,,p]sonal ,,recollections ,,by ,,*>lotte ,,elizabe?4 ,,abridg$1 ,,*iefly ,,9 ,,p>ts ,,p]ta9+ ,,to ,,political ,,& ,,o!r ,,controv]sies ,,preval5t ,,at ,,! ,,"t ,,9 ,,great ,,brita94 ,,cont5ts4 ,,lett] ,i4 ,,*ildhood4--,reasons--,design--,m>tyrs' prison--,palace g>d5--,sc5]y-- ,music--,/udy--,politics--,a bro!r--,prote/antism--,! ,bible--,judici\s plan ,,lett] ,,ii4 ,,y\?4--,private j\rnals--,romance--,! drama--,poetical ta/e--,loss ( he>+--,books--,a *ange--,rural life--,/ays--,tight-lac+--,ru9\s cu/om--,! c\ntry ,,lett] ,,iii4 ,,e>ly ,,days4--,idl+--,convictions--,anticipat + evil--,mis*iev\s errors --,unreal e/imates--,fake views--,a p>t+--,frat]nal love ,,lett] ,,iv4 ,,y\?4--,a gr&mo!r--,unfa%ionable ta/e--,a b]eavem5t--,*anges-- ,travels--,punctuality--,ocean sc5]y--,false confid5ce--,a /orm--,wond]s ( ! deep--,recklessness--,an ,arab /e$--,a fragm5t--,escapes-- ,h\sewif]y--,nova ,scotia--,indians--,cosmopolitanism--,ho me ,,lett] ,v4 ,,irel&4--,ox=d--,iri%m5--,! j\rney--,! arrival--,an escape--,dubl9 --,/4 ,john's eve--,! dance--,paganism--,trials--,levy+ di/ress-- ,convictions--,t]rors--,awak5$ consci5ce--,god's tea*+--,joy & peace ,,lett] ,,vi4 ,,religi\s ,,progress4--,! *ur*--,soc9ianism--,temptation--,metaphy sics-- ,a?anasian cre$--,an epo*--,my fir/ tract--,a new fri5d--,hail ,m>y-- ,*ri/ian communion ,,lett] ,,vii4 ,,kilk5ny4--,a new resid5ce--,ano!r sn>e--,compromise--,an apo/ate--,end ( controv]sy--,! sn>e brok5--,ano!r attack--,an argum5t-- ,discussion--,! result ,,lett] ,,viii4 ,! dumb boy4--,a pupil--,jack's comm5cem5t--,inquiry--,a dilemma--,dawn+ light--,season+s--,a sunbeam--,a s\l born--,a prote/]--,idolatry-- ,fai?fulness--,summons--,sup]/ition--,na tional "*--,confession-- ,inf]nal ma*9]y ,,lett] ,,ix4 ,engl&4--,! dumb boy--,jack's adv5ture--,dep>ture f ,irel&--,hannah ,m--,a c>nal politician--,trea*]y--,afflictions--,jac k's progress-- ,pray]--,m]cies--,a soldi]--,a home--,false judgm5t--,tranquillity ,,lett] ,x4 ,s&hur/4--,a proposal--,a sn>e--,an incid5t--,papal fulm9ation--,jack's petition--,happy caution--,p]sev]ance--,zeal--,te/imonies --,a contra/ ,,lett] ,,xi4 ,sep>ation4--,prejudices--,home--,=ebod+ s--,dang]--,try+ sc5es-- ,qu]ies--,awful contra/--,cadets--,retrospections--,a visitation--,sympa?y --,true feel+ ,,lett] ,,xii4 ,employm5t4--,sabba? meet+s--,boys--,an ev5t--,=giv5ess--,prejudices-- ,! ,iri% language--,/4 ,giles's--,a project--,! ,iri% *ur* ,,lett] ,,xiii4 ,a sunset4--,a t]m9ation--,a sunset--,resignation--,! r$ h&--,joy & peace--,true wisdom--,sympa?y--,e>ne/ness--,a dy+ prote/--,sleep+ 9 ,jesus ,,lett] ,,xiv4 ,a removal4--,an appeal--,iri% s*ools--,lit]>y labors--,ant9omianism-- ,conclusion ,,subsequ5t ,,life ,,& ,,dea? ,,( ,,! ,,au?or ,,p]sonal ,,recollections ,,lett] ,i4 ,,*ildhood4 ,i h giv5 my be/ consid]ation to ! argum5ts by :i* y support ! dem& = a few notices ( ev5ts connect$ ) my p]sonal recollections ( ! pa/4 ,t :i* has *iefly influ5c$ me is ! consid]ation1 urg$ on :at ,i "k to be j & reasonable gr\nds1 t :5 x has pleas$ ,god to br+ any "o be=e ! public 9 ! capacity ( an au?or1 t p]son becomes 9 "s s5se public prop]ty2 hav+ ab&on$ ! privacy f :i* no "o ought to be =c$1 b :i* any body may rel9qui%2 & c\rt$ ! obs]vation ( ! _w at l>ge4 ,su* individuals are talk$ ( dur+ life1 & aft] dea? become ! subject1 ,i may say ! prey1 ( t _s :i* reign$ 9 ,a!ns ( old1 & f :i* no *ild ( ,adam is :olly free--! desire to he> & to tell "s new ?+4 ,no soon] has ! p]son )drawn f ?is mortal /age1 ?an ! p5 ( biography is prep>$ to record1 & a ho/ ( curi\s expectants are m>%all$ to receive1 "s fragm5ts at lea/ ( private hi/ory4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld diss5t f y\r rem>k1 t ev5 godl9ess itself is too (t5 s\ght to be made a ga9 ( 9 su* cases4 ,writ]s :o are !mselves :olly un5light5$ by spiritual k1 & un9flu5c$ by spiritual feel+1 w take up z a good speculation :at mu/ to !m be a my/]y1 & wrong ! subject ( _! memorial :ile !y injure ! cause 9 :i* he labor$4 ,ev5 among ^? ( bett] und]/&+ 9 ! ways ( tru?1 we d n (t5 meet s\nd judgm5t1 calm discretion1 & ref9$ delicacy1 comb9$ ) affection = ! dep>t$ & zeal = ! gospel4 ,private j\rnals are s\ght out1 confid5tial lett]s rak$ toge!r1 & a mo/ unseemly exposure made alike ( ! dead & ! liv+4 ,?is ,i h always se5 & lam5t$2 & be+ aw>e t my turn w\ld probably come to be ?us exhibit$1 ,i h ab/a9$ f pres]v+ ev5 ! slighte/ memor&a ( ev5ts1 ?\ghts1 or feel+s1 t c\ld be laid hold on z a private j\rnal3 & ,i h mo/ di/9ctly intimat$ to all ^? fri5ds :o possess any lett]s ( m9e1 t ,i %all reg>d x z a gross brea* ( confid5ce1 a di%onorable1 base1 & m]c5>y proce$+ on _! "p1 if ev] !y p]mit a s5t5ce address$ by me to !m to pass into o!r h&s4 ,inde$1 to su* an ext5t h ,i felt ?is1 t = _m ye>s pa/ ,i h kept "s fri5ds "u a solemn pl$ge1 t imm$iately aft] my dea?1 !y w proclaim my hav+ s gu>d$ my correspond5ce1 9 ord]1 if possible1 to %ame ! individuals f a c\rse ) reg>d to me :i* ,i h nev] be5 inveigl$ into ) reg>d to o!rs4 ,look+ on epi/ol>y communications z a tru/ n to be betray$1 ,i h inv>iably refus$ to deliv] to ! biograph]s ( my dep>t$ fri5ds any lett]s ( !irs t ,i might possess3 ! fir/ application = !m has always be5 ! signal = committ+ ! :ole budget to ! flames4 ,?is y "k2 & y say t ! v precautions ,i h us$ w leave my memory m completely at ! m]cy ( ill-judg+ or ill- in=m$ survivors1 :o1 9 ! abs5ce ( m au!ntic in=mation1 may draw on _! own inv5tion1 & d me inju/ice4 ,?is is ! plea t has prevail$ ) me n[3 ! unc]ta9ty ( mortal life1 ) ! appreh5sion t if sudd5ly remov$ ,i %all become ! h]o9e ( "s /range romance1 f\nd$ probably on ! facts ( a life by no means defici5t 9 rem>kable incid5ts1 b mix$ up ) a great deal ( fiction2 & ! consci\sness t o!rs may be !reby w\nd$1 :om ,i w\ld n wi% to w\nd--h decid$ me to act ^u y\r sugge/ion1 & to draw out a little sket* ( su* matt]s z c alone conc]n ! public 9 any way4 ,into private dome/ic ,hi/ory no p]son possess$ ( a p>ticle ( delicacy c wi% to intrude4 ,x is melan*oly to witness ! pry+ _s t "s are b too ready to cat] to1 = fil?y lucre's sake3 & griev\s to reflect t ! boa/$ immunity :i* makes ! cottage ( ! ,engli% peasant1 no less ?an ! palace ( ! ,engli% noble1 a ca/le--:i* s f5ces 8 dome/ic he>? t no man may set foot )9 8 door )\t 8 cons5t1 or proclaim an untru? conc]n+ him )\t be+ legally compell$ to r5d] comp5sation1 %\ld be )drawn f 8 grave4 ,i _c tell y h[ ,i h blu%$ = ! liv+1 & k9dl$ ) res5tm5t on behalf ( ! dead1 :5 contemplat+ ! m]ciless desecration ( :at may truly be call$ ! sacr$ness ( home1 9 "s biographical notices4 ,y may !re=e expect to f9d 9 ^! %eets a record ( t m5tal & spiritual discipl9e by :i* x has pleas$ ! ,"l to prep>e me = ! v humble1 yet n v n>r[1 sph]e ( lit]>y usefulness 9 :i* x 0 8 good purpose to bid me move2 ) :atev] ( outw>d ?+s1 pass+ ev5ts1 & individual p]sonal adv5ture1 z x is call$1 may be ne$ful to illu/rate ! progress4 ,( liv+ contempor>ies ,i %all ( c\rse n speak3 ( ! dead no fur!r ?an z ,i w\ld myself be spok5 ( by !m1 _h ,i gone fir/4 ,public ev5ts ,i %all freely discuss1 & hold back no?+ t be>s on spiritual subjects4 ,nobody %all ev] ne$ to be at ! tr\ble ( po/hum\sly se>*+ out & proclaim+ my op9ions on any topic :atev]1 ap>t f p]sonalities4 ,i w n )hold1 nor disguise1 nor s(t5 !m d[n2 & if ! *>ge ( egotism be br\ght1 let ! accus]s lay _! h&s ^u _! he>ts1 & decl>e t !y w\ld n h sanction$ ano!r 9 p]=m+ = me1 z a defunct writ]1 ! (fice :i* nobody c fulfil half s well1 because nobody c d x half s correctly1 z myself4 ,to comm5ce ! task1 9 :i* ,i e>ne/ly implore ! ,fa!r ( all m]cies & ,tea*] ( all tru? to guide me1 to gu>d me f mis/atem5t1 to pres]ve me f self-seek+1 & to ov]rule x to ! glory ( 8 great "n1 ,i mu/ rem9d y t my bir?place 0 ,norwi*2 a f9e old t[n1 di/+ui%$ = its _m antiquities1 ! beauty ( its situation on a ris+ gr\nd1 int]sp]s$ ) a pr(usion ( ri* g>d5s1 & /udd$ ) *ur*es to ! numb] ( ?irty-five1 includ+ a maje/ic ca!dral4 ,_m ye>s h elaps$ s9ce ,i la/ beheld x1 & p]haps ! m>* ( mod]n improvem5t has s *ang$ its features1 t 7 ,i n[ to dwell ^u my recollections ( t *]i%$ home1 !y w\ld n be recogniz$4 ,b ,i _c =get ! e>ly impressions produc$ on my m9d by ! peculi>ities ( ! place2 nor mu/ !y be omitt$ "h4 ,! sph]e 9 :i* x is my de>e/ privilege to labor1 is ! cause ( ,prote/antism2 & sometimes :5 ,god has bless$ my poor ef=ts to ! deliv]ance ( "s captive out ( ! *a9s ( ,popi% delusion1 ,i h recall$ ! fact ( be+ born j opposite ! d>k old gateway ( t /rong build+ :]e ! noble m>tyrs ( ,m>y's day 7 imprison$4 ,i h recollect$ t ! h\se :]e9 ,i drew my fir/ brea? 0 visible ?r\gh ! grat$ w9d[ ( _! prison1 & a conspicu\s object :5 its gates unfold$ to deliv] !m to unju/ judgm5t & a cruel dea?4 ,are any ( ! pray]s ( ^? glorifi$ sa9ts fulfill$ 9 ! poor *ild :o 0 br\ght into ! _w on t p>ticul> spot1 ?\gh at ! di/ance ( "s ages8 ,! qu]y c\ld n be answ]$1 b ! ?\ght has frequ5tly *e]$ me on4 ,! /]n-look+ gateway op5+ on ,/4 ,m>t9's pla91 0 probably "o ( ! v fir/ objects trac$ on ! ret9a ( my infant eye1 :5 x rang$ beyond ! inn] walls ( ! nurs]y2 & (t51 ) tott]+ /ep1 ,i pass$ b5ea? t ar* into ! spl5did g>d5 ( our noble episcopal palace2 & c]ta9ly1 if my ,prote/antism may n be trac$ to t locality1 my ta/e may2 = f all ! elaborate display ( mod]n ar*itecture1 all ! pr(use luxuriance & endless v>iety ( mod]n horticulture1 ,i n[ turn away1 to fea/ 9 ?\ght on ! recollection ( t v5]able sc5e4 ,! palace itself is a f9e specim5 ( ! *a/e old ,engli% /yle2 b ! mo/ conspicu\s1 ! mo/ unfad+ feature1 0 ! ca!dral itself1 :i* =m$ ! b\nd>y ( "o-half ( ! g>d52 a mass ( sob] magnific5ce1 ris+ 9 calm repose aga9/ ! sky1 :i*1 to my awe-/ruck gaze & *ildi% imag9ation1 seem$ to re/ ^u its exquisitely =m$ spire4 ,seat$ on ! grass1 busy+ my f+]s ) ! daisies t 7 p]mitt$ to spr+ ar\nd1 ,i h be5 lo/ 9 su* imag9+s z ,i suppose n _m little *ildr5 indulge 91 :ile p]mitt+ my eyes to rove ov] ! seem+ly int]m9able mass ( old grey /one1 & !n to fall ^u ! pleasant fl[]s ar\nd me4 ,i lov$ sil5ce1 = no?+ t fell on ! e> seem$ 9 accordance ) :at s *>m$ ! eye2 & ?us a positive evil f\nd entrance 9 ! mid/ ( mu* enjoym5t4 ,i acquir$ t habit ( dreamy excursiv5ess into imag9>y sc5es1 & among unreal p]sonages1 :i* is alike inimical to rational pursuits & oppos$ to spiritual- m9d$ness4 ,to a p]iod s e>ly z ! middle ( my f\r? ye> ,i c rev]t ) ! mo/ p]fect1 mo/ vivid recollection ( my habitual ?\ghts & feel+s2 & at t age1 ,i c unhesitat+ly decl>e1 my m9d 0 deeply t9ctur$ ) a romance n d]iv$ f books1 nor f conv]sation1 b aris+1 z ,i v]ily believe1 out ( ! s+ul> adaptation to ea* o!r ( my natural ta/e & ! sc5]y amid/ :i* x began to develop itself4 ,our abode 0 *ang$ to ano!r "p ( ! city be=e ?is p]iod arriv$2 b ! bi%op's g>d5 0 /ill our haunt1 & my supreme delight4 ,an imm5se or*>d1 %rubb]y1 & fl[]-g>d5 7 atta*$ to my fa!r's new resid5ce1 to :i* he _h remov$ on acc\nt ( its proximity to ! *ur* ( :i* he 0 rector4 ,?is1 too1 0 an old- fa%ion$ h\se1 mantl$ ) a v9e1 & /raggl+ out1 9 irregul> build+s1 along ! slope ( ! g>d54 ,! c5tre ( an imm5se grass-plot1 /udd$ ) apple1 pe>1 & plum trees1 0 occupi$ by ! mo/ gigantic mulb]ry ,i ev] beheld1 ! ?ick trunk ( :i* resembl$ t ( a knott$ oak1 :ile 9 its =e/ ( d>k bran*es ne/l$ a numb] ( owls & hats4 ,oh1 h[ ,i lov$ to lurk b5ea? its %ad[ on a summ] ev5+1 & await ! twilight gloom1 t ! l>ge owl might come =? & :eel ar\nd ! tree1 & call out 8 companions ) a melan*oly hoot2 :ile ! small] bat1 dipp+ l[] 9 8 flight1 bru%$ by me1 accu/om$ to my pres5ce4 ,i _h ent]$ betimes ^u ! p]nici\s /udy ( nurs]y tales1 z !y !n 71 & )\t hav+ ! smalle/ actual belief 9 ! exi/5ce ( fairies1 gobl9s1 or any su* ?+s1 ,i took unutt]able delight 9 surr\nd+ myself ) ho/s ( !m1 deck$ out 9 colors ( my own supply+1 gorge\s or t]rible beyond ! conception ( my classic au?orities4 ,! faculty ( realiz+ :atev] ,i pictur$ to myself 0 a/oni%+ly great2 & y mu/ admit t ! localities 9 :i* ,i 0 plac$ 7 b too favorable to ! =mation ( a "* :i* ,i h no d\bt ! enemy 0 secretly con/ruct+ )9 me1 to mislead1 by wild1 unholy fiction1 su* z %\ld come )9 ! range ( its1 influ5ce4 ,to ,god be all ! glory t ,i am n n[ p&]+ ) ?is p5 to ! mo/ grovell+ or ! mo/ impi\s ( man's p]v]t$ feel+s4 ,b above all o!r ta/es1 all o!r crav+s1 "o passion reign$ supreme1 & t acme ( enjoym5t to me 0 music4 ,?is also 0 met by indulg5ce z unlimit$ z its crav+s2 = n only did my fa!r possess "o ( ! f9e/ voices 9 ! _w1 & ! v highe/ degree ( sci5tific k1 ta/e1 & skill 9 ! managem5t ( x1 b our h\se 0 seldom )\t an inmate 9 ! p]son ( 8 mo/ intimate fri5d & bro!r cl]gyman1 a son ( ! celebrat$ compos] ,mr4 ,l9ley1 :o 0 z highly gift$ 9 in/rum5tal z my fa!r 0 9 vocal music4 ,! ri* tones ( 8 old h>psi*ord seem at ?is mom5t to fill my e> & swell my he>t2 :ile my fa!r's deep1 cle>1 mell[ voice breaks 91 ) "s noble recitative or elaborate air ( ,h&el1 ,haydn1 & ! re/ ( a s*ool t may be sup]s$$1 b nev]1 nev] c be equall$ by mod]n compos]s4 ,or ! h>psi*ord 0 rel9qui%$ to ano!r h&1 & ! brea? ( our fri5d came =? ?r\gh ! re$ ( 8 hautboy 9 /ra9s ( su* ov]p[]+ melody1 t ,i h hid my face on my "m's lap to weep ! feel+s t absolutely wrung my little he>t ) excess ( enjoym5t4 ,?is 0 n a sn>e2 or1 if x might h be5 made "o1 ! ,"l broke x 9 "t1 by tak+ away my he>+4 ,i w\ld n t x _h be5 o!rwise1 = :ile a va9 imag9ation 0 fo/]$ by ! habit ,i h be=e adv]t$ to1 ?is ta/e = music & its high gratification mo/ c]ta9ly elevat$ ! m9d4 ,i d firmly believe t x is a gift f ,god to man1 to be priz$1 *]i%$1 cultivat$4 ,i believe t ! man ^: bosom yields no response to ! concord ( sweet s\nds1 falls %ort ( ! /&>d to :i* man %\ld aspire z an intellectual be+2 & ?\gh ,satan does fe>fully p]v]t ?is solace ( ! m9d to mo/ vile purposes1 /ill ,i he>tily agree ) ,m>t9 ,lu!r1 t1 9 ! ab/ract1 ! devil hates music4 ,be=e ,i _h complet$ my six? ye>1 ,i came "u ! rod ( discipl9e :i* 0 to fall s long & s p]sev]+ly ^u me ere ,i %\ld he> ! rod & :o _h appo9t$ x4 ,en?usia/ic 9 e ?+1 & already passionately fond ( read+1 ,i _h eag]ly accept$ ! (f] ( a de> uncle1 a "y physician1 to tea* me ,fr5*4 ,i lov$ him1 = he 0 g5tle & k9d1 & v fond ( me2 & x 0 a great happ9ess to trip ?r\gh ! long w9d+ /reet t sep>at$ u1 to turn d[n by ! old ,bridewell1 s celebrat$ z an ar*itectural curiosity1 be+ built ( d>k fl9t /ones1 exquisitely *isell$ into ! =m ( bricks1 & :i* ev5 !n ,i c\ld greatly admire1 & to take my seat on my "y uncle's knee1 9 ! l>ge hall ( 8 h\se1 :]e /ood a v l>ge & deep-ton$ organ1 "s sublime /ra9 f :i* 0 to rew>d my dilig5ce1 if ,i repeat$ accurately ! lesson he _h appo9t$4 ,?us betwe5 love = my uncle1 delight 9 8 organ1 & a natural incl9ation to acquire le>n+1 ,i 0 /imulat$ to extraord9>y ef=ts1 & met ! dem& on my en]gies 9 a v unsafe way4 ,i plac$ my ,fr5* book "u my pill[ e night1 & />t+ f repose at ! e>lie/ break ( dawn1 /ra9$ my sleepy eyes ov] ! page1 until1 v sudd5ly1 ,i became totally bl9d4 ,?is 0 a griev\s bl[ to my t5d] p>5ts3 ! eclipse 0 s complete t ,i c\ld n tell :e!r x 0 midnight or midnoon1 s f> z p]ception ( light 0 conc]n$1 & ! case seem$ hopeless4 ,x 01 h[ev]1 among ! all ?+s t ,god causes to "w toge!r = good1 :ile ,satan eag]ly seeks to use !m = evil4 ,x *eck$ my inord9ate desire = m]e acquirem5ts1 :i* ,i believe to be a bad t5d5cy1 p>ticul>ly 9 a female1 :ile x ?rew me m ^u my own res\rces1 su* z !y 71 & gave me a ke5 reli% = ! highly intellectual conv]sation t always prevail$ 9 our home4 ,my fa!r delight$ 9 ! society ( lit]>y m52 & he 0 himself ( a turn s argum5tative1 s ov]fl[+ ) ri* conv]sation1 s decid$ 9 8 political views1 s alive to pass+ ev5ts1 s devot$ly & s pr\dly ! ,engli%man1 t ) su* associates z he ga!r$ ab\t him at 8 own fireside1 ,i don't see h[ ! little bl9d girl1 ^: face 0 ev] turn$ up t[>ds ! unse5 speak]1 & ^: m9d op5$ to e pass+ rem>k1 c\ld avoid becom+ a ?9k]1 a reason]1 a tory1 & a patriot4 ,sometimes a t\gh disputant cross$ our ?re%old2 "o ( ^! 0 ,dr4 ,p>r1 & brilliant 7 ! fla%es result+ f su* occasional collision ) antagoni/s ( t calibre4 ,i am (t5 *>g$ ) ! (f5ce ( be+ too political 9 my writ+s3 ! fact is1 ,i write z ,i ?9k & feel2 & :at else c y expect f a *ild re>$ 9 su* a nurs]y8 ,b ano!r consequ5ce ( ?is tempor>y visitation 0 an increas$ passion = music4 ,! sev]e rem$ies us$ = my bl9dness frequ5tly laid me on ! s(a = days toge!r1 & !n my fond fa!r w\ld br+ home ) him1 aft] ! aft]noon s]vice ( ! ca!dral1 ( :i* he 0 also a canon1 a p>ty ( ! "y *ori/]s4 ,my godfa!r w\ld seat himself at ! h>psi*ord2 ! boys1 l$ by my fa!r1 p]=m$ ! vocal p>ts2 & su* fea/s ( sacr$ music 7 s]v$ up to me1 t ,i h brea!d to my bro!r 9 an ec/atic :isp] ! confession1 ,i don't want to see2 ,i l music bett] ?an see+4 ,t bro!r ,i h n be=e nam$2 b t only bro!r 0 a second self4 ,n t he resembl$ me 9 any respect1 = he 0 beautiful to a prodigy1 & ,i an ord9>y *ild2 he 0 :olly free f any pr$ilection = le>n+1 be+ mir?ful & volatile 9 ! highe/ degree2 & ?\gh he li/5$ :5 ,i read to him ! my/]i\s m>vels ( my favorite nurs]y books1 ,i d\bt :e!r he ev] be/[$ an aft]- ?\ght on any ?+ !re9 conta9$4 ,! brighte/1 ! sweete/1 ! mo/ sp>kl+ creature t ev] liv$1 he 0 all joy1 all love4 ,i d n rememb] to h se5 him = "o mom5t out ( temp] or out ( spirits = ! fir/ sixte5 ye>s ( 8 life2 & he 0 to me :at ! natural sun is to ! sy/em4 ,we 7 nev] sep>at$2 our /udies1 our plays1 our walks1 our plans1 our he>ts 7 always "o4 ,t holy b& :i* ! ,"l has wov51 t ine/imable bless+ ( frat]nal love & confid5ce1 0 nev] brok51 nev] loos5$ betwe5 u1 f ! cradle to 8 grave2 & ,god =bid t ,i %\ld say or ?9k t ! grave has brok5 x4 ,if ,i h n f ! outset includ$ t preci\s bro!r 9 my sket*1 x 0 because ,i %\ld almo/ z soon h deem$ x necess>y to include by "n my own head or my own he>t4 ,he too 0 musical1 & sang sweetly1 & ,i _c look back on my *ildhood )\t confess+ t its cup ran ov] ) ! pr(usion ( delights t my ,god p\r$ into x4 ,ab\t ?is "t1 :5 my sight1 aft] a few mon?s' privation1 0 fully re/or$1 ,i fir/ imbib$ ! /r5g? ( ,prote/antism z deeply z x c be imbib$ ap>t f spiritual und]/&+1 ,norwi* 0 infam\sly conspicu\s 9 p]secut+ unto dea? ! sa9ts ( ! ,mo/ ,high1 "u ! sangu9>y despotism ( popi% ,m>y2 & ! spot :]e !y suff]$1 call$ ! ,loll>d's pit1 lies j outside ! t[n1 ov] ,bi%op's bridge1 hav+ a circul> excavation aga9/ ! side ( ,m\%old-hill4 ,?is1 at lea/ to )9 a ye> or two ago1 0 kept di/9ct1 an op5+ by ! road-side4 ,my fa!r (t5 took u to walk 9 t direction1 & po9t$ out ! pit1 & told u t !re ,m>y burnt good p alive = refus+ to wor%ip wood5 images4 ,i 0 horror-/rick51 & ask$ _m que/ions1 to :i* he did n always reply s fully z ,i wi%$2 & "o day1 hav+ to g out :ile ,i 0 inquir+1 he said1 ,i don't ?9k y c read a ^w ( ?is book1 b y may look at ! pictures3 x is all ab\t ! m>tyrs4 ,s say+1 he plac$ on a *air ! old folio ( ,foxe's ,acts & ,monum5ts1 9 v5]able black-lett]1 & left me to exam9e x4 ,h\rs pass$ & /ill f\nd me b5d+ ov]1 or r lean+ aga9/ t magic book4 ,i c\ld n1 x is true1 deciph] ! black-lett]1 b ,i f\nd "s explanations 9 ,roman type1 & dev\r$ !m2 :ile e wood-cut 0 exam9$ ) a*+ eyes & a palpitat+ he>t4 ,assur$ly ,i took 9 m ( ! _s ( ,john ,foxe1 ev5 by t imp]fect mode ( acqua9tance1 ?an _m d by read+ 8 book ?r\gh2 & :5 my fa!r next f\nd me at :at became my d>l+ /udy1 ,i look$ up at him ) burn+ *eeks & ask$1 ,papa1 may ,i be a m>tyr8 ,:at d y mean1 *ild8 ,i mean1 papa1 may ,i be burn$ to dea? = my religion1 z ^! 78 ,i want to be a m>tyr4 ,he smil$1 & made me ?is answ]1 :i* ,i h nev] =gott53 ,:y1 ,*>lotte1 if ! gov]nm5t ev] gives p[] to ! ,papi/s aga91 z !y talk ( do+1 y may probably live to be a m>tyr4 ,i rememb] ! /]n pleasure t ?is reply af=d$ me2 ( spiritual k n ! lea/ glimm] _h ev] rea*$ me 9 any =m1 yet ,i knew ! ,bible mo/ intimately1 & lov$ x ) all my he>t z ! mo/ sacr$1 ! mo/ beautiful ( e>?ly ?+s4 ,already _h its sublimity caught my adoration2 & :5 li/5+ to ! l(ty language ( ,isaiah1 z read f 8 /all 9 ! ca!dral by my fa!r 9 ,adv5t1 & ! e>ly ,sundays ( ! ye>1 :ile 8 magnific5t voice s5t ! prophetic d5unciations peal+ ?r\gh ^? vault$ aisles1 ,i _h receiv$ into my m9d1 & ,i ?9k into my he>t1 t scorn ( idolatry :i* brea!s s ?rill+ly 9 8 inspir$ page4 ,?is ,i "k1 t at six ye>s old ! f\ndation ( a truly scriptural prote/ 0 laid 9 my "*2 & to ?is h\r x is my pray] t :5ev] ! ,"l calls me h5ce1 he may f9d 8 s]vant n only wat*+ b work+ aga9/ ! diabolical iniquity t fill$ ! ,loll>d's pit ) ! a%es ( 8 sa9ts4 ,& n[ ^u t all-important topic ! ,bible ,i w\ld rem>k1 t among ! mo/ invaluable bless+s ( my life ,i rememb] ! judici\s conduct ( my p>5ts 9 reg>d to x4 ,we g5]ally f9d t preci\s volume made a book ( tasks2 sometimes ev5 a book ( p5alties3 ! consequ5ce ( s do+ _c b be evil4 ,) u x 0 emphatically a rew>d book4 ,t id5tical book is n[ be=e me1 9 its ri* r$ cov]1 elegantly emblazon$ ) ! royal arms2 = x is ! v ,bible t 0 plac$ be=e que5 ,*>lotte at h] coronation 9 #agfa2 & :i*1 becom+ ! p]quisite ( a preb5d>y ( ,we/m9/]1 0 by 8 wife pres5t$ to my "m1 to :om %e /ood spons]4 ,?is royal ,bible 0 highly priz$2 & x 0 ) special favor t x 0 op5$ = u :5 we _h be5 good1 & 7 deem$ wor?y ( "s m>k ( approval4 ,my fa!r1 !n1 ^: voice made music ( e ?+1 w\ld read to u ! hi/ory ( ,abel1 ( ,noah1 ( ,moses1 ( ,gideon1 or "s o!r ( ! exquisite n>ratives ( ! ,old ,te/am5t4 ,i d n say t !y 7 made ! m$ium ( convey+ spiritual in/ruction2 !y 7 unaccompani$ by note or comm5t1 writt5 or oral1 & m]ely read z hi/ories1 ! fact be+ c>efully impress$ on our m9ds t ,god 0 ! au?or1 & t x w\ld be highly crim9al to d\bt ! tru? ( any ^w 9 t book4 99 99 99 ,! consequ5ces ( ?is e>ly in/ruction1 imp>t$ z an indulg5ce1 ,i h reason daily to rejoice 93 x l$ me to se>* = myself ! inspir$ pages2 x taught me to expect beauties1 & excell5ces1 & high intellectual gratification :]e ,god has inde$ caus$ !m to ab\nd4 ,z 9 ! natural _w we f9d ! nutriti\s fruit n ly+ l pebbles on ! gr\nd1 b hung on graceful trees & %rubs1 h]ald$ by fair & fragrant blossoms1 emb[]$ 9 v]dant foliage1 & itself beautifully %ap$ & t9t$2 s has ! ,"l arrang$ t ! g>d5 :]e gr[s ! fruit ( ! tree ( life1 %\ld ab\nd 9 all t is mo/ lovely to man's natural p]ception2 & d we n slight ?is b\nte\s c>e = our m9d's enjoym5t :ile he makes provision = our s\l's su/5ance1 :5 we neglect to po9t ^! ?+s out to ! notice ( our *ildr58 ,! ^w 0 my delight _m a ye> be=e x became my c\nsellor2 & :5 at la/ ! veil 0 )drawn f my he>t1 & ,jesus /ood reveal$ z ! ,alpha & ,omega ( t bless$ book1 x 0 n l gradually furni%+ a vacant place ) valuable goods1 b l lett+ a flood ( day into "o already mo/-ri*ly /or$ ) all t 0 preci\s2 ?\gh1 = lack ( light :]eby to disc]n _! real nature1 ! gems _h be5 reg>d$ b z common ?+s4 ,my memory 0 pl5tifully /or$ ) :at x _h be51 my free *oice to /udy2 & :5 9 ! progress ( ?is little n>rative y le>n h[ m]cifully ,i h be5 pres]v$ f doctr9al error 9 its v>i\s =ms1 ?r\gh t full acqua9tance ) ,god's ^w1 y w trace 8 m>vell\s work+s 9 ?us furni%+ my m9d1 z x 71 ) an armory ( ready weapons1 & w be ready to e*o ) increas$ e>ne/ness t emphatic decl>ation1 ,! ,bible1 ! ,bible alone1 is ! religion ( ,prote/ants2 & n only to e*o1 b also to act ^u x4 ,religion1 h[ev]1 did at ?is e>ly p]iod ( my life become a v important conc]n 9 my eyes2 our "m _h tak5 inf9ite pa9s to assure u ( "o great tru?--! omnisci5ce ( an omnipres5t ,god--& ?is ,i nev] c\ld = a mom5t %ake (f4 ,x influ5c$ u bo? 9 a p[]ful mann]1 s t if ei!r committ$ a fault1 we nev] re/$ until1 ?r\gh mutual exhortation on ! gr\nd t ,god c]ta9ly knew x1 & w\ld be angry if we add$ deceit to ano!r error1 we _h enc\rag$ ea* o!r to confession4 ,we !n w5t1 h& 9 h&1 to our "m1 & ! "o :o /ood cle> ( ! (f5ce ackn[l$g$ x 9 ! "n ( ! transgressor1 :ile bo? ask$ p>don4 ,nev] did *ildr5 m abhor a lie3 we spurn$ its meanness1 :ile trembl+ at its guilt2 & no?+ b\nd u m closely & exclusively toge!r ?an1 ! discov]ies we 7 always mak+ ( a laxity among o!r *ildr5 9 ?is respect4 ,on su* occasions we w\ld %r9k into a corn] by ourselves & :isp]1 ,d !y ?9k ,god does n he> t8 ,self-righte\sness1 no d\bt1 exi/$ 9 a high degree2 we 7 baby ,ph>isees1 rejoic+ 9 ! ext]nal cleanl9ess ( cup & platt]2 b ,i look back ) great ?ankfulness on ! m]cy t s f> re/ra9$ u3 an habitual reg>d to tru? has c>ri$ me safely ?r\gh _m a trial1 &1 z a means1 gu>d$ me f _m a sn>e4 ,x _c be too e>ly or too /rongly inculcat$2 nor %\ld any ef=t be consid]$ too great1 any difficulty too disc\rag+1 any reprobation too /rong1 or1 ,i w add1 any puni%m5t too sev]e1 :5 ! object 9 view is to ov]come ?is infam\s vice 9 a *ild4 ,once ,i rememb] hav+ be5 l$ into a lie at ! in/igation1 & ?r\gh ! contrivance ( a s]vant- girl1 = ^: b5efit x 0 told4 ,suspicion in/antly arose1 f my dreadful emb>rassm5t ( mann]2 a /rict inve/igation comm5c$2 ! girl told me to face x out1 = t nobody else knew ( x1 & %e w\ld n fl9*4 ,b my t]rors ( consci5ce 7 insupportable2 ,i c\ld ill be> my fa!r's /eady eye fix$ on m9e1 /ill less ! anxi\s1 wond]+1 incr$ul\s expression ( my bro!r's innoc5t face1 :o c\ld n = a mom5t fancy me guilty4 ,i confess$ at once2 & ) a heavy sigh my fa!r s5t to borr[ f a neighbor an in/rum5t ( *a/isem5t nev] be=e ne$$ 9 8 own h\se4 ,he took me to ano!r room1 & said1 ,*ild1 x w pa9 me m to puni% y ?us1 ?an any bl[s ,i c inflict w pa9 y2 b ,i mu/ d x2 y h told a lie--a dreadful s91 & a base1 mean1 c[>dly action4 ,if ,i let y gr[ up a li>1 y w reproa* me = x "o day2 if ,i n[ sp>$ ! rod1 ,i %\ld hate ! *ild4 ,i took ! puni%m5t 9 a mo/ extraord9>y _s3 ,i wi%$ e /roke _h be5 a /ab2 ,i wept because ! pa9 0 n great en\gh2 & ,i lov$ my fa!r at t mom5t bett] ?an ev5 ,i1 :o almo/ idoliz$ him1 _h ev] lov$ him be=e4 ,i ?ank$ him1 & ,i ?ank him /ill2 = ,i nev] transgress$ 9 t way aga94 ,! s]vant 0 call$1 receiv$ h] wages & a mo/ awful lecture1 & 0 dis*>g$ ! same h\r4 ,yet1 ( all ^! ?+s :at sunk deepe/ into my v s\l 7 ! sobs & cries ( my fond little bro!r1 & ! lam5table tones ( 8 s(t voice1 plead+ ?r\gh ! clos$ door1 ,o1 papa1 don't :ip ,*>lotte4 ,o =give poor ,*>lotte4 ,x is sweet to "k we h a ,bro!r inde$ :o always pleads1 & nev] pleads 9 va9 = ! (f5d+ *ild2 a ,fa!r ^: *a/isem5ts are n )held1 b adm9i/]$ 9 t5d] love2 judgm5t be+ 8 /range "w1 & m]cy t :]e9 he delights1 & ! peaceable fruits ( righte\sness ! end ( 8 corrections4 ,! ev5t to :i* ,i h ref]r$ may appe> too trivial a ?+ to record2 b x is by neglect+ trivial ?+s t we ru9 ourselves & our *ildr54 ,! usual mode ( tra9+ ^! immortal be+s1 ! plan ( leav+ !m to s]vants & to !mselves1 ! bl9d indulg5ce t passes by1 ) a slight reprim& only1 a wilful (f5ce1 & ! mis*iev\s misapplication ( doctr9e t induces "s to let nature d h] wor/1 because no?+ b grace c effectually suppress h] evil work+s2 all ^! are faulty 9 ! extreme1 & no less presumptu\s ?an fooli%3 ?is has produc$ t _s ( ! age :i*1 op]at+ 9 a pressure f )\t1 is daily =c+ u fur!r f ! good old pa?s 9 :i* we ought to walk1 & 9 :i* our =efa!rs did walk1 :5 !y gave bett] he$ ?an we d to ! inspir$ ^w1 :i* tells u1 ,fooli%ness is b\nd up 9 ! he>t ( a *ild2 b ! rod ( correction %all drive x f> f him4 ,affectionately y\rs1 ,c4 ,e4 ,,lett] ,,ii4 ,,y\?4 ,i h long be5 p]suad$ t !re is no su* ?+ z an hone/ private j\rnal1 ev5 :]e ! entries are punctually made "u pres5t impressions4 ,!re is s mu* ( positive1 active evil always at "w 9 ! m9d1 t to give a fair transcript ( idle unpr(itable ?\ghts & corrupt imag9+s1 is out ( ! "q3 evil is dealt ) 9 g5]als1 good 9 p>ticul>s1 & ! balance _c be fairly /ruck4 ,^? confessions ( indwell+ s9 t remorse w wr+ f u1 & :i* p]haps are p5n$ at ! mom5t 9 p]fect s9c]ity1 be+ unaccompani$ )1 ! specifications t w\ld inve/ !m 9 _! naturally hide\s colors1 b5ea? ! se>*+ light ( ,god's holy & spiritual law1 we> ! lovely g>b ( unfeign$ humility4 ,! read]1 com+ to su* self-condemnatory clauses1 is /ruck ) admiration at ! sa9tly writ]'s m>vell\s self-abasem5t1 only lam5t+ t he %\ld1 9 ! excess ( 8 l[ly-m9d$ness1 h writt5 su*1 bitt] ?+s aga9/ himself1 at a "t :5 he 0 griev+1 resi/+1 almo/ qu5*+ ! ,holy ,_s )9 by ob/9ate transgression4 ,& if ! pres5t1 h[ mu* m is ! pa/ liable to be gloss$ ov]8 ,to be fai?ful "h is next to impossible1 = ,satan helps u to deceive ourselves & in/ructs u to c>ry out ! deception to o!rs4 ,?is consid]ation might well cause ! p5 ( autobiography to drop f a ,*ri/ian's h&1 did n an e>ne/ desire to glorify ,god 9 8 m]ciful deal+s1 toge!r ) ! consci\sness t to no o!r c\ld ! task he safely delegat$1 act z a c\nt]poise to ! disc\ragem5t4 ,i d desire to magnify ! exce$+ ri*es ( ,god's grace to me1 if ,i may d s )\t increas+ ! *>ge ( arrogant assumption4 ,i "k t among ! div]sity ( gifts :i* he be/[s on 8 creatures1 he grant$ me a portion ( m5tal en]gy1 a quickness ( p]ception1 a livel9ess ( imag9ation1 an aptitude = express+ ! ?\ghts t 7 p]petually revolv+ 9 my m9d1 su* z to fit me = lit]>y occupation4 ,i "k t ,satan1 to :om su* in/rum5ts are exce$+ly valuable1 m>k$ me z "o :o w\ld1 if prop]ly tra9$ to x1 d 8 "w effectually )9 8 own sph]e2 & ,i am n m sure ( my pres5t exi/5ce ?an ,i am ( ! fact t he /rove to secure me = t purpose1 f ! fir/ exp&+ ( ^? faculties :i* evid5tly lie expos$ to 8 obs]vation & op5 to 8 attacks1 z f> z ,god p]mits him to "w4 ,c ,i feel all ?is1 & n bless ! ,"l1 :o s f> baffl$ ^! designs1 & deign$ to appo9t my field ( labor )9 ! sacr$ conf9es ( 8 own v9ey>d8 ,! visitation ( :i* ,i h spok5 _h a p[]ful influ5ce on my aft]-life2 x r5d]$ ! pres]vation ( my newly-re/or$ sight an object ( p>am\nt importance1 to :i* ! regul> r\t9e ( education mu/ ne$s be sacrific$4 ,a bo>d+-s*ool _h nev] be5 ?\ght ( = me4 ,my p>5ts lov$ _! *ildr5 too well to m$itate _! expulsion f ! pat]nal ro(2 & ! *ildr5 s well lov$ _! p>5ts & ea* o!r t su* a sep>ation w\ld h be5 insupportable to !m4 ,ma/]s we _h 9 ! necess>y bran*es ( education1 & we /udi$ toge!r s f> z ,i 0 p]mitt$ to /udy2 b be=e x 0 deem$ safe to ex]cise my eyes ) writ+ app>atus1 ,i _h /eal?ily possess$ myself ( a pat5t copy-book1 by means ( :i*1 trac+ ! *>act]s z !y %one ?r\gh ! pap]1 ,i 0 able to write ) tol]able fre$om be=e any "o knew t ,i c\ld jo9 two lett]s2 & ,i well rememb] my fa!r's surprise1 n unmix$ ) annoyance1 :5 he accid5tally took up a lett] :i* ,i _h be5 writ+ to a di/ant relation1 giv+ a circum/antial acc\nt ( "s dome/ic calamity :i* _h no exi/5ce b 9 my bra92 relat$ ) s mu* pa?os too1 t my te>s _h fall5 ov] ! slate :]eon ?is my fir/ lit]>y attempt 0 v neatly trac$4 ,he c\ld n =be> laugh+2 b end$ ) a grave %ake ( ! head1 & a rem>k to ! effect t ,i 0 mak+ m ha/e ?an good spe$4 ,at ?is "t1 sev5 ye>s ( age1 ,i became entangl$ 9 a net ( dang]\s fasc9ation4 ,"o ev5+ my bro!r 0 tak5 to ! !atre1 :ile ,i1 on acc\nt ( a cold1 _h to /ay at home4 ,to comp5sate = ?is1 ,i 0 p]mitt$ to read ! play to him2 & t play 01 ,! ,m]*ant ( ,v5ice4 ,i w n dwell ^u ! effect4 ,i _h already become fond ( su* !atrical spectacles z 7 consid]$ suitable = *ildr5--pantomime & broad f>ce--& l a *ild ,i gaz$ ^u ! glitt]1 & enjoy$ ! bu/le2 b n[1 seat$ 9 a corn]1 all quiet ab\t me1 & no?+ to int]f]e ) ! m5tal _w1 ,i drank a cup ( intoxication "u :i* my bra9 reel$ = _m a ye>4 ,! "* ( ,%ylock bur/ ^u me1 ev5 z ,%akspe>e _h conceiv$ x4 ,i revell$ 9 ! t]rible excitem5t t x gave rise to2 page aft] page 0 /]eotyp$ ^u a mo/ ret5tive memory )\t an ef=t1 & dur+ a sleepless night ,i fea/$ on ! p]nici\s sweets ?us ho>d$ 9 my bra94 ,p]nici\s inde$ !y 72 = f t h\r my dilig5ce 9 /udy1 my docility ( conduct1 e ?+ t is usually reg>d$ z praisewor?y 9 a *ild1 sprung f a new motive4 ,i want$ to e>n a rew>d1 & t 0 no long] a sweet /ory f ! ,bible1 b p]mission to c>ry into my retreat a volume ( ,%akspe>e4 ,a ta/e s unusual at my age 0 hail$ ) applause2 visitors que/ion$ me on ! diff]5t plays1 to asc]ta9 my intimate acqua9tance ) ! *>act]s2 b no "o1 n ev5 my fa!r1 c\ld p]suade me to recite a l9e1 or to li/5 :5 ano!r attempt$ x1 or to witness ! repres5tation ( any play ( ,%akspe>e4 ,?is ,i m5tion to prove :at a p[]ful hold ! enemy ( all godl9ess mu/ h expect$ to take on a _s s attun$ to romance4 ,reality became insipid1 almo/ hateful to me2 conv]sation1 except t ( ! lit]>y m5 to :om ,i h allud$1 a burd54 ,i imbib$ a ?or\gh contempt = wom51 *ildr51 & h\sehold affairs1 intr5*+ myself beh9d invisible b>ri]s t few1 v few1 c\ld pass4 ,oh h[ _m wa/$ h\rs1 h[ mu* ( unpr(itable labor1 :at wrong to my fell[-creatures1 :at robb]y ( ,god1 mu/ ,i ref] to ?is ensn>+ book4 ,my m9d became unn]v$1 my judgm5t p]v]t$1 my e/imate ( p & ?+s :olly falsifi$1 & my s\l wrapp$ 9 ! va9 solace ( unsub/antial enjoym5ts dur+ ye>s ( aft] sorr[1 :5 b = ?is ,i might h e>ly s\ght ! consolations ( ! gospel4 ,p>5ts "k n :at !y d1 :5 f vanity1 ?\ghtlessness1 or ov]9dulg5ce1 !y fo/] 9 a "y girl :at is call$ a poetical ta/e4 ,^? ?+s highly e/eem$ among m5 are held 9 abom9ation ) ,god2 !y ?ru/ him f 8 creatures' ?\ghts1 & en%r9e a ho/ ( pollut+ idols 9 8 place4 ,my fa!r1 ,i am sure1 wi%$ to *eck ! evil :i*1 z a s5sible man1 he c\ld n b =esee2 my /ate ( heal?1 h[ev]1 won a l>g] portion ( indulg5ce ?an 0 good = me4 ,! doctors into ^: h&s ,i _h fall51 7 ( ! s*ool n[ happily v mu* explod$3 !y _h "o panacea = almo/ e ill1 & t 0 ! p]il\s drug m]cury4 ,) x1 !y r f$ ?an physick$ me2 & its delet]i\s effects on ! n]v\s sy/em 7 d\bly injuri\s to me1 z increas+ t5fold ! excitability t requir$ e curb4 ,among all ! m>vels ( my life1 ! greate/ is t ( my hav+ gr[n up to be "o ( ! heal?ie/ ( human be+s1 & ) an inexhau/ible fl[ ( ev5 mir?ful spirits2 = c]ta9ly ,i 0 long kept hov]+ on ! v]ge ( ! grave by ! b>b>\s excess to :i* m$ical exp]im5ts 7 c>ri$2 & ,i nev] ent]ta9$ a d\bt t ! total loss ( my he>+ be=e ,i 0 t5 ye>s old1 0 ow+ to a p>alysis induc$ by su* sev]e treatm5t4 ,god1 h[ev]1 _h 8 own purposes to "w out1 :i* nei!r ,satan nor man c\ld h9d]4 ,he ov]rul$ all = ! fur!rance ( 8 own graci\s designs4 ,%ut out by ?is la/ disp5sation f my two delightful res\rces1 music & conv]sation1 ,i took refuge 9 books ) t5fold avidity4 ,by ?is "t ,i _h add$ ! ,briti% poets g5]ally to my orig9al /ock1 toge!r ) su* read+ z is usually prescrib$ = "y ladies2 & ,i und]w5t ! infliction ( read+ al\d to my "m ! sev5 mortal volumes ( ,sir ,*>les ,gr&ison4 ,x 0 9 ! fulfilm5t ( ?is awful task t ,i acquir$ a habit p>ticul>ly mis*iev\s & ensn>+--t ( read+ me*anically1 ) a total ab/raction ( m9d f :at ,i 0 ab\t4 ,?is became ! easi] to me f ! abs5ce ( all ext]nal s\nd2 & its consequ5ces are exce$+ly di/ress+ to ?is day1 z exp]i5c$ 9 a long-indulg$1 & aft]w>ds mo/ bitt]ly lam5t$ w&]+ ( ! m9d 9 pray] & 9 read+ ! ,scriptures4 ,9 fact1 ?r\gh ! preval5ce ( ?is habit1 my devotions1 always v punctually p]=m$1 became su* an utt] lip-s]vice1 z frequ5tly to />tle & t]rify my consci5ce1 :5 ,i f\nd myself say+ pray]s & ?9k+ idle songs or scraps ( plays2 b ,i reg>d$ su* transi5t pangs ( remorse z a satisfaction = ! s91 & nev] dream$ ( resi/+ ! g5]al habit4 ,?us f> ,i _h l$ a t[n life1 resid+ 9 ! he>t ( a popul\s city1 enjoy+ inde$ t noble g>d51 b daily m & m absorb$ 9 books ( fancy4 ,happily1 my heal? became s affect$ t a removal into ! c\ntry 0 judg$ necess>y1 & ,i =gave ! doctors all _! pa/ p]secution ( me1 9 consid]ation ( _! p>t+ injunctions1 :i* 71 t ,i 0 to h unb\nd$ lib]ty2 to live entirely 9 ! op5 air1 save :5 ! wea!r =bade2 to be amus$ ) all rural occupations2 & especially to frequ5t f>m-y>ds1 = ! purpose ( inhal+ ! brea? ( c[s4 ,my fa!r ex*ang$ p>o*ial duty ) a fri5d1 tak+ 8 village congregation1 & engag+ a h\se v ne> ! *ur*4 ,t tall :ite h\se1 :at a place x holds 9 my fond recollection4 ,x 0 p]fectly an old p>sonage1 & beh9d x lay a g>d5 l>g] ?an our city or*>d1 slop+ g5tly d[n1 ) a pr(usion ( fruit & fl[]s1 b\nd$ by high walls1 & ! c5tral walk t]m9at+ 9 a door1 beyond :i* lay ! sc5e ( our greate/ enjoym5t4 ,a n>r[ slip ( grass1 fr+$ ) osi]s & ald]s & will[s1 alone sep>at$ ! wall f a v cle>1 lovely /ream1 :i* w9d+ half r\nd an ext5sive common1 turn$ a mill4 ,?is small riv] ab\nd$ ) fi%1 & we soon became exp]t angl]s2 besides :i*1 on creep+ to "s di/ance by a pa? ( our own discov]y1 we c\ld cross ! /ream on a movable plank1 & take a wide range ?r\gh1 ! c\ntry4 ,?is removal 0 a d\ble res\rce3 x invigorat$ my bodily frame1 until ,i outgrew & out-bloom$ e girl ( my age 9 ! neighborhood1 :ile really lay+ a f\ndation = _m ye>s ( un9t]rupt$ heal?1 & a con/itution to defy ! *ange ( climate = :i* ,i 0 de/9$2 :ile x won me f ! sick5+1 en]vat+ habit ( s$5t>y enjoym5t ov] ! pages ( a book1 :i*1 add$ to ! necess>y /udies & occupations1 0 relax+ alike ! tone ( ! bodily & m5tal frame4 ,f ! pollut$ works ( man1 ,i 0 drawn to ! glori\s works ( ,god2 & nev] did bird ( ! air or bea/ ( ! field m luxuriate 9 ! pure bright elem5ts ( nature ?an ,i did4 ,all ! poetical visions ( lib]ty t _h float$ 9 my bra9 seem$ n[ realiz$2 all pa/oral descriptions fad$ be=e ! actual enjoym5t ( rural life4 ,sometimes wrea?