,,w> ,,lett]s ,,f ,,! ,,liv+ ,,dead ,,man ,,by ,,elsa ,,b>k] ,,! ,,son ,,( ,,m>y ,,be!l ,,! ,,froz5 ,,grail ,,! ,,book ,,( ,,love ,,! ,,song ,,( ,,savitri ,,/ories ,,( ,,! ,,new ,,te/am5t ,,= ,,*ildr5 ,,! ,,scab ,,lett]s ,,f ,a ,,liv+ ,,dead ,,man ,,w> ,,lett]s ,,f ,,! ,,liv+ ,,dead ,,man ,,w> ,,lett]s ,,f ,,! ,,liv+ ,,dead ,,man ,,writt5 ,,d[n ,,by ,,elsa ,,b>k] ,,) ,,an ,,introduction ,,new ,,york ,,mit*ell ,,k5n]ley #aiae ,,copyright1 #aiae1 ,,by ,,mit*ell ,,k5n]ley ,,cont5ts ,,lett] ,,page ,i4 ,,! ,,return ,,( 8,x0 #ag ,,ii4 ,a ,,dwell] ,,on ,,! ,,?re%old #bb ,,iii4 ,,an ,,assurance #bg ,,iv4 ,,! ,,way ,,( ,,und]/&+ #bh ,v4 ,,a/ral ,,mon/]s #cb ,,vi4 ,,! ,,ar*duke #ch ,,vii4 ,,! 8,,*os5 ,,p0 #dc ,,viii4 ,,spectres ,,( ,,! ,,congo #di ,,ix4 ,,unse5 ,,gu>dians #ed ,x4 ,,"o ,,day ,,z ,a ,,?\s& ,,ye>s #fj ,,xi4 ,,_m ,,tongues #ff ,,xii4 ,,! ,,beautiful ,,be+ #fg ,,xiii4 ,,! ,,body ,,( ,,humanity #ga ,,xiv4 ,,! ,,foeman ,,)9 #gf ,,xv4 ,,li/5+ ,,9 ,,brussels #hb ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,six? ,,race #hh ,,xvii4 ,,an ,,am]ican ,,on ,,gu>d #ie ,,xviii4 ,a ,,ma/] ,,( ,,compassion #ajj ,,xix4 ,,! ,,rose-,,veil$ ,,/rang] #ajh ,,xx4 ,,above ,,! ,,battlefields #aah ,,xxi4 ,a ,,s\l ,,9 ,,purgatory #abe ,,xxii4 ,,peace ,,propag&a #aci ,,xxiii4 ,,! ,,my/]y ,,( ,,desire #adc ,,xxiv4 ,,! ,,scales ,,( ,,ju/ice #adh ,,xxv4 ,,= ,,love',s ,,sake #aee ,,xxvi4 ,a ,,ma/] ,,( ,,m9d #afd ,,xxvii4 ,,invisible ,,enemies #agb ,,xxviii4 ,,! ,,glory ,,( ,,w> #agh ,,xxix4 ,a ,,fri5d ,,( 8,x0 #aha ,,xxx4 ,,! ,,rose ,,& ,,! ,,cross #ahi ,,xxxi4 ,a ,,s]bian ,,magician #aif ,,xxxii4 ,,judas ,,& ,,typhon #bjb ,,xxxiii4 ,,cr[ns ,,( ,,/raw #bjg ,,xxxiv4 ,,! ,,sylph ,,& ,,! ,,fa!r #baf ,,xxxv4 ,,beh9d ,,! ,,d>k ,,veil #bbc ,,xxxvi4 ,,! 8,,lusitania0 #bcb ,,xxxvii4 ,,veil$ ,,prophecies #bcg ,,xxxviii4 ,,advice ,,to ,a ,,scribe #bci ,,xxxix4 ,,"o ,,( ,,^! ,,little ,,ones #bde ,,xl4 ,,! ,,height ,,& ,,! ,,dep? #bee ,,xli4 ,a ,,conclave ,,( ,,ma/]s #bef ,,xlii4 ,a ,,lesson ,,9 ,,! ,,kabala #bfj ,,xliii4 ,,! ,,second ,,com+ #bfc ,,xliv4 ,,poison ,,gases #bfi ,,xlv4 ,,! ,,sup]man #bgd ,,xlvi4 ,,! ,,ent]+ ,,w$ge #bhc ,,xlvii4 ,,! ,,new ,,bro!rhood #bif ,,xlviii4 ,,9 ,,! ,,crucible #cja ,,xlix4 ,,black ,,magic ,,9 ,,am]ica #cjc ,l4 ,,?+s ,,to ,,rememb] #caa ,,introduction ,,9 ! ,spr+ ( #aiad !re 0 publi%$ 9 ,london & ,new ,york a book ( m9e call$ 8,lett]s ,f a ,liv+ ,dead ,man10 be+ automatic writ+s f an ,am]ican ,judge & tea*] ( philosophy :o _h be5 kn[n to 8 intimate fri5ds z 8,x40 ,!re 7 circum/ances connect$ ) ! writ+ ( t book1 expla9$ 9 "s detail 9 ! ,introduction1 :i* made any o!r hypo!sis ?an t ( g5u9e communication f ! o!r _w seem unt5able to me4 ,x began1 = in/ance1 "s days be=e ,i knew 9 ,p>is t my fri5d _h di$ on ! ,pacific coa/ ( ,am]ica4 ,9 t fir/ book ( 8,x0 ,i did n /ate :o ! writ] 01 n feel+ at lib]ty to d s )\t ! cons5t ( 8 family2 b 9 ! ,summ] ( #aiad1 :ile ,i 0 /ill liv+ 9 ,europe1 a long int]view ) ,mr4 ,bruce ,hat* appe>$ 9 ! ,new ,york ,sunday ,_w1 9 :i* he express$ ! conviction t ! 8,lett]s0 7 g5u9e communications f 8 fa!r1 ! late ,judge ,david ,p4 ,hat*1 ( ,los ,angeles1 ,cali=nia4 ,= ! b5efit ( ^? :o h n read ! =m] book1 ,i wi% to say t 8,x0 0 n an ord9>y man4 ,he came ne>] ?an any o!r ,occid5tal ( my acqua9tance to t ma/]y ( self & ( life :i* has be5 call$ ,adept%ip4 ,aft] ! 8,lett]s0 7 f9i%$ 9 #aiac1 dur+ a p]iod ( ab\t two ye>s ,i 0 consci\s ( ! pres5ce ( 8,x0 only on two or ?ree occasions1 :5 he wrote "s brief advice 9 reg>d to my p]sonal affairs4 ,on ! f\r? ( ,febru>y1 #aiae1 9 ,new ,york1 ,i 0 sudd5ly made aw>e "o day t 8,x0 /ood 9 ! room & wi%$ to write2 b z always be=e1 ) "o or two exceptions1 ,i _h n ! remote/ idea :at he 0 go+ to say4 ,he wrote z foll[s3 8,:5 ,i come back & tell y ! /ory ( ?is w>1 z se5 f ! o!r side1 y w "k m ?an all ! ,*ancell]ies ( ! nations40 ,?is lett] ,i confid$ to two fri5ds :o _h be5 mu* int]e/$ 9 ! =m] book1 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,vance ,?ompson2 & x 0 arrang$1 ) ! cordial cons5t ( 8,x10 t !y %\ld sit ) me ab\t once a week1 to make a bett] 8focus40 ,_! loyal fai? 0 a great support to me dur+ ! fir/ half ( a try+ labor4 ,! writ+ 0 n conf9$ to ! days :5 we ?ree sat toge!r2 b ab\t a ?ird ( ! fir/ half ( ! book 0 writt5 9 ! pres5ce & 9 ! h\se ( ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,?ompson4 ,!n !y w5t to ,cali=nia1 & ,i cont9u$ ! "w alone4 ,x may be ( int]e/ to "s read]s if ,i describe ! process ( ?is writ+1 :i* has *ang$ gradually f a viol5t & me*anical seizure ( ! h& f ! outside1 z 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! fir/ book1 to a quiet impression on ! m9d )94 ,if ! read] w imag9e a well-kn[n fri5d ( vivid p]sonality pres5t ) him1 !n subtract f t impression ! see+ ( ! physical eye1 leav+ only ! subtle vibration ( ! actual ?9k+ & feel+ pres5ce1 !n add ! indescribable 8inn] sight10 he may beg9 to realize h[ ,i "k t 8,x0 is 9 ! room4 ,x is probable t ,hel5 ,kell] kn[s :5 h] fri5ds are ne> h]1 & c tell "o f ! o!r1 ?\gh %e is deaf & bl9d4 ,:5 made aw>e ( ! pres5ce ( 8,x10 ,i take a p5cil & a notebook1 z any o!r amanu5sis w\ld1 & by an ef=t ( w1 n[ easy f long practice1 ,i /ill ! activity ( my objective m9d1 until !re is no ?\ght or %ad[ ( a ?\ght 9 x4 ,!n into ! bra9 itself come ! words1 :i* fl[ out )\t consci\s ef=t at ! po9t ( ! p5cil4 ,x is exactly z if ,i he>d ! dictation ) a s+le auditory in/rum5t1 l a small & v s5sitive sph]e1 9 ! c5tre ( ! bra94 ,i nev] "k at ! beg9n+ ( a s5t5ce h[ x w end4 ,i nev] "k :e!r ! s5t5ce ,i am writ+ w be ! la/ or if two ?\s& words w foll[ x4 ,i simply write on1 9 a /ate ( volunt>y negativity1 until ! impression ( p]sonality describ$ above leaves sudd5ly4 ,!n no m words come4 ,! writ+ is at an end = t "t4 ,! "q w naturally arise 9 ! m9d ( ! skeptical read] 7x has 9 m9e71 :e!r my own subconsci\s m9d has n itself dictat$ ! foll[+ 8,w> ,lett]s f ! ,liv+ ,dead ,man10 9 ! attempt to expla9 a _w trag$y :i* w\ld h seem$ impossible two ye>s ago4 ,b f my long exp]i5ce 9 writ+ = 8,x10 & f ! fact t dur+ two ye>s ,i _h n writt5 = him except on two or ?ree unimportant occasions1 ?\gh (t5 ?9k+ ( him1 & f my acquir$ habit ( m9ute obs]vation ( sup]normal ph5om5a1 ,i n[ feel safe 9 assum+ t ,i "k ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! actual pres5ce ( 8,x0 & my own imag9ation ( him1 my rem9isc5ce ( him1 or ev5 ! sugge/ion ( 8 pres5ce f ano!r's m9d4 ,no p]son :o _h _h ev5 a m9ute fraction ( my occult exp]i5ce c\ld be m coldly critical ( t exp]i5ce ?an ,i am4 ,i freely welcome e logical argum5t aga9/ ! belief t ^! lett]s are :at !y purport to be2 b plac+ ^? argum5ts 9 opposition to ! evid5ce :i* ,i h ( ! g5u95ess ( !m1 ! affirmations outweigh ! d5ials1 & ,i accept !m4 ,?is evid5ce is too complex & mu* ( x too p]sonal to be ev5 outl9$ "h2 b ! ,lett] ,,xxxvi1 writt5 "o h\r aft] ! s9k+ ( ! ,lusitania & n9e h\rs be=e ,i knew ( x1 is m]ely "o incid5t out ( doz5s4 ,also x may be consid]$ at lea/ an int]e/+ co9cid5ce t at ! v "t ,i began writ+ ?is second book1 ?ree occult /ud5ts1 9 diff]5t c\ntries1 wrote me t !y felt t 8,x0 _h come back & w\ld write aga9 ?r\gh my h&4 ,s9ce !n sev]al o!r p]sons h s express$ !mselves by ^w or p54 ,_m ( ! ev5ts ( ?is w> ,i myself h se5 8a/rally0 at ! "t ( _! occurr5ce4 ,i 0 a wide-awake a/ral p>ticipant 9 ! fir/ action 9 :i* ! ,briti% army 0 engag$ on ! ,cont95t1 & relat$ ! exp]i5ce to a ,briti% (fic] 9 ,engl& be=e x 0 report$ !re1 my n>rative be+ v]ifi$ ! foll[+ day by a ,fr5* newspap] br\ght ov] f ,p>is by a fri5d4 ,i saw 9 ,new ,york ! %ell+ ( ,sc>bor\gh at ! h\r :5 x occurr$1 & relat$ ! incid5t to a fri5d "s h\rs be=e x 0 report$ 9 ! newspap]s2 ?\gh ,i did n "k ! "n ( ! ,engli% coa/ t[n :]e ,i _h se5 ! assault4 ,nev]!less1 ,i _c read :at is 9 ! m9d ( 8,x0 ev5 :5 ,i am consci\s t he is actually pres5t 9 ! room4 ,i "k only :at he dictates1 & h no idea h[ mu* or h[ little he kn[s4 ,he has /at$ 9 "o ( ! lett]s t he %\ld tell me only :at 8 judgm5t approv$ f "t to "t4 ,!re is "o po9t :]e ,i myself d n q foll[ 8,x40 ,sometimes :5 he says t ! ,g]man p are s & s1 _h ,i be5 writ+ ,i %\ld h said ! ,prussians4 ,i h _m ,g]man fri5ds1 & ,i _c hold !m individually acc\ntable = ! awful conditions into :i* _! gov]nm5t has plung$ ! _w4 ,i mu/ emphasize t ,i d n assume p]sonal responsibility = :at 8,x0 writes1 b m]ely record 8 words4 ,x did n occur to me until sev]al days aft] 8 la/ lett] 0 writt51 on ,july #bh?1 t he _h f9i%$ ! w> book exactly "o ye> f ! date ( ! fir/ decl>ation ( w>1 t ( ,au/ria aga9/ ,s]bia1 & on ! v day :5 ! ,pope s5t out 8 great appeal = peace4 ,9 8 =m] writ+1 :i* began m ?an ?ree ye>s ago1 8,x0 reque/$ t ,i %\ld nev] summon him1 & lat] advis$ me n to ask que/ions4 ,i h !re=e g5]ally refra9$ f do+ ei!r2 ?\gh ! temptation has (t5 be5 great to ask him z to ! f9al issue ( ?is w> by :i* ,i h be5 s pr(\ndly affect$4 ,b ,i knew t su* que/ion+ might /imulate ! action ( my own objective m9d & becl\d my receptivity4 ,i h rec5tly %runk f seek+ = su* answ]s ev5 9 my hypnogogic visions1 le/ ,i %\ld see some?+ :i* w\ld make me less negative 9 ! reception ( ^! lett]s4 ,?is situation seems to h cur$ me =ev] ( curiosity2 x has made me feel deta*$ z a comet & almo/ z lonely1 & /rong en\gh to be will+ to rema9 s4 ,b1 by a /range p>adox1 z my hatr$ = ! brutalities ( ?is w> grew deep] & deep]1 my love = all ^? /ruggl+ human s\ls 9 e camp grew ) x1 until ,i came to feel t ea* "o ( all ^? millions :o di$ & suff]$ on ^? battlefields 0 my bro!r & my fri5d4 ,love is a miracle t t\*es ! brutal facts ( life & makes !m div9e4 ,9 ! ?ird lett] ( ?is book1 dat$ ,m>* #aj?1 8,x0 said t ! =ces ( good _h ov]p[]$ ! =ces ( evil & t peace w\ld return to ! _w--?\gh he did n say :54 ,be=e ,i le>n$ ( ! ,lusitania s9k+1 b "o h\r aft] x _h actually tak5 place1 he wrote t ! demons :om ! work]s out !re _h driv5 back _h ralli$ & return$ to ! assault1 & t he ought to h kn[n t ! v ,law ( ,rhy?m w\ld drive !m =w>d aga9 aft] !y _h g5]at$ ano!r supply ( en]gy4 ,9 ! light ( rhy?mic law1 t lett] is to me ! mo/ int]e/+ "p ( ! book4 ,x illu/rates :at he has said s (t51 t ev5 ! 8liv+ dead0 d n "k ev]y?+1 & t ! reason :y !y "k s mu* m ?an we d is because !y h a wid] vision & a great] fund ( data on :i* to base _! conclusions4 ,9 reg>d to t second onslaught ( ! p[]s ( d>kness1 x is p]haps significant t ! lett] describ+ 8 fir/ conv]sation ) ! 8d>k-veil$ "o0 0 writt5 next be=e ! ,lusitania lett]4 ,aside f 8 n>rative1 two major ideas seem to dom9ate 8,x0 9 ?is writ+3 ! my/]y ( good & evil 7love & hate71 & ! bro!rhood ( man4 ,?r\gh 8 s\l-*all5g+ exposition ( ! conflict betwe5 good & evil1 bo? 9 ! human he>t & 9 ! univ]se1 a man might le>n to protect himself aga9/ 8 own evil z well z aga9/ ! evil outside him4 ,9 pursuit ( ?is end 8,x0 has reveal$ c]ta9 my/]ies to :i* ! att5tion ( ! common man has n h]et(ore be5 effectively call$4 ,t !re is an 8a/ral _w0 p]meat+ & ext5d+ beyond ! _w ( d5se matt] has be5 /at$ 9 ,!osophical & o!r lit]ature2 8,x0 makes 8 read]s realize ! fact4 ,! a/ral _w is said to be ! _w ( feel+ & desire2 & x is ?r\gh man's a/ral1 feel+ or desire body1 made ( a t5u\s k9d ( matt] invisible to untra9$ eyes1 t he connects ) & functions 9 t _w4 ,)9 & beyond ?is aga9 is said to be ! ?\ght _w1 & ! !ory is t man has also a ?\ght body ?r\gh :i* he contacts ) & functions 9 x4 ,& s on1 plane aft] plane1 till man rea*es ! =mless & ! univ]sal1 9 o!r words pure div9ity4 ,! evil a/ral be+s describ$ by 8,x0 are be+s dwell+ 9 ! a/ral _w4 ,"s ( !m h no physical bodies 9 ! mat]ial _w2 o!rs are ! m or less indep5d5t a/ral selves ( m51 :i* dur+ sleep g "h & !re 9 ! _w invisible to our op5 eyes4 ,!y h be5 active 9 ?is w>4 ,!re are also said to be be+s ( ! elem5ts1 e>?1 air1 fire & wat]1 :o are evolv+ along a l9e diff]5t f t ( man4 ,"s ( ^! are amiable1 "s are malici\s4 ,mu* in=mation ab\t ^! elem5tals c be f\nd 9 ! writ+s ( ,p>acelsus4 ,!y also h be5 active 9 ?is w>4 ,o!r & sup]ior be+s "w on all ?ree planes1 physical1 a/ral & m5tal1 & 9 /ill high] worlds beyond our cognizance4 ,b = ! b5efic5t activity ( "s ( ^!1 mank9d w\ld de/roy itself or be de/roy$4 8,x0 says t ! feel+s ( hatr$ & ! suff]+s eng5d]$ by ! great w> h made ! a/ral _w at ?is "t a v unpleasant place ( soj\rn4 ,! purgatory ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics is ! same ?+ z ! place ( po/-mortem trial describ$ by 8,x04 ,! ,*ur* has great k4 ,good & evil may be call$ opposite & complem5t>y =ces1 "o work+ 9 h>mony ) ! ,law ( ! ,univ]se 7o!rwise call$ ! w ( ,god71 ! o!r work+ di%>moni\sly ) t ,law4 ,"s read]s may be %ock$ by :at 8,x0 says ( black magic4 ,he is n writ+ to %ock !m1 b to protect & in/ruct !m4 ,sup]/ition has be5 call$ ! d>k side ( religion2 b sup]/ition is to be und]/ood1 n dismiss$ ) ! lift+ ( sup]ior eyebr[s4 ,all ?+s are to be und]/ood4 ,! great psy*ologi/s1 sci5ti/s1 d n n[ consid] ^! subjects b5ea? _! inve/igation4 ,ref] to ,pr(essor ,william ,james1 to ,sir ,oliv] ,lodge1 to ,dr4 ,b>aduc4 ,! names ( recogniz$ sci5ti/s :o are n[ inve/igat+ occult ph5om5a w\ld fill a small directory4 ,:5 ,i admit t ,i am seek+ to *>t ! unse5 _w1 ,i am mode/ly enroll+ myself 9 good company4 8,x0 speaks ( ! 8d>k-veil$ "o0 :o inspir$ ,nietzs*e 9 ! mislead+ ( "y ,g]many4 ,p]haps beh9d e p[]ful man or woman ^: "w has told 9 ! _w !re has be5 an invisible "o1 ei!r light or d>k-veil$4 ,! "q is n )\t int]e/1 bo? practical & !oretical4 ,inspiration1 l magic1 may be ei!r black or :ite4 ,! 8voices0 ( ,jeanne d',arc w\ld 9 our day be call$ clairaudi5t ph5om5a4 ,hi/ory decl>es t !y r5d]$ h] m1 n less1 effici5t z ! savi\r ( ,france4 ,m>t9 ,lu!r ?rew 8 ink-pot at 8! devil02 b ! ,re=mation 0 no less ably eng9e]$ because ,lu!r _h visions4 ,saul ( ,t>sus also _h a vision1 if we may cr$it ! report]s4 8,x0 speaks ( 8 own ,tea*]1 a 8,ma/]40 ,:5 ,i comp>e ! ,cali=nia ,judge :om ,i knew ) mo/ ( ! m5 & wom5 ) :om ,i prattle ab\t commonplaces1 ,i d n f9d x difficult to admit ! possibility t man may progress ev5 fur!r ?an 8,x10 giv5 ! resolution s to d4 ,if 8,x0 became :at he 0 9 a little less ?an sev5ty ye>s1 !re is hope = u :o look =w>d to et]nity4 ,! second major idea ( ^! 8,w> ,lett]s0 seems to be ! bro!rhood ( man4 ,! _w has progress$ ?us f> ?r\gh a s]ies ( well-m>k$ p]iods1 & by means ( a s]ies ( pr$om9ant races :i* /amp$ _! "t ) _! own peculi> color4 8,x0 says t a new race1 ! ,six? ,race s-call$1 is ab\t to arise n[ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,if ,am]ica w\ld accept ?is idea z a work+ hypo!sis--n ano!r 8,deuts*l& b] ,alles10 b say 8,am]ica = 7n ov]7 all0--%e might build a peace-ma*9e z ,g]many has built a w>-ma*9e4 ,if %e %\ld g ab\t x ) ! same ?or\ghness1 po/ulat+ ! ideal bro!rhood z ,g]many has po/ulat$ _w-dom9ion1 %e might make a demon/ration 9 ! next g5]ation4 ,9 ! mixture ( races 9 ,am]ica %e has all ! mat]ials = any k9d ( spiritual exp]im5t4 ,asia & ,europe w\ld look on ) int]e/4 ,engl&1 ,g]many1 & ,france1 ev5 ,japan :o is spiritual und]nea? & mat]ial only on ! surface1 p]haps ,russia above all1 w\ld respect su* an av[$ purpose4 ,x may be t ! _w w h suff]$ en\gh by ! end ( ?is w> to be ready to welcome univ]sal bro!rhood4 ,already !re are movem5ts 9 ,am]ica :i* w\ld gladly fall into l9e4 8,x0 speaks ( ! ,woodcraft movem5t1 a loosely organiz$ body ( p]haps a hundr$ ?\s& m5 & boys & a few wom51 :o 9 _! playtime h gone back to ,nature & ! camp-fire = t frat]nity :i* cities d n give4 8,x0 says t he has ano!r s]vice to p]=m 9 ! future4 ,i d n "k :at t s]vice is1 nor :e!r ,i h any "p 9 x2 b if he %\ld "o day decl>e to me t x 0 9 connection ) ! ,woodcraft purpose1 ,i %\ld n be surpris$4 ,b aft] liv+ = mon?s ) ?is w> book1 ,i _c yet see x 9 p]spective nor gauge its value4 ,i give x to ! _w because x seems to belong to ! _w1 & because among ! ?\s& lett]s :i* ,i h receiv$ f ! read]s ( 8,lett]s ,f a ,liv+ ,dead ,man10 s _m h ask$ = fur!r writ+s ( 8,x40 ,! fir/ book is n[ be+ translat$ into f\r ,european languages1 & o!r translations h be5 (f]$4 ,i want to ?ank all ^? p]sons 9 _m c\ntries :o h writt5 me s k9dly ab\t ! book4 ,x 0 m = !m ?an = myself t ,i embrac$ ! (f]$ opportunity to he> :at 8,x0 _h to say ab\t ! ,great ,w>4 ,to receive g5u9e communications f ! o!r _w 7assum+ z ,i mu/ t su* communication is possible7 involves sacrifice on ! "p ( ! amanu5sis1 ev5 9 ! protect$ quiet ( a c\ntry home4 ,to d x 9 a great ru%+ city l ,new ,york1 amid/ ! di/ractions ( a complex social life1 & dur+ a w> l ?is by ^: horrors ! 8s5sitive0 is especially buffett$1 & 9 a cla%+ pro-,g]man pro-,allies environm5t1 has be5 an education 9 self-control4 ,b ! w> _c la/ =ev]1 & "s day joy w come back to ! _w4 ,new ,york1 ,sept41 #aiae4 ,,elsa ,,b>k]4 ,illu/ration3 ,,david ,,patt]son ,,hat* ,born ,dresd51 ,ma9e1 ,novemb] #bb1 #ahdf ,di$ ,los ,angeles1 ,cali=nia1 ,febru>y #ba1 #aiab ,,w> ,,lett]s ,,f ,,! ,,liv+ ,,dead ,,man ,,lett] ,i ,,! ,,return ,,( 8,x0 ,,9 a f> away /> ,i he>d ! comm&3 8,g back to ! e>?1 & le>n ! my/]ies ( love & hate40 ,i did n "k to :at ,i 0 go+1 b w5t z comm&$4 ,z ,i ne>$ ! e>? an army ( angry be+s s\ght to b> my way4 8,:at are y do+ "h80 !y cri$4 8,?is is our field1 & we brook no int]f]5ce40 ,i call$ to ! ,tea*]1 & he /ood beside me4 ,ev5 he 0 grave at ! p[] ( ! =ces be=e u4 8,x has come10 ! ,tea*] said2 8x has come sudd5ly1 aft] a long prep>ation40 ,wra? is a cosmic =ce1 & hate is a cosmic =ce1 & love is a cosmic =ce1 & fe> is a cosmic =ce4 ,did y ?9k t love 0 a pretty s5tim5t8 ,did y ?9k t hate 0 a m]e annoyance8 ,i h se5 ! s\rces ( wra? & hate & love & fe>1 & t my exp]i5ce may be ( use 9 help+ m5 to und]/& ! =ces work+ 9 & beh9d ! race1 ,i h made ! ef=t to write = ! _w aga94 ,?is w> is m ?an a w> ( m52 x is m ?an a w> ( angels4 ,its roots are 9 ,necessity itself4 ,a new race has to be born1 & races l m5 are born 9 ! pa9 & ! blood ( _! pr$ecessors4 ,b z 8! curse ( ,eve0 came ?r\gh h] li/5+ to ! envi\s s]p5t ( evil1 s ?is curse has come ^u ! _w ?r\gh mank9d's li/5+ to ! sugge/ions ( envy & hate f ! =ces ( evil )9 & ar\nd ! _w4 ,i h se5 ^? =ces 9 =ms1 ,i h fac$ !m & wre/l$ ) !m4 ,i am /rong because ,i h /ruggl$4 ,i came back to ! _w ne>ly five weeks be=e w> 0 decl>$ on e>?1 b w> 0 already decl>$ 9 ! spaces above ! e>?4 ,z ! nations _h long be5 gett+ ready _! =ces1 s ! entities outside 7 ready & 9 arms4 ,! demons :o met me--= !y 7 demons--_h triumph 9 _! eyes4 ,a beg9n+ _h be5 made1 a se$ ( ang] s[n 9 ! he>t ( ,au/ria4 ,& ! se$ 0 wat]$ 9 ! gr\nd by ^? :o felt t _! h>ve/ 0 approa*+4 ,y mu/ und]/& t evil is co-exi/5t ) good s long z ! egos ( m5 evolve4 ,! =ces ( good & ! =ces ( evil are complem5t>y4 ,!y are 9 actual =ms1 !y h acquir$ egos2 _! conc5tration on _! "w w\ld %ame ! greate/ g5iuses among m54 ,b !y too are consci\sly or unconsci\sly s]vants ( t ,cosmic ,w ^: designs we call ! w ( ,god4 ,i h le>n$ mu* s9ce ! days :5 ,i ent]ta9$ y ) /ories ( ! newly-dead :o _h di$ s]5ely 9 _! b$s & _h gone out into ! a/ral _w z into an adjo9+ room4 ,a million s\ls h gone out rec5tly1 %ock$1 torn1 mangl$1 buffett$ by _! own hate & ! hate ( ^? :o s\ght to de/roy !m4 ,pity ^? :o h di$ ev5 tranquilly dur+ ! la/ eight mon?s4 ,!y h pass$ ?r\gh a region ( torm5t--^? :o h pass$ ?r\gh4 ,_m h rema9$ bel[1 spun r\nd & r\nd 9 ! :irlpool ) ^? :o di$ by w>4 ,_h ,i n a great purpose1 & ! conviction ( a great mission1 9 ?us reveal+ ! secrets ( ! o!r _w at ?is "t1 ,i %\ld n h>r[ y\r feel+s by a recital ( :at ,i h se5 & sometimes tak5 "p 9 s9ce my return f t j\rney among ! />s4 ,com=t y\rself--if y ne$ com=t--by my assurance t ! race is pass+ ?r\gh a rite ( initiation4 ,^? :o h di$ 9 ! s]vice ( an unselfi% en?usiasm w 9 "t rebody !mselves & reap on ! e>? ! fruits ( _! s]vice4 ,b n all :o h di$ h be5 fill$ ) ?is en?usiasm4 ,_m h hat$ = hate's own sake4 ,!y are ! ones :o h fail$4 ,pity !m if y mu/1 b x is bett] n to ?9k ab\t !m4 ,!y are ! will+ victims ( ! demons :o s\ght to b> my way1 :5 ,i 0 comm&$ to return to ! _w & le>n ! my/]ies ( love & hate4 ,love6 ,yes1 !re has be5 m love born ( ?is w> ?an ! e>? has kn[n 9 all ! two ?\s& ye>s ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,= ! human race is awake at la/1 & t x may n g to sleep aga9 is my purpose 9 once m break+ ?r\gh ! wall t sep>ates me f y4 ,m>* #e1 #aiae4 ,,lett] ,,ii ,a ,,dwell] ,,on ,,! ,,?re%old ,,!re 0 "o demon :o seem$ to be a lead] ( demons4 ,he 0 unlike _m ( ! o!rs--m p]sonal1 m egoc5tric4 ,z we /ood opposite ea* o!r ,i ent]$ into conv]sation ) him1 p>tly to satisfy my curiosity1 p>tly to ?r[ him (f 8 gu>d4 8,:o are y80 ,i ask$4 8,y seem to be a rul] among y\r k9d40 ,he /raight5$ himself ) pride4 8,i am inde$ a rul]10 he said1 8a rul] on e>? & up "h40 8,on e>? also80 ,i qu]i$4 8,yes1 also on e>?10 he answ]$1 8= ,i am ! deep] self ( a man :o is great among m51 a man :o w foll[ my w z o!rs foll[ 8 w40 ,!n he made a claim :i* />tl$ me1 & ,i =be> to repeat x4 8,if y are ! evil self ( a man /ill liv+10 ,i dem&$1 8h[ d y /& z a sep>ate entity up "h8 ,h[ are y ap>t f him80 8,y are some:at ignorant10 he said to me4 8,i am ignorant ( _m ?+s10 ,i admitt$4 8,in/ruct me 9 any way y c4 ,i h a ?ir/ = k40 8,"k !n10 he said pomp\sly1 8t ,i broke away f ! e>?ly =m t _h en*a9$ me :5 he ackn[l$g$ my rul]-%ip & wor%ipp$ me z 8 g5ius40 8,he set y free80 ,i ask$4 8,he set me free by ackn[l$g+ me z 8 ,ma/]4 ,8 k is ev5 less ?an y\rs1 & he call$ me by a "n t ,i despise2 b s long z ,i rule ,i c>e n ! "n ,i rule by4 ,or ,i c>e little10 he correct$ himself4 8,b su* ?+s z ^! are too deep = y60 8,i am deep] ?an y ?9k10 ,i ass]t$1 8& ,i h met y\r k9d be=e40 8,my k9d maybe1 b n my equals4 ,i am a ,k+ among spirits40 8,i _h obs]v$ y\r cr[n10 ,i said1 8x has a famili> look40 ,dur+ ?is colloquy ! ,tea*] _h /ood sil5tly by1 b n[ ,i turn$ to him ) an unspok5 "q4 ,he l$ me aside a little way1 & said3 8,:5 a man exalts himself too mu*1 he sets free ! demon )9 him4 ,he (t5 ?9ks t he rules ! demon1 & s5ds him on err&s ?r\gh ! ,invisible2 b x is really ! demon :o comm&s1 & ! comm&s ( ! man are only e*oes40 8,& x took ?is vision ( hell to tea* me t60 ,i exclaim$4 8,:at y w\ld h le>n$ 9 due "t by reason or by precept1 y n[ le>n by example10 ! ,tea*] said4 8,y h truly beheld ! evil self ( a great rul]40 8,x is v p[]ful10 ,i admitt$4 8,x w gr[ 9 p[] = a "t10 ! ,tea*] said1 8& !n x w g to ,geh5na40 8,& :5 w x g to ,geh5na80 8,:5 peace returns to ! _w1 aft] ! w> is exhau/$ up "h4 ,b ! w> w be exhau/$ up "h be=e peace returns to ! _w40 8,:at w> is ab\t to be f\ght80 ,i ask$4 8,! greate/ w> ( all "t10 ! ,tea*] said1 8! greate/ w> ( all "t up "h1 & also on ! e>?40 8,& :5 w x beg980 8,x is already begun "h1 z y h se54 ,_h y n be5 f> away y w\ld h kn[n x be=e40 8,i h inde$ be5 f> away10 ,i said4 8,an angel has %[n me _m />s1 & ,i h le>n$ mu*40 8,! angel kept y away f ! _w until y %\ld be /rong en\gh1 & re/$ en\gh1 to "w z well z le>n40 8,& :]e does my "w lie80 ,i ask$4 8,9 _m fields10 he answ]$4 8,b fir/ y mu/ fight y\r way ?r\gh ! a/ral _w above ,europe & save y\r fri5ds :o are 9 dang]40 ,swimm+ ! ,hellespont 0 a m9or feat comp>$ to swimm+ t sea ( devils1 b ,i got ?r\gh4 ,a ye> be=e ,i c\ld n h done x1 p]haps1 = ! =ces ( good 7 ov]p[]$4 ,!re is a tide 9 good & evil1 z well z a tide 9 ! sea4 ,evil 0 at ! flood4 ,i sav$ "o fri5d 9 dang]1 & saw t ano!r 0 safe4 ,back 9 ! sea ( hate1 :5 ,i 0 ne>ly exhau/$1 ! ,beautiful ,be+1 t angel :o _h be5 my guide s long1 came & :isp]$ some?+ 9 my e>4 ,x 0 a spur to ambition4 8,y may be ! hi/orian ( ?is great /ruggle10 x said1 8if y d n fail 9 y\r tasks40 ,d n be />tl$ by ! ^w 8ambition40 ,!re are _m k9ds ( ambition1 & a s9c]e wi% to be p]sonally ( s]vice may z well be call$ by t "n z by any o!r1 if !re is love beh9d x4 ,m>* #f4 ,,lett] ,,iii ,,an ,,assurance ,,take x f me at ?is e>ly /age ( our writ+3 ,! =ces ( good ov]p[]$ ! =ces ( evil a mon? ago1 & ! issue is settl$ "h4 ,! p[] set 9 motion w sp5d itself1 & peace w return to ! _w4 ,m>* #aj4 ,,lett] ,,iv ,,! ,,way ,,( ,,und]/&+ ,,be=e ,i tell y any m horrors1 ,i want to assure y n[ t out ( ^? horrors w come a beauty su* z ! _w has n kn[n dur+ ?is cycle ( exi/5ce4 ,x w n come at once1 = _m adju/m5ts w h to be made2 b ! way is op5 already = ^? :o *oose to walk 9 x4 ,x is a curi\s comm5t>y on unreg5]ate humanity1 ?is w> 9 :i* ea* side decl>es l\dly its own righte\sness & execrates its oppon5t4 ,z 9 all qu>rels1 !re is m wrong on "o side ?an on ! o!r2 b ! side :i* triumphs--& x w be ! side t has lea/ wrong--w h to und]/& & to =give its enemy be=e x c g =w>d to its own great future4 ,?\gh int]national organizations h fail$ = ! "t be+1 ,i am n disc\rag$ ab\t int]national organizations4 ,!y 7 m]ely %ock$ into failure1 ! peace p1 ! sociali/s1 & o!rs :o make f> high] claims to ! ideal ( univ]sal bro!rhood4 ,ev5 n[1 dur+ ! /ress ( ! conflict1 g out y\rself 9 ?\ght & 9 love to t nation :i* y feel to be y\r enemy4 ,try to und]/& x4 ,& d n try to und]/& x by tell+ y\rself t x is evil4 ,t is n und]/&+4 ,!re is evil 9 all m54 ,try to und]/& x by becom+ x1 = ! "t4 ,put y\rself 9 its place2 feel z y w\ld feel if y /ood alone--ev5 ?\gh by y\r own fault--) ! :ole _w aga9/ y4 ,y draw back a little ) ! ?\ght t y c\ld n h plac$ y\rself 9 a position :]e ! _w = its own protection w\ld be oblig$ to range itself aga9/ y4 ,b are y sure8 ,by ent]+ ! consci\sness ( t nation y are plac+ y\rself 9 su* a position1 & ,i tell y to d x tempor>ily1 9 ord] t y may be a c5tre1 a beg9n+1 an inf9itesimal "p ( t int]national compreh5sion & p>don :i* mu/ become g5]al to a degree be=e ! long-h]ald$ & always misund]/ood ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood c ev5 beg9 to f9d room = itself 9 ?is unbro!rly _w4 ,if all ^? aggregations ( p :o h long believ$ t !y /ood = ?is ideal w\ld n[ try to make peace ) "o ano!r1 if !y w\ld ackn[l$ge ! ideals ( "o ano!r1 h[ev] mu* ! work+-plans ( ^? ideals may diff]1 a =ce c\ld ev5 n[ be set 9 motion t w\ld %ort5 ?is w> & less5 ! numb] ( ^? :o mu/ die = _! conflict+ ideals ( national honor & loyalty4 ,9 ! reaction f hate to love1 9 ! reaction f criticism to und]/&+ t w foll[ a =mal decl>ation ( peace1 all ^! qu>rell+ spiritual organizations may if !y w1 beg9 to "w h>moni\sly4 ,if _! memb]s _c br+ !mselves1 because ( _! n>r[ pride & ! memory ( all ! h>% ?+s :i* !y h said aga9/ "o ano!r 9 ! pa/--if !y are too meanly afraid ( eat+ _! words1 publicly to ackn[l$ge "o ano!r z bre?r51 let !m beg9 to feel ?us 9 _! he>ts4 ,p]haps 9 "t ! great] c\rage w come1 & "s d>+ lead] w say to 8 flock t ^? ) :om !y once work$1 ) tru/ & ! pr(ession ( love1 may be try+1 accord+ to _! lights1 to s]ve ! ideal4 ,i d n "k t any fur!r elaboration ( ?is idea w\ld make x any cle>] to y1 & ^! rem>ks are only an int]lude1 a relief1 9 ! t5sion ( ! /ory :i* ,i h to tell4 ,m>* #ac4 ,,lett] ,v ,,a/ral ,,mon/]s ,,did y "k t ,i 0 ne> y :5 y cross$ ! ,nor? ,sea m ?an two weeks be=e w> 0 decl>$1 cross$ to ,engl& "u an irresi/ible1 an ov]:elm+ impulse to get away f ! cont95t ( ,europe & back to ! p ( y\r own blood8 ,i 0 ne> y4 ,b ,i did n rema9 :5 y 7 safe ) y\r fri5ds4 ,i return$ to ! c5tre ( w> det]m9ism1 w5t back to t l& :i*1 despite all prote/ations to ! contr>y1 hat*$ out ! egg :i* an irresponsible bird _h laid 9 ! region f>!r s\?4 ,did ,i say irresponsible8 ,only a madman is irresponsible = 8 acts4 ,let me say r delud$1 = n all delud$ s\ls are mad4 ,! h& t slew ! ,au/rian ,ar*duke 0 us$1 z o!rs h be5 us$1 by ! =ces work+ aga9/ progress4 ,pity t man also1 & let ! law ( cause & effect deal ) him z x mu/1 = !re is no favoritism 9 t c\rt & no appeal to a high] jurisdiction4 ,i return$ to ,g]many4 ,x w be necess>y 9 ?is writ+ to call spades1 spades4 ,if ,i hurt anybody's feel+s1 ,i am n writ+ to hurt anybody's feel+s4 ,facts are facts1 & no speci\s plead+ c *ange !m4 ,i return$ to ,g]many4 ,i li/5$ to w> c\nsels4 ,i he>d ord]s giv51 = by a special h>d5+ ( my a/ral e>s ,i c he> :at is spok5 9 ! _w ( m5 & he> v di/9ctly4 ,my a/ral body is a well-lubricat$ ?\gh t5u\s ma*9e t answ]s to ! lighte/ t\* ( my w4 ,b d n jump to ! conclusion t all a/ral bodies are l m9e4 ,rememb] t ,i am ! pupil ( a great ,ma/]1 & t 8 purposes are n 8 purposes b ^? ( ! law ( progress :i* he s]ves4 ,i saw aga9 ! mon/] ( :i* ,i wrote y 9 my second lett]4 ,!y speak tru? :o say t ! ,g]man ,emp]or did hesitate to t\* ! spr+ :i* %\ld op5 ! doors ( hell4 ,! ,w> ,"l _h a c]ta9 pride 9 8 record z a ,peace ,"l1 & he %iv]$ at ! responsibility t fac$ him :ile gloat+ 9 t responsibility1 :i* fur!r exalt$ 8 already self-exalt$ ego4 ,pity him too1 b d n s5tim5talize ov] him4 ,w is free4 ,9 yield+ 8 w to ! evil g5ius he 0 ex]cis+ free w4 ,b ^? eyes ( 8 7 wet 9 ! night & he did pray to ! ,=ce he calls 8 ,god4 ,! "n ( ,god 0 n only on 8 lips b 9 8 inn] ?\ghts4 ,god is a ^w t means _m ?+s to _m p]sons4 ,!re 7 also 9 t conclave ( evil spirits _m :o 7 n atta*$ to individual m54 ,!re 7 va/ elem5tal be+s4 ,:5 ,lytton wrote1 9 "o ( 8 occult novels1 ( a gigantic foot :i* /epp$ ?r\gh a gap 9 ! magic circle drawn by a black magician 9 ! primeval wild]ness1 he ref]r$ to a fact 9 ,nature4 ,nature6 ,y ) y\r n>r[ sight h no idea ( ! mean+ ( ! t]m4 ,all y\r /udies h n taught y ev5 ! alphabet t ,nature uses4 ,le>n t alphabet4 ,beg9 to /udy t language4 ,/udy *emi/ry1 biology1 electricity1 & /udy ! my/]ies ( ! vibrations ( matt] on z _m planes z y c consci\sly rea*4 ,! k ( ! future lies !re4 ,man has only begun ! conque/ ( ,nature4 ,any expression ( hate :i* y ev] beheld 9 ! mat]ial _w 0 only a weak replica ( ! hate t 0 let loose ^u ! e>? :5 ! h\r /ruck la/ ye>1 ! h\r :5 ! orbits ( c]ta9 planet>y bodies bl5d$ _! influ5ces & all[$ a free passage = be+s :o are g5]ally m limit$ 9 _! fre$om ( movem5t4 ,! giant foot6 ,i saw ! great be+ to :om su* a foot belong$4 ,x 0 a be+ ( ! air1 b e>? be+s 7 alli$ ) x & mon/]s f ! deep] circles ( matt] :]e ! light ( ! sun nev] %9es4 ,w y let me describe "o ( ^? be+s8 ,y ne$ n fe> x n[ = x has be5 driv5 back to its lair 9 ! b[els ( ! planet4 ,a gross blui% bag-l body1 ) a long fat tail cov]$ ) bri/les1 arms & legs l elongat$ bags1 & a head t 0 a l>g] & half-subm]g$ bag 9 ! rolls ( its mon/r\s neck4 ,b ! eyes6 ,!re 0 no fat-l sub/ance 9 !m4 ,!y 7 wide & r\nd & gl>+ ) a ?\s& ye>s ( malignity conc5trat$ 9 a mom5t4 ,pale eyes !y 74 ,if y dread an evil d>k eye1 dread m an evil pale eye4 ,suff]+ unimag9able & hate ( ev]y?+ above x 7 express$ 9 ! eyes ( t entity f ! deep ( ?+s :i* f ! l[e/ a/ral plane spat & drool$ its v5om t[>d ! surface ( ! planet4 ,imm5se x 0 9 size1 too?less & %apeless its m\?4 ,:at ! n\ri%m5t might be :i* _h kept x toge!r ,i refra9 f tell+ y4 ,aga9 ,i say1 d n dread x4 ,x _c rea* t[>d ! surface ( ! e>? n[4 ,its exi/5ce is ne> its t]m4 ,b ! g]ms ( a/ral disease :i* 7 spew$ f its %apeless m\? h be5 multiply+ 9 spite ( all ! ef=ts ( ^? :o "k h[ to cope ) su* ?+s4 ,! be+s ( ! air are n fil?y1 h[ev] evil !y may be1 & few ( !m are really evil--few 9 proportion to ^? :o are amiable or indiff]5t to man4 ,! m rev5geful ( ! be+s ( fire may yet make !mselves felt2 = sporadic ef=ts w /ill be made1 ?\gh ! great /ruggle is won 9 ! invisible regions4 ,/ay :]e y are = ! "t4 ,a dang] /ill ?reat5s ,europe beyond ! dang] ( armies4 ,wait--& pray4 ,= pray] is an a/ral =ce & its effects1 be+ 9 ! high] a/ral1 are f>-rea*+4 ,wait--& pray4 ,m>* #ae4 ,,lett] ,,vi ,,! ,,ar*duke ,,h y ev] ?\ght ( ! po/hum\s feel+s ( him ^: murd] precipitat$ ?is w>8 ,no1 y h n2 b ,i h1 & ,i s\ght = him & f\nd him4 ,o!rs 7 seek+ him too1 ! s\ls ( ! dead & ! a/ral s\ls ( ^? :o slept on e>?4 ,truly 8 0 n a peaceful pass+1 ei!r 9 fle% or 9 _s4 ,! dread ( assass9ation :i* _h long hung ov] him l a d>k cl\d pr$ispos$ him to a d>k & /ormy p]iod aft] dea?1 ev5 if he _h n be5 %ock$ out by ! murd]\s assault4 ,?is 0 ano!r illu/ration ( t law by :i* ! ?