,transcrib]'s note3 ,unusual & inconsi/5t spell+ is z pr9t$4 ,illu/ration3 ,,at ,,! ,,manor ,,h\se4 ,illu/ration ,,0 ,i ,,"r8 ,,by ,,mrs4 ,o4 ,f4 ,,walton ,,au?or ,,( ,*ri/ie's ,old ,organ1 ,peep ,beh9d ! ,sc5es1 ,sav$ at ,sea1 ,,etc4 ,illu/ration ,,! ,,religi\s ,,tract ,,society #ef1 ,,pat]no/] ,r[2 #fe1 ,,/4 ,,paul',s ,,*ur*y>d2 ,,& #afd1 ,,piccadilly4 ,illu/ration ,,cont5ts4 ,illu/ration ,,*ap4 ,i4 ,,! ,,two ,,lett]s ,,ii4 ,,my ,,*oice ,,iii4 ,,0 ,i ,,wrong8 ,,iv4 ,,maggie',s ,,aunts ,v4 ,,fir/ ,,impressions ,,vi4 ,,alli/on ,,hall ,,vii4 ,,consci5ce ,,at ,,"w ,,viii4 ,,alice ,,fitzg]ald ,,ix4 ,,0 ,,! ,,promise ,,b9d+8 ,x4 ,,evelyn',s ,,confession ,,xi4 ,,! ,,opportunity ,,giv5 ,,xii4 ,,br9disi ,,xiii4 ,,0 ,,x ,,he8 ,,xiv4 ,,j]usalem ,,xv4 ,,my ,,olive-,,leaves ,,xvi4 ,a ,,my/]y ,,xvii4 ,,sunday ,,on ,,m\nt ,,zion ,,xviii4 ,,! ,,my/]y ,,solv$ ,,xix4 ,,0 ,i ,,"r8 ,,0 ,i ,,"r8 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,! ,,two ,,lett]s4 ,illu/ration ,,x has (t5 seem$ v /range to me1 t 9 mom5ts ( great anxiety or tr\ble1 :5 our m9ds & our he>ts are /ret*$ to ! utt]mo/1 we notice ) ! ke5e/ p]ception e little object ar\nd u4 ,ea* mov+ leaf1 ea* nodd+ fl[]1 cat*es our att5tion1 &1 ye>s aft]w>ds1 we c rememb]1 z di/9ctly z if x 7 ye/]day1 h[ ev]y?+ look$ 9 ^? sorr[ful mom5ts1 :5 our m9ds 7 fill$ ) ?\ghts ( ?+s & p f> away4 ,!re is "o day 9 my life1 :i* /&s out f among/ ! pa/ z a day above all o!rs to be rememb]$ by me4 ,&1 z ,i look back to x1 ,i see myself a girl ( n9ete51 sitt+ at my b$room w9d[1 lo/ 9 ?\ght & p]plexity6 ,i c see ! g>d5 j z x look$ z ,i gaz$ out into x t aft]noon--our qua9t1 old-fa%ion$ g>d51 ) its h$ge ( laurel bu%es1 & ! l>ge elm trees at ! end ( x1 ) ! flick]+ light & %ade und]nea?4 ,i c see ! rabbits f ! plantations r\nd1 nibbl+ ! grass on ! lawn2 & ,i c he> ! trickl+ ( ! /ream1 :i* ran by ! side ( ! h\se1 9 :i* ,claude1 & ,maggie1 & ,i us$ to float our boats1 9 ! happy days :5 we 7 *ildr54 ,& n[ ! old home mu/ be left = ev]1 = ,maggie & ,i _h n a p5ny 9 ! _w6 ,our fa!r _h be5 ! doctor 9 ! village4 ,x 0 a v poor place1 & ! p _h nev] any money to sp>e4 ,my fa!r 0 too k9d-he>t$ to press = paym5t1 :5 he saw h[ h>d x 0 = !m to live2 & s ! ye>s w5t by1 & al?\gh 8 practice 0 l>ge1 he sav$ v little money4 ,b ev5 ?is small am\nt nev] came to u1 = j be=e 8 dea?1 ! bank 9 :i* x 0 plac$ sudd5ly fail$1 & s1 :5 he 0 gone1 ,maggie & ,i 7 p5niless6 ,maggie 0 mu* y\ng] ?an ,i 02 %e 0 my half-si/]1 & h] "m di$ ?ree weeks aft] %e 0 born4 ,%e committ$ h] little baby to me1 :5 %e knew t %e mu/ leave x2 & f t day ,i became1 z f> z ,i 0 able1 a "m to ,maggie4 ,i 0 a v little "m1 = ,i 0 only sev5 ye>s old2 b a feel+ ( great responsibility & tru/ came ov] me1 z ,i left ! room :]e my /epmo!r 0 dy+4 ,i crept up to ! nurs]y1 & /rok$ ! baby's face v g5tly1 & felt z if %e belong$ to me f t mom5t4 ,& n[1 ,maggie & ,i 7 left )\t a p5ny 9 ! _w4 ,= ,maggie x 0 n ( s mu* consequ5ce4 ,a lett] _h come f h] old maid5 aunts1 h] "m's si/]s1 to insi/ ^u h] go+ at once to live ) !m 9 ! old ,manor ,h\se at ,br&on4 ,maggie w\ld be happy1 & c>$ = !re2 t 0 a great relief to my m9d4 ,pov]ty & h>d%ip w\ld n cross ! pa? ( my little si/]1 & ,i 0 m ?an cont5t t x %\ld be s4 ,b !re 0 no su* home 9 prospect = me4 ,maggie's aunts 71 ( c\rse1 n relat$ to me1 & my "m _h be5 a fri5dless orphan1 s ,i _h no "o to take compassion on me4 ,sep>at$ f ! old home1 sep>at$ f ,maggie1 life look$ v *e]less to me 9 prospect4 ,my m9d 0 full ( tr\ble & ( p]plexity1 = on ! table be=e me lay two lett]s1 :i* mu/ be answ]$ be=e ev5+1 & ^u ! answ] to ^! lett]s w\ld hang all my future life4 ,i sat at my b$room w9d[1 n kn[+ :at to d4 ,! clock tick$ on1 ! h&s 7 mov+ r\nd1 & my lett]s 7 /ill unansw]$4 ,x 0 !n1 t1 z ,i gaz$ into ! g>d51 e t9y object 0 impr9t$ on my m9d4 ,& ,i c rememb] t1 z ,i 0 sitt+ !re1 ! sun w5t beh9d a bank ( heavy cl\ds1 & all 0 gloomy & dismal 9 a mom5t4 ,! rabbits ran back to _! holes1 ! sunbeams fl$ f ! lawn1 ! w9d :i/l$ dre>ily 9 ! *imneys ( ! old h\se1 & flapp$ ! bran*es ( ! climb+ rose-tree aga9/ my b$room w9d[4 ,x seem$ to me !n v l ! cl\d :i* _h come across my hi!rto happy life4 ,& n[1 :at 0 be=e me8 ,joy or sorr[8 ,x appe>$ to be left ) me to decide4 ,! two lett]s mu/ be answ]$4 ,! fir/ ( ^! 0 f an old gov]ness ( ours1 a k9d1 good woman4 ,i _h writt5 to tell h] ( my difficulties1 & %e wrote to advise me to apply = a situation z companion to a "y lady ( =tune1 9 answ] to an adv]tisem5t :i* _h j appe>$ 9 ! ,times newspap]4 ,a fair sal>y 0 promis$1 & all exp5ses ( travell+ w\ld be defray$4 ,t 0 "o ( ! lett]s :i* ,i _h to answ]4 ,t 0 "o pa? ( life :i* lay be=e me4 ,x did n seem v bright 9 prospect4 ,! position ( a poor companion 9 a l>ge h\sehold 0 c]ta9ly n "o :i* ,i %\ld h *os5 = myself4 ,i _h said ,oh no6 in/9ctively1 :5 ,i _h fir/ read ! adv]tisem5t :i* ,miss ,morley enclos$4 ,& yet1 ! m ,i ?\ght ( x1 ! m ,i felt t p]haps ,i ought to apply = ! situation4 ,x 0 cle> t ,i mu/ "w = my liv+1 9 "s way2 ,i dislik$ tea*+1 s ,i felt t ,i 0 n fit to be a gov]ness2 p]haps1 aft] all1 ?is w\ld be ! v place = me4 ,& yet1 & yet1 my he>t %rank back f :at might be ! pa? ( duty4 ,= !re 0 ano!r lett] on ! table2 ano!r1 & a v diff]5t lett]4 ,& ?is lett] mu/ be answ]$ be=e ,i c\ld at all decide ab\t ,miss ,morley's proposal4 ,i _h read x s (t5 dur+ ! day1 t ,i knew e ^w ( x4 ,& n[ ,i mu/ take up my p5 & answ] x4 ,x op5$ out to me ano!r pa? ( life1 a v diff]5t pa? f ! =m]--a pa? :i* seem$ z bright z ! o!r 0 %ady4 ,& yet1 ought ,i to take x8 ,0 x "r = me to *oose ?is pa?8 ,%\ld ,i inde$ be happy if ,i decid$ ^u x8 ,w\ld x be really bright1 really peaceful8 ,:at c\rse %\ld ,i take8 ,:at answ] %\ld ,i give8 ,! lett] 0 f ,claude ,ellis1 my old playfell[ & fri5d4 ,he 0 ! son ( ! cl]gyman ( ! village1 8 only *ild4 ,claude _h no companions at home1 & !re=e :5 we 7 *ildr5 we w5t1 day by day1 to ! ,p>sonage1 or ,claude came to u1 & we play$ toge!r betwe5 ! h\rs = lessons4 ,maggie 0 too small to jo9 9 our games1 b %e w\ld sit on ! grass ne> u1 ga!r+ daisies1 & wat*+ u z we float$ our boats 9 ! little /ream1 or ran races on ! lawn4 ,& !n we grew old]1 & ,claude 0 s5t to s*ool1 b always 9 ! holidays our old fri5d%ip 0 r5ew$1 & we walk$ toge!r1 read toge!r1 & play$ toge!r z be=e4 ,b soon s*ool days pass$ by1 & ,claude w5t to ,ox=d4 ,i rememb] s well ! day on :i* he came to say ,good-bye to u be=e leav+ home4 ,he look$ v h&some1 & 0 full ( spirits1 & 0 s mu* look+ =w>d to 8 college life4 ,maggie & ,i walk$ to ! g>d5 gate ) him :5 he w5t away4 ,& we talk$ ( ! "t :5 he w\ld come home aga91 & we %\ld sp5d our days toge!r z we _h always done 9 ! holidays4 ,!n he w5t out1 & ! gate clos$ aft] him1 & ,maggie & ,i wat*$ him d[n ! road1 & %e wav$ h] h&k]*ief to him till he 0 out ( sight4 ,& !n we w5t back to ! h\se1 & ,i c\nt$ h[ _m weeks mu/ pass be=e ! t]m w\ld be end$1 & ,claude w\ld be ) u aga94 ,b a v %ort "t aft]1 ,mr4 ,ellis1 ,claude's fa!r1 0 tak5 ill1 & ! doctor ord]$ him to g abroad = ! w9t]4 ,s ,claude sp5t 8 ,*ri/mas vacation at ,m5tone in/ead ( at home4 ,& !n we look$ =w>d to ,midsumm]4 ,b ,claude did n return home until ! great] "p ( ! long vacation 0 ov]4 ,he 0 9 ,cornwall ) a read+ p>ty1 & did n come to ! ,p>sonage until ab\t ?ree weeks be=e 8 return to ,ox=d4 ,& s x came to pass1 t ,claude ,ellis & ,i _h n met = ne>ly a ye>4 ,claude is at home1 said my fa!r1 "o morn+ at breakfa/4 ,oh1 is he8 said little ,maggie4 ,h[ nice6 ,& ,i 0 v pleas$ also4 ,i expect$ to see exactly ! same ,claude z ,i _h p>t$ f at ! g>d5 gate1 a ye> ago2 & ,i ?\ght t all w\ld g on j z x _h done :5 he 0 a boy at s*ool1 & came home = ! holidays4 ,s :5 ,i saw him com+ up ! road1 ,i ran into ! g>d5 to meet him4 ,oh1 ,claude1 ,i am glad to see y6 ,i cri$1 z soon z he op5$ ! gate4 ,& !n1 9 a mom5t1 ,i /opp$ %ort1 & w5t up to him q quietly1 & giv+ him my h&1 said 9 a v diff]5t voice3 ,h[ d y d1 ,claude2 :5 did y come home8 ,= 9 a mom5t x fla%$ across me t ,claude ,ellis & ,i 7 n ! same z we 7 :5 we _h p>t$ at t v gate a ye> ago4 ,we 7 bo? old] ?an we 7 !n2 our *ildhood 0 a ?+ ( ! pa/4 ,claude & ,i _h gr[n out ( ! boy & girl into ! "y man & woman s9ce we _h la/ met4 ,all ?is fla%$ across me 9 a mom5t1 z ,i notic$ ! diff]5ce 9 ,claude's dress1 mann]s1 & appe>ance1 z he came 9 at ! gate4 ,& a *ill came ov] me z ,i notic$ x1 & ,i wi%$ t ,i _h n run to meet him q s eag]ly4 ,& yet1 :5 he began to talk1 ,i felt t he 0 9 _m ways ! same ,claude /ill1 ! same1 b *ang$4 ,0 he *ang$ = ! bett]8 ,9 _m ways he 04 ,he 0 m manly1 & m g5tleman-l1 & _h mu* to tell u ( 8 college fri5ds1 & college life1 :i* made him a m amus+ & pleasant companion ?an be=e4 ,& yet1 !re 0 ano!r *ange 9 ,claude1 :i* ,i c\ld n help notic+1 9 spite ( my ef=ts n to d s4 ,claude ,ellis 0 m ( a man1 m ( a g5tleman2 b he 01 yes1 he c]ta9ly 01 ?\gh ,i tri$ to p]suade myself to ! contr>y1 less ( a ,*ri/ian4 ,be=e ,claude w5t to college1 we _h (t5 talk$ toge!r ( ! ,bible1 & he _h expla9$ to me _m ?+s :i* ,i did n und]/&4 ,we us$ sometimes to sit on ! g>d5 seat on ,sunday aft]noons1 & read a *apt] toge!r2 & ,claude us$ to talk s nicely ab\t x1 & ,i ?\ght he lov$ ! ,"l ,jesus1 & wi%$ to s]ve ,him4 ,he (t5 spoke ( ! "t :5 he w\ld be old en\gh to be orda9$1 & :5 ,i %\ld come to 8 *ur* & he> him prea*2 & he told me :at 8 fir/ text w\ld be1 & h[ he _h already writt5 "s pages ( 8 fir/ s]mon4 ,b aft] ,claude's return ,i notic$ a *ange 9 him4 ,at fir/1 he always avoid$ any m5tion ( religi\s subjects1 & :51 ei!r 9 8 own home or ours1 any allusion 0 made to !m1 he quickly turn$ ! conv]sation to "s o!r topic4 ,i tri$1 = "s days1 to fancy t x 0 n because ,claude _h ceas$ to c>e = :at he _h lov$ be=e1 b r t 8 feel+s _h gr[n s mu* deep] & tru]1 t he felt ?+s div9e too sacr$ to be talk$ ab\t4 ,b be=e ! vacation 0 ov]1 ,i 0 oblig$ to admit to myself1 h[ev] unwill+ ,i 0 to believe x1 t ,claude's views & op9ions 7 q *ang$ ab\t religi\s matt]s2 t he _h begun to d\bt :at he _h be=e receiv$ ) *ildlike fai?2 t he _h begun to despise & hold 9 contempt t :i* f 8 "m's knee he _h le>nt to love & rev]5ce4 ,oh1 y h nev] be5 to ,ox=d1 ,may1 he said1 r contemptu\sly "o day1 :5 ,i 0 try+ to prove some?+ to him f ! ,bible4 ,y %\ld read "s books1 :i* 7 l5t to me by a man on my /aircase4 ,we are beh9d ! times 9 ?is little1 out-(-!-way place2 ! _w is gr[+ v clev] & le>n$1 & !re are _m ?+s :i* we h always tak5 = grant$ ab\t :i* !re is really great d\bt & unc]ta9ty4 ,:at ?+s1 ,claude8 ,i said4 ,y d n surely mean-- ,i mean p>ts ( ! ,bible1 ,may1 & doctr9es :i* are suppos$ to be prov$ f ! ,bible4 ,b :at is ! use ( talk+ ab\t x to y8 ,i don't want to unsettle y\r m9d4 ,if y l to believe x1 & if x makes y happy1 g on believ+ x1 & be glad t y hav5't read ! books ,i h read4 ,b y1 ,claude8 ,i said1 sorr[fully4 ,oh1 nev] m9d ab\t me1 ,may1 ,i am all "r2 ,i am a little wis] ?an y1 t is all6 ,are y happi]1 ,claude8 ,i v5tur$ to ask4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 ,may2 ,i don't ?9k happ9ess1 :i* is bas$ on a delusion1 is mu* wor? hav+4 ,oh1 ,claude1 ,i said1 x makes me wret*$ to he> y talk l t4 ,!n talk ab\t some?+ else1 ,may1 he said gaily2 y began ! subject1 n ,i4 ,b1 ,claude-- ,n[1 t w d1 ,may6 he said impati5tly4 ,we don't ?9k alike ab\t ^! subjects1 simply because ,i "k a great deal m ab\t !m ?an ,i did be=e ,i w5t away1 or ?an y d n[2 s let ! matt] drop4 ,i 0 v unhappy aft] ?is conv]sation ) ,claude4 ,he gave me no opportunity ( r5ew+ x2 b ?\gh he _h n expla9$ to me any ( 8 d\bts1 he _h left an uneasy1 tr\bl$ feel+ on my m9d1 a feel+ :i* ,i c\ld n %ake (f4 ,:5 ,i w5t up/airs to b$ t night1 ,i sat d[n to ?9k ov] :at ,claude _h said4 ,:at if1 aft] all1 ,i 0 re/+ ^u a delusion1 build+ my happ9ess ^u an unreality8 ,:at if1 aft] all1 my fai? 0 9 va91 my hope unf\nd$8 ,horrible d\bts1 su* z ,i _h nev] kn[n be=e1 came cr[d+ into my m9d4 ,are ^! ?+s s8 0 ! (t-repeat$ "q ( my he>t4 ,x 0 a sad awak5+ f ! tru/ & implicit confid5ce ( *ildhood2 an awak5+ :i*1 p]haps1 comes to e ?\ghtful m9d1 :5 its fai? is br\ght into contact1 = ! fir/ "t1 ) ! intellect ( ?is _w2 an awak5+ :i* leads u ei!r into ! t]rible region ( d\bt & unc]ta9ty1 or into fai?1 f> firm] ?an ev] be=e1 because bas$1 n on m]e *ildi% impressions1 b on ! words & ! be+ ( ! et]nal ,god4 ,9 ?is /ate ( p]plexity ,i w5t to my b$room w9d[ & look$ out4 ,x 0 a bright1 />light night1 s ,i put out my c&le1 & sat by ! w9d[1 gaz+ into ! sky at ! c\ntless multitude ( />s4 ,:o _h made all ^! mighty worlds8 ,:o 0 keep+ !m all 9 _! places1 & mak+ !m fulfil ! object = :i* !y 7 creat$8 ,i knew :o x 02 my fai? 9 ! exi/5ce ( an ,almighty ,god rema9$ un%ak54 ,i c\ld nev] look ar\nd me on ,god's univ]se & d\bt t ,god 04 ,& !n1 z ,i look$ at ! />s1 o!r ?\ghts came--?\ghts ( ! maje/y & wisdom & p[] ( ! ,god :o _h made all ^!2 ?\ghts1 too1 ( ! smallness & insignificance ( our own little _w--9 comp>ison ) ! re/ ( ,god's great univ]se a m]e speck 9 space4 ,& ,i--:at 0 ,i8 ,only "o ( ! be+s :i* inhabit$ ?is t9y _w2 "o ( ! smalle/ & lea/ wise ( all 9 ,god's univ]se6 ,:o 0 ,i1 t ,i %\ld say to ,god1 ,:y doe/ ,?\ ?is8 ,:o 0 ,i1 t ,i %\ld presume to sit 9 judgm5t on any?+ 9 ,god's revelation8 ,8 wisdom is unse>*able1 ,8 ways pa/ f9d+ out1 0 ! language ( my he>t4 ,i am b a little *ild1--h[ c ,i und]/& ,god's plans8 ,i "k s little1 ,i und]/& s little1 ,i see su* a little way1 ei!r be=e me or beh9d me4 ,h[ c ,i1 !n1 expect to und]/& t :i* is und]/ood fully only by ,god ,himself8 ,a feel+ ( my utt] no?+ness & insignificance 9 ,god's sight came ov] me s p[]fully t ,i 0 almo/ cru%$ by x4 ,:o 0 ,i--:at 0 ,i1 t ,i %\ld d>e to d\bt :at ,god _h 9 wond]ful condesc5sion reveal$ to me1 because ( ! va/ am\nt ( k :i* 0 too wond]ful = me2 s high t ,i c\ld n atta9 unto x8 ,o ,"l1 ,i said1 z ,i look$ up into ! sky1 ,i w be cont5t to be a little *ild1 receiv+ ,?y ,^w ) *ildlike fai?1 & :at my m9d is too weak & small to und]/& fully1 ,i w yet believe1 because ,?\ ha/ told me1 & because ,?y ,^w mu/ be true4 ,& ev5 z ,i said ! words1 ?is v]se came into my m9d3 ,n[ we see ?r\gh a glass1 d>kly2 b !n face to face3 n[ ,i "k 9 "p2 b !n %all ,i "k ev5 z also ,i am kn[n4 ,!n ! day 0 com+ :51 9 ano!r _w1 my m9d w\ld be /r5g!n$ to und]/& ^! difficult matt]s :i* 7 n[ p]plex+ me--^! ?+s :i* ,i only knew 9 "p1 & :i*1 = ?is v reason1 j because ,i only knew a "p ( !m1 seem$ to me s p]plex+ & my/]i\s4 ,& !n !re 0 ano!r ?\ght :i* com=t$ me p]haps m ?an any?+ else1 & x 0 ?is3 ,i _h prov$ ! ,bible to be true myself4 ,i knew x 0 ! ,^w ( ! ,god ( tru? by my own exp]i5ce4 ,i _h pray$1 & _h receiv$ _m an answ] to my pray]s4 ,i _h plead$ ! promises1 & _h f\nd !m m ?an fulfill$ to me 9 e h\r ( ne$4 ,i _h fall5 back ^u ! gr& old tru?s ( ! ,bible 9 _m a "t ( tr\ble1 & _h nev] f\nd !m fail me4 ,a hundr$ books1 writt5 by ! clev]e/ m5 on e>?1 c\ld n conv9ce me t ! ,bible 0 a m]e human production2 = ,i _h f\nd 9 x :at ,i _h f\nd 9 no o!r book--peace = a tr\bl$ consci5ce1 com=t 9 sorr[1 victory ov] s94 ,i lay d[n to sleep t night reassur$ & com=t$1 & ) my d\bts entirely remov$1 & ,i d n rememb] t !y ev] return$ to me4 ,b ,claude1 :at c\ld ,i d = him8 ,i c\ld d no?+ b pray = him1 = he nev] gave me an opportunity ( speak+ to him aga9 ab\t :at _h s tr\bl$ me4 ,8 college days pass$ by1 & e vacation t he 0 at home he came frequ5tly to see u1 & ea* "t he came ,i felt m p]suad$ t 8 new views _h n improv$ 8 "*4 ,he _h occasionally an imp]i\s & dictatorial mann]1 su* z he _h nev] _h be=e1 & he look$ re/less & dissatisfi$1 z if some?+ 0 prey+ on 8 m9d4 ,& yet ,claude 0 v k9d to u1 to ,maggie & to me4 ,he nev] came home )\t br++ u "s little pres5t1 & he nev] seem$ tir$ ( our company4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,my ,,*oice4 ,illu/ration ,,"o day1 ab\t six weeks be=e ! "t at :i* my little /ory comm5ces1 ,i _h be5 sp5d+ ! day at ! ,p>sonage4 ,i did n (t5 g !re n[1 b ,claude 0 away1 & 8 aunt1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 :o _h liv$ !re s9ce ,claude's "m di$1 invit$ me to sp5d ! aft]noon ) h]4 ,claude _h j left ,ox=d1 & 0 /ay+ = a few weeks ) "s fri5ds 9 ,scotl&1 be=e settl+ d[n at home4 ,aft] d9n] ,miss ,ri*>ds & ,i took our "w into ! little summ]-h\se1 & sat !re until ! ev5+4 ,we talk$ on v>i\s subjects1 ! village1 ! p r\nd1 ,mr4 ,ellis's heal?1 & ( _m o!r ?+s4 ,& !n we talk$ ( ,claude4 ,x w be v pleasant to h ,claude at home1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds2 ! h\se is s dull :5 he is away4 ,yes1 ,i said1 y mu/ miss him v mu*1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 b ,i suppose he w n be at home v long2 :5 is he to be orda9$8 ,%e did n answ] me at once1 & :5 ,i look$ up1 ,i saw t h] face 0 v tr\bl$ & sorr[ful1 z %e b5t ov] h] "w4 ,claude w n be orda9$1 ,may1 %e said at l5g?2 ,i ?9k t is q decid$ n[4 ,:y n1 ,miss ,ri*>ds8 ,i ask$ 9 a/oni%m5t4 ,i ?\ght t _h be5 settl$ ye>s ago1 :5 ,claude 0 a little boy4 ,x 0 only settl$ conditionally1 ,may1 %e said4 ,claude 0 to g into ! m9i/ry if x 0 8 own wi% to d s2 8 fa!r w\ld nev] press him into su* "w1 if he did n feel drawn to x himself4 ,& ,claude does n feel drawn to x8 ,i ask$4 ,oh no1 he has writt5 to 8 fa!r mo/ decid$ly1 giv+ up all idea ( becom+ a cl]gyman1 & express+ 8 wi% to /udy = ! b>4 ,is ,mr4 ,ellis v disappo9t$1 ,miss ,ri*>ds8 ,i said4 ,( c\rse he is disappo9t$ 9 "o way1 ,may1 = he has made a great ef=t to give ,claude a ,univ]sity education1 9 ord] to make him m fit = 8 "w z a m9i/]2 b at ! same "t1 he q sees t ) ,claude's peculi> ideas 7y "k :at ,i mean1 ,may1 ^? new views he has tak5 up at ,ox=d7 8 ord9ation is1 at lea/ = ! pres5t1 out ( ! "q4 ,i made no answ]1 b w5t on dilig5tly ) my "w4 ,claude has be5 a great exp5se to 8 fa!r1 ,miss ,ri*>ds w5t on2 he has co/ him _m hundr$s at ,ox=d1 & bills are /ill com+ 94 ,he is "y yet1 y see1 & ,i suppose all "y m5 are extravagant4 ,b x is a great pity t he let ! bills run on = s long2 "s g z f> back z 8 fir/ t]m4 ,:at does ,claude say ab\t x8 ,i ask$4 ,oh1 he is always v mu* tr\bl$ :5 ! bills come1 = he sees t 8 fa!r has n any money to sp>e1 & he talks ab\t ! "t :5 he w h money ( 8 own at 8 uncle ,*>les's dea?1 & :5 he w be able to repay all 8 fa!r has advanc$ = him4 ,& !n he is q c]ta9 t ! tradesm5 mu/ h add$ a great deal :i* he nev] b\ght4 ,b x is s long ago1 ,may1 ne>ly f\r ye>s1 s1 ( c\rse1 he _c be sure ( x4 ,i am v1 v sorry1 ,i said4 ,yes1 & s are we1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds2 b t anxiety is no?+ to ! o!r4 ,mr4 ,ellis w\ld n m9d h[ mu* money he _h to pay1 if only ,claude _h n tak5 up su* rationali/ic1 infidel ideas4 ,does he /ill hold ^? views8 ,i ask$4 ,he spoke to me once ab\t !m1 a long "t ago1 b ,i h he>d no?+ ( x s9ce4 ,i hop$ ,claude _h /udi$ ! o!r side ( ! "q1 & _h gr[n wis]4 ,oh1 my de>1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds1 he seems to me to get worse & worse4 ,at fir/ x 0 only "s small p>ts ( ! ,bible :i* he cavill$ at1 & :i* he ma9ta9$ 7 n inspir$2 b :5 he once began to d\bt1 !re 0 no kn[+ :]e he w\ld /op d\bt+--he c>ri$ ! same _s ( critical suspicion into ev]y?+4 ,b surely !re are books writt5 :i* w\ld 9 a great measure answ] ,claude's d\bts8 ,i sugge/$4 ,yes1 und\bt$ly1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds2 b x seems to me ,claude pref]s d\bt+1 = he does n seem at all anxi\s to h 8 d\bts cle>$ away4 ,he does n want to h 8 m9d satisfi$1 & s he ei!r does n read books on ! o!r side at all2 or1 if he reads !m1 he does s fully det]m9$ t 8 scepticism _c be1 & inde$ mu/ n be %ak54 ,if ,claude w\ld only pray]fully desire1 & pray]fully /rive to h 8 d\bts remov$1 ,i %\ld h no fe> ab\t him4 ,i am s v sorry1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 ,i said aga94 ,yes1 ,may1 & s am ,i1 said %e4 ,i assure y t :5 ,i w5t up/airs into ,claude's b$room1 :5 he 0 la/ at home1 & f\nd at ! bottom ( 8 box a numb] ( 8 fav\rite books 7! v names ( "s ( :i* made me %udd]71 ,i sat d[n on a *air 9 8 room1 & _h a good cry4 ,i c\ld n help x1 ,may de>4 ,= ,i ?\ght ( ! little1 tru/ful face1 :i* us$ to be lift$ to m9e ye>s ago1 :5 ,i told him1 = ! fir/ "t1 ! beautiful /ories out ( ! ,book he n[ despises & sc(fs at4 ,i ?\ght ( ! little voice :i* us$ to say ! ev5+ pray] at my knee1 & :i* us$1 on ,sundays1 to repeat hymns & texts to me 9 ?is v summ]-h\se4 ,& !n ,i ?\ght ( ! small1 black ,bible1 :i*1 :5 he grew old]1 us$ always to be laid beside 8 pill[1 t he might be able to read x z soon z x 0 light 9 ! morn+4 ,i c\ld see pl5ty ( o!r books 9 ,claude's room1 ,may1 b no ,bible6 ,i c\ld n help go+ d[n/airs & br++ a ,bible up to lay on ! dress+-table1 9 case he might see & read x4 ,?\gh1 ( c\rse1 x w\ld d him no good1 unless he came to x 9 a tea*able _s1 %e add$1 ) a sigh4 ,b ,i h n lo/ hope = ,claude yet1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds1 aft] a pause4 ,i believe t :5 he is old] he w be wis] 9 _m ways4 ,& ,may1 %e said1 my great hope = ,claude lies 9 y2 y h m influ5ce ) him ?an any "o has4 ,i8 ,oh no1 ,miss ,ri*>ds2 y are q wrong !re1 ,i said4 ,he w nev] ev5 speak to me on ! subject4 ,no1 p]haps n1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds2 b y\r quiet1 g5tle1 lov+ influ5ce mu/ h its effect 9 "t4 ,b1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 y are q mi/ak5 9 suppos+ t ,i h any influ5ce ) ,claude4 ,i "k :5 we 7 *ildr5 toge!r1 & 7 l bro!r & si/] to ea* o!r1 ,i may h _h "s p[] ov] him1 b x is q diff]5t n[4 ,y h t5fold m influ5ce ) ,claude n[ ?an y _h !n1 ,may1 %e said quietly2 to give y pleasure is ! greate/ joy ( 8 life1 to grieve y is 8 greate/ pa94 ,i felt my face gr[+ v crimson z ,miss ,ri*>ds said ?is4 ,%e _h put into words a fe> :i* _h be5 hidd5 away 9 my he>t = "s mon?s--a fe> t ,i _h nev] d>$1 ev5 9 my own he>t1 to put into words--a fe> t ,i 0 becom+ m to ,claude ?an a m]e si/]1 & t he _h plans & views = our future1 8 future & m9e1 :i* ,i c\ld n1 :i* ,i ought n1 to ent]ta9 = a mom5t4 ,&1 because ( ?is undef9$ fe>1 ,i _h kept away f ! ,p>sonage z mu* z possible dur+ ! vacations1 & ,i _h avoid$ ,claude z mu* z our old fri5d%ip w\ld all[ me1 until sometimes my consci5ce _h accus$ me ( rud5ess & unk9dness4 ,b1 aft] all1 ,i _h hop$ x 0 b a fe>4 ,claude lov$ me1 x 0 true1 ,i argu$ to myself1 & lik$ to br+ me pres5ts1 & to give me pleasure2 b !n x 0 only natural t he %\ld d s1 :5 we _h be5 br\ght up toge!r1 & le>nt toge!r1 & play$ toge!r1 & _h _h e ?\ght & s*eme 9 common4 ,x 0 no?+ m ?an t4 ,s ,i _h argu$ ) myself4 ,b ,miss ,ri*>ds's words _h reviv$ my old fe>1 & increas$ x a hundr$fold4 ,i 0 v glad :51 a m9ute or two aft]w>ds1 ! village clock /ruck five1 & ,i c\ld make an excuse to leave4 ,miss ,ri*>ds _h evid5tly notic$ my emb>rassm5t1 = %e said k9dly1 z %e wi%$ me good-bye3 ,i hope ,i h n tr\bl$ y1 ,may de>1 b my he>t is s full ( anxiety ab\t ,claude j n[1 t ,i h spok5 p]haps m /rongly ?an ,i ought to h done4 ,i w5t home v p]plex$ & tr\bl$1 b ! next day my ?\ghts 7 turn$ into an entirely fre% *annel by ! sudd5 illness ( my de> fa!r4 ,i w n dwell ^u ! sad "t :i* foll[$ ^? days & nights ( alt]nate hope & fe>1 & !n ! close to our wat*+1 & ! t]rible realisation t ,maggie & ,i 7 among/ ! numb] ( ! fa!rless *ildr51 pray$ =1 ,sunday aft] ,sunday1 9 ! ,litany4 ,miss ,ri*>ds 0 v k9d to me dur+ t "t ( tr\ble1 giv+ me advice & help z ,i ne$$ !m1 & reliev+ me greatly f ! s5se ( heavy responsibility :i* re/$ on me4 ,claude 0 /ill f home1 b he wrote a k9d little note ( sympa?y to me1 :5 he he>d ( my fa!r's dea?4 ,he said he 0 v sorry t he 0 away at ! "t2 _h he be5 at home he w\ld h done all 9 8 p[] to save me any unnecess>y c>e & anxiety 9 my "t ( sorr[4 ,i tri$ to hope t ?is 0 only bro!rly sympa?y & k9dness1 su* z ,claude _h always %[n me f *ildhood4 ,i answ]$ ! lett] by a %ort note1 ?ank+ him = 8 k9d expression ( sympa?y1 & tell+ him a little ( our future plans--h[ ,maggie 0 go+ to live ) h] aunts 9 ! old ,manor ,h\se at ,bran/on1 & h[ ,i hop$ v soon to obta9 a situation z gov]ness or companion1 :]e ,i c\ld e>n en\gh money to keep me 9 com=t & indep5d5ce4 ,by return ( po/ came a second lett] f ,claude4 ,i almo/ trembl$ :5 ,i saw 8 h&writ+ on ! envelope2 ,i _h n int5d$ to op5 a correspond5ce ) him4 ,& :5 ,i took ! lett] f ! envelope1 & saw its l5g?1 ,i 0 /ill m tr\bl$ & afraid4 ,!n ,i read ! lett]1 & :5 ,i _h read x once1 ,i read x aga91 & yet aga94 ,& n[ ?is lett] lay on ! table be=e me1 /ill unansw]$1 & po/-"t 0 draw+ ne>] & ne>]4 ,i look$ at x once m1 al?\gh ,i knew almo/ e ^w ( x already4 ,claude began by /at+ 8 utt] disapproval ( my s*eme ( obta9+ a situation z companion or gov]ness4 ,i 0 n fitt$ = x1 & he w\ld nev] all[ x to be c>ri$ out4 ,& !n he w5t on to tell me t he _h f> diff]5t plans = my future--plans :i* _h m+l$ ) 8 boyi% dreams1 & :i* _h be5 = ye>s ! "o idea ( 8 life4 ,& !n he told me h[ he lov$ me1 h[ !re 0 no "o on e>? t he _h ev] c>$ = except myself1 & h[ he felt t ! "t _h n[ come to make me 8 wife1 & to take me to a home ( my own1 :]e ,i %\ld be tak5 c>e (1 & *]i%$1 & lov$1 m ?an any wife _h ev] be5 be=e4 ,he said x 0 h>d = him to put into a lett] all ! feel+s ( 8 he>t4 ,he _h nev] plann$ to tell me all ?is by writ+1 b he felt compell$ to write (f at once1 z soon z he receiv$ my lett]1 & ! m s z1 by a curi\s co9cid5ce1 by ! v same po/ he _h he>d ( ! sudd5 dea? ( 8 uncle ,*>les1 :o _h left him a l>ge sum ( money1 q suffici5t1 ,claude said1 to enable him to m>ry1 & to take me to a com=table home4 ,at ! end ( ! week1 he said1 he hop$ to be ) me1 b he c\ld n wait till !n to tell me all ?is1 = he fe>$ t ,i %\ld 9 ! meantime be answ]+ "s dreadful adv]tisem5t1 & be mak+ ano!r & a v diff]5t engagem5t4 ,he conclud$ by urg+ me to write by return ( po/1 z he long$ to "k t ! :ole matt] 0 f9ally settl$ & arrang$4 ,! m ,i read ?is lett]1 ! m p]suad$ ,i felt t ,claude nev]1 = a s+le mom5t1 ent]ta9$ ! possibility ( my refus+ him2 he seem$ to look ^u x z a matt] ( c]ta9ty t ,i %\ld be only too glad to d z he ask$ me4 ,he 0 evid5tly utt]ly unprep>$ = any?+ b an imm$iate & he>ty acceptance ( 8 (f]4 ,& n[ :at answ] %\ld ,i give8 ,i press$ my ?robb+ temples1 & tri$ to ?9k ! matt] ov] calmly & delib]ately4 ,did ,i love ,claude ,ellis8 ,yes1 und\bt$ly ,i lov$ him v mu* inde$2 n 9 ! same way1 x is true1 z ,i _h imag9$ t ,i %\ld love ! "o :o 0 to become my husb&1 b /ill ,i lov$ him v w>mly1 u a si/] loves a de> bro!r :o has be5 ev]y?+ to h] s9ce %e 0 a little *ild4 ,& surely a diff]5t k9d ( love = ,claude might1 & probably w\ld1 come 9 my he>t aft] we 7 engag$4 ,& al?\gh ,claude 0 c]ta9ly n at all l ! husb& t ,i _h pictur$ to myself 9 ! days long ago1 :5 ,i 0 fooli% en\gh to indulge 9 day-dreams1 & al?\gh ev5 n[1 at times1 ,i long$1 oh1 h[ mu*6 = "s "o to lean on--"s "o v wise1 v good1 v true1 & inf9itely bett] 9 e way ?an ,i 02 & ,i _h nev] pictur$ ,claude to myself z ! "o :o 0 to be all ?is to me2 yet /ill he w\ld be a k9d1 lov+ husb&1 & ,i might be v happy if ,i 7 8 wife4 ,& ,i 0 s fond ( ,claude t ,i felt x w\ld make me v mis]able to feel t !re 0 any e/rangem5t or coldness betwe5 u1 z !re und\bt$ly w\ld be if ,i refus$ to be 8 wife4 ,our old fri5d%ip1 :i* _h la/$ s long1 w\ld practically end1 & :5 we met we %\ld feel re/ra9$ & uncom=table 9 ea* o!r's pres5ce4 ,i c\ld n be> to ?9k t su* w\ld be ! case4 ,& !n ,miss ,ri*>ds--h[ anxi\s %e evid5tly 0 t ,i %\ld use my influ5ce ) ,claude6 ,:at w\ld %e say if ,i 7 to refuse him8 ,h[ /range %e w\ld ?9k x6 ,h[ griev$ & disappo9t$ %e w\ld be6 ,& yet1 ) ! ?\ght ( ,miss ,ri*>ds came ! recollection ( :at %e _h told me ( ,claude1 z we sat toge!r 9 ! arb\r4 ,%\ld ,i be happy ) "o z my husb& :o scorn$ ! ,book ,i lov$ be/ on e>?1 :o slight$ & neglect$ ! ,fri5d :o 0 to me ! *iefe/ among t5 ?\s&8 ,%\ld ,i be happy ) no family pray] 9 my h\sehold1 ) no read+ ( ! ,^w ( ,god1 & ) religi\s topics = ev] bani%$1 because husb& & wife ?\ght s diff]5tly ab\t !m8 ,w\ld ! love betwe5 u be p]fect1 ! confid5ce unsulli$1 :5 !re 0 "o subject--& t "o ! subject ne>e/ to my he>t--on :i* we _h no communion2 "o ,"n1 & t "o ! ,"n above e "n1 :i* nei!r ( u ev] m5tion$ to ea* o!r8 ,%\ld ,i be really happy1 really cont5t$ ) su* a /ate ( ?+s8 ,& !n came ano!r "q4 ,ev5 suppos+ ,i %\ld be happy1 0 x "r = me to accept ,claude's (f]8 ,0 x "r 9 ,god's sight = me to m>ry "o :o 0 n a ,*ri/ian8 ,i knew !re 0 a text some:]e 9 ! ,epi/le to ! ,cor9?ians :i* spoke on ?is po9t4 ,i op5$ my ,bible & look$ = x1 & ,i f\nd x 9 #b ,cor9?ians vi4 #ad3 ,be ye n unequally yok$ toge!r ) unbeliev]s3 = :at fell[%ip ha? righte\sness ) unrighte\sness8 & :at communion ha? light ) d>kness8 ,x 0 a v cle> comm&1 & c\ld n be mi/ak54 ,& yet ,i tri$ to argue myself into ! belief t x did n apply to me4 ,= 9 ! fir/ place1 ,i reason$1 ,claude 0 n a hea!n z ^! ,cor9?ians 74 ,he did n wor%ip gods ( wood & /one4 ,he 0 look$ ^u z a ,*ri/ian1 & liv$ & _h be5 br\ght up 9 a ,*ri/ian family4 ,b ! ^w unbeliev]1 consci5ce answ]$1 surely includes e "o t is n a believ]4 ,0 ,claude a believ]8 ,c\ld ,i hone/ly say t he 0 a true believ] 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,w\ld ,claude himself l to be ?\ght a believ]8 ,c\ld ,i f my he>t say t ,i ?\ght ,claude 0 safe 9 ,*ri/1 re/+ 8 s\l on ,*ri/ = salvation8 ,no1 ,i 0 oblig$ sorr[fully to admit to myself t su* 0 n ! case4 ,b !n1 ,i argu$1 ,i am n p]fect4 ,oh1 h[ cold & indiff]5t ,i am at times6 ,h[ full ( c>elessness1 & pride1 & e k9d ( s96 ,:o am ,i1 t ,i %\ld set myself up to be bett] & m holy ?an ,claude8 ,:o am ,i1 t ,i %\ld say ,claude is n good en\gh = me8 ,& yet ! l9e ( di/9ction 9 ! text 0 evid5tly drawn1 n betwe5 p]fect p & imp]fect p1 b betwe5 believ]s & unbeliev]s4 ,0 ,i !n a believ]8 ,t 0 ! "q3 0 ,i 9 de$ & 9 tru? a believ] 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,i d>$ n say t ,i 0 n1 = ev5 z ,i ask$ myself ! "q1 a day ye>s ago came back to my m9d1 a day :5 ,mr4 ,ellis _h be5 giv+ u a ,bible lesson & _h spok5 to u v solemnly ab\t com+ to ,*ri/ = ourselves1 & t at once4 ,i rememb]$ h[ anxi\s & s]i\s ,i _h felt z ,i left ! ,bible class1 & h[ ,i _h come home & %ut myself 9 ?is v room :]e ,i 0 n[ sitt+4 ,i rememb]$ h[ ,i _h clos$ ! door beh9d me1 & _h resolv$ n to leave ! room until ,i _h laid my s9s on ,jesus1 & _h look$ to ,him by fai? z my own ,savi\r4 ,i rememb]$ h[ all my s9s _h ris5 up be=e me t day z !y _h nev] done be=e2 & h[1 "o by "o1 ,i _h tak5 !m to ,*ri/ to be aton$ = & =giv54 ,& !n ,i rememb]$ ! peace :i* _h foll[$1 & h[1 = days aft]w>ds1 life _h be5 entirely new to me1 & my ?\ghts1 & feel+s1 & wi%es _h be5 entirely diff]5t f :at !y 7 be=e4 ,& s9ce t "t1 ?\gh ,i _h v (t5 gr[n c>eless & indiff]5t1 /ill ,i _h nev] be5 happy :5 ,i 0 n walk+ closely ) ,god1 & ,i _h always long$ at su* times to be back 9 ! sun%9e & light ( ,8 pres5ce aga94 ,s !n x seem$ z if ! comm& 9 ! text did apply to me4 ,b surely if ,i m>ri$ ,claude1 ,i might use my influ5ce ) him = good4 ,he lov$ me v mu*1 &1 z ,miss ,ri*>ds _h said1 ,i _h m influ5ce ) him ?an any "o _h4 ,0 x "r = me to ?r[ away ?is opportunity ( do+ good8 ,0 !re n a text :i* said t husb&s1 :o obey n ! ,^w1 might yet1 )\t ! ,^w1 be won by ! conv]sation ( _! wives8 ,& did n ,/4 ,paul say1 ,:at kn[e/ ?\1 ,o wife1 :e!r ?\ %alt save ?y husb&8 ,surely ^! v]ses ju/ifi$ me 9 ?9k+ t if ,i m>ri$ ,claude1 he might1 ?r\gh my influ5ce1 become a ,*ri/ian4 ,& yet :5 ,i turn$ to ^! passages1 & read ! context1 ,i saw t !y cle>ly ref]r$ to ^? wives :o 7 conv]t$ aft] _! m>riage--t su* 7 told n to leave _! unbeliev+ husb&s1 b to rema9 9 t /ate 9 :i* !y 7 call$1 & to su*1 & to su* alone1 ! promise ab\t be+ ! means ( sav+ _! husb&s appli$4 ,x _h evid5tly no?+ :atev] to d ) ^? :o 7 conv]t$ :il/ !y 7 /ill unm>ri$1 nor did x1 9 ! v slighte/ degree1 ov]?r[ ! cle> comm& ,i _h j read3 ,be ye n unequally yok$ toge!r ) unbeliev]s-- ,a comm& :i* appli$ to ! unm>ri$ believ]s1 z pla9ly z ! comm& 9 ! fir/ ,epi/le appli$ to ! m>ri$ ones4 ,&1 :5 ,i began to ?9k ! matt] ov]1 ) a m unbias$ m9d1 ,i 0 driv5 to ! conclusion t ,claude 0 f> m likely to lead me away f ,*ri/ ?an ,i 0 to lead him to become a believ]4 ,= surely if ,i _h n en\gh influ5ce n[ to p]suade him to love bett] ?+s--n[1 :5 he 0 s anxi\s to w9 my fav\r1--surely aft]w>ds1 :5 he felt c]ta9 ( my love1 he w\ld n be m likely to be l$ 9 an entirely diff]5t direction4 ,surely ,i %\ld become worse1 & ,claude w\ld become no bett]4 ,i %\ld be less ( a believ]1 & he w\ld rema9 /ill an unbeliev]4 ,to d evil1 t good may possibly come1 is entirely oppos$ to ! :ole tea*+ ( ! ,new ,te/am5t2 n[h]e is ! fa9te/ hope held out t su* a c\rse w result 9 good4 ,& ,i c\ld und\bt$ly expect no bless+ f ,god on my endeav\rs to lead ,claude aright if ,i _h act$ 9 ! face ( ,god's comm& & _h gone 9 direct opposition to ,8 cle> injunction3 ,be ye n unequally yok$ toge!r ) unbeliev]s4 ,& s ,i felt1 :5 ,i _h ?\ght ! :ole matt] c>efully ov]1 t x came to ?is3 ,0 ,i will+ to %ut ,*ri/ out f ! fir/ place 9 my he>t1 & put ,claude !re in/ead8 ,or1 on ! o!r h&1 0 ,i will+ to give up ,claude1 & hold all ! clos] & firm] to ,him :o _h = ye>s be5 my hope & my refuge8 ,*ri/'s love or ,claude's6 ,:i* %\ld ,i *oose8 ,i c\ld n h bo?1 = ,i felt t to h bo? 0 impossible4 ,*oos+ ,*ri/1 ,i %\ld (f5d ,claude2 *oos+ ,claude1 ,i %\ld =feit ! love & ! fav\r ( ,*ri/4 ,*ri/ or ,claude--:i*8 ,a v]se1 :i* ,i _h le>n$ z a *ild1 came sudd5ly into my m9d1 & look+ up to ! sky above me1 9 :i* ! sun 0 once m %9+1 ,i repeat$ x al\d1 = x seem$ exactly to express ! e>ne/ cry ( my s\l3 ,my he>t is fix$1 ,o ,god1 ,fix$ on ,!e2 ,& my et]nal *oice is made1 ,*ri/ = me4 ,*ri/ = me4 ,*ri/'s smile1 ,*ri/'s fav\r1 ,*ri/'s bless+2 ^! are my *oice4 ,:atev] x co/s me1 ,i _c1 ,i w n1 give !m up4 ,i knelt d[n1 & ?ank$ ,god f ! bottom ( my he>t = %[+ me ! cle>1 ! sure1 ! "r way = me to take4 ,& !n ,i took up my p5 to answ] ,claude's lett]4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,0 ,i ,,wrong8 ,illu/ration ,,x 0 n an easy task to answ] t lett]1 = ,i did n wi% to w\nd ,claude or to pa9 him1 & ,i felt sure he w\ld be s utt]ly unprep>$ = :at ,i felt oblig$ to say4 ,le/ ,i %\ld 9 any way raise 8 hopes1 ,i began at once by tell+ him h[ difficult ,i felt x to write1 & h[ mu* x co/ me to tell him t :at he _h ask$ me to d 9 8 lett] 0 q impossible4 ,i ?ank$ him = all 8 love = me1 & = ! k9d way 9 :i* he _h spok5 ( me2 b ,i made x z cle> z possible t1 ?\gh ,i hop$ always to rema9 8 fri5d & si/]1 yet ,i c\ld n be 8 wife4 ,i did n tell him my exact reason = refus+ him1 = ,i felt t ,claude w\ld n 9 ! lea/ degree und]/& x2 b ,i told him t my m9d 0 fully made up1 & ,i begg$ him at once to dismiss ! idea ( x f 8 own m9d4 ,i tri$ to write v decid$ly & yet v k9dly1 & ) ! remembrance ( our old fri5d%ip & love vividly impress$ on my m9d4 ,i end$ by express+ my sorr[ = giv+ him pa91 & my e>ne/ hope = 8 future happ9ess4 ,i begg$ him to let no coldness & e/rangem5t come betwe5 u on acc\nt ( ?is1 b to let our old fri5d%ip be /r5g!n$ & increas$ r ?an weak5$ & less5$4 ,i 0 n at all satisfi$ ) ?is lett] :5 x 0 f9i%$1 b !re 0 no "t to rewrite x1 = po/-"t 0 close at h&1 & ! adv]tisem5t 9 ! ,times newspap] mu/ be answ]$ at once1 or ,i %\ld lose ! situation4 ,:5 bo? ! lett]s 7 gone1 ,i tri$ to dismiss ! subject f my m9d1 & :5 x came back to me1 ,i endeav\r$ to turn my tir$ ?\ghts into pray]1 & 9 ?is way f\nd com=t & relief4 ,! foll[+ aft]noon1 z ,i 0 writ+ lett]s 9 ! little s*oolroom1 :i* 0 ! next room to my b$room1 & ! w9d[ ( :i* also look$ out ov] ! g>d5 to ! hills beyond1 ,i he>d a ha/y /ep on ! /airs4 ,maggie 0 sp5d+ ! day ) a playfell[ ( h]s 9 ! village1 & x 0 n ,maggie's /ep4 ,no1 ,i knew ! /ep well1 & my he>t beat fa/1 & ,i felt myself gr[+ pal] & pal] e mom5t4 ,! door op5$1 & ,claude ent]$ )\t any c]emony4 ,he look$ tir$ & tr\bl$1 & 8 clo!s 7 cov]$ ) du/ f 8 long j\rney4 ,may1 he said1 ,i got y\r lett] ?is morn+1 & ,i h come (f at once4 ,! ,fitzg]alds ?\ght ,i 0 mad1 ,i believe2 ,i />t$ up f ! breakfa/-table & said ,i mu/ cat* ! n9e o'clock tra94 ,b ,i c\ld n h wait$ ano!r day2 x w\ld h be5 utt]ly impossible1 ,may4 ,i tri$ to speak1 b my he>t 0 beat+ s quickly n[ t my words seem$ z if !y w\ld *oke me4 ,& n[1 ,may1 ,claude said1 hurri$ly1 sitt+ d[n by my side & tak+ my h&1 ,i want y to tell me :at y meant by t cruel lett] y s5t me2 or1 r1 ,i want y to tell me t x 0 all a mi/ake1 all a delusion1 t y h ?\ght bett] ( x s9ce1 & t y wi% y _h nev] writt5 x4 ,i want y to tell me1 ,may1 d>l+1 he said 9 a l[] voice1 t ! dream ( my life is to be *ang$ into a reality ?is v week4 ,i want y to tell me t ! bright days :i* ,i h always said 7 9 /ore = u bo? are n[ close at h&4 ,claude1 de> ,claude1 ,i said1 z soon z ,i 0 able to speak1 y h my answ]2 z a si/]1 z a fri5d1 ,i w always love y1 b ,i _c1 _c be y\r wife4 ,& pray :y n1 ,may8 he said1 impati5tly ris+1 & walk+ t[>ds ! w9d[4 ,:at absurd idea h y got 9 y\r head n[8 ,:o1 or :at is to h9d] y f becom+ my wife1 ,i %\ld l to "k8 ,claude1 ,i _c1 ,i said2 & ! te>s w\ld come1 9 spite ( all my ef=ts to keep !m back4 ,b :at is y\r reason1 ,may8 he said1 pac+ up & d[n ! room4 ,y mu/ h "s reason = :at y say1 & ,i _c re/ till y tell me :at x is4 ,:at is x1 ,may8 ,i _h r n tell y all my ?