,ab\t ! onl9e edition4 ,italics h be5 *ang$ to ,,allcaps4 ,footnotes are collect$ at ! end ( ea* *apt]4 ,notes3 ,! 8,cont5ts0 & 8,li/ ( ,illu/rations0 h be5 mov$ be=e ! preface & ackn[l$gem5ts4 ,!re are num]\s ne/$ quotes4 ,illu/rations h be5 includ$ 9 ! zip file4 ,captions & ref]5ces to illu/rations are includ$4 ,! index is n includ$4 ,,gut*eck4exe 0 run sev]al times1 b e footnote numb] gets report$4 ,frontispiece3 ,,p>amhansa ,,yogan&a--see py4jpg ,,autobiography ,,( ,a ,,yogi ,by ,p>amhansa ,yogan&a ,,) ,a ,,preface ,,by ,w4 ,y4 ,evans-,w5tz1 ,m4,a41 ,d4,litt41 ,d4,sc4 8,,except ,,ye ,,see ,,signs ,,& ,,wond]s1 ,,ye ,,w ,,n ,,believe40-,john #d3dh4 ,,d$icat$ ,,to ,,! ,,memory ,,( ,,lu!r ,,burbank ,an ,am]ican ,sa9t ,illu/ration3 ,map ( ,india--see map4gif ,cont5ts ,preface1 ,by ,w4 ,y4 ,,evans-,,w5tz ,li/ ( ,illu/rations ,*apt] #a4 ,my ,p>5ts & ,e>ly ,life #b4 ,"m's ,dea? & ! ,amulet #c4 ,! ,sa9t ) ,two ,bodies 7,swami ,pranaban&a7 #d4 ,my ,int]rupt$ ,flight ,t[>d ! ,himalaya #e4 ,a 8,p]fume ,sa9t0 ,p]=ms 8 ,wond]s #f4 ,! ,tig] ,swami #g4 ,! ,levitat+ ,sa9t 7,nag5dra ,na? ,bhaduri7 #h4 ,india's ,great ,sci5ti/ & ,inv5tor1 ,jagadis ,*&ra ,bose #i4 ,! ,blissful ,devotee & 8 ,cosmic ,romance 7,ma/] ,mahasaya7 #aj4 ,i ,meet my ,ma/]1 ,sri ,yuktesw> #aa4 ,two ,p5niless ,boys 9 ,br9daban #ab4 ,ye>s 9 my ,ma/]'s ,h]mitage #ac4 ,! ,sleepless ,sa9t 7,ram ,gopal ,muzumd>7 #ad4 ,an ,exp]i5ce 9 ,cosmic ,consci\sness #ae4 ,! ,caulifl[] ,robb]y #af4 ,outwitt+ ! ,/>s #ag4 ,sasi & ! ,?ree ,sapphires #ah4 ,a ,mohamm$an ,wond]-,work] 7,afzal ,khan7 #ai4 ,my ,guru ,appe>s ,simultane\sly 9 ,calcutta & ,s]ampore #bj4 ,we ,d ,n ,visit ,ka%mir #ba4 ,we ,visit ,ka%mir #bb4 ,! ,he>t ( a ,/one ,image #bc4 ,my ,univ]sity ,degree #bd4 ,i ,become a ,monk ( ! ,swami ,ord] #be4 ,bro!r ,ananta & ,si/] ,nal9i #bf4 ,! ,sci5ce ( ,kriya ,yoga #bg4 ,f\nd+ ( a ,yoga ,s*ool at ,ran*i #bh4 ,ka%i1 ,reborn & ,r$iscov]$ #bi4 ,rab9drana? ,tagore & ,i ,comp>e ,s*ools #cj4 ,! ,law ( ,miracles #ca4 ,an ,int]view ) ! ,sacr$ ,"m 7,ka%i ,moni ,lahiri7 #cb4 ,rama is ,rais$ f ! ,dead #cc4 ,babaji1 ! ,yogi-,*ri/ ( ,mod]n ,india #cd4 ,mat]ializ+ a ,palace 9 ! ,himalayas #ce4 ,! ,*ri/like ,life ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya #cf4 ,babaji's ,int]e/ 9 ! ,we/ #cg4 ,i ,g to ,am]ica #ch4 ,lu!r ,burbank--,an ,am]ican ,sa9t #ci4 ,!rese ,neumann1 ! ,ca?olic ,/igmati/ ( ,bav>ia #dj4 ,i ,return to ,india #da4 ,an ,idyl 9 ,s\? ,india #db4 ,la/ ,days ) my ,guru #dc4 ,! ,resurrection ( ,sri ,yuktesw> #dd4 ,) ,mahatma ,g&hi at ,w>dha #de4 ,! ,b5gali 8,joy-,p]meat$ ,"m0 7,an&a ,moyi ,ma7 #df4 ,! ,woman ,yogi :o ,nev] ,eats 7,giri ,bala7 #dg4 ,i ,return to ! ,we/ #dh4 ,at ,enc9itas 9 ,cali=nia ,,illu/rations ,frontispiece ,map ( ,india ,my ,fa!r1 ,bhagabati ,*>an ,gho% ,myself at ,age #f ,my ,"m ,swami ,pranaban&a1 8,! ,sa9t ,) ,two ,bodies0 ,my ,eld] ,bro!r1 ,ananta ,my ,si/] ,uma ,nag5dra ,na? ,bhaduri1 8,! ,levitat+ ,sa9t0 ,jagadis ,*&ra ,bose1 ,fam\s ,sci5ti/ ,ma/] ,mahasaya1 ! ,blissful ,devotee ,jit5dra ,mazumd>1 my ,companion on ! 8,p5niless ,te/0 at ,br9daban ,sri ,yuktesw>1 ,my ,ma/] ,my ,guru's ,seaside ,h]mitage at ,puri ,! ,"l 9 ,8 ,aspect z ,%iva ,ran*i ,s*ool1 ,ma9 ,build+ ,ka%i1 ,reborn & ,r$iscov]$ ,rab9drana? ,tagore ,a ,guru & ,disciple 9 an ,anci5t ,h]mitage ,babaji1 ! ,yogi-,*ri/ ( ,mod]n ,india ,himalayan ,cave ,occupi$ by ,babaji ,lahiri ,mahasaya ,gr\p ( ,delegates to ! ,int]national ,congress ( ,religi\s ,lib]als1 ,bo/on1 #aibj ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip1 ,los ,angeles ,headqu>t]s ,a ,yoga ,class 9 ,wa%+ton1 ,d4,c4 ,lu!r ,burbank ,!rese ,neumann ( ,konn]sreu?1 ,bav>ia ,two ,bro!rs ( ,!rese ,neumann1 at ,konn]sreu? ,miss ,blet*1 ,mr4 ,wright1 & myself--9 ,egypt ,bi%nu1 ,motilal ,mukh]ji1 my ,fa!r1 ,mr4 ,wright1 ,t4,n4 ,bose1 ,swami ,satyan&a ,my ,si/]s--,roma1 ,nal9i1 & ,uma ,my ,fa!r ,my ,guru & ,myself ,ran*i ,/ud5ts ,yogoda ,ma?1 ,h]mitage at ,dak%9esw> ,fe/ival ,ga!r+ 9 ! ,c\rty>d ( my ,guru's ,h]mitage 9 ,s]ampore ,gr\p on ! ,d9+ ,patio ( my ,guru's ,s]ampore ,h]mitage ,%ank>i ,mai ,jiew1 ,only ,liv+ ,disciple ( ! great ,trailanga ,swami ,kri%nan&a ) 8 ,tame ,lioness ,! ,taj ,mahal at ,agra ,swami ,ke%aban&a1 at 8 ,h]mitage 9 ,br9daban ,kri%na1 ,anci5t ,prophet ( ,india ,mahatma ,g&hi1 at ,w>dha ,an&a ,moyi ,ma1 ! 8,joy-,p]meat$ ,"m0 ,giri ,bala1 ! ,woman ,yogi ,:o ,nev] ,eats ,mr4 ,e4 ,e4 ,dick9son ,enc9itas ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions1 ,hollywood ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions1 ,san ,diego ,swami ,preman&a ,conf]5ce 9 ,san ,francisco ,,preface ,by ,w4 ,y4 ,,evans-,,w5tz1 ,m4,a41 ,d4,litt41 ,d4,sc4 ,jesus ,college1 ,ox=d2 ,au?or ( ,,! ,,tibetan ,,book ,,( ,,! ,,dead1 ,,tibet',s ,,great ,,yogi ,,mil>epa1 ,,tibetan ,,yoga ,,& ,,secret ,,doctr9es1 etc4 ,! value ( ,yogan&a's ,a,u,t,o,b,i,o,g,r,a,p,h,yis greatly enhanc$ by ! fact t x is "o ( ! few books 9 ,engli% ab\t ! wise m5 ( ,india :i* has be5 writt51 n by a j\rnali/ or =eign]1 b by "o ( _! own race & tra9+--9 %ort1 a book ,,ab\t yogis ,,by a yogi4 ,z an eyewitness rec\ntal ( ! extraord9>y lives & p[]s ( mod]n ,h9du sa9ts1 ! book has importance bo? timely & timeless4 ,to its illu/ri\s au?or1 :om ,i h _h ! pleasure ( kn[+ bo? 9 ,india & ,am]ica1 may e read] r5d] due appreciation & gratitude4 ,8 unusual life-docum5t is c]ta9ly "o ( ! mo/ reveal+ ( ! dep?s ( ! ,h9du m9d & he>t1 & ( ! spiritual weal? ( ,india1 ev] to be publi%$ 9 ! ,we/4 ,x has be5 my privilege to h met "o ( ! sages ^: life-hi/ory is h]e9 n>rat$-,sri ,yuktesw> ,giri4 ,a lik5ess ( ! v5]able sa9t appe>$ z "p ( ! frontispiece ( my ,,tibetan ,,yoga ,,& ,,secret ,,doctr9es4 ,,fn#a-a ,x 0 at ,puri1 9 ,orissa1 on ! ,bay ( ,b5gal1 t ,i enc\nt]$ ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,he 0 !n ! head ( a quiet a%rama ne> ! sea%ore !re1 & 0 *iefly occupi$ 9 ! spiritual tra9+ ( a gr\p ( y\?ful disciples4 ,he express$ ke5 int]e/ 9 ! welf>e ( ! p ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ( all ! ,am]icas1 & ( ,engl&1 too1 & que/ion$ me conc]n+ ! di/ant activities1 p>ticul>ly ^? 9 ,cali=nia1 ( 8 *ief disciple1 ,p>amhansa ,yogan&a1 :om he de>ly lov$1 & :om he _h s5t1 9 #aibj1 z 8 emiss>y to ! ,we/4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 ( g5tle mi5 & voice1 ( pleas+ pres5ce1 & wor?y ( ! v5]ation :i* 8 foll[]s spontane\sly accord$ to him4 ,e p]son :o knew him1 :e!r ( 8 own community or n1 held him 9 ! highe/ e/eem4 ,i vividly recall 8 tall1 /raight1 ascetic figure1 g>b$ 9 ! saffron-color$ g>b ( "o :o has r5\nc$ worldly que/s1 z he /ood at ! entrance ( ! h]mitage to give me welcome4 ,8 hair 0 long & some:at curly1 & 8 face be>d$4 ,8 body 0 muscul>ly firm1 b sl5d] & well-=m$1 & 8 /ep en]getic4 ,he _h *os5 z 8 place ( e>?ly abode ! holy city ( ,puri1 :i!r multitudes ( pi\s ,h9dus1 repres5tative ( e prov9ce ( ,india1 come daily on pilgrimage to ! fam$ ,temple ( ,jaganna?1 8,"l ( ! ,_w40 ,x 0 at ,puri t ,sri ,yuktesw> clos$ 8 mortal eyes1 9 #aicf1 to ! sc5es ( ?is transitory /ate ( be+ & pass$ on1 kn[+ t 8 inc>nation _h be5 c>ri$ to a triumphant completion4 ,i am glad1 inde$1 to be able to record ?is te/imony to ! high "* & hol9ess ( ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,cont5t to rema9 af> f ! multitude1 he gave himself unres]v$ly & 9 tranquillity to t ideal life :i* ,p>amhansa ,yogan&a1 8 disciple1 has n[ describ$ = ! ages4 ,w4 ,y4 ,,evans-,,w5tz ,,fn#a-a ,ox=d ,univ]sity ,press1 #aice4 ,,au?or',s ,,ackn[l$gm5ts ,i am deeply indebt$ to ,miss ,l4 ,v4 ,pratt = h] long editorial labors ov] ! manuscript ( ?is book4 ,my ?anks are due also to ,miss ,ru? ,zahn = prep>ation ( ! index1 to ,mr4 ,c4 ,ri*>d ,wright = p]mission to use extracts f 8 ,indian travel di>y1 & to ,dr4 ,w4 ,y4 ,evans-,w5tz = sugge/ions & enc\ragem5t4 ,,p>amhansa ,,yogan&a ,,octob] #bh1 #aide ,,enc9itas1 ,,cali=nia ,,*apt]3 #a ,,my ,,p>5ts ,,& ,,e>ly ,,life ,! *>act]i/ic features ( ,indian culture h long be5 a se>* = ultimate v]ities & ! concomitant disciple-guru ,,fn#a-b relation%ip4 ,my own pa? l$ me to a ,*ri/like sage ^: beautiful life 0 *isel$ = ! ages4 ,he 0 "o ( ! great ma/]s :o are ,india's sole rema9+ weal?4 ,em]g+ 9 e g5]ation1 !y h bulw>k$ _! l& aga9/ ! fate ( ,babylon & ,egypt4 ,i f9d my e>lie/ memories cov]+ ! ana*roni/ic features ( a previ\s inc>nation4 ,cle> recollections came to me ( a di/ant life1 a yogi ,,fn#a-c amid/ ! ,himalayan sn[s4 ,^! glimpses ( ! pa/1 by "s dim5sionless l9k1 also af=d$ me a glimpse ( ! future4 ,! helpless humiliations ( infancy are n bani%$ f my m9d4 ,i 0 res5tfully consci\s ( n be+ able to walk or express myself freely4 ,pray]ful surges arose )9 me z ,i realiz$ my bodily impot5ce4 ,my /rong emotional life took sil5t =m z words 9 _m languages4 ,among ! inw>d confusion ( tongues1 my e> gradually accu/om$ itself to ! circumambi5t ,b5gali syllables ( my p4 ,! beguil+ scope ( an infant's m9d6 adultly consid]$ limit$ to toys & toes4 ,psy*ological f]m5t & my unresponsive body br\ght me to _m ob/9ate cry+-spells4 ,i recall ! g5]al family bewild]m5t at my di/ress4 ,happi] memories1 too1 cr[d 9 on me3 my "m's c>esses1 & my fir/ attempts at lisp+ phrase & toddl+ /ep4 ,^! e>ly triumphs1 usually =gott5 quickly1 are yet a natural basis ( self-confid5ce4 ,my f>-rea*+ memories are n unique4 ,_m yogis are kn[n to h reta9$ _! self-consci\sness )\t int]ruption by ! dramatic transition to & f 8life0 & 8dea?40 ,if man be solely a body1 its loss inde$ places ! f9al p]iod to id5tity4 ,b if prophets d[n ! mill5niums spake ) tru?1 man is ess5tially ( incorporeal nature4 ,! p]si/5t core ( human egoity is only tempor>ily alli$ ) s5se p]ception4 ,al?\gh odd1 cle> memories ( infancy are n extremely r>e4 ,dur+ travels 9 num]\s l&s1 ,i h li/5$ to e>ly recollections f ! lips ( v]aci\s m5 & wom54 ,i 0 born 9 ! la/ decade ( ! n9ete5? c5tury1 & pass$ my fir/ eight ye>s at ,gorakhpur4 ,?is 0 my bir?place 9 ! ,unit$ ,prov9ces ( nor!a/]n ,india4 ,we 7 eight *ildr53 f\r boys & f\r girls4 ,i1 ,mukunda ,lal ,gho% ,,fn#a-d1 0 ! second son & ! f\r? *ild4 ,fa!r & ,"m 7 ,b5galis1 ( ! ,,k%atriya ca/e4 ,,fn#a-e ,bo? 7 bless$ ) sa9tly nature4 ,_! mutual love1 tranquil & dignifi$1 nev] express$ itself frivol\sly4 ,a p]fect p>5tal h>mony 0 ! calm c5t] = ! revolv+ tumult ( eight "y lives4 ,fa!r1 ,bhagabati ,*>an ,gho%1 0 k9d1 grave1 at times /]n4 ,lov+ him de>ly1 we *ildr5 yet obs]v$ a c]ta9 rev]5tial di/ance4 ,an out/&+ ma!matician & logician1 he 0 guid$ pr9cipally by 8 intellect4 ,b ,"m 0 a que5 ( he>ts1 & taught u only ?r\gh love4 ,aft] h] dea?1 ,fa!r display$ m ( 8 inn] t5d]ness4 ,i notic$ !n t 8 gaze (t5 metamorphos$ into my "m's4 ,9 ,"m's pres5ce we ta/$ our e>lie/ bitt]-sweet acqua9tance ) ! scriptures4 ,tales f ! ,,mahabh>ata & ,,ramayana ,,fn#a-f 7 res\rcefully summon$ to meet ! exig5cies ( discipl9e4 ,in/ruction & *a/isem5t w5t h& 9 h&4 ,a daily ge/ure ( respect to ,fa!r 0 giv5 by ,"m's dress+ u c>efully 9 ! aft]noons to welcome him home f ! (fice4 ,8 position 0 simil> to t ( a vice-presid5t1 9 ! ,b5gal-,nagpur ,railway1 "o ( ,india's l>ge companies4 ,8 "w involv$ travel+1 & our family liv$ 9 sev]al cities dur+ my *ildhood4 ,"m held an op5 h& t[>d ! ne$y4 ,fa!r 0 also k9dly dispos$1 b 8 respect = law & ord] ext5d$ to ! budget4 ,"o =tnight ,"m sp5t1 9 fe$+ ! poor1 m ?an ,fa!r's mon?ly income4 8,all ,i ask1 please1 is to keep y\r *>ities )9 a reasonable limit40 ,ev5 a g5tle rebuke f h] husb& 0 griev\s to ,"m4 ,%e ord]$ a hackney c>riage1 n h9t+ to ! *ildr5 at any disagreem5t4 8,good-by2 ,i am go+ away to my "m's home40 ,anci5t ultimatum6 ,we broke into a/\nd$ lam5tations4 ,our mat]nal uncle arriv$ opportunely2 he :isp]$ to ,fa!r "s sage c\nsel1 g>n]$ no d\bt f ! ages4 ,aft] ,fa!r _h made a few conciliatory rem>ks1 ,"m happily dismiss$ ! cab4 ,?us end$ ! only tr\ble ,i ev] notic$ betwe5 my p>5ts4 ,b ,i recall a *>act]i/ic discussion4 8,please give me t5 rupees = a hapless woman :o has j arriv$ at ! h\se40 ,"m's smile _h its own p]suasion4 8,:y t5 rupees8 ,"o is en\gh40 ,fa!r add$ a ju/ification3 8,:5 my fa!r & gr&p>5ts di$ sudd5ly1 ,i _h my fir/ ta/e ( pov]ty4 ,my only breakfa/1 be=e walk+ miles to my s*ool1 0 a small banana4 ,lat]1 at ! univ]sity1 ,i 0 9 su* ne$ t ,i appli$ to a weal?y judge = aid ( "o rupee p] mon?4 ,he decl9$1 rem>k+ t ev5 a rupee is important40 8,h[ bitt]ly y recall ! d5ial ( t rupee60 ,"m's he>t _h an in/ant logic4 8,d y want ?is woman also to rememb] pa9fully y\r refusal ( t5 rupees :i* %e ne$s urg5tly80 8,y w960 ,) ! immemorial ge/ure ( vanqui%$ husb&s1 he op5$ 8 wallet4 8,"h is a t5-rupee note4 ,give x to h] ) my good w40 ,fa!r t5d$ to fir/ say 8,no0 to any new proposal4 ,8 attitude t[>d ! /range woman :o s readily enli/$ ,"m's sympa?y 0 an example ( 8 cu/om>y caution4 ,av]sion to in/ant acceptance--typical ( ! ,fr5* m9d 9 ! ,we/-is really only honor+ ! pr9ciple ( 8due reflection40 ,i always f\nd ,fa!r reasonable & ev5ly balanc$ 9 8 judgm5ts4 ,if ,i c\ld bol/] up my num]\s reque/s ) "o or two good argum5ts1 he inv>iably put ! covet$ goal )9 my rea*1 :e!r x 7 a vacation trip or a new motorcycle4 ,illu/ration3 ,,my ,,fa!r1 ,bhagabati ,*>an ,gho%1 ,a ,disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya--see fa!r#a4;jpg ,fa!r 0 a /rict discipl9>ian to 8 *ildr5 9 _! e>ly ye>s1 b 8 attitude t[>d himself 0 truly ,sp>tan4 ,he nev] visit$ ! !at]1 = in/ance1 b s\ght 8 recreation 9 v>i\s spiritual practices & 9 read+ ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita4 ,,fn#a-g ,%unn+ all luxuries1 he w\ld cl+ to "o old pair ( %oes until !y 7 useless4 ,8 sons b\ght automobiles aft] !y came into popul> use1 b ,fa!r 0 always cont5t ) ! trolley c> = 8 daily ride to ! (fice4 ,! accumulation ( money = ! sake ( p[] 0 ali5 to 8 nature4 ,once1 aft] organiz+ ! ,calcutta ,urban ,bank1 he refus$ to b5efit himself by hold+ any ( its %>es4 ,he _h simply wi%$ to p]=m a civic duty 9 8 sp>e "t4 ,sev]al ye>s aft] ,fa!r _h retir$ on a p5sion1 an ,engli% acc\ntant arriv$ to exam9e ! books ( ! ,b5gal-,nagpur ,railway ,company4 ,! amaz$ inve/igator discov]$ t ,fa!r _h nev] appli$ = ov]due bonuses4 8,he did ! "w ( ?ree m560 ! acc\ntant told ! company4 8,he has rupees #abe1jjj 7ab\t #da1bej47 ow+ to him z back comp5sation40 ,! (ficials pres5t$ ,fa!r ) a *eck = ?is am\nt4 ,he ?\ght s little ab\t x t he ov]look$ any m5tion to ! family4 ,mu* lat] he 0 que/ion$ by my y\nge/ bro!r ,bi%nu1 :o notic$ ! l>ge deposit on a bank /atem5t4 8,:y be elat$ by mat]ial pr(it80 ,fa!r repli$4 8,! "o :o pursues a goal ( ev5m9d$ness is nei!r jubilant ) ga9 nor depress$ by loss4 ,he kn[s t man arrives p5niless 9 ?is _w1 & dep>ts )\t a s+le rupee40 ,e>ly 9 _! m>ri$ life1 my p>5ts became disciples ( a great ma/]1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya ( ,b5>es4 ,?is contact /r5g!n$ ,fa!r's naturally ascetical temp]am5t4 ,"m made a rem>kable admission to my elde/ si/] ,roma3 8,y\r fa!r & myself live toge!r z man & wife only once a ye>1 = ! purpose ( hav+ *ildr540 ,fa!r fir/ met ,lahiri ,mahasaya ?r\gh ,ab9a% ,babu1 ,,fn#a-h an employee 9 ! ,gorakhpur (fice ( ! ,b5gal-,nagpur ,railway4 ,ab9a% in/ruct$ my "y e>s ) engross+ tales ( _m ,indian sa9ts4 ,he inv>iably conclud$ ) a tribute to ! sup]ior glories ( 8 own guru4 8,did y ev] he> ( ! extraord9>y circum/ances "u :i* y\r fa!r became a disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya80 ,x 0 on a lazy summ] aft]noon1 z ,ab9a% & ,i sat toge!r 9 ! comp\nd ( my home1 t he put ?is intrigu+ "q4 ,i %ook my head ) a smile ( anticipation4 8,ye>s ago1 be=e y 7 born1 ,i ask$ my sup]ior (fic]-y\r fa!r-to give me a week's leave f my ,gorakhpur duties 9 ord] to visit my guru 9 ,b5>es4 ,y\r fa!r ridicul$ my plan4 8#8,are y go+ to become a religi\s fanatic8' he inquir$4 #8,conc5trate on y\r (fice "w if y want to =ge ahead4' 8,sadly walk+ home along a woodl& pa? t day1 ,i met y\r fa!r 9 a palanqu94 ,he dismiss$ 8 s]vants & conveyance1 & fell into /ep beside me4 ,seek+ to console me1 he po9t$ out ! advantages ( /riv+ = worldly success4 ,b ,i he>d him li/lessly4 ,my he>t 0 repeat+3 #8,lahiri ,mahasaya6 ,i _c live )\t see+ y6' 8,our pa? took u to ! edge ( a tranquil field1 :]e ! rays ( ! late aft]noon sun 7 /ill cr[n+ ! tall ripple ( ! wild grass4 ,we paus$ 9 admiration4 ,!re 9 ! field1 only a few y>ds f u1 ! =m ( my great guru sudd5ly appe>$6 ,,fn#a-i 8#8,bhagabati1 y are too h>d on y\r employee6' ,8 voice 0 resonant 9 our a/\nd$ e>s4 ,he vani%$ z my/]i\sly z he _h come4 ,on my knees ,i 0 exclaim+1 #8,lahiri ,mahasaya6 ,lahiri ,mahasaya6' ,y\r fa!r 0 motionless ) /upefaction = a few mom5ts4 8#8,ab9a%1 n only d ,i give ,,y leave1 b ,i give ,,myself leave to />t = ,b5>es tomorr[4 ,i mu/ "k ?is great ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 :o is able to mat]ialize himself at w 9 ord] to int]c$e = y6 ,i w take my wife & ask ?is ma/] to initiate u 9 8 spiritual pa?4 ,w y guide u to him8' 8#8,( c\rse4' ,joy fill$ me at ! miracul\s answ] to my pray]1 & ! quick1 favorable turn ( ev5ts4 8,! next ev5+ y\r p>5ts & ,i entra9$ = ,b5>es4 ,we took a horse c>t ! foll[+ day1 & !n _h to walk ?r\gh n>r[ lanes to my guru's seclud$ home4 ,ent]+ 8 little p>lor1 we b[$ be=e ! ma/]1 enlock$ 9 8 habitual lotus po/ure4 ,he bl9k$ 8 pi]c+ eyes & level$ !m on y\r fa!r4 8#8,bhagabati1 y are too h>d on y\r employee6' ,8 words 7 ! same z ^? he _h us$ two days be=e 9 ! ,gorakhpur field4 ,he add$1 #8,i am glad t y h all[$ ,ab9a% to visit me1 & t y & y\r wife h accompani$ him4' 8,to _! joy1 he initiat$ y\r p>5ts 9 ! spiritual practice ( ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,,fn#a-aj ,y\r fa!r & ,i1 z bro!r disciples1 h be5 close fri5ds s9ce ! memorable day ( ! vision4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya took a def9ite int]e/ 9 y\r own bir?4 ,y\r life %all surely be l9k$ ) 8 own3 ! ma/]'s bless+ nev] fails40 ,lahiri ,mahasaya left ?is _w %ortly aft] ,i _h ent]$ x4 ,8 picture1 9 an ornate frame1 always grac$ our family alt> 9 ! v>i\s cities to :i* ,fa!r 0 transf]r$ by 8 (fice4 ,_m a morn+ & ev5+ f\nd ,"m & me m$itat+ be=e an improvis$ %r9e1 (f]+ fl[]s dipp$ 9 fragrant s&alwood pa/e4 ,) frank9c5se & myrrh z well z our unit$ devotions1 we honor$ ! div9ity :i* _h f\nd full expression 9 ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,8 picture _h a surpass+ influ5ce ov] my life4 ,z ,i grew1 ! ?\ght ( ! ma/] grew ) me4 ,9 m$itation ,i w\ld (t5 see 8 photographic image em]ge f its small frame &1 tak+ a liv+ =m1 sit be=e me4 ,:5 ,i attempt$ to t\* ! feet ( 8 lum9\s body1 x w\ld *ange & aga9 become ! picture4 ,z *ildhood slipp$ into boyhood1 ,i f\nd ,lahiri ,mahasaya trans=m$ 9 my m9d f a little image1 cribb$ 9 a frame1 to a liv+1 enlight5+ pres5ce4 ,i frequ5tly pray$ to him 9 mom5ts ( trial or confusion1 f9d+ )9 me 8 solac+ direction4 ,at fir/ ,i griev$ because he 0 no long] physically liv+4 ,z ,i began to discov] 8 secret omnipres5ce1 ,i lam5t$ no m4 ,he _h (t5 writt5 to ^? ( 8 disciples :o 7 ov]-anxi\s to see him3 8,:y come to view my bones & fle%1 :5 ,i am ev] )9 range ( y\r ,,kuta/ha 7spiritual sight780 ,illu/ration3 ,myself at ,age six--see atsix4jpg ,i 0 bless$ ab\t ! age ( eight ) a wond]ful heal+ ?r\gh ! photograph ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,?is exp]i5ce gave int5sification to my love4 ,:ile at our family e/ate 9 ,i*apur1 ,b5gal1 ,i 0 /rick5 ) ,asiatic *ol]a4 ,my life 0 despair$ (2 ! doctors c\ld d no?+4 ,at my b$side1 ,"m frantically motion$ me to look at ,lahiri ,mahasaya's picture on ! wall above my head4 8,b[ to him m5tally60 ,%e knew ,i 0 too feeble ev5 to lift my h&s 9 salutation4 8,if y really %[ y\r devotion & inw>dly kneel be=e him1 y\r life w be sp>$60 ,i gaz$ at 8 photograph & saw !re a bl9d+ light1 envelop+ my body & ! entire room4 ,my nausea & o!r uncontrollable symptoms disappe>$2 ,i 0 well4 ,at once ,i felt /rong en\gh to b5d ov] & t\* ,"m's feet 9 appreciation ( h] immeasurable fai? 9 h] guru4 ,"m press$ h] head repeat$ly aga9/ ! little picture4 8,o ,omnipres5t ,ma/]1 ,i ?ank !e t ?y light ha? heal$ my son60 ,i realiz$ t %e too _h witness$ ! lum9\s blaze ?r\gh :i* ,i _h in/antly recov]$ f a usually fatal disease4 ,"o ( my mo/ preci\s possessions is t same photograph4 ,giv5 to ,fa!r by ,lahiri ,mahasaya himself1 x c>ries a holy vibration4 ,! picture _h a miracul\s orig94 ,i he>d ! /ory f ,fa!r's bro!r disciple1 ,kali ,kum> ,roy4 ,x appe>s t ! ma/] _h an av]sion to be+ photograph$4 ,ov] 8 prote/1 a gr\p picture 0 once tak5 ( him & a clu/] ( devotees1 includ+ ,kali ,kum> ,roy4 ,x 0 an amaz$ photograph] :o discov]$ t ! plate :i* _h cle> images ( all ! disciples1 reveal$ no?+ m ?an a blank space 9 ! c5t] :]e he _h reasonably expect$ to f9d ! outl9es ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,! ph5om5on 0 widely discuss$4 ,a c]ta9 /ud5t & exp]t photograph]1 ,ganga ,dh> ,babu1 boa/$ t ! fugitive figure w\ld n escape him4 ,! next morn+1 z ! guru sat 9 lotus po/ure on a wood5 b5* ) a scre5 beh9d him1 ,ganga ,dh> ,babu arriv$ ) 8 equipm5t4 ,tak+ e precaution = success1 he gre$ily expos$ twelve plates4 ,on ea* "o he soon f\nd ! impr9t ( ! wood5 b5* & scre51 b once aga9 ! ma/]'s =m 0 miss+4 ,) te>s & %att]$ pride1 ,ganga ,dh> ,babu s\ght out 8 guru4 ,x 0 _m h\rs be=e ,lahiri ,mahasaya broke 8 sil5ce ) a pregnant comm5t3 8,i am ,_s4 ,c y\r cam]a reflect ! omnipres5t ,invisible80 8,i see x _c6 ,b1 ,holy ,sir1 ,i lov+ly desire a picture ( ! bodily temple :]e alone1 to my n>r[ vision1 t ,_s appe>s fully to dwell40 8,come1 !n1 tomorr[ morn+4 ,i w pose = y40 ,aga9 ! photograph] focus$ 8 cam]a4 ,?is "t ! sacr$ figure1 n cloak$ ) my/]i\s imp]ceptibility1 0 %>p on ! plate4 ,! ma/] nev] pos$ = ano!r picture2 at lea/1 ,i h se5 none4 ,! photograph is reproduc$ 9 ?is book4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya's fair features1 ( a univ]sal ca/1 h>dly sugge/ to :at race he belong$4 ,8 int5se joy ( ,god-communion is slightly reveal$ 9 a some:at enigmatic smile4 ,8 eyes1 half op5 to d5ote a nom9al direction on ! out] _w1 are half clos$ also4 ,completely oblivi\s to ! poor lures ( ! e>?1 he 0 fully awake at all times to ! spiritual problems ( seek]s :o approa*$ = 8 b\nty4 ,%ortly aft] my heal+ ?r\gh ! pot5cy ( ! guru's picture1 ,i _h an influ5tial spiritual vision4 ,sitt+ on my b$ "o morn+1 ,i fell into a deep rev]ie4 8,:at is beh9d ! d>kness ( clos$ eyes80 ,?is prob+ ?\ght came p[]fully into my m9d4 ,an imm5se fla% ( light at once manife/$ to my inw>d gaze4 ,div9e %apes ( sa9ts1 sitt+ 9 m$itation po/ure 9 m\nta9 caves1 =m$ l m9iature c9ema pictures on ! l>ge scre5 ( radiance )9 my =ehead4 8,:o are y80 ,i spoke al\d4 8,we are ! ,himalayan yogis40 ,! cele/ial response is difficult to describe2 my he>t 0 ?rill$4 8,ah1 ,i long to g to ! ,himalayas & become l y60 ,! vision vani%$1 b ! silv]y beams exp&$ 9 ev]-wid5+ circles to inf9ity4 8,:at is ?is wondr\s gl[80 8,i am ,isw>a4,,fn#a-aa ,i am ,light40 ,! voice 0 z murmur+ cl\ds4 8,i want to be "o ) ,!e60 ,out ( ! sl[ dw9dl+ ( my div9e ec/asy1 ,i salvag$ a p]man5t legacy ( inspiration to seek ,god4 8,he is et]nal1 ev]-new ,joy60 ,?is memory p]si/$ long aft] ! day ( rapture4 ,ano!r e>ly recollection is out/&+2 & lit]ally s1 = ,i be> ! sc> to ?is day4 ,my eld] si/] ,uma & ,i 7 seat$ 9 ! e>ly morn+ "u a ,,neem tree 9 our ,gorakhpur comp\nd4 ,%e 0 help+ me ) a ,b5gali prim]1 :at "t ,i c\ld sp>e my gaze f ! ne>-by p>rots eat+ ripe m>gosa fruit4 ,uma compla9$ ( a boil on h] leg1 & fet*$ a j> ( o9tm5t4 ,i sme>$ a bit ( ! salve on my =e>m4 8,:y d y use m$ic9e on a heal?y arm80 8,well1 ,sis1 ,i feel ,i am go+ to h a boil tomorr[4 ,i am te/+ y\r o9tm5t on ! spot :]e ! boil w appe>40 8,y little li>60 8,sis1 don't call me a li> until y see :at happ5s 9 ! morn+40 ,indignation fill$ me4 ,uma 0 unimpress$1 & ?rice repeat$ h] taunt4 ,an adamant resolution s\nd$ 9 my voice z ,i made sl[ reply4 8,by ! p[] ( w 9 me1 ,i say t tomorr[ ,i %all h a fairly l>ge boil 9 ?is exact place on my arm2 & ,,y\r boil %all swell to twice its pres5t size60 ,morn+ f\nd me ) a /alw>t boil on ! indicat$ spot2 ! dim5sions ( ,uma's boil _h d\bl$4 ,) a %riek1 my si/] ru%$ to ,"m4 8,mukunda has become a necromanc]60 ,gravely1 ,"m in/ruct$ me nev] to use ! p[] ( words = do+ h>m4 ,i h always rememb]$ h] c\nsel1 & foll[$ x4 ,my boil 0 surgically treat$4 ,a noticeable sc>1 left by ! doctor's incision1 is pres5t today4 ,on my "r =e>m is a con/ant rem9d] ( ! p[] 9 man's %e] ^w4 ,^? simple & app>5tly h>mless phrases to ,uma1 spok5 ) deep conc5tration1 _h possess$ suffici5t hidd5 =ce to explode l bombs & produce def9ite1 ?\gh injuri\s1 effects4 ,i und]/ood1 lat]1 t ! explosive vibratory p[] 9 spee* c\ld be wisely direct$ to free "o's life f difficulties1 & ?us op]ate )\t sc> or rebuke4 ,,fn#a-ab ,our family mov$ to ,lahore 9 ! ,punjab4 ,!re ,i acquir$ a picture ( ! ,div9e ,"m 9 ! =m ( ! ,goddess ,kali4 ,,fn#a-ac ,x sanctifi$ a small in=mal %r9e on ! balcony ( our home4 ,an unequivocal conviction came ov] me t fulfillm5t w\ld cr[n any ( my pray]s utt]$ 9 t sacr$ spot4 ,/&+ !re ) ,uma "o day1 ,i wat*$ two kites fly+ ov] ! ro(s ( ! build+s on ! opposite side ( ! v n>r[ lane4 8,:y are y s quiet80 ,uma pu%$ me playfully4 8,i am j ?9k+ h[ wond]ful x is t ,div9e ,"m gives me :atev] ,i ask40 8,i suppose ,%e w\ld give y ^? two kites60 ,my si/] laugh$ d]isively4 8,:y n80 ,i began sil5t pray]s = _! possession4 ,mat*es are play$ 9 ,india ) kites ^: /r+s are cov]$ ) glue & gr\nd glass4 ,ea* play] attempts to sev] ! /r+ ( 8 oppon5t4 ,a fre$ kite sails ov] ! ro(s2 !re is great fun 9 cat*+ x4 ,inasmu* z ,uma & ,i 7 on ! balcony1 x seem$ impossible t any loos$ kite c\ld come into our h&s2 its /r+ w\ld naturally dangle ov] ! ro(s4 ,! play]s across ! lane began _! mat*4 ,"o /r+ 0 cut2 imm$iately ! kite float$ 9 my direction4 ,x 0 /ation>y = a mom5t1 ?r\gh sudd5 abatem5t ( breeze1 :i* suffic$ to firmly entangle ! /r+ ) a cactus plant on top ( ! opposite h\se4 ,a p]fect loop 0 =m$ = my seizure4 ,i h&$ ! prize to ,uma4 8,x 0 j an extraord9>y accid5t1 & n an answ] to y\r pray]4 ,if ! o!r kite comes to y1 !n ,i %all believe40 ,si/]'s d>k eyes convey$ m amazem5t ?an h] words4 ,i cont9u$ my pray]s ) a cresc5do int5sity4 ,a =cible tug by ! o!r play] result$ 9 ! abrupt loss ( 8 kite4 ,x head$ t[>d me1 danc+ 9 ! w9d4 ,my helpful assi/ant1 ! cactus plant1 aga9 secur$ ! kite /r+ 9 ! necess>y loop by :i* ,i c\ld grasp x4 ,i pres5t$ my second trophy to ,uma4 8,inde$1 ,div9e ,"m li/5s to y6 ,?is is all too uncanny = me60 ,si/] bolt$ away l a fright5$ fawn4 ,,fn#a-b ,spiritual tea*]2 f ,sanskrit root ,,gur1 to raise1 to uplift4 ,,fn#a-c ,a practition] ( yoga1 8union10 anci5t ,indian sci5ce ( m$itation on ,god4 ,,fn#a-d ,my "n 0 *ang$ to ,yogan&a :5 ,i ent]$ ! anci5t mona/ic ,swami ,ord] 9 #aiad4 ,my guru be/[$ ! religi\s title ( ,,p>amhansa on me 9 #aice 7see 44_/*apt]s #bd & #db74 ,,fn#a-e ,traditionally1 ! second ca/e ( w>riors & rul]s4 ,,fn#a-f ,^! anci5t epics are ! ho>d ( ,india's hi/ory1 my?ology1 & philosophy4 ,an 8,ev]yman's ,libr>y0 volume1 ,,ramayana ,,& ,,mahabh>ata1 is a cond5sation 9 ,engli% v]se by ,rome% ,dutt 7,new ,york3 ,e4 ,p4 ,dutton74 ,,fn#a-g ,?is noble ,sanskrit poem1 :i* occurs z "p ( ! ,,mahabh>ata epic1 is ! ,h9du ,bible4 ,! mo/ poetical ,engli% translation is ,edw9 ,arnold's ,,! ,,song ,,cele/ial 7,philadelphia3 ,david ,mc,kay1 #ge c5ts74 ,"o ( ! be/ translations ) detail$ comm5t>y is ,sri ,aurob9do's ,,message ,,( ,,! ,,gita 7,jupit] ,press1 #af ,semudoss ,/41 ,madras1 ,india1 #c4ej74 ,,fn#a-h ,,babu 7,mi/]7 is plac$ 9 ,b5gali names at ! end4 ,,fn#a-i ,! ph5om5al p[]s possess$ by great ma/]s are expla9$ 9 *apt] #cj1 8,! ,law ( ,miracles40 ,,fn#a-aj ,a yogic te*nique :]eby ! s5sory tumult is /ill$1 p]mitt+ man to a*ieve an ev]-increas+ id5tity ) cosmic consci\sness4 7,see p4 #bdc47 ,,fn#a-aa ,a ,sanskrit "n = ,god z ,rul] ( ! univ]se2 f ! root ,,is1 to rule4 ,!re are #ajh names = ,god 9 ! ,h9du scriptures1 ea* "o c>ry+ a diff]5t %ade ( philosophical mean+4 ,,fn#a-ab ,! inf9ite pot5cies ( s\nd d]ive f ! ,creative ,^w1 ,,aum1 ! cosmic vibratory p[] beh9d all atomic en]gies4 ,any ^w spok5 ) cle> realization & deep conc5tration has a mat]ializ+ value4 ,l\d or sil5t repetition ( inspir+ words has be5 f\nd effective 9 ,c\eism & simil> sy/ems ( psy*o!rapy2 ! secret lies 9 ! /epp+-up ( ! m9d's vibratory rate4 ,! poet ,t5nyson has left u1 9 8 ,,memoirs1 an acc\nt ( 8 repetiti\s device = pass+ beyond ! consci\s m9d into sup]consci\sness3 8,a k9d ( wak+ trance-?is = lack ( a bett] ^w-,i h frequ5tly _h1 q up f boyhood1 :5 ,i h be5 all alone10 ,t5nyson wrote4 8,?is has come ^u me ?r\gh ,,repeat+ my own "n to myself sil5tly1 till all at once1 z x 7 out ( ! int5sity ( ! consci\sness ( individuality1 individuality itself seem$ to dissolve & fade away into b\ndless be+1 & ?is n a confus$ /ate b ! cle>e/1 ! sure/ ( ! sure/1 utt]ly beyond words-:]e dea? 0 an almo/ laughable impossibility-! loss ( p]sonality 7if s x 77 seem+ no ext9ction1 b ! only true life40 ,he wrote fur!r3 8,x is no nebul\s ec/asy1 b a /ate ( transc5d5t wond]1 associat$ ) absolute cle>ness ( m9d40 ,,fn#a-ac ,kali is a symbol ( ,god 9 ! aspect ( et]nal ,"m ,nature4 ,,*apt]3 #b ,,my ,,"m',s ,,dea? ,,& ,,! ,,my/ic ,,amulet ,my "m's greate/ desire 0 ! m>riage ( my eld] bro!r4 8,ah1 :5 ,i behold ! face ( ,ananta's wife1 ,i %all f9d heav5 on ?is e>?60 ,i frequ5tly he>d ,"m express 9 ^! words h] /rong ,indian s5tim5t = family cont9uity4 ,i 0 ab\t elev5 ye>s old at ! "t ( ,ananta's betro?al4 ,"m 0 9 ,calcutta1 joy\sly sup]vis+ ! w$d+ prep>ations4 ,fa!r & ,i alone rema9$ at our home 9 ,b>eilly 9 nor!rn ,india1 :5ce ,fa!r _h be5 transf]r$ aft] two ye>s at ,lahore4 ,i _h previ\sly witness$ ! spl5dor ( nuptial rites = my two eld] si/]s1 ,roma & ,uma2 b = ,ananta1 z ! elde/ son1 plans 7 truly elaborate4 ,"m 0 welcom+ num]\s relatives1 daily arriv+ 9 ,calcutta f di/ant homes4 ,%e lodg$ !m com=tably 9 a l>ge1 newly acquir$ h\se at #ej ,amh]/ ,/reet4 ,ev]y?+ 0 9 read9ess-! banquet delicacies1 ! gay ?rone on :i* ,bro!r 0 to be c>ri$ to ! home ( ! bride-to-be1 ! r[s ( colorful lights1 ! mammo? c>dbo>d elephants & camels1 ! ,engli%1 ,scotti% & ,indian or*e/ras1 ! pr(essional ent]ta9]s1 ! prie/s = ! anci5t rituals4 ,fa!r & ,i1 9 gala spirits1 7 plann+ to jo9 ! family 9 "t = ! c]emony4 ,%ortly be=e ! great day1 h[ev]1 ,i _h an om9\s vision4 ,x 0 9 ,b>eilly on a midnight4 ,z ,i slept beside ,fa!r on ! piazza ( our bungal[1 ,i 0 awak5$ by a peculi> flutt] ( ! mosquito nett+ ov] ! b$4 ,! flimsy curta9s p>t$ & ,i saw ! belov$ =m ( my "m4 8,awak5 y\r fa!r60 ,h] voice 0 only a :isp]4 8,take ! fir/ available tra91 at f\r o'clock ?is morn+4 ,ru% to ,calcutta if y w\ld see me60 ,! wrai?like figure vani%$4 8,fa!r1 ,fa!r6 ,"m is dy+60 ,! t]ror 9 my tone ar\s$ him in/antly4 ,i sobb$ out ! fatal tid+s4 8,nev] m9d t halluc9ation ( y\rs40 ,fa!r gave 8 *>act]i/ic negation to a new situation4 8,y\r "m is 9 excell5t heal?4 ,if we get any bad news1 we %all leave tomorr[40 8,y %all nev] =give y\rself = n />t+ n[60 ,angui% caus$ me to add bitt]ly1 8,nor %all ,i ev] =give y60 ,! melan*oly morn+ came ) explicit words3 8,"m dang]\sly ill2 m>riage po/pon$2 come at once40 ,fa!r & ,i left di/ract$ly4 ,"o ( my uncles met u en r\te at a transf] po9t4 ,a tra9 ?und]$ t[>d u1 loom+ ) telescopic increase4 ,f my inn] tumult1 an abrupt det]m9ation arose to hurl myself on ! railroad tracks4 ,already b]eft1 ,i felt1 ( my "m1 ,i c\ld n endure a _w sudd5ly b>r5 to ! bone4 ,i lov$ ,"m z my de>e/ fri5d on e>?4 ,h] solac+ black eyes _h be5 my sure/ refuge 9 ! trifl+ trag$ies ( *ildhood4 8,does %e yet live80 ,i /opp$ = "o la/ "q to my uncle4 8,( c\rse %e is alive60 ,he 0 n sl[ to int]pret ! desp]ation 9 my face4 ,b ,i sc>cely believ$ him4 ,:5 we rea*$ our ,calcutta home1 x 0 only to confront ! /unn+ my/]y ( dea?4 ,i collaps$ into an almo/ lifeless /ate4 ,ye>s pass$ be=e any reconciliation ent]$ my he>t4 ,/orm+ ! v gates ( heav51 my cries at la/ summon$ ! ,div9e ,"m4 ,h] words br\ght f9al heal+ to my suppurat+ w\nds3 8,x is ,i :o h wat*$ ov] !e1 life aft] life1 9 ! t5d]ness ( _m mo!rs6 ,see 9 ,my gaze ! two black eyes1 ! lo/ beautiful eyes1 ?\ seeke/60 ,fa!r & ,i return$ to ,b>eilly soon aft] ! crematory rites = ! well-belov$4 ,e>ly e morn+ ,i made a pa!tic memorial--pilgrimage to a l>ge ,,%eoli tree :i* %ad$ ! smoo?1 gre5-gold lawn be=e our bungal[4 ,9 poetical mom5ts1 ,i ?\ght t ! :ite ,,%eoli fl[]s 7 /rew+ !mselves ) a will+ devotion ov] ! grassy alt>4 ,m+l+ te>s ) ! dew1 ,i (t5 obs]v$ a /range o!r-worldly light em]g+ f ! dawn4 ,int5se pangs ( long+ = ,god assail$ me4 ,i felt p[]fully drawn to ! ,himalayas4 ,"o ( my c\s9s1 fre% f a p]iod ( travel 9 ! holy hills1 visit$ u 9 ,b>eilly4 ,i li/5$ eag]ly to 8 tales ab\t ! high m\nta9 abode ( yogis & swamis4 ,,fn#b-a 8,let u run away to ! ,himalayas40 ,my sugge/ion "o day to ,dw>ka ,prasad1 ! "y son ( our l&lord 9 ,b>eilly1 fell on unsympa!tic e>s4 ,he reveal$ my plan to my eld] bro!r1 :o _h j arriv$ to see ,fa!r4 ,in/ead ( laugh+ lightly ov] ?is impractical s*eme ( a small boy1 ,ananta made x a def9ite po9t to ridicule me4 8,:]e is y\r orange robe8 ,y c't be a swami )\t t60 ,b ,i 0 inexplicably ?rill$ by 8 words4 ,!y br\ght a cle> picture ( myself roam+ ab\t ,india z a monk4 ,p]haps !y awak5$ memories ( a pa/ life2 9 any case1 ,i began to see ) :at natural ease ,i w\ld we> ! g>b ( t anci5tly-f\nd$ mona/ic ord]4 ,*att+ "o morn+ ) ,dw>ka1 ,i felt a love = ,god desc5d+ ) avalan*ic =ce4 ,my companion 0 only p>tly att5tive to ! ensu+ eloqu5ce1 b ,i 0 :olehe>t$ly li/5+ to myself4 ,i fl$ t aft]noon t[>d ,na9i ,tal 9 ! ,himalayan foo?ills4 ,ananta gave det]m9$ *ase2 ,i 0 =c$ to return sadly to ,b>eilly4 ,! only pilgrimage p]mitt$ me 0 ! cu/om>y "o at dawn to ! ,,%eoli tree4 ,my he>t wept = ! lo/ ,mo!rs1 human & div9e4 ,illu/ration3 ,my ,"m1 ,a ,disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya--see "m4jpg ,! r5t left 9 ! family fabric by ,"m's dea? 0 irrep>able4 ,fa!r nev] rem>ri$ dur+ 8 ne>ly =ty rema9+ ye>s4 ,assum+ ! difficult role ( ,fa!r-,"m to 8 little flock1 he grew noticeably m t5d]1 m approa*able4 ,) calmness & insight1 he solv$ ! v>i\s family problems4 ,aft] (fice h\rs he retir$ l a h]mit to ! cell ( 8 room1 practic+ ,,kriya ,,yoga 9 a sweet s]5ity4 ,long aft] ,"m's dea?1 ,i attempt$ to engage an ,engli% nurse to att5d to details t w\ld make my p>5t's life m com=table4 ,b ,fa!r %ook 8 head4 8,s]vice to me end$ ) y\r "m40 ,8 eyes 7 remote ) a lifelong devotion4 8,i w n accept m9i/rations f any o!r woman40 ,f\rte5 mon?s aft] ,"m's pass+1 ,i le>n$ t %e _h left me a mom5t\s message4 ,ananta 0 pres5t at h] dea?b$ & _h record$ h] words4 ,al?\gh %e _h ask$ t ! disclosure be made to me 9 "o ye>1 my bro!r delay$4 ,he 0 soon to leave ,b>eilly = ,calcutta1 to m>ry ! girl ,"m _h *os5 = him4 ,,fn#b-b ,"o ev5+ he summon$ me to 8 side4 8,mukunda1 ,i h be5 reluctant to give y /range tid+s40 ,ananta's tone held a note ( resignation4 8,my fe> 0 to inflame y\r desire to leave home4 ,b 9 any case y are bri/l+ ) div9e ardor4 ,:5 ,i captur$ y rec5tly on y\r way to ! ,himalayas1 ,i came to a def9ite resolve4 ,i mu/ n fur!r po/pone ! fulfillm5t ( my solemn promise40 ,my bro!r h&$ me a small box1 & deliv]$ ,"m's message4 8,let ^! words be my f9al bless+1 my belov$ son ,mukunda60 ,"m _h said4 8,! h\r is "h :5 ,i mu/ relate a numb] ( ph5om5al ev5ts foll[+ y\r bir?4 ,i fir/ knew y\r de/9$ pa? :5 y 7 b a babe 9 my arms4 ,i c>ri$ y !n to ! home ( my guru 9 ,b5>es4 ,almo/ hidd5 beh9d a ?rong ( disciples1 ,i c\ld b>ely see ,lahiri ,mahasaya z he sat 9 deep m$itation4 8,:ile ,i patt$ y1 ,i 0 pray+ t ! great guru take notice & be/[ a bless+4 ,z my sil5t devotional dem& grew 9 int5sity1 he op5$ 8 eyes & beckon$ me to approa*4 ,! o!rs made a way = me2 ,i b[$ at ! sacr$ feet4 ,my ma/] seat$ y on 8 lap1 plac+ 8 h& on y\r =ehead by way ( spiritually baptiz+ y4 8#8,little "m1 ?y son w be a yogi4 ,z a spiritual eng9e1 he w c>ry _m s\ls to ,god's k+dom4' 8,my he>t leap$ ) joy to f9d my secret pray] grant$ by ! omnisci5t guru4 ,%ortly be=e y\r bir?1 he _h told me y w\ld foll[ 8 pa?4 8,lat]1 my son1 y\r vision ( ! ,great ,light 0 kn[n to me & y\r si/] ,roma1 z f ! next room we obs]v$ y motionless on ! b$4 ,y\r little face 0 illum9at$2 y\r voice rang ) iron resolve z y spoke ( go+ to ! ,himalayas 9 que/ ( ! ,div9e4 8,9 ^! ways1 de> son1 ,i came to "k t y\r road lies f> f worldly ambitions4 ,! mo/ s+ul> ev5t 9 my life br\ght fur!r confirmation-an ev5t :i* n[ impels my dea?b$ message4 8,x 0 an int]view ) a sage 9 ! ,punjab4 ,:ile our family 0 liv+ 9 ,lahore1 "o morn+ ! s]vant came precipitantly into my room4 8#8,mi/ress1 a /range ,,sadhu ,,fn#b-c is "h4 ,he insi/s t he 8see ! "m ( ,mukunda40' 8,^! simple words /ruck a pr(\nd *ord )9 me2 ,i w5t at once to greet ! visitor4 ,b[+ at 8 feet1 ,i s5s$ t be=e me 0 a true man ( ,god4 8#8,"m1' he said1 #8! great ma/]s wi% y to "k t y\r /ay on e>? w n be long4 ,y\r next illness %all prove to be y\r la/4' ,,fn#b-d ,!re 0 a sil5ce1 dur+ :i* ,i felt no al>m b only a vibration ( great peace4 ,f9ally he address$ me aga93 8#8,y are to be ! cu/odian ( a c]ta9 silv] amulet4 ,i w n give x to y today2 to demon/rate ! tru? 9 my words1 ! talisman %all mat]ialize 9 y\r h&s tomorr[ z y m$itate4 ,on y\r dea?b$1 y mu/ in/ruct y\r elde/ son ,ananta to keep ! amulet = "o ye> & !n to h& x ov] to y\r second son4 ,mukunda w und]/& ! mean+ ( ! talisman f ! great ones4 ,he %\ld receive x ab\t ! "t he is ready to r5\nce all worldly hopes & />t 8 vital se>* = ,god4 ,:5 he has reta9$ ! amulet = "s ye>s1 & :5 x has s]v$ its purpose1 x %all vani%4 ,ev5 if kept 9 ! mo/ secret spot1 x %all return :5ce x came4' 8,i pr(f]$ alms ,,fn#b-e to ! sa9t1 & b[$ be=e him 9 great rev]5ce4 ,n tak+ ! (f]+1 he dep>t$ ) a bless+4 ,! next ev5+1 z ,i sat ) fold$ h&s 9 m$itation1 a silv] amulet mat]ializ$ betwe5 my palms1 ev5 z ! ,,sadhu _h promis$4 ,x made itself kn[n by a cold1 smoo? t\*4 ,i h jeal\sly gu>d$ x = m ?an two ye>s1 & n[ leave x 9 ,ananta's keep+4 ,d n grieve = me1 z ,i %all h be5 u%]$ by my great guru into ! arms ( ! ,inf9ite4 ,f>ewell1 my *ild2 ! ,cosmic ,"m w protect y40 ,a blaze ( illum9ation came ov] me ) possession ( ! amulet2 _m dormant memories awak5$4 ,! talisman1 r\nd & anci5tly qua9t1 0 cov]$ ) ,sanskrit *>act]s4 ,i und]/ood t x came f tea*]s ( pa/ lives1 :o 7 invisibly guid+ my /eps4 ,a fur!r significance !re 01 inde$2 b "o does n reveal fully ! he>t ( an amulet4 ,h[ ! talisman f9ally vani%$ amid/ deeply unhappy circum/ances ( my life2 & h[ its loss 0 a h]ald ( my ga9 ( a guru1 _c be told 9 ?is *apt]4 ,b ! small boy1 ?w>t$ 9 8 attempts to rea* ! ,himalayas1 daily travel$ f> on ! w+s ( 8 amulet4 ,,fn#b-a ,sanskrit root mean+ ( ,,swami is 8he :o is "o ) 8 ,self 7,,swa740 ,appli$ to a memb] ( ! ,indian ord] ( monks1 ! title has ! =mal respect ( 8! rev]5d40 ,,fn#b-b ,! ,indian cu/om1 :]eby p>5ts *oose ! life-p>tn] = _! *ild1 has resi/$ ! blunt assaults ( "t4 ,! p]c5tage is high ( happy ,indian m>riages4 ,,fn#b-c ,an an*orite2 "o :o pursues a ,,sadhana or pa? ( spiritual discipl9e4 ,,fn#b-d ,:5 ,i discov]$ by ^! words t ,"m _h possess$ secret k ( a %ort life1 ,i und]/ood = ! fir/ "t :y %e _h be5 insi/5t on ha/5+ ! plans = ,ananta's m>riage4 ,?\gh %e di$ be=e ! w$d+1 h] natural mat]nal wi% _h be5 to witness ! rites4 ,,fn#b-e ,a cu/om>y ge/ure ( respect to ,,sadhus4 ,,*apt]3 #c ,,! ,,sa9t ,,) ,,two ,,bodies 8,fa!r1 if ,i promise to return home )\t co]cion1 may ,i take a sight-see+ trip to ,b5>es80 ,my ke5 love ( travel 0 seldom h9d]$ by ,fa!r4 ,he p]mitt$ me1 ev5 z a m]e boy1 to visit _m cities & pilgrimage spots4 ,usually "o or m ( my fri5ds accompani$ me2 we w\ld travel com=tably on fir/-class passes provid$ by ,fa!r4 ,8 position z a railroad (ficial 0 fully satisfactory to ! nomads 9 ! family4 ,fa!r promis$ to give my reque/ due consid]ation4 ,! next day he summon$ me & held out a r\nd-trip pass f ,b>eilly to ,b5>es1 a numb] ( rupee notes1 & two lett]s4 8,i h a bus9ess matt] to propose to a ,b5>es fri5d1 ,k$> ,na? ,babu4 ,un=tunately ,i h lo/ 8 address4 ,b ,i believe y w be able to get ?is lett] to him ?r\gh our common fri5d1 ,swami ,pranaban&a4 ,! swami1 my bro!r disciple1 has atta9$ an exalt$ spiritual /ature4 ,y w b5efit by 8 company2 ?is second note w s]ve z y\r introduction40 ,fa!r's eyes tw9kl$ z he add$1 8,m9d1 no m flights f home60 ,i set =? ) ! ze/ ( my twelve ye>s 7?