,,! ,,calv]t ,,s]ies ,,hilaire ,,belloc1 ,g5]al ,editor ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,conv]sion ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,! ,,calv]t ,,s]ies ,,hilaire ,,belloc1 ,g5]al ,editor ------- ,belloc3 ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,hi/ory ,*e/]ton3 ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,conv]sion ,mc,nabb3 ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,philosophy ,w>d3 ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,! ,,appeal ,,to ,,reason ,w9dle3 ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,its ,,reactions ,,) ,,sci5ce ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,conv]sion ,,by ,g4 ,k4 ,,*e/]ton ,new ,york ,,! ,,macmillan ,,company #aibg ,all rights res]v$ ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,nihil ,ob/at ,ar?ur ,j4 ,scanlan1 ,s4 ,t4 ,d4 ,c5sor ,librorum4 ,imprimatur ,patrick ,c>d9al ,hayes ,ar*bi%op1 ,new ,york4 ,new ,york1 ,septemb] #af1 #aibf4 ,copyright1 #aibf1 ,,by ,,! ,,macmillan ,,company4 ------- ,set up & electrotyp$4 ,publi%$ ,novemb]1 #aibf4 ,repr9t$1 ,april1 #aibg4 ,septemb]1 #aibg4 ,pr9t$ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ( ,am]ica by ,,! ,,f]ris ,,pr9t+ ,,company1 ,,new ,,york4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,editor',s ,,note ,x is ) diffid5ce t anyone born into ! ,fai? c approa* ! trem5d\s subject ( ,conv]sion4 ,inde$1 x is easi] = "o /ill q unacqua9t$ ) ! ,fai? to approa* t subject ?an x is = "o :o has _h ! advantage ( ! ,fai? f *ildhood4 ,!re is at once a sort ( imp]t95ce 9 approa*+ an exp]i5ce o!r ?an "o's own 7necess>ily m imp]fectly grasp$71 & an ignorance ( ! matt]4 ,^? born into ! ,fai? v (t5 g ?r\gh an exp]i5ce ( _! own p>allel to1 & 9 "s way resembl+1 t exp]i5ce :]eby orig9al /rang]s to ! ,fai? come to see x & to accept x4 ,^? born into ! ,fai? (t51 ,i say1 g ?r\gh an exp]i5ce ( scepticism 9 y\?1 z ! ye>s proce$1 & x is /ill a common ph5om5on 7?\gh n s (t5 to be obs]v$ z x 0 a lifetime ago7 = m5 ( ! ,ca?olic culture1 acqua9t$ ) ! ,*ur* f *ildhood1 to leave x 9 e>ly manhood & nev] to return4 ,b x is n[adays a /ill m frequ5t ph5om5on--& x is to ?is t ,i allude--= ^? to :om scepticism s /rongly appeal$ 9 y\? to discov]1 by an exp]i5ce ( m5 & ( reality 9 all its v>i$ =ms1 t ! transc5d5tal tru?s !y _h be5 taught 9 *ildhood h ! highe/ claims ^u _! matur$ reason4 ,?is exp]i5ce ( ! born ,ca?olic may1 ,i repeat1 be call$ 9 a c]ta9 s5se a ph5om5on ( conv]sion4 ,b x diff]s f conv]sion prop]ly s call$1 :i* r signifies ! gradual discov]y & acceptance ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* by m5 & wom5 :o began life ) no conception ( its exi/5ce3 = :om x _h be5 dur+ _! =mative ye>s no m ?an a "n1 p]haps despis$1 & c]ta9ly correspond+ to no kn[n reality4 ,su* m5 & wom5 conv]ts are p]haps ! *ief factors 9 ! increas+ vigor ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 9 our "t4 ,! admiration :i* ! born ,ca?olic feels = _! action is exactly consonant to t :i* ! ,*ur* 9 its e>li] days %[$ to ! m>tyrs4 ,= ! ^w 8m>tyr0 means 8witness40 ,! ph5om5on ( conv]sion app>5t 9 e class1 affect+ e type ( "*1 is ! great mod]n witness to ! tru? ( ! claim ( ! ,fai?2 to ! fact t ! ,fai? is reality1 & t 9 x alone is ! repose ( reality to be f\nd4 ,9 proportion z m5 "k less & less ( ! subject1 9 t proportion d !y conceive t ! entrants into ! ,city ( ,god are ( "o type1 & 9 t proportion d !y attempt "s simple def9ition ( ! m9d :i* ultimately accepts ,ca?olicism4 ,!y w call x a desire = security2 or an attraction ( ! s5ses su* z is ex]cis$ by music or by v]se4 ,or !y w ascribe x to t p>ticul> sort ( weakness 7pres5t 9 _m m9ds7 :]eby !y are easily dom9at$ & *ang$ 9 mood by ! action ( ano!r4 ,a v little exp]i5ce ( typical conv]ts 9 our "t makes nons5se ( su* !ories4 ,m5 & wom5 ent] by e conceivable gate1 aft] e conceivable process ( sl[ intellectual exam9ation1 ( %ock1 ( vision1 ( moral trial & ev5 ( m]ely intellectual process4 ,!y ent] ?r\gh ! action ( exp&$ exp]i5ce4 ,"s obta9 ?is ?r\gh travel1 "s ?r\gh a read+ ( hi/ory beyond _! fell[s1 "s ?r\gh p]sonal accid5ts ( life4 ,& n only are ! av5ues ( approa* to ! ,fai? inf9ite 9 numb] 7?\gh all conv]g+2 z mu/ be s1 s9ce tru? is "o & error inf9itely divid$71 b ! individual types 9 :om ! process ( conv]sion may be obs]v$ diff] 9 e conceivable fa%ion4 ,:5 y h pr$icat$ ( "o :at emotion or :at reason+ process br\ght him into ! fold1 & y attempt to apply y\r pr$icate exactly to ano!r1 y w f9d a misfit4 ,! cynic ent]s1 & s does ! s5tim5tali/2 & ! fool ent]s & s does ! wise man2 ! p]petual que/ion] & d\bt] & ! man too easily accept+ imm$iate au?ority--!y ea* ent] aft] 8 k9d4 ,y come across an entry into ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* und\bt$ly due to ! spectacle1 admiration & imitation ( "s great "* obs]v$4 ,next day y come across an entry into ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* out ( complete lonel9ess1 & y are a/oni%$ to f9d ! conv]t /ill ignorant ( ! great mass ( ! ,ca?olic effect on "*4 ,& yet aga91 imm$iately aft]1 y w f9d a totally diff]5t ?ird type1 ! man :o ent]s n f lonel9ess1 nor f ! effect ( ano!r m9d1 b :o comes 9 out ( contempt = ! insuffici5cy or ! evil by :i* he has be5 surr\nd$4 ,! ,*ur* is ! natural home ( ! ,human ,_s4 ,! tru? is t if y seek = an explanation ( ! ph5om5on ( conv]sion "u any sy/em :i* bases t ph5om5on on illusion1 y arrive at no answ] to y\r "q4 ,if y imag9e conv]sion to proce$ f ?is or t or ! o!r errone\s or p>ticul> limit$ & insuffici5t cause1 y w soon discov] x to be inexplicable4 ,!re is only "o explanation ( ! ph5om5on--a ph5om5on always pres5t1 b p>ticul>ly arre/+ to ! educat$ man outside ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 9 ! ,engli%-speak+ c\ntries--!re is only "o explanation :i* w acc\nt = ! multiplicity ( su* entries & = ! inf9itely v>i$ quality ( ! m9ds attract$ by ! great *ange2 & t explanation is t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is reality4 ,if a di/ant m\nta9 may be mi/ak5 = a cl\d by _m1 b is recognis$ = a /able "p ( ! _w 7its outl9e fix$ & its quality p]man5t7 by e sort ( obs]v]1 & among ^! especially by m5 fam\s = _! int]e/ 9 ! debate1 = _! acut5ess ( vision & = _! e>li] d\bts1 ! ov]:elm+ presumption is t ! ?+ se5 is a piece ( objective reality4 ,fifty m5 on %ipbo>d /ra9 _! eyes = l&4 ,five1 !n t51 !n tw5ty1 make ! l&-fall & recognise x & e/abli% x = _! fell[s4 ,to ! rema9d]1 :o see x n or :o ?9k x a bank ( fog1 !re is repli$ ! detail ( ! outl9e1 ! "* ( ! po9ts recognis$1 & t by ! mo/ v>i$ & !re=e conv]g5t & conv9c+ witnesses--by "s :o d n desire t l& %\ld be !re at all1 by "s :o dread its approa*1 z well z ^? :o are glad to f9d x1 by "s :o h long mo/ ridicul$ ! idea t x 0 l& at all--& x is 9 ?is conv]g5ce ( witnesses t we h "o out ( ! innum]able pro(s ^u :i* ! rational basis ( our religion reposes4--,! ,editor4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,,page ,i4 ,,introductory3 ,a ,,new ,,religion #ae ,,ii4 ,,! ,,obvi\s ,,blund]s #bg ,,iii4 ,,! ,,real ,,ob/acles #di ,,iv4 ,,! ,,_w ,,inside ,,out #ge ,v4 ,,! ,,exception ,,proves ,,! ,,rule #ic ,,vi4 ,a ,,note ,,on ,,pres5t ,,prospects #aaa ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,introductory ,a ,,new ,,religion ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,*ur* ,,& ,,conv]sion ,,*apt] ,i ,,introductory3 ,a ,,new ,,religion ,! ,ca?olic fai? us$ to be call$ ! ,old ,religion2 b at ! pres5t mom5t x has a recogniz$ place among ! ,new ,religions4 ,?is has no?+ to d ) its tru? or falsehood2 b x is a fact t has a great deal to d ) ! und]/&+ ( ! mod]n _w4 ,x w\ld be v undesirable t mod]n m5 %\ld accept ,ca?olicism m]ely z a novelty2 b x is a novelty4 ,x does act ^u its exi/+ environm5t ) ! peculi> =ce & fre%ness ( a novelty4 ,ev5 ^? :o d5\nce x g5]ally d5\nce x z a novelty2 z an innovation & n m]ely a survival4 ,!y talk ( ! 8advanc$0 p>ty 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&2 !y talk ( ! 8aggression0 ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,:5 !y talk ( an ,extremi/ !y are z likely to mean a ,rituali/ z a ,sociali/4 ,giv5 any normal respectable ,prote/ant family1 ,anglican or ,puritan1 9 ,engl& or ,am]ica1 we %all f9d t ,ca?olicism is actually = practical purposes treat$ z a new religion1 t is1 a revolution4 ,x is n a survival4 ,x is n 9 t s5se an antiquity4 ,x does n necess>ily owe any?+ to tradition4 ,9 places :]e tradition c d no?+ = x1 9 places :]e all ! tradition is aga9/ x1 x is intrud+ on its own m]its2 n z a tradition b a tru?4 ,! fa!r ( "s su* ,anglican or ,am]ican ,puritan family w f9d1 v (t51 t all 8 *ildr5 are break+ away f 8 own m or less ,*ri/ian compromise 7reg>d$ z normal 9 ! n9ete5? c5tury7 & go+ (f 9 v>i\s directions aft] v>i\s fai?s or fa%ions :i* he w\ld call fads4 ,"o ( 8 sons w become a ,sociali/ & hang up a portrait ( ,l592 "o ( 8 daught]s w become a ,spirituali/ & play ) a plan*ette2 ano!r daught] w g ov] to ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce & x is q likely t ano!r son w g ov] to ,rome4 ,! po9t is1 = ! mom5t1 t f ! po9t ( view ( ! fa!r1 & ev5 9 a s5se ( ! family1 all ^! ?+s act aft] ! mann] ( new religions1 ( great movem5ts1 ( en?usiasms t c>ry "y p (f _! feet & leave old] p bewild]$ or annoy$4 ,ca?olicism inde$1 ev5 m ?an ! o!rs1 is (t5 spok5 ( z if x 7 actually "o ( ! wild passions ( y\?4 ,optimi/ic aunts & uncles say t ! y\? w 8get ov] x10 z if x 7 a *ildi% love affair or t un=tunate bus9ess ) ! b>maid4 ,d>k] & /]n] aunts & uncles1 p]haps at a r e>li] p]iod1 us$ actually to talk ab\t x z an indec5t indulg5ce1 z if its lit]ature 7 lit]ally a sort ( pornography4 ,newman rem>ks q naturally1 z if !re 7 no?+ odd ab\t x at ! "t1 t an und]graduate f\nd ) an ascetic manual or a book ( mona/ic m$itations 0 "u a sort ( cl\d or ta9t1 z hav+ be5 caught ) 8a bad book0 9 8 possession4 ,he _h be5 wall[+ 9 ! s5sual pleasure ( ,nones or inflam+ 8 lu/s by contemplat+ an incorrect numb] ( c&les4 ,x is p]haps no long] ! cu/om to reg>d conv]sion z a =m ( dissipation2 b x is /ill common to reg>d conv]sion z a =m ( revolt4 ,& z reg>ds ! e/abli%$ conv5tion ( mu* ( ! mod]n _w1 x is a revolt4 ,! wor?y m]*ant ( ! middle class1 ! wor?y f>m] ( ! ,middle ,we/1 :5 he s5ds 8 son to college1 does n[ feel a fa9t al>m le/ ! boy %\ld fall among ?ieves1 9 ! s5se ( ,communi/s2 b he has ! same sort ( fe> le/ he %\ld fall among ,ca?olics4 ,n[ he has no fe> le/ he %\ld fall among ,calv9i/s4 ,he has no fe> t 8 *ildr5 w become sev5te5?-c5tury ,supralaps>ians1 h[ev] mu* he may dislike t doctr9e4 ,he is n ev5 p>ticul>ly tr\bl$ by ! possibility ( _! adopt+ ! extreme solifidian conceptions once common among "s ( ! m extravagant ,me?odi/s4 ,he is n likely to await ) t]ror ! telegram t w in=m him t 8 son has become a ,fif?-,mon>*y man1 any m ?an t he has jo9$ ! ,albig5sians4 ,he does n exactly lie awake at night wond]+ :e!r ,tom at ,ox=d has become a ,lu!ran any m ?an a ,loll>d4 ,all ^! religions he dimly recognises z dead religions2 or at any rate z old religions4 ,& he is only fright5$ ( new religions4 ,he is only fright5$ ( ^? fre%1 provocative1 p>adoxical new notions t fly to ! "y p's heads4 ,b among/ ^! dang]\s juv5ile attractions he does 9 practice class ! fre%ness & novelty ( ,rome4 ,n[ ?is is r odd2 because ,rome is n s v new4 ,among ^! annoy+ new religions1 "o is r an old religion2 b x is ! only old religion t is s new4 ,:5 x 0 orig9ally & really new1 no d\bt a ,roman fa!r (t5 f\nd himself 9 ! same position z ! ,anglican or ,puritan fa!r4 ,he too might f9d all 8 *ildr5 go+ /range ways & des]t+ ! h\sehold gods & ! sacr$ temple ( ! ,capitol4 ,he too might f9d t "o ( ^? *ildr5 _h jo9$ ! ,*ri/ians 9 _! ,ecclesia & possibly 9 _! ,catacombs4 ,b he w\ld h f\nd t1 ( 8 o!r *ildr51 "o c>$ = no?+ b ! ,my/]ies ( ,orpheus1 ano!r 0 incl9$ to foll[ ,mi?ras1 ano!r 0 a ,neo-,py?agorean :o _h le>n$ veget>ianism f ! ,h9doos1 & s on4 ,?\gh ! ,roman fa!r1 unlike ! ,victorian fa!r1 might h ! pleasure ( ex]cis+ ! patria pote/as & cutt+ (f ! heads ( all ! h]etics1 he c\ld n cut (f ! /ream ( all ! h]esies4 ,only by ?is "t mo/ ( ! /reams h run r dry4 ,x is n[ seldom necess>y = ! anxi\s p>5t to w>n 8 *ildr5 aga9/ ! undesirable society ( ! ,bull ( ,mi?ras1 or ev5 to wean him f ! exclusive contemplation ( ,orpheus2 & ?\gh we h veget>ians always ) u1 !y mo/ly "k m ab\t proteids ?an ab\t ,py?agoras4 ,b t o!r y\?ful extravagance is /ill y\?ful4 ,t o!r new religion is once aga9 new4 ,t "o fleet+ fa%ion has refus$ to fleet2 & t anci5t bit ( mod]nity is /ill mod]n4 ,x is /ill to ! ,prote/ant p>5t n[ exactly :at x 0 to ! pagan p>5t !n4 ,we might say simply t x is a nuisance2 b anyh[ x is a novelty4 ,x is n simply :at ! fa!r is us$ to1 or ev5 :at ! son is us$ to4 ,x is com+ 9 z some?+ fre% & di/urb+1 :e!r z x came to ! ,greeks :o 7 always seek+ "s new ?+1 or z x came to ! %eph]ds :o fir/ he>d ! cry ^u ! hills ( ! good news t our language calls ! ,gospel4 ,we c expla9 ! fact ( ! ,greeks 9 ! "t ( ,/4 ,paul reg>d+ x z a new ?+1 because x 0 a new ?+4 ,b :o w expla9 :y x is /ill z new to ! la/ ( ! conv]ts z x 0 to ! fir/ ( ! %eph]ds8 ,x is z if a man a hundr$ ye>s old ent]$ ! ,olympian games among ! "y ,greek a?letes2 :i* w\ld surely h be5 ! basis ( a ,greek leg5d4 ,!re is some?+ almo/ z leg5d>y ab\t ! religion t is two ?\s& ye>s old n[ appe>+ z a rival ( ! new religions4 ,t is :at has to be expla9$ & _c be expla9$ away2 no?+ c turn ! leg5d into a my?4 ,we h se5 ) our own eyes & he>d ) our own e>s ?is great mod]n qu>rel betwe5 "y ,ca?olics & old ,prote/ants2 & x is ! fir/ /ep to recognise 9 any /udy ( mod]n conv]sion4 ,i am n go+ to talk ab\t numb]s & /ati/ics1 ?\gh ,i may say some?+ ab\t !m lat]4 ,! fir/ fact to realise is a diff]5ce ( sub/ance :i* falsifies all ! diff]5ce ( size4 ,! great majority ( ,prote/ant bodies to-day1 :e!r !y are /rong or weak1 are n /r5g!n$ 9 ?is p>ticul> fa%ion2 by ! actual attraction ( _! new foll[]s to _! old doctr9es4 ,a "y man w sudd5ly become a ,ca?olic prie/1 or ev5 a ,ca?olic monk1 because he has a spontane\s & ev5 impati5t p]sonal en?usiasm = ! doctr9e ( ,virg9ity z x appe>$ to ,/4 ,ca!r9e or ,/4 ,cl>e4 ,b h[ _m m5 become ,bapti/ m9i/]s because !y h a p]sonal horror ( ! idea ( an innoc5t infant com+ unconsci\sly to ,*ri/8 ,h[ _m hone/ ,presbyt]ian m9i/]s 9 ,scotl& really want to g back to ,john ,knox1 z a ,ca?olic my/ic might want to g back to ,john ( ! ,cross8 ,^! m5 inh]it positions :i* !y feel !y c hold ) reasonable consi/5cy & g5]al agreem5t2 b !y d inh]it !m4 ,= !m religion is tradition4 ,we ,ca?olics naturally d n sne] at tradition2 b we say t 9 ?is case x is really tradition & no?