+ we fe> attacks u soon] or lat]4 ,at fir/ he pass$ into d>kness & a p]iod ( somnol5ce1 l a vague nightm>e2 !n z he gradually awoke to a m vivid consci\sness he awoke ) pa9 & anxiety & wail+ ( s\l4 ,! dread$ ?+ _h come at la/1 & he knew t he 0 outside 8 body & se>*$ = x4 ,! cu/om>y fun]al 0 ev5 m dismal = him ?an x is = mo/ s\ls1 because ! slight op5+ ( vision :i* 8 pass+ _h giv5 made him realize t f> m ?an 8 p]sonal dea? 0 b\nd up ) ?is *ange4 ,he 0 n attack$ by ! evil ?+s :i* _h br\ght ab\t 8 dea?4 ,:at m c\ld !y want ) him8 ,he _h s]v$ _! purposes4 ,_h !re be5 anyone else r\nd ^: murd] s mu* obscurity & s complex a s]ies ( misund]/&+s & suspicions c\ld h ga!r$1 probably t o!r man w\ld h suff]$ 9 8 /ead4 ,b ^: murd] c\ld h s]v$ t purpose s well z ?is man's8 ,^: relations plac$ him 9 su* a focus ( rays8 ,8 relations ) ! ,g]man ,emp]or1 ! relations ( 8 family ) ^? = :om he _h no sympa?y1 ! relations ( ! pres5t heir ) ,russia--all ^! & _m o!r s\rces ( error & d\bt & confusion =m$ an ideal c5tre ( tumult4 ,& ! s\l felt ?is tumult 9 addition to 8 ang] & disappo9tm5t at be+ driv5 f ! _w4 ,8 anxiety = 8 *ildr5 0 n small1 = !y /ood 9 a peculi> position reg>d+ ! families ar\nd !m4 ,imag9e ! ?\ght ( e man1 woman & *ild capable ( foll[+ an ev5t l t1 c5tr$ on "o s\l1 9 ang]1 love1 grief1 curiosity1 d\bt1 unc]ta9ty--e m9d 9 almo/ e c\ntry ( ! _w6 ,x 0 en\gh to %att] 8 a/ral body altoge!r4 ,g5]ally :5 a rul] dies he is foll[$ by lov+ ?\ghts1 or ?\ghts ( dislike1 b n by confus+ ?\ghts4 ,8 race is run4 ,! ,k+ is dead1 long live ! ,k+6 ,= "s "t ?is heir to a great ?rone 0 ev5 driv5 away f ! companion :om he lov$4 ,he _h no?+ to lean on4 ,he 0 drawn ^u & victimiz$ by ?\ghts1 ?\ghts1 ?\ghts1 f all directions & 9 all /ages ( int5sity4 ,ev5 ! pray]s (f]$ = ! repose ( 8 s\l 9 purgatory _h n ! effect :i* su* pray]s ( love g5]ally h4 ,!y 7 only a drop 9 ! riv] ( ?\ghts :i* ru%$ 9 8 direction4 ,yes1 ,i say 9 8 direction2 = he rema9$ a long "t 9 t /orm-c5tre ( ?\ghts4 ,ev5 ! b& ( help]s1 ( :om ,i told y :5 ,i wrote = ! _w be=e1 7 n able to assi/ him v mu*2 = !y too 7 attack$ by ! be+s ( evil :o made w> 9 ! a/ral regions4 ,z a rule ! dea? ( "o man makes little diff]5ce to ! _w4 ,^? :o love him grieve1 & ^? :o dislike him or :o pr(it by 8 dea? are glad4 ,?is man w5t out ) ! flam+ tor* ( w> 9 8 vapory h&4 ,aft] a "t he s\ght & f\nd 8 fri5d1 ! rul] ( ,g]many2 b t rul] c\ld n see him1 ?\gh he s5s$ a pres5ce 9 ! room4 ,he 0 half afraid4 ,:at 0 ! pres5ce8 he wond]$4 ,0 x 8 own g5ius8 ,did x come to rem9d him t ! h\r ( 8 8great de/9y0 0 at h&8 ,! hesitation ( 8 weakness 0 r %ameful to see2 b ! det]m9ation ( 8 /r5g?1 ( 8 evil self1 set its heel ^u ! weakness & ! prep>ations = w> w5t on4 ,! s\l ( ! ,ar*duke 0 too confus$ to play a "p 9 ^? c\nsels4 ,he _h be5 a /rong man1 & w be /rong aga92 b dur+ ! "t :5 he might h ex]cis$ an invisible influ5ce1 he ex]cis$ none2 he /rove to make himself visible1 & 9 "o in/ance at lea/ succe$$4 ,yes1 ,i spoke ) him & advis$ him2 b ,i _h o!r ?+s to d j !n & left him ) a prie/ ( 8 own *ur*1 a g5tle & /rong s\l :o /ood l a rock 9 ! tumult4 ,i only m5tion my see+ ! ,ar*duke because ( "o :o w "s day read ^! l9es4 ,i _c (f] mu* com=t1 b %e w be glad to "k ( ! /rong & quiet prie/1 & ,i %all h kept a promise :i* ,i made b h s f> be5 unable to keep 9 any way save ?is4 ,m>* #ag4 ,,lett] ,,vii 8,,! ,,*os5 ,,p0 ,,! nations began to decl>e w> on "o ano!r4 ,i /ood ) tw5ty o!rs = h\rs 9 ! palace at ,potsdam1 try+ by ! sil5t pressure ( w to r$uce ! pressure ( ! w>-w :i* surg$ 9 ! ,g]man nation t[>ds its ,emp]or4 ,& !y say t ,g]many did n want w>6 8,d] ,tag0 seem$ ne>1 & w> seem$ to mean triumph4 ,x is a commonplace to say n[ t ,g]many believ$ t ,engl& c\ld n g to w>4 ,& _h ,engl& n gone to w>1 ! issue w\ld h be5 settl$ be=e ! date ( ?is writ+4 ,! ,g]man navy w\ld h met ! ,fr5* 9 battle & w\ld h wor/$ x4 ,x w\ld be well = y to cease %r9k+ :5 ,i say :at does n please y4 ,i /ate :at ,i "k2 y m]ely write d[n :at ,i say4 ,i & tw5ty o!rs c5tr$ ! =ce ( our w 9 ,potsdam & 9 ! ,wilhelm/rasse4 ,n t we did n "k :at ! issue w\ld be4 ,we knew4 ,?is w> 0 writt5 9 ! />s4 ,b z ! soldi] does 8 duty ?\gh he kn[s t he w lose ! day1 s we /ood our gr\nd aga9/ ! w> devils4 ,! greate/ ( ! ,ma/]s did n /& !re ) u1 & ,i d n "k :]e he 04 ,probably on "s bus9ess t we might n h und]/ood4 ,p]haps hold+ back worse =ces f ! out] />s4 ,no1 t is n a dream1 ?\gh x is only a supposition4 ,!re is evil z well z good 9 ! out] />s4 ,_h x n be5 = ! re/ra9+ influ5ce ( ^? :o wat*$ up "h1 _m ( ! =eign]s 9 ,g]many at t "t w\ld h be5 torn limb f limb4 ,:at d y "k ( w>-madness1 hate-madness8 ,7 y capable ( feel+ x 9 y\r pres5t p]sonality1 y c\ld n write = me n[1 :ile ^? :om y love & respect are ne>ly all on "o side ( a w> n yet f9i%$4 ,y may grasp hate intellectually1 y may dramatize x2 b y d n feel x1 ?\gh y h suff]$ f its effects4 ,! wor/ 9 ! ,g]man he>t is v bad--?\gh ,i tell y n to hate !m4 ,! wor/ 9 all p is v bad1 b ! ,g]man is ! greate/ bully on ! planet4 ,! cruel ,ori5tal races h a re/ra9t :i* has gr[n 9 !m ?r\gh ages ( culture2 ! ,g]man kn[s only ! re/ra9t ( ! ,g]man law1 he respects only ! re/ra9t ( ! ,g]man law4 ,he has no s5se ( "r & wrong 9 ! ab/ract1 ?\gh he is (t5 extremely s5sitive z to :at is "r & wrong = him 9 8 relation to ^? ne> him1 8 k9sm5 & fell[-citiz5s4 ,b ^? outside ! race-gr\p are outside 8 code ( honor1 h[ev] poli%$ he may be4 ,i am speak+ n[ ( ! race1 n ( ! few :o h by long resid5ce abroad absorb$ some:at ( _w-bro!rhood & ! m delicate s5sibilities ( int]national relations4 ,& m>k ?is also3 ,! ,g]man c love z ?or\ghly z he c hate2 b he c love only 8 own1 some?+ :i* is an ext5sion ( himself1 a second>y ego1 ! me 9 ano!r =m4 ,a ,g]man may love a =eign wife1 if he c ,g]manize h]4 ,a ,g]man may love a =eign fri5d1 if t fri5d does n /& 9 ! way ( some?+ he wants = himself4 ,i am n ref]r+ to ^? sudd5 outp\r+s ( emotion to :i* ^? emotional p are subject4 ,i am n ref]r+ to _! surface k9dl9ess1 :i* is ! ov]fl[ ( emotion4 ,& /ill ,i say1 love ^! unlovable p1 love !m s mu* t !y w be deta*$ f _! race-c5tre & w fl[ out 9 melt+ response to ev]y?+ t is n ,g]man4 ,! _w c nev] really s(t5 ! ,g]man %ell by ?r[+ /ones aga9/ x4 ,:5 !y break d[n 9 ?is w>1 !y w n be any m ess5tially lovable because !y are weak]4 ,love !m by try+ to und]/& !m4 ,x w take decades = ! arrogant & self-exalt+ ,g]man to see t !re is any?+ outside t may be sup]ior to :at is inside 8 %ell4 ,he respects only might4 ,he mu/ be conqu]$ by might4 ,f 8 en=c$ respect ( a sup]ior might he may be l$ gradually to see ! sup]ior "r ( t g5tl5ess :i* does n use its might to co]ce him :5 fur!r co]cion is unnecess>y4 ,i h /ood 9 ,g]man h\seholds s9ce ?is w> began1 ,i h ent]$ into & = ! "t be+ h become ,g]man m5 & ,g]man wom51 & ,i und]/& !m & love !m4 ,i ev5 admire !m1 = _! devotion to _! own is imm5se4 ,once let t /r5g? g out 9 real bro!rhood to all mank9d1 & ^! p w\ld be truly great4 ,is x possible8 ,all ?+s are possible to ! human s\l1 & ^! p are v human4 ,! defect is 9 _! vaunt$ education4 ,!y tea* !mselves t !y are ! *os5 p4 ,:5 !y le>n t !y are n ! *os5 p 9 w>1 ! v =ce ( ! %ock may upset ! pill> ( egotism t /&s upright 9 ! c5tre ( ! ,g]man s\l4 ,! _w %\ld n let t pill> fall ) a cra%1 b s(tly ease ! bl[--n too s(tly1 le/ m]cy be mi/ak5 = w>-we>9ess4 ,! ,_w-,"m has a h>d & err+ *ild4 ,x has to be puni%$1 b n refus$ a seat at ! family table4 ,i h said ^! ?+s to y because1 if y d n %r9k1 ,i h ?+s to tell y 9 my next lett] :i* w ne$ =titude = y to receive1 =titude & *>ity1 ^: o!r "n is love4 ,m>* #bd4 ,,lett] ,,viii ,,spectres ,,( ,,! ,,congo ,i ,,h be5 9 ,pol& & ,i h be5 9 ,s]bia2 b n[ ,i want to write ( ,belgium & ( k>ma1#a race k>ma1 k>ma old & new4 ,) & beh9d ! invad+ ,g]mans1 urg+ !m on to murd]1 pillage & de/ruction1 rape & burn+1 7 n only ! devils f ! out] va/1 ^: "t = activity _h come2 b ) & beh9d ! ,g]man army 0 a horde ( undevelop$ & e>?-b\nd spirits :o _h suff]$ 9 ! ,congo4 ,k>ma1 always k>ma6 ,! _w kn[s some?+ ( :at has be5 done 9 ,belgium1 some?+ ( :at ,g]mans h done !re4 ,i h se5 m51 wom51 & little *ildr5 murd]$ 9 cold blood4 ,i h witness$ ! s\l ( a murd]$ man te>+ at a soldi] :o 0 violat+ ! murd]$ man's wife4 ,i h se5 ! s\l ( a "m wr++ h] h&s z %e w\ld h wrung !m on e>? :5 h] little daught] 0 be+ maltreat$ by brutes :o 7 bl9d ) madness4 ,an old man out "h foll[$ a soldi] = days until he saw rev5ge accompli%$ by means ( a ,belgian bayonet2 !n z ! ,g]man s\l came out he grappl$ ) x aga91 & ! two 7 torn by ea* o!r1 ! soldi] n kn[+ he _h left ! body & feel+ t he 0 at grips ) an enemy /ill on e>?4 ,!re 0 mu* ( :at is call$ ,voodoo 9 ! ,congo4 ,its practition]s d n g to sleep = a long "t4 ,!y g on & on 9 ! invisible _w1 mak+ _! evil prep>ations & weav+ _! spells4 ,!y ga!r r\nd spill$ blood1 !y absorb vitality f x1 & t vitality !y use to br+ evil & dea? ^u any?+ t[>d :i* !y direct _! w4 ,did y fancy t w 0 weak5$ :5 man lays aside ! bra98 ,x is weak5$ 9 ! s5se t !re is less fre$om ( *oice2 b !re is trem5d\s w 9 foll[+ a *oice already set up :5 ! physical base ( ! bra9 0 atta*$ to ! w4 ,b n[ all ! evil k>ma ( ,belgium is liv$ out1 & %e /&s l a new s\l 9 ! face ( "t4 ,ano!r race has tak5 up ! load t %e laid d[n4 ,w t too be exp5d$ soon1 or late8 ,g]many has wov5 r\nd h]self a %irt ( evil causes t w cl+ to h] & *afe h] fle% = g5]ations4 8,x mu/ ne$s be t (f5ces come2 b woe to t man by :om ! (f5ce come?40 ,! k>ma ( nations is kn[n to ! ,ma/]s & ,adepts4 ,! k>ma ( ,engl&6 ,h y ev] ?\ght ab\t ! k>ma ( ,engl&8 ,grant+ t %e has done mu* wrong1 z all old nations h1 yet %e has all[$ h]self to be us$ by ! _w-w4 ,%e1 m ?an all ! o!r old races1 has be5 an in/rum5t 9 ! unify+ ( ! races4 ,did y fancy t ! ,briti% ,empire 0 a =tuit\s conc\rse ( atoms8 ,did y ?9k ! ,briti% ,empire m]ely happ5$8 ,& n[ ! ,briti% ,empire may be us$ fur!r4 ,%e may be us$ 9 ,belgium4 ,& ,i d n mean ! m]e pres5ce ( h] army 9 ,belgium4 ,x is said t ! ,ma/]s1 ! _w's tea*]s1 hold back ! awful k>ma ( ! _w4 ,i am try+ to d a little t[>d hold+ back ! awful k>ma ( ,g]many4 ,%e has disgrac$ ! human race 9 ,belgium4 ,ev]y?+ t has be5 believ$ ab\t ,g]man outrages 9 ,belgium is true except "o ?+4 ,s f> z ,i "k1 & ,i h enquir$ ( ^? :o "k m ?an ,i1 ,g]man soldi]s h n cut (f ! h&s ( liv+ ,belgian *ildr54 ,b !y h murd]$ wom51 & outrag$ wom51 & mock$ & insult$ pregnant wom51 & maltreat$ ! new-made mo!rs ( babes t !y h murd]$4 ,!y h burn$ m5 alive1 & !y h buri$ m5 /ill alive4 ,i say t ,g]mans h done ^! ?+s4 ,%\ld ,i say t ! =ces ( evil1 ! be+s ( evil1 ! sup]human & ! once-human =ces ( evil1 h done ^! ?+s1 us+ z _! in/rum5ts ! =ms ( ,g]man soldi]s f :i* !y _h ?ru/ = ! mom5t ! moral s\l8 ,take x :i*ev] way y please1 = bo? ways are true4 ,! m5 :o ravag$ & de/roy$ ,belgium 7 n all obsess$1 save t evil may be always an obsession4 ,help to hold back ! awful k>ma t ,g]many has made 9 ,belgium4 8,ye h he>d t x ha? be5 said1 ?\ %alt love ?y neighbor & hate ?9e enemy4 ,b ,i say unto y1 love y\r enemies1 bless !m t curse y1 d good to !m t hate y1 & pray = !m t despitefully use y1 & p]secute y2 t ye may be ! *ildr5 ( y\r ,fa!r :o is 9 heav540 ,m>* #bg4 ,,footnotes3 ,footnote #a3 ,! law ( e?ical causation4 ,,lett] ,,ix ,,unse5 ,,gu>dians ,,9 ! deva/at$ region ( ,belgium--& mo/ ( ,belgium is deva/at$--!re /&s a little h\se unh>m$ & tranquil z be=e ! w>4 ,r\nd ab\t x are ru9$ walls1 /&+ black ) smoke or grey ) ! p[d] ( %ell-fire4 ,two wom5 live !re1 middle-ag$ wom54 ,!y did n flee _! home :5 ! w>-tide ru%$ ov] !m4 ,!y 7 fright5$--yes1 b !y did n flee4 ,!y saw neighbor+ h\ses 9 flames1 !y he>d ! detonation ( %ells bur/+2 b !y rema9$ betwe5 _! f\r ?9 walls1 & wait$ & pray$4 ,f\r gods !y pray$ to1 ,god ! ,fa!r & ,god ! ,son1 & two o!rs--_! fa!r & "m1 :o _h pass$ on "s ye>s be=e into ! o!r _w1 _! ,belgian fa!r & _! ,g]man "m6 ,s great 0 _! fai? t !y believ$ !y w\ld be unh>m$1 & !y 7 n h>m$4 ,incr$ible z x may seem1 t little h\se /&s !re secure 9 ! mid/ ( desolation4 ,love is a protective =ce4 ,! fa!r & "m ( ^? two middle-ag$ wom5 _h lov$ ea* o!r t5d]ly4 ,race 0 no b>ri] to _! love4 ,! ,g]man woman & ! ,belgian man _h taught _! *ildr5 t ,g]many 0 _! "m & ,belgium 0 _! fa!r4 ,_! bones lie toge!r 9 ! village *ur*y>d1 & _! s\ls kept wat* :5 ! armies pass$ ov]4 ,!y gu>d$ ! *ildr5 !y lov$4 ,does ?is seem an impossible /ory8 ,i "k x to be a fact4 ,i h spok5 ) t fa!r & "m1 & ,i %all speak ) !m aga94 ,_! fai? is r>e1 & _! love is r>e1 & _! rew>d has be5 r>e4 ,x is easi] to gu>d a little h\se ?an to move a m\nta91 & x has be5 said t fai? l a gra9 ( mu/>d-se$ c\ld move a m\nta94 ,^? two s\ls _h n yet pass$ away f ! neighborhood ( ! e>?2 !y wait$ = _! *ildr54 ,:5 ! w>-tide roll$ ov]1 !y /ood gu>d at ! door/one ( _! home4 ,! spirits ( ! peaceful dead d n l ! s\nd ( %ells1 b ^? two did n fly away4 ,_h !y be5 fright5$ f _! vigil1 ! little h\se might n[ be l its neighbors4 ,am ,i ov]-cr$ul\s8 ,d y rememb] my tell+ y "o day ye>s ago t y 7 n cr$ul\s en\gh8 ,i see t y rememb]4 ,^! two--! ,belgian fa!r & ! ,g]man "m--7 also cr$ul\s1 z ! _w uses ! ^w1 & _! *ildr5 7 cr$ul\s1 too4 ,_h ! nations be5 equally cr$ul\s ( ! p[] ( love1 !re w\ld h be5 no w>2 = !re w\ld h be5 no armies to make w>4 ,i am n prea*+ aga9/ armies4 ,i am only prea*+ love & fai?4 ,:5 love & fai? gr[ great]1 armies w gr[ small]1 & w> w be at an end4 ,i ask$ ! ,belgian fa!r h[ he felt ab\t ! w>1 & he look$ t[>d 8 ,g]man wife2 ,i ask$ ! ,g]man "m h[ %e felt ab\t ! w>1 & %e look$ t[>d h] ,belgian husb&4 ,nei!r w\ld speak = fe> ( w\nd+ ! o!r4 ,h[ %\ld ,i feel n[ if my nation 7 at w>1 y wond]8 ,b s9ce ! eyes ( my memory op5$ & ,i saw my pa/ lives1 ,i realize t ,i h _h s _m nations1 h f\ght 9 s _m armies1 h la9 9 ! lap ( s _m mo!rs ( m9e 9 s _m l&s1 t my _s is uproot$4 ,i h jo9$ ! great ,:ite ,bro!rhood1 to :i* all m5 are bro!rs & all wom5 si/]s4 ,x w\ld be difficult = y to see ) my eyes4 ,i wat* & wait1 l ! p>5ts ( ! two old maids 9 ,belgium1 & s f> ! h\se ( my fai? /&s unt\*$ by ! fires ( w>4 ,9 ! great ,:ite ,bro!rhood !re are memb]s f _m races1 !re are memb]s f ! races n[ at w>4 ,d y fancy t !y look$ askance at "o ano!r :5 ! _w w5t mad8 ,!y did n look askance at "o ano!r4 ,ea* /ood gu>d :]e he c\ld d ! mo/ good4 ,ea* s\ght to s(t5 ! bl[ = ! bre?r5 ( 8 bro!r1 ea* s\ght to s(t5 ! he>ts ( 8 own blood-bre?r54 ,b z ?is w> 0 writt5 9 ! />s1 ! ,tea*]s ( ! _w c\ld n prev5t x :5 ! h\r /ruck4 ,d y "k :at x means to be a memb] ( ! great ,:ite ,bro!rhood8 ,x means to "w = ! welf>e ( ! human race1 = ! good ( ! planet z a :ole4 ,& !re is ano!r ?+ ,i want to tell y4 ,y h he>d ( a ,black ,bro!rhood4 ,x is a misnom]4 ,bro!rhood is nev] black4 ,!re is no ,black ,bro!rhood4 ,!re are _m ,black ,ma/]s1 = ,ma/]%ip1 l a g>m5t1 may be ei!r :ite or black4 ,9 ?is w> ! black =ces :o h inspir$ hatr$ 9 m5 h work$ = "o end1 & t v fact w weak5 _! p[] to d evil = a long "t1 :5 ! results ( _! pres5t labors are ov]4 ,d y get my mean+8 ,a comb9ation ( evil =ces1 9 ! v act ( comb9+1 weak5s ! individual p[] ( its memb]s2 = evil is /ronge/ :5 individual4 ,two :o are full ( love may "w toge!r ) ! p[] ( f\r2 b two :o "w toge!r = evil h only ! p[] (--%all ,i say "o & a half8 ,& "o & a half aga9/ f\r6 ,if y love p[]1 use p[] = good & increase x4 ,x is because ( ! multitude ( elem5t>y evil =ces1 all hurl+ _! malice at ! _w1 n because ( _! comb9ation1 t ?is madness 0 made possible4 ,hate is a dis9tegrat+ =ce4 ,^? :o hate aft] ?is w> w dis9tegrate !mselves4 ,^? :o love aft] ?is w> w gr[ /rong4 ,france especially w gr[ /rong1 because !re is m love ?an hate 9 ,france4 ,france loves s mu* t ev5 h] enemies d n hate h]4 ,x is n m]ely because %e is n s brutally /rong z h] great enemy4 ,love y\r enemies4 ,t is ! sure/ way to ov]come !m4 ,m>* #bi4 ,,lett] ,x ,,"o ,,day ,,z ,a ,,?\s& ,,ye>s ,,z ,i am writ+ ab\t w>1 ,i wi% to talk to ^? :o h lo/ _! lov$ ones 9 ?is w>4 ,y :o grieve = ! untimely dead1 h y n read t "o day %all be z a ?\s& ye>s & a ?\s& ye>s z "o day8 ,we mu/ />t on ! basis ( rebir?1 ^: o!r "n is rhy?m1 & ^: c\rse is immortality4 ,immortality presupposes no beg9n+ & looks =w>d to no end4 ,! _s always 0 & always w be4 ,9 ! life ( ! _s "o day is z a ?\s& ye>s & a ?\s& ye>s are z "o day4 ,bir? is ! morn+ ( a new day1 & dea? is ! ev5+ ( t day1 & ! p]iod betwe5 lives is ! p]iod ( sleep+ & dream+4 ,or y may turn x ! o!r way & say t life is a dream & dea? ! awak5+ to reality4 ,b ! rhy?m is sure4 ,fall+ asleep is a pass+ ?r\gh ! a/ral _w1 mu* z ! s\l passes ?r\gh x aft] dea?4 ,y :o write = me1 & a few o!rs1 pass ?r\gh x 9 full consci\sness4 ,"s day all m5 w pass ?r\gh x consci\sly & w br+ back ! memory4 ,y :o grieve = ! dead1 rememb] t a lifetime is b a day to ! immortal _s4 ,(t5 h y p>t$ f a lov$ "o = a day & felt no grief !reat4 ,! lov$ "o left home to p]=m a duty & y felt sure t ! next day y w\ld see him aga94 ,c y n feel t 9 ! next day ( ! s\l1 ! next lifetime 7x is all ! same 9 et]nity71 y w greet y\r lov$ "o aga98 ,fri5ds d n meet 9 e life unless !y are v intimate4 ,z y d n see "o fri5d or ano!r (t5] ?an once a week1 s 9 ! great] days ( ! s\l y may n meet all y\r fri5ds e day4 ,y "p f "o on ,monday ) a def9ite engagem5t to meet on ,friday4 ,f\r days1 f\r lifetimes1 x is all ! same 9 et]nity4 ,b f "s y only "p = a few h\rs1 f noon to sunset1 & meet aga9 9 ! ev5+ 9 ! intimacy ( home4 ,^? :o h left y n[ at ! midday ( life w p]haps come home to y at ! sunset2 :i* is only ano!r way ( say+ t !y may meet y at ! end ( ?is day ( ! s\l1 ! end ( ?is life1 & be ) y 9 ! twilight p]iod ( ! a/ral life & 9 ! sweet dream ( heav5 beyond4 ,d n grieve4 ,love waits = its own4 ,"s fri5ds y may meet aga9 two1 f\r or sev5 lifetimes away2 b ^? :o are really y\r intimates1 y\r lov]s1 y\r own1 y w meet aga9 at ! sunset1 or at ! late/ tomorr[--! next day ( ! s\l on e>?4 ,h[ w y prep>e = ! meet+8 ,w y n "w *e]fully all day1 kn[+ t at dusk ,love w come back to y8 ,z sunset approa*es1 w y n robe y\rself 9 ! :ite g>m5t ( fai?1 ! ev5+ g>m5t1 & wat* = ,love at ! w9d[8 ,love w come4 ,c y n 9 anticipation he> 8 foot/ep on ! gravel8 ,c y n he> ! click ( ! lift$ lat*8 ,w y n g =w>d ) a smile to greet ,love8 ,surely1 "o day %all be z a ?\s& ye>s & a ?\s& ye>s z "o day4 ,i took c\nsel ) ! s\l ( an ,engli% (fic] :o di$ 9 lead+ a *>ge4 ,8 dea? 0 quick & pa9less4 ,a %ot ?r\gh ! he>t & he f\nd himself--aft] a p]iod ( unconsci\sness--/ill1 z he suppos$1 lead+ a *>ge4 ,b !re 0 no enemy be=e him1 no?+ b ! tranquil fields above ! tumult2 = s great 0 8 exaltation ( _s--he _h di$ ) ! ?\ght ( 8 ,love 9 8 he>t--t he _h gone up & up to ! region :]e ,love may h room4 ,see+ no?+ be=e him he paus$1 look$ r\nd & saw me4 8,bro!r10 ,i said1 8y h left ! w> beh9d y40 ,he und]/ood4 ,^? :o h liv$ = weeks 9 ! t5ts ( ,dea? are n sl[ 9 recogniz+ ,dea? :5 he lifts ! curta94 8,& :at ( ! *>ge80 he ask$ eag]ly4 8,0 ! *>ge won80 8,yes10 ,i repli$1 8! =ce ( y\r _s won x40 8,!n all is well10 0 8 answ]4 8,re/ a little10 ,i said4 8,re/ & talk ) me40 8,h we met be=e80 he ask$4 8,= y\r face is famili> to me40 8,my face is famili> to _m on ! battlefields10 ,i said4 8,:5 did y come----out "h80 8,?ree ye>s ago40 8,!n y c tea* me mu*40 8,p]haps ,i c tea* y some?+4 ,:at d y want to "k80 8,i w\ld "k h[ to com=t "o to :om my dea? w br+ great grief40 8,:]e is %e80 ,i ask$4 ,he nam$ ! place4 8,!n come10 ,i said1 8,i w g ) y40 ,we f\nd a beautiful woman 9 a little room 9 ,engl&1 a little room :i* conta9$ a little b$4 ,& 9 ! b$ 0 a boy f\r or five ye>s old4 ,we c\ld he> ! voices ( ! "m & *ild z !y talk$ toge!r4 8,& :5 w fa!r come home80 ! little "o ask$4 8,i d n "k10 said ! "m4 8,fa!r w come home1 won't he8 ,are y sure t he w come home80 8,i pray t he comes home soon10 0 all ! "m said4 ,! eyes ( *ildr51 z !y pass into ! twilight _w1 ! _w betwe5 wak+ & sleep+1 are sometimes v cle>4 8,:y1 fa!r has come home60 ! *ild cri$1 & he /ret*$ out 8 arms to ! fa!r ) a glad cry4 ,& ! "m knew & 0 v /ill4 ,b h] grief 0 s(t5$ by kn[+ t he :om %e lov$ _h come home & t h] *ild _h se5 him4 ,i ?9k he w rema9 ) h] until %e c jo9 him "h4 ,! delay w n ret>d ! progress ( 8 s\l4 ,love is ! fulfill+ ( ! law4 ,!re is "t 9 et]nity = love & ! delays ( love4 ,9 love a ?\s& ye>s are z "o day4 ,m>* #bi4 ,,lett] ,,xi ,,_m ,,tongues ,,le>n languages4 ,my "w 9 ?is w> has be5 hamp]$ by my kn[+ s little ( ,g]man4 ,) ! s\ls ( ^? long "h ,i c hold conv]se by pure ?\ght2 b ! s\ls ( ! newly-come speak ! language !y spoke on e>? & (t5 t language is b a patois4 ,t is "o reason :y ,i h _h be/ success among ! ,engli% armies4 ,i c read ! ?\ghts ( ! ,g]mans & ! ,fr5*1 b !y _c always und]/& me4 ,! fa!r & "m ( ! two wom5 9 ,belgium _h be5 s long out "h t we c\ld und]/& ea* o!r's ?\ghts4 ,le>n languages4 ,:5 y come to "w 9 ?is _w y may want !m ev5 m ?an on e>?1 = di/ances "h are %ort z ?\ght1 & "o goes f place to place 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye4 ,m>* #cj4 ,,lett] ,,xii ,,! ,,beautiful ,,be+ ,,! angel we call ! ,beautiful ,be+1 :o guid$ me on my j\rney among ! planets1 w\ld l to ins]t "h a few words on ,love & ,hate4 ,!y seem to be an expression ( ! mortal & ! ,immortal ,self1 9 ! e>ly days ( ! w>4 ,,love ,,& ,,hate ,"o :om ,i lov$ made w> on me1 & ! nations ( ! e>? made w> on "o ano!r4 ,! gre5 fields 7 /a9$ ) blood & ! hum ( ! h>ve/ crickets 0 dr[n$ 9 cries ( pa9 & rage1 z m5 ru%$ on to wreak _! hate ^u _! human k9dr$4 ,my he>t 0 sadd] ?an ! skies ( ! ,london w9t]4 ,no joy !re seem$ 9 all ! e>?2 = love 0 dy+ & peace 0 dead1 & m5 7 go+ ev]y:]e to dea?4 ,,m5e1 ,,m5e1 ,,tekel1 ,,uph>s9 0 writt5 on ! walls ( ! human temple4 ,& ,i said to my he>t3 8,:]e h we drift$ 9 ! midday ( our life8 ,& :y d we wait = ! sunset8 ,= love has fail$1 & ! _w has fail$1 & h we n fail$1 too80 ,!n z ,i sat gaz+ into ! no?+ness ( my own fai?1 ,i he>d a voice t seem$ to come f ! c5tre ( all ?+s & ! voice said3 8,take y\r p5 & write1 = to him :o has lo/ ev]y?+ ! treasures ( ! ,self are op5$4 8,i am t ,self t y _h =gott5 :5 y look$ outside = love4 ,i am ! ,self t ! nations _h =gott5 :5 !y w5t out to de/roy "o ano!r4 ,i am ! ,"o ,self1 & my h\se is 9 all ^! he>ts t ?rob ) hate & love4 ,:5 !y w\nd ea* o!r !y w\nd me2 :5 !y d\bt ea* o!r !y d\bt me2 :5 !y love ea* o!r !y love me4 ,!re is no o!r way ( realiz+ me save by love & hate & fai? & d\bt4 ,= love & hate are two poles ( ! "o magnet1 & d\bt & fai? are my tw9-born *ildr54 8,he :o has nev] d\bt$ all1 kn[s n ! mean+ ( fai?2 & he :o has nev] be5 hat$1 kn[s n ! mean+ ( love4 8,:5 ! he>t is empty ( joy ,i fill x ) myself4 ,:5 my own de/roy ea* o!r on e>? !y ru% toge!r 9 heav54 ,fre$ f ! bl9dness ( ! body !y see ea* o!r true4 8,two soldi]s w5t =? to w>1 & ! bullet ( ea* pi]c$ ! he>t ( ! o!r4 ,_! hate 0 hot z love4 ,!n 9 ! sudd5 d>kness ( dea? !y rea*$ = ea* o!r's h&2 _! hate _h f\nd its o!r pole & !y melt$ toge!r 9 love4 8,two fri5ds w5t =? to w> aga9/ ea* o!r1 & ) e w\nd !y drew ne>] toge!r--! s\l ( ea* griev$ = ! o!r's pa91 & nei!r 9 dea? nor life c "o escape ! o!r4 8,w\ld y avoid a lov$ "o1 !n nev] d>e to hate him4 ,! s\l has pity :5 ! bra9 is pitiless2 ! fai? ( ! s\l may be /ronge/ :5 ! m9d is weak ) d\bt4 8,! s\l ( ! bra9 t hates y keeps wat* :5 ! bra9 is /ill1 x wipes ) its vapory h& ! te>-drops f y\r eyes4 8,:5 y weep 9 dreams1 "k t y\r s\l is weep+ = ! te>s y h caus$ y\r enemy4 ,:5 y wake ) wet eyes1 y are pay+ ! debt ( love4 8,be k9d to him :o loves y1 = love is a helpless waif2 if y drive x f ! he>t x c only w&] alone4 8,be k9d to him :o hates y1 = 8 waif is w&]+ alone4 8,:5 y g to sleep1 s5d love to ! "o :o w\nds y by day4 ,if y g to sleep 9 hate y w wake ) wet eyes4 8,i am ! g-betwe54 ,i am ! ,self ^: h\se is 9 e he>t4 ,i take messages 9 ! d>kness4 ,i am too great to be pr\d4 ,i run err&s = my own4 8,h[ well y h tri$ to hate ,i "k by y\r he>t's sadness4 ,t y h fail$ to hate is because y\r s\l is sleepless4 8,i am ! g-betwe5 & ,i keep my lant]n lit40 ,april #a4 ,,lett] ,,xiii ,,! ,,body ,,( ,,humanity ,i ,,h said t z tw5ty ( u /ood 9 ! palace at ,potsdam & 9 ! ,wilhelm/rasse1 ! greate/ ( ! ,tea*]s 0 n ) u4 ,y d n "k ! "n by :i* we "k him1 nor d y ne$ to "k4 ,he is "o :o has left s f> beh9d him ! p]sonal limitations ( life z y "k x t he c look ^u t life some:at z ! ,planet>y ,logos may look ^u x4 ,he c look at ! re/less & w>r+ be+s on e>? z y w\ld look at micro-organisms ?r\gh a l5s4 ,amba1 fat-cell1 pus-cell1 he sees !m all z p>ts ( ! great ,:ole1 & _! w>s d n make him p>tisan4 ,! ass]tions1 ! reit]ations1 ! bomba/ic pray]s ( ! ,g]man ,emp]or1 :o goes on ! assumption t ,god mu/ be on 8 side because x is 8 side1 d n move ?is ,ma/] ev5 to smiles4 ,absurdity & trag$y are "o to him1 except z !y fur!r or ret>d ! gr[? ( ! organism ( ,humanity4 ,if y get into y\r consci\sness a realization1 n a m]e philosophic !ory1 ( ! ,"o & ! _m1 y w und]/& t ! ,"o is 9 all ! _m1 :e!r "s ( !m be y\r fri5ds or y\r enemies4 ,ano!r ?+ rememb]3 ,to posit is to create4 ,posit & ?us create bro!rhood4 ,b d n posit x too viol5tly1 le/ y climax y\r rhy?m too soon & produce by reaction ! opposite ( bro!rhood4#b ,! greate/ ( ! ,ma/]s seem$ to u to posit no new ?+ :5 ! w>-cl\d ga!r$4 ,we ^: k is n inf9ite tri$ to s]ve z physicians1 tri$ to cool ! fev] t 0 burn+ ! cells ( ! ,great ,man1 ,humanity4 ,we may be said to h giv5 him m5tal treatm5t1 to h urg$ on ! curative process4 ,! a/ral =ces ) :i* we /ruggl$ 7 l g]ms ( disease 9 ! air4 ,f ! view-po9t ( ! great ,ma/] !y 7 no m ?an infusoria :i* y c\ld see ?r\gh a l5s4 ,adju/ y\r view to et]nity z well z to "t1 if y w\ld und]/& him & help him 9 8 "w4 ,b d n reg>d y\r own "w z unimportant because x is 9 "t1 because f ! great] po9t ( view y fancy t x may appe> small4 ,h[ does a man become a ,ma/] save by do+ 8 "w z if ! heal? ( ! :ole planet>y organism dep5d$ on x8 ,! p]fect heal? ( ! organism does dep5d on ! "w ( e cell4 ,n[ let me tell y :y ?is w> _h to be4 ,! "t _h come :5 humanity mu/ realize bro!rhood 9 prep>ation = ! new race t _h to be born4 ,in/ead ( t1 !re 0 great] & great] sep>ation 9 feel+1 ?\gh ! mat]ial discov]ies & organizations ( ! la/ hundr$ ye>s 7 mak+ bro!rhood possible 9 ! mat]ial _w4 ,! rhy?m ( sep>at5ess 0 climax$ by ?is w> ( sep>ation4 ,)\t x ! bro!rhood ( man w\ld h be5 ret>d$ by man's refusal to "w emotionally ) ! law t _h already be5 demon/rat$ to him 9 ! physical _w4 ,9 o!r words1 ! body _h gr[n fa/] ?an ! s\l & ! s\l _h to suff] ) ! body2 ! s\l _h to be torn 9 ord] t x might heal itself by its own p[]1 ! p[] ( love4 ,i spoke ( n climax+ too viol5tly ! rhy?m ( bro!rhood4 ,t applies to all rhy?mic waves4 ,! ,g]mans desir$ to be ! rul+ race ( ! _w4 ,!y posit$ _! own sup]iority s viol5tly t !y are produc+ ! opposite ( sup]iority4 ,posit ) calmness4 ,!y might h be5 ! lead]s 9 ! new _s ( unity4 ,!y h fail$ & h lo/ _! opportunity4 ,! mass ( ,g]mans 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates might h be5 a unify+ =ce betwe5 ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,g]many4 ,see :at !y are n[6 ,! reason :y ,g]many 0 n p]mitt$ by ! ,ma/]s to h l>ge colonies ( h] own 0 s t h] surplus population might scatt] ov] ! e>? & mix ) o!r races4 ,! ,g]man blood ne$$ mix+4 ,h] effici5cy 9 mat]ial ways might ?us h leav5$ ! _w4 ,in/ead1 %e became drunk ) h] own greatness4 ,%e climax$ ! rhy?m t might h c>ri$ h] /eadily =w>d4 ,x is a k>mic failure %e has made4 ,! races are l organs 9 ! body ( ,humanity4 ,if "o race refuses to "w ) & = ! body ( ,humanity z well z = itself1 x becomes diseas$4 ,if ,g]many w\ld ev5 n[ turn to ! ,supreme ,unity & wor%ip ! ,"o ( ! ,sy/em in/ead ( h] little racial god1 %e c\ld recov] ! gr\nd %e has lo/1 aft] a "t ( suff]+ & initiation4 ,w %e d x8 ,t rema9s to be se54 ,help ) ! ,ma/]s to hold back ! bad k>ma ( t race4 ,,footnotes3 ,footnote #b3 ,i h be5 some:at tr\bl$ by ! unusual expression1 8climax a rhy?m40 ,b z !re are _m rhy?mic ripples 9 e great wave1 & z ! highe/ rea* ( a wave may be said to be its climax1 ,i assume t 8,x0 is us+ words ) ! same judicial precision :i* he us$ on e>?1 & t ! climax ( a rhy?mic wave may be call$ ! climax ( a rhy?m4--,editor4 ,,lett] ,,xiv ,,! ,,foeman ,,)9 ,,y h some?+ m to d ?an simply to write d[n :at ,i say ab\t bro!rhood4 ,) selfless devotion y mu/ help ! _w to realize x1 po9t+ out ! way to individuals & aggregates ( individuals4 ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood6 ,x has a pretty s\nd1 & m\?s h repeat$ x = ! sake ( its music1 :5 ! mean+ ( x 0 nei!r 9 ! he>t nor 9 ! bra94 ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood is n only ! bro!rly relation betwe5 ! units ( ! ,_m1 b ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood is also _! unity1 consci\s & real1 9 ! ,"o ,self4 ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood is ! return ( ! ,_m to ! ,"o1 z well z _! enjoym5t ( ! j\rney itself4 ,y h repeat$ ! old ,h9doo ^w1 =mula1 mantra1 ,,aum1 repeat$ x l a p>rot2 b if y _h realiz$ ,,aum ,i %\ld n h to prea* bro!rhood to y1 & by 8y0 ,i mean all m5 & wom5 :o h prattl$ ( ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood4 ,a-,u-,m--! ,"o1 ! ,_m1 & ! ,union betwe5 !m3 ! ,self1 ! ,n-,self1 & ! ,negation ( sep>at5ess4 ,,aum1 ! se$1 ! plant & ! p]fume4 ,:at d y fancy t y are 9 ! _w =8 ,y h he>d ( ,mulaprakriti1 y ,!osophi/s3 ,mulaprakriti1 root-nature4 ,y h he>d ( ! ?ree gunas1 or qualities ( ,mulaprakriti1 satwa1 rajas1 tamas3 satwa1 light1 be+1 peace2 rajas1 action1 passion1 ass]tion2 tamas1 d>kness1 in]tia1 d5ial4 ,"s ( y h also he>d ( ,*ri/1 ,lucif]1 ,ahriman4--,satwa1 rajas & tamas1 aga91 "u o!r names4 ,y ,kabali/s h he>d ( ,ne%amah1 ,rua*1 ,nephe%3 aspiration1 individual intellig5ce1 mat]iality4 ,y h all he>d ( ,vi%nu1 ,brahma1 ,%iva3 ! ,pres]v]1 ! ,creator1 ! ,de/roy]4--,yes1 t is ! prop] ord]1 = ,vi%nu pres]ves f kalpa to kalpa1 & ,brahma recreates4 ,kri%na 7,vi%nu7 says 9 ! ,bhagavat-,gita1 8,i am ! ,self t is seat$ 9 ! he>ts ( all be+s40 ,he is ! ,"o & ! ,_m1 = ,he is 9 ! _m & ! _m are 9 ,him4 ,y _c realize ,kri%na save z y realize ,him z ! ,self t is seat$ 9 ! he>ts ( all be+s4 ,y _c realize ! ,*ri/ until y c see ,him 9 ! he>ts ( all be+s4 ,yes1 y may /ruggle ) "o ano!r & call x hate1 or w>2 t is sep>at5ess4 ,sep>at5ess is necess>y z a /age ( evolution1 t ! ego may realize itself z di/9ct2 b ! "t has come :5 ! race %\ld turn back t[>d its ,s\rce1 to ,unity1 to ! ,atma t is ! same 9 ev]yone4 ,i h le>n$ mu* s9ce ,i la/ left y two ye>s ago4 ,on e>? ,i did n talk incessantly ( ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood4 ,i want$ to a*ieve a 8pe]less individuality40 ,well1 ,i h a*iev$ x4 ,on my two ye>s' j\rney among ! planets & else:]e1 ,i f\nd ! p[] ,i s\ght2 b ,i f\nd some?+ else--love1 ! greate/ p[] ( all4 ,bro!rhood is love & t is :y ,i prea* bro!rhood4 ,y may acquire individuality by hat+1 b n a 8pe]less individuality40 ,d n be afraid ( los+ y\r id5tity4 ,s long z y c love some?+ o!r ?an y\rself y w n lose y\r individuality4 ,= to love some?+ o!r is to posit y\r individuality4 ,to love only y\r sep>ate self is to lose y\r hold on individuality1 = y are only an individual 9 relation to o!r selves4 ,alone 9 ! univ]se1 y w\ld h to be no?+ or ev]y?+1 & y _c be ev]y?+--n j yet1 save z y are ev]y?+ ?r\gh unity ) ev]y?