\ghts ab\t x1 ,claude1 ,i said2 x w\ld be v difficult1 & w\ld co/ u bo? mu* pa94 ,& ,claude1 ,i said1 e>ne/ly1 x w\ld d no good2 my m9d is q made up3 ,i _c d z y ask me1 s please d n press me = ! reason1 ,claude4 ,b ,i w "k x1 ,may1 he said1 almo/ angrily4 ,i am n go+ home till y h told me2 s y _h bett] let me he> x at once4 ,& !n ,i felt t1 p]haps1 x 0 s9ful c[>dice :i* made me afraid to tell ,claude my reason2 p]haps ,i 0 griev+ my de> ,"l & ,ma/] by be+ a%am$ ( ,him1 by be+ a%am$ to tell ,claude :at x 0 t ,i held f> m de> ?an 8 love = me1 ev5 ! priceless1 ! ev]la/+ love ( my ,"l4 ,& yet h[ c\ld ,i d x8 ,claude unexpect$ly came to my help4 ,may1 he said1 quickly1 d y love any "o bett] ?an me--is t x8 ,yes1 ,claude1 ,i said1 9 a l[ voice2 !re is "o love :i* ,i hold m de> ?an y\rs--t is x4 ,:o is x1 ,may8 he said1 impati5tly4 ,i didn't "k y knew any "o else well en\gh2 :o c x be8 ,x is no "o on e>?1 ,claude1 ,i said2 ,i mean ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,:at nons5se1 ,may6 he exclaim$4 ,:atev] 9 ! _w has t to d ) x8 ,i am n go+ to int]f]e ) y\r religion2 y may be z religi\s z ev] y please--a p]fect sa9t if y l2 ,i won't h9d] y4 ,s n[ put all ^? absurd notions out ( y\r head1 & let u talk ab\t ! future4 ,t matt] is settl$2 y %all be twice z religi\s aft] y are m>ri$ z y 7 be=e4 ,b1 ,claude1 x is n settl$1 ,i said2 y "k ,i c\ld n expect to be happy1 or to enjoy ,god's pres5ce1 if ,i 0 disobey+ ,8 cle> comm&4 ,& pray :at comm& d y mean8 said ,claude4 ,really1 ,may1 ?is is too absurd6 ,i op5$ ! ,bible & h&$ x to him2 !re 0 a m>k aga9/ ! v]se 9 ! ,epi/le to ! ,cor9?ians1 & 8 face cl\d$ ov] z he read ! words4 ,i wi% t v]se 0 cut out ( e ,bible 9 ! _w1 he said1 angrily2 ,i wond] h[ _m p's happ9ess has be5 ru9$ by x2 & x is p]fectly ridicul\s6 ,:y1 ,may1 y don't ev5 und]/& ! word+ ( ! text2 y c't ev5 read x 9 ,greek1 & yet y are go+ to ov]?r[ all my plans & s*emes = ! future1 & spoil all my happ9ess 9 ! _w1 j = ! sake ( t "o obscure v]se4 ,i c\ld n help notic+ h[ mu* ,claude dwelt on 8 own plans1 & s*emes1 & happ9ess 9 ! _w1 & h[ he look$ at ! matt] q f 8 own po9t ( view1 & n at all f my side ( ! "q4 ,no1 ,claude1 ,i said1 calmly1 ,i _c read x 9 ,greek1 b ,i und]/& q en\gh ( x to make me q sure t if ,i 7 to cons5t to m>ry y1 ,i %\ld be griev+ my be/ ,fri5d1 by disobey+ ,8 cle> comm&4 ,:y1 ,may1 t j %[s y "k no?+ at all ab\t x1 he said4 ,t v]se has no m to d ) y ?an x has ) t table2 x 0 spok5 to ! ,cor9?ians1 :o1 be=e ,paul prea*$ to !m1 7 an ignorant lot ( hea!ns1 & all x means is1 t ,*ri/ians are n to g & m>ry hea!ns4 ,i'm n a hea!n1 bad z y seem to ?9k me4 ,b1 ,i answ]$1 x says unbeliev]s1 & surely t means ^? :o are n believ]s4 ,claude1 are y a real believ] 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,c y hone/ly say t y are8 ,w\ld y l to be call$ a believ] by ! _w8 ,claude c\ld n answ] ?is "q1 s he quickly turn$ ! conv]sation into q a diff]5t *annel4 ,& s y set up y\rself z too good = me1 ,may1 t's :at x is6 ,y ?9k y\rself f> too sa9tly to be jo9$ to a poor hea!n l me6 ,no1 ,claude1 inde$ x is n t1 ,i said2 inde$ x is n4 ,i am n good at all2 v1 v f> f x2 b ,i d tru/ t ,i h come to ! ,"l ,jesus1 & t ,i believe 9 ,him4 ,yes1 ?\gh ,i am v imp]fect & s9ful1 oh1 ,claude1 ,i d hope t ,i am a believ]1 ,i said1 ) te>s 9 my eyes4 ,yes1 d>l+1 said ,claude1 9 q a diff]5t tone1 ,i "k y are ev]y?+ good2 ,i sometimes wi% ,i 7 m l y4 ,won't y help me to become bett]1 ,may8 ,won't y save me f myself1 & tea* me to love :at y love8 ,come1 ,may1 x is my la/ *ance2 surely y w n refuse me8 ,& ,claude took hold ( my h&1 & look$ up plead+ly into my face4 ,x 0 a dreadful temptation1 & a fi]ce /ruggle 0 go+ on 9 my m9d4 ,:il/ ,claude _h be5 angry & impati5t x _h be5 comp>atively easy to be firm1 b n[1 n[ t 8 voice 0 s plead+ & s t5d]1 n[ t 8 h& 0 laid s lov+ly ^u m9e1 n[ t 8 eyes 7 actually full ( te>s1 ,i felt my resolution giv+ way1 my fai? fail+4 ,:at if1 aft] all1 ,claude 0 "r8 ,:at if ,i might be inde$ ! means ( lead+ him to bett] ?+s8 ,miss ,ri*>ds seem$ to ?9k s1 & ,miss ,ri*>ds 0 a good woman4 ,& yet1 my consci5ce told me pla9ly en\gh1 t ! op9ion ( a good woman c\ld n make a wrong action "r4 ,0 x "r or wrong 9 ! sight ( ,god8 ,t 0 ! "q1 & e "t ,i put x to my he>t1 ! same answ] came1 9 cle>1 unmi/akable t]ms3 ,be ye n unequally yok$ toge!r ) unbeliev]s4 ,i saw ! pa? ( duty cle>ly be=e me1 a h>d & difficult pa?1 s h>d & s difficult t ,i ne>ly despair$ ( ev] be+ able to tread x4 ,! temptation 0 inde$ fi]ce & /rong1 & ,i 0 on ! po9t ( yield+4 ,claude saw ?is & spoke /ill m t5d]ly1 & press$ ! advantage he _h ga9$ z f> z possible4 ,i d>t$ up "o e>ne/1 implor+ cry to my ,"l = help4 ,my pray] did n1 ev5 9 ?\ght1 resolve itself into words1 b x 0 ! language ( my inn]mo/ s\l4 ,& x 0 n left unansw]$4 ,f\r words came into my m9d at t mom5t1 :i* enabl$ me to ga9 ! victory4 ,z cle>ly z if ! sunbeams :i* 7 /ream+ 9 at ! w9d[ _h writt5 !m on ! wall ( ! room1 ^! f\r words fla%$ across me3 ,,= ,,my ,,"n',s ,,sake4 ,ah6 ,"h 0 a motive1 /rong en\gh to enable me to ov]come ! greate/ temptation2 "h 0 a motive1 /rong en\gh to enable me to conqu] all ^? desires & wi%es ( my he>t1 :i* 7 urg+ me into disob$i5ce to my ,"l's comm&4 ,= ,my ,"n's sake2 is x too mu* to be> = ,me8 ,i he>d ,him ask me2 &1 9 a mom5t1 all ,8 inf9ite love = me1 all ,8 self-d5ial = my sake1 all ,8 travail ( s\l1 all t ,he und]w5t to save me1 & bless me1 cr[d$ ^u my m9d1 & 0 foll[$ by ! "q-- ,all ?is ,i bore = !e1 ,:at can/ ?\ be> = ,me8 ,my m9d 0 made up2 ,i w\ld p>ley ) ! temptation no long]4 ,i drew my h& away f ,claude's1 g5tly1 b firmly4 ,claude1 ,i said1 d n let u make ea* o!r m mis]able1 by go+ ov] & ov] ! same gr\nd4 ,y w nev] be able to move me4 ,i c only repeat :at ,i h told y be=e4 ,z a si/]1 z a fri5d1 ,i w always love y1 b ,i _c be y\r wife4 ,claude1 ,i w5t on1 z he 0 beg9n+ to speak1 t is my f9al answ]1 s please say no m ab\t x4 ,i suppose ,i spoke v decid$ly1 ?\gh ,i _h tri$ to speak calmly1 = ,claude 0 v angry4 ,a *ange pass$ ov] 8 face 9 an in/ant2 ,i d n ?9k he _h dreamt = a s+le mom5t t ,i %\ld be able to )/& 8 argum5ts & 8 p]suasions4 ,he walk$ to ! w9d[ & look$ out on ! g>d5 bel[4 ,!n ,i am to look ^u ?is z f9al1 ,may8 he said1 bitt]ly4 ,yes1 ,claude1 z q f9al1 ,i repli$2 y w nev] be able to move me f my resolution1 de> ,claude4 ,b y w n let our old fri5d%ip end1 w y8 ,:y %\ld we n be bro!r & si/] to ea* o!r /ill8 ,oh6 ,!re are two sides to t "q1 said ,claude1 pr\dly4 ,i keep out ( ! way ( ^? :o ?9k !mselves too good to associate ) me4 ,!re are pl5ty ( o!r p :o w be glad ( my fri5d%ip4 ,& s ,claude left me )\t ano!r ^w4 ,he w5t out ( ! room1 slamm+ ! door aft] him1 & a mom5t aft]w>ds ,i saw him ha/ily cross ! lawn1 & g out at ! g>d5 gate4 ,& ,i knew1 z well z if ,i c\ld read ! future1 t t 0 ! la/ "t ,i %\ld see him pass ?r\gh t gate4 ,= ,claude's 0 a pr\d1 imp]i\s nature1 & ! m ,i ?\ght ! matt] ov]1 ! m ,i felt sure t 8 pride 0 w\nd$1 q z mu*1 if n m1 ?an 8 affection4 ,he _h ?\ght x next to impossible t any "o1 & above all a poor1 fri5dless girl l myself1 %\ld refuse to be 8 wife4 ,he _h f\nd he 0 mi/ak51 & he 0 mortifi$ & vex$ at ! discov]y4 ,:5 ,i 0 left alone1 ,i felt z if ,i _h gone ?r\gh a great /orm1 & _h come out ( x we>i$ & exhau/$4 ,my m9d 0 too tir$ ev5 to pray4 ,i pu%$ aside ! lett]s ,i 0 writ+1 & look$ out ov] ! di/ant hills4 ,b aft] a "t1 :5 ,i 0 calm] & 9 a m re/ful /ate ( m9d1 ,i op5$ my ,bible at ! place :]e x _h be5 s (t5 op5$ ! la/ two days1 & read aga9 my ,ma/]'s ^w ( comm&4 ,& !n ,i 0 enabl$1 ?\gh ) te>s 9 my eyes1 to ?ank ,him t ?r\gh ,8 grace ,i _h be5 /r5g!n$ to keep x4 ,?is "t ,i read ! :ole passage ?r\gh to ! end ( ! *apt]4 ,! la/ two v]ses 7 ! v words ,i ne$$ j !n3 ,come out f among !m1 & be ye sep>ate1 sai? ! ,"l1 & t\* n ! unclean ?+2 & ,i w receive y1 & w be a ,fa!r unto y1 & ye %all be ,my sons & daught]s1 sai? ! ,"l ,almighty4 ,! ,ma/]'s call--,come out f among !m4 ,! ,ma/]'s promise--,i w receive y4 ,if ,he said1 ,g out f among !m1 x w\ld h be5 s mu* h>d] to obey4 ,b ,he does n say ,g1 b ,come--,come out2 come to ,me--,i w receive y4 ,come out to ,me1 & ,i w be a ,fa!r unto y1 & y %all be ,my *ildr51 ,my sons & ,my daught]s4 ,come out to ,me2 come out1 n unto lonel9ess1 & orphanhood1 & desolation1 b come out to ,me1 to a ,fa!r's love1 to a ,fa!r's sympa?y1 to a ,fa!r's home4 ,come & be ,my sons & daught]s1 ! sons & daught]s ( a ,k+--! ,k+ ( k+s4 ,come !n out f among !m4 ,leave t transi5t1 e>?ly affection1 :i* is1 z x 71 b = a mom5t4 ,come to ,me1 & ,i w receive y1 & w give y f> m ?an :at y w h to leave beh9d1 f> m ?an y h ev] ev5 hop$ = f ! pure/ ( e>?ly loves4 ,i w give y ,myself--,my love1 ,my ev]la/+ love1 ,my s\l-satisfy+ love4 ,is n ! ex*ange wor? mak+8 ,is n ! com+ out fully recomp5s$ by ! lov+ reception8 ,i look$ up into ! sky1 9 :i* ! sun 0 fa/ sett+1 & said ) a ?ankful he>t1-- ,"l1 by ,?y grace ,i h come out2 ,i h giv5 up ! affection :i* w\ld h drawn me away2 ,i h sep>at$ myself f ! love :i*1 h[ev] sweet1 w\ld h cut me (f f ,?y pres5ce & f ,?y love4 ,&1 ev5 z ,i said ?is1 ! ,ma/]'s answ] came ) t5d]e/ com=t to my he>t3 ,i w receive y1 nay1 ,i h already receiv$ y1 & ,i w be a ,fa!r unto y1 & y %all be ,my *ild1 ,my daught]1 sai? ! ,"l ,almighty4 ,i he>d ,maggie's voice at ?is mom5t1 s ,i ha/ily rose1 wip$ away ! te>s :i* 7 n[ only te>s ( joy & ?ankfulness1 & w5t to meet h]4 ,h[ happy y seem to-night1 ,may1 %e said1 z we sat toge!r at supp]2 y h n look$ s happy s9ce--s9ce-- ,h] lip quiv]$1 & te>s came into h] eyes4 ,i held out my arms to h]1 & %e came & sat on my knee1 z %e us$ to d :5 %e 0 a little *ild1 laid h] head on my %\ld]1 & sobb$4 ,:at is x1 ,maggie d>l+8 ,i ask$1 /rok+ h] long1 fair hair ) my h&4 ,oh1 ,may1 %e sobb$1 if only we c\ld be toge!r2 if only ,i _h n to g away & leave y4 ,i c\nt$ ! days ?is morn+ on ! almanack1 & !re are only n9ete5 m4 ,poor little ,maggie6 ,i said4 ,:at %all ,i d )\t y8 ,& :at %all ,i d )\t y1 ,may8 %e said4 ,my aunts are v k9d1 b !y are n l y2 y are j l a "m to me4 ,i %all nev] be a good girl1 ,may1 :5 ,i hav5't y to talk to me1 & :5 ,i c't tell y all my tr\bles4 ,b y c tell ,jesus1 ,maggie1 ,i said1 j z y h always told me1 & ,he w help y & com=t y f>1 f> bett] ?an ,i c\ld d4 ,yes1 ,may1 %e said1 putt+ up h] face to be kiss$1 ,i w tell ,him e day2 ,i promise y t ,i w4 ,& !n y c write to me1 ,maggie1 ,i said4 ,look "h :at ,i h b\ght = y4 ,i _h meant to h kept x till ! la/ day1 b p]haps ,i _h bett] give x to y n[4 ,i w5t to a draw] & br\ght out a neat little desk fill$ ) pap]1 envelopes1 p5s1 /amps1 & ev]y?+ necess>y = lett]-writ+4 ,maggie 0 *>m$ ) x1 & 0 q z m]ry z %e _h be5 sad be=e1 & began to plan at once h[ _m lett]s %e w\ld write me e week1 & :at %e w\ld say 9 !m4 ,%e said %e %\ld tell me ev]y?+1 ev5 :at "t %e got up e morn+ & w5t to b$ e night4 ,de> little ,maggie6 ,h[ well ,i c picture h] to myself z %e look$ on t memorable ev5+ 9 my life1 on :i* ,i _h refus$ to be ,claude ,ellis's wife4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,maggie',s ,,aunts4 ,illu/ration ,,^? la/ days :i* ,maggie & ,i sp5t toge!r 9 ! old home 7 v happy ones4 ,i took e opportunity ,i _h ( deep5+ 9 my little si/]'s m9d ! lessons ,i _h tri$ to tea* h] f a *ild1 & :i* %e _h always lov$ s mu*4 ,i _h great reason to hope t !y _h n be5 9 va91 b t my de> little ,maggie 0 9 de$ & 9 tru? a *ild ( ,god4 ,we 7 v busy sort+ & pack+ our v>i\s possessions1 & leav+ all 9 ! h\se 9 read9ess = ! sale :i* 0 to take place imm$iately we left4 ,i _h receiv$ a satisfactory answ] to my application = ! po/ ( companion1 say+ t ,sir ,william ,traf=d1 aft] due inquiries ( my ref]ees1 w\ld be glad ( my s]vices z companion to 8 daught]1 ,miss ,evelyn ,traf=d1 & w\ld be glad to "k on :at day ,i %\ld be able to comm5ce my duties at ,alli/on ,hall4 ,i did n see ,claude aga9 be=e ,i w5t away4 ,! day aft] 8 visit to me ,i he>d t he _h aga9 left home1 & _h return$ to 8 fri5ds 9 ,scotl&4 ,! ev5+ be=e we left ,acton1 ,i w5t up to ! ,p>sonage to say good-bye4 ,miss ,ri*>ds receiv$ me v k9dly1 b we 7 bo? con/ra9$ 9 our mann]1 = we 7 ?9k+ ( ! same ?+1 & nei!r ( u lik$ to m5tion x4 ,we spoke ( ! wea!r1 ( my future plans1 ( ! sale ( ! furniture1 ( ,mr4 ,ellis's heal?1 & ( a v>iety ( o!r ?+s & p2 b ,claude's "n 0 c>efully avoid$1 & t :i* 0 fill+ our ?\ghts 0 entirely kept out ( ! conv]sation4 ,s x 0 no wond] t our talk flagg$ at times1 & t we 7 v f> f be+ natural or at our ease4 ,j z ,i 0 leav+1 ,i rememb]$ h[ k9d ,miss ,ri*>ds _h be5 to me ?r\gh my mo!rless life2 always ready to help me ) h] advice :5ev] ,i ne$$ help1 & v pati5t 9 li/5+ to ! small home worries :i* _h cr[d$ ^u me :5 ,i fir/ took ^u myself ! c>es & responsibilities ( h\sekeep+4 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 ,i said1 y h be5 l a "m to me2 ,i %all nev]1 nev] be able to ?ank y en\gh = all y h be5 to me4 ,oh no1 ,may1 %e said1 w>mly1 y mu/ n speak ( t2 y h be5 q z mu*1 or m to me1 de>4 ,y h be5 a bright sunbeam "h1 ,may4 ,y h (t5 bright5$ my life s9ce ,i came "h4 ,oh1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 ,i said1 ,i nev] dreamt t ,i c\ld make y any happi]4 ,y did x )\t dream+ !n1 de>1 %e said1 smil+2 &1 ,may1 %e add$1 :at has pass$ betwe5 y & ,claude w make no diff]5ce 9 y\r love to me1 w x8 ,y w /ill treat me z a fri5d1 & let me he> f y sometimes1 won't y1 de>8 ,oh1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 ,i said2 w y let me write to y8 ,!n y are n v angry ) me8 ,angry ) y6 ,:y8 %e said4 ,= refus+ ,claude8 ,yes1 ,i said1 = giv+ ,claude ! answ] ,i did4 ,no1 de>1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds2 ,i 0 v mu* surpris$1 ,i own1 & v mu* disappo9t$4 ,i _h c\nt$ s mu* on y\r influ5ce ) ,claude1 & 0 build+ my hopes on x f> m ?an ,i ought to h done4 ,b s9ce !n1 ,may1 ,i h sometimes ?\ght t1 p]haps1 ,i ought n to blame y4 ,i felt t ,i _h be5 look+ at ! matt] entirely f my po9t ( view--m9e & ,claude's--& t1 p]haps1 de>1 y _h a reason = refus+ ,claude1 a reason ( :i* ,i %\ld n & c\ld n disapprove4 ,may1 %e said1 tak+ my h& v k9dly1 w\ld y m9d tell+ me y\r reason8 ,i ?9k y "k x already1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 ,i said1 z ,i press$ h] h& 9 m9e4 ,is x because ,claude is n truly a ,*ri/ian1 de>2 is t y\r reason8 ,yes1 t is x1 ,i said2 ,i d>e n h said 'yes' to ,claude1 ,miss ,ri*>ds1 9 ! face ( ,god's cle> comm&4 ,i felt ,i c\ld expect no happ9ess or bless+ if ,i 7 s disob$i5t4 ,y 7 q "r1 de> ,may1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds1 ) te>s 9 h] eyes2 ,i %\ld h done j ! same4 ,inde$ once1 ,may 7y w n m5tion x to any "o1 ,i "k71 ,i did exactly ! same myself4 ,x 0 v h>d at ! "t1 said ! good little woman1 z ! recollection ( t sorr[1 n[ s f> beh9d h] 9 h] pa/ life1 came z fre% z if x _h only tak5 place ye/]day2 x 0 v h>d at ! "t1 = ,i lov$ him v mu*1 b ,i c see x 0 all "r n[4 ,i %\ld h be5 a mis]able1 unhappy wife1 if ,i _h m>ri$ him1 & ,i c ?ank ,god t ,i gave him up4 ,!n y c und]/& h[ ,i felt1 de> ,miss ,ri*>ds1 ,i said4 ,yes1 inde$1 %e said1 e>ne/ly2 & z soon z t ?\ght occurr$ to me1 z soon z ev] x came into my m9d1 t t 0 y\r reason = refus+ ,claude1 ,i felt1 de>1 t y 7 "r1 & ,i 0 wrong4 ,y 7 "r1 p]fectly "r 9 obey+ ,god's comm&2 & ,i 0 wrong1 v wrong1 ,may1 9 wi%+ y to m>ry "o :o is n1 ,i "k1 a real ,*ri/ian4 ,miss ,ri*>ds kiss$ me v lov+ly1 z %e said ?is1 & ,i w5t home ) a light & ?ankful he>t4 ,poor ,miss ,ri*>ds6 ,i _h nev] dreamt t !re 0 a t\*+ little love /ory hidd5 away some:]e 9 h] pa/ hi/ory4 ,i _h nev] dreamt t t 0 ! reason :y %e _h nev] m>ri$1 b _h liv$ t quiet1 unselfi% life 9 h] bro!r's h\se--liv+ = all ar\nd h]4 ,& ,i 0 v ?ankful t %e ?\ght ,i _h act$ rightly1 & w\ld no long] blame me1 b w\ld be able & ready to sympa?ise ) me 9 my trial4 ,! busy "t ( pack+ & leave-tak+ 0 at l5g? ov]1 & ,maggie & ,i left our fir/ & hi!rto our only home4 ,x is a m]ciful ord]+ t at su* times we are f> too busy1 & full ( ?\ght & c>e ab\t ! pres5t mom5t1 to realise :at w\ld o!rwise ov]:elm u ) sorr[ful feel+4 ,z we drove (f f our old home1 we _h to turn back = a =gott5 key1 & !n1 almo/ directly aft]w>ds1 we arriv$ at ! /ation1 & ,i _h to take ! tickets1 look aft] ! luggage1 & select a c>riage4 ,my m9d 0 consequ5tly s full ( bus9ess1 t n until ! tra9 _h />t$ did ,i realise t ,maggie & ,i _h left our de> happy home1 nev] to return to x aga94 ,we 7 go+ t day to ! old ,manor ,h\se at ,bran/on1 :]e ,maggie's aunts liv$4 ,!y _h k9dly express$ a wi% to see me1 & _h invit$ me to sp5d a week ) !m be=e go+ to ,alli/on ,hall4 ,maggie 0 ( c\rse delight$ at ?is arrangem5t1 & ,i 0 n sorry to h a week's re/1 aft] ! :irl ( ! la/ mon?1 be=e ent]+ ^u my new duties4 ,?is 0 my fir/ visit to ! old ,manor ,h\se1 b ,maggie _h sp5t a v pleasant mon? !re two ye>s be=e1 & 0 mu* look+ =w>d to see+ h] aunts aga94 ,we _h a long j\rney1 & x 0 late 9 ! ev5+ :5 we arriv$ at ,bran/on4 ,i %\ld ?9k ,john w be "h1 said ,maggie1 z we got out at ! v quiet c\ntry /ation4 ,john 0 !re1 await+ our arrival4 ,john 0 a fat1 com=table-look+ old coa*man1 :o _h be5 9 ! family = m ?an fifty ye>s1 & look$ z if1 9 ! :ole c\rse ( !m1 he _h nev] _h "o s+le day's h>d "w4 ,john 0 driv+ two horses equally fat1 equally com=table-look+1 & equally1 by _! appe>ance1 d5y+ ! b>e idea ( _! ev] hav+ _h any h>d "w to d4 ,john t\*$ 8 hat1 & bade ! ladies welcome1 & hop$ ,missy 0 q well4 ,he 0 evid5tly q at 8 ease1 & accu/om$ to be reg>d$ z a family fri5d4 ,we ?ank$ ,john1 & answ]$ 8 inquiries1 & !n took our seats 9 ! c>riage4 ,x 0 v old1 l ,john1 & q out ( date1 ( unwieldy proportions1 & made a great noise 9 ! _w4 ,we drove = ab\t a mile & a half1 ?r\gh r an un9t]e/+ c\ntry2 at lea/1 s x seem$ to me1 aft] ! wood$ hills & pretty valleys :i* _h surr\nd$ our de> old home4 ,he w5t v sl[ly inde$1 & :5 !re 0 ! slighte/ ris+ 9 ! gr\nd1 ! horses walk$ solemnly & cauti\sly up x1 & ,i 0 m ?an ev] conv9c$ t ! op9ion ,i _h =m$ ab\t ! easy life t ^? two com=table-look+ horses _h always l$ 0 p]fectly correct4 ,at la/ we w5t ?r\gh a l>ge iron gate1 & ent]$ a pretty old-fa%ion$ g>d51 surr\nd$ by a high wall4 ,at "o end ( ?is g>d5 /ood ! ,manor ,h\se1 a qua9t old place1 built ( r$ brick1 & p>tly cov]$ ) ivy4 ,z we drove pa/ ! w9d[1 ,maggie's ?ree aunts look$ out1 & nodd$ & smil$ at u2 !y did n come out to meet u1 =1 z ,i aft]w>ds discov]$1 !y 7 v mu* afraid ( tak+ cold1 & nev] v5tur$ into ! hall :5 ! front door 0 op54 ,we 7 met on ! /eps by an eld]ly1 old-fa%ion$ s]vant1 9 a clean :ite apron & a l>ge cap1 plait$ r\nd h] face4 ,%e took u into ! draw+-room1 :i* 0 full ( qua9t & antiquat$ furniture1 & ab\nd$ 9 s(as & arm-*airs1 cov]$ ) v old-fa%ion$ *9tz4 ,9 ?is room ! ?ree aunts 7 anxi\sly await+ our arrival4 ,!y almo/ ov]:elm$ u ) k9dness1 & insi/$ on our ly+ d[n to re/ = half an h\r on ! com=table s(as till tea 0 q ready4 ,! room 0 v hot1 !re 0 a l>ge fire1 & huge scre5s /ood be=e ! doors1 & s&bags & curta9s exclud$ e possible draught f ! w9d[s4 ,i felt v tir$ & worn out 9 m9d & body1 s ,i 0 n sorry to obey my k9d ho/esses & rema9 quiet = half an h\r4 ,x gave me "t to ?9k ov] ! ev5ts ( ! pa/ day1 & also to look at ,maggie's ?ree aunts1 :o did n leave ! room b w5t on ) _! "w & _! talk :il/ we 7 re/+4 ,! elde/ si/]1 ,miss ,jane1 0 evid5tly ! rul+ _s 9 ! h\se4 ,h] ^w 0 law1 & h] quiet firm decision settl$ e disput$ "q4 ,!re 0 pl5ty ( firmness1 pl5ty ( good s5se1 pl5ty ( real k9dl9ess 9 h] face1 z %e b5t ov] ! /ock+ :i* %e 0 knitt+ 9 ! mo/ en]getic mann]1 sitt+ 9 "o ( ! l>ge arm-*airs ne> ! fire4 ,! second si/] seem$ to me to be a weak reflection ( ! elde/ "o1 &1 ,i soon f\nd out1 0 q rul$ by h] 9 ev]y?+1 = %e _h n /r5g? ( "* to settle any?+ on h] own responsibility4 ,if ,miss ,jane's ^w 0 law to h] h\sehold1 x 0 m especially law to ,miss ,hannah4 ,:at d y ?9k1 si/]8 0 ! "q repeat$ by h] _m times 9 ! day1 9 answ] to :i* ,miss ,jane w\ld give h] op9ion calmly & decid$ly1 & t op9ion 0 always conclusive4 ,! y\nge/ si/]1 ,miss ,l\isa1 0 consid]$ an invalid4 ,! be/ ( ev]y?+ 0 always giv5 to h]--! mo/ com=table *air & ! w>me/ corn]1 ! be/ seat 9 ! c>riage1 & at all h\rs ( ! day little tempt+ di%es 7 br\ght up to induce ,miss ,l\isa to eat4 ,miss ,jane & ,miss ,hannah 7 nev] tir$ ( wait+ on h]1 & treat$ h] almo/ l a spoil$ *ild4 ,!y 7 v k9d to me1 ^! ?ree si/]s1 dur+ my /ay 9 ! old ,manor ,h\se4 ,!y ev5 said h[ mu* !y wi%$ ,i w\ld make my home ) !m2 b1 ( c\rse1 ,i c\ld nev] dream ( be+ a burd5 to !m2 x 0 v k9d ( !m to take ,maggie1 ,i mu/ make my own way 9 ! _w4 ,ev]y?+ 9 ! ,manor ,h\se 0 9 ! mo/ beautiful ord]4 ,! c>pets look$ z if 9 ! :ole c\rse ( _! exi/5ce !y _h nev] kn[n :at x 0 to h a speck ( du/ or piece ( cotton left on !m2 ! furniture 0 s bright t y c\ld see y\rself reflect$ 9 e "p ( x2 ! drugget on ! /airs 0 spotlessly :ite1 z clean z if x 0 wa%$ e morn+ regul>ly2 9 fact1 ! mo/ p]fect neatness1 & ord]1 & cleanl9ess reign$ ev]y:]e ?r\gh\t ! old ,manor ,h\se4 ,!re 7 no little *ildr5 to make dirty foot-m>ks on ! clean floors1 or to soil ! clean cov]+s ( ! *airs & s(as4 ,& ! regul>ity & punctuality 9 ! h\se q equall$ its neatness & ord]4 ,at exactly ! same mom5t e morn+ ,miss ,jane came d[n/airs to make ! tea4 ,at exactly ! same in/ant1 day by day1 ! old s]vants came into ! room = pray]s4 ,meals 7 nev] a mom5t late--z ! clock /ruck we all took our seats1 & grace 0 imm$iately said4 ,at exactly ! same h\r1 e day1 ! si/]s took _! morn+ drive or _! aft]noon nap4 ,! :ole place seem$ l "s huge clock :i* _h be5 w\nd up ye>s ago1 long be=e any "o c\ld rememb]1 & :i* _h be5 go+ on & on & on ev] s9ce1 )\t once ne$+ to be w\nd up1 or set go+1 or look$ aft] aga94 ,?is regul>1 unbrok51 undi/urb$ life 9 ! old ,manor ,h\se 0 v pleasant = a little "t4 ,x 0 j :at ,i ne$$1 aft] all ,i _h gone ?r\gh lately4 ,b ,i fanci$ t ,i %\ld soon gr[ r tir$ ( x4 ,i fanci$ t ,i %\ld long = ! doorbell to r+1 & an int]ruption to come 9 my clockwork exi/5ce4 ,i %\ld long = a little ( ! /ir & bu/le & motion ( ! _w outside1 to creep into ! monotony & un*angeabl5ess ( ! life )94 ,small matt]s1 ev5 ! mo/ insignificant trifles1 became great ev5ts to ! si/]s4 ,if "o ( ! c[s or horses took cold1 or if a tree 0 bl[n d[n 9 ! g>d51 or if ! rooks built a new ne/ 9 ! plantation1 x 0 ! topic ( conv]sation = days4 ,i 0 a little tr\bl$ z ,i look$ =w>d & pictur$ to myself ! k9d ( tra9+ :i* ,maggie w\ld h 9 su* a home4 ,i 0 afraid x w\ld be r relax+ to h] m9d & en]gies1 s t if %e came out ( x into ! coldness & r\ghness ( ! outside _w %e w\ld feel ! diff]5ce v /rongly1 & w\ld n be h>dy en\gh to /& x4 ,i 0 n afraid t ,maggie w\ld be dull "h1 = %e 0 a quiet *ild1 & fond ( play+ alone1 & mak+ h] own amusem5ts & pleasures2 & !re 0 a small f>m close by1 kept by old ,john & 8 wife1 :i* 0 ,maggie's con/ant resort1 & "h1 among/ ! *ick5s1 & ducks1 & lambs1 & calves1 & pigeons1 %e f\nd pl5ty to int]e/ h]1 & pl5ty ( recreation & amusem5t4 ,! aunts 7 exce$+ly k9d to h]1 & ,i felt sure !y w\ld tra9 & tea* h] to ! be/ ( _! ability4 ,b :at ,i 0 afraid ( 01 t ,maggie's m9d w\ld got a little cramp$ by ! smallness ( ! sph]e 9 :i* %e 0 liv+1 & t %e w\ld ?us become some:at selfi% & self-indulg5t4 ,yet all ^! fe>s ,i c>ri$ "o by "o to my ,"l1 z !y arose2 & ,i felt unspeakable com=t & relief 9 plac+ my little si/] "u ,8 ,almighty c>e4 ,miss ,jane 0 my fav\rite among/ ! si/]s4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 h] face :i* made me tru/ h] at once1 & h] good common s5se & real he>tfelt sympa?y c\ld always be reli$ ^u4 ,i f\nd myself1 almo/ be=e ,i 0 aw>e1 giv+ h] a hi/ory ( our happy home-life1 & tell+ h] _m ( my anxieties & tr\bles1 z ,i ?\ght ( ! future4 ,%e made me promise t :5ev] ,i _h a holiday giv5 me ,i w\ld come to ! ,manor ,h\se1 & t ,i w\ld rememb] t x w\ld nev] be any?+ b a v great pleasure to !m all to h me !re4 ,on ,sunday we all w5t to ! village *ur* toge!r4 ,a new cl]gyman _h j be5 appo9t$1 & ! si/]s 7 h>dly 9 a frame ( m9d to enjoy ! s]vices1 = !y _h n ceas$ m\rn+ ov] ! late rector1 :o _h be5 !re = =ty ye>s1 & :o _h be5 oblig$ to resign on acc\nt ( ill-heal?4 ,b z ,i _h no recollections ( ! previ\s m9i/]1 &1 !re=e1 no pa9ful feel+s on see+ ! new m9i/] ent] ,mr4 ,bak]'s pulpit1 prea* f ,mr4 ,bak]'s ,bible1 & take possession ( ,mr4 ,bak]'s congregation1 ! s]vice 0 a real delight to me4 ,! "y cl]gyman 0 pla9 9 appe>ance1 b he _h a broad1 high1 ?\ghtful =ehead1 & he 0 evid5tly ?or\ghly 9 e>ne/4 ,! s]mon w5t to my he>t2 x 0 on ?is text3 ,to be spiritually m9d$ is life & peace4 ,i came out ( *ur* feel+ t ! s]mon ,i _h j he>d 0 "o :i* ,i c\ld n discuss or rem>k ^u1 b 0 "o :i* ,i %\ld nev] =get4 ,x 0 a se>*+1 practical s]mon1 & x _h prob$ my he>t to its v dep?s4 ,:at did ,i "k ( ?is spiritual-m9d$ness1 ( :i* ,mr4 ,cl>emont spoke8 ,:at did ,i "k ( ! life & peace :i* always spr+ f x8 ,i felt t my ?\ghts1 my motives1 & my desires 7 f> too mu* ( ! e>?1 e>?y1 f> too little rais$ above ! e>? to ?+s div9e4 ,& h5ce ! want ( life 9 my religion1 h5ce ! want ( t deep & abid+ peace :i* is ! portion ( all true believ]s 9 ,jesus4 ,i det]m9$ to pray m ?an ev] be=e = ?is heav5ly-m9d$ness1 & to let my ?\ghts dwell less on e>?1 m on heav54 ,! next day ,mr4 ,cl>emont call$ at ! ,manor ,h\se1 & 0 receiv$ by ! si/]s ) all respect & dignity4 ,i 0 practis+ on ! draw+-room piano :5 he came 91 & 0 alone ) him = a few m9utes1 :il/ ,miss ,jane1 ,miss ,hannah1 & ,miss ,l\isa 7 array+ !mselves 9 _! be/ caps4 ,he spoke to me v pleasantly1 & ,i took ! opportunity ( m5tion+ ,maggie to him1 & he k9dly promis$ to see h] sometimes1 & try to influ5ce h] aright4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,fir/ ,,impressions4 ,illu/ration ,,x 0 ! day be=e ,i left ! old ,manor ,h\se4 ,i 0 pack+ my box 9 my b$room1 & ?9k+ x w\ld be r h>d to leave ! k9d si/]hood1 & my little ,maggie1 & turn out into ! _w alone1 :5 ! door op5$ & ,maggie came 9 ) an op5 lett] 9 h] h&4 ,oh1 ,may1 %e said1 :at d y ?9k8 ,claude ,ellis is go+ to be m>ri$6 ,my he>t beat s l\dly t ,i 0 afraid ,maggie w\ld he> x1 & ,i trembl$ s mu* t ,i 0 oblig$ to sit d[n on a *air by ! b$4 ,may1 de>1 said ,maggie1 :at is ! matt]8 ,y look s pale & ill4 ,%all ,i get y any?+8 ,i am afraid ,i />tl$ y1 com+ 9 l t4 ,oh no1 ,i said1 try+ to smile1 ,i am all "r4 ,read me y\r lett]1 ,maggie--f :om is x8 ,x is f ,fanny1 ,may4 7,fanny 0 ,maggie's bosom fri5d & confidante74 ,%all ,i read x all1 or only ! "p ab\t ,claude8 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,,discov]y4 ,read ! "p ab\t ,claude fir/1 de>1 ,i said1 & ,i w lie d[n on my b$ :il/ y read2 ,i feel a little tir$ ) pack+1 & ,i mean to take half an h\r's re/ be=e d9n]4 ,s ,i lay on my b$ & turn$ my face to ! wall :il/ ,maggie read z foll[s3 ',& n[ ,i mu/ tell y ! news4 ,:o d y ?9k is engag$8 ,y w nev] guess1 if y guess all night4 ,x is ,claude ,ellis6 ,i w tell y h[ ,i he>d ab\t x4 ,ye/]day aft]noon ,i w5t = a walk ) ,da% to ! ,endle ,f>m4 ,z we 7 com+ home1 d[n t hilly "p ( ! road :]e y & ,i play$ hide-&-seek among/ ! furze bu%es1 ,i saw two p sitt+ on a /ile at ! bottom ( ! hill4 ,"o 0 ,claude ,ellis1 & ! o!r 0 a "y lady4 ,!y did n see me until ,i 0 v ne> to !m1 & !n ,claude pret5d$ n to see me & got up1 & !y bo? walk$ d[n ! lane1 & ,i foll[$ !m only a little way beh9d1 s t ,i c\ld see ! "y lady v well4 ,%e 0 prettily dress$1 & 0 tall & v good-look+4 ,%e _h ! lovelie/ hair ,i ev] saw1 done 9 a numb] ( mo/ wond]ful plaits4 ,i am sure %e c\ld n h done x h]self4 ,claude 0 b5d+ ov] h] & talk+ to h]2 & he look$ v happy1 & s did %e4 ,!y turn$ 9 at ! ,p>sonage gate1 & ,i w5t home wond]+ v mu* :o %e 04 ',b ,i _h n to wait v long1 = t ev5+ papa came 9 ) ! news t ,claude 0 engag$1 & t ! "y lady 0 /ay+ at ! ,p>sonage4 ,mr4 ,ellis _h told him1 s !re c\ld be no mi/ake ab\t x4 ,%e is ! si/] ( "o ( ,claude's ,ox=d fri5ds2 & he has be5 /ay+ ) !m 9 ,scotl& ! la/ few weeks4 ,h] "n is ,alice ,fitzg]ald1 & %e is v ri* inde$4 ,papa says %e is q a prize = ,claude1 & t he w be a v ri* man n[1 ) h] money & 8 own money put toge!r4 ,& papa says1 t is a v good ?+1 = he has he>d t ,claude sp5t a great _m hundr$ p\nds at ,ox=d1 & t poor ,mr4 ,ellis w\ld h be5 almo/ ru9$ if ,claude's uncle _h n di$ j !n & left him ! money4 ,papa ?9ks ,claude is v extravagant1 & he says he r pities 8 wife4 ,b ,i am sure ,claude is v fond ( h]1 & he look$ s happy to-day ,i c\ld n help feel+ glad = him4 ,he seem$ s mis]able ! la/ "t he came home4 ,d y rememb] :5 we met him 9 ,bu% ,lane1 h[ cross he 01 & h[ he contradict$ ev]y?+ we said1 & look$ z if he _h j he>d all 8 relations 7 dead8 ,well1 x's gett+ late1 & ,i mu/ end my lett]4' ,t's all ab\t ,claude1 ,may1 said ,maggie1 z %e /opp$ read+4 ,w\ldn't y l to see ,miss ,alice ,fitzg]ald8 ,:5 ,maggie _h gone d[n/airs1 tak+ h] new writ+-case ) h]1 t %e might beg9 at once to answ] h] little fri5d's lett]1 ,i got up & lock$ my door1 & !n sat d[n to ?9k ov] :at ,i _h he>d4 ,! news ( ,claude's engagem5t _h come ^u me l a ?und]-clap4 ,i tri$ to reason ) myself t ,i ought to be v glad t ,claude 0 engag$1 & t z ,i c\ld n be 8 wife he _h f\nd "s "o else to make him happy4 ,& yet x 0 s soon1 s v soon1 = ,claude to =get 8 love = me4 ,i _h ?\ght t he c>$ = me m ?an t4 ,i _h ?\ght t he held my love too de>1 s quickly & s easily to ex*ange x = ano!r's4 ,i suppose x 0 my pride t 0 w\nd$1 & t ! te>s :i* came1 9 spite ( myself1 & roll$ d[n my *eeks1 7 te>s ( mortification4 ,i felt v vex$ ) myself t x %\ld be s4 ,i call$ myself all sorts ( h>d names1 & wip$ my eyes1 & tri$ to ?9k h[ nice x 0 t all 0 s com=tably settl$ = me2 h[ delightful x 0 t ,i c\ld feel t ,i _h done ! "r ?+1 & yet t ,i _h n br\ght a gloom ov] ! :ole ( ,claude's life4 ,& yet1 at ! bottom ( my he>t1 ,i detect$ a secret hope1 :i* _h be5 hidd5 !re ! la/ few weeks1 t1 "s day or o!r1 ,claude might give up 8 infidel notions & become a real ,*ri/ian1 & t !n we might meet aga9 & become to ea* o!r :at he _h s e>ne/ly wi%$ u to be4 ,i _h ev5 ?\ght t p]haps ?is tr\ble might be ! means ( mak+ ,claude look into ! reality ( religion1 & believe 9 t ,savi\r :o is ! only true s\rce ( com=t1 & t ?us ! great ob/acle to our union might be tak5 away4 ,n t ,claude 0 by any means my beau-ideal ( all t a man & a husb& %\ld be4 ,b !n he 01 aft] all1 ! nice/ man ,i _h ev] met1 & x might be t my ideal 0 a ?+ ( imag9ation1 nev] met ) 9 real life4 ,& on ?is p>ticul> day ,i 0 feel+ v lonely & desolate4 ,i 0 ab\t to turn out into ! _w alone--alone among/ /rang]s4 ,i 0 go+ to a great & fa%ionable h\sehold1 :]e1 no d\bt1 ,i %\ld be look$ d[n ^u1 & despis$ z poor1 & a dep5d5t4 ,i _h no "o to take c>e ( me1 or to %ield me f ! r\gh places :i* ,i %\ld be sure to come across4 ,!re 0 no "o 9 ! _w t really belong$ to me except my si/] ,maggie1 & %e 0 b a *ild4 ,i felt v unprotect$1 desolate1 & =sak54 ,i took up my ,bible & turn$ we>ily ov] ! pages1 if1 p]*ance1 my eyes might fall ^u "s words ( com=t4 ,& ! words :i* caught my att5tion 7 ^!1 9 ! ?irte5? *apt] ( ,/4 ,john's ,gospel3 ,hav+ lov$ ,8 own :i* 7 9 ! _w1 ,he lov$ !m unto ! end4 ,unto ! end1 an un*ang+1 an unv>y+1 an untir+ love4 ,i _h *os5 t love 9 pref]5ce to ,claude's4 ,_h ,i made a bad ex*ange8 ,i _h giv5 up a love :i* _h prov$ itself1 at ! be/1 b fickle & %all[1 & ,i _h *os5 ,*ri/'s love1 ! love ( ,him ( :om x 0 writt51 t hav+ lov$ ,8 own :i* 7 9 ! _w1 ,he lov$ !m unto ! end4 ,8 'own4' ,did t inde$ mean me8 ,or did x only apply to ! few disciples ga!r$ r\nd ,him 9 ^! la/ h\rs ( ,8 life on e>?8 ,0 x only ^! :om ,he lov$ unto ! end8 ,or c\ld ,i take up ! words1 & make !m my /> ( com=t8 ,c\ld ,i make !m apply to myself n[1 z !y appli$ to ! apo/les !n8 ,0 x true n[ t ,i 0 ,8--,8 own8 ,0 x true t ,i 0 9 ! _w--9 ! wide1 desolate _w1 alone1 j z ^! apo/les 7 s soon to be1 & 0 x true t ,he w\ld love me 9 spite ( all my fail+s & all my s9s1 & t ,he w\ld love me unto ! end8 ,c\ld x be true8 ,ano!r text came into my m9d3 ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! same ye/]day1 to-day1 & = ev]4 ,^! words surely gave me ! "r to take ! o!r words & make !m m9e4 ,:at ,jesus 0 !n1 9 ! ye/]day ( ! pa/1 s ,he is n[1 to-day2 :at ,he 0 to ! apo/les1 s ,he is to me1 & s ,he ev] w be--! same 9 love1 ! same 9 sympa?y1 ! same 9 con/ancy4 ,b ,i am s cold to ,him1 ,i ?\ght1 s ungrateful1 s s9ful4 ,my love is s *angeable & fluctuat+4 ,surely ,he w n1 ,he _c1 9 spite ( all ?is1 g on lov+ me--lov+ me un*angeably4 ,& yet1 ,i "k t ,*ri/'s love = u1 if x exi/s at all1 mu/ exi/ q indep5d5tly ( any?+ 9 u1 = :at c ,he see 9 ! v be/ ( m5 to w9 ,8 love8 ,& ,i rememb]$ t ^! v apo/les1 ( :om ?is 0 writt51 7 v faulty & imp]fect 9 _! love to ,him4 ,only ! v next day "o ( !m1 ! "o :o _h pr(ess$ ! mo/ love = ,him1 d5i$ ,him ) oa?s & curses1 say+1 aga9 & aga91 ,i "k n ! man4 ,& e "o ( !m1 ev5 ! disciple :om ,jesus lov$1 =sook ,him 9 ,8 h\r ( ne$ & fl$4 ,& yet ( ^! v m51 ) all _! fail+s & imp]fections1 x 0 writt53 ,hav+ lov$ ,8 own :i* 7 9 ! _w1 ,he lov$ !m unto ! end4 ,my he>t grew light aga91 & ,i w5t d[n/airs q com=t$ & happy1 & )\t a s+le wi% 9 my he>t to *ange places ) ,miss ,alice ,fitzg]ald4 ,! next morn+ ,i left ! ,manor ,h\se soon aft] breakfa/4 ,i 0 foll[$ to ! door by ,miss ,jane bidd+ me1 9 h] calm1 decid$ way1 to be sure to *oose a c>riage ) at lea/ two eld]ly ladies 9 x1 because1 my de>1 "o reads ( su* awful robb]ies & murd]s tak+ place 9 railway c>riages6 ,foll[$ also by ,miss ,hannah1 entreat+ me to rememb] :at ,miss ,jane _h said1 & also to be q sure t ! gu>d _h fa/5$ ! door well be=e ! tra9 />t$4 ,foll[$ ev5 by ,miss ,l\isa1 sugge/+ ! advisability ( always hav+ bo? w9d[s clos$1 & bo? v5tilators securely fa/5$1 le/ any draught %\ld ent] ! c>riage4 ,foll[$1 n only to ! door b z f> z ! g>d5 gate1 by my little ,maggie1 sobb+ z if h] he>t w\ld break1 & refus+ to be com=t$4 ,x 0 v h>d to leave !m all1 & especially to leave my little si/]1 & to g =? alone into ! _w2 b ! words :i* _h be5 my com=t ye/]day 7 my /r5g? n[1 & ! language ( my he>t 01-- ,i w fe> no evil1 = ,?\ art ) me4 ,h[ mu* ,i wond]$1 z ,i 0 travell+ t day1 :at ,miss ,evelyn ,traf=d w\ld be l1 & ( :at my duties1 z companion1 w\ld consi/4 ,b x 0 ( no use wond]+2 t ev5+ ,i %\ld "k4 ,i _h a long1 tir+ j\rney1 hav+ to *ange my tra9 no less ?an f\r times1 & to wait at cold1 *e]less junctions = sev]al h\rs4 ,b 9 spite ( ! si/]s' (t-repeat$ pr$ictions ( ! rev]se1 ,i & my luggage arriv$ safe & s\nd at ! little /ation ( ,alli/on4 ,z soon z ,i left ! c>riage1 a footman came up to me1 &1 t\*+ 8 hat1 inquir$ if ,i 0 ,miss ,l9dsay4 ,:5 ,i answ]$ 9 ! affirmative1 he took *>ge ( my luggage1 & l$ ! way to a c>riage :i* 0 wait+ = me outside ! /ation4 ,we drove on 9 ! d>kness = "s di/ance1 ?r\gh :at seem$ to be c\ntry roads & lanes1 = ,i c\ld see no lights by ! wayside1 & no?+ to break ! d>kness ( ! night4 ,aft] a long "t ! c>riage /opp$ 9 front ( a small h\se1 :i* ,i saw mu/ be a lodge1 = by means ( ! light :i* came f a diamond-pan$ w9d[ ,i c\ld see a woman op5+ "s l>ge iron gates = ! c>riage to g ?r\gh4 ,:5 we _h pass$ ! lodge1 ,i expect$ e mom5t to rea* ! h\se1 & my he>t beat fa/] & fa/] 9 expectation ( my arrival4 ,b we w5t on & on & on = at lea/ a mile be=e ! lights ( ! great h\se appe>$1 & we /opp$ be=e ! door4 ,! footman got d[n f ! c>riage & rang ! bell4 ,! door 0 op5$ by a grave & solemn butl]1 & ,i w5t inside1 feel+ z if ,i 7 walk+ 9 my sleep1 s tir$ & confus$ 0 ,i ) my long j\rney4 ,i 0 u%]$ ?r\gh a spaci\s hall1 fill$ ) /ags' horns & old swords1 & /uff$ birds & =eign curiosities1 & old oak cab9ets1 up a v wide /aircase to a room at ! top ( ! h\se4 ,x 0 n a l>ge room1 b x 0 v pretty & com=table1 & a *e]ful fire 0 blaz+ 9 ! grate4 ,! maid :o _h %[n me my room told me t ,miss ,traf=d w\ld be glad to see me z soon z ,i 0 ready1 s ,i ha/5$ to take (f my du/y travell+ dress & to make myself ready to g d[n/airs4 ,aft] ab\t half an h\r ! maid came back aga9 to conduct me4 ,we w5t ?r\gh sev]al long passages1 pa/ a numb] ( doors1 until we arriv$ at ,miss ,evelyn ,traf=d's room4 ,! maid op5$ ! door & ,i w5t 94 ,! gas 0 n light$1 b ! fire 0 blaz+ brightly1 & by its light ,i c\ld see a "y lady ly+ on a l[ c\* on "o side ( x4 ,%e 0 v pretty1 ) small1 delicate features1 & a beautiful fair complexion1 & appe>$ to be ab\t sev5te5 or eighte5 ye>s ( age4 ,on ! s(a beside h] 7 ly+ two kitt5s curl$ up on a velvet cu%ion1 & 9 front ( ! fire 0 a little spaniel fa/ asleep on ! he>?-rug4 ,z soon z ! door op5$ ,miss ,traf=d hold out h] h& to me4 ,come 91 ,miss ,l9dsay1 %e said2 come to ! fire2 y mu/ be tir$ & cold2 x's dreadfully cold out1 is x n8 ,!re1 ,flossy1 get up & let ,miss ,l9dsay come to ! fire4 ,%e _h a pretty1 *ildi% mann]1 :i* 0 v w9n+ & pleasant4 ,i am s glad y h come1 %e said1 :5 ,i 0 seat$1 & y look s nice4 ,d y "k ,i ?\ght y w\ld be dreadful1 be=e y came6 ,:5 papa said "o day t x 0 s dull = me up "h alone he mu/ get me a companion1 ,i actually cri$1 ,miss ,l9dsay4 ,x 0 v silly ( me1 ,i "k1 b !n ,i always am a silly *ild4 ,i pictur$ to myself :at ?is companion w\ld be l1 & ,i ?