\gh "t has nev] dimm$ my delight 9 new sc5es & /range faces74 ,rea*+ ,b5>es1 ,i proce$$ imm$iately to ! swami's resid5ce4 ,! front door 0 op52 ,i made my way to a long1 hall-l room on ! second floor4 ,a r /\t man1 we>+ only a lo9clo?1 0 seat$ 9 lotus po/ure on a slightly rais$ plat=m4 ,8 head & unwr9kl$ face 7 clean-%av52 a beatific smile play$ ab\t 8 lips4 ,to dispel my ?\ght t ,i _h intrud$1 he greet$ me z an old fri5d4 8,,baba ,,an& 7bliss to my de> "o740 ,8 welcome 0 giv5 he>tily 9 a *ildlike voice4 ,i knelt & t\*$ 8 feet4 8,are y ,swami ,pranaban&a80 ,he nodd$4 8,are y ,bhagabati's son80 ,8 words 7 out be=e ,i _h _h "t to get ,fa!r's lett] f my pocket4 ,9 a/oni%m5t1 ,i h&$ him ! note ( introduction1 :i* n[ seem$ sup]flu\s4 8,( c\rse ,i w locate ,k$> ,na? ,babu = y40 ,! sa9t aga9 surpris$ me by 8 clairvoyance4 ,he glanc$ at ! lett]1 & made a few affectionate ref]5ces to my p>5t4 8,y "k1 ,i am enjoy+ two p5sions4 ,"o is by ! recomm5dation ( y\r fa!r1 = :om ,i once work$ 9 ! railroad (fice4 ,! o!r is by ! recomm5dation ( my ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 = :om ,i h consci5ti\sly f9i%$ my e>?ly duties 9 life40 ,i f\nd ?is rem>k v obscure4 8,:at k9d ( p5sion1 sir1 d y receive f ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r8 ,does ,he drop money 9 y\r lap80 ,he laugh$4 8,i mean a p5sion ( fa?omless peace-a rew>d = _m ye>s ( deep m$itation4 ,i nev] crave money n[4 ,my few mat]ial ne$s are amply provid$ =4 ,lat] y w und]/& ! significance ( a second p5sion40 ,abruptly t]m9at+ our conv]sation1 ! sa9t became gravely motionless4 ,a sph9xlike air envelop$ him4 ,at fir/ 8 eyes sp>kl$1 z if obs]v+ some?+ ( int]e/1 !n grew dull4 ,i felt aba%$ at 8 pauciloquy2 he _h n yet told me h[ ,i c\ld meet ,fa!r's fri5d4 ,a trifle re/lessly1 ,i look$ ab\t me 9 ! b>e room1 empty except = u two4 ,my idle gaze took 9 8 wood5 s&als1 ly+ "u ! plat=m seat4 8,little sir1 ,,fn#c-a don't get worri$4 ,! man y wi% to see w be ) y 9 half an h\r40 ,! yogi 0 read+ my m9d-a feat n too difficult at ! mom5t6 ,illu/ration3 ,swami ,pranaban&a1 8,! ,sa9t ,) ,two ,bodies01 ,an ,exalt$ ,disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya--see pranaban&a4jpg ,aga9 he fell into inscrutable sil5ce4 ,my wat* in=m$ me t ?irty m9utes _h elaps$4 ,! swami ar\s$ himself4 8,i ?9k ,k$> ,na? ,babu is ne>+ ! door40 ,i he>d somebody com+ up ! /airs4 ,an amaz$ incompreh5sion arose sudd5ly2 my ?\ghts rac$ 9 confusion3 8,h[ is x possible t ,fa!r's fri5d has be5 summon$ to ?is place )\t ! help ( a mess5g]8 ,! swami has spok5 to no "o b myself s9ce my arrival60 ,abruptly ,i quitt$ ! room & desc5d$ ! /eps4 ,halfway d[n ,i met a ?91 fair-sk9n$ man ( m$ium height4 ,he appe>$ to be 9 a hurry4 8,are y ,k$> ,na? ,babu80 ,excitem5t color$ my voice4 8,yes4 ,are y n ,bhagabati's son :o has be5 wait+ "h to meet me80 ,he smil$ 9 fri5dly fa%ion4 8,sir1 h[ d y happ5 to come "h80 ,i felt baffl$ res5tm5t ov] 8 inexplicable pres5ce4 8,ev]y?+ is my/]i\s today6 ,less ?an an h\r ago ,i _h j f9i%$ my ba? 9 ! ,ganges :5 ,swami ,pranaban&a approa*$ me4 ,i h no idea h[ he knew ,i 0 !re at t "t4 8#8,bhagabati's son is wait+ = y 9 my ap>tm5t1' he said4 #8,w y come ) me8' ,i gladly agre$4 ,z we proce$$ h& 9 h&1 ! swami 9 8 wood5 s&als 0 /rangely able to outpace me1 ?\gh ,i wore ^! /\t walk+ %oes4 8#8,h[ long w x take y to rea* my place8' ,pranaban&aji sudd5ly halt$ to ask me ?is "q4 8#8,ab\t half an h\r4' 8#8,i h some?+ else to d at pres5t4' ,he gave me an enigmatical glance4 #8,i mu/ leave y beh9d4 ,y c jo9 me 9 my h\se1 :]e ,bhagabati's son & ,i w be await+ y4' 8,be=e ,i c\ld remon/rate1 he da%$ swiftly pa/ me & disappe>$ 9 ! cr[d4 ,i walk$ "h z fa/ z possible40 ,?is explanation only increas$ my bewild]m5t4 ,i inquir$ h[ long he _h kn[n ! swami4 8,we met a few times la/ ye>1 b n rec5tly4 ,i 0 v glad to see him aga9 today at ! ba?+ ,,ghat40 8,i _c believe my e>s6 ,am ,i los+ my m9d8 ,did y meet him 9 a vision1 or did y actually see him1 t\* 8 h&1 & he> ! s\nd ( 8 feet80 8,i don't "k :at y're driv+ at60 ,he flu%$ angrily4 8,i am n ly+ to y4 ,c't y und]/& t only ?r\gh ! swami c\ld ,i h kn[n y 7 wait+ at ?is place = me80 8,:y1 t man1 ,swami ,pranaban&a1 has n left my sight a mom5t s9ce ,i fir/ came ab\t an h\r ago40 ,i blurt$ out ! :ole /ory4 ,8 eyes op5$ widely4 8,are we liv+ 9 ?is mat]ial age1 or are we dream+8 ,i nev] expect$ to witness su* a miracle 9 my life6 ,i ?\ght ?is swami 0 j an ord9>y man1 & n[ ,i f9d he c mat]ialize an extra body & "w ?r\gh x60 ,toge!r we ent]$ ! sa9t's room4 8,look1 ^? are ! v s&als he 0 we>+ at ! ,,ghat10 ,k$> ,na? ,babu :isp]$4 8,he 0 clad only 9 a lo9clo?1 j z ,i see him n[40 ,z ! visitor b[$ be=e him1 ! sa9t turn$ to me ) a quizzical smile4 8,:y are y /upefi$ at all ?is8 ,! subtle unity ( ! ph5om5al _w is n hidd5 f true yogis4 ,i in/antly see & conv]se ) my disciples 9 di/ant ,calcutta4 ,!y c simil>ly transc5d at w e ob/acle ( gross matt]40 ,x 0 probably 9 an ef=t to /ir spiritual ardor 9 my "y brea/ t ! swami _h condesc5d$ to tell me ( 8 p[]s ( a/ral radio & television4 ,,fn#c-b ,b in/ead ( en?usiasm1 ,i exp]i5c$ only an awe-/rick5 fe>4 ,inasmu* z ,i 0 de/9$ to und]take my div9e se>* ?r\gh "o p>ticul> guru-,sri ,yuktesw>1 :om ,i _h n yet met-,i felt no incl9ation to accept ,pranaban&a z my tea*]4 ,i glanc$ at him d\btfully1 wond]+ if x 7 he or 8 c\nt]p>t be=e me4 ,! ma/] s\ght to bani% my disquietude by be/[+ a s\l-awak5+ gaze1 & by "s inspir+ words ab\t 8 guru4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 ! greate/ yogi ,i ev] knew4 ,he 0 ,div9ity ,itself 9 ! =m ( fle%40 ,if a disciple1 ,i reflect$1 c\ld mat]ialize an extra fle%ly =m at w1 :at miracles inde$ c\ld be b>r$ to 8 ma/]8 8,i w tell y h[ priceless is a guru's help4 ,i us$ to m$itate ) ano!r disciple = eight h\rs e night4 ,we _h to "w at ! railroad (fice dur+ ! day4 ,f9d+ difficulty 9 c>ry+ on my cl]ical duties1 ,i desir$ to devote my :ole "t to ,god4 ,= eight ye>s ,i p]sev]$1 m$itat+ half ! night4 ,i _h wond]ful results2 trem5d\s spiritual p]ceptions illum9$ my m9d4 ,b a little veil always rema9$ betwe5 me & ! ,inf9ite4 ,ev5 ) sup]-human e>ne/ness1 ,i f\nd ! f9al irrevocable union to be d5i$ me4 ,"o ev5+ ,i paid a visit to ,lahiri ,mahasaya & plead$ = 8 div9e int]cession4 ,my importunities cont9u$ dur+ ! entire night4 8#8,angelic ,guru1 my spiritual angui% is su* t ,i c no long] be> my life )\t meet+ ! ,great ,belov$ face to face6' 8#8,:at c ,i d8 ,y mu/ m$itate m pr(\ndly4' 8#8,i am appeal+ to ,!e1 ,o ,god my ,ma/]6 ,i see ,!e mat]ializ$ be=e me 9 a physical body2 bless me t ,i may p]ceive ,!e 9 ,?9e inf9ite =m6' 8,lahiri ,mahasaya ext5d$ 8 h& 9 a b5ign ge/ure4 #8,y may g n[ & m$itate4 ,i h int]c$$ = y ) ,brahma4' ,,fn#c-c 8,immeasurably uplift$1 ,i return$ to my home4 ,9 m$itation t night1 ! burn+ ,goal ( my life 0 a*iev$4 ,n[ ,i ceaselessly enjoy ! spiritual p5sion4 ,nev] f t day has ! ,blissful ,creator rema9$ hidd5 f my eyes beh9d any scre5 ( delusion40 ,pranaban&a's face 0 suffus$ ) div9e light4 ,! peace ( ano!r _w ent]$ my he>t2 all fe> _h fl$4 ,! sa9t made a fur!r confid5ce4 8,"s mon?s lat] ,i return$ to ,lahiri ,mahasaya & tri$ to ?ank him = 8 be/[al ( ! inf9ite gift4 ,!n ,i m5tion$ ano!r matt]4 8#8,div9e ,guru1 ,i c no long] "w 9 ! (fice4 ,please release me4 ,brahma keeps me cont9u\sly intoxicat$4' 8#8,apply = a p5sion f y\r company4' 8#8,:at reason %all ,i give1 s e>ly 9 my s]vice8' 8#8,say :at y feel4' 8,! next day ,i made my application4 ,! doctor inquir$ ! gr\nds = my premature reque/4 8#8,at "w1 ,i f9d an ov]p[]+ s5sation ris+ 9 my sp9e4 ,,fn#c-d ,x p]meates my :ole body1 unfitt+ me = ! p]=mance ( my duties4' 8,)\t fur!r que/ion+ ! physician recomm5d$ me highly = a p5sion1 :i* ,i soon receiv$4 ,i "k ! div9e w ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya work$ ?r\gh ! doctor & ! railroad (ficials1 includ+ y\r fa!r4 ,automatically !y obey$ ! great guru's spiritual direction1 & fre$ me = a life ( unbrok5 communion ) ! ,belov$40 ,,fn#c-e ,aft] ?is extraord9>y revelation1 ,swami ,pranaban&a retir$ into "o ( 8 long sil5ces4 ,z ,i 0 tak+ leave1 t\*+ 8 feet rev]5tly1 he gave me 8 bless+3 8,y\r life belongs to ! pa? ( r5unciation & yoga4 ,i %all see y aga91 ) y\r fa!r1 lat] on40 ,! ye>s br\ght fulfillm5t to bo? ^! pr$ictions4 ,,fn#c-f ,k$> ,na? ,babu walk$ by my side 9 ! ga!r+ d>kness4 ,i deliv]$ ,fa!r's lett]1 :i* my companion read "u a /reet lamp4 8,y\r fa!r sugge/s t ,i take a position 9 ! ,calcutta (fice ( 8 railroad company4 ,h[ pleasant to look =w>d to at lea/ "o ( ! p5sions t ,swami ,pranaban&a enjoys6 ,b x is impossible2 ,i _c leave ,b5>es4 ,alas1 two bodies are n yet = me60 ,,fn#c-a ,,*oto ,,mahasaya is ! t]m by :i* a numb] ( ,indian sa9ts address$ me4 ,x translates 8little sir404 ,,fn#c-b ,9 its own way1 physical sci5ce is affirm+ ! validity ( laws discov]$ by yogis ?r\gh m5tal sci5ce4 ,= example1 a demon/ration t man has televisional p[]s 0 giv5 on ,nov4 #bf1 #aicd at ! ,royal ,univ]sity ( ,rome4 8,dr4 ,giuseppe ,callig>is1 pr(essor ( neuro-psy*ology1 press$ c]ta9 po9ts ( a subject's body & ! subject respond$ ) m9ute descriptions ( o!r p]sons & objects on ! opposite side ( a wall4 ,dr4 ,callig>is told ! o!r pr(essors t if c]ta9 areas on ! sk9 are agitat$1 ! subject is giv5 sup]-s5sorial impressions enabl+ him to see objects t he c\ld n o!rwise p]ceive4 ,to enable 8 subject to disc]n ?+s on ! o!r side ( a wall1 ,pr(essor ,callig>is press$ on a spot to ! "r ( ! ?orax = fifte5 m9utes4 ,dr4 ,callig>is said t if o!r spots ( ! body 7 agitat$1 ! subjects c\ld see objects at any di/ance1 reg>dless ( :e!r !y _h ev] be=e se5 ^? objects404 ,,fn#c-c ,god 9 ,8 aspect ( ,creator2 f ,sanskrit root ,,brih1 to exp&4 ,:5 ,em]son's poem ,,brahma appe>$ 9 ! ,,atlantic ,,mon?ly 9 #aheg1 mo/ ! read]s 7 bewild]$4 ,em]son *uckl$4 8,tell !m10 he said1 8to say #8,jehovah' in/ead ( #8,brahma' & !y w n feel any p]plexity40 ,,fn#c-d ,9 deep m$itation1 ! fir/ exp]i5ce ( ,_s is on ! alt> ( ! sp9e1 & !n 9 ! bra94 ,! torr5tial bliss is ov]:elm+1 b ! yogi le>ns to control its outw>d manife/ations4 ,,fn#c-e ,aft] 8 retirem5t1 ,pranaban&a wrote "o ( ! mo/ pr(\nd comm5t>ies on ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 available 9 ,b5gali & ,h9di4 ,,fn#c-f ,see *apt] #bg4 ,,*apt]3 #d ,,my ,,int]rupt$ ,,flight ,,t[>d ,,! ,,himalayas 8,leave y\r classroom on "s trifl+ pretext1 & engage a hackney c>riage4 ,/op 9 ! lane :]e no "o 9 my h\se c see y40 ,^! 7 my f9al in/ructions to ,am> ,mitt]1 a high s*ool fri5d :o plann$ to accompany me to ! ,himalayas4 ,we _h *os5 ! foll[+ day = our flight4 ,precautions 7 necess>y1 z ,ananta ex]cis$ a vigilant eye4 ,he 0 det]m9$ to foil ! plans ( escape :i* he suspect$ 7 upp]mo/ 9 my m9d4 ,! amulet1 l a spiritual yea/1 0 sil5tly at "w )9 me4 ,amid/ ! ,himalayan sn[s1 ,i hop$ to f9d ! ma/] ^: face (t5 appe>$ to me 9 visions4 ,! family 0 liv+ n[ 9 ,calcutta1 :]e ,fa!r _h be5 p]man5tly transf]r$4 ,foll[+ ! patri>*al ,indian cu/om1 ,ananta _h br\ght 8 bride to live 9 our home1 n[ at #d ,gurp> ,road4 ,!re 9 a small attic room ,i engag$ 9 daily m$itations & prep>$ my m9d = ! div9e se>*4 ,! memorable morn+ arriv$ ) inauspici\s ra94 ,he>+ ! :eels ( ,am>'s c>riage 9 ! road1 ,i ha/ily ti$ toge!r a blanket1 a pair ( s&als1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya's picture1 a copy ( ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 a /r+ ( pray] beads1 & two lo9clo?s4 ,?is bundle ,i ?rew f my ?ird-/ory w9d[4 ,i ran d[n ! /eps & pass$ my uncle1 buy+ fi% at ! door4 8,:at is ! excitem5t80 ,8 gaze rov$ suspici\sly ov] my p]son4 ,i gave him a noncommittal smile & walk$ to ! lane4 ,retriev+ my bundle1 ,i jo9$ ,am> ) conspiratorial caution4 ,we drove to ,*adni ,*[k1 a m]*&ise c5t]4 ,= mon?s we _h be5 sav+ our tiff9 money to buy ,engli% clo!s4 ,kn[+ t my clev] bro!r c\ld easily play ! "p ( a detective1 we ?\ght to outwit him by ,european g>b4 ,on ! way to ! /ation1 we /opp$ = my c\s91 ,jot9 ,gho%1 :om ,i call$ ,jat9da4 ,he 0 a new conv]t1 long+ = a guru 9 ! ,himalayas4 ,he donn$ ! new suit we _h 9 read9ess4 ,well-cam\flag$1 we hop$6 ,a deep elation possess$ our he>ts4 8,all we ne$ n[ are canvas %oes40 ,i l$ my companions to a %op display+ rubb]-sol$ footwe>4 8,articles ( lea!r1 gott5 only ?r\gh ! slaught] ( animals1 mu/ be abs5t on ?is holy trip40 ,i halt$ on ! /reet to remove ! lea!r cov] f my ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 & ! lea!r /raps f my ,engli%-made ,,sola ,,topee 7helmet74 ,at ! /ation we b\ght tickets to ,burdwan1 :]e we plann$ to transf] = ,h>dw> 9 ! ,himalayan foo?ills4 ,z soon z ! tra91 l ourselves1 0 9 flight1 ,i gave utt]ance to a few ( my glori\s anticipations4 8,j imag9e60 ,i ejaculat$4 8,we %all be initiat$ by ! ma/]s & exp]i5ce ! trance ( cosmic consci\sness4 ,our fle% w be *>g$ ) su* magnetism t wild animals ( ! ,himalayas w come tamely ne> u4 ,tig]s w be no m ?an meek h\se cats await+ our c>esses60 ,?is rem>k-pictur+ a prospect ,i consid]$ entranc+1 bo? metaphorically & lit]ally-br\ght an en?usia/ic smile f ,am>4 ,b ,jat9da av]t$ 8 gaze1 direct+ x ?r\gh ! w9d[ at ! scamp]+ l&scape4 8,let ! money be divid$ 9 ?ree portions40 ,jat9da broke a long sil5ce ) ?is sugge/ion4 8,ea* ( u %\ld buy 8 own ticket at ,burdwan4 ,?us no "o at ! /ation w surmise t we are runn+ away toge!r40 ,i unsuspect+ly agre$4 ,at dusk our tra9 /opp$ at ,burdwan4 ,jat9da ent]$ ! ticket (fice2 ,am> & ,i sat on ! plat=m4 ,we wait$ fifte5 m9utes1 !n made unavail+ inquiries4 ,se>*+ 9 all directions1 we %\t$ ,jat9da's "n ) ! urg5cy ( fright4 ,b he _h fad$ into ! d>k unkn[n surr\nd+ ! little /ation4 ,i 0 completely unn]v$1 %ock$ to a peculi> numbness4 ,t ,god w\ld c\nt5ance ?is depress+ episode6 ,! romantic occasion ( my fir/ c>efully-plann$ flight aft] ,him 0 cruelly m>r$4 8,am>1 we mu/ return home40 ,i 0 weep+ l a *ild4 8,jat9da's call\s dep>ture is an ill om54 ,?is trip is doom$ to failure40 8,is ?is y\r love = ! ,"l8 ,c't y /& ! little te/ ( a trea*]\s companion80 ,?r\gh ,am>'s sugge/ion ( a div9e te/1 my he>t /eadi$ itself4 ,we refre%$ ourselves ) fam\s ,burdwan sweetmeats1 ,,sitabhog 7food = ! goddess7 & ,,moti*ur 7nuggets ( sweet pe>l74 ,9 a few h\rs1 we entra9$ = ,h>dw>1 via ,b>eilly4 ,*ang+ tra9s at ,moghul ,s]ai1 we discuss$ a vital matt] z we wait$ on ! plat=m4 8,am>1 we may soon be closely que/ion$ by railroad (ficials4 ,i am n und]rat+ my bro!r's +5uity6 ,no matt] :at ! outcome1 ,i w n speak untru?40 8,all ,i ask ( y1 ,mukunda1 is to keep /ill4 ,don't laugh or gr9 :ile ,i am talk+40 ,at ?is mom5t1 a ,european /ation ag5t acco/$ me4 ,he wav$ a telegram ^: import ,i imm$iately grasp$4 8,are y runn+ away f home 9 ang]80 8,no60 ,i 0 glad 8 *oice ( words p]mitt$ me to make emphatic reply4 ,n ang] b 8div9e/ melan*oly0 0 responsible1 ,i knew1 = my unconv5tional behavior4 ,! (ficial !n turn$ to ,am>4 ,! duel ( wits t foll[$ h>dly p]mitt$ me to ma9ta9 ! c\nsel$ /oic gravity4 8,:]e is ! ?ird boy80 ,! man inject$ a full r+ ( au?ority into 8 voice4 8,come on2 speak ! tru?60 8,sir1 ,i notice y are we>+ eyeglasses4 ,c't y see t we are only two80 ,am> smil$ impud5tly4 8,i am n a magician2 ,i c't conjure up a ?ird companion40 ,! (ficial1 noticeably disconc]t$ by ?is imp]t95ce1 s\ght a new field ( attack4 8,:at is y\r "n80 8,i am call$ ,?omas4 ,i am ! son ( an ,engli% "m & a conv]t$ ,*ri/ian ,indian fa!r40 8,:at is y\r fri5d's "n80 8,i call him ,?ompson40 ,by ?is "t my inw>d mir? _h rea*$ a z5i?2 ,i unc]emoni\sly made = ! tra91 :i/l+ = dep>ture4 ,am> foll[$ ) ! (ficial1 :o 0 cr$ul\s & oblig+ en\gh to put u into a ,european comp>tm5t4 ,x evid5tly pa9$ him to ?9k ( two half-,engli% boys travel+ 9 ! section allott$ to natives4 ,aft] 8 polite exit1 ,i lay back on ! seat & laugh$ uncontrollably4 ,my fri5d wore an expression ( bli! satisfaction at hav+ outwitt$ a vet]an ,european (ficial4 ,on ! plat=m ,i _h contriv$ to read ! telegram4 ,f my bro!r1 x w5t ?us3 8,?ree ,b5gali boys 9 ,engli% clo!s runn+ away f home t[>d ,h>dw> via ,moghul ,s]ai4 ,please deta9 !m until my arrival4 ,ample rew>d = y\r s]vices40 8,am>1 ,i told y n to leave m>k$ timetables 9 y\r home40 ,my glance 0 reproa*ful4 8,bro!r mu/ h f\nd "o !re40 ,my fri5d %eepi%ly ackn[l$g$ ! ?ru/4 ,we halt$ briefly 9 ,b>eilly1 :]e ,dw>ka ,prasad await$ u ) a telegram f ,ananta4 ,my old fri5d tri$ valiantly to deta9 u2 ,i conv9c$ him t our flight _h n be5 und]tak5 lightly4 ,z on a previ\s occasion1 ,dw>ka refus$ my invitation to set =? to ! ,himalayas4 ,:ile our tra9 /ood 9 a /ation t night1 & ,i 0 half asleep1 ,am> 0 awak5$ by ano!r que/ion+ (ficial4 ,he1 too1 fell a victim to ! hybrid *>ms ( 8,?omas0 & 8,?ompson40 ,! tra9 bore u triumphantly into a dawn arrival at ,h>dw>4 ,! maje/ic m\nta9s loom$ invit+ly 9 ! di/ance4 ,we da%$ ?r\gh ! /ation & ent]$ ! fre$om ( city cr[ds4 ,our fir/ act 0 to *ange into native co/ume1 z ,ananta _h someh[ p5etrat$ our ,european disguise4 ,a premonition ( capture weigh$ on my m9d4 ,deem+ x advisable to leave ,h>dw> at once1 we b\ght tickets to proce$ nor? to ,ri%ike%1 a soil long hall[$ by feet ( _m ma/]s4 ,i _h already bo>d$ ! tra91 :ile ,am> lagg$ on ! plat=m4 ,he 0 br\ght to an abrupt halt by a %\t f a policeman4 ,our unwelcome gu>dian escort$ u to a /ation bungal[ & took *>ge ( our money4 ,he expla9$ c\rte\sly t x 0 8 duty to hold u until my eld] bro!r arriv$4 ,le>n+ t ! truants' de/9ation _h be5 ! ,himalayas1 ! (fic] relat$ a /range /ory4 8,i see y are crazy ab\t sa9ts6 ,y w nev] meet a great] man ( ,god ?an ! "o ,i saw only ye/]day4 ,my bro!r (fic] & ,i fir/ enc\nt]$ him five days ago4 ,we 7 patroll+ by ! ,ganges1 on a %>p look\t = a c]ta9 murd]]4 ,our in/ructions 7 to capture him1 alive or dead4 ,he 0 kn[n to be masqu]ad+ z a ,,sadhu 9 ord] to rob pilgrims4 ,a %ort way be=e u1 we spi$ a figure :i* resembl$ ! description ( ! crim9al4 ,he ignor$ our comm& to /op2 we ran to ov]p[] him4 ,approa*+ 8 back1 ,i wield$ my ax ) trem5d\s =ce2 ! man's "r arm 0 sev]$ almo/ completely f 8 body4 8,)\t outcry or any glance at ! gha/ly w\nd1 ! /rang] a/oni%+ly cont9u$ 8 swift pace4 ,z we jump$ 9 front ( him1 he spoke quietly4 8#8,i am n ! murd]] y are seek+4' 8,i 0 deeply mortifi$ to see ,i _h injur$ ! p]son ( a div9e--look+ sage4 ,pro/rat+ myself at 8 feet1 ,i implor$ 8 p>don1 & (f]$ my turban-clo? to /aun* ! heavy spurts ( blood4 8#8,son1 t 0 j an und]/&able mi/ake on y\r "p4' ,! sa9t reg>d$ me k9dly4 #8,run along1 & don't reproa* y\rself4 ,! ,belov$ ,"m is tak+ c>e ( me4' ,he pu%$ 8 dangl+ arm into its /ump & lo6 x adh]$2 ! blood inexplicably ceas$ to fl[4 8#8,come to me "u yond] tree 9 ?ree days & y w f9d me fully heal$4 ,?us y w feel no remorse4' 8,ye/]day my bro!r (fic] & ,i w5t eag]ly to ! designat$ spot4 ,! ,,sadhu 0 !re & all[$ u to exam9e 8 arm4 ,x bore no sc> or trace ( hurt6 8#8,i am go+ via ,ri%ike% to ! ,himalayan solitudes4' ,he bless$ u z he dep>t$ quickly4 ,i feel t my life has be5 uplift$ ?r\gh 8 sanctity40 ,! (fic] conclud$ ) a pi\s ejaculation2 8 exp]i5ce _h obvi\sly mov$ him beyond 8 usual dep?s4 ,) an impressive ge/ure1 he h&$ me a pr9t$ clipp+ ab\t ! miracle4 ,9 ! usual g>bl$ mann] ( ! s5sational type ( newspap] 7n miss+1 alas6 ev5 9 ,india71 ! report]'s v]sion 0 slightly exagg]at$3 x indicat$ t ! ,,sadhu _h be5 almo/ decapitat$6 ,am> & ,i lam5t$ t we _h miss$ ! great yogi :o c\ld =give 8 p]secutor 9 su* a ,*ri/like way4 ,india1 mat]ially poor = ! la/ two c5turies1 yet has an inexhau/ible fund ( div9e weal?2 spiritual 8skyscrap]s0 may occasionally be enc\nt]$ by ! wayside1 ev5 by worldly m5 l ?is policeman4 ,we ?ank$ ! (fic] = reliev+ our t$ium ) 8 m>vel\s /ory4 ,he 0 probably intimat+ t he 0 m =tunate ?an we3 he _h met an illum9$ sa9t )\t ef=t2 our e>ne/ se>* _h end$1 n at ! feet ( a ma/]1 b 9 a co>se police /ation6 ,s ne> ! ,himalayas & yet1 9 our captivity1 s f>1 ,i told ,am> ,i felt d\bly impell$ to seek fre$om4 8,let u slip away :5 opportunity (f]s4 ,we c g on foot to holy ,ri%ike%40 ,i smil$ enc\rag+ly4 ,b my companion _h turn$ pessimi/ z soon z ! /alw>t prop ( our money _h be5 tak5 f u4 8,if we />t$ a trek ov] su* dang]\s jungle l&1 we %\ld f9i%1 n 9 ! city ( sa9ts1 b 9 ! /oma*s ( tig]s60 ,ananta & ,am>'s bro!r arriv$ aft] ?ree days4 ,am> greet$ 8 relative ) affectionate relief4 ,i 0 unreconcil$2 ,ananta got no m f me ?an a sev]e upbraid+4 8,i und]/& h[ y feel40 ,my bro!r spoke soo?+ly4 8,all ,i ask ( y is to accompany me to ,b5>es to meet a c]ta9 sa9t1 & g on to ,calcutta to visit y\r griev+ fa!r = a few days4 ,!n y c resume y\r se>* "h = a ma/]40 ,am> ent]$ ! conv]sation at ?is po9t to disclaim any int5tion ( return+ to ,h>dw> ) me4 ,he 0 enjoy+ ! familial w>m?4 ,b ,i knew ,i w\ld nev] ab&on ! que/ = my guru4 ,our p>ty entra9$ = ,b5>es4 ,!re ,i _h a s+ul> & in/ant response to my pray]s4 ,a clev] s*eme _h be5 pre>rang$ by ,ananta4 ,be=e see+ me at ,h>dw>1 he _h /opp$ 9 ,b5>es to ask a c]ta9 scriptural au?ority to int]view me lat]4 ,bo? ! pundit & 8 son _h promis$ to und]take my dissuasion f ! pa? ( a ,,sannyasi4 ,,fn#d-a ,ananta took me to _! home4 ,! son1 a "y man ( ebulli5t mann]1 greet$ me 9 ! c\rty>d4 ,he engag$ me 9 a l5g?y philosophic disc\rse4 ,pr(ess+ to h a clairvoyant k ( my future1 he disc\nt5anc$ my idea ( be+ a monk4 8,y w meet cont9ual mis=tune1 & be unable to f9d ,god1 if y insi/ on des]t+ y\r ord9>y responsibilities6 ,y _c "w out y\r pa/ k>ma ,,fn#d-b )\t worldly exp]i5ces40 ,kri%na's immortal words rose to my lips 9 reply3 8#8,ev5 he ) ! wor/ ( k>ma :o ceaselessly m$itates on ,me quickly loses ! effects ( 8 pa/ bad actions4 ,becom+ a high-s\l$ be+1 he soon atta9s p]5nial peace4 ,arjuna1 "k ?is = c]ta93 ! devotee :o puts 8 tru/ 9 ,me nev] p]i%es6'0 ,,fn#d-c ,illu/ration3 ,i /& beh9d my eld] bro!r1 ,ananta4--see ananta4jpg ,b ! =ceful progno/ications ( ! "y man _h slightly %ak5 my confid5ce4 ,) all ! f]vor ( my he>t ,i pray$ sil5tly to ,god3 8,please solve my bewild]m5t & answ] me1 "r "h & n[1 if ,?\ do/ desire me to lead ! life ( a r5unciate or a worldly man60 ,i notic$ a ,,sadhu ( noble c\nt5ance /&+ j outside ! comp\nd ( ! pundit's h\se4 ,evid5tly he _h ov]he>d ! spirit$ conv]sation betwe5 ! self-/yl$ clairvoyant & myself1 = ! /rang] call$ me to 8 side4 ,i felt a trem5d\s p[] fl[+ f 8 calm eyes4 8,son1 don't li/5 to t ignoramus4 ,9 response to y\r pray]1 ! ,"l tells me to assure y t y\r sole pa? 9 ?is life is t ( ! r5unciate40 ,) a/oni%m5t z well z gratitude1 ,i smil$ happily at ?is decisive message4 8,come away f t man60 ,! 8ignoramus0 0 call+ me f ! c\rty>d4 ,my sa9tly guide rais$ 8 h& 9 bless+ & sl[ly dep>t$4 8,t ,,sadhu is j z crazy z y are40 ,x 0 ! ho>y-head$ pundit :o made ?is *>m+ obs]vation4 ,he & 8 son 7 gaz+ at me lugubri\sly4 8,i he>d t he too has left 8 home 9 a vague se>* = ,god40 ,i turn$ away4 ,to ,ananta ,i rem>k$ t ,i w\ld n engage 9 fur!r discussion ) our ho/s4 ,my bro!r agre$ to an imm$iate dep>ture2 we soon entra9$ = ,calcutta4 8,mr4 ,detective1 h[ did y discov] ,i _h fl$ ) two companions80 ,i v5t$ my lively curiosity to ,ananta dur+ our homew>d j\rney4 ,he smil$ mis*iev\sly4 8,at y\r s*ool1 ,i f\nd t ,am> _h left 8 classroom & _h n return$4 ,i w5t to 8 home ! next morn+ & une>!d a m>k$ timetable4 ,am>'s fa!r 0 j leav+ by c>riage & 0 talk+ to ! coa*man4 8#8,my son w n ride ) me to 8 s*ool ?is morn+4 ,he has disappe>$6' ! fa!r moan$4 8#8,i he>d f a bro!r coa*man t y\r son & two o!rs1 dress$ 9 ,european suits1 bo>d$ ! tra9 at ,h[rah ,/ation1' ! man /at$4 #8,!y made a pres5t ( _! lea!r %oes to ! cab driv]4' 8,?us ,i _h ?ree clues-! timetable1 ! trio ( boys1 & ! ,engli% clo?+40 ,i 0 li/5+ to ,ananta's disclosures ) m+l$ mir? & vexation4 ,our g5]osity to ! coa*man _h be5 slightly misplac$6 8,( c\rse ,i ru%$ to s5d telegrams to /ation (ficials 9 all ! cities :i* ,am> _h und]l9$ 9 ! timetable4 ,he _h *eck$ ,b>eilly1 s ,i wir$ y\r fri5d ,dw>ka !re4 ,aft] inquiries 9 our ,calcutta neighborhood1 ,i le>n$ t c\s9 ,jat9da _h be5 abs5t "o night b _h arriv$ home ! foll[+ morn+ 9 ,european g>b4 ,i s\ght him out & invit$ him to d9n]4 ,he accept$1 q dis>m$ by my fri5dly mann]4 ,on ! way ,i l$ him unsuspect+ly to a police /ation4 ,he 0 surr\nd$ by sev]al (fic]s :om ,i _h previ\sly select$ = _! f]oci\s appe>ance4 ,"u _! =midable gaze1 ,jat9da agre$ to acc\nt = 8 my/]i\s conduct4 8#8,i />t$ = ! ,himalayas 9 a buoyant spiritual mood1' he expla9$4 #8,inspiration fill$ me at ! prospect ( meet+ ! ma/]s4 ,b z soon z ,mukunda said1 8,dur+ our ec/asies 9 ! ,himalayan caves1 tig]s w be spellb\nd & sit ar\nd u l tame pussies10 my spirits froze2 beads ( p]spiration =m$ on my br[4 8,:at !n80 ,i ?\ght4 8,if ! vici\s nature ( ! tig]s be n *ang$ ?r\gh ! p[] ( our spiritual trance1 %all !y treat u ) ! k9dness ( h\se cats80 ,9 my m9d's eye1 ,i already saw myself ! compulsory inmate ( "s tig]'s /oma*-ent]+ !re n at once ) ! :ole body1 b by in/allm5ts ( its sev]al p>ts6'0 ,my ang] at ,jat9da's vani%m5t 0 evaporat$ 9 laught]4 ,! hil>i\s sequel on ! tra9 0 wor? all ! angui% he _h caus$ me4 ,i mu/ confess to a slight feel+ ( satisfaction3 ,jat9da too _h n escap$ an enc\nt] ) ! police6 8,ananta1 ,,fn#d-d y are a born sleu?h\nd60 ,my glance ( amusem5t 0 n )\t "s exasp]ation4 8,& ,i %all tell ,jat9da ,i am glad he 0 prompt$ by no mood ( trea*]y1 z x appe>$1 b only by ! prud5t in/9ct ( self-pres]vation60 ,at home 9 ,calcutta1 ,fa!r t\*+ly reque/$ me to curb my rov+ feet until1 at lea/1 ! completion ( my high s*ool /udies4 ,9 my abs5ce1 he _h lov+ly hat*$ a plot by arrang+ = a sa9tly pundit1 ,swami ,kebalan&a1 ,,fn#d-e to come regul>ly to ! h\se4 8,! sage w be y\r ,sanskrit tutor10 my p>5t ann\nc$ confid5tly4 ,fa!r hop$ to satisfy my religi\s ye>n+s by in/ructions f a le>n$ philosoph]4 ,b ! tables 7 subtly turn$3 my new tea*]1 f> f (f]+ intellectual aridities1 fann$ ! emb]s ( my ,god-aspiration4 ,unkn[n to ,fa!r1 ,swami ,kebalan&a 0 an exalt$ disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,! pe]less guru _h possess$ ?\s&s ( disciples1 sil5tly drawn to him by ! irresi/ibility ( 8 div9e magnetism4 ,i le>n$ lat] t ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h (t5 *>act]iz$ ,kebalan&a z ,,ri%i or illum9$ sage4 ,luxuriant curls fram$ my tutor's h&some face4 ,8 d>k eyes 7 guileless1 ) ! transp>5cy ( a *ild's4 ,all ! movem5ts ( 8 slight body 7 m>k$ by a re/ful delib]ation4 ,ev] g5tle & lov+1 he 0 firmly e/abli%$ 9 ! inf9ite consci\sness4 ,_m ( our happy h\rs toge!r 7 sp5t 9 deep ,,kriya m$itation4 ,kebalan&a 0 a not$ au?ority on ! anci5t ,,%a/ras or sacr$ books3 8 erudition _h e>n$ him ! title ( 8,%a/ri ,mahasaya10 by :i* he 0 usually address$4 ,b my progress 9 ,sanskrit s*ol>%ip 0 unnotewor?y4 ,i s\ght e opportunity to =sake prosaic gramm> & to talk ( yoga & ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,my tutor oblig$ me "o day by tell+ me some?+ ( 8 own life ) ! ma/]4 8,r>ely =tunate1 ,i 0 able to rema9 ne> ,lahiri ,mahasaya = t5 ye>s4 ,8 ,b5>es home 0 my nightly goal ( pilgrimage4 ,! guru 0 always pres5t 9 a small front p>lor on ! fir/ floor4 ,z he sat 9 lotus po/ure on a backless wood5 seat1 8 disciples g>l&$ him 9 a semicircle4 ,8 eyes sp>kl$ & danc$ ) ! joy ( ! ,div9e4 ,!y 7 ev] half clos$1 pe]+ ?r\gh ! inn] telescopic orb into a sph]e ( et]nal bliss4 ,he seldom spoke at l5g?4 ,occasionally 8 gaze w\ld focus on a /ud5t 9 ne$ ( help2 heal+ words p\r$ !n l an avalan*e ( light4 8,an indescribable peace blossom$ )9 me at ! ma/]'s glance4 ,i 0 p]meat$ ) 8 fragrance1 z ?\gh f a lotus ( inf9ity4 ,to be ) him1 ev5 )\t ex*ang+ a ^w = days1 0 exp]i5ce :i* *ang$ my entire be+4 ,if any invisible b>ri] rose 9 ! pa? ( my conc5tration1 ,i w\ld m$itate at ! guru's feet4 ,!re ! mo/ t5u\s /ates came easily )9 my grasp4 ,su* p]ceptions elud$ me 9 ! pres5ce ( less] tea*]s4 ,! ma/] 0 a liv+ temple ( ,god ^: secret doors 7 op5 to all disciples ?r\gh devotion4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 no booki% int]pret] ( ! scriptures4 ,ef=tlessly he dipp$ into ! #8div9e libr>y4' ,foam ( words & spray ( ?\ghts gu%$ f ! f\nta9 ( 8 omnisci5ce4 ,he _h ! wondr\s clavis :i* unlock$ ! pr(\nd philosophical sci5ce emb$d$ ages ago 9 ! ,,v$as4 ,,fn#d-f ,if ask$ to expla9 ! diff]5t planes ( consci\sness m5tion$ 9 ! anci5t texts1 he w\ld smil+ly ass5t4 8#8,i w und]go ^? /ates1 & pres5tly tell y :at ,i p]ceive4' ,he 0 ?us diametrically unlike ! tea*]s :o commit scripture to memory & !n give =? unrealiz$ ab/ractions4 8#8,please exp\nd ! holy /anzas z ! mean+ occurs to y4' ,! taciturn guru (t5 gave ?is in/ruction to a ne>-by disciple4 #8,i w guide y\r ?\ghts1 t ! "r int]pretation be utt]$4' ,9 ?is way _m ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's p]ceptions came to be record$1 ) volum9\s comm5t>ies by v>i\s /ud5ts4 8,! ma/] nev] c\nsel$ slavi% belief4 #8,words are only %ells1' he said4 #8,w9 conviction ( ,god's pres5ce ?r\gh y\r own joy\s contact 9 m$itation4' 8,no matt] :at ! disciple's problem1 ! guru advis$ ,,kriya ,,yoga = its solution4 8#8,! yogic key w n lose its effici5cy :5 ,i am no long] pres5t 9 ! body to guide y4 ,?is te*nique _c be b\nd1 fil$1 & =gott51 9 ! mann] ( !oretical inspirations4 ,cont9ue ceaselessly on y\r pa? to lib]ation ?r\gh ,,kriya1 ^: p[] lies 9 practice4' 8,i myself consid] ,,kriya ! mo/ effective device ( salvation ?r\gh self-ef=t ev] to be evolv$ 9 man's se>* = ! ,inf9ite40 ,kebalan&a conclud$ ) ?is e>ne/ te/imony4 8,?r\gh its use1 ! omnipot5t ,god1 hidd5 9 all m51 became visibly inc>nat$ 9 ! fle% ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya & a numb] ( 8 disciples40 ,a ,*ri/like miracle by ,lahiri ,mahasaya took place 9 ,kebalan&a's pres5ce4 ,my sa9tly tutor rec\nt$ ! /ory "o day1 8 eyes remote f ! ,sanskrit texts be=e u4 8,a bl9d disciple1 ,ramu1 ar\s$ my active pity4 ,%\ld he h no light 9 8 eyes1 :5 he fai?fully s]v$ our ma/]1 9 :om ! ,div9e 0 fully blaz+8 ,"o morn+ ,i s\ght to speak to ,ramu1 b he sat = pati5t h\rs fann+ ! guru ) a h&-made palm-leaf ,,punkha4 ,:5 ! devotee f9ally left ! room1 ,i foll[$ him4 8#8,ramu1 h[ long h y be5 bl9d8' 8#8,f my bir?1 sir6 ,nev] h my eyes be5 bless$ ) a glimpse ( ! sun4' 8#8,our omnipot5t guru c help y4 ,please make a supplication4' 8,! foll[+ day ,ramu diffid5tly approa*$ ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,! disciple felt almo/ a%am$ to ask t physical weal? be add$ to 8 spiritual sup]abundance4 8#8,ma/]1 ! ,illum9ator ( ! cosmos is 9 y4 ,i pray y to br+ ,8 light into my eyes1 t ,i p]ceive ! sun's less] gl[4' 8#8,ramu1 someone has conniv$ to put me 9 a difficult position4 ,i h no heal+ p[]4' 8#8,sir1 ! ,inf9ite ,"o )9 y c c]ta9ly heal4' 8#8,t is inde$ diff]5t1 ,ramu4 ,god's limit is n[h]e6 ,he :o ignites ! />s & ! cells ( fle% ) my/]i\s life-effulg5ce c surely br+ lu/] ( vision into y\r eyes4' 8,! ma/] t\*$ ,ramu's =ehead at ! po9t betwe5 ! eyebr[s4 ,,fn#d-g 8#8,keep y\r m9d conc5trat$ !re1 & frequ5tly *ant ! "n ( ! prophet ,rama ,,fn#d-h = sev5 days4 ,! spl5dor ( ! sun %all h a special dawn = y4' 8,lo6 9 "o week x 0 s4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 ,ramu beheld ! fair face ( nature4 ,! ,omnisci5t ,"o _h un]r+ly direct$ 8 disciple to repeat ! "n ( ,rama1 ador$ by him above all o!r sa9ts4 ,ramu's fai? 0 ! devotionally pl\gh$ soil 9 :i* ! guru's p[]ful se$ ( p]man5t heal+ spr\t$40 ,kebalan&a 0 sil5t = a mom5t1 !n paid a fur!r tribute to 8 guru4 8,x 0 evid5t 9 all miracles p]=m$ by ,lahiri ,mahasaya t he nev] all[$ ! ego-pr9ciple ,,fn#d-i to consid] itself a causative =ce4 ,by p]fection ( resi/less surr5d]1 ! ma/] enabl$ ! ,prime ,heal+ ,p[] to fl[ freely ?r\gh him4 8,! num]\s bodies :i* 7 spectacul>ly heal$ ?r\gh ,lahiri ,mahasaya ev5tually _h to fe$ ! flames ( cremation4 ,b ! sil5t spiritual awak5+s he effect$1 ! ,*ri/like disciples he fa%ion$1 are 8 imp]i%able miracles40 ,i nev] became a ,sanskrit s*ol>2 ,kebalan&a taught me a div9] syntax4 ,,fn#d-a ,lit]ally1 8r5unciate40 ,f ,sanskrit v]b roots1 8to ca/ aside40 ,,fn#d-b ,effects ( pa/ actions1 9 ?is or a =m] life2 f ,sanskrit ,,kri1 8to d40 ,,fn#d-c ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 ,,ix1 #cj-ca4 ,kri%na 0 ! greate/ prophet ( ,india2 ,arjuna 0 8 =emo/ disciple4 ,,fn#d-d ,i always address$ him z ,ananta-da4 ,,da is a respectful suffix :i* ! elde/ bro!r 9 an ,indian family receives f junior bro!rs & si/]s4 ,,fn#d-e ,at ! "t ( our meet+1 ,kebalan&a _h n yet jo9$ ! ,swami ,ord] & 0 g5]ally call$ 8,%a/ri ,mahasaya40 ,to avoid confusion ) ! "n ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya & ( ,ma/] ,mahasaya 744_/*apt] #i71 ,i am ref]r+ to my ,sanskrit tutor only by 8 lat] mona/ic "n ( ,swami ,kebalan&a4 ,8 biography has be5 rec5tly publi%$ 9 ,b5gali4 ,born 9 ! ,khulna di/rict ( ,b5gal 9 #ahfc1 ,kebalan&a gave up 8 body 9 ,b5>es at ! age ( sixty-eight4 ,8 family "n 0 ,a%uto% ,*att]ji4 ,,fn#d-f ,! anci5t f\r ,,v$as comprise ov] #ajj extant canonical books4 ,em]son paid ! foll[+ tribute 9 8 ,,j\rnal to ,v$ic ?\ght3 8,x is sublime z heat & night & a brea?less ocean4 ,x conta9s e religi\s s5tim5t1 all ! gr& e?ics :i* visit 9 turn ea* noble poetic m9d4 4 4 4 ,x is ( no use to put away ! book2 if ,i tru/ myself 9 ! woods or 9 a boat ^u ! pond1 ,nature makes a ,,brahm9 ( me pres5tly3 et]nal necessity1 et]nal comp5sation1 unfa?omable p[]1 unbrok5 sil5ce4 4 4 4 ,?is is h] cre$4 ,peace1 %e sai? to me1 & purity & absolute ab&onm5t--^! panaceas expiate all s9 & br+ y to ! beatitude ( ! ,eight ,gods40 ,,fn#d-g ,! seat ( ! 8s+le0 or spiritual eye4 ,at dea? ! consci\sness ( man is usually drawn to ?is holy spot1 acc\nt+ = ! uprais$ eyes f\nd 9 ! dead4 ,,fn#d-h ,! c5tral sacr$ figure ( ! ,sanskrit epic1 ,,ramayana4 ,,fn#d-i ,ahank>a1 egoism2 lit]ally1 8,i d40 ,! root cause ( dualism or illusion ( ,,maya1 :]eby ! subject 7ego7 appe>s z object2 ! creatures imag9e !mselves to be creators4 ,,*apt]3 #e ,a 8,,p]fume ,,sa9t0 ,,displays ,,8 ,,wond]s 8,to e ?+ !re is a season1 & a "t to e purpose "u ! heav540 ,i did n h ?is wisdom ( ,solomon to com=t me2 ,i gaz$ se>*+ly ab\t me1 on any excursion f home1 = ! face ( my de/9$ guru4 ,b my pa? did n cross 8 own until aft] ! completion ( my high s*ool /udies4 ,two ye>s elaps$ betwe5 my flight ) ,am> t[>d ! ,himalayas1 & ! great day ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s arrival into my life4 ,dur+ t int]im ,i met a numb] ( sages-! 8,p]fume ,sa9t10 ! 8,tig] ,swami10 ,nag5dra ,na? ,bhaduri1 ,ma/] ,mahasaya1 & ! fam\s ,b5gali sci5ti/1 ,jagadis ,*&ra ,bose4 ,my enc\nt] ) ! 8,p]fume ,sa9t0 _h two preambles1 "o h>moni\s & ! o!r humor\s4 8,god is simple4 ,ev]y?+ else is complex4 ,d n seek absolute values 9 ! relative _w ( nature40 ,^! philosophical f9alities g5tly ent]$ my e> z ,i /ood sil5tly be=e a temple image ( ,kali4 ,turn+1 ,i confront$ a tall man ^: g>b1 or lack ( x1 reveal$ him a w&]+ ,,sadhu4 8,y h inde$ p5etrat$ ! bewild]m5t ( my ?\ghts60 ,i smil$ gratefully4 8,! confusion ( b5ign & t]rible aspects 9 nature1 z symboliz$ by ,kali1 ,,fn#e-a has puzzl$ wis] heads ?an m9e60 8,few !re be :o solve h] my/]y6 ,good & evil is ! *all5g+ riddle :i* life places sph9xlike be=e e intellig5ce4 ,attempt+ no solution1 mo/ m5 pay =feit ) _! lives1 p5alty n[ ev5 z 9 ! days ( ,!bes4 ,"h & !re1 a t[]+ lonely figure nev] cries defeat4 ,f ! ,,maya ,,fn#e-b ( duality he plucks ! cleaveless tru? ( unity40 8,y speak ) conviction1 sir40 8,i h long ex]cis$ an hone/ introspection1 ! exquisitely pa9ful approa* to wisdom4 ,self-scrut9y1 rel5tless obs]vance ( "o's ?\ghts1 is a />k & %att]+ exp]i5ce4 ,x pulv]izes ! /\te/ ego4 ,b true self-analysis ma!matically op]ates to produce se]s4 ,! way ( #8self-expression1' individual ackn[l$gm5ts1 results 9 egoti/s1 sure ( ! "r to _! private int]pretations ( ,god & ! univ]se40 8,tru? humbly retires1 no d\bt1 be=e su* arrogant orig9ality40 ,i 0 enjoy+ ! discussion4 8,man c und]/& no et]nal v]ity until he has fre$ himself f pret5sions4 ,! human m9d1 b>$ to a c5turi$ slime1 is teem+ ) repulsive life ( c\ntless _w-delusions4 ,/ruggles ( ! battlefields pale into insignificance "h1 :5 man fir/ cont5ds ) inw>d enemies6 ,no mortal foes ^!1 to be ov]come by h>r[+ array ( might6 ,omnipres5t1 unre/+1 pursu+ man ev5 9 sleep1 subtly equipp$ ) a miasmic weapon1 ^! soldi]s ( ignorant lu/s seek to slay u all4 ,?\ghtless is ! man :o buries 8 ideals1 surr5d]+ to ! common fate4 ,c he seem o!r ?an impot5t1 wood51 ignom9i\s80 8,respect$ ,sir1 h y no sympa?y = ! bewild]$ masses80 ,! sage 0 sil5t = a mom5t1 !n answ]$ obliquely4 8,to love bo? ! invisible ,god1 ,repository ( ,all ,virtues1 & visible man1 app>5tly possess$ ( none1 is (t5 baffl+6 ,b +5uity is equal to ! maze4 ,inn] rese>* soon exposes a unity 9 all human m9ds-! /alw>t k9%ip ( selfi% motive4 ,9 "o s5se at lea/1 ! bro!rhood ( man /&s reveal$4 ,an agha/ humility foll[s ?is level+ discov]y4 ,x rip5s into compassion = "o's fell[s1 bl9d to ! heal+ pot5cies ( ! s\l await+ exploration40 8,! sa9ts ( e age1 sir1 h felt l y\rself = ! sorr[s ( ! _w40 8,only ! %all[ man loses responsiv5ess to ! woes ( o!rs' lives1 z he s9ks into n>r[ suff]+ ( 8 own40 ,! ,,sadhu',s au/]e face 0 noticeably s(t5$4 8,! "o :o practices a scalpel self-dissection w "k an expansion ( univ]sal pity4 ,release is giv5 him f ! deaf5+ dem&s ( 8 ego4 ,! love ( ,god fl[]s on su* soil4 ,! creature f9ally turns to 8 ,creator1 if = no o!r reason ?an to ask 9 angui%3 #8,:y1 ,"l1 :y8' ,by ignoble :ips ( pa91 man is driv5 at la/ into ! ,inf9ite ,pres5ce1 ^: beauty alone %\ld lure him40 ,! sage & ,i 7 pres5t 9 ,calcutta's ,kalighat ,temple1 :i!r ,i _h gone to view its fam$ magnific5ce4 ,) a sweep+ ge/ure1 my *ance companion dismiss$ ! ornate dignity4 8,bricks & mort> s+ u no audible tune2 ! he>t op5s only to ! human *ant ( be+40 ,we /roll$ to ! invit+ sun%9e at ! entrance1 :]e ?rongs ( devotees 7 pass+ to & fro4 8,y are "y40 ,! sage survey$ me ?\ghtfully4 8,india too is "y4 ,! anci5t ,,ri%is ,,fn#e-c laid d[n in]adicable patt]ns ( spiritual liv+4 ,_! ho>y dictums suffice = ?is day & l&4 ,n outmod$1 n unsophi/icat$ aga9/ ! guiles ( mat]ialism1 ! discipl9>y precepts mold ,india /ill4 ,by mill5niums-m ?an emb>rass$ s*ol>s c>e to compute6-! skeptic ,"t has validat$ ,v$ic wor?4 ,take x = y\r h]itage40 ,z ,i 0 rev]5tly bidd+ f>ewell to ! eloqu5t ,,sadhu1 he reveal$ a clairvoyant p]ception3 8,aft] y leave "h today1 an unusual exp]i5ce w come y\r way40 ,i quitt$ ! temple prec9cts & w&]$ along aimlessly4 ,turn+ a corn]1 ,i ran into an old acqua9tance-"o ( ^? long-w9d$ fell[s ^: conv]sational p[]s ignore "t & embrace et]nity4 8,i w let y g 9 a v %ort :ile1 if y w tell me all t has happ5$ dur+ ! six ye>s ( our sep>ation40 8,:at a p>adox6 ,i mu/ leave y n[40 ,b he held me by ! h&1 =c+ out tidbits ( in=mation4 ,he 0 l a rav5\s wolf1 ,i ?\ght 9 amusem5t2 ! long] ,i spoke1 ! m hungrily he sniff$ = news4 ,inw>dly ,i petition$ ! ,goddess ,kali to devise a graceful means ( escape4 ,my companion left me abruptly4 ,i sigh$ ) relief & d\bl$ my pace1 dread+ any relapse into ! g>rul\s fev]4 ,he>+ rapid foot/eps beh9d me1 ,i quick5$ my spe$4 ,i d>$ n look back4 ,b ) a b\nd1 ! y\? rejo9$ me1 jovially clasp+ my %\ld]4 8,i =got to tell y ( ,g&ha ,baba 7,p]fume ,sa9t71 :o is grac+ yond] h\se40 ,he po9t$ to a dwell+ a few y>ds di/ant4 8,d meet him2 he is int]e/+4 ,y may h an unusual exp]i5ce4 ,good-by10 & he actually left me4 ,! simil>ly word$ pr$iction ( ! ,,sadhu at ,kalighat ,temple fla%$ to my m9d4 ,def9itely intrigu$1 ,i ent]$ ! h\se & 0 u%]$ into a commodi\s p>lor4 ,a cr[d ( p 7 sitt+1 ,ori5t-wise1 "h & !re on a ?ick orange-color$ c>pet4 ,an aw$ :isp] rea*$ my e>3 8,behold ,g&ha ,baba on ! leop>d sk94 ,he c give ! natural p]fume ( any fl[] to a sc5tless "o1 or revive a wilt$ blossom1 or make a p]son's sk9 exude delightful fragrance40 ,i look$ directly at ! sa9t2 8 quick gaze re/$ on m9e4 ,he 0 plump & be>d$1 ) d>k sk9 & l>ge1 gleam+ eyes4 8,son1 ,i am glad to see y4 ,say :at y want4 ,w\ld y l "s p]fume80 8,:at =80 ,i ?\ght 8 rem>k r *ildi%4 8,to exp]i5ce ! miracul\s way ( enjoy+ p]fumes40 8,h>ness+ ,god to make odors80 8,:at ( x8 ,god makes p]fume anyway40 8,yes1 b ,he fa%ions frail bottles ( petals = fre% use & disc>d4 ,c y mat]ialize fl[]s80 8,i mat]ialize p]fumes1 little fri5d40 8,!n sc5t factories w g out ( bus9ess40 8,i w p]mit !m to keep _! trade6 ,my own purpose is to demon/rate ! p[] ( ,god40 8,sir1 is x necess>y to prove ,god8 ,isn't ,he p]=m+ miracles 9 ev]y?