,y\? & ,egolatry ,by ,p,o ,,b>oja ,translat$ f ! ,spani% ,by ,jacob ,s4 ,fassett1 ,jr4 & ,frances ,l4 ,phillips ,,table ,,( ,,cont5ts ,,introduction ,,by ,h4 ,l4 ,,m5ck5 ,,prologue ,,on ,,intellectual ,,love ,,egotism ,i4 ,,fundam5tal ,,ideas ,! bad man ( ,itzea ,humble & a w&]] ,dogmatophagy ,ignoramus1 ,ignorabimus ,nev]!less1 we call ourselves mat]iali/s ,9 def5se ( religion ,ar*-,european ,dionysus or ,apollonian ,epicuri de grege porcum ,evil & ,r\sseau's ,*9aman ,! root ( dis9t]e/$ evil ,music z a s$ative ,conc]n+ ,wagn] ,univ]sal musicians ,! folk song ,on ! optimism ( eunu*s ,,ii4 ,,myself1 ,,! ,,writ] ,to my read]s ?irty ye>s h5ce ,y\?ful writ+s ,! beg9n+ & end ( ! j\rney ,mell[ness & ! critical s5se ,s5sibility ,on dev\r+ "o's own ,god ,an>*ism ,new pa?s ,long+ = *ange ,b>oja1 y w nev] am\nt to any?+ 7,a ,refra97 ,! patriotism ( desire ,my home l&s ,cruelty & /upidity ,! ant]ior image ,! tragi-com$y ( sex ,! veils ( ! sexual life ,a little talk ,! sov]eign cr[d ,! rem$y ,,iii4 ,,! ,,extr>adius ,rhetoric & anti-rhetoric ,! rhy?m ( /yle ,rhetoric ( ! m9or key ,! value ( my ideas ,g5ius & admiration ,my lit]>y & arti/ic incl9ations ,my libr>y ,on be+ a g5tleman ,giv+ (f5ce ,?ir/ = glory ,elective antipa?ies ,to a memb] ( sev]al academies ,,iv4 ,,admirations ,,& ,,incompatibilities ,c]vantes1 ,%akespe>e1 ,molire ,! encyclop$i/s ,! romantici/s ,! naturali/s ,! ,spani% reali/s ,! ,russians ,! critics ,v4 ,,! ,,philosoph]s ,,vi4 ,,! ,,hi/orians ,! ,roman hi/orians ,mod]n & contempor>y hi/orians ,,vii4 ,,my ,,family ,family my?ology ,our ,hi/ory ,,viii4 ,,memories ,,( ,,*ildhood ,san ,seba/ian ,my p>5ts ,monsignor ,two lunatics ,! hawk ,9 ,madrid ,9 ,pamplona ,don ,tirso ,l>equi ,a vision>y r[dy ,s>asate ,rob9son ,crusoe & ! ,my/]i\s ,isl& ,,ix4 ,,z ,a ,,/ud5t ,pr(essors ,anti-milit>ism ,to ,val5cia ,x4 ,,z ,a ,,village ,,doctor ,dolores1 ,la ,sacri/ana ,,xi4 ,,z ,a ,,bak] ,my fa!r's disillusionm5t ,indu/ry & democracy ,! vexations ( a small tradesman ,,xii4 ,,z ,a ,,writ] ,bohemia ,our own g5]ation ,azorn ,paul ,s*mitz ,ortega y ,gasset ,a pseudo-patron ,,xiii4 ,,p>isian ,,days ,e/vanez ,my v]satility accord+ to ,bonaf\x ,,xiv4 ,,lit]>y ,,enmities ,! enmity ( ,dic5ta ,! po/hum\s enmity ( ,sawa ,semi-hatr$ on ! "p ( ,silv]io ,lanza ,,xv4 ,,! ,,press ,our newspap]s & p]iodicals ,our j\rnali/s ,am]icans ,,xvi4 ,,politics ,votes & applause ,politicians ,revolutioni/s ,l]r\x ,an (f] ,sociali/s ,love ( ! work+man ,! conv5tionali/ ,b>riov]o ,an>*i/s ,! morality ( ! alt]nat+ p>ty sy/em ,on obey+ ! law ,! /]nness ( ! law ,,xvii4 ,,milit>y ,,glory ,! old-"t soldi] ,d[n goes pre/ige ,sci5ce & ! picturesque ,:at we ne$ today ,our armies ,a ^w f ,kuroki1 ! ,japanese ,,epilogue ,pal9ode & fre% outbur/ ( ire ,,app5dices ,spani% politicians ,on ,b>oja's an>*i/s ,note ,,introduction ,po ,b>oja is a product ( ! intellectual reign ( t]ror t w5t on 9 ,spa9 aft] ! cata/rophe ( #ahih4 ,t cata/rophe1 ( c\rse1 0 any?+ b un=ese54 ,! national lit]ature1 = a good _m ye>s be=e ! ev5t1 _h be5 made dismal by ! croak+ ( ,iokanaans1 & !re 0 a def9ite dfaiti/e p>ty among ! intellig5tsia4 ,b among ! p 9 g5]al1 if !re 0 n optimism1 !re 0 at lea/ a sort ( resign$ indiff]5ce1 & s ?+s w5t ahead 9 ! old /upid ,spani% way & ! /ructure ( society1 despite a few ge/ures ( lib]alism1 rema9$ z x _h be5 = g5]ations4 ,9 ,spa91 ( c\rse1 !re is always a ,kulturkampf1 z !re is 9 ,italy1 b dur+ ^! ye>s x 0 quiesc5t4 ,! ,*ur*1 9 ! %ad[ ( ! re/or$ mon>*y1 gradually resum$ its old privileges & its old pret5sions4 ,s on ! political side4 ,9 ,catalonia1 :]e ,spa9 keeps ! /range/ melt+-pot 9 ,europe & ! old ,ib]ian /ock is almo/ ext9ct1 !re 0 a m5ac+ see?+1 b else:]e !re 0 n mu* to *ill ! cons]vative sp9e4 ,9 ! middle n9eties1 :5 ! ,sociali/ vote 9 ,g]many 0 already approa*+ ! two million m>k1 & ,belgium 0 rock$ by great ,sociali/ demon/rations1 & ! ,sociali/ deputies 9 ! ,fr5* ,*amb] numb]$ fifty1 & ev5 ,engl& 0 beg9n+ to toy g+]ly ) new s*emes ( social re=m1 by ,bism>ck out ( ,lassalle1 ! total /r5g? ( ! ,sociali/s ( ,spa9 0 /ill n mu* above five ?\s& votes4 ,9 brief1 ! c\ntry seem$ to be remov$ f ! ma9 curr5ts ( ,european ?\ght4 ,!re 0 unre/1 to be sure1 b x 0 unre/ t 0 l>gely in>ticulate & t ne$$ a new race ( lead]s to give x =m & direction4 ,!n came ! colossal %ock ( ! ,am]ican w> & a sudd5 transvaluation ( all ! old values4 ,anti-cl]icalism got on its legs & ,socialism got on its legs1 & out ( ! two grew t great movem5t = ! lib]ation ( ! common p1 t det]m9$ & bitt] /ruggle = a fair %>e 9 ! fruits ( human progress1 :i* came to its melodramatic climax 9 ! execution ( ,francisco ,f]r]4 ,spa9 n[ began to g ahead v rapidly1 if n 9 actual a*ievem5t1 !n at lea/ 9 ! exam9ation & ex*ange ( ideas1 good & bad4 ,p>ties =m$1 split1 blew up1 reviv$ & comb9$1 ea* ) its sure cure = all ! sorr[s ( ! l&4 ,resignationism gave way to a h>% & se>*+ que/ion+1 & que/ion+ to d5unciation & dem& = re=m4 ,! mon>*y sway$ ?is way & t1 seek+ to avoid bo? ! p]il ( too mu* yield+ & ! worse p]il ( n yield+ en\gh4 ,! ,*ur*1 on ! def5sive once m1 prep>$ quickly = /ormy wea!r & s5t hurri$ calls to ,rome = help4 ,nor 0 all ?is upro> on ! political & practical side4 ,spani% lett]s1 = ye>s sunk into =malism1 reviv$ ) ! national _s1 & ! new books 9 prose & v]se began to deal vigor\sly ) ! "h & n[4 ,noveli/s1 poets & essayi/s appe>$ :o _h nev] be5 he>d ( be=e--"y m5 full ( excit+ ideas borr[$ f =eign l&s & ev5 m excit+ ideas ( _! own fa%ion+4 ,! national lit]ature1 b lately s academic & remote f exi/5ce1 0 n[ furi\sly lively1 *all5g+ & provocative4 ,! p f\nd 9 x1 n ! old placid escape f life1 b a new /imulation to ardu\s & ard5t liv+4 ,& out ( ! ruck ( au?ors1 eag]1 exig5t1 & ! trem5d\s cla% ( nations1 new & old1 !re f9ally em]g$ a prose bas$ n ^u rhetorical rem9isc5ces1 b responsive m9utely to ! necessities ( ! national life4 ,! oratorical platitudes ( ,ca/el> & ,cnovas del ,ca/illo gave way to ! discreet analyses ( ,azorn 7,jos ,m>tnez ,ruiz7 & ,jos ,ortega y ,gasset1 to ! sob] s5t5ces ( ! ,rector ( ! ,univ]sity ( ,salamanca1 ,miguel de ,unamuno1 writ+ ) a re/ra9t :i* is any?+ b traditionally ,ca/ilian1 & to ! j\rnali/ic impressionism ( ,ramiro de ,maeztu1 supple & cosmopolitan f long resid5ce abroad4 ,! poets n[ jettison$ ! rotundities ( ! romantic & emotional s*ools ( ,zorrilla & ,salvador ,ru$a1 & sub/itut$ in/ead ! precise1 pictorial l9e ( ,rubn ,d>o1 ,juan ,ramn ,jimnez1 & ! bro!rs ,ma*ado1 :ile ! sociali/ic & republican propag&a :i* _h invad$ ! !atre ) ,prez ,galds1 ,joaqun ,dic5ta1 & ,angel ,guim]1 bore fruit 9 ! psy*ological drama ( ,b5av5te1 ! social com$ies ( ,l9>es ,rivas1 & ! atmosph]ic canvases :i* ! ,qu9t]os h pa9t$ ( ,&alusia4 ,9 ! novel1 ! trans=mation is noticeable at once 9 ! rapid developm5t ( ! pornographic tale1 ^: ri*es might br+ a blu% to ! *eek ( ,boccaccio1 & provide ,poggio & ,aret9o ) a complete review2 b ^! are /ories = ! b>rack1 v5tur+ only n[ & !n ^u ! conf9es ( respectability 9 ! erotic romances ( ,zamacois & ! late enorm\sly popul> ,felipe ,trigo4 ,few ,spani>ds :o write today b h writt5 novels4 ,yet ! ge/ure ( ! gr& /yle ( ,val]a is palsi$1 except1 p]haps1 = ! cons]vative ,quixote1 ,ric>do ,len1 a function>y 9 ! ,bank ( ,spa91 :ile ! idyllic me?od l+]s fitfully 9 su* g5tle writ]s z ,jos ,m>a ,salav]ra1 aft] surviv+ ! attacks ( ! nor!rn reali/s "u ! lead ( ,p]$a1 9 8 novels ( c\ntry life1 & ( ! less vigor\s ,antonio de ,trueba1 & ( ,madrid vulg>ians1 head$ by ,meson]o ,romanos & ,coloma4 ,! decad5t novel1 =e%ad[$ a few ye>s s9ce by ,alej&ro ,sawa1 has atta9$ full maturity 9 ,hoyos y ,v95t1 :ile ! di/9ctive gr[? ( ! c5tury is ! novel ( ideas1 exact1 p5etrat+1 p]si/5tly sugge/ive 9 ! l>g] s5se1 :i* does n hesitate to make dem&s ^u ! read]1 & ?is is exemplifi$ mo/ di/9ctively1 bo? temp]am5tally & intellectually1 by ,po ,b>oja4 ,x w\ld be difficult to f9d two m5 :o1 deal+ ) ! same ideas1 br+ to !m m antagoni/ic attitudes ( m9d ?an ,b>oja & ,blasco ,ibez4 ,= all 8 appe>ance ( mod]nism1 ,blasco really belongs to ! g5]ation be=e #ahih4 ,he is ( ! /ock ( ,victor ,hugo--a popul> rhapsodi/ & intellectual swa%buckl]1 half arti/ & half mob orator--a man ( florid & %all[ c]ta9ties1 viol5t en?usiasms1 quack rem$ies1 va/ magnetism & address1 & ev5 va/] impud5ce--a fell[ ) pla9 t\*es ( ! *>latan4 ,8 fir/ solid success at home 0 made ) ,la ,b>raca 9 #ahii--;& x 0 a success a good deal m political ?an arti/ic2 he 0 hail$ = 8 fr5zy f> m ?an = 8 craft4 ,ev5 outside ( ,spa9 8 subsequ5t celebrity has t5d$ to gr\nd itself ^u agreem5t ) 8 politics1 & n ^u any?+ prop]ly describable z a critical appreciation ( 8 tal5ts4 ,_h ,! ,f\r ,horsem5 ( ! ,apocalypse be5 direct$ aga9/ ,france in/ead ( 9 fav\r ( ,france1 x goes )\t say+ t x w\ld h come to ! ,unit$ ,/ates )\t ! imprimatur ( ! ,am]ican ,embassy at ,madrid1 & t !re w\ld h appe>$ no sudd5 rage = ! au?or among ! g5]ality ( novel-read]s4 ,8 intr9sic m]its1 9 sob] retrospect1 seem v feeble4 ,= all 8 conc]n ) curr5t que/ions1 8 accurate news in/9ct1 he is fundam5tally a romantic ( ! la/ c5tury1 ) m ?an "o pla9 t\* ( ! d[nright op]atic4 ,b>oja is a man ( a v diff]5t sort4 ,a noveli/ und\bt$ly z skilful z ,blasco & a good deal m pr(\nd1 he lacks ! quality ( en?usiasm & ?us makes a m re/rict$ appeal4 ,9 place ( gaudy c]ta9ties he (f]s disconc]t+ que/ion+s2 9 place ( a neat & well-r\nd$ body ( doctr9e he puts =w>d a sort ( g5]aliz$ contra-doctr9e4 ,blasco is almo/ ! typical ,sociali/--iconocla/ic1 oratorical1 s5tim5tal1 !atrical--a f]v5t advocate ( all sorts ( l(ty causes1 eag]ly responsive to ! %ibbole?s ( ! h\r4 ,b>oja is ! analy/1 ! critic1 almo/ ! cynic4 ,if he leans t[>d any def9ite doctr9e at all1 x is t[>d ! doctr9e t ! ess5tial ills ( man are incurable1 t all ! rem$ies propos$ are z bad z ! disease1 t x is almo/ a wa/e ( "t to bo!r ab\t humanity 9 g5]al4 ,?is agno/ic attitude1 ( c\rse1 is v f> f m]ely academic1 mona/ic4 ,b>oja1 ?\gh 8 c>e] has n be5 z dramatic z ,blasco's1 has at all ev5ts tak5 a h& 9 ! life ( 8 "t & c\ntry & s]v$ 8 day 9 ! tr5*es ( ! new enlight5m5t4 ,he is any?+ b a !ori/4 ,b !re is surely no little significance 9 8 f9al retreat to 8 ,basque hillside1 !re to seek peace above ! turmoil4 ,he is1 "o fancies1 a bit disgu/$ & a bit despair+4 ,b if x is despair1 x is surely n ! despair ( "o :o has %irk$ ! trial4 ,! pres5t book1 ,juv5tud1 ,egolatra1 0 writt5 at ! height ( ! late w>1 & !re is a preface to ! orig9al edition1 omitt$ "h1 9 :i* ,b>oja def5ds 8 conc]n ) ae/hetic & philosophical matt]s at su* a "t4 ,! apologia 0 q gratuit\s4 ,a book on ! w>1 ?\gh by ! fir/ noveli/ ( pres5t-day ,spa91 w\ld probably h be5 z useless z all ! o!r books on ! w>4 ,t /up5d\s ev5t w be f> m s\ndly discuss$ by m5 :o h n felt its h>% appeal to ! emotions4 ,b>oja1 evad+ ?is gr& enemy ( all ideas1 sat himself d[n to inspect & co-ord9ate ! ideas t _h gradually come to gr[? 9 8 m9d be=e ! b&s began to bray4 ,! result is a book t is int]e/+1 n only z ! frank talk+ al\d ( "o v unusual man1 b also z a repres5tation ( :at is go+ on 9 ! heads ( a great _m o!r ,spani>ds4 ,blasco1 x seems to me1 is (t5 less ,spani% ?an ,fr5*2 ,val5cia1 aft] all1 is next door to ,catalonia1 & ,catalonia is any?+ b ,ca/ilian4 ,b ,b>oja1 ?\gh he is also un-,ca/ilian & ev5 a bit anti-,ca/ilian1 is /ill a ?or\gh ,spani>d4 ,he is m int]e/$ 9 a lit]>y feud 9 ,madrid ?an 9 a holocau/ beyond ! ,pyr5ees4 ,he gets into 8 discussion ( e problem a def9itely ,spani% flav\r4 ,he is unmi/akably a ,spani>d ev5 :5 he is try+ mo/ rigor\sly to be unbias$ & int]national4 ,he ?9ks out ev]y?+ 9 ,spani% t]ms4 ,9 him1 f fir/ to la/1 "o obs]ves all ! peculi> qualities ( ! ,ib]ian m9d--its disillusion1 its pati5t we>9ess1 its p]vasive melan*oly4 ,spa91 ,i take x1 is ! mo/ misund]/ood ( c\ntries4 ,! _w _c get ov] see+ x ?r\gh ! p9k mi/ ( ,c>m51 an a/\nd+ ,gallic c>icature1 half flatt]y & half libel4 ,! actual ,spani>d is surely no su* gr&-op]a ,fr5*man z ! immortal toreador4 ,i prescribe ! treatm5t t cur$ me1 = "o1 ( mi/ak+ him = an ,ib]ian4 ,t is1 ,i prescribe a visit to ,spa9 9 c>nival "t4 ,b>oja1 !n1 /&s = ! mod]n ,spani% m9d at its mo/ enlight5$4 ,he is ! ,spani>d ( education & worldly wisdom1 deta*$ f ! m$iaeval imbecilities ( ! old rgime & yet alo( f ! worse follies ( ! demagogues :o n[ rage 9 ! c\ntry4 ,va/ly less picturesque ?an ,blasco ,ibez1 he is ne>] ! normal ,spani>d--! ,spani>d :o1 9 ! long run1 mu/ erect a new /ructure ( society ^u ! half ar*aic & half ,utopian *aos n[ reign+ 9 ! p59sula4 ,?us 8 book1 ?\gh x is address$ to ,spani>ds1 %\ld h a c]ta9 value = ,engli%-speak+ read]s4 ,& s x is pres5t$4 ,h4 ,l4 ,,m5ck54 ,,prologue ,,on ,,intellectual ,,love ,only :at is ( ! m9d has value to ! m9d4 ,let u d$icate ourselves )\t compunction to reflect+ a little ^u ! et]nal !mes ( life & art4 ,x is surely prop] t an au?or %\ld write ( !m4 ,i cultivate a love :i* is intellectual1 & ( a =m] epo*1 besides a deafness to ! pres5t4 ,i p\r out my _s cont9ually into ! et]nal m\lds )\t expect+ t any?+ w result f x4 ,b n[1 in/ead ( a novel1 a few /ray comm5ts ^u my life h come f my p54 ,l mo/ ( my books1 ?is has appe>$ 9 my h&s )\t be+ plann$1 & n at my bidd+4 ,i 0 ask$ to write an autobiographical sket* ( t5 or fifte5 pages4 ,t5 or fifte5 pages seem$ a great _m to fill ) ! p]sonal details ( a life :i* is z insignificant z my own1 & f> too few = any adequate comm5t ^u !m4 ,i did n "k h[ to beg94 ,to pick up ! ?read1 ,i began draw+ l9es & arabesques4 ,!n ! pages grew 9 numb] &1 l ,fau/'s dog1 my pile soon wax$ big1 & br\ght =? ?is "w4 ,at times1 p]haps1 ! w>m? ( ! au?or's feel+ may appe> ill-advis$ to ! read]2 x may be t he w f9d 8 op9ions ridicul\s & beside ! m>k on e page4 ,i h m]ely s\ght to sun my vanity & egotism1 to br+ !m =? into ! air1 s t my ae/hetic susceptibilities might n be completely smo!r$4 ,?is book has be5 a "w ( m5tal hygi5e4 ,,egotism ,egotism resembles cold dr9ks 9 summ]2 ! m y take1 ! ?ir/i] y get4 ,x also di/orts ! vision1 produc+ an hydropic effect1 z has be5 not$ by ,cald]n 9 8 ,life is a ,dream4 ,an au?or always has be=e him a keybo>d made up ( a s]ies ( ,i's4 ,! lyric & satiric writ]s play 9 ! purely human octave2 ! critic plays 9 ! bookman's octave2 ! hi/orian 9 ! octave ( ! inve/igator4 ,:5 an au?or writes ( himself1 p]=ce he plays ^u 8 own ,i1 :i* is n exactly t conta9$ 9 ! octave ( ! s5tim5tali/ nor yet 9 t ( ! curi\s inve/igator4 ,und\bt$ly at times x mu/ be a mo/ immode/ ,i1 an ,i :i* discloses a "n & a surname1 an ,i :i* is positive & self-ass]tive1 ) ! imp]i\sness ( a ,capta9 ,g5]al's edict or a ,civil ,gov]nor's decree4 ,i h always felt "s delicacy 9 talk+ ab\t myself1 s t ! impulsion to write ^! pages ( necessity came f )\t4 ,z ,i am n g5]ally int]e/$ :5 anybody communicates 8 likes & dislikes to me1 ,i am ( op9ion t ! o!r p]son mo/ probably %>es ! same feel+s :5 ,i communicate m9e to him4 ,h[ev]1 a "t has n[ arriv$ :5 x is ( no consequ5ce to me :at ! o!r p]son ?9ks4 ,9 ?is matt] ( giv+ annoyance1 a =mula %\ld be drawn up & accept$1 aft] ! mann] ( ,robespi]re3 ! lib]ty ( annoy+ ano!r beg9s :]e 8 lib]ty ( annoy+ y leaves (f4 ,i und]/& v well t !re may be p]sons :o believe t _! lives are :olly exempl>y1 & :o ?us burn ) ard\r to talk ab\t !m4 ,b ,i h n l$ an exempl>y life to any su* ext5t4 ,i h n l$ a life t might be call$ p$agogic1 because x is fitt$ to s]ve z a model1 nor a life t might be call$ anti-p$agogic1 because x w\ld s]ve z a w>n+4 ,nei!r d ,i br+ a fi/ful ( tru?s 9 my h&1 to scatt] broadca/4 ,:at1 !n1 h ,i to say8 ,& :y d ,i write ab\t myself8 ,assur$ly1 to no useful purpose4 ,! own] ( a h\se is sometimes ask$3 ,is !re any?+ mu* lock$ up 9 t room8 ,no1 no?+ b old rubbi%1 he replies promptly4 ,b "o day ! own] op5s ! room1 & !n he f9ds a great /ore ( ?+s :i* he _h n rememb]$1 all ( !m cov]$ ) du/2 s he hauls !m out & g5]ally !y prove to be ( no s]vice at all4 ,?is is precisely :at ,i h done4 ,^! pages1 inde$1 are a spontane\s exudation4 ,b are !y s9c]e8 ,absolutely s9c]e8 ,x is n v probable4 ,! mom5t we sit = a photograph]1 in/9ctively we dissemble & compose our features4 ,:5 we talk ab\t ourselves1 we also dissemble4 ,9 z %ort a book z ?is ! au?or is able to play ) 8 mask & to fix 8 expression4 ,?r\gh\t ! "w ( an entire lifetime1 h[ev]1 :i* is ( real value only :5 x is "o long autobiography1 deceit is impossible1 because :5 ! writ] is lea/ consci\s ( x1 he reveals himself4 ,i ,,fundam5tal ,,ideas ,! ,bad ,man ( ,itzea ,:5 ,i fir/ came to live 9 ?is h\se at ,v]a del ,bidasoa1 ,i f\nd t ! *ildr5 ( ! di/rict _h tak5 possession ( ! entryway & ! g>d51 :]e !y misbehav$ g5]ally4 ,x 0 necess>y to drive !m away little by little1 until !y flew (f l a flock ( sp>r[s4 ,my family & ,i mu/ h seem$ some:at peculi> to ^! *ildr51 = "o day1 :5 "o little fell[ caught sight ( me1 he took refuge 9 ! portal ( 8 h\se & cri$ out3 ,"h comes ! bad man ( ,itzea6 ,& ! bad man ( ,itzea 0 ,i4 ,p]haps ?is *ild _h he>d f 8 si/]1 & 8 si/] _h he>d f h] "m1 & h] "m _h he>d f ! sexton's wife1 & ! sexton's wife f ! p>i% prie/1 t m5 :o h little religion are v bad2 p]haps ?is op9ion did n d]ive f ! prie/1 b f ! presid5t ( ! ,daught]s ( ,m>y1 or f ! secret>y ( ! ,en?ronization ( ! ,sacr$ ,he>t ( ,jesus2 p]haps "s ( !m _h read a little book by ,fa!r ,ladrn de ,guev>a entitl$1 ,noveli/s1 ,good & ,bad1 :i* 0 di/ribut$ 9 ! village ! day t ,i arriv$1 & :i* /ates t ,i am irreligi\s1 a cl]ophobe1 & q %ameless4 ,:e!r f "o s\rce or ano!r1 ! important consid]ation to me 0 t !re 0 a bad man 9 ,itzea1 & t t bad man 0 ,i4 ,to /udy & make cle> ! in/9cts1 pride1 & vanities ( ! bad man ( ,itzea is ! purpose ( ?is book4 ,,humble ,,& ,a ,,w&]] ,"s ye>s ago1 ,i _c say j h[ _m1 probably twelve or f\rte51 dur+ ! days :5 ,i l$1 or ?\ght ,i l$1 a nomadic life1 happ5+ to be 9 ,san ,seba/ian1 ,i w5t to visit ! ,museum ) ! pa9t] ,regoyos4 ,aft] see+ ev]y?+1 ,soraluce1 ! director1 indicat$ t ,i 0 expect$ to inscribe my "n 9 ! visitor's regi/]1 & aft] ,i _h done s1 he said3 ,place y\r titles b5ea?4 ,titles6 ,i exclaim$4 ,i h none4 ,!n put d[n :at y are4 ,z y see1 ! o!rs h done ! same4 ,i look$ at ! book4 ,true en\gh2 !re 0 "o signature1 ,s-&-,s1 & b5ea?1 ,*ief ( ,adm9i/ration ( ! ,?ird ,class & ,knight ( ,*>les ,,iii2 ano!r1 ,somebody ,else1 & b5ea? 0 writt5 ,comm&] ( ! ,battalion ( ,isabella ! ,ca?olic1 ) ! ,cross ( ,m>ia ,cri/9a4 ,!n1 p]haps slightly irritat$ at hav+ nei!r titles nor hon\rs 7burn+ ) an an>*i/ic & ,*ri/ian ranc\r1 z ,nietzs*e w\ld h x71 ,i jott$ d[n a few casual words b5ea? my signature3 ,po ,b>oja1 a humble man & a w&]]4 ,regoyos read !m & bur/ out laugh+4 ,:at an idea6 exclaim$ ! director ( ! ,museum1 z he clos$ ! volume4 ,& !re ,i rema9$ a humble man & a w&]]1 ov]%ad[$ by ,*iefs ( ,adm9i/ration ( all ,classes1 ,comm&]s ( all ,bran*es ( ! ,s]vice1 ,knights ( all k9ds ( ,crosses1 ri* m5 return$ f ,am]ica1 bank]s1 etc41 etc4 ,am ,i a humble man & a w&]]8 ,n a bit ( x6 ,!re is m lit]>y phantasy 9 ! phrase ?an !re is tru?4 ,( humility ,i d n n[1 nor h ,i ev] possess$ m ?an a few r ,buddhi/ic fragm5ts2 nor am ,i a w&]] ei!r1 = mak+ a few insignificant j\rneys does n au?orize "o to call oneself a w&]]4 ,j z ,i put myself d[n at t "t z a humble man & a w&]]1 s ,i might call myself today a pr\d & s$5t>y p]son4 ,p]haps bo? *>act]izations conta9 "s degree ( tru?2 & p]haps !re is no?+ 9 ei!r4 ,:5 a man scrut9izes himself v closely1 he arrives at a po9t :]e he does n "k :at is face & :at is mask4 ,,dogmatophagy ,if ,i am que/ion$ conc]n+ my ideas on religion1 ,i reply t ,i am an agno/ic--,i always l to be a little p$antic ) phili/9es--n[ ,i %all add t1 m ?an ?is1 ,i am a dogmatophagi/4 ,my fir/ impulse 9 ! pres5ce ( a dogma1 :e!r x be political1 moral1 or religi\s1 is to ca/ ab\t = ! be/ way to ma/icate1 dige/1 & dispose ( x4 ,! p]il 9 an inord9ate appetite = dogma lies 9 ! probability ( mak+ too sev]e a dra9 ^u ! ga/ric juices1 & s becom+ dyspeptic = ! re/ ( "o's life4 ,9 ?is respect1 my incl9ation exce$s my prud5ce4 ,i h an incurable dogmatophagy4 ,ignoramus1 ,ignorabimus ,su* are ! words ( ! psy*ologi/1 ,du,bois-,reymond1 9 "o ( 8 well-kn[n lectures4 ,! agno/ic attitude is ! mo/ seemly t x is possible to take4 ,n[adays1 n only h all religi\s ideas be5 upset1 b s too has ev]y?+ :i* until n[ appe>$ mo/ solid1 mo/ indivisible4 ,:o has fai? any long] 9 ! atom8 ,:o believes 9 ! s\l z a monad8 ,:o believes 9 ! objective validity ( ! s5ses8 ,! atom1 unity ( ! _s & ( consci\sness1 ! validity ( p]ception1 all ^! are "u suspicion today4 ,ignoramus1 ignorabimus4 ,,nev]!less1 ,,we ,,call ,,ourselves ,,mat]iali/s ,nev]!less1 we call ourselves mat]iali/s4 ,yes2 n because we believe t matt] exi/s z we see x1 b because 9 ?is way we may contradict ! va9 imag9+s & all ^? sacr$ my/]ies :i* beg9 s mode/ly1 & always end by extract+ ! money f our pockets4 ,mat]ialism1 z ,lange has said1 has prov$ itself ! mo/ fecund doctr9e ( sci5ce4 ,wilhelm ,o/wald1 9 8 ,victory ( ,sci5tific ,mat]ialism1 has def5d$ ! same !sis ) respect to mod]n physics & *emi/ry4 ,at ! pres5t "t we are regal$ ) ! sight ( le>n$ fri>s lay+ aside = a mom5t _! anci5t tomes1 & turn+ to dip into "s manual ( popul> sci5ce1 aft] :i* !y g ab\t & a/oni% simpletons by giv+ lectures4 ,! w> horse ( ^! g5tlem5 is ! conception ent]ta9$ by physici/s at ! pres5t-day conc]n+ matt]1 accord+ to :i* x has sub/ance 9 ! precise degree t x is a manife/ation ( en]gy4 ,if matt] is sc>cely real1 !n :at is ! validity ( mat]ialism8 %\t ! fri>s en?usia/ically4 ,! argum5t smacks ( ! sem9>y & is absolutely wor?less4 ,mat]ialism is m ?an a philosophical sy/em3 x is a sci5tific me?od1 :i* w h no?+ to d ei!r ) fantasies or ) caprices4 ,! jubilation ( ^! fri>s at ! ?\ght t matt] may n exi/1 9 tru? & 9 fact is 9 direct opposition to _! own !ories4 ,because if matt] does n exi/1 !n :at c\ld ,god h creat$8 ,,9 ,,def5se ,,( ,,religion ,! great def5d] ( religion is ! lie4 ,lies are ! mo/ vital possession ( man4 ,religion lives ^u lies1 & society ma9ta9s itself ^u !m1 ) its tra9 ( prie/s & soldi]s--! "o1 moreov]1 z useless z ! o!r4 ,?is great ,maia ( falsehood su/a9s all ! sky bord]s 9 ! !atre ( life1 &1 :5 "s fall1 x lifts up o!rs4 ,if !re 7 a solv5t = lies1 :at surprises w\ld be 9 /ore = u6 ,ne>ly ev]ybody :o n[ appe>s to u to be upright1 inflexible1 & to hold 8 *e/ high1 w\ld be disclos$ z a flaccid1 weak p]son1 pres5t+ 9 reality a sorry spectacle4 ,lies are mu* m /imulat+ ?an tru?2 !y are also almo/ always m tonic & m heal?y4 ,i h come to ?is conclusion r late 9 life4 ,= utilit>ian & practical ends1 x is cle>ly our duty to cultivate falsehood1 arbitr>9ess1 & p>tial tru?s4 ,nev]!less1 we d n d s4 ,c x be t1 unconsci\sly1 we h some?+ ( ! h]oic 9 u8 ,,ar*-,,european ,i am a ,basque1 if n on all f\r sides1 at lea/ on ?ree & a half4 ,! rema9+ half1 :i* is n ,basque1 is ,lomb>d4 ,f\r ( my eight family names are ,guipzcoan1 two ( !m are ,nav>rese1 "o ,alavese1 & ! o!r ,italian4 ,i take x t family names are indicative ( ! c\ntries :]e "o's ance/ors liv$1 & ,i take x also t !re is great pot5cy beh9d !m1 t ! influ5ce ( ea* works ^u ! individual ) a duly proportion$ int5sity4 ,assum+ ?is to be ! case1 ! resultant ( ! ance/ral influ5ces op]ative ^u me w\ld indicate t my geographical p>allel lies some:]e betwe5 ! ,alps & ! ,pyr5ees4 ,sometimes ,i am incl9$ to ?9k t ! ,alps & ! ,pyr5ees are all t is ,european 9 ,europe4 ,beyond !m ,i seem to see ,asia2 bel[ !m1 ,africa4 ,9 ! rip>ian ,nav>rese1 z 9 ! ,catalans & ! ,g5ovese1 "o already notes ! ,african2 9 ! ,gaul ( c5tral ,france1 z well z 9 ! ,au/rian1 !re is a sugge/ion ( ! ,*9ese4 ,clut*+ ! ,pyr5ees & graft$ ^u ! ,alps1 ,i am consci\s ( be+ an ,ar*-,european4 ,,dionysian ,,or ,,apollonian8 ,=m]ly1 :5 ,i believ$ t ,i 0 bo? humble & a w&]]1 ,i 0 conv9c$ t ,i 0 a ,dionysian4 ,i 0 impell$ t[>d turbul5ce1 ! dynamic1 ! !atric4 ,naturally1 ,i 0 an an>*i/4 ,am ,i today8 ,i believe ,i /ill am4 ,9 ^? days ,i us$ to en?use ab\t ! future1 & ,i hat$ ! pa/4 ,little by little1 ?is turbul5ce has calm$ d[n--p]haps x 0 nev] v great4 ,little by little ,i h come to realize t if foll[+ ,dionysus induces ! w to b\nd & leap1 devotion to ,apollo has a t5d5cy to ?r[ ! m9d back until x re/s ^u ! h>mony ( et]nal =m4 ,!re is great attraction 9 bo? gods4 ,,epicuri ,,de ,,grege ,,porcum ,i am also a sw9e ( ! h]d ( ,epicurus2 ,i1 too1 wax eloqu5t ov] ?is anci5t philosoph]1 :o conv]s$ ) 8 pupils 9 8 g>d54 ,! v epi!t ( ,horace1 ^u deta*+ himself f ! ,epicureans1 ,epicuri de grege porcum1 is full ( *>m4 ,all noble m9ds h hymn$ ,epicurus4 ,hail ,epicurus1 ?\ hon\r ( ,greece6 ,lucretius exclaims 9 ! ?ird book ( 8 poem4 ,i h s\ght to av5ge ,epicurus1 t truly holy philosoph]1 t div9e g5ius1 ,lucian tells u 9 8 ,alex&]1 or ! ,false ,prophet4 ,lange1 9 8 ,hi/ory ( ,mat]ialism1 sets d[n ,epicurus z a disciple & imitator ( ,democritus4 ,i am n a man ( suffici5t classical culture to be able to =m an au?oritative op9ion ( ! m]its ( ,epicurus z a philosoph]4 ,all my k ( him1 z well z ( ! o!r anci5t philosoph]s1 is d]iv$ f ! book ( ,diog5es ,la]tius4 ,conc]n+ ,epicurus1 ,i h read ,bayle's magnific5t article 9 8 ,hi/orical & ,critical ,diction>y1 & ,gass5di's "w1 ,de ,vita et ,moribus ,epicuri4 ,) ?is equipm5t1 ,i h become "o ( ! disciples ( ! ma/]4 ,s*ol>s may say t ,i h no "r to enrol myself z "o ( ! disciples ( ,epicurus1 b :5 ,i ?9k ( myself1 spontane\sly !re comes to my m9d ! grotesque epi!t :i* ,horace appli$ to ! ,epicureans 9 8 ,epi/les1 a *>act]ization :i* = my "p ,i accept & reg>d z an hon\r3 ,sw9e ( ! h]d ( ,epicurus1 ,epicuri de grege porcum4 ,,evil ,,& ,,r\sseau',s ,,*9aman ,i d n believe 9 utt] human depravity1 nor h ,i any fai? 9 great virtue1 nor 9 ! notion t ! affairs ( life may be remov$ beyond good & evil4 ,we %all outgr[1 we h already outgr[n1 ! conception ( s91 b we %all nev] pass beyond ! idea ( good & evil2 t w\ld be equival5t to skipp+ ! c>d9al po9ts 9 geography4 ,nietzs*e1 an em95t poet & an extraord9>y psy*ologi/1 conv9c$ himself t we %\ld be able to leap ov] good & evil ) ! help ( a spr+bo>d ( 8 manufacture4 ,n ) ?is spr+bo>d1 nor ) any o!r1 %all we escape f ! pol> ,nor? & ,s\? ( ! moral life4 ,nietzs*e1 a product ( ! fi]ce/ pessimism1 0 at he>t a good man1 be+ 9 ?is respect ! direct opposite ( ,r\sseau1 :o1 despite ! fact t he is =ev] talk+ ab\t virtue1 ab\t s5sibility1 ! he>t1 & ! sublimity ( ! s\l1 0 9 reality a l[1 sordid creature4 ,! philan?ropi/ ( ,g5eva %[s ! clov5 ho( n[ & !n4 ,he asks3 ,if all t x 7 necess>y = u to d 9 ord] to inh]it ! ri*es ( a man :om we _h nev] se51 ( :om we _h nev] ev5 he>d1 & :o liv$ 9 ! fur!rmo/ conf9es ( ,*9a1 7 to press a button & cause 8 dea?1 :at man liv+ w\ld n press t button8 ,r\sseau is conv9c$ t we %\ld all press ! button1 & he is mi/ak51 because ! majority ( m5 :o are civiliz$ w\ld d no?+ ( ! k9d4 ,?is1 to my m9d1 is n to say t m5 are good2 x is m]ely to say t ,r\sseau1 9 8 en?usiasm = humanity1 z well z 9 8 av]sion to x1 is wide ( ! m>k4 ,! evil 9 man is n evil ( ?is active sort1 s !atrical1 s self-int]e/$2 x is a passive1 torpid evil :i* lies lat5t 9 ! dep?s ( ! human animal1 x is an evil :i* c sc>cely be call$ evil4 ,,! ,,root ,,( ,,dis9t]e/$ ,,evil ,tell a man t an intimate fri5d has met ) a great mis=tune4 ,8 fir/ impulse is "o ( satisfaction4 ,he himself is n aw>e ( x cle>ly1 he does n realize x2 nev]!less1 ess5tially 8 emotion is "o ( satisfaction4 ,?is man may aft]w>d place 8 =tune1 if he has "o1 at ! disposition ( 8 fri5d1 yes1 ev5 8 life2 yet ?is w n prev5t 8 fir/ consci\s reaction ^u le>n+ ( ! mis=tune ( 8 fri5d1 f be+ "o :i*1 al?