+ g>l&s (1 wild fl[]s1 recl9$ on a sunny bank1 :ile a flock ( %eep /roll$ ar\nd1 & ! bold little lambs came to peep 9 our faces1 & !n gallop away 9 pret5d$ al>m2 sometimes te>+ our clo!s to tatt]s 9 an ard5t hunt = ! sweet filb]ts t hung high above our heads1 on trees well =tifi$ beh9d brea/works ( bramble & ?orn2 sometimes cultivat+ ! fri5d%ip :ile we quaff$ ! milk ( ! good-natur$ c[s "u ! dairymaid's op]ation3 all 0 fre$om1 mir?1 & peace4 ,(t5 w\ld my fa!r take 8 noble po9t]s prep>atory to ! %oot+ season1 at once to try _! p[]s & to asc]ta9 :at promise ( future sport ! fields pres5t$4 ,^! 7 de/ructive exp$itions 9 "o s5se4 ,i rememb] ! foll[+ dialogue1 repeat$ to me by my bro!r1 :5 we made our appe>ance at home aft] a day's demolition ( we>+ app>el4 ,mr4 ,b4 ?is w nev] d2 t girl _c we> a frock twice )\t soil+ x2 nor keep x :ole = a week3 ! exp5se w ru9 u4 ,well1 my de>1 if ,i am to be ru9$ by exp5se1 let x come 9 ! %ape ( ! wa%]woman's & l95-drap]'s bills1 n 9 ^? ( ! apo!c>y & und]tak]4 ,my de> fa!r 0 "r2 & x w\ld be a happy ?+ = girls 9 g5]al1 if some:at ( appe>ance1 & ( acquirem5t too1 0 sacrific$ to :at ,god has s lib]ally provid$1 & to ! enjoym5t ( :i* a bless+ is und\bt$ly annex$4 ,:]e1 among females1 d we f9d ! /am9a ( con/itution & ! ela/icity ( _s :i* exi/ 9 ^? ( our rural population :o foll[ outdoor employm5t8 ,x positively pa9s me to see a p>ty ( girls1 a bonnet$ & tippet$ d\ble-file ( humanity1 ,t l a w\nd$ snake drags its sl[ l5g? along1 "u ! ke5 surveillance ( a gov]ness1 ^: n]ves w\ld nev] be able to endure ! %ock ( see+ !m b\nd ov] a /ream & scramble ?r\gh a f5ce1 or ev5 toss _! heads & ?r[ out _! limbs z all "y animals1 except t oppress$ class call$ "y ladies1 are privileg$ to d4 ,hav+ v5tur$1 9 a fit ( my c\ntry d>+1 to break ! ice ( ?is v rigid & frigid subject1 ,i w rec\nt ano!r in/ance ( ! pat]nal good s5se to :i* ,i owe1 "u ,god1 ! physical p[]s )\t :i* my little tal5t might h be5 laid by 9 a napk9 all my days4 ,"o morn+1 :5 8 daught] 0 ab\t eight ye>s old1 my fa!r came 91 & f\nd sundry prep>ations go+ on1 ! *ief mat]ials = :i* 7 buckram1 :alebone1 & o!r /iff articles1 :ile ! "y lady 0 "u measurem5t by ! h&s ( a female fri5d4 ,pray1 :at are y go+ to d to ! *ild8 ,go+ to fit h] ) a pair ( /ays4 ,= :at purpose8 ,to improve h] figure2 no "y lady c gr[ up prop]ly )\t !m4 ,i beg y\r p>don2 "y g5tlem5 gr[ up v well )\t !m1 & s may "y ladies4 ,o1 y are mi/ak54 ,see :at a /oop %e has already2 dep5d on x ?is girl w be bo? a dw>f & a cripple if we don't put h] into /ays4 ,my *ild may be a cripple1 ma'am1 if su* is ,god's w2 b %e %all be "o ( 8 mak+1 n ours4 ,all remon/rance 0 va92 /ays & e species ( tight dress 7 /rictly prohibit$ by ! au?ority ( "o ^: w 01 z e man's ought to be1 absolute 9 8 own h\sehold4 ,he also c>efully wat*$ aga9/ any evasion ( ! rule3 a ribbon drawn tightly r\nd my wai/ w\ld h be5 cut )\t hesitation by 8 det]m9$ h&2 :ile ! little girl ( ! anxi\s fri5d ^: op]ations he _h int]rupt$1 enjoy$ all ! advantages ( t sy/em f :i* ,i 0 pres]v$4 ,%e grew up a w&like figure1 graceful & int]e/+1 & di$ ( decl9e at n9ete52 :ile ,i1 ?\gh n able to comp>e %apes ) a wasp or an h\r-glass1 yet pass$ mu/] v fairly among m]e human =ms ( ,god's m\ld+2 & ,i h enjoy$ to ?is h\r a r>e exemption f heada*es1 & o!r ladylike maladies1 t appe> ! almo/ exclusive privilege ( wom5 9 ! high] classes4 ,?is is no trivial matt]1 believe me2 x has frequ5tly be5 ! subject ( conv]sation ) pr(essional m5 ( high atta9m5t1 & ,i nev] met ) "o among !m :o did n1 on he>+ t ,i nev] b once1 & !n only = a few h\rs1 submitt$ to ! re/ra9t ( ^! unnatural ma*9es1 ref] to t exemption1 z a means1 ! free respiration1 circulation1 & p[]s bo? ( ex]tion & endurance ) :i* ! ,"l has mo/ m]cifully gift$ me4 ,!re c be no d\bt t ! h& :i* fir/ encloses ! wai/ ( a girl 9 ^! cruel contrivances1 supply+ h] ) a fictiti\s support1 :]e ! h& ( ,god has plac$ bones & muscles t ought to be br\ght into vigor\s action1 t h& lays ! f\ndation ( bitt] suff]+s2 at ! price ( :i*1 & probably ( a premature dea?1 ! advantage mu/ be pur*as$ ( r5d]+ h] figure z unlike z possible to all ! models ( female beauty1 univ]sally admitt$ to be su*1 because !y are *isell$ aft] nature itself4 ,i h se5 pictures1 & ,i h read h>r[+ descriptions1 ( ! murd]\s consequ5ces ( ?us fly+ 9 ! face ( ! ,creator's skill1 & presum+ to m5d1 to improve1 8 p]fect "w2 b my own exp]i5ce is wor? a ?\s& treatises & t5 ?\s& illu/rations1 9 br++ conviction to my m9d4 ,once1 :5 introduc$1 z x is call$1 to ! public1 ?r\gh ! m$ium ( a ballroom1 ,i did jo9 9 p]suad+ my fa!r to all[ ( a fa%ionable lac+-up1 ?\gh by no means a tight "o4 ,i felt mu* z1 ,i suppose1 a frolicksome "y colt feels :5 fir/ subject$ to ! goad+ app>atus t fett]s 8 wild fre$om4 ,i danc$1 b x 0 ) a heavy he>t & labor+ brea?2 ,i talk$1 "u ! influ5ce ( a /upefy+ heada*e1 & on my return home flew to my ap>tm5t & cut ! goodly fabric 9 pieces2 nor 0 ,i ev] aft]w>ds tempt$ s to tempt my all-wise ,mak] by say+ to ! frame t he _h fa%ion$ & suppli$ ) means ( heal?ful gr[?1 ,hi!rto %alt ?\ g & no fur!r4 ,compressure ( ! feet 0 ) equal /rictness =bidd5 by my judici\s fa!r4 ,?is va9 cu/om is p]haps n s fatal z ! o!r1 b x produces _m evils4 ,coldness ( ! extremities may c]ta9ly exi/ :]e no?+ ( ! k9d has be5 practis$2 b :ile rejoic+ t ,i1 exp]im5tally1 "k no?+ ( x1 ,i _c help recollect+ t ! b\nd+ pulse :i* plays s joy\sly ?r\gh my ve9s 0 nev] imp$$ 9 any "p2 & feel+ ?is1 ,i w\ld no m expose a girl to "o infliction ?an ,i w\ld to ! o!r4 ,d ,*ri/ian mo!rs take a suffici5tly s]i\s & pray]ful view ( ?is subject1 z reg>ds _! *ildr58 ,d !y weigh1 9 a balance ( ,god's provid+1 ?is necess>y provision ( clo?+1 to sep>ate n only :at is unseemly = ! woman pr(ess+ godly simplicity1 b :at is en]vat+ to ^? physical p[]s :i* %e is b\nd to devote to ! ,"l1 & ! weak5+ ( :i* is actual robb]y ( him8 ,i fe> we females are m ready to ask c\nsel "o ( ano!r 9 ?is matt] ?an ( ! ,"l2 or ev5 ( our husb&s1 :o1 9 n9e cases out ( t51 no d\bt w\ld decide aga9/ ! fooli% & p]nici\s cu/om4 ,at lea/1 9 all my argum5ts ) my own sex1 ,i h f\nd ! m5 inv>iably sid+ ) me ^u ?is topic4 ,y w be tir$ ( ^! digressions1 my de> fri5d1 b ,i set out by =ew>n+ y t my op9ions w\ld be freely /at$2 & :ile t\*+ on a p]iod ( mortal life1 :]e ! body no less ?an ! m9d usually takes its direction = ! re/ ( our pilgrimage1 ,i _c pass by any ?+ t appe>s to me ( real importance to ei!r4 ,we w n[ return to :at poets h sung & citiz5s sigh$ =1 "t out ( m9d--! delights ( rural life4 ,all cramp+ is decid$ly bad3 :olesome re/ra9ts !re are1 :i* p>5ts are b\nd to lay ^u _! *ildr51 & ! latt] to submit to2 & among o!r ?+s1 ,i am sure a def9$ me?od & regul> habits 9 education1 "w1 & play1 toge!r1 ) a mo/ /rict att5tion to scrupul\s punctuality1 are n only valuable b indisp5sable to a "r gov]nm5t ( ! m9d & conduct 9 aft]- life4 ,i h daily cause to lam5t ! unavoidable neglect ( su* a sy/em 9 my own case1 dur+ ?ree important ye>s2 b unavoidable x 01 unless my life _h be5 sacrific$ to ! ma9t5ance ( su* ord]4 ,accord+ly1 m9e 0 ! life ( a butt]fly2 & :atev] ( ! busy bee has s9ce appe>$ 9 my proce$+s mu/ be ascrib$ to div9e grace alone4 ,i (t5 recall ^? days ( summ] sun%9e to :i* ,i h allud$2 & ! sc>cely less joy\s w9t] season1 :51 pl\gh+ ! light sn[1 we rac$ ) our insep>able companion1 ! favorite po9t]1 or built up a brittle giant = ! glory ( demoli%+ him ) balls ( 8 own sub/ance1 or direct$ ! s(t missiles aga9/ ea* o!r4 ,accompani$ by our fa!r1 b nev] alone1 we made excursions ^u our froz5 /ream2 & v sweet x 0 to ! fond he>ts ( my t5d] p>5ts to wat* ! mantl+ gl[ ( heal?1 ! ela/ic vigor ( increas+ /ature1 & ! unb\nd$ play ( mo/ exub]ant spirits1 9 ! poor *ild :om !y _h expect$ to enclose 9 an e>ly grave4 ,h[ (t51 seat$ on ! l[ wide brick-"w corn] ( ! imm5se fireplace 9 a neighbor+ f>m-h\se1 h ,i be5 smok$ among hams & tongues1 :ile wat*+ ! progress ( bak+ a homely cake ^u ^? gl[+ wood-emb]s1 or keep+ gu>d ov] a treasury ( apples1 nuts1 & eld]b]ry w9e1 all /ream+ toge!r 9 ! lusci\sness ( a promis$ fea/8 ,patriotism is ) me no in]t pr9ciple2 x v]ily lives & acts & p]vades my :ole _s2 & ,i believe its en]getic "*1 except z ,god deigns to "w by 8 especial influ5ce1 is traceable to t e>ly acqua9tance ) :at is mo/ purely ,engli% among u--! homes & ! habits ( our own bold yeomanry4 ,cities may resemble "o ano!r1 & ! ap+ prop5sities ( _! inhabitants produce among !m a rapid approximation ( appe>ance & mann]s2 b :]e %all we look = ! c\nt]p>t ( a rural ,engli% ,,home8 ,! ?+ is z untransf]able z ! ^w is untranslatable4 ,! antique village *ur*1 ) its broad squ>e t[] or l[ spire1 its /one por* & oak seats1 its n>r[ casem5ts & ! _m ve/iges ( ^? abom9ations :i* ! besom ( ! bless$ ,re=mation swept f our s]vices1 ?\gh x c\ld n1 )\t demoli%+ ! build+1 efface _! relics f its walls2 ! *ur*y>d surr\nd+ its base1 ) undulat+ hillocks ( mortality clad 9 long1 ri* grass1 :]e lie1 half hidd51 ! old grey monum5tal /ones t c no long] tell ! tale ( bygone g5]ations2 ! m mod]n sculpture1 & ! homely grave-rail /&+ s5try ov] ! la/ re/+-place ( ! poor1 :ile "s v5]able tree ov]%ad[s ! gr\nd1 :]e x has probably /ood s9ce ! fir/ /one ( t mode/ temple 0 laid by our =efa!rs--all ^! are s ende>+ly ,engli%4 ,! broad1 ri* fields1 ! h$g][ b\nd>ies & /ately l9es ( vigor\s trees gu>d+ _! native soil2 & above all1 ! manly be>+ ( a bold1 an indep5d5t1 & a peaceful peasantry1 ! humble/ ( :om kn[s t 8 cottage is a *>t]$ sanctu>y1 protect$ alike f ! aggressions ( civil & ( ecclesia/ical tyranny--^!1 too1 are ,engli%1 sacr$ly ,engli%2 & !y leave ^u ! he>t t has once exp&$ among !m1 an impress nev] to be effac$4 ,among national re=m]s1 :at a noble position w\ld he occupy :o %\ld prevail ^u our moni$ c\ntrym5 to ex*ange _! habits ( p]iodical vagrancy into popi% l&s1 = a soj\rn 9 ! moral di/ricts ( _! own ,prote/ant ,engl&1 9 ! confid5ce t ! climate :i* agre$ ) _! fa!rs f g5]ation to g5]ation--z ! dates & ages deciph]able on our monum5ts w te/ify--w\ld n annihilate !m2 & t ! sph]e 9 :i* ,god _h se5 good to place !m 0 t :]e9 he purpos$ !m to move1 to ex]t _! influ5ce1 & to occupy = 8 glory1 ) ! tal5ts committ$ to _! *>ge4 ,i h told y h[ books ( imag9ation _h supplant$ ! ,bible 9 my e/eem2 ^? books n[1 9 a measure1 yield$ to ! irresi/ible attraction ( outdoor amusem5t2 b my m9d 0 s abundantly /or$ ) ! glitt]+ t9sel ( unsanctifi$ g5ius1 z x %one =? 9 ! pages ( my belov$ poets1 t no room 0 left = a crav+ aft] bett] /udies4 ,yet ! turn ( my m9d 0 devotional 9 ! extreme2 s mu* s1 t _h ! ,"l p]mitt$ me at t "t to come 9 contact ) ! wily fasc9ations ( pop]y1 ,i am sure ,i %\ld h fall51 = a season at lea/1 into ! sn>e4 ,god 0 really 9 all my ?\ghts2 n z ! ,god & ,fa!r ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/--n z a be+ ( pur] eyes ?an to behold iniquity--n z ,he :om ,i 0 requir$ to glorify 9 my body & 9 my _s1 be+ b\ght ) a price1 to be no long] my own b 82 no1 my religion 0 a v attractive sort ( ,deism1 :i* recogniz$ ! ,creator ( all ^? ?+s :]e9 ,i delight$1 & ?\ght to r5d] him great honor by su* recognition4 ,?omson's ,hymn on ! ,seasons 0 my body ( div9ity2 & ,pope's atroci\s ,univ]sal ,pray] w\ld h become my manual ( devotion1 _h n my fa!r d5\nc$ x z a mo/ blasphem\s outrage ^u revelation1 & *>g$ me nev] to repeat :at he deeply regrett$ t ,i _h committ$ to memory4 ,i hat$ pr(anity1 & w\ld n h omitt$ ! private repetition ( a =m ( pray]1 morn+ or ev5+1 on any acc\nt1 nor abs5t$ myself f public wor%ip4 ,a slight+ expression appli$ to ! ,bible w\ld k9dle me into gl[+ res5tm5t1 express$ ) no less s9c]ity ?an e>ne/ness1 & z a matt] ( duty ,i devot$ "s "t e ,sabba?-day to ! p]usal ( ,god's ^w1 ) :i* ,i _h become m ext5sively acqua9t$ by read+ x dur+ s]mon-"t at *ur*4 ,i well "k t ev5 !n1 & at a mu* e>li] p]iod too1 conviction ( my own s9fulness 0 work+ v deeply1 ?\gh n p]man5tly1 9 my m9d3 x 0 n an abid+ impression1 b a ?+ ( fits & />ts1 ov]:elm+ me :ile x la/$1 b soon %ak5 (f by div]t+ my ?\ghts to some?+ else4 ,^! convictions 7 unque/ionably ! result ( my occasional read+s 9 ,god's book3 !y always occurr$ dur+ or imm$iately aft] su* p]usal1 or :5 "s passage 0 sudd5ly br\ght to my recollection4 ,,lett] ,,iii4 ,,e>ly ,,days4 ,i grew up a heal?y1 active1 light-he>t$ girl1 :olly devot$ to read+ & to rural occupations4 ,! latt]1 p>ticul>ly g>d5+1 s]v$ z a c\nt]poise to ! s$5t>y temptation t w\ld h prov$ physically injuri\s2 b lay+ 91 z ,i daily did1 a pl5tiful /ore ( romantic adv5ture or fasc9at+ poetry = rum9ation :5 abroad1 my m9d 0 unpr(itably occupi$ at all times1 to ! exclusion ( bett] ?+s4 ,on ,sundays1 inde$1 ,i made x a po9t ( consci5ce to ab/a9 f light read+2 &1 z f> z ,i c\ld1 to bani% f my ?\ghts ! week's acquisition ( folly4 ,i w5t to *ur*1 & read ! ,bible at home ) a s]mon ( ,blair's1 or "s simil> writ] :olly de/itute ( gospel light2 & ,i g5]ally _h a %ort fit ( compunction1 on t day1 = hav+ be5 s :olly absorb$ 9 worldly ?+s dur+ ! prec$+ six2 = ev5 !n ,god 0 /riv+ ) me to br+ me unto himself1 & _m a /rong conviction did ,i =cibly /ifle4 ,! w>m? ( my natural feel+s1 ! ardor ) :i* ,i ent]$ into e ?+ t int]e/$ !m1 & a sort ( en]gy t always long$ to be do+ :]e any cause t ,i consid]$ good 0 to be promot$--all ^! w\ld h r5d]$ me a work+ "*1 _h ,i obey$ ! graci\s call to g into ! ,"l's v9ey>d4 ,i say a call1 because ?\gh z yet ,i "k no?+ :atev] ( ! gospel1 ,i c\ld n ov]look or misund]/& ! reit]at$ injunctions ( ,scripture to seek spiritual wisdom1 to ask = guidance1 & to occupy ) ! tal5t committ$ to my *>ge4 ,i knew ! promise1 ,!y t seek me e>ly %all f9d me1 & m ?an once ,i trembl$ "u su* scriptures z ! latt] "p ( ,prov]bs #a2 b my ,sunday resolutions vani%$ be=e ! ,monday's dawn+ light1 & ,i ru%$ aga9 ) a r$\bl$ ze/ into ! s$uctive regions ( my imag9>y _w4 ,oh1 h[ greatly d !y err :o ?9k t su* /udies may be safely engag$ 9 by ! "y & excitable m9d4 ,"s inde$ !re are s phlegmatic z to be pro( aga9/ all ! *>ms ( poesy1 ins5sible to ! highe/ illusions ( romance2 b _! numb] is small1 & ! individuals h>d to id5tify1 because a v cold ext]ior is (t5 l ! sn[- capp$ heights ( ,etna1 ov]spread+ a ho>d ( volcanic elem5ts ( :i* ! bur/ & blaze w "s day be t]rific4 ,su* seem imbu$ ) ! _s ( indiff]5ce1 because !y are ab/ract$ & sil5t :5 ! laugh & m]ry je/ g r\nd among _! companions2 :]eas ?is ab/raction1 f outw>d ?+s results n f deadness ( feel+1 b f ! int5sity ) :i* ! m9d is brood+ ov] "s phantom kn[n only to itself4 ,nor d ?is class ( dream]s always appe> devot$ to ,books3 a little read+ goes f> ) !m2 & ! quality r ?an ! quantity ( _! selections is to be look$ to4 ,i h kn[n _m p>5ts & tea*]s argue t x is bett] to br+ ! "y acqua9t$ ) our /&>d poets & prose au?ors ( a worldly ca/1 :ile !y are yet "u c>eful sup]9t5d5ce1 s z to neutralize :at may be unpr(itable by judici\s rem>k1 & to av]t ! dang]s att5dant on su* fasc9at+ introductions at a rip] age1 :5 ! re/ra9ts ( au?ority are remov$4 ,aga9/ ?is1 two reasons h prevail$ ) me to exclude f my book-%elves all ! furniture ( a worldly libr>y1 & to wat* aga9/ its introduction f o!r qu>t]s4 ,"o is2 ! consid]ation t we are n au?oriz$ to calculate on ! cont9uance ( any creature's mortal exi/5ce2 nor c we ev] "k t ! be+ :om we are tra9+ = et]nity w n be call$ into x be=e su* p]iod ( life z is "h anticipat$4 ,9 su* a case1 h[ sad to feel t we h ne$lessly =e/all$ an evil day1 & ev5 mom5t>ily div]t$ ! "y _s f a sacr$ pa?4 ,! o!r consid]ation is ?is3 t z ! fle% & ! devil w assur$ly d _! p>ts )\t help f me1 & ! *ildr5 ( ?is _w1 :o are wis] 9 _! g5]ation ?an ! *ildr5 ( light1 w c]ta9ly d ! same2 ,i may take a lesson ( policy f !m1 us+ my be/ endeavors to preoccupy ! field ) :at is decid$ly good1 & humbly hop+ t ! se$ s s[n may1 ?r\gh ! op]ation ( ! ,holy ,_s1 take root be=e ! t>es are introduc$1 leav+ little room = !m to gr[4 ,( all ! errors into :i* ! _w has fall51 none is m fatally mis*iev\s ?an ! habit ( ov]look+ ! p]sonality1 ! en]gy1 ! p[]1 ! wat*fulness1 ! deep cunn+ ( ! devil4 ,by a conv5tional sy/em1 no d\bt ( 8 own sugge/+1 he is nev] to be nam$ b 9 ! act ( wor%ipp+ ,god1 or t ( spiritual in/ruction4 ,any o!r robb] & murd]]1 :o 0 kn[n to be on ! wat* to attack our h\ses1 w\ld be ! subject ( free disc\rse3 8 habits1 8 haunts1 8 usual plans1 8 successful & 8 baffl$ assaults 9 =m] cases1 w\ld be talk$ ov]1 & ?us a salut>y fe> w\ld be kept alive1 influ5c+ u to bolt & b>1 & wat* & w>d ) unfail+ vigilance1 to av]t a surprise4 ,b ,satan seems to be a privileg$ p]son3 we le>n1 9 ! nurs]y1 to fancy him a hide\s c>icature ( human nature1 ) horns1 ho(1 & a tail1 inspir+ disgu/1 & a *ildi% fe> t we>s (f z we advance into y\?1 leav+ an impression r ludicr\s ?an al>m+ ( ! ugly phantom t1 nev]!less1 cont9ues id5tifi$ ) him ( :om we read 9 ! ,bible4 ,we !n p]haps take up ,milton1 engraft+ 8 poetical conception ^u ! orig9al nurs]y /ock1 & make a devil half mon/]1 half ar*angel1 inve/$ ) ! ugl9ess ( ! fir/ & ! sublimity ( ! second1 b /ill f> remov$ f ! scripture "* ( t ro>+ lion :o goe? ab\t seek+ :om he may dev\r4 ,we d n realize 8 exi/5ce1 8 pres5ce1 8 devices2 & s we (t5 d 8 "w f %e] ignorance or inexcusable ?\ghtlessness ab\t x4 ,) me1 z ,i h told y1 ! ,bible did its "w & consci5ce did h]s2 b a passion = ! unreal prov$ too /rong = bo?4 ,und\bt$ly ,god c\ld h wr\ght1 z aft]w>ds he did1 to ! ca/+ d[n ( imag9ations & e ?+ t exalte? itself aga9/ ,*ri/4 ,b h[ _m ye>s ( sorr[ might h be5 av]t$1 or h[ greatly at lea/ might ^? sorr[s h be5 mitigat$1 _h n ! invet]acy ( a long-*]i%$ disease requir$ su* %>p discipl9e to br+ x "u4 ,pride 0 ! ma/]-s9 ( my corrupt nature1 a pride t e *ild ( ,adam inh]its1 b :i* peculi>ly beset me4 ,x 0 n :at usually goes by t "n3 no "o ev] accus$ me ( an approa* to haught9ess1 nei!r 0 ,i boa/ful or =w>d1 z f> z ,i "k2 b ,i delight$ to model my own "* accord+ to ! /&>d set =? 9 my fooli% books1 & by ! contemplation ( !m ,i hop$ to succe$4 ,i lov$ to m>k 9 o!rs a mean1 ung5]\s1 selfi%1 or malici\s trait1 & to contra/ ) x my own high-fl[n notions ( ! opposite qualities4 ,my memory 0 well /or$ ) f9e s5tim5ts conc]n+ human dignity1 honor1 virtue1 & s =?2 & :ile secretly apply+ !m--= ,i 0 n incl9$ to make ill-natur$ rem>ks--9 contra/ to ! fail+s ( ^? ar\nd me1 ,i naturally le>n$ to id5tify myself ) ! a=esaid s5tim5ts1 & to take x = grant$ x 0 ,i :o %one s brightly at o!r p's exp5se4 ,?is is ! inevitable consequ5ce ( measur+ ourselves by ourselves1 z all w d :o are n l$ betimes to ! /&>d appo9t$ ( ,god4 ,& n[1 ! *amb]s ( imag]y be+ well furni%$1 ,i became 9 ?\ght ! h]o9e ( all ! fooli%1 improbable adv5tures ,i met )4 ,%akspe>e & o!rs hav+ furni%$ me ) dresses & decorations1 e day ( my life _h its drama4 ,adv5tures ! mo/ improbable1 situations ! mo/ try+1 & conv]sation ! mo/ nons5sical among a vision>y acqua9tance ( my own creat+1 became ! con/ant amusem5t ( my m9d2 or if ,i took a fancy to any new companion1 t individual 0 metamorphos$ into some?+ equally unreal1 & 0 soon look$ ^u 9 ! light1 n ( sob] reality1 b ( fanciful extravagance4 ,( c\rse my e/imate alike ( p]sons & ( ?+s 0 egregi\sly false2 & ) a fair portion ( common-s5se naturally belong+ to me1 ,i became mo/ emphatically a fool4 ,ev5 :5 employ$ at ! p5cil1 :i* ,i de>ly lov$1 ,i c\ld n trace a figure on ! pap] or a l&scape on ! canvas1 t did n pres5tly become ! subject ( a sep>ate romance2 & x nev] occurr$ to me t !re 0 dang]1 mu* less s91 9 ?is4 ,i lov$ danc+ to excess1 & took mu* delight 9 all t 0 brilliant & beautiful2 b ^u ! :ole ,i pref]r$ ! un9t]rupt$ c\rse ( my own va9 ?\ghts1 & !n admir$ myself = be+ ( a less dissipat$ turn ?an my "y fri5ds4 ,( c\rse1 ,i am n[ speak+ ( ! "t :51 accord+ to ! _w's usage1 & r e>li] ?an usual1 t is to say1 at sixte51 ,i 0 introduc$ into society1 by mak+ my appe>ance at a gr& election ball2 & moreov]1 publicly receiv+ ! complim5ts ( ! mo/ poli%$ & di/+ui%$ ( our successful c&idates1 = sundry political squibs1 said to be full ( droll]y & po9t1 :i* _h be5 trac$ home to me4 ,alas = ! girl :o makes su* a debut6 ,we 7 n[ aga9 resid5t 9 ! t[n1 or r )9 ! prec9cts1 z !y are call$1 surr\nd+ t v5]able ca!dral :i* _h be5 ! object ( my babyi% contemplations1 & :i* is ende>$ to me beyond any o!r spot 9 my native place4 ,my belov$ companion1 my bro!r1 _h always manife/$ ! mo/ decid$ pr$ilection = a milit>y life4 ,(t5 _h he1 9 e>lie/ *ildhood1 toddl$ away f ! gate aft] ! fife & drum ( a recruit+ p>ty2 & (t5 did he m>* & c\nt]m>* me1 till ,i c\ld n /& = fatigue1 ) a gr5adi]'s cap1 alias a muff1 on my head1 & my fa!r's l>ge cane %\ld]$ by way ( a firelock4 ,! m5ac$ invasion _h add$ fuel to 8 m>tial fire1 & :5 any o!r l9e ( life 0 po9t$ out to him1 8 high spirits w\ld droop1 & ! desire ( 8 he>t %[ itself ) increas+ decision4 ,our p>5ts 7 v anxi\s to settle him at home = my sake1 :o seem$ unable to live )\t him2 & ,i am sure t my influ5ce w\ld h prevail$ ev5 ov] 8 long-*]i%$ incl9ation1 s de>ly did he love me1 b "h ! effect ( t p]nici\s read+ %[$ itself & =g$ ! fir/ l9k 9 a long *a9 ( sorr[s4 ,i view$ ! matt] ?r\gh ! ly+ m$ium ( romance3 glory1 fame1 a conqu]or's wrea? or a h]o's grave1 ) all ! va9 m]it ( su* a sacrifice z ,i mu/ myself make 9 s5d+ him to ! field--^! wr\ght on me to /ifle 9 my a*+ bosom ! cry ( natural affection1 & ,i enc\rag$ ! boy 9 8 *oice1 & help$ him to urge on our p>5ts ?is (f]+ up ( _! only son1 ! d>l+ ( all our he>ts1 to ! ,molo* ( w>4 ,f9d+ t he c\ld n be dissuad$1 my fa!r gave a reluctant cons5t2 & let me "h record an in/ance ( g5]\s k9dness on ! "p ( ! bi%op4 ,he w5t to ,london1 & by d9t ( p]sonal1 p]sev]+ importunity1 obta9$ 9 a few days a commission 9 ! army1 at a "t :5 sev5 hundr$ applicants1 _m ( !m back$ by /rong int]e/1 7 wait+ = ! same boon4 ,! sudd5ness ( ! ?+ 0 q /unn+2 we calculat$ on a delay ( ?is sore trial2 b x 0 done1 & he 0 ord]$ to repair imm$iately1 n to ! dpt1 b to 8 regim5t1 !n hotly engag$ 9 ! ,p59sula4 ,! bi%op's k9dness did n end "h2 he c>ri$ 8 g5]osity fur!r 9 o!r ways1 & likewise gave him introductions ( great value4 ,i love to record x ( "o ^: public conduct z a ,prote/ant prelate ,i am compell$ to lam5t1 b ^: private "* 0 mo/ lovely4 ,upheld by ! intoxicat+ p[] ( s5seless romance1 n by confid5ce 9 ,god1 nor ev5 by ! reality ( ! patriotism t ,i p]suad$ myself 0 at ! root ( x all1 ,i bore to see t belov$ companion ( my life dep>t = ! sc5e ( mo/ bloody conflict4 ,he 0 n ne>ly full gr[n2 a bloom+ beautiful boy1 re>$1 & up to t "t t5d]ly gu>d$ "u ! p>5tal ro(1 9 almo/ exclusive companion%ip ) me4 ,!re 0 inde$ b "o he>t betwe5 u1 & nei!r c\ld fancy :at x w\ld be to rejoice or to suff] alone4 ,( ?is ,i _h giv5 a pro( 9 ! prec$+ ye>4 ,he took ! measles & 0 exce$+ly ill1 & great precautions 7 us$ to pres]ve me f ! infection2 b1 unable to brook a sep>ation f him1 ,i baffl$ _! vigilance1 bur/ into 8 ap>tm5t1 & lay+ my *eek to 81 resi/$ = a :ile all ef=ts to remove me4 ,to my inf9ite delight ,i sick5$ imm$iately1 & consid]$ x an ample comp5sation = all att5dant suff]+1 t ,i 0 all[$ to sit con/antly 9 ! same room ) him4 ,h[ /rong1 h[ sweet1 h[ sacr$ is ! tie t b9ds an only si/] to an only bro!r1 :5 !y h be5 p]mitt$ to gr[ up toge!r untrammell$ by ! he>tless =ms ( fa%ion2 unrivall$ by ali5 claimants 9 _! confid+ affection2 undivid$ 9 /udy1 9 sport1 & 9 int]e/4 ,"s object1 t su* union r5d]s ! boy too effem9ate & ! girl too mascul9e4 ,9 our case x did nei!r4 ,he 0 ! manlie/1 ! h>die/1 mo/ decid$1 mo/ intrepid "* imag9able2 b 9 mann]s sweet1 g5tle1 & c\rte\s1 z !y w be :o are accu/om$ to look ) protect+ t5d]ness on an associate weak] ?an !mselves4 ,& z = me1 ?\gh ,i mu/ plead guilty to ! *>ge ( be+ m heal?y1 m active1 & p]haps m en]getic1 ?an "y ladies are usually expect$ to be1 /ill ,i nev] 0 consid]$ unfem99e2 & ! only peculi>ity result+ f ?is con/ant companion%ip ) "o ( ! sup]ior sex1 0 to give me a high s5se ( t sup]iority1 ) a habit ( def]5ce to man's judgm5t & submission to man's au?ority1 :i* ,i am q sure ,god int5d$ ! woman to yield4 ,e way has ?is frat]nal tie be5 a ri* bless+ to me4 ,! love t grew ) u f our cradles nev] knew dim9ution f "t or di/ance4 ,o!r ties 7 =m$1 b !y did n sup]s$e or weak5 ?is4 ,dea? tore away all t 0 mortal & p]i%able1 b ?is tie he c\ld n sund]4 ,z ,i lov$ him :ile he 0 on e>?1 s d ,i love him n[ t he is 9 heav52 & :ile ,i *]i% 9 8 sons ! liv+ lik5ess ( :at he 01 my he>t ev]more ye>ns t[>ds him :]e he is4 ,p>5ts are wrong to *eck z !y d ! outgo+s ( frat]nal affection1 by sep>at+ ^? :om ,god has especially jo9$ z ! (fspr+ ( "o fa!r & "o "m4 ,god has beautifully m+l$ !m1 by s5d+ n[ a babe ( "o sex1 n[ ( ! o!r1 & suit+1 z any c>eful obs]v] may disc]n1 _! v>i\s *>act]s to =m a dome/ic :ole4 ,! p>5ts int]pose1 pack+ (f ! boys to "s s*ool :]e no s(t] influ5ce exi/s to r\nd (f1 z x 71 ! rugg$ po9ts ( ! mascul9e disposition1 & :]e !y soon lose all ! delicacy ( feel+ peculi> to a bro!r's reg>d1 & le>n to look on ! female "* 9 a light :olly subv]sive ( ! frankness1 ! purity1 ! g5]\s c>e = :i* e>? c yield no sub/itute1 & ! loss ( :i* only trans=ms him :o ought to be ! t5d] pres]v] ( woman into h] he>tless de/roy]4 ,! girls are ei!r gr\p$ at home1 ) ! bless$ privilege ( a fa!r's eye /ill ^u !m1 or s5t away 9 a diff]5t direction f _! bro!rs1 expos$ ?r\gh unnatural & unpalatable re/ra9ts1 to evils n p]haps s great1 b e :it z wantonly incurr$ z ! o!rs4 ,! %yness1 miscall$ retir+ mode/y1 ) :i* "o "y lady %r9ks f ! notice ( a g5tleman z ?\gh !re 7 dang] 9 8 approa*1 & ! consci\s coquetti% air1 miscall$ ease1 ) :i* ano!r invites 8 notice1 are alike remov$ f ! reality ( ei!r mode/y or ease4 ,bo? result f a fictiti\s mode ( education --bo? are ! consequ5ces ( nipp+ 9 ! bud ^? si/]ly feel+s t lay a fair f\ndation = ! "r use ( ^? privileges to :i* %e looks =w>d z a memb] ( society2 & if ! subject be view$ ?r\gh ! cle> m$ium ( ,*ri/ian pr9ciple1 its lights w become m brilliant1 its %ad[s m d>k1 ! long] & ! clos] we contemplate x4 ,,lett] ,,iv4 ,,y\?4 ,hi!rto y h n he>d ( any spiritually m9d$ p]son connect$ ) my e>ly life2 yet !re 0 "o1 ,i feel sure1 ?\gh my recollections are confus$ & imp]fect on t po9t2 & "o to ^: pray]s1 if n to h] tea*+1 ,i surely owe some?+4 ,my fa!r's "m 0 a f9e1 sprightly1 robu/ old lady1 r small 9 /ature1 & already b5d+ a little "u ! burd5 ( ye>s at ! "t :5 ,i fir/ recollect h] z m+l+ 9 ! visions ( my *ildhood1 ?\gh ,i "k t ev5 f infancy ,i 0 ! delight ( h] w>m hone/ he>t4 ,%e 0 simplicity itself 9 mann]s1 h] blunt spee*es sometimes cla%+ a little ) h] son's notions ( poli% & ref9em5t1 z also did h] invet]ate antipa?y to ! reign+ fa%ion1 :atev] t might be4 ,i rememb] h] read+ me a lecture ^u some?+ novel 9 ! cut ( a sleeve1 end+ by ?is rem>k3 ,i nev] wore a g[n b ( "o %ape2 & because ,i don't foll[ ! fa%ion1 ! fa%ion is =c$ to come to me sometimes by way ( a *ange4 ,i c't help t1 y "k1 my de>2 b ,i nev] 0 fa%ionable on purpose4 ,%e add$ "s pi\s rem>ks on vanity & folly1 :i* ,i soon =got2 b ! o!r dwelt on my m9d because x *im$ 9 ) my own love ( indep5d5ce--a prom95t *>act]i/ic ) me2 too (t5 c>ri$ to ! excess ( self-will$ ob/9acy4 ,h[ev]1 ,i de>ly lov$ & exce$+ly respect$ my gr& "m1 & us$ 9 my he>t to glory 9 h] smoo? clean locks1 half br[n1 half grey1 comb$ d[n f "u a sn[y cap ( homely make1 :5 %e _h successfully resi/$ alike ! entreaties & examples ( contempor>y dames1 :o submitt$ _! heads to ! curl+-irons & p[d]-puff ( a frizeur1 prep>atory to an ev5+ p>ty4 ,i us$ to /& pr\dly at h] knee1 admir+ ! high color ( h] *eek1 & uncommon brilliancy ( h] f9e d>k hazle eye1 :ile h] voice1 rem>kably ri* & cle>1 involunt>ily swell$ ! *orus p>ts ( our magnific5t music4 ,%e 0 a ,p]cy1 n by "n1 = t _h be5 lo/ 9 ! female l9e "s g5]ations be=e1 b ! p$igree 9 my possession %[s h[ j 0 h] vaunt 9 t respect4 ,= vaunt x %e did1 to u at lea/1 (t5 br++ x =w>d to *eck any t5d5cy to behavior unbefitt+ ^? :o claim$ desc5t f ,! /\t e>l ( ,nor?umb]l&1 ) :om ,i ought to be well acqua9t$1 = ! s++ ( ,*evy ,*ace 9 prop] "t & tune ) h]1 0 ! only secul> accompli%m5t 9 :i* my de> gr&mo!r p]sonally labor$ to p]fect me1 except knitt+ & curi\s old-fa%ion$ ne$lework4 ,! pride ( ance/ry took /rong hold ( my m9d1 & su* an ance/ry accord$ b too well ) my romance1 innate & acquir$4 ,x /ood me1 _m a "t1 9 ! /ead ( bett] ?+s1 :5 n]v+ myself to endure affliction & wrong2 & !re=e ,i notice x1 to w>n y aga9/ expos+ y\r own *ildr5 to ! same sn>e4 ,next to ! fa%ion1 if n 9 an equal or sup]ior degree1 ,i ?9k my gr&mo!r mo/ abhorr$ ! ,fr5*4 ,inde$ h] /ronge/ d5unciations aga9/ ! reign+ modes 7 usually cl9*$ ) ! triumphant ass]tion t !y 7 ,fr5* fa%ions4 ,no m>vel if h] _s 0 /irr$ )9 h] by ! horrors ( revolution>y ,france1 & h] ,prote/antism /r5g!n$ by ! but*]ies ( ,n9ety-eight4 ,i knew t %e 0 a prote/] & a tory ( no common /amp2 & ,i knew t %e br\ght h] ,bible =w>d 9 support ( e op9ion t %e utt]$4 ,r>ely did ,i visit h] )\t f9d+ h] buri$ 9 ! /udy ( t bless$ book2 & ,i "k t %e /rove to tea* me mu* ( its mean+2 b our *ange ( resid5ce prov$ a great b> to p]sonal int]c\rse1 & %e nev] wrote lett]s4 ,i sometimes trace impressions on my m9d1 made 9 e>ly life1 :i* ,i am sure mu/ h be5 ?r\gh h] means1 & ?\gh ! good se$ di$ on ! gr\nd1 :ile ! we$s took root & fl\ri%$1 /ill1 "h & !re a gra9 might s9k bel[ ! surface1 to spr+ up aft] _m days4 ,& n[ ,i mu/ record my fir/ sorr[1 al?\gh ,i _c dwell ^u x z on "s o!r ?+s4 ,my bro!r _h be5 ne>ly two ye>s abs5t1 on s]vice 9 ! ,p59sula1 :5 an apoplectic attack arre/$ my la!r 9 ! mid/ ( life & heal? & vigor1 & e promise ( l5g!n$ ye>s4 ,! premonitory visitations ( repeat$ /rokes 7 disreg>d$1 = we c\ld n1 w\ld n1 realize ! approa* ( su* an ev5t1 & p]si/$ 9 believ+ !m n]v\s2 b j :5 all cause = al>m seem$ at an end1 & ,i 0 rejoic+ 9 ! assurance ( its be+ s1 ,i 0 call$ f my pill[ at midnight to see t t5d] & belov$ p>5t die4 ,! b]eavem5t 0 t]rible to me3 ,i _h always be5 8 pr9cipal companion1 because no "o else 9 ! family _h a ta/e = ^? ?+s 9 :i* he delight$--lit]ature & politics especially--& s9ce my bro!r's dep>ture1 in/ead ( seek+ to replace him by fri5ds ( my own age1 ,i _h turn$ :olly to my fa!r1 nev] desir+ to pass an h\r out ( 8 society1 & /riv+ to be to him bo? daught] & son4 ,my "m 0 a p]fect devotee to h\sehold affairs1 e ?\ght occupi$ 9 seek+ to promote ! dome/ic com=ts ( h] family2 :ile ,i1 indulg+ a natural antipa?y to all t did n engage ! intellectual p[]s1 gave h] no help !re1 ,i 0 truly cumb]+ ! gr\nd1 seek+ only my own gratification1 & dignify+ my selfi%ness ) _m f9e names1 only because x 0 be/ indulg$ 9 my own de> home4 ,f ! p]iod ( my loss ( he>+1 music _h be5 :olly bani%$2 my fa!r seem$ to lose all reli% = :at c\ld no long] m9i/] enjoym5t to me1 & deeply ,i felt ! =ce ( t affection :i* c\ld s in/antly & :olly ov]come ! rul+ passion ( 8 m9d1 accompani$ z x 0 ) su* exquisite skill 9 t delightful sci5ce z r5d]$ him ! admiration ( all :o came )9 its influ5ce4 ,x r$\bl$ my devotion to him1 & mo/ bitt] 0 ! angui% ( my he>t :5 ,i beheld him tak5 away at a /roke4 ,0 ?is affliction sanctifi$ to me8 ,n 9 ! lea/4 ,i f\nd a luxury 9 griev+ alone1 brood+ on ! pa/1 & pa9t+ ! probable future 9 any colors b ^? ( reality4 ,my fa!r _h enjoy$ two liv+s ) a m9or canonry 9 ! ca!dral1 b ! emolum5t 0 v small1 & 8 income _h n all[$ him1 z yet1 to make any provision = u4 ,a small annuity 0 all t my "m c\ld dep5d on1 & ,i resolv$ to become a novel-writ]1 = :i* ,i 0 j qualifi$1 bo? by nature & habits ( ?9k+1 & 9 :i* ,i %\ld probably h succe$$ v well1 b x pleas$ ,god to save me f ?is sn>e4 ,my bro!r's unexpect$ return on leave1 ) our subsequ5t *anges ( abode1 pay+ visits among fri5ds1 & keep+ my ?\ghts con/antly unsettl$1 h9d]$ ! execution ( ! project2 & :5 my bro!r return$ to ,portugal1 we repair$ to ,london1 to make a long /ay ) "s ne> relations4 ,x 0 !re t ,i met ) ! g5tleman1 an (fic] on leave ( abs5ce1 ^: wife1 at ! end ( six mon?s1 ,i became4 ,i am long+ to arrive at t p]iod :5 ! light ( ! glori\s gospel ( ,*ri/ fir/ %one ^u me ?r\gh ! d>kness ( _m try+ disp5sations2 !re=e ,i pass by mu* t int]v5$1 includ+ my de> bro!r's m>riage1 :o return$ aga9 to ,london ) 8 bride & 8 "m1 to resume 8 /aff situation !re2 & %all only take y ) me across ! ,atlantic1 = a few ,nova ,scotian rem9isc5ces1 be=e proce$+ to ! sc5e ( my mo/ preci\s recollections1 de> ,irel&4 ,my husb& _h jo9$ 8 regim5t 9 ,halifax1 & s5t me a summons to foll[ him out )\t delay2 9 ord] to :i* ,i 0 oblig$ to emb>k 9 a l>ge vessel tak5 up p>tially by gov]nm5t = ! conveyance ( troops1 b 9 :i* !re 0 a select p>ty1 occupy+ ! /ate cab91 & mak+ _! own t]ms ) ! capta9 = ! be/ possible accommodation & provision on ! passage4 ,( ?is numb] 0 ,i2 & c]ta9ly a m select1 poli%$ & agreeable p>ty ( highly br$ g5tlem5 c\ld n h be5 f\nd4 ,i w5t "u ! k9d c>e ( "o ( ^!1 ) 8 wife1 :o _h invit$ me to travel ) !m4 ,h y ev] be5 at sea8 ,x is a "q ! answ] to :i* w ?r[ v little light on ! matt]1 unless y also /ate h[ x agre$ ) y3 no two races on ! e>? c be m di/9ct ?an ^? two are ^u ! wat]--! p :o are sea-sick & ! p :o are n4 ,x 0 my happy privilege to belong to ! latt] class2 ,i nev] = a mom5t exp]i5c$ ev5 an unpleasant s5sation f any m>9e cause1 b on ! contr>y enjoy$ exemption f all physical annoyances dur+ a five weeks' voyage1 except+ t ( hung]4 ,an abundant supply ( e ?+ t 0 n\ri%+1 9 ! mo/ palatable =m1 left no excuse = rema9+ hungry2 nev]!less ! dem& 0 incessantly kept up2 & ,i appeal to all :o h be5 simil>ly affect$1 :e!r ! mun*+ ( h>d sea-bread f morn+ to night "u ! pressure ( a real sea appetite1 is n a great] luxury ?an ! *oice/ vi&s on %ore4 ,to me x c]ta9ly 02 & surely ,i _h reason to be deeply ?ankful to ! ,"l1 :o1 by means ( t delici\s voyage1 & its brac+ exhil>at+ effects1 prep>$ me = a try+ w9t] 9 ! s+ul> climate = :i* ,i 0 b\nd4 ,e day1 & all day long1 be ! wea!r :at x might1 ,i 0 /ation$ on deck1 g5]ally seat$ on ! highe/ po9t ( ! %ip's /]n1 directly ov] ! rudd]1 to enjoy a full view ( t mo/ graceful & exquisite spectacle1 a l>ge vessel's c\rse ?r\gh ! mighty deep4 ,ours 0 a spl5did "o1 a ,we/ ,indiaman1 almo/ rivall+ ! sea-palaces ( ! ,ea/ ,india ,company1 & mann$ 9 ! fir/ /yle4 ,! troops on bo>d1 "u ! comm& ( a field (fic]1 greatly add$ to ! effect & com=t ( ! ?+1 = no?+ is s conducive to ! latt] z milit>y discipl9e1 well & mildly ma9ta9$4 ,al?