+ else4 ,n "o man 9 a hundr$ ( ^! p w\ld ev] h jo9$ 8 pres5t communion if he _h be5 born outside x4 ,n "o man 9 a ?\s& ( !m w\ld h inv5t$ any?+ l 8 *ur* =mulas if !y _h n be5 laid d[n = him4 ,none ( !m has any real reason = be+ 9 _! own p>ticul> *ur*1 :atev] good reason !y may /ill h = be+ outside ours4 ,9 o!r words1 ! old cre$ ( _! communion has ceas$ to function z a fre% & /imulat+ idea4 ,x is at be/ a motto or a w> cry & at ! wor/ a cat*word4 ,b x is n meet+ contempor>y ideas l a contempor>y idea4 ,9 _! "t & 9 _! turn we believe t ^? o!r contempor>y ideas w also prove _! mortality by hav+ also become mottoes & cat*words & traditions4 ,a c5tury or two h5ce ,spiritualism may be a tradition & ,socialism may be a tradition & ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce may be a tradition4 ,b ,ca?olicism w n be a tradition4 ,x w /ill be a nuisance & a new & dang]\s ?+4 ,^! are ! g5]al consid]ations :i* gov]n any p]sonal /udy ( conv]sion to ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,! ,*ur* has def5d$ tradition 9 a "t :i* /upidly d5i$ & despis$ tradition4 ,b t is simply because ! ,*ur* is always ! only ?+ def5d+ :atev] is at ! mom5t /upidly despis$4 ,x is already beg9n+ to appe> z ! only *ampion ( reason 9 ! tw5tie? c5tury1 z x 0 ! only *ampion ( tradition 9 ! n9ete5?4 ,we "k t ! high] ma!matics is try+ to d5y t two & two make f\r & ! high] my/icism to imag9e some?+ t is beyond good & evil4 ,amid all ^! anti-rational philosophies1 ours w rema9 ! only rational philosophy4 ,9 ! same _s ! ,*ur* did inde$ po9t out ! value ( tradition to a "t :i* treat$ x z q valueless4 ,! n9ete5?-c5tury neglect ( tradition & mania = m]e docum5ts 7 altoge!r nons5sical4 ,!y am\nt$ to say+ t m5 always tell lies to *ildr5 b m5 nev] make mi/akes 9 books4 ,b ?\gh our sympa?ies are traditional because !y are human1 x is n t "p ( ! ?+ :i* /amps x z div9e4 ,! m>k ( ! ,fai? is n tradition2 x is conv]sion4 ,x is ! miracle by :i* m5 f9d tru? 9 spite ( tradition & (t5 ) ! r5d+ ( all ! roots ( humanity4 ,x is ) ! nature ( ?is process t ,i propose to deal2 & x is difficult to deal ) x )\t introduc+ some?+ ( a p]sonal elem5t4 ,my own is only a v trivial case b naturally x is ! case ,i "k be/2 & ,i %all be compell$ 9 ! pages t foll[ to take _m illu/rations f x4 ,i h !re=e ?\ght x well to put fir/ ?is g5]al note on ! nature ( ! movem5t 9 my "t2 to %[ t ,i am well aw>e t x is a v mu* l>g] & ev5 a v mu* lat] movem5t ?an is impli$ 9 describ+ my own life or g5]ation4 ,i believe x w be m & m an issue = ! ris+ g5]ation & = ! g5]ation aft] t1 z !y discov] ! actual alt]native 9 ! awful actualities ( our "t4 ,& ,ca?olics :5 !y /& up toge!r & s+ 8,fai? ( our ,fa!rs0 may realise almo/ ) amusem5t t !y might well be s++ 8,fai? ( our ,*ildr540 ,& 9 _m cases ! return has be5 s rec5t z almo/ to des]ve ! description ( a ,*ildr5's ,crusade4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,! ,,obvi\s ,,blund]s ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,! ,,obvi\s ,,blund]s ,i h not$ t ,ca?olicism really is 9 ! tw5tie? c5tury :at x 0 9 ! second c5tury2 x is ! ,new ,religion4 ,inde$ its v antiquity pres]ves an attitude ( novelty4 ,i h always ?\ght x /rik+ & ev5 /irr+ t 9 ! v5]able invocation ( ! 8,tantum ,ergo10 :i* = u seems to come load$ ) accumulat$ ages1 !re is /ill ! language ( innovation2 ( ! antique docum5t t mu/ yield to a new rite4 ,= u ! hymn is some?+ ( an antique docum5t itself4 ,b ! rite is always new4 ,b if a conv]t is to write ( conv]sion he mu/ try to retrace 8 /eps out ( t %r9e back into t ultimate wild]ness :]e he once really believ$ t ?is et]nal y\? 0 only ! 8,old ,religion40 ,x is a ?+ exce$+ly difficult to d & n (t5 done well1 & ,i = "o h little hope ( do+ x ev5 tol]ably well4 ,! difficulty 0 express$ to me by ano!r conv]t :o said1 8,i _c expla9 :y ,i am a ,ca?olic2 because n[ t ,i am a ,ca?olic ,i _c imag9e myself z any?+ else40 ,nev]!less1 x is "r to make ! imag9ative ef=t4 ,x is n bigotry to be c]ta9 we are "r2 b x is bigotry to be unable to imag9e h[ we might possibly h gone wrong4 ,x is my duty to try to und]/& :at ,h4 ,g4 ,wells c possibly mean :5 he says t ! m$ival ,*ur* did n c>e = education b only = impos+ dogmas2 x is my duty to speculate 7h[ev] d>kly7 on :at c h made an intellig5t man l ,arnold ,b5nett /one-bl9d to all ! pla9e/ facts ab\t ,spa92 x is my duty to f9d if ,i c ! ?read ( connect$ ?\ght 9 ,george ,moore's v>i\s condemnations ( ,ca?olic ,irel&2 & x is equally my duty to lab\r till ,i und]/& ! /range m5tal /ate ( ,g4 ,k4 ,*e/]ton :5 he really assum$ t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 0 a sort ( ru9$ abbey1 almo/ z des]t$ z ,/oneh5ge4 ,i mu/ say fir/ t1 9 my own case1 x 0 at wor/ a matt] ( slights r ?an sl&]s4 ,_m conv]ts f> m important ?an ,i h _h to wre/le ) a hundr$ devils ( h[l+ falsehood2 ) a sw>m ( lies & libels4 ,i owe x to ! lib]al & ,univ]sali/ atmosph]e ( my family1 ( ,/op=d ,brooke & ! ,unit>ian prea*]s !y foll[$1 t ,i 0 always j suffici5tly enlight5$ to be out ( ! rea* ( ,m>ia ,monk4 ,nev]!less1 z ?is is b a private privilege = :i* ,i h to be ?ankful1 x is necess>y to say some?+ ( :at ,i might be tempt$ to call ! obvi\s sl&]s1 b t bett] m5 ?an ,i h n always se5 t ! sl&] 0 obvi\s4 ,i d n ?9k t !y ex]cise mu* influ5ce on ! g5]ation t is y\ng] ?an m9e4 ,! wor/ temptation ( ! mo/ pagan y\? is n s mu* to d5\nce monks = break+ _! v[ z to wond] at !m = keep+ x4 ,b !re is a /ate ( transition t mu/ be all[$ = 9 :i* a vague ,prote/ant prejudice w\ld r l to h x bo? ways4 ,!re is /ill a sort ( woolly-m9d$ phili/9e :o w\ld be cont5t to consid] a fri> a knave = 8 un*a/ity & a fool = 8 *a/ity4 ,9 o!r words1 ^! dy+ calumnies are dy+ b n dead2 & !re are /ill en\gh p :o may /ill be held back by su* crude & clumsy ob/acles t x is necess>y to "s ext5t to cle> !m away4 ,aft] t we c consid] :at may be call$ ! real ob/acles1 ! real difficulties we f9d1 :i*1 z a fact1 are g5]ally ! v opposite ( ! difficulties we are told ab\t4 ,b let u consid] ! evid5ce ( all ^! ?+s be+ black1 be=e we g on to ! inconv5i5t fact ( _! be+ :ite4 ,! usual prote/ ( ! ,prote/ant1 t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome is afraid ( ! ,bible1 did n1 z ,i %all expla9 9 a mom5t1 h any great t]rors = me at any "t4 ,?is 0 by no m]it ( my own1 b by ! accid5t ( my age & situation4 ,= ,i grew up 9 a _w 9 :i* ! ,prote/ants1 :o _h j prov$ t ,rome did n believe ! ,bible1 7 excit$ly discov]+ t !y did n believe ! ,bible !mselves4 ,"s ( !m ev5 tri$ to comb9e ! two condemnations & say t !y 7 /eps ( progress4 ,! next /ep 9 progress consi/$ 9 a man kick+ 8 fa!r = hav+ lock$ up a book ( su* beauty & value1 a book :i* ! son !n proce$$ to te> into a ?\s& pieces4 ,i e>ly discov]$ t progress is worse ?an ,prote/antism s f> z /upidity is conc]n$4 ,b mo/ ( ! free-?9k]s :o 7 fri5ds ( m9e happ5$ to ?9k suffici5tly freely to see t ! ,high] ,criticism 0 mu* m ( an attack on ,prote/ant ,bible-wor%ip ?an on ,roman au?ority4 ,anyh[1 my family & fri5ds 7 m conc]n$ ) ! op5+ ( ! book ( ,d>w9 ?an ! book ( ,daniel2 & mo/ ( !m reg>d$ ! ,hebrew ,scriptures z if !y 7 ,hittite sculptures4 ,b1 ev5 !n1 x w\ld seem odd to wor%ip ! sculptures z gods & !n sma% !m z idols & /ill g on blam+ somebody else = n hav+ wor%ipp$ !m en\gh4 ,b "h aga9 x is h>d = me to "k h[ f> my own exp]i5ce is repres5tative1 or :e!r x w\ld n be well to say m ( ^! purely ,prote/ant prejudices & d\bts ?an ,i1 f my own exp]i5ce1 am able to say4 ,! ,*ur* is a h\se ) a hundr$ gates2 & no two m5 ent] at exactly ! same angle4 ,m9e 0 at lea/ z mu* ,agno/ic z ,anglican1 ?\gh ,i accept$ = a "t ! bord]l& ( ,anglicanism2 b only on ! assumption t x c\ld really be ,anglo-,ca?olicism4 ,!re is a di/9ction ( ultimate int5tion !re :i* 9 ! vague ,engli% atmosph]e is (t5 miss$4 ,x is n a diff]5ce ( degree b ( def9ite aim4 ,!re are ,high ,*ur*m5 z mu* z ,l[ ,*ur*m5 :o are conc]n$ fir/ & la/ to save ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,"s ( !m ?9k x c be sav$ by call+ x ,ca?olic1 or mak+ x ,ca?olic1 or believ+ t x is ,ca?olic2 b t is :at !y want to save4 ,b ,i did n />t out ) ! idea ( sav+ ! ,engli% ,*ur*1 b ( f9d+ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,if ! two 7 "o1 s mu* ! bett]2 b ,i _h nev] conceiv$ ( ,ca?olicism z a sort ( %[y attribute or attraction to be tack$ on to my own national body1 b z ! inmo/ s\l ( ! true body1 :]ev] x might be4 ,x might be said t ,anglo-,ca?olicism 0 simply my own uncomplet$ conv]sion to ,ca?olicism4 ,b x 0 f a position orig9ally mu* m deta*$ & indef9ite t ,i _h be5 conv]t$1 an atmosph]e if n agno/ic at lea/ pan!i/ic or ,unit>ian4 ,to ?is ,i owe ! fact t ,i f9d x v difficult to take "s ( ! ,prote/ant propositions ev5 s]i\sly4 ,:at is any man :o has be5 9 ! real out] _w1 = in/ance1 to make ( ! ev]la/+ cry t ,ca?olic traditions are condemn$ by ! ,bible8 ,x indicates a jumble ( topsy-turvy te/s & tail-=emo/ argum5ts1 ( :i* ,i nev] c\ld at any "t see ! s5se4 ,! ord9>y s5sible sceptic or pagan is /&+ 9 ! /reet 79 ! supreme "* ( ! man 9 ! /reet7 & he sees a procession g by ( ! prie/s ( "s /range cult1 c>ry+ _! object ( wor%ip "u a canopy1 "s ( !m we>+ high head-dresses & c>ry+ symbolical /affs1 o!rs c>ry+ scrolls & sacr$ records1 o!rs c>ry+ sacr$ images & light$ c&les be=e !m1 o!rs sacr$ relics 9 caskets or cases1 & s on4 ,i c und]/& ! spectator say+1 8,?is is all hocus-pocus02 ,i c ev5 und]/& him1 9 mom5ts ( irritation1 break+ up ! procession1 ?r[+ d[n ! images1 te>+ up ! scrolls1 danc+ on ! prie/s & any?+ else t might express t g5]al view4 ,i c und]/& 8 say+1 8,y\r crozi]s are bo%1 y\r c&les are bo%1 y\r /atues & scrolls & relics & all ! re/ ( x are bo%40 ,b 9 :at conceivable frame ( m9d does he ru% 9 to select "o p>ticul> scroll ( ! scriptures ( ?is "o p>ticul> gr\p 7a scroll :i* _h always belong$ to !m & be5 a "p ( _! hocus-pocus1 if x 0 hocus-pocus72 :y 9 ! _w %\ld ! man 9 ! /reet say t "o p>ticul> scroll 0 n bo%1 b 0 ! "o & only tru? by :i* all ! o!r ?+s 7 to be condemn$8 ,:y %\ld x n be z sup]/iti\s to wor%ip ! scrolls z ! /atues1 ( t "o p>ticul> procession8 ,:y %\ld x n be z reasonable to pres]ve ! /atues z ! scrolls1 by ! t5ets ( t p>ticul> cre$8 ,to say to ! prie/s1 8,y\r /atues & scrolls are condemn$ by our common s5se10 is s5sible4 ,to say1 8,y\r /atues are condemn$ by y\r scrolls1 & we are go+ to wor%ip "o "p ( y\r procession & wreck ! re/10 is n s5sible f any /&po9t1 lea/ ( all t ( ! man 9 ! /reet4 ,simil>ly1 ,i c\ld nev] take s]i\sly ! fe> ( ! prie/1 z ( some?+ unnatural & unholy2 a dang]\s man 9 ! home4 ,:y %\ld a man :o want$ to be wick$ encumb] himself ) special & elaborate promises to be good8 ,!re might sometimes be a reason = a prie/ be+ a pr(ligate4 ,b :at 0 ! reason = a pr(ligate be+ a prie/8 ,!re are _m m lucrative walks ( life 9 :i* a p]son ) su* %9+ tal5ts = vice & villa9y might h made a bright] use ( 8 gifts4 ,:y %\ld a man encumb] himself ) v[s t nobody c\ld expect him to take & he did n himself expect to keep8 ,w\ld any man make himself poor 9 ord] t he might become av>ici\s2 or take a v[ ( *a/ity frightfully difficult to keep 9 ord] to get into a little m tr\ble :5 he did n keep x8 ,all t e>ly & s5sational picture ( ! s9s ( ,rome always seem$ to me silly ev5 :5 ,i 0 a boy or an unbeliev]2 & ,i _c describe h[ ,i pass$ out ( x because ,i 0 nev] 9 x4 ,i rememb] ask+ "s fri5ds at ,cambridge1 p ( ! ,puritan tradition1 :y 9 ! _w !y 7 s afraid ( ,papi/s2 :y a prie/ 9 somebody's h\se 0 a p]il or an ,iri% s]vant ! beg9n+ ( a pe/il5ce4 ,i ask$ !m :y !y c\ld n simply disagree ) ,papi/s & say s1 z !y did ) ,!osophi/s or ,an>*i/s4 ,!y seem$ at once pleas$ & %ock$ ) my d>+1 z if ,i _h und]tak5 to conv]t a burgl> or tame a mad dog4 ,p]haps _! al>m 0 really wis] ?an my bravado4 ,anyh[1 ,i _h n !n ! mo/ %ad[y notion t ! burgl> w\ld conv]t me4 ,t1 h[ev]1 ,i am incl9$ to ?9k1 is ! subconsci\s intuition 9 ! :ole bus9ess4 ,x mu/ ei!r mean t !y suspect t our religion has some?+ ab\t x s wrong t ! h9t ( x is bad = anybody2 or else t x has some?+ s "r t ! pres5ce ( x w\ld conv]t anybody4 ,to d !m ju/ice1 ,i ?9k mo/ ( !m d>kly suspect ! second & n ! fir/4 ,a %ade m plausible ?an ! notion t ,popi% prie/s m]ely seek aft] evil 0 ! notion t !y are exceptionally ready to seek good by means ( evil4 ,9 vulg> language1 x is ! notion t if !y are n s5sual !y are always sly4 ,to dissipate ?is is a m]e matt] ( exp]i5ce2 b be=e ,i _h any exp]i5ce ,i _h se5 "s objections to ! ?+ ev5 9 !ory4 ,! !ory attribut$ to ! ,jesuits 0 v (t5 almo/ id5tical ) ! practice adopt$ by ne>ly ev]ybody ,i knew4 ,ev]ybody 9 society practis$ v]bal economies1 equivocations & (t5 direct fictions1 )\t any s5se ( ess5tial falsehood4 ,e g5tleman 0 expect$ to say he w\ld be delight$ to d9e ) a bore2 e lady said t somebody else's baby 0 beautiful if %e ?\ght x z ugly z s92 = !y did n ?9k x a s9 to avoid say+ ugly ?+s4 ,?is might be "r or wrong2 b x 0 absurd to pillory half a doz5 ,popi% prie/s = a crime committ$ daily by half a million ,prote/ant laym54 ,! only diff]5ce 0 t ! ,jesuits _h be5 worri$ en\gh ab\t ! matt] to try to make rules & limitations sav+ z mu* v]bal v]acity z possible2 :]eas ! happy ,prote/ants 7 n worri$ ab\t x at all1 b told lies f morn+ to night z m]rily & innoc5tly z ! birds s+ 9 ! trees4 ,! fact is1 ( c\rse1 t ! mod]n _w is full ( an utt]ly lawless casui/ry because ! ,jesuits 7 prev5t$ f mak+ a lawful casui/ry4 ,b e man is a casui/ or a lunatic4 ,x is true t ?is g5]al tru? 0 hidd5 f _m by c]ta9 def9ite ass]tions4 ,i c only call !m1 9 simple language1 ,prote/ant lies ab\t ,ca?olic ly+4 ,! m5 :o repeat$ !m 7 n necess>ily ly+1 because !y 7 repeat+4 ,b ! /atem5ts 7 ( ! same lucid & precise ord] z a /atem5t t ! ,pope has ?ree legs or t ,rome is situat$ at ! ,nor? ,pole4 ,!re is no m d\bt ab\t _! nature ?an t4 ,"o ( !m1 = in/ance1 is ! positive /atem5t1 once he>d ev]y:]e & /ill he>d (t53 8,roman ,ca?olics are taught t any?+ is lawful if done = ! good ( ! ,*ur*40 ,?is is n ! fact2 & !re is an end ( x4 ,x ref]s to a def9ite /atem5t ( an in/itution ^: /atem5ts are v def9ite2 & x c be prov$ to be totally false4 ,"h z always ! critics _c see t !y are try+ to h x bo? ways4 ,!y are always compla9+ t our cre$ is cut & dri$2 t we are told :at to believe & mu/ believe no?