\ght %e w\ld h grey curls1 & spectacles1 & a br[n alpaca dress1 & always talk z if %e 7 talk+ out ( a book4 ,i c\ld n help laugh+ he>tily :5 %e said ?is4 ,oh1 ,i am s glad y c laugh1 said ,miss ,traf=d2 ! companion1 9 ! picture ,i made ( h]1 nev] laugh$--%e only smil$1 z if %e 0 ?9k+1 ',h[ fooli% e "o 9 ! _w is1 & especially ?is weak-m9d$ *ild ,i h to take c>e (4' ,?is1 ( c\rse1 made me laugh aga91 to ,miss ,traf=d's great satisfaction4 ,papa said he w\ld get me somebody "y & *>m+ if he c\ld1 & he told me :5 he 0 writ+ ab\t y h[ old y 71 b ,i didn't ?9k ,i %\ld l y a bit1 & ,i didn't want y to come at all4 ,i hope y w *ange y\r m9d soon1 ,miss ,traf=d1 ,i said2 ,i w try n to be v disagreeable4 ,oh1 ,i h *ang$ my m9d1 %e said1 quickly2 ,i *ang$ x z soon z y came 9 at ! door4 ,i always judge by fir/ sight4 ,if ,i love p :5 ,i fir/ see !m1 ,i always love !m2 & if ,i hate !m1 ,i always hate !m4 ,i nev] *ange my m9d aft]w>ds4 ,d y ?9k t is a good plan8 ,i said4 ,don't y ?9k x is r an unfair way ( judg+8 ,oh1 ,i don't "k ab\t t1 %e said2 x always answ]s v well = me4 ,i lik$ y :5 y came 9 at ! door1 & ,i mean always to l y4 ,i wi% ,ambrose w\ld br+ ! d9n]1 ! gong s\nd$ long s9ce4 ,i am sure x is "t = x1 & y mu/ be s hungry4 ,miss ,l9dsay1 w y please r+ ! bell8 ,"o ( ! footm5 soon appe>$ ) a small r\nd table1 :i* he plac$ betwe5 ,miss ,traf=d's c\* & my *air4 ,! table 0 already prep>$ = d9n]1 ) ev]y?+ 9 its prop] place4 ,oh1 x is s nice to h y "h1 said ,miss ,traf=d4 ,d y "k1 ,i hav5't be5 d[n/airs to d9n] = five mon?s4 ,isn't t dreadful8 ,& ,i h always _h d9n] q alone1 except twice1 :5 !re 0 no "o /ay+ "h1 & !n papa came up to my room & _h d9n] "h4 ,x 0 su* fun2 he & ,i _h ?is little table1 & ,ambrose came 9 "h to wait4 ,i laugh$ all ! "t1 & s did papa2 x seem$ su* a little room aft] ! d9+-room1 & ! ?ree m5 did n at all "k :]e to /&1 because !re 0 no room = !m to come close to ! table4 ,!n y h only be5 ill five mon?s8 ,i said4 ,only five mon?s6 ,z if t 7 n long en\gh1 %e said2 x seems m l five ye>s to me6 ,yes1 x is a long "t1 ,i said2 b ,i 0 afraid y might h be5 ill long] /ill4 ,i d n "k :at made y ill4 ,didn't papa tell y8 ,h[ funny ( him6 ,n[1 if ,i _h be5 writ+ to y1 ,i %\ld h told y ! :ole /ory4 ,:at did he tell y8 ,he only said t he want$ a companion = 8 daught]1 & ask$ = my ref]5ces4 ,t 0 j l papa1 said ,evelyn2 he always does ev]y?+ 9 :at he calls a bus9ess-l way1 :i* ,i always say means nev] tell+ anybody any?+4 ,w y tell me :at made y ill8 ,i ask$4 ,yes1 x 0 t "y horse1 %e said2 su* a beauty6 ,y mu/ see him1 ,miss ,l9dsay2 he is q black1 & has a :ite /> on 8 =ehead1 & 8 "n is ,wildfire1 because he flies along s fa/4 ,papa said he 0 too "y = me to ride2 b ,i 0 n a bit afraid1 & ,c\s9 ,donald ask$ me to g out ) him = an h\r4 ,c\s9 ,donald is v fond ( me1 %e said1 laugh+2 he w\ld l me to m>ry him2 b t w\ld nev] d1 y "k4 ,papa says he is v poor1 & he w\ld n he> ( su* a ?+4 ,b ,c\s9 ,donald is v good-look+1 & ,i l rid+ ) him1 he rides s well1 & we _h a spl5did ride t day2 b !n ,wildfire ?rew me1 & all my fun 0 ov]4 ,7 y mu* hurt8 ,i ask$4 ,yes1 %e said2 ! doctors said my sp9e 0 injur$2 only a little ?\gh1 %e add$1 quickly1 & if ,i keep v1 v /ill1 & nev] walk ab\t = a ye>1 !y ?9k ,i %all be q well aga94 ,oh de>6 ,i wi% ! ye> 0 ov] n[6 ,b x w be mu* nic] n[ y h come4 ,y mu/ tell me1 please1 ,miss ,traf=d1 :at my duties are1 ,i said4 ,oh1 don't talk ab\t duties1 %e said1 pret5d+ to /op h] e>s2 ,i c't be> ! ^w4 ,i nev] c\ld d any?+ because x 0 a duty4 ,t's j ! sort ( ^w ! companion 9 my picture us$ to say4 ,%e us$ to draw up h] head & look ?r\gh h] spectacles1 & say1 solemnly1 ',miss ,evelyn1 rememb] y\r duties4' ,b y w tell me :at my "w is to be "h1 ,i repeat$2 ,sir ,william did n m5tion x 9 8 lett]4 ,y won't h any "w1 %e said1 except to amuse me2 y are to be my fri5d1 if y l to call t "w--to read to me1 & talk to me1 & h meals ) me1 & make ! ye> g a little quick]4 ,t isn't v h>d "w1 ,i said4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 %e answ]$2 y'll f9d me a v tiresome *ild sometimes1 & if y _h be5 ! br[n alpaca dress1 & grey curls1 & spectacles1 ,i w\ld h l$ y su* a life t 9 less ?an a week y w\ld h said to papa1 ',sir ,william ,traf=d1 ,i mu/ beg to resign ! *>ge ( y\r flippant & wilful daught]4' ,be=e y came1 papa said we 7 to h "s pr(itable read+ 9 a morn+1 & /ory-books only aft] lun*eon2 b ,i hate pr(itable read+1 & papa nev] makes me d :at ,i hate4 ,:at k9d ( read+ d y mean8 ,i inquir$4 ,oh1 hi/ory & geography1 & all su* ?+s2 ,i nev] c\ld be> !m4 ,:at is ! good ( kn[+ :o ,h5ry ,,viii4's wives 71 & :i* ( !m he behead$2 & ne>ly giv+ oneself bra9 fev] 9 try+ to rememb] :at relation ,john ( ,gaunt 0 to ev]ybody else4 ,i am v fond ( hi/ory1 ,i said2 ,i ?9k "s p>ts are q z int]e/+ z a /ory-book4 ,oh de>1 oh de>6 %e said4 ,y are talk+ j l ! br[n alpaca dress6 ,i %all expect y to pull ! spectacles out ( y\r pocket 9 a m9ute4 ,& !n ,i c\ld d no?+ b laugh1 & 9 a mom5t %e _h *ang$ ! conv]sation1 & 0 rattl+ on ab\t some?+ else4 ,!re are n _m visitors "h j n[1 %e said2 y'll see !m all by & by4 ,!y g5]ally pay me a visit aft] d9n]4 ,& m9d y /op :5 !y come2 ,i want y to see !m all4 ,! br[n alpaca dress always got up :5 any "o came 91 & made a v /iff b[1 & w5t away & %ut h]self up 9 h] b$room4 ,s m9d y don't d ! same2 y mu/ look at all ! p well1 & tell me :at y ?9k ( !m1 :5 !y are gone4 ,oh1 ,i %\ld n l to d t1 ,i said4 ,:y n8 %e said1 laugh+ly4 ,i don't m9d tell+ y :at ,i ?9k ( any "o4 ,!re is ,lady ,eldridge2 %e is v gr& & /ately1 & ,i don't l h] a bit2 & !re is ,"l ,moreton--he nev] has a ^w to say1 & is v /upid2 b he has a quantity ( money & a spl5did e/ate1 & papa is always say+ :at a nice "y man he is4 ,& s he may be1 p]haps1 9 "s ways2 at lea/ he is v h>mless1 b !n he squ9ts1 & ,i nev] c\ld m>ry any "o :o squ9t$--c\ld y1 ,miss ,l9dsay8 ,i don't "k1 ,i said1 laugh+2 ,i nev] ?\ght ab\t x4 ,well1 ,i c\ldn't1 x w\ld drive me mad4 ,& !n !re is ,alicia ,hay--papa's old maid c\s9--& if y ask me :at ,i ?9k ( h]1 ,i ?9k %e is try+ v h>d to get m>ri$ & nev] w4 ,& !n !re is ,lilla--b ,i won't tell y ab\t !m all n[1 y w see !m = y\rself by & by4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,alli/on ,,hall4 ,illu/ration ,,%all ,i r+ ! bell1 ,miss ,traf=d8 ,i inquir$1 :5 d9n] 0 ov]4 ,don't call me ,miss ,traf=d1 %e said1 quickly2 call me ,evelyn1 x s\nds mu* nic]1 & is six lett]s %ort]4 ,b p]haps ,sir ,william w\ld n l x1 ,i object$4 ,oh1 papa likes ev]y?+ ,i l1 %e said1 decid$ly4 ,i wi% y to call me ,evelyn1 & ,i mean to call y by y\r fir/ "n too--',miss ,l9dsay' s\nds j l ! br[n alpaca4 ,:at is y\r ,*ri/ian "n8 ,my "n is ,may1 ,i said2 & ,i %all be v glad if y w call me ,may1 in/ead ( ,miss ,l9dsay2 ,i %all fancy ,i am at home aga94 ,well !n x's settl$1 ,may1 %e said1 laugh+2 & n[ y may r+ ! bell4 ,soon aft] ! dess]t 0 cle>$ away1 a ru/l+ ( silk 0 he>d 9 ! passages1 ! door op5$1 & ?ree ladies ent]$ ! room4 ,! fir/ 0 a /\t1 eld]ly lady1 v h&somely dress$4 ,9 h] y\ng] days ,i felt sure %e _h be5 a beauty1 & ,i ?9k %e mu/ h be5 greatly admir$4 ,b %e _h1 ,i ?\ght1 an unpleasant expression 9 h] face1 & a haughty & disagreeable mann]4 ,well1 ,evelyn1 %e said1 z %e swept pa/ me )\t a ^w or a look1 h[ are y feel+ n[8 ,oh1 v nicely1 ?ank y1 ,lady ,eldridge1 %e said2 ,miss ,l9dsay & ,i h _h q a pleasant *at toge!r4 ,miss ,l9dsay1 ah6 ,yes1 ,i see1 said ,lady ,eldridge1 turn+ to me = ! fir/ "t2 ! "y p]son :om ,sir ,william has engag$ z y\r companion1 ,evelyn1 ,i believe4 ,& !n %e took no fur!r notice ( me1 b sat ^u ! s(a at ,evelyn's side1 fann+ h]self vigor\sly4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ,lady ,eldridge's mann] :i* made me uncom=table & uneasy1 & ,i _h )drawn to ! table ) my "w z ! two o!r ladies advanc$ to ! fire1 n int5d+ to take any "p 9 ! conv]sation1 :5 a pleasant1 g5tle voice by my side said k9dly1 ,y mu/ be tir$ ) y\r long j\rney1 ,miss ,l9dsay2 _h y to /op _m times by ! way8 ,i look$ up & met "o ( ! sweete/ faces ,i h ev] se54 ,x 0 n exactly a pretty face1 & ! features 7 f> f h&some1 b !re 0 su* a beautiful expression ^u x t y c\ld nev] h call$ x pla94 ,i %\ld h be5 v puzzl$ if any "o _h ask$ me h[ old %e 04 ,at "o "t %e look$ q "y1 n m ?an f\r or five & tw5ty2 & ! mom5t aft]w>ds ,i detect$ /rong m>ks ( c>e1 or anxiety1 or tr\ble on ! face1 :i* made me ?9k %e mu/ be at lea/ t5 or fifte5 ye>s old]4 ,i told h] ab\t my j\rney1 & !n %e ask$ me "o "q aft] ano!r1 9 ! k9de/1 pleasante/ way1 z if %e really c>$ to "k all ,i _h to tell h]4 ,%e l$ me on f "o subject to ano!r1 & ,i f\nd myself tell+ h] ( our old home2 ( ,maggie1 & my hopes & fe>s = h]2 & ( _m o!r ?+s1 :il/ ,lady ,eldridge & ,evelyn 7 talk+ toge!r on ! s(a2 & all ! *ill & repression :i* _h come ov] me :5 ,lady ,eldridge ent]$ ! room entirely pass$ away1 & ,i felt p]fectly at my ease aga94 ,:5 ,i told h] ( our leav+ our de> old home1 h] eyes fill$ ) te>s1 & %e said quietly1 ,i "k :at a trial t is2 ,i h gone ?r\gh x myself4 ,:at a com=t t !re is "o home :]e !re w be no p>t+ & no go+ away6 ,su* a happy1 ?ankful feel+ came into my he>t z %e said ?is4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ! way %e said x1 z well z 9 ! words !mselves1 :i* made me feel sure t my new fri5d 0 "o :o lov$ ! same ,"l ,i lov$4 ,&1 if ,i _h felt drawn to h] be=e1 ,i 0 d\bly drawn to h] n[4 ,we _h no opportunity = fur!r conv]sation1 = ,evelyn 0 gr[+ we>y ( ,lady ,eldridge1 & invit$ u to come ne>] to ! fire4 ,put away y\r "w1 y indu/ri\s girl1 %e said to me4 ,! br[n alpaca always _h h] "w close to h] f+]s' ends at a mom5t's notice4 ,my de> ,evelyn1 said ,lady ,eldridge1 a mo/ pr(itable way = a "y p]son4 ,b ,evelyn took no notice ( h]1 & turn$ to my new fri5d4 ,:]e h y be5 all day1 ,lilla8 %e said4 ,y h only be5 to see me ?ree times4 ,h ,i be5 s neglig5t z t1 de>8 %e said4 ,i mu/ m5d my mann]s to-morr[2 b ,i h be5 v busy writ+ lett]s1 s y mu/ =give me4 ,until ,i _h turn$ to ! fire ,i _h n look$ at ! ?ird lady :o _h come into ! room4 ,%e 0 sitt+ languidly 9 an arm-*air by ! fire1 ) h] eyes fix$ on ! door1 z if %e 7 look+ anxi\sly = "s "o to ent]4 ,%e 0 decid$ly advanc$ 9 middle age1 yet %e 0 dress$ l a girl ( sev5te53 9 a l[1 :ite ev5+ dress1 & a mo/ elaborate gold *a9 & locket r\nd h] neck4 ,%e look$ dissatisfi$ & re/less1 z if %e 0 always /riv+ to rea* "s object :i* 0 elud+ h] grasp4 ,%e took no p>ticul> int]e/ 9 ! g5]al conv]sation :i* 0 go+ on1 b seem$ ei!r lo/ 9 ?\ght1 or n ?9k+ at all4 ,lady ,eldridge 0 giv+ an acc\nt ( ,ea/]n life1 :i* %e describ$ z ! mo/ delightful life on e>?4 ,i f\nd %e _h liv$ _m ye>s abroad1 & 0 go+ to ,con/ant9ople ! foll[+ spr+4 ,%e c\ld n settle 9 ,engl& m ?an a ye> at a "t1 %e said4 ,^? mis]able skies2 ^? depress+ fogs2 ^? dreadful ra9y days1 en\gh to make any "o commit suicide :o has liv$ 9 ! ,ea/1 my de>4 ,& ,lady ,eldridge fann$ h]self aga9 at ! b>e recollection ( x4 ,%e kept up a cont9ual run ( conv]sation = ab\t half an h\r2 b %e gave me ! idea ( be+ a woman :o _h h>dly op5$ a book 9 ! :ole c\rse ( h] life1 & :o 0 ?or\ghly ignorant ( ev]y?+ except ! worldly ways ( ! worldly _w--9 :i* %e seem$ to be any?+ b ignorant4 ,b h] *att]+ 0 br\ght to a close by a rap at ! door1 & ! ann\ncem5t t ! g5tlem5 _h arriv$ 9 ! draw+-room4 ,^? tiresome m56 said ,lady ,eldridge4 ,z if !y c\ld n amuse !mselves = half an h\r )\t s5d+ = u4 ,well1 ,alicia1 ,i suppose we mu/ obey ! lords ( creation & g d[n/airs4 ,good-night1 ,evelyn1 my de>4 ,&1 )\t tak+ ! slighte/ notice ( me1 ,lady ,eldridge sail$ out ( ! room4 ,! o!r two ladies said good-night to bo? ( u & foll[$ 9 h] tra91 & ,evelyn & ,i 7 left alone4 ,well1 :at d y ?9k ( !m8 %e said1 z soon z ! door 0 %ut4 ,br+ y\r *air close to ! fire & tell me4 ,i ?9k t ! lady :o sat ne> me has "o ( ! sweete/ faces t ,i ev] saw1 ,i said4 ,i c\ld q believe 9 any "o lov+ h] at fir/ sight4 ,oh1 ,lilla1 yes2 isn't %e nice8 said ,evelyn1 c>elessly4 ,e "o seems to l poor ,lilla4 ,:y d y call h] poor8 ,i ask$4 ,oh1 because %e has _h s mu* tr\ble1 ,evelyn answ]$2 %e 0 engag$ to a "y (fic] a good _m ye>s ago1 & x 0 brok5 (f2 8 fa!r p]suad$ him to m>ry "s "o ) m money4 ,lilla is papa's fir/ c\s91 & %e (t5 /ays "h2 x is v dull = h] at home2 h] fa!r has m>ri$ aga91 & 8 new wife is su* a horrid old ?+1 :o treats ,lilla z if %e 7 a *ild ( twelve4 ,b ,lilla nev] compla9s2 %e is v pati5t4 ,& :at did y ?9k ( ,lady ,eldridge8 ,i _h r n say1 please1 ,evelyn2 ,i d n ?9k x is v k9d to talk ab\t p s mu*4 ,oh1 x won't hurt ,lady ,eldridge1 ,i assure y1 %e answ]$2 %e is miles too high up 9 ! _w to be hurt by any?+ y or ,i may say or ?9k ( h]--at lea/ %e ?9ks t %e is4 ,papa says %e has no?+ to boa/ (1 if h] antec$5ts 7 look$ into4 ,%e 0 q poor1 & liv$ 9 "s remote ,ea/]n city1 :5 h] good looks attract$ ,sir ,hugh ,eldridge's att5tion1 z he 0 pass+ ?r\gh ! place1 & he m>ri$ h]4 ,b %e ?9ks h]self a p]fect que5 n[1 & lords x ov] ev]ybody4 ,i (t5 pity h] poor maid4 ,x is ',lawr5ce1 "h2' ',lawr5ce1 d ?is2' ',lawr5ce1 d t2' f morn+ till night2 = ,lady ,eldridge ?9ks x is a disgrace to d ! simple/ ?+ = h]self1 or ev5 to "k h[ x ought to be done4 ,%e boa/s ( be+ ignorant z a baby ab\t all money matt]s1 & _c ev5 pay a bill = h]self4 ,silly old ?+6 said ,evelyn1 contemptu\sly4 ,i h m respect = ,alicia ,hay ?an ,i h = h]4 ,is t ! lady :o sat 9 ! arm-*air by ! fire8 ,i ask$4 ,yes1 poor ?+6 said ,evelyn4 ,%e w\ldn't talk a bit to-night4 ,i "k :y1 j z well z if ,i _h be5 !re4 ,x 0 j because ,"l ,moreton didn't take h] d[n to d9n]2 & ,evelyn laugh$ at ! ?\ght ( x4 ,didn't y see h[ %e look$ at ! door e "t a /ep came 9 ! passage8 ,because sometimes papa comes up = a few m9utes on 8 way to ! draw+-room1 to *e] me up a little1 & sometimes he br+s "o ( ! g5tlem5 ) him2 b !y didn't come to-night1 s poor ,alicia 0 q disconsolate2 %e _h n ! he>t to talk to any "o4 ,& if %e only "k--oh1 if %e only knew--:at ,"l ,moreton really ?9ks ( h]6 ,poor ?+6 ,i said4 ,is %e v fond ( him8 ,oh1 n ( him 9 p>ticul>1 said ,evelyn1 laugh+2 b y see poor ,alicia is gett+ old2 %e really is1 ?\gh %e w\ld be v angry if any "o told h] s1 & %e wants v mu* to be m>ri$1 & to h a home ( h] own4 ,i 0 n sorry :5 ,evelyn ask$ me to r+ ! bell = h] maid ,clem5ce1 & ,i 0 at lib]ty to g to my own room1 = ,i 0 v tir$ aft] all ! travell+ & excitem5t ,i _h gone ?r\gh t day4 ,i lay awake = _m h\rs1 wat*+ ! flick]+ ( ! firelight1 & li/5+ = ! /rik+ ( a l>ge clock 9 ! hall1 ^: deep1 sonor\s voice c\ld be he>d 9 e "p ( ! great h\se4 ,! next morn+ ,i awoke be=e x 0 light1 & _h be5 dress$ = m ?an an h\r be=e ,clem5ce came to conduct me to h] "y mi/ress's dress+-room4 ,i f\nd ,evelyn ly+ on a s(a by ! dress+-room fire1 9 a pretty p9k dress+-g[n1 & ) h] fair hair hang+ d[n 9 long wav+ tresses4 ,%e look$ a p]fect picture1 ,i ?\ght1 & "o t any arti/ w\ld take pleasure 9 pa9t+4 ,%e seem$ pleas$ to see me1 b 0 languid & tir$1 & n s mu* incl9$ = talk+ z %e _h be5 ! night be=e4 ,breakfa/ 0 br\ght up soon aft] ,i arriv$1 &1 :il/ we 7 eat+ x1 ! door op5$1 & an eld]ly g5tleman came 94 ,he _h evid5tly be5 v h&some 9 8 y\ng] days1 & !re 0 a *e]ful1 pleasant1 good-temp]$ expression on 8 face1 :i* made him look y\ng] ?an ,i imag9e he really 04 ,oh1 papa1 said ,evelyn1 bright5+ up ! mom5t t %e saw him1 ,i am s glad y h come6 ,h[ naughty ( y n to come la/ night6 ,i want$ y s mu* to see ,miss ,l9dsay--,may1 ,i call h] n[1 %e add$1 laugh+4 ,sir ,william %ook h&s ) me v k9dly1 & said he hop$ ,i %\ld soon feel at home1 & t 8 little daught] w\ld n we> me out ) h] *att]+4 ,n[1 papa1 :at nons5se6 said ,evelyn1 gaily4 ,may 0 at home :5 %e _h be5 "h t5 m9utes1 7 y n1 ,may8 ,& %e likes *att]+ j z mu* z ,i d4 ,y talk j z if %e 0 ! br[n alpaca ,i told y ab\t4 ,b %e is n a bit l h]2 %e is s nice1 papa1 & we get on toge!r fam\sly4 ,t's "r1 said ,sir ,william1 seat+ himself on ! s(a2 & h[ is my little puss ?is morn+8 ,only a little tir$1 papa1 %e said1 we>ily2 ! pa9 kept me awake la/ night4 ,he look$ at h] v anxi\sly1 ,i ?\ght1 z he /oop$ ov] h]1 & g5tly arrang$ h] pill[s1 z c>efully & t5d]ly z any woman c\ld h done4 ,keep v quiet ?is morn+1 little girl1 he said2 ,i w n let any ( !m come ne> y4 ,miss ,l9dsay w read to y1 & y c lie q /ill4 ,oh no1 ?ank y1 papa1 %e said1 *e]fully1 let !m all come2 x does me good to h p com+ 9 & out2 x amuses me2 !y are s funny1 "s ( !m1 ar5't !y1 papa8 ,don't !y make y laugh sometimes8 ,sir ,william made "s evasive answ]1 & glanc$ t[>ds ! end ( ! room1 :]e ,i 0 sitt+ at "w4 ,oh1 y ne$ n m9d h]1 papa1 said ,evelyn al\d1 %e is n ! br[n alpaca4 ,i mean to tell h] ev]y?+1 & to talk j ! same :5 %e is 9 ! room z :5 %e is out ( x4 ,sir ,william seem$ r amus$ at ! rapid fri5d%ip t _h sprung up betwe5 u1 b x did n appe> to displease him1 = he smil$ k9dly at me1 & gave me a few m words ( welcome z he rose to leave ! room4 ,b :5 he got to ! door he said gravely3 ,"l ,moreton is v anxi\s to see y ?is morn+1 ,evelyn2 %all ,i let him come :5 y got into ! o!r room8 ,evelyn laugh$ he>tily4 ,yes1 if x is any amusem5t to him1 papa1 %e said2 ,i am sure he amuses me4 ,oh6 ,if y _h only se5 him ! o!r day2 he came up :5 ,alicia ,hay 0 sitt+ beside me1 & nei!r ( !m spoke a ^w4 ,he sat look+ at me1 & %e sat look+ at him2 & !y 7 bo? p]fectly /upid4 ,"l ,moreton is a v wor?y "y man1 ,evelyn1 said h] fa!r1 gravely4 ,oh1 a v wor?y "y man1 %e repeat$1 9 exactly ! same tone1 s exactly t ,i c\ld sc>cely keep f smil+2 b ! wor/ is1 papa1 t ,i don't l v wor?y "y m52 !y are s dreadfully un9t]e/+--at lea/1 if ,"l ,moreton is a specim5--!y sit & look at y1 & !n cle> _! ?roats1 & try to make "s feeble rem>k1 & break d[n 9 ! middle4 ,oh de>6 ,x is s amus+4 ,n[ ,c\s9 ,donald nev] does t2 he c make himself v agreeable2 ,i wi% he w\ld come to see me4 ,donald has o!r bus9ess to att5d to1 said h] fa!r1 r %>ply2 he has no "t to lose n[4 ,donald mu/ make 8 way 9 ! _w4 ,yes1 %e said1 r sadly2 poor ,donald6 ,i d n "k :y he ne$ be piti$1 said ,sir ,william1 dryly2 if he w only "w1 he w soon be able to e>n a v fair income4 ,b ,donald does n l "w1 said ,evelyn2 he says he w\ld l to be indep5d5t1 & to h pl5ty--pl5ty ( money4 ,he nev] w h pl5ty ( money1 said ,sir ,william1 almo/ angrily1 z he %ut ! door4 ,papa does n l poor ,donald1 %e said1 z soon z he 0 out ( he>+2 b he is s h&some1 & he has su* nice br[n eyes4 ,i d n "k :y papa dislikes him s mu*4 ,i ?9k x is because he is afraid he likes me too mu*4 ,x is v /range t he does l me4 ,i %\ld h ?\ght t he w\ld h hat$ me2 because if ,i _h nev] be5 born1 ,c\s9 ,donald w\ld h liv$ "h1 & w\ld h be5 j l papa's son4 ,t makes me feel s sorry = him4 ,is he mu* old] ?an y8 ,i ask$4 ,yes1 he is six ye>s old]1 said ,evelyn2 & papa & mamma _h be5 m>ri$ a long "t1 & !y ?\ght !y w\ld n h any *ildr5 ( _! own1 s papa 0 talk+ ( adopt+ ,c\s9 ,donald1 & educat+ him & leav+ ! prop]ty to him4 ,uncle & aunt 7 v pleas$ ab\t x1 because !y h s _m *ildr54 ,c\s9 ,donald is ! elde/ ( ?irte5 n[1 & !re 7 pl5ty ( !m ev5 !n1 s !y 7 q will+ to sp>e him to papa4 ,b ( c\rse :5 ,i came1 ,i put an end to all t little plan1 %e said1 laugh+4 ,& :]e is y\r c\s9 ,donald n[8 ,oh1 poor fell[1 he is 9 a bank1 & he does s hate do+ sums2 he always did4 ,!y make 8 head a*e1 he says4 ,he likes rid+ & %oot+ & fi%+1 & all su* ?+s1 j ! k9d ( life he w\ld h _h "h1 y "k2 x is v h>d = him1 is x n8 ,& ,i am afraid he is r lazy1 & !y say he wa/es 8 money4 ,b he is s good-look+1 & ,i really ?9k he _c help x--yes1 ,i really ?9k he _c help x4 ,_c help :at8 ,i inquir$4 ,oh1 be+ extravagant1 %e expla9$4 ,he buys beautiful little b\quets = 8 button-hole1 & all sorts ( little unnecess>y ?+s ( t k9d1 & ! money goes v fa/4 ,b x mu/ be s h>d to see pretty ?+s & n to be able to buy !m4 ,i %\ld nev] be able to d t2 z soon z ev] ,i see any?+ ,i l1 ,i s5d into ! %op & h x br\ght out to me at once4 ,i smil$ to myself z ,i w5t on ) my "w1 = ,i 0 ?9k+ h[ diff]5t ,evelyn's exp]i5ce _h be5 f m9e4 ,%e seem$ to guess my ?\ghts4 ,i suppose y h n always _h ev]y?+ t y want$ & wi%$ =8 %e said4 ,ev]y?+ ,i really want$--yes1 ,i answ]$2 ev]y?+ ,i may h wi%$ =--no4 ,oh de>6 ,0 x n v tiresome8 %e ask$4 ,i ?9k x 0 good = me1 ,i said4 ,good = y6 %e repeat$4 ,t's j l ! br[n alpaca4 ,h[ c\ld x be good = y8 ,i ?9k x made me enjoy all ! m ! good ?+s :i* 7 giv5 me1 ,i said--?+s t p]haps y might h ?\ght no?+ (1 & ?+s :i* w\ld h giv5 y no pleasure at all4 ,:at sort ( ?+s8 ask$ ,evelyn4 ,oh1 any little pres5t t 0 giv5 me2 any new book1 or picture2 any little pleasure1 or treat ( any k9d4 ,we _h s few new ?+s1 t :5 any?+ fre% came1 x 0 priz$ & valu$ m ?an ,i c tell y4 ,i really ?9k x gave u m enjoym5t ?an f> gr&] ?+s w\ld give y4 ,oh1 ,i d>e say1 said ,evelyn2 !re are "s ?+s t ,i wi% = j a m9ute1 & !n :5 !y come ,i d n c>e = !m4 ,if y only saw ! numb] ( books on ^? %elves1 ! leaves ( :i* h nev] be5 out4 ,i wi%$ = !m1 & ord]$ !m1 b :5 !y arriv$ ,i _h giv5 up wi%+ = !m1 & ,i h nev] begun to read !m4 ,i ?\ght ( ! little %elves at home :i* _h held my small libr>y1 ea* volume ( :i* 0 ! priz$ gift ( "s fri5d1 & :i* _h be5 read & re-read1 until ,i "k _! cont5ts almo/ by he>t4 ,be=e ,i _h be5 long at ,alli/on ,hall1 ,i came to ! conclusion t ! enjoym5t ( ?is life is mu* m ev5ly di/ribut$ ?an _m ( u ?9k4 ,= :]e pleasures are _m1 ! enjoym5t t !y give is comp>atively small2 :il/ :]e !y are few & f> betwe51 !y cause s mu* l>g] an am\nt ( enjoym5t1 t ! lives ( ^? :o receive !m are q z full ( sun%9e & brightness z !y w\ld be if _! pleasures 7 m 9 numb]4 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,,consci5ce ,,at ,,"w4 ,illu/ration ,,my life at ,alli/on ,hall 0 a v happy "o4 ,day aft] day w5t by )\t any c>e or anxiety1 & e "o 0 s k9d to me t ,i c\ld n feel lonely or homeless any long]4 ,! m ,i knew ( ,evelyn ,traf=d1 ! m ,i lov$ h]4 ,9 spite ( h] light1 c>eless way ( talk+1 !re 0 a great deal ( g5u9e k9d feel+ 9 h]1 & ,i am sure %e did all 9 h] p[] to make me happy4 ,i nev] once rememb]1 ! :ole "t ,i 0 ) h]1 feel+ uncom=table on acc\nt ( my position 9 ! h\se4 ,bo? ,sir ,william & ,evelyn treat$ me z if ,i 7 "o ( ! family1 & ,i receiv$ no?+ b k9dness f _! num]\s visitors & fri5ds4 ,lady ,eldridge 0 ! only exception4 ,%e1 :5ev] %e made h] appe>ance at ,alli/on ,hall1 ?\ght x h] duty to keep me fully aw>e :o %e1 ,lady ,eldridge1 01 & :o ,i1 ,may ,l9dsay1 01 & ( ! imm5se & immeasurable di/ance betwe5 u4 ,! gue/s at ,alli/on ,hall did n pay v long visits1 s ,i _h con/ant *ange & v>iety 9 my life1 & he>d & saw a great deal m ( ! out] _w ?an 9 our quiet c\ntry home4 ,& yet1 al?\gh ev]y?+ ar\nd me 0 s pleasant1 & ?\gh e "o 0 s k9d to me1 ,i _h n be5 _m mon?s at ,alli/on ,hall be=e ,i began to feel re/less & unhappy4 ,= ,i felt t ,i 0 n walk+ s closely ) ,god z ,i _h done be=e4 ,i _h become cold & c>eless1 ris+ late 9 ! morn+ & hurry+ ov] my pray]s1 & !n go+ ?r\gh ! day 9 an idle1 c>eless _s1 h>dly ev] ?9k+ ( my ,"l or try+ to please ,him4 ,= "s "t ?is did n make me at all unhappy4 ,i _h s mu* to ?9k (1 & !re 7 s _m pleasant visitors /ay+ 9 ! h\se1 & s _m books to be read1 & !re 0 s mu* to be done to amuse ,evelyn & to make ! days pass happily = h]1 t ,i gave myself no "t to ?9k ab\t ! /ate ( my s\l4 ,b ! visitors left & we 7 quiet aga92 & !n ,i felt an empty1 dissatisfi$ feel+ 9 my he>t1 :i* ,i _c put into words4 ,my consci5ce 0 v busy n[1 & br\ght to my recollection all my neglect ( my be/ & de>e/ ,fri5d1 all my coldness & indiff]5ce to ,him4 ,i w\ld h giv5 any?+ to feel ,8 pres5ce z 9 times pa/2 b ,he seem$ f> away f me1 & ,i felt too cold ev5 to pray to ,him4 ,b ?\gh ,i _h s t]ribly =gott5 ,him1 my ,"l /ill rememb]$ me4 ,x 0 ,sunday aft]noon4 ,evelyn _h fall5 asleep on ! s(a1 & ,i w5t out into ! g>d5 till %e awoke4 ,!re _h be5 %[]s all ! morn+1 b n[ ! sun 0 %9+ brightly1 & ! ra9-drops 7 sp>kl+ l diamonds on ! grass4 ,i w5t along "o ( ! grassy t]races1 & turn$ d[n a quiet pa?1 %ut 9 by ev]gre5s1 :i* l$ by a g5tle desc5t d[n to ! sea4 ,?is 0 my fav\rite walk1 & ,i always *ose x :5 ,i came out alone4 ,!re 7 sev]al seats on ?is pa?1 s situat$ z to cat* a peep ( ! sea ?r\gh ! %rubs & trees1 :i* grew d[n to its v edge4 ,z ,i turn$ a corn] 9 ?is w9d+ pa?1 ,i sudd5ly came ^u ,miss ,lilla ,irv9e1 sitt+ ^u "o ( ! seats read+ h] ,bible4 ,i apologis$ = di/urb+ h]1 & 0 go+ to turn back1 :5 %e ask$ me if ,i w\ld n /ay a little & read ) h]4 ,y & ,i love ! same ,"l1 ,may1 %e said2 ,i "k we d1 & ,i ?9k x w\ld help u to talk toge!r ( ,him sometimes2 at lea/1 %e add$1 ,i am sure x w\ld help me4 ,oh1 ,miss ,irv9e1 ,i said1 z ,i sat d[n beside h]1 if y only knew-- ,if ,i only knew :at8 %e said1 g5tly4 ,if y only knew h[ c>eless ,i h be5 lately2 ,i h h>dly ?\ght ab\t ,him at all4 ,:at has be5 ! matt]1 ,may8 %e ask$4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 ,i answ]$2 ,i ?9k ev]y?+ has be5 too smoo? & nice lately2 someh[1 x is easi] to d "r :5 ! road is r r\gh2 don't y ?9k x is1 ,miss ,irv9e8 ,yes1 %e said2 :5 ?+s g wrong1 & all seems aga9/ u1 we are driv5 to pray]1 ,may--we feel we mu/ pray !n2 b we ought n to ne$ driv+ into our de> ,"l's pres5ce4 ,oh no1 ,i said2 ,i "k we ought n4 ,& oh1 ,may1 %e said1 e>ne/ly1 if we get self-confid5t1 & leave (f pray]1 we %all soon h a fall2 we are n safe = a s+le mom5t if we are n /rong 9 ! ,"l & 9 ! p[] ( ,8 might4 ,y w be hav+ a fall if y d n come back to ,him1 ,may4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld come back1 ,miss ,irv9e1 ,i said1 b x is easi] to get wrong ?an to get "r aga94 ,i got up ?is morn+ r e>li]1 & tri$ to pray1 b ,i c\ld n fix my ?\ghts on :at ,i 0 say+2 all sorts ( ?+s kept com+ into my m9d1 & ,i gave x up at la/4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i "k :at t is2 he>t answ]s to he>t4 ,i h (t5 f\nd x s2 :5 ,i h left ,god1 & h be5 pleas+ myself1 ,i h lo/ ! p[] to pray4 ,h[ is x1 ,miss ,irv9e8 ,i ask$4 ,i ?9k1 %e said1 t ! ,holy ,_s has be5 griev$1 & )\t ,8 help we _c pray4 ,!n :at d y ?9k ,i %\ld d8 ,i ask$4 ,i ?9k1 %e said1 y %\ld g back to ! ,"l1 j 9 ! same _s 9 :i* y fir/ came to ,him4 ,g to ,him1 & ask ,him to receive y--to take away all ! s9 :i* is sep>at+ y f ,him1 & to give y ! com=t ( ,8 pres5ce aga94 ,& !n ,i ?9k y %\ld especially pray t y may once m h ! help ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,i l t old hymn s mu*3 ',return1 ,o ,holy ,dove1 return1 ,sweet mess5g] ( re/2 ,i hate ! s9s :i* made ,!e m\rn1 ,& drove ,!e f my brea/4 ',s %all my walk be close ) ,god1 ,calm & s]5e my frame1 ,s pur] light %all m>k ! road ,t leads me to ! ,lamb4' ,w y n g back to ,him at once1 ,may8 %e said1 lay+ h] h& ^u m9e4 ,oh1 ,miss ,irv9e1 ,i w2 inde$ ,i w1 ,i said4 ,g n[1 de>1 %e said4 ,s ,i left h] sitt+ !re1 & w5t on1 d[n ! w9d+1 %ady pa? to ! sea4 ,x 0 a quiet1 solit>y place4 ,! only s\nds t 7 to be he>d 7 ! spla%+ ( ! waves ^u ! rocks1 & ! cries ( ! :ite sea-birds z !y flew backw>ds & =w>ds on ! little rocky isl&s :i* lay ab\t half a mile f ! %ore4 ,i knelt d[n 9 a %elt]$ corn]1 & felt myself alone ) ,god4 ,i d n ?9k t ,i h ev] realis$ ! ,"l's pres5ce m ?an at t mom5t4 ,& !n ,i confess$ x all to ,him1 all my coldness1 all my c>elessness1 all my neglect ( pray]1 all my indiff]5ce to ,him4 ,i came back to ,him1 & ask$ ,him to receive me1 & to give me ! light ( ,8 c\nt5ance aga94 ,& !n1 z ,miss ,irv9e _h advis$ me1 ,i pray$ v e>ne/ly = ! ,holy ,_s1 plead+ t promise-- ,if ye !n1 be+ evil1 "k h[ to give good gifts unto y\r *ildr53 h[ mu* m %all y\r ,heav5ly ,fa!r give ! ,holy ,_s to !m t ask ,him8 ,oh1 h[ ?ankful ,i felt t ,miss ,irv9e _h spok5 to me t aft]noon6 ,i am sure t ,god put x into h] he>t to d s4 ,:5 ,i w5t back to ! h\se1 ,i f\nd h] /ill sitt+ 9 ! same place1 & %e said1 z %e took hold ( my arm to walk home ) me3 ,is x all "r1 de>8 ,yes1 ,miss ,irv9e1 ,i hope s4 ,i h ask$ ,him to =give me1 & ,i ?9k ,he has4 ,yes1 %e said1 if y h ask$ ,him1 ,i am sure ,he has4 ,he is always ready to =give u1 if we w only g to ,him4 ,if we only realis$ h[ mu* ,he loves u1 ,may1 & h[ mu* x grieves ,him :5 we are cold & he>tless to ,him1 ,i ?9k we %\ld be m c>eful nev] to leave ,him4 ,z ,i look back ^u t "p ( my life :i* 0 sp5t 9 ,alli/on ,hall1 ,i _c be too ?ankful t ,god gave me ! fri5d%ip ( ,miss ,lilla ,irv9e4 ,i f\nd 9 h] a true fri5d1 "o 9 :om ,i c\ld confide all my tr\bles & anxieties1 & "o :o 0 ev] ready to sympa?ise ) me & to advise me4 ,h] visits1 to my great joy1 7 v long ones4 ,at ! "t ( :i* ,i am n[ writ+1 %e sp5t sev]al mon?s at h] c\s9's h\se1 s t ,i _h _m opportunities ( see+ h]1 & ( le>n+ to love h] m & m4 ,z ,*ri/mas "t drew ne>1 ! good si/]s at ,bran/on ,manor ,h\se wrote to ask me to sp5d ,*ri/mas ) !m1 & ,sir ,william mo/ k9dly gave me a =tnight's holiday4 ,evelyn 0 v lo? to "p ) me1 & told me %e w\ld be dreadfully dull :il/ ,i 0 away4 ,b ,sir ,william w\ld n he> ( my refus+ ! invitation1 & promis$ to d 8 be/ to make up = my abs5ce4 ,oh de>1 oh de>1 x w be a long =tnight6 ,evelyn said1 ! night be=e ,i left4 ,y %\ldn't be s nice1 ,may2 if y 7 only a little m disagreeable1 j ! smalle/ degree m l ! br[n alpaca1 ,i %\ld n miss y half s mu*6 ,v well1 ,i said1 laugh+1 ,i w come back provid$ ) spectacles1 & a br[n alpaca dress1 & be z prim & precise z y please1 & !n ,i suppose ,i %all get pl5ty ( holidays6 ,n t ,i want holidays1 ,i said1 9 a diff]5t tone1 z ,i notic$ ! tr\bl$ expression on h] face1 ,i 0 only jok+1 de> ,evelyn2 my :ole life "h is a holiday--,i am v1 v happy1 y are all s good to me4 ,j z if we c\ld help be+ good to y1 ,may1 %e said2 ,i told y t ,i lov$ y at fir/ sight1 & always %\ld love y1 & ,i am sure ,i d4 ,& ,i d hope y w enjoy be+ ) y\r little si/]1 only y mu/ be sure to come back z soon z !y c sp>e y4 ,x 0 six mon?s s9ce ,i _h se5 ,maggie1 & my he>t beat v fa/ z ! tra9 drew up at ,bran/on ,/ation1 & my little si/] came =w>d to meet me4 ,%e _h gr[n v mu* s9ce ,i _h se5 h] la/1 b %e 0 ! same de>1 simple-m9d$ *ild z :5 ,i _h left h]1 & 0 j z lov+ & true4 ,old ,john 0 wait+ = u ) ! two luxuri\s horses1 & we drove to ! ,manor ,h\se at ! usual measur$ pace4 ,x 0 q t\*+ to see ! welcome :i* ! ?ree k9d si/]s gave me4 ,if ,i _h be5 _! own *ild1 !y c\ld n h seem$ m glad to see me4 ,miss ,jane1 especially1 took me "u h] w+ f ! mom5t t ,i ent]$ ! h\se1 & x w\ld inde$ h be5 my own fault if ,i _h n sp5t a pleasant ,*ri/mas "t at ,bran/on ,hall4 ,b :at ,i enjoy$1 p]haps1 m ?an any?+ else1 0 he>+ ,mr4 ,cl>emont's s]mons4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 8 pla91 practical way ( prea*+1 :i* w5t direct to my he>t1 & ,i always came away f he>+ "o ( 8 s]mons feel+ ?or\ghly dissatisfi$ ) myself1 :i* p]haps1 aft] all1 is ! be/ pro( h[ v useful !y 7 to me4 ,on ! la/ ,sunday ( ! ye>1 especially1 ,i felt t inde$ !re 0 a message = me4 ,9 bo? 8 s]mons t day ,mr4 ,cl>emont spoke ( ! ye> t 0 pa/1 gone = ev]1 ) all its %ortcom+s & s9s1 all its neglect$ opportunities1 all its wa/$ mom5ts4 ,9 ! ev5+ 8 s]mon 0 address$ m especially to ! unsav$ 9 ! congregation1 urg+ su* n to let ! la/ mom5ts ( ! old ye> pass away until !y _h be5 to ! f\nta91 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 ! f\nta9 op5$ = s9 & = uncleanness1 & _h wa%$ _! s9-/a9$ s\ls till !y 7 :it] ?an sn[4 ,b 9 ! morn+ ,mr4 ,cl>emont spoke to ,*ri/ians1 to ,god's own *ildr54 ,he spoke ( ! s9s ( :i* we ,*ri/ians _h be5 guilty dur+ ! pa/ ye>1 & above all ( our s9s ( omission4 ,he told u t ,god _h giv5 to ea* ( u a special "w to d = ,him1 & t if we did n d x1 ! "w w\ld be left undone4 ,& !n he ask$ u :e!r all ^? :o liv$ 9 ! h\se ) u 7 among/ ! sav$4 ,7 !re any1 0 !re "o1 ) :om we spoke day by day1 & :om we lov$ p]haps v mu*1 & yet :om we knew to be /ill outside ! refuge1 /ill unsav$8 ,& !n ,mr4 ,cl>emont plead$ ) u1 if ?is 0 ! case1 to give ourselves no re/ until t "o 0 safe 9 ,*ri/1 b to speak to him ab\t 8 s\l1 &1 :5ev] we _h an opportunity1 to plead ) him1 & to urge him to come to ,jesus be=e x 0 too late4 ,ano!r ye> gone1 j gone1 & y\r lov$ ones /ill unsav$4 ,oh1 :at if ?is new ye> %\ld be _! la/6 ,:at if next ,new ,ye>'s ,day1 ! opportunity %\ld be ov]1 & !y %\ld be gone6 ,*ildr5 ( ,god1 up & be do+1 let n _! blood be on y\r heads4 ,oh1 if !y %\ld come up to y at ! la/ day1 & say1 ) bitt] reproa*es1 ',:y did y n w>n u8 ,if y really believ$1 knew t ?is 0 be=e u1 :y did y n give y\rselves no re/1 day nor night1 until y knew t we 7 sav$ f x8 ,oh1 :y n8' ,:at w y say to !m !n8 ,fri5ds1 be up & do+1 = ! night come? :5 no man c "w4 ,z ,mr4 ,cl>emont spoke1 "o face 0 ev] 9 my m9d's eye1 "o =m 0 ev] be=e me4 ,x 0 ,evelyn ,traf=d1 my own de> little ,evelyn1 ( :om ,i ?\ght4 ,i knew %e 0 n safe4 ,lov+ & amiable & sweet temp]$ z %e 01 ,i "k t %e c>$ no?+ = ! ,"l ,i lov$4 ,%e _h be5 br\ght up entirely = ?is _w1 & %e _h nev] be5 taught to ?9k ( ?+s above4 ,& yet :at c\ld ,i d = h]8 ,i _h sometimes tri$ to get a ^w 91 edgewise z x 71 = my ,ma/]1 b x 0 v difficult1 & x nev] seem$ to d any good4 ,sometimes ,i ?\ght x did h>m4 ,if %e 0 alone ) me1 %e turn$ ! subject s quickly1 & call$ me precise & p>ticul>1 & did n seem s mu* at h] ease ) me aft]w>ds4 ,& if any "o else came into ! room1 %e w\ld beg9 to talk almo/ sc(f+ly ( all t ,i lov$ & rev]5c$1 z if %e 7 det]m9$ to %[ me h[ little %e c>$ = x all4 ,& s ,i 0 beg9n+ to ?9k t x 0 wis] to be quiet & to say no?+4 ,yet ?is s]mon _h made me uneasy4 ,if ,evelyn1 my de> ,evelyn1 %\ld die unsav$1 & ,i _h nev] once really spok5 to h] ab\t h] s\l's int]e/s1 oh1 h[ ,i %\ld blame myself6 ,& yet1 :5 c\ld ,i d x8 ,h[ c\ld ,i beg9 ! subject8 ,i met ,mr4 ,cl>emont ! next day1 z ,i 0 go+ to see "o ( ,miss ,jane's sick p1 & ,i v5tur$ to tell him h[ mu* ,i _h felt 8 s]mon4 ,b does x n require v great wisdom 9 speak+ to o!rs8 ,i ask$4 ,und\bt$ly1 he said2 !re is a "t to speak1 & a "t to keep sil5ce4 ,b ) me1 ,mr4 ,cl>emont1 ,i said1 x always seems ! "t to keep sil5ce4 ,h y be5 look+ out = an opportunity8 he said4 ,ready to speak & long+ to speak1 :5ev] & z soon z ,god %all give y "o8 ,h>dly t1 ,i said2 ,i h (t5 ?\ght ,i ought to speak1 b h always p]suad$ myself t x 0 n ! "r "t to d x4 ,ah6 he said4 ,p]haps if y look c>efully )91 ,miss ,l9dsay1 y w f9d t at ! bottom ( x all !re has be5 a little c[>dice1 a little unwill+ness to be brave = ! ,ma/]'s sake--please =give me = say+ s--b ,i h (t5 f\nd x s myself4 ,(t51 :5 ,i h neglect$ speak+ to o!rs ab\t _! s\ls1 ,i h f\nd t x 0 n f want ( opportunity1 b f want ( c\rage to use ! opportunities t 7 giv5 me4 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i believe y are "r4 ,pray = opportunities to be giv5 y1 be on ! look-out = opportunities1 & use ! opportunities z soon z ev] !y occur1 & y w1 ,i am sure1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 f9d t !re is inde$ a "t to speak1 z well z a "t to be sil5t4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,,alice ,,fitzg]ald4 ,illu/ration ,i ,,w5t back to ,alli/on ,hall det]m9$ to be on ! wat* = ! "t to speak1 & long+ mo/ e>ne/ly = t "t to come4 ,evelyn welcom$ me v w>mly1 & told me %e _h nev] kn[n a =tnight pass s sl[ly4 ,h y _m visitors "h8 ,i ask$4 ,no1 %e said1 !re is only ,alice ,fitzg]ald2 ,i did n "k %e 0 com+ :5 y w5t away1 b ,i f\nd out %e 0 /ay+ ) fri5ds ( h]s n f>-(f1 s ,i ask$ h] to come "h on h] way home3 h] fa!r is an old fri5d ( papa's4 ,alice ,fitzg]ald6 ,i repeat$4 ,alice ,fitzg]ald1 ,i wond] if x is ! same6 ,! same z :at1 ,may8 %e said1 laugh+ at my a/oni%m5t4 ,d y "k an ,alice ,fitzg]ald8 ,no1 ,i said1 ,i d n "k h]2 b %e is a great fri5d ( a fri5d ( m9e4 ,well1 ?is ,alice ,fitzg]ald--h[ pale y are1 ,may1 said ,evelyn1 sudd5ly /opp+ %ort 9 h] explanation2 are y v tir$8 ,no1 n at all1 ,i said2 g on1 ,i want to he> ab\t y\r ,alice ,fitzg]ald4 ,well1 my ,alice ,fitzg]ald is a v pretty girl1 at lea/ ,i ?9k %e is1 & a nice sort ( girl1 ?\gh %e isn't a bit l y4 ,i don't mean t y are n nice1 y de> old ?+1 said ,evelyn1 laugh+1 b %e is q diff]5t f y2 ,i'm r afraid y w qu>rel4 ,oh no1 ,i hope n6 ,no1 y mu/ n qu>rel1 said ,evelyn1 ?\gh %e has "s v /range ideas2 b1 aft] all1 :at does x matt] :at "o believes8 ,i 0 ab\t to answ] h] :5 ! door op5$1 & ! subject ( our conv]sation ent]$4 ,%e 0 a tall1 fair-hair$ girl ( ab\t my own age1 & 0 inde$1 z ,evelyn _h said1 v pretty4 ,alice1 ?is is my fri5d1 ,may ,l9dsay1 0 ,evelyn's introduction1 z %e came 94 ,miss ,fitzg]ald %ook h&s ) me pleasantly1 & !n sat d[n on a l[ seat by ! fire1 & took h] "w out ( a pretty1 embroid]$ pocket :i* hung by h] side4 ,i am v glad to make y\r acqua9tance1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 %e said1 laugh+1 = ,i h be5 he>+ y\r praises s\nd$ morn+1 noon1 & night1 ev] s9ce ,i came4 ,well1 isn't %e v nice1 ,alice8 said ,evelyn1 rais+ h]self on ! s(a4 ,didn't ,i give y a good description ( h]8 ,i expect ,miss ,fitzg]ald is n s ha/y 9 =m+ h] op9ion z y are1 ,evelyn1 ,i said4 ,by ! by1 ,alice1 ,evelyn w5t on1 ,may ?9ks %e kn[s a fri5d ( y\rs2 at lea/1 if y are ! same ,alice ,fitzg]ald4 ,:at is h] "n1 ,may8 ,x is a g5tleman1 ,i said1 turn+ v r$1 9 spite ( all my ef=ts to ! contr>y--,mr4 ,claude ,ellis4 ,claude6 repeat$ ,miss ,fitzg]ald1 9 a/oni%m5t4 ,d y "k ,claude8 ,i nev] he>d him speak ( y4 ,no1 p]haps n1 ,i said2 b ,i d "k him v well inde$2 we 7 playfell[s :5 we 7 *ildr51 & h liv$ next door to ea* o!r all our lives4 ,h[ v /range t ,i nev] he>d y\r "n6 said ,miss ,fitzg]ald4 ,& ,i 0 /ay+ at ! ,p>sonage la/ spr+2 w\ld y be at ,acton !n8 ,no1 ,i said1 we _h left a little "t be=e y w5t !re4 ,d y rememb] notic+ a h\se1 /&+ 9 a l>ge g>d51 close to ! ,p>sonage8 ,oh yes1 said ,miss ,fitzg]ald2 x 0 %ut up :5 ,i 0 !re1 & ,claude said ! doctor us$ to live !re4 ,yes1 ! doctor 0 my fa!r1 ,i said1 *eck+ ! te>s1 :i* w\ld come 9 spite ( myself1 & :i* ne>ly *ok$ me4 ,well1 t's v funny6 said ,evelyn4 ,t y %\ld "k ?is de>ly belov$ ,claude1 ab\t :om ,i h he>d s mu* lately6 ,d y "k he is com+ "h to-morr[1 to make my acqua9tance8 ,papa has invit$ him to come = a day or two :il/ ,alice is "h4 ,claude com+ to ,alli/on ,hall ,claude com+ to-morr[6 ,h[ ,i wi%$ t my /ay at ! old ,manor ,h\se _h be5 a little long]4 ,i made "s excuse to leave ! room soon aft]w>ds1 & w5t to my own b$room1 & lock$ ! door4 ,claude com+ to-morr[6 ,i repeat$ ov] & ov] to myself4 ,all ! old tr\ble seem$ to h come back aga94 ,i _h hop$ t ,i %\ld nev] see him aga91 t our pa?s 9 life w\ld nev] cross ea* o!r4 ,& n[ ,claude 0 com+ to-morr[4 ,h[ a/oni%$ he w\ld be to see me "h6 ,i wond]$ h[ we %\ld meet1 & :e!r he w\ld feel x z mu* z ,i did4 ,z ,i sat alone 9 my room ,i pray$ = grace & help1 & ,i felt t ! /r5g? came z ,i pray$4 ,/ill ,i felt t ,i c\ld n g d[n/airs1 until ,evelyn's maid came to tell me t ,miss ,traf=d want$ me4 ,y naughty girl6 said ,evelyn :5 ,i ent]$4 ,:at h y be5 do+8 ,:y1 y are z cold z ice2 come to ! fire & w>m y\r h&s4 ,i really c\ld n let y /op up !re any long]4 ,d y "k ,i ?