+1 ev]y:]e80 8,yes1 b we too %\ld manife/ "s ( ,8 inf9ite creative v>iety40 8,h[ long did x take to ma/] y\r art80 8,twelve ye>s40 8,= manufactur+ sc5ts by a/ral means6 ,x seems1 my honor$ sa9t1 y h be5 wa/+ a doz5 ye>s = fragrances :i* y c obta9 ) a few rupees f a flori/'s %op40 8,p]fumes fade ) fl[]s40 8,p]fumes fade ) dea?4 ,:y %\ld ,i desire t :i* pleases ! body only80 8,mr4 ,philosoph]1 y please my m9d4 ,n[1 /ret* =? y\r "r h&40 ,he made a ge/ure ( bless+4 ,i 0 a few feet away f ,g&ha ,baba2 no "o else 0 ne> en\gh to contact my body4 ,i ext5d$ my h&1 :i* ! yogi did n t\*4 8,:at p]fume d y want80 8,rose40 8,be x s40 ,to my great surprise1 ! *>m+ fragrance ( rose 0 waft$ /rongly f ! c5t] ( my palm4 ,i smil+ly took a l>ge :ite sc5tless fl[] f a ne>-by vase4 8,c ?is odorless blossom be p]meat$ ) jasm9e80 8,be x s40 ,a jasm9e fragrance in/antly %ot f ! petals4 ,i ?ank$ ! wond]-work] & seat$ myself by "o ( 8 /ud5ts4 ,he in=m$ me t ,g&ha ,baba1 ^: prop] "n 0 ,vi%udhan&a1 _h le>n$ _m a/oni%+ yoga secrets f a ma/] 9 ,tibet4 ,! ,tibetan yogi1 ,i 0 assur$1 _h atta9$ ! age ( ov] a ?\s& ye>s4 8,8 disciple ,g&ha ,baba does n always p]=m 8 p]fume-feats 9 ! simple v]bal mann] y h j witness$40 ,! /ud5t spoke ) obvi\s pride 9 8 ma/]4 8,8 proc$ure diff]s widely1 to accord ) div]sity 9 temp]am5ts4 ,he is m>vel\s6 ,_m memb]s ( ! ,calcutta intellig5tsia are among 8 foll[]s40 ,i inw>dly resolv$ n to add myself to _! numb]4 ,a guru too lit]ally 8m>vel\s0 0 n to my lik+4 ,) polite ?anks to ,g&ha ,baba1 ,i dep>t$4 ,saunt]+ home1 ,i reflect$ on ! ?ree v>i$ enc\nt]s ! day _h br\ght =?4 ,my si/] ,uma met me z ,i ent]$ our ,gurp> ,road door4 8,y are gett+ q /yli%1 us+ p]fumes60 ,)\t a ^w1 ,i motion$ h] to smell my h&4 8,:at an attractive rose fragrance6 ,x is unusually /rong60 ,?9k+ x 0 8/rongly unusual10 ,i sil5tly plac$ ! a/rally sc5t$ blossom "u h] no/rils4 8,oh1 ,i love jasm9e60 ,%e seiz$ ! fl[]4 ,a ludicr\s bafflem5t pass$ ov] h] face z %e repeat$ly sniff$ ! odor ( jasm9e f a type ( fl[] %e well knew to be sc5tless4 ,h] reactions dis>m$ my suspicion t ,g&ha ,baba _h induc$ an auto-sugge/ive /ate :]eby ,i alone c\ld detect ! fragrances4 ,lat] ,i he>d f a fri5d1 ,alakan&a1 t ! 8,p]fume ,sa9t0 _h a p[] :i* ,i wi% 7 possess$ by ! />v+ millions ( ,asia &1 today1 ( ,europe z well4 8,i 0 pres5t ) a hundr$ o!r gue/s at ,g&ha ,baba's home 9 ,burdwan10 ,alakan&a told me4 8,x 0 a gala occasion4 ,because ! yogi 0 reput$ to h ! p[] ( extract+ objects out ( ?9 air1 ,i laugh+ly reque/$ him to mat]ialize "s out-(-season tang]9es4 ,imm$iately ! ,,lu*is ,,fn#e-d :i* 7 pres5t on all ! banana-leaf plates became puff$ up4 ,ea* ( ! bread-envelopes prov$ to conta9 a peel$ tang]9e4 ,i bit into my own ) "s trepidation1 b f\nd x delici\s40 ,illu/ration3 ,my si/] ,uma1 z a "y girl--see uma4jpg ,ye>s lat] ,i und]/ood by inn] realization h[ ,g&ha ,baba accompli%$ 8 mat]ializations4 ,! me?od1 alas6 is beyond ! rea* ( ! _w's hungry hordes4 ,! diff]5t s5sory /imuli to :i* man reacts-tactual1 visual1 gu/atory1 auditory1 & olfactory-are produc$ by vibratory v>iations 9 electrons & protons4 ,! vibrations 9 turn are regulat$ by 8lifetrons10 subtle life =ces or f9]-?an-atomic en]gies intellig5tly *>g$ ) ! five di/9ctive s5sory idea-sub/ances4 ,g&ha ,baba1 tun+ himself ) ! cosmic =ce by c]ta9 yogic practices1 0 able to guide ! lifetrons to re>range _! vibratory /ructure & objectivize ! desir$ result4 ,8 p]fume1 fruit & o!r miracles 7 actual mat]ializations ( mundane vibrations1 & n inn] s5sations hypnotically produc$4 ,,fn#e-e ,p]=mances ( miracles su* z %[n by ! 8,p]fume ,sa9t0 are spectacul> b spiritually useless4 ,hav+ little purpose beyond ent]ta9m5t1 !y are digressions f a s]i\s se>* = ,god4 ,hypnotism has be5 us$ by physicians 9 m9or op]ations z a sort ( psy*ical *lor(orm = p]sons :o might be endang]$ by an ane/hetic4 ,b a hypnotic /ate is h>mful to ^? (t5 subject$ to x2 a negative psy*ological effect ensues :i* 9 "t d]anges ! bra9 cells4 ,hypnotism is trespass into ! t]ritory ( ano!r's consci\sness4 ,its tempor>y ph5om5a h no?+ 9 common ) ! miracles p]=m$ by m5 ( div9e realization4 ,awake 9 ,god1 true sa9ts effect *anges 9 ?is dream-_w by means ( a w h>moni\sly attun$ to ! ,creative ,cosmic ,dream]4 ,o/5tati\s display ( unusual p[]s are decri$ by ma/]s4 ,! ,p]sian my/ic1 ,abu ,said1 once laugh$ at c]ta9 ,,fakirs :o 7 pr\d ( _! miracul\s p[]s ov] wat]1 air1 & space4 8,a frog is also at home 9 ! wat]60 ,abu ,said po9t$ out 9 g5tle scorn4 8,! cr[ & ! vulture easily fly 9 ! air2 ! ,devil is simultane\sly pres5t 9 ! ,ea/ & 9 ! ,we/6 ,a true man is he :o dwells 9 righte\sness among 8 fell[ m51 :o buys & sells1 yet is nev] = a s+le in/ant =getful ( ,god60 ,on ano!r occasion ! great ,p]sian tea*] gave 8 views on ! religi\s life ?us3 8,to lay aside :at y h 9 y\r head 7selfi% desires & ambitions72 to freely be/[ :at y h 9 y\r h&2 & nev] to fl9* f ! bl[s ( adv]sity60 ,nei!r ! imp>tial sage at ,kalighat ,temple nor ! ,tibetan-tra9$ yogi _h satisfi$ my ye>n+ = a guru4 ,my he>t ne$$ no tutor = its recognitions1 & cri$ its own 8,bravos60 ! m res\nd+ly because un(t5 summon$ f sil5ce4 ,:5 ,i f9ally met my ma/]1 he taught me by sublimity ( example alone ! measure ( a true man4 ,,fn#e-a ,kali repres5ts ! et]nal pr9ciple 9 nature4 ,%e is traditionally pictur$ z a f\r-arm$ woman1 /&+ on ! =m ( ! ,god ,%iva or ! ,inf9ite1 because nature or ! ph5om5al _w is root$ 9 ! ,n\m5on4 ,! f\r arms symbolize c>d9al attributes1 two b5efic5t1 two de/ructive1 indicat+ ! ess5tial duality ( matt] or creation4 ,,fn#e-b ,cosmic illusion2 lit]ally1 8! measur]40 ,,maya is ! magical p[] 9 creation by :i* limitations & divisions are app>5tly pres5t 9 ! ,immeasurable & ,insep>able4 ,em]son wrote ! foll[+ poem1 to :i* he gave ! title ( ,,maya3 ,illusion works imp5etrable1 ,weav+ webs innum]able1 ,h] gay pictures nev] fail1 ,cr[d ea* o!r1 veil on veil1 ,*>m] :o w be believ$ ,by man :o ?ir/s to be deceiv$4 ,,fn#e-c ,! ,,ri%is1 lit]ally 8se]s10 7 ! au?ors ( ! ,,v$as 9 an indet]m9able antiquity44 ,,fn#e-d ,flat1 r\nd ,indian bread44 ,,fn#e-e ,laym5 sc>cely realize ! va/ /rides ( tw5tie?-c5tury sci5ce4 ,transmutation ( metals & o!r al*emical dreams are see+ fulfillm5t e day 9 c5t]s ( sci5tific rese>* ov] ! _w4 ,! em95t ,fr5* *emi/1 ,m4 ,georges ,claude1 p]=m$ 8miracles0 at ,fonta9ebleau 9 #aibh be=e a sci5tific assemblage ?r\gh 8 *emical k ( oxyg5 trans=mations4 ,8 8magician's w&0 0 simple oxyg51 bubbl+ 9 a tube on a table4 ,! sci5ti/ 8turn$ a h&ful ( s& into preci\s /ones1 iron into a /ate resembl+ melt$ *ocolate &1 aft] depriv+ fl[]s ( _! t9ts1 turn$ !m into ! consi/5cy ( glass4 8,m4 ,claude expla9$ h[ ! sea c\ld be turn$ by oxyg5 trans=mations into _m millions ( p\nds ( horsep[]2 h[ wat] :i* boils is n necess>ily burn+2 h[ little m\nds ( s&1 by a s+le :iff ( ! oxyg5 bl[pipe1 c\ld be *ang$ into sapphires1 rubies1 & topazes2 & he pr$ict$ ! "t :5 x w be possible = m5 to walk on ! bottom ( ! ocean m9us ! div]'s equipm5t4 ,f9ally ! sci5ti/ amaz$ 8 onlook]s by turn+ _! faces black by tak+ ! r$ out ( ! sun's rays40 ,?is not$ ,fr5* sci5ti/ has produc$ liquid air by an expansion me?od 9 :i* he has be5 able to sep>ate ! v>i\s gases ( ! air1 & has discov]$ v>i\s means ( me*anical utilization ( diff]5ces ( temp]ature 9 sea wat]4 ,,*apt]3 #f ,,! ,,tig] ,,swami 8,i h discov]$ ! ,tig] ,swami's address4 ,let u visit him tomorr[40 ,?is welcome sugge/ion came f ,*&i1 "o ( my high s*ool fri5ds4 ,i 0 eag] to meet ! sa9t :o1 9 8 premona/ic life1 _h caught & f\ght tig]s ) 8 nak$ h&s4 ,a boyi% en?usiasm ov] su* rem>kable feats 0 /rong )9 me4 ,! next day dawn$ w9try cold1 b ,*&i & ,i salli$ =? gaily4 ,aft] mu* va9 hunt+ 9 ,bh[anipur1 outside ,calcutta1 we arriv$ at ! "r h\se4 ,! door held two iron r+s1 :i* ,i s\nd$ pi]c+ly4 ,not)/&+ ! clamor1 a s]vant approa*$ ) leisurely gait4 ,8 ironical smile impli$ t visitors1 despite _! noise1 7 p[]less to di/urb ! calmness ( a sa9t's home4 ,feel+ ! sil5t rebuke1 my companion & ,i 7 ?ankful to be invit$ into ! p>lor4 ,our long wait !re caus$ uncom=table misgiv+s4 ,india's unwritt5 law = ! tru? seek] is pati5ce2 a ma/] may purposely make a te/ ( "o's eag]ness to meet him4 ,?is psy*ological ruse is freely employ$ 9 ! ,we/ by doctors & d5ti/s6 ,f9ally summon$ by ! s]vant1 ,*&i & ,i ent]$ a sleep+ ap>tm5t4 ,! fam\s ,sohong ,,fn#f-a ,swami 0 seat$ on 8 b$4 ,! sight ( 8 trem5d\s body affect$ u /rangely4 ,) bulg+ eyes1 we /ood spee*less4 ,we _h nev] be=e se5 su* a *e/ or su* football-l biceps4 ,on an imm5se neck1 ! swami's fi]ce yet calm face 0 adorn$ ) fl[+ locks1 be>d & m\/a*e4 ,a h9t ( dovelike & tig]like qualities %one 9 8 d>k eyes4 ,he 0 unclo!d1 save = a tig] sk9 ab\t 8 muscul> wai/4 ,f9d+ our voices1 my fri5d & ,i greet$ ! monk1 express+ our admiration = 8 pr[ess 9 ! extraord9>y fel9e ar5a4 8,w y n tell u1 please1 h[ x is possible to subdue ) b>e fi/s ! mo/ f]oci\s ( jungle bea/s1 ! royal ,b5gals80 8,my sons1 x is no?+ to me to fight tig]s4 ,i c\ld d x today if necess>y40 ,he gave a *ildlike laugh4 8,y look ^u tig]s z tig]s2 ,i "k !m z pussycats40 8,swamiji1 ,i ?9k ,i c\ld impress my subconsci\sness ) ! ?\ght t tig]s are pussycats1 b c\ld ,i make tig]s believe x80 8,( c\rse /r5g? also is necess>y6 ,"o _c expect victory f a baby :o imag9es a tig] to be a h\se cat6 ,p[]ful h&s are my suffici5t weapon40 ,he ask$ u to foll[ him to ! patio1 :]e he /ruck ! edge ( a wall4 ,a brick cra%$ to ! floor2 ! sky pe]$ boldly ?r\gh ! gap+ lo/ too? ( ! wall4 ,i fairly /agg]$ 9 a/oni%m5t2 he :o c remove mort>$ bricks f a solid wall ) "o bl[1 ,i ?\ght1 mu/ surely be able to displace ! tee? ( tig]s6 8,a numb] ( m5 h physical p[] su* z m9e1 b /ill lack 9 cool confid5ce4 ,^? :o are bodily b n m5tally /alw>t may f9d !mselves fa9t+ at m]e sight ( a wild bea/ b\nd+ freely 9 ! jungle4 ,! tig] 9 its natural f]ocity & habitat is va/ly diff]5t f ! opium-f$ circus animal6 8,_m a man ) h]culean /r5g? has none!less be5 t]roriz$ into abject helplessness be=e ! onslaught ( a royal ,b5gal4 ,?us ! tig] has conv]t$ ! man1 9 8 own m9d1 to a /ate z n]veless z ! pussycat's4 ,x is possible = a man1 own+ a fairly /rong body & an imm5sely /rong det]m9ation1 to turn ! tables on ! tig]1 & =ce x to a conviction ( pussycat def5selessness4 ,h[ (t5 ,i h done j t60 ,i 0 q will+ to believe t ! titan be=e me 0 able to p]=m ! tig]-pussycat metamorphosis4 ,he seem$ 9 a didactic mood2 ,*&i & ,i li/5$ respectfully4 8,m9d is ! wield] ( muscles4 ,! =ce ( a hamm] bl[ dep5ds on ! en]gy appli$2 ! p[] express$ by a man's bodily in/rum5t dep5ds on 8 aggressive w & c\rage4 ,! body is lit]ally manufactur$ & su/a9$ by m9d4 ,?r\gh pressure ( in/9cts f pa/ lives1 /r5g?s or weaknesses p]colate gradually into human consci\sness4 ,!y express z habits1 :i* 9 turn ossify into a desirable or an undesirable body4 ,outw>d frailty has m5tal orig92 9 a vici\s circle1 ! habit-b\nd body ?w>ts ! m9d4 ,if ! ma/] all[s himself to be comm&$ by a s]vant1 ! latt] becomes autocratic2 ! m9d is simil>ly enslav$ by submitt+ to bodily dictation40 ,at our entreaty1 ! impressive swami cons5t$ to tell u some?+ ( 8 own life4 8,my e>lie/ ambition 0 to fight tig]s4 ,my w 0 mighty1 b my body 0 feeble40 ,an ejaculation ( surprise broke f me4 ,x appe>$ incr$ible t ?is man1 n[ 8) ,atlantean %\ld]s1 fit to be>10 c\ld ev] h kn[n weakness4 8,x 0 by indomitable p]si/5cy 9 ?\ghts ( heal? & /r5g? t ,i ov]came my h&icap4 ,i h e reason to extol ! compell+ m5tal vigor :i* ,i f\nd to be ! real subdu] ( royal ,b5gals40 8,d y ?9k1 rev]$ swami1 t ,i c\ld ev] fight tig]s80 ,?is 0 ! fir/1 & ! la/1 "t t ! biz>re ambition ev] visit$ my m9d6 8,yes40 ,he 0 smil+4 8,b !re are _m k9ds ( tig]s2 "s roam 9 jungles ( human desires4 ,no spiritual b5efit accrues by knock+ bea/s unconsci\s4 ,r be victor ov] ! inn] pr[l]s40 8,may we he>1 sir1 h[ y *ang$ f a tam] ( wild tig]s to a tam] ( wild passions80 ,! ,tig] ,swami fell into sil5ce4 ,remot5ess came into 8 gaze1 summon+ visions ( bygone ye>s4 ,i disc]n$ 8 slight m5tal /ruggle to decide :e!r to grant my reque/4 ,f9ally he smil$ 9 acquiesc5ce4 8,:5 my fame rea*$ a z5i?1 x br\ght ! intoxication ( pride4 ,i decid$ n only to fight tig]s b to display !m 9 v>i\s tricks4 ,my ambition 0 to =ce savage bea/s to behave l dome/icat$ ones4 ,i began to p]=m my feats publicly1 ) gratify+ success4 8,"o ev5+ my fa!r ent]$ my room 9 p5sive mood4 8#8,son1 ,i h words ( w>n+4 ,i w\ld save y f com+ ills1 produc$ by ! gr9d+ :eels ( cause & effect4' 8#8,are y a fatali/1 ,fa!r8 ,%\ld sup]/ition be all[$ to discolor ! p[]ful wat]s or my activities8' 8#8,i am no fatali/1 son4 ,b ,i believe 9 ! j law ( retribution1 z taught 9 ! holy scriptures4 ,!re is res5tm5t aga9/ y 9 ! jungle family2 sometime x may act to y\r co/4' 8#8,fa!r1 y a/oni% me6 ,y well "k :at tig]s are-beautiful b m]ciless6 ,ev5 imm$iately aft] an enorm\s meal ( "s hapless creature1 a tig] is fir$ ) fre% lu/ at sight ( new prey4 ,x may be a joy\s gazelle1 frisk+ ov] ! jungle grass4 ,captur+ x & bit+ an op5+ 9 ! s(t ?roat1 ! malevol5t bea/ ta/es only a little ( ! mutely cry+ blood1 & goes its wanton way4 8#8,tig]s are ! mo/ contemptible ( ! jungle bre$6 ,:o kn[s8 my bl[s may inject "s slight sanity ( consid]ation into _! ?ick heads4 ,i am headma/] 9 a =e/ f9i%+ s*ool1 to tea* !m g5tle mann]s6 8#8,please1 ,fa!r1 ?9k ( me z tig] tam] & nev] z tig] kill]4 ,h[ c\ld my good actions br+ ill ^u me8 ,i beg y n to impose any comm& t ,i *ange my way ( life4'0 ,*&i & ,i 7 all att5tion1 und]/&+ ! pa/ dilemma4 ,9 ,india a *ild does n lightly disobey 8 p>5ts' wi%es4 8,9 /oic sil5ce ,fa!r li/5$ to my explanation4 ,he foll[$ x ) a disclosure :i* he utt]$ gravely4 8#8,son1 y compel me to relate an om9\s pr$iction f ! lips ( a sa9t4 ,he approa*$ me ye/]day z ,i sat on ! v]&a 9 my daily m$itation4 8'8,de> fri5d1 ,i come ) a message = y\r bellig]5t son4 ,let him cease 8 savage activities4 ,o!rwise1 8 next tig]-enc\nt] %all result 9 8 sev]e w\nds1 foll[$ by six mon?s ( dea?ly sickness4 ,he %all !n =sake 8 =m] ways & become a monk40' 8,?is tale did n impress me4 ,i consid]$ t ,fa!r _h be5 ! cr$ul\s victim ( a delud$ fanatic40 ,! ,tig] ,swami made ?is confession ) an impati5t ge/ure1 z ?\gh at "s /upidity4 ,grimly sil5t = a long "t1 he seem$ oblivi\s ( our pres5ce4 ,:5 he took up ! dangl+ ?read ( 8 n>rative1 x 0 sudd5ly1 ) subdu$ voice4 8,n long aft] ,fa!r's w>n+1 ,i visit$ ! capital city ( ,coo* ,beh>4 ,! picturesque t]ritory 0 new to me1 & ,i expect$ a re/ful *ange4 ,z usual ev]y:]e1 a curi\s cr[d foll[$ me on ! /reets4 ,i w\ld cat* bits ( :isp]$ comm5t3 8#8,?is is ! man :o fights wild tig]s4' 8#8,has he legs1 or tree-trunks8' 8#8,look at 8 face6 ,he mu/ be an inc>nation ( ! k+ ( tig]s himself6' 8,y "k h[ village ur*9s function l f9al editions ( a newspap]6 ,) :at spe$ d ! ev5-lat] spee*-bullet9s ( ! wom5 circulate f h\se to h\se6 ,)9 a few h\rs1 ! :ole city 0 9 a /ate ( excitem5t ov] my pres5ce4 8,i 0 relax+ quietly 9 ! ev5+1 :5 ,i he>d ! ho(beats ( gallop+ horses4 ,!y /opp$ 9 front ( my dwell+ place4 ,9 came a numb] ( tall1 turban$ policem54 8,i 0 tak5 aback4 #8,all ?+s are possible unto ^! creatures ( human law1' ,i ?\ght4 #8,i wond] if !y are go+ to take me to task ab\t matt]s utt]ly unkn[n to me4' ,b ! (fic]s b[$ ) unwont$ c\rtesy4 8#8,honor$ ,sir1 we are s5t to welcome y on behalf ( ! ,pr9ce ( ,coo* ,beh>4 ,he is pleas$ to invite y to 8 palace tomorr[ morn+4' 8,i speculat$ a:ile on ! prospect4 ,= "s obscure reason ,i felt %>p regret at ?is int]ruption 9 my quiet trip4 ,b ! suppliant mann] ( ! policem5 mov$ me2 ,i agre$ to g4 8,i 0 bewild]$ ! next day to be obsequi\sly escort$ f my door into a magnific5t coa* drawn by f\r horses4 ,a s]vant held an ornate umbrella to protect me f ! scor*+ sunlight4 ,i enjoy$ ! pleasant ride ?r\gh ! city & its woodl& outskirts4 ,! royal scion himself 0 at ! palace door to welcome me4 ,he pr(f]$ 8 own gold-brocad$ seat1 smil+ly plac+ himself 9 a *air ( simpl] design4 8#8,all ?is polit5ess is c]ta9ly go+ to co/ me some?+6' ,i ?\ght 9 m\nt+ a/oni%m5t4 ,! pr9ce's motive em]g$ aft] a few casual rem>ks4 8#8,my city is fill$ ) ! rumor t y c fight wild tig]s ) no?+ m ?an y\r nak$ h&s4 ,is x a fact8' 8#8,x is q true4' 8#8,i c sc>cely believe x6 ,y are a ,calcutta ,b5gali1 nurtur$ on ! :ite rice ( city folk4 ,be frank1 please2 h y n be5 fight+ only sp9eless1 opium-f$ animals8' ,8 voice 0 l\d & s>ca/ic1 t+$ ) prov9cial acc5t4 8,i v\*saf$ no reply to 8 insult+ "q4 8#8,i *all5ge y to fight my newly-caught tig]1 ,raja ,begum4 ,,fn#f-b ,if y c successfully resi/ him1 b9d him ) a *a91 & leave 8 cage 9 a consci\s /ate1 y %all h ?is royal ,b5gal6 ,sev]al ?\s& rupees & _m o!r gifts %all also be be/[$4 ,if y refuse to meet him 9 combat1 ,i %all blazon y\r "n ?r\gh\t ! /ate z an impo/or6' 8,8 insol5t words /ruck me l a volley ( bullets4 ,i %ot an angry acceptance4 ,half ris5 f ! *air 9 8 excitem5t1 ! pr9ce sank back ) a sadi/ic smile4 ,i 0 rem9d$ ( ! ,roman emp]ors :o delight$ 9 sett+ ,*ri/ians 9 be/ial ar5as4 8#8,! mat* w be set = a week h5ce4 ,i regret t ,i _c give y p]mission to view ! tig] 9 advance4' 8,:e!r ! pr9ce fe>$ ,i might seek to hypnotize ! bea/1 or secretly fe$ him opium1 ,i "k n6 8,i left ! palace1 not+ ) amusem5t t ! royal umbrella & panopli$ coa* 7 n[ miss+4 8,! foll[+ week ,i me?odically prep>$ my m9d & body = ! com+ ordeal4 ,?r\gh my s]vant ,i le>n$ ( fanta/ic tales4 ,! sa9t's direful pr$iction to my fa!r _h someh[ got abroad1 enl>g+ z x ran4 ,_m simple villag]s believ$ t an evil _s1 curs$ by ! gods1 _h re9c>nat$ z a tig] :i* took v>i\s demoniac =ms at night1 b rema9$ a /rip$ animal dur+ ! day4 ,?is demon-tig] 0 suppos$ to be ! "o s5t to humble me4 8,ano!r imag9ative v]sion 0 t animal pray]s to ,tig] ,heav5 _h a*iev$ a response 9 ! %ape ( ,raja ,begum4 ,he 0 to be ! in/rum5t to puni% me-! audaci\s bip$1 s insult+ to ! entire tig] species6 ,a furless1 fangless man d>+ to *all5ge a claw-arm$1 /urdy-limb$ tig]6 ,! conc5trat$ v5om ( all humiliat$ tig]s-! villag]s decl>$-_h ga!r$ mom5tum suffici5t to op]ate hidd5 laws & br+ ab\t ! fall ( ! pr\d tig] tam]4 8,my s]vant fur!r appriz$ me t ! pr9ce 0 9 8 elem5t z manag] ( ! b\t betwe5 man & bea/4 ,he _h sup]vis$ ! erection ( a /orm-pro( pavilion1 design$ to accommodate ?\s&s4 ,its c5t] held ,raja ,begum 9 an enorm\s iron cage1 surr\nd$ by an out] safety room4 ,! captive emitt$ a ceaseless s]ies ( blood-curdl+ ro>s4 ,he 0 f$ sp>+ly1 to k9dle a wra?ful appetite4 ,p]haps ! pr9ce expect$ me to be ! meal ( rew>d6 8,cr[ds f ! city & suburbs b\ght tickets eag]ly 9 response to ! beat ( drums ann\nc+ ! unique conte/4 ,! day ( battle saw hundr$s turn$ away = lack ( seats4 ,_m m5 broke ?r\gh ! t5t op5+s1 or cr[d$ any space bel[ ! gall]ies40 ,z ! ,tig] ,swami's /ory approa*$ a climax1 my excitem5t m\nt$ ) x2 ,*&i also 0 raptly mute4 8,amid/ pi]c+ s\nd-explosions f ,raja ,begum1 & ! hubbub ( ! some:at t]rifi$ cr[d1 ,i quietly made my appe>ance4 ,scantily clad ar\nd ! wai/1 ,i 0 o!rwise unprotect$ by clo?+4 ,i op5$ ! bolt on ! door ( ! safety room & calmly lock$ x beh9d me4 ,! tig] s5s$ blood4 ,leap+ ) a ?und]\s cra% on 8 b>s1 he s5t =? a fe>some welcome4 ,! audi5ce 0 hu%$ ) pitiful fe>2 ,i seem$ a meek lamb be=e ! rag+ bea/4 8,9 a trice ,i 0 )9 ! cage2 b z ,i slamm$ ! door1 ,raja ,begum 0 headlong ^u me4 ,my "r h& 0 desp]ately torn4 ,human blood1 ! greate/ treat a tig] c "k1 fell 9 appall+ /reams4 ,! prophecy ( ! sa9t seem$ ab\t to be fulfill$4 8,i ralli$ in/antly f ! %ock ( ! fir/ s]i\s injury ,i _h ev] receiv$4 ,bani%+ ! sight ( my gory f+]s by ?ru/+ !m b5ea? my wai/ clo?1 ,i swung my left arm 9 a bone-crack+ bl[4 ,! bea/ reel$ back1 swirl$ ar\nd ! re> ( ! cage1 & sprang =w>d convulsively4 ,my fam\s fi/ic puni%m5t ra9$ on 8 head4 8,b ,raja ,begum's ta/e ( blood _h act$ l ! madd5+ fir/ sip ( w9e to a dipsomaniac long-depriv$4 ,punctuat$ by deaf5+ ro>1 ! brute's assaults grew 9 fury4 ,my inadequate def5se ( only "o h& left me vuln]able be=e claws & fangs4 ,b ,i dealt out daz+ retribution4 ,mutually ensangu9$1 we /ruggl$ z to ! dea?4 ,! cage 0 p&emonium1 z blood spla%$ 9 all directions1 & bla/s ( pa9 & le?al lu/ came f ! be/ial ?roat4 8#8,%oot him6' #8,kill ! tig]6' ,%rieks arose f ! audi5ce4 ,s fa/ did man & bea/ move1 t a gu>d's bullet w5t amiss4 ,i mu/]$ all my w =ce1 bell[$ fi]cely1 & l&$ a f9al concussive bl[4 ,! tig] collaps$ & lay quietly4 8,l a pussycat60 ,i int]ject$4 ,! swami laugh$ 9 he>ty appreciation1 !n cont9u$ ! engross+ tale4 8,raja ,begum 0 vanqui%$ at la/4 ,8 royal pride 0 fur!r humbl$3 ) my lac]at$ h&s1 ,i audaci\sly =c$ op5 8 jaws4 ,= a dramatic mom5t1 ,i held my head )9 ! yawn+ dea?trap4 ,i look$ ar\nd = a *a94 ,pull+ "o f a pile on ! floor1 ,i b\nd ! tig] by 8 neck to ! cage b>s4 ,9 triumph ,i mov$ t[>d ! door4 8,b t fi5d inc>nate1 ,raja ,begum1 _h /am9a wor?y ( 8 suppos$ demoniac orig94 ,) an incr$ible lunge1 he snapp$ ! *a9 & leap$ on my back4 ,my %\ld] fa/ 9 8 jaws1 ,i fell viol5tly4 ,b 9 a trice ,i _h him p9n$ b5ea? me4 ,"u m]ciless bl[s1 ! trea*]\s animal sank into semiconsci\sness4 ,?is "t ,i secur$ him m c>efully4 ,sl[ly ,i left ! cage4 8,i f\nd myself 9 a new upro>1 ?is "t "o ( delight4 ,! cr[d's *e] broke z ?\gh f a s+le gigantic ?roat4 ,disa/r\sly maul$1 ,i _h yet fulfill$ ! ?ree conditions ( ! fight-/unn+ ! tig]1 b9d+ him ) a *a91 & leav+ him )\t requir+ assi/ance = myself4 ,9 addition1 ,i _h s dra/ically injur$ & fright5$ ! aggressive bea/ t he _h be5 cont5t to ov]look ! opportune prize ( my head 9 8 m\?6 8,aft] my w\nds 7 treat$1 ,i 0 honor$ & g>l&$2 hundr$s ( gold pieces %[]$ at my feet4 ,! :ole city ent]$ a holiday p]iod4 ,endless discussions 7 he>d on all sides ab\t my victory ov] "o ( ! l>ge/ & mo/ savage tig]s ev] se54 ,raja ,begum 0 pres5t$ to me1 z promis$1 b ,i felt no elation4 ,a spiritual *ange _h ent]$ my he>t4 ,x seem$ t ) my f9al exit f ! cage ,i _h also clos$ ! door on my worldly ambitions4 8,a woeful p]iod foll[$4 ,= six mon?s ,i lay ne> dea? f blood poison+4 ,z soon z ,i 0 well en\gh to leave ,coo* ,beh>1 ,i return$ to my native t[n4 8#8,i "k n[ t my tea*] is ! holy man :o gave ! wise w>n+4' ,i humbly made ?is confession to my fa!r4 #8,oh1 if ,i c\ld only f9d him6' ,my long+ 0 s9c]e1 = "o day ! sa9t arriv$ unh]ald$4 8#8,en\gh ( tig] tam+4' ,he spoke ) calm assurance4 #8,come ) me2 ,i w tea* y to subdue ! bea/s ( ignorance roam+ 9 jungles ( ! human m9d4 ,y are us$ to an audi5ce3 let x be a galaxy ( angels1 ent]ta9$ by y\r ?rill+ ma/]y ( yoga6' 8,i 0 initiat$ into ! spiritual pa? by my sa9tly guru4 ,he op5$ my s\l-doors1 ru/y & resi/ant ) long disuse4 ,h& 9 h&1 we soon set out = my tra9+ 9 ! ,himalayas40 ,*&i & ,i b[$ at ! swami's feet1 grateful = 8 vivid outl9e ( a life truly cyclonic4 ,i felt amply repaid = ! long probation>y wait 9 ! cold p>lor6 ,,fn#f-a ,,sohong 0 8 mona/ic "n4 ,he 0 popul>ly kn[n z ! 8,tig] ,swami40 ,,fn#f-b 8,pr9ce ,pr9cess0-s nam$ to indicate t ?is bea/ possess$ ! comb9$ f]ocity ( tig] & tigress4 ,,*apt]3 #g ,,! ,,levitat+ ,,sa9t 8,i saw a yogi rema9 9 ! air1 sev]al feet above ! gr\nd1 la/ night at a gr\p meet+40 ,my fri5d1 ,up5dra ,mohun ,*[dhury1 spoke impressively4 ,i gave him an en?usia/ic smile4 8,p]haps ,i c guess 8 "n4 ,0 x ,bhaduri ,mahasaya1 ( ,upp] ,circul> ,road80 ,up5dra nodd$1 a little cre/fall5 n to be a news-be>]4 ,my inquisitiv5ess ab\t sa9ts 0 well-kn[n among my fri5ds2 !y delight$ 9 sett+ me on a fre% track4 8,! yogi lives s close to my home t ,i (t5 visit him40 ,my words br\ght ke5 int]e/ to ,up5dra's face1 & ,i made a fur!r confid5ce4 8,i h se5 him 9 rem>kable feats4 ,he has exp]tly ma/]$ ! v>i\s ,,pranayamas ,,fn#g-a ( ! anci5t eightfold yoga outl9$ by ,patanjali4 ,,fn#g-b ,once ,bhaduri ,mahasaya p]=m$ ! ,,bha/rika ,,pranayama be=e me ) su* amaz+ =ce t x seem$ an actual /orm _h aris5 9 ! room6 ,!n he ext+ui%$ ! ?und]+ brea? & rema9$ motionless 9 a high /ate ( sup]consci\sness4 ,,fn#g-c ,! aura ( peace aft] ! /orm 0 vivid beyond =gett+40 8,i he>d t ! sa9t nev] leaves 8 home40 ,up5dra's tone 0 a trifle incr$ul\s4 8,inde$ x is true6 ,he has liv$ indoors = ! pa/ tw5ty ye>s4 ,he slightly relaxes 8 self-impos$ rule at ! times ( our holy fe/ivals1 :5 he goes z f> z 8 front sidewalk6 ,! begg>s ga!r !re1 because ,sa9t ,bhaduri is kn[n = 8 t5d] he>t40 8,h[ does he rema9 9 ! air1 defy+ ! law ( gravitation80 8,a yogi's body loses its grossness aft] use ( c]ta9 ,,pranayamas4 ,!n x w levitate or hop ab\t l a leap+ frog4 ,ev5 sa9ts :o d n practice a =mal yoga ,,fn#g-d h be5 kn[n to levitate dur+ a /ate ( int5se devotion to ,god40 8,i w\ld l to "k m ( ?is sage4 ,d y att5d 8 ev5+ meet+s80 ,up5dra's eyes 7 sp>kl+ ) curiosity4 8,yes1 ,i g (t54 ,i am va/ly ent]ta9$ by ! wit 9 8 wisdom4 ,occasionally my prolong$ laught] m>s ! solemnity ( 8 ga!r+s4 ,! sa9t is n displeas$1 b 8 disciples look dagg]s60 ,on my way home f s*ool t aft]noon1 ,i pass$ ,bhaduri ,mahasaya's cloi/] & decid$ on a visit4 ,! yogi 0 inaccessible to ! g5]al public4 ,a lone disciple1 occupy+ ! gr\nd floor1 gu>d$ 8 ma/]'s privacy4 ,! /ud5t 0 some?+ ( a m>t9et2 he n[ inquir$ =mally if ,i _h an 8engagem5t40 ,8 guru put 9 an appe>ance j 9 "t to save me f summ>y ejection4 8,let ,mukunda come :5 he w40 ,! sage's eyes tw9kl$4 8,my rule ( seclusion is n = my own com=t1 b = t ( o!rs4 ,worldly p d n l ! c&or :i* %att]s _! delusions4 ,sa9ts are n only r>e b disconc]t+4 ,ev5 9 scripture1 !y are (t5 f\nd emb>rass+60 ,i foll[$ ,bhaduri ,mahasaya to 8 au/]e qu>t]s on ! top floor1 f :i* he seldom /irr$4 ,ma/]s (t5 ignore ! panorama ( ! _w's ado1 out ( focus till c5t]$ 9 ! ages4 ,! contempor>ies ( a sage are n alone ^? ( ! n>r[ pres5t4 8,mah>i%i1 ,,fn#g-e y are ! fir/ yogi ,i h kn[n :o always /ays indoors40 8,god plants 8 sa9ts sometimes 9 unexpect$ soil1 le/ we ?9k we may r$uce ,him to a rule60 ,! sage lock$ 8 vibrant body 9 ! lotus po/ure4 ,9 8 sev5ties1 he display$ no unpleas+ signs ( age or s$5t>y life4 ,/alw>t & /raight1 he 0 ideal 9 e respect4 ,8 face 0 t ( a ,,ri%i1 z describ$ 9 ! anci5t texts4 ,noble-head$1 abundantly be>d$1 he always sat firmly upright1 8 quiet eyes fix$ on ,omnipres5ce4 ,illu/ration3 ,,bhaduri ,,mahasaya1 8,! ,levitat+ ,sa9t0 8,sir10 ,i inquir$1 8:y d y n write a book on yoga = ! b5efit ( ! _w80 8,i am tra9+ disciples10 ,he repli$4 8,!y & _! /ud5ts w be liv+ volumes1 pro( aga9/ ! natural dis9tegrations ( "t & ! unnatural int]pretations ( ! critics40--see badhuri4jpg ,! sa9t & ,i ent]$ ! m$itative /ate4 ,aft] an h\r1 8 g5tle voice r\s$ me4 8,y g (t5 into ! sil5ce1 b h y develop$ ,,anubhava80 ,,fn#g-f ,he 0 rem9d+ me to love ,god m ?an m$itation4 8,d n mi/ake ! te*nique = ! ,goal40 ,he (f]$ me "s mangoes4 ,) t good-humor$ wit t ,i f\nd s delightful 9 8 grave nature1 he rem>k$1 8,p 9 g5]al are m fond ( ,,jala ,,yoga 7union ) food7 ?an ( ,,dhyana ,,yoga 7union ) ,god740 ,8 yogic pun affect$ me upro>i\sly4 8,:at a laugh y h60 ,an affectionate gleam came into 8 gaze4 ,8 own face 0 always s]i\s1 yet t\*$ ) an ec/atic smile4 ,8 l>ge1 lotus eyes held a hidd5 div9e laught]4 8,^? lett]s come f f>-(f ,am]ica40 ,! sage indicat$ sev]al ?ick envelopes on a table4 8,i correspond ) a few societies !re ^: memb]s are int]e/$ 9 yoga4 ,!y are discov]+ ,india anew1 ) a bett] s5se ( direction ?an ,columbus6 ,i am glad to help !m4 ,! k ( yoga is free to all :o w receive1 l ! ung>ni%able daylight4 8,:at ,,ri%is p]ceiv$ z ess5tial = human salvation ne$ n be dilut$ = ! ,we/4 ,alike 9 s\l ?\gh div]se 9 out] exp]i5ce1 nei!r ,we/ nor ,ea/ w fl\ri% if "s =m ( discipl9>y yoga be n practic$40 ,! sa9t held me ) 8 tranquil eyes4 ,i did n realize t 8 spee* 0 a veil$ prophetic guidance4 ,x is only n[1 z ,i write ^! words1 t ,i und]/& ! full mean+ 9 ! casual intimations he (t5 gave me t som$ay ,i w\ld c>ry ,india's tea*+s to ,am]ica4 8,mah>i%i1 ,i wi% y w\ld write a book on yoga = ! b5efit ( ! _w40 8,i am tra9+ disciples4 ,!y & _! /ud5ts w be liv+ volumes1 pro( aga9/ ! natural dis9tegrations ( "t & ! unnatural int]pretations ( ! critics40 ,bhaduri's wit put me into ano!r gale ( laught]4 ,i rema9$ alone ) ! yogi until 8 disciples arriv$ 9 ! ev5+4 ,bhaduri ,mahasaya ent]$ "o ( 8 inimitable disc\rses4 ,l a peaceful flood1 he swept away ! m5tal debris ( 8 li/5]s1 float+ !m ,godw>d4 ,8 /rik+ p>ables 7 express$ 9 a flawless ,b5gali4 ,?is ev5+ ,bhaduri exp\nd$ v>i\s philosophical po9ts connect$ ) ! life ( ,mirabai1 a m$ieval ,rajputani pr9cess :o ab&on$ h] c\rt life to seek ! company ( sadhus4 ,"o great-sannyasi refus$ to receive h] because %e 0 a woman2 h] reply br\ght him humbly to h] feet4 8,tell ! ma/]10 %e _h said1 8t ,i did n "k !re 0 any ,male 9 ! univ]se save ,god2 are we all n females be=e ,him80 7,a scriptural conception ( ! ,"l z ! only ,positive ,creative ,pr9ciple1 ,8 creation be+ naught b a passive ,,maya47 ,mirabai compos$ _m ec/atic songs :i* are /ill treasur$ 9 ,india2 ,i translate "o ( !m "h3 8,if by ba?+ daily ,god c\ld be realiz$ ,soon] w\ld ,i be a :ale 9 ! deep2 ,if by eat+ roots & fruits ,he c\ld be kn[n ,gladly w\ld ,i *oose ! =m ( a goat2 ,if ! c\nt+ ( ros>ies uncov]$ ,him ,i w\ld say my pray]s on mammo? beads2 ,if b[+ be=e /one images unveil$ ,him ,a fl9ty m\nta9 ,i w\ld humbly wor%ip2 ,if by dr9k+ milk ! ,"l c\ld be imbib$ ,_m calves & *ildr5 w\ld "k ,him2 ,if ab&on+ "o's wife w\ld summon ,god ,w\ld n ?\s&s be eunu*s8 ,mirabai kn[s t to f9d ! ,div9e ,"o ,! only indisp5sable is ,love40 ,sev]al /ud5ts put rupees 9 ,bhaduri's slipp]s :i* lay by 8 side z he sat 9 yoga po/ure4 ,?is respectful (f]+1 cu/om>y 9 ,india1 indicates t ! disciple places 8 mat]ial goods at ! guru's feet4 ,grateful fri5ds are only ! ,"l 9 disguise1 look+ aft] ,8 own4 8,ma/]1 y are wond]ful60 ,a /ud5t1 tak+ 8 leave1 gaz$ ard5tly at ! patri>*al sage4 8,y h r5\nc$ ri*es & com=ts to seek ,god & tea* u wisdom60 ,x 0 well-kn[n t ,bhaduri ,mahasaya _h =sak5 great family weal? 9 8 e>ly *ildhood1 :5 s+le-m9d$ly he ent]$ ! yogic pa?4 8,y are rev]s+ ! case60 ,! sa9t's face held a mild rebuke4 8,i h left a few paltry rupees1 a few petty pleasures1 = a cosmic empire ( endless bliss4 ,h[ !n h ,i d5i$ myself any?+8 ,i "k ! joy ( %>+ ! treasure4 ,is t a sacrifice8 ,! %ortsight$ worldly folk are v]ily ! real r5unciates6 ,!y rel9qui% an unp>allel$ div9e possession = a poor h&ful ( e>?ly toys60 ,i *uckl$ ov] ?is p>adoxical view ( r5unciation-"o :i* puts ! cap ( ,croesus on any sa9tly begg>1 :il/ trans=m+ all pr\d millionaires into unconsci\s m>tyrs4 8,! div9e ord] arranges our future m wisely ?an any insurance company40 ,! ma/]'s conclud+ words 7 ! realiz$ cre$ ( 8 fai?4 8,! _w is full ( uneasy believ]s 9 an outw>d security4 ,_! bitt] ?\ghts are l sc>s on _! =eheads4 ,! ,"o :o gave u air & milk f our fir/ brea? kn[s h[ to provide day by day = ,8 devotees40 ,i cont9u$ my aft]-s*ool pilgrimages to ! sa9t's door4 ,) sil5t zeal he aid$ me to atta9 ,,anubhava4 ,"o day he mov$ to ,ram ,mohan ,roy ,road1 away f ! neighborhood ( my ,gurp> ,road home4 ,8 lov+ disciples _h built him a new h]mitage1 kn[n z 8,nag5dra ,ma?40 ,,fn#g-g ,al?\gh x ?r[s me ahead ( my /ory by a numb] ( ye>s1 ,i w rec\nt "h ! la/ words giv5 to me by ,bhaduri ,mahasaya4 ,%ortly be=e ,i emb>k$ = ! ,we/1 ,i s\ght him out & humbly knelt = 8 f>ewell bless+3 8,son1 g to ,am]ica4 ,take ! dignity ( ho>y ,india = y\r %ield4 ,victory is writt5 on y\r br[2 ! noble di/ant p w well receive y40 ,,fn#g-a ,me?ods ( controll+ life-=ce ?r\gh regulation ( brea?4 ,,fn#g-b ,! =emo/ anci5t expon5t ( yoga4 ,,fn#g-c ,fr5* pr(essors 7 ! fir/ 9 ! ,we/ to be will+ to sci5tifically inve/igate ! possibilities ( ! sup]consci\s m9d4 ,pr(essor ,jules-,bois1 memb] ( ! ,l',ecole de ,psy*ologie ( ! ,sorbonne1 lectur$ 9 ,am]ica 9 #aibh2 he told 8 audi5ces t ,fr5* sci5ti/s h accord$ recognition to ! sup]consci\sness1 8:i* is ! exact opposite ( ,freud's subconsci\s m9d & is ! faculty :i* makes man really man & n j a sup]-animal40 ,m4 ,jules-,bois expla9$ t ! awak5+ ( ! high] consci\sness 80 n to be confus$ ) ,c\eism or hypnotism4 ,! exi/5ce ( a sup]consci\s m9d has long be5 recogniz$ philosophically1 be+ 9 reality ! ,ov]s\l spok5 ( by ,em]son1 b only rec5tly has x be5 recogniz$ sci5tifically40 ,! ,fr5* sci5ti/ po9t$ out t f ! sup]consci\sness come inspiration1 g5ius1 moral values4 8,belief 9 ?is is n my/icism ?\gh x recogniz$ & valu$ ! qualities :i* my/ics prea*$40 ,,fn#g-d ,/4 ,!resa ( ,avila & o!r ,*ri/ian sa9ts 7 (t5 obs]v$ 9 a /ate ( levitation4 ,,fn#g-e 8,great sage40 ,,fn#g-f ,actual p]ception ( ,god4 ,,fn#g-g ,! sa9t's full "n 0 ,nag5drana? ,bhaduri4 ,,ma? means h]mitage or ,,a%ram4 ,,*apt]3 #h ,,india',s ,,great ,,sci5ti/1 ,j4,c4 ,,bose 8,jagadis ,*&ra ,bose's wireless inv5tions ant$at$ ^? ( ,m>coni40 ,ov]he>+ ?is provocative rem>k1 ,i walk$ clos] to a sidewalk gr\p ( pr(essors engag$ 9 sci5tific discussion4 ,if my motive 9 jo9+ !m 0 racial pride1 ,i regret x4 ,i _c d5y my ke5 int]e/ 9 evid5ce t ,india c play a lead+ "p 9 physics1 & n metaphysics alone4 8,:at d y mean1 sir80 ,! pr(essor oblig+ly expla9$4 8,bose 0 ! fir/ "o to inv5t a wireless coh]] & an in/rum5t = indicat+ ! refraction ( electric waves4 ,b ! ,indian sci5ti/ did n exploit 8 inv5tions comm]cially4 ,he soon turn$ 8 att5tion f ! inorganic to ! organic _w4 ,8 revolution>y discov]ies z a plant physiologi/ are outpac+ ev5 8 radical a*ievem5ts z a physici/40 ,i politely ?ank$ my m5tor4 ,he add$1 8,! great sci5ti/ is "o ( my bro!r pr(essors at ,presid5cy ,college40 ,i paid a visit ! next day to ! sage at 8 home1 :i* 0 close to m9e on ,gurp> ,road4 ,i _h long admir$ him f a respectful di/ance4 ,! grave & retir+ botani/ greet$ me graci\sly4 ,he 0 a h&some1 robu/ man 9 8 fifties1 ) ?ick hair1 broad =ehead1 & ! ab/ract$ eyes ( a dream]4 ,! precision 9 8 tones reveal$ ! lifelong sci5tific habit4 8,i h rec5tly return$ f an exp$ition to sci5tific societies ( ! ,we/4 ,_! memb]s exhibit$ int5se int]e/ 9 delicate in/rum5ts ( my inv5tion :i* demon/rate ! indivisible unity ( all life4 ,,fn#h-a ,! ,bose crescograph has ! enormity ( t5 million magnifications4 ,! microscope enl>ges only a few ?\s& times2 yet x br\ght vital impetus to biological sci5ce4 ,! crescograph op5s incalculable vi/as40 8,y h done mu*1 sir1 to ha/5 ! embrace ( ,ea/ & ,we/ 9 ! imp]sonal arms ( sci5ce40 ,illu/ration3 ,,jagadis ,,*&ra ,,bose1 ,india's great physici/1 botani/1 & inv5tor ( ! ,crescograph--see bose4jpg 8,i 0 educat$ at ,cambridge4 ,h[ admirable is ! ,we/]n me?od ( submitt+ all !ory to scrupul\s exp]im5tal v]ification6 ,t empirical proc$ure has gone h& 9 h& ) ! gift = introspection :i* is my ,ea/]n h]itage4 ,toge!r !y h enabl$ me to sund] ! sil5ces ( natural realms long uncommunicative4 ,! telltale *>ts ( my crescograph ,,fn#h-b are evid5ce = ! mo/ skeptical t plants h a s5sitive n]v\s sy/em & a v>i$ emotional life4 ,love1 hate1 joy1 fe>1 pleasure1 pa91 excitability1 /upor1 & c\ntless appropriate responses to /imuli are z univ]sal 9 plants z 9 animals40 8,! unique ?rob ( life 9 all creation c\ld seem only poetic imag]y be=e y\r adv5t1 ,pr(essor6 ,a sa9t ,i once knew w\ld nev] pluck fl[]s4 #8,%all ,i rob ! rosebu% ( its pride 9 beauty8 ,%all ,i cruelly affront its dignity by my rude dive/m5t8' ,8 sympa!tic words are v]ifi$ lit]ally ?r\gh y\r discov]ies60 8,! poet is intimate ) tru?1 :ile ! sci5ti/ approa*es awkw>dly4 ,come som$ay to my laboratory & see ! unequivocable te/imony ( ! crescograph40 ,gratefully ,i accept$ ! invitation1 & took my dep>ture4 ,i he>d lat] t ! botani/ _h left ,presid5cy ,college1 & 0 plann+ a rese>* c5t] 9 ,calcutta4 ,:5 ! ,bose ,in/itute 0 op5$1 ,i att5d$ ! d$icatory s]vices4 ,en?usia/ic hundr$s /roll$ ov] ! premises4 ,i 0 *>m$ ) ! arti/ry & spiritual symbolism ( ! new home ( sci5ce4 ,its front gate1 ,i not$1 0 a c5turi$ relic f a di/ant %r9e4 ,beh9d ! lotus ,,fn#h-c f\nta91 a sculptur$ female figure ) a tor* convey$ ! ,indian respect = woman z ! immortal light-be>]4 ,! g>d5 held a small temple consecrat$ to ! ,n\m5on beyond ph5om5a4 ,?\ght ( ! div9e incorporeity 0 sugge/$ by abs5ce ( any alt>-image4 ,bose's spee* on ?is great occasion might h issu$ f ! lips ( "o ( ! inspir$ anci5t ,,ri%is4 8,i d$icate today ?is ,in/itute z n m]ely a laboratory b a temple40 ,8 rev]5t solemnity /ole l an unse5 cloak ov] ! cr[d$ auditorium4 8,9 ! pursuit ( my inve/igations ,i 0 unconsci\sly l$ into ! bord] region ( physics & physiology4 ,to my amazem5t1 ,i f\nd b\nd>y l9es vani%+1 & po9ts ( contact em]g+1 betwe5 ! realms ( ! liv+ & ! non-liv+4 ,inorganic matt] 0 p]ceiv$ z any?+ b in]t2 x 0 a?rill "u ! action ( multitud9\s =ces4 8,a univ]sal reaction seem$ to br+ metal1 plant & animal "u a common law4 ,!y all exhibit$ ess5tially ! same ph5om5a ( fatigue & depression1 ) possibilities ( recov]y & ( exaltation1 z well z ! p]man5t irresponsiv5ess associat$ ) dea?4 ,fill$ ) awe at ?is /up5d\s g5]alization1 x 0 ) great hope t ,i ann\nc$ my results be=e ! ,royal ,society--results demon/rat$ by exp]im5ts4 ,b ! physiologi/s pres5t advis$ me to conf9e myself to physical inve/igations1 9 :i* my success _h be5 assur$1 r ?an encroa* on _! pres]ves4 ,i _h unwitt+ly /ray$ into ! doma9 ( an unfamili> ca/e sy/em & s (f5d$ its etiquette4 8,an unconsci\s !ological bias 0 also pres5t1 :i* conf\nds ignorance ) fai?4 ,x is (t5 =gott5 t ,he :o surr\nd$ u ) ?is ev]-evolv+ my/]y ( creation has also implant$ 9 u ! desire to "q & und]/&4 ,?r\gh _m ye>s ( miscompreh5sion1 ,i came to "k t ! life ( a devotee ( sci5ce is inevitably fill$ ) un5d+ /ruggle4 ,x is = him to ca/ 8 life z an ard5t (f]+-reg>d+ ga9 & loss1 success & failure1 z "o4 8,9 "t ! lead+ sci5tific societies ( ! _w accept$ my !ories & results1 & recogniz$ ! importance ( ! ,indian contribution to sci5ce4 ,,fn#h-d ,c any?+ small or circumscrib$ ev] satisfy ! m9d ( ,india8 ,by a cont9u\s liv+ tradition1 & a vital p[] ( rejuv5esc5ce1 ?is l& has readju/$ itself ?r\gh unnumb]$ trans=mations4 ,indians h always aris5 :o1 disc>d+ ! imm$iate & absorb+ prize ( ! h\r1 h s\ght = ! realization ( ! highe/ ideals 9 life-n ?r\gh passive r5unciation1 b ?r\gh active /ruggle4 ,! weakl+ :o has refus$ ! conflict1 acquir+ no?+1 has _h no?+ to r5\nce4 ,he alone :o has /riv5 & won c enri* ! _w by be/[+ ! fruits ( 8 victori\s exp]i5ce4 8,! "w already c>ri$ out 9 ! ,bose laboratory on ! response ( matt]1 & ! unexpect$ revelations 9 plant life1 h op5$ out v ext5d$ regions ( inquiry 9 physics1 9 physiology1 9 m$ic9e1 9 agriculture1 & ev5 9 psy*ology4 ,problems hi!rto reg>d$ z insoluble h n[ be5 br\ght )9 ! sph]e ( exp]im5tal inve/igation4 8,b high success is n to be obta9$ )\t rigid exactitude4 ,h5ce ! long batt]y ( sup]-s5sitive in/rum5ts & app>atus ( my design1 :i* /& be=e y today 9 _! cases 9 ! entrance hall4 ,!y tell y ( ! protract$ ef=ts to get beh9d ! deceptive seem+ into ! reality t rema9s unse51 ( ! cont9u\s toil & p]si/5ce & res\rcefulness call$ =? to ov]come human limitations4 ,all creative sci5ti/s "k t ! true laboratory is ! m9d1 :]e beh9d illusions !y uncov] ! laws ( tru?4 8,! lectures giv5 "h w n be m]e repetitions ( second-h& k4 ,!y w ann\nce new discov]ies1 demon/rat$ = ! fir/ "t 9 ^! halls4 ,?r\gh regul> publication ( ! "w ( ! ,in/itute1 ^! ,indian contributions w rea* ! :ole _w4 ,!y w become public prop]ty4 ,no pat5ts w ev] be tak54 ,! _s ( our national culture dem&s t we %\ld =ev] be free f ! desecration ( utiliz+ k only = p]sonal ga94 8,x is my fur!r wi% t ! facilities ( ?is ,in/itute be available1 s f> z possible1 to work]s f all c\ntries4 ,9 ?is ,i am attempt+ to c>ry on ! traditions ( my c\ntry4 ,s f> back z tw5ty-five c5turies1 ,india welcom$ to its anci5t univ]sities1 at ,nal&a & ,taxila1 s*ol>s f all p>ts ( ! _w4 8,al?