+1 & t is love4 ,rebel z y w1 by t v rebellion aga9/ o!rs y ass]t _! equality ) y1 y ass]t _! co-exi/5ce1 & beh9d co-exi/5ce is ,unity1 ,kri%na1 8! ,self t is seat$ 9 ! he>ts ( all be+s40 ,d n be %ock$ :5 ,i say t f our po9t ( view ?is w> seems v *ildi%1 v ignorant4 ,w> 0 noble a long "t ago :5 mank9d 0 on its way out & ne$$ to realize sep>at5ess2 b 9 c\rse ( "t w> w become n only unnecess>y1 b banal4 ,i am n je/+ ) s]i\s ?+s4 ,i "k f> bett] ?an y c "k h[ v s]i\s ?is w> is1 = ,i h wat*$ x on bo? planes4 ,! w> betwe5 ! =ces ( good & evil 0 n banal4 ,9 ! human he>t t w> w g on = a long "t yet1 aeons on aeons2 b ! day has come :5 m5 %\ld w> ) ! evil 9 !mselves1 & let o!r m5 w> ) ! evil 9 !mselves4 ,! sword ( ,m>s1 ! w>-god1 w n ru/ s long z ! ,m>s 9 man wields x aga9/ ! p[]s ( d>kness 9 himself4 ,i h se5 ! p[]s ( d>kness 9 m5 ext]ioriz$1 h se5 !m 9 objective =m1 & ,i assure y !y are foem5 wor?y ( y\r /eel4 ,ea* ( y has )9 a foeman wor?y ( 8 /eel4 ,ea* man has also ! ,self1 ! div9e1 ! ,*ri/1 ! ,kri%na t is seat$ 9 ! he>ts ( all be+s4 ,i want to tell y some?+ :i* ,i saw ) my own eyes4 ,on a battlefield 9 ,france1 two soldi]s kill$ ea* o!r ) ! bayonet4 ,! devil 9 ea* escap$ ) ! s\l4 ,!y 7 n ord9>y m54 ,i saw ^! two devils1 ^! two 8dwell]s on ! ?re%old10 ^! two 8desire-elem5tals10 call !m :at y w4 ,d y ?9k !y fell ^u ea* o!r to de/roy ea* o!r8 ,n at all4 ,ea* fell ^u ! s\l x belong$ to4 ,!y _h no int]e/ 9 ea* o!r2 !y _h no?+ to give or to take away f ea* o!r1 ^! devils1 dwell]s1 elem5tals4 ,d y see :at ,i mean8 ,y\r enemy is )9 y4 ,! "o y fight outside is y\r bro!r4 ,love him ) bro!rly love & y\r devil w gr[ weak] z y\r angel gr[s /rong]4 ,y\r angel is desc5d$ f ! ,atma1 ! ,*ri/1 ! ,kri%na 9 y4 ,x is simil> to ! ,atma1 ! ,*ri/1 ! ,kri%na 9 y\r bro!r4 ,! devils are all v individual4 ,! angels are all v mu* alike1 ?\gh "s are /rong] ?an o!rs & old] 9 exp]i5ce4 ,seek ! ,*ri/ 9 y\rself1 t x may arise1 ) tid+s ( great joy unto all m54 ,t is :at ,i wi% to say to ! _w on ?is ev5+ be=e ,ea/] ,day4 ,april #c4 ,,lett] ,,xv ,,li/5+ ,,9 ,,brussels ,,no1 d n expect me to write essays4 ,i am writ+ lett]s4 ,let me be z discursive z ,i please4 ,b y w see at ! end ( my labors t ! build+ has a frame1 & t all ! p>ts are 9 place4 ,hav+ philosophiz$ ! la/ "t1 ,i w n[ tell y a /ory4 ,:5 ! ,g]man army pass$ ?r\gh unresi/+ ,brussels 7?ree days1 if ,i rememb] rightly1 x 0 pass+ ?r\gh1 a long1 mov+ grey-gre5 riv] ( m51 on ^: helmett$ ripples ! sunlight or ! lamplight glitt]$71 ,i /ood = an h\r unnotic$ ^u a balcony1 read+ ! ?\ghts ( man aft] man z he pass$ be=e my place4 ,z ,i h expla9$ to y be=e1 ,i h no difficulty 9 read+ ! ?\ghts ( ! ,g]mans2 x is only 9 try+ to make !m und]/& me t ,i (t5 fail4 ,! riv] ( m5 & ! riv] ( ?\ghts1 ea* man a ripple1 ea* ?\ght a ripple6 ,"h are a few ripples ( ?\ght :i* caught ! light ( my att5tion3 8,:at a beautiful city ,brussels is60 8,my feet are tir$4 ,my %oes hurt me40 8,t tree yond] is l ! "o beside ! door at home40 8,"m w be mak+ c(fee at ?is h\r40 8,:at a pretty girl--! "o ) ! bread 9 h] basket60 8,i wond] if ,gret*5 w talk mu* ) ,hans n[ ,i am gone40 8,t gate on ! left is ! "o t ,m>ie s5t me on a picture po/c>d la/ ye>40 8,my feet are tir$4 ,my %oes hurt me40 8,s ?is is ,brussels6 ,i always want$ to see x40 8,my head a*es40 8,deuts*l& b] ,alles6 ,deuts*l& b] ,alles60 8,i wond] if ! ,lieut5ant paid 8 tailor40 8,h[ w>m x is60 8,:at is fa!r do+ n[80 8,i wi% ,i _h a glass ( be]60 8,i am glad we don't de/roy ,brussels60 8,:at is all ?is w> ab\t1 anyway80 8,! ,fa!rl&6 ,! ,fa!rl&60 8,:at w !y give u = supp]80 8,i wond] :]e we are go+80 8,?is isn't s f9e z ! ,unt] dem ,l9d540 8,:5 we get to ,p>is ,i mu/ see ! ,v5us ( ,milo40 8,my head a*es40 8,our baby has a too?60 8,w x ev] be supp]-"t60 ,& s on & on & on1 z ! long grey-gre5 riv] fl[$ ?r\gh ! city ( ,brussels4 ,& ^! 7 ! m5 t 9 a little :ile w\ld murd] & rob & burn & rape1 & murd] & rob & burn6 ,_m ( !m _h done s already--^! tir$ m5 ) _! aimless1 unw>like ?\ghts1 _! commonplace soldi] ?\ghts1 ( home & food & a*+ feet & ( po/c>ds ,m>ie s5t la/ ye> & ! h\r = "m's c(fee6 ,:at p[] trans=m$ !m into devils8 ,:at demon dehumaniz$ !m till !y =got _! we>9ess8 ,0 x ! rauc\s cry ( ! w>-trumpet8 ,0 x ! devil beh9d ! devil :o blew ! trumpet8 ,0 x ! evil _s ( a nation1 or m]ely ! _s ( w>8 ,x 0 all ( ^! ?+s4 ,p]haps :5 !y began _! m>*+ !y ?\ght ( glory & hate & life & dea? & honor2 b !y _h be5 m>*+ long & _! ?\ghts _h become simple z ! ?\ghts ( we>y old m54 ,:at 0 x all ab\t8 ,:at p[] 0 driv+ !m on8 ,"s ( ^! m5 kill$ unresi/+ civilians1 /ruck d[n helpless *ildr51 maltreat$ nuns & o!r virg9s1 drove old m5 & wom5 be=e !m z a %ield aga9/ ! fire ( ! oppos+ =ces4 ,:at r\s$ ! devil 9 !m8 ,y\r fri5d is "r 9 say+ t ! w>-trumpet is an in/rum5t t c r\se ! demon t sleeps 9 ! human brea/4 ,he says t ! demonic =ces outside c make _! entry into our _w & our p]sonalities rid+ on ! tones ( ! trumpet-horn4 ,he is "r4 ,he says t x br+s ! elem5t ( fire into ! s\l4 ,pr(\ndly true6 ,fire1 ! elem5t ( de/ruction1 t purifies by de/roy+ :at _c resi/ x4 ,fire 9 ! s\l & fire 9 ! n]ves & fire at ! end ( ! rifle--& dea? by fire to all t gets 9 its way6 ,i h li/5$ = days to ! e>-splitt+ noise by :i* ,g]many seeks to put hell into ! he>ts ( h] soldi]s4 ,my e>s rang ) x ye/]day4 ,:y d y />t8 ,h y n yet accu/om$ y\rself to ! ?\ght t ,i c g back & =?1 f ! hell ( ,europe to ! purgatory ( ,new ,york8 ,yes1 ! ,g]mans 9 ,new ,york are 9 purgatory1 = !y "k t _! cause is lo/4 ,purgatory is = purgation4 ,let u hope t x may accompli% its purpose 9 _! he>ts4 ,& ,i d n say ?is to be unk9d1 b r z a bless+4 ,i love ! ,g]mans1 & all o!r races4 ,s also d y--9 y\r he>t ( he>ts4 ,yes1 x 0 ,i :o1 ?r\gh an easy in/rum5t1 direct$ y to ! ,g]man doctor4 ,i want$ y to see h[ good a ,g]man c be4 ,!re are _m su* 9 t hell-rack$ nation4 ,y %\ld und]/& t hell comes into a man--he does n g into hell4 ,h y n he>d t man is ! ,microcosm ( ! ,macrocosm8 ,^? tir$ grey-gre5 soldi]s t ,i wat*$ 9 _! m>* ?r\gh ,brussels 7 ea* ( !m l>ge en\gh to conta9 hell & heav5 & a _w ( spirits4 ,all ( !m _h conta9$ heav5 _m a "t1 :5 li/5+ to ! /ra9s ( _! ma/]-musicians4 ,x 0 :5 ! w>-trumpet s\nd$1 & ! w>-hate & ! w>-lu/ awoke 9 !m1 t !y conta9$ hell4 ,_m a "t h ,i clut*$ ) my too-t5u\s h&s a ,g]man soldi] :o 0 ab\t to disgrace himself4 ,once1 at ,namur1 ,i kept a "y man f do+ some?+ t w\ld h d>k5$ 8 judgm5t ( himself :ile 8 life la/$--& x la/$ only tw5ty-"o days !reaft]4 ,he 0 a good boy2 b ! devil awoke 9 him z x awoke 9 o!rs4 ,x 0 because he 0 m s5sitive ?an "s o!rs t ,i c\ld make him feel my re/ra9+ h&s4 ,he ?\ght !y 7 ! h&s ( 8 dead gr&fa!r1 :o _h left him only a ye> be=e4 ,:at matt]8 ,he let 8 victim escape4 7,yes1 look up ,namur on ! map1 if y wi% to6 ,y w f9d x 9 ! "r place4 ,y\r unc]ta9ty z to ,belgian geography does n tr\ble me2 b y\r return to ! _w ( y\r own ?\ghts has brok5 ! ?read ( m9e47 ,,lett] ,,xvi ,,! ,,six? ,,race ,,h y ?\ght ab\t ! ,unit$ ,/ates aft] ?is w>8 ,a new race is be+ prep>$ = 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,t is :y y _h to be born !re--y ?r\gh :om ,i write4 ,t is :y ,i am try+ to use y 9 my "w = ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood4 ,no1 y ne$ n rema9 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,x is bett] t y %\ld cont9ue to m+le ) o!r races 9 _! old habitations4 ,! ,!osophical ,society c\ld n h be5 born any:]e else4 ,spiritualism c\ld n h be5 born any:]e else4 ,9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates is a read9ess = new ?+s1 a rea*+ out = ! untri$1 a welcome = ?+s because !y are new4 ,( c\rse ?is t5d5cy may be & is abus$4 ,almo/ any fak] c f9d foll[]s 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates2 b )\t t hospitable _s t[>ds ! ,new1 ! great new race c\ld n come into exi/5ce !re4 ,?is race is n made ( new s\ls1 b ( ! olde/ & mo/ exp]i5c$ s\ls1 exp]i5c$ 9 o!r lives ( ! pa/4 ,! +5u\sness & ! *ildlike quality ( ,am]icans are ! results ( spiritual maturity4 ,! race1 z a race1 is 9 its y\?2 b ! s\ls are old z "t4 ,aft] !y h tak5 a mu* ne$$ re/1 _m or mo/ ( ! s\ls t g out by dea? 9 ?is w> w f9d rebir? 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,oh1 t l& w be a v wond]ful place 9 sev5ty-five or a hundr$ ye>s6 ,y w n be "h !n1 unless y discov] ! f\nta9 ( immortal y\?1 or unless y come back soon1 r5\nc+ ! re/ 9 heav54 ,ponce de ,leon 0 inspir$ :5 he s\ght ! f\nta9 9 ! ,new ,_w4 ,x is !re if any:]e2 b ,au/ralia & ,russia w run y a ke5 race = ! future4 ,no1 ,i %all n tell y ab\t ! ,sev5? ,race4 ,x w come 9 good "t2 b n[ ,i want to talk to y ab\t ! ,six?1 "o ( ^: pione]s y are4 ,d n cut ?is out ( my book because an enemy once said t y 7 egoti/ical4 ,our enemies always see & hate _! own qualities 9 u4 ,develop "s quality an enemy has n1 & he 7or %e7 w love y = x4 ,! horseman is n jeal\s ( ! musician 9 8 quality z musician4 ,x is ! musician :o is jeal\s ( ! musician1 ! egoti/ :o sees & hates ano!r's egotism4 ,if ,g]many 7 a weak nation %e c\ld n s hate ,engl& = h] great] p[]4 ,:5 ! ,six? ,race is fully inc>nate1 all m5 & wom5 ( real developm5t w be able to see 9 ! a/ral _w1 & to he> unspok5 words1 & to read ! ?\ghts ( o!rs4 ,( c\rse !re w be p ( all grades ( developm5t 9 t new race4 ,equality ( developm5t is a pretty dream1 y ,sociali/s4 ,h y n also y\r sup]ior ones1 y\r lead]s8 ,! less develop$ s\ls :o come into inc>nation ) ! ,six? ,race are ^? :o h e>n$ 9 ! pa/ ! "r to be op5 to ! quick5+ influ5ces ( t race4 ,h[ h !y e>n$ t "r8 ,by _! will+ness to *ange & to gr[4 ,g out on ! hillside & wat* ! gr[+ ?+s4 ,take a leaf f ! book ( ,nature4 ,y wond] ab\t ! future ( ,engl&4 ,old ,engl& is provid$ =4 ,has %e n giv5 bir? to ! civilization y enjoy8 ,o!r races 7 pres5t1 ( c\rse2 b language tells ! /ory4 ,z ,i said be=e1 ,engl& has be5 an in/rum5t 9 ! h&s ( ^! ,great ,ones :o wi%$ to make possible ! frat]nity ( races4 ,%e has c>ri$ ! tor* r\nd ! _w4 ,%e has ti$ cont95ts toge!r1 & wov5 ! *a9 :i* w b9d m5 to ea* o!r 9 days t are to come4 ,honor h]1 = %e des]ves honor4 ,honor all nations1 z aggregates ( s\ls1 y\r bro!r-s\ls2 b honor mo/ ^? nations t h work$ ) ! ,law & n aga9/ x4 ,^? :o aspir$ to see ,g]many ! cradle ( ! new race %\ld h made less noise 9 ! bir?-*amb]4 ,!y h sc>$ ! angel visitor away4 ,!re are f\r races 9 ,europe t are cruel races4 ,!y _c rock ! cradle ( ! div9e infant4 ,!y w\ld n remove ! p9 t /uck 9 its back1 le/ if x did n suff] & cry its lungs w\ld lack air4 ,i ne$ n "n ^! races4 ,! ,six? ,race is a s5sitive infant & le>ns m ?r\gh love ?an ?r\gh discipl9e4 ,! ,six? ,race w apply ! discipl9e to itself :5 x feels ! ne$ ( x4 ,its s*oolma/] w be curiosity1 & its play w be ! sci5ces & arts ( peace4 ,its cradle-song w be a *ant ( bro!rhood4 ,no1 x c\ld n be rock$ 9 a ,g]man cradle2 b _m a ,g]man-,am]ican w help to rock x4 ,!y make lovely cradle-songs1 ! ,g]mans1 :5 !y =get ! sup]iority ( be+ gr[n-ups & g back to ! fancies ( *ildhood1 ! my?-mak+ fancies4 ,we want to see m & m ,fr5*m5 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 = ,france has m to tea* ! new race ?an has any o!r nation--,france1 ! inspir$ prophet1 & mo/ ( all ,france ! critic4 ,am]icans are n critical en\gh1 n analytical en\gh1 n subtle en\gh4 ,am]ica ne$s ,france1 & ! m5 & wom5 ( ,france4 ,y h he>d ! old say+1 8,e man has two c\ntries1 8 own & ,france40 ,i may be misquot+1 b ! idea is !re4 ,y wond] h[ anyone born to ! glory & *>m ( ,france %\ld ev] come to ! ,new ,_w8 ,b _m w come1 & m w foll[1 bo? by ! pa? ( ! ocean & by ! pa? ( rebir?4 ,y came t way y\rself1 if y b knew x4 ,recov] ! memory ( pa/ bir?s1 y pione]s ( ! ,six? ,race6 ,y c d x4 ,x is "p ( ! h]itage ( t race4 ,am]ica1 ! 8melt+-pot0 ( nations6 ,y 7 n made to rule an outside empire4 ,:5 ! "t comes make ov] ! ,philipp9e ,isl&s to a nation t c be tru/$ ) !m4 ,y\r empire is )9 y\r own body1 y race ( a score ( races1 y inh]itor ( a score ( fa!rs1 y "m ( ! "o new race6 ,increase y\r army & navy s long z y are n]v\s4 ,put lightn+-rods on y\r h\se & burgl>-al>ms on ! doors & w9d[s4 ,feel secure4 ,!n dream ab\t bro!rhood--:5 y c tru/ 9 x4 ,sit by ! fire ( y\r own coal dug f ! gr\nd by ,dut*m51 z x burns 9 a *imney ( y\r own bricks made by ! h&s ( ,iri%m51 read y\r own newspap] pr9t$ 9 ! language ( ,engli%m51 by ! light ( y\r own lamp made by a ,g]man1 on y\r own he>?-rug made by a ,turk or an ,arm5ian1 enjoy ! feel ( y\r own muscles tra9$ by a ,sw$e1 9 y\r own l95 wa%$ by a ,*9aman1 li/5 to y\r daught] play+ on y\r own piano ! music ( a ,russian1 an ,italian1 a ,pole or a ,fr5*man1 see all ov] y\r own room ?+s made by ! sons ( a doz5 o!r races1 y\r neighbors1 y\r fell[-citiz5s1 y\r fell[-,am]icans1 !n tell me :e!r y d>e n to believe 9 ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood1 & 9 ! new race1 ! syn!sis ( all races6 ,april #h4 ,,lett] ,,xvii ,,an ,,am]ican ,,on ,,gu>d ,i ,,want to speak m ( ,france1 & ( :at %e c d = ,am]ica1 ! l& ( ! com+ new race4 ,i h spok5 be=e ( h] love1 :i* is s great t ev5 h] enemies _c hate h]4 ,i h prais$ h] critical g5ius1 :i* analyses all ?+s & comp>es "o ) ano!r4 ,b n[ ,i want to speak ( h] *>m & h] c\rtesy4 ,y h said y\rself t good-mann]s are ! imitation ( k9d-he>t$ness4 ,to imitate is to emulate4 ,a race t has *>m+ mann]s has a he>t4 ,a race t is brusque ne$s to cultivate he>t4 ,employ ,fr5* tea*]s 9 y\r s*ools1 y ,am]icans4 ,a ,fr5* tea*] or a ,fr5* "m tells h] *ildr5 n to d a c]ta9 ?+ because x is n pretty1 ano!r ^w = *>m+1 = k9d-he>t$4 ,if y imitate k9d-he>t$ness 9 ?is way1 p]haps y w "s day feel x1 y ,am]ican *ildr54 ,by sett+ up ! /&>d ( beauty 9 deportm5t y ne$ h no fe> ( =gett+ ! e?ical4 ,y all drank ,puritan e?ics ) y\r "m's milk2 !re is no dang] t ^? precepts w be lo/ if y practise *>m a little by way ( v>iety4 ,e face 9 ,france 0 once a smil+ face4 ,x 0 n s ?is aft]noon :5 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ,france on my way to y4 ,b ! faces are /ill brave1 because x is n pretty to make a p>ade ( sorr[4 ,i "k ! excess ( ,fr5* m\rn+-app>el might be call$ a p>ade ( sorr[1 b ! black is worn z a m>k ( respect = all ! dead ( ,france4 ,ta/e6 ,!re is a race :i* has x4 ,& 9 advis+ ,am]ica to le>n f ! ,fr5*1 ,i am naturally select+ ! good qualities ( t nation4 ,we all h faults ( our own4 ,! ta/e ( ! ,fr5* 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates at ?is "t6 ,d !y pr9t j\rnals 9 ,engli% attack+ _! enemy8 ,d !y support a lobby 9 ,wa%+ton & a press-bureau 9 ,new ,york8 ,if s ,i h n he>d ( !m1 & we he> ( mo/ ?+s out "h--we :o keep our e>s to ! gr\nd4 ,if !y grieve = _! /rick5 c\ntry1 !y d n drop _! te>s on ,am]ica's fre%ly iron$ %irt-bosom4 ,if !y hate _! enemy1 !y hate him ) a quiet1 well-br$ hate4 ,if ,france w9s a victory 9 ! field1 !y d n blu/] ab\t x4 ,if ,france loses 9 ! field1 !y d n call _! enemy a rattlesnake or "s o!r k9d ( reptile4 ,x w\ld n be pretty4 ,x might n be une?ical1 b x w\ld be bad ta/e4 ,am]icans blu/] too mu*4 ,i said t :5 ,i 0 myself an ,am]ican1 be=e ,i 0 uproot$ & became a citiz5 ( ! _w invisible & univ]sal1 & ,i h n *ang$ my m9d by association ) angels1 adepts & ma/]s4 ,!y nev] blu/]1 b ! devils (t5 d4 ,9 advis+ ,am]ica to le>n f ,france ^? ?+s 9 :i* ,france is supreme1 ,i am n depreciat+ o!r races4 ,ea* nation c le>n some?+ f e o!r nation4 ,! ,*9ese & ! ,japanese h po9ts :]e !y rise above _! neighbors4 ,s h ! ,am]icans4 ,?is w> has br\ght out ! dom9ant traits 9 all ! w>r+ peoples1 & _! complem5t>y traits4 ,h y ev] ?\ght ( ! 8turban$ ,turk0 7or1 to be less ,%akespe>ean1 ! fezz$ ,turk7 z be+ gullible8 ,trea*]\s races are always gullible1 z cruel races are apt to be s5tim5tal--9 all t t\*es !mselves4 8,free ,am]ica0 mu/ bew>e ( too _m laws4 ,engl&1 too consci\s ( h] virtue1 w "o day yield to temptation4 ,g]many1 8ov] all10 has got ! :ole _w on top ( h]4 ,italy1 ! excitable1 is n[ delib]at+ to a degree t w\ld be dang]\s = any o!r l&4 8,neutral ,am]ica0 is s unneutral t h] "r h& ?reat5s h] left1 & bo? ! :ole body4 ,d n be impati5t ) ,presid5t ,wilson4 ,he is deal+ ) ! problems ( ! pres5t w> z if !y 7 dat$ #ejj ,b4,c41 & ! long view is apt to be ! cle> view4 ,! pr(essor 9 him is saf] ?an ! politician 9 him4 ,he is n happy j n[4 ,:y8 ,oh1 t is an affair ( ,/ate1 & ,i am writ+ = publication6 ,i "k s _m secrets t ,i am discreet z ! family doctor4 ,b !re is an 8,am]ican on gu>d to-night40 ,:o is he8 ,old ,abraham ,l9coln1 :o r5\nc$ heav5 t he might wat* ov] ! l& he liv$ & di$ =4 ,no1 ,i %all n tell y any m ab\t him4 ,!re is some?+ sacr$ 9 a s\l's r5\nc+ re/4 ,he w n g too f> away until ,am]ica passes ?r\gh h] next great trial4 ,:5 w t be8 ,z ! ,beautiful ,be+ says1 8,nay1 ,*ild1 y ask too mu*40 ,& /ill y are eag] to "k ab\t ,abraham ,l9coln6 ,i 0 eag] to "k ab\t him myself a few %ort ye>s ago2 b ,i did n ask too _m que/ions4 ,x w\ld n h be5 pretty1 z ! ,fr5* mo!rs say4 ,april #h4 ,,lett] ,,xviii ,a ,,ma/] ,,( ,,compassion ,,9 my =m] book ,i rem9d$ y t y\r fri5ds :o _h pass$ into ! a/ral _w did n "k ev]y?+2 t ?\gh _! sight 0 long] ?an be=e & _! eyes less cl\d$ by matt]1 !y yet c\ld n always prophesy z glibly z =tune-tell]s--or at lea/ t !y 7 wis] n to attempt x4 ,n[ ,i h 9 m9d an illu/ration ( t v po9t1 only ! subjects are mu* m exalt$ ?an ! ord9>y dwell]s on ! a/ral plane4 ,!re is1 = in/ance1 n p]fect unanimity 9 our m9ds z to all ! details ( ! end ( ?is w>4 ,!re are two ( u :o (t5 discuss ways & means1 :o1 :ile desir+ ! same result ( peace1 h slightly v>y+ views z to ! be/ possible way to br+ t result to pass4 ,"o ( our ,bro!rs1 :o is /ill occupy+ 8 physical body mo/ ( ! "t1 has a great desire to s(t5 s f> z possible ! bl[ t is to fall ^u "o ( ! nations 9 ?is w>4 ,we all want to s(t5 s f> z possible ! bl[ = t nation2 b he has 9 8 m9d a plan :i* w\ld1 if put into effect1 v mat]ially s(t5 x4 ,he kn[s t he c\ld p]haps br+ x ab\t 9 ! way he wi%es2 yet he is f> too wise to =ce ! issue4 ,he w n =ce ! issue4 ,he tries s(tly to inspire ^? :o h x 9 _! p[] to sugge/ ! beg9n+s ( peace accord+ to 8 ideas4 ,we d no?+ to deflect ! curr5t ( 8 lov+ ?\ghts1 = he is ! only "o among u--& by u ,i mean ! ,bro!rs ( a c]ta9 developm5t--he is ! only "o among u :o has a great] t5d]ness = "o race ?an = all ! o!rs4 ,he is n s old z "s ( u1 b he is "o ( ! greate/4 ,he may be able to d :at he wi%es1 b ,i p]sonally am n sure4 ,9 "o way he is wis] ?an ,i am2 b my judgm5t is n at all influ5c$ by t5d]ness = my own native l&1 :i* is n yet directly conc]n$1 & s ,i may be a saf] judge ?an he4 ,d n take ?is z an admission ( weakness 9 my ,bro!r4 ,love is n a weakness4 ,?is ,bro!r wrote a pr$iction ?r\gh ! h& ( a pupil ( 8 n long ago4 ,p]haps x w be v]ifi$4 ,no?+ w be ?r[n by any ( u 9 ! way ( its v]ification4 ,9 fact1 if x is ! be/ way x w h ! support ( all4 ,ev5 a ,ma/] does n "k ev]y?+1 ?\gh to ! bl9d eyes ( less] m5 he seems to "k ev]y?+4 ,& a ,ma/] is too wise to attempt to =ce 8 individual w ^u ! _w4 ,! black magician is will+ to br+ ?+s to pass by ! p[] ( 8 w1 & (t5 he c d x2 b he does n always c\nt on ! reaction4 ,! ,:ite ,ma/] always c\nts on ! reaction4 ,he works ) ! ,law4 ,!re is aris+ n[ 9 ,am]ica a s*ool ( magic1 = x is a =m ( magic t !y practise1 & ! tea*]s ( ?is s*ool in/ruct _! foll[]s h[ to br+ ev5ts to pass1 h[ to demon/rate 9 ! mat]ial _w ! mat]ial desires ( _! he>ts4 ,!y c d x1 ! /rong ones c1 if _! desires are n aga9/ ! great /ream ( desire t c>ries ! race =w>d4 ,b (t5 ^! mat]ial desires are n 9 /rict accord ) ! k>ma ( ! p]son desir+2 t is1 ! balance ( k>ma be+ work$ out n[ may be s viol5tly drawn ^u 9 "o direction1 t = ! foll[+ life !re w be left only a lot ( unhappy k>ma1 weak k>ma1 :i* has n be5 wisely di/ribut$ ov] t "t 9 :i* !y h be5 op]at+ ) ?is new play?+1 ?is magic p[] :i* !y are us+ to make _! pres5t lives "o glad sweet song4 ,! way to get :at y want is to w :at ! great ,law decides4 ,t is :at ! ,ma/]s d4 ,& ,i am n d5y+ ! greatness ( my ,bro!r :om ,i m5tion$ a few pages back4 ,he wills ! w ( ! great ,law1 ! same z all ( u d2 & if 8 t5d]ness = 8 native l& has inspir$ him to devise a plan :i* seems 9 h>mony ) ! great ,law1 he w\ld n put ! plan into effect if he c\ld1 %\ld he realize t x 0 n 9 accordance ) t law4 ,!re is always dang] = ! man :o is n a ,ma/] 9 pitt+ 8 judgm5t aga9/ ! law ( k>ma4 ,if a poor man wants to be ri*1 & if he wills h>d en\gh1 he c become ri*2 b he may miss by ! way o!r ?+s t 8 s\l ne$s f> m ?an x ne$s ri*es4 ,"o ( ! greate/ dang]s t face ,am]ica 9 ! future is ! dang] ( black magic4 ,among a hundr$ m5 or wom5 :o take up ,new ,?\ght1 ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce1 c]emonial magic1 & c]ta9 philosophies ) ev5 l(ti] v]bal aims1 !re may be "o ^: desire is p]fectly pure & unselfi%4 ,!re is great p[] 9 ,am]ica4 ,! untrodd5 hills & m\nta9s are full ( fre% new =ces t man may draw ^u4 ,also ! a/ral _w above ,am]ica--t lay] ( ! a/ral :i* lies imm$iately outside ! physical cont95t1 z ! aura ( man ext5ds beyond 8 body--t lay] ( ! a/ral _w above ,am]ica is full ( =ces1 elem5tal & a/ral =ces1 :i* c be us$ consci\sly by ^? :o "k h[ to use !m1 & :i* are us$ unconsci\sly by ^? ^: p]sonal desires are s /rong t ! m or less imp]sonal =ces are oblig$ to foll[ !m--swung into l9e by ! p[] ( desire or w4 ,great dang] lies t way = ^? :o use su* =ces = evil1 & betwe5 selfi% desire & evil ! veil is v ?94 ,!re are seek+ inc>nation 9 ?is new race _m ( ^? ^: magical "w along d>k l9es 0 int]rupt$ 9 ! old days ( ,atlantis4 ,yes1 t /ory ( ,atlantis is true4 ,_m ( ^! s\ls are n[ com+ 91 "s "h & "s 9 o!r c\ntries2 b _! ma9 c\rse is 9 ! direction ( ! ,new ,_w4 ,m & m ! =ces ( magic w be us$ 9 ! ,new ,_w4 ,x is = y & = o!rs :o "k t magic us$ = selfi% purposes is always black magic1 to w>n ^? :o are too mu* fasc9at$ by ! idea t !y c be ! mak]s ( _! own =tunes at ! exp5se ( o!rs4 ,?is w>n+ is mu* ne$$4 ,& ,i want to say to ^? ^: only desire = occult k is t !y may use x = _! own selfi% ends1 t if !y /& 9 ! way ( ! ,law t works = unselfi%ness 9 ! new race1 !y w be de/roy$ aga9 z !y 7 de/roy$ 9 anci5t ,atlantis4 ,& ,i d n mean t _! s\ls w be de/roy$1 b t _! lives w be cut %ort & _! influ5ce = evil nullifi$4 ,d n be %ock$ :5 ,i tell y t !re h be5 work+ 9 ,europe dur+ & be=e ! pres5t w> 8artificial elem5tals0 t 7 creat$ 9 ! "t ( ,atlantis4 ,^? be+s1 = !y h a =ce & a pseudo-individuality1 h be5 us$ 9 ?is w> by ^? 7n[ re9c>nat$7 :o creat$ !m ages ago4 ,!y h drift$ to _! creators by ! p[] ( attraction4 ,"o su* creature 0 de/roy$ la/ ,july1 & ,i assi/$ 9 its de/ruction4 ,at ! "t ( ! bir? ( a new race1 w has great dynamics4 ,use y\r w ) ! ,law1 n aga9/ x4 ,d y realize1 y :o put y\r desires above all ?+s1 t ea* ( y is b a drop 9 ! /ream ( s\ls8 ,! drop t w\ld isolate itself f ! /ream may be suck$ up by ! sun 9 ! =m ( vapor & wait a long "t be=e ent]+ ! /ream aga94 ,n[ d n take any ( ?is z apply+ to my ,bro!r :o wants to s(t5 ! bl[ = 8 native l&4 ,i want to s(t5 ! future ( my native l&1 & t is :y ,i am writ+ ab\t ! new race t is go+ to be born 9 ,am]ica4 ,b if ,i %\ld le>n1 ?r\gh c\nsel ) my ,bro!rs or ?r\gh individual inspiration1 t x 0 be/ t ! new race %\ld be born else:]e1 ,i w\ld "w ) ! same devotion to br+ x into be+ 9 t o!r place4 ,& s w\ld my ,bro!r4 ,we :o "w ) ! ,law put ! welf>e ( ! human race above our own individual loves4 ,all races are "o race--! human race--& we "w toge!r z "o4 ,april #aj4 ,,lett] ,,xix ,,! ,,rose-,,veil$ ,,/rang] ,,"o day ! angel :om we call ! ,beautiful ,be+ came to me lead+ ano!r angel by ! h&4 ,long association ) ?is extraord9>y be+ has taught me nev] to be surpris$ by any?+ x does4 ,i accept its vag>ies z expressions ( a /ate ( consci\sness above & beyond my own1 & mu* t ,i h le>n$ dur+ ! la/ ?ree ye>s ,i owe to its :imsical b t5d] fri5d%ip = me4 ,z ,i expla9$ 9 my =m] writ+1 ! ,beautiful ,be+--:om we call an angel = want ( a bett] t]m--has nev] %>$ ! physical life ( e>?4 ,x is a be+ ( ano!r evolution ?an ! human1 & = t reason its views ( human life are uniquely valuable4 ,x smil$ z x came to me1 lead+ by ! h& ano!r simil> to itself b f> less l mank9d4 ,introductions 9 ! cele/ial regions are (t5 v unconv5tional2 b ! ,beautiful ,be+1 :o has obs]v$ ! life ( m51 sometimes amuses me by delici\s mimicry ( ! ways ( mortals4 8,rose-veil$ "o10 x n[ said to its angelic companion1 8p]mit me to pres5t to y my fri5d #8,x'1 a ,judge rec5tly arriv$ f ! planet ,e>?1 :o w cons5t ,i am sure to act z y\r cic]one ov] a section ( t]ritory :]e hi/ory is 9 ! mak+4 ,ask him any?+ y w & he w answ] y--if he c4 ,he is /ill unle>n$ 9 ! language ( y\r di/ant />2 b he c conv]se 9 ?\ghts ) y ^: co>se/ ve/ure is a body ( ?\ght40 ,i express$ my pleasure at meet+ ! /rang]1 & ask$ if ,i %\ld %[ x a battlefield4 8,i d n und]/& ! idea--battlefield10 x answ]$2 8b ,i %\ld l to see x40 8,y w und]/& f> less :5 y h se5 x10 smil$ ! ,beautiful ,be+4 ,x *anc$ t day t ! oppos+ =ces 9 ,france & ,belgium 7 unusually active 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ,spr+ campaign1 & ,i l$ my two fri5ds to a po9t :]e !y c\ld wat* ! combat4 8,:at are ^? be+s d[n !re s5d+ back & =?80 ask$ ! rose-veil$ /rang]4 8,^? objects are kn[n z %ells10 ,i repli$4 8,%ells80 ! /rang] return$ 9 bewild]m5t4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ answ]$ = me4 8,%ells are elaborately convolut$ h\ses 9 :i* our bro!rs ( ! great deep live & disport !mselves40 ,! look ( bewild]m5t increas$ on ! face ( ! /rang]4 8,my fri5d =gets10 ,i said1 8t y "k n ! language ( e>?1 :]e a ^w1 an arbitr>y symbol = an idea1 may /& = two ideas v dissimil>40 8,:at are ^? objects t ! be+s d[n !re are s5d+ back & =?80 ! /rang] repeat$4 ,i h to translate its =m ( spee* into ord9>y ,engli% to make x intelligible4 ,lit]ally1 its communication w\ld /& l ?is3 88 ,objects be+s s5d+ reciprocally80 ,f my long association ) angels1 bo? ^? ) a/ral bodies & ^? )\t1 su* a =m ( spee* is intelligible to me2 & ,i answ]$1 translat+ my cumbr\s native idiom into ! simpl] language ( ideas3 8,! objects t are hurl$ back & =? betwe5 ^? be+s on ! pla9 bel[ u are explosive %ells1 ) a m>vel\s p[] to %att] ! =ms ( o!r objects & to scatt] !m 9 all directions40 8,is x a =m ( play80 ask$ ! rose-veil$ /rang]4 8,x is n10 ,i answ]$4 8,x is w>40 8,w>80 ,all ! horror t 9 my m9d is associat$ ) ! ^w w> 0 convey$ by my ?\ght to ! m9d ( ! angelic visitor1 & its rosy veil grew pale ) pa94 8,:at is ?is /range emotion t ,i feel80 x ask$4 8,truly1 7 x n = y\r pres5ce "h1 my fri5ds1 ,i %\ld desire to g away40 8,! emotion t y feel10 ,i said1 8is a sympa!tic reflection ( ! emotions ( w>40 8,& :at is w>80 8,a horrible passion felt mutually & indulg$ by two oppos+ aggregates ( s\ls1 by :i* !y are enabl$ to ov]come _! natural pity & to de/roy ea* o!r's bodies 9 va/ numb]s40 ,! veil ( ! /rang] grew almo/ :ite4 8,& does ,god p]mit ?is horror80 x ask$4 8,he p]mits x on ! planet ,e>?40 ,n[ ! ^w ,god is n an adequate translation ( ! idea express$ 9 ! angel's "q1 b let x /&4 ,! real idea is untranslatable by any "o ^w 9 any language ( e>?4 ,x 0 a composite ( ,love & ,"t & ,purpose1 rais$ to ! highe/ p[]1 an idea = :i* ,i c f9d no o!r ^w ?an ,god4 8,e>? is a /range />60 ! angel said4 8,! inhabitants ( ?is _w h a common say+ to t effect10 ,i answ]$4 8,x is a fragm5t ( race wisdom1 h&$ d[n f _! remote ance/ors1 :o1 :5 !y fir/ tri$ to adju/ _! cele/ial consci\sness to ! baffl+ conditions ( ?is /> on :i* !y _h be5 plac$ = _! education1 obs]v$ to "o ano!r1 #8,?is is a /range _w4'0 8,& are !y oblig$ to p]petrate ?is horror be=e u by ! conditions ( ?is planet80 8,no40 8,!n :y d !y d x80 8,f =ce ( habit40 8,!n 0 x ev] necess>y80 8,9 f> away times10 ,i said1 8m5 7 m isolat$ ?an at pres5t1 !re 7 few] ( !m 9 inc>nation1 & a brilliant ar*angel :o _h _! tra9+ 9 *>ge taught !m to develop c\rage & res\rce1 & to acc5tuate _! egos1 by /ruggl+ ) ea* o!r1 two by two40 8,b !re are millions ( be+s d[n !re60 ! angel exclaim$4 8,& ,i see bodies fall by ?\s&s60 8,t is :at !y call a great victory10 ,i said1 8& "o ( _! comm&]s gives to ^? :o h slaught]$ a va/ numb] a little iron cross40 8,an iron cross8 ,:y iron80 8,iron is ! metal ( ,m>s10 ,i said1 8,m>s1 _! w>-god40 8,& :y a cross80 8,x is ! symbol ( _! ,*ri/40 8,! "o :o di$ d[n "h to make m5 love "o ano!r80 8,! same10 ,i admitt$4 8,truly1 ,i agree ) ! remote ance/ors ( ^! p1 f :om !y h inh]it$ ! say+1 #8,?is is a /range _w4'0 8,w\ld y l to approa* ne>]80 ,i ask$4 ,! /rang] hesitat$1 !n said1 ) a pati5t smile3 8,my fri5d10 glanc+ at ! ,beautiful ,be+1 8wi%es me to le>n some?+ ( ?is />4 ,i w approa* ne>]40 ,we desc5d$ to p]haps a hundr$ feet above ! lane :i* sep>at$ ! enemies4 8,look60 exclaim$ ! /rang]4 8,! s\ls are leav+ _! bodies6 ,is t ! purpose ( ?is bus9ess1 to free s\ls f bondage80 8,n directly10 ,i answ]$4 8,ea* w\ld l to hold ! o!r 9 bondage2 b be+ unable to d t to any great ext5t1 !y take ! opposite way40 ,! /rang] look$ m confus$4 8,my fri5d10 expla9$ ! ,beautiful ,be+ to me1 8came f a region :]e ! ,law ( ,opposites does n apply40 8,y h nev] tak5 me !re 9 our w&]+s60 ,i exclaim$4 8,no1 y are s atta*$ to ! ,law ( ,opposites40 ,?is 0 an old je/ betwe5 me & ! ,beautiful ,be+4 8,look60 ! /rang] int]rupt$ me4 8,!re is a s\l com+ t[>d u n[40 ,i w5t =w>d to greet ! newcom]4 ,he 0 a ,g]man (fic]4 8,welcome10 ,i said1 b he seem$ n to und]/& me4 ,! face ( 8 a/ral body 0 contort$1 z if he _h di$ 9 pa94 ,n[ ! ,beautiful ,be+ seems to "k all ! languages ( e>?2 & ?\gh ! purity ( its nature is su* t few on e>? c und]/& x1 yet :5 a s\l leaves its body x c und]/& ! spee* ( ! ,beautiful ,be+ if !re is any?+ 9 its nature t responds to ! high] vibration :i* makes ! life ( t angel s int5se & wond]ful4 8,welcome10 said ! ,beautiful ,be+ to ! s\l1 9 ! acc5ts ( 8 native l&4 8,:]e am ,i80 ask$ ! bewild]$ s\l4 8,y are 9 ! region above ! _w10 ! ,beautiful ,be+ answ]$4 8,y mean----0 8,i mean t y\r "n w be 9 ! li/ ( ! dead40 8,!n x has come60 8,yes40 8,b ,i always fe>$ dea?40 8,y see x is no?+ to fe>40 8,:]e is ! ,kais]80 8,at 8 headqu>t]s40 8,c ,i n report to him80 8,if y wi%40 ,we mov$ f>!r ea/--sl[ly1 = ! newly fre$ s\l _h n yet le>n$ t di/ance is no?+4 ,we f\nd ! ,w>-,"l seat$ beside a table look+ at a map4 ,8 face 0 drawn & hagg>d4 8,!re10 ,i said to ! /rang]1 8is ! man :o is believ$1 by ! :ole _w outside 8 own c\ntry1 to h caus$ ?is va/ w>40 ,! /rang] 7& also ! s\l7 approa*$ & read ! ?\ghts 9 ! bra9 ( ! ,w>-,"l4 ,i give !m z !y 71 disconnect$1 tragic 9 _! import3 8,! slaught] ( our =ces6 ,god puni% ,engl&6 ,i am ! ,"l's *os56 ,i _c make a mi/ake6 ,my g5]als h blund]$4 ,i w degrade--7! "n ( our newly-arriv$ *>ge74 ,?is defeat is 8 fault4 ,i ord]$ him to take ^? tr5*es4 ,he has lo/ our own in/ead4 ,i _c make a mi/ake6 ,i am ! ,"l's *os560 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ turn$ to ! s\l :o _h be5 a ,g5]al4 8,d y wi% to report y\rself to ! ,kais]80 ,! eyes he turn$ to u 7 sad4 8,i w n tr\ble ! ,kais]10 he said4 ,a sil5ce _h fall5 betwe5 u4 ,aft] a little1 ! ,beautiful ,be+ turn$ to ! ,g5]al aga91 & its face 0 s(t ) pity4 8,c ,i n d some?+ = y80 x ask$4 8,w y take me to my "m1 :o di$ ( grief = my only bro!r's dea?1 9 ! e>ly days ( ! w>8 ,i am v tir$4 ,i want to see my old "m40 ,! eyes ( ! rose-veil$ /rang] 7 lum9\s ) wond]4 8,:y1 !re is ev5 love 9 ?is /range />60 x said4 ,april #aa4 ,,lett] ,,xx ,,above ,,! ,,battlefields ,,picture to y\rself a battlefield1 a long-/ret*+ irregul> d\ble l9e ( m5 & guns & horses & all ! p>aph]nalia ( w>4 ,9 ! old days on e>? ,i once gave "s /udy to ! !ory & practice ( w>1 b t labor _h little value 9 prep>+ me to /udy ?is w>4 ,n only did x take = grant$ conditions t no long] exi/1 b my po9t ( obs]vation !n 0 an imag9>y /ation on "o side or ! o!r ( an imag9>y field2 n[ ,i am really "h1 !re & ev]y:]e4 ,i read ! ?