\gh our p>ty 0 p]fectly di/9ct f ^? :o w5t out entirely at ! *>ge ( gov]nm5t1 consi/+ ( sev]al (fic]s & _! wives1 yet we too 7 ne>ly all milit>y1 includ+ ! comm&ant1 & 7 /rictly am5able to m>tial law4 ,( c\rse t s\l ( dome/ic & social com=t1 punctuality1 reign$ p>am\nt2 e meal 0 regulat$ by beat ( drum1 subord9ation c>efully pres]v$1 & decorum1 to ! mo/ m9ute p>ticul>1 insi/$ on4 ,no di%abille c\ld appe>1 9 ! cab9 or on deck2 no litt]1 n an article ( luggage visible4 ,all ! sick p1 all ! cross p1 & all ! :imsical p 7 /[$ away 9 _! respective b]?s1 & su* draw+-room elegance1 comb9$ ) ! utmo/ fre$om ( good-humor & ! unre/ra9$ frankness t results f a consci\sness ( prop] re/ra9t1 p]vad$ our little select cot]ie1 am\nt+ to sev5te5 g5tlem5 & two ladies1 t x did n ne$ ! mis]able contra/ :i* ,i aft]w>ds exp]i5c$ on ! homew>d passage1 to assure me we 7 among ! mo/ favor$ ( ocean travell]s4 ,h[ v mu* d !y err :o consid] ! abs5ce ( ord] & me?od z supply+ great] lib]ty or remov+ a s5se ( re/ra9t4 ,su* fre$om is gall+ to me2 & 9 my eyes1 ! want ( punctuality is a want ( hone/ pr9ciple2 = h[ev] p may ?9k !mselves au?oriz$ to rob ,god & !mselves ( _! own "t1 !y c plead no "r to lay a viol5t h& on ! "t & duties ( _! neighbor4 ,i say x delib]ately1 t ,i h be5 defraud$ ( hundr$s ( p\nds1 & cruelly depriv$ ( my necess>y refre%m5t 9 ex]cise1 9 sleep1 & ev5 9 seasonable food1 ?r\gh ?is disgraceful want ( punctuality 9 o!rs1 m ?an ?r\gh any cause :atsoev] besides4 ,x is also v irritat+2 = a p]son :o w\ld *e]fully be/[ a piece ( gold1 does n l to be sw9dl$ out ( a piece ( copp]2 & ( _m an h\r h ,i be5 ung5]\sly wrong$1 to ! excitem5t ( feel+s 9 !mselves f> f "r1 :5 ,i w\ld gladly h s arrang$ my "w z to be/[ ^u ! robb]s ?rice ! "t !y made me wantonly sacrifice4 ,to say1 ,i w come to y on su* a day1 leav+ ! p]son to expect y e>ly1 & !n1 aft] wa/+ h] day 9 t uncom=table1 unsettl$ /ate ( look+ out = a gue/1 :i* precludes all application to pres5t duties1 to come late 9 ! ev5+--or to accept an invitation to d9n]1 & ei!r break ! engagem5t or ?r[ ! h\sehold into confusion by mak+ x wait--to appo9t a meet+1 & fail ( keep+ y\r "t--all ^!1 & _m o!r effects ( ?is vile habit are exce$+ly disgraceful1 & :olly oppos$ to ! scriptural rules laid d[n = ! gov]nance ( our conduct "o to ano!r4 ,i say no?+ ( ! insult put ^u ! ,mo/ ,high1 ! d>+ presumption ( break+ 9 ^u ! devotions ( 8 wor%ipp]s1 & involv+ !m 9 ! s9 ( ab/ract$ness f ! solemn "w be=e !m1 by ent]+ late into ! h\se ( pray]4 ,su* p]sons may "o day f9d !y h a m s]i\s acc\nt to r5d] on ! score ( _! contempt ( punctuality1 ?an !y seem will+ to believe4 ,b ,i h run away f my %ip--yet n s2 = z e ?+ %9es out mo/ by contra/1 x 0 natural to ?9k on ! ugly rev]se :5 recall+ ! beautiful h>mony & ord] ( our regulations on bo>d4 ,we 7 favor$ ) mo/ delightful wea!r1 fre% & dry & w>m2 ) only "o day's h>d ra91 dur+ :i* ! sea ran m\nta9s1 z ! sailors said4 ,i 0 conduct$ on deck1 j = "o m9ute1 t y may be able to say y h se5 su* a sea1 rem>k$ ! g5tleman :o put a milit>y cloak ov] me1 & l$ me up ! /airs4 ,b :o c\ld be satisfi$ ) a mom5t>y sight ( any ?+ s /up5d\sly gr&8 ,i resi/$ all ef=ts to p]suade me into retreat+ aga91 & x end$ 9 my be+ la%$ to ! miz5ma/ by my fri5dly conductor1 :o decl>$ t 8 head1 ! be/ l&sman's head on bo>d1 w\ld n /& ! giddy sc5e2 9 %ort1 t he %\ld be oblig$ to report himself sick1 & ex*ange our agreeable society bel[ = ! solitude ( 8 b]?4 ,( c\rse ,i dismiss$ him1 & 0 left among ! m\nta9s1 alone1 save :5 a sailor pass$ me on 8 duties among ! rigg+1 & gave me a smile ( approval1 :ile ! man at ! :eel seem$ to reg>d me z be+ "u 8 especial patronage4 ,! t>s love "o :o does n fl9* f _! own elem5t4 ,truly1 ,i saw t day ! works ( ! ,"l & 8 wond]s 9 ! great deep4 ,imag9e y\rself 9 a %ip1 l>ge among vessels1 b a m]e cork ^u ! wat]s ( t mighty ma94 ,on e side1 turn :]e y w\ld1 a huge m\nta9 ( irregul> =m 0 ris+-d>k1 smoo?1 ( unbrok5 surface1 b seem+ ab\t to bur/ f ov]-ext5sion4 ,h[ did y come into t /range valley8 h[ %\ld y get out ( x8 h[ avoid ! ru% ( t giant bill[ t ev5 n[ ov]hangs y\r b>k8 ,^! que/ions w\ld inevitably ru% ?r\gh ! m9d2 b 9 a second ( "t ! huge body beside y sunk1 y 7 on its summit1 & ano!r came roll+ on4 ,mean:ile ! %ip w\ld reel1 ) a sl[ slant+ movem5t t gradually l[]$ ! tall ma/s till ! y>ds almo/ dipp$ 9 ! br9e1 & y 7 ei!r laid back on ! frame- "w beh9d y1 or well-nigh susp5d$1 look+ d[n ^u ! wat] ov] ! %ip's bulw>ks4 ,i soon discov]$ :y my companion _h s c>efully buckl$ ! lea!r /rap t held me to ! ma/2 c]ta9ly ,i _c recall ! sc5e ) su* /ead9ess ( n]ve z ,i beheld x )4 ,e n[ & !n a small bill[ w\ld bur/ ^u ! vessel's side1 s5d+ its liquid treasure across ! deck1 & m ?an "o ablution ( ! k9d 0 add$ to ! fre%-wat] dr5*+ be/[$ by ! cl\ds4 ,c y fancy ! discom=t ( su* a situation8 ,!n y 7 nev] at sea1 or at lea/ y left y\r imag9ation a%ore2 = ,i defy any p]son n well inur$ to x1 to look on su* a sc5e ) s negative a feel+ z discom=t2 x w excite ei!r t]ror or delight suffici5t to engross ! :ole m9d4 ,i well rememb] t1 :5 deeply affect$ by ! gr&eur ( ?is & o!r aspects assum$ by ! maje/ic ma91 ,i f\nd ! highe/ flights ( man's sublimity too l[4 ,!y w\ld n express1 w\ld n *ime 9 ) my conceptions2 & ,i 0 driv5 to ! inspir$ pages = a comm5t>y on ! glori\s sc5e4 ,x 0 !n t ! language ( ,job1 ( ,isaiah1 ( ,habakkuk1 suppli$ me ) a /ra9 suit$ to ! sublime accompanim5t ( ,god's magnific5t "w4 ,sunrise ,i c\ld n witness1 because at t h\r no lady might appe> on deck1 & my cab9 _h n a side-w9d[2 b sunset1 moonlight1 />light1 ) ! v>i\s ph5om5a ( ocean's ev]-v>y+ appe>ance1 ^! furni%$ an endless contemplation ) :i* no?+ c\ld accord b ! language ( ,holy writ4 ,i did n br+ =? my ,bible1 well kn[+ ! bant]+ rem>ks to :i* x w\ld h expos$ me on ! score ( affectation1 b my memory s]v$ me equally well 9 t z 9 pr(ane poetry2 & _m a preci\s ^w ( w>n+1 exhortation1 & promise did ,i recite1 en*ant$ by ! sublimity ( :at1 z to its spiritual mean+1 0 /ill an unkn[n tongue to me4 ,among ^!1 ! ?irty-second ( ,deut]onomy1 ! =tie? ( ,isaiah1 & o!r passages full ( ! gospel1 7 repeat$ly call$ to m9d2 & above all1 9 bl[+ wea!r1 ! =ty-six? ,psalm delight$ me4 ,y may suppose t ,i c\ld n :olly =get ! fact ( be+ :]e1 9 ! /ricte/ s5se1 !re 0 b a /ep betwe5 me & dea?4 ,! fir/ day ( our voyage "s "o _h quot$ ! expression1 ,!re is b a plank betwe5 u & et]nity1 n ) any s]i\s application1 b z a f9e ?\ght4 ,i d n ?9k t ,i 0 ev] = a mom5t unm9dful ( ?is2 ! pres5ce ( actual dang] 0 always felt by me3 b conc]n+ et]nity ,i _h no fe>s :atev]4 ,a g5]al reliance on ! b\ndless m]cy ( ,god1 a recognition ( ,*ri/ z hav+ suff]$ = our s9s1 & a degree ( self-righte\sness t easily ?rew my s9s into ! %ade1 :ile magnify+ my suppos$ m]its1 ^! =m$ ! /aff :]eon ,i lean$2 & :5 ! mo/ imm95t & appall+ p]il ov]hung u1 s t we expect$ to be +ulf$ 9 ! waves )\t hope ( succor1 ,i look$ x boldly 9 ! face1 confid5t 9 my false hope4 ,al?\gh j !n revell+ 9 enjoym5ts be/ suit$ to my natural ta/e1 life _h 9 reality no *>ms = me4 ,f all t _h gild$ ! sonny h\rs ( y\? ,i 0 completely sev]$1 & ! _w on :i* ,i _h laun*$ 0 a wild]ness inde$ 9 comp>ison ) ! ,ed5 ,i _h left4 ,i w\ld n h made ! slighte/ ef=t to escape f dea? 9 any =m2 & ?\gh ,i 0 n s5seless en\gh to pref] an et]nity ( untri$ wret*$ness to ! fleet+ sorr[s ( mortal life1 yet z my consci5ce 0 lull$ to re/ by ! self-delusion t ,i suff]$ m ?an ,i des]v$1 & _h !re=e a claim on div9e ju/ice1 & z ,i 0 will+ to receive ! suppos$ balance ( su* debtor & cr$itor acc\nt 9 ! _w to come1 ,i 0 p]fectly cont5t to be summon$ to my rew>d4 ,bless$ be ,god t ,i 0 n tak5 away 9 t h\r ( bl9d will+ness4 ,! extreme p]il to :i* ,i h allud$ ov]took u :5 )9 a %ort di/ance ( our de/9ation2 we 7 sudd5ly caught by a trem5d\s w9d f ! s\?1 :i* blew u "r 9 ! direction ( ,cape ,sable1 "o ( ! mo/ fatal headl&s 9 ^? seas4 ,night clos$ ^u u & ! gale increas$2 sails 7 spread1 9 a desp]ate hope ( %ift+ ! vessel's c\rse1 b 7 in/antly torn into ribbons4 ,at "o "t1 = a mom5t1 ! rudd] broke loose1 ! till]-rope giv+ way "u ! viol5t /ra9 ^u x2 & ! next m9ute ! spank]-boom1 an imm5se piece ( timb]1 snapp$ l a re$4 ,x 0 an awful sc5e3 on ! leeside ! %ip lay s l[ 9 ! wat] t e ?+ 0 afloat 9 ! sleep+ cab9s2 & ! poor ladies 7 scream+ ov] _! t]rifi$ *ildr51 unhe$$ by ! g5tlem51 e "o ( :om 0 on deck4 ,! capta9 op5ly decl>$ we 7 b\nd = ! bottom1 if a v sudd5 & unlikely *ange ( w9d did n take place4 ,9 ! mid/ ( all ?is1 ,i 0 report$ miss+1 & z ,i _h ! privilege ( be+ e body's c>e1 because1 = ! "t be+1 ,i belong$ to nobody1 a se>* 0 comm5c$4 ,a "y (fic] f\nd me1 at la/1 s s+ul>ly situat$1 t he w5t & report$ me to ! capta94 ,i _h climb$ ?ree ti]s ( lock]s 9 ! /ate cab91 op5$ "o ( ! l>ge /]n w9d[s1 & 0 lean+ out1 z f> z ,i c\ld rea*1 enraptur$ beyond expression ) ! t]rific gr&eur ( ! sc5e4 ,! sky above 0 black z midnight & ! /orm c\ld make x1 ov]hang+ u l a l>ge pall1 & r5d]$ awfully visible by ! brilliancy ( ! wat]s b5ea?4 ,i _h he>d ( t phosphoresc5t appe>ance 9 ! sea1 b nev] c\ld h imag9$ its gr&eur1 nor c ,i essay to describe x4 ,ev5 9 p]fect /illness ! illum9at$ elem5t w\ld h look$ magnific5t2 :at1 !n mu/ x h be5 9 a /ate ( excessive1 tumultu\s agitation1 ! waves swell+ up to a fe>ful height & !n bur/+ into %eets ( foam2 e drop conta9+ "s lum9\s animalcul sp>kl+ ) vivid1 yet delicate lu/re8 ,we 7 go+ ) headlong spe$ be=e ! w9d1 & ,i hung "r ov] ! track ( ! rudd]1 a wild1 mad eddy ( silv] foam1 int]m+l$ ) fire4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ! sc5e t f> ov]pass$ all my extravagant imag9+s ( ! t]ribly sublime4 ,! hurry1 ! fi]c5ess1 ! riot ( ^? unfett]$ wat]s1 ! wild fla% ( _! wondr\s lights1 ! fun]eal blackness ( ! ov]hang+ cl\ds1 & ! deep1 desp]ate plunge ( our gallant %ip1 z %e seem$ to r5d h] way ?r\gh an oppos+ *aos--x 0 p]fect delirium2 & no d\bt ,i %\ld h appe>$ 9 keep+ ) ! re/ to any ext]nal obs]v]1 = ,i 0 /ret*+ out at ! w9d[1 ! combs _h fall5 f my hair1 :i* /ream$ z wildly z ! r5t sails2 & ,i 0 frequ5tly delug$ by "s bur/+ wave1 z ! dip ( ! vessel br\ght me d[n almo/ to ! surface4 ,! p]il ( an op5 w9d[ 0 />tl+ to ^? on deck1 & ! capta91 he>+ t ,i refus$ to rel9qui% my po/1 s5t ! mate to put up ! dead-lights2 s ,i sat d[n on ! floor1 buri$ my face 9 my h&s1 & /rove to realize ! magnific5ce ?us r5t f my sight4 ,yes1 ,god's works 9 ! great deep are inde$ wond]s4 ,no?+ l&w>d c possibly approa* !m3 9 ! rude/ tempe/ ! gr\nd rema9s firm1 & y feel t y are a spectator2 b at sea y are a "p ( ! /orm4 ,! plank :]eon y /& refuses to support y1 ev] %ift+ its incl9ation2 :ile ! :ole ( y\r frail t5em5t is n[ borne al(t1 n[ da%$ into ! liquid furr[ b5ea?1 n[ /ruck back by a head-sea ) a %ock t makes e timb] quiv]1 n[ flung on "o side z if ab\t to rev]se itself 9 ! bosom ( ! deep4 ,no d\bt ! s5se ( p]sonal dang]1 ! dea?-pang already anticipat$1 ! d>k abyss t yawns be=e ! s9n]1 & ! heav5 op5+ on a believ]'s s\l1 mu/ ea* & any ( !m dead5 ! s5se to :at ,i h va9ly s\ght to describe2 & ,i suppose ?is acc\nts = ! a/oni%m5t express$ by ! :ole p>ty at my s+ul> conduct1 :5 ! y\? :o 0 s5t to w>n me ( ! p]il1 describ$ my half-angry1 half-reproa*ful petti%ness at ! int]ruption3 ,c't y let me enjoy x 9 peace1 ,mr4 ,j----8 ,%all ,i ev] see any ?+ l x aga98 ,d g away4 ,b ! capta9 says ! w9d[ mu/ be %ut4 ,!n take me on deck1 & y may %ut x4 ,t is utt]ly impossible2 no lady c\ld /& = an in/ant on deck1 y\r drap]y w\ld be> y ov] ! %ip's side4 ,!n ,i wont %ut ! w9d[3 s g & tell ,capta9 ,l---- n to tease me ) messages4 ,?is 0 d[nright recklessness4 ,i wond] :5 recall+ x to m9d1 & feel t ,i c\ld n h ?us sport$ ) dea? aft] ,i acquir$ a good & solid hope ( ev]la/+ life4 ,! act ( dy+ _h always great t]rors = me1 until1 ?r\gh adv]se circum/ances1 ,i seem$ to h no?+ wor? liv+ =1 & !n ,i c\ld laugh at x 9 my own he>t4 ,/range to say1 t fe>fulness ( ! passage ?r\gh ! d>k valley return$ ) d\ble =ce :5 ,i _h realiz$ a p]sonal claim to ! guid+ rod & ! support+ /aff1 & ! bright inh]itance beyond4 ,b be=e ?is p]iod ( bless$ness1 ( joy & peace 9 believ+ arriv$1 ,i _h to pass ?r\gh _m wat]s ( affliction1 & to exp]i5ce rem>kable int]positions at ,8 h& :o 0 lead+ me by a pa? :i* ,i knew n4 ,two ( !m ,i w m5tion4 ,:ile at ,annapolis & at ,w9dsor1 ,i _h a horse provid$ = me ( r>e beauty & grace1 b a p]fect ,bucephalus 9 h] way4 ,?is creature 0 n ?ree ye>s old1 &1 to all appe>ance1 unbrok54 ,h] mann]s 7 ^? ( a kid r ?an ( a horse2 %e 0 ( a lovely dappl$ grey1 ) mane & tail ( silv]1 ! latt] almo/ sweep+ ! gr\nd2 & 9 h] frolicsome gambols %e turn$ x ov] h] back l a ,newf\ndl& dog4 ,h] sl[ /ep 0 a b\nd2 h] swift motion unlike t ( any o!r animal ,i ev] rode1 s fleet1 s smoo?1 s unruffl$--,i "k no?+ to :i* ,i c comp>e x4 ,well1 ,i made ?is lovely creature s fond ( me by con/ant pett+1 to :i* ,i suppose h] ,arab "* made h] peculi>ly s5sitive1 t my voice _h equal p[] ov] h] z ov] my docile1 fai?ful dog4 ,no o!r p]son c\ld 9 ! slighte/ degree control h]4 ,our corps1 ! sev5? battalion ( ! sixtie? ,rifles1 0 compos$ :olly ( ! elite ( ,napoleon's soldi]s1 tak5 9 ! ,p59sula1 & pref]r+ ! ,briti% s]vice to a prison4 ,!y 7 pr9cipally conscripts1 & _m 7 evid5tly ( a high] class 9 society ?an is usually f\nd 9 ! ranks4 ,among !m 7 sev]al ,*asseurs & ,poli% ,lanc]s1 v f9e eque/rians1 & z my husb& _h a field (fic]'s comm&--on deta*m5ts--& all[ances1 our horses 7 well look$ aft]4 ,8 groom 0 a ,*asseur1 m9e a ,pole2 b nei!r c\ld ride ,fairy1 unless %e happ5$ to be 9 a v graci\s mood4 ,"l ,dalh\sie's ,engli% coa*man aft]w>ds tri$ 8 h& at tam+ h]1 b all 9 va94 ,9 an easy quiet way1 %e ei!r s5t h] rid] ov] h] head1 or by a laughable manoeuvre sitt+ d[n l a dog on h] haun*es1 slipp$ him (f ! o!r way4 ,h] droll]y made ! poor m5 s fond ( h] t %e 0 r>ely *a/is$2 & su* a wilful1 intractable wild ,arab x w\ld be h>d to f9d4 ,^u h] ,i 0 daily m\nt$2 & surely ! ,"l wat*$ ov] me !n inde$4 ,inexp]i5c$ 9 rid+1 untaught1 unassi/$1 & :olly unable to lay any *eck ^u s p[]ful an animal1 ) an awkw>d c\ntry saddle1 :i* by "s fatality 0 nev] well fix$1 bit & bridle to mat*1 & ! m>e's natural fire increas$ by high fe$1 behold me b\nd = ! wilde/ pa?s 9 ! wilde/ regions ( t wild c\ntry4 ,b y mu/ explore ! roads ab\t ,annapolis1 & ! romantic spot call$ ,! ,g5]al's ,bridge1 to imag9e ei!r ! enjoym5t or ! p]ils ( t my happie/ h\r4 ,reckless to ! la/ degree ( desp]ation1 ,i ?rew myself entirely on4 ! fond atta*m5t ( ! noble creature2 & :5 ,i saw h] measur+ ) h] eye "s rugg$ f5ce or wild *asm1 su* z x 0 h] common sport to leap ov] 9 h] play1 ! s(t ^w ( remon/rance t *eck$ h] 0 utt]$ m f reg>d to h] safety ?an my own4 ,! lea/ :isp]1 a pat on ! neck1 or a /roke d[n ! beautiful face t %e us$ to ?r[ up t[>ds m9e1 w\ld control h]3 & nev] = a mom5t did %e endang] me4 ,?is 0 little %ort ( a daily miracle1 :5 we consid] ! nature ( ! c\ntry1 h] "*1 & my unskilfulness4 ,x c only be acc\nt$ = on ! gr\nd ( t wondr\s p[] :i* hav+ will$ me to "w = a "t 9 ! v9ey>d ( ! ,"l1 r5d]$ me immortal until ! "w %\ld be done4 ,oh t my s\l1 & all t is )9 me c\ld suffici5tly bless ! ,"l1 & rememb] all 8 b5efits4 ,i 0 !n unm9dful (1 & un?ankful = 8 protection2 ,i revell$ 9 ! delights ( a fre$om t none c\ld %>e b my dog1 :o nev] left ! side ( 8 associate4 ,%all ,i give y a sket* ( ! gr\p1 9 "s l9es compos$ dur+ "o ( ^? excursions8 ,!y may p>tly describe x4 ,i f\nd1 !m among "s old pap]s4 ,i "k by ! ardor ?\ can/ n re/ra91 ,by ! curve ( ?y neck & ! toss ( ?y mane1 ,by ! foam ( ?y snort+ :i* spangles my br[1 ,! fire ( ! ,arab is hot 9 !e n[4 ',tw]e h>% to control !e1 my frolicsome /e$2 ,i give !e ! re9--s away at ?y spe$2 ,?y rid] w d>e to be wilful z !e1 ,laugh ! future to scorn1 & p>take 9 ?y glee4 ,away to ! m\nta9--:at ne$ we to fe>8 ,pursuit _c press on my ,fairy's c>e]2 ,full light 7 ! heel & well-balanc$ ! head ,t v5tur$ to foll[ ! track ( ?y tread1 ,:]e ro>s ! l\d torr5t & />ts ! rude plank1 ,& ?und]s ! rook-sev]$ mass d[n ! bank1 ,:ile mirror$ 9 cry/al ! f>-%oot+ gl[1 ,) dazzl+ effulg5ce is sp>kl+ bel[4 ,"o />t1 & ,i die2 yet 9 peace ,i recl9e1 ,my bosom c re/ on ! fealty ( ?9e3 ,?\ lov'/ me1 my sweet "o1 & w\ld'/ n be free1 ,f a yoke t has nev] borne rudely on !e4 ,ah1 pleasant ! empire ( ^? to confess1 ,^: wra? is a :isp]1 _! rule a c>ess4 ,behold h[ ?y playmate is /ret*+ beside1 ,z loa? to be vanqui%$ 9 love or 9 pride1 ,:ile upw>d he glances 8 eyeball ( jet1 ,half dread+ ?y fleetness may di/ance him yet4 ,ah1 ,m>co1 poor ,m>co--our pa/ime to-day ,7 reft ( "o pleasure if he 7 away4 ,h[ preci\s ^! mom5ts3 fair fre$om exp&s ,h] p9ions ( light o'er ! desolate l&s2 ,! wat]s are fla%+ z bright z ?9e eye1 ,un*a9$ z ?y motion ! breezes sweep by1 ,delici\s !y come1 o'er ! fl[]-sc5t$ e>?1 ,l :isp]s ( love f ! isle ( my bir?2 ,:ile ! :ite-bosom$ ,ci/us h] p]fume exhales1 ,& sighs out a spicy f>ewell to ! gales4 ,unfe>$ & unfe>+ we'll trav]se ! wood1 ,:]e p\rs ! rude torr5t its turbul5t flood3 ,! =e/'s r$ *ildr5 w smile z we sc\r ,by ! log-fa%ion$ hut & ! p9e-wov5 b[]2 ,?y fea!ry foot/eps sc>ce b5d+ ! grass1 ,or d5t+ ! dew-spangl$ moss :]e we pass ,:at />tles !e8 ',twas b ! s5t9el gun ,fla%$ a vesp] salute to ?y rival ! sun2 ,he has clos$ 8 swift progress be=e !e1 & sweeps ,) fetlock ( gold ! la/ v]ge ( ! /eeps4 ,! fire-fly anon f 8 cov]t %all glide1 ,& d>k fall ! %ad[s ( eve on ! tide4 ,tread s(tly--my _s is joy\s no m4 ,a nor!rn aurora1 x %one & is o'er2 ,! te>s w fall fa/ z ,i ga!r ! re91 ,& a long look rev]ts to yon %ad[y pla94 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re is m ( x1 b no?+ to ! purpose ( ! pres5t hi/ory4 ,x co/ me some?+ to transcribe ?is1 s vividly is ! pa/ recall$ by x4 ,w\ld to ,god ,i might m fully devote to 8 s]vice e day ( ! life s wond]fully pres]v$ by him4 ,9 addition to ?is cont9u\s pres]vation on horseback1 ,i exp]i5c$ ! same int]pos+ provid5ce :5 viol5tly upset 9 a gig4 ,! road :]e x occurr$ 0 /rewn ) brok5 rocks on ei!r side1 = miles2 & sc>cely "o cle> spot appe>$1 save t on :i* ,i 0 ?r[n1 :]e a c>pet ( ! s(te/ grass ov]spread a p]fect level ( ab\t twelve feet 9 l5g?1 & ne>ly ! same 9 wid?4 ,"h ,i fell1 ) no o!r injury ?an a contusion on ! hip4 ,! gig 0 completely rev]s$1 ! horse da%$ on till he ran "o ( ! %afts into a bank1 & set himself fa/4 ,my soj\rn 9 ?is int]e/+ c\ntry 0 ( two ye>s' duration1 m>k$ ) _m m]cies1 among ! greate/ ( :i* 0 ! un9t]rupt$ enjoym5t ( p]fect heal?1 al?\gh my fir/ w9t] !re 0 ! mo/ sev]e t _h be5 kn[n = ?irty ye>s1 & ! foll[+ summ] "o ( ! mo/ oppressively hot !y _h ev] exp]i5c$4 ,! gradations ( spr+1 autumn1 & twilight1 are !re sc>cely kn[n1 & ! sudd5 transition f summ] to w9t] is z try+ to ! heal? ( an ,european z t f day to night is uncong5ial to ! ta/e4 ,"h1 too1 ,i rep5t$ at leisure1 & am5d$ ) no small difficulty & labor1 my neglect ( ^? accompli%m5ts to :i* my de> "m _h s (t5 va9ly solicit$ my att5tion4 ,! p5cil 0 pr(itless2 ,i _h long ?r[n x by3 books 7 no long] an adequate set-(f aga9/ realities1 ev5 c\ld ,i h conjur$ up a libr>y 9 ! wild]ness ( ,nova ,scotia's inl& settlem5t2 b ! cul9>y & confection>y bran*es 7 !re invaluable1 & 9 !m ,i 0 w(ully defici5t4 ,_h ,i n coax$ ! old ,fr5* soldi] :o (ficiat$ z mess-cook to give me a few lessons1 we mu/ h liv$ on raw meal & salt rations dur+ weeks :5 ! roads 7 completely sn[$ up1 & no provisions c\ld he br\ght 94 ,h[ev]1 ,i prov$ an apt s*ol> to poor ,seba/ian1 & to ! k9d neighbors :o initiat$ me into ! my/]ies ( pres]ves & pa/ry4 ,"y ladies _c tell into :at situations ev5ts may ?r[ !m2 & ,i w\ld /rongly recomm5d ! revival ( t obsolete /udy call$ good h\sewif]y4 ,! woman :o _c disp5se ) female s]vants1 mu/ n travel4 ,i _h none = six mon?s1 ke5 w9t] mon?s1 9 ,annapolis2 ! only p]sons :o c\ld be f\nd dis5gag$ be+ ( *>act]s :olly inadmissible4 ,! /raits to :i* ,i 0 put 7 any ?+ b laughable at ! "t1 ?\gh ! recollection n[ (t5 excites a smile4 ,inde$ no p]fection 9 ,european h\sekeep+ w\ld avail to gu>d aga9/ ! deva/ations t a ,nova ,scotian fro/ w make1 if n met by tactics peculi> to t climate4 ,h[ c\ld ,i anticipate t a f9e piece ( beef1 fre%-kill$1 br\ght 9 at noon /ill w>m1 w\ld by two o'clock require sm>t bl[s ) a hat*et to slice (f a /eak2 or t half-a-doz5 plates1 p]fectly dry1 plac$ at a mod]ate di/ance f ! fire prep>atory to d9n]1 w\ld pres5tly sep>ate into half a hundr$ fragm5ts1 ?r\gh ! action ( heat on _! fro/$ pores2 or t milk drawn f a c[ )9 sight ( my breakfa/-table w\ld be %eet$ ) ice on its passage ?i!r2 or t a mom5t>y pause1 = ! *oice ( a fitt+ phrase 9 writ+ a lett]1 w\ld load ! nib ( my p5 ) a black icicle8 ,if ,i did n cry ov] my num]\s breakages & o!r disa/]s1 x 0 "u ! appreh5sion ( te>s freez+ on my eyelids2 & truly !y might h done s1 = my f+]s 7 once 9 t awful condition t mu/ h end$ 9 mortification1 b = ! pres5ce ( m9d ( a poor soldi]1 :o1 see+ me runn+ to ! fire 9 t /ate1 drew 8 bayonet to b> my approa*1 & wrapp+ a co>se clo? r\nd my lifeless h&s1 muff-fa%ion1 compell$ me to walk up & d[n ! spaci\s hall until ! circulation return$1 :i* x did ) a s5sation ( agony t well-nigh took away my s5ses4 ,?is 0 a mo/ signal escape1 = ,i 0 :olly ignorant ( my dang]1 & n a little p]plex$ & annoy$ at ! insubord9ate conduct ( ! vet]an1 :o 0 a model ( respectful humility4 ,_h he1 poor fell[1 kn[n h[ busy ^? f+]s w\ld "o day be aga9/ 8 religion--= he 0 a ,fr5* ,romani/--he might h be5 tempt$ to %ea? 8 bayonet & give me free access to ! tempt+ fire1 ! imm5se faggots ( :i* w\ld h suffic$ to roa/ a h]etic4 ,nova ,scotia is1 ,i firmly believe1 ! mo/ g5]ally & devot$ly loyal ( all our colonies3 ! atta*m5t ( its p to ! "m-c\ntry is beautiful1 & _! p>tisan%ip 9 all que/ions betwe5 u & ! ,/ates mo/ zeal\s4 ,! only fault ,i _h to f9d ) !m 0 _! indiff]5ce t[>ds ! poor relics ( ! ,indian race /ill dwell+ 9 ! woods1 :o 7 to me objects ( ! livelie/ int]e/ ev5 be=e ,i _h any feel+ ( ,*ri/ian duty t[>ds ! hea!n--or t[>ds su* z ^? :o are worse ?an hea!n1 be+ numb]$ among ! memb]s ( ! ,romi% *ur*1 & utt]ly1 wret*$ly ignorant ev5 ( su* little tru? z rema9s buri$ "u ! mass ( anti*ri/ian error1 to make its d>kness m visible4 ,! ,indians are :olly despis$2 sc>cely look$ on z be+s ( ! same race1 by ! g5]ality ( ! coloni/s4 ,:]e ,*ri/ian pr9ciple prevails1 !y become ( c\rse important 9 ! highe/ degree2 b ,i speak ( :at ,i saw1 :5 vital godl9ess 0 little kn[n among !m1 & ,i c av] t ev5 ,"l ,dalh\sie sc>cely c\ld succe$ 9 /irr+ up a mom5t>y int]e/ = ! disp]s$ aborig9es4 ,t excell5t nobleman devot$ himself v w>mly to ! "w ( attempt+ _! civilization2 & told me t if a few w\ld jo9 him he>tily & zeal\sly 9 ! ef=t1 he %\ld succe$2 b t1 betwe51 lukew>mness on ! "o side & suspicion on ! o!r1 he f\nd himself completely baffl$4 ,x 0 n to be wond]$ at t ! ,indians _h a lurk+ dread ( exp]i5c+ aga9 ! h>d%ips1 n to say ! trea*]y & cruelty1 inflict$ on _! fa!rs4 ,i enjoy$ a high place 9 ! affection & confid5ce ( ^? int]e/+ p1 ! orig9 ( :i* may help to prove at h[ light an e/imate ! poor creatures 7 g5]ally rat$ by _! :ite bre?r54 ,my claim on _! atta*m5t consi/$ 9 no?+ m ?an ! p]=mance ( a b\nd5 duty 9 %elt]+ = a few weeks "o ( _! numb] :o _h1 9 a mo/ unprovok$ & cruel mann]1 be5 w\nd$ by a p>ty ( our soldi]s & left to p]i% 9 ! woods4 ,h[ beautiful d ! :ite cliffs ( ,albion appe> 9 ! eyes ( ! return+ w&]] :o has le>n$ by a =eign soj\rn to e/imate ! com=ts1 ! privileges1 ! bless+s ( ?is isl& home4 ,no place c\ld be m ?or\ghly ,engli% 9 feel+1 habits1 & pr9ciples1 ?an ,nova ,scotia2 b x 0 n ,engl&4 ,! viol5t transition ( seasons1 s diff]5t f ! s(t gradations by :i*1 ) u1 w9t] bright5s into summ]1 & summ] fades into w9t]1 m>k$ a contra/ f> f pleas+2 & ! int5sity ( cold1 ! fi]c5ess ( heat1 alike unkn[n 9 our temp]ate climate1 =c$ comp>isons f> f agreeable4 ,?us1 on ! l[e/ gr\nd ( a :olly selfi% feel+1 ! approa* to nay native %ore c\ld n be o!rwise ?an delightful2 b view$ z ! "m-l&1 z ! great emporium ( comm]ce1 ! *ief temple ( lib]ty1 ! nurse ( milit>y pr[ess1 ! unconqu]$ *ampion ( all t is nationally great ?r\gh\t ! _w1 ! sight ( our free & happy isle is inde$ an inspir+ "o to ^? :o c appreciate moral gr&eur4 ,h[ mu* m1 9 ! eyes ( ! ,*ri/ian1 is %e to be e/eem$ z ! glory ( all l&s1 z possess+ ! true k ( ,god1 & labor+ to spread t k ?r\gh\t ! _w2 ! l& ( ,prote/antism1 ! l& ( ! ,bible4 ,i really _c und]/& ! mean+1 nor fancy :at may be ! feel+1 ( ^? :o pr(ess to h m]g$ _! patriotism 9 some?+ ( univ]sal good-w to ! h\sehold ( fai? all ov] ! _w4 ,x seems to me e :it z unnatural z t ! memb] ( a ,*ri/ian family %\ld =ego all ! sweets ( conjugal1 p>5tal1 filial1 frat]nal love1 9 ! det]m9ation to feel an equal reg>d = 8 neighbor's wife1 husb&1 etc41 z = 8 own2 &1 moreov]1 to take an equal conc]n 9 ! affairs ( 8 neighbor's kit*5 z 9 8 own h\sehold matt]s4 ,?is sort ( g5]aliz+ reg>d w\ld ?r[ our respective e/abli%m5ts into s+ul> confusion1 & might betray ourselves into sundry false positions1 & v awkw>d pr$icam5ts4 ,h[ev]1 ! comp>ative ext9ction ( natural affection w\ld =m ! mo/ prom95tly repreh5sible feature 9 ! case2 & ,i _c b ?9k t ! boa/$ cosmopolitanism ( "s good p w\ld we> an aspect n v dissimil>1 if rightly & sob]ly view$4 ,c]ta9ly ,i c\ld no m te> ! love ( c\ntry f my he>t1 ?an ,i c\ld ! love ( k9dr$2 & :5 my /ep aga9 press$ ! ,engli% /r&1 x 0 ) a s5sation almo/ resembl+ ! fabl$ invigoration ( ! ,titans1 :o d]iv$ new life1 new /r5g?1 new ent]prise1 f com+ 9 contact ) _! "m e>?4 ,engl&1 inde$1 conta9$ little t 0 p]sonally ende>+ to me1 except my belov$ surviv+ p>5t2 b x 0 a joy\s ?+ to embrace h] once m1 aft] ! deep roll ( ! ocean _h sep>at$ u = ne>ly ?ree ye>s2 dur+ a portion ( :i* %e _h be5 le>n+ to prize h] native l&1 9 a disgu/+ region ( all t is mo/ directly oppos$ to lib]ty1 civil or religi\s--to honorable feel+1 j conduct1 hone/ pr9ciple1 or practical dec5cy4 ,9 %ort1 %e _h be5 9 ,portugal4 ,,lett] ,v4 ,,irel&4 ,i n[ arrive at an epo* f :i* ,i may date ! comm5cem5t ( all t des]ves to be call$ life1 inasmu* z ,i _h hi!rto be5 liv+ )\t ,god 9 ! _w4 ,my exi/5ce 0 a fev]i% dream ( va9 pleasure fir/1 & !n ( agitations & horrors4 ,my m9d 0 a *aos ( useless in=mation1 my "* a mass ( unappli$ en]gies1 my he>t a wa/e ( unclaim$ affections1 & my hope an enigma ( confus$ speculations4 ,i _h pl5ty to d1 yet felt t ,i 0 do+ no?+2 & !re 0 a gr[+ want )9 my bosom1 a crav+ aft] ,i "k n :at--a re/less1 unsatisfi$1 unhappy feel+1 t seem$ 9 que/ ( "s unkn[n good4 ,h[ ?is 0 awak5$1 ,i "k n2 x 0 unaccompani$ ) any conviction ( my own s9fulness1 or any d\bt ( my p]fect safety z a *ild ( ,god4 ,i did n anticipate any satisfaction f *ange ( place2 b readily prep>$ to obey a summons f my husb& to foll[ him to ,irel&1 :i!r he _h gone to engage 9 a law-suit4 ,to be sure ,i hat$ ,irel& mo/ cordially2 ,i _h nev] se5 x1 & z a matt] ( *oice w\ld h pref]r$ ,new ,s\? ,wales1 s completely 0 ,i influ5c$ by ! prevail+ prejudice aga9/ t l& ( b>b>ism4 ,_m p despise ,irel&1 :o1 if y dem& a reason1 w tell y x is a horrid place1 & ! p all savages2 b if y press = pro(s & illu/rations1 fur!rmore su* depon5ts say n4 ,on a dull day 9 ,april ,i took my place1 a solit>y travell]1 9 ! ,%rewsbury coa*1 q ignorant z to ! road ,i 0 to travel1 & f> less at home ?an ,i %\ld h be5 9 ! wilde/ "p ( ,nor? ,am]ica1 or on ! deck ( a %ip b\nd to circumnavigate ! globe4 ,we rattl$ out ( ,london1 & ! fir/ ?+ t at all r\s$ my att5tion 0 a moonlight view ( ,ox=d1 :]e we /opp$ at midnight to *ange horses4 ,^? old grey t[]s1 & mighty masses ( anci5t build+1 on :i* ! silv]y ray fell ) f9e effect1 awoke 9 my bosom two melan*oly tra9s ( ?\ght2 "o 0 ! recollection ( my fa!r1 ^: en?usia/ic atta*m5t to 8 own univ]sity _h (t5 provok$ w>m discussion ) ! no less atta*$ ,cantabs ( our old social p>ties1 & :o (t5 held out to me1 z ! greate/ ( e>?ly gratifications1 a visit ) him to t seat ( le>n+ :i* he w\ld describe 9 gl[+ colors4 ,b :]e 0 my fa!r n[8 ,8 poor girl1 ! delight ( 8 eyes & treasure ( 8 he>t1 0 9 ,ox=d1 ) none to guide1 none to gu>d1 none to speak a *e]+ ^w to h]4 ,i %runk back 9 ! coa*1 & griev$ ov] ?is till a sudd5 turn+ once m ?rew be=e me ! outl9e ( "s magnific5t old fabric ba!d 9 moonlight1 & t call$ up a fit ( patriotism1 calculat$ to d>k51 yet m ! prospect be=e me4 ,?is 0 ,engl&1 my own pr\d ,engl&2 & ^! ! cl\d-capp$ t[]s1 ! gorge\s palaces1 t di/+ui%$ h] seats ( le>n+ above all o!rs1 ,i 0 b\nd = ,irel&4 ,:at ,engli% "y lady _h ev] /udi$ ! hi/ory ( t remote1 half-civiliz$ settlem5t1 call$ ,irel&8 ,n ,i1 c]ta9ly1 nor any ( my acqua9tance2 b ,i took x = grant$ t ,irel& _h no antiquities1 no?+ to di/+ui% h] f o!r b>b>\s l&s1 except t h] p ate potatoes1 made blund]s1 & w5t to mass4 ,i felt x a sort ( degradation to h an ,iri% "n1 & to g !re z a resid5t2 b com=t$ myself by resolv+ nev] 9 "o p>ticul> to give 9 to any ,iri% mode ( liv+1 speak+1 or ?9k+1 & to associate only ) su* z _h be5 at lea/ educat$ 9 ,engl&4 ,! next day's ris+ sun %one ^u ,/rat=d-on-,avon2 & "h reviv$ 9 "s degree my ,%akspe>ian mania1 to ! /ill high] exaltation ( my ,engli% /ilts1 & ! deep] debasem5t ( all r\gh ,iri% k]nes4 ,at ,%rewsbury we p>t$ ) a k9d old lady1 :o _h %[n me "s good-natur$ att5tions1 & ,i 0 left ) only an eld]ly g5tleman1 b\nd also = ,dubl91 :o told me we mu/ />t at ?ree o'clock ! foll[+ morn+ = ,holyhead4 ,i 0 dreadfully deject$1 & told him ,i hop$ he w\ld n ?9k ! worse ( me = be+ s utt]ly alone1 & t he w\ld excuse my retir+ to my own ap>tm5t ! in/ant we _h d9$4 ,he took p5cil & pap]1 & ) a gl[ ( b5evol5t feel+ express$ 8 anxi\s desire to take ! same c>e ( me t he w\ld ( 8 own daught]1 & to look on me z 8 especial *>ge1 until he %\ld give me into ! h&s ( my lawful protector4 ,i ?ank$ him ) true ,engli% res]ve1 & a coldness t seem$ r to grate on 8 w>m feel+s2 & hav+ own$ t 8 see+ my ,newf\ndl& dog well f$ & lodg$ w\ld be a great obligation1 ,i )drew to fret alone ov] my exile to ?is =eign l&4 ,y may call ?is an exagg]ation1 b x is no su* ?+4 ,i delight 9 dwell+ ^u my reluctant approa* to ! l& t ,i 0 to love s fondly4 ,next day my mis]ies 7 alleviat$ by ! en*ant+ beauties ( ! ,wel% c\ntry ?r\gh :i* we pass$2 & my reg>d = ,mr4 ,d---- greatly increas$ by ! compassionate c>e he took ( a poor sickly woman & h] ragg$ infant1 :om he descri$ on ! top ( ! coa*1 & fir/ ?rew 8 l>ge cloak to !m1 !n1 ) my cordial ass5t1 took !m inside1 & wat*$ !m mo/ k9dly until he fell asleep4 ,i peep$ into 8 k9d1 b5evol5t face1 & inw>dly confess$ !re might be "s nice p 9 ,irel&4 ,at ! inn :]e we d9$1 ,i made ano!r acqua9tance4 ,a y\ng]1 b middle-ag$ man1 ^: vivacity1 comb9$ ) ,wel* mutton & ale1 q rais$ my spirits4 ,he>+ f ,mr4 ,d---- ) :at en?usiasm ,i _h admir$ ! sc5]y ( ,llangoll51 he volunte]$ to h& me 9 at ! coa* w9d[1 a note ( e rem>kable place we %\ld approa* dur+ ! re/ ( ! j\rney2 add+1 ,i "k ! road pretty well1 hav+ trav]s$ x at lea/ twice a ye> = sixte5 ye>s1 pass+ to & f my ,iri% home4 ,he 0 a legal man1 a f9i%$ g5tleman1 & ano!r sad drawback on my p]v]se prejudices4 ,mr4 ,f---- prov$ an excell5t descriptive guide1 punctually rea*+ to me f ! ro( ( ! coa* 8 little memor&a1 9 "t = me to take a survey ( ! object conc]n$2 & also mo/ assidu\sly aid+ 9 ! c>e ( my luggage & dog :5 we 7 all put into ! f]ry-boat4 ,!re 0 !n no bridge ov] ! ,m5ai1 & ,i be+ 9 total ignorance ( ! r\te 0 n a little dismay$ at ! emb>kation1 =gett+ t ,holyhead 0 9 ,anglesea1 & t ,anglesea 0 an isl&4 ,at la/1 :5 ! boat pu%$ (f1 ! opposite %ore be+ hidd5 "u ! mi/ ( deep5+ twilight1 ,i address$ ! f]ryman 9 a tone ( remon/rance t inf9itely div]t$ ! :ole p>ty1 ,surely y are n go+ to take me ov] 9 ?is way to ,irel&8 ,no1 no1 said ,mr4 ,f----1 y %all h a good night's re/1 & a bett] sea-boat1 be=e we />t = ! de> gre5 isle4 ,/eam]s 7 n !n ^u ! packet /ation1 & ! w9d be+ unfavorable1 we _h a passage ( sev5te5 h\rs1 n l&+ until two 9 ! morn+ ( ,ea/] ,sunday4 ,no?+ c\ld exce$ my discom=t1 z y may suppose1 :5 ,i tell y t aft] pay+ my bill at ,holyhead1 ,i1 9 a fit ( ab/raction1 deposit$ x v safely 9 my purse1 & 9 its /ead ?rew away my la/ bank-note4 ,! mi/ake 0 n suspect$ until 9 mid-voyage ,i exam9$ ! /ate ( my f9ances1 & f\nd ! sum total to am\nt to "o %ill+4 ,?is 0 an awful discov]y2 my passage 0 paid1 b h[ to rea* ,dubl9 0 a my/]y1 & su* 0 ! untam$ pride ( my "* t ,i w\ld soon] h walk$ !re ?an confess$ to ! fact1 :i* might h be5 d\bt$1 & laid myself "u ! obligation ( a loan :i* ,i 0 sure ( repay+ 9 a few h\rs1 ev5 to good old ,mr4 ,d----4 ,:5 ,i /epp$ f ! deck ( ! packet ^u ! plank t re/$ aga9/ ! pi] ( ,h[? ,i _h n "o s+le halfp5ny 9 my pocket1 & ,i exp]i5c$1 )\t ! slighte/ emotion1 "o ( ! mo/ hairbread? escapes ( my life4 ,! wat] 0 v l[2 ! plank ( c\rse slop$ greatly1 & z soon z ,i set my foot on x began to slide d[n4 ,9 ano!r second ,i %\ld h be5 plung$ betwe5 ! vessel's side & ! /one pi]1 )\t any human possibility ( rescue2 & already ,i _h lo/ my balance1 :5 a sailor1 spr++ on ! bulw>ks1 caught me r\nd ! knees1 & at ! same in/ant ,mr4 ,f----1 ?r[+ himself on ! gr\nd1 seiz$ & /eadi$ ! plant1 until ,i recov]$ my foot+ & ran up4 ,i %udd] to recall ! h>d5$ indiff]5ce ( my own _s1 :ile ! k9d1 w>m-he>t$ ,iri%m5 7 agitat$ ) /rong emotion1 & all ar\nd me ?ank+ ,god = my escape4 ,ea* ( my fri5ds ?\ght ,i _h l&$ "u ! c>e ( ! o!r2 :ile "o _h my dog & ! o!r my portmanteau4 ,i receiv$ _! f]v5t cead-mille-fail! ) cold polit5ess1 & trod ) feel+s ( disgu/ on ! de> little gre5 %amrocks t ,i n[ prize s fondly4 ,we w5t to ! hotel1 & ,mr4 ,d---- propos$ my retir+ to a *amb] until ! coa* />t$2 b my empty purse w\ld n all[ ( t1 s ,i said ,i pref]r$ sitt+ :]e ,i 04 ,refre%m5ts 7 ord]$2 b ?\gh 9 a /ate ( rav5\s hung]1 ,i /eadily refus$ to t\* !m1 = ,i w\ld n h all[$ ano!r p]son to pay = me1 & 0 resolv$ to conceal my loss z long z ,i c\ld4 ,i 0 excus$1 on ! presumption ( a qualmi%ness result+ f ! toss+ ( ! %ip2 & mo/ melan*oly1 mo/ =lorn 7 ! feel+s ) :i* ,i wat*$ ?r\gh ! l>ge w9d[ ! fad+ moonbeams & ! dawn+ day4 ,to my unspeakable joy1 ! two g5tlem5 propos$ tak+ a po/*aise ) me to ,dubl91 ! exp5se be+ no m & ! com=t mu* great] ?an go+ by coa*2 & hav+ reque/$ ,mr4 ,f---- to keep an exact acc\nt ( my %>e 9 ! *>ges1 ,i took my seat beside !m ) a f> light] he>t2 my dog be+ on ! footbo>d 9 front ( ! c>riage4 ,away we drove1 our horses be+ "y1 fre%1 & 9 high condition4 ,x 0 a glori\s morn+1 & va9ly did ,i /rive n to admire ! sc5]y1 z "o aft] ano!r ( ! beautiful villas t adorn ! ,h[? road gleam$ out 9 ! sn[y :it5ess t *>act]izes ! h\ses !re1 g5]ally embosom$ 9 trees & surr\nd$ by g>d5s on ! ris+ gr\nds4 ,we 7 desc5d+ ! hilly road v rapidly1 :5 by "s means ! horses took fright1 & broke into a full-gallop1 cross+ & re-cross+ ! road 9 a fe>ful mann]4 ,! driv] 0 ?r[n on ! footbo>d1 poor ,tajo hung by 8 *a9 aga9/ ! horses' legs1 & our situation 0 mo/ critical4 ,i _h suff]$ f "o upset 9 ,am]ica1 & resolv$ n to enc\nt] ano!r2 s quietly ga!r+ my long rid+-habit ab\t me ) "o h&1 & putt+ ! o!r out at ! w9d[1 ,i op5$ ! door1 & ) "o active spr+ flung myself out4 ,y "k ! extreme p]il1 ! almo/ c]ta9 de/ruction ( su* a leap f a c>riage at full spe$2 ,i did n1 or c]ta9ly ,i w\ld n h tak5 x4 ,h[ev]1 at t v in/ant ( "t1 ! horses made a dead /op1 & ! *aise rema9$ /ation>y only a few paces 9 advance ( me4 ,0 n ! h& ( ,god "h8 ,oh1 surely x 01 9 ! mo/ m>k$ & wond]ful mann]4 ,no cause c\ld be assign$ = ! arre/ ( ! animals2 ! driv] _h lo/ ! re9s1 & no "o 0 ne>4 ,i _h fall5 flat on ! road-side1 j graz+ my gloves ) ! gravel & gett+ a good m\?ful ( ! soil1 ) :i* my face 0 br\ght into involunt>y contact4 ,9 a mom5t ,i sprung to my feet1 & bl[+ x out1 exclaim$ ) a laugh1 ,oh well1 ,i suppose ,i am to love ?is c\ntry aft] all1 = ,i h kiss$ x 9 spite ( me4 ,i !n ran to help my dog out ( 8 disagreeable /ate ( susp5sion1 & return$ to my fri5ds1 :o 7 fright5$ & angry too1 & :o refus$ to let me into ! *aise unless ,i positively promis$ n to jump out any m4 ,to %ort5 ! tale1 ,i rea*$ ! ,hib]nian hotel1 :]e my husb& 01 seiz$ "s money1 & paid my exp5ses )\t any "o hav+ discov]$ t ,i 0 a complete bankrupt up to t m9ute4 ,i h be5 v prolix "h2 = ,i _c ov]look a s+le incid5t connect$ ) ?is ev5tful j\rney4 ,nev] did any "o less anticipate a bless+ or look = happ9ess ?an ,i 9 visit+ ,irel&4 ,i _c ent] into m p>ticul>s1 because x w\ld involve ! names ( fri5ds :o might n wi% to figure 9 pr9t2 b if ^! pages ev] meet ! eyes ( any :o gave me ! fir/ day's welcome 9 ,dubl91 let !m be assur$ t ! remembrance ( _! t5d] k9dness1 ! gl[+ w>m? ( _! op5 hospitality1 & _! solicitude to make ! poor /rang] happy among !m1 broke ?r\gh ! ice ( a he>t t _h froz5 itself up 9 mo/ unnatural res]ve1 & gave life to ! fir/ pulse t play$ )9 x ( ! love t soon p]vad$ its e ve9--! love ( de>1 g5]\s ,irel&4 ,my fir/ j\rney into ! int]ior 0 to ! ,k+'s c\nty1 :]e ,i pass$ "s weeks 9 a h\se mo/ curi\sly situat$1 ) an op5 prospect ( t5 miles pure bog 9 front ( x4 ,be+ newly built1 no?