\gh sci5ce is nei!r ( ! ,ea/ nor ( ! ,we/ b r int]national 9 its univ]sality1 yet ,india is specially fitt$ to make great contributions4 ,,fn#h-e ,! burn+ ,indian imag9ation1 :i* c extort new ord] out ( a mass ( app>5tly contradictory facts1 is held 9 *eck by ! habit ( conc5tration4 ,?is re/ra9t conf]s ! p[] to hold ! m9d to ! pursuit ( tru? ) an inf9ite pati5ce40 ,te>s /ood 9 my eyes at ! sci5ti/'s conclud+ words4 ,is 8pati5ce0 n inde$ a synonym ( ,india1 conf\nd+ ,"t & ! hi/orians alike8 ,i visit$ ! rese>* c5t] aga91 soon aft] ! day ( op5+4 ,! great botani/1 m9dful ( 8 promise1 took me to 8 quiet laboratory4 8,i w atta* ! crescograph to ?is f]n2 ! magnification is trem5d\s4 ,if a snail's crawl 7 enl>g$ 9 ! same proportion1 ! creature w\ld appe> to be travel+ l an express tra960 ,my gaze 0 fix$ eag]ly on ! scre5 :i* reflect$ ! magnifi$ f]n-%ad[4 ,m9ute life-movem5ts 7 n[ cle>ly p]ceptible2 ! plant 0 gr[+ v sl[ly be=e my fasc9at$ eyes4 ,! sci5ti/ t\*$ ! tip ( ! f]n ) a small metal b>4 ,! develop+ pantomime came to an abrupt halt1 resum+ ! eloqu5t rhy?ms z soon z ! rod 0 )drawn4 8,y saw h[ any slight outside int]f]5ce is detrim5tal to ! s5sitive tissues10 ,bose rem>k$4 8,wat*2 ,i w n[ adm9i/] *lor(orm1 & !n give an antidote40 ,! effect ( ! *lor(orm discont9u$ all gr[?2 ! antidote 0 revivify+4 ,! evolution>y ge/ures on ! scre5 held me m raptly ?an a 8movie0 plot4 ,my companion 7"h 9 ! role ( villa97 ?ru/ a %>p in/rum5t ?r\gh a "p ( ! f]n2 pa9 0 indicat$ by spasmodic flutt]s4 ,:5 he pass$ a razor p>tially ?r\gh ! /em1 ! %ad[ 0 viol5tly agitat$1 !n /ill$ itself ) ! f9al punctuation ( dea?4 8,by fir/ *lor(orm+ a huge tree1 ,i a*iev$ a successful transplantation4 ,usually1 su* mon>*s ( ! =e/ die v quickly aft] be+ mov$40 ,jagadis smil$ happily z he rec\nt$ ! life-sav+ maneuv]4 8,graphs ( my delicate app>atus h prov$ t trees possess a circulatory sy/em2 _! sap movem5ts correspond to ! blood pressure ( animal bodies4 ,! asc5t ( sap is n explicable on ! me*anical gr\nds ord9>ily advanc$1 su* z capill>y attraction4 ,! ph5om5on has be5 solv$ ?r\gh ! crescograph z ! activity ( liv+ cells4 ,p]i/altic waves issue f a cyl9drical tube :i* ext5ds d[n a tree & s]ves z an actual he>t6 ,! m deeply we p]ceive1 ! m /rik+ becomes ! evid5ce t a uni=m plan l9ks e =m 9 manifold nature40 ,! great sci5ti/ po9t$ to ano!r ,bose in/rum5t4 8,i w %[ y exp]im5ts on a piece ( t94 ,! life-=ce 9 metals responds adv]sely or b5eficially to /imuli4 ,ink m>k+s w regi/] ! v>i\s reactions40 ,deeply engross$1 ,i wat*$ ! graph :i* record$ ! *>act]i/ic waves ( atomic /ructure4 ,:5 ! pr(essor appli$ *lor(orm to ! t91 ! vibratory writ+s /opp$4 ,!y recomm5c$ z ! metal sl[ly rega9$ its normal /ate4 ,my companion disp5s$ a poison\s *emical4 ,simultane\s ) ! quiv]+ end ( ! t91 ! ne$le dramatically wrote on ! *>t a dea?-notice4 8,bose in/rum5ts h demon/rat$ t metals1 su* z ! /eel us$ 9 scissors & ma*9]y1 are subject to fatigue1 & rega9 effici5cy by p]iodic re/4 ,! life-pulse 9 metals is s]i\sly h>m$ or ev5 ext+ui%$ ?r\gh ! application ( electric curr5ts or heavy pressure40 ,i look$ ar\nd ! room at ! num]\s inv5tions1 eloqu5t te/imony ( a tireless +5uity4 8,sir1 x is lam5table t mass agricultural developm5t is n spe$$ by full] use ( y\r m>vel\s me*anisms4 ,w\ld x n be easily possible to employ "s ( !m 9 quick laboratory exp]im5ts to indicate ! influ5ce ( v>i\s types ( f]tiliz]s on plant gr[?80 8,y are "r4 ,c\ntless uses ( ,bose in/rum5ts w be made by future g5]ations4 ,! sci5ti/ seldom kn[s contemporane\s rew>d2 x is en\gh to possess ! joy ( creative s]vice40 ,) expressions ( unres]v$ gratitude to ! indefatigable sage1 ,i took my leave4 8,c ! a/oni%+ f]tility ( 8 g5ius ev] be exhau/$80 ,i ?\ght4 ,no dim9ution came ) ! ye>s4 ,inv5t+ an intricate in/rum5t1 ! 8,resonant ,c>diograph10 ,bose !n pursu$ ext5sive rese>*es on innum]able ,indian plants4 ,an enorm\s unsuspect$ ph>macopoeia ( useful drugs 0 reveal$4 ,! c>diograph is con/ruct$ ) an un]r+ accuracy by :i* a "o-hundr$? "p ( a second is indicat$ on a graph4 ,resonant records measure inf9itesimal pulsations 9 plant1 animal & human /ructure4 ,! great botani/ pr$ict$ t use ( 8 c>diograph w lead to vivisection on plants in/ead ( animals4 8,side by side record+s ( ! effects ( a m$ic9e giv5 simultane\sly to a plant & an animal h %[n a/\nd+ unanimity 9 result10 he po9t$ out4 8,ev]y?+ 9 man has be5 =e%ad[$ 9 ! plant4 ,exp]im5tation on vegetation w contribute to less5+ ( human suff]+40 ,ye>s lat] ,bose's pione] plant f9d+s 7 sub/antiat$ by o!r sci5ti/s4 ,"w done 9 #aich at ,columbia ,univ]sity 0 report$ by ,,! ,,new ,,york ,,times z foll[s3 ,x has be5 det]m9$ )9 ! pa/ few ye>s t :5 ! n]ves transmit messages betwe5 ! bra9 & o!r p>ts ( ! body1 t9y electrical impulses are be+ g5]at$4 ,^! impulses h be5 measur$ by delicate galvanomet]s & magnifi$ millions ( times by mod]n amplify+ app>atus4 ,until n[ no satisfactory me?od _h be5 f\nd to /udy ! passages ( ! impulses along ! n]ve fib]s 9 liv+ animals or man because ( ! great spe$ ) :i* ^! impulses travel4 ,drs4 ,k4 ,s4 ,cole & ,h4 ,j4 ,curtis report$ hav+ discov]$ t ! long s+le cells ( ! fre%-wat] plant nitella1 us$ frequ5tly 9 goldfi% b[ls1 are virtually id5tical ) ^? ( s+le n]ve fib]s4 ,fur!rmore1 !y f\nd t nitella fib]s1 on be+ excit$1 propagate electrical waves t are simil> 9 e way1 except velocity1 to ^? ( ! n]ve fib]s 9 animals & man4 ,! electrical n]ve impulses 9 ! plant 7 f\nd to be mu* sl[] ?an ^? 9 animals4 ,?is discov]y 0 !re=e seiz$ ^u by ! ,columbia work]s z a means = tak+ sl[ motion pictures ( ! passage ( ! electrical impulses 9 n]ves4 ,! nitella plant ?us may become a sort ( ,rosetta /one = deciph]+ ! closely gu>d$ secrets close to ! v bord]l& ( m9d & matt]4 ,! poet ,rab9drana? ,tagore 0 a /alw>t fri5d ( ,india's ideali/ic sci5ti/4 ,to him1 ! sweet ,b5gali s+] address$ ! foll[+ l9es3 ,,fn#h-f ,o ,h]mit1 call ?\ 9 ! au!ntic words ,( t old hymn call$ ,,sama2 8,rise6 ,awake60 ,call to ! man :o boa/s 8 ,,%a/ric lore ,f va9 p$antic wrangl+s pr(itless1 ,call to t fooli% bragg>t to come =? ,out on ! face ( nature1 ?is broad e>?1 ,s5d =? ?is call unto ?y s*ol> b&2 ,toge!r r\nd ?y sacrifice ( fire ,let !m all ga!r4 ,s may our ,india1 ,our anci5t l& unto h]self return ,o once aga9 return to /eadfa/ "w1 ,to duty & devotion1 to h] trance ,( e>ne/ m$itation2 let h] sit ,once m unruffl$1 gre$less1 /rifeless1 pure1 ,o once aga9 ^u h] l(ty seat ,& plat=m1 tea*] ( all l&s4 ,,fn#h-a 8,all sci5ce is transc5d5tal or else passes away4 ,botany is n[ acquir+ ! "r !ory-! avat>s ( ,brahma w pres5tly be ! textbooks ( natural hi/ory40-,,em]son4 ,,fn#h-b ,f ! ,lat9 root1 ,,cresc]e1 to increase4 ,= 8 crescograph & o!r inv5tions1 ,bose 0 knight$ 9 #aiag4 ,,fn#h-c ,! lotus fl[] is an anci5t div9e symbol 9 ,india2 its unfold+ petals sugge/ ! expansion ( ! s\l2 ! gr[? ( its pure beauty f ! mud ( its orig9 holds a b5ign spiritual promise4 ,,fn#h-d 8,at pres5t1 only ! %e]e/ accid5t br+s ,india into ! purview ( ! ,am]ican college /ud5t4 ,eight univ]sities 7,h>v>d1 ,yale1 ,columbia1 ,pr9ceton1 ,johns ,hopk9s1 ,p5nsylvania1 ,*icago1 & ,cali=nia7 h *airs ( ,indology or ,sanskrit1 b ,india is virtually unrepres5t$ 9 dep>tm5ts ( hi/ory1 philosophy1 f9e arts1 political sci5ce1 sociology1 or any ( ! o!r dep>tm5ts ( intellectual exp]i5ce 9 :i*1 z we h se51 ,india has made great contributions4 4 4 4 ,we believe1 consequ5tly1 t no dep>tm5t ( /udy1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! humanities1 9 any major univ]sity c be fully equipp$ )\t a prop]ly tra9$ speciali/ 9 ! ,indic phases ( its discipl9e4 ,we believe1 too1 t e college :i* aims to prep>e its graduates = intellig5t "w 9 ! _w :i* is to be !irs to live 91 mu/ h on its /aff a s*ol> compet5t 9 ! civilization ( ,india40-,extracts f an article by ,pr(essor ,w4 ,norman ,br[n ( ! ,univ]sity ( ,p5nsylvania :i* appe>$ 9 ! ,may1 #aici1 issue ( ! ,,bullet9 ( ! ,am]ican ,c\ncil ( ,le>n$ ,societies1 #ijg #ae? ,/41 ,wa%+ton1 ,d4 ,c41 #be c5ts copy4 ,?is issue 7#bh7 conta9s ov] #ajj pages ( a 8,basic ,bibliography = ,indic ,/udies40 ,,fn#h-e ,! atomic /ructure ( matt] 0 well-kn[n to ! anci5t ,h9dus4 ,"o ( ! six sy/ems ( ,indian philosophy is ,,vaisesika1 f ! ,sanskrit root ,,visesas1 8atomic individuality40 ,"o ( ! =emo/ ,,vaisesika exp\nd]s 0 ,aulukya1 also call$ ,kanada1 8! atom-eat]10 born ab\t #bhjj ye>s ago4 ,9 an article 9 ,,ea/-,,we/1 ,april1 #aicd1 a summ>y ( ,,vaisesika sci5tific k 0 giv5 z foll[s3 8,?\gh ! mod]n #8atomic !ory' is g5]ally consid]$ a new advance ( sci5ce1 x 0 brilliantly exp\nd$ long ago by ,kanada1 #8! atom-eat]4' ,! ,sanskrit ,,anus c be prop]ly translat$ z #8atom' 9 ! latt]'s lit]al ,greek s5se ( #8uncut' or indivisible4 ,o!r sci5tific expositions ( ,,vaisesika treatises ( ! ,b4,c4 era include 7#a7 ! movem5t ( ne$les t[>d magnets1 7#b7 ! circulation ( wat] 9 plants1 7#c7 ,,aka% or e!r1 in]t & /ructureless1 z a basis = transmitt+ subtle =ces1 7#d7 ! sol> fire z ! cause ( all o!r =ms ( heat1 7#e7 heat z ! cause ( molecul> *ange1 7#f7 ! law ( gravitation z caus$ by ! quality t inh]es 9 e>?-atoms to give !m _! attractive p[] or d[nw>d pull1 7#g7 ! k9etic nature ( all en]gy2 causation z always root$ 9 an exp5diture ( en]gy or a r$i/ribution ( motion1 7#h7 univ]sal dissolution ?r\gh ! dis9tegration ( atoms1 7#i7 ! radiation ( heat & light rays1 inf9itely small p>ticles1 d>t+ =? 9 all directions ) inconceivable spe$ 7! mod]n #8cosmic rays' !ory71 7#aj7 ! relativity ( "t & space4 8,,vaisesika assign$ ! orig9 ( ! _w to atoms1 et]nal 9 _! nature1 i4e41 _! ultimate peculi>ities4 ,^! atoms 7 reg>d$ z possess+ an incessant vibratory motion4 4 4 4 ,! rec5t discov]y t an atom is a m9iature sol> sy/em w\ld be no news to ! old ,,vaisesika philosoph]s1 :o also r$uc$ "t to its fur!/ ma!matical concept by describ+ ! smalle/ unit ( "t 7,,kala7 z ! p]iod tak5 by an atom to trav]se its own unit ( space40 ,,fn#h-f ,translat$ f ! ,b5gali ( ,rab9drana? ,tagore1 by ,manmohan ,gho%1 9 ,,viswa-,,bh>ati4 ,,*apt]3 #i ,,! ,,blissful ,,devotee ,,& ,,8 ,,cosmic ,,romance 8,little sir1 please be seat$4 ,i am talk+ to my ,div9e ,"m40 ,sil5tly ,i _h ent]$ ! room 9 great awe4 ,! angelic appe>ance ( ,ma/] ,mahasaya fairly dazzl$ me4 ,) silky :ite be>d & l>ge lu/r\s eyes1 he seem$ an inc>nation ( purity4 ,8 uprais$ *9 & fold$ h&s appriz$ me t my fir/ visit _h di/urb$ him 9 ! mid/ ( 8 devotions4 ,8 simple words ( greet+ produc$ ! mo/ viol5t effect my nature _h s f> exp]i5c$4 ,! bitt] sep>ation ( my "m's dea? ,i _h ?\ght ! measure ( all angui%4 ,n[ an agony at sep>ation f my ,div9e ,"m 0 an indescribable torture ( ! _s4 ,i fell moan+ to ! floor4 8,little sir1 quiet y\rself60 ,! sa9t 0 sympa!tically di/ress$4 ,ab&on$ 9 "s oceanic desolation1 ,i clut*$ 8 feet z ! sole raft ( my rescue4 8,holy sir1 ?y int]cession6 ,ask ,div9e ,"m if ,i f9d any favor 9 ,h] sight60 ,?is promise is "o n easily be/[$2 ! ma/] 0 con/ra9$ to sil5ce4 ,beyond rea* ( d\bt1 ,i 0 conv9c$ t ,ma/] ,mahasaya 0 9 intimate conv]se ) ! ,univ]sal ,"m4 ,x 0 deep humiliation to realize t my eyes 7 bl9d to ,h] :o ev5 at ?is mom5t 0 p]ceptible to ! faultless gaze ( ! sa9t4 ,%amelessly gripp+ 8 feet1 deaf to 8 g5tle remon/rances1 ,i bes\ght him aga9 & aga9 = 8 int]v5+ grace4 8,i w make y\r plea to ! ,belov$40 ,! ma/]'s capitulation came ) a sl[1 compassionate smile4 ,:at p[] 9 ^? few words1 t my be+ %\ld "k release f its /ormy exile8 8,sir1 rememb] y\r pl$ge6 ,i %all return soon = ,h] message60 ,joyful anticipation rang 9 my voice t only a mom5t ago _h be5 sobb+ 9 sorr[4 ,desc5d+ ! long /airway1 ,i 0 ov]:elm$ by memories4 ,?is h\se at #ej ,amh]/ ,/reet1 n[ ! resid5ce ( ,ma/] ,mahasaya1 _h once be5 my family home1 sc5e ( my "m's dea?4 ,"h my human he>t _h brok5 = ! vani%$ "m2 & "h today my _s _h be5 z ?\gh crucifi$ by abs5ce ( ! ,div9e ,"m4 ,hall[$ walls1 sil5t witness ( my griev\s hurts & f9al heal+6 ,my /eps 7 eag] z ,i return$ to my ,gurp> ,road home4 ,seek+ ! seclusion ( my small attic1 ,i rema9$ 9 m$itation until t5 o'clock4 ,! d>kness ( ! w>m ,indian night 0 sudd5ly lit ) a wondr\s vision4 ,halo$ 9 spl5dor1 ! ,div9e ,"m /ood be=e me4 ,h] face1 t5d]ly smil+1 0 beauty itself4 8,always h ,i lov$ !e6 ,ev] %all ,i love !e60 ,! cele/ial tones /ill r++ 9 ! air1 ,%e disappe>$4 ,! sun on ! foll[+ morn+ _h h>dly ris5 to an angle ( decorum :5 ,i paid my second visit to ,ma/] ,mahasaya4 ,climb+ ! /aircase 9 ! h\se ( poignant memories1 ,i rea*$ 8 f\r?-floor room4 ,! knob ( ! clos$ door 0 wrapp$ ar\nd ) a clo?2 a h9t1 ,i felt1 t ! sa9t desir$ privacy4 ,z ,i /ood irresolutely on ! l&+1 ! door 0 op5$ by ! ma/]'s welcom+ h&4 ,i knelt at 8 holy feet4 ,9 a playful mood1 ,i wore a solemn mask ov] my face1 hid+ ! div9e elation4 8,sir1 ,i h come-v e>ly1 ,i confess6-= y\r message4 ,did ! ,belov$ ,"m say any?+ ab\t me80 8,mis*iev\s little sir60 ,n ano!r rem>k w\ld he make4 ,app>5tly my assum$ gravity 0 unimpressive4 8,:y s my/]i\s1 s evasive8 ,d sa9ts nev] speak pla9ly80 ,p]haps ,i 0 a little provok$4 8,mu/ y te/ me80 ,8 calm eyes 7 full ( und]/&+4 8,c\ld ,i add a s+le ^w ?is morn+ to ! assurance y receiv$ la/ night at t5 o'clock f ! ,beautiful ,"m ,h]self80 ,ma/] ,mahasaya possess$ control ov] ! flood-gates ( my s\l3 aga9 ,i plung$ pro/rate at 8 feet4 ,b ?is "t my te>s well$ f a bliss1 & n a pa91 pa/ be>+4 8,?9k y t y\r devotion did n t\* ! ,inf9ite ,m]cy8 ,! ,mo!rhood ( ,god1 t y h wor%ip$ 9 =ms bo? human & div9e1 c\ld nev] fail to answ] y\r =sak5 cry40 ,illu/ration3 ,ma/] ,mahasaya1 ,ev] engross$ 9 8 blissful cosmic romance4--see mmahasaya4jpg ,:o 0 ?is simple sa9t1 ^: lea/ reque/ to ! ,univ]sal ,_s met ) sweet acquiesc5ce8 ,8 role 9 ! _w 0 humble1 z befitt$ ! greate/ man ( humility ,i ev] knew4 ,9 ?is ,amh]/ ,/reet h\se1 ,ma/] ,mahasaya ,,fn#i-a conduct$ a small high s*ool = boys4 ,no words ( *a/isem5t pass$ 8 lips2 no rule & f]ule ma9ta9$ 8 discipl9e4 ,high] ma!matics inde$ 7 taught 9 ^! mode/ classrooms1 & a *emi/ry ( love abs5t f ! textbooks4 ,he spread 8 wisdom by spiritual contagion r ?an imp]meable precept4 ,consum$ by an unsophi/icat$ passion = ! ,div9e ,"m1 ! sa9t no m dem&$ ! outw>d =ms ( respect ?an a *ild4 8,i am n y\r guru2 he %all come a little lat]10 he told me4 8,?r\gh 8 guidance1 y\r exp]i5ces ( ! ,div9e 9 t]ms ( love & devotion %all be translat$ into 8 t]ms ( fa?omless wisdom40 ,e late aft]noon1 ,i betook myself to ,amh]/ ,/reet4 ,i s\ght ,ma/] ,mahasaya's div9e cup1 s full t its drops daily ov]fl[$ on my be+4 ,nev] be=e _h ,i b[$ 9 utt] rev]5ce2 n[ ,i felt x an immeasurable privilege ev5 to tread ! same gr\nd :i* ,ma/] ,mahasaya sanctifi$4 8,sir1 please we> ?is *ampak g>l& ,i h fa%ion$ especially = y40 ,i arriv$ "o ev5+1 hold+ my *a9 ( fl[]s4 ,b %yly he drew away1 repeat$ly refus+ ! honor4 ,p]ceiv+ my hurt1 he f9ally smil$ cons5t4 8,s9ce we are bo? devotees ( ! ,"m1 y may put ! g>l& on ?is bodily temple1 z (f]+ to ,h] :o dwells )940 ,8 va/ nature lack$ space 9 :i* any egoti/ical consid]ation c\ld ga9 foo?old4 8,let u g tomorr[ to ! ,dak%9esw> ,temple1 =ev] hall[$ by my guru40 ,ma/] ,mahasaya 0 a disciple ( a ,*ri/like ma/]1 ,sri ,ramakri%na ,p>amhansa4 ,! f\r-mile j\rney on ! foll[+ morn+ 0 tak5 by boat on ! ,ganges4 ,we ent]$ ! n9e-dom$ ,temple ( ,kali1 :]e ! figures ( ! ,div9e ,"m & ,%iva re/ on a burni%$ silv] lotus1 its ?\s& petals meticul\sly *isel$4 ,ma/] ,mahasaya beam$ 9 en*antm5t4 ,he 0 engag$ 9 8 inexhau/ible romance ) ! ,belov$4 ,z he *ant$ ,h] "n1 my enraptur$ he>t seem$ %att]$ into a ?\s& pieces4 ,we /roll$ lat] ?r\gh ! sacr$ prec9cts1 halt+ 9 a tam>isk grove4 ,! manna *>act]i/ically exud$ by ?is tree 0 symbolic ( ! heav5ly food ,ma/] ,mahasaya 0 be/[+4 ,8 div9e invocations cont9u$4 ,i sat rigidly motionless on ! grass amid ! p9k fea!ry tam>isk fl[]s4 ,tempor>ily abs5t f ! body1 ,i so>$ 9 a sup]nal visit4 ,?is 0 ! fir/ ( _m pilgrimages to ,dak%9esw> ) ! holy tea*]4 ,f him ,i le>n$ ! sweetness ( ,god 9 ! aspect ( ,"m1 or ,div9e ,m]cy4 ,! *ildlike sa9t f\nd little appeal 9 ! ,fa!r aspect1 or ,div9e ,ju/ice4 ,/]n1 exact+1 ma!matical judgm5t 0 ali5 to 8 g5tle nature4 8,he c s]ve z an e>?ly prototype = ! v angels ( heav560 ,i ?\ght fondly1 wat*+ him "o day at 8 pray]s4 ,)\t a brea? ( c5sure or criticism1 he survey$ ! _w ) eyes long famili> ) ! ,primal ,purity4 ,8 body1 m9d1 spee*1 & actions 7 ef=tlessly h>moniz$ ) 8 s\l's simplicity4 8,my ,ma/] told me s40 ,%r9k+ f p]sonal ass]tion1 ! sa9t end$ any sage c\nsel ) ?is inv>iable tribute4 ,s deep 0 8 id5tity ) ,sri ,ramakri%na t ,ma/] ,mahasaya no long] consid]$ 8 ?\ghts z 8 own4 ,h& 9 h&1 ! sa9t & ,i walk$ "o ev5+ on ! block ( 8 s*ool4 ,my joy 0 dimm$ by ! arrival ( a conceit$ acqua9tance :o burd5$ u ) a l5g?y disc\rse4 8,i see ?is man doesn't please y40 ,! sa9t's :isp] to me 0 unhe>d by ! egoti/1 spellb\nd by 8 own monologue4 8,i h spok5 to ,div9e ,"m ab\t x2 ,%e realizes our sad pr$icam5t4 ,z soon z we get to yond] r$ h\se1 ,%e has promis$ to rem9d him ( m urg5t bus9ess40 ,my eyes 7 glu$ to ! site ( salvation4 ,rea*+ its r$ gate1 ! man unacc\ntably turn$ & dep>t$1 nei!r f9i%+ 8 s5t5ce nor say+ good-by4 ,! assault$ air 0 com=t$ ) peace4 ,ano!r day f\nd me walk+ alone ne> ! ,h[rah railway /ation4 ,i /ood = a mom5t by a temple1 sil5tly criticiz+ a small gr\p ( m5 ) drum & cymbals :o 7 viol5tly recit+ a *ant4 8,h[ undevotionally !y use ! ,"l's div9e "n 9 me*anical repetition10 ,i reflect$4 ,my gaze 0 a/oni%$ by ! rapid approa* ( ,ma/] ,mahasaya4 8,sir1 h[ come y "h80 ,! sa9t1 ignor+ my "q1 answ]$ my ?\ght4 8,isn't x true1 little sir1 t ! ,belov$'s "n s\nds sweet f all lips1 ignorant or wise80 ,he pass$ 8 arm ar\nd me affectionately2 ,i f\nd myself c>ri$ on 8 magic c>pet to ! ,m]ciful ,pres5ce4 8,w\ld y l to see "s bioscopes80 ,?is "q "o aft]noon f ,ma/] ,mahasaya 0 my/ify+2 ! t]m 0 !n us$ 9 ,india to signify motion pictures4 ,i agre$1 glad to be 9 8 company 9 any circum/ances4 ,a brisk walk br\ght u to ! g>d5 front+ ,calcutta ,univ]sity4 ,my companion indicat$ a b5* ne> ! ,,goldighi or pond4 8,let u sit "h = a few m9utes4 ,my ,ma/] always ask$ me to m$itate :5ev] ,i saw an expanse ( wat]4 ,"h its placidity rem9ds u ( ! va/ calmness ( ,god4 ,z all ?+s c be reflect$ 9 wat]1 s ! :ole univ]se is mirror$ 9 ! lake ( ! ,cosmic ,m9d4 ,s my ,,gurudeva (t5 said40 ,soon we ent]$ a univ]sity hall :]e a lecture 0 9 progress4 ,x prov$ abysmally dull1 ?\gh v>i$ occasionally by lant]n slide illu/rations1 equally un9t]e/+4 8,s ?is is ! k9d ( bioscope ! ma/] want$ me to see60 ,my ?\ght 0 impati5t1 yet ,i w\ld n hurt ! sa9t by reveal+ bor$om 9 my face4 ,b he lean$ t[>d me confid5tially4 8,i see1 little sir1 t y don't l ?is bioscope4 ,i h m5tion$ x to ,div9e ,"m2 ,%e is 9 full sympa?y ) u bo?4 ,%e tells me t ! electric lights w n[ g out1 & won't be relit until we h a *ance to leave ! room40 ,z 8 :isp] end$1 ! hall 0 plung$ into d>kness4 ,! pr(essor's /rid5t voice 0 /ill$ 9 a/oni%m5t1 !n rem>k$1 8,! electrical sy/em ( ?is hall appe>s to be defective40 ,by ?is "t1 ,ma/] ,mahasaya & ,i 7 safely across ! ?re%old4 ,glanc+ back f ! corridor1 ,i saw t ! sc5e ( our m>tyrdom _h aga9 become illum9at$4 8,little sir1 y 7 disappo9t$ 9 t bioscope1 ,,fn#i-b b ,i ?9k y w l a diff]5t "o40 ,! sa9t & ,i 7 /&+ on ! sidewalk 9 front ( ! univ]sity build+4 ,he g5tly slapp$ my *e/ ov] ! he>t4 ,a trans=m+ sil5ce ensu$4 ,j z ! mod]n 8talkies0 become inaudible motion pictures :5 ! s\nd app>atus goes out ( ord]1 s ! ,div9e ,h&1 by "s /range miracle1 /ifl$ ! e>?ly bu/le4 ,! p$e/rians z well z ! pass+ trolley c>s1 automobiles1 bullock c>ts1 & iron-:eel$ hackney c>riages 7 all 9 noiseless transit4 ,z ?\gh possess+ an omnipres5t eye1 ,i beheld ! sc5es :i* 7 beh9d me1 & to ea* side1 z easily z ^? 9 front4 ,! :ole spectacle ( activity 9 t small section ( ,calcutta pass$ be=e me )\t a s\nd4 ,l a gl[ ( fire dimly se5 b5ea? a ?9 coat ( a%es1 a mell[ lum9esc5ce p]meat$ ! panoramic view4 ,my own body seem$ no?+ m ?an "o ( ! _m %ad[s1 ?\gh x 0 motionless1 :ile ! o!rs flitt$ mutely to & fro4 ,sev]al boys1 fri5ds ( m9e1 approa*$ & pass$ on2 ?\gh !y _h look$ directly at me1 x 0 )\t recognition4 ,! unique pantomime br\ght me an inexpressible ec/asy4 ,i drank deep f "s blissful f\nt4 ,sudd5ly my *e/ receiv$ ano!r s(t bl[ f ,ma/] ,mahasaya4 ,! p&emonium ( ! _w bur/ ^u my unwill+ e>s4 ,i /agg]$1 z ?\gh h>%ly awak5$ f a gossam] dream4 ,! transc5d5tal w9e remov$ beyond my rea*4 8,little sir1 ,i see y f\nd ! second bioscope to y\r lik+40 ,! sa9t 0 smil+2 ,i />t$ to drop 9 gratitude on ! gr\nd be=e him4 8,y c't d t to me n[2 y "k ,god is 9 y\r temple also6 ,i won't let ,div9e ,"m t\* my feet ?r\gh y\r h&s60 ,if anyone obs]v$ ! unpret5ti\s ma/] & myself z we walk$ away f ! cr[d$ pavem5t1 ! onlook] surely suspect$ u ( intoxication4 ,i felt t ! fall+ %ades ( ev5+ 7 sympa!tically drunk ) ,god4 ,:5 d>kness recov]$ f its nightly swoon1 ,i fac$ ! new morn+ b]eft ( my ec/atic mood4 ,b ev] en%r9$ 9 memory is ! s]aphic son ( ,div9e ,"m-,ma/] ,mahasaya6 ,try+ ) poor words to d ju/ice to 8 b5ignity1 ,i wond] if ,ma/] ,mahasaya1 & o!rs among ! deep-vision$ sa9ts ^: pa?s cross$ m9e1 knew t ye>s lat]1 9 a ,we/]n l&1 ,i w\ld be writ+ ab\t _! lives z div9e devotees4 ,_! =ekn[l$ge w\ld n surprise me nor1 ,i hope1 my read]s1 :o h come ?us f> ) me4 ,,fn#i-a ,^! are respectful titles by :i* he 0 cu/om>ily address$4 ,8 "n 0 ,mah5dra ,na? ,gupta2 he sign$ 8 lit]>y works simply 8,m40 ,,fn#i-b ,! ,ox=d ,engli% ,diction>y gives1 z r>e1 ?is def9ition ( ,,bioscope3 ,a view ( life2 t :i* gives su* a view4 ,ma/] ,mahasaya's *oice ( a ^w 01 !n1 peculi>ly ju/ifi$4 ,,*apt]3 #aj ,i ,,meet ,,my ,,ma/]1 ,,sri ,,yuktesw> 8,fai? 9 ,god c produce any miracle except "o-pass+ an exam9ation )\t /udy40 ,di/a/efully ,i clos$ ! book ,i _h pick$ up 9 an idle mom5t4 8,! writ]'s exception %[s 8 complete lack ( fai?10 ,i ?\ght4 8,poor *ap1 he has great respect = ! midnight oil60 ,my promise to ,fa!r _h be5 t ,i w\ld complete my high s*ool /udies4 ,i _c pret5d to dilig5ce4 ,! pass+ mon?s f\nd me less frequ5tly 9 ! classroom ?an 9 seclud$ spots along ! ,calcutta ba?+ ,,ghats4 ,! adjo9+ crematory gr\nds1 especially gruesome at night1 are consid]$ highly attractive by ! yogi4 ,he :o w\ld f9d ! ,dea?less ,ess5ce mu/ n be dismay$ by a few unadorn$ skulls4 ,human inadequacy becomes cle> 9 ! gloomy abode ( miscellane\s bones4 ,my midnight vigils 7 ?us ( a diff]5t nature f ! s*ol>'s4 ,! week ( f9al exam9ations at ! ,h9du ,high ,s*ool 0 fa/ approa*+4 ,?is int]rogatory p]iod1 l ! sepul*ral haunts1 inspires a well-kn[n t]ror4 ,my m9d 0 nev]!less at peace4 ,brav+ ! gh\ls1 ,i 0 exhum+ a k n f\nd 9 lecture halls4 ,b x lack$ ! art ( ,swami ,pranaban&a1 :o easily appe>$ 9 two places at "o "t4 ,my educational dilemma 0 pla9ly a matt] = ! ,inf9ite ,+5uity4 ,?is 0 my reason+1 ?\gh to _m x seems illogic4 ,! devotee's irrationality spr+s f a ?\s& inexplicable demon/rations ( ,god's in/ancy 9 tr\ble4 8,hello1 ,mukunda6 ,i cat* h>dly a glimpse ( y ^! days60 ,a classmate acco/$ me "o aft]noon on ,gurp> ,road4 8,hello1 ,nantu6 ,my invisibility at s*ool has actually plac$ me !re 9 a decid$ly awkw>d position40 ,i unburd5$ myself "u 8 fri5dly gaze4 ,nantu1 :o 0 a brilliant /ud5t1 laugh$ he>tily2 my pr$icam5t 0 n )\t a comic aspect4 8,y are utt]ly unprep>$ = ! f9als6 ,i suppose x is up to me to help y60 ,! simple words convey$ div9e promise to my e>s2 ) alacrity ,i visit$ my fri5d's home4 ,he k9dly outl9$ ! solutions to v>i\s problems he consid]$ likely to be set by ! in/ructors4 8,^! que/ions are ! bait :i* w cat* _m tru/+ boys 9 ! exam9ation trap4 ,rememb] my answ]s1 & y w escape )\t injury40 ,! night 0 f> gone :5 ,i dep>t$4 ,bur/+ ) unseason$ erudition1 ,i dev\tly pray$ x w\ld rema9 = ! next few critical days4 ,nantu _h coa*$ me 9 my v>i\s subjects b1 "u press ( "t1 _h =gott5 my c\rse 9 ,sanskrit4 ,f]v5tly ,i rem9d$ ,god ( ! ov]sight4 ,i set out on a %ort walk ! next morn+1 assimilat+ my new k to ! rhy?m ( sw++ foot/eps4 ,z ,i took a %ort cut ?r\gh ! we$s ( a corn] lot1 my eye fell on a few loose pr9t$ %eets4 ,a triumphant p\nce prov$ !m to be ,sanskrit v]se4 ,i s\ght out a pundit = aid 9 my /umbl+ int]pretation4 ,8 ri* voice fill$ ! air ) ! edgeless1 honey$ beauty ( ! anci5t tongue4 ,,fn#aj-a 8,^! exceptional /anzas _c possibly be ( aid 9 y\r ,sanskrit te/40 ,! s*ol> dismiss$ !m skeptically4 ,b famili>ity ) t p>ticul> poem enabl$ me on ! foll[+ day to pass ! ,sanskrit exam9ation4 ,?r\gh ! disc]n+ help ,nantu _h giv51 ,i also atta9$ ! m9imum grade = success 9 all my o!r subjects4 ,fa!r 0 pleas$ t ,i _h kept my ^w & conclud$ my second>y s*ool c\rse4 ,my gratitude sp$ to ! ,"l1 ^: sole guidance ,i p]ceiv$ 9 my visit to ,nantu & my walk by ! unhabitual r\te ( ! debris-fill$ lot4 ,playfully ,he _h giv5 a dual expression to ,8 timely design = my rescue4 ,i came across ! disc>d$ book ^: au?or _h d5i$ ,god prec$5ce 9 ! exam9ation halls4 ,i c\ld n re/ra9 a *uckle at my own sil5t comm5t3 8,x w\ld only add to ?is fell['s confusion1 if ,i 7 to tell him t div9e m$itation among ! cadav]s is a %ort cut to a high s*ool diploma60 ,9 my new dignity1 ,i 0 n[ op5ly plann+ to leave home4 ,toge!r ) a "y fri5d1 ,jit5dra ,mazumd>1 ,,fn#aj-b ,i decid$ to jo9 a ,maham&al h]mitage 9 ,b5>es1 & receive its spiritual discipl9e4 ,a desolation fell ov] me "o morn+ at ?\ght ( sep>ation f my family4 ,s9ce ,"m's dea?1 my affection _h gr[n especially t5d] = my two y\ng] bro!rs1 ,san&a & ,bi%nu4 ,i ru%$ to my retreat1 ! little attic :i* _h witness$ s _m sc5es 9 my turbul5t ,,sadhana4 ,,fn#aj-c ,aft] a two-h\r flood ( te>s1 ,i felt s+ul>ly trans=m$1 z by "s al*emical cleans]4 ,all atta*m5t ,,fn#aj-d disappe>$2 my resolution to seek ,god z ! ,fri5d ( fri5ds set l granite )9 me4 ,i quickly complet$ my travel prep>ations4 8,i make "o la/ plea40 ,fa!r 0 di/ress$ z ,i /ood be=e him = f9al bless+4 8,d n =sake me & y\r griev+ bro!rs & si/]s40 8,rev]$ ,fa!r1 h[ c ,i tell my love = y6 ,b ev5 great] is my love = ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 :o has giv5 me ! gift ( a p]fect fa!r on e>?4 ,let me g1 t ,i som$ay return ) a m div9e und]/&+40 ,) reluctant p>5tal cons5t1 ,i set out to jo9 ,jit5dra1 already 9 ,b5>es at ! h]mitage4 ,on my arrival ! "y head swami1 ,dyan&a1 greet$ me cordially4 ,tall & ?91 ( ?\ghtful mi51 he impress$ me favorably4 ,8 fair face _h a ,buddhalike composure4 ,i 0 pleas$ t my new home possess$ an attic1 :]e ,i manag$ to sp5d ! dawn & morn+ h\rs4 ,! a%ram memb]s1 kn[+ little ( m$itation practices1 ?\ght ,i %\ld employ my :ole "t 9 organizational duties4 ,!y gave me praise = my aft]noon "w 9 _! (fice4 8,don't try to cat* ,god s soon60 ,?is ridicule f a fell[ resid5t accompani$ "o ( my e>ly dep>tures t[>d ! attic4 ,i w5t to ,dyan&a1 busy 9 8 small sanctum ov]look+ ! ,ganges4 8,swamiji1 ,,fn#aj-e ,i don't und]/& :at is requir$ ( me "h4 ,i am seek+ direct p]ception ( ,god4 ,)\t ,him1 ,i _c be satisfi$ ) affiliation or cre$ or p]=mance ( good works40 ,! orange-rob$ ecclesia/ic gave me an affectionate pat4 ,/ag+ a mock rebuke1 he admoni%$ a few ne>-by disciples4 8,don't bo!r ,mukunda4 ,he w le>n our ways40 ,i politely conceal$ my d\bt4 ,! /ud5ts left ! room1 n ov]ly b5t ) _! *a/isem5t4 ,dyan&a _h fur!r words = me4 8,mukunda1 ,i see y\r fa!r is regul>ly s5d+ y money4 ,please return x to him2 y require none "h4 ,a second injunction = y\r discipl9e conc]ns food4 ,ev5 :5 y feel hung]1 don't m5tion x40 ,:e!r fami%m5t gleam$ 9 my eye1 ,i knew n4 ,t ,i 0 hungry1 ,i knew only too well4 ,! inv>iable h\r = ! fir/ h]mitage meal 0 twelve noon4 ,i _h be5 accu/om$ 9 my own home to a l>ge breakfa/ at n9e o'clock4 ,! ?ree-h\r gap became daily m int]m9able4 ,gone 7 ! ,calcutta ye>s :5 ,i c\ld rebuke ! cook = a t5-m9ute delay4 ,n[ ,i tri$ to control my appetite2 "o day ,i und]took a tw5ty-f\r h\r fa/4 ,) d\ble ze/ ,i await$ ! foll[+ midday4 8,dyan&aji's tra9 is late2 we are n go+ to eat until he arrives40 ,jit5dra br\ght me ?is deva/at+ news4 ,z ge/ure ( welcome to ! swami1 :o _h be5 abs5t = two weeks1 _m delicacies 7 9 read9ess4 ,an appetiz+ aroma fill$ ! air4 ,no?+ else (f]+1 :at else c\ld be swall[$ except pride ov] ye/]day's a*ievem5t ( a fa/8 8,"l ha/5 ! tra960 ,! ,heav5ly ,provid]1 ,i ?\ght1 0 h>dly includ$ 9 ! int]diction ) :i* ,dyan&a _h sil5c$ me4 ,div9e ,att5tion 0 else:]e1 h[ev]2 ! plodd+ clock cov]$ ! h\rs4 ,d>kness 0 desc5d+ z our lead] ent]$ ! door4 ,my greet+ 0 "o ( unfeign$ joy4 8,dyan&aji w ba! & m$itate be=e we c s]ve food40 ,jit5dra approa*$ me aga9 z a bird ( ill om54 ,i 0 9 ne>-collapse4 ,my "y /oma*1 new to deprivation1 prote/$ ) gnaw+ vigor4 ,pictures ,i _h se5 ( fam9e victims pass$ wrai?like be=e me4 8,! next ,b5>es dea? f />vation is due at once 9 ?is h]mitage10 ,i ?\ght4 ,imp5d+ doom av]t$ at n9e o'clock4 ,ambrosial summons6 ,9 memory t meal is vivid z "o ( life's p]fect h\rs4 ,int5se absorption yet p]mitt$ me to obs]ve t ,dyan&a ate abs5t-m9d$ly4 ,he 0 app>5tly above my gross pleasures4 8,swamiji1 w]5't y hungry80 ,happily surfeit$1 ,i 0 alone ) ! lead] 9 8 /udy4 8,o yes6 ,i h sp5t ! la/ f\r days )\t food or dr9k4 ,i nev] eat on tra9s1 fill$ ) ! het]og5\s vibrations ( worldly p4 ,/rictly ,i obs]ve ! ,,%a/ric ,,fn#aj-f rules = monks ( my p>ticul> ord]4 8,c]ta9 problems ( our organizational "w lie on my m9d4 ,tonight at home ,i neglect$ my d9n]4 ,:at's ! hurry8 ,tomorr[ ,i'll make x a po9t to h a prop] meal40 ,he laugh$ m]rily4 ,%ame spread )9 me l a suffocation4 ,b ! pa/ day ( my torture 0 n easily =gott52 ,i v5tur$ a fur!r rem>k4 8,swamiji1 ,i am puzzl$4 ,foll[+ y\r in/ruction1 suppose ,i nev] ask$ = food1 & nobody gives me any4 ,i %\ld />ve to dea?40 8,die !n60 ,?is al>m+ c\nsel split ! air4 8,die if y mu/ ,mukunda6 ,nev] admit t y live by ! p[] ( food & n by ! p[] ( ,god6 ,he :o has creat$ e =m ( n\ri%m5t1 ,he :o has be/[$ appetite1 w c]ta9ly see t ,8 devotee is su/a9$6 ,d n imag9e t rice ma9ta9s y1 or t money or m5 support y6 ,c\ld !y aid if ! ,"l )draws y\r life-brea?8 ,!y are ,8 indirect in/rum5ts m]ely4 ,is x by any skill ( y\rs t food dige/s 9 y\r /oma*8 ,use ! sword ( y\r discrim9ation1 ,mukunda6 ,cut ?r\gh ! *a9s ( ag5cy & p]ceive ! ,s+le ,cause60 ,i f\nd 8 incisive words ent]+ "s deep m>r[4 ,gone 0 an age-old delusion by :i* bodily imp]atives outwit ! s\l4 ,!re & !n ,i ta/$ ! ,_s's all-suffici5cy4 ,9 h[ _m /range cities1 9 my lat] life ( ceaseless travel1 did occasion arise to prove ! s]viceability ( ?is lesson 9 a ,b5>es h]mitage6 ,! sole treasure :i* _h accompani$ me f ,calcutta 0 ! ,,sadhu',s silv] amulet bequea!d to me by ,"m4 ,gu>d+ x = ye>s1 ,i n[ _h x c>efully hidd5 9 my a%ram room4 ,to r5ew my joy 9 ! talismanic te/imony1 "o morn+ ,i op5$ ! lock$ box4 ,! seal$ cov]+ unt\*$1 lo6 ! amulet 0 gone4 ,m\rnfully ,i tore op5 its envelope & made unmi/akably sure4 ,x _h vani%$1 9 accordance ) ! ,,sadhu',s pr$iction1 into ! e!r :5ce he _h summon$ x4 ,my relation%ip ) ,dyan&a's foll[]s grew /eadily worse4 ,! h\sehold 0 ali5at$1 hurt by my det]m9$ alo(ness4 ,my /rict adh]5ce to m$itation on ! v ,ideal = :i* ,i _h left home & all worldly ambitions call$ =? %all[ criticism on all sides4 ,torn by spiritual angui%1 ,i ent]$ ! attic "o dawn1 resolv$ to pray until answ] 0 v\*saf$4 8,m]ciful ,"m ( ! ,univ]se1 tea* me ,?yself ?r\gh visions1 or ?r\gh a guru s5t by ,!e60 ,! pass+ h\rs f\nd my sobb+ pleas )\t response4 ,sudd5ly ,i felt lift$ z ?\gh bodily to a sph]e uncircumscrib$4 8,?y ,ma/] come? today60 ,a div9e womanly voice came f ev]y:]e & n[h]e4 ,?is sup]nal exp]i5ce 0 pi]c$ by a %\t f a def9ite locale4 ,a "y prie/ nicknam$ ,habu 0 call+ me f ! d[n/airs kit*54 8,mukunda1 en\gh ( m$itation6 ,y are ne$$ = an err&40 ,ano!r day ,i might h repli$ impati5tly2 n[ ,i wip$ my te>-swoll5 face & meekly obey$ ! summons4 ,toge!r ,habu & ,i set out = a di/ant m>ket place 9 ! ,b5gali section ( ,b5>es4 ,! ung5tle ,indian sun 0 n yet at z5i? z we made our pur*ases 9 ! baza>s4 ,we pu%$ our way ?r\gh ! colorful m$ley ( h\sewives1 guides1 prie/s1 simply-clad wid[s1 dignifi$ ,brahm9s1 & ! ubiquit\s holy bulls4 ,pass+ an inconspicu\s lane1 ,i turn$ my head & survey$ ! n>r[ l5g?4 ,a ,*ri/like man 9 ! o*] robes ( a swami /ood motionless at ! end ( ! road4 ,in/antly & anci5tly famili> he seem$2 my gaze f$ hungrily = a trice4 ,!n d\bt assail$ me4 8,y are confus+ ?is w&]+ monk ) someone kn[n to y10 ,i ?\ght4 8,dream]1 walk on40 ,aft] t5 m9utes1 ,i felt heavy numbness 9 my feet4 ,z ?\gh turn$ to /one1 !y 7 unable to c>ry me f>!r4 ,labori\sly ,i turn$ ar\nd2 my feet rega9$ normalcy4 ,i fac$ ! opposite direction2 aga9 ! curi\s weight oppress$ me4 8,! sa9t is magnetically draw+ me to him60 ,) ?is ?\ght1 ,i heap$ my p>cels into ! arms ( ,habu4 ,he _h be5 obs]v+ my erratic footwork ) amazem5t1 & n[ bur/ into laught]4 8,:at ails y8 ,are y crazy80 ,my tumultu\s emotion prev5t$ any retort2 ,i sp$ sil5tly away4 ,retrac+ my /eps z ?\gh w+-%od1 ,i rea*$ ! n>r[ lane4 ,my quick glance reveal$ ! quiet figure1 /eadily gaz+ 9 my direction4 ,a few eag] /eps & ,i 0 at 8 feet4 8,gurudeva60 ,,fn#aj-g ,! div9e face 0 none o!r ?an he ( my ?\s& visions4 ,^! halcyon eyes1 9 leon9e head ) po9t$ be>d & fl[+ locks1 _h (t pe]$ ?r\gh gloom ( my nocturnal rev]ies1 hold+ a promise ,i _h n fully und]/ood4 8,o my own1 y h come to me60 ,my guru utt]$ ! words aga9 & aga9 9 ,b5gali1 8 voice tremul\s ) joy4 8,h[ _m ye>s ,i h wait$ = y60 ,we ent]$ a on5ess ( sil5ce2 words seem$ ! ranke/ sup]fluities4 ,eloqu5ce fl[$ 9 s\ndless *ant f he>t ( ma/] to disciple4 ,) an ant5na ( irrefragable insight ,i s5s$ t my guru knew ,god1 & w\ld lead me to ,him4 ,! obscuration ( ?is life disappe>$ 9 a fragile dawn ( pr5atal memories4 ,dramatic "t6 ,pa/1 pres5t1 & future are its cycl+ sc5es4 ,?is 0 n ! fir/ sun to f9d me at ^! holy feet6 ,my h& 9 81 my guru l$ me to 8 tempor>y resid5ce 9 ! ,rana ,mahal section ( ! city4 ,8 a?letic figure mov$ ) firm tread4 ,tall1 erect1 ab\t fifty-five at ?is "t1 he 0 active & vigor\s z a "y man4 ,8 d>k eyes 7 l>ge1 beautiful ) plumbless wisdom4 ,slightly curly hair s(t5$ a face ( /rik+ p[]4 ,/r5g? m+l$ subtly ) g5tl5ess4 ,z we made our way to ! /one balcony ( a h\se ov]look+ ! ,ganges1 he said affectionately3 8,i w give y my h]mitages & all ,i possess40 8,sir1 ,i come = wisdom & ,god-contact4 ,^? are y\r treasure-troves ,i am aft]60 ,! swift ,indian twilight _h dropp$ its half-curta9 be=e my ma/] spoke aga94 ,8 eyes held unfa?omable t5d]ness4 8,i give y my unconditional love40 ,preci\s words6 ,a qu>t]-c5tury elaps$ be=e ,i _h ano!r auricul> pro( ( 8 love4 ,8 lips 7 /range to ardor2 sil5ce became 8 oceanic he>t4 8,w y give me ! same unconditional love80 ,he gaz$ at me ) *ildlike tru/4 8,i w love y et]nally1 ,gurudeva60 8,ord9>y love is selfi%1 d>kly root$ 9 desires & satisfactions4 ,div9e love is )\t condition1 )\t b\nd>y1 )\t *ange4 ,! flux ( ! human he>t is gone =ev] at ! transfix+ t\* ( pure love40 ,he add$ humbly1 8,if ev] y f9d me fall+ f a /ate ( ,god-realization1 please promise to put my head on y\r lap & help to br+ me back to ! ,cosmic ,belov$ we bo? wor%ip40 ,he rose !n 9 ! ga!r+ d>kness & guid$ me to an inn] room4 ,z we ate mangoes & almond sweetmeats1 he unobtrusively wove into 8 conv]sation an intimate k ( my nature4 ,i 0 awe-/ruck at ! gr&eur ( 8 wisdom1 exquisitely bl5d$ ) an innate humility4 8,d n grieve = y\r amulet4 ,x has s]v$ its purpose40 ,l a div9e mirror1 my guru app>5tly _h caught a reflection ( my :ole life4 8,! liv+ reality ( y\r pres5ce1 ,ma/]1 is joy beyond any symbol40 8,x is "t = a *ange1 inasmu* z y are unhappily situat$ 9 ! h]mitage40 ,i _h made no ref]5ces to my life2 !y n[ seem$ sup]flu\s6 ,by 8 natural1 unemphatic mann]1 ,i und]/ood t he wi%$ no a/oni%$ ejaculations at 8 clairvoyance4 8,y %\ld g back to ,calcutta4 ,:y exclude relatives f y\r love ( humanity80 ,8 sugge/ion dismay$ me4 ,my family 0 pr$ict+ my return1 ?\gh ,i _h be5 unresponsive to _m pleas by lett]4 8,let ! "y bird fly 9 ! metaphysical skies10 ,ananta _h rem>k$4 8,8 w+s w tire 9 ! heavy atmosph]e4 ,we %all yet see him swoop t[>d home1 fold 8 p9ions1 & humbly re/ 9 our family ne/40 ,?is disc\rag+ simile fre% 9 my m9d1 ,i 0 det]m9$ to d no 8swoop+0 9 ! direction ( ,calcutta4 8,sir1 ,i am n return+ home4 ,b ,i w foll[ y any:]e4 ,please give me y\r address1 & y\r "n40 8,swami ,sri ,yuktesw> ,giri4 ,my *ief h]mitage is 9 ,s]ampore1 on ,rai ,ghat ,lane4 ,i am visit+ my "m "h = only a few days40 ,i wond]$ at ,god's intricate play ) ,8 devotees4 ,s]ampore is b twelve miles f ,calcutta1 yet 9 ^? regions ,i _h nev] caught a glimpse ( my guru4 ,we _h _h to travel = our meet+ to ! anci5t city ( ,kasi 7,b5>es71 hall[$ by memories ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,"h too ! feet ( ,buddha1 ,%ank>a*>ya & o!r ,yogi--,*ri/s _h bless$ ! soil4 8,y w come to me 9 f\r weeks40 ,= ! fir/ "t1 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s voice 0 /]n4 8,n[ ,i h told my et]nal affection1 & h %[n my happ9ess at f9d+ y-t is :y y disreg>d my reque/4 ,! next "t we meet1 y w h to reawak5 my int]e/3 ,i won't accept y z a disciple easily4 ,!re mu/ be complete surr5d] by ob$i5ce to my /rict tra9+40 ,i rema9$ ob/9ately sil5t4 ,my guru easily p5etrat$ my difficulty4 8,d y ?9k y\r relatives w laugh at y80 8,i w n return40 8,y w return 9 ?irty days40 8,nev]40 ,b[+ rev]5tly at 8 feet1 ,i dep>t$ )\t light5+ ! controv]sial t5sion4 ,z ,i made my way 9 ! midnight d>kness1 ,i wond]$ :y ! miracul\s meet+ _h end$ on an inh>moni\s note4 ,! dual scales ( ,,maya1 t balance e joy ) a grief6 ,my "y he>t 0 n yet malleable to ! trans=m+ f+]s ( my guru4 ,! next morn+ ,i notic$ increas$ ho/ility 9 ! attitude ( ! h]mitage memb]s4 ,my days became spik$ ) inv>iable rud5ess4 ,9 ?ree weeks1 ,dyan&a left ! a%ram to att5d a conf]5ce 9 ,bombay2 p&emonium broke ov] my hapless head4 8,mukunda is a p>asite1 accept+ h]mitage hospitality )\t mak+ prop] return40 ,ov]he>+ ?is rem>k1 ,i regrett$ = ! fir/ "t t ,i _h obey$ ! reque/ to s5d back my money to ,fa!r4 ,) heavy he>t1 ,i s\ght out my sole fri5d1 ,jit5dra4 8,i am leav+4 ,please convey my respectful regrets to ,dyan&aji :5 he returns40 8,i w leave also6 ,my attempts to m$itate "h meet ) no m favor ?an y\r own40 ,jit5dra spoke ) det]m9ation4 8,i h met a ,*ri/like sa9t4 ,let u visit him 9 ,s]ampore40 ,& s ! 8bird0 prep>$ to 8swoop0 p]il\sly close to ,calcutta6 ,,fn#aj-a ,,sanskrita1 poli%$2 complete4 ,sanskrit is ! elde/ si/] ( all ,indo-,european tongues4 ,its alphabetical script is ,,devanag>i1 lit]ally 8div9e abode40 8,:o kn[s my gramm> kn[s ,god60 ,pan9i1 great philologi/ ( anci5t ,india1 paid ?is tribute to ! ma!matical & psy*ological p]fection 9 ,sanskrit4 ,he :o w\ld track language to its lair mu/ inde$ end z omnisci5t4 ,,fn#aj-b ,he 0 n ,jat9da 7,jot9 ,gho%71 :o w be rememb]$ = 8 timely av]sion to tig]s6 ,,fn#aj-c ,pa? or prelim9>y road to ,god4 ,,fn#aj-d ,h9du scriptures tea* t family atta*m5t is delusive if x prev5ts ! devotee f seek+ ! ,giv] ( all boons1 includ+ ! "o ( lov+ relatives1 n to m5tion life itself4 ,jesus simil>ly taught3 8,:o is my "m8 & :o are my bre?r580 7,,mat!w #ab3dh47 ,,fn#aj-e ,,ji is a cu/om>y respectful suffix1 p>ticul>ly us$ 9 direct address2 ?us 8swamiji10 8guruji10 8,sri ,yuktesw>ji10 8p>amhansaji40 ,,fn#aj-f ,p]ta9+ to ! ,,%a/ras1 lit]ally1 8sacr$ books10 compris+ f\r classes ( scripture3 ! ,,%ruti1 ,,smriti1 ,,purana1 & ,,tantra4 ,^! compreh5sive treatises cov] e aspect ( religi\s & social life1 & ! fields ( law1 m$ic9e1 ar*itecture1 art1 etc4 ,! ,,%rutis are ! 8directly he>d0 or 8reveal$0 scriptures1 ! ,,v$as4 ,! ,,smritis or 8rememb]$0 lore 0 f9ally writt5 d[n 9 a remote pa/ z ! _w's longe/ epic poems1 ! ,,mahabh>ata & ! ,,ramayana4 ,,puranas are lit]ally 8anci5t0 allegories2 ,,tantras lit]ally mean 8rites0 or 8rituals02 ^! treatises convey pr(\nd tru?s "u a veil ( detail$ symbolism4 ,,fn#aj-g 8,div9e tea*]10 ! cu/om>y ,sanskrit t]m = "o's spiritual preceptor4 ,i h r5d]$ x 9 ,engli% z simply 8,ma/]40 ,,*apt]3 #aa ,,two ,,p5niless ,,boys ,,9 ,,br9daban 8,x w\ld s]ve y "r if ,fa!r dis9h]it$ y1 ,mukunda6 ,h[ fooli%ly y are ?r[+ away y\r life60 ,an eld]-bro!r s]mon 0 assault+ my e>s4 ,jit5dra & ,i1 fre% f ! tra9 7a figure ( spee* m]ely2 we 7 cov]$ ) du/71 _h j arriv$ at ! home ( ,ananta1 rec5tly transf]r$ f ,calcutta to ! anci5t city ( ,agra4 ,bro!r 0 a sup]vis+ acc\ntant = ! ,b5gal-,nagpur ,railway4 8,y well "k1 ,ananta1 ,i seek my inh]itance f ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r40 8,money fir/2 ,god c come lat]6 ,:o kn[s8 ,life may be too long40 8,god fir/2 money is ,8 slave6 ,:o c tell8 ,life may be too %ort40 ,my retort 0 summon$ by ! exig5cies ( ! mom5t1 & held no pres5tim5t4 ,yet ! leaves ( "t unfold$ to e>ly f9ality = ,ananta2 a few ye>s lat] ,,fn#aa-a he ent]$ ! l& :]e bank notes avail nei!r fir/ nor la/4 8,wisdom f ! h]mitage1 ,i suppose6 ,b ,i see y h left ,b5>es40 ,ananta's eyes gleam$ ) satisfaction2 he yet hop$ to secure my p9ions 9 ! family ne/4 8,my soj\rn 9 ,b5>es 0 n 9 va96 ,i f\nd !re ev]y?