+ else2 t x is all writt5 d[n = u 9 bulls & confessions ( fai?4 ,9 s f> z ?is is true1 x br+s a matt] l ?is to ! po9t ( legal & lit]al tru?1 :i* c be te/$2 & s te/$1 x is a lie4 ,b ev5 "h ,i 0 sav$ at a v e>ly /age by notic+ a curi\s fact4 ,i notic$ t ^? :o 7 mo/ ready to blame prie/s = rely+ on rigid =mulas seldom took ! tr\ble to f9d out :at ! =mulas 74 ,i happ5$ to pick up "s ( ! amus+ pamphlets ( ,james ,britt51 z ,i might h pick$ up any o!r pamphlets ( any o!r propag&a2 b !y set me on ! track ( t delightful bran* ( lit]ature :i* he call$ ,prote/ant ,fiction4 ,i f\nd "s ( t fiction on my own acc\nt1 dipp+ into novels by ,joseph ,hock+ & o!rs4 ,i am only conc]n$ ) !m "h to illu/rate ?is p>ticul> & curi\s fact ab\t exactitude4 ,i c\ld n und]/& :y ^! romanc]s nev] took ! tr\ble to f9d out a few elem5t>y facts ab\t ! ?+ !y d5\nc$4 ,! facts might easily h help$ ! d5unciation1 :]e ! fictions discr$it$ x4 ,!re 7 any numb] ( real ,ca?olic doctr9es ,i %\ld !n h ?\ght disgraceful to ! ,*ur*4 ,!re are any numb] :i* ,i c /ill easily imag9e be+ made to look disgraceful to ! ,*ur*4 ,b ! enemies ( ! ,*ur* nev] f\nd ^! real rocks ( (f5ce4 ,!y nev] look$ = !m4 ,!y nev] look$ = any?+4 ,!y seem$ to h simply made up out ( _! own heads a numb] ( phrases1 su* z a ,sc>let ,woman ( defici5t intellect might be suppos$ to laun* on ! _w2 & left x at t4 ,b\ndless fre$om reign$2 x 0 n treat$ z if x 7 a "q ( fact at all4 ,a prie/ might say any?+ ab\t ! ,fai?2 because a ,prote/ant might say any?+ ab\t ! prie/4 ,^! novels 7 padd$ ) pron\ncem5ts l ?is "o1 = in/ance1 :i* ,i happ5 to rememb]3 8,disobey+ a prie/ is ! "o s9 = :i* !re is no absolution4 ,we t]m x a res]v$ case40 ,n[ obvi\sly a man writ+ l t is simply imag9+ :at might exi/2 x has nev] occurr$ to him to g & ask if x does exi/4 ,he has he>d ! phrase 8a res]v$ case0 & consid]s1 9 a poetic rev]ie1 :at he %all make x mean4 ,he does n g & ask ! ne>e/ prie/ :at x does mean4 ,he does n look x up 9 an encyclopdia or any ord9>y "w ( ref]5ce4 ,!re is no d\bt ab\t ! fact t x simply means a case res]v$ = ecclesia/ical sup]iors & n to be settl$ f9ally by ! prie/4 ,t may be a fact to be d5\nc$2 b anyh[ x is a fact4 ,b ! man mu* pref]s to d5\nce 8 own fancy4 ,any manual w\ld tell him t !re is no s9 8= :i* !re is no absolution02 n disobey+ ! prie/2 n assass9at+ ! ,pope4 ,x w\ld be easy to f9d out ^! facts & q easy to base a ,prote/ant invective ^u !m4 ,x puzzl$ me v mu*1 ev5 at t e>ly /age1 to imag9e :y p br++ controv]sial *>ges aga9/ a p[]ful & prom95t in/itution %\ld ?us neglect to te/ _! own case1 & %\ld draw 9 ?is r&om way on _! own imag9ation4 ,x did n make me any m incl9$ to be a ,ca?olic2 9 ^? days ! v idea ( su* a ?+ w\ld h seem$ crazy4 ,b x did save me f swall[+ all ! solid & solemn ass]tion ab\t :at ,jesuits said & did4 ,i did n accept q s completely z o!rs ! well-asc]ta9$ & widely accept$ fact t 8,roman ,ca?olics may d any?+ = ! good ( ! ,*ur*02 because ,i _h already le>n$ to smile at equally accept$ tru?s l 8,disobey+ a prie/ is ! "o s9 = :i* !re is no absolution40 ,i nev] dream$ t ! ,roman religion 0 true2 b ,i knew t its accus]s1 = "s reason or o!r1 7 curi\sly inaccurate4 ,x is /range to me to g back to ^! ?+s n[1 & to ?9k t ,i ev] took !m ev5 z s]i\sly z t4 ,b ,i 0 n v s]i\s ev5 !n2 & c]ta9ly ,i 0 n s]i\s long4 ,! la/ l+]+ %ad[ ( ! ,jesuit1 glid+ beh9d curta9s & conceal+ himself 9 cupbo>ds1 fad$ f my "y life ab\t ! "t :5 ,i fir/ caught a di/ant glimpse ( ! late ,fa!r ,b]n>d ,vaughan4 ,he 0 ! only ,jesuit ,i ev] knew 9 ^? days2 & z y c\ld g5]ally he> him half a mile away1 he seem$ to be ill-select$ = ! duties ( a curta9-glid]4 ,x has always /ruck me z curi\s t ?is ,jesuit rais$ a /orm by refus+ to be ,jesuitical 79 ! j\rnalese s5se ,i mean71 by refus+ to sub/itute smoo? equivocation & v]bal evasion = a brute fact4 ,because he talk$ ab\t 8kill+ ,g]mans0 :5 ,g]mans _h to be kill$1 all our %ifty & %amefac$ morality 0 %ock$ at him4 ,& none ( ^? prote/+ ,prote/ants took ?\ght = a mom5t to realise t !y 7 %[+ all ! %uffl+ ins9c]ity !y attribut$ to ! ,jesuits1 & ! ,jesuit 0 %[+ all ! pla9 c&\r t !y claim$ = ! ,prote/ant4 ,i c\ld give a great _m o!r in/ances besides ^! ,i h giv5 ( ! hidd5 ,bible1 ! pr(ligate prie/ or ! trea*]\s ,jesuit4 ,i c\ld g /eadily ?r\gh ! li/ ( all ^! m old-fa%ion$ *>ges aga9/ ,rome & %[ h[ !y affect$ me1 or r :y !y did n affect me4 ,b my only purpose "h is to po9t out1 z a prelim9>y1 t !y did n affect me at all4 ,i _h all ! difficulties t a hea!n w\ld h _h 9 becom+ a ,ca?olic 9 ! f\r? c5tury4 ,i _h v few ( ! difficulties t a ,prote/ant _h1 f ! sev5te5? to ! n9ete5?4 ,& ,i owe ?is to m5 ^: memories ,i %all always hon\r2 to my fa!r & 8 circle & ! lit]>y tradition ( m5 l ,george ,macdonald & ! ,univ]sali/s ( ! ,victorian ,age4 ,if ,i 0 born on ! wrong side ( ! ,roman wall1 at lea/ ,i 0 n born on ! wrong side ( ! ,no ,pop]y qu>rel2 & if ,i did n inh]it a fully civilis$ fai?1 nei!r did ,i inh]it a b>b>ian feud4 ,! p ,i 0 born among/ wi%$ to be j to ,ca?olics if !y did n always und]/& !m2 & ,i %\ld be v ?ankless if ,i did n record ( !m t 7l a v mu* m valuable conv]t7 ,i c say ,i 0 born free4 ,i w add "o example to illu/rate ?is po9t1 because x leads u on to l>g] matt]s4 ,aft] a long "t--,i might almo/ say aft] a lifetime--,i h at la/ begun to realise :at ! wor?y ,lib]al or ,sociali/ ( ,balham or ,batt]sea really means :5 he says he is an ,int]nationali/ & t humanity %\ld be pref]r$ to ! n>r[ness ( nations4 ,x dawn$ on me q sudd5ly1 aft] ,i _h talk$ to su* a man = _m h\rs1 t ( c\rse he _h really be5 br\ght up to believe t ,god's ,engli%m5 7 ! ,*os5 ,race4 ,v likely 8 fa!r or uncle actually ?\ght !y 7 ! lo/ ,t5 ,tribes4 ,anyh[1 ev]y?+ f 8 daily pap] to 8 weekly s]mon assum$ t !y 7 ! salt ( ! e>?1 & especially t !y 7 ! salt ( ! sea4 ,8 p _h nev] ?\ght outside _! ,briti% nationality4 ,!y liv$ 9 an ,empire on :i* ! sun nev] set1 or possibly nev] rose4 ,_! ,*ur* 0 emphatically ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&--ev5 if x 0 a *apel4 ,_! religion 0 ! ,bible t w5t ev]y:]e ) ! ,union ,jack4 ,& :5 ,i realis$ t1 ,i realis$ ! :ole /ory4 ,t 0 :y !y 7 excit$ by ! exce$+ly dull !ory ( ! ,int]nationali/4 ,t 0 :y ! bro!rhood ( nations1 :i* to me 0 a truism1 to !m 0 a trumpet4 ,t 0 :y x seem$ su* a ?rill+ p>adox to say t we mu/ love =eign]s2 x _h 9 x ! div9e p>adox t we mu/ love enemies4 ,t 0 :y ! ,int]nationali/ 0 always plann+ deputations & visits to =eign capitals & he>t-to-he>t talks & h&s across ! sea4 ,x 0 ! m>vel ( discov]+ t =eign]s _h h&s1 let alone he>ts4 ,!re 0 9 t excitem5t a sort ( /ifl$ cry3 8,look6 ,fr5*m5 also h two legs6 ,see6 ,g]mans h noses 9 ! same place z we60 ,n[ a ,ca?olic1 especially a born ,ca?olic1 c nev] und]/& t attitude1 because f ! fir/ 8 :ole religion is root$ 9 ! unity ( ! race ( ,adam1 ! "o & only ,*os5 ,race4 ,he is loyal to 8 own c\ntry2 inde$ he is g5]ally ard5tly loyal to x1 su* local affections be+ 9 o!r ways v natural to 8 religi\s life1 ) its %r9es & relics4 ,b j z ! relic foll[s ^u ! religion1 s ! local loyalty foll[s on ! univ]sal bro!rhood ( all m54 ,! ,ca?olic says1 8,( c\rse we mu/ love all m52 b :at d all m5 love8 ,!y love _! l&s1 _! lawful b\nd>ies1 ! memories ( _! fa!rs4 ,t is ! ju/ification ( be+ national1 t x is normal40 ,b ! ,prote/ant patriot really nev] ?\ght ( any patriotism except 8 own4 ,9 t s5se ,prote/antism is patriotism4 ,b un=tunately x is only patriotism4 ,x />ts ) x & nev] gets beyond x4 ,we />t ) mank9d & g beyond x to all ! v>i$ loves & traditions ( mank9d4 ,!re nev] 0 a m illum9at+ fla% ?an t :i* lit up ! la/ mom5t ( "o ( ! mo/ glori\s ( ,engli% ,prote/ants2 "o ( ! mo/ ,prote/ant & "o ( ! mo/ ,engli%4 ,= t is ! mean+ ( t phrase ( ,nurse ,cavell1 h]self ! noble/ m>tyr ( our mod]n religion ( nationality1 :5 ! v %aft ( ! :ite sun ( dea? %one deep into h] m9d & %e cri$ al\d1 l "o :o _h j discov]$ some?+1 8,i see n[ t patriotism is n en\gh40 ,!re 0 ?is 9 common betwe5 ! ,ca?olics to :om ,i h come & ! ,lib]als among :om ,i 0 born3 nei!r ( !m w\ld ev] h imag9$ = a mom5t t patriotism 0 en\gh4 ,b t insul> idealism by :i* t great lady liv$ really _h taught h] unconsci\sly f *ildhood t patriotism 0 en\gh4 ,n seldom has ! ,engli% lady appe>$ 9 hi/ory z a h]o9e2 b g5]ally z fac+ & defy+ /rang]s or savages1 n specially z feel+ !m z fell[s & equals4 ,^? la/ words ( ! ,engli% m>tyr 9 ,belgium h (t5 be5 quot$ by m]e cosmopolitans2 b cosmopolitans are ! la/ p really to und]/& !m4 ,!y are g5]ally try+ to prove1 n t patriotism is n en\gh1 b t x is a great deal too mu*4 ,! po9t is "h t hundr$s ( ! mo/ h]oic & high-m9d$ p 9 ,prote/ant c\ntries h really assum$ t x is en\gh to be a patriot4 ,! mo/ c>eless & cynical ( ,ca?olics kn[s bett]2 & s did ! mo/ vague & vision>y ( ,univ]sali/s4 ,( all ! ,prote/ant difficulties1 :i* ,i "h f9d x h>d to imag9e1 ?is is p]haps ! mo/ common & 9 _m ways comm5dable3 ! fact t ! normal ,briti% subject beg9s by be+ s v ,briti%4 ,by accid5t ,i did n4 ,! tradition ,i he>d 9 my y\?1 ! simple1 ! too simple tru?s inh]it$ f ,prie/ly & ,m>t9eau1 _h 9 !m some?+ ( t gr& g5]alisation ^u m5 z m5 :i*1 9 ! fir/ ( ^? great figures1 fac$ ! h[l+ ,j+oism ( ! ,fr5* ,w>s & defi$ ev5 ! leg5d ( ,trafalg>4 ,x is to t tradition t ,i owe ! fact1 :e!r x be an advantage or a disadvantage1 t ,i _c wor?ily analyse ! v h]oic virtues ( a ,plym\? ,bro!r ^: only c5tre is ,plym\?4 ,= t rationalism1 defective z x 01 began long ago 9 ! same c5tral civilisation 9 :i* ! ,*ur* h]self began2 if x has end$ 9 ! ,*ur* x began long ago 9 ! ,republic3 9 a _w :]e all ^! flags & fronti]s 7 unkn[n2 :]e all ^! /ate e/abli%m5ts & national sects 7 un?9kable2 a va/ cosmopolitan cosmos t _h nev] he>d ! "n ( ,engl&1 or conceiv$ ! image ( a k+dom sep>ate & at w>2 9 t va/ pagan peace :i* 0 ! matrix ( all ^! my/]ies1 :i* _h =gott5 ! free cities & _h n dream$ ( ! small nationalities2 :i* knew only humanity1 ! humanum g5us1 & ! "n ( ,rome4 ,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* loves nations z %e loves m52 because !y are h] *ildr54 ,b !y c]ta9ly are h] *ildr51 9 ! s5se t !y are second>y to h] 9 "t & process ( production4 ,?is is1 z x happ5s1 a v good example ( a fallacy t (t5 confuses discussion ab\t ! conv]t4 ,! same p :o call ! conv]t a p]v]t1 & especially a traitor to patriotism1 v (t5 use ! o!r cat*word to ! effect t he is =c$ to believe ?is or t4 ,b x is n really a "q ( :at a man is made to believe b ( :at he mu/ believe2 :at he _c help believ+4 ,he _c disbelieve 9 an elephant :5 he has se5 "o2 & he _c treat ! ,*ur* z a *ild :5 he has discov]$ t %e is 8 "m4 ,%e is n only 8 "m b 8 c\ntry's "m 9 be+ mu* old] & m aborig9al ?an 8 c\ntry4 ,%e is su* a "m n 9 s5tim5tal feel+ b 9 hi/orical fact4 ,he _c ?9k "o ?+ :5 he kn[s ! contr>y ?+4 ,he _c ?9k t ,*ri/ianity 0 inv5t$ by ,p5da ( ,m]cia1 :o s5t mission>ies to ! hea!n ,augu/9e & ! rude & b>b>\s ,gregory4 ,he _c ?9k t ! ,*ur* fir/ rose 9 ! middle ( ! ,briti% ,empire1 & n ( ! ,roman ,empire4 ,he _c ?9k t ,engl& exi/$1 ) cricket & fox-hunt+ & ! ,jacobean translation all complete1 :5 ,rome 0 f\nd$ or :5 ,*ri/ 0 born4 ,x is no good talk+ ab\t 8 be+ 8free0 to believe ^! ?+s4 ,he is exactly z free to believe !m z he is to believe t a horse has fea!rs or t ! sun is pea gre54 ,he _c believe !m :5 once he fully realises !m2 & among su* ?+s is ! notion t ! national claim ^u a good patriot is 9 its nature m absolute1 anci5t & au?oritative ?an ! claim ( ! :ole religi\s culture :i* fir/ mapp$ out its t]ritories & ano9t$ its k+s4 ,t religi\s culture does inde$ enc\rage him to fight to ! la/ = 8 c\ntry1 z = 8 family4 ,b t is because ! religi\s culture is g5]\s & imag9ative & humane & kn[s t m5 mu/ h intimate & individual ties4 ,b ^? second>y loyalties are second>y 9 "t & logic to ! law ( univ]sal morality :i* ju/ifies !m4 ,& if ! patriot is su* a fool z to =ce ! issue aga9/ t univ]sal tradition f :i* 8 own patriotism desc5ds1 if he presses 8 claim to priority ov] ! primitive law ( ! :ole e>?--!n he w h br\ght x on himself if he is answ]$ ) ! pulv]is+ pla9ness ( ! ,book ( ,job4 ,z ,god said to ! man1 8,:]e 7 y :5 ! f\ndations ( ! _w 7 laid80 ,we might well say to ! nation1 8,:]e 7 y :5 ! f\ndations ( ! ,*ur* 7 laid80 ,& ! nation w n "k 9 ! lea/ :at to answ]--if x %\ld wi% to answ]--b w be =c$ to put its h& ^u its m\?1 if only l "o :o yawns & falls asleep4 ,i h tak5 ?is p>ticul> case ( patriotism because x conc]ns at lea/ an emotion 9 :i* ,i pr(\ndly believe & happ5 to feel /rongly4 ,i h always done my be/ to def5d x2 ?\gh ,i h sometimes become suspect by sympa?is+ ) o!r p's patriotism besides my own4 ,b ,i _c see h[ x c be def5d$ except z "p ( a l>g] morality2 & ! ,ca?olic morality happ5s to be "o ( ! v few l>ge moralities n[ ready to def5d x4 ,b ! ,*ur* def5ds x z "o ( ! duties ( m5 & n z ! :ole duty ( man2 z x 0 9 ! ,prussian !ory ( ! ,/ate & too (t5 9 ! ,briti% !ory ( ! ,empire4 ,& = ?is ! ,ca?olic re/s1 exactly z ! ,univ]sali/ ,unit>ian re/$1 ^u ! actual fact ( a human unity ant]ior to all ^! heal?y & natural human divisions4 ,b x is absurd to treat ! ,*ur* z a novel conspiracy attack+ ! ,/ate1 :5 ! ,/ate 0 only rec5tly a novel exp]im5t aris+ )9 ! ,*ur*4 ,x is absurd to =get t ! ,*ur* itself receiv$ ! fir/ loyalties ( m5 :o _h n yet ev5 conceiv$ ! notion ( f\nd+ su* a national & sep>ate /ate2 t ! ,fai? really 0 n only ! fai? ( our fa!rs1 b ! fai? ( our fa!rs be=e !y _h ev5 nam$ our fa!rl&4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,! ,,real ,,ob/acles ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,! ,,real ,,ob/acles ,9 ! la/ *apt] ,i h dealt 9 a prelim9>y fa%ion ) ! ,prote/ant case 9 ! conv5tional controv]sial s5se4 ,i h dealt ) ! objections :i* ,i suspect$ v e>ly ( be+ prejudices & :i* ,i n[ "k to be prejudices4 ,i h dealt la/ & at ! greate/ l5g? ) :at ,i believe to be ! noble/ ( all ! prejudices ( ,prote/antism3 t :i* is simply f\nd$ on patriotism4 ,i d n ?9k patriotism is necess>ily prejudice2 b ,i am q sure x mu/ be prejudice & no?+ else b prejudice1 unless x is cov]$ by "s common morality4 ,& a patriotism t does n all[ o!r p to be patriots is n a morality b an immorality4 ,ev5 su* a tribal prejudice1 h[ev]1 is a m respectable ?+ ?an mo/ ( ! rags & tatt]s ( /ale sl&] & muddlehead$ness :i* ,i am oblig$ to put fir/ z ! (ficial policy ( ! opposition to ! ,*ur*4 ,^! /ale /ories seem to c\nt = a great deal ) p :o are resolv$ to keep f> away f ! ,*ur*4 ,i d n believe !y ev] c\nt$ ) anybody :o _h begun to draw ne> to x4 ,:5 a man really sees ! ,*ur*1 ev5 if he dislikes :at he sees1 he does n see :at he _h expect$ to dislike4 ,ev5 if he wants to slay x he is no long] able to sl&] x2 ?\gh he hates x at sight1 :at he sees is n :at he look$ to see2 9 t place he may ga9 a new passion b he loses 8 old prejudice4 ,!re drops f him ! holy arm\r ( 8 inv9cible ignorance2 he c nev] be s /upid aga94 ,if he has a ready m9d he c d\btless set 8 new reasons 9 "s sort ( ord] & ev5 attempt to l9k !m ) 8 lo/ tradition4 ,b ! ?