes ! h\r1 s]ve to gauge1 )\t tr\bl+1 ! g5]al tranquility ( ! sc5e4 ,"o feels ! h\rs g5tly slipp+ by1 & "t1 in/ead ( fly+1 seems to hov]4 ,a peace beyond words /eals into my he>t1 an impression ( morn+ grace1 ( fre% c\ntry poetry :i* br+s back ! s5se ( y\?1 & has ! true ,g]man savor4444 ,two deck$ b>ges c>ry+ r$ flags1 ea* ) a tra9 ( flat boats fill$ ) coal1 are go+ up ! riv] & mak+ _! way "u ! ar* ( ! great /one bridge4 ,i /& at ! w9d[ & see a :ole p]spective ( boats sail+ 9 bo? directions2 ! ,neck> is z animat$ z ! /reet ( "s great capital2 & already on ! slope ( ! wood$ m\nta91 /reak$ by ! smoke-wrea?s ( ! t[n1 ! ca/le ?r[s its %ad[ l a va/ drap]y1 & traces ! outl9es ( its battlem5ts & turrets4 ,high] up1 9 front ( me1 rises ! d>k pr(ile ( ! ,molk5kur2 high] /ill1 9 relief aga9/ ! dazzl+ ea/1 ,i c di/+ui% ! mi/y =ms ( ! two t[]s ( ! ,kais]/uhl & ! ,trutzhe9ri*4 ,b en\gh ( l&scape4 ,my ho/1 ,dr4 ,george ,web]1 tells me t 8 manual ( hi/ory is translat$ into ,poli%1 ,dut*1 ,spani%1 ,italian1 & ,fr5*1 & t ( 8 great 8,univ]sal ,hi/ory0--?ree volumes are already publi%$4 ,:at a/oni%+ p[] ( "w1 :at prodigi\s t5acity1 :at solidity6 ,o deuts*] ,fleiss6 ,novemb] #be1 #ahfa4--,to und]/& a drama requires ! same m5tal op]ation z to und]/& an exi/5ce1 a biography1 a man4 ,x is a putt+ back ( ! bird into ! egg1 ( ! plant into its se$1 a recon/itution ( ! :ole g5esis ( ! be+ 9 "q4 ,art is simply ! br++ into relief ( ! obscure ?\ght ( nature2 a simplification ( ! l9es1 a fall+ into place ( gr\ps o!rwise invisible4 ,! fire ( inspiration br+s out1 z x 71 designs trac$ be=eh& 9 sympa!tic ink4 ,! my/]i\s gr[s cle>1 ! confus$ pla92 :at is complicat$ becomes simple--:at is accid5tal1 necess>y4 ,9 %ort1 art reveals nature by int]pret+ its int5tions & =mulat+ its desires4 ,e ideal is ! key ( a long enigma4 ,! great arti/ is ! simplifi]4 ,e man is a tam] ( wild bea/s1 & ^! wild bea/s are 8 passions4 ,to draw _! tee? & claws1 to muzzle & tame !m1 to turn !m into s]vants & dome/ic animals1 fum+1 p]haps1 b submissive--9 ?is consi/s p]sonal education4 ,febru>y #c1 #ahfb4--,self-criticism is ! corrosive ( all oratorical or lit]>y spontaneity4 ,! ?ir/ to "k turn$ ^u ! self is puni%$1 l ! curiosity ( ,psy*e1 by ! flight ( ! ?+ desir$4 ,=ce %\ld rema9 a my/]y to itself2 z soon z x tries to p5etrate its own secret x vani%es away4 ,! h5 ) ! gold5 eggs becomes unfruitful z soon z %e tries to f9d out :y h] eggs are gold54 ,! consci\sness ( consci\sness is ! t]m & end ( analysis4 ,true1 b analysis pu%$ to extremity dev\rs itself1 l ! ,egyptian s]p5t4 ,we mu/ give x "s ext]nal matt] to cru% & dissolve if we wi% to prev5t its de/ruction by its action ^u itself4 8,we are1 & ought to be1 obscure to ourselves10 said ,goe!1 8turn$ outw>d1 & work+ ^u ! _w :i* surr\nds u40 ,outw>d radiation con/itutes heal?2 a too cont9u\s conc5tration ^u :at is )9 br+s u back to vacuity & blank4 ,x is bett] t life %\ld dilate & ext5d itself 9 ev]-wid5+ circles1 ?an t x %\ld be p]petually dim9i%$ & compress$ by solit>y contraction4 ,w>m? t5ds to make a globe out ( an atom2 cold1 to r$uce a globe to ! dim5sions ( an atom4 ,analysis has be5 to me self-annull+1 self-de/roy+4 ,april #bc1 #ahfb4 7,mornex sur ,salve74--,i 0 awak5$ by ! twitt]+ ( ! birds at a qu>t] to five1 & saw1 z ,i ?rew op5 my w9d[s1 ! yell[+ cresc5t ( ! moon look+ 9 ^u me1 :ile ! ea/ 0 j fa9tly :it5+4 ,an h\r lat] x 0 delici\s out ( doors4 ,! anemones 7 /ill clos$1 ! apple-trees 9 full fl[]3 8,ces beaux pommi]s1 cov]ts de leurs fleurs toilens1 ,neige odorante du pr9temps40 ,! view 0 exquisite1 & nature1 9 full fe/ival1 spread fre%ness & joy ar\nd h]4 ,i breakfa/$1 read ! pap]1 & "h ,i am4 ,! ladies ( ! p5sion are /ill "u ! horizon4 ,i pity !m = ! loss ( two or ?ree delightful h\rs4 ,elev5 o'clock4--,preludes1 scales1 piano-ex]cises go+ on "u my feet4 ,9 ! g>d5 *ildr5's voices4 ,i h j f9i%$ ,ros5krantz on 8,hegel's ,logic10 & h run ?r\gh a few articles 9 ! ,reviews4444 ,! limitation ( ! ,fr5* m9d consi/s 9 ! insuffici5cy ( its spiritual alphabet1 :i* does n all[ x to translate ! ,greek1 ,g]man1 or ,spani% m9d )\t *ang+ ! acc5t4 ,! hospitality ( ,fr5* mann]s is n complet$ by a real hospitality ( ?\ght4444 ,my nature is j ! opposite4 ,i am individual 9 ! pres5ce ( m51 objective 9 ! pres5ce ( ?+s4 ,i atta* myself to ! object1 & absorb myself 9 x2 ,i deta* myself f subjects i4e44 p]sons1 & hold myself on my gu>d aga9/ !m4 ,i feel myself diff]5t f ! mass ( m51 & ak9 to ! great :ole ( nature4 ,my way ( ass]t+ myself is 9 *]i%+ ?is s5se ( sympa!tic unity ) life1 :i* ,i ye>n to und]/&1 & 9 repudiat+ ! tyranny ( commonplace4 ,all t is imitative & artificial inspires me ) a secret repulsion1 :ile ! smalle/ true & spontane\s exi/5ce 7plant1 animal1 *ild7 draws & attracts me4 ,i feel myself 9 community ( _s ) ! ,goe!s1 ! ,hegels1 ! ,s*lei]ma*]s1 ! ,leibnitzes1 oppos$ z !y are among !mselves2 :ile ! ,fr5* ma!maticians1 philosoph]s1 or rhetoricians1 9 spite ( _! high qualities1 leave me cold1 because !re is 9 !m no s5se ( ! :ole1 ! sum ( ?+s ,footnote3 ,! foll[+ passage f ,sa9te-,beuve may be tak5 z a k9d ( answ] by anticipation to ?is accusation1 :i* ,amiel br+s m ?an once 9 ! c\rse ( ! ,j\rnal3 8,t\te nation livre elle-mme et son propre gnie se fait une critique littraire qui y e/ con=me4 ,la ,france en son beau temps a eu la si5ne1 qui ne ressemble ni celle de l',allemagne ni celle de ses autres vois9s--un peu plus sup]ficielle1 dira-t-on--je ne le crois pas3 mais plus vive1 mo9s *>ge d'erudition1 mo9s ?orique et sy/matique1 plus confiante au s5tim5t immdiat du gt4 ,un peu de *aque *ose et ri5 de l'ensemble1 la ,franaise3 telle tait la devise de ,montaigne et telle e/ aussi la devise de la critique franaise4 ,n\s ne sommes pas syn?tiques1 comme dirai5t les ,allem&s2 le mot mme n'e/ pas franaise4 ,l'imag9ation de dtail n\s suffit4 ,montaigne1 ,la ,fonta9e ,madame de ,svign1 sont volonti]s nos livres de *evet40 ,! ,fr5* critic !n goes on to give a rapid sket* ( ! au?ors & ! books1 8qui ont peu a peu =m comme notre rhtorique40 ,fr5* criticism ( ! old *>act]i/ic k9d re/s ultimately ^u ! m9ute & delicate k ( a few ,greek & ,lat9 classics4 ,arnauld1 ,boileau1 ,fnlon1 ,roll91 ,rac9e fils1 ,voltaire1 ,la ,h>pe1 ,m>montel1 ,delille1 ,fontanes1 & ,*teaubri& 9 "o aspect1 are ! typical names ( ?is tradition1 ! creators & ma9ta9]s ( ?is common lit]>y fonds1 ?is 8sorte de circulation c\rante l'usage des g5s in/ruits4 ,j'av\e ma faiblesse3 n\s sommes dev5us bi5 plus =ts dans la diss]tation rudite1 mais j'aurais un t]nel regret p\r cette moy5ne et plus libre habitude littraire qui laissait l'imag9ation t\t son espace et l'esprit t\t son jeu2 qui =mait une atmosphre sa9e et facile o le tal5t respirait et se m\vait son gr3 cette atmosphre-l1 je ne la tr\ve plus1 et je la regrette40--7,*teaubri& et son ,gr\pe ,littraire1 vol4 i4 p4 #caa47 ,! foll[+ p5se ( ,la ,bruyre applies to ! second half ( ,amiel's criticism ( ! ,fr5* m9d3 8,if y wi% to travel 9 ! ,inf]no or ! ,p>adiso y mu/ take o!r guides10 etc4 8,un homme n ,*rti5 et ,franois se tr\ve contra9t dans la satyre2 les gr&s sujets lui sont df5dus1 il les entame quelquefois1 et se dt\rne ensuite sur de petites *oses qu'il relve p> la beaut de son gnie et de son /yle40--,les ,c>actres1 etc41 8,des ,ouvrages del',esprit40--because !y h no grasp ( reality 9 its fullness1 & !re=e ei!r cramp & limit me or awak5 my di/ru/4 ,! ,fr5* lack t intuitive faculty to :i* ! liv+ unity ( ?+s is reveal$1 !y h v little s5se ( :at is sacr$1 v little p5etration into ! my/]ies ( be+4 ,:at !y excel 9 is ! con/ruction ( special sci5ces2 ! art ( writ+ a book1 /yle1 c\rtesy1 grace1 lit]>y models1 p]fection & urbanity2 ! _s ( ord]1 ! art ( tea*+1 discipl9e1 elegance1 tru? ( detail1 p[] ( arrangem5t2 ! desire & ! gift = proselytism1 ! vigor necess>y = practical conclusions4 ,b if y wi% to travel 9 ! 8,inf]no0 or ! 8,p>adiso0 y mu/ take o!r guides4 ,_! home is on ! e>?1 9 ! region ( ! f9ite1 ! *ang+1 ! hi/orical1 & ! div]se4 ,_! logic nev] goes beyond ! category ( me*anism nor _! metaphysic beyond dualism4 ,:5 !y und]take any?+ else !y are do+ viol5ce to !mselves4 ,april #bd?4 7,noon74--,all ar\nd me pr(\nd peace1 ! sil5ce ( ! m\nta9s 9 spite ( a full h\se & a neighbor+ village4 ,no s\nd is to be he>d b ! murmur ( ! flies4 ,!re is some?+ v /rik+ 9 ?is calm4 ,! middle ( ! day is l ! middle ( ! night4 ,life seems susp5d$ j :5 x is mo/ int5se4 ,^! are ! mom5ts 9 :i* "o he>s ! inf9ite & p]ceives ! ineffable4 ,victor ,hugo1 9 8 8,contemplations10 has be5 c>ry+ me f _w to _w1 & s9ce !n 8 contradictions h rem9d$ me ( ! conv9c$ ,*ri/ian ) :om ,i 0 talk+ ye/]day 9 a h\se ne> by4444 ,! same sunlight floods bo? ! book & nature1 ! d\bt+ poet & ! believ+ prea*]1 z well z ! mobile dream]1 :o1 9 ! mid/ ( all ^! v>i\s exi/5ces1 all[s himself to be sway$ by e pass+ brea?1 & delights1 /ret*$ along ! c> ( 8 balloon1 9 float+ aimlessly ?r\gh all ! s\nds & %all[s ( ! e!r1 & 9 realiz+ )9 himself all ! h>monies & dissonances ( ! s\l1 ( feel+1 & ( ?\ght4 ,idl5ess & contemplation6 ,slumb] ( ! w1 lapses ( ! vital =ce1 indol5ce ( ! :ole be+--h[ well ,i "k y6 ,to love1 to dream1 to feel1 to le>n1 to und]/&--all ^! are possible to me if only ,i may be reliev$ f will+4 ,x is my t5d5cy1 my in/9ct1 my fault1 my s94 ,i h a sort ( primitive horror ( ambition1 ( /ruggle1 ( hatr$1 ( all :i* dissipates ! s\l & makes x dep5d5t ^u ext]nal ?+s & aims4 ,! joy ( becom+ once m consci\s ( myself1 ( li/5+ to ! passage ( "t & ! fl[ ( ! univ]sal life1 is sometimes en\gh to make me =get e desire1 & to qu5* 9 me bo? ! wi% to produce & ! p[] to execute4 ,intellectual ,epicureanism is always ?reat5+ to ov]p[] me4 ,i c only combat x by ! idea ( duty2 x is z ! poet has said3 8,ceux qui viv5t1 ce sont ceux qui lutt5t2 ce sont ,ceux dont un desse9 f]me emplit l'me et le front1 ,ceux qui d'un haut de/9 graviss5t l'pre cime1 ,ceux qui m>*5t p5sifs1 pris d'un b sublime1 ,ayant devant les yeux sans cesse1 nuit et j\r1 ,ou quelque sa9t labeur ou quelque gr& am\r60 ,footnote3 ,victor ,hugo1 8,les ,*atim5ts40 ,five o'clock4--,9 ! aft]noon our little society met 9 g5]al talk ^u ! t]race4 ,"s am\nt ( famili>ity & fri5dl9ess beg9s to %[ itself 9 our relations to ea* o!r4 ,i read ov] aga9 ) emotion "s passages ( 8,jocelyn40 ,h[ admirable x is6 8,il se fit de sa vie une plus mle ide3 ,sa d\leur d'un seul trait ne l'avait pas vide2 ,mais1 adorant de ,dieu le svre desse91 ,il sut la port] ple9e et pure dans son se91 ,et ne se htant pas de la rp&re t\te1 ,sa rsignation l'pan*a g\tte g\tte1 ,selon la circon/ance et le beso9 d'autrui1 ,p\r t\t vivifi] sur t]re aut\r de lui40 ,footnote3 ,epilogue ( 8,jocelyn40 ,! true poetry is t :i* raises y1 z ?is does1 t[>d heav51 & fills y ) div9e emotion2 :i* s+s ( love & dea?1 ( hope & sacrifice1 & awak5s ! s5se ( ! inf9ite4 8,jocelyn0 always /irs 9 me impulses ( t5d]ness :i* x w\ld be hateful to me to see pr(an$ by satire4 ,z a trag$y ( feel+1 x has no p>allel 9 ,fr5*1 = purity1 except 8,paul et ,virg9ie10 & ,i ?9k t ,i pref] 8,jocelyn40 ,to be j1 "o ought to read !m side by side4 ,six o'clock4--,"o m day is draw+ to its close4 ,) ! exception ( ,mont ,blanc1 all ! m\nta9s h already lo/ _! color4 ,! ev5+ *ill succe$s ! heat ( ! aft]noon4 ,! s5se ( ! implacable flight ( ?+s1 ( ! resi/less passage ( ! h\rs1 seizes ^u me afre% & oppresses me4 8,nature au front s]e91 comme v\s oubliez60 ,9 va9 we cry ) ! poet1 8,o "t1 susp5d ?y flight60444 ,& :at days1 aft] all1 w\ld we keep & hold8 ,n only ! happy days1 b ! lo/ days6 ,! fir/ h left at lea/ a memory beh9d !m1 ! o!rs no?+ b a regret :i* is almo/ a remorse4444 ,elev5 o'clock4--,a gu/ ( w9d4 ,a few cl\ds 9 ! sky4 ,! night+ale is sil5t4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! cricket & ! riv] are /ill s++4 ,augu/ #i1 #ahfb4--,life1 :i* seeks its own cont9uance1 t5ds to repair itself )\t our help4 ,x m5ds its spid]'s webs :5 !y h be5 torn2 x re-e/abli%es 9 u ! conditions ( heal?1 & itself heals ! injuries inflict$ ^u x2 x b9ds ! b&age aga9 ^u our eyes1 br+s back hope into our he>ts1 brea!s heal? once m into our organs1 & regilds ! dream ( our imag9ation4 ,b = ?is1 exp]i5ce w\ld h hopelessly )]$ & fad$ u long be=e ! "t1 & ! y\? w\ld be old] ?an ! c5t5>ian4 ,! wise "p ( u1 !n1 is t :i* is unconsci\s ( itself2 & :at is mo/ reasonable 9 man are ^? elem5ts 9 him :i* d n reason4 ,in/9ct1 nature1 a div9e1 an imp]sonal activity1 heal 9 u ! w\nds made by our own follies2 ! invisible g5ius ( our life is nev] tir$ ( provid+ mat]ial = ! prodigalities ( ! self4 ,! ess5tial1 mat]nal basis ( our consci\s life1 is !re=e t unconsci\s life :i* we p]ceive no m ?an ! out] hemisph]e ( ! moon p]ceives ! e>?1 :ile all ! "t indissolubly & et]nally b\nd to x4 ,x is our ,greek3 anti*oon1 to speak ) ,py?agoras4 ,novemb] #g1 #ahfb4--;,h[ malign1 infecti\s1 & un:olesome is ! et]nal smile ( t indiff]5t criticism1 t attitude ( ironical contemplation1 :i* corrodes & demoli%es ev]y?+1 t mock+ pitiless temp]1 :i* holds itself alo( f e p]sonal duty & e vuln]able affection1 & c>es only to und]/& )\t committ+ itself to action6 ,criticism become a habit1 a fa%ion1 & a sy/em1 means ! de/ruction ( moral en]gy1 ( fai?1 & ( all spiritual =ce4 ,"o ( my t5d5cies leads me 9 ?is direction1 b ,i recoil be=e its results :5 ,i come across m emphatic types ( x ?an myself4 ,& at lea/ ,i _c reproa* myself ) hav+ ev] attempt$ to de/roy ! moral =ce ( o!rs2 my rev]5ce = life =bade x1 & my self-di/ru/ has tak5 f me ev5 ! temptation to x4 ,?is k9d ( temp] is v dang]\s among u1 = x flatt]s all ! wor/ in/9cts ( m5--indiscipl9e1 irrev]5ce1 selfi% individualism--& x ends 9 social atomism4 ,m9ds incl9$ to m]e negation are only h>mless 9 great political organisms1 :i* g )\t !m & 9 spite ( !m4 ,! multiplication ( !m among ourselves w br+ ab\t ! ru9 ( our little c\ntries1 = small /ates only live by fai? & w4 ,woe to ! society :]e negation rules1 = life is an affirmation2 & a society1 a c\ntry1 a nation1 is a liv+ :ole capable ( dea?4 ,no nationality is possible )\t prejudices1 = public _s & national tradition are b webs wov5 out ( innum]able beliefs :i* h be5 acquir$1 admitt$1 & cont9u$ )\t =mal pro( & )\t discussion4 ,to act1 we mu/ believe2 to believe1 we mu/ make up our m9ds1 affirm1 decide1 & 9 reality prejudge ! "q4 ,he :o w only act ^u a full sci5tific c]titude is unfit = practical life4 ,b we are made = action1 & we _c escape f duty4 ,let u n1 !n1 condemn prejudice s long z we h no?+ b d\bt to put 9 its place1 or laugh at ^? :om we %\ld be incapable ( consol+6 ,?is1 at lea/1 is my po9t ( view4 99 99 99 99 99 ,beyond ! elem5t :i* is common to all m5 !re is an elem5t :i* sep>ates !m4 ,?is elem5t may be religion1 c\ntry1 language1 education4 ,b all ^! be+ suppos$ common1 !re /ill rema9s some?+ :i* s]ves z a l9e ( dem>cation--namely1 ! ideal4 ,to h an ideal or to h none1 to h ?is ideal or t--?is is :at digs gulfs betwe5 m51 ev5 betwe5 ^? :o live 9 ! same family circle1 "u ! same ro( or 9 ! same room4 ,y mu/ love ) ! same love1 ?9k ) ! same ?\ght z "s "o else1 if y are to escape solitude4 ,mutual respect implies discretion & res]ve ev5 9 love itself2 x means pres]v+ z mu* lib]ty z possible to ^? ^: life we %>e4 ,we mu/ di/ru/ our in/9ct ( int]v5tion1 = ! desire to make "o's own w prevail is (t5 disguis$ "u ! mask ( solicitude4 ,h[ _m times we become hypocrites simply by rema9+ ! same outw>dly & t[>d o!rs1 :5 we "k t inw>dly & to ourselves we are diff]5t4 ,x is n hypocrisy 9 ! /rict s5se1 = we borr[ no o!r p]sonality ?an our own2 /ill1 x is a k9d ( deception4 ,! deception humiliates u1 & ! humiliation is a *a/isem5t :i* ! mask inflicts ^u ! face1 :i* our pa/ inflicts ^u our pres5t4 ,su* humiliation is good = u2 = x produces %ame1 & %ame gives bir? to rep5tance4 ,?us 9 an upright s\l good spr+s out ( evil1 & x falls only to rise aga94 99 99 99 99 99 ,janu>y #h1 #ahfc4--,?is ev5+ ,i read ?r\gh ! 8,cid0 & 8,rodogune40 ,my impression is /ill a mix$ & confus$ "o4 ,!re is mu* dis5*antm5t 9 my admiration1 & a good deal ( res]ve 9 my en?usiasm4 ,:at displeases me 9 ?is dramatic art1 is ! me*anical ab/raction ( ! *>act]s1 & ! scold+1 %rewi% tone ( ! int]locutors4 ,i _h a vague impression ( li/5+ to gigantic m>ionettes1 p]orat+ ?r\gh a trumpet1 ) ! emphasis ( ,spani>ds4 ,!re is p[] 9 x1 b we h be=e u h]oic idols r ?an human be+s4 ,! elem5t ( artificiality1 ( /ra9$ pomposity & affectation1 :i* is ! plague ( classical trag$y1 is ev]y:]e app>5t1 & "o he>s1 z x 71 ! cords & pulleys ( ^! maje/ic colossi creak+ & groan+4 ,i mu* pref] ,rac9e & ,%akespe>e2 ! "o f ! po9t ( view ( ae/hetic s5sation1 ! o!r f t ( psy*ological s5sation4 ,! s\!rn !at] c nev] free itself f masks4 ,comic masks are be>able1 b 9 ! case ( tragic h]oes1 ! ab/ract type1 ! mask1 make "o impati5t4 ,i c laugh ) p]sonages ( t9 & pa/ebo>d3 ,i c only weep ) ! liv+1 or :at resembles !m4 ,ab/raction turns easily to c>icature2 x is apt to eng5d] m]e %ad[s on ! wall1 m]e gho/s & puppets4 ,x is psy*ology ( ! fir/ degree--elem5t>y psy*ology--j z ! color$ pictures ( ,g]many are elem5t>y pa9t+4 ,& yet ) all ?is1 y h a d\ble-di/ill$ & (t5 sophi/ical ref9em5t3 j z savages are by no means simple4 ,! f9e side ( x all is ! manly vigor1 ! bold frankness ( ideas1 words1 & s5tim5ts4 ,:y is x t we f9d s l>ge an elem5t ( factiti\s gr&eur1 m+l$ ) true gr&eur1 9 ?is drama ( #afdj1 f :i* ! :ole dramatic developm5t ( mon>*ical ,france 0 to spr+8 ,g5ius is !re1 b x is hemm$ r\nd by a conv5tional civilization1 &1 /rive z he may1 no man we>s a wig ) impunity4 ,janu>y #ac1 #ahfc4--,to-day x has be5 ! turn ( 8,polyeucte0 & 8,la ,morte de ,pompe40 ,:atev] "o's objections may be1 !re is some?+ gr&iose 9 ! /yle ( ,corneille :i* reconciles y at la/ ev5 to 8 /iff1 emphatic mann]1 & 8 ov]-+5i\s rhetoric4 ,b x is ! dramatic g5re :i* is false4 ,8 h]oes are rles r ?an m54 ,!y pose z magnanimity1 virtue1 glory1 in/ead ( realiz+ !m be=e u4 ,!y are always en scne1 /udi$ by o!rs1 or by !mselves4 ,) !m glory--t is to say1 ! life ( c]emony & ( affairs1 & ! op9ion ( ! public--replaces nature--becomes nature4 ,!y nev] speak except ore rotundo1 9 co?urnus1 or sometimes on /ilts4 ,& :at consummate advocates !y all are6 ,! ,fr5* drama is an oratorical t\rnam5t1 a long suit betwe5 oppos+ p>ties1 on a day :i* is to end ) ! dea? ( somebody1 & :]e all ! p]sonages repres5t$ are 9 ha/e to speak be=e ! h\r ( sil5ce /rikes4 ,else:]e1 spee* s]ves to make action intelligible2 9 ,fr5* trag$y action is b a dec5t motive = spee*4 ,x is ! proc$ure calculat$ to extract ! f9e/ possible spee*es f ! p]sons :o are engag$ 9 ! action1 & :o repres5t diff]5t p]ceptions ( x at diff]5t mom5ts & f diff]5t po9ts ( view4 ,love & nature1 duty & desire1 & a doz5 o!r moral anti!ses1 are ! limbs mov$ by ! wire ( ! dramati/1 :o makes !m fall into all ! tragic attitudes4 ,:at is really curi\s & amus+ is t ! p ( all o!rs ! mo/ vivaci\s1 gay1 & intellig5t1 %\ld h always und]/ood ! gr& /yle 9 ?is pomp\s1 p$antic fa%ion4 ,b x 0 inevitable4 ,april #h1 #ahfc4--;,i h be5 turn+ ov] ! #c1ejj pages ( 8,les ,misrables10 try+ to und]/& ! guid+ idea ( ?is va/ composition4 ,! fundam5tal idea ( 8,les ,misrables0 seems to be ?is4 ,society eng5d]s c]ta9 frightful evils--pro/itution1 vagabondage1 rogues1 ?ieves1 convicts1 w>1 revolution>y clubs & b>ricades4 ,%e ought to impress ?is fact on h] m9d1 & n treat all ^? :o come 9 contact ) h] law z m]e mon/]s4 ,! task be=e u is to humanize law & op9ion1 to raise ! fall5 z well z ! vanqui%$1 to create a social r$emption4 ,h[ is ?is to be done8 ,by enlight5+ vice & lawlessness1 & s dim9i%+ ! sum ( !m1 & by br++ to be> ^u ! guilty ! heal+ influ5ce ( p>don4 ,at bottom is x n a ,*ri/ianization ( society1 ?is ext5sion ( *>ity f ! s9n] to ! condemn$ crim9al1 ?is application to our pres5t life ( :at ! *ur* applies m readily to ! o!r8 ,/ruggle to re/ore a human s\l to ord] & to righte\sness by pati5ce & by love1 in/ead ( cru%+ x by y\r inflexible v9dictiv5ess1 y\r savage ju/ice6 ,su* is ! cry ( ! book4 ,x is great & noble1 b x is a little optimi/ic & ,r\sseau-l4 ,accord+ to x ! individual is always innoc5t & society always responsible1 & ! ideal be=e u = ! tw5tie? c5tury is a sort ( democratic age ( gold1 a univ]sal republic f :i* w>1 capital puni%m5t1 & paup]ism w h disappe>$4 ,x is ! religion & ! city ( progress2 9 a ^w1 ! ,utopia ( ! eighte5? c5tury reviv$ on a great scale4 ,!re is a great deal ( g5]osity 9 x1 mix$ ) n a little fanciful extravagance4 ,! fancifulness consi/s *iefly 9 a sup]ficial notion ( evil4 ,! au?or ignores or pret5ds to =get ! in/9ct ( p]v]sity1 ! love ( evil = evil's sake1 :i* is conta9$ 9 ! human he>t4 ,! great & salut>y idea ( ! book1 is t hone/y be=e ! law is a cruel hypocrisy1 9 s f> z x arrogates to itself ! "r ( divid+ society accord+ to its own /&>d into elect & reprobates1 & ?us conf\nds ! relative ) ! absolute4 ,! lead+ passage is t 9 :i* ,jav]t1 ?r[n (f ! rails1 upsets ! :ole moral sy/em ( ! /rict ,jav]t1 half spy1 half prie/--( ! irreproa*able police-(fic]4 ,9 ?is *apt] ! writ] %[s u social *>ity illum9at+ & trans=m+ a h>% & unrighte\s ju/ice4 ,suppression ( ! social hell1 t is to say1 ( all irrep>able /a9s1 ( all social outlawries = :i* !re is nei!r end nor hope--x is an ess5tially religi\s idea4 ,! erudition1 ! tal5t1 ! brilliancy ( execution1 %[n 9 ! book are a/oni%+1 bewild]+ almo/4 ,its faults are to be f\nd 9 ! enorm\s l5g? all[$ to digressions & episodical diss]tations1 9 ! exagg]ation ( all ! comb9ations & all ! !ses1 &1 f9ally1 9 some?+ /ra9$1 spasmodic1 & viol5t 9 ! /yle1 :i* is v diff]5t f ! /yle ( natural eloqu5ce or ( ess5tial tru?4 ,effect is ! mis=tune ( ,victor ,hugo1 because he makes x ! c5t] ( 8 ae/hetic sy/em2 & h5ce exagg]ation1 monotony ( emphasis1 !atricality ( mann]1 a t5d5cy to =ce & ov]-drive4 ,a p[]ful arti/1 b "o ) :om y nev] =get ! arti/2 & a dang]\s model1 = ! ma/] himself is already graz+ ! rock ( burlesque1 & passes f ! sublime to ! repulsive1 f lack ( p[] to produce "o h>moni\s impression ( beauty4 ,x is natural en\gh t he %\ld dete/ ,rac9e4 ,b :at a/oni%+ philological & lit]>y p[] has ,victor ,hugo6 ,he is ma/] ( all ! dialects conta9$ 9 our language1 dialects ( ! c\rts ( law1 ( ! /ock-ex*ange1 ( w>1 & ( ! sea1 ( philosophy & ! convict-gang1 ! dialects ( trade & ( ar*aeology1 ( ! antiqu>ian & ! scav5g]4 ,all ! bric--brac ( hi/ory & ( mann]s1 s to speak1 all ! curiosities ( soil1 & subsoil1 are kn[n & famili> to him4 ,he seems to h turn$ 8 ,p>is ov] & ov]1 & to "k x body & s\l z "o kn[s ! cont5ts ( "o's pocket4 ,:at a prodigi\s memory & :at a lurid imag9ation6 ,he is at once a vision>y & yet ma/] ( 8 dreams2 he summons up & h&les at w ! halluc9ations ( opium or ( ha%ee%1 )\t ev] becom+ _! dupe2 he makes ( madness "o ( 8 tame animals1 & be/rides1 ) equal coolness1 ,pegasus or ,nightm>e1 ! ,hippogriff or ! ,*im]a4 ,z a psy*ological ph5om5on he is ( ! deepe/ int]e/4 ,victor ,hugo draws 9 sulphuric acid1 he lights 8 pictures ) electric light4 ,he deaf5s1 bl9ds1 & bewild]s 8 read] r ?an he *>ms or p]suades him4 ,/r5g? c>ri$ to su* a po9t z ?is is a fasc9ation2 )\t seem+ to take y captive1 x makes y its prison]2 x does n en*ant y1 b x holds y spellb\nd4 ,8 ideal is ! extraord9>y1 ! gigantic1 ! ov]:elm+1 ! incomm5surable4 ,8 mo/ *>act]i/ic words are imm5se1 colossal1 enorm\s1 huge1 mon/r\s4 ,he f9ds a way ( mak+ ev5 *ild-nature extravagant & biz>re4 ,! only ?+ :i* seems impossible to him is to be natural4 ,9 %ort1 8 passion is gr&eur1 8 fault is excess2 8 di/+ui%+ m>k is a k9d ( ,titanic p[] ) /range dissonances ( pu]ility 9 its magnific5ce4 ,:]e he is weake/ is1 9 measure1 ta/e1 & s5se ( humor3 he fails 9 esprit1 9 ! subtle/ s5se ( ! ^w4 ,victor ,hugo is a galliciz$ ,spani>d1 or r he unites all ! extremes ( s\? & nor?1 ! ,sc&9avian & ! ,african4 ,gaul has less "p 9 him ?an any o!r c\ntry4 ,& yet1 by a caprice ( de/9y1 he is "o ( ! lit]>y g5iuses ( ,france 9 ! n9ete5? c5tury6 ,8 res\rces are inexhau/ible1 & age seems to h no p[] ov] him4 ,:at an inf9ite /ore ( words1 =ms1 & ideas he c>ries ab\t ) him1 & :at a pile ( works he has left beh9d him to m>k 8 passage6 ,8 eruptions are l ^? ( a volcano2 &1 fabul\s workman t he is1 he goes on =ev] rais+1 de/roy+1 cru%+1 & rebuild+ a _w ( 8 own creation1 & a _w r ,h9doo ?an ,hell5ic4 ,he amazes me3 & yet ,i pref] ^? m5 ( g5ius :o awak5 9 me ! s5se ( tru?1 & :o increase ! sum ( "o's inn] lib]ty4 ,9 ,hugo "o feels ! ef=t ( ! labor+ ,cyclops2 give me r ! sonor\s b[ ( ,apollo1 & ! tranquil br[ ( ! ,olympian ,jove4 ,8 type is t ( ! ,satyr 9 ! 8,lg5de des ,sicles10 :o cru%es ,olympus1 a type midway betwe5 ! ugl9ess ( ! faun & ! ov]p[]+ sublimity ( ! great ,pan4 ,may #bc1 #ahfc4--;,dull1 cl\dy1 mi/y wea!r2 x ra9$ 9 ! night & yet ! air is heavy4 ,?is somb] rev]ie ( e>? & sky has a sacr$ness ( its own1 b x fills ! spectator ) a vague & /upefy+ ennui4 ,light br+s life3 d>kness may br+ ?\ght1 b a dull daylight1 ! unc]ta9 glimm] ( a lead5 sky1 m]ely make "o re/less & we>y4 ,^! indecisive & *aotic /ates ( nature are ugly1 l all amorph\s ?+s1 l sme>$ colors1 or bats1 or ! visc\s polyps ( ! sea4 ,! s\rce ( all attractiv5ess is to be f\nd 9 "*1 9 %>pness ( outl9e1 9 individualization4 ,all t is confus$ & indi/9ct1 )\t =m1 or sex1 or acc5t1 is antagoni/ic to beauty2 = ! m9d's fir/ ne$ is light2 light means ord]1 & ord] means1 9 ! fir/ place1 ! di/9ction ( ! p>ts1 9 ! second1 _! regul> action4 ,beauty is bas$ on reason4 ,augu/ #g1 #ahfc4--;,a walk aft] supp]1 a sky sp>kl+ ) />s1 ! ,milky ,way magnific5t4 ,alas6 all ! same my he>t is heavy4 ,at bottom ,i am always br\ght up aga9/ an incurable di/ru/ ( myself & ( life1 :i* t[>d my neighbor has become indulg5ce1 b = myself has l$ to a rgime ( absolute ab/5tion4 ,all or no?+6 ,?is is my inborn disposition1 my primitive /uff1 my 8old man40 ,& yet if "s "o w b give me a little love1 w b p5etrate a little into my inn] feel+1 ,i am happy & ask = sc>cely any?+ else4 ,a *ild's c>esses1 a fri5d's talk1 are en\gh to make me gay & expansive4 ,s !n ,i aspire to ! inf9ite1 & yet a v little cont5ts me2 ev]y?+ di/urbs me & ! lea/ ?+ calms me4 ,i h (t5 surpris$ 9 my self ! wi% = dea?1 & yet my ambitions = happ9ess sc>cely g beyond ^? ( ! bird3 w+s6 sun6 a ne/6 ,i p]si/ 9 solitude because ( a ta/e = x1 s p ?9k4 ,no1 x is f di/a/e1 disgu/1 f %ame at my own ne$ ( o!rs1 %ame at confess+ x1 a fe> ( pass+ into bondage if ,i d confess x4 ,septemb] #b1 #ahfc4--;,h[ %all ,i f9d a "n = t subtle feel+ :i* seiz$ hold ^u me ?is morn+ 9 ! twilight ( wak+8 ,x 0 a rem9isc5ce1 *>m+ inde$1 b nameless1 vague1 & featureless1 l ! figure ( a woman se5 = an in/ant by a sick man 9 ! unc]ta9ty ( delirium1 & across ! %ad[s ( 8 d>k5$ room4 ,i _h a di/9ct s5se ( a =m :i* ,i _h se5 some:]e1 & :i* _h mov$ & *>m$ me once1 & !n _h fall5 back ) "t into ! catacombs ( oblivion4 ,b all ! re/ 0 confus$3 place1 occasion1 & ! figure itself1 = ,i saw nei!r ! face nor its expression4 ,! :ole 0 l a flutt]+ veil "u :i* ! enigma--! secret ( happ9ess--might h be5 hidd54 ,& ,i 0 awake en\gh to be sure t x 0 n a dream4 ,9 impressions l ^! we recognize ! la/ trace ( ?+s :i* are s9k+ out ( sight & call )9 u1 ( memories :i* are p]i%+4 ,x is l a %imm]+ m>%-light fall+ ^u "s vague outl9e ( :i* "o sc>cely kn[s :e!r x repres5ts a pa9 or a pleasure--a gleam ^u a grave4 ,h[ /range6 ,"o might almo/ call su* ?+s ! gho/s ( ! s\l1 reflections ( pa/ happ9ess1 ! manes ( our dead emotions4 ,if1 z ! ,talmud1 ,i ?9k1 says1 e feel+ ( love gives bir? involunt>ily to an invisible g5ius or _s :i* ye>ns to complete its exi/5ce1 & ^! glimm]+ phantoms1 :i* h nev] tak5 to !mselves =m & reality1 are /ill w&]+ 9 ! limbo ( ! s\l1 :at is !re to a/oni% u 9 ! /range app>itions :i* sometimes come to visit our pill[8 ,at any rate1 ! fact rema9s t ,i 0 n able to =ce ! phantom to tell me its "n1 nor to give any %ape or di/9ctness to my rem9isc5ce4 ,:at a melan*oly aspect life may we> to u :5 we are float+ d[n ! curr5t ( su* dreamy ?\ghts z ^!6 ,x seems l "s va/ nocturnal %ipwreck 9 :i* a hundr$ lov+ voices are clamor+ = help1 :ile ! pitiless m\nt+ wave is sil5c+ all ! cries "o by "o1 be=e we h be5 able1 9 ?is d>kness ( dea?1 to press a h& or give ! f>ewell kiss4 ,prom su* a po9t ( view de/9y looks h>%1 savage1 & cruel1 & ! trag$y ( life rises l a rock 9 ! mid/ ( ! dull wat]s ( daily triviality4 ,x is impossible n to be s]i\s "u ! weight ( indef9able anxiety produc$ 9 u by su* a spectacle4 ,! surface ( ?+s may be smil+ or commonplace1 b ! dep?s bel[ are au/]e & t]rible4 ,z soon z we t\* ^u et]nal ?+s1 ^u ! de/9y ( ! s\l1 ^u tru? or duty1 ^u ! secrets ( life & dea?1 we become grave :e!r we w or no4 ,love at its highe/ po9t--love sublime1 unique1 inv9cible--leads u /raight to ! br9k ( ! great abyss1 = x speaks to u directly ( ! inf9ite & ( et]nity4 ,x is em95tly religi\s2 x may ev5 become religion4 ,:5 all ar\nd a man is wav]+ & *ang+1 :5 ev]y?+ is gr[+ d>k & featureless to him 9 ! f> di/ance ( an unkn[n future1 :5 ! _w seems b a fiction or a fairy tale1 & ! univ]se a *im]a1 :5 ! :ole edifice ( ideas vani%es 9 smoke1 & all realities are p5etrat$ ) d\bt1 :at is ! fix$ po9t :i* may /ill be 88 ,! fai?ful he>t ( a woman6 ,!re he may re/ 8 head2 !re he w f9d /r5g? to live1 /r5g? to believe1 &1 if ne$ be1 /r5g? to die 9 peace ) a b5$iction on 8 lips4 ,:o kn[s if love & its beatitude1 cle> manife/ation z x is ( ! univ]sal h>mony ( ?+s1 is n ! be/ demon/ration ( a fa!rly & und]/&+ ,god1 j z x is ! %orte/ road by :i* to rea* him8 ,love is a fai?1 & "o fai? leads to ano!r4 ,& ?is fai? is happ9ess1 light & =ce4 ,only by x does a man ent] into ! s]ies ( ! liv+1 ! awak5$1 ! happy1 ! r$eem$--( ^? true m5 :o "k ! value ( exi/5ce & :o labor = ! glory ( ,god & ( ! tru?4 ,till !n we are b babbl]s & *att]]s1 sp5d?rifts ( our "t1 our faculties & our gifts1 )\t aim1 )\t real joy--weak1 infirm1 & useless be+s1 ( no acc\nt 9 ! s*eme ( ?+s4 ,p]haps x is ?r\gh love t ,i %all f9d my way back to fai?1 to religion1 to en]gy1 to conc5tration4 ,x seems to me1 at lea/1 t if ,i c\ld b f9d my "w-fell[ & my de/9$ companion1 all ! re/ w\ld be add$ unto me1 z ?\gh to conf\nd my unbelief & make me blu% = my despair4 ,believe1 !n1 9 a fa!rly ,provid5ce1 & d>e to love6 ,novemb] #be1 #ahfc4--,pray] is ! ess5tial weapon ( all religions4 ,he :o c no long] pray because he d\bts :e!r !re is a be+ to :om pray] asc5ds & f :om bless+ desc5ds1 he inde$ is cruelly solit>y & prodigi\sly impov]i%$4 ,& y1 :at d y believe ab\t x8 ,at ?is mom5t ,i %\ld f9d x v difficult to say4 ,all my positive beliefs are 9 ! crucible ready = any k9d ( metamorphosis4 ,tru? above all1 ev5 :5 x upsets & ov]:elms u6 ,b :at ,i believe is t ! highe/ idea we c conceive ( ! pr9ciple ( ?+s w be ! true/1 & t ! true/ tru? is t :i* makes man ! mo/ :olly good1 wise/1 greate/1 & happie/4 ,my cre$ is 9 transition4 ,yet ,i /ill believe 9 ,god1 & ! immortality ( ! s\l4 ,i believe 9 hol9ess1 tru?1 beauty2 ,i believe 9 ! r$emption ( ! s\l by fai? 9 =giv5ess4 ,i believe 9 love1 devotion1 honor4 ,i believe 9 duty & ! moral consci5ce4 ,i believe ev5 9 pray]4 ,i believe 9 ! fundam5tal intuitions ( ! human race1 & 9 ! great affirmations ( ! inspir$ ( all ages4 ,i believe t our high] nature is our tru] nature4 ,c "o get a !ology & a !odicy out ( ?is8 ,probably1 b j n[ ,i d n see x di/9ctly4 ,x is s long s9ce ,i h ceas$ to ?9k ab\t my own metaphysic1 & s9ce ,i h liv$ 9 ! ?\ghts ( o!rs1 t ,i am ready ev5 to ask myself :e!r ! cry/allization ( my beliefs is necess>y4 ,yes1 = prea*+ & act+2 less = /udy+1 contemplat+ & le>n+4 ,decemb] #d1 #ahfc4--,! :ole secret ( rema9+ "y 9 spite ( ye>s1 & ev5 ( gray hairs1 is to *]i% en?usiasm 9 "o's self by poetry1 by contemplation1 by *>ity--t is1 9 few] words1 by ! ma9t5ance ( h>mony 9 ! s\l4 ,:5 ev]y?+ is 9 its "r place )9 u1 we ourselves are 9 equilibrium ) ! :ole "w ( ,god4 ,deep & grave en?usiasm = ! et]nal beauty & ! et]nal ord]1 reason t\*$ ) emotion & a s]5e t5d]ness ( he>t--^! surely are ! f\ndations ( wisdom4 ,wisdom6 h[ inexhau/ible a !me6 ,a sort ( peaceful aureole surr\nds & illum9es ?is ?\ght1 9 :i* are summ$ up all ! treasures ( moral exp]i5ce1 & :i* is ! ripe/ fruit ( a well-sp5t life4 ,wisdom nev] gr[s old1 = %e is ! expression ( ord] itself--t is1 ( ! ,et]nal4 ,only ! wise man draws f life1 & f e /age ( x1 its true savor1 because only he feels ! beauty1 ! dignity1 & ! value ( life4 ,! fl[]s ( y\? may fade1 b ! summ]1 ! autumn1 & ev5 ! w9t] ( human exi/5ce1 h _! maje/ic gr&eur1 :i* ! wise man recognizes & glorifies4 ,to see all ?+s 9 ,god2 to make ( "o's own life a j\rney t[>d ! ideal2 to live ) gratitude1 ) dev\tness1 ) g5tl5ess & c\rage2 ?is 0 ! spl5did aim ( ,m>cus ,aurelius4 ,& if y add to x ! humility :i* kneels1 & ! *>ity :i* gives1 y h ! :ole wisdom ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 ! immortal joy :i* is ! h]itage ( ! true ,*ri/ian4 ,b :at a false ,*ri/ianity is t :i* sl&]s wisdom & seeks to d )\t x6 ,9 su* a case ,i am on ! side ( wisdom1 :i* is1 z x 71 ju/ice done to ,god1 ev5 9 ?is life4 ,! relegation ( life to "s di/ant future1 & ! sep>ation ( ! holy man f ! virtu\s man1 are ! signs ( a false religi\s conception4 ,?is error is1 9 "s degree1 t ( ! :ole ,middle ,age1 & belongs1 p]haps1 to ! ess5ce ( ,ca?olicism4 ,b ! true ,*ri/ianity mu/ purge itself f s disa/r\s a mi/ake4 ,! et]nal life is n ! future life2 x is life 9 h>mony ) ! true ord] ( ?+s--life 9 ,god4 ,we mu/ le>n to look ^u "t z a movem5t ( et]nity1 z an undulation 9 ! ocean ( be+4 ,to live1 s z to keep ?is consci\sness ( ours 9 p]petual relation ) ! et]nal1 is to be wise2 to live1 s z to p]sonify & embody ! et]nal1 is to be religi\s4 ,! mod]n level]1 aft] hav+ done away ) conv5tional inequalities1 ) arbitr>y privilege & hi/orical inju/ice1 goes /ill f>!r1 & rebels aga9/ ! inequalities ( m]it1 capacity1 & virtue4 ,beg9n+ ) a j pr9ciple1 he develops x into an unju/ "o4 ,inequality may be z true & z j z equality3 x dep5ds ^u :at y mean by x4 ,b ?is is precisely :at nobody c>es to f9d out4 ,all passions dread ! light1 & ! mod]n zeal = equality is a disguis$ hatr$ :i* tries to pass itself (f z love4 ,lib]ty1 equality--bad pr9ciples6 ,! only true pr9ciple = humanity is ju/ice1 & ju/ice t[>d ! feeble becomes necess>ily protection or k9dness4 ,april #b1 #ahfd4--,to-day ,april has be5 display+ h] %[]y caprices4 ,we h _h floods ( sun%9e foll[$ by deluges ( ra91 alt]nate te>s & smiles f ! petulant sky1 gu/s ( w9d & /orms4 ,! wea!r is l a spoil$ *ild ^: wi%es & expression *ange tw5ty times 9 an h\r4 ,x is a bless+ = ! plants1 & means an influx ( life ?r\gh all ! ve9s ( ! spr+4 ,! circle ( m\nta9s :i* b\nds ! valley is cov]$ ) :ite f top to toe1 b two h\rs ( sun%9e w\ld melt ! sn[ away4 ,! sn[ itself is b a new caprice1 a simple /age decoration ready to disappe> at ! signal ( ! sc5e-%ift]4 ,h[ s5sible ,i am to ! re/less *ange :i* rules ! _w4 ,to appe>1 & to vani%--!re is ! biography ( all individuals1 :atev] may be ! l5g? ( ! cycle ( exi/5ce :i* !y describe1 & ! drama ( ! univ]se is no?+ m4 ,all life is ! %ad[ ( a smoke-wrea?1 a ge/ure 9 ! empty air1 a hi]oglyph trac$ = an in/ant 9 ! s&1 & effac$ a mom5t aft]w>d by a brea? ( w9d1 an air-bubble exp&+ & vani%+ on ! surface ( ! great riv] ( be+--an appe>ance1 a vanity1 a no?+4 ,b ?is no?+ is1 h[ev]1 ! symbol ( ! univ]sal be+1 & ?is pass+ bubble is ! epitome ( ! hi/ory ( ! _w4 ,! man :o has1 h[ev] imp]ceptibly1 help$ 9 ! "w ( ! univ]se1 has liv$2 ! man :o has be5 consci\s1 9 h[ev] small a degree1 ( ! cosmical movem5t1 has liv$ also4 ,! pla9 man s]ves ! _w by 8 action & z a :eel 9 ! ma*9e2 ! ?9k] s]ves x by 8 intellect1 & z a light ^u its pa?4 ,! man ( m$itative s\l1 :o raises & com=ts & su/a9s 8 travel+ companions1 mortal & fugitive l himself1 plays a nobl] "p /ill1 = he unites ! o!r two utilities4 ,action1 ?\ght1 spee*1 are ! ?ree modes ( human life4 ,! artisan1 ! savant1 & ! orator1 are all ?ree ,god's workm54 ,to d1 to discov]1 to tea*--^! ?ree ?+s are all labor1 all good1 all necess>y4 ,w-o'-!-wisps t we are1 we may yet leave a trace beh9d u2 meteors t we are1 we may yet prolong our p]i%able be+ 9 ! memory ( m51 or at lea/ 9 ! contexture ( aft] ev5ts4 ,ev]y?+ disappe>s1 b no?+ is lo/1 & ! civilization or city ( man is b an imm5se spiritual pyramid1 built up out ( ! "w ( all t has ev] liv$ "u ! =ms ( moral be+1 j z our calc>e\s m\nta9s are made ( ! debris ( myriads ( nameless creatures :o h liv$ "u ! =ms ( microscopic animal life4 ,april #e1 #ahfd4--;,i h be5 read+ 8,pr9ce ,vitale0 = ! second "t1 & h be5 lo/ 9 admiration ( x4 ,:at weal? ( color1 facts1 ideas--:at le>n+1 :at f9e-edg$ satire1 :at esprit1 sci5ce1 & tal5t1 & :at an irreproa*able f9i% ( /yle--s limpid1 & yet s pr(\nd6 ,x is n he>tfelt & x is n spontane\s1 b all o!r k9ds ( m]it1 culture1 & clev]ness ! au?or possesses4 ,x w\ld be impossible to be m p5etrat+1 m subtle1 & less fett]$ 9 m9d1 ?an ?is wiz>d ( language1 ) 8 irony & 8 *ameleon-l v>iety4 ,victor ,*]buliez1 l ! sph9x1 is able to play all lyres1 & takes 8 pr(it f !m all1 ) a ,goe!-l s]5ity4 ,x seems z if passion1 grief1 & error _h no hold on ?is impassive s\l4 ,! key ( 8 ?\ght is to be look$ = 9 ,hegel's 8,ph5om5ology ( ,m9d10 remold$ by ,greek & ,fr5* influ5ces4 ,8 fai?1 if he has "o1 is t ( ,/rauss-,humanism4 ,b he is p]fectly ma/] ( himself & ( 8 utt]ances1 & w take good c>e nev] to prea* any?+ prematurely4 ,:at is !re q at ! bottom ( ?is deep spr+8 ,9 any case a m9d z free z any c possibly be f /upidity & prejudice4 ,"o might almo/ say t ,*]buliez kn[s all t he wi%es to "k1 )\t ! tr\ble ( le>n+ x4 ,he is a calm ,mephi/opheles1 ) p]fect mann]s1 grace1 v>iety1 & an exquisite urbanity2 & ,mephi/o is a clev] jewel]2 & ?is jewel] is a subtle musician2 & ?is f9e s+] & /orytell]1 ) 8 amb]-l delicacy & brilliancy1 is mak+ mock ( u all ! :ile4 ,he takes a malici\s pleasure 9 )draw+ 8 own p]sonality f scrut9y & div9ation1 :ile he himself div9es ev]y?+1 & he likes to make u feel t al?\gh he holds 9 8 h& ! secret ( ! univ]se1 he w only unfold 8 prize at 8 own "t1 & if x pleases him4 ,victor ,*]buliez is a little l ,pr\dhon & plays ) p>adoxes1 to %ock ! b\rgeois4 ,?us he amuses himself ) runn+ d[n ,lu!r & ! ,re=mation 9 favor ( ! ,r5aissance4 ,( ! tr\bles ( consci5ce he seems to "k no?+4 ,8 supreme tribunal is reason4 ,at bottom he is ,hegelian & intellectuali/4 ,b x is a spl5did organization4 ,only sometimes he mu/ be antipa!tic to ^? m5 ( duty :o make r5unciation1 sacrifice1 & humility ! measure ( individual wor?4 ,july1 #ahfd4--;,among ! ,alps ,i become a *ild aga91 ) all ! follies & navet ( *ildhood4 ,%ak+ (f ! weight ( ye>s1 ! trapp+s ( (fice1 & all ! tiresome & ridicul\s caution ) :i* "o lives1 ,i plunge into ! full tide ( pleasure1 & amuse myself sans faon1 z x comes4 ,9 ?is c>eless light-he>t$ mood1 my ord9>y =mulas & habits fall away f me s completely t ,i feel myself no long] ei!r t[nsman1 or pr(essor1 or savant1 or ba*elor1 & ,i rememb] no m ( my pa/ ?an if x 7 a dream4 ,x is l a ba? 9 ,le!4 ,x makes me really believe t ! smalle/ illness w\ld de/roy my memory1 & wipe out all my previ\s exi/5ce1 :5 ,i see ) :at ease ,i become a /rang] to myself1 & fall back once m into ! condition ( a blank %eet1 a tabula rasa4 ,life we>s su* a dream-aspect to me t ,i c ?r[ myself )\t any difficulty into ! situation ( ! dy+1 be=e ^: eyes all ?is tumult ( images & =ms fades into no?+ness4 ,i h ! inconsi/5cy ( a fluid1 a vapor1 a cl\d1 & all is easily unmade or trans=m$ 9 me2 ev]y?+ passes & is effac$ l ! waves :i* foll[ ea* o!r on ! sea4 ,:5 ,i say all1 ,i mean all t is arbitr>y1 indiff]5t1 p>tial1 or intellectual 9 ! comb9ations ( "o's life4 ,= ,i feel t ! ?+s ( ! s\l1 our immortal aspirations1 our deepe/ affections1 are n drawn into ?is *aotic :irlw9d ( impressions4 ,x is ! f9ite ?+s :i* are mortal & fugitive4 ,e man feels x ,,oh 8 dea?b$4 ,i feel x dur+ ! :ole ( life2 t is ! only diff]5ce betwe5 me & o!rs4 ,except+ only love1 ?\ght1 & lib]ty1 almo/ ev]y?+ is n[ a matt] ( indiff]5ce to me1 & ^? objects :i* excite ! desires ( mo/ m51 r\se 9 me little m ?an curiosity4 ,:at does x mean--deta*m5t ( s\l1 dis9t]e/$ness1 weakness1 or wisdom8 ,septemb] #ai1 #ahfd4--;,i h be5 liv+ = two h\rs ) a noble s\l--) ,eugnie de ,gur91 ! pi\s h]o9e ( frat]nal love4 ,h[ _m ?\ghts1 feel+s1 griefs1 9 ?is j\rnal ( six ye>s6 ,h[ x makes "o dream1 ?9k & live6 ,x produces a c]ta9 homesick impression on me1 a little l t ( c]ta9 =gott5 melodies :]e( ! acc5t t\*es ! he>t1 "o kn[s n :y4 ,x is z ?\gh f>-(f pa?s came back to me1 glimpses ( y\?1 a confus$ murmur ( voices1 e*oes f my pa/4 ,purity1 melan*oly1 piety1 a ?\s& memories ( a pa/ exi/5ce1 =ms fanta/ic & intangible1 l ! fleet+ %ad[s ( a dream at wak+1 began to circle r\nd ! a/oni%$ read]4 ,septemb] #bj1 #ahfd4--,read ,eugnie de ,gur9's volume aga9 "r & left ) a gr[+ s5se ( attraction4 ,ev]y?+ is he>t1 =ce1 impulse1 9 ^! pages :i* h ! p[] ( s9c]ity & a brilliance ( suffus$ poetry4 ,a great & /rong s\l1 a cle> m9d1 di/9ction1 elevation1 ! fre$om ( unconsci\s tal5t1 res]ve & dep?--no?+ is want+ = ?is ,svign ( ! fields1 :o has to hold h]self 9 ) bo? h&s le/ %e %\ld write v]se1 s /rong 9 h] is ! arti/ic impulse4 ,octob] #af1 #ahfd4--;,i h j read a "p ( ,eugnie de ,gur9's j\rnal ov] aga94 ,x *>m$ me a little less ?an ! fir/ "t4 ,! nature seem$ to me z beautiful1 b ! life ( ,eugnie 0 too empty1 & ! circle ( ideas :i* occupi$ h]1 too n>r[4 ,x is t\*+ & wond]ful to see h[ little space is en\gh = ?\ght to spread its w+s 91 b ?is p]petual motion )9 ! f\r walls ( a cell ends none ! less by becom+ we>isome to m9ds :i* are accu/om$ to embrace m objects 9 _! field ( vision4 ,in/ead ( a g>d51 ! _w2 in/ead ( a libr>y1 ! :ole ( lit]ature2 in/ead ( ?ree or f\r faces1 a :ole p & all hi/ory--?is is :at ! virile1 ! philosophic temp] dem&s4 ,m5 mu/ h m air1 m room1 m]e horizon1 m positive k1 & !y end by suffocat+ 9 ?is little cage :]e ,eug5ie lives & moves1 ?\gh ! brea? ( heav5 bl[s into x & ! radiance ( ! />s %9es d[n ^u x4 ,octob] #bg1 #ahfd4 7,prom5ade de la ,treille74--,! air ?is morn+ 0 s p]fectly cle> & lucid t "o might h di/+ui%$ a figure on ! ,v\a*e4 ,footnote3 ,! ,v\a*e is ! hill :i* b\nds ! horizon ( ,g5eva to ! s\?-we/4 ,?is level & brilliant sun _h set fire to ! :ole range ( autumn colors2 amb]1 saffron1 gold1 sulphur1 yell[ o*re1 orange1 r$1 copp]-color1 aquam>9e1 am>an?1 %one respl5d5t on ! leaves :i* 7 /ill hang+ f ! b\ghs or _h already fall5 b5ea? ! trees4 ,x 0 delici\s4 ,! m>tial /ep ( our two battalions go+ out to _! drill+-gr\nd1 ! sp>kle ( ! guns1 ! song ( ! bugles1 ! %>p di/9ctness ( ! h\se outl9es1 /ill moi/ ) ! morn+ dew1 ! transp>5t coolness ( all ! %ad[s--e detail 9 ! sc5e 0 in/9ct ) a ke5 & :olesome gayety4 ,!re are two =ms ( autumn3 !re is ! mi/y & dreamy autumn1 !re is ! vivid & brilliant autumn3 almo/ ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! two sexes4 ,! v ^w autumn is bo? mascul9e & fem99e4 ,has n e season1 9 "s fa%ion1 its two sexes8 ,has x n its m9or & its major key1 its two sides ( light & %ad[1 g5tl5ess & =ce8 ,p]haps4 ,all t is p]fect is d\ble2 ea* face has two pr(iles1 ea* co9 two sides4 ,! sc>let autumn /&s = vigor\s activity3 ! gray autumn = m$itative feel+4 ,! "o is expansive & ov]fl[+2 ! o!r /ill & )drawn4 ,ye/]day our ?\ghts 7 ) ! dead4 ,to-day we are celebrat+ ! v9tage4 ,novemb] #af1 #ahfd4--;,he>d ( ! dea? (--4 ,w & intellig5ce la/$ till !re 0 an effusion on ! bra9 :i* /opp$ ev]y?+4 ,a bubble ( air 9 ! blood1 a drop ( wat] 9 ! bra91 & a man is out ( ge>1 8 ma*9e falls to pieces1 8 ?\ght vani%es1 ! _w disappe>s f him l a dream at morn+4 ,on :at a spid] ?read is hung our individual exi/5ce6 ,fragility1 appe>ance1 no?+ness4 ,if x 7 = our p[]s ( self-detraction & =getfulness1 all ! fairy _w :i* surr\nds & draws u w\ld seem to u b a brok5 spectre 9 ! d>kness1 an empty appe>ance1 a fleet+ halluc9ation4 ,appe>$--disappe>$--!re is ! :ole hi/ory ( a man1 or ( a _w1 or ( an infusoria4 ,"t is ! supreme illusion4 ,x is b ! inn] prism by :i* we decompose be+ & life1 ! mode "u :i* we p]ceive successively :at is simultane\s 9 idea4 ,! eye does n see a sph]e all at once al?\gh ! sph]e exi/s all at once4 ,ei!r ! sph]e mu/ turn be=e ! eye :i* is look+ at x1 or ! eye mu/ g r\nd ! sph]e4 ,9 ! fir/ case x is ! _w :i* unrolls1 or seems to unroll 9 "t2 9 ! second case x is our ?\ght :i* successively analyzes & recomposes4 ,= ! supreme intellig5ce !re is no "t2 :at w be1 is4 ,"t & space are fragm5ts ( ! inf9ite = ! use ( f9ite creatures4 ,god p]mits !m1 t he may n be alone4 ,!y are ! mode "u :i* creatures are possible & conceivable4 ,let u add t !y are also ! ,jacob's ladd] ( innum]able /eps by :i* ! creation reasc5ds to its ,creator1 p>ticipates 9 be+1 ta/es ( life1 p]ceives ! absolute1 & c adore ! fa?omless my/]y ( ! inf9ite div9ity4 ,t is ! o!r side ( ! "q4 ,our life is no?+1 x is true1 b our life is div9e4 ,a brea? ( nature annihilates u1 b we surpass nature 9 p5etrat+ f> beyond h] va/ phantasmagoria to ! *angeless & ! et]nal4 ,to escape by ! ec/asy ( inw>d vision f ! :irlw9d ( "t1 to see "o's self sub specie et]ni is ! ^w ( comm& ( all ! great religions ( ! high] races2 & ?is psy*ological possibility is ! f\ndation ( all great hopes4 ,! s\l may be immortal because %e is fitt$ to rise t[>d t :i* is nei!r born nor dies1 t[>d t :i* exi/s sub/antially1 necess>ily1 inv>iably1 t is to say t[>d ,god4 ,to "k h[ to sugge/ is ! great art ( tea*+4 ,to atta9 x we mu/ be able to guess :at w int]e/2 we mu/ le>n to read ! *ildi% s\l z we might a piece ( music4 ,!n1 by simply *ang+ ! key1 we keep up ! attraction & v>y ! song4 ,! g]ms ( all ?+s are 9 e he>t1 & ! greate/ crim9als z well z ! greate/ h]oes are b diff]5t modes ( ourselves4 ,only evil gr[s ( itself1 :ile = goodness we want ef=t & c\rage4 ,melan*oly is at ! bottom ( ev]y?+1 j z at ! end ( all riv]s is ! sea4 ,c x be o!rwise 9 a _w :]e no?+ la/s1 :]e all t we h lov$ or %all love mu/ die8 ,is dea?1 !n1 ! secret ( life8 ,! gloom ( an et]nal m\rn+ enwraps1 m or less closely1 e s]i\s & ?\ghtful s\l1 z night enwraps ! univ]se4 ,a man takes to 8piety0 f a ?\s& diff]5t reasons--f imitation or f ecc5tricity1 f bravado or f rev]5ce1 f %ame ( ! pa/ or f t]ror ( ! future1 f weakness & f pride1 = pleasure's sake or = puni%m5t's sake1 9 ord] to be able to judge1 or 9 ord] to escape be+ judg$1 & = a ?\s& o!r reasons2 b he only becomes truly religi\s = religion's sake4 ,janu>y #aa1 #ahfe4--;,x is pleasant to feel nobly--t is to say1 to live above ! l[l&s ( vulg>ity4 ,manufactur+ ,am]icanism & ,caes>ian democracy t5d equally to ! multiply+ ( cr[ds1 gov]n$ by appetite1 applaud+ *>latanism1 v[$ to ! wor%ip ( mammon & ( pleasure1 & ador+ no o!r ,god ?an =ce4 ,:at poor samples ( mank9d !y are :o make up ?is gr[+ majority6 ,oh1 let u rema9 fai?ful to ! alt>s ( ! ideal6 ,x is possible t ! spirituali/s may become ! /oics ( a new epo* ( ,caes>ian rule4 ,mat]iali/ic naturalism has ! w9d 9 its sails1 & a g5]al moral det]ioration is prep>+4 ,,no matt]1 s long z ! salt does n lose its savor1 & s long z ! fri5ds ( ! high] life ma9ta9 ! fire ( ,ve/a4 ,! wood itself may *oke ! flame1 b if ! flame p]si/s1 ! fire w only be ! m spl5did 9 ! end4 ,! great democratic deluge w n aft] all be able to effect :at ! invasion ( ! b>b>ians 0 p[]less to br+ ab\t2 x w n dr[n altoge!r ! results ( ! high] culture2 b we mu/ resign ourselves to ! fact t x t5ds 9 ! beg9n+ to de=m & vulg>ize ev]y?+4 ,x is cle> t ae/hetic delicacy1 elegance1 di/9ction1 & nobl5ess--t atticism1 urbanity1 :atev] is suave & exquisite1 f9e & subtle--all t makes ! *>m ( ! high] k9ds ( lit]ature & ( ari/ocratic cultivation--vani%es simultane\sly ) ! society :i* corresponds to x4 ,if1 z ,pascal1 ,footnote3 ,! say+ ( ,pascal's allud$ to is 9 ! ,p5ses1 ,art4 xi4 ,no4 #aj3 8,a mesure qu'on a plus d'esprit on tr\ve qu'il y a plus d'hommes orig9aux4 ,les g5s du commun ne tr\v5t pas de diffr5ce entre les hommes40 ,i ?9k1 says1 ! m "o develops1 ! m diff]5ce "o obs]ves betwe5 man & man1 !n we _c say t ! democratic in/9ct t5ds to m5tal developm5t1 s9ce x t5ds to make a man believe t ! pret5sions h only to be ! same to make ! m]its equal also4 ,m>* #bj1 #ahfe4--;,i h j he>d ( fre% cases ( insubord9ation among ! /ud5ts4 ,our y\? become less & less docile1 & seem to take = _! motto1 8,our ma/] is our enemy40 ,! boy insi/s ^u hav+ ! privileges ( ! "y man1 & ! "y man tries to keep ^? ( ! gam94 ,at bottom all ?is is ! natural consequ5ce ( our sy/em ( level+ democracy4 ,z soon z diff]5ce ( quality is1 9 politics1 (ficially equal to z]o1 ! au?ority ( age1 ( k1 & ( function disappe>s4 ,! only c\nt]poise ( pure equality is milit>y discipl9e4 ,9 milit>y uni=m1 9 ! police c\rt1 9 prison1 or on ! execution gr\nd1 !re is no reply possible4 ,b is x n curi\s t ! rgime ( individual "r %\ld lead to no?+ b respect = brute /r5g?8 ,jacob9ism br+s ) x ,caes>ism2 ! rule ( ! tongue leads to ! rule ( ! sword4 ,democracy & lib]ty are n "o b two4 ,a republic supposes a high /ate ( morals1 b no su* /ate ( morals is possible )\t ! habit ( respect2 & !re is no respect )\t humility4 ,n[ ! pret5sion t e man has ! necess>y qualities ( a citiz51 simply because he 0 born tw5ty-"o ye>s ago1 is z mu* z to say t labor1 m]it1 virtue1 "*1 & exp]i5ce are to c\nt = no?+2 & we de/roy humility :5 we proclaim t a man becomes ! equal ( all o!r m51 by ! m]e me*anical & vegetative process ( natural gr[?4 ,su* a claim annihilates ev5 ! respect = age2 = z ! elector ( tw5ty-"o is wor? z mu* z ! elector ( fifty1 ! boy ( n9ete5 has no s]i\s reason to believe himself 9 any way ! inf]ior ( 8 eld] by "o or two ye>s4 ,?us ! fiction on :i* ! political ord] ( democracy is bas$ ends 9 some?+ altoge!r oppos$ to t :i* democracy desires3 its aim 0 to increase ! :ole sum ( lib]ty2 b ! result is to dim9i% x = all4 ,! mod]n /ate is f\nd$ on ! philosophy ( atomism4 ,nationality1 public _s1 tradition1 national mann]s1 disappe> l s _m holl[ & worn-out entities2 no?+ rema9s to create movem5t b ! action ( molecul> =ce & ( dead weight4 ,9 su* a !ory lib]ty is id5tifi$ ) caprice1 & ! collective reason & age-long tradition ( an old society are no?+ m ?an soap-bubbles :i* ! smalle/ ur*9 may %iv] ) a snap ( ! f+]s4 ,does ?is mean t ,i am an oppon5t ( democracy8 ,n at all4 ,fiction = fiction1 x is ! lea/ h>mful4 ,b x is well n to conf\nd its promises ) realities4 ,! fiction consi/s 9 ! po/ulate ( all democratic gov]nm5t1 t ! great majority ( ! electors 9 a /ate are enlight5$1 free1 hone/1 & patriotic--:]eas su* a po/ulate is a m]e *im]a4 ,! majority 9 any /ate is necess>ily compos$ ( ! mo/ ignorant1 ! poore/1 & ! lea/ capable2 ! /ate is !re=e at ! m]cy ( accid5t & passion1 & x always ends by succumb+ at "o "t or ano!r to ! ra% conditions :i* h be5 made = its exi/5ce4 ,a man :o condemns himself to live ^u ! tight-rope mu/ inevitably fall2 "o has no ne$ to be a prophet to =esee su* a result4 8,greek3 ,aridton m5 udor10 said ,p9d>2 ! be/ ?+ 9 ! _w is wisdom1 &1 9 default ( wisdom1 sci5ce4 ,/ates1 *ur*es1 society itself1 may fall to pieces2 sci5ce alone has no?+ to fe>--until at lea/ society once m falls a prey to b>b>ism4 ,un=tunately ?is triumph ( b>b>ism is n impossible4 ,! victory ( ! sociali/ ,utopia1 or ! horrors ( a religi\s w>1 res]ve = u p]haps ev5 ?is lam5table exp]i5ce4 ,april #c1 #ahfe4--,:at doctor possesses su* curative res\rces z ^? lat5t 9 a sp>k ( happ9ess or a s+le ray ( hope8 ,! ma9spr+ ( life is 9 ! he>t4 ,joy is ! vital air ( ! s\l1 & grief is a k9d ( a/hma complicat$ by atony4 ,our dep5d5ce ^u surr\nd+ circum/ances increases ) our own physical weakness1 & on ! o!r h&1 9 heal? !re is lib]ty4 ,heal? is ! fir/ ( all lib]ties1 & happ9ess gives u ! en]gy :i* is ! basis ( heal?4 ,to make any "o happy1 !n1 is /rictly to augm5t 8 /ore ( be+1 to d\ble ! int5sity ( 8 life1 to reveal him to himself1 to ennoble him & transfigure him4 ,happ9ess does away ) ugl9ess1 & ev5 makes ! beauty ( beauty4 ,! man :o d\bts x1 c nev] h wat*$ ! fir/ gleams ( t5d]ness dawn+ 9 ! cle> eyes ( "o :o loves2 sunrise itself is a less] m>vel4 ,9 p>adise1 !n1 ev]ybody w be beautiful4 ,=1 z ! righte\s s\l is naturally beautiful1 z ! spiritual body is b ! visibility ( ! s\l1 its impalpable & angelic =m1 & z happ9ess beautifies all t x p5etrates or ev5 t\*es1 ugl9ess w h no m place 9 ! univ]se1 & w disappe> ) grief1 s91 & dea?4 ,to ! mat]iali/ philosoph] ! beautiful is a m]e accid5t1 & !re=e r>e4 ,to ! spirituali/ philosoph] ! beautiful is ! rule1 ! law1 ! univ]sal f\ndation ( ?+s1 to :i* e =m returns z soon z ! =ce ( accid5t is )drawn4 ,:y are we ugly8 ,because we are n 9 ! angelic /ate1 because we are evil1 morose1 & unhappy4 ,h]oism1 ec/asy1 pray]1 love1 en?usiasm1 weave a halo r\nd ! br[1 = !y are a sett+ free ( ! s\l1 :i* ?r\gh !m ga9s =ce to make its envelope transp>5t & %9e ?r\gh ^u all ar\nd x4 ,beauty is1 !n1 a ph5om5on belong+ to ! spiritualization ( matt]4 ,x is a mom5t>y transfiguration ( ! privileg$ object or be+--a tok5 fall5 f heav5 to e>? 9 ord] to rem9d u ( ! ideal _w4 ,to /udy x1 is to ,platonize almo/ inevitably4 ,z a p[]ful electric curr5t c r5d] metals lum9\s1 & reveal _! ess5ce by ! color ( _! flame1 s int5se life & supreme joy c make ! mo/ simple mortal dazzl+ly beautiful4 ,man1 !re=e1 is nev] m truly man ?an 9 ^! div9e /ates4 ,! ideal1 aft] all1 is tru] ?an ! real3 = ! ideal is ! et]nal elem5t 9 p]i%able ?+s3 x is _! type1 _! sum1 _! raison d'tre1 _! =mula 9 ! book ( ! ,creator1 & !re=e at once ! mo/ exact & ! mo/ cond5s$ expression ( !m4 ,april #aa1 #ahfe4--;,i h be5 measur+ & mak+ a trial ( ! new gray plaid :i* is to take ! place ( my old m\nta9 %awl4 ,! old s]vant :i* has be5 my companion = t5 ye>s1 & :i* recalls to me s _m poetical & delightful memories1 pleases me bett] ?an its brilliant successor1 ev5 ?\gh ?is la/ has be5 a pres5t f a fri5dly h&4 ,b c any?+ take ! place ( ! pa/1 & h n ev5 ! inanimate witnesses ( our life voice & language = u8 ,glion1 ,vill>s1 ,albisbrunn51 ! ,righi1 ! ,*amossaire1 & a hundr$ o!r places1 h left some?+ ( !mselves beh9d !m 9 ! me%es ( ?is wool5 /uff :i* makes a "p ( my mo/ intimate hi/ory4 ,! %awl1 besides1 is ! only *ivalr\s article ( dress :i* is /ill left to ! mod]n travel]1 ! only ?+ ab\t him :i* may be useful to o!rs ?an himself1 & by means ( :i* he may /ill d 8 devoir to fair wom56 ,h[ _m times m9e has s]v$ !m = a cu%ion1 a cloak1 a %elt]1 on ! damp grass ( ! ,alps1 on seats ( h>d rock1 or 9 ! sudd5 cool ( ! p9ewood1 dur+ ! walks1 ! re/s1 ! read+s1 & ! *ats ( m\nta9 life6 ,h[ _m k9dly smiles x has won = me6 ,ev5 its blemi%es are de> to me1 = ea* d>n & te> has its /ory1 ea* sc> is an armorial be>+4 ,?is te> 0 made by a hazel tree "u ,jaman--t by ! buckle ( a /rap on ! ,frohnalp--t1 aga91 by a bramble at ,*>nex2 & ea* "t fairy ne$les h repair$ ! injury4 8,mon vieux manteau1 que je v\s rem]cie ,c> c'e/ v\s que je dois ces plaisirs60 ,& has x n be5 to me a fri5d 9 suff]+1 a companion 9 good & evil =tune8 ,x rem9ds me ( t c5taur's tunic :i* c\ld n be torn (f )\t c>ry+ away ! fle% & blood ( its we>]4 ,i am unwill+ to give x up2 :atev] gratitude = ! pa/1 & :atev] piety t[>d my vani%$ y\? is 9 me1 seem to =bid x4 ,! w>p ( ?is rag is wov5 out ( ,alp9e joys1 & its wo( out ( human affections4 ,x also says to me 9 its own way3 8,pauvre b\quet1 fleurs auj\rd'hui fanes60 ,& ! appeal is "o ( ^? :i* move ! he>t1 al?\gh pr(ane e>s nei!r he> x nor und]/& x4 ,:at a /ab !re is 9 ^? words1 ?\ ha/ be56 :5 ! s5se ( !m becomes absolutely cle> to u4 ,"o feels "o's self s9k+ gradually into "o's grave1 & ! pa/ t5se s\nds ! knell ( our illusions z to ourselves4 ,:at is pa/ is pa/3 gray hairs w nev] become black curls aga92 ! =ces1 ! gifts1 ! attractions ( y\?1 h vani%$ ) our "y days4 8,plus d'am\r2 p>tant plus de joie40 ,h[ h>d x is to gr[ old1 :5 we h miss$ our life1 :5 we h nei!r ! cr[n ( complet$ manhood nor ( fa!rhood6 ,h[ sad x is to feel ! m9d decl9+ be=e x has done its "w1 & ! body gr[+ weak] be=e x has se5 itself r5ew$ 9 ^? :o might close our eyes & honor our "n6 ,! tragic solemnity ( exi/5ce /rikes u ) t]rible =ce1 on t morn+ :5 we wake to f9d ! m\rnful ^w too late r++ 9 our e>s6 8,too late1 ! s& is turn$1 ! h\r is pa/6 ,?y h>ve/ is unreap$--too late6 ,?\ ha/ be5 dream+1 =gett+1 sleep+--s mu* ! worse6 ,e man rew>ds or puni%es himself4 ,to :om or ( :om w\ld/ ?\ compla980--,alas6 ,april #ba1 #ahfe4 7,mornex74--,a morn+ ( intoxicat+ beauty1 fre% z ! feel+s ( sixte51 & cr[n$ ) fl[]s l a bride4 ,! poetry ( y\?1 ( innoc5ce1 & ( love1 ov]fl[$ my s\l4 ,ev5 to ! light mi/ hov]+ ov] ! bosom ( ! pla9--image ( t t5d] mode/y :i* veils ! features & %r\ds 9 my/]y ! inmo/ ?\ghts ( ! maid5--ev]y?+ t ,i saw delight$ my eyes & spoke to my imag9ation4 ,x 0 a sacr$1 a nuptial day6 & ! mat9 bells r++ 9 "s di/ant village h>moniz$ m>vel\sly ) ! hymn ( nature4 8,pray10 !y said1 8& love6 ,adore a fa!rly & b5efic5t ,god40 ,!y recall$ to me ! acc5t ( ,haydn2 !re 0 9 !m & 9 ! l&scape a *ildlike joy\sness1 a nave gratitude1 a radiant heav5ly joy innoc5t ( pa9 & s91 l ! sacr$1 simple-he>t$ ravi%m5t ( ,eve on ! fir/ day ( h] awak5+ 9 ! new _w4 ,h[ good a ?+ is feel+1 admiration6 ,x is ! bread ( angels1 ! et]nal food ( *]ubim & s]aphim4 ,i h n yet felt ! air s pure1 s life-giv+1 s e!real1 dur+ ! five days t ,i h be5 "h4 ,to brea! is a beatitude4 ,"o und]/&s ! delights ( a bird's exi/5ce--t emancipation f all encumb]+ weight--t lum9\s & empyrean life1 float+ 9 blue space1 & pass+ f "o horizon to ano!r ) a /roke ( ! w+4 ,"o mu/ h a great deal ( air bel[ "o be=e "o c be consci\s ( su* inn] fre$om z ?is1 su* lightness ( ! :ole be+4 ,e elem5t has its poetry1 b ! poetry ( air is lib]ty4 ,en\gh2 to y\r "w1 dream]6 ,may #cj1 #ahfe4--;,all snakes fasc9ate _! prey1 & pure wick$ness seems to inh]it ! p[] ( fasc9ation grant$ to ! s]p5t4 ,x /upefies & bewild]s ! simple he>t1 :i* sees x )\t und]/&+ x1 :i* t\*es x )\t be+ able to believe 9 x1 & :i* s9ks engulf$ 9 ! problem ( x1 l ,emp$ocles 9 ,etna4 ,non possum cap]e te1 cape me1 says ! ,ari/otelian motto4 ,e dim9utive ( ,beelzebub is an abyss1 ea* demoniacal act is a gulf ( d>kness4 ,natural cruelty1 inborn p]fidy & fals5ess1 ev5 9 animals1 ca/ lurid gleams1 z x 71 into t fa?omless pit ( ,satanic p]v]sity :i* is a moral reality4 ,nev]!less beh9d ?is ?\ght !re rises ano!r :i* tells me t sophi/ry is at ! bottom ( human wick$ness1 t ! majority ( mon/]s l to ju/ify !mselves 9 _! own eyes1 & t ! fir/ attribute ( ! ,evil ,"o is to be ! fa!r ( lies4 ,be=e crime is committ$ consci5ce mu/ be corrupt$1 & e bad man :o succe$s 9 rea*+ a high po9t ( wick$ness beg9s ) ?is4 ,x is all v well to say t hatr$ is murd]2 ! man :o hates is det]m9$ to see no?+ 9 x b an act ( moral hygi5e4 ,x is to d himself good t he does evil1 j z a mad dog bites to get rid ( 8 ?ir/4 ,to injure o!rs :ile at ! same "t kn[+ly injur+ "o's self is a /ep f>!r2 evil !n becomes a fr5zy1 :i*1 9 its turn1 %>p5s into a cold f]ocity4 ,:5ev] a man1 "u ! influ5ce ( su* a diabolical passion1 surr5d]s himself to ^! in/9cts ( ! wild or v5om\s bea/ he mu/ seem to ! angels a madman--a lunatic1 :o k9dles 8 own ,geh5na t he may consume ! _w 9 x1 or z mu* ( x z 8 devili% desires c lay hold ^u4 ,wick$ness is =ev] beg9n+ a new spiral :i* p5etrates deep] /ill into ! abysses ( abom9ation1 = ! circles ( hell h ?is prop]ty--t !y h no end4 ,x seems z ?\gh div9e p]fection 7 an inf9ite ( ! fir/ degree1 b z ?\gh diabolical p]fection 7 an inf9ite ( unkn[n p[]4 ,b no2 = if s1 evil w\ld be ! true ,god1 & hell w\ld swall[ up creation4 ,accord+ to ! ,p]sian & ! ,*ri/ian fai?s1 good is to conqu] evil1 & p]haps ev5 ,satan himself w be re/or$ to grace--:i* is z mu* z to say t ! div9e ord] w be ev]y:]e re-e/abli%$4 ,love w be m pot5t ?an hatr$2 ,god w save 8 glory1 & 8 glory is 9 8 goodness4 ,b x is v true t all gratuit\s wick$ness tr\bles ! s\l1 because x seems to make ! great l9es ( ! moral ord] tremble )9 u by ! sudd5 )drawal ( ! curta9 :i* hides f u ! action ( ^? d>k corrosive =ces :i* h rang$ !mselves 9 battle aga9/ ! div9e plan4 ,june #bf1 #ahfe4--,"o may guess ! :y & :]e=e ( a te> & yet f9d x too subtle to give any acc\nt (4 ,a te> may be ! poetical resum ( s _m simultane\s impressions1 ! qu9tess5ce ( s _m oppos+ ?