+ my he>t _h be5 long+ =6 ,y may be sure x 0 n y\r pundit or 8 son60 ,ananta jo9$ me 9 rem9isc5t laught]2 he _h _h to admit t ! ,b5>es 8clairvoyant0 he select$ 0 a %ortsight$ "o4 8,:at are y\r plans1 my w&]+ bro!r80 8,jit5dra p]suad$ me to ,agra4 ,we %all view ! beauties ( ! ,taj ,mahal ,,fn#aa-b "h10 ,i expla9$4 8,!n we are go+ to my newly-f\nd guru1 :o has a h]mitage 9 ,s]ampore40 ,ananta hospitably arrang$ = our com=t4 ,sev]al times dur+ ! ev5+ ,i notic$ 8 eyes fix$ on me reflectively4 8,i "k t look60 ,i ?\ght4 8,a plot is brew+60 ,! d5\em5t took place dur+ our e>ly breakfa/4 8,s y feel q indep5d5t ( ,fa!r's weal?40 ,ananta's gaze 0 innoc5t z he resum$ ! b>bs ( ye/]day's conv]sation4 8,i am consci\s ( my dep5d5ce on ,god40 8,words are *eap6 ,life has %ield$ y ?us f>6 ,:at a plight if y 7 =c$ to look to ! ,invisible ,h& = y\r food & %elt]6 ,y w\ld soon be begg+ on ! /reets60 8,nev]6 ,i w\ld n put fai? 9 pass]s-by r ?an ,god6 ,he c devise = ,8 devotee a ?\s& res\rces besides ! begg+-b[l60 8,m rhetoric6 ,suppose ,i sugge/ t y\r vaunt$ philosophy be put to a te/ 9 ?is tangible _w80 8,i w\ld agree6 ,d y conf9e ,god to a speculative _w80 8,we %all see2 today y %all h opportunity ei!r to enl>ge or to confirm my own views60 ,ananta paus$ = a dramatic mom5t2 !n spoke sl[ly & s]i\sly4 8,i propose t ,i s5d y & y\r fell[ disciple ,jit5dra ?is morn+ to ! ne>-by city ( ,br9daban4 ,y mu/ n take a s+le rupee2 y mu/ n beg1 ei!r = food or money2 y mu/ n reveal y\r pr$icam5t to anyone2 y mu/ n g )\t y\r meals2 & y mu/ n be /r&$ 9 ,br9daban4 ,if y return to my bungal[ "h be=e twelve o'clock tonight1 )\t hav+ brok5 any rule ( ! te/1 ,i %all be ! mo/ a/oni%$ man 9 ,agra60 8,i accept ! *all5ge40 ,no hesitation 0 9 my words or 9 my he>t4 ,grateful memories fla%$ ( ! ,in/ant ,b5efic5ce3 my heal+ ( deadly *ol]a ?r\gh appeal to ,lahiri ,mahasaya's picture2 ! playful gift ( ! two kites on ! ,lahore ro( ) ,uma2 ! opportune amulet amid/ my disc\ragem5t2 ! decisive message ?r\gh ! unkn[n ,b5>es ,,sadhu outside ! comp\nd ( ! pundit's home2 ! vision ( ,div9e ,"m & ,h] maje/ic words ( love2 ,h] swift he$ ?r\gh ,ma/] ,mahasaya to my trifl+ emb>rassm5ts2 ! la/-m9ute guidance :i* mat]ializ$ my high s*ool diploma2 & ! ultimate boon1 my liv+ ,ma/] f ! mi/ ( lifelong dreams4 ,nev] c\ld ,i admit my 8philosophy0 unequal to any tussle on ! _w's h>% prov+ gr\nd6 8,y\r will+ness does y cr$it4 ,i'll escort y to ! tra9 at once40 ,ananta turn$ to ! op5m\!d ,jit5dra4 8,y mu/ g along z a witness &1 v likely1 a fell[ victim60 ,a half h\r lat] ,jit5dra & ,i 7 9 possession ( "o-way tickets = our impromptu trip4 ,we submitt$1 9 a seclud$ corn] ( ! /ation1 to a se>* ( our p]sons4 ,ananta 0 quickly satisfi$ t we 7 c>ry+ no hidd5 ho>d2 our simple ,,dhotis ,,fn#aa-c conceal$ no?+ m ?an 0 necess>y4 ,z fai? invad$ ! s]i\s realms ( f9ance1 my fri5d spoke prote/+ly4 8,ananta1 give me "o or two rupees z a safegu>d4 ,!n ,i c telegraph y 9 case ( mis=tune40 8,jit5dra60 ,my ejaculation 0 %>ply reproa*ful4 8,i w n proce$ ) ! te/ if y take any money z f9al security40 8,!re is some?+ reassur+ ab\t ! cl9k ( co9s40 ,jit5dra said no m z ,i reg>d$ him /]nly4 8,mukunda1 ,i am n he>tless40 ,a h9t ( humility _h crept into ,ananta's voice4 ,x may be t 8 consci5ce 0 smit+ him2 p]haps = s5d+ two insolv5t boys to a /range city2 p]haps = 8 own religi\s skepticism4 8,if by any *ance or grace y pass successfully ?r\gh ! ,br9daban ordeal1 ,i %all ask y to initiate me z y\r disciple40 ,?is promise _h a c]ta9 irregul>ity1 9 keep+ ) ! unconv5tional occasion4 ,! elde/ bro!r 9 an ,indian family seldom b[s be=e 8 juniors2 he receives respect & ob$i5ce second only to a fa!r4 ,b no "t rema9$ = my comm5t2 our tra9 0 at po9t ( dep>ture4 ,jit5dra ma9ta9$ a lugubri\s sil5ce z our tra9 cov]$ ! miles4 ,f9ally he be/irr$ himself2 lean+ ov]1 he p9*$ me pa9fully at an awkw>d spot4 8,i see no sign t ,god is go+ to supply our next meal60 8,be quiet1 d\bt+ ,?omas2 ! ,"l is work+ ) u40 8,c y also arrange t ,he hurry8 ,already ,i am fami%$ m]ely at ! prospect be=e u4 ,i left ,b5>es to view ! ,taj's mausoleum1 n to ent] my own60 8,*e] up1 ,jit5dra6 ,are we n to h our fir/ glimpse ( ! sacr$ wond]s ( ,br9daban8 ,,fn#aa-d ,i am 9 deep joy at ?\ght ( tread+ ! gr\nd hall[$ by feet ( ,"l ,kri%na40 ,illu/ration3 7,left to ,"r7 ,jit5dra ,mazumd>1 my companion on ! 8p5niless te/0 at ,br9daban2 ,lalit-da1 my c\s92 ,swami ,kebelan&a 78,%a/ri ,mahasaya071 my sa9tly ,sanskrit tutor2 myself1 z a high s*ool y\?--see fri5ds4jpg ,! door ( our comp>tm5t op5$2 two m5 seat$ !mselves4 ,! next tra9 /op w\ld be ! la/4 8,"y lads1 d y h fri5ds 9 ,br9daban80 ,! /rang] opposite me 0 tak+ a surpris+ int]e/4 8,none ( y\r bus9ess60 ,rudely ,i av]t$ my gaze4 8,y are probably fly+ away f y\r families "u ! en*antm5t ( ! ,/eal] ( ,he>ts4 ,,fn#aa-e ,i am ( devotional temp]am5t myself4 ,i w make x my positive duty to see t y receive food1 & %elt] f ?is ov]p[]+ heat40 8,no1 sir1 let u alone4 ,y are v k9d2 b y are mi/ak5 9 judg+ u to be truants f home40 ,no fur!r conv]sation ensu$2 ! tra9 came to a halt4 ,z ,jit5dra & ,i desc5d$ to ! plat=m1 our *ance companions l9k$ arms ) u & summon$ a horse cab4 ,we alit be=e a /ately h]mitage1 set amid/ ! ev]gre5 trees ( well-kept gr\nds4 ,our b5efactors 7 evid5tly kn[n "h2 a smil+ lad l$ u )\t comm5t to a p>lor4 ,we 7 soon jo9$ by an eld]ly woman ( dignifi$ be>+4 8,gauri ,ma1 ! pr9ces c\ld n come40 ,"o ( ! m5 address$ ! a%ram ho/ess4 8,at ! la/ mom5t _! plans w5t awry2 !y s5d deep regrets4 ,b we h br\ght two o!r gue/s4 ,z soon z we met on ! tra91 ,i felt drawn to !m z devotees ( ,"l ,kri%na40 8,good-by1 "y fri5ds40 ,our two acqua9tances walk$ to ! door4 8,we %all meet aga91 if ,god be will+40 8,y are welcome "h40 ,gauri ,ma smil$ 9 mo!rly fa%ion on h] two unexpect$ *>ges4 8,y c\ld n h come on a bett] day4 ,i 0 expect+ two royal patrons ( ?is h]mitage4 ,:at a %ame if my cook+ _h f\nd none to appreciate x60 ,^! appetiz+ words _h disa/r\s effect on ,jit5dra3 he bur/ into te>s4 ,! 8prospect0 he _h fe>$ 9 ,br9daban 0 turn+ out z royal ent]ta9m5t2 8 sudd5 m5tal adju/m5t prov$ too mu* = him4 ,our ho/ess look$ at him ) curiosity1 b )\t rem>k2 p]haps %e 0 famili> ) adolesc5t quirks4 ,lun* 0 ann\nc$2 ,gauri ,ma l$ ! way to a d9+ patio1 spicy ) savory odors4 ,%e vani%$ into an adjo9+ kit*54 ,i _h be5 prem$itat+ ?is mom5t4 ,select+ ! appropriate spot on ,jit5dra's anatomy1 ,i adm9i/]$ a p9* z res\nd+ z ! "o he _h giv5 me on ! tra94 8,d\bt+ ,?omas1 ! ,"l works-9 a hurry1 too60 ,! ho/ess re5t]$ ) a ,,punkha4 ,%e /eadily fann$ u 9 ! ,ori5tal fa%ion z we squatt$ on ornate blanket-seats4 ,a%ram disciples pass$ to & fro ) "s ?irty c\rses4 ,r ?an 8meal10 ! description c only be 8sumptu\s repa/40 ,s9ce arriv+ on ?is planet1 ,jit5dra & ,i _h nev] be=e ta/$ su* delicacies4 8,di%es fit = pr9ces inde$1 ,honor$ ,"m6 ,:at y\r royal patrons c\ld h f\nd m urg5t ?an att5d+ ?is banquet1 ,i _c imag9e6 ,y h giv5 u a memory = a lifetime60 ,sil5c$ z we 7 by ,ananta's requirem5t1 we c\ld n expla9 to ! graci\s lady t our ?anks held a d\ble significance4 ,our s9c]ity at lea/ 0 pat5t4 ,we dep>t$ ) h] bless+ & an attractive invitation to revisit ! h]mitage4 ,! heat outdoors 0 m]ciless4 ,my fri5d & ,i made = ! %elt] ( a lordly cadamba tree at ! a%ram gate4 ,%>p words foll[$2 once aga9 ,jit5dra 0 beset ) misgiv+s4 8,a f9e mess y h got me into6 ,our lun*eon 0 only accid5tal good =tune6 ,h[ c we see ! sights ( ?is city1 )\t a s+le pice betwe5 u8 ,& h[ on e>? are y go+ to take me back to ,ananta's80 8,y =get ,god quickly1 n[ t y\r /oma* is fill$40 ,my words1 n bitt]1 7 accusatory4 ,h[ %ort is human memory = div9e favors6 ,no man lives :o has n se5 c]ta9 ( 8 pray]s grant$4 8,i am n likely to =get my folly 9 v5tur+ out ) a madcap l y60 8,be quiet1 ,jit5dra6 ,! same ,"l :o f$ u w %[ u ,br9daban1 & return u to ,agra40 ,a slight "y man ( pleas+ c\nt5ance approa*$ at rapid pace4 ,halt+ "u our tree1 he b[$ be=e me4 8,de> fri5d1 y & y\r companion mu/ be /rang]s "h4 ,p]mit me to be y\r ho/ & guide40 ,x is sc>cely possible = an ,indian to pale1 b ,jit5dra's face 0 sudd5ly sickly4 ,i politely decl9$ ! (f]4 8,y are surely n bani%+ me80 ,! /rang]'s al>m w\ld h be5 comic 9 any o!r circum/ances4 8,:y n80 8,y are my guru40 ,8 eyes s\ght m9e tru/fully4 8,dur+ my midday devotions1 ! bless$ ,"l ,kri%na appe>$ 9 a vision4 ,he %[$ me two =sak5 figures "u ?is v tree4 ,"o face 0 y\rs1 my ma/]6 ,(t5 h ,i se5 x 9 m$itation6 ,:at joy if y accept my humble s]vices60 8,i too am glad y h f\nd me4 ,nei!r ,god nor man has =sak5 u60 ,?\gh ,i 0 motionless1 smil+ at ! eag] face be=e me1 an inw>d obeisance ca/ me at ! ,div9e ,feet4 8,de> fri5ds1 w y n honor my home = a visit80 8,y are k9d2 b ! plan is unfeasible4 ,already we are gue/s ( my bro!r 9 ,agra40 8,at lea/ give me memories ( t\r+ ,br9daban ) y40 ,i gladly cons5t$4 ,! "y man1 :o said 8 "n 0 ,pratap ,*att]ji1 hail$ a horse c>riage4 ,we visit$ ,madanamohana ,temple & o!r ,kri%na %r9es4 ,night desc5d$ :ile we 7 at our temple devotions4 8,excuse me :ile ,i get ,,s&e%40 ,,fn#aa-f ,pratap ent]$ a %op ne> ! railroad /ation4 ,jit5dra & ,i saunt]$ along ! wide /reet1 cr[d$ n[ 9 ! comp>ative coolness4 ,our fri5d 0 abs5t = "s "t1 b f9ally return$ ) gifts ( _m sweetmeats4 8,please all[ me to ga9 ?is religi\s m]it40 ,pratap smil$ plead+ly z he held out a bundle ( rupee notes & two tickets1 j pur*as$1 to ,agra4 ,! rev]5ce ( my acceptance 0 = ! ,invisible ,h&4 ,sc(f$ at by ,ananta1 _h ,its b\nty n f> exce$$ necessity8 ,we s\ght out a seclud$ spot ne> ! /ation4 8,pratap1 ,i w in/ruct y 9 ! ,,kriya ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 ! greate/ yogi ( mod]n times4 ,8 te*nique w be y\r guru40 ,! initiation 0 conclud$ 9 a half h\r4 8,,kriya is y\r ,,*9tamani10 ,,fn#aa-g ,i told ! new /ud5t4 8,! te*nique1 :i* z y see is simple1 embodies ! art ( quick5+ man's spiritual evolution4 ,h9du scriptures tea* t ! inc>nat+ ego requires a million ye>s to obta9 lib]ation f ,,maya4 ,?is natural p]iod is greatly %ort5$ ?r\gh ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,j z ,jagadis ,*&ra ,bose has demon/rat$ t plant gr[? c be accel]at$ f> beyond its normal rate1 s man's psy*ological developm5t c be also spe$$ by an inn] sci5ce4 ,be fai?ful 9 y\r practice2 y w approa* ! ,guru ( all gurus40 8,i am transport$ to f9d ?is yogic key1 long s\ght60 ,pratap spoke ?\ghtfully4 8,its un%ackl+ effect on my s5sory bonds w free me = high] sph]es4 ,! vision today ( ,"l ,kri%na c\ld only mean my highe/ good40 ,we sat a:ile 9 sil5t und]/&+1 !n walk$ sl[ly to ! /ation4 ,joy 0 )9 me z ,i bo>d$ ! tra91 b ?is 0 ,jit5dra's day = te>s4 ,my affectionate f>ewell to ,pratap _h be5 punctuat$ by /ifl$ sobs f bo? my companions4 ,! j\rney once m f\nd ,jit5dra 9 a welt] ( grief4 ,n = himself ?is "t1 b aga9/ himself4 8,h[ %all[ my tru/6 ,my he>t has be5 /one6 ,nev] 9 future %all ,i d\bt ,god's protection60 ,midnight 0 approa*+4 ,! two 8,c9d]ellas10 s5t =? p5niless1 ent]$ ,ananta's b$room4 ,8 face1 z he _h promis$1 0 a /udy 9 a/oni%m5t4 ,sil5tly ,i %[]$ ! table ) rupees4 8,jit5dra1 ! tru?60 ,ananta's tone 0 jocul>4 8,has n ?is y\ng/] be5 /ag+ a holdup80 ,b z ! tale 0 unfold$1 my bro!r turn$ sob]1 !n solemn4 8,! law ( dem& & supply rea*es into subtl] realms ?an ,i _h suppos$40 ,ananta spoke ) a spiritual en?usiasm nev] be=e noticeable4 8,i und]/& = ! fir/ "t y\r indiff]5ce to ! vaults & vulg> accumulations ( ! _w40 ,late z x 01 my bro!r insi/$ t he receive ,,dik%a ,,fn#aa-h into ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,! 8guru0 ,mukunda _h to %\ld] ! responsibility ( two uns\ght disciples 9 "o day4 ,breakfa/ ! foll[+ morn+ 0 eat5 9 a h>mony abs5t ! day be=e4 ,i smil$ at ,jit5dra4 8,y %all n be *eat$ ( ! ,taj4 ,let u view x be=e />t+ = ,s]ampore40 ,bidd+ f>ewell to ,ananta1 my fri5d & ,i 7 soon be=e ! glory ( ,agra1 ! ,taj ,mahal4 ,:ite m>ble dazzl+ 9 ! sun1 x /&s a vision ( pure symmetry4 ,! p]fect sett+ is d>k cypress1 glossy lawn1 & tranquil lagoon4 ,! int]ior is exquisite ) lacelike c>v+s inlaid ) semipreci\s /ones4 ,delicate wrea?s & scrolls em]ge intricately f m>bles1 br[n & violet4 ,illum9ation f ! dome falls on ! c5otaphs ( ,emp]or ,%ah-,jahan & ,mumtaz ,mahall1 que5 ( 8 realm & 8 he>t4 ,en\gh ( sight-see+6 ,i 0 long+ = my guru4 ,jit5dra & ,i 7 %ortly travel+ s\? by tra9 t[>d ,b5gal4 8,mukunda1 ,i h n se5 my family 9 mon?s4 ,i h *ang$ my m9d2 p]haps lat] ,i %all visit y\r ma/] 9 ,s]ampore40 ,my fri5d1 :o may mildly be describ$ z vacillat+ 9 temp]am5t1 left me 9 ,calcutta4 ,by local tra9 ,i soon rea*$ ,s]ampore1 twelve miles to ! nor?4 ,a ?rob ( wond]m5t /ole ov] me z ,i realiz$ t tw5ty-eight days _h elaps$ s9ce ! ,b5>es meet+ ) my guru4 8,y w come to me 9 f\r weeks60 ,"h ,i 01 he>t p\nd+1 /&+ )9 8 c\rty>d on quiet ,rai ,ghat ,lane4 ,i ent]$ = ! fir/ "t ! h]mitage :]e ,i 0 to sp5d ! be/ "p ( ! next t5 ye>s ) ,india's ,,jyanavat>1 8inc>nation ( wisdom40 ,,fn#aa-a ,see *apt] #be4 ,,fn#aa-b ,! _w-fam\s mausoleum44 ,,fn#aa-c ,a ,,dhoti-clo? is knott$ ar\nd ! wai/ & cov]s ! legs44 ,,fn#aa-d ,br9daban1 9 ! ,muttra di/rict ( ,unit$ ,prov9ces1 is ! ,h9du ,j]usalem4 ,"h ,"l ,kri%na display$ 8 glories = ! b5efit ( mank9d44 ,,fn#aa-e ,h>i2 an ende>+ "n by :i* ,"l ,kri%na is kn[n to 8 devotees4 ,,fn#aa-f ,an ,indian sweetmeat44 ,,fn#aa-g ,a my?ological gem ) p[] to grant desires4 ,,fn#aa-h ,spiritual initiation2 f ! ,sanskrit root ,,dik%1 to d$icate oneself4 ,,*apt]3 #ab ,,ye>s ,,9 ,,my ,,ma/]',s ,,h]mitage 8,y h come40 ,sri ,yuktesw> greet$ me f a tig] sk9 on ! floor ( a balconi$ sitt+ room4 ,8 voice 0 cold1 8 mann] unemotional4 8,yes1 de> ,ma/]1 ,i am "h to foll[ y40 ,kneel+1 ,i t\*$ 8 feet4 8,h[ c t be8 ,y ignore my wi%es40 8,no long]1 ,guruji6 ,y\r wi% %all be my law60 8,t is bett]6 ,n[ ,i c assume responsibility = y\r life40 8,i will+ly transf] ! burd51 ,ma/]40 8,my fir/ reque/1 !n1 is t y return home to y\r family4 ,i want y to ent] college 9 ,calcutta4 ,y\r education %\ld be cont9u$40 8,v well1 sir40 ,i hid my con/]nation4 ,w\ld importunate books pursue me d[n ! ye>s8 ,fir/ ,fa!r1 n[ ,sri ,yuktesw>6 8,som$ay y w g to ! ,we/4 ,its p w l5d e>s m receptive to ,india's anci5t wisdom if ! /range ,h9du tea*] has a univ]sity degree40 8,y "k be/1 ,guruji40 ,my gloom dep>t$4 ,! ref]5ce to ! ,we/ ,i f\nd puzzl+1 remote2 b my opportunity to please ,ma/] by ob$i5ce 0 vitally imm$iate4 8,y w be ne> 9 ,calcutta2 come "h :5ev] y f9d "t40 8,e day if possible1 ,ma/]6 ,gratefully ,i accept y\r au?ority 9 e detail ( my life-on "o condition40 8,yes80 8,t y promise to reveal ,god to me60 ,an h\r-long v]bal tussle ensu$4 ,a ma/]'s ^w _c be falsifi$2 x is n lightly giv54 ,! implications 9 ! pl$ge op5 out va/ metaphysical vi/as4 ,a guru mu/ be on intimate t]ms inde$ ) ! ,creator be=e he c obligate ,him to appe>6 ,i s5s$ ,sri ,yuktesw>'s div9e unity1 & 0 det]m9$1 z 8 disciple1 to press my advantage4 8,y are ( exact+ disposition60 ,!n ,ma/]'s cons5t rang out ) compassionate f9ality3 8,let y\r wi% be my wi%40 ,lifelong %ad[ lift$ f my he>t2 ! vague se>*1 hi!r & yon1 0 ov]4 ,i _h f\nd et]nal %elt] 9 a true guru4 8,come2 ,i w %[ y ! h]mitage40 ,ma/] rose f 8 tig] mat4 ,i glanc$ ab\t me2 my gaze fell ) a/oni%m5t on a wall picture1 g>l&$ ) a spray ( jasm9e4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya60 8,yes1 my div9e guru40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s tone 0 rev]5tly vibrant4 8,great] he 01 z man & yogi1 ?an any o!r tea*] ^: life came )9 ! range ( my inve/igations40 ,sil5tly ,i b[$ be=e ! famili> picture4 ,s\l-homage sp$ to ! pe]less ma/] :o1 bless+ my infancy1 _h guid$ my /eps to ?is h\r4 ,l$ by my guru1 ,i /roll$ ov] ! h\se & its gr\nds4 ,l>ge1 anci5t & well-built1 ! h]mitage 0 surr\nd$ by a massive-pill>$ c\rty>d4 ,out] walls 7 moss-cov]$2 pigeons flutt]$ ov] ! flat gray ro(1 unc]emoni\sly %>+ ! a%ram qu>t]s4 ,a re> g>d5 0 pleasant ) jackfruit1 mango1 & planta9 trees4 ,balu/rad$ balconies ( upp] rooms 9 ! two-/ori$ build+ fac$ ! c\rty>d f ?ree sides4 ,a spaci\s gr\nd-floor hall1 ) high ceil+ support$ by colonnades1 0 us$1 ,ma/] said1 *iefly dur+ ! annual fe/ivities ( ,,durgapuja4 ,,fn#ab-a ,a n>r[ /airway l$ to ,sri ,yuktesw>'s sitt+ room1 ^: small balcony ov]look$ ! /reet4 ,! a%ram 0 pla9ly furni%$2 ev]y?+ 0 simple1 clean1 & utilit>ian4 ,sev]al ,we/]n /yl$ *airs1 b5*es1 & tables 7 9 evid5ce4 ,ma/] invit$ me to /ay ov]night4 ,a supp] ( vegetable curry 0 s]v$ by two "y disciples :o 7 receiv+ h]mitage tra9+4 8,guruji1 please tell me some?+ ( y\r life40 ,i 0 squatt+ on a /raw mat ne> 8 tig] sk94 ,! fri5dly />s 7 v close1 x seem$1 beyond ! balcony4 8,my family "n 0 ,priya ,na? ,k>>4 ,i 0 born ,,fn#ab-b "h 9 ,s]ampore1 :]e ,fa!r 0 a weal?y bus9essman4 ,he left me ?is ance/ral mansion1 n[ my h]mitage4 ,my =mal s*ool+ 0 little2 ,i f\nd x sl[ & %all[4 ,9 e>ly manhood1 ,i und]took ! responsibilities ( a h\sehold]1 & h "o daught]1 n[ m>ri$4 ,my middle life 0 bless$ ) ! guidance ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,aft] my wife di$1 ,i jo9$ ! ,swami ,ord] & receiv$ ! new "n ( ,sri ,yuktesw> ,giri4 ,,fn#ab-c ,su* are my simple annals40 ,ma/] smil$ at my eag] face4 ,l all biographical sket*es1 8 words _h giv5 ! outw>d facts )\t reveal+ ! inn] man4 8,guruji1 ,i w\ld l to he> "s /ories ( y\r *ildhood40 8,i w tell y a few-ea* "o ) a moral60 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s eyes tw9kl$ ) 8 w>n+4 8,my "m once tri$ to fright5 me ) an appall+ /ory ( a gho/ 9 a d>k *amb]4 ,i w5t !re imm$iately1 & express$ my disappo9tm5t at hav+ miss$ ! gho/4 ,"m nev] told me ano!r horror-tale4 ,moral3 ,look fe> 9 ! face & x w cease to tr\ble y4 8,ano!r e>ly memory is my wi% = an ugly dog belong+ to a neighbor4 ,i kept my h\sehold 9 turmoil = weeks to get t dog4 ,my e>s 7 deaf to (f]s ( pets ) m prepossess+ appe>ance4 ,moral3 ,atta*m5t is bl9d+2 x l5ds an imag9>y halo ( attractiv5ess to ! object ( desire4 8,a ?ird /ory conc]ns ! pla/icity ( ! y\?ful m9d4 ,i he>d my "m rem>k occasionally3 #8,a man :o accepts a job "u anyone is a slave4' ,t impression became s indelibly fix$ t ev5 aft] my m>riage ,i refus$ all positions4 ,i met exp5ses by inve/+ my family end[m5t 9 l&4 ,moral3 ,good & positive sugge/ions %\ld in/ruct ! s5sitive e>s ( *ildr54 ,_! e>ly ideas long rema9 %>ply et*$40 ,ma/] fell into tranquil sil5ce4 ,ar\nd midnight he l$ me to a n>r[ cot4 ,sleep 0 s\nd & sweet ! fir/ night "u my guru's ro(4 ,sri ,yuktesw> *ose ! foll[+ morn+ to grant me 8 ,,kriya ,,yoga initiation4 ,! te*nique ,i _h already receiv$ f two disciples ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya-,fa!r & my tutor1 ,swami ,kebalan&a-b 9 ,ma/]'s pres5ce ,i felt trans=m+ p[]4 ,at 8 t\*1 a great light broke ^u my be+1 l glory ( c\ntless suns blaz+ toge!r4 ,a flood ( ineffable bliss1 ov]:elm+ my he>t to an inn]mo/ core1 cont9u$ dur+ ! foll[+ day4 ,x 0 late t aft]noon be=e ,i c\ld br+ myself to leave ! h]mitage4 8,y w return 9 ?irty days40 ,z ,i rea*$ my ,calcutta home1 ! fulfillm5t ( ,ma/]'s pr$iction ent]$ ) me4 ,none ( my relatives made ! po9t$ rem>ks ,i _h fe>$ ab\t ! reappe>ance ( ! 8so>+ bird40 ,i climb$ to my little attic & be/[$ affectionate glances1 z ?\gh on a liv+ pres5ce4 8,y h witness$ my m$itations1 & ! te>s & /orms ( my ,,sadhana4 ,n[ ,i h rea*$ ! h>bor ( my div9e tea*]40 8,son1 ,i am happy = u bo?40 ,fa!r & ,i sat toge!r 9 ! ev5+ calm4 8,y h f\nd y\r guru1 z 9 miracul\s fa%ion ,i once f\nd my own4 ,! holy h& ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya is gu>d+ our lives4 ,y\r ma/] has prov$ no inaccessible ,himalayan sa9t1 b "o ne>-by4 ,my pray]s h be5 answ]$3 y h n 9 y\r se>* = ,god be5 p]man5tly remov$ f my sight40 ,fa!r 0 also pleas$ t my =mal /udies w\ld be resum$2 he made suitable arrangem5ts4 ,i 0 enroll$ ! foll[+ day at ! ,scotti% ,*ur* ,college 9 ,calcutta4 ,happy mon?s sp$ by4 ,my read]s h d\btless made ! p]spicaci\s surmise t ,i 0 little se5 9 ! college classrooms4 ,! ,s]ampore h]mitage held a lure too irresi/ible4 ,ma/] accept$ my ubiquit\s pres5ce )\t comm5t4 ,to my relief1 he seldom ref]r$ to ! halls ( le>n+4 ,?\gh x 0 pla9 to all t ,i 0 nev] cut out = a s*ol>1 ,i manag$ to atta9 m9imum pass+ grades f "t to "t4 ,daily life at ! a%ram fl[$ smoo?ly1 infrequ5tly v>i$4 ,my guru awoke be=e dawn4 ,ly+ d[n1 or sometimes sitt+ on ! b$1 he ent]$ a /ate ( ,,samadhi4 ,,fn#ab-d ,x 0 simplicity itself to discov] :5 ,ma/] _h awak5$3 abrupt halt ( /up5d\s snores4 ,,fn#ab-e ,a sigh or two2 p]haps a bodily movem5t4 ,!n a s\ndless /ate ( brea?lessness3 he 0 9 deep yogic joy4 ,illu/ration3 ,my ,ma/]1 ,sri ,yuktesw>1 ,disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya--see yuktesw>4jpg ,breakfa/ did n foll[2 fir/ came a long walk by ! ,ganges4 ,^? morn+ /rolls ) my guru-h[ real & vivid /ill6 ,9 ! easy resurrection ( memory1 ,i (t5 f9d myself by 8 side3 ! e>ly sun is w>m+ ! riv]4 ,8 voice r+s out1 ri* ) ! au!nticity ( wisdom4 ,a ba?2 !n ! midday meal4 ,its prep>ation1 accord+ to ,ma/]'s daily directions1 _h be5 ! c>eful task ( "y disciples4 ,my guru 0 a veget>ian4 ,be=e embrac+ monkhood1 h[ev]1 he _h eat5 eggs & fi%4 ,8 advice to /ud5ts 0 to foll[ any simple diet :i* prov$ suit$ to "o's con/itution4 ,ma/] ate little2 (t5 rice1 color$ ) turm]ic or juice ( beets or sp9a* & lightly spr9kl$ ) buffalo ,,ghee or melt$ butt]4 ,ano!r day he might h l5til-,,dhal or ,,*anna ,,fn#ab-f curry ) vegetables4 ,= dess]t1 mangoes or oranges ) rice pudd+1 or jackfruit juice4 ,visitors appe>$ 9 ! aft]noons4 ,a /eady /ream p\r$ f ! _w into ! h]mitage tranquillity4 ,ev]yone f\nd 9 ,ma/] an equal c\rtesy & k9dness4 ,to a man :o has realiz$ himself z a s\l1 n ! body or ! ego1 ! re/ ( humanity assumes a /rik+ simil>ity ( aspect4 ,! imp>tiality ( sa9ts is root$ 9 wisdom4 ,ma/]s h escap$ ,,maya2 its alt]nat+ faces ( intellect & idiocy no long] ca/ an influ5tial glance4 ,sri ,yuktesw> %[$ no special consid]ation to ^? :o happ5$ to be p[]ful or accompli%$2 nei!r did he slight o!rs = _! pov]ty or illit]acy4 ,he w\ld li/5 respectfully to words ( tru? f a *ild1 & op5ly ignore a conceit$ pundit4 ,eight o'clock 0 ! supp] h\r1 & sometimes f\nd l+]+ gue/s4 ,my guru w\ld n excuse himself to eat alone2 none left 8 a%ram hungry or dissatisfi$4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 nev] at a loss1 nev] dismay$ by unexpect$ visitors2 scanty food w\ld em]ge a banquet "u 8 res\rceful direction4 ,yet he 0 economical2 8 mode/ funds w5t f>4 8,be com=table )9 y\r purse10 he (t5 said4 8,extravagance w buy y discom=t40 ,:e!r 9 ! details ( h]mitage ent]ta9m5t1 or 8 build+ & repair "w1 or o!r practical conc]ns1 ,ma/] manife/$ ! orig9ality ( a creative _s4 ,quiet ev5+ h\rs (t5 br\ght "o ( my guru's disc\rses1 treasures aga9/ "t4 ,8 e utt]ance 0 measur$ & *isel$ by wisdom4 ,a sublime self-assurance m>k$ 8 mode ( expression3 x 0 unique4 ,he spoke z none o!r 9 my exp]i5ce ev] spoke4 ,8 ?\ghts 7 weigh$ 9 a delicate balance ( discrim9ation be=e he p]mitt$ !m an outw>d g>b4 ,! ess5ce ( tru?1 all-p]vasive ) ev5 a physiological aspect1 came f him l a fragrant exudation ( ! s\l4 ,i 0 consci\s always t ,i 0 9 ! pres5ce ( a liv+ manife/ation ( ,god4 ,! weight ( 8 div9ity automatically b[$ my head be=e him4 ,if late gue/s detect$ t ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 becom+ engross$ ) ! ,inf9ite1 he quickly engag$ !m 9 conv]sation4 ,he 0 incapable ( /rik+ a pose1 or ( flaunt+ 8 inn] )drawal4 ,always "o ) ! ,"l1 he ne$$ no sep>ate "t = communion4 ,a self-realiz$ ma/] has already left beh9d ! /epp+ /one ( m$itation4 8,! fl[] falls :5 ! fruit appe>s40 ,b sa9ts (t5 cl+ to spiritual =ms = ! enc\ragem5t ( disciples4 ,z midnight approa*$1 my guru might fall into a doze ) ! naturalness ( a *ild4 ,!re 0 no fuss ab\t b$d+4 ,he (t5 lay d[n1 )\t ev5 a pill[1 on a n>r[ dav5port :i* 0 ! backgr\nd = 8 cu/om>y tig]-sk9 seat4 ,a night-long philosophical discussion 0 n r>e2 any disciple c\ld summon x by int5sity ( int]e/4 ,i felt no tir$ness !n1 no desire = sleep2 ,ma/]'s liv+ words 7 suffici5t4 8,oh1 x is dawn6 ,let u walk by ! ,ganges40 ,s end$ _m ( my p]iods ( nocturnal edification4 ,my e>ly mon?s ) ,sri ,yuktesw> culm9at$ 9 a useful lesson-8,h[ to ,outwit a ,mosquito40 ,at home my family always us$ protective curta9s at night4 ,i 0 dismay$ to discov] t 9 ! ,s]ampore h]mitage ?is prud5t cu/om 0 honor$ 9 ! brea*4 ,yet ! insects 7 9 full resid5cy2 ,i 0 bitt5 f head to foot4 ,my guru took pity on me4 8,buy y\rself a curta91 & also "o = me40 ,he laugh$ & add$1 8,if y buy only "o1 = y\rself1 all mosquitoes w conc5trate on me60 ,i 0 m ?an ?ankful to comply4 ,e night t ,i sp5t 9 ,s]ampore1 my guru w\ld ask me to arrange ! b$time curta9s4 ,! mosquitoes "o ev5+ 7 especially virul5t4 ,b ,ma/] fail$ to issue 8 usual in/ructions4 ,i li/5$ n]v\sly to ! anticipatory hum ( ! insects4 ,gett+ into b$1 ,i ?rew a propitiatory pray] 9 _! g5]al direction4 ,a half h\r lat]1 ,i c\gh$ pret5ti\sly to attract my guru's att5tion4 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld g mad ) ! bites & especially ! s++ drone z ! mosquitoes celebrat$ blood?ir/y rites4 ,no responsive /ir f ,ma/]2 ,i approa*$ him cauti\sly4 ,he 0 n brea?+4 ,?is 0 my fir/ obs]vation ( him 9 ! yogic trance2 x fill$ me ) fright4 8,8 he>t mu/ h fail$60 ,i plac$ a mirror "u 8 nose2 no brea?-vapor appe>$4 ,to make d\bly c]ta91 = m9utes ,i clos$ 8 m\? & no/rils ) my f+]s4 ,8 body 0 cold & motionless4 ,9 a daze1 ,i turn$ t[>d ! door to summon help4 8,s6 ,a budd+ exp]im5tali/6 ,my poor nose60 ,ma/]'s voice 0 %aky ) laught]4 8,:y don't y g to b$8 ,is ! :ole _w go+ to *ange = y8 ,*ange y\rself3 be rid ( ! mosquito consci\sness40 ,meekly ,i return$ to my b$4 ,n "o insect v5tur$ ne>4 ,i realiz$ t my guru _h previ\sly agre$ to ! curta9s only to please me2 he _h no fe> ( mosquitoes4 ,8 yogic p[] 0 su* t he ei!r c\ld w !m n to bite1 or c\ld escape to an inn] invuln]ability4 8,he 0 giv+ me a demon/ration10 ,i ?\ght4 8,t is ! yogic /ate ,i mu/ /rive to atta940 ,a yogi mu/ be able to pass into1 & cont9ue 91 ! sup]consci\sness1 reg>dless ( multitud9\s di/ractions nev] abs5t f ?is e>?4 ,:e!r 9 ! buzz ( insects or ! p]vasive gl>e ( daylight1 ! te/imony ( ! s5ses mu/ be b>r$4 ,s\nd & sight come !n inde$1 b to worlds fair] ?an ! bani%$ ,ed54 ,,fn#ab-g ,! in/ructive mosquitoes s]v$ = ano!r e>ly lesson at ! a%ram4 ,x 0 ! g5tle h\r ( dusk4 ,my guru 0 mat*lessly int]pret+ ! anci5t texts4 ,at 8 feet1 ,i 0 9 p]fect peace4 ,a rude mosquito ent]$ ! idyl & compet$ = my att5tion4 ,z x dug a poison\s hypod]mic ne$le into my ?igh1 ,i automatically rais$ an av5g+ h&4 ,reprieve f imp5d+ execution6 ,an opportune memory came to me ( "o ( ,patanjali's yoga aphorisms-t on ,,ahimsa 7h>mlessness74 8,:y didn't y f9i% ! job80 8,ma/]6 ,d y advocate tak+ life80 8,no2 b ! dea?bl[ already _h be5 /ruck 9 y\r m9d40 8,i don't und]/&40 8,patanjali's mean+ 0 ! removal ( ,,desire to kill40 ,sri ,yuktesw> _h f\nd my m5tal processes an op5 book4 8,?is _w is inconv5i5tly arrang$ = a lit]al practice ( ,,ahimsa4 ,man may be compell$ to ext]m9ate h>mful creatures4 ,he is n "u simil> compulsion to feel ang] or animosity4 ,all =ms ( life h equal "r to ! air ( ,,maya4 ,! sa9t :o uncov]s ! secret ( creation w be 9 h>mony ) its c\ntless bewild]+ expressions4 ,all m5 may approa* t und]/&+ :o curb ! inn] passion = de/ruction40 8,guruji1 %\ld "o (f] himself a sacrifice r ?an kill a wild bea/80 8,no2 man's body is preci\s4 ,x has ! highe/ evolution>y value because ( unique bra9 & sp9al c5t]s4 ,^! enable ! advanc$ devotee to fully grasp & express ! l(tie/ aspects ( div9ity4 ,no l[] =m is s equipp$4 ,x is true t "o incurs ! debt ( a m9or s9 if he is =c$ to kill an animal or any liv+ ?+4 ,b ! ,,v$as tea* t wanton loss ( a human body is a s]i\s transgression aga9/ ! k>mic law40 ,i sigh$ 9 relief2 scriptural re9=cem5t ( "o's natural in/9cts is n always =?com+4 ,x s happ5$ t ,i nev] saw ,ma/] at close qu>t]s ) a leop>d or a tig]4 ,b a deadly cobra once confront$ him1 only to be conqu]$ by my guru's love4 ,?is v>iety ( snake is mu* fe>$ 9 ,india1 :]e x causes m ?an five ?\s& dea?s annually4 ,! dang]\s enc\nt] took place at ,puri1 :]e ,sri ,yuktesw> _h a second h]mitage1 *>m+ly situat$ ne> ! ,bay ( ,b5gal4 ,prafulla1 a "y disciple ( lat] ye>s1 0 ) ,ma/] on ?is occasion4 8,we 7 seat$ outdoors ne> ! a%ram10 ,prafulla told me4 8,a cobra appe>$ ne>-by1 a f\r-foot l5g? ( %e] t]ror4 ,its hood 0 angrily exp&$ z x rac$ t[>d u4 ,my guru gave a welcom+ *uckle1 z ?\gh to a *ild4 ,i 0 beside myself ) con/]nation to see ,ma/] engage 9 a rhy?mical clapp+ ( h&s4 ,,fn#ab-h ,he 0 ent]ta9+ ! dread visitor6 ,i rema9$ absolutely quiet1 inw>dly ejaculat+ :at f]v5t pray]s ,i c\ld mu/]4 ,! s]p5t1 v close to my guru1 0 n[ motionless1 seem+ly magnetiz$ by 8 c>ess+ attitude4 ,! frightful hood gradually contract$2 ! snake sli!r$ betwe5 ,ma/]'s feet & disappe>$ into ! bu%es4 8,:y my guru w\ld move 8 h&s1 & :y ! cobra w\ld n /rike !m1 7 inexplicable to me !n10 ,prafulla conclud$4 8,i h s9ce come to realize t my div9e ma/] is beyond fe> ( hurt f any liv+ creature40 ,"o aft]noon dur+ my e>ly mon?s at ! a%ram1 f\nd ,sri ,yuktesw>'s eyes fix$ on me pi]c+ly4 8,y are too ?91 ,mukunda40 ,8 rem>k /ruck a s5sitive po9t4 ,t my sunk5 eyes & emaciat$ appe>ance 7 f> f my lik+ 0 te/ifi$ to by r[s ( tonics 9 my room at ,calcutta4 ,no?+ avail$2 *ronic dyspepsia _h pursu$ me s9ce *ildhood4 ,my despair rea*$ an occasional z5i? :5 ,i ask$ myself if x 7 wor?-:ile to c>ry on ?is life ) a body s uns\nd4 8,m$ic9es h limitations2 ! creative life-=ce has none4 ,believe t3 y %all be well & /rong40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s words ar\s$ a conviction ( p]sonally-applicable tru? :i* no o!r heal]-& ,i _h tri$ _m6-_h be5 able to summon )9 me4 ,day by day1 behold6 ,i wax$4 ,two weeks aft] ,ma/]'s hidd5 bless+1 ,i _h accumulat$ ! invigorat+ weight :i* elud$ me 9 ! pa/4 ,my p]si/5t /oma* ailm5ts vani%$ ) a lifelong p]man5cy4 ,on lat] occasions ,i witness$ my guru's in/antane\s div9e heal+s ( p]sons suff]+ f om9\s disease-tub]culosis1 diabetes1 epilepsy1 or p>alysis4 ,n "o c\ld h be5 m grateful = 8 cure ?an ,i 0 at sudd5 fre$om f my cadav]\s aspect4 8,ye>s ago1 ,i too 0 anxi\s to put on weight10 ,sri ,yuktesw> told me4 8,dur+ convalesc5ce aft] a sev]e illness1 ,i visit$ ,lahiri ,mahasaya 9 ,b5>es4 8#8,sir1 ,i h be5 v sick & lo/ _m p\nds4' 8#8,i see1 ,yuktesw>1 ,,fn#ab-i y made y\rself unwell1 & n[ y ?9k y are ?94' 8,?is reply 0 f> f ! "o ,i _h expect$2 my guru1 h[ev]1 add$ enc\rag+ly3 8#8,let me see2 ,i am sure y ought to feel bett] tomorr[4' 8,tak+ 8 words z a ge/ure ( secret heal+ t[>d my receptive m9d1 ,i 0 n surpris$ ! next morn+ at a welcome accession ( /r5g?4 ,i s\ght out my ma/] & exclaim$ exult+ly1 #8,sir1 ,i feel mu* bett] today4' 8#8,inde$6 ,today y invigorate y\rself4' 8#8,no1 ma/]6' ,i prote/$4 #8,x 0 y :o help$ me2 ?is is ! fir/ "t 9 weeks t ,i h _h any en]gy4' 8#8,o yes6 ,y\r malady has be5 q s]i\s4 ,y\r body is frail yet2 :o c say h[ x w be tomorr[8' 8,! ?\ght ( possible return ( my weakness br\ght me a %udd] ( cold fe>4 ,! foll[+ morn+ ,i c\ld h>dly drag myself to ,lahiri ,mahasaya's home4 8#8,sir1 ,i am ail+ aga94' 8,my guru's glance 0 quizzical4 #8,s6 ,once m y indispose y\rself4' 8#8,gurudeva1 ,i realize n[ t day by day y h be5 ridicul+ me4' ,my pati5ce 0 exhau/$4 #8,i don't und]/& :y y disbelieve my tru?ful reports4' 8#8,really1 x has be5 y\r ?\ghts t h made y feel alt]nately weak & /rong4' ,my ma/] look$ at me affectionately4 #8,y h se5 h[ y\r heal? has exactly foll[$ y\r expectations4 ,?\ght is a =ce1 ev5 z electricity or gravitation4 ,! human m9d is a sp>k ( ! almighty consci\sness ( ,god4 ,i c\ld %[ y t :atev] y\r p[]ful m9d believes v int5sely w\ld in/antly come to pass4' 8,kn[+ t ,lahiri ,mahasaya nev] spoke idly1 ,i address$ him ) great awe & gratitude3 #8,ma/]1 if ,i ?9k ,i am well & h rega9$ my =m] weight1 %all t happ58' 8#8,x is s1 ev5 at ?is mom5t4' ,my guru spoke gravely1 8 gaze conc5trat$ on my eyes4 8,lo6 ,i felt an increase n alone ( /r5g? b ( weight4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya retreat$ into sil5ce4 ,aft] a few h\rs at 8 feet1 ,i return$ to my "m's home1 :]e ,i /ay$ dur+ my visits to ,b5>es4 8#8,my son6 ,:at is ! matt]8 ,are y swell+ ) dropsy8' ,"m c\ld h>dly believe h] eyes4 ,my body 0 n[ ( ! same robu/ dim5sions x _h possess$ be=e my illness4 8,i weigh$ myself & f\nd t 9 "o day ,i _h ga9$ fifty p\nds2 !y rema9$ ) me p]man5tly4 ,fri5ds & acqua9tances :o _h se5 my ?9 figure 7 agha/ ) wond]m5t4 ,a numb] ( !m *ang$ _! mode ( life & became disciples ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya z a result ( ?is miracle4 8,my guru1 awake 9 ,god1 knew ?is _w to be no?+ b an objectiviz$ dream ( ! ,creator4 ,because he 0 completely aw>e ( 8 unity ) ! ,div9e ,dream]1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya c\ld mat]ialize or demat]ialize or make any *ange he wi%$ 9 ! cosmic vision4 ,,fn#ab-aj 8,all creation is gov]n$ by law10 ,sri ,yuktesw> conclud$4 8,! ones :i* manife/ 9 ! out] univ]se1 discov]able by sci5ti/s1 are call$ natural laws4 ,b !re are subtl] laws rul+ ! realms ( consci\sness :i* c be kn[n only ?r\gh ! inn] sci5ce ( yoga4 ,! hidd5 spiritual planes also h _! natural & lawful pr9ciples ( op]ation4 ,x is n ! physical sci5ti/ b ! fully self-realiz$ ma/] :o compreh5ds ! true nature ( matt]4 ,?us ,*ri/ 0 able to re/ore ! s]vant's e> aft] x _h be5 sev]$ by "o ( ! disciples40 ,,fn#ab-aa ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 a pe]less int]pret] ( ! scriptures4 ,_m ( my happie/ memories are c5t]$ 9 8 disc\rses4 ,b 8 jewel$ ?\ghts 7 n ca/ into a%es ( he$lessness or /upidity4 ,"o re/less movem5t ( my body1 or my slight lapse into abs5t-m9d$ness1 suffic$ to put an abrupt p]iod to ,ma/]'s exposition4 8,y are n "h40 ,ma/] int]rupt$ himself "o aft]noon ) ?is disclosure4 ,z usual1 he 0 keep+ track ( my att5tion ) a deva/at+ imm$iacy4 8,guruji60 ,my tone 0 a prote/4 8,i h n /irr$2 my eyelids h n mov$2 ,i c repeat ea* ^w y h utt]$60 8,nev]!less y 7 n fully ) me4 ,y\r objection =ces me to rem>k t 9 y\r m5tal backgr\nd y 7 creat+ ?ree in/itutions4 ,"o 0 a sylvan retreat on a pla91 ano!r on a hilltop1 a ?ird by ! ocean40 ,^? vaguely =mulat$ ?\ghts _h inde$ be5 pres5t almo/ subconsci\sly4 ,i glanc$ at him apologetically4 8,:at c ,i d ) su* a ma/]1 :o p5etrates my r&om mus+s80 8,y h giv5 me t "r4 ,! subtle tru?s ,i am exp\nd+ _c be grasp$ )\t y\r complete conc5tration4 ,unless necess>y ,i d n invade ! seclusion ( o!rs' m9ds4 ,man has ! natural privilege ( roam+ secretly among 8 ?\ghts4 ,! unbidd5 ,"l does n ent] !re2 nei!r d ,i v5ture intrusion40 8,y are ev] welcome1 ,ma/]60 8,y\r ar*itectural dreams w mat]ialize lat]4 ,n[ is ! "t = /udy60 ,?us incid5tally my guru reveal$ 9 8 simple way ! com+ ( ?ree great ev5ts 9 my life4 ,s9ce e>ly y\? ,i _h _h enigmatic glimpses ( ?ree build+s1 ea* 9 a diff]5t sett+4 ,9 ! exact sequ5ce ,sri ,yuktesw> _h indicat$1 ^! visions took ultimate =m4 ,fir/ came my f\nd+ ( a boys' yoga s*ool on a ,ran*i pla91 !n my ,am]ican headqu>t]s on a ,los ,angeles hilltop1 f9ally a h]mitage 9 s\!rn ,cali=nia by ! va/ ,pacific4 ,ma/] nev] arrogantly ass]t$3 8,i prophesy t su* & su* an ev5t %all occur60 ,he w\ld r h9t3 8,don't y ?9k x may happ580 ,b 8 simple spee* hid vatic p[]4 ,!re 0 no recant+2 nev] did 8 slightly veil$ words prove false4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 res]v$ & matt]-(-fact 9 demeanor4 ,!re 0 naught ( ! vague or daft vision>y ab\t him4 ,8 feet 7 firm on ! e>?1 8 head 9 ! hav5 ( heav54 ,practical p ar\s$ 8 admiration4 8,sa9tl9ess is n dumbness6 ,div9e p]ceptions are n incapacitat+60 he w\ld say4 8,! active expression ( virtue gives rise to ! ke5e/ intellig5ce40 ,9 ,ma/]'s life ,i fully discov]$ ! cleavage betwe5 spiritual realism & ! obscure my/icism t spuri\sly passes z a c\nt]p>t4 ,my guru 0 reluctant to discuss ! sup]physical realms4 ,8 only 8m>vel\s0 aura 0 "o ( p]fect simplicity4 ,9 conv]sation he avoid$ />tl+ ref]5ces2 9 action he 0 freely expressive4 ,o!rs talk$ ( miracles b c\ld manife/ no?+2 ,sri ,yuktesw> seldom m5tion$ ! subtle laws b secretly op]at$ !m at w4 8,a man ( realization does n p]=m any miracle until he receives an inw>d sanction10 ,ma/] expla9$4 8,god does n wi% ! secrets ( ,8 creation reveal$ promiscu\sly4 ,,fn#ab-ab ,also1 e individual 9 ! _w has inali5able "r to 8 free w4 ,a sa9t w n encroa* ^u t indep5d5ce40 ,! sil5ce habitual to ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 caus$ by 8 deep p]ceptions ( ! ,inf9ite4 ,no "t rema9$ = ! int]m9able 8revelations0 t occupy ! days ( tea*]s )\t self-realization4 8,9 %all[ m5 ! fi% ( little ?\ghts cause mu* commotion4 ,9 oceanic m9ds ! :ales ( inspiration make h>dly a ruffle40 ,?is obs]vation f ! ,h9du scriptures is n )\t disc]n+ humor4 ,because ( my guru's unspectacul> guise1 only a few ( 8 contempor>ies recogniz$ him z a sup]man4 ,! popul> adage3 8,he is a fool t _c conceal 8 wisdom10 c\ld nev] be appli$ to ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,?\gh born a mortal l all o!rs1 ,ma/] _h a*iev$ id5tity ) ! ,rul] ( "t & space4 ,9 8 life ,i p]ceiv$ a godlike unity4 ,he _h n f\nd any insup]able ob/acle to m]g5ce ( human ) ,div9e4 ,no su* b>ri] exi/s1 ,i came to und]/&1 save 9 man's spiritual unadv5tur\sness4 ,i always ?rill$ at ! t\* ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s holy feet4 ,yogis tea* t a disciple is spiritually magnetiz$ by rev]5t contact ) a ma/]2 a subtle curr5t is g5]at$4 ,! devotee's undesirable habit-me*anisms 9 ! bra9 are (t5 caut]iz$2 ! groove ( 8 worldly t5d5cies b5eficially di/urb$4 ,mom5t>ily at lea/ he may f9d ! secret veils ( ,,maya lift+1 & glimpse ! reality ( bliss4 ,my :ole body respond$ ) a lib]at+ gl[ :5ev] ,i knelt 9 ! ,indian fa%ion be=e my guru4 8,ev5 :5 ,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 sil5t10 ,ma/] told me1 8or :5 he conv]s$ on o!r ?an /rictly religi\s topics1 ,i discov]$ t none!less he _h transmitt$ to me ineffable k40 ,sri ,yuktesw> affect$ me simil>ly4 ,if ,i ent]$ ! h]mitage 9 a worri$ or indiff]5t frame ( m9d1 my attitude imp]ceptibly *ang$4 ,a heal+ calm desc5d$ at m]e sight ( my guru4 ,e day ) him 0 a new exp]i5ce 9 joy1 peace1 & wisdom4 ,nev] did ,i f9d him delud$ or intoxicat$ ) gre$ or emotion or ang] or any human atta*m5t4 8,! d>kness ( ,,maya is sil5tly approa*+4 ,let u hie homew>d )940 ,) ^! words at dusk ,ma/] con/antly rem9d$ 8 disciples ( _! ne$ = ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,a new /ud5t occasionally express$ d\bts reg>d+ 8 own wor?9ess to engage 9 yoga practice4 8,=get ! pa/10 ,sri ,yuktesw> w\ld console him4 8,! vani%$ lives ( all m5 are d>k ) _m %ames4 ,human conduct is ev] unreliable until an*or$ 9 ! ,div9e4 ,ev]y?