,transcrib]'s note3 ,unusual & inconsi/5t spell+ is z pr9t$4 ,illu/ration3 ,letitia /ood look+ 9 blank dismay1 n (f]+ to help4 ,little ,eyebright ,,& ,,h] ,,pund ,o' ,,c>e ,,by ,,agnes ,,gib]ne ,,au?or ,,( ,,! ,,e>ls ,,( ,,! ,,village1 ,,ida',s ,,secret1 ,,life ,,tangles1 ,,floss ,,silv]?orn1 ,,etc4 ,new ,edition ,john ,f4 ,%aw ,co41 ,ltd4 ,publi%]s #c1 ,pilgrim ,/reet1 ,london1 ,e4,c4 ,illu/ration ,,cont5ts ,,*ap4 ,i4 ,,euphrasia',s ,,home ,,ii4 ,,euphrasia',s ,,plans ,,iii4 ,,"s ,,cause ,,= ,,c>e ,,iv4 ,,= ,,"o',s ,,good ,v4 ,,! ,,john/on ,,family ,,vi4 ,,euphrasia',s ,,fri5d ,,vii4 ,,fri5ds ,,& ,,fri5ds ,,viii4 ,a ,,/ep ,,9 ,,! ,,d>k ,,ix4 ,a ,,prison] ,x4 ,,h[ ,,mu* ,,long]8 ,,xi4 ,,nev] ,,s5t6 ,,xii4 ,,g5u9e6 ,,xiii4 ,,n ,,ca/ ,,d[n ,,xiv4 ,,some?+ ,,wrong ,,xv4 ,,w ,,y--8 ,,xvi4 ,,h[ ,,c>e ,,may ,,be ,,c>ri$ ,illu/ration ,,little ,,eyebright ,,& ,,h] ,,pund ,o' ,,c>e -------------- ,,*apt] ,i ,,euphrasia',s ,,home ,i ,,don',t "k1 ,i'm sure1 ,mrs4 ,l&or4 ,i suppose y're "r1 ( c\rse4 ,p nev] ought to fret1 ( c\rse4 ,mr4 ,l&or w\ld say j ! same if he 7 prea*+4 ,i suppose ev]ybody ought always to feel sure t ev]y?+ is always exactly "r4 ,an odd expression cross$ ! o!r's face4 ,oh1 ,i "k x is q wrong ev] to let "o's self get worri$4 ,b !n1 y see1 x always 0 my way to be easily upset4 ,"s p are made l t2 don't y ?9k s8 ,& o!r p are made q diff]5t4 ,i don't see1 = my "p1 h[ "o is to help h[ "o 0 made4 ,:5 ?+s g wrong1 ,i always d get l[-spirit$4 ,x is v fooli%1 p]haps1 b !n x is my way4 ,i h be5 h>ass$ half out ( my s5ses ! la/ week4 ,z fa/ z ev] "o tr\ble cle>s (f1 ano!r comes 9 its place4 ,t is :at ,i f9d1 sigh$ ,mrs4 ,mack5zie4 ,!re's no sort ( peace or re/ 9 life1--no?+ b worry6 ,isn't x a com=t t "o tr\ble does cle> away be=e ano!r comes8 ask$ h] call]4 ,oh well1 :5 x does4 ,b sometimes ev]y?+ seems to come toge!r1 all 9 a heap4 ,i am sure1 la/ w9t] ,i didn't "k :]e to turn or :at to d1 ) ! influ5za & all6 ,& mo/ likely x w be j z bad next w9t]4 ,! influ5za is c]ta9 to come aga94 ,nay6 ,:y c]ta98 ,oh1 !y say x w2 p all say s4 ,& if my husb& gets x a f\r? "t1 ,i don't believe he w pull ?r\gh4 ,i don't1 inde$6 ,he has nev] be5 ! same man s9ce ^? ?ree attacks1 "o on ! top ( ano!r4 ,he isn't fit = 8 "w1 & ev]ybody says s1 b if he /ops1 h[ 9 ! _w are we to pay our way8 ,he might take a holiday if ne$ful4 ,/ill1 ,i w\ld n 9 y\r place give mu* = ! op9ion ( 'ev]ybody4' ,:at does y\r doctor say8 ,col9 has n be5 to ! doctor lately4 ,he doesn't want to run up bills1 b he looks s ill1 ,i q dread to see him come 96 ,& ,k5's c\gh fright5s me4 ,he has kept x on ! :ole summ]1 & n[ we are half-way ?r\gh ,septemb]4 ,i suppose he won't lose x be=e ! w9t]2 & a boy is s expos$ to risks 4 4 4 ,& 9 ! middle ( all my worries1 my cook has giv5 me w>n+1 j because %e wants to get m>ri$4 ,x is h>d1 :5 %e suit$ me s nicely1 & :5 ,i h s _m ?+s weigh+ on me6 ,& my h\semaid has a bad f+]1 & c't d half h] "w 4 4 4 ,& !n !re is ,euphrasia4 ,:at ( ,euphrasia8 ,no?+ wrong !re surely6 ,euphrasia looks ! picture ( heal?4 ,oh1 z to heal?--yes1 %e is well en\gh4 ,x isn't t1 b ,i d get s disappo9t$4 ,i suppose "o mu/ expect to be disappo9t$4 ,i did ?9k x w\ld be su* a com=t to h a daught] at home ) h] education done & no lessons1 & pl5ty ( "t to help me3 & really ,euphrasia is z busy z ,flo1 & n half s pleasant4 ,x is a sort ( way ) h]--answ]+ s %ortly1 ,i mean--b ,i always d feel hurt4 ,& !n %e likes h] own way s mu*6 ,girls d1 ,i suppose1 pretty ne>ly always4 ,flo is diff]5t1 b !n ,flo always '0' a little angel4 ,x q fright5s me sometimes1 %e is s good4 ,euphrasia does n fright5 y1 app>5tly1 9 t respect4 ,h[ev]1 girls ought n to be too busy to help _! mo!rs4 ,oh1 ,i don't say %e is4 ,%e means to d "r1 ,i d>e say4 ,( c\rse1 %e doesn't want to neglect h] duties4 ,only ,i suppose ,i'm too s5sitive3 & !n !re is a grudg+ sort ( mann]2 n t %e means x s1 ,i d>e say4 ,x is only awkw>dness1 only ,i c't help notic+4 ,& to h h] go+ away already1 j :5 ,i 0 beg9n+ to f9d h] useful-- ,go+ :]e8 ,x's an invitation f a s*ool fri5d1 ,letitia ,john/on4 ,euphrasia is s odd2 %e makes h>dly any fri5ds4 ,%e only has ?is "o1 & really ,i don't "k any?+ ab\t ! girl's family4 ,!re's be5 a sort ( promise t ,euphrasia %\ld pay !m a visit :5 %e _h done ) s*ool1 & n[ ,col9 says we c't well refuse4 ,we _h ,letitia "h once = a week2 & %e seem$ nice1 r4 ,b /ill-- ,mrs4 ,l&or made no imm$iate answ]4 ,%e 0 a graceful woman1 ov] middle height1 & p]haps beyond middle age1 ) hair already silv]$1 & a c]ta9 innate que5l9ess ( be>+1 n less5$ by ! sev]e pla9ness ( h] black m]9o dress & close gray bonnet4 ,s]5e eyes b5ea? a broad br[ /udi$ ! pretty woman opposite--= ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 wife ( ! ,manag] ( ,we/ ,norton ,bank1 0 a decid$ly pretty woman /ill1 despite h] =ty ye>s4 ,%e might h be5 a v attractive "o1 _h h] lips fall5 habitually into less frett$ curves2 _h h] blue eyes be5 habitually less full ( tr\ble & self-condol5ce4 ,/ill if y d n feel t y c sp>e h]-- ,i don't suppose x w make mu* diff]5ce4 ,%e has to g "s day1 & ! visit may z well be got ov]4 ,euphrasia w\ld n l to give x up1 & any "t1 almo/1 w\ld be z bad4 ,wom5's lives are j made up ( h>ass & bo!r4 ,are !y8 qu]i$ ,mrs4 ,l&or sob]ly4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 if ,i didn't "k y q s well1 ,i %\ld v5ture to say some?+ 4 4 4 ,"o c speak m freely1 ,i ?9k1 on "s subjects z a /rang] ?an z a fri5d4 ,i hope %e isn't go+ to beg9 prea*+1 d>t$ ?r\gh ,mrs4 ,mack5zie's m9d4 ,& !n came a swift recollection ( innum]able k9dnesses1 foll[$ by ! resolve1 ,i mu/n't seem to be vex$4 ,al\d %e said cauti\sly1 ,i %\ld ?9k y might say any?+ y lik$ to me6 ,!n may ,i ask a "q8 ,y h a good deal to say ab\t h>ass & worry1 &1 ( c\rse1 life does mean a fair am\nt ( !m = mo/ p4 ,yet !re is ano!r side ( ! "q4 ,i wond] :e!r t side ev] pres5ts itself to y 4 4 4 ,:5 our ,"l said1 ',come unto ,me 4 4 4 & ,i w give y re/'--:at d y ?9k ,he really int5d$ to d8 ,is absolute re/ a ?+ compatible ) p]petual m5tal h>ass8 ,= surely h>ass means unre/6 ,if ! two are n compatible--!n1 :at did ,he mean8 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie 0 sil5t4 ,if ,i 7 y1 ,i w\ld f9d an answ] to t "q1 cont9u$ ,mrs4 ,l&or s(tly4 ,%e 0 n at all a demon/rative p]son1 b = once %e /oop$ & kiss$ ! pla9tive d[nca/ face4 ,we may be sure ( "o ?+1 t :at ,*ri/ said1 ,he meant1 & t :at ,he meant 0 some?+ v real & practical 4 4 4 ,p]haps ! "q resolves itself into n s mu* :at ,,he means by re/1 z :at 'we' mean :5 we ask = re/2 & :e!r we ev] d actually take ,him at ,8 ^w6 4 4 4 ,x seems su* a pity1 if ,he is will+ & wait+ to give u re/1 t we don't tr\ble ourselves to receive x 4 4 4 ,=give me = say+ s mu*4 ,good-bye4 ,x's all v well1 b ,mrs4 ,l&or doesn't "k :at life means ) su* an income z ours1 sigh$ ,mrs4 ,mack5zie4 ,if %e did1 %e might h a "r to speak4 ,if h] husb& di$ to-morr[1 x w\ldn't make a f>?+'s diff]5ce to h] com=ts4 ,& if ,col9 7 to break d[n1 we %\ld j be at ! end ( ev]y?+4 ,x's bad en\gh n[1 try+ to make bo? ends meet & nev] able to get a qu>t] ( ! ?+s we ne$4 ,( c\rse1 x is q "r to h a prop] am\nt ( tru/1 b all ! same "o mu/ be anxi\s4 ,mrs4 ,l&or w\ld 9 my place1 :atev] %e may say n[4 ,& !re's nobody to und]/&1 nor to be ! lea/ help to me4 ,col9 nev] w talk ov] ?+s till he has made up 8 m9d :at to d1 & ,euphrasia is wrapp$ up 9 h] own conc]ns4 ,i did ?9k ,mrs4 ,l&or w\ld give me a little sympa?y1 b %e is no bett] ?an anybody else4 ,i might j z well h kept x all to myself 4 4 4 ,:y1 !re's ,col9 com+ home n[6 ,:at c be ! matt]8 ,o de>6 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie ran to ! front door & flung x op5 9 a tremor ( al>m4 ,a tall man ( some:at solid build1 n am\nt+ to /\tness1 came sl[ly up ! little g>d54 ,8 face1 albeit by no means h&some1 _h good /rong outl9es1 b ! complexion at ?is mom5t %[$ an unnatural pallor4 ,col96 ,:at has br\ght y back8 ,d tell me--quick6 ,is any?+ ! matt]8 ,i am s fright5$6 ,oh1 make ha/e & speak6 ,i "k some?+ is dreadfully wrong4 ,no?+ = y to be fright5$ ab\t1 my de>4 ,i am m]ely--a little out ( sorts to-day4 ,he spoke ) a t\* ( brea?lessness1 z if ! walk home _h be5 too fatigu+4 ,i'll be all "r pres5tly4 ,mak+ 8 way pa/ h] into ! small draw+-room1 he sat d[n 9 8 fav\rite arm-*air4 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,euphrasia',s ,,plans ,,b :at is ! matt]8 ,:at is wrong8 exclaim$ ,mrs4 ,mack5zie4 ,:y h y come home at ?is h\r8 ,dr4 ,nor? 0 !re3 & he said ,i %\ld be bett] = an aft]noon's re/4 ,:]e is ,euphrasia8 ,h[ %\ld ,i "k1 ,col98 ,girls are s re/less4 ,%e is out some:]e walk+ ) ,flo4 ,b ,i'm s unhappy ab\t y6 ,i "k y are go+ to be ill4 ,i am q sure ( x4 ,my de>1 ,i hope n4 ,pray d n talk s be=e ! *ildr54 ,i am n q up to ! m>k j n[1 p]haps4 ,!n a smile dawn$1 z two girls came quickly 9--! eld] eighte5 9 age1 ! y\ng] a m]e *ild ( ?irte51 & an exce$+ly pretty *ild4 ,nobody ev] call$ ,euphrasia pretty4 ,%e _h blunt mann]s1 & irregul> features1 & no p>ticul> complexion4 ,b1 9 ,mr4 ,mack5zie's op9ion1 all defects 7 comp5sat$ = by ! peculi> /$fa/ gleam ( h] gray eyes2 a gleam :i*1 9 *ildhood1 _h made suitable ! pet "n ( ,little ,eyebright4 ,! "n clung to h] /ill1 ?\gh %e 0 little no long]1 b ( good m$ium height & r\nd$ proportions4 ,p]haps ,mrs4 ,mack5zie _h nev] become entirely reconcil$ to ! fact t ,euphrasia _h fail$ to take aft] h]self4 ,k5r$1 ! only boy1 0 good-look+ en\gh to satisfy h] desires3 & ,flo %e 0 wont to describe z a p]fect picture ( h] e>li] self4 ,"s p demurr$ privately1 c\nt+ ! picture f> m attractive ?an ! orig9al4 ,b1 poor de> ,euphrasia _h no?+ to boa/ ( 9 ! way ( looks1 & ?is con/itut$ "o ( ,mrs4 ,mack5zie's _m trials 9 life4 ,! eld] girl 0 commonly said to be m h] fa!r's ?an h] "m's *ild4 ,%e _h inh]it$ mu* ( 8 ,scot* res]ve1 ( 8 ,scot* sl[ness 9 giv+ expression to ! deep] feel+s1 b %e _h n inh]it$ 8 placid temp]4 ,at times1 "u pressure1 %e c\ld be /irr$ into vehem5t spee*4 ,:5 n s /irr$1 %e 0 apt to veil h] true self "u a cru/9ess ( demean\r1 :i* repell$ "s p & p]plex$ o!rs4 ,x c]ta9ly /ood 9 m>k$ contra/ ) ,flo's sweet & w9n+ ways4 ,almo/ ev]ybody lik$ ,flo be/1 & wond]$ h[ x 0 t ! eld] girl %\ld be s diff]5t4 ,p]haps ,mr4 ,mack5zie alone 9 ! h\se1 & ,mrs4 ,l&or alone out ( ! h\se1 guess$ ! real wor? ( "* :i* lay undevelop$ b5ea? ?is out] cru/9ess4 ,is fa!r ill8 exclaim$ ,flo4 ,%e came to 8 side & put h] little h& on him c>ess+ly4 ,we met ,mr4 ,ev]ett1 & he said he _h be5 br++ fa!r home4 ,a little out ( sorts1 my de>4 ,j a heada*e1 int]rupt$ ,mr4 ,mack5zie4 ,col91 y nev] told me t6 ,:y1 ,i saw y come 9 alone6 ,my de>1 !re 0 no cause = a fuss4 ,ev]ett gave me 8 arm "p ( ! way4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie did n f9d x ne$ful to /ate h[ l>ge a "p ( ! way4 ,he 0 r annoy$ at ?is unexpect$ r5contre ( ! "y cl]k ) 8 two girls1 & vex$ ) himself = n hav+ w>n$ ,ev]ett to keep sil5ce4 ,b someh[ he _h felt s confus$ z to be unable to ?9k /eadily4 ,x 0 j no?+1 he reit]at$1--j a heada*e4 ,i'll be all "r to-morr[4 ,b1 daddy1 he said-- ,flo1 d hold y\r tongue4 ,y are bo!r+ fa!r1 ,euphrasia said %>ply4 ,& ,flo's sweet face flu%$ up1 ! blue eyes fill+1 l v]onica blossoms full ( dew4 ,really1 ,euphrasia6--,y d scold t poor d>l+6 remon/rat$ ,mrs4 ,mack5zie4 ,nay1 nay2 nobody is go+ to scold anybody1 int]pos$ h] husb&1 always ! family peacemak]4 ,my de>1 ,i don't ?9k we w h a discussion j n[4 ,i am n j up to ! m>k4 ,i wond] if y c\ld get me a nice cup ( /rong c(fee4 ,someh[ ,i ?9k x w\ld d me good2 & nobody makes x l y1 ,m>y4 ,:y1 nobody's likely to4 ,i le>nt x f a ,fr5*woman1 said ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 mu* flatt]$4 ,%e w5t (f1 & ,col9 ,mack5zie us$ ! opportunity = a /rict injunction4 ,nobody 0 to say any?+ t w\ld make ! little "m anxi\s4 ,b1 daddy de>1 '0' x true8 ,mr4 ,ev]ett did tell u y fell "r d[n1 & c\ldn't tell :]e y 7 at fir/4 ,& he said y look$ 'awfully bad4' ,0 x true8 ,flo's lips 7 quiv]+ /ill ) ! rebuke %e _h receiv$4 ,james ,ev]ett is a silly boy to g & *att]4 ,i 0 a trifle dizzy1 ,i'll admit1 b no?+ to make a fuss ab\t1 no?+ at all1 y und]/&4 ,i'll write a l9e to ,ev]ett1 & bid him hold 8 tongue1 & ,k5 %all take x r\nd pres5tly4 ,& ! less y bo? say to y\r "m ! bett]4 ,i told y s1 ,flo6 ,i said fa!r w\ldn't l y to repeat x4 ,nev] m9d6 ,x's all "r1--no h>m done6 ,nobody is go+ to say any?+ m4 ,i ?9k ,i'll lie d[n = an h\r1 & !n ,i'll be myself aga94 ,mack5zie kiss$ ,flo & patt$ ,euphrasia's arm z he rose to move away4 ,! slight flu/] ( talk _h br\ght aga9 confus$ s5sations4 ,flo1 y'd bett] tell "m :]e to take ! c(fee4 ,fa!r w be up/airs4 ,!n1 z %e vani%$1 ,euphrasia came ne>] & ask$1 ,is no?+ ! matt] really8 ,n l :at ,mr4 ,ev]ett said8 ,mack5zie /ood /ill1 lean+ on ! back ( a tall *air4 ,i 0--n j ! ?+1 my de>2 ,ev]ett 0 n s f> wrong4 ,j a pass+ little attack1 b ,i'm n to be c\nt$ ill2 & ,dr4 ,nor? hopes x w n recur4 ,i w\ld n h y\r "m "k1 on any acc\nt4 ,%e w\ld give h]self no peace4 ,did any?+ happ5 to worry y1 fa!r8 ,?+s d happ5 once 9 a way6 ,mack5zie spoke evasively4 ,& ,euphrasia1 look+ /raight up into 8 face1 read !re an unwont$ %ad[1 z ( some?+ imp5d+4 ,x isn't only t y are poorly1 %e said decisively4 ,n only j a heada*e1 fa!r4 ,some?+ or o!r has gone wrong at ! ,bank4 ,hu%6 ,my de>6 ,i w\ldn't h y ov]he>d = any?+4 ,t is n y\r bus9ess4 ,some?+ ( worry comes1 ( c\rse1 n[ & aga92 & v (t5 x means no?+--j no?+ at all4 ,:y %\ld x8 ,i am n q :at ,i 0 s9ce ! influ5za1 & a trifle too easily knock$ d[n1 p]haps4 ,b y mu/ n talk to p z if ,i _h any special weight ^u my m9d4 ,be sure y d n6 ,i w\ld n h x said = any?+4 ,& ,i'll be all "r 9 ! morn+4 ,i w n tell1 ( c\rse1 b ( c\rse ,i c't help see+1 ,euphrasia answ]$ /urdily4 ,!n an impulse came1 & %e act$ ^u x1 )\t paus+ to consid]4 ,fa!r--w\ld y l--w\ld y r--if y l1 ,i'll put (f go+ to ! ,john/ons6 ,%all ,i8 ,if y are bo!r$1 & w\ld l to h me at home6 ,z %e made ! (f]1 h] he>t gave a resi/+ b\nd1 & !n sank l[ at 8 look ( in/ant relief4 ,b quickly z %e saw :at 8 wi% w\ld be1 s quickly he saw :at ! giv+ up w\ld mean to h]4 ,no1 no--nons5se--n ! lea/ ne$4 ,h y\r pleasure1 ,little ,eyebright6 ,i w\ldn't = ! _w /& 9 ! way4 ,n = a mom5t6 ,no1 no2 y'll be (f 9 two days1 & back aga9 9 a mon?4 ,& :at is a mon?8 ,:y1 x's j no?+6 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,"s ,,cause ,,= ,,c>e ,,euphrasia /ood close to ! bay-w9d[1 deep 9 ?\ght4 ,h] br[s 7 knitt$1 h] eyes fix$ ^u ! dull /reet1 see+ n\ght4 ,mo/ ( ! ,we/ ,norton /reets 7 dull2 & ?is p>ticul> r[ ( h\ses1 built all ^u ! same fa%ion1 front$ by a long blank wall :i* enclos$ ,dr4 ,nor?'s kit*5-g>d51 c\ld n be call$ an exception4 ,a girl :o _h liv$ !re all h] life might be expect$ to gr[ us$ to ! dulness1 b ,euphrasia _h n always liv$ !re4 ,?ree ye>s at a ,brighton s*ool1 by way ( educational f9i%1 _h made a m>k$ break4 ,we/ ,norton1 aft] ,brighton1 wore a slumbr\s aspect4 ,= ! sleep9ess ,euphrasia c>$ little4 ,%e _h )9 h] "y self1 life & vig\r en\gh to c\nt]act x4 ,:at %e did m9d 0 sep>ation f h] "o fri5d1 ,letitia ,john/on4 ,girl-l1 %e _h flung h]self1 he>t & s\l1 into ?is fri5d%ip2 & ,letitia _h gr[n to be ! c5tre ( h] _w4 ,an occasional lett] by po/ 0 f\nd to be a poor sub/itute = daily & h\rly int]c\rse4 ,moreov]1 ,euphrasia 0 suff]+ f ! abrupt end+ ( s*ool-"w4 ,%e _h n yet f\nd h] ni*e 9 life1 & h] unus$ en]gies crav$ = m scope ?an seem$ at pres5t to be )9 _! rea*4 ,a c]ta9 re/lessness 0 ^u h]2 & ?is add$ to ! ze/ ) :i* %e look$ =w>d to ! promis$ visit4 ,a :ole mon? 9 a new place ) ,letitia's unkn[n relatives1 above all ) ,letitia h]self--all ?is conta9$ a promise ( delight1 )\t a %ad[4 ,euphrasia _h n by nature h] "m's unquiet _s1 always expect+ ills4 ,h] _s 0 unquiet only 9 ! desire = m *ange2 & %e 0 unsophi/icat$4 ,life ?us f> _h be5 easy1 on ! :ole4 ,& n[ z ! day drew ne>1 only two nights rema9+ betwe51 ! "q arose %>ply1 ,ought %e to give x up8 ,euphrasia 0 a girl ( "r pr9ciple1 & to "s ext5t1 ( subjection to duty4 ,religion 9 h] 0 z yet a ?+ r desir$ ?an possess$2 & ! p]sonal love = an unse5 ,"l & ,ma/]1 :i* _c b result 9 ob$i5ce to ,8 ,^w1 _h n yet dawn$--al?