\ght y 71 at la/1 turn+ into ! br[n alpaca6 ,%e always %ut h]self up 9 h] b$room half ! day4 ,&1 :o 9 ! _w is ! br[n alpaca8 said ,alice ,fitzg]ald4 ,d tell me ab\t h]1 ,evelyn4 ,evelyn 0 only too pleas$ to d s4 ,& !n we w5t on f "o laughable subject to ano!r1 & ,alice ,fitzg]ald told u a numb] ( amus+ /ories1 9 su* an absurd way t we laugh$ until we 7 q tir$4 ,!re1 %e said1 at la/1 z ,evelyn decl>$ t %e _h n laugh$ s mu* ! :ole "t %e _h be5 ill1 & t %e felt all ! bett] = x1 t's j :at ,i 0 say+ be=e ,miss ,l9dsay came into ! room2 if only p1 :5 !y are 9 l[ spirits w\ld laugh m1 !y w\ld be all ! happi]4 ,b :5 y are 9 tr\ble y c't laugh1 ,miss ,fitzg]ald1 ,i said4 ,oh1 !n1 y %\ld try1 %e said2 try to =get ! tr\ble1 & laugh x (f4 ,t's always my way :5 any?+ bo!rs me or vexes me4 ,i try to ?9k ( some?+ amus+1 & =get x4 ,& d y always succe$8 ,i v5tur$ to ask4 ,well1 no1 n q always1 %e said1 r gravely4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t t ,i _h se5 h] look grave2 h] m]ry1 laugh+ face 0 cl\d$ = a mom5t4 ,b x 0 only = a mom5t4 ,anyh[1 %e said1 if y don't q succe$ 9 =gett+ y\r tr\ble1 x does n make x s h>d to be>2 x is bett] to g laugh+ ?r\gh a tr\ble ?an cry+ ?r\gh x4 ,b laugh x (f if y c1 t's mu* ! be/ way4 ,b1 suppose y c't laugh x (f1 ,i said2 y own$ t !re 7 "s tr\bles :i* 7 too deep to be got rid ( 9 ?is way--suppose y c't laugh x (f1 & ! tr\ble comes back aft] e laugh z heavy z ev]--:at !n8 ,oh1 !n1 %e said1 ) a %rug ( h] %\ld]s1 we mu/ be> x1 ,i suppose--be> x z be/ we c4 ,don't y ?9k s8 ,i nev] try to laugh tr\ble away1 ,i said2 ,i try to pray x away4 ,oh1 %e said1 scornfully1 y believe 9 pray]1 d y8 ,yes2 don't y1 ,miss ,fitzg]ald8 ,no1 n n[1 %e said2 ,i did once4 ,t is to say1 ,i nev] pray$ mu* myself1 b ,i us$ to believe t x did "s p good2 b ,claude says t is all nons5se4 ,my bro!r ,ar?ur & he are always hav+ long discussions ab\t ^! ?+s4 ,ar?ur believes 9 ! ,bible ) all 8 he>t & s\l1 & ,claude does no?+ b laugh at him4 ,& y agree ) ,claude1 ( c\rse1 said ,evelyn1 laugh+4 ,yes1 said ,alice1 ,i agree ) him2 & yet1 d y "k1 ,i sometimes wi% ,i didn't4 ,may ,i ask1 :y n8 ,i said4 ,well1 %e said1 y mu/n't tell ,claude1 he w\ld be s angry2 b ,i c't help ?9k+ if ,ar?ur %\ld be "r aft] all--:at !n8 ,yes1 :at !n8 ,i said4 ,if ! ,bible is true--:at !n8 ,:y !n1 %e said1 laugh+ aga91 we are all lo/1 ,i suppose2 s ! be/ we c d is to enjoy ourselves z mu* n[ z we c4 ,a %ort life & a m]ry "o1 t's my motto6 ,well1 ,i suppose x is gett+ ne> d9n] "t1 %e said1 z %e ha/ily rose1 ga!r+ up h] "w1 & left ! room4 ,%e is a que] girl1 said ,evelyn1 z soon z ! door 0 %ut4 ,%e is n really happy1 ,evelyn1 ,i said4 ,%e tries to laugh x (f1 z %e says2 b !re is a great deal ( mis]able unc]ta9ty 9 h] he>t1 ,i feel sure ( t4 ,well1 said ,evelyn1 turn+ ! subject1 won't y dress = d9n]8 ,ambrose w be "h 9 a mom5t4 ,s ,i left ! room & w5t up/airs1 & pray$ v1 v e>ne/ly = !m bo?1 & especially = ,alice ,fitzg]ald4 ,oh1 if %e only knew :]e true joy 0 to be f\nd6 ,! next day ,claude arriv$4 ,i 0 9 ,evelyn's sitt+-room :5 ,alice ,fitzg]ald br\ght him 9 to introduce him to h]4 ,& !n %e turn$ to me4 ,an old fri5d ( y\rs1 ,claude1 ,i believe1 %e said4 ,claude />t$2 he _h n notic$ me be=e4 ,may--,miss ,l9dsay1 he said1 col\r+ pa9fully1 ,i did n expect to see y "h4 ,& !n he turn$ ! subject quickly1 & began to give u an acc\nt ( 8 j\rney1 8 ,ox=d adv5tures1 & all sorts ( o!r ?+s1 till d9n] 0 ann\nc$4 ,i c\ld see t he 0 n at 8 ease1 & ,i 0 almo/ afraid t ,alice ,fitzg]ald notic$ x also4 ,i saw v little m ( ,claude t ev5+1 = ,i always d9$ up/airs ) ,evelyn1 & he sp5t ! ev5+ 9 talk+ politics ) ,sir ,william ov] ! libr>y fire4 ,b ! next morn+ :5 ,i came d[n/airs1 ,claude 0 alone 9 ! breakfa/-room4 ,i %ook h&s ) him1 & said ,good morn+2 & !n 0 ab\t to leave ! room aga91 :5 he call$ me back1 & said hurri$ly3 ,may1 :at did y tell !m8 ,tell :om8 ,i ask$4 ,tell h]1 he said1 9 a ho>se :isp]4 ,:at did y tell h] ab\t me8 ,only t we play$ toge!r :5 we 7 *ildr51 & liv$ next door to ea* o!r4 ,0 t all8 he said4 ,yes1 e ^w1 ,i answ]$4 ,y surely did n ?9k1 ,claude-- ,oh no1 he said1 ( c\rse n1 only x's m com=table to "k4 ,all "r1 ,may1 he add$1 c>elessly1 we w let bygones be bygones n[4 ,& !n he sat d[n to ! piano & play$ a m]ry air4 ,i /ood & look$ out ( ! w9d[1 & wond]$ at ! %all[ness ( 8 he>t4 ,& ,i felt1 z ,i _h nev] felt be=e1 t ,i _h n made a bad *oice :5 ,i *ose ,*ri/'s love & gave up ,claude's4 ,9 a few m9utes ! o!rs came d[n1 & we _h breakfa/2 & :il/ we 7 at breakfa/1 ,ambrose came 9 ) ! lett]-bag1 :i* he solemnly laid be=e ,sir ,william1 z 0 8 daily cu/om4 ,sir ,william took a key f 8 wat*-*a9 & unlock$ ! bag1 & !n proce$$ to di/ribute ! lett]s4 ,none = y ?is morn+1 ,miss ,alice1 he said1 laugh+4 ,:i* w\ld y *oose3 to h y\r "y man "h to talk to y1 or to get a lett] f him8 ,none = y1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 n a s+le "o2 six = me1 & "o = ,mr4 ,ellis--t's all6 ,claude took 8 lett]1 op5$ x1 & glanc$ ha/ily ?r\gh x4 ,! cont5ts did n seem to be ( ! mo/ agreeable nature1 = he look$ v annoy$ z he read x1 & !n cru%$ x up impati5tly1 & ?ru/ x into 8 pocket4 ,alice glanc$ inquir+ly at him1 b ,claude appe>$ to be engross$ 9 ! c>v+ ( a *ick51 & took no notice ( h] inquir+ looks4 ,:5 breakfa/ 0 ov]1 ,sir ,william w5t into ! libr>y1 :]e he g5]ally sp5t ! morn+ look+ ov] ! newspap]s & writ+ 8 lett]s4 ,we w5t up to ,evelyn's room4 ,i ?\ght ,alice want$ to l+] beh9d1 t %e might speak to ,claude2 b he did n seem dispos$ to take ! h9t1 & foll[$ me closely up/airs4 ,we f\nd ,evelyn ly+ on ! s(a1 & wait+ = me to %[ h] h[ to d a new patt]n 9 cro*et "w1 :i* ,i _h le>nt f ,aunt ,jane1 :o 0 v clev] ) h] f+]s4 ,i sat d[n on a l[ /ool close to ,evelyn1 direct+ h] z %e work$2 & ,alice & ,claude w5t to ! o!r end ( ! room1 into ! l>ge b[ w9d[4 ,claude _h br\ght a newspap] up/airs ) him1 &1 ?r[+ himself into an arm-*air1 he began to read x1 ) an air :i* pla9ly intimat$ t he did n wi% to be di/urb$4 ,alice ,fitzg]ald came beh9d him1 & lean+ ov] 8 %\ld]1 ) h] arm on ! back ( ! *air1 %e seem$ to be read+ ! newspap] ) him4 ,b aft] a m9ute or two ,i he>d h] say3 ,let me see t lett]1 ,claude2 :at 0 x ab\t8 ,oh1 x 0 no?+ p>ticul>1 said ,claude1 turn+ to ano!r "p ( ! newspap]2 x 0 only a bus9ess lett]4 ,t's always ! way ) m51 said ,evelyn1 laugh+2 :5ev] !y don't want y to see a lett] !y always say1 ',x's only a bus9ess lett]4' ,papa always does s1 & x's ( no use my tell+ him t ,i l bus9ess lett]s2 he only laughs & says1 ',wom5 don't und]/& bus9ess1 or1 if !y d1 !y ought n4' ,b ,alice ,fitzg]ald did n let ! matt] drop4 ,9 a few m9utes ,i he>d h] ask aga9 f :om ! lett] _h come1 & ,claude answ]$ 9 a vex$ tone3 ,x is only f my fa!r1 ,alice4 ,!re1 take x & read x if y make su* a fuss ab\t x6 ,& he toss$ ! lett] out ( 8 pocket4 ,alice sat d[n & read x1 & :5 %e _h gone ?r\gh x once1 %e turn$ x ov] & read x aga91 & !n1 fold+ x up v gravely & sl[ly1 %e h&$ x back to ,claude4 ,he put x into 8 pocket1 & w5t on read+4 ,alice leant ov] 8 %\ld]1 & h] face1 :i* 0 g5]ally s bright & m]ry1 0 v grave & ?\ghtful4 ,evelyn & ,i 7 busy ) our patt]n1 & = "s m9utes no "o spoke4 ,!n ,i he>d ,alice say1 9 a l[ voice1 ,:at enclosures 7 !re1 ,claude8 ,:at is x t has vex$ y\r fa!r s mu*8 ,illu/ration3 ,,claude ,,burns ,,! ,,lett]s4 ,oh1 only "s rubbi%y old bills1 said ,claude1 impati5tly2 ^? ,ox=d tradesm5 are ! greate/ sc\ndrels on ! face ( ! e>?6 ,x's always _! way6 ,b ! be/ plan is to take no notice ( !m2 %y _! bills into ! fire1 & leave !m alone4 ,&1 9 spite ( ,alice's remon/rances1 he walk$ to ! fireplace1 & ?ru/ a roll ( lett]s1 :i* he took f 8 pocket1 into ! flames1 & wat*$ !m turn to a%es4 ,!y w s5d !m 9 aga91 ,claude1 said ,alice1 gravely4 ,!n ,i %all burn !m aga91 he said1 ) a laugh2 ! rascals ought to "k bett]6 ,b are y q sure !y are wrong1 ,claude8 %e said1 z !y w5t back to ! w9d[4 ,are y q sure y nev] b\ght any ( ! ?+s8 ,h y look$ !m c>efully ?r\gh8 ,oh1 ,i "k all ab\t x1 said ,claude1 9 a vex$ voice2 d let x alone1 de>4 ,i h pl5ty ( money to pay !m all1 if necess>y2 s please leave me to manage my own affairs4 ,!re's a spl5did lead] 9 ! ',times' to-day1 ,miss ,traf=d2 h y read x8 he said1 turn+ to ,evelyn1 & beg9n+ a conv]sation ) h] on ! politics ( ,europe4 ,alice ,fitzg]ald left ! w9d[1 took h] "w out ( h] pocket1 & sat on a l[ /ool by ! fire2 b %e did n recov] h] usual good spirits = "s "t aft]w>ds4 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,0 ,,! ,,promise ,,b9d+8 ,illu/ration ,,f ?is "t1 z ! spr+ advanc$1 ,evelyn began to gr[ mu* /rong]1 & ! doctors seem$ v hopeful t %e w\ld soon be able entirely to leave (f h] invalid habits4 ,%e 0 /rong en\gh to g up/airs & d[n/airs q com=tably2 & al?\gh %e /ill sp5t a good deal ( "t on h] c\*1 x 0 m because ,sir ,william insi/$ ^u x ?an because %e felt x really necess>y4 ,i began to ?9k t my /ay at ,alli/on ,hall 0 draw+ to a close1 = :5 ,evelyn 0 able to return to ! gay & active life t %e _h l$ be=e h] illness1 %e w\ld n ne$ me any long]2 b :5 ,i once h9t$ at some?+ ( ! k9d to h]1 %e vehem5tly decl>$ t ,i %\ld nev] leave h]1 & t %e %\ld be ill aga9 directly1 if ,i 7 to g away4 ,if ,i _h _h a pleasant life be=e1 x 0 /ill m pleasant n[2 = we 7 able to drive out toge!r1 or to sit ) our "w on a seat on ! lawn :5ev] ! wea!r 0 w>m en\gh4 ,i %all nev] =get t spr+4 ,ev]y?+ look$ s lovely 9 t beautiful p>k4 ,! long av5ue ) its budd+ trees2 ! s(t1 fre% gre5 ( ! grass2 ! woods yell[ ) primroses1 & ! birds s++ _! happy songs 9 ! trees2 ev]y?+ seem$ full ( life & ( joy4 ,evelyn 0 l a bird :i* has be5 long %ut up 9 a cage & has sudd5ly rega9$ its lib]ty4 ,h] m]ry laugh 0 to be he>d almo/ all day long1 & h] light /ep1 z %e w5t ab\t ! h\se aga91 %[$ t %e 0 fa/ recov]+ h] heal? & /r5g?4 ,yet "o ?\ght tr\bl$ me4 ,c\ld x be t ! opportunity 0 gone--t ,i %\ld nev] n[ be able to lead h] to ?9k s]i\sly ab\t h] s\l & ab\t et]nity8 ,i _h tri$ s v (t5 s9ce my visit to ,bran/on to beg9 to talk to h] ab\t ^! ?+s1 b ! attempt _h always end$ 9 failure2 & ?\gh ,i pray$ mo/ e>ne/ly t ,god w\ld make a way = me1 & give me ! opportunity = :i* ,i 0 n[ eag]ly wat*+1 yet no way seem$ to be op5$1 no opportunity seem$ to be giv54 ,& n[ ,evelyn 0 gett+ well1 & :at *ance 0 !re t %e w\ld be l$ to ?9k s]i\sly :5 all ar\nd h] 0 s bright & pleasant8 ,/ill ,i pray$ on4 ,i _h f\nd out a few poor p 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,alli/on ,hall1 among/ :om ,i 0 able to d a little "w = ! ,ma/]4 ,!re 7 "o or two old p :o 7 glad = me to read to !m2 & !re 0 a girl1 dy+ 9 consumption1 :o 0 always pleas$ to see me4 ,?us1 :5ev] ,i manag$ to get an aft]noon = myself1 :5 ,evelyn 0 engag$ ) visitors1 or 0 driv+ out ) h] fa!r1 ,i w5t across ! p>k to visit ^! poor p1 & always came back feel+ refre%$ 9 m9d & body4 ,"o aft]noon ,i _h be5 out r long] ?an usual4 ,i _h left ,evelyn busy ) h] lett]s1 &1 z x 0 n[ pa/ po/-"t1 ,i 0 afraid %e w\ld be want+ me1 & w\ld ?9k t ,i _h be5 a long "t away4 ,s1 z soon z ,i _h dress$ = d9n]1 ,i hurri$ d[n to ,evelyn's room4 ,z ,i came up to ! door ,i he>d a voice inside1 & :5 ,i w5t 91 ,i f\nd to my a/oni%m5t1 t a "y man 0 !re4 ,he 0 sitt+ on a foot/ool 9 front ( ! fire1 /rok+ ,evelyn's little dog1 & 0 app>5tly q at 8 ease4 ,he 0 a v h&some man1 tall & well-built1 ) f9e features & l>ge d>k eyes4 ,:o c\ld he be8 ,:]e _h he come f8 ,i _h n he>d t any visitors 7 expect$ t day1 & ,i 0 utt]ly at a loss to acc\nt = 8 sudd5 appe>ance4 ,he jump$ up :5 ,i came into ! room1 & ?rew himself into ! arm-*air by ! fire4 ,?is is ,c\s9 ,donald1 ,may1 said ,evelyn z ,i came up to h]2 d y ?9k papa w be v angry ) him = com+8 ,oh no1 ( c\rse n2 :y %\ld he be8 said ,mr4 ,traf=d c>elessly4 ,:5 a poor fell[ has be5 toil+ away day aft] day = mon?s1 x w\ld be a cry+ %ame to grudge him a little *ange ( air :5 he happ5s to get a day's holiday4 ,don't y l ! bank any bett]1 ,donald8 ask$ ,evelyn4 ,any bett]6 exclaim$ ,mr4 ,traf=d1 />t+ f 8 seat4 ,i hate x1 ,evelyn4 ,i %all run away "s day1 ,i decl>e ,i %all4 ,oh no1 y won't1 !re's a de>1 good ,donald1 %e said2 papa w\ld be s angry4 ,i c't help t1 ,evelyn1 he said2 y w\ld run away if y 7 9 my place2 x is no?+ b "w1 "w1 "w1 day aft] day1 & ,i hate "w4 ,i c't help x1 x is my nature4 ,i 0 nev] meant to "w2 "s p are1 & !y l "w2 b ,i nev] did & nev] %all4 ,at ?is mom5t ,sir ,william's /ep 0 he>d 9 ! corridor4 ,"h's papa1 said ,evelyn1 hurri$ly2 oh1 ,donald1 ,i wond] :at he w say4 ,i don't c>e1 said ,mr4 ,traf=d1 ) a laugh2 if ! old g5tleman has ! lea/ s5se (-- ,b "h ! door op5$1 & ,sir ,william came 94 ,8 nephew rose to meet him 9 ! mo/ affectionate & confid5t mann]1 & z if he 7 p]fectly sure ( a welcome4 ,well1 uncle1 h[ are y8 he said4 ,i'm s glad to f9d ,evelyn bett]2 x is s nice to see y aga91 uncle4 ,sir ,william took 8 h& & %ook x coldly4 ,& pray :]e did y come f1 ,donald8 he said1 /]nly4 ,:y1 ! fact is1 uncle1 said ! "y man1 to-day is a bank holiday1 & ,i h be5 work+ s h>d lately t ,i ?\ght a little fre% air w\ld set me up aga91 & z ,i _h n se5 y = su* a long "t1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld look y up4 ,:5 ,i 0 a "y man1 ,donald1 said 8 uncle1 dryly1 ,i wait$ = an invitation be=e ,i w5t to visit my fri5ds4 ,mr4 ,traf=d col\r$1 b he answ]$ gaily3 ,i c put up at ! ',royal ,oak1' to-night1 uncle1 if x is at all inconv5i5t = me to /ay "h2 ,i did n ?9k ! h\se w\ld be full at ?is "t ( ! ye>4 ,sir ,william did n answ] him1 b turn+ to ,evelyn1 told h] t ! gong _h s\nd$1 & ask$ h] if %e wi%$ to g d[n/airs to d9n]4 ,no1 papa1 said ,evelyn2 ,i ?9k ,may & ,i w d9e up/airs4 ,i feel r tir$ ?is ev5+4 ,v well1 !n1 we w g d[n/airs1 ,donald1 said ,sir ,william2 & !y left ! room4 ,oh de>1 ,may1 said ,evelyn1 z soon z ! door 0 %ut1 ,i am afraid papa is v angry2 ,i nev] saw him look s vex$ be=e4 ,b ,i don't "k :y he %\ld be s angry1 d y8 ,x isn't z if ,donald 0 no relation ( ours1 & ,i am sure he is v nice4 ,i c't ?9k :y papa is always s vex$ :5 he comes "h4 ,i am v sorry y are s tir$1 ,evelyn de>1 ,i said1 z ,i made h] lie d[n on ! s(a till d9n] 0 br\ght up/airs4 ,oh1 ,i'm n s v tir$1 ,may1 %e said1 b ,i want$ papa & ,donald to h d9n] alone1 because1 don't y see1 papa w be oblig$ to talk to him n[4 ,if we 7 !re1 ,i "k j h[ x w\ld be4 ,papa w\ld talk to y & talk to me1 & h>dly say a ^w to ,donald4 ,b n[1 y see1 he mu/ talk to him1 because !re is no "o else !re1 & y w see !y w be q fri5dly aft] d9n]2 at lea/1 matt]s w be mu* bett] ?an !y are n[4 ,&1 to a c]ta9 ext5t1 ,evelyn 0 "r4 ,:5 we w5t into ! libr>y we f\nd ,mr4 ,traf=d sitt+ com=tably 9 an easy *air1 ) ! ,times newspap] 9 8 h&1 discuss+ ! ev5ts ( ! day ) 8 uncle1 app>5tly q at 8 ease1 & look+ z com=table z if 8 pres5ce 9 ,alli/on ,hall 0 ! result ( an urg5t & press+ invitation4 ,& ,sir ,william8 ,he 0 n at 8 ease4 ,i c\ld see t by 8 tightly compress$ m\? :5 8 nephew 0 speak+1 & by ! c>eful way 9 :i* he tri$ to engross ,evelyn's att5tion z soon z %e came into ! room4 ,b /ill ,i c\ld see t he f\nd x v difficult to keep up any appe>ance ( displeasure 9 ! face ( ,mr4 ,traf=d's pleasant1 *e]ful mann]1 & almo/ impossible to qu>rel ) a man :o 0 q det]m9$ n to qu>rel ) him4 ,evelyn 0 v sil5t ! :ole ev5+1 & seem$ 9 bad spirits4 ,%e talk$ a little to me1 b %e v seldom spoke to h] fa!r or h] c\s94 ,altoge!r x 0 a mo/ uncom=table ev5+1 & ,i 0 n sorry :5 x 0 ov]4 ,! next day we did n see mu* ( ,mr4 ,traf=d1 = ,sir ,william took him out ) him aft] breakfa/1 & manag$ to keep him to himself ne>ly ! :ole day4 ,only once1 :5 ,sir ,william 0 unavoidably abs5t = a %ort "t1 0 he left 9 ! libr>y ) ,evelyn & me4 ,i wi% y lik$ ! bank bett]1 ,donald1 said ,evelyn1 z soon z h] fa!r _h left ! room4 ,i nev] %all l x bett]1 ,evelyn1 he said1 impetu\sly2 x is absurd my try+ to live 9 ,london on ! mis]able all[ance ,i get !re4 ,x is utt]ly ridicul\s2 no g5tleman c\ld d x4 ,b1 ,donald1 ,evelyn said1 y really %\ld be m c>eful ( y\r money2 y ought nev] to h b\ght-- ,at a sign f him1 %e /opp$ sudd5ly %ort 9 :at %e 0 say+4 ,y really ought n2 ought y1 ,donald8 %e said1 in/ead4 ,yes ,i ought1 ,evelyn1 he said1 9 r an annoy$ voice2 x's all "r4 ,b x is really absurd _! pay+ a fell[ su* a mis]able sal>y4 ,i don't mean to /& x mu* long]4 ,i %all run away1 & try my =tune some:]e else4 ,oh no1 ,donald de>1 y mu/ n run away1 said ,evelyn1 besee*+ly2 j ?9k h[ angry papa w\ld be6 ,b j !n ,sir ,william came back1 & invit$ ,mr4 ,traf=d to walk ) him z f> z 8 f>m-bailiff's h\se1 & we did n see him aga9 until he came to take leave ( u be=e />t+ = ! railway /ation4 ,he :isp]$ some?+ to ,evelyn z he b5t ov] h] to say good-bye1 & ,i di/9ctly caught ! words1 ,rememb]--promise2 & !n he ha/ily %ook h&s ) me & w5t out ( ! room4 ,i nev] knew ,evelyn s difficult to please z %e 0 t ev5+4 ,no?+ t ,i did seem$ to be "r1 & %e 0 fretful & tir$2 & ev5 :5 h] fa!r 0 9 ! room1 %e made no ef=t to r\se h]self or to talk to him4 ,sir ,william look$ at h] v anxi\sly f "t to "t4 ,i c\ld see t he attribut$ ?is *ange 9 h] to h] c\s9's visit1 & ,i he>d him once express+ a hope t t 0 ! v la/ "t t ,ma/] ,donald w\ld come )\t an invitation2 he did n approve ( ! free-&-easy mann]s ( ! ris+ g5]ation1 & he 0 glad t he _h spok5 to him pretty pla9ly on ! subject4 ,evelyn w5t e>ly to b$1 & ,i w5t to my room1 b n to sleep4 ,i felt v unhappy & p]plex$4 ,^! two words :i* ,i _h he>d1 aga9/ my w1 haunt$ me3 ',rememb]--promise4' ,:at did he mean by x8 ,:at 0 ,evelyn to rememb]1 & :at promise _h %e made :i* %e w\ld n ei!r speak to h] fa!r or to me8 ,x 0 s unlike ,evelyn to keep a secret4 ,%e g5]ally came out ) ev]y?+ at once1 & told me j :at %e 0 ?9k+ ab\t4 ,i felt sure t ?is mu/ be some?+ %e did n wi% h] fa!r to "k1 & ! ?\ght tr\bl$ me v mu* inde$4 ,z ,i got up ! next morn+1 ,i pray$ = grace & /r5g? to help me1 if possible1 to influ5ce ,evelyn to d :at 0 "r4 ,i f\nd h] 9 a v diff]5t frame ( m9d f :at %e _h be5 ! night be=e4 ,%e 0 /ill sil5t1 & look$ unhappy1 b %e 0 v lov+ & affectionate to me4 ,may1 d>l+1 %e said1 z %e put h] arms r\nd my neck1 & kiss$ me1 are y v angry ) me8 ,angry ) y8 ,no inde$1 ,evelyn1 ,i said2 :y %\ld ,i be angry8 ,oh1 ,i 0 s horrid to y la/ night1 ,i "k ,i 02 ,i c't be> to ?9k h[ na/y & disagreeable ,i 04 ,h[ y mu/ h hat$ me6 ,no1 ,evelyn de>1 ,i said2 y 7 only tir$ &-- ,& :at8 %e said4 ,& tr\bl$1 7 y n1 de>8 ,i v5tur$ to say4 ,tr\bl$ ab\t some?+ ( :i* ,i did n "k1 & s c\ld n sympa?ise ) y4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i 0 v bo!r$ & tr\bl$1 & ,i want$ to tell y ab\t x s mu*2 b ,i did n "k :e!r ,i ought to d s4 ,i did n answ] h]1 b w5t on quietly ) my "w4 ,aft] a m9ute or two %e said 9 a :isp]3 ,may1 ,i'm n go+ to tell y any?+1 b ,i'm go+ to %[ y some?+4 ,t won't be tell+1 w x8 ,hu%6 ,is t any "o com+8 ,no1 x is no "o com+2 x is only ,clem5ce go+ d[n/airs2 b1 m9d1 if ! door op5s1 y mu/ look j ! same z usual1 & n say a ^w4 ,m9d6 ,%e drew f h] pocket a little lea!rn case & op5$ x4 ,inside 0 a beautiful diamond r+4 ,isn't x pretty8 %e ask$1 z %e %[$ x to me4 ,v pretty1 ,i said1 v beautiful4 ,did ,sir ,william give x to y8 ,oh no1 %e said2 papa does n "k any?+ ab\t x1 & ,i mu/ n tell him4 ,y c guess :o gave x to me2 ,i am n go+ to tell y1 b y c guess4 ,& !n1 don't y see1 if y "k ab\t x1 !n ,i c we> x sometimes2 x seems su* a pity nev] to we> x4 ,i c put x on n[ & !n1 :5 we are "h alone1 & slip x (f if ,i he> any "o com+4 ,don't y ?9k s1 ,may de>8 ,h[ grave y look6 %e said1 9 an alt]$ voice4 ,:at is ! matt]8 ,are y v angry ) me8 ,n angry1 ,i said1 n angry1 ,evelyn2 b ,i feel tr\bl$ ab\t :at y h told me4 ,:y don't y tell y\r fa!r ab\t x1 de>8 ,oh1 ,i c\ld n1 %e said2 he w\ld be s vex$1 s v vex$4 ,i d>e n tell him4 ,:y d y ?9k he w\ld be vex$8 ,i ask$4 ,oh1 because x mu/ h co/ su* a great deal ( money4 ,look1 ,may1 !y are real diamonds2 & ,donald has s little money to sp5d1 & papa ?9ks he is s v extravagant4 ,!re6 ,i've told y :o gave x to me2 ,i did n mean to d s1 b ( c\rse y _h guess$ be=e4 ,i ?9k x w\ld be mu* bett] if y told ,sir ,william1 ,i said2 he might be a little vex$ at fir/ ) y\r c\s9 = giv+ s mu* money = x1 b ,i am sure he w\ld be f> m vex$ if1 by any means1 he f\nd out t ,mr4 ,traf=d _h giv5 x to y1 & yet y _h nev] told him ( x4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i "k he w\ld2 b ! wor/ ( x is1 t isn't all1 ,may2 if ,i told him t1 ,i %\ld h to tell him some?+ else--,i c\ld n /op half-way4 ,b ,i ?9k y ought to tell him all1 ,i said1 & to hide no?+ f him :i* y feel he ought to "k4 ,y w\ld be mu* happi]1 ,evelyn1 if y told him4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i "k ,i %\ld2 b !n y see ,i promis$ n to tell him1 & x w\ld nev] d to break my promise4 ,b if y promis$ to d :at 0 wrong1 ,i said1 x c surely n be "r to keep y\r promise4 ,d y ?9k s1 ,may8 %e said4 ,i ?\ght x 0 a dreadful ?+ to break a promise4 ,yes1 s x is1 ,i answ]$1 if !re is no?+ wrong 9 :at we h promis$2 b if consci5ce tells u aft]w>ds t we ought nev] to h made ! promise1 & t we _c keep x )\t do+ :at is wrong1 !n ,i feel sure t we ought to break x4 ,d y ?9k s8 %e said aga94 ,i am sure ( x1 ,i answ]$4 ,x is wrong to promise to d :at is wrong1 b to keep ! promise is d\bly wrong4 ,i don't see t at all1 %e said2 ,i ?9k if y promise to d any?+1 y ought to keep y\r promise1 :e!r ! ?+ is "r or wrong4 ,suppose ,i %\ld promise "s enemy ( y\rs t ,i w\ld poison y1 ,evelyn1 ,i said2 t w\ld be wrong1 w\ld x n4 ,yes1 v wrong1 %e said1 laugh+1 ?\gh %e _h te>s 9 h] eyes2 :at a dreadful illu/ration to use6 ,nev] m9d1 x w %[ y :at ,i mean4 ,x w\ld be v wrong ( me to promise to d su* a wick$ ?+1 b x w\ld be /ill worse if ,i kept my promise1 & really did poison y2 n[1 w\ldn't x8 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i see2 ( c\rse x w\ld6 ,well1 ,i answ]$1 ,i ?9k t rule applies to all promises4 ,x is wrong to promise to d :at is n "r1 b x is d\bly wrong to keep our promise1 & to d x2 because1 y see1 t is only add+ s9 to s94 ,! mak+ ! promise is "o wrong action1 & ! fulfill+ ! promise is only add+ to x ano!r & a /ill worse action4 ,i nev] ?\ght ( t be=e1 %e said2 ,i h be5 wi%+ ev] s9ce t ,i _h n promis$ n to tell papa4 ,y see1 ,may1 ,i promis$ ,donald t aft]noon1 be=e y came 91 t "s day or o!r ,i w\ld be 8 little wife4 ,i "k ,i ought n to h promis$ him1 b he 0 s nice & seem$ to love me s mu*4 ,he said he _h br\ght t r+ ) him t ,i might always keep x ne> me1 & t :5ev] ,i look$ at x ,i might ?9k ( my promise4 ,& !n he said t ,i mu/ n tell papa1 because he w\ld be s v angry if he knew4 ,i told ,donald t ,i %\ld be oblig$ to tell papa1 = h[ c\ld we ev] be m>ri$ if papa did n "k ab\t x8 ,& :at did ,mr4 ,traf=d say8 ,i ask$4 ,oh1 he said !re 0 pl5ty ( "t = t--we c\ld n be m>ri$ = _m a long day1 & he w\ld tell papa himself "s day4 ,s !n he made me promise n to tell him till he gave me leave2 & j !n y came into ! room1 & we c\ld n talk any m ab\t x4 ,i d wi% ,i _h nev] promis$ him4 ,yes1 x 0 a great pity1 ,i said2 b n[ ,i ?9k ! be/ ?+ y c d is to write to ,mr4 ,traf=d1 & tell him y feel y 7 v wrong to make ! promise1 & t y feel x w\ld be /ill worse to keep x4 ,d y ?9k t w\ld be a good plan8 %e ask$4 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i am sure x is :at y ought to d1 ,evelyn4 ,%e did n answ] me at once1 b sat look+ into ! fire & ?9k+4 ,i s5t up an e>ne/ pray] t %e might be l$ to d :at 0 "r4 ,pres5tly %e look$ up at me1 & said3 ,i c't d x1 ,may1 x is no use ?9k+ ( x2 ,i c't tell papa4 ,donald w\ld be s angry2 ,i don't ?9k he w\ld ev] =give me4 ,evelyn1 ,i said1 y rememb] ,h]od's promise to give ! daught] ( ,h]odias :atev] %e ask$ =2 & y rememb] :y he kept t promise1 ev5 :5 ! keep+ ( x made him commit murd]4 ,yes1 %e said2 doesn't x say x 0 because ( 8 oa?'s sake2 ,i suppose ,h]od did n l to break 8 ^w4 ,& ,evelyn1 ,i said1 !re is ano!r reason giv52 d y rememb] :at comes next8 ,no2 :at is x8 %e ask$4 ,& because ( '!m :i* sat ) him at meat4' ,i ?9k t 0 ! real reason :y ,h]od kept 8 ^w4 ,x 0 n because he m9d$ break+ 8 promise--he 0 n ! k9d ( man to m9d t--b x 0 because he 0 afraid ( :at 8 fri5ds might say or ?9k2 he may h ?\ght1 too1 t 8 wife w\ld nev] =give him1 & s he kept 8 promise1 & cut (f ,john ,bapti/'s head--he 0 n brave en\gh to d :at he knew 0 "r4 ,evelyn cov]$ h] face ) h] h&s & cri$4 ,i sat beside h] & put my arm r\nd h]1 & we sat ?us = "s "t 9 sil5ce4 ,!n %e sudd5ly jump$ up1 w5t to ! table1 op5$ h] portfolio1 & began to write4 ,i am go+ to be v brave1 ,may1 %e said1 z %e smil$ ?r\gh h] te>s4 ,:at ,evelyn said to h] c\s9 ,i d n "k1 b %e cri$ a great deal :il/ %e 0 writ+ x4 ,!n %e slipp$ ! lett] into h] pocket4 ,x won't d to put x into ! po/-bag1 %e said2 we w got out at ! po/ (fice1 & po/ x :5 we drive out ?is aft]noon1 & !n ,i w tell papa ?is ev5+1 aft] d9n]4 ,oh1 h[ ?ankful ,i 0 to he> h] express ?is det]m9ation6 ,i felt z if a great load _h be5 lift$ (f my he>t4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,x4 ,,evelyn',s ,,confession4 ,illu/ration ,,evelyn 0 v pale1 & trembl$ v mu*1 z d9n] "t drew ne>4 ,%e w5t d[n/airs z usual1 & tri$ to talk to h] fa!r1 & to appe> z if no?+ 0 ! matt]2 b ,i c\ld see t x 0 a v great ef=t = h] to d s1 & t %e 0 dread+ ! "t :5 h] secret mu/ be told4 ,%e _h po/$ ! lett] to h] c\s9 t aft]noon1 s x 0 too late to draw back2 & ,i d n ?9k t %e wi%$ to d s1 b %e dread$ h] fa!r's displeasure1 & long$ to feel t ! try+ disclosure 0 made4 ,:5 d9n] 0 ov] we w5t into ! libr>y1 & ,sir ,william made ,evelyn lie d[n on h] c\*1 = he _h notic$ t %e 0 pale & tir$1 & ,i1 accord+ to previ\s arrangem5t ) ,evelyn1 made "s excuse = leav+ ! room1 & left h] alone ) h] fa!r4 ,i w5t up/airs into ,evelyn's room1 & sat wait+ = ! result1 & pray+ t %e might h c\rage to tell ,sir ,william all1 & t he might n be v angry4 ,x seem$ a long "t be=e any "o came4 ,i took up a book & tri$ to read1 b1 ?\gh my eyes foll[$ ! words1 ,i c\ld n fix my ?\ghts ^u :at ,i 0 read+4 ,!n ,i tri$ to sew1 b t attempt 0 also a failure4 ,s ,i w5t to ! w9d[1 & sat look+ out at ! sett+ sun till ! room grew d>k4 ,!n ,clem5ce1 ,evelyn's maid1 came into ! room = some?+1 &1 see+ t ,i 0 9 d>kness1 %e light$ ! gas1 & drew ! curta9s1 & !n once m ,i 0 left alone4 ,at la/ ,i he>d a /ep on ! /airs4 ,x 0 ,sir ,william1 & he 0 com+ up alone4 ,he came into ! room1 & %ut ! door beh9d him1 &1 com+ up to me1 he said k9dly3 ,miss ,l9dsay1 ,i h to ?ank y = ! k9d way 9 :i* y h influ5c$ ,evelyn to-day4 ,%e tells me t x is entirely ow+ to y1 t %e has be5 l$ to confess to me h] fooli% conduct4 ,i am q sure1 ,sir ,william1 ,i said1 t ,evelyn is v ?ankful t %e has told y4 ,%e loves y s mu*1 t x 0 mis]y = h] to feel %e 0 deceiv+ y4 ,yes1 poor *ild6 he said4 ,%e has suff]$ a great deal ^! la/ two days4 ,i d n blame h]2 ( c\rse %e act$ v wrongly1 b ! *ief fault does n lie at h] door4 ,i did n answ]1 & he w5t on3 ,t nephew ( m9e wants putt+ 9 8 prop] place4 ,i hope ?is w be a lesson t he w n =get6 ,i %all n sp>e him1 ,i c tell y4 ,i ant afraid he is a design+ fell[6 ,evelyn does n see ?r\gh him1 ( c\rse1 b ,i d2 & ,i %all let him "k x too4 ,b ,i ne$ n tr\ble y ) ?is1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 he said1 z he rose to leave ! room4 ,i j want$ to ?ank y v mu* inde$ = be+ a true1 wise fri5d to my de> *ild1 & to tell y h[ ,i value ! influ5ce y h ov] h]4 ,?is 0 a great deal = ,sir ,william to say4 ,he _h nev] be=e giv5 ev5 ! slighte/ h9t t he 0 pleas$ ) any?+ ,i did4 ,he 0 a v sil5t man1 & seldom express$ 8 feel+s1 &1 !re=e1 a few words ( praise f him 7 wor? d\ble :at !y w\ld h be5 _h !y come f any "o else1 & ,i felt v ?ankful t ,god _h enabl$ me to please him 9 ?is matt]4 ,evelyn is com+ up/airs n[1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 said ,sir ,william1 z he left ! room2 w y be s k9d z to see t %e goes to b$ at once8 ,i promis$ to d s1 & pres5tly he br\ght h] up/airs4 ,%e look$ v tir$ & tr\bl$1 & h] eyes 7 swoll5 ) cry+1 b %e put h] arms r\nd my neck & kiss$ me1 & 0 v lov+ & affectionate to me4 ,:5 h] fa!r _h gone d[n/airs %e said3 ,oh1 ,may6 ,i am s glad ,i told papa1 s v glad2 ,i am s mu* happi] n[4 ,i 0 sure y w\ld be1 ,evelyn de>1 ,i said2 x is t]rible to h a secret l t weigh+ on ! m9d4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i am v glad ,i told him2 b oh1 ,may1 he 0 s angry--n ) me1 n half en\gh ) me2 he w\ld n see t x 0 my fault1 b he 0 t]ribly angry ) ,donald4 ,i d n ?9k y c be surpris$ at t1 ,evelyn de>1 ,i said2 ,i d n ?9k ,mr4 ,traf=d behav$ hon\rably1 & ,sir ,william is su* an hon\rable man himself t he felt x v ke5ly4 ,yes1 p]haps s1 %e said2 b ,i don't ?9k ,donald meant any h>m4 ,poor ,donald does n ?9k be=e he does ?+s2 he-- ,b ,i w\ld n let ,evelyn talk any m ab\t x t night1 b rang ! bell = ,clem5ce1 & w5t ) h] to h] b$room4 ,%e kiss$ me at ! door1 & z %e said good-night1 %e :isp]$3 ,papa has tak5 t r+1 ,may2 he says x mu/ h co/ at lea/ #ej1 & he is sure ,donald has no money to pay = x4 ,! next morn+ no "o allud$ to :at _h happ5$ ! night be=e2 ev5 :5 we 7 alone ,evelyn did n seem incl9$ to speak ( x1 & ,i made e ef=t t ,i c\ld to turn h] ?\ghts into ano!r *annel4 ,sir ,william sp5t mo/ ( t day 9 8 private room writ+ lett]s1 & we seldom saw him1 b he 0 v t5d] & lov+ to ,evelyn :5ev] he came into ! room1 & seem$ anxi\s to make h] feel h[ entirely he _h =giv5 h]4 ,evelyn & ,i 7 sitt+ toge!r at ! w9d[ ) our "w1 :5 ! man />t$ = ! village ) ! po/-bag4 ,evelyn wat*$ x out ( sight1 & !n turn$ to me ) a sorr[ful face3 ,poor ,donald6 %e said4 ,:at w he say :5 he gets x8 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t t %e _h m5tion$ h] c\s9 t day4 ,i begg$ h] to try n to ?9k ( :at he w\ld say1 b to feel v ?ankful t %e _h done :at 0 "r1 & c\ld n[ look h] fa!r 9 ! face ) a happy he>t4 ,x mu/ h be51 ,i ?9k1 two days aft] ?is t1 z ,evelyn 0 ly+ on ! s(a read+1 & ,i 0 sitt+ beside h] writ+ a lett]1 we he>d a c>riage com+ quickly up ! av5ue4 ,a c>riage6 said ,evelyn4 ,i wond] :o is com+6 ,j look-out1 ,may4 ,i w5t to ! w9d[1 b ,i did n "k ! c>riage at all1 & z x came ne>] ,i saw t x 0 a hir$ "o1 & t !re 0 "o g5tleman inside4 ,c y see :o x is8 ,evelyn ask$4 ,i c see him1 ,evelyn1 ,i said1 b ,i d n "k :o x is2 x is no "o t ,i h ev] se5 be=e4 ,i ?9k he wants ,sir ,william2 he & ,ambrose h come out ^u ! drive toge!r1 & ,ambrose is po9t+ 9 v>i\s directions4 ,!re6 ,he has s5t ! c>riage away2 he is evid5tly go+ to /ay6 ,?is is q excit+6 said ,evelyn1 laugh+4 ,i mu/ come & look4 ,%e put d[n h] book1 got up f ! s(a1 & came to ! w9d[4 ,ambrose 0 /ill talk+ to ! /range g5tleman 9 ! middle ( ! drive1 & po9t+ to ! v>i\s p>ts ( ! p>k1 z if he 7 try+ to tell him :]e ,sir ,william _h gone4 ,oh1 ,may1 %e said1 x is ,uncle ,edw>d2 :at c he want8 ,uncle ,edw>d8 ,i repeat$4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,donald's fa!r4 ,oh1 ,i wond] :y he has come6 ,i am sure x is ab\t ,donald4 ,:at c be ! matt]8 ,%e sat d[n look+ q fa9t & ill4 ,don't be tr\bl$ ab\t x1 ,evelyn de>1 ,i said1 v likely y\r uncle has only come 9 answ] to ,sir ,william's lett]4 ,sir ,william w\ld be sure to write to him ab\t :at y told him ! o!r night2 w\ld he n8 ,& mo/ probably y\r uncle wants to talk x ov] ) him4 ,oh yes1 %e said1 t mu/ be x2 d y ?9k ,i %\ld g d[n & speak to ,uncle ,edw>d8 ,no1 ,i said1 y mu/ lie d[n directly2 y d n look at all fit to g d[n/airs1 & ,i w tell ,ambrose to ask y\r uncle to come up "h4 ,b be=e ,i _h "t to c>ry out my int5tion ! door op5$1 & ,mr4 ,edw>d ,traf=d came 94 ,h[ d y d1 ,evelyn1 my de>8 he said1 9 an agitat$ voice4 ,c y tell me 9 :i* direction y\r fa!r has gone8 ,ambrose has be5 try+ to expla9 to me1 b ,i c\ld n q make out :at he meant1 ^! diff]5t turn+s 9 ! p>k are s bewild]+4 ,_h n y bett] wait1 uncle1 till papa comes back8 said ,evelyn2 ,i d n ?9k he c be long n[1 & y might miss him if y w5t to meet him4 ,yes1 he said1 s ,i might2 ,i ?9k ,i w wait4 ,y w h lun*eon1 uncle8 said ,evelyn4 ,no1 no6 ,inde$1 my de>1 said h] uncle2 no1 ,i _h some?+ z ,i came along--no1 ,i c\ld n t\* any?+ n[4 ,i w g d[n/airs & look if ,i c see y\r fa!r com+4 ,is any?+ ! matt]1 uncle8 ask$ ,evelyn1 anxi\sly4 ,are any ( !m ill at home8 ,oh no1 he said1 hurri$ly1 no1 de>1 no "o is ill4 ,i j want to see y\r fa!r on bus9ess4 ,he 0 v pale & agitat$1 & look$1 ,evelyn said1 ye>s old] ?an :5 %e _h se5 him la/4 ,we wat*$ him g out ^u ! drive aga91 & look fir/ 9 "o direction & !n 9 ano!r4 ,!n he pass$ up & d[n 9 front ( ! h\se = m ?an half an h\r1 look+ tr\bl$ & di/ress$1 & ) 8 eyes fix$ on ! gr\nd1 b glanc+ up ha/ily e few m9utes to see if 8 bro!r 0 9 sight4 ,at la/ ,sir ,william appe>$1 & we saw ! bro!rs meet4 ,!y did n come into ! h\se1 b !y turn$ into "o ( ! private walks 9 ! p>k1 & pac$ up & d[n1 backw>ds & =w>ds1 = m ?an an h\r4 ,ea* "t t !y turn$ r\nd !y came = "s little di/ance )9 sight ( ! h\se1 & !n !y 7 hidd5 f our view by ! trees1 & we c\ld n see !m aga9 till !y came back to ! same place4 ,!y seem$ to be talk+ v e>ne/ly1 & n[ & aga9 !y /ood /ill & spoke to ea* o!r face to face1 z ?\gh !y 7 argu+ "s important po9t1 on :i* !y c\ld n agree1 or at lea/ c\ld n come to any satisfactory conclusion4 ,evelyn 0 v re/less ! :ole "t4 ,%e began to foll[ ! example ( h] fa!r & uncle1 & to pace up & d[n ! room2 b ,i insi/$ on h] putt+ h] feet up on ! s(a & rema9+ quiet4 ,at l5g? ! two g5tlem5 br\ght _! walk & _! talk to a conclusion1 & came t[>ds ! h\se4 ,sir ,william ran up/airs z soon z he came 94 ,h[ are y1 my de> *ild8 he said to ,evelyn1 ev5 m t5d]ly ?an usual4 ,y look s pale4 ,please take c>e ( h]1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 & make h] lie d[n4 ,:at is ! matt]1 papa8 :isp]$ ,evelyn1 :il/ ,i prep>$ to leave ! room1 ?9k+ ,sir ,william might wi% to speak to h] alone4 ,oh1 ,i w tell y ab\t x aft]w>ds1 de>1 said h] fa!r2 x is "s r unpleasant bus9ess ab\t :i* y\r uncle want$ to see me4 ,don't g away1 please1 ,miss ,l9dsay2 we h lett]s to write at once1 ,i mu/ n /ay n[4 ,9 spite ( ,evelyn's plead+ glances1 ,sir ,william w5t d[n/airs1 & he & 8 bro!r1 aft] ha/ily p>tak+ ( d9n]1 sp5t ! re/ ( ! ev5+ toge!r 9 ,sir ,william's private room4 ,:at c x be8 ,evelyn kept say+4 ,:at c papa mean by unpleasant bus9ess8 ,x c't be ab\t :at ,i told him ! o!r night1 or he w\ld h said s4 ,:at c be ! matt]8 ,( c\rse1 ,i c\ld n help h] to f9d out1 we c\ld only wond] & wait4 ,mr4 ,edw>d ,traf=d left ! next morn+ at a v e>ly h\r1 t he might cat* ! fir/ tra9 = ,london4 ,sir ,william & ,i 7 alone at breakfa/1 = ,evelyn 0 n well en\gh to rise4 ,h[ is ,evelyn ?is morn+8 said ,sir ,william1 anxi\sly1 z ,i ent]$ ! room4 ,i told him t %e _h _h a bad night1 & 0 /ill 9 b$4 ,oh de>6 ,oh de>6 he said4 ,i w n tell h] to-day2 ,i ?9k x might upset h] /ill m2 ,i w wait till %e is some:at bett]4 ,don't y ?9k1 ,sir ,william1 ,i v5tur$ to say1 t ! susp5se ( n kn[+ :at is ! matt] is worse = ,evelyn ?an kn[+ ! tru?8 ,well1 p]haps y are "r1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 he said2 ,i w tell h] aft] breakfa/4 ,i hope x is no great tr\ble1 ,sir ,william8 ,well1 x is a mo/ unpleasant bus9ess1 he said2 ! fact is1 t nephew ( m9e is a d[nright rascal4 ,:at poor ,evelyn ev] saw to admire 9 him ,i nev] c\ld tell4 ,i always knew he 0 good-=-no?+ b mis*ief1 & he has prov$ ,i 0 "r4 ,i w tell y ab\t x1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 & !n y c advise me z to ! be/ way ( tell+ ,evelyn4 ,y "k my bro!r 0 "h ye/]day--poor fell[1 he is dreadfully cru%$ by x6 ,i am v sorry = him1 al?\gh1 z ,i c\ld n help tell+ him1 he has himself to blame = x4 ,he 0 s weak ) t boy2 he gave him ev]y?