\ghts6 ,x is l a drop ( "o ( ^? preci\s elixirs ( ! ,ea/ :i* conta9 ! life ( tw5ty plants fus$ into a s+le aroma4 ,sometimes x is ! m]e ov]fl[ ( ! s\l1 ! runn+ ov] ( ! cup ( rev]ie4 ,all t "o _c or w n say1 all t "o refuses to confess ev5 to "o's self--confus$ desires1 secret tr\ble1 suppress$ grief1 smo!r$ conflict1 voiceless regret1 ! emotions we h /ruggl$ aga9/1 ! pa9 we h s\ght to hide1 our sup]/iti\s fe>s1 our vague suff]+s1 our re/less pres5tim5ts1 our unrealiz$ dreams1 ! w\nds inflict$ ^u our ideal1 ! dissatisfi$ languor1 ! va9 hopes1 ! multitude ( small indisc]nible ills :i* accumulate sl[ly 9 a corn] ( ! he>t l wat] dropp+ noiselessly f ! ro( ( a cav]n--all ^! my/]i\s movem5ts ( ! inn] life end 9 an in/ant ( emotion1 & ! emotion conc5trates itself 9 a te> j visible on ! edge ( ! eyelid4 ,= ! re/1 te>s express joy z well z sadness4 ,!y are ! symbol ( ! p[]lessness ( ! s\l to re/ra9 its emotion & to rema9 mi/ress ( itself4 ,spee* implies analysis2 :5 we are ov]come by s5sation or by feel+ analysis ceases1 & ) x spee* & lib]ty4 ,our only res\rce1 aft] sil5ce & /upor1 is ! language ( action--pantomime4 ,any oppressive weight ( ?\ght c>ries u back to a /age ant]ior to humanity1 to a ge/ure1 a cry1 a sob1 & at la/ to swoon+ & collapse2 t is to say1 incapable ( be>+ ! excessive /ra9 ( s5sation z m51 we fall back successively to ! /age ( m]e animate be+1 & !n to t ( ! vegetable4 ,dante swoons at e turn 9 8 j\rney ?r\gh hell1 & no?+ pa9ts bett] ! viol5ce ( 8 emotions & ! ardor ( 8 piety4 444 ,& int5se joy8 ,x also )draws into itself & is sil5t4 ,to speak is to disp]se & scatt]4 ,words isolate & localize life 9 a s+le po9t2 !y t\* only ! circumf]5ce ( be+2 !y analyze1 !y treat "o ?+ at a "t4 ,?us !y dec5tralize emotion1 & *ill x 9 do+ s4 ,! he>t w\ld fa9 brood ov] its feel+1 *]i%+ & protect+ x4 ,its happ9ess is sil5t & m$itative2 x li/5s to its own beat+ & fe$s religi\sly ^u itself4 ,augu/ #h1 #ahfe4 7,gryon sur ,bex74--,spl5did moonlight )\t a cl\d4 ,! night is solemn & maje/ic4 ,! regim5t ( giants sleeps :ile ! />s keep s5t9el4 ,9 ! va/ %ad[ ( ! valley glimm] a few scatt]$ ro(s1 :ile ! torr5t1 organ-l1 swells its et]nal note 9 ! dep?s ( ?is m\nta9 ca!dral :i* has ! heav5s = ro(4 ,a la/ look at ?is blue night & b\ndless l&scape4 ,jupit] is j sett+ on ! c\nt]sc>p ( ! ,d5t du ,midi4 ,prom ! />ry vault desc5ds an invisible sn[-%[] ( dreams1 call+ u to a pure sleep4 ,no?+ ( voluptu\s or en]vat+ 9 ?is nature4 ,all is /rong1 au/]e & pure4 ,good night to all ! _w6--to ! un=tunate & to ! happy4 ,re/ & refre%m5t1 r5ewal & hope2 a day is dead--vive le l5dema96 ,midnight is /rik+4 ,ano!r /ep made t[>d ! tomb4 ,augu/ #ac1 #ahfe4--;,i h j read ?r\gh aga9 ! lett] ( ,j4 ,j4 ,r\sseau to ,ar*bi%op ,beaumont ) a little less admiration ?an ,i felt = x--0 x t5 or twelve ye>s ago8 ,?is emphasis1 ?is precision1 :i* nev] tires ( itself1 tires ! read] 9 ! long run4 ,! int5sity ( ! /yle produces on "o ! impression ( a treatise on ma!matics4 ,"o feels ! ne$ ( relaxation aft] x 9 some?+ easy1 natural1 & gay4 ,! language ( ,r\sseau dem&s an am\nt ( labor :i* makes "o long = recreation & relief4 ,b h[ _m writ]s & h[ _m books desc5d f our ,r\sseau6 ,on my way ,i notic$ ! po9ts ( dep>ture ( ,*teaubri&1 ,lam5nais1 ,pr\dhon4 ,pr\dhon1 = in/ance1 model$ ! plan ( 8 great "w1 8,de la ,ju/ice dang l',eglise et dans la ,rvolution10 ^u ! lett] ( ,r\sseau to ,beaumont2 8 ?ree volumes are a /r+ ( lett]s to an ar*bi%op2 eloqu5ce1 d>+1 & elocution are all fus$ 9 a k9d ( p]siflage1 :i* is ! f\ndation ( ! :ole4 ,h[ _m m5 we may f9d 9 "o man1 h[ _m /yles 9 a great writ]6 ,r\sseau1 = in/ance1 has creat$ a numb] ( diff]5t g5res4 ,imag9ation trans=ms him1 & he is able to play ! mo/ v>i$ p>ts ) cr$it1 among !m ev5 t ( ! pure logician4 ,b z ! imag9ation is 8 intellectual axis--8 ma/] faculty--he is1 z x 71 9 all 8 works only half s9c]e1 only half 9 e>ne/4 ,we feel t 8 tal5t has laid him ! wag] ( ,c>neades2 x w lose no cause1 h[ev] bad1 z soon z ! po9t ( honor ,is engag$4 ,x is inde$ ! temptation ( all tal5t to subord9ate ?+s to itself & n itself to ?+s2 to conqu] = ! sake ( conque/1 & to put self-love 9 ! place ( consci5ce4 ,tal5t is glad en\gh1 no d\bt1 to triumph 9 a good cause2 b x easily becomes a free lance1 cont5t1 :atev] ! cause1 s long z victory foll[s its bann]4 ,i d n "k ev5 :e!r success 9 a weak & bad cause is n ! mo/ flatt]+ = tal5t1 :i* !n divides ! honors ( its triumph ) no?+ & no "o4 ,p>adox is ! delight ( clev] p & ! joy ( tal5t4 ,x is s pleasant to pit "o's self aga9/ ! _w1 & to ov]be> m]e commonplace good s5se & vulg> platitudes6 ,tal5t & love ( tru? are !n n id5tical2 _! t5d5cies & _! pa?s are diff]5t4 ,9 ord] to make tal5t obey :5 its in/9ct is r to comm&1 a vigilant moral s5se & great en]gy ( "* are ne$$4 ,! ,greeks--^? arti/s ( ! spok5 or writt5 ^w--7 artificial by ! "t ( ,ulysses1 sophi/s by ! "t ( ,p]icles1 cunn+1 rhetorical1 & v]s$ 9 all ! arts ( ! c\rti] d[n to ! end ( ! l[] empire4 ,f ! tal5t ( ! nation sprang its vices4 ,= a man to make 8 m>k1 l ,r\sseau by polemics1 is to condemn himself to p]petual exagg]ation & conflict4 ,su* a man expiates 8 celebrity by a d\ble bitt]ness2 he is nev] altoge!r true1 & he is nev] able to recov] ! free disposal ( himself4 ,to pick a qu>rel ) ! _w is attractive1 b dang]\s4 ,j4 ,j4 ,r\sseau is an ance/or 9 all ?+s4 ,x 0 he :o f\nd$ travel+ on foot be=e ,tpff]1 rev]ie be=e 8,r510 lit]>y botany be=e ,george ,s&1 ! wor%ip ( nature be=e ,b]n>d9 de ,s4 ,pi]re1 ! democratic !ory be=e ! ,revolution ( #aghi1 political discussion & !ological discussion be=e ,mirabeau & ,r5an1 ! sci5ce ( tea*+ be=e ,pe/alozzi1 & ,alp9e description be=e ,de ,saussure4 ,he made music ! fa%ion1 & creat$ ! ta/e = confessions to ! public4 ,he =m$ a new ,fr5* /yle--! close1 *a/5$1 passionate1 int]wov5 /yle we "k s well4 ,no?+ inde$ ( ,r\sseau has be5 lo/1 & nobody has _h m influ5ce ?an he ^u ! ,fr5* ,revolution1 = he 0 ! demigod ( x1 & /&s betwe5 ,neck> & ,napoleon4 ,nobody1 aga91 has _h m ?an he ^u ! n9ete5? c5tury1 = ,byron1 ,*teaubri&1 ,madame de ,/al1 & ,george ,s& all desc5d f him4 ,& yet1 ) ^! extraord9>y tal5ts1 he 0 an extremely unhappy man--:y8 ,because he always all[$ himself to be ma/]$ by 8 imag9ation & 8 s5sations2 because he _h no judgm5t 9 decid+1 no self-control 9 act+4 ,regret inde$ on ?is score w\ld be h>dly reasonable1 = a calm1 judici\s1 ord]ly ,r\sseau w\ld nev] h made s great an impression4 ,he came into collision ) 8 "t3 h5ce 8 eloqu5ce & 8 mis=tunes4 ,8 nave confid5ce 9 life & himself end$ 9 jeal\s misan?ropy & hypo*ondria4 ,:at a contra/ to ,goe! or ,voltaire1 & h[ diff]5tly !y und]/ood ! practical wisdom ( life & ! managem5t ( lit]>y gifts6 ,!y 7 ! able m5--,r\sseau is a vision>y4 ,!y knew mank9d z x is--he always repres5t$ x to himself ei!r :it] or black] ?an x is2 & hav+ begun by tak+ life ! wrong way1 he end$ 9 madness4 ,9 ! tal5t ( ,r\sseau !re is always some?+ un:olesome1 unc]ta91 /ormy1 & sophi/ical1 :i* de/roys ! confid5ce ( ! read]2 & ! reason is no d\bt t we feel passion to h be5 ! gov]n+ =ce 9 him z a writ]3 passion /irr$ 8 imag9ation1 & rul$ supreme ov] 8 reason4 99 99 99 99 99 ,our sy/ems1 p]haps1 are no?+ m ?an an unconsci\s apology = our faults--a gigantic scaffold+ ^: object is to hide f u our favorite s94 99 99 99 99 99 ,! unf9i%$ is no?+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,great m5 are ! true m51 ! m5 9 :om nature has succe$$4 ,!y are n extraord9>y--!y are 9 ! true ord]4 ,x is ! o!r species ( m5 :o are n :at !y ought to be4 ,janu>y #g1 #ahff4--,our life is b a soap-bubble hang+ f a re$2 x is =m$1 exp&s to its full size1 clo!s itself ) ! lovelie/ colors ( ! prism1 & ev5 escapes at mom5ts f ! law ( gravitation2 b soon ! black speck appe>s 9 x1 & ! globe ( em]ald & gold vani%es into space1 leav+ beh9d x no?+ b a simple drop ( turbid wat]4 ,all ! poets h made ?is comp>ison1 x is s /rik+ & s true4 ,to appe>1 to %9e1 to disappe>2 to be born1 to suff]1 & to die2 is x n ! :ole sum ( life1 = a butt]fly1 = a nation1 = a />8 ,"t is b ! measure ( ! difficulty ( a conception4 ,pure ?\ght has sc>cely any ne$ ( "t1 s9ce x p]ceives ! two ends ( an idea almo/ at ! same mom5t4 ,! ?\ght ( a planet c only be work$ out by nature ) labor & ef=t1 b supreme intellig5ce sums up ! :ole 9 an in/ant4 ,"t is !n ! successive disp]sion ( be+1 j z spee* is ! successive analysis ( an intuition or ( an act ( w4 ,9 itself x is relative & negative1 & disappe>s )9 ! absolute be+4 ,god is outside "t because he ?9ks all ?\ght at once2 ,nature is )9 "t1 because %e is only spee*--! discursive unfold+ ( ea* ?\ght conta9$ )9 ! inf9ite ?\ght4 ,b nature exhau/s h]self 9 ?is impossible task1 = ! analysis ( ! inf9ite is a contradiction4 ,) limitless duration1 b\ndless space1 & numb] )\t end1 ,nature does at lea/ :at %e c to translate into visible =m ! weal? ( ! creative =mula4 ,by ! va/ness ( ! abysses into :i* %e p5etrates1 9 ! ef=t--! unsuccessful ef=t--to h\se & conta9 ! et]nal ?\ght1 we may measure ! greatness ( ! div9e m9d4 ,= z soon z ?is m9d goes out ( itself & seeks to expla9 itself1 ! ef=t at utt]ance heaps univ]se ^u univ]se1 dur+ myriads ( c5turies1 & /ill x is n express$1 & ! great h>angue mu/ g on = ev] & ev]4 ,! ,ea/ pref]s immobility z ! =m ( ! ,inf9ite3 ! ,we/1 movem5t4 ,x is because ! ,we/ is infect$ by ! passion = details1 & sets pr\d /ore by individual wor?4 ,l a *ild ^u :om a hundr$ ?\s& francs h be5 be/[$1 he ?9ks %e is multiply+ h] =tune by c\nt+ x out 9 pieces ( tw5ty s\s1 or five c5times4 ,h] passion = progress is 9 great "p ! product ( an infatuation1 :i* consi/s 9 =gett+ ! goal to be aim$ at1 & absorb+ h]self 9 ! pride & delight ( ea* t9y /ep1 "o aft] ! o!r4 ,*ild t %e is1 %e is ev5 capable ( conf\nd+ *ange ) improvem5t--beg9n+ ov] aga91 ) gr[? 9 p]fectness4 ,at ! bottom ( ! mod]n man !re is always a great ?ir/ = self-=getfulness1 self-di/raction2 he has a secret horror ( all :i* makes him feel 8 own littl5ess2 ! et]nal1 ! inf9ite1 p]fection1 !re=e sc>e & t]rify him4 ,he wi%es to approve himself1 to admire & congratulate himself2 & !re=e he turns away f all ^? problems & abysses :i* might recall to him 8 own no?+ness4 ,?is is :at makes ! real pett9ess ( s _m ( our great m9ds1 & acc\nts = ! lack ( p]sonal dignity among u--civiliz$ p>rots t we are--z comp>$ ) ! ,arab ( ! des]t2 or expla9s ! gr[+ frivolity ( our masses1 m & m educat$1 no d\bt1 b also m & m sup]ficial 9 all _! conceptions ( happ9ess4 ,"h1 !n1 is ! s]vice :i* ,*ri/ianity--! ori5tal elem5t 9 our culture--r5d]s to u ,we/]ns4 ,x *ecks & c\nt]balances our natural t5d5cy t[>d ! pass+1 ! f9ite1 & ! *angeable1 by fix+ ! m9d ^u ! contemplation ( et]nal ?+s1 & by ,platoniz+ our affections1 :i* o!rwise w\ld h too little outlook ^u ! ideal _w4 ,*ri/ianity leads u back f disp]sion to conc5tration1 f worldl9ess to self-recollection4 ,x re/ores to our s\ls1 fev]$ ) a ?\s& sordid desires1 nobl5ess1 gravity1 & calm4 ,j z sleep is a ba? ( refre%+ = our actual life1 s religion is a ba? ( refre%+ = our immortal be+4 ,:at is sacr$ has a purify+ virtue2 religi\s emotion cr[ns ! br[ ) an aureole1 & ?rills ! he>t ) an ineffable joy4 ,i ?9k t ! adv]s>ies ( religion z su* deceive !mselves z to ! ne$s ( ! we/]n man1 & t ! mod]n _w w lose its balance z soon z x has pass$ ov] altoge!r to ! crude doctr9e ( progress4 ,we h always ne$ ( ! inf9ite1 ! et]nal1 ! absolute2 & s9ce sci5ce cont5ts itself ) :at is relative1 x necess>ily leaves a void1 :i* x is good = man to fill ) contemplation1 wor%ip1 & adoration4 8,religion10 said ,bacon1 8is ! spice :i* is meant to keep life f corruption10 & ?is is especially true to-day ( religion tak5 9 ! ,platoni/ & ori5tal s5se4 ,a capacity = self-recollection--= )drawal f ! outw>d to ! inw>d--is 9 fact ! condition ( all noble & useful activity4 ,?is return1 inde$1 to :at is s]i\s1 div9e1 & sacr$1 is becom+ m & m difficult1 because ( ! gr[? ( critical anxiety )9 ! *ur* itself1 ! increas+ worldl9ess ( religi\s prea*+1 & ! univ]sal agitation & disquiet ( society4 ,b su* a return is m & m necess>y4 ,)\t x !re is no inn] life1 & ! inn] life is ! only means :]eby we may oppose a pr(itable resi/ance to circum/ance4 ,if ! sailor did n c>ry ) him 8 own temp]ature he c\ld n g f ! pole to ! equator1 & rema9 himself 9 spite ( all4 ,! man :o has no refuge 9 himself1 :o lives1 s to speak1 9 8 front rooms1 9 ! out] :irlw9d ( ?+s & op9ions1 is n prop]ly a p]sonality at all2 he is n di/9ct1 free1 orig9al1 a cause--9 a ^w1 "s "o4 ,he is "o ( a cr[d1 a taxpay]1 an elector1 an anonymity1 b n a man4 ,he helps to make up ! mass--to fill up ! numb] ( human consum]s or produc]s2 b he int]e/s nobody b ! economi/ & ! /ati/ician1 :o take ! heap ( s& z a :ole into consid]ation1 )\t tr\bl+ !mselves ab\t ! un9t]e/+ uni=mity ( ! individual gra9s4 ,! cr[d c\nts only z a massive elem5t>y =ce--:y8 because its con/itu5t p>ts are individually insignificant3 !y are all l ea* o!r1 & we add !m up l ! molecules ( wat] 9 a riv]1 gaug+ !m by ! fa?om in/ead ( appreciat+ !m z individuals4 ,su* m5 are reckon$ & weigh$ m]ely z s _m bodies3 !y h nev] be5 individualiz$ by consci5ce1 aft] ! mann] ( s\ls4 ,he :o floats ) ! curr5t1 :o does n guide himself accord+ to high] pr9ciples1 :o has no ideal1 no convictions--su* a man is a m]e article ( ! _w's furniture--a ?+ mov$1 in/ead ( a liv+ & mov+ be+--an e*o1 n a voice4 ,! man :o has no inn] life is ! slave ( 8 surr\nd+s1 z ! b>omet] is ! ob$i5t s]vant ( ! air at re/1 & ! wea!rcock ! humble s]vant ( ! air 9 motion4 ,janu>y #ba1 #ahff4--,?is ev5+ aft] supp] ,i did n "k :i!r to betake my solit>y self4 ,i 0 hungry = conv]sation1 society1 ex*ange ( ideas4 ,x occurr$ to me to g & see our fri5ds1 !----s2 !y 7 at supp]4 ,aft]w>d we w5t into ! salon3 "m & daught] sat d[n to ! piano & sang a duet by ,boeldieu4 ,! ivory keys ( ! old gr& piano1 :i* ! "m _h play$ on be=e h] m>riage1 & :i* has foll[$ & translat$ into music ! v>y+ =tunes ( ! family1 7 a little loose & j+l+2 b ! poetry ( ! pa/ sang 9 ?is fai?ful old s]vant1 :i* _h be5 a fri5d 9 tr\ble1 a companion 9 vigils1 & ! e*o ( a lifetime ( duty1 affection1 piety & virtue4 ,i 0 m mov$ ?an ,i c say4 ,x 0 l a sc5e ( ,dick5s1 & ,i felt a ru% ( sympa?y1 unt\*$ ei!r by egotism or by melan*oly4 ,tw5ty-five ye>s6 ,x seems to me a dream z f> z ,i am conc]n$1 & ,i c sc>cely believe my eyes1 or ?is inanimate witness to s _m lu/res pass$ away4 ,h[ /range a ?+ to h liv$1 & to feel myself s f> f a pa/ :i* yet is s pres5t to me6 ,"o does n "k :e!r "o is sleep+ or wak+4 ,"t is b ! space betwe5 our memories2 z soon z we cease to p]ceive ?is space1 "t has disappe>$4 ,! :ole life ( an old man may appe> to him no long] ?an an h\r1 or less /ill2 & z soon z "t is b a mom5t to u1 we h ent]$ ^u et]nity4 ,life is b ! dream ( a %ad[2 ,i felt x anew ?is ev5+ ) /range int5sity4 ,janu>y #bi1 #ahff4 7,n9e o'clock 9 ! morn+74--,! gray curta9 ( mi/ has spread itself aga9 ov] ! t[n2 ev]y?+ is d>k & dull4 ,! bells are r++ 9 ! di/ance = "s fe/ival2 ) ?is exception ev]y?+ is calm & sil5t4 ,except = ! crackl+ ( ! fire1 no noise di/urbs my solitude 9 ?is mode/ home1 ! %elt] ( my ?\ghts & ( my "w1 :]e ! man ( middle age c>ries on ! life ( 8 /ud5t-y\? )\t ! ze/ ( y\?1 & ! s$5t>y pr(essor repeats day by day ! habits :i* he =m$ z a travel]4 ,:at is x :i* makes ! *>m ( ?is exi/5ce outw>dly s b>r5 & empty8 ,lib]ty6 ,:at does ! abs5ce ( com=t & ( all else t is want+ to ^! rooms matt] to me8 ,^! ?+s are indiff]5t to me4 ,i f9d "u ?is ro( light1 quiet1 %elt]4 ,i am ne> to a si/] & h] *ildr51 :om ,i love2 my mat]ial life is assur$--t ought to be en\gh = a ba*elor4444 ,am ,i n1 besides1 a creature ( habit8 m atta*$ to ! ennuis ,i "k1 ?an 9 love ) pleasures unkn[n to me4 ,i am1 !n1 free & n unhappy4 ,!n ,i am well (f "h1 & ,i %\ld be ungrateful to compla94 ,nor d ,i4 ,x is only ! he>t :i* sighs & seeks = some?+ m & bett]4 ,! he>t is an insatiable glutton1 z we all "k--& = ! re/1 :o is )\t ye>n+s8 ,x is our de/9y "h bel[4 ,only "s g ?r\gh torm5ts & tr\bles 9 ord] to satisfy !mselves1 & all )\t success2 o!rs =esee ! inevitable result1 & by a timely resignation save !mselves a b>r5 & fruitless ef=t4 ,s9ce we _c be happy1 :y give ourselves s mu* tr\ble8 ,x is be/ to limit "o's self to :at is /rictly necess>y1 to live au/]ely & by rule1 to cont5t "o's self ) a little1 & to atta* no value to any?+ b peace ( consci5ce & a s5se ( duty done4 ,x is true t ?is itself is no small ambition1 & t x only l&s u 9 ano!r impossibility4 ,no--! simple/ c\rse is to submit "o's self :olly & altoge!r to ,god4 ,ev]y?+ else1 z sai? ! prea*]1 is b vanity & vexation ( _s4 ,x is a long :ile n[ s9ce ?is has be5 pla9 to me1 & s9ce ?is religi\s r5unciation has be5 sweet & famili> to me4 ,x is ! outw>d di/ractions ( life1 ! examples ( ! _w1 & ! irresi/ible influ5ce ex]t$ ^u u by ! curr5t ( ?+s :i* make u =get ! wisdom we h acquir$ & ! pr9ciples we h adopt$4 ,t is :y life is su* we>9ess6 ,?is et]nal beg9n+ ov] aga9 is t$i\s1 ev5 to repulsion4 ,x w\ld be s good to g to sleep :5 we h ga!r$ ! fruit ( exp]i5ce1 :5 we are no long] 9 opposition to ! supreme w1 :5 we h brok5 loose f self1 :5 we are at peace ) all m54 ,in/ead ( ?is1 ! old r\nd ( temptations1 disputes1 ennuis1 & =gett+s1 has to be fac$ aga9 & aga91 & we fall back into prose1 into commonness1 into vulg>ity4 ,h[ melan*oly1 h[ humiliat+6 ,! poets are wise 9 )draw+ _! h]oes m quickly f ! /rife1 & 9 n dragg+ !m aft] victory along ! common rut ( b>r5 days4 8,:om ! gods love die "y10 said ! prov]b ( antiquity4 ,yes1 b x is our secret self-love :i* is set ^u ?is favor f on high2 su* may be our desire1 b su* is n ! w ( ,god4 ,we are to be ex]cis$1 humbl$1 tri$1 & torm5t$ to ! end4 ,x is our pati5ce :i* is ! t\*/one ( our virtue4 ,to be> ) life ev5 :5 illusion & hope are gone2 to accept ?is position ( p]petual w>1 :ile at ! same "t lov+ only peace2 to /ay pati5tly 9 ! _w1 ev5 :5 x repels u z a place ( l[ company1 & seems to u a m]e ar5a ( bad passions2 to rema9 fai?ful to "o's own fai? )\t break+ ) ! foll[]s ( ! false gods2 to make no attempt to escape f ! human hospital1 long-suff]+ & pati5t z ,job ^u 8 dung hill--?is is duty4 ,:5 life ceases to be a promise x does n cease to be a task2 its true "n ev5 is trial4 ,april #b1 #ahff4 7,mornex74--,! sn[ is melt+ & a damp fog is spread ov] ev]y?+4 ,! asphalt gall]y :i* runs along ! salon is a %eet ( quiv]+ wat] />r$ incessantly by ! hurry+ drops fall+ f ! sky4 ,x seems z if "o c\ld t\* ! horizon ) "o's h&1 & ! miles ( c\ntry :i* 7 ye/]day visible are all hidd5 "u a ?ick gray curta94 ,?is imprisonm5t transports me to ,%etl&1 to ,spitzb]g51 to ,norway1 to ! ,ossianic c\ntries ( mi/1 :]e man1 ?r[n back ^u himself1 feels 8 he>t beat m quickly & 8 ?\ght exp& m freely--s long1 at lea/1 z he is n froz5 & congeal$ by cold4 ,fog has c]ta9ly a poetry ( its own--a grace1 a dreamy *>m4 ,x does = ! daylight :at a lamp does = u at night2 x turns ! m9d t[>d m$itation2 x ?r[s ! s\l back on itself4 ,! sun1 z x 71 %$s u abroad 9 nature1 scatt]s & disp]ses u2 mi/ draws u toge!r & conc5trates u--x is cordial1 homely1 *>g$ ) feel+4 ,! poetry ( ! sun has some?+ ( ! epic 9 x2 t ( fog & mi/ is elegaic & religi\s4 ,pan!ism is ! *ild ( light2 mi/ eng5d]s fai? 9 ne> protectors4 ,:5 ! great _w is %ut (f f u1 ! h\se becomes itself a small univ]se4 ,%r\d$ 9 p]petual mi/1 m5 love ea* o!r bett]2 = ! only reality !n is ! family1 &1 )9 ! family1 ! he>t2 & ! greate/ ?\ghts come f ! he>t--s says ! morali/4 ,april #f1 #ahff4--,! novel by ,miss ,mulock1 8,john ,halifax1 ,g5tleman10 is a bold] book ?an x seems1 = x attacks 9 ! ,engli% way ! social problem ( equality4 ,& ! solution rea*$ is t e "o may become a g5tleman1 ev5 ?\gh he may be born 9 ! gutt]4 ,9 its way ! /ory prote/s aga9/ conv5tional sup]iorities1 & %[s t true nobility consi/s 9 "*1 9 p]sonal m]it1 9 moral di/9ction1 9 elevation ( feel+ & ( language1 9 dignity ( life1 & 9 self-respect4 ,?is is bett] ?an ,jacob9ism1 & ! opposite ( ! m]e brutal passion = equality4 ,in/ead ( dragg+ ev]ybody d[n1 ! au?or simply proclaims ! "r ( e "o to rise4 ,a man may be born ri* & noble--he is n born a g5tleman4 ,?is ^w is ! ,%ibbole? ( ,engl&2 x divides h] into two halves1 & civiliz$ society into two ca/es4 ,among g5tlem5--c\rtesy1 equality1 & polit5ess2 t[>d ^? bel[--contempt1 disda91 coldness & indiff]5ce4 ,x is ! old sep>ation betwe5 ! +5ui & all o!rs2 betwe5 ! ,greek3 eleu!roi & ! ,greek3 banauphoi1 ! cont9uation ( ! feudal division betwe5 ! g5try & ! roturi]s4 ,:at1 !n1 is a g5tleman8 ,app>5tly he is ! free man1 ! man :o is /rong] ?an ?+s1 & believes 9 p]sonality z sup]ior to all ! accessory attributes ( =tune1 su* z rank & p[]1 & z con/itut+ :at is ess5tial1 real1 & intr9sically valuable 9 ! individual4 ,tell me :at y are1 & ,i w tell y :at y are wor?4 8,god & my ,"r20 !re is ! only motto he believes 94 ,su* an ideal is happily oppos$ to t vulg> ideal :i* is equally ,engli%1 ! ideal ( weal?1 ) its =mula1 8,h[ mu* is he wor?80 ,9 a c\ntry :]e pov]ty is a crime1 x is good to be able to say t a nabob ne$ n z su* be a g5tleman4 ,! m]cantile ideal & ! *ivalr\s ideal c\nt]balance ea* o!r2 & if ! "o produces ! ugl9ess ( ,engli% society & its brutal side1 ! o!r s]ves z a comp5sation4 ,! g5tleman1 !n1 is ! man :o is ma/] ( himself1 :o respects himself1 & makes o!rs respect him4 ,! ess5ce ( g5tlemanl9ess is self-rule1 ! sov]eignty ( ! s\l4 ,x means a "* :i* possesses itself1 a =ce :i* gov]ns itself1 a lib]ty :i* affirms & regulates itself1 accord+ to ! type ( true dignity4 ,su* an ideal is closely ak9 to ! ,roman type ( dignitas cum auctoritate4 ,x is m moral ?an intellectual1 & is p>ticul>ly suit$ to ,engl&1 :i* is pre-em95tly ! c\ntry ( w4 ,b f self-respect a ?\s& o!r ?+s are d]iv$--su* z ! c>e ( a man's p]son1 ( 8 language1 ( 8 mann]s2 wat*fulness ov] 8 body & ov] 8 s\l2 dom9ion ov] 8 in/9cts & 8 passions2 ! ef=t to be self-suffici5t2 ! pride :i* w accept no favor2 c>efulness n to expose himself to any humiliation or mortification1 & to ma9ta9 himself indep5d5t ( any human caprice2 ! con/ant protection ( 8 honor & ( 8 self-respect4 ,su* a condition ( sov]eignty1 insomu* z x is only easy to ! man :o is well-born1 well-br$1 & ri*1 0 naturally long id5tifi$ ) bir?1 rank1 & above all ) prop]ty4 ,! idea 8g5tleman0 is1 !n1 d]iv$ f feudality2 x is1 z x 71 a mild] v]sion ( ! seigneur4 ,9 ord] to lay himself op5 to no reproa*1 a g5tleman w keep himself irreproa*able2 9 ord] to be treat$ ) consid]ation1 he w always be c>eful himself to obs]ve di/ances1 to apportion respect1 & to obs]ve all ! gradations ( conv5tional polit5ess1 accord+ to rank1 age1 & situation4 ,h5ce x foll[s t he w be imp]turbably cauti\s 9 ! pres5ce ( a /rang]1 ^: "n & wor? are unkn[n to him1 & to :om he might p]haps %[ too mu* or too little c\rtesy4 ,he ignores & avoids him2 if he is approa*$1 he turns away1 if he is address$1 he answ]s %ortly & ) hauteur4 ,8 polit5ess is n human & g5]al1 b individual & relative to p]sons4 ,?is is :y e ,engli%man conta9s two diff]5t m5--"o turn$ t[>d ! _w1 & ano!r4 ,! fir/1 ! out] man1 is a citadel1 a cold & angul> wall2 ! o!r1 ! inn] man1 is a s5sible1 affectionate1 cordial1 & lov+ creature4 ,su* a type is only =m$ 9 a moral climate full ( icicles1 :]e1 9 ! face ( an indiff]5t _w1 ! he>? alone is hospitable4 ,s t an analysis ( ! national type ( g5tlem5 reveals to u ! nature & ! hi/ory ( ! nation1 z ! fruit reveals ! tree4 ,april #g1 #ahff4--;,if philosophy is ! art ( und]/&+1 x is evid5t t x mu/ beg9 by saturat+ itself ) facts & realities1 & t premature ab/raction kills x1 j z ! abuse ( fa/+ de/roys ! body at ! age ( gr[?4 ,besides1 we only und]/& t :i* is already )9 u4 ,to und]/& is to possess ! ?+ und]/ood1 fir/ by sympa?y & !n by intellig5ce4 ,in/ead1 !n1 ( fir/ dismemb]+ & dissect+ ! object to be conceiv$1 we %\ld beg9 by lay+ hold ( x 9 its ensemble1 !n 9 its =mation1 la/ ( all 9 its p>ts4 ,! proc$ure is ! same1 :e!r we /udy a wat* or a plant1 a "w ( art or a "*4 ,we mu/ /udy1 respect1 & "q :at we want to "k1 in/ead ( massacr+ x4 ,we mu/ assimilate ourselves to ?+s & surr5d] ourselves to !m2 we mu/ op5 our m9ds ) docility to _! influ5ce1 & /eep ourselves 9 _! _s & _! di/9ctive =m1 be=e we (f] viol5ce to !m by dissect+ !m4 ,april #ad1 #ahff4--,panic1 confusion1 sauve qui peut on ! ,b\rse at ,p>is4 ,9 our epo* ( individualism1 & ( 8ea* man = himself & ,god = all10 ! movem5ts ( ! public funds are all t n[ repres5t to u ! beat ( ! common he>t4 ,! solid>ity ( int]e/s :i* !y imply c\nt]balances ! sep>at5ess ( mod]n affections1 & ! obligatory sympa?y !y impose ^u u recalls to "o a little ! patriotism :i* bore ! =c$ taxes ( old days4 ,we feel ourselves b\nd up ) & compromis$ 9 all ! _w's affairs1 & we mu/ int]e/ ourselves :e!r we w or no 9 ! t]rible ma*9e ^: :eels may cru% u at any mom5t4 ,cr$it produces a re/less society1 trembl+ p]petually = ! security ( its artificial basis4 ,sometimes society may =get = a:ile t x is danc+ ^u a volcano1 b ! lea/ rumor ( w> recalls ! fact to x inexorably4 ,c>d-h\ses are easily ru9$4 ,all ?is anxiety is intol]able to ^? humble little inve/ors :o1 hav+ no wi% to be ri*1 ask only to be able to g ab\t _! "w 9 peace4 ,b no2 tyrant t x is1 ! _w cries to u1 8,peace1 peace--!re is no peace3 :e!r y w or no y %all suff] & tremble ) me60 ,to accept humanity1 z "o does nature1 & to resign "o's self to ! w ( an individual1 z "o does to de/9y1 is n easy4 ,we b[ to ! gov]nm5t ( ,god1 b we turn aga9/ ! despot4 ,no man likes to %>e 9 ! %ipwreck ( a vessel 9 :i* he has be5 emb>k$ by viol5ce1 & :i* has be5 /e]$ contr>y to 8 wi% & 8 op9ion4 ,& yet su* is p]petually ! case 9 life4 ,we all ( u pay = ! faults ( ! few4 ,human solid>ity is a fact m evid5t & m c]ta9 ?an p]sonal responsibility1 & ev5 ?an individual lib]ty4 ,our dep5d5ce has x ov] our indep5d5ce2 = we are only indep5d5t 9 w & desire1 :ile we are dep5d5t ^u our heal?1 ^u nature & society2 9 %ort1 ^u ev]y?+ 9 u & )\t u4 ,our lib]ty is conf9$ to "o s+le po9t4 ,we may prote/ aga9/ all ^! oppressive & fatal p[]s2 we may say1 ,cru% me--y w nev] w9 my cons5t6 ,we may1 by an ex]cise ( w1 ?r[ ourselves into opposition to necessity1 & refuse x homage & ob$i5ce4 ,9 t consi/s our moral lib]ty4 ,b except = t1 we belong1 body & goods1 to ! _w4 ,we are its play?+s1 z ! du/ is ! play?+ ( ! w9d1 or ! dead leaf ( ! floods4 ,god at lea/ respects our dignity1 b ! _w rolls u contemptu\sly along 9 its m]ciless waves1 9 ord] to make x pla9 t we are its ?+ & its *attel4 ,all !ories ( ! nullity ( ! individual1 all pan!i/ic & mat]iali/ conceptions1 are n[ b s mu* =c+ ( an op5 door1 s mu* slay+ ( ! sla94 ,z soon z we cease to glorify ?is imp]ceptible po9t ( consci5ce1 & to uphold ! value ( x1 ! individual becomes naturally a m]e atom 9 ! human mass1 :i* is b an atom 9 ! planet>y mass1 :i* is a m]e no?+ 9 ! univ]se4 ,! individual is !n b a no?+ ( ! ?ird p[]1 ) a capacity = measur+ its no?+ness6 ,?\ght leads to resignation4 ,self-d\bt leads to passivity1 & passivity to s]vitude4 ,f ?is a volunt>y submission is ! only escape1 t is to say1 a /ate ( dep5d5ce religi\sly accept$1 a v9dication ( ourselves z free be+s1 b[$ be=e duty only4 ,duty ?us becomes our pr9ciple ( action1 our s\rce ( en]gy1 ! gu>antee ( our p>tial indep5d5ce ( ! _w1 ! condition ( our dignity1 ! sign ( our nobility4 ,! _w c nei!r make me w nor make me w my duty2 "h ,i am my own & only ma/]1 & treat ) x z sov]eign ) sov]eign4 ,x holds my body 9 its clut*es2 b my s\l escapes & braves x4 ,my ?\ght & my love1 my fai? & my hope1 are beyond its rea*4 ,my true be+1 ! ess5ce ( my nature1 myself1 rema9 inviolate & inaccessible to ! _w's attacks4 ,9 ?is respect we are great] ?an ! univ]se1 :i* has mass & n w2 we become once m indep5d5t ev5 9 relation to ! human mass1 :i* also c de/roy no?+ m ?an our happ9ess1 j z ! mass ( ! univ]se c de/roy no?+ m ?an our body4 ,submission1 !n1 is n defeat2 on ! contr>y1 x is /r5g?4 ,april #bh1 #ahff4--;,i h j read ! procs-v]bal ( ! ,conf]5ce ( ,pa/ors held on ! #ae? & #af? ( ,april at ,p>is4 ,! "q ( ! sup]natural has split ! *ur* ( ,france 9 two4 ,! lib]als insi/ ^u individual "r2 ! or?odox ^u ! notion ( a *ur*4 ,& x is true inde$ t a *ur* is an affirmation1 t x subsi/s by ! positive elem5t 9 x1 by def9ite belief2 ! pure critical elem5t dissolves x4 ,prote/antism is a comb9ation ( two factors--! au?ority ( ! ,scriptures & free inquiry2 z soon z "o ( ^! factors is ?reat5$ or disappe>s1 ,prote/antism disappe>s2 a new =m ( ,*ri/ianity succe$s x1 z1 = example1 ! *ur* ( ! ,bro!rs ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 or t ( ,*ri/ian ,!ism4 ,z f> z ,i am conc]n$1 ,i see no?+ objectionable 9 su* a result1 b ,i ?9k ! fri5ds ( ! ,prote/ant *ur* are logical 9 _! refusal to ab&on ! apo/le's cre$1 & ! individuali/s are illogical 9 imag9+ t !y c keep ,prote/antism & d away ) au?ority4 ,x is a "q ( me?od :i* sep>ates ! two camps4 ,i am fundam5tally sep>at$ f bo?4 ,z ,i und]/& x1 ,*ri/ianity is above all religions1 & religion is n a me?od1 x is a life1 a high] & sup]natural life1 my/ical 9 its root & practical 9 its fruits1 a communion ) ,god1 a calm & deep en?usiasm1 a love :i* radiates1 a =ce :i* acts1 a happ9ess :i* ov]fl[s4 ,religion1 9 %ort1 is a /ate ( ! s\l4 ,^! qu>rels z to me?od h _! value1 b x is a second>y value2 !y w nev] console a he>t or edify a consci5ce4 ,?is is :y ,i feel s little int]e/ 9 ^! ecclesia/ical /ruggles4 ,:e!r ! "o p>ty or ! o!r ga9 ! majority & ! victory1 :at is ess5tial is 9 no way pr(it$1 = dogma1 criticism1 ! *ur*1 are n religion2 & x is religion1 ! s5se ( a div9e life1 :i* matt]s4 8,seek ye fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god & 8 righte\sness1 & all ^! ?+s %all be add$ unto y40 ,! mo/ holy is ! mo/ ,*ri/ian2 ?is w always be ! crit]ion :i* is lea/ deceptive4 8,by ?is ye %all "k my disciples1 if !y h love "o to ano!r40 ,z is ! wor? ( ! individual1 s is ! wor? ( 8 religion4 ,popul> in/9ct & philosophic reason are at "o on ?is po9t4 ,be good & pi\s1 pati5t & h]oic1 fai?ful & devot$1 humble & *>itable2 ! cate*ism :i* has taught y ^! ?+s is beyond ! rea* ( blame4 ,by religion we live 9 ,god2 b all ^! qu>rels lead to no?+ b life ) m5 or ) cassocks4 ,!re is !re=e no equival5ce betwe5 ! two po9ts ( view4 ,p]fection z an end--a noble example = su/5ance on ! way--! div9e prov$ by its own excell5ce1 is n ?is ! :ole ( ,*ri/ianity8 ,god manife/ 9 all m51 is n ?is its true goal & consummation8 ,septemb] #bj1 #ahff4--,my old fri5ds are1 ,i am afraid1 disappo9t$ 9 me2 !y ?9k t ,i d no?+1 t ,i h deceiv$ _! expectations & _! hopes4 ,i1 too1 am disappo9t$4 ,all t w\ld re/ore my self-respect & give me a "r to be pr\d ( myself1 seems to me unatta9able & impossible1 & ,i fall back ^u trivialities1 gay talk1 di/ractions4 ,i am always equally lack+ 9 hope1 9 fai?1 9 resolution4 ,! only diff]5ce is t my weakness takes sometimes ! =m ( despair+ melan*oly & sometimes t ( a *e]ful quietism4 ,& yet ,i read1 ,i talk1 ,i tea*1 ,i write1 b to no effect2 x is z ?\gh ,i 7 walk+ 9 my sleep4 ,! ,buddhi/ t5d5cy 9 me blunts ! faculty ( free self-gov]nm5t & weak5s ! p[] ( action2 self-di/ru/ kills all desire1 & r$uces me aga9 & aga9 to a fundam5tal skepticism4 ,i c>e = no?+ b ! s]i\s & ! real1 & ,i c take nei!r myself nor my circum/ances s]i\sly4 ,i hold my own p]sonality1 my own aptitudes1 my own aspirations1 too *eap4 ,i am =ev] mak+ light ( myself 9 ! "n ( all t is beautiful & admirable4 ,9 a ^w1 ,i be> )9 me a p]petual self-detractor1 & ?is is :at takes all spr+ out ( my life4 ,i h be5 pass+ ! ev5+ ) ,*>les ,heim1 :o1 9 8 s9c]ity1 has nev] paid me any lit]>y complim5t4 ,z ,i love & respect him1 he is =giv54 ,self-love has no?+ to d ) x--& yet x w\ld be sweet to be prais$ by s upright a fri5d6 ,x is depress+ to feel "o's self sil5tly disapprov$ (2 ,i w try to satisfy him1 & to ?9k ( a book :i* may please bo? him & ,s*]]4 ,octob] #f1 #ahff4--;,i h j pick$ up on ! /airs a little yell[i% cat1 ugly & pitiable4 ,n[1 curl$ up 9 a *air at my side1 he seems p]fectly happy1 & z if he want$ no?+ m4 ,f> f be+ wild1 no?+ w induce him to leave me1 & he has foll[$ me f room to room all day4 ,i h no?+ at all t is eatable 9 ! h\se1 b :at ,i h ,i give him--t is to say1 a look & a c>ess--& t seems to be en\gh = him1 at lea/ = ! mom5t4 ,small animals1 small *ildr51 "y lives--!y are all ! same z f> z ! ne$ ( protection & ( g5tl5ess is conc]n$4444 ,p h sometimes said to me t weak & feeble creatures are happy ) me4 ,p]haps su* a fact has to d ) "s special gift or b5efic5t =ce :i* fl[s f "o :5 "o is 9 ! sympa!tic /ate4 ,i h (t5 a direct p]ception ( su* a =ce2 b ,i am no ways pr\d ( x1 nor d ,i look ^u x z any?+ belong+ to me1 b simply z a natural gift4 ,x seems to me sometimes z ?\gh ,i c\ld woo ! birds to build 9 my be>d z !y d 9 ! headge> ( "s ca!dral sa9t6 ,aft] all1 ?is is ! natural /ate & ! true relation ( man t[>d all inf]ior creatures4 ,if man 0 :at he ought to be he w\ld be ador$ by ! animals1 ( :om he is too (t5 ! caprici\s & sangu9>y tyrant4 ,! leg5d ( ,sa9t ,francis ( ,assisi is n s leg5d>y z we ?9k2 & x is n s c]ta9 t x 0 ! wild bea/s :o attack$ man fir/4444 ,b to exagg]ate no?+1 let u leave on "o side ! bea/s ( prey1 ! c>nivora1 & ^? t live by rap9e & slaught]4 ,h[ _m o!r species are !re1 by ?\s&s & t5s ( ?\s&s1 :o ask peace f u & ) :om we p]si/ 9 wag+ a brutal w>8 ,our race is by f> ! mo/ de/ructive1 ! mo/ hurtful1 & ! mo/ =midable1 ( all ! species ( ! planet4 ,x has ev5 inv5t$ = its own use ! "r ( ! /ronge/--a div9e "r :i* quiets its consci5ce 9 ! face ( ! conqu]$ & ! oppress$2 we h outlaw$ all t lives except ourselves4 ,revolt+ & manife/ abuse2 notori\s & contemptible brea* ( ! law ( ju/ice6 ,! bad fai? & hypocrisy ( x are r5ew$ on a small scale by all successful usurp]s4 ,we are always mak+ ,god our accomplice1 t s we may legalize our own iniquities4 ,e successful massacre is consecrat$ by a ,te ,deum1 & ! cl]gy h nev] be5 want+ 9 b5$ictions = any victori\s enormity4 ,s t :at1 9 ! beg9n+1 0 ! relation ( man to ! animal becomes t ( p to p & man to man4 ,if s1 we h be=e u an expiation too seldom notic$ b altoge!r j4 ,all crime mu/ be expiat$1 & slav]y is ! repetition among m5 ( ! suff]+s brutally impos$ by man ^u o!r liv+ be+s2 x is ! !ory be>+ its fruits4 ,! "r ( man ov] ! animal seems to me to cease ) ! ne$ ( def5se & ( subsi/5ce4 ,s t all unnecess>y murd] & torture are c[>dice & ev5 crime4 ,! animal r5d]s a s]vice ( utility2 man 9 return owes x a ne$ ( protection & ( k9dness4 ,9 a ^w1 ! animal has claims on man1 & ! man has duties to ! animal4 ,buddhism1 no d\bt1 exagg]ates ?is tru?1 b ! ,we/]ns leave x out ( c\nt altoge!r4 ,a day w come1 h[ev]1 :5 our /&>d w be high]1 our humanity m exact+1 ?an x is to-day4 ,homo hom9i lupus1 said ,hobbes3 ! "t w come :5 man w be humane ev5 = ! wolf--homo lupo homo4 ,decemb] #cj1 #ahff4--,skepticism pure & simple z ! only safegu>d ( intellectual indep5d5ce--su* is ! po9t ( view ( almo/ all our "y m5 ( tal5t4 ,absolute fre$om f cr$ulity seems to !m ! glory ( man4 ,my impression has always be5 t ?is excessive deta*m5t ( ! individual f all receiv$ prejudices & op9ions 9 reality does ! "w ( tyranny4 ,?is ev5+1 9 li/5+ to ! conv]sation ( "s ( our mo/ cultivat$ m51 ,i ?\ght ( ! ,r5aissance1 ( ! ,ptolemies1 ( ! reign ( ,l\is ,,xv41 ( all ^? times 9 :i* ! exultant an>*y ( ! intellect has _h despotic gov]nm5t = its correlative1 &1 on ! o!r h&1 ( ,engl&1 ( ,holl&1 ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 c\ntries 9 :i* political lib]ty is b\ght at ! price ( necess>y prejudices & priori op9ions4 ,t society may hold toge!r at all1 we mu/ h a pr9ciple ( cohesion--t is to say1 a common belief1 pr9ciples recogniz$ & undisput$1 a s]ies ( practical axioms & in/itutions :i* are n at ! m]cy ( e caprice ( public op9ion4 ,by treat+ ev]y?+ z if x 7 an op5 "q1 we endang] ev]y?+4 ,d\bt is ! accomplice ( tyranny4 8,if a p w n believe x mu/ obey10 said ,tocqueville4 ,all lib]ty implies dep5d5ce1 & has its conditions2 ?is is :at negative & qu>relsome m9ds are apt to =get4 ,!y ?9k !y c d away ) religion2 !y d n "k t religion is inde/ructible1 & t ! "q is simply1 ,:i* w y h8 ,voltaire plays ! game ( ,loyola1 & vice v]s4 ,betwe5 ^! two !re is no peace1 nor c !re be any = ! society :i* has once ?r[n itself into ! dilemma4 ,! only solution lies 9 a free religion1 a religion ( free *oice & free adhesion4 ,decemb] #bc1 #ahff4--;,x is ra9+ ov] ! :ole sky--z f> at lea/ z ,i c see f my high po9t ( obs]vation4 ,all is gray f ! ,salve to ! ,jura1 & f ! pavem5t to ! cl\ds2 ev]y?+ t "o sees or t\*es is gray2 color1 life1 & gayety are dead--ea* liv+ ?+ seems to lie hidd5 9 its own p>ticul> %ell4 ,:at are ! birds do+ 9 su* wea!r z ?is8 ,we :o h food & %elt]1 fire on ! he>?1 books ar\nd u1 portfolios ( engrav+s close at h&1 a ne/ful ( dreams 9 ! he>t1 & a :irlw9d ( ?\ghts ready to rise f ! ink-bottle--we f9d nature ugly & tri/e1 & turn away our eyes f x2 b y1 poor sp>r[s1 :at c y be do+8 ,be>+ & hop+ & wait+8 ,aft] all1 is n ?is ! task ( ea* "o ( u8 ,i h j be5 read+ ov] a volume ( ?is ,j\rnal1 & feel a little a%am$ ( ! languid compla9+ tone ( s mu* ( x4 ,^! pages reproduce me v imp]fectly1 & !re are _m ?+s 9 me ( :i* ,i f9d no trace 9 !m4 ,i suppose x is because1 9 ! fir/ place1 sadness takes up ! p5 m readily ?an joy2 & 9 ! next1 because ,i dep5d s mu* ^u surr\nd+ circum/ances4 ,:5 !re is no call ^u me1 & no?+ to put me to ! te/1 ,i fall back into melan*oly2 & s ! practical man1 ! *e]ful man1 ! lit]>y man1 does n appe> 9 ^! pages4 ,! portrait is lack+ 9 proportion & bread?2 x is "o-sid$1 & wants a c5t]2 x has1 z x 71 be5 pa9t$ f too ne>4 ,! true reason :y we "k ourselves s little lies 9 ! difficulty we f9d 9 /&+ at a prop] di/ance f ourselves1 9 tak+ up ! "r po9t ( view1 s t ! details may help r ?an hide ! g5]al effect4 ,we mu/ le>n to look at ourselves socially & hi/orically if we wi% to h an exact idea ( our relative wor?1 & to look at our life z a :ole1 or at lea/ z "o complete p]iod ( life1 if we wi% to "k :at we are & :at we are n4 ,! ant :i* crawls to & fro ov] a face1 ! fly p]*$ ^u ! =ehead ( a maid51 t\* !m inde$1 b d n see !m1 = !y nev] embrace ! :ole at a glance4 ,is x wond]ful t misund]/&+s %\ld play s great a "p 9 ! _w1 :5 "o sees h[ difficult x is to produce a fai?ful portrait ( a p]son :om "o has be5 /udy+ = m ?an tw5ty ye>s8 ,/ill1 ! ef=t has n be5 altoge!r lo/2 its rew>d has be5 ! %>p5+ ( "o's p]ceptions ( ! out] _w4 ,if ,i h any special p[] ( appreciat+ diff]5t %ades ( m9d1 ,i owe x no d\bt to ! analysis ,i h s p]petually & unsuccessfully practic$ on myself4 ,9 fact1 ,i h always reg>d$ myself z matt] = /udy1 & :at has int]e/$ me mo/ 9 myself has be5 ! pleasure ( hav+ "u my h& a man1 a p]son1 9 :om1 z an au!ntic specim5 ( human nature1 ,i c\ld foll[1 )\t importunity or indiscretion1 all ! metamorphoses1 ! secret ?\ghts1 ! he>t-beats1 & ! temptations ( humanity4 ,my att5tion has be5 drawn to myself imp]sonally & philosophically4 ,"o uses :at "o has1 & "o mu/ %ape "o's arr[ out ( "o's own wood4 ,to arrive at a fai?ful portrait1 succession mu/ be conv]t$ into simultane\sness1 plurality into unity1 & all ! *ang+ ph5om5a mu/ be trac$ back to _! ess5ce4 ,!re are t5 m5 9 me1 accord+ to "t1 place1 surr\nd+1 & occasion2 & 9 _! re/less div]sity ,i am =ev] escap+ myself4 ,!re=e1 :atev] ,i may reveal ( my pa/1 ( my ,j\rnal1 or ( myself1 is ( no use to him :o is )\t ! poetic intuition1 & _c recompose me z a :ole1 ) or 9 spite ( ! elem5ts :i* ,i confide to him4 ,i feel myself a *ameleon1 a kaleidoscope1 a ,proteus2 *angeable 9 e way1 op5 to e k9d ( pol>ization2 fluid1 virtual1 & !re=e lat5t--lat5t ev5 9 manife/ation1 & abs5t ev5 9 pres5tation4 ,i am a spectator1 s to speak1 ( ! molecul> :irlw9d :i* m5 call individual life2 ,i am consci\s ( an incessant metamorphosis1 an irresi/ible movem5t ( exi/5ce1 :i* is go+ on )9 me4 ,i am s5sible ( ! flight1 ! revival1 ! modification1 ( all ! atoms ( my be+1 all ! p>ticles ( my riv]1 all ! radiations ( my special =ce4 ,?is ph5om5ology ( myself s]ves bo? z ! magic lant]n ( my own de/9y1 & z a w9d[ op5$ ^u ! my/]y ( ! _w4 ,i am1 or r1 my s5sible consci\sness is conc5trat$ ^u ?is ideal /&+-po9t1 ?is invisible ?re%old1 z x 71 :5ce "o he>s ! impetu\s passage ( "t1 ru%+ & foam+ z x fl[s out into ! *angeless ocean ( et]nity4 ,aft] all ! bewild]+ di/ractions ( life1 aft] hav+ dr[n$ myself 9 a multiplicity ( trifles & 9 ! caprices ( ?is fugitive exi/5ce1 yet )\t ev] atta9+ to self-intoxication or self-delusion1 ,i come aga9 ^u ! fa?omless abyss1 ! sil5t & melan*oly cav]n :]e dwell 8,die ,mtt]10 ,footnote3 8,die ,mtt]0--an allusion to a /range & enigmatical1 b v effective conception 9 8,fau/0 7,"p ,,ii4 ,act ,i4 ,sc5e v47 ,die ,mtt] are ! prototypes1 ! ab/ract =ms1 ! g5]ative ideas1 ( ?+s4 8,sie sehn di* ni*t1 d5n ,s*em5 sehn sie nur40 ,goe! borr[$ ! t]m f a passage ( ,plut>*'s1 b he has made ! idea half ,platonic1 half leg5d>y4 ,amiel1 h[ev]1 seems r to h 9 8 m9d ,fau/'s spee* 9 ,sc5e vii4 ?an ! spee* ( ,mephi/opheles 9 ,sc5e v3 8,9 eurem ,nam51 ,mtt]1 die ihr ?ront ,im ,grnz5los51 ewig e9sam wohnt1 ,und do* gesellig6 ,eu] haupt ums*web5 ,des ,leb5s ,bild]1 regsam1 ohne ,leb540 :]e sleeps t :i* nei!r lives nor dies1 t :i* has nei!r movem5t1 nor *ange1 nor ext5sion1 nor =m1 & :i* la/s :5 all else passes away4 8,dans l't]nel azur de l'insondable espace ,s'enveloppe de paix notre globe agite3 ,homme1 enveloppe a9si tes j\rs1 rve qui passe1 ,du calme firmam5t de ton t]nit40 7,h4 ,p4 ,,amiel1 ,p5s]oso47 ,g5eva1 ,janu>y #aa1 #ahfg4 8,eheu fugaces1 ,po/ume1 ,po/ume1 ,labunt> anni44440 ,i he> ! drops ( my life fall+ di/9ctly "o by "o into ! dev\r+ abyss ( et]nity4 ,i feel my days fly+ be=e ! pursuit ( dea?4 ,all t rema9s to me ( weeks1 or mon?s1 or ye>s1 9 :i* ,i may dr9k 9 ! light ( ! sun1 seems to me no m ?an a s+le night1 a summ] night1 :i* sc>cely c\nts1 because x w s soon be at an end4 ,dea?6 ,sil5ce6 ,et]nity6 ,:at my/]ies1 :at names ( t]ror to ! be+ :o longs = happ9ess1 immortality1 p]fection6 ,:]e %all ,i be to-morr[--9 a little :ile--:5 ! brea? ( life has =sak5 me8 ,:]e w ^? be :om ,i love8 ,:i!r are we all go+8 ,! et]nal problems rise be=e u 9 _! implacable solemnity4 ,my/]y on all sides6 ,& fai? ! only /> 9 ?is d>kness & unc]ta9ty6 ,no matt]6--s long z ! _w is ! "w ( et]nal goodness1 & s long z consci5ce has n deceiv$ u4 ,to give happ9ess & to d good1 !re is our only law1 our an*or ( salvation1 our beacon light1 our reason = exi/+4 ,all religions may crumble away2 s long z ?is survives we h /ill an ideal1 & life is wor? liv+4 ,no?+ c less5 ! dignity & value ( humanity ,0 e9mal w>1 9 allem ,glanz und ,s*e91 ,es regt si* dort2 d5n es w ewig se94 ,und ihr v]!ilt es1 allgewaltige ,m*te1 ,zum ,zelt des ,tages1 zum ,gewlb' d] ,n*te4 s long z ! religion ( love1 ( unselfi%ness & devotion endures2 & none c de/roy ! alt>s ( ?is fai? = u s long z we feel ourselves /ill capable ( love4 ,april #ae1ahfg--7,sev5 ,a4 ,m474--,ra9 /orms 9 ! night--! wea!r is %[+ its ,april caprice4 ,f ! w9d[ "o sees a gray & melan*oly sky1 & ro(s gli/]+ ) ra94 ,! spr+ is at its "w4 ,yes1 & ! implacable flight ( "t is driv+ u t[>d ! grave4 ,well--ea* has 8 turn6 8,allez1 allez1 jeunes filles1 ,cueillir des bleuets dans les bls60 ,i am ov]p[]$ ) melan*oly1 languor1 lassitude4 ,a long+ = ! la/ great sleep has tak5 possession ( me1 combat$1 h[ev]1 by a ?ir/ = sacrifice--sacrifice h]oic & long-su/a9$4 ,are n bo? simply ways ( escape f "o's self8 8,sleep1 or self-surr5d]1 t ,i may die to self60--su* is ! cry ( ! he>t4 ,poor he>t6 ,april #ag1 #ahfg4--;,awake1 ?\ t sleepe/1 & rise f ! dead4 ,:at ne$s p]petually refre%+ & r5ew+ 9 me is my /ore ( c\rage4 ,by nature ,i am s easily disgu/$ ) life1 ,i fall a prey s readily to despair & pessimism4 8,! happy man1 z ?is c5tury is able to produce him10 accord+ to ,madame ----1 is a ,weltmde1 "o :o keeps a brave face be=e ! _w1 & di/racts himself z be/ he c f dwell+ ^u ! ?\ght :i* is hidd5 at 8 he>t--a ?\ght :i* has 9 x ! sadness ( dea?--! ?\ght ( ! irrep>able4 ,! outw>d peace ( su* a man is b despair well mask$2 8 gayety is ! c>elessness ( a he>t :i* has lo/ all its illusions1 & has le>n$ to acquiesce 9 an indef9ite putt+ (f ( happ9ess4 ,8 wisdom is really acclimatization to sacrifice1 8 g5tl5ess %\ld be tak5 to mean privation pati5tly borne r ?an resignation4 ,9 a ^w1 he submits to an exi/5ce 9 :i* he feels no joy1 & he _c hide f himself t all ! alleviations ) :i* x is /rewn _c satisfy ! s\l4 ,! ?ir/ = ! inf9ite is nev] appeas$4 ,god is want+4 ,to w9 true peace1 a man ne$s to feel himself direct$1 p>don$1 & su/a9$ by a supreme p[]1 to feel himself 9 ! "r road1 at ! po9t :]e ,god w\ld h him be--9 ord] ) ,god & ! univ]se4 ,?is fai? gives /r5g? & calm4 ,i h n got x4 ,all t is1 seems to me arbitr>y & =tuit\s4 ,x may z well n be1 z be4 ,no?+ 9 my own circum/ances seems to me provid5tial4 ,all appe>s to me left to my own responsibility1 & x is ?is ?\ght :i* disgu/s me ) ! gov]nm5t ( my own life4 ,i long$ to give myself up :olly to "s great love1 "s noble end2 ,i w\ld will+ly h liv$ & di$ = ! ideal--t is to say1 = a holy cause4 ,b once ! impossibility ( ?is made cle> to me1 ,i h nev] s9ce tak5 a s]i\s int]e/ 9 any?+1 & h1 z x 71 b amus$ myself ) a de/9y ( :i* ,i 0 no long] ! dupe4 ,syb>ite & dream]1 w y g on l ?is to ! end--=ev] toss$ backw>d & =w>d betwe5 duty & happ9ess1 incapable ( *oice1 ( action8 ,is n life ! te/ ( our moral =ce1 & all ^! inw>d wav]+s1 are !y n temptations ( ! s\l8 ,septemb] #f1 #ahfg1 ,weiss5/e94 ,footnote3 ,weiss5/e9 is a high po9t 9 ! ,jura1 above ,soleure4 7,t5 o'clock 9 ! morn+74--,a m>vel\s view ( bl9d+ & bewild]+ beauty4 ,above a milky sea ( cl\d1 flood$ ) morn+ light1 ! roll+ waves ( :i* are beat+ up aga9/ ! base ( ! wood$ /eeps ( ! ,weiss5/e91 ! va/ circle ( ! ,alps so>s to a sublime height4 ,! ea/]n side ( ! horizon is dr[n$ 9 ! spl5dors ( ! ris+ mi/s2 b f ! ,tdi we/w>d1 ! :ole *a9 floats pure & cle> betwe5 ! milky pla9 & ! pale blue sky4 ,! giant assembly is sitt+ 9 c\ncil above ! valleys & ! lakes /ill subm]g$ 9 vapor4 ,! ,cl>id51 ! ,spannrt]1 ! ,titlis1 !n ! ,b]nese colossi f ! ,wett]horn to ! ,diabl]ets1 !n ! peaks ( ,vaud1 ,valais1 & ,frib\rg1 & beyond ^! high *a9s ! two k+s ( ! ,alps1 ,mont ,blanc1 ( a pale p9k1 & ! blui% po9t ( ,monte ,rosa1 pe]+ out ?r\gh a cleft 9 ! ,dold5horn--su* is ! composition ( ! great sn[y amphi!atre4 ,! outl9e ( ! horizon takes all possible =ms3 ne$les1 ridges1 battlem5ts1 pyramids1 obelisks1 tee?1 fangs1 p9c]s1 horns1 cupolas2 ! m\nta9 pr(ile s9ks1 rises aga91 twi/s & %>p5s itself 9 a ?\s& ways1 b always s z to ma9ta9 an angul> & s]rat$ l9e4 ,only ! inf]ior & second>y gr\ps ( m\nta9s %[ any l>ge curves or sweep+ undulations ( =m4 ,! ,alps are m ?an an upheaval2 !y are a te>+ & ga%+ ( ! e>?'s surface4 ,_! granite peaks bite into ! sky in/ead ( c>ess+ x4 ,! ,jura1 on ! contr>y1 spreads its broad back complac5tly "u ! blue dome ( air4 ,elev5 o'clock4--,! sea ( vapor has ris5 & attack$ ! m\nta9s1 :i* = a long "t ov]look$ x l s _m huge reefs4 ,= a:ile x surg$ 9 va9 ov] ! l[] slopes ( ! ,alps4 ,!n roll+ back ^u itself1 x made a m successful onslaught ^u ! ,jura1 & n[ we are envelop$ 9 its mov+ waves4 ,! milky sea has become "o va/ cl\d1 :i* has swall[$ up ! pla9 & ! m\nta9s1 obs]vatory & obs]v]4 ,)9 ?is cl\d "o may he> ! %eep-bells r++1 & see ! sunlight d>t+ hi!r & ?i!r4 ,/range & fanciful sight6 ,! ,hanov]ian piani/ has gone2 ! family f ,colm> has gone2 a "y girl & h] bro!r h arriv$4 ,! girl is v pretty1 & p>ticul>ly da9ty & elegant 9 all h] ways2 %e seems to t\* ?+s only ) ! tips ( h] f+]s2 "o comp>es h] to an erm9e1 a gazelle4 ,b at ! same "t %e has no int]e/s1 does n "k h[ to admire1 & ?9ks ( h]self m ?an ( any?+ else4 ,?is p]haps is a drawback insep>able f a beauty & a figure :i* attract all eyes4 ,%e is1 besides1 a t[nswoman to ! core1 & feels h]self out ( place 9 ?is great nature1 :i* probably seems to h] b>b>\s & ill-br$4 ,at any rate %e does n let x int]f]e ) h] 9 any way1 & p>ades h]self on ! m\nta9s ) h] little bonnet & h] sc>cely p]ceptible sun%ade1 z ?\gh %e 7 on ! b\lev>d4 ,%e belongs to t class ( t\ri/s s amus+ly drawn by ,tpff]4 ,"*3 nave conceit4 ,c\ntry3 ,france4 ,/&>d ( life3 fa%ion4 ,"s clev]ness b no s5se ( reality1 no und]/&+ ( nature1 no consci\sness ( ! manifold div]sities ( ! _w & ( ! "r ( life to be :at x is1 & to foll[ its own way & n ours4 ,?is ridicul\s elem5t 9 h] is connect$ ) ! same national prejudice :i* holds ,france to be ! c5t] po9t ( ! _w1 & leads ,fr5*m5 to neglect geography & languages4 ,! ord9>y ,fr5* t[nsman is really delici\sly /upid 9 spite ( all 8 natural clev]ness1 = he und]/&s no?+ b himself4 ,8 pole1 8 axis1 8 c5t]1 8 all is ,p>is--or ev5 less--,p>isian mann]s1 ! ta/e ( ! day1 fa%ion4 ,?anks to ?is organiz$ feti%ism1 we h millions ( copies ( "o s+le orig9al patt]n2 a :ole p mov+ toge!r l bobb9s 9 ! same ma*9e1 or ! legs ( a s+le corps d'arme4 ,! result is wond]ful b we>isome2 wond]ful 9 po9t ( mat]ial /r5g?1 we>isome psy*ologically4 ,a hundr$ ?\s& %eep are n m in/ructive ?an "o %eep1 b !y furni% a hundr$ ?\s& times m wool1 meat1 & manure4 ,?is is all1 y may say1 t ! %eph]d--t is1 ! ma/]--requires4 ,v well1 b "o c only ma9ta9 bre$+-f>ms or mon>*ies on ^! pr9ciples4 ,= a republic y mu/ h m53 x _c get on )\t individualities4 ,noon4--,an exquisite effect4 ,a great h]d ( cattle are runn+ across ! mead[s "u my w9d[1 :i* is j illum9at$ by a furtive ray ( sun%9e4 ,! picture has a gho/ly sudd5ness & brilliancy2 x pi]ces ! mi/s :i* close ^u x1 l ! slide ( a magic lant]n4 ,:at a pity ,i mu/ leave ?is place n[ t ev]y?+ is s bright6 99 99 99 99 99 ,! calm sea says m to ! ?\ghtful s\l ?an ! same sea 9 /orm & tumult4 ,b we ne$ ! und]/&+ ( et]nal ?+s & ! s5tim5t ( ! inf9ite to be able to feel ?is4 ,! div9e /ate p> excell5ce is t ( sil5ce & repose1 because all spee* & all action are 9 !mselves limit$ & fugitive4 ,napoleon ) 8 arms cross$ ov] 8 brea/ is m expressive ?an ! furi\s ,h]cules beat+ ! air ) 8 a?lete's fi/s4 ,p ( passionate temp]am5t nev] und]/& ?is4 ,!y are only s5sitive to ! en]gy ( succession2 !y "k no?+ ( ! en]gy ( cond5sation4 ,!y c only be impress$ by acts & effects1 by noise & ef=t4 ,!y h no in/9ct ( contemplation1 no s5se ( ! pure cause1 ! fix$ s\rce ( all movem5t1 ! pr9ciple ( all effects1 ! c5t] ( all light1 :i* does n ne$ to sp5d itself 9 ord] to be sure ( its own weal?1 nor to ?r[ itself into viol5t motion to be c]ta9 ( its own p[]4 ,! art ( passion is sure to please1 b x is n ! highe/ art2 x is true1 inde$1 t "u ! rule ( democracy1 ! s]5] & calm] =ms ( art become m & m difficult2 ! turbul5t h]d no long] kn[s ! gods4 99 99 99 99 99 ,m9ds accu/om$ to analysis nev] all[ objections m ?an a half-value1 because !y appreciate ! v>iable & relative elem5ts :i* ent] 94 99 99 99 99 99 ,a well-gov]n$ m9d le>ns 9 "t to f9d pleasure 9 no?+ b ! true & ! j4 ,janu>y #aj1 #ahfh4 7,elev5 ,p4 ,m474--,we h _h a philosophical meet+ at ! h\se ( ,ed\>d ,clap>de4 ,footnote3 ,ed\>d ,clap>de1 a ,g5evese naturali/1 born #ahcb1 di$ #ahga4 ,! "q on ! ord] ( ! day 0 ! nature ( s5sation4 ,clap>de pron\nc$ = ! absolute subjectivity ( all exp]i5ce--9 o!r words1 = pure idealism--:i* is amus+1 f a naturali/4 ,accord+ to him ! ego alone exi/s1 & ! univ]se is b a projection ( ! ego1 a phantasmagoria :i* we ourselves create )\t suspect+ x1 believ+ all ! "t t we are look]s-on4 ,x is our nom5on :i* objectifies itself z ph5om5on4 ,! ego1 accord+ to him1 is a radiat+ =ce :i*1 modifi$ )\t kn[+ :at x is t modifies x1 imag9es x1 by virtue ( ! pr9ciple ( causality--t is to say1 produces ! great illusion ( ! objective _w 9 ord] s to expla9 itself4 ,our wak+ life1 !re=e1 is b a m connect$ dream4 ,! self is an unkn[n :i* gives bir? to an inf9ite numb] ( unkn[ns1 by a fatality ( its nature4 ,sci5ce is summ$ up 9 ! consci\sness t no?+ exi/s b consci\sness4 ,9 o!r words1 ! intellig5t issues f ! un9telligible 9 ord] to return to x1 or r ! ego expla9s itself by ! hypo!sis ( ! non-ego1 :ile 9 reality x is b a dream1 dream+ itself4 ,we might say ) ,sc>ron3 8,et je vis l'ombre d'un esprit ,qui traait l'ombre d'um sy/me ,avec l'ombre de l'ombre mme40 ,?is abolition ( nature by natural sci5ce is logical1 & x 01 9 fact1 ,s*ell+'s />t+-po9t4 ,f ! /&po9t ( physiology1 nature is b a necess>y illusion1 a con/itutional halluc9ation4 ,we only escape f ?is bewit*m5t by ! moral activity ( ! ego1 :i* feels itself a cause & a free cause1 & :i* by its responsibility breaks ! spell & issues f ! en*ant$ circle ( ,maa4 ,maa6 ,is %e inde$ ! true goddess8 ,h9doo wisdom long ago reg>d$ ! _w z ! dream ( ,brahma4 ,mu/ we hold ) ,fi*te t x is ! individual dream ( ea* individual ego8 ,e fool w\ld !n be a cosmogonic poet produc+ ! firework ( ! univ]se "u ! dome ( ! inf9ite4 ,b :y !n give ourselves su* gratuit\s tr\ble to le>n8 ,9 our dreams1 at lea/1 nightm>e except$1 we end[ ourselves ) complete ubiquity1 lib]ty & omnisci5ce4 ,are we !n less +5i\s & inv5tive awake ?an asleep8 ,janu>y #be1 #ahfh4--;,x is :5 ! out] man beg9s to decay t x becomes vitally important to u to believe 9 immortality1 & to feel ) ! apo/le t ! inn] man is r5ew$ f day to day4 ,b = ^? :o d\bt x & h no hope ( x8 ,= !m ! rema9d] ( life c only be ! compulsory dismemb]m5t ( _! small empire1 ! gradual dismantl+ ( _! be+ by inexorable de/9y4 ,h[ h>d x is to be>--?is long-drawn dea?1 ( :i* ! /ages are melan*oly & ! end inevitable6 ,x is easy to see :y x 0 t /oicism ma9ta9$ ! "r ( suicide4 ,:at is my real fai?8 ,has ! univ]sal1 or at any rate ! v g5]al & common d\bt ( sci5ce1 invad$ me 9 my turn8 ,i h def5d$ ! cause ( ! immortality ( ! s\l aga9/ ^? :o que/ion$ x1 & yet :5 ,i h r$uc$ !m to sil5ce1 ,i h sc>cely kn[n :e!r at bottom ,i 0 n aft] all on _! side4 ,i try to d )\t hope2 b x is possible t ,i h no long] ! /r5g? = x1 & t1 l o!r m51 ,i mu/ be su/a9$ & consol$ by a belief1 by ! belief 9 p>don & immortality--t is to say1 by religi\s belief ( ! ,*ri/ian type4 ,reason & ?\ght gr[ tir$1 l muscles & n]ves4 ,!y mu/ h _! sleep1 & ?is sleep is ! relapse into ! tradition ( *ildhood1 into ! common hope4 ,x takes s mu* ef=t to ma9ta9 "o's self 9 an exceptional po9t ( view1 t "o falls back into prejudice by pure exhau/ion1 j z ! man :o /&s indef9itely always ends by s9k+ to ! gr\nd & reassum+ ! horizontal position4 ,:at is to become ( u :5 ev]y?+ leaves u--heal?1 joy1 affections1 ! fre%ness ( s5sation1 memory1 capacity = "w--:5 ! sun seems to u to h lo/ its w>m?1 & life is /ripp$ ( all its *>m8 ,:at is to become ( u )\t hope8 ,mu/ we ei!r h>d5 or =get8 ,!re is b "o answ]--keep close to duty4 ,nev] m9d ! future1 if only y h peace ( consci5ce1 if y feel y\rself reconcil$1 & 9 h>mony ) ! ord] ( ?+s4 ,be :at y ought to be2 ! re/ is ,god's affair4 ,x is = him to "k :at is be/1 to take c>e ( 8 own glory1 to ensure ! happ9ess ( :at dep5ds on him1 :e!r by ano!r life or by annihilation4 ,& suppos+ t !re 7 no good & holy ,god1 no?+ b univ]sal be+1 ! law ( ! all1 an ideal )\t hypo/asis or reality1 duty w\ld /ill be ! key ( ! enigma1 ! pole-/> ( a w&]+ humanity4 8,fais ce que dois1 advi5ne que p\rra40 ,janu>y #bf1 #ahfh4--;,bless$ be *ildhood1 :i* br+s d[n some?+ ( heav5 into ! mid/ ( our r\gh e>?l9ess4 ,^! eighty ?\s& daily bir?s1 ( :i* /ati/ics tell u1 repres5t z x 7 an effusion ( innoc5ce & fre%ness1 /ruggl+ n only aga9/ ! dea? ( ! race1 b aga9/ human corruption1 & ! univ]sal gangr5e ( s94 ,all ! good & :olesome feel+ :i* is int]tw9$ ) *ildhood & ! cradle is "o ( ! secrets ( ! provid5tial gov]nm5t ( ! _w4 ,suppress ?is life-giv+ dew1 & human society w\ld be scor*$ & deva/at$ by selfi% passion4 ,suppos+ t humanity _h be5 compos$ ( a ?\s& millions ( immortal be+s1 ^: numb] c\ld nei!r increase nor dim9i%1 :]e %\ld we be1 & :at %\ld we be6 ,a ?\s& times m le>n$1 no d\bt1 b a ?\s& times m evil4 ,!re w\ld h be5 a va/ accumulation ( sci5ce1 b all ! virtues eng5d]$ by suff]+ & devotion--t is to say1 by ! family & society--w\ld h no exi/5ce4 ,& = ?is !re w\ld be no comp5sation4 ,bless$ be *ildhood = ! good t x does1 & = ! good :i* x br+s ab\t c>elessly & unconsci\sly by simply mak+ u love x & lett+ itself be lov$4 ,:at little ( p>adise we see /ill on e>? is due to its pres5ce among u4 ,)\t fa!rhood1 )\t mo!rhood1 ,i ?9k t love itself w\ld n be en\gh to prev5t m5 f dev\r+ ea* o!r--m51 t is to say1 su* z human passions h made !m4 ,! angels h no ne$ ( bir? & dea? z f\ndations = _! life1 because _! life is heav5ly4 ,febru>y #af1 #ahfh4--;,i h be5 f9i%+ ,ab\t's 8,ma9froy 7,les ,m>iages de ,prov9ce740 ,:at subtlety1 :at clev]ness1 :at v]ve1 :at aplomb6 ,ab\t is a ma/] ( epi!t1 ( quick1 light-w+$ satire4 ,= all 8 cavali] fre$om ( mann]1 8 "w is conceiv$ at bottom 9 a _s ( ! subtle/ irony1 & 8 deta*m5t ( m9d is s great t he is able to make sport ( ev]y?+1 to mock at o!rs & himself1 :ile all ! "t amus+ himself extremely ) 8 own ideas & inv5tions4 ,?is is inde$ ! *>act]i/ic m>k1 ! common signature1 s to speak1 ( esprit l 84 ,irrepressible mis*ief1 indefatigable ela/icity1 a p[] ( lum9\s mock]y1 delight 9 ! p]petual dis*>ge ( innum]able arr[s f an inexhau/ible quiv]1 ! unqu5*able laught] ( "s little e>?-born demon1 p]petual gayety1 & a radiant =ce ( epigram--!re are all ^! 9 ! true humori/4 ,/ulti sunt innum]abiles1 said ,erasmus1 ! patron ( all ^! da9ty mock]s4 ,folly1 conceit1 fopp]y1 sill9ess1 affectation1 hypocrisy1 attitud9iz+ & p$antry ( all %ades1 & 9 all =ms1 ev]y?+ t poses1 prances1 bridles1 /ruts1 b$iz5s1 & plumes itself1 ev]y?+ t takes itself s]i\sly & tries to impose itself on mank9d--all ?is is ! natural prey ( ! satiri/1 s _m t>gets ready = 8 arr[s1 s _m victims (f]$ to 8 attack4 ,& we all "k h[ ri* ! _w is 9 prey ( ?is k9d6 ,an ald]man's fea/ ( folly is s]v$ up to him 9 p]petuity2 ! spectacle ( society (f]s him an endless noce de ,gama*e4 ,footnote3 ,noce de ,gama*e--8repas trs somptueux40--,littr4 ,! allusion1 ( c\rse1 is to ,don ,quixote1 ,"p ,,ii4 *ap4 xx4--8,donde se cu5tan las bodas de ,bama*o el rico1 con el suceso de ,basilio el pobre40 ,) :at glee he raids ?r\gh 8 doma9s1 & :at signs ( de/ruction & massacre m>k ! pa? ( ! sportsman6 ,8 h& is infallible l 8 glance4 ,! _s ( s>casm lives & ?rives 9 ! mid/ ( univ]sal wreck2 its balls are en*ant$ & itself invuln]able1 & x braves retaliations & reprisals because itself is a m]e fla%1 a bodiless & magical no?+4 ,clev] m5 w recognize & tol]ate no?+ b clev]ness2 e au?ority r\ses _! ridicule1 e sup]/ition amuses !m1 e conv5tion moves !m to contradiction4 ,only =ce f9ds favor 9 _! eyes1 & !y h no tol]ation = any?+ t is n purely natural & spontane\s4 ,& yet t5 clev] m5 are n wor? "o man ( tal5t1 nor t5 m5 ( tal5t wor? "o man ( g5ius4 ,& 9 ! individual1 feel+ is m ?an clev]ness1 reason is wor? z mu* z feel+1 & consci5ce has x ov] reason4 ,if1 !n1 ! clev] man is n mockable1 he may at lea/ be nei!r lov$1 nor consid]$1 nor e/eem$4 ,he may make himself fe>$1 x is true1 & =ce o!rs to respect 8 indep5d5ce2 b ?is negative advantage1 :i* is ! result ( a negative sup]iority1 br+s no happ9ess ) x4 ,clev]ness is s]viceable = ev]y?+1 suffici5t = no?+4 ,m>* #h1 #ahfh4--,madame----kept me to h tea ) ?ree "y fri5ds ( h]s--?ree si/]s1 ,i ?9k4 ,! two y\nge/ are extremely pretty1 ! d>k "o z pretty z ! blonde4 ,_! fre% faces1 radiant ) ! bloom ( y\?1 7 a p]petual delight to ! eye4 ,?is electric =ce ( beauty has a b5efic5t effect ^u ! man ( lett]s2 x acts z a real re/orative4 ,s5sitive1 impressionable1 absorb5t z ,i am1 ! neighborhood ( heal?1 ( beauty1 ( intellig5ce & ( goodness1 ex]cises a p[]ful influ5ce ^u my :ole be+2 & 9 ! same way ,i am tr\bl$ & affect$ j z easily by ! pres5ce ne> me ( tr\bl$ lives or diseas$ s\ls4 ,madame ---- said ( me t ,i mu/ be 8sup]latively fem99e0 9 all my p]ceptions4 ,?is ready sympa?y & s5sitiv5ess is ! reason ( x4 ,if ,i _h b desir$ x ev] s little1 ,i %\ld h _h ! magical clairvoyance ( ! somnambuli/1 & c\ld h reproduc$ 9 myself a numb] ( /range ph5om5a4 ,i "k x1 b ,i h always be5 on my gu>d aga9/ x1 :e!r f indiff]5ce or f prud5ce4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( ! intuitions ( e k9d :i* h come to me s9ce my y\?1 x seems to me t ,i h liv$ a multitude ( lives4 ,e *>act]i/ic individuality %apes itself ideally 9 me1 or r molds me = ! mom5t into its own image2 & ,i h only to turn my att5tion ^u myself at su* a "t to be able to und]/& a new mode ( be+1 a new phase ( human nature4 ,9 ?is way ,i h be51 turn by turn1 ma!matician1 musician1 savant1 monk1 *ild1 or "m4 ,9 ^! /ates ( univ]sal sympa?y ,i h ev5 seem$ to myself sometimes to ent] into ! condition ( ! animal or ! plant1 & ev5 ( an individual animal1 ( a giv5 plant4 ,?is faculty ( asc5d+ & desc5d+ metamorphosis1 ?is p[] ( simplify+ or ( add+ to "o's individuality1 has sometimes a/\nd$ my fri5ds1 ev5 ! mo/ subtle ( !m4 ,x has to d no d\bt ) ! extreme facility :i* ,i h = imp]sonal & objective ?