+ _h yet _h "t to gr[2 b its own]1 "o ( ! mo/ delightful old g5tlem5 ,i ev] met )1 _h sp>$ no co/ to r5d] x commodi\s & h&some4 ,he 0 a f9e specim5 ( ! hospitable ,iri% g5tleman1 & took great pleasure 9 br++ me acqua9t$ ) ! cu/oms ( a p & ! features ( a place s new to me4 ,inde$ x 0 my fir/ introduction to :at 0 really ,iri%1 = ,dubl9 is too mu* ( a capital to af=d _m specim5s ( di/9ct nationality4 ,on t great fe/ival ( ! peasantry1 ,/4 ,john's eve1 ,mr4 ,c---- resolv$ on giv+ 8 t5ants & neighbors a treat t %\ld also enlight5 me on "o ( _! mo/ s+ul> relics ( paganism4 ,x is ! cu/om at sunset on t ev5+ to k9dle num]\s imm5se fires ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry1 built l our bonfires to a great height1 ! pile be+ compos$ ( turf1 bog-wood1 & su* o!r combu/ibles z !y c ga!r4 ,! turf yields a /eady1 sub/antial body ( fire1 ! bog-wood a mo/ brilliant flame2 & ! effect ( ^! great beacons blaz+ on e hill1 s5d+ up volumes ( smoke f e po9t ( ! horizon1 is v rem>kable4 ,ours 0 a magnific5t "o1 be+ provid$ by ! l&lord z a complim5t to 8 p1 & 0 built on ! lawn1 z close beside ! h\se z safety w\ld admit4 ,e>ly 9 ! ev5+ ! peasants began to assemble1 all habit$ 9 _! be/ array1 gl[+ ) heal?1 e c\nt5ance full ( t sp>kl+ animation & excess ( enjoym5t t *>act]izes ! en?usia/ic p ( ! l&4 ,i _h nev] se5 any?+ resembl+ x1 & 0 exce$+ly delight$ ) _! h&some1 intellig5t1 m]ry faces2 ! bold be>+ ( ! m51 & ! playful b really mode/ deportm5t ( ! maid5s2 ! vivacity ( ! ag$ p1 & ! wild glee ( ! *ildr54 ,! fire be+ k9dl$1 a spl5did blaze %ot up1 & = a :ile !y /ood contemplat+ x1 ) faces /rangely disfigur$ by ! peculi> light fir/ emitt$ :5 bog-wood is ?r[n on2 aft] a %ort pause1 ! gr\nd 0 cle>$ 9 front ( an old bl9d pip]1 ! v beau ideal ( en]gy1 droll]y1 & %rewdness1 :o1 seat$ on a l[ *air1 ) a well-repl5i%$ jug )9 8 rea*1 screw$ 8 pipes to ! livelie/ tunes1 & ! endless jig began4 ,an ,iri% jig is int]m9able1 s long z ! p>ty holds toge!r2 = :5 "o ( ! danc]s becomes fatigu$1 a fre% individual is ready to /ep into ! vacat$ place quick z ?\ght1 s t ! o!r does n pause1 until 9 l mann] oblig$ to give place to a successor4 ,!y cont9ue foot+ x1 & sett+ to "o ano!r1 occasionally mov+ 9 a figure1 & *ang+ places ) extraord9>y rapidity1 _s1 & grace4 ,few inde$ among ev5 ! v l[e/ ( ! mo/ impov]i%$ class h gr[n into y\? )\t obta9+ "s lessons 9 danc+ f ! travell+ danc+-ma/]s ( _! di/rict2 & c]ta9ly1 9 ! way !y use x1 _m w\ld be dispos$ to grant a disp5sation to ! "y peasant1 :i* !y w\ld )hold f ! "y pe]4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 sadly abus$ among !m1 to ,sabba?-break+s1 revell+s1 & ! mo/ immoral sc5es1 :]e !y are congregat$ & kept toge!r "u its influ5ce2 & ! same sc5e enact$ a ye> aft]w>ds w\ld h awoke 9 my m9d v diff]5t feel+s f ^? ) :i* ,i reg>d$ ?is fir/ spectacle ( ,iri% hil>ity1 :5 ,i c\ld h>dly be re/ra9$ by ! laugh+ remon/rances ( ! quality f ?r[+ myself into ! mid/ ( ! joy\s gr\p & danc+ ) !m4 ,b some?+ 0 to foll[ t puzzl$ me n a little2 :5 ! fire _h burn$ = "s h\rs & got l[1 an indisp5sable "p ( ! c]emony comm5c$4 ,e "o pres5t ( ! peasantry pass$ ?r\gh x1 & sev]al *ildr5 7 ?r[n across ! sp>kl+ emb]s2 :ile a wood5 frame ( "s eight feet long1 ) a horse's head fix$ to "o end & a l>ge :ite %eet ?r[n ov] x1 conceal+ ! wood & ! man on ^: head x 0 c>ri$1 made its appe>ance4 ,?is 0 greet$ ) load %\ts z ! :ite horse2 & hav+ be5 safely c>ri$ by ! skill ( its be>] sev]al times ?r\gh ! fire ) a bold leap1 x pursu$ ! p1 :o ran scream+ & laugh+ 9 e direction4 ,i ask$ :at ! horse 0 meant =1 & 0 told x repres5t$ all cattle4 ,"h 0 ! old pagan wor%ip ( ,baal1 if n ( ,molo* too1 c>ri$ on op5ly & univ]sally 9 ! he>t ( a nom9ally ,*ri/ian c\ntry1 & by millions pr(ess+ ! ,*ri/ian "n4 ,i 0 conf\nd$1 = ,i did n !n "k t ,pop]y is only a crafty adaptation ( pagan idolatries to its own s*eme2 & :ile ,i look$ ^u ! n[ wildly excit$ p ) _! *ildr51 & 9 a figure all _! cattle1 pass+ aga9 & aga9 ?r\gh ! fire1 ,i almo/ que/ion$ 9 my own m9d ! lawfulness ( ! spectacle1 consid]$ 9 ! light t ! ,bible mu/1 ev5 to ! natural he>t1 exhibit x 9 to ^? :o confess ! true ,god4 ,!re 0 no "o to :om ,i c\ld brea! su* ?\ghts1 & !y soon fad$ f my m9d3 n s ! impression made on x by ?is fair specim5 ( a population :om ,i _h long class$ ) ! savage inhabitants ( b>b>\s l&s1 pictur+ !m to myself z d>k1 f]oci\s1 discont5t$1 & malignant4 ,t su* 0 ! rev]se ( _! natural "* ,i n[ began to feel conv9c$2 & f t ev5+ my he>t gradually w>m$ t[>ds a race :om ,i f\nd to be frank1 w>m1 & affectionate1 beyond any ,i _h ev] met )4 ,my int]e/ 9 !m1 h[ev]1 0 soon to be plac$ on ano!r & a firm] basis4 ,i took up my p]man5t abode 9 a neighbor+ c\nty2 & )9 six mon?s aft] t celebration ( ,/4 ,john's eve1 ,i exp]i5c$ ! mighty p[] ( ,god 9 a way truly m>vell\s4 ,great & m>vell\s are all 8 works1 9 creat+1 9 su/a9+1 9 gov]n+ ?is _w ( wond]ful creatures2 b ,oh1 h[ surpass+ly m>vell\s & great 9 r$eem+ lo/ s9n]s1 9 tak+ away ! he>t ( /one & giv+ a he>t ( fle%1 & mak+ 8 p will+ 9 ! day ( 8 p[]6 ,i h c>efully ab/a9$ f any p>ticul>s respect+ myself t c\ld ei!r ca/ a reproa* on ! dead or give pa9 to ! liv+2 ,i %all d s /ill1 & m]ely rem>k1 t z f> z ?is _w 0 conc]n$1 my lot _h no happ9ess m+l$ 9 x1 & t my only solace "u _m griev\s trials consi/$ 9 two ?+s3 "o 0 a c>eful concealm5t ( :atev] might subject my pr\d _s to ! mortification ( be+ piti$ :5 ,i desir$ r to be envi$2 & ! o!r a confid5t assurance1 t 9 suff]+ afflictions sil5tly1 unresi/+ly1 & uncompla9+ly1 ,i 0 mak+ ,god my debtor to a l>ge am\nt4 ,:at desp]ate wick$ness ( a deceiv$ & deceitful he>t 0 ?is6 ,! v ?+ 9 :i* ,i s arrogantly vaunt$ myself be=e ,god 0 ! direct result ( p]sonal pride1 9 itself a great s92 & ?us ,i truly glori$ 9 my %ame4 ,i nev] look$ beyond ! rod to ,him :o _h appo9t$ x2 b satisfy+ myself t ,i _h n m]it$ f man any sev]ity1 my dem]its at ! h& ( ! ,mo/ ,high 7 :olly put out ( ! calculation4 ,?us1 ( c\rse1 e /roke drove me fur!r f ! only ,rock ( refuge1 & deep] into ! fa/ness ( my own va9 conceits4 ,add$ to ?is1 ,i 0 :olly %ut out f all ! ord9>y means by :i* ! ,"l usually calls s9n]s to himself4 ,!re 0 no gospel m9i/ry !n )9 my rea*2 nor c\ld ,i1 if x 7 provid$1 h pr(it$ by x1 ow+ to my infirmity1 7deafness47 ,into ,*ri/ian society ,i _h nev] ent]$1 nor _h ! lea/ glimm] ( spiritual light %one into my m9d4 ,my religion 0 t ( ! ,ph>isee1 & my addresses to ,god includ$1 l 81 an ackn[l$gm5t t x 0 by div9e favor ,i 0 s mu* bett] ?an my neighbors4 ,reality _h s f> *as$ away romance1 t my old favorite au?ors _h little p[] to *>m me2 & ! holl[ness ( my affect$ gayety & ease made society a v sick5+ ?+4 99 99 99 ,at ! "t ,i am n[ to speak (1 ,i 0 liv+ 9 p]fect seclusion1 & un9t]rupt$ solitude4 ,capta9 ---- 0 always 9 ,dubl91 & my *ief occupation 0 9 hunt+ out1 & transcrib+ & arrang+ matt] = ! pr(essional g5tlem5 conduct+ ! lawsuit1 f a mass ( confus$ family pap]s & docum5ts4 ,our prop]ty consi/$ ( a l>ge numb] ( poor cab9s ) _! adjo9+ l&1 =m+ a complete /reet on ! outskirts ( ! t[n1 :i* 0 greatly 9 arre> to ! head l&lords1 & a p]iodical di/ress took place4 ,on ^! occasions a keep] 0 set ov] ! prop]ty1 "s legal pap]s 7 s]v$1 & ! h\sehold goods--consi/+ ( iron kettles1 wood5 /ools1 brok5 tables1 a ragg$ blanket or two1 & ! little /ore ( potatoes1 ! sole support ( ! wret*$ inhabitants--7 br\ght out1 pil$ 9 a long r[ d[n ! /reet1 & cant$1 t is1 put up to sale1 = ! paym5t ( p]haps "o or two p] c5t4 ( ! arre>s4 ,?is horrifi$ me beyond measure3 ,i 0 a%am$ to be se5 among ! p :o 7 call$ our t5ants1 ?\gh ?is proce$+ did n emanate f _! imm$iate l&lord2 & e ?+ comb9$ to r5d] ! seclusion ( my own g>d5 m cong5ial to me ?an any wid] range4 ,x 0 !n t ,i came to ! resolution ( be+ a p]fect devotee 9 religion3 ,i ?\ght myself m>vell\sly good2 b some?+ ( mona/ic mania seiz$ me4 ,i det]m9$ to emulate ! recluses ( :om ,i _h (t5 read2 to become a sort ( ,prote/ant nun2 & to fancy my g>d51 ) its high /one-walls & little ?icket ( apple-trees1 a conv5t enclosure4 ,i also settl$ x ) myself to pray ?ree or f\r times e day1 in/ead ( twice2 & ) great alacrity ent]$ ^u ?is new r\t9e ( devotion4 ,"h ,god met & arre/$ me4 ,:5 ,i kneel$ d[n to pray1 ! /range/ al>ms took hold ( my m9d4 ,he to :om ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to prate ) flippant volubility 9 a set =m ( he>tless words1 seem$ to my />tl$ m9d s exce$+ly t]rible 9 unapproa*able maje/y1 & s v angry ) me 9 p>ticul>1 t ,i became p>alyz$ ) fe>4 ,i /rove aga9/ ?is ) *>act]i/ic p]t9acity2 ,i call$ to m9d all ! commonplace assurances respect+ ! suffici5cy ( a good int5tion1 & magnifi$ alike my do+s & my suff]+s4 ,i p]suad$ myself x 0 only a holy awe1 ! effect ( di/+ui%$ piety & r>e humility1 & t ,i 0 really an object ( ! div9e complac5cy 9 no ord9>y degree4 ,aga9 ,i essay$ to pray1 b 9 va92 ,i d>$ n4 ,!n ,i attribut$ x to a n]v\s /ate ( feel+ t w\ld we> away by a little ab/raction f ! subject2 b ?is w\ld n d4 ,to leave (f pray+ 0 impossible1 yet to pray seem$ equally s4 ,i well rememb] t ! "* 9 :i* ,i *iefly view$ ! ,"l ,god 0 t ( an ,av5g]1 go+ =? to smite ! fir/-born ( ,egypt2 & ,i someh[ id5tifi$ myself ) ! condemn$ numb]4 ,(t51 aft] kneel+ a long "t1 ,i h laid my face ^u my arms1 & wept mo/ bitt]ly1 because ,i c\ld n1 d>$ n pray4 ,x 0 n 9 my nature to be driv5 back easily f any pa? ,i _h ent]$ on2 & "h ! ,"l wr\ght on me to p]sev]e resolutely4 ,i began to exam9e myself1 9 ord] to discov] :y ,i 0 afraid2 & tak+ z my rule ! t5 comm&m5ts1 ,i f\nd myself sadly defici5t on "s po9ts4 ,! t5? affect$ me z x nev] _h done be=e4 ,i _h n kn[n lu/1 because ,i _h n und]/ood ! law :5 x said1 ,?\ %alt n covet4 ,a casual glance at ! decl>ation ( ,/4 ,james1 ,:osoev] %all keep ! :ole law1 yet (f5d 9 "o po9t1 he is guilty ( all1 al>m$ me exce$+ly2 & on a sudd5 x occurr$ to me t n only ! t5 comm&m5ts1 b all ! precepts ( ! ,new ,te/am5t1 7 b9d+ on a ,*ri/ian2 & ,i trembl$ m ?an ev]4 ,:at 0 to be done8 ,to re=m myself1 c]ta9ly1 & become ob$i5t to ! :ole law4 ,accord+ly ,i w5t to "w1 transcrib$ all ! comm&s t ,i felt myself mo/ 9 ! habit ( neglect+1 & p9n$ up a doz5 or two texts ar\nd my room4 ,x requir$ no small ef=t to ent] ?is ap>tm5t & walk r\nd x1 read+ my mem5tos4 ,t active s*oolma/]1 ! law1 _h got me fairly "u 8 rod1 & dreadful 7 ! wri?+s ( ! convict$ culprit1 ,i soon1 h[ev]1 took d[n my texts1 fe>+ le/ "s "o else might see !m1 & n kn[+ !y 7 = myself1 be exasp]at$4 ,i !n made a little hook1 wrote d[n a li/ ( (f5ces1 & comm5c$ mak+ a dot ov] aga9/ ea*1 :5ev] ,i detect$ myself 9 ! commission ( "o4 ,i _h become v wat*ful ov] my ?\ghts1 & 0 hone/ 9 record+ all evil2 s my book became a mass ( black dots2 & ! reflection t occurr$ to me ( omissions be+ s9s too1 complet$ ! panic ( my m9d4 ,i flung away my book into ! fire1 & myself into an abyss ( gloomy despair4 ,h[ long ?is mis]able /ate ( m9d la/$1 ,i d n exactly rememb]2 ,i ?9k ab\t two weeks4 ,i c\ld n pray4 ,i d>$ n read ! ,bible1 x bore s v h>d ^u me4 ,outw>dly1 ,i 0 calm & ev5 *e]ful1 b )9 reign$ ! v blackness ( d>kness4 ,dea?1 ) :i* ,i _h s (t5 sport$1 appe>$ 9 my eyes s t]rible1 t ! slighte/ feel+ ( illness fill$ my s\l ) dismay4 ,i saw no way ( escape3 ,i _h ,god's p]fect law be=e my eyes1 & a full conviction ( my own pa/ s9fulness & pres5t helplessness1 leav+ me :olly )\t hope4 ,hi!rto ,i _h nev] kn[n a day's illness = ye>s2 "o ( ,god's ri* m]cies to me consi/$ 9 un9t]rupt$ heal?1 & a wond]ful fre$om f all n]v\s affections4 ,i knew almo/ z little ( ! s5sation ( a heada*e z ,i did ( t ( tight-lac+2 & n[ a viol5t cold1 ) sore ?roat1 aggravat$ into fev] by ! /ate ( my m9d1 completely pro/rat$ me4 ,i laid myself d[n on ! s(a "o morn+ & wait$ to see h[ my e>?ly mis]ies w\ld t]m9ate2 too well kn[+ :at mu/ foll[ ! close ( a s9n]'s life4 ,i _h n la9 long1 :5 a neighbor he>+ ,i 0 ill1 s5t me "s books j receiv$ f ,dubl91 z a loan1 hop+ ,i might f9d "s amusem5t 9 !m4 ,li/lessly1 wret*$ly1 me*anically1 ,i op5$ "o2 x 0 ! memoir ( a dep>t$ son1 writt5 by 8 fa!r4 ,i read a page describ+ ! approa* ( dea?1 & 0 arre/$ by ! y\?'s expressions ( self-condemnation1 8 humble ackn[l$gm5t ( hav+ des]v$ at ! ,"l's h& no?+ b et]nal dea?4 ,ah1 poor fell[1 said ,i1 he 0 l me4 ,h[ dreadful 8 end mu/ h be52 ,i w see :at he said at la/1 :5 on ! v br9k ( ! bottomless pit4 ,i resum$ ! book1 & f\nd him 9 cont9uation glorify+ ,god t ?\gh he 0 s guilty & s vile1 !re 0 ,,"o able to save to ! utt]mo/1 :o _h borne 8 s9s1 satisfi$ div9e ju/ice = him1 op5$ ! gates ( heav51 & n[ wait$ to receive 8 ransom$ s\l4 ,! book dropp$ f my h&s4 ,o1 :at is ?is8 ,?is is :at ,i want3 ?is w\ld save me4 ,:o did ?is = him8 ,jesus ,*ri/1 c]ta9ly2 & x mu/ be writt5 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,i tri$ to jump up & rea* my ,bible1 b 0 ov]p[]$ by ! emotion ( my m9d4 ,i clasp$ my h&s ov] my eyes1 & !n ! bless$ effects ( hav+ ev5 a lit]al k ( scripture 7 app>5t4 ,memory br\ght be=e me1 z ! ,holy ,_s direct$ x1 n "h & !re a deta*$ text1 b :ole *apt]s1 z !y _h long be5 committ$ to its safe b hi!rto unpr(itable keep+4 ,! veil 0 remov$ f my he>t1 & ,jesus ,*ri/1 z ! ,alpha & ,omega1 ! sum & sub/ance ( e ?+1 %one out ^u me j z he is set =? 9 ! ev]la/+ gospel4 ,x 0 ! same z if ,i _h be5 read+1 because ,i knew x s well by rote1 only mu* m rapid1 z ?\ght always is4 ,9 ?is !re 0 no?+ uncommon2 b 9 ! op5+ ( ! und]/&+1 t ,i might ,,und]/& ! scriptures1 0 ! mighty miracle ( grace & tru?4 ,!re ,i lay1 /ill z dea?1 my h&s /ill fold$ ov] nay eyes1 my v s\l bask+ 9 ! pure1 calm1 holy light1 t /ream$ into x ?r\gh ! appo9t$ *annel ( ,god's ^w4 ,rapture 0 n :at ,i felt2 excitem5t1 en?usiasm1 agitation1 !re 0 none4 ,i 0 l a p]son long enclos$ 9 a d>k dungeon1 ! walls ( :i* _h n[ fall5 d[n1 & ,i look$ r\nd on a sunny l&scape ( calm & glori\s beauty4 ,i well rememb] t ! ,"l ,jesus1 9 ! "* ( a %eph]d1 ( a />1 & above all1 z ! pe>l ( great price1 seem$ reveal$ to me mo/ beautifully3 t he c\ld save e body ,i at once saw2 t he w\ld save me1 nev] ev5 took ! =m ( a "q4 ,^? :o h receiv$ ! gospel by man's prea*+ may d\bt & cavil2 ,i took x simply f ! ,bible1 9 ! words t ,god's wisdom tea*e?1 & ?us ,i argu$3 ,jesus ,*ri/ came into ! _w to save s9n]s3 ,i am a s9n]2 ,i want to be sav$3 he w save me4 ,!re is no presumption 9 tak+ ,god at 8 ^w3 n to d s is v imp]t95t3 ,i did x1 & ,i 0 happy4 ,aft] "s "t ,i rose f ! s(a1 & walk$ ab\t4 ,my feel+s 7 delici\s4 ,i _h f\nd ,,him ( :om ,moses 9 ! law1 & ! prophets did write2 ,i _h f\nd ! v ,pas*al ,lamb ^: blood w\ld be my safegu>d f ! de/roy+ angel4 ,oh1 h[ delici\s 0 t p>ticul> ?\ght to me4 ,x 0 "o ( ! fir/ t occurr$1 & ,i laugh$ ) gladness4 ,inde$ my feel+ 0 v joy\s1 & ,i only want$ somebody to tell x to4 ,i _h two s]vants1 "o a "y woman1 ! o!r a little girl1 bo? papi/s1 bo? lov+ me ) ,iri% w>m?4 ,!y 7 delight$ to see me s well & happy on a sudd52 & 9 ! ev5+ ,i bade !m come to my room1 = ,i 0 go+ to read a beautiful book1 & w\ld read x al\d4 ,i began ! gospel ( ,/4 ,mat!w1 & read n9e *apt]s to !m1 _! wond] & delight increas+ my joy4 ,:5ev] ,i propos$ leav+ (f1 !y begg$ = m2 & only = my poor ?roat1 ,i ?9k we %\ld h gone on till day4 ,i pray$ ) !m1 & :at a night's re/ ,i _h6 ,sleep s sweet1 a wak+ s happy1 & a joy s uncl\d$ ?r\gh ! day1 :at b ! gospel c\ld be/[8 ,few1 v few1 h be5 s left alone z ,i 0 ) ! infallible tea*+ ( ,god ! ,holy ,gho/ by means ( ! writt5 ^w1 = _m weeks1 & s to get a ?or\gh k ( ! great doctr9es ( salvation1 uncl\d$ by man's va9 wisdom4 ,i knew n t 9 ! _w !re 7 any :o _h made ! same discov]y ) myself4 ,( all s*emes ( doctr9e ,i 0 :olly ignorant1 & ! only sy/em ( !ology op5 to me 0 ,god's own4 ,all ! faculties ( my m9d 7 r\s$ & bright5$ = ! "w4 ,i pray$1 )\t ceas+1 = div9e in/ruction2 & took1 )\t cavill+1 :at 0 v\*saf$4 ,on ?is subject ,i mu/ ent] m l>gely1 = x is "o ( imm5se importance4 ,,lett] ,,vi4 ,,religi\s ,,progress4 ,i am /&+ be=e y n[ 9 ! "* ( "o :o1 hav+ be5 br\ght "u conviction ( s9 into utt] self-despair1 _h f\nd 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus a refuge f ! /orm ( ,god's ang]4 ,i felt myself safe 9 him2 b z ! revelation :i* ,god _h made to man 0 n conf9$ to ! sole po9t ( a satisfaction = ! s9s ( m51 ,i felt x my b\nd5 duty to se>* = all t ! ,mo/ ,high _h se5 good to acqua9t 8 p )4 ,at ! same "t ,i f\nd myself a memb] ( a *ur* call+ itself ,*ri/ian2 b ,i too _h call$ myself a ,*ri/ian1 :ile z yet :olly ignorant ( ,*ri/1 !re=e ,i c\ld n dep5d ^u a "n4 ,i knew t !re 7 o!r *ur*es1 ea* putt+ 9 a claim to a high] & pur] /&>d ?an its neighbors1 & x behoov$ me to "k :i* ( !m all 0 9 ! "r1 ,i _h no books ( a religi\s "*--n "o2 no cl]gyman among my acqua9tance1 no means ( inquiry1 save z reg>d$ my own *ur*1 ^: ,liturgy & ,articles lay be=e me4 ,i resolv$ to br+ !m fir/ to ! te/ ( scripture1 & if !y fail$1 to look out = a bett]4 ,h[ ,i comm5c$ ! "w & pursu$ x1 ,i ne$ n /ate4 ,i tri$ e ?+1 z well z ,i c\ld1 by ! ,bible2 & my satisfaction 0 great to f9d ! pure/1 cle>e/ /ra9 ( evangelical tru? brea?+ ?r\gh ! book :i* ,i _h us$ all my life long1 z ,i did ! ,bible1 )\t ent]+ into its real mean+4 ,h[ ,i c\ld possibly escape see+ ! doctr9es ( fai?1 reg5]ation1 & ! re/ ( ,god's revelation 9 !m bo?1 0 /range to me2 b ,i und]/ood t ! natural man receive? n ! ?+s ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 & m\rn$ ov] ! d>kness t ,i suppos$ univ]sal4 ,i f\nd x di/9ctly /at$ by our ,"l1 t except a man be born aga91 he _c see ! k+dom ( ,god2 & ?is s]v$ z a key to _m passages 9 ! epi/les & o!r p>ts ( scripture illu/rative ( ! same solemn tru?4 ,i _h nev] und]/ood1 nev] ?\ght ( ?is4 ,did my *ur* hold x8 ,yes2 x 0 n only laid d[n z a fundam5tal doctr9e 9 h] ,articles1 b con/antly put into ! m\?s ( h] congregation1 ei!r express$ or cle>ly impli$4 ,aga91 ,i f\nd t n by works b by fai? ,i 0 to be ju/ifi$ be=e ,god2 & ?is also ran ?r\gh ! pray]-book1 ) unv>y+ di/9ctness2 ?\gh ) t book 9 my h& & its cont5ts on my lips ,i _h be5 hi!rto attempt+ to scale heav5 by a ladd] ( my own =m+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! ,a?anasian cre$ br\ght to my recollection a circum/ance t _h occurr$ a few ye>s be=e1 ! importance ( :i* _h nev] be5 kn[n to me until ,i 0 br\ght acqua9t$ ) ! sav+ tru?s ( ! gospel4 ,i n[ look$ back ^u x ) trembl+ joy & gratitude to him :o _h pres]v$ me f a sn>e into :i* ! pride ( intellect1 jo9$ to spiritual ignorance1 w\ld h be5 sure to lead me1 b = ! wat*ful c>e ( my heav5ly ,fa!r1 /ill work+ by means ( my bl9d b s9c]e rev]5ce = 8 ^w4 ,9 my native t[n1 ,soc9ianism fl\ri%$ to a fe>ful ext5t2 x has long be5 a v hotb$ ( t fatal h]esy1 ! hold]s ( :i* are f\nd among _m lead+ *>act]s ( weal?1 influ5ce1 & high atta9m5ts4 ,i knew no m ( x ?an t x 0 "o ( ! _m =ms ( diss5t ) :i* ,i _h no?+ to d4 ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) sev]al ( its disciples2 b z religion =m$ no "p ( our social int]c\rse1 its peculi>ities 7 :olly unkn[n to me4 ,n long be=e my trip to ,am]ica ,i _h be5 /ay+ 9 ,norwi*1 9 ! same h\se ) a mo/ clev]1 intellig5t1 & amiable woman1 ( :om ,i 0 v fond4 ,i knew h] to be a diss5t]1 & t 0 all4 ,"o ev5+ %e drew me into a conv]sation1 ! comm5cem5t ( :i* ,i =get1 b x soon arriv$ at a d5ial1 on h] "p1 ( ! ,godhead ( ,*ri/1 :i* exce$+ly a/oni%$ me1 = ,i nev] suppos$ t c\ld be call$ 9 "q4 ,i ran = ! ,bible1 say+1 ,i w\ld soon %[ h] x 0 n to be disput$2 & %e 9 return ass]t$ t ,i c\ld n prove x out ( ! inspir$ scriptures4 ,aft] pond]+ = a :ile1 ,i recollect$ ! fir/ *apt] ( ,revelation1 :i*1 = its sublimity1 ,i rank$ among ! highe/ ( my poetical gems1 & t x unequivocally proclaim$ ! div9ity ( our glori\s ,"l4 ,i op5$ at x1 on :i* %e bur/ into a laugh1 say+1 ,y are n s weak z to fancy t book ( riddles any "p ( ,god's ^w6 ,:y x is 9 ! ,bible1 y see1 repli$ ,i1 half indignantly4 ,& :o put x !re8 ,come1 y are a p]son ( too mu* s5se to believe t ! b9d+ up ( c]ta9 leaves betwe5 ! two cov]s ( ! ,bible makes !m a "p ( x4 ,y mu/ ex]cise ! reason t ,god has giv5 y1 & 9 s do+ y w discov] s _m int]polations & deceptions 9 t v]sion ( y\rs1 t y w be glad to f9d a m accurate "o4 ,%e cont9u$ 9 ! same /ra9 = "s "t4 ,i 0 greatly agitat$2 ,i clos$ ! great ,bible1 & lean+ on x ) fold$ arms1 my he>t beat+ viol5tly aga9/ ! bright r$ cov]1 ,i gave he$ to all %e said4 ,my love ( novelty1 passion = inve/igation1 & ! metaphysical turn t _h sometimes made my fa!r q uneasy ab\t me1 :5 he saw me at eight ye>s old por+ ov] ab/ruse reason+s ) ! ze/ ( an old philosoph]1 7 all 9 h] favor4 ,i felt z if ! f\ndation ( my fai? 0 giv+ way1 & ,i 0 be+ laun*$ on a sea ( /range unc]ta9ty4 ,:5 %e conclud$1 ,i laid my =ehead on ! book 9 mo/ deep & anxi\s ?\ght4 ,i did n pray3 ,god 0 f\nd ( "o :o s\ght him n1 = surely he alone dictat$ my answ]4 ,i />t$ up1 & ) ! greate/ vivacity said1 ,mrs4 ----1 if y c p]suade me t ! book ( ,revelation is n inspir$1 ano!r p]son may d ! same ) reg>d to ! book ( ,g5esis1 & s ( all t lie betwe5 !m1 till ! :ole ,bible is tak5 away f me4 ,t w nev] d2 ,i _c "p ) my de> ,bible4 ,i believe x all1 e ^w ( x1 & ,i am sure ,i %\ld be mis]able if ,i did n4 ,!n1 kiss+ ! preci\s volume ) ! affection "o feels = :at is 9 dang] ( be+ lo/ to u1 ,i c>ri$ x back to its %elf1 & decl9$ any fur!r discussion on ! subject4 ,%e told "s "o else %e 0 sure ( hav+ me yet2 b ! good provid5ce ( ,god int]pos$ to remove me f ! sc5e ( dang]4 ,t metaphysical turn ,i omitt$ to m5tion among my e>ly sn>es2 my fa!r *eck$ x1 al?\gh x 0 a great hobby ( 8 own4 ,he _h se5 its fe>ful abuse 9 ! orig9 ( ! ,fr5* revolution1 & reg>d$ x z "o ( ! evil spirits ( ! age4 ,i recollect ! mixture ( mir? & vexation depict$ 9 8 face "o morn+1 :5 on 8 rem>k+ t ,i did n look well & inquir+ if any ?+ ail$ me1 ,i repli$1 ,no1 b ,i c\ld n get any sleep4 ,:at prev5t$ y\r sleep+8 ,i 0 ?9k+1 papa1 ( ',cogito1 ergo sum'--',i ?9k1 !re=e ,i exi/'--& ,i lay awake1 try+ to f9d out all ab\t x4 ',cogito1 ergo sum6' repeat$ my fa!r1 laugh+ & fr[n+ at ! same "t2 :at w y be at tw5ty1 if y dabble 9 metaphysics be=e y are t58 ,come1 ,i mu/ set y to /udy ,euclid2 t w sob] y\r wild head a little4 ,i took ! book ) great glee1 delight$ to h a new field ( inquiry1 b soon ?rew x aside4 ,ma!matics & ,i c\ld nev] agree4 ,speculative & imag9ative 9 an extraord9>y degree1 c>ry+ mu* sail ) sc>cely any balla/1 :at b ! ev] wat*ful c>e ( ,him :o sitte? ^u ! circle ( ! e>? c\ld h pres]v$ f fatal wreck+ a vessel s frail1 :ile yet )\t pilot1 helm1 or *>t8 ,x 0 ! recollection ( my %ort enc\nt] ) ! ,soc9ian t satisfi$ me respect+ ! ,a?anasian cre$4 ,i felt t _h ,i tak5 up its bold ass]tions & e/abli%$ e "o ( !m1 z n[ ,i did1 by scripture1 no sophi/ry c\ld h /agg]$ my fai?1 ?\gh x _h be5 b a reason+1 n a sav+ fai?1 9 t high doctr9e ( ! coexi/5t1 coequal ,tr9ity4 ,i did n !n "k--= ( all *ur* hi/ory ,i 0 ignorant--t its orig9al object 0 n s mu* to e/abli% a tru?1 z to detect & defeat a falsehood4 ,! damnatory clauses1 z !y are call$1 did n />tle me4 ,i saw cle>ly ! fact t ,god _h made a revelation ( himself to man1 :i* revelation man 0 n at lib]ty to receive or to reject1 & z )\t fai? x is impossible to please ,god1 & t alone is fai? :i* implicitly believes ! record t he ha? giv5 ( 8 ,son1 ! d$uctions 9 "q 7 p]fectly fair & or?odox4 ,i frequ5tly wond]$1 :5 subsequ5tly br\ght into ! ar5a ( v>i\s controv]sies1 at ! ease ) :i*1 aid$ by ! ,bible alone1 ,i settl$ s _m disput$ po9ts2 & z x really 0 by ! ,bible ,i settl$ !m1 man's tea*+ has nev] yet on any subject alt]$ my views4 99 99 99 ,:e!r x be reg>d$ z presumptu\s or n1 ,i mu/ ?ankfully av[ t dur+ ! weeks :5 ,i 0 left alone ) my ,bible1 ,i obta9$ a view ( ! :ole s*eme ( r$emption & ,god's deal+s ) man1 :i* to ?is h\r ,i h nev] f\nd reason to alt] 9 any "o respect1 save z great] light has cont9ually brok5 9 on ea* bran* ( ! subject1 /r5g!n+1 n *ang+ ^? views4 ,y w see 9 ! progress ( my sket*1 h[ complete a bulw>k aga9/ error 9 numb]less %apes ,i h f\nd 9 ?is simple adh]5ce to ! pla9 ^w ( tru?--?is habit ( br++ e proposition to ! law & to ! te/imony2 fully p]suad$ t if !y speak n accord+ to ?is ^w1 x is because !re is no light 9 !m4 ,i n[ proce$ to an int]e/+ epo* 9 my life3 ! comm5cem5t ( my lit]>y labors 9 ! ,"l's cause4 ,x m>ks v /rongly ! ov]rul+ h& ( ,him :o 0 work+ all ?+s aft] ! c\nsel ( 8 own w2 & ,i w give x y )\t curtailm5t1 toge!r ) my introduction1 ?r\gh x to ! ,*ri/ian community ( ! l&4 ,my life1 z ,i told y1 0 solit>y & retir$2 my "t *iefly pass$ 9 writ+ out docum5t>y matt]s = ! lawy]s4 ,! circum/ance ( my us+ ! p5 s incessantly became kn[n1 & ,i 0 look$ on z a lit]>y recluse4 ,"o day a lady p]sonally unkn[n to me1 b ^: indefatigable zeal 0 always seek+ ! good ( o!rs1 s5t me a p>cel ( tracts4 ,) equal wond] & delight ,i op5$ "o ( !m1 a simple1 spiritual little production2 & ! next t ,i took up 0 an inducem5t to di/ribute tracts among ! poor4 ,f ?is ,i le>n$ t "s excell5t p 7 engag$ 9 a "w q new to me2 &1 ) a sigh1 ,i wi%$ ,i _h ! means ( contribut+ to _! funds4 ,pres5tly ! ?\ght fla%$ ^u me1 ,s9ce ,i _c give !m money1 may ,i n write some?+ to be useful 9 ! same way8 ,i _h j !n no "w be=e me1 & a long w9t] ev5+ at comm&4 ,i ord]$ l>ge c&les1 told ! s]vants n to int]rupt me1 & sat d[n to my novel task4 ,i began ab\t sev5 o'clock1 & wrote till ?ree 9 ! morn+2 :5 ,i f\nd ,i _h produc$ a complete little /ory1 9 ! progress ( :i* ,i _h be5 enabl$ s to set =? ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus1 t on read+ x ov] ,i 0 amaz$ at ! /atem5t ,i _h made ( scriptural tru?1 & sunk on my knees 9 ?ankfulness to ,god4 ,next morn+ ,i awoke full ( joy1 b mu* puzzl$ z to :at ,i %\ld d ) my tract4 ,at l5g?1 9 ! simplicity ( my he>t1 ,i resolv$ to s5d x to ! bi%op ( ,norwi*1 & busi$ myself at ! breakfa/- table 9 comput+ h[ _m franks x w\ld fill4 ,:ile ?us employ$1 a note 0 put into my h&s f ,miss ,d----1 apologiz+ = ! lib]ty tak51 say+ %e _h s5t me1 ! day be=e1 "s tracts1 & z %e he>d ,i 0 mu* occupi$ ) ! p51 x _h occurr$ to h] t ,i might be l$ to write some?+ myself2 9 ! possibility ( :i* %e n[ enclos$ ! address ( ! secret>y to ! ,dubl9 ,tract ,society1 to :om su* aid w\ld be mo/ welcome4 ,i 0 absolutely awe-/ruck by ?is v /rik+ incid5t4 ,i saw 9 x a graci\s acceptance ( my freewill (f]+ at ,8 h&s to :om x _h be5 pray]fully d$icat$2 & 9 two h\rs ! manuscript 0 on its way to ,dubl91 ) a v simple lett] to ! secret>y4 ,a cordial answ]1 comm5datory ( my tract & e>ne/ly entreat+ a cont9uance ( su* aid1 soon rea*$ me1 ) "s rem>ks & que/ions t requir$ a full] communication ( my circum/ances & feel+s4 ,he _h recomm5d$ frequ5t int]c\rse ) ! peasantry1 ( ^: habits & modes ( expression ,i 0 evid5tly ignorant1 & ,i !n m5tion$ my loss ( he>+ z a b> to ?is bran* ( usefulness1 ,8 rejo9d] 0 ! ov]fl[+ ( a truly ,*ri/ian he>t1 v mu* t\*$ by an artless acc\nt ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) me2 & greatly did my _s rejoice at hav+ f\nd a bro!r 9 ! fai? ?us to *e] & /r5g!n me4 ,b alas1 a few days aft]w>ds1 ,miss ,d----1 :om ,i _h /ill nev] se51 wrote to apprize me t ?is excell5t man _h ruptur$ a blood- vessel & 0 dy+4 ,/ill he did n =get me1 b aft] l+]+ = "s weeks1 on 8 dea?-b$ comm5d$ me to ! fri5d%ip ( 8 bro!r1 :o f t p]iod prov$ a true & valuable help] to me4 ,mean:ile ,i 0 beg9n+ to take a view ( pop]y1 "u ! light ( ! gospel4 ,z yet1 ,i knew no?+ ( x spiritually2 & my retir$ life kept me f obs]v+ h[ x work$ among ! poor p ar\nd4 ,my att5tion 0 fir/ direct$ to x by a conv]sation ) ! y\ng] ( my two s]vants2 %e slept 9 my ap>tm5t1 & ,i rem>k$ t :ile kneel+ at h] devotions %e n only utt]$ !m ) amaz+ rapidity1 b c>ri$ on all ! :ile ! op]ation ( undress+1 ) p]fect inatt5tion to :at %e 0 say+4 ,i ask$ h] ! purport ( h] pray]s2 %e told me %e said ! ,our ,fa!r1 & !n ! ,hail ,m>y3 at my reque/ %e repeat$ ! latt]1 & ,i gave h] a g5tle lecture on ! irrev]5ce ( *att]+ to ,god s volubly1 & ( employ+ h]self ab\t h] clo!s at ! same "t2 add+ t %e %\ld be dev\t1 delib]ate1 & quiet :ile speak+ to ,god2 b z = ! ,virg9 ,m>y x 0 no matt] h[ %e address$ h]1 if address h] %e w\ld1 = be+ only a dead woman %e c\ld "k no?+ ab\t x4 ,?is1 ,i am a%am$ to say1 0 ! ext5t ( my actual prote/ at t "t4 ,! girl took x all v readily1 & ev] aft]1 dur+ h] address to ,god1 %e knelt ) h] h&s jo9$1 repeat+ ! words sl[ly & s]i\sly2 b ! mom5t %e comm5c$ ! ,hail ,m>y1 to make up = lo/ "t %e prattl$ x s rapidly1 & tore op5 ! fa/5+s ( h] dress ) su* bu/l+ spe$1 t ,i c\ld sc>cely refra9 f laugh+4 ,a little reflection1 h[ev]1 conv9c$ me x 0 an act ( idolatry1 & no laugh+ matt]2 & f t "t ,i inquir$ z deeply z ,i c\ld into _! fai? & practice2 con/antly %[+ !m f ! scriptures h[ contr>y _! religion 0 to t ( ! gospel4 ,/ill x 0 b a v p>tial & sup]ficial view t ,i c\ld z yet obta9 ( ! great my/]y ( iniquity ?r\gh ^! ignorant & ?\ghtless girls2 & to ?is mu/ be attribut$ my sad failure 9 n w>n+ !m m di/9ctly to come out ( ,babylon4 ,i r tri$ to pat* up ! old1 decay$1 tatt]$ g>m5t ) ! new piece ( ! gospel1 z _m m h done2 & s made ! r5t worse1 in/ead ( replac+ ! vile article ) "o ( ,god's provid+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,:5 t excell5t man1 ,mr4 ,d----1 0 committ$ to ! grave1 8 y\ng] bro!r visit$ me on 8 way back to ,dubl94 ,t int]view ,i %all nev] =get2 he talk$ to me out ( ! ov]fl[+s ( a he>t devot$ to ,*ri/1 & left me p9+ = m ext5d$ enjoym5t ( ,*ri/ian society4 ,i 0 n long ungratifi$2 )9 ?ree days an unexpect$ summons took me to ,dubl91 & on ! v ev5+ ( my arrival ,mr4 ,d---- introduc$ me to a p>ty ( ab\t ?irty pi\s fri5ds1 assembl$ to meet a mission>y j return$ f ,russia4 ,rememb] ^! 7 ! frank1 unre/ra9$1 w>mhe>t$ ,iri%1 ( all p ! mo/ ready at express+ _! zeal\s & g5]\s feel+s2 & imag9e1 if y c1 my enjoym5t1 aft] su* a long season ( comp>ative lonel9ess1 :5 !y came ab\t me ) ! affectionate welcome t none c utt] & look s eloqu5tly z !y c4 ,i ?\ght x a =eta/e ( heav5ly bless$ness2 & yet ,i (t5 long$ = ^? seasons :5 ,i _h none b my ,god to commune )1 & p\r$ out to him all t n[ ,i f\nd x delightful to utt] to my fell[- creatures4 ,!n1 my tab]nacle 0 inde$ pit*$ 9 ! wild]ness1 & ! c&le ( ! ,"l %one brightly ^u x2 n[1 ! bl5d+ ( _m inf]ior lights di/ract$ my m9d f its "o object ( contemplation1 & broke ! h>mony t 0 s sweet 9 its s+l5ess4 ,a few mon?s aft] ?is1 ! lawsuit be+ end$1 my husb& 0 ord]$ abroad4 ,i decl9$ to cross ! ,atlantic a second "t1 & f ?is p]iod ,i became *iefly dep5d5t on my own ex]tions4 ,my "m _h jo9$ me 9 ,irel&1 hav+ be5 made a p>tak] 9 ! l preci\s fai? & hope ) myself4 99 99 99 ,,lett] ,,vii4 ,,kilk5ny4 ,we took up our abode 9 ! t[n ( ,kilk5ny1 s ri*ly bless$ ) gospel privileges1 & s f> remov$ f ! annoyances to :i* ,i 0 expos$ :ile try+ to fulfil ! l&lord's "p ov] a prop]ty inextricably involv$1 & n[ also plac$ 9 ! h&s ( tru/ees4 ,i _h s\ght ! ma9t5ance ( t "* = ! sake ( ! poor t5ants1 ^: affection1 = me 0 v great1 & among :om ,i _h ( late be5 frequ5tly all[$ to read ! scriptures4 ,! necessity1 h[ev]1 ( provid+ = myself1 & ! hopeless p]plexities ( my nom9al (fice1 betwe5 head-l&lords1 "u-t5ants1 tru/ees1 a receiv]1 & all ! endless ma*9]y ( an emb>rass$ little ,iri% e/ate1 compell$ me to seek a m quiet sph]e2 & 9 ,kilk5ny ,i f\nd all t c\ld comb9e to enc\rage me 9 ! pursuit ( hone/ indep5d5ce 9 ! way ( usefulness4 ,i f9i%$ ,osric1 :i* =m$ a good-siz$ volume1 & comm5c$ ! pleasant task ( writ+ p5ny & twop5ny books = ! ,dubl9 ,tract ,society1 :o paid me lib]ally1 & *e]$ me on my pa? ) all ! w>m? ( ,*ri/ian affection4 ,x 0 inde$ a delightful task1 & ,god _h rais$ up to me also a fri5d to ^: truly pat]nal k9dness ,i owe m ?an ev] c be told1 ,mr4 ,george ,s&=d1 n[ ,"l ,m\nts&=d1 :o1 f our fir/ acqua9tance1 ent]$ ) a fa!r's int]e/ into all t conc]n$ me4 ,?us enc\rag$1 ,i held on my way1 & ta/$ ! sweets t ,i hope to enjoy to ! end ( my days--^? ( ! orig9al curse bright5$ by ! irrev]sible bless+3 ,9 ! sweat ( ?y face %alt ?\ eat bread2 ,be ye /eadfa/1 unmovable1 always ab\nd+ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l1 =asmu* z ye "k t y\r labor %all n be 9 va9 9 ! ,"l4 ,i h already told y my escape f ! sn>e ( ,soc9ianism2 & n[ ,i am to n>rate a trial ( fai? & doctr9e :i* by ! m]cy ( ,god produc$ effects j ! rev]se ( :at 0 int5d$4 ,?is 0 no less ?an a vigor\s attempt to conv]t me to ,pop]y4 ,i _h n yet be/[$ any great att5tion on ! details ( t abom9able device1 b 0 mo/ fully p]suad$ ( its be+ a sy/em ( idolatr\s delusion1 ! work+ ( :i* 0 /rik+ly manife/$ 9 ! wret*$ness1 ! immorality1 ! turbul5ce & degrad+ sup]/itions ( ! poor creatures ar\nd me4 ,x nev] _h be5 my practice to tamp] ) or to compromise :at ,i knew to be wrong2 !re=e ,i _h n suff]$ curiosity to lead me )9 ! walls ( a mass-h\se1 nor 9 any way to put on ! semblance ( an agreem5t :i* _c really exi/ betwe5 ! temple ( ,god & idols4 ,i believ$ ,pop]y to be ! ,babylon ( ! ,apocalypse1 & ,i long$ = resolution to proclaim to ! delud$ victims1 ,come out ( h]1 my p1 ,?is ,i _h nev] done1 b on ! contr>y fell *e]fully 9 ) ! !n cauti\s policy ( my fri5ds1 & s fram$ my little books & tracts z to leave x d\btful :e!r !y 7 writt5 by a ,prote/ant or n4 ,paul to ! ,jews became z a ,jew1 t he might ga9 ! ,jews3 ,i1 by a false process ( reason1 ?\ght x all[able to become z an idolat] to ! idolat]s1 t ,i might ga9 ! idolat]s4 ,an awful1 presumptu\s s96 ,! ,jew possesses ! fair blossom ( gospel tru?1 :i* by k9dly fo/]+ is to be exp&$ & rip5$ into ! ri* fruit3 ! ,papi/ holds 9 8 h& an apple ( ,sodom1 b5ea? ! pa9t$ r9d ( :i* is a mass ( a%es & corruption4 ,he mu/ be induc$ to fl+ x away1 & to pluck f ! tree ( life a :olly diff]5t ?+4 ,my ,prote/ant pr9ciples1 su* z !y 71 )held me f visit+ ! conv5t :i* =m$ a pr9cipal attraction to ! milit>y & o!r /rang]s 9 ,kilk5ny4 ,_m s\ght to draw me ?i!r1 adduc+ ! examples ( ,*ri/ian m9i/]s & o!r spiritual p1 :o did n scruple to g2 b 9 va94 ,at l5g? a lady came to me ) an e>ne/ reque/ f ! mo/ int]e/+ nun 9 ! e/abli%m5t1 to give h] "s in=mation on ! be/ mode ( convey+ in/ruction to a poor little girl 9 _! s*ool1 deaf & dumb4 ,"h 0 a call ( duty3 ,i knew x c\ld n be effectually done unless 9 p]son2 & to ! surprise ( my fri5d1 ,i volunte]$ to accompany h] to ! conv5t4 ,! nun 0 inde$ a mo/ engag+ "y lady2 9 p]sonal appe>ance1 9 mann]1 9 feel+1 realiz+ ! visions ( my girli% romance1 :5 read+ idle /ories 9 novels on su* topics4 ,%e _h1 moreov]1 all ! animat$ w>m? ( a g5u9e ,iri%woman1 & h] f9e c\nt5ance beam+ ) b5evol5t joy at our successful beg9n+1 & ) affectionate gratitude = my s]vices1 q won my he>t4 ,i promis$ to repeat ! visit %ortly1 & on do+ s accompani$ h] to walk r\nd ! g>d51 at ! o!r extremity ( :i* /ood a build+ :i* ,i took = _! s*ool1 & unhesitat+ly m\nt$ ! /airs ) my sweet conductor4 ,judge :at 0 my dismay :51 on pass+ ! fold+ doors1 ,i f\nd myself 9 a spl5did ,popi% *apel1 opposite ! alt>1 ov] :i* %one a ri*ly gilt cross1 :ile my poor nun 0 pro/rat$ 9 ! l[lie/ adoration1 t\*+ ! gr\nd ) h] =ehead be=e ! s5seless idol4 ,i 0 conf\nd$1 & unable to say any ?+2 b aft] a ha/y glance at ! f9e trapp+s1 left ! place secretly pray+ = grace & /r5g? to prote/ op5ly aga9/ ! abom9ation f :i* my s\l revolt$ ) unspeakable horror f ! mom5t ( my witness+ ! act ( idolatr\s homage r5d]$ to a ?