+ 9 future w improve if y are mak+ a spiritual ef=t n[40 ,ma/] always _h "y ,,*elas ,,fn#ab-ac 9 8 h]mitage4 ,_! spiritual & intellectual education 0 8 lifelong int]e/3 ev5 %ortly be=e he pass$ on1 he accept$ = tra9+ two six-ye>-old boys & "o y\? ( sixte54 ,he direct$ _! m9ds & lives ) t c>eful discipl9e 9 :i* ! ^w 8disciple0 is etymologically root$4 ,! a%ram resid5ts lov$ & rev]$ _! guru2 a slight clap ( 8 h&s suffic$ to br+ !m eag]ly to 8 side4 ,:5 8 mood 0 sil5t & )drawn1 no "o v5tur$ to speak2 :5 8 laugh rang jovially1 *ildr5 look$ ^u him z _! own4 ,ma/] seldom ask$ o!rs to r5d] him a p]sonal s]vice1 nor w\ld he accept help f a /ud5t unless ! will+ness 7 s9c]e4 ,my guru quietly wa%$ 8 clo!s if ! disciples ov]look$ t privileg$ task4 ,sri ,yuktesw> wore ! traditional o*]-color$ swami robe2 8 laceless %oes1 9 accordance ) yogi cu/om1 7 ( tig] or de] sk94 ,ma/] spoke flu5t ,engli%1 ,fr5*1 ,h9di1 & ,b5gali2 8 ,sanskrit 0 fair4 ,he pati5tly in/ruct$ 8 "y disciples by c]ta9 %ort cuts :i* he _h +5i\sly devis$ = ! /udy ( ,engli% & ,sanskrit4 ,ma/] 0 cauti\s ( 8 body1 :ile )hold+ solicit\s atta*m5t4 ,! ,inf9ite1 he po9t$ out1 prop]ly manife/s ?r\gh physical & m5tal s\ndness4 ,he disc\nt5anc$ any extremes4 ,a disciple once />t$ a long fa/4 ,my guru only laugh$3 8,:y n ?r[ ! dog a bone80 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s heal? 0 excell5t2 ,i nev] saw him unwell4 ,,fn#ab-ad ,he p]mitt$ /ud5ts to consult doctors if x seem$ advisable4 ,8 purpose 0 to give respect to ! worldly cu/om3 8,physicians mu/ c>ry on _! "w ( heal+ ?r\gh ,god's laws z appli$ to matt]40 ,b he extoll$ ! sup]iority ( m5tal !rapy1 & (t5 repeat$3 8,wisdom is ! greate/ cleans]40 8,! body is a trea*]\s fri5d4 ,give x its due2 no m10 he said4 8,pa9 & pleasure are transitory2 endure all dualities ) calmness1 :ile try+ at ! same "t to remove _! hold4 ,imag9ation is ! door ?r\gh :i* disease z well z heal+ ent]s4 ,disbelieve 9 ! reality ( sickness ev5 :5 y are ill2 an unrecogniz$ visitor w flee60 ,ma/] numb]$ _m doctors among 8 disciples4 8,^? :o h f]ret$ out ! physical laws c easily inve/igate ! sci5ce ( ! s\l10 he told !m4 8,a subtle spiritual me*anism is hidd5 j beh9d ! bodily /ructure40 ,,fn#ab-ae ,sri ,yuktesw> c\nsel$ 8 /ud5ts to be liv+ liaisons ( ,we/]n & ,ea/]n virtues4 ,himself an executive ,occid5tal 9 out] habits1 inw>dly he 0 ! spiritual ,ori5tal4 ,he prais$ ! progressive1 res\rceful & hygi5ic habits ( ! ,we/1 & ! religi\s ideals :i* give a c5turi$ halo to ! ,ea/4 ,discipl9e _h n be5 unkn[n to me3 at home ,fa!r 0 /rict1 ,ananta (t5 sev]e4 ,b ,sri ,yuktesw>'s tra9+ _c be describ$ z o!r ?an dra/ic4 ,a p]fectioni/1 my guru 0 hyp]critical ( 8 disciples1 :e!r 9 matt]s ( mom5t or 9 ! subtle nuances ( behavior4 8,good mann]s )\t s9c]ity are l a beautiful dead lady10 he rem>k$ on suitable occasion4 8,/raight=w>dness )\t civility is l a surgeon's knife1 effective b unpleasant4 ,c&or ) c\rtesy is helpful & admirable40 ,ma/] 0 app>5tly satisfi$ ) my spiritual progress1 = he seldom ref]r$ to x2 9 o!r matt]s my e>s 7 no /rang]s to repro(4 ,my *ief (f5ses 7 abs5tm9d$ness1 int]mitt5t indulg5ce 9 sad moods1 non-obs]vance ( c]ta9 rules ( etiquette1 & occasional unme?odical ways4 8,obs]ve h[ ! activities ( y\r fa!r ,bhagabati are well-organiz$ & balanc$ 9 e way10 my guru po9t$ out4 ,! two disciples ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h met1 soon aft] ,i began my pilgrimages to ,s]ampore4 ,fa!r & ,sri ,yuktesw> admir+ly evaluat$ ! o!r's wor?4 ,bo? _h built an inn] life ( spiritual granite1 insoluble aga9/ ! ages4 ,f transi5t tea*]s ( my e>li] life ,i _h imbib$ a few errone\s lessons4 ,a ,,*ela1 ,i 0 told1 ne$ n conc]n himself /r5u\sly ov] worldly duties2 :5 ,i _h neglect$ or c>elessly p]=m$ my tasks1 ,i 0 n *a/is$4 ,human nature f9ds su* in/ruction v easy ( assimilation4 ,"u ,ma/]'s unsp>+ rod1 h[ev]1 ,i soon recov]$ f ! agreeable delusions ( irresponsibility4 8,^? :o are too good = ?is _w are adorn+ "s o!r10 ,sri ,yuktesw> rem>k$4 8,s long z y brea! ! free air ( e>?1 y are "u obligation to r5d] grateful s]vice4 ,he alone :o has fully ma/]$ ! brea?less /ate ,,fn#ab-af is fre$ f cosmic imp]atives4 ,i w n fail to let y "k :5 y h atta9$ ! f9al p]fection40 ,my guru c\ld nev] be brib$1 ev5 by love4 ,he %[$ no l5i5cy to anyone :o1 l myself1 will+ly (f]$ to be 8 disciple4 ,:e!r ,ma/] & ,i 7 surr\nd$ by 8 /ud5ts or by /rang]s1 or 7 alone toge!r1 he always spoke pla9ly & upbraid$ %>ply4 ,no trifl+ lapse into %all[ness or inconsi/5cy escap$ 8 rebuke4 ,?is flatt5+ treatm5t 0 h>d to endure1 b my resolve 0 to all[ ,sri ,yuktesw> to iron out ea* ( my psy*ological k9ks4 ,z he labor$ at ?is titanic trans=mation1 ,i %ook _m times "u ! weight ( 8 discipl9>y hamm]4 8,if y don't l my words1 y are at lib]ty to leave at any "t10 ,ma/] assur$ me4 8,i want no?+ f y b y\r own improvem5t4 ,/ay only if y feel b5efit$40 ,= e humbl+ bl[ he dealt my vanity1 = e too? 9 my metaphorical jaw he knock$ loose ) /unn+ aim1 ,i am grateful beyond any facility ( expression4 ,! h>d core ( human egotism is h>dly to be dislodg$ except rudely4 ,) its dep>ture1 ! ,div9e f9ds at la/ an unob/ruct$ *annel4 ,9 va9 ,x seeks to p]colate ?r\gh fl9ty he>ts ( selfi%ness4 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s wisdom 0 s p5etrat+ t1 he$less ( rem>ks1 he (t5 repli$ to "o's unspok5 obs]vation4 8,:at a p]son imag9es he he>s1 & :at ! speak] has really impli$1 may be poles ap>t10 he said4 8,try to feel ! ?\ghts beh9d ! confusion ( m5's v]biage40 ,b div9e insight is pa9ful to worldly e>s2 ,ma/] 0 n popul> ) sup]ficial /ud5ts4 ,! wise1 always few 9 numb]1 deeply rev]$ him4 ,i d>esay ,sri ,yuktesw> w\ld h be5 ! mo/ s\ghtaft] guru 9 ,india _h 8 words n be5 s c&id & s c5sori\s4 8,i am h>d on ^? :o come = my tra9+10 he admitt$ to me4 8,t is my way2 take x or leave x4 ,i w nev] compromise4 ,b y w be mu* k9d] to y\r disciples2 t is y\r way4 ,i try to purify only 9 ! fires ( sev]ity1 se>+ beyond ! av]age tol]ation4 ,! g5tle approa* ( love is also transfigur+4 ,! inflexible & ! yield+ me?ods are equally effective if appli$ ) wisdom4 ,y w g to =eign l&s1 :]e blunt assaults on ! ego are n appreciat$4 ,a tea*] c\ld n spread ,india's message 9 ! ,we/ )\t an ample fund ( accommodative pati5ce & =be>ance40 ,i refuse to /ate ! am\nt ( tru? ,i lat] came to f9d 9 ,ma/]'s words6 ,?\gh ,sri ,yuktesw>'s undissembl+ spee* prev5t$ a l>ge foll[+ dur+ 8 ye>s on e>?1 nev]!less 8 liv+ _s manife/s today ov] ! _w1 ?r\gh s9c]e /ud5ts ( 8 ,,kriya ,,yoga & o!r tea*+s4 ,he has fur!r dom9ion 9 m5's s\ls ?an ev] ,alex&] dream$ ( 9 ! soil4 ,fa!r arriv$ "o day to pay 8 respects to ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,my p>5t expect$1 v likely1 to he> "s words 9 my praise4 ,he 0 %ock$ to be giv5 a long acc\nt ( my imp]fections4 ,x 0 ,ma/]'s practice to rec\nt simple1 negligible %ortcom+s ) an air ( port5t\s gravity4 ,fa!r ru%$ to see me4 8,f y\r guru's rem>ks ,i ?\ght to f9d y a complete wreck60 ,my p>5t 0 betwe5 te>s & laught]4 ,! only cause ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s displeasure at ! "t 0 t ,i _h be5 try+1 aga9/ 8 g5tle h9t1 to conv]t a c]ta9 man to ! spiritual pa?4 ,) indignant spe$ ,i s\ght out my guru4 ,he receiv$ me ) d[nca/ eyes1 z ?\gh consci\s ( guilt4 ,x 0 ! only "t ,i ev] saw ! div9e lion meek be=e me4 ,! unique mom5t 0 savor$ to ! full4 8,sir1 :y did y judge me s m]cilessly be=e my a/\nd$ fa!r8 ,0 t j80 8,i w n d x aga940 ,ma/]'s tone 0 apologetic4 ,in/antly ,i 0 dis>m$4 ,h[ readily ! great man admitt$ 8 fault6 ,?\gh he nev] aga9 upset ,fa!r's peace ( m9d1 ,ma/] rel5tlessly cont9u$ to dissect me :5ev] & :]ev] he *ose4 ,new disciples (t5 jo9$ ,sri ,yuktesw> 9 exhau/ive criticism ( o!rs4 ,wise l ! guru6 ,models ( flawless discrim9ation6 ,b he :o takes ! (f5sive mu/ n be def5seless4 ,! same c>p+ /ud5ts fl$ precipitantly z soon z ,ma/] publicly unloos$ 9 _! direction a few %afts f 8 analytical quiv]4 8,t5d] inn] weaknesses1 revolt+ at mild t\*es ( c5sure1 are l diseas$ p>ts ( ! body1 recoil+ be=e ev5 delicate h&l+40 ,?is 0 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s amus$ comm5t on ! flighty ones4 ,!re are disciples :o seek a guru made 9 _! own image4 ,su* /ud5ts (t5 compla9$ t !y did n und]/& ,sri ,yuktesw>4 8,nei!r d y compreh5d ,god60 ,i retort$ on "o occasion4 8,:5 a sa9t is cle> to y1 y w be "o40 ,among ! trillion my/]ies1 brea?+ e second ! inexplicable air1 :o may v5ture to ask t ! fa?omless nature ( a ma/] be in/antly grasp$8 ,/ud5ts came1 & g5]ally w5t4 ,^? :o crav$ a pa? ( oily sympa?y & com=table recognitions did n f9d x at ! h]mitage4 ,ma/] (f]$ %elt] & %eph]d+ = ! aeons1 b _m disciples mis]ly dem&$ ego-balm z well4 ,!y dep>t$1 pref]r+ life's c\ntless humiliations be=e any humility4 ,ma/]'s blaz+ rays1 ! op5 p5etrat+ sun%9e ( 8 wisdom1 7 too p[]ful = _! spiritual sickness4 ,!y s\ght "s less] tea*] :o1 %ad+ !m ) flatt]y1 p]mitt$ ! fitful sleep ( ignorance4 ,dur+ my e>ly mon?s ) ,ma/]1 ,i _h exp]i5c$ a s5sitive fe> ( 8 reprim&s4 ,^! 7 res]v$1 ,i soon saw1 = disciples :o _h ask$ = 8 v]bal vivisection4 ,if any wri?+ /ud5t made a prote/1 ,sri ,yuktesw> w\ld become un(f5d$ly sil5t4 ,8 words 7 nev] wra?ful1 b imp]sonal ) wisdom4 ,ma/]'s insight 0 n = ! unprep>$ e>s ( casual visitors2 he seldom rem>k$ on _! defects1 ev5 if conspicu\s4 ,b t[>d /ud5ts :o s\ght 8 c\nsel1 ,sri ,yuktesw> felt a s]i\s responsibility4 ,brave inde$ is ! guru :o und]takes to trans=m ! crude ore ( ego-p]meat$ humanity6 ,a sa9t's c\rage roots 9 8 compassion = ! /umbl+ eyeless ( ?is _w4 ,:5 ,i _h ab&on$ und]ly+ res5tm5t1 ,i f\nd a m>k$ decrease 9 my *a/isem5t4 ,9 a v subtle way1 ,ma/] melt$ into comp>ative clem5cy4 ,9 "t ,i demoli%$ e wall ( rationalization & subconsci\s res]vation beh9d :i* ! human p]sonality g5]ally %ields itself4 ,,fn#ab-ag ,! rew>d 0 an ef=tless h>mony ) my guru4 ,i discov]$ him !n to be tru/+1 consid]ate1 & sil5tly lov+4 ,undemon/rative1 h[ev]1 he be/[$ no ^w ( affection4 ,my own temp]am5t is pr9cipally devotional4 ,x 0 disconc]t+ at fir/ to f9d t my guru1 saturat$ ) ,,jnana b seem+ly dry ( ,,bhakti1 ,,fn#ab-ah express$ himself only 9 t]ms ( cold spiritual ma!matics4 ,b z ,i tun$ myself to 8 nature1 ,i discov]$ no dim9ution b r increase 9 my devotional approa* to ,god4 ,a self-realiz$ ma/] is fully able to guide 8 v>i\s disciples along natural l9es ( _! ess5tial bias4 ,my relation%ip ) ,sri ,yuktesw>1 some:at in>ticulate1 none!less possess$ all eloqu5ce4 ,(t5 ,i f\nd 8 sil5t signature on my ?\ghts1 r5d]+ spee* inutile4 ,quietly sitt+ beside him1 ,i felt 8 b\nty p\r+ peacefully ov] my be+4 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s imp>tial ju/ice 0 notably demon/rat$ dur+ ! summ] vacation ( my fir/ college ye>4 ,i welcom$ ! opportunity to sp5d un9t]rupt$ mon?s at ,s]ampore ) my guru4 8,y may be 9 *>ge ( ! h]mitage40 ,ma/] 0 pleas$ ov] my en?usia/ic arrival4 8,y\r duties w be ! reception ( gue/s1 & sup]vision ( ! "w ( ! o!r disciples40 ,kum>1 a "y villag] f ea/ ,b5gal1 0 accept$ a =tnight lat] = h]mitage tra9+4 ,rem>kably intellig5t1 he quickly won ,sri ,yuktesw>'s affection4 ,= "s unfa?omable reason1 ,ma/] 0 v l5i5t to ! new resid5t4 8,mukunda1 let ,kum> assume y\r duties4 ,employ y\r own "t 9 sweep+ & cook+40 ,ma/] issu$ ^! in/ructions aft] ! new boy _h be5 ) u = a mon?4 ,exalt$ to lead]%ip1 ,kum> ex]cis$ a petty h\sehold tyranny4 ,9 sil5t mut9y1 ! o!r disciples cont9u$ to seek me out = daily c\nsel4 8,mukunda is impossible6 ,y made me sup]visor1 yet ! o!rs g to him & obey him40 ,?ree weeks lat] ,kum> 0 compla9+ to our guru4 ,i ov]he>d him f an adjo9+ room4 8,t's :y ,i assign$ him to ! kit*5 & y to ! p>lor40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s )]+ tones 7 new to ,kum>4 8,9 ?is way y h come to realize t a wor?y lead] has ! desire to s]ve1 & n to dom9ate4 ,y want$ ,mukunda's position1 b c\ld n ma9ta9 x by m]it4 ,return n[ to y\r e>li] "w z cook's assi/ant40 ,aft] ?is humbl+ incid5t1 ,ma/] resum$ t[>d ,kum> a =m] attitude ( unwont$ indulg5ce4 ,:o c solve ! my/]y ( attraction8 ,9 ,kum> our guru discov]$ a *>m+ f\nt :i* did n spurt = ! fell[ disciples4 ,?\gh ! new boy 0 obvi\sly ,sri ,yuktesw>'s favorite1 ,i felt no dismay4 ,p]sonal idiosyncrasies1 possess$ ev5 by ma/]s1 l5d a ri* complexity to ! patt]n ( life4 ,my nature is seldom comm&e]$ by a detail2 ,i 0 seek+ f ,sri ,yuktesw> a m inaccessible b5efit ?an an outw>d praise4 ,kum> spoke v5om\sly to me "o day )\t reason2 ,i 0 deeply hurt4 8,y\r head is swell+ to ! bur/+ po9t60 ,i add$ a w>n+ ^: tru? ,i felt intuitively3 8,unless y m5d y\r ways1 som$ay y w be ask$ to leave ?is a%ram40 ,laugh+ s>ca/ically1 ,kum> repeat$ my rem>k to our guru1 :o _h j ent]$ ! room4 ,fully expect+ to be scold$1 ,i retir$ meekly to a corn]4 8,maybe ,mukunda is "r40 ,ma/]'s reply to ! boy came ) unusual coldness4 ,i escap$ )\t ca/igation4 ,a ye> lat]1 ,kum> set out = a visit to 8 *ildhood home4 ,he ignor$ ! quiet disapproval ( ,sri ,yuktesw>1 :o nev] au?oritatively controll$ 8 disciples' movem5ts4 ,on ! boy's return to ,s]ampore 9 a few mon?s1 a *ange 0 unpleasantly app>5t4 ,gone 0 ! /ately ,kum> ) s]5ely gl[+ face4 ,only an undi/+ui%$ peasant /ood be=e u1 "o :o _h lately acquir$ a numb] ( evil habits4 ,ma/] summon$ me & brok5he>t$ly discuss$ ! fact t ! boy 0 n[ unsuit$ to ! mona/ic h]mitage life4 8,mukunda1 ,i w leave x to y to in/ruct ,kum> to leave ! a%ram tomorr[2 ,i c't d x60 ,te>s /ood 9 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s eyes1 b he controll$ himself quickly4 8,! boy w\ld nev] h fall5 to ^! dep?s _h he li/5$ to me & n gone away to mix ) undesirable companions4 ,he has reject$ my protection2 ! call\s _w mu/ be 8 guru /ill40 ,kum>'s dep>ture br\ght me no elation2 sadly ,i wond]$ h[ "o ) p[] to w9 a ma/]'s love c\ld ev] respond to *eap] allures4 ,enjoym5t ( w9e & sex are root$ 9 ! natural man1 & require no delicacies ( p]ception = _! appreciation4 ,s5se wiles are comp>able to ! ev]gre5 ole&]1 fragrant ) its multicolor$ fl[]s3 e "p ( ! plant is poison\s4 ,! l& ( heal+ lies )91 radiant ) t happ9ess bl9dly s\ght 9 a ?\s& misdirections4 ,,fn#ab-ai 8,ke5 intellig5ce is two-edg$10 ,ma/] once rem>k$ 9 ref]5ce to ,kum>'s brilliant m9d4 8,x may be us$ con/ructively or de/ructively l a knife1 ei!r to cut ! boil ( ignorance1 or to decapitate "o's self4 ,intellig5ce is rightly guid$ only aft] ! m9d has ackn[l$g$ ! inescapability ( spiritual law40 ,my guru mix$ freely ) m5 & wom5 disciples1 treat+ all z 8 *ildr54 ,p]ceiv+ _! s\l equality1 he %[$ no di/9ction or p>tiality4 8,9 sleep1 y d n "k :e!r y are a man or a woman10 he said4 8,j z a man1 imp]sonat+ a woman1 does n become "o1 s ! s\l1 imp]sonat+ bo? man & woman1 has no sex4 ,! s\l is ! pure1 *angeless image ( ,god40 ,sri ,yuktesw> nev] avoid$ or blam$ wom5 z objects ( s$uction4 ,m51 he said1 7 also a temptation to wom54 ,i once inquir$ ( my guru :y a great anci5t sa9t _h call$ wom5 8! door to hell40 8,a girl mu/ h prov$ v tr\blesome to 8 peace ( m9d 9 8 e>ly life10 my guru answ]$ cau/icly4 8,o!rwise he w\ld h d5\nc$1 n woman1 b "s imp]fection 9 8 own self-control40 ,if a visitor d>$ to relate a sugge/ive /ory 9 ! h]mitage1 ,ma/] w\ld ma9ta9 an unresponsive sil5ce4 8,d n all[ y\rself to be ?ra%$ by ! provok+ :ip ( a beautiful face10 he told ! disciples4 8,h[ c s5se slaves enjoy ! _w8 ,its subtle flavors escape !m :ile !y grovel 9 primal mud4 ,all nice discrim9ations are lo/ to ! man ( elem5tal lu/s40 ,/ud5ts seek+ to escape f ! duali/ic ,,maya delusion receiv$ f ,sri ,yuktesw> pati5t & und]/&+ c\nsel4 8,j z ! purpose ( eat+ is to satisfy hung]1 n gre$1 s ! sex in/9ct is design$ = ! propagation ( ! species accord+ to natural law1 nev] = ! k9dl+ ( insatiable long+s10 he said4 8,de/roy wrong desires n[2 o!rwise !y w foll[ y aft] ! a/ral body is torn f its physical cas+4 ,ev5 :5 ! fle% is weak1 ! m9d %\ld be con/antly resi/ant4 ,if temptation assails y ) cruel =ce1 ov]come x by imp]sonal analysis & indomitable w4 ,e natural passion c be ma/]$4 8,cons]ve y\r p[]s4 ,be l ! capaci\s ocean1 absorb+ )9 all ! tribut>y riv]s ( ! s5ses4 ,small ye>n+s are op5+s 9 ! res]voir ( y\r inn] peace1 p]mitt+ heal+ wat]s to be wa/$ 9 ! des]t soil ( mat]ialism4 ,! =ceful activat+ impulse ( wrong desire is ! greate/ enemy to ! happ9ess ( man4 ,roam 9 ! _w z a lion ( self-control2 see t ! frogs ( weakness don't kick y ar\nd40 ,! devotee is f9ally fre$ f all in/9ctive compulsions4 ,he trans=ms 8 ne$ = human affection into aspiration = ,god alone1 a love solit>y because omnipres5t4 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s "m liv$ 9 ! ,rana ,mahal di/rict ( ,b5>es :]e ,i _h fir/ visit$ my guru4 ,graci\s & k9dly1 %e 0 yet a woman ( v decid$ op9ions4 ,i /ood on h] balcony "o day & wat*$ "m & son talk+ toge!r4 ,9 8 quiet1 s5sible way1 ,ma/] 0 try+ to conv9ce h] ab\t some?+4 ,he 0 app>5tly unsuccessful1 = %e %ook h] head ) great vigor4 8,nay1 nay1 my son1 g away n[6 ,y\r wise words are n = me6 ,i am n y\r disciple60 ,sri ,yuktesw> back$ away )\t fur!r argum5t1 l a scold$ *ild4 ,i 0 t\*$ at 8 great respect = 8 "m ev5 9 h] unreasonable moods4 ,%e saw him only z h] little boy1 n z a sage4 ,!re 0 a *>m ab\t ! trifl+ incid5t2 x suppli$ a sidelight on my guru's unusual nature1 inw>dly humble & outw>dly unb5dable4 ,! mona/ic regulations d n all[ a swami to reta9 connection ) worldly ties aft] _! =mal sev]ance4 ,he _c p]=m ! c]emonial family rites :i* are obligatory on ! h\sehold]4 ,yet ,%ank>a1 ! anci5t f\nd] ( ! ,swami ,ord]1 disreg>d$ ! injunctions4 ,at ! dea? ( 8 belov$ "m1 he cremat$ h] body ) heav5ly fire :i* he caus$ to spurt f 8 uprais$ h&4 ,sri ,yuktesw> also ignor$ ! re/rictions1 9 a fa%ion less spectacul>4 ,:5 8 "m pass$ on1 he arrang$ ! crematory s]vices by ! holy ,ganges 9 ,b5>es1 & f$ _m ,brahm9s 9 con=mance ) age-old cu/om4 ,! ,,%a/ric prohibitions 7 int5d$ to help swamis ov]come n>r[ id5tifications4 ,%ank>a & ,sri ,yuktesw> _h :olly m]g$ _! be+s 9 ! ,imp]sonal ,_s2 !y ne$$ no rescue by rule4 ,sometimes1 too1 a ma/] purposely ignores a canon 9 ord] to uphold its pr9ciple z sup]ior to & indep5d5t ( =m4 ,?us ,jesus pluck$ e>s ( corn on ! day ( re/4 ,to ! inevitable critics he said3 8,! sabba? 0 made = man1 & n man = ! sabba?40 ,,fn#ab-bj ,outside ( ! scriptures1 seldom 0 a book honor$ by ,sri ,yuktesw>'s p]usal4 ,yet he 0 inv>iably acqua9t$ ) ! late/ sci5tific discov]ies & o!r advancem5ts ( k4 ,a brilliant conv]sationali/1 he enjoy$ an ex*ange ( views on c\ntless topics ) 8 gue/s4 ,my guru's ready wit & rollick+ laugh enliv5$ e discussion4 ,(t5 grave1 ,ma/] 0 nev] gloomy4 8,to seek ! ,"l1 "o ne$ n disfigure 8 face10 he w\ld rem>k4 8,rememb] t f9d+ ,god w mean ! fun]al ( all sorr[s40 ,among ! philosoph]s1 pr(essors1 lawy]s & sci5ti/s :o came to ! h]mitage1 a numb] arriv$ = _! fir/ visit ) ! expectation ( meet+ an or?odox religioni/4 ,a sup]cili\s smile or a glance ( amus$ tol]ance occasionally betray$ t ! newcom]s anticipat$ no?+ m ?an a few pi\s platitudes4 ,yet _! reluctant dep>ture w\ld br+ an express$ conviction t ,sri ,yuktesw> _h %[n precise insight into _! specializ$ fields4 ,my guru ord9>ily 0 g5tle & affable to gue/s2 8 welcome 0 giv5 ) *>m+ cordiality4 ,yet invet]ate egoti/s sometimes suff]$ an invigorat+ %ock4 ,!y confront$ 9 ,ma/] ei!r a frigid indiff]5ce or a =midable opposition3 ice or iron6 ,a not$ *emi/ once cross$ swords ) ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,! visitor w\ld n admit ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 inasmu* z sci5ce has devis$ no means ( detect+ ,him4 8,s y h inexplicably fail$ to isolate ! ,supreme ,p[] 9 y\r te/ tubes60 ,ma/]'s gaze 0 /]n4 8,i recomm5d an unhe>d-( exp]im5t4 ,exam9e y\r ?\ghts unremitt+ly = tw5ty-f\r h\rs4 ,!n wond] no long] at ,god's abs5ce40 ,a celebrat$ pundit receiv$ a simil> jolt4 ,) o/5tati\s zeal1 ! s*ol> %ook ! a%ram raft]s ) scriptural lore4 ,res\nd+ passages p\r$ f ! ,,mahabh>ata1 ! ,,upani%ads1 ,,fn#ab-ba ! ,,bhasyas ,,fn#ab-bb ( ,%ank>a4 8,i am wait+ to he> y40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s tone 0 inquir+1 z ?\gh utt] sil5ce _h reign$4 ,! pundit 0 puzzl$4 8,quotations !re h be51 9 sup]abundance40 ,ma/]'s words convuls$ me ) mir?1 z ,i squatt$ 9 my corn]1 at a respectful di/ance f ! visitor4 8,b :at orig9al comm5t>y c y supply1 f ! uniqu5ess ( y\r p>ticul> life8 ,:at holy text h y absorb$ & made y\r own8 ,9 :at ways h ^! timeless tru?s r5ovat$ y\r nature8 ,are y cont5t to be a holl[ victrola1 me*anically repeat+ ! words ( o!r m580 8,i give up60 ,! s*ol>'s *agr9 0 comical4 8,i h no inn] realization40 ,= ! fir/ "t1 p]haps1 he und]/ood t disc]n+ placem5t ( ! comma does n atone = a spiritual coma4 8,^! bloodless p$ants smell unduly ( ! lamp10 my guru rem>k$ aft] ! dep>ture ( ! *a/5$ "o4 8,!y pref] philosophy to be a g5tle intellectual sett+-up ex]cise4 ,_! elevat$ ?\ghts are c>efully unrelat$ ei!r to ! crudity ( outw>d action or to any sc\rg+ inn] discipl9e60 ,ma/] /ress$ on o!r occasions ! futility ( m]e book le>n+4 8,d n confuse und]/&+ ) a l>g] vocabul>y10 he rem>k$4 8,sacr$ writ+s are b5eficial 9 /imulat+ desire = inw>d realization1 if "o /anza at a "t is sl[ly assimilat$4 ,cont9ual intellectual /udy results 9 vanity & ! false satisfaction ( an undige/$ k40 ,sri ,yuktesw> relat$ "o ( 8 own exp]i5ces 9 scriptural edification4 ,! sc5e 0 a =e/ h]mitage 9 ea/]n ,b5gal1 :]e he obs]v$ ! proc$ure ( a r5[n$ tea*]1 ,dabru ,ballav4 ,8 me?od1 at once simple & difficult1 0 common 9 anci5t ,india4 ,dabru ,ballav _h ga!r$ 8 disciples ar\nd him 9 ! sylvan solitudes4 ,! holy ,,bhagavad ,,gita 0 op5 be=e !m4 ,/eadfa/ly !y look$ at "o passage = half an h\r1 !n clos$ _! eyes4 ,ano!r half h\r slipp$ away4 ,! ma/] gave a brief comm5t4 ,motionless1 !y m$itat$ aga9 = an h\r4 ,f9ally ! guru spoke4 8,h y und]/ood80 8,yes1 sir40 ,"o 9 ! gr\p v5tur$ ?is ass]tion4 8,no2 n fully4 ,seek ! spiritual vitality t has giv5 ^! words ! p[] to rejuv5ate ,india c5tury aft] c5tury40 ,ano!r h\r disappe>$ 9 sil5ce4 ,! ma/] dismiss$ ! /ud5ts1 & turn$ to ,sri ,yuktesw>4 8,d y "k ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita80 8,no1 sir1 n really2 ?\gh my eyes & m9d h run ?r\gh its pages _m times40 8,?\s&s h repli$ to me diff]5tly60 ,! great sage smil$ at ,ma/] 9 bless+4 8,if "o busies himself ) an out] display ( scriptural weal?1 :at "t is left = sil5t inw>d div+ aft] ! priceless pe>ls80 ,sri ,yuktesw> direct$ ! /udy ( 8 own disciples by ! same int5sive me?od ( "o-po9t$ness4 8,wisdom is n assimilat$ ) ! eyes1 b ) ! atoms10 he said4 8,:5 y\r conviction ( a tru? is n m]ely 9 y\r bra9 b 9 y\r be+1 y may diffid5tly v\* = its mean+40 ,he disc\rag$ any t5d5cy a /ud5t might h to con/rue book-k z a necess>y /ep to spiritual realization4 8,! ,,ri%is wrote 9 "o s5t5ce pr(undities t comm5tat+ s*ol>s busy !mselves ov] = g5]ations10 he rem>k$4 8,endless lit]>y controv]sy is = slugg>d m9ds4 ,:at m lib]at+ ?\ght ?an #8,god is'-nay1 #8,god'80 ,b man does n easily return to simplicity4 ,x is seldom 8,god0 = him1 b r le>n$ pomposities4 ,8 ego is pleas$1 t he c grasp su* erudition4 ,m5 :o 7 pridefully consci\s ( high worldly position 7 likely1 9 ,ma/]'s pres5ce1 to add humility to _! o!r possessions4 ,a local magi/rate once arriv$ = an int]view at ! seaside h]mitage 9 ,puri4 ,! man1 :o held a reputation = ru?lessness1 _h x well )9 8 p[] to ou/ u f ! a%ram4 ,i caution$ my guru ab\t ! despotic possibilities4 ,b he seat$ himself ) an uncompromis+ air1 & did n rise to greet ! visitor4 ,slightly n]v\s1 ,i squatt$ ne> ! door4 ,! man _h to cont5t himself ) a wood5 box2 my guru did n reque/ me to fet* a *air4 ,!re 0 no fulfillm5t ( ! magi/rate's obvi\s expectation t 8 importance w\ld be c]emoni\sly ackn[l$g$4 ,a metaphysical discussion ensu$4 ,! gue/ blund]$ ?r\gh mis9t]pretations ( ! scriptures4 ,z 8 accuracy sank1 8 ire rose4 8,d y "k t ,i /ood fir/ 9 ! ,m4 ,a4 exam9ation80 ,reason _h =sak5 him1 b he c\ld /ill %\t4 8,mr4 ,magi/rate1 y =get t ?is is n y\r c\rtroom10 ,ma/] repli$ ev5ly4 8,f y\r *ildi% rem>ks ,i w\ld h surmis$ t y\r college c>e] 0 unrem>kable4 ,a univ]sity degree1 9 any case1 is n remotely relat$ to ,v$ic realization4 ,sa9ts are n produc$ 9 bat*es e seme/] l acc\ntants40 ,aft] a /unn$ sil5ce1 ! visitor laugh$ he>tily4 8,?is is my fir/ enc\nt] ) a heav5ly magi/rate10 he said4 ,lat] he made a =mal reque/1 c\*$ 9 ! legal t]ms :i* 7 evid5tly "p & p>cel ( 8 be+1 to be accept$ z a 8probation>y0 disciple4 ,my guru p]sonally att5d$ to ! details connect$ ) ! managem5t ( 8 prop]ty4 ,unscrupul\s p]sons on v>i\s occasions attempt$ to secure possession ( ,ma/]'s ance/ral l&4 ,) det]m9ation & ev5 by in/igat+ lawsuits1 ,sri ,yuktesw> outwitt$ e oppon5t4 ,he und]w5t ^! pa9ful exp]i5ces f a desire nev] to be a begg+ guru1 or a burd5 on 8 disciples4 ,8 f9ancial indep5d5ce 0 "o reason :y my al>m+ly outspok5 ,ma/] 0 innoc5t ( ! cunn+s ( diplomacy4 ,unlike ^? tea*]s :o h to flatt] _! support]s1 my guru 0 imp]vi\s to ! influ5ces1 op5 or subtle1 ( o!rs' weal?4 ,nev] did ,i he> him ask or ev5 h9t = money = any purpose4 ,8 h]mitage tra9+ 0 giv5 free & freely to all disciples4 ,an insol5t c\rt deputy arriv$ "o day at ! ,s]ampore a%ram to s]ve ,sri ,yuktesw> ) a legal summons4 ,a disciple nam$ ,kanai & myself 7 also pres5t4 ,! (fic]'s attitude t[>d ,ma/] 0 (f5sive4 8,x w d y good to leave ! %ad[s ( y\r h]mitage & brea! ! hone/ air ( a c\rtroom40 ,! deputy gr9n$ contemptu\sly4 ,i c\ld n conta9 myself4 8,ano!r ^w ( y\r impud5ce & y w be on ! floor60 ,i advanc$ ?reat5+ly4 8,y wret*60 ,kanai's %\t 0 simultane\s ) my own4 8,d>e y br+ y\r blasphemies into ?is sacr$ a%ram80 ,b ,ma/] /ood protect+ly 9 front ( 8 abus]4 8,don't get excit$ ov] no?+4 ,?is man is only do+ 8 rightful duty40 ,! (fic]1 daz$ at 8 v>y+ reception1 respectfully (f]$ a ^w ( apology & sp$ away4 ,amaz+ x 0 to f9d t a ma/] ) su* a fi]y w c\ld be s calm )94 ,he fitt$ ! ,v$ic def9ition ( a man ( ,god3 8,s(t] ?an ! fl[]1 :]e k9dness is conc]n$2 /rong] ?an ! ?und]1 :]e pr9ciples are at /ake40 ,!re are always ^? 9 ?is _w :o1 9 ,br[n+'s words1 8endure no light1 be+ !mselves obscure40 ,an outsid] occasionally b]at$ ,sri ,yuktesw> = an imag9>y grievance4 ,my imp]turbable guru li/5$ politely1 analyz+ himself to see if any %r$ ( tru? lay )9 ! d5unciation4 ,^! sc5es w\ld br+ to my m9d "o ( ,ma/]'s inimitable obs]vations3 8,"s p try to be tall by cutt+ (f ! heads ( o!rs60 ,! unfail+ composure ( a sa9t is impressive beyond any s]mon4 8,he t is sl[ to ang] is bett] ?an ! mighty2 & he t rule? 8 _s ?an he t take? a city40 ,,fn#ab-bc ,i (t5 reflect$ t my maje/ic ,ma/] c\ld easily h be5 an emp]or or _w-%ak+ w>rior _h 8 m9d be5 c5t]$ on fame or worldly a*ievem5t4 ,he _h *os5 in/ead to /orm ^? inn] citadels ( wra? & egotism ^: fall is ! height ( a man4 ,,fn#ab-a 8,wor%ip ( ,durga40 ,?is is ! *ief fe/ival ( ! ,b5gali ye> & la/s = n9e days ar\nd ! end ( ,septemb]4 ,imm$iately foll[+ is ! t5-day fe/ival ( ,,da%ah>a 78! ,"o :o removes t5 s9s0-?ree ( body1 ?ree ( m9d1 f\r ( spee*74 ,bo? ,,pujas are sacr$ to ,durga1 lit]ally 8! ,inaccessible10 an aspect ( ,div9e ,"m1 ,%akti1 ! female creative =ce p]sonifi$4 ,,fn#ab-b ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 born on ,may #aj1 #ahee4 ,,fn#ab-c ,,yuktesw> means 8unit$ to ,god40 ,,giri is a classificatory di/9ction ( "o ( ! t5 anci5t ,swami bran*es4 ,,sri means 8holy02 x is n a "n b a title ( respect4 ,,fn#ab-d ,lit]ally1 8to direct toge!r40 ,,samadhi is a sup]consci\s /ate ( ec/asy 9 :i* ! yogi p]ceives ! id5tity ( s\l & ,_s4 ,,fn#ab-e ,snor+1 accord+ to physiologi/s1 is an indication ( utt] relaxation 7to ! oblivi\s practition]1 solely74 ,,fn#ab-f ,,dhal is a ?ick s\p made f split peas or o!r pulses4 ,,*anna is a *eese ( fre% curdl$ milk1 cut into squ>es & curri$ ) potatoes4 ,,fn#ab-g ,! omnipres5t p[]s ( a yogi1 :]eby he sees1 he>s1 ta/es1 smells1 & feels 8 on5ess 9 creation )\t ! use ( s5sory organs1 h be5 describ$ z foll[s 9 ! ,,taittiriya ,,aranyaka3 8,! bl9d man pi]c$ ! pe>l2 ! f+]less put a ?read into x2 ! neckless wore x2 & ! tongueless prais$ x40 ,,fn#ab-h ,! cobra swiftly /rikes at any mov+ object )9 its range4 ,complete immobility is usually "o's sole hope ( safety4 ,,fn#ab-i ,lahiri ,mahasaya actually said 8,priya0 7fir/ or giv5 "n71 n 8,yuktesw>0 7mona/ic "n1 n receiv$ by my guru dur+ ,lahiri ,mahasaya's lifetime74 7,see page #aji47 8,yuktesw>0 is sub/itut$ "h1 & 9 a few o!r places 9 ?is book1 9 ord] to avoid ! confusion1 to read]1 ( two names4 ,,fn#ab-aj 8,!re=e ,i say unto y1 ,:at ?+s soev] ye desire1 :5 ye pray1 believe t ye receive !m1 & ye %all h !m40-,,m>k #aa3bd4 ,ma/]s :o possess ! ,div9e ,vision are fully able to transf] _! realizations to advanc$ disciples1 z ,lahiri ,mahasaya did = ,sri ,yuktesw> on ?is occasion4 ,,fn#ab-aa 8,& "o ( !m smote ! s]vant ( ! high prie/1 & cut (f 8 "r e>4 ,& ,jesus answ]$ & said1 ,suff] ye ?us f>4 ,& he t\*$ 8 e> & heal$ him40-,,luke #bb3ej-ea4 ,,fn#ab-ab 8,give n t :i* is holy unto ! dogs1 nei!r ca/ ye y\r pe>ls be=e sw9e1 le/ !y trample !m "u _! feet1 & turn aga9 & r5d y40-,,mat!w #g3f4 ,,fn#ab-ac ,disciples2 f ,sanskrit v]b root1 8to s]ve40 ,,fn#ab-ad ,he 0 once ill 9 ,ka%mir1 :5 ,i 0 abs5t f him4 7,see *apt] #bc47 ,,fn#ab-ae ,a c\rage\s m$ical man1 ,*>les ,rob]t ,ri*et1 aw>d$ ! ,nobel ,prize 9 physiology1 wrote z foll[s3 8,metaphysics is n yet (ficially a sci5ce1 recogniz$ z su*4 ,b x is go+ to be4 4 4 4 ,at ,ed9burgh1 ,i 0 able to affirm be=e #ajj physiologi/s t our five s5ses are n our only means ( k & t a fragm5t ( reality sometimes rea*es ! intellig5ce 9 o!r ways4 4 4 4 ,because a fact is r>e is no reason t x does n exi/4 ,because a /udy is difficult1 is t a reason = n und]/&+ x8 4 4 4 ,^? :o h rail$ at metaphysics z an occult sci5ce w be z a%am$ ( !mselves z ^? :o rail$ at *emi/ry on ! gr\nd t pursuit ( ! philosoph]'s /one 0 illusory4 4 4 4 ,9 ! matt] ( pr9ciples !re are only ^? ( ,lavoisi]1 ,claude ,b]n>d1 & ,pa/eur-! ,,exp]im5tal ev]y:]e & always4 ,greet+s1 !n1 to ! new sci5ce :i* is go+ to *ange ! ori5tation ( human ?\ght40 ,,fn#ab-af ,,samadhi3 p]fect union ( ! individualiz$ s\l ) ! ,inf9ite ,_s4 ,,fn#ab-ag ,! subconsci\sly guid$ rationalizations ( ! m9d are utt]ly diff]5t f ! infallible guidance ( tru? :i* issues f ! sup]consci\sness4 ,l$ by ,fr5* sci5ti/s ( ! ,sorbonne1 ,we/]n ?9k]s are beg9n+ to inve/igate ! possibility ( div9e p]ception 9 man4 8,= ! pa/ tw5ty ye>s1 /ud5ts ( psy*ology1 influ5c$ by ,freud1 gave all _! "t to se>*+ ! subconsci\s realms10 ,rabbi ,israel ,h4 ,lev9?al po9t$ out 9 #aibi4 8,x is true t ! subconsci\s reveals mu* ( ! my/]y t c expla9 human actions1 b n all ( our actions4 ,x c expla9 ! abnormal1 b n de$s t are above ! normal4 ,! late/ psy*ology1 sponsor$ by ! ,fr5* s*ools1 has discov]$ a new region 9 man1 :i* x t]ms ! sup]consci\s4 ,9 contra/ to ! subconsci\s :i* repres5ts ! subm]g$ curr5ts ( our nature1 x reveals ! heights to :i* our nature c rea*4 ,man repres5ts a triple1 n a d\ble1 p]sonality2 our consci\s & subconsci\s be+ is cr[n$ by a sup]consci\sness4 ,_m ye>s ago ! ,engli% psy*ologi/1 ,f4 ,w4 ,h4 ,my]s1 sugge/$ t #8hidd5 9 ! deep ( our be+ is a rubbi% heap z well z a treasure h\se4' ,9 contra/ to ! psy*ology t c5t]s all its rese>*es on ! subconsci\s 9 man's nature1 ?is new psy*ology ( ! sup]consci\s focuses its att5tion ^u ! treasure-h\se1 ! region t alone c expla9 ! great1 unselfi%1 h]oic de$s ( m540 ,,fn#ab-ah ,,jnana1 wisdom1 & ,,bhakti1 devotion3 two ( ! ma9 pa?s to ,god4 ,,fn#ab-ai 8,man 9 8 wak+ /ate puts =? innum]able ef=ts = exp]i5c+ s5sual pleasures2 :5 ! entire gr\p ( s5sory organs is fatigu$1 he =gets ev5 ! pleasure on h& & goes to sleep 9 ord] to enjoy re/ 9 ! s\l1 8 own nature10 ,%ank>a1 ! great ,v$anti/1 has writt54 8,ultra-s5sual bliss is ?us extremely easy ( atta9m5t & is f> sup]ior to s5se delights :i* always end 9 disgu/40 ,,fn#ab-bj ,,m>k #b3bg4 ,,fn#ab-ba ,! ,,upani%ads or ,,v$anta 7lit]ally1 8end ( ! ,v$as071 occur 9 c]ta9 p>ts ( ! ,,v$as z ess5tial summ>ies4 ,! ,,upani%ads furni% ! doctr9al basis ( ! ,h9du religion4 ,!y receiv$ ! foll[+ tribute f ,s*op5hau]3 8,h[ entirely does ! ,,upani%ad brea! ?r\gh\t ! holy _s ( ! ,,v$as6 ,h[ is ev]yone :o has become famili> ) t incomp>able book /irr$ by t _s to ! v dep?s ( 8 s\l6 ,f e s5t5ce deep1 orig9al1 & sublime ?\ghts arise1 & ! :ole is p]vad$ by a high & holy & e>ne/ _s4 4 4 4 ,! access to ! ,,v$as by means ( ! ,,upani%ads is 9 my eyes ! greate/ privilege ?is c5tury may claim be=e all previ\s c5turies40 ,,fn#ab-bb ,comm5t>ies4 ,%ank>a pe]lessly exp\nd$ ! ,,upani%ads4 ,,fn#ab-bc ,,prov]bs #af3cb4 ,,*apt]3 #ac ,,! ,,sleepless ,,sa9t 8,please p]mit me to g to ! ,himalayas4 ,i hope 9 unbrok5 solitude to a*ieve cont9u\s div9e communion40 ,i actually once address$ ^! ungrateful words to my ,ma/]4 ,seiz$ by "o ( ! unpr$ictable delusions :i* occasionally assail ! devotee1 ,i felt a gr[+ impati5ce ) h]mitage duties & college /udies4 ,a feebly ext5uat+ circum/ance is t my proposal 0 made :5 ,i _h be5 only six mon?s ) ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,n yet _h ,i fully survey$ 8 t[]+ /ature4 8,_m hillm5 live 9 ! ,himalayas1 yet possess no ,god-p]ception40 ,my guru's answ] came sl[ly & simply4 8,wisdom is bett] s\ght f a man ( realization ?an f an in]t m\nta940 ,ignor+ ,ma/]'s pla9 h9t t he1 & n a hill1 0 my tea*]1 ,i repeat$ my plea4 ,sri ,yuktesw> v\*saf$ no reply4 ,i took 8 sil5ce = cons5t1 a prec>i\s int]pretation readily accept$ at "o's conv5i5ce4 ,9 my ,calcutta home t ev5+1 ,i busi$ myself ) travel prep>ations4 ,ty+ a few articles inside a blanket1 ,i rememb]$ a simil> bundle1 surreptiti\sly dropp$ f my attic w9d[ a few ye>s e>li]4 ,i wond]$ if ?is 7 to be ano!r ill-/>r$ flight t[>d ! ,himalayas4 ,! fir/ "t my spiritual elation _h be5 high2 tonight consci5ce smote heavily at ?\ght ( leav+ my guru4 ,! foll[+ morn+ ,i s\ght out ,beh>i ,pundit1 my ,sanskrit pr(essor at ,scotti% ,*ur* ,college4 8,sir1 y h told me ( y\r fri5d%ip ) a great disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,please give me 8 address40 8,y mean ,ram ,gopal ,muzumd>4 ,i call him ! #8sleepless sa9t4' ,he is always awake 9 an ec/atic consci\sness4 ,8 home is at ,ranbajpur1 ne> ,t>akesw>40 ,i ?ank$ ! pundit1 & entra9$ imm$iately = ,t>akesw>4 ,i hop$ to sil5ce my misgiv+s by wr++ a sanction f ! 8sleepless sa9t0 to engage myself 9 lonely ,himalayan m$itation4 ,beh>i's fri5d1 ,i he>d1 _h receiv$ illum9ation aft] _m ye>s ( ,,kriya ,,yoga practice 9 isolat$ caves4 ,at ,t>akesw> ,i approa*$ a fam\s %r9e4 ,h9dus reg>d x ) ! same v5]ation t ,ca?olics give to ! ,l\rdes sanctu>y 9 ,france4 ,innum]able heal+ miracles h occurr$ at ,t>akesw>1 includ+ "o = a memb] ( my family4 8,i sat 9 ! temple !re = a week10 my elde/ aunt once told me4 8,obs]v+ a complete fa/1 ,i pray$ = ! recov]y ( y\r ,uncle ,s>ada f a *ronic malady4 ,on ! sev5? day ,i f\nd a h]b mat]ializ$ 9 my h&6 ,i made a brew f ! leaves1 & gave x to y\r uncle4 ,8 disease vani%$ at once1 & has nev] reappe>$40 ,i ent]$ ! sacr$ ,t>akesw> %r9e2 ! alt> conta9s no?+ b a r\nd /one4 ,its circumf]5ce1 beg9n+less & endless1 makes x aptly significant ( ! ,inf9ite4 ,cosmic ab/ractions are n ali5 ev5 to ! humble/ ,indian peasant2 he has be5 accus$ by ,we/]n]s1 9 fact1 ( liv+ on ab/ractions6 ,my own mood at ! mom5t 0 s au/]e t ,i felt dis9cl9$ to b[ be=e ! /one symbol4 ,god %\ld be s\ght1 ,i reflect$1 only )9 ! s\l4 ,i left ! temple )\t g5uflection & walk$ briskly t[>d ! outly+ village ( ,ranbajpur4 ,my appeal to a pass]-by = guidance caus$ him to s9k into long cogitation4 8,:5 y come to a crossroad1 turn "r & keep go+10 he f9ally pron\nc$ oracul>ly4 ,obey+ ! directions1 ,i w5d$ my way alongside ! banks ( a canal4 ,d>kness fell2 ! outskirts ( ! jungle village 7 alive ) w9k+ fireflies & ! h[ls ( ne>-by jackals4 ,! moonlight 0 too fa9t to supply any reassurance2 ,i /umbl$ on = two h\rs4 ,welcome clang ( a c[bell6 ,my repeat$ %\ts ev5tually br\ght a peasant to my side4 8,i am look+ = ,ram ,gopal ,babu40 8,no su* p]son lives 9 our village40 ,! man's tone 0 surly4 8,y are probably a ly+ detective40 ,hop+ to allay suspicion 9 8 politically tr\bl$ m9d1 ,i t\*+ly expla9$ my pr$icam5t4 ,he took me to 8 home & (f]$ a hospitable welcome4 8,ranbajpur is f> f "h10 he rem>k$4 8,at ! crossroad1 y %\ld h turn$ left1 n "r40 ,my e>li] in=mant1 ,i ?\ght sadly1 0 a di/9ct m5ace to travel]s4 ,aft] a reli%able meal ( co>se rice1 l5til-,,dhal1 & curry ( potatoes ) raw bananas1 ,i retir$ to a small hut adjo9+ ! c\rty>d4 ,9 ! di/ance1 villag]s 7 s++ to ! l\d accompanim5t ( ,,mridangas ,,fn#ac-a & cymbals4 ,sleep 0 inconsid]able t night2 ,i pray$ deeply to be direct$ to ! secret yogi1 ,ram ,gopal4 ,z ! fir/ /reaks ( dawn p5etrat$ ! fissures ( my d>k room1 ,i set out = ,ranbajpur4 ,cross+ r\gh paddy fields1 ,i trudg$ ov] sickl$ /umps ( ! prickly plant & m\nds ( dri$ clay4 ,an occasionally-met peasant w\ld in=m me1 inv>iably1 t my de/9ation 0 8only a ,,kro%a 7two miles740 ,9 six h\rs ! sun travel$ victori\sly f horizon to m]idian1 b ,i began to feel t ,i w\ld ev] be di/ant f ,ranbajpur by "o ,,kro%a4 ,at midaft]noon my _w 0 /ill an endless paddy field4 ,heat p\r+ f ! avoidless sky 0 br++ me to ne>-collapse4 ,z a man approa*$ at leisurely pace1 ,i h>dly d>$ utt] my usual "q1 le/ x summon ! monoton\s3 8,j a ,,kro%a40 ,! /rang] halt$ beside me4 ,%ort & slight1 he 0 physically unimpressive save = an extraord9>y pair ( pi]c+ d>k eyes4 8,i 0 plann+ to leave ,ranbajpur1 b y\r purpose 0 good1 s ,i await$ y40 ,he %ook 8 f+] 9 my a/\nd$ face4 8,ar5't y clev] to ?9k t1 unann\nc$1 y c\ld p\nce on me8 ,t pr(essor ,beh>i _h no "r to give y my address40 ,consid]+ t introduction ( myself w\ld be m]e v]bosity 9 ! pres5ce ( ?is ma/]1 ,i /ood spee*less1 some:at hurt at my reception4 ,8 next rem>k 0 abruptly put4 8,tell me2 :]e d y ?9k ,god is80 8,:y1 ,he is )9 me & ev]y:]e40 ,i d\btless look$ z bewild]$ z ,i felt4 8,all-p]vad+1 eh80 ,! sa9t *uckl$4 8,!n :y1 "y sir1 did y fail to b[ be=e ! ,inf9ite 9 ! /one symbol at ! ,t>akesw> temple ye/]day8 ,,fn#ac-b ,y\r pride caus$ y ! puni%m5t ( be+ misdirect$ by ! pass]-by :o 0 n bo!r$ by f9e di/9ctions ( left & "r4 ,today1 too1 y h _h a fairly uncom=table "t ( x60 ,i agre$ :olehe>t$ly1 wond]-/ruck t an omnisci5t eye hid )9 ! unrem>kable body be=e me4 ,heal+ /r5g? emanat$ f ! yogi2 ,i 0 in/antly refre%$ 9 ! scor*+ field4 8,! devotee incl9es to ?9k 8 pa? to ,god is ! only way10 he said4 8,yoga1 ?r\gh :i* div9ity is f\nd )91 is d\btless ! highe/ road3 s ,lahiri ,mahasaya has told u4 ,b discov]+ ! ,"l )91 we soon p]ceive ,him )\t4 ,holy %r9es at ,t>akesw> & else:]e are rightly v5]at$ z nucle> c5t]s ( spiritual p[]40 ,! sa9t's c5sori\s attitude vani%$2 8 eyes became compassionately s(t4 ,he patt$ my %\ld]4 8,"y yogi1 ,i see y are runn+ away f y\r ma/]4 ,he has ev]y?+ y ne$2 y mu/ return to him4 ,m\nta9s _c be y\r guru40 ,ram ,gopal 0 repeat+ ! same ?\ght :i* ,sri ,yuktesw> _h express$ at our la/ meet+4 8,ma/]s are "u no cosmic compulsion to limit _! resid5ce40 ,my companion glanc$ at me quizzically4 8,! ,himalayas 9 ,india & ,tibet h no monopoly on sa9ts4 ,:at "o does n tr\ble to f9d )9 w n be discov]$ by transport+ ! body hi!r & yon4 ,z soon z ! devotee is ,,will+ to g ev5 to ! ends ( ! e>? = spiritual enlight5m5t1 8 guru appe>s ne>-by40 ,i sil5tly agre$1 recall+ my pray] 9 ! ,b5>es h]mitage1 foll[$ by ! meet+ ) ,sri ,yuktesw> 9 a cr[d$ lane4 8,are y able to h a little room :]e y c close ! door & be alone80 8,yes40 ,i reflect$ t ?is sa9t desc5d$ f ! g5]al to ! p>ticul> ) disconc]t+ spe$4 8,t is y\r cave40 ,! yogi be/[$ on me a gaze ( illum9ation :i* ,i h nev] =gott54 8,t is y\r sacr$ m\nta94 ,t is :]e y w f9d ! k+dom ( ,god40 ,8 simple words in/antane\sly bani%$ my lifelong obsession = ! ,himalayas4 ,9 a burn+ paddy field ,i awoke f ! monticol\s dreams ( et]nal sn[s4 8,"y sir1 y\r div9e ?ir/ is laudable4 ,i feel great love = y40 ,ram ,gopal took my h& & l$ me to a qua9t hamlet4 ,! adobe h\ses 7 cov]$ ) coconut leaves & adorn$ ) ru/ic entrances4 ,! sa9t seat$ me on ! umbrage\s bamboo plat=m ( 8 small cottage4 ,aft] giv+ me sweet5$ lime juice & a piece ( rock c&y1 he ent]$ 8 patio & assum$ ! lotus po/ure4 ,9 ab\t f\r h\rs ,i op5$ my m$itative eyes & saw t ! moonlit figure ( ! yogi 0 /ill motionless4 ,z ,i 0 /]nly rem9d+ my /oma* t man does n live by bread alone1 ,ram ,gopal approa*$ me4 8,i see y are fami%$2 food w be ready soon40 ,a fire 0 k9dl$ "u a clay ov5 on ! patio2 rice & ,,dhal 7 quickly s]v$ on l>ge banana leaves4 ,my ho/ c\rte\sly refus$ my aid 9 all cook+ *ores4 8,! gue/ is ,god10 a ,h9du prov]b1 has comm&$ dev\t obs]vance f "t immemorial4 ,9 my lat] _w travels1 ,i 0 *>m$ to see t a simil> respect = visitors is manife/$ 9 rural sections ( _m c\ntries4 ,! city dwell] f9ds ! ke5 edge ( hospitality blunt$ by sup]abundance ( /range faces4 ,! m>ts ( m5 seem$ remotely dim z ,i squatt$ by ! yogi 9 ! isolation ( ! t9y jungle village4 ,! cottage room 0 my/]i\s ) a mell[ light4 ,ram ,gopal arrang$ "s torn blankets on ! floor = my b$1 & seat$ himself on a /raw mat4 ,ov]:elm$ by 8 spiritual magnetism1 ,i v5tur$ a reque/4 8,sir1 :y don't y grant me a ,,samadhi80 8,de> "o1 ,i w\ld be glad to convey ! div9e contact1 b x is n my place to d s40 ,! sa9t look$ at me ) half-clos$ eyes4 8,y\r ma/] w be/[ t exp]i5ce %ortly4 ,y\r body is n tun$ j yet4 ,z a small lamp _c )/& excessive electrical voltage1 s y\r n]ves are unready = ! cosmic curr5t4 ,if ,i gave y ! inf9ite ec/asy "r n[1 y w\ld burn z if e cell 7 on fire4 8,y are ask+ illum9ation f me10 ! yogi cont9u$ mus+ly1 8:ile ,i am wond]+-inconsid]able z ,i am1 & ) ! little m$itation ,i h done-if ,i h succe$$ 9 pleas+ ,god1 & :at wor? ,i may f9d 9 ,8 eyes at ! f9al reckon+40 8,sir1 h y n be5 s+lehe>t$ly seek+ ,god = a long "t80 8,i h n done mu*4 ,beh>i mu/ h told y some?