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"t4 ,naturally ,i 0 impress$ by ?is extraord9>y incid5t4 8,x0 0 n a spirituali/4 ,i am n myself1 & nev] h be51 a spirituali/1 &1 s f> z ,i c rememb]1 only two o!r suppos$ly disembodi$ entities _h ev] be=e writt5 automatically ?r\gh my h&4 ,?is _h happ5$ :5 ,i 0 9 ! pres5ce ( a m$iumi/ic p]son2 b ! messages 7 brief1 & ,i _h n atta*$ any great importance to ! ph5om5a4 ,9 *ildhood ,i _h sev]al times put my h& ^u a plan*ette ) ! h& ( ano!r p]son1 & ! plan*ette _h writt5 ! usual trivialities4 ,on "o occasion1 "s mon?s be=e ! fir/ 8,x0 lett]1 ,i _h put my h& ^u a plan*ette ) ! h& ( a non-pr(essional m$ium1 & ! prophecy ( a fire 9 my h\se dur+ a c]ta9 mon? 9 ! foll[+ ye> 0 writt51 suppos$ly by a dead fri5d1 :i* prophecy 0 lit]ally v]ifi$1 ?\gh ! fire 0 n caus$ by my h&1 nor 0 x 9 my own ap>tm5t4 ,a few times1 ye>s be=e1 ,i _h be5 p]suad$ by fri5ds to g ) !m to pr(essional sances1 & _h se5 s-call$ mat]ialisations4 ,i _h also se5 indep5d5tly a few appe>ances :i* ,i c\ld n acc\nt = on any o!r hypo!sis ?an t ( app>itions ( ! dead4 ,b to ! :ole subject ( communication betwe5 ! two worlds ,i felt an unusual degree ( indiff]5ce4 ,spiritualism _h always left me q cold1 & ,i _h n ev5 read ! ord9>y /&>d works on ! subject4 ,nev]!less1 ,i _h = a numb] ( ye>s almo/ daily se5 8hypnagogic visions10 (t5 ( a />tl+ly prophetic "*2 & ! explanation ( !m lat] giv5 by 8,x0 may be ! true explanation4 ,soon aft] my receipt ( ! lett] f ,am]ica /at+ t ,mr4 ---- 0 dead1 ,i 0 sitt+ 9 ! ev5+ ) ! fri5d :o _h told me :o 8,x0 01 & %e ask$ me if ,i w\ld n let him write aga9--if he c\ld4 ,i cons5t$1 m to please my fri5d ?an f any p]sonal int]e/1 & ! message beg9n+1 8,i am "h1 make no mi/ake10 came ?r\gh my h&4 ,x came ) breaks & pauses betwe5 ! s5t5ces1 ) l>ge & badly =m$ lett]s1 b q automatically1 z 9 ! fir/ in/ance4 ,! =ce us$ on ?is occasion 0 su* t my "r h& & arm 7 lame ! foll[+ day4 ,sev]al lett]s sign$ 8,x0 7 automatically writt5 dur+ ! next few weeks2 b1 in/ead ( becom+ en?usia/ic1 ,i develop$ a /rong dis9cl9ation = ?is mann] ( writ+1 & 0 only p]suad$ to cont9ue x ?r\gh ! argum5ts ( my fri5d t if 8,x0 really wi%$ to communicate ) ! _w1 ,i 0 highly privileg$ 9 be+ able to help him4 8,x0 0 n an ord9>y p]son4 ,he 0 a well-kn[n lawy] ne>ly sev5ty ye>s ( age1 a pr(\nd /ud5t ( philosophy1 a writ] ( books1 a man ^: pure ideals & en?usiasms 7 an inspiration to ev]yone :o knew him4 ,8 home 0 f> f m9e1 & ,i _h se5 him only at long int]vals4 ,s f> z ,i rememb]1 we _h nev] discuss$ ! "q ( po/mortem consci\sness4 ,gradually1 z ,i conqu]$ my /rong prejudice aga9/ automatic writ+1 ,i became int]e/$ 9 ! ?+s :i* 8,x0 told me ab\t ! life beyond ! grave4 ,i _h read practically no?+ on ! subject1 n ev5 ! popul> ,lett]s f ,julia1 s ,i _h no preconceiv$ ideas4 ,! messages cont9u$ to come4 ,aft] a :ile !re 0 no m lam5ess ( ! h& & arm1 & ! =m ( ! writ+ became less irregul>1 ?\gh x 0 nev] v legible4 ,= a "t ! lett]s 7 writt5 9 ! pres5ce ( my fri5d2 !n 8,x0 began to come always :5 ,i 0 alone4 ,he wrote ei!r 9 ,p>is or 9 ,london1 z ,i w5t back & =? betwe5 ^? two cities4 ,sometimes he w\ld come sev]al times a week2 aga91 ne>ly a mon? w\ld elapse )\t my feel+ 8 pres5ce4 ,i nev] call$ him1 nor did ,i ?9k mu* ab\t him betwe5 8 visits4 ,dur+ mo/ ( ! "t my p5 & my ?\ghts 7 occupi$ ) o!r matt]s4 ,only 9 "o in/ance be=e ! writ+ began _h ,i any idea z to :at ! lett] w\ld conta94 ,"o night z ,i took up ! p5cil ,i knew :at 8,x0 0 go+ to write ab\t2 b1 ?\gh ,i rememb] ! incid5t1 ,i h =gott5 to :i* message x ref]r$4 ,:ile writ+ ^! lett]s ,i 0 g5]ally 9 a /ate ( semi-consci\sness1 s t1 until ,i read ! message ov] aft]w>ds1 ,i _h only a vague idea ( :at x conta9$4 ,9 a few in/ances ,i 0 s ne> unconsci\sness t z ,i laid d[n ! p5cil ,i _h n ! remote/ idea ( :at ,i _h writt52 b ?is did n (t5 happ54 ,:5 x 0 fir/ sugge/$ t ^! lett]s %\ld be publi%$ ) an introduction by me1 ,i did n take v en?usia/ically to ! idea4 ,be+ ! au?or ( sev]al books1 m or less well kn[n1 ,i _h my little vanity z to ! /ability ( my lit]>y reputation4 ,i did n wi% to be kn[n z an ecc5tric1 a 8freak40 ,b ,i cons5t$ to write an introduction /at+ t ! lett]s 7 automatically writt5 9 my pres5ce1 :i* w\ld h be5 ! tru?1 ?\gh n all ! tru?4 ,?is satisfi$ my fri5d2 b z "t w5t on1 x did n satisfy me4 ,x seem$ n q s9c]e4 ,i argu$ ! matt] out ) myself4 ,if1 ,i said1 ,i publi% ^! lett]s )\t a p]sonal introduction1 !y w be tak5 = a "w ( fiction1 ( imag9ation1 & ! rem>kable /atem5ts !y conta9 w ?us lose all _! =ce z conv9c+ argum5ts = ! tru? ( a h]eaft]4 ,if ,i write an introduction /at+ t !y came by suppos$ly automatic writ+ 9 my pres5ce1 ! "q w naturally arise z to ^: h& !y came ?r\gh1 & ,i %all be =c$ to evasion4 ,b if ,i frankly ackn[l$ge t !y came ?r\gh my own h&1 & /ate ! facts exactly z !y are only two hypo!ses w be op53 fir/1 t !y are g5u9e communications f ! disembodi$ entity2 second1 t !y are lucubrations ( my own subconsci\s m9d4 ,b ?is latt] hypo!sis does n expla9 ! fir/ lett] sign$ 8,x10 :i* came be=e ,i knew t my fri5d 0 dead2 does n expla9 x unless x be assum$ t ! subconsci\s m9d ( ea* p]son kn[s ev]y?+4 ,9 :i* case1 :y %\ld my subconsci\s m9d set out ^u a long & labori\s deception ( me1 on a premise :i* _h n be5 sugge/$ to x by my own objective m9d1 or t ( any o!r p]son8 ,t anyone w\ld accuse me ( delib]ate deceit & romanc+ 9 s s]i\s a matt] did n !n & does n n[ seem likely1 my fancy hav+ o!r & legitimate outlets 9 poetry & fiction4 ,! lett]s 7 probably two-?irds writt5 be=e ?is "q 0 f9ally settl$2 & ,i decid$ t if ,i publi%$ ! lett]s at all1 ,i %\ld publi% !m ) a frank introduction1 /at+ ! exact circum/ances ( _! reception by me4 ,! actual writ+ cov]$ a p]iod ( m ?an elev5 mon?s4 ,!n came ! "q ( edit+4 ,:at %\ld ,i leave out8 ,:at %\ld ,i include8 ,i det]m9$ to leave out no?+ except p]sonal ref]5ces to 8,x's0 private affairs1 to m9e1 & to ^? ( 8 fri5ds4 ,i h n add$ any?+4 ,occasionally1 :5 8,x's0 lit]>y /yle 0 clumsy1 ,i h recon/ruct$ a s5t5ce or cut out a repetition2 b ,i h tak5 f> less lib]ty ?an ,i us$1 z an editor1 to take ) ord9>y manuscripts submitt$ to me = correction4 ,sometimes 8,x0 is v colloquial1 sometimes he uses legal phraseology1 or ,am]ican slang4 ,(t5 he jumps f "o subject to ano!r1 z "o does 9 fri5dly correspond5ce1 go+ back to 8 orig9al subject )\t a connect+ phrase4 ,he has made a few /atem5ts relative to ! future life :i* are directly contr>y to ! op9ions :i* ,i h always held4 ,^! /atem5ts rema9 z !y 7 writt54 ,_m ( 8 philosophical propositions 7 q new to me4 ,sometimes ,i did n see _! pr(undity until mon?s aft]w>ds4 ,i h no apology to (f] = ! publication ( ^! lett]s4 ,!y are probably an int]e/+ docum5t1 :atev] _! s\rce may be1 & ,i give !m to ! _w ) no m fe> ?an :5 ,i gave my h& to 8,x0 9 ! writ+ ( !m4 ,if anyone asks ! "q1 :at d ,i myself ?9k z to :e!r ^! lett]s are g5u9e communications f ! invisible _w1 ,i %\ld answ] t ,i believe !y are4 ,9 ! p]sonal & suppress$ portions ref]5ce 0 (t5 made to pa/ ev5ts & to possessions ( :i* ,i _h no k1 & ^! ref]5ces 7 v]ifi$4 ,?is leaves unt\*$ ! fav\rite telepa?ic !ory ( ! psy*ologi/s4 ,b if ^! lett]s 7 telepa!d to me1 by :om 7 !y telepa!d8 ,n by my fri5d :o 0 pres5t at ! writ+ ( _m ( !m1 = _! cont5ts 7 z mu* a surprise to h] z to me4 ,i wi%1 h[ev]1 to /ate t ,i make no sci5tific claims ab\t ?is book1 = sci5ce dem&s te/s & pro(s4 ,save = ! fir/ lett] sign$ 8,x0 be=e ,i knew t ,mr4 ---- 0 dead1 or knew :o 8,x0 01 ! book 0 n writt5 "u 8te/ conditions10 z ! psy*ologi/s und]/& ! t]m4 ,z evid5ce ( a s\l's survival aft] bodily dea?1 x mu/ be accept$ or reject$ by ea* individual accord+ to 8 or h] temp]am5t1 exp]i5ce1 & inn] conviction z to ! tru? ( its cont5ts4 ,9 ! abs5ce ( 8,x0 & )\t "s o!r entity on ! invisible side ( ,nature 9 :om ,i _h a l degree ( confid5ce1 ,i c\ld n produce ano!r docum5t ( ?is k9d4 ,aga9/ indiscrim9ate m$ium%ip ,i h /ill a /rong & in]adicable prejudice1 = ,i recognise its dang]s bo? ( obsession & deception4 ,b = my fai? 9 8,x0 & ! fai? ( my ,p>is fri5d 9 me1 ?is book c\ld nev] h be54 ,d\bt ( ! invisible au?or or ( ! visible m$ium w\ld probably h p>alys$ bo?1 = ! purposes ( ?is writ+4 ,! effect ( ^! lett]s on me p]sonally has be5 to remove entirely any fe> ( dea? :i* ,i may ev] h _h1 to /r5g!n my belief 9 immortality1 to make ! life beyond ! grave z real & vital z ! life "h 9 ! sun%9e4 ,if !y c give ev5 to "o o!r p]son ! s5se ( exultant immortality :i* !y h giv5 to me1 ,i %all feel repaid = my lab\r4 ,to ^? :o may feel incl9$ to blame me = publi%+ su* a book ,i c only say t ,i h always tri$ to give my be/ to ! _w1 & p]haps ^! lett]s are "o ( ! be/ ?+s t ,i h to give4 ,,elsa ,,b>k]4 ,,london1 #aiac4 ,,lett]s ,,f ,a ,,liv+ ,,dead ,,man ,,lett] ,i ,,! ,,return ,i ,,am "h1 make no mi/ake4 ,x 0 ,i :o spoke be=e1 & ,i n[ speak aga94 ,i h _h a wond]ful exp]i5ce4 ,mu* t ,i _h =gott5 ,i c n[ rememb]4 ,:at has happ5$ 0 = ! be/2 x 0 inevitable4 ,i c see y1 ?\gh n v di/9ctly4 ,i f\nd almo/ no d>kness4 ,! light "h is wond]ful1 f> m wond]ful ?an ! sunlight ( ! ,s\?4 ,no1 ,i _c yet see my way v well ar\nd ,p>is2 ev]y?+ is diff]5t4 ,x is probably by reason ( y\r own vitality t ,i am able to see y at ?is mom5t4 ,,lett] ,,ii ,,tell ,,no ,,man ,i ,,am opposite to y n[ 9 actual space2 t is1 ,i am directly 9 front ( y1 re/+ on some?+ :i* is probably a c\* or divan4 ,x is easi] to come to y aft] d>k4 ,i rememb]$ on go+ out t y might be able to let me speak ?r\gh y\r h&4 ,i am already /rong]4 ,x is no?+ to fe>--?is *ange ( condition4 ,i _c tell y yet h[ long ,i 0 sil5t4 ,x did n seem long4 ,x 0 ,i :o sign$ 8,x40 ,! ,tea*] help$ me to make ! connexion4 ,y _h bett] tell no "o = a :ile1 except ----1 t ,i h come1 z ,i d n want any ob/ructions to my com+ :5 & :]e ,i w4 ,l5d me y\r h& sometimes2 ,i w n misuse x4 ,i am go+ to /ay out "h until ,i am ready to come back ) p[]4 ,wat* = me1 b n yet4 ,?+s seem easi] to me n[ ?an !y h seem$ = a long "t4 ,i c>ry less weight4 ,i c\ld h held on long] 9 ! body1 b x did n seem wor? ! ef=t4 ,i h se5 ! ,tea*]4 ,he is ne>4 ,8 attitude to me is v com=t+4 ,b ,i w\ld l to g n[4 ,good night4 ,,lett] ,,iii ,,gu>d+ ,,! ,,door ,,y ne$ to take c]ta9 precautions to protect y\rself aga9/ ^? :o press r\nd me4 ,y h only to lay a spell ^u y\rself night & morn+4 ,no?+ c get ?r\gh t wall--no?+ :i* y =bid y\r s\l to ent]ta94 ,d n let any ( y\r en]gy be suck$ out ( y by ^! l>v ( ! a/ral _w4 ,no1 !y _c annoy me1 = ,i am n[ us$ to ! idea ( !m4 ,y h absolutely no?+ to fe>1 if y protect y\rself4 ,,lett] ,,iv ,a ,,cl\d ,,on ,,! ,,mirror 7,aft] a s5t5ce _h be5 half writt51 ! writ+ sudd5ly /opp$1 & 0 cont9u$ lat]47 ,,:5 y respond to my call1 wipe clean y\r m9d z a *ild wipes its slate :5 ready = a new maxim or example by its tea*]4 ,y\r lighte/ p]sonal ?\ght or fancy may be z a cl\d ^u a mirror1 blurr+ ! reflection4 ,y c receive lett]s by ?is means1 provid$ y\r m9d does n beg9 to "w indep5d5tly1 to "q 9 ! mid/ ( ! writ+4 ,i 0 n /opp$ ?is "t1 z be=e1 by be+s ga!r+ r\nd2 b by y\r own curiosity z to ! end ( an unusual s5t5ce4 ,y sudd5ly became positive in/ead ( negative1 z if ! receiv+ in/rum5t 9 a telegraph (fice %\ld beg9 to s5d a message ( its own4 ,i h le>n$ "h ! reason = _m psy*ic ?+s :i* =m]ly puzzl$ me1 & ,i am det]m9$ if possible to protect y f ! dang] ( cross-curr5ts 9 ?is "w4 ,!re 0 "o night :5 ,i call$ & y w\ld n let me 94 ,0 t k9d8 ,b ,i am n reproa*+ y4 ,i %all come aga9 & aga91 until my "w is done4 ,i w come to y 9 a dream be=e long1 & w %[ y _m ?+s4 ,,lett] ,v ,,! ,,promise ,,( ,,?+s ,,untold ,,aft] a "t ,i w %>e ) y c]ta9 k t ,i h ga9$ s9ce com+ out4 ,i see ! pa/ n[ z ?r\gh an op5 w9d[4 ,i see ! road by :i* ,i h come1 & c map out ! road by :i* ,i mean to g4 ,ev]y?+ seems easy n[4 ,i c\ld d twice z mu* "w z ,i d--,i feel s /rong4 ,z yet ,i h n settl$ d[n any:]e1 b am mov+ ab\t z ! fancy takes me2 t is :at ,i always dream$ ( do+ :ile 9 ! body1 & nev] c\ld make possible4 ,d n fe> dea?2 b /ay on e>? z long z y c4 ,not)/&+ ! companion%ip ,i h "h1 ,i sometimes regret my failure 9 hold+ on to ! _w4 ,b regrets h less weight on ?is side--l our bodies4 ,ev]y?+ is well ) me4 ,i w tell y ?+s t h nev] be5 told4 ,,lett] ,,vi ,,! ,,w& ,,( ,,w ,,n yet d y grasp ! full my/]y ( w4 ,x c make ( y any?+ y *oose1 )9 ! limit ( y\r unit en]gy1 = ev]y?+ is ei!r active or pot5tial 9 ! unit ( =ce :i* is man4 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 a pa9t] & a musician1 or betwe5 a poet & a noveli/1 is n a diff]5ce ( qualities 9 ! entity itself2 = ea* unit conta9s ev]y?+ except quantity1 & ?us has ! possibilities ( developm5t along any l9e *os5 by its w4 ,! *oice may h be5 made ages ago4 ,x takes a long "t1 (t5 _m lives1 to evolve an art or a faculty = "o p>ticul> k9d ( "w 9 pref]5ce to all o!rs4 ,conc5tration is ! secret ( p[]1 "h z else:]e4 ,z to ! use ( w-p[] 9 y\r pres5t ev]yday problems1 !re are two ways ( us+ ! w4 ,"o may conc5trate ^u a def9ite plan1 & br+ x into effect or n accord+ to ! am\nt ( =ce at "o's disposal2 or "o may w t ! be/ & highe/ & wise/ plan possible %all be demon/rat$ by ! subconsci\s =ces 9 ! self & 9 o!r selves4 ,! latt] is a comm&+ ( all environm5t = a special purpose1 in/ead ( comm&+1 or attempt+ to comm&1 a fragm5t ( x4 ,9 ?is communion betwe5 ! out] & inn] worlds1 y 9 ! out] _w are apt to ?9k t we 9 ours "k ev]y?+4 ,y expect u to prophesy l =tune-tell]s1 & to keep y in=m$ ( :at is pass+ on ! o!r side ( ! globe4 ,sometimes we c2 g5]ally we _c4 ,aft] a :ile ,i may be able to ent] y\r m9d z a ,ma/] does1 & to "k all ! antec$5t ?\ghts & plans 9 x2 b n[ ,i _c always d s4 ,= in/ance1 "o night ,i look$ ev]y:]e = ---- & c\ld n f9d him4 ,p]haps x is necess>y = y to ?9k /rongly ( u1 to make ! way easie/4 ,i am le>n+ all ! "t4 ,! ,tea*] is v active 9 help+ me4 ,:5 ,i am absolutely c]ta9 ( my hold ^u y\r h&1 ,i %all h mu* to say ab\t ! life out "h4 ,,lett] ,,vii ,a ,,light ,,beh9d ,,! ,,veil ,,make an op5+ = me sometimes 9 ! veil ( d5se matt] t %uts y f my eyes4 ,i see y (t5 z a spot ( vivid light1 & t is probably :5 y\r s\l is active ) feel+ or y\r m9d ke5 ) ?\ght4 ,i c read y\r ?\ghts occasionally1 b n always4 ,(t5 ,i try to draw ne>1 & _c f9d y4 ,y c\ld n always f9d me1 p]haps1 %\ld y come out "h4 ,sometimes ,i am all alone3 sometimes ,i am ) o!rs4 ,/range1 b ,i seem to myself to h q a sub/antial body n[1 ?\gh at fir/ my arms & legs seem$ sprawl+ 9 all directions4 ,z a rule1 ,i d n walk ab\t z =m]ly1 nor d ,i fly exactly1 = ,i h nev] _h w+s2 b ,i manage to get ov] space ) incr$ible rapidity4 ,sometimes1 ?\gh1 ,i walk4 ,n[1 ,i want y to d me a fav\r4 ,y "k :at a difficult job ,i (t5 _h to keep ?+s go+1 yet ,i kept !m go+4 ,don't y get disc\rag$ ab\t ! mat]ial :]e)al = y\r "w4 ,"w "r ahead1 z if ! supply 7 !re1 & x w be !re4 ,y c demon/rate x 9 "o way or ano!r4 ,d n feel weak or unc]ta91 = :5 y d y drag me back to e>? by =ce ( sympa?y4 ,x is z bad z griev+ = ! dead4 ,,lett] ,,viii ,,! ,,iron ,,grip ,,( ,,matt] ,,to a man dwell+ 9 ! 8invisible0 !re comes a sudd5 memory ( e>?4 8,oh60 he says4 8,! _w is go+ on )\t me4 ,:at am ,i miss+80 ,x seems almo/ an imp]t95ce on ! "p ( ! _w to g on )\t him4 ,he becomes agitat$4 ,he is sure t he is beh9d ! times1 left out1 left ov]4 ,he looks ab\t him1 & sees only ! tranquil fields ( ! f\r? dim5sion4 ,oh1 = ! iron grip ( matt] once m6 ,to hold some?+ 9 taut h&s6 ,p]haps ! mood passes1 b "o day x returns ) r$\bl$ =ce4 ,he mu/ get out ( ! t5u\s environm5t into ! =cibly resi/ant _w ( d5se matt]4 ,b h[8 ,ah1 he rememb]s6 ,all action comes f memory4 ,x w\ld be a reckless exp]im5t _h he n done x be=e4 ,he closes 8 eyes1 rev]s+ himself 9 ! invisible4 ,he is drawn to human life1 to human be+s 9 ! int5se vibration ( union4 ,!re is sympa?y "h--p]haps ! sympa?y ( pa/ exp]i5ce ) ! s\ls ( ^? :om he n[ contacts1 p]haps only sympa?y ( mood or imag9ation4 ,be t z x may1 he lets g 8 hold ^u fre$om & triumphantly loses himself 9 ! lives ( human be+s4 ,aft] a "t he awakes1 to look ) bewild]$ eyes ^u gre5 fields & ! r\nd1 solid faces ( m5 & wom54 ,sometimes he weeps1 & wi%es himself back4 ,if he becomes disc\rag$1 he may return--only to beg9 ! we>y que/ ( matt] all ov] aga94 ,if he is /rong & /ubborn1 he rema9s & gr[s into a man4 ,he may ev5 p]suade himself t ! =m] life 9 t5u\s sub/ance 0 only a dream1 = 9 dream he returns to x1 & ! dream haunts him & spoils 8 enjoym5t ( matt]4 ,aft] ye>s en\gh he gr[s we>y ( ! mat]ial /ruggle3 8 en]gy is exhau/$4 ,he s9ks back into ! arms ( ! unse51 & m5 say aga9 ) bat$ brea? t he is dead4 ,b he is n dead4 ,he has only return$ :5ce he came4 ,,lett] ,,ix ,,:]e ,,s\ls ,,g ,,up ,,& ,,d[n ,,my fri5d1 !re is no?+ to fe> 9 dea?4 ,x is no h>d] ?an a trip to a =eign c\ntry--! fir/ trip--to "o :o has gr[n oldi% & settl$ 9 ! habits ( 8 own m or less n>r[ corn] ( ! _w4 ,:5 a man comes out "h1 ! /rang]s :om he meets seem no m /range ?an ! =eign peoples seem to "o :o fir/ goes among !m4 ,he does n always und]/& !m2 !re1 aga91 8 exp]i5ce is l a soj\rn 9 a =eign c\ntry4 ,!n1 aft] a :ile1 he beg9s to make fri5dly advances & to smile ) ! eyes4 ,! "q1 8,:]e are y f80 meets ) a simil> response to t on e>?4 ,"o is f ,cali=nia1 ano!r is f ,bo/on1 ano!r is f ,london4 ,?is is :5 we meet on ! highroads ( travel2 = !re are lanes ( travel ov] "h1 :]e ! s\ls g up & d[n z on ! e>?4 ,su* a road is g5]ally ! mo/ direct l9e betwe5 two great c5tres2 b x is nev] on ! l9e ( a railway4 ,!re w\ld be too mu* noise4 ,we c he> s\nds made on ! e>?4 ,!re is a c]ta9 %ock to ! e!ric e> :i* c>ries ! vibration ( s\nd to u4 ,sometimes "o settles d[n = a long "t 9 "o place4 ,i visit$ an old home 9 ! ,/ate ( ,ma9e1 :]e a man on ?is side ( life _h be5 /opp+ = ,i d n "k h[ _m ye>s2 he told me t ! *ildr5 _h gr[n to be m5 & wom51 & t a colt to :i* he became atta*$ :5 he fir/ came out _h gr[n into a horse & _h di$ ( old age4 ,!re are slugg>ds & dull p "h1 z ) y4 ,!re are also brilliant & magnetic p1 ^: v pres5ce is rejuv5at+4 ,x seems almo/ absurd to say t we we> clo!s1 ! same z y d2 b we d n seem to ne$ s _m4 ,i h n se5 any trunks2 b !n ,i h be5 "h only a %ort "t4 ,heat & cold d n matt] mu* to me n[1 ?\gh ,i rememb] at fir/ be+ r uncom=table by reason ( ! cold4 ,b t is pa/4 ,,lett] ,x ,a ,,r5dezv\s ,,9 ,,! ,,f\r? ,,dim5sion ,,y c d s mu* = me by l5d+ me y\r h& occasionally1 t ,i wond] :y y %r9k f x4 ,?is philosophy w g on be+ taught 9 ! _w & all ov] ! _w4 ,only a few1 p]haps1 w rea* ! deeps ( x 9 ?is life2 b a se$ s[n to-day may be> fruit long h5ce4 ,some:]e ,i h read t gra9s ( :eat :i* _h be5 buri$ ) mummies = two or ?ree ?\s& ye>s _h spr\t$ :5 plac$ 9 good soil 9 our own day4 ,x is s ) a philosophic se$4 ,x has be5 said t he is a fool :o works = philosophy in/ead ( mak+ philosophy "w = him2 b a man _c give to ! _w ev5 a little ( a true philosophy )\t reap+ sev5fold himself1 & y "k ! ,biblical quotation :i* ends1 8& 9 ! _w to come et]nal life40 ,to get1 "o mu/ give4 ,t is ! ,law4 ,i c tell y _m ?+s ab\t ! life out "h :i* may be ( use to o!rs :5 !y make ! great *ange4 ,almo/ ev]yone br+s memory ov] ) him4 ,! m5 & wom5 ,i h met & commun$ ) h _h m or less vivid recollection ( _! e>? life--t is1 mo/ ( !m4 ,i met "o man :o refus$ to speak ( ! e>?1 & 0 always talk+ ab\t 8go+ on40 ,i rem9d$ him t if he w5t on f> en\gh he w\ld come back to ! place f :i* he />t$4 ,y h be5 curi\s1 p]haps1 z to :at we eat & dr9k1 if any?+4 ,we c]ta9ly are n\ri%$1 & we seem to absorb mu* wat]4 ,y also %\ld dr9k pl5ty ( wat]4 ,x fe$s ! a/ral body4 ,i d n ?9k t a v dry body w\ld ev] h en\gh a/ral vitality to l5d a h& to a s\l on ?is plane ( life1 z y are do+ n[4 ,!re is mu* moi/ure 9 our bodies ov] "h4 ,p]haps t is "o reason :y contact ) a s-call$ _s sometimes gives w>m-blood$ p]sons a s5se ( cold1 & !y %iv]4 ,x is some?+ ( an ef=t on my "p also to write l ?is1 b x seems to be wor? :ile4 ,i come to ! place :]e ,i feel t y are4 ,i c see y bett] ?an mo/ o!rs4 ,!n ,i rev]se2 t is1 in/ead ( go+ 91 z ,i us$ to d1 ,i g out ) great =ce & 9 y\r direction4 ,i take possession ( y by a /rong propulsive ef=t4 ,sometimes ! writ+ has /opp$ sudd5ly 9 ! mid/ ( a s5t5ce4 ,t 0 :5 ,i 0 n prop]ly focuss$4 ,y may h notic$ :5 rev]s+ & %utt+ away ! outside _w1 t a sudd5 noise1 or maybe a w&]+ ?\ght1 w\ld br+ y "r out aga94 ,x is s "h4 ,n[1 ab\t ?is elem5t 9 :i* we live4 ,x und\bt$ly has a place 9 space1 = x is all ar\nd ! e>?4 ,yes1 e tree visible has its invisible c\nt]p>t4 ,:5 y1 be=e sleep1 come out consci\sly into ?is _w1#a y see ?+s t exi/1 or h exi/$1 9 ! mat]ial _w also4 ,y _c see any?+ 9 ?is _w :i* has n a physical c\nt]p>t 9 ! o!r4 ,!re are1 ( c\rse1 ?\ght-pictures1 imag9>y pictures2 b to see imag9atively is n to see on ! a/ral plane--n by any means4 ,! ?+s y see be=e go+ to sleep h real exi/5ce1 & by *ang+ y\r rate ( vibration y come out into ?is _w--or r y g back into x1 = y h to g 91 9 ord] to come out4 ,imag9ation has great p[]4 ,if y make a picture 9 ! m9d1 ! vibrations ( ! body may adju/ to x if ! w is direct$ t way1 z 9 ?\ghts ( heal? or sickness4 ,x might be well z an exp]im5t1 :5 y want to come out "h1 to *oose a c]ta9 symbol & hold x be=e y\r eyes4 ,i d n say t x w\ld help to *ange ! vibration1 b x might4 ,i wond] if y c\ld see me if j be=e fall+ asleep y %\ld come out "h ) t ?\ght & t desire dom9ant 9 y\r m9d8 ,i am /rong to-day1 because ,i h be5 long ) "o :o is /rong]2 & if y want to make ! exp]im5t ( try+ to f9d me ?is night1 ,i may be able to help y bett] ?an at ano!r "t4 ,!re is s mu* to say1 & ,i c seldom talk ) y4 ,if y 7 diff]5tly situat$ & q free f o!r ?+s1 ,i c\ld p]haps come (t54 ,i am le>n+ mu* t ,i %\ld l to give y4 ,= in/ance1 ,i ?9k ,i c %[ y h[ to come out "h at w1 z ! ,ma/]s d con/antly4 ,at fir/ ,i took only y\r arm to write )1 b n[ ,i get a bett] hold ( ! psy*ic organisation4 ,i saw t ,i 0 n work+ 9 ! be/ way1 t !re 0 a wa/e some:]e1 s ,i ask$ ! ,tea*] = in/ruction 9 ! matt]4 ,by ?is new me?od y w n feel s tir$ aft]w>ds1 nor %all ,i4 ,i am go+ n[1 & w try to meet y 9 a few m9utes4 ,if ! exp]im5t %\ld fail1 d n be disc\rag$2 b try aga9 "s o!r "t4 ,y w "k me all "r1 if y d see me4 ,,footnotes3 ,footnote #a3 ,?is und\bt$ly ref]s to my 8hypnagogic0 visions4--,,ed4 ,,lett] ,,xi ,,! ,,boy--,,lionel ,,y w be int]e/$ to "k t !re are p out "h1 z on ! e>?1 :o devote !mselves to ! welf>e ( o!rs4 ,!re is ev5 a l>ge organisation ( s\ls :o call !mselves a ,league4 ,_! special "w is to take hold ( ^? :o h j come out1 help+ !m to f9d !mselves & to adju/ to ! new conditions4 ,!re are bo? m5 & wom5 9 ?is ,league4 ,!y h done good s]vice4 ,!y "w on a little--,i d n want to say high] plane ?an ! ,salvation ,army1 b r a m intellectual plane4 ,!y help bo? *ildr5 & adults4 ,x is int]e/+ ab\t ! *ildr54 ,i h n _h "t yet to obs]ve all ^! ?+s = myself2 b "o ( ! ,league work]s tells me t x is easi] = *ildr5 to adju/ !mselves to ! *ang$ life ?an x is = gr[n p]sons4 ,v old p are incl9$ to sleep a good deal1 :ile *ildr5 come out ) great en]gy1 & br+ ) !m ! same curiosity t !y _h 9 e>? life4 ,!re are no viol5t *anges4 ,! little ones gr[ up1 x is said1 ab\t z gradually & imp]ceptibly z !y w\ld h gr[n on e>?4 ,! t5d5cy is to fulfil ! normal rhy?m1 ?\gh !re are in/ances :]e ! s\l goes back v soon1 ) little re/4 ,t w\ld be a s\l ) great curiosity & /rong desires4 ,!re are horrors out "h--f> worse ?an ! horrors on e>?4 ,! decay f vice & intemp]ance is mu* worse "h ?an !re4 ,i h se5 faces & =ms t 7 really frightful1 faces t seem$ to be half-decay$ & fall+ 9 pieces4 ,^! are ! hopeless cases1 :i* ev5 ! ,league ( work]s ,i spoke ab\t leave to _! fate4 ,x is unc]ta9 :at ! fate ( su* p w be2 :e!r !y w re9c>nate or n 9 ?is cycle1 ,i d n "k4 ,! *ildr5 are s *>m+6 ,"o "y boy is ) me (t52 he calls me ,fa!r1 & seems to enjoy my society4 ,he w\ld be1 ,i %\ld ?9k1 ab\t ?irte5 ye>s old1 & he has be5 out "h "s "t4 ,he c\ld n tell me j h[ long2 b ,i w ask him if he rememb]s ! ye>1 ! cal5d> ye>1 9 :i* he came out4 ,x is n true t we _c keep our ?\ghts to ourselves if we are c>eful to d s4 ,we c gu>d our secrets1 if we "k h[4 ,t is done by sugge/ion1 or lay+ a spell4 ,x is1 ?\gh1 mu* easi] "h ?an on e>? to read ! m9ds ( o!rs4 ,we seem to communicate ) "o ano!r 9 ab\t ! same way t y d2 b ,i f9d1 z "t goes by1 t ,i conv]se m & m by p[]ful & project$ ?\ght ?an by ! mov+ ( ! lips4 ,at fir/ ,i always op5$ my m\? :5 ,i _h any?+ to say2 x is easi] n[ n to d s1 ?\gh ,i sometimes d x /ill by =ce ( habit4 ,:5 a man has rec5tly come out he does n und]/& ano!r unless he really speaks2 t is1 ,i suppose1 be=e he has le>n$ t he also c talk )\t us+ mu* brea?4 ,b ,i 0 tell+ y ab\t ! boy4 ,he is all int]e/ 9 reg>d to c]ta9 ?+s ,i h told him ab\t ! e>?1--especially a]oplanes1 :i* 7 n yet v practicable :5 he came out4 ,he wants to g back & fly 9 an a]oplane4 ,i tell him t he c fly "h )\t "o1 b t does n seem to be ! same ?+ to him4 ,he wants to get 8 f+]s on ma*9]y4 ,i advise him n to be 9 any hurry ab\t go+ back4 ,! curi\s ?+ ab\t x is t he c rememb] o!r & =m] lives ( 8 on e>?4 ,_m out "h h no m memory ( _! =m] lives1 be=e ! la/ "o1 ?an !y _h :ile 9 ! body4 ,?is is n a place :]e ev]yone kn[s ev]y?+--f> f x4 ,mo/ s\ls are ne>ly z bl9d z !y 7 9 life4 ,! boy 0 an inv5tor 9 a prior inc>nation1 & he came out ?is "t by an accid5t1 he says4 ,he %\ld /ay "h a little long]1 ,i ?9k1 to get a /rong] rhy?m = a return4 ,t is only my idea4 ,i am s int]e/$ 9 ! boy t ,i %\ld l to keep him1 & p]haps t influ5ces my judgm5t some:at4 ,y see1 we are /ill human4 ,y ask$ me "s que/ions1 did y n8 ,w y speak !m al\d8 ,i c he>4 ,yes1 ,i feel consid]ably y\ng] ?an ,i h felt = a long "t1 & ,i am well4 ,at fir/ ,i felt ab\t z ,i did 9 my illness1 ) times ( depression & times ( fre$om f depression2 b n[ ,i am all "r4 ,my body does n give me mu* tr\ble4 ,i believe t old p gr[ y\ng] "h until !y rea* _! prime aga91 & t !n !y may hold t = a long "t4 ,y see1 ,i h n become all-wise4 ,i h be5 able to pick up a good deal ( k :i* ,i _h =gott52 b ab\t all ! details ( ?is life ,i /ill h mu* to le>n4 ,y\r curiosity w help me to /udy conditions & to make inquiries1 :i* o!rwise ,i might n h made = a long "t1 if ev]4 ,mo/ p d n seem to le>n mu* out "h1 except t naturally !y le>n ! be/ & easie/ way ( gett+ on1 z 9 e>? life4 ,yes1 !re are s*ools "h :]e any :o wi% = in/ruction c receive x--if !y are fit4 ,b !re are only a few great tea*]s4 ,! av]age college pr(essor is n a be+ ( supreme wisdom1 :e!r "h or !re4 ,,lett] ,,xii ,,! ,,patt]n ,,_w ,,!re is some?+ ,i want to qualify 9 :at ,i said ! o!r day1 t !re is no?+ out "h :i* has n exi/$ on ! e>?4 ,s9ce !n ,i h le>n$ t t /atem5t is n exactly true4 ,!re are /rata "h4 ,?is ,i h le>n$ rec5tly4 ,i /ill believe t 9 ! l[e/ /ratum next ! e>? all or ne>ly all t exi/s has exi/$ on e>? 9 d5se matt]4 ,g a little f>!r up1 a little f>!r away--h[ f> ,i _c say by actual measurem5t2 b ! o!r night 9 explor+ ,i got into ! _w ( patt]ns1 ! p>adigms--if t is ! ^w--( ?+s :i* are to be on e>?4 ,i saw =ms ( ?+s :i*1 s f> z ,i "k1 h n exi/$ on y\r planet--inv5tions1 = example4 ,i saw w+s t man c\ld adju/ to himself4 ,i saw also new =ms ( fly+-ma*9es4 ,i saw model cities1 & t[]s ) /range w+-l projections on !m1 ( :i* ,i c\ld n imag9e ! use4 ,! progress ( me*anical inv5tion is evid5tly only begun4 ,ano!r "t ,i w g on1 f>!r up 9 t _w ( patt]n =ms1 & see if ,i c le>n :at lies beyond x4 ,be> ?is 9 m9d3 ,i m]ely tell y /ories1 z an e>?ly travell] w\ld tell1 ( ! ?+s ,i see4 ,sometimes my int]pretation ( !m may be wrong4 ,:5 ,i 0 9 ! place :i* we w call ! patt]n _w1 ,i saw almo/ nobody !re--only an occasional lone voyag] l myself4 ,i naturally inf] f ?is t b few ( ^? :o leave ! e>? g up !re at all4 ,i ?9k f :at ,i h se51 & f conv]sations ,i h _h ) m5 & wom5 s\ls1 t mo/ ( !m d n get v f> f ! e>?1 ev5 out "h4 ,x is /range1 b _m p]sons seem to be 9 ! regul> or?odox heav51 s++ 9 :ite robes1 ) cr[ns on _! heads & ) h>ps 9 _! h&s4 ,!re is a region :i* outsid]s call 8! heav5 c\ntry40 ,!re is also1 !y tell me1 a fi]y hell1 ) at lea/ ! smell ( brim/one2 b s f> ,i h n be5 !re4 ,"s day :5 ,i feel /rong ,i w look 91 & if x is n too depress+ ,i w g f>!r--if !y w let me4 ,= ! pres5t ,i am look+ ab\t "h & !re1 & ,i h n /udi$ c>efully any place z yet4 ,i took ! boy1 ^: "n by ! way is ,lionel1 out ) me ye/]day4 ,p]haps we ought to say la/ night1 = y\r day is our night :5 we are on y\r side ( ?is great holl[ sph]e4 ,y & ! solid e>? are 9 ! c5tre ( our sph]e4 ,i took ! boy out ) me = :at y w\ld call a walk4 ,fir/ we w5t to ! old qu>t] ( ,p>is1 :]e ,i us$ to live 9 a =m] life2 b ,lionel c\ld n see any?+1 & :5 ,i po9t$ out c]ta9 build+s to him he ask$ me q s9c]ely if ,i 7 dream+4 ,i mu/ h "s faculty :i* is n g5]ally develop$ among my fell[ citiz5s 9 ! a/ral c\ntry4 ,s :5 ! boy f\nd t ,p>is 0 only a figm5t ( my imag9ation--he us$ to live 9 ,bo/on--,i took him to see heav54 ,he rem>k$3 8,:y1 ?is mu/ be ! place my gr&mo!r us$ to tell me ab\t4 ,b :]e is ,god80 ,t ,i c\ld n tell him2 b1 on look+ aga91 we saw t ne>ly ev]ybody 0 gaz+ 9 "o direction4 ,we also gaz$ ) ! o!rs1 & saw a great light1 l a sun1 only x 0 s(t] & less dazzl+ ?an ! mat]ial sun4 8,t10 ,i said to ! boy1 8is :at !y see :o see ,god40 ,& n[ ,i h some?