\ghts ( ! comm&]s on bo? sides1 ,i am ) ! m5 9 ! tr5*es sometimes half-buri$ 9 mud & wat]1 ,i am rid+ ) ! cavalry1 ,i g =w>d ) ! guns ( ! artill]y1 ,i g out & up ) ! escap+ spirits ( ! dead--g ) !m into ! hell ( confusion t almo/ always swall[s !m = a "t aft] !y are viol5tly ?ru/ f _! bodies4 ,truly1 8,w> is hell60 ,h no glori\s delusions to ! contr>y1 y :o dwell 9 ! haunts ( peace & babble ( :at y "k n4 ,! horrors d n end :5 ! guns cease fir+4 ,! d>k & sil5t night ( ra9 is full ( s\ls 9 bewild]m5t & torm5t4 ,(t5 "o w grope 8 way hi!r & ?i!r1 seek+ to f9d a tr5*-mate to :om he _h become atta*$ 9 ! cam>ad]ie ( w>--t sweet fl[] :i* gr[s ^u an ugly /em4 ,(t5 !y live ov] & ov] aga9 ! rage & madness ( ! attack2 !y plunge an imag9>y bayonet into ! =m ( an imag9>y foe2 or1 if a mass ( !m are toge!r1 & !y g5]ally are1 !y /rike recklessly at any?+ be=e !m1 consci\s always ( an oppos+ =ce4 ,! ,g5]al ( :om ,i wrote 9 my la/ lett] 0 a man ( m>k$ spiritual developm5t2 he soon broke away f ! entanglem5ts ( matt]2 he 0 a devotee to :om 8 c\ntry 0 a god & 8 ,emp]or a h]o to be foll[$ ) aspiration4 ,b mo/ m5 :o die on ! battlefields are common soldi]s :o fight because x is ! w ( ! mass beh9d !m4 ,!y g5]ally g out into d>kness = a "t1 & mo/ ( !m w&] 9 d>kness & bewild]m5t = v>y+ p]iods4 ,"s1 on ! contr>y1 are vividly consci\s almo/ f ! h\r ( dea?4 ,^! may attack ! m5 ( ! oppos+ army :ile !y sleep4 ,! dreams ( ! battlefields are t]rible 9 _! int5sity4 ,sometimes aga91 = 9 ! g5]al confusion di/9ctions may be q lo/1 s\ls t _h believ$ !mselves enemies cl+ toge!r 9 ! tragic ye>n+ ( ! d>k t sep>ates ! worlds ( ! 8invisible40 ,9 _! great ne$ !y d n "k _! =m] fri5ds f _! =m] enemies4 ,ano!r pale fl[] t gr[s f ! ugly /em ( w>6 ,! a/ral =ms ( m5 ( l[ developm5t are (t5 f\nd "h 9 %ock+ di/ortion1 _! consci\sness only a glimm]1 & ) no p[] ( feel+ any?+ b pa94 ,no wond] ! dreams ( ! unselfi% lov]s ( humanity are full ( horror dur+ ^! d>k nights ( ! _w1 = !re are _m noncombatants 9 all l&s ^: h\rs ( sleep are giv5 to a devot$ labor = ! s\ls t ne$ help s horribly4 ,!re is "o man :om y "k :o be>s at ?is "t a burd5 almo/ sup]human1 & speaks ( x to no "o4 ,x is ne$less = me to say h[ y y\rself sp5t ! nights ( _m mon?s1 & :5 we bade y cease t labor x 0 only t y might h m /r5g? = ! labor ( writ+ ^! pages at my dictation4 ,a s\l /ill held 9 ! fle% _c "w all day & all night4 ,t is burn+ ! a/ral c&le at bo? ends4 ,:5 y return to ! c\ntries n[ deva/at$ by w>1 "s ( y\r fri5ds w relate to y exp]i5ces simil> to y\r own dur+ ^! t]rible mon?s4 ,!y :o c be us$ are call$ ^u :5 ! ne$ is greate/1 & ! ne$ is imm5se at ?is "t4 ,realize t ^? s\ls 9 ! l[] regions ( ! a/ral _w are actually 9 space ne> ! gr\nd ( ! physical planet4 ,^? :o hang ov] ! battlefields :]e !y met _! fate are /ill ?rill$ or horrifi$ by ! noise ( ! battle horns1 !y c /ill he> ! %riek ( %ells & feel ! %att]+ =ce ( ! explosions4 ,day 91 day out ^! un=tunate e>?-b\nd ones live ov] & ov] aga9 ! emotions ( w>1 night aft] night !y dread ! morn+ :5 ! s\nds w beg9 aga94 ,!y _c get away4 ,!y are n free m]ely because _! bodies are buri$ "u a few feet ( e>?1 or worse /ill left unburi$4 ,i advise y to avoid = "s ye>s at lea/ ! actual sc5es ( ^! battles4 ,y c g to ,switz]l& or to ! m s\!rn regions ( ,france1 b d n /ay long 9 ,nor!rn ,france or ,belgium1 or 9 any o!r place t may be ?us affect$4 ,! ?\ght _w ( ,engl& is j n[ tr\bl$1 b ! lay] ( a/ral matt] imm$iately above ! e>? is n full ( ! awful emanations ( dea?4 ,a/ral =ms g !re f ! m t]rible region1 b 9 ord] to g !y mu/ h !mselves brok5 away f ! imm$iate sc5e ( _! wor/ suff]+4 ,x is easi] to protect oneself f sad ?\ght-=ms ?an f ! di/ract$ a/ral entities & ! 8boil+0 a/ral matt] t lie above ^? battlefields4 ,:y1 ev5 ! field ( ,wat]loo be=e ?is w> 0 n a pleasant place to sp5d ! night4 ,aft] a lapse ( "t y may briefly visit ! sc5es ( ^! rec5t battles1 = ! sake ( ! practical exp]i5ce2 b d n g !re j yet4 ,! be/ place 9 ,europe = a long p]iod w be ! m\nta9s ( ,switz]l&4 ,y %\ld sp5d mu* "t !re4 ,d y rememb] tell+ me h[1 :5 a *ild1 y us$ to see ! =ms ( ,am]ican ,indians on ! hills & 9 ! valleys ( y\r native ,/ate8 ,!y 7 ^? :o _m ye>s be=e _h walk$ ^? hills & valleys 9 ! sunlight1 & :o 7 /ill held 9 ! t5u\s matt] above t region4 ,! eyes ( *ildhood are sometimes v cle>4 ,above ^? battlefields ( ,europe ! s5sitive eye may see = _m ye>s ! =ms ( ^? :o w n be able to make _! escape4 ,& ,i d n mean aka%ic records4 ,w> is hell1 & ! hell does n end ) ! sign+ ( peace pap]s4 ,t is "o reason :y we want y1 & ^? o!rs :o believe 9 bro!rhood1 to c>ry t _s ( bro!rhood among ! nations t h be5 at w>4 ,y h no conception ( ! p[] ( a quiet fai? 9 a great & true idea4 ,! man :o really loves 8 fell[s has a wid] influ5ce ?an 8 own imm$iate circle ( fri5ds4 ,! atmosph]e ar\nd him is p]meat$ ) t bro!rly love1 & s5sitive s\ls c feel x4 ,"s day sail up ! ,rh9e ) t s5tim5t 9 y\r he>t4 ,april #ab4 ,,lett] ,,xxi ,a ,,s\l ,,9 ,,purgatory ,,d>e ,i talk to y ( ! purgatory to :i* ! rage ( battle conducts s _m s\ls t only a little :ile be=e walk$ ! e>? z m51 & w5t _! daily r\nd f h\se to (fice1 lov+ _! wives & *ildr5 & ex*ang+ worldly commonplaces 9 ! int]vals ( "w1 all unm9dful t !y 7 h\rly drift+ t[>d ! ,great ,ev5t8 ,yes1 ,i d>e4 ,we w foll[ "o s\l t ,i myself foll[$4 ,8 /ory ,i c recon/ruct f memory1 = e act ( x is /amp$ ^u my m9d4 ,no1 ,i d n ne$ bra9-cells to rememb] )4 ,nei!r w y--:5 y h escap$ ! prison ( y\r bra9-cells4 ,! man 0 an (fic] 9 an ,engli% regim5t & he 0 a ba*elor4 ,outw>dly he 0 mu* l o!r m51 b 8 consci\sness 0 diff]5t4 ,he liv$ 9 a _w ( 8 own1 = he 0 a read] & a ?9k]4 ,he 0 n a v good man4 ,n all ,engli%m5 are good ev5 n[ :5 ,engl& is at w>1 y :o bri/le at any criticism ( y\r belov$ mat]nal isl&--y :o write = me6 ,?is man 0 n v good because !re 0 s little love 9 8 he>t4 ,he 0 n incapable ( love1 yet he 0 unable to awak5 love 9 o!rs1 & s 0 s\l-/>v$4 ,b sometimes he 0 consci\s ( a great ye>n+1 & :5 ! ye>n+ came he 0 impati5t1 & took a dr9k1 or curs$ 8 s]vant1 or bo?4 ,sometimes :5 he 0 mo/ impati5t ) ! _w & ) himself1 he w5t on a 8spree40 ,! w> began4 ,8 natural impati5ce f\nd some?+ cong5ial 9 ! hurry & noise ( ! exp$ition4 ,he 0 glad to g4 ,he _h kn[n a ,g]man 9 ,london & _h dislik$ him ?or\ghly4 ,! ,g]man talk$ too mu*1 & 8 l\d tones j>r$ on ! s5sitive e>s ( ! ref9$ (fic]4 ,z he l$ 8 m5 into battle he ?\ght ( ?is ,g]man4 ,he felt t he 0 battl+ ) him at la/ face to face1 & ! feel+ gave him a ?rill ( satisfaction4 ,hate _h become an almo/ s5sual luxury4 ,! ,g]man _h fasc9at$ by 8 blu/]+ p]sonality a woman ( r co>se type to :om ! (fic] _h be5 impati5tly attract$4 ,he hat$ himself = ! attraction1 & he hat$ ! ,g]man = fru/rat+ x4 ,we always hate ^? :o fru/rate ! emotions we hate4 ,! (fic] 0 kill$ by a ,g]man bullet1 9 ! e>ly days ( ! w>4 ,:]e8 ,oh1 no matt] :]e6 ,!re are ^? :o might recognize ! man1 & ,i am n a betray] ( unwill+ confid5ces4 ,:5 ,i li/5 at ! keyhole ( life ,i nev] report too mu* ( :at ,i he>4 ,i use my discretion4 ,i %all call ?is man my fri5d1 = ,i 0 s mu* 8 fri5d t ,i h a "r to claim him4 ,be=e ! battle 9 :i* my fri5d met dea? ,i _h l+]$ ne> him1 ) a desire to s(t5 ! h>d feel+s 9 8 he>t4 ,^? feel+s are n usual among ! soldi]s ( a p>ticul> section ( ! nor!rn battle-l9e4 ,to !m fight+ is a sort ( glorifi$ sport--or x 0 s la/ ,septemb]4 ,my fri5d 0 an exception1 & t is :y ,i *oose to write ab\t him1 t my ass]tion ( 8 exceptional qualities may keep ! read] f %udd]+ too mu*4 ,i %\ld n l my read]s to feel t _! fri5ds w5t ?r\gh a simil> exp]i5ce4 ,y :o hang above ?is page1 my fri5d 0 n y\r fri5d4 ,! exp]i5ces ( y\r fri5ds 7 less t]rible4 ,!y 7 all bett] m5 ?an he1 because y lov$ !m1 & ?is man 0 n good because he 0 n lov$ en\gh4 ,he met dea? by a rifle bullet4 ,!n all became d>k be=e him1 & he 0 unconsci\s = a "t4 ,he 0 awak5$ by ! noise ( a bur/+ %ell4 8,! battle has begun10 he ?\ght4 8,damn t man6 ,he %\ld h awak5$ me at dawn40 ,he 0 among ! m5 ( 8 regim5t4 ,!y seem$ l>g] ?an usual1 & blurr$ 9 outl9e4 ,he rubb$ 8 eyes4 8,hell & damnation6 ,:o h !y put 9 my place80 ,= he saw a m9or (fic] :o comm&$ :]e he _h comm&$4 ,he turn$ away1 !n came back aga94 ,he w\ld dem& to "k6 ,he />t$ t[>d ! place :]e 8 sup]ior (fic] %\ld h be51 "s di/ance away1 & f\nd himself in/antly !re4 8,:at is ! matt] ) me80 he ?\ght4 8,h ,i lo/ my m9d80 ,he salut$ ! (fic]1 :o paid no att5tion to him4 8,am ,i asleep80 he wond]$4 ,he w5t up to a soldi] :o 0 load+ a rifle & t\*$ him on ! arm4 ,! soldi] also paid no att5tion4 ,he gripp$ ! man's arm4 ,/ill he paid no att5tion1 b rais$ 8 rifle & fir$4 ,my fri5d w5t t[>d two m5 :o 7 talk+ toge!r4 8,poor old ------60 he he>d "o ( !m say4 8,%ot ?r\gh ! he>t6 ,he 0 a good (fic]1 ?\gh a surly fell[4 ,i'm sorry he's dead40 ,! ------ !y spoke ( 0 himself4 8,%ot ?r\gh ! he>t--a good (fic]--a surly fell[--dead60 ,he knew4 ,k sometimes comes m sl[ly4 ,he 0 8dead40 8,j my luck60 0 8 in/9ctive ?\ght4 ,ano!r %ell bur/ beh9d him ) a %att]+ report4 ,sudd5ly he saw be=e him a face t rivet$ 8 att5tion4 ,x 0 a malignant1 an insol5t face4 ,!n x *ang$ into ! face ( 8 enemy1 ! ,g]man back 9 ,engl& :om he hat$4 8,s x's y1 is x80 he ask$4 ,! spectre made no answ]1 b *ang$ its %ape aga94 ,?is "t x 0 l ! woman :om my fri5d _h hat$ himself = lik+4 8,y1 too60 he said1 impati5tly4 ,aga9 ! spectre *ang$ c\nt5ance4 ,x 0 l a s]vant :om my fri5d _h curs$ once too (t51 & :o _h left him ! ye> be=e4 8,are y1 too1 dead80 he ask$2 b ! face be=e him _h n[ resum$ its orig9al appe>ance4 ,x 0 m]ely a malignant1 insol5t face1 resembl+ nobody 9 p>ticul>4 8,:at are y1 anyway80 my fri5d dem&$2 b /ill !re 0 no answ]4 ,! eye ( ! spectre int]e/$ him--! left eye4 ,z he gaz$ at x1 ! eye gradually enl>g$ until x seem$ ! size ( a t>get 9 a %oot+-gall]y4 ,! iris1 ( a peculi> gre5i%-blue1 0 9 ! v middle ( ! eye1 s t ! :ite %[$ all r\nd4 ,! black pupil />$ at him ) its conc5trat$ malice--a pupil l>ge z a sauc]4 8,:y d y d t80 dem&$ my fri5d2 b ! eye /ill made no answ]4 ,!n x vani%$4 ,a troop ( hateful %ades came 9 its place1 ugly %ades1 "s human1 "s subhuman4 ,ano!r %ell bur/ ne>by1 & ! %ades began to dance4 ,!y caught at him & :irl$ him ar\nd ) !m1 ar\nd & ar\nd until he 0 dizzy4 ,!n sudd5ly !y /opp$1 & ea* & all ( !m *ang$ into ! =m ( ! ,g]man back 9 ,engl& :om my fri5d _h hat$4 ,!n ano!r gr\p ( mad be+s m+l$ ) !m4 ,!y also *ang$ sudd5ly--!re 7 a doz5 duplicates ( ! woman :om my fri5d _h hat$ himself = lik+1 & !y & ! duplicates ( 8 enemy caught "o ano!r's h&s & kiss$ ea* o!r4 ,sick1 revolt$1 my fri5d wi%$ himself away1 & he 0 away4 ,he 0 ov] among ! soldi]s ( ! ,g]man army across ! pla94 ,he he>d ! s\nds ( ! language he dislik$4 8,:at ! devil60 he ?\ght1 & ! devil /ood be=e him1 ho(s1 horns & tail complete4 8,hadn't ?\ght ( me be=e1 _h y80 sne]$ ! evil be+4 ,my fri5d 0 hurt & bewild]$ by ! appe>ance1 = x look$1 ) all its unlovely accessories1 s l himself4 8,w y1 too1 *ange =m 9 a mom5t80 he ask$4 8,oh1 no6 ,i *ange sl[ly4 ,i only *ange z y *ange40 8,:at d y mean80 8,y only c *ange me40 8,*ange1 !n60 said my fri5d4 ,b ! demon rema9$ z be=e4 8,*ange60 repeat$ my fri5d2 b /ill ! figure be=e him *ang$ n at all4 8,!n y li$ :5 y said ,i c\ld *ange y60 8,i said t ,i *ange sl[ly40 8,:at d y mean80 8,i only *ange z y *ange40 8,& ,i h n *ang$1 !n80 8,x is my bus9ess to keep y f *ang+40 ,9 company ) 8 devil my fri5d n[ w5t ?r\gh sc5es :i* ,i refra9 f describ+1 ,goe! 9 ! ,walpurgis ,night hav+ done x s well be=e me4 ,reckless1 desp]ate1 he foll[$ 8 lead] until he 0 we>y & exhau/$4 ,days1 weeks pass$ away1 l a nightm>e4 8,c ,i nev] get rid ( y80 he ask$ 8 companion4 8,yes1 y c get rid ( me40 8,h[80 8,by gett+ rid ( y\rself40 8,t's easi] said ?an done40 8,yes1 t's easi] said ?an done40 ,(t5 !y f\nd !mselves on ! battlefield 9 ! fight+ l9e1 or at ! mess ( ! soldi]s4 ,! smell ( ! c(fee & ( cook+ meats br\ght tempor>y satisfaction to my fri5d4 ,he tri$ to dr9k f br&y flasks tilt$ to ! m\?s ( m5 :o c\ld n see him or prote/2 he /eep$ himself 9 hung]s & despairs4 ,8 companions 7 always *ang+ !mselves into ! =ms ( ! man he hat$ & ! woman he lov$4 ,he witness$ _! co>se love-mak+4 ,sometimes ! simulacrum ( ! woman turn$ to him ) a fri5dly ^w4 ,he curs$ h]1 b clung to h] h&4 ,b always %e vani%$ :5 8 m\? ye>n$ to h]s4 ,sometimes 9 a great battle ! rage ( w> awoke 9 him4 ,he hurl$ himself at ! m5 ( ! oppos+ army1 z if he w\ld take rev5ge ^u !m = all he 0 suff]+4 ,he /ruggl$ to te> ! rifles f _! h&s1 & :5 "o ( !m pass$ out ( ! body he tri$ to awake him f ! d>kness & ! sleep into :i* he 0 s9k+2 b nev] c\ld he succe$ 9 do+ ?is4 ,nev] c\ld he succe$ 9 do+ any?+4 ,8 v exi/5ce 0 failure & futility & disc\ragem5t4 ,"o day ,i came to him & t\*$ him on ! =ehead4 8,y are n l ^! o!rs10 he said1 dully4 8,:]e d y come f80 8,i came f a di/ance10 ,i said4 8,w\ld y l to g ) me80 8,any:]e away f "h10 he ass5t$4 8,d y want to be alone80 8,no4 ,x is wor/ :5 ,i am alone40 8,! wor/ is ov]10 ,i said4 8,:at d y mean80 8,i mean t y h exhau/$ = ! "t ! spr+s ( y\r l[] desires4 ,y are we>y & disgu/$ ) ! life y h l$ s9ce y escap$ f y\r body40 8,t is a /range expression--escap$6 ,x is only n[ t ,i long to escape40 8,& x is ,i :o w help y to escape f ano!r lay] ( y\r prison1 ano!r sk9 ( ! onion t %uts y 940 8,& :y d y d ?is80 8,to sp>e y unnecess>y fumbl+ to break ! sk910 ,i said4 8,w\ld y l to g to sleep80 8,i %\ld l to re/ a little40 ,:ile he slept ,i help$ to loos5 him fur!r1 & :5 he awoke into ano!r & a fre] _w ,i 0 /ill ) him4 8,:at w\ld y l to see80 ,i ask$4 8,some?+ beautiful10 he answ]$1 8some?+ beautiful & pure40 8,w\ld y c>e to witness a dance ( elves80 ,i ask$1 smil+4 8,a dance ( elves8 ,are !re really su* ?+s80 8,! univ]se conta9s innum]able =ms ( life & consci\sness10 ,i said4 8,& y :o believe 9 devils f exp]i5ce c surely believe 9 elves40 ,!y came t[>d u z ,i spoke1 li!1 t5u\s =ms1 danc+ ) joy across ! fl[]y spaces ( ! ,elysian ,fields4 ,!y sway$ & circl$ ar\nd u1 ^? be+s pure z ! air 9 :i* !y mov$1 light z ! happ9ess !y exhal$1 endur+ z hope & loveli] ?an mortal dreams4 ,! %ad[s _h all gone f my fri5d's face1 & he too seem$ to ta/e joy1 he too 0 light z air1 & pure4 ,he jo9$ _! dance & circl$ ) !m ar\nd me4 ,i tell y 9 a bur/ ( confid5ce t ,i also h danc$ ) elves4 ,?is companion & fri5d ( ! ,beautiful ,be+ has swum 9 ! sea ( univ]sal life & float$ on ! w+s ( irresponsibility4 ,he :o kn[s too mu* ( ! _w's sorr[ mu/ sometimes light5 ! load by kn[+ no?+ b joy4 ,:5 ! sylphs _h gone to _! m inviolable retreat1 ano!r %ape came t[>d u4 8,:at w\ld y l to see n[80 ,i ask$ him4 8,c ,i see a p]son :o /ill lives 9 ,engl&80 he ask$1 half %yly1 yet ) ! w9n+ confid5ce ( s\ls :o tru/ _! own desires--! high] wisdom :i* comes ) ! purification ( desire4 8,p]haps10 ,i said4 ,! =m t came t[>d u 0 unfamili> to me1 b my fri5d recogniz$ & welcom$ x4 ,a woman ( int5se & vital p]sonality1 yet ) t purity ( atmosph]e )\t :i* no communion is possible 9 ! region :]e we !n 71 0 /&+ beside my fri5d4 8,let u sit toge!r a little10 ,i said4 8,x w seem m homelike40 ,! two beside me seem$ happy 9 ea* o!r's pres5ce4 8,si/]ly-sweet h& 9 h&10 !y sat toge!r2 & ?\gh ,i knew t "o ( !m 0 only ! simulacrum ( a liv+ woman1 yet %e also seem$ real to me = ! mom5t1 = ! k9d s5tim5ts ( ! he>t are real1 & 9 ! region to :i* ,i _h conduct$ my fri5d all s5tim5ts are k9d4 ,no enemies are f\nd !re1 & ! woman he lik$ also lik$ him1 or %e c\ld n h be5 !re4 ,soon ,i left !m 9 ea* o!r's company & w5t back to ! labors ( ! battlefield2 = !re 7 o!rs :o ne$$ me1 & my fri5d 0 safe = ! "t4 ,aft] a :ile ,i %all help him onw>d to an exp]i5ce /ill less re/rict$4 ,we take an int]e/ 9 ^? :om we h help$1 & wi% to help !m fur!r4 ,:y did ,i *oose ?is man = my fri5dly m9i/rations1 y are wond]+2 = z ,i describ$ him 9 ! beg9n+ ( ?is lett] he 0 n an attractive "*4 ,i tell y a little secret3 ,x 0 because he 0 unattractive t ,i *ose him4 ,no "o _h ev] lov$ him en\gh1 & s he ne$$ help m ?an o!rs4 ,^? :o are lov$ are already help$ by t love4 ,z ! ,beautiful ,be+ says1 8,d y get my mean+1 daught] ( e>?80 ,j n[ ,i live to s]ve mank9d ?r\gh ! horrors ( ?is w>4 ,s]ve also by lov+ ^? :o lea/ attract y\r love4 ,s %all y le>n ! way to ! ,pa? :]e walk ! ,ma/]s ( ,compassion4 ,april #ad4 ,,lett] ,,xxii ,,peace ,,propag&a ,,7 y %ock$ & griev$ by :at ,i told y ( ! futile /ruggle 9 t int]m$iate _w betwe5 ! bondage ( d5se matt] & ! fre$om ( pur] regions8 ,x is no?+ to grieve ab\t2 x is no?+ b ! necess>y transition /age4 ,x la/s b a little :ile1 a few days1 a few ye>s--:at matt]1 9 ! endless leisure ( et]nity8 ,y y\rself h pass$ ?r\gh x _m times4 ,all pass ?r\gh x 9 go+ out to a fre] life1 ?\gh all d n suff] x consci\sly & l+]+ly z my fri5d did4 ,x is a nightm>e1 yes2 b no nightm>e la/s =ev]4 ,?9k ( ! joy & ! fre$om beyond6 ,!y are wor? ! boatman's p5ny4 ,x is true t ,i h n told y ! mo/ t]rible ?+s t are possible 9 ?is transition1 h n told y ! mo/ t]rible ?+s t ,i h se5 9 my j\rneys r\nd ! battlefields4 ,^? unwritt5 *apt]s are n necess>y = ! book :i* ,i dictate to tea* bro!rhood 9 place ( sep>ation1 peace 9 place ( w>4 ,w\ld y "k h[ y may d some?+ to %ort5 ?is w>1 to ha/5 ! com+ ( peace8 ,!n li/56 ,y c p]sonally ha/5 ! com+ ( peace6 ,is ! idea />tl+8 ,:5 ,i say 8y10 ,i mean o!rs1 too1 all ^? :o are we>y ( w>1 & ( hate1 ! "m ( w>4 ,has anyone injur$ y 9 ! /ruggle ( life8--= life is a k9d ( w>4 ,g out 9 ?\ght to ^? ^: desires h cla%$ ) y\r desires1 ^? :o h hurt y or hat$ y4 ,g to !m "o by "o--n sev]al at a "t 9 ?is ex]cise1 & "o by "o try to und]/& !m4 ,see y\rself ) _! eyes1 feel t[>d y\rself ) _! he>ts4 ,if !y /ill hate y1 y may hate y\rself at fir/ 9 sympa?y ) !m4 ,b rema9+ !re 9 sympa?y ) !m1 y w gradually feel _! h>d ?\ghts ( y *ange1 gradually beg9 to be fri5ds ) y\rself ?r\gh !m4 ,?is ,i am advis+ y to d is n a =m ( 8black magic10 because ! object is unselfi%4 ,y are mak+ a beg9n+ t[>d s(t5+ ! enmities ( ! _w4 ,b ,i w>n y aga9/ us+ ?is practice to w9 ! reg>d ( anyone :om y love selfi%ly or ) passion1 because ! reaction w\ld br+ ab\t a v undesirable condition ( di%>mony4 ,:5 y h ?us und]/ood & =giv5 all y\r p]sonal enemies1 ent] ! s\ls ( ! w>r+ nations4 ,und]/& !m also by sympa?y1 & s(t5 _! he>ts4 ,?\gh ?is is a mu* easi] ?+ to attempt ?an ! o!r1 ! results may seem incomm5surable ) ! ef=t4 ,b1 small & great1 y are all "p ( ! ,:ole4 ,& ?is br+s me to ! idea ( race spirits1 race entities1 = e race has its gu>dian be+--a composite be+1 yet self-consci\s z sep>ate1 9 a way y c\ld h>dly und]/&4 ,h y n notic$ ! effect on y\rself ( pass+ f c\ntry to c\ntry8 ,h y\r feel+s--has y\r consci\sness n *ang$ almo/ at ! fronti]8 ,d y rememb] ! %ock y once _h on sett+ foot = ! fir/ "t 9 a c]ta9 =eign l&8 ,! race spirits seem no l>g] to !mselves & among !mselves ?an y humans d among y\r fri5ds & acqua9tances4 ,size is relative4 ,h]et(ore ,i h spok5 ( ! races z organs 9 ! body ( humanity4 ,9 speak+ ( !m n[ z sep>ate be+s ,i am n contradict+ myself4 ,:at reason h y = assum+ t ! organs ( y\r body may n ea* be animat$ by a m or less sep>ate consci\sness8 ,y\r cells exi/ 9 y\r organs1 y\r organs exi/ 9 y\r body1 y exi/ 9 y\r race1 y\r race exi/s 9 ! body ( humanity on e>?1 ! entity ( ! e>? exi/s 9 ! democracy ( planet>y spirits 9 ! sol> sy/em1 ! sol> sy/em exi/s z "o 9 ! company ( its fell[s 9 ! great] democracy ( ! ,cosmos4 ,a small blood-clot on ! bra9 c\ld s]i\sly hamp] ! work+ ( y\r cosmos4 ,s y see !re is no?+ prepo/]\s 9 my say+ t y c ha/5 inf9itesimally ! peace betwe5 ! race spirits by =giv+ & mak+ peace ) y\r p]sonal enemies1 especially if !y belong to races on ! o!r side ( ?is w>4 ,! small is n s unimportant & ! great is n s important z y h ! habit ( suppos+4 ,yes1 y p]sonally--& all ( y--c ha/5 ! com+ ( peace4 ,april #af4 ,,lett] ,,xxiii ,,! ,,my/]y ,,( ,,desire ,i ,,h writt5 ab\t ! hung] & ?ir/ ( disembodi$ m5 9 ! a/ral _w1 & ,i h writt5 ab\t ! evil a/ral be+s :o br\ght ab\t ?is w> to satisfy _! malice4 ,!y too are hungry be+s & ! w> has giv5 !m food4 ,d y "k :at !y live on8 ,!y may live long on blood & ! exhalations ( slaught]4 ,i h se5 !m by myriads hov]+ ov] a battlefield1 gorg+ !mselves on ! blood t dripp$ f ! w\nds ( suff]+ m5 & f dead m54 ,! leav+ ( ! dead unburi$ has also satisfi$ _! hung]4 ,vampire entities came up f ,hung>y & f o!r c\ntries & f$ on ! liv+4 ,! awful we>9ess ( w> op5$ a door ?r\gh :i* !y might pass to ! life =ces !y crav$4 8,blood is a peculi> fluid10 z ,goe! said4 ,! life ( an evil entity may be r5ew$ = ano!r long p]iod ( exi/5ce if he c h blood en\gh4 ,if y /op eat+ ! c>cases ( dead animals1 y w cease to fe$ c]ta9 evil entities 9 y\rselves4 ,x is n m]ely = reasons ( s5tim5t t ! pupils ( ! great ,ma/]s are advis$ to refra9 f animal food4 ,y are told t meat-eat+ fe$s ! passional nature4 ,:at is ! passional nature b ! hungry nature t longs to fe$ on some?+ n itself8 ,s long z y eat meat habitually y w nev] be q free f ! influ5ce ( entities :o live on ! blood & ! o!r prop]ties ( meat4 ,eat purely1 & by & by y w f9d y\rselves ?9k+ purely & desir+ purely4 ,i d n tell y to kill out all desire ?is aft]noon1 = desire is ! dynamics ) :i* y "w = ev5 ! ideal2 b kill out desire = blood & = ! fle% ( dead animals1 & all sorts ( o!r desires :i* s]ve no necess>y purpose 9 y\r evolution w expire4 ,a lot ( nons5se is talk$ ab\t desire4 ,y desire to develop spiritually1 y desire to d ! "w ( ! ,ma/]s2 y are n m]ely l$ along l a lamb to d ! "w ( ! ,ma/]s4 ,!re is desire & desire4 ,if x seems 8desirable0 t y %ort5 ! road to consci\s union ) ! ,all1 y w desire t union probably2 y are n likely to drift into x4 ,i am n talk+ ab\t ! viol5t desires ( ambition4 ,y ne$ n be ambiti\s = occult developm5t4 ,9 fact1 if y are too ambiti\s = occult developm5t y w be 9 dang] ( becom+ a black magician4 ,b y c quietly 8desire0 ev5 union ) ,god4 ,all action on ?is plane spr+s f desire ( "s sort1 & x has be5 said t desire & w are ! same4 ,p]haps !y are4 ,x has also be5 said t desire relates to ! tempor>y1 & t w is "s k9d ( sup]ior motive =ce2 b ,i %\ld be incl9$ to say t w 9 its m dignifi$ phases 0 m]ely desire = a high] ?+--t is1 if ,i want$ to sep>ate ! two4 ,music may be sublime & music may be rag-"t2 x is /ill music4 ,! =ce ( ! w9d may fan ! flame t burns y\r h\se1 or x may fill ! sails ( ! boat t takes y across ! sea to y\r s\l's desire4 ,x is /ill ! same w9d4 ,y may ev5 desire to desire ! high] ?+s4 ,y may w to w ) ! ,law in/ead ( aga9/ x4 ,is t n desire1 too8 ,9 advis+ y n to fe$ by blood sacrifices ! elem5tal =ces 9 y\rself :i* crave t impure food1 ,i am n invit+ y to kill out desire4 ,y w h to desire to purify y\r sy/em f ! mat]ial ( dead animals be=e y w wilfully cease to fe$ on !m4 ,! evil 9 y1 ! hungry fi]y selfi% nature1 sucks up ! blood t passes y\r lips some:at z ! evil be+s above ! battlefields suck up ! blood t fl[s f ! w\nds ( ! fall54 ,if y h no fur!r use = ^! creatures1 y c cease to fe$ !m ) blood4 ,y w nev] kill out y\r emotional nature by ceas+ to eat meat4 ,y w m]ely purify x4 ,! :ole s\l-_w is a _w ( emotion1 & ! pure be+s ( ! elem5ts are v emotional1 b !y d n fe$ on blood4 ,yes1 m9d is high] ?an emotion1 x is beyond emotion4 ,y c h m9d )\t emotion1 & y c h emotion )\t m9d to any great degree1 z 9 ! animals2 b man is made ( bo?4 ,he is dep5d5t on 8 middle regi/]1 8 s\l-desire nature1 9 ord] to "w 9 ! s\l _w z a gr[+ entity !re4 ,:5 y rea* ! highe/ heav5 y w be liv+ 9 ?\ght ) only s mu* ( ! desire nature z y h rais$ ) y by memory & assimilation4 ,y c raise m ( s\l-dynamics into ! highe/ region if y d n clog y\r feet on ! road by desire = bloody food4 ,leave t to ! demons :o gorge !mselves on ! battlefields4 ,dur+ ! reign ( bro!rhood :i* ,i am try+ to help 9 br++ ab\t1 ! race w subsi/ on a pure diet4 ,ev5 n[ !re is a t5d5cy t[>d ! elim9ation ( dead animals f ! diet>y4 ,! desires ( ! new race w h to be purifi$1 _! emotions rais$ & int5sifi$4 ,! emotions ( a man are mu* m int5se ?an ! emotions ( a lion4 ,! emotions ( a god are cosmic4 ,april #af4 ,,lett] ,,xxiv ,,! ,,scales ,,( ,,ju/ice ,,le/ anyone %\ld ?9k t 9 work+ = bro!rhood ,i am ei!r kn[+ly or inadv]t5tly /riv+ to br+ ab\t a /ate ( lax acquiesc5ce 9 ! wrongs committ$ by my fell[m51 by my bro!rs1 ,i want to talk ab\t ju/ice4 ,z "o :o has be5 a s-call$ ,judge 9 a c\rt ( ju/ice1 ,i h _h "s little exp]i5ce 9 ! practical work+ out ( a balance betwe5 m]cy & sev]ity4 ,ju/ice is "o ( ! gods t ,i h always plac$ high 9 my p]sonal pan!on1 & nev] 9 h&+ d[n a decision did ,i1 ?r\gh weakness or s5tim5tality1 hamp] ! "r ( ! good 9 ord] to p&] to ! wrong ( evil4 ,i h giv5 mild judgm5ts :5 mo/ good seem$ to be promis$ t way2 ,i h giv5 sev]e judgm5ts :5 x seem$ to me t evil w\ld be be/ curb$ t way4 ,mu* nons5se has be5 talk$ & writt5 ab\t univ]sal bro!rhood1 z ab\t mo/ ( ! o!r ideals ( mank9d4 ,univ]sal bro!rhood is n univ]sal acquiesc5ce 9 evil2 x is univ]sal acceptance ( ! ideal ( good4 ,& y w nev] h a bro!rhood wor?y ( ! "n until y raise1 n l[]1 ! /&>d ( ju/ice4 ,ju/ice is balance1 ju/ice is equilibrium betwe5 =ces1 ju/ice is poise4 ,x is because ,i hope to see a m pois$ humanity t ,i am urg+ m5 to conc5trate ^u love in/ead ( ^u hate4 ,s9ce ,i h be5 /ation$ 9 ,europe & 9 ! imm$iate neighborhood ( ! we/]n battlefields1 ,i h help$ hundr$s ( s\ls to help !mselves ?r\gh ! t]rible a/ral conditions into :i* a sudd5 & premature dropp+ ( _! physical bodies has precipitat$ !m2 b 9 no case h ,i tri$ to upset ! balance betwe5 cause & effect by help+ a s\l to a fre$om = :i* x 0 n prep>$4 ,i h let m5 suff] :5 ,i c\ld h %ort5$ _! suff]+2 ,i h let _m s\ls "w out 9 ! a/ral _w ! sl[ battle ) _! l[] desires1 because ,i knew t if !y 7 pluck$ f ! tree ( pa9 be=e !y 7 ripe1 !y w\ld h to g ?r\gh x all anyway & battle h>d] 9 ano!r life ) ^? v =ces :i* n[ by _! suff]+ !y 7 sev]+ 9 ! region :]e--f ! v limitation ( satisfactions--elem5t>y desires are m easily />v$ out ?an on ! e>?4 ,!re 0 9 "o ( ! armies a v cruel (fic] :o 0 hat$ by 8 m54 ,he came out "h & _m ( ! m5 came out "h1 & ,i made no attempt to protect him f _! reproa*es1 because he ne$$ to le>n t inju/ice des]ves reproa*4 ,on e>? _! m\?s _h be5 /opp$ by army discipl9e1 b out "h he _h to realize h[ mu* he _h wrong$ !m4 ,he c\ld nev] h realiz$ x 9 any o!r way4 ,_h ,i prea*$ to him he w\ld h told me to m9d my own bus9ess4 ,! law ( ju/ice does n prea*4 ,x demon/rates4 ,he _h to endure ! demon/ration ( 8 own inju/ice ?r\gh ! d>k & reproa*ful %ad[s by :i* he 0 long surr\nd$4 ,& ,i may say 9 pass+ t he is /ill surr\nd$ by !m4 ,i h made no ef=t to help him4 ,p]haps ,i c\ld h done s2 b su* det]m9$ opposition on my "p to ! law ( ju/ice might h let him g =w>d into 8 own selfi% heav5 ) su* a load ( inju/ice on 8 s\l t 9 8 next e>?ly life he w\ld h be5 cru%$ by x4 ,! res5tm5t ( ^! m5 0 v deep1 & :ile ,i might h s(t5$ x = _! sake--n 8--,i let x "w itself out4 ,_h !re be5 no "o else ne$+ my help & des]v+ x m1 ,i might h sp5t a long "t ) ^! m5 & yet made little impression4 ,i did exactly z ,i %\ld h done on e>? _h su* a case come be=e me1 & ,i believe t ,i did "r4 ,:5ev] ,i see a s\l afflict$ by ! unju/ judgm5ts ( o!rs ,i seek to set ! balance true1 z ,i %\ld h done on e>?2 b ,i am n "h to upset ! law ( cause & effect4 ,:5 ,i c help1 ,i help2 b ,i am m useful 9 prev5t+ ! sett+ up ( evil causes ?an ,i c\ld ev] be 9 deflect+ ! legitimate c\rse ( effects4 ,:5 ,i urge m5 to help ! ,ma/]s 9 hold+ back ! awful k>ma ( ,g]many1 ,i am n talk+ s5tim5tally4 ,i am talk+ z a j judge4 ,! ,g]man p h be5 deceiv$ by _! lead]s & h foll[$ bl9dly a c\rse !y h n und]/ood4 ,collectively !y are responsible to ! o!r races1 b individually !y are n responsible 9 ! same degree2 = !y h be5 !mselves deceiv$1 & !y d n "k t _! cause ( national aggression is unju/ & ( satanic orig94 ,x is ! hope ( ^? ,tea*]s :o c wat* f ! outside & above1 t ! docile ,g]man p %\ld n be =ev] hat$ by ! _w because ! arrogant w>-p>ty has hurl$ !m at _! neighbors4 ,i am n condon+ ! unlovely traits 9 ! ,g]man "*1 or 9 ! "* ( any o!r p2 b ( all ! races engag$ 9 ?is gigantic /ruggle1 ! ,g]man race kn[s lea/ ab\t ! causes t hurl$ x =w>d4 ,a spoon-f$ press & ! p5alties ( lse maje/ h kept !m f kn[+ any?+ :i* c\ld h made !m less flexible in/rum5ts 9 ! h&s ( _! lead]s4 ,! k>ma ( ^? ^: head/rong & arrogant policy precipitat$ ?is w> is an individual k>ma1 & x w h to be work$ out by individual suff]+ & s-call$ puni%m5t2 b ! k>ma ( ! great mass ( ! ,g]man p is a race k>ma4 ,!y h let !mselves be l$ on to _! own defeat4 ,?9k h[ ! v law ( reaction w ?r[ ! light ( popul> & democratic inve/igation into ! d>ke/ nooks & crannies ( ! ,g]man nation & gov]nm5t aft] ?is w>4 ,^? :o h be5 deceiv$ to _! hurt w dem& to be deceiv$ no m4 ,9 tw5ty ye>s ! life ( ! ,g]man gov]nm5t w be z op5 z t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,! s-call$ 8muck-rak]0 w arise ) a lant]n on 8 hat4 ,also by ! law ( reaction ,engl& w be %ak5 out ( h] sluggi%ness t has fill$ h] %ops ) ! w>es ( o!r c\ntries because %e 0 too slack to make h] own4 ,by t same law a dem& w arise = an uncorrupt political ma*9e 9 ,france4 ,"o or two ?+s h happ5$ 9 ,france :i* %e pref]s = ! mom5t to keep to h]self4 ,! great %ock ( ?is w> w cause ea* nation to exam9e itself m closely1 to look into its own motives1 to see :]e9 x fails to come up to ! v exigeant /&>d dem&$ by ! ,new ,"t4 ,look also = *anges 9 ,russia1 & ,au/ria w be b ano!r "n = *ange4 ,ju/ice w advance _m paces by reason ( ! great inju/ice ( ?is w>4 ,! ,law ( ,opposites aga96 ,mo/ ?+s c be expla9$ by t law4 ,9 writ+ ab\t ! reign ( bro!rhood :i* ,i hope to see e/abli%$ 9 ! _w1 ,i am n labor+ "u ! delusion t an impossible ,utopia is ab\t to be u%]$ 9 ) a bl>e ( trumpets4 ,i am n record+ a prophecy t ! ,k+dom ( ,heav5 is imm$iately at h&4 ,! human race is n ready = ! ,k+dom ( ,heav51 & w n be ready = a long "t2 b if "o p]son 9 t5 c be made to realize t bro!rhood is an ideal to be /riv5 =1 !y c leav5 ! o!r n9e-t5?s & make ! loaf ( human society mu* light] & m palatable ?an x is at pres5t4 ,! loaf w n become fruit-cake all at once4 ,t is too mu* to expect ( ! next race2 b if y c c>ry ! memory ( ?is prophecy ?r\gh a suffici5t numb] ( bir?s & dea?s1 y may see a v sweet loaf come f ! planet>y ov5 :5 ! second race foll[+1 ! ,sev5?1 is br\ght =? into ! light ( ! sun4 ,april #ag4 ,,lett] ,,xxv ,,= ,,love',s ,,sake ,,s s]i\s & philosophical h be5 my la/ few lett]s1 t ,i %\ld l to revel 9 romance4 ,h y ?\ght ( ! h>d life ( ! w>-nurses & wond]$ f :5ce !y ga!r ! /r5g? = _! daily & nightly labors8 ,love is ! s\rce ( ! almo/ sup]human endurance ( _m ( ! wom5 :o seem to _! *>ges l angels ( light & heal+4 ,"o nurse :om we w call ,m>y1 = %e is a type ( ! virg9-"m ( he>ts1 has gone out into heav5 a hundr$ times 9 ! s\ls ( ^? %e has t5d$4 ,w t love n gu>d h] on e>? ?r\gh ! :ole c\rse ( h] life & foll[ h] also into ! heav5 _w beyond8 ,be sure x w4 ,m>y is nei!r a s*ol> nor a poet4 ,y w\ld n h dream$ ( invit+ h] to a reception _h h] pa? ev] cross$ y\rs2 b ,m>y is n unfit = ! society ( angels & gods w\ld n scorn to h h] 9 _! company4 ,%e 0 j an ord9>y nurse be=e %e became a w>-nurse1 & be=e ! :ite fire ( love t\*$ h] p]sonality & burn$ x up z a sacrifice on ! alt> ( h] c\ntry's ne$4 ,%e 0 a v pretty nurse & 9 h] h\rs ( leisure once wore /yli% hats & revell$ 9 laces & furbel[s2 = ! love ( beauty & da9t9ess (t5 ne/s 9 a he>t t is capable ( h]oism4 ,:5 ! w> broke out ,m>y 0 engag$ to be m>ri$ to a soldi]4 ,m>y w5t to ! front & he also w5t to ! front2 b nei!r ( !m knew :]e ! o!r 0 = _m1 _m days4 ,e man :o 0 br\ght to h] sev]ely w\nd$ ,m>y nurs$ z if he _h be5 ! abs5t fri5d ( h] he>t1 & _m a life %e sav$ by h] t5d] c>e & by ! atmosph]e ( hope :i* radiat$ f h] z fragrance f a rose4 8,if he %\ld be w\nd$10 %e said to h]self1 8"s ( ! girls w c>e = him z ,i c>e = ^! m540 ,m>y 0 n jeal\s le/ ano!r %\ld h ! privilege ( nurs+ ! man %e lov$1 & le/ 9 8 he>t %\ld blossom ! fl[] ( ?ankfulness = ano!r ?an h]self4 ,m>y _h n mu* "t to ?9k ab\t h]self2 h] ?