\ght1 & ?is aga9 acc\nts = ! difficulty :i* ,i feel 9 realiz+ my own individuality1 9 be+ simply "o man hav+ 8 prop] numb] & ticket4 ,to )draw )9 my own individual limits has always seem$ to me a /range1 arbitr>y1 & conv5tional process4 ,i seem to myself to be a m]e conjuror's app>atus1 an in/rum5t ( vision & p]ception1 a p]son )\t p]sonality1 a subject )\t any det]m9$ individuality--an in/ance1 to speak te*nically1 ( pure 8det]m9ability0 & 8=mability10 & !re=e ,i c only resign myself ) difficulty to play ! purely arbitr>y "p ( a private citiz51 inscrib$ ^u ! roll ( a p>ticul> t[n or a p>ticul> c\ntry4 ,9 action ,i feel myself out ( place2 my true milieu is contemplation4 ,pure virtuality & p]fect equilibrium--9 ^! ,i am mo/ at home4 ,!re ,i feel myself free1 dis9t]e/$1 & sov]eign4 ,is x a call or a temptation8 ,x repres5ts p]haps ! oscillation betwe5 ! two g5iuses1 ! ,greek & ! ,roman1 ! ea/]n & ! we/]n1 ! anci5t & ! ,*ri/ian1 or ! /ruggle betwe5 ! two ideals1 t ( lib]ty & t ( hol9ess4 ,lib]ty raises u to ! gods2 hol9ess pro/rates u on ! gr\nd4 ,action limits u2 :]eas 9 ! /ate ( contemplation we are endlessly expansive4 ,w localizes u2 ?\ght univ]salizes u4 ,my s\l wav]s betwe5 half a doz5 antagoni/ic g5]al conceptions1 because x is responsive to all ! great in/9cts ( human nature1 & its aspiration is to ! absolute1 :i* is only to be rea*$ ?r\gh a succession ( contr>ies4 ,x has tak5 me a great deal ( "t to und]/& myself1 & ,i frequ5tly f9d myself beg9n+ ov] aga9 ! /udy ( ! (t-solv$ problem1 s difficult is x = u to ma9ta9 any fix$ po9t )9 u4 ,i love ev]y?+1 & dete/ "o ?+ only--! hopeless imprisonm5t ( my be+ )9 a s+le arbitr>y =m1 ev5 7 x *os5 by myself4 ,lib]ty = ! inn] man is !n ! /ronge/ ( my passions--p]haps my only passion4 ,is su* a passion lawful8 ,x has be5 my habit to ?9k s1 b int]mitt5tly1 by fits & />ts4 ,i am n p]fectly sure ( x4 ,m>* #ag1 #ahfh4--,wom5 wi% to be lov$ )\t a :y or a :]e=e2 n because !y are pretty1 or good1 or well br$1 or graceful1 or intellig5t1 b because !y are !mselves4 ,all analysis seems to !m to imply a loss ( consid]ation1 a subord9ation ( _! p]sonality to some?+ :i* dom9ates & measures x4 ,!y w h none ( x2 & _! in/9ct is j4 ,z soon z we c give a reason = a feel+ we are no long] "u ! spell ( x2 we appreciate1 we weigh1 we are free1 at lea/ 9 pr9ciple4 ,love mu/ always rema9 a fasc9ation1 a wit*]y1 if ! empire ( woman is to endure4 ,once ! my/]y gone1 ! p[] goes ) x4 ,love mu/ always seem to u indivisible1 insoluble1 sup]ior to all analysis1 if x is to pres]ve t appe>ance ( inf9ity1 ( some?+ sup]natural & miracul\s1 :i* makes its *ief beauty4 ,! majority ( be+s despise :at !y und]/&1 & b[ only be=e ! inexplicable4 ,! fem99e triumph p> excell5ce is to convict ( obscurity t virile intellig5ce :i* makes s mu* pret5se to enlight5m5t4 ,& :5 a woman inspires love1 x is !n especially t %e enjoys ?is pr\d triumph4 ,i admit t h] exultation has its gr\nds4 ,/ill1 x seems to me t love--true & pr(\nd love--%\ld be a s\rce ( light & calm1 a religion & a revelation1 9 :i* !re is no place left = ! l[] victories ( vanity4 ,great s\ls c>e only = :at is great1 & to ! _s :i* hov]s 9 ! sight ( ! ,inf9ite1 any sort ( artifice seems a disgraceful pu]ility4 ,m>* #ai1 #ahfh4--,:at we call little ?+s are m]ely ! causes ( great ?+s2 !y are ! beg9n+1 ! embryo1 & x is ! po9t ( dep>ture :i*1 g5]ally speak+1 decides ! :ole future ( an exi/5ce4 ,"o s+le black speck may be ! beg9n+ ( a gangr5e1 ( a /orm1 ( a revolution4 ,f "o insignificant misund]/&+ hatr$ & sep>ation may f9ally issue4 ,an enorm\s avalan*e beg9s by ! displacem5t ( "o atom1 & ! conflagration ( a t[n by ! fall ( a mat*4 ,almo/ ev]y?+ comes f almo/ no?+1 "o might ?9k4 ,x is only ! fir/ cry/allization :i* is ! affair ( m9d2 ! ultimate aggregation is ! affair ( mass1 ( attraction1 ( acquir$ mom5tum1 ( me*anical accel]ation4 ,hi/ory1 l nature1 illu/rates = u ! application ( ! law ( in]tia & agglom]ation :i* is put lightly 9 ! prov]b1 8,no?+ succe$s l success40 ,f9d ! "r po9t at />t+2 /rike /raight1 beg9 well2 ev]y?+ dep5ds on x4 ,or m simply /ill1 provide y\rself ) good luck--= accid5t plays a va/ "p 9 human affairs4 ,^? :o h succe$$ mo/ 9 ?is _w 7,napoleon or ,bism>ck7 confess x2 calculation is n )\t its uses1 b *ance makes mock ( calculation1 & ! result ( a plann$ comb9ation is 9 no wise proportional to its m]it4 ,f ! sup]natural po9t ( view p say3 8,?is *ance1 z y call x1 is1 9 reality1 ! action ( provid5ce4 ,man may give himself :at tr\ble he w--,god leads him all ! same40 ,only1 un=tunately1 ?is suppos$ int]v5tion z (t5 z n ends 9 ! defeat ( zeal1 virtue1 & devotion1 & ! success ( crime1 /upidity1 & selfi%ness4 ,poor1 sorely-tri$ ,fai?6 ,%e has b "o way out ( ! difficulty--! ^w ,my/]y6 ,x is 9 ! orig9s ( ?+s t ! great secret ( de/9y lies hidd51 al?\gh ! brea?less sequ5ce ( aft] ev5ts has (t5 _m surprises = u too4 ,s t at fir/ sight hi/ory seems to u accid5t & confusion2 look$ at = ! second "t1 x seems to u logical & necess>y2 look$ at = ! ?ird "t1 x appe>s to u a mixture ( necessity & lib]ty2 on ! f\r? exam9ation we sc>cely "k :at to ?9k ( x1 = if =ce is ! s\rce ( "r1 & *ance ! orig9 ( =ce1 we come back to our fir/ explanation1 only ) a heavi] he>t ?an :5 we began4 ,is ,democritus "r aft] all8 ,is *ance ! f\ndation ( ev]y?+1 all laws be+ b ! imag9ations ( our reason1 :i*1 itself born ( accid5t1 has a c]ta9 p[] ( self-deception & ( inv5t+ laws :i* x believes to be real & objective1 j z a man :o dreams ( a meal ?9ks t he is eat+1 :ile 9 reality !re is nei!r table1 nor food1 nor gue/ nor n\ri%m5t8 ,ev]y?+ goes on z if !re 7 ord] & reason & logic 9 ! _w1 :ile 9 reality ev]y?+ is =tuit\s1 accid5tal1 & app>5t4 ,! univ]se is b ! kaleidoscope :i* turns )9 ! m9d ( ! s-call$ ?9k+ be+1 :o is himself a curiosity )\t a cause1 an accid5t consci\s ( ! great accid5t ar\nd him1 & :o amuses himself ) x s long z ! ph5om5on ( 8 vision la/s4 ,sci5ce is a lucid madness occupi$ 9 tabulat+ its own necess>y halluc9ations4 ,! philosoph] laughs1 = he alone escapes be+ dup$1 :ile he sees o!r m5 ! victims ( p]si/5t illusion4 ,he is l "s mis*iev\s spectator ( a ball :o has clev]ly tak5 all ! /r+s f ! viol9s1 & yet sees musicians & danc]s mov+ & pir\ett+ be=e him z ?\gh ! music 7 /ill go+ on4 ,su* an exp]i5ce w\ld delight him z prov+ t ! univ]sal ,/4 ,vitus' dance is also no?+ b an ab]ration ( ! inn] consci\sness1 & t ! philosoph] is 9 ! "r ( x z aga9/ ! g5]al cr$ulity4 ,is x n ev5 en\gh simply to %ut "o's e>s 9 a ballroom1 to believe "o's self 9 a madh\se8 ,! multitude ( religions on ! e>? mu/ h v mu* ! same effect ^u ! man :o has kill$ ! religi\s idea 9 himself4 ,b x is a dang]\s attempt1 ?is repudiation ( ! common law ( ! race--?is claim to be 9 ! "r1 z aga9/ all ! _w4 ,x is n (t5 t ! philosophic sc(f]s =get !mselves = o!rs4 ,:y %\ld !y8 ,self-devotion is a s]i\s ?+1 & s]i\sness w\ld be inconsi/5t ) _! rle ( mock]y4 ,to be unselfi% we mu/ love2 to love we mu/ believe 9 ! reality ( :at we love2 we mu/ "k h[ to suff]1 h[ to =get ourselves1 h[ to yield ourselves up--9 a ^w1 h[ to be s]i\s4 ,a _s ( incessant mock]y means absolute isolation2 x is ! sign ( a ?or\ghgo+ egotism4 ,if we wi% to d good to m5 we mu/ pity & n despise !m4 ,we mu/ le>n to say ( !m1 n 8,:at fools60 b 8,:at un=tunates60 ,! pessimi/ or ! nihili/ seems to me less cold & icy ?an ! mock+ a!i/4 ,he rem9ds me ( ! somb] words ( 8,ahasvrus30 8,v\s qui manquez de *>it1 ,tremblez mon supplice trange3 ,ce n'e/ po9t sa div9it1 ,c'e/ l'humanit que ,dieu v5ge60 ,footnote3 ,! quotation is f ,qu9et's 8,ahasvrus0 7fir/ publi%$ #ahcc71 t /range ,welt-g$i*t1 :i* ! au?or himself describ$ z 8l'hi/oire du monde1 de ,dieu dans le monde1 et enf9 du d\te dans le monde10 & :i*1 ) ,fau/1 probably sugge/$ ! unf9i%$ b 9 _m ways brilliant p]=mance ( ! "y ,spani>d1 ,espronc$a--,el ,diablo ,mundo4 ,x is bett] to be lo/ ?an to be sav$ all alone2 & x is a wrong to "o's k9d to wi% to be wise )\t mak+ o!rs %>e our wisdom4 ,x is1 besides1 an illusion to suppose t su* a privilege is possible1 :5 ev]y?+ proves ! solid>ity ( individuals1 & :5 no "o c ?9k at all except by means ( ! g5]al /ore ( ?\ght1 accumulat$ & ref9$ by c5turies ( cultivation & exp]i5ce4 ,absolute individualism is an absurdity4 ,a man may be isolat$ 9 8 own p>ticul> & tempor>y milieu1 b e "o ( our ?\ghts or feel+s f9ds1 has f\nd1 & w f9d1 its e*o 9 humanity4 ,su* an e*o is imm5se & f>-res\nd+ 9 ! case ( ^? repres5tative m5 :o h be5 adopt$ by great fractions ( humanity z guides1 reveal]s1 & re=m]s2 b x exi/s = ev]ybody4 ,e s9c]e utt]ance ( ! s\l1 e te/imony fai?fully borne to a p]sonal conviction1 is ( use to "s "o & "s ?+1 ev5 :5 y "k x n1 & :5 y\r m\? is /opp$ by viol5ce1 or ! noose tight5s r\nd y\r neck4 ,a ^w spok5 to "s "o pres]ves an inde/ructible influ5ce1 j z any movem5t :atev] may be metamorphos$1 b n undone4 ,"h1 !n1 is a reason = n mock+1 = n be+ sil5t1 = affirm+1 = act+4 ,we mu/ h fai? 9 tru?2 we mu/ seek ! true & spread x abroad2 we mu/ love m5 & s]ve !m4 ,april #i1 #ahfh4--;,i h be5 sp5d+ ?ree h\rs ov] ,lotze's big volume 78,ges*i*te d] ,ae/hetik9 ,deuts*l&074 ,x beg9s attractively1 b ! attraction wanes1 & by ! end ,i 0 v tir$ ( x4 ,:y8 ,because ! noise ( a mill-:eel s5ds "o to sleep1 & ^! pages )\t p>agraphs1 ^! int]m9able *apt]s1 & ?is incessant1 dialectical clatt]1 affect me z ?\gh ,i 7 li/5+ to a ^w-mill4 ,i end by yawn+ l any simple non-philosophical mortal 9 ! face ( all ?is heav9ess & p$antry4 ,erudition1 & ev5 ?\ght1 are n ev]y?+4 ,an occasional t\* ( esprit1 a little %>pness ( phrase1 a little vivacity1 imag9ation1 & grace1 w\ld spoil nei!r4 ,d ^! p$antic books leave a s+le image or =mula1 a s+le new or /rik+ fact beh9d !m 9 ! memory1 :5 "o puts !m d[n8 ,no2 no?+ b confusion & fatigue4 ,oh = cle>ness1 t]s5ess1 brevity6 ,did]ot1 ,voltaire1 & ev5 ,galiani6 ,a %ort article by ,sa9te-,beuve1 ,s*]]1 ,r5an1 ,victor ,*]buliez1 gives "o m pleasure1 & makes "o ?9k & reflect m1 ?an a ?\s& ( ^! heavy ,g]man pages1 /uff$ to ! brim1 & %[+ r ! "w itself ?an its results4 ,! ,g]mans ga!r fuel = ! pile3 x is ! ,fr5* :o k9dle x4 ,= heav5's sake1 sp>e me y\r lucubrations2 give me facts or ideas4 ,keep y\r vats1 y\r mu/1 y\r dregs1 9 ! backgr\nd4 ,:at ,i ask is w9e--w9e :i* w sp>kle 9 ! glass1 & /imulate intellig5ce in/ead ( weigh+ x d[n4 ,april #aa1 #ahfh4 7,mornex sur ,salve74--,i left t[n 9 a great /orm ( w9d1 :i* 0 rais+ cl\ds ( du/ along ! suburban roads1 & two h\rs lat] ,i f\nd myself safely in/all$ among ! m\nta9s1 j l la/ ye>4 ,i ?9k ( /ay+ a week "h4444 ,! s\nds ( ! village are waft$ to my op5 w9d[1 b>k+s ( di/ant dogs1 voices ( wom5 at ! f\nta91 ! songs ( birds 9 ! l[] or*>ds4 ,! gre5 c>pet ( ! pla9 is dappl$ by pass+ %ad[s ?r[n ^u x by ! cl\ds2 ! l&scape has ! *>m ( delicate t9t & a sort ( languid grace4 ,already ,i am full ( a s5se ( well-be+1 ,i am ta/+ ! joys ( t contemplative /ate 9 :i* ! s\l1 issu+ f itself1 becomes z x 7 ! s\l ( a c\ntry or a l&scape1 & feels liv+ )9 x a multitude ( lives4 ,"h is no m resi/ance1 negation1 blame2 ev]y?+ is affirmative2 ,i feel myself 9 h>mony ) nature & ) surr\nd+s1 ( :i* ,i seem to myself ! expression4 ,! he>t op5s to ! imm5sity ( ?+s4 ,?is is :at ,i love6 ,nam mihires1 non me rebus submitt]e conor4 ,april #ab1 #ahfh4 7,ea/] ,day71 ,mornex ,eight ,a4 ,m4--,! day has op5$ solemnly & religi\sly4 ,!re is a t9kl+ ( bells f ! valley3 ev5 ! fields seem to be brea?+ =? a canticle ( praise4 ,humanity mu/ h a wor%ip1 &1 all ?+s consid]$1 is n ! ,*ri/ian wor%ip ! be/ among ^? :i* h exi/$ on a l>ge scale8 ,! religion ( s91 ( rep5tance1 & reconciliation--! religion ( ! new bir? & ( et]nal life--is n a religion to be a%am$ (4 ,9 spite ( all ! ab]rations ( fanaticism1 all ! sup]/itions ( =malism1 all ! ugly sup]/ructures ( hypocrisy1 all ! fanta/ic pu]ilities ( !ology1 ! gospel has modifi$ ! _w & consol$ mank9d4 ,*ri/ian humanity is n mu* bett] ?an pagan humanity1 b x w\ld be mu* worse )\t a religion1 & )\t ?is religion4 ,e religion proposes an ideal & a model2 ! ,*ri/ian ideal is sublime1 & its model ( a div9e beauty4 ,we may hold alo( f ! *ur*es1 & yet b[ ourselves be=e ,jesus4 ,we may be suspici\s ( ! cl]gy1 & refuse to h any?+ to d ) cate*isms1 & yet love ! ,holy & ! ,j1 :o came to save & n to curse4 ,jesus w always supply u ) ! be/ criticism ( ,*ri/ianity1 & :5 ,*ri/ianity has pass$ away ! religion ( ,jesus w 9 all probability survive4 ,aft] ,jesus z ,god we %all come back to fai? 9 ! ,god ( ,jesus4 ,five o'clock ,p4 ,m4--,i h be5 = a long walk ?r\gh ,cz>gues1 ,es]i1 & ! ,yves woods1 return+ by ! ,pont du ,l\p4 ,! wea!r 0 cold & gray4 ,a great popul> m]rymak+ ( "s sort1 ) its multitude ( bl\ses1 & its drums & fifes1 has be5 go+ on riot\sly = an h\r "u my w9d[4 ,! cr[d has sung a numb] ( songs1 dr9k+ songs1 ballads1 romances1 b all m or less heavy & ugly4 ,! muse has nev] t\*$ our c\ntry p1 & ! ,swiss race is n graceful ev5 9 its gayety4 ,a be> 9 high spirits--?is is :at "o ?9ks (4 ,! poetry x produces1 too1 is desp]ately vulg> & commonplace4 ,:y8 ,9 ! fir/ place1 because1 9 spite ( ! pret5ses ( our democratic philosophies1 ! classes ^: backs are b5t ) manual labor are ae/hetically inf]ior to ! o!rs4 ,9 ! next place1 because our old ru/ic peasant poetry is dead1 & ! peasant1 :5 he tries to %>e ! music or ! poetry ( ! cultivat$ classes1 only succe$s 9 c>icatur+ x1 & n 9 copy+ x4 ,democracy1 by lay+ x d[n t !re is b "o class = all m51 has 9 fact done a wrong to ev]y?+ t is n fir/-rate4 ,z we c no long] )\t (f5se judge m5 accord+ to a c]ta9 recogniz$ ord]1 we c only comp>e !m to ! be/ t exi/s1 & !n !y naturally seem to u m m$iocre1 m ugly1 m de=m$ ?an be=e4 ,if ! passion = equality pot5tially raises ! av]age1 x really degrades n9ete5-tw5tie?s ( individuals bel[ _! =m] place4 ,!re is a progress 9 ! doma9 ( law & a fall+ back 9 ! doma9 ( art4 ,& mean:ile ! arti/s see multiply+ be=e !m _! bte-noire1 ! b\rgeois1 ! ,phili/9e1 ! presumptu\s ignoramus1 ! quack :o plays at sci5ce1 & ! fea!r-bra9 :o ?9ks himself ! equal ( ! intellig5t4 8,commonness w prevail10 z ,de ,c&olle said 9 speak+ ( ! gram9ace\s plants4 ,! era ( equality means ! triumph ( m$iocrity4 ,x is disappo9t+1 b inevitable2 = x is "o ( "t's rev5ges4 ,humanity1 aft] hav+ organiz$ itself on ! basis ( ! dissimil>ity ( individuals1 is n[ organiz+ itself on ! basis ( _! simil>ity1 & ! "o exclusive pr9ciple is ab\t z true z ! o!r4 ,art no d\bt w lose1 b ju/ice w ga94 ,is n univ]sal level+-d[n ! law ( nature1 & :5 all has be5 level$ w n all h be5 de/roy$8 ,s t ! _w is /riv+ ) all its =ce = ! de/ruction ( :at x has itself br\ght =?4 ,life is ! bl9d pursuit ( its own negation2 z has be5 said ( ! wick$1 nature also works = h] own disappo9tm5t1 %e labors at :at %e hates1 %e weaves h] own %r\d1 & piles up ! /ones ( h] own tomb4 ,god may well =give u1 = 8we "k n :at to d40 ,j z ! sum ( =ce is always id5tical 9 ! mat]ial univ]se1 & pres5ts a spectacle n ( dim9ution nor ( augm5tation b simply ( con/ant metamorphosis1 s x is n impossible t ! sum ( good is 9 reality always ! same1 & t !re=e all progress on "o side is comp5sat$ inv]sely on ano!r side4 ,if ?is 7 s we ought nev] to say t p]iod or a p is absolutely & z a :ole sup]ior to ano!r "t or ano!r p1 b only t !re is sup]iority 9 c]ta9 po9ts4 ,! great diff]5ce betwe5 man & man w\ld1 on ^! pr9ciples1 consi/ 9 ! art ( trans=m+ vitality into spirituality1 & lat5t p[] into useful en]gy4 ,! same diff]5ce w\ld hold good betwe5 nation & nation1 s t ! object ( ! simultane\s or successive competition ( mank9d 9 hi/ory w\ld be ! extraction ( ! maximum ( humanity f a giv5 am\nt ( animality4 ,education1 morals1 & politics w\ld be only v>iations ( ! same art1 ! art ( liv+--t is to say1 ( dis5gag+ ! pure =m & subtle/ ess5ce ( our individual be+4 ,april #bf1 #ahfh4 7,sunday1 ,mid-day74--,a gloomy morn+4 ,on all sides a depress+ outlook1 & )91 disgu/ ) self4 ,t5 ,p4,m4--,visits & a walk4 ,i h sp5t ! ev5+ alone4 ,_m ?+s to-day h taught me lessons ( wisdom4 ,i h se5 ! haw?orns cov]+ !mselves ) blossom1 & ! :ole valley spr++ up afre% "u ! brea? ( ! spr+4 ,i h be5 ! spectator ( faults ( conduct on ! "p ( old m5 :o w n gr[ old1 & ^: he>t is 9 rebellion aga9/ ! natural law4 ,i h wat*$ ! work+ ( m>riage 9 its frivol\s & commonplace =ms1 & li/5$ to trivial prea*+4 ,i h be5 a witness ( griefs )\t hope1 ( lonel9ess t claim$ "o's pity4 ,i h li/5$ to pleasantries on ! subject ( madness1 & to ! m]ry songs ( ! birds4 ,& ev]y?+ has _h ! same message = me3 8,place y\rself once m 9 h>mony ) ! univ]sal law2 accept ! w ( ,god2 make a religi\s use ( life2 "w :ile x is yet day2 be at once s]i\s & *e]ful2 "k h[ to repeat ) ! apo/le1 #8,i h le>n$ 9 :atsoev] /ate ,i am !re) to be cont5t4'0 ,augu/ #bf1 #ahfh4--;,aft] all ! /orms ( feel+ )9 & ! organic di/urbances )\t1 :i* dur+ ^! latt] mon?s h p9n$ me s closely to my own individual exi/5ce1 %all ,i ev] be able to reasc5d into ! region ( pure intellig5ce1 to ent] aga9 ^u ! dis9t]e/$ & imp]sonal life1 to recov] my old indiff]5ce t[>d subjective mis]ies1 & rega9 a purely sci5tific & contemplative /ate ( m9d8 ,%all ,i ev] succe$ 9 =gett+ all ! ne$s :i* b9d me to e>? & to humanity8 ,%all ,i ev] become pure _s8 ,alas6 ,i _c p]suade myself to believe x possible = an in/ant4 ,i see infirmity & weakness close ^u me1 ,i feel ,i _c d )\t affection1 & ,i "k t ,i h no ambition1 & t my faculties are decl9+4 ,i rememb] t ,i am =ty-sev5 ye>s old1 & t all my brood ( y\?ful hopes has fl[n away4 ,s t !re is no deceiv+ myself z to ! fate :i* awaits me3 increas+ lonel9ess1 mortification ( _s1 long-cont9u$ regret1 melan*oly nei!r to be consol$ nor confess$1 a m\rnful old age1 a sl[ decay1 a dea? 9 ! des]t6 ,t]rible dilemma6 ,:atev] is /ill possible to me has lo/ its savor1 :ile all t ,i c\ld /ill desire escapes me1 & w always escape me4 ,e impulse ends 9 we>9ess & disappo9tm5t4 ,disc\ragem5t1 depression1 weakness1 apa?y2 !re is ! dismal s]ies :i* mu/ be =ev] begun & re-begun1 :ile we are /ill roll+ up ! ,sisyphean rock ( life4 ,is x n simpl] & %ort] to plunge head-=emo/ into ! gulf8 ,no1 rebel z we may1 !re is b "o solution--to submit to ! g5]al ord]1 to accept1 to resign ourselves1 & to d /ill :at we c4 ,x is our self-w1 our aspirations1 our dreams1 t mu/ be sacrific$4 ,we mu/ give up ! hope ( happ9ess once = all6 ,immolation ( ! self--dea? to self--?is is ! only suicide :i* is ei!r useful or p]mitt$4 ,9 my pres5t mood ( indiff]5ce & dis9t]e/$ness1 !re is "s secret ill-humor1 "s w\nd$ pride1 a little rancor2 !re is selfi%ness 9 %ort1 s9ce a premature claim = re/ is impli$ 9 x4 ,absolute dis9t]e/$ness is only rea*$ 9 t p]fect humility :i* tramples ! self "u foot = ! glory ( ,god4 ,i h no m /r5g? left1 ,i wi% = no?+2 b t is n :at is want$4 ,i mu/ wi% :at ,god wi%es2 ,i mu/ pass f indiff]5ce to sacrifice1 & f sacrifice to self-devotion4 ,! cup :i* ,i w\ld fa9 put away f me is ! mis]y ( liv+1 ! %ame ( exi/+ & suff]+ z a common creature :o has miss$ 8 vocation2 x is ! bitt] & increas+ humiliation ( decl9+ p[]1 ( gr[+ old "u ! weight ( "o's own disapproval1 & ! disappo9tm5t ( "o's fri5ds6 8,wilt ?\ be heal$80 0 ! text ( la/ ,sunday's s]mon4 8,come to me1 all ye :o are we>y & heavy-lad51 & ,i w give y re/40 8,& if our he>t condemn u1 ,god is great] ?an our he>t40 ,augu/ #bg1 #ahfh4--,to-day ,i took up ! 8,p5s]oso0 ,footnote3 8,,ii ,p5s]oso10 posies-maximes p> ,h4 ,f4 ,amiel3 ,g5ve1 #aheh4 ,?is little book1 :i* conta9s "o hundr$ & ?irty-?ree maxims1 sev]al ( :i* are quot$ 9 ! ,j\rnal ,intime1 is prefac$ by a motto translat$ f ,%elley--8,ce n'e/ pas la sci5ce qui n\s manque1 n\s mod]nes2 n\s l'avons surabondamm5t4444 ,mais ce que n\s avons absorb n\s absorbe4444 ,ce qui n\s manque c'e/ la posie de la vie40 aga94 ,i h (t5 violat$ its maxims & =gott5 its lessons4 ,/ill1 ?is volume is a true son ( my s\l1 & brea!s ! true _s ( ! inn] life4 ,:5ev] ,i wi% to revive my consci\sness ( my own tradition1 x is pleasant to me to read ov] ?is little gnomic collection :i* has _h su* scant ju/ice done to x1 & :i*1 7 x ano!r's1 ,i %\ld (t5 quote4 ,i l to feel t 9 x ,i h atta9$ to t relative tru? :i* may be def9$ z consi/5cy ) self1 ! h>mony ( appe>ance ) reality1 ( ?\ght ) expression--9 o!r words1 s9c]ity1 +5u\sness1 inw>dness4 ,x is p]sonal exp]i5ce 9 ! /ricte/ s5se ( ! ^w4 ,septemb] #ba1 #ahfh4 7,vill>s74--,a lovely autumn effect4 ,ev]y?+ 0 veil$ 9 gloom ?is morn+1 & a gray mi/ ( ra9 float$ betwe5 u & ! :ole circle ( m\nta9s4 ,n[ ! /rip ( blue sky :i* made its appe>ance at fir/ beh9d ! di/ant peaks has gr[n l>g]1 has m\nt$ to ! z5i?1 & ! dome ( heav51 swept almo/ cle> ( cl\d1 s5ds /ream+ d[n ^u u ! pale rays ( a convalesc5t sun4 ,! day n[ promises k9dly1 & all is well t ends well4 ,?us aft] a season ( te>s a sob] & s(t5$ joy may return to u4 ,say to y\rself t y are ent]+ ^u ! autumn ( y\r life2 t ! graces ( spr+ & ! spl5dors ( summ] are irrevocably gone1 b t autumn too has its beauties4 ,! autumn wea!r is (t5 d>k5$ by ra91 cl\d1 & mi/1 b ! air is /ill s(t1 & ! sun /ill delights ! eyes1 & t\*es ! yell[+ leaves c>ess+ly2 x is ! "t = fruit1 = h>ve/1 = ! v9tage1 ! mom5t = mak+ provision = ! w9t]4 ,"h ! h]ds ( mil*-c[s h already come d[n to ! level ( ! *let1 & next week !y w be l[] ?an we are4 ,?is liv+ b>omet] is a w>n+ to u t ! "t has come to say f>ewell to ! m\nta9s4 ,!re is no?+ to ga91 & ev]y?+ to lose1 by despis+ ! example ( nature1 & mak+ arbitr>y rules ( life = "o's self4 ,our lib]ty1 wisely und]/ood1 is b a volunt>y ob$i5ce to ! univ]sal laws ( life4 ,my life has rea*$ its mon? ( ,septemb]4 ,may ,i recognize x 9 "t1 & suit ?\ght & action to ! fact6 ,novemb] #ac1 #ahfh4--;,i am read+ "p ( two books by ,*>les ,secrtan ,footnote3 ,*>les ,secrtan1 a ,lausanne pr(essor1 ! fri5d ( ,v9et1 born #ahai4 ,he publi%$ 8,leons sur la ,philosophie de ,leibnitz10 8,philosophie de la ,lib]t10 8,la ,raison et le ,*ri/ianisme10 etc4 8,re*]*es sur la ,m?ode10 #aheg2 8,prcis lm5taire de ,philosophie10 #ahfh4 ,! philosophy ( ,secrtan is ! philosophy ( ,*ri/ianity1 consid]$ z ! "o true religion4 ,subord9ation ( nature to intellig5ce1 ( intellig5ce to w1 & ( w to dogmatic fai?--su* is its g5]al framework4 ,un=tunately !re are no signs ( critical1 or comp>ative1 or hi/orical /udy 9 x1 & z an apologetic--9 :i* satire is curi\sly m+l$ ) glorification ( ! religion ( love--x leaves ^u "o an impression ( p>ti pris4 ,a philosophy ( religion1 ap>t f ! comp>ative sci5ce ( religions1 & ap>t also f a dis9t]e/$ & g5]al philosophy ( hi/ory1 mu/ always be m or less arbitr>y & factiti\s4 ,x is only pseudo-sci5tific1 ?is r$uction ( human life to ?ree sph]es--indu/ry1 law1 & religion4 ,! au?or seems to me to possess a vigor\s & pr(\nd m9d1 r ?an a free m9d4 ,n only is he dogmatic1 b he dogmatizes 9 favor ( a giv5 religion1 to :i* 8 :ole allegiance is pl$g$4 ,besides1 ,*ri/ianity be+ an ,x :i* ea* *ur* def9es 9 its own way1 ! au?or takes ! same lib]ty1 & def9es ! ,x 9 8 way2 s t he is at once too free & n free en\gh2 too free 9 respect to hi/orical ,*ri/ianity1 n free en\gh 9 respect to ,*ri/ianity z a p>ticul> *ur*4 ,he does n satisfy ! believ+ ,anglican1 ,lu!ran1 ,re=m$ ,*ur*man1 or ,ca?olic2 & he does n satisfy ! free?9k]4 ,?is ,s*ell+ian type ( speculation1 :i* consi/s 9 logically d$uc+ a p>ticul> religion--t is to say1 9 mak+ philosophy ! s]vant ( ,*ri/ian !ology--is a legacy f ! ,middle ,ages4 ,aft] belief comes judgm5t2 b a believ] is n a judge4 ,a fi% lives 9 ! ocean1 b x _c see all ar\nd x2 x _c take a view ( ! :ole2 !re=e x _c judge :at ! ocean is4 ,9 ord] to und]/& ,*ri/ianity we mu/ put x 9 its hi/orical place1 9 its prop] framework2 we mu/ reg>d x z a "p ( ! religi\s developm5t ( humanity1 & s judge x1 n f a ,*ri/ian po9t ( view1 b f a human po9t ( view1 s9e ira nec /udio4 ,decemb] #af1 #ahfh4--;,i am 9 ! mo/ pa9ful /ate ( anxiety z to my poor k9d fri5d1 ,*>les ,heim4444 ,s9ce ! #cj? ( ,novemb] ,i h _h no lett] f ! de> invalid1 :o !n said 8 la/ f>ewell to me4 ,h[ long ^! two weeks h seem$ to me--& h[ ke5ly ,i h realiz$ t /rong crav+ :i* _m feel = ! la/ words1 ! la/ looks1 ( ^? !y love6 ,su* words & looks are a k9d ( te/am5t4 ,!y h a solemn & sacr$ "* :i* is n m]ely an effect ( our imag9ation4 ,= t :i* is on ! br9k ( dea? already p>ticipates to "s ext5t 9 et]nity4 ,a dy+ man seems to speak to u f beyond ! tomb2 :at he says has ! effect ^u u ( a s5t5ce1 an oracle1 an injunction2 we look ^u him z "o end[$ ) second sight4 ,s]i\s & solemn words come naturally to ! man :o feels life escap+ him1 & ! grave op5+ be=e him4 ,! dep?s ( 8 nature are !n reveal$2 ! div9e )9 him ne$ no long] hide itself4 ,oh1 d n let u wait to be j or pitiful or demon/rative t[>d ^? we love until !y or we are /ruck d[n by illness or ?reat5$ ) dea?6 ,life is %ort & we h nev] too mu* "t = gladd5+ ! he>ts ( ^? :o are travel+ ! d>k j\rney ) u4 ,oh1 be swift to love1 make ha/e to be k9d6 ,decemb] #bf1 #ahfh4--,my de> fri5d di$ ?is morn+ at ,hyres4 ,a beautiful s\l has return$ to heav54 ,s he has ceas$ to suff]6 ,is he happy n[8 99 99 99 99 99 ,if m5 are always m or less deceiv$ on ! subject ( wom51 x is because !y =get t !y & wom5 d n speak altoge!r ! same language1 & t words h n ! same weight or ! same mean+ = !m1 especially 9 que/ions ( feel+4 ,:e!r f %yness or precaution or artifice1 a woman nev] speaks out h] :ole ?\ght1 & moreov] :at %e h]self kn[s ( x is b a "p ( :at x really is4 ,complete frankness seems to be impossible to h]1 & complete self-k seems to be =bidd5 h]4 ,if %e is a sph9x to u1 x is because %e is a riddle ( d\btful mean+ ev5 to h]self4 ,%e has no ne$ ( p]fidy1 = %e is my/]y itself4 ,a woman is some?+ fugitive1 irrational1 indet]m9able1 illogical1 & contradictory4 ,a great deal ( =be>ance ought to be %[n h]1 & a good deal ( prud5ce ex]cis$ ) reg>d to h]1 = %e may br+ ab\t innum]able evils )\t kn[+ ,x4 ,capable ( all k9ds ( devotion1 & ( all k9ds ( treason1 8mon/re incomprh5sible10 rais$ to ! second p[]1 %e is at once ! delight & ! t]ror ( man4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! m a man loves1 ! m he suff]s4 ,! sum ( possible grief = ea* s\l is 9 proportion to its degree ( p]fection4 99 99 99 99 99 ,he :o is too mu* afraid ( be+ dup$ has lo/ ! p[] ( be+ magnanim\s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,d\bt ( ! reality ( love ends by mak+ u d\bt ev]y?+4 ,! f9al result ( all deceptions & disappo9tm5ts is a!ism1 :i* may n always yield up its "n & secret1 b :i* lurks1 a mask$ spect]1 )9 ! dep?s ( ?\ght1 z ! la/ supreme expla9]4 8,man is :at 8 love is10 & foll[s ! =tunes ( 8 love4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! beautiful s\ls ( ! _w h an art ( sa9tly al*emy1 by :i* bitt]ness is conv]t$ into k9dness1 ! gall ( human exp]i5ce into g5tl5ess1 +ratitude into b5efits1 insults into p>don4 ,& ! trans=mation ought to become s easy & habitual t ! look]s-on may ?9k x spontane\s1 & nobody give u cr$it = x4 ,janu>y #bg1 #ahfi4--,:at1 !n1 is ! s]vice r5d]$ to ! _w by ,*ri/ianity8 ,! proclamation ( 8good news40 ,& :at is ?is 8good news80 ,! p>don ( s94 ,! ,god ( hol9ess lov+ ! _w & reconcil+ x to himself by ,jesus1 9 ord] to e/abli% ! k+dom ( ,god1 ! city ( s\ls1 ! life ( heav5 ^u e>?--"h y h ! :ole ( x2 b 9 ?is is a revolution4 8,love ye "o ano!r1 z ,i h lov$ y20 8,be ye "o ) me1 z ,i am "o ) ! ,fa!r30 = ?is is life et]nal1 "h is p]fection1 salvation1 joy4 ,fai? 9 ! fa!rly love ( ,god1 :o puni%es & p>dons = our good1 & :o desires n ! dea? ( ! s9n]1 b 8 conv]sion & 8 life--"h is ! motive p[] ( ! r$eem$4 ,:at we call ,*ri/ianity is a va/ ocean1 into :i* fl[ a numb] ( spiritual curr5ts ( di/ant & v>i\s orig92 c]ta9 religions1 t is to say1 ( ,asia & ( ,europe1 ! great ideas ( ,greek wisdom1 & especially ^? ( ,platonism4 ,nei!r its doctr9e nor its morality1 z !y h be5 hi/orically develop$1 are new or spontane\s4 ,:at is ess5tial & orig9al 9 x is ! practical demon/ration t ! human & ! div9e nature may co-exi/1 may become fus$ into "o sublime flame2 t hol9ess & pity1 ju/ice & m]cy1 may meet toge!r & become "o1 9 man & 9 ,god4 ,:at is specific 9 ,*ri/ianity is ,jesus--! religi\s consci\sness ( ,jesus4 ,! sacr$ s5se ( 8 absolute union ) ,god ?r\gh p]fect love & self-surr5d]1 ?is pr(\nd1 inv9cible1 & tranquil fai? ( 81 has become a religion2 ! fai? ( ,jesus has become ! fai? ( millions & millions ( m54 ,f ?is tor* has sprung a va/ conflagration4 ,& su* has be5 ! brilliancy & ! radiance bo? ( reveal] & revelation1 t ! a/oni%$ _w has =gott5 its ju/ice 9 its admiration1 & has ref]r$ to "o s+le b5efactor ! :ole ( ^? b5efits :i* are its h]itage f ! pa/4 ,! conv]sion ( ecclesia/ical & confessional ,*ri/ianity into hi/orical ,*ri/ianity is ! "w ( biblical sci5ce4 ,! conv]sion ( hi/orical ,*ri/ianity into philosophical ,*ri/ianity is an attempt :i* is to "s ext5t an illusion1 s9ce fai? _c be entirely resolv$ into sci5ce4 ,! transf]5ce1 h[ev]1 ( ,*ri/ianity f ! region ( hi/ory to ! region ( psy*ology is ! great crav+ ( our "t4 ,:at we are try+ to arrive at is ! et]nal gospel4 ,b be=e we c rea* x1 ! comp>ative hi/ory & philosophy ( religions mu/ assign to ,*ri/ianity its true place1 & mu/ judge x4 ,! religion1 too1 :i* ,jesus pr(ess$ mu/ be dis5tangl$ f ! religion :i* has tak5 ,jesus = its object4 ,& :5 at la/ we are able to po9t out ! /ate ( consci\sness :i* is ! primitive cell1 ! pr9ciple ( ! et]nal gospel1 we %all h rea*$ our goal1 = 9 x is ! punctum sali5s ( pure religion4 ,p]haps ! extraord9>y w take ! place ( ! sup]natural1 & ! great g5iuses ( ! _w w come to be reg>d$ z ! mess5g]s ( ,god 9 hi/ory1 z ! provid5tial reveal]s ?r\gh :om ! _s ( ,god works ^u ! human mass4 ,:at is p]i%+ is n ! admirable & ! adorable2 x is simply ! arbitr>y1 ! accid5tal1 ! miracul\s4 ,j z ! poor illum9ations ( a village fte1 or ! tap]s ( a procession1 are put out by ! great m>vel ( ! sun1 s ! small local miracles1 ) _! meanness & d\btfulness1 w s9k into insignificance beside ! law ( ! _w ( spirits1 ! incomp>able spectacle ( human hi/ory1 l$ by t all-p[]ful ,dramaturgus :om we call ,god4 ,ut9am6 ,m>* #a1 #ahfi4--;,imp>tiality & objectivity are z r>e z ju/ice1 ( :i* !y are b two special =ms4 ,self-int]e/ is an inexhau/ible s\rce ( conv5i5t illusions4 ,! numb] ( be+s :o wi% to see truly is extraord9>ily small4 ,:at gov]ns m5 is ! fe> ( tru?1 unless tru? is useful to !m1 :i* is z mu* z to say t self-int]e/ is ! pr9ciple ( ! common philosophy or t tru? is made = u b n we = tru?4 ,z ?is fact is humiliat+1 ! majority ( p w nei!r recognize nor admit x4 ,& ?us a prejudice ( self-love protects all ! prejudices ( ! und]/&+1 :i* are !mselves ! result ( a /ratagem ( ! ego4 ,humanity has always sla9 or p]secut$ ^? :o h di/urb$ ?is selfi% repose ( h]s4 ,%e only improves 9 spite ( h]self4 ,! only progress :i* %e desires is an increase ( enjoym5ts4 ,all advances 9 ju/ice1 9 morality1 9 hol9ess1 h be5 impos$ ^u or =c$ f h] by "s noble viol5ce4 ,sacrifice1 :i* is ! passion ( great s\ls1 has nev] be5 ! law ( societies4 ,x is too (t5 by employ+ "o vice aga9/ ano!r--= example1 vanity aga9/ cupidity1 gre$ aga9/ idl5ess--t ! great agitators h brok5 ?r\gh r\t9e4 ,9 a ^w1 ! human _w is almo/ entirely direct$ by ! law ( nature1 & ! law ( ! _s1 :i* is ! leav5 ( its co>se pa/e1 has b r>ely succe$$ 9 rais+ x into g5]\s expansion4 ,f ! po9t ( view ( ! ideal1 humanity is tri/e & ugly4 ,b if we comp>e x ) its probable orig9s1 we see t ! human race has n altoge!r wa/$ its "t4 ,h5ce !re are ?ree possible views ( hi/ory3 ! view ( ! pessimi/1 :o />ts f ! ideal2 ! view ( ! optimi/1 :o comp>es ! pa/ ) ! pres5t2 & ! view ( ! h]o-wor%ip]1 :o sees t all progress :atev] has co/ oceans ( blood & te>s4 ,european hypocrisy veils its face be=e ! volunt>y suicide ( ^? ,indian fanatics :o ?r[ !mselves "u ! :eels ( _! goddess' triumphal c>4 ,& yet ^! sacrifices are b ! symbol ( :at goes on 9 ,europe z else:]e1 ( t (f]+ ( _! life :i* is made by ! m>tyrs ( all great causes4 ,we may ev5 say t ! fi]ce & sangu9>y goddess is humanity itself1 :i* is only spurr$ to progress by remorse1 & rep5ts only :5 ! measure ( its crimes runs ov]4 ,! fanatics :o sacrifice !mselves are an et]nal prote/ aga9/ ! univ]sal selfi%ness4 ,we h only ov]?r[n ^? idols :i* are tangible & visible1 b p]petual sacrifice /ill exi/s ev]y:]e1 & ev]y:]e ! lite ( ea* g5]ation suff]s = ! salvation ( ! multitude4 ,x is ! au/]e1 bitt]1 & my/]i\s law ( solid>ity4 ,p]dition & r$emption 9 & ?r\gh ea* o!r is ! de/9y ( m54 ,m>* #ah1 #ahfi 7,?ursday74--,:5ev] ,i come back f a walk outside ! t[n ,i am disgu/$ & repell$ by ?is cell ( m9e4 ,out ( doors1 sun%9e1 birds1 spr+1 beauty1 & life2 9 "h1 ugl9ess1 piles ( pap]1 melan*oly1 & dea?4 ,& yet my walk 0 "o ( ! sadde/ possible4 ,i w&]$ along ! ,rhone & ! ,arve1 & all ! memories ( ! pa/1 all ! disappo9tm5ts ( ! pres5t & all ! anxieties ( ! future laid siege to my he>t l a :irlw9d ( phantoms4 ,i took acc\nt ( my faults1 & !y rang$ !mselves 9 battle aga9/ me4 ,! vulture ( regret gnaw$ at my he>t1 & ! s5se ( ! irrep>able *ok$ me l ! iron coll> ( ! pillory4 ,x seem$ to me t ,i _h fail$ 9 ! task ( life1 & t n[ life 0 fail+ me4 ,ah6 h[ t]rible spr+ is to ! lonely6 ,all ! ne$s :i* _h be5 lull$ to sleep />t into life aga91 all ! sorr[s :i* _h disappe>$ are reborn1 & ! old man :i* _h be5 gagg$ & conqu]$ rises once m & makes 8 groans he>d4 ,x is z ?\gh all ! old w\nds op5$ & bewail$ !mselves afre%4 ,j :5 "o _h ceas$ to ?9k1 :5 "o _h succe$$ 9 dead5+ feel+ by "w or by amusem5t1 all ( a sudd5 ! he>t1 solit>y captive t x is1 s5ds a cry f its prison dep?s1 a cry :i* %akes to its f\ndations ! :ole surr\nd+ edifice4 ,ev5 suppos+ t "o _h fre$ "o's self f all o!r fatalities1 !re is /ill "o yoke left f :i* x is impossible to escape--t ( ,"t4 ,i h succe$$ 9 avoid+ all o!r s]vitudes1 b ,i _h reckon$ )\t ! la/--! s]vitude ( age4 ,age comes1 & its weight is equal to t ( all o!r oppressions tak5 toge!r4 ,man1 "u 8 mortal aspect1 is b a species ( ephem]a4 ,z ,i look$ at ! banks ( ! ,rhone1 :i* h se5 ! riv] fl[+ pa/ !m "s t5 or tw5ty ?\s& ye>s1 or at ! trees =m+ ! av5ue ( ! cemet]y1 :i*1 = two c5turies1 h be5 ! witnesses ( s _m fun]al processions2 z ,i recogniz$ ! walls1 ! dykes1 ! pa?s1 :i* saw me play+ z a *ild1 & wat*$ o!r *ildr5 runn+ ov] t grassy pla9 ( ,pla9 ,palais :i* bore my own *ildi% /eps--,i _h ! %>pe/ s5se ( ! empt9ess ( life & ! flight ( ?+s4 ,i felt ! %ad[ ( ! upas tree d>k5+ ov] me4 ,i gaz$ into ! great implacable abyss 9 :i* are swall[$ up all ^? phantoms :i* call !mselves liv+ be+s4 ,i saw t ! liv+ are b app>itions hov]+ = a mom5t ov] ! e>?1 made out ( ! a%es ( ! dead1 & swiftly re-absorb$ by et]nal night1 z ! w-o'-!-wisp s9ks into ! m>%4 ,! no?+ness ( our joys1 ! empt9ess ( our exi/5ce1 & ! futility ( our ambitions1 fill$ me ) a quiet disgu/4 ,f regret to dis5*antm5t ,i float$ on to ,buddhism1 to univ]sal we>9ess4 ,ah1 ! hope ( a bless$ immortality w\ld be bett] wor? hav+6 ,) :at diff]5t eyes "o looks at life at t51 at tw5ty1 at ?irty1 at sixty6 ,^? :o live alone are specially consci\s ( ?is psy*ological metamorphosis4 ,ano!r ?+1 too1 a/oni%es !m2 x is ! univ]sal conspiracy :i* exi/s = hid+ ! sadness ( ! _w1 = mak+ m5 =get suff]+1 sickness1 & dea?1 = smo!r+ ! wails & sobs :i* issue f e h\se1 = pa9t+ & beautify+ ! hide\s face ( reality4 ,is x out ( t5d]ness = *ildhood & y\?1 or is x simply f fe>1 t we are ?us c>eful to veil ! s9i/] tru?8 ,or is x f a s5se ( equity8 & does life conta9 z mu* good z evil--p]haps m8 ,h[ev] x may be1 m5 fe$ !mselves r ^u illusion ?an ^u tru?4 ,ea* "o unw9ds 8 own special reel ( hope1 & z soon z he has come to ! end ( x he sits him d[n to die1 & lets 8 sons & 8 gr&sons beg9 ! same exp]i5ce ov] aga94 ,we all pursue happ9ess1 & happ9ess escapes ! pursuit ( all4 ,! only viaticum :i* c help u 9 ! j\rney ( life is t furni%$ by a great duty & "s s]i\s affections4 ,& ev5 affections die1 or at lea/ _! objects are mortal2 a fri5d1 a wife1 a *ild1 a c\ntry1 a *ur*1 may prec$e u 9 ! tomb2 duty alone la/s z long z we4 ,?is maxim exorcises ! spirits ( revolt1 ( ang]1 disc\ragem5t1 v5geance1 indignation1 & ambition1 :i* rise "o aft] ano!r to tempt & tr\ble ! he>t1 swell+ ) ! sap ( ! spr+4 ,o all ye sa9ts ( ! ,ea/1 ( antiquity1 ( ,*ri/ianity1 phalanx ( h]oes6 ,ye too drank deep ( we>9ess & agony ( s\l1 b ye triumph$ ov] bo?4 ,ye :o h come =? victors f ! /rife1 %elt] u "u y\r palms1 =tify u by y\r example6 ,april #f1 #ahfi4--,magnific5t wea!r4 ,! ,alps are dazzl+ "u _! silv] haze4 ,s5sations ( all k9ds h be5 cr[d+ ^u me2 ! delights ( a walk "u ! ris+ sun1 ! *>ms ( a wond]ful view1 long+ = travel1 & ?ir/ = joy1 hung] = "w1 = emotion1 = life1 dreams ( happ9ess & ( love4 ,a passionate wi% to live1 to feel1 to express1 /irr$ ! dep?s ( my he>t4 ,x 0 a sudd5 re-awak5+ ( y\?1 a fla% ( poetry1 a r5ew+ ( ! s\l1 a fre% gr[? ( ! w+s ( desire--,i 0 ov]p[]$ by a ho/ ( conqu]+1 vagabond1 adv5tur\s aspirations4 ,i =got my age1 my obligations1 my duties1 my vexations1 & y\? leap$ )9 me z ?\gh life 7 beg9n+ aga94 ,x 0 z ?\gh some?+ explosive _h caught fire1 & "o's s\l 7 scatt]$ to ! f\r w9ds2 9 su* a mood "o w\ld fa9 dev\r ! :ole _w1 exp]i5ce ev]y?+1 see ev]y?+4 ,fau/'s ambition ent]s into "o1 univ]sal desire--a horror ( "o's own prison cell4 ,"o ?r[s (f "o's hair %irt1 & "o w\ld fa9 ga!r ! :ole ( nature into "o's arms & he>t4 ,o ye passions1 a ray ( sun%9e is en\gh to rek9dle y all6 ,! cold black m\nta9 is a volcano once m1 & melts its sn[y cr[n ) "o s+le gu/ ( flam+ brea?4 ,x is ! spr+ :i* br+s ab\t ^! sudd5 & improbable resurrections1 ! spr+ :i*1 s5d+ a ?rill & tumult ( life ?r\gh all t lives1 is ! p>5t ( impetu\s desires1 ( ov]p[]+ incl9ations1 ( un=ese5 & inext+ui%able outbur/s ( passion4 ,x breaks ?r\gh ! rigid b>k ( ! trees1 & r5ds ! mask on ! face ( asceticism2 x makes ! monk tremble 9 ! %ad[ ( 8 conv5t1 ! maid5 beh9d ! curta9s ( h] room1 ! *ild sitt+ on 8 s*ool b5*1 ! old man b[$ "u 8 rheumatism4 8,o ,hym51 ,hym5ae60 ,april #bd1 #ahfi4--;,is ,nemesis inde$ m real ?an ,provid5ce1 ! jeal\s ,god m true ?an ! good ,god8 grief m c]ta9 ?an joy8 d>kness m secure ( victory ?an light8 ,is x pessimism or optimism :i* is ne>e/ ! tru?1 & :i*--,leibnitz or ,s*op5hau]--has be/ und]/ood ! univ]se8 ,is x ! heal?y man or ! sick man :o sees be/ to ! bottom ( ?+s8 :i* is 9 ! "r8 ,ah6 ! problem ( grief & evil is & w be always ! greate/ enigma ( be+1 only second to ! exi/5ce ( be+ itself4 ,! common fai? ( humanity has assum$ ! victory ( good ov] evil4 ,b if good consi/s n 9 ! result ( victory1 b 9 victory itself1 !n good implies an incessant & inf9ite conte/1 int]m9able /ruggle1 & a success =ev] ?reat5$4 ,& if ?is is life1 is n ,buddha "r 9 reg>d+ life z synonym\s ) evil s9ce x means p]petual re/lessness & endless w>8 ,repose accord+ to ! ,buddhi/ is only to be f\nd 9 annihilation4 ,! art ( self-annihilation1 ( escap+ ! _w's va/ ma*9]y ( suff]+1 & ! mis]y ( r5ew$ exi/5ce--! art ( rea*+ ,nirvna1 is to him ! supreme art1 ! only means ( deliv]ance4 ,! ,*ri/ian says to ,god3 ,deliv] u f evil4 ,! ,buddhi/ adds3 ,& to t end deliv] u f f9ite exi/5ce1 give u back to no?+ness6 ,! fir/ believes t :5 he is enfran*is$ f ! body he w ent] ^u et]nal happ9ess2 ! second believes t individuality is ! ob/acle to all repose1 & he longs = ! dissolution ( ! s\l itself4 ,! dread ( ! fir/ is ! p>adise ( ! second4 ,"o ?+ only is necess>y--! committal ( ! s\l to ,god4 ,look t ?\ ?yself art 9 ord]1 & leave to ,god ! task ( unravel+ ! ske9 ( ! _w & ( de/9y4 ,:at d annihilation or immortality matt]8 ,:at is to be1 w be4 ,& :at w be1 w be = ! be/4 ,fai? 9 good--p]haps ! individual wants no?+ m = 8 passage ?r\gh life4 ,only he mu/ h tak5 sides ) ,socrates1 ,plato1 ,ari/otle1 & ,z5o1 aga9/ mat]ialism1 aga9/ ! religion ( accid5t & pessimism4 ,p]haps also he mu/ make up 8 m9d aga9/ ! ,buddhi/ nihilism1 because a man's sy/em ( conduct is diametrically opposite accord+ z he labors to increase 8 life or to less5 x1 accord+ z he aims at cultivat+ 8 faculties or at sy/ematically dead5+ !m4 ,to employ "o's individual ef=ts = ! increase ( good 9 ! _w--?is mode/ ideal is en\gh = u4 ,to help =w>d ! victory ( good has be5 ! common aim ( sa9ts & sages4 ,socii ,dei sumus 0 ! ^w ( ,s5eca1 :o _h x f ,clean?us4 ,april #cj1 #ahfi4--;,i h j f9i%$ ,va*]ot's ,footnote3 ,eti5ne ,va*]ot1 a ,fr5* philosophical writ]1 :o ow$ 8 fir/ successes 9 life to ! fri5d%ip ( ,c\s91 & 0 lat] br\ght v mu* into notice by 8 controv]sy ) ! ,abb ,gratry1 by ! prosecution br\ght aga9/ him 9 consequ5ce ( 8 book1 8,la ,dmocratie0 7#ahei71 & by 8 rejection at ! h&s ( ! ,academy ( ,moral & ,political ,sci5ces 9 #ahfe1 = ! same k9d ( reasons :i* _h br\ght ab\t ! exclusion ( ,littr 9 ! prec$+ ye>4 ,9 #ahfh1 h[ev]1 he became a memb] ( ! ,in/itute 9 succession to ,c\s94 ,a ,lib]al ( ! old s*ool1 he has sep>at$ himself f ! republicans s9ce ! w>1 & has made himself felt z a sev]e critic ( republican blund]s 9 ! ,revue des deux ,mondes4 ,la ,religion1 :i* discusses ! psy*ological orig9s ( ! religi\s s5se1 0 publi%$ 9 #ahfh4 book 8,la ,religion10 #ahfi1 & x has set me ?9k+4 ,i h a feel+ t 8 notion ( religion is n rigor\s & exact1 & t !re=e 8 logic is subject to correction4 ,if religion is a psy*ological /age1 ant]ior to t ( reason1 x is cle> t x w disappe> 9 man1 b if1 on ! contr>y1 x is a mode ( ! inn] life1 x may & mu/ la/1 z long z ! ne$ ( feel+1 & alongside ! ne$ ( ?9k+4 ,! "q is betwe5 !ism & non-!ism4 ,if ,god is only ! category ( ! ideal1 religion w vani%1 ( c\rse1 l ! illusions ( y\?4 ,b if ,univ]sal ,be+ c be felt & lov$ at ! same "t z conceiv$1 ! philosoph] may be a religi\s man j z he may be an arti/1 an orator1 or a citiz54 ,he may atta* himself to a wor%ip or ritual )\t d]ogation4 ,i myself incl9e to ?is solution4 ,to me religion is life be=e ,god & 9 ,god4 ,& ev5 if ,god 7 def9$ z ! univ]sal life1 s long z ?is life is positive & n negative1 ! s\l p5etrat$ ) ! s5se ( ! inf9ite is 9 ! religi\s /ate4 ,religion diff]s f philosophy z ! simple & spontane\s self diff]s f ! reflect+ self1 z syn!tic intuition diff]s f intellectual analysis4 ,we are initiat$ into ! religi\s /ate by a s5se ( volunt>y dep5d5ce on1 & joyful submission to ! pr9ciple ( ord] & ( goodness4 ,religi\s emotion makes man consci\s ( himself2 he f9ds 8 own place )9 ! inf9ite unity1 & x is ?is p]ception :i* is sacr$4 ,b 9 spite ( ^! res]vations ,i am mu* impress$ by ! book1 :i* is a f9e piece ( "w1 ripe & s]i\s 9 all respects4 ,may #ac1 #ahfi4--;,a break 9 ! cl\ds1 & ?r\gh ! blue int]/ices a bright sun ?r[s flick]+ & unc]ta9 rays4 ,/orms1 smiles1 :ims1 ang]1 te>s--x is ,may1 & nature is 9 its fem99e phase6 ,%e pleases our fancy1 /irs our he>t1 & we>s out our reason by ! endless succession ( h] caprices & ! unexpect$ viol5ce ( h] :ims4 ,?is recalls to me ! #bac? v]se ( ! second book ( ! ,laws ( ,man\4 8,x is 9 ! nature ( ! fem99e sex to seek "h bel[ to corrupt m51 & !re=e wise m5 nev] ab&on !mselves to ! s$uctions ( wom540 ,! same code1 h[ev]1 says3 8,:]ev] wom5 are honor$ ! gods are satisfi$40 ,& aga93 8,9 e family :]e ! husb& takes pleasure 9 8 wife1 & ! wife 9 h] husb&1 happ9ess is ensur$40 ,& aga93 8,"o "m is m v5]able ?an a ?\s& fa!rs40 ,b kn[+ :at /ormy & irrational elem5ts !re are 9 ?is fragile & delightful creature1 ,man\ concludes3 8,at no age ought a woman to be all[$ to gov]n h]self z %e pleases40 ,up to ! pres5t day1 9 sev]al contempor>y & neighbor+ codes1 a woman is a m9or all h] life4 ,:y8 ,because ( h] dep5d5ce ^u nature1 & ( h] subjection to passions :i* are ! dim9utives ( madness2 9 o!r words1 because ! s\l ( a woman has some?+ obscure & my/]i\s 9 x1 :i* l5ds itself to all sup]/itions & weak5s ! en]gies ( man4 ,to man belong law1 ju/ice1 sci5ce1 & philosophy1 all t is dis9t]e/$1 univ]sal1 & rational4 ,wom51 on ! contr>y1 introduce into ev]y?+ favor1 exception1 & p]sonal prejudice4 ,z soon z a man1 a p1 a lit]ature1 an epo*1 become fem99e 9 type1 !y s9k 9 ! scale ( ?+s4 ,z soon z a woman quits ! /ate ( subord9ation 9 :i* h] m]its h free play1 we see a rapid increase 9 h] natural defects4 ,complete equality ) man makes h] qu>relsome2 a position ( supremacy makes h] tyrannical4 ,to honor h] & to gov]n h] w be = a long "t yet ! be/ solution4 ,:5 education has =m$ /rong1 noble1 & s]i\s wom5 9 :om consci5ce & reason hold sway ov] ! eff]vesc5ce ( fancy & s5tim5tality1 !n we %all be able n only to honor woman1 b to make a s]i\s end ( ga9+ h] cons5t & adhesion4 ,!n %e w be truly an equal1 a "w-fell[1 a companion4 ,at pres5t %e is s only 9 !ory4 ,! mod]ns are at "w ^u ! problem1 & h n solv$ x yet4 ,june #ae1 #ahfi4--,! great defect ( lib]al ,*ri/ianity ,footnote3 ,at ?is p]iod ! controv]sy betwe5 ! or?odox p>ty & 8,lib]al ,*ri/ianity0 0 at its height1 bo? 9 ,g5eva & ?r\gh\t ,switz]l&4 is t its conception ( hol9ess is a frivol\s "o1 or1 :at comes to ! same ?+1 its conception ( s9 is a sup]ficial "o4 ,! defects ( ! bas] sort ( political lib]alism recur 9 lib]al ,*ri/ianity2 x is only half s]i\s1 & its !ology is too mu* mix$ ) worldl9ess4 ,! s9c]ely pi\s folk look ^u ! lib]als z p]sons ^: talk is r pr(ane1 & :o (f5d religi\s feel+s by mak+ sacr$ subjects a !me = rhetorical display4 ,!y %ock ! conv5ances ( s5tim5t1 & affront ! delicacy ( consci5ce by ! indiscreet famili>ities !y take ) ! great my/]ies ( ! inn] life4 ,!y seem to be m]e clev] special plead]s1 religi\s rhetoricians l ! ,greek sophi/s1 r ?an guides 9 ! n>r[ road :i* leads to salvation4 ,x is n to ! clev] folk1 nor ev5 to ! sci5tific folk1 t ! empire ov] s\ls belongs1 b to ^? :o impress u z hav+ conqu]$ nature by grace1 pass$ ?r\gh ! burn+ bu%1 & z speak+1 n ! language ( human wisdom1 b t ( ! div9e w4 ,9 religi\s matt]s x is hol9ess :i* gives au?ority2 x is love1 or ! p[] ( devotion & sacrifice1 :i* goes to ! he>t1 :i* moves & p]suades4 ,:at all religi\s1 poetical1 pure1 & t5d] s\ls are lea/ able to p>don is ! dim9ution or degradation ( _! ideal4 ,we mu/ nev] r\se an ideal aga9/ u2 our bus9ess is to po9t m5 to ano!r ideal1 pur]1 high]1 m spiritual ?an ! old1 & s to raise beh9d a l(ty summit "o m l(ty /ill4 ,9 ?is way no "o is despoil$2 we ga9 m5's confid5ce1 :ile at ! same "t =c+ !m to ?9k1 & enabl+ ^? m9ds :i* are already t5d+ t[>d *ange to p]ceive new objects & goals = ?\ght4 ,only t :i* is replac$ is de/roy$1 & an ideal is only replac$ by satisfy+ ! conditions ( ! old ) "s advantages ov]4 ,let ! lib]al ,prote/ants (f] u a spectacle ( ,*ri/ian virtue ( a holi]1 int5s]1 & m intimate k9d ?an be=e2 let u see x active 9 _! p]sons & 9 _! influ5ce1 & !y w h furni%$ ! pro( dem&$ by ! ,ma/]2 ! tree w be judg$ by its fruits4 99 99 99 99 99 ,june #bb1 #ahfi 7,n9e ,a4 ,m74--,gray & l[]+ wea!r4 ,a fly lies dead ( cold on ! page ( my book1 9 full summ]6 ,:at is life8 ,i said to myself1 z ,i look$ at ! t9y dead creature4 ,x is a loan1 z movem5t is4 ,! univ]sal life is a sum total1 ( :i* ! units are visible "h1 !re1 & ev]y:]e1 j z an electric :eel ?r[s (f sp>ks along its :ole surface4 ,life passes ?r\gh u2 we d n possess x4 ,hirn admits ?ree ultimate pr9ciples3 ,footnote3 ,gu/ave-,adolphe ,hirn1 a ,fr5* physici/1 born ne> ,colm>1 #ahae1 became a correspond+ memb] ( ! ,academy ( ,sci5ces 9 #ahfg4 ,! book ( 8 to :i* ,amiel ref]s is no d\bt ,consqu5ces philosophiques at mtaphysiques de la !rmodynamique1 ,analyse lm5taire de l'univ]s 7#ahfi74 ! atom1 ! =ce1 ! s\l2 ! =ce :i* acts ^u atoms1 ! s\l :i* acts ^u =ce4 ,probably he di/+ui%es betwe5 anonym\s s\ls & p]sonal s\ls4 ,!n my fly w\ld be an anonym\s s\l4 7,same day74--,! national *ur*es are all up 9 arms aga9/ s-call$ ,lib]al ,*ri/ianity2 ,basle & ,zuri* began ! fight1 & n[ ,g5eva has ent]$ ! li/s too4 ,gradually x is becom+ pla9 t hi/orical ,prote/antism has no long] a raison d'tre betwe5 pure lib]ty & pure au?ority4 ,x is1 9 fact1 a provisional /age1 f\nd$ on ! wor%ip ( ! ,bible--t is to say1 on ! idea ( a writt5 revelation1 & ( a book div9ely inspir$1 & !re=e au?oritative4 ,:5 once ?is !sis has be5 relegat$ to ! rank ( a fiction ,prote/antism crumbles away4 ,!re is no?+ = x b to retire up on natural religion1 or ! religion ( ! moral consci\sness4 ,m4,m4 ,rville1 ,conqu]el1 ,fontanes1 ,buisson1 ,footnote3 ,! "n ( ,m4 ,alb]t ,rville1 ! ,fr5* ,prote/ant !ologian1 is m or less famili> 9 ,engl&1 especially s9ce 8 deliv]y ( ! ,hibb]t lectures 9 #ahhd4 ,a?anase ,coqu]el1 born #ahbj1 di$ #ahgf1 ! well-kn[n *ampion ( lib]al ideas 9 ! ,fr5* ,prote/ant ,*ur*1 0 susp5d$ f 8 pa/oral functions by ! ,consi/ory ( ,p>is1 on acc\nt ( 8 review ( ,m4 ,r5an's 8,vie de ,jsus0 9 #ahfd4 ,f]d9&-,ed\>d ,buisson1 a lib]al ,prote/ant1 orig9ally a pr(essor at ,lausanne1 0 rais$ to ! important function ( ,director ( ,prim>y ,in/ruction by ,m4 ,f]ry 9 #ahgi4 ,he 0 d5\nc$ by ,bi%op ,dupanl\p1 9 ! ,national ,assembly ( #ahga1 z ! au?or ( c]ta9 lib]al pamphlets on ! dang]s connect$ ) ,scripture-tea*+ 9 s*ools1 &1 = ! "t1 lo/ 8 employm5t "u ! ,m9i/ry ( ,education4 accept ?is logical outcome4 ,!y are ! advance-gu>d ( ,prote/antism & ! lagg>ds ( free ?\ght4 ,_! mi/ake is n see+ t all in/itutions re/ ^u a legal fiction1 & t e liv+ ?+ involves a logical absurdity4 ,x may be logical to dem& a *ur* bas$ on free exam9ation & absolute s9c]ity2 b to realize x is a diff]5t matt]4 ,a *ur* lives by :at is positive1 & ?is positive elem5t necess>ily limits inve/igation4 ,p conf\nd ! "r ( ! individual1 :i* is to be free1 ) ! duty ( ! in/itution1 :i* is to be some?+4 ,!y take ! pr9ciple ( sci5ce to be ! same z ! pr9ciple ( ! *ur*1 :i* is a mi/ake4 ,!y w n see t religion is diff]5t f philosophy1 & t ! "o seeks union by fai?1 :ile ! o!r upholds ! solit>y indep5d5ce ( ?\ght4 ,t ! bread %\ld be good x mu/ h leav52 b ! leav5 is n ! bread4 ,lib]ty is ! means :]eby we arrive at an enlight5$ fai?--grant$2 b an assembly ( p agree+ only ^u ?is crit]ion & ?is me?od c\ld n possibly f\nd a *ur*1 = !y might diff] completely z to ! results ( ! me?od4 ,suppose a newspap] ! writ]s ( :i* 7 ( all possible p>ties--x w\ld no d\bt be a curiosity 9 j\rnalism1 b x w\ld h no op9ions1 no fai?1 no cre$4 ,a draw+-room fill$ ) ref9$ p1 c>ry+ on polite discussion1 is n a *ur*1 & a dispute1 h[ev] c\rte\s1 is n wor%ip4 ,x is a m]e confusion ( k9ds4 ,july #ac1 #ahfi4--,lam5nais1 ,he9e--! "o ! victim ( a mi/ak5 vocation1 ! o!r ( a torm5t+ crav+ to a/oni% & my/ify 8 k9d4 ,! fir/ 0 want+ 9 common s5se2 ! second 0 want+ 9 s]i\sness4 ,! ,fr5*man 0 viol5t1 arbitr>y1 dom9e]+2 ! ,g]man 0 a je/+ ,mephi/opheles1 ) a horror ( ,phili/9ism4 ,! ,breton 0 all passion & melan*oly2 ! ,hamburg] all fancy & satire4 ,nei!r develop$ freely nor normally4 ,bo? ( !m1 because ( an initial mi/ake1 ?rew !mselves into an endless qu>rel ) ! _w4 ,bo? 7 revolutioni/s4 ,!y 7 n fight+ = ! good cause1 = imp]sonal tru?2 bo? 7 r ! *ampions ( _! own pride4 ,bo? suff]$ greatly1 & di$ isolat$1 repudiat$1 & revil$4 ,m5 ( magnific5t tal5ts1 bo? ( !m1 b m5 ( small wisdom1 :o did m h>m ?an good to !mselves & to o!rs6 ,x is a lam5table exi/5ce :i* we>s itself out 9 ma9ta9+ a fir/ antagonism1 or a fir/ blund]4 ,! great] a man's intellectual p[]1 ! m dang]\s is x = him to make a false />t & to beg9 life badly4 ,july #bj1 #ahfi4--;,i h be5 read+ ov] aga9 five or six *apt]s1 "h & !re1 ( ,r5an's 8,/4 ,paul40 ,analyz$ to ! bottom1 ! writ] is a free?9k]1 b a free ?9k] ^: flexible imag9ation /ill all[s him ! delicate epicurism ( religi\s emotion4 ,9 8 eyes ! man :o w n l5d himself to ^! graceful fancies is vulg>1 & ! man :o takes !m s]i\sly is prejudic$4 ,he is ent]ta9$ by ! v>iations ( consci5ce1 b he is too clev] to laugh at !m4 ,! true critic nei!r concludes nor excludes2 8 pleasure is to und]/& )\t believ+1 & to pr(it by ! results ( en?usiasm1 :ile /ill ma9ta9+ a free m9d1 unemb>rass$ by illusion4 ,su* a mode ( proce$+ has a look ( di%one/y2 x is no?+1 h[ev]1 b ! good-temp]$ irony ( a highly-cultivat$ m9d1 :i* w nei!r be ignorant ( any?+ nor dup$ by any?+4 ,x is ! dilettantism ( ! ,r5aissance 9 its p]fection4 ,at ! same "t :at innum]able pro(s ( insight & ( exultant sci5tific p[]6 ,augu/ #ad1 #ahfi4--;,9 ! "n ( heav51 :o art ?\8 :at wilt ?\--wav]+ incon/ant creature8 ,:at future lies be=e !e8 ,:at duty or :at hope appeals to !e8 ,my long+1 my se>* is = love1 = peace1 = some?+ to fill my he>t2 an idea to def5d2 a "w to :i* ,i might devote ! re/ ( my /r5g?2 an affection :i* might qu5* ?is inn] ?ir/2 a cause = :i* ,i might die ) joy4 ,b %all ,i ev] f9d !m8 ,i long = all t is impossible & inaccessible3 = true religion1 s]i\s sympa?y1 ! ideal life2 = p>adise1 immortality1 hol9ess1 fai?1 inspiration1 & ,i "k n :at besides6 ,:at ,i really want is to die & to be born aga91 trans=m$ myself1 & 9 a diff]5t _w4 ,& ,i c nei!r /ifle ^! aspirations nor deceive myself z to ! possibility ( satisfy+ !m4 ,i seem condemn$ to roll =ev] ! rock ( ,sisyphus1 & to feel t sl[ we>+ away ( ! m9d :i* befalls ! man ^: vocation & de/9y are 9 p]petual conflict4 8,a ,*ri/ian he>t & a pagan head10 l ,jacobi2 t5d]ness & pride2 wid? ( m9d & feebl5ess ( w2 ! two m5 ( ,/4 ,paul2 a see?+ *aos ( contra/s1 ant9omies1 & contradictions2 humility & pride2 *ildi% simplicity & b\ndless mi/ru/2 analysis & intuition2 pati5ce & irritability2 k9dness & dryness ( he>t2 c>elessness & anxiety2 en?usiasm & languor2 indiff]5ce & passion2 altoge!r a be+ incompreh5sible & intol]able to myself & to o!rs6 ,!n f a /ate ( conflict ,i fall back into ! fluid1 vague1 indet]m9ate /ate1 :i* feels all =m to be a m]e viol5ce & disfigurem5t4 ,all ideas1 pr9ciples1 acquirem5ts1 & habits are effac$ 9 me l ! ripples on a wave1 l ! convolutions ( a cl\d4 ,my p]sonality has ! lea/ possible admixture ( individuality4 ,i am to ! great majority ( m5 :at ! circle is to rectil9e> figures2 ,i am ev]y:]e at home1 because ,i h no p>ticul> & nom9ative self4 ,p]haps1 on ! :ole1 ?is defect has good 9 x4 ,?\gh ,i am less ( a man1 ,i am p]haps ne>] to ! man2 p]haps r m man4 ,!re is less ( ! individual1 b m ( ! species1 9 me4 ,my nature1 :i* is absolutely unsuit$ = practical life1 %[s great aptitude = psy*ological /udy4 ,x prev5ts me f tak+ sides1 b x all[s me to und]/& all sides4 ,x is n only indol5ce :i* prev5ts me f draw+ conclusions2 x is a sort ( a secret av]sion to all intellectual proscription4 ,i h a feel+ t some?+ ( ev]y?+ is want$ to make a _w1 t all citiz5s h a "r 9 ! /ate1 & t if e op9ion is equally insignificant 9 itself1 all op9ions h "s hold ^u tru?4 ,to live & let live1 ?9k & let ?9k1 are maxims :i* are equally de> to me4 ,my t5d5cy is always to ! :ole1 to ! totality1 to ! g5]al balance ( ?+s4 ,:at is difficult to me is to exclude1 to condemn1 to say no2 except1 inde$1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! exclusive4 ,i am always fight+ = ! abs5t1 = ! defeat$ cause1 = t portion ( tru? :i* seems to me neglect$2 my aim is to complete e !sis1 to see r\nd e problem1 to /udy a ?+ f all its possible sides4 ,is ?is skepticism8 ,yes1 9 its result1 b n 9 its purpose4 ,x is r ! s5se ( ! absolute & ! inf9ite r$uc+ to _! prop] value & relegat+ to _! prop] place ! f9ite & ! relative4 ,b "h1 9 ! same way1 my ambition is great] ?an my p[]2 my philosophical p]ception is sup]ior to my speculative gift4 ,i h n ! en]gy ( my op9ions2 ,i h f> great] wid? ?an inv5tiv5ess ( ?\ght1 &1 f timidity1 ,i h all[$ ! critical intellig5ce 9 me to swall[ up ! creative g5ius4 ,is x inde$ f timidity8 ,alas6 ) a little m ambition1 or a little m good luck1 a diff]5t man might h be5 made out ( me1 & su* z my y\? gave promise (4 ,augu/ #af1 #ahfi4--;,i h be5 ?9k+ ov] ,s*op5hau]4 ,x has /ruck me & almo/ t]rifi$ me to see h[ well ,i repres5t ,s*op5hau]'s typical man1 = :om 8happ9ess is a *im]a & suff]+ a reality10 = :om 8! negation ( w & ( desire is ! only road to deliv]ance10 & 8! individual life is a mis=tune f :i* imp]sonal contemplation is ! only enfran*isem5t10 etc4 ,b ! pr9ciple t life is an evil & annihilation a good lies at ! root ( ! sy/em1 & ?is axiom ,i h nev] d>$ to enunciate 9 any g5]al way1 al?\gh ,i h admitt$ x "h & !re 9 individual cases4 ,:at ,i /ill l 9 ! misan?rope ( ,frank=t1 is 8 antipa?y to curr5t prejudice1 to ,european hobbies1 to we/]n hypocrisies1 to ! successes ( ! day4 ,s*op5hau] is a man ( p[]ful m9d1 :o has put away f him all illusions1 :o pr(esses ,buddhism 9 ! full fl[ ( mod]n ,g]many1 & absolute deta*m5t ( m9d ,9 ! v mid/ ( ! n9ete5?-c5tury orgie4 ,8 great defects are b>r5ness ( s\l1 a pr\d & p]fect selfi%ness1 an adoration ( g5ius :i* is comb9$ ) complete indiff]5ce to ! re/ ( ! _w1 9 spite ( all 8 tea*+ ( resignation & sacrifice4 ,he has no sympa?y1 no humanity1 no love4 ,& "h ,i recognize ! unlik5ess betwe5 u4 ,pure intellig5ce & solit>y labor might easily lead me to 8 po9t ( view2 b once appeal to ! he>t1 & ,i feel ! contemplative attitude unt5able4 ,pity1 goodness1 *>ity1 & devotion reclaim _! rights1 & insi/ ev5 ^u ! fir/ place4 ,augu/ #bi1 #ahfi4--,s*op5hau] prea*es imp]sonality1 objectivity1 pure contemplation1 ! negation ( w1 calmness1 & dis9t]e/$ness1 an ae/hetic /udy ( ! _w1 deta*m5t f life1 ! r5unciation ( all desire1 solit>y m$itation1 disda9 ( ! cr[d1 & indiff]5ce to all t ! vulg> covet4 ,he approves all my defects1 my *ildi%ness1 my av]sion to practical life1 my antipa?y to ! utilit>ians1 my di/ru/ ( all desire4 ,9 a ^w1 he flatt]s all my in/9cts2 he c>esses & ju/ifies !m4 ,?is pre-e/abli%$ h>mony betwe5 ! !ory ( ,s*op5hau] & my own natural man causes me pleasure m+l$ ) t]ror4 ,i might indulge myself 9 ! pleasure1 b t ,i fe> to delude & /ifle consci5ce4 ,besides1 ,i feel t goodness has no tol]ance = ?is contemplative indiff]5ce1 & t virtue consi/s 9 self-conque/4 ,augu/ #cj1 #ahfi4--,/ill "s *apt]s ( ,s*op5hau]4 ,s*op5hau] believes 9 ! un*angeabl5ess ( innate t5d5cies 9 ! individual1 & 9 ! inv>iability ( ! primitive disposition4 ,he refuses to believe 9 ! new man1 9 any real progress t[>d p]fection1 or 9 any positive improvem5t 9 a human be+4 ,only ! appe>ances are ref9$2 !re is no *ange bel[ ! surface4 ,p]haps he confuses temp]am5t1 "*1 & individuality8 ,i incl9e to ?9k t individuality is fatal & primitive1 t temp]am5t rea*es f> back1 b is alt]nable1 & t "* is m rec5t & susceptible ( volunt>y or involunt>y modifications4 ,individuality is a matt] ( psy*ology1 temp]am5t1 a matt] ( s5sation or ae/hetics2 "* alone is a matt] ( morals4 ,lib]ty & ! use ( x c\nt = no?+ 9 ! fir/ two elem5ts ( our be+2 "* is a hi/orical fruit1 & ! result ( a man's biography4 ,= ,s*op5hau]1 "* is id5tifi$ ) temp]am5t j z w ) passion4 ,9 %ort1 he simplifies too mu*1 & looks at man f t m elem5t>y po9t ( view :i* is only suffici5t 9 ! case ( ! animal4 ,t spontaneity :i* is vital or m]ely *emical he already calls w4 ,analogy is n equation2 a comp>ison is n reason2 similes & p>ables are n exact language4 ,_m ( ,s*op5hau]'s orig9alities evaporate :5 we come to translate !m into a m close & precise t]m9ology4 ,lat]4--,"o has m]ely to turn ov] ! 8,li*t/rahlem0 ( ,h]d] to feel ! diff]5ce betwe5 him & ,s*op5hau]4 ,! latt] is full ( m>k$ features & ( obs]vations :i* /& out f ! page & leave a cle> & vivid impression4 ,h]d] is mu* less ( a writ]2 8 ideas are entangl$ 9 8 /yle1 & he has no brilliant cond5sations1 no jewels1 no cry/als4 ,:ile he proce$s by /reams & %eets ( ?\ght :i* h no def9ite or individual outl9e1 ,s*op5hau] breaks ! curr5t ( 8 speculation ) isl&s1 /rik+1 orig9al1 & picturesque1 :i* engrave !mselves 9 ! memory4 ,x is ! same diff]5ce z !re is betwe5 ,nicole & ,pascal1 betwe5 ,bayle & ,sat9-,simon4 ,:at is ! faculty :i* gives relief1 brilliancy1 & incisiv5ess to ?\ght8 ,imag9ation4 ,"u its influ5ce expression becomes conc5trat$1 color$1 & /r5g!n$1 & by ! p[] x has ( individualiz+ all x t\*es1 x gives life & p]man5ce to ! mat]ial on :i* x works4 ,a writ] ( g5ius *anges s& into glass & glass into cry/al1 ore into iron & iron into /eel2 he m>ks ) 8 own /amp e idea he gets hold (4 ,he borr[s mu* f ! common /ock1 & gives back no?+2 b ev5 8 robb]ies are will+ly reckon$ to him z private prop]ty4 ,he has1 z x 71 c>te blan*e1 & public op9ion all[s him to take :at he w4 ,augu/ #ca1 #ahfi4--;,i h f9i%$ ,s*op5hau]4 ,my m9d has be5 a tumult ( oppos+ sy/ems--,/oicism1 ,quietism1 ,buddhism1 ,*ri/ianity4 ,%all ,i nev] be at peace ) myself8 ,if imp]sonality is a good1 :y am ,i n consi/5t 9 ! pursuit ( x8 & if x is a temptation1 :y return to x1 aft] hav+ judg$ & conqu]$ x8 ,is happ9ess any?