\gh confus$1 is nev]!less n f> remov$ f pleasure4 ,?is feel+ ( dis9t]e/$ malice may be obs]v$ 9 ! relations betwe5 p>5ts & *ildr5 z well z 9 ^? betwe5 husb&s & wives4 ,at times x is n only dis9t]e/$1 b c\nt]-int]e/$4 ,! lack ( a "n = ?is backgr\nd ( dis9t]e/$ malice1 :i* does exi/1 is due to ! fact t psy*ology is n bas$ s mu* ^u ph5om5a z x is ^u language4 ,accord+ to our curr5t /&>ds1 lat5t evil ( ?is nature is nei!r ( int]e/ nor significance4 ,naturally1 ! judge takes acc\nt ( no?+ b de$s2 to religion1 :i* probes m deeply1 ! int5t is ( importance2 to ! psy*ologi/1 h[ev]1 :o attempts to p5etrate /ill fur!r1 ! elem5tal g]m9ative processes ( volition are ( indisp5sable significance4 ,:5ce ?is f\ndation ( dis9t]e/$ malice 9 man8 ,probably x is an ance/ral legacy4 ,man is a wolf t[>d man1 z ,plautus obs]ves1 & ! idea has be5 repeat$ by ,hobbes4 ,9 lit]ature1 x is almo/ idle to look = a pres5tation ( ?is dis9t]e/$1 ?is passive evil1 because no?+ b ! consci\s is lit]>y4 ,%akespe>e1 9 8 ,o!llo1 a drama :i* has always appe>$ false & absurd to me1 emphasizes ! dis9t]e/$ malice ( ,iago1 imp>t+ to him a "* & mode ( action :i* are beyond ^? ( normal m52 b !n1 9 ord] to accr$it him to ! spectators1 he adds also a motive1 & repres5ts him z be+ 9 love ) ,desdemona4 ,victor ,hugo1 9 ,l',homme qui ,rit1 und]took to create a type aft] ! mann] ( ,iago1 & inv5t$ ,b>kilph$ro1 :o embodies dis9t]e/$ yet active malice1 :i* is ! malice ( ! villa9 ( melodrama4 ,b t o!r dis9t]e/$ malice1 :i* lurks 9 ! sodd5 s$im5t ( "*1 t malice :i* is dis9t]e/$ & inactive1 & n only incapable ( draw+ a dagg] b ev5 ( writ+ an anonym\s note1 ?is no writ] b ,do/oievski has _h ! p5etration to reveal4 ,he has %[n u at ! same "t m]e in]t goodness1 ly+ passive 9 ! s\l1 )\t ev] s]v+ z a basis = any?+4 ,,music ,,z ,a ,,s$ative ,music1 ! mo/ social ( ! arts1 & t und\bt$ly :i* possesses ! greate/ future1 pres5ts enorm\s attractions to ! b\rgeoisie4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 x obviates ! necessity ( conv]sation2 x is n necess>y to "k :e!r y\r neighbor is a sceptic or a believ]1 a mat]iali/ or a spirituali/2 no possible argum5t c arise conc]n+ ! mean+ & metaphysics ( life4 ,in/ead ( w>1 !re is peace4 ,! music lov] may argue1 b 8 conceptions are entirely circumscrib$ by ! music1 & h no relation :atev] ei!r to philosophy or to politics z su*4 ,! w>s are small w>s1 & spill no blood4 ,a ,wagn]ite may be a free?9k] or a ,ca?olic1 an an>*i/ or a cons]vative4 ,ev5 pa9t+1 :i* is an art ( mis]able g5]al ideas1 is n s f> remov$ f intellig5ce z is music4 ,?is expla9s :y ! ,greeks 7 able to atta9 su* heights 9 philosophy1 & yet fell to su* dep?s 9 music4 ,music has an additional m]it4 ,x lulls to sleep ! residuum ( dis9t]e/$ malice 9 ! s\l4 ,z a majority ( ! lov]s ( pa9t+ & sculpture are second-h& deal]s & ,jews 9 disguise1 music lov]s1 = ! mo/ "p1 are a debas$ p1 envi\s1 embitt]$ & sup9e4 ,,conc]n+ ,,wagn] ,i am "o ( ^? :o d n und]/& music1 yet ,i am n completely ins5sible to x4 ,?is does n prev5t me1 h[ev]1 f ent]ta9+ a /rong av]sion to all music lov]s1 & especially to ,wagn]ites4 ,:5 ,nietzs*e1 :o app>5tly possess$ a musical temp]am5t1 set ,bizet up aga9/ ,wagn]1 he confess$1 ( c\rse1 prem$itat$ v9dictiv5ess4 ,x is necess>y to m$it]raneanize music1 decl>es ! ,g]man psy*ologi/4 ,b h[ absurd6 ,music mu/ conf9e itself to ! geographical p>allel :]e x 0 born2 x is ,m$it]ranean1 ,baltic1 ,alp9e1 ,sib]ian4 ,nor is ! cont5tion valid t an air %\ld always h a /rongly m>k$ rhy?m1 because1 if ?is 7 ! case1 we %\ld h no?+ b dance music4 ,c]ta9ly1 music 0 associat$ ) ! dance 9 ! beg9n+1 b a suffici5t numb] ( ye>s h n[ elaps$ to enable ea* ( ^! arts to develop indep5d5tly4 ,z reg>ds ,nietzs*e's ho/ility to ! !atocracy ( ,wagn]1 ,i %>e x fully4 ,?is bus9ess ( sub/itut+ ! !atre = ! *ur*1 & tea*+ philosophy s++1 seems ridicul\s to me4 ,i am also out ( pati5ce ) ! wood5 dragons1 swans1 /age fire1 ?und] & lightn+4 ,al?\gh x may s\nd p>adoxical1 ! fact is t all ?is sc5]y is 9 ! way4 ,i h se5 ,k+ ,le> 9 ,p>is1 at ! ,!atre ,anto9e1 :]e x 0 pres5t$ ) v ne>ly p]fect sc5]y4 ,:5 ! ,k+ & ! fool roam$ ab\t ! hea? 9 ! ?ird act1 amid ?und] & lightn+1 ev]ybody 0 gaz+ at ! cl\ds 9 ! flies & wat*+ = ! lightn+1 or li/5+ to ! :i/l+ ( ! w9d2 no "o paid any att5tion to :at 0 said by ! *>act]s4 ,,univ]sal ,,musicians ,g]man music is und\bt$ly ! mo/ univ]sal music1 especially t ( ,moz>t & ,bee?ov54 ,x seems z if !re 7 few] p>ticles ( _! native soil imb$d$ 9 ! works ( ^! two ma/]s ?an is common among _! c\ntrym54 ,!y br+ out 9 %>p relief ! cultural int]nationalism ( ,g]many4 ,moz>t is an epitome ( ! grace ( ! eighte5? c5tury2 he is at once delicate1 joy\s1 s]5e1 gallant1 mis*iev\s4 ,he is a c\rti] ( :atev] c\ntry "o w4 ,sometimes1 :5 li/5+ to 8 music1 ,i ask myself3 ,:y is x t ?is1 :i* mu/ be ( ,g]man orig91 seems to be "p ( all ( u1 to h be5 design$ = u all8 ,bee?ov51 too1 l ,moz>t1 is a man )\t a c\ntry4 ,z ! "o manipulates 8 joy\s1 s(t1 s]5e rhy?ms1 ! o!r ?robs & trembles ) obscure mean+s & pa!tic1 he>tr5d+ lam5ts1 ! s\rce ( :i* lies hidd5 z at ! bottom ( "s m9e4 ,he is a ,segismund :o compla9s aga9/ ! gods & aga9/ 8 fate 9 a tongue :i* kn[s no national acc5t4 ,a day w come :5 ! negroes ( ,timbuktu w li/5 to ,moz>t's & ,bee?ov5's music & feel t x belongs to !m1 z truly z x ev] did to ! citiz5s ( ,muni* or ( ,vi5na4 ,,! ,,folk ,,song ,! folk song lies at ! opposite pole f univ]sal music4 ,x is music :i* smacks mo/ ( ! soil :]eon x has be5 produc$4 ,by its v nature x is intelligible at all times to all p]sons 9 ! locality1 if only because music is n an intellectual art2 x deals 9 rhy?ms1 x does n deal 9 ideas4 ,b beyond ! fact ( its intelligibility1 music possesses diff]5t attractions = diff]5t p4 ,! folk song pres]ves to u ! v sav\r ( ! c\ntry 9 :i* we 7 born2 x recalls ! air1 ! climate t we brea!d & knew4 ,:5 we he> x1 x is z if all our ance/ors %\ld sudd5ly pres5t !mselves4 ,i realize t my ta/es may be b>b>ic1 b if !re c\ld only be "o k9d ( music1 & ,i 7 oblig$ to *oose betwe5 ! univ]sal & ! local1 my pref]5ce w\ld be :olly = ! latt]1 :i* is ! popul> music4 ,,on ,,! ,,optimism ,,( ,,eunu*s ,9 a text book design$ = ! edification ( rese>* work]s--a specim5 ( peculi>ly disagreeable t>tuff]y--! hi/ologi/1 ,ramn y ,cajal1 :o1 z a ?9k]1 has always be5 an absolute m$iocrity1 expla9s :at ! "y s*ol> %\ld be1 9 ! same way t ! ,con/itution ( #ahab made x cle> :at ! ideal ,spani% citiz5 %\ld be4 ,s we "k n[ ! prop] "* ( ! "y s*ol>4 ,he mu/ be calm1 optimi/ic1 s]5e 444 & all ?is ) t5 or twelve copp]s 9 8 pocket6 ,"s fri5ds in=m me t 9 ! ,in/itute = ,public ,education at ,madrid1 :]e an attempt is made to give due arti/ic ori5tation to ! pupils1 !y h contriv$ an in=mal classification ( ! arts 9 ! ord] ( _! importance2 fir/ comes pa9t+2 !n1 music2 &1 la/1 lit]ature4 ,consid]+ c>efully :at may be ! reasons = su* a sequ5ce1 x w\ld appe> t ! purpose mu/ be to deprive ! /ud5t ( any occasion = becom+ pessimi/ic4 ,c]ta9ly nobody w ev] h 8 convictions upset by look+ at anci5t clo?s daub$ ov] ) l9se$ oil1 nor by ! bum-ta-ra ( music4 ,b1 to my m9d1 9 a c\ntry l ,spa91 x is bett] t our "y m5 %\ld be dissatisfi$ ?an t !y %\ld g to ! laboratory e day 9 immaculate bl\ses1 *att] l prop] "y g5tlem5 ab\t ,el ,greco1 ,cezanne & ! ,n9? ,symphony1 & nev] h ! bra9s to prote/ ab\t any?+4 ,back ( all ?is correctness may be div9$ ! optimism ( eunu*s4 ,,ii ,,myself1 ,,! ,,writ] ,,to ,,my ,,read]s ,,?irty ,,ye>s ,,h5ce ,among my books !re are two di/9ct classes3 ,"s ,i h writt5 ) m ef=t ?an pleasure1 & o!rs ,i h writt5 ) m pleasure ?an ef=t4 ,my read]s app>5tly are n aw>e ( ?is di/9ction1 al?\gh x seems evid5t to me4 ,c x be t true feel+ is ( no value 9 a piece ( lit]ature1 z "s ( ! decad5ts h ?\ght8 ,c x be t en?usiasm1 we>9ess1 loa?+1 di/ress & ennui nev] transpire ?r\gh ! pages ( a book8 ,indubitably none ( !m transpire unless ! read] ent]s into ! _s ( ! "w4 ,&1 9 g5]al1 ! read] does n ent] into ! _s ( my books4 ,i *]i% a hope :i*1 p]haps1 may be *im]ical & ridicul\s1 t ! ,spani% read] ?irty or =ty ye>s h5ce1 :o takes up my books1 ^: s5sibilities1 x may be1 h be5 a little less h>d5$ into =malism ?an ^? ( ! read] ( today1 w bo? appreciate & dislike me m intellig5tly4 ,,y\?ful ,,writ+s ,z ,i turn ov] ! pages ( my books1 n[ already gr[+ old1 ,i receive ! impression t1 l a somnambuli/1 ,i h frequ5tly be5 walk+ close to ! cornice ( a ro(1 entirely unconsci\sly1 b 9 imm95t dang] ( fall+ (f2 aga91 x seems to me t ,i h be5 travell+ pa?s beset ) ?orns1 :i* h play$ havoc ) my sk94 ,i h ma9ta9$ myself r clumsily = ! mo/ "p1 yet at times n )\t a c]ta9 degree ( skill4 ,all my books are y\?ful books2 !y express turbul5ce2 p]haps _! y\? is a y\? :i* is lack+ 9 =ce & vig\r1 b nev]!less1 !y are y\?ful books4 ,among ?orns & brambles !re lies conceal$ a t9y ,f\nta9 ( ,y\? 9 my s\l4 ,y may say t its wat]s are bitt] & sal9e1 in/ead ( be+ cry/all9e & cle>4 ,& x is true4 ,yet ! f\nta9 fl[s on1 & bubbles1 & gurgles & spla%es into foam4 ,t is en\gh = me4 ,i d n wi% to dam x up1 b to let ! wat] run & remove itself4 ,i h always felt k9dly t[>d any?+ t removes itself4 ,,! ,,beg9n+ ,,& ,,end ,,( ,,! ,,j\rney ,i =m]ly consid]$ myself a "y man ( protoplasmic capabilities1 & ,i ent]ta9$ v little en?usiasm = =m until aft] ,i _h talk$ ) "s ,russians4 ,s9ce !n ,i h realiz$ t ,i 0 m clean cut1 m ,lat91 & a great deal old] ?an ,i _h suppos$4 ,i see t y belong to ! anci5t rgime1 a ,fr5*woman rem>k$ to me 9 ,rome4 ,i8 ,impossible6 ,yes1 %e insi/$4 ,y are a conv]sationali/4 ,y are n an elegant1 sprucely dress$ abb2 y are an abb :o is cynical & ill-natur$1 :o likes to fancy himself a savage amid ! com=table surr\nd+s ( ! draw+-room4 ,! ,fr5*woman's obs]vation set me to ?9k+4 ,c x be t ,i am hov]+ 9 ! vic9ity ( ,apollo's ,temple )\t realiz+ x8 ,possibly my lit]>y life has be5 m]ely a j\rney f ! ,valley ( ,dionysus to ! ,temple ( ,apollo4 ,n[ somebody w tell me t art beg9s only on ! bottom /ep ( ! ,temple ( ,apollo4 ,& x is true4 ,b !re is :]e ,i /op--on ! bottom /ep4 ,,mell[ness ,,& ,,! ,,critical ,,s5se ,:5ev] my arti/ic consci5ce reproa*es me1 ,i always ?9k3 ,if ,i 7 to und]take to write ^! books today1 n[ t ,i am aw>e ( _! defects1 ,i %\ld nev] write !m4 ,nev]!less1 ,i cont9ue to write o!rs ) ! same old faults4 ,%all ,i ev] atta9 t mell[ness ( s\l 9 :i* all ! vividness ( impression rema9s1 yet 9 :i* x has become possible to p]fect ! expression8 ,i fe> n4 ,mo/ likely1 :5 ,i rea* ! /age ( ref9+ ! expression1 ,i %all h no?+ to say1 & s rema9 sil5t4 ,,s5sibility ,9 my books1 z 9 mo/ t are mod]n1 !re is an indef9able res5tm5t aga9/ life & aga9/ society4 ,res5tm5t aga9/ life is ( f> m anci5t /&+ ?an res5tm5t aga9/ society4 ,! =m] has always be5 a commonplace among philosoph]s4 ,life is absurd1 life is difficult ( direction1 life is a disease1 ! bett] "p ( ! philosoph]s h told u4 ,:5 man turn$ 8 animosity aga9/ society1 x became ! fa%ion to exalt life4 ,life is good2 man1 naturally1 is magnanim\s1 x 0 said4 ,society has made him bad4 ,i am conv9c$ t life is nei!r good nor bad2 x is l ,nature1 necess>y4 ,& society is nei!r good nor bad4 ,x is bad = ! man :o is end[$ ) a s5sibility :i* is excessive = 8 age2 x is good = a man :o f9ds himself 9 h>mony ) 8 surr\nd+s4 ,a negro w walk nak$ ?r\gh a =e/ 9 :i* e drop ( wat] is impregnat$ ) millions ( paludal g]ms1 :i* teems ) insects1 ! bites ( :i* produce malignant abcesses1 & :]e ! temp]ature rea*es fifty degrees ,c5tigrade 9 ! %ade4 ,a ,european1 accu/om$ to ! %elt]$ life ( ! city1 :5 br\ght face to face ) su* a tropical climate1 )\t means ( protection1 w\ld die4 ,man ne$s to be end[$ ) a s5sibility :i* is prop] to 8 epo* & 8 environm5t2 if he has less1 8 life w be m]ely t ( a *ild2 if he has j ! "r measure1 x w be ! life ( an adult2 if he has m1 he w be an invalid4 ,,on ,,dev\r+ ,,"o',s ,,own ,,god ,x is said t ! philosoph] ,av]roes 0 wont to rem>k3 ,:at a sect ^! ,*ri/ians are1 :o dev\r _! own ,god6 ,x w\ld seem t ?is div9e alim5tation ought to make m5 !mselves div9e4 ,b x does n2 our !ophagi/s are human--!y are only too human1 z ,nietzs*e w\ld h x4 ,!re c be no d\bt b t ! ,s\!rn ,european races are ! mo/ vivaci\s1 ! mo/ en]getic1 z well z ! t\ghe/ 9 ! _w4 ,!y h produc$ all ! great conqu]ors4 ,*ri/ianity1 :5 x f\nd x necess>y to ov]come !m1 innoculat$ !m ) its ,semitic virus1 b ?is virus has n only fail$ to make !m weak]1 b1 on ! contr>y1 x has made !m /rong]4 ,!y appropriat$ :at suit$ !m 9 ! ,asiatic m5tality1 & proce$$ to make a weapon ( _! religion4 ,^! cruel ,levant9e races1 ?anks only to ,teutonic p5etration1 are at la/ submitt+ to a s(t5+ process1 & !y w become completely s(t5$ ^u ! e/abli%m5t 9 ,europe ( ! dom9ation ( ! ,slav4 ,mean:ile !y ma9ta9 _! sway 9 _! own c\ntries4 ,!y are q in(f5sive1 we are told4 ,nons5se6 ,!y w\ld burn ,giordano ,bruno z will+ly n[ z !y did 9 ! old days4 ,!re is a great deal ( fire rema9+ 9 ! he>ts ( our !ophagi/s4 ,,an>*ism ,9 an article appe>+ 9 ,h]mes1 a magaz9e publi%$ 9 ,bilbao1 ,salav]ra assumes t ,i h be5 cur$ ( my an>*ism1 & t ,i p]si/ 9 a negative & an>*i/ic attitude 9 ord] to reta9 my lit]>y cli5tele2 :i* is n ! fact4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i c sc>cely be said to h a cli5tele2 9 ! second place1 a small foll[+ ( cons]vatives is mu* m lucrative ?an a l>ge "o ( an>*i/s4 ,x is true t ,i am )draw+ myself f ! fe/ivals ( ,pan & ! cult ( ,dionysus1 b ,i am n sub/itut+ = !m1 ei!r outw>dly or inw>dly1 ! wor%ip ( ,yahveh or ( ,molo*4 ,i h no lik+ = ,semitic traditions--none & none :atev]6 ,i am n able1 l ,salav]ra1 to admire ! ri* simply because !y are ri*1 nor p 9 high /ations because !y happ5 to occupy !m4 ,salav]ra assumes t ,i h a secret admiration = gr& society1 g5]als1 magi/rates1 weal?y g5tlem5 f ,am]ica1 & ,arg5t9es :o %\t out3 ,h[ p]fectly spl5did6 ,i h ! same affection = ^! ?+s t ,i h = ! c[s :i* clutt] up ! road 9 front ( my h\se4 ,i w\ld n be ,f\qui]-,t9ville to ! =m] nor but*] to ! latt]2 b my affection !n has rea*$ its limit4 ,ev5 :5 ,i f9d some?+ wor?y ( admiration1 my incl9ation is t[>d ! small4 ,i pref] ! ,boboli ,g>d5s to ^? ( ,v]sailles1 & ,v5etian or ,flor5t9e hi/ory to t ( ,india4 ,great /ates1 great capta9s1 great k+s1 great gods1 leave me cold4 ,!y are all = peoples :o dwell on va/ pla9s :i* are cross$ by mighty riv]s1 = ! ,egyptians1 = ! ,*9ese1 = ! ,h9dus1 = ! ,g]mans1 = ! ,fr5*4 ,we ,europeans :o are ( ! region ( ! ,pyr5ees & ! ,alps1 love small /ates1 small riv]s1 & small gods1 :om we may address famili>ly4 ,salav]ra is also mi/ak5 :5 he says t ,i am afraid ( *ange4 ,i am n afraid4 ,my nature is to *ange4 ,i am pr$ispos$ to develop1 to move f "h to !re1 to rev]se my lit]>y & political views if my feel+s or my ideas alt]4 ,i avoid no read+ except t :i* is dull2 ,i %all nev] retreat f any p]=mance except a vapid "o1 nor am ,i a p>tisan ei!r ( au/]ity or ( consi/5cy4 ,moreov]1 ,i am n a little dissatisfi$ ) myself1 & ,i w\ld give a great deal to h ! pleasure ( turn+ completely ab\t1 if only to prove to myself t ,i am capable ( a %ift ( attitude :i* is s9c]e4 ,,new ,,pa?s ,"s mon?s s9ce ?ree fri5ds met toge!r 9 an old-fa%ion$ book%op on ! v5]able ,calle del ,olivo--a writ]1 a pr9t]1 & myself4 ,fifte5 ye>s ago all ?ree ( u 7 an>*i/s1 rem>k$ ! pr9t]4 ,:at are we today8 ,i inquir$4 ,we are cons]vatives1 repli$ ! man :o wrote4 ,:at are y8 ,i believe t ,i h ! same ideas ,i _h !n4 ,y h n develop$ if t is s1 retort$ ! writ] ) a %[ ( scorn4 ,i %\ld l to develop1 b into :at8 ,h[8 ,:]e am ,i to f9d ! way8 ,:5 sitt+ beside ! *imney1 w>m+ y\r feet by ! fire z y wat* ! flames1 x is easy to imag9e t !re may be novel walks to explore 9 ! neighb\rhood2 b :5 y come to look at ! map y f9d t !re is no?+ new 9 ! :ole c\ntryside4 ,we are told t ambition means gr[?4 ,x does n ) me4 ,ortega y ,gasset believes t ,i am a man :o is con/itutionally unbribable4 ,i %\ld n g s f> z to say t1 b ,i d say t ,i d n believe t ,i c\ld be brib$ 9 cold blood by ! (f] ( mat]ial ?+s4 ,if ,mephi/opheles wi%es to pur*ase my s\l1 he _c d x ) a decoration or ) a title2 b if he 7 to (f] me sympa?y1 & be a little effusive :ile he is ab\t x1 add+ !n a t\* ( s5tim5t1 ,i am conv9c$ t he c\ld get away ) x q easily4 ,,long+ ,,= ,,*ange ,j z ! aim ( politicians is to appe> con/ant & consi/5t1 arti/s & lit]>y m5 aspire to *ange4 ,w\ld t ! desire ( "o 7 z easy ( atta9m5t z t ( ! o!r6 ,to *ange6 ,to develop6 ,to acquire a second p]sonality :i* %all be diff]5t f ! fir/6 ,?is is giv5 only to m5 ( g5ius & to sa9ts4 ,?us ,caes>1 ,lu!r1 & ,sa9t ,ignatius ea* liv$ two di/9ct lives2 or1 r1 p]haps1 x 0 "o life1 ) sides t 7 obv]se & rev]se4 ,! same ?+ occurs sometimes also among pa9t]s4 ,! evolution ( ,el ,greco 9 pa9t+ upsets ! :ole !ory ( art4 ,!re is no in/ance ( a l trans=mation ei!r 9 anci5t or mod]n lit]ature4 ,"s su* *ange has be5 imput$ to ,goe!1 b ,i see no?+ m 9 ?is au?or ?an a %ort prelim9>y p]iod ( exalt$ feel+1 foll[$ by a lifetime dom9at$ by /udy & ! intellect4 ,among o!r writ]s !re is n ev5 ! sugge/ion ( *ange4 ,%akespe>e is alike 9 all 8 works2 ,cald]n & ,c]vantes are always ! same1 & ?is is equally true ( our mod]n au?ors4 ,! fir/ pages ( ,dick5s1 ( ,tol/oi or ( ,zola c\ld be ins]t$ among ! la/1 & nobody w\ld be ! wis]4 ,ev5 ! erudite rhetorical poets1 ! ,victor ,hugos1 ! ,gauti]s1 & our ,spani% ,zorrillas1 nev] get outside ( _! own rhetoric4 ,,b>oja1 ,,y ,,w ,,nev] ,,am\nt ,,to ,,any?+ 7,a ,refra97 ,b>oja does n am\nt to any?+1 & ,i presume t he w nev] am\nt to any?+1 ,ortega y ,gasset obs]ves 9 ! fir/ issue ( ! ,spectator4 ,i h a suspicion myself t ,i %all nev] am\nt to any?+4 ,ev]ybody :o kn[s me has always ?\ght ! same4 ,:5 ,i fir/ w5t to s*ool 9 ,san ,seba/ian1 at ! age ( f\r--& x has ra9$ a great deal s9ce t day--! tea*]1 ,don ,len ,sn*ez y ,calleja1 :o made a practice ( ?ra%+ u ) a v /iff po9t] 7oh1 ^! hall[$ traditions ( our ance/ors671 look$ me ov] & said3 ,?is boy w prove to be z sulky z 8 bro!r4 ,he w nev] am\nt to any?+4 ,i /udi$ = a "t 9 ! ,in/itute ( ,pamplona ) ,don ,gregorio ,pano1 :o taught u ma!matics2 & ?is old g5tleman1 :o look$ l ! ,comm&] 9 ,don ,juan ,t5orio1 ) 8 froz5 face & 8 :ite be>d1 rem>k$ to me 9 8 sepul*ral voice3 ,y are n go+ to be an eng9e] l y\r fa!r4 ,y w nev] am\nt to any?+4 ,:5 ,i took !rapeutics "u ,don ,b5ito ,h]n&o 9 ,san ,c>los1 ,don ,b5ito plant$ himself 9 front ( me & said3 ,t smile ( y\rs1 t little smile 444 x is imp]t95t4 ,don't y come to me ) any ( y\r satirical smiles4 ,y w nev] am\nt to any?+1 unless x is negative & useless4 ,i %rugg$ my %\ld]s4 ,wom5 :o h kn[n me always tell me3 ,y w nev] am\nt to any?+4 ,& a fri5d :o 0 leav+ = ,am]ica volunte]$3 ,:5 ,i return 9 tw5ty or ?irty ye>s1 ,i %all f9d all my acqua9tances situat$ diff]5tly3 "o w h become ri*1 ano!r w h ru9$ himself1 ?is fell[ w h ent]$ ! cab9et1 t "o w h be5 swall[$ up 9 a small t[n2 b y w be exactly :at y are today1 y w live ! same life1 & y w h j two pesetas 9 y\r pocket4 ,t is z f> z y w get4 ,! idea t ,i %all nev] am\nt to any?+ is n[ deeply root$ 9 my s\l4 ,x is evid5t t ,i %all nev] become a deputy1 nor an academician1 nor a ,knight ( ,isabella ! ,ca?olic1 nor a capta9 ( indu/ry1 nor ald]man1 nor ,memb] ( ! ,c\ncil1 nor a common *eat1 nor %all ,i ev] possess a good black suit4 ,& yet :5 a man has pass$ =ty1 :5 8 belly beg9s to take on adipose tissue & he puffs out ) ambition1 he ought to be some?+1 to sport a title1 to we> a ribbon1 to array himself 9 a black frock coat & a :ite wai/coat2 b ^! ambitions are d5i$ to me4 ,! pr(essors ( my *ildhood & my y\? rise up be=e my eyes l ! gho/ ( ,banquo1 & proclaim3 ,b>oja1 y w nev] am\nt to any?+4 ,:5 ,i g d[n to ! sea%ore1 ! waves lap my feet & murmur3 ,b>oja1 y w nev] am\nt to any?+4 ,! wise owl t p]*es at night on our ro( at ,itzea calls to me3 ,b>oja1 y w nev] am\nt to any?+1 & ev5 ! cr[s1 w++ _! way across ! sky1 incessantly %\t at me f above3 ,b>oja1 y w nev] am\nt to any?+4 ,& ,i am conv9c$ t ,i nev] %all am\nt to any?+4 ,,! ,,patriotism ,,( ,,desire ,i may n appe> to be a v great patriot1 b1 nev]!less1 ,i am4 ,yet ,i am unable to make my ,spani% or ,basque blood an exclusive crit]ion = judg+ ! _w4 ,if ,i believe t a bett] ori5tation may be acquir$ by assum+ an int]national po9t ( view1 ,i d n hold x improp] to cease to feel1 mom5t>ily1 z a ,spani>d or a ,basque4 ,9 spite ( ?is1 a long+ = ! accompli%m5t ( :at %all be = ! greate/ good ( my c\ntry1 normally obsesses my m9d1 b ,i am want+ 9 ! patriotism ( ly+4 ,i %\ld l to h ,spa9 ! be/ place 9 ! _w1 & ! ,basque c\ntry ! be/ "p ( ,spa94 ,! feel+ is su* a natural & common "o t x seems sc>cely wor? :ile to expla9 x4 ,! climate ( ,t\ra9e or ( ,tuscany1 ! ,swiss lakes1 ! ,rh9e & its ca/les1 :atev] is be/ 9 ,europe1 ,i w\ld root up1 if ,i _h my say1 & set d[n "h betwe5 ! ,pyr5ees & ! ,/raits ( ,gibralt>4 ,at ! same "t1 ,i %\ld d5ationalize ,%akespe>e1 ,dick5s1 ,tol/oi & ,do/oievski1 mak+ !m ,spani>ds4 ,i %\ld see t ! be/ laws & ! be/ cu/oms 7 ^? ( our c\ntry4 ,b :olly ap>t f ?is patriotism ( desire1 lies ! reality4 ,:at is to be ga9$ by d5y+ x8 ,to my m9d no?+ is to be ga9$4 ,!re are _m to :om ! only g5u9e patriotism is ! patriotism ( ly+1 :i* 9 fact is m ( a matt] ( rhetoric ?an x is ( feel+4 ,our falsify+ patriots are always engag$ 9 furi\s combat ) o!r equally falsify+ int]nationali/s4 ,no?+ b :at we h is ( any acc\nt1 cries "o p>ty4 ,no1 x is :at ! o!r fell[ has1 cries ! o!r4 ,patriotism is tell+ ! tru? z to "o's c\ntry1 9 a sympa!tic _s :i* is guid$ & in=m$ by a love ( t :i* is be/4 ,n[ "s "o w say3 ,y\r patriotism1 !n1 is no?+ b an ext5sion ( y\r ego2 x is purely utilit>ian4 ,absolutely s4 ,b h[ c !re be any o!r k9d ( patriotism8 ,,my ,,home ,,l&s ,i h two little c\ntries1 :i* are my homes--! ,basque prov9ces1 & ,ca/ile2 & by ,ca/ile ,i mean ,old ,ca/ile4 ,i h1 fur!r1 two po9ts ( view f :i* ,i look out ^u ! _w3 "o is my home on ! ,atlantic2 ! o!r is v l a home to me1 on ! ,m$it]ranean4 ,all my lit]>y inspirations spr+ ei!r f ! ,basque prov9ces or f ,ca/ile4 ,i c\ld nev] write a ,gallegan or a ,catalan novel4 ,i c\ld wi% t my read]s 7 all ,basques & ,ca/ilians4 ,o!r ,spani>ds int]e/ me less4 ,spani>ds :o live 9 ,am]ica1 or ,am]icans1 d n int]e/ me at all4 ,,cruelty ,,& ,,/upidity ,x appe>s f an article writt5 by ,azorn 9 connection ) a book ( m9e1 t1 to my way ( ?9k+1 !re are two enormities :i* are incr$ible & intol]able4 ,!y are cruelty & /upidity4 ,civiliz$ man has no *oice b to despise ^! manife/ations ( primitive1 brute exi/5ce4 ,we may be able to tol]ate /upidity & lack ( compreh5sion :5 !y are simple & :olly natural1 b :at ( an utt] obtus5ess ( und]/&+ :i* dresses itself up & becomes rhetorical8 ,c any?+ be m disagreeable8 ,:5 a fly dev\rs ! poll5 gre$ily f ! pyre?rum1 :i*1 z we "k1 w prove fatal to him1 x becomes cle> at once t flies h no m innate sagacity ?an m54 ,:5 we li/5 to a cons]vative orator def5d+ ! pa/ ) salvos ( rhetorical fireworks1 we are ov]:elm$ by a realization ( ! complete odi\sness ( ornam5tal /upidity4 ,) cruelty x is mu* ! same4 ,! habits ( ! sphex surprise :ile bull fights disgu/ u4 ,! m cruelty & /upidity are dress$ up1 ! m hateful !y become4 ,,! ,,ant]ior ,,image ,i wrote an article once call$1 ,! ,spani>d ,fails to ,und]/&4 ,:ile ,i d n say x 0 good1 ! idea _h "s tru? 9 x4 ,x is a fact t failure to und]/& is n exclusively a ,spani% trait1 b ! fail+ is a human "o :i* is m acc5tuat$ among peoples ( backw>d culture1 ^: vitality is great4 ,l a *ild ! ,spani>d c>ries an ant]ior image 9 8 m9d1 to :i* he submits 8 p]ceptions4 ,a *ild is able to recognize a man or a horse m easily 9 a toy ?an 9 a pa9t+ by ,raphael or by ,leon>do da ,v9ci1 because ! =m ( ! toy adapts itself m readily to ! ant]ior image :i* he has 9 8 consci\sness4 ,x is ! same ) ! ,spani>d4 ,"h is "o ( ! causes ( 8 want ( compreh5sion4 ,"o rejects :at does n fit 9 ) "o's preconceiv$ s*eme ( ?+s4 ,i once rode to ,val5cia ) two prie/s :o 7 by no means unkn[n4 ,"o ( !m _h be5 9 ! conv5t ( ,loyola at ,azpeitia = f\r ye>s4 ,we talk$ ab\t our respective homes2 !y eulogiz$ ! ,val5cian pla9 :ile ,i repli$ t ,i pref]r$ ! m\nta9s4 ,z we pass$ "s b>e1 treeless hills su* z ab\nd ne> ,*9*illa1 "o ( !m--! "o1 9 fact1 :o _h be5 at ,loyola--rem>k$ to me3 ,?is mu/ rem9d y ( y\r own c\ntry4 ,i 0 dumbf\nd$4 ,h[ c\ld he id5tify ^? arid1 p>*$1 gl9t+ rocks ) ! ,basque l&scape1 ) ! humid1 gre51 %ad$ c\ntryside ( ,azpeitia8 ,x 0 easy to see t ! ant]ior image ( a l&scape exi/+ 9 ! m9d ( t prie/1 provid$ only ! g5]al idea ( a m\nta91 & t he 0 unable to di/+ui%1 z ,i 01 betwe5 a gre5 m\nta9 ov]gr[n ) turf & trees1 & an arid hillside ( dry rocks4 ,an hypo!sis expla9+ ! =mation ( visual ideas has be5 =mulat$ by ,wundt1 :i* he calls ! hypo!sis ( projection4 ,x attributes to ! ret9a an innate p[] ( ref]r+ its impressions outw>d along /raight l9es1 9 directions :i* are det]m9$4 ,accord+ to ,mll]1 :o has adopt$ ?is hypo!sis1 :at we p]ceive is our own ret9a "u ! category ( space1 & ! size ( ! ret9al image is ! orig9al unit ( measurem5t appli$ by u to ext]ior objects4 ,! ,spani>d l a *ild1 w h to amplify 8 ret9al image1 if he is ev] to am\nt to any?+4 ,he w h to amplify x1 &1 no d\bt1 complicate x also4 ,,! ,,tragi-,,com$y ,,( ,,sex ,x is v difficult to approa* ! sex "q & to treat x at once 9 a cle> & dignifi$ mann]4 ,& yet1 :o c d5y t x furni%es ! key to ! solution ( _m ( ! enigmas & obscurities ( psy*ology8 ,:o c "q t sex is "o ( ! bases ( temp]am5t8 ,nev]!less1 ! subject may be discuss$ p]missibly 9 sci5tific & v g5]al t]ms1 z by ,pr(essor ,freud4 ,:at is unp>donable is any attempt to br+ x d[n to ! sph]e ( ! practical & concrete4 ,i am conv9c$ t ! rep]cussion ( ! sexual life is felt ?r\gh all ! ph5om5a ( consci\sness4 ,accord+ to ,freud1 an unsatisfi$ desire produces a s]ies ( obscure movem5ts 9 consci\sness :i* eat at ! s\l z electricity is g5]at$ 9 a /orage batt]y1 & ?is accumulation ( psy*ic en]gy mu/ ne$s produce a di/urbance 9 ! n]v\s sy/em4 ,su* n]v\s di/urbances1 :i* are ( sexual orig91 produc$ by ! /rangulation ( desires1 %ape our m5tality4 ,:at is ! prop] conduct = a man dur+ ! critical ye>s betwe5 ! ages ( f\rte5 & tw5ty-?ree8 ,he %\ld be *a/e1 ! prie/s w say1 %utt+ _! eyes ) an hypocritical air4 ,he c m>ry aft]w>ds & become a fa!r4 ,a man :o c be *a/e )\t discom=t betwe5 f\rte5 & tw5ty-?ree1 is end[$ ) a mo/ unusual temp]am5t4 ,& x is "o :i* is n v common at pres5t4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 "y m5 are n *a/e1 & _c be4 ,society1 z x is well aw>e ( ?is1 op5s a little loophole to sexuality1 :i* is free f social emb>rassm5t--! loophole ( pro/itution4 ,z ! bee-hive has its work]s1 society has its pro/itutes4 ,aft] a few ye>s ( sexual life )\t ! walls1 pass$ 9 ! surr\nd+ moats ( pro/itution1 ! normal man is prep>$ = m>riage1 ) its submission to social =ms & to /&>ds :i* are cle>ly absurd4 ,!re is no possibility ( escap+ ?is dilemma :i* has be5 decre$ by society4 ,! alt]native is p]v]sion or surr5d]4 ,to a man ( means1 :o has money to sp5d1 surr5d] is n v difficult2 he has b to foll[ ! =mula4 ,pro/itution among ! upp] classes does n (f5d ! eye1 & x reveals none ( ! sores :i* deface pro/itution z x is practis$ among ! poor4 ,m>riage1 too1 does n sit heavily ^u ! ri*4 ,) ! poor1 h[ev]1 %ame & surr5d] walk h& 9 h&4 ,to practise ! bas] =ms ( pro/itution is to elb[ all t is mo/ vile 9 society1 & to s9k to its level oneself4 ,!n1 to m>ry aft]w>ds )\t adequate means1 is a cont9ual act ( self-abasem5t4 ,x is to be unable to ma9ta9 "o's convictions1 x is to be compell$ to fawn ^u "o's sup]iors1 & ?is is m true 9 ,spa9 ?an x is else:]e1 z ev]y?