+ ( wood & /one4 ,on leav+ ! conv5t1 ,i met a p]son :o in=m$ me t my poor nun 0 a ,prote/ant lady ( high respectability1 sprung f "o ( ^? iniquit\s mix$ m>riages1 h] "m belong+ to ! e/abli%$ *ur*1 h] fa!r a ,romani/1 :o1 h[ev]1 hone/ly adh]$ to ! t]ms ( ! wick$ cov5ant by :i* ! sons 7 to be educat$ 9 81 ! daught]s 9 h] p]suasion4 ,a family ( daught]s 7 born to !m1 :o1 ) _! "m1 cont9u$ nom9ally ,prote/ant2 b aft] 8 dea?1 :5 ! h\se 0 fill$ ) ,romi% prie/s1 p]=m+ = a week toge!r _! mumm]ies ov] ! corpse1 ^! poor females _h become a prey to ! subtle p]v]sions ( ! ecclesia/ics1 & _h op5ly apo/atiz$1 all save my new fri5d1 :o ) a bett] in=m$ m9d & m scriptural k )/ood _! sophi/ries1 until sundry mock miracles p]=m$ by means ( sa9tly relics & a well-contriv$ nocturnal visitation f ! gho/ ( h] fa!r :om %e fondly lov$1 _h s unn]v$ & fright5$ h] t %e too fell a prey to ! delusion4 ,!y end$ by admitt+ h] into ! si/]hood ( ?is conv5t1 excus+ ! paym5t ( ! l>ge sum usually dem&$2 & z h] d>kness 0 n[ great 9 proportion to ! measure ( light aga9/ :i* %e _h s9n$1 !y f\nd h] a valuable decoy-bird to draw o!rs into ! sn>e4 ,i did n le>n all ^! p>ticul>s at ! "t1 nor until aft] h] decease1 :5 ,i met ) a ne> family connection ( h]s :o told !m to me4 ,i simply glean$ ! fact ( h] apo/asy1 ) t ( h] ab\nd+ zeal 9 ! anti*ri/ian cause4 ,) all my he>t ,i lov$ ! g5tle1 affectionate1 elegant nun1 & e>ne/ly did ,i pray = help 9 br++ h] back1 z ,i 0 resolv$ to d1 f ! pa? ( de/ruction2 & :ile ,i delib]at$ on ! be/ means ( comm5c+ ! "w1 ! difficulty 0 remov$ by h] op5ly attempt+ to conv]t me4 ,to ?is end %e urg$ on me a /rict inquiry into ! real doctr9es & t5ets ( h] *ur*1 = myself & by myself1 promis+ to l5d me books ( ! mo/ c&id "*1 if ,i w\ld engage to read !m4 ,i agre$1 /ipulat+ t ,i 0 freely to write out my rem>ks on !m = h] consid]ation2 & ) ?is mutual und]/&+1 ,i br\ght home f ! conv5t z a loan ,dr4 ,miln]'s ,end ( ,controv]sy1 furni%$ = my especial b5efit by a sem9>y ( ,jesuit prie/s1 locat$ ne> ! t[n3 & ?us 0 ,i become ! object ( a comb9$ attack f ! =ces ( great ,babylon4 ,true to :at ,i consid]$ a tacit engagem5t to /udy ! matt] alone1 ,i read ! book4 ,nev] %all ,i =get ! effect x produc$ on me4 ,i seem$ to be hold+ communion ) ,satan himself1 rob$ z an angel ( light1 ! transp>5t drap]y reveal+ 8 hide\s =m b baffl+ my endeavors to r5d x away4 ,su* sophi/ry1 su* impud5ce ( unsupport$ ass]tion1 su* di/ortion ( tru? & gild+ ( gross falsehood1 ,i nev] met )4 ,i tri$ 9 va9 to f9d an answ] to ?+s t ,i saw & felt to be antiscriptural & de/ructive2 b ?is ,end 0 ! beg9n+ ( my controv]sy1 = ,i 0 :olly new to x1 & ignorant ( ! hi/orical & o!r facts necess>y to disprove ! rev]5d au?or's bold assumptions4 ,at la/ ,i bur/ into te>s1 & kneel+ d[n1 exclaim$1 ,o ,"l1 ,i _c unravel ?is web ( iniquity3 enable me to cut x 9 twa94 ,i 0 answ]$2 = aft] a little m ?\ght1 a broad view ( ! :ole s*eme ( man's salvation z reveal$ 9 ! holy ,scriptures appe>$ to me ! be/ antidote = ?is insidi\s poison4 ,i read ?r\gh ! ,new ,te/am5t ) increas$ enjoym5t1 & ca/+ f me ! wret*$ fabric ( lies1 ) all its flimsy pret5ces1 ,i resolv$1 in/ead ( attempt+ a reply to :at ,i saw to be falsehood1 to set =? a pla9 /atem5t ( :at ,i knew to be tru?4 ,inde$ x is indescribable h[ disgu/+ ! pa9t$ face1 ! gaudy trapp+s1 & ! arrogant assumptions ( ! great h>lot appe>$ 9 my eyes1 :5 ?us contra/$ ) ! sublime simplicity1 purity1 & mode/y ( ! *a/e sp\se ( ,*ri/4 ,i wrote2 & 9 reply got ano!r & a small] book1 conta9+ ! pret5d$ reasons ( a ,prote/ant = embrac+ ,pop]y4 ,!y 7 ( c\rse artfully put1 & made a =midable exhibition ( ! p]il ( h]esy4 ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld n d bett] 9 return1 :ile writ+ my diss5t1 ?an to enclose "s small books ( my own to ! nun1 invit+ h] comm5ts !reon4 ,?is br\ght a lett] :i* 0 probably writt5 by /eal?1 ?\gh s cauti\sly word$ z to be safe if int]cept$4 ,%e said %e did n wi% to leave me "u a wrong impression1 & !re=e told me t %e 0 n p]mitt$ to read any ( my lett]s1 or ! little books ,i _h s5t1 z ^? :o wat*$ ov] h] spiritual int]e/s & :om %e 0 b\nd to obey1 ?\ght x wrong to unsettle h] m9d by read+ any ?+ contr>y to ! true fai? :i* %e held4 ,"h 0 a pretty exposure ( "o-sid$ hone/y4 ,i ?ank$ ,god = ! fur!r insight giv5 me into ! my/]y ( iniquity1 & f t day devot$ all my p[]s to ! inve/igation ( t aga9/ :i* ,i _h become a /an* prote/]4 ,9 ! mid/ ( our proce$+s1 a nun _h tak5 ! veil at ! conv5t4 ,e body almo/1 to _! %ame be x spok51 0 try+ = tickets to ! unhall[$ %[4 ,my poor fri5d s5t u two1 in=m$ me t two ( ! be/ front seats w\ld be res]v$ = u1 & accompani$ h] k9d note ) a programme ( ! c]emony & a translation or transcription ( ! s]vice1 all 9 h] own h&writ+4 ,i felt deeply ! pa9 ( hurt+ h]1 & p]haps = a mom5t ! work+s ( natural curiosity1 b ! hesitation 0 %ort4 ,i s5t back bo? books & tickets1 ) a grateful b decid$ refusal to be pres5t4 ,9 all ,kilk5ny ,i did n f9d a p]son :o c\ld g along ) me 9 my objections2 b x is a matt] ( great joy to me to ?is h\r1 t ,i kept myself :olly unpollut$ by any p>ticipation 9 ^! idolatr\s do+s2 & ,i d believe t a d\ble bless+ has att5d$ my ef=ts aga9/ ,pop]y 9 consequ5ce ( x4 ,! affair ( ! little deaf mute at ! conv5t l$ me to turn my att5tion to "s poor *ildr5 simil>ly circum/anc$ 9 ! /reets ( ,kilk5ny2 & :ile prosecut+ t "w ! ,"l br\ght to me t de> dumb boy :om y well rememb] z ! brighte/1 mo/ lovely ( ,*ri/ian *>act]s4 ,he 0 !n v little1 & _h a bro!r ( sixte51 "o ( ! mo/ g5u9e paddies ,i ev] beheld4 ,?is lad 0 liv+ v idly2 a f9e1 s5sible1 %rewd fell[1 :o c\ld read & write1 & v soon made great pr(ici5cy 9 ! f+] language by help+ me to in/ruct ,jack4 ,no "o above ,pat's own rank _h ev] tak5 any int]e/ 9 him2 ,i did1 a /rong "o1 & z he 0 mu* ) me1 & ( a "* mo/ int5sely ,iri%1 he became atta*$ to my ) a w>m? ( devotion r>ely met ) among any o!r p4 ,"o day ,pat made 8 appe>ance ) an important look1 8 brogues /amp+ ! c>pet ) unwont$ en]gy1 8 f9e b>e ?roat /iff5$ into a sort ( dignifi$ hauteur1 & 8 v ke5 hazel eyes sp>kl+ "u ! bu%y luxuriance ( *e/nut curls t clu/]$ ab\t 8 face & fell on 8 neck4 ,! v beau ideal ( a wild ,iri% y\? 0 my fri5d ,pat4 ,seat+ himself z usual1 he began--& "h ,i mu/ obs]ve t my *ief k ( ! phraseology & turn ( ?\ght s peculi> to ! ,iri% peasant 0 d]iv$ f ?is s\rce4 ,:5ev] ,pat came to disc\rse me1 ,i got ri* lessons 9 ! v brogue itself1 f ! fidelity ) :i* 8 spell+ foll[$ ! pronunciation ( 8 words--,i w\ldn't l1 said he1 t y w\ld g to hell4 ,nor ,i ei!r1 ,pat4 ,b y are out ( ! ?rue *ur*1 & y wont be sav$1 & ,i mu/ conv>t ye4 ,t is v k9d ( y1 my good lad4 ,if ,i am wrong1 y _c d bett] ?an set me "r4 ,sure & ,i w4 ,b h[8 ,) ?is1 said he1 pull+ out a small pamphlet no?+ ! clean] = we>4 ,y mu/ le>n my cate*ism1 & x's y t w be ! good ,ca?olic4 ,delight$ ) ! boy's hone/ zeal1 ,i ask$ him :]e ,i %\ld beg92 & he no less pleas$ at my docility1 desir$ me to read x all1 & !n get x all by he>t4 ,i promis$ to d ! fir/ at any rate2 & ,oh :at a tissue ( falsehood & blasphemy t ,butl]'s ,cate*ism 04 ,next morn+ my tea*] came e>ly3 ,well1 ,pat1 ,i h f\nd out :at makes y anxi\s ab\t me3 "h x is said t none c be sav$ out ( ! true *ur*4 ,t's x1 sure en\gh4 ,b ,i d belong to ! true *ur*1 & ,i'll %[ y :at x is2 s ,i po9t$ out to him two passages1 & add$1 ,n[1 ,i d love our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ 9 s9c]ity1 & !re=e ,i am "o ( ^? to :om ,/4 ,paul wi%es grace & peace2 & d y ?9k an apo/le w\ld s5d 8 bless+ to any body :o 0 n ( ! true *ur*8 ,pat %ook 8 head3 ,t's y\r cate*ism1 n m9e4 ,v true4 ,dr4 ,butl] wrote y\rs1 & ,god wrote m9e1 hold+ up ! ,bible2 :i* is be/8 ,t is n ! real ,bible1 p]si/$ ,pat2 my prie/ has ! true ,bible4 ,!n ask him to l5d y 84 ,i w\ldn't get my e>s pull$1 w\ld ,i8 said he1 smil+3 b if he l5t me 8 ,bible he mu/ l5d me a c> to br+ x home 91 = x's z big z ?is table4 ,y\rs is too little1 & doesn't hold half ! tru?4 ,t is :y y are s ignorant4 ,i soon prov$1 by %[+ him ,mat!w4 ,h5ry's ,comm5t>y1 t ! ^w ( ,god w\ld lie 9 a v small compass1 ! great bulk ( ! book be+ man's "w4 ,i also urg$ on him ! absolute necessity ( read+ :at ,god _h giv5 = our le>n+1 & ! dang] ( re/+ on man's ass]tion4 ,pat /ood 8 gr\nd mo/ manfully1 a/oni%+ me by ! adroitness ) :i* he p>ri$ my attacks1 :ile pursu+1 z he hop$1 ! good "w ( my conv]sion4 ,= _m a day 0 ! controv]sy c>ri$ on1 ,butl] v]sus ! ,bible1 )\t any o!r effect ?an t ( br++ ,pat to read ! sacr$ book = himself2 b x op5$ to me ! awful wiles ( d>kness by :i* ! poor & ignorant are bl9d$1 :ile = ! m educat$ class su* poli%$ sophi/ry z ,miln]'s is c>efully prep>$4 ,i reap$ ! fruit1 h[ev]1 six ye>s aft]w>ds1 :51 9 a little ,engli% *ur*1 ,pat kneel$ beside me & 8 bro!r1 a ?ankful communicant1 at ! ,"l's table4 ,,lett] ,,viii4 ,,! ,,dumb ,,boy4 ,i turn$ my att5tion to ! deaf & dumb *ildr51 ^: situation 0 deplorable inde$3 ,i took f\r out ( ! /reets to in/ruct !m1 ( :om "o prov$ irreclaimably wild & vici\s2 two 7 remov$ by a prie/'s ord]1 le/ ,i %\ld infect !m ) h]esy3 ! f\r? 0 to me a cr[n ( rejoic+1 & w be s yet m at t day4 99 99 99 ,john1 or ,jack z we always call$ him1 0 a puny little fell[1 ( heavy aspect1 & :olly de/itute ( ! life & animation t g5]ally *>act]ize t class1 :o are oblig$ to use looks & ge/ures z a sub/itute = words4 ,he seem$ = a long :ile unable to compreh5d my object 9 plac+ be=e him a dissect$ alphabet1 & =m+ ! lett]s into words significant ( dog1 man1 hat1 & o!r %ort monosyllables2 & :5 ,i guid$ 8 little h>d h& to trace correspond+ *>act]s on ! slate1 x 0 inde$ a "w ( "t & pati5ce to make him draw a s+le /roke correctly4 ,8 unmean+ gr9 ( good-natur$ acquiesc5ce 9 :atev] ,i bade him d1 0 m provok+ ?an d[nright rebellion c\ld h be52 & ,i secretly agre$ ) my fri5ds t ! attempt w\ld prove a complete failure1 :ile impell$1 ,i h>dly c\ld tell h[1 to p]sev]e ) r$\bl$ ef=ts4 ,jack's unc\? bri/ly hair fell 9 a /raight mass ov] "o ( ! f9e/ =eheads ev] se51 & conceal$ x4 ,i happ5$ "o day to put aside ?is mass1 = ! b5efit ( 8 sight1 & 0 s /ruck ) ! nobly expansive br[1 t ,i exclaim$ to a fri5d !n 9 ! act ( dissuad+ me f ! "w1 ,no2 ) su* a =ehead z ?is1 ,i c nev] despair ( success4 99 99 99 99 99 ,x 0 by a sudd5 bur/ t ! boy's m9d broke its prison & look$ ar\nd on e object z ?\gh nev] be=e beheld4 ,all seem$ to appe> 9 s new a light to him2 curiosity1 9 :i* he _h be5 /rangely defici5t1 became an eag]ly active pr9ciple1 & no?+ t 0 portable did he fail to br+ to me1 ) an inquir+ %ake ( ! head1 & ! ^w :at8 spell$ by ! f+]s4 ,x 0 no easy matt]1 be=e we _h ma/]$ a doz5 common sub/antives & no o!r p>ts ( spee*1 to satisfy 8 inquisitiv5ess1 :i* ,i always endeavor$ to d1 because x is wrong to repress t indication ( dawn+ reason 9 a *ild1 & ,jack at elev5 ye>s old 0 9 ! pr$icam5t ( a m]e infant4 ,m especially 0 ,i puzzl$ :5 8 :at8 0 accompani$ by a motion po9t+ fir/ at ! dog1 !n to himself1 to le>n :]e9 consi/$ ! diff]5ce betwe5 two creatures1 bo? ( :om1 z he intimat$1 c\ld eat1 dr9k1 sleep1 & walk ab\t1 c\ld be m]ry or angry1 sick or well2 nei!r ( :om c\ld talk2 & yet1 t !re 0 a v great diff]5ce1 he felt4 ,! noble nature ( man1 0 /ruggl+ to ass]t its preem95ce ov] ! irrational brute1 :i* he1 nev]!less1 lov$ & fe>$ too2 = ,b>r[ 0 a spl5did dog1 & us$ to assi/ me v clev]ly 9 keep+ my little wild ,iri% crew 9 ord]4 ,oh :at a magnific5t wreck is man6 ,i d love to wat* ! rapid approa* ( t glori\s "t :51 ! six ?\s& ye>s ( 8 degradation b5ea? ! reign ( ,satan be+ fulfill$1 he %all rise above ! usurp]'s p[]1 & resume 8 high /ation among ! brighte/ works ( ,god4 ,i d n rememb] exactly h[ long aft] 8 fir/ com+ to me x 0 t ,jack began to inquire s dilig5tly ab\t ,god4 ,he seem$ full ( grave b re/less ?\ght1 & !n approa*+ me1 po9t$ t[>ds ! sun1 & by a movem5t ( ! h&s z if knead+ some?+1 ask$ me :e!r ,i made x4 ,i %ook my head4 ,did my "m8 ,no4 ,did ,mr4 ,roe1 or ,mr4 ,%aw--two ,prote/ant cl]gym5--or ! prie/8 ,he _h a sign to express ea* ( ^!4 ,no4 ,!n ,:at8 :at8 ) a fr[n & a /amp ( fretful impati5ce4 ,i po9t$ upw>ds1 ) a look ( rev]5tial solemnity1 & spell$ ! ^w ,god4 ,he seem$ /ruck1 & ask$ no m at t "t1 b next day he ov]:elm$ me ) :ats1 & seem$ det]m9$ to "k m ab\t x4 ,i told him z well z ,i c\ld1 t ,he ( :om ,i spoke 0 great1 p[]ful1 & k9d2 & t he 0 always look+ at u4 ,he smil$1 & in=m$ me he did n "k h[ ! sun 0 made1 = he c\ld n keep 8 eyes on x2 b ! moon he ?\ght 0 l a dumpl+1 & s5t roll+ ov] ! tops ( ! trees1 z he s5t a m>ble across ! table4 ,z = ! />s1 !y 7 cut out ) a l>ge pair ( scissors1 & /uck into ! sky ) ! end ( ! ?umb4 ,hav+ ?us settl$ 8 sy/em ( a/ronomy1 he look$ v happy1 & patt$ 8 *e/ ) evid5t self-applause4 ,i 0 amus$1 b ( c\rse n satisfi$3 my *>ge 0 necess>ily an ,a!i/1 & :at ,i _h told him 0 a v b>e sort ( ,deism inde$4 ,to communicate m1 h[ev]1 seem$ utt]ly impossible1 until we %\ld h accompli%$ consid]able ?+s 9 ! way ( education4 ,we _h n above a doz5 ( ! commone/ words--all names ( ?+s--to :i* he c\ld atta* a mean+2 & our signs 7 all ( 8 own contriv+1 :i* ,i _h to cat* & foll[ z ,i might4 ,s said reason1 b reason is a fool4 ,man %all n live by bread alone1 b by e ^w t proce$e? out ( ! m\? ( ,god4 ,= my ways are n y\r ways1 nei!r are y\r ?\ghts my ?\ghts1 sai? ! ,"l4 ,x pleas$ him to enlight5 ! m9d ( ! boy2 & in/ead ( t "w be+ dep5d5t on human wisdom1 all t human wisdom c\ld d 0 to creep aft] x at a mode/ di/ance4 ,next day1 ,jack came to me 9 great wra?1 intimat+ t my tongue ought to be pull$ out4 ,?is 0 8 usual mode ( accusation :]e a lie _h be5 told4 ,s ,i look$ innoc5t & said1 ,:at8 ,he rem9d$ me ( ye/]day's conv]sation1 tell+ me he _h look$ ev]y:]e = ,god3 he _h be5 d[n ! /reet1 ov] ! bridge1 into ! *ur*y>d1 ?r\gh ! fields1 _h peep$ into ! gr\nds ( ! ca/le1 walk$ pa/ ! b>rack-y>d1 & got up 9 ! night to look out at ! w9d[4 ,all 9 va92 he c\ld n f9d ,god4 ,he saw nobody big en\gh to put up 8 h& & /ick ! />s into ! sky4 ,i 0 bad1 my tongue mu/ be pull$ out2 = !re 0 ,god1 ,,no4 ,& he repeat$ ,god1 no1 s (t5 t x w5t to my he>t4 ,i consid]$1 pray]fully4 ,my view ( ! scriptures told me t )\t div9e help none c\ld really seek aft] ,god3 & also t :5 he v\*saf$ to give ! desire1 he w\ld surely increase k4 ,"h 0 a poor afflict$ boy gett+ out ( 8 b$ to look by night = "o :om he _h va9ly s\ght all ! day3 "h 0 ,satan at "w to /r5g!n unbelief3 ,i 0 comm&$ to resi/ ! devil1 & surely !re mu/ be "s way ( resi/+ him4 ,i sat sil5t on ! opposite side ( ! fire1 & a plan hav+ /ruck me1 ,i look$ at ,jack1 %rugg$ my %\ld]s & seem$ convict$ ( a deception4 ,he %ook 8 head at me1 fr[n$1 & appe>$ v mu* (f5d$ at my del9qu5cy4 ,pres5tly ,i seiz$ a small pair ( bell[s1 & aft] puff+ at ! fire = a :ile1 sudd5ly direct$ a r\gh bla/ at 8 little r$ h&1 :i* hung v ne> x4 ,he snat*$ x back1 sc[l$ at me1 & :5 aga9 ,i repeat$ ! op]ation1 express$ great displeasure1 %iv]+1 & lett+ me "k he did n l x4 ,i r5ew$ ! puff1 say+1 ,:at8 & look+ mo/ unconsci\s ( hav+ done any ?+2 he blew h>d1 & repeat$ t x made 8 h&s cold2 t ,i 0 v bad1 & he 0 v angry4 ,i puff$ 9 all directions1 look$ v eag]ly at ! pipe ( ! bell[s1 pe]+ on e side1 & !n1 expla9+ t ,i c\ld see no?+1 imitat$ 8 mann]1 say+1 ,w9d8 no6 %ak+ my head at him1 & tell+ him 8 tongue mu/ come out1 mimick+ 8 looks ( rebuke & (f5d$ virtue4 ,he op5$ 8 eyes v wide1 />$ at me & pant$2 a deep crimson suffus$ 8 :ole face1 & a s\l1 a real s\l %one 9 8 /rangely alt]$ c\nt5ance1 :ile he triumphantly repeat$1 ,god l w9d6 ,god l w9d6 ,he _h no ^w = l2 x 0 signifi$ by hold+ ! two =ef+]s out1 side by side1 z a symbol ( p]fect resemblance4 ,"h 0 a /ep1 a glori\s /ep1 out ( absolute a!ism into a p]fect recognition ( ! invisible ,god4 ,an idea1 to call x no?+ m1 new1 gr&1 & absorb+1 took possession ( 8 m9d4 ,i numb]$ sev5 ye>s ( incessant c>e ov] him f t day2 & ,i w fe>lessly ass]t t 9 8 head & 9 8 he>t ,god reign$ unrivall$4 ,ev5 be=e he knew him z ,god 9 ,*ri/1 ! ,creator & ,pres]v] 7 en?ron$ 9 8 bosom2 & e ev5t ( ! day1 e object t met 8 view1 gave rise to "s t\*+ly simple "q or rem>k conc]n+ ,god4 ,he made me obs]ve t :5 try+ to look at ! sun he 0 =c$ to %ut 8 eyes1 add+1 ,god l sun4 ,an analogy n v traceable1 ?\gh /rictly j2 = ! glory t dazzl$ 8 m9d 0 n visible4 ,he 0 p]petually engag$ 9 "s process ( ab/ract reason+ on e subject1 & amaz$ me by expla9+ its results2 b h[ he c>ri$ x on )\t ! int]v5tion ( words1 0 & is a puzzle to me4 ,previ\sly he _h be5 r teas+ to ! dog & o!r inf]ior creatures1 & _h a great desire to fi%2 b n[ he became mo/ exquisitely t5d] t[>ds e liv+ ?+1 mov+ 8 h& ov] !m 9 a c>ess+ way1 & say+1 ,god made4 ,at fir/ he except$ ! worms f ?is privilege1 rem>k+ t !y came up ?r\gh holes f b5ea? ! e>?1 :ile ,god 0 above1 ov] ! sky2 !re=e !y 7 n made by him2 b ,i set him "r1 & he agre$ t !y might be roll$ up 9 ! _w1 l meat 9 a pudd+1 & bite _! way out4 ,!nce=?1 woe to ! angl] :om ,jack detect$ look+ = live bait6 ,:5 my fir/ pupil f be+ irregul> 9 8 att5dance fell (f m & m1 until he :olly discont9u$ com+1 & ! o!rs 7 )drawn = fe> ( h]etical infection1 ,i became m anxi\s le/ ?is de> boy might also leave me be=e he _h receiv$ ! k ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i _h1 at 8 e>ne/ entreaty1 tak5 him into ! h\se altoge!r1 8 home be+ at "s di/ance2 b ,i knew n h[ long he might be p]mitt$ to /ay4 ,! ravages ( a dreadful fev] among ! poor1 increas$ my solicitude to see my dev\t little ,dei/ a ,*ri/ian4 ,i h1 9 a small memoir ( ?is ,happy ,mute1 relat$ ! mann] ( 8 receiv+ ! gospel1 b ,i mu/ n pass x ov] "h4 ,to ! glory ( ,god's ri* grace x %all be record$1 z "o ( ! mo/ signal m]cies ev] v\*saf$ to me4 ,z be=e1 ! boy 0 l$ to op5 ! way1 & 9 ! fai? ( ! ,"l's will+ness to reveal himself to an inquir+ s\l1 ,i foll[$ x up4 ,jack _h notic$ ! numb] ( fun]als pass+2 he _h occasionally se5 dead bodies plac$ 9 _! c(f9s1 & "o ev5+ he allud$ to x1 ask+ me by significant ge/ures if !y w\ld ev] op5 _! eyes aga94 ,consid]+ t he _h (t5 be5 pres5t at ! int]m5t ( ! dead1 & _h also witness$ ! decay ( animals ca/ out to p]i%1 x /ruck me z a s+ul> "q1 pla9ly indicat+ t ! consci\sness ( immortality is natural to man1 & unbelief 9 a future /ate =eign to 8 untaught feel+s4 ,on ! pres5t occasion1 my he>t be+ !n lift$ up 9 pray] = div9e assi/ance on ?is v po9t1 ,i caught at ! enc\ragem5t1 & in/antly proce$$ to improve ! opportunity1 ,i sket*$ on pap] a cr[d ( p]sons1 old & "y2 ne> !m a pit ) flames issu+ f x1 & told him all ^? p1 among :om 7 we1 _h be5 bad & ,god w\ld ?r[ u into ! fire4 ,:5 8 al>m 0 greatly excit$1 ,i introduc$ into ! picture ano!r individual1 :o ,i told him 0 ,god's ,son2 t he came out ( heav52 t he _h n be5 bad1 & 0 n to g 9 ! pit2 b t he all[$ himself to be kill$2 & :5 he di$1 ,god %ut up ! pit2 s ! p 7 sp>$4 ,?is seem$ to myself too /range1 vague1 meagre1 to convey any def9ite idea to ! boy's m9d2 b h[ effectual does ! ,"l make our poore/ ef=ts :5 ,,he wills to "w6 ,aft] a few mom5ts' deep ?\ght1 ,jack a/oni%$ me by an objection t prov$ he saw ! gr& doctr9e ( a sub/itute = s9n]s1 :i* ,i 0 s hopeless ( br++ be=e him4 ,he told me ! rescu$ p 7 _m2 he :o di$ 0 "o1 & 8 e>ne/ ,:at8 ) ! eloqu5t look t n[ peculi>ly belong$ to 8 once /upid c\nt5ance1 %[$ 8 anxiety = a solution ( ?is difficulty4 ,) unutt]able joy 9 my he>t1 b great composure ( mann]1 ,i rose1 & tak+ f a vase a bun* ( dead fl[]s1 inadv]t5tly left !re1 ,i cut !m into small bits1 laid !m 9 a heap on ! table1 & beside !m my gold r+3 !n po9t+ to ea*1 ) ! words _m- "o1 ,i ask$ :i* he w\ld r h8 ,he /ruck 8 h& sudd5ly to 8 =ehead1 !n clapp$ bo? h&s1 gave a jump z he sat1 & ) ! mo/ raptur\s expression ( c\nt5ance intimat$ t ! "o piece ( gold 0 bett] ?an ! room full ( dead fl[]s ,) great rapidity he appli$ ! symbol1 po9t+ to ! picture1 to ! r+1 to himself1 to me1 & f9ally to heav54 ,9 ! la/ position he /ood up & paus$ = "s "t1 & :at a picture he w\ld h made6 ,a smile p]fectly angelic beam+ on 8 face1 8 eyes sp>kl+ & danc+ ) delight1 until1 ) a ru% ( te>s t q suffus$ !m1 he gaz$ at me1 !n aga9 rais$ !m to ! ceil+1 8 look s(t5$ into an expression ( deep awe & unb\nd$ love1 :ile he g5tly spell$ on 8 f+]s1 ,good ,,"o1 good ,,"o6 & end$ by ask+ me 8 "n4 ,h[ sweet ! "n ( ,jesus s\nds ,9 a believ]'s e>6 ,jack 0 n to he> t "n ) 8 bodily e>s until ! voice ( ! ar*angel & ! trump ( ,god %\ld call him f sleep+ 9 ! du/ ( ! e>?2 b he receiv$ x into 8 m9d1 & ! gospel1 ! glori\s1 ev]la/+ gospel1 into 8 s\l1 & ! ,holy ,_s into 8 he>t1 )\t ! int]v5tion ( t s5se4 ,9 t h\r x 0 giv5 unto him to believe1 & f t h\r all ?+s 7 8--! _w1 life1 dea?1 & a bright immortality4 ,nev] b once be=e _h ,i laid my head on ! pill[ ) su* an ov]:elm+ s5se ( p]fect happ9ess4 ,! ,"l _h inde$ %[n me 8 glory1 by caus+ 8 goodness to pass be=e me4 ,h5ce=? ,i _h a ,*ri/ian bro!r 9 my little dumb *>ge3 8 love to ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 f]v5t & full2 8 ?\ghts ab\t him mo/ beautiful4 ,by degrees1 ,i gave him "s k ( our ,"l's mortal bir?1 8 infancy1 "w1 dea?1 resurrection1 & asc5sion2 toge!r ) 8 com+ to f9al judgm5t at ! end ( ! _w4 99 99 99 ,v great inde$ 0 ,jack's emotion :5 he discov]$ t ! ,savi\r 9 :om he 0 rejoic+ 0 ! object repres5t$ by ! image he _h be5 taught to b[ d[n be=e4 ,he res5t$ x deeply3 ,i 0 q al>m$ at ! sudd5 & viol5t turn 8 feel+s took aga9/ ,pop]y4 99 99 99 ,he spurn$ ! :ole sy/em f him1 z soon z ! light ( ! gospel fell ^u its de=mities4 ,return+ f ! *apel "o day1 soon aft] ?is1 he came up to me "u great excitem5t3 he took up a clo!s-bru%1 set x on "o end1 & ) a ludicr\s grimace b[$ d[n be=e x1 jo9+ 8 h&s 9 ! attitude ( pray] & *att]+ aft] 8 fa%ion2 !n ask+ ! bru% if x c\ld he> him1 wait+ 9 an attitude ( att5tion = its reply1 & f9ally knock+ x ov] & kick+ x r\nd ! room1 say+1 ,bad god1 bad god6 ,i guess$ pretty well :at x 0 all ab\t2 b z he conclud$ by snapp+ 8 f+]s exult+ly & seat+ himself )\t fur!r rem>k1 ,i spoke on o!r subjects4 ,next morn+1 ,jack 0 v animat$1 & came to me ) an evid5t budget ( new ?\ghts4 ,he told me some?+ v small came out ( ! gr\nd1 po9t+ 9 opposite directions2 x grew3 & !n two m po9ts appe>$4 ,i f\nd he 0 describ+ ! gr[? ( a plant1 & expect+ "s "q1 0 all att5tion2 b ,jack 0 come to tea*1 n to le>n4 ,he soon %[$ t 8 tree _h rea*$ a great height & size2 !n he made z if %\ld]+ a hat*et1 advanc$ to ! tree & cut x d[n4 ,next came a great deal ( saw+1 *opp+1 plan+1 & %ap+1 until he made me und]/& he _h cut out a crucifix1 :i* he laid by1 & proce$$ to make a /ool1 a box1 & o!r small articles2 aft] :i* he ga!r$ up ! *ips1 flung !m on ! fire1 & seem$ to be *e]+ himself 9 ! blaze4 ,i actually trembl$ at ! proce$+2 = :]e _h he1 :o c\ld n =m or und]/& half a s5t5ce1 :]e _h he le>n$ ! ,holy ,_s's te/imony z record$ by ,isaiah8 ,! sequel 0 :at ,i anticipat$3 he feign$ to set up ! imag9>y crucifix1 & prep>+ to pray be=e x1 *eck$ himself1 say+1 ,no2 !n ) animat$ s]i\sness rev]t$ to ! spr++ up ( ! little se$l+1 say+1 ,god made2 & z x grew1 he describ$ ! fa%ion+ ( ! trunk & bran*es & leaves mo/ gracefully1 /ill say+ ,god made2 he seem$ to dip a p5cil 9 color1 to pa9t ! leaves1 repeat+1 ,god made beautiful6 ,!n1 t ,god made 8 h&s too2 & he came to ! conclusion t ! tree :i* ,god made1 cut out by 8 h&s :i* ,god made1 c\ld n be ,god :o made !m4 ,!n he got v angry1 & n satisfi$ ) an unsub/antial object = 8 holy indignation to v5t itself ^u1 he ran = ! clo!s-bru%1 & gave x a worse cuff+ & kick+ ?an be=e2 end+ ) a solemn inquiry :e!r ,i wor%ipp$ crosses1 etc41 :5 ,i w5t to *ur*4 ,i trembl$ to give ! enc\ragem5t ,i long$ to be/[4 ,h[ev]1 ,i di/9ctly intimat$ my dete/ation ( idolatry1 & confirm$ 8 /rong repudiation ( x4 ,he told me he w\ld n g any m to *apel1 b ,i told him1 z well z ,i c\ld1 ! almo/ c]ta9 consequ5ces1 & he !n rememb]$ t o!r boys _h told him ^? :o ate meat on ,fridays w\ld g to hell4 ,he became greatly di/ress$ z ! next ,sabba? approa*$1 b contr>y to all my expectations return$ f mass 9 excell5t spirits4 ,pat told me1 laugh+1 t ,jack 0 become s musical he insi/$ on go+ to sit by ! organ1 t he might feel ! vibration2 & :5 alone ) me1 ,jack joyfully told me t he _h run up ! /airs f ! out] door to ! organ- l(t1 & s escap$ ev5 ! necessity ( b[+ d[n to ! cross4 ,?is plan he p]si/$ 9 f t day4 ,"s ye>s aft]w>ds ,i ask$ 8 bro!r if he _h any suspicion at ! "t ( ! boy's object 9 s do+3 he answ]$1 ,none at all2 & t if he _h1 he w\ld h =c$ him into ! body ( ! mass-h\se1 & compell$ him to pro/rate himself4 99 99 99 99 99 ,e>ly 9 ! summ] ( #ahbd1 ,i receiv$ a summons to return to ,engl&4 ,x 0 mo/ unwelcome1 = my he>t 0 knit to ,irel&1 & to %>e ! lot ( h] devot$ p 0 its e>ne/ desire4 ,at home ,i _h _m old fri5ds2 b :at 7 !y to ! belov$ bre?r5 & si/]s 9 ,*ri/1 :o _h be5 my fell[-help]s = ! la/ f\r ye>s 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l8 ,all ties 7 weak to t1 save "o1 ! tie t b\nd me to my belov$ bro!r4 ,him ,i _h n se5 = n9e ye>s3 he _h cont9u$ on ! /aff ( ! ,portuguese army until ! e/abli%m5t ( ! ,cortes1 :o dismiss$ all ,briti% (fic]s2 & !n he settl$ 9 ! int]ior ( t c\ntry1 cultivat+ "s ( ! l& :i* he _h gallantly f\ght to rescue4 ,x 0 a subject ( cont9ual sorr[ to me t he 0 resid+ 9 ! he>t ( an exclusively ,popi% c\ntry1 f> f e means ( grace2 n ev5 a place ( wor%ip )9 _m leagues1 & :olly %ut out f ,*ri/ian int]c\rse4 ,i knew t he _h be5 equally d>k ) myself on ! subject ( religion2 & truly c ,i say1 t f ! v h\r ( my be+ enabl$ to see ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus1 my life _h be5 a con/ant pray] = him1 t ,god w\ld make him a p>tak] 9 ! l preci\s fai?4 ,!re 0 n[ a prospect ( 8 return+1 & ?is add$ to ! summons ,i h m5tion$1 made my way pla94 ,! /ate ( ,jack's m9d1 too1 on ! subject ( ,pop]y1 help$ to reconcile me1 s9ce ,i _h made up my m9d to take him ) me if 8 p>5ts w\ld agree to x4 ,!re 0 no difficulty 9 br++ !m to d s2 !y gave a will+1 a grateful cons5t4 ,8 "m's words1 :ile te>s roll$ d[n h] *eeks1 71 ,take him2 he is m y\r *ild ?an ours4 ,8 fa!r rem>k$1 ,:y %\ldn't we let him g ) y1 see+ he w\ld grieve to dea? if y left him beh9d8 ,:5 ,i began to /ate t ,i c\ld n promise he w\ld n op5ly embrace my religion1 !y int]rupt$ me1 repeat+ t he 0 my *ild m ?an !irs1 & c\ld nev] come to any h>m "u my c>e4 ,c[>d z ,i 01 ,i did n use ! opportunity !n giv5 to set be=e !m _! own dang]1 & comm5d ! pure fai? t ,i knew _! *ild held4 ,i _h occasionally talk$ 9 a g5]al way1 & once v /rongly1 :5 ! "m told me ( ! dreadful p5ances %e _h done1 walk+ on h] b>e knees ov] a road /rew$ ) pebbles1 glass1 & quicklime1 to make h] suff]+s great]1 9 ord] to obta9 f ,god & ! sa9ts ! re/oration ( ! boy's he>+ & spee*4 ,%e 0 !n plead+ ! p[] & hol9ess ( h] cl]gy1 & _! sup]iority to all ! re/ ( ! _w4 ,i look$ f ! w9d[1 & said1 ,see1 !re goes y\r bi%op2 n[ d y ?9k ?is bright sun w>ms him m ?an x does any ,prote/ant walk+ beside him8 ,tro?1 & ,i am sure x does1 answ]$ %e4 ,:at1 d y ?9k he has any p>ticul> advantage ov] o!r m5 9 ?+s t are common to all8 ,t he has1 be+ a holy bi%op4 ,well1 n[1 if ,i call him up1 & we all put our f+]s toge!r betwe5 ^! b>s1 d y ?9k ! fire w\ld burn him less ?an u8 ,%e hesitat$2 h] husb& bur/ into a laugh1 & ar*ly said1 ,i'll engage 8 rev]5ce w\ldn't try t same4 ,i 0 n[ to bid adieu to my pleasant haunts1 *ief among :i* 0 ! lordly ca/le ( ,kilk5ny1 :]e ,i _h pass$ s v _m delightful h\rs4 ,its noble own]s 7 abroad1 b by _! favor ,i _h a key to ! private door beside ! riv]1 & full access to e "p ( ! ca/le & its beautiful gr\nds4 ,x 0 !re ,i us$ to muse on days ( ,irel&'s bygone greatness1 ?\gh n !n well read 9 h] peculi> hi/ory1 & gradually ,i _h become z ,iri% z any ( h] own *ildr54 ,h[ c\ld x be o!rwise8 ,i 0 n naturally cold-he>t$1 ?\gh circum/ances _h1 inde$1 greatly froz5 ! curr5t ( my w>m affections1 & ,i _h le>n$ to look ) comp>ative indiff]5ce on :atev] cross$ my *angeful pa?2 b no "o ) a lat5t sp>k ( k9dly feel+ c long repress x among ! ,iri%4 ,!re is an ardor ( "*1 an e>ne/ness 9 _! good w1 a habit ( assimilat+ !mselves to ! ta/es & habits ( ^? :om !y desire to please --& t desire is v g5]al--t w9s on ! affections ( ^? :o possess any1 a grateful reg>d1 & leav+ on ! sc5es t h witness$ su* int]c\rse1 a sun%9e peculi> to !mselves4 ,res]ve ( mann] _c long exi/ 9 ,iri% society4 ,i h met ) "s among ! p ( ! l&1 :o 7 cold & =bidd+1 ins5sible & unk9d1 b ^! 7 exceptions1 e/abli%+ ! rule by ! v disagreeable contra/ 9 :i* !y /ood out f all ar\nd !m2 & ,i nev] f\nd ^! p]sons 9 ! humbl] classes1 :]e ! unmix$ ,iri% prevails4 ,hospitality is inde$ ! pole/> ( ,irel&2 g :]e y w1 x is always visible2 b x %9es ! brighte/ 9 ! poor man's cab91 because ! potato t he s frankly1 s he>tily1 s gracefully presses ^u y\r acceptance is select$ f a scanty heap1 b>ely suffici5t to allay ! crav+s ( hung] 9 himself & 8 half-clad little ones4 ,9 ?is1 z 9 all o!r p>ticul>s1 a *ange = ! worse has come ov] ! p ( late2 prie/ly au?ority has int]pos$ to *eck ! outgo+s ( k9dness f a w>m-he>t$ p to ^? :o are inde$ _! fri5ds1 & a pa9ful1 reluctant re/ra9t is laid ^u !m2 b ! evil _h n become evid5t at ! "t ( my soj\rn !re1 & ,i c only speak ( !m z ! mo/ respectful1 mo/ c\rte\s & hospitable peasantry 9 ! _w4 ,at ! same "t !y 7 9 _m respects ! mo/ degrad$4 ,no?+ c\ld equal ! dep? ( _! abasem5t be=e an insol5t prie/hood1 except ! unblu%+ effront]y ) :i* ! latt] lord$ x ov] !m4 ,= any infraction ( _! arbitr>y rules1 ! mo/ cruel & humiliat+ p5ances 7 impos$4 ,i knew an in/ance ( a "y woman1 a ,romani/1 :o engag$ 9 ! s]vice ( a ,prote/ant family1 & w5t out ) !m to ,am]ica4 ,:ile !re1 %e 0 l$ to jo9 9 family wor%ip1 b )\t any int5tion ( =sak+ h] own cre$2 nei!r _h !y attempt$ to draw h] out ( ! net4 ,on h] return to ,kilk5ny %e w5t to confession1 & among o!r ?+s divulg$ ! fact ( hav+ he>d ! ,bible read1 & pray$ 9 company ) h]etics4 ,?is 0 an enormity too great = ! prie/ to deal ) alone2 s he ord]$ ! girl (f1 fa/+1 to h] orig9al confessor1 :o !n (ficiat$ 9 a *apel sev5 good ,iri% miles di/ant4 ,on he>+ ! case1 he ord]$ h] to g ?rice r\nd ! *apel on h] b>e knees1 & !n to set (f1 /ill fa/+1 & walk back to ,kilk5ny1 !re to und]go su* additional p5ance z 8 rev]5d bro!r %\ld see good to impose4 ,! poor creature sc>cely rea*$ ! t[n alive1 ?r\gh fatigue1 exhau/ion1 & t]ror2 %e 0 ill = "s "t1 & on h] recov]y subject$ to fur!r discipl9e4 ,^! p>ticul>s ,i _h f "o ( h] own fri5ds & a bigot$ ,papi/ to boot1 :o told x 9 ord] to conv9ce me t ! girl _h committ$ a v great s94 ,i once ask$ a "y man h[ he got on at confession--:e!r he told all 8 s9s4 ,he repli$1 ,sometimes ,i disrememb] a few1 & if ! prie/1 suspects x1 he pulls my hair & boxes my e>s1 to help my memory4 ,& h[ d y feel :5 y h got absolution8 ,i feel all "r2 & ,i g out & beg9 aga94 ,& h[ d y "k t ,god has really p>don$ y8 ,he doesn't p>don me directly2 only ! prie/ does4 ,he1 ! prie/1 confesses my s9s to ! bi%op1 & ! bi%op confesses !m to ! pope1 & ! pope sees ! ,virg9 ,m>y e ,saturday night1 & tells h] to speak to ,god ab\t x4 ,& y really believe ?is mon/r\s /ory8 ,:y %\ldn't ,i8 ,b x is no affair ( m9e1 =1 once ,i h confess$1 all my s9s are laid on ! prie/1 & he mu/ d ! be/ he c to get rid ( !m4 ,i am safe4 ,( su* mat]ials is ! net compos$ t holds ^! p 9 bondage2 & :o c m>vel t su* pro/ration ( m9d be=e a fell[-mortal %\ld lead to an abject slav]y ( ! :ole man1 body1 consci5ce1 & und]/&+8 ,we see ! effects1 & abhor !m2 b we d n g to ! root ( ! matt]4 ,! prie/ himself is equally enslav$2 8 oa? b9ds him to an implicit bl9d reception ( t5ets :i* he is n p]mitt$ to inve/igate1 & :i* make him ! pliant tool ( a high] dep>tm5t ( ?is dete/able ma*9]y4 ,he receives 8 cue f ! bi%ops1 & !y are :olly gov]n$ by ! ,propag&a at ,rome1 :i!r ea* ( !m is b\nd p]iodically to appe> = p]sonal exam9ation & fre% in/ructions4 ,! ,propag&a is1 ( c\rse1 ! primum mobile ( ! sy/em1 set ago+ by ,satan himself4 ,h5ce ! mis*ief t is p]petrat$ by ! unhappy be+s :o =m ! op]ative section ( ?is cunn+ conc]n--! h&icraft m5 ( blood4 ,x is an awful spectacle1 & "o t we _c long av]t our eyes f contemplat+ ) ! deep int]e/ t p]sonal p]il excites4 ,all is prep>+ = a bur/ ( p]secution aga9/ ! p ( ! ,"l1 & happy is he :o %all be f\nd arm$ ) wat*+4 ,,lett] ,,ix4 ,,engl&4 ,we />t$ = ,dubl9 ) sorr[+ he>ts1 = x 0 likely to be a long1 if n a la/ f>ewell to fri5ds :o 7 ende>$ z well by a p>ticipation 9 dang] z 9 feel+4 99 99 99 ,jack _h nev] be=e be5 beyond ! environs ( 8 native t[n1 & ,i expect$ to see him mu* a/oni%$ by ! spl5did build+s ( ,dubl94 ,he reg>d$ !m h[ev] ) indiff]5ce1 because1 z he said1 !y 7 n ,god-mades2 :ile ! sc5]y ?r\gh :i* we _h travell$1 p>ticul>ly ! noble oaks on ,colonel ,bru5's f9e demesne1 & ! gr\ps ( de] recl9+ b5ea? _! broad %ad[1 r\s$ him to en?usiasm4 ,x 0 wond]ful to trace ! exquisite p]ception ( beauty z develop$ 9 t boy1 :o _h nev] ev5 be5 9 a furni%$ room until he came to me4 ,8 ta/e 0 ref9$1 & 8 m9d delicate beyond belief3 ,i nev] saw su* s5sitive mode/y z he manife/$ to ! la/ day ( 8 life4 ,rud5ess ( any k9d 0 hateful to him2 he n only yield$ respect to all1 b requir$ x t[>ds himself1 & really comm&$ x by 8 /rik+ propriety ( mann]4 ,he 01 z a de> fri5d once rem>k$1 a ,god-made g5tleman1 unta9t$ ) ! slighte/ approa* to any ?+ l affectation or coxcombry3 inde$ he ridicul$ ! latt] ) mu* comic effect3 & ! words ,d&y ,jack1 w\ld put him out ( conceit ) any article ( app>el t drew =? ! rem>k4 ,he w\ld answ] ! taunt ) a face ( grave rebuke1 say+1 ,bad ,mam1 bold ,mam2 ,jack d&y8 no2 ,jack poor boy4 ,he _h n1 inde$1 arriv$ at s copi\s a vocabul>y :5 we left 8 home2 b he 0 rapidly acquir+ new words4 ,x 0 beautiful to see him at pray]4 ,he _h nev] kneel$ d[n ) u at ,kilk5ny2 = any ,romani/ :o _h detect$ him do+ s mu/ h in=m$1 & ! prie/ w\ld h comm&$ 8 removal4 ,9 ,dubl9 he volunte]$ to jo9 u1 & z he kneel$ ) clasp$ h&s1 look+ up t[>ds heav51 ! expression ( 8 c\nt5ance 0 mo/ lovely4 ,a smile ( *ildlike confid5ce & rev]5tial love play$ ov] 8 features1 n[ becom+ mo/ eloqu5t2 8 bri/ly hair _h begun to assume a silky appe>ance1 & 0 comb$ aside f a magnific5t br[1 :ile a f9e color p]petually mantl$ 8 *eeks & *ang$ ) e emotion2 8 d>k hazel eyes1 l>ge1 & v bright1 always speak+ "s ?\ght t occupi$ 8 m9d4 ,he 0 r m ?an twelve ye>s old4 ,9 pr(ile1 he mu* resembl$ ,kirke ,:ite :5 old]2 b ! /ronge/ lik5ess ,i ev] saw ( him is an orig9al portrait ( ,edw>d ,,vi41 by ,holbe91 9 my possession4 ,x 0 tak5 aft] consumption _h set its seal on ! c\nt5ance ( t bless$ "y k+1 z x did on t ( my de> dumb boy4 ,9 ,dubl91 he _h "o adv5ture t af=d$ him mu* enjoym5t4 ,i w5t into an ext5sive toy-%op to make "s pur*ase1 & ,jack1 en*ant$ ) ! wond]s ar\nd him1 /roll$ to ! fur!r end1 & into a little adjo9+ recess1 well fill$ ) toys4 ,a great upro> 9 t direction made u all run to inquire ! cause1 & !re 0 ,jack1 m\nt$ on a fir/-rate rock+-horse1 te>+ away full gallop1 & absolutely ro>+ out 9 ! madde/ p>oxysm ( delight1 8 hat fall5 (f1 8 arm rais$1 8 eyes & m\? wide op51 & ! surr\nd+ valuables 9 imm95t p]il ( a g5]al cra%4 ,! mi/ress ( ! %op 0 s convuls$ ) laught] t %e c\ld r5d] no assi/ance1 & x 0 ) "s difficulty ,i *eck$ 8 triumphant c>e]1 & dism\nt$ him4 ,he gave me aft]w>ds a div]t+ acc\nt ( 8 cauti\s approa* to ! good horse2 h[ he asc]ta9$ x 0 bite1 no2 kick1 no3 & gradually got resolution to m\nt x4 ,he want$ to "k h[ f> he _h rode1 & also if he 0 a ,god-made8 ,i told him x 0 wood1 b ,i d\bt :e!r he believ$ me4 ,!nce=? ,dubl9 0 associat$ 9 8 m9d ) no?