+ m ?an a conv5tional fiction8 ,! deepe/ reason = my /ate ( d\bt is t ! supreme end & aim ( life seems to me a m]e lure & deception4 ,! individual is an et]nal dupe1 :o nev] obta9s :at he seeks1 & :o is =ev] deceiv$ by hope4 ,my in/9ct is 9 h>mony ) ! pessimism ( ,buddha & ( ,s*op5hau]4 ,x is a d\bt :i* nev] leaves me ev5 9 my mom5ts ( religi\s f]vor4 ,nature is inde$ = me a ,maa2 & ,i look at h]1 z x 71 ) ! eyes ( an arti/4 ,my intellig5ce rema9s skeptical4 ,:at1 !n1 d ,i believe 98 ,i d n "k4 ,& :at is x ,i hope =8 ,x w\ld be difficult to say4 ,folly6 ,i believe 9 goodness1 & ,i hope t good w prevail4 ,deep )9 ?is ironical & disappo9t$ be+ ( m9e !re is a *ild hidd5--a frank1 sad1 simple creature1 :o believes 9 ! ideal1 9 love1 9 hol9ess1 & all heav5ly sup]/itions4 ,a :ole mill5nium ( idylls sleeps 9 my he>t2 ,i am a pseudo-skeptic1 a pseudo-sc(f]4 8,born dans sa nature1 inf9i dans ses voeux1 ,l'homme e/ un dieu tomb qui se s\vi5t des cieux40 ,octob] #ad1 #ahfi4--,ye/]day1 ,w$nesday1 dea? ( ,sa9te-,beuve4 ,:at a loss6 ,octob] #af1 #ahfi4--,laboremus seems to h be5 ! motto ( ,sa9te-,beuve1 z x 0 t ( ,septimius ,sev]us4 ,he di$ 9 h>ness1 & up to ! ev5+ be=e 8 la/ day he /ill wrote1 ov]com+ ! suff]+s ( ! body by ! en]gy ( ! m9d4 ,to-day1 at ?is v mom5t1 !y are lay+ him 9 ! bosom ( "m e>?4 ,he refus$ ! sacram5ts ( ! *ur*2 he nev] belong$ to any confession2 he 0 "o ( ! 8great diocese0--t ( ! indep5d5t seek]s ( tru?1 & he all[$ himself no f9al mom5t ( hypocrisy4 ,he w\ld h no?+ to d ) any "o except ,god only--or r ! my/]i\s ,isis beyond ! veil4 ,be+ unm>ri$1 he di$ 9 ! arms ( 8 secret>y4 ,he 0 sixty-five ye>s old4 ,8 p[] ( "w & ( memory 0 imm5se & intact4 ,:at is ,s*]] ?9k+ ab\t ?is life & ?is dea?8 ,octob] #ai1 #ahfi4--;,an admirable article by ,edmond ,s*]] on ,sa9te-,beuve 9 ! ,temps4 ,he makes him ! pr9ce ( ,fr5* critics & ! la/ repres5tative ( ! epo* ( lit]>y ta/e1 ! future belong+ to ! bookmak]s & ! *att]]s1 to m$iocrity & to viol5ce4 ,! article brea!s a c]ta9 manly melan*oly1 befitt+ a fun]al oration ov] "o :o 0 a ma/] 9 ! ?+s ( ! m9d4 ,! fact is1 t ,sa9te-,beuve leaves a great] void beh9d him ?an ei!r ,brang] or ,lam>t9e2 _! greatness 0 already di/ant1 hi/orical2 he 0 /ill help+ u to ?9k4 ,! true critic acts z a fulcrum = all ! _w4 ,he repres5ts ! public judgm5t1 t is to say ! public reason1 ! t\*/one1 ! scales1 ! ref9+ rod1 :i* te/s ! value ( e "o & ! m]it ( e "w4 ,infallibility ( judgm5t is p]haps r>] ?an any?+ else1 s f9e a balance ( qualities does x dem&--qualities bo? natural & acquir$1 qualities ( m9d & he>t4 ,:at ye>s ( labor1 :at /udy & comp>ison1 are ne$$ to br+ ! critical judgm5t to maturity6 ,l ,plato's sage1 x is only at fifty t ! critic rises to ! true height ( 8 lit]>y prie/hood1 or1 to put x less pomp\sly1 ( 8 social function4 ,by !n only c he hope = insight into all ! modes ( be+1 & = ma/]y ( all possible %ades ( appreciation4 ,& ,sa9te-,beuve jo9$ to ?is inf9itely ref9$ culture a prodigi\s memory1 & an incr$ible multitude ( facts & anecdotes /or$ up = ! s]vice ( 8 ?\ght4 ,decemb] #h1 #ahfi4--;,ev]y?+ has *ill$ me ?is morn+2 ! cold ( ! season1 ! physical immobility ar\nd me1 b1 above all1 ,h>tman's 8,philosophy ( ! ,unconsci\s40 ,?is book lays d[n ! t]rible !sis t creation is a mi/ake2 be+1 su* z x is1 is n z good z non-be+1 & dea? is bett] ?an life4 ,i felt ! same m\rnful impression t ,ob]mann left ^u me 9 my y\?4 ,! black melan*oly ( ,buddhism encompass$ & ov]%ad[$ me4 ,if1 9 fact1 x is only illusion :i* hides f u ! horror ( exi/5ce & makes life tol]able to u1 !n exi/5ce is a sn>e & life an evil4 ,l ! ,greek ,annik]is1 we ought to c\nsel suicide1 or r ) ,buddha & ,s*op5hau] we ought to labor = ! radical extirpation ( hope & desire--! causes ( life & resurrection4 ,n to rise aga92 !re is ! po9t1 & !re is ! difficulty4 ,dea? is simply a beg9n+ aga91 :]eas x is annihilation t we h to aim at4 ,p]sonal consci\sness be+ ! root ( all our tr\bles1 we ought to avoid ! temptation to x & ! possibility ( x z diabolical & abom9able4 ,:at blasphemy6 ,& yet x is all logical2 x is ! philosophy ( happ9ess c>ri$ to its f>!/ po9t4 ,epicurism mu/ end 9 despair4 ,! philosophy ( duty is less depress+4 ,b salvation lies 9 ! conciliation ( duty & happ9ess1 9 ! union ( ! individual w ) ! div9e w1 & 9 ! fai? t ?is supreme w is direct$ by love4 99 99 99 99 99 ,x is z true t real happ9ess is good1 z t ! good become bett] "u ! purification ( trial4 ,^? :o h n suff]$ are /ill want+ 9 dep?2 b a man :o has n got happ9ess _c imp>t x4 ,we c only give :at we h4 ,happ9ess1 grief1 gayety1 sadness1 are by nature contagi\s4 ,br+ y\r heal? & y\r /r5g? to ! weak & sickly1 & s y w be ( use to !m4 ,give !m1 n y\r weakness1 b y\r en]gy1 s y w revive & lift !m up4 ,life alone c rek9dle life4 ,:at o!rs claim f u is n our ?ir/ & our hung]1 b our bread & our g\rd4 ,! b5efactors ( humanity are ^? :o h ?\ght great ?\ghts ab\t h]2 b h] ma/]s & h] idols are ^? :o h flatt]$ & despis$ h]1 ^? :o h muzzl$ & massacr$ h]1 inflam$ h] ) fanaticism or us$ h] = selfi% purposes4 ,h] b5efactors are ! poets1 ! arti/s1 ! inv5tors1 ! apo/les & all pure he>ts4 ,h] ma/]s are ! ,caes>s1 ! ,con/ant9es1 ! ,gregory ,,vii4's1 ! ,innoc5t ,,iii4's1 ! ,borgias1 ! ,napoleons4 99 99 99 99 99 ,e civilization is1 z x 71 a dream ( a ?\s& ye>s1 9 :i* heav5 & e>?1 nature & hi/ory1 appe> to m5 illum9$ by fanta/ic light & repres5t+ a drama :i* is no?+ b a projection ( ! s\l itself1 influ5c$ by "s intoxication--,i 0 go+ to say halluc9ation--or o!r4 ,^? :o are wide/ awake /ill see ! real _w across ! dom9ant illusion ( _! race or "t4 ,& ! reason is t ! deceiv+ light />ts f our own m9d3 ! light is our religion4 ,ev]y?+ *anges ) x4 ,x is religion :i* gives to our kaleidoscope1 if n ! mat]ial ( ! figures1 at lea/ _! color1 _! light & %ade1 & g5]al aspect4 ,e religion makes m5 see ! _w & humanity "u a special light2 x is a mode ( app]ception1 :i* c only be sci5tifically h&l$ :5 we h ca/ x aside1 & c only be judg$ :5 we h replac$ x by a bett]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,febru>y #bc1 #ahgj4--,!re is 9 man an in/9ct ( revolt1 an enemy ( all law1 a rebel :i* w /oop to no yoke1 n ev5 t ( reason1 duty1 & wisdom4 ,?is elem5t 9 u is ! root ( all s9--das radicale ,bse ( ,kant4 ,! indep5d5ce :i* is ! condition ( individuality is at ! same "t ! et]nal temptation ( ! individual4 ,t :i* makes u be+s makes u also s9n]s4 ,s9 is1 !n1 9 our v m>r[4 ,x circulates 9 u l ! blood 9 our ve9s1 x is m+l$ ) all our sub/ance1 ,footnote3 ,?is is "o ( ! passages :i* r\ses ,m4 ,r5an's wond]3 8,voila la gr&e diff]5ce10 he writes1 8entre l'ducation ca?olique et l'ducation prote/ante4 ,ceux qui comme moi ont reu une ducation ca?olique en ont g>d de pr(onds ve/iges4 ,mais ces ve/iges ne sont pas des dogmes1 ce sont des rves4 ,une fois ce gr& rideau de drap d'or1 b>iol de soie1 d'indi5ne et de calicot1 p> lequel le ca?olicisme n\s masque la vue du monde1 une fois1 dis-je ce rideau d*ir1 on voit l'univ]s en sa spl5deur inf9ie1 la nature en sa haute et ple9e maje/4 ,le prote/ant le plus libre g>de s\v5t quelque *ose de tri/e1 un fond d'au/rit intellectuelle analogue au pessimisme slave40--7,j\rnal des ,dbats1 ,septemb] #cj1 #ahhd74 ,"o is rem9d$ ( ,mr4 ,morley's criticism ( ,em]son4 ,em]son1 he po9ts out1 has almo/ no?+ to say ( dea?1 & 8little to say ( t horrid burd5 & imp$im5t on ! s\l :i* ! *ur*es call s91 & :i*1 by :atev] "n we call x1 is a v real cata/rophe 9 ! moral nature ( man--! c\rses ( nature1 & ! prodigi\s inju/ices ( mail 9 society affect him ) nei!r horror nor awe4 ,he w see no mon/] if he c help x40 ,"h1 !n1 we h ! et]nal diff]5ce betwe5 ! two ord]s ( temp]am5t--! m5 ^: ov]fl[+ en]gy =bids !m to realize ! ev]-recurr+ defeat ( ! human _s at ! h&s ( circum/ance1 l ,r5an & ,em]son1 & ! m5 = :om 8horror & awe0 are int]wov5 ) exp]i5ce1 l ,amiel4 ,or r ,i am wrong3 temptation is our natural /ate1 b s9 is n necess>y4 ,s9 consi/s 9 ! volunt>y confusion ( ! indep5d5ce :i* is good ) ! indep5d5ce :i* is bad2 x is caus$ by ! half-indulg5ce grant$ to a fir/ sophism4 ,we %ut our eyes to ! beg9n+s ( evil because !y are small1 & 9 ?is weakness is conta9$ ! g]m ( our defeat4 ,pr9cipiis ob/a--?is maxim dutifully foll[$ w\ld pres]ve u f almo/ all our cata/rophes4 ,we w h no o!r ma/] b our caprice--t is to say1 our evil self w h no ,god1 & ! f\ndation ( our nature is s$iti\s1 impi\s1 insol5t1 refractory1 oppos$ to1 & contemptu\s ( all t tries to rule x1 & !re=e contr>y to ord]1 ungov]nable & negative4 ,x is ?is f\ndation :i* ,*ri/ianity calls ! natural man4 ,b ! savage :i* is )9 u1 & con/itutes ! primitive /uff ( u1 mu/ be discipl9$ & civiliz$ 9 ord] to produce a man4 ,& ! man mu/ be pati5tly cultivat$ to produce a wise man1 & ! wise man mu/ be te/$ & tri$ if he is to become righte\s4 ,& ! righte\s man mu/ h sub/itut$ ! w ( ,god = 8 individual w1 if he is to become a sa9t4 ,& ?is new man1 ?is reg5]ate be+1 is ! spiritual man1 ! heav5ly man1 ( :i* ! ,v$as speak z well z ! gospel1 & ! ,magi z well z ! ,neo-,platoni/s4 ,m>* #ag1 #ahgj4--,?is morn+ ! music ( a brass b& :i* _h /opp$ "u my w9d[s mov$ me almo/ to te>s4 ,x ex]cis$ an indef9able1 no/algic p[] ov] me2 x set me dream+ ( ano!r _w1 ( inf9ite passion & supreme happ9ess4 ,su* impressions are ! e*oes ( p>adise 9 ! s\l2 memories ( ideal sph]es1 ^: sad sweetness ravi%es & intoxicates ! he>t4 ,o ,plato6 ,o ,py?agoras6 ages ago y he>d ^! h>monies--surpris$ ^! mom5ts ( inw>d ec/acy--knew ^! div9e transports6 ,if music ?us c>ries u to heav51 x is because music is h>mony1 h>mony is p]fection1 p]fection is our dream1 & our dream is heav54 ,?is _w ( qu>rels & bitt]ness1 ( selfi%ness1 ugl9ess1 & mis]y1 makes u long involunt>ily = ! et]nal peace1 = ! adoration :i* has no limits1 & ! love :i* has no end4 ,x is n s mu* ! inf9ite z ! beautiful t we ye>n =4 ,x is n be+1 or ! limits ( be+1 :i* weigh ^u u2 x is evil1 9 u & )\t u4 ,x is n all necess>y to be great1 s long z we are 9 h>mony ) ! ord] ( ! univ]se4 ,moral ambition has no pride2 x only desires to fill its place1 & make its note duly he>d 9 ! univ]sal conc]t ( ! ,god ( love4 ,m>* #cj1 #ahgj4--;,c]ta9ly1 nature is unju/ & %ameless1 )\t probity1 & )\t fai?4 ,h] only alt]natives are gratuit\s favor or mad av]sion1 & h] only way ( r$ress+ an inju/ice is to commit ano!r4 ,! happ9ess ( ! few is expiat$ by ! mis]y ( ! great] numb]4 ,x is useless to accuse a bl9d =ce4 ,! human consci5ce1 h[ev]1 revolts aga9/ ?is law ( nature1 & to satisfy its own in/9ct ( ju/ice x has imag9$ two hypo!ses1 out ( :i* x has made = itself a religion--! idea ( an individual provid5ce1 & ! hypo!sis ( ano!r life4 ,9 ^! we h a prote/ aga9/ nature1 :i* is ?us decl>$ immoral & sc&al\s to ! moral s5se4 ,man believes 9 good1 & t he may gr\nd himself on ju/ice he ma9ta9s t ! inju/ice all ar\nd him is b an appe>ance1 a my/]y1 a *eat1 & t ju/ice w be done4 ,fiat ju/itia1 p]eal mundus6 ,x is a great act ( fai?4 ,& s9ce humanity has n made itself1 ?is prote/ has "s *ance ( express+ a tru?4 ,if !re is conflict betwe5 ! natural _w & ! moral _w1 betwe5 reality & consci5ce1 consci5ce mu/ be "r4 ,x is by no means necess>y t ! univ]se %\ld exi/1 b x is necess>y t ju/ice %\ld be done1 & a!ism is b\nd to expla9 ! fix$ ob/9acy ( consci5ce on ?is po9t4 ,nature is n j2 we are ! products ( nature3 :y are we always claim+ & prophesy+ ju/ice8 :y does ! effect rise up aga9/ its cause8 ,x is a s+ul> ph5om5on4 ,does ! prote/ come f any pu]ile bl9dness ( human vanity8 ,no1 x is ! deepe/ cry ( our be+1 & x is = ! honor ( ,god t ! cry is utt]$4 ,heav5 & e>? may pass away1 b good ought to be1 & inju/ice ought n to be4 ,su* is ! cre$ ( ! human race4 ,nature w be conqu]$ by _s2 ! et]nal w triumph ov] "t4 ,april #a1 #ahgj4--;,i am incl9$ to believe t = a woman love is ! supreme au?ority--t :i* judges ! re/ & decides :at is good or evil4 ,= a man1 love is subord9ate to "r4 ,x is a great passion1 b x is n ! s\rce ( ord]1 ! synonym ( reason1 ! crit]ion ( excell5ce4 ,x w\ld seem1 !n1 t a woman places h] ideal 9 ! p]fection ( love1 & a man 9 ! p]fection ( ju/ice4 ,x 0 9 ?is s5se t ,/4 ,paul 0 able to say1 8,! woman is ! glory ( ! man1 & ! man is ! glory ( ,god40 ,?us ! woman :o absorbs h]self 9 ! object ( h] love is1 s to speak1 9 ! l9e ( nature2 %e is truly woman1 %e realizes h] fundam5tal type4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! man :o %\ld make life consi/ 9 conjugal adoration1 & :o %\ld imag9e t he has liv$ suffici5tly :5 he has made himself ! prie/ ( a belov$ woman1 su* a "o is b half a man2 he is despis$ by ! _w1 & p]haps secretly disda9$ by wom5 !mselves4 ,! woman :o loves truly seeks to m]ge h] own individuality 9 t ( ! man %e loves4 ,%e desires t h] love %\ld make him great]1 /rong]1 m mascul9e1 & m active4 ,?us ea* sex plays its appo9t$ "p3 ! woman is fir/ de/9$ = man1 & man is de/9$ = society4 ,woman owes h]self to "o1 man owes himself to all2 & ea* obta9s peace & happ9ess only :5 he or %e has recogniz$ ?is law & accept$ ?is balance ( ?+s4 ,! same ?+ may be a good 9 ! woman & an evil 9 ! man1 may be /r5g? 9 h]1 weakness 9 him4 ,!re is !n a fem99e & a mascul9e morality--prep>atory *apt]s1 z x 71 to a g5]al human morality4 ,bel[ ! virtue :i* is evangelical & sexless1 !re is a virtue ( sex4 ,& ?is virtue ( sex is ! occasion ( mutual tea*+1 = ea* ( ! two inc>nations ( virtue makes x its bus9ess to conv]t ! o!r1 ! fir/ prea*+ love 9 ! e>s ( ju/ice1 ! second ju/ice 9 ! e>s ( love4 ,& s !re is produc$ an oscillation & an av]age :i* repres5t a social /ate1 an epo*1 sometimes a :ole civilization4 ,su* at lea/ is our ,european idea ( ! h>mony ( ! sexes 9 a graduat$ ord] ( functions4 ,am]ica is on ! road to revolutionize ?is ideal by ! introduction ( ! democratic pr9ciple ( ! equality ( individuals 9 a g5]al equality ( functions4 ,only1 :5 !re is no?+ left b a multitude ( equal individualities1 nei!r "y nor old1 nei!r m5 nor wom51 nei!r b5efit$ nor b5efactors--all social diff]5ce w turn ^u money4 ,! :ole hi]>*y w re/ ^u ! doll>1 & ! mo/ brutal1 ! mo/ hide\s1 ! mo/ inhuman ( inequalities w be ! fruit ( ! passion = equality4 ,:at a result6 ,plutolatry--! wor%ip ( weal?1 ! madness ( gold--to x w be confid$ ! task ( *a/is+ a false pr9ciple & its foll[]s4 ,& plutocracy w be 9 its turn execut$ by equality4 ,x w\ld be a /range end = x1 if ,anglo-,saxon individualism 7 ultimately swall[$ up 9 ,lat9 socialism4 ,x is my pray] t ! discov]y ( an equilibrium betwe5 ! two pr9ciples may be made 9 "t1 be=e ! social w>1 ) all its t]ror & ru91 ov]takes u4 ,b x is sc>cely likely4 ,! masses are always ignorant & limit$1 & only advance by a succession ( contr>y errors4 ,!y rea* good only by ! exhau/ion ( evil4 ,!y discov] ! way out1 only aft] hav+ run _! heads aga9/ all o!r possible issues4 ,april #ae1 #ahgj4--;,crucifixion6 ,t is ! ^w we h to m$itate to-day4 ,is x n ,good ,friday8 ,to curse grief is easi] ?an to bless x1 b to d s is to fall back into ! po9t ( view ( ! e>?ly1 ! c>nal1 ! natural man4 ,by :at has ,*ri/ianity subdu$ ! _w if n by ! apo!osis ( grief1 by its m>vel\s transmutation ( suff]+ into triumph1 ( ! cr[n ( ?orns into ! cr[n ( glory1 & ( a gibbet into a symbol ( salvation8 ,:at does ! apo!osis ( ! ,cross mean1 if n ! dea? ( dea?1 ! defeat ( s91 ! beatification ( m>tyrdom1 ! rais+ to ! skies ( volunt>y sacrifice1 ! defiance ( pa98 8,o ,dea?1 :]e is ?y /+8 ,o ,grave1 :]e is ?y victory80 ,by long brood+ ov] ?is !me--! agony ( ! j1 peace 9 ! mid/ ( agony1 & ! heav5ly beauty ( su* peace--humanity came to und]/& t a new religion 0 born--a new mode1 t is to say1 ( expla9+ life & ( und]/&+ suff]+4 ,suff]+ 0 a curse f :i* man fl$2 n[ x becomes a purification ( ! s\l1 a sacr$ trial s5t by et]nal love1 a div9e disp5sation meant to sanctify & ennoble u1 an acceptable aid to fai?1 a /range initiation into happ9ess4 ,o p[] ( belief6 ,all rema9s ! same1 & yet all is *ang$4 ,a new c]titude arises to d5y ! app>5t & ! tangible2 x pi]ces ?r\gh ! my/]y ( ?+s1 x places an invisible ,fa!r beh9d visible nature1 x %[s u joy %9+ ?r\gh te>s1 & makes ( pa9 ! beg9n+ ( joy4 ,& s1 = ^? :o h believ$1 ! tomb becomes heav51 & on ! fun]al pyre ( life !y s+ ! hosanna ( immortality2 a sacr$ madness has r5ew$ ! face ( ! _w = !m1 & :5 !y wi% to expla9 :at !y feel1 _! ec/asy makes !m incompreh5sible2 !y speak ) tongues4 ,a wild intoxication ( self-sacrifice1 contempt = dea?1 ! ?ir/ = et]nity1 ! delirium ( love--^! are :at ! unalt]able g5tl5ess ( ! ,crucifi$ has _h p[] to br+ =?4 ,by 8 p>don ( 8 execution]s1 & by t unconqu]able s5se 9 him ( an indissoluble union ) ,god1 ,jesus1 on 8 cross1 k9dl$ an inext+ui%able fire & revolutioniz$ ! _w4 ,he proclaim$ & realiz$ salvation by fai? 9 ! inf9ite m]cy1 & 9 ! p>don grant$ to simple rep5tance4 ,by 8 say+1 8,!re is m joy 9 heav5 ov] "o s9n] t rep5te? ?an ov] n9ety & n9e j p]sons :o ne$ no rep5tance10 he made humility ! gate ( entrance into p>adise4 ,crucify ! rebelli\s self1 mortify y\rself :olly1 give up all to ,god1 & ! peace :i* is n ( ?is _w w desc5d ^u y4 ,= eighte5 c5turies no gr&] ^w has be5 spok52 & al?\gh humanity is =ev] seek+ aft] a m exact & complete application ( ju/ice1 yet h] secret fai? is n 9 ju/ice b 9 p>don1 = p>don alone conciliates ! spotless purity ( p]fection ) ! inf9ite pity due to weakness--t is to say1 x alone pres]ves & def5ds ! ,idea ( hol9ess1 :ile x all[s full scope to t ( love4 ,! gospel proclaims ! ineffable consolation1 ! good news1 :i* dis>ms all e>?ly griefs1 & robs ev5 dea? ( its t]rors--! news ( irrevocable p>don1 t is to say1 ( et]nal life4 ,! ,cross is ! gu>antee ( ! gospel4 ,!re=e x has be5 its /&>d4 ,may #g1 #ahgj4--,! fai? :i* cl+s to its idols & resi/s all innovation is a ret>d+ & cons]vative =ce2 b x is ! prop]ty ( all religion to s]ve z a curb to our lawless passion = fre$om1 & to /eady & quiet our re/lessness ( temp]4 ,curiosity is ! expansive =ce1 :i*1 if x 7 all[$ an un*eck$ action ^u u1 w\ld disp]se & volatilize u2 belief repres5ts ! =ce ( gravitation & cohesion :i* makes sep>ate bodies & individuals ( u4 ,society lives by fai?1 develops by sci5ce4 ,its basis !n is ! my/]i\s1 ! unkn[n1 ! intangible--religion--:ile ! f]m5t+ pr9ciple 9 x is ! desire ( k4 ,its p]man5t sub/ance is ! uncompreh5d$ or ! div9e2 its *ang+ =m is ! result ( its intellectual labor4 ,! unconsci\s adhesions1 ! confus$ intuitions1 ! obscure pres5tim5ts1 :i* decide ! fir/ fai? ( a p1 are !n ( capital importance 9 its hi/ory4 ,all hi/ory moves betwe5 ! religion :i* is ! g5ial in/9ctive & fundam5tal philosophy ( a race1 & ! philosophy :i* is ! ultimate religion--! cle> p]ception1 t is to say1 ( ^? pr9ciples :i* h eng5d]$ ! :ole spiritual developm5t ( humanity4 ,x is always ! same ?+ :i* is1 :i* 01 & :i* w be2 b ?is ?+--! absolute--betrays ) m or less transp>5cy & pr(undity ! law ( its life & ( its metamorphoses4 ,9 its fix$ aspect x is call$ ,god2 9 its mobile aspect ! _w or nature4 ,god is pres5t 9 nature1 b nature is n ,god2 !re is a nature 9 ,god1 b x is n ,god himself4 ,i am nei!r = imman5ce nor = transc5d5ce tak5 alone4 ,may #i1 #ahgj4--;,disraeli1 9 8 new novel1 8,lo?air10 %[s t ! two great =ces ( ! pres5t are ,revolution & ,ca?olicism1 & t ! free nations are lo/ if ei!r ( ^! two =ces triumphs4 ,x is exactly my own idea4 ,only1 :ile 9 ,france1 9 ,belgium1 9 ,italy1 & 9 all ,ca?olic societies1 x is only by *eck+ "o ( ^! =ces by ! o!r t ! /ate & civilization c be ma9ta9$1 ! ,prote/ant c\ntries are bett] (f2 9 !m !re is a ?ird =ce1 a middle fai? betwe5 ! two o!r idolatries1 :i* enables !m to reg>d lib]ty n z a neutralization ( two contr>ies1 b z a moral reality1 self-subsi/5t1 & possess+ its own c5t] ( gravity & motive =ce4 ,9 ! ,ca?olic _w religion & lib]ty exclude ea* o!r4 ,9 ! ,prote/ant _w !y accept ea* o!r1 s t 9 ! second case !re is a small] wa/e ( =ce4 ,lib]ty is ! lay1 ! philosophical pr9ciple4 ,x expresses ! juridical & social aspiration ( ! race4 ,b z !re is no society possible )\t regulation1 )\t control1 )\t limitations on individual lib]ty1 above all )\t moral limitations1 ! peoples :i* are legally ! free/ d well to take _! religi\s consci\sness = *eck & balla/4 ,9 mix$ /ates1 ,ca?olic or free-?9k+1 ! limit ( action1 be+ a m]ely p5al "o1 invites incessant contrav5tion4 ,! pu]ility ( ! free?9k]s consi/s 9 believ+ t a free society c ma9ta9 itself & keep itself toge!r )\t a common fai?1 )\t a religi\s prejudice ( "s k9d4 ,:]e lies ! w ( ,god8 ,is x ! common reason :i* expresses x1 or r1 are a cl]gy or a *ur* ! depositories ( x8 ,s long z ! response is ambigu\s & equivocal 9 ! eyes ( half or ! majority ( consci5ces--& ?is is ! case 9 all ,ca?olic /ates--public peace is impossible1 & public law is insecure4 ,if !re is a ,god1 we mu/ h him on our side1 & if !re is n a ,god1 x w\ld be necess>y fir/ ( all to conv]t ev]ybody to ! same idea ( ! lawful & ! useful1 to recon/itute1 t is to say1 a lay religion1 be=e any?+ politically solid c\ld be built4 ,lib]alism is m]ely fe$+ ^u ab/ractions1 :5 x p]suades itself t lib]ty is possible )\t free individuals1 & :5 x w n recognize t lib]ty 9 ! individual is ! fruit ( a =ego+ education1 a moral education1 :i* presupposes a lib]at+ religion4 ,to prea* lib]alism to a population jesuitiz$ by education1 is to press ! pleasures ( danc+ ^u a man :o has lo/ a leg4 ,h[ is x possible = a *ild :o has nev] be5 out ( swaddl+ clo!s to walk8 ,h[ c ! abdication ( individual consci5ce lead to ! gov]nm5t ( individual consci5ce8 ,to be free1 is to guide "o's self1 to h atta9$ "o's majority1 to be emancipat$1 ma/] ( "o's actions1 & judge ( good & evil2 b ultramontane ,ca?olicism nev] emancipates its disciples1 :o are b\nd to admit1 to believe1 & to obey1 z !y are told1 because !y are m9ors 9 p]petuity1 & ! cl]gy alone possess ! law ( "r1 ! secret ( ju/ice1 & ! measure ( tru?4 ,?is is :at m5 are l&$ 9 by ! idea ( an ext]ior revelation1 clev]ly made use ( by a pati5t prie/hood4 ,b :at a/oni%es me is ! %ort-sight ( ! /atesm5 ( ! s\?1 :o d n see t ! "q ( que/ions is ! religi\s "q1 & ev5 n[ d n recognize t a lib]al /ate is :olly incompatible ) an anti-lib]al religion1 & almo/ equally incompatible ) ! abs5ce ( religion4 ,!y conf\nd accid5tal conque/s & prec>i\s progress ) la/+ results4 ,!re is "s probability t all ?is noise :i* is made n[adays ab\t lib]ty may end 9 ! suppression ( lib]ty2 x is pla9 t ! int]nationals1 ! irreconcilables1 & ! ultramontanes1 are1 all ?ree ( !m1 aim+ at absolutism1 at dictatorial omnipot5ce4 ,happily !y are n "o b _m1 & x w n be difficult to turn !m aga9/ ea* o!r4 ,if lib]ty is to be sav$1 x w n be by ! d\bt]s1 ! m5 ( sci5ce1 or ! mat]iali/s2 x w be by religi\s conviction1 by ! fai? ( individuals :o believe t ,god wills man to be free b also pure2 x w be by ! seek]s aft] hol9ess1 by ^? old-fa%ion$ pi\s p]sons :o speak ( immortality & et]nal life1 & pref] ! s\l to ! :ole _w2 x w be by ! enfran*is$ *ildr5 ( ! anci5t fai? ( ! human race4 ,june #e1 #ahgj4--,! efficacy ( religion lies precisely 9 t :i* is n rational1 philosophic1 nor ext]nal2 its efficacy lies 9 ! un=ese51 ! miracul\s1 ! extraord9>y4 ,?us religion attracts m devotion 9 proportion z x dem&s m fai?--t is to say1 z x becomes m incr$ible to ! pr(ane m9d4 ,! philosoph] aspires to expla9 away all my/]ies1 to dissolve !m into light4 ,x is my/]y1 on ! o!r h&1 :i* ! religi\s in/9ct dem&s & pursues2 x is my/]y :i* con/itutes ! ess5ce ( wor%ip1 ! p[] ( proselytism4 ,:5 ! cross became ! 8fooli%ness0 ( ! cross1 x took possession ( ! masses4 ,& 9 our own day1 ^? :o wi% to get rid ( ! sup]natural1 to enlight5 religion1 to economize fai?1 f9d !mselves des]t$1 l poets :o %\ld declaim aga9/ poetry1 or wom5 :o %\ld decry love4 ,fai? consi/s 9 ! acceptance ( ! incompreh5sible1 & ev5 9 ! pursuit ( ! impossible1 & is self-intoxicat$ ) its own sacrifices1 its own repeat$ extravagances4 ,x is ! =getfulness ( ?is psy*ological law :i* /ultifies ! s-call$ lib]al ,*ri/ianity4 ,x is ! realization ( x :i* con/itutes ! /r5g? ( ,ca?olicism4 ,app>5tly no positive religion c survive ! sup]natural elem5t :i* is ! reason = its exi/5ce4 ,natural religion seems to be ! tomb ( all hi/oric cults4 ,all concrete religions die ev5tually 9 ! pure air ( philosophy4 ,s long !n z ! life ( nations is 9 ne$ ( religion z a motive & sanction ( morality1 z food = fai?1 hope1 & *>ity1 s long w ! masses turn away f pure reason & nak$ tru?1 s long w !y adore my/]y1 s long--& rightly s--w !y re/ 9 fai?1 ! only region :]e ! ideal pres5ts itself to !m 9 an attractive =m4 ,june #i1 #ahgj4--;,at bottom1 ev]y?+ dep5ds ^u ! pres5ce or abs5ce ( "o s+le elem5t 9 ! s\l--hope4 ,all ! activity ( man1 all 8 ef=ts & all 8 ent]prises1 presuppose a hope 9 him ( atta9+ an end4 ,once kill ?is hope & 8 movem5ts become s5seless1 spasmodic1 & convulsive1 l ^? ( "s "o fall+ f a height4 ,to /ruggle ) ! inevitable has some?+ *ildi% 9 x4 ,to implore ! law ( gravitation to susp5d its action w\ld no d\bt be a grotesque pray]4 ,v well6 b :5 a man loses fai? 9 ! efficacy ( 8 ef=ts1 :5 he says to himself1 8,y are incapable ( realiz+ y\r ideal2 happ9ess is a *im]a1 progress is an illusion1 ! passion = p]fection is a sn>e2 & suppos+ all y\r ambitions 7 gratifi$1 ev]y?+ w\ld /ill be vanity10 !n he comes to see t a little bl9dness is necess>y if life is to be c>ri$ on1 & t illusion is ! univ]sal spr+ ( movem5t4 ,complete disillusion w\ld mean absolute immobility4 ,he :o has deciph]$ ! secret & read ! riddle ( f9ite life escapes f ! great :eel ( exi/5ce2 he has left ! _w ( ! liv+--he is already dead4 ,is ?is ! mean+ ( ! old belief t to raise ! veil ( ,isis or to behold ,god face to face br\ght de/ruction ^u ! ra% mortal :o attempt$ x8 ,egypt & ,judea _h record$ ! fact1 ,buddha gave ! key to x2 ! individual life is a no?+ ignorant ( itself1 & z soon z ?is no?+ kn[s itself1 individual life is aboli%$ 9 pr9ciple4 ,= z soon z ! illusion vani%es1 ,no?+ness resumes its et]nal sway1 ! suff]+ ( life is ov]1 error has disappe>$1 "t & =m h ceas$ to be = ?is enfran*is$ individuality2 ! color$ air-bubble has bur/ 9 ! inf9ite space1 & ! mis]y ( ?\ght has sunk to re/ 9 ! *angeless repose ( all-embrac+ ,no?+4 ,! absolute1 if x 7 _s1 w\ld /ill be activity1 & x is activity1 ! daught] ( desire1 :i* is incompatible ) ! absolute4 ,! absolute1 !n1 mu/ be ! z]o ( all det]m9ation1 & ! only mann] ( be+ suit$ to x is ,non-be+4 ,july #b1 #ahgj4--,"o ( ! vices ( ,france is ! frivolity :i* sub/itutes public conv5tions = tru?1 & absolutely ignores p]sonal dignity & ! maje/y ( consci5ce4 ,! ,fr5* are ignorant ( ! ,a ,b ,c ( individual lib]ty1 & /ill %[ an ess5tially ca?olic intol]ance t[>d ! ideas :i* h n atta9$ univ]sality or ! adhesion ( ! majority4 ,! nation is an army :i* c br+ to be> mass1 numb]1 & =ce1 b n an assembly ( free m5 9 :i* ea* individual dep5ds = 8 value on himself4 ,! em95t ,fr5*man dep5ds ^u o!rs = 8 value2 if he possess /ripe1 cross1 sc>f1 sword1 or robe--9 a ^w1 function & decoration--!n he is held to be some?+1 & he feels himself somebody4 ,x is ! symbol :i* e/abli%es 8 m]it1 x is ! public :i* raises him f no?+1 z ! sultan creates 8 vizi]s4 ,^! highly-tra9$ & social races h an antipa?y = individual indep5d5ce2 ev]y?+ ) !m mu/ be f\nd$ ^u au?ority milit>y1 civil1 or religi\s1 & ,god himself is non-exi/5t until he has be5 e/abli%$ by decree4 ,_! fundam5tal dogma is t social omnipot5ce :i* treats ! pret5sion ( tru? to be true )\t any (ficial /amp1 z a m]e usurpation & sacrilege1 & sc\ts ! claim ( ! individual to possess ei!r a sep>ate conviction or a p]sonal value4 ,july #bj1 #ahgj 7,bellalpe74--,a m>vel\s day4 ,! panorama be=e me is ( a gr&iose spl5dor2 x is a symphony ( m\nta9s1 a cantata ( sunny ,alps4 ,i am dazzl$ & oppress$ by x4 ,! feel+ upp]mo/ is "o ( delight 9 be+ able to admire1 ( joy1 t is to say1 9 a recov]$ p[] ( contemplation :i* is ! result ( physical relief1 9 be+ able at la/ to =get myself & surr5d] myself to ?+s1 z befits a man 9 my /ate ( heal?4 ,gratitude is m+l$ ) en?usiasm4 ,i h j sp5t two h\rs ( cont9u\s delight at ! foot ( ! ,sp>r5horn1 ! peak beh9d u4 ,a flood ( s5sations ov]p[]$ me4 ,i c\ld only look1 feel1 dream1 & ?9k4 ,lat]4--,asc5t ( ! ,sp>r5horn4 ,! peak ( x is n v easy to climb1 because ( ! masses ( loose /ones & ! /eepness ( ! pa?1 :i* runs betwe5 two abysses4 ,b h[ great is "o's rew>d6 ,! view embraces ! :ole s]ies ( ! ,valais ,alps f ! ,furka to ! ,comb92 & ev5 beyond ! ,furka "o sees a few peaks ( ! ,tic9o & ! ,rhaetian ,alps2 :ile if y turn y see beh9d y a :ole pol> _w ( sn[fields & glaci]s =m+ ! s\!rn side ( ! enorm\s ,b]nese gr\p ( ! ,f9/]a>ahorn1 ! ,mn*1 & ! ,jungfrau4 ,! ne> repres5tative ( ! gr\p is ! ,alets*horn1 :5ce div]ge l s _m ribbons ! diff]5t ,alets* glaci]s :i* w9d ab\t ! peak f :i* ,i saw !m4 ,i c\ld /udy ! diff]5t zones1 "o above ano!r--fields1 woods1 grassy ,alps1 b>e rock & sn[1 & ! pr9ciple types ( m\nta92 ! pagoda-%ap$ ,mis*abel1 ) its f\r artes z fly+ buttresses & its /aff ( n9e clu/]$ peaks2 ! cupola ( ! ,flet*horn1 ! dome ( ,monte ,rosa1 ! pyramid ( ! ,weis%orn1 ! obelisk ( ! ,c]v94 ,b\nd me flutt]$ a multitude ( butt]flies & brilliant gre5-back$ flies2 b no?+ grew except a few li*5s4 ,! deadness & empt9ess ( ! upp] ,alets* glaci]1 l "s va/ :ite /reet1 call$ up ! image ( an icy ,pompeii4 ,all ar\nd b\ndless sil5ce4 ,on my way back ,i notic$ "s effects ( sun%9e--! close ela/ic m\nta9 grass1 />r$ ) g5tian1 =get-me-n1 & anemones1 ! m\nta9 cattle /&+ out aga9/ ! sky1 ! rocks j pi]c+ ! soil1 v>i\s circul> dips 9 ! m\nta9 side1 /one waves petrifi$ ?\s&s ( ?\s&s ( ye>s ago1 ! undulat+ gr\nd1 ! t5d] quiet ( ! ev5+2 & ,i invok$ ! s\l ( ! m\nta9s & ! _s ( ! heights6 ,july #bb1 #ahgj 7,bellalpe74--,! sky1 :i* 0 mi/y & ov]ca/ ?is morn+1 has become p]fectly blue aga91 & ! giants ( ! ,valais are ba!d 9 tranquil light4 ,:5ce ?is solemn melan*oly :i* oppresses & pursues me8 ,i h j read a s]ies ( sci5tific books 7,bronn on ! 8,laws ( ,palaeontology10 ,k>l ,ritt] on ! 8,law ( ,geographical ,=ms074 ,are !y ! cause ( ?is depression8 or is x ! maje/y ( ?is imm5se l&scape1 ! spl5dor ( ?is sett+ sun1 :i* br+s ! te>s to my eyes8 8,crature d'un j\r qui t'agites une heure10 :at weighs ^u !e--,i "k x well--is ! s5se ( ?9e utt] no?+ness6444 ,! names ( great m5 hov] be=e my eyes l a secret reproa*1 & ?is gr& impassive nature tells me t to-morr[ ,i %all h disappe>$1 butt]fly t ,i am1 )\t hav+ liv$4 ,or p]haps x is ! brea? ( et]nal ?+s :i* /irs 9 me ! %udd] ( ,job4 ,:at is man--?is we$ :i* a sunbeam )]s8 ,:at is our life 9 ! inf9ite abyss8 ,i feel a sort ( sacr$ t]ror1 n only = myself1 b = my race1 = all t is mortal4 ,l ,buddha1 ,i feel ! great :eel turn+--! :eel ( univ]sal illusion--& ! dumb /upor :i* enwraps me is full ( angui%4 ,isis lilts ! corn] ( h] veil1 & he :o p]ceives ! great my/]y b5ea? is /ruck ) gidd9ess4 ,i c sc>cely brea!4 ,x seems to me t ,i am hang+ by a ?read above ! fa?omless abyss ( de/9y4 ,is ?is ! ,inf9ite face to face1 an intuition ( ! la/ great dea?8 8,crature d'un j\r qui t'agites une heure1 ,ton me e/ immortelle et tes pleurs vont f9ir40 ,f9ir8 ,:5 dep?s ( ineffable desire are op5+ 9 ! he>t1 z va/1 z yawn+ z ! imm5sity :i* surr\nds u8 ,g5ius1 self-devotion1 love--all ^! crav+s quick5 into life & torture me at once4 ,l ! %ipwreck$ sailor ab\t to s9k "u ! waves1 ,i am consci\s ( a mad cl++ to life1 & at ! same "t ( a ru% ( despair & rep5tance1 :i* =ces f me a cry = p>don4 ,& !n all ?is hidd5 agony dissolves 9 we>i$ submission4 8,resign y\rself to ! inevitable6 ,%r\d away out ( sight ! flatt]+ delusions ( y\?6 ,live & die 9 ! %ade6 ,l ! insects humm+ 9 ! d>kness1 (f] up y\r ev5+ pray]4 ,be cont5t to fade out ( life )\t a murmur :5ev] ! ,ma/] ( life %all brea! ^u y\r t9y flame6 ,x is out ( myriads ( unkn[n lives t e clod ( e>? is built up4 ,! infusoria d n c\nt until !y are millions ^u millions4 ,accept y\r no?+ness40 ,am56 ,b !re is no peace except 9 ord]1 9 law4 ,am ,i 9 ord]8 ,alas1 no6 ,my *angeable & re/less nature w torm5t me to ! end4 ,i %all nev] see pla9ly :at ,i ought to d4 ,! love ( ! bett] w h /ood betwe5 me & ! good4 ,ye>n+ = ! ideal w h lo/ me reality4 ,vague aspiration & undef9$ desire w h be5 en\gh to make my tal5ts useless1 & to neutralize my p[]s4 ,unproductive nature t ,i am1 tortur$ by ! belief t production 0 requir$ ( me1 may n my v remorse be a mi/ake & a sup]fluity8 ,s*]]'s phrase comes back to me1 8,we mu/ accept ourselves z we are40 ,septemb] #h1 #ahgj 7,zuri*74--,all ! exiles are return+ to ,p>is--,edg> ,qu9et1 ,l\is ,blanc1 ,victor ,hugo4 ,by ! help ( _! unit$ exp]i5ce w !y succe$ 9 ma9ta9+ ! republic8 ,x is to be hop$ s4 ,b ! pa/ makes x lawful to d\bt4 ,:ile ! republic is 9 reality a fruit1 ! ,fr5* look ^u x z a se$-s[+4 ,else:]e su* a =m ( gov]nm5t presupposes free m52 9 ,france x is & mu/ be an in/rum5t ( in/ruction & protection4 ,france has once m plac$ sov]eignty 9 ! h&s ( univ]sal suffrage1 z ?\gh ! multitude 7 already enlight5$1 judici\s1 & reasonable1 & n[ h] task is to tra9 & discipl9e ! =ce :i*1 by a fiction1 is ma/]4 ,! ambition ( ,france is set ^u self-gov]nm5t1 b h] capacity = x has /ill to be prov$4 ,= eighty ye>s %e has conf\nd$ revolution ) lib]ty2 w %e n[ give pro( ( am5dm5t & ( wisdom8 ,su* a *ange is n impossible4 ,let u wait = x ) sympa?y1 b also ) caution4 ,septemb] #ab1 #ahgj 7,basle74--,! old ,rh9e is murmur+ "u my w9d[4 ,! wide gray /ream rolls its great waves along & breaks aga9/ ! ar*es ( ! bridge1 j z x did t5 ye>s or tw5ty ye>s ago2 ! r$ ca!dral %oots its arr[-l spires t[>d heav52 ! ivy on ! t]races :i* fr+e ! left bank ( ! ,rh9e hangs ov] ! walls l a gre5 mantle2 ! indefatigable f]ry-boat goes & comes z x did ( yore2 9 a ^w1 ?+s seem to be et]nal1 :ile man's hair turns gray & 8 he>t gr[s old4 ,i came "h fir/ z a /ud5t1 !n z a pr(essor4 ,n[ ,i return to x at ! d[nw>d turn ( middle age1 & no?+ 9 ! l&scape has *ang$ except myself4 ,! melan*oly ( memory may be commonplace & pu]ile--all ! same x is true1 x is inexhau/ible1 & ! poets ( all times h be5 op5 to its attacks4 ,at bottom1 :at is individual life8 ,a v>iation ( an et]nal !me--to be born1 to live1 to feel1 to hope1 to love1 to suff]1 to weep1 to die4 ,"s w\ld add to ^!1 to gr[ ri*1 to ?9k1 to conqu]2 b 9 fact1 :atev] frantic ef=ts "o may make1 h[ev] "o may /ra9 & excite "o's self1 "o c b cause a great] or slight] undulation 9 ! l9e ( "o's de/9y4 ,suppos+ a man r5d]s ! s]ies ( fundam5tal ph5om5a a little m evid5t to o!rs or a little m di/9ct to himself1 :at does x matt]8 ,! :ole is /ill no?+ b a flutt]+ ( ! inf9itely little1 ! insignificant repetition ( an inv>iable !me4 ,9 tru?1 :e!r ! individual exi/s or no1 ! diff]5ce is s absolutely imp]ceptible 9 ! :ole ( ?+s t e compla9t & e desire is ridicul\s4 ,humanity 9 its entirety is b a fla% 9 ! duration ( ! planet1 & ! planet may return to ! gase\s /ate )\t ! sun's feel+ x ev5 = a second4 ,! individual is ! inf9itesimal ( no?+4 ,:at1 !n1 is nature8 ,nature is ,maa--t is to say1 an incessant1 fugitive1 indiff]5t s]ies ( ph5om5a1 ! manife/ation ( all possibilities1 ! inexhau/ible play ( all comb9ations4 ,& is ,maa all ! :ile p]=m+ = ! amusem5t ( somebody1 ( "s spectator--,brahma8 ,or is ,brahma work+ out "s s]i\s & unselfi% end8 ,f ! !i/ic po9t ( view1 is x ! purpose ( ,god to make s\ls1 to augm5t ! sum ( good & wisdom by ! multiplication ( himself 9 free be+s--facets :i* may fla% back to him 8 own hol9ess & beauty8 ,?is conception is f> m attractive to ! he>t4 ,b is x m true8 ,! moral consci\sness affirms x4 ,if man is capable ( conceiv+ goodness1 ! g5]al pr9ciple ( ?+s1 :i* _c be inf]ior to man1 mu/ be good4 ,! philosophy ( labor1 ( duty1 ( ef=t1 is surely sup]ior to t ( ph5om5a1 *ance1 & univ]sal indiff]5ce4 ,if s1 ! :imsical ,maa w\ld be subord9ate to ,brahma1 ! et]nal ?\ght1 & ,brahma w\ld be 9 8 turn subord9ate to a holy ,god4 ,octob] #be1 #ahgj 7,g5eva74--8,ea* function to ! mo/ wor?y30 ?is maxim gov]ns all con/itutions1 & s]ves to te/ !m4 ,democracy is n =bidd5 to apply x1 b democracy r>ely does apply x1 because %e holds1 = example1 t ! mo/ wor?y man is ! man :o pleases h]1 :]eas he :o pleases h] is n always ! mo/ wor?y1 & because %e supposes t reason guides ! masses1 :]eas 9 reality !y are mo/ commonly l$ by passion4 ,& 9 ! end e falsehood has to be expiat$1 = tru? always takes its rev5ge4 ,alas1 :atev] "o may say or d1 wisdom1 ju/ice1 reason1 & goodness w nev] be any?+ m ?an special cases & ! h]itage ( a few elect s\ls4 ,moral & intellectual h>mony1 excell5ce 9 all its =ms1 w always be a r>ity ( great price1 an isolat$ *ef d'oeuvre4 ,all t c be expect$ f ! mo/ p]fect in/itutions is t !y %\ld make x possible = individual excell5ce to develop itself1 n t !y %\ld produce ! excell5t individual4 ,virtue & g5ius1 grace & beauty1 w always con/itute a noblesse su* z no =m ( gov]nm5t c manufacture4 ,x is ( no use1 !re=e1 to excite "o's self = or aga9/ revolutions :i* h only an importance ( ! second ord]--an importance :i* ,i d n wi% ei!r to dim9i% or to ignore1 b an importance :i*1 aft] all1 is mo/ly negative4 ,! political life is b ! means ( ! true life4 ,octob] #bf1 #ahgj4--,sirocco4 ,a blui% sky4 ,! leafy cr[ns ( ! trees h dropp$ at _! feet2 ! f+] ( w9t] has t\*$ !m4 ,! err&-woman has j br\ght me my lett]s4 ,poor little woman1 :at a life6 ,%e sp5ds h] nights 9 go+ backw>d & =w>d f h] invalid husb& to h] si/]1 :o is sc>cely less helpless1 & h] days are pass$ 9 labor4 ,resign$ & indefatigable1 %e goes on )\t compla9+1 till %e drops4 ,lives su* z h]s prove some?+3 t ! true ignorance is moral ignorance1 t labor & suff]+ are ! lot ( all m51 & t classification accord+ to a great] or less degree ( folly is inf]ior to t :i* proce$s accord+ to a great] or less degree ( virtue4 ,! k+dom ( ,god belongs n to ! mo/ enlight5$ b to ! be/2 & ! be/ man is ! mo/ unselfi% man4 ,humble1 con/ant1 volunt>y self-sacrifice--?is is :at con/itutes ! true dignity ( man4 ,& !re=e is x writt51 8,! la/ %all be fir/40 ,society re/s ^u consci5ce & n ^u sci5ce4 ,civilization is fir/ & =emo/ a moral ?+4 ,)\t hone/y1 )\t respect = law1 )\t ! wor%ip ( duty1 )\t ! love ( "o's neighbor--9 a ^w1 )\t virtue--! :ole is m5ac$ & falls into decay1 & nei!r lett]s nor art1 nei!r luxury nor indu/ry1 nor rhetoric1 nor ! policeman1 nor ! cu/om-h\se (fic]1 c ma9ta9 erect & :ole an edifice ( :i* ! f\ndations are uns\nd4 ,a /ate f\nd$ ^u int]e/ alone & cem5t$ by fe> is an ignoble & unsafe con/ruction4 ,! ultimate gr\nd ^u :i* e civilization re/s is ! av]age morality ( ! masses1 & a suffici5t am\nt ( practical righte\sness4 ,duty is :at upholds all4 ,s t ^? :o humbly & unobtrusively fulfill x1 & set a good example !reby1 are ! salvation & ! su/5ance ( ?is brilliant _w1 :i* kn[s no?+ ab\t !m4 ,t5 righte\s m5 w\ld h sav$ ,sodom1 b ?\s&s & ?\s&s ( good homely folk are ne$$ to pres]ve a p f corruption & decay4 ,if ignorance & passion are ! foes ( popul> morality1 x mu/ be confess$ t moral indiff]5ce is ! malady ( ! cultivat$ classes4 ,! mod]n sep>ation ( enlight5m5t & virtue1 ( ?\ght & consci5ce1 ( ! intellectual ari/ocracy f ! hone/ & vulg> cr[d1 is ! greate/ dang] t c ?reat5 lib]ty4 ,:5 any society produces an increas+ numb] ( lit]>y exquisites1 ( satiri/s1 skeptics1 & beaux esprits1 "s *emical disorganization ( fabric may be inf]r$4 ,take1 = example1 ! c5tury ( ,augu/us1 & t ( ,l\is ,,xv4 ,our cynics & rail]s are m]e egoti/s1 :o /& alo( f ! common duty1 & 9 _! indol5t remot5ess are ( no s]vice to society aga9/ any ill :i* may attack x4 ,_! cultivation consi/s 9 hav+ got rid ( feel+4 ,& ?us !y fall f>!r & f>!r away f true humanity1 & approa* ne>] to ! demoniacal nature4 ,:at 0 x t ,mephi/opheles lack$8 ,n intellig5ce c]ta9ly1 b goodness4 ,octob] #bh1 #ahgj4--;,x is /range to see h[ completely ju/ice is =gott5 9 ! pres5ce ( great int]national /ruggles4 ,ev5 ! great majority ( ! spectators are no long] capable ( judg+ except z _! own p]sonal ta/es1 dislikes1 fe>s1 desires1 int]e/s1 or passions may dictate--t is to say1 _! judgm5t is n a judgm5t at all4 ,h[ _m p are capable ( deliv]+ a fair v]dict on ! /ruggle n[ go+ on8 ,v few6 ,?is horror ( equity1 ?is antipa?y to ju/ice1 ?is rage aga9/ a m]ciful neutrality1 repres5ts a k9d ( eruption ( animal passion 9 man1 a bl9d fi]ce passion1 :i* is absurd en\gh to call itself a reason1 :]eas x is no?+ b a =ce4 ,novemb] #af1 #ahgj4--,we are /ruck by some?+ bewild]+ & ineffable :5 we look d[n into ! dep?s ( an abyss2 & e s\l is an abyss1 a my/]y ( love & piety4 ,a sort ( sacr$ emotion desc5ds ^u me :5ev] ,i p5etrate ! recesses ( ?is sanctu>y ( man1 & he> ! g5tle murmur ( ! pray]s1 hymns1 & supplications :i* rise f ! hidd5 dep?s ( ! he>t4 ,^! involunt>y confid5ces fill me ) a t5d] piety & a religi\s awe & %yness4 ,! :ole exp]i5ce seems to me z wond]ful z poetry1 & div9e ) ! div95ess ( bir? & dawn4 ,spee* fails me1 ,i b[ myself & adore4 ,&1 :5ev] ,i am able1 ,i /rive also to console & =tify4 ,decemb] #f1 #ahgj4--8;,dau] im ,we*sel0--8,p]si/5ce 9 *ange40 ,?is title ( a poem by ,goe! is ! summ+ up ( nature4 ,ev]y?+ *anges1 b ) su* unequal rapidity t "o exi/5ce appe>s et]nal to ano!r4 ,a geological age1 = in/ance1 comp>$ to ! duration ( any liv+ be+1 ! duration ( a planet comp>$ to a geological age1 appe> et]nities--our life1 too1 comp>$ to ! ?\s& impressions :i* pass across u 9 an h\r4 ,:]ev] "o looks1 "o feels "o's self ov]:elm$ by ! inf9ity ( inf9ites4 ,! univ]se1 s]i\sly /udi$1 r\ses "o's t]ror4 ,ev]y?+ seems s relative t x is sc>cely possible to di/+ui% :e!r any?+ has a real value4 ,:]e is ! fix$ po9t 9 ?is b\ndless & bottomless gulf8 ,mu/ x n be t :i* p]ceives ! relations ( ?+s--9 o!r words1 ?\ght1 inf9ite ?\ght8 ,! p]ception ( ourselves )9 ! inf9ite ?\ght1 ! realization ( ourselves 9 ,god1 self-acceptance 9 him1 ! h>mony ( our w ) 8--9 a ^w1 religion--"h alone is firm gr\nd4 ,:e!r ?is ?\ght be free or necess>y1 happ9ess lies 9 id5tify+ "o's self ) x4 ,bo? ! /oic & ! ,*ri/ian surr5d] !mselves to ! ,be+ ( be+s1 :i* ! "o calls sov]eign wisdom & ! o!r sov]eign goodness4 ,/4 ,john says1 8,god is ,light10 8,god is ,love40 ,! ,brahm9 says1 8,god is ! inexhau/ible f\nt ( poetry40 ,let u say1 8,god is p]fection40 ,& man8 ,man1 = all 8 inexpressible insignificance & frailty1 may /ill appreh5d ! idea ( p]fection1 may help =w>d ! supreme w1 & die ) ,hosanna on 8 lips6 99 99 99 99 99 ,all tea*+ dep5ds ^u a c]ta9 pres5tim5t & prep>ation 9 ! taught2 we c only tea* o!rs pr(itably :at !y already virtually "k2 we c only give !m :at !y _h already4 ,?is pr9ciple ( education is also a law ( hi/ory4 ,nations c only be develop$ on ! l9es ( _! t5d5cies & aptitudes4 ,try !m on any o!r & !y are rebelli\s & incapable ( improvem5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,by despis+ himself too mu* a man comes to be wor?y ( 8 own contempt4 99 99 99 99 99 ,its way ( suff]+ is ! witness :i* a s\l be>s to itself4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! beautiful is sup]ior to ! sublime because x la/s & does n satiate1 :ile ! sublime is relative1 tempor>y & viol5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,febru>y #d1 #ahga4--,p]petual ef=t is ! *>act]i/ic ( mod]n morality4 ,a pa9ful process has tak5 ! place ( ! old h>mony1 ! old equilibrium1 ! old joy & fullness ( be+4 ,we are all s _m fauns1 satyrs1 or ,sil5uses1 aspir+ to become angels2 s _m de=mities labor+ = our own embelli%m5t2 s _m clumsy *rysalises ea* work+ pa9fully t[>d ! developm5t ( ! butt]fly )9 him4 ,our ideal is no long] a s]5e beauty ( s\l2 x is ! agony ( ,laocoon /ruggl+ ) ! hydra ( evil4 ,! lot is ca/ irrevocably4 ,!re are no m happy :ole-natur$ m5 among u1 no?+ b s _m c&idates = heav51 galley-slaves on e>?4 8,n\s ramons notre vie en att5dant le port40 ,molire said t reason+ bani%$ reason4 ,x is possible also t ! progress t[>d p]fection we are s pr\d ( is only a pret5ti\s imp]fection4 ,duty seems n[ to be m negative ?an positive2 x means less5+ evil r ?an actual good2 x is a g5]\s discont5t1 b n happ9ess2 x is an incessant pursuit ( an unatta9able goal1 a noble madness1 b n reason2 x is homesickness = ! impossible--pa!tic & pitiful1 b /ill n wisdom4 ,! be+ :i* has atta9$ h>mony1 & e be+ may atta9 x1 has f\nd its place 9 ! ord] ( ! univ]se1 & repres5ts ! div9e ?\ght at lea/ z cle>ly z a fl[] or a sol> sy/em4 ,h>mony seeks no?+ outside itself4 ,x is :at x ought to be2 x is ! expression ( "r1 ord]1 law1 & tru?2 x is great] ?an "t1 & repres5ts et]nity4 ,febru>y #f1ahga4--;,i am read+ ,ju/e ,olivi]'s 8,*ansons du ,soir0 ov] aga91 & all ! melan*oly ( ! poet seems to pass into my ve9s4 ,x is ! revelation ( a complete exi/5ce1 & ( a :ole _w ( melan*oly rev]ie4 ,h[ mu* "* !re is 9 8,musette10 ! 8,*anson de l',al\ette10 ! 8,*ant du ,ret\r10 & ! 8,gat10 & h[ mu* fre%ness 9 8,l9a10 & 8,a ma fille60 ,b ! be/ pieces ( all are 8,au del10 8,homunculus10 8,la ,trompeuse10 & especially 8,frre ,jacques10 its au?or's ma/]piece4 ,to ^! may be add$ ! 8,m>ionettes0 & ! national song1 8,helvtie40 ,s]i\s purpose & int5tion disguis$ 9 g5tle gayety & *ildlike bad9age1 feel+ hid+ itself "u a smile ( satire1 a resign$ & p5sive wisdom express+ itself 9 ru/ic r\nd or ballad1 ! p[] ( sugge/+ ev]y?+ 9 a no?+--^! are ! po9ts 9 :i* ! ,vaudois poet triumphs4 ,on ! read]'s side !re is emotion & surprise1 & on ! au?or's a sort ( pleasant slyness :i* seems to delight 9 play+ tricks ^u y1 only tricks ( ! mo/ da9ty & brilliant k9d4 ,ju/e ,olivi] has ! passion we might imag9e a fairy to h = delicate my/ification4 ,he hides 8 gifts4 ,he promises no?+ & gives a great deal4 ,8 g5]osity1 :i* is prodigal1 has a surly air2 8 simplicity is really subtlety2 8 malice pure t5d]ness2 & 8 :ole tal5t is1 z x 71 ! f9e fl[] ( ! ,vaudois m9d 9 its sweete/ & dreamie/ =m4 ,febru>y #aj1 #ahga4--,my read+ = ?is morn+ has be5 "s vigor\s *apt]s ( ,ta9e's 8,hi/ory ( ,engli% ,lit]ature40 ,ta9e is a writ] ^: "w always produces a disagreeable impression ^u me1 z ?\gh ( a creak+ ( pulleys & a click+ ( ma*9]y2 !re is a smell ( ! laboratory ab\t x4 ,8 /yle is ! /yle ( *emi/ry & te*nology4 ,! sci5ce ( x is inexorable2 x is dry & =cible1 p5etrat+ & h>d1 /rong & h>%1 b altoge!r lack+ 9 *>m1 humanity1 nobility1 & grace4 ,! disagreeable effect :i* x makes on "o's ta/e1 e>1 & he>t1 dep5ds probably ^u two ?+s3 ^u ! moral philosophy ( ! au?or & ^u 8 lit]>y pr9ciples4 ,! pr(\nd contempt = humanity :i* *>act]izes ! physiological s*ool1 & ! intrusion ( te*nology into lit]ature inaugurat$ by ,balzac & ,/5dhal1 expla9 ! und]ly+ aridity ( :i* "o is s5sible 9 ^! pages1 & :i* seems to *oke "o l ! gases f a manufactory ( m9]al products4 ,! book is in/ructive 9 ! highe/ degree1 b in/ead ( animat+ & /irr+1 x p>*es1 corrodes1 & sadd5s its read]4 ,x excites no feel+ :atev]2 x is simply a means ( in=mation4 ,i imag9e ?is k9d ( ?+ w be ! lit]ature ( ! future--a lit]ature l',amrica9e1 z diff]5t z possible f ,greek art1 giv+ u algebra in/ead ( life1 ! =mula in/ead ( ! image1 ! exhalations ( ! crucible in/ead ( ! div9e madness ( ,apollo4 ,cold vision w replace ! joys ( ?\ght1 & we %all see ! dea? ( poetry1 flay$ & dissect$ by sci5ce4 ,febru>y #ae1 #ahga4--,)\t int5d+ x1 nations educate ea* o!r1 :ile hav+ app>5tly no?+ 9 view b _! own selfi% int]e/s4 ,x 0 ,france :o made ! ,g]many ( ! pres5t1 by attempt+ its de/ruction dur+ t5 g5]ations2 x is ,g]many :o w reg5]ate contempor>y ,france1 by ! ef=t to cru% h]4 ,revolution>y ,france w tea* equality to ! ,g]mans1 :o are by nature hi]>*ical4 ,g]many w tea* ! ,fr5* t rhetoric is n sci5ce1 & t appe>ance is n z valuable z reality4 ,! wor%ip ( pre/ige--t is to say1 ( falsehood2 ! passion = va+lory--t is to say1 = smoke & noise2 ^! are :at mu/ die 9 ! int]e/s ( ! _w4 ,x is a false religion :i* is be+ de/roy$4 ,i hope s9c]ely t ?is w> w issue 9 a new balance ( ?+s bett] ?an any :i* has gone be=e--a new ,europe1 9 :i* ! gov]nm5t ( ! individual by himself w be ! c>d9al pr9ciple ( society1 9 opposition to ! ,lat9 pr9ciple1 :i* reg>ds ! individual z a ?+1 a means to an end1 an in/rum5t ( ! *ur* or ( ! /ate4 ,9 ! ord] & h>mony :i* w\ld result f free adhesion & volunt>y submission to a common ideal1 we %\ld see ! rise ( a new moral _w4 ,x w\ld be an equival5t1 express$ 9 lay t]ms1 to ! idea ( a univ]sal prie/hood4 ,! model /ate ought to resemble a great musical society 9 :i* e "o submits to be organiz$1 subord9at$1 & discipl9$ = ! sake ( art1 & = ! sake ( produc+ a ma/]piece4 ,nobody is co]c$1 nobody is made use ( = selfi% purposes1 nobody plays a hypocritical or selfi% "p4 ,all br+ _! tal5t to ! common /ock1 & contribute kn[+ly & gladly to ! common weal?4 ,ev5 self-love itself is oblig$ to help on ! g5]al action1 "u pa9 ( rebuff %\ld x make itself app>5t4 ,febru>y #ah1 #ahga4--;,x is 9 ! novel t ! av]age vulg>ity ( ,g]man society1 & its inf]iority to ! societies ( ,france & ,engl&1 are mo/ cle>ly visible4 ,! notion ( 8bad ta/e0 seems to h no place 9 ,g]man ae/hetics4 ,_! elegance has no grace 9 x2 & !y _c und]/& ! enorm\s diff]5ce !re is betwe5 di/9ction 7:at is g5tlemanly1 ladylike71 & _! /iff vornehmli*keit4 ,_! imag9ation lacks /yle1 tra9+1 education1 & k ( ! _w2 x has an ill-br$ air ev5 9 its ,sunday dress4 ,! race is poetical & intellig5t1 b common & ill-mann]$4 ,pliancy & g5tl5ess1 mann]s1 wit1 vivacity1 ta/e1 dignity1 & *>m1 are qualities :i* belong to o!rs4 ,w t inn] fre$om ( s\l1 t pr(\nd h>mony ( all ! faculties :i* ,i h s (t5 obs]v$ among ! be/ ,g]mans1 ev] come to ! surface8 ,w ! conqu]ors ( to-day ev] le>n to civilize & s(t5 _! =ms ( life8 ,x is by _! future novels t we %all be able to judge4 ,z soon z !y are capable ( ! novel ( 8good society0 !y w h excell$ all rivals4 ,till !n1 f9i%1 poli%1 ! maturity ( social culture1 are beyond !m2 !y may h humanity ( feel+1 b ! delicacies1 ! little p]fections ( life1 are unkn[n to !m4 ,!y may be hone/ & well-mean+1 b !y are utt]ly )\t savoir vivre4 ,febru>y #bb1 #ahga4--,soire at ! ,m--4 ,ab\t ?irty p repres5t+ our be/ society 7 !re1 a happy mixture ( sexes & ages4 ,!re 7 gray heads1 "y girls1 bright faces--! :ole fram$ 9 "s ,aubusson tape/ries :i* made a *>m+ backgr\nd1 & gave a s(t air ( di/ance to ! brilliantly-dress$ gr\ps4 ,9 society p are expect$ to behave z if !y liv$ on ambrosia & conc]n$ !mselves ) no?+ b ! l(tie/ int]e/s4 ,anxiety1 ne$1 passion1 h no exi/5ce4 ,all realism is suppress$ z brutal4 ,9 a ^w1 :at we call 8society0 proce$s = ! mom5t on ! flatt]+ illusory assumption t x is mov+ 9 an e!real atmosph]e & brea?+ ! air ( ! gods4 ,all vehem5ce1 all natural expression1 all real suff]+1 all c>eless famili>ity1 or any frank sign ( passion1 are />tl+ & di/a/eful 9 ?is delicate milieu2 !y at once de/roy ! common "w1 ! cl\d palace1 ! magical ar*itectural :ole1 :i* has be5 rais$ by ! g5]al cons5t & ef=t4 ,x is l ! %>p cock-cr[ :i* breaks ! spell ( all en*antm5ts1 & puts ! fairies to flight4 ,^! select ga!r+s produce1 )\t kn[+ x1 a sort ( conc]t = eyes & e>s1 an improvis$ "w ( art4 ,by ! in/9ctive collaboration ( ev]ybody conc]n$1 intellect & ta/e hold fe/ival1 & ! associations ( reality are ex*ang$ = ! associations ( imag9ation4 ,s und]/ood1 society is a =m ( poetry2 ! cultivat$ classes delib]ately recompose ! idyll ( ! pa/ & ! buri$ _w ( ,a/rea4 ,p>adox or no1 ,i believe t ^! fugitive attempts to recon/ruct a dream ^: only end is beauty repres5t confus$ rem9isc5ces ( an age ( gold haunt+ ! human he>t1 or r aspirations t[>d a h>mony ( ?+s :i* e day reality d5ies to u1 & ( :i* art alone gives u a glimpse4 ,april #bh1 #ahga4--;,= a psy*ologi/ x is extremely int]e/+ to be readily & directly consci\s ( ! complications ( "o's own organism & ! play ( its sev]al p>ts4 ,x seems to me t ! sutures ( my be+ are becom+ j loose en\gh to all[ me at once a cle> p]ception ( myself z a :ole & a di/9ct s5se ( my own brittl5ess4 ,a feel+ l ?is makes p]sonal exi/5ce a p]petual a/oni%m5t & curiosity4 ,in/ead ( only see+ ! _w :i* surr\nds me1 ,i analyze myself4 ,in/ead ( be+ s+le1 all ( a piece1 ,i become legion1 multitude1 a :irlw9d--a v cosmos4 ,in/ead ( liv+ on ! surface1 ,i take possession ( my inmo/ self1 ,i appreh5d myself1 if n 9 my cells & atoms1 at lea/ s f> z my gr\ps ( organs1 almo/ my tissues1 are conc]n$4 ,9 o!r words1 ! c5tral monad isolates itself f all ! subord9ate monads1 t x may consid] !m1 & f9ds its h>mony aga9 9 itself4 ,heal? is ! p]fect balance betwe5 our organism1 ) all its compon5t p>ts1 & ! out] _w2 x s]ves u especially = acquir+ a k ( t _w4 ,organic di/urbance obliges u to set up a fre% & m spiritual equilibrium1 to )draw )9 ! s\l4 ,!reupon our bodily con/itution itself becomes ! object ( ?\ght4 ,x is no long] we1 al?\gh x may belong to u2 x is no?+ m ?an ! vessel 9 :i* we make ! passage ( life1 a vessel ( :i* we /udy ! weak po9ts & ! /ructure )\t id5tify+ x ) our own individuality4 ,:]e is ! ultimate resid5ce ( ! self8 ,9 ?\ght1 or r 9 consci\sness4 ,b bel[ consci\sness !re is its g]m1 ! punctum sali5s ( spontaneity2 = consci\sness is n primitive1 x becomes4 ,! "q is1 c ! ?9k+ monad return into its envelope1 t is to say1 into pure spontaneity1 or ev5 into ! d>k abyss ( virtuality8 ,i hope n4 ,! k+dom passes2 ! k+ rema9s2 or r is x ! royalty alone :i* subsi/s--t is to say1 ! idea--! p]sonality beg9 9 its turn m]ely ! pass+ ve/ure ( ! p]man5t idea8 ,is ,leibnitz or ,hegel "r8 ,is ! individual immortal "u ! =m ( ! spiritual body8 ,is he et]nal "u ! =m ( ! individual idea8 ,:o saw mo/ cle>ly1 ,/4 ,paul or ,plato8 ,! !ory ( ,leibnitz attracts me mo/ because x op5s to u an inf9ite ( duration1 ( multitude1 & evolution4 ,= a monad1 :i* is ! virtual univ]se1 a :ole inf9ite ( "t is n too mu* to develop ! inf9ite )9 x4 ,only "o mu/ admit ext]ior actions & influ5ces :i* affect ! evolution ( ! monad4 ,its indep5d5ce mu/ be a mobile & increas+ quantity betwe5 z]o & ! inf9ite1 )\t ev] rea*+ ei!r complet5ess or nullity1 = ! monad c be nei!r absolutely passive nor entirely free4 ,june #ba1 #ahga4--,! int]national socialism ( ! ouvri]s1 ineffectually put d[n 9 ,p>is1 is beg9n+ to celebrate its approa*+ victory4 ,= x !re is nei!r c\ntry1 nor memories1 nor prop]ty1 nor religion4 ,!re is no?+ & nobody b itself4 ,its dogma is equality1 its prophet is ,mably1 & ,baboeuf is its god4 ,footnote3 ,mably1 ! ,abb ,mably1 #agji-he1 "o ( ! precursors ( ! revolution1 ! pr(essor ( a cultivat$ & classical communism bas$ on a /udy ( antiquity1 :i* ,babeuf & o!rs l him1 9 ! foll[+ g5]ation1 translat$ into practical exp]im5t4 8,caius ,grac*us0 ,babeuf1 born #agfd1 & guillot9$ 9 #agig = a conspiracy aga9/ ! ,directory1 is sometimes call$ ! fir/ ,fr5* sociali/4 ,p]haps sociali/ doctr9es1 prop]ly s call$1 may be said to make _! fir/ entry into ! region ( popul> debate & practical agitation ) 8 8,manife/e des gaux10 issu$ ,april #agif4 ,h[ is ! conflict to be solv$1 s9ce !re is no long] "o s+le common pr9ciple betwe5 ! p>tisans & ! enemies ( ! exi/+ =m ( society1 betwe5 lib]alism & ! wor%ip ( equality8 ,_! respective notions ( man1 duty1 happ9ess--t is to say1 ( life & its end--diff] radically4 ,i suspect t ! communism ( ! ,int]nationale is m]ely ! pione] ( ,russian nihilism1 :i* w be ! common grave ( ! old races & ! s]vile races1 ! ,lat9s & ! ,slavs4 ,if s1 ! salvation ( humanity w dep5d ^u individualism ( ! brutal ,am]ican sort4 ,i believe t ! nations ( ! pres5t are r tempt+ *a/isem5t ?an le>n+ wisdom4 ,wisdom1 :i* means balance & h>mony1 is only met )9 individuals4 ,democracy1 :i* means ! rule ( ! masses1 gives prepond]ance to in/9ct1 to nature1 to ! passions--t is to say1 to bl9d impulse1 to elem5tal gravitation1 to g5]ic fatality4 ,p]petual vacillation betwe5 contr>ies becomes its only mode ( progress1 because x repres5ts t *ildi% =m ( prejudice :i* falls 9 love & cools1 adores1 & curses1 ) ! same ha/e & unreason4 ,a succession ( oppos+ follies gives an impression ( *ange :i* ! p readily id5tify ) improvem5t1 z ?\gh ,enceladus 0 m at ease on 8 left side ?an on 8 "r1 ! weight ( ! volcano rema9+ ! same4 ,! /upidity ( ,demos is only equal$ by its presumption4 ,x is l a y\? ) all 8 animal & none ( 8 reason+ p[]s develop$4 ,lu!r's comp>ison ( humanity to a drunk5 peasant1 always ready to fall f 8 horse on "o side or ! o!r1 has always /ruck me z a p>ticul>ly happy "o4 ,x is n t ,i d5y ! "r ( ! democracy1 b ,i h no sort ( illusion z to ! use x w make ( its "r1 s long1 at any rate1 z wisdom is ! exception & conceit ! rule4 ,numb]s make law1 b goodness has no?+ to d ) figures4 ,e fiction is self-expiat+1 & democracy re/s ^u ?is legal fiction1 t ! majority has n only =ce b reason on its side--t x possesses n only ! "r to act b ! wisdom necess>y = action4 ,! fiction is dang]\s because ( its flatt]y2 ! demagogues h always flatt]$ ! private feel+s ( ! masses4 ,! masses w always be bel[ ! av]age4 ,besides1 ! age ( majority w be l[]$1 ! b>ri]s ( sex w be swept away1 & democracy w f9ally make itself absurd by h&+ ov] ! decision ( all t is greate/ to all t is mo/ incapable4 ,su* an end w be ! puni%m5t ( its ab/ract pr9ciple ( equality1 :i* disp5ses ! ignorant man f ! necessity ( self-tra9+1 ! fooli% man f t ( self-judgm5t1 & tells ! *ild t !re is no ne$ = him to become a man1 & ! good-=-no?+ t self-improvem5t is ( no acc\nt4 ,public law1 f\nd$ ^u virtual equality1 w de/roy itself by its consequ5ces4 ,x w n recognize ! inequalities ( wor?1 ( m]it1 & ( exp]i5ce2 9 a ^w1 x ignores individual labor1 & x w end 9 ! triumph ( platitude & ! residuum4 ,! rgime ( ! ,p>isian ,commune has %[n u :at k9d ( mat]ial comes to ! top 9 ^! days ( frantic vanity & univ]sal suspicion4 ,/ill1 humanity is t\gh1 & survives all cata/rophes4 ,only x makes "o impati5t to see ! race always tak+ ! longe/ road to an end1 & exhau/+ all possible faults be=e x is able to accompli% "o def9ite /ep t[>d improvem5t4 ,^! innum]able follies1 t are to be & mu/ be1 h an irritat+ effect ^u me4 ,! m maje/ic is ! hi/ory ( sci5ce1 ! m intol]able is ! hi/ory ( politics & religion4 ,! mode ( progress 9 ! moral _w seems an abuse ( ! pati5ce ( ,god4 ,en\gh6 ,!re is no help 9 misan?ropy & pessimism4 ,if our race vexes u1 let u keep a dec5t sil5ce on ! matt]4 ,we are imprison$ on ! same %ip1 & we %all s9k ) x4 ,pay y\r own debt1 & leave ! re/ to ,god4 ,%>]1 z y inevitably are1 9 ! suff]+s ( y\r k9d1 set a good example2 t is all :i* is ask$ ( y4 ,d all ! good y c1 & say all ! tru? y "k or believe2 & = ! re/ be pati5t1 resign$1 submissive4 ,god does 8 bus9ess1 d y\rs4 ,july #bi1 #ahga4--,s long z a man is capable ( self-r5ewal he is a liv+ be+4 ,goe!1 ,s*lei]ma*] & ,humboldt1 7 ma/]s ( ! art4 ,if we are to rema9 among ! liv+ !re mu/ be a p]petual revival ( y\? )9 u1 br\ght ab\t by inw>d *ange & by love ( ! ,platonic sort4 ,! s\l mu/ be =ev] recreat+ itself1 try+ all its v>i\s modes1 vibrat+ 9 all its fibres1 rais+ up new int]e/s = itself4444 ,! 8,epi/les0 & ! 8,epigrams0 ( ,goe! :i* ,i h be5 read+ to-day d n make "o love him4 ,:y8 ,because he has s little s\l4 ,8 way ( und]/&+ love1 religion1 duty1 & patriotism has some?+ mean & repulsive 9 x4 ,!re is no ardor1 no g5]osity 9 him4 ,a secret b>r5ness1 an ill-conceal$ egotism1 makes itself felt ?r\gh all ! weal? & flexibility ( 8 tal5t4 ,x is true t ! egotism ( ,goe! has at lea/ ?is mu* t is excell5t 9 x1 t x respects ! lib]ty ( ! individual1 & is favorable to all orig9ality4 ,b x w g out ( its way to help nobody2 x w give itself no tr\ble = anybody2 x w light5 nobody else's burd52 9 a ^w1 x does away ) *>ity1 ! great ,*ri/ian virtue4 ,p]fection = ,goe! consi/s 9 p]sonal nobility1 n 9 love2 8 /&>d is ae/hetic1 n moral4 ,he ignores hol9ess1 & has nev] all[$ himself to reflect on ! d>k problem ( evil4 ,a ,sp9ozi/ to ! core1 he believes 9 individual luck1 n 9 lib]ty1 nor 9 responsibility4 ,he is a ,greek ( ! great "t1 to :om ! inw>d crises ( ! religi\s consci\sness are unkn[n4 ,he repres5ts1 !n1 a /ate ( s\l e>li] ?an or subsequ5t to ,*ri/ianity1 :at ! prud5t critics ( our "t call ! 8mod]n _s20 & only "o t5d5cy ( ! mod]n _s--! wor%ip ( nature4 ,= ,goe! /&s outside all ! social & political aspirations ( ! g5]ality ( mank9d2 he takes no m int]e/ ?an ,nature h]self 9 ! dis9h]it$1 ! feeble1 & ! oppress$4444 ,! re/lessness ( our "t does n exi/ = ,goe! & 8 s*ool4 ,x is explicable en\gh4 ,! deaf h no s5se ( dissonance4 ,! man :o kn[s no?