+ "h mu/ be obta9$ ?r\gh p]sonal influ5ce4 ,suppose "o does n submit8 ,if y d n submit y are lo/4 ,y are condemn$ irretrievably to p]v]sions1 to debility1 to hy/]ia4 ,y w f9d y\rself sl9k+ ab\t ! o!r sex l a fami%$ wolf1 y w live obsess$ by lewd ideas1 y\r m9d w solace itself ) sw9dles & *eats :]e) to provide a solution ( ! riddle ( exi/5ce1 y w become ! mangy %eep t ! %eph]d sets ap>t f ! flock4 ,ev] s9ce e>ly y\?1 ,i h be5 cle>ly consci\s ( ?is dilemma1 & ,i h det]m9$ & said3 ,no2 ,i *oose ! abnormal--give me hy/]ia1 b submission1 nev]6 ,s d]angem5t & di/ortion h come to my m9d4 ,if ,i c\ld h foll[$ my incl9ations freely dur+ ^? fruitful ye>s betwe5 fifte5 & tw5ty-five1 ,i %\ld h be5 a s]5e p]son1 a little s5sual1 p]haps1 & p]haps a little cynical1 b ,i %\ld c]ta9ly n h become viol5t4 ,! morality ( our social sy/em has di/urb$ & upset me4 ,= ?is reason ,i hate x cordially1 & ,i v5t ^u x 9 full measure1 z be/ ,i may1 all ! sple5 ,i h to give4 ,i l at times to disguise ?is poison "u a cov]+ ( art4 ,,! ,,veils ,,( ,,! ,,sexual ,,life ,i am unable to feel any spontane\s en?usiasm = fecundity su* z t :i* ,zola s+s4 ,moreov]1 ,i reg>d ! :ole pose z a sup]/ition4 ,i may be a memb] ( an exhau/$ race1--t is q possible1--b betwe5 ! devotion to our species :i* is pr(ess$ by ^! w\ld-be re-peopl]s ( c\ntries1 & ! purely selfi% preoccupation ( ! ,mal?usians1 my sympa?ies are all ) ! latt]4 ,i see no?+ beyond ! individual 9 ?is sex "q--beyond ! individual :o f9ds himself inhibit$ by sexual morality4 ,?is "q mu/ be fac$ "s day & cle>$ up1 x mu/ be se5 dive/$ ( all my/]y1 ( all veils1 ( all deceit4 ,z ! hygi5e ( nutrition has be5 /udi$ op5ly1 9 broad daylight1 s x mu/ be ) sex hygi5e4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ! notion ( s91 !n1 t ( hon\r1 &1 f9ally1 dread ( syphilis & o!r sexual diseases1 re/ l a cl\d on ! sexual life1 & !y are jumbl$ toge!r ) all mann] ( fanta/ic & lit]>y fictions4 ,obvi\sly1 rigid sexual morality is = ! mo/ "p no?+ m ?an ! practice ( economy 9 disguise4 ,let u face ?is :ole problem frankly4 ,a man has no "r to let 8 life slip by to gratify fools' follies4 ,we mu/ h reg>d to :at is1 ) ,/5dhal4 ,x w be argu$ ( c\rse t ^! veils1 ^! subt]fuges ( ! sexual life1 are necess>y4 ,no d\bt !y are to society1 b !y are n to ! individual4 ,!re are ^? :o believe t ! int]e/s ( ! individual & ( society are "o1 b we1 :o are def5d]s ( ! individual z aga9/ ! ,/ate1 d n ?9k s4 ,a ,,little ,,talk ,myself3 ,i (t5 ?9k ,i %\ld h be5 happi] if ,i _h be5 impot5t4 ,my ,he>]s3 ,h[ c y say su* a t]rible ?+8 ,myself3 ,:y n8 ,to a man l me1 sex is no?+ b a s\rce ( mis]y1 %ame & *eap hypocrisy1 z x is to mo/ ( u :o are oblig$ to get on )\t suffici5t means "u ?is civilization ( ours4 ,n[ y "k :y ,i ?9k t ,i %\ld h be5 bett] (f if ,i _h be5 impot5t4 ,,^u ,,! ,,suppos$ ,,morality ,,( ,,m>riage ,s+le life is said to be selfi% & dete/able4 ,c]ta9ly x is immoral4 ,b :at ( m>riage8 ,is x z moral z x is pa9t$8 ,i am "o :o d\bts x4 ,m>riage1 l all o!r social in/itutions ( consequ5ce1 is surr\nd$ by a :ole s]ies ( common assumptions t cry out to be cle>$ up4 ,!re is a pomp\s & solemn side to m>riage1 & !re is a private museum side4 ,m>riage poses z an h>moni\s g5]al concord 9 :i* religion1 society1 & nature jo94 ,b is x any?+ ( ! k9d8 ,x w\ld appe> to be d\btful4 ,if ! sole purpose ( m>riage is to re> *ildr51 a man ought to live ) a woman only until %e becomes pregnant1 &1 aft] t mom5t1 he ought n to t\* h]4 ,b "h beg9s ! second "p4 ,! woman be>s a baby2 ! baby is n\ri%$ by ! "m's milk4 ,! man has no "r to co-habit ) 8 wife dur+ ?is p]iod ei!r1 because x w be at ! risk ( depriv+ ! *ild ( its natural s\rce ( nutrim5t4 ,9 consequ5ce1 a man mu/ ei!r co-habit ) 8 wife once 9 two ye>s1 or else !re w be "s default 9 ! m>riage4 ,:at is he to d8 ,:at is ! moral c\rse8 ,rememb] t ?ree factors h comb9$ to impose ! m>riage4 ,"o1 ! mo/ f>-rea*+ today1 is economic2 ano!r1 :i* is also extremely important1 is social1 & ! ?ird1 n[ rapidly los+ its hold1 b /ill n )\t influ5ce1 is religi\s4 ,! ?ree =ces toge!r attempt to m\ld nature to _! w4 ,economic pressure & ! high co/ ( liv+ make aga9/ ! hav+ ( *ildr54 ,!y enc\rage default4 ,h[ are we to h all ^! *ildr58 ! m>ri$ c\ple asks4 ,h[ c we fe$ & educate !m8 ,social pressure also t5ds 9 ! same direction4 ,religi\s morality1 h[ev]1 /ill p]si/s 9 its idea ( s91 al?\gh ! pot5cy ( ?is sanction is daily becom+ less1 ev5 to ! cl]ical eye4 ,if nature _h a vote1 x w\ld surely be ca/ 9 fav\r ( polygamy4 ,man is =ev] sexual1 & 9 equal degree1 until ! v]ge ( decrepitude4 ,woman passes ?r\gh ! /ages ( fecundation1 pregnancy1 & lactation4 ,!re c be no d\bt b t ! mo/ conv5i5t1 ! mo/ logical & ! mo/ moral sy/em ( sexual int]c\rse1 naturally1 is polygamy4 ,b ! economic subdues ! natural4 ,:o proposes to h five wives :5 he _c fe$ "o8 ,society has made man an exclusively social product1 & set him ap>t f nature4 ,:at c ! husb& & wife d1 especially :5 !y are poor8 ,mu/ !y ov]load !mselves ) *ildr51 & !n deliv] !m up to pov]ty & neglect because ,god has giv5 !m1 or %all !y limit _! numb]8 ,if my op9ion is ask$1 ,i advise a limit--al?\gh x may be artificial & immoral4 ,m>riage pres5ts u ) ?is simple *oice3 we may ei!r elect ! sl[1 fil?y dea? ( ! indig5t work+man1 ( ! c>ab9e] :o lives 9 a %ack :i* teems ) *ildr51 or else ! clean life ( ! ,fr5*1 :o limit _! (fspr+4 ,! middle class ev]y:]e today is accept+ ! latt] alt]native4 ,m>riage is /ripp+ (f its morality 9 ! bu%es1 & x is well t x %\ld d s4 ,,! ,,sov]eign ,,cr[d ,a /rong man may ei!r dom9ate & subdue ! sov]eign cr[d :5 he confronts x1 z he w\ld a wild bea/1 or he may brea! 8 ?\ghts & ideas into x1 :i* is only ano!r =m ( dom9ation4 ,z ,i am n /rong en\gh to d ei!r1 ,i %un ! sov]eign masses1 s z n to become too ke5ly consci\s ( _! collective be/iality & ill temp]4 ,,! ,,rem$y ,e man fancies t he has some?+ ( ! doctor 9 him1 & consid]s himself compet5t to advise "s sort ( a cure1 s ,i come n[ ) a rem$y = ! evils ( life4 ,my rem$y is con/ant action4 ,x is a cure z old z ! _w1 & x may be z useful z any o!r1 & d\btless x is z futile z all ! re/4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 x is no rem$y at all4 ,! spr+s ( action lie all )9 ourselves1 & !y d]ive f ! vig\r & heal? :i* we h inh]it$ f our fa!rs4 ,! man :o possesses !m may draw on !m :5ev] he w1 b ! man :o is )\t !m c nev] acquire !m1 no matt] h[ widely he may seek4 ,,iii ,,! ,,extr>adius ,! extr>adius ( a writ] may be said to be made up ( 8 lit]>y op9ions & incl9ations4 ,i wi% to expose ! lit]>y cell f ! nucleus out & to unfold x1 in/ead ( proce$+ 9 f ! cov]+4 ,! t]m may seem p$antic & hi/ological1 b x has ! attraction to my m9d ( a rem9isc5ce ( /ud5t days4 ,,rhetoric ,,& ,,anti-,,rhetoric ,if ,i 7 to =mulate my op9ions ^u /yle1 ,i %\ld say3 ,imitations ( o!r m5's /yles are bad1 b a man's own /yle is good4 ,!re is a /ore ( common lit]>y f9]y1 almo/ all ( :i* is 9 con/ant use & has become famili>4 ,:5 a writ] lays h&s on any ( ?is f9]y spontane\sly1 he makes x 8 own1 & ! famili> fl[] blossoms z x does 9 ,nature4 ,:5 an au?or's inspiration does n proce$ f )9 out1 b r f )\t 91 !n he becomes at once a bad rhetorician4 ,i am "o ( ^? writ]s :o employ ! lea/ possible am\nt ( ?is common /ore ( rhetoric4 ,!re are v>i\s reasons = my be+ anti-rhetorical4 ,9 ! fir/ place ,i d n believe t ! pages ( a bad writ] c be improv$ by foll[+ g5]al rules2 if !y d ga9 9 "o respect1 !y lose inevitably 9 ano!r4 ,s mu* = "o reason2 b ,i h o!rs4 ,languages display a t5d5cy to foll[ e/abli%$ =ms4 ,?us ,spani% t5ds t[>d ,ca/ilian4 ,b :y %\ld ,i1 a ,basque1 :o nev] he>s ,ca/ilian spok5 9 my daily life 9 ! acc5ts ( ,avila or ( ,tol$o1 endeav\r to imitate x8 ,:y %\ld ,i cease to be a ,basque 9 ord] to appe> ,ca/ilian1 :5 ,i am n8 ,n t ,i *]i% sectional pride1 f> f x2 b e man %\ld be :at he is1 & if he c be cont5t ) :at he is1 let him be held =tunate4 ,= ?is reason1 among o!rs1 ,i reject ,ca/ilian turns & idioms :5 !y sugge/ !mselves to my m9d4 ,?us if x occurs to me to write some?+ t is di/9ctively ,ca/ilian1 ,i ca/ ab\t = a phrase by means ( :i* ,i may express myself 9 :at to me is a m natural way1 )\t sugge/ion ( our traditional lit]ature4 ,on ! o!r h&1 if ! pure rhetoricians1 ( ! national s*ool1 :o are ca/izo--! ,m>iano de ,cavias1 ! ,ric>do ,lens--%\ld happ5 to write some?+ simply1 logically & ) mod]n directness1 !y w\ld ca/ ab\t imm$iately = a r\ndab\t way ( say+ x1 :i* might appe> elaborate & out ( date4 ,,! ,,rhy?m ,,( ,,/yle ,!re are p]sons :o imag9e t ,i am ignorant ( ! ?ree or f\r elem5t>y rules ( good writ+1 :i* ev]ybody kn[s1 :ile o!rs believe t ,i am unacqua9t$ ) syntax4 ,seor ,bonilla y ,san ,m>tn has conduct$ a se>* ?r\gh my books = defici5cies1 & has discov]$ t 9 "o place ,i write a s5t5ce 9 su* & su* fa%ion1 & t 9 ano!r ,i write some?+ else 9 ano!r1 :ile 9 a ?ird ,i comp\nd a c]ta9 ^w falsely4 ,) respect to ! g5]al subject ( /ructural usage :i* he raises1 x w\ld be easy to cite ample prec$5t among our classic au?ors2 ) respect to ! ^w mi/icidad occurr+ 9 "o ( my books1 ,i h put x into ! m\? ( a =eign]4 ,! faults br\ght to light by ,seor ,bonilla are n v s]i\s4 ,b :at ( x8 ,suppose !y 78 ,an intellig5t fri5d once said to me3 ,i don't "k :at is lack+ 9 y\r /yle2 ,i f9d x acrid4 ,i feel t ?is criticism is ! mo/ apt t has yet be5 made4 ,my difficulty 9 writ+ ,ca/ilian does n arise f any defici5cy 9 gramm> nor any want ( syntax4 ,i fail 9 measure1 9 rhy?m ( /yle1 & ?is %ocks ^? :o op5 my books = ! fir/ "t4 ,!y note t !re is some?+ ab\t !m t does n s\nd "r1 :i* is due to ! fact t !re is a mann] ( respiration 9 !m1 a sy/em ( pauses1 :i* is n traditionally ,ca/ilian4 ,i %\ld insi/ ^u ! po9t at great] l5g?1 7 x n t ! subject ( /yle is clutt]$ up ) su* a mass ( preconceptions1 t x w\ld be necess>y to r$ef9e our t]m9ology1 & !n1 aft] all1 p]haps we %\ld n und]/& "o ano!r4 ,m5 h an idea t !y are ?9k+ :5 !y op]ate ! me*anism ( language :i* !y h at comm&4 ,:5 somebody makes ! jo9ts ( language creak1 !y say3 ,he does n "k h[ to manage x4 ,c]ta9ly he does "k h[ to manage x4 ,anybody c manage a platitude4 ,! tru? is simply ?is3 ! individual writ] endeav\rs to make ( language a cloak to fit 8 =m1 :ile1 contr>ywise1 ! puri/s attempt to m\ld _! bodies till !y fit ! cloak4 ,,rhetoric ,,( ,,! ,,m9or ,,key ,p]sons to :om my /yle is n entirely di/a/eful1 sometimes ask3 ,:y use ! %ort s5t5ce :5 x deprives ! p]iod ( eloqu5ce & rotundity8 ,because ,i d n desire eloqu5ce or rotundity1 ,i reply4 ,fur!rmore1 ,i avoid !m4 ,! va/ majority ( ,spani% puri/s are conv9c$ t ! only possible rhetoric is ! rhetoric ( ! major key4 ,?is1 = example1 is ! rhetoric ( ,ca/el> & ,co/a1 ! rhetoric :i* ,ric>do ,len & ,salvador ,ru$a manipulate today1 z x has be5 inh]it$ f ! ,romans4 ,its purpose is to imp>t solemnity to ev]y?+1 to t :i* already has x by "r ( nature1 & to t :i* has x n4 ,?is rhetoric ( ! major key m>*es ) /ately1 academic tread4 ,at great1 hi/oric mom5ts1 no d\bt x is v well1 b 9 ! long run1 9 incessant p>ade1 x is "o ( ! mo/ deadly soporifics 9 lit]ature2 x de/roys v>iety1 x is fatal to subtlety1 to nice transitions1 to detail1 & x ?r[s ! uni=mity ( ! copybook ov] ev]y?+4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! rhetoric ( ! m9or key1 :i* seems poor at fir/ blu%1 soon reveals itself to be m attractive4 ,x moves ) a liveli]1 m life-l rhy?m2 x is less bomba/ic4 ,?is rhetoric implies cont95ce & basic economy ( ef=t2 x is l an agile man1 lightly clo!d & free ( motion4 ,to ! ext5t ( my ability ,i always avoid ! rhetoric ( ! major key1 :i* is assum$ z ! only prop] /yle1 ! v mom5t t "o sits d[n to write ,ca/ilian4 ,i %\ld l1 ( c\rse1 to rise to ! heights ( solemnity n[ & !n1 b v seldom4 ,!n :at y seek1 ,i am told1 is a famili> /yle l t ( ,meson]o ,romanos1 ,trueba & ,p]$a8 ,no1 ,i am n attract$ by t ei!r4 ,! famili>1 rude1 vulg> mann] rem9ds me ( a wor?y b\rgeois family at ! d9n] table4 ,!re sits ! husb& 9 8 %irt sleeves1 :ile ! wife's hair is at loose ends & %e is dirty besides1 & all ! *ildr5 are 9 rags4 ,i take x t "o may be simple & s9c]e )\t ei!r affectation or vulg>ity4 ,x is well to be a little neutral1 p]haps1 a little grey = ! mo/ "p1 s t ^u occasion ! m delicate hues may /& out cle>ly1 :ile a rhy?m may be employ$ to advantage :i* is 9 h>mony ) actual life1 :i* is light & v>i$1 & innoc5t ( /riv+ aft] solemnity4 ,a mod]n poet1 9 my op9ion1 has illu/rat$ ?is rhetoric ( ! m9or key to p]fection4 ,he is ,paul ,v]la9e4 ,a /yle l ,v]la9e's1 :i* is non-sequ5t1 mac]at$1 free1 is indisp5sable to any ma/]y ( ! rhetoric ( ! m9or key4 ,?is1 to me1 has always be5 my lit]>y ideal4 ,,! ,,value ,,( ,,my ,,ideas ,f "t to "t1 my fri5d ,azorn attempts to analyse my ideas4 ,i d n pret5d to be 9 ! secret ( ! scales1 z su* an assumption ^u my "p w\ld be ridicul\s4 ,z ! pilot takes advantage ( a fav\rable w9d1 & if x does n bl[1 ( "o t is unfav\rable1 ,i d ! same4 ,! meteorologi/ is able to tell ) ma!matical accuracy 9 8 laboratory1 aft] a glance at 8 in/rum5ts1 n only ! direction ( ! prevail+ w9d1 b ! atmosph]ic pressure & ! degree ( humidity z well4 ,i am able only1 h[ev]1 to say ) ! pilot3 ,i sail ?is way1 & !n make head z be/ ,i may4 ,,g5ius ,,& ,,admiration ,i h no fai? 9 ! cont5tion ( ! ,lombrosians t g5ius is ak9 to insanity1 nei!r d ,i ?9k t g5ius is an inf9ite capacity = tak+ pa9s4 ,lombroso1 = t matt]1 is z old-fa%ion$ today z a hoop skirt4 ,g5ius p>takes ( ! miracul\s4 ,if "s "o %\ld tell me t a /ick _h be5 trans=m$ into a snake by a miracle1 naturally ,i %\ld n believe x2 b if ,i %\ld be ask$ :e!r !re 0 n some?+ miracul\s 9 ! v exi/5ce ( a /ick or ( a snake1 ,i %\ld be con/ra9$ to ackn[l$ge ! miracle4 ,:5 ,i read ! lives ( ! philosoph]s 9 ,diog5es ,la]tius1 ,i arrive at ! conclusion t ,epicurus1 ,z5o1 ,diog5es1 ,protagoras & ! o!rs 7 no?+ m ?an m5 :o _h common s5se4 ,cle>ly1 z a coroll>y1 ,i am oblig$ to conclude t ! p we meet n[adays ^u ! /reet1 :e!r !y we> g[ns1 uni=ms or bl\ses1 are m]e animals masqu]ad+ 9 human %ape4 ,contradict+ ! assumption t ! great m5 ( antiquity 7 only ord9>y normal be+s1 we mu/ conc$e ! fact t mo/ extraord9>y conditions mu/ h exi/$ &1 inde$1 h be5 pre-exquisite1 be=e a ,greece c\ld h aris5 9 antiquity1 or an ,a!ns 9 ,greece1 or a man su* z ,plato 9 ,a!ns4 ,by v nature1 ! s\rces ( admiration are z my/]i\s to my m9d z ! roots ( g5ius4 ,d we admire :at we und]/&1 or :at we d n und]/&8 ,admiration is ( two k9ds1 ( :i* ! m common proce$s f wond] at some?+ :i* we d n und]/&4 ,!re is1 h[ev]1 an admiration :i* goes ) und]/&+4 ,edg> ,poe compos$ sev]al /ories1 ( :i* ,! ,goldbug is "o1 9 :i* an imp5etrable enigma is fir/ pres5t$1 to be solv$ aft]w>ds z by a talisman2 b1 !n1 a lesson 9 cryptography ensues1 :]e9 ! talisman is expla9$ away1 & ! miracul\s gives place to ! reason+ faculties ( a m9d ( unusual p[]4 ,he has done some?+ v simil> 9 8 poem1 ,! ,rav51 :]e ! poem is foll[$ by an analysis ( its ge/ation1 :i* is call$ ,! ,philosophy ( ,composition4 ,w\ld x be m rem>kable to write ,! ,rav5 by inspiration1 or to write x ?r\gh consci\s skill8 ,to f9d ! hidd5 treasure ?r\gh ! talisman ( ,! ,goldbug1 or ?r\gh ! possession ( analytical faculties su* z ^? ( ! protagoni/ ( ,poe's tale8 ,mu* consid]ation w lead to ! conclusion t "o process is z m>vell\s z ! o!r4 ,x may be said t !re is no?+ miracul\s 9 nature1 & x may be said t x is all miracul\s4 ,,my ,,lit]>y ,,& ,,arti/ic ,,incl9ations ,g5]ally speak+1 ,i nei!r und]/& old books v well1 nor d ,i c>e = !m--,i h be5 able to read only ,%akespe>e1 & p]haps "o or two o!rs1 ) ! int]e/ ) :i* ,i approa* mod]n writ]s4 ,x has sometimes seem$ to me t ! unreadabl5ess ( ! old] au?ors might be made ! f\ndation ( a philosophic sy/em4 ,yet ,i h met ) "s surprises4 ,"o 0 t ,i enjoy$ ! ,odyssey4 ,am ,i a hypocrite8 ,i ask$ myself4 ,i d n f9d old pa9t]s to be z incompatible z old au?ors4 ,on ! contr>y1 my exp]i5ce has be5 t !y are ! rev]se4 ,i greatly pref] a canvas by ,botticelli1 ,mantegna1 ,el ,greco or ,velzquez to a mod]n picture4 ,! only fam\s pa9t] ( ! pa/ = :om ,i h ent]ta9$ an antipa?y1 is ,raphael2 yet1 :5 ,i 0 9 ,rome & saw ! frescos 9 ! ,vatican1 ,i 0 oblig$ aga9 to ask myself if my attitude 0 a pose1 because !y /ruck me frankly z admirable4 ,i d n pret5d to ta/e1 b ,i am s9c]e2 nor d ,i endeav\r to be consi/5t4 ,consi/5cy does n int]e/ me4 ,! only consi/5cy possible is a consi/5cy :i* comes f )\t1 :i* proce$s f fe> ( public op9ion1 & any?+ ( ?is sort appe>s to me to be contemptible4 ,n to *ange because ( :at o!rs may ?9k1 is "o ( ! mo/ abject =ms ( slav]y4 ,let u *ange all we c4 ,my ideal is cont9ual *ange--*ange ( life1 *ange ( home1 ( food1 & ev5 ( sk94 ,,my ,,libr>y ,among ! ?+s t ,i miss$ mo/ z a /ud5t1 0 a small libr>y4 ,if ,i _h _h "o1 ,i believe ,i %\ld h dipp$ m deeply into books & into life z well2 b x 0 n giv5 me4 ,dur+ ! p]iod :i* is mo/ fruitful = ! matur+ ( ! m9d1 t is1 dur+ ! ye>s f twelve to tw5ty1 ,i liv$ by turns 9 six or sev5 cities1 & z x 0 impossible to travel ab\t ) books1 ,i nev] reta9$ any4 ,a lack ( books 0 ! occasion ( my failure to =m ! habit ( re-read+1 ( ta/+ aga9 & aga9 & ( reli%+ :at ,i read1 & also ( mak+ notes 9 ! m>g94 ,ne>ly all au?ors :o own a small libr>y1 9 :i* ! books are prop]ly arrang$1 & nicely annotat$1 become fam\s4 ,i am n s5tim5taliz+ ab\t /olid1 braz5 note-tak+1 su* z t ) :i* ! g5tlem5 ( ! ,at5eo debase _! books1 because t m]ely indicates b>b>\s lack ( culture & an obtus5ess :i* is ,kabyl9e4 ,hav+ _h no libr>y 9 my y\?1 ,i h nev] possess$ ! old fav\rites t ev]ybody c>ries 9 8 pocket into ! c\ntry1 & reads ov] & ov] until he kn[s !m by he>t4 ,i h look$ 9 & out ( books z travell]s d 9 & out ( inns1 n /opp+ long 9 any ( !m4 ,i am v sorry b x is too late n[ = ! loss to be repair$4 ,,on ,,be+ ,a ,,g5tleman ,view$ f )\t1 ,i seem to impress "s z a crass1 crabb$ p]son1 :o has v little ability1 :ile o!rs reg>d me z an unheal?y1 decad5t writ]4 ,!n ,azorn has said ( me t ,i am a lit]>y ari/ocrat1 a f9e & compreh5sive m9d4 ,i %\ld accept ,azorn's op9ion v gladly1 b p]sonality ne$s to be hamm]$ sev]ely 9 lit]ature be=e x leaves its slag4 ,l metal :i* is remov$ f ! furnace aft] ca/+ & plac$ "u ! hamm]1 ,i w\ld (f] my works to be put to ! te/1 to be beat5 by all hamm]s4 ,if any?+ 7 left1 ,i %\ld treasure x !n lov+ly2 if no?+ 7 left1 we %\ld /ill pick up "s fragm5ts ( life4 ,i always li/5 to ! op9ions ( ! non-lit]>y conc]n+ my books ) ! greate/ int]e/4 ,my c\s91 ,ju/o ,gi1 us$ to express 8 op9ion )\t circumlocution4 ,he always c>ri$ (f my books z !y appe>$1 & !n1 a long "t aft]1 w\ld give 8 op9ion4 ,( ,! ,way ( ,p]fection he said3 ,good1 yes1 v good2 b x is s tiresome4 ,i realiz$ t !re 0 "s tru? 9 8 view4 ,:5 he read ! ?ree novels to :i* ,i _h giv5 ! g5]al title1 ,! ,/ruggle = ,life1 he /opp$ me on ! ,calle de ,alcal "o day & said3 ,y h n conv9c$ me4 ,h[ s8 ,y\r h]o is a man ( ! p1 b he is falsifi$4 ,he is j l y are2 y c nev] be any?+ b a g5tleman4 ,?is g5tility ) :i* my c\s9 reproa*$ me1 & )\t d\bt he 0 correct1 is common to ne>ly all ,spani% writ]s4 ,!re are no ,spani>ds at pres5t1 & !re nev] h be5 any at any o!r "t1 :o write out ( ! ,spani% s\l1 out ( ! he>ts ( ! p4 ,ev5 ,dic5ta did n4 ,8 ,juan ,jos is n a work+man1 b a "y g5tleman4 ,he has no?+ ( ! work+man ab\t him beyond ! label1 ! clo!s1 & su* ext]nals4 ,galds1 = example1 c make ! common p talk2 ,azorn c portray ! villages ( ,ca/ile1 set on _! arid heights1 aga9/ backgr\nds ( blue skies2 ,blasco ,ibez c pa9t ! life ( ! ,val5cians 9 vivid col\rs ) a prodigality t c>ries ) x ! ta9t ( ! *eap1 b none ( !m has p5etrat$ into ! popul> s\l4 ,t w\ld require a great poet1 & we h none4 ,,giv+ ,,(f5ce ,i h ! "n ( be+ aggressive1 b1 z a matt] ( fact1 ,i h sc>cely ev] attack$ any "o p]sonally4 ,_m hold a radical op9ion to be an insult4 ,9 an article 9 ,la ,lectura1 ,ortega y ,gasset illu/rates my prop5sity to become (f5sive by recall+ t z we left ! ,at5eo toge!r "o aft]noon1 we enc\nt]$ a bl9d man on ! ,calle del ,prado1 s++ a jota1 :]eupon ,i rem>k$3 ,an unspeakable song6 ,admitt$4 ,x is a fact1 b ,i fail to see any cause ( (f5ce4 ,x is only ano!r way ( say+ m =cefully3 ,i d n l x1 x does n please me1 or :at y w4 ,i h (t5 be5 surpris$ to f9d1 aft] express+ an op9ion1 t ,i h be5 insult$ bitt]ly 9 reply4 ,at ! outset ( my lit]>y c>e]1 ,azorn & ,i %>$ ! ill w ( ev]ybody4 ,:5 ,maeztu1 ,azorn1 ,c>los del ,rio & myself edit$ a mode/ magaz9e1 by ! "n ( ,juv5tud1 ,azorn & ,i 7 ! ones pr9cipally to be insult$4 ,! exp]i5ce 0 repeat$ lat] :5 we 7 bo? associat$ ) ,el ,globo4 ,azorn1 p]haps1 0 attack$ & insult$ m frequ5tly1 s t ,i 0 (t5 9 a position to act z 8 *ampion4 ,"s ye>s ago ,i publi%$ an article 9 ! ,nuevo ,mundo1 9 :i* ,i consid]$ ,vzquez ,mella & 8 refutation ( ! ,kantian philosophy1 dwell+ especially ^u 8 sev5te5? ma!matical pro( ( ! exi/5ce ( ,god4 ,! ?+ 0 a burlesque1 b a cons]vative pap] took issue ) me1 call$ me an a!i/1 a plagi>i/1 a drunk>d & an ass4 ,z = be+ an a!i/1 ,i did n take t z an insult1 b z an hon\r4 ,^u ano!r occasion1 ,i publi%$ an article ab\t ,spani% wom51 ) p>ticul> ref]5ce to ,basque wom51 9 :i* ,i ma9ta9$ t !y sacrific$ natural k9dl9ess & sympa?y on ! alt>s ( hon\r & religion1 :]eupon ! ,daught]s ( ,m>y ( ,san ,seba/ian made answ]1 *>g+ t ,i 0 a deg5]ate son ( _! city1 :o _h robb$ !m ( _! hon\r1 :i* 0 absolutely contr>y to ! fact4 ,9 pass+1 !y sugge/$ to ! editor ( ! ,nuevo ,mundo t he %\ld n p]mit me to write aga9 = ! magaz9e4 ,i wrote an article once deal+ ) ,maceo & ,cuba1 :]eupon a j\rnali/ f ^? p>ts jump$ up & call$ me a fat ,basque ox4 ,! ,catalans h also oblig$ me ) "s *oice insults1 :i* ,i h f\nd engag+4 ,:5 ,i lectur$ 9 ,b>celona 9 ! ,casa del ,pueblo1 ,la ,veu de ,catalunya und]took to report ! affair1 pictur+ me z talk+ platitudes be=e an audi5ce ( pr(essional bomb ?r[]s & dynamit]s1 & exp]ts ) ! ,br[n+ gun4 ,naturally1 ,i 0 en*ant$4 ,rec5tly1 :5 writ+ = ! review ,espaa1 ,i _h a simil> exp]i5ce1 :i* rem9d$ me ( my connection ) ! small] p]iodicals ( fifte5 ye>s ago4 ,"s g5tlem51 mo/ly natives ( ! prov9ces1 approa*$ ! editor1 ,ortega y ,gasset1 ) ! in=mation t ,i 0 n a fit p]son to contribute to a s]i\s magaz9e1 z :at ,i wrote 0 n s1 :ile my "n w\ld ru9 ! sale ( ! weekly4 ,^! pi\s s\ls & good ,*ri/ians imag9$ t ,i might ne$ t "w 9 ord] to e>n my liv+1 s 9 ! od\r ( sanctity !y did :atev] lay 9 _! p[] to deprive me ( my means ( support4 ,oh1 noble s\ls6 ,oh1 ye ( great he>t6 ,i salute y f a safe di/ance1 & wi% y ! mo/ uncom=table b$s 9 ! mo/ intol]able w>ds set ap>t = scurvy pati5ts1 9 any hospital ( y\r *oos+1 ?r\gh\t ! _w4 ,,?ir/ ,,= ,,glory ,fame1 success1 popul>ity1 ! illusion ( be+ kn[n1 admir$ & e/eem$1 appeal 9 diff]5t ways to au?ors4 ,to ,salvador ,ru$a1 glory is a triumphant entrance into ,tegucigalpa1 :]e he is tak5 to ! ,spani% ,cas9o1 & cr[n$ ) a cr[n ( real laurel4 ,to ,unamuno1 glory is ! assurance t p w be int]e/$ 9 him at lea/ a ?\s& ye>s aft] he is dead4 ,& to o!rs ! only glory wor? talk+ ab\t is t c\rt$ by ! ,fr5* writ]1 ,rabbe1 :o busi$ himself 9 ,spa9 ) la gloire arg5t comptant4 ,"s ye>n = a l>ge /age ) p5nons & salvos & bann]s1 :ile o!rs are cont5t ) a small] sc5e4 ,ortega y ,gasset says t to me glory r$uces itself to ! proportions ( an agreeable d9n]1 ) good talk across ! table4 ,& he is "r4 ,to m+le ) pleasant1 intellig5t1 cordial p]sons is "o ( ! m allur+ sorts ( fame4 ,!re is some?+ s$uctive & +ratiat+ ab\t table talk :5 x is spirit$4 ,a luxuri\s d9+ room1 seat+ eight or t5 gue/s1 ( :om ?ree or f\r are pretty wom51 "o ( :om %\ld be a =eign]2 z _m m51 none ( !m ari/ocrats--g5]ally speak+1 ari/ocrats are disagreeable--nor %all we admit arti/s1 = !y are 9 ! same class z ! ari/ocrats2 "o's neighb\r1 p]haps1 is a bank]1 or a ,jew ( aquil9e feature1 & !n ! talk t\*es on life & on politics1 reliev$ ) a little gallantry t[>d ! ladies1 f "t to "t all[+ to ea* 8 brief opportunity to %9e--all ?is1 beyond d\bt1 is mo/ agreeable4 ,i l1 too1 to sp5d an aft]noon conv]s+ ) a numb] ( ladies 9 a com=table draw+ room1 :i* is well heat$4 ,i visualize ! v>i\s rew>ds :i* are met$ out by fame z be+ h\s$ inv>iably "u a good ro(4 ,:at is n intimate1 does n appeal to me4 ,i h (t5 se5 ,guim] 9 a caf on ! ,rambla 9 ,b>celona1 dr9k+ c(fee at a table1 alone & =lorn1 9 ! mid/ ( a cr[d ( %op cl]ks & comm]cial travell]s4 ,is t ,guim]8 ,i ask$ a ,catalan j\rnali/4 ,yes4 ,& !n he told me t !y _h t5d]$ him a trem5d\s te/imonial "s mon?s previ\sly1 :i* _h be5 att5d$ by ,i don't "k h[ _m hundr$s ( societies1 all m>*+ ) _! bann]s4 ,i h no v cle> idea ( j :at ,guim] has done1 z x is _m ye>s s9ce ,i h gone to ! !atre1 b ,i "k t he is consid]$ 9 ,catalonia to be "o ( ! glories ( ! c\ntry4 ,i %\ld n c>e = an apo!osis1 & !n f9d myself left =lorn & alone to take my c(fee aft]w>ds ) a horde ( cl]ks4 ,i may nev] write any?+ t w take ! _w by /orm--mo/ probably n2 b if ,i d1 & x occurs to my fell[ t[nsm5 to organize "o ( ^! celebrations ) flags1 bann]s & *oral societies1 !y ne$ n c\nt ^u my att5dance4 ,!y w n be able to discov] me ev5 ) ! aid ( ,%]lock ,holmes4 ,:5 ,i am old1 ,i hope to take c(fee ) pleasant fri5ds1 :e!r x be 9 a palace or a port]'s lodge4 ,i nei!r expect nor desire flags1 committees1 nor wav+ bann]s4 ,laurel does n s$uce me1 & y _c d x ) bunt+4 ,,elective ,,antipa?ies ,z ,i h express$ my op9ions ( o!r au?ors %>ply1 mak+ !m public ) ! prop] disgu/1 o!rs h done ! same ) me1 :i* is b logical & natural1 especially 9 ! case ( a writ] su* z myself1 :o holds t sympa?y & antipa?y are ( ! v ess5ce ( art4 ,my oppon5ts & myself diff] *iefly 9 ! fact t ,i am m cynical ?an !y1 & s ,i disclose my p]sonal animus q +5u\sly1 :i* my enemies fail to d4 ,i hold t !re are two k9ds ( morality2 morality ( "w & morality ( play4 ,! morality ( "w is an immoral morality1 :i* tea*es u to take advantage ( circum/ances & to lie4 ,! morality ( play1 = ! reason t x deals ) m]e futilities1 is f9] & m *ivalr\s4 ,i believe t 9 lit]ature & 9 all lib]al arts1 ! morality %\ld be ! morality ( play1 :ile my oppon5ts = ! mo/ "p hold t ! morality ( lit]ature %\ld be ! morality ( "w4 ,i h nev]1 consci\sly at lea/1 be5 influ5c$ 9 my lit]>y op9ions by practical consid]ations4 ,my ideas may h be5 caprici\s1 & !y are1--!y may ev5 be bad1--b !y h no ult]ior practical motive4 ,my failure to be practical1 toge!r1 p]haps1 ) an undue obtus5ess ( p]ception1 br+s me face to face ) critics ( two sorts3 "o1 e/hetic2 ! o!r1 social4 ,my e/hetic critics say to me3 ,y h n p]fect$ y\r /yle1 y h n develop$ ! te*nique ( y\r novels4 ,y c sc>cely be said to be lit]ate4 ,i %rug my %\ld]s & reply3 ,are y sure8 ,my social critics reproa* me = my negative & de/ructive views4 ,i d n "k h[ to create any?