+ he hates is !re2 & ! la/ *apt] 0 :olly devot$ to ! /udy ( ?+s t are n !re4 ,! real reasons are almo/ ! opposite ( ! recognis$ reasons4 ,! real difficulties are almo/ ! opposite ( ! recognis$ difficulties4 ,?is is connect$1 ( c\rse1 ) a g5]al fact1 n[ s l>ge & obvi\s b /ill n cle>ly compreh5d$ & confess$4 ,! :ole case ( ,prote/antism aga9/ ,ca?olicism has be5 turn$ clean r\nd & is fac+ ! contr>y way4 ,on practically e s+le po9t on :i* ! ,re=mation accus$ ! ,*ur*1 ! mod]n _w has n only acquitt$ ! ,*ur* ( ! crime1 b has actually *>g$ x ) ! opposite crime4 ,x is z if ! re=m]s _h mobb$ ! ,pope = be+ a mis]1 & !n ! c\rt _h n only acquitt$ him b _h c5sur$ him = 8 extravagance 9 scatt]+ money among ! mob4 ,! pr9ciple ( mod]n ,prote/antism seems to be t s long z we g on %\t+ 8,to hell ) ! ,pope0 !re is room = ! wide/ diff]5ces ( op9ion ab\t :e!r he %\ld g to ! hell ( ! mis]s or ! hell ( ! sp5d?rifts4 ,?is is :at is meant by a broad basis = ,*ri/ianity & ! /atem5t t !re is room = _m diff]5t op9ions side by side4 ,:5 ! re=m] says t ! pr9ciples ( ! ,re=mation give fre$om to diff]5t po9ts ( view1 he means t !y give fre$om to ! ,univ]sali/ to curse ,rome = hav+ too mu* pr$e/9ation & to ! ,calv9i/ to curse h] = hav+ too little4 ,he means t 9 t happy family !re is a place = ! ,no ,pop]y man :o f9ds ,purgatory too t5d]-he>t$ & also = ! o!r ,no ,pop]y man :o f9ds ,hell too h>%4 ,he means t ! same description c someh[ be made to cov] ! ,tol/oyan :o blames prie/s because !y p]mit patriotism & ! ,dieh>d :o blames prie/s because !y repres5t ,int]nationalism4 ,aft] all1 ! ess5tial aim ( true ,*ri/ianity is t prie/s %\ld be blam$2 & :o are we t we %\ld set n>r[ dogmatic limits to ! v>i\s ways 9 :i* v>i\s temp]am5ts may desire to blame !m8 ,:y %\ld we all[ a cold difficulty ( ! logician1 te*nically call$ a contradiction 9 t]ms1 to /& betwe5 u & ! w>m & broad5+ human bro!rhood ( all :o are full ( s9c]e & unaffect$ dislike ( _! neighb\rs8 ,religion is ( ! he>t1 n ( ! head2 & z long z all our he>ts are full ( a hatr$ = ev]y?+ t our fa!rs lov$1 we c g on flatly contradict+ ea* o!r = ev] ab\t :at !re is to be hat$4 ,su* is ! l>g] & m lib]al mod]n attack ^u ! ,*ur*4 ,x is q inconsi/5t ) ! old doctr9al attack2 b x does n propose to lose ! advantages aris+ f any sort ( attack4 ,b 9 a some:at analog\s fa%ion1 x w be f\nd t ! real difficulties ( a mod]n conv]t are almo/ ! direct contr>y ( ^? :i* 7 alleg$ by ! m anci5t ,prote/ants4 ,prote/ant pamphlets d n t\* ev5 remotely any ( ! real hesitations t he feels2 & ev5 ,ca?olic pamphlets h (t5 be5 conc]n$ too mu* ) answ]+ ! ,prote/ant pamphlets4 ,inde$1 ! only s5se 9 :i* ! prie/s & propag&i/s ( ,ca?olicism c really be said to be beh9d ! times is t !y sometimes g on flogg+ a dead horse & kill+ a h]esy long aft] x has kill$ itself4 ,b ev5 t is1 prop]ly und]/ood1 a fault on ! side ( *ivalry4 ,! prea*]1 & ev5 ! p]secutor1 really takes ! h]esy m s]i\sly ?an x is se5 ultimately to des]ve2 ! inquisitor has m respect = ! h]esy ?an ! h]etics h4 ,/ill1 x is true t ! gr\nds ( suspicion or fe> t d really fill ! conv]t1 & sometimes p>alyse him at ! v po9t ( conv]sion1 h really no?+ 9 ! _w to d ) ?is old crop ( crude sl&]s & fallacies1 & are (t5 ! v inv]sion ( !m4 ,! %ort way ( putt+ x is to say t he is no long] afraid ( ! vices b v mu* afraid ( ! virtues ( ,ca?olicism4 ,= in/ance1 he has =gott5 all ab\t ! old nons5se ( ! cunn+ lies ( ! confessional1 9 8 lively & legitimate al>m ( ! tru?fulness ( ! confessional4 ,he does n recoil f its ins9c]ity b f its s9c]ity2 nor is he necess>ily ins9c]e 9 do+ s4 ,realism is really a rock ( (f5ce2 x is n at all unnatural to %r9k f x2 & mo/ mod]n reali/s only manage to l x because !y are c>eful to be reali/ic ab\t o!r p4 ,he is ne> en\gh to ! sacram5t ( p5ance to h discov]$ its realism & n ne> en\gh to h yet discov]$ its reasonabl5ess & its common s5se4 ,mo/ ( ^? :o h gone ?r\gh ?is exp]i5ce h a c]ta9 "r to say1 l ! old soldi] to 8 ignorant comrade1 8,yes1 ,i 0 afraid2 & if y 7 half z mu* afraid1 y w\ld run away40 ,p]haps x is j z well t p g ?r\gh ?is /age be=e discov]+ h[ v little !re is to be afraid (4 ,9 any case1 ,i w say little m ( t example "h1 hav+ a feel+ t absolution1 l dea? & m>riage1 is a ?+ t a man ought to f9d out = himself4 ,x w be en\gh to say t ?is is p]haps ! supreme example ( ! fact t ! ,fai? is a p>adox t measures m )9 ?an )\t4 ,if t be true ( ! smalle/ *ur*1 x is tru] /ill ( ! yet small] confessional-box1 t is l a *ur* )9 a *ur*4 ,x is almo/ a good ?+ t nobody outside %\ld "k :at gigantic g5]osity1 & ev5 g5iality1 c be lock$ up 9 a box1 z ! leg5d>y casket held ! he>t ( ! giant4 ,x is a satisfaction1 & almo/ a joke1 t x is only 9 a d>k corn] & a cramp$ space t any man c discov] t m\nta9 ( magnanimity4 ,x is ! same ) all ! o!r po9ts ( attack1 especially ! old ones4 ,! man :o has come s f> z t along ! road has long left beh9d him ! notion t ! prie/ w =ce him to ab&on 8 w4 ,b he is n unreasonably dismay$ at ! ext5t to :i* he may h to use 8 w4 ,he is n fright5$ because1 aft] tak+ ?is drug1 he w be h5ce=w>d irresponsible4 ,b he is v mu* fright5$ because he w be responsible4 ,he w h somebody to be responsible to & he w "k :at he is responsible =2 two uncom=table conditions :i* 8 m =tunate fell[-creatures h n[adays entirely escap$4 ,!re are ( c\rse _m o!r examples ( ! same pr9ciple3 t !re is inde$ an int]val ( acute d\bt1 :i* is1 /rictly speak+1 r fe> ?an d\bt1 s9ce 9 "s cases at lea/ 7z ,i %all po9t out else:]e7 !re is actually lea/ d\bt :5 !re is mo/ fe>4 ,b anyh[1 ! d\bts are h>dly ev] ( ! sort sugge/$ by ord9>y anti-,ca?olic propag&a2 & x is surely "t t su* propag&i/s br\ght !mselves m 9 t\* ) ! real problem4 ,! ,ca?olic is sc>cely ev] fright5$ ( ! ,prote/ant picture ( ,ca?olicism2 b he is sometimes fright5$ ( ! ,ca?olic picture ( ,ca?olicism2 :i* may be a good reason = n disproportionately /ress+ ! difficult or puzzl+ p>ts ( ! s*eme4 ,= ! conv]t's sake1 x %\ld also be rememb]$ t "o fooli% ^w f inside does m h>m ?an a hundr$ ?\s& fooli% words f outside4 ,! latt] he has already le>n$ to expect1 l a bl9d hail or ra9 beat+ ^u ! ,ark2 b ! voices f )91 ev5 ! mo/ casual & accid5tal1 he is already prep>$ to reg>d z holy or m ?an human2 & ?\gh ?is is unfair to p :o only pr(ess to be human be+s1 x is a fact t ,ca?olics ought to rememb]4 ,!re is _m a conv]t :o has rea*$ a /age at :i* no ^w f any ,prote/ant or pagan c\ld any long] hold him back4 ,only ! ^w ( a ,ca?olic c keep him f ,ca?olicism4 ,x is q false1 9 my exp]i5ce1 to say t ,jesuits1 or any o!r ,roman prie/s1 pe/] & p]secute p 9 ord] to proselytise4 ,nobody has any notion ( :at ! :ole /ory is ab\t1 :o does n "k t1 ?r\gh ^? long & d>k & indecisive days1 x is ! man :o p]secutes himself4 ,! app>5t inaction ( ! prie/ may be some?+ l ! /atuesque /illness ( ! angl]2 & su* an attitude is n unnatural 9 ! functions ( a fi%] ( m54 ,b x is v seldom impati5t or premature & ! p]son act$ ^u is q lonely en\gh to realise t x is no?+ m]ely ext]nal t is tugg+ at 8 lib]ty4 ,! laity are probably less wise2 = 9 mo/ communions ! ecclesia/ical layman is m ecclesia/ical ?an is good = 8 heal?1 & c]ta9ly mu* m ecclesia/ical ?an ! ecclesia/ics4 ,my exp]i5ce is t ! amateur is g5]ally mu* m angry ?an ! pr(essional2 & if he expresses 8 irritation at ! sl[ process ( conv]sion1 or ! inconsi/5cies ( ! int]m$iate condition1 he may d a great deal ( h>m1 ( ! k9d t he lea/ int5ds to d4 ,i "k 9 my own case t ,i always exp]i5c$ a slight setback :5ev] "s irresponsible individual int]pos$ to urge me on4 ,x is wor? :ile1 = practical reasons1 to te/ify to su* exp]i5ce1 because x may guide ! conv]t :5 he 9 8 turn beg9s conv]t+4 ,our enemies no long] really "k h[ to attack ! fai?2 b t is no reason :y we %\ld n "k h[ to def5d x4 ,yet ev5 t "o trivial or incid5tal caution c>ries ) x a rem9d] ( :at has be5 already not$3 ,i mean ! fact t :atev] be ! ,ca?olic's worries1 !y are ! v contr>y ( ! ,prote/ant's w>n+s4 ,m]ely z a matt] ( p]sonal exp]i5ce1 ,i h be5 l$ to note "h t x is n g5]ally ! prie/1 b mu* m (t5 ! layman1 :o r too o/5tati\sly compasses sea & l& to make "o proselyte4 ,all ! creepy & uncanny :isp]s ab\t ! horror ( hav+ ! prie/ 9 ! home1 z if he 7 a sort ( vampire or a mon/] intr9sically diff]5t f mank9d1 vani%es ) ! smalle/ exp]i5ce ( ! militant layman4 ,! prie/ does 8 job1 b x is mu* m 8 secul> co-religioni/ :o is dispos$ to expla9 x & talk ab\t x4 ,i d n object to laym5 proselytis+2 = ,i nev] c\ld see1 ev5 :5 ,i 0 practically a pagan1 :y a man %\ld n urge 8 own op9ions if he lik$ & t op9ion z mu* z any o!r4 ,i am n likely to compla9 ( ! evangelis+ en]gy ( ,mr4 ,hilaire ,belloc or ,mr4 ,eric ,gill2 if only because ,i owe to x ! mo/ intellig5t talks ( my y\?4 ,b x is t sort ( man :o proselytises 9 t sort ( way2 & ! conv5tional c>icature is wrong aga9 :5 x always repres5ts him 9 a cassock4 ,ca?olicism is n spread by any p>ticul> pr(essional tricks or tones or secret signs or c]emonies4 ,ca?olicism is spread by ,ca?olics2 b n c]ta9ly1 9 private life at lea/1 m]ely by ,ca?olic prie/s4 ,i m]ely give ?is "h out ( a hundr$ examples1 z %[+ once aga9 t ! old traditional v]sion ( ! t]rors ( ,pop]y 0 almo/ always wrong1 ev5 :]e x might possibly h be5 "r4 ,a man may say if he likes t ,ca?olicism is ! enemy2 & he may be /at+ f 8 po9t ( view a pr(\nd spiritual tru?4 ,b if he says t ,cl]icalism is ! enemy1 he is repeat+ a cat*word4 ,x is my exp]i5ce t ! conv]t commonly passes ?r\gh ?ree /ages or /ates ( m9d4 ,! fir/ is :5 he imag9es himself to be entirely deta*$1 or ev5 to be entirely indiff]5t1 b 9 ! old s5se ( ! t]m1 z :5 ! ,pray] ,book talks ( judges :o w truly & indiff]5tly adm9i/] ju/ice4 ,"s flippant mod]n p]son w\ld probably agree t our judges adm9i/] ju/ice v indiff]5tly4 ,b ! old] mean+ 0 legitimate & ev5 logical & x is t :i* is applicable "h4 ,! fir/ phase is t ( ! "y philosoph] :o feels t he ought to be fair to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,he wi%es to d x ju/ice2 b *iefly because he sees t x suff]s inju/ice4 ,i rememb] t :5 ,i 0 fir/ on ! ,daily ,news1 ! great ,lib]al organ ( ! ,noncon=mi/s1 ,i took ! tr\ble to draw up a li/ ( fifte5 falsehoods :i* ,i f\nd out1 by my own p]sonal k1 9 a d5unciation ( ,rome by ,messrs4 ,horton & ,hock+4 ,i not$1 = in/ance1 t x 0 nons5se to say t ! ,cov5ant]s f\ght = religi\s lib]ty :5 ! ,cov5ant d5\nc$ religi\s tol]ation2 t x 0 false to say ! ,*ur* only ask$ = or?odoxy & 0 indiff]5t to morality1 s9ce1 if ?is 0 true ( anybody1 x 0 obvi\sly true ( ! support]s ( salvation by fai? & n ( salvation by works2 t x 0 absurd to say t ,ca?olics introduc$ a horrible sophi/ry ( say+ t a man might sometimes tell a lie1 s9ce e sane man kn[s he w\ld tell a lie to save a *ild f ,*9ese tortur]s2 t x miss$ ! :ole po9t1 9 ?is connection1 to quote ,w>d's phrase1 8,make up y\r m9d t y are ju/ifi$ 9 ly+ & !n lie l a troop]10 = ,w>d's argum5t 0 aga9/ equivocation or :at p call ,jesuitry4 ,he meant1 8,:5 ! *ild really is hid+ 9 ! cupbo>d & ! ,*9ese tortur]s really are *as+ him ) r$-hot p9c]s1 !n 7& !n only7 be sure t y are "r to deceive & d n hesitate to lie2 b d n /oop to equivocate4 ,d n bo!r y\rself to say1 8,! *ild is 9 a wood5 h\se n f> f "h10 mean+ ! cupbo>d2 b say ! *ild is 9 ,*iswick or ,*imbora zoo1 or any:]e y *oose40 ,i f9d ,i made elaborate notes ( all ^! argum5ts all t long "t ago1 m]ely = ! logical pleasure ( dis5tangl+ an intellectual inju/ice4 ,i _h no m idea ( becom+ a ,ca?olic ?an ( becom+ a cannibal4 ,i imag9$ t ,i 0 m]ely po9t+ out t ju/ice %\ld be done ev5 to cannibals4 ,i imag9$ t ,i 0 not+ c]ta9 fallacies p>tly = ! fun ( ! ?+ & p>tly = a c]ta9 feel+ ( loyalty to ! tru? ( ?+s4 ,b z a matt] ( fact1 look+ back on ^! notes 7:i* ,i nev] publi%$71 x seems to me t ,i took a trem5d\s am\nt ( tr\ble ab\t x if ,i really reg>d$ x z a trifle2 & tak+ tr\ble has c]ta9ly nev] be5 a p>ticul> weakness ( m9e4 ,x seems to me t some?+ 0 already work+ subconsci\sly to keep me m int]e/$ 9 fallacies ab\t ?is p>ticul> topic ?an 9 fallacies ab\t ,free ,trade or ,female ,suffrage or ! ,h\se ( ,lords4 ,anyh[1 t is ! fir/ /age 9 my own case & ,i ?9k 9 _m o!r cases2 ! /age ( simply wi%+ to protect ,papi/s f sl&] & oppression1 n 7consci\sly at lea/7 because !y hold any p>ticul> tru?1 b because !y suff] f a p>ticul> accumulation ( falsehood4 ,! second /age is t 9 :i* ! conv]t beg9s to be consci\s n only ( ! falsehood b ! tru?1 & is enorm\sly excit$ to f9d t !re is f> m ( x ?an he w\ld ev] h expect$4 ,?is is n s mu* a /age z a progress2 & x goes on pretty rapidly b (t5 = a long "t4 ,x consi/s 9 discov]+ :at a v l>ge numb] ( lively & int]e/+ ideas !re are 9 ! ,ca?olic philosophy1 t a great _m ( !m comm5d !mselves at once to 8 sympa?ies1 & t ev5 ^? :i* he w\ld n accept h some?+ to be said = !m ju/ify+ _! acceptance4 ,?is process1 :i* may be call$ discov]+ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 is p]haps ! mo/ pleasant & /raight=w>d "p ( ! bus9ess2 easi] ?an jo9+ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* & mu* easi] ?an try+ to live ! ,ca?olic life4 ,x is l discov]+ a new cont95t full ( /range fl[]s & fanta/ic animals1 :i* is at once wild & hospitable4 ,to give any?+ l a full acc\nt ( t process w\ld simply be to discuss ab\t half a hundr$ ,ca?olic ideas & in/itutions 9 turn4 ,i might rem>k t mu* ( x consi/s ( ! act ( translation2 ( discov]+ ! real mean+ ( words1 :i* ! ,*ur* uses rightly & ! _w uses wrongly4 ,= in/ance1 ! conv]t discov]s t 8sc&al0 does n mean 8gossip02 & ! s9 ( caus+ x does n mean t x is always wick$ to set silly old wom5 wagg+ _! tongues4 ,sc&al means sc&al1 :at x orig9ally meant 9 ,greek & ,lat92 ! tripp+ up ( somebody else :5 he is try+ to be good4 ,or he w discov] t phrases l 8c\nsel ( p]fection0 or 8v5ial s910 :i* mean no?+ at all 9 ! newspap]s1 mean some?