+ /range to tell y2 =1 z we gaz$ at t light1 sl[ly !re took =m betwe5 u & x ! figure :i* we are accu/om$ to see repres5t$ z t ( ! ,*ri/4 ,he smil$ at ! p & /ret*$ out ,8 h&s to !m4 ,!n ! sc5e *ang$1 & ,he _h on ,8 left arm a lamb2 & !n aga9 ,he /ood z if transfigur$ ^u a m\nta92 !n ,he spoke & taught !m4 ,we c\ld he> ,8 voice4 ,& !n ,he vani%$ f our sight4 ,,lett] ,,xiii ,,=ms ,,real ,,& ,,unreal ,,:5 ,i fir/ came out "h ,i 0 s int]e/$ 9 :at ,i saw t ,i did n "q mu* z to ! mann] ( ! see+4 ,b lately--especially s9ce writ+ ! la/ lett] or two--,i h begun to notice a diff]5ce betwe5 objects t at a sup]ficial glance seem to be ( mu* ! same sub/ance4 ,= example1 ,i c sometimes see a diff]5ce betwe5 ^? ?+s :i* h exi/$ on e>? unque/ionably1 su* z ! =ms ( m5 & wom51 & o!r ?+s :i*1 :ile visualis$ & seem+ly palpable1 may be1 & probably are1 b ?\ght-creations4 ,?is idea came to me :ile look+ on at ! dramas ( ! heav5 c\ntry1 & x 0 =c$ ^u me ) great] p[] :ile mak+ o!r & rec5t explorations 9 t :i* ,i h call$ ! patt]n _w4 ,lat] ,i may be able to di/+ui% at a glance betwe5 ^! two classes ( seem+ objects4 ,= example1 if ,i enc\nt] "h a be+1 or :at seems a be+1 & if ,i am told t x is "s fam\s "* 9 fiction1 su* z ,jean ,valjean 9 ,hugo's ,les ,misrables1 ,i %all h reason to believe t ,i h se5 a ?\ght-=m ( suffici5t vitality to /& alone1 z a quasi-entity 9 ?is _w ( t5u\s matt]4 ,s f> ,i h n enc\nt]$ any su* *>act]s4 ,( c\rse1 unless ,i 7 able to hold conv]se ) a be+1 a =m1 or saw o!rs d s1 ,i c\ld n positively /ate t x _h an ess5tial exi/5ce4 ,h]eaft] ,i %all (t5 put ?+s to ! te/ 9 ?is way4 ,if ,i c talk to a seem+ entity1 & if x c answ] me1 ,i am ju/ifi$ 9 consid]+ x z a reality4 ,a "* 9 fiction1 or any o!r m5tal creation1 h[ev] vivid z a picture1 w\ld h no s\l1 no unit ( =ce1 no real self4 ,:atev] comes to me m]ely z a picture ,i %all try to submit to ?is te/4 ,if ,i see a peculi> =m ( tree or animal1 & c t\* & feel x1--= ! s5ses "h are q z acute z ^? ( e>?1--,i "k t x exi/s 9 ! subtle matt] ( ?is plane4 ,i believe t all ! be+s :om ,i h se5 "h are real2 b if ,i c f9d "o t is n1--a be+ :i* ,i _c feel :5 ,i t\* x & :i* _c respond to my que/ions1--,i %all h a datum = my hypo!sis t ?\ght-=ms ( be+s1 z well z ?+s1 may h suffici5t cohesion to seem real4 ,x is und\bt$ly true t !re is no _s )\t sub/ance1 no sub/ance )\t _s1 lat5t or express$2 b a pa9t+ ( a man may seem at a di/ance to be a man4 ,c !re exi/ delib]ate ?\ght-creations "h1 delib]ate & purposive creations8 ,i believe s4 ,su* a ?\ght-=m w\ld probably h to be v int5se 9 ord] to p]si/4 ,x seems to me t ,i _h bett] settle ?is "q to my own satisfaction be=e talk+ any m ab\t x4 ,,lett] ,,xiv ,a ,,folio ,,( ,,p>acelsus ,,! o!r day ,i ask$ my ,tea*] to %[ me ! ar*ives 9 :i* ^? :o _h liv$ out "h _h record$ _! obs]vations1 if su* exi/$4 ,he said3 8,y 7 a great read] ( books :5 y 7 on ! e>?4 ,come40 ,we ent]$ a va/ build+ l a libr>y1 & ,i caught my brea? 9 wond]4 ,x 0 n ! ar*itecture ( ! build+ :i* /ruck me1 b ! quantities ( books & records4 ,!re mu/ h be5 millions ( !m4 ,i ask$ ! ,tea*] if all ! books 7 "h4 ,he smil$ & said3 8,are !re n en\gh8 ,y c make y\r *oice40 ,i ask$ if ! volumes 7 arrang$ by subjects4 8,!re is an arrangem5t10 he answ]$4 8,:at d y want80 ,i said t ,i %\ld l to see ! books 9 :i* 7 writt5 ! acc\nts ( explorations :i* o!r m5 _h made 9 ?is 7to me7 /ill slightly kn[n c\ntry4 ,he smil$ aga91 & took f a %elf a ?ick volume4 ,x 0 pr9t$ 9 l>ge black type4#b 8,:o wrote ?is book80 ,i ask$4 8,!re is a signature10 he repli$4 ,i look$ at ! end & saw ! signature3 x 0 t us$ by ,p>acelsus4 8,:5 did he write ?is80 8,soon aft] he came out4 ,x 0 writt5 betwe5 8 ,p>acelsus life & 8 next "o on e>?40 ,! book :i* ,i _h op5$ 0 a treatise on spirits1 human1 angelic1 & elem5tal4 ,x began ) ! def9ition ( a human _s z a _s :i* _h _h ! exp]i5ce ( life 9 human =m2 & x def9$ an elem5tal _s z a _s ( m or less develop$ self-consci\sness :i* _h n yet _h t exp]i5ce4 ,!n ! au?or def9$ an angel z a _s ( a high ord] :i* _h n _h1 & probably w\ld n h 9 future1 su* exp]i5ce 9 matt]4 ,he w5t on to /ate t angelic spirits 7 divid$ into two %>ply def9$ gr\ps1 ! cele/ial & ! inf]nal1 ! =m] be+ ^? angels :o work$ t[>ds h>mony ) ! laws ( ,god1 ! latt] be+ ^? angels :o work$ aga9/ t h>mony4 ,b he said t bo? ^! ord]s ( angels 7 necess>y1 ea* to ! o!r's exi/5ce2 t if all 7 good ! univ]se w\ld cease to be2 t good itself w\ld cease to be ?r\gh ! failure ( its opposite--evil4 ,he said t 9 ! ar*ives ( ! angelic regions !re 7 cases on record :]e a good angel _h become bad or a bad angel _h become good1 b t su* cases 7 ( r>e occurr5ce4 ,he !n w5t on to w>n 8 fell[ s\ls :o %\ld be soj\rn+ 9 t realm 9 :i* he !n wrote1 & 9 :i* ,i knew myself also to be1 aga9/ hold+ communion ) evil spirits4 ,he decl>$ t 9 ! subtl] =ms ( life !re 7 m temptations ?an 9 ! e>? life2 t he himself _h (t5 be5 assail$ by malignant angels :o _h urg$ him to jo9 =ces ) !m1 & t _! argum5ts 7 sometimes extremely plausible4 ,he said t :ile liv+ on e>? he _h (t5 _h conv]sations ) spirits bo? good & bad2 b t :ile on e>? he _h nev]1 s f> z he knew1 held conv]se ) an angel ( a malignant nature4 ,he advis$ 8 read]s t !re 0 "o way to det]m9e :e!r a be+ ( ! subtl] _w 0 an angel or m]ely a human or an elem5tal _s1 & t 0 by ! great] brilliancy ( ! light :i* surr\nd$ an angel4 ,he said t bo? good & bad angels 7 extremely brilliant2 b t !re 0 a diff]5ce betwe5 !m1 p]ceptible at ! fir/ glance at _! faces2 t ! eyes ( ! cele/ial angels 7 aflame ) love & intellect1 :ile ! eyes ( ! inf]nal angels 7 v unpleasant to enc\nt]4 ,he said t x w\ld be possible = an inf]nal angel to disguise himself to a mortal1 s t he might be mi/ak5 = an angel ( light2 b t x 0 practically impossible = an angel to disguise 8 real nature f ^? s\ls :o 7 liv+ 9 _! subtle bodies4 ,i w p]haps say m on ?is subject ano!r night4 ,i mu/ re/ n[4 ,,footnotes3 ,footnote #b3 ,i hope no "o w expect me to answ] ! "q :y %\ld su* a book appe> to be pr9t$ 9 l>ge black type4 ,i h no m idea ?an has ! read]4--,,ed4 ,,lett] ,,xv ,a ,,roman ,,toga ,,"o ?+ :i* makes ?is c\ntry s int]e/+ to me is its lack ( conv5tionality4 ,no two p]sons are dress$ 9 ! same way--or no1 ,i d n mean t exactly1 b _m are s ecc5trically dress$ t _! appe>ance gives v>iety to ! :ole4 ,my own clo!s are1 z a rule1 simil> to ^? ,i wore on e>?1 ?\gh ,i h z an exp]im5t1 :5 dwell+ 9 ?\ght on "o ( my long-pa/ lives1 put on ! g>m5ts ( ! p]iod4 ,x is easy to get ! clo!s "o wants "h4 ,i d n "k h[ ,i became possess$ ( ! g>m5ts :i* ,i wore on com+ out2 b :5 ,i began to take notice ( su* ?+s1 ,i f\nd myself dress$ ab\t z usual4 ,i am n yet sure :e!r ,i br\ght my clo!s ) me4 ,!re are _m p "h 9 co/umes ( ! anci5t days4 ,i d n inf] f ?is fact t !y h be5 "h all ^? ages4 ,i ?9k !y we> su* clo!s because !y l !m4 ,z a rule1 mo/ p]sons /ay ne> ! place :]e !y liv$ on e>?2 b ,i h be5 a w&]] f ! fir/4 ,i g rapidly f "o c\ntry to ano!r4 ,"o night 7or day ) y7 ,i may take my re/ 9 ,am]ica2 ! next night ,i may re/ 9 ,p>is4 ,i h sp5t h\rs ( repose on ! divan 9 y\r sitt+-room1 & y did n "k t ,i 0 !re4 ,i d\bt1 ?\gh1 if ,i c\ld /ay = h\rs 9 y\r h\se :5 ,i 0 myself awake )\t y\r s5s+ my pres5ce4 ,d n ?9k1 h[ev]1 f :at ,i h j said1 t x is necess>y = me to re/ on ! solid matt] ( y\r _w4 ,n at all4 ,we c re/ on ! t5u\s sub/ance ( our own _w4 ,"o day1 :5 ,i _h be5 "h only a %ort "t1 ,i saw a woman dress$ 9 a ,greek co/ume1 & ask$ h] :]e %e got h] clo!s4 ,%e repli$ t %e _h made !m4 ,i ask$ h] h[1 & %e said3 8,:y1 fir/ ,i made a patt]n 9 my m9d1 & !n ! ?+ became a g>m5t40 8,did y take e /it*80 8,n z ,i %\ld h done on e>?40 ,i look$ clos] & saw t ! :ole g>m5t seem$ to be 9 "o piece1 & t x 0 caught on ! %\ld]s by jewell$ p9s4 ,i ask$ :]e %e got ! jewell$ p9s1 & %e said t a fri5d _h giv5 !m to h]4 ,!n ,i ask$ :]e ! fri5d _h got !m4 ,%e told me t %e did n "k1 b t %e w\ld ask him4 ,soon aft] t %e left me1 & ,i h n se5 h] s9ce1 s ! "q is /ill unansw]$4 ,i began to exp]im5t to see if ,i also c\ld make ?+s4 ,x 0 !n t ,i conceiv$ ! idea ( we>+ a ,roman toga1 b = ! life ( me ,i c\ld n rememb] :at a ,roman toga look$ l4 ,:5 next ,i met ! ,tea*] ,i told him ( my wi% to we> a toga ( my own mak+1 & he c>efully %[$ me h[ to create g>m5ts su* z ,i desir$3 ,to fix ! patt]n & %ape cle>ly 9 my m9d1 to visualise x1 & !n by p[] to desire to draw ! subtle matt] ( ! ?\ght-_w r\nd ! patt]n1 s z actually to =m ! g>m5t4 8,!n10 ,i said1 8! matt] ( ! ?\ght-_w1 z y call x1 is n ! same k9d ( matt] z t ( my body1 = in/ance80 8,9 ! la/ analysis10 he answ]$1 8!re is only "o k9d ( matt] 9 bo? worlds2 b !re is a great diff]5ce 9 vibration & t5uity40 ,n[ ! ?\ght-sub/ance ( :i* our g>m5ts are =m$ seems to be an extremely t5u\s =m ( matt]1 :ile our bodies seem to be pretty solid4 ,we d n feel at all l transp>5t angels sitt+ on damp cl\ds4 ,7 x n = ! quickness ) :i* ,i get ov] space1 ,i %\ld ?9k sometimes t my body 0 z solid z ev]4 ,i c (t5 see y1 & to me y seem t5u\s4 ,x is all1 ,i suppose1 ! old "q ( adju/+ to environm5t4 ,at fir/ ,i c\ld n d x1 & _h "s tr\ble 9 le>n+ to adju/ ! am\nt ( en]gy necess>y = ea* p>ticul> action4 ,s little en]gy is requir$ "h to move myself ab\t t at fir/ :5 ,i />t$ to g a %ort di/ance--say1 a few y>ds--,i w\ld f9d myself a mile away4 ,b ,i am n[ pretty well adju/$4 ,i mu/ be /or+ up en]gy "h = a good h>d life :5 ,i return to ! e>? aga94 ,! h>de/ "w ,i d n[ is to come & write ?r\gh y\r h&1 b y (f] less & less resi/ance z "t goes on4 ,9 ! beg9n+ x took all my /r5g?2 n[ x takes only a comp>atively small ef=t4 ,yet ,i c\ld n d x long at a "t )\t us+ y\r own vitality1 & t ,i w n d4 ,y may h notic$ t y are no long] fatigu$ aft] ! writ+1 ?\gh y us$ to be at fir/4 ,b ,i 0 speak+ ( ! lack ( conv5tionality out "h4 ,s\ls hail ea* o!r :5 !y want to1 )\t mu* c]emony4 ,i h se5 a few old wom5 :o 7 afraid to talk to a /rang]1 b probably !y _h n be5 "h long & ! e>? habits /ill clung to !m4 ,d n ?9k1 h[ev]1 t society "h is too free & easy4 ,x is n t1 b m5 & wom5 d n seem to be s afraid ( ea* o!r z !y 7 on e>?4 ,,lett] ,,xvi ,a ,,?+ ,,to ,,be ,,=gott5 ,i ,,want to say a ^w to ^? :o are ab\t to die4 ,i want to beg !m to =get _! bodies z soon z possible aft] ! *ange :i* !y call dea?4 ,oh1 ! t]rible curiosity to g back & look ^u t ?+ :i* we once believ$ to be ourselves6 ,! ?\ght comes to u n[ & !n s p[]fully t x acts 9 a way aga9/ our w & draws u back to x4 ,) "s x is a morbid obsession1 & _m _c get free f x :ile !re rema9s a %r$ ( fle% on ! bones :i* !y once lean$ ^u4 ,tell !m to =get x altoge!r1 to =ce ! ?\ght away1 to g out into ! o!r life free4 ,look+ back ^u ! pa/ is sometimes good1 b n ^u ?is relic ( ! pa/4 ,x is s easy to look into ! c(f91 because ! body :i* we we> n[ is itself a light 9 a d>k place1 & x c p5etrate gross] matt]4 ,i h be5 back myself a few times1 b am det]m9$ to g back no m4 ,yet "s day ! ?\ght may come to me aga9 ) compell+ insi/5ce to see h[ x is gett+ on4 ,i d n want to %ock or pa9 y--only to w>n y4 ,x is sad to see ! sight :i* inevitably meets "o 9 ! grave4 ,t may be ! reason :y _m s\ls :o h n be5 "h long are s melan*oly4 ,!y return aga9 & aga9 to ! place :i* !y %\ld n visit4 ,y "k t out "h if we ?9k int5tly ( a place we are apt to f9d ourselves !re4 ,! body :i* we use is s light t x c foll[ ?\ght almo/ )\t ef=t4 ,tell !m n to d x4 ,"o day :ile walk+ d[n an av5ue ( trees--= we h trees "h--,i met a tall woman 9 a long black g>m5t4 ,%e 0 weep+--= we h te>s "h also4 ,i ask$ h] :y %e wept1 & %e turn$ to me eyes ( unutt]able sadness4 8,i h be5 back to x10 %e said4 ,my he>t a*$ = h]1 because ,i knew h[ %e felt4 ,! %ock ( ! fir/ visit is repeat$ ea* "t1 z ! ?+ "o sees is less & less :at we l to ?9k ( ourselves z be+4 ,(t5 ,i rememb] t tall woman 9 black1 walk+ d[n ! av5ue ( trees & weep+4 ,x is p>tly curiosity t draws "o back1 p>tly magnetic attraction2 b x c d no good4 ,x is bett] to =get x4 ,i h sometimes long$1 f %e] sci5tific int]e/1 to ask my boy ,lionel if he _h be5 back to 8 body2 b ,i h n ask$ him = fe> ( putt+ ! idea into 8 m9d4 ,he has su* a re/less curiosity4 ,p]haps ^? :o g out z *ildr5 h less ( t morbid in/9ct ?an we h4 ,if we c\ld only rememb] 9 life t ! =m :i* we call ourselves is n our real immortal self at all1 we w\ld n give x su* an exagg]at$ importance1 ?\gh we w\ld nev]!less take ne$ful c>e ( x4 ,z a rule1 ^? :o say t !y h be5 long "h d n seem old4 ,i ask$ ! ,tea*] :y1 & he said t aft] a "t an old p]son =gets t he is old1 t ! t5d5cy is to gr[ "y 9 ?\ght & !re=e "y 9 appe>ance1 t ! body t5ds to take ! =m :i* we hold ( x 9 our m9ds1 t ! law ( rhy?m works "h z else:]e4 ,*ildr5 gr[ up out "h1 & !y may ev5 g on to a sort ( old age if t is ! expectation ( ! m9d2 b ! t5d5cy is to keep ! prime1 to g =w>d or back t[>ds ! be/ p]iod1 & !n to hold t until ! irresi/ible attraction ( ! e>? ass]ts itself aga94 ,mo/ ( ! m5 & wom5 "h d n "k t !y h liv$ _m times 9 fle%4 ,!y rememb] _! late/ life m or less vividly1 b all be=e t seems l a dream4 ,"o %\ld always keep ! memory ( ! pa/ z cle> z possible4 ,x helps "o to con/ruct ! future4 ,^? p :o ?9k ( _! dep>t$ fri5ds z be+ all-wise1 h[ disappo9t$ !y w\ld be if !y c\ld "k t ! life on ?is side is only an ext5sion ( ! life on e>?6 ,if ! ?\ghts & desires !re h be5 only = mat]ial pleasures1 ! ?\ghts & desires "h are likely to be ! same4 ,i h met v]itable sa9ts s9ce com+ out2 b !y h be5 m5 & wom5 :o held 9 e>? life ! sa9tly ideal1 & :o n[ are free to live x4 ,life c be s free "h6 ,!re is none ( t ma*9]y ( liv+ :i* makes p on e>? su* slaves4 ,9 our _w a man is held only by 8 ?\ghts4 ,if !y are free1 he is free4 ,few1 ?\gh1 are ( my philosophic _s4 ,!re are m sa9ts "h ?an philosoph]s1 z ! highe/ ideal ( mo/ p]sons1 :5 int5sely active1 has be5 t[>ds ! religi\s r ?an ! philosophic life4 ,i ?9k ! happie/ p ,i h met on ?is side h be5 ! pa9t]s4 ,our matt] is s light & subtle1 & s easily h&l$1 t x falls readily into ! =ms ( ! imag9ation4 ,!re are beautiful pictures "h4 ,"s ( our arti/s try to impress _! pictures ^u ! m5tal eyes ( ! arti/s ( e>?1 & !y (t5 succe$ 9 do+ s4 ,!re is joy 9 ! he>t ( "o ( our real arti/s :5 a fell[ craftsman on y\r side cat*es an idea f him & puts x into execution4 ,he may n always be able to see cle>ly h[ well ! second man works out ! idea1 = x requires a special gift or a special tra9+ to see f "o =m ( matt] into ! o!r2 b ! inspir+ _s cat*es ! ?\ght 9 ! inspir$ "o's m9d1 & kn[s t a conception ( 8 own is be+ execut$ ^u ! e>?4 ,) poets x is ! same4 ,!re are lovely lyrics compos$ out "h & impress$ ^u ! receptive m9ds ( e>?ly poets4 ,a poet told me t x 0 easi] to d t ) a %ort lyric ?an ) an epic or a drama1 :]e a long-cont9u$ ef=t 0 necess>y4 ,x is mu* ! same ) musicians4 ,:5ev] y g to a conc]t :]e beautiful music is be+ play$1 !re is probably all r\nd y a cr[d ( music-lov+ spirits1 dr9k+ 9 ! h>monies4 ,music on e>? is mu* enjoy$ on ?is side4 ,x c be he>d4 ,b no s5sitive _s likes to g ne> a place :]e bad /rumm+ is go+ on4 ,we pref] ! music ( /r+$ in/rum5ts4 ,( all e>?ly ?+s1 s\nd rea*es mo/ directly into ?is plane ( life4 ,tell t to ! musicians4 ,if !y c\ld only he> our music6 ,i did n und]/& music on e>?1 b n[ my e>s are becom+ adju/$4 ,x seems sometimes z if y mu/ he> our music ov] !re1 z we he> y\rs4 ,y may h wond]$ h[ ,i sp5d my "t & :]e ,i g4 ,!re is a lovely spot 9 ! c\ntry :i* ,i nev] tire ( visit+4 ,x is on ! side ( a m\nta91 n f> f my own city4 ,!re is a little road w9d+ r\nd a hill1 & j above ! road is a hut1 a ro($ enclosure ) ! l[] side op54 ,sometimes ,i /ay !re = h\rs & li/5 to ! rippl+ ( ! brook :i* runs beside ! road4 ,! tall sl5d] trees h become l bro!rs to me4 ,at fir/ ,i _c see ! mat]ial trees v cle>ly2 b ,i g into ! little hut :i* is made ( fre% clean bo>ds ) a sweet smell1 & ,i lie d[n on ! %elf or bunk along ! wall2 !n ,i close my eyes & by an ef=t--or no1 x is n :at ,i w\ld call an ef=t1 b by a sort ( drift+--,i c see ! beautiful place4 ,b y mu/ "k t ?is is 9 ! night "t !re1 & ,i see x by ! light ( myself4 ,t is :y we travel 9 ! d>k "p ( ! tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 = 9 ! bright sunlight we _c see at all4 ,our light is put out by ! crud] light ( ! sun4 ,"o night ,i took ! boy ,lionel !re ) me1 leav+ him 9 ! hut :ile ,i w5t a little di/ance away4 ,look+ back1 ,i saw ! :ole hut illum9at$ by a lovely radiance--! radiance ( ,lionel himself4 ,! little build+1 :i* has a peak$ ro(1 look$ l a pe>l light$ f )94 ,x 0 a beautiful exp]i5ce4 ,i !n w5t to ,lionel & told him to g 9 8 turn a little di/ance away1 :ile ,i took 8 place 9 ! hut4 ,i 0 curi\s to "k if he w\ld see ! same ph5om5on :5 ,i lay !re1 if ,i c\ld %$ su* a light ?r\gh d5se matt]--! bo>ds ( ! build+4 ,:5 ,i call$ him to me aft]w>ds & ask$ if he _h se5 any?+ /range1 he said3 8,:at a wond]ful man y are1 ,fa!r6 ,h[ did y make t hut seem to be on fire80 ,!n ,i knew t he _h se5 ! same ?+ ,i _h se54 ,b ,i am tir$ n[ & c write no m4 ,good night1 & may y h pleasant dreams4 ,,lett] ,,xvii ,,! ,,second ,,wife ,,ov] ,,!re ,i ,,am (t5 call$ ^u "h to decide matt]s = o!rs4 ,_m p call me simply 8! ,judge02 b we be>1 z a rule1 ! "n t we la/ bore on e>?4 ,m5 & wom5 come to me to settle all sorts ( que/ions = !m1 que/ions ( e?ics1 que/ions ( exp$i5cy1 ev5 qu>rels4 ,did y suppose t no "o qu>rell$ "h8 ,_m d4 ,!re are ev5 long-/&+ feuds among !m4 ,! hold]s ( diff]5t op9ions on religion are (t5 hot 9 _! argum5ts4 ,com+ "h ) ! same beliefs !y _h on e>?1 & be+ able to visualise _! ideals & actually to exp]i5ce ! ?+s !y are expect+1 two m5 :o hold opposite cre$s =cibly are ea* m intol]ant ?an ev] be=e4 ,ea* is c]ta9 t he is "r & t ! o!r is wrong4 ,?is /ubbornness ( belief is /ronge/ ) ^? :o h be5 "h only a %ort "t4 ,aft] a :ile !y fall into a l>g] tol]ance1 liv+ _! own lives m & m1 & enjoy+ ! _w ( pro(s & realisations :i* ea* s\l builds = itself4 ,b ,i want to give y an illu/ration ( ! sort ( que/ions on :i* ,i am ask$ to pass judgm5t4 ,!re are two wom5 "h :o 9 life 7 bo? m>ri$ to "o man1 ?\gh n at ! same "t4 ,! fir/ woman di$1 !n ! man m>ri$ aga91 & soon--n m ?an a ye> or two aft]--! man & 8 second wife bo? came out4 ,! fir/ wife consid]s h]self ! man's only wife1 & %e foll[s him ab\t ev]y:]e4 ,%e says t he promis$ to meet h] 9 heav54 ,he is m incl9$ to ! second wife1 ?\gh he /ill feels affection = ,wife ,no4 #a4 ,he is r impati5t at :at he calls h] unreasonabl5ess4 ,he told me "o day t he w\ld gladly give !m bo? up1 if he c\ld be left 9 peace to c>ry out c]ta9 /udies 9 :i* he is int]e/$4 ,^! 7 among ! p ,i met soon aft] ,i began to be /rong myself "h--x 0 n s v long ago2 & ! man has s\ght my society s mu* t ! wom51 9 ord] to be ne> him1 h come along too4 ,"o day !y all ?ree came to me & prop\nd$ _! "q--or1 r1 ,wife ,no4 #a prop\nd$ x4 ,%e said3 8,?is man is my husb&4 ,%\ld n1 !re=e1 ?is o!r woman g f> away & leave him altoge!r to me80 ,i ask$ ,wife ,no4 #b :at %e _h to say4 ,h] answ] 0 t %e w\ld be all alone "h b = h] husb&1 & t z %e _h _h him la/1 he n[ belong$ m to h] ?an to ! o!r4 ,9 a fla% ! memory came to me ( ^? ,sadducees :o prop\nd$ a simil> "q to ,*ri/1 & ,i quot$ ,8 answ] z ne>ly z ,i c\ld rememb] x3 t 8:5 !y %all rise f ! dead1 !y nei!r m>ry1 nor are giv5 9 m>riage2 b are z ! angels :i* are 9 heav540 ,my answ] 0 z mu* a /agg]] = !m z _! "q _h be5 = me1 & !y w5t away to ?9k ab\t x4 ,:5 !y 7 gone ,i began myself to pond] ! "q4 ,i _h already obs]v$ t1 :e!r or n all "h are z ! angels 9 heav51 !re does seem to be a good deal ( mat+ & rejo9+ ( =m] mates4 ,! sex di/9ction is z real "h z on ! e>?1 ?\gh1 ( c\rse1 its expression is n exactly ! same4 ,i ask$ myself a good _m que/ions :i* p]haps w\ld nev] h occurr$ to me b = ! tr\bles ( ?is int]e/+ triad1 & ,i ?\ght ( ! man ,i _h some:]e read ab\t1 :o said t he nev] knew 8 own op9ion ( any?+ until he tri$ to express x to somebody4 ,aft] a :ile ! ?ree came to me aga9 & said t !y _h be5 talk+ ?+s ov]1 p]haps aft] ! mann] ( angels 9 heav52 = ,wife ,no4 #a told me t %e _h decid$ to 8let0 h] husb& sp5d a "p ( 8 "t ) ! o!r woman1 if he want$ to4 ,n[1 ! man _h a swee!>t1 a girl swee!>t1 be=e he _h ei!r ( 8 wives4 ,! girl is out "h some:]e1 & ! man (t5 has a /rong desire to try to f9d h]4 ,:at opportunity he w n[ h to d s1 ,i _c say4 ,! situation is r depress+ = ! poor fell[4 ,x is bad en\gh to h "o p]son :o insi/s on e m9ute ( y\r society1 )\t hav+ two4 ,& ,i ?9k 8 case is n unusual4 ,p]haps ! only way 9 :i* he c get free f 8 two insi/5t companions is by go+ back to ! e>?4 ,!re is a way1 h[ev]1 by :i* he c\ld secure solitude2 b he does n "k ( x4 ,a man :o kn[s h[ c isolate himself "h z well z he c\ld on e>?2 he c build r\nd himself a wall :i* only ! eyes ( a great initiate c pi]ce4 ,i h n told ?is secret to my fri5d2 b p]haps ,i %all "s day1 if x seems necess>y = 8 developm5t t he h a little solitude4 ,at pres5t x seems to me t he w le>n m f adju/+ to ?is d\ble claim & try+ to f9d ! tru? t lies 9 x4 ,p]haps he may le>n t really1 ess5tially1 fundam5tally1 he does n 8belong0 to ei!r ( ^! wom54 ,! s\ls out "h seem to belong to !mselves1 & aft] ! fir/ few ye>s !y get to love lib]ty s mu* t !y are ready to yield a little ( _! claim ^u o!rs4 ,?is is a great place 9 :i* to gr[1 if "o really wants to gr[2 ?\gh few p]sons take advantage ( its possibilities4 ,mo/ are cont5t to assimilate ! exp]i5ces !y _h on e>?4 ,x w\ld be depress+ to "o :o did n realise t w is free1 to see h[ s\ls let slip _! opportunities "h1 ev5 z !y did on ! moon-gu>d$ planet4 ,!re are tea*]s "h :o /& ready to help anyone :o wi%es _! help 9 mak+ real & deep /udies 9 ! my/]ies ( life--! life "h1 ! life !re1 & 9 ! remote pa/4 ,if a man und]/&s t 8 rec5t soj\rn on e>? 0 m]ely ! late/ ( a long s]ies ( lives1 & if he conc5trates 8 m9d t[>ds recov]+ ! memories ( ! di/ant pa/1 he c recov] !m4 ,"s p]sons may ?9k t ! m]e dropp+ ( ! veil ( matt] %\ld free ! s\l f all obscuration2 b1 z on e>? s out "h1 8?+s are n ?us & s because !y ought to be1 b because !y are40 ,we draw to ourselves ! exp]i5ces :i* we are ready = & :i* we dem&1 & mo/ s\ls d n dem& en\gh "h1 any m ?an !y did 9 life4 ,tell !m to dem& m1 & ! dem& w be answ]$4 ,,lett] ,,xviii ,,individual ,,hells ,,"s "t ago ,i told y ( my int5tion to visit hell2 b :5 ,i began inve/igations on t l9e !re prov$ to be _m hells4 ,ea* man :o is n cont5t ) ! or?odox hell ( fire & brim/one builds "o out ( m9d-/uff suit$ to 8 imag9ative ne$4 ,i believe t m5 place !mselves 9 hell1 t no ,god puts !m !re4 ,i began look+ = a hell ( fire & brim/one1 & f\nd x4 ,dante mu/ h se5 ! same ?+s ,i saw4 ,b !re are o!r & individual hells---- 7,! writ+ sudd5ly /opp$1 = no app>5t reason1 & 0 n cont9u$ t night47 ,,lett] ,,xix ,a ,,little ,,home ,,9 ,,heav5 ,i ,,h met a v int]e/+ man s9ce la/ ,i wrote to y4 ,he is a lov] :o = t5 ye>s wait$ "h = 8 love to come to him4 ,!y said on e>? t he 0 dead1 & !y urg$ h] to love ano!r2 b %e c\ld n =get him1 = e night he met h] s\l 9 dreams1 e night %e came out to him "h1 & sometimes %e c\ld recall on wak+ all t he _h said to h] 9 sleep4 ,%e _h told him t %e w\ld n delay long 9 ! sun%9e _w1 b w\ld come out to him 9 ! self-light$ _w4 ,only a little :ile ago %e came4 ,he _h be5 long gett+ ready = h] com+1 & _h built 9 ! sub/ance ( ?is _w ! little home he _h plann$ to build = h] 9 ! out] _w4 ,he told me h[ "o night :5 %e came to him 9 dream1 %e said t %e w\ld rejo9 him on ! morr[1 nev] to leave him aga94 ,he 0 />tl$1 & w\ld almo/ h /ay$ h]2 because he _h di$ a sudd5 & pa9ful dea?1 & he dread$ pa9 = h]4 ,always he _h wat*$ ov] h]1 w>n+ h] ( dang]2 b ?is "t he felt1 aft] ! fir/ %ock ( ! message 0 ov]1 t %e 0 really com+4 ,& he 0 v happy4 ,he _h f\nd no o!r love out "h2 = :5 "o leaves ! e>? full ( a great affection1 & :5 ! e>?ly lov$ "o does n =get1 ! tie c hold = _m ye>s unweak5$4 ,y on ! e>? h =gott5 s mu* ( :at y le>n$ "h t y d n realise h[ y\r ?\ght ( u c make u happy1 d n realise h[ y\r =getfulness ( u c ?r[ u back entirely ^u ourselves4 ,(t5 ^? :o g f>!/ "h1 :o really gr[ 9 spirituality1 are ^? ^: loves h =gott5 !m on e>?2 b x is sad to be =gott51 nev]!less4 ,x is a bitt] p[] y make possible to u :5 y ?us ?r[ u back ^u ourselves2 & n all s\ls are /rong en\gh or aspir+ en\gh to make use ( ! lonely impetus t might help !m to scale ! ladd] ( spiritual k4 ,b to return to my lov]s4 ,all t day he rema9$ ne> h]4 ,he w\ld n re/2 =1 z ,i h told y1 we g5]ally re/ a little :5 ! sun %9es on ! e>?4 ,all t day he rema9$ ne> h]4 ,he c\ld n see h] body1 = ! rays ( sunlight 7 too /rong = him4 ,b1 aft] h\rs ( wait+1 sudd5ly he felt a h& 9 81 & ?\gh %e 0 invisible to him1 yet he knew t %e 0 "h4 ,& he spoke to h]1 us+ su* words z he w\ld h us$ on e>?4 ,%e did n seem to und]/&4 ,he spoke aga91 & /ill %e did n answ]2 b he knew f ! pressure ( h] h& t %e realis$ 8 pres5ce4 ,s h& 9 h& !y /ood !re 9 ! d>kness ( ! sunlight1 ! man able to speak because ( 8 long exp]i5ce 9 ?is _w ( subtle s\nds1 ! woman spee*less & bewild]$1 b /ill cl++ to 8 h&4 ,:5 ! sun%9e w5t away he 0 able to see h] face1 & h] eyes 7 wide & fright5$2 b /ill %e seem$ held to ! room 9 :i* lay ! body :i* _h be5 %e4 ,x 0 summ]1 & ! w9d[s 7 op54 ,he s\ght to draw h] away into ! p]fum$ night :i* to !m 0 day2 b %e held 8 h& & w\ld n let him g4 ,at la/ he drew h] away a %ort di/ance & spoke to h] aga94 ,n[ %e he>d & answ]$ him4 8,belov$10 %e said1 8:i* is ,i8 ,= ,i see myself--,i feel myself--back !re also4 ,i seem to be 9 two places4 ,:i* ,i is really ,i80 ,he com=t$ h] ) lov+ words4 ,he 0 /ill afraid to c>ess h]1 = ! t\* ( s\ls is v ke51 & he fe>$ le/ %e %\ld g back into ! =m :i* seem$ to be s ne> !m1 & ?us be lo/ to him aga94 ,b ?\gh %e _h (t5 come to him 9 dreams1 x _h n be5 s vividly z ?is "t1 & he felt t %e _h really pass$ ?r\gh ! great *ange4 ,%e /ill clung to 8 h&1 yet seem$ afraid to g out ) him--out & away f x4 ,he /ay$ !re ) h] all t night & all ! next day1 :5 ! d>k5+ sun came aga91 & aga9 he c\ld n see h]4 ,once ! well-mean+ fri5ds ( 8 belov$ di/urb$ h] body1 do+ ^? sacr$ (fices :i* seem s necess>y to ! liv+1 b :i* may sorely di/urb ! dead4 ,he /ay$ ) h] ! second night & all ! second day4 ,he c\ld he> ! sobs ( h] griev+ p>5ts1 ?\gh !y c\ld n see ei!r him or _! daught]2 b on ! second night ! little dog ( 8 love came into ! room :]e x lay1 ! room 9 :i* _! two s\ls /ill /ood1 & ! little dog saw !m & :9$ pite\sly4 ,! man c\ld he> x1 & %e also c\ld he> x4 ,& n[ %e c\ld he> him m pla9ly :5 he spoke to h]4 8,:]e w !y take x80 %e ask$ him4 ,he recall$ ! "t :5 he _h be5 held spellb\nd ne> 8 own lifeless =m1 ov] :i* 8 lov$ "o _h %$ bitt] te>s4 ,& he ask$ h] if x w\ld n be bett] to come away altoge!r2 b %e c\ld n1 or ?\ght %e c\ld n4 ,on ! ?ird day he knew f ! agitation ( 8 love t !y 7 plac+ h] body 9 ! c(f94 ,aft] a :ile he felt1 ?\gh he c\ld n see1 t _m o!r p]sons 7 9 ! room1 & he he>d m\rnful music4 ,music c rea* f "o _w to ano!r1 c be he>d f> m pla9ly ?an human voices1 :i* g5]ally _c be he>d at all except by ! tra9$ li/5]4 ,by & by 8 love 0 sorely agitat$1 & he also1 ?r\gh sympa?y ) h]2 & !y felt !mselves go+ sl[ly--oh1 s sl[ly6--along4 ,& he said to h]3 8,d n be griev$4 ,!y are tak+ x to ! burial2 b y are safe ) me40 ,he knew t %e 0 mu* tr\bl$4 ,x is n = no?+ t ov] ! h\se ( dea? !re always hangs a /range hu%1 n to be expla9$ by ! m]e los+ ( ! lov$ "o4 ,^? :o rema9 beh9d feel1 ?\gh !y _c see1 ! s\l ( ! "o :o has gone out4 ,_! s\ls are full ( sympa?y = him 9 8 bewild]m5t4 ,! *ange ne$ n be pa9ful if "o w\ld only rememb] t x has be5 pass$ ?r\gh be=e2 b "o s easily =gets4 ,we sometimes call ! e>? ! ,valley ( ,=getfulness4 ,dur+ ! days & weeks t foll[$ ?is lov] rema9$ ) 8 lov$ "o1 ev] try+ to draw h] away f ! e>? & f x1 :i* _h = h]1 z = s _m1 a fe>some fasc9ation4 ,x is said t ! s\ls ( ^? :o h liv$ long on e>? m easily deta* !mselves2 b ?is woman 0 /ill "y1 only ab\t ?irty2 & ev5 ) ! help ( h] lov] x 0 a little "t be=e %e c\ld get free4 ,b "o day 7or night1 z y w\ld say7 he %[$ h] ! home :i* he _h built = h]1 & x 0 lit]ally a mansion 9 ! sky4 ,%e ent]$ ) him1 & x became _! home4 ,sometimes he leaves h] = a little :ile1 or %e leaves him2 = ! joy ( be+ toge!r is height5$ "h1 z on ! e>?1 by an occasional sep>ation2 b n until %e 0 cont5t & accu/om$ to ! new life did he leave h] at all4 ,dur+ ! fir/ days ! habit ( e>?ly hung] (t5 held h]1 & he tri$ to appease x by giv+ h] ! s(t] sub/ance :i* we "k "h4 ,gradually %e became wean$ altoge!r f ! e>? & ! habits ( ! e>?1 only go+ back occasionally 9 a dream to h] fa!r & "m4 ,d n disreg>d y\r dreams ab\t ! dead4 ,!y always mean some?+4 ,!y d n always mean :at ! dream w\ld seem to signify2 = ! door betwe5 ! two worlds is v n>r[1 & ?\ghts are (t5 %ak5 out ( place 9 pass+ ?r\gh4 ,b dreams ab\t ! dead mean some?+4 ,we c rea* y 9 t way4 ,i came to y 9 a dream ! o!r night1 /&+ beh9d & outside ! gate ( a wall$ g>d5 9 :i* y 7 enclos$4 ,i smil$ & beckon$ y to come out to me2 b ,i did n wi% y to come out to /ay4 ,i only meant t y %\ld come out 9 _s2 = if y come out occasionally x is easi] = me to g into y\r _w4 ,good night4 ,,lett] ,,xx ,,! ,,man ,,:o ,,f\nd ,,god ,,!re seems to be no way 9 :i* ,i c bett] tea* y ab\t ?is life1 s /range to y1 ?an by tell+ my exp]i5ces & conv]sations ) m5 & wom5 "h4 ,i said "o night n long ago t ,i _h met m sa9ts ?an philosoph]s1 & ,i want to tell y n[ ab\t a man :o seems to be a g5u9e sa9t4 ,yes1 !re are little sa9ts & great sa9ts1 z !re are little & great s9n]s4 ,"o day ,i 0 walk+ on a m\nta9 top4 ,i say 8walk+10 = x seem$ ab\t ! same1 ?\gh x takes b little en]gy to walk "h4 ,on ! m\nta9 top ,i saw a man /&+ alone4 ,he 0 look+ out & f> away1 b ,i c\ld n see :at he 0 look+ at4 ,he 0 ab/ract$ & commun+ ) himself1 or ) "s pres5ce ( :i* ,i 0 unaw>e4 ,i wait$ = "s "t4 ,at la/1 draw+ a long brea?--= we brea! "h--he turn$ 8 eyes to me & said1 ) a k9d smile3 8,c ,i d any?