\gh %e wi%$ = x4 ,%e _h a v di/9ct aim 9 h] m9d1 to d :at 0 "r1 n to be selfi%1 n to be lazy4 ,b ! self-pleas+ w 0 /rong1 z 9 mo/ "y natures--n to speak ( old] ones1 unless trans=m$ "u a nobl] =ce ( love4 ,%e want$ v mu* to d h] duty1 b %e want$ /ill m to get h] own way4 ,9 ?is p>ticul> natt] ( ! project$ visit to ,letitia1 ! crav+ to h h] way 0 ov]ma/]+4 ,c\ld %e give up s great a delight8 ,t 0 ! "q :i* %e ask$ ( h]self1 /&+ 9 ! bay-w9d[4 ,n s mu* ought %e8 z c\ld %e8 ,if h] p>5ts _h insi/$1 %e w\ld1 ( c\rse1 h rema9$ at home--n cont5t$ly1 or ( h] own free w1 b simply because ! ?+ _h to be4 ,euphrasia appreciat$ ! diff]5ce betwe5 su* discont5t$ submission & volunt>y giv+ up4 ,moreov]1 %e knew t h] p>5ts w\ld n insi/4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie might wi%1 & ,mrs4 ,mack5zie might fret1 b nei!r ( ! two w\ld decide aga9/ h] go+1 s z to leave ) h] no fur!r *oice4 ,aft] all1 :y %\ld %e lose ! pleasure8 ,:y %\ld any?+ g wrong at ! ,bank8 ,:y %\ld ,mr4 ,mack5zie be ill8 ,anybody might suff] f a trifl+ attack ( indisposition2 & occasional bus9ess worries 7 a necessity4 ,!re1 at lea/1 %e 0 p[]less to help4 ,to be sure1 h] fa!r did sometimes seem to f9d x a relief to confide 9 8 elde/ girl1 :5 afraid to say a ^w to 8 wife le/ %e %\ld magnify 8 mean+ t5fold1 & worry h]self ill ) unreasonable fe>s4 ,he c\ld be sure t ,euphrasia w\ld und]/&4 ,b he w\ld n expect t %e %\ld be inv>iably at h& = su* confid+ 4 4 4 ,to be sure1 x 0 a v %ort "t s9ce h] return f s*ool1 & %e _h n meant to g away aga9 s soon4 ,b ! invitation _h come1 & 0 irresi/ible4 ,"u a mom5t>y impulse %e _h (f]$ to )draw f ! promis$ pleasure2 & ! in/ant ?rob ( fe> le/ h] (f] %\ld be accept$1 _h %[n h] :at su* )drawal w\ld mean4 ,ea* h\r s9ce _h made ! giv+ up h>d] to contemplate4 ,%e resolv$ to wait ?r\gh ! night1 & to see h[ h] fa!r seem$ 9 ! morn+4 ,at breakfa/1 he call$ himself bett]1 & look$ wret*$4 ,8 fix$ pal5ess1 yet m1 8 fix$ look ( tr\ble1 gave h] a guilty feel+4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 r s+ul>ly1 :ile not+ & comm5t+ on ! =m]1 did n p]ceive ! latt]4 ,euphrasia 0 haunt$ ?r\gh ! meal by a s5se ( ?reat5+ tr\ble4 ,some?+ surely _h happ5$1 or 0 go+ to happ54 ,s %e told h]self1 & !n %e tri$ to believe ! notion a mi/ake4 ,any?+ r ?an all[ h]self to feel t %e might n g4 ,he kiss$ ,euphrasia :5 />t+ = 8 day's "w4 ,pack up y\r traps1 ,little ,eyebright4 ,y w be (f to-morr[4 ,mid-day tra91 is x n8 ,fa!r1 are y really bett]8 ,8 smile 0 n *e]ful4 ',a man's weel or wae z he ?9ks himsel' sae4' ,i'm n go+ to be fancy+ myself an invalid1 till ,i gr[ into "o4 ,if y w\ld l me to put (f my visit-- ,aga9 ! mom5t>y gleam ( half-ass5t1 & ! quick pull+ 9 ( himself4 ,no1 no6--no ne$--x is be/ ov]4 ,h y\r pleasure :ile y c1 *ild4 ,a deep sigh 0 audible z he turn$ away4 ,!n x 0 t ,euphrasia f\nd h] way into ! bay-w9d[1 to /& lo/ 9 ?\ght4 ,ought ,i to g8 ,i wond] if ,i ought8 ,is x wrong8 ',mu/' ,i give up8 ,i don't see any real reason4 ,x may be all j no?+ at all4 ,& ,letitia w\ld be s hurt4 ,p]haps %e w\ld nev] ask me aga94 ,t ?\ght won ! day4 ,euphrasia resolv$ to leave arrangem5ts undi/urb$4 ,%e did n feel satisfi$1 b x 0 some?+ to h come to a decision ( any sort2 & %e w5t 9 vigor\sly = pack+4 ,%e w5t 9 also = anticipations4 ,?is com+ mon? promis$ to be ! happie/ %e _h ev] kn[n4 ,letitia & ,letitia's p>5ts1 ,letitia's home1 & ,letitia's bro!r--,euphrasia's imag9ation rang ! *anges on ^! ?\ghts h\r aft] h\r4 ,b ev] & anon rose once m ! "q1 ,ought ,i really to g8 ,x is settl$ n[4 ,i c't unsettle ?+s4 ,"m w\ld be worri$ if ,i did4 ,my box is pack$1 & :y '%\ld' ,i put (f8 ,x w\ld be absurd6 ,s %e made answ]1 yet ! little que/ion+ voice w\ld n be entirely put d[n4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie1 z an ord9>y rule1 came home to e>ly d9n]1 b once 9 a way1 if v busy1 he w\ld take lun* at a confection]'s close by4 ,on ?is day !y saw no m ( him till ! ev5+1 & !n 8 gray %ad[$ look s5t a fre% ?rill ?r\gh ! girl4 ,ought ,i to g8 ! voice ask$ aga94 ,oh1 b ,i c't give x up n[1 %e cri$ )9 h]self4 ,n[6 ,h[ c ,i8 ,j :5 ev]y?+ is settl$6 ,oh1 ,i c't6 ,& s ! ev5+ pass$1 till b$-"t drew ne>4 ,euphrasia1 my de>1 ,i %\ld r wi%--,i %\ld l a few words ) y4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie's voice broke into a half-happy1 half-uneasy dream4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie 0 up/airs1 call$ away by "s dome/ic appeal2 & ,flo _h retir$ ) ,k5 to ! d9+-room1 :]e he prep>$ 8 lessons4 ,n "h1 ,i ?9k4 ,y\r "m w be back directly4 ,no4 ,%e said %e w\ld be m ?an half-an-h\r4 ,nobody w int]rupt u j n[4 ,8 face work$ uneasily1 ! muscles twit*+1 ! eyes sombre4 ,i %\ld l to say--some?+4 ,x w\ld be a--some?+ ( a relief to me4 ,= y\rself alone1 m9d--absolutely = y\rself alone4 ,n a ^w to anyone4 ,fa!r1 y c tru/ me4 ,y "k ,i w\ld nev] repeat a s+le ?+4 ,euphrasia drew h] *air a little ne>]1 & 8 h& came on h]s4 ,h[ hot y are6 %e said involunt>ily4 ,no1 my de>1 y nev] repeat ?+s4 ,i am q aw>e6 ,y are a good *ild6 4 4 4 ,p]haps ,i am n wise to speak1 b ?is burd5 on me-- ,:at burd58 ,a s5se ( com+ calamity4 ,& if ,i d n speak n[--if ,i %\ld nev] h ano!r opportunity-- ,nev]--':at1' fa!r8 ,a spasm ( t]ror almo/ depriv$ h] ( utt]ance4 ,my de>1 nobody ev] kn[s4 ,nobody c tell4 ,any?+ might happ5 be=e y come home4 ,a :ole mon?6 ,nations h *ang$ own]s 9 less ?an a mon?6 ,& he laugh$ fa9tly4 ,b 9 ,we/ ,norton--:at 'c\ld' happ58 ,i don't und]/& :at y mean6 ,i am--n wise1 p]haps4 ,look+ =w>d & expect+ ill is n a s5sible occupation4 ,b ! feel+ ov]p[]s me at times4 ,x has be5 ^u me s /rongly ( late--a con/ant s5se ( com+ tr\ble4 ,i c h>dly def9e :at ,i mean2 x weighs me to ! gr\nd6 ,& x w come true6 ,! la/ few words 7 almo/ :isp]$4 ,euphrasia's he>t beat ?ickly4 ,!n x is n only a feel+4 ,x is some?+ t y really "k1 some?+ go+ wrong at ! ,bank4 ,hu%6 ,hu%6 & he glanc$ r\nd appreh5sively4 ,y mu/ n sugge/ su* ?+s4 ,he held "o h& ov] 8 br[4 ,i wi% my head did n feel z x does ( late4 ,b t is a small matt]4 ,if ,i c\ld only ?9k-- ,fa!r1 :at is wrong really8 ,did ,i say--any?+ 08 ,yes4 ,y meant x4 ,ano!r anxi\s look r\nd4 ,euphrasia w5t to ! door & demon/rat$ ! fact ( its be+ fa/ %ut4 ,!n %e return$ to 8 side1 /&+ close & speak+ l[4 ,please tell me4 ,i w n talk4 ,i w n repeat a ^w4 ,only tell me :at y mean4 ,he hid 8 face1 groan$1 & said1 ,ev]y?+ is go+4 ,n ! ,bank6 ,hu%6 ,fa!r--d y mean--is 't' go+ to fail8 ,he laid 8 l>ge hot h& aga9 on h] little plump "o1 & held x 9 a grasp :i* gave positive pa94 ,euphrasia endur$ ! pa9 )\t fl9*+4 ,z %e /ood ?us1 wait+1 li/5+ to ! l\d ticks ( ! clock1 wat*+ ! ve9s swoll5 on h] fa!r's =ehead1 %e _h a /range s5se ( gr[+ old] fa/1 ( ea* m9ute be+ almo/ z a ye> 9 h] exi/5ce1 ( all remnants ( *ildhood slipp+ f h]4 ,:atev] h] fa!r's mood might imply1 x c]ta9ly impli$ some?+ s]i\s4 ,a mutt] came at l5g?1 ho>se & l[1 ,loss ( ev]y?+4 ,= 'u8' ,he mov$ 8 head 9 sil5t ass5t4 ,:58 ,h[8 ,i _c tell4 ,i see x loom+4 ,& no?+ c be done to keep x (f8 ,no?+ :atev]4 ,%e crept clos]1 & caught h] brea? audibly4 ,hu%6 ,if y\r "m comes 9-- ,mu/ %e n "k8 ,n a day e>li] ?an ne$ be6 4 4 4 ,x w kill u bo?6 4 4 4 ,let h] be happy a little long]4 ,8 hagg>d eyes look$ into ,euphrasia's4 ,i d n "k :y ,i h told y--su* a *ild z y are6 ,x does no good4 ,i h be5 selfi% to speak4 ,poor fa!r6 ,euphrasia's voice 0 seldom s t5d]4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie 0 /irr$ by x to /rong emotion4 ,he hid 8 face4 ,poor ,euphrasia6 ,poor little ,eyebright6 ,!y w say ,i h be5 a bad fa!r to y all6 ,b--n f want ( love6 ,oh1 no6 ,don't say t6 ,don't talk s1 please6 ,! de>e/ & be/ ( fa!rs6 ,please don't say su* ?+s4 ,i c't g to-morr[4 ,i'll /ay at home4 ,no1 my de>4 ,y mu/ g4 ,i c't6 ,h[ c ,i8 ,!re w be no pleasure 9 x at all--n[4 ,y mu/4 ,we c\ld give no reason4 ,i w\ld n h ?is guess$ = any?+6 ,i d n "k h[ ,i h come to say s mu*4 ,x has be5 fooli%--selfi% ( me6 ,to spoil y\r pleasure = no good4 ,b ! burd5 seem$ m ?an ,i c\ld endure alone4 ,i'm glad y told me4 ,%e wond]$ vaguely--might n "s ^w ( tru/ be helpful "h8 ,p _h to tru/ 9 tr\ble4 ,mrs4 ,l&or w\ld say s at once4 ,b ! tr\ble seem$ s real1 & ! tru/ s dim4 ,euphrasia c\ld n feel consci\s ( any?+ l real tru/ )9 h]self2 & h[ !n might %e advise ano!r to ex]cise x8 ,no1 all %e c\ld d 0 to give up go+ away1 & /ay at home1 to be1 if possible1 "s little com=t to him4 ,b %e /rove 9 va94 ,8 w 0 z a fl9t 9 opposition4 ,! dread le/ any?+ might 9 consequ5ce be guess$ ov]ma/]$ all o!r consid]ations4 ,to ,euphrasia ! fe> seem$ unreasonable1 b %e _h no p[] to make him see z %e saw4 ,if y _h decid$ aga9/ x e>li]--( y\r own w--be=e ,i spoke1 t w\ld h be5 diff]5t1 he said once1 wi/fully4 ,& a /ab ( self-reproa* %ot ?r\gh ! girl1 = %e knew n[ t consci5ce _h spok5 pla9ly1 & t %e _h refus$ to li/54 ,b n s9ce ,i h spok5--n on any acc\nt6 ,i c\ld n p]mit x6 ,:5 %e plead$ fur!r1 a look ( di/ress & confusion came4 ,i _c /& discussion4 ,y mu/ g1 my de>1 & enjoy y\rself4 ,no?+ c alt] ! plan n[4 ,euphrasia's tra9 0 n until aft] mid-day4 ,& an e>ly message f ,mrs4 ,l&or intimat$ t a good-bye call 0 expect$ at ! ,rectory4 ,i told y %e w\ld n be pleas$ if y didn't g1 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie obs]v$4 ,"m1 ,i 0 !re ! day be=e ye/]day4 ,well1 y mu/ run r\nd aga9 n[4 ,!re's no ne$ to /ay long1 & y\r pack+ is f9i%$4 ,mrs4 ,l&or 0 always especially k9d to ,euphrasia1 treat+ h] 9 "s sort z %e w\ld h treat$ a fav\rite niece4 ,%e _h no nieces1 & %e _h kn[n ,little ,eyebright f infancy4 ,euphrasia gave mu* quiet love to ,mrs4 ,l&or--a /eady affection1 )\t romance1 b reliable4 ,al?\gh ,lady ( ! ,manor1 ,mrs4 ,l&or _h1 s9ce h] m>riage "s t5 or twelve ye>s e>li]1 liv$ always at ! ,rectory4 ,h] own h\se lay at a good di/ance--inconv5i5tly f> = ! cl]gyman4 ,s x 0 let to /rang]s1 & %e quietly devot$ h]self to ,p>i% "w4 ,"s p ?\ght & :isp]$ t ,mrs4 ,l&or's affairs _h become involv$1 & t h] weal? 0 by no means :at x once _h be54 ,%e seldom spoke ( h] own affairs1 h[ev]1 & conjecture w5t no fur!r4 ,did y mean to flit )\t "o ^w to me8 ,mrs4 ,l&or ask$1 :5 ! girl came sl[ly 94 ,x 0 n ,euphrasia's way to g ab\t ) lagg+ /ep1 & ,mrs4 ,l&or not$ ! *ange in/antly4 ,!n %e saw a look 9 ! "y face n commonly !re1 & %e put aside ! "w ov] :i* %e 0 busy1 motion+ ,euphrasia to a seat by h] side4 ,euphrasia did n take x4 ,%e w5t to a *air at a little di/ance1 resolutely retic5t 9 air4 ,mrs4 ,l&or w\ld see1 ( c\rse1 t some?+ 0 wrong1 = ,mrs4 ,l&or always saw ev]y?+1 & ,euphrasia knew t %e mu/ gu>d h] words c>efully4 ,x 0 s natural to tell ,mrs4 ,l&or all t 0 9 h] m9d1 & "h %e might n d s4 ,%e _h an odd feel+ t di/ance meant great] safety4 ,b ,mrs4 ,l&or quietly mov$ to ! ne>e/ s(a1 s %e ga9$ no?+4 ,"m said ,i 0 to come4 ,aga9/ y\r w1 *ild8 ,mrs4 ,l&or scrut9is$ ! grave face4 ,x is n a "q ( ',little ,eyebright' to-day4 ,^? eyes h be5 awake ne>ly all night4 ,:at h y be5 do+ ) y\rself8 ,"o glance answ]$1 quickly veil$4 ,"s little matt] t y d n want to tell me8 ,girls h _! tr\bles1 h !y n8 ,don't make too mu* ( x1 :atev] x may be4 ,y\rs is n1 ,i ?9k1 a peculi>ly anxi\s temp]am5t1 b mo/ ( u possess "s p[] ( self-worry+4 ,i don't ?9k-- ,euphrasia fail$ to complete h] s5t5ce4 ,y are pleas$1 on ! :ole1 to g to y\r fri5d4 ,i didn't want to give x up4 ,n ev5 if y\r "m want$ y at home8 ,b my fa!r says ,i mu/ g4 ,i did (f]--la/ night4 ,ah6 ,t alt]s ! "q4 ,a pause2 & !n--,euphrasia1 :at is ! matt] ) y\r fa!r8 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,= ,,"o',s ,,good ,,! "q came abruptly1 ?\gh utt]$ 9 g5tle tones4 ,x took ,euphrasia by surprise4 ,a wave ( col\r crimson$ h] face to ! hair-roots1 & !n fl$1 leav+ h] :ite4 ,mrs4 ,l&or wat*$ ) quiet att5tion4 ,%e c\ld d s1 s9ce ! d[nca/ eyes 7 n rais$4 ,i see4 ,he has be5 talk+ ?+s ov] ) y4 ,no2 y ne$ n answ]4 ,i am ask+ no que/ions4 ,p]haps1 a little mi/ake on y\r fa!r's "p4 ,! be/ ( m5 make occasional mi/akes4 ,he does n q realise :at a *ild y are4 ,i don't feel l a *ild4 ,*ildr5 seldom d4 ,y w feel y\ng] :5 y are really old] 4 4 4 ,b ( c\rse he does n realise--h[ %\ld he8 ,& he has n be5 ! same man s9ce la/ w9t]4 ,a sort ( n]v\s disorganisation ab\t him4 ,he ought to g abroad = a few weeks1 & get %ak5 out ( x 4 4 4 ,he has be5 tell+ y ( "s little bus9ess worry or o!r2 & 9 8 pres5t /ate1 x has gr[n to ,brobd+nagian proportions4 ,! mole-hill is to y\r m9d a v]itable m\nta94 ,i mu/ n repeat-- ,n a ^w4 ,i w\ldn't h y d s1 on any acc\nt4 ,confid5ce is sacr$1 f anyone--f a fa!r or "m especially s1 if !re c be any 'especial' 9 connection ) :at is absolute4 ',i' %all n repeat ev5 my own conjecture to any human be+4 ,be sure ( t6 4 4 4 ,b ,i d n wi% ,little ,eyebright to leave home ) s sad a face4 ,x's n ne$ful1 *ild4 ,?+s w come "r4 ,w !y8 ,euphrasia look$ ) unbeliev+ eyes at h] fri5d4 ,h[ c y tell8 ,?+s don't always come "r4 ,n ) ev]ybody4 ,t may be4 ,x dep5ds-- ,does x8 ,euphrasia seem$ to take ! re/ ( ! unspok5 s5t5ce = grant$4 ,if p are good en\gh1 y mean4 ,b nobody c be m good ?an my fa!r4 ,& t does n mean t ev]y?+ mu/ always come "r ) him4 ,i ?9k x does4 ',we "k t all ?+s "w toge!r = good to !m t love ,god4' ,we '"k' s mu*1 ) a c]ta9 k4 ,if he loves ,god1 !n all ?+s mu/ & w "w toge!r = 8 good4 ,:e!r t is exactly :at y mean by '?+s com+ "r1' ,i _c say4 ,x is :at ,i mean4 ,a c]ta9 girli% resi/ance 0 9 ! o!r's face4 ,n easy to grasp1 at y\r age1 p]haps4 ,i don't see h[ t w\ld make tr\ble any ! less h>d to be>4 ,tr\ble is meant to be tr\ble2 & y mu/ n expect x to be aught else4 ,! k t x is to "w utt]ly & absolutely = our good1 ought to make x less h>d to be>4 ,x w\ldn't1 ) me4 ,i %\ld want ! tr\ble tak5 away1--j ! same4 ,i hate ?+s go+ all crook$4 ,x's s mis]able4 ,i suppose ,i ought n to talk s--b--,i'd r be )\t ! tr\ble1 & )\t ! good ( x too4 ,y may say :at y ?9k to me4 ,probably _m ( u feel s at times1 9 our ignorance ( :at we wi%4 ,to be ')\t ! good' 'might' imply su* awful loss 9 ! future1--yet ( c\rse we don't und]/&4 ,& ,god kn[s t we don't4 ,m]cifully ,he doesn't puni% u by tak+ u at our ^w1 & treat+ u accord+ to our folly4 ,aft] all1 x is j ,fa!r & *ild ov] aga91 z we see ! relation%ip daily4 ,! fa!r1 kn[+ be/ & lov+ mo/1 b5t on ! *ild's happ9ess1 & will+ at any co/ to himself1 to give pres5t pa9 = future good4 ,! *ild b5t on pres5t ease & enjoym5t1 n able to und]/& ! discipl9e x has to be>1 or to look ahead 4 4 4 ,:at d y say8 ,yes1 co/ to ! *ild1 no d\bt1 b great] co/ to ,himself3 because ! pa9 ( giv+ pa9 is m sev]e to a lov+ nature ?an t ( receiv+ pa96 4 4 4 ,!re is no?+ = x b tru/1 :]e we _c see4 ,,he deals ) u commonly accord+ to ! measure ( our tru/1 respond+ m :5 we expect m1 & less :5 we expect less4 ,euphrasia seem$ to be lo/ 9 ?\ght4 ,:5 %e spoke1 x 0 to put a "q4 ,d y mean t if--if ,i saw a tr\ble com+--& if ,i pray$ t x might n come1 & felt q sure x w\ld n--d y mean t t w\ld keep x (f8 ,a r odd expression cross$ ,mrs4 ,l&or's face4 ,y c\ldn't d x1 *ild4 ,euphrasia's look fell4 ,su* a pray] 9 itself w\ld be presumptu\s1 unless pray$ 9 submission1 & !n1 ( c\rse1 ! mode ( answ] w\ld be d\btful4 ,if y resolv$ wilfully to pray t ! tr\ble might at all haz>ds be kept (f1 y c\ld n make y\rself believe t x inevitably 'w\ld' be kept (f4 ,i ?\ght1 sometimes1 p 7 s sure ab\t gett+ an answ]4 ,p may be absolutely sure1 always1 ab\t gett+ an answ]1 b n ab\t gett+ ! p>ticul> answ] :i* !y w\ld *oose = !mselves 4 4 4 ,i don't say !re are no exceptional cases4 ,sometimes a tr\ble ?reat5s to come1 & ! *ild turns to 8 ,fa!r = help2 & an in/ant assurance is :isp]$ to him t ! trial %all n come4 ,!n x does n come 4 4 4 ,b ,i d\bt if su* assurance is ev] giv5 to "o wilfully insi/+ 9 pray] on hav+--',n ,?y w b m9e4' ,x is n = u to dictate to ,god3 only to ask4 ,!n ,i don't see ! good ( pray+1 ,euphrasia broke out passionately4 ,"o might j z well let x alone4 ,%e gaz$ aga9 ) rebelli\s eyes1 expect+ to see signs ( indignation1 b %e c\ld detect no?+ beyond pity4 ,poor *ild6 ! eld] lady said s(tly4 ,wait a little :ile1 till y "k ,him bett]6 ,!n y w f9d ! diff]5ce betwe5 be>+ y\r own burd5 & putt+ x (f into ,8 h&s4 ,some?+ ( ! same ?\ght came to ,euphrasia t _h come to h] "m4 ,if ,mrs4 ,l&or expect$ to lose ev]y?