+ ( ! voice ( consci5ce1 ! voice ( regret or remorse1 _c ev5 guess at ! tr\bles ( ^? :o live "u two ma/]s & two laws1 & belong to two worlds--t ( nature & t ( lib]ty4 ,= himself1 8 *oice is made4 ,b humanity _c *oose & exclude4 ,all ne$s are vocal at once 9 ! cry ( h] suff]+4 ,%e he>s ! m5 ( sci5ce1 b %e li/5s to ^? :o talk to h] ( religion2 pleasure attracts h]1 b sacrifice moves h]2 & %e h>dly kn[s :e!r %e hates or :e!r %e adores ! crucifix4 ,lat]4--,/ill re-read+ ! sonnets & ! miscellane\s poems ( ,goe!4 ,! impression left by ?is "p ( ! 8,g$i*te0 is mu* m favorable ?an t made ^u me by ! 8,elegies0 & ! 8,epigrams40 ,! 8,wat] ,spirits0 & 8,! ,div9e0 are especially noble 9 feel+4 ,"o mu/ nev] be too ha/y 9 judg+ ^! complex natures4 ,completely lack+ z he is 9 ! s5se ( obligation & ( s91 ,goe! nev]!less f9ds 8 way to s]i\sness ?r\gh dignity4 ,greek sculpture has be5 8 s*ool ( virtue4 ,augu/ #ae1 #ahga4--,re-read1 = ! second "t1 ,r5an's 8,vie de ,jesus10 9 ! sixte5? popul> edition4 ,! mo/ *>act]i/ic feature ( ?is analysis ( ,*ri/ianity is t s9 plays no "p at all 9 x4 ,n[1 if any?+ expla9s ! success ( ! gospel among m51 x is t x br\ght !m deliv]ance f s9--9 a ^w1 salvation4 ,a man1 h[ev]1 is b\nd to expla9 a religion s]i\sly1 & n to %irk ! v c5t] ( 8 subject4 ,?is :ite-m>ble ,*ri/ is n ! ,*ri/ :o inspir$ ! m>tyrs & has dri$ s _m te>s4 ,! au?or lacks moral s]i\sness1 & conf\nds nobility ( "* ) hol9ess4 ,he speaks z an arti/ consci\s ( a pa!tic subject1 b 8 moral s5se is n int]e/$ 9 ! "q4 ,x is n possible to mi/ake ! epicureanism ( ! imag9ation1 delight+ itself 9 an ae/hetic spectacle1 = ! /ruggles ( a s\l passionately 9 se>* ( tru?4 ,9 ,r5an !re are /ill "s rema9s ( prie/ly ruse2 he /rangles ) sacr$ cords4 ,8 tone ( contemptu\s indulg5ce t[>d a m or less capti\s cl]gy might be tol]at$1 b he %\ld h %[n a m respectful s9c]ity 9 deal+ ) ! s9c]e & ! spiritual4 ,laugh at ,ph>isaism z y w1 b speak simply & pla9ly to hone/ folk4 ,footnote3 8#8,p]sifflez les ph>isasmes1 mais p>lez droit aux honntes g5s' me dit ,amiel1 avec une c]ta9e aigreur4 ,mon ,dieu1 que les honntes g5s sont s\v5t exposs tre des ph>isi5s sans le savoir60--7,m4 ,r5an's article1 already quot$74 ,lat]4--,to und]/& is to be consci\s ( ! fundam5tal unity ( ! ?+ to be expla9$--t is to say1 to conceive x 9 its entirety bo? ( life & developm5t1 to be able to remake x by a m5tal process )\t mak+ a mi/ake1 )\t add+ or omitt+ any?+4 ,x means1 fir/1 complete id5tification ( ! object1 & !n ! p[] ( mak+ x cle> to o!rs by a full & j int]pretation4 ,to und]/& is m difficult ?an to judge1 = und]/&+ is ! transf]5ce ( ! m9d into ! conditions ( ! object1 :]eas judgm5t is simply ! enunciation ( ! individual op9ion4 ,augu/ #be1 #ahga4 7,*>nex-sur-,montreux74--,magnific5t wea!r4 ,! morn+ seems ba!d 9 happy peace1 & a heav5ly fragrance rises f m\nta9 & %ore2 x is z ?\gh a b5$iction 7 laid ^u u4 ,no vulg> intrusive noise di/urbs ! religi\s quiet ( ! sc5e4 ,"o might believe "o's self 9 a *ur*--a va/ temple 9 :i* e be+ & e natural beauty has its place4 ,i d>e n brea! = fe> ( putt+ ! dream to flight--a dream trav]s$ by angels4 8,comme autrefois j'ent5ds dans l'!r inf9i ,la musique du temps et l'hosanna des mondes40 ,9 ^! heav5ly mom5ts ! cry ( ,paul9e rises to "o's lips4 ,footnote3 8,polyeuete10 ,act4 ,v4 ,sc5e v4 8,mon p\x en m\rant m'a laiss ses lumires2 ,son sang dont tes b\rreaux vi5n5t de me c\vrir ,m'a dessill les yeux et me les vi5t d'ouvrir4 ,je vois1 je sais1 je crois----8 8,i feel6 ,i believe6 ,i see60 ,all ! mis]ies1 ! c>es1 ! vexations ( life1 are =gott52 ! univ]sal joy absorbs u2 we ent] into ! div9e ord]1 & into ! bless$ness ( ! ,"l4 ,labor & te>s1 s91 pa91 & dea? h pass$ away4 ,to exi/ is to bless2 life is happ9ess4 ,9 ?is sublime pause ( ?+s all dissonances h disappe>$4 ,x is z ?\gh creation 7 b "o va/ symphony1 glorify+ ! ,god ( goodness ) an inexhau/ible weal? ( praise & h>mony4 ,we "q no long] :e!r x is s or n4 ,we h ourselves become notes 9 ! great conc]t2 & ! s\l breaks ! sil5ce ( ec/asy only to vibrate 9 unison ) ! et]nal joy4 ,septemb] #bb1 #ahga4 7,*>nex74--,gray sky--a melan*oly day4 ,a fri5d has left me1 ! sun is unk9d & caprici\s4 ,ev]y?+ passes away1 ev]y?+ =sakes u4 ,& 9 place ( all we h lo/1 age & gray hairs6 444 ,aft] d9n] ,i walk$ to ,*ailly betwe5 two %[]s4 ,a ra9y l&scape has a great *>m = me2 ! d>k t9ts become m velvety1 ! s(t] tones m e!real4 ,! c\ntry 9 ra9 is l a face ) traces ( te>s ^u x--less beautiful no d\bt1 b m expressive4 ,beh9d ! beauty :i* is sup]ficial1 gladsome1 radiant1 & palpable1 ! ae/hetic s5se discov]s ano!r ord] ( beauty altoge!r1 hidd51 veil$1 secret & my/]i\s1 ak9 to moral beauty4 ,?is sort ( beauty only reveals itself to ! initiat$1 & is all ! m exquisite = t4 ,x is a little l ! ref9$ joy ( sacrifice1 l ! madness ( fai?1 l ! luxury ( grief2 x is n )9 ! rea* ( all ! _w4 ,its attraction is peculi>1 & affects "o l "s /range p]fume1 or biz>re melody4 ,:5 once ! ta/e = x is set up ! m9d takes a special & ke5 delight 9 x1 = "o f9ds 9 x 8,son bi5 premirem5t1 puis le dda9 d'autrui10 & x is pleasant to "o's vanity n to be ( ! same op9ion z ! common h]d4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 is n possible ) ?+s :i* are evid5t1 & beauty :i* is inconte/able4 ,*>m1 p]haps1 is a bett] "n = ! esot]ic & p>adoxical beauty1 :i* escapes ! vulg>1 & appeals to our dreamy1 m$itative side4 ,classical beauty belongs1 s to speak1 to all eyes2 x has ceas$ to belong to itself4 ,esot]ic beauty is %y & retir+4 ,x only unveils itself to unseal$ eyes1 & be/[s its favors only ^u love4 ,?is is :y my fri5d ----1 :o places h]self imm$iately 9 relation ) ! s\ls ( ^? %e meets1 does n see ! ugl9ess ( p :5 once %e is int]e/$ 9 !m4 ,%e likes & dislikes1 & ^? %e likes are beautiful1 ^? %e dislikes are ugly4 ,!re is no?+ m complicat$ 9 x ?an t4 ,= h]1 ae/hetic consid]ations are lo/ 9 moral sympa?y2 %e looks ) h] he>t only2 %e passes by ! *apt] ( ! beautiful1 & goes on to ! *apt] ( *>m4 ,i c d ! same2 only x is by reflection & on second ?\ghts2 my fri5d does x involunt>ily & at once2 %e has n ! arti/ic fib]4 ,! crav+ = a p]fect correspond5ce betwe5 ! inside & ! outside ( ?+s--betwe5 matt] & =m--is n 9 h] nature4 ,%e does n suff] f ugl9ess1 %e sc>cely p]ceives x4 ,z = me1 ,i c only =get :at %ocks me1 ,i _c help be+ %ock$4 ,all corporal defects irritate me1 & ! want ( beauty 9 wom51 be+ some?+ :i* ought n to exi/1 %ocks me l a te>1 a solecism1 a dissonance1 a spot ( ink--9 a ^w1 l some?+ out ( ord]4 ,on ! o!r h&1 beauty re/ores & =tifies me l "s miracul\s food1 l ,olympian ambrosia4 8,que le bon soit t\j\rs cam>ade du beau ,ds dema9 je *]*]ai femme4 ,mais comme le divorce entre eux n'e/ pas n\veau1 ,et que peu de beaux corps1 htes d'une belle me1 ,assembl5t l'un et l'autre po9t----0 ,i w n f9i%1 = aft] all "o mu/ resign "o's self1 ,a beautiful s\l 9 a heal?y body is already a r>e & bless$ ?+2 & if "o f9ds he>t1 common s5se1 intellect1 & c\rage into ! b>ga91 "o may well d )\t t ravi%+ da9ty :i* we call beauty1 & almo/ )\t t delici\s season+ :i* we call grace4 ,we d )\t--) a sigh1 z "o does )\t a luxury4 ,happy we1 to possess :at is necess>y4 ,decemb] #bi1 #ahga4--;,i h be5 read+ ,bahns5 78,critique de l'volutionisme de ,hegel-,h>tmann1 au nom des pr9cipes de ,s*op5hau]074 ,:at a writ]6 ,l a cuttle-fi% 9 wat]1 e movem5t produces a cl\d ( ink :i* %r\ds 8 ?\ght 9 d>kness4 ,& :at a doctr9e6 ,a ?or\ghgo+ pessimism1 :i* reg>ds ! _w z absurd1 8absolutely idiotic10 & reproa*es ,h>tmann = hav+ all[$ ! evolution ( ! univ]se "s little rema9s ( logic1 :ile1 on ! contr>y1 ?is evolution is em95tly contradictory1 & !re is no reason any:]e except 9 ! poor bra9 ( ! reason]4 ,( all possible worlds t :i* exi/s is ! wor/4 ,its only excuse is t x t5ds ( itself to de/ruction4 ,! hope ( ! philosoph] is t reasonable be+s w %ort5 _! agony & ha/5 ! return ( ev]y?+ to no?+4 ,x is ! philosophy ( a desp]ate ,satanism1 :i* has n ev5 ! resign$ p]spectives ( ,buddhism to (f] to ! disappo9t$ & disillusion$ s\l4 ,! individual c b prote/ & curse4 ,?is frantic ,sivaism is develop$ f ! conception :i* makes ! _w ! product ( bl9d w1 ! pr9ciple ( ev]y?+4 ,! acrid blasphemy ( ! doctr9e naturally leads ! writ] to indulg5ce 9 epi!ts ( bad ta/e :i* prev5t our reg>d+ 8 "w z ! m]e *all5ge ( a p>adoxical !ori/4 ,we h really to d ) a !ophobi/1 :om fai? 9 goodness r\ses to a fury ( contempt4 ,9 ord] to ha/5 ! deliv]ance ( ! _w1 he kills all consolation1 all hope1 & all illusion 9 ! g]m1 & sub/itutes = ! love ( humanity :i* inspir$ akyam\ni1 t ,mephi/ophelian gall :i* defiles1 )]s1 & corrodes ev]y?+ x t\*es4 ,evolutionism1 fatalism1 pessimism1 nihilism--h[ /range x is to see ?is desolate & t]rible doctr9e gr[+ & exp&+ at ! v mom5t :5 ! ,g]man nation is celebrat+ its greatness & its triumphs6 ,! contra/ is s />tl+ t x sets "o ?9k+4 ,?is orgie ( philosophic ?\ght1 id5tify+ error ) exi/5ce itself1 & develop+ ! axiom ( ,pr\dhon--8,evil is ,god10 w br+ back ! mass ( mank9d to ! ,*ri/ian !odicy1 :i* is nei!r optimi/ nor pessimi/1 b simply decl>es t ! felicity :i* ,*ri/ianity calls et]nal life is accessible to man4 ,self-mock]y1 />t+ f a horror ( /upidity & hypocrisy1 & /&+ 9 ! way ( all :ol5ess ( m9d & all true s]i\sness--?is is ! goal to :i* intellect br+s u at la/1 unless consci5ce cries out4 ,! m9d mu/ h = balla/ ! cle> conception ( duty1 if x is n to fluctuate betwe5 levity & despair4 99 99 99 99 99 ,be=e giv+ advice we mu/ h secur$ its acceptance1 or r1 h made x desir$4 99 99 99 99 99 ,if we beg9 by ov]rat+ ! be+ we love1 we %all end by treat+ x ) :olesale inju/ice4 99 99 99 99 99 ,x is dang]\s to ab&on "o's self to ! luxury ( grief2 x deprives "o ( c\rage1 & ev5 ( ! wi% = recov]y4 99 99 99 99 99 ,we le>n to recognize a m]e blunt+ ( ! consci5ce 9 t incapacity = indignation :i* is n to be conf\nd$ ) ! g5tl5ess ( *>ity1 or ! res]ve ( humility4 ,febru>y #g1 #ahgb4--,)\t fai? a man c d no?+4 ,b fai? c /ifle all sci5ce4 ,:at1 !n1 is ?is ,proteus1 & :5ce8 ,fai? is a c]titude )\t pro(s4 ,be+ a c]titude1 x is an en]getic pr9ciple ( action4 ,be+ )\t pro(1 x is ! contr>y ( sci5ce4 ,h5ce its two aspects & its two effects4 ,is its po9t ( dep>ture intellig5ce8 ,no4 ,?\ght may %ake or /r5g!n fai?2 x _c produce x4 ,is its orig9 9 ! w8 ,no2 good w may favor x1 ill-w may h9d] x1 b no "o believes by w1 & fai? is n a duty4 ,fai? is a s5tim5t1 = x is a hope2 x is an in/9ct1 = x prec$es all outw>d in/ruction4 ,fai? is ! h]itage ( ! individual at bir?2 x is t :i* b9ds him to ! :ole ( be+4 ,! individual only deta*es himself ) difficulty f ! mat]nal brea/2 he only isolates himself by an ef=t f ! nature ar\nd him1 f ! love :i* enwraps him1 ! ideas 9 :i* he floats1 ! cradle 9 :i* he lies4 ,he is born 9 union ) humanity1 ) ! _w1 & ) ,god4 ,! trace ( ?is orig9al union is fai?4 ,fai? is ! rem9isc5ce ( t vague ,ed5 :5ce our individuality issu$1 b :i* x inhabit$ 9 ! somnambuli/ /ate ant]ior to ! p]sonal life4 ,our individual life consi/s 9 sep>at+ ourselves f our milieu2 9 s react+ ^u x t we appreh5d x consci\sly1 & make ourselves spiritual p]sonalities--t is to say1 intellig5t & free4 ,our primitive fai? is no?+ m ?an ! neutral matt] :i* our exp]i5ce ( life & ?+s works up a fre%1 & :i* may be s affect$ by our /udies ( e k9d z to p]i% completely 9 its orig9al =m4 ,we ourselves may die be=e we h be5 able to recov] ! h>mony ( a p]sonal fai? :i* may satisfy our m9d & consci5ce z well z our he>ts4 ,b ! ne$ ( fai? nev] leaves u4 ,x is ! po/ulate ( a high] tru? :i* is to br+ all ?+s into h>mony4 ,x is ! /imulus ( rese>*2 x holds out to u ! rew>d1 x po9ts u to ! goal4 ,su* at lea/ is ! true1 ! excell5t fai?4 ,t :i* is a m]e prejudice ( *ildhood1 :i* has nev] kn[n d\bt1 :i* ignores sci5ce1 :i* _c respect or und]/& or tol]ate diff]5t convictions--su* a fai? is a /upidity & a hatr$1 ! "m ( all fanaticisms4 ,we may !n repeat ( fai? :at ,aesop said ( ! tongue-- 8,quid m$ius l+u1 l+u quid pejus eadem80 ,to draw ! poison-fangs ( fai? 9 ourselves1 we mu/ subord9ate x to ! love ( tru?4 ,! supreme wor%ip ( ! true is ! only means ( purification = all religions all confessions1 all sects4 ,fai? %\ld only be all[$ ! second place1 = fai? has a judge--9 tru?4 ,:5 %e exalts h]self to ! position ( supreme judge ! _w is enslav$3 ,*ri/ianity1 f ! f\r? to ! sev5te5? c5tury1 is ! pro( ( x444 ,w ! enlight5$ fai? ev] conqu] ! vulg> fai?8 ,we mu/ look =w>d 9 tru/ to a bett] future4 ,! difficulty1 h[ev]1 is ?is4 ,a n>r[ fai? has mu* m en]gy ?an an enlight5$ fai?2 ! _w belongs to w mu* m ?an to wisdom4 ,x is n !n c]ta9 t lib]ty w triumph ov] fanaticism2 & besides1 indep5d5t ?\ght w nev] h ! =ce ( prejudice4 ,! solution is to be f\nd 9 a division ( labor4 ,aft] ^? ^: bus9ess x w h be5 to hold up to ! _w ! ideal ( a pure & free fai?1 w come ! m5 ( viol5ce1 :o w br+ ! new cre$ )9 ! circle ( recogniz$ int]e/s1 prejudices1 & in/itutions4 ,is n ?is j :at happ5$ to ,*ri/ianity8 ,aft] ! g5tle ,ma/]1 ! impetu\s ,paul & ! bitt] ,c\ncils4 ,x is true t ?is is :at corrupt$ ! gospel4 ,b /ill ,*ri/ianity has done m good ?an h>m to humanity1 & s ! _w advances1 by ! successive decay ( gradually improv$ ideals4 ,june #ai1 #ahgb4--,! wrangle 9 ! ,p>is ,synod /ill goes on4 ,footnote3 ,a synod ( ! ,re=m$ *ur*es ( ,france 0 !n occupi$ 9 det]m9+ ! con/itu5t conditions ( ,prote/ant belief4 ,! sup]natural is ! /one ( /umbl+4 ,x might be possible to agree on ! idea ( ! div9e2 b no1 t is n ! "q--! *aff mu/ be sep>at$ f ! good gra94 ,! sup]natural is miracle1 & miracle is an objective ph5om5on indep5d5t ( all prec$+ casuality4 ,n[1 miracle ?us und]/ood _c be prov$ exp]im5tally2 & besides1 ! subjective ph5om5a1 f> m important ?an all ! re/1 are left out ( acc\nt 9 ! def9ition4 ,m5 w n see t miracle is a p]ception ( ! s\l2 a vision ( ! div9e beh9d nature2 a psy*ical crisis1 analog\s to t ( ,a5eas on ! la/ day ( ,troy1 :i* reveals to u ! heav5ly p[]s prompt+ & direct+ human action4 ,= ! indiff]5t !re are no miracles4 ,x is only ! religi\s s\ls :o are capable ( recogniz+ ! f+] ( ,god 9 c]ta9 giv5 facts4 ,! m9ds :i* h rea*$ ! doctr9e ( imman5ce are incompreh5sible to ! fanatics ( transc5d5ce4 ,!y w nev] und]/&--^! la/--t ! pan5!ism ( ,krause is t5 times m religi\s ?an _! dogmatic sup]naturalism4 ,_! passion = ! facts :i* are objective1 isolat$1 & pa/1 prev5ts !m f see+ ! facts :i* are et]nal & spiritual4 ,!y c only adore :at comes to !m f )\t4 ,z soon z _! dramaturgy is int]pret$ symbolically all seems to !m lo/4 ,!y mu/ h _! local prodigies--_! vani%$ unv]ifiable miracles1 because = !m ! div9e is !re & only !re4 ,?is fai? c h>dly fail to conqu] among ! races pl$g$ to ! ,c>tesian dualism1 :o call ! incompreh5sible cle>1 & abhor :at is pr(\nd4 ,wom5 also w always f9d local miracle m easy to und]/& ?an univ]sal miracle1 & ! visible objective int]v5tion ( ,god m probable ?an 8 psy*ological & inw>d action4 ,! ,lat9 _w by its m5tal =m is doom$ to petrify its ab/ractions1 & to rema9 =ev] outside ! inmo/ sanctu>y ( life1 t c5tral he>? :]e ideas are /ill undivid$1 )\t %ape or det]m9ation4 ,! ,lat9 m9d makes ev]y?+ objective1 because x rema9s outside ?+s1 & outside itself4 ,x is l ! eye :i* only p]ceives :at is ext]ior to x1 & :i* _c see itself except artificially1 & f a di/ance1 by means ( ! reflect+ surface ( a mirror4 ,augu/ #cj1 #ahgb4--;,a priori speculations we>y me n[ z mu* z anybody4 ,all ! diff]5t s*ola/icisms make me d\btful ( :at !y pr(ess to demon/rate1 because1 in/ead ( exam9+1 !y affirm f ! beg9n+4 ,_! object is to ?r[ up entr5*m5ts ar\nd a prejudice1 & n to discov] ! tru?4 ,!y accumulate t :i* d>k5s r ?an t :i* enlight5s4 ,!y are desc5d$1 all ( !m1 f ! ,ca?olic proc$ure1 :i* excludes comp>ison1 in=mation1 & previ\s exam9ation4 ,_! object is to trick m5 into ass5t1 to furni% fai? ) argum5ts1 & to suppress free inquiry4 ,b to p]suade me1 a man mu/ h no p>ti pris1 & mu/ beg9 ) %[+ a temp] ( critical s9c]ity2 he mu/ expla9 to me h[ ! matt] lies1 po9t out to me ! que/ions involv$ 9 x1 _! orig91 _! difficulties1 ! diff]5t solutions attempt$1 & _! degree ( probability4 ,he mu/ respect my reason1 my consci5ce1 & my lib]ty4 ,all s*ola/icism is an attempt to take by /orm2 ! au?ority pret5ds to expla9 itself1 b only pret5ds1 & its def]5ce is m]ely illusory4 ,! dice are load$ & ! premises are pre-judg$4 ,! unkn[n is tak5 z kn[n1 & all ! re/ is d$uc$ f x4 ,philosophy means ! complete lib]ty ( ! m9d1 & !re=e indep5d5ce ( all social1 political1 or religi\s prejudice4 ,x is to beg9 ) nei!r ,*ri/ian nor pagan1 nei!r mon>*ical nor democratic1 nei!r sociali/ nor individuali/2 x is critical & imp>tial2 x loves "o ?+ only--tru?4 ,if x di/urbs ! ready-made op9ions ( ! *ur* or ! /ate--( ! hi/orical m$ium--9 :i* ! philosoph] happ5s to h be5 born1 s mu* ! worse1 b !re is no help = x4 8,e/ ut e/ aut non e/10 ,philosophy means1 fir/1 d\bt2 & aft]w>d ! consci\sness ( :at k means1 ! consci\sness ( unc]ta9ty & ( ignorance1 ! consci\sness ( limit1 %ade1 degree1 possibility4 ,! ord9>y man d\bts no?+ & suspects no?+4 ,! philosoph] is m cauti\s1 b he is !reby unfitt$ = action1 because1 al?\gh he sees ! goal less dimly ?an o!rs1 he sees 8 own weakness too cle>ly1 & has no illusions z to 8 *ances ( rea*+ x4 ,! philosoph] is l a man fa/+ 9 ! mid/ ( univ]sal intoxication4 ,he alone p]ceives ! illusion ( :i* all creatures are ! will+ play?+s2 he is less dup$ ?an 8 neighbor by 8 own nature4 ,he judges m sanely1 he sees ?+s z !y are4 ,x is 9 ?is t 8 lib]ty consi/s--9 ! ability to see cle>ly & sob]ly1 9 ! p[] ( m5tal record4 ,philosophy has = its f\ndation critical lucidity4 ,! end & climax ( x w\ld be ! intuition ( ! univ]sal law1 ( ! fir/ pr9ciple & ! f9al aim ( ! univ]se4 ,n to be deceiv$ is its fir/ desire2 to und]/&1 its second4 ,emancipation f error is ! condition ( real k4 ,! philosoph] is a skeptic seek+ a plausible hypo!sis1 :i* may expla9 to him ! :ole ( 8 exp]i5ces4 ,:5 he imag9es t he has f\nd su* a key to life he (f]s x to1 b does n =ce x on 8 fell[ m54 ,octob] #i1 #ahgb4--;,i h be5 tak+ tea at ! ,m's4 ,^! ,engli% homes are v attractive4 ,!y are ! recomp5se & ! result ( a long-liv$ civilization1 & ( an ideal untir+ly pursu$4 ,:at ideal8 ,t ( a moral ord]1 f\nd$ on respect = self & = o!rs1 & on rev]5ce = duty--9 a ^w1 ^u p]sonal wor? & dignity4 ,! ma/] %[s consid]ation to 8 gue/s1 ! *ildr5 are def]5tial to _! p>5ts1 & e "o & ev]y?+ has its place4 ,!y und]/& bo? h[ to comm& & h[ to obey4 ,! little _w is well gov]n$1 & seems to g ( itself2 duty is ! g5ius loci--b duty t+$ ) a res]ve & self-control :i* is ! ,engli% *>act]i/ic4 ,! *ildr5 are ! great te/ ( ?is dome/ic sy/em2 !y are happy1 smil+1 tru/ful1 & yet no tr\ble4 ,"o feels t !y "k !mselves to be lov$1 b t !y "k also t !y mu/ obey4 ,our *ildr5 behave l ma/]s ( ! h\se1 & :5 any def9ite ord] comes to limit _! encroa*m5ts !y see 9 x an abuse ( p[]1 an arbitr>y act4 ,:y8 ,because x is _! pr9ciple to believe t ev]y?+ turns r\nd !m4 ,our *ildr5 may be g5tle & affectionate1 b !y are n grateful1 & !y "k no?+ ( self-control4 ,h[ d ,engli% mo!rs atta9 ?is result8 ,by a rule :i* is imp]sonal1 inv>iable1 & firm2 9 o!r words1 by law1 :i* =ms man = lib]ty1 :ile arbitr>y decree only leads to rebellion & attempts at emancipation4 ,?is me?od has ! imm5se advantage ( =m+ *>act]s :i* are re/ive "u arbitr>y au?ority1 & yet am5able to ju/ice1 consci\s ( :at is due to !m & :at !y owe to o!rs1 wat*ful ov] consci5ce1 & practic$ 9 self-gov]nm5t4 ,9 e ,engli% *ild "o feels some?+ ( ! national motto--8,god & my "r10 & 9 e ,engli% h\sehold "o has a s5se t ! home is a citadel1 or bett] /ill1 a %ip 9 :i* e "o has 8 place4 ,naturally 9 su* a _w ! value set on family life corresponds ) ! co/ ( produc+ x2 x is sweet to ^? ^: ef=ts ma9ta9 x4 ,octob] #ad1 #ahgb4--,! man :o gives himself to contemplation looks on at1 r ?an directs 8 life1 is r a spectator ?an an actor1 seeks r to und]/& ?an to a*ieve4 ,is ?is mode ( exi/5ce illegitimate1 immoral8 ,is "o b\nd to act8 ,is su* deta*m5t an idiosyncrasy to be respect$ or a s9 to be f\ght aga9/8 ,i h always hesitat$ on ?is po9t1 & ,i h wa/$ ye>s 9 futile self-reproa* & useless fits ( activity4 ,my we/]n consci5ce1 p5etrat$ z x is ) ,*ri/ian morality1 has always p]secut$ my ori5tal quietism & ,buddhi/ t5d5cies4 ,i h n d>$ to approve myself1 ,i h n kn[n h[ to correct myself4 ,9 ?is1 z 9 all else1 ,i h rema9$ divid$1 & p]plex$1 wav]+ betwe5 two extremes4 ,s equilibrium is someh[ pres]v$1 b ! cry/allization ( action or ?\ght becomes impossible4 ,hav+ e>ly a glimpse ( ! absolute1 ,i h nev] _h ! indiscreet effront]y ( individualism4 ,:at "r h ,i to make a m]it ( a defect8 ,i h nev] be5 able to see any necessity = impos+ myself ^u o!rs1 nor = succe$+4 ,i h se5 no?+ cle>ly except my own defici5cies & ! sup]iority ( o!rs4 ,t is n ! way to make a c>e]4 ,) v>i$ aptitudes & a fair intellig5ce1 ,i _h no dom9ant t5d5cy1 no imp]i\s faculty1 s t :ile by virtue ( capacity ,i felt myself free1 yet :5 free ,i c\ld n discov] :at 0 be/4 ,equilibrium produc$ indecision1 & indecision has r5d]$ all my faculties b>r54 ,novemb] #h1 #ahgb4 7,friday74--,i h be5 turn+ ov] ! 8,/oics0 aga94 ,poor ,l\isa ,sief]t6 ,footnote3 ,l\ise ,sief]t1 a mod]n ,fr5* poetess1 di$ #ahgi4 ,9 addition to 8,les ,/oques10 %e publi%$ 8,l',anne ,rpublica9e10 ,p>is #ahfi1 & o!r works4 ,ah6 we play ! /oic1 & all ! :ile ! poison$ arr[ 9 ! side pi]ces & w\nds1 le?alis arundo4 ,:at is x t1 l all passionate s\ls1 %e really craves =8 ,two ?+s :i* are contradictory--glory & happ9ess4 ,%e adores two incompatibles--! ,re=mation & ! ,revolution1 ,france & ! contr>y ( ,france2 h] tal5t itself is a comb9ation ( two oppos+ qualities1 inw>dness & brilliancy1 noisy display & lyrical *>m4 ,%e dislocates ! rhy?m ( h] v]se1 :ile at ! same "t %e has a s5sitive e> = rhyme4 ,%e is always wav]+ betwe5 ,valmore & ,baudelaire1 betwe5 ,leconte de ,lisle & ,sa9te-,beuve--t is to say1 h] ta/e is a br++ toge!r ( extremes4 ,%e h]self has describ$ x3 8,t\j\rs extrme en mes dsirs1 ,jadis1 enfant joyeuse et folle1 ,s\v5t une seule p>ole ,b\lev]sait t\s mes plaisirs40 ,b :at a f9e in/rum5t %e possesses6 :at /r5g? ( s\l6 :at weal? ( imag9ation6 ,decemb] #c1 #ahgb4--,:at a /range dream6 ,i 0 "u an illusion & yet n "u x2 ,i 0 play+ a com$y to myself1 deceiv+ my imag9ation )\t be+ able to deceive my consci\sness4 ,?is p[] :i* dreams h ( fus+ incompatibles toge!r1 ( unit+ :at is exclusive1 ( id5tify+ yes & no1 is :at is mo/ wond]ful & mo/ symbolical 9 !m4 ,9 a dream our individuality is n %ut up )9 itself2 x envelops1 s to speak1 its surr\nd+s2 x is ! l&scape1 & all t x conta9s1 ourselves includ$4 ,b if our imag9ation is n our own1 if x is imp]sonal1 !n p]sonality is b a special & limit$ case ( its g5]al functions4 ,a =tiori x w\ld be ! same = ?\ght4 ,& if s1 ?\ght might exi/ )\t possess+ itself individually1 )\t embody+ itself 9 an ego4 ,9 o!r words1 dreams lead u to ! idea ( an imag9ation enfran*is$ f ! limits ( p]sonality1 & ev5 ( a ?\ght :i* %\ld be no long] consci\s4 ,! individual :o dreams is on ! way to become dissolv$ 9 ! univ]sal phantasmagoria ( ,maa4 ,dreams are excursions into ! limbo ( ?+s1 a semi-deliv]ance f ! human prison4 ,! man :o dreams is b ! locale ( v>i\s ph5om5a ( :i* he is ! spectator 9 spite ( himself2 he is passive & imp]sonal2 he is ! play?+ ( unkn[n vibrations & invisible sprites4 ,! man :o %\ld nev] issue f ! /ate ( dream w\ld h nev] atta9$ humanity1 prop]ly s call$1 b ! man :o _h nev] dream$ w\ld only "k ! m9d 9 its complet$ or manufactur$ /ate1 & w\ld n be able to und]/& ! g5esis ( p]sonality2 he w\ld be l a cry/al1 incapable ( guess+ :at cry/allization means4 ,s t ! wak+ life issues f ! dream life1 z dreams are an emanation f ! n]v\s life1 & ?is aga9 is ! f9e fl[] ( organic life4 ,?\ght is ! highe/ po9t ( a s]ies ( asc5d+ metamorphoses1 :i* is call$ nature4 ,p]sonality by means ( ?\ght1 recov]s 9 inw>d pr(undity :at x has lo/ 9 ext5sion1 & makes up = ! ri* accumulations ( receptive passivity by ! enorm\s privilege ( t empire ov] self :i* is call$ lib]ty4 ,dreams1 by confus+ & suppress+ all limits1 make u feel1 inde$1 ! sev]ity ( ! conditions atta*$ to ! high] exi/5ce2 b consci\s & volunt>y ?\ght alone br+s k & all[s u to act--t is to say1 is alone capable ( sci5ce & ( p]fection4 ,let u !n take pleasure 9 dream+ = reasons ( psy*ological curiosity & m5tal recreation2 b let u nev] speak ill ( ?\ght1 :i* is our /r5g? & our dignity4 ,let u beg9 z ,ori5tals1 & end z ,we/]ns1 = ^! are ! two halves ( wisdom4 ,decemb] #aa1 #ahgb4--;,a deep & dreamless sleep & n[ ,i wake up to ! gray1 l[]+1 ra9y sky1 :i* has kept u company = s long4 ,! air is mild1 ! g5]al outlook depress+4 ,i ?9k t x is p>tly ! fault ( my w9d[s1 :i* are n v clean1 & contribute by _! dimness to ?is gloomy aspect ( ! out] _w4 ,ra9 & smoke h besme>$ !m4 ,betwe5 u & ?+s h[ _m scre5s !re are6 ,mood1 heal?1 ! tissues ( ! eye1 ! w9d[-panes ( our cell1 mi/1 smoke1 ra91 du/1 & light itself--& all inf9itely v>iable6 ,h]aclitus said3 8,no man ba!s twice 9 ! same riv]40 ,i feel incl9$ to say2 ,no "o sees ! same l&scape twice ov]1 = a w9d[ is "o kaleidoscope1 & ! spectator ano!r4 ,:at is madness8 ,illusion1 rais$ to ! second p[]4 ,a s\nd m9d e/abli%es regul> relations1 a modus viv5di1 betwe5 ?+s1 m51 & itself1 & x is "u ! delusion t x has got hold ( /able tru? & et]nal fact4 ,madness does n ev5 see :at sanity sees1 deceiv+ itself all ! :ile by ! belief t x sees bett] ?an sanity4 ,! sane m9d or common s5se conf\nds ! fact ( exp]i5ce ) necess>y fact1 & assumes 9 good fai? t :at is1 is ! measure ( :at may be2 :ile madness _c p]ceive any diff]5ce betwe5 :at is & :at x imag9es--x conf\nds its dreams ) reality4 ,wisdom consi/s 9 ris+ sup]ior bo? to madness & to common s5se1 & 9 l5d+ "o's self to ! univ]sal illusion )\t becom+ its dupe4 ,x is be/1 on ! :ole1 = a man ( ta/e :o kn[s h[ to be gay ) ! gay1 & s]i\s ) ! s]i\s1 to ent] into ! game ( ,maa1 & to play 8 "p ) a good grace 9 ! fanta/ic tragi-com$y :i* is call$ ! ,univ]se4 ,x seems to me t "h intellectualism rea*es its limit4 ,footnote3 8,we all believe 9 duty10 says ,m4 ,r5an1 8& 9 ! triumph ( righte\sness20 b x is possible not)/&+1 8que t\t le contraire soit vrai--et que le monde ne soit qu'une amusante ferie dont aucun dieu ne se s\cie4 ,il faut donc n\s arrang] de mani]e ceque1 dans le cas o le seconde hypo?se s]ait la vraie1 n\s n'ayons pas t trop dups40 ,?is /ra9 ( rem>k1 :i* is develop$ at consid]able l5g?1 is meant z a criticism ( ,amiel's want ( s5sitiv5ess to ! irony ( ?+s4 ,b 9 reality1 z ! passage 9 ! text %[s1 ,m4 ,r5an is only express+ a feel+ ) :i* ,amiel 0 j z famili> z 8 critic4 ,only he is deliv]$ f ?is la/ d\bt ( all by 8 habitual s]i\sness2 by t s5se ( 8horror & awe0 :i* ,m4 ,r5an puts away f him4 ,consci5ce saves him 8f ! sorc]ies ( ,maa40 ,! m9d1 9 its intellectual capacity1 arrives at ! intuition t all reality is b ! dream ( a dream4 ,:at deliv]s u f ! palace ( dreams is pa91 p]sonal pa92 x is also ! s5se ( obligation1 or t :i* comb9es ! two1 ! pa9 ( s92 & aga9 x is love2 9 %ort1 ! moral ord]4 ,:at saves u f ! sorc]ies ( ,maa is consci5ce2 consci5ce dissipates ! n>cotic vapors1 ! opium-l halluc9ations1 ! placid /upor ( contemplative indiff]5ce4 ,x drives u into contact ) ! t]rible :eels )9 :eels ( human suff]+ & human responsibility2 x is ! bugle-call1 ! cockcr[1 :i* puts ! phantoms to flight2 x is ! arm$ ar*angel :o *ases man f an artificial p>adise4 ,intellectualism may be describ$ z an intoxication consci\s ( itself2 ! moral en]gy :i* replaces x1 on ! o!r h&1 repres5ts a /ate ( fa/1 a fam9e & a sleepless ?ir/4 ,alas6 ,alas6 ,^? :o h ! mo/ frivol\s idea ( s9 are j ^? :o suppose t !re is a fix$ gulf betwe5 good p & o!rs4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! ideal :i* ! wife & "m makes = h]self1 ! mann] 9 :i* %e und]/&s duty & life1 conta9 ! fate ( ! community4 ,h] fai? becomes ! /> ( ! conjugal %ip1 & h] love ! animat+ pr9ciple t fa%ions ! future ( all belong+ to h]4 ,woman is ! salvation or de/ruction ( ! family4 ,%e c>ries its de/9ies 9 ! folds ( h] mantle4 99 99 99 99 99 ,p]haps x is n desirable t a woman %\ld be free 9 m9d2 %e w\ld imm$iately abuse h] fre$om4 ,%e _c become philosophical )\t los+ h] special gift1 :i* is ! wor%ip ( all t is individual1 ! def5se ( usage1 mann]s1 beliefs1 traditions4 ,h] rle is to slack5 ! combu/ion ( ?\ght4 ,x is analog\s to t ( azote 9 vital air4 99 99 99 99 99 ,9 e lov+ woman !re is a prie/ess ( ! pa/--a pi\s gu>dian ( "s affection1 ( :i* ! object has disappe>$4 ,janu>y #f1 #ahgc4--;,i h be5 read+ ! sev5 trag$ies ( ,aes*ylus1 9 ! translation ( ,leconte de ,lisle4 ,! 8,prome!us0 & ! 8,eum5ides0 are greate/ :]e all is great2 !y h ! sublimity ( ! old prophets4 ,bo? depict a religi\s revolution--a pr(\nd crisis 9 ! life ( humanity4 ,9 8,prome!us0 x is civilization wr5*$ f ! jeal\s h&s ( ! gods2 9 ! 8,eum5ides0 x is ! trans=mation ( ! idea ( ju/ice1 & ! sub/itution ( atonem5t & p>don = ! law ( implacable rev5ge4 8,prome!us0 %[s u ! m>tyrdom :i* waits = all ! saviors ( m52 ! 8,eum5ides0 is ! glorification ( ,a!ns & ! ,areopagus--t is to say1 ( a truly human civilization4 ,h[ magnific5t x is z poetry1 & h[ small ! adv5tures ( individual passion seem beside ?is colossal type ( trag$y1 ( :i* ! !me is ! de/9ies ( nations6 ,m>* #ca1 #ahgc4 7#d ,p4 ,m47-- 8,en quel songe ,se plonge ,mon coeur1 et que veut-il80 ,= an h\r pa/ ,i h be5 ! prey ( a vague anxiety2 ,i recognize my old enemy4444 ,x is a s5se ( void & angui%2 a s5se ( some?+ lack+3 :at8 ,love1 peace--,god p]haps4 ,! feel+ is "o ( pure want unmix$ ) hope1 & !re is angui% 9 x because ,i c cle>ly di/+ui% nei!r ! evil nor its rem$y4 8,o pr9temps sans piti1 dans l'me endolorie1 ,avec tes *ants d'oiseaux1 tes brises1 ton azur1 ,tu creuses s\rdem5t1 conspirateur obscur1 ,le g\ffre des langueurs et de la rv]ie40 ,( all ! h\rs ( ! day1 9 f9e wea!r1 ! aft]noon1 ab\t #c o'clock1 is ! "t :i* to me is mo/ difficult to be>4 ,i nev] feel m /rongly ?an ,i d !n1 8le vide effrayant de la vie10 ! /ress ( m5tal anxiety1 or ! pa9ful ?ir/ = happ9ess4 ,?is torture born ( ! sunlight is a /range ph5om5on4 ,is x t ! sun1 j z x br+s out ! /a9 ^u a g>m5t1 ! wr9kles 9 a face1 or ! discoloration ( ! hair1 s also x illum9es ) inexorable di/9ctness ! sc>s & r5ts ( ! he>t8 ,does x r\se 9 u a sort ( %ame ( exi/5ce8 ,9 any case ! bright h\rs ( ! day are capable ( flood+ ! :ole s\l ) melan*oly1 ( k9dl+ 9 u ! passion = dea?1 or suicide1 or annihilation1 or ( driv+ u to t :i* is next ak9 to dea?1 ! dead5+ ( ! s5ses by ! pursuit ( pleasure4 ,!y r\se 9 ! lonely man a horror ( himself2 !y make him long to escape f 8 own mis]y & solitude-- 8,le coeur tremp sept fois dans le nant div940 ,p talk ( ! temptations to crime connect$ ) d>kness1 b ! dumb s5se ( desolation :i* is (t5 ! product ( ! mo/ brilliant mom5t ( daylight mu/ n be =gott5 ei!r4 ,f ! "o1 z f ! o!r1 ,god is abs5t2 b 9 ! fir/ case a man foll[s 8 s5ses & ! cry ( 8 passion2 9 ! second1 he feels himself lo/ & bewild]$1 a creature =sak5 by all ! _w4 8,en n\s sont deux in/9cts qui brav5t la raison1 ,c'e/ l'effroi du bonheur et la soif du poison4 ,coeur solitaire1 toi pr5ds g>de60 ,april #c1 #ahgc4--;,i h be5 to see my fri5ds ----4 ,_! niece has j arriv$ ) two ( h] *ildr51 & ! conv]sation turn$ on ,fa!r ,hyac9!'s lecture4 ,wom5 ( an en?usia/ic temp]am5t h a curi\s way ( speak+ ( extempore prea*]s & orators4 ,!y imag9e t inspiration radiates f a cr[d z su*1 & t inspiration is all t is want$4 ,c\ld !re be a m naf & *ildi% explanation ( :at is really a lecture 9 :i* no?+ has be5 left to accid5t1 nei!r ! plan1 nor ! metaphors1 nor ev5 ! l5g? ( ! :ole1 & :]e ev]y?+ has be5 prep>$ ) ! greate/ c>e6 ,b wom51 9 _! love ( :at is m>vel\s & miracul\s1 pref] to ignore all ?is4 ,! m$itation1 ! labor1 ! calculation ( effects1 ! art1 9 a ^w1 :i* h gone to ! mak+ ( x1 dim9i%es = !m ! value ( ! ?+1 & !y pref] to believe x fall5 f heav51 or s5t d[n f on high4 ,!y ask = bread1 b _c be> ! idea ( a bak]4 ,! sex is sup]/iti\s1 & hates to und]/& :at x wi%es to admire4 ,x w\ld vex x to be =c$ to give ! small] %>e to feel+1 & ! l>g] %>e to ?\ght4 ,x wi%es to believe t imag9ation c d ! "w ( reason1 & feel+ ! "w ( sci5ce1 & x nev] asks itself h[ x is t wom51 s ri* 9 he>t & imag9ation1 h nev] di/+ui%$ !mselves z orators--t is to say1 h nev] kn[n h[ to comb9e a multitude ( facts1 ideas1 & impulses1 into "o complex unity4 ,en?usia/ic wom5 nev] ev5 suspect ! diff]5ce t !re is betwe5 ! excitem5t ( a popul> h>angue1 :i* is no?+ b a m]e passionate outbur/1 & ! unfold+ ( a didactic process1 ! aim ( :i* is to prove some?+ & to conv9ce its he>]s4 ,!re=e1 = !m1 /udy1 reflection1 te*nique1 c\nt z no?+2 ! improvisatore m\nts ^u ! tripod1 ,pallas all arm$ issues f 8 lips1 & conqu]s ! applause ( ! dazzl$ assembly4 ,evid5tly wom5 divide orators into two gr\ps2 ! artisans ( spee*1 :o manufacture _! labori\s disc\rses by ! aid ( ! midnight lamp1 & ! inspir$ s\ls1 :o simply give !mselves ! tr\ble to be born4 ,!y w nev] und]/& ! say+ ( ,qu9tilian1 8,fit orator1 nascitur poeta40 ,! en?usiasm :i* acts is p]haps an enlight5+ =ce1 b ! en?usiasm :i* accepts is v l bl9dness4 ,= ?is latt] en?usiasm confuses ! value ( ?+s1 ignores _! %ades ( diff]5ce1 & is an ob/acle to all s5sible criticism & all calm judgm5t4 ,! 8,ewig-,weibli*e0 favors exagg]ation1 my/icism1 s5tim5talism--all t excites & />tles4 ,x is ! enemy ( cle>ness1 ( a calm & rational view ( ?+s1 ! antipodes ( criticism & ( sci5ce4 ,i h _h only too mu* sympa?y & weakness = ! fem99e nature4 ,! v excess ( my =m] indulg5ce t[>d x makes me n[ m consci\s ( its infirmity4 ,ju/ice & sci5ce1 law & reason1 are virile ?+s1 & !y come be=e imag9ation1 feel+1 rev]ie1 & fancy4 ,:5 "o reflects t ,ca?olic sup]/ition is ma9ta9$ by wom51 "o feels h[ ne$ful x is n to h& ov] ! re9s to ! 8,et]nal ,womanly40 ,may #bc1 #ahgc4--,! fundam5tal error ( ,france lies 9 h] psy*ology4 ,france has always believ$ t to say a ?+ is ! same z to d x1 z ?\gh spee* 7 action1 z ?\gh rhetoric 7 capable ( modify+ ! t5d5cies1 habits1 & "* ( real be+s1 & z ?\gh v]biage 7 an effici5t sub/itute = w1 consci5ce1 & education4 ,france proce$s by bur/s ( eloqu5ce1 ( cannonad+1 or ( law-mak+2 %e ?9ks t s %e c *ange ! nature ( ?+s2 & %e produces only phrases & ru9s4 ,%e has nev] und]/ood ! fir/ l9e ( ,montesquieu3 8,laws are necess>y relations1 d]iv$ f ! nature ( ?+s40 ,%e w n see t h] incapacity to organize lib]ty comes f h] own nature2 f ! notions :i* %e has ( ! individual1 ( society1 ( religion1 ( law1 ( duty--f ! mann] 9 :i* %e br+s up *ildr54 ,h] way is to plant trees d[nw>d1 & !n %e is a/oni%$ at ! result6 ,univ]sal suffrage1 ) a bad religion & a bad popul> education1 means p]petual wav]+ betwe5 an>*y & dictator%ip1 betwe5 ! r$ & ! black1 betwe5 ,danton & ,loyola4 ,h[ _m scapegoats w ,prance sacrifice be=e x occurs to h] to beat h] own brea/ 9 p5it5ce8 ,augu/ #ah1 #ahgc4 7,s*ev5+574--,ye/]day1 ,sunday1 ! l&scape 0 cle> & di/9ct1 ! air brac+1 ! sea bright & gleam+1 & ( an a%y-blue color4 ,!re 7 beautiful effects ( bea*1 sea1 & di/ance2 & dazzl+ tracks ( gold ^u ! waves1 aft] ! sun _h sunk bel[ ! b&s ( vapor drawn across ! middle sky1 & be=e x _h disappe>$ 9 ! mi/s ( ! sea horizon4 ,! place 0 v full4 ,all ,s*ev5+5 & ! ,hague1 ! village & ! capital1 _h /ream$ out on to ! t]race1 amus+ !mselves at innum]able tables1 & swamp+ ! /rang]s & ! ba!rs4 ,! or*e/ra play$ "s ,wagn]1 "s ,aub]1 & "s waltzes4 ,:at 0 all ! _w do+8 ,simply enjoy+ life4 ,a ?\s& ?\ghts w&]$ ?r\gh my bra94 ,i ?\ght h[ mu* hi/ory x _h tak5 to make :at ,i saw possible2 ,judaea1 ,egypt1 ,greece1 ,g]many1 ,gaul2 all ! c5turies f ,moses to ,napoleon1 & all ! zones f ,batavia to ,guiana1 _h unit$ 9 ! =mation ( ?is ga!r+4 ,! indu/ry1 ! sci5ce1 ! art1 ! geography1 ! comm]ce1 ! religion ( ! :ole human race1 are repeat$ 9 e human comb9ation2 & :at we see be=e our own eyes at any giv5 mom5t is inexplicable )\t ref]5ce to all t has ev] be54 ,?is int]lac+ ( ! t5 ?\s& ?reads :i* necessity weaves into ! production ( "o s+le ph5om5on is a /upefy+ ?\ght4 ,"o feels "o's self 9 ! pres5ce ( law itself--all[$ a glimpse ( ! my/]i\s work%op ( nature4 ,! ephem]al p]ceives ! et]nal4 ,:at matt]s ! brevity ( ! individual span1 see+ t ! g5]ations1 ! c5turies1 & ! worlds !mselves are b occupi$ =ev] ) ! ceaseless reproduction ( ! hymn ( life1 9 all ! hundr$ ?\s& modes & v>iations :i* make up ! univ]sal symphony8 ,! motive is always ! same2 ! monad has b "o law3 all tru?s are b ! v>iation ( "o s+le tru?4 ,! univ]se repres5ts ! inf9ite weal? ( ! ,_s seek+ 9 va9 to exhau/ all possibilities1 & ! goodness ( ! ,creator1 :o w\ld fa9 %>e ) ! creat$ all t sleeps )9 ! limbo ( ,omnipot5ce4 ,to contemplate & adore1 to receive & give back1 to h utt]$ "o's note & mov$ "o's gra9 ( s&1 is all :i* is expect$ f su* insects z we are2 x is en\gh to give motive & mean+ to our fugitive app>ition 9 exi/5ce4444 ,aft] ! conc]t 0 ov] ! pav$ esplanade beh9d ! hotels & ! two roads lead+ to ! ,hague 7 alive ) p4 ,"o might h fanci$ "o's self ^u "o ( ! great ,p>isian b\lev>ds j :5 ! !at]s are empty+ !mselves--!re 7 s _m c>riages1 omnibuses1 & cabs4 ,!n1 :5 ! human tumult _h disappe>$1 ! peace ( ! />ry heav5 %one out respl5d5t1 & ! dreamy glimm] ( ! ,milky ,way 0 only answ]$ by ! di/ant murmur ( ! ocean4 ,lat]4--,:at is x :i* has always come betwe5 real life & me8 ,:at glass scre5 has1 z x 71 int]pos$ itself betwe5 me & ! enjoym5t1 ! possession1 ! contact ( ?+s1 leav+ me only ! role ( ! look]-on8 ,false %ame1 no d\bt4 ,i h be5 a%am$ to desire4 ,fatal result ( timidity1 aggravat$ by intellectual delusion6 ,?is r5unciation be=eh& ( all natural ambitions1 ?is sy/ematic putt+ aside ( all long+s & all desires1 has p]haps be5 false 9 idea2 x has be5 too l a fooli%1 self-inflict$ mutilation4 ,fe>1 too1 has _h a l>ge %>e 9 x-- 8,la peur de ce que j'aime e/ ma fatalit40 ,i v soon discov]$ t x 0 simpl] = me to give up a wi% ?an to satisfy x4 ,n be+ able to obta9 all t my nature long$ =1 ,i r5\nc$ ! :ole en bloc1 )\t ev5 tak+ ! tr\ble to det]m9e 9 detail :at might h attract$ me2 = :at 0 ! good ( /irr+ up tr\ble 9 "o's self & evok+ images ( inaccessible treasure8 ,?us ,i anticipat$ 9 _s all possible disillusions1 9 ! true /oical fa%ion4 ,only1 ) s+ul> lack ( logic1 ,i h sometimes all[$ regret to ov]take me1 & ,i h look$ at conduct f\nd$ ^u exceptional pr9ciples ) ! eyes ( ! ord9>y man4 ,i %\ld h be5 ascetic to ! end2 contemplation ought to h be5 en\gh = me1 especially n[1 :5 ! hair beg9s to :it54 ,b1 aft] all1 ,i am a man1 & n a !orem4 ,a sy/em _c suff]1 b ,i suff]4 ,logic makes only "o dem&--t ( consequ5ce2 b life makes a ?\s&2 ! body wants heal?1 ! imag9ation cries out = beauty1 & ! he>t = love2 pride asks = consid]ation1 ! s\l ye>ns = peace1 ! consci5ce = hol9ess2 our :ole be+ is a?ir/ = happ9ess & = p]fection2 & we1 tott]+1 mutilat$1 & incomplete1 _c always feign philosophic ins5sibility2 we /ret* out our arms t[>d life1 & we say to x "u our brea?1 8,:y--:y--ha/ ?\ deceiv$ me80 ,augu/ #ai1ahgc4 7,s*ev5+574--,i h _h a morn+ walk4 ,x has be5 ra9+ 9 ! night4 ,!re are l>ge cl\ds all r\nd2 ! sea1 ve9$ ) gre5 & drab1 has put on ! s]i\s air ( labor4 ,%e is ab\t h] bus9ess1 9 no ?reat5+ b at ! same "t 9 no l+]+ mood4 ,%e is mak+ h] cl\ds1 heap+ up h] s&s1 visit+ h] %ores & ba?+ !m ) foam1 ga!r+ up h] floods = ! tide1 c>ry+ ! %ips to _! de/9ations1 & fe$+ ! univ]sal life4 ,i f\nd 9 a hidd5 nook a %eet ( f9e s& :i* ! wat] _h furr[$ & fold$ l ! p9k palate ( a kitt5's m\?1 or l a dappl$ sky4 ,ev]y?+ repeats itself by analogy1 & ea* little fraction ( ! e>? reproduces 9 a small] & individual =m all ! ph5om5a ( ! planet4 ,f>!r on ,i came across a bank ( crumbl+ %ells1 & x 0 borne 9 ^u me t ! sea-s& itself might well be only ! detritus ( ! organic life ( prec$+ eras1 a va/ monum5t or pyramid ( immemorial age1 built up by c\ntless g5]ations ( molluscs :o h labor$ at ! ar*itecture ( ! %ores l good workm5 ( ,god4 ,if ! dunes & ! m\nta9s are ! du/ ( liv+ creatures :o h prec$$ u1 h[ c we d\bt b t our dea? w be z s]viceable z our life1 & t no?+ :i* has be5 l5t is lo/8 ,mutual borr[+ & tempor>y s]vice seem to be ! law ( exi/5ce4 ,only1 ! /rong prey ^u & dev\r ! weak1 & ! concrete inequality ( lots )9 ! ab/ract equality ( de/9ies w\nds & disquiets ! s5se ( ju/ice4 ,same day4--,a new _s gov]ns & inspires ! g5]ation :i* w succe$ me4 ,x is a s+ul> s5sation to feel ! grass gr[+ "u "o's feet1 to see "o's self intellectually uproot$4 ,"o mu/ address "o's contempor>ies4 ,y\ng] m5 w n li/5 to y4 ,?\ght1 l love1 w n tol]ate a gray hair4 ,k h]self loves ! "y1 z ,=tune us$ to d 9 old5 days4 ,contempor>y civilization does n "k :at to d ) old age2 9 proportion z x defies physical exp]im5t1 x despises moral exp]i5ce4 ,"o sees !re9 ! triumph ( ,d>w9ism2 x is a /ate ( w>1 & w> mu/ h "y soldi]s2 x c only put up ) age 9 its lead]s :5 !y h ! /r5g? & ! mettle ( vet]ans4 ,9 po9t ( fact1 "o mu/ ei!r be /rong or disappe>1 ei!r con/antly rejuv5ate "o's self or p]i%4 ,x is z ?\gh ! humanity ( our day _h1 l ! migratory birds1 an imm5se voyage to make across space2 %e c no long] support ! weak or help on ! lagg>ds4 ,! great assault ^u ! future makes h] h>d & pitiless to all :o fall by ! way4 ,h] motto is1 8,! devil take ! h9dmo/40 ,! wor%ip ( /r5g? has nev] lack$ alt>s1 b x looks z ?\gh ! m we talk ( ju/ice & humanity1 ! m t o!r god sees 8 k+dom wid54 ,augu/ #bj1 #ahgc4 7,s*ev5+574--,i h n[ wat*$ ! sea :i* beats ^u ?is %ore "u _m diff]5t aspects4 ,on ! :ole1 ,i %\ld class x ) ! ,baltic4 ,z f> z color1 effect1 & l&scape g1 x is widely diff]5t f ! ,breton or ,basque ocean1 &1 above all1 f ! ,m$it]ranean4 ,x nev] atta9s to ! blue-gre5 ( ! ,atlantic1 nor ! indigo ( ! ,ionian ,sea4 ,its scale ( color runs f fl9t to em]ald1 & :5 x turns to blue1 ! blue is a turquoise %ade spla%$ ) gray4 ,! sea "h is n amus+ itself2 x has a busy & s]i\s air1 l an ,engli%man or a ,dut*man4 ,nei!r polyps nor jelly-fi%1 nei!r sea-we$ nor crabs enliv5 ! s&s at l[ wat]2 ! sea life is poor & meagre4 ,:at is wond]ful is ! /ruggle ( man aga9/ a mis]ly & =midable p[]4 ,nature has done little = him1 b %e all[s h]self to be manag$4 ,/epmo!r ?\gh %e be1 %e is accommodat+1 subject to ! occasional de/ruction ( a hundr$ ?\s& lives 9 a s+le inundation4 ,! air inside ! dune is altoge!r diff]5t f t outside x4 ,! air ( ! sea is life-giv+1 brac+1 oxydiz$2 ! air inl& is s(t1 relax+1 & w>m4 ,9 ! same way !re are two ,holl&s 9 e ,dut*man3 !re is ! man ( ! pold]1 heavy1 pale1 phlegmatic1 sl[1 pati5t himself1 & try+ to ! pati5ce ( o!rs1 & !re is ! man ( ! dune1 ( ! h>bor1 ! %ore1 ! sea1 :o is t5aci\s1 season$1 p]sev]+1 sunburn$1 d>+4 ,:]e ! two agree is 9 calculat+ prud5ce1 & 9 me?odical p]si/5cy ( ef=t4 ,augu/ #bb1 #ahgc4 7,s*ev5+574--,! wea!r is ra9y1 ! :ole atmosph]e gray2 x is a "t favorable to ?\ght & m$itation4 ,i h a lik+ = su* days z ^!2 !y revive "o's conv]se ) "o's self & make x possible to live ! inn] life2 !y are quiet & peaceful1 l a song 9 a m9or key4 ,we are no?+ b ?\ght1 b we feel our life to its v c5t]4 ,our v s5sations turn to rev]ie4 ,x is a /range /ate ( m9d2 x is l ^? sil5ces 9 wor%ip :i* are n ! empty mom5ts ( devotion1 b ! full mom5ts1 & :i* are s because at su* times ! s\l1 in/ead ( be+ pol>iz$1 disp]s$1 localiz$1 9 a s+le impression or ?\ght1 feels h] own totality & is consci\s ( h]self4 ,%e ta/es h] own sub/ance4 ,%e is no long] play$ ^u1 color$1 set 9 motion1 affect$1 f )\t2 %e is 9 equilibrium & at re/4 ,op5ness & self-surr5d] become possible to h]2 %e contemplates & %e adores4 ,%e sees ! *angeless & ! et]nal enwrapp+ all ! ph5om5a ( "t4 ,%e is 9 ! religi\s /ate1 9 h>mony ) ! g5]al ord]1 or at lea/ 9 intellectual h>mony4 ,= hol9ess1 inde$1 m is want$--a h>mony ( w1 a p]fect self-devotion1 dea? to self & absolute submission4 ,psy*ological peace--t h>mony :i* is p]fect b virtual--is b ! z]o1 ! pot5tiality ( all numb]s2 x is n t moral peace :i* is victori\s ov] all ills1 :i* is real1 positive1 tri$ by exp]i5ce1 & able to face :atev] fre% /orms may assail x4 ,! peace ( fact is n ! peace ( pr9ciple4 ,!re are inde$ two happ9esses1 t ( nature & t ( conque/--two equilibria1 t ( ,greece & t ( ,naz>e?--two k+doms1 t ( ! natural man & t ( ! reg5]ate man4 ,lat]4 7,s*ev5+574--,:y d doctors s (t5 make mi/akes8 ,because !y are n suffici5tly individual 9 _! diagnoses or _! treatm5t4 ,!y class a sick man "u "s giv5 dep>tm5t ( _! nosology1 :]eas e invalid is really a special case1 a unique example4 ,h[ is x possible t s co>se a me?od ( sift+ %\ld produce judici\s !rapeutics8 ,e illness is a factor simple or complex1 :i* is multipli$ by a second factor1 inv>iably complex--! individual1 t is to say1 :o is suff]+ f x1 s t ! result is a special problem1 dem&+ a special solution1 ! m s ! great] ! remot5ess ( ! pati5t f *ildhood or f c\ntry life4 ,! pr9cipal grievance :i* ,i h aga9/ ! doctors is t !y neglect ! real problem1 :i* is to seize ! unity ( ! individual :o claims _! c>e4 ,_! me?ods ( inve/igation are f> too elem5t>y2 a doctor :o does n read y to ! bottom is ignorant ( ess5tials4 ,to me ! ideal doctor w\ld be a man end[$ ) pr(\nd k ( life & ( ! s\l1 intuitively div9+ any suff]+ or disord] ( :atev] k9d1 & re/or+ peace by 8 m]e pres5ce4 ,su* a doctor is possible1 b ! great] numb] ( !m lack ! high] & inn] life1 !y "k no?+ ( ! transc5d5t laboratories ( nature2 !y seem to me sup]ficial1 pr(ane1 /rang]s to div9e ?+s1 de/itute ( intuition & sympa?y4 ,! model doctor %\ld be at once a g5ius1 a sa9t1 a man ( ,god4 ,septemb] #aa1 #ahgc4 7,am/]dam74--,! doctor has j gone4 ,he says ,i h fev] ab\t me1 & does n ?9k t ,i c />t = ano!r ?ree days )\t imprud5ce4 ,i d>e n write to my ,g5evese fri5ds & tell !m t ,i am com+ back f ! sea 9 a radically worse /ate ( /r5g? & ?roat ?an :5 ,i w5t !re1 & t ,i h only wa/$ my "t1 my tr\ble1 my money1 & my hopes4444 ,?is contradictory d\ble fact--on ! "o side an eag] hopefulness spr++ up afre% aft] all disappo9tm5ts1 & on ! o!r an exp]i5ce almo/ inv>iably unfavorable--c be expla9$ l all illusions by ! :im ( nature1 :i* ei!r wills u to be deceiv$ or wills u to act z if we 7 s4 ,skepticism is ! wis] c\rse1 b 9 deliv]+ u f error x t5ds to p>alyze life4 ,maturity ( m9d consi/s 9 tak+ "p 9 ! prescrib$ game z s]i\sly z ?\gh "o believ$ 9 x4 ,good-humor$ compliance1 temp]$ by a smile1 is1 on ! :ole1 ! be/ l9e to take2 "o l5ds "o's self to an optical illusion1 & ! volunt>y concession has an air ( lib]ty4 ,once imprison$ 9 exi/5ce1 we mu/ submit to its laws ) a good grace2 to rebel aga9/ x only ends 9 impot5t rage1 :5 once we h d5i$ ourselves ! solution ( suicide4 ,humility & submission1 or ! religi\s po9t ( view2 cle>-ey$ indulg5ce ) a t\* ( irony1 or ! po9t ( view ( worldly wisdom--^! two attitudes are possible4 ,! second is suffici5t = ! m9or ills ( life1 ! o!r is p]haps necess>y 9 ! great] ones4 ,! pessimism ( ,s*op5hau] supposes at lea/ heal? & intellect z means ( endur+ ! re/ ( life4 ,b optimism ei!r ( ! /oical or ! ,*ri/ian sort is ne$$ to make x possible = u to be> ! wor/ suff]+s ( fle%1 he>t & s\l4 ,if we are to escape ! grip ( despair1 we mu/ believe ei!r t ! :ole ( ?+s at lea/ is good1 or t grief is a fa!rly grace1 a purify+ trial4 ,!re c be no d\bt t ! idea ( a happy immortality1 s]v+ z a h>bor ( refuge f ! tempe/s ( ?is mortal exi/5ce1 & rew>d+ ! fidelity1 ! pati5ce1 ! submission1 & ! c\rage ( ! travel]s on life's sea--!re c be no d\bt t ?is idea1 ! /r5g? ( s _m g5]ations1 & ! fai? ( ! *ur*1 c>ries ) x inexpressible consolation to ^? :o are we>i$1 burd5$1 & torm5t$ by pa9 & suff]+4 ,to feel "o's self individually c>$ = & protect$ by ,god gives a special dignity & beauty to life4 ,mono!ism light5s ! /ruggle = exi/5ce4 ,b does ! /udy ( nature all[ ( ! ma9t5ance ( ^? local revelations :i* are call$ ,mosaism1 ,*ri/ianity1 ,islamism8 ,^! religions f\nd$ ^u an infant9e cosmogony1 & ^u a *im]ical hi/ory ( humanity1 c !y be> confront+ ) mod]n a/ronomy & geology8 ,! pres5t mode ( escape1 :i* consi/s 9 try+ to satisfy ! claims ( bo? sci5ce & fai?--( ! sci5ce :i* contradicts all ! anci5t beliefs1 & ! fai? :i*1 9 ! case ( ?+s t are beyond nature & incapable ( v]ification1 affirms !m on h] own responsibility only--?is mode ( escape _c la/ =ev]4 ,e fre% cosmical conception dem&s a religion :i* corresponds to x4 ,our age ( transition /&s bewild]$ betwe5 ! two incompatible me?ods1 ! sci5tific me?od & ! religi\s me?od1 & betwe5 ! two c]titudes1 :i* contradict ea* o!r4 ,surely ! reconciliation ( ! two mu/ be s\ght = 9 ! moral law1 :i* is also a fact1 & e /ep ( :i* requires = its explanation ano!r cosmos ?an ! cosmos ( necessity4 ,:o kn[s if necessity is n a p>ticul> case ( lib]ty1 & its condition8 ,:o kn[s if nature is n a laboratory = ! fabrication ( ?9k+ be+s :o are ultimately to become free creatures8 ,biology prote/s1 & inde$ ! suppos$ exi/5ce ( s\ls1 indep5d5tly ( "t1 space1 & matt]1 is a fiction ( fai?1 less logical ?an ! ,platonic dogma4 ,b ! "q rema9s op54 ,we may elim9ate ! idea ( purpose f nature1 yet1 z ! guid+ conception ( ! highe/ be+ ( our planet1 x is a fact1 & a fact :i* po/ulates a mean+ 9 ! hi/ory ( ! univ]se4 ,my ?\ght is /ray+ 9 vague pa?s3 :y8 because ,i h no cre$4 ,all my /udies end 9 notes ( int]rogation1 & t ,i may n draw premature or arbitr>y conclusions ,i draw none4 ,lat] on4--,my cre$ has melt$ away1 b ,i believe 9 good1 9 ! moral ord]1 & 9 salvation2 religion = me is to live & die 9 ,god1 9 complete ab&onm5t to ! holy w :i* is at ! root ( nature & de/9y4 ,i believe ev5 9 ! gospel1 ! good news--t is to say1 9 ! reconciliation ( ! s9n] ) ,god1 by fai? 9 ! love ( a p>don+ ,fa!r4 ,octob] #d1 #ahgc4 7,g5eva74--,i h be5 dream+ a long :ile 9 ! moonlight1 :i* floods my room ) a radiance1 full ( vague my/]y4 ,! /ate ( m9d induc$ 9 u by ?is fanta/ic light is itself s dim & gho/-l t analysis loses its way 9 x1 & arrives at no?+ articulate4 ,x is some?+ indef9ite & intangible1 l ! noise ( waves :i* is made up ( a ?\s& fus$ & m+l$ s\nds4 ,x is ! rev]b]ation ( all ! unsatisfi$ desires ( ! s\l1 ( all ! /ifl$ sorr[s ( ! he>t1 m+l+ 9 a vague sonor\s :ole1 & dy+ away 9 cl\dy murmurs4 ,all ^? imp]ceptible regrets1 :i* nev] individually rea* ! consci\sness1 accumulate at la/ into a def9ite result2 !y become ! voice ( a feel+ ( empt9ess & aspiration2 _! tone is melan*oly itself4 ,9 y\? ! tone ( ^! ,aeolian vibrations ( ! he>t is all hope--a pro( t ^! ?\s&s ( indi/+ui%able acc5ts make up inde$ ! fundam5tal note ( our be+1 & reveal ! tone ( our :ole situation4 ,tell me :at y feel 9 y\r solit>y room :5 ! full moon is %9+ 9 ^u y & y\r lamp is dy+ out1 & ,i w tell y h[ old y are1 & ,i %all "k if y are happy4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! be/ pa? ?r\gh life is ! high road1 :i* initiates u at ! "r mom5t into all exp]i5ce4 ,exceptional it9]>ies are suspici\s1 & matt] = anxiety4 ,:at is normal is at once mo/ conv5i5t1 mo/ hone/1 & mo/ :olesome4 ,cross roads may tempt u = "o reason or ano!r1 b x is v seldom t we d n come to regret hav+ tak5 !m4 99 99 99 99 99 ,ea* man beg9s ! _w afre%1 & n "o fault ( ! fir/ man has be5 avoid$ by 8 remote/ desc5dant4 ,! collective exp]i5ce ( ! race accumulates1 b individual exp]i5ce dies ) ! individual1 & ! result is t in/itutions become wis] & k z su* increases2 b ! "y man1 al?\gh m cultivat$1 is j z presumptu\s1 & n less fallible to-day ?an he ev] 04 ,s t absolutely !re is progress1 & relatively !re is none4 ,circum/ances improve1 b m]it rema9s ! same4 ,! :ole is bett]1 p]haps1 b man is n positively bett]--he is only diff]5t4 ,8 defects & 8 virtues *ange _! =m1 b ! total balance does n %[ him to be ! ri*]4 ,a ?\s& ?+s advance1 n9e hundr$ & n9ety-eight fall back1 ?is is progress4 ,!re is no?+ 9 x to be pr\d (1 b some?+1 aft] all1 to console "o4 ,febru>y #d1 #ahgd4--;,i am /ill read+ ! 8,orig9es du ,*ri/ianisme0 by ,erne/ ,havet4 ,footnote3 ,erne/ ,havet1 born #ahac1 a di/+ui%$ ,fr5* s*ol> & pr(essor4 ,he became pr(essor ( ,lat9 oratory at ! ,collge de ,france 9 #ahee1 & a memb] ( ! ,in/itute 9 ,janu>y1 #ahhj4 ,8 admirable edition ( ! 8,p5ses de ,pascal0 is well-kn[n4 8,le ,*ri/ianisme et ses ,orig9es10 an important book1 9 f\r volumes1 0 develop$ f a s]ies ( articles 9 ! ,revue des deux ,mondes1 & ! ,revue ,contempora9e4 ,i l ! book & ,i dislike x4 ,i l x = its indep5d5ce & c\rage2 ,i dislike x = ! insuffici5cy ( its fundam5tal ideas1 & ! imp]fection ( its categories4 ,! au?or1 = in/ance1 has no cle> idea ( religion2 & 8 philosophy ( hi/ory is sup]ficial4 ,he is a ,jacob94 8,! ,republic & ,free ,?\ght0--he _c get beyond t4 ,?is curt & n>r[ s*ool ( op9ion is ! refuge ( m5 ( indep5d5t m9d1 :o h be5 sc&aliz$ by ! colossal fraud ( ultramontanism2 b x leads r to curs+ hi/ory ?an to und]/&+ x4 ,x is ! criticism ( ! eighte5? c5tury1 ( :i* ! g5]al result is purely negative4 ,b ,voltairianism is only ! half ( ! philosophic m9d4 ,hegel frees ?\ght 9 a v diff]5t way4 ,havet1 too1 makes ano!r mi/ake4 ,he reg>ds ,*ri/ianity z synonym\s ) ,roman ,ca?olicism & ) ! *ur*4 ,i "k v well t ! ,roman ,*ur* does ! same1 & t ) h] ! assimilation is a matt] ( s\nd tactics2 b sci5tifically x is inexact4 ,we ought n ev5 to id5tify ,*ri/ianity ) ! gospel1 nor ! gospel ) religion 9 g5]al4 ,x is ! bus9ess ( critical precision to cle> away ^! p]petual confusions 9 :i* ,*ri/ian practice & ,*ri/ian prea*+ ab\nd4 ,to dis5tangle ideas1 to di/+ui% & limit !m1 to fit !m into _! true place & ord]1 is ! fir/ duty ( sci5ce :5ev] x lays h&s ^u su* *aotic & complex ?+s z mann]s1 idioms1 or beliefs4 ,entanglem5t is ! condition ( life2 ord] & cle>ness are ! signs ( s]i\s & successful ?\ght4 ,=m]ly x 0 ! ideas ( nature :i* 7 a tissue ( errors & incoh]5t fancies2 n[ x is ! turn ( moral & psy*ological ideas4 ,! be/ issue f ! pres5t ,babel w\ld be ! =mation or ! sket*+ out ( a truly sci5tific sci5ce ( man4 ,febru>y #af1 #ahgd4--,! multitude1 :o already possess =ce1 & ev51 accord+ to ! ,republican view1 "r1 h always be5 p]suad$ by ! ,cleons ( ! day t enlight5m5t1 wisdom1 ?\ght1 & reason1 are also !irs4 ,! game ( ^! conjurors & quacks ( univ]sal suffrage has always be5 to flatt] ! cr[d 9 ord] to make an in/rum5t ( x4 ,!y pret5d to adore ! puppet ( :i* !y pull ! ?reads4 ,! !ory ( radicalism is a piece ( juggl+1 = x supposes premises ( :i* x kn[s ! falsity2 x manufactures ! oracle ^: revelations x pret5ds to adore2 x proclaims t ! multitude creates a bra9 = itself1 :ile all ! "t x is ! clev] man :o is ! bra9 ( ! multitude1 & sugge/s to x :at x is suppos$ to inv5t4 ,to reign by flatt]y has be5 ! common practice ( ! c\rti]s ( all despotisms1 ! favorites ( all tyrants2 x is an old & trite me?od1 b none ! less odi\s = t4 ,! hone/ politician %\ld wor%ip no?+ b reason & ju/ice1 & x is 8 bus9ess to prea* !m to ! masses1 :o repres5t1 on an av]age1 ! age ( *ildhood & n t ( maturity4 ,we corrupt *ildhood if we tell x t x _c be mi/ak51 & t x kn[s m ?an its eld]s4 ,we corrupt ! masses :5 we tell !m t !y are wise & f>-see+ & possess ! gift ( infallibility4 ,x is "o ( ,montesquieu's subtle rem>ks1 t ! m wise m5 y heap toge!r ! less wisdom y w obta94 ,radicalism pret5ds t ! great] numb] ( illit]ate1 passionate1 ?\ghtless--above all1 "y p1 y heap toge!r1 ! great] w be ! enlight5m5t result+4 ,! second !sis is no d\bt ! rep>tee to ! fir/1 b ! joke is a bad "o4 ,all t c be got f a cr[d is in/9ct or passion2 ! in/9ct may be good1 b ! passion may be bad1 & nei!r is ! in/9ct capable ( produc+ a cle> idea1 nor ! passion ( lead+ to a j resolution4 ,a cr[d is a mat]ial =ce1 & ! support ( numb]s gives a proposition ! =ce ( law2 b t wise & rip5$ temp] ( m9d :i* takes ev]y?+ into acc\nt1 & !re=e t5ds to tru?1 is nev] eng5d]$ by ! impetuosity ( ! masses4 ,! masses are ! mat]ial ( democracy1 b its =m--t is to say1 ! laws :i* express ! g5]al reason1 ju/ice1 & utility--c only be rightly %ap$ by wisdom1 :i* is by no means a univ]sal prop]ty4 ,! fundam5tal error ( ! radical !ory is to conf\nd ! "r to d good ) good itself1 & univ]sal suffrage ) univ]sal wisdom4 ,x re/s ^u a legal fiction1 :i* assumes a real equality ( enlight5m5t & m]it among ^? :om x decl>es electors4 ,x is q possible1 h[ev]1 t ^! electors may n desire ! public good1 & t ev5 if !y d1 !y may be deceiv$ z to ! mann] ( realiz+ x4 ,univ]sal suffrage is n a dogma--x is an in/rum5t2 & accord+ to ! population 9 ^: h&s x is plac$1 ! in/rum5t is s]viceable or deadly to ! proprietor4 ,febru>y #bg1 #ahgd4--;,among ! peoples1 9 :om ! social gifts are ! /ronge/1 ! individual fe>s ridicule above all ?+s1 & ridicule is ! c]ta9 result ( orig9ality4 ,no "o1 !re=e1 wi%es to make a p>ty ( 8 own2 e "o wi%es to be on ! side ( all ! _w4 8,all ! _w0 is ! greate/ ( p[]s2 x is sov]eign1 & calls itself we4 ,we dress1 we d9e1 we walk1 we g out1 we come 91 l ?is1 & n l t4 ,?is we is always "r1 :atev] x does4 ,! subjects ( ,we are m pro/rate ?an ! slaves ( ! ,ea/ be=e ! ,padi%ah4 ,! good pleasure ( ! sov]eign decides e appeal2 8 caprice is law4 ,:at we does or says is call$ cu/om1 :at x ?9ks is call$ op9ion1 :at x believes to be beautiful or good is call$ fa%ion4 ,among su* nations z ^! we is ! bra91 ! consci5ce1 ! reason1 ! ta/e1 & ! judgm5t ( all4 ,! individual f9ds ev]y?+ decid$ = him )\t 8 tr\bl+ ab\t x4 ,he is disp5s$ f ! task ( f9d+ out any?+ :atev]4 ,provid$ t he imitates1 copies1 & repeats ! models furni%$ by we1 he has no?+ m to fe>4 ,he kn[s all t he ne$ "k1 & has ent]$ into salvation4 ,april #bi1 #ahgd4--,/range rem9isc5ce6 ,at ! end ( ! t]race ( ,la ,treille1 on ! ea/]n side1 z ,i look$ d[n ! slope1 x seem$ to me t ,i saw once m 9 imag9ation a little pa? :i* exi/$ !re :5 ,i 0 a *ild1 & ran ?r\gh ! bu%y und]wood1 :i* 0 ?ick] !n ?an x is n[4 ,x is at lea/ =ty ye>s s9ce ?is impression disappe>$ f my m9d4 ,! revival ( an image s dead & s =gott5 set me ?9k+4 ,consci\sness seems to be l a book1 9 :i* ! leaves turn$ by life successively cov] & hide ea* o!r 9 spite ( _! semi-transp>5cy2 b al?\gh ! book may be op5 at ! page ( ! pres5t1 ! w9d1 = a few seconds1 may bl[ back ! fir/ pages into view4 ,& at dea? w ^! leaves cease to hide ea* o!r1 & %all we see all our pa/ at once8 ,is dea? ! passage f ! successive to ! simultane\s--t is to say1 f "t to et]nity8 ,%all we !n und]/&1 9 its unity1 ! poem or my/]i\s episode ( our exi/5ce1 :i* till !n we h spell$ out phrase by phrase8 ,& is ?is ! secret ( t glory :i* s (t5 enwraps ! br[ & c\nt5ance ( ^? :o are newly dead8 ,if s1 dea? w\ld be l ! arrival ( a travel] at ! top ( a great m\nta91 :5ce he sees spread out be=e him ! :ole configuration ( ! c\ntry1 ( :i* till !n he _h _h b pass+ glimpses4 ,to be able to ov]look "o's own hi/ory1 to div9e its mean+ 9 ! g5]al conc]t & 9 ! div9e plan1 w\ld be ! beg9n+ ( et]nal felicity4 ,till !n we _h sacrific$ ourselves to ! univ]sal ord]1 b !n we %\ld und]/& & appreciate ! beauty ( t ord]4 ,we _h toil$ & labor$ "u ! conductor ( ! or*e/ra2 & we %\ld f9d ourselves become surpris$ & delight$ he>]s4 ,we _h se5 no?+ b our own little pa? 9 ! mi/2 & sudd5ly a m>vel\s panorama & b\ndless di/ances w\ld op5 be=e our dazzl$ eyes4 ,:y n8 ,may #ca1 #ahgd4--;,i h be5 read+ ! philosophical poems ( ,madame ,ack]mann4 ,%e has r5d]$ 9 f9e v]se t s5se ( desolation :i* has be5 s (t5 /irr$ 9 me by ! philosophy ( ,s*op5hau]1 ( ,h>tmann1 ,comte1 & ,d>w94 ,:at tragic =ce & p[]6 ,:at ?\ght & passion6 ,%e has c\rage = ev]y?+1 & attacks ! mo/ trem5d\s subjects4 ,sci5ce is implacable2 w x suppress all religions8 ,all ^? :i* />t f a false conception ( nature1 c]ta9ly4 ,b if ! sci5tific conception ( nature proves incapable ( br++ h>mony & peace to man1 :at w happ58 ,despair is n a durable situation4 ,we %all h to build a moral city )\t ,god1 )\t an immortality ( ! s\l1 )\t hope4 ,buddhism & /oicism pres5t !mselves z possible alt]natives4 ,b ev5 if we suppose t !re is no f9ality 9 ! cosmos1 x is c]ta9 t man has ends at :i* he aims1 & if s ! notion ( end or purpose is a real ph5om5on1 al?\gh a limit$ "o4 ,physical sci5ce may v well be limit$ by moral sci5ce1 & vice v]s4 ,b if ^! two conceptions ( ! _w are 9 opposition1 :i* mu/ give way8 ,i /ill incl9e to believe t nature is ! virtuality ( m9d--t ! s\l is ! fruit ( life1 & lib]ty ! fl[] ( necessity--t all is b\nd toge!r1 & t no?