+ = y1 bro!r80 ,i 0 emb>rass$ = a mom5t1 feel+ t ,i might h intrud$ ^u "s sweet communion4 8,if ,i am n too bold 9 ask+10 ,i said1 8w\ld y tell me :at y 7 ?9k+ z y /ood !re look+ into space80 ,i 0 consci\s ( my presumption2 b be+ s det]m9$ to le>n :at c be kn[n1 if sometimes ,i am too bold 9 mak+ inquiries1 ,i feel t my v e>ne/ness may w9 = me ! =giv5ess ( ^? ,i "q4 ,?is man _h a beautiful be>dless face & "y-look+ eyes2 b 8 g>m5ts 7 ! ord9>y g>m5ts ( "o :o ?9ks little or no?+ ( 8 appe>ance4 ,t v unconsci\sness ( ! out] =m may sometimes give x a peculi> maje/y4 ,he look$ at me 9 sil5ce = a mom5t2 !n he said3 8,i 0 try+ to draw ne> to ,god40 8,& :at is ,god80 ,i ask$2 8& :]e is ,god80 ,he smil$4 ,i nev] saw a smile l 81 z he answ]$3 8,god is ev]y:]e4 ,god is40 8,:at is ,he80 ,i p]si/$2 & aga9 he repeat$1 b ) a diff]5t emphasis3 8,god is40 8,:at d y mean80 ,i ask$4 8,god is1 ,god is10 he said4 ,i d n "k h[ 8 mean+ 0 convey$ to me1 p]haps by sympa?y2 b x sudd5ly fla%$ into my m9d t :5 he said1 8,god is10 he express$ ! complete/ realisation ( ,god :i* is possible to ! _s2 & :5 he said1 8,god is10 he meant me to und]/& t !re 0 no be+1 no?+ t is1 except ,god4 ,!re mu/ h be5 9 my face a reflection ( :at ,i felt1 = ! sa9t !n said to me3 8,d y n also "k t ,he is1 & t all t is1 is ,he80 8,i am beg9n+ to feel :at y mean10 ,i answ]$1 8?\gh ,i d\btless feel b a little ( x40 ,he smil$1 & made no reply2 b my m9d 0 full ( que/ions4 8,:5 y 7 on e>?10 ,i said1 8did y ?9k mu* ab\t ,god80 8,always4 ,i ?\ght ( little else4 ,i s\ght ,him ev]y:]e1 b seem$ only at times to get fla%es ( consci\sness z to :at ,he really 04 ,sometimes :5 pray+1 = ,i pray$ mu*1 !re w\ld come to me sudd5ly ! "q1 #8,to :at are y pray+8' ,& ,i w\ld answ] al\d1 #8,to ,god1 to ,god6' ,b ?\gh ,i pray$ to ,him e day = ye>s1 only occasionally did ,i get a fla% ( t true consci\sness ( ,god4 ,f9ally1 "o day :5 ,i 0 alone 9 ! woods1 !re came ! great revelation4 ,x came n 9 any =m ( words1 b r 9 a wordless & =mless wond]1 too va/ = ! limitation ( ?\ght4 ,i fell ^u ! gr\nd & mu/ h lo/ consci\sness1 = aft] a :ile--h[ long a "t ,i d n "k--,i awoke1 & got up & look$ ab\t me4 ,!n gradually ,i rememb]$ ! exp]i5ce :i* _h be5 too big = me :ile ,i 0 feel+ x4 8,i c\ld put into ! =m ( words ! realisation :i* _h be5 too mu* = my mortality to be>1 & ! words ,i us$ to myself 71 #8,all t is1 is ,god4' ,x seem$ v simple1 yet x 0 f> f simple4 #8,all t is1 is ,god4' ,t mu/ include me & all my fell[ be+s1 human & animal2 ev5 ! trees & ! birds & ! riv]s mu/ be a "p ( ,god1 if ,god 7 all t is4 8,f t mom5t life assum$ a new mean+ = me4 ,i c\ld n see a human face )\t rememb]+ ! revelation--t t human be+ ,i saw 0 a "p ( ,god4 ,:5 my dog look$ at me1 ,i said to him al\d1 #8,y are a "p ( ,god4' ,:5 ,i /ood beside a riv] & li/5$ to ! s\nd ( its wat]s1 ,i said to myself1 #8,i am li/5+ to ! voice ( ,god4' ,:5 a fell[ be+ 0 angry ) me1 ,i ask$ myself1 #8,9 :at way h ,i (f5d$ ,god8' ,:5 "o spoke lov+ly to me1 ,i said1 #8,god is lov+ me n[1' & ! realisation ne>ly took my brea? away4 ,life became unbelievably beautiful4 8,!re=e ,i _h be5 s absorb$ 9 ,god1 9 try+ to f9d ,god1 t ,i _h n giv5 mu* ?\ght to my fell[ be+s1 & _h ev5 neglect$ ^? ne>e/ me2 b f t day ,i began to m+le ) my human bre?r54 ,i f\nd t z m & m ,i s\ght ,god 9 !m1 m & m ,god respond$ to me ?r\gh !m4 ,& life became /ill m wond]ful4 8,sometimes ,i tri$ to tell o!rs :at ,i felt1 b !y did n always und]/& me4 ,x 0 ?us ,i began to realise t ,god _h purposely1 = "s reason ( ,8 own1 cov]$ ,himself ) veils4 ,0 x t ,he might h ! pleasure ( te>+ !m away8 ,if s1 ,i w\ld help ,him all ,i c\ld4 ,s ,i tri$ to make o!r m5 grasp ! k ( ,god :i* ,i myself _h atta9$4 ,= ye>s ,i taught m54 ,at fir/ ,i want$ to tea* ev]ybody2 b ,i soon came to see t t 0 impossible1 & s ,i select$ a few :o call$ !mselves my disciples4 ,!y did n always tell ! _w t !y 7 my disciples1 because ,i ask$ !m n to d s4 ,b ,i urg$ ea* ( !m to give to someone z mu* z possible ( ! k t ,i _h giv5 to him4 ,& s ,i ?9k t _m h come to feel a little ( ! wond] :i* 0 reveal$ to me t day alone 9 ! woods1 :5 ,i awoke to ! k t ,god is1 ,god is40 ,!n ! sa9t turn$ & left me1 ) all my que/ions unansw]$4 ,i want$ to ask him :5 & h[ he _h left ! e>?1 & :at "w he 0 do+ out "h--b he 0 gone6 ,p]haps ,i %all see him aga9 "s day4 ,b :e!r ,i d or n1 he has giv5 me some?+ :i* ,i 9 turn give to y1 z he himself desir$ to give x to ! _w4 ,t is all = to-night4 ,,lett] ,,xxi ,,! ,,leisure ,,( ,,! ,,s\l ,,"o ( ! joys ( be+ "h is ! leisure = dream+ & = gett+ acqua9t$ ) oneself4 ,( c\rse !re is pl5ty to d2 b ?\gh ,i int5d to g back to ! _w 9 a few ye>s1 ,i feel t !re is "t to get acqua9t$ ) myself4 ,i tri$ to d t on e>?1 m or less2 b "h !re are few] dem&s on me4 ,! m]e lab\r ( dress+ & undress+ is light]1 & ,i d n h to e>n my liv+ n[1 nor anybody else's4 ,y1 too1 c\ld take "t to loaf1 if y ?\ght y c\ld4 ,y c d practically any?+ y ?9k y c d4 ,i purpose1 = in/ance1 9 a few ye>s n only to pick up a g5]al k ( ! conditions ( ?is f\r-dim5sional _w1 b to g back ov] my o!r lives & assimilate :at ,i le>n$ 9 !m4 ,i want to make a syn!sis ( ! complete exp]i5ces ( my ego up to ?is date1 & to judge f t syn!sis :at ,i c d 9 ! future ) lea/ resi/ance4 ,i believe1 b am n q sure1 t ,i c br+ back mu* ( ?is k ) me :5 ,i am born aga94 ,i %all try to tell y--or "s ( y--:5 & ab\t :]e to look = me aga94 ,oh1 don't be />tl$6 ,x w n be = "s "t yet4 ,an e>ly date w\ld necessitate hurry1 & ,i d n wi% to hurry4 ,i c\ld probably =ce ! com+ back1 b t w\ld be unwise1 = ,i %\ld !n come back ) less p[] ?an ,i want4 ,action & reaction be+ opposite & equal1 & ! unit1 or ego1 be+ able to g5]ate only s mu* en]gy 9 a giv5 "t1 x is bett] = me to re/ 9 ?is condition ( light matt] until ,i h accumulat$ en]gy en\gh to come back ) p[]4 ,i %all n d1 h[ev]1 z _m s\ls d2 !y /ay out "h until !y are z tir$ ( ?is _w z !y =m]ly 7 tir$ ( ! e>?1 & !n are driv5 back half unconsci\sly by ! irresi/ible =ce ( ! tide ( rhy?m4 ,i want to guide t rhy?m4 ,s9ce ,i h be5 "h "o man :om ,i "k has gone back to ! e>?4 ,he 0 ab\t ready to g :5 ,i fir/ f\nd him4 ,! /range "p ( x 0 t he himself did n und]/& 8 condition4 ,he compla9$ ( be+ tir$ ( ?+s & ( want+ to re/ mu*4 ,t 0 probably a natural in/9ct = re/1 9 prep>ation = ! supreme ef=t ( op5+ ! doors ( matt] aga94 ,x is easy to come out "h1 b x requires "s ef=t to g f ?is _w into y\rs4 ,i "k :]e t s\l is n[1 = ! ,tea*] told me4 ,i _h spok5 to ! ,tea*] ab\t him1 b he already knew ( 8 exi/5ce4 ,x 0 r /range1 = ! man 0 "o 9 :om ,i %\ld h fanci$ t ! ,tea*] w\ld h tak5 little int]e/4 ,b "o nev] kn[s4 ,p]haps 9 8 next life he may really beg9 to /udy ! philosophy :i* !y tea*4 ,b ,i 0 speak+ ( ! l>g] leisure out "h4 ,i wi% y c\ld arrange y\r life s z to h a little m leisure4 ,i d n want y to be lazy1 b ! passive conditions ( ! m9d are q z valuable z ! active conditions4 ,x is :5 y are passive t we c rea* y4 ,:5 y\r m9d & body are always occupi$1 x is difficult to impress y ) any message ( ! s\l4 ,f9d a little m "t ea* day = do+ no?+ at all4 ,x is good to d no?+ sometimes2 !n ! semi-consci\s p>ts ( y\r m9d c "w4 ,!y c rem9d y t !re is an inn] life2 = ! inn] life t is 8capable0 to y on e>? is really ! po9t ( contact ) ! _w 9 :i* we live4 ,i h said t ! two worlds t\*1 & !y t\* ?r\gh ! inn]4 ,y g 9 to come out4 ,x is a p>adox1 & p>adoxes conceal great tru?s4 ,contradictions are n tru?s1 b a p>adox is n a contradiction4 ,!re is a great diff]5ce 9 ! l5g? ( "t t p /ay out "h4 ,y talk ( be+ homesick4 ,!re are s\ls "h :o are homesick = ! e>?4 ,!y sometimes g back almo/ at once1 :i* is g5]ally a mi/ake4 ,unless "o is "y & /ill has a /ore ( unus$ en]gy sav$ ov] f ! la/ life1 9 go+ back to ! e>? too soon "o lacks ! =ce ( a /rong reb\nd4 ,x is /range to see a man "h z homesick = ! e>? z c]ta9 poets & dream]s on e>? are homesick = ! inn] life4 ,?is use ( ! t]ms 8out]0 & 8inn]0 may seem confus+2 b y mu/ rememb] t :ile y g 9 to come to u1 we g out to come to y4 ,9 our normal /ate "h we are liv+ almo/ a subjective life4 ,we become m & m objective z we t\* y\r _w4 ,y become m & m subjective z y t\* our _w4 ,if y only knew x1 y c\ld come to u at almo/ any "t = a brief visit--,i mean1 by go+ deep en\gh into y\rself4 ,if y want to try ! exp]im5t & w n be afraid1 ,i c take y out "h )\t y\r q los+ consci\sness 9 y\r body--,i mean )\t y\r be+ 9 deep sleep4 ,y c call me :5 y want to make a trial4 ,if ,i d n come at once1 d n be disc\rag$4 ,( c\rse at ! mom5t ,i might be do+ some?+ else2 b 9 t case ,i w come at ano!r "t4 ,!re is no hurry4 ,t is :at ,i want to impress ^u y4 ,:at y d n d ?is ye> y c p]haps d next ye>2 b if y are always ru%+ aft] ?+s1 y c accompli% little 9 ?is p>ticul> "w4 ,et]nity is long en\gh = ! full developm5t ( ! ego ( man4 ,et]nity seems to h be5 design$ = t end4 ,t 0 a s\nd /atem5t :i* 0 giv5 at "o "t3 8,! object ( life is life40 ,i h realis$ t m fully s9ce ,i _h an opportunity to /udy et]nity f a new angle4 ,?is is a v good angle f :i* to view bo? "t & et]nity4 ,i see n[ :at ,i did n see be=e1 t ,i myself h nev] wa/$ any "t4 ,ev5 my failures 7 a valuable "p ( my exp]i5ce4 ,we lose to ga9 aga94 ,we g 9 & out ( p[] sometimes z we g 9 & out ( life1 to le>n :at is !re & outside4 ,9 ?is1 z 9 all ?+s1 ! object ( life is life4 ,d n hurry4 ,a man may gr[ gradually into p[] & k1 or he may take !m by =ce4 ,w is free4 ,b ! gradual gr[? has a less p[]ful reaction4 ,,lett] ,,xxii ,,! ,,s]p5t ,,( ,,et]nity ,i ,,want to talk to y to-night ab\t et]nity4 ,until ,i came out1 ,i nev] _h a grasp on t problem4 ,i ?\ght only 9 t]ms ( mon?s & ye>s & c5turies2 n[ ,i see ! full sweep ( ! circle4 ,! com+s out & ! go+s into matt] are no m ?an ! sy/ole & ! dia/ole ( ! ego-he>t2 &1 speak+ f ! /&po9t ( et]nity1 !y are relatively z brief4 ,to y a lifetime is a long "t4 ,x us$ to seem s to me1 b x does n seem s n[4 ,p are always say+1 8,if ,i _h my life to live ov]1 ,i w\ld d s & s40 ,n[1 no man has any p>ticul> life to live ov]1 any m ?an ! he>t c g back & beat ov] aga9 ! beat ( ! second previ\s2 b e man has 8 next life to prep>e =4 ,suppose y h made a bot* ( y\r exi/5ce4 ,mo/ m5 h1 view$ f ! /&po9t ( _! highe/ ideal2 b e man :o c ?9k mu/ h assimilat$ "s exp]i5ce :i* he c c>ry ov] ) him4 ,he may n1 on com+ out into ! sunlight ( ano!r life on e>?1 be able to rememb] ! details ( 8 =m] exp]i5ce1 ?\gh "s m5 c recall !m by a suffici5t tra9+ & a fix$ w2 b ! t5d5cies ( any giv5 life1 ! unexpla9$ impulses & desires1 are 9 ne>ly all cases br\ght ov]4 ,y %\ld get away f ! m5tal habit ( reg>d+ y\r pres5t life z ! only "o1 get rid ( ! idea t ! life y expect to lead on ?is side1 aft] y\r dea?1 is to be an endless exi/5ce 9 "o /ate4 ,y c\ld no m endure su* an endless exi/5ce 9 ! subtle matt] ( ! inn] _w ?an y c\ld endure to live =ev] 9 ! gross matt] 9 :i* y are n[ encas$4 ,y w\ld we>y ( x4 ,y c\ld n support x4 ,d get ?is idea ( rhy?m into y\r bra94 ,all be+s are subject to ! law ( rhy?m1 ev5 ! gods1--?\gh 9 a great] way ?an ourselves1 ) long] p]iods ( flux & reflux4 ,i did n want to leave ! e>?1 ,i f\ght aga9/ x until ! la/2 b n[ ,i see t my com+ out 0 inevitable because ( ! conditions4 ,_h ,i begun e>li] ,i might h provision$ my craft = a long] cruise2 b :5 ! coal & wat] _h run out ,i _h to make port4 ,x is possible to provision ev5 a small life-craft = a long] voyage ?an ! allott$ ?reescore ye>s & t52 b "o mu/ economise ! coal & n wa/e ! wat]4 ,!re are "s :o w und]/& t wat] is ! fluid ( life4 ,_m p]sons res5t ! idea t ! life aft] dea? is n et]nal1 a nev]-end+ progression 9 spiritual realms2 ?\gh few :o s object h mu* ( an idea :at !y mean :5 !y talk ( spiritual realms4 ,life ev]la/+ is possible to all s\ls--yes2 b x is n possible to g on =ev] 9 "o direction4 ,evolution is a curve4 ,et]nity is a circle1 a s]p5t t swall[s its own tail4 ,until y are will+ to g 9 & out ( d5se matt]1 y w nev] le>n to transc5d matt]4 ,!re are ^? :o c /ay 9 or out at w1 &1 relatively speak+1 z long z !y *oose2 b !y are nev] ^? :o %r9k f ei!r =m ( life4 ,i us$ to %r9k f :at ,i call$ dea?4 ,!re are ^? on ?is side :o %r9k f :at !y call dea?4 ,d y "k :at !y call dea?8 ,x is rebir? into ! _w4 ,yes1 ev5 s4 ,!re are _m "h :o are z ignorant ( rhy?m z mo/ p are on y\r side4 ,i h met m5 & wom5 :o did n ev5 "k t !y w\ld g back to ! e>? aga91 :o talk$ ( ! 8great *ange0 z ! m5 ( e>? talk ( dy+1 & ( all t lay beyond z 8unprov$ & unprovable40 ,x w\ld be tragic if x 7 n s absurd4 ,:5 ,i knew t ,i _h to die ,i det]m9$ to c>ry ) me memory1 philosophy1 & reason4 ,n[ ,i want to say some?+ :i* w p]haps surprise y4 ,!re is a man :o wrote a book call$ ,! ,law ( ,psy*ic ,ph5om5a & 9 t book he said c]ta9 ?+s ( ^? two p>ts ( ! m9d :i* he call$ ! subjective & ! objective4 ,he said t ! subjective m9d 0 incapable ( inductive reason+1 t ! subjective m9d w\ld accept any premise giv5 x by ! objective m9d1 & w\ld reason f t premise ) mat*less logic2 b t x c\ld n g beh9d ! premise1 t x c\ld n reason backw>ds4 ,n[1 rememb] t 9 ?is =m ( matt] :]e ,i am m5 are liv+ pr9cipally a subjective life1 z m5 on e>? live pr9cipally an objective life4 ,^! p "h1 be+ 9 ! subjective1 reason f ! premises already giv5 !m dur+ _! objective or e>? exi/5ce4 ,t is :y mo/ ( ^? :o la/ liv$ 9 ! s-call$ ,we/]n l&s1 :]e ! idea ( rhy?m or rebir? is unpopul>1 came out "h ) ! fix$ idea t !y w\ld n g back into e>? life4 ,h5ce mo/ ( !m /ill reason f t premise4 ,d y n und]/& t :at y believe y are go+ to be out "h is l>gely det]m9ative ( :at y w be4 ,^? :o d n believe 9 rebir? _c =ev] escape ! rhy?m ( rebir?2 b !y hold to _! belief until ! tide ( rhy?m sweeps !m along ) x & =ces !m into gross matt] aga91 into :i* !y g q unprep>$1 c>ry+ ) !m almo/ no memory ( _! life out "h4 ,!y c>ri$ out "h ! memory ( ! e>? life because !y expect$ s to c>ry x4 ,_m ,ori5tals :o h always believ$ 9 rebir? rememb] _! =m] lives1 because !y expect$ to rememb] !m4 ,yes1 :5 ,i realis$ t ,i _h to leave ! e>? ,i laid a spell ^u myself4 ,i det]m9$ to rememb] ?r\gh bo? ! go+ out & ! subsequ5t com+ 94 ,( c\rse ,i _c swe> n[ to rememb] ev]y?+ :5 ,i come into heavy matt] aga92 b ,i am det]m9$ to d s if possible2 & ,i %all succe$ to "s ext5t if ,i d n get ! wrong "m4 ,i int5d to take great c>e on t po9t1 & to *oose a "m :o is famili> ) ! idea ( rebir?4 ,if possible1 ,i want to *oose a "m :o actually knew me 9 my la/ life z ----1 & :o1 if ,i %all ann\nce 9 *ildhood t ,i am t same ---- :om %e knew :5 a "y girl1 w n *ide me & drive me back into myself ) h] d\bts4 ,i believe t _m *ildr5 c>ry ov] into e>? life memories ( _! lives out "h1 b t ^? memories are aft]w>ds lo/ by reason ( ! sugge/ion con/antly giv5 to *ildr5 t !y are newly creat$1 8fre% f ! h& ( ,god10 etc41 etc4 ,et]nity is inde$ long1 & !re are m ?+s on e>? & heav5 ?an are dream$ ( 9 ! philosophy ( ! av]age tea*] ( *ildr54 ,if y c\ld only get hold ( ! idea ( immortal life & cl+ to x6 ,if y c\ld realise y\rself z be+ )\t beg9n+ & )\t end1 !n y might comm5ce to d ?+s wor? :ile4 ,x is a wond]ful consci\sness t consci\sness ( et]nity4 ,small tr\bles seem inde$ small to him :o ?9ks ( himself 9 ! t]ms ( a million ye>s4 ,y may make ! figure a billion1 or :atev] y l1 b ! idea is ! same4 ,no man c grasp ! idea ( a million ye>s1 or a million doll>s1 or a million ( any?+2 ! figure is m]ely a symbol = a great quantity1 :e!r x be ye>s or gold pieces4 ,! idea _c be fix$2 !re w always be some?+ t escapes4 ,no millionaire kn[s exactly :at he is wor? at any giv5 "t2 = !re is always int]e/ to be c\nt$1 & ! value is a %ift+ "o4 ,x is s ) immortality4 ,d n ?9k ( y\rself z hav+ liv$ a million ye>s1 or a trillion ye>s1 b z truly immortal1 )\t beg9n+ or end4 ,! man :o kn[s himself to be ri* is ri*] ?an ! man :o says t he has a c]ta9 am\nt ( money1 be ! am\nt l>ge or small4 ,s re/ 9 ! consci\sness ( et]nity & "w 9 ! consci\sness ( et]nity4 ,t is all = to-night4 ,,lett] ,,xxiii ,a ,,brief ,,= ,,! ,,def5dant ,,tell ! fri5d :o is s anxi\s le/ ,i d y h>m by writ+ ) y\r h& t t matt] 0 ?or\ghly ?re%$ out on ?is side betwe5 ! ,tea*] & me be=e x began to take =m on y\r side4 ,ord9>y m$ium%ip1 :]e ! organism ( a m or less unheal?y p]son on e>? is op5$ indiscrim9ately = ! entrance & obsession ( any pass+ _s1 good or evil1 is a v diff]5t proposition f ?is4 ,"h ,i1 :o 0 y\r fri5d 9 ! _w1 hav+ pass$ beyond1 rea* back to in/ruct y f my great] k on ?is side4 ,i am n mak+ any op5+ 9 y\r n]v\s sy/em ?r\gh :i* irresponsible & evil =ces c ent] & take possession ( y4 ,9 fact1 if any _s1 good or bad1 %\ld make su* an attempt1 he w\ld h to reckon ) me1 & ,i am n p[]less4 ,i "k n[1 h bo? rememb]$ & be5 taught1 secrets by :i* ,i c protect y f :at is g5]ally kn[n z m$ium%ip4 ,fur!rmore1 ,i advise y nev]1 ev5 at ! urg5t pray] ( ^? ^: lov$ ones h gone out--nev] to l5d y\rself to !m4 ,! w&]]s 9 ! s-call$ invisible _w h no "r to come & dem& entrance ?r\gh y\r organism1 m]ely because x is s con/itut$ t !y c\ld ent]1 any m ?an a /reet cr[d w\ld h ! "r to =ce its way into y\r home1 m]ely because its memb]s 7 curi\s1 hungry1 or cold4 ,d n all[ x4 ,p]mission 0 once giv51 yes2 b ! case 0 exceptional & 0 n bas$ on ! p]sonal desire or curiosity ( anybody--n ev5 y\rself4 ,i d\bt if p]mission w ev] be grant$ aga94 ,_m ?+s h *ang$ s9ce ,i began to write ) y4 ,at fir/ ,i us$ y\r h& & arm f ! outside--sometimes1 z y rememb]1 ) su* =ce z to make !m lame ! next day4 ,!n1 gr[n m famili> ) ! means at my disposal1 ,i tri$ ano!r me?od1 & y notic$ a *ange 9 ! "* ( ! writ+4 ,x began clumsily1 ) l>ge & badly =m$ *>act]s1 gradually becom+ cle>] z my control ( ! in/rum5t ,i 0 us+ 0 bett] e/abli%$4 ,n[1 = ! la/ few times ,i h us$ /ill ano!r & a ?ird me?od4 ,i ent] y\r m9d1 putt+ myself 9 absolute telepa?ic rapport ) y\r m9d1 impress+ ^u y\r m9d itself ! ?+s ,i wi% to say4 ,9 ord] to write 9 ?is way1 y h to make y\rself utt]ly passive1 /ill+ all individual ?\ght & yield+ y\rself to my ?\ght2 b t is no m ?an y d e day 9 read+ a fasc9at+ book4 ,y give y\r m9d to ! au?or :o leads y along1 rapt & passive1 by means ( ! pr9t$ page4 ,^! exp]im5ts 9 p]fect+ a way ( communication h be5 v int]e/+ to me4 ,tell y\r fri5d t ,i am n a *ild1 nor a reckless exp]im5tali/4 ,n only 9 my la/ life on e>? b 9 _m =m] lives ,i h be5 a /ud5t ( ! high] sci5ce1 giv+ myself absolutely to tru? & to ! que/ ( tru?4 ,i h nev] wantonly us$ any human be+ to 8 or h] detrim5t1 & ,i c]ta9ly %all n beg9 ) y1 my true fri5d & /ud5t4 ,nor %all ,i int]f]e 9 any way ) y\r life1 or ) y\r /udies & "w4 ,! idea is nons5sical4 ,:ile ,i walk$ ! _w on two feet ,i 0 nev] consid]$ a dang]\s man4 ,i h n *ang$ my "* m]ely by *ang+ my clo!s & putt+ on a light] suit4 ,i h c]ta9 ?+s to say to ! _w4 ,at pres5t y are ! only p]son :o c act z amanu5sis = me4 ,?is is nei!r my fault nor y\rs4 ,! "q be=e u is n :e!r ,i want ! lett]s writt51 or ev5 :e!r y want to write !m1 b :e!r !y w be b5eficial to ! _w4 ,i ?9k !y w4 ,y ?9k !y may be4 ,b---- ?9ks t !y are n only imm5sely valuable1 b unique4 ,s-&-s & ,s-&-s h d\bts & fe>s4 ,i _c help t1 nor c y4 ,bless _! he>ts6 ,:y %\ld !y be s anxi\s to bolt ! doors beh9d me8 ,i %all c]ta9ly n try to run _! affairs = !m f ?is side4 ,!y are equal to _! job1 or !y w\ld n be able to hold x4 ,b ?is is q a diff]5t job :i* ,i h giv5 myself1 & y h k9dly cons5t$ to help me4 ,y may n get mu* rew>d = y\r lab\r1 save ! %ake ( ! wiseacres' heads & _! sup]ior smiles1 & ! sugge/ion ( ! m sci5tifically incl9$ t ,i am y\r own 8subconsci\s m9d40 ,i %all n be (f5d$ by t hypo!sis1 nor ne$ y4 ,( c\rse y are n worri$1 = if y 7 ,i c\ld n write4 ,y\r m9d has to be placid z a lake on a w9dless night 9 ord] = me to write at all4 ,give my love to !m4 ,,lett] ,,xxiv ,,=bidd5 ,,k ,i ,,h be5 do+ _m ?+s ( late4 ,y c\ld nev] imag9e :]e ,i w5t ! o!r day--to ! great fun]al ( ! ,emp]or ( ,japan4 ,y c\ld n g f ,p>is to ,japan & return 9 s %ort a "t1 c\ld y8 ,b ,i did4 ,an h\r be=e />t+ ,i did n ev5 "k t ! ,emp]or ( ,japan 0 dead4 ,! ,tea*] s\ght me out & invit$ me to g ) him4 ,he said t some?+ w\ld occur !re :i* ,i ought to see4 ,8 prophecy 0 v]ifi$4 ,i saw a s\l1 a great s\l1 g out z a suicide4 ,x 0 sad & t]rible4 ,b z ,i write ?is ! ,tea*] comes & /&s beside me2 he advises me to say no m on t subject4 ,"o sees horrible ?+s out "h1 z well z beautiful ?+s4 ,i c only say ) reg>d to suicide1 t if m5 knew :at awaits ^? :o g out by _! own h&1 !y w\ld rema9 ) ! evil t !y "k4 ,i am sorry ,i _c tell y m ab\t ?is1 = x w\ld int]e/ y4 ,! te/imony ( an eye-witness is always m conv9c+ ?an ! m]e repetition ( !ories4 ,! appe>ance ( ! ,tea*] ) 8 advice has put out ( my m9d = ! mom5t ! desire to write4 ,b ,i w come aga94 ,lat]4 ,i h be5 able to d :at y s mu* desir$--to f9d ! boy :o came out accid5tally by dr[n+4 ,z y look$ at 8 photograph1 ,i saw x ?r\gh y\r eyes1 & c>ri$ away ! memory ( ! face4 ,i f\nd him w&]+ ab\t1 q bewild]$4 ,:5 ,i spoke to him ( y & said t y _h ask$ me to help him1 he seem$ surpris$4 ,i 0 able to give him a little aid1 ?\gh he has a fri5d "h--an old man :o is ne>] to him ?an ,i c\ld ev] be4 ,he w gradually adju/ himself to ! new conditions4 ,y _h bett] n try to speak ) him4 ,he is on a diff]5t pa?1 & is be+ look$ aft]1 = he has fri5ds4 ,! little help ,i 0 able to give 0 9 ! nature ( in=mation4 ,he ne$$ div]sion f a too-press+ ?\ght1 & ,i sugge/$ "o or two ways ( pass+ "t :i* are bo? agreeable & in/ructive4 ,y wond] at ! expression 8pass+ "t08 ,b "t exi/s out "h4 ,:]ev] !re is sequ5ce1 !re is "t4 ,!re may come a 8"t0 :5 all ?+s w exi/ simultane\sly1 pa/1 pres5t &--%all we say future8 ,b s long z pa/1 pres5t & future are m or less di/9ct1 s long "t is4 ,x is no?+ b ! pr9ciple ( sequ5ce4 ,did y fancy x 0 any?+ else8 ,int]iorly1 t is1 deep )9 ! self1 "o may f9d a sil5t place :]e all ?+s seem to exi/ 9 unison2 b z soon z ! s\l ev5 !re attempts to exam9e ?+s sep>ately1 !n sequ5ce beg9s4 ,! union ) ! ,all is ano!r matt]4 ,t is1 or seems to be1 timeless2 b z soon z "o attempts to unite ) or to be consci\s ( ?+s1 "t is manife/4 ,,lett] ,,xxv ,a ,,%ad[less ,,_w ,i ,,_h be5 "h "s "t be=e ,i notic$ "o ( ! mo/ m>k$ peculi>ities ( ?is _w4 ,"o night z ,i 0 pass+ sl[ly along1 ,i saw a gr\p ( p]sons approa*+ me4 ,x 0 v light :]e !y 71 because !re 7 s _m ( !m4 ,sudd5ly1 z ,i saw ?is light1 a ?\ght came to my m9d1 a say+ f "o ( ! ,h]metic books3 8,:]e ! light is /ronge/1 !re are ! %ad[s deepe/40 ,b on look+ at ^! m5 & wom51 ,i saw t !y ca/ no %ad[s4 ,i hail$ ! ne>e/ man--y mu/ rememb] t ?is 0 soon aft] ,i came out1 & :5 ,i 0 /ill m ignorant ?an ,i am n[--& ,i call$ 8 att5tion to ?is peculi> ph5om5on ( a %ad[less yet brilliantly light$ _w4 ,he smil$ at my surprise1 & said3 8,y h n be5 "h long1 h y80 8,no40 8,!n y are n aw>e t we light our own place8 ,! sub/ance ( :i* our bodies are compos$ is radiant4 ,h[ c\ld our =ms ca/ %ad[s1 :5 light radiates f !m 9 all directions80 8,& 9 ! sunlight80 ,i ask$4 8,oh10 he answ]$1 8y "k t 9 ! sunlight we _c be se5 at all6 ,! light ( ! sun is co>se & crude1 & x puts out ! light ( ! spirits40 ,does x seem /range to y t at ?is mom5t ,i c feel ! w>m? ( t wood fire by :i* y sit8 ,!re is a magic 9 burn+ wood4 ,! combu/ion ( coal has q a diff]5t effect ^u ! psy*ic atmosph]e4 ,if "o :o _h always be5 bl9d to visions & ins5sible to ! f9] feel+s & premonitions ( ! invisible _w w\ld try m$itat+ be=e a blaz+ wood fire = an h\r or two e day or night1 8 eyes & o!r subtl] s5ses might be op5$ to ?+s ( :i* he _h !ret(ore nev] ev5 dream$4 ,^? ,ori5tals :o wor%ip _! ,god ) fire are wise & full ( visions4 ,! light ( burn+ wax has also a magical effect1 ?\gh diff]5t f t ( a wood fire4 ,sit sometimes 9 ! ev5+ ) no light b t ( a solit>y c&le1 & see :at visions w come f ! 8,void40 ,i h n told y any?+ = a long "t ab\t ! boy ,lionel4 ,he is n[ mu* int]e/$ 9 ! idea ( *oos+ a family ( eng9e]s 9 :i* to be born aga94 ,! ?\ght is "o to :i* he is always return+4 8,:y are y 9 su* a hurry to leave me80 ,i ask$ him1 ! fir/ "t he m5tion$ ! subject4 8,b ,i d n feel z if ,i %\ld be leav+ y altoge!r10 he repli$4 8,i c\ld come out to y 9 dreams40 8,n at fir/10 ,i told him4 8,y w\ld be prison$ & bl9d & deaf = a long "t1 & y might n be able to come out to me "h until aft] ,i _h also gone back aga9 to ! e>?40 8,!n :y n come along ) me80 he ask$4 8,say1 ,fa!r1 :y %\ldn't we be born z tw9s80 ,! idea 0 s absurd t ,i laugh$ he>tily2 b ,lionel c\ld n see :]e ! joke came 94 8,!re are su* ?+s z tw9s10 he said1 s]i\sly4 8,i knew a pair ( tw9 bro!rs :5 ,i liv$ 9 ,bo/on40 ,b1 :5 ,i return to e>?1 x is no "p ( my plan to be anybody's tw92 s ,i tell ,lionel t if he wants to enjoy my society = a "t he w h to /ay quietly :]e he is4 8,b :y c't we g back toge!r80 he /ill asks1 8& be c\s9s or neighb\rs1 at lea/80 8,p]haps we c10 ,i tell him1 8if y d n spoil ev]y?+ by an unseemly ha/e40 ,x is /range ab\t ?is boy4 ,out 9 ?is _w !re is b\ndless opportunity to "w 9 subtle matt]1 opportunity to inv5t & exp]im5t2 yet he wants to get 8 h&s on iron & /eel4 ,/range6 ,"s night ,i w try to br+ ! boy to pay y a visit1 s t y c see him--,i mean j be=e y fall asleep4 ,^? are ! true visions4 ,! ones :i* come 9 sleep are apt to be confus$ by ! j>r+ ( ! matt] ?r\gh :i* y pass 9 wak+4 ,d n =get ! boy4 ,i h already told him h[ ,i come & write ) y\r h&1 & he is mu* int]e/$4 8,:y c\ldn't ,i op]ate a telegraph 9 t way80 he ask$ me2 b ,i advis$ him n to try x4 ,he might int]rupt "s t]re/rial message :i* _h be5 s5t & paid =4 ,occasionally ,i take him ) me up to ! patt]n _w4 ,he has a little model ( 8 own !re ) :i* he amuses himself :ile ,i am exam9+ o!r ?+s4 ,x is ! model ( a :eel1 & he sets x go+ by ! electricity ( 8 f+]s4 ,no1 x is n made ( /eel--n z y "k /eel4 ,:y1 :at y call /eel is too heavy6 ,x w\ld fall ?r\gh ?is _w s fa/ t x w\ld n ev5 leave a r5t beh9d x4 ,y mu/ und]/& t ! two worlds are compos$ ( matt] n only mov+ at a diff]5t rate ( vibration1 b *>g$ ) a diff]5t magnetism4 ,x is said t two solid objects _c occupy ! same space at ! same "t2 b t law does n apply to two objects--"o ( !m belong+ to y\r _w & ! o!r to ours4 ,z wat] c be hot & wet at ! same "t1 s a squ>e foot ( space c conta9 a squ>e foot ( e>?ly matt] & a squ>e foot ( e!ric matt]4 ,no1 d n quibble ab\t t]ms4 ,y h no t]ms = ! k9d ( matt] t we use "h1 because y d n "k any?+ ab\t x4 ,lionel & 8 electric :eel w\ld bo? be invisible to y if !y 7 set d[n on ! he>?rug be=e y at ?is mom5t4 ,ev5 ! magic ( t wood fire w\ld n make !m visible--at lea/1 n 9 ! daylight4 ,"s ev5+--b we w speak ( t at ano!r "t4 ,i mu/ g n[4 ,,lett] ,,xxvi ,,circles ,,9 ,,! ,,s& ,i ,,am j beg9n+ to enjoy ! romance ( life out "h4 ,i mu/ always h _h ! romantic temp]am5t2 b only s9ce *ang+ my place h ,i _h "t & opportunity to give re9 to x4 ,on e>? !re 0 always too mu* to be done1 too _m duties1 too _m dem&s on me4 ,"h ,i am free4 ,y h no idea ( ! mean+ ( fre$om unless y c rememb] :5 y 7 out "h la/1 & ,i d\bt if y c rememb] t yet4 ,:5 ,i say 8romance0 ,i mean ! *>m ( exi/5ce1 ! magic t\* :i* turns ! grey face ( life to rose col\r4 ,y "k :at ,i mean4 ,x is wond]ful to h leisure to dream & to realise "o's dream1 = "h ! realisation goes ) ! dream4 ,ev]y?+ is s real1 imag9ation is s pot5t1 & ! p[] to l9k ?+s is s great--s almo/ unlimit$6 ,! dream]s "h are really n idle1 = our dream+ is a k9d ( build+2 & ev5 if x 7 n1 we h a "r to d ab\t z we please4 ,we h e>n$ our vacation4 ,! lab\r w come aga94 ,we %all reclo! ourselves 9 gross matt] & take on its burd5s4 ,:y1 x takes m en]gy on e>? to put "o heavy foot be=e ano!r heavy foot1 & to propel ! hundr$ or two-hundr$ p\nd body a mile1 ?an x takes "h to g ar\nd ! _w6 ,t w give y an idea ( ! quantity ( surplus en]gy t we h = enjoy+ ourselves & = dream-build+4 ,p]haps on e>? y "w too mu*--m ?an is really necess>y4 ,! mass ( ne$less ?+s t y accumulate r\nd y1 ! artificial wants t y create1 ! break-neck pace ( y\r lives to provide all ^! ?+s1 seem to u absurd & r pitiful4 ,y\r political economy is m]e *ild's play1 y\r gov]nm5ts are cumbr\s ma*9es = do+ ! unnecess>y1 mo/ ( y\r "w is useless1 & y\r lives w\ld be ne>ly futile if y did n suff] s mu* t y\r s\ls le>n1 ?\gh unwill+ly1 t mo/ ( _! /riv+s are va94 ,h[ ,i us$ to sweat & groan 9 ! e>ly days to make my little circle 9 ! s&6 ,& n[ ,i see t if ,i _h tak5 m "t to ?9k1 ,i might h recov]$ some?+ ( my pa/ k1 ga9$ 9 o!r lives2 & ?\gh ,i /ill _h felt oblig$ to draw my circle 9 ! s&1 ,i might h done x ) less difficulty & 9 half ! "t4 ,"h1 if ,i *oose1 ,i c sp5d h\rs 9 wat*+ ! *ang+ col\rs ( a cl\d4 ,or1 bett] /ill1 ,i c lie on my back & rememb]4 ,x is wond]ful to rememb]1 to let ! m9d g back ye> aft] ye>1 life aft] life1 c5tury aft] c5tury1 back & back till "o f9ds oneself--a turtle6 ,b "o c also look ahead1 =w>d & =w>d1 life aft] life1 c5tury aft] c5tury1 on aft] on1 till "o f9ds oneself an ar*angel4 ,! look+ back is memory2 ! look+ =w>d is creation4 ,( c\rse we create our own future4 ,:o else c\ld d x8 ,we are influ5c$ & mov$ & %ift$ & help$ or ret>d$ by o!rs2 b x is we ourselves :o =ge ! *a9s e "t4 ,we tie knots t we %all h to untie1 (t5 ) lab\r & p]plexity4 ,9 go+ back ov] my pa/ lives ,i realise ! :y & ! :]e=e ( my la/ "o4 ,x 01 9 a way1 ! lea/ satisfactory ( _m lives--save "o2 b n[ ,i see its purpose1 & t ,i laid ! plans = x :5 ,i 0 la/ out "h4 ,i ev5 arrang$ to g back to e>? at a def9ite "t1 9 ord] to be ) c]ta9 fri5ds :o met me !re4 ,b ,i h turn$ ! corn] n[1 & h begun ! upw>d m>* aga94 ,already ,i am lay+ ! l9es = my next com+1 ?