\ghts 7 too busy ) o!rs4 ,x may h be5 because %e 0 n jeal\s nor ov]-wat*ful = h] prop]ty 9 h] lov]1 t :5 he 0 w\nd$ he 0 really br\ght to ! hospital :]e %e s]v$ s fai?fully4 ,( c\rse he 0 giv5 to ,m>y to nurse--x c\ld n h be5 o!rwise1 & he 0 v s]i\sly w\nd$4 ,:5 ! op]ation 0 p]=m$ by :i* ! doctors hop$ to save 8 life1 x 0 ,m>y :o /ood by & assi/$4 ,%e did n fa9t nor cry out ev5 :5 !y cut 8 brok5 arm away1 ! arm on :i* %e _h dream$ %e might lean = ! re/ ( h] e>?ly life4 ,m>y 0 ?9k+ ab\t 8 "m & 0 glad t %e 0 n !re to see :at %e h]self saw4 ,dur+ _m ( ! h\rs :5 ,m>y might h slept1 %e 0 writ+ to ! "m--writ+ brave lett]s :]e9 %e s\ght to veil ! fe> t 0 9 h] own he>t4 ,tom--we w call him ,tom because t 0 n 8 "n--,tom _h nev] be5 able to believe 9 any life beyond ! e>? life1 & z ,m>y wat*$ 8 /r5g? gr[ less %e pray$ all day & mo/ ( ! night t some?+ might happ5 to make ,tom believe 9 heav5 & angels4 ,! exig5cies ( w> _h left him long on ! battlefield aft] ! %ell _h %att]$ 8 "r arm1 & 8 w\nd _h be5 infect$ be=e ! op]ation by :i* ! doctors s\ght to save him = ,engl& & = ,m>y4 ,tom knew t he might h to leave ! _w4 ,m>y w\ld n keep ! ov]:elm+ possibility f him1 ?\gh %e /ill kept x f 8 "m2 = %e hop$ t 9 ! h\rs or days :i* might be all t rema9$ = him 9 ! sun%9e ( ! upp] _w some?+ might happ51 "s miracle ( ?\ght or ( love1 :i* %\ld op5 8 eyes to :at %e call$ ! ,tru?4 ,ea* day ,i sp5t a little "t 9 ! long :ite room 9 :i* ,tom lay2 b ev5 if he c\ld h se5 me1 ,i might n h be5 mu* com=t to him1 & ,i _c speak to any e>s except ^? tra9$ to li/5 = unusual s\nds4 ,i sympa?iz$ ) ,m>y4 ,hav+ conv9c$ s _m s\ls ( ! tru? ( immortality ?r\gh a =m] writ+ ( m9e1 ,i want$ to conv9ce "o m--= ,m>y's sake2 because ,i knew t if ,tom %\ld g out ( life firmly believ+ t dea? 0 ! end ( him1 x might really be ! end ( him = a long "t4 ,9 my p]plexity ,i s\ght ! ,beautiful ,be+ = advice4 ,t angel's k comp>$ to m9e is l an arc-light beside a tall[ dip4 ,toge!r we w5t back to ! hospital :]e ,m>y sat talk+ ) ,tom ab\t ! future life1 ab\t ,god & ,*ri/ & angels4 ,%e _h _m soldi]s "u h] *>ge2 b ! o!r nurses work$ a little h>d] to give h] m "t ) ,tom1 = all ! _w loves a lov]--especially 9 ! horrors ( w>-"t4 8,x isn't t ,i d n want to believe10 he 0 say+ to ,m>y1 8x's t ,i j c't4 ,if ,i c\ld see ) my own eyes an angel1 or someone t ,i knew 0 dead1 x w\ld be diff]5t4 ,b h[ c\ld ,i see su* a ?+80 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ drew ne>]1 smil+1 & wav$ its gauzy veil be=e ! eyes ( ! dy+ man2 b he c\ld n see4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ wove a glamor ( light ar\nd him1 & sang z only angels c2 b ,tom c\ld /ill nei!r see nor he>4 8,i ?9k y w h to #8mat]ialize'10 ! ,beautiful ,be+ said to me1 ) a :imsical smile4 8,^? eyes are /opp$ ) matt]1 & _c see any?+ f9] ?an matt]40 ,i 0 n attract$ by ! sugge/ion1 b my incompreh5sible fri5d foll[$ x up4 8,9 t b$ yond]10 x said1 8is "o ( ^? mortals :o are call$ natural m$iums1 natural mat]ializ+ m$iums1 because _! t5u\s bodies are s loosely held by ! physical t !y are easily deta*$ & borr[$ f4 ,n[ mat]ialize y\rself & let ,tom see some?+ :i* he w take = an angel40 8,i am no angel10 ,i said1 8& ! eyes ( a dy+ a!i/ w\ld nev] mi/ake me = "o40 8,try x1 & see10 said ! ,beautiful ,be+1 po9t+ to a man 9 a neighbor+ b$1 :o 0 ! 8m$ium0 9 "q4 ,i look$ at ! man & read ar\nd him ! /ory ( 8 life4 ,he 0 a co>se fell[1 a saloon-keep]1 & ano!r famili> comp\nd-^w w\ld h fitt$ him l a glove4 8,clo! myself 9 t man's e!ric body60 ,i said 9 disgu/4 8,i w\ld n t\* him ) a t5-foot pole60 8,h[ da9ty-f+]$ y are60 said ! ,beautiful ,be+4 8,did ,i n "k y s well1 ,i c\ld almo/ believe y self-righte\s40 8,call me :at y l10 ,i repli$1 8b ,i w n d ph5om5a ) t body40 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ laugh$4 8,x w\ld be s easy10 x said1 z if to itself1 8s easy & s conv9c+40 ,! angel mov$ t[>d ! sleep+ saloon-keep] 7,i _h almo/ writt5 ! h>%] comp\nd71 & gradually f 8 side !re issu$ a vapor\s /ream4 ,f =ce ( e>?ly habit ,i rubb$ my eyes1 = ,i c\ld n believe t ,i saw aright4 ,! pure & exquisite angel 0 clo?+ itself 9 ! unheal?y emanations ( ! sleep+ m$ium1 & 9 ! space ( tw5ty ticks ( ! clock on ! wall x pass$1 fully mat]ializ$1 ) a speak+ ?roat1 to ! foot ( ,tom's b$4 ,he sat up1 9 ! surprise & %ock ( ! vision4 8,:at are y80 he ask$1 ho>sely4 8,i am an angel10 said ! ,beautiful ,be+1 truly1 8& ,i h come to prove to y t miracles c happ51 & to assure y t :5 y leave y\r body beh9d on ! morr[ ,i %all meet y on ! o!r side ( ! *ange40 ,m>y c\ld also he> & see1 & %e fell on h] knees ) a little sob ( joy & wond]2 = %e _h nev] se5 an angel1 ?\gh h] fai? 0 /rong en\gh to remove m\nta9s4 8,!n x is really true60 ,tom gasp$4 8,i %all n die ) my body4 ,& h[ wond]ful y are60 ,= ! ,beautiful ,be+ _h p]=m$ ! trans=mation s well t x pres]v$ 9 its borr[$ body all ! glory & amaz+ lovel9ess ( t =m :i* *>ms ! ho/s ( ! unse5 _w4 8,i no long] d\bt10 said ,tom4 8,i believe1 & ,i die happy40 8,i %all n =get to meet y :5 y come out10 smil$ my fri5d4 8,good-bye n[1 = a little :ile4 ,i leave y ) ,m>y1 :o is also a k9d ( angel40 ,sl[ly ! borr[$ %ape retreat$ t[>ds ! body ( ! sleep+ saloon-keep]1 & aft] a mom5t my fri5d /ood beside me1 clo!d 9 its own pure =m2 b on its %\ld]s & feet 7 d>k /a9s t look$ l mud4 8,!y w soon bl[ away 9 ! fre% air outside10 smil$ ! ,beautiful ,be+4 8,& 0 x n wor? :ile to conv9ce t s\l ( its own immortality80 ,we pass$ out "u ! />s1 b ! sc5e left an indelible impression on my consci\sness4 ,& ,i %all (t5 rememb] :5 ,i feel self-righte\s1 h[ ! pure/ be+ ,i ev] knew wore ! soil$ g>m5t ( a vulg> saloon-keep]1 :i* left /a9s on its da9ty %\ld]s & its %9+ feet--h[ x dipp$ itself = ! fir/ "t 9 ! fil? ( ! _w1 = love's sake4 ,april #ag4 ,,lett] ,,xxvi ,a ,,ma/] ,,( ,,m9d ,,to-,,night1 ! sev5te5? ( ,april1 n9ete5 hundr$ & fifte51 !re pass$ along ! battle l9e ( "o ( ! nations at w> a great spiritual be+1 a be+ ^: body is m9d & :o works ?r\gh ! m9d alone4 ,! h\r _h come :5 a c]ta9 numb] ( ^? :o _h f\ght bravely = _! ill-/>r$ c\ntry might "k t _! cause 0 hopelessly lo/4 ,a few only might "k to-night2 b _! k w spread1 & ) spread+ k w come a *ange ( _s4 ,x is di%e>t5+ to fight on = a lo/ cause4 ,x takes a peculi> quality ( devotion1 a r>e quality ( devotion4 ,:at w come f ! visit ( t cele/ial be+1 y wond]8 ,wait & see4 ,i r>ely p]mit myself to prophesy4 ,i only figure out ! probable result ( causes kn[n to me4 ,y c d ! same1 if y let reason take ! place ( pr$ilection4 ,to judge cle>ly ( ! effects ( a giv5 cause1 ! m9d mu/ be unbias$ by desire2 x mu/ be z cold z a ma!matical calculation4 ,x is by ?is cele/ial algebra t ,ma/]s look ahead4 ,:5 y get 9 symbols or pictures ! answ]s to que/ions prop\nd$ to y\r ,high] ,self1 x is by ?is pr(\nd] ma!matics t ! int]ior "o prep>es its answ]4 ,x kn[s causes t are unkn[n to y1 & f ^! causes c =etell effects ) a degree ( accuracy almo/ z great z t ( an a/ronom] =etell+ an eclipse4 ,almo/1 ,i say1 n q2 = 9 deal+ ) human affairs ev5 ! greate/ ,ma/]s mu/ take into consid]ation an erratic elem5t1 ! free w 9 human be+s4 ,t1 too1 may be guess$2 b x is guess+1 nev]!less4 ,a sudd5 upru% ( free & erratic w1 & a new cause is set up1 & ! calculation mu/ be made afre%4 ,!re is a c]ta9 *>m 9 deal+ ) ! erratic elem5t ( w4 ,p]haps t is :y "s p]sons f9d cats m fasc9at+ ?an dogs4 ,a cat is a wilful erratic animal2 s are _m m54 ,! great be+ :o pass$ ?is night along ! battle l9e has be5 wat*+ ! c\rse ( e>?ly ev5ts = a consid]able "t4 ,he is "o ( ^? :o s]ve ! planet>y _s ( ! e>? by c>ry+ c]ta9 ideas ar\nd ! e>? :5 ! "t has come = !m to play _! "p 9 hi/ory4 ,i _c tell y _m details ab\t ! life ( ?is be+1 = ,i "k only a few facts conc]n+ him4 ,he is s f> sup]ior to me t my possible compreh5sion ( him is limit$4 ,he may once h be5 man1 ,i ?9k s2 b ( t ,i am n ev5 sure4 ,i h be5 told t x 0 he :o fir/ impress$ ^u a small b c\rage\s section ( ! ,am]ican p ! conviction t ! "t _h come :5 human slav]y 9 ,am]ica %\ld cease2 t x 0 he :o inspir$ ,columbus ) ! idea t he c\ld f9d l& by sail+ we/1 ?\gh 9 ! latt] case he 0 n able to =ce ?r\gh into ! m9d ( 8 in/rum5t ! great fact t an imm5se & indep5d5t cont95t lay (f !re beyond ! we/]n sea1 & betwe5 x & ano!r sea ^: wat]s wa%$ ! ea/]n %ores ( ,asia4 ,aga91 ,i h be5 told t x 0 ?is be+ :o 0 in/rum5tal 9 reveal+ ! k ( electricity to mank9d4 ,c y imag9e ! life ( su* a be+8 ,c y ext5d y\r consci\sness s z to t\* 88 ,i am frank en\gh to say t x is difficult ev5 = me1 :o h be5 able to rememb] s mu* ( my own long pa/1 & to "w out s _m ( ! probable effects ( ! causes :i* ,i myself set up 9 ! f> pa/1 effects :i* w %ape my future lives on e>?4 ,imag9e an indep5d5t entity ( vivid life1 yet )\t a physical or ev5 an a/ral body1 a be+ ( ?\ght ^: l[e/ m$ium is ?\ght1 :o influ5ces 8 *os5 in/rum5ts by contact ) _! nak$ m9ds4 ,:at p]sonal wi%es c su* a be+ h8 ,:at ambitions c he h8 ,! l[] & limit+ ^w ambition seems grotesque z *>act]iz+ ! motive =ce ( su* a be+4 ,he has a "n among u1 b ,i am n p]mitt$ to tell y ! "n4 ,x has a great mantramic value1 t "n1 & if y %\ld repeat x too (t5 x might raise y\r own consci\sness1 & ! vibration ( y\rself1 to a height :i* w\ld make x extremely difficult = y to keep y\r hold on t physical body1 )\t :i* y _c d c]ta9 "w t x is y\r privilege & duty to p]=m at ?is /age ( y\r evolution4 ,!re is a c]ta9 initiation :i* ! pupils ( ! great ,ma/]s take "u ! guidance ( ?is be+2 b ^? :o take t initiation retire p]man5tly f ! ev]yday life ( m54 ,!y get into ! c5tre ( causes1 :i* makes !m s dynamic--:i* makes _! p]sonality & _! ?\ghts s =ceful--t = ! sake ( ! _w itself !y mu/ n come too close to x2 because all ?+s "w by cyclic law1 & to ha/5 too mu* ! evolution ( humanity w\ld be dang]\s to humanity4 ,x c only g safely at a c]ta9 rate ( spe$4 ,above t spe$ x is likely to meet ) accid5t4 ,i "k exactly ! /age t ,i myself mu/ rea* be=e ,i c take ! initiation :i* is presid$ ov] by ?is be+4 ,:5 ,i h rea*$ t /age ,i %all n be able to come & write ?r\gh y\r h&1 unless y raise y\rself a correspond+ degree above y\r pres5t consci\sness1 because to d s might dang]\sly accel]ate y\r own rate ( gr[?4 ,s9ce com+ out "h ,i h le>n$ mu* ab\t ^? be+s :o h 9 *>ge ! high] evolution ( mank9d4 ,_! developm5t w\ld be q incompreh5sible to ! mass ( ev5 enlight5$ m5 at ! pres5t "t4 ,!y are & mu/ be v lonely be+s1 ?\gh !y too h _! pe]s & fell[-work]s4 ,c y imag9e rema9+ alone a hundr$ or a ?\s& or t5 ?\s& ye>s1 yet all ! "t extremely active 9 m9d1 foll[+ ) y\r ?\ght ! c\rse ( an evolution :i* y y\rself h long left beh9d 9 y\r own gr[?1 foll[+ x ) ! m9d alone1 because ! emotional nature y h also left beh9d1 & do+ all ?is n = any p]sonal rew>d b because x is a labor 9 accordance ) ! great law ( a ,be+ /ill above & beyond y\rself8 ,ob$i5ce is taught 9 c]ta9 s*ools1 n 9 an ef=t to control ! pupil 9 ! int]e/ ( ! ,ma/]1 b t ! pupil may ?us take 8 fir/ /eps on ! pa? :i* leads to ob$i5ce to ! ,cosmic ,w4 ,on t pa? he w h to g an imm5se di/ance be=e he c be tru/$ to d su* "w z is be+ done by ! be+ :o pass$ ?is night along ! battle-l9e ( "o ( ! oppos+ armies1 %$d+ ! light ( 8 ?\ght & ! c]ta9ty ( 8 purpose into a few m9ds ^: receptivity made possible _! grasp+ :at he gave4 ,d n we>y on ! pa?1 y :o are tak+ ! fir/ & easie/ /eps ( ! j\rney t %all "o day lead y to ! ,ma/]s6 ,! pa? is inde$ /eep1 & z "o inspir$ writ] said1 x leads uphill all ! way2 b !re are /ages at :i* ! travell] may pause & enjoy ! prospect4 ,i seem to h rea*$ su* a /age myself1 & ?\gh ,i am always work+ n[1 yet ,i enjoy my "w4 ,! awful battle t "s ( u f\ght ) ! elem5tal be+s is n[ ov]4 ,! wor/ calamity t c\ld h befall5 mank9d is happily av]t$4 ,! labor ( ! pres5t is light comp>$ ) ! labor ( t /ruggle4 ,if ! _w c\ld realize :at x owes to ! ,ma/]s :om mo/ m5 reg>d z my?s6 ,b su* ,tea*]s d n "w = gratitude nor = rew>d4 ,foll[ y 9 _! foot/eps1 = x is ! only road t c lead mank9d above ! awful calamities t ?reat5$ rec5tly to engulf mank9d4 7,i am n ref]r+ to a m]e ,g]man victory47 ,x is wise to keep f ! k ( m5 9 g5]al ! great evolution>y facts :i* gov]n ! life ( ! planet4 ,a m9d mu/ be lift$ above ! small circle ( ev]yday int]e/s be=e x c\ld endure su* k4 ,y all use words )\t realiz+ _! mean+4 ,y talk ( gu>dian angels2 y talk ( hell & purgatory1 & ( vic>i\s atonem5t1 & ( sacram5ts4 ,sacram5ts6 ,i c\ld tell y ( a sacram5t t is v]ily an eat+ ( ! body & a dr9k+ ( ! blood ( ,god2 b ,i refra9 le/ y %\ld tell ! _w1 & if y %\ld tell ! _w ! evil =ces ( ! _w w\ld de/roy y4 ,b ,i am com+ n[ p]il\sly ne> ! ?+s t may n be spok51 s ,i w wi% y a good-night--a good-night inde$--& g back to my labors1 9 ! re> ( t be+ ( light :o pass$ along ! battlefields ?is ev5+4 ,april #ag4 ,,lett] ,,xxvii ,,invisible ,,enemies ,,y may h wond]$ :y ! elem5tal be+s t z ,i h told y precipitat$ ! great w> 7 s malici\s at ?is "t1 :y !y hurl$ !mselves ^u mank9d ) su* ov]:elm+ =ce4 ,!re is no reason :y y %\ld n "k some?+ ( ^! causes1 hav+ se5 s mu* ( _! effects4 ,! say+ t man has made m mat]ial progress 9 ! la/ hundr$ ye>s ?an 9 ! prec$+ two ?\s&1 has become a m]e newspap] commonplace4 ,x is because he has n made a correspond+ moral progress t ! evil elem5tal be+s1 :o fe> = _! rule 9 _! own k+dom1 c\ld come s ne> to succe$+ 9 _! attacks ^u ! human race4 ,x is n m]ely 9 mat]ial ways t man has progress$ ) su* amaz+ rapidity1 = "s ( 8 inv5tions & discov]ies t\* ! invisible regions4 ,! doors ( man's m9d are op5+ on ! untrack$ spaces ( ae!r 9 :i* ^! be+s live4 ,man is *a9+ ! elem5ts1 & to *a9 ! elem5ts may be to *a9 ! elem5tals4 ,"o man 9 ,am]ica has come s ne> to a great & dang]\s secret t 8 eyes h _h to be veil$ by ^? :o fe> = man's too rapid progress4 ,occult societies dot ! _w4 ,9 o!r days ^! societies 7 really secret1 & no "o _h access to _! k until aft] te/s 7 pass$ :i* prov$ fitness = fur!r /udy & fur!r secrets4 ,b ! doors ( ! unse5 h be5 besieg$ by an army ( intellectual en?usia/s :o h n pass$ ^? te/s4 ,curiosity dem&s to "k t :i* only ! nobility ( ! _s 0 once tru/$ )4 ,democracy has spread ev5 into ! occult ord]s1 & sacr$ my/]ies h be5 publi%$ broadca/ by ^? :o put no curb ^u _! p]sonal ambitions4 ,! ho/s ( ! unse5 _w h !mselves suff]$ invasion4 ,n[ ! ho/s ( ! unse5 w obey a great s\l t !y "k to be m p[]ful ?an !mselves4 ,!y run l docile *ildr5 at 8 call1 & !y g at 8 comm& z a dog goes4 ,b ! unse5 ho/s are v jeal\s ( _! fre$om1 & !y w yield x only to "o ^: sup]iority is manife/ to !m4 ,_m--yes1 mo/--( ^? :o are n[ seek+ to op5 ! doors ( t region are unfit to comm& !re2 because he only c comm& ! unse5 =ces outside :o c comm& ! unse5 =ces inside himself4 ,9 a =m] lett] ,i spoke ( ! dang] ( black magic 9 ,am]ica2 b ! dang] is ev]y:]e4 ,& :at is black magic8 ,x may be briefly def9$ z a use = selfi% purposes ( ^? v =ces ( ! unse5 _w4 ,n until a man has advanc$ beyond himself w ! invisible =ces s]ve him long )\t rebellion4 ,pick up a common newspap]1 & y w see ! adv]tisem5ts ( m5 & wom5 :o promise = a fee to br+ ab\t results :i* c only be br\ght ab\t by us+ ^? invisibles4 ,:at blasphemy6 ,:at presumption6 ,if ^! adv]tis]s c\ld make good _! claims1 !y w\ld be m dang]\s ?an typhus fev]4 ,su* adv]tisem5ts ar\se all ! curiosity & ambition & fi]y selfi%ness lat5t 9 ! he>t ( ! ignorant4 ,^! untra9$ dabbl]s 9 ! my/]ies attempt to d ?+s :i* an ,adept w\ld nev] dream ( do+1 = mo/ ( _! ef=ts h = purpose "s attack ^u ! free w ( o!rs2 !y seek to influ5ce ! desires & ! judgm5t ( o!rs 9 ! n>r[ & p]sonal int]e/ ( ^? :o pay !m to set ! =ces 9 op]ation4 ,w\ld y let a *ild loose 9 a gunp[d] factory ) a box ( mat*es 9 8 h&8 ,t is :at has be5 done 9 ! la/ few ye>s all ov] ! we/]n _w4 ,no wond] ! invisible be+s h rebell$4 ,!y w foll[ a ,ma/]1 b !y res5t ! int]f]5ce ( a fool4 ,x is n ! fools !y fe>1 h[ev]4 ,! m5 !y fe> are ! great sci5ti/s4 ,man's progress 9 sci5ce has be5 su* t he mu/ purify 8 motives1 or he w be de/roy$4 ,t is "o reason :y ,i am prea*+ bro!rhood1 9 an attempt to save m5 f _! own folly4 ,once let ! feel+ = bro!rhood become g5]al1 & ^! exp]im5ts ) unkn[n =ces w\ld be less dang]\s4 ,mank9d z a mass might "w ) ! p[] ( a ,:ite ,ma/]1 ^: motives are always unselfi%4 ,! great sci5ti/s come ne>] ?an anybody else to t pure work+ ) m9d = m9d's own sake1 :i* ,i rec5tly describ$ 9 writ+ ( a great be+1 a great ,initiator1 :o s]ves ! _w by influ5c+ along ! l9e ( evolution>y law ! ?\ghts ( c]ta9 m5 :o are ! *os5 in/rum5ts ( evolution4 ,h[ little m5 "k ( ! unse5 _w surr\nd+ !m6 ,i rec5tly foll[$ y into a lecture room 9 ,new ,york t 0 ev5 m cr[d$ ) invisible be+s ?an ) m5 & wom54 ,y\r re/lessness !re _h cause1 z y well knew4 ,! purpose ( t meet+ 0 to =m a nucleus ( a society ( curiosity-seek]s = inve/igat+ ! unse51 = necromancy & c]emonial magic4 ,madness ( madness6 ,i he>d "o man express ! det]m9ation t ! propos$ society %\ld n1 l ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>*1 close its doors to ! outside _w2 b t ! society %\ld invite all :o 7 int]e/$ 9 ! inve/igation ( ! unse51 includ+ ! newspap] report]s4 ,a press ag5t = ! occult6 ,let me describe a few ( ! auditors :o 7 invisible to any 9 ! room except "o p]son3 ,a long lean hungry be+ ) ! face ( a g>goyle & ! /oma* ( an unf$ lee* ye>n$ ov] ! ga!r+4 ,he 0 almo/ affectionate 9 8 int]e/ 9 "o ( ! speak]s4 ,ano!r1 bloat$ & le?>gic1 _h already f$ himself s9ce ent]+ ! room4 ,ano!r1 fright5$ & tortur$1 0 seek+ an exit2 b c\ld n get outside ! desire-aura ( "o ( ! p>ticipants 9 t orgy ( curiosity4 ,ano!r1 p[]ful & malignant1 mov$ f place to place1 select+ 8 future victims4 ,he w be pres5t at ! meet+s ( ! society4 ,he w try to keep x alive1 = he kn[s ( a fasc9at+ possibility :i* ,i %all n record "h4 ,:y d y g to su* places8 ,april #ah4 ,,lett] ,,xxviii ,,! ,,glory ,,( ,,w> ,i ,,h writt5 ( ! beauty ( peace2 b ,i n[ want to write ( ! glory ( w>1 = w> has its glories4 ,any?+ t ar\ses man to ! highe/ pit* ( en?usiasm is glori\s2 = :at is glory b a radiation ( light1 a bur/ ( t life :i* is ! ,sun 9 man8 ,i regret ?is w>4 ,! suff]+1 ! agony1 ! torm5t t ,i h se5 & h felt ?r\gh sympa?y1 h left _! m>ks ^u me2 b _h ,i rema9$ 9 ! safety ( ! neutral />s ,i %\ld h miss$ ! glory ( ! fight4 ,man _h gr[n too tame1 )\t acquir+ ! virtues ( tam5ess2 b ?is w> has s]v$ ! purpose ( ! gods by hurl+ man into ! primitive1 ! savage1 :]e life _h its roots1 b f :i* ! sap fl[s t w blossom lat] 9 su* a fai? z ! _w has nev] se54 ,suff]+ & joy are =ev] opposite & equal4 ,man may re/ = a "t 9 ! neutral condition ( a well-f$ half-consci\sness2 b :5 ! extremes ( suff]+ & joy come to him1 he is no long] half-consci\s1 b awake & alive1 & glory %9es r\nd him4 ,c\ld ! ,ma/]s h prev5t$ ?is w>8 ,!y c\ld h ret>d$ x2 b ! causes 7 pres5t 9 ! he>ts ( m51 9 ! invisible =ces )9 !m z well z outside !m1 & to h fur!r delay$ ! explosion w\ld h s]v$ no planet>y purpose4 ,! m5 :o are n dead are m alive ?an !y 7 twelve mon?s ago1 & ev5 ! s-call$ dead are liv+-dead4 ,we pu%$ back ! =ces ( evil1 yes2 b t 0 a "p ( ! /ruggle1 t 0 ! /ruggle 9 our _w4 ,let me tell y ! /ory ( "o man :om ,i knew 9 ! days ( peace4 ,he 0 well-f$ & half-asleep ) prosp]ity1 he prattl$ mild commonplaces ab\t life1 & e?ics1 & ! duties ( a citiz52 b :at did he really "k ( life1 or ( e?ics1 or ( ! duties ( a citiz58 ,we w call him ,johnson4 ,he has be5 9 ?is w> "s mon?s1 a fight] = ,engl&1 & ! integrity ( ,engl&2 & n[ :5 he speaks ( life 8 spee* has mean+1 because life to him n[ is ! opposite & mate ( dea?4 ,he feels en?usiasm = x1 ! glory ( x %9es r\nd him4 ,johnson _h a son1 an only *ild4 ,fa!rs w "k :at ,i mean4 ,9 ! great retreat 9 :i* ,johnson 0 "o ( ! lead]s 8 son fell be=e 8 eyes--w\nd$ b n dead4 ,= "o swift he>t-beat ! fa!r turn$ to 8 boy 444 !n he w5t on ) 8 comm& t o!rwise w\ld h be5 lead]less1 leav+ 8 only *ild to ! t5d] m]cies ( an army drunk ) ! pitiless glory ( conqu]ors4 ,johnson w nev] aga9 prattle commonplaces ab\t life4 ,he has le>n$ ! mean+ ( dea?1 & ( tortur$ unc]ta9ty f> worse ?an dea?4 ,april #bj4 7,?is lett] 0 left unf9i%$--= no reason app>5t to me4--,editor47 ,,lett] ,,xxix ,a ,,fri5d ,,( 8,x0 ,a ,,man di$ ye/]day ) y\r "n 9 8 ?\ghts4 ,no1 he 0 n a fri5d ( y\rs1 b someone y h nev] se54 ,back 9 ,engl& la/ ye> he read ! =m] book :i* ,i wrote ?r\gh y\r h&1 & 0 int5sely int]e/$ 9 x4 ,= mon?s he want$ to meet y1 b be+ a mode/ man he wait$4 ,!n ! w> broke out1 & he w5t ) ! army to ,belgium4 ,day & night s9ce ! fir/ fight+ he has be5 m$itat+ ! facts & possibilities ( t book4 ,is !re a future life cont9u\s ) t ( e>?8 ,c a man return z ,i claim$ to return1 & c he give to a woman /ill 9 ! l& ( ! liv+ a record ( 8 exp]i5ces among ! dead8 ,_h ,i really se5 ! ?+s ,i report$1 & did ,i g to ! patt]n _w & ! heav5 _w1 :]e ,i saw ! ,savi\r ( m5 ) a lamb on 8 arm1 etc41 etc48 ,"o ?+ ?is man nev] que/ion$1 & t 0 ! s9c]ity ( ! scribe4 ,( t he 0 conv9c$ by in/9ct & by a k9d ( ,anglo-,saxon *ivalry difficult = ! m5 ( "s races to und]/&4 ,he 0 always talk+ to 8 tr5*-mates ab\t ! future life4 ,he w\ld sit smok+ 8 pipe 9 sil5ce & gaz+ (f into space1 & :5 o!r soldi]s ask$ him :at he 0 ?9k+ ( s busily1 he w\ld (t5 say3 8,i am ?9k+ ( a book ,i read la/ summ]1 & wond]+ if x 0 true40 ,:5 !y ask$ him :at book he ref]r$ to1 he w\ld tell !m ab\t ! ,lett]s ( a ,liv+ ,dead ,man1 & quote to !m :ole s5t5ces f x1 & give !m ! outl9es ( its /ories1 & expla9 to !m ! philosophical propositions scatt]$ ?r\gh ! book4 ,:ole ev5+s h be5 tak5 up ) ^! discussions4 ,y h n be5 to ! w>s1 ei!r z a soldi] or z a nurse2 b y h be5 to ! w>s4 ,x 0 a curi\s co9cid5ce t t book %\ld h be5 publi%$ only a few mon?s be=e ! greate/ tak+-(f ( human s\ls 9 ! hi/ory ( ! _w4 ,_h y ?\ght ( t8 ,i _h n1 until ! ,tea*] po9t$ x out to me4 ,!re 0 "o "q :i* p>ticul>ly int]e/$ our fri5d :o di$ ye/]day ) y\r "n 9 8 ?\ghts3 ! "q :e!r1 if he %\ld g out ( life at ! h&s ( ! enemy1 he c\ld prep>e su* a 8little home 9 heav50 z we wrote ab\t1 = a girl :om he lov$ back 9 ,engl&2 & if he %\ld prep>e x & wait = h]1 :e!r %e w\ld be true to him aft] 8 dea?1 & meet him !re 9 a few ye>s1 & dwell ) him 9 ! little home4 ,?is "y man _h read c]ta9 writ+s ( an ,am]ican my/ic on ! !ory ( c\nt]p>tal s\ls1 & he believ$ t 9 ! girl back 9 ,engl& he _h f\nd 8 c\nt]p>tal s\l1 z ,i h9t$ ( ! man 9 my /ory :o built ! little home 9 heav54 ,b no ^w ( ?is did he speak to 8 tr5*-mates4 ,to !m he spoke ab\t ! o!r /ories 9 ! book1 n ab\t t "o4 ,x is curi\s t we nev] m5tion to o!rs ! favorite subject ( our ?\ghts--t is1 mo/ ( u d n4 ,ano!r ?+ 9 ! book :i* int]e/$ our fri5d 0 ! /ory ( ! woman 9 ! invisible :o made a j\rney into ,egypt ) h] /ill-liv+ husb&4 ,he us$ to wond] :e!r1 if he %\ld die1 he c\ld g 9 ! _s1 z he said1 to ! little place 9 ,nor? ,wales :i* he _h once visit$ ) 8 sweet-he>t1 & :i* !y _h select$ z ! future sc5e ( _! w$d+ j\rney4 ,"o night he wrote h] a long lett] ask+ h]1 9 case ( 8 dea?1 to g !re ?is summ]1 & say+ he w\ld try to meet h] !re4 ,!n aft] reflection he de/roy$ ! lett]1 fe>+ x might make h] sad4 ,:5 ,i saw ab\t him a peculi> light :i* ! indwell+ _s ?r[s r\nd its vehicle :5 t vehicle is ab\t to be de/roy$1 ,i wait$1 kn[+ !re w\ld soon be "w to d4 ,sudd5ly ,i saw 8 body fall to ! gr\nd1 & saw ! t5u\s bodies exud+ !mselves4 ,i wait$ b a mom5t1 !n w5t =w>d & lift$ ! _s out ( ! sleep into :i* x w\ld h drift$4 ,i brea!d on ! =ehead ( ! a/ral--= a/rals h =eheads1 make no mi/ake ab\t t--,i brea!d on ! a/ral =ehead ( ! man :o _h paid our book ! complim5t ( ?9k+ ab\t x & ab\t u 9 ! la/ mom5t ( 8 life4 ,he op5$ 8 eyes on my face4 8,hello1 #8,x'60 he said4 8,i hop$ y w\ld meet me "h4 ,y're a good fell[ n to disappo9t me40 8,oh1 ,i 0 always a good fell[60 ,i answ]$4 8,h[ did y "k s quickly t y _h come out80 8,because ,i saw y40 8,& h[ did y "k me80 8,by y\r photograph1 :i* ,i saw 9 a magaz9e40 8,b d ,i /ill look l t old hulk80 ,i ask$2 = ,i r pride myself on ! recov]y ( a c]ta9 "p ( my orig9al y\? & beauty4 8,:y10 he said1 8y d look l ! photograph40 8,t is /range10 ,i repli$4 ,!n ,i rememb]$ t my v k ( ! man's ?\ghts ( me1 z be+ ! old ,judge ( ! /ory1 might h made my body trans=m itself to meet ! dem&s ( 8 recognition1 ev5 )\t ! int]v5tion ( my w4 8,d y want to take a nap80 ,i ask$1 ?\gh !re 0 no sleep9ess 9 8 eyes4 8,no1 ?ank y1 #8,x4' ,i %\ld l to g to ,engl&4 ,b p]haps y h some?+ to d besides indulg+ my wants & wi%es40 ,i laugh$4 8,y\r wants & wi%es are j z important z m9e10 ,i said4 8,i'll g to ,engl& ) y40 ,we w5t4 ,cross+ ! ,*annel we pass$ a transport lad5 ) troops4 8,i wi% all ^? fell[s knew z mu* z ,i d10 my fri5d said4 8,maybe !y w\ld fight ) r5ew$ vigor if !y c\ld see :at a good companion ,i h f\nd out "h40 ,d n be />tl$1 y cl]gym5 :o say1 8,a%es to a%es1 du/ to du/10 & draw solemn faces z y preside ov] ! pass+ ( s\ls6 ,d n be />tl$ or %ock$ by ! jolly conv]sation ( my newly-arriv$ soldi]-boy4 ,he knew t he 0 ) an old fri5d1 & he knew also t dea? is no m sacr$ ?an life1 & ne$ n be any m solemn4 ,we w5t to call on a girl4 ,i (t5 w5t c\rt+ 9 my y\?1 b nev] did ,i feel m int]e/ 9 su* a visit ?an :5 ,i w5t ) ?is soldi] to see 8 girl4 ,! fact t %e c\ld n see u made no diff]5ce4 ,i am us$ to t n[4 ,%e 0 comb+ h] hair :5 we arriv$1 beautiful long hair1 & on ! mantel be=e h] & "u ! mirror 0 a photograph ( my fri5d4 ,z h] eyes re/$ on x lov+ly1 sudd5ly he pass$ betwe5 h] & ! photograph1 & %e cri$ out3 8,:y1 ! eyes are alive60 & dropp$ ! comb on ! floor4 ,!n1 z ! tru? fla%$ ?r\gh h] m9d1 %e said1 v solemnly3 8,my de>1 if x is really y1 & if y h come to me 9 ?is /range way1 "k t ,i love y & %all always love y1 & t ,i w meet y 9 heav540 ,!n %e sat d[n 9 a little *air & began to cry4 ,i left him ) h]2 b ,i %all return occasionally to see h[ my *>ge is gett+ along1 & by & by ,i %all tea* him "s ( ! lessons on :i* 8 future welf>e dep5ds4 ,i d n wi% him to return to ! neighborhood ( ! battlefields4 ,:y %\ld he8 ,he has s]v$1 & has e>n$ 8 rew>d4 ,p]haps lat] ,i may tell y some?+ m ab\t ! man :o di$ ) y\r "n--& m9e--9 8 ?\ghts4 ,april #bd4 ,,lett] ,,xxx ,,! ,,rose ,,& ,,! ,,cross ,,m & m ,i am *>m$ & amaz$ by t "o :om we call ! ,beautiful ,be+4 ,i %all nev] und]/& x1 = its ways are n our ways4 ,ye/]day x pass$ ov] ! battlefield aga91 & ,i %\ld h writt5 :5 ,i came to y a few h\rs aft]w>d _h ,i n piti$ y\r we>9ess4 ,d n be disc\rag$4 ,sometimes ! ,ma/]s ( ,compassion may seem to _! s]vants to h no compassion2 b !y "k1 z ! s]vants _c "k1 t ! h>de/ road leads up ! highe/ m\nta91 & t !re is re/ at ! top4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ pass$ ov] ! battlefield4 ,imag9e a rose 9 a cannon's m\?1 a bird s++ 9 ! he>t ( an e>?quake1 a pe>l 9 a l&slide1 an angel 9 hell4 ,y "k n ! mean+ ( ! ^w battlefield4 ,ye/]day ?\s&s di$ 9 ! awful upro>4 ,noise6 noise6 noise6--till ! n]ves %riek$ ) pa9 & despair seiz$ ! s\l4 ,to g out ( life 9 t see?+ mael/rom is g5]ally to pass into ano!r see?+ mael/rom1 hott] & noisi] ?an ! "o left beh9d4 ,h[ c ,i write ( w> s z to sp>e y\r feel+s8 ,! great ,tea*]s are n try+ to sp>e y\r feel+s4 ,!y want y to feel & feel1 till ! v =ce ( ! wave ( feel+ c>ries y high on ! %ore ( ,adept%ip4 ,& !y want y to ?9k & ?9k1 till ! irresi/ible cold ( logic freezes self out ( y4 ,ice & fire6 ,if y %r9k f kn[+ :at ! soldi]s ( ! nations h suff]$ t y may be free1 y are unwor?y ( t fre$om4 ,d n %r9k f suff]+4 ,! husk ( ! se$ mu/ be brok5 be=e ! spr\t c appe>4 ,9 dy+ = _! c\ntry1 ^? s\ls 9 ! hell ( battle are giv+ bir? to ! new "t4 ,9 suff]+ ) !m1 y\r s\ls are giv+ bir? to ! new 9 y\rselves4 ,d n look = joy :ile humanity is 9 travail1 unless y c f9d ! joy 9 suff]+4 ,yes1 ,i "k ! "t :5 fir/1 & ?r\gh :om1 t gr& idea f\nd lodgm5t 9 y\r consci\sness4 ,x is ! secret ( great s\ls 9 ?is h\r ( ! _w's pa94 ,if y suff] till y c suff] no m--!n ! poles %ift1 & ! joy ( suff]+ illum9ates ! s\l4 ,!n ! beautiful be+ 9 y\rself hov]s ov] ! battlefield :]e ! less] self has be5 sla94 ,!re is a beautiful be+ 9 e "o ( y1 ! bird t s+s 9 ! he>t ( ! e>?quake1 ! rose t ne/les 9 ! hot m\? ( ! cannon1 ! pe>l t _c be cru%$ by ! l&slide1 ! angel t illum9es hell4 ,all ! normal feel+s ( ! human he>t are int5sifi$ at ?is "t4 ,no "o is ! same z be=e ! w> bur/--no "o1 any:]e 9 ! _w4 ,! s\l ( humanity is 9 travail4 ,?is inc>nation ( humanity is turn$ aga9/ itself1 & r5ds itself4 ,! he>t ( humanity is an abyss1 into :i* humanity _h gr[n too bl9d to look1 s ! blaz+ tor*es ( ! gu>dians ( good & evil h be5 ?ru/ into ! abyss1 & all ! dr[s+ dwell]s !re9 h be5 sudd5ly1 rudely awak5$4 ,oh1 he>ts ( e>?1 d n fall asleep aga96 ,pity & love "o ano!r1 = ! pa9 ( "o is ! pa9 ( ea*1 & ov] ! battlefield ( ! suff]+ race ! ,beautiful ,be+ hov]s4 ,humanity is ! ,"o1 & humanity is ! _m1 & all toge!r y may come into ! inh]itance ( y\r ,fa!r :i* is 9 heav54 ,y are famili> ) ! symbol ( ! ,rose-,cross4 ,n until ! h>d wood is driv5 ?r\gh y\r f\r limbs1 9 ! pa9 ( y\r %ock$ & w\nd$ n]ves1 c ! great r$ rose ( love unfold its p]fum$ petals ^u y\r brea/1 betwe5 ! arms ( ! cross4 ,! human 9 y is ! pa9 ( ! cross1 ! div9e 9 y is ! p]fume ( ! rose1 & y y\rself1 y human & div9e1 are ! ,rose-,cross4 ,if y %r9k f ! spl9t]+ pa9 ( ! wood z x claims y = its own1 y _c smell ! p]fume ( ! rose :i* also claims y = its own4 ,d n refuse ! great initiation1 ,o humanity ( ! races6 ,d n hide y\rself 9 ! dungeon ( fe> :5 ! great ,initiator comes6 ,on ! awful cross ( w> %all blossom ! r$ rose ( ! new race4 ,on ! cross ( ea* mortal =m may blossom its r$ rose4 ,! rose m>ks ! balance betwe5 ! ,ea/ & ! ,we/1 betwe5 ! ris+ & ! sett+ sun1 betwe5 ! human & ! div9e4 ,! arms ( ! cross ext5d to inf9ity1 its feet are buri$ 9 ! sub/ance ( et]nity1 its head is among ! angels & ! gods1 & ! he>t ( ! rose is ev]y:]e4 ,x is 9 e he>t ( all ^! myriads :o %r9k at ! t\* ( ! h>d wood4 ,i he> e day ! %rieks ( ^? :o are mak+ ! vic>i\s atonem5t = ! race4 ,:5 !y lie mangl$ on ! battlefield1 ! arms ( ! cross are be+ driv5 ?r\gh _! quiv]+ fle%1 & ! petals ( ! rose are unfold+ 9 _! he>ts4 ,!y are dy+ = love at ! h&s ( hate1 = love & hate are opposite & omnipres5t4 ,_! love = _! c\ntry is _! call to ! atonem5t1 _! at-"o-m5t ) ! ,god :o e/abli%$ ! law ( ! ,ea/ & ! ,we/1 ! ,height & ! ,dep?1 ! oppos+ =ces ( ,love & ,hate4 ,!y h accept$ ! sacrifice4 ,= !m %all be ! resurrection & ! life1 aft] _! soj\rn among ! dead1 _! soj\rn 9 hell4 ,!y %all appe> to ! ,magdal5 at ! door ( ! sepul*re1 ! "o ^: s9s 7 =giv5 because %e lov$ mu*1 & :o %all call ! disciples to give !m ! tid+s ( great joy4 ,! s\l ( ! _w is ! ris5 ,*ri/1 & ! disciples rejoice at ! tid+s4 ,h[ c ,i )hold f y ! great ev5t :i* ,"t has u%]$ 98 ,= ?irty pieces ( silv] ! s\l ( ! _w 0 sold1 & ! ,judas ( ! _w has giv5 ! kiss ( betrayal ) ! "n ( ,god on 8 lips1 & ! ,roman soldi]s are already divid+ ! g>m5ts4 ,pontius ,pilate has wa%$ 8 h&s ( ! issue1 & 8 wife weeps 9 h] *amb] at ! disreg>d+ ( h] dream4 ,! prie/s ( ! ,sanh$rim are wagg+ _! heads ) satisfaction1 b ! veil ( ! ,temple ( ,humanity is r5t f top to bottom4 ,h[ c\ld y receive ! message if y _h n suff]$1 ,o li/5] at ! door ( ,"t8 ,:o w\ld believe y1 _h y n grasp$ ! tru? ( ! atonem5t8 ,until ! wood ( ! cross _h be5 driv5 ?r\gh y\r limbs1 ! rose c\ld n blossom1 ,o _w 9 travail at ?is h\r6 ,be /ill1 & "k t ,god is ,god4 ,9 ! /illness ( p]ception ! petals beg9 to op51 & joy /eals ov] ! he>t1 & ! he>t swells ) ! exp&+ joy1 till e fibre ( ! cross is alive & t+l+ ) ! joy at ! he>t ( ! rose1 & ! fragrance sweet5s ! _w4 ,& ! ,beautiful ,be+1 a ray ( ! ,holy ,_s1 hov]s ov] ! ,calv>y ( ! battlefield4 ,april #be4 ,,lett] ,,xxxi ,a ,,s]bian ,,magician ,,x is a long road f ! sacrifice ( ! ,rose-,cross to plague-/rick5 ,s]bia1 b t is ! road y take ) me ?is morn+4 ,!re is a reason :y t c\ntry has be5 mo/ susceptible to ! a/ral g]ms ( disease1 t a loa!some be+ ( :i* ,i wrote y 9 a =m] lett] spew$ =? into ! upp] _w4 ,long ago 9 ! m\nta9s ( ,s]bia !re dwelt an evil magician1 a man ^: /udies 9 ! deep] sci5ces 7 und]tak5 solely = ! intellectual & selfi% pleasure :i* he f\nd 9 !m4 ,he _h progress$ s f> beyond ! normal human consci\sness t he _h no worldly ambitions4 ,to him ! _w 0 b a despicable place to escape f1 & ! p ( ! _w 7 insects b5ea? 8 notice1 save only z he c\ld use !m = 8 purposes4 ,he consid]$ himself a k9d ( god1 & s dilig5t 7 8 selfi% labors t _h he devot$ 8 k to ! good ( ! human race f :i* he sprang1 he might really h become a k9d ( god4 ,b selfi% & evil be+s ne$ nev] aspire to god%ip4 ,at mo/ !y c take b a /ep beyond ! human4 ,! grub may become a butt]fly1 b if x hates ! sunlight & ! air ( ! high] regions1 its w+s _h bett] n h gr[n4 ,?is man1 ?is selfi% magician1 _h le>n$ t by c]ta9 magical =mul he c\ld call to himself be+s ( ! elem5ts1 & t by ! aid ( ^! invisibles he c\ld create a/ral be+s :i*1 :ile !mselves s\lless1 he c\ld en]gize ) 8 own =ce4 ,n[ ! turn = real & active evil :i* m>k$ a c]ta9 /age 9 8 life1 came ab\t 9 ?is way3 ,he _h f\nd :at seem$ to him a secure retreat among ! m\nta9s1 he _h prep>$ & magnetiz$ ! neighborhood ( 8 hut s t x 0 a c5tre ( a/ral =ce1 & 8 "r to ! undivid$ possession ( t spot 0 "o ( ! ideas :i* he en]giz$ = 8 own protection4 ,n[ ! own] ( ! m\nta9 :]e ! magician liv$ discov]$ t ! neighborhood ( 8 hut 0 a good place = hunt+ ! wild animals ( t region1 & soon ! quiet ( ! magician's /udies 0 brok5 by ! reports ( ! guns ( ! hunt]s1 :o ev5 cross$ ) _! despis$ bodies ! v circle :i* ! magician _h prep>$ = 8 own use4 ,?is prov$ t he 0 n a v high magician1 = _h he made t c5tre = a "w hav+ z object ! b5efit ( humanity1 memb]s ( t humanity c\ld n h pr(an$ x4 ,! retreats ( ! ,ma/]s ( ,compassion are secure aga9/ intrusion4 ,9 8 rage & disappo9tm5t he call$ d[n curses ^u ! hunt]s & ^u all ! region r\ndab\t1 & by 8 evil magic he creat$ be+s :o %\ld execute 8 curses4 ,he creat$ !m ^u ! e>? & 9 ! air above & 9 ! region bel[ ! surface ( ! e>?1 & to ea* he allott$ a task ) fe>ful p5alties = disob$i5ce4 ,8 use ( ! p[] he _h ga9$ 0 a use positively =bidd5 by ! ,law "u :i* ! real ,ma/]s "w4 ,x really caus$ ! hunt]s to g away f t neighborhood1 b ! be+s he _h call$ & ! be+s he _h creat$ rema9$ !re2 = he _h n suffici5t k1 or maybe n a suffici5t s5se ( responsibility = 8 nef>i\s "w1 to make him de/roy or bani% !m himself4 ,& :5 he di$1 at ! ripe age ( "o hundr$ & twelve ye>s1 & 8 w 0 remov$ f !m1 !y /ill rema9$ 9 a /ate ( semi-animation 9 ! l[] regions ( ! a/ral _w4 ,!n1 a c5tury or m aft]w>ds1 :5 ! great w> wave broke ov] ,europe1 & ! evil ho/s ( ! unse5 came clamor+ = _! prey & _! satisfaction1 ^! old a/ral mon/]s awoke out ( _! sleep & jo9$ !mselves to !m1 & ! :ole neighborhood :i* ! evil magician _h curs$ became an infect$ place1 f ! exhalations ( ^? be+s ^: raison d'tre _h be5 a man's hatr$ ( ! p :o _h di/urb$ him 9 8 selfi% labors4 ,i am n go+ to describe ! process by :i* he _h creat$ !m & laid an evil spell ^u a :ole neighborhood1 = ,i am det]m9$ n to be/[ ^u a selfi% _w any k t x c use to make m tr\ble 9 future4 ,b ,i want y to realize t ,s]bia is really a dang]\s place4 ,t is :y x 0 *os5 z ! focus+ po9t = ! evil onslaught ( w>4 ,! p ( ,s]bia are brave & innoc5t ( all ?is a/ral evil :i* has come ^u !m4 ,!y 7 us$ because ! evil =ces c\ld get at !m ?r\gh ?is region already "u a curse f ( old4 ,! "t has come :5 ! m5 ( ! new race mu/ "k t !re are ?