+ else2 ev5 at n9ete5 ye>s ( age he w\ld say1 if he met ) ! "n1 ,good ,dubl91 good horse2 small ,jack love good ,dubl9 horse4 ,! %ipp+ pleas$ him greatly1 & _m ( 8 beautiful draw+s 7 repres5tations ( sail+ vessels4 ,i _h n[ be5 9 ,irel& five ye>s & ?ree mon?s2 & ) :at diff]5t feel+s did ,i prep>e to leave its gre5 %ores f ^? ) :i* ,i fir/ press$ !m4 ,unf\nd$ prejudice 0 succe$$ by an atta*m5t f\nd$ on close acqua9tance ) ^? among :om ,i _h dwelt1 contempt by respect1 & dislike by ! w>me/1 mo/ grateful affection4 ,i _h scorn$ h] pov]ty1 & hat$ h] turbul5ce4 ,! fir/ ,i n[ knew to be no pov]ty ( soil1 ( natural res\rces1 ( m9d1 tal5t1 or en]gy1 b ! effect ( a blight1 p]mitt$ to re/ alike on ! l& & p1 ?r\gh ! selfi%ness ( an unju/1 crook$ policy1 t made _! welf>e ( no acc\nt 9 its calculations1 nor w\ld /ret* =? a h& to deliv] !m f ! d>k dom9ion ( ,pop]y4 ,_! turbul5ce 0 ! natural fruit ( su* pov]ty1 & ( _! be+ :olly "u ! influ5ce ( a p>ty necess>ily ho/ile to ! int]e/s ( a ,prote/ant /ate1 & b5t on subv]t+ its asc5d5cy4 ,:at ,irel& 01 ,i too pla9ly saw3 :at %e might be1 ,i cle>ly und]/ood2 & ! guilt ( my c\ntry's responsibility lay heavy on my he>t z ,i wat*$ ! outl9e ( h] rec$+ coa/4 ,bri/ol 0 our de/9ation2 & = ! ensu+ ye>1 ,clifton became our abode4 ,?is p]iod ( my life 0 "o ( sev]e trial1 :i* x is n necess>y to p>ticul>ize4 ,incipi5t d]angem5t1 :i* aft]w>ds became develop$1 9 a qu>t] :]e1 if ,i did n f9d com=t & protection1 ,i might expect _! opposites1 occasion$ me mu* al>m & di/ress1 :ile my bro!r's protract$ abs5ce increas$ ! trial4 ,mu* seclud$1 ,i pursu$ my lit]>y avocations1 & wat*$ ! progress ( ,jack's gr[? 9 k & 9 grace4 99 99 99 ,my soj\rn at ,clifton br\ght me into p]sonal acqua9tance ) t v5]able s]vant ( ,god1 ,hannah ,m4 ,we _h = "s "t correspond$1 & %e _h af=d$ me great enc\ragem5t 9 my humble labors1 tak+ an especial int]e/ 9 my attempts to in/ruct ! deaf & dumb *ildr54 ,i _h n[ ! pleasure ( %[+ h] ! progress made ) ,jack1 :o delight$ h] greatly1 & :o1 to ! la/ day ( 8 mortal exi/5ce1 mo/ fondly *]i%$ ! memory ( t sweet old lady4 ,%e 01 inde$1 "o ( ! excell5t ( ! e>?1 p]mitt$ long to beautify ! *ur* :i* %e _h s ma9ly help$ to /r5g!n & advance1 & to be an honor to ! l& :]e %e _h nobly /ood =? to repel ! assaults ( revolutioniz+ impiety4 ,i (t5 wond] t s little /ress is laid ^u ?is bran* ( ,mrs4 ,m's ext5sive labors4 ,we he> mu* ( h] s*ools1 h] *>ities1 h] lett]s1 h] devotional & educational publications1 & all ( ^! des]ve ! full celebrity t !y h atta9$4 ,b ,engl& %\ld especially be> 9 m9d h] effective *ampion%ip ( ! good cause1 by means mo/ admirably adapt$ to its fur!rance among ! mo/ dang]\s1 & g5]ally speak+ ! mo/ unapproa*able class--a class :o congregat$ 9 ale-h\ses to he> ! inflammatory h>angues ( s$iti\s traitors1 :ile z yet ,bibles 7 sc>ce1 religi\s tracts n 9 exi/5ce1 & di/rict visit+ un?\ght (4 ,9 a lady ( ref9$ ta/e1 & r>e accompli%m5ts 9 ! high] /yle ( writ+1 to volunte] 9 a "w s new1 & to furni% ! press ) a s]ies ( pla9 tru?s dress$ 9 a mo/ homely phrase1 r5d]$ attractive by lively n>rative & ev5 droll]y1 & ! :ole br\ght d[n to ! level ( co>se1 un9=m$ m9ds1 :ile circulat$ 9 a =m to come )9 ! n>r[ means ( ! l[e/ me*anics--?is 0 an ent]prise wor?y especial note1 ev5 _h n ,god op5ly bless$ x to ! turn+ ( t =midable tide4 ,:5 ,i look$ ^u ! placid b animat$ c\nt5ance ( ! ag$ sa9t1 z %e sat 9 h] b[-w9d[ look+ out ^u ! fair fields1 ! /ill inviolate %ores ( h] belov$ c\ntry1 ,i ?\ght m ( h] ,*eap ,repository ,tracts ?an ( all h] o!r works comb9$4 ,!re lay ! ,bri/ol ,*annel1 t noble inlet to our isle1 by :i* ! comm]ce ( ! _w 0 ev5 !n f9d+ its peaceful way to ! great m>t ( ,bri/ol2 & !re sat ! ag$ lady1 s long ! presid+ _s ( ! place1 ) "o h&1 z x 71 ga!r+ ! lambs ( ! flock into gre5 pa/ures among ! di/ant hills1 t =m$ a beautiful feature 9 ! l&scape2 ) ! o!r vigor\sly repuls+ ! wolf f ! field4 ,if ,i c\ld h discov]$1 :i* ,i c\ld n1 a s+le trait ( consci\sness t %e 0 a di/+ui%$ be+1 exalt$ into em95ce by public acclaim1 ,i mu/ h conceiv$ h] to be dwell+ ^u ?is bran* ( h] _m privileges1 t %e _h be5 a ,deborah :]e _m a ,b>ak %runk f ! po/ ( honor & skulk$ beh9d a woman4 ,%e took t lively int]e/ 9 ! public1 secul> affairs ( h] c\ntry t ,j]emiah & ,ezekiel did ( old2 & on ! same pla9 gr\nd--t :]e ! /ate pr(esses to be modell$ & ! executive to act on pr9ciples ( ,god's in/ill+1 ) a view t peace & happ9ess1 tru? & ju/ice1 religion & piety1 may be e/abli%$ among u1 no?+ done by ! /ate c be indiff]5t to ! *ur*1 or unwor?y ! anxi\s wat*ful reg>d ( ,*ri/ians4 ,to be call$ a c>nal politician by ^? ^: m9ds1 at lea/ on religi\s subjects1 c\ld conta91 b "o idea1 0 c]ta9ly a light affliction to balance aga9/ ! joy\s consci\sness ( hav+ mat]ially aid$ 9 pres]v+ ^? cavill]s' homes f ! h& ( ! spoil]1 & _! ,bibles f t ( ! ,a!i/4 ,:5 ,i saw ,hannah ,m1 %e 0 really at ease 9 h] possessions2 & none :o lov$ h] less ?an ! ,"l himself did1 w\ld h laid a sorr[ ^u h] grey hairs4 ,man w\ld h decre$ t su* a full-ripe %ock ( corn %\ld be br\ght into ! g>n] )\t fur!r ruffl+ or %ak+4 ,%e _h suff]$ exce$+ly f rheumatism & o!r ailm5ts1 & yet m f ! tongue ( calumny & ! h& ( +ratitude4 ,%e 0 an illu/ration ( t /rik+ c\plet1 ,envy w m]it z its %ade pursue1 ,&1 l ! %ad[1 prove ! sub/ance true4 ,%e _h1 h[ev]1 triumph$ ov] all by meekly committ+ h] cause to ,him :o judge? righte\sly2 & n[ %e seem$ to be plac$ beyond ! rea* ( fur!r mole/ation1 & ab\t to end h] useful life 9 peace4 ,b %e _h ano!r lesson to give to ! p ( ,god1 ano!r fire 9 :i* to glorify him3 & n long aft] ,i saw h] recl9+ 9 t lovely retreat :i* _h gr[n up ab\t h]1 a p]fect b[] f slips & se$s ( h] own plant+1 z %e delight$ to tell u1 %e 0 actually driv5 out ( h] little p>adise1 compell$ to leave ! %ad[ ( h] nursl+ trees1 & to ca/ a te>ful f>ewell look on ! smil+ fl[]s1 & to turn away f ! bright sea & ! wav+ l9e ( h] ,*$d> hills1 to f9d a lodg+ 9 ! neighbor+ t[n2 & all ?r\gh trea*]y1 dome/ic trea*]y aga9/ h] ^: :ole life _h be5 a c\rse ( unsp>+ b5efic5ce t[>ds o!rs4 ,hannah ,m p]haps ne$$ to be aga9 rem9d$1 t %e mu/ d all h] works z to ! ,"l1 look+ to him alone = acceptance ( !m2 or if %e ne$$ x n1 o!rs did2 & (t5 s9ce %e ent]$ into h] ,savi\r's pres5ce1 to g no m out1 has ! sc5e ( ! la/ trial to :i* h] g5]\s1 confid+1 affectionate _s 0 subject$1 be5 bless$ to ! consolation ( o!rs4 ,god's *ildr5 f9d t x is good = !mselves t !y %\ld be afflict$2 b !y d n always rememb] h[ good x is = ! *ur*1 t !y %\ld be s4 ,!y look )91 & see+ s mu* !re daily1 ju/ly des]v+ ,god's wra? & condemnation1 !y lie /ill 9 8 h&1 will+ & ?ankful to h ! dross purg$ out1 & ! t9 tak5 away4 ,_! fell[s look on1 & n see+ ! desp]ate wick$ness ( _! he>ts1 b fondly believ+ !m to be z ne> p]fection z human frailty w p]mit1 !y argue1 ,if su* a sa9t z ---- be ?us *a/5$ & correct$1 :at mu/ a s9n] l me expect8 ,s !y le>n wat*fulness & fe> 9 ! day ( prosp]ity2 & :5 adv]sity comes1 !y are enabl$ m lov+ly to kiss ! rod4 ,oh1 if we c\ld see b a little ( ! ,"l's deal+s1 9 all _! be>+s1 h[ %\ld we praise him = 8 goodness & ! wond]s t he doe? unto ! *ildr5 ( m54 ,:at pr(it1 :at pleasure has he 9 afflict+ u8 ,surely x is1 s to speak1 m tr\ble to correct ?an to leave u alone2 & he w\ld n tw9e ! small cords into a sc\rge1 unless to cleanse & sanctify 8 temple4 ,i h said t my bro!r's return home 0 delay$4 ,a hurt receiv$ 9 %oot+1 ) its consequ5ces1 deta9$ him 9 ,lisbon ne>ly a ye>2 b 8 family came ov]1 & ,i _h a new delici\s employm5t1 a solace "u _m sorr[s1 an unfail+ s\rce ( int]e/ & delight1 9 tea*+ 8 elde/ surviv+ boy ! accompli%m5ts ( walk+ & talk+4 ,i almo/ expect$ ,jack to be jeal\s ( su* a rival1 b ,i wrong$ him3 no?+ c\ld exce$ 8 fondness = baby boy1 or ! zeal ( 8 ,iri% devotion to ! little g5tleman4 ,kn[+ t 9 ! ev5t ( my removal1 ,jack mu/ e>n 8 bread by "s labori\s or s]vile occupation1 ,i _h kept him humble4 ,he ate 9 ! same room ) u1 because ,i nev] suff]$ him to associate ) s]vants2 b at a side-table2 & he 0 expect$ to d e little h\sehold "w t befitt$ 8 age & /r5g?4 ,a k9d %ake ( ! h&1 morn+ & ev5+1 0 8 peculi> privilege2 & ! omission a puni%m5t too sev]e to be inflict$1 except on occasions ( mo/ flagrant del9qu5cy1 su* z rebell+ aga9/ ord]s1 or express+ any angry emotion1 to :i* he 0 con/itutionally liable1 by yells & h[ls t almo/ fright5$ our ho/s f _! propriety4 ,he _h1 ( c\rse1 no idea ( ! /r5g? ( 8 own lungs1 nor ( ! effect produc$ by giv+ !m full play 9 a fit ( passion2 b ! commotion into :i* x ?rew ! :ole h\se seem$ to flatt] 8 vanity1 & he became a vocali/ on v trifl+ occasions4 ,?is nei!r agre$ ) our de> invalid l&lady1 nor 0 a fitt+ example = baby boy1 :o spe$ily tri$ 8 own little treble 9 admir+ imitation ( ,jack's deaf5+ bass2 & rec\rse 0 at la/ _h to ! aid ( a "y fri5d1 :o be/[$ a few g5tle raps on 8 head ) ! b5t end ( a hook$ cane1 & !n lock$ him up 9 a d>k kit*5 = half an h\r1 say+ to me1 r regretfully1 ,i suppose my popul>ity is at an end n[4 ,poor fell[1 ,i %all be sorry to lose 8 affection4 ,b ?is 0 s f> f be+ ! case1 t to 8 clos+ sc5e ,jack reta9$ a grateful remembrance ( ! proce$+4 ,he us$ to say1 ,good ,mr4 ,w----2 good little /ick beat ,jack's head2 made bad ,jack good4 ,jack love good ,mr4 ,w----4 ,at ! v "t1 z soon z he saw 8 k9d corrector aft] ! bus9ess1 he v gracefully & cordially ?ank$ him1 kiss+ 8 h&1 ) a b[1 & say+1 ,jack no m cry2 & z he really 0 h>dly t\*$1 & full well knew we _h n ! he>t to be sev]e1 x 0 a pro( ( t op5ness to rebuke :i* is a lovely m>k ( true ,*ri/ianity4 ,montgom]y beautifully says1 ,pray] is ! ,*ri/ian's vital brea?1 ,! ,*ri/ian's native air4 ,& s x em95tly 0 ) ! dumb boy4 ,"u e =m ( condition & circum/ance1 9 heal? & sickness1 9 joy1 9 grief1 9 dang]1 9 p]plexity--ov] 8 food1 8 /udies1 8 "w1 8 amusem5ts1 he 0 ev] turn+ a look ( peculi> sweetness on me1 ) ! two words1 ,jack pray4 ,he always smil$ :5 s engag$1 & a look ( inexpressible eag]ness1 m+l$ ) satisfaction & ! triumph ( "o :o feels t he has tak5 a secure /&1 told me :5 he 0 pray+1 )\t any *ange ( position1 or look+ up4 ,!re 0 always a mixture ( anxiety 9 8 aspect :5 he tri$ to make himself und]/ood by 8 fell[-creatures2 ?is gave place to some?+ ! rev]se ( anxiety :5 he 0 talk+ to ,god1 z he sometimes express$ x4 ,he (t5] look$ d[n ?an up2 & v (t5 did ,i see 8 eye fix$ ^u ! baby boy1 :51 z 8 looks bespoke1 & z he aft]w>ds told me1 he 0 tell ,god ab\t him1 & t he 0 too little to "k ab\t ,jesus ,*ri/ yet4 ,_m a pray] ( t grateful dumb boy ev5 n[ desc5ds 9 bless+s on ! head ( my bro!r's baby1 & long may ! hall[$ /ream cont9ue to fl[ d[n1 until !y rejoice toge!r be=e ! ?rone ( ! ,lamb4 ,"o ( ,jack's lovely ?\ghts 0 ?is3 he told me t :5 little *ildr5 began to walk1 ,jesus ,*ri/ held !m by ! h& to tea* !m2 & t if !y fell1 he put 8 h& betwe5 _! heads & ! gr\nd to prev5t _! be+ hurt4 ,!n1 z if he saw ?is proce$+1 he w\ld look up1 & ) ! fonde/ expression say1 ,good ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,jack v mu* loves ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i hope y are n tir$ ( ,jack2 ,i h mu* to tell ab\t him4 ,god made me ! humble means ( pluck+ ?is preci\s br& f ! burn+2 & ,i owe x to ! ,"l to %[ :at a t5fold bless+ ,i reap$ 9 x4 ,jack 0 n ! only "o ( :om ,he has1 9 ! disp5sations ( 8 provid5ce1 said to me1 ,nurse ?is *ild = me1 & ,i w give !e ?y wages4 ,i h f\nd him a noble ,payma/]4 ,& n[ ,i come to a p]iod ( my life t ,i h sc>cely c\rage to g ov]4 ,_m & %>p & bitt] 7 ! trials left unrecord$ "h2 & %ame be to ! h& t %all ev] ,,d>e to lift ! veil t t5d] *>ity w\ld ca/ ov] :at 0 ,god's do+1 let ! in/rum5ts be :at & :o !y might4 ,x is en\gh to say1 t ev5 n[ ,i "k !re 0 n "o sup]flu\s /roke ( ! rod1 nor "o drop ( bitt] t c\ld h be5 sp>$ f ! :olesome cup4 ,besides1 he dealt mo/ m]cifully ) me2 ^? two ri* bless+s1 heal? & *e]fulness1 7 nev] )drawn4 ,i _h n a day's illness ?r\gh ye>s ( tribulation2 & ?\gh my spirits w\ld n[ & !n fail1 x 0 b a mom5t>y depression2 light & buoyant1 !y soon danc$ on ! cre/ ( ! wave t _h = an in/ant +ulf$ !m4 ,x is ( joy ,i h to tell3 safety1 peace1 prosp]ity1 "u ! re/or$ sun%9e t _h made my e>ly c>e] s bright4 ,nev] did a si/] m fondly love a bro!r2 nev] 0 a bro!r m =m$ to be ! delight1 ! pride1 ! bless+ ( a si/]4 ,he 0 ( mo/ r>e beauty f ! cradle1 increas+ 9 lovel9ess z he grew up1 & becom+ ! v model ( a spl5did man2 v tall1 l>ge1 comm&+1 ) a face ( p]fect beauty1 gl[+1 animat$1 mir?ful--a gait s ess5tially milit>y1 t x 0 once rem>k$ by an (fic]1 ,if ,b---- 7 disguis$ z a wa%]woman1 any soldi] w\ld give him ! salute4 ,he _h also s]v$ 9 ! ,p59sula ) ! highe/ possible cr$it1 reg>d$ by ^? 9 comm& z "o ( ! be/ (fic]s 9 ! s]vice1 & mo/ ard5tly lov$ by ! m5 "u him4 ,_m a bloody battle-field _h he se52 b nev] did a w\nd rea* him4 ,on "o occasion--at ,albuh]a--8 gallant regim5t w5t into action #hjj /rong1 & on ! foll[+ day only #if m5 7 able to draw rations4 ,he became on ! field a lieut5ant1 f be+ ! y\nge/ ensign2 & alike 9 all circum/ances he %one out z an honor to 8 pr(ession4 ,he _h also be5 an especial favorite ) ,john ,,vi4 ( ,portugal1 & ! high poli% ( a c\rt 0 sup]add$ to all ! re/1 )\t 9 ! smalle/ degree *ang+ ! exce$+ly playful1 unaffect$ joy\sness ( ! mo/ sun%9y "* ,i ev] met )4 ,t5 ye>s' abs5ce _h produc$ ! effect on my si/]ly love t ,burns describes3 ,"t b ?' impression /rong] makes1 ,z /reams _! *annels deep] we>4 ,i _h also _m p]sonal reasons = look+ =w>d to 8 return ) peculi> anxiety2 & its unc]ta9ty increas$ ! feel+4 ,i _h be5 sp5d+ ! day ) a sick fri5d1 & ran home at night to ! lodg+ occupi$ by my "m & myself1 & !re ,i f\nd my bro!r4 ,:at a dream ^? t5 ye>s' trials appe>$6 ,we rema9$ b a %ort "t 9 ,clifton1 & soon b5t our way t[>ds ! metropolis1 :]e he expect$1 z is usual1 to dance a long & we>isome att5dance on ! ,horse ,gu>ds1 = a regim5tal appo9tm5t4 ,he _h refus$ t ( aid-de-camp to k+ ,john1 ) any milit>y rank & title t he might desire2 pref]r+ a half-pay unatta*$ company 9 ! ,briti%1 to any ?+ t a =eign s]vice c\ld (f]2 b he 0 mi/ak53 8 m]its 7 well kn[n to ! ,duke ( ,york1 & be=e he c\ld well /ate to ,sir ,h]b]t ,taylor 8 wi%es1 t e/imable man told him he _h only to select out ( two or ?ree regim5ts lately return$ f =eign s]vice1 & he w\ld be gazett$ on ! foll[+ ,tuesday4 ,he *ose ! #ge?1 & 0 imm$iately appo9t$ to x1 ) leave to /udy = two ye>s 9 ! s5ior dep>tm5t ( ! ,milit>y college at ,s&hur/1 ! bett] to qualify himself = a future /aff situation4 ,a sweet cottage1 /&+ isolat$ on ! v]ge ( ,bag%ot-hea?1 %elt]$ by tall trees & op5+ on a beautiful lawn1 ) a di/ant b full view ( ! college1 became our abode4 ,a delightful room 0 select$ = me1 ) an injunction to sit d[n & make ! mo/ ( my "t :ile he 0 9 ! halls ( /udy1 t ,i might be at leisure to walk1 to ride1 to g>d51 to f>m ) him--my bro!r--my re/or$ bro!r1 ^: eye beam$ protection1 & ^: smile diffus$ gladness1 & ^: society 0 :at 9 our happy *ildhood x _h ev] be51 j in/ead ( all ! _w to me4 ,if "o ?+ 0 want+1 & want+ x 01 to knit u 9 a tie m endur+ ?an any ( ?is _w's bonds c\ld possibly be1 t v s5se ( want furni%$ a /imulus to m importunate pray] on 8 behalf4 ,"s ( ! good p :o = lack ( a relay ( ideas borr[ "o ( _! neighbors & ride x to dea?1 treat$ me to a leaf f ! book ( ,job's com=t]s1 :5 ! calamity fell on me ( t preci\s bro!r's dea?1 by tell+ me ,i _h made an idol ( him4 ,x 0 equally false & fooli%4 ,an idol is some?+ t ei!r usurps ,god's place1 or )draws our ?\ghts & devotions f him4 ,! v rev]se ( ?is 0 my case4 ,i _h an additional motive = cont9ually seek+ ! ,"l1 n only 9 pray] = ! enlight5+ influ5ces ( ! ,holy ,_s on behalf ( "o s de>1 b also = grace to walk mo/ circumspectly myself1 le/ ,i %\ld ca/ any /umbl+-block 9 8 way1 or give him occasion to suspect t my religi\s pr(ession 0 a "n1 & n a reality4 ,t 0 surely a pr(itable idol :i* kept me always pray]ful be=e ,god1 wat*ful ov] myself1 dilig5t 9 ! dis*>ge ( duties1 & 9 cont9ual ?anksgiv+ = ! m]cies ,i _h receiv$4 ,d ,i rep5t lov+ my bro!r s well8 ,i wi% x _h be5 possible to love him bett]4 ,^! w>m affections ( ! he>t are among ! sweete/ relics ( a lo/ ,ed51 & ,i w\ld soon] te> up ! fl[]s t ,god has left to smile 9 our daily pa? ?r\gh a s9-blight$ wild]ness1 f> soon] ?an ,i w\ld cease to *]i%1 to fo/]1 to delight 9 ! bright]1 sweet] fl[]s ( dome/ic love1 c>ri$ to ! full ext5t ( all its ende>+ capabilities4 ,! ,"l kn[e? our frame2 he deals ) u n accord+ to :at we are n1 b accord+ to :at we are4 ,he sets be=e u v>i\s duties1 & to ! end t we may ! bett] fulfil !m1 he gives u aids n contr>y to1 b accordant ) our natural feel+s4 ,m5 set up a /&>d1 (t5 a j & scriptural "o1 to :i* !y sorr[fully confess t because ( ! weakness ( _! nature !y _c !mselves atta92 b accord+ to :i* !y /]nly judge _! neighbors4 ,a p]son has a pa? assign$ to him1 a /eep asc5t /rew$ ) ?orns & cr[d$ ) ob/acles1 be=e :i* he (t5 pauses & waxes fa9t4 ,god gives him a companion = 8 way1 ev5 z he s5t =? ! disciples two & two1 & ! pilgrim is *e]$4 ,he quick5s 8 pace2 ano!r besides himself w be b5efit$ by 8 progress1 & if he fails1 ano!r w suff] 9 8 loss4 ,s he goes on ?ankful1 rejoic+1 & endu$ ) d\ble en]gy = ! toilsome a*ievem5t4 ,b he sees a neighbor to :om ! ,"l has also grant$ help ?r\gh human means1 p]haps n exactly simil> to t :i* he has receiv$2 he sees 8 neighbor likewise op5ly rejoic+ 9 ! possession ( su* a /aff2 & br++ him to ! te/s ( t p]fect law :i* requires an entire devot$ness to & dep5d5ce on ! ,"l1 he raises a cry ( mix$ motives1 ! arm ( fle%1 idolatry1 & s =?4 ,no d\bt he is s f> "r1 t p]v]se humanity w ev] abuse ,god's gifts1 & (t5 make !m occasions ( s92 b ?is outcry ( ! beam aga9/ ! mote1 :i* is s griev\sly preval5t 9 ! religi\s _w1 is v unseemly4 ,oh1 h[ inf9itely m t5d] is ! ,"l to u ?an we to "o ano!r4 ,hi!rto1 _m imp$im5ts _h be5 ?r[n 9 ! way ( my lit]>y labors4 ,anxiety1 appreh5sion1 & ! re/lessness ( feel+ result+ f a cont9ual *ange ( abode1 _h brok5 ! tra9 ( ?\ght1 & r5d]$ my "w v unc]ta94 ,inde$1 x w\ld (t5 h be5 :olly inadequate to my support1 b = ! wat*ful k9dness ( fri5ds :om ! ,"l rais$ up to me1 =emo/ among :om always /ood ! e/imable ,mr4 ,s&=d1 :o nev] ceas$ to reg>d me ) pat]nal affection & c>e4 ,to he :olly indep5d5t 0 ! fir/ e>?ly wi% ( my he>t2 & n[ a fair opportunity 0 giv5 ( te/+ my will+ness to labor dilig5tly4 ,! result 0 s f>1 satisfactory1 t 9 ! c\rse ( ! two ye>s & two mon?s ( my resid5ce "u my bro!r's ro(1 ,i wrote ! ,rockite1 ! ,sy/em1 ,izram1 ,consi/5cy1 ,p]sev]ance1 ,all5 ,mc,leod1 ,zadoc1 & upw>ds ( ?irty little books & tracts1 besides contributions to v>i\s p]iodicals4 ,i 0 go+ on mo/ prosp]\sly1 :5 an attempt 0 sudd5ly made f ano!r qu>t] to e/abli% a claim to ! pr(its ( my p54 ,! dem& 0 probably legal1 accord+ to ! /rict lett] ( exi/+ /atutes1 ?\gh circum/ances w\ld h weigh$ /rongly 9 my favor4 ,b x greatly r$uc$ ! value ( my copyrights = ! "t be+1 & ,i f\nd myself *eck$ 9 my c>e] at a juncture :5 x 0 especially my desire to g on /eadily4 ,?is br\ght ^u me two temptations1 ! =ce ( :i* 0 greatly increas$ by ! circum/ances "u :i* !y f\nd me4 ,,lett] ,x4 ,,s&hur/4 ,:5 ,i fir/ began to write1 x 0 ) a simple desire to in/ruct ! poor 9 ! bless$ tru?s ( ! gospel4 ,my own situation soon r5d]$ x ne$ful to turn ! little tal5t ,i possess$ to acc\nt4 ,?is ,i did1 /ill keep+ 9 view ! gr& object ( promot+ ,god's glory2 & my attempts hav+ be5 well receiv$1 ,i f\nd a ready m>ket = :atev] ,i wrote1 s t ! "n 0 consid]$ a suffici5t gu>antee = ! book4 ,n[1 ,i c\ld no long] safely use t "n1 & anonym\s writ+ became ! only feasible plan4 ,a fri5d1 :o did n look ^u ! ma9 subject 9 ! light t ,i did1 made1 ?r\gh my bro!r1 a proposal t ,i %\ld become a contributor to ! mo/ popul> magaz9e ( ! day1 supply+ tales1 etc41 ! purport ( :i* 0 to be z moral z ,i pleas$1 b ) no direct m5tion ( religion4 ,! t]ms (f]$ 7 v high3 ! /rict incognito to be pres]v$ w\ld secure me f any *>ge ( inconsi/5cy1 & com+ z x did :5 my regul> s\rce ( income 0 sudd5ly clos$1 & :5 ! idea ( be+ burd5some to my g5]\s bro!r ) 8 increas+ family 0 h>dly supportable1 x 0 ?\ght ,i c\ld n demur4 ,nev]!less1 ,i did2 ! ,"l 9 8 graci\s provid5ce _h said to me1 ,g "w to-day ,9 my v9ey>d1 & ,i _h = upw>ds ( f\r ye>s enjoy$ t bless$ privilege4 ,x 0 n[ )drawn1 c]ta9ly n )\t 8 p]mission2 & h[ did ,i "k t x 0 n to try my fai?8 ,! idea ( hir+ myself out to ano!r ma/]--to engage 9 ! s]vice ( t _w ! fri5d%ip ( :i* is enmity ) ,god--to cause ! ,holy ,"o ( ,israel to cease f be=e ^? :om by ! p5 ,i address$--to refra9 f sett+ =? ,jesus ,*ri/ & him crucifi$ to a p]i%+ _w1 & give ! re9s to an imag9ation ev] prone to w&] aft] folly & romance1 b n[ subdu$ to a bett] rule--all ?is 0 s contr>y to my views ( ,*ri/ian pr9ciple1 t1 aft] mu* e>ne/ pray] to ,god1 ,i decid$ r to "w gratuit\sly 9 ! good cause1 tru/+ to ,him :o knew all my necessity1 ?an to entangle myself ) ?+s on :i* ,i c\ld n ask a bless+4 ,! conflict 0 inde$ sev]e2 no "o attempt$ to oppose my resolve2 b z yet no "o c\ld at all und]/& its real gr\nd2 & x 0 a v try+ position 9 :i* ,i /ood1 ?us seem+ly spurn+ an honorable means ( indep5d5ce & leav+ myself de/itute4 ,b ! trial 0 %ort3 my fir/ fri5ds1 ! ,*ri/ian ,dubl9 ,tract ,society1 ex]cis+ t fai? :i* has di/+ui%$ all _! acts1 det]m9$ to brave ! consequ5ces1 & /ill publi% my little books4 ,?is1 ?\gh1 ! pr(it 0 n !n v good1 ,i hail$ z a graci\s intimation ( ! ,"l's purpose /ill to cont9ue me 9 8 s]vice2 & ,i 0 ! m /r5g!n$ to meet ! second trial1 :i* com+ at a "t :5 ! sum pr(f]$ w\ld he d\bly acceptable1 & ! refusal involv+ ! loss ( a v old & k9d fri5d1 0 r a %>p "o2 m especially z ! (f5ce giv5 w\ld & did ali5ate him f o!rs :o _h no %>e 9 ! proce$+1 & ^: int]e/s 7 f> de>] to me ?an my own4 ,_m ye>s be=e1 t fri5d _h publi%$ a novel3 n a flimsy love- /ory1 b ( a class above ! common run4 ,i _h1 z a girl1 be5 v fond ( x1 & (t5 delight$ ! amiable au?or by express+ an admiration t 0 n g5]al2 = ! "w _h fail$1 & 0 unsold4 ,n[1 f9d+ ,i _h be5 myself successful ) ! p51 & full1 ev51 9 old age1 ( natural love = 8 lit]>y (fspr+1 he _h =m$ a plan1 9 :i* he nev] dream$ ( enc\nt]+ opposition4 ,he wi%$ me to rewrite x1 to ca/ ! *>act]s anew1 enliv5 ! /yle1 add v>iety to ! incid5ts1 &1 9 %ort1 make a new "w out ( 8 mat]ials4 ,/ill x 0 to be a novel2 & z x _h be5 orig9ally publi%$ 9 8 "n1 x 0 to be s n[4 ,my %>e 9 ! "w w\ld nev] be kn[n2 & z he 0 abundantly weal?y1 & equally g5]\s1 a c>te blan*e z to t]ms 0 be=e me4 ,on ! =m] occasion ,i _h paus$1 & ?\ght mu*3 on ?is ,i did n4 ,! pa? 0 pla9 be=e me1 b dreadfully pa9ful to pursue4 ,a hundr$ p\nds j !n w\ld h be5 m to me ?an a ?\s& at ano!r "t2 & private feel+ 0 mo/ di/ress+ly involv$1 bo? z reg>d$ myself & o!rs4 ,x 0 9 an agony ( pray]1 & aft] _m bitt] te>s1 t ,i br\ght myself to d :at1 nev]!less1 ,i _h n a wi% to leave undone4 ,i wrote a fai?ful lett] to ! fri5d 9 "q1 mo/ unequivocally /at+ ! gr\nd ( my refusal--! responsibility "u :i* ,i conceiv$ we all lay be=e ,god = ! application ( tal5ts committ$ by him2 ! evils ( novel-read+2 &1 z f> z ,i c\ld1 ,i decl>$ ! :ole gospel ( ,*ri/ to "o :om ,i _h no reason to consid] z tak+ any ?\ght :atev] = 8 s\l4 ,i he>d no m f him to ! day ( 8 dea?1 :i* took place t5 ye>s aft]4 ,i _h reason to believe t 8 int5tions t[>ds me 7 v lib]al 9 ! f9al di/ribution ( 8 prop]ty2 = he _h kn[n & lov$ me f my cradle1 & he _h no family2 b my consci5ce bore a happy te/imony 9 ! matt]2 & ,i am fully p]suad$ t ! :ole 0 a sn>e ( ,satan to betray me into an acceptance ( unhall[$ ga9s1 by cat]+ to ! worldly ta/es ( ^? :o =get ,god4 ,no d\bt1 ! bus9ess w\ld h be5 a pr(itable "o1 & ! inducem5t to p]sev]e made /rong 9 proportion z ,i sacrific$ pr9ciple to lucre4 ,all ^! ?+s w ,i give !e1 if ?\ wilt fall d[n & wor%ip me4 ,i %\ld nei!r d ju/ice to ! ,"l's ri* goodness nor to ! honor$ in/rum5t ( 8 b\nty if ,i omitt$ to add1 t1 %ortly aft]1 my munific5t fri5d ,mr4 ,s&=d s5t me a gift t left me no los] by hav+ done my duty4 ,:ile on ! subject ( my books1 ,i w record an incid5t t occurr$ ab\t ! same "t1 & on :i* ,i always look ) feel+s ( indescribable delight4 ,i did n "k x until1 "s ye>s aft]w>ds1 ! /ory 0 relat$ to me by ! pr9cipal actor 9 x-- ! abett] ( my h]etical pravity4 ,little did ,i dream1 :5 writ+ my humble p5ny books1 t !y w\ld be advanc$ to ! high honor ( a place 9 ! ,papal ,index ,expurgatorius4 ,! lady 9 "q took to ! cont95t a sweet1 only daught]3 a lovely little girl ( t5 ye>s old1 ! joy ( h] wid[$ bosom1 :o 0 fa/ s9k+ 9 decl9e4 ,i 0 exce$+ly fond ( t *ild1 :o return$ my affection f ! dep?s ( an ,iri% he>t2 & :o1 out ( love = its au?or1 select$ "o ( my small p5ny books to translate into ,italian dur+ h] la/ /age ( suff]+4 ,%e did n live to complete x2 b ) h] dy+ brea? reque/$ h] "m to d s1 9 ! e>ne/ hope ( its be+ made useful to ! ignorant p ar\nd !m4 ,bessie 0 a lamb ( ! ,"l's fold2 & to lead o!r *ildr5 into ! same bless$ %elt] 0 h] he>t's desire4 ,z soon z ! b]eav$ "m c\ld make any ex]tion1 %e betook h]self to ! task assign$ by h] dep>t$ d>l+1 & f\nd su* satisfaction 9 x t %e ext5d$ h] labors1 & translat$ sev]al m4 ,be+ a lady ( rank & afflu5ce1 %e 0 enabl$ to c>ry x on to publication1 & to insure ! circulation ( ! little books among _m4 ,"o ( !m1 ,! ,simple ,fl[]1 a sixp5ny book1 ?us translat$1 fell into ! h&s ( an ,italian physician1 a man ( highly cultivat$ m9d2 nom9ally a ,romani/2 & l all ?9k+ ,romani/s1 9 reality an infidel4 ,! book conta9s n a ^w on controv]sy2 n an allusion to ,pop]y--x is pla9 gospel tru?1 convey$ 9 a v simple n>rative4 ,god bless$ x to ?is g5tleman1 & he became a ,*ri/ian4 ,! circum/ance excit$ mu* rem>k3 curiosity l$ _m to read t & o!rs ( ! s]ies1 & a great numb] 7 circulat$ 9 ! neighbor+ di/ricts4 ,?is 0 actually )9 ! papal /ates1 "u ! jurisdiction ( ! ar*bi%op ( ,si5na1 to ^: k came ! a/\nd+ fact t p5nywor?s ( h]esy 7 circulat$ )9 ! range ( 8 pa/oral *>ge3 ! matt] 0 report$ at head- qu>t]s1 tak5 up ) due s]i\sness1 & a ,sunday appo9t$1 on :i*1 no d\bt1 ,i 0 quietly wor%ipp+ 9 ! college *apel at ,s&hur/1 :olly unconsci\s t my "n 0 !n be+ proclaim$ at a hundr$ ,italian alt>s1 ) a d5unciation aga9/ all :o %\ld read1 circulate1 or possess any book1 tract1 or treatise p5n$ by me4 ,"o in/ance 0 p>ticul>iz$3 a poor prie/ _h himself giv5 numb]s ( ^! translations to 8 flock2 & aft] mass1 he /ood be=e !m deeply mov$1 tell+ !m he _h a pa9ful duty to p]=m4 ,t he _h receiv$ f ! highe/ au?ority a comm& to proclaim :at he held 9 8 h&1 & :i* he proce$$ to read to !m--a copy ( ! fulm9ation above-m5tion$4 ,hav+ done s he fold$ ! pap]1 & resum$1 say+ he _h giv5 & recomm5d$ ! little books to !m1 because he _h read !m himself & f\nd no?+ b :at 0 good 9 !m3 h[ev]1 ! *ur*1 :i* !y 7 all b\nd to obey1 judg$ o!rwise2 & n[4 he add$1 y mu/ br+ !m back to me1 or burn !m1 or 9 "s o!r way de/roy !m :olly3 nev]!less1 ,i decl>e 9 ! sight ( ,god ,i f\nd no evil 9 ^? de> little books1 b ! contr>y--!y are full ( good4 ,he bur/ into te>s1 & _m wept ) him2 & n a few ( ! proscrib$ productions 7 wrapp$ up & buri$ 9 ! e>?1 or o!rwise put away till ! se>* %\ld be ov]4 ,:o kn[s b t v prie/ 0 l$ to ! ,bible & to ,*ri/ ?r\gh su* humble means8 ,i w\ld n ex*ange = ! value ( ! t5 k+doms t5 times trebl$1 ! joy t ,i feel 9 ?is high honor put ^u me--?is ri* bless+ ( be+ "u ! papal curse4 99 99 99 ,) :at fondness does memory l+] ov] ^? delightful days ( soj\rn "u ! %elt]+ ro( ( my bro!r1 s soon1 to be = ev] p>t$ 9 ?is _w4 ,ano!r boy _h be5 add$ to our happy little circle1 & ,jack's w>m he>t seem$ to receive an accession ( love1 t he might h x to be/[ on ! beautiful baby small1 :i* claim$ s mu* ( 8 ?\ghts & pray]s4 ,inde$1 8 ?\ghts 7 always pray]s1 = ,god 0 9 all4 ,he made b little progress 9 language1 hav+ a great dislike to le>n+ beyond :at 0 ne$ful = communicat+ 8 ?\ghts to me1 & z he 0 !n oblig$ to be m ) s]vants ?an ,i lik$1 ,i 0 n anxi\s to ext5d 8 facilities ( communicat+ ) !m2 nor did he at all desire _! society4 ,he _h a little room ( 8 own1 to 8 great delight1 ov] ! coa*- h\se2 & :5 n employ$ 9 8 "w1 or talk+ ) me1 he 0 mo/ happy ) ! p5cil4 ,he gave a /rong & beautiful pro( ( ! dread ) :i* ,god inspir$ him z to ensn>+ company2 & ,i _c pass x ov]4 ,my bro!r decl>$ 8 int5tion ( keep+ a horse1 & ( c\rse a groom4 ,jack came to me ) an e>ne/ entreaty t he might be ! groom1 say+ he c\ld d x s well4 ,! reason he gave to me1 confid5tially1 01 t m5 7 v wick$2 t ! man-s]vant w\ld (t5 %ake h&s ) ! devil--8 usual mode ( express+ wilful s9--& t if ,jack %ook h&s ) him1 he w\ld "s day draw 8 h& till he got x into ! devil's2 mean+1 t an evil companion w\ld by degrees induce him to become evil too4 ,he also said1 ,capta9 ,b---- 0 v k9d to ,mam1 & t a s]vant w\ld co/ him money1 & eat a great deal2 b ,jack w\ld take no money1 & only eat small potato1 small meat1 because he lov$ ,capta9 ,b----4 ,:5 ,i communicat$ ! reque/ to my bro!r he laugh$1 say+ su* a boy c\ld nev] groom a horse2 b ,jack _h be5 privately to a k9d fri5d ( 81 a retir$ non-commission$ (fic] ( cavalry1 :o _h ! c>e ( "s horses1 & got him to give him in/ruction1 succe$+ s well 9 8 attempt t ! s]jeant told my bro!r he really ?\ght him compet5t to ! (fice4 ,he cons5t$ to try2 & hav+ pur*as$ 8 horse1 ti$ him up at ! /able-door = ,jack to comm5ce op]ations1 :ile we all assembl$ to see him4 ,i 0 appreh5sive ( a total failure1 b he did x admirably1 & my bro!r decl>$ he only want$ a few in*es 9 height to be "o ( ! be/ grooms 9 ! k+dom4 ,jack's exultation 0 v great4 ,:5 we 7 alone1 he w5t up to ! horse1 kiss$ x1 & aft] tell+ me h[ pleas$ he saw 8 ma/] look1 he add$1 ,no man2 all "o ,jack4 ,devil cry--g1 devil6 & snapp$ 8 f+]s at ! invisible enemy4 ,8 greate/ security next to 8 love ( ,god 0 8 con/ant fe> ( ,satan4 ,yet x 0 r a fe> ( himself1 le/ he %\ld yield to 8 temptations1 = he 0 p]fectly aw>e ,satan w\ld n =ce him to d any ?+4 ,h5ce 8 extreme caution z to :at associates he _h1 & a res]ve ) ^? :om he did n "k to be ,*ri/ians1 :i* 0 sometimes mi/ak5 = pride4 ,he inv>iably ask$ me1 ( e p]son :o came to ! h\se1 :e!r t p]son lov$ ,jesus ,*ri/2 & if ,i c\ld n give a positive answ] 9 ! affirmative1 he /ood alo(1 always mo/ c\rte\s1 b p]fectly cold1 & ev5 dignifi$ 9 repell+ any advance to sociability beyond common polit5ess4 ,he did n "k ! mean+ ( a s+le bad ^w1 & ,god kept him s t ! wick$ "o t\*$ him n4 ,i us$ e means1 ( c\rse1 to ?is end4 ,i wat*$ him mo/ n>r[ly1 & always int]pos$ if he 0 requir$ to d any ?+1 or to g to any place1 9 :i* ,i appreh5d$ dang]4 ,my vigilance extort$ smiles f ^? :o consid]$ x mu/ all be 9 va9 :5 he grew a little old]2 b no ob/acle 0 plac$ 9 my way2 & ,i bless ,god ,i nev] relax$ t c>e1 nor did ! boy ev] dep>t f 8 holy caution2 & he di$ at ! age ( n9ete51 a v tall & f9e-look+ "y man1 ) ! m9d ( a little babe z reg>ds ! evil t is 9 ! _w4 ,oh t p>5ts knew ! importance ( ?us wat*+ ov] _! boys4 ,soon aft] ! fir/ horse 0 e/abli%$ 9 8 /all1 my bro!r pur*as$ a second = my rid+1 say+ he %\ld n[1 ( c\rse1 get an assi/ant 9 ! /able2 b ,jack bur/ into te>s1 & himself plead$ ) him = leave to d all4 ,my bro!r greatly delight$ 9 8 brok5 language1 & caught exactly 8 phraseology1 s t !y conv]s$ toge!r z well z ) me2 & he told me he c\ld n /& ,jack's entreaties4 ,he is a f9e little fell[1 said he1 & if y w wat* & see t he is n ov]ex]t+ himself1 he may try = a :ile3 he w soon be tir$4 ,b f> f x2 ,jack 0 pr\d ( 8 two horses2 & none 9 ! place 7 bett] kept4 ,:5 a c[ 0 add$1 a "y p]son came to milk h]2 b ,jack 0 outrage\s1 talk$ ( 8 "m's ,kilk5ny c[s1 & c['s baby1 & express$ su* sov]eign contempt = ! /rang]'s p]=mance1 & su* d[nright ho/ility aga9/ ! intrud]1 t we _h no peace till he got ! c[ also "u 8 especial c>e4 ,(t5 aft]w>ds did he talk ( t "t1 say+ he 0 well ,jack1 :5 he _h two horses & a c[1 & almo/ cry+ ov] 8 loss4 ,he grew rapidly1 & ! doctors told me t su* a life w\ld h kept him /rong to any age4 ,"o day he came & ask$ me to let him h a l>ge hoop1 to make him g fa/] on messages4 ,i ?\ght x *ildi%1 & did n reg>d x2 s he w5t to my bro!r ) ! same reque/1 :o inquir$ 8 reason4 ,jack told him ! /age-coa*es t pass$ our gate w5t v fa/1 because ! f\r horses _h f\r l>ge hoops1 mean+ ! :eels1 & if he _h a l>ge hoop he c\ld g z fa/ z ! horses4 ,div]t$ beyond measure at su* an orig9al idea1 my bro!r s5t to ,read+ = ! l>ge/ & be/ hoop t c\ld be got2 & _m a laugh we _h at see+ ,jack rac+ beside ! ,london coa*es ) 8 :eel1 nodd+ defiance at ! horses1 & %\t+ al\d ) glee4 ,he (t5 w5t six miles ) 8 :eel1 to be> messages & notes to our valu$ & mu*- lov$ fri5d ,g5]al ,orde1 :om he idoliz$ almo/1 & :o look$ on him z "o ( ! mo/ lovely in/ances ( div9e grace he _h ev] met )4 ,on ! fir/ =mation ( ! ,briti% ,re=mation ,society1 ,g5]al ,orde wrote to me1 ) a prospectus ( ! int5d$ "w4 ,i told x to ,jack1 :o 9 raptur\s delight gave me 8 :ole worldly =tune ( two %ill+s1 bidd+ me give x to put x 9 _! pockets1 & to bid good ,g5]al ,orde tell g5tlem5 to s5d mu* ,bibles to ,kilk5ny1 t 8 fa!r & "m & all ! poor p might le>n to break ! crucifixes1 & love ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i wrote ?is to ! g5]al1 :o s5t to me = ! id5tical two %ill+s1 :i* ,mr4 ,noel produc$ on ! plat=m1 ) ! dumb boy's message1 & ,i believe x drew _m a piece ( gold f ! purses ( ^? :o saw ! gift1 :i* /&s enroll$ ! v fir/ 9 ! acc\nts ( t noble society's receipts4 ,jack (t5 pray$ = ! ,re=mation ,society1 & ,i believe 8 bless+ help$ !m n a little2 !re 0 s mu* fai? 9 all t he did1 su* z ,god alone c\ld give1 & he nev] seem$ to ent]ta9 a d\bt ( obta9+ :at he ask$4 ,_m a sweet in/ance ( 8 *ildlike confid5ce 9 ! ,"l is engrav5 on my memory1 at once to /imulate & to %ame me4 ,8 :ole exp]i5ce seem$ to be an illu/ration ( ! ^w ( promise1 ,ask1 & ye %all receive4 ,"o ( ! ?+s t /ruck me z be+ ref]able to no?+ b ! tea*+ ( ! ,holy ,_s1 0 ! int]e/ manife/$ by ?is boy = ! ,jews4 ,8 active ,prote/antism 0 easily acc\nt$ =2 b to give him an idea ( ,judaism w\ld h be5 impossible4 ,he c\ld n read4 ,8 k ( language did n g f> en\gh to enable him to und]/& ! con/ruction ( a s5t5ce2 & ?\gh he spell$ correctly1 & wrote readily :atev] he wi%$ to say1 & 8 mode ( expression 0 g5]ally q intelligible to o!rs1 he did n compreh5d :at 0 spok5 or writt5 9 ! ord9>y way4 ,accu/om$ to atta* a di/9ct mean+ to e ^w1 & acqua9t$ ) v few besides n\ns & a few v]bs1 :i* he only us$ 9 ! pres5t t5se1 indep5d5t ( ! pron\ns1 & )\t ref]5ce to numb]1 he 0 q lo/ among ! o!r p>ts ( spee*4 ,= in/ance1 if ,i _h want$ to say1 ,y mu/ g to ! village & buy me a small loaf ( bread1 ,i %\ld h express$ x ?us3 ,jack1 g village1 money1 bread small1 "o4 ,grammatically express$1 ! ord] w\ld h be5 un9telligible to him3 b few w\ld h misund]/ood x 9 ! unc\? phrase la/ in/anc$4 ,he w\ld h gone to ! %op1 & writ+ d[n1 ,bread small1 "o1 w\ld h held out ! money1 & made a sign to express :at size he want$4 ,x 0 ?is v fact ( ! impossibility ( convey+ to 8 m9d any cle> notion ( ?+s invisible & spiritual1 t s glori\sly manife/$ ! p[] & goodness ( ,god 9 caus+ ! light to %9e into 8 he>t4 ,to a read] :o nev] witness$ ! attempts ( an intellig5t1 half-taught deaf mute to express 8 mean+ & to cat* t ( o!rs1 mu* ( :at ,i /ate respect+ ,jack may & mu/ appe>1 if n incr$ible1 at lea/ un9telligible2 yet none :o ev] saw & conv]s$ ) him w\ld fail to sub/antiate x1 & !y 7 v _m4 ,t zeal\s mission>y1 ,dr4 ,wolff1 visit$ my bro!r's cottage :5 he & ,i 7 bo? abs5t1 & no "o c\ld assi/ ,jack 9 conv]s+ ) him2 yet s great 0 8 delight1 t he want$ to take him to ,pale/9e1 to in/ruct ! deaf & dumb 9 ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/4 ,! ,rev4 ,h4 ,h4 ,beami% is ano!r :o _c1 )\t emotion1 recall 8 int]c\rse ) t dy+ ,*ri/ian4 ,g5]al ,orde1 :o saw him v frequ5tly1 reg>d$ him z a wond] ( div9e grace2 & ! ,rev4 ,w4 ,hancock1 8 belov$ pa/or1 :o = f\r ye>s obs]v$ him closely1 (t5 said he d]iv$ great] enc\ragem5t f ! exp]i5ce & ! pray]s ( t poor boy1 ?an f almo/ any o!r e>?ly s\rce4 ,unbeliev]s w d\bt2 b ^? :o "k ! grace ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ w adore4 ,/ill x w be evid5t t ,jack c\ld n read ! ,bible4 ,he took great delight 9 copy+ x out1 dwell+ on su* words z he knew2 b ,i h se5 him turn ov] two leaves & g on :olly unconsci\s1 ( any mi/ake3 & ,i h f\nd among 8 pap]s :ole pages1 compos$ ( half s5t5ces & s+le epi!ts f ,scripture1 put toge!r 9 unbrok5 p>agraphs1 )\t any mean+4 ,) all ?is1 he 0 ard5tly atta*$ to ! ,jewi% cause1 & always told me ,jesus ,*ri/ love poor ,jew2 ,jew soon love ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,:5 speak+ ( !m1 he w\ld look v t5d] & sorr[ful1 mov+ 8 head sl[ly f side to side1 & 8 h& z if /rok+ "s object 9 a c>ess+ way4 ,at su* times x 0 curi\s to m>k ! effect ( nam+ a prie/ ,roman to him4 ,9 a mom5t 8 aspect *ang$ to some?