+ he want$ z a *ild1 & spoil$ him1 & pamp]$ him1 & pett$ him1 & let him ord] e "o 9 ! h\se ab\t1 & !n 0 fooli% en\gh to expect him1 aft] ?is1 to turn out well1 & to e>n 8 own liv+4 ,b to make a long /ory %ort1 my bro!r receiv$ a telegram ! night be=e la/1 tell+ him t 8 son _h run (f f ! bank1 tak+ m ?an #ejj ) him4 ,no "o kn[s :]e he is gone1 &1 ( c\rse1 detectives h be5 s5t (f 9 all directions to cat* him1 & 8 poor fa!r is q weigh$ d[n ) %ame & sorr[4 ,if he is f\nd1 ( c\rse he w get a long t]m ( imprisonm5t2 &1 if he escapes1 x is n likely t 8 fri5ds w ev] he> ( him aga91 = he w nev] d>e to come to ,engl&4 ,:]e d !y ?9k he has gone8 ,i ask$4 ,probably to ,spa91 ,sir ,william said1 b we _c tell4 ,& n[1 :at d y ?9k ab\t my tell+ ,evelyn8 ,i am afraid x w upset h] v mu*6 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i am afraid x w2 %e w feel x dreadfully1 b /ill ,i almo/ ?9k x w\ld be bett] to tell h]1 = %e mu/ "k "s "t1 & %e w be less able to be> x if %e is kept long] 9 susp5se4 ,well1 said ,sir ,william1 ,i believe y are "r1 ,miss ,l9dsay2 ,i w g up/airs n[2 x w be bett] to get x ov]4 ,i sat wait+ 8 return 9 ! libr>y1 b m ?an an h\r pass$ be=e he reappe>$4 ,!n he said1 ,i h told h]1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 & %e bore x bett] ?an ,i expect$1 poor *ild4 ,w y g up/airs & try to com=t h] a little8 ,i w5t up/airs1 & f\nd ,evelyn /ill 9 b$2 h] face 0 buri$ 9 ! pill[1 & %e 0 cry+ bitt]ly4 ,i sat d[n beside h] )\t speak+ = "s "t1 j hold+ h] h& 9 m9e1 to %[ h] h[ mu* ,i 0 feel+ = h]4 ,:at c\ld ,i say to com=t h]8 ,i h>dly knew :at to say1 & p]haps1 aft] all1 sil5t sympa?y 0 ! be/4 ,at l5g?1 aft] a long "t1 %e grew calm]1 & !n %e said1 )\t uncov]+ h] face3 ,oh1 ,may1 isn't x dreadful8 ,yes1 d>l+1 ,i said1 ,i am v1 v sorry2 ,i _h no idea x 0 any?+ s dreadful z t6 ,no1 %e said1 & ,i am sure ,i _h n2 ! v wor/ t ,i c\ld ?9k ( 0 t ,donald _h got v badly into debt1 & _h wa/$ all 8 money4 ,i nev] dreamt t he-- ,b "h %e bur/ into te>s1 & c\ld n g on ) :at %e 0 say+4 ,evelyn1 de>1 ,i said1 = y\r fa!r's sake1 try n to make y\rself ill2 he is s fond ( y1 & s di/ress$ at ! ?\ght ( :at ?is tr\ble mu/ be to y4 ,yes1 %e said ?r\gh h] te>s1 papa has be5 s k9d1 s v1 v k9d4 ,he told me t x 0 because he lov$ me s mu* t he c\ld n be> to ?9k ( me c>+ = ,donald4 ,papa says he always ?\ght t ,donald 0 good-=-no?+2 b he seem$ s nice1 ,may1 s v nice he 0 to me4 ,i knew he 0 fooli% & c>eless1 b ,i nev] ?\ght he c\ld d a wick$ ?+ l t6 ,evelyn _h /opp$ cry+ n[1 & c\ld talk q calmly4 ,d y rememb]1 ,may1 %e said1 :5 he 0 "h la/1 some?+ t ,donald said to y & to me ab\t runn+ away8 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i rememb] x q well2 he m5tion$ x twice :5 ,i 0 9 ! room4 ,yes1 %e said1 s he did4 ,oh1 ,may1 c\ld he h be5 ?9k+ ( tak+ ! money !n8 ,i d n "k1 de>1 ,i said1 we mu/ hope n2 we mu/ hope t he yield$ to a sudd5 temptation1 & t he has be5 sorry = x ev] s9ce4 ,oh1 ,may1 ,i am afraid n1 said ,evelyn2 d y "k ,i seem to see ,donald 9 q a diff]5t light f :at ,i did be=e1--m z papa has be5 see+ him all ! "t4 ,i am afraid papa 0 "r ab\t him1 ,may1 & ,i 0 wrong4 ,ah6 ,poor1 poor ,donald6 ,w y r+ = ,clem5ce1 ,may8 ,evelyn said1 a few m9utes aft] ?is1 & ,i w get up2 ,i %all feel bett] if ,i am dress$ & 9 ! o!r room4 ,b ! o!r room made v little diff]5ce 9 poor ,evelyn's spirits4 ,%e tri$ to "w1 %e tri$ to read1 %e tri$ to write1 b all 7 alike impossible2 h] ?\ghts 7 ev] busy ) h] tr\ble1 & e attempt to div]t !m 0 9 va94 ,z ! day w5t on1 %e talk$ mu* m1 & x seem$ a relief to h] to tell me ev]y?+ t h] fa!r _h told h] t morn+4 ,may1 %e said1 did papa tell y ab\t ! r+8 ,no1 ,i said1 he only j told me 9 a few words :at 0 ! matt]1 t ,i might be able to tell him :e!r ,i ?\ght x w\ld be bett] to tell y ab\t x at once1 or to wait until to-morr[4 ,oh1 ,i am s glad y ask$ him to tell me to-day1 said ,evelyn2 x w\ld h be5 dreadful to h wait$ all t "t1 & n to h kn[n :at 0 ! matt]4 ,b ,i 0 go+ to tell y ab\t ! r+4 ,y "k ,uncle ,edw>d w5t1 fir/ ( all1 z soon z he receiv$ ! telegram1 to ,london1 t he might he> all he c\ld ab\t ,donald's disappe>ance4 ,he w5t1 among/ o!r places1 to 8 lodg+s1 & look$ ab\t ! room1 & turn$ ov] all 8 pap]s1 to see if he _h left any note beh9d him2 & d y "k ,uncle ,edw>d f\nd su* a quantity ( bills1 mo/ ( !m unop5$1 & all ( !m unpaid1 & among/ o!rs !re 0 "o f a ,london jewell] = a diamond r+ wor? #ge4 ,uncle ,edw>d c\ld n imag9e :y ,donald _h b\ght su* an exp5sive r+1 & said x w\ld be a v heavy sum to pay1 = he means to pay z _m ( ! tradesm5 z he c4 ,s !n papa told him ! /ory ( ! r+1 & gave x back to him1 t he might return x to ! jewell] in/ead ( pay+ ! bill4 ,uncle ,edw>d 0 v mu* annoy$ t ,donald %\ld h treat$ papa s badly1 aft] papa's k9dness to him1 = he w\ld nev] h got t good place 9 ! bank if x _h n be5 = papa4 ,oh1 h[ ,i wond]$ if ?is 0 ! opportunity = :i* ,i _h be5 pray+ s long1 ! opportunity ( speak+ to my de> ,evelyn ab\t et]nal ?+s1 & ( lead+ h] to ! ,savi\r4 ,i hop$ x 01 & ,i turn$ ! hope into an e>ne/ pray]1 t ,i might h ! wisdom to foll[ z ,god %\ld lead1 to /ep into ! door z soon z ev] ,8 h& op5$ x4 ,once or twice ,i ?\ght ( speak+1 b !n aga9 ,i felt1 p]haps1 t1 till ! fir/ bur/ ( h] sorr[ 0 ov]1 x 0 wis] to be sil5t4 ,b a sweet ?\ght came across me z ,i sat at my "w t ev5+1 t1 aft] all1 ! ne>e/ way to rea* ! he>t ( "o we love is to g r\nd by heav52 & ,i tri$1 oh1 h[ e>ne/ly1 to rea* ,evelyn's he>t 9 t way4 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,,! ,,opportunity ,,giv54 ,illu/ration ,,! next morn+1 z ,i 0 look+ at ! newspap] on ! libr>y table1 my eyes caught ! words ,ellis--,fitzg]ald4 ,i f\nd t x 0 an ann\ncem5t ( ,claude's & ,alice's m>riage4 ,x 0 wond]ful to me h[ calmly & compos$ly ,i c\ld read x4 ,t tr\ble 01 9 de$ & 9 tru?1 a ?+ ( ! pa/4 ,i c\ld rejoice to-day2 ! pa9 0 ov] long ago4 ,i c\ld ?ank ,god1 ) all my he>t1 t ,he _h n let me yield to ! temptation :i* at t "t 0 s /rong to me1 & t ,he _h sav$ me f ! lot :i*1 a ye> ago1 ,i _h ?\ght w\ld be s bright4 ,i took ! newspap] ) me :5 ,i w5t to ,evelyn's room1 & po9t$ to ! m>riage4 ,i ?\ght x might help to turn h] ?\ghts a little f h] tr\ble4 ,s ,alice is m>ri$1 poor girl6 %e said4 ,i _h =gott5 t x 0 to be s soon4 ,:y d y call h] poor1 ,evelyn8 ,i ask$4 ,mo/ p w\ld say happy girl4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 said ,evelyn1 p]haps ,i ought n to h said s4 ,mr4 ,ellis is a great fri5d ( y\rs1 ,i "k2 b1 someh[1 ,i d n ?9k ,i %\ld l to m>ry him myself2 n[ w\ld y1 ,may8 ,no1 ,i said1 v decid$ly1 n at all4 ,we w5t on ) our "w )\t speak+ = "s "t1 & !n ,evelyn ask$3 ,may1 d y rememb] :at ,alice ,fitzg]ald said ab\t laugh+ tr\ble away8 ,yes1 ,i said1 q well4 ,i don't at all agree ) h]1 said ,evelyn2 ,i c't laugh :5 ,i am 9 tr\ble1 x w\ld be ( no use try+4 ,i c\ld n laugh to-day--if ,i tri$ to laugh1 ,i %\ld beg9 to cry directly4 ,& ev5 if y c\ld laugh1 ,evelyn de>1 ,i said1 ! tr\ble w\ld come back aga9 ! next mom5t heavi] ?an ev]4 ,oh1 ,may1 said ,evelyn1 sudd5ly1 ,i wi% ,i c\ld d ! o!r ?+4 ,:at o!r ?+8 ,i ask$4 ,:y1 pray1 %e said4 ,don't y rememb] y said t y always pray$ :5 y 7 9 tr\ble4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld d t4 ,i did n answ] h] until ,i _h s5t up an e>ne/ pray] t ,i might use ! opportunity n[ t x 0 giv5 to me1 & t ,i might /ep inside ! door1 :i* at la/ seem$ to be op5$ to me4 ,b :y c't y pray1 ,evelyn de>8 ,i ask$4 ,well1 ,may1 ,i w tell y :y1 %e said2 ,i h want$ to talk to y ab\t x s v mu*1 only ,i didn't l to beg94 ,y see ,i h be5 ?9k+ a great deal lately1 & wi%+ t ,i 0 happy l y2 &1 "o day :5 y 7 out ( ! room1 y left on ! table a bundle ( ^? little books t y take ) y :5 y g to see y\r poor p2 s :at d y ?9k ,i did8 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld l to see :at !y 7 ab\t1 s ,i got "o & read x2 & !n ,i put x back s c>efully aft]w>ds1 j 9 ! same place1 t y might n f9d out :at ,i _h be5 do+4 ,y did n f9d out8 ,oh no1 ,i said1 inde$ ,i did n2 b :i* "o 0 x t y read8 ,x 0 ab\t ! prodigal son2 don't y rememb] t "o8 ,no1 ,i said1 ,i h n read !m all2 0 x a nice "o8 ,yes1 v nice1 & x made x v cle> ab\t pray]4 ,i h be5 ?9k+ ( x (t5 s9ce4 ,w y tell me :at y read8 ,i ask$4 ,x pictur$ ! prodigal son1 said ,evelyn1 go+ home1 aft] he _h treat$ 8 poor old fa!r s badly1 & beg9n+3 ',please1 fa!r1 ,i want a new coat1' or1 ',please1 fa!r1 give me "s new %oes1' or1 ',please1 fa!r1 ,i want "s food v mu*4' ,x pictur$ him ask+ 8 fa!r to supply 8 wants be=e ev] he _h ask$ him to =give him = 8 bad behavi\r to him4 ,t w\ldn't h be5 ! "r way1 w\ld x1 ,may8 ,no1 ,i said1 x w\ld n h done = t to come be=e ! ',fa!r1 ,i h s9n$ aga9/ heav51 & be=e !e1 & am no m wor?y to be call$ ?y son4' ,yes1 said ,evelyn1 & y\r little book said x 0 j ! same n[1 & yet s _m p want$ to g to ,god1 & to ask ,him = all sorts ( ?+s :5 !y got into tr\ble1 & yet !y _h nev] ?\ght ( ask+ ,him to =give !m4 ,i see :at y mean1 ,i said2 we mu/ speak to ,god ab\t our s9s1 be=e we c speak to ,him ab\t our tr\bles4 ,oh1 ,may1 said ,evelyn1 ,i wi% ,i c\ld d t4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld talk to ,god ab\t my s9s4 ,i nev] "k till n[ h[ bad ,i _h be5 to ,him2 b la/ night ,i seem$ to see myself 9 q a diff]5t way4 ,i us$ to ?9k1 ,may1 t ,i 0 n s v bad4 ,i didn't ?9k t ,i 0 at all good l y1 /ill ,i ?\ght t !re 0 n s v mu* wrong ) me4 ,b n[ ,i see t ,i'm bad altoge!r2 ,i don't ?9k ,i h ev] done any?+ good at all4 ,:y don't y g & tell ,god t1 ,evelyn d>l+1 j z y h be5 tell+ me8 ,t w\ld be a pray]1 j l ! pray] ( ! prodigal son1 ',fa!r1 ,i h s9n$ aga9/ heav51 & be=e !e4' ,yes1 ,may1 %e said2 b suppose ,i tell ,him t ) all my he>t1 is t en\gh8 ,yes1 q en\gh1 if y ask ,god to =give y because ,jesus has di$1 & if y tru/ 9 ,jesus z y\r own ,savi\r1 ,i said4 ,oh1 ,may1 said ,evelyn1 ) a sigh1 come & sit beside me1 & make x v pla9 & simple = me--z y w\ld = a little *ild4 ,i am s mu* afraid ( mak+ a mi/ake4 ,oh1 h[ e>ne/ly ,i pray$ t ,i might also make no mi/ake1 b might be help$ to lead h] to ,jesus6 ,evelyn1 ,i said1 ,i want to tell y some?+ t ,i 0 read+ 9 "o ( my fav\rite books ! o!r day1 because ,i ?9k x makes x s v pla94 ,y rememb] ! ?ree crosses on ,calv>y8 ,yes1 %e said1 !re 0 ! middle cross1 ) ,jesus on x1 & on ea* side ( ,him !re 0 a ?ief4 ,yes1 ,i said1 & bo? ! ?ieves _h be5 great s9n]s1 bo? _h l$ bad lives1 & yet1 oh1 h[ diff]5tly !y di$6 ,"o ?ief w5t /raight to ,p>adise1 to be welcom$ !re by ,jesus1 ! o!r w5t d[n to hell4 ,n[1 :y 0 !re ?is diff]5ce8 ,did y ev] ?9k :y x 0 t "o ?ief 0 sav$1 & ! o!r ?ief 0 lo/8 ,i suppose1 %e said1 x 0 because "o ?ief look$ to ,jesus1 & ! o!r did n4 ,yes1 ,i said1 q s2 b t is n all4 ,:at did look+ to ,jesus d = ! ?ief8 ,i don't "k1 %e said4 ,well1 ,i answ]$1 my book puts x 9 ?is way4 ,bo? ?ieves des]v$ to g to hell because ( _! s9s2 bo? ( !m be=e !y 7 nail$ to ! cross _h s9 9 !m1 = !y bo? _h s9ful he>ts1 !y 7 born 9 s91 & !y 7 bo? s9n]s4 ,& !y _h also bo? ( !m s9 on !m1 ! burd5 & guilt & puni%m5t ( _! s9s re/+ on !m2 !y bo? mu/ suff] ! consequ5ces ( _! s9--bo? mu/ g to hell4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i see t4 ,b n[ let u look at !m aga9 "s h\rs lat]4 ,!y h be5 nail$ to ! cross1 & "o ?ief has look$ to ,jesus1 b ! o!r ?ief has n4 ,j look at ! ?ree crosses n[4 ,fir/1 "h is ! ?ief :o w\ld h no?+ to d ) ,jesus4 ,has he /ill s9 9 him8 ,yes1 %e said4 ,has he /ill ! guilt ( s9 re/+ on him8 ,yes1 he is j z he 0 be=e4 ,n[1 !n1 look at ! middle cross2 look at ,jesus1 has ,he s9 9 ,him8 ,oh no1 %e said1 ,he nev] s9n$2 ,he 0 q holy4 ,b 0 !re no s9 on ,him8 ,i said4 ,0 !re1 ,may8 %e ask$4 ,yes1 ,i answ]$1 don't y rememb] x says1 ',! ,"l ha? laid on ,him ! iniquity ( u all4' ,x 0 n ,8 own s9 t 0 re/+ on ,him1 b ours4 ,oh yes1 %e said1 ,i see :at y mean4 ,& n[ look at ! ?ird cross4 ,!re hangs ! ?ief :o has look$ to ,jesus4 ,he /ill has s9 9 him2 till he gets to heav51 8 he>t w be s9ful /ill4 ,b has he s9 on him8 ,t is to say1 d ! guilt & consequ5ces ( 8 s9 /ill re/ on him8 ,no1 ,i don't ?9k !y d1 %e said4 ,oh no1 ,i said1 = he has laid 8 s9 on ,jesus2 x is no long] re/+ on him3 x is tak5 (f him1 & put on to ,jesus1 & !re=e ?is ?ief is sav$4 ,n[1 d y see :at look+ to ,jesus means8 ,x means t ! ?ief look$ to ,jesus z ! ,"o :o 0 be+ puni%$ = 8 s91 & :o 0 suff]+ 9 8 place4 ,d y see8 ,i ?9k ,i d1 said ,evelyn4 ,well1 my book goes on to say1 t all ! p 9 ! _w die z "o or o!r ( ^? ?ieves di$4 ,all )\t exception die ) s9 9 !m1 = ! ,bible tells u t 'if we say t we h no s9 we deceive ourselves4' ,b ^? :o look to ,jesus z ! ,"o :o has be5 puni%$ 9 _! place1 ?\gh !y h s9 9 !m till !y die1 yet !y h no s9 on !m1 = ! guilt & responsibility ( _! s9s no long] re/s on !m1 b on ,jesus4 ,y rememb] t hymn3 ',i lay my s9s on ,jesus1 ,! spotless ,lamb ( ,god2 ,he be>s !m all1 & frees u ,f ! accurs$ load4' ,yes1 %e said1 ,i l t hymn v mu*4 ,i d wi% ,i c\ld d x1 ,may4 ,y are go+ to d x ?is morn+1 ,evelyn de>1 ,i said4 ,oh1 ,may1 d y ?9k ,i c8 %e ask$4 ,i am sure ( x1 d>l+2 ,jesus is will+1 ,jesus is long+ = y to ca/ y\r s9 ^u ,him4 ,he says to y3 ',look unto ,me1 z ! ,"o :o di$ in/ead ( y2 look unto ,me1 z ! ,"o :o 0 puni%$ 9 y\r place2 look unto ,me1 & be ye sav$4' ,oh1 ,may1 ,i %\ld l to d x at once1 %e said4 ,s ,i w5t d[n/airs & left h] alone1 & yet n alone4 ,i did n see ,evelyn aga9 till ,i w5t up/airs to h] room = lun*eon4 ,%e 0 ly+ quietly on ! s(a :]e ,i _h left h]1 b %e call$ me to h] side & :isp]$3 ,oh1 ,may1 ,i am s happy n[4 ,s9 is /ill 9 me1 b no long] on me1 = ,i h laid x on ,jesus4 ,i ne$ h>dly say h[ v ?ankful ,i felt to ,god = answ]+ my pray]4 ,x seem$ almo/ too good to be true4 ,a bless+ t we h be5 wait+ =1 anxi\sly long+ & wait+ =1 is always ( d\ble value :5 x comes4 ,f t day ,i began1 z x 71 a new life 9 ,alli/on ,hall4 ,be=e ?is1 ,evelyn us$ to dislike & avoid any approa* to :at %e consid]$ religi\s talk2 b n[ h] great delight 0 to read a *apt] ) me 9 ! ,bible1 & to ask me que/ions ab\t any?+ :i* %e did n q und]/&4 ,i %all nev] =get t summ]2 x 0 a v peaceful & a v happy "o4 ,i _h e reason to believe t ,evelyn's he>t 0 inde$ *ang$4 ,e "o notic$ ! diff]5ce 9 h]1 & _m1 :o did n und]/& :at is ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! he>t1 wond]$ :at 0 ! cause ( x4 ,!re 0 "o :o rejoic$ 9 ?is *ange 9 ,evelyn q z mu* z ,i did1 & t "o 0 ,miss ,irv9e4 ,%e sp5t ne>ly ! :ole summ] at ,alli/on ,hall1 & ,evelyn1 in/ead ( avoid+ h] company z %e _h s (t5 done be=e1 delight$ to h h] ) h]1 t !y might talk toge!r ab\t heav5ly ?+s4 ,day by day ,evelyn grew 9 grace1 & seem$ m anxi\s ab\t ! welf>e ( h] own s\l1 & ( ! s\ls ( ^? ar\nd h]4 ,%e 0 mu* brav] ?an ,i 01 9 speak+ to o!rs ab\t _! et]nal welf>e4 ,i (t5 felt a%am$ ( myself :5 %e told me h[ %e _h spok5 to ,clem5ce1 or to "o ( ! o!r s]vants2 & %e did x 9 su* a simple1 natural way1 t x 0 always well receiv$1 & nev] gave (f5ce4 ,b1 ?\gh ,evelyn 0 gr[+ 9 grace day by day1 %e 0 n gr[+ 9 bodily /r5g?4 ,inde$1 z ! summ] w5t on %e seem$ to get weak] in/ead ( /rong]4 ,! tr\ble %e _h _h ab\t h] c\s9 ,donald _h be5 s sudd5 & unexpect$1 t %e _h n recov]$ f ! effects ( x4 ,evelyn nev]1 s f> z ,i knew1 m5tion$ h] c\s9's "n 9 ,sir ,william's pres5ce1 & only once did %e "n him to me1 :5 %e ask$ me if ,i knew :e!r any?+ _h be5 he>d ( him2 b ,i notic$ h[ anxi\sly %e ask$ = ! newspap]s e day1 & ) :at trembl+ f+]s %e turn$ ov] ! pages4 ,!re _h be5 an acc\nt ( ! affair 9 ! ,times ! same week t x happ5$1 & ,evelyn 0 cont9ually expect+ to f9d t ,mr4 ,traf=d _h be5 appreh5d$4 ,b !re 0 no fur!r notice ( x 9 ! newspap]s1 &1 "o day1 ,sir ,william told me t 8 nephew _h evid5tly made 8 escape to "s =eign l&1 & he did n ?9k t he w\ld ev] be he>d ( aga94 ,z ! summ] pass$ away1 & ! days became %ort] & ! nights cool]1 ,evelyn became no /rong]2 %e _h a v tr\blesome c\gh1 :i* kept h] awake at night1 & %e look$ pale & fragile4 ,sir ,william 0 v anxi\s ab\t h]1 & _h _m consultations ) ! doctors1 & at la/ x 0 agre$ t ! be/ ?+ possible = h] w\ld be to leave ,engl& = a "t & to sp5d ! w9t] abroad4 ,! doctors said t ! w>m] climate w\ld be good = h] heal?1 & ,sir ,william felt t ! excitem5t & pleasure ( travell+ w\ld turn h] ?\ghts1 m ?an any?+ else1 f h] tr\ble & disappo9tm5t4 ,& :]e d y ?9k we are go+1 ,may8 said ,evelyn1 :5 %e _h told me ) great joy :at h] fa!r _h decid$4 ,i d n "k at all1 ,evelyn1 ,i said2 ,i ?\ght p]haps x w\ld be to ,m5tone1 or p]haps some:]e 9 ,italy4 ,oh no1 said ,evelyn2 n[h]e s commonplace z t6 ,guess aga96 ,b ,i c\ld n guess1 s %e told me1 ) great delight1 t ,sir ,william's plan 0 to g d[n ! ,m$it]ranean to ,egypt1 & !n1 if ,evelyn 0 well en\gh1 to g on 9 ! e>ly spr+ to ,j]usalem4 ,to ,j]usalem6 ,oh1 ,evelyn1 ,i said1 y w enjoy t4 ,yes1 & s w y1 ,may1 %e said4 ,i "k h[ y long to g !re2 ,i 0 q z glad = y z = myself1 :5 papa told me4 ,oh1 ,evelyn1 ,i said2 d y mean to say t ,i am go+ too8 ,i nev] dreamt ( t4 ,( c\rse y are go+1 %e said1 indignantly4 ,d y ?9k ,i c\ld d )\t y8 ,oh1 ,may1 isn't x delightful6 ,x seem$ to me f> too good & too wond]ful to be true4 ,to g to ,j]usalem1 ! city :i* our ,"l lov$1 & ov] :i* ,he wept2 to see ! hillsides :]e ,he s (t5 sat1 & to tread ! m\nta9 pa?s on :i* ,8 feet _h s (t5 walk$1--?is seem$ f> too great a joy ev] to be m9e4 ,b !re 0 v little "t to sit & dream ov] x1 = we 7 plung$1 at once1 into all ! bu/le & confusion :i* a dep>ture f home = a long "t causes 9 l>ge h\seholds z well z 9 small ones4 ,we 7 to />t 9 ?ree weeks' "t1 = ,sir ,william 0 anxi\s t we %\ld get ! sea-voyage ov] be=e ! wea!r became cold] & m unsettl$4 ,he v k9dly gave me leave to g to ! ,manor ,h\se at ,bran/on = a few days1 t ,i might say good-bye to my little si/] be=e be+ p>t$ f h] = s long4 ,i %\ld nev] h ?\ght ( ask+ = a holiday at ?is busy "t1 b ,sir ,william propos$ x himself1 & 0 good en\gh to say1 :5 ,i began to sugge/ difficulties1 t he %\ld insi/ ^u my go+ :e!r ,i lik$ x or n4 ,x 0 inde$ a pleasure = me to see my de> little ,maggie aga91 & ! ?ree si/]s 7 k9dness itself to me4 ,b !y did n at all l ! idea ( my go+ to ,j]usalem2 inde$1 at fir/1 !y ev5 want$ me to ?r[ up my situation because ( hav+ to g abroad4 ,h[ev]1 :5 !y saw t x 0 ( no use try+ to p]suade me to d ?is1 & t ,i 0 look+ =w>d to ! propos$ j\rney z to a mo/ delightful & pleasant ?+1 !y all unit$ 9 try+ to w>n me ( ! consequ5ces4 ,miss ,jane _h a v anci5t book1 describ+ ! adv5tures & n>r[ escapes ( "s travell]s 9 ,pale/9e _m ye>s ago1 & %e br\ght ?is book out f h] bookcase1 & read all ! mo/ al>m+ passages = my edification1 till poor ,maggie 0 q fright5$1 & clung to me1 & said %e w\ld nev] let me g4 ,i assur$ !m t travell+ 9 ,pale/9e tw5ty ye>s ago 0 a v diff]5t ?+1 & t n[ ! dang]s 7 mu* less1 & ! difficulties n ne>ly s num]\s4 ,b ,miss ,jane did no?+ b %ake h] head m\rnfully1 & said %e %\ld inde$ be ?ankful if ,i came back alive2 :il/ ,miss ,hannah & ,miss ,l\isa actually %$ te>s at ! b>e ?\ght ( ! p]ils ,i 0 ab\t to und]go4 ,h[ev]1 ,i com=t$ !m by promis+ to write (t51 & ,i told !m t ,i w\ld give !m an acc\nt ( all my adv5tures1 ?\gh ,i did n ?9k !y w\ld be s excit+ or rem>kable z ^? ( ! g5tlem5 9 ,miss ,jane's book4 ,:5 ,i return$ to ,alli/on ,hall1 ,i f\nd t all necess>y prep>ations 7 made = ! j\rney4 ,sir ,william 0 anticipat+ x q z mu* z we 74 ,he _h travell$ a great deal :5 he 0 a "y man1 & he 0 look+ =w>d ) pleasure to tak+ ,evelyn to "s ( ! places :i* he _h visit$ s _m ye>s be=e4 ,at l5g? ! la/ night came1 :5 ev]y?+ 0 peek$1 & we _h no?+ to d b to sit at ! w9d[ & to talk ( ! j\rney be=e u4 ,i 0 feel+ ! reaction1 :i* s (t5 comes aft] ! excitem5t ( prep>ations = a j\rney1 & 0 almo/ wi%+ t1 aft] all1 we 7 n go+ s f> away4 ,:o c\ld tell :e!r we %\ld all return aga98 ,:o c\ld tell :e!r ,i %\ld ev] see my little si/] aga98 ,at ?is mom5t ! door 0 op5$1 & a lett] 0 br\ght 9 :i* _h come by ! ev5+ po/4 ,! lett] 0 f de> ,miss ,irv9e1 to say h[ mu* %e %\ld ?9k ( u :il/ we ,7 travell+1 & h[ (t5 %e %\ld turn ! text1 :i* %e enclos$1 into pray] on our behalf4 ,:at is ! text1 ,i wond]8 said ,evelyn1 z %e put d[n ! lett]4 ,oh1 ,i see2 "h are two c>ds 9 ! envelope2 "o = y1 & "o = me4 ,%e h&$ me m9e1 & ! text seem$ an answ] to my fe>s3 ,! ,"l %all pres]ve ?y go+ out & ?y com+ 9 f ?is "t =?1 & ev5 = ev]more4 ,& und]nea? ! text !re 0 ?is hymn3 ,go+ out f ! ones ,i love ,f> ov] l& & sea2 ,go+ out into dre>y ways1 ,work+1 my ,"l1 = ,!e2 ,go+ out ) an anxi\s he>t1 ,s]v+ 9 e>?'s r\gh soil2 ,go+ out to ! daily fight-- ,worry1 & c>e1 & toil4 ,go+ out :5 ! "w is done1 ,leav+ ! e>?ly /rife2 ,go+ out to ! unkn[n _w1 ,pass+ ?r\gh dea? to life2 ,go+ out1 & yet1 n alone1 ,"l1 ,?\ wilt g be=e3 ,keep me1 ,"l1 9 my go+ out1 ,n[1 & = ev]more4 ,com+ 9 f ! di/ant l&1 ,?ankful no m to roam2 ,com+ 9 f ! out] "w1 ,meet+ ! c>es at home2 ,com+ 9 f ! l>g] field1 ,s[+ ! ,ma/]'s se$2 ,dropp+ "s 9 ! *ildr5's he>ts ,ye>n+ _! s\ls to fe$4 ,com+ 9 to ! ,fa!r's home1 ,welcom$ ) joy at la/2 ,com+ 91 to g out no m1 ,p>t+s = ev] pa/2 ,com+ 91 & yet1 n alone-- ,/&+ beside ! door3 ,meet me1 ,"l1 9 my com+ 91 ,n[1 & = ev]more4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,br9disi4 ,illu/ration ,we left ,engl&1 & began our delightful j\rney at ! end ( ,octob]4 ,evelyn improv$ 9 heal? & spirits f ! mom5t t we />t$1 & ,sir ,william 0 ?or\ghly happy 9 witness+ ! enjoym5t ( 8 *ild4 ,i ne$ h>dly say :at a treat ?is j\rney 0 to me4 ,i _h nev] be5 out ( ,engl& be=e1 &1 !re=e1 ev]y?+ abroad 0 q new & /range to me1 & ,i felt z if ,i 0 hav+ a v pleasant & delightful dream4 ,we sp5t "s "t 9 ,p>is1 & w5t ab\t to all ! places ( int]e/ bo? 9 & ne> ! city4 ,f ,p>is we w5t to ,tur91 :]e we re/$ = m ?an a week1 be=e und]tak+ ! long & t$i\s j\rney f ,tur9 to ,br9disi4 ,we arriv$ at ,br9disi late on ,saturday night2 we 7 all v tir$ & worn out1 & exce$+ly glad to get to our j\rney's end4 ,we /ay$ at an hotel ne> ! sea1 su* a curi\s ,ea/]n-look+ place1 ) b>e /one floors & :itewa%$ walls1 & only j z mu* furniture 9 ! l>ge rooms z 0 absolutely necess>y4 ,! next morn+ ,i awoke e>ly1 & w5t to my w9d[ & look$ out4 ,x seem$ a p]fect fairy-l& to me4 ,! h>b\r 0 z /ill z a lake1 & cov]$ ) ! reflection ( ! %ips & boats1 ) _! pretty late5 sails4 ,& beyond ! h>b\r !re 0 ! blue ,m$it]ranean sp>kl+ 9 ! morn+ sun%9e4 ,x look$ v unlike ,sunday1 = "w 0 go+ on j z on any o!r day2 & ! p ( ,br9disi 7 buy+1 & sell+1 & hurry+ along1 z ?\gh x 7 ! busie/ day 9 ! week4 ,i took my ,te/am5t1 & sat at a little di/ance f ! w9d[1 & _h a quiet "t alone be=e ,clem5ce came to say t ,evelyn 0 dress$1 & 0 go+ d[n/airs = breakfa/4 ,we 7 to g on bo>d ! /eam] t night1 z x 0 to leave e>ly ! next morn+2 b ,sir ,william arrang$ t dur+ ! day we %\ld /ay quietly at ! hotel4 ,! wea!r _h be5 v cold :5 we 7 at ,tur91 & we f\nd a great *ange ( climate at ,br9disi4 ,! sky 0 a deep1 uncl\d$ blue1 & ! sun%9e 0 s hot t we f\nd x difficult to keep cool4 ,evelyn & ,i discov]$ a seat on ! flat ro( ( ! hotel1 :]e we 7 %ad$ f ! hot sun & c\ld read toge!r quietly4 ,we read al\d ! ,psalms = ! day1 v]se by v]se4 ,"o ( ^! 0 ,psalm cxxii41 & x 0 ) a wond]fully /range feel+ t we read ^? words3 ,our feet %all /& )9 ?y gates1 ,o ,j]usalem4 ,may1 said ,evelyn1 c y believe t v]se is really true ( u8 ,:5 we _h f9i%$ our read+1 ,sir ,william came out to u1 & p]suad$ u to v5ture out ( ! %ady corn] 9 :i* we _h be5 sitt+1 & to walk to ! o!r end ( ! ro(1 t we might look at ! view to be se5 f !nce4 ,to our surprise we f\nd t we 7 n alone on ! ro(4 ,an ,engli% g5tleman 0 lean+ ov] ! p>apet ) a book 9 8 h&1 look+ t[>ds ! sea4 ,he turn$ r\nd z we came up1 & slipp$ 8 book into 8 pocket4 ,i fanci$ t x 0 a ,bible4 ,sir ,william & ! /range g5tleman soon got into conv]sation ab\t ,br9disi & its surr\nd+s1 & he po9t$ out to u sev]al objects ( int]e/ 9 ! neighb\rhood4 ,he 0 n a v "y man1 ?\gh ,i fanci$ t he look$ old] ?an he really 04 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 8 face1 :5 x 0 at re/1 :i* made me ?9k t he _h be5 ?r\gh a great deal ( tr\ble1 & yet1 :5 he smil$1 8 :ole face 0 light$ up 9 a mom5t1 & he look$ p]fectly diff]5t4 ,he 0 n exactly a h&some man1 & yet 8 0 a face :i*1 hav+ once se51 y c\ld nev] =got1 & :i* y c\ld n help lik+4 ,t 0 my fir/ impression ( ,mr4 ,/anley1 s f> z ,i c n[ rememb]4 ,sir ,william 0 v *>m$ ) him1 & said aft]w>ds t he _h seldom met su* a well-read1 s5sible man4 ,we sat toge!r on ! ro(1 & ,evelyn & ,i act$ ! "p ( li/5]s1 :il/ ! two g5tlem5 talk$4 ,y are go+ to ,j]usalem1 ,i ?9k1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 z ,sir ,william 0 unfold+ 8 plans to him2 ,i h be5 !re sev]al times4 ,?is l$ to _m inquiries on ,sir ,william's "p ab\t ! accommodation to be f\nd 9 ,j]usalem1 etc4 etc4 ,b ,evelyn & ,i wond]$ v mu* h[ ,mr4 ,/anley knew t we 7 go+ to ,j]usalem4 ,c\ld he h he>d u read+ t ,psalm1 & say+ t x 0 soon to be true ( u8 ,i am afraid y w be disappo9t$ 9 ,j]usalem1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 turn+ to u2 y mu/ rememb] t ?\gh x is /ill 'beautiful = situation1' yet ,j]usalem is no long] '! joy ( ! :ole e>?4' ,x is1 inde$1 beautiful at a di/ance1 & e "o is *>m$ :o sees x = ! fir/ "t2 b :5 y g inside ! walls1 & "k x well1 y _c help feel+ depress$ & sadd5$4 ,b !re are bright] days com+ = ,j]usalem1 ,i v5tur$ to say4 ,yes1 inde$1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 ,j]usalem w be a hundr$fold m ?an %e ev] 0 be=e--! ,city ( ! ,great ,k+4 ,b ,sir ,william always reg>d$ ! /udy ( prophecy z a mixture ( presumption & romance1 & he quickly l$ ! conv]sation into a diff]5t *annel2 b ,i long$ to he> :at ,mr4 ,/anley's views 7 ab\t ! return ( ! ,jews & ! re/oration ( ,j]usalem4 ,t ev5+ we w5t on bo>d ! /eam] :i* 0 to take u to ,alex&ria4 ,!re 7 a great _m fir/-class pass5g]s1 & we _h "s difficulty 9 obta9+ a cab9 to ourselves4 ,at l5g? ,sir ,william manag$ to secure a small "o = ,evelyn & me1 9 :i* !re 7 only two b]?s1 & z soon z table d'hte 0 ov]1 we w5t to our cab94 ,!re 7 v few pass5g]s pres5t at d9n]2 ,mr4 ,/anley 0 !re1 & a few o!rs :om we _h se5 9 ! hotel at ,br9disi2 b mo/ ( ! p came on bo>d z we 7 go+ to b$4 ,!y _h j arriv$ by ! late tra9 f ,tur91 & _h secur$ _! cab9s be=eh& by telegraph+ to ! capta94 ,evelyn & ,i 7 undress+ :5 we he>d a voice 9 ! saloon1 :i* we 7 almo/ sure we knew4 ,x 0 a lady's voice1 & %e 0 giv+ ord]s to ! /ew>dess 9 an imp]i\s tone1 ) reg>d to ! arrangem5t ( h] cab94 ,t mu/ be ,lady ,eldridge1 said ,evelyn to me2 x is exactly l h] voice4 ,clem5ce w5t1 at ?is mom5t1 to get "s hot wat]1 & return$ ) ! in=mation t x 0 ,lady ,eldridge1 & t %e _h tak5 ! next cab9 to ours4 ,oh de>6 said ,evelyn4 ,i wond] :]e %e is go+4 ,i hope n to ,cairo2 ,i rememb] %e (t5 sp5ds ! w9t] !re4 ,well1 we %all he> 9 ! morn+6 ,z ,lady ,eldridge's voice _h be5 ! la/ ?+ we he>d at night1 s x 0 ! fir/ ?+ t we he>d 9 ! morn+4 ,%e _h br\ght no maid ) h]2 &1 z %e 0 utt]ly unable to d any?+ = h]self1 %e 0 con/antly call+ ! poor /ew>dess1 :o _h already m "w ?an %e c\ld get ?r\gh1 to help h] 9 ! v>i\s /ages ( h] toilet4 ,oh de>6 said ,evelyn1 z ,lady ,eldridge's voice 0 he>d aga9 & aga91 ,i d hope %e is n go+ to ,cairo2 we mu/ f9d out at once4 ,we met ,lady ,eldridge at breakfa/2 %e pr(ess$ h]self delight$ beyond measure at meet+ ,sir ,william & ,evelyn1 & wi%$ to "k :]e !y 7 go+1 & h[ long %e w\ld h ! wond]ful pleasure ( travell+ 9 _! company4 ,x is su* try+ "w travell+ alone1 my de>1 %e said to ,evelyn1 & ,i am naturally v n]v\s2 x is really q miracul\s my meet+ y4 ,sir ,william1 ,i feel sure1 w n refuse to take me "u 8 c>e4 ,sir ,william b[$1 & said he w\ld be v glad to help ,lady ,eldridge 9 any way he c\ld2 b ,i did n ?9k he seem$ p>ticul>ly glad ( ! addition to our p>ty1 = su* ,lady ,eldridge1 f t mom5t1 consid]$ h]self to be4 ,%e turn$ ov] all responsibility ab\t h] baggage to ,sir ,william1 & %e us$ ,clem5ce z freely z if %e _h be5 h] own maid4 ,b1 said ,lady ,eldridge1 z we 7 f9i%+ breakfa/1 y h nev] yet told me :]e y are go+1 ,evelyn1 my de>4 ,evelyn 0 ab\t to answ] h]1 :51 to my surprise1 ,sir ,william prev5t$ h]4 ,our plans are n yet =m$1 ,lady ,eldridge1 he said2 ,i am go+ to consid] ?is morn+ :at our t\r w be1 & !n ,i %all be able to let y "k4 ,oh1 y mu/ come to ,cairo1 said ,lady ,eldridge1 decid$ly2 !re is no place l ,cairo 9 ! w9t]4 ,! climate is simply p]fect1 my de>1 %e said1 turn+ to ,evelyn4 ,n[1 ,sir ,william1 y mu/ decide to /ay at lea/ ?ree mon?s at ,cairo1 & !n we c all sp5d ! w9t] toge!r4 ,n[ come1 ,i ?9k t is a capital plan6 ,sir ,william smil$1 & said he w\ld consid] ! matt]2 b !re 7 _m o!r places t he wi%$ to visit1 & he c\ld n make up 8 m9d ha/ily4 ,we did n see mu* ( ,lady ,eldridge aft] breakfa/1 = %e rema9$ 9 ! saloon ! :ole day read+ a ,fr5* novel1 & seem$ to ?9k u v extraord9>y girls because we *ose to g on deck4 ,evelyn & ,i f\nd a %elt]$ seat1 :]e ! cold w9d did n rea* u2 & "h we sat ) our books & our "w until ! ev5+4 ,! /eam] _h />t$ e>ly 9 ! morn+1 & ?\gh a fre% breeze 0 bl[+1 /ill ! sea 0 n uncom=tably r\gh1 & we 7 beg9n+ to ?9k t sea voyages 7 n half s disagreeable & uncom=table z p made !m out to be4 ,sir ,william pac$ up & d[n ! deck ) ,mr4 ,/anley ne>ly all ! morn+1 discuss+ 8 future plans4 ,e n[ & !n !y /opp$ to exam9e a map or a guidebook2 & at l5g? !y sat d[n on a seat1 & ,sir ,william took a p5cil f 8 pocket1 & wrote at ,mr4 ,/anley's dictation4 ,i wond] :at papa has settl$6 said ,evelyn4 ,i wi% he w\ld come & tell u4 ,i am sure he does n want to g to ,cairo1 n[ t ,lady ,eldridge is go+ !re4 ,did n y notice t he w\ld n let me say :]e we 7 go+8 ,:5 ,sir ,william _h f9i%$ writ+1 he & ,mr4 ,/anley came t[>ds u1 & ,sir ,william told u1 to our great joy1 t we 7 go+ at once to ,j]usalem4 ,mr4 ,/anley _h told him t !re 0 a clean1 com=table hotel !re1 & t ! climate 9 ,decemb] & ,janu>y 0 g5]ally beautiful4 ,s ,i ?9k we w /op 9 ,j]usalem a mon? or two1 said ,sir ,william1 & !n decide :]e we g next4 ,:at d y say to t1 ,evelyn8 ,oh1 papa1 said ,evelyn1 x is j :at ,i want$4 ,i am long+ to get to ,j]usalem6 ',our feet %all /& )9 ?y gates1 ,o ,j]usalem1' said ,mr4 ,/anley1 ) a smile4 ,& !n we 7 sure t he _h he>d u read+ ! ,psalm4 ,at sunset ! w9d became v /rong2 ! %ip roll$ heavily1 & ! pass5g]s 7 glad to g to _! cab9s4 ,x 0 a dreadful night4 ,i %all nev] =get x4 ,e h\r ! /orm became m t]rible4 ,i _h nev] ?\ght t a /orm at sea c\ld be s dreadful4 ,! waves 7 beat+ ov] our heads1 &1 e n[ & !n1 ! cab9 0 light$ up by a vivid fla% ( lightn+1 :i* 0 foll[$ almo/ imm$iately by a t]rible clap ( ?und]4 ,e two or ?ree m9utes we he>d ! cra% ( break+ crock]y1 & ! brok5 cups1 & jugs1 & glasses 7 ?r[n backw>ds & =w>ds on ! floor1 z ! %ip pit*$ & toss$4 ,i wond] t s _m p h su* peaceful ideas ( ! ,m$it]ranean ,sea1 aft] read+ ! ,bible acc\nts ( x4 ,oh1 h[ (t5 dur+ t dreadful night we ?\ght ( ,/4 ,paul 9 ! /orm1 probably j 9 ?is v "p ( ! ,m$it]ranean2 & we c\ld s well picture t sc5e 9 ,jonah's life :5 ! sailors1 unwill+ to ca/ him ov]bo>d1 made a la/ mighty ef=t to br+ ! %ip to l&1 b ! sea wr\ght & 0 tempe/u\s1 & !y 7 n able to manage x4 ,& !n ,david's description ( ! /orm1 9 ,psalm cvii41 mu/ ref] to ?is v sea4 ,h[ (t5 we repeat$ ^? v]ses to ea* o!r t night3 ',he make? ! /orm a calm1 s t ! waves !re( are /ill4 ,!n are !y glad because !y be quiet2 s ,he br+e? !m unto _! desir$ hav54' ,oh1 ,may1 said ,evelyn1 z ,i crept to h] side :5 ! /orm 0 at its height1 :at a com=t x is to "k we are safe1 isn't x8 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i _c ?9k h[ any "o d>e travel1 & g ?r\gh all ! p]ils by l& & wat]1 )\t kn[+ t4 ,i %\ld n h kn[n x if we _h come a ye> ago1 said ,evelyn4 ,oh1 ,may1 ,i %\ld h be5 t]ribly fright5$ !n6 ,we did n sleep once ! :ole night1 & v long ! h\rs seem$ to u4 ,at ab\t ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ we he>d ,lady ,eldridge's voice l\dly cry+ = help4 ,%e 0 call+1 fir/ = ,clem5ce & !n = ! /ew>dess1 b _! cab9s 7 at ! o!r end ( ! saloon1 & nei!r ( !m he>d h]4 ,:at c %e want8 said ,evelyn4 ,i put on my dress+-g[n1 & manag$ to g z f> z ! door ( ,lady ,eldridge's cab91 t ,i might see :at 0 ! matt]4 ,j look "h1 ,miss ,l9dsay6 %e said4 ,! por?ole has bur/ op51 & ! wat] has come ov] my b$4 ,d g & call ! /ew>dess1 & tell h] to br+ me clean l95 & blankets4 ,i don't "k :e!r ,i c walk z f> z ! /ew>dess's cab91 ,lady ,eldridge1 ,i said1 b ,i w try2 x is t]ribly r\gh6 ,oh1 nons5se6 %e said4 ,hold on by ! wall1 & y w be all "r4 ,y don't mean to say y are sea-sick1 ,miss ,l9dsay2 y %\ld get ov] x4 ,i nev] believe 9 sea-sickness2 if p only try !y c keep x (f4 ,i feel z well at sea z on l&6 ,i c\ld n help ?9k+ t1 ?is be+ ! case %e might h gone = ! /ew>dess h]self1 in/ead ( insi/+ t ,i %\ld g = h]4 ,h[ev]1 ,i did my be/1 & manag$ to /agg] d[n ! saloon1 ?\gh ,i fell sev]al times1 & cut my h& v mu* ) a brok5 plate1 :i* 0 be+ swept across ! floor1 backw>ds & =w>ds1 z ! vessel roll$ f side to side4 ,i f\nd ! /ew>dess ly+ on ! b$ 9 h] cab91 cry+4 ,%e told me t %e 0 a wid[ ) ?ree little *ildr51 :om %e _h left 9 ,engl&4 ,%e _h be5 p]suad$ to try ?is way ( e>n+ h] liv+1 & ?is 0 h] fir/ voyage2 b %e did n ?9k %e c\ld ev] g aga91 %e _h no idea t x w\ld be s dreadful4 ,%e told me ?is z %e 0 gett+ out ! %eets = ,lady ,eldridge's b$1 & %e said t1 j z ,i came 91 %e 0 cry+ because %e ?\ght %e w\ld nev] see h] little *ildr5 aga94 ,i tri$ to say a ^w to com=t h]1 b ! noise ( ! /orm 0 s great t we c\ld h>dly he> ea* o!r speak4 ,x 0 "s "t be=e %e _h collect$ ev]y?+ t 0 necess>y1 & ,lady ,eldridge 0 v impati5t & cross :5 we arriv$ at h] cab94 ,i help$ ! /ew>dess to arrange ! b$1 & !n w5t back to my own b]?1 v ?ankful to be able to lie /ill aga94 ,morn+ came1 b ! /orm /ill cont9u$4 ,x rag$ all ,tuesday1 all ,tuesday night1 & all ,w$nesday1 & we 7 n able to leave our cab9 ! :ole "t4 ,only on ,w$nesday did ! /orm beg9 to abate1 & we 7 able at la/ to h a quiet sleep4 ,we awoke on ,?ursday1 to f9d ! w9d gone & ! sea mu* calm]4 ,we 7 to arrive at ,alex&ria 9 ! aft]noon1 & e "o seem$ glad t ! /ormy voyage 0 draw+ to a close4 ,lady ,eldridge 0 v mu* annoy$ :5 %e f\nd t we 7 n go+ ) h] to ,cairo4 ,%e told ,sir ,william t x 0 simple madness1 on 8 "p1 to take a delicate girl l ,evelyn to ,j]usalem2 b ,sir ,william only smil$1 & said x 0 ,evelyn's wi% z well z 8 own1 & he ?\ght t1 if ,lady ,eldridge made fur!r inquiries1 %e w\ld f9d t 9 ! w9t] mon?s ! climate ( ,j]usalem 0 all t c\ld be desir$4 ,i _h a talk ) ! /ew>dess t morn+1 & ,i 0 s glad to f9d t ! poor woman knew :]e to turn = com=t & = help4 ,%e 0 a real ,*ri/ian1 &1 9 simple fai?1 %e _h tru/$ h] *ildr5 to ,god's c>e1 & %e felt sure t ,he w\ld wat* ov] !m till %e 0 able to be ) !m aga94 ,%e _h left !m ) h] bro!r & 8 wife1 & h] ?\ghts seem$ to be con/antly ) h] little abs5t treasures4 ,i 0 s glad t ,i _h spok5 to h]1 = %e ?ank$ me v mu*1 & told me t ! few words ,i _h said to h] 9 ! /orm _h be5 a great com=t to h]1 & _h made h] a%am$ ( h]self = be+ afraid4 ,at l5g? we arriv$ at ,alex&ria1 & v mu* enjoy$ ! sight :i* met our eyes--! int5sely :ite city1 ! blue wat] 9 ! h>b\r--! pilot1 ) a d>k hood ov] 8 head1 arriv+ 9 8 little boat1 & com+ on bo>d ! /eam]2 & !n ! c\ntless o!r boats1 fill$ ) clamor\s ,arabs1 :o 7 cont5d+ ) "o ano!r to secure ! l>ge/ numb] ( pass5g]s to r[ to %ore4 ,x 0 v curi\s to wat* !m fight+ l wild bea/s = _! prey1 & look+ s picturesque 9 _! v>i\s co/umes t x 0 impossible to feel angry ) !m4 ,aft] mu* pu%+1 & qu>rell+1 & scuffl+1 & %\t+ _h be5 gone ?r\gh1 we f\nd ourselves 9 ! same boat ) ,mr4 ,/anley1 :o _h tak5 u all1 ,lady ,eldridge includ$1 "u 8 c>e1 & _h b>ga9$ on our behalf 9 ,arabic1 & made1 aft] mu* difficulty1 a fair agreem5t ) ! boatman z to ! price he w\ld *>ge = 8 boat4 ,we /ay$ "o night 9 ,alex&ria at ! hotel1 b we did n see mu* ( ! city1 = we 7 too tir$ & worn out ) ! voyage to g out1 & 7 glad to re/ quietly until x 0 "t to g on bo>d ! %ip :i* 0 to take u to ,jaffa1 & :i* />t$ e>ly ! next day4 ,we left ,lady ,eldridge 9 ! hotel1 & 7 n sorry to say good-bye to h]4 ,x 0 a small old-fa%ion$ vessel :i* 0 to take u ! re/ ( ! way1 v dirty & =lorn1 & v diff]5t f ! com=table /eam] ( ! ,p59sul> & ,ori5tal ,company :i* we _h j left2 b ! sea 0 calm1 s we felt z if we c\ld ?ankfully be> any am\nt ( discom=t4 ,we 7 ! only fir/-class pass5g]s on bo>d1 b a l>ge p>ty ( travell]s 7 to jo9 u at ,port ,said1 & !y _h already engag$ _! cab9s4 ,we /ay$ on deck until q late t ev5+1 walk+ up & d[n1 look+ at ! sun sett+ ov] ! sea1 & talk+ ( all t 0 be=e u4 ,sir ,william _h numb]less que/ions to ask ab\t ,j]usalem1 & ,mr4 ,/anley 0 well able to answ] !m all1 = only two ye>s be=e he _h sp5t a :ole w9t] 9 ,j]usalem t he might sket* "s ( ! _m places ( int]e/ 9 ! city & its neighb\rhood2 & he promis$1 at ,sir ,william's reque/1 to let u see 8 sket*es "s day4 ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,,0 ,,x ,,he8 ,illu/ration ,,e>ly on ,saturday morn+ we arriv$ at ,port ,said1 & ,sir ,william propos$ t we %\ld g on %ore & escape f our uncom=table qu>t]s 9 ! dirty little /eam]4 ,we _h no difficulty 9 obta9+ a boat r[$ by ,arabs1 b imm$iately we t\*$ l&1 we 7 m>*$ (f to ! ,cu/om ,h\se1 t our passports might be exam9$4 ,sir ,william _h be5 told 9 ,london t passports 7 n[ q unnecess>y1 s we _h n provid$ ourselves ) any1 & he 0 r at a loss :at to d4 ,h[ev]1 ,mr4 ,/anley came to ! rescue1 & aft] he _h h>angu$ ! ,turki% (fic]s 9 ,arabic1 & _h giv5 !m a prop] am\nt ( bak%ee%1 we 7 politely b[$ out ( ! (fice & all[$ to ent] ! t[n1 al?