\gh !re is no hurry4 ,bless y6 ,i am n go+ back until ,i h _h my fill ( ! fre$om & enjoym5t ( ?is exi/5ce "h4 ,also ,i h mu* /udy+ to d4 ,i want to review :at ,i le>n$ 9 ^? hi!rto =gott5 b n[ rememb]$ lives4 ,d y recall h[1 :5 y w5t to s*ool1 y _h occasionally to review ! lessons ( ! prec$+ weeks or mon?s8 ,t cu/om is bas$ on a s\nd pr9ciple4 ,i am n[ hav+ my review lessons4 ,by & by1 be=e ,i return to ! _w1 ,i %all review ^! reviews1 fix+ by w ! memories :i* ,i specially wi% to c>ry ov] ) me4 ,x w\ld be practically impossible to c>ry ov] intact ! great panorama ( exp]i5ce :i* n[ unrolls itself be=e ! eyes ( my memory2 b !re are sev]al fundam5tal ?+s1 philosophical pr9ciples & illu/rations1 :i* ,i mu/ n =get4 ,also ,i want to take ) me ! k ( c]ta9 =mul & ! habit ( c]ta9 practices :i* y w\ld probably call occult2 by means ( :i*1 :5 ,i am mature aga9 9 my new body1 ,i c call into memory ?is v pageant ( exp]i5ce :i* n[ rolls be=e me :5ev] ,i w x4 ,no1 ,i am n go+ to tell y ab\t y\r own pa/4 ,y mu/1 & c1 recov] x = y\rself4 ,s c anyone :o kn[s ! diff]5ce betwe5 memory & imag9ation4 ,yes1 ! diff]5ce is subtle1 b z real z ! diff]5ce betwe5 ye/]day & to-morr[4 ,i d n want y to be 9 any hurry ab\t com+ out "h to /ay4 ,rema9 :]e y are j z long z possible4 ,mu* t we d on ?is side y c d almo/ z well :ile /ill 9 ! body4 ,( c\rse y h to use m en]gy1 b t is :at en]gy is =--to use4 ,ev5 :5 we /ore x1 we /ore x = future use4 ,d n =get t4 ,"o reason :y ,i re/ mu* n[ & dream & amuse myself is because ,i want to /ore z mu* en]gy z possible1 to come back ) p[]4 ,x is well t y h tak5 my advice to idle a little & to get acqua9t$ ) y\r own s\l4 ,!re are surprises 9 /ore = ! p]son :o w delib]ately set out on ! que/ ( 8 s\l4 ,! s\l is n a w-o'-!-wisp2 x is a beacon light to /e] by & avoid ! rocks ( mat]ialism & =getfulness4 ,i h _h mu* joy 9 go+ back ov] my ,greek inc>nations4 ,:at conc5tration !y _h--^? ,greeks6 ,!y knew mu*4 ,! wat]s ( ,le!1 = in/ance1--:at a conception6--br\ght f ?is side by ma/]ly memory4 ,if man w\ld ev5 try to rememb]1 if he w\ld only take "t to consid] all t he has be51 !re w\ld be m hope ( :at he may become6 ,:y1 d y "k t man may become a god--or t :i*1 comp>$ ) ord9>y humanity1 has all ! magnitude & gr&eur ( a god8 8,ye are gods10 0 n said 9 a m]ely figurative s5se4 ,i h met ! ,ma/] f ,galilee1 & h held communion ) ,him4 ,!re 0 a man--& a god6 ,! _w has ne$ ( ,him n[4 ,,lett] ,,xxvii ,,! ,,magic ,,r+ ,,x w\ld be h>d = y to und]/&1 m]ely by my tell+ y1 ! diff]5ce betwe5 y\r life & ours4 ,beg9 ) ! diff]5ce 9 sub/ance1 n only ! sub/ance ( our bodies1 b ! sub/ance ( natural objects :i* surr\nd u4 ,d y />t at ! t]m 8natural objects0 z appli$ to ! ?+s ( ?is _w8 ,y did n fancy1 did y1 t we _h escap$ ,nature8 ,no "o escapes ,nature--n ev5 ,god4 ,nature is4 ,imag9e t y _h sp5t sixty or sev5ty ye>s 9 a heavy e>?ly body1 a body :i* insi/$ on gr[+ fat1 & w\ld get /iff-jo9t$ & rheumatic1 ev5 go+ on /rike occasionally to ! ext5t ( lay+ y up 9 b$ = repairs ( a m or less clumsy sort4 ,!n fancy y\rself sudd5ly ex*ang+ ?is heavy body = a light & ela/ic =m4 ,c y imag9e x8 ,i confess t x w\ld h be5 difficult = me1 ev5 a ye> or two ago4 ,clo!d 9 ?is =m1 :i* is suffici5tly radiant to light its own place :5 its light is n put out by ! crud] light ( ! sun1 fancy y\rself mov+ f place to place1 f p]son to p]son1 f idea to idea4 ,z "t goes on ev5 ! habit ( dem&+ n\ri%m5t gradually we>s (f4 ,we are no long] bo!r$ by hung] & ?ir/2 ?\gh ,i1 = in/ance1 /ill /ay myself occasionally ) a little n\ri%m5t1 an inf9itesimal am\nt comp>$ ) ! beef/eak d9n]s :i* ,i us$ to eat4 ,& we are no long] h>ass$ by ! ?\s&-&-"o petty duties ( ! e>?4 ,out "h we h m confid5ce 9 moods4 ,engagem5ts are seldom made--t is1 b9d+ engagem5ts4 ,z a rule1 ?\gh !re are exceptions1 desire is mutual4 ,i want to see & commune ) a fri5d at ! same "t :5 he feels a desire = my society1 & we naturally drift toge!r4 ,! companion%ips "h are v beautiful2 b ! solitudes are also full ( *>m4 ,s9ce ! fir/ two or ?ree mon?s ,i h n be5 lonesome4 ,at fir/ ,i felt l a fi% out ( wat]1 ( c\rse4 ,ne>ly ev]yone does2 ?\gh !re are exceptions 9 ! case ( v spiritual p :o h no e>?ly ties or ambitions4 ,i _h s f\ght ! idea ( 8dy+10 t my new /ate seem$ at fir/ to be ! pro( ( my failure1 & ,i us$ to w&] ab\t "u ! impression t ,i 0 go+ to wa/e mu* valuable "t :i* c\ld h be5 us$ to bett] advantage 9 ! /orm & /ress ( e>?ly liv+4 ,( c\rse ! ,tea*] came to me2 b he 0 too wise to c>ry me on 8 back ev5 f ! fir/4 ,he rem9d$ me ( a few pr9ciples1 :i* he left me to apply2 & gradually1 z ,i got hold ( ! applications1 ,i got hold ( myself4 ,!n also gradually ! beauty & wond] ( ! new condition began to dawn on me1 & ,i saw t in/ead ( wa/+ "t ,i 0 really ga9+ trem5d\s exp]i5ce :i* c\ld be utilis$ lat]4 ,i h talk$ ) _m p "h1 p ( all /ages ( intellectual & moral gr[?1 & ,i am sorry to say t ! p]son :o has a cle> idea ( ! significance ( life & its possibilities = developm5t is ab\t z r>e "h z on ! e>?4 ,z ,i h said be=e1 a man does n sudd5ly become all-wise by *ang+ ! texture ( 8 body4 ,! va9 man ( e>? is likely to be va9 "h1 ?\gh 9 8 next life ! v law ( reaction--if he has ov]done vanity--may s5d him back z a mode/ or ev5 ba%ful p]son1 = a :ile at lea/1 until ! reaction has sp5t itself4 ,9 com+ out a man br+s 8 "* & *>act]i/ics ) him4 ,i h (t5 be5 sorry = m5 :o 9 life _h be5 slaves ( ! bus9ess r\t9e4 ,_m ( !m _c get away f x = a long "t2 & in/ead ( enjoy+ !mselves "h1 !y g back & =? to & f ! sc5es ( _! old lab\rs1 work+ ov] & ov] "s problem 9 tactics or f9ance until !y are almo/ z we>y z :5 !y 8di$40 ,z y "k1 !re are tea*]s "h4 ,few ( !m are ( ! /ature ( my own ,tea*]2 b !re are _m :o make x _! pleasure to help ! s\ls ( ! newly arriv$4 ,!y nev] leave a newcom] entirely to 8 own res\rces4 ,help is always (f]$1 ?\gh x is n always accept$4 ,9 t case x w be (f]$ aga9 & aga91 = ^? :o give !mselves to o!rs d s )\t hope ( rew>d or ev5 ackn[l$gm5t4 ,if ,i _h set out to write a sci5tific treatise ( ! life on ?is side1 ,i %\ld h begun 9 q a diff]5t way f ?is4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i %\ld h po/pon$ ! lab\r ab\t t5 ye>s1 until all my facts 7 pigeon-hol$ & docket$2 !n ,i %\ld h begun at ! beg9n+ & dictat$ a book s dull t y w\ld h fall5 asleep ov] x1 & ,i %\ld h _h to nudge y f "t to "t to pick up ! p5cil fall5 f y\r somnol5t h&4 ,in/ead1 ,i began to write soon aft] com+ out1 & ^! lett]s are really ! lett]s ( a travell] 9 a /range c\ntry4 ,!y record 8 impressions1 (t5 8 mi/akes1 sometimes p]haps 8 prov9cial prejudices2 b at lea/ !y are n a reha% ( :at somebody else has said4 ,i l y\r keep+ my photograph on y\r mantel z y d2 x helps me to come4 ,!re is a great p[] 9 a photograph4 ,i h be5 draw+ pictures = y lately on ! canvas ( dreams1 to %[ y ! futility & vanity ( c]ta9 ?+s4 ,did y n "k t we c\ld d t8 ,! p[] ( ! s-call$ dead to influ5ce ! liv+ is imm5se1 provid$ t ! tie ( sympa?y has be5 made4 ,i h taught y h[ to protect y\rself aga9/ influ5ces :i* y d n want1 s d n be afraid4 ,i w always /& gu>d to ! ext5t ( w>n+ y if !re is any dang] ( attack f ?is side4 ,already ,i h drawn a magic r+ ar\nd y :i* only ! mo/ advanc$ & p[]ful spirits c\ld pass1 ev5 if !y desir$--t is1 ! ,tea*]s & ,i drew x toge!r4 ,y are do+ our "w j n[1 & h a "r to our protection4 ,t ! lab\r] is wor?y ( 8 hire is an axiom ( bo? worlds4 ,only y y\rself c\ld n[ let d[n ! b>s = ! inru% ( evil & irresponsible spiritual intellig5ces1 & if y %\ld inadv]t5tly let d[n ! b>s we %\ld ru% to put !m up aga94 ,we h "s au?ority out "h4 ,yes1 ev5 s soon ,i c say t4 ,are y surpris$8 ,,lett] ,,xxviii ,,except ,,ye ,,be ,,z ,,little ,,*ildr5 ,i ,,once he>d a man ref] to ?is _w z ! play _w1 8=10 said he1 8we are all *ildr5 "h1 & we create ! environm5t t we desire40 ,z a *ild at play c turn a *air into a t[] or a pranc+ /e$1 s we 9 ?is _w c make real = ! mom5t :atev] we imag9e4 ,has x nev] fill$ y ) amazem5t1 t absolute vividness ( ! imag9ation ( *ildr58 ,a *ild says unblu%+ly & ) conviction1 8,t rug is a g>d51 t plank 9 ! floor is a riv]1 t *air is a ca/le1 & ,i am a k+40 ,:y does he say ^! ?+s8 ,h[ c he say ^! ?+s8 ,because--& "h is ! po9t--he /ill subconsci\sly rememb]s ! life out "h :i* he s lately left4 ,he has c>ri$ ov] ) him into ! life ( e>? some?+ ( 8 lo/ fre$om & p[] ( imag9ation4 ,t does n mean t all ?+s 9 ?is _w are imag9>y--f> f x4 ,objects "h1 objects exi/+ 9 t5u\s matt]1 are z real & comp>atively sub/antial z ) y2 b !re is ! possibility ( creation "h1 creation 9 a =m ( matt] ev5 m subtle /ill--?\ght-sub/ance4 ,if y create some?+ on e>? 9 solid matt]1 y create x fir/ 9 ?\ght-sub/ance2 b !re is ?is diff]5ce betwe5 y\r creation & ours3 until y h m\ld$ solid matt] ar\nd y\r ?\ght-patt]n y d n believe t ! ?\ght-patt]n really exi/s save 9 y\r own fancy4 ,we out "h c see ! ?\ght-creations ( o!rs if we & !y w x s4 ,we c also--& ,i tell y ?is = y\r com=t--we c also see y\r ?\ght-creations1 & by add+ ! /r5g? ( our w to y\rs we c help y to realise !m 9 sub/antial =m4 ,sometimes we build "h bit by bit1 9 ! f\r-dim5sional _w1 especially :5 we wi% to leave a ?+ = o!rs to see & enjoy1 :5 we wi% a ?+ to survive = a long "t4 ,b a ?\ght-=m is visible to all highly develop$ spirits4 ,( c\rse y und]/& t n all spirits are highly develop$4 ,9 fact v few are f> progress$2 b ! dulle/ man out "h has some?+ :i* mo/ ( y h lo/--! fai? 9 8 own ?\ght-creations4 ,n[1 ! p[] :i* makes creation possible is n lo/ to a s\l :5 x takes on solid matt] aga94 ,b ! p[] is gradually ov]come & ! imag9ation is disc\rag$ by ! incr$ulity ( mature m5 & wom51 :o say con/antly to ! *ild3 8,t is only play2 t is n really s2 t is only imag9ation40 ,if y pr9t ^! lett]s1 ,i wi% y w\ld ins]t "h fragm5ts f t wond]ful poem ( ,wordswor?1 8,intimations ( ,immortality f ,recollections ( ,e>ly ,*ildhood40 8,our bir? is b a sleep & a =gett+2 ,! ,s\l t rises ) u1 our life's ,/>1 ,ha? _h else:]e its sett+1 ,& come? f af>3 ,n 9 entire =getfulness1 ,& n 9 utt] nak$ness1 ,b trail+ cl\ds ( glory d we come ,f ,god1 :o is our home3 ,heav5 lies ab\t u 9 our infancy6 ,%ades ( ! prison-h\se beg9 to close ,^u ! gr[+ ,boy1 ,b ,he beholds ! light1 & :5ce x fl[s1 ,he sees x 9 8 joy2 ,! ,y\?1 :o daily f>!r f ! ea/ ,mu/ travel1 /ill is ,nature's ,prie/1 ,& by ! vision spl5did ,is on 8 way att5d$2 ,at l5g? ! ,man p]ceives x die away1 ,& fade into ! light ( common day40 ,!re is almo/ no limit to ! possibilities ( ! imag9ation2 b to get ! full p[] ( x1 "o mu/ tru/ "o's imag9ation4 ,if y say to y\rself con/antly1 z ! "m says to ! *ild1 8,b ?is is only play2 ?is is n real10 y nev] c make real ! ?+s y h creat$ 9 ?\ght4 ,! imag9ation itself is l a *ild & mu/ be enc\rag$ & believ$ 91 or x _c develop & d its p]fect "w4 ,x is really =tunate = "s ( y t ,i am out "h4 ,i c d m = y "h ?an !re1 because ,i h ev5 great] fai? 9 my imag9ation ?an ,i _h be=e4 ,! man :o call$ ?is ! play _w has be5 try+ all sorts ( exp]im5ts ) ! p[] 9 himself4 ,i h n 8 p]mission to tell ! /ories he tells me1 b !y w\ld surprise y4 ,= "o ?+1 he help$ 8 wife1 aft] 8 s-call$ dea?1 to c>ry out a jo9t plan ( !irs :i* _h seem$ impossible to !m be=e because ( _! lack ( real fai?4 ,x 0 = ! erection ( a c]ta9 k9d ( h\se4 ,b d n fancy t mo/ p "h are try+ to build h\ses on e>?4 ,f> f x4 ,mo/ ( my fell[-citiz5s are will+ to "w :]e !y are1 & to let ! e>? alone4 ,( c\rse !re are 8dream]s0 l me1 :o are n satisfi$ ) "o _w1 & :o l to h _! f+]s 9 bo?2 b !y are r r>e1 z poets are r>e on e>?4 ,to mo/ m5 ! _w !y happ5 to be 9 is suffici5t = ! "t be+4 ,!re is a c]ta9 fancy ( m9e1 h[ev]1 :i* x w amuse me to help realise on e>?4 ,y may n "k t ,i am do+ x1 b ,i %all "k4 ,i w\ld n1 8= ! _w10 z y say1 di/urb anybody by ev5 ! ?\ght t ,i am fuss+ ar\nd 9 affairs :i* n[ are !irs4 ,b if1 unse5 & unfelt1 ,i c help ) ! p[] ( my self-confid5t imag9ation1 !re w be no h>m done1 & ,i %all h demon/rat$ some?+4 ,,lett] ,,xxix ,,an ,,unexpect$ ,,w>n+ ,i ,,%\ld be v sorry if ! read+ ( ^! lett]s ( m9e %\ld cause fooli% & un?9k+ p to g _s-hunt+1 invit+ into _! human sph]e ! irresponsible & (t5 ly+ elem5tal spirits4 ,tell !m n to d x4 ,my com+ 9 ?is way ?r\gh y\r h& is q ano!r matt]4 ,i c\ld n d x if ,i _h n be5 in/ruct$ 9 ! sci5tific me?od ( proc$ure1 & ,i also c\ld n d x if y %\ld con/antly int]rupt me by side-?\ghts ( y\r own1 & by que/ions relevant or irrelevant4 ,x is because y are p]fectly passive & n ev5 curi\s1 lett+ me use y\r h& z on e>? ,i w\ld h us$ ! h& ( my /5ograph]1 t ,i am able to write long & connect$ s5t5ces4 ,mo/ _s communications1 ev5 :5 g5u9e1 h little value1 = ! reason t !y are ne>ly always col\r$ by ! m9d ( ! p]son ?r\gh :om !y pass4 ,y are "r 9 read+ no?+ on ! subject :ile ^! messages are com+1 & 9 ?9k+ no?+ ab\t ?is plane ( life :]e ,i am4 ,?us y avoid preconceiv$ ideas1 :i* w\ld int]rupt ! fl[ ( my ideas4 ,y "k1 p]haps1 t :ile on e>? ,i inve/igat$ spiritualism1 z ,i inve/igat$ _m ?+s ( an occult nature1 look+ always = ! tru? t 0 beh9d !m2 b ,i 0 conv9c$ !n1 & ,i am n[ m ?an ev] conv9c$1 t1 except = ! sci5tific demon/ration t su* ?+s c be--:i*1 ( c\rse1 has value z a demon/ration only1--mo/ _s-hunt+ is n only a wa/e ( "t1 b an absolute detrim5t to ^? :o engage 9 x4 ,?is may s\nd /range com+ f a s-call$ 8_s10 "o :o is actually at ?is "t 9 communication ) ! _w4 ,if t is s1 ,i _c help x4 ,if ,i seem inconsi/5t1 !n ,i seem s2 t is all4 ,b ,i wi% to g on record z disc\rag+ irresponsible m$ium%ip4 ,if a p]son sitt+ = m$ium%ip c\ld be sure t at ! o!r end ( ! psy*ic l9e !re 0 an entity :o _h some?+ s9c]e & important to say1 & :o really c\ld use him or h] to say x ?r\gh1 x w\ld be ano!r matt]2 b ?is _w out "h is full ( vagrants1 ev5 z ! e>?4 ,z ?is _w is peopl$ l>gely f y\r _w1 x is inevitable t we h ! same k9d ( be+s t y h4 ,!y h n *ang$ mu* 9 pass+ ?r\gh ! doors ( dea?4 ,w\ld y advise any delicate & s5sitive woman to sit d[n 9 ! c5tre ( ,hyde ,p>k1 & invite ! pass+ cr[ds to come & speak ?r\gh h]1 or t\* h]1 or m+le _! magnetism ) h]s8 ,y %udd]4 ,y w\ld %udd] m _h y se5 "s ( ! ?+s :i* ,i h se54 ,!n1 too1 !re is ano!r class ( be+s "h1 ! k9d :i* we us$ to he> ! ,!osophi/s call elem5tals4 ,n[1 !re has be5 a lot ( nons5se writt5 ab\t elem5tals2 b take ?is = a fact3 !re are units ( en]gy1 units ( consci\sness1 :i* correspond pretty closely to :at ! ,!osophi/s und]/& by elem5tals4 ,^! entities are n1 z a rule1 v highly develop$2 b z ! /age ( e>? life is ! /age to :i* !y aspire1 & z x is ! next inevitable /age 9 _! evolution1 !y are drawn to x p[]fully4 ,s d n be too sure t ! entity :i* raps on y\r table or y\r cupbo>d is ! _s ( y\r deceas$ gr&fa!r4 ,x may be m]ely a bl9d & v desir\s entity1 an eag] consci\sness1 try+ to use y to ha/5 its own evolution1 try+ to get into y or ?r\gh y1 s z to enjoy ! e>? & ! co>s] vibrations ( ! e>?4 ,x may n be able to h>m y1 b1 on ! o!r h&1 x may d y a great deal ( h>m4 ,y _h bett] disc\rage su* attempts to break ?r\gh ! veil :i* sep>ates y f !m2 = ! veil is ?9n] ?an y ?9k1 & ?\gh y _c see ?r\gh x1 y c feel ?r\gh x4 ,hav+ said ?is1 my duty 9 ! matt] is dis*>g$2 & ! next "t ,i come ,i c tell y a /ory1 maybe1 in/ead ( giv+ y a lecture4 ,i really feel l an a/ral ,s*eh]azade2 b ,i fe> y w\ld tire ( me be=e a ?\s&-&-"o nights 7 pa/4 ,a ?\s&-&-"o nights6 ,be=e t "t ,i %all h gone on4 ,no1 ,i d n mean 8di$0 aga9 into ano!r _w beyond2 b :5 ,i get ?r\gh tell+ y :at ,i desire y to "k ab\t my life "h1 ,i want to inve/igate o!r />s1 if x %all be p]mitt$4 ,i am l a "y man :o has lately inh]it$ a =tune & has at la/ unlimit$ means & opportunity = travel4 ,?\gh he might /ay ar\nd home a few mon?s1 gett+ matt]s 9 %ape & becom+ adju/$ to 8 new fre$om ( movem5t1 yet ! "t w\ld come :5 he w\ld want to try 8 w+s4 ,i hope t is n a mix$ metaphor2 if s1 y c edit me4 ,i %all n feel hurt4 ,,lett] ,,xxx ,,! ,,sylph ,,& ,,! ,,magician ,,if y\r eyes c\ld pi]ce ! veil ( matt]1 & y c\ld see :at goes on 9 ! t5u\s _w ar\nd & above t city ( ,p>is1 y w\ld gasp ) wond]4 ,i h sp5t mu* "t 9 ,p>is lately4 ,%all ,i tell y "s ( ! /range ?+s ,i h se58 ,9 a /reet on ! left bank ( ! riv]1 call$ ! rue de ,vaugir>d1 !re lives a man ( middle age & s$5t>y habits :o is a sort ( magician4 ,he is con/antly att5d$ & s]v$ by "o ( ! elem5tal spirits kn[n z sylphs4 ,?is sylph he calls ,m]il9e4 ,i d n "k f :at language he got ! "n1 = he seems to speak sev]al1 & to "k ,hebrew4 ,i h se5 ?is ,m]il9e com+ & go+ to & f 8 ap>tm5t4 ,no1 x w\ld n be "r = me to tell y :]e x is4 ,! man c\ld be id5tifi$1 ?\gh ! sylph w\ld elude ! c5sus-tak]4 ,m]il9e does n make 8 b$ or cook 8 bro?1 = :i* humble s]vice he has a *>-woman2 b ! sylph runs err&s & discov]s ?+s = him4 ,he is a collector ( old books & manuscripts1 & _m ( 8 treasures h be5 locat$ by ,m]il9e 9 ! /alls :i* lie along ! banks ( ! ,se9e1 & also 9 m pret5ti\s book%ops4 ,?is man is n a devil-wor%ipp]4 ,he is only a h>mless en?usia/1 fond ( occult ?+s1 & /riv+ to pi]ce ! veil :i* %uts ! elem5tal _w f 8 eyes4 ,a little less br&y & w9e1 & he might be able to see cle>ly1 = he is a true /ud5t4 ,b he is fond ( ! fle%1 & x preys ^u ! _s4 ,"o day ,i enc\nt]$ ,m]il9e go+ ^u "o ( 8 err&s1 & ,i introduc$ myself by signall+ ) my h&s & call+ my "n4 ,?is attract$ ! att5tion ( ! sprite1 :o came & /ood beside me4 8,:]e are y go+80 ,i ask$2 & %e nodd$ t[>ds ! o!r side ( ! riv]4 ,! ?\ght came to me t p]haps ,i ought n to "q ?is s]vant ( ! good magician z to h] ma/]'s bus9ess1 s ,i hesitat$4 ,%e also hesitat$2 !n %e said3 8,b he is int]e/$ 9 ! spirits ( m540 ,?is made ! matt] simpl]1 & ,i ask$3 8,y d 8 err&s80 8,yes1 always40 8,:y d y d 8 err&s80 8,because ,i love to s]ve him40 8,& :y d y love to s]ve him80 8,because ,i belong to him40 8,i ?\ght e s\l belong$ to itself40 8,b ,i am n a s\l60 8,!n :at are y80 8,a sylph40 8,d y ev] expect to be a s\l80 8,oh1 yes6 ,he has promis$ t ,i %all be1 if ,i s]ve him fai?fully40 8,b h[ c he make y to be a s\l80 8,i don't "k2 b he w40 8,h[ d y "k t he w80 8,because ,i tru/ him40 8,:at makes y tru/ him80 8,because he tru/s me40 8,& y always tell him ! tru?80 8,always40 8,:o taught y :at tru? is80 8,he did40 8,h[80 ,?is seem$ to puzzle ! be+ be=e me1 & ,i fe>$ %e w\ld g away2 s ,i deta9$ h] by say+1 quickly3 8,i d n want to worry y ) que/ions :i* y _c answ]4 ,tell me h[ y fir/ came into 8 s]vice40 8,ought ,i80 8,s y h a consci5ce80 8,yes1 he taught me to h40 8,b y say t he is int]e/$ 9 ! spirits ( m540 8,yes1 & ,i also "k good spirits f bad ones40 8,did he tea* y t80 8,no40 8,h[ did y le>n80 8,i always knew40 8,!n y h liv$ a long "t80 8,oh1 yes60 8,& :5 d y expect to h1 or to become a s\l80 8,:5 he comes out "h1 into ?is _w :]e we are40 ,?is /agg]$ me by its d>+4 ,_h ! good magician be5 deceiv+ 8 sylph1 or did he really believe :at he promis$8 8,:at did he say ab\t x80 ,i ask$4 8,t if ,i w\ld s]ve him n[1 he w\ld s]ve me lat]40 8,& h[ is he go+ to d x80 8,i don't "k40 8,suppose y ask him80 8,i nev] ask que/ions4 ,i answ] !m40 8,= in/ance1 :at sort ( que/ions80 8,i tell him :]e su* & su* a p]son is1 & :at he or %e is do+40 8,c y tell him :at ^! p are ?9k+80 8,n (t5--or n always4 ,sometimes ,i c40 8,h[ c y tell80 8,by ! feel ( !m4 ,if ,i am w>m 9 _! pres5ce1 ,i "k !y are fri5dly to him2 if ,i am cold1 ,i "k !y are 8 enemies4 ,if ,i feel no?+ at all1 !n ,i "k t !y are n ?9k+ ( him1 or are indiff]5t40 8,& y\r err& ?is ev5+80 8,to see a lady40 8,& y are n jeal\s80 8,:at is #8jeal\s'80 8,y are n displeas$ t he %\ld int]e/ himself 9 ladies80 8,:y %\ld ,i be80 ,?is 0 a "q ,i c\ld n answ]1 n kn[+ ! nature ( sylphs4 ,%e surpris$ me a little1 = ,i _h suppos$ t all female ?+s 7 jeal\s4 ,b1 fe>+ aga9 t %e might leave me1 ,i hurri$ to "q h] fur!r4 8,h[ did y make 8 acqua9tance80 ,i ask$4 8,he call$ me40 8,h[80 8,by ! incantation40 8,:at incantation80 8,! call ( ! sylphs40 8,oh10 ,i said1 8he call$ ! sylphs & y came60 8,yes1 ( c\rse4 ,i lik$ him = 8 k9dness1 & ,i made him see me40 8,h[ did y manage x80 8,i dazzl$ 8 eyes until he clos$ !m1 & !n he c\ld see me40 8,c he always see y n[80 8,no1 b he kn[s ,i am !re40 8,he c see y sometimes /ill80 8,yes1 (t540 8,& :5 he saw y fir/80 8,he 0 delight$1 & call$ me lov+ names1 & made me promises40 8,! promise ( a s\l--t fir/ "t80 8,yes40 8,!n y _h want$ to h a s\l80 8,oh1 yes60 8,b :y80 8,_m ( u want to be m54 ,we love m5--t is1 mo/ ( u d40 8,:y d y love m580 8,x is our nature40 8,b n ! nature ( all ( y80 8,!re are malignant spirits ( ! air40 8,& :at w y d :5 y h a s\l80 8,i w take a body1 & live on e>?40 8,& leave y\r fri5d :om y n[ s]ve80 8,oh1 no6 ,x is to be ) him t ,i specially want a body40 8,!n w he come back to ! e>? ) y80 8,he says s40 ,?is aga9 /agg]$ me4 ,i 0 becom+ int]e/$ 9 ?is magician2 he _h a d>+ imag9ation4 ,c\ld a _s ( ! air develop into a human s\l8 ,i ask$ myself4 ,0 ! man self-deceiv$8 ,or1 aga91 0 he deceiv+ 8 lovely mess5g]8 ,i ?\ght a little too long ?is "t1 = :5 ,i turn$ aga9 to speak to my /range companion1 %e _h left me4 ,i tri$ to foll[1 b c\ld n f9d h]2 & if %e return$ soon1 x mu/ h be5 by "s o!r road4 ,?\gh ,i look$ 9 all directions1 %e 0 invisible to me4 ,n[1 ! "q w arise 9 y\r m9d3 ,9 :at language did ,i talk ) ?is a]ial s]vant ( a ,fr5* magician8 ,i seem$ to speak 9 my own tongue1 & %e seem$ to respond 9 ! same4 ,h[ is t8 ,i _c say1 unless we really us$ ! subtle language ( ?\ght itself4 ,y may (t51 on meet+ ) a p]son ^: language y d n speak1 feel an int]*ange ( ideas1 by ! look ( ! eyes1 by ! expression ( ! face1 by ge/ures4 ,n[ imag9e t1 int5sifi$ a hundr$fold4 ,might x n ext5d to ! simple que/ions & answ]s :i* ,i ex*ang$ ) ! sylph8 ,i d n say t x w\ld1 b ,i ?9k x might2 =1 z ,i said be=e1 ,i seem$ to speak & %e seem$ to reply 9 my own language4 ,:at /range exp]i5ces "o has out "h6 ,i r dread to g back into ! _w1 :]e x w be s dull = me = a long "t4 ,c ,i ex*ange ?is fre$om & vivid life = a long p]iod ( somnol5ce1 aft]w>ds to suck a bottle & le>n ! multiplication table & ,greek & ,lat9 v]bs8 ,i suppose ,i mu/--b n yet4 ,good night4 ,,lett] ,,xxxi ,a ,,problem ,,9 ,,cele/ial ,,ma!matics ,,by ! vividness ) :i* y feel my pres5ce at times1 y c judge ( ! int5sity ( ! life t ,i am liv+4 ,i am no pallid spook1 dripp+ ) grave-dew4 ,i am real1 & q z :olesome--or s x seems to me--z :5 ,i walk$ ! e>? 9 a m or less unheal?y body4 ,! gha/ly spectres1 :5 !y return1 d n talk z ,i talk4 ,ask ^? :o h se5 & he>d !m4 ,x is well t y h kept y\rself comp>atively free ( communications 8f ! o!r _w40 ,x w\ld h be5 amaz+ _h y be5 afraid ( me4 ,b !re are ^? :o w\ld be1 if !y %\ld s5se my pres5ce z y s5se x4 ,"o night ,i knock$ at ! door ( a fri5d's *amb]1 half expect+ a welcome4 ,he jump$ out ( b$ 9 al>m1 !n jump$ back aga91 & pull$ ! blanket ov] 8 head4 ,he 0 really afraid t x might be ,i6 ,s1 z ,i did n wi% to be responsible = a case ( he>t failure1 or = a %ock ( hair :i*1 l t 9 ! old song1 8turn$ :ite 9 a s+le night10 ,i w5t quietly away4 ,d\btless he p]suad$ himself next day t !re 7 mice 9 ! wa9scot+4 ,_h y be5 afraid ( me1 ?\gh1 ,i %\ld h be5 a%am$ ( y2 = y "k bett]4 ,mo/ p]sons d n4 ,x is a real pleasure = me to come back & talk ) y sometimes4 8,!re are no fri5ds l ! old fri5ds10 & ! society ( sylphs & spirits w\ld nev] q satisfy me if all ^? :om ,i _h kn[n & lov$ %\ld turn _! backs on me4 ,speak+ ( sylphs1 ,i met ! ,tea*] la/ night1 & ask$ him if t ,fr5* magician ,i told y ab\t c\ld really make good 8 promise to 8 a]ial companion1 & help h] to acquire ! k9d ( s\l ess5tial to inc>nation on e>? z a woman4 ,8 answ] 01 8,no40 ,( c\rse ,i ask$ him :y1 & he answ]$ t ! elem5tal creatures1 or units ( =ce inhabit+ ! elem5ts1 z we use t t]m1 c\ld n1 dur+ ?is life cycle1 /ep out ( _! elem5t into ! human4 8,c !y ev] d s80 ,i ask$4 8,i d n "k10 he repli$2 8b ,i believe t all ! less evolv$ units ar\nd ! e>? are work+ 9 ! direction ( man2 t ! human is a /age ( developm5t :i* !y w all rea* "s day1 b n 9 ?is life cycle40 ,i ask$ ! ,tea*] if he knew ! magician 9 "q1 & he answ]$ t he _h kn[n him = a ?\s& ye>s1 t long ago1 9 a =m] life1 ! ,p>is magician _h plac$ 8 feet ^u ! pa? :i* leads to p[]2 b t he _h be5 side-track$ by ! desire = selfi% pleasures1 & t he might w&] a long "t be=e he f\nd 8 way back to real & philosophical tru?4 8,is he to be blam$ or piti$80 ,i ask$4 8,pity cuts no figure 9 ! problem10 ! ,tea*] repli$4 8,a man seeks :at he desires40 ,aft] ! ,tea*] w5t away ,i began ask+ myself que/ions4 ,:at 0 ,i seek+1 & :at did ,i desire8 ,! answ] came quickly3 8,k40 ,a ye> ago ,i might h answ]$ 8,p[]10 b k is ! =]unn] ( p[]4 ,if ,i get true k1 ,i %all h p[] en\gh4 ,x is because ,i want to give to y1 & possibly to o!rs1 a few scraps ( k :i* might be inaccessible to y by any o!r means1 t ,i am com+ back1 & com+ back1 "t aft] "t1 to talk ) y4 ,! greate/ bit ( k t ,i h to (f] y is ?is3 t by ! ex]cise ( w a man c reta9 8 objective consci\sness aft] dea?4 ,_m p]sons out "h s9k into a sort ( subjective bliss :i* makes !m indiff]5t z to :at is go+ on ^u ! e>? or 9 ! heav5s4 ,i c\ld d s myself1 easily4 ,z ,i believe ,i h said be=e1 :ile man on e>? has bo? subjective & objective consci\sness1 b functions mo/ly 9 ! objective1 out "h he has /ill subjective & objective consci\sness1 b ! t5d5cy is t[>ds ! subjective4 ,at almo/ any "t1 on compos+ y\rself & look+ 91 y c fall into a /ate ( subjective bliss :i* is simil> to t enjoy$ by s\ls on ?is side ( ! divid+ l9e call$ dea?4 ,9 fact1 x is by su* subconsci\s exp]i5ce t man has le>n$ ne>ly all he kn[s reg>d+ ! e!ric _w4 ,:5 ! /orms & passions ( ! body are /ill$1 man c cat* a glimpse ( 8 own int]ior life1 & t int]ior life is ! life ( ?is f\r?-dim5sional plane4 ,please d n accuse me ( contradict+ myself or ( be+ obscure2 ,i h said t ! objective consci\sness is z possible ) u z ! subjective is ) y1 b t ! t5d5cy is m]ely ! o!r way4 ,y may rememb] a pair ( lov]s ab\t :om ,i wrote y a few weeks ago4 ,he _h be5 out "h "s "t1 & _h wait$ = h]1 & help$ h] ov] ! unc]ta9 m>%-l&s :i* lie betwe5 ! two /ates ( exi/5ce4 ,i saw ^! lov]s aga9 ! o!r day1 b !y 7 n at all excit$ by my appe>ance4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i fancy t ,i put !m out some:at by awak5+ !m1 by call+ !m back f ! /ate ( subjective bliss into :i* !y h sunk s9ce be+ toge!r at la/4 ,:ile he wait$ = h] all ^? ye>s1 he kept himself awake by expectation2 :ile /ill on e>? %e 0 always ?9k+ ( him out "h1 & s ! pol>ity 0 su/a9$4 ,n[ !y h ea* o!r2 !y are 9 8! little home0 :i* he built = h] ) s mu* pleasure out ( ! t5u\s mat]ials ( ?is t5u\s _w2 !y see ea* o!r's faces :e!r !y look out or 92 !y are cont5t2 !y h no?+ m to atta9 7or s !y tell ea* o!r71 & !y consequ5tly s9k back into ! arms ( subjective bliss4 ,n[ ?is /ate ( bliss1 ( rum9ation1 !y h a "r to enjoy4 ,no "o c take x f !m4 ,!y h e>n$ x by activity 9 ! _w & else:]e1 x is !irs by rhy?mic ju/ice4 ,!y w enjoy x1 ,i fancy1 = a long "t1 liv+ ov] ! pa/ exp]i5ces :i* !y h _h toge!r & ap>t4 ,!n "s day "o or ! o!r ( !m w become surfeit$ ) too mu* sweetness2 ! muscles ( 8 7or h]7 s\l w /ret* = want ( ex]cise2 he 7or %e7 w give a spiritual yawn1 & by ! law ( reaction1 pass out--n to return4 ,:]e w he 7or %e7 g1 y ask8 ,:y1 back to ! e>?1 ( c\rse6 ,let u imag9e him 7or h]7 awak+ f t subjective /ate ( bliss :i* is kn[n to !m z atta9m5t1 & go+ = a %ort prom5ade 9 bless$ & :olesome solitude4 ,!n1 ) a sort ( morn+ al]tness 9 ! he>t & ! eye1 he 7or %e7 draws ne> to a pair ( e>?ly lov]s4 ,sudd5ly ! call ( matt]1 ! eag]1 t]rible call ( blood & w>m?1 ( activity rais$ to ! n? p[]1 cat*es ! half-awak5$ s\l on ! e!real side ( matt]1 &---- ,he has aga9 ent]$ ! _w ( mat]ial =mation4 ,he is sunk & hidd5 9 ! fle% ( e>?4 ,he awaits bir?4 ,he w come out ) great =ce1 by reason ( 8 =m] re/4 ,he might ev5 become a 8capta9 ( indu/ry10 if he is a /rong unit4 ,b ,i began by say+ 8he or %e40 ,let me *ange ! figure4 ,! man w\ld be almo/ c]ta9 to awake fir/1 by reason ( 8 positive pol>ity4 ,n[1 9 draw+ ?is imag9>y picture ( my lov]s1 ,i am n mak+ a dogma ( ! way 9 :i* all s\ls return to e>?4 ,i am m]ely guess+ h[ ^! two w return 7= %e w\ld probably foll[ him spe$ily :5 %e awoke & f\nd h]self alone74 ,& ! reason :y ,i fancy !y w return 9 t way is because !y are indulg+ !mselves 9 too mu* subjective bliss4 ,:5 w !y g back8 ,i _c say4 ,p]haps next ye>1 p]haps 9 a hundr$ ye>s4 ,n kn[+ ! num]ical value ( _! unit ( =ce1 ,i _c guess h[ mu* subjective bliss !y c endure )\t a viol5t reaction4 ,i am sure t y are wond]+ if "s day ,i %all myself s9k into t /ate ( bliss :i* ,i h describ$4 ,p]haps4 ,i %\ld enjoy x--b n = long1 & n yet4 ,h[ev]1 ,i h no swee!>t out "h to enjoy x ) me4 ,,lett] ,,xxxii ,a ,,*ange ,,( ,,focus ,,) ! guidance ( ! ,tea*]1 dur+ ! la/ few weeks ,i h be5 go+ to & fro 9 ! e>? & walk+ up & d[n 9 x4 ,y smile at ! veil$ ref]5ce4 ,b h n c]ta9 fri5ds ( y\rs actually fe>$ me1 z if ,i 7 ! devil ( ! ,book ( ,job8 ,n[1 to be s]i\s1 ,i h be5 visit+ ^? l&s & cities :]e 9 =m] lives ,i liv$ & work$ among m54 ,"o ( ! _m advantages ( travel is t x helps a man to rememb] 8 =m] exi/5ces4 ,!re is c]ta9ly a magic 9 places4 ,i h be5 9 ,egypt1 9 ,india1 9 ,p]sia1 9 ,spa91 9 ,italy2 ,i h be5 9 ,g]many1 ,switz]l&1 ,au/ria1 ,greece1 ,turkey1 & _m o!r l&s4 ,! ,d>danelles 7 n clos$ to me rec5tly1 :5 by reason ( ! w> y c\ld n h pass$ ?r\gh4 ,!re are advantages to almo/ e condition1 ev5 my pres5t "o2 = ! law ( comp5sation holds good4 ,9 c]ta9 lives ( ! pa/ ,i 0 a wide travell]4 ,n[ y may wond] h[ x is t ,i pass easily f ?is _w to y\rs1 see+ into bo?4 ,b y mu/ rememb] t y\r _w & m9e occupy ab\t ! same space2 t ! plane ( ! e>?'s surface is "o ( ! l[] & m mat]ial planes ( our _w1 us+ ! ^w 8plane0 z y w\ld use ! ^w 8lay]40 ,z ,i h said be=e1 !re are also places accessible to u :i* lie at "s di/ance above ! e>?'s surface4 8,mansions 9 ! skies0 are m ?an figurative4 ,i h only slightly to *ange my focus at any "t1 to f9d myself 9 y\r _w4 ,t ,i _c be se5 !re ) ! nak$ eye is no pro( t ,i am n !re4 ,)\t t *ange ( focus1 :i* is done ?r\gh an action ( w & by kn[+ ! me?od1 ,i might ev5 be occupy+ ! same space z some?