+ q intellig5t & int]e/+ 9 ! manuals ( moral !ology4 ,he beg9s to realise t x is ! secul> _w t spoils ! s5se ( words2 & he cat*es an excit+ glimpse ( ! real case = ! iron immortality ( ! ,lat9 ,mass4 ,x is n a "q betwe5 a dead language & a liv+ language1 9 ! s5se ( an ev]la/+ language4 ,x is a "q betwe5 a dead language & a dy+ language2 an inevitably deg5]at+ language4 ,x is ^! numb]less glimpses ( great ideas1 t h be5 hidd5 f ! conv]t by ! prejudices ( 8 prov9cial culture1 t con/itute ! adv5tur\s & v>i$ second /age ( ! conv]sion4 ,x is1 broadly speak+1 ! /age 9 :i* ! man is unconsci\sly try+ to be conv]t$4 ,& ! ?ird /age is p]haps ! true/ & ! mo/ t]rible4 ,x is t 9 :i* ! man is try+ n to be conv]t$4 ,he has come too ne> to ! tru?1 & has =gott5 t tru? is a magnet1 ) ! p[]s ( attraction & repulsion4 ,he is fill$ ) a sort ( fe>1 :i* makes him feel l a fool :o has be5 patronis+ 8,pop]y0 :5 he ought to h be5 awak5+ to ! reality ( ,rome4 ,he discov]s a /range & al>m+ fact1 :i* is p]haps impli$ 9 ,newman's int]e/+ lecture on ,blanco ,:ite & ! two ways ( attack+ ,ca?olicism4 ,anyh[1 x is a tru? t ,newman & e o!r conv]t has probably f\nd 9 "o =m or ano!r4 ,x is impossible to be j to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,! mom5t m5 cease to pull aga9/ x !y feel a tug t[>ds x4 ,! mom5t !y cease to %\t x d[n !y beg9 to li/5 to x ) pleasure4 ,! mom5t !y try to be fair to x !y beg9 to be fond ( x4 ,b :5 t affection has pass$ a c]ta9 po9t x beg9s to take on ! tragic & m5ac+ gr&eur ( a great love affair4 ,! man has exactly ! same s5se ( hav+ committ$ or compromis$ himself2 ( hav+ be5 9 a s5se entrapp$1 ev5 if he is glad to be entrapp$4 ,b = a consid]able "t he is n s mu* glad z simply t]rifi$4 ,x may be t ?is real psy*ological exp]i5ce has be5 misund]/ood by /upid] p & is responsible = all t rema9s ( ! leg5d t ,rome is a m]e trap4 ,b t leg5d misses ! :ole po9t ( ! psy*ology4 ,x is n ! ,pope :o has set ! trap or ! prie/s :o h bait$ x4 ,! :ole po9t ( ! position is t ! trap is simply ! tru?4 ,! :ole po9t is t ! man himself has made 8 way t[>ds ! trap ( tru?1 & n ! trap t has run aft] ! man4 ,all /eps except ! la/ /ep he has tak5 eag]ly on 8 own acc\nt1 out ( int]e/ 9 ! tru?2 & ev5 ! la/ /ep1 or ! la/ /age1 only al>ms him because x is s v true4 ,if ,i may ref] once m to a p]sonal exp]i5ce1 ,i may say t ,i = "o 0 nev] less tr\bl$ by d\bts ?an 9 ! la/ phase1 :5 ,i 0 tr\bl$ by fe>s4 ,be=e t f9al delay ,i _h be5 deta*$ & ready to reg>d all sorts ( doctr9es ) an op5 m9d4 ,s9ce t delay has end$ 9 decision1 ,i h _h all sorts ( *anges 9 m]e mood2 & ,i ?9k ,i sympa?ise ) d\bts & difficulties m ?an ,i did be=e4 ,b ,i _h no d\bts or difficulties j be=e4 ,i _h only fe>s2 fe>s ( some?+ t _h ! f9ality & simplicity ( suicide4 ,b ! m ,i ?ru/ ! ?+ into ! back ( my m9d1 ! m c]ta9 ,i grew ( :at ,?+ x 04 ,& by a p>adox t does n fright5 me n[ 9 ! lea/1 x may be t ,i %all nev] aga9 h su* absolute assurance t ! ?+ is true z ,i _h :5 ,i made my la/ ef=t to d5y x4 ,!re is a po/script or small] po9t to be add$ "h to ?is p>adox2 :i* ,i "k t _m w misund]/&4 ,becom+ a ,ca?olic broad5s ! m9d4 ,x especially broad5s ! m9d ab\t ! reasons = becom+ a ,ca?olic4 ,/&+ 9 ! c5tre :]e all roads meet1 a man c look d[n ea* ( ! roads 9 turn & realise t !y come f all po9ts ( ! heav5s4 ,z long z he is /ill m>*+ along 8 own road1 t is ! only road t c be se51 or sometimes ev5 imag9$4 ,= in/ance1 _m a man :o is n yet a ,ca?olic calls himself a ,m$ivali/4 ,b a man :o is only a ,m$ivali/ is v mu* broad5$ by becom+ a ,ca?olic4 ,i am myself a ,m$ivali/1 9 ! s5se t ,i ?9k mod]n life has a great deal to le>n f m$ival life2 t ,guilds are a bett] social sy/em ?an ,capitalism2 t fri>s are f> less (f5sive ?an philan?ropi/s4 ,b ,i am a mu* m reasonable & mod]ate ,m$ivali/ ?an ,i 0 :5 ,i 0 only a ,m$ivali/4 ,= in/ance1 ,i felt x necess>y to be p]petually pitt+ ,go?ic ar*itecture aga9/ ,greek ar*itecture1 because x 0 necess>y to back up ,*ri/ians aga9/ pagans4 ,b n[ ,i am 9 no su* fuss & ,i "k :at ,cov5try ,patmore meant :5 he said calmly t x w\ld h be5 q z ,ca?olic to decorate 8 mantelpiece ) ! ,v5us ( ,milo z ) ! ,virg94 ,z a ,m$ivali/ ,i am /ill pr\de/ ( ! ,go?ic2 b z a ,ca?olic ,i am pr\d ( ! ,b>oque4 ,t int5sity :i* seems almo/ n>r[ because x comes to ! po9t1 l a m$ival w9d[1 is v repres5tative ( t la/ conc5tration t comes j be=e conv]sion4 ,at ! la/ mom5t ( all1 ! conv]t (t5 feels z if he 7 look+ ?r\gh a lep]'s w9d[4 ,he is look+ ?r\gh a little crack or crook$ hole t seems to gr[ small] z he />es at x2 b x is an op5+ t looks t[>ds ! ,alt>4 ,only1 :5 he has ent]$ ! ,*ur*1 he f9ds t ! ,*ur* is mu* l>g] inside ?an x is outside4 ,he has left beh9d him ! lop-sid$ness ( lep]s' w9d[s & ev5 9 a s5se ! n>r[ness ( ,go?ic doors2 & he is "u va/ domes z op5 z ! ,r5aissance & z univ]sal z ! ,republic ( ! _w4 ,he c say 9 a s5se unkn[n to all mod]n m5 c]ta9 anci5t & s]5e words3 ,romanus civis sum2 ,i am n a slave4 ,! po9t = ! mom5t1 h[ev]1 is t !re is g5]ally an int]val ( int5se n]v\sness1 to say ! lea/ ( x1 be=e ?is normal h]itage is rea*$4 ,to a c]ta9 ext5t x is a fe> :i* atta*es to all %>p & irrevocable decisions2 x is sugge/$ 9 all ! old jokes ab\t ! %ak9ess ( ! bridegroom at ! w$d+ or ! recruit :o takes ! %ill+ & gets drunk p>tly to celebrate1 b p>tly also to =get x4 ,b x is ! fe> ( a full] sacram5t & a mighti] army4 ,he has1 by ! nature ( ! case1 left a long way beh9d him ! m]e clumsy idea t ! sacram5t w poison him or ! army w kill him4 ,he has probably pass$ ! po9t1 ?\gh he does g5]ally pass x at "s "t1 :5 he wond]s :e!r ! :ole bus9ess is an extraord9>ily intellig5t & +5i\s confid5ce trick4 ,he is n n[ 9 ! condition :i* may be call$ ! la/ phase ( real d\bt4 ,i mean t 9 :i* he wond]$ :e!r ! ?+ t ev]ybody told him 0 too bad to be tol]able1 is n too good to be true4 ,"h aga9 ! recurr5t pr9ciple is pres5t2 & ! ob/acle is ! v opposite ( t :i* ,prote/ant propag&a has po9t$ out4 ,if he /ill has ! notion ( be+ trapp$1 he has no long] any notion ( be+ trick$4 ,he is n afraid ( f9d+ ! ,*ur* out1 b r ( ! ,*ur* f9d+ him out4 ,?is note on ! /ages ( conv]sion is necess>ily v negative & inadequate4 ,!re is 9 ! la/ second ( "t or hair's bread? ( space1 be=e ! iron leaps to ! magnet1 an abyss full ( all ! unfa?omable =ces ( ! univ]se4 ,! space betwe5 do+ & n do+ su* a ?+ is s t9y & s va/4 ,x is only possible "h to give ! reasons = ,ca?olicism1 n ! cause ( ,ca?olicism4 ,i h tri$ to sugge/ "h "s ( ! enlight5m5ts & exp]i5ces :i* gradually tea* ^? :o h be5 taught to ?9k ill ( ! ,*ur* to beg9 to ?9k well ( h]4 ,t any?+ describ$ z s bad %\ld turn out to be s good is itself a r arre/+ process hav+ a sav\r ( some?+ s5sational & /range4 ,to come to curse & rema9 to bless1 to come to sc(f & rema9 to pray1 is always welcome 9 a _s ( wond] & ! gl[ ( an unexpect$ good4 ,b x is "o ?+ to conclude t ,ca?olicism is good & ano!r to conclude t x is "r4 ,x is "o ?+ to conclude t x is "r & ano!r to conclude t x is always "r4 ,i _h nev] believ$ ! tradition t x 0 diabolical2 ,i _h soon come to d\bt ! idea t x 0 inhuman1 b t w\ld only h left me ) ! obvi\s inf]5ce t x 0 human4 ,x is a consid]able /ep f t to ! inf]5ce t x is div9e4 ,:5 we come to t conviction ( div9e au?ority1 we come to ! m my/]i\s matt] ( div9e aid4 ,9 o!r words1 we come to ! unfa?omable idea ( grace & ! gift ( fai?2 & ,i h n ! smalle/ int5tion ( attempt+ to fa?om x4 ,x is a !ological "q ( ! utmo/ complexity2 & x is "o ?+ to feel x z a fact & ano!r to def9e x z a tru?4 ,"o or two po9ts ab\t ! prelim9>y dispositions t prep>e ! m9d = x are all t ne$ be indicat$ "h4 ,to beg9 )1 !re is "o s5se 9 :i* ! blacke/ bigots are really ! be/ philosoph]s4 ,! ,*ur* really is l ,anti*ri/ 9 ! s5se t x is z unique z ,*ri/4 ,inde$1 if x be n ,*ri/ x probably is ,anti*ri/2 b c]ta9ly x is n ,moses or ,mahomet or ,buddha or ,plato or ,py?agoras4 ,! m we see ( humanity1 ! m we sympa?ise ) humanity1 ! m we %all see t :5 x is simply human x is simply hea!n2 & ! names ( its p>ticul> local gods or tribal prophets or highly respectable sages are a second>y matt] comp>$ ) t human & hea!n "*4 ,9 ! old paganism ( ,europe1 9 ! exi/+ paganism ( ,asia1 !re h be5 gods & prie/s & prophets & sages ( all sorts2 b n ano!r in/itution ( ?is sort4 ,! pagan cults die v sl[ly2 !y d n return v rapidly4 ,!y d n make ! sort ( claim t is made at a crisis2 & !n make ! same claim aga9 & aga9 at crisis aft] crisis ?r\gh\t ! :ole hi/ory ( ! e>?4 ,all t p fe> 9 ! ,*ur*1 all t !y hate 9 h]1 all aga9/ :i* !y mo/ h>d5 _! he>ts & sometimes 7"o is tempt$ to say7 ?ick5 _! heads1 all t has made p consci\sly & unconsci\sly treat ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* z a p]il1 is ! evid5ce t !re is some?+ "h t we _c look on at languidly & ) deta*m5t1 z we might look on at ,hott5tots danc+ at ! new moon or ,*9am5 burn+ pap] 9 porcela9 temples4 ,! ,*9aman & ! t\ri/ c be on ! be/ ( t]ms on a basis ( mutual scorn4 ,b 9 ! duel ( ! ,*ur* & ! _w is no su* %ield ( contempt4 ,! ,*ur* w n cons5t to scorn ! s\l ( a coolie or ev5 a t\ri/2 & ! measure ( ! madness ) :i* m5 hate h] is b _! va9 attempt to despise4 ,ano!r elem5t1 f> m deep & delicate & h>d to describe1 is ! imm$iate connection ( :at is mo/ awful & ar*aic ) :at is mo/ intimate & individual4 ,x is a miracle 9 itself t any?+ s huge & hi/oric 9 date & design %\ld be s fre% 9 ! affections4 ,x is z if a man f\nd 8 own p>l\r & fireside 9 ! he>t ( ! ,great ,pyramid4 ,x is z if a *ild's fav\rite doll turn$ out to be ! olde/ sacr$ image 9 ! _w1 wor%ipp$ 9 ,*aldea or ,n9eveh4 ,x is z if a girl to :om a man made love 9 a g>d5 7 also1 9 "s d>k & d\ble fa%ion1 a /atue /&+ = ev] 9 a squ>e4 ,x is j "h t all ^? ?+s :i* 7 reg>d$ z weakness come 9 z ! fulness ( /r5g?4 ,ev]y?+ t m5 call$ s5tim5tal 9 ,roman ,ca?olic religion1 its keepsakes1 its small fl[]s & almo/ tawdry tr9kets1 its figures ) m]ciful ge/ures & g5tle eyes1 its av[$ly popul> pa?os & all t ,mat!w ,arnold meant by ,*ri/ianity ) its 8reliev+ te>s0--all ?is is a sign ( s5sitive & vivid vitality 9 any?+ s va/ & settl$ & sy/ematic4 ,!re is no?+ q l ?is w>m?1 z 9 ! w>m? ( ,*ri/mas1 amid anci5t hills ho>y ) su* sn[s ( antiquity4 ,x c address ev5 ,god ,almighty ) dim9utives4 ,9 all its v>i$ ve/m5ts x we>s its ,sacr$ ,he>t ^u its sleeve4 ,b to ^? :o "k t x is full ( ^! lively affections1 l little leap+ flames1 !re is some?+ ( almo/ ironic satisfaction 9 ! />k & primitive size ( ! ?+1 l "s prehi/oric mon/]2 9 its spires & mitres l ! horns ( giant h]ds or its colossal corn]/ones l ! f\r feet ( an elephant4 ,x w\ld be easy to write a m]ely arti/ic /udy ( ! /range ext]nals ( ! ,roman religion1 :i* %\ld make x seem z unc\? & une>?ly z ,aztec or ,african religion4 ,x w\ld be easy to talk ( x z if x 7 really "s sort ( mammo? or mon/] elephant1 old] ?an ! ,ice ,age1 t[]+ ov] ! ,/one ,age2 8 v l9es trac$1 x w\ld seem1 9 ! e>?quakes or l&slides ( "s old] creation1 8 v organs & out] texture ak9 to unrecord$ patt]ns ( vegetation & air & light--! la/ residuum ( a lo/ _w4 ,b ! prehi/oric mon/] is 9 ! ,zological ,g>d5s & n 9 ! ,natural ,hi/ory ,museum4 ,! ext9ct animal is /ill alive4 ,& any?+ outl&i% & unfamili> 9 its =m acc5tuates ! />tl+ naturalness & famili>ity ( its m9d1 z if ! ,sph9x began sudd5ly to talk ( ! topics ( ! h\r4 ,! sup]-elephant is n only a tame animal b a pet2 & a "y *ild %all lead him4 ,?is anti!sis betwe5 all t is =midable & remote & all t is p]sonally relevant & reali/ically t5d] is ano!r ( ^? conv]g+ impressions :i* meet 9 ! mom5t ( conviction4 ,b ( all ^! ?+s1 t come ne>e/ to ! actual transition ( ! gift ( fai?1 x is f> h>d] to write ?an ( ! rationali/ic & hi/orical prelim9>ies ( ! enquiry4 ,x is only ) ^? prelim9>y dispositions t[>ds ! tru? t ,i claim to deal "h4 ,9 ! *apt]s t foll[ ,i propose to t\* ^u two ( ! l>g] consid]ations ( ?is class1 n because !y are 9 !mselves any l>g] ?an _m o!r imm5se aspects ( s mighty a !me1 b because !y happ5 to balance ea* o!r & =m a sort ( anti!sis v typical ( all ,ca?olic tru?4 ,9 ! fir/ ( ! two *apt]s ,i %all try to po9t out h[ x is t :5 we praise ! ,*ur* = h] greatness we d n m]ely mean h] l>g5ess b1 9 a r notable & unique s5se1 h] univ]sality4 ,we mean h] p[] ( be+ cosmos & conta9+ o!r ?+s4 ,& 9 ! second *apt] ,i %all po9t out :at may seem to di/urb ?is tru? b really balances x4 ,i mean ! fact t we value ! ,*ur* because %e is a ,*ur* ,militant2 & sometimes ev5 because %e militates aga9/ ourselves4 ,%e is some?+ m ?an ! cosmos1 9 ! s5se ( complet$ nature or complet$ human nature4 ,%e proves t %e is some?+ m by sometimes be+ "r :]e !y are wrong4 ,^! two aspects mu/ be consid]$ sep>ately1 ?\gh !y come toge!r to =m ! full conviction t comes j be=e conv]sion4 ,b 9 ?is *apt] ,i h m]ely not$ d[n a few po9ts or /ages ( ! conv]sion consid]$ z a practical process2 & especially ^? ?ree /ages ( x ?r\gh :i* _m a ,prote/ant or ,agno/ic mu/ h pass$4 ,_m a man1 look+ back *e]fully on !m n[1 w n be annoy$ if ,i call ! fir/1 patronis+ ! ,*ur*2 & ! second1 discov]+ ! ,*ur*2 & ! ?ird1 runn+ away f ! ,*ur*4 ,:5 ^? ?ree phases are ov]1 a l>g] tru? beg9s to come into sight2 x is mu* too l>ge to describe & we w proce$ to describe x4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,! ,,_w ,,inside ,,out ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,! ,,_w ,,inside ,,out ,! fir/ fallacy ab\t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is ! idea t x is a *ur*4 ,i mean t x is a *ur* 9 ! s5se 9 :i* ! ,noncon=mi/ newspap]s talk ab\t ,! ,*ur*es4 ,i d n int5d any expression ( contempt ab\t ,! ,*ur*es2 nor is x an expression ( contempt to say t x w\ld be m conv5i5t to call !m ! sects4 ,?is is true 9 a mu* deep] & m sympa!tic s5se ?an may at fir/ appe>2 b to beg9 )1 x is c]ta9ly true 9 a p]fectly pla9 & hi/orical s5se1 :i* has no?+ to d ) sympa?y at all4 ,?us1 = in/ance1 ,i h mu* m sympa?y = small nationalities ?an ,i h = small sects4 ,b x is simply a hi/orical fact t ! ,roman ,empire 0 ! ,empire & t x 0 n a small nationality4 ,& x is simply a hi/orical fact t ! ,roman ,*ur* is ! ,*ur* & is n a sect4 ,nor is !re any?+ n>r[ or unreasonable 9 say+ t ! ,*ur* is ! ,*ur*4 ,x may be a good ?+ t ! ,roman ,empire broke up into nations2 b x c]ta9ly 0 n "o ( ! nations into :i* x broke up4 ,& ev5 a p]son :o ?9ks x =tunate t ! ,*ur* broke up into sects ought to be able to di/+ui% betwe5 ! little ?+s he likes & ! big ?+ he has brok54 ,z a matt] ( fact1 9 ! case ( ?+s s l>ge1 s unique & s creative ( ! culture ab\t !m z 7 ! ,roman ,empire & ! ,roman ,*ur*1 x is n controv]sial b simply correct to conf9e ! "o ^w to ! "o example4 ,ev]ybody :o orig9ally us$ ! ^w 8,empire0 us$ x ( t ,empire2 ev]ybody :o us$ ! ^w 8,ecclesia0 us$ x ( t ,ecclesia4 ,!re may h be5 simil> ?+s 9 o!r places1 b !y c\ld n be call$ by ! same "n = ! simple reason t !y 7 n nam$ 9 ! same language4 ,we "k :at we mean by a ,roman ,emp]or2 we c if we l talk ( a ,*9ese ,emp]or1 j z we c if we l take a p>ticul> sort ( a ,m&>9 & say he is equival5t to a ,m>quis4 ,b we nev] c be c]ta9 t he is exactly equival5t2 = ! ?