+1 w\ld %e feel s1 '!n8' ,! "q f\nd half-expression 9 a murmur$1 ,x is easy to talk-- ,= p :o h n ! tr\ble !mselves4 ,yes1 ,i d>e say x seems s4 ,x mu/1 naturally4 ,y "k y\r own tr\bles1 & y don't "k m9e4 ,p]haps y w\ld ev5 say t ,i _h none4 ,if x 7 s1 my de>1 rememb] t ! highe/ hon\r ,god c put ^u "o ( ,8 *ildr5 is1 p]haps1 to 'leave' t *ild 9 ! d>k1 t he may tru/ )\t be+ able to see4 ,euphrasia's glance 0 uncompreh5d+4 ,try at lea/ to ?9k :at a spl5did ?+ x is to h su* a ,fri5d z ,*ri/ to hold "o's h&1 & to %ape "o's life4 ,if ,he includes "s pa9 9 ! %ap+1 x is because we ne$ ! pa94 ,bett] to accept :at ,he br+s1 bravely & )\t murmur+4 ,i don't mean = a mom5t t we may n pray aga9/ com+ tr\ble4 ,we ought to pray1 & to be confid5t ( an answ]4 ,only we may n dictate ! mann] ( answ]4 ,i c't see ! good ( pray+ if ! tr\ble is to come j ! same4 ,x does n come 'j ! same4' ,if x comes1 x comes diff]5tly1 or we are made able to meet x diff]5tly4 ,my de>1 try = y\rself1 urg$ ,mrs4 ,l&or1 h] sl5d] h& re/+ on ! girl's sunburnt f+]s4 ,only try1 & prove = y\rself h[ k9d & true a ,ma/] ,he is4 ,he w n be dictat$ to1 b ,he does love to be appeal$ to4 ,only put y\r worries /raight (f into ,8 ,h&s1 & ask ,him to arrange ev]y?+ = ! be/4 ,if y\r exp]i5ce 9 life is to be at all ! same z m9e has be51 y w con/antly be amaz$ at ! mann] ( answ] t comes1 s simple & direct4 ,v (t5 s exactly ! ?+ t y h ask$ & wi%$ =4 ,i don't say x 'w' be ! same4 ,god does n treat u z pati5ts 7 treat$ 9 old5 hospitals--laid u 9 r[s1 to receive ! same doses ( m$ic9e all r\nd4 ,ea* case ne$s its own treatm5t1 & ea* case gets x4 ,b "o ?+ ,i d "k1 t y w nev] turn to ,him 9 va94 ,"s p don't seem to get su* answ]s4 ,d !y expect su* answ]s1 ,euphrasia8 ,mrs4 ,l&or _h no reply to h] "q4 ,half to h]self1 yet di/9ctly1 %e quot$1-- ',if our love 7 b m simple1 ,we %\ld take ,him at ,8 ,^w3 ,& our lives w\ld be all sun%9e ,9 ! sweetness ( our ,"l4' ,all sun%9e doesn't mean no cl\ds1 b x does mean sunlight betwe5 & ?r\gh ! cl\ds 4 4 4 ,/ill1 answ]s are sometimes long delay$4 ,t aga9 may be ! high] hon\r put ^u u4 ,we te/ a rope m or less sev]ely1 accord+ to our belief 9 ! /r5g? ( ! rope4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,v ,,! ,,john/on ,,family ,,:]e is ,letitia8 ,i c't imag9e :at has become ( h]4 ,t girl w be "h directly1 & x w seem s rude1 if ,letitia is out4 ,somebody ought to h met h] 9 ,bri/ol1 b really ,i h n kn[n h[ to arrange x2 & ,letitia nev] ?9ks ( any?+4 ,except x be a ?+ t %e wants = h]self1 *im$ 9 ,h[>d ,john/on1 a r h&some & sev]e-look+ "y man1 busy at a side writ+-table 9 ! l>ge draw+-room4 ,x 0 an up/airs draw+-room1 aft] ! mann] ( ! big old-fa%ion$ ,royal ,york ,cresc5t h\ses 9 ,clifton2 & its front w9d[s ov]look$ ! l5g?y cresc5t-%ap$ /one t]race :i* p>tly hid f sight ! road bel[4 ,girls always ?9k ( !mselves fir/4 ,:at c y expect8 ,i'm sure %e is welcome to d :at %e likes1 g5]ally4 ',i' don't expect my *ildr5 to put !mselves out = me1 decl>$ ,mrs4 ,john/on complac5tly1 f ! dep?s ( a luxuri\s *air4 ,b ,i d ?9k %e ought to h manag$ to meet h] fri5d4 ,%e kn[s t ,i meant to s5d h] d[n 9 a cab ) ,j]rold--& ,i didn't see ! use ( ,j]rold go+ alone4 ,%e w\ld nev] h manag$ to /umble on ! "r p]son4 ,j]rold is all v well z a maid1 b %e is /upid ab\t t sort ( ?+4 ,x might h be5 m polite to make ! ef=t4 ,d y ?9k s8 ,b really ,i h be5 s busy1 ,i am afraid x slipp$ my memory4 ,letitia %\ld h se5 to ?+s4 ,at all ev5ts1 %e ought to h manag$ to come home 9 "t4 ,no d\bt ! "y lady kn[s ,letitia too well to be a/oni%$ at any?+4 ,b ,i h nev] se5 h]1 & %e kn[s none ( u except ,letitia4 ,x 0 s provok+ t %e %\ld accept ! invitation j n[4 ,almo/ any o!r "t w\ld h be5 bett]4 ,s mu* go+ on 9 ,clifton6 ,&1 ( c\rse1 we c't take ,miss ,mack5zie ev]y:]e4 ,p hav5't always sp>e space2 & ,i don't ev5 "k yet :e!r %e is pres5table2 & ,letitia c't be p]petually leav+ h]4 ,x is provok+4 ,letitia said we 7 b\nd to ask h] be=e w9t] because x has always be5 a promise4 ,i am sure ,i %\ldn't h rememb]$1 b ,i suppose ,i did say some?+ once1 & ,letitia seems to h made ! mo/ ( x4 ,s absurd ( h]4 ,& ,i suppose ! girl w /ay a mon? at lea/4 ,c\ntry p ( t sort h no notion ( pay+ a %ort visit4 ,make "s o!r arrangem5t1 & tell h] ! room won't be free aft] a c]ta9 date4 ,my de> boy1 h[ c ,i8 ,letitia has ask$ h] = a mon?4 ',x 0 always promis$1' %e says4 ,promis$6 ,= ^: sake8 ,i'm sure ,i don't "k4 ,letitia 'us$' to wi% x4 ,well--if ,letitia und]takes h]-- ,b t is ! v ?+6 ,i believe ,letitia w\ld be z glad to be (f x z ,i %\ld be4 ,( c\rse !y 7 v good fri5ds at s*ool1 b t is ano!r matt]4 ,x isn't really t ,letitia 'wants' h] n[1 only %e feels b\nd4 ,i don't suppose ,miss ,mack5zie is any?+ p>ticul>--n pretty1 or clev]1 & %e doesn't s+ or play1 & h] fa!r is only ! manag] ( a little c\ntry bran* bank4 ,= my "p1 ,i c't imag9e :at made ,letitia take to h]2 only girls d l to h a fuss made ab\t !mselves1 & x is pla9 t ,miss ,mack5zie has an imm5se admiration = ,letitia4 ,t's h[ x has be54 ,& at s*ool1 z ,i say1 x 0 all v well4 ,letitia 0 glad ( any?+ to pass ! "t4 ,b "h x is diff]5t4 ,%e has any am\nt ( fri5ds2 & really1 betwe5 ourselves1 ,i believe %e w\ld h be5 glad if ,miss ,mack5zie _h put (f com+4 ,only1 9 a sort ( way1 ,letitia is consci5ti\s1 y "k1 & %e decl>$ we _h to ask ! girl4 ,consci5ti\s '9 a sort ( way6' ,i %\ld ?9k h] s5se ( obligation might ext5d s f> z to include a k9d welcome4 ,oh1 ( c\rse6 ,letitia means to be z k9d z possible4 ,%e always does4 ,i don't say ! *ild isn't a little scrap spoilt1 b %e really has v nice mann]s--g5]ally4 ,( c\rse %e w take ,miss ,mack5zie ab\t1 & make x a pleasant visit4 ,only x really is 'r' a bore = poor de> ,letitia because ,i don't suppose ,euphrasia ,mack5zie w suit ,letitia's fri5ds 9 ! lea/4 ,& a mon? is a long "t4 ,if x 7 only a week or t5 days1 "o c\ld manage bett]4 ,b x c't be help$4 ,t sort ( ?+ has to be endur$4 ,letitia ought to h be5 m cauti\s ) h] promises4 ,i d wi% %e w\ld come 9 fir/ ( ! two4 ,letitia fail$ to d s4 ,at ?is v mom5t %e 0 seat$ 9 a fri5d's h\se1 deeply int]e/$ 9 a c]ta9 discussion ( plans1 & oblivi\s ( ! h\r4 ,at ?is v mom5t ,euphrasia 0 driv+ alone into ! road bel[ ! ,royal ,york ,cresc5t4 ,%e _h n expect$ to f9d nobody wait+ = h] at ! big noisy ,bri/ol /ation4 ,euphrasia 0 n yet mu* ( a travell]4 ,y w be met1 ( c\rse1 h] "m _h said1 on see+ h] (f4 ,& ?\gh capable ( manag+ = h]self1 %e did look out1 ) eag]ness am\nt+ to c]ta9ty1 = ,letitia's pretty face1 z ! tra9 drew up4 ,b no ,letitia 0 !re6 ,euphrasia wa/$ "s little "t gaz+ blankly ab\t1 be=e %e c\ld make up h] m9d to ! reality4 ,!n %e secur$ a port] & f\nd h] luggage1 n a little hurt at ! app>5t coldness4 ,some?+ might unexpect$ly h happ5$ to keep ,letitia away--/ill1 ,euphrasia felt t x mu/ h be5 a v s]i\s some?+ :i* %\ld h suffic$ to keep h] away1 if ,letitia _h be5 com+ to h] home4 ,& if %e c\ld n come h]self1 %e might h s5t somebody1 ?\ght ,euphrasia1 dur+ ! long drive ?r\gh ,bri/ol1 & up a ,bri/ol hill1 into ,clifton4 ,! cabman pres5tly pull$ up & leant ov] = a ^w4 ,w y get out at ! l[] door1 or at ! /eps8 ,l[] door6 ,royal ,york ,cresc5t is a t]race1 ,miss4 ,! luggage 'll h to g 9 at ! l[] door1 b !re's /eps up to ! t]race1 if y'd soon] g 9 at ! front door4 ,euphrasia =lornly decid$ to cl+ to h] luggage1 & ! cab drove on4 ,!n ! l[] door 0 rea*$4 ,& ,euphrasia f\nd h]self1 inw>dly quak+1 9 a long /one passage--kit*5 regions1 pla9ly4 ,! maid l$ to a flight ( /airs1 by means ( :i* !y ga9$ ! hall4 ,b ?is 0 only ! gr\nd-floor1 ord9>ily consid]$1 level ) ! t]race4 ,"h 7 d9+-room & libr>y1 :ile = ! draw+-room yet ano!r climb 0 ne$ful4 ,c\ntry-br$ ,euphrasia1 us$ to two little sitt+-rooms on a level ) e>?'s surface1 f\nd ?is a some:at brea?less exp]i5ce4 ,%e grew ea* in/ant m heat$1 bewild]$ & emb>rass$4 ,"o glimpse ( ,letitia w\ld h set all "r1 b no ,letitia appe>$4 ,_h h] com+ be5 =gott58 ,0 %e really n expect$8 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,euphrasia',s ,,fri5d ,,miss ,,mack5zie1 ann\nc$ ! man1 :o _h tak5 ! place ( ! maid on ! front door level4 ,euphrasia ca/ a hungry glance r\nd ! draw+-room z %e ent]$1 & %e f\nd !re no ,letitia4 ,n ev5 :51 advanc+ f>!r1 %e obta9$ a view ( ! small] back "p1 at fir/ hidd54 ,! disappo9tm5t 0 s ke5 z actually to br+ a ?reat5+ ( some?+ l te>s4 ,res]v$ ,euphrasia 0 by no means always s res]v$ z %e lik$ to c\nt h]self4 ,%e _h to cl5* h] glov$ h&s1 & to set h] tee?4 ,a "y man1 seat$ at a side writ+-table1 /ood up1 & ! lady beyond made a half motion1 z ( int5t to d ! same1 b did n actually raise h]self4 ,p]haps ! object seem$ h>dly wor? ! ex]tion4 ,%e held out a h& ( welcome1 h[ev]1 smil+ 9 a lavi% /yle4 ,h[ d y d1 ,miss ,mack5zie8 ,q well1 ,i hope8 ,& n v tir$ ) y\r long j\rney6 ,travell+ really is mo/ fatigu+1 is x n8 ,we are delight$ to h y at la/ 9 our mid/4 ,mrs4 ,john/on's eyes ran all ov] ,euphrasia1 tak+ c>eful /ock ( h] ext]ior1 & f>!r ?an ! ext]ior ^? eyes _h no p[] to p5etrate4 7,de> me6 ,:at a v ord9>y girl6 decid$ ! lady4 ,:at 'c\ld' h made ,letitia ev] take a fancy to h]8 ,su* a jacket6 ,& no mann] at all67 ,x's really mo/ un=tunate t ,letitia %\ld h be5 prev5t$ f meet+ y at ! /ation4 ,bri/ol is su* a bu/l+ place t %e fully meant to be !re1 b %e f\nd x impossible1 ,i suppose1 to get back 9 "t4 ,letitia has s _m engagem5ts1 & ,clifton is su* a busy place1 always some?+ go+ on4 ,i nev] c c\nt ^u h] n[ = any?+4 ,"o lives 9 a p]petual ru%4 7,has ! girl no?+ to say8 ,does %e mean to /& & />e = an h\r87 ,pray sit d[n1 ,miss ,mack5zie4 ,yes1 t *air please1 ,h[>d4 ,my son1--no d\bt ,letitia has m5tion$ h] bro!rs to y4 ,girls always talk ov] _! home-p toge!r1 don't !y8 ,& y & %e are great fri5ds1 ,i "k--'imm5se' fri5ds4 ,letitia has s (t5 spok5 ( ! pleasure ( hav+ y "h4 ,letitia is r m giv5 to spee* ?an action1 rem>k$ ,h[>d4 ,oh1 t is too bad--poor de> ,letitia6 ,:5 %e isn't pres5t to def5d h]self6 ,b ,miss ,mack5zie & ,i "k bett]4 ,( c\rse ,letitia has h] little faults--:at girl has n8--& sometimes %e may ev5 =get to look at h] wat* :5 %e has an important engagem5t on h&1 b %e w\ld nev] be will+ly neglectful ( anybody4 ,i'm really afraid %e mu/ h =gott5 ! h\r ?is aft]noon1 b %e w be back directly4 ,we %all see h] 9 a m9ute or two2 & ,i "k h[ di/ress$ %e w feel at h] own c>elessness4 7,i decl>e1 ! girl has n utt]$ "o s+le syllable1 good1 bad or indiff]5t6 ,is %e a dummy8 ,i'll try a direct "q67 ,h y _h a pleasant j\rney8 ,yes1 ?anks4 ,euphrasia gaz$ ) combative eyes at ! speak]2 eyes :i* _h to be combative1 if !y w\ld escape be+ te>ful4 ,*illy1 ,i %\ld imag9e4 ,i don't m9d cold4 ,euphrasia spoke curtly4 ,ah6 ,s diff]5t f me6 ,n[1 cold q %rivels me up1 positively kills me6 ,b y are "y & vigor\s4 ,h y ev] se5 ,clifton be=e8 ,no1 nev]4 7,& ,i %all n /ay long to see x n[1 ?\ght ,euphrasia4 ,if only ,i _h n come67 ,a v pretty place1 y "k4 ,delightful walks & drives4 ,letitia mu/ take y across ! d[ns1 & into ! ,leigh ,woods4 ,euphrasia 0 sil5t4 ,ah1 "h is ! *ild at la/6 ,mrs4 ,john/on spoke 9 a tone ( relief1 feel+ t h] %>e ( responsibility 0 end$4 ,my de>1 y h be5 mo/ ?\ghtless6 ,y\r fri5d has arriv$ 9 y\r abs5ce1 & y "k t y 7 to h gone d[n to ! /ation4 ,i _h look$ ^u t z a settl$ matt]4 ,miss ,mack5zie mu/ h ?\ght y q unk9d1 really 'mo/' unk9d1 lett+ h] come among u z a p]fect /rang]4 ,b ( c\rse y c\ld n help x6 ,letitia ent]$ sl[ly--a pretty girl1 prettily dress$--) a ?und]cl\d ( annoyance on h] br[4 ,no confirmation came f h] ( ! la/ ass]tion--no disclaim] f ,euphrasia ( ! prec$+4 ,a me*anical kiss 0 ex*ang$ betwe5 ! fri5ds1 & ,letitia /ood gaz+ into ! fireplace1 wrapp$ up 9 h] own ?\ghts4 ,mrs4 ,john/on glanc$ f ! "o d[nca/ face to ! o!r1 uncom=tably aw>e ( some?+ out ( jo9t4 ,:]e h y be51 my de>8 ,to ! ,fe>+s6--%ortly4 ,lady ,fe>+8 ,yes1 ( c\rse6 ,y knew6 ,i told y ,i 0 go+ !re6 ,! tone spoke ( ill-temp]1 & 01 to say ! lea/1 disrespectful4 ,t h] fri5d _h a temp]1 z ! say+ goes1 ,euphrasia 0 aw>e1 b %e _h n be=e se5 precisely ?is =m ( x4 ,at s*ool ,letitia _h be5 9 :olesome subjection1 & su* a tone to ! pr9cipal1 or to any ( ! tea*]s1 w\ld n h be5 tol]at$ = a mom5t4 ,at home ! spoilt mann] ( a spoilt *ild 0 at once reassum$1 b x came ^u ,euphrasia ) a %ock4 ,%e 0 n h]self peculi>ly sympa!tic 9 mann] to h] own "m1 b at lea/ %e nev] %[$ disrespect4 ,well1 y may h told me1 ,letitia1 b ,i am sure ,i don't rememb]4 ,s _m ?+s are always com+ up4 ,lady ,fe>+ ask$ me to call1 & ,i told y ,i _h to g & c\ldn't get back e>ly4 ,y 'might' h rememb]$1 ,letitia cont9u$ curtly4 ,& x's mo/ provok+4 ,lady ,fe>+ wants me to g to ,ba? ) h] & ,cecy next week = ?ree or f\r nights--to "o ( ! hotels4 ,we %\ld g ev]y:]e & see ev]y?+4 ,x w\ld be s delightful4 ,( c\rse1 ,i said ,i c\ld n1 b-- ,no1 ( c\rse n1 ass5t$ ,mrs4 ,john/on1 ) a w>n+ glance1 :i* _h m effect on ,euphrasia ?an on ,letitia4 ,letitia sigh$1 & dangl$ "o ( h] gloves to & fro ) a dismal air4 ,( all ?+s ,i %\ld h lov$ x1 %e murmur$4 ,:y %\ld y n g8 ask$ ,euphrasia4 ,oh1 :y--( c\rse-- utt]$ ,letitia1 half-a%am$4 ,x w\ld n be conv5i5t4 ,entirely out ( ! "q4 ,mrs4 ,john/on laun*$ ano!r reproa*ful glance4 ,%e might be z mu* disappo9t$ z ,letitia at ! impossibility1 & %e 0 n delight$ at fir/ sight ) h] daught]'s fri5d1 nev]!less1 %e knew :at polit5ess requir$ ( !m bo?4 ,!n x is n because ( my be+ "h = a few days8 ,t ne$ make no diff]5ce4 ,i %all be go+ home e>ly next week4 ,oh1 nons5se--:y1 y promis$ u a mon? at lea/4 ,letitia 0 beg9n+ to get a glimpse ( h]self f outside1 & to realise ! rud5ess into :i* temp] _h betray$ h]4 ,i don't ?9k ,i promis$ any?+4 ,i h only come = a 'v' few days4 ,my fa!r isn't well1 & ,i almo/ put (f com+ altoge!r4 ,oh1 well--( c\rse t makes a diff]5ce4 ,i mean1 ,i am v sorry he isn't well4 ,:at is ! matt] ) him8 ,b y w\ldn't l to be long away1 if he is poorly4 ,& !n1 ( c\rse-- ,my de>1 ,i ?9k y _h bett] %[ ,miss ,mack5zie to h] room4 ,tea w be up 9 a few m9utes1 & ,miss ,mack5zie may be glad to remove h] hat4 ,euphrasia made no objection4 ,%e 0 upheld by a consci\sness ( hav+ act$ h] "p well4 ,%e c]ta9ly 'w\ld' g home--if n be=e ,sunday1 !n imm$iately aft]4 ,at home %e 0 want$1 "h %e 0 n want$4 ,a gl[ ( affection = ! de> little home crept ov] h] z %e walk$ sil5tly 9 ,letitia's re>2 & %e wond]$ h[ %e c\ld ev] h be5 s eag] to leave x4 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,fri5ds ,,& ,,fri5ds ,a ,,pang came z ,euphrasia rememb]$ h] fa!r's =eca/ ( loss & *ange1 & %e wond]$ h[ long ! little home w\ld /ill be !irs4 ,h[ small o!r matt]s seem$ by comp>ison6 ,& yet ,i 'did' ?9k ,letitia really lov$ me6 ,i didn't ?9k %e c\ld be l ?is6 ! girl said voicelessly4 ,! cl\d _h cle>$ f ,letitia's br[ & %e tripp$ lightly up/airs %[+ ! way4 ,once %e paus$ to slip h] arm )9 ,euphrasia's 9 ! old affectionate /yle1 b !re 0 no response4 ,:y1 ,euphrasia6 ,y are n vex$ ) me1 are y8 ,euphrasia made no answ] till ! "q 0 repeat$4 ,i don't "k1 %e said !n1 sl[ly4 ,p]haps n--exactly--vex$6 ,only ,i ?\ght y really want$ to h me1 & n[ ,i see x 0 a mi/ake4 ,y de> old goosie6 ,nons5se1 ,euphrasia6 ,:at 'c' h put su* an absurd notion into y\r head8 ,n want y6 ,( c\rse ,i want y4 ,i want$ y to /ay a :ole mon?--y "k ,i did4 ,only y are v glad ,i _c4 ,really1 ,euphrasia1 y are too ridicul\s6 ,:at nons5se6 ,( c\rse if y\r fa!r isn't well1 y are "r to g home4 ,t is ano!r matt]4 ,i %\ldn't be "r to try & keep y4 ,& !n y w be free to g to ,ba?6 ,oh1 t--z to t1 ,i %all see6 ,o!r ?+s might prev5t4 ,i may n g1 anyh[4 ,x j dep5ds6 ,( c\rse1 ,i %\ld l x1 & ,i don't see :y y %\ld m9d6 ,anybody w\ld l su* a treat1 & anybody w\ld be provok$ :5 ?+s don't fit 9 prop]ly4 ,b my want+ to g !re doesn't mean t ,i don't want to h y "h too4 ,euphrasia %ook h] head1 almo/ imp]ceptibly4 ,:y1 !y c all tell y t ,i h talk$ = mon?s ( y\r visit4 ,b ( c\rse ,i h o!r fri5ds too4 ,& ,cecy ,fe>+ is ! v de>e/ girl6 ,if y knew h]1 y w\ldn't wond] at me4 ,i q und]/&1 ,euphrasia answ]$1 /&+ gravely ne> ! dress+-table4 ,by ?is "t !y 7 9 ! little b$room4 ,well1 ,i hope y are n go+ to h any m fancies4 ,y ought to "k me bett] by ?is "t4 ,d y ?9k y c f9d y\r way d[n/airs8 ,%all ,i s5d ! maid to help y unpack8 ,no8 ,y de> piece ( indep5d5ce6 ,tea w be up 9 a few m9utes1 & !re's some?