+1 ,i am incapable ( en?usiasm1 ,i _c describe life1 & s on4 ,?is feel+ seems logical en\gh1 if x is s9c]e1 if x is hone/1 & ,i accept x z su*1 & x does n (f5d me4 ,b1 z "s ( my e/hetic critics tell me3 ,y are n an arti/1 y d n "k h[ to write1 )\t feel+ any deep conviction on ! subject1 b r fe>+ t p]haps ,i may be an arti/ aft] all & t at la/ somebody may come to ?9k s1 s among my critics :o pose z def5d]s ( society1 !re are ^? :o are influ5c$ by motives :i* are purely utilit>ian4 ,i am rem9d$ ( s]vants %\t+ at a man pick+ fl[]s ov] ! g>d5 wall1 or an apple f ! or*>d z he passes1 :o raise _! voices z high z possible s z to make _! (fici\sness kn[n4 ,!y %\t s t _! ma/]s w he>4 ,h[ d>e t rascal pick fl[]s f ! g>d58 ,h[ d>e he defy u & our ma/]s8 ,%all a begg>1 :o is n respectable1 tell u t our laws are n laws1 t our hon\rs are n hon\rs1 & t we are a gang ( accompli%$ idiots8 ,yes1 t is j :at ,i tell !m1 & ,i %all cont9ue to d s z long z x is ! tru?4 ,%\t1 y lu/y l\ts 9 gaudy liv]ies1 b>k y little lap-dogs1 gu>d ! gates1 y gov]nm5t inspectors & c>ab9e]s6 ,i %all look into y\r g>d51 :i* is also my g>d51 ,i %all make (f ) any?+ f x t ,i am able1 & ,i %all say :at ,i please4 ,,to ,a ,,memb] ,,( ,,sev]al ,,academies ,a c]ta9 ,basque writ]1 "o ,seor de ,loy>te1 :o is a memb] ( sev]al academies1 & ,royal ,commission] ( ,education1 assails me viol5tly ^u social gr\nds 9 a book :i* he has publi%$1 al?\gh ! attack is veil$ z purely lit]>y4 ,seor de ,loy>te is soporific z a g5]al rule1 b 9 8 polite sortie aga9/ me1 he is m amus+ ?an is usual4 ,8 malice is s ke5 t x v ne>ly causes him to appe> intellig5t4 ,9 lit]ature1 ,seor de ,loy>te--& :y %\ld ,seor de ,loy>te n be associat$ ) lit]ature--pres5ts ! figure ( a fat1 pale1 flabby boy 9 a prie/s' s*ool1 skulk+ "u ! skirts ( a ,jesuit ,fa!r4 ,seor de ,loy>te1 l ^? little1 *ubby-w+$ *]ubs on sacri/y ceil+s1 %akes 8 arr[let at me & lets fl+ a billet d\x4 ,seor de ,loy>te says ,i smack ( ! cadav]1 t ,i am a plagi>i/1 an a!i/1 anti-religi\s1 anti-patriotic1 & m to boot4 ,i %all n reply = x may be true4 ,yet x is also true t ,seor de ,loy>te's noble words w please 8 noble patrons1 f :om1 p]haps1 he may receive applause ev5 m sub/antial ?an ! pat on ! %\ld] ( a ,jesuit ,fa!r1 or ! smile ( e good ,cons]vative1 :o is a def5d] ( ! social ord]4 ,8 book is an a*ievem5t :i* %\ld induct ,seor de ,loy>te into memb]%ip 9 sev]al m academies4 ,seor de ,loy>te is already a ,correspond+ ,memb] ( ! ,spani% ,academy1 or ( ! ,academy ( ,hi/ory1 ,i am n q sure :i*2 b !y are all ! same4 ,speak+ ( hi/ory1 ,i %\ld be int]e/$ to "k :o did fir/ introduce ! sponge4 ,seor de ,loy>te is de/9$ to be a memb]1 a memb] ( academies all 8 life4 ,,iv ,,admirations ,,& ,,incompatibilities ,diog5es ,la]tius tells u t :5 ,z5o consult$ ! oracle z to :at he %\ld d 9 ord] to atta9 happ9ess 9 life1 ! deity repli$ t he %\ld assimilate himself ) ! dead4 ,hav+ und]/ood1 he appli$ himself exclusively to ! /udy ( books4 ,?us speaks ,la]tius1 9 ! translation ( ,don ,jos ,ortz y ,sanz4 ,i confess t ,i %\ld n h und]/ood ! oracle4 ,h[ev]1 )\t consult+ any oracle1 ,i h devot$ myself = "s "t to read+ books1 :e!r anci5t & mod]n1 bo? out ( curiosity & 9 ord] to le>n some?+ ( life4 ,,c]vantes1 ,,%akespe>e1 ,,moli,,re ,= a long "t1 ,i ?\ght t ,%akespe>e 0 a writ] :o 0 unique & diff]5t f all o!rs4 ,x seem$ to me t ! diff]5ce betwe5 him & o!r writ]s 0 "o ( quality r ?an ( quantity4 ,i felt t1 z a man1 ,%akespe>e 0 ( a diff]5t k9d ( humanity2 b ,i d n ?9k s n[4 ,%akespe>e is no m ! qu9tess5ce ( ! _w's lit]ature ?an ,plato & ,kant are ! qu9tess5ce ( univ]sal philosophy4 ,i once admir$ ! philosophy & *>act]s ( ! au?or ( ,hamlet2 :5 ,i read him today1 :at mo/ impresses me is 8 rhetoric1 &1 above all1 8 high _s4 ,c]vantes is n v sympa!tic to me4 ,he is ta9t$ ) ! p]fidy ( ! man :o has made a pact ) ! enemy 7) ! ,*ur*1 ! ari/ocracy1 ) ^? 9 p[]71 & !n conceals ! fact4 ,philosophically1 9 spite ( 8 en?usiasm = ! ,r5aissance1 he appe>s vulg> & p$e/rian to me1 al?\gh he t[]s above all 8 contempor>ies on acc\nt ( ! success ( a s+le inv5tion1 t ( ,don ,quixote & ,san*o1 :i* is to lit]ature :at ! discov]y ( ,newton 0 to ,physics4 ,z = ,molire1 he is a poor fell[1 :o nev] atta9s ! exub]ance ( ,%akespe>e1 nor ! inv5tion t immortalizes ,c]vantes4 ,b 8 ta/e is bett] ?an ,%akespe>e's & he is m social1 m mod]n ?an ,c]vantes4 ,! half-c5tury or m t sep>ates ! "w ( ,c]vantes f t ( ,molire1 is n suffici5t to expla9 ?is mod]nity4 ,betwe5 ! ,spa9 ( ,quixote & ! ,france ( ,le ,b\rgeois ,g5tilhomme1 lies some?+ deep] ?an "t4 ,desc>tes & ,gass5di _h liv$ 9 ,france1 :ile1 on ! o!r h&1 ! se$ ( ,sa9t ,ignatius ,loyola lay g]m9at+ 9 ! ,spa9 ( ,c]vantes4 ,,! ,,encyclop$i/s ,a ,fr5* j\rnali/ :o visit$ my h\se dur+ ! summ]1 rem>k$3 ,! ideas 7 great 9 ! ,fr5* ,revolution2 x 0 n ! m54 ,i repli$3 ,i believe t ! m5 ( ! ,fr5* ,revolution 7 great1 b n ! ideas4 ,( all ! philosophical lit]ature ( ! pre-revolution>y p]iod1 :at rema9s today8 ,:at books ex]t influ5ce8 ,9 ,france1 exc]pts f ,montesquieu1 ,did]ot & ,r\sseau are /ill read 9 ! s*ools1 b outside ( ,france1 !y are read n[h]e4 ,only an extraord9>y p]son w\ld g away = ! summ] ) ,montesquieu's ,esprit des ,lois1 or ,jean ,jacques ,r\sseau's ,emile 9 8 grip4 ,montesquieu is demon/ration ( ! fact t a book _c live entirely by virtue ( correctness ( /yle4 ,( all ! writ]s :o enjoy$ su* fame 9 ! eighte5? c5tury1 ! only "o :o w be> read+ today is ,voltaire--! ,voltaire ( ! ,dictionnaire ,philosophique & ( ! novels4 ,did]ot1 :om ! ,fr5* consid] a great man1 is ( no int]e/ :atsoev] to ! mod]n m9d1 at lea/ to ! m9d :i* is n ,fr5*4 ,he is almo/ z dull z ,r\sseau4 ,la ,religieuse is an utt]ly false little book4 ,"s ye>s ago ,i loan$ a copy to a "y lady :o _h j come f a conv5t4 ,i h nev] se5 any?+ l ?is1 %e said to me4 ,x is a fantasy ) no relation to ! tru?4 ,t 0 my idea4 ,jacques1 le fatali/e is tiresome2 ,le ,neveu de ,rameau gives at fir/ ! impression t x is go+ to am\nt to some?+1 to some?+ p[]ful su* z ! ,satiricon ( ,petronius1 or ,el ,buscn ( ,quev$o2 b at ! end1 x is no?+4 ,! only writ] ( ! pre-revolution>y p]iod :o c be read today ) any pleasure--& ?is1 p]haps1 is because he does n attempt any?+--is ,*am=t4 ,8 *>act]s & anecdotes are suffici5tly highly flav\r$ to defy ! action ( "t4 ,,! ,,romantici/s ,goe! ,if a militia ( g5ius %\ld be =m$ on ,p>nassus1 ,goe! w\ld be ! drum-major4 ,he is s great1 s maje/ic1 s s]5e1 s full ( tal5t1 s ab\nd+ 9 virtue1 & yet1 s antipa!tic6 ,*ateaubri& ,a sk9 ( ,lacrymae ,*ri/i t has turn$ s\r4 ,at times ! good ,visc\nt drops molasses into ! sk9 to take away ! ta/e ( v9eg>2 at o!r times1 he drops 9 m v9eg> to take away ! sweet ta/e ( ! molasses4 ,he is bo? mo?-eat5 & sublime4 ,victor ,hugo ,victor ,hugo1 ! mo/ tal5t$ ( rhetoricians6 ,victor ,hugo1 ! mo/ exquisite ( vulg>ians6 ,victor ,hugo--m]e common s5se dress$ up z art4 ,/5dhal ,! inv5tor ( a psy*ological automaton mov$ by clock "w4 ,balzac ,a nightm>e1 a dream produc$ by indige/ion1 a *ill1 r>e acut5ess1 equal obtus5ess1 a delirium ( spl5d\rs1 *eap h>dw>e1 ( pret5ce & bad ta/e4 ,because ( 8 ugl9ess1 because ( 8 g5ius1 because ( 8 immorality1 ! ,danton ( pr9t]s' ink4 ,poe ,a my/]i\s sph9x :o makes "o tremble ) lynx-l eyes1 ! goldsmi? ( magical wond]s4 ,dick5s ,at once a my/ic & a sad cl[n4 ,! ,sa9t ,v9c5t de ,paul ( ! loos5$ /r+1 ! ,sa9t ,francis ( ,assisi ( ! ,london ,/reets4 ,ev]y?+ is ge/iculation1 & ! ge/iculations are ambigu\s4 ,:5 we ?9k he is go+ to weep1 he laughs2 :5 we ?9k he is go+ to laugh1 he cries4 ,a rem>kable g5ius :o does ev]y?+ he c to make himself appe> puny1 yet :o is1 beyond d\bt1 v great4 ,l>ra ,footnote3 ,a ,spani% poet & satiri/ 7#ahji-cg71 fam\s "u ! pseudonym ( ,fig>o4 ,he committ$ suicide4 ,! poet ,zorrilla fir/ came into prom95ce ?r\gh "s v]ses read at 8 tomb4 ,a small1 tra9$ tig] %ut up 9 a t9y cage4 ,he has all ! tricks ( a cat2 he mews l "o1 he lets y /roke 8 back1 & !re are times :5 8 fi]c] in/9cts %[ 9 8 eyes4 ,!n y realize t he is ?9k+3 ,h[ ,i %\ld love to eat y up6 ,,! ,,naturali/s ,flaub]t ,flaub]t is a heavy-foot$ animal4 ,x is pla9 t he is a ,norman4 ,all 8 "w has great specific gravity4 ,he disgu/s me4 ,"o ( ,flaub]t's ma/] /rokes 0 ! conception ( ! "* ( ,homais1 ! apo!c>y1 9 ,madame ,bov>y4 ,i _c see1 h[ev]1 t ,homais is any m /upid ?an ,flaub]t himself1 & he may ev5 be less s4 ,! ,giants ,! good ,zola1 vigor\s1 dull & p]spir+1 dubb$ 8 contempor>ies1 ! ,fr5* naturali/ic noveli/s1 ,giants4 ,:at an imag9ation 0 possess$ by ,zola6 ,^! ,giants 7 none o!r ?an ! ,gonc\rts1 ^: insignificance approa*$ at times imbecility1 & 9 addition1 ,alphonse ,daudet1 ) ! air ( a *eap com$ian & an armful ( m$iocre books--a truly ,fr5* diet1 feeble1 b well season$4 ,^! poor ,giants1 ( :om ,zola w\ld talk1 h become s weak & %runk5 ) "t1 t nobody is able any long] to make !m out1 ev5 z dw>fs4 ,,! ,,spani% ,,reali/s ,! ,spani% reali/s ( ! same p]iod are ! height ( ! disagreeable4 ,! mo/ repugnant ( !m all is ,p]$a4 ,:5 ,i read him1 ,i feel z if ,i 7 rid+ on a balky1 vici\s mule1 :i* proce$s at an uncom=table little trot1 & !n1 all ( a sudd51 cuts /ilt$ cap]s l a circus horse4 ,,! ,,russians ,do/oievski ,"o hundr$ ye>s h5ce ,do/oievsky's appe>ance 9 lit]ature w be hail$ z "o ( ! mo/ extraord9>y ev5ts ( ! n9ete5? c5tury4 ,among ! spiritual fauna ( ,europe1 8 place w be t ( ! ,diplodocus4 ,tol/oi ,a numb] ( ye>s ago ,i 0 9 ! habit ( visit+ ! ,at5eo1 & ,i us$ to argue !re ) ! habitus1 :o 9 g5]al h succe$$ 9 damm+ up ! *annels ?r\gh :i* o!r m5 receive ideas4 ,to my m9d1 ,tol/oi is a ,greek1 ,i obs]v$4 ,he is s]5e1 cle>1 8 *>act]s are god-l2 all !y ?9k ( are _! love affairs1 _! passions4 ,!y are nev] call$ ^u to face ! acute problem ( subsi/5ce1 :i* is fundam5tal ) u4 ,utt] nons5se6 ,!re is no?+ ,greek ab\t ,tol/oi1 decl>$ ev]ybody4 ,"s ye>s lat] at a celebration 9 hon\r ( ,tol/oi1 ,anatole ,france *anc$ to rem>k3 ,tol/oi is a ,greek4 ,:5 ?is fell f ,anatole ,france1 ! ob/ruction 9 ! *annels ?r\gh :i* ^! g5tlem5 ( ! ,at5eo receiv$ _! ideas ceas$ = ! mom5t to exi/1 & !y began to believe t1 aft] all1 ,tol/oi might v well h some?+ ( ! ,greek 9 him4 ,,! ,,critics ,sa9te ,beuve ,sa9te ,beuve writes z if he _h always said ! la/ ^w1 z if he 7 precisely at ! ne$le ( ! scales4 ,yet ,i feel t ?is writ] is n z infallible z he ?9ks4 ,8 int]e/ lies 9 8 anecdote1 9 8 malevol5t ins9uation1 9 8 bawdry4 ,beyond ^!1 he has ! same ,m$it]ranean features z ! re/ ( u4 ,ta9e ,hippolyte ,ta9e is also "o ( ^? p]sons :o ?9k !y und]/& ev]y?+4 ,& !re are times :5 he und]/&s no?+4 ,8 ,hi/ory ( ,engli% ,lit]ature1 :i* makes an ef=t to be broad & g5]\s1 is "o ( ! pettie/1 mo/ nigg>dly hi/ories ev] writt5 any:]e4 ,8 articles on ,%akespe>e1 ,walt] ,scott & ,dick5s h be5 fabricat$ by a ,fr5* pr(essor1 :i* is to say t !y are among ! mo/ wood5 productions ( ! univ]sities ( ,europe4 ,rusk9 ,he impresses me z ! ,pr9ce ( ,up/>ts1 gr&iloqu5t & at ! same "t unctu\s1 a ,g5]al 9 a ,salvation ,army ( ,art1 or a monk :o is a devotee ( an e/hetic ,doctr9e :i* has be5 drawn up by a ,congress ( ,t\ri/s4 ,croce ,! e/hetic !ory ( ,b5$etto ,croce has prov$ ano!r delusion to me4 ,r ?an an e/hetic !ory1 x is a /udy ( e/hetic !ories4 ,z 9 mo/ ,lat9 productions1 ! fundam5tal "q is n discuss$ !re91 b ! me?od ( approa*+ t "q4 ,cl>9 ,footnote3 ,pseudonym ( ,leopoldo ,alas1 a ,spani% critic & noveli/ ( ! transition1 born 9 ,a/urias1 ^: influ5ce 0 widely felt 9 ,spani% lett]s4 ,he di$ 9 #aije4 ,i h a poor op9ion ( ,cl>91 al?\gh "s ( my fri5ds reg>d him ) admiration4 ,z a man1 he mu/ h be5 envi\s2 z a noveli/1 he is dull & unhappy2 z a critic1 ,i am n c]ta9 t he 0 ev] 9 ! "r4 ,v ,,! ,,philosoph]s ,a ?ir/ = "s k ( philosophy result$ 9 consult+ ,dr4 ,letam5di's book on pa?ology dur+ my /ud5t days4 ,i also pur*as$ ! works ( ,kant1 ,fi*te1 & ,s*op5hau] 9 ! *eap editions :i* 7 publi%$ by ,zozaya4 ,! fir/ ( ^! t ,i read 0 ,fi*te's ,sci5ce ( ,k1 ( :i* ,i und]/ood no?+4 ,x /irr$ 9 me a v]itable indignation aga9/ bo? au?or & translator4 ,0 philosophy no?+ b my/ification1 z x is assum$ to be by arti/s & %op cl]ks8 ,read+ ,p>]ga & ,p>alipom5a reconcil$ me to philosophy4 ,aft] t ,i b\ght 9 ,fr5* ,! ,critique ( ,pure ,reason1 ,! ,_w z ,w & ,idea1 & a numb] ( o!r books4 ,h[ 0 x t ,i1 :o am gift$ ) b little t5acity ( purpose1 mu/]$ up p]sev]ance en\gh to read difficult books = :i* ,i 0 )\t prep>ation8 ,i d n "k1 b ! fact is t ,i read !m4 ,ye>s aft] ?is initiation into philosophy1 ,i began read+ ! works ( ,nietzs*e1 :i* impress$ me greatly4 ,s9ce !n ,i h pick$ at ?is & t 9 ord] to r5ew my philosophic /ore1 b )\t success4 ,"s books & au?ors w n agree ) me1 & ,i h n d>$ to v5ture o!rs4 ,i h _h a volume ( ,hegel's ,logic on my table = a long "t4 ,i h look$ at x1 ,i h smell$ ( x1 b c\rage fails me4 ,yet ,i am attract$ to metaphysics m ?an to any o!r phase ( philosophy4 ,political philosophy1 sociology & ! common s5se s*ools please me lea/4 ,hobbes1 ,locke1 ,b5?am1 ,comte & ,sp5c] ,i h nev] lik$ at all4 ,ev5 _! ,utopias1 :i* ought to be amus+1 bore me pr(\ndly1 & ?is has be5 true f ,plato's ,republic to ,kropotk9's ,conque/ ( ,bread & ,wells's ,a ,mod]n ,utopia4 ,nor c\ld ,i ev] become int]e/$ 9 ! pseudo-philosophy ( an>*ism4 ,"o ( ! books :i* h disappo9t$ me ! mo/ is ,max ,/irn]'s ,ego & ,8 ,own4 ,psy*ology is a sci5ce :i* ,i %\ld l to "k4 ,i h !re=e skimm$ ?r\gh ! /&>d works ( ,wundt & ,zieh54 ,aft] read+ !m1 ,i came to ! conclusion t ! psy*ology :i* ,i am seek+1 day by day & e day1 is n to be f\nd 9 ^! treatises4 ,x is conta9$ r 9 ! writ+s ( ,nietzs*e & ! novels ( ,do/oievski4 ,9 ! c\rse ( "t1 ,i may succe$1 p]haps1 9 ent]+ ! m ab/ract doma9s ( ! sci5ce4 ,,vi ,,! ,,hi/orians ,miss ,blimb]1 ! s*ool tea*] 9 ,dick5s's ,dombey & ,son1 c\ld h di$ happily _h %e kn[n ,cic]o4 ,ev5 if su* a ?+ 7 possible ,i %\ld h no great desire to "k ,cic]o1 b ,i %\ld be glad to li/5 to a lecture by ,z5o 9 ! portico ( ! ,poecil at ,a!ns1 or to ,epicurus's m$itations 9 8 g>d54 ,my ignorance ( hi/ory has prev5t$ me f becom+ deeply int]e/$ 9 ,greece1 al?\gh n[ ?is beg9s to emb>rass me1 z a curiosity ab\t & sympa?y = classical art /irs )9 me4 ,if ,i 7 a "y man & _h ! leisure1 ,i might ev5 beg9 ! /udy ( ,greek4 ,z x is1 ,i feel t !re are two ,greeces3 "o ( /atues & temples1 :i* is academic & some:at cold2 ! o!r ( philosoph]s & trag$ians1 :o convey to my m9d m ( an impression ( life & humanity4 ,ap>t f ! ,greek1 :i* ,i "k b fragm5t>ily1 ,i h no great admiration = anci5t lit]atures4 ,! ,old ,te/am5t nev] ar\s$ any devotion 9 me4 ,except = ,ecclesia/es & "o or two ( ! %ort] books1 x impresses me z repulsively cruel & antipa!tic4 ,among ! ,greeks1 ,i h enjoy$ ,hom]'s ,odyssey & ! com$ies ( ,ari/ophanes4 ,i h read also ,h]odotus1 ,plut>* & ,diog5es ,la]tius4 ,i am n an admir] ( academic1 well writt5 books1 s ,i pref] ,diog5es ,la]tius to ,plut>*4 ,plut>* impresses me z hav+ compos$ & arrang$ 8 n>ratives2 n s ,diog5es ,la]tius4 ,plut>* =ces ! morality ( 8 p]sonages to ! =e2 ,diog5es gives details ( bo? ! good & ! bad 9 84 ,plut>* is solid & sy/ematic2 ,diog5es is light] & lacks sy/em4 ,i pref] ,diog5es ,la]tius to ,plut>*1 & if ,i 7 especially int]e/$ 9 any ( ! illu/ri\s anci5ts ( :om !y write1 ,i %\ld va/ly pref] ! lett]s ( ! m5 !mselves1 if any exi/$1 or o!rwise ! gossip ( _! t5tmak]s or wa%]wom51 to any lives writt5 ( !m by ei!r ,diog5es ,la]tius or ,plut>*4 ,,! ,,roman ,,hi/orians ,:5 ,i turn$ to ! composition ( hi/orical novels1 ,i desir$ to asc]ta9 if ! hi/orical me?od _h be5 r$uc$ to a sy/em4 ,i read ,lucian's ,in/ructions = ,writ+ ,hi/ory1 an essay ) ! same title1 or ) a v simil> "o1 by ! ,abb ,mably1 "s essays by ,simmel1 besides a book by a ,g]man pr(essor1 ,ern/ ,b]nheim1 ,lehrbu* d] hi/oris*5 ,me?ode4 ,i next read & re-read ! ,roman hi/orians ,julius ,caes>1 ,tacitus1 ,sallu/ & ,suetonius4 ,sallu/ ,all ^! ,roman hi/orians no d\bt 7 wor?y g5tlem51 b !y create an atmosph]e ( suspicion4 ,:5 read+ !m1 y suspect t !y are n always tell+ ! :ole tru?4 ,i read ,sallu/ & feel t he is ly+2 he has compos$ 8 n>rative l a novel4 ,9 ! ,mmorial de ,sa9te ,hlne1 x is record$ t on ,m>* #bf1 #ahaf1 ,napoleon read ! conspiracy ( ,catil9e 9 ! ,roman ,hi/ory4 ,! ,emp]or obs]v$ t he 0 unable to und]/& :at ,catil9e 0 driv+ at4 ,no matt] h[ mu* ( a b&it he may h be51 he mu/ h _h "s object1 "s social purpose 9 view4 ,! obs]vation ( ?is political g5ius is "o :i* mu/ occur to all :o read ,sallu/'s book4 ,h[ c\ld ,catil9e h secur$ ! support ( ! mo/ brilliant m5 ( ,rome1 among !m ( ,julius ,caes>1 if 8 only plan & object _h be5 to loot & burn ,rome8 ,x is n logical4 ,evid5tly ,sallu/ lies1 z gov]nm5tal writ]s 9 ,spa9 lie today :5 !y speak ( ,l]r\x or ,f]r]1 or z ! republican support]s ( ,?i]s li$ 9 #ahga1 *>act]iz+ ! ,p>is ,commune4 ,tacitus ,tacitus is ano!r great ,roman hi/orian :o is !atrical1 melodramatic1 solemn1 full ( gr& ge/ures4 ,he also creates an atmosph]e ( suspicion1 ( falsehood4 ,tacitus has some?+ ( ! inquisitor 9 him1 ( ! fanatic 9 ! cause ( virtue4 ,he is a man ( au/]e moral attitude1 :i* is a pose t a ?or\ghgo+ scamp f9ds x easy to assume4 ,a temp]am5t su* z t ( ,tacitus is fatal to !atrical peoples l ! ,italians1 ,spani>ds1 & ,fr5* ( ! ,s\?4 ,f x spr+s t type ( ,sicilian1 ,calabrian1 & ,&alusian politician :o is a great lawy] & an eloqu5t orator1 :o declaims publicly 9 ! =um1 & !n rea*es an und]/&+ privately ) b&its & ?ugs4 ,suetonius ,suetonius1 al?\gh defici5t bo? 9 ! pomp & s5t5ti\sness ( ,tacitus1 makes no attempt to compose 8 /ory1 nor to imp>t moral in/ruction1 b tells u :at he kn[s1 simply4 ,8 ,lives ( ! ,twelve ,caes>s is ! greate/ collection ( horrors 9 hi/ory4 ,y leave x ) ! imag9ation p]turb$1 scrut9iz+ y\rself to discov] :e!r y may n be y\rself a hog or a wild bea/4 ,suetonius gives u an acc\nt ( m5 r ?an a hi/ory ( ! politics ( emp]ors1 & surely ?is me?od is m int]e/+ & v]aci\s4 ,i place m fai? 9 ! anecdotes :i* gr[ up ab\t an hi/orical figure ?an ,i d 9 8 laws4 ,polybius is a mixture ( scepticism & common s5se4 ,he is :at ,bayle1 ,montesquieu & ,voltaire w come to be c5turies h5ce4 ,z f> z ,caes>'s ,comm5t>ies are conc]n$1 9 spite ( ! fact t !y h be5 manipulat$ v skilfully1 !y are "o ( ! mo/ satisfy+ & in/ructive books t c be read4 ,,mod]n ,,& ,,contempor>y ,,hi/orians ,i h v little k ( ! hi/orians ( ! ,r5aissance or ( ^? prior to ! ,fr5* ,revolution4 ,ap>t f ! *ronicl]s ( individual exploits1 su* z ,lpez de ,ayala1 ,brantme1 & ! o!rs1 !y are :olly col\rless1 & ei!r pseudo-,roman or pseudo-,greek4 ,ev5 ,ma*iavelli has a p]sonal1 ,italian side1 :i* is mock+ & incisive--& ?is is all t is wor? :ile 9 him--& he has a pret5ti\s pseudo-,roman side1 :i* is unspeakably tiresome4 ,g5]ally consid]$1 ! m c>efully compos$ & smoo?ly v>ni%$ ! hi/ory1 ! dull] x w be f\nd2 :ile ! m p]sonal revelations x conta9s1 ! m engag+4 ,mo/ read]s today1 = example1 pref] ,b]nal ,daz del ,ca/illo's ,true ,hi/ory ( ! ,conque/ ( ,new ,spa9 to ,solis's ,hi/ory ( ! ,conque/ ( ,mexico4 ,"o is ! book ( a soldi]1 :o _h a %>e 9 ! de$s describ$1 & :o reveals himself = :at he is1 ) all 8 prejudices1 vanities & arrogance2 ! o!r is a s*ol>'s attempt to imitate a classic hi/ory & to ma9ta9 a monoton\s music ?r\gh\t 8 p>agraphs4 ,practically all ! hi/orians :o h foll[$ ! ,fr5* ,revolution h individual "*1 & "s h too mu* ( x1 z has ,c>lyle4 ,!y di/ort _! subject until x becomes a pure matt] ( fantasy1 or m]e lit]ature1 or s9ks ev5 to ! level ( a family discussion4 ,macaulay's moral p$antry1 ,?i]s's cold & repulsive cret9ism1 ! melodramatic1 ge/iculatory effusiv5ess ( ,mi*elet are all typical /yles4 ,hi/orical baza>s la ,ces>e ,cant may be put on "o side1 z belong+ to an inf]ior g5re4 ,!y rem9d me ( ^? great n9ete5? c5tury _w's fairs1 va/1 miscellane\s & exhau/+4 ,z = ! ,g]man hi/orians1 !y are n translat$1 s ,i d n "k !m4 ,i h read only a few essays ( ,simmel1 :i* ,i ?9k extremely ke51 & ,/ew>t ,*amb]la9's book ^u ! f\ndations ( ! n9ete5? c5tury1 :i*1 if ! ^w ,france 7 to be sub/itut$ = ! ^w ,g]many1 might easily h be5 ! production ( an advanc$ nationali/ ( ! ,action ,franaise4 ,,vii ,,my ,,family ,,family ,,my?ology ,! celebrat$ ,vicomte de ,*ateaubri&1 aft] flaunt+ an ance/ry ( pr9ces & k+s 9 8 ,memoires d'outre-tombe1 !n turns ab\t & tells u t he atta*es no importance to su* matt]s4 ,i %all d ! same4 ,i int5d to furbi% up our family hi/ory & my?ology1 & !n ,i %all ass]t t ,i atta* no importance to !m4 ,&1 :at is m1 ,i %all be tell+ ! tru?4 ,my rese>*es into ! life ( ,aviraneta ,footnote3 ,a k9sman ( ,b>oja & protagoni/ ( 8 s]ies ( hi/orical novels "u ! g5]al title ( ,memoirs ( a ,man ( ,action4 h drawn me ( late to ! g5ealogical field1 & ,i h look$ into my family1 :i* is equival5t to comp\nd+ ) tradition & ev5 ) reaction4 ,i h une>!d ?ree family my?s3 ! ,gi my?1 ! ,zornoza my?1 & ! ,alzate my?4 ,! ,gi my?1 v\*$ = by an aunt ( m9e :o di$ 9 ,san ,seba/ian at an age ( n9ety or m1 e/abli%$1 accord+ to h]1 t %e 0 a desc5dant ( ,don ,teodosio de ,gi1 a ,nav>rese caball]o :o liv$ 9 ! "t ( ,witiza1 & :o1 aft] kill+ 8 fa!r & "m at ! in/igation ( ! devil1 betook himself to ,m\nt ,aral> we>+ an iron r+ ab\t 8 neck1 & dragg+ a *a9 beh9d him1 ?us pillori$ to d p5ance4 ,"o day1 a t]rible dragon appe>$ be=e him dur+ a /orm4 ,don ,teodosio lift$ up 8 s\l unto ,god1 & !reupon ! ,ar*angel ,sa9t ,mi*ael reveal$ himself to him1 9 8 dire extremity1 & broke 8 *a9s1 9 commemoration ( :i* ev5t ,don ,teodosio caus$ to be erect$ ! *apel ( ,san ,miguel 9 ,excelsis on ,m\nt ,aral>4 ,!re 7 ^? :o endeav\r$ to conv9ce my aunt t 9 ! "t ( ?is supposititi\s ,don ,teodosio1 :i* 0 ! e>ly "p ( ! eigh? c5tury1 surnames _h n come into use 9 ! ,basque c\ntry1 & ev51 inde$1 t !re 7 at t "t no ,*ri/ians !re--9 %ort !y ma9ta9$ t ,don ,teodosio 0 a sol> my?2 b !y 7 n able to conv9ce my aunt4 ,%e _h se5 ! *apel ( ,san ,miguel on ,aral>1 & ! cave 9 :i* ! dragon liv$1 & a docum5t :]e9 ,*>les ,v4 grant$ to ,juan de ,gi ! privilege ( r5am+ 8 h\se ! ,palace ( ,san ,miguel1 z well z ( add+ a dragon to 8 coat ( arms1 besides a cross 9 a r$ field1 & a brok5 *a94 ,! ,zornoza my? 0 h&$ d[n ?r\gh my pat]nal gr&mo!r ( t "n4 ,i rememb] hav+ he>d ?is lady say :5 ,i 0 a *ild1 t h] family might be trac$ 9 a direct l9e to ! *ancellor ,p]o ,lpez de ,ayala1 &1 ,i "k n ?r\gh :at lat]al bran*es1 also to ,/4 ,francis ,xavi]4 ,my gr&mo!r v\*$ = ! fact t h] fa!r _h sold ! docum5ts & p>*m5ts 9 :i* ^! details 7 set =?1 to a titl$ p]sonage f ,madrid4 ,! ,zornozas boa/ an escut*eon :i* is embelli%$ ) a b&1 a numb] ( wolves1 & a leg5d ^: import ,i d n recall4 ,inde$1 wolves occur 9 all ! escut*eons ( ! ,b>oja1 ,alzate & ,zornoza families1 9 s f> z ,i h be5 able to discov]1 & ,i take !m to be m or less au!ntic4 ,we h wolves passant1 wolves rampant1 & wolves mordant4 ,! ,gi escut*eon also displays he>ts4 ,if ,i become ri*1 :i* ,i d n anticipate1 ,i %all h wolves & he>ts blazon$ on ! doors ( my dazzl+ automobile1 :i* w n prev5t me f enjoy+ myself hugely inside ( x4 ,turn+ to ! ,alzate my?1 x too runs back to antiquity & ! primitive /ruggles ( rival families ( ,nav>re & ,lab\rt4 ,! ,alzates h be5 lords ( ,v]a ev] s9ce ! f\rte5? c5tury4 ,! leg5d ( ! ,alzates ( ,v]a de ,nav>ra relates t "o ,don ,rodrigo1 ma/] ( ! village 9 ! fifte5? c5tury1 fell 9 love ) a daught] ( ! h\se ( ,urtubi1 9 ,france1 ne> ,urrua1 & m>ri$ h]4 ,don ,rodrigo w5t to live 9 ,urtubi & became s ?or\ghly galliciz$ t he nev] c>$ to return to ,spa91 s ! p ( ,v]a b&$ toge!r1 dispossess$ him ( 8 hon\rs & dignity1 & seque/rat$ 8 l&s4 ,9 ! e>ly "p ( ! n9ete5? c5tury1 my great-gr&fa!r1 ,seba/in ,ignacio de ,alzate1 0 among ^? :o assembl$ at ,zubieta 9 #ahac to take "p 9 ! rebuild+ ( ,san ,seba/ian1 & ?is great-gr&fa!r 0 uncle to ,don ,eug5io de ,aviraneta1 a good relative ( m9e1 protagoni/ ( my late/ books4 ,/4 ,francis ,xavi]1 ,don ,teodosio de ,gi1 ,p]o ,lpez de ,ayala1 ,aviraneta--a sa9t1 a rev]$ wor?y1 an hi/orian1 a conspirator--^! are our family gods4 ,n[ let me take my /& ) ,*ateaubri& z atta*+ no importance to su* ?+s4 ,,our ,,hi/ory ,b>oja is a hamlet 9 ! prov9ce ( ,alava 9 ! di/rict ( ,peac]rada4 ,accord+ to ,f]nndez ,gu]ra1 x is an ,ib]ian "n d]iv$ f ,asiatic ,ib]ia4 ,i believe t ,i h read 9 ,campin t ! ^w ,b>oja is comp\nd$ f ! ,celtic b>1 mean+ m\nta91 & ! ,basque otza1 o*a mean+ cold4 ,9 %ort1 a cold m\nta94 ,! di/rict ( ,peac]rada1 :i* includes ,b>oja1 is an au/]e l&1 cov]$ ) intricate m\nta9 ranges :i* are clad ) trees & scrub live oaks4 ,hawks ab\nd4 ,9 8 treatise on falconry1 ,ziga m5tions ! ,bah>i falcon1 propagat$ pr9cipally among ! m\nta9s ( ,peac]rada4 ,my ance/ors orig9ally call$ !mselves ,m>tnez de ,b>oja4 ,"o ,m>tn _h a son :o 0 kn[n z ,m>tnez4 ,?is ,m>tnez 7son ( ,m>tn7 d\btless left ! village1 & z !re 7 o!rs ( ! "n ,m>tnez 7sons ( ,m>tn71 !y dubb$ him ! ,m>tnez ( ,b>oja1 or ,m>tnez de ,b>oja4 ,! ,m>tnez de ,b>ojas liv$ 9 t c\ntry = _m ye>s2 !y 7 hidalgos1 ,*ri/ians ( old /ock4 ,& !re is /ill a family ( ! "n 9 ,peac]rada4 ,"o ,m>tnez de ,b>oja1 by "n ,juan1 :o liv$ 9 ! village ( ,samiano1 ^u becom+ outrag$ because ( an attempt to =ce him to pay tribute to ! ,c\nt ( ,sal9as--9 ^? days a v natural s\rce ( (f5ce--took an appeal 9 ! ye> #afaf f a rul+ ( ! ,prosecut+ ,attorney ( ,8 ,maje/y & ! ,alcaldes & ,regidors ( ! ,e>ldom ( ,trevio1 & he 0 su/a9$ by ! ,*amb] ( ,hidalgos at ,valladolid1 :i* decid$ 9 8 fav\r 9 a decree dat$ ! eigh? day ( ! mon? ( ,augu/1 #afai4 ,?is same hidalgo1 ,juan ,m>tnez de ,b>oja1 mov$ ! en=cem5t ( ?is decree1 z is affirm$ by a writ ( execution :i* is inscrib$ on =ty-five leaves ( p>*m5t1 to :i* is atta*$ a lead5 seal p5dant f a cord ( silk1 at ! end ( :i* may be f\nd ! /ipulations ( ! judgm5t ent]$ aga9/ ! ,municipality & ,corporation ( ! ,t[n & ,e>ldom ( ,trevio & ! ,village ( ,samiano4 ,! ,m>tnez de ,b>ojas1 despite ! fact t !y sprang f ! l& ( ! falcon & ! hawk1 9 temp] mu/ h be5 d>k1 heavy1 r\gh4 ,!y 7 memb]s ( ! ,bro!rhood ( ,san ,m>tn de ,peac]rada1 :i* app>5tly 0 ( great acc\nt 9 ^? regions1 besides be+ regidors & alcaldes ( ! ,santa ,h]m&ad1 a rural police & judicial organization :i* ext5d$ ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry4 ,9 ! eighte5? c5tury1 "o ( ! family1 my great-gr&fa!r ,rafael1 d\btless possess+ m initiative1 or hav+ m ( ! hawk 9 him ?an ! o!rs1 grew tir$ ( pl\gh+ up ! e>?1 & left ! village1 turn+ ph>maci/1 sett+ up 9 #ahjc at ,oy>zun1 9 ,guipzcoa4 ,?is ,rafael %ort5$ 8 "n & sign$ himself ,rafael de ,b>oja4 ,don ,rafael mu/ h be5 a man ( mod]n sympa?ies1 = he b\ght a pr9t+ press & began to issue pamphlets & ev5 occasional books4 ,evid5tly ,don ,rafael 0 also a man ( radical ideas4 ,he publi%$ a newspap] at ,san ,seba/ian 9 #ahbb & #ahbc1 :i* he call$ ,el ,lib]al ,guipzcoano4 ,i h se5 only "o copy ( ?is1 & t 0 9 ! ,national ,libr>y4 ,t ?is newspap] 0 extremely lib]al1 may be judg$ by ! articles t 7 repr9t$ f x 9 ,el ,espectador1 ! ,masonic j\rnal publi%$ at ,madrid dur+ ! p]iod4 ,don ,rafael _h connections bo? ) con/itutionali/s & memb]s ( ! ,gallic p>ty4 ,!re mu/ h be5 antec$5ts ( a lib]al "* 9 our family1 z ,don ,rafael's uncle1 ,don ,juan ,jos de ,b>oja1 at fir/ a prie/ at ,pipaon & lat] at ,vitoria1 _h be5 enroll$ 9 ! ,basque ,soci$ad ,econmica4 ,don ,rafael _h two sons1 ,ignacio ,ramn & ,po4 ,!y settl$ 9 ,san ,seba/ian z pr9t]s4 ,po 0 my gr&fa!r4 ,my second family "n1 ,nessi1 z ,i h said be=e1 comes out ( ,lomb>dy & ! city ( ,como4 ,! ,nessis ( ,como fl$ f ,au/rian rule1 & came to ,spa91 probably p$dl+ m\setraps & santi boniti b>ati4 ,"o ( ! ,nessis1 :o surviv$ until a %ort "t ago1 always said t ! family _h be5 v com=tably (f 9 ,lomb>dy1 :]e "o ( 8 relatives1 ,guiseppe ,nessi1 a doctor1 _h be5 pr(essor 9 ! ,univ]sity ( ,pavia dur+ ! eighte5? c5tury1 besides be+ major 9 ! ,au/rian ,army4 ,z mem5tos ( ! ,italian bran* ( ! family1 ,i /ill pres]ve a few views ( ,lake ,como 9 my h\se1 a crude image ( ! ,*ri/ ( ! ,annunziatta1 /amp$ on clo?1 & a volume ( a treatise on surg]y by ,nessi1 :i* be>s ! imprimatur ( ! ,inquisition at ,v5ice4 ,,viii ,,memories ,,( ,,*ildhood ,,san ,,seba/ian ,i 0 born 9 ,san ,seba/ian on ! #bh? ( ,decemb]1 #ahgb4 ,s ,i am n only a ,guipzcoan b a native ( ,san ,seba/ian4 ,! =m] ,i reg>d z an hon\r1 b ! latt] means v little to me4 ,i %\ld pref] to h be5 born 9 a m\nta9 hamlet or 9 a small coa/ t[n1 r ?an 9 a city ( summ] visitors & hotel keep]s4 ,g>at1 :o 0 a mo/ conv5tional p]son :o liv$ 9 ,bayonne1 always us$ to ma9ta9 t he came f ,u/>iz4 ,i might say t ,i am f ,v]a del ,bidasoa1 b ,i %\ld n deceive myself4 ,!re are sev]al reasons :y ,i dislike ,san ,seba/ian3 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ! city is n beautiful1 :5 x might well be s4 ,x is made up ( /raight /reets :i* are all alike1 toge!r ) two or ?ree monum5ts t are horrible4 ,! g5]al con/ruction is mis]able & %oddy4 ,al?