+ we are ?9k+ ab\t is peculi> to our own hi/ory & 9 t s5se /&s alone4 ,n[ 9 t1 if 9 no o!r s5se1 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* /&s alone4 ,x does n m]ely belong to a class ( ,*ri/ian *ur*es4 ,x does n m]ely belong to a class ( human religions4 ,consid]$ q coldly & imp>tially1 z by a man f ! moon1 x is mu* m sui g5]is ?an t4 ,x is1 if ! critic *ooses to ?9k s1 ! ru9 ( an attempt at a ,univ]sal ,religion :i* 0 b\nd to fail4 ,b call+ ! wreck]s to break up a %ip does n turn ! %ip into "o ( its own timb]s2 & cutt+ ,pol& up into ?ree pieces does n make ,pol& ! same z ,pos54 ,b 9 a mu* m pr(\nd & philosophical s5se ?is notion t ! ,*ur* is "o ( ! sects is ! great fallacy ( ! :ole affair4 ,x is a matt] m psy*ological & m difficult to describe4 ,b x is p]haps ! mo/ s5sational ( ! sil5t upheavals or rev]sals 9 ! m9d t con/itute ! revolution call$ conv]sion4 ,e man conceives himself z mov+ ab\t 9 a cosmos ( "s k9d2 & ! man ( ! days ( my y\? walk$ ab\t 9 a k9d ( va/ & airy ,cry/al ,palace 9 :i* !re 7 exhibits set side by side4 ,! cosmos1 be+ made ( glass & iron1 0 p>tly transp>5t & p>tly col\rless2 anyh[1 !re 0 some?+ negative ab\t x2 ar*+ ov] all our heads1 a ro( z remote z a sky1 x seem$ to be imp>tial & imp]sonal4 ,our att5tion 0 fix$ on ! exhibits1 :i* 7 all c>efully ticket$ & arrang$ 9 r[s2 = x 0 ! age ( sci5ce4 ,"h /ood all ! religions 9 a r[--! *ur*es or sects or :atev] we call$ !m2 & t[>ds ! end ( ! r[ !re 0 a p>ticul>ly d+y & dismal "o1 ) a po9t$ ro( half fall5 9 & po9t$ w9d[s mo/ brok5 ) /ones by pass]s-by2 & we 7 told t ?is p>ticul> exhibit 0 ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,"s ( u 7 sorry = x & ev5 fanci$ x _h be5 r badly us$2 mo/ ( u reg>d$ x z dirty & disreputable2 a few ( u ev5 po9t$ out t _m details 9 ! ru9 7 arti/ically beautiful or ar*itecturally important4 ,b mo/ p pref]r$ to deal at o!r & m bus9ess-l boo?s2 at ! ,quak] %op ( ,peace & ,pl5ty or ! ,salvation ,army /ore :]e ! %[man beats ! big drum outside4 ,n[ conv]sion consi/s v l>gely1 on its intellectual side1 9 ! discov]y t all t picture ( equal cre$s inside an indiff]5t cosmos is q false4 ,x is n a "q ( comp>+ ! m]its & defects ( ! ,quak] meet+-h\se set beside ! ,ca?olic ca!dral4 ,x is ! ,quak] meet+-h\se t is inside ! ,ca?olic ca!dral2 x is ! ,ca?olic ca!dral t cov]s ev]y?+ l ! vault ( ! ,cry/al ,palace2 & x is :5 we look up at ! va/ di/ant dome cov]+ all ! exhibits t we trace ! ,go?ic ro( & ! po9t$ w9d[s4 ,9 o!r words1 ,quak]ism is b a tempor>y =m ( ,quietism :i* has aris5 te*nically outside ! ,*ur* z ! ,quietism ( ,f5elon appe>$ te*nically inside ! ,*ur*4 ,b bo? 7 9 !mselves tempor>y & w\ld h1 l ,f5elon1 soon] or lat] to return to ! ,*ur* 9 ord] to live4 ,! pr9ciple ( life 9 all ^! v>iations ( ,prote/antism1 9 s f> z x is n a pr9ciple ( dea?1 consi/s ( :at rema9$ 9 !m ( ,ca?olic ,*ri/5dom2 & to ,ca?olic ,*ri/5dom !y h always return$ to be re*>g$ ) vitality4 ,i "k t ?is w s\nd l a /atem5t to be *all5g$2 b x is true4 ,! return ( ,ca?olic ideas to ! sep>at$ p>ts ( ,*ri/5dom 0 (t5 inde$ indirect4 ,b ?\gh ! influ5ce came ?r\gh _m c5tres1 x always came f "o4 ,x came ?r\gh ! ,romantic ,movem5t1 a glimpse ( ! m]e picturesqu5ess ( m$ivalism2 b x is some?+ m ?an an accid5t t ,romances1 l ,romance languages1 are nam$ aft] ,rome4 ,or x came ?r\gh ! in/9ctive reaction ( old-fa%ion$ p l ,johnson or ,scott or ,cobbett1 wi%+ to save old elem5ts t _h orig9ally be5 ,ca?olic aga9/ a progress t 0 m]ely ,capitali/4 ,b x l$ !m to d5\nce t ,capitali/ progress & become1 l ,cobbett1 practical foes ( ,prote/antism )\t be+ practis+ foll[]s ( ,ca?olicism4 ,or x came f ! ,pre-,raphaelites or ! op5+ ( cont95tal art & culture by ,mat!w ,arnold & ,morris & ,rusk9 & ! re/4 ,b exam9e ! actual make-up ( ! m9d ( a good ,quak] or ,congregational m9i/] at ?is mom5t1 & comp>e x ) ! m9d ( su* a diss5t] 9 ! ,little ,be!l be=e su* culture came4 ,& y w see h[ mu* ( 8 heal? & happ9ess he owes to ,rusk9 & :at ,rusk9 ow$ to ,giotto2 to ,morris & :at ,morris ow$ to ,*auc]2 to f9e s*ol>s ( 8 own s*ool l ,philip ,wick/e$1 & :at !y owe to ,dante & ,/4 ,?omas4 ,su* a man w /ill sometimes talk ( ! ,middle ,ages z ! ,d>k ,ages4 ,b ! ,d>k ,ages h improv$ ! wallpap] on 8 wall & ! dress on 8 wife & all ! :ole d+y & vulg> life :i* he liv$ 9 ! days ( ,/igg9s & ,bro!r ,tadg]4 ,= he also is a ,*ri/ian & lives only by ! life ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,x is n easy to express ?is enorm\s inv]sion :i* ,i h "h tri$ to sugge/ 9 ! image ( a _w turn$ inside out4 ,i mean t ! ?+ :i* _h be5 />$ at z a small some?+ swells out & swall[s ev]y?+4 ,*ri/5dom is 9 ! lit]al s5se a cont95t4 ,we come to feel t x conta9s ev]y?+1 ev5 ! ?+s 9 revolt aga9/ itself4 ,b x is p]haps ! mo/ t[]+ intellectual trans=mation ( all & ! "o t x is h>de/ to undo ev5 = ! sake ( argum5t4 ,x is almo/ impossible ev5 9 imag9ation to rev]se t rev]sal4 ,ano!r way ( putt+ x is to say t we h come to reg>d all ^! hi/orical figures z *>act]s 9 ,ca?olic hi/ory1 ev5 if !y are n ,ca?olics4 ,& 9 a c]ta9 s5se1 ! hi/orical z di/9ct f ! !ological s5se1 !y nev] d cease to be ,ca?olic4 ,!y are n p :o h really creat$ some?+ entirely new1 until !y actually pass ! bord] ( reason & create m or less crazy nightm>es4 ,b nightm>es d n la/2 & mo/ ( !m ev5 n[ are 9 v>i\s /ages ( wak+ up4 ,prote/ants are ,ca?olics gone wrong2 t is :at is really meant by say+ !y are ,*ri/ians4 ,sometimes !y h gone v wrong2 b n (t5 h !y gone "r ahead ) _! own p>ticul> wrong4 ,?us a ,calv9i/ is a ,ca?olic obsess$ ) ! ,ca?olic idea ( ! sov]eignty ( ,god4 ,b :5 he makes x mean t ,god wi%es p>ticul> p to be damn$1 we may say ) all re/ra9t t he has become a r morbid ,ca?olic4 ,9 po9t ( fact he is a diseas$ ,ca?olic2 & ! disease left to itself w\ld be dea? or madness4 ,b1 z a matt] ( fact1 ! disease did n la/ long1 & is itself n[ practically dead4 ,b e /ep he takes back t[>ds humanity is a /ep back t[>ds ,ca?olicism4 ,?us a ,quak] is a ,ca?olic obsess$ ) ! ,ca?olic idea ( g5tle simplicity & tru?4 ,b :5 he made x mean t x is a lie to say 8y0 & an act ( idolatry to take (f y\r hat to a lady1 x is n too mu* to say t :e!r or n he _h a hat (f1 he c]ta9ly _h a tile loose4 ,b z a matt] ( fact he himself f\nd x necess>y to disp5se ) ! ecc5tricity 7& ! hat7 & to leave ! /raight road t w\ld h l$ him to a lunatic asylum4 ,only e /ep he takes back t[>ds common s5se is a /ep back t[>ds ,ca?olicism4 ,9 s f> z he 0 "r he 0 a ,ca?olic2 & 9 s f> z he 0 wrong he has n himself be5 able to rema9 a ,prote/ant4 ,to u1 !re=e1 x is h5ce=? impossible to ?9k ( ! ,quak] z a figure at ! beg9n+ ( a new ,quak] hi/ory or ! ,calv9i/ z ! f\nd] ( a new ,calv9i/ic _w4 ,x is q obvi\s to u t !y are simply *>act]s 9 our own ,ca?olic hi/ory1 only *>act]s :o caus$ a great deal ( tr\ble by try+ to d some?+ t we c\ld d bett] & t !y did n really d at all4 ,n[ "s may suppose t ?is c be ma9ta9$ ( ! old] sects l ,calv9i/s & ,quak]s1 b _c be ma9ta9$ ( mod]n movem5ts l ^? ( ,sociali/s or ,spirituali/s4 ,b !y w be q wrong4 ,! cov]+ or cont95tal "* ( ! ,*ur* applies j z mu* to mod]n manias z to ! old religi\s manias2 x applies q z mu* to ,mat]iali/s or ,spirituali/s z to ,puritans4 ,9 all ( !m y f9d t "s ,ca?olic dogma is1 fir/1 tak5 = grant$2 !n exagg]at$ into an error2 & !n g5]ally react$ aga9/ & reject$ z an error1 br++ ! individual 9 "q a few /eps back aga9 on ! homew>d road4 ,& ?is is almo/ always ! m>k ( su* a h]etic2 t :ile he w wildly "q any o!r ,ca?olic dogma1 he nev] dreams ( que/ion+ 8 own fav\rite ,ca?olic dogma & does n ev5 seem to "k t x c\ld be que/ion$4 ,x nev] occurr$ to ! ,calv9i/ t anybody might use 8 lib]ty to d5y or limit ! div9e omnipot5ce1 or to ! ,quak] t anyone c\ld "q ! supremacy ( simplicity4 ,t is exactly ! situation ( ! ,sociali/4 ,bol%evism & e %ade ( any su* !ory ( bro!rhood is bas$ ^u "o unfa?omably my/ical ,ca?olic dogma2 ! equality ( m54 ,! ,communi/s /ake ev]y?+ on ! equality ( man1 z ! ,calv9i/s /ak$ ev]y?+ on ! omnipot5ce ( ,god4 ,!y ride x to dea? z ! o!rs rode _! dogma to dea?1 turn+ _! horse into a nightm>e4 ,b x nev] seems to occur to !m t "s p d n believe 9 ! ,ca?olic dogma ( ! my/ical equality ( m54 ,yet !re are _m1 ev5 among ,*ri/ians1 :o are s h]etical z to "q x4 ,! ,sociali/s get into a great tangle :5 !y try to apply x2 !y compromise ) _! own ideals2 !y modify _! own doctr9e2 & s f9d !mselves1 l ! ,quak]s & ! ,calv9i/s1 aft] all _! extreme extravagances1 a day's m>* ne>] ,rome4 ,9 %ort1 ! /ory ( ^! sects is n "o ( /raight l9es /rik+ outw>ds & onw>ds1 ?\gh if x 7 !y w\ld all be /rik+ 9 diff]5t directions4 ,x is a patt]n ( curves cont9ually return+ into ! cont95t & common life ( _! & our civilisation2 & ! summ>y ( t civilisation & c5tral sanity is ! philosophy ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,to u1 ,spirituali/s are m5 /udy+ ! exi/5ce ( spirits1 9 a brief & bl9d+ oblivion ( ! exi/5ce ( evil spirits4 ,!y are1 z x 71 p j educat$ en\gh to h he>d ( gho/s b n educat$ en\gh to h he>d ( wit*es4 ,if ! evil spirits succe$ 9 /opp+ _! education & /unt+ _! m9ds1 !y may ( c\rse g on = ev] repeat+ silly messages f ,plato & dogg]el v]ses f ,milton4 ,b if !y d g a /ep or two fur!r1 in/ead ( m>k+ "t on ! bord]l&1 _! next /ep w be to le>n :at ! ,*ur* c\ld h taught4 ,to u1 ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/s are simply p ) "o idea1 :i* !y h nev] le>nt to balance & comb9e ) all ! o!r ideas4 ,t is :y ! weal?y bus9ess man s (t5 becomes a ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/4 ,he is n us$ to ideas & "o idea goes to 8 head1 l "o glass ( w9e to a />v+ man4 ,b ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is us$ to liv+ ) ideas & walks among all ^? v dang]\s wild bea/s ) ! poise & ! lift$ head ( a lion-tam]4 ,! ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/ c g on monoton\sly repeat+ 8 "o idea & rema9 a ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/4 ,b if ev] he really goes on to any o!r ideas1 he w be s mu* ! ne>] to be+ a ,ca?olic4 ,:5 ! conv]t has once se5 ! _w l t1 ) "o balance ( ideas & a numb] ( o!r ideas t h left x & lo/ _! balance1 he does n 9 fact exp]i5ce any ( ! inconv5i5ces t he might reasonably h fe>$ be=e t sil5t b /unn+ revolution4 ,he is n worri$ by be+ told t !re is some?+ 9 ,spiritualism or some?+ 9 ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce4 ,he kn[s !re is some?+ 9 ev]y?+4 ,b he is mov$ by ! m impressive fact t he f9ds ev]y?+ 9 some?+4 ,& he is q sure t if ^! inve/igators really are look+ = ev]y?+1 & n m]ely look+ = any?+1 !y w be m & m likely to look = x 9 ! same place4 ,9 t s5se he is f> less worri$ ab\t !m ?an he 0 :5 he ?\ght t "o or o!r ( !m might be ! only p]son hav+ any sort ( communication ) ! high] my/]ies & obvi\sly r capable ( mak+ a mess ( x4 ,he is no m likely to be ov]aw$ by ! fact t ,mrs4 ,eddy a*iev$ spiritual heal+ or ,mr4 ,home a*iev$ bodily levitation ?an a fully dress$ g5tleman 9 ,bond ,/reet w\ld be ov]aw$ by ! top-hat on ! head ( a nak$ savage4 ,a top-hat may be a good hat b x is a bad co/ume4 ,& a magnetic trick may be a suffici5t s5sation b x is a v insuffici5t philosophy4 ,he is no m envi\s ( a ,bol%evi/ = mak+ a revolution ?an ( a beav] = mak+ a dam2 = he kn[s 8 own civilisation c make ?+s on a patt]n n q s simple or s monoton\s4 ,b he believes ?is ( 8 civilisation & 8 religion & n m]ely ( himself4 ,!re is no?+ sup]cili\s ab\t 8 attitude2 because he is well aw>e t he has only scrat*$ ! surface ( ! spiritual e/ate t is n[ op5 to him4 ,9 o!r words1 ! conv]t does n 9 ! lea/ ab&on inve/igation or ev5 adv5ture4 ,he does n ?9k he kn[s ev]y?+1 nor has he lo/ curiosity ab\t ! ?+s he does n "k4 ,b exp]i5ce has taught him t he w f9d ne>ly ev]y?+ some:]e inside t e/ate & t a v l>ge numb] ( p are f9d+ next to no?+ outside x4 ,= ! e/ate is n only a =mal g>d5 or an ord]$ f>m2 !re is pl5ty ( hunt+ & fi%+ on x1 &1 z ! phrase goes1 v good sport4 ,= ?is is "o ( ! v que]e/ ( ! common delusions ab\t :at happ5s to ! conv]t4 ,9 "s muddl$ way p h confus$ ! natural rem>ks ( conv]ts1 ab\t hav+ f\nd moral peace1 ) "s idea ( _! hav+ f\nd m5tal re/1 9 ! s5se ( m5tal inaction4 ,!y might z well say t a man :o has completely recov]$ 8 heal?1 aft] an attack ( palsy or ,/4 ,vitus' dance1 signalises 8 heal?y /ate by sitt+ absolutely /ill l a /one4 ,recov]+ 8 heal? means recov]+ 8 p[] ( mov+ 9 ! "r way z di/9ct f ! wrong way2 b he w probably move a great deal m ?an be=e4 ,to become a ,ca?olic is n to leave (f ?9k+1 b to le>n h[ to ?9k4 ,x is s 9 exactly ! same s5se 9 :i* to recov] f palsy is n to leave (f mov+ b to le>n h[ to move4 ,! ,ca?olic conv]t has = ! fir/ "t a />t+-po9t = /raight & /r5u\s ?9k+4 ,he has = ! fir/ "t a way ( te/+ ! tru? 9 any "q t he raises4 ,z ! _w goes1 especially at pres5t1 x is ! o!r p1 ! hea!n & ! h]etics1 :o seem to h e virtue except ! p[] ( connect$ ?\ght4 ,!re 0 inde$ a brief p]iod :5 a small m9ority did "s h>d ?9k+ on ! hea!n or h]etical side4 ,x b>ely la/$ f ! "t ( ,voltaire to ! "t ( ,huxley4 ,x has n[ entirely disappe>$4 ,:at is n[ call$ free ?\ght is valu$1 n because x is free ?\ght1 b because x is fre$om f ?\ght2 because x is free ?\ghtlessness4 ,no?+ is m amus+ to ! conv]t1 :5 8 conv]sion has be5 complete = "s "t1 ?an to he> ! speculations ab\t :5 or :e!r he w rep5t ( ! conv]sion2 :5 he w be sick ( x1 h[ long he w /& x1 at :at /age ( 8 ext]nal exasp]ation he w />t up & say he c be> x no m4 ,= all ?is is f\nd$ on t optical illusion ab\t ! outside & ! inside :i* ,i h tri$ to sket* 9 ?is *apt]4 ,! outsid]s1 /& by & see1 or ?9k !y see1 ! conv]t ent]+ ) b[$ head a sort ( small temple :i* !y are conv9c$ is fitt$ up inside l a prison1 if n a torture-*amb]4 ,b all !y really "k ab\t x is t he has pass$ ?r\gh a door4 ,!y d n "k t he has n gone into ! inn] d>kness1 b out into ! broad daylight4 ,x is he :o is1 9 ! beautiful & beatific s5se ( ! ^w1 an outsid]4 ,he does n want to g into a l>g] room1 because he does n "k ( any l>g] room to g into4 ,he kn[s ( a l>ge numb] ( mu* small] rooms1 ea* ( :i* is labell$ z be+ v l>ge2 b he is q sure he w\ld be cramp$ 9 any ( !m4 ,ea* ( !m pr(esses to be a complete cosmos or s*eme ( all ?+s2 b !n s does ! cosmos ( ! ,clapham ,sect or ! ,clapton ,agapemone4 ,ea* ( !m is suppos$ to be dom$ ) ! sky or pa9t$ inside ) all ! />s4 ,b ea* ( ^! cosmic sy/ems or ma*9es seems to him mu* small] & ev5 mu* simpl] ?an ! broad & balanc$ univ]se 9 :i* he lives4 ,"o ( !m is labell$ ,agno/ic2 b he kn[s by exp]i5ce t x has n really ev5 ! fre$om ( ignorance4 ,x is a :eel t mu/ always g r\nd )\t a s+le jolt ( miracul\s int]ruption--a circle t mu/ n be squ>$ by any high] ma!matics ( my/icism2 a ma*9e t mu/ be sc\r$ z clean ( all spirits z if x 7 ! av[$ ma*9e ( mat]ialism4 ,9 liv+ 9 a _w ) two ord]s1 ! sup]natural & ! natural1 ! conv]t feels he is liv+ 9 a l>g] _w & does n feel any temptation to crawl back into a small] "o4 ,"o ( !m is labell$ ,!osophical or ,buddhi/ic2 b he kn[s by exp]i5ce t x is only ! same sort ( we>isome :eel us$ = spiritual ?