+ ( my life4 ,= tw5ty ye>s ,i occupi$ a secret grotto1 m$itat+ eighte5 h\rs a day4 ,!n ,i mov$ to a m inaccessible cave & rema9$ !re = tw5ty-five ye>s1 ent]+ ! yoga union = tw5ty h\rs daily4 ,i did n ne$ sleep1 = ,i 0 ev] ) ,god4 ,my body 0 m re/$ 9 ! complete calmness ( ! sup]consci\sness ?an x c\ld be by ! p>tial peace ( ! ord9>y subconsci\s /ate4 8,! muscles relax dur+ sleep1 b ! he>t1 lungs1 & circulatory sy/em are con/antly at "w2 !y get no re/4 ,9 sup]consci\sness1 ! int]nal organs rema9 9 a /ate ( susp5d$ animation1 electrifi$ by ! cosmic en]gy4 ,by su* means ,i h f\nd x unnecess>y to sleep = ye>s4 ,! "t w come :5 y too w disp5se ) sleep40 8,my goodness1 y h m$itat$ = s long & yet are unsure ( ! ,"l's favor60 ,i gaz$ at him 9 a/oni%m5t4 8,!n :at ab\t u poor mortals80 8,well1 don't y see1 my de> boy1 t ,god is ,et]nity ,itself8 ,to assume t "o c fully "k ,him by =ty-five ye>s ( m$itation is r a prepo/]\s expectation4 ,babaji assures u1 h[ev]1 t ev5 a little m$itation saves "o f ! dire fe> ( dea? & aft]-dea? /ates4 ,d n fix y\r spiritual ideal on a small m\nta91 b hit* x to ! /> ( unqualifi$ div9e atta9m5t4 ,if y "w h>d1 y w get !re40 ,en?rall$ by ! prospect1 ,i ask$ him = fur!r enlight5+ words4 ,he relat$ a wondr\s /ory ( 8 fir/ meet+ ) ,lahiri ,mahasaya's guru1 ,babaji4 ,,fn#ac-c ,ar\nd midnight ,ram ,gopal fell into sil5ce1 & ,i lay d[n on my blankets4 ,clos+ my eyes1 ,i saw fla%es ( lightn+2 ! va/ space )9 me 0 a *amb] ( molt5 light4 ,i op5$ my eyes & obs]v$ ! same dazzl+ radiance4 ,! room became a "p ( t inf9ite vault :i* ,i beheld ) int]ior vision4 8,:y don't y g to sleep80 8,sir1 h[ c ,i sleep 9 ! pres5ce ( lightn+1 blaz+ :e!r my eyes are %ut or op580 8,y are bless$ to h ?is exp]i5ce2 ! spiritual radiations are n easily se540 ,! sa9t add$ a few words ( affection4 ,at dawn ,ram ,gopal gave me rock c&ies & said ,i mu/ dep>t4 ,i felt su* reluctance to bid him f>ewell t te>s c\rs$ d[n my *eeks4 8,i w n let y g empty-h&$40 ,! yogi spoke t5d]ly4 8,i w d some?+ = y40 ,he smil$ & look$ at me /eadfa/ly4 ,i /ood root$ to ! gr\nd1 peace ru%+ l a mighty flood ?r\gh ! gates ( my eyes4 ,i 0 in/antane\sly heal$ ( a pa9 9 my back1 :i* _h tr\bl$ me int]mitt5tly = ye>s4 ,r5ew$1 ba!d 9 a sea ( lum9\s joy1 ,i wept no m4 ,aft] t\*+ ! sa9t's feet1 ,i saunt]$ into ! jungle1 mak+ my way ?r\gh its tropical tangle until ,i rea*$ ,t>akesw>4 ,!re ,i made a second pilgrimage to ! fam\s %r9e1 & pro/rat$ myself fully be=e ! alt>4 ,! r\nd /one enl>g$ be=e my inn] vision until x became ! cosmical sph]es1 r+ )9 r+1 zone aft] zone1 all d[]$ ) div9ity4 ,i entra9$ happily an h\r lat] = ,calcutta4 ,my travels end$1 n 9 ! l(ty m\nta9s1 b 9 ! ,himalayan pres5ce ( my ,ma/]4 ,,fn#ac-a ,h&-play$ drums1 us$ only = devotional music4 ,,fn#ac-b ,"o is rem9d$ "h ( ,do/oevski's obs]vation3 8,a man :o b[s d[n to no?+ c nev] be> ! burd5 ( himself40 ,,fn#ac-c ,see *apt] #ce4 ,,*apt]3 #ad ,,an ,,exp]i5ce ,,9 ,,cosmic ,,consci\sness 8,i am "h1 ,guruji40 ,my %amefac$ness spoke m eloqu5tly = me4 8,let u g to ! kit*5 & f9d some?+ to eat40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s mann] 0 z natural z if h\rs & n days _h sep>at$ u4 8,ma/]1 ,i mu/ h disappo9t$ y by my abrupt dep>ture f my duties "h2 ,i ?\ght y might be angry ) me40 8,no1 ( c\rse n6 ,wra? spr+s only f ?w>t$ desires4 ,i d n expect any?+ f o!rs1 s _! actions _c be 9 opposition to wi%es ( m9e4 ,i w\ld n use y = my own ends2 ,i am happy only 9 y\r own true happ9ess40 8,sir1 "o he>s ( div9e love 9 a vague way1 b = ! fir/ "t ,i am hav+ a concrete example 9 y\r angelic self6 ,9 ! _w1 ev5 a fa!r does n easily =give 8 son if he leaves 8 p>5t's bus9ess )\t w>n+4 ,b y %[ n ! slighte/ vexation1 ?\gh y mu/ h be5 put to great inconv5i5ce by ! _m unf9i%$ tasks ,i left beh9d40 ,we look$ into ea* o!r's eyes1 :]e te>s 7 %9+4 ,a blissful wave engulf$ me2 ,i 0 consci\s t ! ,"l1 9 ! =m ( my guru1 0 exp&+ ! small ardors ( my he>t into ! incompressible rea*es ( cosmic love4 ,a few morn+s lat] ,i made my way to ,ma/]'s empty sitt+ room4 ,i plann$ to m$itate1 b my laudable purpose 0 un%>$ by disob$i5t ?\ghts4 ,!y scatt]$ l birds be=e ! hunt]4 8,mukunda60 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s voice s\nd$ f a di/ant inn] balcony4 ,i felt z rebelli\s z my ?\ghts4 8,ma/] always urges me to m$itate10 ,i mutt]$ to myself4 8,he %\ld n di/urb me :5 he kn[s :y ,i came to 8 room40 ,he summon$ me aga92 ,i rema9$ ob/9ately sil5t4 ,! ?ird "t 8 tone held rebuke4 8,sir1 ,i am m$itat+10 ,i %\t$ prote/+ly4 8,i "k h[ y are m$itat+10 my guru call$ out1 8) y\r m9d di/ribut$ l leaves 9 a /orm6 ,come "h to me40 ,snubb$ & expos$1 ,i made my way sadly to 8 side4 8,poor boy1 ! m\nta9s c\ldn't give :at y want$40 ,ma/] spoke c>essively1 com=t+ly4 ,8 calm gaze 0 unfa?omable4 8,y\r he>t's desire %all be fulfill$40 ,sri ,yuktesw> seldom indulg$ 9 riddles2 ,i 0 bewild]$4 ,he /ruck g5tly on my *e/ above ! he>t4 ,my body became immovably root$2 brea? 0 drawn out ( my lungs z if by "s huge magnet4 ,s\l & m9d in/antly lo/ _! physical bondage1 & /ream$ out l a fluid pi]c+ light f my e pore4 ,! fle% 0 z ?\gh dead1 yet 9 my int5se aw>5ess ,i knew t nev] be=e _h ,i be5 fully alive4 ,my s5se ( id5tity 0 no long] n>r[ly conf9$ to a body1 b embrac$ ! circumambi5t atoms4 ,p on di/ant /reets seem$ to be mov+ g5tly ov] my own remote p]iph]y4 ,! roots ( plants & trees appe>$ ?r\gh a dim transp>5cy ( ! soil2 ,i disc]n$ ! inw>d fl[ ( _! sap4 ,! :ole vic9ity lay b>e be=e me4 ,my ord9>y frontal vision 0 n[ *ang$ to a va/ sph]ical sight1 simultane\sly all-p]ceptive4 ,?r\gh ! back ( my head ,i saw m5 /roll+ f> d[n ,rai ,ghat ,road1 & notic$ also a :ite c[ :o 0 leisurely approa*+4 ,:5 %e rea*$ ! space 9 front ( ! op5 a%ram gate1 ,i obs]v$ h] ) my two physical eyes4 ,z %e pass$ by1 beh9d ! brick wall1 ,i saw h] cle>ly /ill4 ,all objects )9 my panoramic gaze trembl$ & vibrat$ l quick motion pictures4 ,my body1 ,ma/]'s1 ! pill>$ c\rty>d1 ! furniture & floor1 ! trees & sun%9e1 occasionally became viol5tly agitat$1 until all melt$ into a lum9esc5t sea2 ev5 z sug> cry/als1 ?r[n into a glass ( wat]1 dissolve aft] be+ %ak54 ,! unify+ light alt]nat$ ) mat]ializations ( =m1 ! metamorphoses reveal+ ! law ( cause & effect 9 creation4 ,an oceanic joy broke ^u calm endless %ores ( my s\l4 ,! ,_s ( ,god1 ,i realiz$1 is exhau/less ,bliss2 ,8 body is c\ntless tissues ( light4 ,a swell+ glory )9 me began to envelop t[ns1 cont95ts1 ! e>?1 sol> & /ell> sy/ems1 t5u\s nebulae1 & float+ univ]ses4 ,! entire cosmos1 g5tly lum9\s1 l a city se5 af> at night1 glimm]$ )9 ! inf9itude ( my be+4 ,! %>ply et*$ global outl9es fad$ some:at at ! f>!/ edges2 !re ,i c\ld see a mell[ radiance1 ev]-undim9i%$4 ,x 0 indescribably subtle2 ! planet>y pictures 7 =m$ ( a gross] light4 ,! div9e disp]sion ( rays p\r$ f an ,et]nal ,s\rce1 blaz+ into galaxies1 transfigur$ ) ineffable auras4 ,aga9 & aga9 ,i saw ! creative beams cond5se into con/ellations1 !n resolve into %eets ( transp>5t flame4 ,by rhy?mic rev]sion1 sextillion worlds pass$ into diaphan\s lu/]2 fire became firmam5t4 ,i cogniz$ ! c5t] ( ! empyrean z a po9t ( intuitive p]ception 9 my he>t4 ,irradiat+ spl5dor issu$ f my nucleus to e "p ( ! univ]sal /ructure4 ,blissful ,,amrita1 ! nect> ( immortality1 puls$ ?r\gh me ) a quicksilv]like fluidity4 ,! creative voice ( ,god ,i he>d res\nd+ z ,,aum1 ,,fn#ad-a ! vibration ( ! ,cosmic ,motor4 ,sudd5ly ! brea? return$ to my lungs4 ,) a disappo9tm5t almo/ unbe>able1 ,i realiz$ t my inf9ite imm5sity 0 lo/4 ,once m ,i 0 limit$ to ! humiliat+ cage ( a body1 n easily accommodative to ! ,_s4 ,l a prodigal *ild1 ,i _h run away f my macrocosmic home & imprison$ myself 9 a n>r[ microcosm4 ,my guru 0 /&+ motionless be=e me2 ,i />t$ to drop at 8 holy feet 9 gratitude = ! exp]i5ce 9 cosmic consci\sness :i* ,i _h long passionately s\ght4 ,he held me upright1 & spoke calmly1 unpret5ti\sly4 8,y mu/ n get ov]drunk ) ec/asy4 ,mu* "w yet rema9s = y 9 ! _w4 ,come2 let u sweep ! balcony floor2 !n we %all walk by ! ,ganges40 ,i fet*$ a broom2 ,ma/]1 ,i knew1 0 tea*+ me ! secret ( balanc$ liv+4 ,! s\l mu/ /ret* ov] ! cosmogonic abysses1 :ile ! body p]=ms its daily duties4 ,:5 we set out lat] = a /roll1 ,i 0 /ill entranc$ 9 unspeakable rapture4 ,i saw our bodies z two a/ral pictures1 mov+ ov] a road by ! riv] ^: ess5ce 0 %e] light4 8,x is ! ,_s ( ,god t actively su/a9s e =m & =ce 9 ! univ]se2 yet ,he is transc5d5tal & alo( 9 ! blissful uncreat$ void beyond ! worlds ( vibratory ph5om5a10 ,,fn#ad-b ,ma/] expla9$4 8,sa9ts :o realize _! div9ity ev5 :ile 9 ! fle% "k a simil> tw(old exi/5ce4 ,consci5ti\sly engag+ 9 e>?ly "w1 !y yet rema9 imm]s$ 9 an inw>d beatitude4 ,! ,"l has creat$ all m5 f ! limitless joy ( ,8 be+4 ,?\gh !y are pa9fully cramp$ by ! body1 ,god nev]!less expects t s\ls made 9 ,8 image %all ultimately rise above all s5se id5tifications & reunite ) ,him40 ,! cosmic vision left _m p]man5t lessons4 ,by daily /ill+ my ?\ghts1 ,i c\ld w9 release f ! delusive conviction t my body 0 a mass ( fle% & bones1 trav]s+ ! h>d soil ( matt]4 ,! brea? & ! re/less m9d1 ,i saw1 7 l /orms :i* la%$ ! ocean ( light into waves ( mat]ial =ms-e>?1 sky1 human be+s1 animals1 birds1 trees4 ,no p]ception ( ! ,inf9ite z ,"o ,light c\ld be _h except by calm+ ^? /orms4 ,z (t5 z ,i sil5c$ ! two natural tumults1 ,i beheld ! multitud9\s waves ( creation melt into "o luc5t sea1 ev5 z ! waves ( ! ocean1 _! tempe/s subsid+1 s]5ely dissolve into unity4 ,a ma/] be/[s ! div9e exp]i5ce ( cosmic consci\sness :5 8 disciple1 by m$itation1 has /r5g!n$ 8 m9d to a degree :]e ! va/ vi/as w\ld n ov]:elm him4 ,! exp]i5ce c nev] be giv5 ?r\gh "o's m]e intellectual will+ness or op5-m9d$ness4 ,only adequate enl>gem5t by yoga practice & devotional ,,bhakti c prep>e ! m9d to absorb ! lib]at+ %ock ( omnipres5ce4 ,x comes ) a natural inevitability to ! s9c]e devotee4 ,8 int5se crav+ beg9s to pull at ,god ) an irresi/ible =ce4 ,! ,"l1 z ! ,cosmic ,vision1 is drawn by ! seek]'s magnetic ardor into 8 range ( consci\sness4 ,i wrote1 9 my lat] ye>s1 ! foll[+ poem1 8,samadhi10 endeavor+ to convey ! glory ( its cosmic /ate3 ,vani%$ ! veils ( light & %ade1 ,lift$ e vapor ( sorr[1 ,sail$ away all dawns ( fleet+ joy1 ,gone ! dim s5sory mirage4 ,love1 hate1 heal?1 disease1 life1 dea?1 ,p]i%$ ^! false %ad[s on ! scre5 ( duality4 ,waves ( laught]1 scyllas ( s>casm1 melan*olic :irlpools1 ,melt+ 9 ! va/ sea ( bliss4 ,! /orm ( ,,maya /ill$ ,by magic w& ( intuition deep4 ,! univ]se1 =gott5 dream1 subconsci\sly lurks1 ,ready to invade my newly-wak5$ memory div9e4 ,i live )\t ! cosmic %ad[1 ,b x is n1 b]eft ( me2 ,z ! sea exi/s )\t ! waves1 ,b !y brea! n )\t ! sea4 ,dreams1 wak+s1 /ates ( deep ,,turia sleep1 ,pres5t1 pa/1 future1 no m = me1 ,b ev]-pres5t1 all-fl[+ ,i1 ,i1 ev]y:]e4 ,planets1 />s1 />du/1 e>?1 ,volcanic bur/s ( doomsday cataclysms1 ,creation's mold+ furnace1 ,glaci]s ( sil5t x-rays1 burn+ electron floods1 ,?\ghts ( all m51 pa/1 pres5t1 to come1 ,e blade ( grass1 myself1 mank9d1 ,ea* p>ticle ( univ]sal du/1 ,ang]1 gre$1 good1 bad1 salvation1 lu/1 ,i swall[$1 transmut$ all ,into a va/ ocean ( blood ( my own "o ,be+6 ,smold]+ joy1 (t-puff$ by m$itation ,bl9d+ my te>ful eyes1 ,bur/ into immortal flames ( bliss1 ,consum$ my te>s1 my frame1 my all4 ,?\ art ,i1 ,i am ,?\1 ,kn[+1 ,kn[]1 ,kn[n1 z ,"o6 ,tranquill$1 unbrok5 ?rill1 et]nally liv+1 ev]-new peace6 ,enjoyable beyond imag9ation ( expectancy1 ,,samadhi bliss6 ,n an unconsci\s /ate ,or m5tal *lor(orm )\t wilful return1 ,,samadhi b ext5ds my consci\s realm ,beyond limits ( ! mortal frame ,to f>!/ b\nd>y ( et]nity ,:]e ,i1 ! ,cosmic ,sea1 ,wat* ! little ego float+ 9 ,me4 ,! sp>r[1 ea* gra9 ( s&1 fall n )\t ,my sight4 ,all space floats l an iceb]g 9 ,my m5tal sea4 ,colossal ,conta9]1 ,i1 ( all ?+s made4 ,by deep]1 long]1 ?ir/y1 guru-giv5 m$itation ,comes ?is cele/ial ,,samadhi4 ,mobile murmurs ( atoms are he>d1 ,! d>k e>?1 m\nta9s1 vales1 lo6 molt5 liquid6 ,fl[+ seas *ange into vapors ( nebulae6 ,,aum bl[s ^u vapors1 op5+ wondr\sly _! veils1 ,oceans /& reveal$1 %9+ electrons1 ,till1 at la/ s\nd ( ! cosmic drum1 ,vani% ! gross] lights into et]nal rays ,( all-p]vad+ bliss4 ,f joy ,i came1 = joy ,i live1 9 sacr$ joy ,i melt4 ,ocean ( m9d1 ,i dr9k all creation's waves4 ,f\r veils ( solid1 liquid1 vapor1 light1 ,lift aright4 ,myself1 9 ev]y?+1 ent]s ! ,great ,myself4 ,gone =ev]1 fitful1 flick]+ %ad[s ( mortal memory4 ,spotless is my m5tal sky1 bel[1 ahead1 & high above4 ,et]nity & ,i1 "o unit$ ray4 ,a t9y bubble ( laught]1 ,i ,am become ! ,sea ( ,mir? ,itself4 ,sri ,yuktesw> taught me h[ to summon ! bless$ exp]i5ce at w1 & also h[ to transmit x to o!rs if _! intuitive *annels 7 develop$4 ,= mon?s ,i ent]$ ! ec/atic union1 compreh5d+ :y ! ,,upani%ads say ,god is ,,rasa1 8! mo/ reli%able40 ,"o day1 h[ev]1 ,i took a problem to ,ma/]4 8,i want to "k1 sir-:5 %all ,i f9d ,god80 8,y h f\nd ,him40 8,o no1 sir1 ,i don't ?9k s60 ,my guru 0 smil+4 8,i am sure y ar5't expect+ a v5]able ,p]sonage1 adorn+ a ?rone 9 "s antiseptic corn] ( ! cosmos6 ,i see1 h[ev]1 t y are imag9+ t ! possession ( miracul\s p[]s is k ( ,god4 ,"o might h ! :ole univ]se1 & f9d ! ,"l elusive /ill6 ,spiritual advancem5t is n measur$ by "o's outw>d p[]s1 b only by ! dep? ( 8 bliss 9 m$itation4 8,,ev]-,,new ,,joy ,,is ,,god4 ,he is inexhau/ible2 z y cont9ue y\r m$itations dur+ ! ye>s1 ,he w beguile y ) an inf9ite +5uity4 ,devotees l y\rself :o h f\nd ! way to ,god nev] dream ( ex*ang+ ,him = any o!r happ9ess2 ,he is s$uctive beyond ?\ght ( competition4 8,h[ quickly we we>y ( e>?ly pleasures6 ,desire = mat]ial ?+s is endless2 man is nev] satisfi$ completely1 & pursues "o goal aft] ano!r4 ,! #8some?+ else' he seeks is ! ,"l1 :o alone c grant la/+ joy4 8,outw>d long+s drive u f ! ,ed5 )92 !y (f] false pleasures :i* only imp]sonate s\l-happ9ess4 ,! lo/ p>adise is quickly rega9$ ?r\gh div9e m$itation4 ,z ,god is unanticipatory ,ev]-,newness1 we nev] tire ( ,him4 ,c we be surfeit$ ) bliss1 delightfully v>i$ ?r\gh\t et]nity80 8,i und]/& n[1 sir1 :y sa9ts call ! ,"l unfa?omable4 ,ev5 ev]la/+ life c\ld n suffice to appraise ,him40 8,t is true2 b ,he is also ne> & de>4 ,aft] ! m9d has be5 cle>$ by ,,kriya ,,yoga ( s5sory ob/acles1 m$itation furni%es a tw(old pro( ( ,god4 ,ev]-new joy is evid5ce ( ,8 exi/5ce1 conv9c+ to our v atoms4 ,also1 9 m$itation "o f9ds ,8 in/ant guidance1 ,8 adequate response to e difficulty40 8,i see1 ,guruji2 y h solv$ my problem40 ,i smil$ gratefully4 8,i d realize n[ t ,i h f\nd ,god1 = :5ev] ! joy ( m$itation has return$ subconsci\sly dur+ my active h\rs1 ,i h be5 subtly direct$ to adopt ! "r c\rse 9 ev]y?+1 ev5 details40 8,human life is beset ) sorr[ until we "k h[ to tune 9 ) ! ,div9e ,w1 ^: #8"r c\rse' is (t5 baffl+ to ! egoi/ic intellig5ce4 ,god be>s ! burd5 ( ! cosmos2 ,he alone c give un]r+ c\nsel40 ,,fn#ad-a 8,9 ! beg9n+ 0 ! ,^w1 & ! ,^w 0 ) ,god1 & ! ,^w 0 ,god40-,,john #a3a4 ,,fn#ad-b 8,= ! ,fa!r judge? no man1 b ha? committ$ all judgm5t unto ! ,son40-,,john #e3bb4 8,no man ha? se5 ,god at any "t2 ! only begott5 ,son1 :i* is 9 ! bosom ( ! ,fa!r1 he ha? decl>$ him40-,,john #a3ah4 8,v]ily1 v]ily1 ,i say unto y1 he t believe? on me1 ! works t ,i d %all he d also2 & great] works ?an ^! %all he d2 because ,i g unto my ,fa!r40-,,john #ad3ab4 8,b ! ,com=t]1 :i* is ! ,holy ,gho/1 :om ! ,fa!r w s5d 9 my "n1 he %all tea* y all ?+s1 & br+ all ?+s to y\r remembrance1 :atsoev] ,i h said to y40-,,john #ad3bf4 ,^! ,biblical words ref] to ! ?reefold nature ( ,god z ,fa!r1 ,son1 ,holy ,gho/ 7,,sat1 ,,tat1 ,,aum 9 ! ,h9du scriptures74 ,god ! ,fa!r is ! ,absolute1 ,unmanife/$1 exi/+ ,,beyond vibratory creation4 ,god ! ,son is ! ,*ri/ ,consci\sness 7,brahma or ,,kuta/ha ,,*aitanya7 exi/+ ,,)9 vibratory creation2 ?is ,*ri/ ,consci\sness is ! 8only begott50 or sole reflection ( ! ,uncreat$ ,inf9ite4 ,its outw>d manife/ation or 8witness0 is ,,aum or ,holy ,gho/1 ! div9e1 creative1 invisible p[] :i* /ructures all creation ?r\gh vibration4 ,,aum ! blissful ,com=t] is he>d 9 m$itation & reveals to ! devotee ! ultimate ,tru?4 ,,*apt]3 #ae ,,! ,,caulifl[] ,,robb]y 8,ma/]1 a gift = y6 ,^! six huge caulifl[]s 7 plant$ ) my h&s2 ,i h wat*$ ov] _! gr[? ) ! t5d] c>e ( a "m nurs+ h] *ild40 ,i pres5t$ ! basket ( vegetables ) a c]emonial fl\ri%4 8,?ank y60 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s smile 0 w>m ) appreciation4 8,please keep !m 9 y\r room2 ,i %all ne$ !m tomorr[ = a special d9n]40 ,illu/ration3 ,,my ,,guru',s ,,seaside ,,h]mitage ,,at ,,puri ,a /eady /ream ( visitors p\r$ f ! _w into ! h]mitage tranquillity4 ,a numb] ( le>n$ m5 came ) ! expectation ( meet+ an or?odox religioni/4 ,a sup]cili\s smile or a glance ( amus$ tol]ance occasionally betray$ t ! newcom]s anticipat$ no?+ m ?an a few pi\s platitudes4 ,yet _! reluctant dep>ture w\ld br+ an express$ conviction t ,sri ,yuktesw> _h %[n precise insight into _! specializ$ fields ( k4 ,my guru always _h "y resid5t disciples 9 8 h]mitage4 ,he direct$ _! m9ds & lives ) t c>eful discipl9e 9 :i* ! ^w 8disciple0 is etymologically root$4--see puri4jpg ,i _h j arriv$ 9 ,puri ,,fn#ae-a to sp5d my college summ] vacation ) my guru at 8 seaside h]mitage4 ,built by ,ma/] & 8 disciples1 ! *e]ful little two-/ori$ retreat fronts on ! ,bay ( ,b5gal4 ,i awoke e>ly ! foll[+ morn+1 refre%$ by ! salty sea breezes & ! *>m ( my surr\nd+s4 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s melodi\s voice 0 call+2 ,i took a look at my *]i%$ caulifl[]s & /[$ !m neatly "u my b$4 8,come1 let u g to ! bea*40 ,ma/] l$ ! way2 sev]al "y disciples & myself foll[$ 9 a scatt]$ gr\p4 ,our guru survey$ u 9 mild criticism4 8,:5 our ,we/]n bro!rs walk1 !y usually take pride 9 unison4 ,n[1 please m>* 9 two r[s2 keep rhy?mic /ep ) "o ano!r40 ,sri ,yuktesw> wat*$ z we obey$2 he began to s+3 8,boys g to & fro1 9 a pretty little r[40 ,i c\ld n b admire ! ease ) :i* ,ma/] 0 able to mat* ! brisk pace ( 8 "y /ud5ts4 8,halt60 ,my guru's eyes s\ght m9e4 8,did y rememb] to lock ! back door ( ! h]mitage80 8,i ?9k s1 sir40 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 sil5t = a few m9utes1 a half-suppress$ smile on 8 lips4 8,no1 y =got10 he said f9ally4 8,div9e contemplation mu/ n be made an excuse = mat]ial c>elessness4 ,y h neglect$ y\r duty 9 safegu>d+ ! a%ram2 y mu/ be puni%$40 ,i ?\ght he 0 obscurely jok+ :5 he add$3 8,y\r six caulifl[]s w soon be only five40 ,we turn$ ar\nd at ,ma/]'s ord]s & m>*$ back until we 7 close to ! h]mitage4 8,re/ a:ile4 ,mukunda1 look across ! comp\nd on our left2 obs]ve ! road beyond4 ,a c]ta9 man w arrive !re pres5tly2 he w be ! means ( y\r *a/isem5t40 ,i conceal$ my vexation at ^! incompreh5sible rem>ks4 ,a peasant soon appe>$ on ! road2 he 0 danc+ grotesquely & fl++ 8 arms ab\t ) mean+less ge/ures4 ,almo/ p>alyz$ ) curiosity1 ,i glu$ my eyes on ! hil>i\s spectacle4 ,z ! man rea*$ a po9t 9 ! road :]e he w\ld vani% f our view1 ,sri ,yuktesw> said1 8,n[1 he w return40 ,! peasant at once *ang$ 8 direction & made = ! re> ( ! a%ram4 ,cross+ a s&y tract1 he ent]$ ! build+ by ! back door4 ,i _h left x unlock$1 ev5 z my guru _h said4 ,! man em]g$ %ortly1 hold+ "o ( my priz$ caulifl[]s4 ,he n[ /rode along respectably1 inve/$ ) ! dignity ( possession4 ,! unfold+ f>ce1 9 :i* my role appe>$ to be t ( bewild]$ victim1 0 n s disconc]t+ t ,i fail$ 9 indignant pursuit4 ,i 0 halfway to ! road :5 ,ma/] recall$ me4 ,he 0 %ak+ f head to foot ) laught]4 8,t poor crazy man has be5 long+ = a caulifl[]10 he expla9$ betwe5 outbur/s ( mir?4 8,i ?\ght x w\ld be a good idea if he got "o ( y\rs1 s ill-gu>d$60 ,i da%$ to my room1 :]e ,i f\nd t ! ?ief1 evid5tly "o ) a vegetable fixation1 _h left unt\*$ my gold r+s1 wat*1 & money1 all ly+ op5ly on ! blanket4 ,he _h crawl$ in/ead "u ! b$ :]e1 completely hidd5 f casual sight1 "o ( my caulifl[]s _h ar\s$ 8 s+lehe>t$ desire4 ,i ask$ ,sri ,yuktesw> t ev5+ to expla9 ! incid5t :i* _h1 ,i ?\ght1 a few baffl+ features4 ,my guru %ook 8 head sl[ly4 8,y w und]/& x som$ay4 ,sci5ce w soon discov] a few ( ^! hidd5 laws40 ,:5 ! wond]s ( radio bur/ "s ye>s lat] on an a/\nd$ _w1 ,i rememb]$ ,ma/]'s pr$iction4 ,age-old concepts ( "t & space 7 annihilat$2 no peasant's home s n>r[ t ,london or ,calcutta c\ld n ent]6 ,! dulle/ intellig5ce enl>g$ be=e indisputable pro( ( "o aspect ( man's omnipres5ce4 ,! 8plot0 ( ! caulifl[] com$y c be be/ und]/ood by a radio analogy4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 a p]fect human radio4 ,?\ghts are no m ?an v g5tle vibrations mov+ 9 ! e!r4 ,j z a s5sitiz$ radio picks up a desir$ musical numb] out ( ?\s&s ( o!r programs f e direction1 s my guru _h be5 able to cat* ! ?\ght ( ! half-witt$ man :o hank]$ = a caulifl[]1 out ( ! c\ntless ?\ghts ( broadca/+ human wills 9 ! _w4 ,,fn#ae-b ,by 8 p[]ful w1 ,ma/] 0 also a human broadca/+ /ation1 & _h successfully direct$ ! peasant to rev]se 8 /eps & g to a c]ta9 room = a s+le caulifl[]4 ,intuition ,,fn#ae-c is s\l guidance1 appe>+ naturally 9 man dur+ ^? in/ants :5 8 m9d is calm4 ,ne>ly ev]yone has _h ! exp]i5ce ( an inexplicably correct 8hun*10 or has transf]r$ 8 ?\ghts effectively to ano!r p]son4 ,! human m9d1 free f ! /atic ( re/lessness1 c p]=m ?r\gh its ant5na ( intuition all ! functions ( complicat$ radio me*anisms-s5d+ & receiv+ ?\ghts1 & tun+ out undesirable ones4 ,z ! p[] ( a radio dep5ds on ! am\nt ( electrical curr5t x c utilize1 s ! human radio is en]giz$ accord+ to ! p[] ( w possess$ by ea* individual4 ,all ?\ghts vibrate et]nally 9 ! cosmos4 ,by deep conc5tration1 a ma/] is able to detect ! ?\ghts ( any m9d1 liv+ or dead4 ,?\ghts are univ]sally & n individually root$2 a tru? _c be creat$1 b only p]ceiv$4 ,! errone\s ?\ghts ( man result f imp]fections 9 8 disc]nm5t4 ,! goal ( yoga sci5ce is to calm ! m9d1 t )\t di/ortion x may mirror ! div9e vision 9 ! univ]se4 ,radio & television h br\ght ! in/antane\s s\nd & sight ( remote p]sons to ! firesides ( millions3 ! fir/ fa9t sci5tific intimations t man is an all-p]vad+ _s4 ,n a body conf9$ to a po9t 9 space1 b ! va/ s\l1 :i* ! ego 9 mo/ b>b>ic modes conspires 9 va9 to cramp4 8,v /range1 v wond]ful1 seem+ly v improbable ph5om5a may yet appe> :i*1 :5 once e/abli%$1 w n a/oni% u m ?an we are n[ a/oni%$ at all t sci5ce has taught u dur+ ! la/ c5tury10 ,*>les ,rob]t ,ri*et1 ,nobel ,prizeman 9 physiology1 has decl>$4 8,x is assum$ t ! ph5om5a :i* we n[ accept )\t surprise1 d n excite our a/oni%m5t because !y are und]/ood4 ,b ?is is n ! case4 ,if !y d n surprise u x is n because !y are und]/ood1 x is because !y are famili>2 = if t :i* is n und]/ood ought to surprise u1 we %\ld be surpris$ at ev]y?+-! fall ( a /one ?r[n into ! air1 ! acorn :i* becomes an oak1 m]cury :i* exp&s :5 x is heat$1 iron attract$ by a magnet1 phosphorus :i* burns :5 x is rubb$4 4 4 4 ,! sci5ce ( today is a light matt]2 ! revolutions & evolutions :i* x w exp]i5ce 9 a hundr$ ?\s& ye>s w f> exce$ ! mo/ d>+ anticipations4 ,! tru?s-^? surpris+1 amaz+1 un=ese5 tru?s-:i* our desc5dants w discov]1 are ev5 n[ all ar\nd u1 />+ u 9 ! eyes1 s to speak1 & yet we d n see !m4 ,b x is n en\gh to say t we d n see !m2 we d n wi% to see !m2 = z soon z an unexpect$ & unfamili> fact appe>s1 we try to fit x into ! framework ( ! commonplaces ( acquir$ k1 & we are indignant t anyone %\ld d>e to exp]im5t fur!r40 ,a humor\s occurr5ce took place a few days aft] ,i _h be5 s implausibly robb$ ( a caulifl[]4 ,a c]ta9 k]os5e lamp c\ld n be f\nd4 ,hav+ s lately witness$ my guru's omnisci5t insight1 ,i ?\ght he w\ld demon/rate t x 0 *ild's play to locate ! lamp4 ,ma/] p]ceiv$ my expectation4 ,) exagg]at$ gravity he que/ion$ all a%ram resid5ts4 ,a "y disciple confess$ t he _h us$ ! lamp to g to ! well 9 ! back y>d4 ,sri ,yuktesw> gave ! solemn c\nsel3 8,seek ! lamp ne> ! well40 ,i ru%$ !re2 no lamp6 ,cre/fall51 ,i return$ to my guru4 ,he 0 n[ laugh+ he>tily1 )\t compunction = my disillusionm5t4 8,too bad ,i c\ldn't direct y to ! vani%$ lamp2 ,i am n a =tune tell]60 ,) tw9kl+ eyes1 he add$1 8,i am n ev5 a satisfactory ,%]lock ,holmes60 ,i realiz$ t ,ma/] w\ld nev] display 8 p[]s :5 *all5g$1 or = a triviality4 ,delightful weeks sp$ by4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 plann+ a religi\s procession4 ,he ask$ me to lead ! disciples ov] ! t[n & bea* ( ,puri4 ,! fe/ive day dawn$ z "o ( ! hotte/ ( ! summ]4 8,guruji1 h[ c ,i take ! b>efoot$ /ud5ts ov] ! fi]y s&s80 ,i spoke despair+ly4 8,i w tell y a secret10 ,ma/] respond$4 8,! ,"l w s5d an umbrella ( cl\ds2 y all %all walk 9 com=t40 ,i happily organiz$ ! procession2 our gr\p />t$ f ! a%ram ) a ,,sat-,,sanga bann]4 ,,fn#ae-d ,design$ by ,sri ,yuktesw>1 x bore ! symbol ( ! s+le ,,fn#ae-e eye1 ! telescopic gaze ( intuition4 ,no soon] _h we left ! h]mitage ?an ! "p ( ! sky :i* 0 ov]head became fill$ ) cl\ds z ?\gh by magic4 ,to ! accompanim5t ( a/oni%$ ejaculations f all sides1 a v light %[] fell1 cool+ ! city /reets & ! burn+ sea%ore4 ,! soo?+ drops desc5d$ dur+ ! two h\rs ( ! p>ade4 ,! exact in/ant at :i* our gr\p return$ to ! a%ram1 ! cl\ds & ra9 pass$ away tracelessly4 8,y see h[ ,god feels = u10 ,ma/] repli$ aft] ,i _h express$ my gratitude4 8,! ,"l responds to all & works = all4 ,j z ,he s5t ra9 at my plea1 s ,he fulfills any s9c]e desire ( ! devotee4 ,seldom d m5 realize h[ (t5 ,god he$s _! pray]s4 ,he is n p>tial to a few1 b li/5s to ev]yone :o approa*es ,him tru/+ly4 ,8 *ildr5 %\ld ev] h implicit fai? 9 ! lov+-k9dness ( _! ,omnipres5t ,fa!r40 ,,fn#ae-f ,sri ,yuktesw> sponsor$ f\r ye>ly fe/ivals1 at ! equ9oxes & sol/ices1 :5 8 /ud5ts ga!r$ f f> & ne>4 ,! w9t] sol/ice celebration 0 held 9 ,s]ampore2 ! fir/ "o ,i att5d$ left me ) a p]man5t bless+4 ,! fe/ivities />t$ 9 ! morn+ ) a b>efoot procession along ! /reets4 ,! voices ( a hundr$ /ud5ts rang out ) sweet religi\s songs2 a few musicians play$ ! flute & ,,khol ,,k>tal 7drums & cymbals74 ,en?usia/ic t[nspeople /rew$ ! pa? ) fl[]s1 glad to be summon$ f prosaic tasks by our res\nd+ praise ( ! ,"l's bless$ "n4 ,! long t\r end$ 9 ! c\rty>d ( ! h]mitage4 ,!re we encircl$ our guru1 :ile /ud5ts on upp] balconies %[]$ u ) m>igold blossoms4 ,_m gue/s w5t up/airs to receive a pudd+ ( ,,*anna & oranges4 ,i made my way to a gr\p ( bro!r disciples :o 7 s]v+ today z cooks4 ,food = su* l>ge ga!r+s _h to be cook$ outdoors 9 huge cauldrons4 ,! improvis$ wood-burn+ brick /oves 7 smoky & te>-provok+1 b we laugh$ m]rily at our "w4 ,religi\s fe/ivals 9 ,india are nev] consid]$ tr\blesome2 ea* "o does 8 "p1 supply+ money1 rice1 vegetables1 or 8 p]sonal s]vices4 ,ma/] 0 soon 9 our mid/1 sup]vis+ ! details ( ! fea/4 ,busy e mom5t1 he kept pace ) ! mo/ en]getic "y /ud5t4 ,a ,,sankirtan 7gr\p *ant+71 accompani$ by ! h>monium & h&-play$ ,indian drums1 0 9 progress on ! second floor4 ,sri ,yuktesw> li/5$ appreciatively2 8 musical s5se 0 acutely p]fect4 8,!y are (f key60 ,ma/] left ! cooks & jo9$ ! arti/s4 ,! melody 0 he>d aga91 ?is "t correctly r5d]$4 ,9 ,india1 music z well z pa9t+ & ! drama is consid]$ a div9e art4 ,brahma1 ,vi%nu1 & ,%iva-! ,et]nal ,tr9ity-7 ! fir/ musicians4 ,! ,div9e ,danc] ,%iva is scripturally repres5t$ z hav+ work$ out ! inf9ite modes ( rhy?m 9 ,8 cosmic dance ( univ]sal creation1 pres]vation1 & dissolution1 :ile ,brahma acc5tuat$ ! "t-beat ) ! clang+ cymbals1 & ,vi%nu s\nd$ ! holy ,,mridanga or drum4 ,kri%na1 an inc>nation ( ,vi%nu1 is always %[n 9 ,h9du art ) a flute1 on :i* he plays ! enraptur+ song t recalls to _! true home ! human s\ls w&]+ 9 ,,maya-delusion4 ,s>aswati1 goddess ( wisdom1 is symboliz$ z p]=m+ on ! ,,v9a1 "m ( all /r+$ in/rum5ts4 ,! ,,sama ,,v$a ( ,india conta9s ! _w's e>lie/ writ+s on musical sci5ce4 ,! f\ndation /one ( ,h9du music is ! ,,ragas or fix$ melodic scales4 ,! six basic ,,ragas bran* out into #abf d]ivative ,,rag9is 7wives7 & ,,putras 7sons74 ,ea* ,,raga has a m9imum ( five notes3 a lead+ note 7,,vadi or k+71 a second>y note 7,,samavadi or prime m9i/]71 help+ notes 7,,anuvadi1 att5dants71 & a dissonant note 7,,vivadi1 ! enemy74 ,ea* "o ( ! six basic ,,ragas has a natural correspond5ce ) a c]ta9 h\r ( ! day1 season ( ! ye>1 & a presid+ deity :o be/[s a p>ticul> pot5cy4 ,?us1 7#a7 ! ,,h9dole ,,raga is he>d only at dawn 9 ! spr+1 to evoke ! mood ( univ]sal love2 7#b7 ,,deepaka ,,raga is play$ dur+ ! ev5+ 9 summ]1 to ar\se compassion2 7#c7 ,,megha ,,raga is a melody = midday 9 ! ra9y season1 to summon c\rage2 7#d7 ,,bhairava ,,raga is play$ 9 ! morn+s ( ,augu/1 ,septemb]1 ,octob]1 to a*ieve tranquillity2 7#e7 ,,sri ,,raga is res]v$ = autumn twilights1 to atta9 pure love2 7#f7 ,,malk\nsa ,,raga is he>d at midnights 9 w9t]1 = valor4 ,! anci5t ri%is discov]$ ^! laws ( s\nd alliance betwe5 nature & man4 ,because nature is an objectification ( ,,aum1 ! ,primal ,s\nd or ,vibratory ,^w1 man c obta9 control ov] all natural manife/ations ?r\gh ! use ( c]ta9 ,,mantras or *ants4 ,,fn#ae-g ,hi/orical docum5ts tell ( ! rem>kable p[]s possess$ by ,miyan ,tan ,s51 sixte5? c5tury c\rt musician = ,akb> ! ,great4 ,comm&$ by ! ,emp]or to s+ a night ,,raga :ile ! sun 0 ov]head1 ,tan ,s5 inton$ a ,,mantra :i* in/antly caus$ ! :ole palace prec9cts to become envelop$ 9 d>kness4 ,indian music divides ! octave into #bb ,,srutis or demi-semitones4 ,^! microtonal int]vals p]mit f9e %ades ( musical expression unatta9able by ! ,we/]n *romatic scale ( #ab semitones4 ,ea* "o ( ! sev5 basic notes ( ! octave is associat$ 9 ,h9du my?ology ) a color1 & ! natural cry ( a bird or bea/-,,d ) gre51 & ! peacock2 ,,re ) r$1 & ! skyl>k2 ,,mi ) gold51 & ! goat2 ,,fa ) yell[i% :ite1 & ! h]on2 ,,sol ) black1 & ! night+ale2 ,,la ) yell[1 & ! horse2 ,,si ) a comb9ation ( all colors1 & ! elephant4 ,?ree scales-major1 h>monic m9or1 melodic m9or-are ! only ones :i* ,occid5tal music employs1 b ,indian music outl9es #gb ,,?atas or scales4 ,! musician has a creative scope = endless improvisation ar\nd ! fix$ traditional melody or ,,raga2 he conc5trates on ! s5tim5t or def9itive mood ( ! /ructural !me & !n embroid]s x to ! limits ( 8 own orig9ality4 ,! ,h9du musician does n read set notes2 he clo!s anew at ea* play+ ! b>e skeleton ( ! ,,raga1 (t5 conf9+ himself to a s+le melodic sequ5ce1 /ress+ by repetition all its subtle microtonal & rhy?mic v>iations4 ,ba*1 among ,we/]n compos]s1 _h an und]/&+ ( ! *>m & p[] ( repetiti\s s\nd slightly diff]5tiat$ 9 a hundr$ complex ways4 ,anci5t ,sanskrit lit]ature describes #abj ,,talas or "t-measures4 ,! traditional f\nd] ( ,h9du music1 ,bh>ata1 is said to h isolat$ #cb k9ds ( ,,tala 9 ! song ( a l>k4 ,! orig9 ( ,,tala or rhy?m is root$ 9 human movem5ts-! d\ble "t ( walk+1 & ! triple "t ( respiration 9 sleep1 :5 inhalation is twice ! l5g? ( exhalation4 ,india has always recogniz$ ! human voice z ! mo/ p]fect in/rum5t ( s\nd4 ,h9du music !re=e l>gely conf9es itself to ! voice range ( ?ree octaves4 ,= ! same reason1 melody 7relation ( successive notes7 is /ress$1 r ?an h>mony 7relation ( simultane\s notes74 ,! deep] aim ( ! e>ly ri%i-musicians 0 to bl5d ! s+] ) ! ,cosmic ,song :i* c be he>d ?r\gh awak5+ ( man's occult sp9al c5t]s4 ,indian music is a subjective1 spiritual1 & individuali/ic art1 aim+ n at symphonic brilliance b at p]sonal h>mony ) ! ,ov]s\l4 ,! ,sanskrit ^w = musician is ,,bhagava?>1 8he :o s+s ! praises ( ,god40 ,! ,,sankirtans or musical ga!r+s are an effective =m ( yoga or spiritual discipl9e1 necessitat+ deep conc5tration1 int5se absorption 9 ! se$ ?\ght & s\nd4 ,because man himself is an expression ( ! ,creative ,^w1 s\nd has ! mo/ pot5t & imm$iate effect on him1 (f]+ a way to remembrance ( 8 div9e orig94 ,! ,,sankirtan issu+ f ,sri ,yuktesw>'s second-/ory sitt+ room on ! day ( ! fe/ival 0 inspir+ to ! cooks amid/ ! /eam+ pots4 ,my bro!r disciples & ,i joy\sly sang ! refra9s1 beat+ "t ) our h&s4 ,by sunset we _h s]v$ our hundr$s ( visitors ) ,,khi*uri 7rice & l5tils71 vegetable curry1 & rice pudd+4 ,we laid cotton blankets ov] ! c\rty>d2 soon ! assemblage 0 squatt+ "u ! />ry vault1 quietly att5tive to ! wisdom p\r+ f ,sri ,yuktesw>'s lips4 ,8 public spee*es emphasiz$ ! value ( ,,kriya ,,yoga1 & a life ( self-respect1 calmness1 det]m9ation1 simple diet1 & regul> ex]cise4 ,a gr\p ( v "y disciples !n *ant$ a few sacr$ hymns2 ! meet+ conclud$ ) ,,sankirtan4 ,f t5 o'clock until midnight1 ! a%ram resid5ts wa%$ pots & pans1 & cle>$ ! c\rty>d4 ,my guru call$ me to 8 side4 8,i am pleas$ ov] y\r *e]ful labors today & dur+ ! pa/ week ( prep>ations4 ,i want y ) me2 y may sleep 9 my b$ tonight40 ,?is 0 a privilege ,i _h nev] ?\ght w\ld fall to my lot4 ,we sat a:ile 9 a /ate ( int5se div9e tranquillity4 ,h>dly t5 m9utes aft] we _h gott5 into b$1 ,ma/] rose & began to dress4 8,:at is ! matt]1 sir80 ,i felt a t+e ( unreality 9 ! unexpect$ joy ( sleep+ beside my guru4 8,i ?9k t a few /ud5ts :o miss$ _! prop] tra9 connections w be "h soon4 ,let u h "s food ready40 8,guruji1 no "o w\ld come at "o o'clock 9 ! morn+60 8,/ay 9 b$2 y h be5 work+ v h>d4 ,b ,i am go+ to cook40 ,at ,sri ,yuktesw>'s resolute tone1 ,i jump$ up & foll[$ him to ! small daily-us$ kit*5 adjac5t to ! second-floor inn] balcony4 ,rice & ,,dhal 7 soon boil+4 ,my guru smil$ affectionately4 8,tonight y h conqu]$ fatigue & fe> ( h>d "w2 y %all nev] be bo!r$ by !m 9 ! future40 ,z he utt]$ ^! words ( lifelong bless+1 foot/eps s\nd$ 9 ! c\rty>d4 ,i ran d[n/airs & admitt$ a gr\p ( /ud5ts4 8,de> bro!r1 h[ reluctant we are to di/urb ,ma/] at ?is h\r60 ,"o man address$ me apologetically4 8,we made a mi/ake ab\t tra9 s*$ules1 b felt we c\ld n return home )\t a glimpse ( our guru40 8,he has be5 expect+ y & is ev5 n[ prep>+ y\r food40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s welcom+ voice rang out2 ,i l$ ! a/oni%$ visitors to ! kit*54 ,ma/] turn$ to me ) tw9kl+ eyes4 8,n[ t y h f9i%$ comp>+ notes1 no d\bt y are satisfi$ t our gue/s really did miss _! tra960 ,i foll[$ him to 8 b$room a half h\r lat]1 realiz+ fully t ,i 0 ab\t to sleep beside a godlike guru4 ,,fn#ae-a ,puri1 ab\t #caj miles s\? ( ,calcutta1 is a fam\s pilgrimage city = devotees ( ,kri%na2 8 wor%ip is celebrat$ !re ) two imm5se annual fe/ivals1 ,,snanayatra & ,,ra?ayatra4 ,,fn#ae-b ,! #aici discov]y ( a radio microscope reveal$ a new _w ( hi!rto unkn[n rays4 8,man himself z well z all k9ds ( suppos$ly in]t matt] con/antly emits ! rays t ?is in/rum5t #8sees1'0 report$ ! ,,associat$ ,,press4 8,^? :o believe 9 telepa?y1 second sight1 & clairvoyance1 h 9 ?is ann\ncem5t ! fir/ sci5tific pro( ( ! exi/5ce ( invisible rays :i* really travel f "o p]son to ano!r4 ,! radio device actually is a radio frequ5cy spectroscope4 ,x does ! same ?+ = cool1 nongl[+ matt] t ! spectroscope does :5 x discloses ! k9ds ( atoms t make ! />s4 4 4 4 ,! exi/5ce ( su* rays com+ f man & all liv+ ?+s has be5 suspect$ by sci5ti/s = _m ye>s4 ,today is ! fir/ exp]im5tal pro( ( _! exi/5ce4 ,! discov]y %[s t e atom & e molecule 9 nature is a cont9u\s radio broadca/+ /ation4 4 4 4 ,?us ev5 aft] dea? ! sub/ance t 0 a man cont9ues to s5d out its delicate rays4 ,! wave l5g?s ( ^! rays range f %ort] ?an any?+ n[ us$ 9 broadca/+ to ! longe/ k9d ( radio waves4 ,! jumble ( ^! rays is almo/ inconceivable4 ,!re are millions ( !m4 ,a s+le v l>ge molecule may give (f #a1jjj1jjj diff]5t wave l5g?s at ! same "t4 ,! long] wave l5g?s ( ?is sort travel ) ! ease & spe$ ( radio waves4 4 4 4 ,!re is "o amaz+ diff]5ce betwe5 ! new radio rays & famili> rays l light4 ,?is is ! prolong$ "t1 am\nt+ to ?\s&s ( ye>s1 :i* ^! radio waves w keep on emitt+ f undi/urb$ matt]40 ,,fn#ae-c ,"o hesitates to use 8intuition02 ,hitl] has almo/ ru9$ ! ^w along ) m ambiti\s deva/ations4 ,! ,lat9 root mean+ ( ,,intuition is 8inn] protection40 ,! ,sanskrit ^w ,,agama means intuitional k born ( direct s\l-p]ception2 h5ce c]ta9 anci5t treatises by ! ri%is 7 call$ ,,agamas4 ,,fn#ae-d ,,sat is lit]ally 8be+10 h5ce 8ess5ce2 reality40 ,,sanga is 8association40 ,sri ,yuktesw> call$ 8 h]mitage organization ,,sat-,,sanga1 8fell[%ip ) tru?40 ,,fn#ae-e 8,if !re=e ?9e eye be s+le1 ?y :ole body %all be full ( light40-,,mat!w #f3bb4 ,dur+ deep m$itation1 ! s+le or spiritual eye becomes visible )9 ! c5tral "p ( ! =ehead4 ,?is omnisci5t eye is v>i\sly ref]r$ to 9 scriptures z ! ?ird eye1 ! /> ( ! ,ea/1 ! inn] eye1 ! dove desc5d+ f heav51 ! eye ( ,%iva1 ! eye ( intuition1 etc4 ,,fn#ae-f 8,he t plant$ ! e>1 %all he n he>8 he t =m$ ! eye1 %all he n see8 4 4 4 he t tea*e? man k1 %all he n "k80-,,psalm #id3i-aj4 ,,fn#ae-g ,folklore ( all peoples conta9s ref]5ces to incantations ) p[] ov] nature4 ,! ,am]ican ,indians are well-kn[n to h develop$ s\nd rituals = ra9 & w9d4 ,tan ,s51 ! great ,h9du musician1 0 able to qu5* fire by ! p[] ( 8 song4 ,*>les ,kellogg1 ! ,cali=nia naturali/1 gave a demon/ration ( ! effect ( tonal vibration on fire 9 #aibf be=e a gr\p ( ,new ,york firem54 8,pass+ a b[1 l an enl>g$ viol9 b[1 swiftly across an alum9um tun+ =k1 he produc$ a scree* l int5se radio /atic4 ,in/antly ! yell[ gas flame1 two feet high1 leap+ inside a holl[ glass tube1 subsid$ to a height ( six in*es & became a sputt]+ blue fl>e4 ,ano!r attempt ) ! b[1 & ano!r scree* ( vibration1 ext+ui%$ x40 ,,*apt]3 #af ,,outwitt+ ,,! ,,/>s 8,mukunda1 :y don't y get an a/rological armlet80 8,%\ld ,i1 ,ma/]8 ,i don't believe 9 a/rology40 8,x is nev] a "q ( ,,belief2 ! only sci5tific attitude "o c take on any subject is :e!r x is ,,true4 ,! law ( gravitation work$ z effici5tly be=e ,newton z aft] him4 ,! cosmos w\ld be fairly *aotic if its laws c\ld n op]ate )\t ! sanction ( human belief4 8,*>latans h br\ght ! /ell> sci5ce to its pres5t /ate ( disrepute4 ,a/rology is too va/1 bo? ma!matically ,,fn#af-a & philosophically1 to be rightly grasp$ except by m5 ( pr(\nd und]/&+4 ,if ignoramuses misread ! heav5s1 & see !re a scrawl in/ead ( a script1 t is to be expect$ 9 ?is imp]fect _w4 ,"o %\ld n dismiss ! wisdom ) ! #8wise4' 8,all p>ts ( creation are l9k$ toge!r & int]*ange _! influ5ces4 ,! balanc$ rhy?m ( ! univ]se is root$ 9 reciprocity10 my guru cont9u$4 8,man1 9 8 human aspect1 has to combat two sets ( =ces-fir/1 ! tumults )9 8 be+1 caus$ by ! admixture ( e>?1 wat]1 fire1 air1 & e!real elem5ts2 second1 ! out] dis9tegrat+ p[]s ( nature4 ,s long z man /ruggles ) 8 mortality1 he is affect$ by ! myriad mutations ( heav5 & e>?4 8,a/rology is ! /udy ( man's response to planet>y /imuli4 ,! />s h no consci\s b5evol5ce or animosity2 !y m]ely s5d =? positive & negative radiations4 ,( !mselves1 ^! d n help or h>m humanity1 b (f] a lawful *annel = ! outw>d op]ation ( cause-effect equilibriums :i* ea* man has set into motion 9 ! pa/4 8,a *ild is born on t day & at t h\r :5 ! cele/ial rays are 9 ma!matical h>mony ) 8 individual k>ma4 ,8 horoscope is a *all5g+ portrait1 reveal+ 8 unalt]able pa/ & its probable future results4 ,b ! natal *>t c be rightly int]pret$ only by m5 ( intuitive wisdom3 ^! are few4 8,! message boldly blazon$ across ! heav5s at ! mom5t ( bir? is n meant to emphasize fate-! result ( pa/ good & evil-b to ar\se man's w to escape f 8 univ]sal ?ralldom4 ,:at he has done1 he c undo4 ,none o!r ?an himself 0 ! in/igator ( ! causes ( :atev] effects are n[ preval5t 9 8 life4 ,he c ov]come any limitation1 because he creat$ x by 8 own actions 9 ! fir/ place1 & because he has spiritual res\rces :i* are n subject to planet>y pressure4 8,sup]/iti\s awe ( a/rology makes "o an automaton1 slavi%ly dep5d5t on me*anical guidance4 ,! wise man defeats 8 planets--:i* is to say1 8 pa/-by transf]r+ 8 allegiance f ! creation to ! ,creator4 ,! m he realizes 8 unity ) ,_s1 ! less he c be dom9at$ by matt]4 ,! s\l is ev]-free2 x is dea?less because bir?less4 ,x _c be regim5t$ by />s4 8,man ,,is a s\l1 & ,,has a body4 ,:5 he prop]ly places 8 s5se ( id5tity1 he leaves beh9d all compulsive patt]ns4 ,s long z he rema9s confus$ 9 8 ord9>y /ate ( spiritual amnesia1 he w "k ! subtle fett]s ( environm5tal law4 8,god is h>mony2 ! devotee :o attunes himself w nev] p]=m any action amiss4 ,8 activities w be correctly & naturally tim$ to accord ) a/rological law4 ,aft] deep pray] & m$itation he is 9 t\* ) 8 div9e consci\sness2 !re is no great] p[] ?an t inw>d protection40 8,!n1 de> ,ma/]1 :y d y want me to we> an a/rological bangle80 ,i v5tur$ ?is "q aft] a long sil5ce1 dur+ :i* ,i _h tri$ to assimilate ,sri ,yuktesw>'s noble exposition4 8,x is only :5 a travel] has rea*$ 8 goal t he is ju/ifi$ 9 disc>d+ 8 maps4 ,dur+ ! j\rney1 he takes advantage ( any conv5i5t %ort cut4 ,! anci5t ri%is discov]$ _m ways to curtail ! p]iod ( man's exile 9 delusion4 ,!re are c]ta9 me*anical features 9 ! law ( k>ma :i* c be skillfully adju/$ by ! f+]s ( wisdom4 8,all human ills arise f "s transgression ( univ]sal law4 ,! scriptures po9t out t man mu/ satisfy ! laws ( nature1 :ile n discr$it+ ! div9e omnipot5ce4 ,he %\ld say3 #8,"l1 ,i tru/ 9 ,!e1 & "k ,?