\gh excell5t /one ab\nds 9 ! neighb\rhood1 no "o has _h ! s5se to erect any?+ ei!r noble or dignifi$4 ,*eap h\ses confront ! eye on all sides1 :e!r simple or pret5ti\s4 ,:5ev] ! citiz5s ( ,san ,seba/ian raise _! h&s--& 9 ?is !y are abett$ by ! ,madrileos--!y d some?+ ugly4 ,!y h defac$ ,monte ,igueldo already1 & n[ !y are defac+ ! ,ca/illo4 ,tomorr[1 !y w manage someh[ to spoil ! sea1 ! sky1 & ! air4 ,z = ! _s ( ! city1 x is lam5table4 ,!re is no int]e/ 9 sci5ce1 art1 lit]ature1 hi/ory1 politics1 or any?+ else4 ,all t ! inhabitants ?9k ab\t are ! ,k+1 ! ,que5 ,reg5t1 ya*ts1 bull fights1 & ! late/ fa%ions 9 tr\s]s4 ,san ,seba/ian is a conglom]ation ( p>v5us & up/>ts f ,pamplona1 ,s>agossa1 ,valladolid1 ,*ile & ,*uquisaca1 :o are anxi\s to %[ !mselves (f4 ,"s d ?is by walk+ alongside ( ! ,k+1 or by tak+ c(fee ) a fam\s bull-fight]1 or by b[+ to "s ari/ocrat4 ,! "y m5 ( ,san ,seba/ian are among ! mo/ wor?less 9 ,spa94 ,i h always look$ ^u !m z infra human4 ,z = ! ladies1 _m ( !m might be tak5 = pr9cesses 9 summ]1 b _! w9t] t]tulias are on a level ) a port]'s lodge :]e !y play julepe4 ,x is a c>d game1 b ! ^w means dose1 & ,madame ,recami] w\ld h fa9t$ at ! m5tion ( x4 ,:5 ,i obs]ve ^! p>v5us' attempts to %9e1 ,i ?9k to myself3 ,! o/5tation ( ! fre%man ye> at college4 ,h[ un=tunate t "s ( u h mov$ on to ! doctorate6 ,no "o reads 9 ,san ,seba/ian4 ,!y run ov] ! society news1 & !n drop ! pap] = fe> _! bra9s w beg9 to smoke4 ,?is city1 imag9+ itself to be s cultivat$1 al?\gh x really is a new t[n1 is "u ! dom9ation ( a few ,jesuit fa!rs1 :o1 l mo/ ( ! pres5t days sons ( ,loyola1 are co>se1 heavy & :olly lack+ 9 real ability4 ,! ,jesuit manages ! wom51 :i* is n a v difficult ?+ to d1 z he holds ! lead+ /r+s ( ! sexual life 9 8 h&s4 ,9 addition he influ5ces ! m54 ,he assi/s ! "y :o are ( good social /&+1 :o belong to di/+ui%$ families1 & br+s ab\t desirable mat*es4 ,! poor c d any?+ !y l4 ,!y are at lib]ty to eat1 to get drunk1 to d :atev] !y w except to read4 ,^! unhappy1 timid1 torpid cl]ks & hang]s-on imag9e !y are free m5 :5ev] !y get drunk4 ,!y d n see t !y are l ! ,r$sk9s1 :om ! ,yankees poison$ ) alcohol s z to hold !m 9 *eck4 ,i inspect$ a club in/all$ 9 a h\se 9 ! old] "p ( ! city "s ye>s ago4 ,a sign on "o door read ,libr>y4 ,:5 x 0 op5$1 ,i 0 %[n1 laugh+1 a room fill$ ) bottles4 ,if a ,jesuit c\ld see ?is1 he w\ld be 9 ec/asy1 ,i exclaim$4 ,yes1 replac+ books ) w9es & liquors6 ,:at a bus9ess = ! sons ( ,sa9t ,ignatius6 ,9 spite ( all its display1 all its t9sel1 all its ,jesuitism1 all its bad ta/e1 ,san ,seba/ian w become an important1 dignifi$ city )9 a v few ye>s4 ,:5 t "t comes1 ! au?or :o has be5 born !re1 w n pref] to hail f "s hamlet buri$ 9 ! m\nta9s1 r ?an f ! capital ( ,guipzcoa4 ,b ,i myself pref] x4 ,i h no city1 & ,i hold myself to be /rictly extra-urban4 ,,my ,,p>5ts ,my fa!r1 ,s]afn ,b>oja y ,zornoza1 0 a m9+ eng9e]1 :o wrote books bo? 9 ,ca/ilian & ,basque1 & he1 too1 came f ,san ,seba/ian4 ,my "m's "n is ,c>m5 ,nessi y ,gi4 ,%e 0 born 9 ,madrid4 ,i %\ld be a v good man4 ,my fa!r 0 a good man1 al?\gh he 0 caprici\s & arbitr>y1 & my "m is a good woman1 firm] & m positive 9 h] manife/ations ( virtue4 ,yet1 ,i am n )\t reputation = f]ocity1 :i*1 p]haps1 is des]v$4 ,i d n "k :y ,i believ$ = a long :ile t ,i _h be5 born 9 ! ,calle del ,puyuelo 9 ,san ,seba/ian1 :]e we once liv$4 ,! /reet is well )9 ! old t[n1 & truly ugly & =lorn4 ,! m]e idea ( x 0 & is di/a/eful to me4 ,:5 ,i compla9$ to my "m ab\t my bir?place & its want ( attractiv5ess1 %e repli$ t ,i 0 born 9 a beautiful h\se ne> ! esplanade ( ,la ,zurriola1 front+ on ! ,calle de ,oqu5do1 :i* belong$ to my gr&mo!r & look$ out ^u ! sea1 al?\gh ! h\se does s no long]1 z a !atre has be5 erect$ directly 9 front4 ,i am glad t ,i 0 born ne> ! sea1 because x sugge/s fre$om & *ange4 ,my pat]nal gr&mo!r1 ,da ,concepcin ,zornoza1 0 a woman ( positive ideas & some:at ecc5tric4 ,%e 0 already old :5 ,i knew h]4 ,%e _h mortgag$ sev]al h\ses :i* %e own$ 9 ! city 9 ord] to build ! h\se :i* 0 occupi$ by u 9 ,la ,zurriola4 ,h] plan 0 to furni% x & r5t x to ,k+ ,amadeo4 ,be=e ,amadeo arriv$ at ,san ,seba/ian1 h[ev]1 ! ,c>li/ w> broke out1 & ! mon>* ( ! h\se ( ,savoy 0 compell$ to abdicate1 & my gr&mo!r to ab&on h] plans4 ,my e>lie/ recollection is ! ,c>li/ attempt to bomb>d ,san ,seba/ian4 ,x is a memory :i* has n[ gr[n v dim1 & :at ,i saw has be5 confus$ ) :at ,i h he>d4 ,i h a confus$ recollection ( ! br++ 9 ( soldi]s on /ret*]s1 & ( hav+ peep$ ov] ! wall ( a little cemet]y ne> ! city1 9 :i* corpses 7 laid out1 /ill unburi$4 ,z ,i h said1 my fa!r 0 a m9+ eng9e]1 b dur+ ! w> he 0 engag$ 9 tea*+ natural hi/ory at ! ,in/itute4 ,i h no idea h[ ?is came ab\t4 ,he 0 also "o ( ! ,lib]al volunte]s4 ,i h a vague idea t "o night ,i 0 tak5 f my b$1 wrapp$ up 9 a mantle1 & c>ri$ to a *alet on ! ,con*a1 belong+ to "o ,errazu1 :o 0 a relative ( my "m's4 ,we liv$ !re = a "t 9 ! cell> ( ! *alet4 ,?ree %ells1 :i* 7 kn[n 9 ^? days z cucumb]s1 dropp$ on ! h\se1 & wreck$ ! ro(1 mak+ a great hole 9 ! wall :i* sep>at$ our g>d5 f ! next4 ,,monsignor1 ,,! ,,cat ,monsignor 0 a h&some yell[ cat belong+ to u :ile we 7 liv+ 9 ! cell> ( ,seor ,errazu's *alet4 ,f :at ,i h s9ce le>n$1 8 "n 0 a tribute to ! extraord9>y reputation enjoy$ at t p]iod by ,monsignor ,simeoni4 ,monsignor--,i am ref]r+ to ! yell[ cat--0 intellig5t4 ,a bell surm\nt$ ! ,ca/illo de la ,mota at ,san ,seba/ian1 by ^: side 0 /ation$ a look-out4 ,:5 ! look-out spi$ ! fla% ( ,c>li/ guns1 he rang ! bell1 & !n ! t[nspeople retir$ into ! doorways & cell>s4 ,monsignor 0 aw>e ( ! relation ( ! bell to ! cannonad+1 s :5 ! bell rang1 he promptly )drew into ! h\se1 ev5 go+ s f> sometimes z to creep "u ! b$s4 ,my fa!r _h fri5ds :o 7 n above go+ d[n into our cell> on su* occasions s z bett] to obs]ve ! manoeuvres ( ! cat4 ,,two ,,lunatics ,aft] ! w>1 ,i us$ to /roll z a boy ) my "m & bro!rs to ! ,ca/illo de la ,mota on ,sundays4 ,x 0 truly a beautiful walk1 :i* w soon be ru9$ utt]ly by ! citiz5s ( ,san ,seba/ian4 ,we look$ out to sea f ! ,ca/illo & !n we talk$ ) ! gu>d4 ,we (t5 met a lunatic !re1 :o 0 9 ! c>e ( a s]vant4 ,z soon z he caught sight ( u *ildr51 ! lunatic 0 happy at once1 b if a woman came ne> him1 he ran away & flatt5$ himself aga9/ ! walls1 kick+ & cry+ out3 ,bl9d dog6 ,bl9d dog6 ,i rememb] also hav+ se5 a "y woman1 :o 0 insane1 9 a great h\se :i* we us$ to visit 9 ^? days at ,loyola4 ,%e ge/iculat$ & gaz$ cont9ually into a deep well1 :]e a half moon ( black wat] 0 visible f> bel[4 ,^! lunatics1 "o at ! ,ca/illo & ! o!r 9 t great h\se1 haunt$ my imag9ation z a *ild4 ,,! ,,hawk ,my late/ recollection ( ,san ,seba/ian is ( a hawk1 :i* we br\ght home to our h\se f ! ,ca/illo4 ,"s soldi]s gave u ! hawk :5 x 0 /ill v "y1 & x grew up & became accu/om$ to liv+ indoors4 ,we f$ x snails1 :i* x gulp$ d[n z if !y 7 bonbons4 ,:5 x 0 full-gr[n1 x escap$ to ! c\rty>d & attack$ our *ick5s1 to say no?+ ( all ! cats ( ! neighb\rhood4 ,x hid "u ! b$s dur+ ?und]%[]s4 ,:5 we mov$ away f ,san ,seba/ian1 we 7 oblig$ to leave ! hawk beh9d4 ,we c>ri$ him up to ! ,ca/illo "o day1 turn$ him loose1 & (f he flew4 ,,9 ,,madrid ,we mov$ f ,san ,seba/ian to ,madrid4 ,my fa!r _h receiv$ an appo9tm5t to ! ,geographic & ,political ,in/itute4 ,we liv$ on ! ,calle ,real1 j beyond ! ,glorieta de ,bilbao1 9 a /reet :i* is n[ a prolongation ( ! ,calle de ,fu5c>ral4 ,opposite our h\se1 !re 0 a piece ( high gr\nd1 :i* has n yet be5 remov$1 :i* w5t by ! "n ( ,la ,era del ,mico1 or ,! ,monkey ,field4 ,sw+s & m]ry-g-r\nds 7 scatt]$ all ov] x1 s t ! div]sions ( ,la ,era del ,mico1 toge!r ) ! two-:eel$ cala%es & *aises :i* 7 /ill 9 use 9 ^? days1 & ! fun]als pass+ cont9ually ?r\gh ! /reet1 7 ! amusem5ts :i* 7 provid$ ready-made = u1 z we look$ d[n f our balcony4 ,two s5sational executions took place :ile we liv$ "h--^? ( ! regicide ,ot]o & ( ,oliva--"o foll[+ closely on ! heels ( ! o!r4 ,we he>d ! ,salve1 or pray]1 :i* is sung by ! prison]s = ! crim9al await+ dea?1 hawk$ ab\t u !n on ! /reets4 ,,9 ,,pamplona ,f ,madrid we w5t to ,pamplona4 ,pamplona 0 /ill a curi\s city ma9ta9+ cu/oms :i* w\ld h be5 appropriate to a /ate ( w>4 ,! draw-bridges 7 rais$ at night1 only "o1 or p]haps two1 gates be+ left op51 ,i am n c]ta9 :i*4 ,pamplona prov$ an amus+ place = a small boy4 ,!re 7 ! walls ) _! glacis1 _! s5try boxes1 _! cannon2 !re 7 ! gates1 ! riv]1 ! ca!dral & ! surr\nd+ qu>t]s--all ( !m v attractive to u4 ,we /udi$ at ! ,in/itute & committ$ all sorts ( pranks l ! o!r /ud5ts4 ,we play$ practical jokes 9 ! h\ses ( ! canons1 & ?rew /ones at ! bi%op's palace1 _m ( ! w9d[s ( :i* 7 already paneless & =lorn4 ,we also made wild excursions to ! ro( ( our h\se & to ^? ( o!r h\ses 9 ! neighb\rhood1 pry+ ab\t ! g>rets & pe]+ d[n ov] ! cornices into ! c\rty>ds4 ,once we seiz$ a /uff$ eagle1 *]i%$ by a neighb\r1 haul$ x to ! attic1 pull$ x ?r\gh ! skylight to ! ro(1 & flung x d[n into ! /reet1 creat+ a g5u9e panic among ! innoc5t pass]s-by1 :5 !y saw ! huge bird drop at _! feet4 ,"o ( my mo/ vivid memories ( ,pamplona is see+ a crim9al on 8 way to execution pass+ our h\se1 attir$ 9 a r\nd cap & yell[ robe4 ,x 0 "o ( ! sights :i* has impress$ me mo/4 ,lat] 9 ! aft]noon1 driv5 by curiosity1 kn[+ t ! man :o _h be5 g>rot$ mu/ be /ill on ! scaffold1 ,i v5tur$ alone to see him1 & rema9$ !re exam9+ him closely = a long "t4 ,:5 ,i return$ home t night1 ,i 0 unable to sleep because ( ! impression he _h made4 ,,don ,,tirso ,,l>equi ,_m o!r vivid memories ( ,pamplona rema9 ) me1 nev] to be =gott54 ,i rememb] a lad ( our own age :o di$1 leap+ f ! wall1 & !n !re 7 our adv5tures along ! riv]4 ,ano!r t]rible memory 0 associat$ ) ! ca!dral4 ,i _h begun my fir/ ye> ( ,lat91 & 0 exactly n9e at ! "t4 ,we _h come out ( ! ,in/itute1 & 7 wat*+ a fun]al4 ,aft]w>ds1 ?ree or f\r ( ! boys1 among :om 7 my bro!r ,ric>do & myself1 ent]$ ! ca!dral4 ,! e*o ( ! responses 0 r++ 9 my e>s & ,i humm$ !m1 z ,i w&]$ ab\t ! aisles4 ,sudd5ly1 a black %ad[ %ot f beh9d "o ( ! confessionals1 p\nc$ ^u me & seiz$ me ar\nd ! neck ) bo? h&s1 almo/ *ok+ me4 ,i 0 p>alyz$ ) fe>4 ,x prov$ to be a fat1 greasy canon1 by "n ,don ,tirso ,l>equi4 ,:at is y\r "n8 he %\t$1 %ak+ me vigor\sly4 ,i c\ld n answ] because ( my fright4 ,:at is 8 "n8 ! prie/ dem&$ ( ! o!r boys4 ,8 "n is ,antonio ,g>ca1 repli$ my bro!r ,ric>do1 coolly4 ,:]e does he live8 ,9 ! ,calle de ,curia1 ,numb] #ad4 ,!re 0 no su* place1 ( c\rse4 ,i %all see y\r fa!r at once1 %\t$ ! prie/1 & he ru%$ out ( ! ca!dral l a bull4 ,my bro!r & ,i !n made our escape ?r\gh ! cloi/]4 ,?is r$-fac$ prie/1 fat & f]oci\s1 ru%+ out ( ! d>k to *oke a n9e-ye>-old boy1 has always be5 to me a symbol ( ! ,ca?olic religion4 ,?is exp]i5ce ( my boyhood p>tly expla9s my anti-cl]icalism4 ,i recall ,don ,tirso ) an undy+ hate1 & 7 he /ill alive--,i h no idea :e!r he is or n--,i %\ld n hesitate to climb up to ! ro( ( 8 h\se "s d>k night1 & %\t d[n 8 *imney 9 a cav]n\s voice3 ,don ,tirso6 ,y are a damn$ villa96 ,a ,,vision>y ,,r[dy ,i 0 some?+ ( a r[dy z a boy & r qu>relsome4 ,! fir/ day ,i w5t to s*ool 9 ,pamplona1 ,i came out disput+ ) ano!r boy ( my own age1 & we f\ght 9 ! /reet until we 7 sep>at$ by a cobbl] & ! bl[s ( a lea!r /rap1 to :i* he add$ kicks4 ,lat]1 ,i fooli%ly qu>rell$ & f\ght :5ev] ! o!r boys set me on4 ,9 our /one-?r[+ escapades on ! outskirts ( ! t[n1 ,i 0 always ! aggressor1 & q indefatigable4 ,:5 ,i began to /udy m$ic9e1 ,i f\nd t my aggressiv5ess _h dep>t$ completely4 ,"o day aft] qu>rell+ ) ano!r /ud5t 9 ! cloi/]s ( ,san ,c>los1 ,i *all5g$ him to fight4 ,:5 we got out on ! /reet1 x /ruck me z fooli% to goad him to hit me 9 ! eye or else to l& on my nose ) 8 fi/1 & ,i slipp$ (f & w5t home4 ,i lo/ my morale z a bully !n & !re4 ,al?\gh ,i 0 a fight] f infancy1 ,i 0 also some?+ ( a dream]1 & ! two /ra9s sc>cely make a h>moni\s bl5d4 ,be=e ,i 0 gr[n1 ,i saw ,gisb]t's ,dea? ( ! ,comun]os reproduc$ z a *romo4 ,= a long1 long :ile1 ,i always seem$ to see t picture hang+ 9 all its v>iety ( col\r on ! wall be=e me at night4 ,= mon?s & mon?s aft] my vigil ) ! body ( ! man :o _h be5 g>rot$ outside ( ,pamplona1 ,i nev] ent]$ a d>k room b t 8 image rose up be=e me 9 all its gruesome details4 ,i also pass$ ?r\gh a p]iod ( disagreeable dreams4 ,"s "t w\ld elapse aft] ,i awoke be=e ,i 0 able to tell :]e ,i 01 & ,i 0 fright5$ by x4 ,,s>asate ,x 0 my op9ion !n1 & /ill is1 t a fie/a at ,pamplona is among ! mo/ vapid ?+s 9 ! _w4 ,!re 0 a mixture ( incompreh5sion & culture 9 ,pamplona1 t 0 truly ridicul\s4 ,! p w\ld devote sev]al days to go+ to bull fights1 & !n turn ab\t1 :5 ev5+ came1 & welcome ,s>asate ) ,greek fire4 ,a rude & fanatical populace =got its orgy ( blood to acclaim a viol9i/4 ,& :at a viol9i/6 ,he 0 "o ( ! mo/ effem9ate & grotesque individuals 9 ! _w4 ,i c see him yet1 /rutt+ along ) 8 long hair1 8 ample re>1 & 8 %oes ) _! little qu>t]-heels1 :i* gave him ! appe>ance ( a fat cook dress$ up 9 m5's clo!s = ,c>nival4 ,:5 ,s>asate di$ he left a numb] ( tr9kets :i* _h be5 pres5t$ to him dur+ 8 arti/ic c>e]--mo/ly mat*-boxes1 cig>ette cases1 & ! l--:i* ! ,t[n ,c\ncil ( ,pamplona has assembl$ & n[ exhibits 9 glass cases1 b :i*1 9 ! public int]e/1 %\ld be promptly dispos$ ( at auction4 ,,rob9son ,,crusoe ,,& ,,! ,,my/]i\s ,,isl& ,dur+ my life 9 ,pamplona1 my bro!r ,ric>do imp>t$ 8 en?usiasm = two /ories to me4 ,^! 7 ,rob9son ,crusoe & ,jules ,v]ne's ,! ,my/]i\s ,isl&1 or r1 ,i %\ld say !y 7 ,! ,my/]i\s ,isl& & ,rob9son ,crusoe1 because we pref]r$ ,jules ,v]ne's tale greatly to ,defoe's4 ,we w\ld dream ab\t des]t isl&s1 ab\t manufactur+ electric batt]ies 9 ! fa%ion ( ! eng9e] ,cyrus ,h>d+1 & z we 7 n v c]ta9 ( f9d+ any ,granite ,h\se dur+ ! c\rse ( our adv5tures1 ,ric>do w\ld pa9t & pa9t at plans & elevations ( h\ses :i* we hop$ to con/ruct 9 its place 9 ^? f>-(f1 savage l&s4 ,he also made pictures ( %ips :i* we took c>e %\ld be rigg$ prop]ly4 ,!re 7 two v>iations ( ?is dream ( adv5ture--"o involv+ a sn[-h\se1 ) appropriate episodes su* z nocturnal attacks by be>s1 wolves1 & ! l1 & !n we plann$ a sea voyage4 ,i rebell$ a long "t at ! notion t my life mu/ be l t ( ev]ybody else1 b ,i _h no rec\rse 9 ! end b to capitulate4 ,,ix ,,z ,a ,,/ud5t ,i 0 nev] m ?an commonplace z a /ud5t1 incl9+ r to be bad ?an good4 ,i _h no great lik+ = /udy1 &1 to tell ! tru?1 ,i nev] ent]ta9$ any cle> idea ( :at ,i 0 /udy+4 ,= example1 ,i nev] knew :at ! ^w pret]ite meant until ye>s aft] complet+ my c\rse1 al?\gh ,i _h repeat$ ov] & ov] aga9 t ! pret]ite1 or pa/ p]fect1 0 ?us1 :ile ! imp]fect 0 ?us1 )\t hav+ any conception t ! ^w pret]ite meant pa/--t x 0 a pa/ t 0 entirely pa/ 9 ! =m] case1 & a pa/ t 0 pa/ to a less degree 9 ! latt]4 ,to complete two ye>s ( ,lat9 gramm>1 two ( ,fr5*1 & "o ( ,g]man )\t hav+ any conception ( :at pret]ite meant1 demon/rat$ "o ( two ?+s3 ei!r my /upidity 0 v great1 or ! sy/em ( in/ruction deplorable4 ,naturally1 ,i incl9e t[>d ! second alt]native4 ,:ile prep>+ to take my degree 9 m$ic9e1 :5 ,i 0 /udy+ *emical analysis1 ,i he>d a /ud5t1 :o 0 already a practis+ physician1 /ate t z9c 0 an elem5t :i* conta9$ a great deal ( hydrog54 ,:5 ! pr(essor attempt$ to extricate him f 8 difficulty1 x became app>5t t ! future doctor _h no idea ( :at an elem5t 04 ,my classmate1 :o d\btless ent]ta9$ z little lik+ = *emi/ry z ,i did = gramm>1 _h n be5 able ?r\gh\t 8 entire c\rse to grasp ! def9ition ( an elem5t1 z ,i _h nev] be5 able to compreh5d :at a pret]ite might be4 ,= my "p--& ,i believe t all ( u h _h ! same exp]i5ce--,i h nev] be5 successful 9 ma/]+ ^? subjects :i* h n int]e/$ me4 ,d\btless1 also1 my m5tal developm5t has be5 sl[4 ,z = memory1 ,i h always possess$ v little4 ,& lik+ = /udy1 none :atev]4 ,sacr$ hi/ory1 or any o!r hi/ory1 ,lat91 ,fr5*1 rhetoric & natural hi/ory h int]e/$ me n at all4 ,! only subjects = :i* ,i c>$ some:at1 7 geometry & physics4 ,my college c\rse left me ) two or ?ree ideas 9 my head1 :]eupon ,i appli$ myself to mak+ ready = my pr(essional c>e]1 z "o swall[s a bitt] dose4 ,9 my novel1 ,! ,tree ( ,k1 ,i h drawn a picture ( myself1 9 :i* ! psy*ological features rema9 un*ang$1 al?\gh ,i h alt]$ ! h]o's environm5t1 z well z 8 family relations1 toge!r ) a numb] ( details4 ,besides ! defects ) :i* ,i h end[$ my h]o 9 ?is book1 ,i 0 curs$ ) an in/9ctive slo?fulness & sluggi%ness :i* 7 n to be d5i$4 ,p w\ld tell me3 ,n[ is ! "t = y to /udy2 lat] on1 y w h leisure to enjoy y\rself2 & aft] t w come ! "t to make money4 ,b ,i ne$$ all ?ree times 9 :i* to d no?+--& ,i c\ld h us$ ano!r ?ree hundr$4 ,,pr(essors ,i h n be5 =tunate 9 my pr(essors4 ,x might be urg$ t ,i h n be5 9 a position1 be+ idle & sluggi%1 to take advantage ( _! in/ruction4 ,i believe1 h[ev]1 t if !y _h be5 good tea*]s1 n[ t s _m ye>s h pass$1 ,i %\ld be able to ackn[l$ge _! m]its4 ,i _c rememb] a s+le tea*] :o knew h[ to tea*1 or :o succe$$ 9 ar\s+ any int]e/ 9 :at he taught1 or :o _h any compreh5sion ( ! /ud5t m5tality4 ,no "o le>n$ h[ to reason 9 ! s*ools ( my y\?1 nor ma/]$ any !ory1 nor acquir$ a practical k ( any?+4 ,9 o!r words1 we le>n$ no?+4 ,9 m$ic9e1 ! pr(essors adh]$ to a sy/em t 0 ! mo/ fooli% imag9able4 ,9 ! two univ]sities 9 :i* ,i /udi$1 subjects might be tak5 only by halves1 :i* w\ld h be5 ridicul\s en\gh 9 any bran*1 b x 0 ev5 m prepo/]\s 9 m$ic9e4 ,?us1 9 pa?ology1 a c]ta9 numb] ( int5d+ physicians /udi$ ! subject ( infection1 :ile o!rs /udi$ n]v\s disord]s1 & yet o!rs ! diseases ( ! respiratory organs4 ,nobody /udi$ all ?ree4 ,a plan ( ?is sort c\ld only h be5 conceiv$ by ,spani% pr(essors1 :o1 x may be said 9 g5]al1 are ! qu9tess5ce ( vacuity4 ,:at diff]5ce does x make :e!r ! /ud5ts le>n any?+ or n8 e ,spani% pr(essor asks himself cont9ually4 ,unamuno says1 apropos ( ! backw>dness ( ,spani>ds 9 ! field ( inv5tion3 ,o!r nations c d ! inv5t+4 ,9 o!r words1 let =eign]s build up ! sci5ces1 s t we may take advantage ( !m4 ,!re 0 "o among my pr(essors :o consid]$ himself a born tea*] &1 moreov]1 a man ( g5ius1 & he 0 ,letam5di4 ,i made cle> 9 my ,tree ( ,k :at ,i ?\ght ( ?is pr(essor1 :o 0 n de/itute1 inde$1 ( a c]ta9 tal5t z an orator & man ( lett]s4 ,:5 he wrote1 he 0 rococo1 l s _m ,catalans4 ,sometimes he w\ld disc\rse ^u art1 especially ^u pa9t+1 9 ! class-room1 b ! ideas he ent]ta9$ 7 prepo/]\s4 ,i recall t he once said t a m\se & a book 7 n a fit subject = a pa9t+1 b if y 7 to write ! words ,ari/otle's ,works on ! book1 & !n set ! m\se to gnaw+ at x1 :at _h orig9ally meant no?+ w\ld imm$iately become a subject = a picture4 ,yes1 a picture to be hawk$ at ! /reet fairs6 ,letam5di 0 prolixity & pu]ile +5uity p]sonifi$4 ,yet ,letam5di 0 no diff]5t f all o!r ,spani>ds ( 8 day1 includ+ ev5 ! mo/ celebrat$1 su* z ,ca/el>1 ,e*eg>ay & ,val]a4 ,^! m5 read mu*1 !y possess$ good memories1 b ,i v]ily believe t1 hone/ly1 !y und]/ood no?+4 ,n "o ( !m _h an inkl+ ( t almo/ tragic s5se ( ! dignity ( culture or ( ! obligations :i* x imposes1 :i* di/+ui%es ! ,g]mans above all o!r nationalities4 ,!y ne>ly all reveal$ an attitude t[>d sci5ce :i* w\ld h sat easily ^u a sm>t1 %>p-tongu$ ,&alusian "y g5tleman4 ,i recall a pr(\ndly mov+ lett] by ! critic ,g>ve1 :i* is includ$ 9 ,kant's ,prolegom5a4 ,g>ve wrote an article ^u ,! ,critique ( ,pure ,reason1 & s5t x to a j\rnal at ,gtt+51 & ! editor ( ! j\rnal1 9 malice & animosity t[>d ,kant1 s alt]$ x t x became an attack on ! philosoph]1 & !n publi%$ x unsign$4 ,kant invit$ 8 anonym\s critic to divulge 8 "n1 :]eupon ,g>ve wrote to ,kant expla9+ :at _h tak5 place1 & ,kant made a reply4 ,x w\ld be difficult to p>allel 9 nobility ^! two lett]s1 :i* 7 ex*ang$ betwe5 a compreh5sive intellect su* z ,g>ve & "o ( ! mo/ port5t\s g5iuses ( ! _w1 z 0 ,kant4 ,!y appe> to be two travell]s1 face to face ) ! my/]y ( ,nature & ! ,unkn[n4 ,no su* feel+ = le>n+ & culture is to be met ) among our mis]ably affect$ ,lat9 m\ntebanks4 ,,anti-,,milit>ism ,i am an anti-milit>i/ by inh]itance4 ,! ,basques h nev] be5 good soldi]s 9 ! regul> army4 ,my great-gr&fa!r ,nessi probably fl$ f ,italy z a des]t]4 ,i h always loa!d b>racks1 messes1 & (fic]s pr(\ndly4 ,"o day1 :5 ,i 0 /udy+ !rapeutics ) ,don ,b5ito ,h]n&o1 my bro!r op5$ ! door ( ! class-room & motion$ = me to come out4 ,i did s1 at ! co/1 by ! way1 ( a furi\s sc5e ) ,don ,b5ito1 :o %att]$ sev]al te/ tubes 9 8 wra?4 ,! cause ( my bro!r's appe>ance 0 to advise me t ! ,alcalda del ,c5tro1 or ,t[n ,c\ncil ( ! ,c5tral ,di/rict1 _h giv5 notice to ! effect t if ,i did n pres5t myself = ! draft1 ,i 0 to be decl>$ 9 default4 ,z ,i _h already laid be=e ! ,bo>d a copy ( a royal decree 9 :i* my "n 0 set d[n z exempt f ! draft because my fa!r _h s]v$ z a ,lib]al ,volunte] 9 ! late w>1 & because1 9 addition1 ,i 0 born 9 ! ,basque prov9ces1 ,i _h suppos$ t ! matt] _h be5 dispos$ (4 ,"o ( ^? ill-natur$1 dictatorial (ficials :o held sway 9 ! (fices ( ! ,bo>d1 took x ^u himself to rule t ! exemption held good only 9 ! ,basque prov9ces1 b n 9 ,madrid1 & s1 9 fact1 = ! "t x prov$ to be4 ,9 spite ( my furi\s prote/s1 ,i 0 compell$ to report & submit to h my measurem5ts tak51 & 0 well nigh ^u ! po9t ( be+ m>*$ (f to ! b>racks4 ,i am no soldi]1 ,i ?\ght to myself4 ,if !y insi/1 ,i %all run away4 ,i w5t at once f ! ,alcalda to ! ,m9i/ry & call$ ^u a ,guipzcoan politician1 z my fa!r _h previ\sly advis$ me to d2 b ! man 0 a political ma/odon1 puff$ up ) huge pret5sions1 :o1 p]haps1 might h be5 a /ev$ore 9 any o!r c\ntry4 ,s he did no?+4 ,f9ally1 x occurr$ to me to g & see ! ,conde de ,romanones1 :o _h j be5 appo9t$ ,alcalde del ,c5tro1 hav+ jurisdiction ov] ! di/rict4 ,:5 ,i ent]$ 8 (fice1 ,romanones appe>$ to be 9 a jovial frame ( m9d4 ,he wore a fl[] 9 8 button-hole4 ,two p]sons 7 ) him1 "o ( :om 0 no o!r ?an ! ,secret>y ( ! ,bo>d1 my enemy4 ,i relat$ :at _h happ5$ to ,romanones ) great =ce4 ,! ,secret>y !n answ]$4 ,! "y man is "r1 said ! ,c\nt4 ,br+ me ! roll ( ! draft4 ,! roll 0 br\ght4 ,romanones took 8 p5 & cross$ my "n (f altoge!r4 ,!n he turn$ to me ) a smile3 ,don't y c>e to be a soldi]8 ,no1 sir4 ,b :at are y1 a /ud5t8 ,yes1 sir4 ,9 :i* bran*8 ,m$ic9e4 ,good6 ,v good4 ,y may g n[4 ,i w\ld will+ly h be5 any?+ to h escap$ becom+ a soldi]1 & s be oblig$ to live 9 b>racks1 eat mess1 & p>ade4 ,,to ,,val5cia ,i fail$ 9 bo? ,june & ,septemb] dur+ ! f\r? ye> ( my c\rse1 :i* 0 a m]e matt] ( luck1 z ,i nei!r appli$ myself m nor less ?an 9 previ\s ye>s4 ,9 ! meantime my fa!r _h be5 transf]r$ to ,val5cia1 :i!r x seem$ wise t ,i %\ld remove to cont9ue my /udies4 ,i appe>$ at ,val5cia 9 ,janu>y = a second exam9ation 9 g5]al pa?ology1 & fail$ = ! second "t4 ,i began to consid] giv+ up my int5d$ pr(ession4 ,i f\nd t ,i _h lo/ :at little lik+ ,i _h = x4 ,z ,i _h no fri5ds 9 ,val5cia1 ,i nev] left ! h\se2 ,i _h n[h]e to g4 ,i pass$ my days /ret*$ out on ! ro(1 or1 else1 9 read+4 ,aft] debat+ long :at ,i %\ld d1 & realiz+ fully t !re 0 no "o obvi\s plan to pursue1 ,i det]m9$ to f9i% my c\rse1 committ+ ! requir$ subjects me*anically4 ,aft] adopt+ ?is plan1 ,i nev] fail$ once4 ,:5 ,i came up = graduation1 ! pr(essors made an ef=t to put "s ob/acles 9 my way1 :i*1 h[ev]1 7 n suffici5t to deta9 me4 ,admitt$ z a physician1 ,i decid$ next to /udy = ! doctor's degree at ,madrid4 ,my =m] fell[-/ud5ts1 :5 !y saw t n[ ,i 0 do+ nicely1 all exclaim$3 ,h[ y h *ang$6 ,n[ y pass y\r exam9ations4 ,pass+ exam9ations1 y "k1 is a comb9ation1 l a gambl+ game1 ,i told !m4 ,i h f\nd a comb9ation4 ,x ,,z ,a ,,village ,,doctor ,i return$ to ,burjasot1 a small t[n ne> ,val5cia1 :]e my family liv$ at ! "t1 a full-fl$g$ doctor4 ,we _h a t9y h\se1 besides a g>d5 conta9+ pe>1 pea* & pomegranate trees4 ,i pass$ "s "t !re v pleasantly4 ,my fa!r 0 a contributor to ! ,voz de ,guipzcoa ( ,san ,seba/ian1 s he always receiv$ ! pap]4 ,"o day ,i read--or x may h be5 "o ( ! family--t ! po/ ( (ficial physician 0 vacant 9 ! t[n ( ,ce/ona4 ,i decid$ to apply = ! place1 & dispat*$ a lett] accompani$ by a copy ( my diploma4 ,x turn$ out t ,i 0 ! only applicant1 & s ! po/ 0 aw>d$ to me4 ,i set out = ,madrid1 :]e ,i pass$ ! night1 & !n proce$$ to ,san ,seba/ian1 receiv+ a lett] f my fa!r ^u my arrival1 in=m+ me t !re 0 ano!r physician at ,ce/ona :o 0 receiv+ a l>g] sal>y ?an t :i* _h be5 (f]$ to me1 & recomm5d+ t p]haps x w\ld be bett] n to put 9 appe>ance too soon1 until ,i 0 bett] advis$ z to ! prospects4 ,i hesitat$4 ,9 any ev5t1 ,i ?\ght1 ,i %all le>n :at ! t[n is l4 ,if ,i l x1 ,i %all /ay2 if n1 ,i %all return to ,burjasot4 ,i took ! dilig5ce1 :i* goes by ! "n ( ,la ,vascongada1 & made ! trip f ,san ,seba/ian to ,ce/ona1 :i* prov$ to be long en\gh 9 all consci5ce1 z we 7 five or six h\rs late4 ,i got (f at a posada1 or small inn1 at ,alcorta1 to get some?+ to eat4 ,i d9$ sumptu\sly1 drank bravely1 &1 enc\rag$ by ! good food1 made up my m9d to rema9 9 ! village4 ,i talk$ ) ! o!r doctor & ) ! alcalde1 & soon ev]y?