\gh we _h no passports4 ,"h ,mr4 ,/anley left u1 & we f\nd our way to ! "o hotel ( ! place1 :]e we _h breakfa/ amid/ a cr[d ( ,engli% & ,am]ican travell]s1 :o we f\nd 7 to be our companions into ,syria4 ,! hotel 0 uncom=tably small & v noisy1 s aft] breakfa/ we took a walk to see :at 0 to be se5 9 ,port ,said4 ,x 0 su* a curi\s t[n2 x look$ z if x _h sprung up 9 a s+le night l a mu%room4 ,ne>ly all ! h\ses 7 made ( wood1 & look$ l l>ge boo?s put up ha/ily = a pleasure fair1 to be tak5 d[n aga9 z soon z ! fair 0 ov]4 ,! /reets1 or r ! empty spaces betwe5 ! r[s ( h\ses1 = !y did n des]ve ! "n ( /reets1 7 cov]$ ) orange-peel1 oy/]-%ells1 dead dogs & cats1 decay+ vegetables1 & all mann] ( fil?2 & ! :ole place look$1 ,sir ,william said1 l pictures he _h se5 ( ! wood5 t[ns set up ne> ! gold-digg+s 9 ,am]ica4 ,we met p ( almo/ e nationality 9 ! /reets ( ,port ,said4 ,_m ( !m 7 v unprepossess+ 9 appe>ance1 & we 7 told t a numb] ( ! wor/ m5 ( all nations f9d _! way !re1 = !y "k t !re is v little law or ord] 9 ! t[n1 & t !y w !re=e be free f obs]vation1 & all[$ to d z !y l4 ,! week be=e we arriv$ at ,port ,said !re _h be5 a great _m murd]s !re1 & we saw a notice 9 ! hotel advis+ ,europeans n to g out aft] d>k1 z ! au?orities w\ld n answ] = ! consequ5ces if !y did s4 ,an op5 squ>e 9 front ( ! hotel _h be5 turn$ into a g>d54 ,!re 7 n _m fl[]s 9 x1 b !re 7 a few trees & %rubs1 & a small /one f\nta9 /ood 9 ! c5tre4 ,!re 0 a seat 9 ?is g>d51 & ,sir ,william1 ,evelyn1 & ,i sat "h = "s "t1 wat*+ ! t\ri/s com+ 9 & out ( ! hotel1 consult+ _! guidebooks1 ask+ c\ntless que/ions ( _! dragoman1 & app>5tly v impati5t to be once m on ! move4 ,!re 7 sev]al ,fr5* %ops1 9 a block ( build+s :i* =m$ "o side ( ! squ>e4 ,evelyn caught sight ( ^!1 & ask$ me if ,i ?\ght %e w\ld be able to buy "o or two little ?+s :i* %e 0 anxi\s to get be=e go+ to ,j]usalem1 :]e1 %e said1 ,i suppose we %all f9d no %ops at all4 ,g & see1 my de>1 said ,sir ,william1 & ,i w wait "h till y come back2 ,i %all be close by if y want me = any?+1 & ,i c see :i* %ops y are 9 z ,i sit "h4 ,s ,evelyn & ,i op5$ ! gate ( ! hotel g>d51 & cross$ ! road to ! %ops4 ,!y 7 v curi\s %ops1 a great v>iety ( articles seem$ to be sold 9 !m2 all k9ds ( ,fr5* goods1 fancy articles ( e description1 & a few useful ?+s1 su* z travell+ bags1 knapsacks1 sun%ades1 & pi? helmets4 ,we select$ ! %op :i* appe>$ mo/ likely to conta9 all we wi%$ to buy4 ,evelyn w5t 9 fir/1 & ,i foll[$ h]4 ,! %opman 0 at ! o!r end ( ! %op1 att5d+ to "s cu/om]s1 & ,evelyn & ,i exam9$ ! articles :i* 7 expos$ = sale until he 0 ready to wait ^u u4 ,!n he came up to u1 & ask$ 9 ,fr5* :at we want$4 ,evelyn look$ up f ! box ( ornam5ts ov] :i* %e 0 b5d+1 & 0 ab\t to answ] him1 :5 ,i saw h] sudd5ly />t back 9 a/oni%m5t4 ,i look$ up1 to see :at _h tak5 h] s mu* by surprise1 & ,i saw 9 a mom5t :at x 04 ,! "y man 9 ! %op 0 no ,fr5* tradesman1 z we _h tak5 him to be2 he 0 h] c\s91 ,donald ,traf=d6 ,evelyn _h n look$ at him :5 we fir/ came into ! %op1 b z soon z _! eyes met %e recognis$ him1 9 spite ( 8 =eign dress & appe>ance2 & he1 at ! same mom5t1 recognis$ h]4 ,be=e we _h "t to recov] f our surprise he 0 gone2 he _h disappe>$ ?r\gh a door into an inn] room1 & _h s5t a "y ,fr5*woman to wait ^u u4 ,oh1 ,may1 :isp]$ ,evelyn to me1 nev] m9d ab\t ! ?+s2 let u g back to papa6 ,i made "s excuse to ! ,fr5* girl1 tell+ h] t we c\ld n wait long]1 & we left ! %op at once4 ,b :5 we 7 outside1 ,evelyn turn$ s :ite & fa9t t ,i did n "k h[ to get h] back to ! g>d54 ,i made signs to ,sir ,william to come2 b he 0 read+ ! newspap]1 & did n look up1 & ,i did n l to leave ,evelyn alone :il/ ,i w5t to call him4 ,at ?is mom5t1 to my great joy1 ,mr4 ,/anley came up1 & see+ h[ ill ,evelyn look$1 at once (f]$ h] 8 arm1 & walk$ ) h] back to h] fa!r4 ,z ,i foll[$ !m into ! g>d5 ,i c\ld n help contra/+ ,mr4 ,/anley's op51 manly face ) t ( ,mr4 ,donald ,traf=d1 :o _h by no means improv$ 9 appe>ance s9ce ,i saw him la/4 ,i wond]$ :e!r ,evelyn 0 /ruck by ! diff]5ce4 ,i almo/ ?\ght t %e 01 = %e ?ank$ ,mr4 ,/anley v pleasantly = 8 k9d help1 & expla9$ t %e _h sudd5ly turn$ fa9t :5 %e 0 9 ! %op1 b said %e w\ld be q bett] 9 a few mom5ts4 ,sir ,william 0 v mu* fright5$ :5 he saw 8 daught] come up to him1 look+ z pale z dea?1 & lean+ on ,mr4 ,/anley's arm2 b %e tri$ to laugh him out ( 8 fe>s1 & told him t %e 0 r tir$1 & t x 0 no?+ ( consequ5ce4 ,mr4 ,/anley1 h[ev]1 hurri$ up to ! hotel to get a glass ( wat]1 &1 z soon z he 0 gone1 ,evelyn bur/ into te>s4 ,:at is ! matt]1 my d>l+8 said ,sir ,william1 9 a v di/ress$ voice4 ,i am afraid ! j\rney has be5 too mu* = y4 ,p]haps ,i 0 fooli% n to foll[ ,lady ,eldridge's advice1 & g on ) h] to ,cairo4 ,y are n /rong en\gh to r\gh x yet2 ,i almo/ ?9k we _h bett] turn back4 ,oh no1 papa1 x is n t1 said ,evelyn2 x is n t at all4 ,tell him1 ,may1 :at x 04 ,evelyn _h a great surprise :5 %e w5t into t %op1 ,sir ,william1 ,i said1 = !re1 dress$ l a =eign]1 & sell+ beh9d ! c\nt]1 0 h] c\s91 ,mr4 ,traf=d6 ,donald6 said ,sir ,william1 />t+ f 8 seat4 ,donald 9 t %op6 ,surely n6 ,surely y mu/ h be5 mi/ak56 ,i _c ?9k t he w\ld d>e to come to a place l ,port ,said1 :]e s _m ,engli% p are cont9ually pass+ ?r\gh4 ,oh no1 ,evelyn1 *ild1 y mu/ be wrong4 ,no1 ,sir ,william1 ,i said1 we c]ta9ly saw ,mr4 ,traf=d2 ,i am q sure we 7 n mi/ak54 ,at ?is mom5t ,mr4 ,/anley return$1 & we c\ld n talk any m ab\t x4 ,b ,sir ,william seem$ lo/ 9 ?\ght1 & did n ent] into ! conv]sation1 :i* ,evelyn & ,i tri$ to keep up4 ,miss ,l9dsay1 he said1 at la/1 w\ld y %[ me 9 :i* ( ^? %ops y made y\r pur*ases j n[8 ,evelyn de>1 y sit /ill "h till we come back4 ,mr4 ,/anley1 may ,i leave my daught] 9 y\r c>e = a few m9utes8 ,i ?\ght ,mr4 ,/anley 0 n sorry to be left 9 *>ge2 b ,evelyn _h turn$ z pale z %e 0 be=e1 & 0 trembl+ f head to foot4 ,sir ,william & ,i left !m on ! seat ne> ! f\nta91 & walk$ t[>ds ! r[ ( %ops4 ,i really ?9k y mu/ h be5 mi/ak51 ,miss ,l9dsay1 he repeat$2 b ,i told him t ,i 0 sure t ,mr4 ,traf=d _h recognis$ u1 = he _h /rangely & sudd5ly disappe>$1 & _h s5t a ,fr5*woman to wait ^u u4 ,i wait$ outside1 :il/ ,sir ,william w5t into ! %op4 ,he came out 9 a few m9utes1 look+ v mu* reliev$4 ,x is q a mi/ake1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 he said2 ,donald ,traf=d is n "h2 ,i h made full inquiries4 ,!n he told me t !re 0 no "o b ! ,fr5*woman 9 ! %op :5 he w5t 91 b t he _h ask$ to see ! "y ,engli%man :o 0 wait+ 9 ! %op ab\t a qu>t] ( an h\r be=e4 ,! ,fr5*woman1 h[ev]1 _h assur$ him t !re 0 no ,engli%man !re1 nor 0 !re any "o :o c\ld speak ,engli%4 ,x mu/ h be5 h] husb& :om ! ladies _h se52 he 0 9 ! %op a few m9utes ago1 b he 0 an ,italian--8 "n 0 ,signor ,rialti4 ,sir ,william _h ask$ to speak to h] husb&1 b %e told him he _h be5 sudd5ly call$ away on bus9ess2 he 0 away n[1 & w\ld n return till ,monday4 ,!n ,signor ,rialti is evid5tly ! "n ,mr4 ,traf=d has tak51 ,i said4 ,oh1 ,i ?9k n1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 said ,sir ,william1 decid$ly2 y & ,evelyn h be5 mi/ak54 ,i h no d\bt t ! "y ,italian be>s a /rong resemblance to ,donald ,traf=d1 & t t circum/ance has l$ y bo? to imag9e t x mu/ be he4 ,b1 ?\gh ,i 0 sil5c$ by ,sir ,william's v decid$ mann]1 /ill ,i 0 f> f be+ conv9c$2 = ,i 0 firmly p]suad$ 9 my own m9d t x 0 inde$ ,evelyn's c\s9 :om we _h se5 t morn+4 ,mr4 ,/anley seem$ to notice1 ) ! ready p]ception :i* he always %[$1 t some?+ _h happ5$ to di/urb u1 & t we %\ld l to be left alone1 = 9 a few m9utes he made an excuse ab\t hav+ to call on "s "o at ! o!r end ( ,port ,said1 & took leave ( u4 ,well1 ,evelyn1 said ,sir ,william1 z soon z we 7 alone1 y 7 q wrong4 ,y ne$ n h be5 s agitat$1 de>2 x 0 q a mi/ake4 ,& he told h] :at he _h he>d 9 ! %op4 ,x is all a tale1 papa1 %e said1 :5 he _h f9i%$2 ,donald is afraid ( be+ f\nd out1 & he has put h] up to tell+ t /ory1 9 case any inquiries %\ld be made ab\t him4 ,he w\ld n be back till ,monday1 did %e say8 ,( c\rse n2 he kn[s q well t ! /eam] w n />t until e>ly on ,monday morn+4 ,b ,sir ,william w\ld n be conv9c$4 ,8 wi% 01 ,i ?9k1 fa!r to ! ?\ght1 = he w\ld h be5 v mu* puzzl$ z to h[ he ought to act _h he inde$ f\nd 8 nephew1 & he 0 !re=e only too glad to believe t he 0 /ill 9 ignorance ( ,mr4 ,traf=d's hid+-place4 ,i saw ,evelyn glanc+ sev]al times at ! ,fr5* %op z we sat !re talk+ ( o!r ?+s1 & ,i 0 glad = h] sake :5 ,sir ,william propos$ t we %\ld return to ! %ip4 ,we sp5t a v com=tless ,sunday on bo>d ! wret*$ little /eam]4 ,x 0 impossible to f9d any quiet place bel[1 = ! saloon 0 fill$ by ! l>ge p>ty :i* we _h se5 at ! hotel at ,port ,said1 & mo/ ( !m sp5t ! day 9 play+ at c>ds & *ess1 & 9 talk+ ov] _! j\rney 9 l\d voices2 & !y made s mu* noise t we f\nd x 0 utt]ly useless to attempt to read or to be quiet !re4 ,s we w5t on deck & f\nd a %ady corn]1 :]e we 7 at lea/ 9 comp>ative quiet4 ,b ! l[] deck 0 ! sc5e ( great confusion & noise1 = a numb] ( pilgrims1 :o 7 on _! way to ,j]usalem1 7 com+ on bo>d4 ,!re 7 ,greek pilgrims1 ,lat9 pilgrims1 & ,moslem pilgrims1 all ( !m dress$ 9 :at seem$ to u ! mo/ fanta/ic mann]4 ,!y 7 regul> ,ea/]n & dreadfully fil?y1 & !y 7 all jabb]+ _! v>i\s languages at ! top ( _! voices4 ,mr4 ,/anley told u t z ,ea/] draws ne>1 ! /eam]s are cramm$ ) ^! pilgrims1 on _! way to ! diff]5t %r9es & holy places4 ,!y come f great di/ances1 & g ?r\gh wond]ful fatigue1 & sp5d l>ge sums ( money to obta91 z !y va9ly hope1 =giv5ess ( s94 ,i (t5 ?9k1 ,mr4 ,/anley said1 t _! e>ne/ness puts u to %ame4 ,yes1 said ,evelyn1 z %e wat*$ a fre% deta*m5t come on bo>d1 & d y n long to tell !m h[ s9 c really be =giv58 ,i d inde$1 said ,mr4 ,/anley2 b1 ,miss ,traf=d1 h y any idea :at a difficult matt] t w\ld be8 ,h[ _m diff]5t languages d y ?9k ,i %\ld h to le>n be=e ,i c\ld speak to all ^! pilgrims8 ,we ?\ght p]haps five or six w\ld be necess>y1 b ,mr4 ,/anley told u1 to our a/oni%m5t1 t he _h j _h a conv]sation ) a g5tleman :o _h tak5 ! tr\ble to g r\nd ! vessel 9 ord] to f9d out :at 7 ! diff]5t nationalities ( ! p on bo>d1 & he _h made ! discov]y t !re 7 m5 f no few] ?an ?irty diff]5t nations 9 t "o /eam]4 ,we sail$ f ,port ,said on ,sunday ev5+1 & came 9 sight ( ,jaffa at six o'clock ! next morn+4 ,we 7 up v e>ly1 = we 7 long+ to get our fir/ view ( ,pale/9e4 ,x 0 a lovely morn+2 ! sea 0 z smoo? z a mill-pond1 & ! view 0 exce$+ly beautiful1 z ! sun rose beh9d ! ,judean hills4 ,jaffa look$ a v pretty place z we saw x f ! deck ( ! /eam]1 ) its :ite h\ses ov]look+ ! blue ,m$it]ranean1 a gre5 circle ( orange trees r\nd x1 & ! quiet hills beyond4 ,b we _h little "t to realise ! fact t we 7 n[ gaz+ at ! v spot f :i* ,jonah took %ip = ,t>%i%1 & :]e ,pet] lodg$ & saw t wondr\s vision1 & :]e ,dorcas liv$ & made g>m5ts = ! poor1 9 ^? f>-(f ,bible days4 ,we _h v little "t = ?\ght ( any k9d1 =1 z soon z we came 9 sight ( ,joppa1 numb]less boats came out to meet u1 z !y _h done at ,alex&ria1 & aft] ! usual tumult we secur$ "o1 & 7 r[$ to ! %ore1 :i* 0 a mile & a half away4 ,?is is n at all a safe und]tak+ 9 /ormy wea!r1 = ! only entrance to ! h>b\r is a v n>r[ op5+ betwe5 mo/ dang]\s rocks4 ,! h>b\r ( ,joppa is a natural "o1 & has nev] be5 improv$ s9ce ! "t ( ,solomon1 :5 ! timb]1 :i* ,hiram out d[n 9 ! ,lebanon1 mu/ h be5 br\ght to l& ?r\gh ?is v passage betwe5 ! rocks4 ,:5 we drew ne> ! %ore we saw cr[ds ( ,arabs wait+ = u1 scream+ & fight+ & wre/l+ 9 savage e>ne/ness4 ,!y seem$ ready to te> u 9 pieces r ?an lose ! *ance ( c>ry+ our luggage to ! hotel4 ,x really 0 a t]rible sight to ^? unaccu/om$ to ,ea/]n vehem5ce4 ,evelyn 0 v mu* fright5$ & clung to h] fa!r1 & ev5 ,sir ,william seem$ agitat$ & al>m$4 ,b ,mr4 ,/anley's quiet voice reassur$ u4 ,oh1 x is no?+1 he said2 y don't "k :at ,arabs are yet2 !y always make a noise l ?is4 ,x is no?+ unusual1 ,i assure y1 he add$1 laugh+1 z he f\ght a passage = u ?r\gh ! h[l+ cr[d1 & l$ ! way to ! little ,cu/om ,h\se1 :i* 0 already cr[d$ ) ! travell]s :o _h arriv$ be=e u4 ,we _h1 !re=e1 to wait outside = "s "t2 b ,mr4 ,/anley kept ! ,arabs :o _h foll[$ u at bay1 & gave ,evelyn a camp-/ool to sit ^u1 = %e 0 look+ fa9t & tir$1 & ! heat1 ev5 at t e>ly h\r1 seem$ to u to be v great4 ,at la/ ! ,turki% (fic] 0 at lib]ty to receive ! bak%ee%1 :i* ,mr4 ,/anley _h ready = him4 ,he pass$ our boxes )\t op5+ !m1 & we 7 all[$ to proce$ to ! hotel4 ,x 0 a tir+ walk1 = ! /reets ( ,jaffa are cov]$ ) hot1 burn+ s&1 9 :i* y\r feet s9k e /ep y take4 ,!y are v n>r[1 & e n[ & !n we look$ r\nd to f9d ourselves ne>ly knock$ d[n by a huge camel1 ) boxes on its back1 :i* _h come noiselessly beh9d u ov] ! s(t s&2 or a mule1 lad5 ) luggage1 & ru%+ frantically along1 0 det]m9$ to pass u1 & pu%$ its way ?r\gh our mid/ 9 ! mo/ resolute mann]4 ,mr4 ,/anley _h advis$ u to g z f> z ,ramleh t day1 z x is =ty miles' ride f ,jaffa to ,j]usalem1 & he ?\ght we %\ld be too tir$ if we w5t s f> 9 "o day4 ,accord+ly t aft]noon1 he hir$ horses = u1 & we m\nt$ = our fir/ ride 9 ,pale/9e4 ,x 0 no easy matt] guid+ our horses ?r\gh ! cr[ds ( ,arabs1 ! /r+s ( camels & mules1 & ! heaps ( fil?1 9 ! /reets ( ,jaffa4 ,we 7 glad to leave ! t[n & get into ! road1 :i* took u ?r\gh "o ( ! orange groves by :i* ,jaffa is surr\nd$4 ,ev]y?+ look$ s /range & ,ea/]n1 & ! sc5t ( ! oranges 0 delici\s4 ,we pass$ ?r\gh ! ,pla9 ( ,%>on1 & at ab\t five o'clock 9 ! ev5+ we rea*$ ,ramleh1 aft] r m ?an f\r h\rs' ride4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,,j]usalem4 ,illu/ration ,,!re are "s mom5ts 9 our lives :i* x is impossible = u to describe4 ,we nev] =get !m1 & ! impression :i* !y leave beh9d nev] fades f our memories2 b /ill :5 we try to speak ( !m to o!rs1 ev5 to ^? :om we love be/1 words fail u1 & seem too weak to express :at we mean4 ,i w n1 !re=e1 attempt to describe :at 0 ! ru% ( feel+ :i* pass$ ?r\gh my he>t :51 = ! fir/ "t1 ,i came 9 sight ( ,j]usalem4 ,o!rs :o h _h a l privilege w und]/& :at ,i felt1 z ,mr4 ,/anley made u pull up our horses on ! top ( a hill1 ab\t half a mile f ! city gate1 & said to u1 ,well1 :at d y ?9k ( ,j]usalem8 ,nei!r ,evelyn nor ,i c\ld answ] him4 ,sir ,william _h _m que/ions to ask ab\t ! h\ses & build+s on ! road lead+ to ! ,jaffa ,gate1 b we sc>cely he>d :at !y 7 say+4 ,at t mom5t1 x seem$ to u a matt] ( v small importance :i* 0 ! ,au/rian consul's h\se2 :i* 0 ! ,pa*a's c\ntry resid5ce2 :i* 0 ! ,g]man deaconesses' s*ool2 & :i* 7 ! ,russian *ur* & conv5t4 ,all ^! details int]e/$ u aft]w>ds1 :5 we 7 m famili> ) ,j]usalem2 b at t mom5t1 :5 we 7 able1 = ! fir/ "t 9 our lives1 to say ,?is is ,j]usalem6 we _h nei!r "t nor ?\ght to sp>e = any int]e/ 9 ! mod]n build+s ( ! city4 ,we rode on 9 sil5ce1 see+1 z if 9 a dream1 ! cr[ds ( p tak+ _! ev5+ walk on ! ,jaffa road--p ( num]\s nations1 & f e qu>t] ( ! globe1 dress$ 9 co/umes z v>i$ z ! col\rs ( ! ra9b[4 ,mr4 ,/anley rode up close beside me z we w5t ?r\gh ! ,jaffa ,gate1 & said1 9 a l[ voice1 ,i "k j h[ y are feel+1 ,miss ,l9dsay2 x is1 inde$1 a wond]ful mom5t 9 "o's life6 ,we _h "s difficulty 9 gett+ ?r\gh ! gate1 = a numb] ( camels & mules 7 com+ out ( ! city at ! "t1 heavily lad5 ) baggage4 ,!n we pass$ ! ,t[] ( ,david1 & turn$ d[n a quiet /reet1 :]e /ood ! hotel 9 :i* ,mr4 ,/anley _h secur$ rooms = u4 ,he took leave ( u "h1 z he 0 go+ to lodge at ! ,lat9 ,conv5t1 :i* 0 9 ano!r "p ( ! city1 & :]e he _h /ay$ :5 he 0 la/ 9 ,j]usalem4 ,! l&lady ( ! hotel 0 a ,scot* woman1 & 0 v k9d & att5tive4 ,our rooms 7 beautifully clean1 ) :ite /one floors1 :ite walls1 :ite curta9s be=e ! w9d[s1 & :ite cov]+s on ! b$s4 ,we did n sleep mu* t night4 ,! fatigue & excitem5t :i* we _h gone ?r\gh ! day be=e w\ld h be5 suffici5t to keep u awake2 b ev5 _h we felt dispos$ to sleep1 ,i d n ?9k we %\ld h be5 able to d s1 = ! noises 9 ! city1 dur+ ! night1 7 s _m & s v>i$1 t x seem$ to u t1 "u any circum/ances1 sleep w\ld be v difficult to obta94 ,our l&lady _h told u t %e hop$ we %\ld n be al>m$ at any s\nd we might he> 9 ! night1 = a w$d+ 0 go+ on 9 a h\se close by1 & ! fe/ivities w\ld be kept up until ! morn+4 ,accord+ly1 = _m h\rs we 7 kept awake by ! noise ( music & s++1 by ! beat+ ( little drums1 & by ! %\ts & laught] ( ! w$d+ p>ty4 ,b z morn+ dawn$ ! w$d+ gue/s grew quiet]1 & we hop$ to be able to sleep4 ,n[1 h[ev]1 we 7 di/urb$ by ! h[l+ & b>k+ ( ! /reet dogs1 :i* at times 0 q deaf5+4 ,^! dogs h no own]s1 b act z ! scav5g]s ( ! city1 eat+ any?+ !y c f9d among/ ! refuse & dirt ( ! /reets4 ,ea* dog has 8 appo9t$ place 9 ! city1 & !re seems to be a code ( hon\r among/ !m1 t no dog is to g into any o!r qu>t] ( ! city except t 9 :i* he 0 born & br$1 & 9 :i* he ord9>ily gets 8 livelihood4 ,imm$iately a /range dog f ano!r "p ( ,j]usalem makes 8 appe>ance he is driv5 away by ! unit$ ef=ts ( all ! dogs 9 ! /reet :i* he has invad$1 ) en\gh noise to awak5 ! :ole city4 ,poor ,evelyn toss$ ab\t v we>ily ?r\gh ! night1 & ,i 0 really afraid t %e w\ld be ill aga94 ,b h] m]ry spirits seem$ to keep h] up1 = %e f\nd amusem5t 9 all our little discom=ts1 & made me laugh 9 spite ( myself _m times dur+ t long1 tir+ night4 ,at l5g? a lull came 9 ! b>k+ ( ! dogs2 b n[ sev]al bells began to r+ 9 ! ,greek & ,lat9 conv5ts ( ! city1 & !n we he>d ! %\ts ( mulete]s & camel-driv]s1 & ! t9kl+ ( ! mule-bells1 z diff]5t p>ties ( p set (f 9 ! cool ( ! morn+ = ,joppa1 or "s ( ! di/ant villages4 ,we got up at eight o'clock tir$ & unrefre%$4 ,sir ,william _h slept mu* bett]1 & 0 9 good spirits1 & v anxi\s to g out & explore ,j]usalem4 ,we ne$$ no dragoman to take u to ! v>i\s places ( int]e/1 = ,mr4 ,/anley1 :o knew 8 way ab\t ! city z well z any ( ! inhabitants did1 0 v k9d1 & anxi\s to help u4 ,i fanci$ t x 0 some?+ m ?an ord9>y k9dness :i* made him always s will+ to make "o ( our p>ty4 ,i c\ld n help ?9k+ t he 0 attract$ by my de> ,evelyn's sweet face & w9n+ ways4 ,:o c\ld help lov+ h]8 ,i said to myself1 z ,i ?\ght ! matt] ov] a hundr$ times dur+ our fir/ day 9 ,j]usalem4 ,i notic$1 ,i c\ld n help notic+1 h[ dilig5tly he kept ne> u1 & h[ pleas$ he seem$ t ,sir ,william ?ankfully accept$ 8 (f] to be our guide :il/ we /ay$ 9 ! ,holy ,city4 ,i %all nev] =get my fir/ walk ?r\gh ! /reets ( ,j]usalem4 ,we grew s famili>1 9 a few weeks' "t1 ) all ! ,ea/]n sights & s\nds t we sc>cely notic$ !m1 b t morn+ ev]y?+ 0 /range & fre% & full ( int]e/4 ,we w5t fir/ across an op5 squ>e 9 front ( ! ,t[] ( ,david1 :]e a vegetable m>ket 0 be+ held2 & *ick5s & eggs1 oranges & lemons1 7 be+ exhibit$ = sale by ! wom5 f ! villages r\nd ,j]usalem1 & 7 be+ b>ga9$ = & b\ght by ! t[nspeople4 ,mr4 ,/anley call$ our att5tion to ! enorm\s caulifl[]s1 s l>ge t "o ( !m 0 suffici5t to =m ! load ( a small donkey1 & s heavy t nei!r ,evelyn nor ,i c\ld lift !m f ! gr\nd4 ,we 7 curi\s to "k h[ l>ge ! pans 7 9 :i* !y 7 boil$1 b ,mr4 ,/anley told u !y are always cut 9 pieces be=e boil+1 & t "o caulifl[] is suffici5t to fe$ a family = a :ole day4 ,!re 0 s mu* noise & confusion 9 ?is m>ket-place t x 0 difficult to keep up conv]sation4 ,no bus9ess transaction is done 9 ,j]usalem )\t a dispute1 s fi]ce t1 if x occurr$ 9 ,engl&1 we %\ld expect x to end 9 bl[s4 ,! salesman asks ?ree times z mu* = 8 goods z he expects to receive2 & ! buy] (f]s a ?ird ( :at he kn[s he w ev5tually h to give2 & !n !y beg9 to dispute1 & wrangle1 & scream1 & %\t1 & swe>1 & /amp _! feet1 & %ake _! fi/s1 z if ! affairs ( a :ole nation dep5d$ ^u x4 ,we saw "o su* bus9ess transaction go+ on 9 a /reet ?r\gh :i* we pass$4 ,illu/ration3 ,,9 ,,j]usalem4 ,:at is ! matt] "h8 said ,sir ,william1 z he tri$ to make 8 way ?r\gh an angry1 excit$ cr[d1 :o 7 scream+ & ge/iculat+ 9 ! mo/ al>m+ mann]1 z !y clu/]$ r\nd a camel & a camel driv]4 ,oh1 no?+ at all6 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 laugh+1 z he li/5$ to :at !y 7 say+4 ,t man 9 ! c5tre ( ! cr[d is buy+ a load ( *>coal1 & he & ! own] ( ! *>coal are disput+ ab\t a pia/re1 m or less1 :i* 9 ,engli% money is ab\t equal to twop5ce4 ,b :o are all ^! o!r p8 said ,sir ,william4 ,!y _c all h an int]e/ 9 ?is "o load ( *>coal4 ,oh no1 said ,mr4 ,/anley2 b !y happ5$ to be pass+ at ! "t1 & !y h /opp$ to give _! op9ion1 "s tak+ ! "p ( ! buy] & "s ( ! sell]1 & all ( !m add+ to ! g5]al confusion by %\t+ & swe>+ & yell+ at ! highe/ pit* ( _! voices4 ,we 7 glad to get out ( ! noisy cr[d1 & to desc5d a flight ( /eps 9 ! n>r[ /reet4 ,d y m9d com+ 9 "h = a m9ute8 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 z he /opp$ be=e a clean-look+ build+1 & op5$ a small door 9 ! wall4 ,we foll[$ him into a l>ge room1 & !re we saw a v int]e/+ sight4 ,all r\nd ! room 7 ,jewesses1 9 _! picturesque dresses1 sitt+ on mats on ! floor4 ,!y 7 busily engag$ ) v>i\s k9ds ( ne$lework2 & an ,engli% lady 0 go+ ab\t among/ !m1 sup]9t5d+ _! "w1 & tea*+ !m any?+ :i* !y did n "k4 ,we 7 mu* int]e/$ 9 all %e told u ( ^! poor wom5--!y are le>n+ by degrees to make _! wret*$ homes bright & com=table1 & to make g>m5ts = _! husb&s & *ildr54 ,above all1 !y are le>n+ to love ! ,^w ( ,god1 :i* is read al\d to !m z !y "w1 & :i* is q a new book to !m1 = ^! poor ,j]usalem ,jewesses "k z little ( _! ,old ,te/am5t ,scriptures z !y d ( ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,we gave !m sev]al ord]s = v>i\s k9ds ( lace1 :i* !y make mo/ beautifully2 & ,sir ,william left a donation t[>ds _! sav+s bank1 :i* is do+ mu* good among/ ^! poor mo!rs1 enc\rag+ !m to lay by "p ( ! money :i* !y e>n1 z a fund f :i* !y c draw 9 times ( sickness or di/ress4 ,!n we pass$ f t room into ano!r "p ( ! build+1 :i* is us$ z a girls' s*ool = ,jewi% *ildr52 & x 0 inde$ pleasant to see _! bright happy faces1 & to he> _! intellig5t answ]s to ! que/ions put to !m4 ,mr4 ,/anley told u aft]w>ds t !re is a good "w be+ done 9 ?is mission s*ool--= ! *ildr5 are c>efully & pray]fully taught1 &1 z ! mo!rs ( ! next g5]ation1 w und\bt$ly pave ! way = mission>y ef=t among _! nation4 ,! lady :o manages ! s*ool v k9dly took u to see all ! diff]5t classes1 & we 7 especially int]e/$ 9 a l>ge class ( little ,spani% ,jewesses1 natives ( ,j]usalem1 :o are be+ taught 9 _! own language1 & :o are le>n+1 little by little & /ep by /ep1 to "k & to love t ,savi\r :om _! nation h reject$4 ,we left ! s*ool1 hop+ to visit x aga9 ano!r day1 & 7 turn+ r\nd a corn]1 :5 ,mr4 ,/anley /opp$ u1 & %[$ u "s curi\s old /ones 9 ! wall ( ! /reet4 ,! /ones evid5tly =m$ "p ( an old ar*way2 & ,mr4 ,/anley told u t x 0 n[ ?\ght to be ! mo/ anci5t place 9 all ,j]usalem1 be+ suppos$1 by ^? :o h /udi$ ! matt]1 to h be5 "p ( ! old city ( ,jebus1 :]e ! ,jebusites liv$ be=e ,david conqu]$ !m1 & turn$ _! old =tress ( ,jebus into ,j]usalem1 ! ,city ( ,david4 ,z we turn$ into ! l>ge baza> 9 "o ( ! pr9cipal /reets 9 ,j]usalem we _h great difficulty 9 gett+ on1 s n>r[ 0 ! /reet1 & s cr[d$ ) camels1 donkeys1 mules1 & p /&+ be=e ea* ( ! curi\s little %ops1 b>ga9+ ) ! %opman inside4 ,we 7 mak+ our way sl[ly d[n ! /reet1 :5 ,i he>d a well-kn[n voice beh9d u1 say+3 ,miss ,traf=d6 ,?is is a surprise6 ,evelyn & ,i turn$ r\nd1 & ,i said involunt>ily3 ,claude6 ,:]e h y come f8 ,he told u t he & ,alice _h be5 sp5d+ a mon? 9 ,cairo1 & _h n[ come to see ,pale/9e4 ,b !re does n seem to be mu* to see "h1 he said2 x is a wret*$ place aft] ,cairo6 ,h[ long h y be5 "h1 may ,i ask8 said ,mr4 ,/anley4 ,j two days n[1 said ,claude2 we ?9k ( mov+ on aga9 to-morr[4 ,!n y w excuse my say+ t y h n begun to see ,j]usalem yet1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 ) ! lea/ possible t\* ( s>casm 9 8 voice4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k6 said ,claude4 ,x seems a /upid place4 ,i c't ?9k :y s _m p come "h4 ,b won't y come & see ,alice8 he said1 turn+ to ,evelyn4 ,%e w be delight$ to see y4 ,by ! by1 ,i met a fri5d ( y\rs 9 ,cairo1 ,miss ,traf=d1 said ,claude1 z we walk$ 9 ! direction ( ! ,damascus ,gate1 ne> :i* _! t5ts 7 pit*$4 ,a fri5d ( m9e6 said ,evelyn1 col\r+4 ,:om d y mean8 ,%e ?\ght1 & ,i ?\ght too1 t he mu/ h met ,donald ,traf=d2 & ,evelyn 0 consid]ably reliev$ by 8 answ]4 ,x 0 ,"l ,moreton2 he 0 !re ) a p>ty ( 8 fri5ds1 /ay+ 9 ! same hotel t we 74 ,!y 7 go+ up ! ,nile4 ,he told me t y 7 travell+ 9 ! ,ea/1 b ! ,ea/ is a wide t]m1 & ,i did n expect t we %\ld meet4 ,b :y d y call ,"l ,moreton a fri5d ( m9e8 said ,evelyn1 laugh+1 ?\gh h] fa!r look$ at h] reprov+ly4 ,i beg y\r p>don1 ,miss ,traf=d1 said ,claude2 ,i ?\ght he 0 a great fri5d ( y\rs4 ,i assure y1 he talk$ s mu* ( y & ,sir ,william 9 ! %ort "t t we 7 toge!r1 t ,i ?\ght-- ,b ,claude did n tell u :at he ?\ght1 = we _h to sep>ate at t mom5t to let a /r+ ( lad5 camels pass by1 & ! conv]sation took ano!r turn :5 we 7 able to walk toge!r aga94 ,claude & 8 wife 7 travell+ ) a small p>ty "u ! escort ( a dragoman1 & _! t5ts 7 pit*$ 9 ! olive grove j outside ! nor!rn gate ( ! city4 ,alice 0 v glad to see u1 & %e1 ,evelyn1 & ,i _h a long talk toge!r z we sat 9 patri>*al fa%ion at our t5t door1 :il/ ! g5tlem5 pac$ ab\t among/ ! olive trees1 talk+ to ! dragoman1 & ref]r+ to _! guidebooks4 ,is x n /range to be 9 ,j]usalem1 ,alice8 said ,evelyn4 ,i feel z if ,i 7 dream+4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 said ,alice1 laugh+4 ,i h n be5 mu* impress$ by x4 ,y see1 we h become q accu/om$ n[ to ,ea/]n mann]s & cu/oms--we saw pl5ty ( !m 9 ,cairo2 & z = ! old ru9s & build+s "h1 !y are n ne>ly s anci5t z ! ,pyramids4 ,& !re is really v little to be se51 aft] all1 except by ^? p :o believe ! lies t are told !m ab\t ! holy sepul*re1 & ! tomb ( ! ,virg91 & ! mang] at ,be?lehem4 ,:y actually1 9 "o /reet1 9 q a new wall1 our dragoman po9t$ out to u a /one :i* is believ$ to be ! /one t 'w\ld h cri$ out' if ! *ildr5 _h held _! peace6 ,su* nons5se6 ,i h no pati5ce ) x6 said ,alice1 scornfully4 ,oh yes1 said ,evelyn1 ,i q agree ) y ab\t all ^? absurd tales4 ,i w\ld n walk a hundr$ y>ds to see "o ( ^? wond]ful %r9es2 b1 aft] all1 ?is is ,j]usalem1 & x 0 "h1 %e add$ 9 a l[] voice1 t our ,"l walk$1 & prea*$1 & di$1 & 0 buri$1 & rose aga96 ,oh yes1 ( c\rse1 said ,alice1 c>elessly1 z if t fact 0 b ( small importance to h]4 ,& if we really love ,him1 said ,evelyn1 if ,he is de>] to u ?an any "o else1 don't y ?9k we mu/ look ^u ,j]usalem1 & ^? places ,he liv$ 91 ) a v /range & wond]ful feel+8 ,alice look$ at ,evelyn 9 a/oni%m5t2 %e _h nev] he>d h] speak 9 t way be=e1 & _h no idea h[ mu* ,evelyn 0 *ang$ s9ce %e _h se5 h] la/4 ,%e made no answ]1 & ,i ?9k w\ld h turn$ ! conv]sation to "s o!r subject if ,evelyn _h n spok5 fir/4 ,y look surpris$1 ,alice1 %e said2 y did n expect me to say t1 did y8 ,no1 inde$1 said ,alice1 laugh+2 ,i ?\ght t bo? y & ,i 7 q free f all s5tim5tal nons5se4 ,i am afraid ,miss ,l9dsay has be5 talk+ y ov] to h] way ( ?9k+4 ,is x nons5se8 said ,evelyn1 gravely1 pass+ ov] ,alice's la/ words4 ,because if x is n nons5se1 surely x is a great reality6 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 said ,alice1 lightly2 ,claude says ! great] "p ( religion is nons5se1 & ,i suppose he ought to "k2 he has /udi$ ! matt]1 & ,i h n4 ,oh1 ,alice1 said ,evelyn1 ) te>s 9 h] eyes1 if y only knew h[ v1 v happy ,i h be5 lately6 ,i nev] knew be=e t x 0 possible to be z happy z ,i am n[6 ,t may be1 said ,alice1 & ,i am n happy4 ,sometimes ,i am mis]able1 %e said1 bitt]ly1 ) t grave1 sad expression t ,i _h se5 on h] face once be=e2 b /ill ,i _c help agree+ ) ,claude1 t x is bett] n to be com=t$ at all1 ?an to get com=t out ( a lie4 ,oh yes1 ,i said1 ,mr4 ,ellis is q "r 9 t2 b ! :ole "q turns on ?is3 ,is ! ,bible ,satan's lie1 or ,god's tru?8 ,x mu/ surely be ei!r ! "o or ! o!r4 ,well1 said ,alice1 lightly1 x is too hot to ent] into a !ological discussion4 ,i w call ! dragoman & get him to s5d u "s lemonade3 our cook makes x spl5didly4 ,poor ,alice6 said ,evelyn1 :5 we 7 left alone 9 ! t5t4 ,yes1 ,i said1 %e is v mu* to be piti$1 = %e is n com=table 9 h] unbelief2 %e has d\bts ev5 ab\t h] own d\bt+4 ,alice came back to tell u t ! g5tlem5 _h plann$ a ride to ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 & ! dragoman _h gone to hire horses = ! :ole p>ty1 s t we might />t toge!r f ! ,damascus ,gate z soon z x began to be a little cool]4 ,mean:ile ,mr4 ,/anley guid$ u to our hotel4 ,we w5t back a diff]5t way1 keep+ outside ! city1 till we rea*$ ! ,jaffa ,gate4 ,sir ,william & ,i walk$ fir/1 & ,mr4 ,/anley & ,evelyn foll[$2 b z ,sir ,william 0 read+ 8 guidebook1 :i* he kept op5 9 8 h& & consult$ z he walk$ along1 ,i _h mu* "t = ?\ght1 & once or twice ,i c\ld n help ov]he>+ ! conv]sation :i* 0 go+ on beh9d me4 ,s y "k ,"l ,moreton1 ,miss ,traf=d8 ,i he>d ,mr4 ,/anley say4 ,yes2 papa kn[s him v well1 & he likes him v mu*1 said ,evelyn1 laugh+4 ,& y d n8 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 gravely4 ,oh1 ,i don't dislike him1 said ,evelyn2 only ,i ?9k him v /upid & un9t]e/+4 ,i ?\ght ,sir ,william mu/ h he>d ?is rem>k2 b if he he>d x he took no notice ( x1 b appe>$ to be deep 9 8 book4 ,"l ,moreton /upid6 ,"l ,moreton un9t]e/+6 repeat$ ,mr4 ,/anley4 ,!n excuse my say+1 ,miss ,traf=d1 t if t is y\r op9ion1 ,i am sure y d n "k ,"l ,moreton3 no "o :o really knew him w\ld ev] come to su* a conclusion4 ,mr4 ,/anley _h spok5 r w>mly1 & ,evelyn said 9 an apologetic tone3 ,i am v sorry1 ,mr4 ,/anley4 ,i see ,"l ,moreton is a fri5d ( y\rs2 ,i did n "k y knew him at all4 ,yes1 he said1 smil+1 we 7 college fri5ds1 & h be5 l bro!rs ev] s9ce4 ,i ?9k ,i may say t ,i "k ,"l ,moreton bett] ?an any "o else kn[s him1 & ! m ,i "k him1 s mu* ! m ,i respect him & love him4 ,he always seems to me to be s %y & awkw>d1 said ,evelyn4 ,yes1 s he is ) /rang]s1 said ,mr4 ,/anley2 he is a highly n]v\s man2 x is 8 infirmity1 & he kn[s x2 b if he c only %ake (f 8 n]v\sness1 he is q ano!r man4 ,i wi% y c\ld h he>d him address a meet+ ( und]graduates ! o!r day1 y w\ld n h believ$ x 0 ! same man4 ,address+ !m6 ,on :at subject8 ask$ ,evelyn1 n[ m a/oni%$ ?an ev]4 ,oh1 ab\t p]sonal religion4 ,"l ,moreton has a wond]ful p[] ) "y m54 ,he is n at all n]v\s :5 speak+ to !m4 ,x is y ladies t make him s %y1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 laugh+2 y are su* =midable be+s6 ,well1 ,i am surpris$6 said ,evelyn4 ,i c\ld n h believ$ x1 if y _h n told me4 ,& he is a real ,*ri/ian8 ,i am v glad to he> x4 ,yes1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 he is a man :o lives v ne> to 8 ,god2 & 8 "o desire & aim is to br+ all "u 8 influ5ce to ! ,savi\r4 ,inde$1 he add$1 9 a l[] voice1 if x _h n be5 = ,"l ,moreton1 ,miss ,traf=d1 ,i %\ld h be5 to ?is day a man ( ! _w2 x 0 8 words & 8 example :i* fir/ made me decide = ,*ri/4 ,i c\ld he> no m1 = we _h rea*$ ! ,jaffa ,gate1 & _h pass$ into ! noisy squ>e 9 front ( ! ,t[] ( ,david4 ,:e!r ,sir ,william _h ov]he>d ! conv]sation ,i did n "k4 ,he look$ v pleas$ & half amus$ z x 0 go+ on2 b p]haps he may h be5 read+ "s int]e/+ anecdote 9 8 guidebook4 ,mr4 ,/anley left u at ! ,t[] ( ,david1 & we w5t to ! hotel to re/ until ! ev5+4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,my ,,olive-,,leaves4 ,illu/ration ,,x 0 /ill v hot :5 we />t$ f ! ,damascus ,gate & rode 9 ! direction ( ! ,m\nt ( ,olives4 ,:at a wret*$ little hillock x is6 said ,claude1 z we drew ne> to x4 ,x does n des]ve ! "n ( hill1 mu* less ( m\nta94 ,b to mo/ ( u1 ?is wret*$ little hillock 0 ! mo/ sacr$ spot on e>?4 ,!re 0 no d\bt ab\t its id5tity2 ! m\nta9 on ! ea/ side ( ! city c\ld n be mi/ak5 = any o!r4 ,no va9 sup]/ition1 no improbable leg5d _h fix$ ^u ?is hill z ! place :]e our ,"l's feet _h s (t5 trod4 ,! h& ( "t1 & ! cruel deva/ations ( w>1 :i* _h laid l[ ! beautiful ,temple1 & made ,j]usalem a heap ( ru9s1 _h n be5 able to oblit]ate ?is spot1 nor to make u d\btful z to :e!r x 7 inde$ ! same ,m\nt ( ,olives ( :i* we _h read s (t5 9 ! ,gospels4 ,we cross$ ! ,valley ( ,jeho%aphat1 pass$ ! wall ( ! s-call$ ,ge?semane1 & began to asc5d "o ( ! /eep /ony pa?s :i* l$ across ! m\nta9 to ,be?any4 ,d y "k1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 t ^! pa?s1 on ! hillsides1 are probably less *ang$ ?an any?+ 9 ! :ole c\ntry8 ,!y mu/ h gone 9 ! same direction ye>s ago1 & ?is is1 )\t d\bt1 ! v road our ,"l's feet s (t5 trod to & f ! city on ,8 way to ,m>?a's h\se4 ,i felt z if x 7 almo/ too sacr$ gr\nd4 ,i did n answ] him1 = ,i c\ld n h done s )\t te>s4 ,s we rode on 9 sil5ce1 a little way beh9d ! o!rs1 & ,evelyn told me aft]w>ds %e w\ld h be5 v ?ankful to h be5 ) u1 = ,claude & ,alice 7 laugh+ & talk+ ! :ole way1 tell+ amus+ /ories ( ?+s & p 9 ,engl&1 & tak+ little or no notice ( ! sc5es & places ar\nd !m4 ,! ,m\nt ( ,olives 0 no?+ to !m6 ,mr4 ,/anley rode =w>d z we came to a turn 9 ! road on ! %\ld] ( ! hill1 & made !m all /op & look r\nd at ! city3 = x is at ?is place t1 :5 com+ f ,be?any1 ,j]usalem fir/ comes 9 sight1 & !re1 he said1 mu/ h be5 ! v spot on :i* our ,"l /ood :5 ,he beheld ! city & wept ov] x4 ,evelyn came close to me & :isp]$1 ,oh1 ,may1 ,i _c help x1 ! te>s w come2 let u g a little way (f by ourselves2 ,claude & ,alice w *att] s4 ,we got (f our horses1 & left !m ) ! dragoman1 & w5t a %ort di/ance f ! road to a clump ( olive trees2 & "h we /ood1 look+ d[n ^u ! city4 ,if our ,"l wept z ,he gaz$ on x 9 its glory1 because ,he saw1 9 ! f> di/ance1 ! %ad[ ( ru9 & desolation creep+ t[>ds x1 h[ mu* m %\ld we weep1 :o saw ! once belov$ city1 ! joy ( ! :ole e>?1 made a v curse among/ m56 ,look =w>d z well z backw>d1 said ,mr4 ,/anley's voice beh9d u4 ,=w>d to :at8 ,evelyn ask$4 ,=w>d to t day :5 ! ,"l w no long] weep ov] ,j]usalem1 b w rejoice ov] h]4 ,d y rememb] t passage 9 ,isaiah lxv43 ',be ye glad & rejoice = ev] 9 t :i* ,i create3 =1 behold1 ,i create ,j]usalem a rejoic+1 & h] p a joy4 ,& ,i w rejoice 9 ,j]usalem1 & joy 9 ,my p3 & ! voice ( weep+ %all be no m he>d 9 h]1 nor ! voice ( cry+4' ,y see ! ,"l w rejoice 9 ,j]usalem ,himself1 & call ^u u to rejoice ) ,him2 & surely ^? :o h be5 "o ) ,him 9 ,8 sorr[ w be ! ones :om ,he w call to rejoice ) ,him 9 ,8 joy4 ,doesn't x rem9d y ( ! %eph]d's joy1 ,i said1 z he br\ght back 8 lo/ %eep1 rejoic+ himself1 & call+ toge!r 8 fri5ds1 say+ to !m1-- ',rejoice ) me1 = ,i h f\nd my %eep :i* 0 lo/'8 ,yes1 inde$1 said ,mr4 ,/anley2 ,i nev] ?\ght ( t2 ! two passages are wond]fully alike4 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,/anley1 said ,evelyn1 z he turn$ r\nd1 mu/ we g8 ,x is s delightful to be "h4 ,i ?9k we mu/ come aga9 ano!r day1 by ourselves1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 9 a :isp]1 y\r fri5ds are r impati5t to be mov+2 !y f9d v little to int]e/ !m on ! ,m\nt ( ,olives4 ,i am n surpris$1 said ,evelyn2 half ! ,bible !y d n believe 91 & ! o!r half !y d n c>e =2 b1 oh de>1 ,i d wi% !y _h n come ) u2 ,i did n ?9k we %\ld feel x s mu*4 ,evelyn w5t on1 reluctantly1 to jo9 h] fa!r4 ,mr4 ,/anley /ay$ beh9d a mom5t1 & ga!r$ a spray ( olive-leaves1 :i* he gave to me1 & ask$ me to keep x1 z a remembrance ( ! place1 & ( our com+ "h toge!r4 ,i h t spray ( olive-leaves n[1 & %all keep x z long z ,i live4 ,s we w5t on to ,be?any4 ,! road mu/ h tak5 ! same c\rse 9 our ,"l's "t1 = !re is a deep valley1 & ! road runs at its head4 ,& x mu/ h look$ j ! same !n1 ) ! same wild fl[]s gr[+ by ! wayside1 ! same blue m\nta9s ( ,moab 9 front1 & ! same gre5 valley b5ea?4 ,mr4 ,/anley po9t$ out to me "s fig trees1 gr[+ close to ! road1 j z !y did :5 ! ,savi\r1 hungry ) ,8 long walk f ,be?any1 se>*$ among/ ! loaves = fruit to refre% him on ! way4 ,i _h _h no idea be=e t x 0 s f> f ,j]usalem to ,be?any2 ,he mu/ h be5 v we>y z ,he w5t backw>ds & =w>ds e day ( t la/1 sad week ( ,8 life on e>?4 ,only once d we read ( ,him rid+2 x 0 all on foot1 9 ! we>9ess & heat ( ! day1 ) ! same sun beat+ on ,8 head z 0 %9+ on u at t v mom5t4 ,& !n1 z ,i rode at ,mr4 ,/anley's side1 he rem9d$ me ( t la/ walk1 :5 ,jesus l$ ,8 disciples out z f> z to ,be?any1 & we wond]$ if1 z !y trod ?is road1 !y knew t ,he 0 s soon to leave !m1 & t x 0 ! la/ walk t !y w\ld take ) ,him4 ,if s1 surely !y mu/ h be5 v sorr[ful1 surely _! he>ts mu/ h be5 s full ( ! p>t+ ) ,him t !y mu/ h lo/ sight1 = a little "t1 ( ! bless+ t p>t+ 0 to br+ to !m1 & ! realisation ( :i* 0 s soon to make !m return1 by t v road1 to ,j]usalem1 ) great joy1 prais+ & bless+ ,god4 ,i nev] enjoy$ any?+ s mu* z t ride to ,be?any2 x 0 v quiet & peaceful1 = ,sir ,william & ,claude 7 "s way 9 front ) ! dragoman1 & ,evelyn1 :o rode next ) ,alice1 0 n mu* incl9$ = conv]sation1 & kept h] laugh+ companion tol]ably /ill1 s t we 7 n int]rupt$ 9 our quiet talk toge!r4 ,!n we came to ,be?any1 a mis]able1 wret*$1 dirty village1 & "h a troop ( squalid ,arabs came out ( _! h\ses to look at u1 & to beg ( u1 & a numb] ( noisy dogs b>k$1 & h[l$1 & jump$ up at our horses' heads1 & we 7 v glad to get z quickly z possible out ( ! n>r[1 fil?y /reet1 & gradually to asc5d ! ea/]n side ( ! ,m\nt ( ,olives4 ,i ?9k ! ,asc5sion mu/ h tak5 place some:]e "h1 said ,mr4 ,/anley2 x w\ld be j f> en\gh away f ! noise ( ! village1 & su* a likely place = !m to come to4 ,a lovely view 0 spread out be=e u2 ! village ( ,be?any lay at our feet1 & !n !re /ret*$ f> away ! great wild]ness ( ,judea1 &1 beyond x1 9 ! f> di/ance1 ! f]tile pla9 ( ! ,jordan1 l a l9e ( silv] runn+ into ! deep blue ,dead ,sea4 ,!n ! view 0 %ut 9 by ! gr& ,moab m\nta9s1 /&+ out l a wall aga9/ ! sky4 ,?is is v f9e6 said ,claude1 z we /ood look+ at x4 ,?is is well wor? com+ to see6 ,x 0 ! same view t ,lot _h gaz$ on2 yet :]e 7 ! cities ( ! pla9 :i* he _h se5 9 _! glory8 ,!n we cross$ ov] ! top ( ! m\nta91 & began to desc5d ! we/]n side1 by ! v pa? :i* ,david took :5 flee+ f ,absalom1 :5 we read1 he climb$ up ! asc5t b>efoot1 & ) 8 head cov]$1 weep+1 z he w5t1 at ! +ratitude & cruelty ( 8 son4 ,we _h a diff]5t view n[1 & yet a v beautiful "o4 ,! city ( ,j]usalem 0 ly+ at our feet1 ne/l+ among/ ! hills4 ',z ! m\nta9s are r\nd ab\t ,j]usalem1 s ! ,"l is r\nd ab\t ,8 p f h5ce=? ev5 = ev]1' said ,mr4 ,/anley to ,evelyn & to me1 z he rode betwe5 u4 ,if we c\ld only rememb] t1 said ,evelyn1 h[ happy x w\ld make u6 ,yes1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 x w\ld inde$2 b is x n a com=t to "k t ,he is r\nd u1 :e!r we rememb] x or n8 ,! m\nta9s d n remove1 ev5 ?