+ ,i 'mu/' d fir/4 ,b don't be long com+ d[n4 ,letitia hurri$ (f1 pla9ly eag] to be free2 & ,euphrasia gaz$ solemnly out ( ! w9d[1 see+ no?+4 ,fa!r w\ld say t "o has to le>n :at ! _w is l4 ,& ,mrs4 ,l&or w\ld call ?is be+ dsillusionne4 ,i did ?9k ,i _h "o real fri5d 9 ,letitia1 & n[ ,i f9d ,i h n6 ,p]haps x is a good ?+ to f9d out e>ly1 n to be long deceiv$4 ,%e seem$ s diff]5t at s*ool4 ,b ev]y?+ 0 diff]5t !re4 ,^! ,fe>+s--:y1 !y are q new p4 ,letitia didn't "k !m ?ree mon?s ago4 ,& yet %e w\ld r be ) !m ?an ) me4 ,b !y are somebodies & ,i am a nobody4 ,euphrasia laugh$ fa9tly4 ,"o may be q z pr\d ( be+ a ,nobody z ( be+ a ,somebody1 b %e did n "k ?is4 ,anyh[1 ,i am n go+ to make a goose ( myself1 or to let !m see t ,i c>e4 ,my fa!r be+ poorly is excuse en\gh = me to hurry home4 ,i %all n write to-night1 because ,i might say too mu*4 ,b to-morr[ morn+ ,i'll tell him pla9ly t ,letitia is n ! fri5d ,i ?\ght h]1 & t ,i'm n really want$ "h1 & s ,i mean to g home on ,monday or ,tuesday4 ,only he mu/ n ?9k t ,i am lett+ out any?+ he said to me4 ,i %all h to be c>eful4 ,mean:ile ,letitia ran d[n/airs1 & 0 greet$ 9 ! draw+-room by a-- ,really1 ,letitia--6 ,x's all "r1 "m4 ,%e's oblig$ to g home 9 a hurry because ( h] fa!r6 ,s n[ ,i c g to ,ba?4 ,y w d no?+ ( ! k9d1 ,mrs4 ,john/on said1 = once s]i\sly displeas$4 ,i w\ld n on any acc\nt h ,miss ,mack5zie hurri$ away 9 su* a fa%ion1 j = y\r conv5i5ce4 ,( c\rse ,i %\ld l y to be 9 ,ba? ) ,lady ,fe>+1 b ,i w n h a gue/ treat$ ) rud5ess1 & t w\ld be positive rud5ess4 ,%e says %e has to g home4 ,nons5se1 my de>4 ,c\ld y n see = y\rself8 ,( c\rse %e felt b\nd to say s1 :5 y %[$ s pla9ly :at y want$4 ,b aft] ask+ h] "h = a mon?--really x 0 too bad1 & ,h[>d says ! same4 ,if y *oose to make fooli% promises to y\r fri5ds1 y mu/ take ! consequ5ces4 ,nobody else want$ h]1 b n[ %e is "h1 %e w /ay--at all ev5ts = t5 days or a =tnight4 ,i don't believe a ^w ab\t h] fa!r's heal?4 ,:y did %e n m5tion x 9 writ+8 ,i don't see :y %e %\ld4 ,letitia spoke sull5ly4 ,anybody else w\ld see4 ,:i* day d ! ,fe>+s g to ,ba?8 ,tuesday4 ,to /ay till ,friday or ,saturday4 ,!n x is out ( ! "q4 ,y mu/ give up all idea ( su* a ?+4 ,mrs4 ,john/on spoke ) unwont$ decision4 ,x c't be1 & t is ! long & %ort ( ! matt]4 ,a few m9utes lat] ,euphrasia made h] appe>ance4 ,%e w\ld n rema9 long up/airs4 ,%e did n wi% = solitude or "t to ?9k1 & %e 0 especially desir\s n to %[ signs ( affront4 ,su* signs w\ld be tantam\nt to an av[al t h] fa!r's indisposition 0 n ! real1 or at all ev5ts n ! sole cause ( h] %ort5$ visit4 ,& x '%all' be %ort1 %e told h]self resolutely4 ,letitia's face %[$ a fre% phase ( affairs1 :i* at fir/ p]plex$ ,euphrasia4 ,tea 0 come1 & ,mrs4 ,john/on :ile disp5s+ x talk$ cont9u\sly1 to cov] h] daught]'s sil5ce4 ,euphrasia made necess>y answ]s1 n he>+ half t 0 said1 till ! words caught h] att5tion3 ,next ,w$nesday ,letitia %all take y4 ,! :]e _h d\btless be5 expla9$ be=e4 ,?ank y1 %e said at once1 b ,i %all n be "h on ,w$nesday4 ,mrs4 ,john/on laugh$4 ,inde$1 ,miss ,mack5zie1 we %all n let y (f s e>ly4 ,if a :ole mon? is impossible1 a =tnight is ! lea/ we c be cont5t )4 ,?ank y4 ,x is v k9d4 ,euphrasia's eyes w5t /raight to ,letitia's face1 & l+]$ !re = two seconds4 ,b ,i mu/ g home on ,monday or ,tuesday4 ,n lat] ?an ,tuesday4 ,no1 inde$6 ,i really c\ld n cons5t4 ,i %all write to y\r fa!r myself1 & ask him if x is necess>y4 ,mrs4 ,john/on spoke ) an air ( pleasant det]m9ation4 ,i d n ?9k he c be s ill z n to sp>e y = a %ort "t4 ,z = ,letitia's absurd notion ab\t ,ba?1 pray d n let t tr\ble y4 ,! plan is absolutely out ( ! "q4 ,x makes no diff]5ce4 ,i mu/ g on ,monday or ,tuesday4 ,a smile ( diss5t answ]$1 & ,mrs4 ,john/on put ! matt] aside1 z if fur!r discussion 7 sup]flu\s4 ,s9ce ,letitia w\ld n ex]t h]self1 ,mrs4 ,john/on did1 & ! next h\r 0 made z pleasant to ,euphrasia z c\ld be possible "u ! circum/ances4 ,mo/ fatigu+ = myself1 = ! girl has no conv]sation1 ,mrs4 ,john/on /at$ inw>dly1 ) compassion = h] own ardu\s task4 ,b %e succe$$ 9 w9n+ ,euphrasia's gratitude1 & ev5 to "s ext5t ,euphrasia's lik+4 ,letitia1 my de>1 ,i wi% y w\ld run up/airs & get me t little "w-basket out ( my b$room1 %e said1 aft] a :ile4 ,lights _h be5 br\ght 91 = x 0 gett+ d>k4 ,oh1 bo!r1--:y don't y r+ = ! maid8 ,i'm tir$4 ,z ) mo/ spoilt *ildr51 tir$ ) h] meant out ( temp]4 ,really1 my de>1 y might speak m civilly4 ,& ,euphrasia />t$ up1 actually blu%+ = ,letitia4 ,please let me6 ,i %\ld l s mu* to g4 ,yes1 ,i "k y\r b$room--! front room ov] ?is4 ,& ! "w-basket-- ,well1 really1 y are v k9d6 ,i'm mo/ oblig$--b aft] all--yes1 j a little "w-basket1 on ! small table )9 ! door4 ,b ,i don't l-- ,euphrasia 0 gone4 ,i call 't' oblig+1 said ,mrs4 ,john/on4 ,euphrasia _h no difficulty 9 f9d+ h] way1 ?\gh ! l&+ above 0 d>k4 ,x seem$ t ! s]vants _h delay$ lat] ?an usual light+ ! gas4 ,%e ga9$ ! room1 f\nd ! "w-basket1 & set (f swiftly to return4 ,too swiftly = "o n famili> ) ! geography ( ! h\se4 ,be=e %e knew x1 ! fir/ %ort flight 0 rea*$4 ,:5 j ab\t to move cauti\sly1 9 se>* ( ! /airs1 h] foot 0 already ov] ! topmo/ /ep4 ,beyond t--a dead blank6 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,viii ,a ,,/ep ,,9 ,,! ,,d>k ,,letitia1 :at is t noise8 ,somebody has let some?+ fall1 ,i suppose4 ,! s]vants are always dropp+ trays ab\t4 ,somebody has fall5 d[n1 ,i am sure4 ,n ,miss ,mack5zie1 ,i hope6 ,d pray see4 ,mrs4 ,john/on did n wait = ,letitia's reluctant motion4 ,al?\gh usually f> f rapid h]self1 be+ ( lymphatic temp]am5t1 %e />t$ out ( h] *air1 & hurri$ into ! hall4 ,no?+ "h1 b ! s\nd seem$ to come f above4 ,d f9d out4 ,h[ y dawdle1 *ild6 ,i decl>e1 ! fright has turn$ me positively ill4 ,if ,miss ,mack5zie-- ,letitia1 m\nt+ unwill+ly to ! half-way l&+1 broke into a scream3 ,"m1 x is ,euphrasia6 ,d[n a :ole flight6 ,& ,mrs4 ,john/on ha/5$ ?i!r4 ,euphrasia 0 com+ to h]self4 ,! fir/ %ock _h driv5 away all consci\s s5sation4 ,= ?\gh ! flight 0 n a long "o1 %e _h fall5 ) consid]able =ce4 ,b %e woke up to h] position z ,mrs4 ,john/on arriv$ on ! sc5e4 ,letitia /ood look+ 9 blank dismay1 n (f]+ to help4 ,i'm sorry--s /upid ( me-- 7 ,euphrasia's fir/ words1 utt]$ vaguely4 ,%e 0 h>dly yet awake to actual pa91 b an odd dread ( ! lea/ movem5t held h] 9 a cramp$ heap4 ,x isn't--x won't be mu*4 ,c ,i help y up1 my de>8 ask$ ,mrs4 ,john/on1 ) ext5d$ h&4 ,euphrasia c\ld h cri$ out1 ,oh1 don't6 m]ely f t in/9ct t %e might n move4 ,%e resi/$ ! impulse & made an ef=t to raise h]self1 only to s9k back1 voicelessly clut*+ ! ne>e/ balu/]4 ,:at is x8 ,:]e are y hurt8 ask$ ,mrs4 ,john/on1 mu* conc]n$4 ,some:]e1 surely4 ,%e does look :ite6 ,letitia1 pray call somebody4 ,call ,horris4 ,oh no1 he is out4 ,call anybody4 ,d make ha/e4 ,oh1 "h is ,h[>d4 ,some?+ wrong8 enquir$ ,h[>d's voice4 ,miss ,mack5zie miss$ ! top /ep someh[1 & has fall5 d[n4 ,%e has hurt h]self1 ,i am afraid4 ,if ,i may j wait a m9ute6 ,x isn't s v bad--if only ,i ne$n't move6 ,if ,i may j wait--please-- ,t t]rible ?rill ( pa9 _h turn$ h] sick1 & %e did n "k h[ to endure ano!r4 ,y w h to let me c>ry y up/airs4 ,h[>d spoke z if x 7 ! mo/ ev]yday ?+ 9 ! _w4 ,oh no1 ?ank y1 inde$1 ,i'll walk 9 a few m9utes4 ,if ,i may j wait6 plead$ ,euphrasia1 dread+ ! mo/ k9dly t\*1 & only crav+ to be left alone4 ,! s]vants by ?is "t 7 ga!r+ r\nd4 ,de> me1 ma'am1 ?is is bad6 ,j]rold 0 say+4 ,hadn't we be/ s5d = ! doctor1 ma'am8 ,rob]t %\ld c]ta9ly come1 ,h[>d said 9 a decisive "u-tone1 z ,mrs4 ,john/on hesitat$4 ,doctor6 ,i don't want a doctor1 exclaim$ ,euphrasia1 a vivid recollection spr++ up ( ! /ate ( ! home f9ances4 ,i %all be all "r aft] a night's re/4 ,y ?9k s really8 ,oh yes1 ( c\rse4 ,x's only a little--a little twi/1 ,i ?9k4 ,:]e8 ,no answ] came4 ,%e made ano!r resolute ef=t to rise1 endeav\r+ to pull h]self up by means ( ! balu/]1 b aga9 ! result 0 failure4 ,my--knee1 ,i ?9k-- %e said fa9tly1--&--&-- ,my de> ,h[>d1 %e is too heavy = y6 ,don't1 pray1 urg$ ,mrs4 ,john/on4 ,d wait = ,horris4 ,he w be 9 directly4 ,please don't6 e*o$ ,euphrasia1 z he prep>$ to lift h]4 ,bo? appeals 7 disreg>d$4 ,!n don't take h] all ! way4 ,br+ h] to my room1 at all ev5ts1 j = ! mom5t1--only "o little flight1 ,h[>d6 ,two moves are bett] avoid$4 ,euphrasia prote/$ no fur!r4 ,all h] /r5g? ( w 0 requir$ to suppress outw>d signs ( suff]+4 ,! j> ( ea* /ep 0 z mu* z %e c\ld possibly endure4 ,& by ! "t ,h[>d laid h] on ! b$ 9 h] little front b$room1 %e 0 on ! v]ge ( unconsci\sness4 ,poor girl6 ,fa9t$ away4 ,really1 %e has borne x v pluckily4 ,bett] s5d at once = ,bob1 & ! less movem5t ! bett]1 meantime1 till we "k :at is wrong4 ,i am afraid %e is a good deal hurt4 ,& aga9 he said1--,poor girl6 ,euphrasia1 ?\gh too f> gone to speak or to op5 h] eyes1 he>d di/9ctly1 z f a di/ance-- ,yes1 inde$1 ,i am v sorry = h]1--?\gh really ,i d ?9k1 ,h[>d1 t 'we' are to be piti$ too6 ,i suppose x w mean no end ( tr\ble & bo!r to ev]ybody4 ,"o w\ldn't say x to h]1 ( c\rse1 b x is true4 ,i %all g = ,bob myself1 ,h[>d respond$ %ortly4 ,! doctor1 ,rob]t ,wells by "n1 nephew to ,mrs4 ,john/on1 paid 8 visit & dep>t$1 leav+ dismay beh9d him4 ,?\gh "y 9 appe>ance1 he 0 sev]al ye>s old] ?an 8 c\s9 ,h[>d1 a man ( skilful f+]s & ( few words1 n 9 ! lea/ good-look+1 b pleasant-mann]$4 ,he sp5t "s "t ) ,euphrasia1 putt+ h] to z little pa9 z c\ld consi/ ) ne$ful exam9ation ( h] injuries4 ,euphrasia endur$ bravely1 & wait$ = ! opportunity ( a brief tte--tte ) him to ask 9 e>ne/ tones1 ,w x be mu*8 ,h[ soon may ,i g home8 ,x is an awkw>d twi/1 ,mr4 ,wells said 9 answ]4 ,ev]y?+ dep5ds on p]fect re/ f ! fir/4 ,b ,i may get up to-morr[ morn+8 ,c]ta9ly n4 ,?is knee has to be kept entirely /ill4 ,i don't ?9k y w\ld advance f> 9 y\r dress+1 if y made ! attempt2 & y mu/ n make ! attempt4 ,y w feel v /iff all ov] to-morr[1 ap>t f ! knee4 ,b /ay+ 9 b$ means giv+ tr\ble1 & ,i c't be> to d t4 ,i w\ld r g home to be nurs$1 please4 ,! doctor look$ h] ov] gravely1 ask$1 ,:]e is y\r home8--,!n said1 ,h'm6 ,i c't /ay "h to be a bo!r4 ,i don't "k ,mrs4 ,john/on well en\gh4 ,i c\ldn't be> to give su* tr\ble to /rang]s4 ,may ,i g home to-morr[8 ,he %ook 8 head4 ,!n on ,monday--,i may g on ,monday6 ,ano!r %ake4 ,x isn't su* a v long j\rney2 & only "o *ange4 ,somebody c\ld meet me !re1 & ,i might be help$ 9 & out ( ! tra94 ,i w\ld n make any fuss1 really4 ,i am sure y w\ld n4 ,b ?is knee mu/ h a few days ( absolute re/4 ,y don't want to be tr\bl$ ) x = mon?s to come4 ,!re is no?+ l tak+ a ?+ 9 "t4 ,only a few days6 ,n m1 y are sure8 ,i'll tell y t :5 ,i see ! effect ( ! few days4 ,fur!r que/ion+ fail$ to br+ a m def9ite answ]4 ,euphrasia lay aft] 8 dep>ture1 conn+ ov] 8 words1 try+ to extract "s com=t f !m4 ,if n ,monday1 !n ,tuesday1 or ,w$nesday at ! late/6 ,to lie "h1 giv+ no end ( tr\ble & bo!r to p :o did n c>e 9 ! slighte/ = h] p]sonally--no1 n ev5 ,letitia6--seem$ un5durable6 ,i c't d x2 oh1 ,i c't1 %e said al\d4 ,x is too dreadful4 ,if only ,i 7 at home4 ,if only ,i _h nev] come4 ,oh1 ,i c't /ay "h6 ,& ,i don't see ! ne$4 ,! pa9 isn't s v bad1 except :5 ,i move4 ,i c\ldn't /ay "h to be nurs$6 ,b "o (t5 has to d 9 life j t ?+ :i* "o mo/ %r9ks f4 ,! doctor's retic5ce 0 ( small avail4 ,letitia pres5tly came 91 by h] "m's desire1 n z x appe>$ too will+ly4 ,%e /ood at ! foot ( ! b$1 & 9 moody tones said-- ,well1 y've done = y\rself n[1 at any rate6 ,i c\ldn't help fall+1 ,letitia4 ,y c\ld h help$ x ) common c>e4 ,s absurd1 to g ru%+ ab\t 9 a /range h\se1 :]e y didn't "k y\r way4 ,x 0 n y\r bus9ess to (f] to get ! basket at all4 ,if y hadn't m$dl$1 ?is w\ldn't h happ5$4 ,! impli$ rebuke ( ,euphrasia's action to h] own lazy inaction rankl$ /ill4 ,i ?\ght ,i ought1 9 a con/ra9$ tone4 ,well1 ,i hope y are satisfi$6 ,letitia's unk9dness cut deeply4 ,euphrasia c\ld h>dly h believ$ 9 su* a display ( temp] to "o 9 h] !n position4 ,%e _h to wr+ h] h&s "u ! b$ clo!s1 = self-control be=e speak+ aga94 ,i want to say "o ?+4 ,please don't let ?is make any diff]5ce ab\t y\r go+ to ,ba?4 ,if ,i %\ld n get away q s soon z ,i _h meant to d1 ,i %\ld l y to g j ! same4 ,!re's no ne$ = y to be "h4 ,x w\ld only make me mis]able to ?9k t y /ay$ at home on my acc\nt4 ,"m won't he> ( x4 ,!n ! "q _h be5 already moot$6 ,i w\ld s mu* r--,i w\ld1 inde$4 ,i don't want anybody4 ,i %all j lie quiet1 & nobody ne$ take any tr\ble1 till ! doctor says ,i may travel4 ,i want to g on ,monday or ,tuesday1 b x might p]haps h to be ,w$nesday4 ,tuesday6 ,w$nesday6 ,:y1 ,rob]t says y won't be able to travel = a mon? at lea/--six weeks v likely4 ,he says x's out ( ! "q4 ,& he won't ev5 he> ( y\r gett+ up = "s days4 ,i am sure ,i don't "k h[ we %all manage4 ,! s]vants are always grumbl+ z x is ab\t _! "w4 ,a mon? or six weeks4 ,euphrasia's he>t di$ )9 h]4 ,he c't mean t6 ,he didn't tell me4 ,he only talk$ ( a few days4 ,oh1 t 0 to pacify y1 ( c\rse4 ,i suppose ,i ought n to h told y1 b ,i =got4 ,don't g & repeat x1 or y'll get me into a scrape4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,ix ,a ,,prison] ,,be=e morn+1 ,euphrasia knew well t gett+ up 0 at pres5t a matt]1 n ( c\rse1 b ( absolute incapacity4 ,bruis$ back & /ra9$ side _h ass]t$ !mselves1 & might alone h be5 en\gh to en=ce a %ort imprisonm5t1 b ! knee 0 f> worse4 ,! slighte/ movem5t meant an unbe>able ?rill ( agony1 & all ?r\gh ! long night %e _h h>dly d>$ to let h]self drop asleep1 because ( ! inevitable awak5+4 ,won't q d = a j\rney yet1 w x8 ! doctor said k9dly4 ,b w ?is g on long8 ,i hope n4 ,y h giv5 ! knee a mo/ awkw>d twi/1 & ! lea/ additional /ra9 n[ might make x v s]i\s4 ,no?+ = su* a case b absolute re/4 ,i don't want to keep y 9 b$ long] ?an ne$ be1 b ,i am afraid a few days are necess>y4 ,!n we mu/ try to get y on a s(a4 ,b all t means s mu* tr\ble4 ,oh1 ,i c\ld n1 ,euphrasia 0 dismay$ almo/ to ! po9t ( te>s4 ,h[ c ,i8 ,among /rang]s6 ,i'd r j lie quiet "h1 & give no tr\ble4 ,mu* r6 ,y are ( an indep5d5t _s4 ,i %\ldn't m9d s mu* at home4 ,b 9 somebody else's h\se-- ,well1 yes1 t does make matt]s m try+1 ,i grant4 ,x c't be help$4 ,! m quiet y c keep y\r knee1 ! soon] x is likely to improve4 ,a great deal dep5ds on y\rself4 ,n mu* sleep la/ night1 ,i'm afraid4 ,i c\ldn't4 ,i kept wak+ ) a />t e "t ,i dropp$ (f4 ,if ,i mov$ ev] s little1 ! pa9 woke me4 ,mr4 ,wells took 8 leave1 & ,euphrasia 0 left to h] own cogitations4 ,%e _h "t en\gh = !m t day & 9 days foll[+4 ,f> m solitude 0 h]s ?an _h ev] be=e fall5 to h] lot2 yet ev5 solitude is bett] ?an a grudg$ companion%ip4 ,mrs4 ,john/on1 :ile express+ all polite conc]n = h] gue/'s condition1 nev] visit$ ! room )\t lett+ x appe> h[ great an ex]tion %e c\nt$ ! ef=t4 ,letitia nev] sp5t half-an-h\r !re )\t %[+ a desire to be else:]e4 ,worse ?an ! wor/ bodily suff]+ 0 ,euphrasia's consci\sness ( be+ look$ ^u z a m]e burd54 ,no d\bt ! ,john/ons1 "m & daught]1 7 9 a g5]al s5se sorry = h]1 b !y 7 a great deal m sorry = !mselves4 ,to h a gue/ 9 ! h\se requir+ c>e & nurs+ 0 simply a bo!r 9 _! eyes4 ,& if !y c\ld politely h got rid ( _! unwi%$-= invalid1 !y w\ld gladly h done s4 ,euphrasia realis$ ?is to ! core ( h] be+4 ,! v s]vants1 pamp]$ & tra9$ 9 self-indulg5ce1 object$ to ! extra "w1 & see+ ?is feel+ pla9ly 9 _! mi/ress1 !y did n hesitate to speak x out pla9ly among !mselves4 ,a lazy "y h\semaid _h be5 told (f to wait ^u ,euphrasia2 & due ord]s 7 giv5 to h]1 b nobody saw :e!r ^! ord]s 7 c>ri$ out4 ,9 po9t ( fact1 !y (t5 7 n4 ,& ,euphrasia 0 all[$ to wait long = _m ?+s t %e ne$$4 ,pr\dly1 %e w\ld n ask or rem9d ! girl4 ,at lea/ x %\ld n be said ( h] t %e gave unnecess>y tr\ble4 ,& ,i ne$ n h come6 ,i might h escap$ all ?is6 ,if ,i _h j giv5 x up :5 ,i really felt z if ,i ought1 ,i might be at home n[1 & q well--n box$ up "h :]e nobody wants me6 ,su* regrets haunt$ ,euphrasia unceas+ly4 ,%e w\ld n let h] p>5ts "k :at _h happ5$4 ,:y %\ld %e8 ,x w\ld only make !m anxi\s1 & c\ld d no good4 ,nay1 9 h] fa!r's condition1 ! additional worry might ev5 break him d[n altoge!r4 ,s reason$ ,euphrasia1 putt+ bravely aside h] own long+s = home sympa?y4 ,"o %ort note %e s5t1 to notify ! fact ( h] arrival1 c>efully word$1 & deal+ only ) g5]alities4 ,no m5tion 0 9 x ( h] accid5t2 & a reque/ = sil5ce /opp$ any communication f ,mrs4 ,john/on4 ,two or ?ree days lat] came a ha/y scrawl f ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 tell+ little or no news1 & m]ely hop+ t ,euphrasia w\ld enjoy h] visit4 ,aft] :i* foll[$ sil5ce4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie did n write aga94 ,mr4 ,mack5zie did n write at all2 & ,mrs4 ,l&or s5t only a l9e on ,p>i% matt]s4 ,k5 & ,flo 7 equally remiss4 ,abs5ce ( home lett]s made easi] ! keep+ ( h] secret1 s9ce %e too c\ld ?us be sil5t1 )\t caus+ p>ticul> rem>k4 ,b ! /ate ( ?