+ ludicr\sly repulsive3 he /uck 8 h&s 9 8 sides1 puff$ out 8 *eeks to _! full ext5t1 sc[l$ till 8 br[s ov]hung 8 eyelids1 & g5]ally f9i%$ by appe>+ to seize a goblet & dra9 (f ! cont5ts to ! la/ drop1 inflat+ 8 body1 /rok+ x1 smack+ 8 lips1 & /rutt+ ab\t4 ,?is he did1 n z imput+ drunk5ness to ! prie/hood1 b _! d5y+ ! cup to ! laity1 & swall[+ ! cont5ts !mselves4 ,?\gh 8 act+ 0 laughably comic1 8 feel+ 0 t ( s]i\s & sev]e indignation2 & he w\ld reprove u = ! laught] x 0 utt]ly impossible to re/ra91 say+1 ) triumphant confid5ce1 ,god see4 99 99 99 ,,lett] ,,xi4 ,,sep>ation4 ,! two %orte/ ye>s ( my life 7 n[ draw+ to a close4 ,my bro!r _h complet$ 8 /udies1 pass$ 8 exam9ation1 & 0 "u ord]s to jo9 8 regim5t 9 ,irel&4 ,oh h[ my he>t rose 9 pray]1 t :]e ,i _h f\nd a spiritual bless+ he also might receive x4 ,i c\ld n und]/& ! /ate ( 8 m9d on ! mo/ vital ( all po9ts3 he _h imbib$ a prejudice s /rong aga9/ ! class ( p call$ evangelical1 t no?+ b 8 g5]\s affection = u w\ld h induc$ him to receive "u 8 ro( two ( t proscrib$ body1 to say no?+ ( ,jack4 ,he confess$ to me1 laugh+1 n long aft] we became 8 inmates1 t he suppos$ we %\ld be fall+ on our knees half a doz5 times a day1 s++ psalms all ov] ! h\se1 & sett+ our faces aga9/ e ?+ m]ry or *e]ful4 ,he _h nev] be5 acqua9t$ ) any s]i\s p]son be=e go+ to ,portugal1 nor dur+ 8 %ort leaves ( abs5ce at home3 none ( t class ev] cross$ 8 pa? abroad1 & he came home prep>$ to believe any ?+ t 0 told him ( ! suppos$ fanatics1 :om he und]/ood to be a sort ( rant+ diss5t]s4 ,at ,clifton1 extremes !n ran f>2 ! gay p mo/ viol5tly d5\nc+ _! sob] neighbors1 & mak+ up all sorts ( sc&al conc]n+ !m4 ,hannah ,m 0 po9t$ out z que5 ( ! ,me?odi/s1 & a mo/ infam\s lie1 :olly de/ructive ( h] moral "*1 circulat$ among a n>r[ b dissipat$ clique z a kn[n fact2 :ile ! small fry ( fanatics 7 dispos$ ( by doz5s 9 a simil> way4 ,! fai?ful cl]gyman1 ^: m9i/ry we att5d$1 0 absolutely p]secut$2 & 8 congregation c\ld expect no bett] at ! same h&s4 ,i am v f> f *>g+ ?is ^u ! g5]ality ( ev5 worldly p !re2 b x did exi/1 visibly & s5sibly2 & my de> bro!r evid5tly _h fall5 9 ) "s ( ^! :olesale calumniators1 be=e he c\ld possibly judge = himself4 ,a visit to ,b>ley ,wood1 & a v prolong$ int]view ) ! que51 greatly /agg]$ 8 prejudices2 he 0 p]fectly *>m$ ) h]1 & rem>k$ to me t if all h] subjects 7 l h]1 !y mu/ be a v agreeable set ( p4 ,/ill he appreh5d$ an outbreak ( extravagance :5 we %\ld be fairly in/all$ 9 8 abode2 & ?\gh he soon became undeceiv$1 & le>n$ to take ! greate/ delight 9 ! society ( ,g5]al ,orde1 ,mr4 ,s&=d1 & o!rs equally decid$2 ?\gh he punctually att5d$ ! fai?ful m9i/ry ( ,mr4 ,hancock at ! college *apel1 besides 8 regul> appe>ance at ! usual milit>y s]vice1 & w\ld n all[ "o disp>ag+ ^w to be utt]$ 9 8 pres5ce ( t zeal\s prea*] or 8 deeply spiritual disc\rses2 ?\gh he *ose f among 8 bro!r (fic]s a bold1 uncompromis+ ,*ri/ian z 8 mo/ intimate associate1 & gave _m unconsci\s indications t he _h receiv$ ! doctr9e ( man's total corruption1 & ! no?+ness ( 8 be/ works2 ?\gh he became ! w>m advocate ( a scriptural education = ! y\?ful poor1 :om he _h always be=e consid]$ mo/ safe & happy 9 total ignorance--/ill1 ) all ?is1 ,i c\ld n see ev5 9 8 beautiful dev\t be>+ 9 public wor%ip :]e ! rev]se s sadly prevail$1 & :]e e ?+ approa*+ to s]i\sness became a matt] ( suspicion1 t he 0 really seek+ ,god4 ,9 fact1 ,i _h be5 too mu* 9 ! trammels ( a sy/em :i* lays d[n arbitr>y rules1 & w n admit t ,god is work+ unless 8 h& be imm$iately & op5ly app>5t to all4 ,i w\ld n believe t :at look$ gre5 & beautiful 0 a blade ( corn1 j because x _h n yet gr[n to an e>3 & ,i refra9$ f speak+ :5 p]haps spee* on su* subjects w\ld h be5 m welcome ?an he wi%$ to ackn[l$ge1 le/ ! rem>ks t ,i long$ to utt] might prove unpalatable1 & produce ! contr>y effect to :at ,i desir$4 ,he 0 only go+ = a little :ile3 an appo9tm5t on ! home-/aff 0 promis$1 & !n ,i 0 to live ) him aga91 & ,i w\ld zeal\sly pursue ! "w4 ,alas1 :at a rod 0 prep>$ = my unbelief & presumption6 ,! pres5t 0 slight$1 9 ! confid5t expectation ( a future t 0 nev] to arrive4 ,we 7 almo/ always toge!r out ( 8 college h\rs4 ,my w9d[ comm&$ a view ( ! di/ant build+1 & :5 ,i saw ! prep>atory movem5t to break+ up1 ,i rose f my desk1 ti$ on my bonnet1 & ran (f 9 suffici5t "t to meet him v ne> ! college4 ,bo? let loose f six h\rs' h>d "w1 we 7 l *ildr5 out ( s*ool1 (t5 rac+ & laugh+ ) all ! buoyancy ( our natural high spirits4 ,! g>d51 ! p\ltry-y>d1 & all ! little m9utiae ( our nice f>m+ e/abli%m5t1 fully occupi$ ! aft]noon1 :ile ! *ildr5 gamboll$ r\nd1 & ,jack look$ on ) smiles1 (t5 tell+ me h[ mu* he lov$ beautiful ,capta9 ,b----1 z he con/antly call$ him4 ,at t5 o'clock we p>t$ = ! night1 ,i to resume ! p5 till long aft] midnight2 he to re/1 :5ce he always rose at f\r o'clock1 devot+ f\r or five h\rs to /udy be=e we met 9 ! morn+4 ,we visit$ v little1 dome/ic retirem5t be+ ! free *oice ( e "o ( u2 & no?+ c\ld h induc$ my bro!r to bani% 8 *ildr5 f ! p>lor or draw+-room4 ,few ?+s excit$ 8 indignation m ?an ! nurs]y sy/em3 8 little ones 7 ! pride ( 8 he>t1 ! delight ( 8 eyes1 ! objects ( 8 fonde/ c>e4 ,he (t5 said he int5d$ 8 boys to be g5tlem51 & !re=e w\ld n all[ !m to imbibe ! ta/es & habits ( ! kit*54 ,! consequ5ce is t 8 boys are g5tlem54 ,?us dwell+ 9 love1 unit$ 9 e plan & pursuit1 our "t fairly divid$ betwe5 dilig5t "w & heal?ful recreation amid ! delights ( rural life1 d y m>vel t ,i call ?is p]iod my two %orte/ ye>s8 ,_h no previ\s circum/ances giv5 t5fold brilliancy to ^! lights by ca/+ a dep? ( black %ad[ beh9d !m1 or no m5ac+ future hung ov] ! pres5t enjoym5t1 /ill !re 0 en\gh to make x inde$ an oasis2 b x 0 m4 ,i _c d\bt t ! ,"l m]cifully gave me a =ebod+ ( :at 0 to come1 9 ! intol]able angui% ( :at seem$ to be b a v %ort p>t+1 ) a delightful prospect ( r5ew$ dome/ic com=t j beyond4 ,yet s x 03 ,i almo/ di$ "u ! trial ( t f>ewell2 & = ?ree weeks be=e1 & z long aft]1 ,i nev] _h a night's re/4 ,visions ( t]ror 7 con/antly be=e me1 among :i* a sc5e ( dr[n+ 0 s p]petually recurr+ t ,i h (t5 />t$ f my b$ "u ! vivid impression4 ,?is 0 ! m /range because we _h always be5 s fe>lessly fond ( ! wat]3 9 our e>ly days we _h a little boat1 j big en\gh = him to r[ & me to /e]1 9 :i* we us$ to take excursions on ! riv] ,w5sum1 & nev] ?\ght ( dang]4 ,at ,s&hur/ too we 7 frequ5tly ^u ! lake1 & _h bo? become famili>iz$ ) ocean1 until ( all p]ils ^? ( ! wat] 7 lea/ likely to daunt me1 ei!r = myself or him3 yet 9 mo/ imm95t p]il we _h once be5 plac$2 & at ?is "t x w\ld recur to my memory ) torm5t+ frequ5cy4 ,i 0 ab\t sev5 ye>s old1 & he ?\gh y\ng] 0 mu* ! l>g] ( ! two1 a /\t he>ty boy1 & ,i a v frail delicate little creature1 ?anks to ! doctors & _! pet drug4 ,our p>5ts w5t out = a day's excursion ) a fri5d1 & ( c\rse we accompani$ !m4 ,! place 0 "o celebrat$ = good fi%+1 & ! g5tlem5 hav+ enjoy$ a long morn+'s sport1 rema9$ 9 ! h\se ) my "m1 s5d+ u out to play4 ,we _h /rict *>ge n to g too ne> ! wat]1 nor on any acc\nt to get into a boat1 ( :i* !re 7 sev]al on ! riv]4 ,we /roll$ ab\t1 & at la/ came to ! br9k ( ?is riv]1 to admire a b>ge or :]ry :i* lay close to ! little pi]2 = x 0 a public f]ry1 & ! dep? v great4 ,a small boat j by attract$ my bro!r's att5tion1 :o wi%$ to get into x1 until ,i rem9d$ him ( ! prohibition1 :5 he said1 ,i wont get into x1 ,*>41 b ,i w sit d[n "h & put my two feet 9 ! little boat4 ,he did s3 ! boat mov$1 & 9 8 al>m try+ to rise1 he fell & disappe>$4 ,i p]fectly rememb] ! sc5e2 ,i h also he>d x describ$ _m a "t by o!rs1 b ,i _c und]/& h[ x 0 t ,i1 /oop+ f ! %ore1 ) no?+ to hold on by way ( support1 seiz$ ! little fell[ by ! coll> z he rose1 & firmly held him 9 my grasp4 ,he did n /ruggle1 b look$ up 9 my face1 & ,i d[n 9 81 & z ,i felt my puny /r5g? rapidly fail+1 ! resolution 0 firm on my m9d to be drawn 9 & p]i% ) him4 ,!re 0 n a "q ab\t x2 ,i c recall ! v ?\ght1 z ?\gh x 0 ( ye/]day1 & ,i am positively c]ta9 t ,i %\ld h tight5$ my hold 9 proportion z ! case became m desp]ate4 ,x pleas$ ,god t1 j !n1 "s m5 return+ f "w descri$ ! figure ( a little *ild /oop+ 9 a mo/ dang]\s position ov] ! deep wat]3 !y ran up1 & :ile "o held me ! o!r rescu$ ! boy4 ,my grasp 0 n unloos$ until !y _h him safe on %ore3 he 0 !n ins5sible1 & ,i lo/ e recollection until ,i f\nd myself /ill 9 ! arms ( ! man :o _h c>ri$ me 91 :ile my "m & ! re/ 7 /ripp+ ! rescu$ boy & *af+ 8 limbs be=e a fire4 ,x 0 mu* talk$ (1 & _m a c>ess ,i got = :at !y consid]$ h]oism beyond my ye>s2 b :at h]oism is l love8 ,_m wat]s _c qu5* love1 nei!r c ! floods dr[n x2 if a man w\ld give all ! sub/ance ( 8 h\se = love1 x w\ld utt]ly be contemn$4 ,:5 my bro!r dep>t$ = ,irel&1 we left t sweet cottage & w5t to reside 9 ! village1 9 "o bett] suit$ to ! size ( our dim9i%$ family p>ty4 ,i _h sev]al "y fri5ds among ! cadets1 9 :om ,i took a w>m int]e/1 & ^: occasional visits ,i endeavor$ to make z pr(itable to !m z might be4 ,x is a sad ?+ to see a boy1 p]haps mo/ c>efully br\ght up by t5d]1 & ev5 ,*ri/ian p>5ts1 wat*$ & kept z f> z possible f all evil communication1 !n ?r[n at once into a l>ge public in/itution1 & expos$ to e dang] t c assail ! y\?ful m9d4 ,a little insight into human nature mu/ %[ any c&id p]son ! ext5t ( mis*ief to be expect$4 ,r>ely d we f9d a case ( conv]sion1 ) e/abli%m5t 9 grace1 v e>ly 9 life2 & :]e x exi/s z rem>kably z 9 ,jack1 we may le>n f 8 excessive dread ( exposure to temptation h[ vigilantly ! "y plant %\ld be gu>d$4 ,let u j suppose1 :at is inde$ no sket* ( imag9ation1 b a slight sket* ( ackn[l$g$ reality--let u suppose a boy at ! age :5 !y are eligible = ^? places1 acqua9t$ ) ! tru?1 accu/om$ to ,*ri/ian in/ruction1 taught to look into ! ^w ( ,god = daily direction1 & to seek 9 pray] ! daily supply ( ne$ful grace3 consid] him z hav+ rema9$ "u ! eye ( ,*ri/ian p>5ts1 or a s*oolma/] :o reg>ds ^? committ$ to 8 c>e z immortal be+s1 = ^: well-do+ :ile "u 8 *>ge he is responsible to ,god1 & :o !re=e c\nsels !m well1 & bani%es to ! utmo/ ( 8 p[]1 vice & pr(an5ess f among !m2 af=d+ !m ! usual dome/ic means ( grace1 & see+ t !y are n neglect$3--?us prep>$1 ! lad ent]s ^u a new sc5e1 :]e he f9ds himself surr\nd$ by a l>ge numb] ( y\?ful companions1 all busy 9 qualify+ !mselves = a future c>e]1 we w say 9 ! s]vice ( _! c\ntry4 ,! fir/ ?+ done is to try ! mettle ( ! new com] by putt+ ^u him "s insult1 :i* if he res5ts & (f]s to fight 8 way1 he may be look$ on ) "s respect2 b if he appe> timid1 or reluctant to retaliate1 he may be assur$ ( becom+ ! object ( a mo/ h>ass+ p]secution = ! amusem5t ( ! ?\ghtless & ! gratification ( ! cruel4 ,9 ei!r case1 he passes an ordeal ( great sev]ity1 p>ticul>ly dur+ ! night1 :5 no?+ is deem$ too r\gh or al>m+ = ! poor /rang] to enc\nt]4 ,i appeal to ^? :o h pass$ x1 :e!r ?is is n en\gh to turn ! bra9 ( a weak-m9d$ y\?1 or to injure sev]ely ! body ( a delicate "o3 ,i h myself kn[n an in/ance1 9 a great public sem9>y1 :]e9 d]angem5t & dea? foll[$4 ,suppos+ ?is well got ov]1 ! lad !n f9ds t if !re be any among 8 new comrades dispos$ to keep up ! practice ( read+ ! ,scriptures & pray+1 !y mu/ d x z secretly z !y w\ld commit a murd]1 & f9d x m difficult to accompli% ?an any crime t c\ld be nam$4 ,!re always w be a l>ge proportion ( ruffianly *>act]s among _m boys2 "s naturally s1 o!rs made s by example4 ,^! h ! asc5d5cy ( c\rse1 & !y w use x to *eck & to /ifle :atev] might %9e 9 contra/ to !mselves2 :ile1 :at ) ^? un/able *>act]s :o always r[ ) ! /ream1 & prud5t ones :o w n provoke ho/ility1 & timid ones :o d>e n1 !y meet ) little if any opposition1 b rule ! :ole mass = evil4 ,! y\?1 we w believe1 s9c]ely desires to pres]ve 8 integrity2 b :at c he d8 ,man 9 8 be/ e/ate is a frail1 inconsi/5t be+1 liable to be bl[n ab\t by e brea? ( temptation1 ev5 :5 unfett]$1 & 9 full possession ( all gospel privileges2 & :at are we to expect f a boy :o has nev] yet be5 left to himself1 or depriv$ ( c\nt5ance & support8 ,he sees none wat*+ ov] him1 he he>s no k9d admonitory voice invit+ him to seek ! way ( peace & purity4 ,8 nature is corrupt1 8 he>t is deceitful1 8 s\l cleaves to ! du/1 & he f9ds t by foll[+ ! b5t ( ?is p]v]se nature1 by gratify+ its l[e/ prop5sities1 & revell+ 9 unhall[$ ?+s1 he %all be/ pur*ase ! good- fell[%ip ( ^? :o h x 9 _! p[] to make 8 life mis]able if he ?w>ts _! w4 ,8 consci5ce l\dly prote/s1 & calls on him to pray2 b if he w\ld d s1 :]e is he to retire = t purpose8 ,alone he _c be2 he has no sep>ate ap>tm5t1 & let ^? :o h tri$ x say :at w\ld be ! consequ5ce ( 8 kneel+ d[n publicly to wor%ip ,god4 ,he may d x sil5tly & undiscov]$ 9 8 b$2 yes1 if he c lift up 8 he>t1 & realize ! pres5ce ( ! ,god ( heav51 :ile ! language ( hell res\nds on e side4 ,ev5 s1 he has an enemy )91 /riv+ aga9/ ! "r pr9ciple1 & respond+ to all t 8 bett] feel+ repudiates4 ,!n1 too1 :]e)al %all ! "y man cleanse 8 way1 if n by rul+ himself accord+ to ! ^w ( ,god8 ,& h[ is he to /udy t ^w8 ,does ! p>5t :o puts a ,bible 9 8 boy's portmanteau "k t ! mo/ blasphem\s tissue ( ribaldry & all abom9ation1 w\ld be a m suitable gift1 if x is int5d$ t he %\ld exhibit x8 ,^! are awful que/ions1 to be well consid]$ by ^? :o are wav]+ z to ! de/9ation ( a y\?2 & !y apply v widely ?r\gh\t ! l&4 ,we all "k ! case ( him ^: he>t has be5 swept & g>ni%$2 & h[ mu* ! la/ /ate is worse ?an ! fir/1 :5 ,satan rent]s ) 8 sev5 new companions4 ,! v *ecks ( consci5ce r5d] ! frett$ m9d m re/ive2 & ! long] re/ra9$1 ! m headlong is ! wild gallop into :i* ! *af$ _s at la/ breaks4 ,he :o trembl$ at a pr(ane ^w1 becomes an accompli%$ swe>]2 he ^: mode/y 0 mo/ retir+ is =emo/ to glory 9 e>ly depravity2 he ^: h& 0 ev] ready to relieve ! poor1 :ile 8 he>t sympa?iz$ 9 _! sorr[s1 becomes ! wanton spoil] & m>aud] = ! sake ( a bold vaunt2 he :o %runk f ! approa* ( pr(ligate mislead]s1 n[ volunte]s to h>d5 new com]s 9 ! ways ( s94 ,! y\? :o ) noiseless /ep trod ! c\rts ( ! ,"l's h\se1 & b5t ) l[ly rev]5ce 9 pray]1 & li/5$ ) fix$ att5tion to ! tea*]'s voice1 n[ delights 9 %am+ o!rs out ( ! semblance ( devotion1 & feigns1 if he does n fall into x1 ! pr(\nd sleep ( a :olly un9t]e/$ actor 9 ! t$i\s %[ ( public wor%ip4 ,p]*ance "s fri5d ^: proximity to ! place admits ( x may /ret* out a help+ h&1 or lift an admonitory voice1 or pr(f] a little enc\ragem5t to /r5g!n ! ?+s t rema91 & :i* are ready to die3 if s1 bo? ! help] & ! help$ w be m>k$ out = ridicule & revil+1 if = no?+ worse4 ,honorable m51 aft] ?is _w's c\rse1 :o are !mselves :olly 9 ! d>k1 v]ily believ+ t religion w\ld turn a y\?'s bra9 & unfit him = ! active bus9ess ( life1 w feel x a "p ( _! duty to oppose e possible ob/acle to su* attempts at reclaim+ ! "y w&]]s "u _! *>ge4 ,i knew1 & knew "r well1 an in/ance :]e9 a lady :o /rove to d good to ! s\ls ( "s "y lads ^: p>5ts %e knew to be pray+ p1 _h a sort ( ban put ^u h]1 by ! publication ( an express ord] t !y %\ld n be aga9 p]mitt$ to visit h]2 & :5 a nobleman :o well knew t %e _h n done any ?+ to m]it su* public condemnation1 ask$ ! pr9cipal ( ! in/itution ! reason = s h>% a proce$+1 he receiv$ ?is answ]3 ,my "l1 ,i 0 sorry to d x2 ,i felt x a pa9ful duty1 b an imp]ative "o4 ,! fact is1 %e got hold ( "s ( ! mo/ promis+ lads "u my c>e1 & s infect$ !m ) h] own gloomy notions t1 ,i give y my ^w1 !y 7 se5 walk+ alone1 ) ,bibles 9 _! h&s4 ,s mu* wis] are ! *ildr5 ( ?is _w 9 gu>d+ ^? committ$ to !m f ! entrance ( spiritual good1 ?an are ! *ildr5 ( light 9 protect+ _! de>e/ treasures f ! contam9ation ( mo/ deadly evil4 ,b to return to my cadets at ,s&hur/4 ,i _h two "y fri5ds !re1 bo? ,iri%1 :o 7 kn[n to me f *ildhood2 bo? greatly atta*$ to my bro!r2 bo? lov+ me de>ly2 & _m a happy h\r we pass$1 /roll+ ov] ! wild hea?1 or enjoy+ ! *e]fulness ( my cottage home4 ,on ^? two1 among _m1 ,i look$ ) especial solicitude z to _! future c\rse2 & ,i h _h to rejoice1 9 diff]5t ways1 ov] !m bo?4 ,"o 0 e>ly tak5 to 8 re/2 he di$ 9 ! fai?1 look+ simply to ! ,"l ,jesus1 & f9d+ p]fect peace 9 him4 ,! o!r 0 long away on =eign s]vice1 & :5 next ,i saw him x 0 z ! deliv]]1 "u ,god1 ( a :ole t[n1 & probably ?r\gh t ( ! :ole k+dom1 f a sc5e ( revolution>y c>nage4 ,he comm&$ ! gallant little body ( troops at ,newport :o1 on ! #d? ( ,novemb]1 #ahci1 quell$ ! ,*>ti/ insurrection1 & broke ! =midable p[] t m5ac$ a g5]al outbreak4 ,i _c pass ov] ?is ev5t1 x 0 s delightfully gratify+ to me4 ,a ?ird ( ^? 9 :om ,i took a lively int]e/ 0 ,alex&] ,c\nt ,calh>ez1 ! elde/ son ( ! ,duc de ,palmella4 ,he 0 a mo/ elegant y\?1 ( f9e m9d1 delicate feel+s1 & ! sweete/ mann]s possible4 ,devot$ly atta*$ to ,romanism1 he con/antly att5d$ mass at ! h\se ( ! old abb1 :o add$ to 8 pr(essor%ip 9 ! ,royal ,milit>y ,college ! duties ( a ,popi% prie/4 ,x 0 a sore grief to me to see ,calh>ez pursu+ 8 solit>y way to t h\se1 :ile we took ! road to ! college *apel1 & met him half-way4 ,i long$ to ent] a solemn prote/ aga9/ 8 delusion1 b ,i nev] did x 9 direct t]ms1 ?\gh v (t5 dwell+1 9 8 pres5ce1 on ! peculi> tru?s ( ,*ri/ianity1 oppos$ z !y are to ! lie 9 :i* he tru/$4 ,i hop$ to h enjoy$ _m future opportunities ( conv]s+ ) him1 = he always s\ght our society 9 pref]5ce to _m ?+s t appe>$ m attractive1 & took a lively int]e/ 9 ,jack4 ,b ! college did n suit 8 ta/e2 he left x soon & accompani$ 8 fa!r to ,portugal4 ,he di$ at ! ,azores2 & ,i h be5 told t 8 hope at ! la/ 0 "o :i* make? n a%am$4 ,he 0 ! subject ( _m pray]s2 ! la/ day w tell :e!r !y 7 answ]$4 ,b ,i _c ha/5 ?r\gh ! heavie/ "p ( my task2 x is ! r5d+ op5 ( a w\nd nev] to heal until ! leaves ( ! tree ( life %all be laid ^u x2 & if by any means ,i d atta9 to t resurrection f among ! dead 9 :i* none b ! ,"l's *ildr5 %all p>take1 surely ! de> object ( all ?is sorr[ w be !re beside me4 ,six mon?s _h pass$ s9ce my bro!r's dep>ture to ,irel&1 & all 8 lett]s 7 full ( *e]fulness & pleasant anticipation4 ,on ! subject :]e ,i mo/ wi%$ to "k 8 feel+s1 he 0 sil5t2 b a passage 9 "o ( 8 lett]s /ruck me greatly4 ,i _h be5 suff]+ f a slight local pa91 :i* "o ( my m$ical fri5ds errone\sly pron\nc$ to be a disease ( ! he>t2 & 9 communicat+ ?is to him ,i _h notic$1 t ,i mu/ live 9 mom5t>y expectation ( sudd5 dea?4 ,8 reply 0 v affectionate4 ,he said x _h giv5 him a great %ock1 b on a little reflection he 0 conv9c$ ( its be+ altoge!r a n]v\s s5sation2 add+1 ,if n1 :y %\ld y %r9k f sudd5 dea?8 ,= my own "p1 ,i %\ld desire x1 z a %ort & easy passage out ( ?is life4 ,a tremor came ov] me z ,i read ^! words2 b aga9 ,i ?\ght1 ,surely !re is some?+ on 8 m9d to bright5 t passage1 or he w\ld n s express himself2 & ! ?\ght ( _m p]ils surr\nd+ him quick5$ me to r$\bl$ pray] t ,god w\ld set 8 feet ^u ! ,rock ( ages4 ,x 0 on a bright ,sabba? morn+ at ! end ( ,june1 t hav+ r ov]slept myself1 ,i f\nd1 on awak+1 ! lett]s br\ght by e>ly po/ ly+ on my pill[4 ,i took "o3 x 0 ! ,horse ,gu>ds envelope1 9 :i* 8 lett]s usually came2 & 9 my eag]ness to op5 "o f him1 ,i did n ev5 put up a pray]4 ,full ( smil+ anticipation1 ,i unfold$ ! enclosure1 :i* 0 f a mo/ de> & valu$ fri5d at ! ,horse ,gu>ds2 & aft] "s t5d] prep>ation1 :i* ! sudd5 reel+ ( my t]rifi$ bra9 prev5t$ my compreh5d+1 came ! p>alyz+ sequel3 ,a lett] _h be5 receiv$ f ,mull+>--he 0 on ! lake fi%+--! boat ov]set4 ,i c\ld n und]/& ! mean+ ( ! words2 b ,i und]/ood ! ?+ itself4 ,i sprung to my knees to cry = m]cy on him--b ,oh1 t dreadful1 dreadful ?\ght t pi]c$ ?r\gh my inmo/ s\l--,he is beyond ! rea* ( pray]4 ,i fell back z if really %ot4 ,b :at avails x to dwell on ?is8 ,i bore x z ,god enabl$ me2 ,i felt cru%$1 annihilat$ z x 71 "u ! fi]ce wra? ( ! ,"l2 = to aggravate ! bl[1 ,i _h no p[] to believe or to hope4 ,x 0 a light ?+ to h lo/ him1 my all 9 ?is cold1 dre>y _w1 :o f e>ly infancy _h be5 z ! light to my eyes1 & ! life-blood to my he>t--him :o _h s v lately be5 re/or$1 z if to %[ t :ile he rema9$ all ,i c\ld desire ( e>?ly happ9ess 0 )9 my rea*--him :o _h be5 to me in/ead ( e o!r mortal bless+1 & to :om ,i look$ = all t ,i d>$ hope ( future com=t4 ,x 0 a light ?+ to h lo/ him1 & to look ^u ! angui% ( 8 wid[$ "m1 to :om he _h ev] be5 m ( a m9i/]+ angel ?an a son1 & ^u ! te>s ( 8 little daught]1 :o _h lo/ a fa!r inde$4 ,all ?is 0 a small matt] comp>$ ) ! ov]:elm+ horrors ( t fe>ful ?\ght1 t he _h lo/ 8 s\l4 ,i _h fall5 mu* into ! common1 dang]\s error ( look+ to my own fai? r ?an to ! object ( x = salvation2 & ,i did 9 my he>t1 exce$+ly glory 9 ?is suppos$ fai? ( m9e4 ,! dreadful disp5sation "u :i* ,i 0 laid %[$ me at once1 t ( fai? ,i _h n to ! value ( a gra9 ( mu/>d-se$2 & n[ ,i felt ! desolation ( _s :i* none c "k :o h n be5 s compell$ to make su* a discov]y4 ,i did n rebel2 ,i own$ ! ju/ice ( ,god3 nay1 ! v fir/ words ,i c\ld f9d brea? to utt] broke =? 9 ! confession1 ,righte\s art ?\1 ,o ,"l2 j & true are ?y ways1 ,o ,k+ ( sa9ts6 ,b x 0 a fe>ful trembl+ b5ea? ! h& t _h smote me2 & z = be+ cont5t$ to h x s1 ,i 0 n3 ,i d n wi% t ,i _h be5 cont5t$ to believe my bro!r 0 lo/2 ,i d n und]/& t feel+1 nor wi% to und]/& x2 = surely :ile we rema9 9 ! fle%1 we _c dive/ ourselves ( :at ,god has int]wov5 ) our v nature1 nor cease to feel = ! spiritual1 ! et]nal int]e/s ( ^? mo/ fondly ende>$ to u--a solicitude z great1 aye1 mu* great]1 ?an :at we1 9 our unconv]t$ /ate1 once knew 9 reg>d to _! temporal conc]ns4 ,i speak ( ^? in/ances :]e1 aft] be+ ourselves br\ght to "k ! ,"l1 we h labor$ & pray$ p]sev]+ly = o!rs1 & !n h sudd5ly lo/ !m4 ,i 0 n cont5t to ?9k t my pray]s _h be5 ca/ out3 ,i want$ "s tok5 t !y _h be5 answ]$4 ,bless$ be ! ,god ( all m]cies1 ,i 0 n disappo9t$4 99 99 99 ,mean:ile1 :at a t5fold recomp5se = all ! c>e be/[$ on him did ,i reap 9 ! beautiful sympa?y ( ! dumb boy4 ,:5 ,i came d[n /airs t dreadful morn+1 he met me ) a face ( su* wild dismay z ev5 !n arre/$ my att5tion4 ,he utt]$ an audible ,oh6 ( mo/ t\*+ tone1 & ?us express$ ! impossibility he felt ( realiz+ ! tid+s3 ,jack :at8 ,jack asleep8 ,jack see1 no--?9k1 no4 ,jack afraid1 v4 ,beautiful ,capta9 ,b---- gone8--dead8 ,:at8 & he /amp$ ) ! impati5ce ( t fe>fully inquisitive :at4 ,i answ]$1 ,capta9 ,b---- gone2 wat] kill--dead4 ,te>s /ole d[n 8 lov+ face z he respond$1 ,poor mam6 ,mam "o2 mean+ ,i 0 n[ alone 9 ! _w4 ,god see poor mam "o2 ,jesus ,*ri/ love poor mam "o4 ,) a feel+ ( bitt] agony ,i ask$ him1 ,:at8 ,jesus ,*ri/ love ,capta9 ,b----8 ,yes1 he repli$1 aft] a mom5t's solemn ?\ght on ! "q1 ,yes1 ,jack mu* pray2 mam mu* pray2 ,jesus ,*ri/ see mu* prays4 ,?is 0 true com=t2 all ! eloqu5ce ( all ! pulpits 9 ,engl& c\ld n h gone to my he>t l t assurance1 t ,jesus ,*ri/ _h se5 8 _m dumb pray]s on behalf ( t lo/--,oh1 ,i c\ld n1 ev5 9 ! dep? ( my unbeliev+ he>t1 say1 lo/ "o4 ,i aga9 ask$ ! boy1 ,jack mu* prays8 ,he answ]$ ) solemn f]v5cy1 ,v1 v mu* prays4 ,jack pray morn+1 pray night2 ,jack pray *ur*1 pray b$4 ,yes1 ,jack _m days1 v1 pray ,god make--& he f9i%$ by signs1 t w+s %\ld be made to gr[ f my bro!r's %\ld]s1 = him to fly to heav51 add+1 ,jesus ,*ri/ mu/ make ! w+s2 & !n1 ) a bur/ ( delight$ animation1 he told me t he 0 a v tall angel1 v beautiful4 ,i h repeat$ ?is conv]sation to %[ ! brok5 language c>ri$ on betwe5 u2 & also h[ p[]fully he express$ 8 ?\ghts4 ,soon aft]1 :5 ,i 0 ne>ly fa9t+1 a glass ( wat] 0 held to my lips4 ,i am a%am$ to say1 ,i da%$ x d[n1 exclaim+1 ,t murd]]6 ,jack caught my eye1 & e*o+ my feel+s1 said1 9 a bitt] way1 ,bad wat]6 !n ) a look ( exult+ contempt at ! rema9+ fluid1 he add$1 ,s\l gone wat]8 ,no6 ,?is idea1 t ! s\l 0 n dr[n$1 electrifi$ me2 s good is a ^w spok5 9 due season1 h[ev] trite a truism t ^w may be4 ,t night ,i pret5d$ to g to b$1 t o!rs might d s too2 & !n ,i left my room1 w5t to my little /udy1 :i* 0 hung r\nd ) ,jack's sweet draw+s1 & sat d[n1 re/+ my elb[s on ! table1 my face on my h&s1 & s rema9$ = a c\ple ( h\rs4 ,day _h sc>cely brok51 brightly ^u me1 ab\t two 9 ! morn+1 :5 ! door op5$ s(tly1 & ,jack ent]$1 only p>tially dress$1 8 face deadly pale1 & altoge!r look+ mo/ pite\sly wret*$4 ,he paus$ at ! door1 say+1 ,jack sleep1 no2 ,jack sick1 head bad--no m see beautiful ,capta9 ,b----4 ,i c\ld only %ake my head1 & soon buri$ my face 9 my h&s aga94 ,h[ev]1 ,i /ill saw him ?r\gh my f+]s2 & aft] lift+ up 8 clasp$ h&s & eyes 9 pray] = me1 he proce$$ to execute ! purpose ( 8 visit to t room4 ,s(tly1 /eal?ily1 he w5t r\nd1 m\nt+ a *air1 & unp9n$ f ! wall e draw+ t conta9$ a %ip1 a boat1 or wat] "u any =m ( repres5tation4 ,/ill peep+ at me1 hop+ he 0 n obs]v$1 he complet$ ?is "w1 :i* no?+ b a m9d ref9$ to ! highe/ degree ( delicate t5d]ness c\ld ev] h prompt$1 & !n /opp+ at ! door1 ca/ ov] 8 %\ld] su* a look ( desolate sorr[ at me1 t its v wret*$ness p\r$ balm into my he>t4 ,oh :at a heav5ly lesson is t1 ,weep ) !m t d weep1 & h[ we fly 9 its face :5 go+ to ! m\rn] ) our inhuman1 cold- blood$ exhortations to leave (f griev+4 ,ev5 ,job's torm5t+ fri5ds gave him sev5 days' true consolation :ile !y sat sil5t on ! e>? weep+ ) him4 ,b ,god put into ! dumb boy's he>t ano!r mode ( consolation1 :i* ,i mu/ rec\nt z a specim5 ( 8 exce$+ly orig9al & beautiful tra9 ( ?\ght4 ,he us$ to tell 8 ideas to me z if !y 7 ?+s t he _h se53 & n[ he _h a tale to relate1 ! day aft] ?is1 :i* rivet$ my att5tion4 ,he told me my bro!r w5t on ! lake 9 a little boat1 & :ile he 0 go+ along ! devil got "u x1 seiz$ "o side1 pull$ x ov]1 & caught my bro!r1 draw+ him d[n to ! bottom1 :i*1 z he told me1 0 deep1 deep1 & flames "u x4 ,!n ,jesus ,*ri/ put 8 arm out ( a cl\d1 rea*$ into ! wat]1 took ! s\l out ( ! body1 & drew x into ! sky4 ,:5 ! devil saw ! s\l _h escap$1 he let ! body g1 & div$ away1 cry+1 ,jack said1 ) rage1 :ile ! m5 took x to l&4 ,! s\l1 he cont9u$1 w5t up1 up1 up2 x 0 bright1 & bright]1 l sun--all light1 beautiful light4 ,at la/ he saw a gate1 & inside _m angels look+ out at him2 b two v small angels came runn+ to meet ! s\l2 & :5 he saw !m1 he took !m up into 8 arms1 kiss$ !m1 & c>ri$ !m on t[>ds ! gate1 /ill kiss+ & c>ess+ !m4 ,i 0 amaz$ & utt]ly at a loss1 & said1 ,two angels8 ,:at8 ,mam n "k2 :at8 ,he look$ at me ) a laugh ( wond]2 po9t$ to my head & ! wood5 table1 & repli$--8 usual way ( call+ me /upid-- ,doll mam6 ,two small boys1 dead1 ,portugal4 ,my bro!r _h lo/ two babes 9 ,portugal2 & ?us exquisitely1 ?us 9 all ! beauty ( true sublimity1 _h ! untaught deaf & dumb boy pictur$ ! welcome !y _h giv5 _! fa!r on approa*+ ! gate ( heav54 ,a day or two aft]1 "s k9d1 sympa?iz+ relations & fri5ds be+ assembl$ at ! d9n]-table1 some?+ *e]ful 0 said1 :i* excit$ a g5]al smile3 ,jack 0 9 ! act ( h&+ a plate2 he look$ r\nd him ) a face ( /]n indignation1 set d[n ! plate1 said1 ,bad laugh+6 & walk$ out ( ! room1 /opp+ at ! door to add to me1 ,mam1 come3 no laugh+6 ,gone2 dead4 ,i _h n smil$2 & ?is jeal\s t5aci\sness ( su* a grief1 on ! "p ( an exce$+ly *e]ful boy1 0 ! means ( soo?+ m ?an any o!r means c\ld h done x1 ! angui% ( t w\nd :i* _h pi]c$ my v he>t's core4 ,^! 7 a small "p ( ! munific5t wages t my ,ma/] gave me = nurs+ a *ild ( 84 ,my fir/ act _h1 ( c\rse1 be5 to adopt my bro!r's son--! baby boy--n[ five ye>s old1 :o _h be5 s9ce he fir/ %[$ 8 little r\nd face 9 ,engl&1 my own peculi> treasure4 ,i begg$ him z a preci\s boon1 & = 8 sake bore up aga9/ ! /orm ( sorr[ t 0 r5d+ me )94 ,jack fell into a decl9e1 ?r\gh ! depression ( 8 spirits 9 see+ me suff]2 = to conceal x f "o :o read e turn ( my c\nt5ance 0 impossible2 & ,i %\ld h be5 well cont5t to s9k also1 b = ! p[]ful motive set be=e me4 ,"u ,god1 :o gave him to me1 y may ?ank y\r "y fri5d = :at little s]vice ,i may h r5d]$ 9 ! cause y love1 s9ce #ahbh2 = ! prospect :i* by ! ,"l's ri* m]cy is s f> realiz$1 ( see+ him gr[ up a useful1 honorable memb] ( society1 ) "r pr9ciples1 gr\nd$ on a scriptural education1 0 :at enabl$ me to p]sev]e aga9/ e difficulty & e disc\ragem5t t c\ld cross my pa?4 ,i set up a joyful ,eb5ez] "h2 & ,i ask y\r pray]s t ! bless+ may be prolong$1 increas$1 p]fect$1 ev5 to ! day :5 we %all all meet be=e ! ?rone ( ,god4 99 99 99 ,,lett] ,,xii4 ,,employm5t4 ,h[ is x t ,*ri/ians s (t5 compla9 !y c f9d no?+ to d = _! ,ma/]8 ,to he> "s ( !m bemoan+ _! unpr(itabl5ess1 we might conclude t ! h>ve/ inde$ is small1 & ! labor]s _m4 ,s _m s]vants out ( employ is a bad sign2 & to obviate ! difficulty compla9$ (1 ,i purpose %[+ y two or ?ree ways 9 :i* ^? :o are s incl9$ may be/ir !mselves = ! good ( o!rs4 ,:at a bless+ 7 a work+ *ur*6 & by a *ur* ,i mean1 ! company ( all fai?ful p1 :osoev] & :]esoev] !y be4 ,9 ! village :]e ,i liv$1 !re 0 a v good national-s*ool1 well att5d$2 also a ,sunday-s*ool2 & ! poor] inhabitants g5]ally 7 ( a respectable class1 ) _m ( a high] grade1 su* z small tradesm51 & ! families ( ^? 9 subord9ate (fices ab\t ! ,milit>y ,college4 ,i always took a great int]e/ 9 ! "y2 & z love usually produces love1 !re 0 no lack ( affectionate feel+ on _! "p4 ,x occurr$ to me1 z ! ,sunday 0 mu* devot$ by mo/ ( !m to idl+ ab\t1 t assembl+ su* ( !m z wi%$ x at my cottage w\ld af=d an opportunity = scriptural in/ruction2 & )\t any ?+ resembl+ a s*ool1 or any regul> proposal1 ,i f\nd a little p>ty ( six or sev5 *ildr5 assembl$ 9 ! aft]noon1 to he> a *apt] read1 answ] a few que/ions ^u x1 & jo9 9 a %ort pray]4 ,mak+ x z *e]ful & unre/ra9$ z possible1 ,i f\nd my little gue/s greatly pleas$2 & on ! next ,sabba? my p>ty 0 d\bl$1 solely ?r\gh ! favorable report spread by !m4 ,"o _h ask$ me1 ,please1 ma'am1 may ,i br+ my little si/]8 & on ! reply be+ giv51 ,y may br+ any body & e body y l1 a g5]al beat+ up = recruits foll[$4 ,9 ?ree or f\r weeks my assemblage am\nt$ to sixty1 only "o half ( :om c\ld be cr[d$ into ! p>lor ( my small cottage4 ,:at 0 to be done8 ,! "w 0 r ardu\s1 b z ,i too _h be5 compla9+ n long be=e ( hav+ little to d = ! ,"l1 except ) ! p51 ,i resolv$ to brave a little extra labor4 ,i desir$ ! girls to come at f\r1 ! boys at six1 & all[+ an int]val ( half an h\r betwe51 we got ?r\gh x v well4 ,a long table 0 set across ! room1 f corn] to corn]2 r\nd ?is !y 7 seat$1 ea* ) a ,bible1 ,i be+ at ! head ( ! table4 ,i f\nd ?is easy & sociable way ( proce$+ highly gratifi$ ! *ildr53 !y nev] call$1 nev] ?\ght x a s*ool--!y came bu/l+ 9 ) looks ( great glee1 p>ticul>ly ! boys1 & greet$ me ) ! affectionate fre$om ( "y fri5ds4 ,a few words ( introductory pray] 7 foll[$ by ! read+ ( "o or m *apt]s1 s t ea* _h a v]se or two2 & !n we talk$ ov] ! portion ( ,scripture v closely1 mutually que/ion+ ea* o!r4 ,_m ( ! girls 7 z old z sixte5 or sev5te51 beautiful creatures1 & v well dress$3 & :at a privilege x 0 s to ga!r & s to arm !m 9 a place :]e1 alas1 innum]able sn>es beset _! pa?4 ,we conclud$ ) a hymn2 & long be=e ! half-h\r _h expir$ t prec$$ ! boys' entrance1 !y 7 clu/]+ l bees at ! gate1 impati5t = ! joy\s ru%2 & to seat !mselves r\nd _! de> table1 ) all t free confid5ce )\t :i* ,i nev] c\ld succe$ 9 really comm&+ ! att5tion ( boys4 ,our *oice ( *apt]s 0 peculi>4 ,i f\nd !y want$ /irr+ subjects1 & ,i gave !m ,gideon1 ,samson1 ,jona?an1 ,nehemiah1 ,boaz1 ,mordecai1 ,daniel1 all ! mo/ manly *>act]s ( ,old ,te/am5t hi/ory1 ) ! ri* gospel t lies wrapp$ 9 e page ( t preci\s volume4 ,ev5 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t ,i f\nd t individualiz+ z mu* z possible ! speak] or ! n>rative produc$1 great effects4 ,our bless$ ,"l himself1 ,john ! ,bapti/1 ,paul--all 7 br\ght be=e !m z vividly z possible2 & ,i c assure ^? :o try to tea* boys z !y w\ld tea* girls1 t !y are pursu+ a wrong me?od4 ,m9e h (t5 coax$ an extra h\r f me2 & ,i nev] once saw !m will+ to g1 dur+ ! fifte5 mon?s ( our happy meet+s4 ,if ! lea/ symptom ( unrul9ess appe>$1 ,i _h only to tell !m !y 7 my gue/s1 & ,i appeal$ to _! feel+s ( manl9ess1 :e!r a lady _h n "s claim to =be>ance & respect4 ,no?+ rights a boy ( t5 or twelve ye>s l putt+ him on 8 manhood2 & really my little lads became g5tlem5 9 m9d & mann]s1 :ile1 bless$ be ,god1 n a few became1 ,i tru/1 wise unto salvation4 ,_! greate/ temptation to disord]ly do+s 0 9 ! laughable1 au?oritative /yle ( ,jack's sup]9t5d5ce4 ,he 0 n[ rapidly fad+1 b 9 m9d bright] ?an ev]4 ,seat$ 9 a l>ge *air1 a little to ! re> ( me1 he kept /rict wat* ov] ! p>ty1 & any deviation f :at he consid]$ correct conduct 0 notic$ ) a ?reat ( puni%m5t1 convey$ by p9*+ 8 own e>1 slapp+ 8 own face1 kick+ out 8 foot1 & simil> indications ( *a/isem5t1 ) a kn[+ nod at ! (f5d]4 ,b if he saw an approa* to levity ov] ! ^w ( ,god1 8 mann] :olly *ang$4 ,te>s fill$ 8 eyes1 he look$ all grief & entreaty1 & ! words1 ,god see1 7 e>ne/ly spell$ on 8 uplift$ h&s4 ,no "o c\ld /& ! appeal2 & v r>ely _h he occasion to make x4 ,i am sure 8 pray]s help$ =w>d ! "w mightily4 ,x 0 wond]ful to see ?irty-two robu/1 boi/]\s fell[s1 f n9e to sev5te5 ye>s old1 sitt+ 9 p]fect delight & p]fect ord]1 = two & ev5 ?ree h\rs1 on a f9e ,sunday ev5+1 nev] look+ dissatisfi$ till !y 7 told to g4 ,i _c help record+ an ev5t on :i* ,i look back ) great ?ankfulness1 ?\gh x 0 a t]rible trial to me at ! "t4 ,two ( my boys _h a qu>rel "o week-day4 ,"o ( !m 0 v teas+1 ! o!r v passionate4 ,! latt] ran to a but*]'s w9d[ close by1 seiz$ ! l>ge knife1 & plung$ x into ! left side ( 8 companion4 ,mo/ m]cifully ! w\nd 0 n dang]\s3 ! ke5ness ( ! knife 0 9 8 favor2 x p5etrat$ to )9 a %ort di/ance ( ! he>t1 b sep>at$ no l>ge ve91 & )9 a few days ! boy 0 out aga94 ,! ,sunday aft] x occurr$ my p>ty 7 exce$+ly mov$2 !y express$ great ang]1 & n a few ?reats 71 utt]$ aga9/ ! culprit1 ^: p>5ts _h lock$ him up4 ,on ! foll[+ ,sabba? ,i resolv$ to make an ef=t to av]t bad consequ5ces1 & also to arre/ ! poor boy 9 8 dang]\s c\rse4 ,he _h r ju/ifi$ himself ?an o!rwise1 & _h %[n a _s sadly unsubdu$1 & un?ankful = 8 escape f a deadly crime & its awful consequ5ces4 ,i s5t ^w to him to come to my p>ty3 he repli$ he w\ld n4 ,i repeat$ ! summons1 say+ ,i %\ld be exce$+ly hurt if he did n4 ,no answ] 0 return$4 ,! place next b "o to me belong$ to ! w\nd$ boy1 t bel[ x to 8 assailant2 & ! =m] 0 pres5t1 pale1 inde$1 b well4 ,i lo/ no "t 9 ann\nc+ to !m t ,i expect$ ,p----1 :i* occasion$ a bur/ ( indignation1 "s say+ !y w\ld n /ay 9 ! room ) him1 & ! re/ seem+ to ass5t4 ,!n1 said ,i1 y mu/ g1 = he wants in/ruction mo/3 & ! v feel+ t makes y %r9k f associat+ ) him proves t y are bett] taught4 ,s if y w leave me1 d2 ,i mu/ admit him4 ,j !n ,p---- 0 se5 com+ d[n ! little g>d53 he ent]$1 8 walk v erect1 8 eyes unfl9*+1 & 8 d>k br[s knitt$4 ,! looks ( my "y lads 7 v eloqu5t2 8 bold be>+ exasp]at$ !m mu*4 ,my he>t seem$ bur/+ its b\nd>y ) ! viol5t palpitation ( al>m1 & o!r emotions :i* ,i c\ld sc>cely suppress2 b ,i motion$ to ,p---- to take 8 usual place1 & in/antly ris+ (f]$ up ! usual pray]1 ) a petition = ! _s ( mutual compassion1 =giv5ess1 & love4 ,i ceas$1 all rema9$ /&+1 & c]ta9ly x 0 a p]iod ( mo/ fe>ful int]e/4 ,i look$ implor+ly at ! w\nd$ boy2 he hesitat$ a mom5t1 !n sudd5ly turn$1 & ) an air ( noble frankness1 held out 8 h& to ,p----1 :o took x directly4 ,i !n (f]$ him m9e2 he grasp$ x1 & bur/ into te>s4 ,a delightful sc5e foll[$1 ea* press+ to seal 8 =giv5ess 9 ! same mann]1 :ile ,jack's c\nt5ance %one ) almo/ heav5ly beauty on a spectacle s cong5ial to 8 lov+ he>t4 ,we _h a mo/ happy ev5+1 & ,i c\ld n b tell my de> boys h[ mu* ,i rejoic$ ov] !m4 ,:atev] may h be5 ! effect on ! *>act]s ( ^? conc]n$1 ,i "k n4 ,i am p]suad$ ! proce$+ 0 a means ( av]t+ mu* mis*ief4 ,boys are noble creatures :5 plac$ on _! "r foot+2 b !y are pugnaci\s animals & require prud5t managem5t4 ,news 0 br\ght me "o ev5+1 :ile !y wait$ = admission1 t two ( !m _h /ripp$ (f _! jackets to fight1 ! dispute be+ :i* lov$ _! tea*] mo/4 ,exclude !m bo? to- night1 said a fri5d1 & ?reat5 to expel !m4 ,in/ead ( :i*1 ,i s5t ^w t ! "o :o fir/ put on 8 jacket lov$ me mo/1 & t ,i 0 ready to beg94 ,9 !y bo? came1 smil+1 & !y got _! lecture 9 due "t1 :5 a passage 9 po9t came be=e u4 ,n[1 :o compla9s ( non-employm5t :ile !re are s _m neglect$ *ildr51 & s _m :o1 9 ! dull r\t9e ( a s*ool1 get only a me*anical k ( :at w\ld deeply int]e/ !m if br\ght be=e !m ) ! help ( a little p]sonal condesc5sion & c>e8 ,x is a bran* ( ,*ri/ian duty = :i* all are compet5t :o "k ! gospel2 & two1 ?ree1 or f\r "y p invit$ to come 9 = an h\r or s at /at$ times1 to sit d[n at a table & talk ov] ! passages ( ,scripture :i* may appe> be/ calculat$ to engage _! pleas$ att5tion1 may (t5 prove ! f\ndation = a noble "w4 99 99 99 ,ladies d n l to in/ruct boys3 !y are v wrong4 ,female influ5ce is a p[]ful ?