+s to be avoid$ 9 ! a/ral _w4 ,if c]ta9 tea*]s _h told less1 ?is w>n+ might n be necess>y2 b ! _w has acquir$ already s cle> a p]ception t !re is ano!r _w )9 & outside _! own1 t _! natural curiosity mu/ be protect$ by w>n+s n to fool ) ! unse51 until !y h acquir$ su* a selfless devotion to _! fell[-be+s t !y may explore x )\t be+ !mselves infect$ by ! poison ( ! snake t ne/les !re among ! fl[]s4 ,! old magician has pass$ on into t sph]e :]e selfi% s*ol>s pursue _! inve/igations unhamp]$ by ! limitations ( gross matt]2 b ! full responsibility = 8 actions 9 ^? ,s]bian hills :5 he 0 la/ on e>? w wait = him at ! door ( rebir?4 ,:5 he comes to ! _w aga9 x w be 9 a body :i* is itself a victim ( all ! plagues :i* he let loose !re1 9 ! det]m9$ ef=t to protect himself aga9/ o!rs :o _h z good a "r !re z he _h4 ,/ay out ( ,s]bia till x has be5 cleans$ ( plague1 y ^: "w is n connect$ ) ! specialty ( plague-de/ruction4 ,b ^? doctors & o!r sci5ti/s :o are devot$ly go+ ?i!r to save ! race f ! horror t ?reat5s x--to !m %all be accord$ all ! honors & glories ( w> & ( peace1 = !y h cons5t$1 _! high] selves h cons5t$1 t !y be us$ 9 ! s]vice ( ! _w4 ,i h said be=e t ! evil elem5tal be+s fe> ! sci5ti/2 & ?\gh ! sci5ti/s fight ?is plague ) mat]ial means1 yet ! =ce ( _! w & ( _! unselfi% purpose acts beyond ! mat]ial base ( _! op]ations1 ext5d+ its influ5ce ev5 into ! invisible _w ( :i* _! objective m9ds h no k1 purify+ x ) vital air4 ,yes1 all honor to ! sci5ti/s6 ,april #bf4 ,,lett] ,,xxxii ,,judas ,,& ,,typhon ,i ,,h spok5 ( ! crucifixion ?r\gh :i* ! s\l ( ! race is pass+4 ,n[ ,i want to speak ( ! ,judas :o betray$ t race = ?irty pieces ( silv]4 ,read] ( ?is book1 :e!r y are a ,jew1 a ,*ri/ian1 a ,h9doo or a ,mahometan1 if y "k any?+ at all ab\t ! initiatory process ( ! s\l1 y mu/ "k t ! gospel drama--be x hi/orical or leg5d>y1 :i*ev] way y *oose to take x--is a fai?ful dramatization ( ! process ( initiation4 ,& 9 t process ! betrayal ( ,judas is an inevitable "p4 ,)\t x1 ! cup ( bitt]ness w\ld n be full1 & ! cup ( bitt]ness mu/ be full = ! s\l ( ! race1 ! s\l ( ! individual1 ! s\l ( ! ,*ri/4 8,my ,fa!r1 :y ha/ ,?\ =sak5 me80 has be5 on ! lips ( _m a mangl$ soldi] on ?is awful ,calv>y ( ! race4 ,! heavy cross has be5 borne all ?r\gh ! toilsome mon?s ( ! j\rney f ,autumn to ,spr+1 & n[ 9 ! ,april "t ! race has be5 nail$ to ! cross = ! agony4 ,! cr[n ( ?orns is on ! ble$+ br[s1 ! nails h pi]c$ ! h&s & feet1 ! cup ( v9eg> has be5 (f]$1 & n[ on a million lips is ! cry1 8,eloi1 ,eloi1 lama ,saba*?ani60 ,! betrayal ( ,judas 0 inevitable1 z ! de$ ( ,typhon 0 inevitable4 ,_h x n be5 = ,judas1 ! /ory w\ld n be complete4 ,_h x n be5 = ! act ( ,typhon 9 slay+ ,osiris1 ,horus ! ,son c\ld n h aris54 ,& yet 9 ! face ( ?is ,i /& "h--safe beh9d ! veil ( ! invisible1 z "s objectors w say--& advise ! _w to s(t5 ! awful puni%m5t ( ,judas1 s f> z lies 9 its p[]4 ,= did n t ,"o himself say ^u ! cross1 8,fa!r1 =give !m1 = !y "k n :at !y d08 ,no?+ 9 ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt1 no?+ 9 ! sacr$ records ( ! ,ea/1 no?+ 9 ! ar*ives ( ! :ole _w c comp>e ) ^? t5 words = gr&eur & spiritual significance3 8,fa!r1 =give !m1 = !y "k n :at !y d60 ,!y :o n[ s9 aga9/ ! race1 inde$ "k n :at !y d4 ,!y are drunk ) ! rage ( de/ruction1 madd5$ by ! sub-consci\sness ( _! own guilt2 b :at !y d !y _c "k4 ,only ! initiate s\ls among ! ,g]mans ev5 vaguely "k :at ,g]many has done4 ,& yet ,i say1 =give & pity !m2 = _! (fice is a t]rible "o1 & _! suff]+ w be great4 ,fe> n1 :5 y\r blood relations are sla9 by ?\s&s1 & :5 y feel y\rself also sla9 by spiritual p>ticipation1 ! good mu/ triumph 9 ! end1 because ! race is on its upw>d j\rney4 ,its blood is n spill$ 9 va94 ,did ! human race n "k1 :5 x gave ! sop to ,g]many 9 ! la/ conclave1 t x 0 ,g]many :o w\ld betray x8 ,! race knew4 ,& 9 t awful ,july ! subconsci\s selves ( m5 knew 9 _! sleep t ! t]rible trial 0 at h&4 ,d y rememb]8 ,9 _m a s5sitive s\l t drama 0 pre-enact$1 be=e x 0 enact$ on ?is ,calv>y ( ! nations4 ,t ,g]many w\ld betray ! _w 0 writt5 9 ! s\l ( ,g]many2 b if ! _w %\ld hate h] ) a cont9u+ hate = t betrayal1 x w\ld be a sore 9 ! he>t ( ! human race :i* w\ld a*e = a ?\s& ye>s4 8,fa!r1 =give !m2 = !y "k n :at !y d40 ,to admit ! necessity ( evil 9 ! cosmic s*eme is n to condone evil4 ,to =give ! s9n] is n to m9imize ! s94 ,x is because ( ! inability ( ! undevelop$ m9d to grasp ! awful law ( ! balance ( =ces t ! ,gu>dians ( ! sacr$ k h be5 s retic5t 9 _! public utt]ances4 8,x mu/ ne$s be t (f5ses come2 b woe to t man by :om ! (f5se come?10 has be5 repeat$ 9 ?\s&s ( *ur*es2 b ! latt] half ( ! s5t5ce has be5 und]/ood f> bett] ?an ! fir/ half1 8,x mu/ ne$s be t (f5ses come40 ,be+ :at %e is1 ,g]many c\ld n help betray+ ! race to ?is crucifixion4 ,x 0 writt5 t ! human race w\ld be betray$1 & no nation c\ld h done x b ,g]many4 ,typhon 0 oblig$ to slay ,osiris1 by ! v law ( 8 be+4 ,& n[ ,isis1 ! great ,"m1 ! ,womanhood ( ! _w1 w&]s wail+ up & d[n seek+ = ! fragm5ts ( ! body ( h] husb&4 ,on ! battle l9e = a ?\s& miles ^? fragm5ts are scatt]$4 ,isis is inde$ wid[$4 ,& z man is ! type ( ! great ,ar*etype1 s "o man /&s ?is day z ! type ( ! ,betray]1 & t man is ,wilhelm ( ,g]many4 ,! disease :i* long has eat5 at 8 bra91 a contributory cause ( 8 ego-mania1 0 ! vuln]able spot1 ! spot ungu>d$ betwe5 ! lamps ( ! magic circle ( ,europe1 :]e ! evil =ces f\nd entrance4 ,v]ily1 x %all be woe to him by :om ?is (f5se has come6 ,& 9 say+ t ! _w mu/ n hate ! nation :i* ,evil has us$ z its s]vant1 ,i am n advis+ s5tim5tal weakness 9 ! f9al clos+ ( ?is acc\nt4 ,! _w = its own protection mu/ make x impossible t ,g]many %\ld ev] repeat ?is betrayal4 ,! details ,i leave to ! speciali/s1 be+ a mode/ gho/1 & speak+ f my safe retreat beh9d ! veil ( ! invisible4 ,april #bg4 ,,lett] ,,xxxiii ,,cr[ns ,,( ,,/raw ,,9 seek+ to hold back ! k>ma ( ,g]many1 ,i am n seek+ to upset ! law ( ju/ice1 ! law ( cause & effect4 ,on ! contr>y4 ,y\r /udies 9 ! law ( k>ma h be5 b sup]ficial if y h n le>n$ t "t is a factor4 ,_m a solv5t firm w\ld be ?r[n into bankruptcy %\ld all its cr$itors dem& at once full paym5t ( _! acc\nts4 ,! moral & f9ancial indebt$ness ( ,g]many is its awful k>ma4 ,give x a little "t 9 :i* to adju/ itself to an entirely new way ( ?9k+4 ,i li/5$ to a discussion :i* y _h ) a fri5d ! o!r day#c 9 reg>d to ! hypo!sis t ,g]many's false ass]tion ( 8,deuts*l& b] ,alles10 be+ s p[]fully po/ulat$1 c\ld ov]come facts2 t ! human race might be evolv+ into ! era ( m9d1 & t a p[]ful concept1 h[ev] false1 might make facts con=m to x4 ,let u see4 ,! idea t ,g]many & ! ,g]mans are sup]ior to ev]y?+ else 9 ! _w lies s deep 9 ! m9ds ( t race t x w be difficult to elim9ate x4 ,z y y\rself obs]v$1 !re is ano!r race kn[n to hi/ory :i* decl>$ itself to be ! *os5 p ( ,god1 & = t arrogant assumption is n[ scatt]$ ov] ! face ( ! e>?1 a homeless p1 no long] ev5 a nation4 ,! attempt to create a ?+ by po/ulat+ x z already exi/5t is n new4 ,affirmation & d5ial are us$ ) tell+ effect by a mod]n s*ool ( ?9k]s1 :o disreg>d utt]ly ! facts ( nature4 ,n[ :5 we disreg>d & d5y ! facts ( nature1 we may susp5d ! op]ations ( nature 9 ourselves to a c]ta9 degree & = a c]ta9 "t1 or we may fail 9 s do+1 & by reason ( our consci\sness ( our failure become m ?an ev] ! puppets ( nature4 ,! ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce heal] :o fails to heal & hone/ly ackn[l$ges 8 failure1 may g on ass]t+ 8 p[] 9 ! face ( t demon/rat$ failure1 or he may become a complete d\bt] ( himself & ( ! claims ( 8 sci5ce1 or he may re-exam9e bo? 9 ! light ( facts & become a real /ud5t ( ! my/]ies ( nature & ( m9d4 ,g]many may take any "o ( ^! ?ree c\rses :5 %e has demon/rat$ ! old say+ ( ! wise/ ( m51 t !y t take ! sword %all p]i% ) ! sword4 ,did y ev] try to conv9ce a ,g]man ( a fact :i* he d5i$8 ,i see t y h4 ,did y\r pro( ( 8 mi/ake conv9ce him t he c\ld be mi/ak58 ,probably n4 ,n[ ,g]many has really made h]self into a great nation by po/ulat+ h] greatness & sup]iority 9 all ?+s4 ,h] mi/ake consi/$ 9 try+ to prove x4 ,9 try+ to prove a /atem5t y tacitly admit = ! "t t ! opposite assumption may h "s base1 & if y are n able to demon/rate y\r cont5tion y are lo/--unless y are a ,g]man4 ,a ,g]man conv9c$ aga9/ 8 w is ( ! same op9ion /ill4 ,if facts d n be> him out1 !n facts are false4 ,n[ facts are n false1 & ,g]many is n sup]ior 9 all ?+s to e o!r nation on e>?4 ,%e may h m guns & m soldi]s ?an two or ?ree ( ! o!r nations1 t is a fact :i* we gladly admit2 b sup]iority 9 guns & soldi]s is only sup]iority 9 guns & soldi]s4 ,x is n sup]iority 9 all ?+s4 ,g]many has said 9 effect t might is "r4 ,well1 let h] prove h] might1 & we w !n discuss ! "r ( might4 ,"s ye>s be=e ,i left ! e>? ,i 0 /rong] ?an mo/ m5 ( my acqua9tance2 b if ,i _h on t gr\nd knock$ !m d[n & tak5 _! wat*es1 my own sup]ior /r5g? might h be5 useless to me except to propel my six-foot body up & d[n a cell 9 ! c\nty jail4 ,i might h tak5 ! wat*es1 b ,i c\ld n h kept !m1 = my individual might w\ld h be5 out-class$ by ! might ( ! society 9 :i* ,i dwelt4 ,s ) ,g]many4 ,mo/ m5 consid] !mselves sup]ior to _! fri5ds & acqua9tances1 & are secretly annoy$ t _! fri5ds & acqua9tances d n ackn[l$ge x4 ,b on ! /r5g? ( t suppos$ sup]iority !y d n g5]ally knock _! neighbors d[n4 ,my ass]tion ( my sup]iority to all o!r m5 & angels does n make me sup]ior to !m 9 any?+ b fatu\s conceit4 ,if a ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/ ) a brok5 leg ass]ts t he has n a brok5 leg1 x does n *ange ! fact4 ,! /r5g? ( 8 ass]tion may "w 9 ! direction ( cur+ ! defect--grant$4 ,x (t5 does4 ,! conceit ( ,g]many has call$ out h] en]gy & made h] mat]ial pres5t sup]ior to h] mat]ial pa/2 b t _c place h] 8ov] all10 unless %e conv9ces ! _w ( x1 & ! _w accepts an inf]ior place4 ,g]mans are n conv9c+ advocates1 because !y always ar\se opposition by ov]/at+ ! facts 9 _! favor1 & 9 disput+ ! facts aga9/ !m4 ,s little d !y und]/& ! critical m9ds ( ! m critical races1 t !y try to conv9ce by m]e ass]tion1 & s prejudice _! case f ! />t4 ,"o s]vice ,g]many w h done ! _w2 %e w h h>d5$ x4 ,x is a tragic s]vice1 & "o t w turn aga9/ h]self4 ,_m a p>5t by 8 bl9d brutality has made 8 son a great] brute ?an he4 ,_m a man by w\nd+ a fri5d has be5 /abb$ to ! s\l 9 return4 ,! fri5d may be h>d] ?an be=e1 b has he pr(it$8 ,p]haps4 ,exp]i5ce is an asset4 ,man gr[s by pa9 z well z by pleasure4 ,if ! brutality ( ,g]many makes ! races ( ,europe m vigor\s1 !y are ! ga9]s--n ,g]many4 ,! ,doctor :o gives too bitt] m$ic9e is s5t ab\t 8 bus9ess1 sometimes )\t 8 fee4 ,!re 0 once a 8m5tal0 sci5ti/ :o decl>$ t x 0 n necess>y = 8 daught] to practice ! piano2 t all %e ne$$ to d 0 to affirm t %e 0 a piani/1 & %e w\ld be "o4 ,g]many is 9 ! position ( ! daught] :o _h act$ on t tea*+1 & has become ! horror ( ! neighborhood4 ,%e is 9 dang] ( be+ dispossess$ z a public nuisance4 ,also an aggregation ( individuals mak+ "o ass]tion d n necess>ily h an effect 9 proportion to _! numb]s4 ,d y rememb] :at ,i wrote y ab\t :ite & black magicians1 t two :o work$ toge!r = good _h ! p[] ( f\r1 & t two :o work$ toge!r = evil _h only ! p[] ( "o & a half8 ,n[ :at is ,g]many work+ = 9 ?is comb9$ ef=t8 ,solely = h]self--exactly l ! black magician4 ,s deep has ! ,g]man conceit sunk into ! ,g]man s\l1 t !y really believe t 9 occupy+ & enslav+ o!r c\ntries !y w\ld be do+ !m a favor4 ,no1 ,i am n exagg]at+4 ,i h he>d ,g]mans make t humorless /atem5t4 ,lunatic asylums are full ( m5 :o ass]t t !y are k+s1 & an occasional inmate decl>es himself ! ,k+ ( k+s4 ,^! pati5ts are ev5 m fully conv9c$ ?an are ! ,g]mans1 :o ass]t _! k+%ip4 ,if ass]tion alone c transc5d fact1 ^! m5 are k+s4 ,are !y8 ,to !mselves !y are1 & ! ,g]mans are j z surely 8ov] all0 z are ! /raw-cr[n$ k+s 9 ! asylums4 ,x is useless to argue ) a k+ 9 a /raw cr[n4 ,he has an irresi/ible argum5t--8 cr[n4 ,c y n see x8 ,if y d n salute1 he turns 8 back & walks away4 ,b ev5 a k+ 9 a lunatic asylum may be cur$ & re/or$ to a sane equality ) 8 pe]s4 ,t is :at ,i hope = ,g]many4 ,t is :at ! ,ma/]s hope--= ,g]many /&s high 9 ! record-book ( ! ,ma/]s4 ,a k+ 9 a /raw cr[n has n lo/ 8 s\l ?r\gh 8 false ass]tion ( k+%ip4 ,he is an immortal son ( ,god4 ,8 _s is z g5u9e z y\rs or m9e4 ,8 error is only tempor>y1 & is g5]ally caus$ by brood+ too long ov] imag9$ wrongs & slights4 ,n unlike ,g]many4 ,:5 ?is idea ( sup]iority began to fe/] 9 ! m9ds ( t noble p1 !y 7 n a great nation4 ,!y felt _! wrongs & ! slights put ^u !m4 ,! only escape = _! w\nd$ egoism 0 into ! _w ( ! m9d1 :]e ass]tion has free play4 ,!y turn$ _! backs & plait$ _! /raw cr[ns4 ,!y 7 k+s1 & anyone :o did n see x 0 unwor?y ( ! honor ( _! fri5d%ip4 ,!n1 _! madness hav+ tak5 a viol5t =m1 came ! great doctor1 ,w>1 & conf9$ !m 9 a relatively n>r[ space2 b ! small p !y knock$ d[n 9 _! fir/ attack ( viol5ce /ill lie pro/rate f ! bl[4 ,! heirs ( ^! k+s w h to pay damages4 ,! law ( nations is ev5 m j ?an ! laws ( m54 ,:o d>es to say t a ,/ate has no morals8 ,is a ,/ate spiritually inf]ior to a man8 ,no m ?an a ,planet>y ,_s is inf]ior to a ,/ate4 ,!re is a cosmic morality1 & :oev] goes aga9/ x--:e!r a ,/ate or a man--w meet ! day ( reckon+4 ,k>ma is a law4 ,april #bi4 ,,footnotes3 ,footnote #c3 ,! foll[+ clauses ( ?is p>agraph1 n be+ cle> 9 ! orig9al1 7 rewritt5 by me4--,editor4 ,,lett] ,,xxxiv ,,! ,,sylph ,,& ,,! ,,fa!r ,,pass+ ye/]day along ! l9e :]e ! great ,fr5* army /&s be=e its p[]ful oppon5t1 & m>k+ ! _s ( c\rage & aspiration :i* makes x seem l a long l9e ( liv+ light1 ,i saw a famili> face 9 ! regions outside ! physical4 ,i paus$1 highly pleas$ at ! enc\nt]1 & ! sylph--= x 0 a sylph :om ,i met--paus$ also ) a little smile ( recognition4 ,d y recall 9 my =m] book ! /ory ( a sylph1 ,m]il9e1 :o 0 ! companion & famili> ( a /ud5t ( magic :o liv$ 9 ! rue de ,vaugir>d 9 ,p>is8 ,x 0 ,m]il9e t ,i met above ! l9e ( light :i* %[s to w&]]s 9 ! a/ral regions :]e ! soldi]s ( la belle ,france fight & die = ! same ideal :i* inspir$ ,jeanne d',arc--to drive ! =eign] out ( ,france4 8,:]e is y\r fri5d & ma/]80 ,i ask$ ! sylph1 & %e po9t$ bel[ to a tr5* :i* spoke l\d its det]m9ation to conqu]4 8,i am "h1 to be /ill ) him10 %e said4 8,& c y speak to him "h80 ,i ask$4 8,i c always speak ) him10 %e answ]$4 8,i h be5 v useful to him--& to ,france40 8,to ,france80 ,i enquir$1 ) gr[+ int]e/4 8,oh1 yes6 ,:5 8 comm&+ (fic] wants to "k :at is be+ plott$ ov] !re1 he (t5 asks my fri5d1 & my fri5d asks me40 8,truly10 ,i ?\ght1 8! ,fr5* are an inspir$ p1 :5 ! (fic]s ( armies ask guidance f ! realm ( ! invisible6 ,b _h n ,jeanne h] visions80 8,& h[ d y ga9 ! in=mation desir$80 ,i ask$1 draw+ ne>] to ,m]il9e1 :o seem$ m s]i\s ?an :5 we met "s ye>s be=e 9 ,p>is4 8,:y10 %e answ]$1 8,i g ov] !re & look ar\nd me4 ,i h le>n$ :at to look =1 he has taught me1 & :5 ,i br+ him news he rew>ds me ) m love40 8,& d y love him /ill1 z ( old80 8,z ( old80 8,yes1 z y did back !re 9 ,p>is40 8,"t mu/ h pass$ sl[ly ) y10 said ! sylph1 8if y call a few ye>s ago #8z ( old'40 8,are a few ye>s1 !n1 z no?+80 8,a few ye>s are z no?+ to me10 %e repli$4 8,i h liv$ a long "t40 8,& d y "k ! future ( y\r fri5d80 ,i ask$4 ,a puzzl$ look came ov] ! face ( ,m]il9e1 & %e said1 sl[ly3 8,i us$ to "k ev]y?+ t w\ld happ5 to him1 because ,i c\ld read 8 w1 & :atev] he will$ came to pass2 b s9ce we h be5 out "h he seems to h lo/ 8 w40 8,lo/ 8 w60 ,i exclaim$1 9 surprise4 8,yes1 lo/ 8 w2 = he prays cont9ually to a great ,be+ :om he loves f> m ?an me1 & he always prays "o pray]1 #8,?y w be done6' ,x us$ to be 8 w :i* 0 always done2 b n[1 z ,i say1 he seems to h lo/ 8 w40 8,p]haps10 ,i said1 8x is true ( ! w z 0 once said ( ! life1 & he t loses 8 w %all f9d x40 8,i hope he w f9d x soon10 %e answ]$1 8= 9 ! old days he 0 always giv+ me int]e/+ ?+s to d1 to help him a*ieve ! purposes ( 8 w1 & n[ he only s5ds me ov] !re4 ,i don't l ov] !re60 8,:y n80 8,because my fri5d is m5ac$ by some?+ ov] !re40 8,& :at has 8 w to d ) t80 8,:y1 ev5 ab\t t1 he says all day to ! great ,be+ t he loves s mu* m ?an me1 #8,?y w be done'40 8,d y ?9k y c\ld le>n to say x1 too80 ,i ask$4 8,i say x aft] him sometimes2 b ,i don't "k :at x means40 8,h y nev] he>d ( ,god80 8,i h he>d ( _m gods1 ( ,isis & ,osiris & ,set1 & ( ,horus1 ! son ( ,osiris40 8,& is x to "o ( ^! t he says1 #8,?y w be done'80 8,oh1 no6 ,x is n to any ( ! gods t he us$ to call ^u 9 8 magical work+4 ,?is is "s new god t he has f\nd40 8,or ! olde/ ( all gods t he has return$ to10 ,i sugge/$4 8,:at does he call ,him80 8,our ,fa!r :o art 9 heav540 8,if y also %\ld le>n to say #8,?y w be done' to our ,fa!r :o is 9 heav510 ,i said1 8x might help y t[>d ! atta9m5t ( t s\l y 7 want+ & wait+ =1 :5 la/ we met 9 ,p>is40 8,h[ c\ld our ,fa!r help me80 8,x 0 ,he :o gave s\ls to m510 ,i said4 ,! eyes ( ! sylph 7 brilliant ) some?+ almo/ human4 8,& c\ld ,he give a s\l to me80 8,x is said t ,he c d any?+40 8,!n ,i w ask ,him = a s\l40 8,b to ask ,him = a s\l10 ,i said1 8is n to pray ! pray] y\r fri5d prays40 8,he only says----0 8,yes1 ,i "k4 ,suppose y say x aft] him40 8,i w1 if y w tell me :at x means4 ,i l to d :at my fri5d does40 8,?y w be done10 ,i said1 8:5 address$ to ! ,fa!r 9 heav51 means t we give up all our desires1 :e!r = pleasure or love or happ9ess1 or any?+ else1 & lay all ^? desires at ,8 feet1 sacrific+ all we h or hope = to ,him1 because we love ,him m ?an ourselves40 8,t is a /range way to get :at "o desires10 %e said4 8,x is n done to get :at "o desires10 ,i answ]$4 8,b :at is x done =80 8,= love ( ! ,fa!r 9 heav540 8,b ,i d n "k ! ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,:at is ,he80 8,he is ! ,s\rce & ! ,goal ( ! be+ ( y\r fri5d4 ,he is ! ,"o t y\r fri5d w re-become "s day1 if he c =ev] say to ,him1 ,?y w be done40 8,! ,"o he w re-become80 8,yes1 = :5 he bl5ds 8 w ) t ( ! ,fa!r 9 heav51 ! ,fa!r 9 heav5 dwells 9 8 he>t & ! two become "o40 8,!n is ! ,fa!r 9 heav5 really ! ,self ( my fri5d80 8,! greate/ philosoph] c\ld n h express$ x m truly10 ,i said4 8,!n inde$ d ,i love ! ,fa!r 9 heav510 brea!d ! sylph1 8& ,i w say n[ e day & all day1 #8,?y w be done' to ,him40 8,ev5 if x sep>ates y f y\r fri5d80 8,h[ c x sep>ate me f my fri5d1 if ! ,fa!r is ! ,self ( him80 8,i w\ld t all angels 7 y\r equal 9 le>n+10 ,i said4 ,b ,m]il9e _h turn$ f me 9 utt] =getfulness1 & 0 say+ ov] & ov]1 ) joy 9 h] uplift$ face1 8,?y w be done6 ,?y w be done60 8,truly10 ,i said to myself1 z ,i pass$ along ! l9e1 8he :o wor%ips ! ,fa!r z ! ,self ( ! belov$ has already acquir$ a s\l40 ,april #bi4 ,,lett] ,,xxxv ,,beh9d ,,! ,,d>k ,,veil ,,"o night1 :5 ! ro> ( battle 0 /ill1 & ! rays ( ! full moon %one d[n ^u trampl$ mud1 & man-fill$ tr5*1 & t5d] spr+-gre5 gr[+ ?+s & s(t-hu$ fl[]s1 ,i met face to face a p[]ful be+ 9 a d>k mantle :o pass$ along ! l9e ( w> ) sl[1 maje/ic /eps4 ,see+ me he paus$1 & ,i paus$ also1 /ruck by ! grace ( 8 tall =m & ! royal air ( him4 ,8 face 0 veil$4 8,:o are y10 he said1 8:o walk "h at ?is h\r z if 9 m$itation80 8,i am a man mu* giv5 to m$itation10 ,i repli$1 8& ?is h\r seems fit = x40 8,& :at 0 ! subject ( y\r m$itation80 8,! w> bel[ u40 8,& :at 0 ! c\rse ( y\r ?\ghts1 :i* my appe>ance int]rupt$80 8,my ?\ghts 7 ( peace10 ,i said1 8& !y 7 full ( que/ions z to h[ ! c>nage ( ?is w> might be made to cease40 8,y\r que/ions 7 9 ord]10 ! maje/ic be+ answ]$4 8,p]haps ,i c be ( help to y40 8,w y n unveil80 ,i sugge/$1 8= ,i l to see ! faces ( ^? ) :om ,i hold conv]se40 ,he ?rew back a fold ( ! d>k cov]+ ( 8 head1 reveal+ a face :i* ,i "k n h[ to describe4 ,p[] & evil 7 bl5t 9 x1 & a /range beauty1 bo? sup]human & subhuman4 ,! face 0 m>k$ z if by an et]nity ( pa9 & /ruggle2 b 9 ! eyes 0 a light ( w :i* />tl$ me by its =ce4 8,:o are y80 ,i ask$4 8,:at matt] :o ,i am80 he repli$4 8,i am "o :o c solve ! problem ( y\r m$itations40 8,y d n look l an angel ( peace10 ,i said1 8b r l "o :o has se5 mu* w> ( 8 own mak+40 8,x is = t reason t ,i am compet5t to speak ( peace4 ,:at d ! peaceful "k ( peace8 ,only ! w>rior kn[s ! mean+ ( t ^w40 8,i w li/510 ,i said1 8to :atev] y h to say2 = ,i recognize t y "k some?+ ( ! ,law40 8,i am "o ( ! executors ( ! ,law10 he answ]$1 8& ,i h a plan = br++ peace to ! _w40 8,w y /ate t plan80 8,x is = t ,i came out "h to meet y10 he said4 8,& h[ did y le>n ( me80 8,i "k all ! /rong work]s & _m ( ! weak ones4 ,y are a p[]ful work]40 8,truly y d me too mu* honor10 ,i said1 8= ,i am only a humble soldi] 9 ! army ( ! ,law's executants40 8,! mode/y ( ! great10 he obs]v$1 :ile he ey$ me closely to see ! effect ( 8 words4 8,:oev] y are10 ,i said1 8& ,i p]ceive t y are some?+ unusual1 "k t my int]e/ 9 my own /ature is no long] p>am\nt ) me40 8,x is = t reason t y may be us$ 9 ! int]e/ ( peace40 8,cont9ue10 ,i reque/$4 ,he reg>d$ me = a "t ) brilliant1 que/ion+ eyes1 & !n he ask$3 8,y are we>y ( w>1 ( ! labor ( w>80 8,i am we>y ) my sympa?y = ^? :o suff]40 8,& y w\ld l to end _! suff]+80 8,x seems to me at times10 ,i said1 m to myself ?an to him1 8t ,i w\ld gladly give my life1 if by s do+ ,i c\ld %ort5 ! horrors d[n "h40 8,y\r life8 ,& :at d y mean by y\r life60 8,i mean my consci\sness ( fre$om1 my fre$om ( consci\sness40 8,a good def9ition ( ! life ( su* z y10 he obs]v$4 8,& w\ld y really sacrifice t life = ! _w80 8,mo/ gladly1 if by s do+ ,i c\ld save ! _w40 8,x might be possible10 he said4 8,w y speak m pla9ly80 ,i dem&$4 8,y seem to me to be feel+ y\r way to "s /atem5t ( importance40 8,:at c be m important10 he return$1 8?an ! sacrifice ( su* a life z y\rs = ! _w80 8,g on40 8,!re is a way10 he said1 8by :i* y\r sacrifice ( :at y call #8! consci\sness ( fre$om & ! fre$om ( consci\sness' might save ^? m5 d[n !re f fur!r pa940 8,aga9 ,i repeat1 g on40 8,x lies 9 my p[]10 he said1 com+ ne>] & reg>d+ me fix$ly ) 8 gl[+ eyes1 8x lies 9 my p[] s to "w ^u ! m9ds ( ! oppos+ armies1 ! armies on bo? sides1 t !y w refuse to fight any long]40 8,& betray _! c\ntries80 ,i ask$4 8,& br+ peace10 he correct$ me4 8,& :at h ,i to d ) x80 8,y might h mu* to d ) x40 8,y\r words are /ill d>k to me10 ,i said4 8,!n ,i w make !m cle>]10 he repli$4 8,9 ord] = y to und]/& my mean+1 x is necess>y t ,i expla9 myself4 ,i am "o ( ^? :o s]ve ! good by oppos+ ! good1 & ?us giv+ x great] activity40 8,s ,i _h obs]v$4 ,w y n[ /ate 9 cle> words :at purpose y h ) me80 8,my purpose is to make y a proposition4 ,if y wi% ?is c>nage to cease--& already x has gone on long en\gh to s]ve ! purpose :i* ,i s]ve1 to soak ! _w ) blood1 to de/roy t :i* a decade ( labor w be too brief to rebuild1 to awak5 all ! hatr$ & o!r evil passions :i* ne/ 9 ! he>ts ( m5--if y wi% ?is c>nage to cease1 ,i h ! means by :i* x c be made to cease40 8,& :]e d ,i come 980 8,i h long obs]v$ y10 he said1 8obs]v$ y\r dilig5ce 9 apply+ ! pr9ciples giv5 y by y\r ,tea*]40 8,!n :y did y ask me :o ,i 01 a little :ile ago80 8,only z a prelim9>y to fur!r conv]sation40 8,oh60 ,i said4 8,i h obs]v$ y10 he repeat$1 8& realiz$ t ) y\r p[] & atta9m5ts y might be ( great] s]vice if y %\ld %ift y\r allegiance & jo9 u4 ,y\r consci\sness ( fre$om w\ld be ev5 great]40 8,b t consci\sness ( fre$om 0 my def9ition ( life6 ,i suppose y w\ld say1 9 adju/+ y\r argum5t to ! limitations ( my m9d1 t 9 los+ my life ,i %\ld f9d x40 ,a slight smile curv$ ! l9$ features ( ! be+ be=e me4 8,y w\ld be always an ent]ta9+ companion10 he said4 8,?9k twice be=e y decl9e my proposition40 8,9 y\r propos$ agreem5t10 ,i repli$1 8y d n /ate cle>ly ! consid]ation4 ,i am an old lawy]1 & a /ickl] = =ms40 ,!re 0 no smile n[ on 8 face1 z he said to me3 8,if y w transf] y\r allegiance to u1 ,i w br+ ?is w> to an end40 8,& c\ld y80 8,i c\ld40 8,h[80 8,i h already /at$ h[40 8,b ! m$ic9e y propose w\ld be worse ?an ! disease1 ev5 assum+1 :i* ,i d5y1 t ! pati5t w\ld swall[ x40 8,b w\ld y n make ! sacrifice1 if ,i prov$ to y t ,i c\ld make good my end ( ! b>ga980 8,no40 8,!n surely y c>e little = ! _w60 8,y argue l a ,g]man propag&i/10 ,i said4 8,y mean t !y argue l me10 he correct$4 8,i h wond]$10 ,i said1 89 :at s*ool ( logic !y 7 tra9$40 8,& y refuse my proposition80 8,i wond] y %\ld take ! tr\ble to make x40 8,:y call t a tr\ble :i* gives me ! pleasure ( y\r society80 8,i h already he>d10 ,i said1 8t ! devil 0 a great flatt]]40 8,! devil has great tact40 ,we /ood look+ at ea* o!r1 measur+ ea* o!r4 ,he 0 an int]e/+ /udy4 8,dropp+ = ! mom5t10 ,i said1 8our diff]5ces ( purpose & ideal1 & speak+ m]ely z two m9ds--0 8,equal 9 brilliancy10 he int]rupt$4 8,speak+ z two m9ds10 ,i cont9u$1 8w y n tell me :y y play$ ^u my love = ! _w1 my will+ness to sacrifice myself = ! _w1 9 y\r attempt to w9 me to y\r /&>d80 8,:at else c\ld ,i play ^u80 8,surely ,i mu/ h "s fault1 "s hidd5 s91 ?r\gh :i* y\r subtle m9d c\ld h ?\ght to rea* me40 8,oh10 he said1 8,i am too wise to tempt y ?r\gh y\r hidd5 faults1 = y are det]m9$ to conqu] !m6 ,y c\ld n be ?r[n (f ! track t way4 ,only ^? "y on y\r pa? are easily conqu]$ ?r\gh _! faults4 ,! great] s\ls we attack ?r\gh _! virtues40 8,cont9ue10 ,i said1 8= truly y int]e/ me40 8,x is said 9 ! _w10 he w5t on1 8t !re is m ?an "o way to sk9 a cat4 ,!re is also m ?an "o way to get rid ( a work] = ! ,tea*]s :om y foll[4 ,:5 we _c deflect a work] ?r\gh 8 evil passions1 8 hatr$1 ang]1 av>ice1 lu/1 jeal\sy or fe>1 we are sometimes able to weak5 him ?r\gh 8 good passions1 8 love1 8 loyalty1 or 8 self-sacrifice40 8,?ank y = y\r confid5ce10 ,i said4 8,& n[ ,i w wi% y good ev5+40 ,z ,i pass$ along ! l9e ,i murmur$ to myself3 8,truly is ! s]p5t m subtle ?an any bea/ ( ! field1 & man ne$s all 8 wisdom to /& aga9/ him40 ,may #a4 ,,lett] ,,xxxvi ,,! 8,,lusitania0 7,?is lett] 0 writt5 on ! #g? ( ,may1 at #aj4cj ,a4,m41 ,new ,york "t1 "o h\r aft] ! s9k+ ( ! ,lusitania1 & n9e h\rs be=e ! writ] knew ( x47 ,,& /ill !y press =w>d aga9/ u--! m5ac+ p[]s ( d>kness & evil1 seek+ to v5t _! rage aga9/ ! _w & to glut !mselves on ! blood ( ! sla94 ,i h n be5 ne> y = a few days because ,i h _h no "t4 ,did y fancy t ,i _h escap$ "t8 ,n yet4 ,_h ,i escap$ "t1 ,i c\ld n speak ?us to ! _w 9 ! grip ( "t4 ,_h ,i q transc5d$ space1 y\r room c\ld n hold me4 ,dur+ ! six days t y h n se5 me ,i h be5 "h1 !re & ev]y:]e 9 ,europe--ev5 9 ,asia h ,i be51 = ! attack is _w-wide4 ,a little :ile ago ,i told y t we _h driv5 back ! =ces ( evil4 ,!y h ralli$ & come =w>d aga91 n q z /rong1 b m desp]ate & m fr5zi$4 ,!y seek n[ to embroil ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & ! :ole cont95t ( ! old dead race t f$ !m on blood by magical rites ages ago1 t cont95t :]e ! new race has to be born :5 ?is prolong$ labor is ov]4 ,_h ,i rememb]$ ! ,law ( ,rhy?m ,i %\ld h kn[n t ! tide ( evil w\ld fl[ back aga91 & t we %\ld h to /ruggle ) x a second "t4 ,x may ev5 n[ ga!r fre% =ce & r5ew ! attack1 a little weak] /ill4 ,! evil be+s :om we h sla9 are sla91 !y c tr\ble u no m = a "t2 b ! sla9 are few beside ! _m /ill active4 ,help u ) y\r ?\ghts4 ,_m ( our fri5ds 9 ! _w h /agg]$ & gr[n we>y dur+ ! la/ few days4 ,d n y6 ,z ?y day1 s %all ?y /r5g? be1 ,o ,_w t we /ruggle =1 & = :i* we %all w9 9 ! end ! cr[n ( peace & bro!rhood6 ,z ,i h said be=e1 ! _w is 9 ! ?roes ( an initiatory c]emony4 ,! trial by wat]1 ! trial by air1 ! trial by fire--all ^! mu/ ! _w g ?r\gh be=e x c take its place among ! initiates ( ! /ell> hi]>*ies4 ,!re is no draw+ back n[1 & ! _w mu/ n fail4 ,%\ld x fail !re w\ld soon be a vacant place 9 ! circles ( ! ,zodiac4 ,b ! _w w n fail4 ,aga9 h ,i met ) ! evil be+ ( :om ,i wrote at ! beg9n+ ( ^! lett]s4 ,he is la%+ himself 9 fury n[1 drunk ) ! p[] ( 8 place4 ,ere 8 h\r draws ne>1 he is hot to ass]t himself4 ,! climax is approa*+1 & if ,i visit y less (t5 ?an be=e1 x is because ,i _c leave my place s (t54 ,nev] falt] 9 c\rage4 ,y\r fai? %all be ! evid5ce ( ?