\gh ! cl\ds hide !m f our sight4 ,i %all nev] =get ?is ride1 said ,evelyn1 aft] a pause4 ,i am sure ,i %all nev] =get x6 said ,mr4 ,/anley4 ,b ,i ?\ght-- said ,evelyn4 ,:at did y ?9k1 ,miss ,traf=d8 ,i ?\ght t x w\ld n seem q ! same to y z x does to u4 ,i ?\ght y w\ld h become s accu/om$ to x t y w\ld n enjoy x s mu*4 ,oh1 ,i nev] feel 't' ab\t ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 said ,mr4 ,/anley2 o!r places 9 ,j]usalem1 ,i grant1 h some:at lo/ _! sacr$ness 9 my eyes1 b ! ,m\nt ( ,olives always seems holy gr\nd4 ,i ?9k we c nev] =get t ?is 0 ! la/ place our ,"l's feet t\*$ be=e ,he left u1 & t x w be ! v fir/ place !y w t\* :5 ,he comes aga92 = ',8 feet %all /& 9 t day ^u ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 :i* is be=e ,j]usalem on ! ea/4' ,& !n1 he add$1 aft] a pause1 ,i h enjoy$ x specially to-day4 ,claude & ,alice left ,j]usalem ! next morn+1 to cont9ue _! j\rney ?r\gh ,sam>ia & ,galilee2 & we 7 n sorry to be alone :5 we visit$ ! o!r deeply int]e/+ places 9 & ne> ,j]usalem4 ,sight-see+ 9 ,pale/9e is1 9 ?is respect1 p]fectly diff]5t f sight-see+ 9 o!r places2 unless !re is "s communion ( he>t betwe5 y & ^? :o are ) y1 unless !y love ! ,book & ! ,"n :i* make e place ar\nd y s sacr$1 _! rem>ks1 & inde$ ! :ole tone ( _! conv]sation1 _c fail to j> ^u y1 & to be some:at try+ & irksome to y4 ,alt] !y 7 gone1 we ?or\ghly enjoy$ our daily excursions 9 ! city & its neighb\rhood4 ,al?\gh ,mr4 ,/anley 0 comp>atively a /rang]1 /ill we _h le>nt to "k him s well 9 ^? few weeks t he seem$ m l an old & tri$ fri5d6 ,he 0 a wond]ful help to u 9 our exploration ( ! city1 = n only did he "k ,j]usalem well himself1 b he _h1 dur+ 8 long /ay !re1 made _m fri5ds among ! resid5ts 9 ! city1 :o obta9$ = u admittance into sev]al places :i* are clos$ to ord9>y travell]s4 ,"o ( ^!1 a ,g]man g5tleman1 0 mo/ k9d 9 guid+ u to sev]al v int]e/+ spots1 &1 among/ o!rs1 to ,solomon's ,qu>ry4 ,w\ld y l to see ,solomon's ,qu>ry8 said ,mr4 ,/anley to ,sir ,william1 "o day4 ,solomon's ,qu>ry6 repeat$ ,sir ,william4 ,:]e may t be1 pray8 ,x is und]nea? ! city1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 & is a mo/ curi\s & int]e/+ place4 ,my fri5d1 :o w guide u ?r\gh x1 has be5 v active 9 its exploration1 & he has made a spl5did plan ( ! :ole place2 s t he kn[s e in* ( ! way4 ,b is x really ,solomon's ,qu>ry8 said ,sir ,william1 incr$ul\sly4 ,probably s2 = x is evid5t t /one has be5 tak5 out ( x = "s v great build+1 & !n y rememb] :at is told u ( ! build+ ( ,solomon's ,temple3 ',! ,h\se1 :5 x 0 9 build+1 0 built ( /one made ready be=e x 0 br\ght ?i!r3 s t !re 0 nei!r hamm] nor axe nor any tool ( iron he>d 9 ! h\se1 :ile x 0 9 build+4' ,n[ we h only to look at ! /ones :i* /ill rema9 ( ! wall :i* ,solomon built r\nd ! ,temple plat=m1 to see t ! /ones he us$ 7 s enorm\s1 t !y c\ld n h be5 br\ght f any great di/ance4 ,9 ord] to move !m at all1 ! lab\r mu/ h be5 imm5se1 & x has always be5 a my/]y h[ su* huge blocks c\ld be hewn f any rock )9 a %ort di/ance ( ! build+1 s t !y c\ld be easily mov$ to x1 & yet be s f> away t no s\nd ( axe or hamm] %\ld be he>d 9 ! ,temple itself4 ,i see1 said ,sir ,william2 & ! discov]y ( ?is qu>ry expla9s ! my/]y1 = ! /ones c\ld be hewn & f9i%$ und]gr\nd1 & !n br\ght to ! surface1 & put at once 9 _! prop] positions4 ,h[ v int]e/+6 ,b we h a /ill /rong] reason1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 = feel+ sure t ?is is ,solomon's ,qu>ry1 = !re is no o!r place1 9 ! :ole c\ntry r\nd1 :i* %[s signs ( hav+ be5 us$ z a qu>ry1 f :i* /one c\ld h be5 tak5 = any l>ge build+2 & ! /one 9 ^! und]gr\nd qu>ries is1 moreov]1 ! v same k9d ( /one z we f9d 9 ! ,temple build+s4 ,h[ v1 v int]e/+6 said ,sir ,william4 ,:5 c we g !re8 ,i h arrang$ ) my fri5d to meet u at ! ,damascus ,gate to-morr[ morn+1 if t w suit y1 he add$1 turn+ to ,evelyn4 ,we _h no engagem5t = ! next day1 s x 0 settl$ t ,mr4 ,/anley %\ld call = u at elev5 o'clock4 ,b :5 ! morn+ came1 poor ,evelyn 0 n well en\gh to g4 ,%e _h a slight attack ( ! ague fev]1 :i* is s common 9 ,j]usalem1 & ! doctor advis$ h] to keep quiet = a day or two1 le/ %e %\ld h x m sev]ely4 ,i want$ to /ay ) h]1 b %e w\ld n he> ( x1 & insi/$ on my leav+ h] 9 ,clem5ce's c>e4 ,if y don't g1 ,may1 %e said1 ,i %all nev] he> any?+ ab\t x4 ,papa nev] c describe places2 n[ don't be unk9d & disob$i5t1 b put on y\r hat & get ready4 ,s1 r aga9/ my w1 ,i set =? ) ! o!rs4 ,! g5tleman :o 0 our guide 0 mo/ k9d 9 expla9+ ev]y?+ to u1 & 9 giv+ u mo/ v>i$ & int]e/+ in=mation4 ,h[ 7 ^! qu>ries discov]$8 ,sir ,william ask$4 ,9 a v curi\s way1 he said4 ,n _m ye>s ago !re 0 a lad %oot+ rock-pigeons outside ! nor!rn wall4 ,he _h a dog ) him1 & ! dog sudd5ly disappe>$4 ,he _h se5 x la/ go+ beh9d an olive tree :i* grew at ! bottom ( ! rock on :i* y see ! wall is built4 ,he w5t to look = ! dog1 & f\nd on ! face ( ! rock q a small hole1 s small t he c\ld n get ?r\gh x himself1 ?\gh he he>d 8 dog b>k+ inside4 ,s he came back into ! city = help1 & !n ! hole 0 made bigg]1 & !y discov]$ ?is place4 ,h[ v curi\s6 said ,sir ,william4 ,"h we are1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 "h is ! hole2 n[1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 are y ready to leave ! sun%9e beh9d8 ,we _h br\ght c&les ) u1 & we light$ !m & began sl[ly to desc5d1 cr\*+ = "s di/ance almo/ on our h&s & knees1 = !re 0 n room to /& upright4 ,b aft] we _h gone ?us = a few y>ds1 we f\nd ourselves 9 a l>ge1 rock-hewn cave1 z spaci\s z an imm5se *ur*1 & f ?is po9t1 passage aft] passage w5t 9 diff]5t directions4 ,our guide l$ ! way & we foll[$2 hall aft] hall1 passage aft] passage1 we explor$2 we w5t = ne>ly a mile und]nea? ! /reets ( ,j]usalem4 ,c y picture ! sc5e1 #c1jjj ye>s ago1 said ,mr4 ,/anley to me1 :5 ! place 0 full ( ,solomon's workm58 ,look6 ,"h are ! m>ks ( _! tools 9 ! /one1 z fre% z ev]4 ,& d y see ?is8 he said1 z he po9t$ to a little ni*e 9 ! wall4 ,?is is :]e ! workman put 8 lamp :il/ he 0 at "w2 y see ev5 ! black smoke :i* ! flame left on ! /one above is /ill "h4 ,h[ v wond]ful6 ,i said4 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,/anley1 x is an int]e/+ place6 ,yes1 he said1 smil+1 ,i knew y w\ld l x1 t is :y ,i want$ s mu* to come "h2 x is "o ( my fav\rite places1 & ,i want$ y to see x4 ,x is a great com=t to me1 (t5times1 ?is des]t$ qu>ry4 ,h[ c x be a com=t to y8 ,i ask$4 ,x is su* a wond]ful picture1 he said4 ,a picture ( :at8 ,is n !re a temple be+ built n[8 he said1 g5tly4 ,a f> gr&] & m beautiful "o ?an ,solomon's--! temple 9 ! ,heav5ly ,j]usalem2 y see n[8 ,yes1 ,i answ]$1 ,i ?9k ,i d2 b please tell me2 ,i l to he> y\r ?\ghts ab\t x1 & :y x com=ts y4 ,don't y ?9k ! d>k1 dismal qu>ry is l ?is _w2 x is n a v bright place1 is x8 ,& y & ,i bo? "k :at tr\ble is4 ,h[ did y "k t ,i did1 ,mr4 ,/anley8 ,i knew x by y\r face2 ,i c read faces v well1 he said1 smil+2 b ?\gh we are bo? 9 ! d>k qu>ry n[1 we %all n always h to /ay "h--= ,god1 ! ,ma/] ,build]1 has hewn u f ! rock1 cut u away f old surr\nd+s1 & f ! old nature4 ,we are no long] a "p ( ! old rock1 b by ,god's grace h be5 tak5 out ( x2 d y see8 ,y mean :5 we 7 conv]t$8 ,yes1 & x 0 a h>d wr5* at ! "t1 0 x n8 ,b we c be ?ankful = ! "w ( ! cr[b> n[4 ,b we are /ill 9 ! qu>ry1 ,i said4 ,yes1 & :y8 ,because ! "w is n done1 we are n yet fit = ! ,temple--a r\gh /one w\ld be a disfigurem5t to ,god's beautiful build+--ea* /one mu/ be cut1 & *ipp$1 & fac$1 & squ>$ aft] x is hewn out ( ! rock4 ,our bad temp]s1 & habits1 & unholy ?\ghts mu/ all1 by degrees1 be done away )4 ,x is a "w ( "t & pati5ce2 & x is n always pleasant to feel ! pick & ! *isel at "w on u1 b x is su* a com=t to "k 9 ^: ,h& ! tool is1 & t ,he c make no mi/akes4 ,:at are ! tools8 ,i ask$4 ,don't y ?9k !re are diff]5t tools = diff]5t k9ds ( "w8 he said4 ,look h[ _m tools h be5 us$ "h4 ,!re is ! m>k ( a heavy cr[b>1 :i* has sev]$ ! block f ! side ( ! rock4 ,& look "h at ?is /one :i* has be5 left on ! gr\nd1 y c see ! m>k ( ! pick1 ) :i* ! block 0 br\ght a little into %ape4 ,& "h y c see ! m>ks ( ! f9] tools1 ! *isels1 :i* 7 us$ to give ! necess>y f9i% to ! /ones4 ,& ,god's tools8 ,i said4 ,are j z v>i$1 are !y n8 ,a great tr\ble comes--a heavy bl[ l ! great cr[b>1 & sep>ates u f ! _w4 ,b1 aft] t1 day by day1 & h\r by h\r1 ,god mu/ "w ^u u ) ,8 f9] tools--small vexations1 little crosses1 little losses1 home tr\bles2 all ^!1 ,i ?9k1 are ,god's tools1 mak+ u ready = a place 9 ! ,temple4 ,don't y ?9k x is a wond]ful com=t to look ^u worries & c>es z ,god's tools8 ,yes1 ,i said1 t is a nice ?\ght4 ,& soon1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 ! "w w be f9i%$1 & !n we %all leave ! d>k qu>ry beh9d = ev]1 & be c>ri$ to our place 9 ! sun%9e & light ( ! glori\s ,temple above4 ,s1 y see1 ,i 0 n wrong 9 say+ t ?is des]t$ qu>ry 0 a com=t+ place2 y w ?9k ( x sometimes1 w y n8 ,inde$ ,i %all1 ,i said4 ,& next "t a tr\ble comes :i* y _c und]/&1 & :i* seems s v h>d to be>1 j say to y\rself1 ',x is ,god's *isel at "w ^u me4' ,i _h mu* to tell ,evelyn :5 ,i came back to ! hotel1 & mu*1 v mu*1 to treasure up 9 my own he>t = use 9 days to come4 ,mr4 ,/anley got = me a piece ( /one f ! walls ( ! qu>ry1 ) ! m>ks ( ! *isel ^u x1 & ,i put x c>efully away1 ) my spray ( olive-leaves4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,a ,,my/]y4 ,illu/ration ,,! next morn+ ,evelyn 0 mu* bett]4 ,! fev] _h pass$ away1 b %e felt tir$ & exhau/$1 s %e decid$ to keep quietly 9 h] room until lun* "t1 z %e 0 v anxi\s to jo9 u 9 an exp$ition :i* ,mr4 ,/anley _h plann$ = t ev5+4 ,we 7 to visit an old tomb1 :i* _h j be5 discov]$ on ! road to ,be?lehem1 & 9 :i* ,mr4 ,/anley's ,g]man fri5d1 ,mr4 ,s*w>z1 took a great int]e/4 ,mr4 ,s*w>z w\ld n be able to guide u !re himself1 z he 0 go+ away f ,j]usalem = "s weeks on bus9ess2 b he v k9dly promis$ t 8 daught] w\ld %[ u ! way to ! tomb1 z ,mr4 ,/anley _h nev] be5 !re be=e4 ,evelyn 0 mo/ anxi\s to g ) u1 s we arrang$ to />t :5 ! day began to gr[ cool]1 = ,mr4 ,s*w>z said t1 z x 0 n a long ride1 we c\ld easily be back be=e sunset4 ,i 0 up v e>ly t morn+1 & leav+ ,evelyn 9 b$1 ,i w5t d[n/airs to write an acc\nt ( our visit to ,solomon's ,qu>ry 9 a lett] to my si/] ,maggie4 ,h] aunts took great int]e/ 9 he>+ ( all ! places ,i 0 visit+1 al?\gh !y /ill pr$ict$ t ,i %\ld n come back alive4 ,i 0 busy ) my lett]1 sitt+ at a little table 9 ! w9d[ ( our sitt+-room1 wait+ till ,sir ,william %\ld come d[n/airs = breakfa/1 :5 ! door op5$ & ,mr4 ,/anley came 94 ,oh1 h[ lovely6 ,i exclaim$1 z soon z ,i turn$ r\nd4 ,he _h a pretty little basket 9 8 h&1 fill$ ) maid5-hair f]ns1 sc>let anemones1 & cyclam54 ,oh1 h[ v beautiful1 ,mr4 ,/anley2 :]e did y get !m8 ,i h be5 = an e>ly walk 9 ! ,valley ( ,h9nom1 & climb+ ab\t on ! hills on ei!r side4 ,i am s glad y l !m2 ,i ?\ght y w\ld4 ,!y are v lovely6 ,i said4 ,evelyn w be *>m$1 %e is s fond ( fl[]s2 ,i w put !m 9 wat]1 & take !m up/airs to h]4 ,%e is bett] to-day1 ,mr4 ,/anley4 ,i am glad ( t1 he said2 ! fev] soon passes away if c>e is tak54 ,b ,i ga!r$ ^! fl[]s = y--if y w h !m4 ,?ank y1 v mu* inde$1 ,i said2 ,i did n "k !y 7 = me2 x 0 v good ( y4 ,i am s glad y l !m1 he said2 ,i c\ld see y 7 fond ( fl[]s ! o!r day on ! ,m\nt ( ,olives4 ,i mu/ be go+ n[2 w y tell ,sir ,william ,i w meet y at ! ,jaffa ,gate1 at f\r o'clock8 ,!re are sev]al p ,i mu/ see to-day ab\t v>i\s ?+s1 s ,i am afraid ,i mu/ leave y all to y\r own devices until ev5+4 ,good-bye1 take c>e ( y\rself2 ,i don't want y to h fev]4 ,he 0 half-way to ! door :5 he turn$ back aga94 ,!re is a little piece ( pap] "h1 9 ! middle ( ! fl[]s1 he said2 t is = y1 = no "o else1 rememb]4 ,! v]ses are only writt5 9 p5cil2 ,i don't "k :e!r y w be able to make !m out4 ,!y are only ab\t ! fl[]s1 he add$1 smil+2 y w n be angry1 w y8 ,oh no1 ,i said2 & he 0 gone4 ,i put ! pap]1 :i* ,i f\nd among ! f]ns1 9 my pocket1 = a m9ute aft]w>ds ,sir ,william ent]$ ! room4 ,i gave him ,mr4 ,/anley's message1 & he admir$ ! fl[]s1 & rang ! bell = wat] t ,i might arrange !m be=e !y )]$4 ,i did n tell him t !y 7 = me4 ,aft] breakfa/ ,sir ,william ask$ me to read al\d to him ! lead+ articles 9 a copy ( ! ,times :i* _h arriv$ by ! mail t morn+1 & s x 0 "s "t be=e ,i c\ld f9d an opportunity to look at my pap]4 ,i op5$ x at la/1 z soon z ,i 0 alone1 & read x m ?an once3 ,,! ,,fl[]s' ,,message4 ,we grew ^u ! v hills ,:]e ,jesus us$ to /&2 ,we blossom$ on ! lonely pa?s ,( ,god's once ,holy ,l&4 ,!re is a city ne> our home-- ,a sad & ru9$ place-- ,= ^? :o liv$ )9 h] walls ,let slip ! day ( grace6 ,yet beautiful 9 all ! e>? ,m\nt ,zion us$ to be-- ,! city ( ! ,heav5ly ,k+1 ,& ,israel's glory %e6 ,n[1 fill$ ) mis]y & s91 ,defil$ by guilt & %ame1 ,& trampl$ "u foot by ^? ,( e cre$ & "n4 ,oh pray1 !n1 = ,j]usalem1 ,! city ( our bir?2 ,oh %$ a te> = h] :o 0 ,! joy ( all ! e>?4 ,! anci5t promise holde? good1 ,x ha? n be5 rev]s$-- ,bless$ is he :o blesse? !e1 ,& he :o hates is curs$4 ,s we f ! ,judean hills1 ,?is simple message br+-- ,oh pray = poor ,j]usalem1 ,! city ( ! ,k+4 ,= ,m4 ,l41 f h] fri5d ,,h[>d ,,/anley4 ,i look$ =w>d v mu* to t ev5+ ride1 & f\r o'clock seem$ z if x w\ld nev] come4 ,at la/ ! horses arriv$1 & ,sir ,william1 ,evelyn1 & ,i m\nt$ & rode to ! ,jaffa ,gate4 ,mr4 ,/anley _h n come1 b ,miss ,s*w>z 0 !re wait+ = u4 ,we _h be5 introduc$ to h] ! day be=e1 s %e came at once & spoke to u1 & we rode up & d[n toge!r1 look+ f "t to "t at ! gate to see if ,mr4 ,/anley 7 com+4 ,x is v extraord9>y1 said ,sir ,william1 t he %\ld be late6 ,we h always f\nd him su* a v punctual man4 ,are y sure he said f\r o'clock1 ,miss ,l9dsay8 ,oh yes1 ,i said1 q sure4 ',f\r o'clock at ! ,jaffa ,gate1' t 0 :at he said4 ,yes1 he told me to be "h at f\r o'clock1 said ,miss ,s*w>z2 he w come 9 a few m9utes1 ,i %\ld ?9k2 %all we ride t[>ds '! big tree1' z we always call x8 ,x is n really a v l>ge tree2 b y see we h no trees t des]ve ! "n 9 ,j]usalem1 s x looks v big to u4 ,x is only a little way1 & ,mr4 ,/anley w see u !re1 & we %all get "s %ade4 ,v well1 said ,sir ,william2 y _h bett] g !re2 ,i want y to keep out ( ! sun z mu* z possible1 ,evelyn1 & ,i w wait at ?is corn] & cat* ,mr4 ,/anley z he comes ?r\gh ! gate4 ,s we rode d[n to ! big tree1 & ,miss ,s*w>z told u h[ %e us$ to come & play !re ) h] little fri5ds :5 %e 0 a *ild1 & h[ beautiful & gre5 %e ?\ght x till %e _h be5 to ,g]many1 & _h se5 ! trees 9 ,europe4 ,we f\nd ,miss ,s*w>z a v pleasant companion1 & ! fir/ few m9utes pass$ away q happily2 b1 z "t w5t on1 we began to wond] v mu* :y ,mr4 ,/anley did n appe>4 ,aft] ab\t half an h\r ,sir ,william came sl[ly d[n ! road to meet u4 ,i _c see him1 he said2 x is v /range6 ,he mu/ h =gott5 x6 ,i ?9k ,i w g z f> z ! ,lat9 ,conv5t1 & inquire = him4 ,i d n ?9k he w\ld =get x1 ,i said4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 said ,sir ,william1 "y m5 (t5 h %ort memories1 & y said he 0 go+ to visit v>i\s fri5ds ?is morn+4 ,i w j g & inquire = him4 ,w y ride up & d[n till ,i come back8 ,i %all n be long4 ,x 01 h[ev]1 "s "t be=e ,sir ,william reappe>$ at ! ,jaffa ,gate1 & !n he 0 alone2 ,mr4 ,/anley 0 n ) him4 ,well1 papa1 said4 ,evelyn1 did y f9d our runaway dragoman8 ,sir ,william look$ grave & p]plex$4 ,my he>t beat v fa/1 = ,i felt sure t some?+ 0 ! matt]4 ,i c't make x out1 he said2 he has gone to ,jaffa6 ,gone to ,jaffa6 we all exclaim$ toge!r4 ,yes1 he said1 ! port] tells me1 he took a horse e>ly ?is morn+2 x mu/ h be5 soon aft] y saw him1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 ab\t t5 o'clock ! man said1 & he w5t d[n to ,jaffa4 ,! port] ?9ks he 0 go+ back to ,engl&4 ,i c't und]/& x2 x is v /range6 ,:at c be ! matt]8 ,evelyn said4 ,i _c imag9e1 said ,sir ,william2 ,i ?9k he might h let u "k4 ,! port] said he did n ev5 take 8 luggage1 b left x to be s5t aft] him by ! next /eam]4 ,x seems !re is a /eam] t leaves ,jaffa = ,alex&ria to-night1 & ,i suppose he want$ to cat* t4 ,did n ! man "k :y he left 9 su* a hurry8 ,evelyn ask$4 ,no1 he did n seem to "k4 ,i ask$ him if a telegram _h arriv$ = ,mr4 ,/anley1 & he said he did n ?9k s1 he _h n tak5 "o 92 b ! man talk$ su* extraord9>y ,fr5* t ,i c\ld n und]/& him v well4 ,i wond] ,/anley did n let u "k he 0 go+2 x 0 v ?\ghtless ( him4 ,p]haps he w write f ,jaffa1 ,evelyn sugge/$4 ,well1 ,i hope s1 said ,sir ,william2 b ,i ?9k he might h let u kn[n be=e ?is aft]noon1 & n h kept u wait+ "h 9 ! sun4 ,i gave him cr$it = m ?\ghtfulness4 ,x is a v /range ?+2 ,i d n l x at all4 ,well1 :at are we to d8 ,miss ,s*w>z1 we ought n to keep y /&+ "h2 w x be too late to g to ! tomb8 ,oh no1 %e said1 n at all2 x is q a %ort ride1 we %all be back long be=e sunset4 ,%all we g at once8 ,yes1 ,i ?9k1 p]haps1 we _h bett] g1 said ,sir ,william1 ) "s hesitation4 ,y c talk ,arabic1 ,i suppose1 ,miss ,s*w>z1 9 case we ne$ an int]pret]8 ,oh yes1 %e said1 laugh+1 z well z an ,arab4 ,i c\ld talk ,arabic be=e ,i c\ld talk ,g]man4 ,s we set (f = ! tomb4 ,b we 7 none ( u 9 v good spirits4 ,sir ,william 0 compla9+ all ! way ( ,mr4 ,/anley's bad behavi\r to u1 & ,evelyn 0 def5d+ him to ! be/ ( h] p[]1 & assur+ h] fa!r t !re 0 c]ta9 to be a lett] f ,jaffa4 ,i am afraid t ,miss ,s*w>z mu/ h ?\ght u v dull & un9t]e/+ p4 ,%e 0 an exce$+ly nice girl1 j my own age1 &1 at any o!r "t1 ,i %\ld s mu* h enjoy$ my ride ) h]4 ,b t aft]noon ,i c\ld n tell :at 0 ! matt] ) me1 b x 0 an ef=t to talk4 ,i r\s$ myself1 once or twice1 to take an int]e/ 9 ! places & ! p t we 7 pass+ on ! gre5 ,be?lehem pla92 b ,i f\nd x v difficult1 my ?\ghts seem$ to be f> away4 ,i 0 a%am$ ( myself1 & /ruggl$ aga9/ x1 & ask$ ,miss ,s*w>z _m que/ions ab\t ! place to :i* we 7 go+1 & %e took great pa9s to expla9 ev]y?+ to u1 & to make our ride pleasant & int]e/+ to u4 ,i hope %e did n ?9k u ungrateful4 ,we w5t = "s di/ance along ! road to ,be?lehem1 & !n we turn$ up among/ ! m\nta9s4 ,x 0 a v wild1 r\gh road1 inde$ aft] a "t we _h no road at all1 b _h to cross ov] pl\gh$ fields & ! %+le-cov]$ hillsides4 ,! view 0 spl5did2 a valley 0 b5ea? u1 q surr\nd$ by hills1 on ! sides ( :i* we c\ld see ! rema9s ( _m ( ! anci5t t]races4 ,x mu/1 inde$1 h be5 a lovely place :5 x 0 plant$ ) trees2 b ! b>e1 s&y heights 7 v tir+ to ! eye1 & _h x n be5 = a few pat*es ( gre51 & ! sc>let anemones & yell[ ,be?lehem />s :i* 7 peep+ up betwe5 ! /ones1 ! hillsides w\ld h be5 v un9t]e/+ & monoton\s4 ,9 ! di/ance we c\ld see ! blue wat]s ( ! ,dead ,sea1 & ! :ite lime/one m\nta9s ( ,qu>antania4 ,at la/ we rea*$ a place :]e !re 7 _m ru9s1 ! rema9s ( an anci5t village2 !re 7 sev]al old wells1 & /ones ) crosses c>v$ ^u !m1 :i* %[$ t !y dat$ back to ! times ( ! ,crusad]s4 ,we pass$ ?r\gh ^! ru9s1 & ,miss ,s*w>z took u to ! side ( ! hill1 :]e ! newly-discov]$ tomb 0 to be f\nd4 ,x seems t ! ,arabs1 liv+ 9 a village ne>1 7 pl\gh+ on ! hillside1 & "o ( !m mov$ a l>ge /one out ( ! way ( 8 pl\gh4 ,to 8 a/oni%m5t he saw t ! /one _h cov]$ a deep1 d>k hole2 he w5t d[n into ?is hole & f\nd himself 9 a /one *amb]1 ! masonry ( :i* 0 q p]fect4 ,ano!r entrance _h be5 aft]w>ds made into ! tomb1 & ?r\gh ?is ,miss ,s*w>z l$ u4 ,%e told u t h] fa!r ?9ks x 0 a bury+-place = ,*ri/ians 9 ! fif? or six? c5tury1 s x is n v old comp>$ ) mo/ ( ! places 9 ,j]usalem1 b x is mo/ curi\s & int]e/+4 ,!re are five /one /eps lead+ d[n to ! door ( ! tomb1 & ! door itself is made ( "o block ( /one1 & is /ill on its h+es1 & moves backw>ds & =w>ds mo/ easily4 ,all r\nd ! *amb] 7 places cut out ( ! /one = ! c(f9s to lie 9--!re 7 twelve ( ^! 9 ! pr9cipal room1 b two o!r small] *amb]s1 lead+ out ( ! fir/ "o1 conta9$ m graves2 ^!1 h[ev]1 _h n be5 fully op5$ out :5 we 7 !re4 ,a l>ge /one 0 at ! m\? ( ea* grave :5 x 0 discov]$1 & ! ,arabs _h torn ^! away ) ! greate/ ha/e1 hop+ to f9d "s treasure buri$ ) ! dead4 ,b ?\gh !y op5$ e grave1 !y f\nd inside no?+ b du/4 ,we 7 j peep+ into "o ( ! fur!r *amb]s1 & try+ to c\nt ! numb] ( graves 9 x1 :5 we he>d a great noise outside--%\t+1 & yell+1 & jabb]+1 &1 to our great al>m & dismay1 a numb] ( ,arabs ru%$ into ! tomb1 %ak+ _! fi/s at u1 & scream+ at ! top ( _! voices4 ,sir ,william 0 v mu* agitat$ & fright5$1 = x 0 a wild & lonely place1 f> out ( ! rea* ( any ,european build+ or any public road4 ,we scrambl$ out z quickly z we c\ld1 foll[$ closely by ! ,arabs4 ,miss ,s*w>z 0 h>angu+ !m 9 ,arabic1 b z we c\ld n und]/& ei!r :at !y 7 say+ to h] or %e 0 say+ to !m1 we 7 v mu* al>m$ inde$1 & felt sure t !y int5d$ to rob u1 or ev5 to murd] u4 ,:5 we came out ( ! tomb we 7 /ill m t]rifi$1 = we saw t "s ( ! ,arabs _h seiz$ our horses1 :i* we _h ti$ to a tree ne>1 & 7 prep>+ to lead !m away4 ,oh de>1 ,i wi% we _h nev] come6 said ,sir ,william4 ,:at %all we d8 ,if ,i c\ld only talk to ^! fell[s6 ,don't be fright5$1 ,evelyn d>l+4 ,:at d !y want1 ,miss ,s*w>z8 ,:at d y ?9k _h bett] be done8 ,i ?9k !y only want money1 %e said1 turn+ away f ! ,arabs1 :o 7 %ak+ _! fi/s at h] mo/ fi]cely4 ,i w see :at c be done4 ,!y say we h insult$ ! %eik ( ! village by ent]+ ! tomb )\t leave1 & ( c\rse !y ?reat5 all sorts ( dreadful ?+s4 ,b ,i w manage !m2 don't be al>m$6 ,h y any money ) y1 ,sir ,william8 ,yes1 a little1 he said1 n v mu*4 ,h[ mu* w !y want8 ,oh1 !y %all n h v mu*1 %e said4 ,h y a mej$ie8 ,x is a l>ge ,turki% co9--l>g] ?an half a cr[n2 x is wor? ab\t ?ree & sixp5ce4 ,yes1 ,i ?9k ,i h1 he said2 ,i w look4 ,no1 n n[1 please1 %e said2 wait a m9ute or two4 ,s %e _h ano!r long conv]sation ) ! ,arabs1 & !n1 to our a/oni%m5t1 !y br\ght up our horses1 & help$ u to m\nt 9 ! mo/ gallant mann]4 ,!n1 :5 we 7 q ready to />t1 ,miss ,s*w>z turn$ to ,sir ,william4 ,!y may h ! mej$ie n[1 %e said2 if y w give x to me1 ,i w h& x to ! %eik1 & he w divide x among/ !m4 ,= !y 7 all hold+ out _! h&s gre$ily to ,sir ,william to receive ! co94 ,n[ x is all "r1 %e said2 let u ride on quickly4 ,y are a spl5did dragoman1 ,miss ,s*w>z6 said ,sir ,william4 ,h[ did y manage !m s well8 ,oh1 ,i ?reat5$ !m ) ! ,engli% consul1 & ! ,g]man consul1 & ) ! ,pa*a1 & ) all sorts ( o!r au?orities1 %e said1 laugh+4 ,i knew !y w\ld n d>e to hurt u2 !y w\ld nev] he> ! la/ ( x if !y did4 ,&1 besides1 ! %eik kn[s my fa!r well1 & z soon z ,i m5tion$ 8 "n !y became v civil4 ,i hope y did n m9d giv+ !m ! mej$ie1 ,sir ,william2 b ,i promis$ !m a little rew>d if !y 7 good4 ,oh1 n at all1 he said1 laugh+2 x 0 a *eap way ( gett+ (f6 ,!y w\ld n get mu* ea*1 poor fell[s6 ,oh1 q pl5ty1 said ,miss ,s*w>z2 if !y _h be5 m civil we might h giv5 !m a little m4 ,i hope y 7 n v mu* fright5$1 ,miss ,traf=d4 ,oh1 only a little1 said ,evelyn2 b %e look$ pale & tir$1 & we 7 all v glad to get safely back to ! hotel4 ,evelyn lay on ! s(a 9 ! sitt+-room all ! ev5+1 & ,i sat beside h]1 :il/ ,sir ,william w5t into ! c(fee-room & discuss$ ! adv5tures ( ! day ) a p>ty ( ,engli% travell]s :o _h arriv$ t ev5+ f ,jaffa4 ,my beautiful f]ns & fl[]s look$ )]$ aft] ! heat ( ! day1 s ,i gave !m fre% wat]1 & press$ "o or two ( ! prettie/ 9 blott+-pap]4 ,!n ,i sat d[n beside ,evelyn1 ) my "w 9 my h&1 b ,i did n feel incl9$ to sew4 ,i felt v dull & depress$1 & ,evelyn seem$ s likewise4 ,i said to myself t x 0 only ! reaction aft] ! excitem5t & fright we _h exp]i5c$ t aft]noon1 & yet ,i felt t1 aft] all1 t 0 n ! real reason4 ,0 x because--c\ld x be because--,mr4 ,/anley _h gone away8 ,=1 aft] all1 he 0 only a /rang]2 a pleasant--yes1 a v pleasant--travell+ companion1 :o _h be5 v k9d & useful to u :5 we 7 9 8 company1 b :o w\ld ?9k no m ( u n[ t he _h gone away4 ,l %ips meet+ on ! sea1 we _h gone side by side = a little "t1 b n[ we _h p>t$--probably ne> to meet aga94 ,t 0 all2 x 0 no?+ to be dull or mis]able ab\t4 ,& ,i 0 q angry ) myself = hav+ giv5 way to ! feel+ ( depression :i* _h crept ov] me4 ,i tri$ to ?9k ( my "w1 ( ,maggie1 ( our enc\nt] ) ! ,arabs 9 ! tomb1 ( any?+ b ( ,mr4 ,/anley's my/]i\s disappe>ance6 ,b1 someh[ or o!r1 ,i c\ld n tell :y1 my ?\ghts w\ld come back to x1 9 spite ( all my ef=ts to turn !m to o!r subjects4 ,i c\ld n help wond]+ :e!r ,evelyn 0 ?9k+ ( ! same ?+4 ,:y 0 %e s quiet ?is ev5+8 ,c\ld x be t %e miss$ ,mr4 ,/anley8 ,0 ,i "r 9 fancy+ t 0 ! reason8 ,did %e really c>e = him m ?an = an ord9>y acqua9tance8 ,i look$ up at h]1 & f\nd %e 0 wat*+ me1 ) a curi\s expression on h] face--half amus$1 half inquir+4 ,i r res5t$ x1 ,i am afraid1 & look$ d[n aga9 quickly1 & w5t on /eadily ) my "w4 ,x w all come "r1 ,may1 de>1 %e said1 aft] a pause4 ,:at w come "r1 ,evelyn8 ,i ask$4 ,:at d y mean8 ,i mean ab\t ,mr4 ,/anley's my/]i\s disappe>ance1 %e said1 smil+2 ,i am sure we %all get a solution ( ! my/]y 9 a day or two4 ,oh yes1 ,i said1 c>elessly2 we %all h to f9d ano!r dragoman2 t is ! only drawback4 ,! only drawback6 %e repeat$4 ,y don't ?9k s1 ,i said4 ,y don't ?9k s ei!r1 ,may1 %e said2 ,i "k y don't4 ,well1 p]haps n1 ,i said4 ,h[ close x is to-night1 ,evelyn6 ,w\ld y m9d me tak+ a little walk on ! v]&ah outside ! w9d[--to get cool be=e b$-"t8 ,oh1 n at all1 %e said1 smil+2 g1 ,may1 de>1 x w d y good4 ,s ,i left my "w & w5t outside ! w9d[4 ,x 0 a quiet1 />light night1 & ! />s 9 ! ,ea/ are wond]fully brilliant & beautiful4 ,i walk$ up & d[n = "s "t1 n exactly ?9k+1 n exactly pray+1 b ) my he>t lift$ upw>ds1 above ?is *ang+ _w1 to ! un*ang+ ,fri5d above4 ,& an answ] came to t upw>d appeal4 ,x came 9 ! recollection ( "s words ,i _h he>d a few days be=e3 ',next "t a tr\ble comes :i* y _c und]/&1 & :i* seems s v h>d to be>1 j say to y\rself x is ,god's *isel at "w ^u me--y w f9d x su* a help4' ,& x 0 a help to me2 ! v help t ,i ne$$--,god's *isel at "w ^u me1 !n ,i mu/ n compla92 ,i mu/ n murmur2 ,i mu/ n ev5 wond]2 ,i mu/ j tru/ & wait4 ,look+ up at ! bright />ry sky1 ,i said1 9 ! words ( a fav\rite v]se3 ,he doe? all ?+s well1 ,we say x n[ ) te>s2 ,b we %all s+ x ) ^? we love1 ,?r\gh bright et]nal ye>s4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,,sunday ,,on ,,m\nt ,,zion4 ,illu/ration ,,! next day 0 ,sunday1 & ,i ?9k we 7 all glad ( ?is4 ,sir ,william felt unable to make any plans )\t ,mr4 ,/anley's advice1 b z we _h already be5 sev]al times to ! pretty little ,engli% *ur*1 we _h no difficulty 9 kn[+ h[ to sp5d our "t on ,sunday4 ,! s]vice began at t5 o'clock1 s we 7 up e>ly & />t$ = *ur* directly aft] breakfa/4 ,i felt com=t$ & re/$ dur+ ! s]vice1 & hop$ to got j ! message ,i ne$$ f ! s]mon4 ,i mu/ confess ,i 0 some:at disappo9t$ :5 ! text 0 giv5 out1 = x seem$ to me t no com=t or help c\ld be f\nd 9 x4 ,x 0 a s+ul> text1 & "o ,i _h nev] notic$ be=e4 ,! prea*] 0 a ,g]man by bir?1 b he spoke ,engli% z if x _h be5 8 native language4 ,we 7 told aft]w>ds t he 0 a conv]t$ ,jew1 & ! mission>y to ! ,jews 9 ,j]usalem4 ,! text 0 f ,leviticus xxiii4#dj3 ,ye %all take y ! b\ghs ( goodly trees1 bran*es ( palm trees1 & ! b\ghs ( ?ick trees1 & will[s ( ! brook2 & ye %all rejoice be=e ! ,"l y\r ,god sev5 days4 ,! cl]gyman fir/ answ]$ ! ?\ght :i* ,i _h _h 9 my he>t1 t !re 0 no lesson = me 9 ! text1 by %[+ t all ,god's ^w 0 writt5 = our le>n+1 & t ^! ,jewi% fea/s & c]emonies 7 wond]fully sugge/ive & helpful1 if we look$ into _! real mean+ & significance4 ,! text conta9$ directions = ! ,fea/ ( ,tab]nacles1 ! fea/ ( joy4 ,x came aft] ! ,day ( ,atonem5t1 aft] p>don _h be5 obta9$1 aft] s9 _h be5 put away4 ,fir/ mu/ coma =giv5ess1 !n foll[s joy2 p>don fir/1 rejoic+ aft]w>ds4 ,& 9 ! text1 he said1 we are giv5 f\r conditions "u :i* alone ! joy ( ! ,"l c be ours2 f\r *>act]i/ics ( ! true ,*ri/ian1 :o c alone rejoice be=e 8 ,god4 ,i felt 9 my own he>t1 z he 0 speak+1 h[ little ,i knew ( ! true joy ( ! ,"l4 ,i 0 s easily ca/ d[n by little e>?ly tr\bles & worries1 & ,i s soon lo/ ! happ9ess & peace ( feel+ ! ,"l's pres5ce ) me1 & ! ,"l's smile ^u me4 ,! la/ two days1 = in/ance2 oh1 h[ depress$ & mis]able ,i _h felt6 ,c\ld x be t ,i 0 ov]look+ & neglect+ "o ( ! f\r ?+s pictur$ 9 ! text8 ,!n ! s]mon w5t on to %[ t al?\gh ^! f\r k9ds ( trees meant no?+ to our ,engli% e>s1 !y meant a v great deal to ! m5 to :om ! direction 0 giv51 =1 to !m1 ea* k9d ( tree 0 a ^w-picture ( "s p>ticul> grace4 ,j z we speak ( ! innoc5t daisy1 ! humble lily ( ! valley1 ! mode/ violet2 & j z we take ^! fl[]s z emblems to u ( innoc5ce1 humility1 & mode/y2 & j z we talk ( a butt]fly life1 & e "o kn[s at once :at we mean1--s 9 ! same way1 ! ,jews _h emblematic mean+s = diff]5t trees1 & fl[]s1 & o!r ?+s 9 nature1 & !y und]/ood p]fectly well :at 0 symboliz$ :5 ^! trees or fl[]s 7 m5tion$4 ,! f\r k9ds ( trees 9 ! text _h a v deep & beautiful mean+ = !m4 ,! goodly trees1 or citron trees1 7 _! emblem = a pure & true he>t2 ! palm trees 7 a picture to !m ( uprightness & bold /raight=w>dness4 ,! ?ick trees1 or myrtle trees1 7 _! symbol ( cont5tm5t4 ,! myrtle leaf 0 suppos$ to be 9 ! %ape ( an eye1 & 0 always us$ by !m z ! emblem ( a mode/ & cont5t$ eye4 ,! will[s ( ! brook 7 to !m a picture ( a m\? fill$ ) words ( k9dness & tru?4 ,! leaves ( ! will[ 7 ?\ght to be 9 ! %ape ( a m\?1 & !y 7 mo/ p>ticul> t only ^? will[ trees %\ld be us$ 9 ! ,fea/ ( ,tab]nacles z _h smoo?1 s(t leaves4 ,^? ( a %>p & prickly nature1 & ! edge ( ! leaves ( :i* is r\gh l a saw1 7 nev] all[$ to be ga!r$ or us$ 9 ?is c]emony1 t !y might und]/& !reby1 t 9 ord] to h true joy !y mu/ set a wat* be=e _! m\?1 & only suff] words ( tru? & k9dness to come out ( x4 ,f\r *>act]i/ics !n 7 at once br\ght to _! m9ds1 :5 ! direction 9 ! text 0 giv54 ,! ,israelites und]/ood at once1 t to be able really to rejoice 9 ! ,"l !y mu/ h a he>t pure t[>ds ,god1 !y mu/ be upright z ! palm-tree1 !y mu/ be cont5t$ z ! myrtle1 & !y mu/ h m\?s ev] speak+ words ( k9dness & tru?4 ,& !n he ask$ u to exam9e ourselves by ^! f\r te/s4 ,7 we keep+ ! door ( our he>ts1 gu>d+ x aga9/ all evil ?\ghts1 evil motives1 evil desires8 ,7 we also upright be=e ,god & man1 gr[+ ev] heav5w>d1 ,godw>d8 ,7 we cont5t$ & happy to be j :]e ,god plac$ u1 & to d j ! "w t ,god _h *os5 = u to d8 ,& h[ ab\t our words2 7 we c>eful to be /rictly tru?ful 9 e little matt]8 ,& did we gu>d aga9/ ev] lett+ unk9d or ha/y words come out ( our m\?8 ,if n1 he said1 h[ c\ld we expect to be able to rejoice be=e ! ,"l8 ,i h n "t to write d[n m ( ! s]mon n[1 b ,i felt x v mu*2 x w5t /raight to my he>t1 & made me feel t x 0 my own fault t ,i 0 s seldom 9 a rejoic+ frame ( m9d4 ,oh1 h[ e>ne/ly ,i pray$ t ,i might be m c>eful ov] my he>t1 t ,i might be upright z ! palm1 cont5t$ z ! myrtle1 & t my words might ev] be acceptable 9 ! sight ( my ,"l4 ,a few days aft]w>ds1 z we 7 sitt+ at breakfa/1 ! wait] came into ! room ) a lett]4 ,sir ,william look$ at ! po/m>k4 ,alex&ria6 he said4 ,well1 ,i am glad he has writt5 at la/6 ,is x f ,mr4 ,/anley1 papa8 ask$ ,evelyn4 ,yes1 he said1 ,i %\ld ?9k s2 ,i d n "k any "o else :o is likely to be 9 ,alex&ria6 ,he op5$ ! lett]1 & glanc$ ha/ily at its cont5ts4 ,!n he took up ! envelope1 & look$ at x aga92 !n he turn$ once m to ! fir/ page ( ! lett] & began to read x ?r\gh4 ,evelyn & ,i sat wat*+ him4 ,i tri$ to g on ) my breakfa/1 b ,i felt z if ! food w\ld *oke me1 = ,sir ,william look$ m & m impati5t & annoy$ z he w5t on read+4 ,:5 he _h f9i%$1 he toss$ ! lett] on ! table1 say+ angrily1 ,he is a good-=-no?+ rascal6 ,i look$ up quickly1 & ,evelyn ask$ 9 a trembl+ voice3 ,:o is1 papa--n ,mr4 ,/anley8 ,no1 n ,mr4 ,/anley1 he said2 at lea/ he may be2 ,i d n "k t he is2 b t c\s9 ( y\rs1 ,donald ,traf=d--! lett] is f him4 ,an idle good-=-no?+ rascal1 t is :at he is6 ,& ,i %all tell 8 fa!r s :5 ,i see him6 ,let me h ! lett]1 papa1 said ,evelyn4 ,%e 0 z :ite z a %eet1 & trembl+ ) agitation4 ,well1 don't tr\ble ab\t x1 d>l+1 said ,sir ,william1 9 q a diff]5t tone f t 9 :i* he _h spok5 be=e2 he is n wor? tr\bl+ ab\t2 he really is n4 ,if ,i c\ld only get y to see t4 ,"h1 take ! lett]1 ,i suppose ,i %all h to let y see x2 b don't make y\rself ill aga91 = my sake6 ,evelyn took ! lett] & read x sl[ly ?r\gh4 ,z %e read x a deep crimson flu% came into h] pale face2 b ?is fad$ away & left h] z :ite z dea? :5 %e _h f9i%$ read+4 ,!n %e rose f ! table1 )\t speak+ a ^w1 left ! lett] ly+ beside h] plate1 & w5t out ( ! room4 ,i 0 ris+ to foll[ h] :5 ,sir ,william said3 ,wait a little1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 p]haps %e w get ov] x bett] alone2 if %e has a good cry1 x w d h] good4 ,poor *ild1 :at a pity %e ev] took a fancy to t wor?less fell[6 ,read 8 lett]1 ,miss ,l9dsay1 & tell me :at y ?9k ( x4 ,i took x up1 & read z foll[s3 ,my ,,de> ,,uncle1 ,i h no d\bt y ?9k t ,i am 9 ,port ,said1 ?\gh ,i did contrive to keep out ( y\r way dur+ y\r %ort /ay 9 t delightful place4 ,b ,i am n !re n[1 b h remov$ to a t[n _m miles di/ant1 :i* ,i w n "n1 le/ y %\ld feel x y\r duty to report me 9 ,engl&4 ,i %\ld n h tr\bl$ y ) a lett]1 b t ,i want$ to ask y to l5d me a trifl+ sum to />t me 9 bus9ess 9 ! t[n 9 :i* ,i am n[ liv+4 ,i h _h ! (f] ( a fir/-rate p>tn]%ip1 :i* w enable me soon to become a ri* man1 b x is necess>y t ,i %\ld advance some?+ 9 ! %ape ( capital4 ,my p>tn] asks = #ajj1 b ,i ?9k he w be cont5t ) #ej1 if y are n incl9$ to =w>d me ! l>g] sum4 ,i am sure1 de> uncle1 y w n refuse to grant ?is trifl+ reque/1 :5 ,i tell y t ,i h a wife dep5d+ on me1 & t unless ,i c avail myself ( ?is op5+ 7:i* is really a spl5did "o71 !re is no?+ b />vation be=e u bo?4 ,z ,i am n[ a m>ri$ man1 !re is no *ance ( my aga9 be+ an annoyance to y1 s ,i feel sure y w n d5y me ?is small & la/ fav\r4 ,please address to ',monsieur ,junt1 ,po/ ,(fice1 ,alex&ria4' ,m4 ,junt is my wife's bro!r2 %e is a ,fr5* girl1 & he w call = ! lett]1 & =w>d ! remittance to me4 ,) love to ,evelyn & y\rself1 ,believe me1 de> uncle1 ,y\r affectionate nephew1 ,,donald ,,traf=d4 ,p4,s4--,y w wond] h[ ,i knew y 7 9 ,j]usalem4 ,i met a dragoman ! o!r day :o 0 on bo>d ! same /eam] ) y1 & he he>d t y 7 to sp5d a long "t 9 ,j]usalem4 ,did y ev] he> any?+ l t8 said ,sir ,william1 z ,i fold$ up ! lett]4 ,is n t a piece ( cool imp]t95ce8 ,he does n seem mu* a%am$ ( himself1 ,i c\ld n help say+4 ,a%am$ ( himself6 ,no1 inde$6 ,!re is n a ^w ab\t 8 runn+ (f ) t money4 ,he is an idle1 selfi%1 good-=-no?+ fell[6 ,& he 0 always ! same2 x 0 always a my/]y to me :at ,evelyn c\ld see to l 9 him4 ,poor *ild1 ,i hope x w n make h] ill aga96 ,oh no1 ,i ?9k n1 ,i said2 ,i ?9k %e sees n[ :at 8 real "* is4 ,i hope s1 he said1 anxi\sly2 p]haps if y w5t up/airs y c\ld say a ^w or two to com=t h]4 ,y "k be/--d y ?9k we %\ld leave h] alone or n8 ,i ?9k ,i w j g up/airs & see1 ,i said4 ,to my a/oni%m5t ,i f\nd ,evelyn sitt+ 9 h] room busily at "w1 & look+ q calm & *e]ful4 ,i fanci$ %e _h be5 cry+ a little1 b %e welcom$ me ) a smile1 & ask$ me if ,i _h read ,donald's lett]4 ,i told h] t ,sir ,william _h wi%$ me to d s1 & !n %e ask$ me :at ,i ?\ght ( x4 ,i did n answ] h] directly1 = ,i did n l to say :at ,i really ?\ght4 ,i w tell y :at ,i ?9k ( x1 %e said1 & ,i %all tell papa :5 ,i g d[n/airs4 ,i ?9k x is a %ock+ lett]4 ,i _c ?9k h[ ,donald c\ld ev] write x6 ,b ,may1 %e said1 please don't ?9k ,i am tr\bl+ ab\t x4 ,i _h giv5 up lov+ ,donald "s "t ago1 ev] s9ce ,i f\nd out t he 0 s v diff]5t to :at ,i always ?\ght he 02 b ,i piti$ him dreadfully4 ,i ?\ght he w\ld be s mis]able & wret*$1 & feel s guilty & a%am$ :5 he ?\ght ab\t 8 hav+ tak5 t money4 ,i always pictur$ him wi%+1 oh1 s mu*1 t he _h nev] done x1 & try+ v h>d to save 8 money s t he might be able to pay x back aga94 ,b n[1 ,may1 ,i c d nei!r2 ,i c nei!r love him nor pity him2 he does n des]ve ei!r love or pity1 does he8 ,no1 he does n1 ,i said2 ! only ?+ = :i* we c pity him is = 8 wick$ness4 ,j ?9k ( 8 m>ry+ a ,fr5* girl1 %e said4 ,i wond] if x is ! "o :o wait$ on u 9 ! %op 9 ,port ,said4 ,well1 ,i am glad he wrote t lett]2 x is f> bett] to "k :at he really is4 ,i c't ?9k h[ ,i c\ld be s mu* deceiv$ 9 him4 ,i am afraid ,i _c read p's *>act]s v well4 ,b d n let u talk ab\t him any m to-day1 ,may2 ! tr\ble has q gone1 x has inde$1 b ,i d n l to talk ab\t x2 let u speak ( some?+ else4 ,sir ,william 0 v mu* reliev$ to f9d t ,evelyn 0 9 good spirits1 & t %e took 8 view ( ,donald ,traf=d's conduct4 ,he 0 /ill v mu* ruffl$ & annoy$ by ! lett]1 & 01 9 consequ5ce1 fidgety & impati5t ) ! _w 9 g5]al all day4 ,n lik+ to speak ab\t 8 nephew = fe> ( di/ress+ ,evelyn1 he gave v5t1 in/ead1 to 8 feel+s ab\t ,mr4 ,/anley's disappe>ance4 ,mr4 ,/anley evid5tly did n int5d to write n[1 he said2 x 0 "o ( ! /range/ ?+s he knew1 8 go+ (f 9 t way4 ,x j prov$ :at he _h always he>d1 t x does n d to make fri5ds ) p :om y meet :il/ travell+4 ,x is impossible to tell :at !y are1 & y may be impos$ ^u to any ext5t4 ,oh1 papa1 said ,evelyn1 :at d y mean8 ,surely y d n mean t ,air4 ,/anley impos$ ^u u8 ,well1 ,i don't say t he did1 said ,six ,william2 b ,i say t we don't "k t he did n4 ,y mu/ confess t x 0 a v suspici\s ?