+1 & freely ex]t$ = evil--:y n = good8 ,we br\ght s9 into ! _w1 involv+ man 9 ! ru9 he 0 n ! fir/ to seek2 & x is ! lea/ we c d to (f] him a little good n[4 ,i nev] yet met ) a boy--& ?anks be to ,god ,i h taught _m--:o w\ld be rude to a female e>ne/ly & k9dly seek+ 8 welf>e1 )\t attempt+ to cru% t indep5d5ce ( _s :i* is man's pr]ogative1 & :i* no woman has a "r to cru%4 ,i ne$ n say t 9 ! =ego+1 & 9 all simil> works :]e ! ,"l p]mitt$ me to engage1 ,i labor$ dilig5tly to make my "y fri5ds some?+ m ?an nom9al ,prote/ants4 ,to omit ?is1 9 giv+ in/ruction1 is ! v madness ( inconsi/5t folly & cruelty4 ,a few weeks aft] ! comm5cem5t ( my weekly assemblages1 ,i 0 call$ to ! metropolis 9 se>* ( m$ical aid = a de> little *ild ( my bro!r's4 ,i f\nd x1 & all t ,*ri/ian k9dness c\ld add to r5d] x d\bly valuable1 at ! h&s ( an e/imable physician1 ne> :om ,i resolv$ to /ay = a few weeks2 & :ile secretly lam5t+ t "h1 at lea/1 ,i %\ld f9d no?+ to d1 an answ] 0 giv5 to my unbelief t might well %ame x4 ,to ! same end ,i w record ?is also1 ! circum/ances be+ already well kn[n1 b n ! delightful enc\ragem5ts t are af=d$ :5 a project is ent]$ ^u 9 s+le1 simple reliance on ! help ( ,him = ^: glory 8 p desire to "w4 ,unbelief 9 8 will+ness--= we d>e n d\bt 8 p[] to prosp] our poor attempts--is ! real b> to our success4 ,su* mi/ru/ is inf9itely di%onor+ to him4 ,six ye>s _h elaps$ s9ce ,i left ,irel&1 b my affection = ! c\ntry & p 0 un*ang$1 un*angeable4 ,! v c5tre ( ! isle _h become ! grave ( my belov$ bro!r1 & ?is only add$ t5fold to ! t\*+ int]e/ excit$ by ! v m5tion ( t l&4 ,/range to say1 ,i _h nev] he>d ( ! ,iri% ,society1 nor consid]$ ( :at va/ importance x w\ld be to make ! language ( ! natives a m$ium ( convey+ spiritual in/ruction to !m4 ,! annual meet+ 0 ab\t to be held1 & among ! ,iri% cl]gym5 =m+ ! deputation to ,london1 0 ! ,rev4 ,*>les ,seym\r1 ! v5]able & e-way e/imable pa/or "u ^: m9i/ry my bro!r _h be5 plac$ at ,ca/leb>1 & f :om ,i _h receiv$ lett]s1 fully confirmatory ( my sangu9e hope t he _h inde$ & :olly embrac$ ! gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,long+ to see ,mr4 ,seym\r1 ,i w5t to him on ! morn+ ( ! meet+2 & mo/ sweet 0 ! te/imony he _h to give2 mo/ t5d] ! sympa?y he ev9c$ 9 all my sorr[ & all my gladness4 ,aft] a conv]sation t left me ov]fl[+ ) gratitude = ! bless+s v\*saf$ to my preci\s bro!r1 he ask$ me to att5d ! meet+1 & ,i w5t prep>$ to take a lively int]e/ 9 :atev] might be said respect+ ,irel&4 ,h[ great 0 my a/oni%m5t :51 = ! fir/ "t1 ,i he>d ! /ory ( ,bi%op ,b$ell1 ( ! ,iri% ,bible1 & ( ! good "w 9 rapid progress among ! aborig9es ( ! l&4 ,! ext5t & invet]acy ( ! disease1 ,i well knew2 b ! suitability ( ! rem$y _h nev] be5 set be=e me4 ,9 fact1 ,i h>dly knew t ! ,iri% 0 a writt5 language2 & /range x seem$1 to h pass$ ?ree ye>s 9 a "p ( ! c\ntry :]e x is ext5sively spok51 & 9 ! h\se ( "o :o always conv]s$ 9 t tongue ) ! ru/ic frequ5t]s ( h] %op1 yet to be s grossly ignorant ( all relat+ to x4 ,i resolv$ to become an active p>tisan ( ! ,iri% ,society 9 ,irel&2 b a diff]5t turn 0 soon giv5 to my sympa?ies4 ,mr4 ,seym\r spoke aft] ! o!rs3 he said mu* calculat$ to prove ! p[] ( ! language 9 prea*+ ! gospel2 b sudd5ly rev]t+ to ! /ate ( ! _m ?\s&s ( 8 poor c\ntrym5 congregat$ 9 ,london1 he drew a mo/ affect+ picture ( _! de/itute1 degrad$ condition4 ,he appeal$ to u z ,*ri/ians2 & rem9d+ u ( our _m privileges1 bade u take c>e t ! s\ls ( 8 poor c\ntrym5 did n rise up 9 judgm5t to condemn u = all[+ !m to p]i% 9 ! he>t ( our metropolis4 ,op51 he said1 a bread-%op 9 ,/4 ,giles's2 deal =? a little ( ! bread ( life to _! />v+ s\ls4 ,ye ,engli% ,*ri/ians1 ,i appeal to y = !m3 ,oh1 pity my poor lo/ c\ntrym51 op5 b a bread-%op 9 ,/4 ,giles's6 ,te>s ran d[n 8 v5]able face1 z he lift$ 8 clasp$ h&s1 & b5t t[>ds u4 ,! effect ( 8 words on me 0 electric3 ,i look$ at him1 & sil5tly b f]v5tly said1 ,s ,god help me z ,i w op5 y a bread-%op 9 ,/4 ,giles's1 if ,he does b p]mit6 ,aga9 & aga9 did ,i repeat ! pl$ge2 & :5 ,"l ,rod5 spoke--! fir/ "t ( my see+ t noble ,iri%man--& he>tily second$ ! appeal1 ,i r5ew$ ! secret promise1 ) su* purpose ( he>t z r>ely fails to accompli% its object4 ,= "s days ,i tri$ 9 va9 to d any ?+ t[>ds x2 b on ! ,sunday1 pass+ f ,great ,russell-/reet to ,long-acre1 ?r\gh ! wor/ "p ( ,/4 ,giles's1 ,i saw ! awful /ate ( t di/rict1 & decl>$ to my companion1 himself a devot$ ,iri%man1 my fix$ resolve to h a *ur* !re4 ,he w>mly enc\rag$ x1 extravagant z ! idea appe>$2 & ,i began to pray e>ne/ly = direction f above4 ,two nights aft]1 a ?\ght /ruck me2 ,i wrote an appeal on behalf ( ! mis]able ,iri% ,papi/s 9 t place1 lik5+ _! case among u to t ( ,laz>us ly+ at ! ri* man's gate1 & implor+ means to give !m ! gospel 9 _! own tongue4 ,?is ,i _h pr9t$1 & s5t copies z ,i c\ld to v>i\s fri5ds4 ,"s smil$ at my en?usiasm2 o!rs po9t$ out ! "w among di/ant hea!n z f> m important4 ,_m wi%$ me success2 a few rebuk$ me = desir+ to proselytize ! memb]s ( ano!r *ur*2 & /ill few] gave me money4 ,at ! end ( a =tnight's h>d begg+1 ,i _h got j sev5 p\nds t[>ds build+ a *ur*6 ,?is 0 sl[ "w4 ,"o day1 d9+ at ! table ( my de> fri5d ,dr4 ,p----1 he he>d _m bant]+ me = be+ s sangu9e1 & said1 ,y rem9d me ( ,columbus go+ to ! ca!dral ( ,seville to ask a bless+ on 8 romantic project ( discov]+ a new _w4 ,ev]ybody laugh$ at him4 ,nev]!less1 ,columbus succe$$1 & s w y4 ,at t mom5t a g5tleman sitt+ next me laid a sov]eign on my piece ( bread2 & ! co9cid5ce ( ! gold & ! bread-%op1 comb9$ ) ! doctor's confid5t pr$iction1 put new life into me1 & ,i boldly said1 ,i ,,w succe$4 ,) ! sum ( sev5 p\nds 9 h&1 ,i wrote to ! bi%op ( ,li*field & ,cov5try1 begg+ him to ask ! bi%op ( ,london if he w\ld lic5se my ,iri% *ur* & an ,iri% cl]gyman1 if ,i provid$ bo?4 ,"l ,m\nts&=d took ?is lett] to him1 & ! next day he br\ght me ?is r />tl+ message3 ,! bi%op ( ,london w lic5se y\r *ur*3 ,li*field s5ds 8 love to y1 & desires y w summon ! g5tlem5 :o are assi/+ y 9 ?is und]tak+--half a doz5 or s --to meet him 9 ,sackville-/reet on ,saturday next1 & be !re y\rself4 ,he w see :at c be done to =w>d x4 ,half a doz5 g5tlem56 :]e 0 ,i to f9d !m8 ,my only help]s 7 ,mr4 ,maxwell1 ,dr4 ,pidduck1 & ,"l ,m\nts&=d himself4 ,h[ev]1 ,i w5t to "w1 pray+ incessantly1 & solac+ myself ) t beautiful text1 ,g up to ! m\nta91 & br+ wood & build ! h\se2 & ,i w take pleasure 9 x1 & ,i w be glorifi$1 sai? ! ,"l4 ,i suppose ,i repeat$ t v]se a hundr$ times a day1 9 my solitude1 att5d+ ! sick *ild & writ+ lett]s till ,i ne>ly fell f my seat ) exhau/ion4 ,saturday arriv$3 ,i _h no idea h[ f> my applications might h succe$$2 b if ,i _h z _m g5tlem5 !re z p\nds 9 my treasury1 namely1 sev51 x w\ld be suffici5t4 ,i w5t trembl+ ) hope & fe>1 accompani$ by two w>mhe>t$ "y ,iri% b>ri/]s :om my good fri5d ,mr4 ,maxwell _h press$ into ! s]vice4 ,oh :at c\ld ,i r5d] unto ! ,"l = all 8 goodness to me1 :5 ,i saw ! glori\s spectacle pres5t$ to my view at ! h\r appo9t$6 ,!re sat ! good ,bi%op ,ryd] 9 ! *air2 beside him ! bi%op ( ,ba? & ,wells2 lords ,lorton1 ,lif=d1 ,bexley1 ,m\nts&=d1 & ,c>b]ry2 & ( o!r cl]gym5 & g5tlem5 upw>ds ( =ty4 ,let u ask a bless+1 said ! bi%op ( ,li*field2 & :51 we all kneel$ d[n to commit unto ! ,,"l a "w s new1 s /range1 & to poor human reason s hopelessly wild z ?is _h appe>$ two days be=e1 ,i ?\ght ,i might z well die !n z n2 ,i c\ld nev] die happi]4 ,all 0 zeal1 love1 unanimity2 !y plac$ x on a good basis1 & my sev5 p\nds 7 multipli$ by m ?an sev5 be=e we broke up4 ,!y did n take ! "w out ( my h&s1 b =m$ !mselves into a body = aid+ 9 c>ry+ x on3 ! rector ( ,/4 ,giles's came =w>d volunt>ily to give 8 he>ty cons5t1 & t5 p\nds2 & if !re 0 a pill[ ( roses 9 ,london t night1 ,i surely slept on x4 ,9 six weeks my memorable sev5 p\nds swell$ to ?irte5 hundr$2 a *ur* 0 b\ght1 a pa/or engag$2 & a noble meet+ held 9 ,freemason's ,hall1 to incorporate ! new project ) ! ,iri% ,society4 ,i w5t back to ,s&hur/ elat$ ) joy1 & lo/ no "t 9 putt+ up1 mo/ conspicu\sly writt5 out on c>d1 ov] my /udy fireplace1 ! l9es t ,i _h s (t5 repeat$ dur+ ! prec$+ two mon?s3 ,victori\s ,fai?1 ! promise sees1 ,& looks to ,god alone2 ,laughs at impossibilities1 ,& says1 ',,x ,,%all ,,be ,,done6 ,9 ! foll[+ ,novemb] ! ,iri% ,episcopal *ur* 9 ,/4 ,giles's 0 op5$ = div9e s]vice on ,adv5t ,sunday1 ! ,rev4 ,h4,h4 ,beami% (ficiat+4 ,a m eloqu5t & flu5t prea*]1 a m gift$ & devot$ man1 ! :ole *ur* ( ,god c\ld n h suppli$4 ,he prea*$ ! :ole gospel 9 ,iri% to ! li/5+1 wond]+ p1 :o hung ) delight ^u acc5ts s de> to !m2 & he attack$ _! pe/il5t h]esies ) ! bold fai?fulness ( "o :o meant :at he said1 :5 v[+ to drive away all errone\s & /range doctr9es f ^? "u 8 *>ge4 ,god bless$ mo/ ri*ly 8 m9i/ry3 _m 7 awak5$1 sev]al truly conv]t$ to ,*ri/1 & n a small numb] fully conv9c$ ( ! falsehood ( _! own sup]/ition1 :i* !y =sook4 ,we _h =ty communicants f among ! mo/ wret*$ly ignorant & bigot$ ( ! ,iri% ,romani/s1 be=e ,mr4 ,beami% left 8 po/2 & "o ( !m _h ev5 endur$ a cruel m>tyrdom = ! tru?'s sake4 ,a bread-%op 9 de$ x 03 & ! old ,*ri/ian1 ^: f]v5t appeal _h giv5 rise to its e/abli%m5t1 himself prea*$ !re 9 ,iri% to a delight$ congregation1 be=e ! ,"l took him to himself4 99 99 99 ,,lett] ,,xiii4 ,a ,,sunset4 ,i come n[ to ! p]iod ( my deliv]+ up a sacr$ tru/ into ! h&s ( ,him :o committ$ x to me4 ,jack _h l+]$ long1 & sunk v gradually2 b n[ he fad$ apace4 ,8 elde/ si/]1 a v decid$ ,romani/1 came ov] = ! purpose ( see+ him1 & to take c>e t he _h ! rites ( ! *ur*4 ,_h ! abb rema9$1 x is probable we %\ld h soon f\nd ourselves deep 9 controv]sy2 =1 z prie/1 he nev] %\ld h cross$ my ?re%old1 to br+ ^u my h\se ! curse atta*$ to idolatr\s wor%ip3 & !re 0 happily no o!r )9 rea*4 ,jack reque/$ me to promise him 9 8 si/]'s pres5ce t no ,romi% prie/ %\ld come ne> him3 ,i will+ly did s2 & moreov] in=m$ h] t if %e 0 h]self dy+ & ask$ = "o1 he w\ld n be admitt$ "u my ro(4 ,! abom9ation t make? desolate /&s 9 _m places :]e x ought n1 b :]e ,i h au?ority x nev] did1 nor by ,god's grace ev] %all4 ,i h tol]ation full & free = e =m ( ,*ri/ianity1 b none = anti*ri/1 come 9 :at =m he may4 ,x may be possible to describe a glori\s summ] sunset1 ) all ! s(t5+ spl5dor t x %$s ar\nd2 b to describe ! sett+ ( my dumb boy's sun ( mortal life is impossible4 ,he decl9$ l ! orb ( day1 g5tly1 sil5tly1 gradually1 yet swiftly1 & ga!r$ new beauties z he approa*$ ! horizon4 ,8 suff]+s 7 great1 b f> great] 8 pati5ce2 & no?+ resembl+ a compla9t ev] escap$ him4 ,:5 appe>+ 9 ! morn+1 ) pallid1 exhau/$ looks1 if ask$ :e!r he _h slept1 he w\ld reply1 ) a sweet smile1 ,no1 ,jack no sleep2 ,jack ?9k good ,jesus ,*ri/ see poor ,jack4 ,night d>k2 heav5 all light2 soon see heav54 ,c\gh mu* n[1 pa9 bad2 soon no c\gh1 no pa94 ,?is 0 8 usual way ( admitt+ h[ mu* he suff]$1 always plac+ 9 contra/ ! glory to be reveal$ 9 him1 & :i*1 seem$ already reveal$ to him4 ,kn[+ t 8 recov]y 0 impossible1 ,i refra9$1 ) 8 full concurr5ce1 f hav+ him torm5t$ ) miscall$ alleviations1 su* z opiates1 bloodlett+1 & s =?4 ,all t k9dness & skill c\ld effect 0 gratuit\sly done = him1 & e ?+ freely suppli$ by our m$ical fri5ds2 b !y admitt$ t no p]man5t relief c\ld be giv51 & ,i always hold x cruel to imbitt] ! dy+ season ) applications t 9 ! end increase ! suff]+s !y tempor>ily subdue4 ,?is plan kept ! boy's m9d cle> & calm2 ! ev]-pres5t ,savi\r be+ to him in/ead ( all soo?+ drugs4 ,sometimes :5 greatly oppress$1 he has _h lee*es2 & ,i rememb] once half a doz5 7 put on 8 side1 at 8 own reque/4 ,! inflammation 0 v great2 ! torture dreadful z !y drew x to ! surface2 & ,i 0 call$ to him1 z he sat grasp+ ! arm ( a *air1 & wri?+ convulsively4 ,he said to me1 ,v1 v pa92 pa9 bad1 soon kill2 & he seem$ half wild ) agony4 ,look+ up 9 my face1 he saw me 9 te>s2 & in/antly assum$ 8 sweete/ expression ( c\nt5ance1 say+ 9 a calm1 leisurely way1 t 8 pa9 0 mu*1 b ! pa9 ! ,"l suff]$ mu* m3 8 0 only 9 8 side2 ! ,"l suff]$ 9 8 side1 8 h&s1 8 feet1 & head4 ,8 pa9 w\ld be ov] 9 half an h\r1 ! ,"l's la/$ _m h\rs2 he 0 bad ,jack1 ! ,"l 0 good ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,!n aga9 he obs]v$ ! lee*es made v little holes 9 8 sk91 & drew out a little blood2 b ! ?orns1 ! nails1 ! spe>1 tore ! ,"l's fle%1 & all 8 blood gu%$ out--x 0 %$ to save him2 & he rais$ 8 eyes1 lift$ 8 clasp$ h&s1 turn$ 8 :ole face up t[>ds heav51 say+1 ,jack loves1 loves1 v loves good ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,:5 ano!r viol5t pang made him />t & wri! a little1 he recov]$ 9 a mom5t1 nodd$ 8 head1 & said1 ,good pa91 make ,jack soon g heav54 ,8 sublime idea ( ! r$ h& 0 ev] pres5t4 ,he _h told me "s ye>s be=e1 t :5 he _h la9 a good :ile 9 ! grave1 ,god w\ld call al\d1 ,jack6 & he w\ld />t1 & say1 ,yes1 me ,jack4 ,!n he w\ld rise1 & see multitudes /&+ toge!r1 & ,god sitt+ on a cl\d ) a v l>ge book 9 8 h&--he call$ x ,bible book--& w\ld beckon him to /& be=e him :ile he op5$ ! book1 & look$ at ! top ( ! pages1 till he came to ! "n ( ,john ,b----4 ,9 t page he told me1 ,god _h writt5 all 8 bads1 e s9 he _h ev] done3 & ! page 0 full4 ,s ,god w\ld look1 & /rive to read x1 & hold x to ! sun = light1 b x 0 all no1 no no?+1 none4 ,i ask$ him 9 "s al>m if he _h done no bad4 ,he said yes1 mu* bads2 b :5 he fir/ pray$ to ,jesus ,*ri/ he _h tak5 ! book out ( ,god's h&1 f\nd t page1 & pull+ f 8 palm some?+ :i* he describ$ z fill+ up ! hole made by ! nail1 _h all[$ ! w\nd to ble$ a little1 pass+ 8 h& d[n ! page s t1 z he beautifully said1 ,god c\ld see none ( ,jack's bads1 only ,jesus ,*ri/'s blood4 ,no?+ be+ ?us f\nd aga9/ him1 ,god w\ld %ut ! book1 & !re he w\ld rema9 /&+ be=e him1 till ! ,"l ,jesus came1 & say+ to ,god1 ,my ,jack1 w\ld put 8 arm ar\nd him1 draw him aside1 & bid him /& ) ! angels till ! re/ 7 judg$4 ,all ?is he told me ) ! placid b animat$ look ( "o :o is relat+ a delightful fact3 ,i /ood amaz$1 = r>ely _h ! plan ( a s9n]'s ransom1 appropriation1 & ju/ification1 be5 s p]spicu\sly set =? 9 a pulpit1 z "h x 0 by a poor deaf & dumb peasant boy1 ^: brok5 language 0 ek$ out by signs4 ,he (t5 told x to o!rs1 always mak+ himself und]/ood1 & (t5 h ,i se5 ! te>s />t+ f a r\gh man's eye z he foll[$ ! gl[+ repres5tation4 ,jack us$ to sit sil5t & ?\ghtful = a long "t toge!r 9 8 easy-*air1 :5 too weak to move ab\t1 & !n cat*+ my eye1 to say ) a look ( inf9ite satisfaction1 ,good r$ h&4 ,i am p]suad$ t x 0 8 sole & solid support2 he nev] d\bt$1 nev] fe>$1 because 8 view ( ,*ri/'s all-suffici5cy 0 s exce$+ly cle> & realiz+4 ,x c]ta9ly nev] ent]$ 8 head to "q ,god's love to him4 ,"o night a s]vant w5t to 8 room1 long aft] he _h gone to b$3 he 0 on 8 knees at ! w9d[1 8 h&s & face held up t[>ds a beautiful />light sky4 ,he did n p]ceive ! s]vant's entrance3 & next morn+ :5 ,i ask$ him ab\t x1 he told me t ,god 0 walk+ above1 ^u ! />s2 & t he w5t to ! w9d[ & held up 8 head t ,god might look d[n into x & see h[ v mu* he lov$ ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,all 8 ideas 7 simil>--all turn$ on ! "o !me s de> to him2 & _! orig9ality 0 inexhau/ible4 ,:at c\ld be f9] ?an 8 notion ( ! lightn+1 t x 0 produc$ by a sudd5 op5+ & %utt+ ( ,god's eye--or ( ! ra9b[1 t x 0 ! reflection ( ,god's smile8 ,:at m graphic ?an 8 repres5tation ( ,satan's malice & impot5ce1 :51 "o ev5+1 hold+ 8 f+] to a c&le1 he snat*$ x back1 z if burnt1 pret5d+ to be 9 great pa91 & said1 ,devil l c&le4 ,!n ) a sudd5 look ( triumph he add$1 ,god l w9d1 & ) a mo/ vehem5t puff at once ext+ui%$ ! light4 ,:5 x 0 rek9dl$ he laugh$ & said1 ,god kill devil4 ,he told me t ,god 0 always sitt+ /ill ) ! great book 9 8 h&1 & ! ,"l ,jesus look+ d[n = m51 & cry+ to !m1 ,come1 man2 come1 pray4 ,t ! devil drew !m back f li/5+1 & p]suad$ !m to spit up t[>ds him1 :i* 0 8 sign = rebellion & contempt2 b if at la/ a man snat*$ 8 h& f ,satan1 & pray$ to ! ,"l ,jesus1 he w5t directly1 took ! book1 f\nd ! "n1 & pass$ ! r$ h& ov] ! page2 on see+ :i* ,satan w\ld /amp & cry4 ,he gave v grotesque descriptions ( ! evil _s's mortification1 & always end$ by be/[+ on him a he>ty kick4 ,f see+ ! effect1 9 po9t ( wat*fulness1 pray]1 & zeal1 produc$ on ?is "y ,*ri/ian by su* cont9ual realization ( ! pres5ce ( ! great tempt]1 ,i h be5 l$ to "q v mu* ! policy1 n to say ! lawfulness1 ( exclud+ t t]rible foe z we d f our g5]al disc\rse4 ,x seems to be reg>d$ a manife/ impropriety to "n him1 except ) ! mo/ /udi$ circumlocution1 z ?\gh we 7 afraid ( treat+ him irrev]5tly2 & he :o is seldom nam$ w n (t5 be ?\ght (4 ,assur$ly x is a great help to him 9 8 c\ntless devices to be s kept out ( sight4 ,we are prone to speak1 to ?9k1 to act1 z ?\gh we _h only our own evil natures to cont5d )1 includ+ p]haps a sort ( g5]al admission t some?+ is at "w to aid ! cause ( rebellion2 b x 0 f> o!rwise ) ,jack4 ,if only consci\s ( ! inw>d ris+ ( a sull5 or angry temp]1 he w\ld imm$iately conclude t ! devil 0 try+ to make him grieve ! ,"l2 & he knelt d[n to pray t ,god w\ld drive him away4 ,! sight ( a drunk5 man affect$ him deeply3 he w\ld rem>k t ! devil _h drawn t man to ! ale- h\se1 put ! cup into 8 h& ) an assurance t ,god did n see1 or did n c>e2 & 0 n[ pu%+ him ab\t to %[ ! angels he _h made t wret*$ be+ spit at ! au?ority ( ! ,"l4 ,9 l mann] ) all o!r vices1 & "s seem+ virtues4 ,z an in/ance ( ! latt]1 he knew a p]son :o 0 v ho/ile to ! gospel1 & to ! be/ ( 8 p[] h9d]$ x1 b :o nev]!less paid ! mo/ punctual reg>d to all ! =malities ( ext]nal public wor%ip4 ,he almo/ fright5$ me by ! picture he drew ( t p]son's case1 say+ ! devil walk$ to *ur* ) him1 l$ him into a pew1 set a hassock prom95tly =w>d = him to kneel on1 put a h&some pray]- book into 8 h&2 & :ile he c>efully foll[$ all ! s]vice kept clapp+ him on ! %\ld]1 say+1 ,a v good pray4 ,i told ?is to a pi\s m9i/]1 :o decl>$ x 0 ! mo/ awfully j description ( self-delud+ =mality1 help$ on by ,satan1 t ev] he he>d (4 ,:5 p>tak+ ( ! ,"l's supp]1 ,jack told me t 8 feel+ 0 v1 v love ,jesus ,*ri/2 v1 v1 v hate devil3 g1 devil6 & ) holy indignation he motion$1 z x 71 ! enemy f him4 ,he felt t he _h ov]come ! accus] by ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ,oh t we all may take a lesson ( wisdom f ?is simple *ild ( ,god4 ,dur+ ! w9t] mon?s he sunk daily3 8 greate/ e>?ly delight 0 9 occasionally see+ ,mr4 ,donald1 = :om he felt ! fonde/ love1 & :o seem$ to h a pres5tim5t ( ! happy union 9 :i* !y w\ld toge!r soon rejoice be=e ! ,"l4 ,jack 0 c\rte\s 9 mann]1 ev5 to elegance2 mo/ graceful2 & be+ n[ n9ete51 tall & l>ge1 ) ! expression ( infant9e innoc5ce & sweetness on a v f9e c\nt5ance1 no "o c\ld look on him )\t admiration1 nor treat him ) r\ghness or disrespect3 b ,donald's t5d]ness ( mann] 0 no less conspicu\s ?an 82 & ,i h wat*$ t noble- m9d$ ,*ri/ian man wait+ on ! dy+ y\?1 z he sat pati5tly recl9+ 9 8 *air--= he c\ld n lie d[n--& ! grateful humility ) :i* e little k9dness 0 receiv$1 until ,i almo/ =got :at ! rude unfeel+ _w 0 9 t beautiful contemplation4 ,h[ mu* ! fruit 9 ,god's g>d5 is beautifi$ by ! process t rip5s x4 ,jack labor$ anxi\sly to conv]t 8 si/]2 & z %e c\ld n read at all1 ! :ole controv]sy 0 c>ri$ on by signs4 ,m>y 0 excessively mir?ful1 ,jack unb\nd$ly e>ne/2 & :5 h] playful reproa*es r\s$ 8 ,iri% blood1 ! sc5e 0 (t5 v comic4 ,i rememb] he 0 once br++ a long li/ ( accusations aga9/ h] prie/1 = tak+ 8 "m's money1 mak+ ! poor fa/ :ile ! ri* paid = disp5sations to eat1 inflict+ cruel p5ances1 dr9k+ too mu* :iskey1 & f9ally tell+ ! p to wor%ip wood5 & bread5 gods4 ,to all ?is ,m>y att5d$ ) p]fect good-humor1 & !n told him ! same prie/ _h *ri/5$ him & made crosses ^u him4 ,jack wra?fully intimat$ t he 0 !n a baby1 ) a head l a doll's1 & knew no?+2 b if he _h be5 wise he w\ld h kick$ 8 little foot into ! prie/'s m\?4 ,! controv]sy grew s w>m t ,i _h to "p !m4 ,8 horror ( ! prie/s 0 solely direct$ aga9/ _! false religion2 :5 ,i told him ( "o be+ conv]t$1 he leap$ ab\t = joy4 ,at ! comm5cem5t ( ! ye> #ahca he 0 evid5tly dy+2 & we got a furl\gh = 8 bro!r to visit him4 ,poor ,pat nev] w5t to b$ b twice dur+ ! =tnight he 0 !re1 s bitt]ly did he grieve ov] ! companion ( 8 e>ly days2 & _m a sweet disc\rse pass$ betwe5 !m on ! subject ( ! bless$ hope t su/a9$ ! dy+ ,*ri/ian4 ,he only surviv$ ,pat's dep>ture f\r days4 ,on ! ?ird ( ,febru>y ! la/ symptoms came on2 ! dea?-damps began to ooze out1 8 legs 7 swell$ to ! size ( 8 body1 & he sat 9 t /ate1 incapable ( receiv+ w>m?1 sc>cely able to swall[1 yet cle>1 bright1 & tranquil1 = ?irty h\rs4 ,! morn+ ( ! la/ day 0 m>k$ by su* a revival ( /r5g? t he walk$ across ! room ) little help1 & talk$ incessantly to me1 & to all :o came ne> him4 ,he told me1 among o!r ?+s1 t once ,god de/roy$ all m5 by ra91 except ^? 9 ! ark2 & t he w\ld soon d x aga91 n ) wat] b ) fire4 ,he describ$ ! ,"l z tak+ up ! wick$ by h&fuls1 break+ !m1 & ?r[+ !m into a fire2 repeat+1 ,all bads1 all bads g fire4 ,i ask$ if he 0 n bad2 ,yes1 ,jack bad v4 ,w\ld he be ?r[n into ! fire8 ,no2 ,jesus ,*ri/ loves poor ,jack4 ,he !n spoke raptur\sly ( ! r$ h&1 ( ! angels he %\ld soon be s++ )1 ( ! day :5 ,satan %\ld be ca/ into ! pit1 & ( ! delight he %\ld h 9 see+ me aga94 ,he pray$ = 8 family1 begg$ me to tea* ,m>y to read ! ,bible1 to w>n ,pat aga9/ bad example1 to br+ up my bro!r's boys to love ,jesus ,*ri/1 & la/ly he repeat$ ov] & ov] aga9 ! f]v5t injunction to love ,irel&1 to pray = ,irel&1 to write books = ,jack's poor ,irel&1 & 9 e way to oppose ,pop]y4 ,he call$ x ,roman1 always2 & x 0 a /rik+ sight1 t y\? all b dead1 k9dl+ into ! mo/ animat$1 /]n1 en]getic w>m? ( mann]1 rais+ 8 cold1 damp h&s1 & spell+ ) !m ! words1 ,roman is a lie4 ,"o ,jesus ,*ri/1 "o1 mean+ he 0 ! only ,savi\r2 ,jack's "o ,jesus ,*ri/2 & !n ) a =ce z if he w\ld h ! *>act]s impress$ on 8 h&s1 he reit]at$1 z sl[ly z possible1 8 dy+ prote/1 ,roman is ,a ,,lie6 ,v sweetly he ?ank$ me = all my c>e2 & n[ he seem$ to bequea? to me 8 zeal aga9/ ! de/roy] ( 8 p4 ,! la/ signs ( removal came on 9 ! ev5+2 8 sight fail$1 he rubb$ 8 eyes1 %ook 8 head1 & !n smil$ ) consci\s pleasure4 ,at la/ he ask$ me to let him lie d[n on ! s(a :]e he _h be5 sitt+1 & say+ v calmly1 ,a sleep1 put 8 h& into m9e1 clos$ 8 eyes1 & brea!d 8 _s =? s g5tly1 t x 0 difficult to m>k ! precise mom5t ( t joyful *ange4 ,i /ill hope to ?r[ into a volume ! num]\s p>ticul>s t rema9 untold conc]n+ ?is boy2 & ,i w n n[ dwell ^u ! subject long]4 ,god _h graci\sly kept me fai?ful to my tru/2 & ,i surr5d]$ x1 n )\t mo/ ke5ly feel+ ! loss ( su* a companion1 b ) a gl[ ( ador+ ?ankfulness t ov]came all selfi% regrets4 ,!nce=? my lot 0 to be ca/ among /rang]s1 & sorely did ,i miss ! com=t+1 sympa?iz+ monitor :o = sev5 ye>s _h be5 tea*+ me m ?an ,i c\ld tea* him2 b all my pray]s _h be5 answ]$1 all my labors cr[n$2 & ) o!r duties be=e me ,i 0 enabl$ to look at ! pa/1 to ?ank ,god1 & to take c\rage4 ,,lett] ,,xiv4 ,a ,,removal4 ,circum/ances l$ me to decide on remov+ ne>] ! metropolis2 & ) reluctance ,i bade adieu to ,s&hur/1 :]e ,i _h resid$ five ye>s4 ,jack 0 buri$ "u ! ea/ w9d[ ( ! ,*apel ( ,ease at ,bag%ot1 !re to re/ till r\s$ by ! ,"l's desc5d+ %\t1 ! voice ( ! ar*angel1 & ! trump ( ,god4 ,i am v c]ta9 he w rise to glory & immortality4 ,x 0 a sev]e trial to "p ) my s*ool1 to dispose ( ! ende>$ relics t _h furni%$ a home bless$ by my bro!r's pres5ce1 to bid f>ewell to _m k9d fri5ds1 & ca/ myself into ! great wild]ness ( ,london4 ,! feel+ t oppress$ me 0 a conviction t ,i %\ld !re f9d no?+ to d2 b ,i pray$ to be made useful1 & none ev] ask$ "w ( a heav5ly ,ma/] 9 va94 ,! dreadful fam9e 9 ! we/ ( ,irel& _h call$ =? a /ream ( ,engli% lib]ality1 & collections 7 made ev]y:]e = relief ( ! suff]+ ,iri%3 "o 0 ann\nc$ at ,long- ,acre *apel2 b be=e ! day arriv$1 ! committee put =? a /atem5t t !y _h abundant funds & requir$ no m4 ,i 0 !n resid+ 9 ,bloomsbury1 daily witness+ ! wret*$ness ( ,/4 ,giles's3 & on le>n+ ?is ,i wrote to ,mr4 ,h[els1 begg+ him to say a ^w to 8 congregation on behalf ( ^? ,iri% :o 7 />v+ at _! doors1 ^: mis]able de/itution ,i laid be=e him z well z ,i c\ld4 ,he return$ me no answ]2 b on ! ,sunday morn+ read my lett] f ! pulpit1 ask$ 8 flock to contribute1 & collect$ upw>ds ( fifty p\nds1 :i* he gave to me4 ,kn[+ ! "* ( ! p s well1 & long+ to make ! relief ( _! bodily wants subs]vi5t to a high] purpose1 ,i resolv$ to visit 9 p]son e case recomm5d$ to my notice4 ,_m ( my fri5ds /ood agha/ at ! proposal3 ,i %\ld be insult$1 murd]$1 by ! ,iri% savages2 no lady c\ld v5ture !re1 _! language 0 s dreadful3 no delicate p]son c\ld survive ! effects ( su* a noxi\s atmosph]e4 ,to ?is ,i repli$ t1 happily1 ,i c\ld n he> _! conv]sation2 & z = ! un:olesom5ess1 x c\ld n be worse ?an ,si]ra ,leone1 or o!r mission>y /ations1 :]e _m ladies w5t4 ,insult _h nev] yet be5 my lot among ! ,iri%2 & z to murd]1 x w\ld be m>tyrdom 9 su* a cause1 ( :i* ,i _h little hope4 ,s ,i turn$ my fifty p\nds into bread1 rice1 milk1 meal1 coals1 & s\p1 resolv$ to give no money1 & on ! v next day comm5c$ ! campaign aga9/ />vation & ,pop]y 9 ,/4 ,giles's4 ,= f\r mon?s ,i p]sev]$ 9 ! "w1 devot+ f f\r to six h\rs e day to x2 & ?\gh ,i nev] 9 ! smalle/ degree conceal$ or compromis$ ! tru?1 or fail$ to place 9 ! /ronge/ light its contra/ ) ! falsehoods taught !m1 ,i nev] exp]i5c$ a disrespectful or unk9d look f "o among ! hundr$s1 ! ?\s&s :o knew me z ! enemy ( _! religion1 b ! lov+ fri5d ( _! c\ntry & ( _! s\ls4 ,(t51 :5 ,i w5t to visit & relieve "s poor dy+ creature 9 a cell> or g>ret1 :]e a doz5 :olly unconnect$ ) ! suff]] 7 lodg$ 9 ! same ap>tm5t1 h ,i ga!r$ !m all ab\t me by speak+ ( ,irel& ) ! affection ,i really feel = x1 & !n %[n !m1 f ! ,scriptures1 9 ,engli%1 or by means ( an ,iri% read] sometimes accompany+ me1 ! only way ( salvation1 po9t+ out h[ v diff]5t 0 t by :i* !y va9ly s\ght x4 ,my plan 0 to discov] su* z 7 too ill to g to ! disp5s>y = relief1 or to select ! mo/ di/ress$ objects :om ,i met !re1 & to take ! bread ( life along ) ! bread t p]i%e? into _! wret*$ abodes4 ,i 0 mo/ ably & zeal\sly help$ by t b5evol5t physician :o _h always be5 =emo/ 9 e good & compassionate "w = ! ,iri% poor2 & to ^: indefatigable zeal x is *iefly ow+ t at ?is day ! poor lambs ( t di/ress$ flock are /ill ga!r$ & taught 9 ! s*ools :i* x 0 ,donald's supreme delight to sup]9t5d4 ,i _c pass ov] 9 sil5ce ! devotion ( ,dr4 ,pidduck1 ?r\gh _m ye>s1 to an (fice ! mo/ labori\s1 ! mo/ repulsive1 & 9 _m respects ! mo/ ?ankless t a pr(essional man c be engag$ 9--t ( m9i/]+ to ! diseas$ & fil?y population ( ! di/rict4 ,b _m a s\l t he has taught 9 ! k ( ,him :om to "k is life et]nal1 w be f\nd to rejoice him 9 ! day :5 _! poor bodies %all arise to meet ! ,"l4 ,! s*ools 9 ,george-/reet1 to :i* ,i h allud$1 are ! ma9 bless+ ( ! place3 !y 7 e/abli%$ long be=e ! gospel 9 ,iri% 0 ev] introduc$ !re2 & !y survive ! ,iri% m9i/ry :i*1 alas1 has be5 )drawn f ! spot :]e ,god enabl$ me to plant x4 ,^? s*ools are a bud ( promise 9 ! desolate wild]ness1 :i* may ! ,"l 9 8 own good "t cause to blossom aga94 99 99 99 ,dur+ a soj\rn ( "s ye>s a little to ! nor? ( ,london1 ,i devot$ myself m to ! p51 & f\nd less opportunity = o!r usefulness ?an 9 ,s&hur/ & ,london2 yet mu* enc\ragem5t 0 giv5 to labor among ! poor neglect$ ,iri%1 :o may be f\nd 9 e neighborhood1 & to :om few ?9k ( tak+ ! gospel 9 _! native tongue--/ill few] ( be>+ ) ! desp]ate opposition t ,satan w ev] %[ to ! "w4 ,we make ! deplorable /ate1 morally & physically1 ( ! ,iri% poor1 an excuse fir/ = n go+ among !m at all1 & !n = rel9qui%+ ! "w if we d v5ture to beg9 x4 ,9 bo? cases x ought to plead = t5fold read9ess & p]sev]ance4 ,i always f\nd x a p]il\s task to attack ! enemy 9 ?is /rong-hold3 n f any opposition enc\nt]$ f ! p !mselves2 f> o!rwise2 !y ev] receiv$ me gladly1 & treat$ me ) respect & grateful affection2 b ,satan has _m ways ( assail+ ^? :om he desires to h9d]1 & sometimes 8 *a9 is greatly l5g!n$ = ! trial ( fai?1 & p]fect+ ( humility & pati5ce1 :]e !y may be sadly lack+4 ,!re are sph]es ( und5iable duty :]e ! ,*ri/ian may (t5 almo/1 if n altoge!r1 take up ! apo/le's decl>ation1 & say1 ,no man /ood by me4 ,?is1 to ! full ext5t1 has nev] yet be5 my exp]i5ce2 b ,i h (t5 f\nd _m aga9/ me1 bo? )\t & )91 :5 e>ne/ly b5t on deal+ a bl[ at ! great anti*ri/4 ,x is no good sign :5 all goes on too smoo?ly4 ,9 #ahcd ,i 0 induc$ to und]take :at seem$ an ardu\s & al>m+ (fice1 t ( edit+ a p]iodical4 ,i comm5c$ x 9 mu* pray]1 ) no little trembl+1 & actuat$ by motives n selfi%4 ,t x 0 n laid d[n at ! end ( ! second ye>1 0 ow+ to ! great bless+ j !n giv5 to my appeals on behalf ( ! cruelly oppress$ & impov]i%$ ,iri% cl]gy ?r\gh its means3 & recomm5c+1 at ! beg9n+ ( ! ?ird ye>1 ) an ard5t desire to promote m ?an ev] ! sacr$ cause ( ,prote/antism1 ,i f\nd ! ,"l prosp]+ ! "w beyond my be/ hopes2 & by 8 help ,i cont9ue x to ?is day4 99 99 99 ,x 0 my bless$ privilege1 f\r ye>s s9ce1 to abridge into two mod]ate siz$ volumes ! ,engli% ,m>tyrology1 z record$ by ,foxe4 ,9 ! progress ( ?is "w ,i became bett] acqua9t$ ) ! true doctr9es ( ! ,re=mation ?an ev] be=e3 ,i comp>$ !m1 z ,i am wont to d e ?+1 ) :at ,god has reveal$2 & ,i am satisfi$ t !y are p]fectly accordant ) ,scripture3 if !y 7 n s1 ,i w\ld reject !m4 ,by ! same /&>d let u prove all ?+s1 t we may hold fa/ t :i* is good4 ,i h n p>ticul>iz$ ! trial ( my scriptural pr9ciples :5 expos$ = a %ort "t to ! p]nici\s doctr9es ( a subtle & p]suasive ,ant9omian tea*]4 ,at fir/ he only appe>$ to me to insi/ v /r5u\sly on ! doctr9e ( free1 sov]eign grace2 & greatly to magnify ,god 9 ! sav+ ( s\ls1 :olly indep5d5t ( aught t man c d3 b a little fur!r inve/igation conv9c$ me t ! vile/ sy/em ( moral lic5ti\sness might be built on su* a f\ndation z he laid2 & ,i f\nd ! disc\rses ( ,pet] & ( ,paul1 z record$ 9 ! ,acts1 especially conclusive aga9/ 8 p]v]t$ notions4 ,ant9omianism is a mo/ deadly ?+2 & ,i believe all extremes 9 doctr9es :]e good m5 h mu* diff]$ to be dang]\s2 :ile at ! same "t !y are v delud+1 = we all love to g f> 9 an argum5t1 or "u ! influ5ce ( p>ty _s4 99 99 99 ,( myself1 ,i h n[ no m to say ?an t1 by ! help ( my ,god1 ,i cont9ue to ?is day anxi\sly desir\s to devote my little tal5t to 8 s]vice1 z he may graci\sly p]mit4 ,i h covet$ no man's silv]1 or gold1 or app>el1 b c\nt$ x a privilege to labor ) my h&s & head1 = myself & = ^? mo/ de> to me4 ,_m trials1 v>i\s & %>p1 h be5 my portion2 b !y are pass$ away1 & if ,i h n enl>g$ ^u !m x is f no reluctance to decl>e all ! ,"l's wond]ful do+s1 b f a desire to avoid speak+ h>%ly ( ^? :o are dep>t$4 ,! ,"l has accept$ at my h& "o (f]+1 9 ! case ( ! preci\s dumb boy1 receiv$ into glory ?r\gh 8 ri* bless+ on my ef=ts2 & he m]cifully gives me to see ! welf>e ( two o!rs1 committ$ to me z ! (fspr+ ( my bro!r1 ov] ^: e>ly ye>s ,i h be5 p]mitt$ to wat*1 & 9 ^: gr[+ prosp]ity my he>t c rejoice4 ,he has be5 a v graci\s ,ma/] to me2 he has dealt v b\ntifully1 & giv5 me n[ ! abundance ( dome/ic peace1 ) ! light ( 8 c\nt5ance to gladd5 my happy home4 ,yet ! brighte/ beam t falls ^u x is ! anticipation ( t bur/ ( glory :5 ! ,"l ,jesus %all be reveal$ f heav51 to reign 9 righte\sness ov] ! _w t %all soon1 v soon1 ackn[l$ge him ! univ]sal1 et]nal ,k+3 & ! mo/ f]v5t aspiration my he>t desires to utt] is ! response to 8 promise ( a spe$y adv5t4 ,ev5 s1 ,"l ,jesus2 come quickly4 ,am54 99 99 99 99 99 ,,note4 ,*>lotte ,elizabe? 0 born 9 ,octob]1 #agij1 & wrote ! ,p]sonal ,recollections ne> ! close ( #ahdj1 :5 fifty ye>s ( age4 ,%e cont9u$ h] active ,*ri/ian b5efic5ce1 & ! brilliant & unceas+ labors ( h] p51 9 edit+ ! ,prote/ant ,magaz9e1 & o!r writ+ = ! press1 until ! v close ( life4 ,imm$iately aft] breakfa/1 says a brief sket* ( h] rema9+ ye>s1 %e w5t to h] desk1 lock+ ! door to exclude int]ruptions2 & :5 h] p5 0 laid aside1 h] g>d5 af=d$ ev] new delight2 & ) h]1 g>d5+ 0 no light occupation4 ,%e smil$ at lady g>d5]s :o only enjoy$ ! labors ( o!rs4 ,f ! mom5t ! gravel-walks & b$s 7 =m$1 all 0 ! "w ( h] own h&s2 & ! mo/ labori\s op]ations 7 to h] refre%m5t & enjoym5t4 ,ea* plant1 ea* b$ 0 famili> to h]4 ,%e knew _! hi/ory1 _! vicissitudes1 & ! gr[? & expansion ( ea* became a s\rce ( lively & nev]-fail+ int]e/4 ,! emotions produc$ 9 h] m9d by ! brilliant t9ts ( fl[]s1 c only be comp>$ to ^? ( music to o!rs1 & ?is love ( color 0 regulat$ by ! mo/ delicate s5se ( h>mony 9 _! disposition & arrangem5t4 ,! writ] we>s at ?is mom5t a small diamond r+1 :i* %e kept 9 h] desk1 & w\ld place on h] f+] only :5 engag$ 9 writ+2 ! occasional fla%+ ( ! brilliants z ! light fell ^u !m1 produc+ mo/ pleasurable s5sations 9 h] m9d1 & greatly assi/+ ! fl[ ( h] ?\ghts & imag9ation4 ,h] c\nt5ance1 at su* mom5ts1 w\ld light up ) animation1 & if an inquir+ glance 7 turn$ to h]1 %e w\ld smile1 & add1 ',oh1 x 0 only ! diamonds4' ,(t5 w\ld %e lay d[n h] p5 9 ! mid/ ( "s "w requir+ ! :ole en]gy ( h] m9d1 & mu* conc5tration ( ?\ght1 & g to h] g>d5 = half an h\r2 & :ile app>5tly :olly absorb$ 9 prun+ or transplant+1 %e 0 really engag$ 9 h] "w2 & ! app>5t loss ( "t 0 amply repaid by ! rapidity ) :i* %e wrote out ! ideas conceiv$ & matur$ dur+ ?is heal?ful recreation4 ,a ^w1 h[ev]1 spok5 to h] at su* times1 w\ld h caus$ a mo/ pa9ful int]ruption 9 ! curr5t ( h] ?\ghts--%e comp>$ ! effect to a /one ?r[n into a quiet runn+ brook--& w\ld utt]ly disable h] f writ+ dur+ ! re/ ( ! day1 a circum/ance n easy to impress on ! m9ds ( s]vants4 ,ev5 ^? :o w\ld mo/ c>efully refra9 f address+ h] :5 !y knew %e 0 actually writ+1 c\ld h>dly und]/& t l c>e 0 ne$ful :5 %e 0 ?us employ$ ov] h] fl[]s4 ,all communication 0 held ) h] by means ( ! f+] alphabet1 b s quick 0 h] appreciation ( :at 0 ?us said1 & s easy 0 x = ^? ab\t h] to acquire great rapidity 9 ?is art1 t h] total deafness 0 h>dly felt to be an inconv5i5ce2 s]mons1 spee*es1 conv]sations ev5 ( ! mo/ voluble speak]s1 7 convey$ to h] ) ! greate/ ease1 & ) h>dly ! omission ( ! smalle/ ^w4 ,9 #ahda %e m>ri$ ,mr4 ,l4,h4,j4 ,tonna1 :o held an (fice 9 ,london "u ! ,briti% gov]nm5t1 & :o prep>$ ! sket* f :i* ! above passage is quot$4 ,hav+ 9 #ahcf remov$ f ,edmonton1 7page #bdb17 %e resid$ at ,blackhea? till #ahde1 :5 %e remov$ to ,london4 ,ab\t ! end ( #ahdd1 %e f\nd t a small swell+ ne> h] left %\ld] 0 inde$ a canc]1 :i* w\ld d\btless t]m9ate life2 b %e cont9u$ h] lit]>y labors till a v>y %ort "t be=e h] dea?1 :i* 0 "o ( peace & humble tru/ 9 h] ,r$eem]1 & occurr$ at ,ramsgate on ! sea-side4 ,! foll[+ epitaph1 dictat$ by h]self1 is inscrib$ on h] tomb/one3 ,,"h ,,lie ,,! ,,mortal ,,rema9s ,,( ,,*>lotte ,,elizabe?1 ,,! ,,belov$ ,,wife ,,( ,,lewis ,,hypolytus ,,joseph ,,tonna1 ,,:o ,,di$ ,,on ,,! #ab,,? ,,( ,,july1 ,,mdcccxlvi1 ,,look+ ,,unto ,,jesus4