+ 0 arrang$ t _h to be arrang$4 ,z night 0 com+ on1 ! prie/ & ! doctor recomm5d$ t ,i g to bo>d at ! h\se ( ! ,sacri/ana1 z %e _h a room vacant1 :i* _h =m]ly be5 occupi$ by a not>y4 ,,dolores1 ,,la ,,sacri/ana ,dolores1 my l&lady & mi/ress ( ! ,sacri/y1 0 an agreeable1 exce$+ly en]getic1 exce$+ly h>d-work+ woman1 :o 0 a pron\nc$ cons]vative4 ,i h met few wom5 z good z %e4 ,9 spite ( ! fact t %e soon discov]$ t ,i 0 n at all religi\s1 %e did n hold x aga9/ me1 nor did ,i h>b\r any res5tm5t aga9/ h]4 ,i (t5 read h] ! ,aalejo1 or *ur* cal5d>1 :i* is kn[n z ! ,gall(a1 or begg>s' mite1 9 ! nor!rn prov9ces1 9 allusion to ! anci5t cu/om ( mak+ pilgrimages to ,santiago1 & ,i cook$ sug> waf]s ov] ! fire ) h] on ! eve ( fea/ days1 at :i* times h] "w 0 especially sev]e4 ,i realiz$ 9 ,ce/ona my *ildi% ambitions ( hav+ a h\se ( my own1 & a dog1 :i* _h la9 9 my m9d ev] s9ce read+ ,rob9son ,crusoe & ,! ,my/]i\s ,isl&4 ,i also _h an old horse nam$ ,juanillo1 :i* ,i borr[$ f a coa*man 9 ,san ,seba/ian1 b ,i nev] lik$ horses4 ,! horse seems to me to be a milit>i/ic1 antipa!tic animal4 ,nei!r ,rob9son ,crusoe nor ,cyrus ,h>d+ rode horse-back4 ,i committ$ no blund]s :ile ,i 0 a village doctor4 ,i _h already gr[n prud5t1 & my sceptical temp]am5t 0 a b> to any great mi/akes4 ,i fir/ began to realize t ,i 0 a ,basque 9 ,ce/ona1 & ,i recov]$ my pride ( race !re1 :i* ,i _h lo/4 ,,xi ,,z ,a ,,bak] ,i h be5 ask$ frequ5tly3 ,h[ did y ev] come to g into ! bak+ bus9ess8 ,i %all n[ proce$ to answ] ! "q1 al?\gh ! /ory is a long "o4 ,my "m _h an aunt1 ,juana ,nessi1 :o 0 a si/] ( h] fa!r's4 ,?is lady 0 reasonably attractive :5 "y1 & m>ri$ a ri* g5tleman j return$ f ,am]ica1 ^: "n 0 ,don ,matz ,lacasa4 ,once settl$ 9 ,madrid1 ,don ,matz1 :o deem$ himself an eagle1 :51 9 reality1 he 0 a common b>ny>d roo/]1 emb>k$ ^u a s]ies ( und]tak+s t fail$ ) truly extraord9>y unanimity4 ,ab\t #ahgj1 a physician f ,val5cia by ! "n ( ,m>t1 :o _h visit$ ,vi5na1 gave him an acc\nt ( ! bread !y make !re1 & ( ! yea/ !y use to raise x1 enl>g+ ^u ! pr(its :i* lay ready to h& 9 t l9e4 ,don ,matz 0 conv9c$1 & he b\ght an old h\se ne> ! ,*ur* ( ! ,descalzas ^u ,m>t's advice4 ,x /ood 9 a /reet :i* boa/$ only "o numb]--! numb] #b4 ,i believe ! /reet 01 & /ill is1 call$ ! ,calle de la ,mis]icordia4 ,m>t set up ov5s 9 ! old build+ by ! ,*ur* ( ! ,descalzas1 & ! bus9ess began to yield fabul\s pr(its4 ,be+ a devotee ( ! life ( pleasure1 ,m>t di$ ?ree or f\r ye>s aft] ! bus9ess _h be5 e/abli%$1 & ,don ,matz cont9u$ 8 gall9ace\s evolutions until he 0 utt]ly ru9$1 & _h pawn$ ev]y?+ he possess$1 rema9+ at la/ ) ! bak]y z 8 only means ( support4 ,he succe$$ 9 entangl+ & ru9+ t1 too1 be=e he di$4 ,my aunt !n wrote my "m reque/+ t my bro!r ,ric>do come up to ,madrid4 ,my bro!r rema9$ 9 ,madrid = "s "t1 :5 he grew tir$ & left2 !n ,i w5t1 & lat] we 7 bo? !re toge!r1 mak+ an ef=t to improve ! bus9ess & to pu% x ahead4 ,times 7 bad3 !re 0 no way ( pu%+ ahead4 ,surely ! prov]b ,:]e fl\r is lack+1 ev]y?+ goes pack+1 c\ld nev] h be5 appli$ ) m tru?4 ,& we c\ld get no fl\r4 ,:5 ! bak]y 0 j ab\t to d bett]1 ! ,conde de ,romanones1 :o 0 our l&lord 9 ^? days1 notifi$ u t ! build+ 0 to be torn d[n4 ,!n our tr\bles began4 ,we 7 oblig$ to move else:]e1 & to und]take alt]ations1 = :i* money 0 indisp5sable1 b we _h no money4 ,9 t pr$icam5t1 we began to speculate ^u ! ,ex*ange1 & ! ,ex*ange prov$ a k9d "m to u2 x su/a9$ u until we 7 on our feet aga94 ,z soon z we _h e/abli%$ ourselves ^u ano!r site1 we proce$$ to lose money1 s we )drew4 ,x is n surpris+1 !re=e1 t ,i h always reg>d$ ! ,/ock ,ex*ange z a philan?ropic in/itution1 or t1 on ! o!r h&1 a *ur* has always seem$ a sombre place 9 :i* a black prie/ leaps =? f beh9d a confessional to seize "o by ! ?roat 9 ! d>k1 & to ?rottle him4 ,,my ,,fa!r',s ,,disillusionm5t ,my fa!r 0 end[$ ) a due %>e ( ! romantic f]v\r :i* di/+ui%$ m5 ( 8 epo*1 & set great /ore by fri5d%ip4 ,m p>ticul>ly1 he 0 wrapp$ up 9 8 fri5ds 9 ,san ,seba/ian4 ,:5 we discov]$ t we 7 9 tr\ble1 be=e ?r[+ ourselves into ! lov+ arms ( ! ,b\rse1 my fa!r spoke to two intimate fri5ds ( 8 :o 7 f ,san ,seba/ian4 ,!y made an appo9tm5t to meet me 9 ! ,caf ,suizo4 ,i expla9$ ! situation to !m1 aft] :i* !y made me c]ta9 propositions1 :i* 7 s usuri\s1 s outrage\sly extortionate1 t !y took my brea? away4 ,!y (f]$ to advance u ! money we ne$$ = fifty p] c5t ( ! gross receipts1 :ile we 7 to meet ! runn+ exp5ses out ( our fifty p] c5t1 receiv+ no comp5sation :atev] = our s]vices 9 tak+ c>e ( ! bus9ess4 ,i 0 a/oni%$1 & naturally did n accept4 ,! episode 0 a great bl[ to my fa!r4 ,i frequ5tly came face to face ) "o ( our fri5ds at a lat] date1 b ,i nev] b[$ to him4 ,he 0 (f5d$4 ,i 0 tempt$ to approa* him & say3 ,! reason t ,i d n b[ to y is because ,i "k y are a rascal4 ,if ei!r ( ^! fri5ds ( ours 7 alive1 ,i %\ld proce$ to m5tion _! names1 b1 z !y are dead1 x w s]ve no useful purpose4 ,,indu/ry ,,& ,,democracy ,! bak]y has be5 br&i%$ aga9/ me 9 lit]ature4 ,:5 ,i fir/ wrote1 x 0 said3 ,?is ,b>oja is a cru/y fell[2 naturally1 he is a bak]4 ,a c]ta9 picturesque academician1 :o 0 also a dramati/1 & giv5 to compos+ /up5d\s qu9tillas & cu>tetas 9 8 day1 :i*1 despite _! flatness1 7 receiv$ ) applause1 _h ! inspiration to add3 ,all ?is mod]nism has be5 cook$ up 9 ,b>oja's ov54 ,ev5 ! ,catalans lo/ no "t 9 ?r[+ ! fact ( my be+ a bak] 9 my face1 al?\gh !y are a comm]cial1 manufactur+ p4 ,:e!r calico is nobl] ?an fl\r1 or fl\r ?an calico1 ,i am n sure1 b ! subject is "o = discussion1 z ,maeztu w\ld h x4 ,i am an eclectic myself on ?is score4 ,i pref] fl\r 9 ! %ape ( bread ) my d9n]1 b clo? w g fur!r ) a man :o desires to appe> well 9 public4 ,:5 ,i 0 s]v+ ^u ! ,t[n ,c\ncil1 an anonym\s publication entitl$ ,masks ,(f1 pr9t$ ! foll[+ among o!r gems3 ,po ,b>oja is a man ( lett]s :o runs a bake-%op4 ,a ,madrid critic rec5tly decl>$ 9 an ,am]ican p]iodical t ,i _h two p]sonalities3 "o t ( a writ] & ! o!r ( a bak]4 ,he 0 solicit\s to let me "k lat] t he int5d$ no h>m4 ,b if ,i %\ld say to him3 ,mr4 ,s & ,s is a writ] :o is excell5tly po/$ ^u ! value ( clo?1 z 8 fa!r sold dry-goods1 x w\ld appeal to 8 m9d z bad ta/e4 ,ano!r j\rnali/ paid 8 respects to me "s mon?s ago 9 ,el ,p>lam5t>io1 say+ ,i bak$ rolls1 oppress$ ! p1 & suck$ ! blood ( ! work+man4 ,x w\ld appe> to be m demean+ to own a small factory or a %op1 accord+ to ! /&>ds ( bo? lit]>y & non-lit]>y circles1 ?an x is to accept money f ! corruption funds ( ! ,gov]nm5t1 or b\nties f ! ex*equ]s ( =eign ,embassies4 ,:5 ,i he> talk n[adays ab\t ! dues ( ! common p1 my prop5sity to laugh is s great t ,i am appreh5sive t my end may be l t ( ! ,greek philosoph] 9 ,diog5es ,la]tius1 :o di$ ( laught] because he saw an ass eat+ figs4 ,,! ,,vexations ,,( ,a ,,small ,,tradesman ,! trials & tribulations ( ! lit]>y life1 its feuds & its backbit+s are a common topic ( conv]sation4 ,h[ev]1 ,i h nev] exp]i5c$ any?+ ( ! k9d 9 lit]ature4 ,! tr\ble ) lit]ature is t !re is v little money 9 x1 :i* r5d]s ! writ]'s exi/5ce bo? mean & prec>i\s4 ,no?+ comp>es = vexation ) ! life ( ! petty tradesman1 especially :5 t tradesman is a bak]4 ,^u occasion1 ,i h repeat$ to my fri5ds ! s]ies ( outrages to :i* we 7 oblig$ to submit1 9 p>ticul> at ! h&s ( ! municipal au?orities4 ,sometimes x 0 ?r\gh malice1 b m (t5 ?r\gh %e] ins5ti5t imbecility4 ,:5 my bro!r & ,i mov$ to ! new site1 we drew up a plan & submitt$ x to ! ,ayuntami5to1 or ,city ,gov]nm5t4 ,a cl]k discov]$ t no provision _h be5 made = a /all = a mule to run ! knead+ ma*9e1 & s reject$ x4 ,:5 we le>n$ t our application _h n be5 grant$1 we inquir$ ! reason & expla9$ to ! cl]k t no provision _h be5 made = ! mule because we _h no mule1 z our knead+ ma*9e 0 op]at$ by an electric motor4 ,t makes no diff]5ce1 no diff]5ce :atev]1 repli$ ! cl]k ) ! importance & obtus5ess ( ! bureaucrat4 ,! ord9ance requires t !re be a /all = "o4 ,ano!r ( ! ?\s& in/ances ( (ficial b>b>ity 0 p]petrat$ at our exp5se :ile ,sn*ez de ,toca 0 ,alcalde4 ,?is g5tleman is a ,siamese tw9 ( ,maura's :5 x comes to g>rul\sness & muddy ?9k+1 & he _h resolv$ to d away ) ! di/ribution ( bread by public deliv]y1 & to lic5se only deliv]ies by private bak]ies4 ,! ord] 0 arbitr>y en\gh1 b ! mann] 9 :i* x 0 put into effect 0 a ma/]piece4 ,x 0 report$ t plates be>+ lic5se numb]s w\ld be giv5 out at ! ,ayuntami5to to ! deliv]y m5 f ! bak]ies4 ,s we repair$ to ! ,ayuntami5to & que/ion$ a cl]k3 ,:]e d !y give out ! numb]s8 ,!re are no numb]s4 ,:at w happ5 tomorr[ !n1 :5 we make our deliv]ies8 ,h[ d ,i "k8 ,! next day :5 ! deliv]y m5 began _! r\nds1 a policeman acco/$ !m3 ,h y y\r numb]s8 ,no1 sir2 !y are n ready yet4 ,well1 come ) me !n1 to ! police /ation4 ,& t 0 ! la/ ( our bread4 ,! ,caid ( ,me*u> 9 ,morocco fav\r$ 8 subjects 9 "s su* fa%ion sev]al ye>s s9ce1 b ! ,moors1 be+ m5 ( _s1 fell on him "o day1 & left him at dea?'s door on a dung heap4 ,mean:ile1 ,sn*ez de ,toca cont9ues to talk nons5se 9 ^! p>ts1 & is consid]$ by "s to be "o ( ! bulw>ks ( ! c\ntry4 ,i c\ld sp9 _m a tale ( tyranny 9 high places1 & almo/ z _m1 no d\bt1 ( ! pett9esses ( work+m54 ,b :at is ! good8 ,:y /ir up my bile8 ,9 progressive inc>nations1 ,i h n[ pass$ ?r\gh ^? ( bak] & petty tradesman4 ,i am no long] an employ] :o exploits ! work+man1 nor c ,i see t ,i ev] did s4 ,if ,i h exploit$ work]s m]ely because ,i employ$ !m1 all t 0 "s "t ago4 ,i support myself by my writ+s n[1 al?\gh x is q prop] to /ate t ,i live on v little4 ,,xii ,,z ,a ,,writ] ,my pre-lit]>y c>e] 0 ?ree-fold3 ,i 0 a /ud5t = eight ye>s1 dur+ two a village doctor1 & = six m a bak]4 ,^! hav+ elaps$1 be+ already close ^u ?irty1 ,i began to write4 ,my new c\rse 0 a wise "o4 ,x 0 ! be/ ?+ t ,i c\ld h done2 any?+ else w\ld h annoy$ me m & h pleas$ me less4 ,i h enjoy$ writ+1 & ,i h made "s money1 al?\gh n mu*1 yet x has be5 suffici5t to enable me to travel1 :i* o!rwise ,i %\ld n h be5 able to d4 ,! fir/ consid]able sum :i* ,i receiv$ 0 ^u ! publication ( my novel ,! ,mayorazgo ( ,labraz4 ,h5ri* ( ,b>celona paid me two ?\s& pesetas = x4 ,i inve/$ ! two ?\s& pesetas 9 a speculation ^u ! ,b\rse1 & !y disappe>$ 9 two weeks4 ,! money :i* ,i h receiv$ = my o!r books1 ,i h employ$ to bett] purpose4 ,,bohemia ,i h nev] be5 a believ] 9 ! absurd my? call$ ,bohemia4 ,! idea ( liv+ gaily & irresponsibly 9 ,madrid1 or 9 any o!r ,spani% city1 )\t tak+ ?\ght = ! morr[1 is s prepo/]\s t x passes compreh5sion4 ,bohemia is utt]ly false 9 ,p>is & ,london1 b 9 ,spa91 :]e life is difficult1 x is ev5 m ( a *eat4 ,bohemia is n only false1 x is contemptible4 ,x sugge/s to me a m9or ,*ri/ian sect1 ( ! mo/ inconsequ5tial degree1 nicely calculat$ = ! conv5i5ce ( hang]s on at cafs4 ,h5ri ,murg] 0 ! son ( ! wife ( a concirge4 ,( c\rse1 ?is w\ld n h matt]$ _h 8 outlook ^u life n be5 t ( ! son ( ! wife ( a concirge4 ,,our ,,own ,,g5]ation ,! beg9n] 9 lett]s makes 8 way up1 z a rule1 amid a lit]>y environm5t :i* is di/+ui%$ by reputations & hi]>*ies1 all respect$ by him4 ,b ?is 0 n ! case ) ! "y writ]s ( my day4 ,dur+ ! ye>s #ahih to #aijj1 a numb] ( "y m5 sudd5ly f\nd !mselves ?r[n toge!r 9 ,madrid1 ^: only rule 0 ! pr9ciple t ! imm$iate pa/ did n exi/ = !m4 ,?is aggregation ( au?ors & arti/s might h seem$ to h be5 br\ght toge!r "u "s lead]%ip1 & to h be5 direct$ to "s purpose2 yet "o :o ent]ta9$ su* an assumption w\ld h be5 mi/ak54 ,*ance br\ght u toge!r = a mom5t1 a v brief mom5t1 to be foll[$ by a g5]al disp]sal4 ,!re 7 days :5 ?irty or =ty "y m51 appr5tices 9 ! art ( writ+1 sat ar\nd ! tables 9 ! old ,caf de ,madrid4 ,d\btless su* ga!r+s ( new m51 eag] to int]f]e 9 & to influ5ce ! op]ations ( ! social sy/em1 yet )\t ei!r ! w>rant ( tradition or any prov$ ability to d s1 are common ^u a l>g] scale 9 all revolutions4 ,z we nei!r _h1 nor c\ld h _h1 9 ! nature ( ! case1 a task to p]=m1 we soon f\nd t we 7 divid$ into small gr\ps1 & f9ally broke up altoge!r4 ,,azor,n ,a few days aft] ! publication ( my fir/ book1 ,sombre ,lives1 ,miguel ,pov$a1 :o 0 responsible = pr9t+ x1 s5t a copy to ,m>tnez ,ruiz1 :o 0 at t "t 9 ,monv>4 ,m>tnez ,ruiz wrote me a long lett] conc]n+ ! book by return mail2 on ! foll[+ day he s5t ano!r4 ,pov$a h&$ me ! lett]s to read & ,i 0 fill$ ) surprise & joy4 ,"s weeks lat]1 return+ f ! ,national ,libr>y1 ,m>tnez ,ruiz1 :om ,i knew by sight1 came up to me on ! ,recoletos4 ,are y ,b>oja8 he ask$4 ,yes4 ,i am ,m>tnez ,ruiz4 ,we %ook h&s & became fri5ds4 ,9 ^? days we travell$ ab\t ! c\ntry toge!r1 we contribut$ to ! same pap]s1 & ! ideas & ! m5 we attack$ 7 ! same4 ,lat]1 ,azorn became an en?usia/ic p>tisan ( ,maura1 :i* appe>$ to me p>ticul>ly absurd1 z ,i h nev] be5 able to see any?+ b an actor ( ! gr& /yle 9 ,maura1 a man ( small ideas4 ,next he became a p>tisan ( ,la ,ci]va1 :i* 0 z bad 9 my op9ion z be+ a ,mauri/a4 ,i am unable to say at ! mom5t :e!r he is contemplat+ any fur!r trans=mations4 ,b1 :e!r he is or n1 ,azorn w always rema9 a ma/] ( language to me1 besides an excell5t fri5d :o has a weakness = believ+ all m5 to be great :o talk 9 a l\d voice & :o pull _! cuffs d[n out ( _! coat sleeves ) a gr& ge/ure :5ev] !y appe> ^u ! plat=m4 ,,paul ,,s*mitz ,ano!r fri5d%ip :i* ,i f\nd /imulat+ 0 t ( ,paul ,s*mitz1 a ,swiss f ,basle1 :o _h come to ,madrid because ( "s weakness ( ! lungs1 sp5d+ ?ree ye>s among u 9 ord] to rehabilitate himself4 ,s*mitz _h /udi$ 9 ,switz]l& & 9 ,g]many1 & also _h liv$ = a long "t 9 ! nor? ( ,russia4 ,he 0 famili> ) :at 9 my judgm5t are ! two mo/ int]e/+ c\ntries ( ,europe4 ,paul ,s*mitz 0 a timid p]son ( an inquir+ turn ( m9d1 ^: y\? _h be5 tempe/u\s4 ,i made a numb] ( excursions ) ,s*mitz to ,tol$o1 to ,el ,paul> & to ! ,spr+s ( ,urbin2 a ye> or two lat] we visit$ ,switz]l& sev]al times toge!r4 ,s*mitz 0 l an op5 w9d[ ?r\gh :i* ,i look$ out ^u an unkn[n _w4 ,i held long conv]sations ) him ^u life1 lit]ature1 art & philosophy4 ,i recall t ,i took him "o ,sunday aft]noon to ! home ( ,don ,juan ,val]a4 ,:5 ,s*mitz & ,i arriv$1 ,val]a _h j settl$ d[n = ! aft]noon to li/5 to 8 daught]1 :o 0 read+ al\d "o ( ! late/ novels ( ,zola4 ,val]a1 ,s*mitz & ,i sat *att+ = p]haps f\r or five h\rs4 ,!re 0 no subject t we c\ld all agree ^u4 ,val]a & ,i 7 no soon] aga9/ ! ,swiss ?an ! ,swiss & ,val]a 7 aga9/ me1 or ! ,swiss & ,i aga9/ ,val]a1 & !n ea* flew (f aft] 8 own op9ion4 ,val]a1 :o saw t ! ,swiss & ,i 7 an>*i/s1 said x 0 beyond 8 compreh5sion h[ any man c\ld conceive ( a /ate ( g5]al well be+4 ,d y mean to say t y believe1 he said to me1 t !re w ev] come a "t :5 e man w be able to set a b[l ( oy/]s f ,arca*n ^u 8 table & top x (f ) a bottle ( *ampagne ( fir/-rate v9tage1 besides hav+ a woman sitt+ beside him 9 a ,wor? g[n8 ,no1 no1 ,don ,juan1 ,i repli$4 ,9 ! eyes ( ! an>*i/1 oy/]s1 *ampagne1 & ,wor? are m]e sup]/itions1 my?s to :i* we atta* no importance4 ,we d n sp5d our "t dream+ ab\t oy/]s1 :ile *ampagne is n nect> to our ta/es4 ,all t we ask is to live well1 & to h ^? ab\t u live well also4 ,we c\ld n conv9ce ea* o!r4 ,:5 ,s*mitz & ,i left ,val]a's h\se x 0 already night1 & we f\nd ourselves absorb$ 9 8 tal5ts & 8 limitations4 ,,ortega ,y ,,gasset ,ortega y ,gasset impresses me z a travell] :o has j\rney$ ?r\gh ! _w ( culture4 ,he moves ^u a high] level1 :i* x is difficult to rea*1 & ^u :i* x is /ill m difficult to ma9ta9 oneself4 ,x may be t ,ortega has no great sympa?y = my mann] ( liv+1 :i* is insubord9ate2 x may be t ,i look ) unfri5dly eye ^u 8 ambiti\s & ari/ocratic sympa?ies2 nev]!less1 he is a ma/] :o br+s glad news ( ! unkn[n--t is1 ( ! unkn[n to u4 ,doctor ,san ,m>tn 0 fond ( tell+ h[ he 0 sitt+ "o day ^u a b5* 9 ! ,retiro1 read+4 ,are y read+ a novel8 inquir$ a g5tleman1 sitt+ d[n beside him4 ,no1 ,i am /udy+4 ,:at6 ,/udy+ at y\r age8 exclaim$ ! g5tleman1 amaz$4 ,! same rem>k might be made to me3 ,:at6 ,sitt+ "u a ma/] at y\r age8 ,z f> z ,i am conc]n$1 e man :o kn[s m ?an ,i d is my ma/]4 ,i "k v well t philosophy & metaphysics are no?+ to ! great mass ( physicians :o pick up _! sci5ce out ( =eign reviews1 add+ no?+ !mselves to :at !y read2 nor1 = t matt]1 are !y to mo/ ,spani% eng9e]s1 :o are skill$ 9 do+ suffici5tly badly today :at 0 done 9 ,engl& & ,g]many v well ?irty ye>s ago2 & ! same ?+ is true ( ! apo!c>ies4 ,! practical is all t ^! p conc$e to exi/1 b h[ d !y "k :at is practical8 ,consid]+ ! matt] f ! practical po9t ( view1 !re c be no d\bt b t civilization has atta9$ a high developm5t :]ev] !re h be5 great metaphysicisms1 & !n ) ! philosoph]s h come ! inv5tors1 :o betwe5 !m are ! glory ( mank9d4 ,unamuno despises inv5tors1 b 9 ?is case x is 8 mis=tune4 ,x is f> easi] = a nation :i* is de/itute ( a tradition ( culture to improvise an hi/ologi/ or a physici/1 ?an a philosoph] or a real ?9k]4 ,ortega y ,gasset1 ! only approa* to a philosoph] :om ,i h ev] kn[n1 is "o ( ! few ,spani>ds :om x is int]e/+ to he> talk4 ,a ,,pseudo-,,patron ,al?\gh a man may nev] h am\nt$ to any?+1 & w probably cont9ue 9 mu* ! same case1 t is to say nev] am\nt+ to any?+1 yet !re are p]sons :o w take pride 9 hav+ giv5 him 8 />t 9 ! _w--9 %ort1 ^u hav+ made him kn[n4 ,seor ,ruiz ,contr]as has set up "s su* absurd claim 9 reg>d to me4 ,accord+ to ,ruiz ,contr]as1 he br\ght me into public notice ?r\gh a review :i* he publi%$ 9 #ahii1 "u ! title ,revi/a ,nueva4 ,?us1 accord+ to ,ruiz ,contr]as1 ,i am kn[n1 & h be5 = eighte5 ye>s6 ,al?\gh x may seem sc>cely wor? :ile to expose su* an obvi\s joke1 ,i %\ld l to cle> up ?is "q = ! b5efit ( any future biograph]s4 ,:y %\ld ,i n indulge ! hope ( hav+ !m8 ,9 #ahii1 ,ruiz ,contr]as invit$ my co-op]ation 9 a weekly magaz9e1 9 :i* ,i 0 to be bo? /ockhold] & editor4 ,^? days already seem a long way (f4 ,at fir/ ,i refus$1 b he insi/$2 at l5g? we agre$ t ,i %\ld write = ! magaz9e & %>e 9 meet+ ! exp5ses1 9 company ) ,ruiz ,contr]as1 ,rep>az1 ,lassalle & ! noveli/ ,ma!u4 ,i made two or ?ree paym5ts1 & mov$ d[n "s ( my pictures & furniture to ! (fice 9 consequ5ce1 until ! "t came :5 ,i began to feel t x 0 humor\s = me to be pay+ = publi%+ my articles1 :5 ,i 0 p]fectly well able to dispose ( !m to any o!r %eet4 ,^u my cutt+ (f paym5ts1 ,ruiz ,contr]as in=m$ me t a numb] ( ! /ockhold]s1 among :om 0 ,icaza1 :o _h replac$ ,rep>az1 took ! position t if ,i did n pay1 ,i %\ld n be p]mitt$ to write = ! magaz9e4 ,v well1 ,i %all n write4 ,& ,i ceas$ to write4 ,previ\s to my connection ) ! ,revi/a ,nueva1 ,i _h contribut$ articles to ,el ,lib]al1 ,el ,pais1 ,el ,globo1 ,la ,ju/icia1 & ,la ,voz de ,guipzcoa1 z well z to o!r publications4 ,a ye> aft] my contributions to ! ,revi/a ,nueva1 ,i br\ght out ,sombre ,lives1 :i* sc>cely sold "o hundr$ copies1 &1 !n1 a little lat]1 ,! ,h\se ( ,aizgorri1 ! sale ( :i* fell %ort ( fifty4 ,at ?is "t1 ,m>tnez ,ruiz publi%$ a com$y1 ,! ,p[] ( ,love1 = :i* ,i provid$ a prologue1 & ,i w5t ab\t ) ! publi%]1 ,rodrguez ,s]ra1 ?r\gh ! book%ops1 p$dl+ ! book4 ,9 a %op on ! ,plaza de ,santa ,ana1 ,rodrguez ,s]ra ask$ ! proprietor1 n altoge!r )\t a t\* ( malice3 ,:at d y ?9k ( ?is book8 ,x w\ld be all "r1 answ]$ ! proprietor1 :o did n "k me1 if anybody knew :o ,m>tnez ,ruiz 02 & :o is ?is ,po ,b>oja8 ,seor ,ruiz ,contr]as says t he made me kn[n1 b ! fact is t nobody knew me 9 ^? days2 ,seor ,ruiz ,contr]as flatt]s himself t he did me a great fav\r by publi%+ my articles1 at a co/ to me1 at ! v lea/1 ( two or ?ree duros apiece4 ,if ?is is to be a patron ( lett]s1 ,i %\ld l to patronize half ! planet4 ,z = lit]>y influ5ce1 ,ruiz ,contr]as nev] _h any ^u me4 ,he 0 an admir] ( ,arsne ,h\ssage1 ,paul ,b\rget1 & o!r noveli/s ) a sophi/icat$ air1 :o nev] meant any?+ to me4 ,! !atre also obsess$ him1 a malady :i* ,i h nev] suff]$1 & he 0 a devotee ( ! poet1 ,zorrilla1 9 :i* respect ,i 0 unable to %>e 8 en?usiasm1 nor c ,i d s today4 ,f9ally1 he 0 a political reaction>y1 :ile ,i am a man ( radical t5d5cies4 ,,xiii ,,p>isian ,,days ,= ! pa/ tw5ty ye>s ,i h be5 9 ! habit ( visit+ ,p>is1 n = ! purpose ( becom+ acqua9t$ ) ! city--to see x once is en\gh2 nor d ,i g 9 ord] to meet ,fr5* au?ors1 z1 = ! mo/ "p1 !y consid] !mselves s immeasurably above ,spani>ds t !re is no way 9 :i* a self-respect+ p]son c approa* !m4 ,i g to meet ! memb]s ( ! ,spani% colony1 :i* includes "s types :i* are mo/ int]e/+4 ,i h ga!r$ a l>ge numb] ( /ories & anecdotes 9 ?is way1 "s ( :i* ,i h incorporat$ 9 my books4 ,,e/,,vanez ,don ,nicols ,e/vanez 0 a good fri5d ( m9e4 ,dur+ my soj\rns 9 ,p>is1 ,i met him e aft]noon 9 ! ,caf de la ,fleur 9 ! ,b\lev>d ,/4 ,g]ma94 ,:5 ,i 0 writ+ ,! ,la/ ( ! ,romantics & ,grotesque ,trag$ies1 ,e/vanez furni%$ me ) data & in=mation conc]n+ life 9 ,p>is "u ! ,second ,empire4 ,:5 ,i la/ saw him 9 ! autumn ( #aiac1 he made a practice ( com+ to ! caf ) a pap] scribbl$ ov] ) notes1 to assi/ 8 memory to recall ! anecdotes :i* he _h x 9 m9d to tell4 ,i c see him n[ 9 ! ,caf de la ,fleur1 ) 8 blue eyes1 8 long :ite be>d1 8 *eeks1 :i* 7 /ill rosy1 8 calm & always phlegmatic air4 ,once he became mu* excit$4 ,javi] ,bu5o & ,i happ5$ on him 9 a caf on ! ,av5ue d',orleans1 n f> f ! ,lion de ,bel=t4 ,bu5o ask$ "s que/ions ab\t ! rec5t attempt by ,moral to assass9ate ! ,k+ 9 ,madrid1 & ,e/vanez sudd5ly w5t to pieces4 ,an an>*i/ told me aft]w>ds t ,e/vanez _h c>ri$ ! bomb :i* 0 ?r[n by ,morral 9 ,madrid1 f ,p>is to ,b>celona1 at :i* port he _h tak5 %ip = ,cuba1 by arrangem5t ) ! ,duke ( ,bivona4 ,i believe ?is /ory to h be5 a pure fabrication1 b ,i feel p]fectly c]ta9 t ,e/vanez knew be=eh& t ! crime 0 to be attempt$4 ,,my ,,v]satility ,,accord+ ,,to ,,bonaf\x ,speak+ ( ,e/vanez1 ,i recall also ,bonaf\x1 :om ,i saw frequ5tly4 ,accord+ to ,gonzlez de la ,pea1 ! pa9t]1 he held my v]satility aga9/ me4 ,bonaf\x1 rem>k$ ,pea1 feels t y are too v]satile & too volatile4 ,inde$8 ,9 :at way8 ,"o day y ent]$ ! b> & said to ,bonaf\x t a te/imonial banquet ought to be organiz$ = ,e/vanez1 enl>g+ ^u x en?usia/ically4 ,bonaf\x answ]$3 ',g ahead & make ! prep>ations1 & we w all get toge!r4' ,:5 y came into ! caf a few nights lat]1 ,bonaf\x ask$3 ',h[ ab\t t banquet8' ',:at banquet8' y repli$4 ,x _h already pass$ out ( y\r m9d4 ,n[1 tell me3 ,is ?is true8 inquir$ ,pea4 ,yes1 x is4 ,we all h some?+ ( ,t>t>9 9 u1 m or less4 ,we talk & we talk1 & !n we =get :at we say4 ,o!r ,p>isian types return to me :5 ,i ?9k ( ^? days4 ,!re 0 a ,cuban j\rnali/1 :o 0 satisfactorily dirty1 ( :om ,bonaf\x us$ to say t he n only ate 8 plate ( s\p b manag$ to wa% 8 face 9 x at ! same "t4 ,!re 0 a ,catalan guit> play]1 besides "s girls f ,madrid :o walk$ ! tight rope1 :om we us$ to invite to jo9 u at ! caf f "t to "t4 ,& !n !re 0 a :ole ho/ ( o!r p]sons1 all m or less %abby1 d[n at ! heel & picturesque4 ,,xiv ,,lit]>y ,,enmities ,mak+ our entrance into ! _w ( lett]s hurl+ contradictions "r & left1 ! "y m5 ( our g5]ation 7 receiv$ by ! writ]s ( e/abli%$ reputation ) unfri5dly demon/rations4 ,z 0 natural1 ?is 0 n only ! attitude ( ! old] writ]s1 b x ext5d$ to our contempor>ies 9 ye>s z well1 ev5 to ^? :o 7 mo/ mod]n4 ,,! ,,enmity ,,( ,,dic5ta ,among ^? :o *]i%$ a deadly hatr$ ( me 0 ,dic5ta4 ,x 0 an antipa?y :i* _h its orig9 9 ! realm ( ideas1 & x 0 acc5tuat$ subsequ5tly by an article :i* ,i contribut$ to ,el ,globo ^u 8 drama ,aurora1 9 :i* ,i ma9ta9$ t ,dic5ta 0 n a man ( new or broad ideas1 b completely preoccupi$ ) ! anci5t conceptions ( hone/y & hon\r4 ,"o night 9 ! ,caf ,=nos--,i am able to v\* = ! tru? ( ?is incid5t because1 ye>s aft]w>ds1 he told me ! /ory himself--,dic5ta acco/$ a "y man :o 0 sitt+ at an adjac5t table tak+ supp]1 & attempt$ to draw him into discussion1 "u ! impression t x 0 ,i4 ,! "y man 0 s fright5$ t he nev] d>$ to op5 8 m\?4 ,come1 %\t$ ,dic5ta1 we %all settle ?is matt] at once4 ,i h no?+ to settle ) y1 repli$ ! "y man4 ,yes1 sir1 y h2 y h /at$ 9 an article t my ideas are n revolution>y4 ,i nev] /at$ any?+ ( ! k9d4 ,:at is t8 ,no1 sir4 ,b ar5't y ,po ,b>oja8 ,i am n1 sir4 ,dic5ta turn$ on 8 heel & m>*$ back to 8 seat4 ,sometime lat]1 ,dic5ta & ,i became fri5ds1 al?\gh we 7 nev] v intimate1 because he felt t ,i did n appreciate him at 8 full wor?4 ,& x 0 ! tru?4 ,,! ,,po/hum\s ,,enmity ,,( ,,sawa ,i met ,alej&ro ,sawa "o ev5+ at ! ,caf ,=nos1 :]e ,i _h gone ) a fri5d4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,i _h nev] read any?+ :i* he _h writt51 b 8 appe>ance impress$ me4 ,once ,i foll[$ him 9 ! /reet ) ! int5tion ( speak+ to him1 b my c\rage fail$ at ! la/ mom5t4 ,a numb] ( mon?s lat]1 ,i met him "o summ] aft]noon on ! ,recoletos1 :5 he 0 9 ! company ( a ,fr5*man nam$ ,cornuty4 ,cornuty & ,sawa 7 conv]s+ & recit+ v]ses2 !y took me to a w9e-%op 9 ! ,plaza de ,h]radores1 :]e !y drank a numb] ( glasses1 :i* ,i paid =1 :]eupon ,sawa ask$ me to l5d him ?ree pesetas4 ,i did n h !m1 & told him s4 ,d y live f> f "h8 ask$ ,alej&ro1 9 8 l(ty /yle4 ,no1 ne> by4 ,v well !n1 y c g home & br+ me ! money4 ,he issu$ ?is comm& ) su* an air ( au?ority t ,i w5t home & br\ght him ! money4 ,he came to ! door ( ! w9e-%op1 took x f me1 & !n said3 ,y may g n[4 ,?is 0 ! way 9 :i* insignificant b\rgeois admir]s 7 treat$ 9 ! s*ool ( ,baudelaire & ,v]la9e4 ,lat] aga91 :5 ,i br\ght out ,sombre ,lives1 ,i sometimes saw ,sawa 9 ! small h\rs ( ! morn+1 8 long locks fl[+1 & foll[$ by 8 dog4 ,he always gripp$ my h& ) su* =ce t x did me "s hurt1 & !n he w\ld say to me1 9 a tragic tone3 ,be pr\d6 ,y h writt5 ,sombre ,lives4 ,i took x z a joke4 ,"o day ,alej&ro wrote me to come to 8 h\se4 ,he 0 liv+ on ! ,cue/a de ,santo ,dom+o4 ,i betook myself !re1 & he made me a proposition :i* 0 obvi\sly prepo/]\s4 ,he h&$ me five or six articles1 writt5 by him1 :i* _h already be5 publi%$1 toge!r ) "s notes1 say+ t if ,i w\ld add c]ta9 mat]ial1 we %\ld !n be able to make up a book ( ,p>isian ,impressions1 :i* c\ld appe> "u ! names ( u bo?4 ,i read ! articles & did n c>e = !m4 ,:5 ,i w5t to return !m1 he ask$ me3 ,:at h y done8 ,no?+4 ,i ?9k x w\ld be difficult = u to collaborate2 !re is no possible bond ( unity 9 :at we write4 ,h[ is t8 ,y are "o ( ^! eloqu5t writ]s1 & ,i am n4 ,?is rem>k gave great (f5ce4 ,ano!r reason = ,alej&ro's enmity 0 an op9ion express$ by my bro!r1 ,ric>do4 ,ric>do wi%$ to pa9t ! portrait ( ,manuel ,sawa 9 oils1 z ,manuel _h m>k$ p]sonality at t "t1 :5 he /ill wore a be>d4 ,b "h am ,i1 said ,alej&ro4 ,am ,i n a m int]e/+ subject to be pa9t$8 ,no1 no1 n at all1 we all %\t$ toge!r--?is took place 9 ! ,caf de ,lisboa--,manuel has m "*4 ,alej&ro said no?+1 b1 a few mom5ts lat]1 he rose1 look$ at himself 9 ! glass1 arrang$ 8 fl[+ locks1 & !n1 gl>+ at u f top to toe1 :ile he pron\nc$ ! lett] ) ! utmo/ di/9ctness1 he said simply3 ,m4444 & walk$ out ( ! caf4 ,"s "t pass$ be=e ,alej&ro he>d t ,i _h put him into "o ( my novels & he conceiv$ a c]ta9 dislike = me1 9 spite ( :i* we saw ea* o!r n[ & !n1 always conv]s+ affectionately4 ,"o day he s5t = me to come & see him4 ,he 0 liv+ 9 ! ,calle del ,conde ,duque4 ,he 0 9 b$1 already bl9d4 ,8 _s 0 z high z be=e1 :ile 8 int]e/ 9 lit]>y matt]s rema9$ ! same4 ,8 bro!r1 ,miguel1 :o 0 pres5t1 happ5$ to say dur+ ! conv]sation t ! hat ,i wore1 :i* ,i _h pur*as$ 9 ,p>is a few days previ\sly1 _h a flatt] brim ?an 0 usual4 ,alej&ro ask$ to exam9e x1 & busi$ himself feel+ ( ! brim4 ,?is is a hat1 he exclaim$ en?usia/ically1 t a man c we> ) long hair4 ,"s mon?s subsequ5t to 8 dea? a book ( 81 ,light ,among ! ,%ad[s1 0 publi%$1 9 :i* ,alej&ro spoke ill ( me1 al?