+ 8 disappe>+ s sudd5ly1 & nev] giv+ u a h9t z to :]e he 0 go+4 ,i don't l x at all4 ,i long$ to speak1 b ,i felt z if ,i c\ld h>dly tru/ myself to d s1 = ,i might h said m ?an ,i int5d$1 if ,i _h op5$ my lips4 ,s ,i left ! def5ce to ,evelyn1 & %e took x up indignantly4 ,x is really too bad1 papa1 %e said1 to speak ( ,mr4 ,/anley 9 t way6 ,i ?9k he is "o ( ! nice/ & be/ m5 ,i h ev] se54 ,s he seem$ to be1 ,i grant1 said ,sir ,william2 b h[ d we "k :o he is1 or :at he is8 ,we only "k x f :at he told u himself2 & t may be true--,i hope x is--or x may be false4 ,t is :y x is v fooli% ev] to be too fri5dly ) p y meet :5 travell+2 !y may be all !y pr(ess to be1 or !y may n4 ,b ,mr4 ,/anley is a great fri5d ( ,"l ,moreton1 papa1 said ,evelyn2 ,i "k he is4 ,he told me he 0 ! day ,claude & ,alice 7 "h4 ,yes1 ,i "k he told y s1 said ,sir ,william2 ,i nev] he>d ,"l ,moreton m5tion him4 ,w y n write & ask ,"l ,moreton1 papa8 ,x is q wor? :ile1 & !n we %all "k "o way or ! o!r4 ,yes1 p]haps ,i w1 said ,sir ,william2 t w settle ! matt] anyh[2 p]haps ,"l ,moreton may be able to cle> up ! my/]y4 ,! next day 0 ! mail day1 & ,sir ,william gave me 8 lett]s to take to ! man :o 0 go+ to po/ !m4 ,i look$ ?r\gh ! addresses z ,i w5t d[n/airs1 b !re 0 none to ,"l ,moreton3 he _h =gott5 x4 ,we did n mu* enjoy our visit to ,j]usalem aft] ,mr4 ,/anley left u4 ,we _h v cold & *e]less wea!r1 & ! b>e /one floors & cov]$ /ones 7 poor sub/itutes = ! ri*ly-c>pet$ rooms & bright blaz+ fires 9 ,alli/on ,hall4 ,!n dur+ ! cold wea!r x ra9$ incessantly ! :ole day1 & ! ra9 0 f> heavi] ?an we ev] see x 9 ,engl&4 ,we 7 oblig$ to keep indoors 9 ! hotel1 li/5+ to ! s\nd ( ! wat] :i* 0 ru%+ d[n ! sp\ts ( ! h\se into ! ci/]ns1 9 :i* x 0 c>efully pres]v$ = use dur+ ! foll[+ summ]1 & try+ to amuse ourselves z be/ we c\ld ) our "w1 & ! few books to be f\nd 9 ! hotel4 ,sir ,william became v impati5t1 & a great long+ came sudd5ly ov] him to g homew>ds4 ,he 0 tir$ ( =eign travell+1 & =eign places1 & =eign hotels1 he said1 & ,evelyn seem$ s well & /rong1 t he ?\ght !re c\ld be no risk 9 h] return+ to ,engl&4 ,evelyn & ,i ass5t$ cordially to ! proposal1 s x 0 decid$ to leave ,jaffa by ! v next /eam]4 ,we visit$ _m places 9 ,italy & ,g]many1 & sp5t a long "t on ! return j\rney2 = ,sir ,william 0 afraid1 = ,evelyn's sake1 ( arriv+1 9 ,engl& till ! spr+ _h fairly begun4 ,i 0 v mu* int]e/$ 9 a great deal t we saw1 & yet ,i did n enjoy x ne>ly s mu* z ,i _h always imag9$ ,i %\ld enjoy a t\r on ! ,cont95t4 ,i felt unsettl$ & re/less1 & long$ to be back 9 ,engl&4 ,we /ay$ = "s weeks 9 ,london be=e go+ to ,alli/on1 = ,sir ,william _h "s bus9ess t he 0 anxi\s to transact1 be=e return+ home4 ,london 0 bright & gay j !n1 & we enjoy$ our visit to x v mu*4 ,b :at gave me m pleasure ?an any?+ else 0 meet+ ,miss ,irv9e aga94 ,h] home 9 ,london 0 9 ! next /reet to ! "o 9 :i* we 7 /ay+1 & we saw h] e day4 ,we 7 mu* int]e/$ 9 he>+ ( ! "w = ,god t ,miss ,irv9e 0 do+ 9 "o ( ! v poore/ & l[e/ ( ! ,london p>i%es4 ,%e spoke v little ( x h]self1 b we f\nd out by degrees t1 dur+ ! la/ few mon?s1 a mo/ wond]ful "w1 ( :i* %e 0 ! c5tre1 _h be5 go+ on among/ ! poor lo/ p :o are cr[d$ toge!r 9 ! alleys & c\rts ( t "p ( ,london4 ,:il/ we 7 !re1 a tea 0 to be giv5 to ! wom5 :o att5d$ h] mo!rs' meet+4 ,_! husb&s 7 also invit$1 = %e hop$ by ?is means to be able to rea* _m :om x 0 impossible to see or to speak ) 9 any o!r way4 ,miss ,irv9e ask$ u1 ! day be=e ! tea took place1 :e!r we %\ld l to be pres5t4 ,evelyn accept$ h] invitation joyfully1 b ,sir ,william demurr$ a little :5 he he>d ( x4 ,i don't l y\r go+ into ^? l[ p>ts ( ! city1 my de>1 he said to ,evelyn2 9 y\r /ate ( heal? y ought to be c>eful4 ,!re are sure to be p !re j recov]+ f fev] or small-pox1 & x c't be good = y to g ?r\gh ^? dirty1 fil?y1 close /reets4 ,evelyn look$ v mu* disappo9t$4 ,i want s v mu* to see ,lilla's poor p1 papa1 %e said4 ,he 0 go+ to answ] h]1 :5 ,miss ,irv9e said1 ,p]haps if ,evelyn does n come1 y w look 9 = a few m9utes1 ,sir ,william8 ,"l ,moreton is go+ to give !m a little address aft] tea1 & he w\ld l to meet y4 ,sir ,william fell into ! sn>e %e _h laid = him4 ,"l ,moreton6 he exclaim$4 ,h[ did y get him to come8 ,:y1 he is n 9 t[n n[4 ,no1 b he is com+ up = my tea-p>ty1 said ,miss ,irv9e1 laugh+2 he takes a great int]e/ 9 my little mission "w2 inde$1 if x _h n be5 = ,"l ,moreton ,i c\ld n h c>ri$ x on4 ,he supplies ! means1 :il/ ,i try to f9d ! work]s4 ,he hires ! room = me 9 :i* ,i h all my meet+s1 & 9 :i* ! tea w be giv5 to-morr[ night4 ,inde$6 said ,sir ,william4 ,i _h no idea ( t4 ,& y say he is go+ to give y an address8 ,yes1 he has promis$ to say a few words to ! mo!rs2 he has spok5 to !m be=e1 & !y felt x v mu*4 ,he puts ! way ( salvation s simply be=e !m t x seems to g /raight to _! he>ts4 ,well1 ,i really ?9k we mu/ g & he> him4 ,evelyn1 my de>1 ,i don't ?9k x w hurt y if y d n dress too w>mly2 ^? places are always s close4 ,we w drive !re & keep ! w9d[s clos$1 s t ! f\l air ( ! /reets w n come 94 ,:at "t %all we be ready1 ,lilla8 ,all arrangem5ts 7 made1 & ,evelyn & ,i bo? look$ =w>d ) mu* pleasure to ! foll[+ ev5+4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,,! ,,my/]y ,,solv$4 ,illu/ration ,,miss ,,irv9e',s mission-room 0 a bright1 *e]ful place1 & 0 v prettily decorat$ = ! fe/ive occasion4 ,texts cut out 9 r$ & 9 :ite pap]1 & wrea?s ( holly & ivy ornam5t$ ! walls2 & ! long tables1 cov]$ ) :ite clo?s1 7 spread ) a mo/ beautiful repa/1 :i* 0 arrang$ z prettily & ta/efully z if x _h be5 set out = a w$d+ breakfa/4 ,! gue/s _h all arriv$ :5 we w5t 91 & 7 sitt+ at ! tables1 quietly admir+ all ar\nd !m4 ,poor tir$ mo!rs1 _m ( !m ) babies 9 _! arms2 husb&s1 ^: faces bore m>ks ( c>e & toil1 & _m ( :om %[$ pla9ly t dr9k & s9 7 be>+ !m d[n1 & ru9+ _! heal? & _! homes2 *ildr51 ) p9*$ & un*ildlike faces1 7 all ga!r$ r\nd ! pretty tea-tables1 look+ =w>d to a happy ev5+ 9 _! unhappy lives4 ,mo/ ( ! m5 7 9 work+ clo!s1 = !y possess$ no o!r's 9 :i* to come2 b !y _h all made !mselves z clean & tidy z !y c\ld1 & seem$ %yly & quietly happy4 ,!y began to feel m at _! ease :5 a bless+ 0 ask$1 ! tea 0 p\r$ out1 & we all sat d[n toge!r4 ,!n ! tongues began to be busy & _! poor1 c>eworn faces look$ glad & happy4 ,"l ,moreton 0 !re1 work+ busily1 look+ aft] ! wants ( e "o ( ! poor p1 & talk+ pleasantly to !m all ! "t4 ,he 0 a tall man1 ) d>k hair2 & ,i ?\ght him v h&some inde$1 9 spite ( ! slight ca/ 9 8 eye ( :i* ,evelyn _h compla9$ s mu*4 ,b x 0 s v slight t x 0 n at all unpleasant1 & ,i wond]$ t %e _h consid]$ x su* a drawback to 8 face4 ,he came up to u z soon z we ent]$ ! room1 & seem$ v pleas$ to meet ,sir ,william & ,evelyn4 ,b we _h little "t = conv]sation till ! "w ( ! ev5+ 0 ov]4 ,aft] tea came ,"l ,moreton's address4 ,x 0 v simple1 & v mu* to ! po9t1 & ,i c\ld see t ! poor p felt x4 ,he spoke to !m ( ! love ( ,jesus1 & h[ ,he 0 long+ & ye>n+ to save !m2 h[ ,he 0 foll[+ !m l ! %eph]d aft] ! lo/ %eep1 seek+ !m by night1 seek+ !m by day1 seek+ !m 9 sickness1 seek+ !m 9 heal?1 seek+ !m 9 _! s9 & tr\ble & mis]y1 ev] seek+ !m1 ev] long+ = !m to turn r\nd & let ,him f9d !m4 ,& !n ,"l ,moreton begg$ !m to turn r\nd to ,him t v night1 to leave dr9k beh9d1 to leave s9 beh9d1 to leave %ame beh9d1 to turn _! back on ,satan & all 8 ways1 to turn r\nd to ! ,good ,%eph]d1 & to say to ,him1 ,"l ,jesus1 save me4 ,!re 7 v few dry eyes :5 ,"l ,moreton _h f9i%$4 ,he did n %[ 8 n]v\sness at all :5 he 0 speak+4 ,i fanci$ t 8 h& trembl$ a little1 b 8 voice 0 cle> & /eady1 & he spoke s naturally & unaffect$ly t y =got ! man altoge!r1 & became engross$ only ) :at he 0 say+4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 8 quiet1 p]suasive1 plead+ mann] :i* x w\ld require a h>d he>t to )/&4 ,i c\ld see t ,evelyn felt x v mu*1 ?\gh %e made no rem>k ^u x aft]w>ds4 ,:5 ! poor p _h left1 & only ! help]s rema9$ 9 ! room1 we _h m "t = conv]sation4 ,!n1 = ! fir/ "t1 ,i saw t ,"l ,moreton 0 inde$ a v n]v\s man4 ,he 0 s %y & res]v$ :5 he fir/ came up to u1 t ,i c\ld h>dly believe he 0 ! man :o _h spok5 s easily & naturally to ! poor p4 ,b ,sir ,william soon set him at ease1 by tell+ him ( our j\rney to ! ,ea/1 & ( "s ( our adv5tures :il/ we 7 !re4 ,y met a fri5d ( m9e 9 ,j]usalem1 ,i ?9k1 ,"l ,moreton said4 ,oh yes1 y mean ,mr4 ,/anley1 said ,sir ,william1 z if he _h nev] d\bt$1 = a mom5t1 ,mr4 ,/anley's fri5d%ip ) ,"l ,moreton4 ,he prov$ a capital guide to u2 we 7 sorry he _h to leave s abruptly4 ,yes1 poor fell[1 said ,"l ,moreton2 x 0 a v great %ock to him4 ,:at 0 a great %ock to him8 ask$ ,sir ,william4 ,we nev] he>d :y he left ,j]usalem s sudd5ly4 ,oh1 did y n8 said ,"l ,moreton4 ,he told me t he _h writt5 to y1 & ,i ?9k he 0 a little disappo9t$ t he did n get an answ]4 ,x 0 on acc\nt ( 8 fa!r's illness4 ,i s5t him a telegram to tell him h[ dang]\sly ill 8 fa!r 01 & he left ,j]usalem imm$iately he receiv$ x4 ,b he 0 too late2 8 fa!r _h be5 dead "s days :5 he arriv$4 ,poor fell[1 x 0 a t]rible "t = him6 ,i am really v sorry1 said ,sir ,william2 ,i _h no idea t he 0 9 su* tr\ble2 x seem$ /range to u1 z y may imag9e1 8 disappe>+ s sudd5ly1 & )\t any reason1 s f> z we knew4 ,yes1 ( c\rse x w\ld1 said ,"l ,moreton2 he w be v vex$ :5 he f9ds 8 lett] did n rea* y4 ,he is su* a nice fell[2 he is j l a bro!r to me4 ,! ,/anley's place is close to ours1 s we see a great deal ( ea* o!r1 & ( c\rse we %all be m ?an ev] toge!r n[ t ,h[>d has come into ! prop]ty2 = he w be /ill m at home n[4 ,i am v sorry to he> ( 8 fa!r's dea?1 said ,sir ,william aga94 ,yes1 answ]$ ,"l ,moreton2 & y w\ld h felt x v mu* if y _h se5 8 grief :5 he arriv$1 & ,i _h to tell him t 8 fa!r 0 gone2 x 0 v sad4 ,8 "m di$ a few ye>s ago1 & !re 7 no o!r *ildr51 s he & 8 fa!r _h be5 all 9 all to ea* o!r4 ,h[>d 0 v unwill+ to g abroad ?is ye>1 = he fanci$ 8 fa!r 0 fail+ a little2 b ! old man insi/$ on 8 go+1 = ,h[>d _h a sev]e illness j ?is "t la/ ye>1 & ! doctors said he w\ld n be /rong aga9 until he _h _h a complete *ange4 ,x 0 v sad1 0 x n1 t x end$ z x did8 ,poor fell[6 said ,sir ,william4 ,c y give me 8 address8 ,i %\ld l to write to him1 & express my sympa?y1 & expla9 :y ,i did n write be=e4 ,yes1 ,i w give x to y at once1 said ,"l ,moreton1 z he took a leaf f 8 pocket-book1 wrote ! address1 & h&$ x to ,sir ,william4 ,/anley is v busy n[1 ( c\rse1 settl+ 8 affairs1 b 9 a mon?'s "t ,i h p]suad$ him to g ) me = a run 9 ! ,highl&s2 ,i am sure x w d him good4 ,9 ! ,highl&s6 said ,sir ,william4 ,!n y w1 ( c\rse1 come to u on ! way1 bo? ( y4 ,& rememb]1 we %all n be cont5t ) a ?ree day's visit2 y mu/ sp>e u a week or t5 days at lea/4 ,oh1 ?ank y1 said ,"l ,moreton2 t w be v nice6 ,i w write to ,mr4 ,/anley ab\t x to-morr[4 ,j "n y\r own day :5 y\r plans are =m$2 we are expect+ no visitors at pres5t4 ,s x 0 all settl$1 & ,"l ,moreton said good-bye to u1 = he 0 to leave t[n by ! e>ly tra9 ! next day4 ,well1 papa1 said ,evelyn1 z we drove home1 ,mr4 ,/anley 0 n an escap$ convict aft] all4 ,i nev] said he 01 my de>2 ,i always ?\ght him a rem>kably nice fell[2 only1 ( c\rse1 8 sudd5 disappe>ance 0 a little puzzl+ & some:at my/]i\s4 ,if we _h only got 8 lett] x w\ld h be5 all "r6 ,!n ,sir ,william *ang$ ! subject1 by complim5t+ ,miss ,irv9e on ! success ( h] ent]ta9m5t1 & speak+ v highly ( ,"l ,moreton's =cible address4 ,we w5t back to ,alli/on ! foll[+ week1 &1 to my great joy1 ,sir ,william propos$ t ,i %\ld g at once to ! old ,manor ,h\se at ,bran/on to see ,maggie4 ,! aunts 7 delight$ to h me1 s ,i w5t !re ! day aft] ,i _h receiv$ _! lett]4 ,i f\nd ev]y?+ 9 ! h\se & ar\nd x j ! same z :5 ,i _h left x4 ,! same neatness & ord] & punctuality & regul>ity reign$ ev]y:]e1 & ! same k9dly feel+ p]vad$ ! :ole place4 ,my de> little ,maggie 0 on ! plat=m to welcome me1 & ,john & ! com=table horses 7 wait+ = me at ! entrance to ! /ation4 ,! si/]s receiv$ me ) op5 arms1 & ) te>s 9 _! eyes1 & ,miss ,jane return$ ?anks at family pray]s t night1 = ! m>vell\s escapes1 & wond]ful pres]vation 9 ! mid/ ( _m & great dang]s1 :i* _h be5 v\*saf$ to "o ( _! numb]1 dur+ h] resid5ce 9 ! l& ( ! infidel & ! h]etic4 ,i _h mu* to tell1 & !y _h mu* to he>1 & ! =tnight pass$ away all too quickly4 ,dur+ ! second week ,maggie & ,i w5t = a two days' visit to ! ,p>sonage at ,acton4 ,miss ,ri*>ds 0 v anxi\s to see u aga91 & wrote me a v t\*+ lett]1 say+1 t if we w\ld n m9d sp5d+ a quiet day or two ) h] %e w\ld feel x a real k9dness1 & x w\ld be a great *e] & com=t to h]4 ,%e did n ?9k h] "t on e>? w\ld be v long1 %e said2 ! doctor _h told h] t %e might l+] = a few mon?s1 b t %e 0 suff]+ f a compla9t :i* mu/ end 9 dea?4 ,s he says1 my de>1 wrote ! good old lady2 b ,i w\ld r say1 x mu/ end 9 life--life 9 ,8 pres5ce1 :]e alone is fulness ( joy4 ,we f\nd ,miss ,ri*>ds v mu* alt]$1 weak & ill1 & fe>fully ?92 yet /ill able to g ab\t a little1 to look aft] h] h\sekeep+1 & to sit 9 h] easy *air 9 ! g>d51 ) h] "w or h] book4 ,we _h _m quiet1 happy talks toge!r1 & ,i felt x a great privilege to be speak+ to "o :o 01 z x 71 close on ! ?re%old ( heav5 itself4 ,mr4 ,ellis 0 v mu* ag$1 & look$ c>eworn & depress$4 ,he 0 exce$+ly k9d to u2 b he seem$ z if a heavy weight 7 re/+ on him1 :i* he c\ld n %ake (f4 ,:il/ we 7 at ,acton1 ,maggie & ,i w5t & peep$ ?r\gh ! gate ( our old home4 ,x look$ j ! same2 x 0 n alt]$ at all4 ,! rabbits 7 nibbl+ ! grass on ! lawn1 ! /ream 0 trickl+ peacefully along1 & e bu%1 & tree1 & fl[]-b$ look$ j z !y _h done on t memorable day :5 ,i _h sat by my b$room w9d[ ) ,claude's unansw]$ lett] 9 my h&4 ,b ! home 0 no long] ours1 & ev5 z we look$ at x little *ildr5's faces appe>$ at ! w9d[ ( my old room & rem9d$ me ( ?is4 ,i ?\ght ( ,miss ,irv9e's words z ,i turn$ away3 ,:at a com=t t !re is "o home :]e !re w be no p>t+1 & no go+ away4 ,t ev5+1 aft] ,maggie 0 9 b$1 ,miss ,ri*>ds call$ me into h] room1 & spoke to me ab\t ,claude4 ,may1 de>1 y rememb] our la/ talk toge!r be=e y w5t away1 %e said2 y 7 inde$ "r1 & ,i 0 wrong4 ,i w\ld n h y ,claude's wife n[ = ! _w4 ,y _h1 inde$1 a v happy escape4 ,i ?9k ,i told y we met !m 9 ,j]usalem1 ,miss ,ri*>ds4 ,yes1 & !y are /ill abroad1 sp5d+ :at money !y h4 ,x w all be gone soon1 & !n !y w be oblig$ to return home1 & ! cra% w come4 ,:at d y mean1 ,miss ,ri*>ds8 ,i ask$4 ,i ?\ght !y 7 v ri*4 ,s we ?\ght1 my de>1 & s !y ?\ght2 b ,alice's money has prov$ a m]e bubble4 ,h] fa!r has speculat$ a great deal1 & ! :ole ( h] money has gone n[1 e p5ny ( x4 ,!y did n "k t :5 y saw !m 9 ,j]usalem2 x has come out s9ce4 ,& ,claude1 y "k1 has n v mu* money ( 8 own4 ,x w\ld h be5 a nice little sum ye>ly if he _h be5 c>eful4 ,b oh1 ! bills1 any de>6 ,scores ( !m are wait+ = him2 !y s5d a great _m "h to be =w>d$4 ,i believe t is :y he does n come home4 ,b he mu/ come1 "s "t or o!r2 & !n 8 fa!r ?9ks t m ?an ! :ole ( ,claude's capital w be swall[$ up 9 ord] to pay 8 debts4 ,& :at w !y d !n1 my de>8 ,i am v sorry to he> x1 ,i said4 ,yes1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds1 & ?is tr\ble is j cru%+ ! life out ( 8 poor fa!r4 ,i try to com=t him2 & ,i tell him t ,i hope ?is trial w be ! means1 by ,god's bless+1 ( br++ ,claude to ! ,savi\r4 ,b1 ?\gh ,i tell ,mr4 ,ellis s1 my de>1 ,i feel v d\btful ab\t x1 = ,claude has s h>d5$ 8 he>t aga9/ all religion1 & has s %ut 8 eyes & refus$ to believe ! tru?1 t ,i am v mu* afraid !re is n mu* hope = him4 ,i don't tell 8 fa!r s2 b ,i h great fe>s myself t ev5 ?is tr\ble w n br+ him any ne>] to ,god4 ,i 0 afraid 8 views 7 ! same1 ,i said1 :5 ,i met !m 9 ,j]usalem4 ,oh yes1 !y are ev5 m pron\nc$1 said ,miss ,ri*>ds2 & he has made 8 poor little wife almo/ z great a d\bt] z himself4 ,%e is a nice little ?+1 v affectionate & good to me2 & ,i feel = h] t]ribly 9 ?is tr\ble4 ,i am afraid x w make great unhapp9ess betwe5 !m4 ,i q dread _! com+ home4 ,t 0 ! la/ "t ,i ev] saw ,miss ,ri*>ds4 ,%e took a lov+ f>ewell ( me ! next morn+1 & we bo? ( u knew t1 :5 next we met1 x w\ld be 9 ! l& :]e p>t+s are unkn[n4 ,i he>d ( h] dea?1 or r ( h] entrance into life1 only a few weeks aft] our visit to ,acton4 ,maggie's aunts 7 v anxi\s t ,i %\ld sp5d ano!r week ) !m1 be=e go+ back to ,alli/on ,hall2 b ,evelyn _h writt5 to me1 say+ t ,"l ,moreton & ,mr4 ,/anley 7 expect$ on ! v day t ,i _h already fix$ to return1 & %e hop$ t ,i %\ld n fail to appe>1 z %e want$ u all to h a good talk toge!r ab\t ,j]usalem & our adv5tures !re4 ,i told ,maggie & ! aunts t ,i did n l to disappo9t ,evelyn1 b felt t z %e wi%$ x1 ,i ought to g back at once4 ,i did n say any?+ ( my own feel+s 9 ! matt]4 ,i arriv$ at ,alli/on ,hall j z ,evelyn 0 dress+ = d9n]4 ,%e welcom$ me ) great joy1 & told me t ! visitors _h arriv$1 & t ,i mu/ get ready ) all ha/e1 z ! gong w\ld soon s\nd = d9n]4 ,:5 ,i 0 dress$ ,i w5t into ! libr>y1 ?9k+ t ,i 0 late1 & t e "o w\ld h assembl$1 b ,i f\nd no "o !re except ,mr4 ,/anley4 ,i d n "k h[ x 01 b ,i sudd5ly turn$ v %y & n]v\s1 &1 aft] %ak+ h&s ) him1 ,i 0 on ! po9t ( mak+ an excuse ab\t want+ to get my "w1 & by ?is means leav+ ! room1 :5 he began to ask me _m que/ions ab\t ,j]usalem1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to /ay4 ,s ,i 0 put d[n z a suspici\s "*1 he said1 smil+1 :5 ,i disappe>$ s sudd5ly4 ,sir ,william ?\ght x v /range1 ,i said2 & he began to d\bt a little if y 7 :at y said y 74 ,mr4 ,/anley laugh$4 ,& y8 he ask$4 ,oh1 ,i knew x w\ld be all "r4 ,y did n d\bt me !n8 ,no1 n at all1 ,i said4 ,?ank y4 ,!re 0 a pause aft] ?is1 & !n he said gravely1 ,! *isel has be5 v busy s9ce ,i saw y la/4 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i 0 v sorry to he> ( x4 ,we mu/ n be sorry1 he said1 g5tly2 = him x is great ga91 & = me-- ,= y8 ,i ask$1 = he seem$ z if he did n l to g on4 ,= me1 x is a h>d bit ( discipl9e2 ! ,ma/] ,build]'s tools h cut v deep1 b x is all "r4 ,i ought n to be sorry1 ought ,i8 ,i see :at y mean1 ,i said2 b are we n told to be 'sorr[ful1 yet always rejoic+8' ,don't y ?9k x is a com=t t ! two are put toge!r8 ,yes1 he said1 ?\ghtfully1 ,i see2 ,he does n blame u = be+ sorry1 s long z we sorr[ n z o!rs :i* h no hope4 ',sorr[ful1 yet always rejoic+2' ?ank y s mu* = ! ?\ght4 ,i fanci$ t he _h a te> 9 8 eye z he spoke1 b ,i c\ld n be sure1 = a m9ute aft]w>ds ,sir ,william ent]$ ! room1 & !n he seem$ z *e]ful & full ( spirits z he _h always be5 :il/ we 7 travell+ toge!r4 ,s y nev] got my lett]6 he said1 to ,sir ,william4 ,i am v sorry2 b ,i gave x to a dragoman :om ,i knew pretty well1 & :om ,i met at ! ,jaffa ,gate4 ,he 0 n a ,j]usalem dragoman1 b "o :o _h come ) "s p f ,cairo1 & he promis$ me to deliv] x at once4 ,he mu/ ei!r h =gott5 x1 or1 ,arab-l1 he conv5i5tly lo/ x1 b took c>e n to lose ! 'bak%ee%' ,i gave him at ! same "t4 ,well1 x does n signify n[6 ,oh no1 said ,sir ,william1 ( c\rse n2 only t fell[ des]ves to he> ( x aga96 ,b h[ 0 x !y knew no?+ ( y\r telegram at ! ,conv5t8 ,i met ! man 9 ! /reet br++ x1 j aft] ,i left y1 ,miss ,l9dsay4 ,he knew me by sight1 & h&$ x to me at once1 & !n ,i j hurri$ back to ! ,conv5t & told !m ,i mu/ leave t morn+2 b ,i _h nei!r "t nor incl9ation to ent] into p>ticul>s ) !m4 ,:5 ! g5tlem5 came into ! draw+-room aft] d9n]1 ,mr4 ,/anley br\ght out a numb] ( spl5did photographs ( ,j]usalem & its neighb\rhood :i* he _h b\ght 9 ,london1 & _h br\ght ) him to %[ u4 ,sir ,william 0 engross$ = "s "t 9 an int]e/+ debate :i* he _h j f\nd 9 ! ,times newspap]2 b ,evelyn expla9$ ! ,j]usalem photographs to ,"l ,moreton1 & ,mr4 ,/anley sat by me & po9t$ out ! diff]5t places t we _h visit$ toge!r4 ,!re 0 "o beautiful view tak5 f ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 j at ! turn ( ! hill :]e we _h /ood to look d[n ^u ,j]usalem4 ,we look$ at ?is photograph a long "t2 ,i ?\ght x m beautiful ?an any ( ! o!rs4 ,j]usalem /ood out cle> & bright 9 ! sun%9e1 ea* h\se1 ea* mosque1 ea* dome 0 /&+ out be=e u almo/ z di/9ctly z we _h se5 x on t lovely ev5+ :51 l our ,"l & ,ma/]1 we _h beheld ! city & wept ov] x4 ,i %all nev] look at t photograph1 said ,mr4 ,/anley1 )\t ?9k+ ( ^? words3 ',rejoice ) me1 = ,i h f\nd my %eep :i* ,i _h lo/4' ,d y rememb] :o said !m to me !re8 ,yes1 ,i said2 t 0 a v pleasant ride4 ,are ! olive-leaves safe yet8 he ask$1 9 a l[ voice4 ,oh yes1 ,i said2 did y ?9k ,i w\ld lose !m8 ,no1 ,i did n ?9k s2 b ,i want$ y to tell me1 t 0 all4 ,h[ mu* !re 0 to talk ( dur+ ^? few days1 & h[ _m times we said ! words1 ,d y rememb]8 ,i h he>d x said t :5 we use ^? ?ree words x is a pro( t we are talk+ to fri5ds & n to /rang]s4 ,to /rang]s we c nev] say1 ,d y rememb]8 ,b to fri5ds1 to ^? :o h gone side by side ) u along any "p ( ! pa?way ( life1 h[ (t5 we say to !m1 ,d y rememb] ?is8 ,d y rememb] t8 ,& h[ pleasant x is to recall fir/ "o ?+ & !n ano!r 9 ! pa/1 & to talk x ov] toge!r6 ,i ?9k ?is w be "o ( ! pleasures ( heav54 ,we %all (t5 !re1 ,i ?9k1 use ^? ?ree words1 ,d y rememb]8 z we g ov] toge!r 9 memory all ! way t ! ,"l our ,god has l$ u1 & z we recall ! _m pro(s ( ,8 love1 ,8 goodness1 & ,8 wisdom1 t we enjoy$ toge!r on e>?4 ,x 0 ! la/ ev5+ ( ,"l ,moreton's & ,mr4 ,/anley's visit2 ! next day !y 7 to leave u = ! ,nor?4 ,we 7 w&]+ ab\t ! lovely g>d5s ( ,alli/on ,hall1 ga!r+ fre% fl[]s = ,evelyn's sitt+-room1 = ,i w\ld nev] let any "o else arrange ! fl[]s !re4 ,"l ,moreton 0 v anxi\s to see a new & v r>e %rub t ,sir ,william _h _h plant$ at ! o!r side ( ! g>d5s1 & ,evelyn w5t to %[ x to him4 ,mr4 ,/anley & ,i /opp$ beh9d1 = he compla9$ ( feel+ tir$1 & ,i _h n f9i%$ ga!r+ my fl[]s4 ,i am s sorry we are go+ to-morr[1 he said4 ,i did n answ] him1 b b5t ov] ! b$ to ga!r a beautiful :ite lily ( ! valley4 ,b ,i %all n disappe> s sudd5ly & my/]i\sly ?is "t1 he said4 ,no1 t is a com=t1 ,i said1 involunt>ily1 & !n felt v angry ) myself = hav+ said x4 ,:y is x a com=t8 he ask$4 ,0 my leav+ ,j]usalem any tr\ble to y8 ,yes1 ,i said2 ( c\rse ,i 0 sorry4 ,i did n l ,sir ,william to d\bt y4 ,i am v glad y tru/$ me ?r\gh x all1 he said4 ,i 0 ga!r+ "s m lilies1 s ,i did n look up till he spoke aga91 & !n he only ask$ me a "q1 & ,i d n rememb] t ,i ev] answ]$ x3 ,w y tru/ me ?r\gh life1 ,may8 he said4 ,illu/ration ,illu/ration ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,,0 ,i ,,"r8 ,illu/ration ,,we (t5 speak ( le>n+ by contra/2 &1 surely1 "s ( our mo/ =cible lessons1 ^? :i* we nev] =get1 are le>nt 9 ?is way4 ,i _h be5 ab\t ?ree mon?s 9 my new home1 & ,i _h always felt t x 0 ! happie/ place on e>?1 & yet1 al?\gh ,i ?ank$ ,god = giv+ x to me1 e morn+ & ev5+1 :5 ,i said my pray]s1 /ill ,i d n ?9k ,i ev] realis$ h[ happy1 h[ peaceful1 h[ bless$ x 01 until t ,monday night4 ,= ,monday morn+'s po/ _h br\ght me a lett]1 writt5 9 p5cil & almo/ illegible4 ,i did n recognise ! writ+1 & !re=e glanc$ to ! end1 & ,i 0 v mu* surpris$ to see ! signature--,alice ,ellis4 ,yes1 ! lett] 0 f ,claude's wife4 ,x 0 a v %ort "o4 ,i turn$ to ! beg9n+1 & read z foll[s3 ,,my ,,de> ,,mrs4 ,,/anley1 ,i want to ask a great fav\r ( y4 ,w y come & see me1 z soon z y c aft] y get ?is lett]8 ,i want v mu* to speak to y2 !re is some?+ t ,i want to ask y4 ,i am v ill1 s please =give ?is untidy note1 = ,i am writ+ x 9 b$4 ,d come at once1 if y c4 ,please =give me = ask+ y4 ,believe me1 de> ,mrs4 ,/anley1 ,v s9c]ely y\rs1 ,,alice ,,ellis4 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,,sad ,,err&4 ,we d n live v f> f ,london2 x is only ab\t an h\r's j\rney1 s ,i w5t by ! next tra94 ,i wond]$ v mu* :y ,alice _h s5t = me1 & :at %e want$ to ask me4 ,:5 ,i arriv$ 9 ,london ,i took a cab to ! address %e _h giv5 me on ! lett]4 ,! cabman drove = ab\t a mile ?r\gh a dirty & dismal "p ( ! great city1 & !n he /opp$ be=e a high dismal h\se1 9 ! mid/ ( a r[ ( high dismal h\ses1 :i* 0 confront$1 on ! opposite side ( ! /reet1 by ano!r r[ ( h\ses j z high & j z dismal4 ,i dismiss$ ! cabman & rang ! bell4 ,! door 0 op5$ by an untidy s]vant1 ) no cap or coll> on1 b we>+ a v dirty1 ragg$ apron4 ,%e %[$ me into a room ! w9d[s ( :i* look$ out into ! n>r[ /reet1 & ask$ me to sit d[n :il/ %e w5t to tell ! folks up/airs t ,i _h come4 ,! room 0 %abbily furni%$1 & smelt /rongly ( tobacco1 & ! atmosph]e 0 close & /ifl+1 z if ! w9d[s _h n be5 op5$ = a long "t4 ,0 x possible t ,claude & ,alice 7 liv+ "h1 or _h ,i made a mi/ake 9 ! address8 ,i ref]r$ to ! lett] 9 my pocket1 & f\nd ,i 0 correct z to ! "n ( ! /reet & ! numb] ( ! h\se1 &1 c]ta9ly1 ! girl :o _h admitt$ me _h said t ,mrs4 ,ellis liv$ !re4 ,b oh1 h[ =lorn & dre>y ev]y?+ look$6 ,i 0 q glad :5 a slip%od foot/ep 0 he>d on ! /airs1 & a sull5-look+ girl1 ( ab\t f\rte5 ye>s old1 came 91 & ask$ me to come up/airs to missus4 ,%e took me into a b$room at ! v top ( t high h\se1 & !re1 ly+ 9 b$ & look+ fe>fully ill1 ,i f\nd ,claude's wife1 ,alice4 ,%e welcom$ me v w>mly1 & ?ank$ me1 aga9 & aga91 = com+ s soon2 b ,i c\ld h>dly he> :at %e said1 = h] baby1 :o 0 ly+ on ! b$ beside h]1 0 cry+ s l\dly1 & h] e ef=t to pacify him 0 9 va94 ,jane1 y c take baby into ! next room1 %e said to ! girl2 he is s fretful6 ,does n he look ill8 %e add$1 turn+ to me4 ,i took ! *ild 9 my arms2 he 0 dreadfully ?91 & _h a c>eworn1 wa/$ face1 m l t ( an old man ?an ( a baby ?ree mon?s old4 ,poor little fell[6 ,i said4 ,yes1 %e said1 ) a sigh2 ,i almo/ wi% sometimes t he w\ld die4 ,oh1 ,mrs4 ,ellis1 ,i exclaim$2 y don't mean t4 ,yes ,i d1 %e said1 bitt]ly2 ,i _h r t he di$ be=e ,i d4 ,take him into ! next room1 ,jane6 ,! girl took ! *ild f me & w5t away1 leav+ ! door op5 beh9d h]4 ,w\ld y m9d %utt+ ! door8 said ,mrs4 ,ellis4 ,%e always w h x op54 ,& !n ,i c talk to y com=tably2 we %all feel q safe4 ,i h be5 wi%+ to see y = m ?an a week1 %e w5t on2 ev] s9ce ,i knew t ,i 0 s ill4 ,oh1 ,mrs4 ,/anley1 ,i am s utt]ly mis]able4 ,i am v sorry to f9d y s ill1 ,i said4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i am v ill1 & ,i %all nev] be well aga94 ,! doctor says ,i am 9 a rapid decl9e4 ,x is tr\ble :i* has br\ght x on2 y w h he>d :at tr\ble we h _h4 ,miss ,ri*>ds told me some?+ ab\t x1 :5 ,i 0 ) h]1 a few mon?s be=e %e di$1 ,i said4 ,yes1 all my money has gone2 e f>?+ ( x4 ,my fa!r made "s mi/ake ab\t x1 & ! inve/m5ts fail$1 & we lo/ x all4 ,& ,claude is s angry ab\t x2 he says my fa!r has deceiv$ him1 & he is j z vex$ z if x 7 my fault2 he has n seem$ to c>e = me a bit s9ce !n4 ,b ,i did n mean to speak ( t4 ,i don't want to compla94 ,x is natural1 ,i suppose1 t he %\ld be vex$4 ,he ?\ght we 7 ri*1 & we w5t on sp5d+ a quantity ( money1 & !n1 :5 ?is came out1 all ! p s5t 9 _! bills1 & n[ all ,claude's money has gone too4 ,i don't "k :at w become ( u6 ,& y look s ill1 ,i said2 y ought to be tak5 c>e (1 ,mrs4 ,ellis4 ,oh1 %e said1 ,i don't m9d s mu* = myself2 x is poor little baby t makes me s unhappy4 ,he cries s mu*1 & t girl is s v c>eless ) him4 ,old ,mr4 ,ellis is v k9d2 he wants me to g !re1 b ,claude won't he> ( x3 ,i don't "k :y4 ,we c\ld n live at all if x 7 n = ,claude's fa!r2 he is always s5d+ him money4 ,b c\ld y n be mov$ into a m com=table lodg+ ?an ?is8 ,i ask$4 ,i'm afraid n4 ,x is v dirty & untidy2 b y see !y are good 9 "o way1 !y d n hurry u ab\t pay+ !m1 s x seems a pity to move4 ,b ,i did n s5d = y to tell y all our tr\bles1 ,mrs4 ,/anley1 %e said2 ,i want$ y1 if y c\ld1 to help me to get a little com=t4 ,9 :at way8 ,i ask$1 = ,i want$ to he> :at %e w\ld say4 ,d y rememb] a conv]sation we _h toge!r :5 ,i /ay$ at ,alli/on ,hall1 ,mrs4 ,/anley8 ,i told y !n t ,i always tri$ to laugh tr\ble away1 & y said--d y rememb] :at y said8 ,:at 0 x8 ,i ask$4 ,y said t !re 7 "s tr\bles t c\ld n be laugh$ away4 ,^? tr\bles h come to me n[2 ,i c't laugh n[1 ,mrs4 ,/anley4 ,b ,i wond] if y rememb] :at else y said t day2 y told me t y nev] tri$ to laugh tr\bles away1 b y always pray$ !m away4 ,oh1 if ,i c\ld only d t6 ,d y believe 9 pray]1 ,mrs4 ,ellis8 ,i ask$4 ,yes1 ,i d1 %e said1 e>ne/ly2 ,i d n[4 ,i us$ to laugh at x :5 ,claude laugh$ at x1 & ,i us$ to try to ?9k x 0 all nons5se4 ,b ! o!r day ! doctor 0 "h1 & ,i said1-- ',doctor1 please tell me ! tru?2 %all ,i ev] get well aga98' ,& ! doctor said1 ',i am afraid n1 ,mrs4 ,ellis4' ,!n ,i ask$ him h[ long he ?\ght ,i %\ld live1 & he said 'p]haps a mon? or two4' ,& !n he w5t away4 ,i told ,claude :at ! doctor _h said1 b he answ]$3 ',oh1 nons5se1 t doctor is a fool1 don't believe him2 y h no?+ ! matt] ) y2 y w be all "r :5 ! w>m wea!r comes4' ,& !n ,claude w5t out1 & he did n come home till pa/ midnight2 he is always out till q late e night4 ,i d n "k :]e he goes2 he nev] w tell me1 & he is always s tir$ & cross :5 he comes 94 ,well1 t night ,i lay awake ?9k+ ! :ole "t1 & oh1 ,mrs4 ,/anley1 ,i 0 s fright5$4 ,i knew ! doctor 0 "r1 ,i felt t ,i _h n long to live1 & !n ,i ask$ myself1-- ',:]e am ,i go+8' ,i mu/ be go+ some:]e4 ,oh1 ,mrs4 ,/anley1 ,i felt t night1 & ,i feel n[1 t ! ,bible is true2 my own he>t tells me s4 ,i _c d\bt1 n[ t ,i am dy+4 ,i made up my m9d t night t ,i w\ld s5d = y1 b s9ce !n ,i h be5 putt+ x (f4 ,i 0 afraid y w\ld n l to come1 we h se5 s little ( ea* o!r2 b !n1 ye/]day1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld j write & tell y1 = !re is no "o else ,i c ?9k ( :o w\ld be able to help me4 ,i am v glad y h s5t = me1 ,i said1 tak+ h] ?9 h& 9 m9e2 & n[1 :at 0 x y want$ to ask me8 ,i want y to tell me v simply1 %e said1 h[ to be sav$2 tell me :at ,i mu/ d to get rid ( my s9--oh1 ,mrs4 ,/anley1 ,i h be5 s v wick$1 :at mu/ ,i d8 ,i w d any?+ ,i c1 if ,i only "k :at x is4 ,!re is no?+ to d1 ,i said1 no?+ at all2 if y feel y\r s91 & long to get rid ( x1 !re is no?+ to d4 ,no?+ to d6 %e1 said1 incr$ul\sly4 ,oh yes1 ,mrs4 ,/anley1 !re mu/ be some?+ to d6 ,no1 ,i said1 decid$ly1 !re is no?+ to d2 b !re is some?+ to take6 ,some?+ to take6 %e repeat$1 9 some:at ( h] old mann]4 ,i suppose y mean t ,i am to take salvation2 b t is s v indef9ite1 ,mrs4 ,/anley4 ,i "k all ^? set phrases s well2 b !y mean no?+ to me4 ,:at is salvation1 & h[ am ,i to take x8 ,y are q "r1 ,i said1 h no?+ to d ) set phrases2 !y are holl[ & wor?less4 ,y h to deal1 n ) dead words b ) a liv+ ,savi\r1 ,mrs4 ,ellis4 ,x is ! ,"l ,jesus :om ,i want y to take--z y\r own ,savi\r4 ,i want y to take ,him z ! ,"o :o c alone save y f ! guilt & p[] ( y\r s91 & :o c alone give y ! "r to ent] heav54 ,he comes to y1 & ,he says3 ',take ,me1 take ,my love z y\r own2 look ^u ,me z ! ,"o :o has di$ to save y1 & !n y ne$ n fe>4' ,y und]/& h[ x is t ,he is able to save y1 ,mrs4 ,ellis1 t ,he has be5 puni%$ in/ead ( y2 t y\r s9s h be5 laid on ,him1 & t ,he has suff]$ ! p5alty t y\r s9s des]v$6 ,oh yes1 %e said1 ,i "k all t ) my head2 ,i "k x !oretically1 b ,i want to be able to put x into practice4 ,h[ am ,i to be q sure t ,jesus has done t = me2 h[ am ,i to "k t ,he has tak5 my s9 away8 ,because ,god's ,^w tells y s1 ,i said2 & ,i took my ,bible f my pocket & read3 ',he 0 w\nd$ = our transgressions1 ,he 0 bruis$ = our iniquities3 ! *a/isem5t ( our peace 0 ^u ,him2 & ) ,8 /ripes we are heal$4 ,all we l %eep h gone a/ray2 we h turn$ e "o to 8 own way2 & ! ,"l ha? laid on ,him ! iniquity ( u all4' ,!n :at is !re left = me to d8 %e ask$4 ,only to accept ! ,"l ,jesus z y\r ,savi\r1 ,i said4 ,g to ,him & say to ,him1-- ',"l ,jesus1 ,i d ?ank ,!e = be>+ my s9s2 ,i tru/ myself to ,!e to be sav$4 ,i want to be =giv5 ?r\gh ,?y dea?1 & because ,?\ ha/ be5 puni%$ 9 my place4' ,is t all8 %e said4 ,t is all6 ,i answ]$4 ,y _c d m4 ,"o ( my husb&'s t5ants 0 9 great tr\ble a few mon?s ago2 he 0 n at all a ri* man1 & he _h got into "s r s]i\s difficulties ) a neighb\r ( 84 ,my husb& he>d ( x1 & :5 he _h be5 told ! :ole /ory1 he felt t ! man 0 to be piti$4 ,! poor wife came & plead$ ) te>s 9 h] eyes t he w\ld help !m1 s my husb& w5t to ! trial to see :at c\ld be done4 ,! s5t5ce 0 pron\nc$--! man 0 to pay #bj1 or fail+ t1 he 0 to g to prison4 ,! poor man c\ld n h paid ev5 #e1 = he 0 v badly (f1 s he 0 q prep>$ to be l$ (f to prison4 ,b at t mom5t my husb& /epp$ =w>d1 & laid d[n ! #bj4 ,:at 0 left = ! man to d8 ,no?+1 b to come =w>d & to say ) te>s 9 8 eyes1-- ',mr4 ,/anley1 ,i ?ank y k9dly1 sir2 ,i %all nev] =get x z long z ,i live6' ,i see1 %e said2 ,i see x all n[2 & is t j :at ,i h to d8 ,exactly1 ,i said2 y mu/ g to ! ,"l ,jesus & say1-- ',"l1 ,i h no?+ ) :i* to pay4 ,i am a great s9n]1 & owe a great debt1 b ,?\ ha/ paid x all2 ,i look ^u ,!e z my ,savi\r1 & ,i %all nev] =get x z long z ,i live4' ,x is q t\*+ to see t poor man's love = my husb& n[2 he tries 9 e way he c to %[ 8 gratitude4 ,i see1 %e said2 & we love ,him because ,he fir/ lov$ u4 ,oh1 ,mrs4 ,/anley1 ?ank y s mu*6 ,i did n leave ! h\se until ,i _h reason to believe t ,alice _h inde$ tak5 ! ,"l ,jesus z h] own ,savi\r1 nor until %e c\ld tell me ) a smile on h] ?91 wa/$ face1 ,i am n utt]ly mis]able n[1 = ,i h a sure hope = ! future2 ,he has =giv5 me4 ,i did n see ,claude once1 ?\gh ,i 0 ) ,alice = sev]al h\rs4 ,p]haps he purposely kept out ( sight1 &1 ,i mu/ confess1 ,i 0 glad1 "u ! circum/ances1 n to meet him1 = ,i felt v angry ) him = 8 he>tless neglect ( 8 poor little wife4 ,i return$ home by ! ev5+ tra91 & !n came ! contra/4 ,my husb& 0 at ! /ation to meet me1 & we drove back toge!r to our happy home4 ,on ! way ,i told ,h[>d ( my visit to ,alice1 & ( ! conv]sation ,i _h _h ) h]4 ,he 0 v mu* int]e/$ 9 all ,i told him1 & :5 we _h talk$ x ov] = a little "t1 he said3 ,i h a lett] = y 9 my pocket1 ,may1 :i* came by ! ev5+ po/1 & ,i ?9k ,i h be5 v good n to op5 x1 = ,i am mo/ anxi\s to he> ! news conta9$ 9 x4 ,! lett] 0 f ,evelyn ,traf=d4 ,i took x f him & op5$ x4 ,oh1 ,h[>d1 ,i exclaim$1 z ,i glanc$ at ! cont5ts1 ,i am s v glad6 ,yes1 & s am ,i1 he said2 ,i "k :at x is ab\t4 ,!re 0 a lett] = me f ,*>lie by ! same po/4 ,he has be5 /ay+ at ,alli/on ,hall = a week1 & x seems to be q settl$ n[4 ,h[ nice x w be = y to h y\r fri5d ,evelyn s ne>4 ,c>r+ton ,hall is only five miles f u2 y w be able to meet z (t5 z y l4 ,evelyn is s v happy1 ,i said1 z ,i h&$ him ! lett]1 & %e seems to h q =gott5 t %e said %e w\ld nev] m>ry any "o :o squ9t$2 ,i h no d\bt n[ t %e w\ld agree ) me1 t 9 spite ( x1 ,"l ,moreton is a v h&some man4 ,i am v glad x is s nicely arrang$1 said my husb&4 ,m ?an "o good ?+ came out ( our j\rney to ,pale/9e1 little wife6 ,d y rememb] t x 0 my conv]sation ) ,miss ,traf=d ne> ! ,damascus ,gate :i* fir/ made h] look m fav\rably ^u poor ,*>lie--! '/upid1 un9t]e/+ man6' %e call$ him !n4 ,z he said ?is we turn$ 9 at ! gate1 & drove ?r\gh ! %rubb]y to ! h\se4 ,h[ beautiful ev]y?+ look$ t ev5+6 ,! rhodod5drons1 ! lilacs1 & ! laburnums 7 9 bloom1 & ! ev5+ sun%9e 0 /ream+ across ! di/ant hills1 & ca/+ a gold5 light ov] ev]y?+4 ,oh1 :at a contra/1 ,h[>d6 ,i said1 z we /ood toge!r at ! w9d[ t ev5+4 ,a contra/ to :at8 he ask$4 ,a contra/ to ! wret*$ lodg+ ,i h be5 9 to-day4 ,i always felt t m9e 0 ! happie/ home 9 ! _w1 b ,i feel x m ?an ev] to-night4 ,are y really happy1 little wife8 he ask$4 ,happy6 ,oh1 ,h[>d1 ,i answ]$1 :at a "q6 ,y "k1 surely1 y "k h[ v happy ,i am6 ,y are n m happy ?an ,i am1 ,may1 he said2 ,i little ?\ght :5 ,i met y fir/ on ! ro(1 at ,br9disi1 :at bright days 7 9 /ore = me6 ,oh1 ,h[>d1 ,i said1 aft] a pause1 j ?9k if t wret*$ lodg+ t ,i saw to-day _h be5 my home6 ,& x might h be56 ,he knew :at ,i meant1 = ,i _h told him ( ,claude's lett]4 ,yes1 he said1 x might h be51 if y _h n resi/$ ! temptation put be=e y t day1 & ga9$ a victory ov] y\rself4 ,b y are n sorry n[1 ,may1 t y decid$ z y did2 y ?9k y 7 "r1 d y8 ,"r6 ,oh1 ,h[>d1 ,i said1 ,i feel z if ,i c\ld nev] be ?ankful en\gh t ,i *ose z ,i did2 ,god has be5 v good to me6 ,yes1 little wife1 he said1 ! ,"l nev] ov]looks or =gets any self-d5ial = ,8 "n's sake4 ,y *ose ,8 love1 ,8 fav\r1 ,8 smile1 9 pref]5ce to an e>?ly affection2 y *ose to =sake an e>?ly love = ,8 sake1 & ,he did n =get x4 ,i am sure ^? words ( our ,"l's are true1 ,may3 ',!re is no man t ha? left h\se1 or bre?r51 or si/]s1 or fa!r1 or "m1 or wife1 or *ildr51 or l&s' 79 %ort1 any?+ de> to 8 he>t71 = ,my sake1 b he %all receive an hundr$fold 9 ?is pres5t "t2' or1 z ano!r ,gospel has x1 'manifold m 9 ?is pres5t "t4' ,i h inde$ receiv$ ! hundr$fold1 ,h[>d1 ,i said4 ,& !n t is n ! end1 he said1 =1 aft] all1 ! second "p ( ! promise makes ! fir/ "p s9k into insignificance4 ',&1 9 ! _w to come1 life ev]la/+4' ,yes1 ,may1 !re is a bright] home 9 prospect4 ,e>?'s homes1 ! de>e/ & be/1 are only = a "t--,heav5's homes are = an et]nity4 ,i came across a v]se to-day1 :i* ,i ?\ght v beautiful3 ',:at joys are lo/1 :at promises are giv51 ,z ?r\gh ?is dea?-/ruck _w we roam ,a:ile we ?9k t ,home is ,heav51 ,at la/ we f9d t ,,heav5 is ,,home4' ,& we %all be toge!r !re1 ,h[>d1 ,i said1 ) no fe> ( sep>ation4 ,yes1 ?ank ,god6 he answ]$4 ,?is bright little e>?ly home is to u a fa9t =e%ad[+ ( our heav5ly home1 :]e we %all be toge!r ) ! ,"l4 ,yes1 ,i said1 a happy1 e>?ly home n[1 9 ?is pres5t "t1 & a bright]1 m glori\s home await+ me above1 to be m9e ?r\gh\t et]nity4 ,0 ,i n inde$ "r 9 my *oice8 ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------------- ,p>don ,sons1 ,pr9t]s1 ,pat]no/] ,r[1 & ,w9e ,(fice ,c\rt1 ,e4,c4