+s 0 unusual1 & %e frett$ ov] x a good deal4 ,dur+ h] long abs5ces at s*ool1 lett]s _h be5 frequ5t & regul>4 ,%e c\ld only conjecture n[ t h] fa!r 0 n well1 & t !y w\ld n write = fe> ( hav+ to say :at might %ad[ h] pleasure4 ,z = h] own sil5ce--d\btless !y w\ld ?9k t %e 0 selfi%ly s enjoy+ h]self z to =get to write4 ,b ,i mu/ be> t = a little :ile4 ,!y w soon "k1 %e said4 ,days crept by ) su* desp]ate sl[ness t a week seem$ l a mon?4 ,& ! sil5ce !re=e appe>$ a great deal long] ?an x really 04 ,euphrasia did n all[ = ?is fact4 ,improvem5t 9 ! injur$ knee 0 sl[1 s sl[ t %e sometimes wond]$ if x improv$ at all4 ,at ! end ( a week1 %e 0 all[$ to be mov$ to a small s(a1 :i* ! doctor ord]$ to be br\ght to h] room1 & f ?is s(a %e c\ld ga9 glimpses ( ! outside _w ?r\gh ! w9d[4 ,b ! unwelcome tr\ble to o!rs involv$ by ev5 s slight a *ange press$ ^u ,euphrasia's m9d1 & de/roy$ h] pleasure 9 x4 ,to h to be su* a bo!r6 %e said4 ,yet %e c\ld n d )\t ! help4 ,h] re/less "y _s *af$ "u h] own incapacity to /& or move ab\t alone4 ,"o day1 ne>ly a =tnight aft] ! accid5t1 %e lay alone on ! s(a1 look+ out we>ily into a blaze ( sun%9e4 ,%e c\ld j see ! squ>e t[] ( ! old ,p>i% ,*ur* beyond & away f ! fur!r end ( ! ,cresc5t2 & a s\nd ( bells came !nce1 r++ m]rily4 ,x 0 almo/ half-pa/ two4 ,& ,mrs4 ,john/on & ,letitia 7 gone to a w$d+ :i* w\ld be imm$iately tak+ place4 ,euphrasia did n expect _! return till late 9 ! aft]noon1 s9ce a reception 0 to foll[ ! w$d+4 ,s mu* ! bett]6 %e said4 ,if !y come up "h to see me1 x is only because !y ?9k !y mu/4 ,& ,i hate to be a disagreeable duty to anybody6 ,nev]!less1 %e felt some:at =lorn 9 h] dull little room1 ) ! bright sun%9e & gay bell-r++ outside4 ,& ! aft]noon seem$ long to get ?r\gh4 ,nobody _h ?\ght ( br++ h] a book to :ile away ! t$i\s h\rs4 ,& true /ill to h] resolution ( mak+ no ne$less reque/s1 %e w\ld n ask = "o4 ,a copy ( ,hymns ,anci5t & ,mod]n 0 ! sole volume )9 rea*1 almo/ ! sole volume 9 h] room4 ,no bookcase 0 "h1 & ,euphrasia _h br\ght no books ) h]4 ,!re 0 no?+ to draw h] m9d away f ! subject ( home4 ,an absolute de>? ( lett]s cont9u$4 ,euphrasia _h writt5 once aga91 ?is "t to ,k51 say+ little ( h]self & no?+ ( h] condition1 only begg+ to "k h[ !y all 71 especially ,mr4 ,mack5zie4 ,b to h] note1 po/$ only ! day be=e1 no answ] c\ld yet arrive4 ,z %e pond]$1 a fav\rite motto ( h] fa!r's wove its measure into ! peal ( bells1 mak+ itself he>d ) tir+ p]si/5cy4 ,a pund o' c>e w9na pay an ounce o' debt--an ounce o' debt--an ounce o' debt--an ounce--an ounce--an ounce o' debt--,a pund o' c>e--a pund o' c>e w9na pay--w9na pay--w9na pay an ounce--an ounce o' debt4 ,o de>1 ,i wi% ,i c\ld =get t wret*$ prov]b6 ,& ,i don't see ! s5se ( x ei!r4 ,"o doesn't worry because worry+ does any good1 b only because "o c't help x 4 4 4 ,ought "o to help x8 ,mrs4 ,l&or w\ld say s4 ,b !n %e has no c>es--at lea/1 none wor? speak+ ab\t4 ,x is s easy n to be bo!r$ :5 !re is no?+ to bo!r "o4 ,w9na pay--w9na pay--w9na pay an ounce--an ounce--w9na pay an ounce o' debt1 p]si/$ ! bells4 ,euphrasia took up ! small hymnbook & turn$ ov] its leaves ) f+]s ?9n] ?an _! wont4 ,any?+ to break ! l9e ( ?\ght6 ,if our love 7 b m simple1 ,we %\ld take ,him at ,8 ^w-- ,i've se5 or he>d t be=e4 ,a pund o' c>e--a pund o' c>e w9na pay--w9na pay--an ounce--an ounce--an ounce o' debt--w9na pay an ounce o' debt6 ,o d /op6 ,:]e did ,i he> ^? l9es be=e8 ,some:]e1 ,i "k4 ,& /raightway %e read ! hymn3-- ,s\ls ( m56 :y w ye scatt] ,l a cr[d ( fright5$ %eep8 ,fooli% he>ts6 :y w ye w&] ,f a love s true & deep8 ,0 !re ev] k9de/ %eph]d ,half s g5tle1 half s sweet1 ,z ! ,savi\r :o w\ld h u ,come & ga!r r\nd ,8 feet8 ,!re's a wid5ess 9 ,god's m]cy1 ,l ! wid5ess ( ! sea2 ,!re's a k9dness 9 ,8 ju/ice1 ,:i* is m ?an lib]ty4 ,!re is no place :]e e>?'s sorr[s ,are m felt ?an up 9 heav53 ,!re is no place :]e e>?'s fail+s ,h su* k9dly judgm5t giv54 ,!re is pl5tiful r$emption ,9 ! blood t has be5 %$2 ,!re is joy = all ! memb]s ,9 ! sorr[s ( ! ,head4 ,= ! love ( ,god is broad] ,?an ! measures ( man's m9d2 ,& ! he>t ( ! ,et]nal ,is mo/ wond]fully k9d4 ,p9+ s\ls6 come ne>] ,jesus1 ,&1 oh1 come n d\bt+ ?us1 ,b ) fai? t tru/s m bravely ,8 huge t5d]ness = u4 ,if our love 7 b m simple1 ,we %\ld take ,him at ,8 ^w2 ,& our lives w\ld be all sun%9e ,9 ! sweetness ( our ,"l4 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,x ,,h[ ,,mu* ,,long]8 ,,euphrasia read sl[ly1 = !re 0 no ne$ to hurry4 ,%e _h no?+ else to occupy h] "t4 ,:5 %e _h rea*$ ! la/ v]se1 x took %ape 9 ! tones ( ,mrs4 ,l&or1 & %e knew !n :]e %e _h he>d ! words4 ,%e saw h]self 9 ,mrs4 ,l&or's room1 ) ,mrs4 ,l&or by h] side4 ,my de>1 try = y\rself6 ,only try1 & prove = y\rself h[ k9d & true a ,ma/] ,he is6 ,?is also came back 9 ,mrs4 ,l&or's quiet voice4 ,is ,he s k9d8 ! girl ask$ dreamily4 ,s v v k9d6 ,i h always ?\ght ( ,him z good & j & true--all t1 ( c\rse4 ,& angry1 if "o did wrong--only 'angry' nev] seems q ! "r ^w4 ,b ,,k9d--'mo/ wond]fully k9d'--is t :at ,god is really & truly l8 ,ano!r utt]ance sprang f h] v he>t1--,if ,he is1 h[ ,i c\ld love ,him6 ,:y don't ,i8 came next4 ,i suppose ,i hav5't kn[n be=e :at ,he is really l--t ,he is s truly k9d4 ,recollections arose1 unbidd51 ( ! old old /ory ( h[ ! ,son ( ,god w5t to & fro on e>?1 ev] ) inf9ite k9dness li/5+ to all :o spoke1 answ]+ all :o petition$1 accompany+ all :o ask$ ,him to g4 ,he 0 k9d--,he is k9d--& ,he 0--is--,god6 ,he is j ! same n[ z !n4 ,no diff]5ce at all4 ',! he>t ( ! ,et]nal is mo/ wond]fully k9d6' ,doesn't t mean t ,he is k9d /ill1 ev5 :5 ,he s5ds tr\ble1 because ,he only s5ds x = our good8 4 4 4 ,i wond] h[ ?is c be = my good1 except to make me d next "t exactly :at ,i ?9k ,i ought4 ,yes1 x may be t4 ,b w\ldn't my visit alone h be5 disappo9t+ en\gh )\t ! accid5t8 ,i did expect s mu* f x2 & x has all turn$ out to be wor? no?+1--,letitia to be no real fri5d at all4 ,w\ldn't t h be5 puni%m5t en\gh1 ,i wond]1 )\t my hav+ to be %ut up "h = a :ole mon? or m1 :]e nobody wants me8 ,& ,i c d no good to anybody1 & ,i am want$ at home6 ,is x j a puni%m5t = be+ wilful8 ,well1 ,i %an't soon =get x all6 ',!re is no place :]e e>?'s sorr[s ,are m felt ?an up 9 heav5--' ,is t true too8 ,i nev] ev5 ?\ght ( su* a ?+ be=e4 ,are ! angels sorry up ,!re :5 any ( u are 9 tr\ble8--sorry n[ because ,i am dull & alone6 ,& mo/ ( all1 is ,god ,himself sorry1 ev5 ?\gh ,he has s5t ! tr\ble8 ,( c\rse1 ,i br\ght x on myself by be+ c>eless & 9 a hurry1 & by com+ "h at all4 ,b /ill ,i suppose ,god all[$ x4 ,& n[1 p]haps1 all ! :ile ,he really is sorry = me1 because ,he is s wond]fully k9d6 ,euphrasia 0 />tl$ to f9d "s quick drops fall+4 ,h[ d y d8 a voice said by h] side1 n an e*o ?is "t ( pa/ utt]ances4 ,mr4 ,wells took h] h& z he spoke4 ,did y n he> me ask leave to come 98 ,! door 0 op51 & ,i saw y ly+ "h 9 full view4 ,oh1 0 ! door op58 ,i didn't "k4 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 alone4 ,euphrasia spoke %amefac$ly1 consci\s ( husk9ess & wet eyes4 ,no bad news f home8 ,no lett]s at all--,i hope my fa!r is n ill4 ,!y don't g5]ally leave me s long4 ,b !n ,i h n writt5 ei!r1 till ye/]day4 ,i w\ld n lie & conjure up imag9>y ills4 ,x is a wa/e ( p[]4 ,:atev] may or may n be ! cause1 y are pretty c]ta9 to picture to y\rself worse ?an ! reality4 ,"s mo/ commonplace reason may h prev5t$ !m f writ+4 ,if x 7 any?+ v bad1 ,i %\ld he>1 ( c\rse2 only my fa!r 0 n well :5 ,i came away4 ,& y h too mu* "t = ?9k+4 ,r solit>y "w1 is x n8 ,?ree or f\r days w\ld be all v well1 or ev5 a week1 b y h "s "r to get tir$ ( x n[4 ,x won't be mu* long]4 ,i hope n4 ,s y h be5 read+4 ,mr4 ,wells took up ! hymnbook1 glanc$ at its op5 page1 & look$ ov] ! edge at ,euphrasia4 ,no?+ else to read except ?is6 ,t is nice en\gh4 ,:y %\ld ,i h any?+ else8 ,v>iety is sometimes good = p1 ! m s if !y are 9 a mood to take melan*oly views ( ?+s4 ,& y ?9k ,i am 9 a mood to d t8 ,possibly1 j 9 ! la/ half-h\r4 ,euphrasia's look 0 "o ( prote/4 ,%e c\ld n expla94 ,%e c\ld only feel t if ! ?\ghts :i* _h br\ght te>s into h] eyes 7 melan*oly1 x 0 a melan*oly :i* %e w\ld fa9 keep = life4 ,mr4 ,wells read some?+ unexpect$ 9 h] face4 ,i see ,i us$ ! wrong ^w4 ,n melan*oly1 only p]haps a little sob]--a little s]i\s4 ,& :5 "o is laid by1 & a good deal alone1 x is j possible to dwell too long at a "t ^u ! v s]i\s side ( ?+s4 ,i don't say t x has be5 s ) y at ?is mom5t1 b a *ange ( ideas might be advantage\s4 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly l y to h "s v>iety 9 y\r read+2 & ,i d n see mu* v>iety )9 rea*4 ,he glanc$ r\nd critically4 ,i c\ld h ask$ = a book1 ( c\rse4 ,letitia ought n to h wait$ to be ask$4 ,oh1 %e 0 busy4 ,!re 0 ! w$d+4 ,please don't say any?+ to h]4 ,mr4 ,wells gave 8 att5tion to ! lame knee1 & pres5tly rem>k$1 ,yes1 x is gett+ on fairly well1 p]haps z fa/ z we ought to expect4 ,b y are too mu* run d[n y\rself4 ,i %all be all "r z soon z ,i get home4 ,:5 may ,i g8 ,by-&-by4 ,y mu/ get into ano!r room fir/4 ,i %all l t4 ,i mean1 if ,i may walk4 ,i w\ld r n d x at all1 if x means giv+ extra tr\ble4 ,is t ! *ief bugbe> ( y\r exi/5ce8 ask$ ,mr4 ,wells smil+4 ,i wond] h[ mu* long] ?is is to g on8 sigh$ ,mrs4 ,john/on1 next morn+4 ,?is6 e*o$ h] elde/ son4 ,! y\ng] bro!r 0 a m]e boy1 away at s*ool4 ,nons5se1 ,h[>d4 ,z if y didn't und]/&6 ,euphrasia ,mack5zie1 ( c\rse4 ,"h has %e be5 ne>ly a =tnight 9 ! h\se1 & ! s]vants are run (f _! legs--or1 at all ev5ts1 !y ?9k s1 :i* comes to ! same ?+4 ,i am sure1 ,i did feel t we _h done z mu* z c\ld be expect$ ( u4 ,& n[ ,rob]t mu/ ne$s make all ?is /ir ab\t no?+4 ,:at /ir8 ,oh1 he decl>es we leave h] a great deal too mu* alone1 & let h] feel dull1 & don't att5d to h] z we ought4 ,he fairly scold$ ,letitia4 ,poor de>1 ,i d pity h]1 hav+ to g & sit 9 t /uffy little room = an h\r at a "t6 ,some?+ mu/ be wrong ) our h\sehold arrangem5ts if we put our gue/s into /uffy little rooms4 ,y "k :at ,i mean4 ,n exactly /uffy1 b "o doesn't want to sit !re half ! day4 ,& poor ,letitia 0 s b5t on go+ to ,ba? ) ! ,fe>+s4 ,( c\rse ,i made h] give t up1 b x 0 r h>d on ! *ild4 ,& %e says ,euphrasia is q *ang$ f :at %e us$ to be1 s /iff & cold4 ,i wond] :e!r ,letitia ev] does sit ) ,miss ,mack5zie = any?+ l half-a-day--or ev5 = an h\r at a "t8 ,i'm sure ,i c't tell4 ,i only "k ,i am p]petually at h] ab\t x4 ,& ,i %all be ?ankful :5 x is all ov]4 ,euphrasia is n an int]e/+ invalid4 ,& %e h>dly ev] says a ^w ( apology = ! tr\ble %e gives4 ,does %e n8 ,rob]t speaks ( h] z excruciat+ly anxi\s n to be a bo!r4 ,oh1 z to t--,i suppose %e doesn't make m "w ?an %e c help4 ,i don't compla9 ( ! girl4 ,"s p 9 h] position w\ld be mu* m ?\ghtless4 ,b1 ( c\rse1 !re are no end ( ?+s to be done4 ,& n[ ,rob]t wants u to h h] :eel$ e day into ,letitia's b\doir-- ,:]e is t8 ,! little room t us$ to be h] nurs]y4 ,letitia turn$ x into a sitt+-room :5 %e came home f s*ool1 b %e nev] sits !re n[ by any *ance4 ,& ,rob]t wants u to contrive n to leave ,euphrasia s mu* alone4 ,t is ! wor/ ( hav+ a ne> relative = "o's doctor4 ,he feels free to say :atev] he happ5s to ?9k4 ,x seems he f\nd h] cry+ ) no?+ to read4 ,s absurd n to ask = :at %e want$1 if %e _h n a book6 ,rob]t does n commonly make su* a fuss ab\t 8 pati5ts1 & :y he %\ld ) ,euphrasia ,mack5zie1 ,i c't imag9e4 ,i nev] 9 my life saw a m unattractive girl2 did y8 ,t wasn't precisely my impression1 ,i confess4 ,i ?\ght %e look$ s5sible4 ,oh1 s5sible--if y ?9k s mu* ( be+ j s5sible6 ,yes1 ,i d>e say %e is s5sible--any am\nt6 ,b n attractive--n pretty1 or clev]1 or any?+4 ,!n1 rev]t+ to h] =m] subject1 ,z likely z n1 if ,i tell ,horris t he is to :eel ! s(a 9 & out ( t room e day1 he w say he hasn't "t1 & c't d x4 ,t man gives himself su* airs6 ,i believe he w want to g ! next ?+4 ,let him g1 by all means4 ,if he does n want x1 ,i %all1 s soon z ,i f9d him indulg+ 9 airs4 ,pl5ty m m5 9 ! k+dom4 ,y always talk l t4 ,i c't be> ! worry ( *ange4 ,a man :o w n d 8 duty is a mu* worse worry1 to my m9d4 ,nev] m9d2 ,i'll see to replac+ ,horris if he goes4 ,meantime1 if he is too gr& or too lazy to :eel ,miss ,mack5zie's *air--no1 s(a--a few paces1 ,i am nei!r4 ,let me "k :5 x wants do+4 ,oh1 ,horris mu/ d x1 ( c\rse1 if he is told4 ,b z = somebody to sit 9 ! room--,letitia nev] does a s+le ?+ %e doesn't wi%4 ,& z = dragg+ myself up ^? /airs m ?an once 9 tw5ty-f\r h\rs1 ,i really c\ld n und]take ! ex]tion6 ,pray don't ?9k ( x1 h] son answ]$ politely4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xi ,,nev] ,,s5t6 ,,"m1 ,i've got a lett] f ,euphrasia6 ,k5r$ bur/ into ! h\se z he spoke1 s5d+ ! words 9 advance ( himself4 ,a lett] f ,euphrasia6 repeat$ ,flo 9 8 re>1 & h] pretty little face 0 flu%$ ) delight4 ,at la/6 ,a fa9t suspicion ( hurt feel+ might be detect$ 9 ! tone4 ,nobody _h expect$ t ! abs5t memb] ( ! h\sehold w\ld all[ almo/ a :ole =tnight to elapse ) no fur!r communication ?an a scribbl$ /atem5t ( h] safe arrival4 ,& ! que] "p ( x is1 "m1 t %e doesn't say "o ^w ab\t :y %e hasn't writt51 or :at %e has be5 do+4 ,n "o ^w6 ,%e only wants to "k :y 'we' hav5't writt51 & says %e is afraid somebody c't be well4 ,y\r fa!r is n well ( c\rse4 ,he hasn't be5 = weeks & mon?s pa/1 & %e kn[s x4 ,besides1 ,i told h] 9 my la/ lett] t he did n seem p>ticul>ly bett]4 ,b %e says %e has n he>d at all4 ,! boy flung himself d[n on ! s(a1 beside ,mrs4 ,mack5zie & h] m5d+-basket4 ,y'll see4 ,!re is ! lett]4 ,c\ldn't be mu* %ort]4 ,eyebright is a funny girl1 isn't %e8 ,"o might ?9k '%e' _h be5 s5d+ heaps ( lett]s all ! "t4 ,b ,i wrote la/4 ,i h writt5 twice1 & %e has nev] answ]$ ei!r ( my lett]s4 ,i don't believe ,euphrasia is enjoy+ h]self "o bit1 murmur$ ,flo1 :5 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie _h p]us$ ! %ort note1 & _h pron\nc$ x unsatisfactory4 ,%e writes 9 su* a dull sort ( way1 & %e doesn't say a ^w ab\t any?+ or anybody !re4 ,z likely z n1 %e is disappo9t$ ) h] fri5d4 ,euphrasia w\ld nev] confess t %e _h be5 tak5 94 ,girls nev] d6 ,i don't ?9k ! note does s\nd v happy3 b %e w manage to get "s enjoym5t out ( h] visit4 ,if n1 :y %\ld %e /ay on1 & n come home soon]8 ,i _c und]/& ab\t ! lett]s4 ,n _h a s+le "o f anybody1 s9ce ?ree days aft] %e left6 ,well1 if %e _h n1 %e hasn't writt5 ei!r6 ,b %e =gets4 ,flo & ,i made up a long lett] to g ) y\rs la/ week1 "m--a jo9t conc]n4 ,%e c\ldn't h =gott5 t4 ,x 0 ! day y _h su* a long call f old ,mr4 ,br[n4 ,a recollection came to ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 summon$ up z su* recollections (t5 are1 by a pass+ ^w4 ,%e />t$ up1 op5$ a draw]1 & aft] "s rummag+ drew !nce a /amp$ & address$ envelope4 ,h[ /upid ( me6 ,i rememb] n[4 ,y\r speak+ ( ,mr4 ,br[n br\ght x back4 ,:5 he came1 ,i popp$ ! lett] 9 "h to be safe1 mean+ to po/ x directly he 0 gone4 ,somebody mu/ h pu%$ x out ( sight aft]w>ds1 & ,i decl>e ,i nev] ?\ght ab\t x aga9 until ?is mom5t4 ,poor ,euphrasia6 exclaim$ ,flo4 ,my de>1 if %e _h tak5 ! tr\ble to write home j a little (t5]1 we %\ld soon h f\nd out ab\t x4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie really _h be5 pa9$ by h] elde/'s prolong$ sil5ce4 ,%all ,i po/ x n[8 ask$ ,k54 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie debat$1 !n wrote outside--,j f\nd ?is2 ought to h gone (f days ago4 ,yes1 d1 ,k52 & "s ( u w write 9 a day or two4 ,i really c't to-day2 ,i h s mu* to d4 ,& !re is ,mrs4 ,l&or com+ 92 s run away1 ,flo de>1 because ,i want to speak to h] p>ticul>ly4 ,flo obey$4 ,& ,mrs4 ,mack5zie receiv$ h] visitor ) a c>eworn expression1 q unconsci\sly & involunt>ily assum$4 ,mrs4 ,l&or 0 at all times s absolutely at leisure1 s free to he> h] fri5ds' worries1 & to be/[ sympa?y = ! same--albeit ) ! sympa?y w5t sometimes a less welcome ^w ( w>n+1 or ev5 ( repro(--t a temptation exi/$ to make claims ^u h] sympa?y1 ev5 )\t especial cause2 & ,mrs4 ,mack5zie occasionally yield$ to ?is temptation4 ,%e did n s mu* z notice1 be+ wrapp$ up 9 h] own ?