+ c be done )\t4 ,our mod]n philosophy has return$ to ! po9t ( view ( ! ,ionians1 ! ,greek3 physikoi1 or naturali/ ?9k]s4 ,b x w h to pass once m ?r\gh ,plato & ?r\gh ,ari/otle1 ?r\gh ! philosophy ( 8goodness0 & 8purpose10 ?r\gh ! sci5ce ( m9d4 ,july #c1 #ahgd4--,rebellion aga9/ common s5se is a piece ( *ildi%ness ( :i* ,i am q capable4 ,b x does n la/ long4 ,i am soon br\ght back to ! advantages & obligations ( my situation2 ,i return to a calm] self-consci\sness4 ,x is disagreeable to me1 no d\bt1 to realize all t is hopelessly lo/ to me1 all t is n[ & w be =ev] d5i$ to me2 b ,i reckon up my privileges z well z my losses--,i lay /ress on :at ,i h1 & n only on :at ,i want4 ,& s ,i escape f t t]rible dilemma ( 8all or no?+10 :i* = me always ends 9 ! adoption ( ! second alt]native4 ,x seems to me at su* times t a man may )\t %ame cont5t himself ) be+ "s ?+ & "s "o-- 8,ni si haut1 ni si bas44440 ,^! brusque lapses into ! =mless1 indet]m9ate /ate1 are ! price ( my critical faculty4 ,all my =m] habits become sudd5ly fluid2 x seems to me t ,i am beg9n+ life ov] aga91 & t all my acquir$ capital has disappe>$ at a /roke4 ,i am =ev] new-born2 ,i am a m9d :i* has nev] tak5 to itself a body1 a c\ntry1 an avocation1 a sex1 a species4 ,am ,i ev5 q sure ( be+ a man1 a ,european1 an inhabitant ( ?is e>?8 ,x seems to me s easy to be some?+ else1 t to be :at ,i am appe>s to me a m]e piece ( arbitr>y *oice4 ,i _c possibly take an accid5tal /ructure ( :i* ! value is purely relative1 s]i\sly4 ,:5 once a man has t\*$ ! absolute1 all t might be o!r ?an :at x is seems to him indiff]5t4 ,all ^! ants pursu+ _! private ends excite 8 mir?4 ,he looks d[n f ! moon ^u 8 hovel2 he beholds ! e>? f ! heights ( ! sun2 he consid]s 8 life f ! po9t ( view ( ! ,h9doo pond]+ ! days ( ,brahma2 he sees ! f9ite f ! di/ance ( ! inf9ite1 & !nce=w>d ! insignificance ( all ^? ?+s :i* m5 hold to be important makes ef=t ridicul\s1 passion burlesque1 & prejudice absurd4 ,augu/ #g1 #ahgd4 7,cl>5s74--,a day p]fectly beautiful1 lum9\s1 limpid1 brilliant4 ,i pass$ ! morn+ 9 ! *ur*y>d2 ! 8,oasis0 0 delightful4 ,innum]able s5sations1 sweet & s]i\s1 peaceful & solemn1 pass$ ov] me4444 ,ar\nd me ,russians1 ,engli%1 ,sw$es1 ,g]mans1 7 sleep+ _! la/ sleep "u ! %ad[ ( ! ,cubly4 ,! l&scape 0 "o va/ spl5dor2 ! woods 7 deep & my/]i\s1 ! roses full bl[n2 all ar\nd me 7 butt]flies--a noise ( w+s--! murmur ( birds4 ,i caught glimpses ?r\gh ! trees ( di/ant mi/s1 ( so>+ m\nta9s1 ( ! t5d] blue ( ! lake4444 ,a little conjunction ( ?+s /ruck me4 ,two ladies 7 t5d+ & wat]+ a grave2 two nurses 7 suckl+ _! *ildr54 ,?is d\ble prote/ aga9/ dea? _h some?+ t\*+ & poetical 9 x4 8,sleep1 y :o are dead2 we1 ! liv+1 are ?9k+ ( y1 or at lea/ c>ry+ on ! pilgrimage ( ! race60 su* seem$ to me ! words 9 my e>4 ,x 0 cle> to me t ! ,oasis ( ,cl>5s is ! spot 9 :i* ,i %\ld l to re/4 ,"h ,i am surr\nd$ ) memories2 "h dea? is l a sleep--a sleep in/9ct ) hope4 99 99 99 99 99 ,hope is n =bidd5 u1 b peace & submission are ! ess5tials4 ,septemb] #a1 #ahgd4 7,cl>5s74--,on wak+ x seem$ to me t ,i 0 />+ into ! future ) wide />tl$ eyes4 ,is x inde$ to me t ^! ?+s apply4 ,footnote3 ,amiel _h j receiv$ at ! h&s ( 8 doctor ! m$ical v]dict1 :i* 0 8 arrt de mort4 ,incessant & gr[+ humiliation1 my slav]y becom+ heavi]1 my circle ( action /eadily n>r[]6444 ,:at is hateful 9 my situation is t deliv]ance c nev] be hop$ =1 & t "o mis]y w succe$ ano!r 9 su* a way z to leave me no brea?+ space1 n ev5 9 ! future1 n ev5 9 hope4 ,all possibilities are clos$ to me1 "o by "o4 ,x is difficult = ! natural man to escape f a dumb rage aga9/ inevitable agony4 ,noon4--,an indiff]5t nature8 ,a ,satanic pr9ciple ( ?+s8 ,a good & j ,god8 ,?ree po9ts ( view4 ,! second is improbable & horrible4 ,! fir/ appeals to our /oicism4 ,my organic comb9ation has nev] be5 any?+ b m$iocre2 x has la/$ z long z x c\ld4 ,e man has 8 turn1 & all mu/ submit4 ,to die quickly is a privilege2 ,i %all die by in*es4 ,well1 submit4 ,rebellion w\ld be useless & s5seless4 ,aft] all1 ,i belong to ! bett]-end[$ half ( human-k9d1 & my lot is sup]ior to ! av]age4 ,b ! ?ird po9t ( view alone c give joy4 ,only is x t5able8 ,is !re a p>ticul> ,provid5ce direct+ all ! circum/ances ( our life1 & !re=e impos+ all our trials ^u u = educational ends8 ,is ?is h]oic fai? compatible ) our actual k ( ! laws ( nature8 ,sc>cely2 ,b :at ?is fai? makes objective we may hold z subjective tru?4 ,! moral be+ may moralize 8 suff]+s by us+ natural facts = 8 own inn] education4 ,:at he _c *ange he calls ! w ( ,god1 & to w :at ,god wills br+s him peace4 ,to nature bo? our cont9u$ exi/5ce & our morality are equally indiff]5t4 ,b ,god1 on ! o!r h&1 if ,god is1 desires our sanctification2 & if suff]+ purifies u1 !n we may console ourselves or suff]+4 ,?is is :at makes ! great advantage ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?2 x is ! triumph ov] pa91 ! victory ov] dea?4 ,!re is b "o ?+ necess>y--dea? unto s91 ! immolation ( our selfi% w1 ! filial sacrifice ( our desires4 ,evil consi/s 9 liv+ = self--t is to say1 = "o's own vanity1 pride1 s5suality1 or ev5 heal?4 ,righte\sness consi/s 9 will+ly accept+ "o's lot1 9 submitt+ to1 & esp\s+ ! de/9y assign$ u1 9 will+ :at ,god comm&s1 9 r5\nc+ :at he =bids u1 9 cons5t+ to :at he takes f u or refuses u4 ,9 my own p>ticul> case1 :at has be5 tak5 f me is heal?--t is to say1 ! sure/ basis ( all indep5d5ce2 b fri5d%ip & mat]ial com=t are /ill left to me2 ,i am nei!r call$ ^u to be> ! slav]y ( pov]ty nor ! hell ( absolute isolation4 ,heal? cut (f1 means m>riage1 travel1 /udy1 & "w =bidd5 or endang]$4 ,x means life r$uc$ 9 attractiv5ess & utility by five-six?s4 ,?y w be done6 ,septemb] #ad1 #ahgd4 7,*>nex74--,a long walk & conv]sation )----4 ,we foll[$ a high m\nta9 pa?4 ,seat$ on ! turf1 & talk+ ) op5 he>t1 our eyes w&]$ ov] ! blue imm5sity bel[ u1 & ! smil+ outl9es ( ! %ore4 ,all 0 fri5dly1 azure-t9t$1 c>ess+1 to ! sight4 ,! s\l ,i 0 read+ 0 pr(\nd & pure4 ,su* an exp]i5ce is l a flight into p>adise4 ,a few light cl\ds climb$ ! broad spaces ( ! sky1 /eam]s made long tracks ^u ! wat] at our feet1 :ite sails 7 dott$ ov] ! va/ di/ance ( ! lake1 & sea-gulls l gigantic butt]flies quiv]$ above its rippl+ surface4 ,septemb] #ba1 #ahgd4 7,*>nex74--,a wond]ful day6 ,nev] has ! lake be5 blu]1 or ! l&scape s(t]4 ,x 0 en*ant+4 ,b trag$y is hidd5 "u ! eclogue2 ! s]p5t crawls "u ! fl[]s4 ,all ! future is d>k4 ,! phantoms :i* = ?ree or f\r weeks ,i h be5 able to keep at bay1 wait = me beh9d ! door1 z ! ,eum5ides wait$ = ,ore/es4 ,hemm$ 9 on all sides6 8,on ne croit plus son toile1 ,on s5t que d]rire la toile ,sont le deuil1 les maux et la mort40 ,= a =tnight ,i h be5 happy1 & n[ ?is happ9ess is go+4 ,!re are no m birds1 b a few :ite or blue butt]flies are /ill left4 ,fl[]s are becom+ r>e--a few daisies 9 ! fields1 "s blue or yell[ *icories & col*icums1 "s wild g]aniums gr[+ among fragm5ts ( old walls1 & ! br[n b]ries ( ! privet--?is is all we 7 able to f9d4 ,9 ! fields !y are digg+ potatoes1 beat+ d[n ! nuts1 & beg9n+ ! apple h>ve/4 ,! leaves are ?9n+ & *ang+ color2 ,i wat* !m turn+ r$ on ! pe>-trees1 gray on ! plums1 yell[ on ! walnut-trees1 & t++ ! ?ickly-/rewn turf ) %ades ( r$di%-br[n4 ,we are ne>+ ! end ( ! f9e wea!r2 ! color+ is ! color+ ( late autumn2 !re is no ne$ n[ to keep out ( ! sun4 ,ev]y?+ is sob]]1 m measur$1 m fugitive1 less emphatic4 ,en]gy is gone1 y\? is pa/1 prodigality at an end1 ! summ] ov]4 ,! ye> is on ! wane & t5ds t[>d w9t]2 x is once m 9 h>mony ) my own age & position1 & next ,sunday x w keep my bir?day4 ,all ^! diff]5t consonances =m a melan*oly h>mony4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! di/+ui%+ m>k ( religion is n s mu* lib]ty z ob$i5ce1 & its value is measur$ by ! sacrifices :i* x c extract f ! individual4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a "y girl's love is a k9d ( piety4 ,we mu/ approa* x ) adoration if we are n to pr(ane x1 & ) poetry if we are to und]/& x4 ,if !re is any?+ 9 ! _w :i* gives u a sweet1 ineffable impression1 ( ! ideal1 x is ?is trembl+ mode/ love4 ,to deceive x w\ld be a crime4 ,m]ely to wat* its unfold+ life is bliss to ! behold]2 he sees 9 x ! bir? ( a div9e m>vel4 ,:5 ! g>l& ( y\? fades on our br[1 let u try at lea/ to h ! virtues ( maturity2 may we gr[ bett]1 g5tl]1 grav]1 l ! fruit ( ! v9e1 :ile its leaf )]s & falls4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to "k h[ to gr[ old is ! ma/] "w ( wisdom1 & "o ( ! mo/ difficult *apt]s 9 ! great art ( liv+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,he :o asks ( life no?+ b ! improvem5t ( 8 own nature1 & a cont9u\s moral progress t[>d inw>d cont5tm5t & religi\s submission1 is less liable ?an any "o else to miss & wa/e life4 ,janu>y #b1 #ahge4 7,hyres47--,9 spite ( my sleep+ draught ,i h _h a bad night4 ,once x seem$ z if ,i mu/ *oke1 = ,i c\ld brea! nei!r way4 ,c\ld ,i be m fragile1 m s5sitive1 m vuln]able6 ,p talk to me z if !re 7 /ill a c>e] be=e me1 :ile all ! "t ,i "k t ! gr\nd is slipp+ f "u me1 & t ! def5se ( my heal? is already a hopeless task4 ,at bottom1 ,i am only liv+ on out ( complaisance & )\t a %ad[ ( self-delusion4 ,i "k t n "o ( my desires w be realiz$1 & = a long "t ,i h _h no desires at all4 ,i simply accept :at comes to me z ?\gh x 7 a bird p]*+ on my w9d[4 ,i smile at x1 b ,i "k v well t my visitor has w+s & w n /ay long4 ,! resignation :i* comes f despair has a k9d ( melan*oly sweetness4 ,x looks at life z a man sees x f 8 dea?-b$1 & judges x )\t bitt]ness & )\t va9 regrets4 ,i no long] hope to get well1 or to be useful1 or to be happy4 ,i hope t ^? :o h lov$ me w love me to ! end2 ,i %\ld wi% to h done !m "s good1 & to leave !m a t5d] memory ( myself4 ,i wi% to die )\t rebellion & )\t weakness2 t is ab\t all4 ,is ?is relic ( hope & ( desire /ill too mu*8 ,let all be z ,god w4 ,i resign myself into 8 h&s4 ,janu>y #bb1 #ahge4 7,hyres74--,! ,fr5* m9d1 accord+ to ,giob]ti1 appreh5ds only ! outw>d =m ( tru?1 & exagg]ates x by isolat+ x1 s t x acts z a solv5t ^u ! realities ) :i* x works4 ,x takes ! %ad[ = ! sub/ance1 ! ^w = ! ?+1 appe>ance = reality1 & ab/ract =mula = tru?4 ,x lives 9 a _w ( intellectual assignats4 ,if y talk to a ,fr5*man ( art1 ( language1 ( religion1 ( ! /ate1 ( duty1 ( ! family1 y feel 9 8 way ( speak+ t 8 ?\ght rema9s outside ! subject1 t he nev] p5etrates into its sub/ance1 its inmo/ core4 ,he is n /riv+ to und]/& x 9 its ess5ce1 b only to say some?+ plausible ab\t x4 ,on 8 lips ! noble/ words become ?9 & empty2 = example--m9d1 idea1 religion4 ,! ,fr5* m9d is sup]ficial & yet n compreh5sive2 x has an extraord9>ily f9e edge1 & yet no p5etrat+ p[]4 ,its desire is to enjoy its own res\rces by ! help ( ?+s1 b x has none ( ! respect1 ! dis9t]e/$ness1 ! pati5ce1 & ! self-=getfulness1 :i*1 are indisp5sable if we wi% to see ?+s z !y are4 ,f> f be+ ! philosophic m9d1 x is a m]e c\nt]feit ( x1 = x does n enable a man to solve any problem :atev]1 & rema9s incapable ( und]/&+ all t is liv+1 complex1 & concrete4 ,ab/raction is its orig9al s91 presumption its incurable defect1 & plausibility its fatal limit4 ,! ,fr5* language has no p[] ( express+ tru?s ( bir? & g]m9ation2 x pa9ts effects1 results1 ! caput mortuum1 b n ! cause1 ! motive p[]1 ! native =ce ! developm5t ( any ph5om5on :atev]4 ,x is analytic & descriptive1 b x expla9s no?+1 = x avoids all beg9n+s & processes ( =mation4 ,) x cry/allization is n ! my/]i\s act itself by :i* a sub/ance passes f ! fluid /ate to ! solid /ate4 ,x is ! product ( t act4 ,! ?ir/ = tru? is n a ,fr5* passion4 ,9 ev]y?+ appe>ance is pref]r$ to reality1 ! outside to ! inside1 ! fa%ion to ! mat]ial1 t :i* %9es to t :i* pr(its1 op9ion to consci5ce4 ,t is to say1 ! ,fr5*man's c5t] ( gravity is always outside him--he is always ?9k+ ( o!rs1 play+ to ! gall]y4 ,to him individuals are s _m z]os2 ! unit :i* turns !m into a numb] mu/ be add$ f outside2 x may be royalty1 ! writ] ( ! day1 ! favorite newspap]1 or any o!r tempor>y ma/] ( fa%ion4 ,all ?is is probably ! result ( an exagg]at$ sociability1 :i* weak5s ! s\l's =ces ( resi/ance1 de/roys its capacity = inve/igation & p]sonal conviction1 & kills 9 x ! wor%ip ( ! ideal4 ,janu>y #bg1 #ahge4 7,hyres74--,! :ole atmosph]e has a lum9\s s]5ity1 a limpid cle>ness4 ,! isl&s are l swans swimm+ 9 a gold5 /ream4 ,peace1 spl5dor1 b\ndless space6444 ,& ,i mean:ile look quietly on :ile ! s(t h\rs glide away4 ,i long to cat* ! wild bird1 happ9ess1 & tame x4 ,above all1 ,i long to %>e x ) o!rs4 ,^! delici\s morn+s impress me indescribably4 ,!y intoxicate me1 !y c>ry me away4 ,i feel beguil$ out ( myself1 dissolv$ 9 sunbeams1 breezes1 p]fumes1 & sudd5 impulses ( joy4 ,& yet all ! "t ,i p9e = ,i "k n :at intangible ,ed54 ,lam>t9e 9 ! 8,prludes0 has admirably describ$ ?is oppressive effect ( happ9ess on fragile human nature4 ,i suspect t ! reason = x is t ! f9ite creature feels itself invad$ by ! inf9ite1 & ! invasion produces dizz9ess1 a k9d ( v]tigo1 a long+ to fl+ "o's self into ! great gulf ( be+4 ,to feel life too int5sely is to ye>n = dea?2 & = man1 to die means to become l unto ! gods--to be initiat$ into ! great my/]y4 ,pa!tic & beautiful illusion4 ,t5 o'clock 9 ! ev5+4--,f "o end to ! o!r ! day has be5 p]fect1 & my walk ?is aft]noon to ,beau ,vallon 0 "o long delight4 ,x 0 l an exp$ition into ,arcadia4 ,"h 0 a wild & woodl& corn]1 :i* w\ld h made a fit sett+ = a dance ( nymphs1 & !re an ilex ov]%ad[+ a rock1 :i* rem9d$ me ( an ode ( ,horace or a draw+ ( ,tibur4 ,i felt a k9d ( c]ta9ty t ! l&scape _h mu* t 0 ,greek 9 x4 ,& :at made ! s5se ( resemblance ! m /rik+ 0 ! sea1 :i* "o feels to be always ne>1 ?\gh "o may n see x1 & :i* any turn ( ! valley may br+ into view4 ,we f\nd out a little t[] ) an ov]gr[n g>d51 ( :i* ! own] might h be5 tak5 = a husb&man ( ! ,odyssey4 ,he c\ld sc>cely speak any ,fr5*1 b 0 n )\t a c]ta9 grave dignity4 ,i translat$ to him ! inscription on 8 sun-dial1 8,hora e/ b5efaci5di10 :i* is beautiful1 & pleas$ him greatly4 ,x w\ld be an inspir+ place to write a novel 94 ,only ,i d n "k :e!r ! little d5 w\ld h a dec5t room1 & "o w\ld c]ta9ly h to live ^u eggs1 milk1 & figs1 l ,philemon4 ,febru>y #ae1 #ahge4 7,hyres74--,i h j be5 read+ ! two la/ 8,disc\rs0 at ! ,fr5* ,academy1 l+]+ ov] e ^w & weigh+ e idea4 ,?is k9d ( writ+ is a sort ( intellectual da9ty1 = x is ! art 8( express+ tru? ) all ! c\rtesy & f9esse possible20 ! art ( appe>+ p]fectly at ease )\t ! smalle/ loss ( mann]s2 ( be+ gracefully s9c]e1 & ( mak+ criticism itself a pleasure to ! p]son criticiz$4 ,legacy z x is f ! mon>*ical tradition1 ?is p>ticul> k9d ( eloqu5ce is ! di/+ui%+ m>k ( ^? m5 ( ! _w :o are also m5 ( bre$+1 & ^? m5 ( lett]s :o are also g5tlem54 ,democracy c\ld nev] h inv5t$ x1 & 9 ?is delicate g5re ( lit]ature ,france may give po9ts to all rival peoples1 = x is ! fruit ( t ref9$ & yet vigor\s social s5se :i* is produc$ by c\rt & draw+-room life1 by lit]ature & good company1 by means ( a mutual education cont9u$ = c5turies4 ,?is complicat$ product is z orig9al 9 its way z ,a!nian eloqu5ce1 b x is less heal?y & less durable4 ,if ev] ,france becomes ,am]icaniz$ ?is g5re at lea/ w p]i%1 )\t hope ( revival4 ,april #af1 #ahge4 7,hyres74--,i h already gone ?r\gh ! v>i\s emotions ( leave-tak+4 ,i h be5 w&]+ sl[ly ?r\gh ! /reets & up ! ca/le hill1 ga!r+ a h>ve/ ( images & recollections4 ,already ,i am full ( regret t ,i h n made a bett] /udy ( ! c\ntry1 9 :i* ,i h n[ sp5t f\r mon?s & m4 ,x is l :at happ5s :5 a fri5d dies2 we accuse ourselves ( hav+ lov$ him too little1 or lov$ him ill2 or x is l our own dea?1 :5 we look back ^u life & feel t x has be5 missp5t4 ,augu/ #af1ahge4--,life is b a daily oscillation betwe5 revolt & submission1 betwe5 ! in/9ct ( ! ego1 :i* is to exp&1 to take delight 9 its own tranquil s5se ( inviolability1 if n to triumph 9 its own sov]eignty1 & ! in/9ct ( ! s\l1 :i* is to obey ! univ]sal ord]1 to accept ! w ( ,god4 ,! cold r5unciation ( disillusion$ reason br+s no real peace4 ,peace is only to be f\nd 9 reconciliation ) de/9y1 :5 de/9y seems1 9 ! religi\s s5se ( ! ^w1 good2 t is to say1 :5 man feels himself directly 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,!n1 & !n only1 does ! w acquiesce4 ,nay m1 x only completely acquiesces :5 x adores4 ,! s\l only submits to ! h>dness ( fate by virtue ( its discov]y ( a sublime comp5sation--! lov+ k9dness ( ! ,almighty4 ,t is to say1 x _c resign itself to lack or fam9e1 x %r9ks f ! void ar\nd x1 & ! happ9ess ei!r ( hope or fai? is ess5tial to x4 ,x may v well v>y its objects1 b "s object x mu/ h4 ,x may r5\nce its =m] idols1 b x w dem& ano!r cult4 ,! s\l hung]s & ?ir/s aft] happ9ess1 & x is 9 va9 t ev]y?+ des]ts x--x w nev] submit to its ab&onm5t4 ,augu/ #bh1 #ahge4 7,g5eva74--,a ^w us$ by ,sa9te-,beuve propos ( ,b5jam9 ,con/ant has /ruck me3 x is ! ^w consid]ation4 ,to possess or n to possess consid]ation 0 to ,madame de ,/al a matt] ( supreme importance--! loss ( x an irrep>able evil1 ! acquirem5t ( x a press+ necessity4 ,:at1 !n1 is ?is good ?+8 ,! e/eem ( ! public4 ,& h[ is x ga9$8 ,by honorable "* & life1 comb9$ ) a c]ta9 aggregate ( s]vices r5d]$ & ( successes obta9$4 ,x is n exactly a good consci5ce1 b x is some?+ l x1 = x is ! witness f )\t1 if n ! witness f )94 ,consid]ation is n reputation1 /ill less celebrity1 fame1 or glory2 x has no?+ to d ) savoir faire1 & is n always ! att5dant ( tal5t or g5ius4 ,x is ! rew>d giv5 to con/ancy 9 duty1 to probity ( conduct4 ,x is ! homage r5d]$ to a life held to be irreproa*able4 ,x is a little m ?an e/eem1 & a little less ?an admiration4 ,to enjoy public consid]ation is at once a happ9ess & a p[]4 ,! loss ( x is a mis=tune & a s\rce ( daily suff]+4 ,"h am ,i1 at ! age ( fifty-?ree1 )\t ev] hav+ giv5 ?is idea ! smalle/ place 9 my life4 ,x is curi\s1 b ! desire = consid]ation has be5 to me s little ( a motive t ,i h n ev5 be5 consci\s ( su* an idea at all4 ,! fact %[s1 ,i suppose1 t = me ! audi5ce1 ! gall]y1 ! public1 has nev] _h m ?an a negative importance4 ,i h nei!r ask$ nor expect$ any?+ f x1 n ev5 ju/ice2 & to be a dep5d5t ^u x1 to solicit its suffrages & its good graces1 has always seem$ to me an act ( homage & flunkeyism aga9/ :i* my pride has in/9ctively rebell$4 ,i h nev] ev5 tri$ to ga9 ! good w ( a ct]e or a newspap]1 nor s mu* z ! vote ( an elector4 ,& yet x w\ld h be5 a joy to me to be smil$ ^u1 lov$1 enc\rag$1 welcom$1 & to obta9 :at ,i 0 s ready to give1 k9dness & good w4 ,b to hunt d[n consid]ation & reputation--to =ce ! e/eem ( o!rs--seem$ to me an ef=t unwor?y ( myself1 almo/ a degradation4 ,i h nev] ev5 ?\ght ( x4 ,p]haps ,i h lo/ consid]ation by my indiff]5ce to x4 ,probably ,i h disappo9t$ public expectation by ?us all[+ an ov]-s5sitive & irritable consci\sness to lead me into isolation & retreat4 ,i "k t ! _w1 :i* is only eag] to sil5ce y :5 y d speak1 is angry ) y\r sil5ce z soon z its own action has kill$ 9 y ! wi% to speak4 ,no d\bt1 to be sil5t ) a p]fectly cle> consci5ce a man mu/ n hold a public (fice4 ,i n[ inde$ say to myself t a pr(essor is morally b\nd to ju/ify 8 position by publication2 t /ud5ts1 au?orities1 & public are plac$ !reby 9 a heal?i] relation t[>d him2 t x is necess>y = 8 good repute 9 ! _w1 & = ! prop] ma9t5ance ( 8 position4 ,b ?is po9t ( view has n be5 a famili> "o to me4 ,i h endeavor$ to give consci5ti\s lectures1 & ,i h dis*>g$ all ! subsidi>y duties ( my po/ to ! be/ ( my ability2 b ,i h nev] be5 able to b5d myself to a /ruggle ) ho/ile op9ion1 = all ! :ile my he>t has be5 full ( sadness & disappo9tm5t1 & ,i h kn[n & felt t ,i h be5 sy/ematically & delib]ately isolat$4 ,premature despair & ! deepe/ disc\ragem5t h be5 my con/ant portion4 ,incapable ( tak+ any int]e/ 9 my tal5ts = my own sake1 ,i let ev]y?+ slip z soon z ! hope ( be+ lov$ = !m & by !m _h =sak5 me4 ,a h]mit aga9/ my w1 ,i h n ev5 f\nd peace 9 solitude1 because my inmo/ consci5ce has n be5 any bett] satisfi$ ?an my he>t4 ,does n all ?is make up a melan*oly lot1 a b>r5 failure ( a life8 ,:at use h ,i made ( my gifts1 ( my special circum/ances1 ( my half-c5tury ( exi/5ce8 ,:at h ,i paid back to my c\ntry8 ,are all ! docum5ts ,i h produc$1 tak5 toge!r1 my correspond5ce1 ^! ?\s&s ( j\rnal pages1 my lectures1 my articles1 my poems1 my notes ( diff]5t k9ds1 any?+ bett] ?an )]$ leaves8 ,to :om & to :at h ,i be5 useful8 ,w my "n survive me a s+le day1 & w x ev] mean any?+ to anybody8 ,a life ( no acc\nt6 ,a great _m com+s & go+s1 a great _m scrawls--= no?+4 ,:5 all is add$ up--no?+6 ,& wor/ ( all1 x has n be5 a life us$ up 9 ! s]vice ( "s ador$ object1 or sacrific$ to any future hope4 ,its suff]+s w h be5 va91 its r5unciations useless1 its sacrifices gratuit\s1 its dre>9ess )\t rew>d4444 ,no1 ,i am wrong2 x w h _h its secret treasure1 its sweetness1 its rew>d4 ,x w h inspir$ a few affections ( great price2 x w h giv5 joy to a few s\ls2 its hidd5 exi/5ce w h _h "s value4 ,besides1 if 9 itself x has be5 no?+1 x has und]/ood mu*4 ,if x has n be5 9 h>mony ) ! great ord]1 /ill x has lov$ x4 ,if x has miss$ happ9ess & duty1 x has at lea/ felt its own no?+ness1 & implor$ its p>don4 ,lat] on4--,!re is a great aff9ity 9 me ) ! ,h9doo g5ius--t m9d1 va/1 imag9ative1 lov+1 dreamy1 & speculative1 b de/itute ( ambition1 p]sonality1 & w4 ,pan!i/ic dis9t]e/$ness1 ! effacem5t ( ! self 9 ! great :ole1 womani% g5tl5ess1 a horror ( slaught]1 antipa?y to action--^! are all pres5t 9 my nature1 9 ! nature at lea/ :i* has be5 develop$ by ye>s & circum/ances4 ,/ill ! ,we/ has also _h its "p 9 me4 ,:at ,i h f\nd difficult is to keep up a prejudice 9 favor ( any =m1 nationality1 or individuality :atev]4 ,h5ce my indiff]5ce to my own p]son1 my own usefulness1 int]e/1 or op9ions ( ! mom5t4 ,:at does x all matt]8 ,omnis det]m9atio e/ negatio4 ,grief localizes u1 love p>ticul>izes u1 b ?\ght deliv]s u f p]sonality4444 ,to be a man is a poor ?+1 to be a man is well2 to be ! man--man 9 ess5ce & 9 pr9ciple--t alone is to be desir$4 ,yes1 b 9 ^! ,brahmanic aspirations :at becomes ( ! subord9ation ( ! individual to duty8 ,pleasure may lie 9 ceas+ to be individual1 b duty lies 9 p]=m+ ! microscopic task allott$ to u4 ,! problem set be=e u is to br+ our daily task into ! temple ( contemplation & ply x !re1 to act z 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 to int]fuse "o's little "p ) religion4 ,s only c we in=m ! detail ( life1 all t is pass+1 tempor>y1 & insignificant1 ) beauty & nobility4 ,s may we dignify & consecrate ! meane/ ( occupations4 ,s may we feel t we are pay+ our tribute to ! univ]sal "w & ! et]nal w4 ,s are we reconcil$ ) life & deliv]$ f ! fe> ( dea?4 ,s are we 9 ord] & at peace4 ,septemb] #a1 #ahge4--;,i h be5 work+ = "s h\rs at my article on ,mme4 de ,/al1 b ) :at labor1 :at pa9ful ef=t6 ,:5 ,i write = publication e ^w is mis]y1 & my p5 /umbles at e l9e1 s anxi\s am ,i to f9d ! ideally be/ expression1 & s great is ! numb] ( possibilities :i* op5 be=e me at e /ep4 ,composition dem&s a conc5tration1 decision1 & pliancy :i* ,i no long] possess4 ,i _c fuse toge!r mat]ials & ideas4 ,if we are to give any?+ a =m1 we mu/1 s to speak1 be ! tyrants ( x4 ,footnote3 ,comp>e ?is p>agraph f ! 8,p5ses ( a new writ]1 ,m4 ,joseph ,r\x1 a c\ntry cur1 liv+ 9 a remote "p ( ! ,bas ,lim\s91 ^: ?\ghts h be5 edit$ & publi%$ ?is ye> by ,m4 ,paul ,m>iton 7,p>is3 ,alphonse ,lem]re73 8,le v]be ne s\ffre et ne connait que la volont qui le dompte1 et n'emporte lo9 sans pril que l'intellig5ce qui lui mnage avec empire l'p]on et le fre940 ,we mu/ treat our subject brutally1 & n be always trembl+ le/ we are do+ x a wrong4 ,we mu/ be able to transmute & absorb x into our own sub/ance4 ,?is sort ( confid5t effront]y is beyond me3 my :ole nature t5ds to t imp]sonality :i* respects & subord9ates itself to ! object2 x is love ( tru? :i* holds me back f conclud+ & decid+4 ,& !n ,i am always retrac+ my /eps3 in/ead ( go+ =w>d ,i "w 9 a circle3 ,i am afraid ( hav+ =gott5 a po9t1 ( hav+ exagg]at$ an expression1 ( hav+ us$ a ^w out ( place1 :ile all ! "t ,i ought to h be5 ?9k+ ( ess5tials & aim+ at bread? ( treatm5t4 ,i d n "k h[ to sacrifice any?+1 h[ to give up any?+ :atev]4 ,hurtful timidity1 unpr(itable consci5ti\sness1 fatal slav]y to detail6 ,9 reality ,i h nev] giv5 mu* ?\ght to ! art ( writ+1 to ! be/ way ( mak+ an article1 an essay1 a book1 nor h ,i ev] me?odically und]gone ! writ]'s appr5tice%ip2 x w\ld h be5 useful to me1 & ,i 0 always a%am$ ( :at 0 useful4 ,i h felt1 z x 71 a scruple aga9/ try+ to surprise ! secret ( ! ma/]s ( lit]ature1 aga9/ pick+ *ef-d'oeuvres to pieces4 ,:5 ,i ?9k t ,i h always po/pon$ ! s]i\s /udy ( ! art ( writ+1 f a sort ( awe ( x1 & a secret love ( its beauty1 ,i am furi\s ) my own /upidity1 & ) my own respect4 ,practice & r\t9e w\ld h giv5 me t ease1 lightness1 & assurance1 )\t :i* ! natural gift & impulse dies away4 ,b on ! contr>y1 ,i h develop$ two oppos$ habits ( m9d1 ! habit ( sci5tific analysis :i* exhau/s ! mat]ial (f]$ to x1 & ! habit ( imm$iate notation ( pass+ impressions4 ,! art ( composition lies betwe5 ! two2 y want = x bo? ! liv+ unity ( ! ?+ & ! su/a9$ op]ation ( ?\ght4 ,octob] #be1 #ahge4--;,i h be5 li/5+ to ,m4 ,ta9e's fir/ lecture 7on ! 8,anci5 ,rgime07 deliv]$ 9 ! univ]sity hall4 ,x 0 an extremely sub/antial piece ( "w--cle>1 in/ructive1 compact1 & full ( matt]4 ,z a writ] he %[s great skill 9 ! ,fr5* me?od ( simplify+ 8 subject by mass+ x 9 l>ge /rik+ divisions2 8 great defect is a con/ant /ra9+ aft] po9ts2 8 pr9cipal m]it is ! s5se he has ( hi/orical reality1 8 desire to see ?+s z !y are4 ,= ! re/1 he has extreme op5ness ( m9d1 fre$om ( ?\ght1 & precision ( language4 ,! hall 0 cr[d$4 ,octob] #bf1 #ahge4--;,all orig9s are secret2 ! pr9ciple ( e individual or collective life is a my/]y--t is to say1 some?+ irrational1 inexplicable1 n to be def9$4 ,we may ev5 g f>!r & say1 ,e individuality is an insoluble enigma1 & no beg9n+ expla9s x4 ,9 fact1 all t has become may be expla9$ retrospectively1 b ! beg9n+ ( any?+ :atev] did n become4 ,x repres5ts always ! 8fiat lux10 ! initial miracle1 ! act ( creation2 = x is ! consequ5ce ( no?+ else1 x simply appe>s among ant]ior ?+s :i* make a milieu1 an occasion1 a surr\nd+ = x1 b :i* are witnesses ( its appe>ance )\t und]/&+ :5ce x comes4 ,p]haps also !re are no true individuals1 &1 if s1 no beg9n+ b "o only1 ! primordial impulse1 ! fir/ movem5t4 ,all m5 on ?is hypo!sis w\ld be b man 9 two sexes2 man aga9 might be r$uc$ to ! animal1 ! animal to ! plant1 & ! only individuality left w\ld be a liv+ nature1 r$uc$ to a liv+ matt]1 to ! hylozoism ( ,?ales4 ,h[ev]1 ev5 ^u ?is hypo!sis1 if !re 7 b "o absolute beg9n+1 relative beg9n+s w\ld /ill rema9 to u z multiple symbols ( ! absolute4 ,e life1 call$ individual = conv5i5ce sake & by analogy1 w\ld repres5t 9 m9iature ! hi/ory ( ! _w1 & w\ld be to ! eye ( ! philosoph] a microscopic comp5dium ( x4 ,! hi/ory ( ! =mation ( ideas is :at1 frees ! m9d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a philosophic tru? does n become popul> until "s eloqu5t s\l has humaniz$ x or "s gift$ p]sonality has translat$ & embodi$ x4 ,pure tru? _c be assimilat$ by ! cr[d2 x mu/ be communicat$ by contagion4 ,janu>y #cj1 #ahgf4--;,aft] d9n] ,i w5t two /eps (f1 to ,m>c ,monni]'s1 to he> ! 8,lu?i] de ,crmone10 a "o-act com$y 9 v]se1 read by ! au?or1 ,franois ,coppe4 ,x 0 a fea/ ( f9e s5sations1 ( lit]>y da9ties4 ,= ! little piece is a pe>l4 ,x is /eep$ 9 poetry1 & e l9e is a fre% pleasure to "o's ta/e4 ,?is "y mae/ro is l ! viol9 he writes ab\t1 vibrat+ & passionate2 he has1 besides delicacy1 po9t1 grace1 all t a writ] wants to make :at is simple1 nave1 he>tfelt1 & out ( ! beat5 track1 acceptable to a cultivat$ society4 ,h[ to return to nature ?r\gh art3 !re is ! problem ( all highly composite lit]atures l our own4 ,r\sseau himself attack$ lett]s ) all ! res\rces ( ! art ( writ+1 & boa/$ ! delights ( savage life ) a skill & adroitness develop$ only by ! mo/ advanc$ civilization4 ,& x is inde$ ?is m>riage ( contr>ies :i* *>ms u2 ?is spic$ g5tl5ess1 ?is le>n$ innoc5ce1 ?is calculat$ simplicity1 ?is yes & no1 ?is fooli% wisdom4 ,x is ! supreme irony ( su* comb9ations :i* tickles ! ta/e ( advanc$ & artificial epo*s1 epo*s :5 m5 ask = two s5sations at once1 l ! contr>y mean+s fus$ by ! smile ( ,la ,gioconda4 ,& our satisfaction1 too1 9 "w ( ?is k9d is be/ express$ by t ambigu\s curve ( ! lip :i* says3 ,i feel y\r *>m1 b ,i am n y\r dupe2 ,i see ! illusion bo? f )9 & f )\t2 ,i yield to y1 b ,i und]/& y2 ,i am complaisant1 b ,i am pr\d2 ,i am op5 to s5sations1 yet n ! slave ( any2 y h tal5t1 ,i h subtlety ( p]ception2 we are quits1 & we und]/& ea* o!r4 ,febru>y #a1 #ahgf4--,?is ev5+ we talk$ ( ! inf9itely great & ! inf9itely small4 ,! great ?+s ( ! univ]se are =----s mu* easi] to und]/& ?an ! small1 because all greatness is a multiple ( h]self1 :]eas %e is incapable ( analyz+ :at requires a diff]5t sort ( measurem5t4 ,x is possible = ! ?9k+ be+ to place himself 9 all po9ts ( view1 & to tea* 8 s\l to live "u ! mo/ diff]5t modes ( be+4 ,b x mu/ be confess$ t v few pr(it by ! possibility4 ,m5 are 9 g5]al imprison$1 held 9 a vice by _! circum/ances almo/ z ! animals are1 b !y h v little suspicion ( x because !y h s little faculty ( self-judgm5t4 ,x is only ! critic & ! philosoph] :o c p5etrate into all /ates ( be+1 & realize _! life f )94 ,:5 ! imag9ation %r9ks 9 fe> f ! phantoms :i* x creates1 x may be excus$ because x is imag9ation4 ,b :5 ! intellect all[s itself to be tyranniz$ ov] or t]rifi$ by ! categories to :i* itself gives bir?1 x is 9 ! wrong1 = x is n all[$ to intellect--! critical p[] ( man--to be ! dupe ( any?+4 ,n[1 9 ! sup]/ition ( size ! m9d is m]ely ! dupe ( itself1 = x creates ! notion ( space4 ,! creat$ is n m ?an ! creator1 ! son n m ?an ! fa!r4 ,! po9t ( view wants rectify+4 ,! m9d has to free itself f space1 :i* gives x a false notion ( itself1 b x c only atta9 ?is fre$om by rev]s+ ?+s & by le>n+ to see space 9 ! m9d in/ead ( ! m9d 9 space4 ,h[ c x d ?is8 ,simply by r$uc+ space to its virtuality4 ,space is disp]sion2 m9d is conc5tration4 ,& t is :y ,god is pres5t ev]y:]e1 )\t tak+ up a ?\s& millions ( cube leagues1 nor a hundr$ times m nor a hundr$ times less4 ,9 ! /ate ( ?\ght ! univ]se occupies b a s+le po9t2 b 9 ! /ate ( disp]sion & analysis ?is ?\ght requires ! heav5 ( heav5s = its expansion4 ,9 ! same way1 "t & numb] are conta9$ 9 ! m9d4 ,man1 z m9d1 is n _! inf]ior1 b _! sup]ior4 ,x is true t be=e he c rea* ?is /ate ( fre$om 8 own body mu/ appe> to him at w ei!r speck or _w--t is to say1 he mu/ be indep5d5t ( x4 ,s long z ! self /ill feels itself spatial1 disp]s$1 corporeal1 x is b a s\l1 x is n a m9d2 x is consci\s ( itself only z ! animal is1 ! impressionable1 affectionate1 active & re/less animal4 ,! m9d be+ ! subject ( ph5om5a _c be itself ph5om5al2 ! mirror ( an image1 if x 0 an image1 c\ld n be a mirror4 ,!re c be no e*o )\t a noise4 ,consci\sness means "s "o :o exp]i5ces some?+4 ,& all ! some?+s toge!r _c take ! place ( ! "s "o4 ,! ph5om5on exi/s only = a po9t :i* is n itself1 & = :i* x is an object4 ,! p]ceptible supposes ! p]ceiv]4 ,may #ae1 #ahgf4--,?is morn+ ,i correct$ ! pro(s ( ! 8,etrangres40 ,footnote3 ,les ,etrangres3 ,posies traduites de div]ses littratures1 p> ,h4 ,f4 ,amiel1 #ahgf4 ,"h at lea/ is "o ?+ (f my h&s4 ,! piece ( prose !oriz+ :i* ends ! volume pleas$ & satisfi$ me a good deal m ?an my new met]s4 ,! book1 z a :ole1 may be reg>d$ z an attempt to solve ! problem ( ,fr5* v]se-translation consid]$ z a special art4 ,x is sci5ce appli$ to poetry4 ,x ought n1 ,i ?9k1 to d any discr$it to a philosoph]1 =1 aft] all1 x is no?+ b appli$ psy*ology4 ,d ,i feel any relief1 any joy1 pride1 hope8 ,h>dly4 ,x seems to me t ,i feel no?+ at all1 or at lea/ my feel+ is s vague & d\btful t ,i _c analyze x4 ,on ! :ole1 ,i am r tempt$ to say to myself1 h[ mu* labor = h[ small a result--,mu* ado ab\t no?+6 ,& yet ! "w 9 itself is good1 is successful4 ,b :at does v]se-translation matt]8 ,already my int]e/ 9 x is fad+2 my m9d & my en]gies clamor = some?+ else4 ,:at w ,edmond ,s*]] say to ! volume8 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ! inmo/ self ( me ?is lit]>y attempt is q indiff]5t--a ,lilliputian affair4 ,9 comp>+ my "w ) o!r "w ( ! same k9d1 ,i f9d a sort ( relative satisfaction2 b ,i see ! intr9sic futility ( x1 & ! insignificance ( its success or failure4 ,i d n believe 9 ! public2 ,i d n believe 9 my own "w2 ,i h no ambition1 prop]ly speak+1 & ,i bl[ soap-bubbles = want ( some?+ to d4 8,c> le nant peut seul bi5 ca*] l'inf9i40 ,self-satire1 disillusion1 abs5ce ( prejudice1 may be fre$om1 b !y are n /r5g?4 ,july #ab1 #ahgf4--,tr\ble on tr\ble4 ,my c\gh has be5 worse ?an ev]4 ,i _c see t ! f9e wea!r or ! holidays h made any *ange = ! bett] 9 my /ate ( heal?4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! process ( demolition seems m rapid4 ,x is a pa9ful exp]i5ce1 ?is premature decay6444 8,aprs tant de malheurs1 que v\s re/e-t-il8 ,moi40 ,?is 8moi0 is ! c5tral consci\sness1 ! trunk ( all ! bran*es :i* h be5 cut away1 t :i* be>s e successive mutilation4 ,soon ,i %all h no?+ else left ?an b>e intellect4 ,dea? r$uces u to ! ma!matical 8po9t20 ! de/ruction :i* prec$es x =ces u back1 z x 71 by a s]ies ( ev]-n>r[+ conc5tric circles to ?is la/ inaccessible refuge4 ,already ,i h a =eta/e ( t z]o 9 :i* all =ms & all modes are ext+ui%$4 ,i see h[ we return into ! night1 & inv]sely ,i und]/& h[ we issue f x4 ,life is b a meteor1 ( :i* ! :ole brief c\rse is be=e me4 ,bir?1 life1 dea? assume a fre% mean+ to u at ea* phase ( our exi/5ce4 ,to see "o's self z a firework 9 ! d>kness--to become a witness ( "o's own fugitive ph5om5on--?is is practical psy*ology4 ,i pref] inde$ ! spectacle ( ! _w1 :i* is a va/] & m spl5did firework2 b :5 illness n>r[s my horizon & makes me dwell p]=ce ^u my own mis]ies1 ^! mis]ies are /ill capable ( supply+ food = my psy*ological curiosity4 ,:at int]e/s me 9 myself1 9 spite ( my repulsions is1 t ,i f9d 9 my own case a g5u9e example ( human nature1 & !re=e a specim5 ( g5]al value4 ,! sample enables me to und]/& a multitude ( simil> situations1 & numb]s ( my fell[-m54 ,to ent] consci\sly into all possible modes ( be+ w\ld be suffici5t occupation = hundr$s ( c5turies--at lea/ = our f9ite intellig5ces1 :i* are condition$ by "t4 ,! progressive happ9ess ( ! process1 inde$ may be easily poison$ & embitt]$ by ! ambition :i* asks = ev]y?+ at once1 & clamors to rea* ! absolute at a b\nd4 ,b x may be answ]$ t aspirations are necess>ily prophetic1 = !y c\ld only h come into be+ "u ! action ( ! same cause :i* w enable !m to rea* _! goal4 ,! s\l c only imag9e ! absolute because ! absolute exi/s2 our consci\sness ( a possible p]fection is ! gu>antee t p]fection w be realiz$4 ,?\ght itself is et]nal4 ,x is ! consci\sness ( ?\ght :i* is gradually a*iev$ ?r\gh ! long succession ( ages1 races1 & humanities4 ,su* is ! doctr9e ( ,hegel4 ,! hi/ory ( ! m9d is1 accord+ to him "o ( approximation to ! absolute1 & ! absolute diff]s at ! two ends ( ! /ory4 ,x 0 at ! beg9n+2 x kn[s itself at ! end4 ,or r x advances 9 ! possession ( itself ) ! gradual unfold+ ( creation4 ,su* also 0 ! conception ( ,ari/otle4 ,if ! hi/ory ( ! m9d & ( consci\sness is ! v m>r[ & ess5ce ( be+1 !n to be driv5 back on psy*ology1 ev5 p]sonal psy*ology1 is to be /ill occupi$ ) ! ma9 "q ( ?+s1 to keep to ! subject1 to feel "o's self 9 ! c5t] ( ! univ]sal drama4 ,!re is com=t 9 ! idea4 ,ev]y?+ else may be tak5 away f u1 b if ?\ght rema9s we are /ill connect$ by a magic ?read ) ! axis ( ! _w4 ,b we may lose ?\ght & spee*4 ,!n no?+ rema9s b simple feel+1 ! s5se ( ! pres5ce ( ,god & ( dea? 9 ,god--! la/ relic ( ! human privilege1 :i* is to p>ticipate 9 ! :ole1 to commune ) ! absolute4 8,ta vie e/ un clair qui meurt dans son nuage1 ,mais l'clair t'a sauv s'il t'a fait voir le ciel40 ,july #bf1 #ahgf4--;,a private j\rnal is a fri5d to idl5ess4 ,x frees u f ! necessity ( look+ all r\nd a subject1 x puts up ) e k9d ( repetition1 x accompanies all ! caprices & me&]+s ( ! inn] life1 & proposes to itself no def9ite end4 ,?is j\rnal ( m9e repres5ts ! mat]ial ( a good _m volumes3 :at prodigi\s wa/e ( "t1 ( ?\ght1 ( /r5g?6 ,x w be useful to nobody1 & ev5 = myself--x has r help$ me to %irk life ?an to practice x4 ,a j\rnal takes ! place ( a confidant1 t is1 ( fri5d or wife2 x becomes a sub/itute = production1 a sub/itute = c\ntry & public4 ,x is a grief-*eat+ device1 a mode ( escape & )drawal2 b1 factotum z x is1 ?\gh x takes ! place ( ev]y?+1 prop]ly speak+ x repres5ts no?+ at all4444 ,:at is x :i* makes ! hi/ory ( a s\l8 ,x is ! /ratification ( its diff]5t /ages ( progress1 ! /ory ( its acquisitions & ( ! g5]al c\rse ( its de/9y4 ,be=e my hi/ory c tea* anybody any?+1 or ev5 int]e/ myself1 x mu/ be dis5tangl$ f its mat]ials1 di/ill$ & simplifi$4 ,^! ?\s&s ( pages are b ! pile ( leaves & b>k f :i* ! ess5ce has /ill to be extract$4 ,a :ole =e/ ( c9*onas are wor? b "o cask ( qu99e4 ,a :ole ,smyrna rose-g>d5 goes to produce "o vial ( p]fume4 ,?is mass ( writt5 talk1 ! "w ( tw5ty-n9e ye>s1 may 9 ! end be wor? no?+ at all2 = ea* is only int]e/$ 9 8 own romance1 8 own individual life4 ,ev5 ,i p]haps %all nev] h "t to read !m ov] myself4 ,s--s :at8 ,i %all h liv$ my life1 & life consi/s 9 repeat+ ! human type1 & ! burd5 ( ! human song1 z myriads ( my k9dr$ h done1 are do+1 & w d1 c5tury aft] c5tury4 ,to rise to consci\sness ( ?is burd5 & ?is type is some?+1 & we c sc>cely a*ieve any?+ fur!r4 ,! realization ( ! type is m complete1 & ! burd5 a m joy\s "o1 if circum/ances are k9d & propiti\s1 b :e!r ! puppets h done ?is or t-- 8,trois p'tits t\rs et puis s'en vont60 ev]y?+ falls into ! same gulf at la/1 & comes to v mu* ! same ?+4 ,to rebel aga9/ fate--to try to escape ! inevitable issue--is almo/ pu]ile4 ,:5 ! duration ( a c5t5>ian & t ( an insect are quantities s5sibly equival5t--& geology & a/ronomy enable u to reg>d su* durations f ?is po9t ( view--:at is ! mean+ ( all our t9y ef=ts & cries1 ! value ( our ang]1 our ambition1 our hope8 ,= ! dream ( a dream x is absurd to raise ^! make-believe tempe/s4 ,! =ty millions ( infusoria :i* make up a cube-in* ( *alk--d !y matt] mu* to u8 & d ! =ty millions ( m5 :o make up ,france matt] any m to an inhabitant ( ! moon or ,jupit]8 ,to be a consci\s monad--a no?+ :i* kn[s itself to be ! microscopic phantom ( ! univ]se3 ?is is all we c ev] atta9 to4 ,septemb] #ab1 #ahgf4--,:at is y\r own p>ticul> absurdity8 ,:y1 simply t y exhau/ y\rself 9 try+ to und]/& wisdom )\t practic+ x1 t y are always mak+ prep>ations = no?+1 t y live )\t liv+4 ,contemplation :i* has n ! c\rage to be purely contemplative1 r5unciation :i* does n r5\nce completely1 *ronic contradiction--!re is y\r case4 ,inconsi/5t skepticism1 irresolution1 n conv9c$ b incorrigible1 weakness :i* w n accept itself & _c trans=m itself into /r5g?--!re is y\r mis]y4 ,! comic side ( x lies 9 capacity to direct o!rs1 becom+ incapacity to direct "o's self1 9 ! dream ( ! inf9itely great /opp$ %ort by ! inf9itely little1 9 :at seems to be ! utt] uselessness ( tal5t4 ,to arrive at immobility by excess ( motion1 at z]o f abundance ( numb]s1 is a /range f>ce1 a sad com$y2 ! poore/ gossip c laugh at its absurdity4 ,septemb] #ai1 #ahgf4--,my read+ to-day has be5 ,d\dan's 8,lettres et ,mlanges40 ,footnote3 ,ximns ,d\dan1 born 9 #ahjj1 di$ #ahgb1 ! brilliant fri5d & tutor ( ! ,de ,broglie family1 ^: conv]sation 0 s mu* s\ght aft] 9 life1 & ^: lett]s h be5 s eag]ly read 9 ,france s9ce 8 dea?4 ,comp>e ,m4 ,s*]]'s two articles on ,d\dan's 8,lettres0 & 8,p5ses0 9 8 la/ publi%$ volume ( essays4 ,a fasc9at+ book6 ,wit1 grace1 subtlety1 imag9ation1 ?\ght--^! lett]s possess !m all4 ,h[ mu* ,i regret t ,i nev] knew ! man himself4 ,he 0 a ,fr5*man ( ! be/ type1 un dlicat n sublime1 to quote ,sa9te-,beuve's expression4 ,fa/idi\sness ( temp]1 & a too ke5 love ( p]fection1 l$ him to )hold 8 tal5t f ! public1 b :ile /ill liv+1 & )9 8 own circle1 he 0 ! recogniz$ equal ( ! be/4 ,he sc>cely lack$ any?+ except t fraction ( ambition1 ( brutality & mat]ial =ce :i* are necess>y to success 9 ?is _w2 b he 0 appreciat$ by ! be/ society ( ,p>is1 & he c>$ = no?+ else4 ,he rem9ds me ( ,j\b]t4 ,septemb] #bj?4--,to be witty is to satisfy ano!r's wits by ! be/[al on him ( two pleasures1 t ( und]/&+ "o ?+ & t ( guess+ ano!r1 & s a*iev+ a d\ble /roke4 ,?us ,d\dan sc>cely ev] speaks out 8 ?\ght directly2 he disguises & sugge/s x by imag]y1 allusion1 hyp]bole2 he ov]lays x ) light irony & feign$ ang]1 ) g5tle mis*ief & assum$ humility4 ,! m ! ?+ to be guess$ diff]s f ! ?+ said1 ! m pleasant surprise !re is = ! int]locutor or ! correspond5t conc]n$4 ,^! *>m+ & delicate ways ( expression all[ a man to tea* :at he w )\t p$antry1 & to v5ture :at he w )\t (f5se4 ,!re is some?+ ,attic & a]ial 9 !m2 !y m+le grave & gay1 fiction & tru?1 ) a light grace ( t\* su* z nei!r ,la ,fonta9e nor ,alcibiades w\ld h be5 a%am$ (4 ,socratic bad9age l ?is presupposes a free & equal m9d1 victori\s ov] physical ill & inw>d discont5ts4 ,su* delicate playfulness is ! exclusive h]itage ( ^? r>e natures 9 :om subtlety is ! disguise ( sup]iority1 & ta/e its revelation4 8,:at balance ( faculties & cultivation x requires6 ,:at p]sonal di/9ction x %[s6 ,p]haps only a valetud9>ian w\ld h be5 capable ( ?is morbidezza ( t\*1 ?is m>riage ( virile ?\ght & fem99e caprice4 ,if !re is excess any:]e1 x lies p]haps 9 a c]ta9 effem9acy ( s5tim5t4 ,d\dan c put up ) no?+ b :at is p]fect--no?+ b :at is absolutely h>moni\s2 all t is r\gh1 h>%1 p[]ful1 brutal1 & unexpect$1 ?r[s him into convulsions4 ,audacity--boldness ( all k9ds--repels him4 ,?is ,a!nian ( ! ,roman "t is a true disciple ( ,epicurus 9 all matt]s ( sight1 he>+1 & intellig5ce--a crumpl$ rose-leaf di/urbs him4 8,une ombre1 un s\ffle1 un ri51 t\t lui donnait la fivre40 ,:at all ?is s(tness wants is /r5g?1 creative & muscul> =ce4 ,8 range is n z wide z ,i ?\ght x at fir/4 ,! classical _w & ! ,r5aissance--t is to say1 ! horizon ( ,la ,fonta9e--is 8 horizon4 ,he is out ( 8 elem5t 9 ! ,g]man or ,slav lit]atures4 ,he kn[s no?+ ( ,asia4 ,humanity = him is n mu* l>g] ?an ,france1 & he has nev] made a bible ( ,nature4 ,9 music & pa9t+ he is m or less exclusive4 ,9 philosophy he /ops at ,kant4 ,to sum up3 he is a man ( exquisite & +5i\s ta/e1 b he is n a fir/-rate critic1 /ill less a poet1 philosoph]1 or arti/4 ,he 0 an admirable talk]1 a delightful lett] writ]1 :o might h become an au?or _h he *os5 to conc5trate himself4 ,i mu/ wait = ! second volume 9 ord] to review & correct ?is prelim9>y impression4 ,midday4--,i h n[ gone once m ?r\gh ! :ole volume1 l+]+ ov] ! ,attic *>m ( x1 & m$itat+ on ! orig9ality & di/9ction ( ! man's organization4 ,d\dan 0 a ke5 p5etrat+ psy*ologi/1 a div9] ( aptitudes1 a tra9] ( m9ds1 a man ( inf9ite ta/e & tal5t1 capable ( e nuance & ( e delicacy2 b 8 defect 0 a want ( p]sev]+ en]gy ( ?\ght1 a lack ( pati5ce 9 execution4 ,timidity1 unworldl9ess1 indol5ce1 indiff]5ce1 conf9$ him to ! role ( ! lit]>y c\nsellor & made him judge ( ! field 9 :i* he ought r to h f\ght4 ,b d ,i mean to blame him8--no inde$6 ,9 ! fir/ place1 x w\ld be to fire on my allies2 9 ! second1 v likely he *ose ! bett] "p4 ,0 x n ,goe! :o rem>k$ t 9 ! neighborhood ( all fam\s m5 we f9d m5 :o nev] a*ieve fame1 & yet 7 e/eem$ by ^? :o did1 z _! equals or sup]iors8 ,desc>tes1 ,i ?9k1 said ! same ?+4 ,fame w n run aft] ! m5 :o are afraid ( h]4 ,%e makes mock ( ^? trembl+ & respectful lov]s :o des]ve b _c =ce h] favors4 ,! public is won by ! bold1 imp]i\s tal5ts--by ! ent]pris+ & ! skillful4 ,x does n believe 9 mode/y1 :i* x reg>ds z a device ( impot5ce4 ,! gold5 book conta9s b a section ( ! true g5iuses2 x names ^? only :o h tak5 glory by /orm4 ,novemb] #ae1 #ahgf4--;,i h be5 read+ 8,l',av5ir ,religieux des ,peuples ,civiliss10 by ,emile de ,laveleye4 ,! !ory ( ?is writ] is t ! gospel1 9 its pure =m1 is capable ( provid+ ! religion ( ! future1 & t ! abolition ( all religi\s pr9ciple1 :i* is :at ! socialism ( ! pres5t mom5t dem&s1 is z mu* to be fe>$ z ,ca?olic sup]/ition4 ,! ,prote/ant me?od1 accord+ to him1 is ! means ( transition :]eby sac]dotal ,*ri/ianity passes into ! pure religion ( ! gospel4 ,laveleye does n ?9k t civilization c la/ )\t ! belief 9 ,god & 9 ano!r life4 ,p]haps he =gets t ,japan & ,*9a prove ! contr>y4 ,b x is en\gh to det]m9e him aga9/ a!ism if x c be %[n t a g5]al a!ism w\ld br+ ab\t a l[]+ ( ! moral av]age4 ,aft] all1 h[ev]1 ?is is no?+ b a religion ( utilit>ianism4 ,a belief is n true because x is useful4 ,& x is tru? alone--sci5tific1 e/abli%$1 prov$1 & rational tru?--:i* is capable ( satisfy+ n[adays ! awak5$ m9ds ( all classes4 ,we may /ill say p]haps1 8fai? gov]ns ! _w0--b ! fai? ( ! pres5t is no long] 9 revelation or 9 ! prie/--x is 9 reason & 9 sci5ce4 ,is !re a sci5ce ( goodness & happ9ess8--t is ! "q4 ,d ju/ice & goodness dep5d ^u any p>ticul> religion8 ,h[ are m5 to be made free1 hone/1 j1 & good8--!re is ! po9t4 ,on my way ?r\gh ! book ,i p]ceiv$ _m new applications ( my law ( irony4 ,e epo* has two contradictory aspirations :i* are logically antagoni/ic & practically associat$4 ,?us ! philosophic mat]ialism ( ! la/ c5tury 0 ! *ampion ( lib]ty4 ,& at ! pres5t mom5t we f9d ,d>w9ians 9 love ) equality1 :ile ,d>w9ism itself is bas$ on ! "r ( ! /rong]4 ,absurdity is int]wov5 ) life3 real be+s are animat$ contradictions1 absurdities br\ght into action4 ,h>mony ) self w\ld mean peace1 repose1 & p]haps immobility ,by f> ! great] numb] ( human be+s c only conceive action1 or practice x1 "u ! =m ( w>--a w> ( competition at home1 a bloody w> ( nations abroad1 & f9ally w> ) self4 ,s t life is a p]petual combat2 x wills t :i* x wills n1 & wills n t x wills4 ,h5ce :at ,i call ! law ( irony--t is to say1 ! refutation ( ! self by itself1 ! concrete realization ( ! absurd4 ,is su* a result inevitable8 ,i ?9k n4 ,/ruggle is ! c>icature ( h>mony1 & h>mony1 :i* is ! association ( contr>ies1 is also a pr9ciple ( movem5t4 ,w> is a brutal & fi]ce means ( pacification2 x means ! suppression ( resi/ance by ! de/ruction or enslavem5t ( ! conqu]$4 ,mutual respect w\ld be a bett] way out ( difficulties4 ,conflict is ! result ( ! selfi%ness :i* w ackn[l$ge no o!r limit ?an t ( ext]nal =ce4 ,! laws ( animality gov]n almo/ ! :ole ( hi/ory4 ,! hi/ory ( man is ess5tially zoological2 x becomes human late 9 ! day1 & !n only 9 ! beautiful s\ls1 ! s\ls alive to ju/ice1 goodness1 en?usiasm1 & devotion4 ,! angel %[s itself r>ely & ) difficulty ?r\gh ! highly-organiz$ brute4 ,! div9e aureole plays only ) a dim & fugitive light ar\nd ! br[s ( ! _w's gov]n+ race4 ,! ,*ri/ian nations (f] _m illu/rations ( ! law ( irony4 ,!y pr(ess ! citiz5%ip ( heav51 ! exclusive wor%ip ( et]nal good2 & nev] has ! hungry pursuit ( p]i%able joys1 ! love ( ?is _w1 or ! ?ir/ = conque/1 be5 /rong] or m active ?an among ^! nations4 ,_! (ficial motto is exactly ! rev]se ( _! real aspiration4 ,"u a false flag !y play ! smuggl] ) a droll ease ( consci5ce4 ,is ! fraud a consci\s "o8 ,no--x is b an application ( ! law ( irony4 ,! deception is s common a "o t ! del9qu5t becomes unconsci\s ( x4 ,e nation gives itself ! lie 9 ! c\rse ( its daily life1 & n "o feels ! ridicule ( its position4 ,a man mu/ be a ,japanese to p]ceive ! burlesque contradictions ( ! ,*ri/ian civilization4 ,he mu/ be a native ( ! moon to und]/& ! /upidity ( man & 8 /ate ( con/ant delusion4 ,! philosoph] himself falls "u ! law ( irony1 = aft] hav+ m5tally /ripp$ himself ( all prejudice--hav+1 t is to say1 :olly laid aside 8 own p]sonality1 he f9ds himself slipp+ back p]=ce into ! rags he _h tak5 (f1 oblig$ to eat & dr9k1 to be hungry1 cold1 ?ir/y1 & to behave l all o!r mortals1 aft] hav+ = a mom5t behav$ l no o!r4 ,?is is ! po9t :]e ! comic poets are ly+ 9 wait = him2 ! animal ne$s rev5ge !mselves = 8 flight into ! ,empyrean1 & mock him by _! cry3 ,?\ art du/1 ?\ art no?+1 ?an art man6 ,novemb] #bf1 #ahgf4--;,i h j f9i%$ a novel ( ,*]buliez1 8,le fianc de ,mademoiselle de ,/4 ,maur40 ,x is a jewel$ mosaic ( preci\s /ones1 sp>kl+ ) a ?\s& lights4 ,b ! he>t gets little f x4 ,! ,mephi/ophelian type ( novel leaves "o sad4 ,?is subtle1 ref9$ _w is /rangely ne> to corruption2 ^! artificial wom5 h an air ( ! ,l[] ,empire4 ,!re is n a "* :o is n witty1 & nei!r is !re "o :o has n b>t]$ consci5ce = clev]ness4 ,! elegance ( ! :ole is b a mask ( immorality4 ,^! /ories ( feel+ 9 :i* !re is no feel+ make a /range & pa9ful impression ^u me4 ,decemb] #d1 #ahgf4--;,i h be5 ?9k+ a great deal ( ,victor ,*]buliez4 ,p]haps 8 novels make up ! mo/ disputable "p ( 8 "w--!y are s mu* want+ 9 simplicity1 feel+1 reality4 ,& yet :at k1 /yle1 wit1 & subtlety--h[ mu* ?\ght ev]y:]e1 & :at ma/]y ( language6 ,he a/oni%es "o2 ,i _c b admire him4 ,*]buliez's m9d is ( imm5se range1 cle>-sight$1 ke51 full ( res\rce2 he is an ,alex&rian exquisite1 sub/itut+ = ! feel+ :i* makes m5 e>ne/ ! irony :i* leaves !m free4 ,pascal w\ld say ( him--8,he has nev] ris5 f ! ord] ( ?\ght to ! ord] ( *>ity40 ,b we mu/ n be ungrateful4 ,a ,lucian is n wor? an ,augu/9e1 b /ill he is ,lucian4 ,^? :o enfran*ise ! m9d r5d] s]vice to man z well z ^? :o p]suade ! he>t4 ,aft] ! lead]s come ! lib]ators1 & ! negative & critical m9ds h _! place & function beside ! m5 ( affirmation1 ! conv9c$ & inspir$ s\ls4 ,! positive elem5t 9 ,victor ,*]buliez's "w is beauty1 n goodness1 n moral or religi\s life4 ,ae/hetically he is s]i\s2 :at he respects is /yle4 ,& !re=e he has f\nd 8 vocation2 = he is fir/ & =emo/ a writ]--a consummate1 exquisite1 & model writ]4 ,he does n w9 our love1 b he claims our homage4 ,9 e union !re is a my/]y--a c]ta9 invisible bond :i* mu/ n be di/urb$4 ,?is vital bond 9 ! filial relation is respect2 9 fri5d%ip1 e/eem2 9 m>riage1 confid5ce2 9 ! collective life1 patriotism2 9 ! religi\s life1 fai?4 ,su* po9ts are be/ left unt\*$ by spee*1 = to t\* !m is almo/ to pr(ane !m4 99 99 99 99 99 ,m5 ( g5ius supply ! sub/ance ( hi/ory1 :ile ! mass ( m5 are b ! critical filt]1 ! limit+1 slack5+1 passive =ce ne$$ = ! modification ( ! ideas suppli$ by g5ius4 ,/upidity is dynamically ! necess>y balance ( intellect4 ,to make an atmosph]e :i* human life c brea!1 oxyg5 mu/ be comb9$ ) a great deal--) ?ree-f\r?s--( azote4 ,& s1 to make hi/ory1 !re mu/ be a great deal ( resi/ance to conqu] & ( weight to drag4 ,janu>y #e1 #ahgg4--,?is morn+ ,i am altoge!r mis]able1 half-/ifl$ by bron*itis--walk+ a difficulty--! bra9 weak--?is la/ ! wor/ mis]y ( all1 = ?\ght is my only weapon aga9/ my o!r ills4 ,rapid det]ioration ( all ! bodily p[]s1 a dull cont9u\s wa/e ( vital organs1 bra9 decay3 ?is is ! trial laid ^u me1 a trial t no "o suspects6 ,m5 pity y = gr[+ old outw>dly2 b :at does t matt]8--no?+1 s long z ! faculties are intact4 ,?is boon ( m5tal s\ndness to ! la/ has be5 grant$ to s _m /ud5ts t ,i hop$ = x a little4 ,alas1 mu/ ,i sacrifice t too8 ,sacrifice is almo/ easy :5 we believe x laid ^u u1 ask$ ( u1 r1 by a fa!rly ,god & a wat*ful ,provid5ce2 b ,i "k no?+ ( ?is religi\s joy4 ,! mutilation ( ! self :i* is go+ on 9 me l[]s & less5s me )\t do+ good to anybody4 ,suppos+ ,i became bl9d1 :o w\ld be ! ga9]8 ,only "o motive rema9s to me--t ( manly resignation to ! inevitable--! wi% to set an example to o!rs--! /oic view ( morals pure & simple4 ,?is moral education ( ! individual s\l--is x !n wa/$8 ,:5 our planet has accompli%$ ! cycle ( its de/9ies1 ( :at use w x h be5 to any "o or any?+ 9 ! univ]se8 ,well1 x w h s\nd$ its note 9 ! symphony ( creation4 ,& = u1 individual atoms1 see+ monads1 we appropriate a mom5t>y consci\sness ( ! :ole & ! un*angeable1 & !n we disappe>4 ,is n ?is en\gh8 ,no1 x is n en\gh1 = if !re is n progress1 increase1 pr(it1 !re is no?+ b a m]e *emical play & balance ( comb9ations4 ,brahma1 aft] hav+ creat$1 draws 8 creation back into ! gulf4 ,if we are a laboratory ( ! univ]sal m9d1 may t m9d at lea/ pr(it & gr[ by u6 ,if we realize ! supreme w1 may ,god h ! joy ( x6 ,if ! tru/ful humility ( ! s\l rejoices him m ?an ! greatness ( intellect1 let u ent] into 8 plan1 8 int5tion4 ,?is1 9 !ological language1 is to live to ! glory ( ,god4 ,religion consi/s 9 ! filial acceptation ( ! div9e w :atev] x be1 provid$ we see x di/9ctly4 ,well1 c we d\bt t decay1 sickness1 dea?1 are 9 ! programme ( our exi/5ce8 ,is n de/9y ! inevitable8 ,& is n de/9y ! anonym\s title ( him or ( t :i* ! religions call ,god8 ,to desc5d )\t murmur+ ! /ream ( de/9y1 to pass )\t revolt ?r\gh loss aft] loss1 & dim9ution aft] dim9ution1 ) no o!r limit ?an z]o be=e u--?is is :at is dem&$ ( u4 ,involution is z natural z evolution4 ,we s9k gradually back into ! d>kness1 j z we issu$ gradually f x4 ,! play ( faculties & organs1 ! gr&iose app>atus ( life1 is put back bit by bit into ! box4 ,we beg9 by in/9ct2 at ! end comes a cle>ness ( vision :i* we mu/ le>n to be> ) & to employ )\t murmur+ ^u our own failure & decay4 ,a musical !me once exhau/$1 f9ds its due refuge & repose 9 sil5ce4 ,febru>y #f1 #ahgg4--;,i sp5t ! ev5+ ) ! ----1 & we talk$ ( ! an>*y ( ideas1 ( ! g5]al want ( culture1 ( :at x is :i* keeps ! _w go+1 & ( ! assur$ m>* ( sci5ce 9 ! mid/ ( univ]sal passion & sup]/ition4 ,:at is r>e/ 9 ! _w is fair-m9d$ness1 me?od1 ! critical view1 ! s5se ( proportion1 ! capacity = di/+ui%+4 ,! common /ate ( human ?\ght is "o ( confusion1 incoh]5ce1 & presumption1 & ! common /ate ( human he>ts is a /ate ( passion1 9 :i* equity1 imp>tiality1 & op5ness to impressions are unatta9able4 ,m5's wills are always 9 advance ( _! intellig5ce1 _! desires ahead ( _! w1 & accid5t ! s\rce ( _! desires2 s t !y express m]ely =tuit\s op9ions :i* are n wor? ! tr\ble ( tak+ s]i\sly1 & :i* h no o!r acc\nt to give ( !mselves ?an ?is *ildi% "o3 ,i am1 because ,i am4 ,! art ( f9d+ tru? is v little practic$2 x sc>cely exi/s1 because !re is no p]sonal humility1 nor ev5 any love ( tru? among u4 ,we are covet\s en\gh ( su* k z may furni% weapons to our h& or tongue1 z may s]ve our vanity or gratify our crav+ = p[]2 b self-k1 ! criticism ( our own appetites & prejudices1 is unwelcome & disagreeable to u4 ,man is a willful & covet\s animal1 :o makes use ( 8 intellect to satisfy 8 incl9ations1 b :o c>es no?+ = tru?1 :o rebels aga9/ p]sonal discipl9e1 :o hates dis9t]e/$ ?\ght & ! idea ( self-education4 ,wisdom (f5ds him1 because x r\ses 9 him di/urbance & confusion1 & because he w n see himself z he is4 ,! great majority ( m5 are b tangl$ ske9s1 imp]fect keybo>ds1 s _m specim5s ( re/less or /agnant *aos--& :at makes _! situation almo/ hopeless is ! fact t !y take pleasure 9 x4 ,!re is no cur+ a sick man :o believes himself 9 heal?4 ,april #e1 #ahgg4--;,i h be5 ?9k+ ov] ! pleasant ev5+ ( ye/]day1 an exp]i5ce 9 :i* ! sweets ( fri5d%ip1 ! *>m ( mutual und]/&+1 ae/hetic pleasure1 & a g5]al s5se ( com=t1 7 happily comb9$ & int]m+l$4 ,!re 0 n a crease 9 ! rose-leaf4 ,:y8 ,because 8all t is pure1 all t is hone/1 all t is excell5t1 all t is lovely & ( good report10 0 !re ga!r$ toge!r4 8,! incorruptibility ( a g5tle & quiet _s10 innoc5t mir?1 fai?fulness to duty1 f9e ta/e & sympa!tic imag9ation1 =m an attractive & :olesome milieu 9 :i* ! s\l may re/4 ,! p>ty--:i* celebrat$ ! la/ day ( vacation--gave mu* pleasure1 & n to me only4 ,is n mak+ o!rs happy ! be/ happ9ess8 ,to illum9ate = an in/ant ! dep?s ( a deep s\l1 to *e] ^? :o be> by sympa?y ! burd5s ( s _m sorr[-lad5 he>ts & suff]+ lives1 is to me a bless+ & a preci\s privilege4 ,!re is a sort ( religi\s joy 9 help+ to r5ew ! /r5g? & c\rage ( noble m9ds4 ,we are surpris$ to f9d ourselves ! possessors ( a p[] ( :i* we are n wor?y1 & we long to ex]cise x purely & s]i\sly4 ,i feel mo/ /rongly t man1 9 all t he does or c d :i* is beautiful1 great1 or good is b ! organ & ! vehicle ( some?+ or "s "o high] ?an himself4 ,?is feel+ is religion4 ,! religi\s man takes "p ) a tremor ( sacr$ joy 9 ^! ph5om5a ( :i* he is ! int]m$i>y b n ! s\rce1 ( :i* he is ! sc5e1 b n ! au?or1 or r1 ! poet4 ,he l5ds !m voice1 & w1 & help1 b he is respectfully c>eful to efface himself1 t he may alt] z little z possible ! high] "w ( ! g5ius :o is mak+ a mom5t>y use ( him4 ,a pure emotion deprives him ( p]sonality & annihilates ! self 9 him4 ,self mu/ p]=ce disappe> :5 x is ! ,holy ,_s :o speaks1 :5 x is ,god :o acts4 ,?is is ! mood 9 :i* ! prophet he>s ! call1 ! "y "m feels ! movem5t ( ! *ild )91 ! prea*] wat*es ! te>s ( 8 audi5ce4 ,s long z we are consci\s ( self we are limit$1 selfi%1 held 9 bondage2 :5 we are 9 h>mony ) ! univ]sal ord]1 :5 we vibrate 9 unison ) ,god1 self disappe>s4 ,?us1 9 a p]fectly h>moni\s *oir1 ! individual _c he> himself unless he makes a false note4 ,! religi\s /ate is "o ( deep en?usiasm1 ( mov$ contemplation1 ( tranquil ec/asy4 ,b h[ r>e a /ate x is = u poor creatures h>ass$ by duty1 by necessity1 by ! wick$ _w1 by s91 by illness6 ,x is ! /ate :i* produces inw>d happ9ess2 b alas6 ! f\ndation ( exi/5ce1 ! common texture ( our days1 is made up ( action1 ef=t1 /ruggle1 & !re=e dissonance4 ,p]petual conflict1 int]rupt$ by %ort & ?reat5$ truces--!re is a true picture ( our human condition4 ,let u hail1 !n1 z an e*o f heav51 z ! =eta/e ( a m bless$ economy1 ^! brief mom5ts ( p]fect h>mony1 ^! halts betwe5 two /orms4 ,peace is n 9 itself a dream1 b we "k x only z ! result ( a mom5t>y equilibrium--an accid5t4 8,happy are ! peacemak]s1 = !y %all be call$ ! *ildr5 ( ,god40 ,april #bf1 #ahgg4--;,i h be5 turn+ ov] aga9 ! 8,p>is0 ( ,victor ,hugo 7#ahfg74 ,= t5 ye>s ev5t aft] ev5t has giv5 ! lie to ! prophet1 b ! confid5ce ( ! prophet 9 8 own imag9+s is n !re=e a :it dim9i%$4 ,humility & common s5se are only fit = ,lilliputians4 ,victor ,hugo sup]bly ignores ev]y?+ t he has n =ese54 ,he does n see t pride is a limitation ( ! m9d1 & t a pride )\t limitations is a littl5ess ( s\l4 ,if he c\ld b le>n to comp>e himself ) o!r m51 & ,france ) o!r nations1 he w\ld see ?+s m truly1 & w\ld n fall into ^! mad exagg]ations1 ^! extravagant judgm5ts4 ,b proportion & fairness w nev] be among ! /r+s at 8 comm&4 ,he is v[$ to ! ,titanic2 8 gold is always mix$ ) lead1 8 insight ) *ildi%ness1 8 reason ) madness4 ,he _c be simple2 ! only light he has to give bl9ds y l t ( a fire4 ,he a/oni%es a read] & provokes him1 he moves him & annoys him4 ,!re is always "s falsity ( note 9 him1 :i* acc\nts = ! malaise he s con/antly excites 9 me4 ,! great poet 9 him _c %ake (f ! *>latan4 ,a few %afts ( ,voltairean irony w\ld h %rivel$ ! inflation ( 8 g5ius & made x /rong] by mak+ x san]4 ,x is a public mis=tune t ! mo/ p[]ful poet ( a nation %\ld n h bett] und]/ood 8 role1 & t1 unlike ^? ,hebrew prophets :o sc\rg$ because !y lov$1 he %\ld devote himself pr\dly & sy/ematically to ! flatt]y ( 8 c\ntrym54 ,france is ! _w2 ,p>is is ,france2 ,hugo is ,p>is2 peoples1 b[ d[n6 ,may #b1 #ahgg4--,:i* nation is be/ wor? belong+ to8 ,!re is n "o 9 :i* ! good is n c\nt]balanc$ by evil4 ,ea* is a c>icature ( man1 a pro( t no "o among !m des]ves to cru% ! o!rs1 & t all h some?+ to le>n f all4 ,i am alt]nately /ruck ) ! qualities & ) ! defects ( ea*1 :i* is p]haps lucky = a critic4 ,i am consci\s ( no pref]5ce = ! defects ( nor? or s\?1 ( we/ or ea/2 & ,i %\ld f9d a difficulty 9 /at+ my own pr$ilections4 ,inde$ ,i myself am :olly indiff]5t 9 ! matt]1 = to me ! "q is n "o ( lik+ or ( blam+1 b ( und]/&+4 ,my po9t ( view is philosophical--t is to say1 imp>tial & imp]sonal4 ,! only type :i* pleases me is p]fection--man1 9 %ort1 ! ideal man4 ,z = ! national man1 ,i be> ) & /udy him1 b ,i h no admiration = him4 ,i c only admire ! f9e specim5s ( ! race1 ! great m51 ! g5iuses1 ! l(ty *>act]s & noble s\ls1 & specim5s ( ^! are to be f\nd 9 all ! e?nographical divisions4 ,! 8c\ntry ( my *oice0 7to quote ,madame de ,/al7 is ) ! *os5 s\ls4 ,i feel no great] incl9ation t[>d ! ,fr5*1 ! ,g]mans1 ! ,swiss1 ! ,engli%1 ! ,poles1 ! ,italians1 ?an t[>d ! ,brazilians or ! ,*9ese4 ,! illusions ( patriotism1 ( ,*auv9i/1 family1 or pr(essional feel+1 d n exi/ = me4 ,my t5d5cy1 on ! contr>y1 is to feel ) increas$ =ce ! lacunas1 de=mities1 & imp]fections ( ! gr\p to :i* ,i belong4 ,my incl9ation is to see ?+s z !y are1 ab/ract+ my own individuality1 & suppress+ all p]sonal w & desire2 s t ,i feel antipa?y1 n t[>d ?is or t1 b t[>d error1 prejudice1 /upidity1 exclusiv5ess1 exagg]ation4 ,i love only ju/ice & fairness4 ,ang] & annoyance are ) me m]ely sup]ficial2 ! fundam5tal t5d5cy is t[>d imp>tiality & deta*m5t4 ,inw>d lib]ty & aspiration t[>d ! true--^! are :at ,i c>e = & take pleasure 94 ,june #d1 #ahgg4--;,i h j he>d ! 