+ 9 y\r _w & n "k x4 ,note well ?is po9t1 = x is only half ( some?+ :i* ,i h to say4 ,! o!r half is1 t y also may at any "t be--s f> z space is conc]n$--9 ! imm$iate neighb\rhood ( int]e/+ ?+s 9 our _w1 & n "k t y are !re4 ,b if y focus to ?is _w y are m or less consci\s ( x4 ,s :5 ,i1 kn[+ h[1 focus to y\r _w1 ,i am !re 9 consci\sness & c enjoy ! v>i$ sights ( _m cities1 ! *ang+ aspects ( _m l&s4 ,:5 ,i fir/ came out ,i c\ld n see my way ab\t ! e>? v well1 b n[ ,i c see bett]4 ,no1 ,i am n go+ to give y a =mula to give to o!r p by :i* y or !y c\ld *ange focus at w & ent] into relation ) ?is _w1 because su* k at ! pres5t /age ( human progress w\ld d m h>m ?an good4 ,i m]ely /ate ! fact1 & leave ! application = ^? :o h ! curiosity & ! ability to demon/rate x4 ,my object 9 writ+ ^! lett]s is prim>ily to conv9ce a few p]sons--to /r5g!n _! c]ta9ty 9 ! fact ( immortality1 or ! survival ( ! s\l aft] ! bodily *ange :i* is call$ dea?4 ,_m ?9k !y believe :o are n c]ta9 :e!r !y believe or n4 ,if ,i c make my pres5ce z a liv+ & vital entity felt 9 ^! lett]s1 x w h ! effect ( /r5g!n+ ! belief ( c]ta9 p]sons 9 ! doctr9e ( immortality4 ,?is is a mat]iali/ic age4 ,a l>ge p]c5tage ( m5 & wom5 h no real int]e/ 9 ! life beyond ! grave4 ,b !y w all h to come out "h soon] or lat]1 & p]haps a few w f9d ! *ange easi]1 ! j\rney less =midable1 by reason ( :at ,i %all h taught !m4 ,is x n wor? :ile8 ,is x n wor? a little ef=t on y\r "p z well z on m9e8 ,any p]son approa*+ ! great *ange :o %all s]i\sly /udy ^! lett]s & lay _! pr9ciples to he>t1 & :o %all w to rememb] !m aft] pass+ out1 ne$ n fe> any?+4 ,we all fail 9 mu* t we und]take1 b ,i hope ,i %all n fail 9 ?is4 ,d n y fail on y\r side4 ,i c\ld n d ?is "w )\t y1 nor c\ld y d x )\t me4 ,t is 9 answ] to ! supposition t ,i am y\r subconsci\s m9d4 ,i h be5 9 ,con/ant9ople & h /ood 9 ! v room :]e ,i once _h a rem>kable exp]i5ce1 hundr$s ( ye>s ago4 ,i h se5 ! walls1 ,i h t\*$ !m1 ,i h read ! e!ric records ( _! hi/ory1 & my own hi/ory 9 connection !re)4 ,i h walk$ ! rose-g>d5s ( ,p]sia & h smell$ ! fl[]s--! gr&*ildr51 hundr$s ( times remov$1 ( ^? roses ^: fragrance 0 an ec/asy to me :51 wat*+ ) ! bulbul1 ,i pac$ !re 9 ano!r =m & ) int5tions diff]5t to m9e n[4 ,x 0 ! p]fume ( ! roses :i* made me rememb]4 ,9 ,greece also ,i h liv$ ov] ! old days4 ,be=e _! deg5]ation began1 :at a race !y 76 ,i ?9k t conc5tration 0 ! secret ( _! p[]4 ,! e!r ar\nd t p59sula is writt5 ov] ) _! exploits1 9 d>+ ?\ght z well z d>+ action4 ,! old e!ric records are s vivid t !y %9e ?r\gh ! lat] writ+s2 = y mu/ "k t :at are call$ a/ral records lie lay] aga9/ lay] ev]y:]e4 ,we read "o lay] in/ead ( ano!r1 ei!r by aff9ity or by w4 ,x is no m /range ?an t a man may g among ! millions ( volumes 9 ! ,briti% ,museum & select ! "o he wants4 ,! mo/ m>vell\s ?+s are always simple ( explanation if "o has ! key to unlock _! secret4 ,!re has be5 mu* nons5se writt5 ab\t vibration1 b nev]!less tru? lies !reab\ts4 ,:]e !re is s mu* smoke !re mu/ be fire4 ,9 ,india ,i h met ) yogis 9 m$itation4 ,d y "k :y _! peculi> way ( brea?+ produces psy*ic results8 ,no1 y d n4 ,n[ let me tell y3 ,by hold+ ! brea? long a c]ta9--%all ,i say poison8--is produc$ 9 ! body1 :i* poison1 act+ on ! psy*ic nature1 *anges ! vibration4 ,t is all4 ,volumes h be5 writt5 ab\t yoga1 b h any ( !m said t8 ,! untra9$ heal?y lungs1 9 ! ord9>y op]ation1 get rid ( ?is poison by processes well kn[n to physiologi/s1--t is1 9 ! natural man1 adju/$ to & work+ cont5t$ly on ! mat]ial plane4 ,b 9 ord] = a man /ill liv+ on ! mat]ial plane to become adju/$ to ! psy*ic _w1 a *ange ( vibration is necess>y4 ,?is *ange ( vibration may be produc$ by a slight ov]dose ( ! above-m5tion$ poison4 ,is x dang]\s8 ,yes1 to ! ignorant4 ,to ^? :o are le>n$ 9 its use x is no m dang]\s ?an mo/ ( ! drugs 9 ! ph>macopia4 ,ano!r "t ,i w tell y ab\t o!r secrets :i* ,i h discov]$ go+ to & fro 9 ! e>? & walk+ up & d[n 9 x4 ,,lett] ,,xxxiii ,,five ,,resolutions ,i ,,h /ood at night on ! ro( ( an ,ori5tal palace & wat*$ ! />s4 ,y :o c see into ! invisible _w by *ang+ y\r focus1 c easily und]/& h[ ,i1 by a rev]se process1 c see into ! _w ( d5se matt]4 ,yes1 x is ! same ?+1 only turn$ ! o!r way4 ,i /ood on ! ro( ( an ,ori5tal palace & wat*$ ! />s4 ,no mortal 0 ne> me4 ,look+ d[n ^u ! sleep+ city1 ,i h se5 ! cl\d ( s\ls :i* kept wat* above x1 h se5 ! mess5g]s com+ & go+4 ,once or twice a wan1 half-fright5$ face appe>$ among ! cl\d ( spirits1 & ,i knew t d[n bel[ 9 ! city someone _h di$4 ,b ,i _h se5 s _m spirits s9ce com+ out "h t ,i 0 m int]e/$ 9 wat*+ ! />s4 ,i us$ to love !m1 & ,i love !m /ill4 ,"s day1 if x is p]mitt$1 ,i hope to "k m ab\t !m4 ,b ,i %all n leave ! neighb\rhood ( ! e>? until ^! lett]s are f9i%$4 ,f ! di/ance ( ! planet ,jupit] ,i might n be able to write at all4 ,x is true t "o c come & g1 almo/ ) ! quickness ( ?\ght2 b some?+ tells me t x is bett] to po/pone = a "t my m ext5sive travell+4 ,p]haps :5 ,i get out !re ,i %all n want to come back = a long "t4 ,x means mu* to me ?is correspond5ce ) e>?4 ,dur+ my illness ,i us$ to wond] if ,i c\ld come back sometimes1 b ,i nev] imag9$ any?+ l ?is4 ,i w\ld n h suppos$ x possible to f9d any well-balanc$ & responsible p]son ) d>+ en\gh to jo9 me 9 ! exp]im5t4 ,i c\ld n h writt5 ?r\gh ! h& ( a p]son ( untra9$ m9d unless he or %e _h be5 fully hypnotis$4 ,i c\ld n h writt5 ?r\gh ! h& ( ! av]age intellectual p]son1 because su* p]sons _c make !mselves suffici5tly passive4 ,be at peace4 ,y are n a _s m$ium1 us+ ! ^w z x is commonly us$1 signify+ a passive in/rum5t1 an olian h>p1 set 9 an ap]ture betwe5 ! two worlds & play$ ^u by any w9d t bl[s4 ,except z illu/rat+ ! fact t x c be done1 !re is no great object 9 my tell+ y ( ! ?+s ,i h se5 9 y\r _w s9ce com+ to ?is o!r "o4 ,! next "t y look out into ?is plane ( life & see ! wond]ful l&scapes & ! p1 rememb] t x is 9 a simil> way t ,i look back into y\r plane ( exi/5ce4 ,x is int]e/+ to live 9 two worlds1 go+ back & =? at w4 ,b :5 ,i g into y\rs x is only z a visitor1 & ,i %all nev] attempt to take a h& 9 its gov]nm5t4 ,!re is su* a rigor\s cu/om-h\se on ! fronti] betwe5 ! two worlds t ! travell] back & =? _c af=d to c>ry any?+ ) him--n ev5 a prejudice4 ,if y %\ld come out "h ) a det]m9ation to see only c]ta9 ?+s1 y might give a wrong value to :at y w\ld see4 ,_m h come out "h at dea? ) t m5tal attitude1 & s h le>n$ little or no?+4 ,x is ! travell] ) ! op5 m9d :o makes discov]ies4 ,i br\ght ov] ) me only a few resolutions3 ,to pres]ve my id5tity2 ,to hold my memory ( e>? life1 & to c>ry back ! memory ( ?is life :5 ,i %\ld return to ! _w2 ,to see ! great ,tea*]s2 ,to recov] ! memories ( my pa/ inc>nations2 ,to lay ! necess>y f\ndations = a great e>? life :5 ,i %\ld g back next "t4 ,t s\nds simple1 does x n8 ,already ,i h done mu* besides2 b if ,i _h n borne ^! po9ts 9 m9d ,i might h accompli%$ little4 ,! only really sad ?+ ab\t dea? is t ! av]age man le>ns s little f x4 ,only my realisation ( ! fact t ! *a9 ( e>? lives is relatively endless c\ld keep me f regret t mo/ p]sons make s little progress 9 ea* life4 ,b ,i com=t myself ) ! assurance t !re is no hurry2 t ! pe>ls 9 ! *a9 ( exi/5ce1 ?\gh small1 are all 9 _! inevitable places1 & t ! *a9 is a circle1 ! symbol ( et]nity4 ,& x seems to me1 ) my /ill f9ite view1 t mo/ m5 on ?is side wa/e _! lives ev5 z !y d on y\r side4 ,t %[s h[ f> ,i am yet f ! ideal k4 ,view$ f ! />s1 :5ce ,i hope "s day to view !m1 all ^! flat /ret*es 9 ! l&scape ( life may be s(t5$ by di/ance1 & ! :ole picture may take on a p]spective ( beauty :i* ,i _h n dream$ ( :ile ,i myself 0 b a speck ^u ! canvas4 ,,lett] ,,xxxiv ,,! ,,pass+ ,,( ,,lionel ,i ,,h lo/ my boy ,lionel4 ,he has gone--,i />t$ to say ! way ( all fle%2 b ,i mu/ revise ! figure & say ! way ( all spirits1 soon] or lat]1 & t way is back to ! e>?4 ,"o day n long ago ,i f\nd him absorb$ 9 ?\ght 9 our fav\rite re/+-place1 ! little hut beside a /ream at ! foot ( a wood$ hill1 :i* ,i told y ab\t 9 "o ( my =m] lett]s4 ,i wait$ = a "t until ! boy op5$ 8 eyes & look$ at me4 8,fa!r10 he said1 8my fav\rite tea*] is go+ to be m>ri$ to-morr[40 8,h[ d y "k80 ,i ask$4 8,:y1 ,i h be5 li/5+60 he answ]$4 8,e little :ile ,i g back & pay h] a visit1 ?\gh %e does n "k ,i am !re4 ,i h be5 aw>e t !re 0 some?+ 9 ! w9d40 8,:y80 8,because %e has be5 s %9+2 !re is a light ar\nd h] :i* 0 n !re be=e40 8,:at caus$ ! light1 ,lionel80 8,well1 ,i suppose %e is :at !y call 9 love40 8,y are a ph5om5ally wise *ild10 ,i said4 ,he look$ at me ) 8 l>ge1 hone/ eyes4 8,i am n really a *ild at all10 he answ]$4 8,i am z old z ! hills1 z y1 or z anybody4 ,h y n told me t we are all immortal1 )\t end or beg9n+80 8,yes1 b g on1 tell me ab\t y\r tea*]40 8,%e is 9 love ) ! big bro!r ( "o ( my playfell[s4 ,i us$ to "k him :5 ,i 0 a little boy4 ,he let me use 8 magnet1 & taught me kite-fly+1 & %[$ me h[ ma*9]y w5t4 ,he is an eng9e]40 8,oh60 ,i said4 8,9 ?is case1 ( c\rse1 y are glad t y\r fav\rite tea*] is go+ to m>ry him40 ,lionel's eyes 7 l>g] ?an ev] z he said3 8,i %all be sorry to leave y1 ,fa!r2 b x is a *ance ,i _c af=d to miss40 8,:at60 8,x is my opportunity to g back4 ,i've be5 wat*+ = x a long "t40 8,b are y ready80 8,:at is x to be ready8 ,i want to g40 8,& leave me80 8,i %all f9d y aga94 ,&--,oh1 ,fa!r6--:5 y come back ,i %all be old] ?an y40 ,?is idea seem$ to delight him4 ,i 0 /ill human en\gh to be sorry t ! boy 0 go+ ( 8 own free w2 b z w is free1 ,i w\ld n make any ef=t to deta9 him4 ,?\gh "y 9 t =m1 :i* _h n yet _h "t to gr[ up 9 ! t5u\s _w s9ce he came out z a *ild1 yet he 0 old 9 ?\ght4 8,yes10 ,i said1 8p]haps y c help me along :5 ,i also %all be a *ild aga940 8,y see10 he w5t on1 8) a fa!r l ,victor ,i %all le>n all ,i want to "k ab\t ma*9]y--t is1 all t he c tea* me2 b :5 ,i am gr[n ,i %all f9d out = myself _m ?+s :i* he does n "k4 ,y rememb] ! little ma*9e ,i h be5 work+ )1 up 9 ! patt]n _w80 8,yes40 8,:5 ,i am back on ! e>? ,i %all make x a reality4 ,:y1 x actually runs n[ ) ! electricity f my f+]s60 8,b w x1 :5 y h fix$ x 9 mat]ial =m1 9 /eel1 or :atev] x is to be made (80 8,yes1 ( c\rse x w4 ,x is my inv5tion4 ,i %all be a fam\s man40 8,b suppos+ t somebody else f9ds x fir/80 8,i don't ?9k anybody w40 8,%all ,i help y to lay a spell ar\nd ! patt]n1 s t no "o c t\* x80 8,c\ld y d t1 ,fa!r80 8,i ?9k s40 8,!n let u g up !re at once10 he said1 8& d x imm$iately4 ,i may h to leave ?is _w 9 a day or two40 ,i c\ld n help smil+ at ! boy's desire to hurry4 ,d\btless he w\ld be pres5t at t w$d+1 & ,i %\ld see little or no?+ ( him aft]w>ds4 ,we w5t up to ! patt]n _w1 & ) 8 assi/ance ,i drew a circle ar\nd ! little ma*9e--a spell :i*1 ,i ?9k1 w protect x until he is ready to make 8 claim4 ,oh inspiration6 ,oh inv5tion6 ,g5ius6 ,little d ! m5 ( e>? "k ! mean+ ( ^? words4 ,p]haps ! poet's fam\s poem 0 sung be=e 8 bir?2 p]haps ! eng9e]'s inv5tion lay 9 ! patt]n _w1 protect$ by 8 spell1 :ile he grew to manhood & advanc$ 9 sci5ce & made ready to claim x = 8 own1 8 prior & spiritual creation4 ,p]haps1 :5 two m5 discov] or inv5t ! same ?+ at ab\t ! same "t1 "o has succe$$ 9 appropriat+ ! design :i* ! o!r left beh9d him :5 he came back to e>?4 ,sometimes1 p]haps1 bo? h tak5 f ! invisible ! creation ( a ?ird man1 :o /ill awaits rebir?4 ,lionel babbl$ on to me ab\t ! life to come1 & ( :at a *>m+ "m ,miss ---- w\ld be4 ,%e _h always be5 good to him4 8,p]haps10 ,i said1 8_m ( u :o return almo/ imm$iately1 z y hope to d1 seek out ^? :o h be5 good to u 9 a =m] life40 8,!re is ano!r po9t10 ,lionel said4 8,miss ---- is a fri5d ( my own "m1 ! "o ,i left a few ye>s ago4 ,x w be s good to h h] hold my h& aga940 8,d y ?9k %e w recognise y80 ,i ask$4 8,:o kn[s8 ,%e believes 9 rebir?40 8,h[ c y say t8 ,y 7 s little :5 y came out60 8,i 0 sev5 ye>s old1 & already %e _h told me t we live _m lives on e>?40 8,bless ! s\ls :o fir/ br\ght t belief to ! ,we/]n _w60 ,i exclaim$4 8,& n[1 my boy1 is !re any?+ t ,i c d = y aft] y leave me80 8,yes1 ( c\rse2 y c wat* ov] my new "m1 & w>n h] if any dang] ?reat5s h] or me40 8,!n make me acqua9t$ ) h] n[40 ,we w5t out into ! mat]ial _w1 ! boy & ,i4 ,already ,i h told y h[ we g4 ,he took me to a little h\se 9 "o ( ! suburbs ( ,bo/on4 ,we ent]$ a room--x 0 !n ab\t elev5 o'clock at night ^u t "p ( ! e>?1--& ,i saw a fair "y woman kneel+ beside h] b$1 pray+ to ,god t ,he w\ld bless ! union ( ! morr[ :i* 0 to give h] to ! man %e lov$4 ,lionel w5t close to h] & ?rew 8 arms ab\t h] neck4 ,%e />t$1 z if %e actually felt ! contact1 & sprang to h] feet4 8,miss ----1 ,miss ----1 don't y "k me80 he cri$2 b :ile ,i c\ld he> him1 %e evid5tly c\ld n1 ?\gh %e look$ ab\t h] 9 a half-fright5$ way4 ,!n1 suppos+ t ! t\* & ! pres5ce %e _h felt 7 imag9>y1 %e aga9 fell ^u h] knees & w5t on ) h] int]rupt$ pray]4 8,come away10 ,i said to ! boy2 & we left h] !re ) h] dreams & h] devotions4 ,t 0 ! la/ ,i saw ( ,lionel4 ,he bade me good-bye1 say+3 8,i %all /ay ne> h] = a few days4 ,p]haps ,i %all g back & =?1 f h] to y2 b if ,i d n return1 ,i w meet y aga9 9 a few ye>s40 8,yes10 ,i said1 8x is aff9ity & desire :i* draw s\ls toge!r1 ei!r on e>? or 9 ! o!r _w40 ,:5 next ,i met ! ,tea*] ,i told him ab\t ,lionel1 & ask$ him if he ?\ght ! boy c\ld come out to me n[ & !n1 aft] 8 life on e>? _h begun1 z an unborn entity 9 ! %elt] ( 8 "m's =m4 8,probably n10 he repli$4 8,if he 7 an adept s\l1 he might d t2 b ) a s\l ( ev5 high developm5t1 lack+ real adept%ip1 x w\ld be impossible40 8,yet10 ,i said1 8m5 liv+ on e>? d come out "h 9 dreams40 8,yes1 b :5 ! s\l ent]s matt]1 prep>+ = rebir?1 x ent]s pot5tiality1 if we may use ! t]m1 & all its /r5g? is ne$$ 9 ! h]culean ef=t to =m ! new body & adju/ to x4 ,aft] bir?1 :5 ! eyes are op5$1 & ! lungs are exp&$ to ! air1 ! task is easi]1 & !re may be left en\gh unus$ en]gy to bridge ! gulf4 8,b10 he w5t on1 8^? :o are soon to be mo!rs are (t5 vaguely consci\s ( ! s\ls !y h>b\r4 ,ev5 :5 !y d n grasp ! full significance ( ! miracle t is be+ p]=m$ ?r\gh !m1 !y h /range dreams & visions1 :i* are mo/ly glimpses into ! pa/ inc>nations ( ! unborn *ild4 ,!y see dream c\ntries :]e ! entity )9 has dwelt 9 ! pa/2 !y feel desires :i* !y _c expla9--reflect$ desires :i* are m]ely ! lat5t ye>n+s ( ! unborn "o2 !y exp]i5ce gr\ndless fe>s :i* are its =m] dreads & t]rors4 ,! "m :o n\ri%es a truly great s\l1 dur+ ?is p]iod ( =mation may h]self gr[ spiritually beyond h] own unaid$ possibility2 :ile ! "m ( an unborn crim9al (t5 develops /range p]v]sities1 q unlike h] normal /ate ( m9d4 8,if a woman 7 suffici5tly intellig5t & in=m$1 %e c\ld judge f h] own feel+s & ideas :at sort ( s\l 0 to be h] *ild "s day1 & prep>e to guide x accord+ly4 ,m k is ne$$1 "h z else:]e40 ,s1 z 9 all my exp]i5ces1 ,i le>n$ some?+ ?r\gh ! pass+ out ( ,lionel4 ,,lett] ,,xxxv ,,! ,,beautiful ,,be+ ,,yes1 ,i h se5 angels1 if by angels y mean spiritual be+s :o h nev] dwelt z m5 ^u ! e>?4 ,z a man is to a rock1 s is an angel to a man 9 vividness ( life4 ,if we ev] exp]i5c$ t /ate ( e!ric joy1 we h lo/ x ?r\gh long association ) matt]4 ,c we ev] rega9 x8 ,p]haps4 ,! ev5t is 9 our h&4 ,%all ,i tell y ( "o :om ,i call ! ,beautiful ,be+8 ,if x has a "n 9 heav51 ,i h n he>d x4 ,is ! ,beautiful ,be+ man or woman8 ,sometimes x seems to be "o1 sometimes ! o!r4 ,!re is a my/]y "h :i* ,i _c fa?om4 ,"o night ,i seem$ to be recl9+ ^u a moonbeam1 :i* means t ! poet :i* dwells 9 all m5 0 awake 9 me4 ,i seem$ to be recl9+ ^u a moonbeam1 & ec/asy fill$ my he>t4 ,= ! mom5t ,i _h escap$ ! clut*es ( ,"t1 & 0 liv+ 9 t e!ric quietude :i* is m]ely ! activity ( rapture rais$ to ! la/ degree4 ,i mu/ h be5 enjoy+ a =eta/e ( t p>adoxical /ate :i* ! wise ones ( ! ,ea/ call ,nirvana4 ,i 0 vividly consci\s ( ! moonbeam & ( myself1 & 9 myself seem$ to be ev]y?+ else 9 ! univ]se4 ,x 0 ! ne>e/ ,i ev] came to a realisation ( t supreme decl>ation1 8,i am40 ,! pa/ & ! future seem$ equally pres5t 9 ! mom5t4 ,_h a voice :isp]$ t x 0 ye/]day1 ,i %\ld h acquiesc$ 9 ! ass]tion2 _h ,i be5 told t x 0 a million ye>s h5ce1 ,i %\ld h be5 also ass5tive4 ,b :e!r x 0 really ye/]day or a million ye>s h5ce matt]$ n 9 ! lea/4 ,p]haps ! ,beautiful ,be+ only comes to ^? = :om ! mom5t & et]nity are "o4 ,i he>d a voice say3 8,bro!r1 x is ,i40 ,!re 0 no "q 9 my m9d z to :o _h spok54 8,x is ,i0 c only be utt]$ 9 su* a voice by "o ^: individuality is s va/ z to be almo/ univ]sal1 "o :o has dipp$ 9 ! ocean ( ! ,all1 yet :o kn[s ! m9ute by reason ( its own inclusiv5ess4 ,/&+ be=e me 0 ! ,beautiful ,be+1 radiant 9 its own light4 ,_h x be5 less lovely ,i might h gasp$ ) wond]2 b ! v p]fection ( its =m & pres5ce diffus$ an atmosph]e ( calm4 ,i m>vell$ n1 because ! /ate ( my consci\sness 0 m>vel4 ,i 0 lift$ s f> above ! commonplace t ,i _h no /&>d by :i* to measure ! exp]i5ce ( t mom5t4 ,imag9e y\? immortalis$1 ! fleet+ made et]nal4 ,imag9e ! bloom ( a *ild's face & ! eyes ( ! ages ( k4 ,imag9e ! brilliancy ( a ?\s& lives conc5trat$ 9 ^? eyes1 & ! smile ^u ! lips ( a love s pure t x asks no answ]+ love f ^? x smiles ^u4 ,b ! language ( e>? _c describe ! une>?ly1 nor c\ld ! und]/&+ ( man grasp 9 a mom5t ^? joys :i* ! ,beautiful ,be+ reveal$ to me 9 t h\r ( supreme life4 ,= ! possibilities ( exi/5ce h be5 wid5$ = me1 ! mean+s ( ! s\l h deep5$4 ,^? :o behold ! ,beautiful ,be+ are nev] ! same aga9 z !y 7 be=e4 ,!y may =get = a "t1 & lose 9 ! bus9ess ( liv+ ! magic ( t pres5ce2 b :5ev] !y d rememb]1 !y are caught up aga9 on ! w+s ( ! =m] rapture4 ,x may happ5 to "o :o is liv+ ^u ! e>?2 x may happ5 to "o 9 ! spaces betwe5 ! />s2 b ! exp]i5ce mu/ be ! same :5 x comes to all2 = only to "o 9 ! /ate 9 :i* x dwells c\ld ! ,beautiful ,be+ reveal itself at all4 ,a ,,song ,,( ,,! ,,beautiful ,,be+ ,:5 y he> a ru/l+ 9 ! air1 li/5 aga93 !re may be some?+ !re4 ,:5 y feel a w>m? my/]i\s & lovely 9 ! he>t1 !re may be some?+ !re1 some?+ s5t to y f a w>m & lovely s\rce4 ,:5 a joy unkn[n fills y\r be+1 & y\r s\l goes out1 out 444 t[>d "s lov$ my/]y1 y "k n :]e1 "k t ! my/]y itself is rea*+ t[>d y ) w>m & lov+1 ?\gh invisible1 arms4 ,we :o live 9 ! invisible are n invisible to ea* o!r4 ,!re are t5d] col\rs "h & exquisite =ms1 & ! eye gloats on beauty nev] se5 ^u ! e>?4 ,oh1 ! joy ( simple life to be1 & to s+ 9 y\r s\l all day z ! bird s+s to its mate6 ,= y are s++ to y\r mate :5ev] y\r s\l s+s4 ,did y fancy x 0 only ! spr+-"t t ?rill$ y & mov$ y to li/5 to ! ru/l+ ( w+s8 ,! spr+-"t ( ! he>t is all "t1 & ! autumn may nev] come4 ,li/56 ,:5 ! l>k s+s1 he s+s to y4 ,:5 ! wat]s s+1 !y s+ to y4 ,& z y\r he>t rejoices1 !re is always ano!r he>t some:]e t responds2 & ! s\l ( ! li/5+ heav5s gr[s glad ) ! "m joy4 ,i am glad to be "h1 ,i am glad to be !re4 ,!re is beauty :]ev] ,i g4 ,c y guess ! reason1 *ildr5 ( e>?8 ,come out & play ) me 9 ! daisy fields ( space4 ,i w wait = y at ! corn] :]e ! f\r w9ds meet4 ,y w n lose y\r way1 if y foll[ ! gleam at ! end ( ! g>d5 ( hope4 ,!re is music also beyond ! ro> ( ! e>? z x swi%es ?r\gh space3 ,!re is music 9 keys unkn[n to ! dull] e>s ( ! e>?1 & h>monies ^: *ords are s\ls attun$ to ea* o!r4 ,li/54444 ,d y he> !m8 ,oh1 ! e>s are made = he>+1 & ! eyes are made = see+1 & ! he>t is made = lov+6 ,! h\rs g by & leave no m>k1 & ! ye>s are z sylphs t dance on ! air & leave no footpr9ts1 & ! c5turies m>* solemn & sl[4 ,b we smile1 = joy is also 9 ! solemn tread ( ! c5turies4 ,joy1 joy ev]y:]e4 ,x is = y & = me1 & = y z mu* z = me4 ,w y meet me out :]e ! f\r w9ds meet8 ,,lett] ,,xxxvi ,,! ,,holl[ ,,sph]e ,,"s "t ago ,i />t$ to write to y ab\t c]ta9 visits :i* ,i _h made to ! inf]nal regions2 b ,i 0 call$ away1 & ! lett] 0 n f9i%$4 ,to-night ,i w take up ! /ory aga94 ,y mu/ "k t !re are _m hells1 & !y are mo/ly ( our own mak+4 ,t is "o ( ^? platitudes :i* are bas$ ^u fact4 ,desir+ "o day to see ! p>ticul> k9d ( hell to :i* a drunk>d w\ld be likely to g1 ,i s\ght t "p ( ! holl[ sph]e ar\nd ! _w :i* corresponds to "o ( ^? c\ntries :]e drunk5ness is mo/ common4 ,s\ls1 :5 !y come out1 usually rema9 9 ! neighb\rhood :]e !y h liv$1 unless !re is "s /rong reason to ! contr>y4 ,i _h no difficulty 9 f9d+ a hell full ( drunk>ds4 ,:at d y fancy !y 7 do+8 ,rep5t+ _! s9s8 ,n at all4 ,!y 7 hov]+ ar\nd ^? places on e>? :]e ! fumes ( alcohol1 & ! heavi] fumes ( ^? :o ov]-indulge 9 alcohol1 made sick5+ ! atmosph]e4 ,x is no wond] t s5sitive p dislike ! neighb\rhood ( dr9k+ saloons4 ,y w\ld draw back ) disgu/ & refuse to write = me %\ld ,i tell y all t ,i saw4 ,"o or two in/ances w suffice4 ,i plac$ myself 9 a sympa!tic & neutral /ate1 s t ,i c\ld see into bo? worlds4 ,a "y man ) re/less eyes & a tr\bl$ face ent]$ "o ( ^? 8g9 palaces0 9 :i* gild+ & highly poli%$ imitation mahogany t5d to impress ! mis]able wayf>] ) ! idea t he is enjoy+ ! luxury ( ! 8k+doms ( ?is _w40 ,! "y man's clo!s 7 ?readb>e1 & 8 %oes _h se5 mu* we>4 ,a /ubble ( be>d 0 on 8 *91 = ! price ( a %ave is ! price ( a dr9k1 & a man takes t :i* he desires mo/--:5 he c get x4 ,he 0 lean+ on ! b>1 dr9k+ a glass ( "s s\l-de/roy+ comp\nd4 ,& close to him1 tall] ?an he & b5d+ ov] him1 ) its repulsive1 bloat$1 gha/ly face press$ close to 81 z if to smell 8 :isky-ta9t$ brea?1 0 "o ( ! mo/ horrible a/ral be+s :i* ,i h se5 9 ?is _w s9ce ,i came out4 ,! h&s ( ! creature 7& ,i use t ^w to sugge/ its vitality7--! h&s ( ! creature 7 clut*+ ! "y man's =m1 "o long & nak$ arm 0 ar\nd 8 %\ld]s1 ! o!r ar\nd 8 hips4 ,x 0 lit]ally suck+ ! liquor-soak$ life ( its victim1 absorb+ him1 us+ him1 9 ! successful attempt to enjoy vic>i\sly ! passion :i* dea? _h int5sifi$4 ,b 0 t a creature 9 hell8 y ask4 ,yes1 = ,i c\ld look into its m9d & see its suff]+s4 ,= ev] 7! words 8= ev]0 may be us$ ( t :i* seems endless7 ?is entity 0 doom$ to crave & crave & nev] to be satisfi$4 ,!re 0 9 x j en\gh left ( ! m9d :i* _h made x man--j en\gh to cat* a fitful glimpse n[ & !n ( ! horror ( its own /ate4 ,x _h no desire to escape1 b ! v consci\sness ( ! impossibility ( escape 0 an add$ torm5t4 ,& dread 0 9 ! eyes ( ! ?+--dread ( ! future into :i* x c\ld n look1 b :i* x felt wait+ to drag x into t /ate ( ev5 great] suff]+ ?an its pres5t1 :5 ! a/ral p>ticles ( its =m1 unable long] to hold toge!r because ( ! abs5ce ( ! unify+ s\l1 w\ld beg9 to r5d & te> :at 0 left ( ! m9d & a/ral n]ves--r5d+ & te>+ asund]1 9 t]ror & pa91 t %ape ^: end 0 at h&4 ,= only ! s\l endures1 & t :i* ! s\l des]ts mu/ p]i% & dis9tegrate4 ,& ! "y man :o lean$ on ! b> 9 t gild$ palace ( g9 0 fill$ ) a nameless horror & s\ght to leave ! place2 b ! arms ( ! ?+ t 0 n[ 8 ma/] clut*$ him tight] & tight]1 ! sodd51 vapor\s *eek 0 press$ clos] to 81 ! desire ( ! vampire creature ar\s$ an answ]+ desire 9 its victim1 & ! "y man dem&$ ano!r glass4 ,v]ily1 e>? & hell are neighb\r+ /ates1 & ! fronti] has nev] be5 *>t$4 ,i h se5 hells ( lu/ & hells ( hatr$2 hells ( untru?fulness1 :]e e object :i* ! wret*$ dwell] tri$ to grasp turn$ into some?+ else :i* 0 a d5ial ( ! ?+ desir$1 :]e tru? 0 mock$ et]nally & no?+ 0 real1 b ev]y?+--*ang+ & unc]ta9 z untru?fulness--became its own anti!sis4 ,i h se5 ! angui%$ faces ( ^? n yet resign$ to lies1 h se5 _! frantic ef=ts to clut* reality1 :i* melt$ 9 _! grasp4 ,= ! habit ( untru?fulness1 :5 c>ri$ into ?is _w ( %ift+ %apes1 surr\nds ! untru?ful p]son ) ev]-*ang+ images :i* mock him & elude4 ,w\ld he see ! faces ( 8 lov$ ones8 ,! promise is giv51 & z ! faces appe> !y turn into gr9n+ furies4 ,w\ld he grasp 9 memory ! prizes ( ambition8 ,!y are %[n to be b disgrace 9 ano!r =m1 & pride becomes weak %ame4 ,w\ld he clasp ! h& ( fri5d%ip8 ,! h& is ext5d$--b 9 its clut* is a knife :i* pi]ces ! vitals ( ! li> )\t de/roy+ him1 & ! futile attempt beg9s aga91 ov] & ov]1 until ! uneasy consci5ce is exhau/$4 ,bew>e ( dea?b$ rep5tance & its aft]-h>ve/ ( morbid memories4 ,x is bett] to g into et]nity ) "o's k>mic burd5s bravely c>ri$ ^u ! back1 r ?an to sl9k ?r\gh ! back door ( hell 9 ! /ock+$-feet ( a sorry c[>dice4 ,if y h s9n$1 accept ! fact ) c\rage & resolve to s9 no m2 b he :o dwells ^u 8 s9s 9 8 la/ h\r w live !m ov] & ov] aga9 9 ! /ate beyond ! tomb4 ,e act is foll[$ by its inevitable reaction2 e cause is accompani$ by its own effect1 :i* no?+--save ! p[]ful dynamics ( ,w itself--c modify2 & :5 ,w modifies ! effect ( an antec$5t cause1 x is always by sett+ up a c\nt]act+ & m p[]ful cause ?an ! fir/--a cause s /rong t ! o!r is irresi/ibly c>ri$ along ) x1 z a great flood c sweep a trickl+ /ream ( wat] f an op5 hose-pipe1 c>ry+ ! hose-pipe cause & its trickl+ effect along ) ! ru%+ torr5t ( its own flood4 ,if y recognise ! fact t y h s9n$1 set up good actions m p[]ful ?an y\r s9s1 & reap ! rew>d = ^?4 ,!re is mu* m to be said ab\t hells1 b ?is is en\gh = to-night4 ,at ano!r "t ,i may return to ! subject4 ,,lett] ,,xxxvii ,,an ,,empty ,,*9a ,,cup ,,x is no wond] t *ildr51 no matt] h[ old & exp]i5c$ _! s\ls1 h to be retaught 9 ea* life ! relative values ( all ?+s accord+ to ! artificial /&>ds ( ! _w2 = out "h ^? values lose _! mean+4 ,t a s\l _h h\ses1 l&s1 & hon\rs among m5 does n increase 8 value 9 our eyes4 ,we _c hope to pr(it by 8 disc>d$ ri*es4 ,! s\l 9 ! 8h]eaft]0 builds its own h\se1 & ! mat]ials !re( are free z air4 ,if ,i use ! h\se :i* ano!r has built1 ,i miss ! enjoym5t ( creat+ my own4 ,!re is no?+ wor? /eal+ out "h1 s no "o trembles = fe> ( burgl>s 9 ! night4 ,ev5 bores c be escap$ by retir+ to ! v c5tre ( oneself1 = a bore is himself too self-c5tr$ ev] to pi]ce to ! c5tre ( anyone else4 ,on e>? y value titles1 inh]it$ or acquir$2 "h a man's "n is n ( mu* importance ev5 to himself1 & a visit+-c>d w\ld be lo/ ?r\gh ! cracks 9 ! floor ( heav54 ,no footman angel w\ld ev] deliv] x to 8 ,"l & ,ma/]4 ,"o day ,i met a lady rec5tly arriv$4 ,%e _h n be5 "h long en\gh to h lo/ h] assurance ( sup]iority ov] ord9>y m5 & angels4 ,t morn+ ,i _h on my be/ ,roman toga1 = ,i _h be5 reliv+ ! pa/2 & ! lady1 mi/ak+ me = ,cs> or "s o!r anci5t ari/ocrat1 ask$ me to direct h] to a place :]e g5tlewom5 congregat$4 ,i 0 =c$ to admit t ,i did n "k ( any su* resort2 b z ! visitor seem$ lonely & bewild]$1 ,i invit$ h] to re/ beside me = a "t & to "q me if %e wi%$4 8,i h be5 "h sev]al mon?s10 ,i said1 8& h ga9$ consid]able exp]i5ce40 ,x 0 pla9 to see t %e 0 puzzl$ by my rem>k4 ,%e glanc$ at my classical g>m5t1 & ,i c\ld feel h] ?9k+ t !re 0 some?+ incongru\s betwe5 x & my ass]tion t ,i _h be5 "h only a few mon?s4 8,p]haps y are an actor10 %e said4 8,we are all actors "h10 ,i repli$4 ,?is seem$ to puzzle h] m ?an ev]1 & %e said t %e did n und]/&4 ,poor lady6 ,i felt sorry = h]1 & ,i tri$ my be/ to expla9 to h] ! conditions "u :i* we live4 8,y mu/ "k 9 ! fir/ place10 ,i said1 8t ?is is ! l& ( realis$ ideals4 ,n[ a man :o has always desir$ to be a k+ c play ! "p up "h if he wi%es to1 & no "o w laugh at him2 = ea* _s has "s fav\rite dream :i* he acts out to 8 own satisfaction4 8,we h1 madam10 ,i cont9u$1 8reacquir$ ! tol]ance & ! c\rtesy ( *ildr5 :o nev] ridicule "o ano!r's play40 8,is heav5 m]ely a play-room80 %e ask$1 9 a %ock$ tone4 8,n at all10 ,i answ]$2 8b y are n 9 heav540 ,h] look ( appreh5sion caus$ me imm$iately to add3 8,nor are y 9 hell1 ei!r4 ,:at 0 y\r religion ^u ! e>?80 8,:y1 ,i pr(ess$ ! usual religion ( my c\ntry & /ation2 b ,i nev] gave x mu* ?\ght40 8,p]haps ! idea ( purgatory is n unfamili> to y40 8,i am n a papi/10 %e said1 ) "s w>m?4 8,nev]!less1 a papi/ 9 y\r position w\ld conceive himself to be 9 purgatory40 8,i am c]ta9ly n happy10 %e admitt$1 8because ev]y?+ is s /range40 8,h y no fri5ds "h80 ,i inquir$4 8,i mu/ h _m acqua9tances10 %e said2 8b ,i nev] c>$ = intimate fri5d%ips4 ,i us$ to ent]ta9 a good deal2 my husb&'s political position dem&$ x40 8,p]haps !re is someone on ?is side to :om y 7 specially k9d at "s "t or o!r1 someone ^: grief y help$ to be>1 ^: pov]ty y eas$40 8,i patronis$ our organis$ *>ities40 8,i fe> t sort ( help is too imp]sonal to be rememb]$ "h4 ,h y no *ildr580 8,no40 8,no bro!rs or si/]s on ?is side80 8,i qu>rell$ ) my only bro!r = m>ry+ b5ea? him40 8,b surely10 ,i said1 8y mu/ h _h a "m4 ,0 %e n wait+ = y :5 y came ov]80 8,no40 ,?is surpris$ me1 = ,i _h be5 told t all "m spirits :o h n gone back to ! _w "k by a peculi> ?rill :5 a *ild to :i* !y h giv5 bir? is ab\t to be reborn into ! spiritual _w--a sort ( sympa!tic aft]-pa91 ! f9al & sweete/ rew>d ( mo!rhood4 8,!n %e mu/ h re9c>nat$10 ,i said4 8,d y hold to t pagan belief80 ! lady inquir$1 ) j a t\* ( sup]iority4 8,i ?