+s in/ead ( mat]ial ?+s4 ,liv+ 9 a _w :]e he is free to d any?+1 ev5 to g to ! devil1 he does n see :y he %\ld tie himself to ! :eel ( a m]e de/9y4 ,"o ( !m is labell$ ,humanit>ian2 b he kn[s t su* humanit>ians h really f> less exp]i5ce ( humanity4 ,he kn[s t !y are ?9k+ almo/ entirely ( m5 z !y are at ?is mom5t 9 mod]n cities1 & h no?+ l ! huge human int]e/ ( :at began by be+ prea*$ to legion>ies 9 ,pale/9e & is /ill be+ prea*$ to peasants 9 ,*9a4 ,s cle> is ?is p]ception t ,i h sometimes put x to myself1 z some?+ betwe5 a melan*oly m$itation & a joke4 8,:]e %\ld ,i g n[1 if ,i did leave ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*80 ,i c]ta9ly w\ld n g to any ( ^? little social sects :i* only express "o idea at a "t1 because t idea happ5s to be fa%ionable at ! mom5t4 ,! be/ ,i c\ld hope = w\ld be to w&] away into ! woods & become1 n a ,pan!i/ 7= t is also a limitation & a bore7 b r a pagan1 9 ! mood to cry out t "s p>ticul> m\nta9 peak or fl[]+ fruit tree 0 sacr$ & a ?+ to be wor%ipp$4 ,t at lea/ w\ld be beg9n+ all ov] aga92 b x w\ld br+ me back to ! same problem 9 ! end4 ,if x 0 reasonable to h a sacr$ tree x 0 n unreasonable to h a sacr$ crucifix2 & if ! god 0 to be f\nd on "o peak he may z reasonably be f\nd "u "o spire4 ,to f9d a new religion is soon] or lat] to h f\nd "o2 & :y %\ld ,i h be5 discont5t$ ) ! "o ,i _h f\nd8 ,especially1 z ,i said 9 ! fir/ words ( ?is essay1 :5 x is ! "o old religion :i* seems capable ( rema9+ new4 ,i "k v well t if ,i w5t ^u t j\rney ,i %\ld ei!r despair or return2 & t none ( ! trees w\ld ev] be a sub/itute = ! real sacr$ tree4 ,paganism is bett] ?an pan!ism1 = paganism is free to imag9e div9ities1 :ile pan!ism is =c$ to pret5d1 9 a priggi% way1 t all ?+s are equally div9e4 ,b ,i %\ld n imag9e any div9ity t 0 suffici5tly div9e4 ,i seem to "k t we>y return ?r\gh ! woodl&s2 = ,i ?9k 9 "s symbolic fa%ion ,i h walk$ t road be=e4 ,= z ,i h tri$ to confess "h )\t excessive egotism1 ,i ?9k ,i am ! sort ( man :o came to ,*ri/ f ,pan & ,dionysus & n f ,lu!r or ,laud2 t ! conv]sion ,i und]/& is t ( ! pagan & n ! ,puritan2 & ^u t antique conv]sion is f\nd$ ! :ole _w t we "k4 ,x is a trans=mation f> m va/ & trem5d\s ?an any?+ t has be5 meant = _m ye>s pa/1 at lea/ 9 ,engl& & ,am]ica1 by a sect>ian controv]sy or a doctr9al division4 ,on ! height ( t anci5t empire & t int]national exp]i5ce1 humanity _h a vision4 ,x has n _h ano!r2 b only qu>rels ab\t t "o4 ,paganism 0 ! l>ge/ ?+ 9 ! _w & ,*ri/ianity 0 l>g]2 & ev]y?+ else has be5 comp>atively small4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,! ,,exception ,,proves ,,! ,,rule ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,*apt] ,v ,,! ,,exception ,,proves ,,! ,,rule ,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is ! only ?+ :i* saves a man f ! degrad+ slav]y ( be+ a *ild ( 8 age4 ,i h comp>$ x ) ! ,new ,religions2 b ?is is exactly :]e x diff]s f ! ,new ,religions4 ,! ,new ,religions are 9 _m ways suit$ to ! new conditions2 b !y are only suit$ to ! new conditions4 ,:5 ^? conditions %all h *ang$ 9 only a c5tury or s1 ! po9ts ^u :i* alone !y insi/ at pres5t w h become almo/ po9tless4 ,if ! ,fai? has all ! fre%ness ( a new religion1 x has all ! ri*ness ( an old religion2 x has especially all ! res]ves ( an old religion4 ,s f> z t is conc]n$1 its antiquity is alone a great advantage1 & especially a great advantage = purposes ( r5ovation & y\?4 ,x is only by ! analogy ( animal bodies t we suppose t old ?+s mu/ be /iff4 ,x is a m]e metaphor f bones & art]ies4 ,9 an intellectual s5se old ?+s are flexible4 ,above all1 !y are v>i\s & h _m alt]natives to (f]4 ,!re is a sort ( rotation ( crops 9 religi\s hi/ory2 & old fields c lie fall[ = a :ile & !n be work$ aga94 ,b :5 ! new religion or any su* notion has s[n its "o crop ( wild oats1 :i* ! w9d g5]ally bl[s away1 x is b>r54 ,a ?+ z old z ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* has an accumulat$ arm\ry & treasury to *oose f2 x c pick & *oose among ! c5turies & br+s "o age to ! rescue ( ano!r4 ,x c call 9 ! old _w to r$ress ! balance ( ! new4 ,anyh[1 ! ,new ,religions are suit$ to ! new _w2 & ?is is _! mo/ damn+ defect4 ,ea* religion is produc$ by contempor>y causes t c be cle>ly po9t$ out4 ,socialism is a reaction aga9/ ,capitalism4 ,spiritualism is a reaction aga9/ ,mat]ialism2 x is also 9 its int5sifi$ =m m]ely ! trail ( ! trag$y ( ! ,great ,w>4 ,b !re is a some:at m subtle s5se 9 :i* ! v fitness ( ! new cre$s makes !m unfit2 _! v acceptability makes !m inacceptable4 ,?us !y all pr(ess to be progressive because ! peculi> boa/ ( _! peculi> p]iod 0 progress2 !y claim to be democratic because our political sy/em /ill r pa!tically claims to be democratic4 ,!y ru%$ to a reconciliation ) sci5ce1 :i* 0 (t5 only a premature surr5d] to sci5ce4 ,!y ha/ily dive/$ !mselves ( any?+ consid]$ d[dy or old-fa%ion$ 9 ! way ( ve/ure or symbol4 ,!y claim$ to h bright s]vices & *e]y s]mons2 ! *ur*es compet$ ) ! c9emas2 ! *ur*es ev5 became c9emas4 ,9 its m mod]ate =m ! mood 0 m]ely "o ( prais+ natural pleasures1 su* z ! enjoym5t ( nature & ev5 ! enjoym5t ( human nature4 ,^! are excell5t ?+s & ?is is an excell5t lib]ty2 & yet x has its limitations4 ,we d n really want a religion t is "r :]e we are "r4 ,:at we want is a religion t is "r :]e we are wrong4 ,9 ^! curr5t fa%ions x is n really a "q ( ! religion all[+ u lib]ty2 b 7at ! be/7 ( ! lib]ty all[+ u a religion4 ,^! p m]ely take ! mod]n mood1 ) mu* 9 x t is amiable & mu* t is an>*ical & mu* t is m]ely dull & obvi\s1 & !n require any cre$ to be cut d[n to fit t mood4 ,b ! mood w\ld exi/ ev5 )\t ! cre$4 ,!y say !y want a religion to be social1 :5 !y w\ld be social )\t any religion4 ,!y say !y want a religion to be practical1 :5 !y w\ld be practical )\t any religion4 ,!y say !y want a religion acceptable to sci5ce1 :5 !y w\ld accept ! sci5ce ev5 if !y did n accept ! religion4 ,!y say !y want a religion l ?is because !y are l ?is already4 ,!y say !y want x1 :5 !y mean t !y c\ld d )\t x4 ,x is a v diff]5t matt] :5 a religion1 9 ! real s5se ( a b9d+ ?+1 b9ds m5 to _! morality :5 x is n id5tical ) _! mood4 ,x is v diff]5t :5 "s ( ! sa9ts prea*$ social reconciliation to fi]ce & rag+ factions :o c\ld h>dly be> ! sight ( ea* o!rs' faces4 ,x 0 a v diff]5t ?+ :5 *>ity 0 prea*$ to pagans :o really did n believe 9 x2 j z x is a v diff]5t ?+ n[1 :5 *a/ity is prea*$ to new pagans :o d n believe 9 x4 ,x is 9 ^? cases t we get ! real grapple ( religion2 & x is 9 ^? cases t we get ! peculi> & solit>y triumph ( ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,x is n 9 m]ely be+ "r :5 we are "r1 z 9 be+ *e]ful or hopeful or humane4 ,x is 9 hav+ be5 "r :5 we 7 wrong1 & 9 ! fact com+ back ^u u aft]w>ds l a boom]ang4 ,"o ^w t tells u :at we d n "k outweighs a ?\s& words t tell u :at we d "k4 ,& ! ?+ is all ! m /rik+ if we n only did n "k x b c\ld n believe x4 ,x may seem a p>adox to say t ! tru? tea*es u m by ! words we reject ?an by ! words we receive4 ,yet ! p>adox is a p>able ( ! simple/ sort & famili> to u all2 any example might be giv5 ( x4 ,if a man tells u to avoid public h\ses1 we ?9k him a tiresome ?\gh p]haps a well-int5tion$ old p>ty4 ,if he tells u to use public h\ses1 we recognise t he has a high] morality & pres5ts an ideal t is inde$ l(ty1 b p]haps a little too simple & obvi\s to ne$ def5ce4 ,b if a man tells u to avoid ! "o p>ticul> public h\se call$ ,! ,pig & ,:i/le1 on ! left h& z y turn r\nd by ! pond1 ! direction may seem v dogmatic & arbitr>y & %[+ insuffici5t process ( argum5t4 ,b if we !n fl+ ourselves into ,! ,pig & ,:i/le & are imm$iately poison$ ) ! g9 or smo!r$ 9 ! fea!r-b$ & robb$ ( our money1 we recognise t ! man :o advis$ u did "k some?+ ab\t x & _h a cultivat$ & sci5tific k ( ! public h\ses ( ! di/rict4 ,we ?9k x ev5 m1 z we em]ge half-murd]$ f ,! ,pig & ,:i/le1 if we orig9ally reject$ 8 w>n+ z a silly sup]/ition4 ,! w>n+ itself is almo/ m impressive if x 0 n ju/ifi$ by reasons1 b only by results4 ,!re is some?+ v notable ab\t a ?+ :i* is arbitr>y :5 x is also accurate4 ,we may v easily =get1 ev5 :ile we fulfil1 ! advice t we ?\ght 0 self-evid5t s5se4 ,b no?+ c measure our my/ical & unfa?omable rev]5ce = ! advice t we ?\ght 0 nons5se4 ,z w be se5 9 a mom5t1 ,i d n mean 9 ! lea/ t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is arbitr>y 9 ! s5se ( nev] giv+ reasons2 b ,i d mean t ! conv]t is pr(\ndly affect$ by ! fact t1 ev5 :5 he did n see ! reason1 he liv$ to see t x 0 reasonable4 ,b !re is some?+ ev5 m s+ul> ?an ?is1 :i* x w be well to note z a "p ( ! conv]t's exp]i5ce4 ,9 _m cases1 z a matt] ( fact1 he did orig9ally h a glimpse ( ! reasons1 ev5 if he did n reason ab\t !m2 b !y 7 =gott5 9 ! int]lude :5 reason 0 cl\d$ by rationalism4 ,! po9t is n v easy to expla91 & ,i %all be oblig$ to take m]ely p]sonal examples 9 ord] to expla9 x4 ,i mean t we h (t5 _h a premonition z well z a w>n+2 & ! fact (t5 comes back to u aft] we h disreg>d$ bo?4 ,x is wor? not+ 9 connection ) conv]sion1 because ! conv]t is (t5 ob/ruct$ by a cat*word :i* says t ! ,*ur* cru%es ! consci5ce4 ,! ,*ur* does n cru% any man's consci5ce4 ,x is ! man :o cru%es 8 consci5ce & !n f9ds out t x 0 "r1 :5 he has almo/ =gott5 t he _h "o4 ,i w take two examples out ( ! new movem5ts3 ,socialism & ,spiritualism4 ,n[ x is p]fectly true t :5 ,i fir/ began to ?9k s]i\sly ab\t ,socialism1 ,i 0 a ,sociali/4 ,b x is equally true1 & m important ?an x s\nds1 t be=e ,i _h ev] he>d ( ,socialism ,i 0 a /rong anti-,sociali/4 ,i 0 :at has s9ce be5 call$ a ,di/ributi/1 ?\gh ,i did n "k x4 ,:5 ,i 0 a *ild & dream$ ! usual dreams ab\t k+s & cl[ns & robb]s & policem51 ,i always conceiv$ all cont5tm5t & dignity z consi/+ 9 some?+ compact & p]sonal2 9 be+ k+ ( ! ca/le or capta9 ( ! pirate %ip or ! man :o own$ ! %op or ! robb] :o 0 safe 9 ! cav]n4 ,z ,i pass$ ?r\gh boyhood ,i always imag9$ battles = ju/ice z be+ ! def5ce ( special walls & h\ses & high defiant %r9es2 & ,i embodi$ "s ( ^? crude b col\r$ visions 9 a /ory call$ ,! ,napoleon ( ,nott+ ,hill4 ,all ?is happ5$1 9 fancy at lea/1 :5 ,i _h nev] he>d ( ,socialism & 0 a mu* bett] judge ( x4 ,%ades ( ! prison-h\se began to close & ) !m came a m]ely me*anical discussion z to h[ we 7 all to get out ( prison4 ,!n inde$1 9 ! d>kness ( ! dungeon1 0 he>d ! voice ( ,mr4 ,sidney ,webb1 tell+ u t we c\ld only conceivably get out ( our ,capitali/ captivity ) ! pat5t ,*ubb key ( ,collectivism4 ,or to use a m exact metaphor1 he told u t we c\ld only escape f our d>k & fil?y cells ( indu/rial slav]y by melt+ all our private lat*keys into "o gigantic lat*key z l>ge z a batt]+ ram4 ,we did n really l giv+ up our little private keys or local atta*m5ts or love ( our own possessions2 b we 7 q conv9c$ t social ju/ice mu/ be done someh[ & c\ld only be done sociali/ically4 ,i !re=e became a ,sociali/ 9 ! old days ( ! ,fabian ,society2 & s ,i ?9k did ev]ybody else wor? talk+ ab\t--except ! ,ca?olics4 ,& ! ,ca?olics 7 an insignificant h&ful1 ! dregs ( a dead religion1 ess5tially a sup]/ition4 ,ab\t ?is "t appe>$ ! ,encyclical on ,lab\r by ,leo ,,xiii2 & nobody 9 our really well-in=m$ _w took mu* notice ( x4 ,c]ta9ly ! ,pope spoke z /rongly z any ,sociali/ c\ld speak :5 he said t ,capitalism 8laid on ! toil+ millions a yoke little bett] ?an slav]y40 ,b z ! ,pope 0 n a ,sociali/ x 0 obvi\s t he _h n read ! "r ,sociali/ books & pamphlets2 & we c\ld n expect ! poor old g5tleman to "k :at e "y man knew by ?is "t--t ,socialism 0 inevitable4 ,t 0 a long "t ago1 & by a gradual process1 mo/ly practical & political1 :i* ,i h no int5tion ( describ+ "h1 mo/ ( u began to realise t ,socialism 0 n inevitable2 t x 0 n really popul>2 t x 0 n ! only way1 or ev5 ! "r way1 ( re/or+ ! rights ( ! poor4 ,we h come to ! conclusion t ! obvi\s cure = private prop]ty be+ giv5 to ! few is to see t x is giv5 to ! _m2 n to see t x is tak5 away f ev]ybody or giv5 9 tru/ to ! de> good politicians4 ,!n1 hav+ discov]$ t fact z a fact1 we look back at ,leo ,,xiii & discov] 9 8 old & dat$ docum5t1 ( :i* we took no notice at ! "t1 t he 0 say+ !n exactly :at we are say+ n[4 8,z _m z possible ( ! work+ classes %\ld become own]s40 ,t is :at ,i mean by ! ju/ification ( arbitr>y w>n+4 ,if ! ,pope _h said !n exactly :at we said & want$ him to say1 we %\ld n h really rev]5c$ him !n & we %\ld h entirely repudiat$ him aft]w>ds4 ,he w\ld only h m>*$ ) ! million :o accept$ ,fabianism2 & ) !m he w\ld h m>*$ away4 ,b :5 he saw a di/9ction we did n see !n1 & d see n[1 t di/9ction is decisive4 ,x m>ks a disagreem5t m conv9c+ ?an a hundr$ agreem5ts4 ,x is n t he 0 "r :5 we 7 "r1 b t he 0 "r :5 we 7 wrong4 ,! sup]ficial critic ( ^! ?+s1 not+ t ,i am no long] a ,sociali/1 w always say1 8,( c\rse1 y are a ,ca?olic & y are n all[$ to be a ,sociali/40 ,to :i* ,i answ] emphatically1 ,no4 ,t is miss+ ! :ole po9t4 ,! ,*ur* anticipat$ my exp]i5ce2 b x 0 exp]i5ce & n only ob$i5ce4 ,i am q sure n[ f m]ely liv+ 9 ?is _w1 & see+ some?+ ( ,ca?olic peasants z well z ,collectivi/ (ficials1 t x is happi] & heal?i] = mo/ m5 to become own]s ?an = !m to give up all own]%ip to ^? (ficials4 ,i d n foll[ ! ,/ate ,sociali/ 9 8 extreme belief 9 ! ,/ate2 b ,i h n ceas$ to be cr$ul\s ab\t ! ,/ate m]ely because ,i h become cr$ul\s ab\t ! ,*ur*4 ,i believe less 9 ! ,/ate because ,i "k m ( ! /atesm54 ,i _c believe small prop]ty to be impossible aft] ,i h se5 x4 ,i _c believe ,/ate managem5t to be impeccable aft] ,i h se5 x4 ,x is n any au?ority1 except :at ,/4 ,?omas calls ! au?ority ( ! s5ses1 :i* tells me t ! m]e community ( goods is a solution t is too mu* ( a simplification4 ,! ,*ur* has taught me1 b ,i c\ld n untea* myself2 ,i h le>n$ because ,i h liv$1 & ,i c\ld n unle>n x4 ,if ,i ceas$ to be a ,ca?olic ,i c\ld n aga9 be a ,communi/4 ,z x happ5s1 my /ory 0 almo/ exactly ! same 9 connection ) ,spiritualism4 ,!re aga9 ,i 0 mod]n :5 ,i 0 "y1 b n :5 ,i 0 v "y4 ,:ile ,i _h a vague b innoc5t nurs]y religion /ill hang+ ab\t me1 ,i reg>d$ ! fir/ signs ( ^! psy*ic & psy*ological ?+s ) m]e repugnance4 ,i hat$ ! :ole notion ( mesm]ism & magnetic tricks ) ! m9d2 ,i loa!d _! bulg+ eyes & /iff attitudes & unnatural trances & ! :ole bag ( tricks4 ,:5 ,i saw a girl ,i admir$ set d[n to cry/al-gaz+1 ,i 0 furi\s2 ,i h>dly knew :y4 ,!n came ! p]iod :5 ,i want$ to "k :y1 :5 ,i exam9$ my own reasons & f\nd ,i _h none4 ,i saw t x 0 inconsi/5t 9 sci5ce to rev]e rese>* & =bid psy*ical rese>*4 ,i saw t m5 ( sci5ce 7 m & m accept+ ^! ?