\gh he _h a good ^w = ,sombre ,lives4 ,he call$ me a c\ntry-man1 said t my bones 7 mis%ap51 & !n /at$ t glory does n g h& 9 h& ) tub]culosis4 ,poor ,alej&ro6 ,he 0 s\nd at he>t1 an eloqu5t *ild ( ! ,m$it]ranean1 born to orate 9 ! l&s ( ! sun1 b he took x into 8 head t x 0 8 duty to make himself ov] into ! lik5ess ( "o ( ! putrid products ( ! ,nor?4 ,,semi-,,hatr$ ,,on ,,! ,,"p ,,( ,,silv]io ,,lanza ,a mutual fri5d1 ,antonio ,gil ,campos1 introduc$ me to ,silv]io ,lanza4 ,silv]io ,lanza 0 a man ( great orig9ality1 end[$ ) an enorm\s fund ( ?w>t$ ambition & pride1 :i* 0 only natural1 z he 0 a notably f9e writ] :o _h n yet met ) success1 nor ev5 ) ! recognition :i* o!r y\ng] writ]s enjoy$4 ,! fir/ "t t ,i saw ,lanza1 ,i rememb] h[ 8 eyes sp>kl$ :5 ,i told him t ,i lik$ 8 books4 ,nobody ev] paid any att5tion to him 9 ^? days4 ,silv]io ,lanza 0 a s+ul> "*4 ,at times he seem$ b5evol5t1 & !n aga9 !re 7 times :5 he w\ld appe> malignant 9 ! extreme4 ,8 ideas ^u ! subject ( lit]ature 7 positively absurd4 ,:5 ,i s5t him ,sombre ,lives1 he wrote me an un5d+ lett] 9 :i* he attempt$ to conv9ce me t ,i ought to app5d a lesson or moral1 to e tale4 ,if ,i did n wi% to write !m1 he (f]$ to d x himself4 ,silv]io ?\ght t lit]ature 0 n to be compos$ l hi/ory1 accord+ to ,qu9tilian's def9ition1 ad n>r&um1 b ad prob&um4 ,:5 ,i gave him ,! ,h\se ( ,aizgorri1 he 0 outrag$ by ! optimi/ic conclusion ( ! book1 & advis$ me to *ange x4 ,accord+ to 8 !ory1 if ! son ( ! ,aizgorri family came to a bad end1 ! daught] ought to come to a bad end also4 ,be+ ( a some:at fanta/ical turn ( m9d1 ,silv]io ,lanza 0 full ( political projects t 7 extraord9>y4 ,i rememb] t "o ( 8 ideas 0 t we ought all to write ! ,k+ a p]sonal note ( congratulation ^u 8 atta9+ 8 majority4 ,x is ! mo/ revolution>y ?+ t c be done at su* a "t1 insi/$ ,lanza1 app>5tly q conv9c$4 ,i am unable to see x1 ,i repli$4 ,azorn & myself 7 ( ! op9ion t x 0 a ridicul\s proce$+ :i* w\ld nev] produce ! desir$ result4 ,ano!r ( ,lanza's hobbies 0 an aggressive misogyny4 ,b>oja1 my fri5d1 he w\ld say to me1 y are too gallant & respectful 9 y\r novels ) ! ladies4 ,wom5 are l laws1 !y are to be violat$4 ,i laugh$ at him4 ,"o day ,i 0 walk+ ) my fri5d ,gil ,campos & my c\s9 ,gi1 :5 we happ5$ on ,silv]io ,lanza1 :o took u to ! ,caf de ,san ,seba/in1 :]e we sat d[n 9 ! section fac+ ! ,plazuela del ,angel4 ,x 0 a company t 0 s+ul>ly assort$4 ,silv]io rev]t$ to ! !me t wom5 %\ld be h&l$ ) ! rod4 ,gil ,campos proce$$ to laugh1 be+ gift$ ) an ironic ve91 & made fun ( him4 ,= my "p1 ,i 0 tir$ ( x1 s ,i said to ,lanza3 ,see "h1 ,don ,juan 78 real "n 0 ,juan ,bauti/a ,amors71 :at y are giv+ u n[ is lit]ature1 & poor lit]ature at t4 ,y are n1 & ,i am n1 able to violate law & wom5 z we see fit4 ,t may be all v well = ,caes>s & ,napoleons & ,borgias1 b y are a respectable g5tleman :o lives 9 a little h\se at ,getafe ) y\r wife1 & ,i am a poor man myself1 :o manages z be/ he may to make a liv+4 ,y w\ld tremble 9 y\r boots if y ev] broke a law1 or ev5 a municipal ord9ance1 & s w\ld ,i4 ,z f> z wom5 are conc]n$1 we are bo? ( u glad to take :at we c get1 if we c get any?+1 & ,i am afraid t nei!r ( u is ev] go+ to get v mu*1 despite ! fact--,i add$ by way ( a humor\s t\*--t we are two ( ! mo/ di/+ui%$ m9ds 9 ,europe4 ,my c\s9 ,gi repli$ to ?is ) ! r>e tact t 0 *>act]i/ic ( him1 argu+ t )9 ! mis]able sph]e ( tangible reality ,i 0 "r1 :ile ,lanza mov$ ^u a high] plane1 :i* 0 m ideal & m romantic4 ,he w5t on to add t ,lanza & he 7 bo? ,b]b]s1 & s viol5t & passionate1 :ile ,i 0 an ,aryan1 al?\gh a vulg> ,aryan1 ^: ideas 7 simply ^? :i* 7 %>$ by ev]ybody4 ,lanza 0 n satisfi$ ) my c\s9's explanation & dep>t$ ) a m>k$ lack ( cordiality4 ,s9ce t "t1 ,silv]io has reg>d$ me ) mix$ emotions1 half fri5dly1 half ! rev]se1 al?\gh 9 "o ( 8 late/ books1 ,! ,surr5d] ( ,santiago1 he has ref]r$ to me z a great fri5d & a great writ]4 ,i suspect1 h[ev]1 t he does n love me4 ,,xv ,,! ,,press ,,our ,,newspap]s ,,& ,,p]iodicals ,i h always be5 v mu* int]e/$ 9 ! newspap] & p]iodical press1 & 9 ev]y?+ t has any connection ) pr9t+4 ,:5 my fa!r1 my gr&fa!r1 & great gr&fa!r set up /ruggl+ pap]s 9 a prov9cial capital1 x may be said t !y 7 n pr9t]s 9 va94 ,because ( my fondness = newspap]s & magaz9es1 x is a grief to me t ! ,spani% press %\ld be s weak1 s poor1 s pusillanim\s & /iff-jo9t$4 ,( late1 :ile ! =eign press has be5 exp&+ & wid5+ its scope1 ours has be5 /&+ /ill4 ,!re is1 ( c\rse1 an economic explanation to ju/ify our defici5cy1 b ?is is valid only 9 ! matt] ( quantity1 & n z to quality4 ,comp>+ our press ) t ( ! re/ ( ! _w1 a ros>y ( negation might easily be made up 9 ?is fa%ion3 ,our press does n conc]n itself ) :at is ( univ]sal int]e/4 ,our press does n conc]n itself ) :at is ( national int]e/4 ,our press does n conc]n itself ) lit]ature4 ,our press does n conc]n itself ) philosophy4 ,& s on to inf9ity4 ,corpus ,b>ga has told me t :5 ,seor ,groiz>d1 a relative ( 81 0 ambassador to ! ,vatican1 ,leo ,,xiii once inquir$ ( him1 9 a j>gon ( ,italo-,spani%1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! papal secret>y1 ,c>d9al ,rampolla3 ,does ! ,seor ,ambasciatore speak ,italian8 ,no1 n ,italian1 al?\gh ,i und]/& x a little4 ,does ! ,seor ,ambasciatore speak ,engli%8 ,no1 n ,engli%1 ,i d n speak t1 repli$ ,groiz>d4 ,does ! ,seor ,ambasciatore speak ,g]man8 ,no ,g]man1 no ,dut*2 n at all4 ,no d\bt !n ! ,seor ,ambasciatore speaks ,fr5*8 ,fr5*8 ,no4 ,i am able to translate x a little1 b ,i d n speak x4 ,!n :at does ! ,seor ,ambasciatore speak8 ask$ ,leo ,,xiii1 smil+ t ,voltairian smile ( 8 at 8 secret>y4 ,!n ,seor ,ambasciatore speaks a heavy back-c\ntry dialect call$ ,extramaduran1 repli$ ,rampolla del ,t9d>o1 b5d+ ov] to ,8 ,hol9ess's e>4 ,! ,spani% press has made a resolution1 n[ ( long /&+1 to speak no?+ b a back-c\ntry dialect call$ ,extramaduran4 ,our ,j\rnali/s ,our j\rnali/s supply ! measure ( our j\rnals4 ,:5 ! great names are ^? ( ,miguel ,moya1 ,romeo1 ,rocamora & ,don ,po1 :at are we to ?9k ( ! little fell[s8 ,speak+ g5]ally1 ! ,spani% j\rnali/ is int]e/$ 9 politics1 9 !atres1 9 bull fights1 & 9 no?+ else2 :atev] is beyond ^!1 does n conc]n him4 ,n ev5 ! feuilleton attracts 8 att5tion4 ,a wood51 highly mann]$ phrase sponsor$ by ,maura1 is mu* m /imulat+ to 8 m9d ?an ! mo/ s5sational piece ( news4 ,! ,spani% newspap] man is end[$ ) an extraord9>y lack ( imag9ation & ( curiosity4 ,i recall hav+ giv5 a fri5d1 :o 0 a j\rnali/1 a little book ( ,nietzs*e's to read1 :i* he return$ ) ! rem>k t he _h n be5 able to get ?r\gh x1 z x 0 insuff]able drivel4 ,i h he>d ! same op9ion1 or simil> ones1 express$ by j\rnali/s ( ,ibs51 ,s*op5hau]1 ,do/oievsky1 ,/5dhal & all ! mo/ /imulat+ m9ds ( ,europe4 ,! wret*$ ,sa9t ,aub91 wret*$ c]ta9ly z a critic1 us$ to ridicule ,tol/oi & ! illness :i* result$ 9 8 dea?1 ma9ta9+ t x 0 no?+ m ?an an adv]tisem5t4 ,! mo/ b5ight$ vulg>ity reigns 9 our press4 ,^u occasion1 vulg>ity goes h& 9 h& ) an ignorance :i* is a/\nd+4 ,i rememb] go+ to a caf on ! ,calle de ,alcal kn[n z la ,maison ,dore "o aft]noon ) ,regoyos4 ,felipe ,trigo1 ! noveli/1 sat d[n at our table ) a fri5d ( 81 a j\rnali/1 ,i believe1 f ,am]ica4 ,i h nev] be5 a fri5d ( ,trigo's1 & c\ld nev] take any int]e/ ei!r 9 ! man or 8 "w1 :i* to my m9d is tiresome & comm]cially erotic1 besides be+ absolutely devoid ( all *>m4 ,regoyos1 :o is effusive by nature1 soon became engag$ 9 conv]sation ) !m1 & ! talk turn$ ^u arti/ic subjects1 9 :i* he 0 int]e/$1 & !n to 8 travels abroad4 ,trigo put 9 8 o> & utt]$ a numb] ( prepo/]\s /atem5ts4 ,9 p>ticul>1 he describ$ a %ip :i* _h unload$ at ,milan4 ,:5 ,regoyos po9t$ out t ,milan 0 n a seaport1 he repli$3 ,probably x 0 "s o!r place !n4 ,:at is ! diff]5ce8 ,he cont9u$ ) a /r+ ( geographical & an?ropological blund]s1 :i* 7 concurr$ 9 by ! j\rnali/1 :ile ,regoyos & ,i sat by 9 amazem5t4 ,:5 we left ! caf1 ,regoyos inquir$3 ,c\ld !y h be5 jok+8 ,no2 nons5se4 ,!y d n believe t su* ?+s are wor? kn[+4 ,!y ?9k !y are petty details :i* might be useful to railway port]s4 ,trigo imag9es t he is a magician1 :o und]/&s ! female m9d4 ,well1 does he8 ask$ ,regoyos1 ) nave innoc5ce4 ,h[ c he und]/& any?+8 ,! poor fell[ is ignorant4 ,8 o!r atta9m5ts are on a p> ) 8 geography4 ,! ignorance ( au?ors & j\rnali/s is accompani$ z a matt] ( c\rse by a total want ( compreh5sion4 ,a numb] ( ye>s ago1 a ri* "y man call$ at my h\se1 int5d+ to f\nd a review4 ,dur+ ! conv]sation1 he expla9$ t he 0 a ,murcian1 a lawy] & a foll[] ( ,maura4 ,f9ally1 aft] exp\nd+ 8 lit]>y ideas1 he in=m$ me t ,ric>do ,len1 :o at t "t _h j publi%$ 8 fir/ novel1 w\ld1 9 8 op9ion1 come to be ackn[l$g$ z ! fir/ noveli/ ( ,europe4 ,he also assur$ me t ,dick5s's hum\r 0 absolutely vulg>1 *eap & out ( date4 ,i am n surpris$ t y %\ld ?9k s1 ,i said to him4 ,y are f ,murcia1 y are a lawy] & a ,mauri/a2 naturally1 y l ,ric>do ,len1 & x is equally natural t y %\ld n l ,dick5s4 ,p]sons :o imag9e t x is ( no consequ5ce :e!r ,milan is a seaport or n1 :o believe t ,nietzs*e is a drivell+ ass1 & :o make bold to tell u t ,dick5s is a *eap au?or--9 "o ^w1 "y g5tlem5 lawy]s :o are p>tisans ( ,maura1 are ! p :o provide copy = our press4 ,h[ c ! ,spani% press be expect$ to be diff]5t f :at x is8 ,,am]icans ,unque/ionably1 ,spani>ds suff] mu* f ! unc]ta9ty ( in=mation & n>r[ness ( view inevitable to ^? :o live ap>t f ! ma9 curr5ts ( life4 ,9 comp>ison ) ! ,engli%1 ! ,g]mans1 or ! ,fr5*1 :e!r we l x or n1 we appe> prov9cial4 ,we are prov9cials :o possess m or less tal5t1 b nev]!less we are prov9cials4 ,s x is t an ,italian1 a ,russian1 or a ,sw$e pref]s to read a book by a m$iocre ,p>isian1 su* z ,m>cel ,prvo/1 to "o by a writ] ( g5u9e tal5t1 su* z ,galds2 x also expla9s :y ! canvases ( second rate pa9t]s su* z ,david1 ,g]icault1 or ,+res are m highly e/eem$ 9 ! m>ket ?an ^? ( a pa9t] ( g5ius l ,goya4 ,to be prov9cial has its virtues z well z its defects4 ,at times ! prov9cial are accompani$ by univ]sal elem5ts1 :i* bl5d & =m a ma/]piece4 ,?is 0 ! case ) ,don ,quixote1 ) ! et*+s ( ,goya & ! dramas ( ,ibs54 ,simil>ly1 among new peoples1 prov9cial /upidity w (t5 =m a bl5d ) an obtus5ess :i* is _w-wide4 ,! aridness & inf]tility *>act]i/ic ( ! soil comb9e ) ! detritus ( fa%ion & ! follies ( ! f\r qu>t]s ( ! globe4 ,! result is a *ild-l type1 petulant1 devoid ( virtue1 & utt]ly de/itute ( a s+le manly quality4 ,?is is ! ,am]ican type4 ,am]ica is p> excell5ce ! cont95t ( /upidity4 ,! ,am]ican has n yet outgr[n ! monkey 9 him & rema9s 9 ! imitative /age4 ,i h no p>ticul> reason to dislike ,am]icans4 ,my ho/ility t[>ds !m arises m]ely f ! fact t ,i h nev] kn[n "o :o _h ! air ( be+ anybody1 :o impress$ me z a man4 ,y frequ5tly meet a man 9 ! int]ior ( ,spa91 9 "s small village1 p]haps1 ^: conv]sation conveys ! impression t he is a real man1 wr\ght out ( ! ore t is mo/ human & mo/ noble4 ,at su* times "o becomes reconcil$ to "o's c\ntry1 = all its *>latans & hordes ( %>p]s4 ,an ,am]ican nev] appe>s to be calm1 s]5e & collect$4 ,!re are pl5ty :o seem to be wild1 impulsive creatures1 driv5 on by sangu9>y fury1 :ile o!rs disclose ! vanity ( ! *orus girl1 or a self-conceit :i* is :olly ridicul\s4 ,my lack ( sympa?y = ,spani%-,am]icans ext5ds to _! lit]>y productions4 ,ev]y?+ t ,i h read by ,s\? ,am]icans1 & ,i be> 9 m9d ! n dis9t]e/$ encomiums ( ,unamuno1 ,i h f\nd to be bo? poor & defici5t 9 sub/ance4 ,beg9n+ ) ,s>mi5to's ,facundo1 :i* is heavy1 *eap1 & un9t]e/+1 & com+ d[n to ! late/ productions ( ,+5i]os1 ,manuel ,ug>te1 ,ric>do ,rojas & ,contr]as1 ?is is true )\t exception4 ,:at a deluge ( %oddy snobb]y & vulg> display p\rs out ( ,am]ica6 ,x is (t5 argu$ t ,spani>ds %\ld eulogize ,s\? ,am]icans = political reasons4 ,?is is "o ( _m recomm5dations :i* proce$ f ! craniums ( g5tlem5 :o top !mselves (f ) silk hats & :o c>ry a lecture inside :i* is 9 dem& by ,ib]o-,am]ican societies4 ,i h no fai? t ?is br& ( politics w be productive ( results4 ,citiz5s ( old1 civiliz$ c\ntries are /ill s5sible to flatt]y & complim5t1 b :at are y to tell an ,arg5t9e :o is fully conv9c$ t ,arg5t9a is a m important c\ntry ?an ,engl& or ,g]many1 because %e raises a l>ge quantity ( :eat1 to say no?+ ( a great numb] ( c[s8 ,:5ev] ,unamuno writes he decries ,kant1 ,s*op5hau] & ,nietzs*e1 & !n promptly eulogizes ! mighty ,g5]al ,anbal ,prez & ! great poet ,diocleciano ,sn*ez1 :o hail f ! pampas4 ,to ^! fell[s1 su* praise seems grudg+ en\gh4 ,salvador ,ru$a himself mu/ appe> tame to ^! hide-/ret*]s4 ,,xvi ,,politics ,i h always be5 a lib]al radical1 an individuali/ & an an>*i/4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i am an enemy ( ! ,*ur*2 9 ! second place1 ,i am an enemy ( ! ,/ate4 ,:5 ^! great p[]s are 9 conflict ,i am a p>tisan ( ! ,/ate z aga9/ ! ,*ur*1 b on ! day ( ! ,/ate's triumph1 ,i %all become an enemy ( ! ,/ate4 ,if ,i _h liv$ dur+ ! ,fr5* ,revolution1 ,i %\ld h be5 an int]nationali/ ( ! s*ool ( ,anac>sis ,clootz2 dur+ ! /ruggle = lib]ty1 ,i %\ld h be5 "o ( ! ,c>boni]i4 ,to ! ext5t 9 :i* lib]alism has be5 a de/ructive =ce1 inimical to ! pa/1 x en?ralls me4 ,! fight aga9/ religi\s prejudice & ! ari/ocracy1 ! suppression ( religi\s communities1 inh]itance taxes--9 %ort1 :atev] has a t5d5cy to pulv]ize completely ! anci5t ord] ( society1 fills me ) a great joy4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ins(> z lib]alism is con/ructive1 z x has be5 = example 9 its advocacy ( univ]sal suffrage1 9 its democracy1 & 9 its sy/em ( p>liam5t>y gov]nm5t1 ,i consid] x ridicul\s & valueless z well4 ,ev5 today1 :]ev] x is oblig$ to take ! aggressive1 x seems to me t ! good 9 lib]alism is n exhau/$2 b :]ev] x has become an accompli%$ fact1 & is accept$ z su*1 x nei!r int]e/s me nor enli/s my admiration4 ,,votes ,,& ,,applause ,9 our pres5t day democracy1 !re are only two effective sanctions3 votes & applause4 ,^? are all4 ,j z 9 ! old days m5 committ$ all sorts ( crimes 9 ord] to please _! sov]eign1 n[ !y commit simil> crimes 9 ord] to satisfy ! p4 ,& ?is tru? has be5 recogniz$ f ,ari/otle to ,burke4 ,democracy ends 9 hi/rionism4 ,a man :o gets up to talk be=e a cr[d mu/ ( necessity be an actor4 ,i h wond]$ f "t to "t if ,i might n h c]ta9 hi/rionic gifts myself2 h[ev]1 :5 ,i h put !m to ! te/1 ,i h f\nd t !y 7 n suffici5t4 ,i h made six or sev5 spee*es dur+ my brief political c>e]4 ,i spoke 9 ,val5cia1 9 a pelota c\rt1 & ,i deliv]$ an address at ,b>celona 9 ! ,casa del ,pueblo1 9 bo? ( :i* places ,i 0 applaud$ g5]\sly4 ,nev]!less ! applause fail$ to intoxicate me2 x produc$ no impression ^u me :atev]4 ,x seem$ too mu* l m]e noise--noise made by m5's h&s1 & hav+ no?+ to d ) myself4 ,i am n good en\gh z an actor to be a politician4 ,,politicians ,i h nev] be5 able to feel any en?usiasm = ,spani% politicians4 ,we he> a great deal ab\t ,cnovas4 ,cnovas has always impress$ me z be+ z bad an orator z he 0 a writ]4 ,:5 ,i fir/ read 8 ,bell ( ,huesca1 ,i c\ld n conta9 myself = laugh+4 ,z f> z 8 spee*es are conc]n$1 ,i h also read a few1 & f9d !m horribly heavy1 diffuse1 monoton\s & defici5t 9 /yle4 ,i he> t ,cnovas is a great hi/orian1 b if s1 ,i am n acqua9t$ ) t side ( him4 ,ca/el> 0 unque/ionably a man ( exceptional gifts z a writ]1 b he fail$ to take advantage ( !m1 & !y 7 utt]ly dissipat$4 ,he lack$ :at mo/ ,spani>ds ( ! #ai? ,c5tury lack$ ) him2 t is1 res]ve4 ,:5 ,e*eg>ay 0 made ,m9i/] ( ,f9ance1 he 0 already an old man4 ,a report] call$ "o day to int]view him at ! ,m9i/ry1 & ,e*eg>ay confess$ t he 0 )\t any v cle> idea z to j :at ! duties ( 8 (fice 7 to be4 ,:5 ! report] took leave ( ! dramati/1 he rem>k$3 ,don ,jos1 y are n go+ to be com=table "h2 x is cold 9 ! build+4 ,besides1 ! air is too fre%4 ,e*eg>ay repli$3 ,yes1 & y\r description suits me exactly4 ,?is cynically *eap joke might h fall5 appropriately f ! tongues ( ! majority ( ,spani% politicians4 ,among ^! male bail>9as1 ne>ly all ( :om date back to ! ,revolution ( ,septemb]1 we may f9d1 inde$1 "s m5 ( au/]e "*3 ,salm]n1 ,p y ,m>gall & ,co/a4 ,salm]n 0 an inimitable actor1 b an actor :o 0 s9c]e 9 8 "p4 ,he 0 ! mo/ m>vell\s orator t ,i h ev] he>d4 ,z a philosoph]1 he 0 ( no acc\nt1 & z a politician he 0 a calamity4 ,p y ,m>gall1 :om ,i met once 9 8 own home :]e ,i w5t 9 company ) ,azorn1 0 no m a politician or a philosoph] ?an 0 ,salm]n4 ,he 0 a j\rnali/1 a popul>iz] ( o!r m5's ideas1 gift$ ) a /yle at once cle> & concise4 ,p y ,m>gall 0 s9c]e1 enam\r$ ( ideas1 & took b little ?\ght ( himself4 ,z to ,co/a1 ,i confess t he 0 always antipa!tic to me4 ,l ,nak5s1 he 0 a man :o liv$ ^u ! e/imation 9 :i* he 0 held by o!rs1 pret5d+ all ! :ile t he atta*$ no importance to x :atev]4 ,aguirre ,metaca once told me t :ile he 0 connect$ ) a pap] 9 ,s>agossa1 he _h solicit$ an int]view ) ,co/a1 & !reupon ,co/a wrote ! int]view himself1 ref]r+ to himself "h & !re 9 x z ! ,lion ( ,graus4 ,i _c accept ,co/a z a mod]n ,european1 intellectually4 ,he 0 a figure = ! ,cortes ( ,cadiz1 solemn1 pomp\s1 becoll>$ & rhetorical4 ,he 0 "o ( ^? actors :o ab\nd 9 s\!rn c\ntries1 :o are laid to re/ 9 _! graves )\t ev] hav+ _h ! lea/ idea t _! entire lives h be5 no?+ b /age spectacles4 ,,revolutioni/s ,:e!r politicians or au?ors1 ! ,spani% revolutioni/s always smack to my m9d ( ! prop]ty room1 & especially is ?is true ( ! au?ors4 ,zozaya1 ,morote & ,dic5ta h pass$ = _m ye>s n[ z t]rible m51 bo? de/ructive & great innovators4 ,b h[ ridicul\s6 ,zozaya1 l ,dic5ta1 has nev] done any?+ b manipulate ! commonplace1 fail+ to imp>t ei!r lightness or novelty to x1 z h ,val]a & ,anatole ,france1 succe$+ only on ! o!r h& 9 mak+ x m plumbe\s & indige/ible4 ,speak+ ( ,luis ,morote1 aga9/ :om ,i urge no?+ z a man1 he has always be5 a bugbe> to me1 ! p]sonification ( dullness1 ( vulg>ity1 ( ev]y?+ t lacks int]e/ & *>m4 ,i c conceive no?+ l[] ?an an article by ,morote4 ,:at tal5t t man has6 ,:at a revolution>y p]sonality6 !y us$ to say 9 ,val5cia1 & once ! janitor at ! ,club add$3 ,to ?9k ,i knew t man :5 he 0 only ?is high6 ,& he held out 8 h& ab\t a metre above ! gr\nd4 ,spa9 has nev] produc$ any revolutioni/s4 ,don ,nicols ,e/vanez1 :o imag9$ himself an an>*i/1 w\ld fly into a rage if he read an article :i* conceal$ a gallicism 9 x4 ,d n bo!r y\r head ab\t gallicisms1 ,i us$ to say to him4 ,:at d !y matt]1 anyway8 ,no1 we h nev] _h any revolutioni/s 9 ,spa94 ,t is1 we h _h only "o3 ,f]r]4 ,he 0 c]ta9ly n a man ( great m9d4 ,:5 he talk$1 he 0 on ! level ( ,morote & ,zozaya1 :i* is no?+ m nor less ?an ! level ( ev]ybody else2 b :5 x came to action1 he did am\nt to some?+1 & t some?+ 0 dang]\s4 ,,l]r\x ,my only exp]i5ce 9 politics 0 ga9$ ) ,l]r\x4 ,"o ,sunday1 sev5 or eight ye>s ago1 on com+ out ( my h\se & cross+ ! ,plaza de ,san ,m>cial1 ,i obs]v$ t a great cr[d _h ga!r$4 ,:at is ! matt]8 ,i ask$4 ,l]r\x is com+1 !y told me4 ,i delay$ a mom5t & happ5$ on ,vill>1 ! compos]1 among ! cr[d4 ,we fell to talk+ ( ,l]r\x & :at he might accompli%4 ,a procession 0 soon =m$1 :i* we foll[$1 & we f\nd ourselves 9 front ( ! editorial (fices ( ,el ,pais4 ,%all we g 98 ask$ ,vill>4 ,d y "k ,l]r\x8 ,i _h met ,l]r\x 9 ! days :5 ,el ,progreso 0 /ill publi%$1 hav+ call$ once ) ,maeztu at 8 (fice2 aft]w>ds ,i saw him 9 ,b>celona 9 a l>ge %$1 :i*1 if ,i recall rightly1 w5t by ! "n ( ,la ,frat]nidad ,republicana1 & !n ,i 0 accompani$ by ,azorn & ,junoy4 ,vill> & ,i w5t up/airs & greet$ ,l]r\x 9 ! (fices ( ,el ,pais4 ,e/vanez has spok5 ( y to me1 he said4 ,is he well8 ,yes1 v well4 ,a few days lat]1 ,l]r\x invit$ me to d9n] at ! ,caf ,+ls4 ,l]r\x1 ,fu5te & ,i d9$ toge!r1 & !n fell to talk+4 ,l]r\x ask$ me to jo9 8 p>ty1 :]eupon ,i po9t$ out ! qualifications :i* 7 lack+ 9 me1 :i* 7 necess>y to a politician4 ,%ortly aft]1 ,i 0 nom9at$ z a c&idate = ! ,city ,c\ncil1 & ,i address$ a numb] ( meet+s1 al?\gh always coldly1 & nev] at high t5sion4 ,:ile ,i 0 ) ,l]r\x1 ,i 0 nev] treat$ save ) consid]ation4 ,:y did ,i leave 8 p>ty8 ,*iefly because ( diff]5ces z to ideas & z to tactics4 ,l]r\x wi%$ to organize 8 p>ty into a p>ty ( law & ord]1 s t x might be capable ( gov]n+1 & also to h x fri5dly ) ! ,army4 ,i 0 ( ! op9ion t x ought to be a revolution>y p>ty1 n 9 ! s5se t ,i 0 ?9k+ ( erect+ b>ricades1 b ,i wi%$ x to conte/1 to upset ?+s1 & to prote/ aga9/ inju/ice4 ,:at ,l]r\x want$ 0 a p>ty ( orators :o c\ld speak at public meet+s1 a p>ty ( (fice-hold]s1 c\ncillors1 prov9cial deputies & ! l1 :ile ,i held1 & /ill hold1 t ! only efficaci\s revolution>y weapon is ! pr9t$ page4 ,l]r\x 0 anxi\s to trans=m ! radical p>ty into some?+ ari/ocratic & ,ca/ilian2 ,i desir$ to see x reta9 its ,catalan "*1 & cont9ue to we> bl\ses & rope-sol$ %oes4 ,i )drew f ! p>ty = ^! reasons1 to :i* ,i may add ,l]r\x's attitude ( indiff]5ce ^u ! occasion ( ! execution ( ! /ok] ( ! ,numancia4 ,n _m mon?s aft]1 ,i met him on ! ,c>r]a de ,san ,j]nimo1 & he said to me3 ,i h read y\r diatribes4 ,!y 7 n direct$ aga9/ y1 b aga9/ y\r politics4 ,i %all nev] speak ill ( y1 because ,i h no cause4 ,yes1 he repli$1 ,i "k t at he>t y are "o ( my fri5ds4 ,,an ,,(f] ,a numb] ( ye>s ago1 :5 ! ,cons]vatives 7 9 p[] & ,dato 0 ,presid5t ( ! ,m9i/ry1 ,azorn br\ght me ^w t ,sn*ez ,gu]ra1 !n ,m9i/] ( ! ,int]ior1 wi%$ to see me & to h a little talk1 z p]haps "s way might be arrang$ by :i* ,i might be made deputy4 ,dur+ ! aft]noon1 ,i accompani$ ,azorn to ! ,m9i/ry1 & we saw ! ,m9i/]4 ,he in=m$ me t he w\ld l to h me ent] ! ,congress4 ,i %\ld l to myself1 ,i repli$1 b x w\ld appe> to me r difficult4 ,b is !re n "s t[n :]e y are well kn[n1 & :]e y h influ5ce8 ,no1 none :atev]4 ,h[ w\ld y l !n to be deputy to repres5t ! ,gov]nm5t8 ,z a regul>8 ,yes4 ,z a ,cons]vative8 ,yes4 ,i ?\ght a mom5t & said3 ,no1 ,i c nev] be a ,cons]vative1 h[ev] x might suit my int]e/ to be s4 ,try z h>d z ,i might1 ,i %\ld nev] succe$4 ,t is ! only way 9 :i* we c make y deputy4 ,well1 x _c be help$6 ,i mu/ resign myself !n to am\nt to no?+4 ,?ank+ ! ,m9i/] = 8 k9dness4 ,azorn & ,i walk$ out ( ! ,m9i/ry ( ! ,int]ior4 ,,sociali/s ,z = ,sociali/s1 ,i h nev] c>$ to h any?+ to d ) !m4 ,"o ( ! mo/ (f5sive ?+s ab\t ,sociali/s1 :i* is m (f5sive ?an _! p$antry1 ?an _! *>latanry1 ?an _! hypocrisy1 is _! inquisitorial in/9ct = pry+ into o!r p's lives4 ,:e!r ,pablo ,iglesias travels fir/ or ?ird class1 has be5 = ye>s "o ( ! pr9cipal topics ( dispute betwe5 ,sociali/s & _! oppon5ts4 ,fifte5 ye>s ago ,i 0 9 ,tangi]1 :]e ,i _h be5 s5t by ! ,globo1 &1 ^u my return1 a newspap] man :o _h sociali/ic ideas1 reproa*$ me3 ,y talk a great deal ab\t ! work+ man1 b ,i see y 7 liv+ 9 ! be/ hotel 9 ,tangi]4 ,i answ]$3 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i h nev] spok5 ( ! work+man ) any f]v\r4 ,fur!rmore1 ,i am n su* a slave z to be too c[>dly to take :at life (f]s z x comes1 z y are4 ,i take :at ,i c t ,i want1 & :5 ,i d n take x1 x is because ,i _c get x4 ,,love ,,( ,,! ,,work+man ,to gu% ov] ! work+man is "o ( ! commonplaces ( ! day :i* is utt]ly false & hypocritical4 ,j z 9 ! #ah? c5tury sympa?y 0 ) ! simple he>t$ citiz51 s today we talk ab\t ! work+man4 ,! t]m work+man c nev] be any?+ b a grammatical common d5om9ator4 ,among work+m51 z among ! b\rgeoisie1 !re are all sorts ( p4 ,x is p]fectly true t !re are c]ta9 *>act]i/ics1 c]ta9 defects1 :i* may be exagg]at$ 9 a giv5 class1 because ( its special environm5t & culture4 ,! diff]5ce 9 ,spani% cities betwe5 ! lab\r+ man & ! b\rgeoisie is n v great4 ,we frequ5tly see ! work+man leap ! b>ri] into ! b\rgeoisie1 & !n disclose himself z a unique fl[] ( knav]y1 extortion & misdirect$ +5uity4 ,deep d[n 9 ! he>ts ( our revolutioni/s1 ,i d n believe t !re is any real en?usiasm = ! work+man4 ,:5 ! book%op ( ,f]n&o ,f 0 /ill f9 ! ,c>r]a de ,san ,j]nimo1 ,i once he>d ,blasco ,ibez say ) ! *eapness t is 8 di/+ui%+ trait1 laugh+ mean:ile o/5tati\sly1 t a republic 9 ,spa9 w\ld mean ! rule ( %oemak]s & ( ! scum ( ! /reets4 ,,! ,,conv5tionali/ ,,b>riov]o ,b>riov]o1 a conv5tionali/1 accord+ to ,gr&montagne--yes1 & h[ ke5 ! sc5t ( ?is ,am]ican = su* matt]s6--att5d$ ! op5+ ( a radical club 9 ! ,calle del ,prncipe ) a p>ty ( fri5ds4 ,we 7 all dr9k+ *ampagne4 ,l o!r revolutioni/s & p>v5us g5]ally1 ,l]r\x is a victim ( ! sup]/ition ( *ampagne4 ,aha1 suppose ^? work+m5 %\ld see u dr9k+ *ampagne6 sugge/$ "s "o4 ,:at ( x8 ask$ ano!r4 ,i only wi% = my "p1 ,b>riov]o int]rupt$ ) a %[ ( s5tim5t1 t ! work+man c\ld le>n to dr9k *ampagne4 ,le>n to dr9k x8 ,i bur/ out1 ,i see no difficulty ab\t t4 ,he c\ld dr9k *ampagne z well z any?+ else4 ,n at all1 said ,b>riov]o ! conv5tionali/1 v gravely4 ,he has ! sup]/ition ( ! peasant2 he ?9ks he mu/ leave en\gh w9e to cov] ! bottom ( ! glass4 ,i d\bt :e!r ?is obs]vation w attract ! att5tion ( any future ,plut>*1 al?\gh x might v well d s1 z x expresses mo/ ,i cle>ly ! di/9ction :i* exi/s 9 ! m9ds ( our revolutioni/s betwe5 ! work+man & ! "y g5tleman4 ,,an>*i/s ,i h _h a numb] ( acqua9tances among an>*i/s4 ,"s ( !m are dead2 ! majority ( ! o!rs h *ang$ _! ideas4 ,x is app>5t n[adays t ! an>*ism ( ,reclus & ,kropotk9 is out ( date1 & entirely a ?+ ( ! pa/4 ,! same t5d5cies w reappe> "u o!r =ms1 & pres5t new aspects4 ,among an>*i/s1 ,i h kn[n ,elyse ,reclus1 :om ,i met 9 ! editorial (fices ( a publication call$ ,l',humanit ,n\velle1 :i* 0 issu$ 9 ,p>is 9 ! ,rue des ,sa9ts-,pres4 ,i h also met ,seba/i5 ,faure dur+ a mass meet+ organiz$ 9 ! int]e/s ( "o ,gu]91 :o _h tak5 refuge 9 a h\se 9 ! ,rue de ,*abrol "s eighte5 or tw5ty ye>s ago4 ,i h _h relations ) ,malate/a & ,t>rida del ,m>mol4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 bo? ^! an>*i/s escort$ me "o aft]noon f ,isl+ton1 :]e ,malate/a liv$1 to ! door ( ! ,/4 ,james ,club1 "o ( ! mo/ ari/ocratic retreats 9 ,london1 :]e ,i _h an appo9tm5t to meet a diplomat4 ,z = active an>*i/s1 ,i h kn[n a numb]1 two or ?ree ( :om h be5 dynamit]s4 ,,! ,,morality ,,( ,,! ,,alt]nat+ ,,p>ty ,,sy/em ,! only diff]5ce betwe5 ! morality ( ! ,lib]al p>ty & t ( ! ,cons]vative p>ty is "o ( clo!s4 ,among ,cons]vatives ! mo/ primitive cl\t seems to be slightly m ample1 b n noticeably s4 ,! preoccupations ( bo? are purely ) matt]s ( /yle4 ,! only di/9ction is t ! ,cons]vatives make (f ) a great deal at once1 :ile ! ,lib]als take less1 b d x (t54 ,?is is 9 h>mony ) ! law ( me*anics accord+ to :i* :at is ga9$ 9 =ce is lo/ 9 velocity & :at is ga9$ 9 int5sity is lo/ 9 expansion4 ,aft] all1 no d\bt morality 9 politics %\ld be a negligible quantity4 ,hone/1 upright m5 :o he>k5 only to ! voice ( consci5ce1 nev] get on 9 politics1 nei!r are !y ev] practical1 nor good = any?+4 ,to succe$ 9 politics1 a c]ta9 facility is necess>y1 to :i* mu/ be add$ ambition & a ?ir/ = glory4 ,! la/ is ! mo/ innoc5t ( ! ?ree4 ,,on ,,obey+ ,,! ,,law ,x is safe1 x seems to me1 to assume ! foll[+ axioms3 ,fir/1 to obey ! law is 9 no s5se to atta9 ju/ice2 second1 x is n possible to obey ! law /rictly1 ?or\ghly1 9 any c\ntry 9 ! _w4 ,t obey+ ! law has no?