8,romeo & ,juliet0 ( ,hector ,b]lioz4 ,! "w is entitl$ 8,dramatic symphony = or*e/ra1 ) *oruses40 ,! execution 0 extremely good4 ,! "w is int]e/+1 c>eful1 curi\s1 & sugge/ive1 b x leaves "o cold4 ,:5 ,i come to reason out my impression ,i expla9 x 9 ?is way4 ,to subord9ate man to ?+s--to annex ! human voice1 z a m]e supplem5t1 to ! or*e/ra--is false 9 idea4 ,to make simple n>rative out ( dramatic mat]ial1 is a d]ogation1 a piece ( levity4 ,a ,romeo & ,juliet 9 :i* !re is no ,romeo & no ,juliet is an absurdity4 ,to sub/itute ! inf]ior1 ! obscure1 ! vague1 = ! high] & ! cle>1 is a *all5ge to common s5se4 ,x is a violation ( t natural hi]>*y ( ?+s :i* is nev] violat$ ) impunity4 ,! musician has put toge!r a s]ies ( symphonic pictures1 )\t any inn] connection1 a /r+ ( riddles1 to :i* a prose text alone supplies mean+ & unity4 ,! only intelligible voice :i* is all[$ to appe> 9 ! "w is t ( ,fri> ,laur5ce3 8 s]mon c\ld n be express$ 9 *ords1 & is !re=e pla9ly sung4 ,b ! moral ( a play is n ! play1 & ! play itself has be5 elb[$ out by recitative4 ,! musician ( ! pres5t day1 n be+ able to give u :at is beautiful1 torm5ts himself to give u :at is new4 ,false orig9ality1 false gr&eur1 false g5ius6 ,?is labor$ art is :olly antipa!tic to me4 ,sci5ce simulat+ g5ius is b a =m ( quack]y4 ,b]lioz z a critic is clev]ness itself2 z a musician he is le>n$1 inv5tive1 & +5i\s1 b he is try+ to a*ieve ! great] :5 he _c compass ! less]4 ,?irty ye>s ago1 at ,b]l91 ! same impression 0 left ^u me by 8 8,infancy ( ,*ri/10 :i* ,i he>d him conduct himself4 ,8 art seems to me nei!r fruitful nor :olesome2 !re is no true & solid beauty 9 x4 ,i ought to say1 h[ev]1 t ! audi5ce1 :i* 0 a fairly full "o1 seem$ v well satisfi$4 ,july #ag1 #ahgg4--,ye/]day ,i w5t ?r\gh my ,la ,fonta9e1 & notic$ ! omissions 9 him4 ,he has nei!r butt]fly nor rose4 ,he utilizes nei!r ! crane1 nor ! quail1 nor ! drom$>y1 nor ! liz>d4 ,!re is n a s+le e*o ( *ivalry 9 him4 ,= him1 ! hi/ory ( ,france dates f ,l\is ,,xiv4 ,8 geography only ranges1 9 reality1 ov] a few squ>e miles1 & t\*es nei!r ! ,rh9e nor ! ,loire1 nei!r ! m\nta9s nor ! sea4 ,he nev] inv5ts 8 subjects1 b indol5tly takes !m ready-made f else:]e4 ,b ) all ?is :at an adorable writ]1 :at a pa9t]1 :at an obs]v]1 :at a humori/1 :at a /ory-tell]6 ,i am nev] tir$ ( read+ him1 ?\gh ,i "k half 8 fables by he>t4 ,9 ! matt] ( vocabul>y1 turns1 tones1 phrases1 idioms1 8 /yle is p]haps ! ri*e/ ( ! great p]iod1 = x comb9es1 9 ! mo/ skillful way1 ar*aism & classic f9i%1 ! ,gallic & ! ,fr5* elem5ts4 ,v>iety1 satire1 f9esse1 feel+1 movem5t1 t]s5ess1 suavity1 grace1 gayety1 at times ev5 nobl5ess1 gravity1 gr&eur--ev]y?+--is to be f\nd 9 him4 ,& !n ! happ9ess ( ! epi!ts1 ! piquancy ( ! say+s1 ! felicity ( 8 rapid sket*es & un=ese5 audacities1 & ! un=gettable %>pness ( phrase6 ,8 defects are eclips$ by 8 imm5se v>iety ( diff]5t aptitudes4 ,"o has only to comp>e 8 8,woodcutt] & ,dea?0 ) t ( ,boileau 9 ord] to e/imate ! enorm\s diff]5ce betwe5 ! arti/ & ! critic :o f\nd fault ) 8 "w4 ,la ,fonta9e gives y a picture ( ! poor peasant "u ! mon>*y2 ,boileau %[s y no?+ b a man p]spir+ "u a heavy load4 ,! fir/ is a hi/orical witness1 ! second a m]e academic rhym]4 ,f ,la ,fonta9e x is possible to recon/ruct ! :ole society ( 8 epo*1 & ! old ,*amp5ois ) 8 bea/s rema9s ! only ,hom] ,france has ev] possess$4 ,he has z _m portraits ( m5 & wom5 z ,la ,bruyre1 & ,molire is n m humor\s4 ,8 weak side is 8 epicureanism1 ) its t+e ( grossness4 ,?is1 no d\bt1 0 :at made ,lam>t9e dislike him4 ,! religi\s note is abs5t f 8 lyre2 !re is no?+ 9 him :i* %[s any contact ) ,*ri/ianity1 any k ( ! sublim] trag$ies ( ! s\l4 ,k9d nature is 8 goddess1 ,horace 8 prophet1 & ,montaigne 8 gospel4 ,9 o!r words1 8 horizon is t ( ! ,r5aissance4 ,?is pagan isl& 9 ! full ,ca?olic /ream is v curi\s2 ! paganism ( x is s p]fectly s9c]e & nave4 ,b inde$1 ,reblais1 ,molire1 ,sa9t ,evremond1 are mu* m pagan ?an ,voltaire4 ,x is z ?\gh1 = ! g5u9e ,fr5*man1 ,*ri/ianity 0 a m]e pose or co/ume--some?+ :i* has no?+ to d ) ! he>t1 ) ! real man1 or 8 deep] nature4 ,?is division ( ?+s is common 9 ,italy too4 ,x is ! natural effect ( political religions3 ! prie/ becomes sep>at$ f ! layman1 ! believ] f ! man1 wor%ip f s9c]ity4 ,july #ah1 #ahgg4--;,i h j come across a "* 9 a novel ) a passion = synonyms1 & ,i said to myself3 ,take c>e--t is y\r weakness too4 ,9 y\r se>* = close & delicate expression1 y run ?r\gh ! :ole gamut ( synonyms1 & y\r p5 works too (t5 9 s]ies ( ?ree4 ,bew>e6 ,avoid mann]isms & tricks2 !y are signs ( weakness4 ,subject & occasion only mu/ gov]n ! use ( words4 ,proc$ure by s+le epi!t gives /r5g?2 ! d\bl+ ( a ^w gives cle>ness1 because x supplies ! two extremities ( ! s]ies2 ! trebl+ ( x gives complet5ess by sugge/+ at once ! beg9n+1 middle1 & end ( ! idea2 :ile a quadruple phrase may enri* by =ce ( enum]ation4 ,indecision be+ my pr9cipal defect1 ,i am fond ( a plurality ( phrases :i* are b s _m successive approximations & corrections4 ,i am especially fond ( !m 9 ?is j\rnal1 :]e ,i write z x comes4 ,9 s]i\s composition two is1 on ! :ole1 my category4 ,b x w\ld be well to practice "o's self 9 ! use ( ! s+le ^w--( ! %aft deliv]$ promptly & once = all4 ,i %\ld h inde$ to cure myself ( hesitation fir/4 ,i see too _m ways ( say+ ?+s2 a m decid$ m9d hits on ! "r way at once4 ,s+l5ess ( phrase implies c\rage1 self-confid5ce1 cle>-sight$ness4 ,to atta9 x !re mu/ be no d\bt+1 & ,i am always d\bt+4 ,& yet-- 8,quiconque e/ l\p agisse en l\p2 ,c'e/ le plus c]ta9 de beauc\p40 ,i wond] :e!r ,i %\ld ga9 any?+ by ! attempt to assume a "* :i* is n m9e4 ,my wav]+ mann]1 born ( d\bt & scruple1 has at lea/ ! advantage ( r5d]+ all ! diff]5t %ades ( my ?\ght1 & ( be+ s9c]e4 ,if x 7 to become t]se1 affirmative1 resolute1 w\ld x n be a m]e imitation8 ,a private j\rnal1 :i* is b a vehicle = m$itation & rev]ie1 beats ab\t ! bu% z x pleases )\t be+ h\nd to make = any def9ite end4 ,conv]sation ) self is a gradual process ( ?\ght-cle>+4 ,h5ce all ^! synonyms1 ^! wav]+s1 ^! repetitions & returns ^u "o's self4 ,affirmation maybe brief2 inquiry takes "t2 & ! l9e :i* ?\ght foll[s is necess>ily an irregul> "o4 ,i am consci\s inde$ t at bottom !re is b "o "r expression2 ,footnote3 ,comp>e ,la ,bruyre3 8,entre t\tes les diff]5tes expressions qui peuv5t r5dre une seule de nos p5ses il n'y en a qu'une qui soit la bonne2 on ne la r5contre pas t\j\rs en p>lant ou en crivant3 il e/ vray nanmo9s qu'elle exi/e1 que t\t ce qui ne l'e/ po9t e/ foible1 et ne satisfait po9t un homme d'esprit qui veut se faire ent5dre40 b 9 ord] to f9d x ,i wi% to make my *oice among all t are l x2 & my m9d in/9ctively goes ?r\gh a s]ies ( v]bal modulations 9 se>* ( t %ade :i* may mo/ accurately r5d] ! idea4 ,or sometimes x is ! idea itself :i* has to be turn$ ov] & ov]1 t ,i may "k x & appreh5d x bett]4 ,i ?9k1 p5 9 h&2 x is l ! dis5tanglem5t1 ! w9d+-(f ( a ske94 ,evid5tly ! correspond+ =m ( /yle _c h ! qualities :i* belong to ?\ght :i* is already sure ( itself1 & only seeks to communicate itself to o!rs4 ,! function ( ! private j\rnal is "o ( obs]vation1 exp]im5t1 analysis1 contemplation2 t ( ! essay or article is to provoke reflection2 t ( ! book is to demon/rate4 ,july #ba1 #ahgg4--;,a sup]b night--a />ry sky--,jupit] & ,phoebe hold+ conv]se be=e my w9d[s4 ,gr&iose effects ( light & %ade ov] ! c\rty>d4 ,a sonata rose f ! black gulf ( %ad[ l a rep5tant pray] waft$ f purgatory4 ,! picturesque 0 lo/ 9 poetry1 & admiration 9 feel+4 ,july #cj1 #ahgg4-- 444 makes a v true rem>k ab\t ,r5an1 a propos ( ! volume ( 8,les ,evangiles40 ,he br+s out ! contradiction betwe5 ! lit]>y ta/e ( ! arti/1 :i* is delicate1 individual1 & true1 & ! op9ions ( ! critic1 :i* are borr[$1 old-fa%ion$ & wav]+4 ,?is hesitancy ( *oice betwe5 ! beautiful & ! true1 betwe5 poetry & prose1 betwe5 art & le>n+1 is1 9 fact1 *>act]i/ic4 ,r5an has a ke5 love = sci5ce1 b he has a /ill ke5] love = good writ+1 &1 if necess>y1 he w sacrifice ! exact phrase to ! beautiful phrase4 ,sci5ce is 8 mat]ial r ?an 8 object2 8 object is /yle4 ,a f9e passage is t5 times m preci\s 9 8 eyes ?an ! discov]y ( a fact or ! rectification ( a date4 ,& on ?is po9t ,i am v mu* ) him1 = a beautiful piece ( writ+ is beautiful by virtue ( a k9d ( tru? :i* is tru] ?an any m]e record ( au!ntic facts4 ,r\sseau also ?\ght ! same4 ,a *ronicl] may be able to correct ,tacitus1 b ,tacitus survives all ! *ronicl]s4 ,i "k well t ! ae/hetic temptation is ! ,fr5* temptation2 ,i h (t5 bewail$ x1 & yet1 if ,i desir$ any?+1 x w\ld be to be a writ]1 a great writ]4 ,te leave a monum5t beh9d1 a]e p]5nius1 an imp]i%able "w :i* might /ir ! ?\ghts1 ! feel+s1 ! dreams ( m51 g5]ation aft] g5]ation--?is is ! only glory :i* ,i c\ld wi% =1 if ,i 7 n wean$ ev5 f ?is wi% also4 ,a book w\ld be my ambition1 if ambition 7 n vanity & vanity ( vanities4 ,augu/ #aa1 #ahgg4--,! gr[+ triumph ( ,d>w9ism--t is to say ( mat]ialism1 or ( =ce--?reat5s ! conception ( ju/ice4 ,b ju/ice w h its turn4 ,! high] human law _c be ! (fspr+ ( animality4 ,ju/ice is ! "r to ! maximum ( individual indep5d5ce compatible ) ! same lib]ty = o!rs2 9 o!r words1 x is respect = man1 = ! immature1 ! small1 ! feeble2 x is ! gu>antee ( ^? human collectivities1 associations1 /ates1 nationalities--^? volunt>y or involunt>y unions--! object ( :i* is to increase ! sum ( happ9ess1 & to satisfy ! aspiration ( ! individual4 ,t "s %\ld make use ( o!rs = _! own purposes is an injury to ju/ice4 ,! "r ( ! /rong] is n a "r1 b a simple fact1 :i* obta9s only s long z !re is nei!r prote/ nor resi/ance4 ,x is l cold1 d>kness1 weight1 :i* tyrannize ov] man until he has inv5t$ artificial w>m?1 artificial light1 & ma*9]y4 ,human indu/ry is ?r\gh\t an emancipation f brute nature1 & ! advances made by ju/ice are 9 ! same way a s]ies ( rebuffs inflict$ ^u ! tyranny ( ! /rong]4 ,z ! m$ical art consi/s 9 ! conque/ ( disease1 s goodness consi/s 9 ! conque/ ( ! bl9d f]ocities & untam$ appetites ( ! human animal4 ,i see ! same law ?r\gh\t--increas+ emancipation ( ! individual1 a cont9u\s asc5t ( be+ t[>d life1 happ9ess1 ju/ice1 & wisdom4 ,gre$ & gluttony are ! />t+-po9t1 intellig5ce & g5]osity ! goal4 ,augu/ #ba1 #ahgg4 7,ba?s ( ,ems74--,9 ! salon !re has be5 a p]=mance 9 *orus ( 8,lorelei0 & o!r popul> airs4 ,:at 9 our c\ntry is only done = wor%ip is done also 9 ,g]many = poetry & music4 ,voices bl5d toge!r2 art %>es ! privilege ( religion4 ,x is a trait :i* is nei!r ,fr5* nor ,engli%1 nor1 ,i ?9k1 ,italian4 ,! _s ( arti/ic devotion1 ( imp]sonal comb9ation1 ( common1 h>moni\s1 dis9t]e/$ action1 is specially ,g]man2 x makes a welcome balance to c]ta9 clumsy & prosaic elem5ts 9 ! race4 ,lat]4--,p]haps ! crav+ = indep5d5ce ( ?\ght--! t5d5cy to g back to fir/ pr9ciples--is really prop] to ! ,g]manic m9d only4 ,! ,slavs & ! ,lat9s are gov]n$ r by ! collective wisdom ( ! community1 by tradition1 usage1 prejudice1 fa%ion2 or1 if !y break ?r\gh ^!1 !y are l slaves 9 revolt1 )\t any real liv+ appreh5sion ( ! law inh]5t 9 ?+s--! true law1 :i* is nei!r writt51 nor arbitr>y1 nor impos$4 ,! ,g]man wi%es to get at nature2 ! ,fr5*man1 ! ,spani>d1 ! ,russian1 /op at conv5tions4 ,! root ( ! problem is 9 ! "q ( ! relations betwe5 ,god & ! _w4 ,imman5ce or transc5d5ce--t1 /ep by /ep1 decides ! mean+ ( ev]y?+ else4 ,if ! m9d is radically ext]nal to ?+s1 x is n call$ ^u to con=m to !m4 ,if ! m9d is de/itute ( native tru?1 x mu/ get its tru? f outside1 by revelations4 ,& s y get ?\ght despis+ nature1 & 9 bondage to ! *ur*--s y h ! ,lat9 _w6 ,novemb] #f1 #ahgg4 7,g5eva74--,we talk ( love _m ye>s be=e we "k any?+ ab\t x1 & we ?9k we "k x because we talk ( x1 or because we repeat :at o!r p say ( x1 or :at books tell u ab\t x4 ,s t !re are ignorances ( diff]5t degrees1 & degrees ( k :i* are q deceptive4 ,"o ( ! wor/ plagues ( society is ?is ?\ghtless inexhau/ible v]bosity1 ?is c>eless use ( words1 ?is pret5se ( kn[+ a ?+ because we talk ab\t x--^! c\nt]feits ( belief1 ?\ght1 love1 or e>ne/ness1 :i* all ! :ile are m]e babble4 ,! wor/ ( x is1 t z self-love is beh9d ! babble1 ^! ignorances ( society are 9 g5]al f]oci\sly affirmative2 *att] mi/akes itself = op9ion1 prejudice poses z pr9ciple4 ,p>rots behave z ?\gh !y 7 ?9k+ be+s2 imitations give !mselves out z orig9als2 & polit5ess dem&s ! acceptance ( ! conv5tion4 ,x is v we>isome4 ,language is ! vehicle ( ?is confusion1 ! in/rum5t ( ?is unconsci\s fraud1 & all evils ( ! k9d are enorm\sly increas$ by univ]sal education1 by ! p]iodical press1 & by all ! o!r processes ( vulg>ization 9 use at ! pres5t "t4 ,e "o deals 9 pap] money2 few h ev] h&l$ gold4 ,we live on symbols1 & ev5 on ! symbols ( symbols2 we h nev] grasp$ or v]ifi$ ?+s = ourselves2 we judge ev]y?+1 & we "k no?+4 ,h[ seldom we meet ) orig9ality1 individuality1 s9c]ity1 n[adays6--) m5 :o are wor? ! tr\ble ( li/5+ to6 ,! true self 9 ! majority is lo/ 9 ! borr[$ self4 ,h[ few are any?+ else ?an a bundle ( incl9ations--any?+ m ?an animals--^: language & ^: gait alone recall to u ! highe/ rank 9 nature6 ,! imm5se majority ( our species are c&idates = humanity1 & no?+ m4 ,virtually we are m52 we might be1 we ought to be1 m52 b practically we d n succe$ 9 realiz+ ! type ( our race4 ,semblances & c\nt]feits ( m5 fill up ! habitable e>?1 p ! isl&s & ! cont95ts1 ! c\ntry & ! t[n4 ,if we wi% to respect m5 we mu/ =get :at !y are1 & ?9k ( ! ideal :i* !y c>ry hidd5 )9 !m1 ( ! j man & ! noble1 ! man ( intellig5ce & goodness1 inspiration & creative =ce1 :o is loyal & true1 fai?ful & tru/wor?y1 ( ! high] man1 9 %ort1 & t div9e ?+ we call a s\l4 ,! only m5 :o des]ve ! "n are ! h]oes1 ! g5iuses1 ! sa9ts1 ! h>moni\s1 puissant1 & p]fect samples ( ! race4 ,v few individuals des]ve to be li/5$ to1 b all des]ve t our curiosity ) reg>d to !m %\ld be a pitiful curiosity--t ! insight we br+ to be> on !m %\ld be *>g$ ) humility4 ,are we n all %ipwreck$1 diseas$1 condemn$ to dea?8 ,let ea* "w out 8 own salvation1 & blame no "o b himself2 s ! lot ( all w be bett]$4 ,:atev] impati5ce we may feel t[>d our neighbor1 & :atev] indignation our race may r\se 9 u1 we are *a9$ "o to ano!r1 &1 companions 9 labor & mis=tune1 h ev]y?+ to lose by mutual recrim9ation & reproa*4 ,let u be sil5t z to ea* o!r's weakness1 helpful1 tol]ant1 nay1 t5d] t[>d ea* o!r6 ,or1 if we _c feel t5d]ness1 may we at lea/ feel pity6 ,may we put away f u ! satire :i* sc\rges & ! ang] :i* br&s2 ! oil & w9e ( ! good ,sam>itan are ( m avail4 ,we may make ! ideal a reason = contempt2 b x is m beautiful to make x a reason = t5d]ness4 ,decemb] #i1 #ahgg4--,! mod]n haunt]s ( ,p>nassus ,footnote3 ,amiel's expression is ,les ,p>nassieus1 an old "n reviv$1 :i* n[adays describes ! y\ng] s*ool ( ,fr5* poetry repres5t$ by su* names z ,?ophile ,gauti]1 ,leconte de ,lisle1 ,?odore de ,bauville1 & ,baudelaire4 ,! mod]n use ( ! ^w dates f ! publication ( 8,la ,p>nasse ,contempora90 7,lem]re1 #ahff74 c>ve urns ( agate & ( onyx1 b inside ! urns :at is !re8--a%es4 ,_! "w lacks feel+1 s]i\sness1 s9c]ity1 & pa?os--9 a ^w1 s\l & moral life4 ,i _c br+ myself to sympa?ize ) su* a way ( und]/&+ poetry4 ,! tal5t %[n is a/oni%+1 b /uff & matt] are want+4 ,x is an ef=t ( ! imag9ation to /& alone--a sub/itute = ev]y?+ else4 ,we f9d metaphors1 rhymes1 music1 color1 b n man1 n humanity4 ,poetry ( ?is factiti\s k9d may beguile "o at tw5ty1 b :at c "o make ( x at fifty8 ,x rem9ds me ( ,p]gamos1 ( ,alex&ria1 ( all ! epo*s ( decad5ce :5 beauty ( =m hid pov]ty ( ?\ght & exhau/ion ( feel+4 ,i /rongly %>e ! repugnance :i* ?is poetical s*ool ar\ses 9 simple p4 ,x is z ?\gh x only c>$ to please ! _w-worn1 ! ov]-subtle1 ! corrupt$1 :ile x ignores all normal heal?y life1 virtu\s habits1 pure affections1 /eady labor1 hone/y1 & duty4 ,x is an affectation1 & because x is an affectation ! s*ool is /ruck ) /]ility4 ,! read] desires 9 ! poet some?+ bett] ?an a juggl] 9 rhyme1 or a conjur] 9 v]se2 he looks to f9d 9 him a pa9t] ( life1 a be+ :o ?9ks1 loves1 & has a consci5ce1 :o feels passion & rep5tance4 99 99 99 99 99 ,composition is a process ( comb9ation1 9 :i* ?\ght puts toge!r complem5t>y tru?s1 & tal5t fuses into h>mony ! mo/ contr>y qualities ( /yle4 ,s t !re is no composition )\t ef=t1 )\t pa9 ev51 z 9 all br++ =?4 ,! rew>d is ! giv+ bir? to some?+ liv+--some?+1 t is to say1 :i*1 by a k9d ( magic1 makes a liv+ unity out ( su* oppos$ attributes z ord]l9ess & spontaneity1 ?\ght & imag9ation1 solidity & *>m4 ,! true critic /rives = a cle> vision ( ?+s z !y are--= ju/ice & fairness2 8 ef=t is to get free f himself1 s t he may 9 no way disfigure t :i* he wi%es to und]/& or reproduce4 ,8 sup]iority to ! common h]d lies 9 ?is ef=t1 ev5 :5 its success is only p>tial4 ,he di/ru/s 8 own s5ses1 he sifts 8 own impressions1 by return+ ^u !m f diff]5t sides & at diff]5t times1 by comp>+1 mod]at+1 %ad+1 di/+ui%+1 & s endeavor+ to approa* m & m ne>ly to ! =mula :i* repres5ts ! maximum ( tru?4 99 99 99 99 99 ,is x n ! sad natures :o are mo/ tol]ant ( gayety8 ,!y "k t gayety means impulse & vigor1 t g5]ally speak+ x is disguis$ k9dl9ess1 & t if x 7 a m]e affair ( temp]am5t & mood1 /ill x is a bless+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! art :i* is gr& & yet simple is t :i* presupposes ! greate/ elevation bo? 9 arti/ & 9 public4 ,h[ mu* folly is compatible ) ultimate wisdom & prud5ce8 ,x is difficult to say4 ,! clev]e/ folk are ^? :o discov] soone/ h[ to utilize _! neighbor's exp]i5ce1 & s get rid 9 good "t ( _! natural presumption4 ,we mu/ try to grasp ! _s ( ?+s1 to see correctly1 to speak to ! po9t1 to give practicable advice1 to act on ! spot1 to arrive at ! prop] mom5t1 to /op 9 "t4 ,tact1 measure1 occasion--all ^! des]ve our cultivation & respect4 99 99 99 99 99 ,april #bb1 #ahgh4--,lett] f my c\s9 ,julia4 ,^! k9d old relations f9d x v difficult to und]/& a man's life1 especially a /ud5t's life4 ,! h]mits ( rev]ie are sc>$ by ! busy _w1 & feel !mselves out ( place 9 action4 ,b aft] all1 we d n *ange at sev5ty1 & a good1 pi\s old lady1 half-bl9d & liv+ 9 a village1 c no long] ext5d h] po9t ( view1 nor =m any idea ( exi/5ces :i* h no relation ) h] own4 ,:at is ! l9k by :i* ^! s\ls1 %ut 9 & encompass$ z !y are by ! details ( daily life1 lay hold on ! ideal8 ,! l9k ( religi\s aspiration4 ,fai? is ! plank :i* saves !m4 ,!y "k ! mean+ ( ! high] life2 _! s\l is a?ir/ = heav54 ,_! op9ions are defective1 b _! moral exp]i5ce is great2 _! intellect is full ( d>kness b _! s\ls is full ( light4 ,we sc>cely "k h[ to talk to !m ab\t ! ?+s ( e>?1 b !y are ripe & mature 9 ! ?+s ( ! he>t4 ,if !y _c und]/& u1 x is = u to make advances to !m1 to speak _! language1 to ent] into _! range ( ideas1 _! modes ( feel+4 ,we mu/ approa* !m on _! noble side1 &1 t we may %[ !m ! m respect1 induce !m to op5 to u ! casket ( _! mo/ treasur$ ?\ghts4 ,!re is always "s gra9 ( gold at ! bottom ( e honorable old age4 ,let x be our bus9ess to give x an opportunity ( %[+ itself to affectionate eyes4 ,may #aj1 #ahgh4--;,i h j come back f a solit>y walk4 ,i he>d night+ales1 saw :ite lilac & or*>d trees 9 bloom4 ,my he>t is full ( impressions %[]$ ^u x by ! *aff9*es1 ! gold5 orioles1 ! gras%opp]s1 ! haw?orns1 & ! primroses4 ,a dull1 gray1 fleecy sky brood$ ) a c]ta9 melan*oly ov] ! nuptial spl5dors ( vegetation4 ,_m pa9ful memories /irr$ afre% 9 me2 at ,pr l',evque1 at ,j>gonnant1 at ,vill]euse1 a score ( phantoms--phantoms ( y\?--rose ) sad eyes to greet me4 ,! walls _h *ang$1 & roads :i* 7 once %ady & dreamy ,i f\nd n[ wa/e & treeless4 ,b at ! fir/ trills ( ! night+ale a flood ( t5d] feel+ fill$ my he>t4 ,i felt myself soo!d1 grateful1 melt$2 a mood ( s]5ity & contemplation took possession ( me4 ,a c]ta9 little pa?1 a v k+dom ( gre51 ) f\nta91 ?ickets1 g5tle ups & d[ns1 & an abundance ( s++-birds1 delight$ me1 & did me inexpressible good4 ,its peaceful remot5ess br\ght back ! bloom ( feel+4 ,i _h ne$ ( x4 ,may #ai1 #ahgh4--;,criticism is above all a gift1 an intuition1 a matt] ( tact & flair2 x _c be taught or demon/rat$--x is an art4 ,critical g5ius means an aptitude = disc]n+ tru? "u appe>ances or 9 disguises :i* conceal x2 = discov]+ x 9 spite ( ! errors ( te/imony1 ! frauds ( tradition1 ! du/ ( "t1 ! loss or alt]ation ( texts4 ,x is ! sagacity ( ! hunt] :om no?+ deceives = long1 & :om no ruse c ?r[ (f ! trail4 ,x is ! tal5t ( ! ,juge d',in/ruction1 :o kn[s h[ to int]rogate circum/ances1 & to extract an unkn[n secret f a ?\s& falsehoods4 ,! true critic c und]/& ev]y?+1 b he w be ! dupe ( no?+1 & to no conv5tion w he sacrifice 8 duty1 :i* is to f9d out & proclaim tru?4 ,compet5t le>n+1 g5]al cultivation1 absolute probity1 accuracy ( g5]al view1 human sympa?y & te*nical capacity--h[ _m ?+s are necess>y to ! critic1 )\t reckon+ grace1 delicacy1 savoir vivre1 & ! gift ( happy phrase-mak+6 ,july #bf1 #ahgh4--;,e morn+ ,i wake up ) ! same s5se ( va9 /ruggle aga9/ a m\nta9 tide :i* is ab\t to ov]:elm me4 ,i %all die by suffocation1 & ! suffocation has begun2 ! progress x has already made /imulates x to g on4 ,h[ c "o make any plans :5 e day br+s ) x "s fre% mis]y8 ,i _c ev5 decide on a l9e ( action 9 a situation s full ( confusion & unc]ta9ty 9 :i* ,i look =w>d to ! wor/1 :ile yet all is d\btful4 ,h ,i /ill a few ye>s be=e me or only a few mon?s8 ,w dea? be sl[ or w x come ^u me z a sudd5 cata/rophe8 ,h[ am ,i to be> ! days z !y come8 h[ am ,i to fill !m8 ,h[ am ,i to die ) calmness & dignity8 ,i "k n4 ,ev]y?+ ,i d = ! fir/ "t ,i d badly2 b "h ev]y?+ is new2 !re c be no help f exp]i5ce2 ! end mu/ be a *ance6 ,h[ mortify+ = "o :o has set s great a price ^u indep5d5ce--to dep5d ^u a ?\s& un=ese5 cont+5cies6 ,he kn[s n h[ he w act or :at he w become2 he w\ld fa9 speak ( ^! ?+s ) a fri5d ( good s5se & good c\nsel--b :o8 ,he d>es n al>m ! affections :i* are mo/ 8 own1 & he is almo/ sure t any o!rs w\ld try to di/ract 8 att5tion1 & w\ld refuse to see ! position z x is4 ,& :ile ,i wait 7wait = :at8--c]ta9ty87 ! weeks fl[ by l wat]1 & /r5g? wa/es away l a smok+ c&le4444 ,is "o free to let "o's self drift into dea? )\t resi/ance8 ,is self-pres]vation a duty8 ,d we owe x to ^? :o love u to prolong ?is desp]ate /ruggle to its utmo/ limit8 ,i ?9k s1 b x is "o fett] ! m4 ,= we mu/ !n feign a hope :i* we d n feel1 & hide ! absolute disc\ragem5t ( :i* ! he>t is really full4 ,well1 :y n8 ,^? :o succumb are b\nd 9 g5]osity n to cool ! ardor ( ^? :o are /ill battl+1 /ill enjoy+4 ,two p>allel roads lead to ! same result2 m$itation p>alyzes me1 physiology condemns me4 ,my s\l is dy+1 my body is dy+4 ,9 e direction ! end is clos+ ^u me4 ,my own melan*oly anticipates & endorses ! m$ical judgm5t :i* says1 8,y\r j\rney is done40 ,! two v]dicts po9t to ! same result--t ,i h no long] a future4 ,& yet !re is a side ( me :i* says1 8,absurd60 :i* is incr$ul\s1 & incl9$ to reg>d x all z a bad dream4 ,9 va9 ! reason ass]ts x2 ! m9d's inw>d ass5t is /ill refus$4 ,ano!r contradiction6 ,i h n ! /r5g? to hope1 & ,i h n ! /r5g? to submit4 ,i believe no long]1 & ,i believe /ill4 ,i feel t ,i am dy+1 & yet ,i _c realize t ,i am dy+4 ,is x madness already8 ,no1 x is human nature tak5 9 ! act2 x is life itself :i* is a contradiction1 = life means an incessant dea? & a daily resurrection2 x affirms & x d5ies1 x de/roys & con/ructs1 x ga!rs & scatt]s1 x humbles & exalts at ! same "t4 ,to live is to die p>tially--to feel "o's self 9 ! he>t ( a :irlw9d ( oppos+ =ces--to be an enigma4 ,if ! invisible type mold$ by ^! two contradictory curr5ts--if ?is =m :i* presides ov] all my *anges ( be+--has itself g5]al & orig9al value1 :at does x matt] :e!r x c>ries on ! game a few mon?s or ye>s long]1 or n8 ,x has done :at x _h to d1 x has repres5t$ a c]ta9 unique comb9ation1 "o p>ticul> expression ( ! race4 ,^! types are %ad[s--manes4 ,c5tury aft] c5tury employs itself 9 fa%ion+ !m4 ,glory--fame--is ! pro( t "o type has seem$ to ! o!r types new]1 r>]1 & m beautiful ?an ! re/4 ,! common types are s\ls too1 only !y h no int]e/ except = ! ,creator1 & = a small numb] ( individuals4 ,to feel "o's own fragility is well1 b to be indiff]5t to x is bett]4 ,to take ! measure ( "o's own mis]y is pr(itable1 b to und]/& its raison d'tre is /ill m pr(itable4 ,to m\rn = "o's self is a la/ sign ( vanity2 we ought only to regret t :i* has real values1 & to regret "o's self1 is to furni% involunt>y evid5ce t "o _h atta*$ importance to "o's self4 ,at ! same "t x is a pro( ( ignorance ( our true wor? & function4 ,x is n necess>y to live1 b x is necess>y to pres]ve "o's type unh>m$1 to rema9 fai?ful to "o's idea1 to protect "o's monad aga9/ alt]ation & degradation4 ,novemb] #g1 #ahgh4--,to-day we h be5 talk+ ( realism 9 pa9t+1 &1 9 connection ) x1 ( t poetical & arti/ic illusion :i* does n aim at be+ conf\nd$ ) reality itself4 ,realism wi%es to entrap s5sation2 ! object ( true art is only to *>m ! imag9ation1 n to deceive ! eye4 ,:5 we see a good portrait we say1 8,x is alive60--9 o!r words1 our imag9ation l5ds x life4 ,on ! o!r h&1 a wax figure produces a sort ( t]ror 9 u2 its froz5 life-lik5ess makes a dea?like impression on u1 & we say1 8,x is a gho/60 ,9 ! "o case we see :at is lack+1 & dem& x2 9 ! o!r we see :at is giv5 u1 & we give on our side4 ,art1 !n1 addresses itself to ! imag9ation2 ev]y?+ t appeals to s5sation only is bel[ art1 almo/ outside art4 ,a "w ( art ought to set ! poetical faculty 9 u to "w1 x ought to /ir u to imag9e1 to complete our p]ception ( a ?+4 ,& we c only d ?is :5 ! arti/ leads ! way4 ,m]e copyi/'s pa9t+1 reali/ic reproduction1 pure imitation1 leave u cold because _! au?or is a ma*9e1 a mirror1 an iodiz$ plate1 & n a s\l4 ,art lives by appe>ances1 b ^! appe>ances are spiritual visions1 fix$ dreams4 ,poetry repres5ts to u nature become con-sub/antial ) ! s\l1 because 9 x nature is only a rem9isc5ce t\*$ ) emotion1 an image vibrat+ ) our own life1 a =m )\t weight--9 %ort1 a mode ( ! s\l4 ,! poetry :i* is mo/ real & objective is ! expression ( a s\l :i* ?r[s itself into ?+s1 & =gets itself 9 _! pres5ce m readily ?an o!rs2 b /ill1 x is ! expression ( ! s\l1 & h5ce :at we call /yle4 ,/yle may be only collective1 hi]atic1 national1 s long z ! arti/ is /ill ! int]pret] ( ! community2 x t5ds to become p]sonal 9 proportion z society makes room = individuality & favors its expansion4 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re is a way ( kill+ tru? by tru?s4 ,"u ! pret5se t we want to /udy x m 9 detail we pulv]ize ! /atue--x is an absurdity ( :i* our p$antry is con/antly guilty4 ,^? :o c only see ! fragm5ts ( a ?+ are to me esprits faux1 j z mu* z ^? :o disfigure ! fragm5ts4 ,! good critic ought to be ma/] ( ! ?ree capacities1 ! ?ree modes ( see+ m5 & ?+s--he %\ld be able simultane\sly to see !m z !y are1 z !y might be1 & z !y ought to be4 99 99 99 99 99 ,mod]n culture is a delicate electu>y made up ( v>i$ savors & subtle colors1 :i* c be m easily felt ?an measur$ or def9$4 ,its v sup]iority consi/s 9 ! complexity1 ! association ( contr>ies1 ! skillful comb9ation x implies4 ,! man ( to-day1 fa%ion$ by ! hi/orical & geographical influ5ces ( tw5ty c\ntries & ( ?irty c5turies1 tra9$ & modifi$ by all ! sci5ces & all ! arts1 ! supple recipi5t ( all lit]atures1 is an entirely new product4 ,he f9ds aff9ities1 relation%ips1 analogies ev]y:]e1 b at ! same "t he cond5ses & sums up :at is else:]e scatt]$4 ,he is l ! smile ( ,la ,gioconda1 :i* seems to reveal a s\l to ! spectator only to leave him ! m c]ta9ly "u a f9al impression ( my/]y1 s _m diff]5t ?+s are express$ 9 x at once4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to und]/& ?+s we mu/ h be5 once 9 !m & !n h come out ( !m2 s t fir/ !re mu/ be captivity & !n deliv]ance1 illusion foll[$ by disillusion1 en?usiasm by disappo9tm5t4 ,he :o is /ill "u ! spell1 & he :o has nev] felt ! spell1 are equally incompet5t4 ,we only "k well :at we h fir/ believ$1 !n judg$4 ,to und]/& we mu/ be free1 yet n h be5 always free4 ,! same tru? holds1 :e!r x is a "q ( love1 ( art1 ( religion1 or ( patriotism4 ,sympa?y is a fir/ condition ( criticism2 reason & ju/ice presuppose1 at _! orig91 emotion4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:at is an intellig5t man8 ,a man :o ent]s ) ease & complet5ess into ! _s ( ?+s & ! int5tion ( p]sons1 & :o arrives at an end by ! %orte/ r\te4 ,lucidity & suppl5ess ( ?\ght1 critical delicacy & inv5tive res\rce1 ^! are 8 attributes4 99 99 99 99 99 ,analysis kills spontaneity4 ,! gra9 once gr\nd into fl\r spr+s & g]m9ates no m4 99 99 99 99 99 ,janu>y #c1 #ahgi4--,lett] f----4 ,?is k9d fri5d ( m9e has no pity4444 ,i h be5 try+ to quiet 8 ov]-delicate susceptibilities4444 ,x is difficult to write p]fectly easy lett]s :5 "o f9ds !m /udi$ ) a magnify+ glass1 & treat$ l monum5tal inscriptions1 9 :i* ea* "* has be5 delib]ately engrav$ ) a view to an et]nity ( life4 ,su* disproportion betwe5 ! ^w & its comm5t>y1 betwe5 ! playfulness ( ! writ] & ! analytical temp] ( ! read]1 is n favorable to ease ( /yle4 ,"o d>es n be "o's natural self ) ^! s]i\s folk :o atta* importance to ev]y?+2 x is difficult to write op5-he>t$ly if "o mu/ weigh e phrase & e ^w4 ,esprit means tak+ ?+s 9 ! s5se :i* !y are meant to h1 ent]+ into ! tone ( o!r p1 be+ able to place "o's self on ! requir$ level2 esprit is t j & accurate s5se :i* div9es1 appreciates1 & weighs quickly1 lightly1 & well4 ,! m9d mu/ h its play1 ! ,muse is w+$--! ,greeks knew x1 & ,socrates4 ,janu>y #ac1 #ahgi4--;,x is impossible = me to rememb] :at lett]s ,i wrote ye/]day4 ,a s+le night digs a gulf betwe5 ! self ( ye/]day & ! self ( to-day4 ,my life is )\t unity ( action1 because my actions !mselves are escap+ f ! control ( memory4 ,my m5tal p[]1 occupi$ 9 ga9+ possession ( itself "u ! =m ( consci\sness1 seems to be lett+ g its hold on all t g5]ally peoples ! und]/&+1 z ! glaci] ?r[s (f ! /ones & fragm5ts fall5 into its crevasses1 t x may rema9 pure cry/al4 ,! philosophic m9d is bo? to ov]weight itself ) too _m mat]ial facts or trivial memories4 ,?\ght cl+s only to ?\ght--t is to say1 to itself1 to ! psy*ological process4 ,! m9d's only ambition is = an enri*$ exp]i5ce4 ,x f9ds its pleasure 9 /udy+ ! play ( its own facilities1 & ! /udy passes easily into an aptitude & habit4 ,reflection becomes no?+ m ?an an app>atus = ! regi/ration ( ! impressions1 emotions1 & ideas :i* pass across ! m9d4 ,! :ole m\lt+ process is c>ri$ on s en]getically t ! m9d is n only unclo!d1 b /ripp$ ( itself1 &1 s to speak1 de-sub/antiat$4 ,! :eel turns s quickly t x melts ar\nd ! ma!matical axis1 :i* alone rema9s cold because x is impalpable1 & has no ?ickness4 ,all ?is is natural en\gh1 b v dang]\s4 ,s long z "o is numb]$ among ! liv+--s long1 t is to say1 z "o is /ill plung$ 9 ! _w ( m51 a %>] ( _! int]e/s1 conflicts1 vanities1 passions1 & duties1 "o is b\nd to d5y "o's self ?is subtle /ate ( consci\sness2 "o mu/ cons5t to be a sep>ate individual1 hav+ "o's special "n1 position1 age1 & sph]e ( activity4 ,9 spite ( all ! temptations ( imp]sonality1 "o mu/ resume ! position ( a be+ imprison$ )9 c]ta9 limits ( "t & space1 an individual ) special surr\nd+s1 fri5ds1 enemies1 pr(ession1 c\ntry1 b\nd to h\se & fe$ himself1 to make up 8 acc\nts & look aft] 8 affairs2 9 %ort1 "o mu/ behave l all ! _w4 ,!re are days :5 all ^! details seem to me a dream--:5 ,i wond] at ! desk "u my h&1 at my body itself--:5 ,i ask myself if !re is a /reet be=e my h\se1 & if all ?is geographical & topographical phantasmagoria is inde$ real4 ,"t & space become !n m]e specks2 ,i become a %>] 9 a purely spiritual exi/5ce2 ,i see myself sub specie oet]nitatis4 ,is n m9d simply t :i* enables u to m]ge f9ite reality 9 ! inf9ite possibility ar\nd x8 ,or1 to put x diff]5tly1 is n m9d ! univ]sal virtuality1 ! univ]se lat5t8 ,if s1 its z]o w\ld be ! g]m ( ! inf9ite1 :i* is express$ ma!matically by ! d\ble z]o 7#jj74 ,d$uction3 t ! m9d may exp]i5ce ! inf9ite 9 itself2 t 9 ! human individual !re arises sometimes ! div9e sp>k :i* reveals to him ! exi/5ce ( ! orig9al1 fundam5tal1 pr9cipal ,be+1 )9 :i* all is conta9$ l a s]ies )9 its g5]at+ =mula4 ,! univ]se is b a radiation ( m9d2 & ! radiations ( ! ,div9e m9d are = u m ?an appe>ances2 !y h a reality p>allel to our own4 ,! radiations ( our m9d are imp]fect reflections f ! great %[ ( fireworks set 9 motion by ,brahma1 & great art is great only because ( its con=mities ) ! ,div9e ord]--) t :i* is4 ,ideal conceptions are ! m9d's anticipation ( su* an ord]4 ,! m9d is capable ( !m because x is m9d1 &1 z su*1 p]ceives ! ,et]nal4 ,! real1 on ! contr>y1 is fragm5t>y & pass+4 ,law alone is et]nal4 ,! ideal is !n ! imp]i%able hope ( some?+ bett]--! m9d's involunt>y prote/ aga9/ ! pres5t1 ! leav5 ( ! future work+ 9 x4 ,x is ! sup]natural 9 u1 or r ! sup]-animal1 & ! gr\nd ( human progress4 ,he :o has no ideal cont5ts himself ) :at is2 he has no qu>rel ) facts1 :i* = him are id5tical ) ! j1 ! good1 & ! beautiful4 ,b :y is ! div9e radiation imp]fect8 ,because x is /ill go+ on4 ,our planet1 = example1 is 9 ! mid-c\rse ( its exp]i5ce4 ,its flora & fauna are /ill *ang+4 ,! evolution ( humanity is ne>] its orig9 ?an its close4 ,! complete spiritualization ( ! animal elem5t 9 nature seems to be s+ul>ly difficult1 & x is ! task ( our species4 ,its p]=mance is h9d]$ by error1 evil1 selfi%ness1 & dea?1 )\t c\nt+ telluric cata/rophes4 ,! edifice ( a common happ9ess1 a common sci5ce ( morality & ju/ice1 is sket*$1 b only sket*$4 ,a ?\s& ret>d+ & p]turb+ causes h9d] ?is giant's task1 9 :i* nations1 races1 & cont95ts take "p4 ,at ! pres5t mom5t humanity is n yet con/itut$ z a physical unity1 & its g5]al education is n yet begun4 ,all our attempts at ord] z yet h be5 local cry/allizations4 ,n[1 inde$1 ! diff]5t possibilities are beg9n+ to comb9e 7union ( po/s & telegraphs1 univ]sal exhibitions1 voyages r\nd ! globes1 int]national congresses1 etc474 ,sci5ce & common int]e/ are b9d+ toge!r ! great fractions ( humanity1 :i* religion & language h kept ap>t4 ,a ye> 9 :i* !re has be5 talk ( a network ( ,african railways1 runn+ f ! coa/ to ! c5t] & br++ ! ,atlantic1 ! ,m$it]ranean1 & ! ,indian ,ocean into communication ) ea* o!r--su* a ye> is en\gh to m>k a new epo*4 ,! fanta/ic has become ! conceivable1 ! possible t5ds to become ! real2 ! e>? becomes ! g>d5 ( man4 ,man's *ief problem is h[ to make ! cohabitation ( ! individuals ( 8 species possible2 h[1 t is to say1 to secure = ea* successive epo* ! law1 ! ord]1 ! equilibrium :i* befits x4 ,division ( labor all[s him to explore 9 e direction at once2 indu/ry1 sci5ce1 art1 law1 education1 morals1 religion1 politics1 & economical relations--all are 9 process ( bir?4 ,?us ev]y?+ may be br\ght back to z]o by ! m9d1 b x is a fruitful z]o--a z]o :i* conta9s ! univ]se &1 9 p>ticul>1 humanity4 ,! m9d has no m difficulty 9 track+ ! real )9 ! innum]able ?an 9 appreh5d+ inf9ite possibility4 #jj may issue f #j1 or may return to x4 ,janu>y #ai1 #ahgi4--;,*>ity--goodness--places a volunt>y curb on acut5ess ( p]ception2 x scre5s & s(t5s ! rays ( a too vivid insight2 x refuses to see too cle>ly ! ugl9ess & mis]y ( ! great intellectual hospital ar\nd x4 ,true goodness is lo? to recognize any privilege 9 itself2 x pref]s to be humble & *>itable2 x tries n to see :at />es x 9 ! face--t is to say1 ! imp]fections1 infirmities1 & errors ( humank9d2 its pity puts on airs ( approval & enc\ragem5t4 ,x triumphs ov] its own repulsions t x may help & raise4 ,x has (t5 be5 rem>k$ t ,v9et prais$ weak ?+s4 ,if s1 x 0 n f any failure 9 8 own critical s5se2 x 0 f *>ity4 8,qu5* n ! smok+ flax10--to :i* ,i add1 8,nev] give unnecess>y pa940 ,! cricket is n ! night+ale2 :y tell him s8 ,?r[ y\rself into ! m9d ( ! cricket--! process is new] & m +5i\s2 & x is :at *>ity comm&s4 ,intellect is ari/ocratic1 *>ity is democratic4 ,9 a democracy ! g5]al equality ( pret5sions1 comb9$ ) ! inequality ( m]its1 creates consid]able practical difficulty2 "s get out ( x by mak+ _! prud5ce a muzzle on _! frankness2 o!rs1 by us+ k9dness z a corrective ( p]spicacity4 ,on ! :ole1 k9dness is saf] ?an res]ve2 x inflicts no w\nd1 & kills no?+4 ,*>ity is g5]\s2 x runs a risk will+ly1 & 9 spite ( a hundr$ successive exp]i5ces1 x ?9ks no evil at ! hundr$-&-fir/4 ,we _c be at ! same "t k9d & w>y1 nor c we s]ve two ma/]s--love & selfi%ness4 ,we mu/ be kn[+ly ra%1 t we may n be l ! clev] ones ( ! _w1 :o nev] =get _! own int]e/s4 ,we mu/ be able to submit to be+ deceiv$2 x is ! sacrifice :i* int]e/ & self-love owe to consci5ce4 ,! claims ( ! s\l mu/ be satisfi$ fir/ if we are to be ! *ildr5 ( ,god4 ,0 x n ,bossuet :o said1 8,x is only ! great s\ls :o "k all ! gr&eur !re is 9 *>ity80 ,janu>y #ba1 #ahgi4--;,at fir/ religion holds ! place ( sci5ce & philosophy2 aft]w>d %e has to le>n to conf9e h]self to h] own doma9--:i* is 9 ! inmo/ dep?s ( consci5ce1 9 ! secret recesses ( ! s\l1 :]e life communes ) ! ,div9e w & ! univ]sal ord]4 ,piety is ! daily r5ew+ ( ! ideal1 ! /eady+ ( our inn] be+1 agitat$1 tr\bl$1 & embitt]$ by ! common accid5ts ( exi/5ce4 ,pray] is ! spiritual balm1 ! preci\s cordial :i* re/ores to u peace & c\rage4 ,x rem9ds u ( p>don & ( duty4 ,x says to u1 8,?\ art lov$--love2 ?\ ha/ receiv$--give2 ?\ mu/ die--labor :ile ?\ can/2 ov]come ang] by k9dness2 ov]come evil ) good4 ,:at does ! bl9dness ( op9ion matt]1 or misund]/&+1 or +ratitude8 ,?\ art nei!r b\nd to foll[ ! common example nor to succe$4 ,fais ce que dois1 advi5ne que p\rra4 ,?\ ha/ a witness 9 ?y consci5ce2 & ?y consci5ce is ,god speak+ to !e60 ,m>* #c1 #ahgi4--,! s5sible politician is gov]n$ by consid]ations ( social utility1 ! public good1 ! greate/ atta9able good2 ! political w9dbag />ts f ! idea ( ! rights ( ! individual--ab/ract rights1 ( :i* ! ext5t is affirm$1 n demon/rat$1 = ! political "r ( ! individual is precisely :at is 9 "q4 ,! revolution>y s*ool always =gets t "r ap>t f duty is a compass ) "o leg4 ,! notion ( "r inflates ! individual fills him ) ?\ghts ( self & ( :at o!rs owe him1 :ile x ignores ! o!r side ( ! "q1 & ext+ui%es 8 capacity = devot+ himself to a common cause4 ,! /ate becomes a %op ) self-int]e/ = a pr9ciple--or r an ar5a1 9 :i* e combatant fights = 8 own h& only4 ,9 ei!r case self is ! motive p[]4 ,*ur* & /ate ought to provide two opposite c>e]s = ! individual2 9 ! /ate he %\ld be call$ on to give pro( ( m]it--t is to say1 he %\ld e>n 8 rights by s]vices r5d]$2 9 ! *ur* 8 task %\ld be to d good :ile suppress+ 8 own m]its1 by a volunt>y act ( humility4 ,extreme individualism dissipates ! moral sub/ance ( ! individual4 ,x leads him to subord9ate ev]y?+ to himself1 & to ?9k ! _w2 society1 ! /ate1 made = him4 ,i am *ill$ by its lack ( gratitude1 ( ! _s ( def]5ce1 ( ! in/9ct ( solid>ity4 ,x is an ideal )\t beauty & )\t gr&eur4 ,b1 z a consolation1 ! mod]n zeal = equality makes a c\nt]poise = ,d>w9ism1 j z "o wolf holds ano!r wolf 9 *eck4 ,nei!r1 inde$1 ackn[l$ges ! claim ( duty4 ,! fanatic = equality affirms 8 "r n to be eat5 by 8 neighbor2 ! ,d>w9ian /ates ! fact t ! big dev\r ! little1 & adds--s mu* ! bett]4 ,nei!r ! "o nor ! o!r has a ^w to say ( love1 ( et]nity1 ( k9dness1 ( piety1 ( volunt>y submission1 ( self-surr5d]4 ,all =ces & all pr9ciples are br\ght into action at once 9 ?is _w4 ,! result is1 on ! :ole1 good4 ,b ! /ruggle itself is hateful because x dislocates tru? & %[s u no?+ b error pitt$ aga9/ error1 p>ty aga9/ p>ty2 t is to say1 m]e halves & fragm5ts ( be+--mon/]s aga9/ mon/]s4 ,a nature 9 love ) beauty _c reconcile itself to ! sight2 x longs = h>mony1 = some?+ else ?an p]petual dissonance4 ,! common condition ( human society mu/ inde$ be accept$2 tumult1 hatr$1 fraud1 crime1 ! f]ocity ( self-int]e/1 ! t5acity ( prejudice1 are p]5nial2 b ! philosoph] sighs ov] x2 8 he>t is n 9 x2 8 ambition is to see human hi/ory f a height2 8 e> is set to cat* ! music ( ! et]nal sph]es4 ,m>* #ae1 #ahgi4--;,i h be5 turn+ ov] 8,les hi/ories de mon ,p>ra90 by ,/ahl1 & a few *apt]s ( 8,nos ,fils et nos ,filles0 by ,leg\v4 ,^! writ]s press wit1 grace1 gayety1 & *>m into ! s]vice ( goodness2 _! desire is to %[ t virtue is n s dull nor common s5se s tiresome z p believe4 ,!y are p]suasive morali/s1 captivat+ /ory-tell]s2 !y r\se ! appetite = good4 ,?is pretty mann] ( !irs1 h[ev]1 has its dang]s4 ,a moral wrapp$ up 9 sug> goes d[n c]ta9ly1 b x may be fe>$ t x only goes d[n because ( its sug>4 ,! ,syb>ites ( to-day w tol]ate a s]mon :i* is delicate en\gh to flatt] _! lit]>y s5suality2 b x is _! ta/e :i* is *>m$1 n _! consci5ce :i* is awak5$2 _! pr9ciple ( conduct escapes unt\*$4 ,amusem5t1 in/ruction1 morals1 are di/9ct g5res4 ,!y may no d\bt be m+l$ & comb9$1 b if we wi% to obta9 direct & simple effects1 we %all d be/ to keep !m ap>t4 ,! well-dispos$ *ild1 besides1 does n l mixtures :i* h some?+ ( artifice & deception 9 !m4 ,duty claims ob$i5ce2 /udy requires application2 = amusem5t1 no?+ is want$ b good temp]4 ,to conv]t ob$i5ce & application into means ( amusem5t is to weak5 ! w & ! intellig5ce4 ,^! ef=ts to make virtue ! fa%ion are praisewor?y en\gh1 b if !y d honor to ! writ]s1 on ! o!r h& !y prove ! moral anaemia ( society4 ,:5 ! dige/ion is unspoil$1 s mu* p]suad+ is n necess>y to give x a ta/e = bread4 ,may #bb1ahgi4 7,asc5sion ,day74--,wond]ful & delici\s wea!r4 ,s(t1 c>ess+ sunlight--! air a limpid blue--twitt]+s ( birds2 ev5 ! di/ant voices ( ! city h some?+ "y & spr+like 9 !m4 ,x is inde$ a new bir?4 ,! asc5sion ( ! ,savi\r ( m5 is symboliz$ by ?is expansion1 ?is heav5w>d ye>n+ ( nature4444 ,i feel myself born aga92 all ! w9d[s ( ! s\l are cle>4 ,=ms1 l9es1 t9ts1 reflections1 s\nds1 contra/s1 & h>monies1 ! g5]al play & int]*ange ( ?+s--x is all en*ant+6 ,! atmosph]e is /eep$ 9 joy4 ,may is 9 full beauty4 ,9 my c\rty>d ! ivy is gre5 aga91 ! *e/nut tree is full ( leaf1 ! ,p]sian lilac beside ! little f\nta9 is flu%$ ) r$1 & j ab\t to fl[]2 ?r\gh ! wide op5+s to ! "r & left ( ! old ,college ( ,calv9 ,i see ! ,salve above ! trees ( ,/4 ,anto9e1 ! ,voiron above ! hill ( ,cologny2 :ile ! ?ree flights ( /eps :i*1 f l&+ to l&+1 lead betwe5 two high walls f ! ,rue ,v]da9e to ! t]race ( ! ,tran*es1 recall to "o's imag9ation "s old city ( ! s\?1 a glimpse ( ,p]ugia or ( ,malaga4 ,all ! bells are r++4 ,x is ! h\r ( wor%ip4 ,a hi/orical & religi\s impression m+les ) ! picturesque1 ! musical1 ! poetical impressions ( ! sc5e4 ,all ! peoples ( ,*ri/5dom--all ! *ur*es scatt]$ ov] ! globe--are celebrat+ at ?is mom5t ! glory ( ! ,crucifi$4 ,& :at are ^? _m nations do+ :o h o!r prophets1 & honor ! ,div9ity 9 o!r ways8--! ,jews1 ! ,mussulmans1 ! ,buddhi/s1 ! ,vi%nui/s1 ! ,gueb]s8 ,!y h o!r sacr$ days1 o!r rites1 o!r solemnities1 o!r beliefs4 ,b all h "s religion1 "s ideal end = life--all aim at rais+ man above ! sorr[s & smallnesses ( ! pres5t1 & ( ! individual exi/5ce4 ,all h fai? 9 some?+ great] ?an !mselves1 all pray1 all b[1 all adore2 all see beyond nature1 ,_s1 & beyond evil1 ,good4 ,all be> witness to ! ,invisible4 ,"h we h ! l9k :i* b9ds all peoples toge!r4 ,all m5 are equally creatures ( sorr[ & desire1 ( hope & fe>4 ,all long to recov] "s lo/ h>mony ) ! great ord] ( ?+s1 & to feel !mselves approv$ & bless$ by ! ,au?or ( ! univ]se4 ,all "k :at suff]+ is1 & ye>n = happ9ess4 ,all "k :at s9 is1 & feel ! ne$ ( p>don4 ,*ri/ianity r$uc$ to its orig9al simplicity is ! reconciliation ( ! s9n] ) ,god1 by means ( ! c]ta9ty t ,god loves 9 spite ( ev]y?+1 & t he *a/ises because he loves4 ,*ri/ianity furni%$ a new motive & a new /r5g? = ! a*ievem5t ( moral p]fection4 ,x made hol9ess attractive by giv+ to x ! air ( filial gratitude4 ,june #bh1 #ahgi4--,la/ lecture ( ! t]m & ( ! academic ye>4 ,i f9i%$ ! exposition ( mod]n philosophy1 & w\nd up my c\rse ) ! precision ,i wi%$4 ,! circle has return$ ^u itself4 ,9 ord] to d ?is ,i h divid$ my h\r into m9utes1 calculat$ my mat]ial1 & c\nt$ e /it* & po9t4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 is b a v small "p ( ! pr(essorial sci5ce1 ,x is a m difficult matt] to divide "o's :ole mat]ial into a giv5 numb] ( lectures1 to det]m9e ! "r proportions ( ! diff]5t p>ts1 & ! normal spe$ ( deliv]y to be atta9$4 ,! ord9>y lectur] may a*ieve a s]ies ( complete sances--! unity be+ ! sance4 ,b a sci5tific c\rse ought to aim at some?+ m--at a g5]al unity ( subject & ( exposition4 ,has ?is concise1 sub/antial1 closely-reason$ k9d ( "w be5 useful to my class8 ,i _c tell4 ,h my /ud5ts lik$ me ?is ye>8 ,i am n sure1 b ,i hope s4 ,x seems to me !y h4 ,only1 if ,i h pleas$ !m1 x _c h be5 9 any case m ?an a succs d'e/ime2 ,i h nev] aim$ at any oratorical success4 ,my only object is to light up = !m a complicat$ & difficult subject4 ,i respect myself too mu*1 & ,i respect my class too mu*1 to attempt rhetoric4 ,my rle is to help !m to und]/&4 ,sci5tific lectur+ ought to be1 above all ?+s1 cle>1 in/ructive1 well put toge!r1 & conv9c+4 ,a lectur] has no?+ to d ) pay+ c\rt to ! s*ol>s1 or ) %[+ (f ! ma/]2 8 bus9ess is "o ( s]i\s /udy & imp]sonal exposition4 ,to yield any?+ on ?is po9t w\ld seem to me a piece ( mean utilit>ianism4 ,i hate ev]y?+ t savors ( cajol+ & coax+4 ,all su* ways are m]e attempts to ?r[ du/ 9 m5's eyes1 m]e =ms ( coquetry & /ratagem4 ,a pr(essor is ! prie/ ( 8 subject2 he %\ld d ! honors ( x gravely & ) dignity4 ,septemb] #i1 #ahgi4--8,non-be+ is p]fect4 ,be+1 imp]fect30 ?is horrible sophism becomes beautiful only 9 ! ,platonic sy/em1 because !re ,non-be+ is replac$ by ! ,idea1 :i* is1 & :i* is div9e4 ,! ideal1 ! *im]ical1 ! vacant1 %\ld n be all[$ to claim s great a sup]iority to ! ,real1 :i*1 on its side1 has ! incomp>able advantage ( exi/+4 ,! ,ideal kills enjoym5t & cont5t by disp>ag+ ! pres5t & actual4 ,x is ! voice :i* says ,no1 l ,mephi/opheles4 ,no1 y h n succe$$2 no1 y\r "w is n good2 no1 y are n happy2 no1 y %all n f9d re/--all t y see & all t y d is insuffici5t1 insignificant1 ov]done1 badly done1 imp]fect4 ,! ?ir/ = ! ideal is l ! goad ( ,siva1 :i* only quick5s life to ha/5 dea?4 ,incurable long+ t x is1 x lies at ! root bo? ( individual suff]+ & ( ! progress ( ! race4 ,x de/roys happ9ess 9 ! "n ( dignity4 ,! only positive good is ord]1 ! return !re=e to ord] & to a /ate ( equilibrium4 ,?\ght )\t action is an evil1 & s is action )\t ?\ght4 ,! ideal is a poison unless x be fus$ ) ! real1 & ! real becomes corrupt )\t ! p]fume ( ! ideal4 ,no?+ is good s+ly )\t its complem5t & its contr>y4 ,self-exam9ation is dang]\s if x encroa*es ^u self-devotion2 rev]ie is hurtful :5 x /upefies ! w2 g5tl5ess is an evil :5 x less5s /r5g?2 contemplation is fatal :5 x de/roys "*4 8,too mu*0 & 8too little0 s9 equally aga9/ wisdom4 ,excess is "o evil1 apa?y ano!r4 ,duty may be def9$ z en]gy temp]$ by mod]ation2 happ9ess1 z incl9ation calm$ & temp]$ by self-control4 ,j z life is only l5t u = a few ye>s1 b is n inh]5t 9 u1 s ! good :i* is 9 u is n our own4 ,x is n difficult to ?9k ( "o's self 9 ?is deta*$ _s4 ,x only ne$s a little self-k1 a little intuitive preception ( ! ideal1 a little religion4 ,!re is ev5 mu* sweetness 9 ?is conception t we are no?+ ( ourselves1 & t yet x is grant$ to u to summon ea* o!r to life1 joy1 poetry & hol9ess4 ,ano!r application ( ! law ( irony3 ,z5o1 a fatali/ by !ory1 makes 8 disciples h]oes2 ,epicurus1 ! uphold] ( lib]ty1 makes 8 disciples languid & effem9ate4 ,! ideal pursu$ is ! decisive po9t2 ! /oical ideal is duty1 :]eas ! ,epicureans make an ideal out ( an int]e/4 ,two t5d5cies1 two sy/ems ( morals1 two worlds4 ,9 ! same way ! ,jans5i/s1 & be=e !m ! great re=m]s1 are = pr$e/9ation1 ! ,jesuits = free-w--& yet ! fir/ f\nd$ lib]ty1 ! second slav]y ( consci5ce4 ,:at matt]s !n is n ! !oretical pr9ciple2 x is ! secret t5d5cy1 ! aspiration1 ! aim1 :i* is ! ess5tial ?+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,at e epo* !re lies1 beyond ! doma9 ( :at man kn[s1 ! doma9 ( ! unkn[n1 9 :i* fai? has its dwell+4 ,fai? has no pro(s1 b only itself1 to (f]4 ,x is born spontane\sly 9 c]ta9 comm&+ s\ls2 x spreads its empire among ! re/ by imitation & contagion4 ,a great fai? is b a great hope :i* becomes c]titude z we move f>!r & f>!r f ! f\nd] ( x2 "t & di/ance /r5g!n x1 until at la/ ! passion = k seizes ^u x1 que/ions1 & exam9es x4 ,!n all :i* _h once made its /r5g? becomes its weakness2 ! impossibility ( v]ification1 exaltation ( feel+1 di/ance4 99 99 99 99 99 ,at :at age is our view cle>e/1 our eye true/8 ,surely 9 old age1 be=e ! infirmities come :i* weak5 or embitt]4 ,! anci5ts 7 "r4 ,! old man :o is at once sympa!tic & dis9t]e/$1 necess>ily develops ! _s ( contemplation1 & x is giv5 to ! _s ( contemplation to see ?+s mo/ truly1 because x alone p]ceives !m 9 _! relative & proportional value4 ,janu>y #b1 #ahhj4--;,a s5se ( re/1 ( deep quiet ev54 ,sil5ce )9 & )\t4 ,a quietly-burn+ fire4 ,a s5se ( com=t4 ,! portrait ( my "m seems to smile ^u me4 ,i am n daz$ or /upid1 b only happy 9 ?is peaceful morn+4 ,:atev] may be ! *>m ( emotion1 ,i d n "k :e!r x equals ! sweetness ( ^? h\rs ( sil5t m$itation1 9 :i* we h a glimpse & =eta/e ( ! contemplative joys ( p>adise4 ,desire & fe>1 sadness & c>e1 are done away4 ,exi/5ce is r$uc$ to ! simple/ =m1 ! mo/ e!real mode ( be+1 t is1 to pure self-consci\sness4 ,x is a /ate ( h>mony1 )\t t5sion & )\t di/urbance1 ! dom9ical /ate ( ! s\l1 p]haps ! /ate :i* awaits x beyond ! grave4 ,x is happ9ess z ! ori5tals und]/& x1 ! happ9ess ( ! an*orite1 :o nei!r /ruggles nor wi%es any m1 b simply adores & enjoys4 ,x is difficult to f9d words 9 :i* to express ?is moral situation1 = our languages c only r5d] ! p>ticul> & localiz$ vibrations ( life2 !y are incapable ( express+ ?is motionless conc5tration1 ?is div9e quietude1 ?is /ate ( ! re/+ ocean1 :i* reflects ! sky1 & is ma/] ( its own pr(undities4 ,?+s are !n re-absorb$ into _! pr9ciples2 memories are swall[$ up 9 memory2 ! s\l is only s\l1 & is no long] consci\s ( itself 9 its individuality & sep>at5ess4 ,x is some?+ :i* feels ! univ]sal life1 a s5sible atom ( ! ,div9e1 ( ,god4 ,x no long] appropriates any?+ to itself1 x is consci\s ( no void4 ,only ! ,yogis & ,s\fis p]haps h kn[n 9 its pr(undity ?is humble & yet voluptu\s /ate1 :i* comb9es ! joys ( be+ & ( non-be+1 :i* is nei!r reflection nor w1 :i* is above bo? ! moral exi/5ce & ! intellectual exi/5ce1 :i* is ! return to unity1 to ! pl]oma1 ! vision ( ,plot9us & ( ,proclus--,nirvana 9 its mo/ attractive =m4 ,x is cle> t ! we/]n nations 9 g5]al1 & especially ! ,am]icans1 "k v little ( ?is /ate ( feel+4 ,= !m life is dev\r+ & incessant activity4 ,!y are eag] = gold1 = p[]1 = dom9ion2 _! aim is to cru% m5 & to enslave nature4 ,!y %[ an ob/9ate int]e/ 9 means1 & h n a ?\ght = ! end4 ,!y conf\nd be+ ) individual be+1 & ! expansion ( ! self ) happ9ess--t is to say1 !y d n live by ! s\l2 !y ignore ! un*angeable & ! et]nal2 !y live at ! p]iph]y ( _! be+1 because !y are unable to p5etrate to its axis4 ,!y are excit$1 ard5t1 positive1 because !y are sup]ficial4 ,:y s mu* ef=t1 noise1 /ruggle1 & gre$8--x is all a m]e /unn+ & deaf5+ ( ! self4 ,:5 dea? comes !y recognize t x is s--:y n !n admit x soon]8 ,activity is only beautiful :5 x is holy--t is to say1 :5 x is sp5t 9 ! s]vice ( t :i* passe? n away4 ,febru>y #f1 #ahhj4--;,a feel+ article by ,edmond ,s*]] on ! dea? ( ,b]sot1 ! director ( ! 8,ecole ,normale10 a philosoph] :o bore l a /oic a t]rible disease1 & :o labor$ to ! la/ )\t a compla9t4444 ,i h j read ! f\r orations deliv]$ ov] 8 grave4 ,!y h br\ght ! te>s to my eyes4 ,9 ! la/ days ( ?is brave man ev]y?+ 0 manly1 noble1 moral1 & spiritual4 ,ea* ( ! speak]s paid homage to ! "*1 ! devotion1 ! con/ancy1 & ! intellectual elevation ( ! dead4 8,let u le>n f him h[ to live & h[ to die40 ,! :ole fun]al c]emony _h an antique dignity4 ,febru>y #g1 #ahhj4--;,ho>-fro/ & fog1 b ! g5]al aspect is bright & fairylike1 & has no?+ 9 common ) ! gloom 9 ,p>is & ,london1 ( :i* ! newspap]s tell u4 ,?is silv]y l&scape has a dreamy grace1 a fanciful *>m1 :i* are unkn[n bo? to ! c\ntries ( ! sun & to ^? ( coal-smoke4 ,! trees seem to belong to ano!r creation1 9 :i* :ite has tak5 ! place ( gre54 ,z "o gazes at ^! alleys1 ^! clumps1 ^! groves & arcades1 ^! lace-l g>l&s & fe/oons1 "o feels no wi% = any?+ else2 _! beauty is orig9al & self-suffic+1 all ! m because ! gr\nd p[d]$ ) sn[1 ! sky dimm$ ) mi/1 & ! smoo? s(t di/ances1 comb9e to =m a g5]al scale ( color1 & a h>moni\s :ole1 :i* *>ms ! eye4 ,no h>%ness any:]e--all is velvet4 ,my en*antm5t beguil$ me out bo? be=e & aft] d9n]4 ,! impression is t ( a fte1 & ! subdu$ t9ts are1 or seem to be1 a m]e coquetry ( w9t] :i* has set itself to pa9t some?+ )\t sun%9e1 & yet to *>m ! spectator4 ,febru>y #i1 #ahhj1--,life ru%es on--s mu* ! worse = ! weak & ! /raggl]s4 ,z soon z a man's t5do ,a*illis gives way he f9ds himself trampl$ "u foot by ! "y1 ! eag]1 ! voraci\s4 8,vae victis1 vae debilibus60 yells ! cr[d1 :i* 9 its turn is /orm+ ! goods ( ?is _w4 ,e man is always 9 "s o!r man's way1 s9ce1 h[ev] small he may make himself1 he /ill occupies "s space1 & h[ev] little he may envy or possess1 he is /ill sure to be envi$ & 8 goods covet$ by "s "o else4 ,mean _w6--peopl$ by a mean race6 ,to console ourselves we mu/ ?9k ( ! exceptions--( ! noble & g5]\s s\ls4 ,!re are su*4 ,:at d ! re/ matt]6 ,! travel] cross+ ! des]t feels himself surr\nd$ by creatures ?ir/+ = 8 blood2 by day vultures fly ab\t 8 head2 by night scorpions creep into 8 t5t1 jackals pr[l ar\nd 8 camp-fire1 mosquitoes prick & torture him ) _! gre$y /+2 ev]y:]e m5ace1 enmity1 f]ocity4 ,b f> beyond ! horizon1 & ! b>r5 s&s peopl$ by ^! ho/ile hordes1 ! wayf>] pictures to himself a few lov$ faces & k9d looks1 a few true he>ts :i* foll[ him 9 _! dreams--& smiles4 ,:5 all is said1 inde$1 we def5d ourselves a great] or less] numb] ( ye>s1 b we are always conqu]$ & dev\r$ 9 ! end2 !re is no escap+ ! grave & its worm4 ,de/ruction is our de/9y1 & oblivion our portion4444 ,h[ ne> is ! great gulf6 ,my skiff is ?9 z a nut%ell1 or ev5 m fragile /ill4 ,let ! leak b wid5 a little & all is ov] = ! navigator4 ,a m]e no?+ sep>ates me f idiocy1 f madness1 f dea?4 ,! slighte/ brea* is en\gh to endang] all ?is frail1 +5i\s edifice1 :i* calls itself my be+ & my life4 ,n ev5 ! dragonfly symbol is en\gh to express its frailty2 ! soap-bubble is ! be/ poetical translation ( all ?is illusory magnific5ce1 ?is fugitive app>ition ( ! t9y self1 :i* is we1 & we x4 444 ,a mis]able night en\gh4 ,awak5$ ?ree or f\r times by my bron*itis4 ,sadness--re/lessness4 ,"o ( ^! w9t] nights1 possibly1 suffocation w come4 ,i realize t x w\ld be well to keep myself ready1 to put ev]y?+ 9 ord]4444 ,to beg9 )1 let me wipe out all p]sonal grievances & bitt]nesses2 =give all1 judge no "o2 9 enmity & ill-w1 see only misund]/&+4 8,z mu* z lie? 9 y1 be at peace ) all m540 ,on ! b$ ( dea? ! s\l %\ld h no eyes b = et]nal ?+s4 ,all ! littl5esses ( life disappe>4 ,! fight is ov]4 ,!re %\ld be no?+ left n[ b remembrance ( pa/ bless+s--adoration ( ! ways ( ,god4 ,our natural in/9ct leads u back to ,*ri/ian humility & pity4 8,fa!r1 =give u our trespasses1 z we =give !m :o trespass aga9/ u40 ,prep>e ?yself z ?\gh ! com+ ,ea/] 7 ?y la/1 = ?y days h5ce=w>d %all be few & evil4 ,febru>y #aa1 #ahhj4--,victor de ,laprade ,footnote3 ,victor de ,laprade1 born #ahab1 fir/ a disciple & imitator ( ,edg> ,qu9et1 !n ! fri5d ( ,lam>t9e1 ,lam5nais1 ,george ,s&1 ,victor ,hugo2 admitt$ to ! ,academy 9 #aheg 9 succession to ,alfr$ de ,musset4 ,he wrote 8,p>fums de ,madele9e10 #ahci2 8,odes et ,pomes10 #ahdc2 8,pomes ,evangliques10 #aheb2 8,idylles ,hroiques10 #aheh1 etc4 etc4 has elevation1 gr&eur1 nobility1 & h>mony4 ,:at is x1 !n1 t he lacks8 ,ease1 & p]haps humor4 ,h5ce ! monoton\s solemnity1 ! excess ( emphasis1 ! ov]-int5sity1 ! inspir$ air1 ! /atue-l gait1 :i* annoy "o 9 him4 ,8 is a muse :i* nev] lays aside ! co?urnus1 & a royalty :i* nev] puts (f its cr[n1 ev5 9 sleep4 ,! total abs5ce 9 him ( playfulness1 simplicity1 famili>ity1 is a great defect4 ,de ,laprade is to ! anci5ts z ! ,fr5* trag$y is to t ( ,euripides1 or z ! wig ( ,l\is ,,xiv4 to ! locks ( ,apollo4 ,8 maje/ic airs are we>isome & factiti\s4 ,if !re is n exactly affectation 9 !m1 !re is at lea/ a k9d ( !atrical & sac]dotal pos+1 a sort ( pr(essional attitud9iz+4 ,tru? is n z f9e z ?is1 b x is m liv+1 m pa!tic1 m v>i$4 ,m>ble images are cold4 ,0 x n ,musset :o said1 8,if ,de ,laprade is a poet1 !n ,i am n "o80 ,febru>y #bg1 #ahhj4--;,i h f9i%$ translat+ twelve or f\rte5 little poems by ,petfi4 ,!y h a /range k9d ( savor4 ,!re is some?+ ( ! ,/eppe1 ( ! ,ea/1 ( ,mazeppa1 ( madness1 9 ^! songs1 :i* seem to g to ! beat ( a rid+-:ip4 ,:at =ce & passion1 :at savage brilliancy1 :at wild & gr&iose images1 !re are 9 !m6 ,"o feels t ! ,magy> is a k9d ( ,c5taur1 & t he is only ,*ri/ian & ,european by accid5t4 ,! ,hun 9 him t5ds t[>d ! ,arab4 ,m>* #bj1 #ahhj4--;,i h be5 read+ 8,la ,bannire ,bleue0--a hi/ory ( ! _w at ! "t ( ,g5ghis ,khan1 "u ! =m ( memoirs4 ,x is a ,turk1 ,oug\r1 :o tells ! /ory4 ,he %[s u civilization f ! wrong side1 or ! o!r side1 & ! ,asiatic nomads appe> z ! scav5g]s ( its corruptions4 ,g5ghis proclaim$ himself ! sc\rge ( ,god1 & he did 9 fact realize ! va/e/ empire kn[n to hi/ory1 /ret*+ f ! ,blue ,sea to ! ,baltic1 & f ! va/ pla9s ( ,sib]ia to ! banks ( ! sacr$ ,ganges4 ,! mo/ solid empires ( ! anci5t _w 7 ov]?r[n by ! tramp ( 8 horsem5 & ! %afts ( 8 ar*]s4 ,f ! tumult into :i* he ?rew ! we/]n cont95t !re issu$ c]ta9 va/ results3 ! fall ( ! ,byzant9e empire1 involv+ ! ,r5aissance1 ! voyages ( discov]y 9 ,asia1 und]tak5 f bo? sides ( ! globe--t is to say1 ,gama & ,columbus2 ! =mation ( ! ,turki% empire2 & ! prep>ation ( ! ,russian empire4 ,?is trem5d\s hurricane1 />t+ f ! high ,asiatic tablel&s1 fell$ ! decay+ oaks & worm-eat5 build+s ( ! :ole anci5t _w4 ,! desc5t ( ! yell[1 flat-nos$ ,mongols ^u ,europe is a hi/orical cyclone :i* deva/at$ & purifi$ our ?irte5? c5tury1 & broke1 at ! two ends ( ! kn[n _w1 ?r\gh two great ,*9ese walls--t :i* protect$ ! anci5t empire ( ! ,c5t]1 & t :i* made a b>ri] ( ignorance & sup]/ition r\nd ! little _w ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,attila1 ,g5ghis1 ,tam]lane1 ought to range 9 ! memory ( m5 ) ,caes>1 ,*>lemagne1 & ,napoleon4 ,!y r\s$ :ole peoples into action1 & /irr$ ! dep?s ( human life1 !y p[]fully affect$ e?nography1 !y let loose riv]s ( blood1 & r5ew$ ! face ( ?+s4 ,! ,quak]s w n see t !re is a law ( tempe/s 9 hi/ory z 9 nature4 ,! revil]s ( w> are l ! revil]s ( ?und]1 /orms1 & volcanoes2 !y "k n :at !y d4 ,civilization t5ds to corrupt m51 z l>ge t[ns t5d to vitiate ! air4 8,nos patimur longae pacis mala40 ,cata/rophes br+ ab\t a viol5t re/oration ( equilibrium2 !y put ! _w brutally to rights4 ,evil *a/ises itself1 & ! t5d5cy to ru9 9 human ?+s supplies ! place ( ! regulator :o has n yet be5 discov]$4 ,no civilization c be> m ?an a c]ta9 proportion ( abuses1 inju/ice1 corruption1 %ame1 & crime4 ,:5 ?is proportion has be5 rea*$1 ! boil] bur/s1 ! palace falls1 ! scaffold+ breaks d[n2 in/itutions1 cities1 /ates1 empires1 s9k into ru94 ,! evil conta9$ 9 an organism is a virus :i* preys ^u x1 & if x is n elim9at$ ends by de/roy+ x4 ,& z no?+ is p]fect1 no?+ c escape dea?4 ,may #ai1 #ahhj4--;,inadaptibility1 due ei!r to my/icism or /iffness1 delicacy or disda91 is ! mis=tune or at all ev5ts ! *>act]i/ic ( my life4 ,i h n be5 able to fit myself to any?+1 to cont5t myself ) any?+4 ,i h nev] _h ! quantum ( illusion necess>y = risk+ ! irrep>able4 ,i h made use ( ! ideal itself to keep me f any k9d ( bondage4 ,x 0 ?us ) m>riage3 only p]fection w\ld h satisfi$ me2 &1 on ! o!r h&1 ,i 0 n wor?y ( p]fection4444 ,s t1 f9d+ no satisfaction 9 ?+s1 ,i tri$ to extirpate desire1 by :i* ?+s enslave u4 ,indep5d5ce has be5 my refuge2 deta*m5t my /ronghold4 ,i h liv$ ! imp]sonal life--9 ! _w1 yet n 9 x1 ?9k+ mu*1 desir+ no?+4 ,x is a /ate ( m9d :i* corresponds ) :at 9 wom5 is call$ a brok5 he>t2 & x is 9 fact l x1 s9ce ! *>act]i/ic common to bo? is despair4 ,:5 "o kn[s t "o w nev] possess :at "o c\ld h lov$1 & t "o c be cont5t ) no?+ less1 "o has1 s to speak1 left ! _w1 "o has cut ! gold5 hair1 p>t$ ) all t makes human life--t is to say1 illusion--! incessant ef=t t[>d an app>5tly atta9able end4 ,may #ca1 #ahhj4--,let u n be ov]-+5i\s4 ,!re is no help to be got out ( subtleties4 ,besides1 "o mu/ live4 ,x is be/ & simple/ n to qu>rel ) any illusion1 & to accept ! inevitable good-temp]$ly4 ,plung$ z we are 9 human exi/5ce1 we mu/ take x z x comes1 n too bitt]ly1 nor too tragically1 )\t horror & )\t s>casm1 )\t misplac$ petulance or a too exact+ expectation2 *e]fulness1 s]5ity1 & pati5ce1 ^! are be/--let u aim at ^!4 ,our bus9ess is to treat life z ! gr&fa!r treats 8 gr&daught]1 or ! gr&mo!r h] gr&son2 to ent] into ! pret5ses ( *ildhood & ! fictions ( y\?1 ev5 :5 we ourselves h long pass$ beyond !m4 ,x is probable t ,god himself looks k9dly ^u ! illusions ( ! human race1 s long z !y are innoc5t4 ,!re is no?