+s /ill unse5--z x has be5 be=e4 ,?is second /ruggle ) ! p[]s ( d>kness w leave u /rong] & leave !m weak]4 ,i "k _m ?+s :i* ,i _c tell y1 = y are n /rong en\gh to receive !m2 b rememb] ?is--! ,law ( ,rhy?m holds1 x is ! ,law ( laws1 & aft] ?is /orm w come a correspond+ calm1 aft] ?is agony a re/ 9 ! quiet ( love4 ,:5 hate has sp5t itself1 !n love c h its way4 ,d y n hate1 b /& /eady1 m]ely )/&+ attacks4 ,d n wa/e y\r /r5g?4 ,x w be ne$$ by & by4 ,if we use y sometimes z a mat]ial base on :i* to plant our e!ric feet = a great] spr+ into space1 rememb] t y (f]$ y\rself = ! s]vice ( ! _w1 & ! s]vice has be5 accept$4 ,?is is no "t to talk ( rew>d1 b ! law ( ju/ice is beh9d ! _w4 ,s f> z possible1 /r5g!n ^? :o suff] too mu*1 & we w /r5g!n y4 ,! angels y saw la/ night are ! bodygu>d ( ! ,ma/]s' s]vants4 ,z ?y day1 s %all ?y /r5g? be4 ,i w give y a =mula = use 9 "t ( /ress & /orm3 ,rea* up to ! indwell+ ,_s & repeat1 8,= h] ways are ways ( pleasantness1 & all h] pa?s are peace40 ,x is only 9 contact ) m9d1 ) desire & ) matt]1 t ! ,_s /ruggles & suff]s4 ,9 its own home all is peaceful & pleasant4 ,rea* up to t home :5 ! /orms are too l\d1 & y w f9d a place ( sil5ce4 ,d n let g y\r hold ^u ! body4 ,y c\ld no long] be us$ z a mat]ial base %\ld y loos5 y\r hold on ! mat]ial1 & ^? :o come to live altoge!r 9 ! a/ral _w j n[ h a h>d "t at fir/4 ,be calm & pois$ & sure4 ,be n a quicks& b a rock4 ,t is all = ! pres5t4 ,?is little "t ( writ+ has re/$ me z well z y1 & ,i w return4 ,may #g4 ,,lett] ,,xxxvii ,,veil$ ,,prophecies ,,if y 7 less easily />tl$1 less easily ?r[n out ( ! negative condition 9 :i* only y c take d[n my words1 less easily ?r[n back by %ock into y\r normal objective consci\sness1 ,i c\ld h told y ye/]day t ! ,lusitania _h gone d[n1 in/ead ( m]ely h9t+ at disa/]4 ,y are q "r always to /op ! writ+ ! mom5t y\r own bra9 beg9s to "w2 b y c see t x limits u 9 ! giv+ ( def9ite news4 ,we 7 ne> t %ip :5 x w5t d[n1 sev]al ( u1 includ+ ! "o :om we call ! ,beautiful ,be+4 ,hold /eady n[4 ,t is ! only advice ,i am (f]+ y1 save only to rema9 9 ,am]ica = ! pres5t4 ,! good y c\ld d 9 ,engl& n[ is outweigh$ by some?+ else :i* y w und]/& be=e ! middle ( ,augu/4#d ,if y look up ! lett] 9 :i* ,i told y t a great ,be+ ( ,?\ght _h pass$ along ! ,g]man l9e tell+ ^? :o c\ld und]/& t _! cause 0 lo/1 y w see t ,i said to wat* = ! result4 ,! result is ?is desp]ate & fr5zi$ attack ev]y:]e by t nation4 ,may #ae? is a significant date4#e ,no1 ,i tell y no m ?an t4 ,! p[]s ( good w n fail4 ,y w h di/urb+ news f ,europe be=e long4 ,hold quiet ?r\gh ev]y?+4 ,we h done & are do+ our be/4 ,?ank y = :at y h done = my fri5d & pupil4 99 99 99 ,also !re is ano!r ?+ y c d = u4 99 99 99 ,!re is mu* t y d n und]/&1 b t we und]/&4 ,! road ( initiation is a h>d road = all4 ,love "o ano!r1 y :o try to tread x4 ,x makes ! way easi]4 ,may #h4 ,,footnotes3 ,footnote #d3 ,extraord9>ily v]ifi$ on ! f\rte5? ( ,augu/4--,editor4 ,footnote #e3 ,date ( ! reception by ,g]many ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates note on ! s9k+ ( ! ,lusitania1 & also ( ! demon/rations 9 ,italy :i* precipitat$ ! entry ( t c\ntry into ! w>4--,editor4 ,,lett] ,,xxxviii ,,advice ,,to ,a ,,scribe ,,y c be ( m use to u if y d n all[ y\rself to be cru%$ by ! sadness ( ! _w at ?is crisis ?r\gh :i* ! _w is pass+4 ,ea* day rise to ! plane ( ! _s1 above ! physical _w1 beyond ! desires ( ! a/ral _w1 beyond ! l[] /ratum ( m9d1 up & up to ! ,s\rce ( all life & all wisdom4 ,set ap>t "s "t e day = ?is ex]cise4 ,use ! ,hebrew =mula :i* y h us$ be=e1 & use x ) p[]1 9 connection ) ! yoga practice 9 :i* y are v]s$4 ,?is comb9+ ( two sy/ems makes = /r5g?1 because x avoids ! limitation ( too closely id5tify+ ! ,self ) "o race or "o p]iod4 ,occult developm5t1 occult p[]1 is ( all times & all races4 ,! k ( ! new race ab\t to be u%]$ 9 w include all ! sy/ems ( ! pa/1 tak+ f ea* ! special ?+ 9 :i* x surpasses ! o!rs4 ,d n s9k aga9 into t sl\gh ( depression f :i* ,i call$ y ?is day4 ,x is n necess>y = y to die a ?\s& times 9 ord] to "k dea?4 ,x seems to me t y h gone deep en\gh into ! woe ( ! _w4 ,n[ rise to a correspond+ height4 ,y\r sympa?y w be no less t5d] if y d n die ( sympa?y e day4 ,y\r real "w comes aft] ! w>1 :5 ! _w c & w li/5 to ! tea*+ ( bro!rhood4 ,d n p]i% be=eh& is my advice1 & ! advice ( my ,tea*] ?r\gh me4 ,! ,tea*]s are v grave 9 ?is crisis1 b !y are n cru%$ to e>?4 ,!y "k t aft] ! /orm comes ! calm & _! fai? has surviv$4 ,9 ! awful depression 9 :i* y h be5 sunk = ! la/ few days1 h[ c\ld y help anyone8 ,x is n = y to ask help f o!rs1 b only f u4 ,y "k :]e we are4 ,x is = y to revive ! droop+ spirits & ! droop+ fai? ( ^? :o h n receiv$ ! assurances :i* y h receiv$4 ,?is lett] is n a repro(1 b a lesson4 ,i w\ld n h y retire to a selfi% peace above ! tumult & /ay !re1 =gett+ ! _w4 ,i d n =get ! _w4 ,i "w by day & by night4 ,b :at help c\ld ,i be to ^! w>-%ock$ s\ls t come out "h %\ld ,i weep :5 ,i enc\nt] !m8 ,no help at all %\ld ,i be4 ,in/ead1 ,i seek to /r5g!n !m ) my /r5g?1 to enc\rage !m ) my hope4 ,i d n mean1 :5 ,i say t y\r "w beg9s aft] ! w>1 t y c d no?+ n[4 ,f> f x4 ,y c d mu*1 9 bo? worlds4 ,b if y die ( ! w\nds y behold out "h1 if y are caught y\rself 9 ! :irlpool ( despair1 h[ c y draw o!rs out ( x8 ,i _c repeat too (t5 t ?is w> is ! _w's initiation4 ,x w be a new & an enlight5$ _w :i* w rise f ! a%es ( ! old "o--a phnix ( a _w1 & ,i want y to rise ) x4 ,! agony _c endure =ev]4 ,x is too int5se j n[1 :i* means t ! climax is approa*+4 ,:5 ,i told y t ! issue 0 settl$ "h1 ,i did n mean t ! w> w\ld end 9 a day or two4 ,/udy cause & effect4 ,/udy ! rise & fall ( ev]y?+ accord+ to cyclic law4 ,! tidal wave mu/ sp5d itself on ! %ore be=e x subsides aga9 into ! sea4 ,be calm4 ,keep fai? ) ^? ^: task x is to uphold ! fai? ( mank9d4 ,:5 y say t y want to suff] z long z ! _w suff]s1 y are speak+ z our pupil1 & we w\ld n h x o!rwise4 ,b rememb] t "o may be /rong 9 suff]+4 ,we w\ld n h y %irk ! exp]i5ce2 b ma/] & use ! exp]i5ce1 in/ead ( lett+ x ma/] & use y4 ,9 reg>d to ,am]ica1 did ,i n tell y "s "t ago t !re 0 8an ,am]ican on gu>d to-night10 old ,abraham ,l9coln1 :o r5\nc$ heav5 t he might wat* ov] & gu>d ! l& he di$ =8 ,re/ 9 confid5ce on t assurance4 ,! o!r c\ntries t y love are wat*$ ov] also4 ,& ano!r c\ntry :i* y d n love is wat*$ ov]1 le/ x w&] s f> t x _c f9d its way back into ! fold ( human bro!rhood4 ,!re are s\ls 9 t c\ntry :o are ke5ly aw>e t %e has gone z f> z %e safely may )\t becom+ an outlaw among ! nations4 ,!re are ev5 ,g]mans 9 ,am]ica :o "k x4 ,if ,i nam$ a few ( !m1 y might be surpris$4 ,x is well t ,g]mans 9 ,am]ica %\ld feel ! ,am]ican repudiation ( ?is late/ piracy on ! high seas4 ,let !m feel x to ! quick4 ,!y c le>n 9 no o!r way4 ,d y fancy t 9 writ+ ?r\gh y\r h& ?is book to be publi%$ aft] ! w>1 ,i am impress+ my ?\ght only ^u y8 ,i am impress+ o!rs besides y4 ,a few days aft] ,i wrote y t ,abraham ,l9coln 0 on gu>d1 a newspap] c>tooni/ publi%$ a draw+ ( ! gho/ ( ! great ,l9coln /&+ beh9d ,presid5t ,wilson4 ,did y ?9k x 0 a m]e co9cid5ce8 ,x 0 n a m]e co9cid5ce4 ,i impress my ?\ght1 & ! ?\ght ( ! ,ma/]s beh9d me1 on o!r m9ds ?an y\rs4 ,i am a work] 9 ! a/ral _w4 ,to impress ! m9ds ( m5 is "o ( ! duties assign$ me4 ,i g "h & !re :]e ,i am ne$$2 b ,i h n writt5 any:]e else z ,i h writt5 ?r\gh y4 ,i h tri$ to1 b ) v indiff]5t success4 ,an accurate amanu5sis betwe5 ! worlds is r>e4 ,!y h to be tra9$ to di/+ui% betwe5 ! ?\ghts ( ! dictator & ! ?\ghts ( _! own m9ds1 objective & subjective1 also betwe5 ^! & ! ?\ghts ( irresponsible entities :o l to h a f+] 9 ! e>?ly pie4 ,y wond] :y ,i d n tell y m /ories8 ,i w tell y a /ory on my next visit4 ,may #aa4 ,,lett] ,,xxxix ,,"o ,,( ,,^! ,,little ,,ones ,,! /ory ,i h to tell y is a sad "o1 b we are writ+ ( w>4 ,x 0 ?ree days aft] ! ,lusitania w5t d[n4 ,leav+ ! pla9s & hills ( w>-h>ri$ ,france1 ,i _h come out across ! wat]s to s]ve :]e s]vice 0 mo/ ne$$ at ! mom5t4 ,draw+ ne> to ! sc5e ( ! disa/]1 ,i met a *ild-s\l :o w&]$ up & d[n look+ = some?+ :i* x c\ld n f9d--a girl-*ild ( maybe a doz5 ye>s1 ) tr\bl$ & bewild]$ eyes4 8,c ,i help y80 ,i ask$1 tak+ h] by ! h&1 s t %e ceas$ h] re/less mov+ to & fro & paus$ ) me4 8,i h lo/ my "m10 %e said4 8,:]e is my "m80 8,i d n "k10 ,i answ]$1 8b we w look = h]40 ,x is n always easy = a bewild]$ s\l to f9d 9 ! a/ral _w ano!r s\l :om x seeks1 ?\gh x is sometimes v easy = a calm s\l to f9d ano!r4 ,z on e>?1 ! "o we look = ) turmoil 9 our he>ts seems to be held away f u by invisible h&s4 ,pass+ along ) ! *ild1 ,i met _m o!rs equally bewild]$4 ,all 7 look+ = someone or = some?+4 8,:y are we "h80 ask$ ! *ild4 8,i ?\ght we 7 go+ to ,london40 8,d y n "k t y h be5 dr[n$80 ,i ask$4 8,did ,i really dr[n :5 ,i 0 9 ! wat]80 8,yes40 8,i ?\ght x 0 a dream1 = ,i h be5 asleep40 8,yes1 y h be5 asleep1 b ! dr[n+ 0 no dream40 8,!n :]e am ,i80 8,y are 9 ! o!r _w40 8,! o!r _w6 ,b ,i ?\ght ! o!r _w 0 heav540 8,heav5 is also 9 ! o!r _w40 8,y d n mean t ,i h gone to ! bad place80 8,no1 y h n gone to ! d>ke/ place10 ,i said1 8& y w f9d y\r way to heav5 by & by40 8,b :y 0 ,i dr[n$8 ,:y did ! %ip g d[n8 ,x 0 su* a beautiful %ip1 & we 7 s happy play+ ab\t ! decks60 8,y 7 dr[n$ because ,g]many is at w> ) ,engl&40 8,b :y %\ld !y dr[n me80 8,9 an attempt to prove t ,engl& does n hold ! seas40 8,b :at has t to d ) me80 8,no?+1 my *ild4 ,x has no?+ to d ) y4 ,y are only a helpless victim40 8,b :o dr[n$ u80 8,! comm&] ( a subm>9e40 8,is he a v bad man80 8,i _c imag9e a good man do+ x40 8,& :y c't ,i f9d my "m8 ,0 %e dr[n$1 too80 8,i don't "k yet40 8,!n y don't "k ev]y?+80 8,no1 ,i don't "k ev]y?+40 8,are y an angel80 8,no1 ,i am n an angel40 8,:at are y1 !n80 8,a man40 8,& 7 y dr[n$1 also80 8,no1 ,i came to ! o!r _w m ?an ?ree ye>s ago40 ,! *ild began to cry4 ,did y suppose t *ildr5 nev] cri$ aft] dea?8 ,dead *ildr5 (t5 cry4 ,w\ld y n cry at ! ?\ght ( be+ dr[n$1 if y woke & c\ld n f9d y\r "m8 ,i too c\ld h cri$ ) ! *ild1 = ,i h _h *ildr5 ( my own1 & "o ( !m di$ "y4 8,h ,i be5 v bad )\t kn[+ x1 t ,i %\ld be dr[n$ l ?is80 ask$ ! little girl4 8,no1 ,i d n ?9k t y h be5 v bad40 ,z we pass$ across ! r\gh wat]s we saw ! corpse ( a woman float+ face upw>ds 9 ! pale light4 ,! *ild c\ld see x dimly1 ?\gh n s well z ,i4 ,h y ev] se5 a liv+ *ild weep+ ov] ! s\lless corpse ( its "m8 ,if t seem$ sad to y1 w\ld x n seem sadd] to see ! liv+ s\l ( a *ild weep+ ov] ! corpse ( a "m ^: s\l 0 abs5t8 ,to me x 0 ! mo/ pitiful ( all sad sights4 8,come away1 little "o10 ,i said1 8y\r "m is n "h40 ,a little f>!r on we saw ! body ( a *ild also float+ face upw>ds 9 ! pale light4 ,i knew ^: body x 01 & s did ! *ild4 8,:y1 x isn't pretty any m60 %e said4 8,come away1 little "o10 ,i repeat$1 8come & look = ! "m40 ,b %e seem$ held fa/ ne> ! float+ ?+ 9 ! wat]4 ,no1 x 0 n pretty2 b ! s\l beside me 0 v beautiful = all its sadness4 8,:at w become ( x80 %e ask$1 awe/ruck4 8,i d n "k40 8,d y ?9k !y w bury x some:]e80 8,if !y f9d x !y w bury x40 8,c\ld y n tell !m :]e x is80 8,if we wait to look = !m1 we may n f9d ! "m40 ,we met _m wom5 pass+ to & fro ov] ! wat]1 mo!rs look+ = _! *ildr51 wives seek+ _! husb&s1 "s seek+ _! own lo/ =ms1 o!rs m]ely pass+ to & fro 9 bewild]m5t & grief4 8,x is v sad to die10 said ! *ild4 8,x is n always sad to die10 ,i answ]$4 8,x is sometimes beautiful to die40 8,:]e is ! man :o dr[n$ u80 8,:y1 d y want to see him80 8,i want him to see me40 8,he w see y 8 life-long 9 dreams10 ,i said1 8:e!r he lives to be old1 or dies tomorr[40 ,com+ t[>d u across ! sea 0 ! =m ( a woman wr++ vapory h&s4 8,:]e is my *ild8 ,:]e is my *ild80 %e 0 say+ ov] & ov]4 8,"m1 ,i am "h60 cri$ ! little girl1 & ! two =ms melt$ 9 a close embrace4 8,i h f\nd y6 ,i h f\nd y60 ! "m & *ild repeat$ ov] & ov]1 z !y clung toge!r4 ,i rema9$ ne> !m a little :ile1 = ,i want$ to help !m to free !mselves f ! sadness ( _! fate4 8,w y n come ) me80 ,i ask$ !m1 :5 !y c\ld li/54 8,b :]e %all we g80 8,away f "h40 8,i want to g home10 said ! *ild4 8,we are homeless n[10 ! "m answ]$2 8we are 9 ! o!r _w40 8,!n y also "k :at has happ5$80 ,i ask$ h]4 8,oh1 yes1 ,i "k1 ,i "k60 8,w y n come away ) me80 ,i repeat$4 8,are y an angel80 ask$ ! "m1 ev5 z ! *ild _h ask$4 ,i told h] :o ,i 0 & :at ,i 0 do+ !re4 8,is !re no help = u80 %e ask$4 8,x is to help y t ,i h come40 8,b :]e %all we g80 8,any:]e1 away f "h40 ,z we /ood talk+ toge!r1 ano!r woman came t[>d u look+ = a lo/ *ild2 ano!r *ild--n h]s--came t[>d u look+ = a lo/ "m4 ,i am will+ to tell y t ,i did n well "k :at to d ) all ^! /rick5 s\ls4 ,:]e c\ld ,i take !m = re/ or com=t8 ,! :ole a/ral region ar\nd ! e>? is full ( sadness & cry+4 ,only ! /ronge/ & mo/ resolute s\ls c get f> en\gh away to escape ! gloom & ! horror4 ,& ^! newly arriv$ ones h n ! /r5g?2 = y mu/ "k t 9 ?is _w we g :]e our desires & our ?\ghts g1 & we g ) our fe>s & our griefs4 ,i l$ ! "m & *ild to ano!r "p ( ! _w1 & left !m ) o!rs 9 ! c>e ( two m9i/]+ old] s\ls :o h giv5 !mselves to ?is sad "w4 ,b z "o _c tea* a *ild ! diff]5tial calculus1 s we _c take to ! l(ty regions ( peace ^? be+s 9 ^: he>ts !re is no peace4 ,i %all ask ! advice ( ! ,tea*] z to h[ mu* ,i %\ld tell ! _w ( ! awful conditions ar\nd u4 ,ev5 ! re/oration ( peace on e>? w n imm$iately purge ! a/ral _w ( ! sores ( w>4 ,y ?9k t y suff]--& ,i "k bett] ?an anyone else h[ mu*2 b y c escape into ! mat]ial _w1 y c walk on ! gre5 hills 9 ! sun%9e1 y c rise occasionally to ! place ( spiritual calm above ! conflict a/ral & mat]ial4 ,^! millions ( griev+ ones _c g back to ! physical1 & few ( !m c yet rise to ! spiritual4 ,_! imm$iate future is a problem = ! greate/ ( ! ,ma/]s1 a problem t taxes ! wisdom ( ! ,ma/]s ( wisdom4 ,hold /eady1 y = :om !re is ano!r day ( anxiety n f> (f4 ,hold /eady2 = ?\gh y may n realize x1 ,i to :om y look = /r5g? f9d also /r5g? 9 y4 ,t is a my/]y :i* ,i may or may n expla9 by & by4 ,y are a solid plat=m f :i* ,i c spr+1 :5 ,i ne$ ! =ce ( a mat]ial base4 ,i %all n ov]-use x4 ,if y are unable to /& ! /ra91 alone z y are n[1 y may communicate ) my son2 b d t only z a la/ resort4 ,y mu/ le>n to /& alone4 ,9 my o!r writ+ ! /ra9 on y 0 f> less1 ! dem& on y f> less1 ! ne$ ( y\r /r5g? f> less4 ,y c\ld n h done !n :at y are do+ n[1 nor c\ld ,i h done !n :at ,i am do+ n[4 ,aga9 ,i say1 hold /eady4 ,! w\nds1 ! tortur$ faces :i* y see at night1 ! pitiful appeals = help :i* y try to answ]1 are only typical ( :at we see & try to help1 nightly1 daily & h\rly4 ,i h us$ ! actual sub/ance ( y\r e!ric body to build myself an optical in/rum5t1 ?r\gh :i* ,i c see into ! sun-light$ _w--y\r _w4 ,y w suff] no injury 9 ! long run = ?is loan t y h made me4 ,h y n pl$g$ y\rself to ! s]vice ( mank9d8 ,mank9d are out "h z well z 9 !re1 & ! eyes ,i h built ( y\r sub/ance h enabl$ me to d s]vice :i* o!rwise ,i c\ld n h done4 ,c\nt t ) y\r good k>ma4 ,may #ac4 ,,lett] ,,xl ,,! ,,height ,,& ,,! ,,dep? ,,d n lose fai? 9 ! future ( ! _w4 ,h y n /udi$ ! ,law ( ,rhy?m8 ,d y n "k t ! height is equal to ! dep?1 & t :5 ?+s are at _! wor/ !y are gett+ ready to improve8 ,life moves rapidly 9 ^! ,tw5tie? ,c5tury days4 ,a ?\s& ye>s ago x w\ld h tak5 a decade to accompli% ! horrors ( ! la/ t5 mon?s4 ,p]haps ! recon/ruction w be equally rapid4 ,d n lose fai? 9 ! future ( ! _w4 ,!re are ev5 ,g]mans :o repudiate ! s9k+ ( ! ,lusitania6 ,all is n well 9 t ,empire1 f ! /&po9t ( ! ,empire4 ,be pois$1 & await ! issue4 ,may #ad4 ,,lett] ,,xli ,a ,,conclave ,,( ,,ma/]s ,,"s day ! races ( m5 w return to ! love :i* !y h n[ =gott54 ,"s day ,g]man & ,engli%1 ,italian & ,au/rian1 ,fr5* & ,turki%1 w all sit toge!r at ! banquet table ( life & dr9k to ! heal?1 n to ! dea?1 ( "o ano!r4 ,& t day is n s f> di/ant z ! pres5t hate & slaught] w\ld indicate4 ,!re is peace aft] /rife1 & love aft] hate1 & sun%9e aft] ! /orm4 ,love & hate6 ,to "k ! "o y mu/ h se5 ! o!r4 ,surely ,i ne$ n tell y ?is6 ,:at did y "k ( love till y _h be5 hat$8 ,love & hate are ! tw9-born *ildr5 ( emotion4 ,"s day m5 w look = _! enemies )9 !mselves2 "s day m5 w fight ! evil 9 !mselves1 & !n !y w n ne$ to slay _! bro!rs4 ,"s day love w re-e/abli% itself ^u ! p$e/al ( ! _w1 & hate w return to ! %ades4 ,i h told y ( ! evil be+s :o br\ght ab\t ?is w>4 ,!re are also lov+ be+s :o long to d away ) w> betwe5 bro!r & bro!r4 ,to-night 9 ! spaces above ! _w !re is a /range quiet4 ,is x ! quiet be=e ! /orm1 or ! quiet aft] ! /orm8 ,x is all rhy?mic4 ,be pois$ & wait1 tru/+ 9 ,god4 ,"s /orms cle> ! air4 ,! pres5t ?und] & lightn+ w cle> ! air4 ,yes1 ! _w has be5 too sultry1 & ! atmosph]e _h to be brok54 ,d n cry out1 d n weep1 d n laugh4 ,be quiet1 & tru/ 9 ,god4 ,:at d ,i mean by ,god8 ,look deep 9 y\r he>t & see ,i ,,am ,,t ,i ,,am4 ,9 ! *ildhood ( ! _w m5 believ$ 9 a ,p[] beyond !mselves4 ,n[ 9 ! maturity ( ! _w m5 believe 9 a ,p[] )9 & beyond !mselves4 ,t is ,god1 ,i ,,am ,,t ,i ,,am6 ,seek ! high place ( ! ,_s & prep>e y\rself = ! s]vice ( ! _w4 ,! ,_s is crucifi$ on ! cross ( ! _w4 ,*ri/ clo!s himself 9 matt] t he may raise x4 ,love we>s ! g>m5t ( hate1 t love & hate may become "o4 ,:at d ,i mean8 ,d y n "k t love & hate are ,"o ,?+--! et]nal opposites t complete ea* o!r8 ,:5 hate re/s1 love comes into its own4 ,:5 love re/$1 hate came into its own4 ,?is night d hate & love unite4 ,f9d out my mean+ if y c4 ,look 9 ! glass ( visions & f9d ! picture !re4 ,! unit+ ( love & hate6 ,!re is a neutral po9t :]e ! two jo9 h&s4 ,!re is a c\ncil held ?is night among ^? :o s]ve ! _w--a conclave ( ,ma/]s4 ,at :at h\r1 y ask8 ,g to sleep1 & le>n ! h\r4 ,if y are /ill en\gh1 y may li/5 at ! keyhole4 ,if y are n /ill en\gh1 y w he> no?+4 ,d ,i seem to write /rangely to-night8 ,all ?+s are /range to-night1 if by /range y mean unusual4 ,be /ill1 & "k t ,god dwells 9 ! he>ts ( all m51 ?\gh 9 "s ,he lies asleep4 ,= ! ,god 9 y w sleep until y awake ,him4 8,?is is my comm&m5t1 ,t ye love "o ano!r1 z ,i h lov$ y40 ,love y\r enemies1 ev5 :5 !y smite y2 = ! ,god is asleep 9 ^? :o smite ) hate4 ,y w nev] und]/& y\r enemy by hat+ him4 ,y w nev] und]/& ! ,ma/]s until ! love & hate 9 y unite4 ,on ! decl>ation ( peace y\r love w fl[ out aga9 to y\r enemy4 ,c y n anticipate ! ev5t1 & love y\r enemy to-night8 ,! enemy ne$s love :5 he %[s lea/ ( x4 ,be /ill1 & "k t ! _w is ! foot/ool ( ! ,_s4 ,hate w n s]ve y4 ,hate nev] s]ves will+ly4 ,rememb] ! words ( ! ,man-,god1 8,=give !m2 = !y "k n :at !y d40 ,g to sleep n[1 & li/5 at ! keyhole ( ! ,ma/]s' c\ncil-room4 ,y may he> ?+s t y _c tell ! _w4 ,may #ad4 ,,lett] ,,xlii ,a ,,lesson ,,9 ,,! ,,kabala ,,%all ,i repeat to y :at y saw 9 y\r vision ( la/ night--! races ( e>? z ! ,sephiro? on ! ,kabali/ic ,tree ( ,life8 ,y "k m ( ! ,kabala ?an ,i d2 b y w\ld nev] h kn[n ! ,kabali/ic correspond5ces ( ! nations _h !y n be5 po9t$ out to y by ! ,tea*]4 ,x is true t ,g]many 7,geburah1 ,m>s1 ,sev]ity1 ,pa*ad7 has become s extremely sev]e & ,m>tian t ! welf>e ( ! :ole ,tree is ?reat5$1 ! balance is upset2 & x is ?r\gh ! /r5g? ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 %[n by a c]ta9 ,yetziratic ,pa?1 & ?r\gh ! prud5ce ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates 9 relation to ano!r ,sephira :i* repres5ts ! ,briti% ,empire1 t ju/ice may be ree/abli%$ betwe5 ,brita9 & ,g]many4 ,! ,tea*] has be5 in/ruct+ me 9 ! ,kabala4 ,& y also see by t vision ! "p :i* ! ,unit$ ,/ates has to take 9 ! future ( ! _w--t ( ,*es$1 ,m]cy4 ,t is ! keynote ( ! ,six? ,race1 & ,g]many ?\ght to e/abli% x--! ,six? ,race--9 h]self by blood & iron6 ,:at folly & %ort-sight$ness6 ,y ne$ n tell ! _w :]e ! o!r races 7 on ! ,tree ( ,life 9 y\r vision1 save t ! ,?ree ,sup]nals are n repres5t$ by races on ?is mat]ial plane4 ,t mu* y may /ate1 on my au?ority1 le/ "s ,g]man ,kabali/ %\ld claim = ! ,teutonic race ! place ( ,ke!r4 ,no1 ! ,?ree ,sup]nals are n repres5t$ on ! mat]ial plane4 ,wat* & pray t ,am]ica may be guid$ aright4 ,s f>1 %e has be5 s guid$4 ,! great s\l ( ,abraham ,l9coln 0 ) ,presid5t ,wilson dur+ ^? days ( retirem5t4 ,did ,i n tell y t he _h r5\nc$ re/ t he might wat* ov] ! l& he di$ =1 :5 ! day ( h] own great trial came8 ,i %all tell y no m ?an my judgm5t dictates1 day by day4 ,x is well t y 7 able to rise to ! plane ( t vision1 le/ y %\ld become too w>like4 ,n[ pray t ! h&s ( ! ,presid5t may be upheld1 & t 8 s\l may be /r5g!n$ by ! liv+ s\l ( ,am]ica's greate/ son1 ,abraham ,l9coln4 ,! future is on ! laps ( ! gods4 ,may #ae4 ,,lett] ,,xliii ,,! ,,second ,,com+ ,,to ^? :o h suff]$ 9 ?is w>1 ei!r f w\nds ( ! body or w\nds ( ! s\l1 x has sometimes seem$ t ! ,*ri/ ( ! ,*ri/ian _w _h turn$ ,8 back & gone away1 p]haps to "s o!r /> :]e ,8 tea*+ c\ld be und]/ood & ,8 law ( love become a real influ5ce 9 ! lives & he>ts ( m54 ,b ! ,*ri/ :o di$ to tea* m5 h[ to live has n left ! _w 9 ?is its h\r ( trial4 ,he is ! same ,*ri/ ( love & compassion2 & :oev] attempts to put 9 ,8 place a ,*ri/ ( hate & pitilessness1 blasphemes ,8 sacr$ "n1 & w "o day pay ! awful p5alty ( t blasphemy4 ,i h se5 face to face ! ,*ri/ :o walk$ ! _w 9 ,galilee4 ,are y />tl$1 y ,*ri/ians :o hope to see ,*ri/ :5 y die8 ,:y %\ld ,i n see ,him8 ,h ,i n s]v$1 9 life & 9 dea?8 ,am ,i n s]v+ n[1 to ! be/ ( my individual p[]8 ,yes1 ,i h se5 ! ,*ri/4 ,look = ,him to come aga9 89 ! cl\ds ( heav5 ) p[] & great glory10 ?\gh ,he may n walk ! e>? aga9 9 mat]ial =m4 ,:at ne$ is !re = ,him to walk ! e>? n[ 9 a mortal body1 :5 m & m m5 & wom5 are op5+ _! spiritual sight1 s t !y c see ,him :ile /ill held 9 _! robes ( fle%8 ,i h told y ( ! ,beautiful ,be+ on ! battlefields1 & n[ ,i want to tell y ( ! ,*ri/ on ! ,battlefields4 ,he 0 nev] afraid ( pa91 t son ( ,light1 :o %[$ ! way ( pa9 to ! %r9k+ s\ls ( m54 ,! cross ( ,*ri/ is a liv+ ?+1 & its p[] w be felt m & m z ! tir$ _w recov]s itself aft] its baptism ( blood4 ,:5 ! half-gods g ! gods arrive4 ,:5 ,m>s1 ! half-god1 ! w>-god1 is s5t back to 8 place1 ! god ( love & pity c make ,himself se5 9 ! he>ts ( m5 & wom54 ,!y are wise :o hope = ! ,*ri/ian fai? a r5aissance ( life4 ,x _h gr[n old & indiff]5t4 ,?9k+ itself sav$1 x _h =gott5 to save ! _w4 ,feel+ itself secure1 x let its security be surpris$ by ,m>s1 ! w>-god4 ,_m a s\l 9 its la/ h\r ( agony has se5 ! ,*ri/2 _m a s\l 9 ,france1 9 ,belgium1 9 ,pol&1 & on ! w>-rock$ sea has recogniz$ ! ,fri5d t /icke? clos] ?an a bro!r4 ,_m a "m has se5 9 true vision h] dy+ son held up by ! ,*ri/4 ,ca?olic1 ,prote/ant1 8free-?9k]10 !y all h call$ on ! ,son ( ,m>y to com=t _! sons 9 ! la/ dread mom5t & beyond4 ,f ! %riek+ hell 9 ,belgium ,i ye/]day saw a man1 a common soldi]1 g /raight f dea? into ! high place beyond ev5 a/ral turmoil1 because 9 dy+ he call$ on ! ,*ri/ ( 8 "m's fai? to take him away f /rife to ! heav5 ( peace above ! _w4 ,_m h gone t way s9ce ?is trial by fire began1 b m h rema9$ bel[4 ,few h fai? en\gh = ! great flight4 ,:atev] religion y "w )1 let x include ! ,*ri/ & ! cross ( ,*ri/6 ,:at o!r com=t is !re = ! s\l t feels its pa9 & feels ! awful sum ( ! _w's pa9 at ?is "t8 ,philosophy is good1 ,i h call$ myself a philosoph]2 b love is ! highe/ rea* ( philosophy1 & ,*ri/ is ! highe/ rea* ( love4 ,!y talk ( a new religion1 z if ! love ( ,*ri/ 7 an old & worn-out love4 ,! love ( ,*ri/ is reborn :5ev] a s\l 9 a fla% ( illum9ation beholds t my/]y 9 8 he>t4 ,wor%ip ! ,*ri/ 9 y\r own he>t1 = ,he is !re4 ,wor%ip ,him 9 ! he>t ( y\r fri5d1 = ,he is !re4 ,wor%ip ,him 9 ! he>t ( y\r enemy1 = ,he is also !re4 ,!n slay if y c1 :5 y "k :om y seek to slay4 ,a new _s has ent]$ ! he>ts ( ! soldi]s4 ,!y fight on1 b !y h be5 told 9 dreams t !y fight _! bre?r54 ,murd]]s on ! high seas1 pirates "u ! eagle1 !y too are y\r bro!rs4 8,=give !m2 = !y "k n :at !y d40 ,conqu] !m1 because y mu/2 b d n =get t !y are y\r bro!rs4 ,! ,*ri/ :o hov]s ov] ! battlefields c>ries no flag4 ,he is ! fir/ ( ! neutrals1 because he loves all1 ev5 ! pirates "u ! eagle & ! murd]]s on ! high seas4 ,! ,roman soldi]s on ,golgo?a 7 n execrat$ by ,him4 ,:5 ,he took ^u himself ! limitations ( ! fle%1 ,he und]/ood limitation by transc5d+ x4 ,we c nev] und]/& any limitation until we transc5d x4 ,:o %\ld "k bett] ?an ,he ! agony ( torn fle% & brok5 bones & mangl$ n]ves8 ,c ! w\nd$ soldi]s tea* ,him any?+8 ,c ! betray$ _w give ,him advice 9 settl+ ) its ,judas8 8,t ?\ doe/1 d quickly40 ,! betray] ( ! _w has hang$ himself already 9 8 excess ( zeal4 ,:5 8 effigy 0 burn$ 9 ,rome1 d n ?9k t he did n feel ! fire4 ,he felt x4 ,! supreme ,w> ,"l has _h "o mom5t ( sanity4 ,ye/]day ,i saw 8 demon g sn>l+ along ! battle l9e4 ,he did n sn>l :5 ,i met him fir/1 n[ _m mon?s ago4 ,if ,i c\ld only make y und]/& t ,i speak ( facts1 n fancies6 ,i h se5 :at ,i describe1 z cle>ly z y see ! table be=e y1 or ! p5cil 9 y\r h&4 ,:5 ,i say t ,i h talk$ ) demons1 ,i mean t ,i h talk$ ) demons4 ,:5 ,i say t ,i h se5 ! ,*ri/1 ,i mean t ,i h se5 ! ,*ri/4 ,i am n weav+ romances1 nor h ,i come back f my j\rney among ! />s to compete ) ! sp9n]s ( tales4 ,i write to reveal :at o!rwise w\ld be unreveal$1 to %[ to ! _w ! causes le/ ! _w g wrong ) ! effects4 ,i want to help ev5 ! race t all o!r races1 includ+ its ally ! ,turk1 n[ execrate4 ,only ! *>ity ( ,*ri/ is wide en\gh to cov] ?is _w-betrayal4 ,& ,i tell y ! betray]s 7 egg$ on1 inspir$ & !mselves betray$ by ! p]sonal =ces ( evil1 9 _! supreme ef=t to put back ! clock ( civilization4 ,b ! ,*ri/ ca/ out devils & rais$ ! dead4 ,c ,he n ca/ out ^! devils beh9d ! purpose ( w>8 ,c ,he n raise ! dead to ! region ( peace 9 ! end8 ,c ,he n raise y to ! level ( ,8 *>ity8 ,may #af4 ,,lett] ,,xliv ,,poison ,,gases ,,to-,,night ,i %all n prate to y ( *>ity4 ,in/ead1 we w speak ( ea/ w9ds & poison gases1 & ! demons t ride on poison gases4 ,all hell is aga9 let loose ^u ! _w4 ,x is worse out "h ?an dur+ ! mon? be=e ! w>4 ,= elev5 days ,i h n be5 ) y4 ,i h _h no "t = elev5 days to sp5d ev5 an h\r ) y4 ,7 y /rong en\gh to he> :at ,i c\ld tell1 y w\ld nev] publi% x = ! _w2 b ,i c tell y mu* :i* y are /rong en\gh to he> & :i* ! _w is wor?y to "k4 ,ea/ w9ds & poison gases6 ,! v idea seems inf]nal1 = m5 die 9 indescribable agony f ! gases borne on ^? w9ds f ! ,g]man camps ov] to ^? camps :]e rational human be+s wage w> by human means4 ,b poison gases are demonic1 & demons ride on !m4 ,i h se5 !m come roll+ =w>d 9 droves1 _! eyes aflame ) hate1 _! m\?s horrible ) rancor & triumph4 ,oh1 y safe !re z yet 9 y\r native l&6 c\ld y see beh9d ! tr5*es ( ! enemy1 c\ld y see :at lurks 9 ! air above ! camps ( ! enemy1 y w\ld ev5 pity ! enemy4 ,i may tell y t _m out !re are />k rav+ mad4 ,:5 human be+s1 invok+ ! p[]s ( hate1 s5d su* hell-fumes to *oke & torture _! fell[-be+s1 !y h ceas$ to be q human4 ,i1 :o see _! s\ls1 am sick ) horror4 ,x is p]haps well t y are alone n[1 = ,i may tell y ?+s :i* y c be/ endure alone4 ,7 x n = ! "w :i* y h to d 9 future1 7 x n = ?is "w & t :i* is to foll[1 ,i %\ld take y out & away f ! _w = good1 z f> z ?is life is conc]n$4 99 99 99 ,b y mu/ endure to ! end1 z ,i %all endure to ! end2 = y h "w to d4 ,^? :o say t all is well 9 ,g]many lie 9 _! ?roats1 or !y are hypnotiz$ by ! lie t holds ,g]many to ! belief t %e c conqu]4 ,c\ld hell conqu] heav5 all s\ls w\ld be de/roy$4 ,%\ld hate conqu] n[ ! _w w\ld be brok5 asund]4 ,hate6 ,y "k n ! mean+ ( ! ^w4 ,hate ( ,engl&1 hate ( ,am]ica1 hate ( ,italy6 ,! race t inspir$ ?is w> is poison$ to ! la/ molecule ) hate4 ,babes imbibe x ) _! mo!rs' milk & _! /oma*s turn s\r4 ,*ildr5 see x 9 _! p>5ts' eyes1 & %r9k away 9 fe> ( _! own s\rce4 ,no1 y "k n ! mean+ ( hate4 ,on ! poison gases borne by ! ea/ w9d !re came across to me a demon ) no eyes4 ,:]e did he come f8 ,f "s subt]ranean hell :]e no light is1 & !re=e no ne$ = eyes4 ,c\ld ,i draw1 ,i c\ld make y see him2 b words 7 devis$ to express ^? ?+s :i* are kn[n 9 ! exp]i5ce ( ! race1 & no "o :o has se5 su* ?+s has us$ language to describe !m4 ,grop+ 8 way1 t a/ral mon/] fa/5$ himself ^u a human victim1 a prison] 9 ! h&s ( ! ,fr5*--"o :o _h spit at 8 keep]s 9 ! madness ( hate4 ,no1 ,i mu/ n tell y :at foll[$2 b ! a/ral s\l ( ! prison] w5t out ( 8 body & rema9$ out4 ,?is attempt to tell ! _w :at ,i "k n[ is l try+ to play ,bee?ov5 on a p5ny :i/le4 ,i feel z a ma!matician w\ld feel %\ld he set himself d[n to tea* addition to small *ildr54 ,i d>e n tell y m ?an ,i d1 = y c\ld n conta9 x4 ,! _w is old1 & ! _w deem$ itself wise1 & ! _w has come to ?is6 ,!re are _m e>ne/ s\ls :o desire exp]i5ce 9 ! a/ral _w4 ,i h he>d "o say 9 y\r pres5ce t a c]ta9 attack 0 8only a/ral40 ,i li/5$1 & said no ^w4 ,d y "k :at ! a/ral _w is1 y :o seek k ( x8 ,! a/ral _w is ! _w ( feel+1 ! _w ( emotion1 ! _w ( love & hate4 ,! a/ral _w at ?is "t is s ?ick ) evil passions t "o c\ld cut x ) a knife4 ,x is (t5 cut ) knives n[1 ) bayonets1 & ! cr[d+ demons suff] f contact ) ! /eel4 8,only a/ral60 ,! a/ral _w above ,new ,york1 awful z y "k x to be1 is no?+ to ! a/ral _w above ^? battlefields4 ,keep away6 ,y c d no good !re4 ,if possible1 g up among ! m\nta9s & seek 9 ! pure brea? ( ! p9e-trees heal+ f ! poison ( ! a/ral _w above ,new ,york4 ,g !re & /ay !re until ! pressure is exhau/$4 ,y c d no good ei!r :]e y are4 ,i c write bett] 9 ! pure air ( ! p9e woods4 ,get away f ! poison fumes ( unneutral ,new ,york1 = devils ride on ! w9ds ( hate1 & y are n to be de/roy$ by !m4 ,y h "w to d 9 ! future4 ,may #bg4 ,,lett] ,,xlv ,,! ,,sup]man ,,9 "o ( ! upp] regions ( ! a/ral _w--n 9 ! region ( pure m9d b ne> x--,i met a man la/ night :o pass$ to & fro ) 8 head b[$ 9 ?\ght4 8,:at tr\bles y1 fri5d80 ,i ask$1 z ,i /ood be=e him4 ,he paus$ 9 8 re/less walk & gaz$ at me4 8,:o are y80 he enquir$1 li/lessly4 8,i am a ,judge10 ,i answ]$4 ,8 eyes bright5$ ) int]e/4 8,y mu/ h come at ! call ( my ?\ght10 he said1 8= ,i h ne$ ( a ,judge40 8,on :om d y wi% me to pass judgm5t80 ,i ask$1 half smil+ at 8 /range words4 8,i w\ld l y to pass judgm5t on me40 8,& y\r (f5ce80 8,my (f5ce--if x is an (f5ce1 & on t y %all give y\r op9ion--is hav+ l$ a nation to its undo+40 8,) malice a=e?\ght80 ,i qu]i$4 8,) malice1 p]haps10 he answ]$1 8b n 9 ! s5se ( y\r "q4 ,i nev] believ$ !y _h _s en\gh to believe me40 8,y pique my curiosity10 ,i said4 8,:o are #8!y8' & 9 :at did !y believe y80 8,!y are ! ,g]mans10 he answ]$1 8! ,g]mans :om ,i despis$1 & !y believ$ my !ory t man becomes supreme by do+ :at he wills to d40 8,& ! devil take ! h9dmo/80 8,yes1 & ! devil take ! h9dmo/40 ,he b5t on me 8 sombre eyes1 & ,i wait$ = 8 words4 8,:at a folk ^? ,g]mans are60 he said4 8,:atev] !y d1 !y d too ?or\ghly4 ,"o _c tru/ !m ) a great tru?40 8,!y d seem to h sy/ematiz$ y into ! gr\nd10 ,i answ]$4 8,i want$ to make !m gods10 he compla9$1 8& ,i h made !m devils40 8,god only c make gods10 ,i said4 8,p]haps y 7 too ambiti\s40 8,humph6 ,p]haps ,i 0 too confid+40 8,h]meticism is saf]10 ,i sugge/$4 8,y told !m f> too mu*40 8,or f> too little1 maybe40 8,9 h[ _m volumes80 8,g ask ! libr>ians4 ,n ! =eign ones--!y b9d my works 9 packages ( salable size40 8,& h[ c ,i help y80 ,i ask$4 8,judge me40 8,:ile y prosecute & def5d y\rself80 8,:o else is fit1 ei!r to prosecute or def5d me80 8,g on ) ! prosecution40 8,i h corrupt$ a :ole p1 & l$ !m to _! ru940 8,elaborate ! *>ge40 8,i ?