\ghts1 t ,mrs4 ,l&or look$ pal] ?an usual1 & t h] air ( k9d att5tion 01 to a slight degree1 =c$--z if ! m9d 7 try+ to w&]1 & requir$ re9+ 94 ,! note f ,euphrasia _h to be %[n fir/1 ) sundry comm5ts on its t>dy arrival1 on its limit$ cont5ts1 & on h] wi% t ,euphrasia c>$ m = home int]e/s1 less = m]e pleasure4 ,mrs4 ,l&or read ! note1 & said--,x does n give "o ! idea t %e is hav+ too mu* pleasure4 ,well1 no4 ,i always ?\ght %e w\ld be disappo9t$ ) ^? p4 ,b ( c\rse a good _m ?+s are go+ on--sure to be1 9 a place l ,clifton--& %e does n someh[ f9d "t to write to u z %e might4 ,%e says no?+ ab\t ! _m ?+s go+ on4 ,h[ is ,mr4 ,mack5zie to-day8 ,?is l$ to a fre% assortm5t ( c>es4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie 0 n at all ! ?+1 n by any means well4 ,he c\ld n be describ$ z positively ill1 b ,mrs4 ,mack5zie 0 v anxi\s1 v worri$ ab\t him4 ,he _h se5 ,dr4 ,nor? aga92 & ,dr4 ,nor?1 z usual1 laid x *iefly to ! /ate ( 8 n]ves--:]e9 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie 0 n at all sure t ! doctor might n be mi/ak51 z ,mrs4 ,l&or knew doctors s (t5 74 ,b anyh[1 ,dr4 ,nor? recomm5d$ a ?or\gh *ange = h] husb&1 "s day soon1 if x c\ld be manag$4 ,& h[ we are to af=d x1 ,i am sure ,i don't "k1 & ,i c't imag9e4 ,col9's income is n mu*1 z1 ( c\rse1 ev]ybody kn[s4 ,& exp5ses are s heavy4 ,& !re's always some?+ or o!r t mu/ be got1 :e!r "o c af=d x or no4 ,x always seems to me e ye> t we %all nev] manage to fight our way ?r\gh1 or keep our heads above wat]4 ,& yet1 someh[1 y always d4 ,well--someh[--at lea/1 we always h1 s f>4 ,b nobody c be sure ab\t ! future4 ,except t we h ! absolute c]ta9ty t ',he' ,:o has c>$ = u 9 pa/ ye>s w nev] gr[ =getful or indiff]5t4 ,oh1 ( c\rse--,i d try to tru/4 ,"o kn[s "o mu/1 ( c\rse4 ,b x is dreadfully h>d to make bo? ends meet4 ,& z = ?is idea ( a *ange = my husb&--,i really don't see h[ x is to be manag$4 ,if x mu/ be1 x mu/1 b ,i c't see h[4 ,f> back 9 h] m9d ,mrs4 ,mack5zie 0 say+--,s easy = ,mrs4 ,l&or6 ,:y1 %e only has to sit d[n & write a *eque1 & !re w\ld be en\gh 9 a mom5t to take away all "o's bo!r4 ,%e w\ldn't ev5 miss x4 ,b p don't d t sort ( ?+1 un=tunately4 ,i wi% !y did4 ,!re c h>dly be a 'mu/' = any?+ t is cle>ly impossible4 ,/ill1 x w\ld d y\r husb& good4 ,i d n d\bt t 8 n]ves are out ( ord]1 b x is p>tly ! result ( long ye>s ( "w1 & he has fairly e>n$ a holiday4 ,s ,dr4 ,nor? says4 ,x is n a necessity1 ,i suppose1 exactly2 only he w\ld be ev] s mu* ! bett] = a ?or\gh *ange4 ,he is always s d[n-he>t$ n[2 n l himself4 ,x may be p>tly ,euphrasia be+ away & n writ+4 ,b he isn't z he ought to be2 & ,dr4 ,nor? says a *ange w\ld be ! be/ rem$y4 ,if x is ! "r ?+ = him1 y w see y\r way to x4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie c\nt$ ?is r h>d4 ,%e _h be5 build+ a little /ructure ( hopes1 f\nd$ on ,mrs4 ,l&or's weal? & lib]ality1 & ! app>5t collapse ( t /ructure made h] feel irritable4 ,( c\rse x is ! "r ?+ = ,col9 to get away4 ,x is n a "q ( :at is ! "r ?+1 b ( :e!r we c d x4 ,x seems to me t mo/ ( ! "r ?+s = u 9 life are j kept away f u = no reason at all4 ,y d n really ?9k s1 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie4 ,i don't "k :y n-- r fa9tly4 ,t is :at ,i (t5 notice4 ,x is n my exp]i5ce4 ,b if a ?+ is kept f me1 ,i am s sure t x is 'n' ! "r ?+ = me to h4 ,we look at ! "q f diff]5t /&po9ts4 ,y don't und]/&2 y don't "k :at x really is1 prote/$ ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 pla9tive1 because %e felt h]self 9 ! wrong4 ,to h "o's deposit gett+ l[] & l[] 9 ! bank1 & to "k t no?+ m is com+ 9 = ev] s long1 & to see all ! family ne$s1 :5 !re is no money to get :at is want$1 & to h "o's husb& fall+ ill = want ( a little holiday1 & no holiday possible--at lea/1 to "k "o c't rightly af=d x2--oh1 ,i d>e say ,i ought to be sure t ev]y?+ is always "r1 & x is v easy = p to prea*1 b-- ,x seems to me a simple opportunity = ex]cis+ a little tru/--j to %[ t "o kn[s ',him6' ,mrs4 ,l&or spoke 9 a curi\s dreamy tone1 almo/ z if address+ ! words to h]self4 ,p always talk su* a lot ab\t tru/+4 ,& x is g5]ally ^? :o don't ne$ to tru/1 because !y h got ev]y?+ !y want4 ,is t ! case1 ,i wond]1 ) any human be+8 ,money anxieties are n by any means ! only ones 9 ! _w4 ,& few ( u escape ev5 !m soon] or lat]1 9 "o =m or ano!r4 ,mrs4 ,l&or /ood up1 z if wi%+ to end ! discussion4 ,w\ld y ask y\r husb& to come r\nd to ! ,rectory by-&-by if he is able4 ,i %\ld be glad ( a few words ) him4 ,&1 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 if ,i may make ! sugge/ion1 don't y ?9k a m c\rage\s _s w\ld be a happi] "o8 ,x is su* a help to feel absolute c]ta9ty 9 ! ,div9e love :i* wat*es ov] u 4 4 4 ,i am n speak+ out ( ignorance ( :at anxiety means 4 4 4 ,b ano!r day y %all he> m4 ,we h us$ all ! "t t ,i c sp>e j n[4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie _h a dismay$ s5se ( hav+ /opp$ "s int]e/+ communication1 & curiosity vi$ ) some?+ l fe>4 ,oh1 d wait6 %e begg$1 ) ab\t z mu* result z if %e _h endeav\r$ to *eck ! infl[ ( ! tide4 ,mrs4 ,l&or smil$1 bade a k9d f>ewell1 & 0 gone4 ,:at does %e mean8 inquir$ ,mrs4 ,mack5zie ( h]self1 no "o else be+ pres5t4 ,is ,mr4 ,l&or ill8 ,he didn't look s on ,sunday4 ,:y on e>? c\ldn't %e expla98 ,i wi% p w\ld n be s puzzl+4 ,!re comes ,col9--:at a pace4 ,i h n se5 him walk s fa/ = ev] s long4 ,he w meet ,mrs4 ,l&or2 oh no1 %e has turn$ ! o!r way1 & doesn't see him4 ,i d dete/ my/]ies2 & ( c\rse ,col9 w "k no?+4 ,b ,col9 came 9 ) an absorb$ face4 ,i see ,mrs4 ,l&or has be5 "h4 ,has %e told y8 ,no6 ,told me :at8 ,%e said %e _h n "t to wait any long]4 ,& %e wants to see y pres5tly4 ,:at is x all ab\t8 ,i'll g1 ( c\rse4 ,did %e say :58 ,i don't ?9k s4 ,i don't "k4 ,col91 :at is wrong8 ,has any?+ happ5$8 ,yes-- ,illu/ration3 ,is ,mr4 ,l&or n well8 ,!re c't be mu* ! matt] ) him1 or %e w\ld n be out4 ,besides1 %e seem$ j l h] usual self4 ,col91 d speak out4 ,make ha/e4 ,:at8 ,d tell me6 ,! ,l&ors-- ,is ,mr4 ,l&or n well8 ,!re c't be mu* ! matt] ) him1 or %e w\ld n be out4 ,besides1 %e seem$ j l h] usual self4 ,col91 d speak out4 ,make ha/e4 ,my de>1 y all[ me no opportunity4 ,mrs4 ,l&or-- ,yes4 ,g on6 ,make ha/e6 ,o de>1 y m5 are s sl[6 ,mrs4 ,l&or-- ,yes1 ,i he>6 ,oh1 make ha/e6 --,has lo/ pretty ne>ly ev]y?+ %e has4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xii ,,g5u9e6 ,,mrs4 ,,mack5zie _h to sit d[n1 absolutely pant+ "u ! bl[1 & = once )\t words1 z h] husb& gave a few p>ticul>s4 ,x appe>$ t ! ,l&ors' affairs _h be5 = "s ye>s 9 an involv$ condition1 unkn[n to _m ( _! mo/ intimate fri5ds4 ,losses "h & emb>rassm5ts !re dat$ ne>ly1 ?\gh n q1 s f> back z _! m>riage4 ,! prosp]\s wid[ *os5 by ,mr4 ,l&or = 8 wife _h be5 s9ce by no means s prosp]\s z 0 commonly suppos$4 ,b inasmu* z he _h *os5 h] = h]self1 & n = h] money1 ?is fact _h _h no p[] to t\* _! happ9ess4 ,!y _h hop$ to em]ge 9 ! end f _! difficulties4 ,& 9 ! ord9>y c\rse ( ev5ts1 ! hope might h be5 fulfill$4 ,n[ h[ev]1 at "o bl[1 ! ma9 bulk ( ,mrs4 ,l&or's possessions 0 swept away by ! collapse ( ! great ,company 9 :i* mo/ ( h] money 0 emb>k$4 ,an imm$iate sale ( ! e/ate 0 inevitable1 & ! utmo/ t x c\ld be expect$ to br+ 9 w\ld be swall[$ up by previ\sly-exi/+ liabilities4 ,! extraord9>y ?+ is t nobody %\ld h expect$ any?+ ( ! sort6 ,no "o seems to h s mu* z guess$ :at 0 com+4 ,if y _h ask$ me ab\t t ,company1 ,i c\ld h decl>$ t x 0 almo/ z /aun* z ! ,bank ( ,engl&4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie look$ back to 8 own haunt+ fe>s1 z p>tly express$ to ,euphrasia1 ab\t ! bank ) :i* he 0 himself closely connect$1 9 a k9d ( wond]4 ,cle> vision _h come sudd5ly1 & he realis$ n[ ! futility1 ! ne$lessness1 ( 8 fe>s4 ,at ?is in/ant1 ! imag9ations :i* _h made him wret*$ = mon?s pa/ look$ absolutely absurd1 ! m]e fruit ( a disorganis$ n]v\s sy/em1 ) no positive f\ndation 9 fact4 ,t :i* he _h s fe>$ = himself1 & = ^? dep5d5t on him1 _h n come1 might nev] come4 ,b ! bl[ :i* none _h =etold = ! ,l&ors _h fall5 ) />tl+ abruptness4 ,he woke out ( a dream to ! s\nd ( 8 wife's voice3-- ,d tell me6 ,:at are y ?9k+ ab\t8 ,d pray tell me4 ,:at w !y h to live on8 ,my de>1 ,i fe> almo/ no?+--beyond ,mr4 ,l&or's /ip5d4 ,a /ip5d ( eighty-five p\nds a ye>6 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie bur/ into te>s4 ,%e might be habitually a good deal self-occupi$1 & n a little addict$ to nurs+ h] own tr\bles1 b %e _h a w>m he>t1 & a v real affection = 8 long-tri$ fri5d4 ,%e c't d x1 ,col94 ,at h] age1 & all h] life accu/om$ to h ev]y?+ %e c\ld want4 ,& he is gett+ eld]ly1 & n /rong4 ,x is p]fectly dreadful6 ,( c\rse1 !y h _h "s worries n[ & !n1 ev]ybody has1 b no?+ ( ?is sort4 ,:y1 %e has always be5 able to get e s+le ?+ %e want$4 ,& j ?9k ( eighty-five p\nds a ye>6 ,yes1 x's ! sudd5ness ( x--& ! *ange f :at %e is us$ to4 ,t makes x s mu* worse4 ,worse6 ,x makes x awful = !m4 ,h[ y c talk ( x s quietly6 ,& :at 9 ! _w are !y to d n[8 ,?is is :at ,i _c imag9e4 ,br\ght up z %e has be54 ,eighty-five p\nds a ye>4 ,%e mu/ be half daz$ ) x4 ,( c\rse %e does n see yet :at x all really means--%e c't4 ,&1 oh de>1 to ?9k ( :at ,i h be5 say+ to h]4 ,h[ ,i c\ld6 ,col9 made a s\nd ( enquiry4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k--,i mean--,oh1 ( c\rse ,i didn't "k any?+ ab\t ?is2 & %e nev] told me4 ,b x mu/ h s\nd$ s horribly unfeel+4 ,i told h] ab\t ! doctor want+ y to get away1 & %e said ,i ought to tru/ m4 ,& ,i ?\ght x 0 s easy = h] to talk :5 %e _h got ev]y?+ %e want$1 & ,i said some?+ ( ! sort4 ,%e won't be vex$1 ,i "k1 because x is n h] way1 b ,i am vex$ ) myself4 ,p]haps x is a little lesson j to be m c>eful next "t1 my de>4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie r res5t$ hav+ little lessons po9t$ out to h]1 h[ev] cle>ly %e might p]ceive !m = h]self4 ,& %e ha/5$ to expla9 t ano!r "t 0 v unlikely to recur4 ,9 fact1 "o might ?9k t ?is 0 ! only "t 9 h] life t %e _h ev] be5 betray$ into ha/y spee*4 ,b 9 ! mid/ ( h] def5ce1 %e relaps$ into te>s4 ,mrs4 ,l&or want$ y to g & see h]1 ,col94 ,don't y ?9k ,i might g too1 & tell h] h[ sorry ,i am8 ,no1 my de>4 ,if ,mrs4 ,l&or ask$ = me only1 %e did n mean y too4 ,x is always be/1 :5 p are 9 tr\ble1 to d exactly :at !y ask1 & n m4 ,x may be t %e wi%es to put "s bus9ess que/ions1 obs]v$ ,col91 9 8 mo/ oracul> tone4 ,he _h 8 way1 & />t$ alone1 be>+ a long message ( unlimit$ apology & sympa?y1 :i* w5t utt]ly out ( 8 head by ! "t he quitt$ ! g>d5 gate4 ,x 0 a try+ visit to pay4 ,he 0 a t5d]he>t$ man1 & c\ld n endure to look ^u di/ress4 ,&1 judg+ f p g5]ally1 he expect$ to f9d ! ,l&ors ov]:elm$ by ! bl[ :i* _h fall5 ^u !m1 ,mr4 ,l&or 9 dep?s ( despair1 ,mrs4 ,l&or 9 floods ( te>s4 ,%e _h kept up1 x 0 true1 :ile call+ on 8 wife1 d\btless = h] sake1 b t %e %\ld cont9ue to keep up 0 beyond ! b\nds ( reasonable expectation4 ,col9 wond]$ sorr[fully :at he %\ld say to com=t !m4 ,( c\rse ,mrs4 ,l&or w\ld tru/4 ,bo? ( !m w\ld ( c\rse tru/4 ,he felt no d\bt on t head4 ,he always ass]t$ ! fact ( 8 own tru/1 no matt] h[ dismally c]ta9 he might feel t ev]y?+ 0 go+ wrong1 no matt] h[ dolefully hopeless he might be ( any help arriv+ 9 "t to tide him ov] rocks ahead4 ,8 idea ( tru/ 0 vague1 & !re=e 0 q compatible ) a g5]al hopelessness4 ,by ! "t he rea*$ ! ,rectory1 8 face _h gr[n port5t\sly long ov] ! ?\ght ( 8 fri5ds' grief4 ,r oddly1 ?is bl[ to !m _h act$ ) a r\s+ =ce ^u himself4 ,he _h n = mon?s felt s hopeful1 s light-he>t$ ab\t 8 own affairs4 ,x 0 almo/ z if he _h =ese5 t some?+ w\ld happ51 & _h only be5 mi/ak5 9 suppos+ x to be a some?+ conc]n+ himself4 ,probably a tru] explanation w\ld be t ,col9 ,mack5zie1 aft] repeat$ attacks ( sev]e influ5za1 com+ ^u long ye>s ( h>d "w1 _h fall5 into a dyspeptic & n]v\s condition ( body1 :i* condition _h react$ on ! m9d1 r5d]+ him unable to take a fair & reasonable view ( ?+s 9 g5]al1 m especially ( bus9ess que/ions4 ,z ,mrs4 ,l&or _h once said1 molehills grew to m\nta9s 9 8 eyes1 & a usually unselfi% nature _h become = ! "t morbidly self-c5tr$--a /ate ( ?+s l>gely physical1 b n on t acc\nt altoge!r free f blame4 ,wak5$ n[ by ! %ock ( 8 fri5ds' tr\ble1 he look$ back ^u 8 own pa/ m5tal condition ) a curi\s s5se ( surprise1 almo/ ( disgu/4 ,:at c\ld h made him talk z he _h done to ,euphrasia1 ! day be=e %e left home8 ,absurd1--:5 really !re _h be5 no suffici5t cause1 b only "s ne$ful bus9ess unc]ta9ties1 & a desp]ate fit ( ! blues1 incl9+ him to see ev]y?+ on its d>ke/ side4 ,dyspepsia1 ( c\rse1 z ,dr4 ,nor? _h at ! "t assur$ him4 ,:ile ,col91 because ( t same dyspepsia1 _h c\nt$ himself wis] ?an any numb] ( doctors1 & _h refus$ to believe ! explanation4 ,n[ he knew bett]6 ,poor little ,eyebright6 ,h[ %e might h worri$ h]self6 ,only ( c\rse %e _h n1 or %e w\ld h writt5 (t5]4 ,no d\bt %e _h n grasp$ 8 full mean+4 ,/ill1 he might h spoilt h] visit ) 8 ill-consid]$ rem>ks4 ,he w\ld write at once1 ?is v ev5+--*e]ily1 & 9 a diff]5t /ra94 ,b !n he w\ld h to tell h] ab\t ! ,l&ors4 ,%e w\ld feel t d[n 9 ! dep? ( h] lov+ little he>t1 :i* ,col9 knew to be really lov+1 ?\gh "s might c\nt h] to be ( a cold disposition4 ,no1 he w\ld n write yet4 ,bett] to wait1 s9ce evid5tly %e 0 n griev+4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie1 l 8 wife1 _h be5 some:at hurt by ,euphrasia's long sil5ce1 ev5 :ile tell+ himself t x meant no?+4 ,!n he rea*$ ! ,rectory1 & 8 c\rage 0 at a l[ ebb1 ?\gh n n[ = himself4 ,floods ( te>s6 ,/ates ( despair6 ,n a :it6 ,z he /ood 9 ! hall1 lugubri\s ) ! weight ( 8 pity1 he he>d ! m]rie/ laugh1 com+ ?r\gh ! clos$ /udy door4 ,t ,mrs4 ,l&or6 ,& a deep]-ton$ mascul9e laugh1 no less *e]ful4 ,t ! pov]ty-/rick5 & despair+ ,rector6 ,col9 c\ld h>dly believe 8 own e>s4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xiii ,,n ,,ca/ ,,d[n ,,"h1 sir1 please4 ,into ! /udy ,col9 0 welcom$--by ! ,rector ) a smil+ face1 by ,mrs4 ,l&or ) out/ret*$ h& & look ( welcome4 ,9 all ! ye>s he _h kn[n t sweet s]5e woman1 he _h nev] se5 h] s bright4 ,calm %e _h usually be51 b seldom bright4 ,0 ?is =c$1 unnatural1 ! result ( ov]-/ra98 ,come 91 pray come 91 ,mr4 ,mack5zie4 ,come 9 & sit d[n4 ,if y don't m9d an economical cup ( tea4 ,my husb& & ,i are practis+ at once = ! future4 ,no use to put (f1 is x8 ,y see1 we _c possibly af=d any long] ! mo/ exp5sive ,s\*ong1 s ,i pick$ up a p\nd ( "o-&-sixp5ny tea z ,i came along2 & we h made x ) half ! usual quantity4 ,x 'really' isn't bad4 ,l ,dick5s' ,m>*ioness1 "o only has to ex]cise "o's imag9ation a little4 ,&1 aft] all1 ! mo/ important +r$i5t is real boil+ wat]4 ,col9 receiv$ 8 cup f ^? sl5d] h&s1 & _h "s difficulty 9 swall[+ ! fir/ m\?ful4 ,"s cake1 or bread & butt]8 ,i did n tell y\r wife ab\t our affairs because ,i ?\ght x w\ld take too long1 z %e _h a good deal to say fir/4 ,s y mu/ expla9 x all to h]1 & say t x is no?+ = h] to fret ab\t4 ,is x1 de>8 lov+ly to h] husb&4 ,! less "o has to c>ry 9 life1 ! m lightly "o ought to be able to g6 ,col9 might appropriately h deliv]$ 8 message "h1 b he 0 9 no /ate ( m9d to rememb] x4 ,mo/ p ?9k ! burd5 ( anxiety a great deal heavi] ?an ! burd5 ( weal?1 he c\ld n help say+4 ,if "o mu/ be anxi\s1 %e said1 smil+ a little4 ,= my "p1 ,i am sure ( "o ?+1 obs]v$ ,mr4 ,l&or placidly1 & t is t x is wor? a great deal to "k :at sort ( a wife "o has4 ,i ?\ght ,i did "k be=e--pretty well--b x seems ,i didn't6 ,:y1 ! :ole matt] is s simple4 ,mrs4 ,l&or 0 too mu* int]e/$ 9 h] view ( ! "q to notice at ! mom5t :at he said4 ,s v simple & pla94 ,all ^! ye>s ,god has *os5 to give u money 9 pl5ty1 to use = ,him2 & ,i d ?9k we h tri$ to use x rightly4 ,& n[ ,he has *os5 to take x away4 ,hasn't ,he a p]fect "r to d z ,he w8 ,x is ,81 n ours4 ,i d ?9k x w\ld be s utt]ly ungrateful ( u to grumble4 ,i am afraid if ,i _h lo/ ev]y?+-- ,ah1 ev]y?+6 %e e*o$ ) a quick brea?4 ,b x is n t4 ,n ev]y?+6 ,my husb& is left to me /ill4 ,& our heal?4 ,x is n l ,job4 ,if heal? broke d[n1 or if ! call came to me to g1 y w\ld say ! same /ill1 my de>1 int]pos$ ! ,rector4 ,i "k y w\ld1 because x w\ld /ill be ,8 w4 ,mrs4 ,l&or smil$ aga91 ?