\ght t only que] p1 ,!osophi/s & su*1 believ$ 9 re9c>nation40 8,i 0 always que]10 ,i admitt$4 8,b y "k1 ( c\rse1 de> madam1 t ab\t ?ree-qu>t]s ( ! e>?'s inhabitants are famili> ) t !ory 9 "s =m or o!r40 ,we cont9u$ our talk = a little "t1 & mean:ile ,i 0 puzzl+ my he>t z to :at ,i c\ld d to help ?is poor lonely woman1 = :om no "o 0 wait+4 ,i pass$ 9 m5tal review ?is & t m9i/]+ angel ( my acqua9tance1 & wond]$ :i* ( !m w\ld be consid]$ mo/ correct f ! conv5tional e>?ly po9t ( view4 ,! noble/ ( !m 0 usually at ! side ( "s newly arriv$ un=tunate woman--to use a euphemism ( t polite society :i* my late/ protge _h frequ5t$4 ,! o!rs 7 "h1 !re1 & ev]y:]e1 b g5]ally ) ^? s\ls :o ne$$ !m mo/2 :ile ! ne$ ( my pres5t companion 0 m real ?an urg5t4 ,if ,lionel _h be5 "h1 he might h ent]ta9$ h] = a :ile4 ,i wi%$ t ,i _h cultivat$ ! acqua9tance ( "s ( ^? ladies :o cro*et & gossip 9 ?is _w z !y cro*et$ & gossip$ 9 y\rs4 ,d n be %ock$4 ,did y fancy t a lifelong habit c\ld be laid aside 9 a mom5t8 ,z wom5 on e>? dream (t5 ( _! knitt+1 s !y d "h4 ,x is z easy to knit 9 ?is _w z x is to dream 9 y\rs4 ,und]/& t ! _w 9 :i* ,i n[ live is no m ess5tially sacr$ ?an is ! _w 9 :i* y live1 nor is x any m my/]i\s to ^? :o dwell 9 x4 ,to ! s]i\s s\l all conditions are sacr$--except ^? t are pr(ane1 & bo? are f\nd out "h z well z on ! e>?4 ,b to return to ! lonely woman4 ,i 0 /ill wond]+ :at ,i %\ld d ) h] :51 look+ up1 ,i saw ! ,tea*] approa*+4 ,he _h ) him ano!r woman1 z l ! fir/ z "o empty *9a cup is l ano!r empty *9a cup4 ,!n he & ,i w5t away & left ! two toge!r4 8,i did n "k10 ,i said to ! ,tea*]1 8t y tr\bl$ y\rself ) any s\ls b ^? ( consid]able developm5t40 ,he smil$3 8,x 0 y\r p]plexity :i* ,i came to relieve1 n t ( ^? poor ladies40 ,!n he began to talk to me ab\t relative values4 8,9 a s5se10 he said1 8"o s\l is z mu* wor? help+ z ano!r2 9 a deep] s5se1 p]haps x is n4 ,d n ?9k t ,i am indiff]5t to ! suff]+s ( ! weake/ ones because ,i give my "t & att5tion to ! /rong4 ,l ! m9i/]+ angels1 ,i g :]e ,i am mo/ ne$$4 ,only ! /rong ones c le>n :at ,i h to tea*4 ,! weak ones are ! *>ges ( ! ,messiahs & _! foll[]s4 ,b1 nev]!less1 betwe5 u & ! ,messiahs !re is bro!rhood & !re is mutual und]/&+4 ,ea* works 9 8 own field4 ,! ,messiahs help ! _m2 we help ! few4 ,_! rew>d 9 love is great] ?an ours2 b we d n "w = rew>d any m ?an !y d4 ,ea* foll[s ! law ( 8 be+4 8,to be lov$ by all m5 a tea*] mu/ be kn[n to all m51 & we reveal ourselves only to a few *os5 ones4 ,:y d we n g ! way ( ! ,messiahs8 ,because ! balance mu/ be ma9ta9$4 ,= e great work] 9 ! sight ( m5 !re is ano!r work] out ( sight4 ,:i* k9d ( tea*] is ( great] value8 ,! "q is out ( ord]4 ,! ,nor? & ! ,s\? are int]dep5d5t1 & !re are two poles to e magnet40 ,,lett] ,,xxxviii ,,:]e ,,"t ,,is ,,n ,i ,,?9k y n[ und]/& f :at ,i h said t n all ! s\ls :o h pass$ ! airy fronti] are ei!r 9 heav5 or hell4 ,few rea* an extreme1 & mo/ live out _! allott$ p]iod "h z !y liv$ out _! allott$ p]iod on e>?1 )\t realis+ ei!r ! possibilities or ! significance ( _! condition4 ,wisdom is a tree ( sl[ gr[?2 ! r+s ar\nd its trunk are e>?ly lives1 & ! grooves betwe5 are ! p]iods betwe5 ! lives4 ,:o grieves t an acorn is sl[ 9 becom+ an oak8 ,x is equally unphilosophical to feel t ! tru? :i* ,i h endeav\r$ to make y und]/&--! tru? ( ! s\l's great leisure--is necess>ily sad4 ,if a man 7 to become an ar*angel 9 a few ye>s' "t1 he w\ld suff] t]ribly f gr[+-pa9s4 ,! ,law is implacable1 b x (t5 seems to be k9d4 ,nev]!less !re are _m s\ls 9 heav51 & !re are _m heav5s1 ( :i* ,i h se5 a few4 ,b d n fancy t mo/ p g f place to place & f /ate to /ate z ,i d4 ,! ?+s :i* ,i describe to y are n exceptional2 b t "o man %\ld be able to see & describe s _m ?+s is exceptional inde$4 ,i owe x l>gely to ! ,tea*]4 ,)\t 8 guidance ,i c\ld n h acquir$ s ri* an exp]i5ce4 ,yes1 !re are _m heav5s4 ,la/ night ,i felt ! ye>n+ = beauty :i* sometimes came to me on e>?4 ,"o ( ! /range/ ph5om5a ( ?is e!real _w is ! trem5d\s attraction by sympa?y--! attraction ( ev5ts1 ,i mean4 ,desire a ?+ int5sely en\gh1 & y are on ! way to x4 ,a body ( a fea!r's weight moves swiftly :5 propell$ by a free w4 ,i felt a ye>n+ = beauty1 :i* is a synonym = heav54 ,did ,i really move f my place1 or did heav5 come to me8 ,i _c say1 space means s little "h4 ,= e vale )\t !re is a vale )94 ,we desire a place1 & we are !re4 ,p]haps ! ,tea*] c\ld give y a sci5tific explanation ( ?is1 b ,i _c at ! mom5t4 ,& !n1 ,i want to tell y ab\t t heav5 :]e ,i 0 la/ night4 ,x 0 s beautiful t ! *>m ( x is ov] me /ill4 ,i saw a d\ble r[ ( d>k-topp$ trees1 l cypresses1 & at ! end ( ?is long av5ue d[n :i* ,i pass$ 0 a s(tly diffus$ light4 ,some:]e ,i h read ( a heav5 light$ by a ?\s& suns1 b my heav5 0 n l t4 ,! light z ,i approa*$ x 0 s(t] ?an moonlight1 ?\gh cle>]4 ,p]haps ! light ( ! sun w\ld %9e z s(tly if se5 ?r\gh _m veils ( alaba/]4 ,yet ?is light seem$ to come f n[h]e4 ,x simply 04 ,z ,i approa*$ ,i saw two be+s walk+ t[>ds me1 h& 9 h&4 ,!re 0 su* a look ( happ9ess on _! faces z "o nev] sees on ! faces ( e>?4 ,only a _s unconsci\s ( "t c\ld look l t4 ,i %\ld say t ^! two 7 man & woman1 save t !y seem$ s diff]5t f :at y und]/& by man & woman4 ,!y did n ev5 look at ea* o!r z !y walk$2 ! t\* ( ! h& seem$ to make !m s mu* "o1 t ! realisation ( ! eye c\ld h add$ no?+ to _! cont5t4 ,l ! light :i* came f n[h]e1 !y simply 74 ,a little f>!r on ,i saw a gr\p ( bright-rob$ *ildr5 danc+ among fl[]s4 ,h& 9 h& 9 a r+ !y danc$1 & _! g>m5ts1 :i* 7 l ! petals ( fl[]s1 mov$ ) ! rhy?m ( _! danc+ limbs4 ,a great joy fill$ my he>t4 ,!y1 too1 7 unconsci\s ( "t1 & might h be5 danc+ !re f et]nity1 = all ,i knew4 ,b :e!r _! gladness 0 ( ! mom5t or ( ! ages _h no significance = me or = !m4 ,l ! light1 & l ! lov]s :o _h pass$ me h& 9 h&1 !y 71 & t 0 en\gh4 ,i _h left ! av5ue ( cypresses & /ood 9 a wide pla91 encircl$ by a =e/ ( blossom+ trees4 ,! od\rs ( spr+ 7 on ! air1 & birds sang4 ,9 ! c5tre ( ! pla9 a great circul> f\nta9 play$ ) ! wat]s1 toss+ !m 9 ! air1 :5ce !y desc5d$ 9 fea!ry spray4 ,an atmosph]e ( inexpressible *>m 0 ov] ev]y?+4 ,"h & !re 9 ?is circul> fl[]-sc5t$ heav5 walk$ angelic be+s1 _m or mo/ ( :om mu/ "s "t h be5 human4 ,two by two !y walk$1 or 9 gr\ps1 smil+ to !mselves or at "o ano!r4 ,on e>? y (t5 use ! ^w 8peace02 b comp>$ ) ! peace ( t place ! greate/ peace ( e>? is only turmoil4 ,i realis$ t ,i 0 9 "o ( ! faire/ heav5s1 b t ,i 0 alone !re4 ,no soon] _h ?is ?\ght ( solitude f\nd lodgm5t 9 my he>t ?an ,i saw /&+ be=e me ! ,beautiful ,be+ ab\t :om ,i wrote y a little "t ago4 ,x smil$1 & said to me3 8,he :o is sadly consci\s ( 8 solitude is no long] 9 heav54 ,s ,i h come to hold y "h yet a little :ile40 8,is ?is ! p>ticul> heav5 :]e y dwell80 ,i ask$4 8,oh1 ,i dwell n[h]e & ev]y:]e10 ! ,beautiful ,be+ answ]$4 8,i am "o ( ! volunt>y w&]]s1 :o f9d ! *>m ( home 9 e heav5ly or e>?ly place40 8,s y sometimes visit e>?80 8,yes1 ev5 ! remote/ hells ,i g to1 b ,i nev] /ay !re long4 ,my purpose is to "k all ?+s1 & yet to rema9 unatta*$40 8,& d y love ! e>?80 8,! e>? is "o ( my playgr\nds4 ,i s+ to ! *ildr5 ( e>? sometimes2 & :5 ,i s+ to ! poets1 !y believe t _! muse is ) !m4 ,"h is a song :i* ,i sang "o night to a s\l :i* dwells among m53 8,my si/]1 ,i am (t5 ) y :5 y realise x n4 ,= me a poet s\l is a well ( wat] 9 ^: deeps ,i c see myself reflect$4 ,i live 9 a glam\r ( light & col\r1 :i* y mortal poets va9ly try to express 9 magic words4 ,i am 9 ! sunset & 9 ! />2 ,i wat*$ ! moon gr[ old & y gr[ "y4 ,9 *ildhood y s\ght = me 9 ! swiftly mov+ cl\d2 9 maturity y fanci$ y _h caught me 9 ! gleam ( a lov]'s eye2 b ,i am ! elud] ( m54 ,i beckon & ,i fly1 & ! t\* ( my feet does n press d[n ! heads ( ! blossom+ daisies4 ,y c f9d me & lose me aga91 = mortal _c hold me4 ,i am ne>e/ to ^? :o seek beauty--:e!r 9 ?\ght or 9 =m2 ,i fly f ^? :o seek to imprison me4 ,y c come ea* day to ! region :]e ,i dwell4 ,sometimes y w meet me1 sometimes n2 = my w is ! w9d's w1 & ,i answ] no beckon+ f+]3 ,b :5 ,i beckon1 ! s\ls come fly+ f ! f\r corn]s ( heav54 ,y\r s\l comes fly+1 too2 = y are "o ( ^? ,i h call$ by ! spell ( my magic4 ,i h use = y1 & y h mean+ = me2 ,i l to see y\r s\l 9 its h\rs ( dream & ec/asy4 ,:5ev] "o ( my own dreams a dream ( ,p>adise1 ! light gr[s bright] = me1 to :om all ?+s are bright4 ,oh1 =get n ! *>m ( ! mom5t1 =get n ! lure ( ! mood6 ,= ! mood is wis] ?an all ! magi ( e>?1 & ! treasures ( ! mom5t are ri*] & r>] ?an ! ho>d$ weal? ( ! ages4 ,! mom5t is real1 :ile ! age is only a delusion1 a memory1 & a %ad[4 ,be sure t ea* mom5t is all1 & ! mom5t is m ?an "t4 ,"t c>ries an h\r-glass1 & 8 /ep is sl[2 8 hair is :ite ) ! rime ( ye>s1 & 8 scy! is dull ) unwe>i$ m[+2 ,b he nev] yet has caught ! mom5t 9 its flight4 ,he has gr[n old 9 ca/+ nets = x4 ,ah1 ! magic ( life & ( ! endless comb9ation ( liv+ ?+s6 ,i 0 "y :5 ! sun 0 =m$1 & ,i %all be "y :5 ! moon falls dead 9 ! arms ( h] daught] ! e>?4 ,w y n be "y ) me8 ,! du/ is z no?+3 ! s\l is all4 ,l a cresc5t moon on ! surface ( a lake ( wat] is ! mom5t ( love's awak5+2 ,l a fad$ fl[] 9 ! lap ( ! tir$ _w is ! mom5t ( love's dea?4 ,b !re is love & ,love1 & ! love ( ! light = its radiance is ! love ( s\ls = ea* o!r4 ,!re is no dea? :]e ! inn] light %9es1 irradiat+ ! fields ( ! )9--! beyond--! unatta9able atta9m5t4 ,y "k :]e to f9d me40 ,,lett] ,,xxxix ,,! ,,doctr9e ,,( ,,dea? ,,_m times dur+ ! mon?s 9 :i* ,i h be5 "h h ,i se5 m5 & wom5 ly+ 9 a /ate ( unconsci\sness m pr(\nd ?an ! deepe/ sleep1 _! faces expressionless & un9t]e/+4 ,at fir/1 be=e ,i und]/ood ! nature ( _! sleep1 ,i tri$ z an exp]im5t to awak5 "o or two ( !m1 & 0 n successful4 ,9 c]ta9 cases :]e my curiosity 0 ar\s$1 ,i h return$ lat]1 day aft] day1 & f\nd !m /ill ly+ 9 ! same le?>gy4 8,:y10 ,i ask$ myself1 8%\ld any man sleep l t--a sleep s deep t nei!r ! spok5 ^w nor ! physical t\* c\ld ar\se him80 ,"o day :5 ! ,tea*] 0 ) me we pass$ "o ( ^? unconsci\s m5 :om ,i _h se5 be=e1 _h wat*$1 & _h /riv5 unsuccessfully to ar\se4 8,:o are ^! p :o sleep l t80 ,i ask$ ! ,tea*]2 & he repli$3 8,!y are ^? :o 9 _! e>? life d5i$ ! immortality ( ! s\l aft] dea?40 8,h[ t]rible60 ,i said4 8,& w !y nev] awak580 8,yes1 p]haps c5turies1 p]haps ages h5ce1 :5 ! irresi/ible law ( rhy?m %all draw !m out ( _! sleep into inc>nation4 ,= ! law ( rebir? is "o ) ! law ( rhy?m40 8,w\ld x n be possible to awak5 "o ( !m1 ?is man1 = in/ance80 8,y h attempt$ x1 h y n80 ! ,tea*] inquir$1 ) a ke5 look into my face4 8,yes10 ,i admitt$4 8,& y fail$80 8,yes40 ,we look$ at ea* o!r = a mom5t1 !n ,i said3 8,p]haps y1 ) y\r great] p[] & k1 c\ld succe$ :]e ,i h fail$40 ,he made no answ]4 ,8 sil5ce fir$ my int]e/ /ill f>!r1 & ,i said eag]ly3 8,w y n try8 ,w y n awak5 ?is man80 8,y "k n :at y ask10 he repli$4 8,b tell me ?is10 ,i dem&$3 8c\ld y awak5 him80 8,p]haps4 ,b 9 ord] to c\nt]act ! law :i* holds him 9 sleep1 ! law ( ! spell he laid ^u 8 own s\l :5 he w5t out ( life dem&+ unconsci\sness & annihilation--9 ord] to c\nt]act t law1 ,i %\ld h to put 9 op]ation a law /ill /rong]40 8,& t is80 ,i ask$4 8,w10 he answ]$1 8! pot5cy ( w40 8,c\ld y80 8,z ,i said be=e--p]haps40 8,& w y80 8,aga9 ,i say t y "k n :at y ask40 8,w y please expla980 ,i p]si/$1 8= inde$ ?is seems to me to be "o ( ! mo/ m>vell\s ?+s :i* ,i h se540 ,! face ( ! ,tea*] 0 v grave1 z he answ]$3 8,:at good has ?is man done 9 ! pa/ t ,i %\ld place myself betwe5 him & ! law ( cause & effect :i* he has wilfully set 9 op]ation80 8,i d n "k 8 pa/10 ,i said4 8,!n10 ! ,tea*] dem&$1 8w y tell me y\r reason = ask+ me to d ?is ?+80 8,my reason80 8,yes4 ,is x pity = ?is man's un=tunate condition1 or is x sci5tific curiosity on y\r "p80 ,i %\ld gladly h be5 able to say t x 0 pity = ! man's sad /ate :i* mov$ me s2 b "o does n juggle ) tru? or ) motives :5 speak+ to su* a ,tea*]1 s ,i admitt$ t x 0 sci5tific curiosity4 8,9 t case10 he said1 8,i am ju/ifi$ 9 us+ him z a demon/ration ( ! p[] ( ! tra9$ w40 8,x w n h>m him1 w x80 8,on ! contr>y4 ,& ?\gh he may suff] %ock1 x w probably be ! means ( s impress+ 8 m9d t nev] aga91 ev5 9 future lives on e>?1 c he believe himself1 or tea* o!rs to believe1 t dea? ends ev]y?+4 ,z f> z he is conc]n$1 he does n des]ve t ,i %\ld wa/e ^u him s great an am\nt ( en]gy z w be necess>y to ar\se him f ?is sleep1 ?is spell :i* he laid ^u himself ages ago4 ,b if ,i awak5 him1 x w be = y\r sake1 #8t y may believe4'0 ,i wi% ,i c\ld describe ! sc5e :i* took place1 s t y c\ld see x ) ! eyes ( y\r imag9ation4 ,!re lay ! man at our feet1 8 face col\rless & expressionless1 & above him t[]$ ! spl5did =m ( ! ,tea*]1 8 face beautiful ) p[]1 8 eyes brilliant ) ?\ght4 8,c y n see10 ask$ ! ,tea*]1 8a fa9t light surr\nd+ ?is seem+ly lifeless figure80 8,yes1 b ! light is v fa9t inde$40 8,nev]!less10 said ! ,tea*]1 8t light is f> less fa9t ?an is ?is weak s\l's hold ^u ! et]nal tru?4 ,b :]e y see only a pale light ar\nd ! recumb5t =m1 ,i see 9 t light _m pictures ( ! s\l's pa/4 ,i see t he n only d5i$ ! immortality ( ! s\l's consci\sness1 b t he taught 8 doctr9e ( dea? to o!r m5 & made !m ev5 z himself4 ,truly he does n des]ve t ,i %\ld try to awak5 him60 8,yet y w d x80 8,yes1 ,i w d x40 ,i regret t ,i am n p]mitt$ to tell y by :at =m ( words & by :at acts my ,tea*] succe$$1 aft] a mighty ef=t1 9 ar\s+ t man f 8 self-impos$ imitation ( annihilation4 ,i realis$ z nev] be=e--n only ! p]sonal p[] ( ! ,tea*]1 b ! irresi/ible p[] ( a tra9$ & direct$ w4 ,i ?\ght ( t sc5e record$ 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t1 :]e ,jesus said to ! dead man 9 ! tomb1 8,laz>us1 come =?60 8,! s\l ( man is immortal10 decl>$ ! ,tea*]1 look+ fix$ly into ! %r9k+ eyes ( ! awak5$ man & hold+ !m by 8 w4 8,! s\l ( man is immortal10 he repeat$4 ,!n 9 a tone ( comm&3 8,/& up60 ,! man /ruggl$ to 8 feet4 ,?\gh 8 body 0 light z a fea!r1 z are all our bodies "h1 ,i c\ld see t 8 slumb]+ en]gy 0 /ill almo/ too dormant to p]mit ( t really slight ex]tion4 8,y live10 decl>$ ! ,tea*]4 8,y h pass$ ?r\gh dea?1 & y live4 ,d n d>e to d5y t y live4 ,y _c d5y x40 8,b ,i d n believe----0 began ! man1 8 /ubborn mat]ialism /ill *all5g+ ! tru? ( 8 own exi/5ce1 8 memory surviv+ ! ordeal ?r\gh :i* he _h pass$4 ,?is la/ surpris$ me m ?an any?+ else4 ,b aft] a mom5t's /upefaction ,i und]/ood t x 0 ! p[] ( ! ,tea*]'s m5tal picture ( ! a/ral records r\nd ?is s\l :i* _h =c$ ^? memories to awak54 8,sit d[n betwe5 u two10 said ! ,tea*] to ! newly ar\s$ man1 8& let u reason toge!r4 ,y ?\ght y\rself a great reason]1 did y n1 :5 y walk$ ! e>? z ,s-&-s80 8,i did40 8,y see t y 7 mi/ak5 9 y\r reason+10 ! ,tea*] w5t on1 8= y c]ta9ly pass$ ?r\gh dea?1 & y are n[ alive40 8,b :]e am ,i80 ,he look$ ab\t him 9 a bewild]$ way4 8,:]e am ,i1 & :o are y80 8,y are 9 et]nity10 repli$ ! ,tea*]1 8:]e y always h be5 & always w be40 8,& y80 8,i am "o :o kn[s ! work+s ( ! ,law40 8,:at law80 8,! law ( rhy?m1 :i* drives ! s\l into & out ( gross matt]1 z x drives ! tides ( ! ocean into flood & ebb1 & ! consci\sness ( man into sleep+ & wak+40 8,& x 0 y :o awak5$ me8 ,are y1 !n1 ?is law ( rhy?m80 ,! ,tea*] smil$4 8,i am n ! law10 he said1 8b ,i am b\nd by x1 ev5 z y1 save z ,i am tempor>ily able to transc5d x by my w--aga91 ev5 z y40 ,i caught my brea? at ! pr(undity ( ?is simple answ]1 b ! man seem$ n to obs]ve its significance4 ,ev5 z he6 ,:y1 ?is man by 8 misdirect$ w _h be5 able tempor>ily to transc5d ! law ( immortality1 ev5 z ! ,tea*] by 8 wisely direct$ w transc5d$ ! mortal 9 himself6 ,my s\l sang )9 me at ?is glimpse ( ! godlike possibilities ( ! human m9d4 8,h[ long h ,i be5 asleep80 dem&$ ! man4 8,9 :at ye> did y die80 ! ,tea*] ask$4 8,9 ! ye> #ahag40 8,& ! pres5t ye> is kn[n1 accord+ to ! ,*ri/ian cal5d>1 z ! ye> #aiab4 ,y h la9 9 a dea?-l sleep = n9ety-five ye>s40 8,& 0 x really y :o awak5$ me80 8,yes40 8,:y did y d x80 8,because x suit$ my good pleasure10 0 ! ,tea*]'s r /]n reply4 8,x 0 n because y des]v$ to be awak5$40 8,& h[ long w\ld ,i h slept if y _h n ar\s$ me80 8,i _c say4 ,probably until ^? :o _h />t$ ev5 ) y _h left y f> beh9d on ! road ( evolv+ life4 ,p]haps = c5turies1 p]haps = ages40 8,y h tak5 a responsibility ^u y\rself10 said ! man4 8,y d n ne$ to rem9d me ( t10 repli$ ! ,tea*]4 8,i weigh$ 9 my own m9d ! full responsibility & decid$ to assume x = a purpose ( my own4 ,= w is free40 8,yet y ov]p[]$ my w40 8,i did2 b by my own m pot5t w1 m pot5t because wisely direct$ & back$ by a great] en]gy40 8,& :at are y go+ to d ) me80 8,i am go+ to assume ! responsibility ( y\r tra9+40 8,my tra9+80 8,yes40 8,& y w make ?+s easy = me80 8,on ! contr>y1 ,i %all make ?+s v h>d = y2 b y _c escape my tea*+40 8,%all y in/ruct me p]sonally80 8,p]sonally 9 ! s5se t ,i %all place y "u ! in/ruction ( an advanc$ pupil ( my own40 8,:o8 ,?is man "h80 ,he po9t$ to me4 8,no4 ,he is bett] occupi$4 ,i w take y to y\r tea*] pres5tly40 8,& :at w he %[ me80 8,! panorama ( immortality4 ,& :5 y h le>n$ ! lesson s t y c nev] =get nor escape x1 y w h to g back to ! e>? & tea* x to o!rs2 y w h to conv]t z _m m5 to ! tru? ( immortality z y h 9 ! pa/ delud$ & misl$ by y\r false doctr9es ( mat]ialism & dea?40 8,& :at if ,i refuse8 ,y h said t w is free40 8,d y refuse80 8,no1 b :at if ,i _h80 8,!n1 in/ead ( gr[+ & develop+ "u ! law ( action & reaction1 :i* 9 ! ,ea/ !y call k>ma1 y w\ld h be5 its victim40 8,i d n und]/& y40 8,he is inde$ a wise man10 said ! ,tea*]1 8:o und]/&s ! law ( k>ma1 :i* is also ! law ( cause & effect4 ,b come4 ,i w n[ take y to y\r new in/ructor40 ,!n1 leav+ me alone1 ! ,tea*] & 8 *>ge disappe>$ 9 ! grey di/ance4 ,i rema9$ !re a long "t1 pond]+ :at ,i _h se5 & he>d4 ,,lett] ,,xl ,,! ,,cele/ial ,,hi]>*y ,i ,,am ab\t to say some?+ :i* may %ock c]ta9 p]sons2 b ^? :o are too fond ( _! own ideas1 )\t be+ will+ to grant o!rs _! ideas 9 turn1 %\ld n seek to op5 ! jeal\sly gu>d$ doors :i* sep>ate ! l& ( ! s-call$ liv+ f ! l& ( ! c]ta9ly n dead4 ,?is is ! /atem5t :i* ,i h to make3 t !re are _m gods1 & t ! ,"o ,god is ! sum-total ( all ( !m4 ,all gods exi/ 9 ,god4 ,d :at y l ) t /atem5t1 de> _w1 = tru? is m vital ?an anybody's dream1 ev5 y\rs or m9e4 ,h ,i se5 ,god8 ,i h se5 ,him :o has be5 call$ ! ,son ( ,god1 & y may rememb] t ,he said t :oev] _h se5 ! ,son _h se5 ! ,fa!r4 ,b :at ( ! o!r gods8 y ask2 = !re are _m 9 ! _w's pan!ons4 ,well1 ! realities exi/ out "h4 ,:at6 y say aga91 c man create ! gods ( 8 imag9ation & give !m a place 9 ! invisible8 ,no4 ,!y exi/$ "h fir/1 & man became aw>e ( !m long ago ?r\gh 8 own psy*ic & spiritual p]ception ( !m4 ,man did n create !m1 & ! mat]iali/s :o say t he did "k little ( ! laws ( be+4 ,man1 primitive man1 p]ceiv$ !m ?r\gh 8 own spiritual aff9ities ) & ne>ness to !m4 ,:5 y h read folk-tales ( ?is god & t1 y h p]haps spok5 patronis+ly ( ! old my?-mak]s & ?ank$ y\r lucky />s t y liv$ 9 a m enlight5$ age4 ,b ^? old /ory-tell]s 7 ! really enlight5$ ones1 = !y saw into ! o!r _w & record$ :at !y saw4 ,_m ( ! _w's fav\rite gods are said to h liv$ ^u ! e>? z m54 ,!y h s liv$4 ,does t idea />tle y8 ,h[ does a man become a god1 & h[ does a god become a man8 ,h y ev] wond]$8 ,a man becomes a god by develop+ god-consci\sness1 :i* is n ! same z develop+ 8 own ?\ght ab\t ,god4 ,dur+ rec5t ye>s y h he>d & read mu* ( s-call$ ,ma/]s1 m5 ( sup]human atta9m5ts1 :o h =gone ! small pleasures & recognitions ( ! _w 9 ord] to a*ieve some?+ great]4 ,man's ideas ( ! gods *ange z ! gods !mselves *ange1 = 8ev]y?+ is becom+10 z ,h]aclitus said ab\t tw5ty-f\r c5turies ago4 ,did y fancy t ! gods /ood /ill1 & t only y progress$8 ,9 t case y might "s day out/rip y\r god1 & fall to wor%ipp+ y\rself1 hav+ no?+ to look up to z sup]ior4 ,accompani$ by ! ,tea*]1 ,i h /ood face to face ) "s ( ! old] gods4 ,_h ,i come out "h ) a sup]ior contempt = all gods save my own1 ,i %\ld h>dly h be5 grant$ t privilege2 = ! gods are z exclusive z !y are inclusive1 & !y only reveal !mselves to ^? :o c see !m z !y are4 ,does ?is op5 ! door to poly!ism1 pan!ism1 or o!r dread$ isms8 ,an ism is only a ^w4 ,facts are4 ,! day is pa/ :5 m5 7 burn$ at ! /ake = hav+ _h a vision ( ! wrong god4 ,b ev5 n[ ,i w\ld hesitate to tell all t ,i h le>n$ ab\t ! gods1 ?\gh ,i c tell y mu*4 ,take1 = in/ance1 ! god :om ! ,romans call$ ,neptune4 ,did y fancy t he 0 only a poetic creation ( ! old my?-mak]s8 ,he 0 some?+ m ?an t4 ,he 0 suppos$ to rule ! ocean4 ,n[1 :at c\ld be m ord]ly & inevitable ?an t ! "w ( controll+ ! elem5ts & ! floods %\ld be assum$ by1 & ! "w p>cell$ out among ^? able to p]=m x8 ,we he> mu* ( ! laws ( ,nature4 ,:o en=ces !m8 ,! t]m 8natural law0 is 9 e man's m\?1 b ! ,law has executors 9 heav5 z on e>?4 ,i h be5 told t !re are also planet>y be+s1 planet>y gods1 ?\gh ,i h nev] _h ! hon\r ( consci\s communion ) "o ( !m4 ,if a planet>y be+ is s f> beyond ! d>+ ( my approa*1 h[ %\ld ,i comport myself 9 approa*+ ! ,god ( gods8 ,o p>adoxical m9d ( man1 :i* /&s 9 awe & trembl+ be=e ! s]vant1 yet approa*es ! ma/] )\t fe>6 ,i h be5 told t ! gu>dian _s ( ?is planet ,e>? evolv$ himself into a god ( trem5d\s p[] & responsibility 9 bygone cycles ( exi/5ce4 ,to him :o has ev] us$ a microscope ! idea ne$ n be appall+4 ,! inf9itely small & ! inf9itely great are ! tail & ! head ( ! ,et]nal ,s]p5t4 ,:o d y fancy w be ! gods ( ! future cycles ( exi/5ce8 ,w !y n be ^? :o 9 ?is cycle ( planet>y life h rais$ !mselves above ! mortal8 ,w !y n be ! /ronge/ & mo/ sublime among ! pres5t spirits ( m58 ,ev5 ! gods mu/ h _! re/+ p]iod1 & ^? 9 (fice n[ w\ld d\btless wi% to be supplant$4 ,to ^? m5 :o are ambiti\s = gr[?1 ! doors ( developm5t are always op54 ,,lett] ,,xli ,,! ,,d>l+ ,,( ,,! ,,unse5 ,i ,,h writt5 y be=e ( "o :om ,i call ! ,beautiful ,be+1 "o ^: prov9ce seems to be ! univ]se1 ^: *os5 companions are all m5 & angelk9d1 ^: play-?+s are days & ages4 ,= "s reason1 ! ,beautiful ,be+ has lately be5 s graci\s z to take an int]e/ 9 my ef=ts to acquire k1 & has %[n me _m ?+s :i* o!rwise ,i %\ld nev] h se54 ,:5 a t\r ( ! planet is p]sonally conduct$ by an angel1 ! travell] is specially fav\r$4 ,lett]s ( introduction to ! great & p[]ful ( e>? are no?+ comp>$ ) ?is introduction1 = by its means ,i see into ! s\ls ( all be+s1 & my visits to _! h\ses are n limit$ to ! draw+-rooms4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ has access ev]y:]e4 ,did y ev] fancy :5 y _h _h a lovely dream t maybe an angel _h kiss$ y 9 y\r sleep8 ,i h se5 su* ?+s4 ,oh1 d n be afraid ( giv+ re9 to y\r imag9ation6 ,x is ! wond]ful ?+s :i* are really true2 ! commonplace ?+s are ne>ly all false4 ,:5 a great ?\ght lifts y by ! hair1 d n cl+ hold ( ! solid e>?4 ,let g4 ,he :om an inspiration seizes might ev5--if he d>$ to tru/ 8 vision--behold ! ,beautiful ,be+ face to face1 z ,i h4 ,:5 fly+ ?r\gh ! air "o's sight is ke54 ,if "o goes fa/ & high en\gh1 "o may behold ! inconceivable4 ,! o!r night ,i 0 m$itat+ on a fl[]-se$1 = !re is no?+ s small t x may n conta9 a _w4 ,i 0 m$itat+ on a fl[]-se$1 & amus+ myself by trac+ its hi/ory1 g5]ation by g5]ation1 back to ! dawn ( "t4 ,i smile z ,i use t figure1 8! dawn ( "t10 = "t has _h s _m dawns & s _m sunsets1 & /ill x is unwe>i$4 ,i _h trac$ ! g5ealogy ( ! se$ back to ! "t :5 ! cave-man =got 8 fight+ 9 ! /rangely di/urb+ pleasure ( smell+ ! fragrance ( its p>5t fl[]1 :5 ,i he>d a l[ musical laugh 9 my left e>1 & some?+ z light z a butt]fly's w+ bru%$ my *eek on t side4 ,i turn$ to look1 &1 quick z a fla%1 ,i he>d ! laught] 9 ! o!r e>1 :ile ano!r butt]fly t\* came on my "r *eek4 ,!n some?+ l a veil 0 bl[n across my eyes1 & a cle> voice said3 8,guess :o x is60 ,i 0 all a-?rill ) ! pleasure ( ?is div9e play1 & ,i answ]$3 8,p]haps y are ! fairy t makes bl9d *ildr5 dream ( daisy fields40 8,h[ev] did y "k me80 laugh$ ! ,beautiful ,be+1 unw9d+ ! veil f my eyes4 8,i am inde$ t fairy4 ,b y mu/ h be5 peep+ ?r\gh cracks 9 ! door :5 ,i t\*$ ! eyes ( ! bl9d babies40 8,i am always peep+ ?r\gh cracks 9 ! door ( ! e>? p's *amb]10 ,i repli$4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ laugh$ aga93 8,w y come & h ano!r peep ) me ?is ev5+80 8,) pleasure40 8,y c\ld n d x ) pa9 if ,i 7 by10 0 ! response4 ,& we />t$ !n & !re ^u ! /range/ ev5+'s r\nd :i* ,i h ev] made4 ,we began by go+ to ! h\se ( a fri5d ( m9e & /&+ quietly 9 ! room :]e he & 8 family 7 at supp]4 ,no "o saw u b ! cat1 :i* began a l\d purr+ & /ret*$ itself ) joy at our pres5ce4 ,_h ,i gone !re alone1 ! cat might h be5 afraid ( me2 b :o--ev5 a cat--c\ld fe> ! ,beautiful ,be+8 ,sudd5ly "o ( ! *ildr5--! y\nge/ "o--look$ up f 8 supp] ( bread & milk1 & said3 8,fa!r1 :y does milk ta/e good80 8,i really d n "k10 admitt$ ! au?or ( 8 be+1 8p]haps because ! c[ enjoy$ giv+ x40 8,t fa!r might h be5 a poet10 ! ,beautiful ,be+ said to me2 b no "o ov]he>d ! rem>k4 ,"o ( ! o!r *ildr5 compla9$ ( feel+ sleepy1 & put 8 head d[n on ! edge ( ! table4 ,! "m />t$ to ar\se him1 b ! ,beautiful ,be+ flutt]$ a my/ify+ veil be=e h] eyes1 & %e c\ld n d x4 8,let him sleep if he wants to10 %e said4 8,i w put him to b$ by & by40 ,i c\ld see 9 ! bra9 ( ! *ild t he 0 dream+ already1 & ,i knew t ! ,beautiful ,be+ 0 weav+ a fairy-tale on ! web ( 8 m9d4 ,aft] only a mom5t he />t$ up1 wide awake4 8,i dream$10 he said1 8t----! writ] ( ^! lett]s 0 /&+ ov] !re & smil+ at me z he us$ to smile1 & ) him 0 an angel4 ,i nev] saw an angel be=e40 8,come away10 :isp]$ ! ,beautiful ,be+ to me4 8,f dream+ *ildr5 no?+ c be hidd540 ,we !n paid a visit to ! future "m ( my boy ,lionel4 ,oh1 my/]y ( mat]nity6 ,! eyes ( ! ,beautiful ,be+ 7 l />s z we gaz$ ^u ?is o!r fl[]-se$1 ^: g5ealogy goes ev5 beyond ! days ( ! cave-man--aye1 back to ! "t ( ! fire-mi/ & ! sons ( ! morn+ />s4 8,come away60 said ! ,beautiful ,be+ aga94 8,to brides :o dream ( mo!rhood mu* also is reveal$1 & = ?is ev5+ we rema9 unkn[n40 ,we pass$ along ! m>g9 ( a riv] :i* divides a busy t[n4 ,sudd5ly f a h\se by ! riv]-bank we he>d ! t9kle ( a guit> & a woman's sweet voice s++3 8,:5 o!r lips & o!r he>ts ,_! tale ( love %all tell1 444 ,!n y'll rememb]--y'll rememb] me40 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ t\*$ my h& & :isp]$3 8,! life t is s sweet to ^! mortals is a book ( en*antm5t = me40 8,yet y h nev] ta/$ human life y\rself80 8,on ! contr>y1 ,i ta/e x e day2 b ,i only ta/e x--& pass on4 ,%\ld ,i consume x1 ,i might n be able to pass on40 8,b d y nev] long s to consume x80 8,oh1 b ! ?rill is 9 ! ta/e6 ,dige/ion is a m or less tiresome process40 8,i fe> y are a div9e wanton10 ,i said1 affectionately4 8,be c>eful10 answ]$ ! ,beautiful ,be+4 8,he :o fe>s any?+ w lose me 9 ! fog ( 8 own fe>s40 8,y irresi/ible "o60 ,i cri$4 8,:o are y8 ,:at are y80 8,did y n say y\rself a little :ile ago t ,i 0 ! fairy :o made bl9d babies dream ( daisy fields80 8,i love y10 ,i said1 8) an incompreh5sible love40 8,all love is incompreh5sible10 ! ,beautiful ,be+ answ]$4 8,b come1 bro!r1 let u climb ! hill ( vision4 ,:5 y are out ( brea?1 if y cat* at my fly+ veil ,i w wait till y are re/$40 ,/range ?+s we saw t night4 ,i %\ld we>y y if ,i told y all ( !m4 ,we /ood on ! crat] ( an active volcano & wat*$ ! dance ( ! fire-spirits4 ,did y fancy t salam&]s 7 only se5 by unab/emi\s poets8 ,!y are z real--to !mselves & to ^? :o see !m--z are ! omnibus-driv]s 9 ! /reets ( ,london4 ,! real & ! unreal6 ,if ,i 7 writ+ an essay n[1 in/ead ( ! n>rative ( a travell] 9 a /range c\ntry1 ,i %\ld h mu* to say on ! subject ( ! real & ! unreal4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ has *ang$ my ideas ab\t ! :ole univ]se4 ,i wond] if1 :5 ,i come back to ! e>? aga91 ,i %all rememb] all ! m>vels ,i h se54 ,p]haps1 l mo/ p1 ,i %all h =gott5 ! details ( my life be=e bir?1 & %all br+ ) me only vague ye>n+s aft] ! inexpressible1 & ! deep unalt]able conviction t !re are m ?+s 9 e>? & heav5 ?an are dream$ ( 9 ! philosophy ( ! _w's p4 ,p]haps if ,i almo/ rememb]1 b n q1 ,i %all be a poet 9 my next life4 ,worse ?+s might happ5 to me4 ,:at an adv5ture x is1 ?is laun*+ ( "o's b>que ^u ! sea ( rebir?6 ,b by my digressions "o w\ld say t ,i 0 9 my second *ildhood4 ,s ,i am--my second *ildhood 9 ! s-call$ invisible4 ,:51 on my voyage t night ) ! ,beautiful ,be+1 ,i _h fea/$ my eyes ^u beauty until !y 7 we>y1 my companion l$ me to sc5es on ! e>? :i*1 _h ,i beheld !m alone1 w\ld h made me v sad4 ,b no "o c be sad :5 ! ,beautiful ,be+ is ne>4 ,t is ! *>m ( t m>vell\s entity3 to be 9 its pres5ce is to ta/e ! joys ( immortal life4 ,we look$ on at a midnight revel 9 :at y on e>? w\ld call 8a haunt ( vice40 ,0 ,i %ock$ & horrifi$8 ,n at all4 ,i wat*$ ! antics ( ^? human animalcul z a sci5ti/ might wat* ! motions ( ! small] liv+ creatures 9 a drop ( wat]4 ,x seem$ to me t ,i saw x all f ! viewpo9t ( ! />s4 ,i />t$ to say f ! viewpo9t ( ,god1 to :om small & great are ! same2 b p]haps ! /ell> simile is ! tru] "o1 = h[ c we judge ( :at ,god sees--unless we mean ! god 9 u8 ,y :o read :at ,i h writt51 p]haps :5 y come out "h y w h _m surprises4 ,! small ?+s may seem l>g] & ! l>ge ?+s small]1 & ev]y?+ may take its prop] place 9 ! inf9ite plan1 ( :i* ev5 y\r tr\bles & p]plexities are p>ts1 inevitable & beautiful4 ,t idea came to me z ,i w&]$ f heav5 to e>?1 f beauty to ugl9ess1 ) my angelic companion4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld expla9 ! influ5ce ( ! ,beautiful ,be+4 ,x is unlike any?+ else 9 ! univ]se4 ,x is elusive z a moonbeam1 yet m sympa!tic ?an a "m4 ,x is da9ti] ?an a rose1 yet x looks ^u ugly ?+s ) a smile4 ,x is pur] ?an ! brea? ( ! sea1 yet x seems to h no horror ( impurity4 ,x is artless z a *ild1 yet wis] ?an ! anci5t gods1 a m>vel ( p>adoxes1 a cele/ial vagabond1 ! d>l+ ( ! unse54 ,,lett] ,,xlii ,a ,,victim ,,( ,,! ,,non-,,exi/5t ,,! o!r day ,i met an acqua9tance1 a woman :om ,i _h kn[n = a numb] ( ye>s1 & :o came out ab\t ! "t ,i did4 ,old acqua9tances :5 !y meet "h greet ea* o!r ab\t z !y did on e>?4 ,?\gh we are1 z a rule1 less conv5tional ?an y1 /ill we cl+ m or less to our =m] habits4 ,i ask$ ,mrs4 ---- h[ %e 0 enjoy+ h]self1 & %e said t %e 0 n hav+ a v pleasant "t4 ,%e f\nd t ev]ybody 0 int]e/$ 9 some?+ else1 & did n want to talk ) h]4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ "t ,i _h met ) su* a compla9t1 & ,i 0 /ruck by its peculi>ity4 ,i ask$ h] to :at cause %e attribut$ ?is unsociability1 & %e repli$ t %e did n "k ! cause1 t x _h puzzl$ h]4 8,:at d y talk to !m ab\t80 ,i ask$4 8,:y1 ,i tell !m my tr\bles1 z "o fri5d tells ano!r2 b !y d n seem to be int]e/$4 ,h[ selfi% p are60 ,poor s\l6 ,%e did n realise "h1 any m ?an %e _h on e>?1 t our tr\bles are n int]e/+ to anybody b ourselves4 8,suppose10 ,i said1 8t y unburd5 y\rself to me4 ,tell me y\r tr\bles4 ,i w promise n to run away40 8,:y1 ,i h>dly "k :]e to beg960 %e answ]$4 8,i h f\nd s _m unpleasant ?