\ght to rem$y _! sp9elessness1 & foll[+ me ) *>act]i/ic ?or\ghness1 !y h become all sp9e2 !y h nei!r he>t nor b[els40 8,cont9ue10 ,i said4 8,i prea*$ ,beyond ,man4 ,!y h practis$ bel[ man40 8,s f>10 ,i int]rupt$1 8y h prosecut$ !m1 n y\rself40 8,h[ c ,i *>ge myself )\t *>g+ !m80 he dem&$4 8,!n ,i w /ep d[n f ! b5*10 ,i said1 8& talk ) y man to man40 8,i am glad y didn't say s\l to s\l40 8,oh1 man is good en\gh = me6 ,z ,i said be=e1 y 7 too ambiti\s40 8,yes1 too ambiti\s = man1 too sick ( man1 too mu* 9 love ) :at man might become60 8,we h come already to ! def5ce10 ,i said4 8,! smell ( ! c\rt is /ill ab\t y10 he gr[l$4 8,y ask$ me to be y\r judge40 8,yes1 t is true40 8,i am sorry = y10 ,i said4 ,he smil$ a sad & se>*+ smile4 8,y seem to h bo? he>t & b[els10 he obs]v$4 8,& y h be5 too long alone10 ,i repli$4 8,y h lo/ y\r gift ( words4 ,%all ,i prosecute1 def5d & judge y8 ,y c int]rupt me :5ev] y l40 8,g on10 he ass5t$4 8,y 7 born "u a re/less />10 ,i began4 8,y foll[$ h]oes2 !y disappo9t$ y by be+ m54 ,!n y made self y\r h]o1 & t disappo9t$ y mo/ ( all40 8,y seem to "k all ab\t me40 8,t is ! glory & ! %ame ( y\r greatness1 t "o kn[s all ab\t y40 8,i d5y x6 ,y d n "k all ab\t me40 8,:at is x t we d n "k80 8,y d n "k h[ ,i lov$ man60 8,y spoke ( him ) contempt40 8,t he might rise to ,beyond ,man40 8,oh6 ,& dr[n ! *ildr5 on ! ,lusitania1 & hack 8 way ?r\gh ,belgium1 & turn e fri5d aga9/ him1 & be ! curse ( ! planet60 ,he rais$ an arre/+ f+]4 8,y are speak+ ( ! ,g]mans10 he said4 8,!y are ! only ones :o h foll[$ y\r philosophy to its logical conclusion40 8,& y taunt me ) t80 8,i taunt y ) no?+4 ,i am /at+ facts4 ,x 0 y :o taunt$ !m--to _! undo+40 8,i only prea*$ ,beyond ,man40 8,s f> beyond man t man misund]/ood y40 8,is t my fault80 8,^: else80 8,n !irs80 8,n altoge!r !irs4 ,y hat$ too mu*4 ,y taught !m to hate man40 8,i taught !m to hate all t 0 n ,beyond ,man40 8,b man is n ,beyond ,man1 & s y taught !m to hate man40 8,b !y !mselves are n ,beyond ,man60 8,!y aspire to be4 ,y taught !m to aspire to be4 ,!y believ$ !mselves ,beyond ,man1 beyond good & evil4 ,y taught *emi/ry to babes & suckl+s1 & !y h bl[n up ! nurs]y ( ! _w40 8,i want$ only to tea* !m40 8,y %\ld h begun ) ! a-b-c40 8,& :at d y ?9k is ! a-b-c ( ,beyond ,man80 he ask$4 8,! a is love1 ! b is humility1 ! c is tru?10 ,i answ]$4 8,& :y did ,i n tea* !m love1 humility & tru?80 8,y knew n love1 humility & tru?40 8,i knew n love80 8,y knew n love40 8,& ,i knew n humility80 8,y\r arrogance is a by-^w40 8,& ,i knew n tru?80 8,y knew b half ! tru?1 & half ! tru? is n tru?1 z half an apple is n an apple40 8,d y ?9k ,i taught !m falsehood80 8,! supreme falsehood1 t !y c\ld be ,beyond ,man4 ,!y are n ready = ,beyond ,man40 8,b man mu/ be surpass$60 8,man mu/ surpass himself10 ,i answ]$4 8,y see1 !re is a diff]5ce40 8,:at %\ld ,i h taught !m80 8,t ,beyond ,man is ! s]vant ( man1 n ! bully & ! tyrant40 8,b !y w\ld n h und]/ood40 8,be n too sure ( t4 ,"s few h und]/ood ! ,son ( ,man40 8,oh1 him60 8,:om y repudiat$40 8,b he taught m5 to be slaves60 8,a good s]vant make? a good ma/]1 & he t is greate/ among y let him be ! s]vant ( all40 8,oh1 if y are go+ to quote ,scripture--0 8,i quote ! ,beyond ,man40 8,& y believe----0 8,i believe t y repudiat$ ! only well-kn[n example ( y\r own ideal40 8,& y also believe----0 8,yes1 ,i also believe t y w5t mad because y saw too late t all y\r tea*+ 0 a lie4 ,i believe t y _h n ! c\rage to repudiate y\rself1 & s surpass y\rself2 s surpass y\rself & become y\rself ,beyond ,man40 8,!n y ?9k ,i knew80 8,i "k t y knew4 ,i "k t y _h a vision ( ,him1 t y saw :]e y y\rself _h fail$ to und]/&1 & t y w\ld n ackn[l$ge y\r own new und]/&+--:i* came too late40 8,y "k too mu*10 he said4 8,y ask$ me to be y\r judge10 ,i retort$4 8,b n my execution]40 8,y h be5 y\r own execution]1 & ! execution] ( y\r p40 8,my p60 ,8 tone 0 scornful4 8,did ,i n say t y _h no love80 ,i dem&$4 8,& :at d y n[ bid me d80 8,g back to ! e>?1 & tea* mank9d h[ man c surpass himself4 ,g back to ! e>?1 & tea* m5 to foll[ ! c>p5t]'s ,son :om y taught !m to despise4 ,g back to ,g]many1 & repudiate y\rself40 8,& h[ %all ,i g back80 8,9 ano!r body1 ( c\rse1 a clean & :olesome body1 :i* y are to keep clean40 8,:at d y mean80 8,y "k v well :at ,i mean6 ,i h told y t y _h no love4 ,y _h only fa/idi\sness1 & arrogance1 & ! desire = s5sation40 8,y h set me a h>d task10 he said4 8,et]nity is long10 ,i repli$1 8& ! new ,g]many w h ne$ ( y\r new tea*+40 8,%all ,i ?ank y80 he ask$4 8,!re is no ne$4 ,x is ,i :o ?ank y = n appeal+ f my decision40 8,good night10 he said4 8,good night10 ,i repeat$4 ,& ! s\l ( ,fri$ri* ,nietzs*e pass$ on4 ,0 x t[>d ! gate ( rebir?8 ,june #a4 ,,lett] ,,xlvi ,,! ,,ent]+ ,,w$ge ,,aft] our writ+ ( la/ night1 9 :i* ,i told y ( ! tortur$ s\l :o ask$ my judgm5t on a c\rse ( tea*+ :i* _h corrupt$ a nation1 ,i w5t back to ! battle l9e 9 ,france4 7,! ,g]mans _c s9k me ) _! torp$oes47 ,pass+ sl[ly along on ! ,g]man side1 ,i saw aga9 ! tall maje/ic =m1 d>k-veil$ ab\t ! head1 :i* ,i describ$ to y 9 a previ\s lett]4 ,?is "t ,i hail$ him1 )\t wait+ = him to hail me4 8,h[ goes y\r "w80 ,i ask$4 ,he ?rew back ! veil :i* cov]$ him1 & ,i saw ! d>k & spl5did face1 m>k$ deep by ?\ght & evil4 8,my "w goes z x goes10 he answ]$4 8,& :at h y be5 do+80 8,writ+ to ! _w ?is ev5+10 ,i repli$4 ,he laugh$4 8,h y be5 writ+ ab\t peace80 8,n ?is "t4 ,i h be5 writ+ ab\t a conv]sation ,i _h ) a great & tr\bl$ s\l40 8,yes1 ,i "k40 8,y "k1 d y8 ,7 y li/5+80 8,?r\gh my long-di/ance telephone40 8,brilliant inv5tion1 ! telephone10 ,i obs]v$4 8,did y inspire ! inv5tion80 8,i8 ,oh1 no6 ,i work$ aga9/ x40 8,& :y80 8,x is n well t man %\ld "k too mu*40 8,b :5 man makes discov]ies1 not)/&+ y\r ef=ts to h9d] him1 y attempt to use ^? discov]ies aga9/ him1 d y n80 8,( c\rse40 8,y int]e/ me10 ,i said4 8,& 7 y int]e/$ by my conv]sation ) ! s\l ( ,fri$ri* ,nietzs*e80 8,m int]e/$ ?an y c imag9e1 until ,i tell y :y40 8,& y w tell me :y80 8,!re is no reason = my n tell+ y4 ,i am frank ) ^? :o see ?r\gh me40 8,:y don't y tea* t to ! ,g]mans80 8,because x w\ld spoil my game4 ,i want to de/roy !m aft] ,i h us$ !m1 & if !y %\ld turn frank1 !y w\ld be s ?or\gh 9 _! frankness t !y w\ld dis>m ! indignant _w40 8,!y are frank en\gh 9 _! brutality10 ,i said4 8,oh1 yes6 ,b t is ano!r matt]4 ,%\ld !y be frank 9 _! rep5tance1 ! _w w\ld =give !m40 8,b :at ( ,nietzs*e80 ,i que/ion$4 8,only ?is1 t x 0 ,i :o inspir$ him40 8,y did y\r "w ?or\ghly40 8,i d my "w z ?or\ghly z x c be done40 8,tell me m10 ,i urg$4 8,:at a work] 0 lo/ 9 y10 he exclaim$1 8:5 y *ose good = y\r /&>d60 8,b ,i am an excell5t work]10 ,i insi/$4 8,i h ev5 balk$ "s ( y\r "w40 ,he laugh$1 a quick1 %>p laugh4 8,don't ?9k t ,i c>e too mu* = t10 he said4 8,!re is m ?an "o road = me4 ,if y block ! door1 ,i c g 9 by ! w9d[40 8,& h[ did y g 9 to ,nietzs*e80 8,sometimes by "o way1 sometimes by ano!r4 ,he only lock$ 8 door aga9/ man1 & y see ,i also am ,beyond ,man40 8,i p]ceiv$ t at our fir/ meet+4 ,he :o goes beyond man mu/ make ! *oice betwe5 good & evil40 8,!re is no fool+ y10 he said1 8& s ,i no long] try4 ,yes1 x 0 ,i :o inspir$ ,nietzs*e to prea* ,beyond ,man to ! ,g]mans1 :o c\ld only *oose evil :5 !y believ$ !mselves /rong40 8,& :at d y get out ( x80 ,= answ]1 he ask$ a "q3 8,did y ev] play *ess80 8,(t51 9 _m lives10 ,i answ]$4 8,did y h an int]e/ 9 ! game80 8,a great int]e/40 8,did y play = /akes80 8,no40 8,!n :at int]e/$ y80 8,:y1 ! game40 8,( c\rse10 he said4 8,t is h[ ,i enjoy my game4 ,i play to w91 if ,i c4 ,:5 ,i d n w91 ,i h _h ! pleasure ( ! game40 8,& y play$ ) t great man's s\l80 8,z a cat plays ) a m\se4 ,i f\nd 9 him an e>ne/ _s1 ) a sore spot 9 8 head & 9 8 he>t4 ,he 0 an easy "o40 8,h[ did y g ab\t x80 8,by ! usual me?od40 8,& t is80 8,flatt]y40 8,& he did n smell a rat80 8,! rats 7 p]fum$4 ,he is an ae/hete40 8,d y always p]fume ! rats80 8,x isn't always necess>y4 ,i p]fum$ y\rs40 8,yes10 ,i said1 8) ! pat*\li ( peace4 ,b ,i h a ke5 sc5t40 8,yes1 ! ,o!rs h taught y too well40 8,did ,nietzs*e ev] see y z ,i see y80 8,he saw my di/+ui%$ face1 & he felt ! ?rill ( my p[]1 & he envi$ & desir$ to be l me4 ,x is great sport :5 ^! e>ne/ mortals are ambiti\s to emulate me60 8,& s y taught him ,beyond ,man80 8,yes1 & ,i taught him to despise ! ,"o :o 0 really ,beyond ,man40 8,!n y are n really ,beyond ,man y\rself80 8,my head is4 ,my o!r memb]s are ne>] ! e>?40 8,not)/&+ ! dignity ( y\r pres5ce80 8,oh1 !re is a dignity 9 ! e>? & 9 :at belongs to ! e>?60 8,did ! ,g]man philosoph] ev] "k y = :at y are80 8,yes1 t[>d ! end1 b !n x 0 too late to undo my "w40 8,!n also at ! end10 ,i exclaim$1 8he saw ! two =ms ( ,beyond ,man1 y & ! ,*ri/60 8,yes1 he saw4 ,! see+ drove him mad40 8,& y h no remorse = y\r "w80 8,remorse8 ,:at is t80 8,remorse is an emotion :i* m5 feel :5 !y are consci\s ( hav+ done evil40 8,an emotion t m5 feel10 he repeat$4 8,b ,i only feel ^? emotions ( m5 :i* give me pleasure 9 ! feel+40 8,su* z----0 8,y are really too curi\s & inquisitive60 8,grant$1 my curiosity & my inquisitiv5ess10 ,i said4 8,b x int]e/s me1 ?is labor ( a lifetime1 a man's lifetime1 to make him an in/rum5t ?r\gh :i* all ?is c\ld be produc$10 & ,i indicat$ by a ge/ure ! battle l9e b5ea? u4 ,8 eyes 7 brilliant ) fire z he answ]$3 8,:at is ! lifetime ( a man 9 comp>ison to ! glory ( all ?is8 ,"o might labor a ?\s& ye>s & produce no?+ 9 comp>ison ) ?is60 8,x pleases y !n1 ?is slaught]80 8,:at a trifl+ "q6 ,x gratifies me1 glorifies me1 exalts me--all ?is c>nage ( battle br\ght =? by me & my k9d40 8,& did y h all ?is 9 m9d :ile y 7 prep>+ "o man to corrupt a nation by 8 writ+s80 8,yes4 ,he 0 ! "o p]fect in/rum5t4 ,none o!r c\ld h s]v$ our purpose s well--ambiti\s1 dissatisfi$1 ari/ocratic1 arrogant1 unlov+ 9 ! broad] s5se1 capable ( infatuation & h5ce ( dis5*antm5t1 & la/ b n lea/1 ) eyes op5 to ! vision40 8,! vision ( y80 8,yes4 ,he saw me fir/ 9 dreams1 & admir$ me1 & desir$ to emulate me40 8,& !n y spoke to him ( ,beyond ,man80 8,yes1 & ,i us$ ! old argum5ts t wom5 7 ( small acc\nt2 t ! love ( woman /ood 9 man's way2 t woman enslav$ man unless he enslav$ h]2 t ,nature 0 ! devil1 n ! ,great ,"m1 & s 0 to be combatt$ z f> z possible2 t man rose to ,beyond ,man by d5y+ all t c\ld influ5ce him1 includ+ ,nature1 & by ass]t+ :atev] gave him fre$om1 su* z 8 own sup]iority to all o!r be+s1 8 ma/]y ( !m1 8 ma/]y ( 8 own ?\ght1 8 ma/]y ( good & evil1 ( fact & falsehood40 8,a f9e comb9ation ( fact & falsehood1 t tea*+ ( y\rs10 ,i said4 8,( c\rse10 he answ]$2 8b :at w\ld y8 ,tru? alone c\ld nev] h produc$ ?is40 ,& he swept ) 8 long arm ! l9e ( battle b5ea? u4 8,& :at else did y tea* y\r *os5 disciple80 ,i ask$4 8,i taught him all t he taught ! _w4 ,:5ev] he drove a woman's face f 8 he>t1 ,i scor$ a po9t & he ?\ght himself ne>] ,beyond ,man4 ,:5ev] he swell$ ) pride & sup]iority1 ,i scor$ a po9t & he felt himself ne>] ,beyond ,man4 ,:5ev] he read ! ,gospels & sne]$ to himself at ! humility ( ! s-call$ ,son ( ,man1 ,i scor$ two po9ts--"o aga9/ him & "o aga9/ y\r ,*ri/40 8,?ank y10 ,i said1 8= enroll+ me ) ! foll[]s ( ! ,crucifi$ ,"o4 ,i am su* a foll[]40 ,he ignor$ my la/ rem>k1 & proce$$3 8,i enc\rag$ 8 wi% to produce a new ideal ( a lead]1 a new ,*ri/1 an ,anti*ri/1 a h>d-fac$ ,g]man ,*ri/1 :o %\ld n w9 m5 by love & compassion1 b by cruelty & h>d5+4 ,oh1 ,i h done t "w well6 ,_m a ,g]man has exalt$ my ideal to ! place ( ! ,son ( ,m>y4 ,_m a ,g]man has put me 9 place ( ! ,sun-,god1 & hail$ me z ,beyond ,man1 ?\gh he 0 too c[>dly to hail me frankly z ,anti*ri/4 ,in/ead1 he add$ my attributes to ,*ri/ & call$ u by "o "n1 & by t "n he s\ght to de/roy all pity & compassion1 bo? 9 himself & 9 o!rs1 s\ght to de/roy all love t /ood 9 ! way ( 8 becom+ l me4 ,x 0 ,i :o taught him to exalt ! cross z a symbol ( cruelty1 ( sacrifice to himself1 & n ( himself = ! love ( man40 ,he paus$1 & gaz$ out t[>d ! />s t %one s]5ely above u4 8,y seem to me10 ,i said1 8to be y\rself consci\s ( ! sup]iority ( ,*ri/ to ,anti*ri/40 ,aga9 he ignor$ my rem>k1 & cont9u$ ! l9e ( 8 own ?\ght4 8,:at intellectual pleasure x has giv5 me1 ?is trans=m+ ( a ,*ri/ian nation into mon/]s ( egotism & cruelty to all ?+s n _! own6 ,! =eign] 0 to be hat$1 despis$1 us$1 ridicul$1 & :5ev] possible insult$4 ,i taught !m t su* 7 ! ways ( ,beyond ,man1 t s 0 man surpass$40 8,b :y d y tell all ?is to me80 ,i ask$4 8,:y d y ?us lay y\r c>ds ^u ! table1 :5 y "k t ,i hold a bett] h&80 ,! eyes he turn$ to me 7 sm\ld]+ lakes ( flame4 8,because ,i envy y10 he said4 8,is t "s new & m subtle attack ^u me & ! pr9ciples ,i /& =80 ,! d>k "o laugh$ aga91 8 %>p & mir?less laught]4 8,frankly1 no10 he said4 8,y no long] amuse me z an oppon5t40 8,:i* means----0 8,t ,i ?r[ up ! game 9 we>9ess--?is is1 = ! pres5t4 ,already ! s\ls ,i delud$ are we>y ( me & my tea*+4 ,!y h se5 a new light--"s ( !m40 8,p]haps10 ,i said1 8!y h se5 ! light ( ! ,*ri/1 ! true ,beyond ,man40 8,p]haps10 he repeat$4 8,& h y se5 x1 too80 8,faugh60 he said4 8,are y ambiti\s to conv]t ! devil80 8,ah1 no60 ,sudd5ly he turn$ to me3 8,w y take me = a pupil80 8,aga91 no10 ,i answ]$4 8,y w make t reque/ ( "s good woman1 ) a bett] *ance ( deceiv+ h]40 8,s y "k all ! tricks80 8,my ,tea*] has taught me mu* reg>d+ ! ways ( y\r k9d40 8,!n ,i bid y good ev5+10 he said1 & disappe>$ 9 ! d>kness4 ,_w = :i* ,i write1 ,i am tell+ y ^! ?+s t y may be armor$ ) k4 ,:5 ,satan asks y to conv]t him1 bew>e le/ he conv]t y4 ,:5 ,satan po9ts to ,beyond ,man1 ev5 to ,*ri/1 be sure t 8 ,*ri/ is n ,anti*ri/2 be sure ,he is full ( compassion1 t ,8 he>t ble$s = ! woes & weakness ( ! _w1 t ,8 cr[n ( ?orns is ! m>k ( ,8 sacrifice = man1 & n m]ely a becom+ ornam5t4 ,=1 z ,he said3 8,by ?is %all all m5 "k t ye are my disciples1 if ye h love "o to ano!r40 ,& also3 8,take he$ t no man deceive y4 ,= _m %all come 9 my "n1 say+1 ,i am ,*ri/1 & %all deceive _m1 99 99 99 = !re %all arise false ,*ri/s1 & false prophets1 & %all %[ great signs & wond]s1 insomu* t1 if x 7 possible1 !y %all deceive ! v elect40 ,june #b4 ,,lett] ,,xlvii ,,! ,,new ,,bro!rhood ,i ,,want to speak ( ! new race1 ! com+ race4 ,! _w is big ) *ild1 & ! pres5t g5]ation w look ) wond] into ! cle> eyes ( ! infant t %all r$eem its p>5t4 ,p9 y\r fai? to ! /&>d ( ! new race1 "w = x1 make ! g>m5ts t x %all we>1 & be ready = its com+4 ,already y are 9 t\* ) ^? :o w help 9 its tra9+1 :o w be its tea*]s & guides4 ,give y\rself also to ! ,great ,"w t is plann$ = ,am]ica 9 ! com+ days4 ,no1 y ne$ n sp5d all y\r "t !re2 b d n rema9 away too long4 ,come & g1 t go+ away y may receive new impressions1 & t com+ back y may br+ ! romance ( old] l&s to ent]ta9 & inspire ! new l&4 ,b be ev] loyal to ! new4 ,9 ! untrodd5 wild]ness ( ,am]ica !re is /r5g? t %all r5ew y f "t to "t4 ,! cities ( ,am]ica w be r$eem$ by ! wild]ness4 ,! cities are too worldly4 ,!y h =gott5 ,god4 ,9 ! op5 air1 "u ! op5 sky1 ! message may be receiv$ by ! awak5$ s\l4 ,s5d ! *ildr5 out to ! wild]ness to dr9k f ! uncontam9at$ spr+s4 ,! wat] t fl[s ?r\gh lead pipes may refre% ! body2 b ! wat] ( m\nta9 spr+s refre%es ! s\l4 ,beh9d ! veil ( ,nature is ! face ( ! ,great ,"m1 & ?\gh %e does n always smile1 yet h] eyes are full ( dreams & my/]ies4 ,nature is n ! devil4 ,! devil is ev] at w> ) ,nature4 ,nature is ,isis1 ! ,"m4 ,d n li/5 to ! blasphem]s4 ,!y h confus$ ! (fices ( ,isis & ( ,typhon4 ,x is ,isis1 ,nature1 :i* %all br+ =? ,horus4 ,g back to ,nature & ask h] = h] message4 ,%e waits 9 ! sil5ce ( ! woods1 & ! voice ( ! brook is h] :isp]2 :5 ! w9d /irs 9 ! trees x is ! ru/l+ ( h] g>m5ts4 ,! ,"m is com+1 ,o *ildr5 ( ! new race6 ,9 h] arms y %all "k refre%+ re/1 & 9 h] eyes %all y read ! love t kn[s no selfi%ness1 ! bliss ( self-giv+4 ,too long h y dwelt 9 cities1 =gett+ ! ,"m :o bore y4 ,too long h y liv$ )\t ! magnetism ( ! k9d e>? 9 contact ) y\r nak$ feet4 ,too long h y trodd5 ! dead1 /ony & unmagnetic /reets1 t take f y b give no?+4 ,g back to ! woods & ! /reams4 ,read y\r de/9y 9 ! eyes ( ! />s !mselves--n m]ely on a pr9t$ *>t4 ,jupit] has a message = y :i* he w give only face to face1 & s has ! g5tle ,v5us & ! eag] ,m>s4 ,g to !m = y\r lessons1 9 ! quiet ( ! hill-top alone ) ! ,"m4 ,d n set up y\r temple 9 ! m>ket-place4 ,let y\r ca!dral be ! aisles ( ! =e/4 ,g to ! city :5 y mu/1 = x is always well to "k ! opposite4 ,! ca!dral is /ill] aft] ! voice ( ! m>t4 ,give honor :]e honor is due1 to ^? :o h l$ ! *ildr5 =? to le>n ! my/]ies ( ! primeval life4 ,y gr[n-ups are only tall] *ildr54 ,dance 9 a r+ r\nd ! mulb]ry bu% or r\nd ! camp-fire4 ,9 ! smell ( burn+ wood ! visions may come1 z ,i wrote y once be=e ( y\r wood-fires 9 ,p>is4 ,b :at is a wood-fire 9 a ,p>is grate comp>$ ) a camp-fire 9 ! woods8 ,yes1 ,i 0 !re ! o!r night1 on ! outskirts ( ! ga!r+1 & ,i enjoy$ x1 too4 ,my greet+s to ! ,*ief6 ,! salvation ( ,am]ica lies 9 ?is wild-wood movem5t4 ,movem5t6 ,well may y call x t4 ,x is /irr$ by ! v =ces ( ! e>? h]self2 x is inspir$ by ! race-_s2 x w g on & on1 9 ev]-wid5+ circles4 ,:oev] puts a /one 9 ! way ( ?is "w w /umble ov] x himself4 ,:oev] br+s ,satanism into ?is movem5t w be dev\r$ by ! demonic =ces4 ,!re w n be en\gh left ( him to grease two /icks = ! camp-fire4 ,re/ y 9 peace4 ,we wat*1 & ) u ! s\ls ( all ! ?\s&s & t5s ( ?\s&s & millions ( native ,am]icans1 :o _c g on to _! re/ until !y h pass$ on ! tor* ( ! ,nature my/]ies t 7 _! h]itage f _! remote ance/ors4 ,!y may be despis$ by ^? :o despoil$ !m2 b _! =giv5ess %all r$eem y1 ,o ,am]ica ( ! new race6 ,d y n "k t _m ( ^? :o made _! escape into ! re/ ( ! 8happy hunt+ gr\nd0 are already com+ back to inc>nation 9 ! l& !y lov$ be=e8 ,look at ! high *eek-bones ( _m ( ! *ildr51 look at ! eagle eyes & ! /raight taut =ms4 ,o ,am]ica1 y did a great wrong once 9 ! pursuit ( y\r de/9y6 ,yes1 y did4 ,n[ /rive to atone4 ,let ! re9c>nat$ r$ *ildr5 play 9 ! wild woods1 tea* !m ! old code ( honor & c\rage1 & !y w "w h& 9 h& ) ! re9c>nat$ s\ls t came by way ( ,europe1 h& 9 h& %all !y /& toge!r 9 ! ,woodcraft ,bro!rhood4 ,my salutations to ! ,*ief6 ,july #i4 ,,lett] ,,xlviii ,,9 ,,! ,,crucible ,i ,,am /ill pr(\ndly int]e/$ 9 ! l& t gave me bir?4 ,!re are d>k days ahead = h]1 & ! great s\l ( ,abraham ,l9coln is v ne> to ! helm ( ,/ate at ?is mom5t1 :5 peace & w> hang 9 ! balance & ! action ( a day may decide ! "q4 ,no irrep>able injury mu/ ov]take ?is l&4 ,x is ! great pione] ( race fre$om4 ,z ,i told y mon?s ago1 "o ( ,am]ica's h&s ?reat5s ! o!r1 & bo? ?reat5 ! :ole body4 ,may %e keep peace s long z %e c h peace ) honor6 ,b if ! d>k day comes1 may %e face x ) squ>$ %\ld]s2 & if h] foes be also ^? ( h] own h\sehold1 x w n be ! fir/ "t4 ,a man once pray$ to be sav$ f 8 fri5ds1 decl>+ t he c\ld deal ) 8 enemies himself4 ,! /illness ( ! ,g]mans 9 ,am]ica at ?is mom5t is pot5t ) dang]4 ,if ! h\r comes :5 dra/ic action is necess>y1 !y %\ld be invit$ to return into ! fold ( _! naturalization1 & ^? :o refuse %\ld be dealt ) sev]ely1 ev5 to deportation4 ,!re yet rema9s "o c\ntry :i* might receive !m = transportation to t ,fa!rl& !y left--9 que/ ( ! fre$om :i* !y h n[ abus$ & betray$4 ,! _w is 9 ! crucible1 & ,satan is 9 ! laboratory ) all 8 cohorts4 ,our labor is to /&4 ,x is n always easy to /& /eady4 ,be calm1 & tru/ 9 ! ,mo!rl& t %all yet give bir? to ! new race1 ! syn!sis ( races4 ,,lett] ,,xlix ,,black ,,magic ,,9 ,,am]ica ,,y h se5 pretty cle>ly ! me?ods employ$ by ! evil =ces to balk progress1 to de/roy ! "w ( c5turies1 to de/roy ! work]s = ! future1 & to fright5 away ^? :o seek to int]f]e ) ?is malici\sness4 ,notice t none ( ?is is con/ructive "w4 ,x is all de/ructive1 all te>+ d[n4 ,w>s ( con/ruction h be5 eng9e]$ by angels2 b ?is is n a w> ( con/ruction4 ,n[ let me tell y a few ( ! ?+s aga9/ :i* ! new race 9 ,am]ica w h to gu>d itself4 ,z always :]e ! =ces ( progress are /rong1 ! opposition is /rong4 ,i h writt5 en\gh ab\t ! good influ5ces ( ?is new bir?2 b ,i want to give a few w>n+s1 to analyze a few influ5ces :i* are ( a de/ructive "*4 ,!re is develop+ 9 ,am]ica a great gr\p ( p :o seek to ga9 control ( ! desire-nature & ! w ( o!rs1 t !y may use !m = _! own purposes4 ,^! p are n all 9 "o place1 !y are n organiz$ into "o body b into _m bodies1 & "s ( !m are work+ q indep5d5tly4 ,b 9 ! a/ral _w1 & 9 ! language ( u :o "w 9 t _w1 !y are kn[n z a 8gr\p40 ,!y tea* to ^? :o w pay !m1 ei!r 9 money or 9 s]vice1 c]ta9 rules = controll+ ! m9d ( self & ( o!rs4 ,!y tea* ! rudim5ts ( a/ral k to ! _m1 & !y tea* m advanc$ pr9ciples to ! few4 ,"s ( _! tea*+s are true1 "s ( _! tea*+s are false2 b !re are few among !m :o und]take any real discipl9e ( "* ) _! /ud5ts4 ,z "o pr(\nd tea*] has said1 = e /ep 9 psy*ic developm5t1 ?ree /eps %\ld be tak5 9 ! developm5t ( "*4 ,i ne$ n "n ^? :o are mo/ crim9ally active 9 tea*+ ! =mulas ( black magic to m5 & wom5 :o are utt]ly unfit to be tru/$ ) t k4 ,! "q w naturally arise 9 ! m9d ( ! read]1 ,:at is black magic8 ,i ?9k ,i h giv5 a simil> def9ition be=e1 b y may re/ate x ?us3 ,black magic is an attempt to ga9 control ov] ! w or ! a/ral or ! m9d ( "o's fell[s1 ?r\gh means o!r ?an ! normal physical or ! legitimate m5tal influ5ce by ^w or p52 be x ?r\gh ! use ( ! elem5tals ( nature1 artificial elem5tals1 or "o's own m5tal or elem5tal nature4 ,black magic may be delib]ately us$ to influ5ce1 or black magic may be delib]ately us$ to injure2 & its vot>ies (t5 employ ! sub/ances ( ! body ( ! victim1 ?r\gh :i* to ga9 sympa!tic control ( 8 a/ral & e!ric nature4 ,i want to say to ^? :o ?9k x sm>t or amus+ to fool ) ^! ?+s3 ,bew>e ( any man or ( any woman :o by normal or abnormal means seeks to get possession ( ! fluids ( y\r body1 especially ! blood & ! o!r vital fluids4 ,i %all n g into detail "h4 ,^? :o accept my w>n+ owe me no ?anks2 ^? :o disreg>d my w>n+ d s at _! own p]il4 ,x gives me no amusem5t ?us to ?ru/ myself betwe5 ! evil =ces & _! victims4 ,by s do+ ,i draw d[n ^u myself ! rage ( ^? =ces t ,i ?w>t s f> z ,i c4 ,be x s6 ,i am compet5t to deal ) !m4 ,& ,i want "h to notify anyone :o ?9ks to de/roy my "w1 or to de/roy ^? :o ) self-abnegation & selfless c\rage are help+ me 9 ! "w ( try+ to save my c\ntry f ! =ces ( hell :i* are n[ ravag+ ,europe--,i want to notify any evil magician :o is int]e/$ 9 ?is matt]1 t if he gets 9 ! way ( my resolve x w be he :o w suff] & n ,i4 ,! r+ :i* ,i & ! ,ma/]s beh9d me draw r\nd our work]s c be pass$ ) evil int5t only at ! p]il ( ! "o :o passes4 ,?is is no ?reat to use evil magic4 ,we d n use evil magic4 ,b we "k h[ to deflect a malici\s curr5t f its *os5 victim1 s t x returns ) ov]:elm+ =ce ^u its own s\rce4 ,& ,i also want to say to ^? :o 9 _! ignorance or wantonness all[ !mselves to be us$ z catspaws to draw ! devil's *e/nuts f ! fire1 t fire w burn1 & t ! devil's hot *e/nuts /ick to ! f+]s4 ,?is is an unpleasant subject4 ,i w n[ leave x4 ,let me talk to ^? :o are ignorant ( ^! matt]s1 & mo/ p are ignorant--ev5 ^? :o h 8/udi$ psy*ism40 ,_m an innoc5t 7or half-innoc5t7 s\l has be5 driv5 ne>ly insane by ! pressure ( ! evil ?\ghts ( o!rs1 by ! w-driv5 ?\ghts ( o!rs4 ,let me advise su* n fur!r to weak5 !mselves by fe>1 b to /r5g!n !mselves by pray]4 ,i h said t !re is a god & a devil 9 e "o ( y4 ,turn to ! god = protection f ! devil4 ,if !re 7 no devil 9 y1 ! devils ( o!rs c\ld n h>m y4 ,rememb] t4 ,set y\r own devil to s]ve y\r own god4 ,if y want to use signs & symbols1 m$itate on ! cross ( ,*ri/4 ,! cross ( ,*ri/ is pr(\nd en\gh = a lifetime's m$itation4 ,d n use evil magic to protect y\rself aga9/ evil magic4 ,call on ! god )9 to s5d evil back to its s\rce4 ,protect y\rself be=e sleep by pray] to y\r god = protection4 ,! evil work]s c sometimes rea* y\r s\l 9 sleep :5 !y _c rea* y :ile awake4 ,! *ild's pray]1 8,n[ ,i lay me d[n to sleep1 ,i pray ! ,"l my s\l to keep10 is m pot5t ?an a magician's spells4 ,*ildi%1 y say8 ,yes1 b ,i am writ+ n[ = ^? :o are *ildr5 9 ^! ?+s1 be !y sev5 or sev5ty4 ,( all c\ntries on e>?1 ,am]ica is ! mo/ abysmally ignorant ( ! dang]s ( evil magic4 ,be will+ to be *ildr5 until y acquire adult k ( ^! subjects4 8,i am 9 no dang]1 = ,i und]/& ^! ?+s10 is (t5 said ) self-gratulation by ^! :o are 9 ! v grip ( ! evil =ces4 ,truly1 a little k is a dang]\s ?+4 ,if y want an add$ protection1 my *ildr51 gu>d y\r own evil passions & res5tful ?\ghts1 y\r jeal\s emotions & unk9d criticism ( o!rs4 ,! devils ride on waves ( ang] & res5tm5t4 ,bew>e also ( temptations1 rememb]+ t "y s\ls are tempt$ ?r\gh _! faults1 great] s\ls ?r\gh _! virtues4 ,be n deceiv$ into say+ !re is no evil4 ,evil is--s long z good is4 8,beyond good & evil0 is a /ate to :i* few ( y c aspire1 & y h no conception ( x4 ,b 8beyond good & evil0 is a mighty slogan = ! temptation & bewild]m5t ( va9 s\ls4 ,:5 y are really beyond good & evil y w n gossip ab\t y\r neighbors1 nor envy !m _! *>m or _! possessions1 nor try to use !m = y\r own ends1 nor worry le/ "s evil p]son %all d y h>m1 nor twi/ y\r faults till !y seem virtues1 nor deceive y\rself z to y\r motives4 ,exam9e y\rselves1 my *ildr54 ,look = y\r faults4 ,if y c f9d no fault 9 y\rself1 hang y\r h>p on ! ne>e/ will[1 = y\r progress is at an end4 ,man progresses ?r\gh recogniz+ 8 faults1 ?r\gh transmut+ !m & transc5d+ !m4 ,if y are p]fect1 ?is _w is no place = y4 8,beyond good & evil10 inde$6 ,judge n1 t ye be n judg$4 ,b d n flirt ) ! devil to prove t y judge him n4 ,yes1 all m5 are y\r bro!rs1 ev5 bad m54 ,att5d to y\r own affairs1 & leave ! issue ) ,god4 ,?is mu* to y1 de> *ildr5 ( ! _w1 f my vantage place above y\r passions4 ,july #be4 ,,lett] ,l ,,?+s ,,to ,,rememb] ,,t ! cont5ts ( ?is book may become ! possession ( ^? :o want x1 ,i w n[ br+ x to a close4 ,"o might g on writ+ =ev] ab\t ! a/ral incid5ts ( ?is w>1 & n exhau/ ! subject4 ,:at ,i h be5 able to give is a m]e sket*1 a few incid5ts1 a few sugge/ions4 ,^! ?+s1 h[ev]1 be> 9 m9d3 ,t !re are angels z well z devils 9 ! neighborhood ( ! battlefields4 ,t ^? :o see ! w> f above see causes z well z effects1 & f ^? causes c draw sane conclusions bas$ on a ri*] fund ( data ?an t available to ! m5 ( e>?4 ,t w>1 l ev]y?+ else1 has its rhy?ms4 ,d n be disc\rag$ :5 ! pressure ( battle be>s heavily on ! side t y call y\rs4 ,if y\r side w5t =w>d too quickly1 y w\ld ne$ to look = a viol5t reaction1 z 9 ! retreat f ! outskirts ( ,p>is4 ,t ?\gh evil is a necessity s long z good exi/s1 ?\gh evil is ! o!r pole ( ! magnet1 yet x is ! duty ( ^? :o desire to walk ! ,:ite ,road ev] to d battle = ! "r4 ,& ?is is no repudiation ( ! say+ ( ! ,*ri/1 8,resi/ n evil40 ,a p>adox1 y say8 ,great wisdom is lock$ 9 p>adoxes1 = ^? :o h ! key4 ,! exi/5ce ( evil gives great] /r5g? to good4 ,?is is ! ,kali ,yuga1 z ! ,h9doos say4 ,t ?is w> is an attempt ( ! p]sonal evil =ces to de/roy mank9d4 ,a =m] attempt 0 made 9 ,europe be=e ! s-call$ ,d>k ,ages1 b ! ,r5aissance foll[$ & re/or$ ! balance4 ,t man has 9 himself bo? ! ,*ri/ pr9ciple & ! demonic pr9ciple2 t w is free1 & t man c make 8 *oice betwe5 !m4 ,t new races are born ( revolutions & w>s4 ,he t ha? e>s to he>1 let him he>4 ,t ?\gh ,i may h a wid] sight ?an y1 ,i d n "k ev]y?+4 ,i draw conclusions f premises1 ! same z y d4 ,i pr$ict ! probable effects ( causes kn[n to me2 b a sudd5 irruption ( free & erratic w sets up a new cause1 & my calculation has to be made afre%4 ,my pr$ictions are n ! result ( div9e omnisci5ce4 ,i see fur!r ?an y1 t is all4 ,my logic may be no bett] ?an y\rs4 ,= in/ance1 :5 we drove back ! =ces ( evil dur+ ! e>ly mon?s ( ! w>1 ,i =got ! ,law ( ,rhy?m t w\ld enable !m to roll =w>d aga9 :5 !y _h g5]at$ ano!r supply ( /r5g?4 ,ev5 devils g5]ate _! own /r5g?4 ,yes1 !y too are ,units ( ,=ce1 & mu/ be figur$ on z su*4 ,i %all n make t mi/ake aga94 ,my ,tea*]1 :o /&s beside me at ?is mom5t1 directs me to say t ev5 ! ,ma/]s d n "k ev]y?+4 ,z my vision is wid] ?an y\rs1 s _! vision is wid] ?an m9e2 b !y _c always see :at goes on 9 ! f>!/ />s4 ,!y invite y to become l !m2 b !y "k t y are held by rhy?mic law1 & t = e two /eps y take t[>d !m1 y w fall back at lea/ "o /ep4 ,t y d n fall back two /eps is because ( y\r free w1 & because ( t great] rhy?m :i* urges mank9d to ! flood-tide4 ,ea* a*ievem5t is a ripple 9 a l>g] wave :i* y _c always see4 ,i h be5 reque/$ to write fur!r ( my ,tea*]1 b my ,tea*] wi%es to rema9 9 ! backgr\nd4 ,i may tell y ?is1 h[ev]1 ,o _w6 my ,tea*] /ill has a physical body & walks ! e>? z a man4 ,he works 9 bo? ! mat]ial & ! a/ral worlds1 & 9 high] worlds beyond !m1 & ! purposes ( 8 life are outside y\r compreh5sion4 ,he is a s]vant ( ! ,law1 & 8 joy is 9 work+ ) ! ,law4 ,! ,black ,ma/]s1 = !re are ,black ,ma/]s1 "w aga9/ ! ,law4 ,i h told y ( my conv]sations ) "o ( !m1 & h giv5 y a h9t z to 8 me?ods4 ,:5 y are /rong1 y ne$ n fe> ! ,black ,ma/]s4 ,y may pass ! "t ( day ) !m1 z ,i d4 ,!y are f> m afraid ( me ?an ,i am ( !m4 ,i d n g out ( my way if ,i see "o com+4 ,i f9d !m r div]t+1 ?\gh ,i recognize ! trag$y ( _! lot4 ,!y fill a t]rible (fice1 :i* mu/ be fill$1 & _! suff]+s are great4 ,!y are ! err+ bro!rs ( ! ,:ite ,ma/]s4 ,9 ! beg9n+ !y 7 tra9$ 9 ! same s*ool2 b ! great 8mom5t ( *oice0 came1 & ! evil ones sep>at$ !mselves f _! s\rce4 ,! ,:ite ,ma/]s d n seek to de/roy !m1 kn[+ t 9 ! end !y w de/roy !mselves4 ,:y wa/e ef=t 9 /riv+ to hurry ! sunset8 ,d n let ! black ,ma/]s & _! s]vants mislead y1 & avoid !m if y c until y are /rong] ?an !y4 ,b :5 y are /rong] ?an !y1 y h no?+ to fe> f !m4 ,:5 !y _c affect y directly1 !y /rive to affect y ?r\gh ^? y love4 ,be at peace4 ,y are n y\r bro!r's keep]4 ,if y\r bro!r delights 9 ! devil1 let him h ! pleasure ( 8 pref]5ce4 ,w is free4 ,give te/imony ( ! tru? t is 9 y2 b d n attempt to muzzle ! h\nds t bay ! summons to ! wit*es' sabba?4 ,ent] ! ,holy ,temple & %ut ! door2 !n invoke ! angels4 ,! bay+ ( ! h\nds _c dr[n ! music ( ! angel voices4 ,be /ill1 & "k t ,god is ,god4 ,a great day is dawn+ = ,am]ica--aft] a "t ( trial4 ,! sun w rise f beh9d a bank ( cl\ds2 b 9 ! fre%ness ( ! dawn mu* labor w be done = ! new race1 & = ! ,bro!rhood ( races4 ,all ov] ,am]ica movem5ts w be />t$ = ! tra9+ & p]fect+ ( mank9d4 ,give !m y\r help1 = ?us y w be work+ ) ! ,law4 ,?us y w be le>n+ ! fir/ lessons 9 ! s*ool ( ! ,:ite ,ma/]s1 ^: wat*word is ,s]vice4 ,?\gh ,i am n go+ f> away ?is "t1 yet ,i leave y my bless+1 ,o _w t ,i h labor$ & suff]$ =--f> m ?an y "k dur+ ! la/ h>d ye>4 ,& ,i want to ?ank ! _w = its great int]e/ 9 my =m] book1 8,lett]s f a ,liv+ ,dead ,man40 ,yes1 ,i am liv+ /ill1 & am f> m alive ?an :5 ,i wrote = y be=e4 ,little by little ,i am gr[+ into an int5sity ( life :i* ,i c\ld n h imag9$ :5 ,i walk$ ! e>? z a man among m54 ,9 ^! ,w> ,lett]s f ! o!r _w ,i h tri$ to give y glimpses ( t int5s] life :i* ,i lead n[1 aft] my return f ! j\rney among ! />s4 ,i _h ?\ght to tell y ( t j\rney :5 ,i %\ld return aga92 b ! /ory w\ld n h be5 s in/ructive at ! pres5t "t z ?is /ory ( ! w> 9 ! a/ral _w4 ,= y are ne>] ! a/ral _w ?an y are to ! />s1 & until y le>n ! a-b-c y _c read & und]/& romances4 ,i am only a humble s]vant ( ! ,law1 a le>n] 9 ! s*ool ( ^? :o are wis] ?an ,i4 ,to get1 ,i mu/ give4 ,to le>n1 ,i mu/ tea*4 ,to g =w>d1 ,i mu/ try to br+ y =w>d ) me4 ,x has seem$ to me t :at ! _w ne$$ mo/ at ! pres5t "t 0 a k ( ! my/]ies beh9d ?is w>4 ,i h be5 an unse5 soldi] 9 ?is w>1 9 :i* ,i h receiv$ _m a w\nd4 ,i h _h my nights ( vigil & my days ( labor2 b !y h giv5 me a /r5g? t ,i c\ld n o!rwise h ga9$4 ,i am /rong because ,i h s]v$4 ,s]ve y1 & ! rew>d w come 9 due season6 ,i am go+ to re/ n[ = a little :ile1 because ,i h ano!r s]vice to p]=m 9 ! ne> future4 ,i %all n g f> away4 8,x40 ,july #bh1 #aiae4 ,,! ,,end4 ,,transcrib]',s ,,notes ,simple typographical errors h be5 sil5tly correct$2 unbalanc$ quotation m>ks 7 rem$i$ :5 ! *ange 0 obvi\s1 & o!rwise left unbalanc$4 ,punctuation1 hyph5ation1 & spell+ 7 made consi/5t :5 a pr$om9ant pref]5ce 0 f\nd 9 ! orig9al book2 o!rwise !y 7 n *ang$4