+s & ,i w5t along ) my sci5tific age4 ,i 0 nev] exactly a ,spirituali/1 b ,i almo/ always def5d$ ,spiritualism4 ,i exp]im5t$ ) a plan*ette1 q en\gh to conv9ce myself f9ally t "s ?+s d happ5 t are n 9 ! ord9>y s5se natural4 ,i h s9ce come to ?9k1 = reasons t w\ld require too mu* space to detail1 t x is n s mu* sup]natural z unnatural & ev5 anti-natural4 ,i believe ! exp]im5ts 7 bad = me2 ,i believe !y are bad = ! o!r exp]im5tali/s4 ,b ,i f\nd out ! fact long be=e ,i f\nd out ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* or ! ,ca?olic view ( t "q4 ,only1 z ,i h said1 :5 ,i d f9d x out1 ,i f9d x r impressive2 = x is n ! religion t 0 "r :5 ,i 0 "r1 b ! religion t 0 "r :5 ,i 0 wrong4 ,b ,i wi% to note ab\t bo? ^? cases t ! common cant 9 ! matt] is emphatically n true4 ,x is n true t ! ,*ur* cru%$ my natural consci5ce2 x is n true t ! ,*ur* ask$ me to give up my individual ideal4 ,x is n true t ,collectivism 0 ev] my ideal4 ,i d n believe x 0 ev] really anybody else's ideal4 ,x 0 n an ideal b a compromise2 x 0 a concession to practical economi/s :o told u t we c\ld n prev5t pov]ty except by some?+ uncommonly l slav]y4 ,/ate ,socialism nev] came natural to u2 x nev] conv9c$ u t x 0 natural2 x conv9c$ u t x 0 necess>y4 ,9 exactly ! same way ,spiritualism nev] came z some?+ natural b only z some?+ necess>y4 ,ea* told u t x 0 ! only way into ! promis$ l&1 9 ! "o case ( a future life & ! o!r ( life 9 ! future4 ,we did n l gov]nm5t dep>tm5ts & tickets & regi/]s2 b we 7 told !re 0 no o!r way ( rea*+ a bett] society4 ,we did n l d>k rooms & dubi\s m$iums & ladies ti$ up ) rope1 b we 7 told !re 0 no o!r way to rea* a bett] _w4 ,we 7 ready to crawl d[n a municipal dra9-pipe or ?r\gh a spiritual sew]1 because x 0 ! only way to bett] ?+s2 ! only way ev5 to prove t !re 7 bett] ?+s4 ,b ! dra9-pipe _h nev] figur$ 9 our dreams l a t[] ( ivory or a h\se ( gold1 or ev5 l ! robb]s' t[] ( our romantic boyhood or ! solid & com=table h\se ( our matur$ exp]i5ce4 ,! ,fai? _h n only be5 true all along1 b x _h be5 true to ! fir/ & ! la/ ?+s1 to our unspoilt in/9cts & our conclusive exp]i5ce2 & x _h condemn$ no?+ b an int]lude ( intellectual snobbi%ness & surr5d] to ! p]suasions ( p$antry4 ,x _h condemn$ no?+ b :at we ourselves %\ld h come to condemn1 ?\gh we might h condemn$ x too late4 ,! ,*ur* !re=e nev] made my individual ideal impossible2 x w\ld be tru] to say t %e 0 ! fir/ to make x possible4 ,! ,encyclical's ideal _h be5 mu* ne>] my own in/9ct ?an ! ideal ,i _h cons5t$ to sub/itute = x4 ,! ,ca?olic suspicion ( table-rapp+ 0 mu* m l my own orig9al suspicion ?an x 0 l my own subsequ5t surr5d]4 ,b 9 ^? two cases x is surely cle> t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* plays exactly ! "p t %e pr(esses to play3 some?+ t kn[s :at we _c be expect$ to "k1 b %\ld probably accept if we really knew x4 ,i am n 9 ?is case1 any m ?an 9 ! great] "p ( ?is /udy1 ref]r+ to ! ?+s t are really be/ wor? kn[+4 ,! sup]natural tru?s are connect$ ) ! my/]y ( grace & are a matt] = !ologians2 admitt$ly a r delicate & difficult matt] ev5 = !m4 ,b ?\gh ! transc5d5tal tru?s are ! mo/ important !y are n ^? t be/ illu/rate ?is p>ticul> po9t1 :i* conc]ns ! decisions :i* c be m or less te/$ by exp]i5ce4 ,& ( all ^? ?+s t c be te/$ by exp]i5ce ,i c\ld tell ! same /ory3 t !re 0 a "t :5 ,i ?\ght ! ,ca?olic doctr9e 0 mean+less1 b t ev5 t 0 n ! v e>lie/ "t1 :i* 0 a "t ( great] simplicity1 :5 ,i _h a sort ( glimpse ( ! mean+ ?\gh ,i _h nev] ev5 he>d ( ! doctr9e4 ,! _w deceiv$ me & ! ,*ur* w\ld at any "t h undeceiv$ me4 ,! ?+ t a man may really %$ at la/ l a sup]/ition is ! fa%ion ( ?is _w t passes away4 ,i c\ld give _m o!r examples1 b ,i fe> !y w\ld inevitably t5d to be egoti/ical examples4 ,?r\gh\t ?is brief /udy ,i am "u ! d\ble difficulty t all roads lead to ,rome1 b t ea* pilgrim is tempt$ to talk z if all roads _h be5 l 8 own road4 ,i c\ld write a great deal1 = in/ance1 ab\t my e>ly wre/l+s ) ! r ridicul\s dilemma :i* 0 put to me 9 my y\? by ! optimi/ & ! pessimi/4 ,i promptly & prop]ly refus$ to be a pessimi/2 & ,i !re=e fell into ! way ( call+ myself an optimi/4 ,n[ ,i %\ld n call myself ei!r1 & :at is m important ,i c see t virtue may be entangl$ 9 bo?4 ,b ,i ?9k x is entangl$2 & ,i ?9k t an old] & simpl] tru? c loos5 ! tangle4 ,b ! po9t 9 ! pres5t connection is ?is2 t be=e ,i _h ev] he>d ( optimi/s or pessimi/s ,i 0 some?+ mu* m l :at ,i am n[ ?an c\ld be cov]$ by ei!r ( ^? two p$antic words4 ,9 my *ildhood ,i assum$ t *e]fulness 0 a good ?+1 b ,i also assum$ t x 0 a bad ?+ n to prote/ aga9/ ?+s t are really bad4 ,aft] an int]lude ( intellectual =malism & false anti!sis1 ,i h come back to be+ able to ?9k :at ,i c\ld !n only feel4 ,b ,i h realis$ t ! prote/ c rise to a mu* m div9e indignation & t ! *e]fulness is b a fa9t sugge/ion ( a mu* m div9e joy4 ,x is n s mu* t ,i h f\nd ,i 0 wrong z t ,i h f\nd out :y ,i 0 "r4 ,9 ?is we f9d ! supreme example ( ! exception t proves ! rule4 ,! rule1 ( :i* ,i h giv5 a r\gh outl9e 9 ! previ\s *apt]1 is t ! ,ca?olic philosophy is a univ]sal philosophy f\nd to fit any:]e ) human nature & ! nature ( ?+s4 ,b ev5 :5 x does n fit 9 ) human nature x is f\nd 9 ! long run to fav\r some?+ yet m fitt+4 ,x g5]ally suits u1 b :]e x does n suit u we le>n to suit x1 s long z we are alive en\gh to le>n any?+4 ,9 ! r>e cases :]e a reasonable man c really say t x cuts across 8 intellig5ce1 x w g5]ally be f\nd t x is true1 n only to tru?1 b ev5 to 8 deepe/ in/9ct = tru?4 ,education does n cease ) conv]sion1 b r beg9s4 ,! man does n cease to /udy because he has become conv9c$ t c]ta9 ?+s are wor? /udy+2 & ^! ?+s include n only ! or?odox values b ev5 ! or?odox vetoes4 ,/rangely en\gh1 9 a s5se1 ! =bidd5 fruit is (t5 m fruitful ?an ! free4 ,x is m fruitful 9 ! s5se ( a fasc9at+ botanical /udy ( :y x is really poison\s4 ,?us1 = ! sake ( an example1 all heal?y p h an in/9ct aga9/ usury2 & ! ,*ur* has only confirm$ t in/9ct4 ,b to le>n h[ to def9e usury1 to /udy :at x is & to argue :y x is wrong1 is to h a lib]al education1 n only 9 political economy1 b 9 ! philosophy ( ,ari/otle & ! hi/ory ( ! ,c\ncils ( ,lat]an4 ,!re almo/ always is a human reason = all ! m]ely human advice giv5 by ! ,*ur* to humanity2 & to f9d out ! pr9ciple ( ! ?+ is1 among o!r ?+s1 "o ( ! ke5e/ ( intellectual pleasures4 ,b 9 any case ! fact rema9s t ! ,*ur* is "r 9 ! ma9 9 be+ tol]ant 9 ! ma92 b t :]e %e is intol]ant %e is mo/ "r & ev5 mo/ reasonable4 ,adam liv$ 9 a g>d5 :]e a ?\s& m]cies 7 grant$ to him2 b ! "o inhibition 0 ! greate/ m]cy ( all4 ,9 ! same way1 let ! conv]t1 or /ill m ! semi-conv]t1 face any "o fact t does seem to him to deface ! ,ca?olic s*eme z a falsehood2 & if he faces x long en\gh he w probably f9d t x is ! greate/ tru? ( all4 ,i h f\nd ?is myself 9 t extreme logic ( free w :i* is f\nd 9 ! fall5 angels & ! possibility ( p]dition4 ,su* ?+s are altoge!r beyond my imag9ation1 b ! l9es ( logic g out t[>ds !m 9 my reason4 ,inde$1 ,i c und]take to ju/ify ! :ole ,ca?olic !ology1 if ,i be grant$ to />t ) ! supreme sacr$ness & value ( two ?+s3 ,reason & ,lib]ty4 ,x is an illum9at+ comm5t on curr5t anti-,ca?olic talk t !y are ! two ?+s :i* mo/ p imag9e to be =bidd5 to ,ca?olics4 ,b ! be/ way ( putt+ :at ,i mean is to repeat :at ,i h already said1 9 connection ) ! satisfy+ scope ( ,ca?olic univ]sality4 ,i _c picture ^! !ological ultimates & ,i h n ! au?ority or le>n+ to def9e !m4 ,b ,i /ill put ! matt] to myself ?us3 ,suppos+ ,i 7 s mis]able z to lose ! ,fai?1 c\ld ,i g back to t *eap *>ity & crude optimism :i* says t e s9 is a blund]1 t evil _c conqu] or does n ev5 exi/8 ,i c\ld no m g back to ^? cu%ion$ *apels ?an a man :o has rega9$ 8 sanity w\ld will+ly g back to a padd$ cell4 ,i might cease to believe 9 a ,god ( any k9d2 b ,i c\ld n cease to ?9k t a ,god :o _h made m5 & angels free 0 f9] ?an "o :o co]c$ !m into com=t4 ,i might cease to believe 9 a future life ( any k9d2 b ,i c\ld n cease to ?9k x 0 a f9] doctr9e t we *oose & make our future life ?an t x is fitt$ out = u l an hotel & we are tak5 !re 9 a cele/ial omnibus z compulsory z a ,black ,m>ia4 ,i "k t ,ca?olicism is too l>ge = me1 & ,i h n yet explor$ its beautiful or t]rible tru?s4 ,b ,i "k t ,univ]salism is too small = me2 & ,i c\ld n creep back into t dull safety1 :o h look$ on ! dizzy vision ( lib]ty4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,a ,,note ,,on ,,pres5t ,,prospects ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,,*apt] ,,vi ,a ,,note ,,on ,,pres5t ,,prospects ,on reconsid]+ ^! notes ,i f9d !m to be f> too p]sonal2 yet ,i d n "k h[ any conception ( conv]sion c be any?+ else4 ,i d n pr(ess to h any p>ticul> k ab\t ! actual conditions & calculations ( ! ,ca?olic movem5t at ! mom5t4 ,i d n believe t anybody else has any k ( :at x w be l ! next mom5t4 ,/ati/ics are g5]ally mislead+ & pr$ictions are practically always false4 ,b !re is always a c]ta9 fa9t tradition ( ! ?+ call$ common s5se2 & s long z a glimm] ( x rema9s1 9 spite ( all j\rnalism & ,/ate in/ruction1 x is possible to appreciate :at we call a reality4 ,nobody 9 8 five wits w d5y t at ?is mom5t conv]sion is a reality4 ,ev]ybody kn[s t 8 own social circle1 :i* fifty ye>s ago w\ld h be5 a firm t]ritory ( ,prote/antism1 p]haps h>d5+ into rationalism or indiff]5ce b do+ ev5 t sl[ly & )\t consci\s convulsion1 has j lately %[n a curi\s disposition to collapse s(tly & sudd5ly1 fir/ 9 "o unexpect$ place & !n 9 ano!r1 mak+ great holes 9 t solid l& & lett+ up ! leap+ flames ( :at 0 c\nt$ an ext9ct volcano4 ,x is 9 ev]ybody's exp]i5ce1 :e!r he is sad or glad or mad or m]ely indiff]5t1 t ^! conv]sions seem to come ( !mselves 9 ! mo/ curi\s & app>5tly accid5tal qu>t]s2 ,tom's wife1 ,h>ry's bro!r1 ,fanny's funny si/]-9-law :o w5t on ! /age1 ,sam's ecc5tric uncle :o /udi$ milit>y /rategy--( ea* ( ^! isolat$ s\ls we he> sudd5ly t x is isolat$ no long]4 ,x is "o ) ! s\ls militant & triumphant4 ,aga9/ ^! ?+s 7:i* we "k z facts & d n m]ely read z /ati/ics7 !re is admitt$ly some?+ to be set4 ,x is :at is commonly call$ leakage2 & ) a p>agraph ^u ?is po9t ,i w close ^! pages4 ,fa!r ,ronald ,knox1 ) t felicity t is s good t ! wit almo/ seems l good luck1 has rem>k$ t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* really does h to get on by hook or crook4 ,t is1 by ! hook ( ! fi%]man & ! crook ( ! %eph]d2 & x is ! hook t has to cat* ! conv]t & ! crook t has to keep him4 ,he said 9 ?is connection t ! conv]sions to ! ,*ur* j n[ 7 s num]\s t !y w\ld be obvi\s & ov]:elm+1 l a l&slide1 if x 7 n t !y 7 neutralis$ 9 m]e numb]s1 or r less5$ 9 _! full claim ( numb]s1 by a c]ta9 am\nt ( fall+ away 9 o!r directions4 ,n[ ! fir/ fact to realise is t x is 9 o!r directions1 9 totally diff]5t directions4 ,"s p1 especially "y p1 ab&on practis+ ,ca?olicism4 ,b none ( !m ab&on x = ,prote/antism4 ,all ( !m practically ab&on x = paganism4 ,mo/ ( !m ab&on x = some?+ t is really r too simple to be call$ an ism ( any k9d4 ,!y ab&on x = ?+s & n !ories2 & :5 !y d h !ories !y may sometimes be ,bol%evi/ !ories or ,futuri/ !ories1 b !y are practically nev] ! !ological !ories ( ,prote/antism4 ,i w n say !y leave ,ca?olicism = be] & skittles2 = ,ca?olicism has nev] disc\rag$ ^? ,*ri/ian in/itutions z ,prote/antism sometimes has4 ,!y leave x to h a high old "t2 & consid]+ :at a muddle we h made ( mod]n morality1 !y c h>dly be blam$4 ,b ?is reaction1 :i* is only t ( a section1 is 9 its nature a reaction ( ! "y & z su* ,i d n ?9k x w la/4 ,i "k x is ! cant phrase ( ! old rationali/s t _! reason prev5ts a return to ! ,fai?1 b x is false3 x is no long] reason b r passion4 ,?is may s\nd a sweep+ /atem5t1 b if x be exam9$ x w be f\nd n unju/1 & c]ta9ly n unsympa!tic4 ,no?+ is m notable if we really /udy ! *>act]i/ics ( ! ris+ g5]ation ?an ! fact t !y are n act+ ^u any exact & def9ite philosophy1 su* z ^? :i* h made ! revolutions ( ! pa/4 ,if !y are an>*ical1 !y are n an>*i/4 ,! dogmatic an>*ism ( ! middle ( ! n9ete5? c5tury is n ! cre$ !y hold1 or ev5 ! excuse !y (f]4 ,!y h a consid]able negative revolt aga9/ religion1 a negative revolt aga9/ negative morality4 ,!y h a feel+1 :i* is n unreasonable1 t to commit !mselves to ! ,ca?olic citiz5%ip is to take responsibilities t cont9ually act z re/ra9ts4 ,b !y d n ma9ta9 any?+ l a contr>y sy/em ( spiritual citiz5%ip1 or moral responsibility4 ,= in/ance1 x is p]fectly natural t !y %\ld want to act naturally4 ,b !y d n want to act naturally accord+ to any intellectual !ory ( ! reliability ( ,nature4 ,on ! contr>y1 _! "y & brilliant lit]>y repres5tatives are v prone to press ^u u ! crudity & cruelty ( ,nature4 ,t is ! moral ( ,mr4 ,ald\s ,huxley1 & ( _m o!rs4 ,/ate to !m any ( ! consi/5t !ories ( ! supreme claim ( ,nature ^u u1 su* z ! pan!i/ic idea ( ,god 9 all natural ?+s2 or ! ,nietzs*ean !ory t nature is evolv+ some?+ ) sup]ior claims to our own2 or any o!r def9able def5ce ( ! natural process itself1 & !y w almo/ c]ta9ly reject x z some?+ unprov$ or explod$4 ,!y d n want to h an exact imitation ( ! laws ( ! physical univ]se2 !y want to h _! own way1 a mu* m intelligible desire4 ,b ! result is t !y are1 aft] all1 at a disadvantage 9 face ( ^? o!r "y p :o h satisfi$ _! reason by a s*eme t makes ! univ]se reasonable4 ,= t is ! v simple explanation ( ! affair4 ,9 s f> z !re is really a secession among ! "y1 x is b a "p ( ! same process z t conv]sion ( ! "y1 ( :i* ,i wrote 9 ! fir/ *apt]4 ,! ris+ g5]ation sees ! real issue2 & ^? :o are ready = x rally1 & ^? :o are n ready = x scatt]4 ,b !re c be b "o end to a w> betwe5 a solid & a scatt]$ army4 ,x is n a controv]sy betwe5 two philosophies1 z 0 ! ,ca?olic & ! ,calv9i/1 or ! ,ca?olic & ! ,mat]iali/4 ,x is a controv]sy betwe5 philosoph]s & phil&]]s4 ,i d n say x 9 contempt2 ,i h mu* m sympa?y ) ! p]son :o leaves ! ,*ur* = a love affair ?an ) "o :o leaves x = a long-w9d$ ,g]man !ory to prove t ,god is evil or t *ildr5 are a sort ( morbid monkey4 ,b ! v laws ( life are aga9/ ! endurance ( a revolt t re/s on no?+ b natural passion2 x is b\nd to *ange 9 its proportion ) ! com+ ( exp]i5ce2 &1 at ! wor/1 x w become a battle betwe5 bad ,ca?olics & good ,ca?olics1 ) ! great dome ov] all4 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- ,transcrib]'s ,notes ,miss+ or obscur$ punctuation 0 sil5tly correct$4 ,typographical errors 7 sil5tly correct$4 ,inconsi/5t spell+ & hyph5ation 7 made consi/5t only :5 a pr$om9ant =m 0 f\nd 9 ?is book4 ,text 9 italics is enclos$ by und]scores 7italics74