+ evil b s9--t is1 egotism & revolt4 ,& z = error1 man *anges 8 errors frequ5tly1 b error ( "s sort is always ) him4 ,travel z "o may1 "o is always some:]e1 & "o's m9d re/s on "s po9t ( tru?1 z "o's feet re/ ^u "s po9t ( ! globe4 ,society alone repres5ts a m or less complete unity4 ,! individual mu/ cont5t himself ) be+ a /one 9 ! build+1 a :eel 9 ! imm5se ma*9e1 a ^w 9 ! poem4 ,he is a "p ( ! family1 ( ! /ate1 ( humanity1 ( all ! special fragm5ts =m$ by human int]e/s1 beliefs1 aspirations1 & labors4 ,! l(tie/ s\ls are ^? :o are consci\s ( ! univ]sal symphony1 & :o give _! full & will+ collaboration to ?is va/ & complicat$ conc]t :i* we call civilization4 ,9 pr9ciple ! m9d is capable ( suppress+ all ! limits :i* x discov]s 9 itself1 limits ( language1 nationality1 religion1 race1 or epo*4 ,b x mu/ be admitt$ t ! m ! m9d spiritualizes & g5]alizes itself1 ! less hold x has on o!r m9ds1 :i* no long] und]/& x or "k :at to d ) x4 ,influ5ce belongs to m5 ( action1 & = purposes ( action no?+ is m useful ?an n>r[ness ( ?\ght comb9$ ) en]gy ( w4 ,! =ms ( dreaml& are gigantic1 ^? ( action are small & dw>f$4 ,to ! m9ds imprison$ 9 ?+s1 belong success1 fame1 pr(it2 a great deal no d\bt2 b !y "k no?+ ( ! pleasures ( lib]ty or ! joy ( p5etrat+ ! inf9ite4 ,h[ev]1 ,i d n mean to put "o class be=e ano!r2 = e man is happy accord+ to 8 nature4 ,hi/ory is made by combatants & speciali/s2 only x is p]haps n a bad ?+ t 9 ! mid/ ( ! dev\r+ activities ( ! we/]n _w1 !re %\ld be a few ,brahmaniz+ s\ls4 444 ,?is soliloquy means--:at8 ,t rev]ie turns ^u itself z dreams d2 t impressions add$ toge!r d n always produce a fair judgm5t2 t a private j\rnal is l a good k+1 & p]mits repetitions1 outp\r+s1 compla9t4444 ,^! unse5 effusions are ! conv]sation ( ?\ght ) itself ! arpeggios involunt>y b n unconsci\s1 ( t aeolian h>p we be> )9 u4 ,its vibrations compose no piece1 exhau/ no !me1 a*ieve no melody1 c>ry out no programme1 b !y express ! inn]mo/ life ( man4 ,june #a1 #ahhj4--,/5dhal's 8,la ,*>treuse de ,p>me40 ,a rem>kable book4 ,x is ev5 typical1 ! fir/ ( a class4 ,/5dhal op5s ! s]ies ( naturali/ novels1 :i* suppress ! int]v5tion ( ! moral s5se1 & sc(f at ! claim ( free-w4 ,individuals are irresponsible2 !y are gov]n$ by _! passions1 & ! play ( human passions is ! obs]v]'s joy1 ! arti/'s mat]ial4 ,/5dhal is a noveli/ aft] ,ta9e's he>t1 a fai?ful pa9t] :o is nei!r t\*$ nor angry1 & :om ev]y?+ amuses--! knave & ! adv5turess z well z hone/ m5 & wom51 b :o has nei!r fai?1 nor pref]5ce1 nor ideal4 ,9 him lit]ature is subord9at$ to natural hi/ory1 to sci5ce4 ,x no long] =ms "p ( ! humanities1 x no long] gives man ! honor ( a sep>ate rank4 ,x classes him ) ! ant1 ! beav]1 & ! monkey4 ,& ?is moral indiff]5ce to morality leads direct to immorality4 ,! vice ( ! :ole s*ool is cynicism1 contempt = man1 :om !y degrade to ! level ( ! brute2 x is ! wor%ip ( /r5g?1 disreg>d ( ! s\l1 a want ( g5]osity1 ( rev]5ce1 ( nobility1 :i* %[s itself 9 spite ( all prote/ations to ! contr>y2 9 a ^w1 x is inhumanity4 ,no man c be a naturali/ ) impunity3 he w be co>se ev5 ) ! mo/ ref9$ culture4 ,a free m9d is a great ?+ no d\bt1 b l(t9ess ( he>t1 belief 9 goodness1 capacity = en?usiasm & devotion1 ! ?ir/ aft] p]fection & hol9ess1 are great] ?+s /ill4 ,june #g1 #ahhj4--;,i am read+ ,madame ,neck] de ,saussure ,footnote3 ,madame ,neck] de ,saussure 0 ! daught] ( ! fam\s geologi/1 ,de ,saussure2 %e m>ri$ a nephew ( ,jacques ,neck]1 & 0 !re=e c\s9 by m>riage ( ,madame de ,/al4 ,%e is (t5 suppos$ to be ! orig9al ( ,madame de ,c]lebe 9 8,delph9e10 & ! ,notice sur le ,c>actre et les crits de ,mdme4 de ,/al1 prefix$ to ! au?oritative edition ( ,madame de ,/al's collect$ works1 is by h]4 ,philan?ropy & education 7 h] two ma9 int]e/s1 b %e _h also a v l>ge am\nt ( g5]al lit]>y cultivation1 z 0 prov$ by h] translation ( ,s*legel's 8,lectures on ,dramatic ,lit]ature40 aga94 8,l',education progressive0 is an admirable book4 ,:at mod]ation & fairness ( view1 :at reasonabl5ess & dignity ( mann]6 ,ev]y?+ 9 x is ( high quality--obs]vation1 ?\ght1 & /yle4 ,! reconciliation ( sci5ce ) ! ideal1 ( philosophy ) religion1 ( psy*ology ) morals1 :i* ! book attempts1 is s\nd & b5efic5t4 ,x is a f9e book--a classic--& ,g5eva may be pr\d ( a piece ( "w :i* %[s su* high cultivation & s mu* solid wisdom4 ,"h we h ! true ,g5evese lit]ature1 ! c5tral tradition ( ! c\ntry4 ,lat]4--,i h f9i%$ ! ?ird volume ( ,madame ,neck]4 ,! elevation & delicacy1 ! s5se & s]i\sness1 ! beauty & p]fection ( ! :ole are a/oni%+4 ,a few h>%nesses or inaccuracies ( language d n matt]4 ,i feel = ! au?or a respect m+l$ ) emotion4 ,h[ r>e x is to f9d a book 9 :i* ev]y?+ is s9c]e & ev]y?+ is true6 ,june #bf1 #ahhj4--;,democracy exi/s2 x is m]e loss ( "t to dwell ^u its absurdities & defects4 ,e rgime has its weaknesses1 & ?is rgime is a less] evil ?an o!rs4 ,on ?+s its effect is unfavorable1 b on ! o!r h& m5 pr(it by x1 = x develops ! individual by oblig+ e "o to take int]e/ 9 a multitude ( que/ions4 ,x makes bad "w1 b x produces citiz5s4 ,?is is its excuse1 & a m ?an tol]able "o2 9 ! eyes ( ! philan?ropi/1 inde$1 x is a s]i\s title to respect1 =1 aft] all1 social in/itutions are made = man1 & n vice v]s4 ,june #bg1 #ahhj4--;,i paid a visit to my fri5ds--1 & we resum$ ! conv]sation ( ye/]day4 ,we talk$ ( ! ills :i* ?reat5 democracy & :i* are d]iv$ f ! legal fiction at ! root ( x4 ,surely ! rem$y consi/s 9 insi/+ ev]y:]e ^u ! tru? :i* democracy sy/ematically =gets1 & :i* is its prop] makeweight--on ! inequalities ( tal5t1 ( virtue1 & m]it1 & on ! respect due to age1 to capacity1 to s]vices r5d]$4 ,juv5ile arrogance & jeal\s +ratitude mu/ be resi/$ all ! m /r5u\sly because social =ms are 9 _! favor2 & :5 ! in/itutions ( a c\ntry lay /ress only on ! rights ( ! individual1 x is ! bus9ess ( ! citiz5 to lay all ! m /ress on duty4 ,!re mu/ be a con/ant ef=t to correct ! prevail+ t5d5cy ( ?+s4 ,all ?is1 x is true1 is no?+ b palliative1 b 9 human society "o _c hope = m4 ,lat]4--,alfr$ de ,vigny is a sympa!tic writ]1 ) a m$itative turn ( ?\ght1 a /rong & supple tal5t4 ,he possesses elevation1 indep5d5ce1 s]i\sness1 orig9ality1 boldness & grace2 he has some?+ ( ev]y?+4 ,he pa9ts1 describes1 & judges well2 he ?9ks1 & has ! c\rage ( 8 op9ions4 ,8 defect lies 9 an excess ( self-respect1 9 a ,briti% pride & res]ve :i* give him a horror ( famili>ity & a t]ror ( lett+ himself g4 ,?is t5d5cy has naturally injur$ 8 popul>ity z a writ] ) a public :om he holds at arm's l5g? z "o might a tr\blesome cr[d4 ,! ,fr5* race has nev] c>$ mu* ab\t ! inviolability ( p]sonal consci5ce2 x does n l /oics %ut up 9 _! own dignity z 9 a t[]1 & recogniz+ no ma/] b ,god1 duty or fai?4 ,su* /rictness annoys & irritates x2 x is m]ely piqu$ & made impati5t by any?+ solemn4 ,x repudiat$ ,prote/antism = ?is v reason1 & 9 all crises x has cru%$ ^? :o h n yield$ to ! passionate curr5t ( op9ion4 ,july #a1 #ahhj4 7,?ree o'clock74--,! temp]ature is oppressive2 ,i ought to be look+ ov] my notes1 & ?9k+ ( to-morr['s exam9ations4 ,inw>d di/a/e--empt9ess--discont5t4 ,is x tr\ble ( consci5ce1 or sorr[ ( he>t8 or ! s\l prey+ ^u itself8 or m]ely a s5se ( /r5g? decay+ & "t runn+ to wa/e8 ,is sadness--or regret--or fe>--at ! root ( x8 ,i d n "k2 b ?is dull s5se ( mis]y has dang] 9 x2 x leads to ra% ef=ts & mad decisions4 ,oh1 = escape f self1 = some?+ to /ifle ! importunate voice ( want & ye>n+6 ,discont5t is ! fa!r ( temptation4 ,h[ c we gorge ! invisible s]p5t hidd5 at ! bottom ( our well--gorge x s t x may sleep8 ,at ! he>t ( all ?is rage & va9 rebellion !re lies--:at8 ,aspiration1 ye>n+6 ,we are a?ir/ = ! inf9ite--= love--= ,i "k n :at4 ,x is ! in/9ct ( happ9ess1 :i*1 l "s wild animal1 is re/less = its prey4 ,x is ,god call+-,god av5g+ himself4 ,july #d1 #ahhj4 7,sunday1 half-pa/ eight 9 ! morn+74--,! sun has come out aft] heavy ra94 ,may "o take x z an om5 on ?is solemn day8 ,! great voice ( ,clm5ce has j be5 s\nd+ 9 our e>s4 ,! bell's deep vibrations w5t to my he>t4 ,= a qu>t] ( an h\r ! pa!tic appeal w5t on--8,g5eva1 ,g5eva1 rememb]6 ,i am call$ ,clm5ce--,i am ! voice ( *ur* & ( c\ntry4 ,p ( ,g5eva1 s]ve ,god & be at peace toge!r40 ,footnote3 ,a law to br+ ab\t sep>ation betwe5 ,*ur* & ,/ate1 adopt$ by ! ,great ,c\ncil1 0 on ?is day submitt$ to ! vote ( ! ,g5evese p4 ,x 0 reject$ by a l>ge majority 7#i1cjf aga9/ #d1jdd74--,s4 ,sev5 o'clock 9 ! ev5+4--,clm5ce has be5 r++ aga91 dur+ ! la/ half-h\r ( ! scrut94 ,n[ t %e has /opp$1 ! sil5ce has a t]rible s]i\sness1 l t :i* weighs ^u a cr[d :5 x is wait+ = ! return ( ! judge & ! deliv]y ( ! dea? s5t5ce4 ,! fate ( ! ,g5evese *ur* & c\ntry is n[ 9 ! vot+ box4 ,elev5 o'clock 9 ! ev5+4--,victory along ! :ole l9e4 ,! ,ayes h c>ri$ little m ?an two-sev5?s ( ! vote4 ,at my fri5d----#8s h\se ,i f\nd !m all full ( excitem5t1 gratitude1 & joy4 ,july #e1 #ahhj4--,!re are "s words :i* h /ill a magical virtue ) ! mass ( ! p3 ^? ( ,/ate1 ,republic1 ,c\ntry1 ,nation1 ,flag1 & ev51 ,i ?9k1 ,*ur*4 ,our skeptical & mock+ culture kn[s no?+ ( ! emotion1 ! exaltation1 ! delirium1 :i* ^! words awak5 9 simple p4 ,! blass ( ! _w h no idea h[ ! popul> m9d vibrates to ^! appeals1 by :i* !y !mselves are unt\*$4 ,x is _! puni%m5t2 x is also _! infirmity4 ,_! temp] is satirical & sep>ati/2 !y live 9 isolation & /]ility4 ,i feel aga9 :at ,i felt at ! "t ( ! ,r\sseau c5t5>y2 my feel+ & imag9ation are *ill$ & repell$ by ^? ,ph>isaical p :o ?9k !mselves too good to associate ) ! cr[d4 ,at ! same "t1 ,i suff] f an inw>d contradiction1 f a two-fold1 in/9ctive repugnance--an ae/hetic repugnance t[>d vulg>ity ( e k9d1 a moral repugnance t[>d b>r5ness & coldness ( he>t4 ,s t p]sonally ,i am only attract$ by ! individuals ( cultivation & em95ce1 :ile on ! o!r h& no?+ is sweet] to me ?an to feel myself vibrat+ 9 sympa?y ) ! national _s1 ) ! feel+ ( ! masses4 ,i only c>e = ! two extremes1 & x is ?is :i* sep>ates me f ea* ( !m4 ,our ev]yday life1 split up z x is into cla%+ p>ties & oppos$ op9ions1 & h>ass$ by p]petual disord] & discussion1 is pa9ful & almo/ hateful to me4 ,a ?\s& ?+s irritate & provoke me4 ,b p]haps x w\ld be ! same else:]e4 ,v likely x is ! inevitable way ( ! _w :i* displeases me--! sight ( :at succe$s1 ( :at m5 approve or blame1 ( :at !y excuse or accuse4 ,i ne$ to admire1 to feel myself 9 sympa?y & 9 h>mony ) my neighbor1 ) ! m>* ( ?+s1 & ! t5d5cies ( ^? ar\nd me1 & almo/ always ,i h _h to give up ! hope ( x4 ,i take refuge 9 retreat1 to avoid discord4 ,b solitude is only a pis-all]4 ,july #f1 #ahhj4--,magnific5t wea!r4 ,! college prize-day4 ,footnote3 ,! prize-giv+ at ! ,college ( ,g5eva is made ! occasion ( a national fe/ival4 ,t[>d ev5+ ,i w5t ) our ?ree ladies to ! pla9 ( ,pla9palais4 ,!re 0 an imm5se cr[d1 & ,i 0 /ruck ) ! bright look ( ! faces4 ,! fe/ival w\nd up ) ! traditional fireworks1 "u a calm & />ry sky4 ,"h we h ! republic inde$1 ,i ?\ght z ,i came 94 ,= a :ole week ?is p has be5 out-(-doors1 camp+1 l ! ,a!nians on ! ,agora4 ,s9ce ,w$nesday lectures & public meet+s h foll[$ "o ano!r )\t int]mission2 at home !re are pamphlets & ! newspap]s to be read2 :ile spee*-mak+ goes on at ! clubs4 ,on ,sunday1 plebiscite2 ,monday1 public procession1 s]vice at ,/4 ,pi]re1 spee*es on ! ,mol>d1 fe/ival = ! adults4 ,tuesday1 ! college fte-day4 ,w$nesday1 ! fte-day ( ! prim>y s*ools4 ,g5eva is a caldron always at boil+-po9t1 a furnace ( :i* ! fires are nev] ext+ui%$4 ,vulcan _h m ?an "o =ge1 & ,g5eva is c]ta9ly "o ( ^? _w-anvils on :i* ! greate/ numb] ( projects h be5 hamm]$ out4 ,:5 "o ?9ks t ! m>tyrs ( all causes h be5 at "w "h1 ! my/]y is expla9$ a little2 b ! true/ explanation is t ,g5eva--republican1 prote/ant1 democratic1 le>n$1 & ent]pris+ ,g5eva--has = c5turies dep5d$ on h]self alone = ! solution ( h] own difficulties4 ,s9ce ! ,re=mation %e has be5 always on ! al]t1 m>*+ ) a lant]n 9 h] left h& & a sword 9 h] "r4 ,x pleases me to see t %e has n yet become a m]e copy ( any?+1 & t %e is /ill capable ( decid+ = h]self4 ,^? :o say to h]1 8,d z !y d at ,new ,york1 at ,p>is1 at ,rome1 at ,b]l910 are /ill 9 ! m9ority4 ,! doctr9aires :o w\ld split h] up & de/roy h] unity wa/e _! brea? ^u h]4 ,%e div9es ! sn>e laid = h] & turns away4 ,i l ?is pro( ( vitality4 ,only t :i* is orig9al has a suffici5t reason = exi/5ce4 ,a c\ntry 9 :i* ! ^w ( comm& comes f else:]e is no?+ m ?an a prov9ce4 ,?is is :at our ,jacob9s & our ,ultramontanes nev] w recognize4 ,nei!r ( !m und]/& ! mean+ ( self-gov]nm5t1 & nei!r ( !m h any idea ( ! dignity ( a hi/orical /ate & an indep5d5t p4 ,our small nationalities are ru9$ by ! holl[ cosmopolitan =mulae :i* h an equally disa/r\s effect ^u art & lett]s4 ,! mod]n isms are s _m acids :i* dissolve ev]y?+ liv+ & concrete4 ,no "o a*ieves a ma/]piece1 nor ev5 a dec5t piece ( "w1 by ! help ( realism1 lib]alism1 or romanticism4 ,sep>atism has ev5 less virtue ?an any ( ! o!r isms1 = x is ! ab/raction ( a negation1 ! %ad[ ( a %ad[4 ,! v>i\s isms ( ! pres5t are n fruitful pr9ciples3 !y are h>dly ev5 explanatory =mulae4 ,!y are r names ( disease1 = !y express "s elem5t 9 excess1 "s dang]\s & abusive exagg]ation4 ,examples3 empiricism1 idealism1 radicalism4 ,:at is be/ among ?+s & mo/ p]fect among be+s slips ?r\gh ^! categories4 ,! man :o is p]fectly well is nei!r sangu9e\s--to use ! old m$ical t]m--nor bili\s nor n]v\s4 ,a normal republic conta9s oppos+ p>ties & po9ts ( view1 b x conta9s !m1 z x 71 9 a /ate ( *emical comb9ation4 ,all ! colors are conta9$ 9 a ray ( light1 :ile r$ alone does n conta9 a six? "p ( ! p]fect ray4 ,july #h1 #ahhj4--;,x is ?irty ye>s s9ce ,i read ,waag5's book on 8,museums10 :i* my fri5d ---- is n[ read+4 ,x 0 9 #ahdb t ,i 0 wild = pictures2 9 #ahde t ,i 0 /udy+ ,krause's philosophy2 9 #ahej t ,i became pr(essor ( ae/hetics4 ---- may be ! same age z ,i am2 x is none ! less true t :5 a p>ticul> /age has become to me a matt] ( hi/ory1 he is j arriv+ at x4 ,?is impression ( di/ance & remot5ess is a /range "o4 ,i beg9 to realize t my memory is a great catacomb1 & t bel[ my actual /&+-gr\nd !re is lay] aft] lay] ( hi/orical a%es4 ,is ! life ( m9d some?+ l t ( great trees ( immemorial gr[?8 ,is ! liv+ lay] ( consci\sness sup]-impos$ ^u hundr$s ( dead lay]s8 ,dead8 ,no d\bt ?is is too mu* to say1 b /ill1 :5 memory is slack ! pa/ becomes almo/ z ?\gh x _h nev] be54 ,to rememb] t we did "k once is n a sign ( possession b a sign ( loss2 x is l ! numb] ( an engrav+ :i* is no long] on its nail1 ! title ( a volume no long] to be f\nd on its %elf4 ,my m9d is ! empty frame ( a ?\s& vani%$ images4 ,%>p5$ by incessant tra9+1 x is all culture1 b x has reta9$ h>dly any?+ 9 its me%es4 ,x is )\t matt]1 & is only =m4 ,x no long] has k2 x has become me?od4 ,x is e!realiz$1 algebraiciz$4 ,life has treat$ x z dea? treats o!r m9ds2 x has already prep>$ x = a fur!r metamorphosis4 ,s9ce ! age ( sixte5 onw>d ,i h be5 able to look at ?+s ) ! eyes ( a bl9d man rec5tly op]at$ ^u--t is to say1 ,i h be5 able to suppress 9 myself ! results ( ! long education ( sight1 & to aboli% di/ances2 & n[ ,i f9d myself reg>d+ exi/5ce z ?\gh f beyond ! tomb1 f ano!r _w2 all is /range to me2 ,i am1 z x 71 outside my own body & individuality2 ,i am dep]sonaliz$1 deta*$1 cut adrift4 ,is ?is madness8 ,no4 ,madness means ! impossibility ( recov]+ "o's normal balance aft] ! m9d has ?us play$ truant among ali5 =ms ( be+1 & foll[$ ,dante to invisible worlds4 ,madness means incapacity = self-judgm5t & self-control4 ,:]eas x seems to me t my m5tal trans=mations are b philosophical exp]i5ces4 ,i am ti$ to none4 ,i am b mak+ psy*ological inve/igations4 ,at ! same "t ,i d n hide f myself t su* exp]i5ces weak5 ! hold ( common s5se1 because !y act z solv5ts ( all p]sonal int]e/s & prejudices4 ,i c only def5d myself aga9/ !m by return+ to ! common life ( m51 & by brac+ & =tify+ ! w4 ,july #ad1 #ahhj4--,:at is ! book :i*1 ( all ,g5evese lit]ature1 ,i w\ld soone/ h writt58 ,p]haps t ( ,madame ,neck] de ,saussure1 or ,madame de ,/al's 8,l',allemagne40 ,to a ,g5evese1 moral philosophy is /ill ! mo/ cong5ial & remun]ative ( /udies4 ,intellectual s]i\sness is :at suits u lea/ ill4 ,hi/ory1 politics1 economical sci5ce1 education1 practical philosophy--^! are our subjects4 ,we h ev]y?+ to lose 9 ! attempt to make ourselves m]e ,fr5*ifi$ copies ( ! ,p>isians3 by s do+ we are m]ely c>ry+ wat] to ! ,se9e4 ,indep5d5t criticism is p]haps easi] at ,g5eva ?an at ,p>is1 & ,g5eva ought to rema9 fai?ful to h] own special l9e1 :i*1 z comp>$ ) t ( ,france1 is "o ( great] fre$om f ! tyranny ( ta/e & fa%ion on ! "o h&1 & ! tyranny ( rul+ op9ion on ! o!r--( ,ca?olicism or ,jacob9ism4 ,g5eva %\ld be to ,la ,gr&e ,nation :at ,diog5es 0 to ,alex&]2 h] role is to repres5t ! indep5d5t ?\ght & ! free spee* :i* is n dazzl$ by pre/ige1 & does n bl9k ! tru?4 ,x is true t ! rle is an ungrateful "o1 t x l5ds itself to s>casm & misrepres5tation--b :at matt]8 ,july #bh1 #ahhj4--,?is aft]noon ,i h _h a walk 9 ! sun%9e1 & h j come back rejoic+ 9 a r5ew$ communion ) nature4 ,! wat]s ( ! ,rhone & ! ,arve1 ! murmur ( ! riv]1 ! au/]ity ( its banks1 ! brilliancy ( ! foliage1 ! play ( ! leaves1 ! spl5dor ( ! ,july sunlight1 ! ri* f]tility ( ! fields1 ! lucidity ( ! di/ant m\nta9s1 ! :it5ess ( ! glaci]s "u ! azure s]5ity ( ! sky1 ! sp>kle & foam ( ! m+l+ riv]s1 ! leafy masses ( ! ,la ,btie woods--all & ev]y?+ delight$ me4 ,x seem$ to me z ?\gh ! ye>s ( /r5g? _h come back to me4 ,i 0 ov]:elm$ ) s5sations4 ,i 0 surpris$ & grateful4 ,! univ]sal life c>ri$ me on its brea/2 ! summ]'s c>ess w5t to my he>t4 ,once m my eyes beheld ! va/ horizons1 ! so>+ peaks1 ! blue lakes1 ! w9d+ valleys1 & all ! free outlets ( old days4 ,& yet !re 0 no pa9ful s5se ( long+4 ,! sc5e left ^u me an indef9able impression1 :i* 0 nei!r hope1 nor desire1 nor regret1 b r a s5se ( emotion1 ( passionate impulse1 m+l$ ) admiration & anxiety4 ,i am consci\s at once ( joy & ( want2 beyond :at ,i possess ,i see ! impossible & ! unatta9able2 ,i gauge my own weal? & pov]ty2 9 a ^w1 ,i am & ,i am n--my inn] /ate is "o ( contradiction1 because x is "o ( transition4 ,! ambiguity ( x is *>act]i/ic ( human nature1 :i* is ambigu\s1 because x is fle% becom+ _s1 space *ang+ into ?\ght1 ! ,f9ite look+ dimly out ^u ! ,inf9ite1 intellig5ce work+ its way ?r\gh love & pa94 ,man is ! s5sorium commune ( nature1 ! po9t at :i* all values are int]*ang$4 ,m9d is ! pla/ic m$ium1 ! pr9ciple1 & ! result ( all2 at once mat]ial & laboratory1 product & =mula1 s5sation1 expression1 & law2 t :i* is1 t :i* does1 t :i* kn[s4 ,all is n m9d1 b m9d is 9 all1 & conta9s all4 ,x is ! consci\sness ( be+--t is1 ,be+ rais$ to ! second p[]4 ,if ! univ]se subsi/s1 x is because ! ,et]nal m9d loves to p]ceive its own cont5t1 9 all its weal? & expansion--especially 9 its /ages ( prep>ation4 ,n t ,god is an egoti/4 ,he all[s myriads ^u myriads ( suns to disport !mselves 9 8 %ad[2 he grants life & consci\sness to innum]able multitudes ( creatures :o ?us p>ticipate 9 be+ & 9 nature2 & all ^! animat$ monads multiply1 s to speak1 8 div9ity4 ,augu/ #d1 #ahhj4--;,i h read a few numb]s ( ! ,feuille ,c5trale de ,z(+54 ,footnote3 ,! j\rnal ( a /ud5ts' society1 drawn f ! diff]5t cantons ( ,switz]l&1 :i* meets e ye> 9 ! little t[n ( ,z(+5 ,x is "o ( ^? p]petual new beg9n+s ( y\? :i* ?9ks x is produc+ some?+ fre% :5 x is only repeat+ ! old4 ,nature is gov]n$ by cont9uity--! cont9uity ( repetition2 x is l an (t-told tale1 or ! recurr+ burd5 ( a song4 ,! rose-trees are nev] tir$ ( rose-be>+1 ! birds ( ne/-build+1 "y he>ts ( lov+1 or "y voices ( s++ ! ?\ghts & feel+s :i* h s]v$ _! pr$ecessors a hundr$ ?\s& times be=e4 ,pr(\nd monotony 9 univ]sal movem5t--!re is ! simple/ =mula furni%$ by ! spectacle ( ! _w4 ,all circles are alike1 & e exi/5ce t5ds to trace its circle4 ,h[1 !n1 is fa/idium to be avoid$8 ,by %utt+ our eyes to ! g5]al uni=mity1 by lay+ /ress ^u ! small diff]5ces :i* exi/1 & !n by le>n+ to enjoy repetition4 ,:at to ! intellect is old & worn-out is p]5nially "y & fre% to ! he>t2 curiosity is insatiable1 b love is nev] tir$4 ,! natural pres]vative aga9/ satiety1 too1 is "w4 ,:at we d may we>y o!rs1 b ! p]sonal ef=t is at lea/ useful to its au?or4 ,:]e e "o works1 ! g5]al life is sure to possess *>m & savor1 ev5 ?\gh x repeat =ev] ! same song1 ! same aspirations1 ! same prejudices1 & ! same sighs4 8,to e man 8 turn10 is ! motto ( mortal be+s4 ,if :at !y d is old1 !y !mselves are new2 :5 !y imitate1 !y ?9k !y are inv5t+4 ,!y h receiv$1 & !y transmit4 ,e sempre b5e6 ,augu/ #bd1 #ahhj4--;,z ye>s g on ,i love ! beautiful m ?an ! sublime1 ! smoo? m ?an ! r\gh1 ! calm nobility ( ,plato m ?an ! fi]ce hol9ess ( ! _w's ,j]emiahs4 ,! vehem5t b>b>ian is to me ! inf]ior ( ! mild & playful ,socrates4 ,my ta/e is = ! well-balanc$ s\l & ! well-tra9$ he>t--= a lib]ty :i* is n h>% & insol5t1 l t ( ! newly enfran*is$ slave1 b lovable4 ,! temp]am5t :i* *>ms me is t 9 :i* "o virtue leads naturally to ano!r4 ,all exclusive & %>ply-m>k$ qualities are b s _m signs ( imp]fection4 ,augu/ #bi1 #ahhj4--,to-day ,i am consci\s ( improvem5t4 ,i am tak+ advantage ( x to g back to my neglect$ "w & my int]rupt$ habits2 b 9 a week ,i h gr[n sev]al mon?s old]--t is easy to see4 ,! affection ( ^? ar\nd me makes !m pret5d n to see x2 b ! look+-glass tells ! tru?4 ,! fact does n take away f ! pleasure ( convalesc5ce2 b /ill "o he>s 9 x ! %uttle ( de/9y1 & dea? seems to be ne>+ rapidly1 9 spite ( ! halts & truces :i* are grant$ "o4 ,! mo/ beautiful exi/5ce1 x seems to me1 w\ld be t ( a riv] :i* %\ld get ?r\gh all its rapids & wat]falls n f> f its ris+1 & %\ld !n 9 its wid5+ c\rse =m a succession ( ri* valleys1 & 9 ea* ( !m a lake equally b div]sely beautiful1 to end1 aft] ! pla9s ( age 7 pa/1 9 ! ocean :]e all t is we>y & heavy-lad5 comes to seek = re/4 ,h[ few !re are ( ^! full1 fruitful1 g5tle lives6 ,:at is ! use ( wi%+ = or regrett+ !m8 ,x is ,wis] & h>d] to see 9 "o's own lot ! be/ "o c\ld h _h1 & to say to "o's self t aft] all ! clev]e/ tailor _c make u a coat to fit u m closely ?an our sk94 8,le vrai nom du bonheur e/ le cont5tem5t40 444 ,! ess5tial ?+1 = e "o is to accept 8 de/9y4 ,fate has deceiv$ y2 y h sometimes grumbl$ at y\r lot2 well1 no m mutual reproa*es2 g to sleep 9 peace4 ,augu/ #cj1 #ahhj4 7,two o'clock74--,rumbl+s ( a grave & di/ant ?und]4 ,! sky is gray b ra9less2 ! %>p little cries ( ! birds %[ agitation & fe>2 "o might imag9e x ! prelude to a symphony or a cata/rophe4 8,quel clair te trav]se1 mon coeur s\cieux80 ,/range--all ! bus9ess ( ! imm$iate neighborhood is go+ on2 !re is ev5 m movem5t ?an usual2 & yet all ^! noises are1 z x 71 held susp5d$ 9 ! sil5ce--9 a s(t1 positive sil5ce1 :i* !y _c disguise--sil5ce ak9 to t :i*1 9 e t[n1 on "o day ( ! week1 replaces ! vague murmur ( ! labor+ hive4 ,su* sil5ce at su* an h\r is extraord9>y4 ,!re is some?+ expectant1 contemplative1 almo/ anxi\s 9 x4 ,are !re days on :i* 8! little brea?0 ( ,job produces m effect ?an tempe/8 on :i* a dull rumbl+ on ! di/ant horizon is en\gh to susp5d ! conc]t ( voices1 l ! ro>+ ( a des]t lion at ! fall ( night8 ,septemb] #i1 #ahhj4--;,x seems to me t ) ! decl9e ( my active =ce ,i am becom+ m purely _s2 ev]y?+ is gr[+ transp>5t to me4 ,i see ! types1 ! f\ndation ( be+s1 ! s5se ( ?+s4 ,all p]sonal ev5ts1 all p>ticul> exp]i5ces1 are to me texts = m$itation1 facts to be g5]aliz$ into laws1 realities to be r$uc$ to ideas4 ,life is only a docum5t to be int]pret$1 matt] to be spiritualiz$4 ,su* is ! life ( ! ?9k]4 ,e day he /rips himself m & m ( p]sonality4 ,if he cons5ts to act & to feel1 x is t he may ! bett] und]/&2 if he wills1 x is t he may "k :at w is4 ,al?\gh x is sweet to him to be lov$1 & he kn[s no?+ else s sweet1 yet !re also he seems to himself to be ! occasion ( ! ph5om5on r ?an its end4 ,he contemplates ! spectacle ( love1 & love = him rema9s a spectacle4 ,he does n ev5 believe 8 body 8 own2 he feels ! vital :irlw9d pass+ ?r\gh him--l5t to him1 z x 71 = a mom5t1 9 ord] t he may p]ceive ! cosmic vibrations4 ,he is a m]e ?9k+ subject2 he reta9s only ! =m ( ?+s2 he attributes to himself ! mat]ial possession ( no?+ :atsoev]2 he asks no?+ f life b wisdom4 ,?is temp] ( m9d makes him incompreh5sible to all t loves enjoym5t1 dom9ion1 possession4 ,he is fluid z a phantom t we see b _c grasp2 he resembles a man1 z ! manes ( ,a*illes or ! %ade ( ,creusa resembl$ ! liv+4 ,)\t hav+ di$1 ,i am a gho/4 ,o!r m5 are dreams to me1 & ,i am a dream to !m4 ,lat]--,consci\sness 9 me takes no acc\nt ( ! category ( "t1 & !re=e all ! p>titions :i* t5d to make ( life a palace ) a ?\s& rooms1 d n exi/ 9 my case2 ,i am /ill 9 ! primitive unicellul> /ate4 ,i possess myself only z ,monad & z ,ego1 & ,i feel my faculties !mselves reabsorb$ into ! sub/ance :i* !y h individualiz$4 ,all ! end[m5t ( animality is1 s to speak1 repudiat$2 all ! produce ( /udy & ( cultivation is 9 ! same way annull$2 ! :ole cry/allization is r$issolv$ into fluid2 ! :ole ra9b[ is )drawn )9 ! dewdrop2 consequ5ces return to ! pr9ciple1 effects to ! cause1 ! bird to ! egg1 ! organism to its g]m4 ,?is psy*ological re9volution is an anticipation ( dea?2 x repres5ts ! life beyond ! grave1 ! return to s*ool1 ! s\l fad+ into ! _w ( gho/s1 or desc5d+ into ! region ( ,die ,mtt]2 x implies ! simplification ( ! individual :o1 all[+ all ! accid5ts ( p]sonality to evaporate1 exi/s h5ce=w>d only 9 ! indivisible /ate1 ! /ate ( po9t1 ( pot5tiality1 ( pregnant no?+ness4 ,is n ?is ! true def9ition ( m9d8 ,is n m9d1 dissociat$ f space & "t1 j ?is8 ,its developm5t1 pa/ or future1 is conta9$ 9 x j z a curve is conta9$ 9 its algebraical =mula4 ,?is no?+ is an all4 ,?is punctum )\t dim5sions is a punctum sali5s4 ,:at is ! acorn b ! oak :i* has lo/ its bran*es1 its leaves1 its trunk1 & its roots--t is to say1 all its app>atus1 its =ms1 its p>ticul>ities--b :i* is /ill pres5t 9 conc5tration1 9 ess5ce1 9 a =ce :i* conta9s ! possibility ( complete revival8 ,?is impov]i%m5t1 !n1 is only sup]ficially a loss1 a r$uction4 ,to be r$uc$ to ^? elem5ts 9 "o :i* are et]nal1 is inde$ to die b n to be annihilat$3 x is simply to become virtual aga94 ,octob] #i1 #ahhj4 7,cl>5s74--,a walk4 ,deep feel+ & admiration4 ,nature 0 s beautiful1 s c>ess+1 s poetical1 s mat]nal4 ,! sunlight1 ! leaves1 ! sky1 ! bells1 all said to me--8,be ( good /r5g? & c\rage1 poor bruis$ "o4 ,?is is nature's k9dly season2 "h is =getfulness1 calm1 & re/4 ,faults & tr\bles1 anxieties & regrets1 c>es & wrongs1 are b "o & ! same burd54 ,we make no di/9ctions2 we com=t all sorr[s1 we br+ peace1 & ) u is consolation4 ,salvation to ! we>y1 salvation to ! afflict$1 salvation to ! sick1 to s9n]s1 to all t suff] 9 he>t1 9 consci5ce1 & 9 body4 ,we are ! f\nta9 ( bless+2 dr9k & live6 ,god make? 8 sun to rise ^u ! j & ^u ! unju/4 ,!re is no?+ grudg+ 9 8 munific5ce2 he does n weigh 8 gifts l a money*ang]1 or numb] !m l a ca%i]4 ,come--!re is en\gh = all60 ,octob] #bi1 #ahhj4 7,g5eva74--,! ideal :i* a man pr(esses may itself be only a matt] ( appe>ance--a device = mislead+ 8 neighbor1 or delud+ himself4 ,! individual is always ready to claim = himself ! m]its ( ! badge "u :i* he fights2 :]eas1 g5]ally speak+1 x is ! contr>y :i* happ5s4 ,! nobl] ! badge1 ! less e/imable is ! we>] ( x4 ,su* at lea/ is ! presumption4 ,x is extremely dang]\s to pride "o's self on any moral or religi\s specialty :atev]4 ,tell me :at y pique y\rself ^u1 & ,i w tell y :at y are n4 ,b h[ are we to "k :at an individual is8 ,fir/ ( all by 8 acts2 b by some?+ else too--some?+ :i* is only p]ceiv$ by intuition4 ,s\l judges s\l by elective aff9ity1 rea*+ ?r\gh & beyond bo? words & sil5ce1 looks & actions4 ,! crit]ion is subjective1 ,i all[1 & liable to error2 b 9 ! fir/ place !re is no saf] "o1 & 9 ! next1 ! accuracy ( ! judgm5t is 9 proportion to ! moral culture ( ! judge4 ,c\rage is an au?ority on c\rage1 goodness on goodness1 nobl5ess on nobl5ess1 loyalty on uprightness4 ,we only truly "k :at we h1 or :at we h lo/ & regret1 z1 = example1 *ildi% innoc5ce1 virg9al purity1 or /a9less honor4 ,! true/ & be/ judge1 !n1 is ,inf9ite ,goodness1 & next to x1 ! reg5]at$ s9n] or ! sa9t1 ! man tri$ by exp]i5ce or ! sage4 ,naturally1 ! t\*/one 9 u becomes f9] & tru] ! bett] we are4 ,novemb] #c1 #ahhj4--,:at impression has ! /ory ,i h j read made ^u me8 ,a mix$ "o4 ,! imag9ation gets no pleasure out ( x1 al?\gh ! intellect is amus$4 ,:y8 ,because ! au?or's mood is "o ( incessant irony & p]siflage4 ,! ,voltairean tradition has be5 8 guide--a great deal ( wit & satire1 v little feel+1 no simplicity4 ,x is a comb9ation ( qualities :i* s]ves em95tly well = satire1 = j\rnalism1 & = pap] w>f>e ( all k9ds1 b :i* is mu* less suitable to ! novel or %ort /ory1 = clev]ness is n poetry1 & ! novel is /ill )9 ! doma9 ( poetry1 al?\gh on ! fronti]4 ,! vague discom=t ar\s$ 9 "o by ^! epigrammatic productions is due probably to a confusion ( k9ds4 ,ambiguity ( /yle keeps "o 9 a p]petual /ate ( t5sion & self-def5se2 we ought n to be left 9 d\bt :e!r ! speak] is je/+ or s]i\s1 mock+ or t5d]4 ,moreov]1 bant] is n humor1 & nev] w be4 ,i ?9k1 inde$1 t ! pr(essional wit f9ds a difficulty 9 be+ g5u9ely comic1 = want ( dep? & dis9t]e/$ feel+4 ,to laugh at ?+s & p is n really a joy2 x is at be/ b a cold pleasure4 ,buffoon]y is :olesom]1 because x is a little m k9dly4 ,! reason :y cont9u\s s>casm repels u is t x lacks two ?+s--humanity & s]i\sness4 ,s>casm implies pride1 s9ce x means putt+ "o's self above o!rs--& levity1 because consci5ce is all[$ no voice 9 controll+ x4 ,9 %ort1 we read satirical books1 b we only love & cl+ to ! books 9 :i* !re is he>t4 ,novemb] #bb1 #ahhj4--;,h[ is ill-nature to be met & ov]come8 ,fir/1 by humility3 :5 a man kn[s 8 own weaknesses1 :y %\ld he be angry ) o!rs = po9t+ !m out8 ,no d\bt x is n v amiable ( !m to d s1 b /ill1 tru? is on _! side4 ,secondly1 by reflection3 aft] all we are :at we are1 & if we h be5 ?9k+ too mu* ( ourselves1 x is only an op9ion to be modifi$2 ! incivility ( our neighbor leaves u :at we 7 be=e4 ,above all1 by p>don3 !re is only "o way ( n hat+ ^? :o d u wrong1 & t is by do+ !m good2 ang] is be/ conqu]$ by k9dness4 ,su* a victory ov] feel+ may n inde$ affect ^? :o h wrong$ u1 b x is a valuable piece ( self-discipl9e4 ,x is vulg> to be angry on "o's own acc\nt2 we ought only to be angry = great causes4 ,besides1 ! poison$ d>t c only be extract$ f ! w\nd by ! balm ( a sil5t & ?\ghtful *>ity4 ,:y d we let human malignity embitt] u8 :y %\ld +ratitude1 jeal\sy--p]fidy ev5--enrage u8 ,!re is no end to recrim9ations1 compla9ts1 or reprisals4 ,! simple/ plan is to blot ev]y?+ out4 ,ang]1 rancor1 bitt]ness1 tr\ble ! s\l4 ,e man is a disp5s] ( ju/ice2 b !re is "o wrong t he is n b\nd to puni%--t ( :i* he himself is ! victim4 ,su* a wrong is to be heal$1 n av5g$4 ,fire purifies all4 8,mon me e/ comme un feu qui dvore et p>fume ,ce qu'on jette p\r le t]nir40 ,decemb] #bg1 #ahhj--;,9 an article ,i h j read1 ,bi$]mann reproa*es ,/rauss ) be+ too negative1 & ) hav+ brok5 ) ,*ri/ianity4 ,! object to be pursu$1 accord+ to him1 %\ld be ! free+ ( religion f ! my?ological elem5t1 & ! sub/itution ( ano!r po9t ( view = ! antiquat$ dualism ( or?odoxy--?is o!r po9t ( view to be ! victory ov] ! _w1 produc$ by ! s5se ( div9e son%ip4 ,x is true t ano!r "q arises3 has n a religion :i* has sep>at$ itself f special miracle1 f local int]v5tions ( ! sup]natural1 & f my/]y1 lo/ its savor & its efficacy8 ,= ! sake ( satisfy+ a ?9k+ & in/ruct$ public1 is x wise to sacrifice ! influ5ce ( religion ov] ! multitude8 ,answ]4 ,a pi\s fiction is /ill a fiction4 ,tru? has ! highe/ claim4 ,x is = ! _w to accommodate itself to tru?1 & n vice v]s4 ,cop]nicus upset ! a/ronomy ( ! ,middle ,ages--s mu* ! worse = x6 ,! ,et]nal ,gospel revolutionizes mod]n *ur*es--:at matt]6 ,:5 symbols become transp>5t1 !y h no fur!r b9d+ =ce4 ,we see 9 !m a poem1 an allegory1 a metaphor2 b we believe 9 !m no long]4 ,yes1 b /ill a c]ta9 esot]icism is inevitable1 s9ce critical1 sci5tific1 & philosophical culture is only atta9able by a m9ority4 ,! new fai? mu/ h its symbols too4 ,at pres5t ! effect x produces on pi\s s\ls is a m or less pr(ane "o2 x has a disrespectful1 incr$ul\s1 frivol\s look1 & x seems to free a man f traditional dogma at ! co/ ( s]i\sness ( consci5ce4 ,h[ are s5sitiv5ess ( feel+1 ! s5se ( s91 ! desire = p>don1 ! ?ir/ = hol9ess1 to be pres]v$ among u1 :5 ! errors :i* h s]v$ !m s long = support & food h be5 elim9at$8 ,is n illusion indisp5sable8 is x n ! div9e process ( education8 ,p]haps ! be/ way is to draw a deep di/9ction betwe5 op9ion & belief1 & betwe5 belief & sci5ce4 ,! m9d :i* disc]ns ^! diff]5t degrees may all[ itself imag9ation & fai?1 & /ill rema9 )9 ! l9es ( progress4 ,decemb] #bh1 #ahhj4--,!re are two modes ( class+ ! p we "k3 ! fir/ is utilit>ian--x />ts f ourselves1 divides our fri5ds f our enemies1 & di/+ui%es ^? :o are antipa!tic to u1 ^? :o are indiff]5t1 ^? :o c s]ve or h>m u2 ! second is dis9t]e/$--x classes m5 accord+ to _! intr9sic value1 _! own qualities & defects1 ap>t f ! feel+s :i* !y h = u1 or we = !m4 ,my t5d5cy is to ! second k9d ( classification4 ,i appreciate m5 less by ! special affection :i* !y %[ to me ?an by _! p]sonal excell5ce1 & ,i _c confuse gratitude ) e/eem4 ,x is a happy ?+ = u :5 ! two feel+s c be comb9$2 & no?+ is m pa9ful ?an to owe gratitude :]e yet we c feel nei!r respect nor confid5ce4 ,i am n v will+ to believe 9 ! p]man5ce ( accid5tal /ates4 ,! g5]osity ( a mis]1 ! good nature ( an egoti/1 ! g5tl5ess ( a passionate temp]am5t1 ! t5d]ness ( a b>r5 nature1 ! piety ( a dull he>t1 ! humility ( an excitable self-love1 int]e/ me z ph5om5a--nay1 ev5 t\* me if ,i am ! object ( !m1 b !y inspire me ) v little confid5ce4 ,i =esee ! end ( !m too cle>ly4 ,e exception t5ds to disappe> & to return to ! rule4 ,all privilege is tempor>y1 & besides1 ,i am less flatt]$ ?an anxi\s :5 ,i f9d myself ! object ( a privilege4 ,a man's primitive "* may be cov]$ ov] by alluvial deposits ( culture & acquisition--none ! less is x sure to come to ! surface :5 ye>s h worn away all t is accessory & adv5titi\s4 ,i admit inde$ ! possibility ( great moral crises :i* sometimes revolutionize ! s\l1 b ,i d>e n reckon on !m4 ,x is a possibility--n a probability4 ,9 *oos+ "o's fri5ds we mu/ *oose ^? ^: qualities are inborn1 & _! virtues virtues ( temp]am5t4 ,to lay ! f\ndations ( fri5d%ip on borr[$ or add$ virtues is to build on an artificial soil2 we run too _m risks by x4 ,exceptions are sn>es1 & we ought above all to di/ru/ !m :5 !y *>m our vanity4 ,to cat* & fix a fickle he>t is a task :i* tempts all wom52 & a man f9ds some?+ intoxicat+ 9 ! te>s ( t5d]ness & joy :i* he alone has _h ! p[] to draw f a pr\d woman4 ,b attractions ( ?is k9d are deceptive4 ,aff9ity ( nature f\nd$ on wor%ip ( ! same ideal1 & p]fect 9 proportion to p]fectness ( s\l1 is ! only aff9ity :i* is wor? any?+4 ,true love is t :i* ennobles ! p]sonality1 =tifies ! he>t1 & sanctifies ! exi/5ce4 ,& ! be+ we love mu/ n be my/]i\s & sph9x-l1 b cle> & limpid z a diamond2 s t admiration & atta*m5t may gr[ ) k4 99 99 99 99 99 ,jeal\sy is a t]rible ?+4 ,x resembles love1 only x is precisely love's contr>y4 ,in/ead ( wi%+ = ! welf>e ( ! object lov$1 x desires ! dep5d5ce ( t object ^u itself1 & its own triumph4 ,love is ! =getfulness ( self2 jeal\sy is ! mo/ passionate =m ( egotism1 ! glorification ( a despotic1 exact+1 & va9 ego1 :i* c nei!r =get nor subord9ate itself4 ,! contra/ is p]fect4 99 99 99 99 99 ,au/]ity 9 wom5 is sometimes ! accompanim5t ( a r>e p[] ( lov+4 ,& :5 x is s _! atta*m5t is /rong z dea?2 _! fidelity z resi/+ z ! diamond2 !y are hungry = devotion & a?ir/ = sacrifice4 ,_! love is a piety1 _! t5d]ness a religion1 & !y triple ! en]gy ( love by giv+ to x ! sanctity ( duty4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ! spectator ov] fifty1 ! _w c]ta9ly pres5ts a good deal t is new1 b a great deal m :i* is only ! old furbi%$ up--m]e plagi>ism & modification1 r ?an amelioration4 ,almo/ ev]y?+ is a copy ( a copy1 a reflection ( a reflection1 & ! p]fect be+ is z r>e n[ z he ev] 04 ,let u n compla9 ( x2 x is ! reason :y ! _w la/s4 ,humanity improves b sl[ly2 t is :y hi/ory goes on4 ,is n progress ! goad ( ,siva8 ,x excites ! tor* to burn itself away2 x ha/5s ! approa* ( dea?4 ,societies :i* *ange rapidly only rea* _! f9al cata/rophe ! soon]4 ,*ildr5 :o are too precoci\s nev] rea* maturity4 ,progress %\ld be ! aroma ( life1 n its sub/ance4 99 99 99 99 99 ,man is a passion :i* br+s a w into play1 :i* works an intellig5ce--& ?us ! organs :i* seem to be 9 ! s]vice ( intellig5ce1 are 9 reality only ! ag5ts ( passion4 ,= all ! common] sorts ( be+1 det]m9ism is true3 inw>d lib]ty exi/s only z an exception & z ! result ( self-conque/4 ,& ev5 he :o has ta/$ lib]ty is only free int]mitt5tly & by mom5ts4 ,true lib]ty1 !n1 is n a cont9u\s /ate2 x is n an indefeasible & inv>iable quality4 ,we are free only s f> z we are n dupes ( ourselves1 our pretexts1 our in/9cts1 our temp]am5t4 ,we are fre$ by en]gy & ! critical _s--t is to say1 by deta*m5t ( s\l1 by self-gov]nm5t4 ,s t we are enslav$1 b susceptible ( fre$om2 we are b\nd1 b capable ( %ak+ (f our bonds4 ,! s\l is cag$1 b x has p[] to flutt] )9 its cage4 99 99 99 99 99 ,mat]ial results are b ! t>dy sign ( invisible activities4 ,! bullet has />t$ long be=e ! noise ( ! report has rea*$ u4 ,! decisive ev5ts ( ! _w take place 9 ! intellect4 99 99 99 99 99 ,sorr[ is ! mo/ trem5d\s ( all realities 9 ! s5sible _w1 b ! transfiguration ( sorr[ aft] ! mann] ( ,*ri/ is a m beautiful solution ( ! problem ?an ! extirpation ( sorr[1 aft] ! me?od ( akyam\ni4 99 99 99 99 99 ,life %\ld be a giv+ bir? to ! s\l1 ! developm5t ( a high] mode ( reality4 ,! animal mu/ be humaniz$2 fle% mu/ be made _s2 physiological activity mu/ be transmut$ into intellect & consci5ce1 into reason1 ju/ice1 & g5]osity1 z ! tor* is transmut$ into life & w>m?4 ,! bl9d1 gre$y1 selfi% nature ( man mu/ put on beauty & nobl5ess4 ,?is heav5ly al*emy is :at ju/ifies our pres5ce on ! e>?3 x is our mission & our glory4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to r5\nce happ9ess & ?9k only ( duty1 to put consci5ce 9 ! place ( feel+--?is volunt>y m>tyrdom has its nobility4 ,! natural man 9 u fl9*es1 b ! bett] self submits4 ,to hope = ju/ice 9 ! _w is a sign ( sickly s5sibility2 we mu/ be able to d )\t x4 ,true manl9ess consi/s 9 su* indep5d5ce4 ,let ! _w ?9k :at x w ( u1 x is its own affair4 ,if x w n give u ! place :i* is lawfully ours until aft] our dea?1 or p]haps n at all1 x is b act+ )9 its "r4 ,x is our bus9ess to behave z ?\gh our c\ntry 7 grateful1 z ?\gh ! _w 7 equitable1 z ?\gh op9ion 7 cle>-sight$1 z ?\gh life 7 j1 z ?\gh m5 7 good4 99 99 99 99 99 ,dea? itself may become matt] ( cons5t1 & !re=e a moral act4 ,! animal expires2 man surr5d]s 8 s\l to ! au?or ( ! s\l4 ,) ! ye> #ahha1 beg9n+ ) ! mon? ( ,janu>y1 we ent] ^u ! la/ p]iod ( ,amiel's illness4 ,al?\gh he cont9u$ to att5d to 8 pr(essional duties1 & nev] spoke ( 8 =ebod+s1 he felt himself mortally ill1 z we %all see by ! foll[+ extracts f ! ,j\rnal4 ,amiel wrote up to ! end1 do+ little else1 h[ev]1 t[>d ! la/ ?an record ! progress ( 8 disease1 & ! pro(s ( int]e/ & k9dl9ess :i* he receiv$4 ,aft] weeks ( suff]+ & pa9 a /ate ( extreme weakness gradually ga9$ ^u him4 ,8 la/ l9es are dat$ ! #bi? ( ,april2 x 0 on ! #aa? ( ,may t he succumb$1 )\t a /ruggle1 to ! complicat$ disease f :i* he suff]$4--,s4 ,janu>y #e1 #ahha4--;,i ?9k ,i fe> %ame m ?an dea?4 ,tacitus said3 ,omnia s]vilit] pro dom9atione4 ,my t5d5cy is j ! contr>y4 ,ev5 :5 x is volunt>y1 dep5d5ce is a burd5 to me4 ,i %\ld blu% to f9d myself det]m9$ by int]e/1 submitt+ to con/ra9t1 or becom+ ! slave ( any w :atev]4 ,to me vanity is slav]y1 self-love degrad+1 & utilit>ianism meanness4 ,i dete/ ! ambition :i* makes y ! liege man ( some?+ or "s-"o--,i desire to be simply my own ma/]4 ,if ,i _h heal? ,i %\ld be ! free/ man ,i "k4 ,al?\gh p]haps a little h>dness ( he>t w\ld be desirable to make me /ill m indep5d5t4 ,let me exagg]ate no?+4 ,my lib]ty is only negative4 ,nobody has any hold ov] me1 b _m ?+s h become impossible to me1 & if ,i 7 s fooli% z to wi% = !m1 ! limits ( my lib]ty w\ld soon become app>5t4 ,!re=e ,i take c>e n to wi% = !m1 & n to let my ?\ghts dwell on !m4 ,i only desire :at ,i am able =1 & 9 ?is way ,i run my head aga9/ no wall1 ,i cease ev5 to be consci\s ( ! b\nd>ies :i* enclose me4 ,i take c>e to wi% = r less ?an is 9 my p[]1 t ,i may n ev5 be rem9d$ ( ! ob/acles 9 my way4 ,r5unciation is ! safegu>d ( dignity4 ,let u /rip ourselves if we w\ld n be /ripp$4 ,he :o has freely giv5 up 8 life may look dea? 9 ! face3 :at m c x take away f him8 ,d away ) desire & practice *>ity--!re y h ! :ole me?od ( ,buddha1 ! :ole secret ( ! great ,deliv]ance4444 ,x is sn[+1 & my *e/ is tr\blesome4 ,s t ,i dep5d on nature & on ,god4 ,b ,i d n dep5d on human caprice2 ?is is ! po9t to be insi/$ on4 ,x is true t my *emi/ may make a blund] & poison me1 my bank] may r$uce me to paup]ism1 j z an e>?quake may de/roy my h\se )\t hope ( r$ress4 ,absolute indep5d5ce1 !re=e1 is a pure *im]a4 ,b ,i d possess relative indep5d5ce--t ( ! /oic :o )draws into ! =tress ( 8 w1 & %uts ! gates beh9d him4 8,jurons1 except ,dieu1 de n'avoir po9t de matre40 ,?is oa? ( old ,g5eva rema9s my motto /ill4 ,janu>y #aj1 #ahha4--,to let "o's self be tr\bl$ by ! ill-w1 ! +ratitude1 ! indiff]5ce1 ( o!rs1 is a weakness to :i* ,i am v mu* incl9$4 ,x is pa9ful to me to be misund]/ood1 ill-judg$4 ,i am want+ 9 manly h>dihood1 & ! he>t 9 me is m vuln]able ?an x ought to be4 ,x seems to me1 h[ev]1 t ,i h gr[n t\gh] 9 ?is respect ?an ,i us$ to be4 ,! malignity ( ! _w tr\bles me less ?an x did4 ,is x ! result ( philosophy1 or an effect ( age1 or simply caus$ by ! _m pro(s ( respect & atta*m5t t ,i h receiv$8 ,^! pro(s 7 j :at 7 want+ to inspire me ) "s self-respect4 ,o!rwise ,i %\ld h s easily believ$ 9 my own nullity & 9 ! insignificance ( all my ef=ts4 ,success is necess>y = ! timid1 praise is a moral /imulus1 & admiration a /r5g!n+ elixir4 ,we ?9k we "k ourselves1 b z long z we are ignorant ( our comp>ative value1 our place 9 ! social assessm5t1 we d n "k ourselves well en\gh4 ,if we are to act ) effect1 we mu/ c\nt = some?+ ) our fell[-m52 we mu/ feel ourselves possess$ ( "s weight & cr$it ) !m1 s t our ef=t may be rightly proportion$ to ! resi/ance :i* has to be ov]come4 ,z long z we despise op9ion we are )\t a /&>d by :i* to measure ourselves2 we d n "k our relative p[]4 ,i h despis$ op9ion too mu*1 :ile yet ,i h be5 too s5sitive to inju/ice4 ,^! two faults h co/ me de>4 ,i long$ = k9dness1 sympa?y1 & equity1 b my pride =bade me to ask = !m1 or to employ any address or calculation to obta9 !m4444 ,i d n ?9k ,i h be5 wrong altoge!r1 = all ?r\gh ,i h be5 9 h>mony ) my be/ self1 b my want ( adaptability has worn me out1 to no purpose4 ,n[1 inde$1 ,i am at peace )91 b my c>e] is ov]1 my /r5g? is runn+ out1 & my life is ne> its end4 8,il n'e/ plus temps p\r ri5 except p\r m\rir40 ,?is is :y ,i c look at x all hi/orically4 ,janu>y #bc1 #ahha4--;,a tol]able night1 b ?is morn+ ! c\gh has be5 frightful4 ,beautiful wea!r1 ! w9d[s ablaze ) sun%9e4 ,) my feet on ! f5d] ,i h j f9i%$ ! newspap]4 ,at ?is mom5t ,i feel well1 & x seems /range to me t my doom %\ld be s ne>4 ,life has no s5se ( k9%ip ) dea?4 ,?is is :y1 no d\bt1 a sort ( me*anical in/9ctive hope is =ev] spr++ up afre% 9 u1 tr\bl+ our reason1 & ca/+ d\bt on ! v]dict ( sci5ce4 ,all life is t5aci\s & p]si/5t4 ,x is l ! p>rot 9 ! fable1 :o1 at ! v mom5t :5 its neck is be+ wrung1 /ill repeats ) its la/ brea?3 8,cela1 cela1 ne s]a ri540 ,! intellect puts ! matt] at its wor/1 b ! animal prote/s4 ,x w n believe 9 ! evil till x comes4 ,ought "o to regret x8 ,probably n4 ,x is nature's w t life %\ld def5d itself aga9/ dea?2 hope is only ! love ( life2 x is an organic impulse :i* religion has tak5 "u its protection4 ,:o kn[s8 ,god may save u1 may "w a miracle4 ,besides1 are we ev] sure t !re is no rem$y8 ,unc]ta9ty is ! refuge ( hope4 ,we reckon ! d\btful among ! *ances 9 our favor4 ,mortal frailty cl+s to e support4 ,h[ be angry ) x = s do+8 ,ev5 ) all possible aids x h>dly ev] escapes desolation & di/ress4 ,! supreme solution is1 & always w be1 to see 9 necessity ! fa!rly w ( ,god1 & s to submit ourselves & be> our cross bravely1 z an (f]+ to ! ,arbit] ( human de/9y4 ,! soldi] does n dispute ! ord] giv5 him3 he obeys & dies )\t murmur+4 ,if he wait$ to und]/& ! use ( 8 sacrifice1 :]e w\ld 8 submission be8 ,x occurr$ to me ?is morn+ h[ little we "k ( ea* o!r's physical tr\bles2 ev5 ^? ne>e/ & de>e/ to u "k no?+ ( our conv]sations ) ! ,k+ ( ,t]rors4 ,!re are ?\ghts :i* brook no confidant3 !re are griefs :i* _c be %>$4 ,consid]ation = o!rs ev5 bids u conceal !m4 ,we dream alone1 we suff] alone1 we die alone1 we inhabit ! la/ re/+-place alone4 ,b !re is no?+ to prev5t u f op5+ our solitude to ,god4 ,& s :at 0 an au/]e monologue becomes dialogue1 reluctance becomes docility1 r5unciation passes into peace1 & ! s5se ( pa9ful defeat is lo/ 9 ! s5se ( recov]$ lib]ty4 8,v\loir ce que ,dieu veut e/ la seule sci5ce ,qui n\s met en repos40 ,none ( u c escape ! play ( contr>y impulse2 b z soon z ! s\l has once recogniz$ ! ord] ( ?+s & submitt$ itself !reto1 !n all is well4 8,comme un sage m\rant puissions n\s dire en paix3 ,j'ai trop longtemps err1 *]*2 je me trompais3 ,t\t e/ bi51 mon ,dieu m'enveloppe40 ,janu>y #bh1 #ahha4--;,a t]rible night4 ,= ?ree or f\r h\rs ,i /ruggl$ aga9/ suffocation & look$ dea? 9 ! face4444 ,x is cle> t :at awaits me is suffocation--asphyxia4 ,i %all die by *ok+4 ,i %\ld n h *os5 su* a dea?2 b :5 !re is no option1 "o mu/ simply resign "o's self1 & at once4444 ,sp9oza expir$ 9 ! pres5ce ( ! doctor :om he _h s5t =4 ,i mu/ famili>ize myself ) ! idea ( dy+ unexpect$ly1 "s f9e night1 /rangl$ by l>yngitis4 ,! la/ sigh ( a patri>* surr\nd$ by 8 kneel+ family is m beautiful3 my fate inde$ lacks beauty1 gr&eur1 poetry2 b /oicism consi/s 9 r5unciation4 ,ab/9e et su/9e4 ,i mu/ rememb] besides t ,i h fai?ful fri5ds2 x is bett] n to torm5t !m4 ,! la/ j\rney is only made m pa9ful by sc5es & lam5tations3 "o ^w is wor? all o!rs--8,?y w1 n m9e1 be done60 ,leibnitz 0 accompani$ to ! grave by 8 s]vant only4 ,! lonel9ess ( ! dea?b$ & ! tomb is n an evil4 ,! great my/]y _c be %>$4 ,! dialogue betwe5 ! s\l & ! ,k+ ( ,t]rors ne$s no witnesses4 ,x is ! liv+ :o cl+ to ! ?\ght ( la/ greet+s4 ,&1 aft] all1 no "o kn[s exactly :at is res]v$ = him4 ,:at w be w be4 ,we h b to say1 8,am540 ,febru>y #d1 #ahha4--;,x is a /range s5sation t ( lay+ "o's self d[n to re/ ) ! ?\ght t p]haps "o w nev] see ! morr[4 ,ye/]day ,i felt x /rongly1 & yet "h ,i am4 ,humility is made easy by ! s5se ( excessive frailty1 b x cuts away all ambition4 8,quittez le long espoir et les va/es p5ses40 ,a long piece ( "w seems absurd--"o lives b f day to day4 ,:5 a man c no long] look =w>d 9 imag9ation to five ye>s1 a ye>1 a mon?1 ( free activity--:5 he is r$uc$ to c\nt+ ! h\rs1 & to see+ 9 ! com+ night ! ?reat ( an unkn[n fate--x is pla9 t he mu/ give up art1 sci5ce1 & politics1 & t he mu/ be cont5t to hold conv]se ) himself1 ! "o possibility :i* is 8 till ! end4 ,inw>d soliloquy is ! only res\rce ( ! condemn$ man ^: execution is delay$4 ,he )draws ^u ! fa/nesses ( consci5ce4 ,8 spiritual =ce no long] radiates outw>dly2 x is consum$ 9 self-/udy4 ,action is cut (f--only contemplation rema9s4 ,he /ill writes to ^? :o h claims ^u him1 b he bids f>ewell to ! public1 & retreats into himself4 ,l ! h>e1 he comes back to die 9 8 =m1 & ?is =m is 8 consci\sness1 8 intellect--! j\rnal1 too1 :i* has be5 ! companion ( 8 inn] life4 ,z long z he c hold a p51 z long z he has a mom5t ( solitude1 ?is e*o ( himself /ill claims 8 m$itation1 /ill repres5ts to him 8 conv]se ) 8 ,god4 ,9 all ?is1 h[ev]1 !re is no?+ ak9 to self-exam9ation3 x is n an act ( contrition1 or a cry = help4 ,x is simply an ,am5 ( submission--8,my *ild1 give me ?y he>t60 ,r5unciation & acquiesc5ce are less difficult to me ?an to o!rs1 = ,i desire no?+4 ,i c\ld only wi% n to suff]1 b ,jesus on ,ge!semane all[$ himself to make ! same pray]2 let u add to x ! words t he did3 8,nev]!less1 n my w1 b ?9e1 be done10--& wait4 444 ,= _m ye>s pa/ ! imman5t ,god has be5 m real to me ?an ! transc5d5t ,god1 & ! religion ( ,jacob has be5 m ali5 to me ?an t ( ,kant1 or ev5 ,sp9oza4 ,! :ole ,semitic dramaturgy has come to seem to me a "w ( ! imag9ation4 ,! apo/olic docum5ts h *ang$ 9 value & mean+ to my eyes4 ,belief & tru? h become di/9ct to me ) a gr[+ di/9ctness4 ,religi\s psy*ology has become a simple ph5om5on1 & has lo/ its fix$ & absolute value4 ,! apologetics ( ,pascal1 ( ,leibnitz1 ( ,secrtan1 are to me no m conv9c+ ?an ^? ( ! ,middle ,ages1 = !y presuppose :at is really 9 "q--a reveal$ doctr9e1 a def9ite & un*angeable ,*ri/ianity4 ,x seems to me t :at rema9s to me f all my /udies is a new ph5om5ology ( m9d1 an intuition ( univ]sal metamorphosis4 ,all p>ticul> convictions1 all def9ite pr9ciples1 all cle>-cut =mulas & fix$ ideas1 are b prejudices1 useful 9 practice1 b /ill n>r[nesses ( ! m9d4 ,! absolute 9 detail is absurd & contradictory4 ,all political1 religi\s1 ae/hetic1 or lit]>y p>ties are protub]ances1 misgr[?s ( ?\ght4 ,e special belief repres5ts a /iff5+ & ?ick5+ ( ?\ght2 a /iff5+1 h[ev]1 :i* is necess>y 9 its "t & place4 ,our monad1 9 its ?9k+ capacity1 ov]leaps ! b\nd>ies ( "t & space & ( its own hi/orical surr\nd+s2 b 9 its individual capacity1 & = purposes ( action1 x adapts itself to curr5t illusions1 & puts be=e itself a def9ite end4 ,x is lawful to be man1 b x is ne$ful also to be a man1 to be an individual4 ,our rle is ?us a d\ble "o4 ,only1 ! philosoph] is specially au?oriz$ to develop ! fir/ rle1 :i* ! va/ majority ( humank9d neglects4 ,febru>y #g1 #ahha4--;,beautiful sun%9e to-day4 ,b ,i h sc>cely spr+ en\gh left 9 me to notice x4 ,admiration1 joy1 presuppose a little relief f pa94 ,:]eas my neck is tir$ ) ! weight ( my head1 & my he>t is we>i$ ) ! weight ( life2 ?is is n ! ae/hetic /ate4 ,i h be5 ?9k+ ov] diff]5t ?+s :i* ,i might h writt54 ,b g5]ally speak+ we let :at is mo/ orig9al & be/ 9 u be wa/$4 ,we res]ve ourselves = a future :i* nev] comes4 ,omnis mort>4 ,febru>y #ad1 #ahha4--,suppos+ t my weeks are numb]$1 :at duties /ill rema9 to me to fulfill1 t ,i may leave all 9 ord]8 ,i mu/ give e "o 8 due2 ju/ice1 prud5ce1 k9dness mu/ be satisfi$2 ! la/ memories mu/ be sweet ones4 ,try to =get no?+ useful1 nor anybody :o has a claim ^u !e6 ,febru>y #ae1 #ahha4--;,i h1 v reluctantly1 giv5 up my lecture at ! univ]sity1 & s5t = my doctor4 ,on my *imney-piece are ! fl[]s :i* ---- has s5t me4 ,lett]s f ,london1 ,p>is1 ,lausanne1 ,neu*atel 444 ,!y seem to me l wrea?s ?r[n into a grave4 ,m5tally ,i say f>ewell to all ! di/ant fri5ds :om ,i %all nev] see aga94 ,febru>y #ah1 #ahha4--,mi/y wea!r4 ,a fairly good night4 ,/ill1 ! emaciation goes on4 ,t is to say1 ! vulture all[s me "s respite1 b he /ill hov]s ov] 8 prey4 ,! possibility ( resum+ my (ficial "w seems l a dream to me4 ,al?\gh j n[ ! s5se ( gho/ly remot5ess f life :i* ,i s (t5 h is abs5t1 ,i feel myself a prison] = good1 a hopeless invalid4 ,?is vague int]m$iate /ate1 :i* is nei!r dea? nor life1 has its sweetness1 because if x implies r5unciation1 /ill x all[s ( ?\ght4 ,x is a rev]ie )\t pa91 peaceful & m$itative4 ,surr\nd$ ) affection & ) books1 ,i float d[n ! /ream ( "t1 z once ,i glid$ ov] ! ,dut* canals1 smoo?ly & noiselessly4 ,x is z ?\gh ,i 7 once m on bo>d ! ,trecks*ute4 ,sc>cely c "o he> ev5 ! s(t ripple ( ! wat] furr[$ by ! b>ge1 or ! ho( ( ! t[+ horse trott+ along ! s&y pa?4 ,a j\rney "u ^! conditions has some?+ fanta/ic 9 x4 ,"o is n sure :e!r "o /ill exi/s1 /ill belongs to e>?4 ,x is l ! manes1 ! %ad[s1 flitt+ ?r\gh ! twilight ( ! inania regna4 ,exi/5ce has become fluid4 ,f ! /&po9t ( complete p]sonal r5unciation ,i wat* ! passage ( my impressions1 my dreams1 ?\ghts1 & memories4444 ,x is a mood ( fix$ contemplation ak9 to t :i* we attribute to ! s]aphim4 ,x takes no int]e/ 9 ! individual self1 b only 9 ! specim5 monad1 ! sample ( ! g5]al hi/ory ( m9d4 ,ev]y?+ is 9 ev]y?+1 & ! consci\sness exam9es :at x has be=e x4 ,no?+ is ei!r great or small4 ,! m9d adopts all modes1 & ev]y?+ is acceptable to x4 ,9 ?is /ate its relations ) ! body1 ) ! out] _w1 & ) o!r individuals1 fade out ( sight4 ,selb/-bewus/se9 becomes once m imp]sonal ,bewus/se91 & be=e p]sonality c be reacquir$1 pa91 duty1 & w mu/ be br\ght into action4 ,are ^! oscillations betwe5 ! p]sonal & ! imp]sonal1 betwe5 pan!ism & !ism1 betwe5 ,sp9oza & ,leibnitz1 to be regrett$8 ,no1 = x is ! "o /ate :i* makes u consci\s ( ! o!r4 ,& z man is capable ( rang+ ! two doma9s1 :y %\ld he mutilate himself8 ,febru>y #bb1 #ahha4--,! m>* ( m9d f9ds its typical expression 9 a/ronomy--no pause1 b no hurry2 orbits1 cycles1 en]gy1 b at ! same "t h>mony2 movem5t & yet ord]2 ev]y?+ has its own weight & its relative weight1 receives & gives =? light4 ,_c ?is cosmic & div9e become o>s8 ,is ! w> ( all aga9/ all1 ! prey+ ( man ^u man1 a high] type ( balanc$ action8 ,i %r9k =m believ+ x4 ,"s !ori/s imag9e t ! phase ( selfi% brutality is ! la/ phase ( all4 ,!y mu/ be wrong4 ,ju/ice w prevail1 & ju/ice is n selfi%ness4 ,indep5d5ce ( intellect1 comb9$ ) goodness ( he>t1 w be ! ag5ts ( a result1 :i* w be ! compromise requir$4 ,m>* #a1 #ahha4--;,i h j be5 glanc+ ov] ! affairs ( ! _w 9 ! newspap]4 ,:at a ,babel x is6 ,b x is v pleasant to be able to make ! t\r ( ! planet & review ! human race 9 an h\r4 ,x gives "o a s5se ( ubiquity4 ,a newspap] 9 ! tw5tie? c5tury w be compos$ ( eight or t5 daily bullet9s--political1 religi\s1 sci5tific1 lit]>y1 arti/ic1 comm]cial1 meteorological1 milit>y1 economical1 social1 legal1 & f9ancial2 & w be divid$ into two p>ts only--,urbs & ,orbis4 ,! ne$ ( totaliz+1 ( simplify+1 w br+ ab\t ! g5]al use ( su* graphic me?ods z p]mit ( s]ies & comp>isons4 ,we %all end by feel+ ! pulse ( ! race & ! globe z easily z t ( a sick man1 & we %all c\nt ! palpitations ( ! univ]sal life1 j z we %all he> ! grass gr[+1 or ! sunspots cla%+1 & cat* ! fir/ /irr+s ( volcanic di/urbances4 ,activity w become consci\sness2 ! e>? w see h]self4 ,!n w be ! "t = h] to blu% = h] disord]s1 h] hide\sness1 h] mis]y1 h] crime & to ?r[ h]self at la/ ) en]gy & p]sev]ance into ! pursuit ( ju/ice4 ,:5 humanity has cut its wisdom-tee?1 !n p]haps x w h ! grace to re=m itself1 & ! w to attempt a sy/ematic r$uction ( ! %>e ( ! evil 9 ! _w4 ,! ,weltgei/ w pass f ! /ate ( in/9ct to ! moral /ate4 ,w>1 hatr$1 selfi%ness1 fraud1 ! "r ( ! /rong]1 w be held to be old-_w b>b>isms1 m]e diseases ( gr[?4 ,! pret5ses ( mod]n civilization w be replac$ by real virtues4 ,m5 w be bro!rs1 peoples w be fri5ds1 races w sympa?ize "o ) ano!r1 & mank9d w draw f love a pr9ciple ( emulation1 ( inv5tion1 & ( zeal1 z p[]ful z any furni%$ by ! vulg> /imulant ( int]e/4 ,?is mill5nium--w x ev] be8 ,x is at lea/ an act ( piety to believe 9 x4 ,m>* #ad1 #ahha4--;,i h f9i%$ ,mrime's lett]s to ,panizzi4 ,mrime di$ ( ! disease :i* torm5ts me--8,je t\sse1 et j't\ffe40 ,bron*itis & a/hma1 :5ce defective assimilation1 & f9ally exhau/ion4 ,he1 too1 tri$ ars5ic1 w9t]+ at ,cannes1 compress$ air4 ,all 0 useless4 ,suffocation & inanition c>ri$ (f ! au?or ( 8,colomba40 ,hic tua res agitur4 ,! gray1 heavy sky is ( ! same color z my ?\ghts4 ,& yet ! irrevocable has its own sweetness & s]5ity4 ,! fluctuations ( illusion1 ! unc]ta9ties ( desire1 ! leaps & b\nds ( hope1 give place to tranquil resignation4 ,"o feels z ?\gh "o 7 already beyond ! grave4 ,x is ?is v week1 too1 ,i rememb]1 t my corn] ( gr\nd 9 ! ,oasis is to be b\ght4 ,ev]y?+ draws t[>d ! end4 ,fe/9at ad ev5tum4 ,m>* #ae1 #ahha4--,! 8,j\rnal0 is full ( details ( ! horrible affair at ,pet]sburg4 ,h[ cle> x is t su* cata/rophes z ?is1 9 :i* ! innoc5t suff]1 are ! product ( a long accumulation ( iniquities4 ,hi/orical ju/ice is1 g5]ally speak+1 t>dy--s t>dy t x becomes unju/4 ,! ,provid5tial !ory is really bas$ on human solid>ity4 ,l\is ,,xvi4 pays = ,l\is ,,xv41 ,alex&] ,,ii4 = ,ni*olas4 ,we expiate ! s9s ( our fa!rs1 & our gr&*ildr5 w be puni%$ = ours4 ,a d\ble inju/ice6 cries ! individual4 ,& he is "r if ! individuali/ pr9ciple is true4 ,b is x true8 ,t is ! po9t4 ,x seems z ?\gh ! individual "p ( ea* man's de/9y 7 b "o section ( t de/9y4 ,morally we are responsible = :at we ourselves h will$1 b socially1 our happ9ess & unhapp9ess dep5d on causes outside our w4 ,religion answ]s--8,my/]y1 obscurity1 submission1 fai?4 ,d y\r duty2 leave ! re/ to ,god40 ,m>* #af1 #ahha4--;,a wret*$ night4 ,a melan*oly morn+4444 ,! two /&-bys ( ! doctor1 digitalis & bromide1 seem to h lo/ _! p[] ov] me4 ,we>ily & pa9fully ,i wat* ! t$i\s progress ( my own decay4 ,:at ef=ts to keep "o's self f dy+6 ,i am worn out ) ! /ruggle4 ,useless & incessant /ruggle is a humiliation to "o's manhood4 ,! lion f9ds ! gnat ! mo/ intol]able ( 8 foes4 ,! natural man feels ! same4 ,b ! spiritual man mu/ le>n ! lesson ( g5tl5ess & long-suff]+4 ,! inevitable is ! w ( ,god4 ,we might h pref]r$ some?+ else1 b x is our bus9ess to accept ! lot assign$ u4444 ,"o ?+ only is necess>y-- 8,g>de en mon coeur la foi dans ta volont sa9te1 ,et de moi fais1 ,dieu1 t\t ce que tu v\dras40 ,lat]4--,"o ( my /ud5ts has j br\ght me a sympa!tic message f my class4 ,my si/] s5ds me a pot ( azaleas1 ri* 9 fl[]s & buds2----s5ds roses & violets3 e "o spoils me1 :i* proves t ,i am ill4 ,m>* #ai1 #ahha4--;,di/a/e--disc\ragem5t4 ,my he>t is gr[+ cold4 ,& yet :at affectionate c>e1 :at t5d]ness1 surr\nds me6444 ,b )\t heal?1 :at c "o d ) all ! re/8 ,:at is ! good ( x all to me8 ,:at 0 ! good ( ,job's trials8 ,!y rip5$ 8 pati5ce2 !y ex]cis$ 8 submission4 ,come1 let me =get myself1 let me %ake (f ?is melan*oly1 ?is we>9ess4 ,let me ?9k1 n ( all t is lo/1 b ( all t ,i might /ill lose4 ,i w reckon up my privileges2 ,i w try to be wor?y ( my bless+s4 ,m>* #ba1 #ahha4--,?is invalid life is too ,epicurean4 ,= five or six weeks n[ ,i h done no?+ else b wait1 nurse myself1 & amuse myself1 & h[ we>y "o gets ( x6 ,:at ,i want is "w4 ,x is "w :i* gives flavor to life4 ,m]e exi/5ce )\t object & )\t ef=t is a poor ?+4 ,idl5ess leads to languor1 & languor to disgu/4 ,besides1 "h is ! spr+ aga91 ! season ( vague desires1 ( dull discom=ts1 ( dim aspirations1 ( sighs )\t a cause4 ,we dream wide-awake4 ,we se>* d>kly = we "k n :at2 invok+ ! :ile some?+ :i* has no "n1 unless x be happ9ess or dea?4 ,m>* #bh1 #ahha4--;,i _c "w2 ,i f9d x difficult to exi/4 ,"o may be glad to let "o's fri5ds spoil "o = a few mon?s2 x is an exp]i5ce :i* is good = u all2 b aft]w>d8 ,h[ mu* bett] to make room = ! liv+1 ! active1 ! productive4 8,tircis1 voici le temps de pr5dre sa retraite40 ,is x t ,i c>e s mu* to g on liv+8 ,i ?9k n4 ,x is heal? t ,i long =--fre$om f suff]+4 ,& ?is desire be+ va91 ,i c f9d no savor 9 any?+ else4 ,satiety4 ,lassitude4 ,r5unciation4 ,abdication4 8,9 y\r pati5ce possess ye y\r s\ls40 ,april #aj1 #ahha4 7,sunday74--,visit to ----4 ,%e read ov] to me lett]s ( #ahdd to #ahde--lett]s ( m9e4 ,s mu* promise to end 9 s meag] a result6 ,:at creatures we are6 ,i %all end l ! ,rh9e1 lo/ among ! s&s1 & ! h\r is close by :5 my ?read ( wat] w h disappe>$4 ,aft]w>d ,i _h a little walk 9 ! sunset4 ,!re 0 an effect ( scatt]$ rays & /ormy cl\ds2 a gre5 haze envelops all ! trees-- 8,et t\t r5at1 et dj l'aubp9e ,a vu l'abeille acc\rir ses fleurs10 --b to me x all seems /range already4 ,lat]4--,:at dupes we are ( our own desires6444 ,de/9y has two ways ( cru%+ u--by refus+ our wi%es & by fulfill+ !m4 ,b he :o only wills :at ,god wills escapes bo? cata/rophes4 8,all ?+s "w toge!r = 8 good40 ,april #ad1 #ahha4--;,frightful night2 ! f\rte5? runn+1 9 :i* ,i h be5 consum$ by sleeplessness4444 ,april #ae1 #ahha4--,to-morr[ is ,good ,friday1 ! fe/ival ( pa94 ,i "k :at x is to sp5d days ( angui% & nights ( agony4 ,let me be> my cross humbly4444 ,i h no m future4 ,my duty is to satisfy ! claims ( ! pres5t1 & to leave ev]y?+ 9 ord]4 ,let me try to end well1 see+ t to und]take & ev5 to cont9ue1 are clos$ to me4 ,april #ai1 #ahha4--;,a t]rible s5se ( oppression4 ,my fle% & my he>t fail me4 8,que vivre e/ difficile1 mon coeur fatigu60