\gh te>s 7 9 h] eyes4 ,few w\ld feel z y d1 9 y\r position1 said ,col94 ,p]haps because !y h be5 accu/om$ to look ^u ! money z /rictly _! own4 ,i d n ?9k we h ev] done t4 ,%e spoke 9 a ?\ghtful tone1 z if consid]+ ! "q4 ,x is h>d] = h] ?an = me1 ! old ,rector said s(tly1 look+ t[>ds ,col94 ,i 0 poor = ye>s be=e ,i m>ri$1 & %e does n "k :at x is to be poor4 ,s e "o tells me4 ,b is n ! unkn[n sometimes m al>m+ ?an :at "o does "k8 ,well1 we are to h a new exp]i5ce toge!r--y & ,i6 ,x w be a new k9d ( life entirely4 ,we %all h to make e s+le p5ny g z f> z x possibly c1 in/ead ( nev] tr\bl+ "o's head ab\t ! matt]4 ,i am b5t on prov+ t1 at lea/1 luxury has n spoil$ me1 ,mr4 ,mack5zie4 ,don't ?9k ,i am putt+ on a *e]fulness :i* ,i d n really feel4 ,p]haps1 z my husb& says1 ,i don't "k :at x all means z yet4 ,b :at ,i '_c' und]/& is ! s5se ( d\bt & t]ror 9 look+ =w>d1 :i* ,i seem to be expect$ to feel4 ,( c\rse !re is unc]ta9ty4 ,we h n ! lea/ idea h[ we are to manage4 ,exp5ses mu/ be cut d[n to ! utmo/2 & ev5 !n x is a my/]y 9 :at way we c get along4 ,only--we %all get along6 ,we simply h to wait till ! 'h[' becomes cle>4 ,i suppose some?+ always turns up someh[1 rem>k$ ,col91 9 a reflection ( 8 wife's fav\rite tone4 ,is t en\gh = y8 ,x w\ld n be = me4 ',some?+ turn+ up someh[' s\nds dre>y4 ,) me x is ! direct & positive c>e ( a ,fa!r = ,8 *ild2 n a m]e turn+ up ( some?+1 "o h>dly kn[s h[4 ,( c\rse1 "o is left 9 ! d>k n[ & !n--if only to give "o ! opportunity ( tru/+ ,him6--& ( c\rse we h to d ! v utmo/ t we c d t[>ds help+ ourselves4 ,b :5 we c d no m1 & /ill x is n suffici5t1 !n comes ! wait+1 because x is j !re t ,god /eps 94 ,if ev]ybody felt z sure4 ,does 'ev]ybody' "k ,god well en\gh8 %e ask$ ) a curi\s ke5 smile4 ,ev5 on e>? "o mu/ "k a p]son be=e "o c repose tru/ 9 him2 & = ! absolute repose ( p]fect tru/1 v full k ( 8 "* is ne$ful4 ,n q ev]ybody kn[s ,god s well z t6 ,no1 inde$6 ,col9 spoke 9 a consci5ce-/rick5 voice4 ,& yet--"o may4 ,x is ,8 wi% = u all4 ,& :5 "o does "k ,him1 ev5 a little1 all is alt]$ by x4 ,)\t any boa/+1 b j z a matt] ( common reasonabl5ess1 ,i am absolutely sure t ,he w take c>e ( u4 ,absolutely sure6 ,t ,he %\ld fail u 9 our ne$ is1 ,i "k1 a ?+ impossible4 ,!n :at nons5se x w\ld be to fret & worry4 ,:y %\ld we feel anxi\s1 any m ?an y\r ,flo does8 ,%e kn[s y w provide = h]1 to ! ext5t ( y\r p[]--kn[s x ) a p]fectly und\bt+ tru/ 9 y\r love4 ,y\r p[]s are limit$1 & y might fail 9 provid+ = h]1 n ?r\gh lack ( love1 b ?r\gh pov]ty ( means4 ,my ,fa!r's p[]s are )\t limit2 & ,8 love is b\ndless4 ,w\ld x n be ! height ( absurdity = u to keep worry+ ab\t ! future1 :5 we '"k' t ,he w supply all our ne$s8 ,all our real ne$s4 ,we may h to d )\t a good _m ?+s t we are us$ to1 b :at !n8 ,x may be some?+ ( a trial4 ,j a little ( life's discipl9e1 & no m6 ,don't y see8--) a smile :i* _h become positively radiant4 ,x _h a quiet reflection 9 h] husb&'s face4 ,col9 li/5$1 l "o dumbf\nd]$4 ,ano!r mann] ( tru/1 ?is1 f any ex]cis$ by himself6 99 99 99 99 99 ,0 ,euphrasia n at all an int]e/+ invalid8 ,h[>d ,john/on1 recall+ 8 "m's words1 began to d\bt _! tru?--n s mu* ) respect to himself1 z ) respect to 8 c\s91 ! doctor4 ,h[>d /ill held t ,euphrasia 0 a s5sible girl1 & he lik$ h] = be+ s5sible4 ,t 0 all4 ,he felt no?+ m ?an a g5]al approval1 a g5]al wi% to be polite & k9d to an un=tunate gue/4 ,b app>5tly t 0 by no means all1 s f> z ,rob]t ,wells 0 conc]n$4 ,s mu* ! bett]1 ?\ght ,h[>d4 ,ev]ybody _h long said t ,mr4 ,wells ought to m>ry2 & he _h %[n himself repreh5sibly sl[ 9 foll[+ ?is wise advice4 ,8 position z a m$ical man 0 good1 & x promis$ to be bett]1 & 8 pati5ts lik$ him3 b ye> aft] ye> he rema9$ wifeless4 ,possibly he _h once want$ a wife :om he c\ld n get1 & ! failure might h left him indispos$ to try aga94 ,he c\ld q well af=d to m>ry4 ,if he *ose to fall 9 love ) ! p5niless daught] ( ! ,manag] ( a c\ntry ,bran* ,bank1 !re 0 no reason :atev] :y he %\ld n ask h] to be 8 wife4 ,he 0 n entirely dep5d5t ^u 8 pr(ession1 & he _h no ne> relatives dep5d5t ^u him4 ,?is 0 ,h[>d's view ( ! matt]4 ,& he wat*$ ! doctor's gr[+ absorption 9 ,euphrasia ,mack5zie ) amus$ int]e/1 say+ no?+ to anybody4 ,_h he sugge/$ su* a notion to 8 "m1 %e w\ld d\btless h ex]t$ all h] faculties to put a spoke 9 ! :eel4 ,! dulle/ p]iod ( ,euphrasia's imprisonm5t 0 n[ ov]4 ,long h\rs ( en=c$ ?\ght _h be5 good = h]1 z _m ?+s are good = u1 n at ! "t enjoyable2 & all h] life %e w\ld be ! bett] 9 "* = t try+ exp]i5ce4 ,n[1 h[ev]1 %e 0 kept well suppli$ ) books1 & %e 0 able to enjoy !m4 ,! knee _h /eadily improv$1 al?\gh %e 0 /ill =bidd5 to walk m ?an a few /eps1 & ! doctor _h ?us f> decl9$ to he> any m5tion ( a j\rney4 ,euphrasia saw signs ( gr[+ impati5ce 9 h] fri5d1 & ev5 ,mrs4 ,john/on's polit5ess fail$ to conceal entirely a measure ( ! same4 ,"o budget ( lett]s _h arriv$ f home1 ne>ly a week old :5 despat*$1 z notifi$ by an outside inscription2 & fur!r lett]s fail$ aga9 to come4 ,b at lea/ %e knew t no?+ 0 s]i\sly wrong ) h] fa!r4 ,! s]vices ( a c]ta9 f9e g5tleman bel[/airs 7 n requir$ = ! :eel+ ( ,euphrasia's c\* f room to room1 s9ce ! doctor himself always und]took t (fice dur+ 8 morn+ visit4 ,& 9 ! aft]noon1 e>li] or lat]1 ,h[>d 0 unusually to ! =e4 ,euphrasia 0 n p]mitt$ to prote/4 ,x 0 only a pleasure ) !m bo?4 ,7 ^! daily visits f ! doctor an absolute necessity8 ,euphrasia _h h] d\bts on t score4 ,he look$ at ! knee e day1 & ask$ que/ions1 b little c\ld be done beyond ord]+ cont9u$ re/4 ,he almo/ inv>iably /ay$ = a *at1 sometimes z long z tw5ty m9utes or half-an-h\r2 & ,euphrasia w\ld h felt v dull )\t ^! *e]y visits4 ,%e _h le>nt q to look =w>d to !m ?r\gh ! tw5ty-f\r h\rs4 ,if only !y w\ld n all h to be paid =6 ,!re 0 ! rub4 ,euphrasia's he>t sometimes w5t d[n to a l[ level1 at ! ?\ght ( ! future bill 9 connection ) ! /ate ( home f9ances4 ,0 x truly ne$ful t he %\ld exam9e ! knee s (t58 ,if n1 k9d ?\gh 8 att5tions might be1 ,euphrasia c\ld n feel t %e w\ld be "r to let ?+s cont9ue ?us4 ,%e debat$ mu* ) h]self1 & sev]al times resolv$ to put out a mo/ delicate feel] ( "o k9d or ano!r1 to discov] :e!r1 p]haps1 twice a week might n be suffici5t4 ,b ,euphrasia 0 n gift$ 9 ! art ( putt+ out delicate feel]s1 & :5 x came to ! po9t1 %e always fail$ to say any?+ at all4 ,he 0 s pleasant1 & x w\ld be s horrid to hurt 8 feel+s4 ,s %e decid$ f9ally t ! utmo/ %e c\ld d 0 to ha/5 h] dep>ture4 ,n[ t h] mon? 0 almo/ end$1 matt]s might be press$ to a po9t4 ,x _h be5 a long mon?1 v long--except ! la/ few days4 ,%e w\ld be glad to get away--yes1 c]ta9ly1 v glad inde$ to feel h]self no long] an unwelcome burd5 on h] fri5d's hospitality4 ,yes1 c]ta9ly1 v glad1 repeat$ ,euphrasia ) emphasis1 j because %e 0 aw>e ( an opposite s5sation bel[4 ,"o /rong regret 0 ass]t+ itself1 & w\ld n be put d[n2 "o real pa91 9 ! ?\ght ( p>t+ f ,mr4 ,wells4 ,he _h n be5 only ! doctor to h]3 he _h be5 a fri5d 9 a season ( tr\ble4 ,look+ back ^u ! pa/ mon?1 %e saw 8 figure m prom95tly ?an any o!r4 ,! prom95ce ( any figure 9 "o's surr\nd+s dep5ds1 aft] all1 ma9ly ^u "o's own int]e/ 9 t figure4 ,w\ld %e ev] see him aga98 ,w\ld %e nev] see him aga98 ,! "q 0 unwelcome1 & x haunt$ h]4 ,nev] aga91 ?r\gh all h] life6 ,a second visit to ! ,john/on lay beyond all b\nds ( probability4 ,%e _h no o!r fri5ds 9 ,clifton4 ,we/ ,norton 0 an unlikely place = anybody to visit2 & 9 _! little home1 !y seldom ent]ta9$ fri5ds f a di/ance4 ,:y %\ld he & %e ev] meet aga98 ,he _h done 8 duty z doctor1 p]haps a good deal m ?an 8 b>e duty because he 0 k9d-he>t$1 & because %e _h be5 lonely & uncom=table4 ,& %e 0 m]ely 8 pati5t1 a case to be dismiss$ :5 done )1 & ?\ght ab\t no m4 ,/ill1 %e _h to leave1 & h] duty 0 to g s soon z %e might4 ,! odd "p ( ! matt] 0 t1 aft] all h] e>li] impati5ce1 n[ ! "t = dep>ture 0 ne>1 %e did n want to g4 ,%e _h told h]self t %e w\ld be glad1 b 9 h] he>t %e knew %e w\ld n be glad4 ,not)/&+ all ! unpleasantness ( giv+ tr\ble to comp>ative /rang]s1 not)/&+ ,letitia's coldness1 & ,mrs4 ,john/on's h>dly-veil$ impati5ce1 %e w\ld h giv5 mu* to feel h]self compell$ to /ay ano!r mon?4 ,euphrasia's v consci\sness ( ?is reluctance made h] ! m det]m9$ to br+ ab\t a decision4 ,i ?9k ,i ought to write home n[1 & tell !m ab\t my knee1 %e said abruptly1 aft] mu* previ\s consid]ation4 ,& fix ! day = go+4 ,to :i*1 ,mr4 ,wells respond$ by a delib]ate--,ah6 ,?is is ,?ursday4 ,c\ld n ,i say ,saturday8 ,y are 9 a great hurry to run away f u all4 ,oh1 ,i %\ld n l to /ay a day long] ?an ,i mu/6 ,! words came back to h]self ) an ungraci\s s\nd 9 !m2 & %e saw ! doctor bit+ 8 m\/a*e4 ,please don't ?9k ,i am n grateful2 ,i really am4 ,i h be5 su* a bo!r all ?is "t1 & y h be5 s k9d to me4 ,b x w\ldn't be "r to put (f any long]4 ,i ought to get home z soon z possible4 ,&-- hurri$ly1 "u a sudd5 impulse to use h] opportunity1 kn[+ t ,mrs4 ,john/on w\ld be back imm$iately--&1 if y don't m9d1 ,i ?9k be=e ,i g1 ,i ought j to "k h[ mu*--,i mean1 if y c\ld tell me1 s t ,i c tell my fa!r--& !n he w\ld s5d to y z soon z--if y don't m9d-- ,euphrasia fell into a hopeless bungle1 blu%+ m & m1 :ile ,mr4 ,wells look$ s int5sely grave t %e fe>$ %e mu/ h said exactly ! wrong ?+ 9 h] inexp]i5ce4 ,i ?9k y "k :at ,i mean1 %e falt]$1 b he made no sign ( compreh5sion4 ,y h be5 s (t51 &--&--( c\rse--( c\rse !re mu/ be--ow+-- ! la/ ^w be+ h>dly audible4 ,mu* too (t51 "u ! circum/ances1 if ?+s 7 z y suppose4 ,b y "k--b y mu/--b ,i c\ld n--x w\ld n be "r1-- ,no?+ else c\ld be "r1 or possible4 ,my c\s9s ought to h expla9$4 ,mrs4 ,john/on und]took to d s4 ,i am "o ( ! family2 & y mu/ please to reg>d my visits 9 t light4 ,no?+ else is possible4 ,i didn't "k1--,i mean1 ,i c\ldn't1 ( c\rse-- ,euphrasia came to ano!r bungle1 actually trembl+4 ,t he 0 pa9$ at some?+ %e c\ld see2 %e did n exactly div9e :at4 ,:y %\ld he c>e at all8 ,please =give me = ask+ y1 b inde$ ,i d n ?9k x is "r4 ,x is a matt] ( c\rse4 ,i am only sorry t y c\ld suppose any?+ else to be possible1 said ,mr4 ,wells coldly4 ,mrs4 ,john/on's /ep c\ld be he>d return+4 ,%e always came up ) ! doctor1 & v (t5 us$ ! opportunity ( be+ up to att5d to c]ta9 h\sehold matt]s 9 a neighb\r+ room1 s9ce no?+ w\ld induce h] nephew to be z quick ab\t ! knee z %e desir$4 ,b "h %e came1 & no m c\ld be said4 ,rob]t ,wells bade an abrupt good-bye ?is day1 n rema9+ = 8 usual *at4 ,euphrasia felt bewild]$4 ,_h %e s]i\sly (f5d$ him8 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,,some?+ ,,wrong ,,mr4 ,,wells 0 n entirely himself next morn+1 :5 he appe>$ = 8 inevitable call1 h>dly (f5d$ 9 ! /rict s5se ( ! ^w1 b ov]:elm+ly grave & punctili\sly polite4 ,in/ead ( :eel+ ,euphrasia1 z usual1 into ! next room1 he all[$ h] to walk !re1 ) help f 8 arm4 ,& !n rem>k$-- ,y are gett+ on well4 ,we did n fix y\r day = go+ home4 ,y wi% to be (f z e>ly z possible4 ,mrs4 ,john/on1 ov]he>+ ?is1 took h]self (f ) great cel]ity1 to escape ! ne$ ( press+ = a long] /ay4 ,euphrasia's glance 0 apologetic1 almo/ to ! ext5t ( begg+ p>don4 ,i ought to g4 ,to-morr[ is too soon4 ,monday1 if y l4 ,i %\ld h pref]r$ ano!r week's delay1 z a measure ( precaution1 b x is n ess5tial4 ,to keep y "h aga9/ y\r w is h>dly fair4 ,oh1 b x is n-- ,euphrasia /opp$4 ,& he w5t on1 z if he _h n he>d4 ,on ,monday ,i h to travel 9 y\r direction1 &1 if y d n object1 ,i c escort y "p ( ! way4 ,! *ange ( tra9s y c\ld h>dly manage alone4 ,i w see y ?r\gh t1 & into y\r own tra91 aft] :i* y w only h to sit /ill until y get to ,we/ ,norton4 ,somebody mu/ meet y !re4 ,x w n d = y to dep5d ^u y\rself4 ,a slight /ra9 n[ w\ld ?r[ y back = weeks4 ,h[ good y are6 %e said gratefully4 ,he put a slip ( pap] into h] h& ) unmov$ c\nt5ance4 ,! tra9s are writt5 d[n1 s y c tell y\r fa!r :5 to meet y4 ,b x w be a tr\ble-- ,n 9 ! lea/4 ,he spoke di/antly /ill4 ,i h to g on bus9ess4 ,?is lett] 0 ly+ on ! hall table4 ,oh1 ?ank y4 ,f my "m6 ,mr4 ,wells made an unusually rapid exit1 & ,euphrasia lay mus+ ) ! unop5$ envelope 9 h] h&4 ,i mu/ h said some?+ to vex him ye/]day1 b :at c\ld x h be58 ,he has n be5 l ?is be=e4 ,h[ c\ld ,i guess t he meant x all z a fri5d8 ,nobody told me2 & x w\ld h be5 su* a cool ?+ to take = grant$6 ,i don't ?9k he ought to be annoy$--if he is annoy$6 ,i am n sure2 x is almo/ m l be+ pa9$ or disappo9t$4 ,= t5 m9utes ! lett] 9 h] h& 0 =gott51 !n %e turn$ to x ) a />t ( recollection--,oh1 h[ /upid6 ,:at is ! use ( bo!r+ myself8 ,if he does misund]/&1 ,i c't d any?+ to alt] x4 ,fancy =gett+ to op5 my lett]6 ,)9 0 a blott$ scrawl f ,mrs4 ,mack5zie4 ,y\r fa!r seems to ?9k1 %e wrote1 t !re is no ne$ to tell y :at has happ5$ until y come home4 ,b ,i really d n see ! use ( putt+ (f1 & he says ,i am to d j z ,i l4 ,y w be com+ back soon n[1 ,i suppose1 & !n ( c\rse y w\ld h to "k4 ,0 ?is ! dread$ failure & loss ( all1 :i* ,euphrasia _h s dwelt ^u dur+ ! fir/ weeks ( h] imprisonm5t8 ,%e _h n ?\ght mu* ( ! matt] lately1 h] m9d hav+ be5 full ( o!r subjects2 & ! =getfulness occurr$ to h] z curi\s1 ev5 :ile %e eag]ly glanc$ on to see :at 0 wrong4 ,only ?9k--is x n t]rible8--! ,l&ors h lo/ ne>ly ev]y?+ t !y h6 ,positively almo/ ev]y?+6 ,all ,mrs4 ,l&or's money is gone1 & ! e/ate mu/ be sold1 & no?+ w be left4 ,i nev] und]/& bus9ess affairs prop]ly1 b ! ,company has fail$ 9 :i* h] money 0 fir/ made--at lea/1 9 :i* h] fa!r's money 0 made1 :i* comes to ! same ?+4 ,& n[ x is all gone 9 "o sma%4 ,%e has _h difficulties ! la/ few ye>s--s we are told n[--?\gh nobody knew1 except ( c\rse h] husb&4 ,b ?+s might h come "r 9 "t1 if x _h n be5 = ?is failure1 :i* takes ev]ybody by surprise1 ! ,l&ors !mselves z mu* z anybody4 ,!y w h no?+ left1 beyond ,mr4 ,l&or's /ip5d ( #he a ye>4 ,fancy hav+ to live on t1 aft] :at ,mrs4 ,l&or has always be5 accu/om$ to6 ,no?+ c\ld be m sad4 ,i h cri$ half ! "t s9ce fir/ ,i he>d :at _h happ5$4 ,mrs4 ,l&or is v *e]ful1 b %e doesn't 9 ! lea/ "k :at x all means4 ,h[ %\ld %e8 ,%e has nev] want$ any?+ t %e c\ld n get4 ,i _c imag9e :at !y are to d4 ,x is n l "y p beg9n+ life1 b at _! age1 x is melan*oly6 ,y\r fa!r is a great deal bett] s9ce ?is has happ5$4 ,x seems odd1 b hav+ to ?9k s mu* ab\t ! ,l&ors has q r\s$ him up & made a diff]5t man ( him4 ,dr4 ,nor? said ye/]day to me t really !re is n mu* amiss ) him1 if only he c\ld believe x6 ,a *ange some:]e might d him good because x w\ld mean some?+ fre% to ?9k ab\t1 b ?is tr\ble ( ! ,l&ors seems to h _h ! same effect3 if only x w la/4 ,9 answ] to ! above1 ,euphrasia1 wrote1 aft] long cogitation3-- ,,de> ,,"m--,i c h>dly believe :at y h told me ab\t ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,l&or2 x is s v dreadful6 ,i am n writ+ to !m n[1 because ,i hope to see !m s soon4 ,?is is j a l9e to say t ,i am arrang+ to come home on ,monday4 ,i did n tell y be=e t ,i _h a fall d[n sev]al /eps1 ! v day t ,i came "h1 & hurt my knee4 ,x 0 n wor? :ile to make y all anxi\s1 & no?+ c\ld be done except to keep ! knee p]fectly /ill4 ,! doctor says x w be all "r 9 "t1 if ,i am c>eful = a :ile1 & x is a great deal bett] already1 only ,i am n all[$ to use x mu* yet4 ,he is--! doctor1 ,i mean--a c\s9 ( ! ,john/ons1 s 8 visits w be no exp5se to u1 z he has only come z a fri5d4 ,i did n "k ?is till a day or two ago1 & ,i h be5 r afraid ab\t ! bill4 ,"p ( ! "t "h 0 r dull because ,i h be5 able to g n[h]e4 ,i %all be s glad to see y all aga94 ,mrs4 ,john/on is k9d1 b ,i h f\nd ,letitia mu* less ( a fri5d ?an ,i expect$4 ,i w\ld n h /ay$ s long only ,i c\ld n travel till ,mr4 ,wells gave me leave4 ,i am enclos+ a pap] ( tra9s = ,monday4 ,mr4 ,wells has to g t way1 z x happ5s1 & he w see me into my tra9 at ! ,junction4 ,he has be5 v good & k9d to me4 ,i d hope y w "k him "s day4 ,w\ld my fa!r or somebody meet me at our /ation because ,i %all want a little help 9 gett+ out ( ! tra98 ,please give love to ev]ybody1 & believe me ev]1--,y\r affectionate *ild1 ,,euphrasia4 ,i knew x6 ,i 0 sure some?+ 0 wrong6 exclaim$ ,mrs4 ,mack5zie1 on receipt ( ?is lett]4 ,%e has n be5 l h]self all ?r\gh4 ,poor de> *ild6--j hid+ f u h[ bad %e 06 ,i hope x does n mean a lame knee = life4 ,t sort ( injury is s tr\blesome4 ,i tru/ n1 inde$1 my de>6 ,( c\rse1 ! doctor w\ld say ! be/ he c\ld to h]1 b ,i "k :at knees are6 ,well1 ,i felt p]fectly sure all along t ?