+s40 8,:at1 = in/ance80 8,:y1 horrid p4 ,i rememb] t :5 ,i liv$ 9 ---- ,i sometimes told myself t 9 ! o!r _w ,i w\ld n be bo!r$ ) bo>d+-h\se l&ladies & _! c>eless hir$ girls2 b !y are j z bad "h--ev5 worse40 8,d y mean to tell me t y live 9 a bo>d+-h\se "h80 8,:]e %\ld ,i live8 ,y "k t ,i am n ri*40 ,( all ! a/oni%+ ?+s ,i _h he>d 9 ?is l& ( *anges1 ?is 0 ! mo/ a/oni%+4 ,a bo>d+-h\se 9 ! 8invisible0 _w6 ,surely1 ,i told myself1 my obs]vations _h be5 limit$4 ,"h 0 a new discov]y4 8,is ! table good 9 y\r bo>d+-h\se80 ,i ask$4 8,no1 x is worse ?an at ! la/ "o40 8,are ! meals scanty80 8,yes1 scanty & bad1 especially ! c(fee40 8,w y tell me10 ,i said1 my wond] gr[+1 8if y really eat ?ree meals a day "h1 z y us$ to d on e>?80 8,h[ /rangely y talk60 %e answ]$1 9 a %>p tone4 8,i don't f9d v mu* diff]5ce betwe5 ?is place & ! e>?1 z y call x1 except t ,i am m uncom=table "h1 because ev]y?+ is s flighty & unc]ta940 8,yes1 g on40 8,i nev] "k 9 ! morn+ :o w be sitt+ next me 9 ! ev5+4 ,!y come & g40 8,& :at d y eat80 8,! same old ?+s--meat & potatoes1 & pies & pudd+s40 8,& y /ill eat ^! ?+s80 8,:y1 yes2 don't y80 ,i h>dly knew h[ to reply4 ,_h ,i told h] :at my life "h really 01 %e w\ld no m h und]/ood ?an %e w\ld h und]/ood two ye>s ago1 :5 we liv$ 9 ! same city on e>?1 _h ,i told h] !n :at my real m5tal life 04 ,s ,i said3 8,i h n mu* appetite40 ,%e look$ at me z if %e di/ru/$ me 9 "s way1 ?\gh :y ,i c\ld n say4 8,are y /ill int]e/$ 9 philosophy80 %e ask$4 8,yes4 ,p]haps t is :y ,i don't get hungry v (t540 8,y 7 always a /range man40 8,i suppose s4 ,b tell me1 ,mrs4 ----1 d y nev] feel a desire to leave all ?is beh9d80 8,to leave all :at beh9d80 8,:y1 bo>d+-h\ses & uncong5ial p1 & meat & potatoes1 & pies & pudd+s1 & ! %ad[s ( mat]ial ?+s 9 g5]al40 8,:at d y mean by #8! %ad[s ( mat]ial ?+s'80 8,i mean t ^! vi&s & pa/ries1 :i* y eat & d n enjoy1 are n real4 ,!y h no real exi/5ce40 8,:y60 %e exclaim$1 8h y become a ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/80 ,at ?is ,i laugh$ he>tily4 ,0 "o :o d5i$ ! reality ( a/ral food 9 ! a/ral _w a ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/1 because ! ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/s d5i$ ! reality ( mat]ial food 9 ! mat]ial _w8 ,! analogy tickl$ my fancy4 8,let me conv]t y to ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce1 !n10 ,i said4 8,no1 sir60 0 h] %>p response4 8,y nev] succe$$ 9 conv9c+ me t !re 0 any tru? 9 y\r v>i\s fads & philosophies4 ,& n[ y tell me t ! food ,i eat is n real40 ,i puzzl$ = a mom5t1 try+ to f9d a way by :i* ! actual facts ( h] condition c\ld be br\ght home to ! m9d ( ?is poor woman4 ,f9ally ,i hit ^u ! "r track4 8,d y realise10 ,i said1 8t y are only dream+80 8,:at60 %e snapp$ at me4 8,yes1 y are dream+4 ,all ?is is a dream--^! bo>d+-h\ses1 et cet]a40 8,if t is s1 p]haps y w\ld l to wake me up40 8,i c]ta9ly %\ld4 ,b y w h to awak5 y\rself1 ,i fancy4 ,tell me1 :at 7 y\r ideas ab\t ! future life1 be=e y came out "h80 8,:at d y mean by out "h80 8,:y1 be=e y di$60 8,b1 man1 ,i am n dead60 8,( c\rse y are n dead4 ,nobody is dead4 ,b y c]ta9ly und]/& t y h *ang$ y\r condition40 8,yes1 ,i h notic$ a *ange1 & a *ange = ! worse40 8,don't y rememb] y\r la/ illness80 8,yes40 8,& t y pass$ out80 8,yes1 if y call x t40 8,y "k t y h left y\r body80 ,%e look$ d[n at h] =m1 :i* appe>$ z usual1 ev5 to its ru/y black dress r out ( date4 8,b ,i /ill h my body10 %e said4 8,!n y h n miss$ ! o!r "o80 8,no40 8,& y don't "k :]e x is80 ,my amazem5t 0 gr[+ deep] & deep]4 ,"h 0 a ph5om5on ,i _h n met be=e4 8,i suppose10 %e said1 8t !y mu/ h buri$ my body1 if y say ,i left x2 b ?is "o is j ! same to me40 8,has x always seem$ ! same80 ,i ask$1 rememb]+ my own exp]i5ces :5 ,i fir/ came out1 my difficulty 9 adju/+ ! am\nt ( en]gy ,i us$ to ! lightness ( my new body4 8,n[ y m5tion x10 %e said1 8,i d recall hav+ "s tr\ble a ye> or two ago4 ,i 0 q confus$ = a long "t4 ,i ?9k ,i mu/ h be5 deliri\s40 8,yes1 d\btless y 710 ,i answ]$4 8,b tell me1 ,mrs4 ----1 h y no desire to visit heav580 8,:y1 ,i always suppos$ t ,i %\ld visit heav5 :5 ,i di$2 b1 z y see1 ,i am n dead40 8,/ill10 ,i said1 8,i c take y to heav5 n[1 p]haps1 if y w\ld l to g40 8,are y jok+80 8,n at all4 ,w y come80 8,are y c]ta9 t ,i c g !re )\t dy+80 8,b ,i assure y !re are no dead40 ,z we w5t sl[ly along1 = ,i ?\ght x be/ n to hurry h] too swiftly f "o condition to ano!r1 ,i drew a ^w-picture ( ! place we 7 ab\t to visit--! or?odox ,*ri/ian heav54 ,i describ$ ! happy & lov+ p :o /ood 9 ! pres5ce ( _! ,savi\r1 9 ! s(t radiance f ! c5tral ,light4 8,p]haps10 ,i said1 8"s dwell]s 9 t c\ntry see ! face ( ,god ,himself1 z !y expect$ to see x :5 !y 7 on e>?2 z = myself1 ,i saw only ! ,light1 & aft]w>ds ! figure ( ! ,*ri/40 8,i h (t5 wi%$ to see ,*ri/10 said my companion 9 an awe-/ruck voice4 8,d y ?9k t ,i c really see ,him80 8,i ?9k s1 if y believe /rongly t y w40 8,& :at 7 !y do+ 9 heav5 :5 y 7 !re80 %e ask$4 8,!y 7 wor%ipp+ ,god1 & !y 7 happy40 8,i want to be happy10 %e said2 8,i h nev] be5 v happy40 8,! great ?+ 9 heav510 ,i advis$1 8is to love all ! o!rs4 ,t is :at makes !m happy4 ,if !y lov$ ! face ( ,god only1 x w\ld n be q heav52 = ! joy ( ,god is ! joy ( union40 ,?us1 by subtle /ages1 ,i l$ h] m9d away f a/ral bo>d+-h\ses to ! ideas ( ! or?odox spiritual _w1 :i* 0 probably ! only spiritual _w :i* %e c\ld und]/&4 ,i spoke ( ! music--yes1 *ur* music1 if y l to call x t4 ,i creat$ 9 h] w&]+ & *aotic m9d a fix$ desire = sabba? joys & sabba? peace1 & ! communion ( fri5ds 9 heav54 ,b = ?is gradual prep>ation %e c\ld n h adju/$ h]self to ! conditions ( t _w4 ,:5 we /ood 9 ! pres5ce ( ^? :o wor%ip ,god ) song & praise1 %e seem$ caught up on a wave ( en?usiasm1 to feel t at la/ %e _h come home4 ,i want$ to take leave ( h] 9 su* a way t %e w\ld n come out aga9 to look = me2 s ,i held out my h& 9 ! old way & said good-bye1 promis+ to come aga9 & visit h] !re1 & advis+ h] to /ay :]e %e 04 ,i ?9k %e w4 ,heav5 has a /rong hold on ^? :o yield !mselves to its beauty4 ,,lett] ,,xliii ,a ,,cl\d ,,( ,,witnesses ,,are y surpris$ to le>n t !re is ev5 a great] diff]5ce betwe5 ! be+s 9 ?is _w ?an betwe5 ! p ( e>?8 ,t is inevitable1 = ?is is a fre] _w ?an y\rs4 ,i %\ld fail 9 my duty if ,i did n tell y some?+ ( ! evil be+s out "h2 p]haps no "o else w ev] tell y1 & ! k is necess>y to self-protection4 ,fir/ ,i want to say t !re is a /rong sympa?y betwe5 ! spirits 9 ?is _w & ! spirits 9 y\r _w4 ,yes1 !y are bo? spirits1 ! diff]5ce be+ ma9ly a diff]5ce 9 g>m5ts1 "o we>+ fle% & ! o!r we>+ a subtl] b none ! less real body4 ,n[ ! good spirits1 :i* may be 8! spirits ( j m5 made p]fect10 or ^? :o m]ely aspire to p]fection1 are p[]fully drawn to ^? fell[-spirits on e>? ^: ideals are 9 h>mony ) _! own4 ,! magnetic attraction :i* exi/s betwe5 human be+s is weak comp>$ ) t :i* is possible betwe5 be+s embodi$ & be+s disembodi$4 ,z opposites attract1 ! v diff]5ce 9 matt] is a draw+ =ce4 ,! female is n m attractive to ! male ?an ! be+ ( fle% is attractive to ! be+ 9 ! a/ral4 ,! two d n usually und]/& ea* o!r1 nei!r d man & woman4 ,b ! influ5ce is felt1 & be+s out "h und]/& its s\rce bett] ?an y d1 because !y g5]ally c>ry ) !m ! memory ( y\r _w1 :ile y h lo/ ! memory ( !irs4 ,at no "t is ! sympa!tic p[] betwe5 m5 & spirits s /rong z :5 m5 are lab\r+ "u "s int5se emotion1 be x love or hate1 or ang]1 or any o!r excitem5t4 ,= !n ! fi]y elem5t 9 man is mo/ active1 & spirits are attract$ by fire4 7,"h ! writ+ sudd5ly /opp$1 ! influ5ce pass$1 to return aft] a few m9utes47 ,y wond] :y ,i w5t away8 ,x 0 9 ord] to draw a wide protective circle ar\nd u bo?1 = :at ,i h to say to y is some?+ :i* c]ta9 spirits w\ld wi% me to leave unsaid4 ,to cont9ue4 ,:5 man is excit$1 exalt$1 or 9 any way int5sifi$ 9 8 emotional life1 ! spirits draw ne> to him4 ,t is h[ conception is possible2 t is ! secret ( inspiration2 t is :y ang] gr[s ) :at x fe$s ^u4 ,& ?is la/ is ! po9t :i* ,i want to drive home to y\r consci\sness4 ,:5 y lose y\r temp] y lose a great deal1 among o!r ?+s ! control ( y\rself1 & x is b>ely possible t ano!r entity may mom5t>ily assume control ( y4 ,?is subjective _w1 z ,i h call$ x1 is full ( hateful spirits4 ,!y love to /ir up /rife1 bo? "h & on e>?4 ,!y enjoy ! excitem5t ( ang] 9 o!rs1 !y are ?rill$ by ! poison ( hatr$2 z c]ta9 m5 revel 9 morph9e1 s !y revel 9 all inh>moni\s passion4 ,d y see ! po9t & ! dang]8 ,a small se$ ( ang] 9 y\r he>t !y fe$ & inflame by ! hatr$ 9 _! own4 ,x is n necess>ily hatr$ ( y z an individual1 (t5 !y h no p]sonal int]e/ 9 y2 b = ! purpose ( gratify+ _! evil passion !y w atta* !mselves to y tempor>ily4 ,o!r illu/rations are n f> to seek4 ,a man :o has ! habit ( ang]1 ev5 ( fault-f9d+1 is c]ta9 to be surr\nd$ by evil spirits4 ,i h se5 a score ( !m ar\nd a man1 ?rill+ him ) _! own malignant magnetism1 /irr+ him up aga9 :5 by reaction he w\ld h cool$ d[n4 ,sometimes ! imp]sonal int]e/ 9 m]e /rife becomes p]sonal2 an angry _s "h may f9d t by atta*+ himself to a c]ta9 man he is sure to get e day a ?rill or ?rills ( angry excitem5t1 z 8 victim cont9ually loses 8 temp] & /orms & rages4 ,?is is "o ( ! mo/ t]rible mis=tunes :i* c happ5 to anybody4 ,c>ri$ to its ultimate1 x may become obsession1 & end 9 insanity4 ,! same law applies to o!r unlovely passions1 ^? ( lu/ & av>ice4 ,bew>e ( lu/1 bew>e ( all sex attraction into :i* no spiritual or he>t elem5t ent]s4 ,i h se5 ?+s t ,i w\ld n wi% to record1 ei!r ?r\gh y\r h& or any o!r4 ,let u take in/ead a case ( av>ice4 ,i h se5 a mis] c\nt+ ov] 8 gold1 h se5 ! t]rible eyes ( ! spirits :i* enjoy$ ! gold ?r\gh him4 ,= gold has a peculi> influ5ce z a metal1 ap>t f its pur*as+ p[] or ! associations atta*$ to x4 ,c]ta9 spirits love gold1 ev5 z ! mis] loves x1 & ) ! same acquisitive1 a/r+5t passion4 ,z x is "o ( ! heavie/ ( metals1 s its p[] is a cond5s$ & cond5s+ p[]4 ,i d n mean by ?is t y %\ld bew>e ( gold4 ,get all y c use1 = x is useful2 b d n gloat ov] x4 ,"o does n attract ! av>ici\s spirits m]ely by own+ ! symbols ( weal?--h\ses & l&s & /ocks & bonds1 or ev5 a mod]ate am\nt ( co92 b ,i advise y n to ho>d co9s to gloat ov]4 ,!re are c]ta9 jewels1 h[ev]1 ^: possession w aid y1 = !y attract ! spirits ( p[]4 ,b y w probably *oose y\r jewels by reason ( y\r aff9ity ) !m1 & may *oose wisely4 ,n[ t ,i h done my duty by w>n+ y aga9/ ! passions & ! passionate spirits ( :i* y %\ld bew>e1 ,i c g on to speak ( o!r feel+s & ( o!r spiritual associates ( man4 ,y h met p]sons :o seem$ to radiate sun%9e1 ^: v pres5ce 9 a room made y happi]4 ,h y ask$ y\rself :y8 ,! true answ] w\ld be t by _! lovely disposition !y attract$ r\nd !m a 8cl\d ( witnesses0 z to ! joy & ! beauty ( life4 ,i h myself (t5 bask$ 9 ! w>m rays ( a c]ta9 lov+ he>t ,i "k ^u ! e>?4 ,i h he>d spirits say to "o ano!r z !y cr[d$ r\nd t p]son1 8,x is good to be "h40 ,d y ?9k t any evil ?+ c\ld happ5 to him8 ,a score ( lov+ & sympa!tic spirits w\ld /rive to give him w>n+ %\ld any evil ?reat54 ,!n1 too1 a joy\s he>t attracts joy\s ev5ts4 ,simplicity1 also1 & sweet humility1 are v attractive to g5tle disembodi$ s\ls4 8,except ye be z little *ildr51 ye _c ent] 940 ,h y n (t5 se5 a *ild enjoy+ himself ) unse5 playfell[s8 ,y w\ld call !m imag9>y playfell[s4 ,p]haps !y 71 p]haps !y 7 n imag9>y4 ,to imag9e may be to create1 or x may be to attract ?+s already creat$4 ,i h se5 ! ,beautiful ,be+ itself1 m ?an once1 hov]+ 9 ec/asy above an e>?ly creature :o 0 happy4 ,a song ( joy1 :5 x comes f a ?rill+ he>t1 may attract a ho/ ( invisible be+s :o enjoy x ) ! s+]2 =1 z ,i h told y1 s\nd c>ries f "o _w to ano!r4 ,nev] weep--unless y mu/1 to re/ore lo/ equilibrium4 ,! weep+ spirits1 h[ev]1 are r h>mless because !y are weak4 ,sometimes a /orm ( te>s1 :5 x is pa/1 cle>s ! s\l's atmosph]e2 b :ile ! weep+ is 9 progress1 ! atmosph]e is ?ick ) weep+ spirits4 ,"o c\ld almo/ he> ! drip ( _! te>s ?r\gh ! veil ( e!r--if ! sobb+ e>?ly "o did n make s mu* noise ) 8 grief4 8,laugh & ! _w laughs ) y10 may be true en\gh2 b :5 y weep1 y d n weep alone4 ,,lett] ,,xliv ,,! ,,k+dom ,,)9 ,,!re is "o obscure po9t :i* ,i want to make cle>1 ev5 ?\gh ,i may be accus$ ( 8my/icism0 by ^? to :om my/icism means only obscurity4 ,i h said t ! life ( man is bo? subjective & objective1 b pr9cipally objective2 & t ! life ( 8spirits0 dwell+ 9 subtle matt] is bo? subjective & objective1 b pr9cipally subjective4 ,yet ,i h spok5 ( go+ alone or ) o!rs to heav51 z a place4 ,i want to expla9 ?is4 ,y rememb] ! say+1 8,! k+dom ( heav5 is )9 y10 t is1 subjective4 ,also1 8,:]e two or ?ree are ga!r$ toge!r 9 ,my "n1 !re w ,i be 9 ! mid/ ( !m40 ,n[1 ^? places 9 ?is subtle realm :i* ,i h call$ ! ,*ri/ian heav5s are places :]e two or ?ree1 or two or ?ree ?\s&1 z ! case may be1 are ga!r$ toge!r 9 ,8 "n1 to enjoy ! k+dom ( heav5 )9 !m4 ,! aggregation ( s\ls is objective--t is1 ! s\ls exi/ 9 "t & space2 ! heav5 :i* !y enjoy is subjective1 ?\gh !y may all see ! same ?+ at ! same "t1 z1 = in/ance1 ! vision ( ,him :om !y adore z ,r$eem]4 ,t is z cle> z ,i c make x4 ,,lett] ,,xlv ,,! ,,game ,,( ,,make-,,believe ,,"o day ,i met a man 9 d\blet & hose1 :o ann\nc$ to me t he 0 ,%akespe>e4 ,n[ ,i h become accu/om$ to su* ann\ncem5ts1 & !y d n surprise me z !y did six or eight mon?s ago4 7,yes1 ,i /ill keep acc\nt ( y\r mon?s1 = a purpose ( my own47 ,i ask$ ?is man :at pro( he c\ld adduce ( 8 extraord9>y claim1 & he answ]$ t x ne$$ no pro(4 8,t w n g d[n ) me10 ,i said1 8= ,i am an old lawy]40 ,!reupon he laugh$1 & ask$3 8,:y did y n jo9 9 ! game80 ,i am tell+ y ?is r s5seless /ory1 because x illu/rates an int]e/+ po9t 9 reg>d to our life "h4 ,9 a =m] lett] ,i wrote ab\t my meet+ ) a newly arriv$ lady1 :o1 f9d+ me dress$ 9 a ,roman toga1 ?\ght t ,i might be ,cs>2 & t ,i told h] we 7 all actors "h4 ,i meant t1 l *ildr51 we 8dress up0 :5 we want to impress our own imag9ation1 or to relive "s sc5e 9 ! pa/4 ,?is play+ ( a "p is usually q innoc5t1 ?\gh sometimes ! v ease ) :i* x is done br+s ) x ! temptation to deception1 especially 9 deal+s ) ! e>? p4 ,y see ! po9t ,i wi% to make4 ,! 8ly+ spirits10 ( :i* ! frequ5t]s ( sance rooms s (t5 make compla9t1 are ^! a/ral actors1 :o may ev5 come to take a c]ta9 pride 9 ! clev]ness ( _! art4 ,be n too sure t ! _s :o claims to be y\r deceas$ gr&fa!r is t e/imable old man himself4 ,he may be m]ely an actor play+ a "p1 = 8 own ent]ta9m5t & y\rs4 ,h[ is "o to tell1 y ask8 ,"o _c always tell4 ,i %\ld say1 h[ev]1 t ! sure/ te/ ( all w\ld be ! deep & unemotional conviction t ! v]itable entity 0 9 "o's pres5ce4 ,!re is an in/9ct 9 ! human he>t :i* w nev] deceive u1 if we )\t fe> or bias w yield ourselves to its decision4 ,h[ (t5 9 worldly matt]s h we all act$ aga9/ ?is inn] monitor1 & be5 deceiv$ & l$ a/ray6 ,if y h an in/9ctive feel+ t a c]ta9 invisible--or ev5 visible--entity is n :at x claims to be1 x is bett] to discont9ue ! conf]5ce4 ,if x is ! real p]son1 & if he has any?+ vital to say1 he w come aga9 & aga92 = ! s-call$ dead are (t5 v desir\s to communicate ) ! liv+4 ,z a rule1 ?\gh1 ! play-act+ ov] "h is innoc5t ( int5t to deceive4 ,mo/ m5 desire occasionally to be some?+ :i* !y are n4 ,! poor man :o1 = "o ev5+1 dresses himself 9 8 be/ clo!s & squ&]s a week's sal>y 9 play+ ! millionaire is mov$ by ! same impulse :i* inspir$ ! man 9 my /ory to ass]t t he 0 ,%akespe>e4 ,! woman :o always dresses beyond h] means is play+ ! same little game ) h]self & ) ! _w4 ,all *ildr5 "k ! game4 ,!y w tell y 9 a conv9c$ tone t !y are ,napoleon ,bonap>te1 or ,george ,wa%+ton1 & !y feel hurt if y sc(f4 ,p]haps my fri5d ) ! ,%akespe>ean aspiration 0 an amateur dramati/ :5 he 0 on e>?4 ,_h he be5 a pr(essional dramati/1 he w\ld probably h /at$ 8 real "n1 m or less unkn[n1 & foll[$ x by ! decl>ation t he 0 ! well-kn[n ,s-&-s4 ,!re is mu* pride out "h 9 ! accompli%m5ts ( ! e>?-life1 especially among ^? :o h rec5tly come out4 ,?is less5s ) "t1 & aft] "o has be5 long "h "o's int]e/s are likely to be m g5]al4 ,m5 & wom5 d n cease to be human m]ely by cross+ ! fronti] ( :at y call ! invisible _w4 ,9 fact1 ! human *>act]i/ics are (t5 exagg]at$1 because ! re/ra9ts are few]4 ,!re are no p5alties inflict$ by ! community = ! p]sonat+ ( "o man by ano!r4 ,x is n tak5 s]i\sly1 = to ! cle>] sight ( ?is _w ! disguise is too transp>5t4 ,,lett] ,,xlvi ,,heirs ,,( ,,h]mes ,,!re is mu* s\nd s5se & n a little nons5se talk$ ab\t ,adepts & ,ma/]s1 :o live & "w on ! a/ral plane4 ,n[ ,i am myself liv+1 & sometimes work+1 on ! s-call$ a/ral plane1 & :at ,i say ab\t ! plane is ! result ( exp]i5ce & n ( !ory4 ,i h met ,adepts--yes1 ,ma/]s "h4 ,"o ( !m especially has taught me mu*1 & has guid$ my foot/eps f ! fir/4 ,d n fe> to believe 9 ,ma/]s4 ,ma/]s are m5 rais$ to ! highe/ p[]2 & :e!r !y are embodi$ or disembodi$1 !y "w on ?is plane ( life4 ,a ,ma/] c g 9 & out at w4 ,no1 ,i am n go+ to tell ! _w h[ !y d x4 ,"s :o are n ,ma/]s might try ! exp]im5t1 & n be able to g back aga94 ,k is p[]2 b !re are c]ta9 p[]s :i* may be dang]\s if put 9 practice )\t a correspond+ degree ( wisdom4 ,all human be+s h 9 !m ! pot5tiality ( ma/]%ip4 ,t ought to be an enc\ragem5t to m5 & wom5 :o aspire to an int5sity ( life beyond t ( ! ord9>y4 ,b ! atta9m5t ( ma/]%ip is a /eady & g5]ally a sl[ gr[?4 ,my ,tea*] "h is a ,ma/]4 ,!re are tea*]s "h :o are n ,ma/]s1 z !re are tea*]s on e>? :o h n ! rank ( pr(essor2 b he :o is will+ to tea* :at he kn[s is on ! "r road4 ,i d n m9d say+ t my ,tea*] approves ( my try+ to tell ! _w some?+ ab\t ! life :i* foll[s ! *ange t is call$ dea?4 ,if he disapprov$1 ,i %\ld b[ to 8 sup]ior wisdom4 ,no1 x does n matt] :at 8 "n is4 ,i h ref]r$ to him simply z my ,tea*]1 & h told y _m ?+s :i* he has said & done4 ,_m o!r ?+s ,i h n told y1 = ,i c only come occasionally n[4 ,aft] a "t ,i %all probably cease to come altoge!r4 ,n t ,i %all h lo/ int]e/ 9 y2 b x seems to be ! plan t ,i %all get f>!r away f ! _w1 to le>n ?+s :i* necessitate = _! compreh5sion a c]ta9 loos5+ ( ! e>?ly tie4 ,lat] ,i may return aga91 = ! second "t2 b ,i make no promises4 ,i w come if ,i c1 & if x seems wise to come1 & if y are 9 a mood to let me4 ,i d n believe t ,i %all come ?r\gh anybody else--at lea/1 n to write lett]s l ?is4 ,i %\ld probably h to put su* ano!r p]son ?r\gh ! same tra9+ process t ,i put y ?r\gh1 & few--ev5 ( ^? :o 7 my fri5ds & associates--w\ld tru/ me to t ext5t4 ,s1 ev5 aft] ,i am gone1 d n %ut ! door too tight1 9 case ,i %\ld want to come aga91 = ,i might h some?+ imm5sely important to say4 ,b on ! o!r h&1 please refra9 f call+ me2 because if y %\ld call me y might draw me away f important "w or /udy some:]e else4 ,i d n say = c]ta9 t y c\ld1 b x is possible2 & :5 ,i leave ! neighb\rhood ( ! e>? ( my own accord1 ,i d n wi% to be drawn back until ,i am ready to return4 ,a p]son /ill ^u ! e>? may call s int5sely to a fri5d :o has pass$ f> away f ! e>?'s atmosph]e1 t t s\l w come back too soon 9 response to ! eag] cry4 ,d n =get ! dead1 unless !y are /rong en\gh to be happy )\t y\r remembrance2 b d n lean too heavily ^u !m4 ,! ,ma/]s1 ( :om ,i spoke a little :ile ago1 c rema9 ne> or f> away1 z !y w2 !y c respond or n respond3 b ! ord9>y s\l is v s5sitive to ! call ( ^? x lov$ on e>?4 ,i h se5 a "m respond eag]ly to ! te>ful pray] ( a *ild1 & yet unable to make ! lonely "o realise h] pres5ce4 ,sometimes ! mo!rs are v sad because !y _c make _! pres5ce felt4 ,"o "t ,i saw my ,tea*] by 8 p[] help a "m to make h]self se5 & he>d by a daught] :o 0 9 great tr\ble4 ,! he>t ( my ,tea*] is v s(t to ! suff]+s ( ! _w2 & ?\gh he says t he is n "o ( ! ,*ri/s1 yet he (t5 seems to "w z ,*ri/ works4 ,at o!r times he is all m9d4 ,he illu/rates ! say+ ab\t ! ?rice-greate/ ,h]mes ,trismegi/us--great 9 body1 great 9 m9d1 great 9 he>t4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld tell y m ab\t my ,tea*]1 b he does n wi% to be too well kn[n on e>?4 ,he works = ! "w's sake1 & n = rew>d or praise4 ,he is v fond ( *ildr51 & "o day :5 ,i 0 sitt+ unse5 9 ! h\se ( a fri5d ( m9e on e>?1 & ! little son ( ! h\se fell d[n & hurt himself & wept bitt]ly1 my great ,tea*]1 :om ,i h se5 comm& lit]ally 8legions ( angels10 b5t d[n 9 8 t5u\s =m1 :i* he 0 !n we>+1 & soo!d & com=t$ ! *ild4 ,:5 ,i ask$ him ab\t x aft]w>ds1 he said t he rememb]$ _m *ildhoods ( 8 own1 9 o!r l&s1 & t he c\ld /ill feel 9 memory ! /+ ( physical pa9 & ! %ock ( a physical fall4 ,he told me t *ildr5 suff] m ?an _! eld]s realise1 t ! bewild]m5t felt 9 gradually adju/+ to a new & frail & gr[+ body is (t5 ! cause ( int5se suff]+4 ,he said t ! con/ant cry+ ( "s small babies is caus$ by _! half-disc\ragem5t at ! h]culean task be=e !m--! task ( m\ld+ a body ?r\gh :i* _! _s c "w4 ,he told me a /ory ( "o ( 8 =m] inc>nations1 be=e he became a ,ma/]1 & :at a h>d /ruggle he _h to build a body4 ,he c\ld rememb] ev5 ! smalle/ details ( t f>-away life4 ,"o day 8 "m puni%$ him = some?+ :i* he _h n really done1 & :5 he d5i$ ! suppos$ wrongful act1 %e *id$ him = untru?fulness1 n realis+--good woman ?\gh %e 0--! ess5tial tru? ( ! s\l to :om %e _h giv5 =m4 ,he told me t f t *ildi% impression1 c5turies ago1 he c\ld date 8 real battle aga9/ inju/ice1 :i* _h help$ to develop him z a fri5d & tea*] ( mank9d4 ,!n he w5t on to speak ( ! importance ( our recov]+ ! memory ( o!r lives1 9 ord] t we may see ! roads by :i* our s\ls h come4 ,z a rule1 ! great tea*]s are retic5t ab\t _! own pa/1 & !y only ref] to x :5 "s po9t 9 _! exp]i5ce c be us$ to illu/rate a pr9ciple1 & ?us help ano!r to grasp ! pr9ciple4 ,x enc\rages a grop+ s\l to "k t "o :o has atta9$ a great height has be5 ?r\gh ! same trials t n[ p]plex him4 ,,lett] ,,xlvii ,,only ,a ,,song ,,w y li/5 to ano!r song1 or *ant1 or :atev] y *oose to call x1 ( t amaz+ angel :om we "k z ! ,beautiful ,be+8 ,:y d y fe> to "q me8 ,i am ! great answ]] ( que/ions2 ,?\gh my answ]s are (t5 symbols1 yet words !mselves are only symbols4 ,i h n visit$ y = a season1 = :5 ,i am ar\nd1 y c ?9k ( no?+ else1 & x is well t y %\ld ?9k ( ^? :o h trodd5 ! pa? y are tread+4 ,y c patt]n y\r ways on ^? ( o!rs1 y c h>dly patt]n y\r ways on m9e4 ,i am a light 9 ! d>kness--my "n y d n ne$ to "k2 ,a "n is a limitation1 & ,i refuse to be limit$4 ,9 ! anci5t days ( ! angels1 ,i refus$ to ent] ! =ms ( my own creation1 except to play ) !m4 ,!re is a h9t = y1 if y l h9ts4 ,he :o is held by 8 own creations becomes a slave4 ,t is "o ( ! diff]5ces betwe5 me & m54 ,:at e>?ly fa!r c escape 8 *ildr58 ,:at e>?ly "m wi%es to8 ,b ,i6 ,i c make a rose to bloom--!n leave x = ano!r to enjoy4 ,my joy 0 9 ! mak+4 ,x w\ld be dull = me to /ay ) a rose until its petals fell4 ,! arti/ :o c =get 8 pa/ creations may create great] & great] ?+s4 ,! joy is 9 ! do+1 n 9 ! hold+ fa/ to t :i* is done4 ,oh1 ! magic ( lett+ g6 ,x is ! magic ( ! gods4 ,!re are races ( m5 to :om ,i h reveal$ myself4 ,!y wor%ip me4 ,y ne$ n wor%ip me1 = ,i d n require wor%ip4 ,t w\ld be to limit myself to my own creations1 if ,i ne$$ any?+ f ! s\ls ,i h t\*$ ) my beauty4 ,oh1 ! magic ( lett+ g6 ,! magic ( hold+ on8 ,yes1 !re is a magic 9 hold+ on to a ?+ until x is f9i%$ & p]fect2 ,b :5 a ?+ is f9i%$1 :e!r x be a poem1 a love1 or a *ild1 let x g4 ,9 t way y are free aga9 & may beg9 ano!r4 ,x is ! secret ( et]nal y\?4 ,nev] look back ) regret2 look back only to le>n :at is beh9d y4 ,look =w>d always2 x is only :5 a man ceases to look =w>d to ?+s t he beg9s to gr[ old4 ,he settles d[n4 ,i h said to live 9 ! mom5t2 t is ! same ?+ se5 f ano!r side4 ,! pres5t & ! future are playfell[s2 we d n play :5 we /udy ! pa/4 ,i am ! great playfell[ ( m54 ,,lett] ,,xlviii ,,invisible ,,gifts ,,at ,,yuletide ,,x is n yet too late to wi% y a m]ry ,*ri/mas4 ,h[ d ,i "k t x is ,*ri/mas ,day8 ,because ,i h be5 look+ 9 at h\ses :i* ,i us$ to frequ5t1 & h se5 trees lad5 ) t9sel & gifts4 ,d y wond] t ,i c\ld see !m8 ,if s1 y =get t we light our own place4 ,:5 we "k h[ to look1 we c see beh9d ! veil4 ,?is is my fir/ ,*ri/mas ,day on ?is side4 ,i _c s5d y a mat]ial gift :i* y c\ld we> or hang up 9 y\r room2 b ,i c s5d y ! good wi%es ( ! season4 ,! mo!rs :o h left "y *ildr5 beh9d !m 9 ! _w "k well :5 ,*ri/mas is approa*+4 ,sometimes !y br+ invisible gifts1 :i* !y h fa%ion$ by _! p[] ( imag9ation & love out ( ! t5u\s matt] ( ?is _w4 ,a c]ta9 gr&mo!r all la/ ev5+1 ,*ri/mas ,eve1 0 scatt]+ fl[]s ar\nd h] de> ones4 ,_! fragrance mu/ h p5etrat$ ! atmosph]e ( ! e>?4 ,did y ev] smell sudd5ly a sweet p]fume :i* y c\ld n acc\nt =8 ,if s1 p]haps "s "o :o lov$ y 0 scatt]+ invisible fl[]s4 ,love is /rong] ?an dea?4 ,ano!r :om y "k w g out be=e long4 ,/r5g!n h] ) y\r fai?4 ,! practice ( keep+ ,*ri/mas is a good "o1 if y d n =get ! real mean+ ( ! day4 ,to "s x means ! bir? into ! _w ( ! _s ( humility & love2 b :ile love & humility _h visit$ ! _w be=e ! appe>ance ( ,jesus ( ,naz>e?1 yet nev] be=e nor s9ce h !y come ) great] p[] ?an !y came to ,juda4 ,:e!r ! /able 9 ,be?lehem 0 a physical reality or a symbol1 makes no diff]5ce4 ,i h be5 to ! heav5s ( ,*ri/1 & "k _! beauty4 8,9 ,my ,fa!r's h\se are _m mansions40 ,a travell] l me :o wi%es to g to "s p>ticul> heav5 mu/ fir/ feel 9 himself :at ^? s\ls feel :o enjoy t heav52 !n he c ent] & commune ) !m4 ,he c\ld nev] g z a m]e sight-se]4 ,t is :y1 z a rule1 ,i h avoid$ ! hells2 b ! heav5s ,i (t5 visit4 ,& ,i h be5 9 purgatory1 ! purgatory ( ! ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,d n sc(f at ^? :o h masses said = ! repose ( ! s\ls ( ! dep>t$4 ,! s\ls are (t5 consci\s ( su* ?\ghtfulness4 ,!y he> ! music1 & !y may smell ! inc5se2 mo/ ( all1 !y feel ! p[] ( ! ?\ght direct$ to !m4 ,purgatory is real1 9 ! s5se ( be+ a real exp]i5ce4 ,if y want to call x a dream1 y may2 b dreams are sometimes t]ribly real4 ,ev5 ^? :o d n believe 9 purgatory sometimes w&] a:ile 9 sadness1 until !y h adju/$ !mselves to ! new conditions "u :i* !y live4 ,%\ld "o tell !m t !y 7 9 purgatory1 !y might d5y ! exi/5ce ( su* a /ate2 b !y w\ld readily admit _! discom=t4 ,! sure/ way to escape t pa9ful p]iod ( transition is to g into ! h]eaft] ) a full fai? 9 immortality1 a full fai? 9 ! p[] ( ! s\l to create its own conditions4 ,la/ night1 aft] visit+ v>i\s places ^u ! e>?1 ,i w5t to "o ( ! highe/ ,*ri/ian heav5s4 ,p]haps ,i c\ld n h gone s easily at any o!r "t2 = my he>t 0 full ( love = all m5 & my m9d 0 full ( ! ,*ri/ idea4 ,(t5 h ,i se5 ,him :o is call$ ! ,savi\r ( m51 & la/ night ,i saw ,him 9 all ,8 beauty4 ,he1 too1 came d[n to ! _w = a "t4 ,i wond] if ,i c make y und]/&8 ,! love ( ,*ri/ is always pres5t 9 ! _w1 because !re are always he>ts t keep x alight4 ,if ! idea ( ,*ri/ z a r$eem] %\ld ev] gr[ fa9t 9 ! _w1 ,he w\ld probably g back !re & relight ! flame 9 human he>ts2 b :atev] ! writ]s ( /ati/ics may say1 t idea 0 nev] m real ?an at pres5t4 ,x may h be5 m talk$ ab\t4 ,! _w is n 9 s bad a way z "s p ?9k4 ,be n surpris$ if !re %\ld be a /rong r5aissance ( ! spiritual idea4 ,all ?+s h _! rhy?ms4 ,la/ night ,i /ood 9 a great *ur* :]e hundr$s ( ,*ri/ians knelt 9 adoration ( ,jesus4 ,i h /ood 9 *ur*es on ,*ri/mas ,eve :5 on e>? z a man among m52 b ,i saw ?+s la/ night :i* ,i _h nev] se5 be=e4 ,surely :]e two or ?ree are ga!r$ toge!r 9 ! "n ( any prophet1 !re he is 9 ! mid/ ( !m1 if n always 9 8 spiritual body1 at lea/ 9 ! fragrance ( 8 sympa?y4 ,! angels 9 ! ,*ri/ian heav5s "k :5 ,*ri/mas is be+ celebrat$ on e>?4 ,jesus ( ,naz>e? is a reality4 ,z a spiritual body1 z ,jesus :o dwelt 9 ,galilee1 ,he exi/s 9 space & "t2 z ! ,*ri/1 ! p>adigm ( ! spiritual man1 ,he exi/s 9 ! he>ts ( all m5 & wom5 :o awak5 t idea 9 !mselves4 ,he is a light :i* is reflect$ 9 _m pools4 ,i wrote ! o!r day ab\t ,adepts & ,ma/]s4 ,jesus is a type ( ! greate/ ,ma/]4 ,he is rev]$ 9 all ! heav5s4 ,he grasp$ ! ,law & d>$ to live x1 to exemplify x4 ,& :5 ,he said1 8,! ,fa!r & ,i are "o10 ,he po9t$ ! way by :i* o!r m5 may realise ma/]%ip 9 !mselves4 ,humanity on its long road has evolv$ _m ,ma/]s4 ,:o !n %all d>e to "q t humanity has ju/ifi$ itself8 ,if "o dem&s to "k :at purpose !re is 9 life1 tell him t x is ?is v evolution ( ! ,ma/] out ( ! man4 ,et]nity is long4 ,! goal is ahead = ea* unit ( suffici5t /r5g?1 & ^? :o _c lead c s]ve4 ,?is ?\ght came home to me ) special =ce la/ night4 ,i am n s bold z to say t e unit 9 ! great mass is /rong en\gh1 has en]gy en\gh1 to evolve individual ma/]%ip2 b !re is no unit s weak t x may n h "s "p1 h[ev] small1 9 ! great "w ( evolv+ ,ma/]s out ( m54 ,x is sweet to s]ve4 ,!y too h _! rew>d4 ,! great mi/ake made by mo/ m9ds 9 wre/l+ ) ! problem ( evolution is 9 n grasp+ ! fact t et]nity is et]nity1 t to be immortal is to h no beg9n+ or end4 ,!re is "t en\gh 9 :i* to develop1 if n 9 ?is life cycle1 !n 9 ano!r :i* w foll[2 = rhy?m is sure4 ,if ,i c\ld only make y grasp ! idea ( immortality z ,i see x6 ,i did n fully und]/& x until ,i came out "h & began to pick up ! ?reads ( my own pa/4 ,my reason told me t ,i 0 immortal1 b ,i did n "k :at immortality meant4 ,i wond] if y d8 ,i "k an angel :o has done m1 p]haps1 ?an _m prophets h done to keep t idea alight 9 ! _w4 ,until ,i met ! "o :om we "k z ! ,beautiful ,be+ ,i _h n revell$ 9 ! triumph ( immortality4 ,!re is "o :o plays ) immortality z a *ild plays ) m>bles4 ,:5 ! ,beautiful ,be+ says1 8,i am10 y "k t y are1 too4 ,:5 ! ,beautiful ,be+ says1 8,i pluck ! c5turies z a *ild pulls ! petals ( a daisy1 & ,i ?r[ away ! se$-be>+ he>t to gr[ m c5tury-be>+ daisies10 y feel--b words are weak to express :at ! ,beautiful ,be+'s joy 9 endless life c make "o feel4 ,y =get ! ?