+ to d ) ju/ice is indisputable1 & ?is is especially true 9 ! political sph]e1 9 :i* x is easy to po9t to a rebel1 su* z ,m>tnez ,campos1 :o has be5 elevat$ to ! plane ( a great man & :o has be5 immortaliz$ by a /atue ^u 8 dea?1 & !n to a rebel su* z ,sn*ez ,moya1 :o ,0 m]ely %ot4 ,! only diff]5ce betwe5 ! m5 0 9 ! results atta9$1 & 9 ! mann] ( _! exit4 ,h5ce ,i say t ,l]r\x 0 n only base1 b obtuse & absurdly want+ 9 human feel+ & revolution>y sympa?y1 :5 he concurr$ 9 ! execution ( ! /ok] ( ! ,numancia4 ,if law & ju/ice are id5tical & to comply ) ! law is inv>iably to d ju/ice1 !n :at c be ! di/9ction betwe5 ! progressive & ! cons]vative8 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! revolutioni/ has no alt]native b to hold t law & ju/ice are n ! same1 & s he is oblig$ to subscribe to ! b5evol5t "* ( all crimes :i* are altrui/ic & social 9 _! purposes1 :e!r !y are reaction>y or an>*i/ic 9 t5d5cy4 ,n[ ! second axiom1 :i* is to ! effect t !re is no city or c\ntry 9 ! _w 9 :i* x is possible to obey ! law ?or\ghly1 is also self-evid5t4 ,a c]ta9 class ( common crimes1 su* z robb]y1 *eat+ & sw9dl+1 murd] & ! l1 are foll[$ by a species ( automatic puni%m5t 9 all qu>t]s ( ! civiliz$ _w1 9 spite ( exceptions 9 specific cases1 :i* result f ! int]v5tion ( political bosses & simil> influ5ces2 b !re are o!r (f5ses :i* meet ) no su* automatic puni%m5t4 ,9 ^! p>don & p5alty are met$ out 9 a _s ( pure opportunism4 ,i 0 discuss+ ,zurdo ,oliv>es "o day ) ,emiliano ,iglesias 9 ! (fice ( ,el ,radical1 :5 ,i ask$ him3 ,h[ 0 x t ,zurdo ,oliv>es c\ld save himself aft] play+ su* an active role 9 ! tragic week at ,b>celona8 ,zurdo's salvation 0 indirectly ow+ to me1 repli$ ,iglesias4 ,b1 my de> sir6 ,yes1 inde$4 ,h[ did t happ58 ,v naturally4 ,!re 7 ?ree cases to be tri$2 "o 0 aga9/ ,f]r]1 "o aga9/ ,zurdo1 & ano!r aga9/ me4 ,a fri5d :o enjoy$ ! necess>y influ5ce1 succe$$ 9 qua%+ ! case aga9/ me1 z a matt] ( p]sonal fav\r1 & z x seem$ r b>efac$ to make an exception alone 9 my fav\r1 x 0 decid$ to include ,zurdo ,oliv>es1 :o1 ?anks to ! arrangem5t1 escap$ be+ %ot4 ,!n1 if an influ5tial fri5d ( y\rs _h n be5 a memb] ( ! ,m9i/ry1 y w\ld bo? h be5 %ot 9 ! moat at ,montjui*8 ,beyond "q4 ,& ?is took place 9 ! heyday ( ,cons]vative p[]4 ,,! ,,/]nness ,,( ,,! ,,law ,!re are m5 :o believe t ! ,/ate1 z at pres5t con/itut$1 is ! end & culm9ation ( all human ef=t4 ,accord+ to ?is view1 ! ,/ate is ! be/ possible /ate1 & its organization is consid]$ s p]fect t its laws1 discipl9e & =mulae are held to be sacr$ & immutable 9 m5's eyes4 ,maura & all cons]vatives mu/ be reckon$ 9 ?is gr\p1 & ,l]r\x too1 appe>s to belong ) !m1 z he holds discipl9e 9 su* exalt$ respect4 ,on ! o!r h&1 !re are p]sons :o believe t ! entire legal /ructure is only a tempor>y scaffold+1 & t :at is call$ ju/ice today may be ?\ght savag]y tomorr[1 s t x is ! "p ( wisdom n to look s mu* to ! rule ( ! pres5t z to ! illum9ation ( ! future4 ,s9ce x is impossible to effect 9 practice automatic en=cem5t ( ! law1 especially 9 ! sph]e ( political crimes1 because ( ! unlimit$ p[] ( p>don ve/$ 9 ! h&s ( our public m51 x w\ld seem judici\s to err ^u ! side ( m]cy r ?an ^u t ( sev]ity4 ,bett] fail ! law & p>don a repulsive1 bloody bea/ su* z ,*ato de ,cuqueta1 ?an %oot an addle-head$ un=tunate su* z ,clem5te ,g>ca1 or a dream] l ,sn*ez ,moya1 ^: h&s 7 innoc5t ( blood4 ,x 0 po9t$ out a long "t ago t laws are l cobwebs2 !y cat* ! little flies1 & let ! big ones pass ?r\gh4 ,h[ v sev]e1 h[ v det]m9$ our politicians are ) ! little flies1 b h[ extremely affable !y are ) ! big ones6 ,,xvii ,,milit>y ,,glory ,no1 ,i h n made up my m9d ^u ! issues ( ?is w>4 ,if x 7 possible to det]m9e :at is be/ = ,europe1 ,i %\ld ( c\rse desire x1 b ?is ,i d n "k1 & s ,i am unc]ta94 ,i am preoccupi$ by ! consequ5ces :i* may foll[ ! w> 9 ,spa94 ,"s believe t !re w be an increase ( milit>ism1 b ,i d\bt x4 ,_m suppose t ! cra% ( ! pres5t w> w cause ! pre/ige ( ! soldi] to m\nt upw>d l ! spray1 s t we %all h no?+ b uni=ms & clank+ ( spurs ?r\gh\t ! _w v %ortly1 :ile ! sole topics ( conv]sation w be mort>s1 batt]ies & guns4 ,9 my judgm5t ^? :o take ?is /&po9t are mi/ak54 ,! pres5t conflict w n e/abli% w> 9 high] fav\r4 ,p]haps its glories may n be dim9i%$ utt]ly4 ,x may be t man mu/ ( necessity kill1 burn1 & trample "u foot1 & t ^! excesses ( brutality are symptoms ( collective heal?4 ,ev5 if ?is be s1 we may be sure t milit>y glory is ^u ! eve ( an eclipse4 ,its decl9e began :5 ! pr(essional armies became no?+ m ?an arm$ militia1 & f ! mom5t t x became app>5t t a soldi] might be improvis$ f a c\ntryman ) m>vell\s rapidity4 ,,! ,,old-,,"t ,,soldi] ,=m]ly1 a soldi] 0 a man ( d>+ & adv5ture1 brave & audaci\s1 pref]r+ an irregul> life to ! n>r[+ re/ra9ts ( civil exi/5ce4 ,! old "t soldi] tru/$ 9 8 /> )\t scruple & )\t fe>1 & imag9$ t he c\ld dom9ate fate z ! gambl] fancies t he ma/]s ! laws ( *ance4 ,val\r1 recklessness1 toge!r ) a c]ta9 r\gh eloqu5ce1 a c]ta9 it* to comm&1 lay at ! f\ndation ( 8 life4 ,8 inducem5ts 7 pay1 booty1 %[y uni=ms & spl5did horses4 ,! soldi]'s life 0 fill$ ) adv5ture1 he conqu]$ weal?1 he conqu]$ wom51 & he roam$ ?r\gh unkn[n l&s4 ,until a few ye>s ago1 ! soldi] might h be5 summ$ up 9 ?ree words3 he 0 brave1 ignorant & adv5tur\s4 ,! w>rior ( ?is s*ool pass$ out ( ,europe ab\t ! middle ( ! #ai? ,c5tury4 ,he became ext9ct 9 ,spa9 at ! conclusion ( our ,second ,civil ,w>4 ,s9ce t day !re has be5 a fundam5tal *ange 9 ! life ( ! soldi]4 ,w> has tak5 on great] magnitude1 :ile ! soldi] has become m ref9$1 & x is n to be d5i$ t bo? w> & ! fight+ man are los+ _! traditional pre/ige4 ,,d[n ,,goes ,,pre/ige ,! causes ( ?is dim9ution ( pre/ige are v>i\s4 ,"s are moral1 su* z ! increas$ respect = human life1 & ! disfav\r ) :i* ! m aggressive1 cruel] qualities h come to be reg>d$4 ,o!rs1 h[ev]1 & p]haps ^! are ( m importance1 are purely e/hetic4 ,?r\gh a comb9ation ( circum/ances1 mod]n w>f>e1 al?\gh m tragic ?an 0 anci5t w>f>e1 & ev5 m deadly1 nev]!less has be5 depriv$ ( its spectacul> features4 ,capacity = e/hetic appreciation has its limits4 ,nobody is able to visualize a battle 9 :i* two million m5 are engag$2 x c only be imag9$ z a s]ies ( small] battles4 ,9 "o ( ^! mod]n battles1 sub/antially all ! traditional elem5ts :i* we h come to associate ) w>1 h disappe>$4 ,! horse1 :i* bulks s l>gely 9 ! picture ( a battle z x pres5ts itself to our m9ds1 sc>cely reta9s any importance at all2 = ! mo/ "p1 automobiles1 bicycles & motor cycles h tak5 its place4 ,^! contrivances may be useful1 b !y d n make ! same appeal to ! popul> imag9ation4 ,,sci5ce ,,& ,,! ,,picturesque ,^u tak+ ov] w>f>e1 sci5ce /ripp$ x ( its picturesqu5ess4 ,! comm&+ g5]al no long] cavorts ^u 8 *>g]1 nor smiles z ! bullets :i/le ab\t him1 :ile he /&s surr\nd$ by an ornam5tal g5]al /aff1 ^: brea/s are cov]$ ) ribbons & m$als repres5t+ e kn[n v>iety ( h>dw>e1 :e!r mon>*ical or republican4 ,today ! g5]al sits 9 a room1 surr\nd$ by telephones & telegraph app>atus4 ,if he smiles at all1 x is only be=e ! cam]a4 ,an (fic] sc>cely ev] uses a sword1 nor does he /rut ab\t adorn$ ) all 8 crosses & m$als1 nor does he we> ! respl5d5t uni=ms ( o!r days4 ,on ! contr>y1 8 uni=m is ugly & dirt col\r$1 & innoc5t ( devices4 ,?is (fic] is )\t initiative1 he is subord9at$ to a fix$ g5]al plan2 surprises on ei!r "o side or ! o!r1 are almo/ out ( ! "q4 ,! plan ( battle is rigid & detail$4 ,x p]mits nei!r orig9ality nor display ( individuality ^u ! "p ( ! g5]als1 ! less] (fic]s1 or ! private soldi]s4 ,! individual is swall[$ up by ! collective =ce4 ,out/&+ types d n occur2 nobody develops ! m>k$ p]sonality ( ! g5]als ( ! old s*ool4 ,besides ?is1 individual brav]y1 :5 n re9=c$ by o!r qualities1 is ( less & less consequ5ce4 ,! bold1 adv5tur\s y\? :o1 ye>s ago1 w\ld h be5 an embryo ,murat1 ,mess9a1 ,esp>t]o or ,prim1 w\ld be reject$ today to make room = a me*anic :o _h ! skill to op]ate a ma*9e1 or = an aviator or an eng9e] :o might be capable ( solv+ 9 a crisis a problem ( press+ dang]4 ,! pre/ige ( ! soldi]1 ev5 ^u ! battle field1 has fall5 today bel[ t ( ! man ( sci5ce4 ,,:at ,,we ,,ne$ ,,today ,!re are /ill "s p]sons ( a romantic turn ( m9d :o imag9e t none b ! soldi] :o def5ds 8 native l&1 ! prie/ :o appeases ! div9e wra? & at ! same "t inculcates ! moral law1 & ! poet :o celebrates ! glories ( ! community1 are wor?y to be lead]s ( ! p4 ,b ! man ( ! pres5t age does n desire any lead]s4 ,he has f\nd t :5 someone we>s r$ tr\s]s or a black cassock1 or is able to write %ort] l9es ?an himself1 x is no indication t he is any bett]1 nor any brav]1 nor any m moral1 nor capable ( deep] feel+ ?an he4 ,! man ( today w h no magicians1 no high prie/s & no my/]ies4 ,he is capable ( be+ 8 own prie/1 8 own soldi] :5 x is necess>y1 & ( fight+ = himself2 he requires no speciali/s 9 c\rage1 9 morals1 nor 9 ! realm ( s5tim5t & feel+4 ,:at we ne$ today are good m5 & wise m54 ,,our ,,armies ,prussian milit>ism has be5 expla9$ ^u ! !ory t x 0 a developm5t consequ5t ^u a realization ( ! b5efits :i* _h accru$ to ,prussia ?r\gh w>4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 h[ev]1 x is n possible to expla9 all milit>ism 9 ?is way4 ,c]ta9ly 9 ,spa9 nei!r w>s nor ! army h be5 ( ! slighte/ b5efit to ! c\ntry4 ,if we consid] ! epo* :i* goes by ! "n ( contempor>y hi/ory1 t is to say f ! ,fr5* ,revolution to ! pres5t "t1 we %all p]ceive imm$iately t we h n be5 ov] =tunate4 ,! ,fr5* ,republic decl>$ w> ^u u 9 #agic4 ,a campaign ( a/ut5ess1 a tactical w>f>e 0 wag$ by u ^u ! fronti]s1 ^u occasion n )\t success1 until f9ally ! ,fr5* army grew /rong en\gh to sweep u back1 & to cross ! ,ebro4 ,we took "p 9 ! battle ( ,trafalg> 9 #ahje4 ,spa9 pres5t$ a f9e appe>ance1 %e made a mighty ge/ure ) h] ,grav9as1 h] ,*urrucas & h] ,alavas1 b ! battle itself 0 a disa/]4 ,9 #ahjh ! ,w> ( ,indep5d5ce broke out1 provid+ ano!r spl5did exhibition ( popul> f]v\r4 ,9 ?is w>1 ! regul> ,army 0 ! =ce :i* accompli%$ lea/4 ,! w> took its "* f ! gu]rillas1 f ! dwell]s 9 ! t[ns4 ,! campaign 0 direct$ by ,engli%m54 ,! ,spani% army suff]$ m defeats ?an x won victories1 :ile its adm9i/rative & te*nical organization 0 deplorable4 ,! int]v5tion ( ,ang\lme foll[$ 9 #ahbc4 ,! ,army 0 compos$ ( lib]al (fic]s1 b x conta9$ no troops1 s t all !y ev] did 0 to retire be=e ! enemy1 z he 0 m num]\s & m p[]ful4 ,! ,spani% cause 9 ,am]ica 0 hopeless be=e ! fight+ began4 ,! l& 0 enorm\s1 troops 7 few1 & 9 l>ge measure compos$ ( ,indians4 ,:at ! ,engli% 7 nev] able to d 9 ! fulness ( _! p[]1 0 n to be accompli%$ by ,spani>ds 9 _! decad5ce4 ,our ,fir/ ,civil ,w>1 :i* 0 fi]ce1 t]rible1 & wag$ )\t qu>t]1 call$ into be+ a valor\s lib]al army1 & soldi]s sprang up ( ! calibre ( ,esp>t]o1 ,zurbano & ,n>vez1 b simultane\sly a p[]ful ,c>li/ army 0 organiz$ "u lead]s ( milit>y g5ius1 su* z ,zumalacrregui & ,cabr]a4 ,victory = ei!r side 0 impossible1 & ! w> end$ 9 compromise4 ,! ,second ,civil ,w> also result$ 9 a sy/em ( pacts & compromises f> m secret ?an ! ,conv5tion ( ,v]g>a4 ,! ,cuban w> & ! w> 9 ! ,philipp9es1 z aft]w>ds ! w> ) ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 7 calamit\s1 :ile ! pres5t campaign 9 ,morocco has n "o r$eem+ feature4 ,f ! ,w> ( ! ,fr5* ,revolution to ?is v day1 ! ,african ,w> has be5 ! only "o 9 :i* our =ces h met ) ! slighte/ success4 ,nev]!less1 our soldi]s aspire to a position ( dom9ance 9 ! c\ntry equal to t atta9$ by ! ,fr5* soldi]s subsequ5t to ,j5a1 & by ! ,g]mans aft] ,s$an4 ,a ,,^w ,,f ,,kuroki1 ,,! ,,japanese ,g5tlem51 said ,g5]al ,kuroki1 speak+ at a banquet t5d]$ to him 9 ,new ,york1 ,i _c aspire to ! applause ( ! _w1 because ,i h creat$ no?+1 ,i h inv5t$ no?+4 ,i am only a soldi]4 ,if ^! are n 8 id5tical words1 !y convey ! mean+ ( !m4 ,?is victori\s1 squ>e-head$ ,mongolian _h gott5 into 8 head :at ! doli*ocephalic ,g]man blond1 :o1 accord+ to ,g]man an?ropologi/s is ! highe/ product ( ,europe1 & ! bra*ycephalic brunette ( ,gaul & ! ,lat9 & ! ,slav h nev] be5 able to und]/&4 ,w !y ev] be able to und]/& x8 ,p]haps !y nev] w be able4 ,,epilogue ,:5 ,i sat d[n to beg9 ^! pages1 some:at at r&om1 my int5tion 0 to write an autobiography1 accompany+ x ) su* comm5ts z might sugge/ !mselves4 ,look+ cont9ually to ! "r & to ! left1 ,i h lo/ my way1 & ?is book is ! result4 ,i h n attempt$ to correct or embelli% x4 ,s _m books1 trimm$ up nicely & well-padd$1 g to _! graves e ye> to be =gott5 =ev]1 t x has h>dly seem$ wor? :ile to b$eck ?is "o4 ,i am n a believ] 9 maquillage = ! dead4 ,n[ "o ^w m z to ! subject ( ! book1 :i* is ,i4 ,if ,i 7 to live two hundr$ ye>s at ! v lea/1 ,i might be able to realize1 by degrees1 ! maximum programme :i* ,i h laid d[n = my life4 ,z x sc>cely seems possible t a man c\ld live to su* an age1 :i* is atta9$ only by p>rots1 ,i f9d myself ) no alt]native b to limit myself to a small portion ( ! introductory section ( my m9imum programme1 & ?is1 z a matt] ( fact1 ,i am cont5t to d4 ,) h>d%ip & ef=t1 & ! scanty means at my comm&1 ,i h succe$$ 9 acquir+ a h\se & g>d5 9 my own c\ntry1 a com=table retreat :i* is suffici5t = my ne$s4 ,i h ga!r$ a small libr>y 9 ! h\se1 :i* ,i hope w gr[ ) "t1 besides a few manuscripts & "s curi\s pr9ts4 ,i d n believe t ,i h ev] h>m$ any man delib]ately1 s my consci5ce does n tr\ble me4 ,if my ideas are fragm5t>y & ill-consid]$1 ,i h done my be/ to make !m s\nd1 cle>1 & complete1 s t x is n my fault if !y are n s4 ,i h become indep5d5t f9ancially4 ,i n only support myself1 b ,i am able to travel occasionally ^u ! proce$s ( my p54 ,a ,russian publi%+ h\se1 ano!r 9 ,g]many1 & ano!r 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates are br++ out my books1 pay+ me1 moreov]1 = ! "r ( translation2 & ,i am satisfi$4 ,i h fri5ds ( bo? sexes 9 ,madrid & 9 ! ,basque prov9ces1 :o seem already l old fri5ds1 because ,i h gr[n fond ( !m4 ,z ,i face old age1 ,i feel t ,i am walk+ ^u firm] gr\nd ?an ,i did 9 my y\?4 ,9 a %ort "t1 :at a few ye>s ago ! sociologi/s us$ to call involution--t is1 a turn+ 9--w beg9 to take place 9 my bra92 ! cranial sutures w become petrifi$1 & an automatic limitation ( ! m5tal horizon w soon come4 ,i %all accept involution1 petrification ( ! sutures & limitation ) good grace4 ,i h nev] rebell$ aga9/ logic1 nor aga9/ nature1 aga9/ ! lightn+ or ! ?und] /orm4 ,no soon] does "o ga9 ! cre/ ( ! hill ( life ?an at once he beg9s to desc5d rapidly4 ,we "k a great deal ! mom5t t we realize t nobody kn[s any?+4 ,i am a little melan*oly n[ & a little rheumatic2 x is "t to take salicylates & to g out & "w 9 ! g>d5--a "t = m$itation & = long /ories1 = wat*+ ! flames z !y fl>e upw>d "u ! *imney piece ^u ! he>?4 ,i comm5d myself to ! ev5t4 ,x is d>k outside1 b ! door ( my h\se /&s op54 ,:oev] w1 be he life or be he dea?1 let him come 94 ,,pal9ode ,,& ,,fre% ,,outbur/ ,,( ,,ire ,a few days ago ,i left ! h\se ) ! manuscript ( ?is book1 to :i* ,i h giv5 ! "n ( ,y\? & ,egolatry1 on my way to ! po/ (fice4 ,x 0 a romantic ,septemb] morn+1 swa!d 9 ?ick1 :ite mi/4 ,a blue haze ( ?9 smoke rose upw>d f ! %ad[y h\ses ( ! neighb\r+ settlem5t1 vani%+ 9 ! mi/4 ,mean:ile1 ! birds 7 s++1 & a rivulet close by murmur$ 9 ! /illness4 ,"u ! influ5ce ( ! homely1 placid c\ntry air1 ,i felt my _s s(t5 & gr[ m humble1 & ,i began to ?9k t ! manuscript :i* ,i c>ri$ 9 my h& 0 no?+ m ?an a f>rago ( fooli%ness & vulg>ity4 ,! voice ( prud5ce1 :i* 0 also t ( c[>dice1 caution$ me3 ,:at is ! good ( publi%+ ?is8 ,w x br+ y reputation8 ,c]ta9ly n4 ,h y any?+ to ga9 by x8 ,probably n ei!r4 ,!n1 :y irritate & (f5d ?is "o & t by say+ ?+s :i*1 aft] all1 are nobody's bus9ess8 ,to ! voice ( prud5ce1 h[ev]1 my habitual self repli$3 ,b :at y h writt5 is s9c]e1 is x n8 ,:at d y c>e1 !n1 :at !y ?9k ab\t x8 ,b ! voice ( prud5ce cont9u$3 ,h[ quiet ev]y?+ is ab\t y1 h[ peaceful6 ,?is is life1 aft] all1 & ! re/ is madness1 vanity & va9 endeav\r4 ,!re 0 a mom5t :5 ,i 0 ^u ! po9t ( toss+ my manuscript into ! air1 & ,i believe ,i %\ld h done s1 c\ld ,i h be5 sure t x w\ld h demat]ializ$ itself imm$iately l smoke2 or ,i w\ld h ?r[n x into ! riv]1 if ,i _h felt c]ta9 t ! curr5t w\ld h swept x out to sea4 99 99 99 99 99 ,?is aft]noon ,i w5t to ,san ,seba/ian to buy pap] & salicylate ( soda1 :i* is less agreeable4 ,a numb] ( public gu>ds 7 rid+ toge!r 9 ! c> on ! way ov]1 along ! fronti]4 ,!y 7 discuss+ bull fight]s1 ,el ,gallo & ,belmonte1 & also ! disord]s ( ! pa/ few days4 ,too bad t ,maura & ,la ,ci]va are n 9 p[]1 said "o ( !m1 :o 0 f ,murcia1 smil+ & exhibit+ 8 decay$ tee?4 ,!y w\ld h made %ort "w ( ?is4 ,!y are 9 res]ve = ! f9i%1 said ano!r1 )1 ! solemnity ( a pi\s scamp4 ,return+ f ,san ,seba/ian1 ,i happ5$ on a family f ,madrid 9 ! same c>4 ,! fa!r 0 weak1 jaundic$ & s\r-visag$2 ! "m 0 a fat brunette1 ) black eyes1 :o 0 load$ d[n ) jewels1 :ile h] face 0 made up until x 0 brilliant :ite1 9 col\r l a /e>9 c&le4 ,a r good look+ daught] ( betwe5 fifte5 & tw5ty 0 escort$ by a lieut5ant :o app>5tly 0 engag$ to h]4 ,f9ally1 !re 0 ano!r girl1 betwe5 twelve & f\rte51 flaccid & lively z a /ill-life on a d9n] table4 ,sudd5ly ! fa!r1 :o 0 read+ a newspap]1 exclaim$3 ,no?+ is go+ to be done1 ,i c see t2 !y are already apply+ to h ! revolutioni/s p>don$4 ,! ,gov]nm5t w d no?+4 ,i wi% !y w\ld kill e "o ( !m1 broke 9 ! girl :o 0 engag$ to ! lieut5ant4 ,?9k ( x6 ,fir+ on soldi]s6 ,!y are b&its4 ,yes1 & ) su* a k+ z we h6 exclaim$ ! fat lady1 ) ! p>aff9e hue1 9 a m\rnful tone4 ,x has ru9$ our summ]4 ,i wi% !y w\ld %oot e "o ( !m4 ,& !y are n ! only ones1 int]rupt$ ! fa!r4 ,! m5 :o are beh9d !m1 ! writ]s & lead]s1 hide !mselves1 & !n !y ?r[ ! fir/ /ones4 ,^u ent]+ ! h\se1 ,i f\nd t ! f9al pro(s ( my book _h j arriv$ f ! pr9t]1 & sat d[n to read !m4 ,! words ( t family f ,madrid /ill rang 9 my e>s3 ,i wi% !y w\ld kill e "o ( !m6 ,h[ev] "o may feel1 ,i ?\ght to myself1 x is impossible n to hate su* p4 ,su* p are natural enemies4 ,x is inevitable4 ,n[1 read+ ov] ! pro(s ( my book1 x seems to me t x is n /rid5t en\gh4 ,i c\ld wi% x 7 m viol5t1 m anti-middle class4 ,i no long] he> ! voice ( prud5ce s$uc+ me1 z x did a few days s9ce1 to a pal9ode 9 complicity ) a romantic morn+ ( :ite mi/4 ,! ze/ ( combat1 ( adv5ture /irs 9 me aga94 ,! %elt]$ h>b\r seems a poor refuge 9 my eyes1--tranquillity & security appe> contemptible4 ,"h1 boy1 up1 & ?r[ out ! sail6 ,run ! r$ flag ( revolution to ! ma/head ( our frail craft1 & =? to sea6 ,itzea1 ,septemb]1 #aiag4 ,,app5dices ,,spani% ,,politicians ,,on ,,b>oja',s ,,an>*i/s ,,note ,,spani% ,,politicians ,! ,spani% alt]nat+ p>ty sy/em has prevail$ z a national in/itution s9ce ! re/oration ( ! mon>*y "u ,alfonso ,,xii4 ,o/5sibly x is bas$ ^u manhood suffrage1 & 9 ! cities ?is is ! fact1 b 9 ! m remote di/ricts ! ballot+ plays b small "p 9 ! returns4 ,^u ! dissolution ( ! ,cortes & ! resignation ( a m9i/ry1 "o ( ! two great p>ties--! lib]al p>ty & ! cons]vative p>ty--automatically retires f p[]1 & ! o!r succe$s x1 always c>ry+ ! ensu+ elections by conv5i5t work+ majorities4 ,spa9 is a poor c\ntry4 ,dur+ ! half c5tury previ\s to ! re/oration ( ! ,b\rbons1 %e 0 a victim ( int]nec9e /rife & factional w>f>e4 ,%e is n poor naturally1 b h] en]gy has be5 drawn (f2 %e has be5 bl$ :ite1 & ne$s "t to recup]ate4 ,! ,spani>ds are a practical p4 ,!y realize ?is condition4 ,ev5 ! l[] classes are tir$ ( f9e talk+4 ,no p h he>d m1 & none h pr(it$ less by x4 ,! c\ntry is n l ,russia1 a f]tile field = ! agitator2 x looks coldly ^u re=m4 ,su* response z has be5 obta9$ by ! radical has come f ! lab\r c5tres "u ! /imulus ( =eign influ5ces1 & m p>ticul>ly f ,b>celona1 :]e ! problem is political ev5 be=e x is an individual "o4 ,= ?is reason ! ,spani% ,republicans are 9 l>ge "p !ori/s4 ,! l& has be5 di/urb$ suffici5tly4 ,!y w\ld hesitate to inaugurate radical re=ms1 if p[] 7 to be plac$ 9 _! h&s1 :ile ! possession ( p[] itself might prove n a little emb>rass+4 ,beh9d ! mon>*y lies ! republic ( #ahgc1 beh9d ,cnovas & ,ca/el>1 ,p y ,m>gall2 ! republic has m]g$ into & 01 9 a s5se1 ! f\ndation ( ! con/itutional sy/em ( today4 ,ev5 popul> lead]s su* z ,l]r\x are quick to recognize ?is fact1 & gov]n !mselves accord+ly4 ,! lack ( g5]al education today1 w\ld r5d] any attempt at ! e/abli%m5t ( a ?or\gh-go+ democracy insecure4 ,francisco ,f]r]1 al?\gh idealiz$ abroad1 has be5 no m ?an a symptom 9 ,spa94 ,su* m5 ev5 z ,angel ,guim]1 ! dramati/1 a ,catalan sep>ati/ :o has be5 "u surveillance = ye>s1 or ,p]e ,aldav]t1 :o has suff]$ imprisonm5t 9 ,b>celona because ( 8 op9ions1 :ile !y speak = ! prolet>iat1 nev]!less h _h scant sympa?y = ,f]r]'s ideas4 ,x w\ld be int]e/+ to "k j to :at ext5t ^! comm5d !mselves to ,pablo & ,emiliano ,iglesias & ! pr(ess$ political ,sociali/s4 ,( ! exi/+ p>ties1 ! ,lib]al1 be+ m or less an association ( gr\ps t5d+ to ! left1 is ! lea/ homog5e\s4 ,its mo/ prom95t lead] ( late ye>s has be5 ! ,conde de ,romanones1 :o may sc>cely be said to repres5t a new era4 ,he has %>$ responsibility ) ,edu>do ,dato4 ,among ,cons]vatives1 ! *ief figure has long be5 ,antonio ,maura4 ,he is n a "y man4 ,politically1 he repres5ts v mu* :at ! cordially dete/$ ,weyl] did 9 ! milit>y sph]e4 ,b ,maurism today is a v diff]5t ?+ f ! ,maurism ( fifte5 ye>s ago1 or ( ! moat ( ,montjui*4 ,! "n ( ,maura ca/s a spell ov] ! ,cons]vative imag9ation4 ,x is ! rally+ po9t ( innum]able associations ( "y m5 ( reaction>y1 ari/ocratic & cl]ical t5d5cies ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry1 :ile to progressives x symbolizes ! oppressiv5ess ( ! old rgime4 ,,on ,,b>oja',s ,,an>*i/s ,b>oja's memoirs af=d conv9c+ pro( ( 8 contact ) radicals ( all sorts & classes1 f /]eotyp$ republicans su* z ,b>riov]o1 or ! ,arg5t9e ,francisco ,gr&montagne1 correspond5t ( ,la ,pr5sa ( ,bu5os ,aires1 to active an>*i/s ( ! type ( ,mateo ,morral4 ,morral 0 an habitu ( a cafe 9 ! ,calle de ,alcal at ,madrid1 :]e ,b>oja 0 accu/om$ to g ) 8 fri5ds to take c(fee1 &1 9 ! ,spani% phrase1 to att5d 8 t]tulia4 ,morral w\ld li/5 to ^! conv]sations4 ,aft] 8 attempt to assass9ate ! ,k+ & ,que5 9 ! ,calle ,mayor on _! return f ! ,royal w$d+ c]emony1 ,b>oja w5t to view ,morral's body1 b 0 refus$ admittance4 ,a draw+ ( ,morral 0 made at ! "t1 h[ev]1 by ,ric>do ,b>oja4 ,9 ?is connection1 ,jos ,nak5s1 to :om ! au?or pays 8 complim5ts on an e>li] page1 0 subject$ to an unusual exp]i5ce4 ,nak5s1 :o 0 a suffici5tly mild g5tleman1 _h tak5 a ne$y radical into 8 h\se1 & _h giv5 him %elt]4 ,?is p]sonage made a po9t ( inveigh+ to ,nak5s cont9ually aga9/ ,cnovas del ,ca/illo1 propos+ to make way ) him4 ,:5 ! news ( ! assass9ation ( ,cnovas 0 cri$ ?r\gh ! city1 ,nak5s knew = ! fir/ t 8 visitor _h be5 9 e>ne/4 ,he 0 none o!r ?an ! murd]] ,angiolillo4 ,?is anecdote became curr5t 9 ,madrid4 ,ye>s aft]w>ds :5 ! prime m9i/] ,canalejas 0 %ot to dea?1 ! assass9 recall$ x to m9d1 & repair$ to ! h\se ( ,nak5s1 :o saw 9 dismay = ! second "t 8 radical !ories put to viol5t practical pro(4 ,! incid5t prov$ extremely emb>rass+4 ,! crime ( ,morral =ms ! basis ( ,b>oja's novel ,la ,dama ,errante4 ,he has also dealt ) an>*ism 9 ,aurora ,roja 7,r$ ,dawn74 ,! mut9y on ! %ip ,numancia1 ref]r$ to 9 ! text1 0 an incid5t ( ! same p]iod ( unre/1 :i* 0 met ) sev]e repressive measures4 ,,note ,! ,madrid ,at5eo is a le>n$ society ma9ta9+ a h\se on ! ,calle del ,prado1 9 :i* is in/all$ a private libr>y ( unusual excell5ce4 ,x has be5 = _m ye>s ! pr9cipal depository ( mod]n books 9 ,spa91 & a fav\rite resort ( s*ol>s & rese>*-work]s ( ! capital4 ,,! ,,works ,,( ,p,o ,,b>oja ,po ,b>oja1 recogniz$ by ! be/ critics z ! =emo/ liv+ ,spani% noveli/1 is )\t d\bt ! *ief expon5t ( t f]m5t ( political & social ?\ght 9 ,spa9 :i* _h its inception 9 ! cataclysm ( #ahih1 & :i* gave rise to ! new movem5t 9 ,spani% lit]ature4 ,( c\rse ?is mod]n movem5t 0 n actually born 9 #ahih4 ,x dates back z f> z ,galds1 :o is 9 _s a mod]n4 ,b x m>k$ ! turn+ po9t4 ,b5av5te ! dramati/1 ,azorn ! critic1 ,rubn ,d>o ! poet1 ,po ,b>oja ! noveli/1 all date f ?is p]iod1 belong+ to & ( ! new g5]ation1 &1 toge!r ) ! ,val5cian ,blasco ,ibez1 =m ! ,a ,b ,c ( mod]n ,spani% culture4 ,b>oja /&s = ! mod]n ,spani% m9d at its mo/ enlight5$1 says ,h4 ,l4 ,m5ck54 ,he is ! ,spani>d ( education & worldly wisdom1 deta*$ f ! m$iaeval imbecilities ( ! old regime & yet alo( f ! worse follies ( ! demagogues :o n[ rage 9 ! c\ntry 444 ! ,spani>d :o1 9 ! long run1 mu/ erect a new /ructure ( society ^u ! half ar*aic & half ,utopian *aos n[ reign+ 9 ! p59sul>4 ,po ,b>oja 0 born 9 #ahgb at ,san ,seba/ian1 ! mo/ fa%ionable summ] resort ( ,spa91 ! ,spani% ,summ] ,capital4 ,b>oja's fa!r 0 a not$ m9+ eng9e]1 & :ile )\t reputation z a man ( lett]s he 0 an occasional contributor to v>i\s p]iodicals & dailies4 ,he _h de/9$ 8 son = ! m$ical pr(ession1 & ,po /udi$ at ,val5cia & ,madrid1 :]e he receiv$ 8 degree4 ,he />t$ practice 9 ! small t[n ( ,ce/ona1 ! type ( t[n :i* figures l>gely 9 8 novels4 ,b ! "y doctor soon we>i$ ( 8 pr(ession1 & lay+ aside 8 /e?oscope =ev]1 he return$ to ,madrid1 :]e1 9 p>tn]%ip ) an old] bro!r1 he op5$ a bak]y4 ,h[ev] he 0 no m de/9$ to be a cook ?an a doctor1 s1 enc\rag$ by int]e/$ fri5ds1 he succe$$ 9 gett+ a few articles & /ories accept$ by v>i\s ,madrid pap]s4 ,x 0 n long be=e he won di/9ction z a j\rnali/1 & he pres5tly ab&on$ bak+ entirely1 devot+ all 8 en]gies to writ+4 ,8 fir/ novel1 ,cam9o de ,p]feccin1 publi%$ 9 #aijb1 0 receiv$ ) b little en?usiasm4 ,h[ev] he closely foll[$ x ) sev]al o!rs1 & ,spa9 soon realiz$ t %e _h a new writ] ( unusual m]it4 ,today he is pre-em95t among contempor>y ,spani% au?ors4 ,8 books h be5 translat$ into ,fr5*1 ,g]man1 ,italian & ,engli%4 ,alfr$ ,a4 ,knopf1 ,seor ,b>oja's au?oriz$ publi%] 9 ! ,engli%-speak+ c\ntries1 has publi%$ to date two ( ! novels3 ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,! ,,discreet4 ,translat$ by ,jacob ,s4 ,fassett1 ,jr4 #b4jj net4 ,ar\nd ,cordova1 ! fasc9at+ & romantic city ( ! discreet1 ,b>oja has spun an adv5tur\s tale4 ,he gives y a vivid picture ( ! city ) h] tortu\s /reets1 anci5t h\ses ) _! patios & til$ ro(s & ( h] discreet inhabitants4 ,9 a /yle t is poli%$ :]e ,ibez' is crudely vigor\s1 & ) sympa?y & und]/&+1 he portrays ,qu5t91 ! natural son ( a ,m>quis & a woman ( humble bir?2 ,pa*eco1 ! ambiti\s b&it *ief2 ,don ,gil ,sabadia1 ! g>rul\s & convivial antiqu>ian1 & a ho/ ( o!r *>act]s4 ,un=gettable pictures are spread 9 a ri* backgr\nd = ! action--,cordova at twilight1 ) its spires %[+ aga9/ ! violet sky1 ! n>r[ /reets ) :ite h\ses lean+ t[>d ea* o!r1 its squ>es ) /urdy begg>s squatt+ ar\nd & its g>d5s heavy ) ! sc5t ( orange blossoms1 :]e old f\nta9s quietly drip4-- ,indianapolis ,news4 ,?is f9e novel 444 %[s u ! be/ features ( ! mod]n ,spani% reali/ic s*ool4--,! ,bookman4 ,,caes> ,,or ,,no?+4 ,translat$ by ,l\is ,h[4 #b4jj net4 ,?is is ! /ory ( ,caes> ,moncada1 a brilliantly clev] "y ,spani>d1 :o sets out to re=m 8 c\ntry1 to mod]nize x & its gov]nm5t4 ,9 depict+ ,caes>'s prep>ation 9 ,rome1 :]e 8 uncle is a ,c>d9al1 = ! c>e] he has plann$ = himself1 ,seor ,b>oja et*es vividly & ent]ta9+ly a typical cosmopolitan society--witty1 worldly1 prosp]\s & cynical4 ,! second "p ( ! book describes ,caes>'s political fight 9 ,ca/ro ,duro4 ,n only ,spa9's greate/ noveli/1 b 8 greate/ book4 ,x is ! mo/ important translation t has come out ( ,spa9 9 our "t 9 ! field ( fiction & x w be rememb]$ z epo*al4--,,john ,,g>rett ,,und]hill1 ,repres5tative 9 ,am]ica ( ! ,society ( ,spani% ,au?ors ( ,madrid4 ,ranks ,b>oja z a ma/] ( fiction1 ) a ke5 s5se ( "*1 con/ructive p[] & an active1 dynamic /yle4--,philadelphia ,l$g]4 ,i read ,caes> or ,no?+ ) a pr(\nd admiration = its p[] & skill4 ,x is a great novel1 :i* y des]ve our ?anks = publi%+4--,,h>old ,j4 ,,laski1 ( ,h>v>d ,univ]sity4 ,a brilliant book--amaz+ly clev] & humor\s 9 its e>li] *apt]s1 gradually accumulat+ dep? z x moves along until x becomes ! /uff ( trag$y at ! close4 ,! "* he has creat$ 9 ,caes> ,moncada is "o ( ! few really notable portrayals 9 rec5t fiction4--,*icago ,po/4 ,translations ( ?ree o!r novels by ,b>oja are 9 prep>ation 9 ! compet5t h&s ( ,dr4 ,isaac ,goldb]g4 ,! fir/1 ,,la ,,dama ,,errante1 w be ready 9 ! ,fall ( #aibj4 ,probable price1 #b4jj4