+s 7 n "r2 & y see x has be5 j z ,i expect$6 ,col9 ,mack5zie might h assur$ 8 wife t %e usually did feel sure ( ?+s n be+ "r1 & t he did n f9d h] by any means an inv>iably true prophetess4 ,b he wisely =bore f s useless an ef=t4 ,x may be t ?+s h be5 m '"r' ?an !y seem1 he sugge/$1 m9dful ( 8 visit to ! ,rectory4 ,i d n ?9k we c always judge4 ,euphrasia has %[n a brave _s1 de> *ild6--say+ no?+ ab\t x all ^! weeks6 ,i w meet h] at ! ,junction & br+ h] home4 ,%e _c be fit = travell+ alone4 ,t old doctor mu/ be an uncommonly k9d man6 ,only1 z we "k1 ! doctor 0 by no means old6 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xv ,,w ,,y8 ,,monday came1 & ,euphrasia w5t ?r\gh h] good-byes ) no p>ticul> di/ress1 s f> z ,mrs4 ,john/on & ,letitia 7 conc]n$4 ,%e _h n q s soon to bid f>ewell to ,mr4 ,wells2 & some?+ 9 h] he>t :isp]$ t ?is w\ld n be s light a matt]4 ,b %e tri$ to put aside ! ?\ght4 ,"t en\gh :5 ! mom5t %\ld arrive4 ,mrs4 ,john/on _h look$ dubi\s :5 ! s*eme ( ,euphrasia's escort 0 prop\nd$ to h]4 ,yet aft] all x 0 only a matt] ( "s =ty m9utes toge!r 9 ! tra91 & ,euphrasia 0 su* an un9t]e/+ girl1 & ,rob]t1 ?\gh n v f> ov] ?irty1 might h pass$ = ne>] =ty4 ,& ,mrs4 ,john/on 0 extremely desir\s to get ,euphrasia safely (f h] premises4 ,& if %e rais$ difficulties1 !re 0 no kn[+ :at am\nt ( delays might be ! result4 ,s %e left matt]s to arrange !mselves4 ,& :5 a l9e came f ,mr4 ,mack5zie /at+ t he w\ld be at ! ,junction1 %e wi%$ %e _h n be5 s complaisant4 ,no d\bt ,mr4 ,mack5zie w\ld h agre$ ) equal read9ess to come ! :ole di/ance to ,clifton--:i* w\ld h be5 s mu* m correct6 %e compla9$ to ,letitia4 ,b x 0 !n too late = any re-%ap+ ( plans4 ,mr4 ,wells 0 grave /ill1 & dispos$ to sil5ce1 albeit /udi\sly att5tive to 8 fell[-travell]'s ne$s4 ,he _h n once relax$ s9ce ! ,?ursday int]view4 ,& ,euphrasia 0 /ill puzzl$ :e!r to c\nt t he _h be5 displeas$1 or only pa9$1 by aught t %e _h said--& if ei!r1 by :at8 ,puzzl$ ?\gh %e might be1 h[ev]1 a c]ta9 womanly retic5ce )held h] f mak+ any attempt at explanation or apology4 ,mr4 ,wells gave to ,euphrasia a ,graphic & occupi$ himself ) ! ,times4 ,he seem$ dispos$ to make a v limit$ use ( ?is la/ opportunity = int]c\rse4 ,once & aga9 he look$ up to enquire briefly1 ,q com=table8 ,& receiv+ h] ass5t1 he return$ to 8 lead+ articles4 ,o!r pass5g]s 7 9 ! same comp>tm5t4 ,inde$1 he _h *os5 a some:at full c>riage at />t+1 b "o aft] ano!r vani%$ at successive /ations4 ,& no new ones fill$ ! vacant places4 ,! la/ ( _! companions got out at ! la/ /ation be=e ,we/ ,norton4 ,only a few m9utes m6 ,yet /ill ! doctor read on1 or1 at all ev5ts1 he pret5d$ to d s4 ,sudd5ly he /opp$1 fold$ 8 pap] neatly into a m9ute compass1 put x into 8 bag1 & glanc$ across at ,euphrasia1 ) ! rem>k-- ,ne>ly !re6 ,yes6 ,a s5se ( ! com+ good-bye assail$ ,euphrasia1 & a lump came into h] ?roat4 ,?is w\ld n d6 ,%e held x d[n fi]cely4 ,! doctor look$ h] ov] ) a calmly critical air ( m$ical obs]vation4 ,gett+ done up ) y\r j\rney8 ,no1 ?anks6 ,euphrasia spoke gruffly4 ,any?+ r ?an to h him see :at %e felt1 if he did n feel ! same2 & evid5tly he did n4 ,we %all be at ! ,junction 9 five m9utes or s4 ,y say y\r fa!r w be !re4 ,i %all give y ov] to him4 ,& h done ) y6 occurr$ to ,euphrasia1 z an appropriate conclusion4 ,he _h spok5 9 an odd cut-&-dri$ tone1 b some?+ made ,euphrasia raise h] eyes1 & %e saw t ! face beli$ ! voice4 ,a curi\s pity+ g5tl5ess _h crept into x1 & he leant =w>d to pull /raight ! light rug ov] h] knees--a ne$less att5tion1 s9ce !y 7 j on ! po9t ( arriv+4 ,euphrasia f\nd h]self dispos$ to tremble4 ,five m9utes m6--less ?an five m9utes6--& !n1 p]haps1 nev] 9 life to meet aga94 ,nev]1 aft] a :ole mon? ( daily int]c\rse4 ,true1 ! mon?'s int]c\rse might h meant absolutely no?+ to ei!r ( !m2 & 9 ! majority ( cases x w\ld h meant no?+1 be+ purely a case ( pr(essional int]c\rse4 ,b--x '_h' meant m to h]4 ,euphrasia knew n[--%e _h n kn[n be=e--to "s ext5t h[ ?+s 74 ,less ?an five m9utes6 ,s mu* ! bett]1 = fe> %e might betray h]self4 ,& yet--if x _h b be5 "o m half-h\r6 ,n 9 pa91 ,i hope8 came 9 a voice ( grave conc]n4 ,euphrasia look$ up aga91 q involunt>ily1 to meet 8 gaze ( k9d enquiry4 ,to h] utt] horror1 %e f\nd h] eyes sudd5ly full2 nay1 worse ?an full1 actually ov]fl[+4 ,two great drops fell1 cle> & visible1 despite all %e c\ld d4 ,euphrasia felt z if %e c\ld gladly h sunk into ! floor ( ! comp>tm5t4 ,ah1 ,i 0 afraid t ! j\rney might be r too mu* = y1 said ,mr4 ,wells1 ) no appe>ance ( surprise4 ,y are n /rong yet4 ,nev] m9d2 a good re/ by-&-by w put x all "r4 ,he b5t =w>d1 & cont9u$--,d y ?9k t "s day ,i might v5ture to f9d my way to y\r home8 ,i h y\r ,we/ ,norton address4 ,! res]ve on :i* ,euphrasia 0 wont to pride h]self sc>cely s]v$ 9 ! pres5t em]g5cy4 ,x 0 impossible t ! doctor %\ld fail to see ! *ange 9 h] face4 ,oh d6 %e said eag]ly4 ,oh d6 ,!n al>m$ at h] own delight--,i am sure--q sure--!y w\ld all be s glad4 ,my fa!r-- ,y\r fa!r w\ld n object8 ,o no1 inde$6 ,& w\ld y be1 p]haps1 j a slight degree pleas$ too--y\rself8 ,! tra9 0 slack5+ outside ! /ation1 n yet at ! plat=m4 ,a m9ute or two rema9$4 ,euphrasia c\ld only say %yly--,o yes6 ,add+ aft] a pause--,y h be5 s good to me4 ,d y ?9k y c\ld let me g on be+ 'good' to y8 ,rob]t _h n int5d$ to say m at pres5t4 ,9 fact1 he _h v ne>ly come to a settl$ conclusion nev] to say any?+ m at all because ,miss ,mack5zie s evid5tly reg>d$ him f no?+ m nor less ?an ! pr(essional po9t ( view4 ,b h] sudd5 & unmi/akable di/ress put a new face on matt]s1 & sev]ely %ook 8 resolution4 ,suppose1 aft] all1 t he 7 mi/ak5--t %e did c>e8 ,i almo/ ?\ght1 la/ week1 t y\r "o wi% 0 to see no?+ m ( any ( u6 ,oh1 h[ c\ld-- ,euphrasia broke (f 9 confusion4 ,h[ c\ld ,i ?9k s8 ,p misread "o ano!r sometimes4 ,p]haps ,i fanci$ y w\ld h und]/ood bett]--h se5 intuitively h[ ?+s really 76 ,rob]t ,wells look$ out ( ! w9d[1 b ! tra9 rema9$ motionless4 ,half-a-m9ute pass$ 9 sil5ce4 ,!n an impulse seiz$ him1 too /rong to be re/ra9$1 & he spoke aga93-- ,euphrasia1 c\ld y make up y\r m9d to be a doctor's wife8 ,w y be m9e8 ,euphrasia almo/ gasp$ = brea?4 ,! utmo/ = :i* %e _h def9itely crav$ 0 t "s day !y might meet aga91 t ?is p>t+ %\ld n be a p>t+ = always4 ,%e _h want$ him /ill = a fri5d4 ,b--to be 8 wife6 ,did he mean x8 ,_h %e grasp$ 8 words 9 _! true s5se8 ,! tra9 began to move4 ,we are j !re1 said ,wells1 g5tly4 ,i don't want to hurry y4 ,%all ,i come to ,we/ ,norton = an answ] 9 two or ?ree days8 ,t w\ld give y "t8 ,o no6 ,euphrasia1 crimson & confus$1 h>dly knew :at %e said4 ,no6 ,! doctor's face fell4 ,he might be excus$ = n und]/&+4 ,i only mean--,oh1 ,i don't mean--,i d n want "t--,i only-- ,y only d n q "k y\r own m9d4 ,i h tak5 y too mu* by surprise4 ,euphrasia pull$ h]self toge!r1 ) a resolute ef=t1 & look$ up at him once m1 h] eyes full ( a happy light4 ,yes1 ,i 'd' "k1 %e said4 ,& ,i mean--if my fa!r is will+-- ,if he is will+-- ,i mean--,yes6 ,n m ?an tw5ty seconds rema9$ to !m1 b ( ^? tw5ty ,rob]t ,wells made ! be/ possible use4 ,!n ! tra9 drew up1 & ,mr4 ,mack5zie's face appe>$ 9 ! w9d[4 ,euphrasia1 my de>6 ,welcome home6 ,bett]1 *ild8 ,:y1 ,i nev] saw y look s well6 ,su* a col\r6 ,s y\r fri5d1 ! old doctor1 did n come aft] all4 ,fa!r1--'?is' is ,mr4 ,wells6 murmur$ ,euphrasia1 unable to meet 8 gaze4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xvi ,,h[ ,,c>e ,,may ,,be ,,c>ri$ ,,s "h is ! fruit ( y\r mon?'s abs5ce1 little ,eyebright6 ,to come back 'an engag$ "y p]son6' ,& n a h9t ( x to any ( u be=eh&6 ,mrs4 ,l&or spoke 9 h] *e]ie/ tones1 n 9 ! lea/ l "o be>+ a heavy burd54 ,?is 0 ! e>lie/ meet+ ( ! two4 ,rob]t ,wells _h s f> alt]$ 8 plans z to g direct to ,we/ ,norton = ?ree nights1 sleep+ at ! ,inn1 b sp5d+ two long days ) ! ,mack5zies4 ,mrs4 ,mack5zie w\ld n soon =get t />tl+ mom5t :5 h] husb& _h fir/ walk$ 91 ) an excit$ :isp]--,euphrasia & ,mr4 ,wells1 my de>6 ,a mo/ nice "y fell[6 ,& he wants our little ,eyebright6 ,! mann] ( ! want+ 0 left to conjecture1 b ,mrs4 ,mack5zie h>dly ne$$ to ask an explanation ( ! t]m4 ,h] answ] 0 a dismay$ exclamation--,b1 ,col96 ,:y1 ,col96 ,nobody kn[s any?+ 9 ! _w ab\t him6 ,rob]t ,wells 01 h[ev]1 a man to be rapidly kn[n :5 he *ose to op5 himself out2 & on ?is occasion1 he naturally did *oose4 ,all w5t well = 8 wi%es2 ev]ybody 0 *>m$ ) him4 ,& be=e he left ! place1 full cons5t to ! engagem5t _h be5 accord$4 ,euphrasia c\ld h>dly believe 9 h] own happ9ess1 z ! say+ goes4 ,9 po9t ( fact1 %e did believe 9 x v ?or\ghly1 & felt supremely joy\s4 ,h] :ole be+ exp&$2 & ! face :i* mo/ p c\nt$ pla9 _h nev] be5 s ne>ly pretty4 ,mr4 ,mack5zie ?\ght x m ?an pretty1 ) s t5d] a gleam 9 ! gray eyes2 & :at ,rob]t ,wells ?\ght is h>dly wor? :ile to enquire4 ,%e _h to rema9 indoors1 to re/ ! knee aft] its j\rney4 ,& no?+ w\ld cont5t ,mr4 ,mack5zie %ort ( conduct+ 8 future son-9-law r\nd ! place1 to visit _! mo/ intimate fri5ds4 ,euphrasia might h murmur$ at be+ necess>ily left beh9d1 b %e 0 f> too happy = h] s]5ity to be s easily upset4 ,%e 0 only delight$ ) h] fa!r's satisfaction 9 ,rob]t4 ,n[ ! doctor 0 gone1 b only = a "t4 ,he w\ld soon run ov] aga91 = a peep at 8 ,eyebright6 ,he _h adopt$ ) read9ess ! home pet "n4 ,& 9 no long "t1 ! w$d+ w\ld h to be discuss$1 ,rob]t hav+ intimat$ pretty pla9ly t s f> z 8 voice 9 ! matt] 0 conc]n$1 he 0 9 no m9d = a long delay4 ,mean:ile1 he _h invit$ ,col9 ,mack5zie to sp5d two or ?ree weeks ) him 9 ,clifton by way ( ne$$ *ange1 & = ! purpose ( _! becom+ m fully acqua9t$4 ,:5 he _h vani%$1 & n be=e1 ,mrs4 ,l&or appe>$1 = a good *at ) ,euphrasia4 ,i want ! *ild to tell me all ab\t x1 %e said4 ,& !y 7 left alone toge!r4 ,s "h is ! fruit ( y\r mon?'s abs5ce1 little ,eyebright6 %e repeat$4 ,& n a ^w to any ( u be=eh&6 ,h[ c\ld ,i8 ask$ ,euphrasia1 blu%+4 ,i didn't "k--really4 ,i only knew--j t ,i lik$ him v mu*4 ,& he only spoke 9 ! v la/ mom5t4 ,?ree seconds be=e ! tra9 got 96 ,yes1 ,i he>d4 ,a mo/ orig9al mode ( proce$+6 ,if y\r answ] _h be5 a ',no1' he c\ld h decamp$ in/antane\sly1 & nev] be5 he>d ( m6 ,he w5t to see y4 ,euphrasia spoke wi/fully4 ,he did2 & ,i lik$ him--s f> z "o c tell 9 a qu>t] ( an h\r4 ,i am n (t5 mi/ak5 9 fir/ impressions4 ,p]haps ,i might ev5 l him v mu* inde$1 if ,i knew him v well inde$4 ,x seems almo/ too mu* happ9ess to be true6 ,ah1--,i w\ldn't say t4 ,x spr+s f a false idea4 ,no?+ is ev] too great happ9ess to be true4 ,we are made = happ9ess4 ,god loves u s well t ,he w\ld fa9 h u always happy4 ,only we d n always use ! happ9ess rightly1 & s we _c always be tru/$ ) an abundant supply ( x4 ,i hope ,i %all use ?is rightly4 ,oh1 ,i hope ,i %all4 ,rob]t is s good & k9d4 ,t is "r4 ,y ought to feel s4 ,n[ tell me all ab\t him1 *ild4 ,euphrasia obey$ to ! be/ ( h] p[]1 & at lea/ %e succe$$ 9 %[+ ! complet5ess ( h] own tru/ 9 ,rob]t ,wells4 ,b doesn't x seem-- %e ask$1 doesn't x almo/ seem z if ,i 7 rew>d$ = be+ naughty8 ,i did n half ?9k t ,i 0 "r to g to ,clifton at all2 & yet ,i w5t4 ,0 t "r8 ,& yet1 if ,i _h n gone1 ,i %\ld nev] h kn[n ,rob]t6 ,y _c say t4 ,he & y might h met else:]e4 ,b /ill-- ,d y rememb] t v]se 9 ! ,pray] ,book v]sion ( ! ,psalms--',he w n be always *id+'8 ,i w\ld n1 if ,i 7 y1 get into a way ( expect+ ,god to be 'always *id+4' ,he does n *ide except :5 x is really ne$ful4 ,if y did :at 0 wrong1 !n probably y h _h y\r puni%m5t--y\r requir$ discipl9e--9 ! accid5t & ! dull days foll[+1 n to speak ( ! disappo9tm5t 9 y\r fri5d1 f :om y _h expect$ s mu*4 ,"s ( t "t 0 r h>d to be>1 0 x n8 ,& p]haps y did be> x pati5tly2 & !n 9 love & k9dness1 ?is joy 0 br\ght to y1 out ( y\r v discipl9e4 ,"o sees t sort ( ?+ s (t5 ) ^? :o love & tru/ ,him6 ,& ,i h n said "o ^w ab\t y\r tr\ble1 ,euphrasia pres5tly obs]v$4 ,b inde$ ,i h be5 ?9k+ ab\t y a great deal4 ,i am s v v sorry6 ,p wa/e f> too mu* pity ^u u4 ,life has pl5ty ( happ9ess /ill1 )\t weal?4 ,i don't say t ! loss ( money is n 9 any s5se a trial4 ,( c\rse1 x is meant to be t1 b ,i 'd' say ,i w\ld n h ?+s o!rwise1 if ?is is ,god's w = u6 ,only x seems s h>d-- ,n h>d6 ,to "s ext5t try+1 b we h to expect trials4 ,?+s may turn out bett] ?an we at pres5t v5ture to hope4 ,if n1 we %all be provid$ =1--"o way or ano!r4 ,no "o ev] yet tru/$ ,god1 & f\nd ,him to fail4 ,& we d tru/ ,him4 ,%e pass$ h] h& s(tly ov] ,euphrasia's1 a smile on h] face4 ,i am n boa/+4 ,a *ild does n boa/ ( tru/+ 8 "m's love & c>e6 ,he tru/s because he kn[s :at %e is1 because he _c help x6 ,x is no matt] = boa/+1 b only = delight 4 4 4 ,curi\s t ,i %\ld h _h = ye>s a k9d ( long+ to be all[$ m opportunity = tru/4 ,:]e "o loves mu*1 "o likes to be able to %[ ! love by action4 ,& ,i h always be5 s amply provid$ =--nev] ! smalle/ *ance ( unsuppli$ ne$s--nev] any loophole = wants be+ suppli$ /raight f above4 ,room en\gh = tru/ & dep5d5ce 9 spiritual matt]s1 b n z to ev]yday ne$s4 ,x has always seem$ to me t probably ,i c\ldn't be tru/$ ) t4 ,i h (t5 ?\ght h[ beautiful x mu/ be to sit1 l ,elijah1 wait+ = ! rav5s1 p]fectly sure t !y c\ld nev] fail to come4 ,( c\rse1 ,i d n mean1 sitt+ idly1 n do+ "o's utmo/2 only :5 "o's utmo/ is done1 & ! ne$s are n suppli$1 '!n' to wait = ,div9e action4 ,rav5s6 ,mod]n rav5s w\ld n we> black fea!rs1 *ild4 ,!y come j z /raight f ,god4 ,b ,i h fe>$ presumption 9 hav+ su* ?\ghts1 & ,i h n all[$ myself to wi%4 ,n[ t ?is has come q indep5d5tly ( any?+ we c\ld d1 x 'does' seem t to wait on !m = daily bread may be v sweet--always kn[+ t ,he c nev] by any possibility fail ,8 *ildr54 ,ought ev]ybody to feel s8 ,i d n ?9k ! same lessons are giv5 to all4 ,p are diff]5tly con/itut$1 = "o matt]1 & !y h to be put into diff]5t classes 9 ! ,div9e tra9+-s*ool4 ,! same tea*+ is n adapt$ = all *>act]s--p]haps c\ld n be le>nt by all4 ,b su* ?\ghts help me1 till we c see our way4 ,at pres5t we _c4 ,to live 9 a h\se ! size ( ?is ,rectory1 on #he a ye>1 ) all ! ,p>i% claims 9 addition1 seems an utt] impossibility4 ,b !n1 if we saw at once exactly h[ to manage1 we %\ld n ne$ to tru/ & wait4 ,& y don't ev5 feel anxi\s8 ,i ?9k--n :at y mean by 'anxi\s4' ,i 'see' ! difficulties & ! unc]ta9ties4 ,b ! com+ guidance is s v sure1 t "o _c feel b[$ d[n by x4 ,tru/ does n mean n realis+4 ,my de> *ild1 :y %\ld we be anxi\s8 ,x w be all "r "o way or ano!r--:e!r we /ay "h1 or g else:]e4 99 99 99 99 99 ,"o little drawback ,euphrasia saw 9 h] bright future1 :i* o!rwise seem$ cl\dless1 & t 0 ! fact ( a home ne> ! ,john/ons4 ,c\ld %e h *os51 %e w\ld und\bt$ly h pref]r$ almo/ any o!r place ?an ,clifton4 ,b *oice did n exi/4 ,%e wait$1 ) "s trepidation1 ! fir/ intimation ( ,rob]t hav+ be5 to ,royal ,york ,cresc5t4 ,& :5 x came1 h] fe>s prov$ to h be5 ne$less4 ,mrs4 ,john/on w\ld be=eh& h done all 9 h] p[] to h prev5t$ s imprud5t a mat*1 _h %e =ese5 x4 ,n[1 h[ev]1 t ! ?+ 0 inevitable1 %e 0 f> too wise a woman ( ! _w to %[ ineffectual disgu/4 ,h] lett] ( congratulation to ,euphrasia1 if n entirely s9c]e1 0 at lea/ z to its phraseology all t x ought to h be54 ,?ree mon?s' delay ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,mack5zie begg$ t !y might h a little ta/e ( _! elde/ *ild at home1 be=e %e left !m altoge!r4 ,& !n ! w$d+ came (f4 ,on t v same day1 tid+s 7 receiv$ t ,mrs4 ,l&or's prop]ty hav+ sold unexpect$ly well1 & c]ta9 o!r matt]s hav+ rea*$ a bett] consummation ?an _h be5 fe>$1 en\gh w\ld be sav$ f ! wreck to ensure an income ( ov] #bej p] annum1 9 addition to ! ,rector's small /ip5d4 ,x w n be q l wait+ = ! rav5s n[6 murmur$ ,euphrasia1 z %e clung to h] fri5d 9 ! v mom5t ( p>t+--:5 %e 0 no long] ,euphrasia ,mack5zie1 b ,euphrasia ,wells4 ,i h (t5 notic$ 9 life1 ,mrs4 ,l&or said placidly1 t :5 "s tr\ble is held out to u1 if we say at once--'ev5 s6'--!n x is tak5 away1 or p]haps less5$ 4 4 4 ,always6 ,no1 n always2 only n[ & !n6 4 4 4 ,wait+ = rav5s6 ,no1 inde$4 ,we %all be positively ri*1 9 comp>ison ) :at we h be5 expect+4 ,y did n 'wi%' = ! o!r6 ,y are n disappo9t$8 ,disappo9t$ to h great] ease6 ,my de> *ild1 :at ,i want is n to *oose--to be will+ ei!r way4 ,& n[ y are (f6 ,i h no "r to keep y "h4 ,let me he> soon1 ,little ,eyebright4 ,& d n be afraid to feel 'too happy6' ,,! ,,end