+ ( fle% & bones :i* y us$ to call y\rself :5 ?is sliv] ( consci\s immortality exults 9 its own exi/5ce4 ,:5 ! ,beautiful ,be+ takes y = a walk 9 :at x calls ! 8clov] mead[s ( ! sky10 y are q sure t y are "o ( ! co-heirs ( ! :ole et]nal e/ate4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ kn[s well ! ,*ri/ ( ! ,*ri/ians4 ,i ?9k ! ,beautiful ,be+ kn[s all ! great ,ma/]s1 embodi$ or disembodi$4 ,!y all taught immortality 9 "s =m or o!r1 if only 9 ess5ce4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ w5t ) me la/ night to ! highe/ heav5 ( ! ,*ri/ians4 ,%\ld ,i tell y all t ,i saw1 y might be 9 too great a hurry to g out !re & view x = y\rself1 & y mu/ n leave ! e>? = a long "t yet4 ,y mu/ realise immortality :ile /ill 9 ! fle%1 & make o!rs realise x4 ,i h told y ab\t ! m9or heav5s1 :]e m]ely good p g2 b ! passionately dev\t lov]s ( ,god rea* heights ( contemplation & ec/asy :i* ! words ( ! _w's languages 7 n design$ to describe4 ,) ! ,beautiful ,be+ at my side ,i felt ^? ec/asies la/ night1 :ile y 7 lock$ 9 sleep4 ,:]e %all ,i be next ,*ri/mas ,eve8 ,i %all be some:]e 9 ! univ]se2 = we c\ld n get out ( ! univ]se if we %\ld try4 ,! univ]se c\ld n get on )\t u2 x w\ld be incomplete4 ,take t ?\ght ) y into ! happy ,new ,ye>4 ,,lett] ,,xlix ,,! ,,great] ,,dreaml& ,i ,,h n be5 to see y = "s "t1 = ,i h be5 try+ an exp]im5t4 ,s9ce com+ to ?is c\ntry ,i h s (t5 se5 m5 & wom5 ly+ 9 a /ate ( subjective enjoym5t1 ( dream1 if ,i may use ! ^w1 t ,i h long want$ to sp5d a few days alone ) my int]ior self1 9 t same /ate4 ,my reason = hesitat+ 0 t ,i fe>$ to dream too long1 & ?us to lose valuable "t--bo? y\rs & m9e4 ,b :5 ,i express$ to ! ,tea*] "o day my desire to visit ! great] dreaml& ly+ )9 my own bra91 also my fe> t ,i might be sl[ 9 wak+1 he promis$ t he w\ld come & wake me 9 exactly sev5 days ( e>?ly "t if ,i _h n already ar\s$ myself4 8,=10 he said1 8y c set an al>m-clock 9 y\r own bra91 :i* c always be reli$ ^u40 ,?is ,i knew f old exp]i5ce2 b ,i _h fe>$ t ! psy*ic sleep might be deep] ?an ! ord9>y e>?ly sleep1 & t ! al>m-clock might n g (f at ! appo9t$ "t4 ,i h he>d mu* comm5t1 s d\btless h y1 on ! fact t spirits1 :5 !y return to communicate ) _! fri5ds1 say1 z a rule1 s little ab\t _! cele/ial life4 ,! reason is1 ,i fancy1 t !y despair ( mak+ !mselves und]/ood %\ld !y attempt to describe _! exi/5ce1 :i* is s diff]5t f t ( e>?4 ,n[1 mo/ s\ls1 :5 !y h be5 out "s "t1 fall into t /ate ( rev]ie1 or dream1 :i* ,i _h s long desir$ to exp]i5ce = myself4 ,"s s\ls awake at int]vals1 & %[ an occasional int]e/ 9 ! ?+s & p ( ! e>?2 b if ! sleep is deep1 & if ! s\l is will+ or desir\s to leave ! ?+s ( ! e>? beh9d1 ! subconsci\s /ate may la/ un9t]rupt$ly = ye>s1 or ev5 c5turies4 ,b a s\l t c\ld /ay asleep = c5turies w\ld probably be "o t 0 liv+ accord+ to long rhy?m1 ! normal rhy?m ( humanity4 ,s1 :5 ,i w5t into ! deep sleep1 ,i w5t into x ) a spell ^u myself n to rema9 too long4 ,oh1 x 0 wond]ful1 t dream-c\ntry 9 my own self6 ,! ,!osophi/s w\ld p]haps say t ,i _h tak5 a re/ 9 ! bliss ( deva*an4 ,no matt] :at "o calls x4 ,x 0 an exp]i5ce wor? rememb]+4 ,i clos$ my eyes & w5t 9--9--deep] ?an ?\ght1 :]e ! re/less waves ( life are /ill1 & ! s\l is face to face ) itself & ) all ! wond]s ( its own pa/4 ,!re is no?+ b lovel9ess 9 t sleep4 ,if "o c br+ back ! dreams1 z ,i did1 ! soj\rn !re is an adv5ture beyond comp>ison4 ,i w5t 9 to enjoy1 & ,i enjoy$4 ,i f\nd !re ! simulacrum ( ev]yone :om ,i _h ev] lov$4 ,!y smil$ at me1 & ,i und]/ood ! my/]y ( !m1 & :y we _h be5 drawn toge!r4 ,i ref\nd1 too1 my old dreams ( ambition1 & enjoy$ ! fruit ( all my lab\r on e>?4 ,x is a rosy _w1 t inn] _w ( ! s\l1 & ! he>t's desire is always f\nd !re4 ,no wond] t ! /r5u\s life ( e>? is (t5] ?an n a pa9 & a travail1 = ! dream-life :i* foll[s is s beautiful t ! balance mu/ be pres]v$4 ,re/6 ,on e>? y "k n ! mean+ ( ! ^w4 ,i re/$ only sev5 days2 b s refre%$ 0 ,i t1 _h ,i n o!r worlds to conqu]1 ,i %\ld almo/ h _h ! c\rage to return to e>?4 ,d n neglect re/--y :o /ill live ! toilsome life 9 ! sun%9e4 ,= e add$ h\r ( true re/ y\r work+ capacity is increas$4 ,h no fe>4 ,y are n wa/+ "t :5 y lie d[n & dream4 ,z ,i h said be=e1 et]nity is long4 ,!re is room = re/ 9 ! wayside inns :i* dot ! pa? :i* ! cycles tread4 ,if y want to take a long & deva*anic re/--:y1 take x4 ,take x ev5 on e>?1 if x seems desirable4 ,d n be always grubb+1 ev5 at lit]ature4 ,g out & play ) ! squirrels1 or lie by ! fire & dream ) ! h\sehold cat4 ,! cat t enjoys ! dr[sy fireside also enjoys cat*+ mice :5 ! mood is on h]4 ,%e _c be always hunt+1 nei!r c y4 ,j take a dip 9 deva*an "s day1 & see h[ refre%$ y w be :5 y come out4 ,p]haps ,i am misus+ t ^w 8deva*an10 = ,i 0 nev] v deeply le>n$ 9 ! lore ( ,!osophy4 ,i h ev5 he>d nirvana describ$ z a /ate ( int5se motion1 s rapid t x seems motionless1 l a sp9n+-top1 or ! w+ ( a humm+-bird4 ,b nirvana is n = all m5--n yet4 ,i h h9t$ at ! wond]s ( my sev5 days ( blissful re/1 b ,i h n describ$ !m4 ,h[ c ,i8 ,a great poet once decl>$ t !re 0 no ?\ght or feel+ :i* c\ld n be express$ 9 words4 ,p]haps he has *ang$ 8 m9d by ?is "t1 aft] be+ out "h "s sixty ye>s4 ,z ,i w5t to re/1 ,i comm&$ my s\l to br+ back e dream4 ,( c\rse ,i _c say :e!r "s may n h escap$1 any m ?an y c say on wak+ t y h or h n =gott5 ! deep] exp]i5ces ( ! night4 ,b :5 ,i came back into ! normal life ( ?is plane t is call$ a/ral1 ,i felt l an explor] :o returns f a /range j\rney ) wond]-tales to tell4 ,only ,i did n tell !m4 ,to :om %\ld ,i relate ^? dreams & visions8 ,i w\ld n be a bore1 ev5 to 8disembodi$0 associates4 ,_h ,lionel be5 "h1 ,i might h ent]ta9$ him _m an h\r ) my /ories2 b he is lo/ to me = ! pres5t4 ,&1 by ! way1 he seems to h tak5 little or no deva*anic re/4 ,is t because he 0 s "y on com+ out t he _h n exhau/$ ! normal rhy?m8 ,probably4 ,_h he rema9$ out "h & gr[n up1 p]haps he also w\ld h s\ght ! deep] int]ior _w4 ,b ,i w n speculate1 = ?is is a record ( exp]i5ces1 n ( speculations4 ,y c speculate z well z ,i1 if y ?9k x wor? :ile4 ,i f\nd 9 my own dreaml& a fair1 fair face4 ,no1 ,i am n go+ to tell y ab\t t2 x is my little secret4 ,( c\rse ,i f\nd _m faces1 b "o 0 loveli] ?an all ! o!rs1 & x 0 n ! face ( ! ,beautiful ,be+1 ei!r4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ ,i meet :5 ,i am wide awake4 ,i did n enc\nt] h] z an actual pres5ce 9 sleep1 only ! simulacrum ( h]4 ,9 ! deep] dreaml& we see only :at is 9 our bra9s4 ,?+s d n exi/ !re1 only ! memories ( ?+s & ! imag9ation ( !m4 ,imag9ation creates 9 ?is _w1 z 9 y\rs3 x actually m\lds ! t5u\s sub/ance2 b 9 ! great] dreaml& ,i d n ?9k t we m\ld 9 sub/ance4 ,x is a _w ( light & %ad[ pictures1 too subtle to be describ$4 ,ev5 be=e ?is exp]i5ce ,i _h gone into ! memories ( my own pa/2 b ,i _h n revell$ 9 !m1 _h n indulg$ myself to ! ext5t ( conjur+ ) light & %ade4 ,b1 oh6 :at's ! use8 ,!re are no words to describe x4 ,c y describe ! p]fume ( a rose1 z y once said y\rself8 ,c y tell h[ a kiss feels8 ,c\ld y ev5 describe ! emotion ( fe> s t "o :o _h n felt x1 by =m] exp]i5ce 9 ?is life or "s o!r1 w\ld "k :at y meant8 ,no m c ,i describe ! process ( spiritual dream+4 ,revel to y\r he>t's cont5t 9 fancy1 9 memory1 :ile y are /ill 9 ! body1 & yet ,i ?9k t y w h only ! %ad[ ( a %ad[ ( :at ,i exp]i5c$ 9 ^? sev5 days1 ! reflection ( a reflection ( ! real dream4 ,! reflection ( a reflection6 ,i l t phrase4 ,x sugge/s a cle> picture1 ?\gh n a direct impression4 ,try dream+1 !n1 ev5 on e>?1 & maybe y w get a reflection ( a reflection ( ! pictur$ joys ( ! spiritual dreaml&4 ,,lett] ,l ,a ,,s]mon ,,& ,a ,,promise ,,z ,i h be5 com+ to y e few days = sev]al mon?s1 & h told /ories = y\r amusem5t1 may ,i come n[ & prea* a s]mon8 ,i promise x %all n be long4 ,y live 9 a l& :]e *ur* spires pi]ce ! blue ( heav51 look+ f ! viewpo9t ( ! cl\ds l ! uplift$ spe>s ( an invad+ army--:i* 9 int5t !y are2 s surely y h ! habit ( li/5+ to s]mons4 ,! av]age s]mon is made up mo/ly ( advice1 & m9e w n diff] f o!rs 9 t p>ticul>4 ,i wi% to advise y1 & z _m o!r p]sons z y c make li/5 to my advice4 ,y w grant t1 = "o :o (f]s c\nsel1 ,i h _h unusual opportunities = fitt+ myself to give x4 ,9 ord] to help y to live1 ,i w\ld %[ y ! po9t ( view ( a s]i\s & ?\ghtful--h[ev] imp]fect--obs]v] ( ! aft] effects ( causes set 9 motion by dwell]s ^u ! e>?4 ,x has be5 said t cause & effect are opposite & equal4 ,v good4 ,n[ ,i want to draw y\r att5tion to c]ta9 illu/rations ( t axiom :i* h come to my m9d dur+ ! la/ few mon?s4 ,if ,i repeat "o or two ?+s :i* ,i h already said1 t is no s]i\s matt]4 ,y may h =gott5 !m1 or miss$ _! application to ! bus9ess ( prep>+ = ! future life on ?is side ( ! gulf ( dea?4 ,t is a moss-gr[n figure ( spee*1 8! gulf ( dea?02 b ,i am writ+ a s]mon1 n a poem1 & well-worn tropes are expect$ f ! pulpit4 ,! prea*]s rem9d y e few ,sundays t y h got to die "s day4 ,d y realise x8 ,does y\r consci\sness take 9 ! fact t at any mom5t--to-morr[ or fifty ye>s h5ce--y may sudd5ly f9d y\rself outside t body ^: cohesive =ce y h become accu/om$ to2 t y may f9d y\rself1 ei!r alone or accompani$1 9 a v t5u\s & light & at fir/ n easily manageable body1 ) no c]ta9 p[] ( communicat+ ) ^? fri5ds & relations :om y may see 9 ! v room ) y8 ,y h n realis$ x8 ,!n get x ?r\gh y\r consci\sness4 ,grasp x ) bo? hemisph]es ( y\r bra94 ,clut* x ) ! talons ( y\r m9d4 ,y are go+ to die4 ,oh1 d n be al>m$6 ,i d n mean y p]sonally1 nor t y1 or any p>ticul> p]son1 w die to-morr[1 or next ye>2 b die y mu/ "s day2 & if y rem9d y\rself ( x occasionally1 x w less5 ! %ock ( ! actual happ5+ :5 x comes4 ,d n brood ov] ! ?\ght ( dea?4 ,god =bid t y %\ld read su* a morbid mean+ into my blunt words6 ,b be prep>$4 ,y insure y\r life = s mu* money t y\r family may be provid$ =2 b y d no?+ to insure y\r own future peace ( m9d reg>d+ y\r own self4 ,rememb] ?is always3 h[ev] m9ute are ! in/ructions y leave = ! managem5t ( y\r affairs aft] dea?1 %\ld y be able to look back to ! e>? y w f9d t someone has mismanag$ !m4 ,s expect j t1 take x z a matt] ( c\rse1 & le>n to say1 8,:at diff]5ce does x make80 ,le>n to feel t ! pa/ is pa/1 t ! future alone has possibilities = y1 & t ! soon] y leave o!r p]sons to manage y\r disc>d$ e>?ly affairs ! bett] x w be = y\r own tranquillity4 ,be prep>$ to let g4 ,t is ! fir/ po9t ,i wi% to make4 ,d n g out into ! new life ) only "o eye op5 to ! cele/ial planes1 & ! o!r inv]t$ t[>ds ! images ( e>?4 ,y w n get f> if y d4 ,let g4 ,get away f ! _w j z soon z y c4 ,?is may s\nd to "s p l he>tless advice1 = !re is no d\bt t a wise _s1 look+ d[n f ! high] sph]e1 c1 by 8 subtly in/ill$ telepa?ic sugge/ions1 influ5ce = good ! m5 & wom5 ( ! e>?4 ,b !re are always ?\s&s ( ^? :o are eag] to d t4 ,! heav5s above y\r head n[ are lit]ally sw>m+ ) s\ls :o long to take a h& 9 ! bus9ess ( e>?1 s\ls :o _c let g1 :o f9d ! habit ( manag+ o!r p's affairs a fasc9at+ habit1 z en?rall+ z t ( tobacco1 or opium4 ,aga91 d n call me he>tless4 ,i am blunt ( spee*1 b ,i love y1 m5 ( e>?4 ,if ,i hurt y1 x is = y\r good4 ,n[ comes ano!r & a mo/ int]e/+ po9t4 ,=get1 if y c1 ! s9s y h committ$ 9 ! fle%4 ,y _c escape ! effects ( ^? causes2 b y c avoid /r5g!n+ ! tie ) s91 y c avoid go+ back to e>? self-hypnotis$ ) ! idea t y are a s9n]4 ,d n brood ov] s94 ,x is true t y c exhau/ ! impulse to s9 by dwell+ on x until y\r s\l is disgu/$2 b t is a sl[ & an unpleasant process4 ,! %ort-cut ( =getfulness is bett]4 ,n[ ,i want to express an idea v difficult to express1 = ! reason t x w be q new to mo/ ( y4 ,x is ?is3 ,! p[] ( ! creative imag9ation is /rong] 9 m5 we>+ _! e>?ly bodies ?an x is 9 m5 7spirits7 :o h laid (f _! bodies4 ,n t mo/ p]sons "k h[ to use t p[]3 !y d n2 ! po9t ,i wi% to make is t !y c use x4 ,a solid body is a resi/ive base1 a p[]ful lev]1 f :i* ! w c project ^? ?+s conjur$ by ! imag9ation4 ,t is1 ,i believe1 ! real reason :y ,ma/]s reta9 _! physical bodies4 ,! tra9$ m9d1 rob$ 9 ! t5u\s matt] ( our _w1 is /rong] ?an ! untra9$ m9d rob$ 9 d5se matt]2 b ! ,ma/]s /ill rob$ 9 fle% c comm& a legion ( angels4#c ,?is is by way ( preface to ! ass]tion t z y on e>? picture y\r future life to be1 s x w be1 limit$ always by ! p[] ) :i* y back y\r w1 & by ! possibility ( subtle matt] to take ! m\ld y give x1 & t possibility is almo/ unlimit$4 ,w to progress aft] dea?1 & y w progress2 w to le>n1 & y w le>n2 w to return to ! e>? aft] a "t to take up a special "w1 & y w return & take up t "w4 ,k>ma is an iron law1 yes2 b y are ! creator ( k>ma4 ,above all ?+s1 d n expect--:i* is to dem&--unconsci\sness & annihilation4 ,y _c annihilate ! unit ( =ce :i* y are1 b y c by self-sugge/ion put x to sleep = ages4 ,g out ( life ) ! det]m9ation to reta9 consci\sness1 & y w reta9 x4 ,:5 ! "t comes = y to ent] t re/ :i* a c]ta9 s*ool ( ?\ght has call$ deva*an1 y w ent] x2 b t "t w n be imm$iately aft] y g out4 ,on f9ally rea*+ t /ate y w1 z a matt] ( c\rse1 relive 9 dream y\r =m] e>?ly life & assimilate its exp]i5ces2 b by t "t y w h got rid ( ! desire p]sonally to take "p1 z a _s1 9 ! lives ( ^? y h left beh9d4 ,d n1 :ile /ill on e>?1 invoke ! spirits ( ! dead4 ,!y may be busy else:]e1 & y may be /rong en\gh to call !m away f _! own bus9ess to att5d to y\rs unwill+ly4 ,y :o write = me1 ,i want to ?ank y = nev] call+ me4 ,y let me come always at my own "t1 & let me say :at ,i wi% to say )\t confus+ my ?\ght by ei!r que/ions or comm5ts4 ,y ( ! e>? :o are /ill ^u ! e>? may f9d y\r dep>t$ fri5ds :5 y come out "h1 if !y h n already put on ano!r body4 ,meantime1 let !m p]=m ! "w ( ! /ate 9 :i* !y are4 ,y :o write = me w rememb] t ! fir/ "t ,i came y did n ev5 "k t ,i _h left ! e>?4 ,i f\nd y 9 a passive mood1 & wrote a message sign$ by a symbol ^: special mean+ 0 unkn[n to y1 b :i* ,i knew w\ld be imm$iately recognis$ by ^? 9 :om y 7 likely to confide4 ,t 0 a mo/ =tunate beg9n+1 = x gave y confid5ce 9 ! g5u95ess ( my communications4 ,b ,i said t ,i w\ld write only a s]mon to-night1 s ,i w n[ pron\nce ! bless+ & dep>t4 ,i %all return1 h[ev]4 ,?is is n ! la/ meet+ ( ! season4 ,lat]4 ,"o ^w m be=e ,i g to my o!r "w4 ,if y _h urg5tly call$ me dur+ t week :i* ,i sp5t 9 re/1 y might h _h ! p[] to cut %ort a mo/ int]e/+ & valuable exp]i5ce4 ,s ! f9al ^w1 aft] ! b5$iction ( ?is s]mon1 is3 ,d n be too egoti/ically insi/5t1 ev5 ) ! s-call$ dead4 ,if y\r ne$ is great1 ! s\ls :o love y may feel x & come to y ( _! own accord4 ,?is is (t5 illu/rat$ 9 ! e>? life1 among ^? ^: psy*ic pores are op54 ,,footnotes3 ,footnote #c3 ,he has said t !y build freely 9 t _w ?r\gh ! creative imag9ation2 b we mu/ rememb] h[ t5u\s & easily h&l$ is ! matt] :i* !y use4--,,ed4 ,,lett] ,,li ,,! ,,april ,,( ,,! ,,_w ,,hav+ told y la/ week t y mu/ die1 accord+ to ! j>gon ( ! e>?1 ,i n[ want to assure y t y c nev] really die at all2 t y are z immortal z ! angels1 z immortal z ,god ,himself4 ,no1 t is n a contradiction4 ,i h spok5 be=e ( immortality3 x 0 always a fav\rite !me ( m9e2 b s9ce my association ) ! ,beautiful ,be+ x has become = me an exultant consci\sness4 ,! ,beautiful ,be+ lives 9 et]nity1 z we fancy t we live 9 "t4 ,w y write d[n "h ano!r ( t angel's *ants8 ,:5 y see me 9 ! gre5 trees & 9 ! gre5 light "u trees1 "k t y are ne> to me3 ,:5 y he> my voice 9 ! sil5ce1 "k t ,i speak = y4 ,! immortal loves to speak to ! immortal 9 ! mortal1 & !re is joy 9 call+ to ! joy :i* dozes 9 ! he>t ( a s\l ( e>?4 ,:5 joy is awake1 ! s\l is awake4 ,y look = ,god 9 ! =ms ( m5 & wom51 & sometimes y f9d ,him !re2 ,b y look = me 9 y\r own s\l2 ! deep] ! gaze1 ! fair] ! vision4 ,yes1 ,i am 9 ,nature1 & ,i am 9 y1 :5 y look = me !re2 ,= ,nature is dual1 & ! half y c>ry )9 y4 ,all ?+s are "o & dual--ev5 ,i1 & t is :y y may f9d me4 ,oh1 ! *>m ( be+ free1 to w&] at w r\nd ! e>? & heav51 & ?r\gh ! s\ls ( m56 ,i am light] ?an ! ?i/le-d[n1 b m endur+ ?an ! />s3 ,! p]man5t is impalpable1 & only ! impalpable endures4 ,! road is n long :i* leads to ! ca/le ( dreams2 ! f>-away is ne>] ?an next-door1 b only ! dream] f9ds x4 ,:5 lab\r is light1 ! pay is sure2 :5 ! days are h>d1 _! rew>d is t>dy4 ,be glad1 & ,i w repay y4 ,i w\ld write my "n on ! leaves ( y\r he>t1 b only ! angels c read ! writ+4 ,:o be>s my unkn[n "n on ! petals ( 8 he>t is accept$ among ! angels = ! fl[] he is2 8 p]fume rea*es heav54 ,!re is poll5 9 ! he>t1 *ild ( e>?1 & x fructifies ! fl[]s ( fai?2 ,!re is fai? 9 ! s\l1 *ild ( "t1 & x be>s ! se$s ( all ?+s4 ,! seasons come & ! seasons g1 b ! spr+-"t is et]nal4 ,i c f9d t 9 y :i* 0 lo/ 9 ! ,april ( ! _w4 ,,lett] ,,lii ,a ,,happy ,,wid[] ,i ,,met a *>m+ woman ! o!r night1 q diff]5t f anyone else ,i h met h]et(ore4 ,%e 0 no less a woman because %e weigh$ p]haps a milligramme in/ead ( "o hundr$ & ?irty p\nds4 ,i 0 pass+ along a quiet road1 & saw h] /&+ by a f\nta94 ,:o _h creat$ ! f\nta98 ,i _c say4 ,!re are sculptors 9 ?is _w :o m\ld = ! love ( ! "w m beautiful f\nta9s ?an y\r sculptors m\ld = money4 ,! joy ( ! workman 9 8 "w6 ,:y1 t is heav51 is x n8 ,i saw a beautiful woman /&+ by a f\nta92 & z ,i love beauty1 :e!r 9 f\nta9s or 9 wom51 ,i paus$ to reg>d bo?4 ,! loveli] ( ! two look$ up & laugh$4 8,i 0 wi%+ = someone to talk to10 %e said4 8,:at a wond]ful _w ?is is60 8,i am glad y f9d x s10 ,i answ]$4 8,i also d n agree ) ! old woman :o decl>$ t heav5 0 a mu* ov]rat$ place40 8,y don't rememb] me1 d y80 %e ask$4 8,no4 ,h we met be=e80 8,we h4 ,&1 ( c\rse1 y c\ld rememb] me1 if y %\ld try40 ,!n ,i recall$ :o %e 04 ,we _h met "s ye>s be=e on "o ( my j\rneys to ,new ,york1 & ,i _h talk$ ) h] ab\t ! my/]ies ( life & dea?1 ( w & de/9y4 8,i h te/$ _m ( ! ?+s y told me10 %e w5t on1 8& ,i h f\nd !m true40 8,:at ?+s1 = in/ance80 8,fir/ & mo/ important1 t man may create 8 own environm5t40 8,y c easily demon/rate t "h10 ,i said4 8,b h[ long h y be5 9 ?is _w80 8,only a few mon?s40 8,& h[ did y come out80 8,i di$ ( too mu* joy40 8,t 0 a pleasant dea? & an unusual "o10 ,i said1 smil+4 8,h[ did x happ580 8,! doctor said t ,i di$ ( he>t-failure4 ,= ye>s ,i _h want$ a c]ta9 ?+1 & :5 x came to me sudd5ly1 ! realisation 0 too mu* = me40 8,& !n80 8,:y1 ,i sudd5ly realis$ t ,i _h let slip ! body ?r\gh :i* ,i might h enjoy$ ?is ?+ ,i _h atta9$40 8,& !n80 8,i rememb]$ t ,i 0 n my body1 t ,i 0 my consci\sness2 & z long z t 0 intact1 ,i 0 intact4 ,s ,i w5t "r on enjoy+ ! atta9m5t40 8,)\t a regret80 8,yes40 8,y are inde$ a philosoph]10 ,i said4 8,& ?\gh ,i d n want to =ce y\r confid5ce1 yet ,i w\ld be mu* int]e/$ to "k y\r /ory40 8,x w\ld seem absurd to "s p10 %e answ]$1 8& ev5 to me x seems /range sometimes4 ,b ,i _h always want$ money1 a great deal ( money4 ,"o day a c]ta9 p]son di$1 leav+ me a =tune4 ,x 0 t joy :i* 0 too /rong = me40 8,& h[ d y enjoy ! =tune "h80 8,9 sev]al ways4 ,my husb& & ,i _h plann$ a beautiful h\se--if we %\ld ev] h ! money4 ,we _h plann$ to travel1 too1 & to see ! int]e/+ places ( ! _w4 ,we also _h two or ?ree fri5ds :o lov$ to create beauty 9 ! arts1 & :o 7 hamp]$ 9 _! "w by lack ( means4 ,n[1 my husb&1 be+ my sole heir1 came into ! =tune imm$iately ,i pass$ out4 ,s ,i enjoy ev]y?+ ) him & ?r\gh him j ! same z if ,i 7 actually 9 ! fle%40 8,& he kn[s t y are pres5t80 8,yes4 ,we _h ea* promis$ n to des]t ! o!r 9 life or dea?4 ,i h kept my ^w1 & he kn[s t ,i h kept x40 8,& :]e is he n[80 8,travell+40 8,alone80 8,except = me40 8,9 :at place is he80 8,9 ,egypt at ?is "t40 ,i drew ne>]4 8,c y %[ him to me80 ,i ask$4 8,yes1 ,i ?9k s4 ,come along40 ,x is ne$less to say t ,i did n require a second invitation4 ,we f\nd ! man--a h&some fell[ ab\t ?irty ye>s ( age--sitt+ alone 9 a luxuri\s b$room 9 ,cairo4 ,x seems to be my de/9y to h /range exp]i5ces 9 ,cairo6 ,! "y man 0 read+ z we ent]$ ! room2 b he look$ up at once1 = he felt t %e 0 !re4 ,i d n ?9k he p]ceiv$ me4 8,my d>l+10 he said1 al\d1 8,i h se5 ! ,pyramids60 ,%e plac$ h] h& ^u 8 =ehead1 & he clos$ 8 eyes1 ! bett] to see h]4 ,!n 8 h& mov$ to ! table1 he op5$ 8 eyes aga91 & took up pap] & p5cil4 ,i saw h] guide 8 h&1 :i* wrote3 8,i h br\ght a fri5d ) me4 ,c y see him80 8,no40 ,! man spoke al\d1 %e communicat+ ?r\gh ! p5cil 9 8 h& & by 8 int]ior p]ception ( h]4 8,!n nev] m9d10 %e wrote2 8he is n an egoti/4 ,i only want$ him to see y4 ,i h told him h[ happy ,i am--& n[ he sees :y40 8,?is j\rney ( m9e is an unalloy$ delight10 ! man said4 8,t is because ,i am ) y10 %e repli$4 8,7 y ) me at ! ,pyramids to-day80 8,yes1 ?\gh ,i _c see v well 9 ! sun%9e4 ,i h be5 !re1 h[ev]1 & h se5 !m by moonlight4 ,b :]e are y go+ f "h80 8,:]e d y want me to g80 8,up ! ,nile1 to ,ass\an40 8,i w g4 ,:5 %all ,i />t80 8,! day aft] to-morr[4 ,& n[ au revoir1 my love4 ,i w return by & by40 ,a mom5t lat] we 7 outside--%e & ,i--9 ! s(t />light ( an ,egyptian ev5+4 8,did ,i n tell y ! tru?80 %e dem&$1 ) a little laugh ( triumph4 8,b h y no desire to g on 9 ! spiritual _w80 ,i ask$4 8,is !re any?+ m spiritual ?an love80 %e ask$ 9 return4 8,is n love ! fulfill+ ( ! ,law80 8,b10 ,i said1 8,i rec5tly wrote a lett] to ! m5 & wom5 ( ! e>?1 advis+ ^? :o %\ld come out "h to get away f ! e>? z soon z possible40 8,lov]s l me w n take y\r advice10 %e answ]$1 ) a smile4 8,& tell me n[3 ,is x n bett] = ,h5ry to enjoy my society 9 ! long ev5+s--is x n bett] = him to be happy ?an to grieve = me80 8,b at fir/8 ,0 he n inconsolable at y\r go+ out80 8,yes1 until ,i came to him4 ,he 0 sitt+ "o night 9 deep dejection1 & ,i rea*$ = 8 h&1 & wrote ) x3 #8,i am "h1 speak to me4' #8,my ,love6' he cri$1 8 face alight1 #8are y really !re8' #8,yes1 ,i am "h1 & ,i %all come to y e day until y come out to me1' ,i answ]$1 ?r\gh ! p5cil4 8,he _h nev] kn[n t he 0 :at y call a #8writ+ m$ium4' ,he w\ld nev] h be5 b = my pres5ce 9 a =m ( matt] diff]5t f 8 own4 8,come n[1 my fri5d10 %e add$1 8w\ld y really advise me n to visit ,h>ry any m80 8,!re are said to be exceptions to all rules10 ,i answ]$4 8,at ?is mom5t y seem to me to be "o ( ^? exceptions40 8,& w y add a po/script to y\r rec5t lett] to ! _w80 8,if ,i c10 ,i said1 8,i w tell y\r /ory4 ,my read]s c draw _! own conclusions40 8,?ank y10 0 h] answ]4 8,b10 ,i add$1 8:5 ,h5ry comes out "h 9 8 turn1 y two toge!r %\ld g away f ! _w40 8,h y be5 away f ! _w !n80 8,to "s ext5t4 ,i am only /opp+ "h n[ until a c]ta9 "w is f9i%$40 8,& !n :]e are y go+80 8,to visit o!r planets40 8,h5ry & ,i w d t1 too1 :5 he comes out40 ,n[1 my fri5d1 ,i tell y ?is /ory = :atev] x is wor?4 ,!re are cases l h]s1 :]e an e>?ly tie is all-compell+4 ,b 9 ! case ( mo/ p]sons ,i /& by my orig9al ass]tion & my orig9al advice4 ,,lett] ,,liii ,,! ,,ar*ives ,,( ,,! ,,s\l ,i ,,h spok5 ( a det]m9ation to visit o!r planets :5 my "w ( writ+ ^! lett]s is end$2 b ,i mu/ n neglect to say t ,i consid] su* j\rneys to & fro 9 ! univ]se ( f> less spiritual value ?an ^? o!r j\rneys :i* ,i h made & %all make into ! deep places ( my own self4 ,travell+ 9 actual space & "t is important to a man1 t he may ga9 k ( o!r l&s & peoples1 see ! diff]5ces betwe5 ^! peoples & himself1 & le>n ! causes !re(2 yet quiet m$itation is ev5 a great] factor 9 gr[?4 ,if a man ^: spiritual p]ceptions are op5 c d b "o ( ^! two ?+s1 x w\ld be bett] = him to sit 9 a cab9 9 ! backwoods & seek 9 8 own s\l = ! secrets :i* x gu>ds1 ?an to travel )\t su* self-exam9ation to ! ends ( ! e>?4 ,get acqua9t$ ) y\r own s\l4 ,"k :y y d ?is or t1 :y y feel ?is or t4 ,sit quietly :5 9 d\bt ab\t any matt]1 & let ! tru? rise f ! deeps ( y\rself4 ,exam9e y\r motives always4 ,d n say1 8,i ought to d ?is act = su* & su* a reason2 !re=e ,i d x = t reason40 ,su* argum5t is self-deception4 ,if y d a k9d act1 ask y\rself :y4 ,p]haps y c f9d ev5 9 a k9d action a hidd5 motive ( self-seek+4 ,if y %\ld f9d su* a motive1 d n d5y x to y\rself4 ,ackn[l$ge x to y\rself1 ?\gh y ne$ n adv]tise x on ! walls ( y\r dwell+4 ,su* a secret und]/&+ w give y a great] sympa?y & compreh5sion 9 judg+ ! motives ( o!rs4 ,/rive always = ! ideal2 b d n label e emotion z an ideal emotion if x is n really t4 ,speak ! tru? to y\rself4 ,until y c d>e to d t y w make little progress 9 ! que/ ( y\r own s\l4 ,betwe5 e>? lives is a good "t to m$itate1 b "o %\ld =m ! habit ( m$itation :ile 9 ! fle%4 ,habits =m$ 9 ! fle% h a t5d5cy to cont9ue aft] ! fle% is laid aside4 ,t is a reason :y "o %\ld keep z free z possible f physical habits4 ,if my *>m+ acqua9tance :o comes e night to h] husb& to write love messages ?r\gh 8 h& w\ld sp5d ! great] "p ( h] "t 9 acquir+ k ( ?is new _w1 s t %e c\ld enlight5 him1 !n might _! communion be an unmix$ good2 b ,i fe> x is n s4 ,!re=e ,i %all look = h] aga91 & give h] "s fa!rly advice4 ,%e has a quick & receptive m9d1 & ,i ?9k %e w li/5 to me4 ,he w\ld be int]e/$ 9 h] exp]i5ces1 if = no o!r reason ?an because !y are h]s4 ,yes1 ,i %all h to f9d h] aga94 ,i h made wond]ful discov]ies 9 ! ar*ives ( my own s\l4 ,!re ,i h f\nd ! memories ( all my pa/1 back to a "t almo/ unbelievably di/ant4 ,9 see+ h[ ! causes set up 9 "o life h produc$ _! effects 9 ano!r life1 ,i h le>n$ m ?an ,i %all le>n on my com+ t\r ( ! planets4 ,ev]y?+ exi/s 9 ! s\l2 all k is !re4 ,grasp t idea if y c4 ,! infallible "p ( u is ! hidd5 "p1 & x is = u to br+ x to light4 ,d y und]/& n[ :y ,i advise ! disembodi$ to break away f ! di/ractions & ! dazzl+ mirages ( ! e>?ly life8 ,only 9 ! /illness ( deta*m5t c ! s\l yield up h] secrets4 ,x is n t ,i am indiff]5t to e>?ly loves2 on ! contr>y1 ,i love m deeply ?an ev] all ^? :om ,i lov$ on e>?2 b ,i realise t if ,i c love !m wisely in/ead ( unwisely1 x w be bett] bo? = !m & = me4 ,yet ! call ( ! e>? is l\d sometimes1 & my he>t answ]s f ?is side ( ! veil4 ,,lett] ,,liv ,a ,,=mula ,,= ,,ma/]%ip ,,my fri5d1 ,i am go+ to leave y = a :ile--p]haps = a long "t4 ,x seems to me t my imm$iate "w ) ! e>? is done4 ,i want /ill fur!r to light5 my load1 to so> out ^u ! waves ( e!r--f>--f>--& to =get1 9 ! ?rill ( exploration1 t ,i %all "s day h to make my way pa9fully back to ! _w ?r\gh ! n>r[ /raits ( bir?4 ,i am go+ out ) ! ,beautiful ,be+ on a voyage ( discov]y4 ,my companion has tak5 ?is j\rney be=e1 & c %[ me ! way to _m wond]s4 ,!re is a sadness 9 bidd+ y good-bye4 ,d y rememb] ! la/ "t y saw me 9 my old body8 ,we nei!r ( u ?\ght t aft]noon t we %\ld next meet 9 a =eign c\ntry1 & "u conditions s /range t half ! _w w d\bt t we h ev] met aga9 at all1 & ! o!r half w wond] if inde$ we h really met4 ,tell me1 0 ,i ev] m real to y ?an ,i am ?is ev5+8 ,:ile sitt+ ) me 9 ! days ( ! pa/1 did y ev] "k less ( :at ,i %\ld say a mom5t aft]w>ds ?an y "k n[8 ,rack y\r bra9 z y w1 y _c tell :at ,i am go+ to talk ab\t4 ,t w prove to y1 at lea/1 t ,i am z real z ev]4 ,i want to leave a few messages4 ,tell4444 ,& tell4444 ,& "s day tell my boy to live a brave & clean life4 ,he w be wat*$ ov]4 ,tell him t if sometimes he feels ! int]ior guidance1 n to be afraid to tru/ x4 ,tell him to look )9 = light4 ,= ! pres5t1 ,i h n mu* m to say to ! _w at l>ge4 ,b ,i want y to publi% ^! lett]s1 leav+ out only ! v p]sonal p>agraphs4 ,yes1 ,i may n see y aga9 = a long "t4 ,d n be sad4 ,:5 ,i am gone1 p]haps ano!r w come4 ,d n close ! door too tight2 b gu>d well ! door1 & let no "o ent] :o has n ! signs & passwords4 ,y w n be deceiv$2 ,i h tra9$ y to t end4 ,i _c write mu* to-night1 = !re is a sadness 9 leav+ ! e>?4 ,b ,i am--or %all be--all a-?rill ) ! int]e/ ( ! com+ voyage4 ,?9k ( x6 ,i %all see f>-away planets & meet _! inhabitants4 ,%all ,i f9d ! 8squ>e-fac$ m508 ,p]haps s4 ,9 ,jupit]1 !y say1 !re is a race ( be+s wond]ful to behold4 ,i %all see !m4 ,w !y be fair] ?an our own ,beautiful ,be+1 :o loves ! little e>? & usually /ays ne> x1 because !re are su* /ruggles "h8 ,! joy ( ! /ruggle6 ,t is ! keynote ( immortality1 ! keynote ( p[]4 ,let ?is be my f9al message to ! _w4 ,tell !m to enjoy _! /ruggles1 to ?rill at ! endless possibilities ( comb9ation & creation1 to live 9 ! mom5t :ile prep>+ = long h5ce1 & n to exagg]ate ! importance ( mom5t>y failures & disappo9tm5ts4 ,:5 !y come out "h & get _! lives 9 p]spective1 !y w see t mo/ ( _! causes ( anxiety 7 trivial1 & t all ! lights & %ad[s 7 necess>y to ! picture4 ,i _h my lights & %ad[s1 too1 b ,i regret no?+4 ,! ,ma/] enjoys difficulties z a swimm] enjoys ! resi/ance ( ! wat]4 ,if ,i c\ld make y realise ! p[] t comes f fac+ ! /ruggle--n only bravely1 z all ! platitud9\s bores w tell y1 b fac+ x ) enjoym5t4 ,:y1 any heal?y boy enjoys a fight4 ,8 blood beats fa/1 8 n]ves t+le2 b he :o keeps 8 head cool is likely to come out on top4 ,life is a fight4 ,y are 9 matt] to conqu] x--le/ x conqu] y4 ,!re is no?+ 9 ?is univ]se /rong] ?an ! w ( man :5 x is direct$ by a p[]ful unit ( =ce4 ,:atev] y\r /r5g?1 make ! mo/ ( x 9 ! battle ( life4 ,rememb] t y\r oppon5ts are n o!r m51 b conditions4 ,if y fight m51 !y w fight y back2 b if y fight conditions1 !y1 be+ un9tellig5t1 w yield to y ) j en\gh resi/ance to keep y\r muscles 9 good ord]4 ,& d n =get ! law ( rhy?m--t is at ! back ( ev]y?+4 ,c\nt on rhy?m2 x nev] has fail$ yet1 & x nev] w4 ,wat* = ! high tides ( y\rself & fl[ up ) !m2 :5 ! inevitable l[ tides come1 ei!r re/ or m$itate4 ,y _c escape rhy?m4 ,y transc5d x by work+ ) x4 ,y c ev5 turn & gr[ "y1 = "t also has its tides2 & !re are _m ripples 9 ! long sea-swell ( life4 ,i feel t ,i am leav+ mu* unsaid4 ,b ,i %all meet y aga9 "s day4 ,,transcrib]',s ,,notes ,simple typographical errors h be5 sil5tly correct$2 unbalanc$ quotation m>ks 7 rem$i$ :5 ! *ange 0 obvi\s1 & o!rwise left unbalanc$4 ,punctuation1 hyph5ation1 & spell+ 7 made consi/5t :5 a pr$om9ant pref]5ce 0 f\nd 9 ! orig9al book2 o!rwise !y 7 n *ang$4