\ can/ help me1 b ,i too w d my be/ to undo any wrong ,i h done4' ,by a numb] ( means-by pray]1 by w p[]1 by yoga m$itation1 by consultation ) sa9ts1 by use ( a/rological bangles-! adv]se effects ( pa/ wrongs c be m9imiz$ or nullifi$4 8,j z a h\se c be fitt$ ) a copp] rod to absorb ! %ock ( lightn+1 s ! bodily temple c be b5efit$ by v>i\s protective measures4 ,ages ago our yogis discov]$ t pure metals emit an a/ral light :i* is p[]fully c\nt]active to negative pulls ( ! planets4 ,subtle electrical & magnetic radiations are con/antly circulat+ 9 ! univ]se2 :5 a man's body is be+ aid$1 he does n "k x2 :5 x is be+ dis9tegrat$1 he is /ill 9 ignorance4 ,c he d any?+ ab\t x8 8,?is problem receiv$ att5tion f our ri%is2 !y f\nd helpful n only a comb9ation ( metals1 b also ( plants &-mo/ effective ( all-faultless jewels ( n less ?an two c>ats4 ,! prev5tive uses ( a/rology h seldom be5 s]i\sly /udi$ outside ( ,india4 ,"o little-kn[n fact is t ! prop] jewels1 metals1 or plant prep>ations are valueless unless ! requir$ weight is secur$1 & unless ^! rem$ial ag5ts are worn next to ! sk940 8,sir1 ( c\rse ,i %all take y\r advice & get a bangle4 ,i am intrigu$ at ! ?\ght ( outwitt+ a planet60 8,= g5]al purposes ,i c\nsel ! use ( an armlet made ( gold1 silv]1 & copp]4 ,b = a specific purpose ,i want y to get "o ( silv] & lead40 ,sri ,yuktesw> add$ c>eful directions4 8,guruji1 :at #8specific purpose' d y mean80 8,! />s are ab\t to take an unfri5dly int]e/ 9 y1 ,mukunda4 ,fe> n2 y %all be protect$4 ,9 ab\t a mon? y\r liv] w cause y mu* tr\ble4 ,! illness is s*$ul$ to la/ = six mon?s1 b y\r use ( an a/rological armlet w %ort5 ! p]iod to tw5ty-f\r days40 ,i s\ght out a jewel] ! next day1 & 0 soon we>+ ! bangle4 ,my heal? 0 excell5t2 ,ma/]'s pr$iction slipp$ f my m9d4 ,he left ,s]ampore to visit ,b5>es4 ,?irty days aft] our conv]sation1 ,i felt a sudd5 pa9 9 ! region ( my liv]4 ,! foll[+ weeks 7 a nightm>e ( excruciat+ pa94 ,reluctant to di/urb my guru1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld bravely endure my trial alone4 ,b tw5ty-?ree days ( torture weak5$ my resolution2 ,i entra9$ = ,b5>es4 ,!re ,sri ,yuktesw> greet$ me ) unusual w>m?1 b gave me no opportunity to tell him my woes 9 private4 ,_m devotees visit$ ,ma/] t day1 j = a ,,d>%an4 ,,fn#af-b ,ill & neglect$1 ,i sat 9 a corn]4 ,x 0 n until aft] ! ev5+ meal t all gue/s _h dep>t$4 ,my guru summon$ me to ! octagonal balcony ( ! h\se4 8,y mu/ h come ab\t y\r liv] disord]40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s gaze 0 av]t$2 he walk$ to & fro1 occasionally int]cept+ ! moonlight4 8,let me see2 y h be5 ail+ = tw5ty-f\r days1 hav5't y80 8,yes1 sir40 8,please d ! /oma* ex]cise ,i h taught y40 8,if y knew ! ext5t ( my suff]+1 ,ma/]1 y w\ld n ask me to ex]cise40 ,nev]!less ,i made a feeble attempt to obey him4 8,y say y h pa92 ,i say y h none4 ,h[ c su* contradictions exi/80 ,my guru look$ at me inquir+ly4 ,i 0 daz$ & !n ov]come ) joyful relief4 ,no long] c\ld ,i feel ! cont9u\s torm5t t _h kept me ne>ly sleepless = weeks2 at ,sri ,yuktesw>'s words ! agony vani%$ z ?\gh x _h nev] be54 ,i />t$ to kneel at 8 feet 9 gratitude1 b he quickly prev5t$ me4 8,don't be *ildi%4 ,get up & enjoy ! beauty ( ! moon ov] ! ,ganges40 ,b ,ma/]'s eyes 7 tw9kl+ happily z ,i /ood 9 sil5ce beside him4 ,i und]/ood by 8 attitude t he want$ me to feel t n he1 b ,god1 _h be5 ! ,heal]4 ,i we> ev5 n[ ! heavy silv] & lead bangle1 a mem5to ( t day-long-pa/1 ev]-*]i%$-:5 ,i f\nd anew t ,i 0 liv+ ) a p]sonage inde$ sup]human4 ,on lat] occasions1 :5 ,i br\ght my fri5ds to ,sri ,yuktesw> = heal+1 he inv>iably recomm5d$ jewels or ! bangle1 extoll+ _! use z an act ( a/rological wisdom4 ,i _h be5 prejudic$ aga9/ a/rology f my *ildhood1 p>tly because ,i obs]v$ t _m p are sequaci\sly atta*$ to x1 & p>tly because ( a pr$iction made by our family a/rolog]3 8,y w m>ry ?ree times1 be+ twice a wid[]40 ,i brood$ ov] ! matt]1 feel+ l a goat await+ sacrifice be=e ! temple ( triple matrimony4 8,y may z well be resign$ to y\r fate10 my bro!r ,ananta _h rem>k$4 8,y\r writt5 horoscope has correctly /at$ t y w\ld fly f home t[>d ! ,himalayas dur+ y\r e>ly ye>s1 b w\ld be =cibly return$4 ,! =eca/ ( y\r m>riages is also b\nd to be true40 ,a cle> intuition came to me "o night t ! prophecy 0 :olly false4 ,i set fire to ! horoscope scroll1 plac+ ! a%es 9 a pap] bag on :i* ,i wrote3 8,se$s ( pa/ k>ma _c g]m9ate if !y are roa/$ 9 ! div9e fires ( wisdom40 ,i put ! bag 9 a conspicu\s spot2 ,ananta imm$iately read my defiant comm5t4 8,y _c de/roy tru? z easily z y h burnt ?is pap] scroll40 ,my bro!r laugh$ scornfully4 ,x is a fact t on ?ree occasions be=e ,i rea*$ manhood1 my family tri$ to arrange my betro?al4 ,ea* "t ,i refus$ to fall 9 ) ! plans1 ,,fn#af-c kn[+ t my love = ,god 0 m ov]:elm+ ?an any a/rological p]suasion f ! pa/4 8,! deep] ! self-realization ( a man1 ! m he influ5ces ! :ole univ]se by 8 subtle spiritual vibrations1 & ! less he himself is affect$ by ! ph5om5al flux40 ,^! words ( ,ma/]'s (t5 return$ inspir+ly to my m9d4 ,occasionally ,i told a/rolog]s to select my wor/ p]iods1 accord+ to planet>y indications1 & ,i w\ld /ill accompli% :atev] task ,i set myself4 ,x is true t my success at su* times has be5 accompani$ by extraord9>y difficulties4 ,b my conviction has always be5 ju/ifi$3 fai? 9 ! div9e protection1 & ! "r use ( man's ,god-giv5 w1 are =ces =midable beyond any ! 8inv]t$ b[l0 c mu/]4 ,! />ry inscription at "o's bir?1 ,i came to und]/&1 is n t man is a puppet ( 8 pa/4 ,its message is r a prod to pride2 ! v heav5s seek to ar\se man's det]m9ation to be free f e limitation4 ,god creat$ ea* man z a s\l1 d[]$ ) individuality1 h5ce ess5tial to ! univ]sal /ructure1 :e!r 9 ! tempor>y role ( pill> or p>asite4 ,8 fre$om is f9al & imm$iate1 if he s wills2 x dep5ds n on out] b inn] victories4 ,sri ,yuktesw> discov]$ ! ma!matical application ( a #bd1jjj-ye> equ9octial cycle to our pres5t age4 ,,fn#af-d ,! cycle is divid$ into an ,asc5d+ ,arc & a ,desc5d+ ,arc1 ea* ( #ab1jjj ye>s4 ,)9 ea* ,arc fall f\r ,,yugas or ,ages1 call$ ,,kali1 ,,dwap>a1 ,,treta1 & ,,satya1 correspond+ to ! ,greek ideas ( ,iron1 ,bronze1 ,silv]1 & ,gold5 ,ages4 ,my guru det]m9$ by v>i\s calculations t ! la/ ,,kali ,,yuga or ,iron ,age1 ( ! ,asc5d+ ,arc1 />t$ ab\t ,a4,d4 #ejj4 ,! ,iron ,age1 #abjj ye>s 9 duration1 is a span ( mat]ialism2 x end$ ab\t ,a4,d4 #agjj4 ,t ye> u%]$ 9 ,,dwap>a ,,yuga1 a #bdjj-ye> p]iod ( electrical & atomic-en]gy developm5ts1 ! age ( telegraph1 radio1 airplanes1 & o!r space-annihilators4 ,! #cfjj-ye> p]iod ( ,,treta ,,yuga w />t 9 ,a4,d4 #dajj2 its age w be m>k$ by common k ( telepa?ic communications & o!r "t-annihilators4 ,dur+ ! #dhjj ye>s ( ,,satya ,,yuga1 f9al age 9 an asc5d+ arc1 ! intellig5ce ( a man w be completely develop$2 he w "w 9 h>mony ) ! div9e plan4 ,a desc5d+ arc ( #ab1jjj ye>s1 />t+ ) a desc5d+ ,gold5 ,age ( #dhjj ye>s1 !n beg9s ,,fn#af-e = ! _w2 man gradually s9ks into ignorance4 ,^! cycles are ! et]nal r\nds ( ,,maya1 ! contra/s & relativities ( ! ph5om5al univ]se4 ,,fn#af-f ,man1 "o by "o1 escapes f creation's prison ( duality z he awak5s to consci\sness ( 8 insev]able div9e unity ) ! ,creator4 ,ma/] enl>g$ my und]/&+ n only ( a/rology b ( ! _w's scriptures4 ,plac+ ! holy texts on ! spotless table ( 8 m9d1 he 0 able to dissect !m ) ! scalpel ( intuitive reason+1 & to sep>ate errors & int]polations ( s*ol>s f ! tru?s z orig9ally express$ by ! prophets4 8,fix "o's vision on ! end ( ! nose40 ,?is inaccurate int]pretation ( a ,,bhagavad ,,gita /anza1 ,,fn#af-g widely accept$ by ,ea/]n pundits & ,we/]n translators1 us$ to ar\se ,ma/]'s droll criticism4 8,! pa? ( a yogi is s+ul> en\gh z x is10 he rem>k$4 8,:y c\nsel him t he mu/ also make himself cross-ey$8 ,! true mean+ ( ,,nasikagram is #8orig9 ( ! nose1' n #8end ( ! nose4' ,! nose beg9s at ! po9t betwe5 ! two eyebr[s1 ! seat ( spiritual vision40 ,,fn#af-h ,because ( "o ,,sankhya ,,fn#af-i aphorism1 8,,isw>-,,a%idha10-8,a ,"l ( ,creation _c be d$uc$0 or 8,god is n prov$10 ,,fn#af-aj--_m s*ol>s call ! :ole philosophy a!i/ical4 8,! v]se is n nihili/ic10 ,sri ,yuktesw> expla9$4 8,x m]ely signifies t to ! un5light5$ man1 dep5d5t on 8 s5ses = all f9al judgm5ts1 pro( ( ,god mu/ rema9 unkn[n & !re=e non-exi/5t4 ,true ,,sankhya foll[]s1 ) un%akable insight born ( m$itation1 und]/& t ! ,"l is bo? exi/5t & kn[able40 ,ma/] exp\nd$ ! ,*ri/ian ,bible ) a beautiful cl>ity4 ,x 0 f my ,h9du guru1 unkn[n to ! roll call ( ,*ri/ian memb]%ip1 t ,i le>n$ to p]ceive ! dea?less ess5ce ( ! ,bible1 & to und]/& ! tru? 9 ,*ri/'s ass]tion-surely ! mo/ ?rill+ly intransig5t ev] utt]$3 8,heav5 & e>? %all pass away1 b my words %all n pass away40 ,,fn#af-aa ,! great ma/]s ( ,india mold _! lives by ! same godly ideals :i* animat$ ,jesus2 ^! m5 are 8 proclaim$ k93 8,:osoev] %all d ! w ( my ,fa!r :i* is 9 heav51 ! same is my bro!r1 & si/]1 & "m40 ,,fn#af-ab 8,if ye cont9ue 9 my ^w10 ,*ri/ po9t$ out1 8!n are ye my disciples inde$2 & ye %all "k ! tru?1 & ! tru? %all make y free40 ,,fn#af-ac ,freem5 all1 lords ( !mselves1 ! ,yogi-,*ri/s ( ,india are "p ( ! immortal frat]nity3 ^? :o h atta9$ a lib]at+ k ( ! ,"o ,fa!r4 8,! ,adam & ,eve /ory is incompreh5sible to me60 ,i obs]v$ ) consid]able heat "o day 9 my e>ly /ruggles ) ! allegory4 8,:y did ,god puni% n only ! guilty pair1 b also ! innoc5t unborn g5]ations80 ,ma/] 0 m amus$ by my vehem5ce ?an my ignorance4 8,,g5esis is deeply symbolic1 & _c be grasp$ by a lit]al int]pretation10 he expla9$4 8,its #8tree ( life' is ! human body4 ,! sp9al cord is l an upturn$ tree1 ) man's hair z its roots1 & aff]5t & eff]5t n]ves z bran*es4 ,! tree ( ! n]v\s sy/em be>s _m enjoyable fruits1 or s5sations ( sight1 s\nd1 smell1 ta/e1 & t\*4 ,9 ^!1 man may rightfully indulge2 b he 0 =bidd5 ! exp]i5ce ( sex1 ! #8apple' at ! c5t] ( ! bodily g>d54 ,,fn#af-ad 8,! #8s]p5t' repres5ts ! coil$-up sp9al en]gy :i* /imulates ! sex n]ves4 #8,adam' is reason1 & #8,eve' is feel+4 ,:5 ! emotion or ,eve-consci\sness 9 any human be+ is ov]p[]$ by ! sex impulse1 8 reason or ,adam also succumbs4 ,,fn#af-ae 8,god creat$ ! human species by mat]ializ+ ! bodies ( man & woman ?r\gh ! =ce ( ,8 w2 ,he end[$ ! new species ) ! p[] to create *ildr5 9 a simil> #8immaculate' or div9e mann]4 ,,fn#af-af ,because ,8 manife/ation 9 ! individualiz$ s\l _h hi!rto be5 limit$ to animals1 in/9ct-b\nd & lack+ ! pot5tialities ( full reason1 ,god made ! fir/ human bodies1 symbolically call$ ,adam & ,eve4 ,to ^!1 = advantage\s upw>d evolution1 ,he transf]r$ ! s\ls or div9e ess5ce ( two animals4 ,,fn#af-ag ,9 ,adam or man1 reason pr$om9at$2 9 ,eve or woman1 feel+ 0 asc5dant4 ,?us 0 express$ ! duality or pol>ity :i* und]lies ! ph5om5al worlds4 ,reason & feel+ rema9 9 a heav5 ( coop]ative joy s long z ! human m9d is n trick$ by ! s]p5t9e en]gy ( animal prop5sities4 8,! human body 0 !re=e n solely a result ( evolution f bea/s1 b 0 produc$ by an act ( special creation by ,god4 ,! animal =ms 7 too crude to express full div9ity2 ! human be+ 0 uniquely giv5 a trem5d\s m5tal capacity-! #8?\s&-petal$ lotus' ( ! bra9-z well z acutely awak5$ occult c5t]s 9 ! sp9e4 8,god1 or ! ,div9e ,consci\sness pres5t )9 ! fir/ creat$ pair1 c\nsel$ !m to enjoy all human s5sibilities1 b n to put _! conc5tration on t\* s5sations4 ,,fn#af-ah ,^! 7 bann$ 9 ord] to avoid ! developm5t ( ! sex organs1 :i* w\ld enme% humanity 9 ! inf]ior animal me?od ( propagation4 ,! w>n+ n to revive subconsci\sly-pres5t be/ial memories 0 n he$$4 ,resum+ ! way ( brute procreation1 ,adam & ,eve fell f ! /ate ( heav5ly joy natural to ! orig9al p]fect man4 8,k ( #8good & evil' ref]s to ! cosmic duali/ic compulsion4 ,fall+ "u ! sway ( ,,maya ?r\gh misuse ( 8 feel+ & reason1 or ,eve-& ,adam-consci\sness1 man rel9qui%es 8 "r to ent] ! heav5ly g>d5 ( div9e self-suffici5cy4 ,,fn#af-ai ,! p]sonal responsibility ( e human be+ is to re/ore 8 #8p>5ts' or dual nature to a unifi$ h>mony or ,ed540 ,z ,sri ,yuktesw> end$ 8 disc\rse1 ,i glanc$ ) new respect at ! pages ( ,,g5esis4 8,de> ,ma/]10 ,i said1 8= ! fir/ "t ,i feel a prop] filial obligation t[>d ,adam & ,eve60 ,,fn#af-a ,f a/ronomical ref]5ces 9 anci5t ,h9du scriptures1 s*ol>s h be5 able to correctly asc]ta9 ! dates ( ! au?ors4 ,! sci5tific k ( ! ri%is 0 v great2 9 ! ,,kau%itaki ,,brahmana we f9d precise a/ronomical passages :i* %[ t 9 #cajj ,b4,c4 ! ,h9dus 7 f> advanc$ 9 a/ronomy1 :i* _h a practical value 9 det]m9+ ! auspici\s times = a/rological c]emonies4 ,9 an article 9 ,,ea/-,,we/1 ,febru>y1 #aicd1 ! foll[+ summ>y is giv5 ( ! ,,jyoti% or body ( ,v$ic a/ronomical treatises3 8,x conta9s ! sci5tific lore :i* kept ,india at ! =efront ( all anci5t nations & made h] ! mecca ( seek]s aft] k4 ,! v anci5t ,,brahmagupta1 "o ( ! ,,jyoti% works1 is an a/ronomical treatise deal+ ) su* matt]s z ! helioc5tric motion ( ! planet>y bodies 9 our sol> sy/em1 ! obliquity ( ! ecliptic1 ! e>?'s sph]ical =m1 ! reflect$ light ( ! moon1 ! e>?'s daily axial revolution1 ! pres5ce ( fix$ />s 9 ! ,milky ,way1 ! law ( gravitation1 & o!r sci5tific facts :i* did n dawn 9 ! ,we/]n _w until ! "t ( ,cop]nicus & ,newton40 ,x is n[ well-kn[n t ! s-call$ 8,arabic num]als10 )\t ^: symbols advanc$ ma!matics is difficult1 came to ,europe 9 ! #i? c5tury1 via ! ,arabs1 f ,india1 :]e t sy/em ( notation _h be5 anci5tly =mulat$4 ,fur!r light on ,india's va/ sci5tific h]itage w be f\nd 9 ,dr4 ,p4 ,c4 ,ray's ,,hi/ory ,,( ,,h9du ,,*emi/ry1 & 9 ,dr4 ,b4 ,n4 ,seal's ,,positive ,,sci5ces ,,( ,,! ,,anci5t ,,h9dus4 ,,fn#af-b ,! bless+ :i* fl[s f ! m]e sight ( a sa9t4 ,,fn#af-c ,"o ( ! girls :om my family select$ z a possible bride = me1 aft]w>ds m>ri$ my c\s91 ,prabhas ,*&ra ,ghose4 ,,fn#af-d ,a s]ies ( ?irte5 articles on ! hi/orical v]ification ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s ,,yuga !ory appe>$ 9 ! magaz9e ,,ea/-,,we/ 7,los ,angeles7 f ,septemb]1 #aicb1 to ,septemb]1 #aicc4 ,,fn#af-e ,9 ! ye> ,a4,d4 #ab1ejj4 ,,fn#af-f ,! ,h9du scriptures place ! pres5t _w-age z occurr+ )9 ! ,,kali ,,yuga ( a mu* long] univ]sal cycle ?an ! simple #bd1jjj-ye> equ9octial cycle ) :i* ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 conc]n$4 ,! univ]sal cycle ( ! scriptures is #d1cjj1efj1jjj ye>s 9 ext5t1 & measures out a ,day ( ,creation or ! l5g? ( life assign$ to our planet>y sy/em 9 its pres5t =m4 ,?is va/ figure giv5 by ! ri%is is bas$ on a relation%ip betwe5 ! l5g? ( ! sol> ye> & a multiple ( ,pi 7#c4adaf1 ! ratio ( ! circumf]5ce to ! diamet] ( a circle74 ,! life span = a :ole univ]se1 accord+ to ! anci5t se]s1 is #cad1aei1jjj1jjj1jjj sol> ye>s1 or 8,"o ,age ( ,brahma40 ,sci5ti/s e/imate ! pres5t age ( ! e>? to be ab\t two billion ye>s1 bas+ _! conclusions on a /udy ( lead pockets left z a result ( radioactivity 9 rocks4 ,! ,h9du scriptures decl>e t an e>? su* z ours is dissolv$ = "o ( two reasons3 ! inhabitants z a :ole become ei!r completely good or completely evil4 ,! _w-m9d ?us g5]ates a p[] :i* releases ! captive atoms held toge!r z an e>?4 ,dire pron\ncem5ts are occasionally publi%$ reg>d+ an imm95t 8end ( ! _w40 ,! late/ pr$iction ( doom 0 giv5 by ,rev4 ,*as4 ,g4 ,long ( ,pasad5a1 :o publicly set ! 8,day ( ,judgm5t0 = ,sept4 #ba1 #aide4 ,,unit$ ,,press report]s ask$ my op9ion2 ,i expla9$ t _w cycles foll[ an ord]ly progression accord+ to a div9e plan4 ,no e>?ly dissolution is 9 sight2 two billion ye>s ( asc5d+ & desc5d+ equ9octial cycles are yet 9 /ore = our planet 9 its pres5t =m4 ,! figures giv5 by ! ri%is = ! v>i\s _w ages des]ve c>eful /udy 9 ! ,we/2 ! magaz9e ,,"t 7,dec4 #ag1 #aide1 p4 #f7 call$ !m 8reassur+ /ati/ics40 ,,fn#af-g *apt] ,,vi3#ac4 ,,fn#af-h 8,! light ( ! body is ! eye3 !re=e :5 ?9e eye is s+le1 ?y :ole body also is full ( light2 b :5 ?9e eye is evil1 ?y body also is full ( d>kness4 ,take he$ !re=e t ! light :i* is 9 !e be n d>kness40-,,luke #aa3cd-ce4 ,,fn#af-i ,"o ( ! six sy/ems ( ,h9du philosophy4 ,,sankhya tea*es f9al emancipation ?r\gh k ( tw5ty-five pr9ciples1 />t+ ) ,,prakriti or nature & end+ ) ,,puru%a or s\l4 ,,fn#af-aj ,,sankhya ,,aphorisms1 ,i3#ib4 ,,fn#af-aa ,,mat!w #bd3ce4 ,,fn#af-ab ,,mat!w #ab3ej4 ,,fn#af-ac ,,john #h3ca-cb4 ,/4 ,john te/ifi$3 8,b z _m z receiv$ him1 to !m gave he p[] to become ! sons ( ,god1 ev5 to !m t believe on 8 "n 7ev5 to !m :o are e/abli%$ 9 ! ,*ri/ ,consci\sness740-,,john #a3ab4 ,,fn#af-ad 8,we may eat ( ! fruit ( ! trees ( ! g>d53 b ( ! fruit ( ! tree :i* is 9 ! mid/ ( ! g>d51 ,god ha? said1 ,ye %all n eat ( x1 nei!r %all ye t\* x1 le/ ye die40-,,g5esis #c3b-c4 ,,fn#af-ae 8,! woman :om ?\ gave/ to be ) me1 %e gave me ( ! tree1 & ,i did eat4 ,! woman said1 ,! s]p5t beguil$ me1 & ,i did eat40-,,g54 #c3ab-ac4 ,,fn#af-af 8,s ,god creat$ man 9 8 own image1 9 ! image ( ,god creat$ he him2 male & female creat$ he !m4 ,& ,god bless$ !m1 & ,god said unto !m1 ,be fruitful & multiply1 & repl5i% ! e>?1 & subdue x40-,,g54 #a3bg-bh4 ,,fn#af-ag 8,& ! ,"l ,god =m$ man ( ! du/ ( ! gr\nd1 & brea!d into 8 no/rils ! brea? ( life2 & man became a liv+ s\l40-,,g54 #b3g4 ,,fn#af-ah 8,n[ ! s]p5t 7sex =ce7 0 m subtil ?an any bea/ ( ! field0 7any o!r s5se ( ! body74-,,g54 #c3a4 ,,fn#af-ai 8,& ! ,"l ,god plant$ a g>d5 ea/w>d 9 ,ed52 & !re he put ! man :om he _h =m$40-,,g54 #b3h4 8,!re=e ! ,"l ,god s5t him =? f ! g>d5 ( ,ed51 to till ! gr\nd f :5ce he 0 tak540-,,g54 #c3bc4 ,! div9e man fir/ made by ,god _h 8 consci\sness c5t]$ 9 ! omnipot5t s+le eye 9 ! =ehead 7ea/w>d74 ,! all-creative p[]s ( 8 w1 focus$ at t spot1 7 lo/ to man :5 he began to 8till ! gr\nd0 ( 8 physical nature4 ,,*apt]3 #ag ,,sasi ,,& ,,! ,,?ree ,,sapphires 8,because y & my son ?9k s highly ( ,swami ,sri ,yuktesw>1 ,i w take a look at him40 ,! tone ( voice us$ by ,dr4 ,n>ayan ,*und] ,roy impli$ t he 0 humor+ ! :im ( half-wits4 ,i conceal$ my indignation1 9 ! be/ traditions ( ! proselyt]4 ,my companion1 a vet]9>y surgeon1 0 a confirm$ agno/ic4 ,8 "y son ,santo% _h implor$ me to take an int]e/ 9 8 fa!r4 ,s f> my invaluable aid _h be5 a bit on ! invisible side4 ,dr4 ,roy accompani$ me ! foll[+ day to ! ,s]ampore h]mitage4 ,aft] ,ma/] _h grant$ him a brief int]view1 m>k$ = ! mo/ "p by /oic sil5ce on bo? sides1 ! visitor brusquely dep>t$4 8,:y br+ a dead man to ! a%ram80 ,sri ,yuktesw> look$ at me inquir+ly z soon z ! door _h clos$ on ! ,calcutta skeptic4 8,sir6 ,! doctor is v mu* alive60 8,b 9 a %ort "t he w be dead40 ,i 0 %ock$4 8,sir1 ?is w be a t]rible bl[ to 8 son4 ,santo% yet hopes = "t to *ange 8 fa!r's mat]iali/ic views4 ,i besee* y1 ,ma/]1 to help ! man40 8,v well2 = y\r sake40 ,my guru's face 0 impassive4 8,! pr\d horse doctor is f> gone 9 diabetes1 al?\gh he does n "k x4 ,9 fifte5 days he w take to 8 b$4 ,! physicians w give him up = lo/2 8 natural "t to leave ?is e>? is six weeks f today4 ,due to y\r int]cession1 h[ev]1 on t date he w recov]4 ,b !re is "o condition4 ,y mu/ get him to we> an a/rological bangle2 he w d\btless object z viol5tly z "o ( 8 horses be=e an op]ation60 ,ma/] *uckl$4 ,aft] a sil5ce1 dur+ :i* ,i wond]$ h[ ,santo% & ,i c\ld be/ employ ! arts ( cajol]y on ! recalcitrant doctor1 ,sri ,yuktesw> made fur!r disclosures4 8,z soon z ! man gets well1 advise him n to eat meat4 ,he w n he$ ?is c\nsel1 h[ev]1 & 9 six mon?s1 j z he is feel+ at 8 be/1 he w drop dead4 ,ev5 t six-mon? ext5sion ( life is grant$ him only because ( y\r plea40 ,! foll[+ day ,i sugge/$ to ,santo% t he ord] an armlet at ! jewel]'s4 ,x 0 ready 9 a week1 b ,dr4 ,roy refus$ to put x on4 8,i am 9 ! be/ ( heal?4 ,y w nev] impress me ) ^! a/rological sup]/itions40 ,! doctor glanc$ at me bellig]5tly4 ,i recall$ ) amusem5t t ,ma/] _h ju/ifiably comp>$ ! man to a balky horse4 ,ano!r sev5 days pass$2 ! doctor1 sudd5ly ill1 meekly cons5t$ to we> ! bangle4 ,two weeks lat] ! physician 9 att5dance told me t 8 pati5t's case 0 hopeless4 ,he suppli$ h>r[+ details ( ! ravages inflict$ by diabetes4 ,i %ook my head4 8,my guru has said t1 aft] a sickness la/+ "o mon?1 ,dr4 ,roy w be well40 ,! physician />$ at me incr$ul\sly4 ,b he s\ght me out a =tnight lat]1 ) an apologetic air4 8,dr4 ,roy has made a complete recov]y60 he exclaim$4 8,x is ! mo/ amaz+ case 9 my exp]i5ce4 ,nev] be=e h ,i se5 a dy+ man %[ su* an inexplicable comeback4 ,y\r guru mu/ inde$ be a heal+ prophet60 ,aft] "o int]view ) ,dr4 ,roy1 dur+ :i* ,i repeat$ ,sri ,yuktesw>'s advice ab\t a meatless diet1 ,i did n see ! man aga9 = six mon?s4 ,he /opp$ = a *at "o ev5+ z ,i sat on ! piazza ( my family home on ,gurp> ,road4 8,tell y\r tea*] t by eat+ meat frequ5tly1 ,i h :olly rega9$ my /r5g?4 ,8 unsci5tific ideas on diet h n influ5c$ me40 ,x 0 true t ,dr4 ,roy look$ a picture ( heal?4 ,b ! next day ,santo% came runn+ to me f 8 home on ! next block4 8,?is morn+ ,fa!r dropp$ dead60 ,?is case 0 "o ( my /range/ exp]i5ces ) ,ma/]4 ,he heal$ ! rebelli\s vet]9>y surgeon 9 spite ( 8 disbelief1 & ext5d$ ! man's natural t]m on e>? by six mon?s1 j because ( my e>ne/ supplication4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 b\ndless 9 8 k9dness :5 confront$ by ! urg5t pray] ( a devotee4 ,x 0 my pr\de/ privilege to br+ college fri5ds to meet my guru4 ,_m ( !m w\ld lay aside-at lea/ 9 ! a%ram6-_! fa%ionable academic cloak ( religi\s skepticism4 ,"o ( my fri5ds1 ,sasi1 sp5t a numb] ( happy week ends 9 ,s]ampore4 ,ma/] became imm5sely fond ( ! boy1 & lam5t$ t 8 private life 0 wild & disord]ly4 8,sasi1 unless y re=m1 "o ye> h5ce y w be dang]\sly ill40 ,sri ,yuktesw> gaz$ at my fri5d ) affectionate exasp]ation4 8,mukunda is ! witness3 don't say lat] t ,i didn't w>n y40 ,sasi laugh$4 8,ma/]1 ,i w leave x to y to int]e/ a sweet *>ity ( cosmos 9 my own sad case6 ,my _s is will+ b my w is weak4 ,y are my only savior on e>?2 ,i believe 9 no?+ else40 8,at lea/ y %\ld we> a two-c>at blue sapphire4 ,x w help y40 8,i c't af=d "o4 ,anyh[1 de> guruji1 if tr\ble comes1 ,i fully believe y w protect me40 8,9 a ye> y w br+ ?ree sapphires10 ,sri ,yuktesw> repli$ cryptically4 8,!y w be ( no use !n40 ,v>iations on ?is conv]sation took place regul>ly4 8,i c't re=m60 ,sasi w\ld say 9 comical despair4 8,& my tru/ 9 y1 ,ma/]1 is m preci\s to me ?an any /one60 ,a ye> lat] ,i 0 visit+ my guru at ! ,calcutta home ( 8 disciple1 ,n>5 ,babu4 ,ab\t t5 o'clock 9 ! morn+1 z ,sri ,yuktesw> & ,i 7 sitt+ quietly 9 ! second-floor p>lor1 ,i he>d ! front door op54 ,ma/] /raight5$ /iffly4 8,x is t ,sasi10 he rem>k$ gravely4 8,! ye> is n[ up2 bo? 8 lungs are gone4 ,he has ignor$ my c\nsel2 tell him ,i don't want to see him40 ,half /unn$ by ,sri ,yuktesw>'s /]nness1 ,i rac$ d[n ! /airway4 ,sasi 0 asc5d+4 8,o ,mukunda6 ,i d hope ,ma/] is "h2 ,i _h a hun* he might be40 8,yes1 b he doesn't wi% to be di/urb$40 ,sasi bur/ into te>s & bru%$ pa/ me4 ,he ?rew himself at ,sri ,yuktesw>'s feet1 plac+ !re ?ree beautiful sapphires4 8,omnisci5t guru1 ! doctors say ,i h gallop+ tub]culosis6 ,!y give me no long] ?an ?ree m mon?s6 ,i humbly implore y\r aid2 ,i "k y c heal me60 8,isn't x a bit late n[ to be worry+ ov] y\r life8 ,dep>t ) y\r jewels2 _! "t ( usefulness is pa/40 ,ma/] !n sat sph9xlike 9 an unrel5t+ sil5ce1 punctuat$ by ! boy's sobs = m]cy4 ,an intuitive conviction came to me t ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 m]ely te/+ ! dep? ( ,sasi's fai? 9 ! div9e heal+ p[]4 ,i 0 n surpris$ a t5se h\r lat] :5 ,ma/] turn$ a sympa!tic gaze on my pro/rate fri5d4 8,get up1 ,sasi2 :at a commotion y make 9 o!r p's h\ses6 ,return y\r sapphires to ! jewel]'s2 !y are an unnecess>y exp5se n[4 ,b get an a/rological bangle & we> x4 ,fe> n2 9 a few weeks y %all be well40 ,sasi's smile illum9$ 8 te>-m>r$ face l sudd5 sun ov] a sodd5 l&scape4 8,belov$ guru1 %all ,i take ! m$ic9es prescrib$ by ! doctors80 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s glance 0 longanim\s4 8,j z y wi%-dr9k !m or disc>d !m2 x does n matt]4 ,x is m possible = ! sun & moon to int]*ange _! positions ?an = y to die ( tub]culosis40 ,he add$ abruptly1 8,g n[1 be=e ,i *ange my m9d60 ,) an agitat$ b[1 my fri5d ha/ily dep>t$4 ,i visit$ him sev]al times dur+ ! next few weeks1 & 0 agha/ to f9d 8 condition increas+ly worse4 8,sasi _c la/ ?r\gh ! night40 ,^! words f 8 physician1 & ! spectacle ( my fri5d1 n[ r$uc$ almo/ to a skeleton1 s5t me po/ha/e to ,s]ampore4 ,my guru li/5$ coldly to my te>ful report4 8,:y d y come "h to bo!r me8 ,y h already he>d me assure ,sasi ( 8 recov]y40 ,i b[$ be=e him 9 great awe1 & retreat$ to ! door4 ,sri ,yuktesw> said no p>t+ ^w1 b sank into sil5ce1 8 unw9k+ eyes half-op51 _! vision fl$ to ano!r _w4 ,i return$ at once to ,sasi's home 9 ,calcutta4 ,) a/oni%m5t ,i f\nd my fri5d sitt+ up1 dr9k+ milk4 8,o ,mukunda6 ,:at a miracle6 ,f\r h\rs ago ,i felt ,ma/]'s pres5ce 9 ! room2 my t]rible symptoms imm$iately disappe>$4 ,i feel t ?r\gh 8 grace ,i am entirely well40 ,9 a few weeks ,sasi 0 /\t] & 9 bett] heal? ?an ev] be=e4 ,,fn#ag-a ,b 8 s+ul> reaction to 8 heal+ _h an ungrateful t+e3 he seldom visit$ ,sri ,yuktesw> aga96 ,my fri5d told me "o day t he s deeply regrett$ 8 previ\s mode ( life t he 0 a%am$ to face ,ma/]4 ,i c\ld only conclude t ,sasi's illness _h _h ! contra/+ effect ( /iff5+ 8 w & impair+ 8 mann]s4 ,! fir/ two ye>s ( my c\rse at ,scotti% ,*ur* ,college 7 draw+ to a close4 ,my classroom att5dance _h be5 v spasmodic2 :at little /udy+ ,i did 0 only to keep peace ) my family4 ,my two private tutors came regul>ly to my h\se2 ,i 0 regul>ly abs5t3 ,i c disc]n at lea/ ?is "o regul>ity 9 my s*ola/ic c>e]6 ,9 ,india two successful ye>s ( college br+ an ,int]m$iate ,arts diploma2 ! /ud5t may !n look =w>d to ano!r two ye>s & 8 ,a4,b4 degree4 ,! ,int]m$iate ,arts f9al exam9ations loom$ om9\sly ahead4 ,i fl$ to ,puri1 :]e my guru 0 sp5d+ a few weeks4 ,vaguely hop+ t he w\ld sanction my nonappe>ance at ! f9als1 ,i relat$ my emb>rass+ unprep>$ness4 ,b ,ma/] smil$ consol+ly4 8,y h :olehe>t$ly pursu$ y\r spiritual duties1 & c\ld n help neglect+ y\r college "w4 ,apply y\rself dilig5tly to y\r books = ! next week3 y %all get ?r\gh y\r ordeal )\t failure40 ,i return$ to ,calcutta1 firmly suppress+ all reasonable d\bts t occasionally arose ) unn]v+ ridicule4 ,survey+ ! m\nta9 ( books on my table1 ,i felt l a travel] lo/ 9 a wild]ness4 ,a long p]iod ( m$itation br\ght me a labor-sav+ inspiration4 ,op5+ ea* book at r&om1 ,i /udi$ only ^? pages :i* lay ?us expos$4 ,pursu+ ?is c\rse dur+ eighte5 h\rs a day = a week1 ,i consid]$ myself entitl$ to advise all succe$+ g5]ations on ! art ( cramm+4 ,! foll[+ days 9 ! exam9ation halls 7 a ju/ification ( my seem+ly haphaz>d proc$ure4 ,i pass$ all ! te/s1 ?\gh by a hairbread?4 ,! congratulations ( my fri5ds & family 7 ludicr\sly mix$ ) ejaculations betray+ _! a/oni%m5t4 ,on 8 return f ,puri1 ,sri ,yuktesw> gave me a pleasant surprise4 8,y\r ,calcutta /udies are n[ ov]4 ,i w see t y pursue y\r la/ two ye>s ( univ]sity "w "r "h 9 ,s]ampore40 ,i 0 puzzl$4 8,sir1 !re is no ,ba*elor ( ,arts c\rse 9 ?is t[n40 ,s]ampore ,college1 ! sole in/itution ( high] le>n+1 (f]$ only a two-ye> c\rse 9 ,int]m$iate ,arts4 ,ma/] smil$ mis*iev\sly4 8,i am too old to g ab\t collect+ donations to e/abli% an ,a4,b4 college = y4 ,i guess ,i %all h to arrange ! matt] ?r\gh someone else40 ,two mon?s lat] ,pr(essor ,h[ells1 presid5t ( ,s]ampore ,college1 publicly ann\nc$ t he _h succe$$ 9 rais+ suffici5t funds to (f] a f\r-ye> c\rse4 ,s]ampore ,college became a bran* affiliation ( ! ,univ]sity ( ,calcutta4 ,i 0 "o ( ! fir/ /ud5ts to enroll 9 ,s]ampore z an ,a4,b4 c&idate4 8,guruji1 h[ k9d y are to me6 ,i h be5 long+ to leave ,calcutta & be ne> y e day 9 ,s]ampore4 ,pr(essor ,h[ells does n dream h[ mu* he owes to y\r sil5t help60 ,sri ,yuktesw> gaz$ at me ) mock sev]ity4 8,n[ y won't h to sp5d s _m h\rs on tra9s2 :at a lot ( free "t = y\r /udies6 ,p]haps y w become less ( a la/-m9ute cramm] & m ( a s*ol>40 ,b someh[ 8 tone lack$ conviction4 ,,fn#ag-a ,9 #aicf ,i he>d f a fri5d t ,sasi 0 /ill 9 excell5t heal?4 ,,*apt]3 #ah ,a ,,mohamm$an ,,wond]-,,work] 8,ye>s ago1 "r 9 ?is v room y n[ occupy1 a ,mohamm$an wond]-work] p]=m$ f\r miracles be=e me60 ,sri ,yuktesw> made ?is surpris+ /atem5t dur+ 8 fir/ visit to my new qu>t]s4 ,imm$iately aft] ent]+ ,s]ampore ,college1 ,i _h tak5 a room 9 a ne>-by bo>d+h\se1 call$ ,,pan?i4 ,x 0 an old-fa%ion$ brick mansion1 front+ ! ,ganges4 8,ma/]1 :at a co9cid5ce6 ,are ^! newly decorat$ walls really anci5t ) memories80 ,i look$ ar\nd my simply furni%$ room ) awak5$ int]e/4 8,x is a long /ory40 ,my guru smil$ rem9isc5tly4 8,! "n ( ! ,,fakir ,,fn#ah-a 0 ,afzal ,khan4 ,he _h acquir$ 8 extraord9>y p[]s ?r\gh a *ance enc\nt] ) a ,h9du yogi4 8#8,son1 ,i am ?ir/y2 fet* me "s wat]4' ,a du/-cov]$ ,,sannyasi made ?is reque/ ( ,afzal "o day dur+ 8 e>ly boyhood 9 a small village ( ea/]n ,b5gal4 8#8,ma/]1 ,i am a ,mohamm$an4 ,h[ c\ld y1 a ,h9du1 accept a dr9k f my h&s8' 8#8,y\r tru?fulness pleases me1 my *ild4 ,i d n obs]ve ! o/raciz+ rules ( ungodly sect>ianism4 ,g2 br+ me wat] quickly4' 8,afzal's rev]5t ob$i5ce 0 rew>d$ by a lov+ glance f ! yogi4 8#8,y possess good k>ma f =m] lives1' he obs]v$ solemnly4 #8,i am go+ to tea* y a c]ta9 yoga me?od :i* w give y comm& ov] "o ( ! invisible realms4 ,! great p[]s t w be y\rs %\ld be ex]cis$ = wor?y ends2 nev] employ !m selfi%ly6 ,i p]ceive1 alas6 t y h br\ght ov] f ! pa/ "s se$s ( de/ructive t5d5cies4 ,d n all[ !m to spr\t by wat]+ !m ) fre% evil actions4 ,! complexity ( y\r previ\s k>ma is su* t y mu/ use ?is life to reconcile y\r yogic accompli%m5ts ) ! highe/ humanit>ian goals4' 8,aft] in/ruct+ ! amaz$ boy 9 a complicat$ te*nique1 ! ma/] vani%$4 8,afzal fai?fully foll[$ 8 yoga ex]cise = tw5ty ye>s4 ,8 miracul\s feats began to attract widespread att5tion4 ,x seems t he 0 always accompani$ by a disembodi$ _s :om he call$ #8,hazrat4' ,?is invisible entity 0 able to fulfill ! ,,fakir',s slighte/ wi%4 8,ignor+ 8 ma/]'s w>n+1 ,afzal began to misuse 8 p[]s4 ,:atev] object he t\*$ & !n replac$ w\ld soon disappe> )\t a trace4 ,?is disconc]t+ ev5tuality usually made ! ,mohamm$an an objectionable gue/6 8,he visit$ l>ge jewelry /ores 9 ,calcutta f "t to "t1 repres5t+ himself z a possible pur*as]4 ,any jewel he h&l$ w\ld vani% %ortly aft] he _h left ! %op4 8,afzal 0 (t5 surr\nd$ by sev]al hundr$ /ud5ts1 attract$ by ! hope ( le>n+ 8 secrets4 ,! ,,fakir occasionally invit$ !m to travel ) him4 ,at ! railway /ation he w\ld manage to t\* a roll ( tickets4 ,^! he w\ld return to ! cl]k1 rem>k+3 #8,i h *ang$ my m9d1 & won't buy !m n[4' ,b :5 he bo>d$ ! tra9 ) 8 ret9ue1 ,afzal w\ld be 9 possession ( ! requir$ tickets4 ,,fn#ah-b 8,^! exploits creat$ an indignant upro>2 ,b5gali jewel]s & ticket-sell]s 7 succumb+ to n]v\s breakd[ns6 ,! police :o s\ght to arre/ ,afzal f\nd !mselves helpless2 ! ,,fakir c\ld remove incrim9at+ evid5ce m]ely by say+3 #8,hazrat1 take ?is away4'0 ,sri ,yuktesw> rose f 8 seat & walk$ to ! balcony ( my room :i* ov]look$ ! ,ganges4 ,i foll[$ him1 eag] to he> m ( ! baffl+ ,mohamm$an ,raffles4 8,?is ,,pan?i h\se =m]ly belong$ to a fri5d ( m9e4 ,he became acqua9t$ ) ,afzal & ask$ him "h4 ,my fri5d also invit$ ab\t tw5ty neighbors1 includ+ myself4 ,i 0 only a y\? !n1 & felt a lively curiosity ab\t ! notori\s ,,fakir40 ,ma/] laugh$4 8,i took ! precaution ( n we>+ any?+ valuable6 ,afzal look$ me ov] inquisitively1 !n rem>k$3 8#8,y h p[]ful h&s4 ,g d[n/airs to ! g>d52 get a smoo? /one & write y\r "n on x ) *alk2 !n ?r[ ! /one z f> z possible into ! ,ganges4' 8,i obey$4 ,z soon z ! /one _h vani%$ "u di/ant waves1 ! ,mohamm$an address$ me aga93 8#8,fill a pot ) ,ganges wat] ne> ! front ( ?is h\se4' 8,aft] ,i _h return$ ) a vessel ( wat]1 ! ,,fakir cri$1 #8,hazrat1 put ! /one 9 ! pot6' 8,! /one appe>$ at once4 ,i pull$ x f ! vessel & f\nd my signature z legible z :5 ,i _h writt5 x4 8,babu1 ,,fn#ah-c "o ( my fri5ds 9 ! room1 0 we>+ a heavy antique gold wat* & *a94 ,! ,,fakir exam9$ !m ) om9\s admiration4 ,soon !y 7 miss+6 8#8,afzal1 please return my priz$ heirloom6' ,babu 0 ne>ly 9 te>s4 8,! ,mohamm$an 0 /oically sil5t = a:ile1 !n said1 #8,y h five hundr$ rupees 9 an iron safe4 ,br+ !m to me1 & ,i w tell y :]e to locate y\r timepiece4' 8,! di/raught ,babu left imm$iately = 8 home4 ,he came back %ortly & h&$ ,afzal ! requir$ sum4 8#8,g to ! little bridge ne> y\r h\se1' ! ,,fakir in/ruct$ ,babu4 #8,call on ,hazrat to give y ! wat* & *a94' 8,babu ru%$ away4 ,on 8 return1 he 0 we>+ a smile ( relief & no jewelry :atev]4 8#8,:5 ,i comm&$ ,hazrat z direct$1' he ann\nc$1 #8my wat* came tumbl+ d[n f ! air into my "r h&6 ,y may be sure ,i lock$ ! heirloom 9 my safe be=e rejo9+ ! gr\p "h6' 8,babu's fri5ds1 witnesses ( ! comicotrag$y ( ! ransom = a wat*1 7 />+ ) res5tm5t at ,afzal4 ,he n[ spoke placat+ly4 8#8,please "n any dr9k y want2 ,hazrat w produce x4' 8,a numb] ask$ = milk1 o!rs = fruit juices4 ,i 0 n too mu* %ock$ :5 ! unn]v$ ,babu reque/$ :isky6 ,! ,mohamm$an gave an ord]2 ! oblig+ ,hazrat s5t seal$ conta9]s sail+ d[n ! air & ?udd+ to ! floor4 ,ea* man f\nd 8 desir$ bev]age4 8,! promise ( ! f\r? spectacul> feat ( ! day 0 d\btless gratify+ to our ho/3 ,afzal (f]$ to supply an in/antane\s lun*6 8#8,let u ord] ! mo/ exp5sive di%es1' ,babu sugge/$ gloomily4 #8,i want an elaborate meal = my five hundr$ rupees6 ,ev]y?+ %\ld be s]v$ on gold plates6' 8,z soon z ea* man _h express$ 8 pref]5ces1 ! ,,fakir address$ himself to ! inexhau/ible ,hazrat4 ,a great rattle ensu$2 gold platt]s fill$ ) intricately-prep>$ curries1 hot ,,lu*is1 & _m out-(-season fruits1 l&$ f n[h]e at our feet4 ,all ! food 0 delici\s4 ,aft] fea/+ = an h\r1 we />t$ to leave ! room4 ,a trem5d\s noise1 z ?\gh di%es 7 be+ pil$ up1 caus$ u to turn ar\nd4 ,lo6 !re 0 no sign ( ! glitt]+ plates or ! remnants ( ! meal40 8,guruji10 ,i int]rupt$1 8if ,afzal c\ld easily secure su* ?+s z gold di%es1 :y did he covet ! prop]ty ( o!rs80 8,! ,,fakir 0 n highly develop$ spiritually10 ,sri ,yuktesw> expla9$4 8,8 ma/]y ( a c]ta9 yoga te*nique gave him access to an a/ral plane :]e any desire is imm$iately mat]ializ$4 ,?r\gh ! ag5cy ( an a/ral be+1 ,hazrat1 ! ,mohamm$an c\ld summon ! atoms ( any object f e!ric en]gy by an act ( p[]ful w4 ,b su* a/rally-produc$ objects are /ructurally evanesc5t2 !y _c be long reta9$4 ,afzal /ill ye>n$ = worldly weal? :i*1 ?\gh m h>dly e>n$1 has a m dep5dable durability40 ,i laugh$4 8,x too sometimes vani%es mo/ unacc\ntably60 8,afzal 0 n a man ( ,god-realization10 ,ma/] w5t on4 8,miracles ( a p]man5t & b5eficial nature are p]=m$ by true sa9ts because !y h attun$ !mselves to ! omnipot5t ,creator4 ,afzal 0 m]ely an ord9>y man ) an extraord9>y p[] ( p5etrat+ a subtle realm n usually ent]$ by mortals until dea?40 8,i und]/& n[1 ,guruji4 ,! aft]-_w appe>s to h "s *>m+ features40 ,ma/] agre$4 8,i nev] saw ,afzal aft] t day1 b a few ye>s lat] ,babu came to my home to %[ me a newspap] acc\nt ( ! ,mohamm$an's public confession4 ,f x ,i le>n$ ! facts ,i h j told y ab\t ,afzal's e>ly initiation f a ,h9du guru40 ,! gi/ ( ! latt] "p ( ! publi%$ docum5t1 z recall$ by ,sri ,yuktesw>1 0 z foll[s3 8,i1 ,afzal ,khan1 am writ+ ^! words z an act ( p5ance & z a w>n+ to ^? :o seek ! possession ( miracul\s p[]s4 ,= ye>s ,i h be5 misus+ ! wondr\s abilities imp>t$ to me ?r\gh ! grace ( ,god & my ma/]4 ,i became drunk ) egotism1 feel+ t ,i 0 beyond ! ord9>y laws ( morality4 ,my day ( reckon+ f9ally arriv$4 8,rec5tly ,i met an old man on a road outside ,calcutta4 ,he limp$ along pa9fully1 c>ry+ a %9+ object :i* look$ l gold4 ,i address$ him ) gre$ 9 my he>t4 8#8,i am ,afzal ,khan1 ! great ,,fakir4 ,:at h y !re8' 8#8,?is ball ( gold is my sole mat]ial weal?2 x c be ( no int]e/ to a ,,fakir4 ,i implore y1 sir1 to heal my limp4' 8,i t\*$ ! ball & walk$ away )\t reply4 ,! old man hobbl$ aft] me4 ,he soon rais$ an outcry3 #8,my gold is gone6' 8,z ,i paid no att5tion1 he sudd5ly spoke 9 a /5torian voice t issu$ oddly f 8 frail body3 8#8,d y n recognize me8' 8,i /ood spee*less1 agha/ at ! belat$ discov]y t ?is unimpressive old cripple 0 none o!r ?an ! great sa9t :o1 long1 long ago1 _h initiat$ me into yoga4 ,he /raight5$ himself2 8 body in/antly became /rong & y\?ful4 8#8,s6' ,my guru's glance 0 fi]y4 #8,i see ) my own eyes t y use y\r p[]s1 n to help suff]+ humanity1 b to prey on x l a common ?ief6 ,i )draw y\r occult gifts2 ,hazrat is n[ fre$ f y4 ,no long] %all y be a t]ror 9 ,b5gal6' 8,i call$ on ,hazrat 9 angui%$ tones2 = ! fir/ "t1 he did n appe> to my inn] sight4 ,b "s d>k veil sudd5ly lift$ )9 me2 ,i saw cle>ly ! blasphemy ( my life4 8#8,my guru1 ,i ?ank y = com+ to bani% my long delusion4' ,i 0 sobb+ at 8 feet4 #8,i promise to =sake my worldly ambitions4 ,i w retire to ! m\nta9s = lonely m$itation on ,god1 hop+ to atone = my evil pa/4' 8,my ma/] reg>d$ me ) sil5t compassion4 #8,i feel y\r s9c]ity1' he said f9ally4 #8,because ( y\r e>li] ye>s ( /rict ob$i5ce1 & because ( y\r pres5t rep5tance1 ,i w grant y "o boon4 ,y\r o!r p[]s are n[ gone1 b :5ev] food & clo?+ are ne$$1 y may /ill call successfully on ,hazrat to supply !m4 ,devote y\rself :olehe>t$ly to div9e und]/&+ 9 ! m\nta9 solitudes4' 8,my guru !n vani%$2 ,i 0 left to my te>s & reflections4 ,f>ewell1 _w6 ,i g to seek ! =giv5ess ( ! ,cosmic ,belov$40 ,,fn#ah-a ,a ,moslem yogi2 f ! ,arabic ,,faqir1 poor2 orig9ally appli$ to d]vi%es "u a v[ ( pov]ty4 ,,fn#ah-b ,my fa!r lat] told me t 8 company1 ! ,b5gal-,nagpur ,railway1 _h be5 "o ( ! firms victimiz$ by ,afzal ,khan4 ,,fn#ah-c ,i d n recall ! "n ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s fri5d1 & mu/ ref] to him simply z 8,babu0 7,mi/]74 ,,*apt]3 #ai ,,my ,,ma/]1 ,,9 ,,calcutta1 ,,appe>s ,,9 ,,s]ampore 8,i am (t5 beset by a!i/ic d\bts4 ,yet a tortur+ surmise sometimes haunts me3 may n untapp$ s\l possibilities exi/8 ,is man n miss+ 8 real de/9y if he fails to explore !m80 ,^! rem>ks ( ,dij5 ,babu1 my roommate at ! ,,pan?i bo>d+h\se1 7 call$ =? by my invitation t he meet my guru4 8,sri ,yuktesw>ji w initiate y into ,,kriya ,,yoga10 ,i repli$4 8,x calms ! duali/ic turmoil by a div9e inn] c]ta9ty40 ,t ev5+ ,dij5 accompani$ me to ! h]mitage4 ,9 ,ma/]'s pres5ce my fri5d receiv$ su* spiritual peace t he 0 soon a con/ant visitor4 ,! trivial preoccupations ( daily life are n en\gh = man2 wisdom too is a native hung]4 ,9 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s words ,dij5 f\nd an inc5tive to ^? attempts-fir/ pa9ful1 !n ef=tlessly lib]at+-to locate a real] self )9 8 bosom ?an ! humiliat+ ego ( a tempor>y bir?1 seldom ample en\gh = ! ,_s4 ,z ,dij5 & ,i 7 bo? pursu+ ! ,a4,b4 c\rse at ,s]ampore ,college1 we got into ! habit ( walk+ toge!r to ! a%ram z soon z classes 7 ov]4 ,we w\ld (t5 see ,sri ,yuktesw> /&+ on 8 second-floor balcony1 welcom+ our approa* ) a smile4 ,"o aft]noon ,kanai1 a "y h]mitage resid5t1 met ,dij5 & me at ! door ) disappo9t+ news4 8,ma/] is n "h2 he 0 summon$ to ,calcutta by an urg5t note40 ,! foll[+ day ,i receiv$ a po/ c>d f my guru4 8,i %all leave ,calcutta ,w$nesday morn+10 he _h writt54 8,y & ,dij5 meet ! n9e o'clock tra9 at ,s]ampore /ation40 ,ab\t eight-?irty on ,w$nesday morn+1 a telepa?ic message f ,sri ,yuktesw> fla%$ insi/5tly to my m9d3 8,i am delay$2 don't meet ! n9e o'clock tra940 ,i convey$ ! late/ in/ructions to ,dij51 :o 0 already dress$ = dep>ture4 8,y & y\r intuition60 ,my fri5d's voice 0 edg$ 9 scorn4 8,i pref] to tru/ ,ma/]'s writt5 ^w40 ,i %rugg$ my %\ld]s & seat$ myself ) quiet f9ality4 ,mutt]+ angrily1 ,dij5 made = ! door & clos$ x noisily beh9d him4 ,z ! room 0 r d>k1 ,i mov$ ne>] to ! w9d[ ov]look+ ! /reet4 ,! scant sunlight sudd5ly increas$ to an int5se brilliancy 9 :i* ! iron-b>r$ w9d[ completely vani%$4 ,aga9/ ?is dazzl+ backgr\nd appe>$ ! cle>ly mat]ializ$ figure ( ,sri ,yuktesw>6 ,bewild]$ to ! po9t ( %ock1 ,i rose f my *air & knelt be=e him4 ,) my cu/om>y ge/ure ( respectful greet+ at my guru's feet1 ,i t\*$ 8 %oes4 ,^! 7 a pair famili> to me1 ( orange-dy$ canvas1 sol$ ) rope4 ,8 o*] swami clo? bru%$ aga9/ me2 ,i di/9ctly felt n only ! texture ( 8 robe1 b also ! gritty surface ( ! %oes1 & ! pressure ( 8 toes )9 !m4 ,too mu* a/\nd$ to utt] a ^w1 ,i /ood up & gaz$ at him que/ion+ly4 8,i 0 pleas$ t y got my telepa?ic message40 ,ma/]'s voice 0 calm1 entirely normal4 8,i h n[ f9i%$ my bus9ess 9 ,calcutta1 & %all arrive 9 ,s]ampore by ! t5 o'clock tra940 ,z ,i /ill />$ mutely1 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on1 8,?is is n an app>ition1 b my fle% & blood =m4 ,i h be5 div9ely comm&$ to give y ?is exp]i5ce1 r>e to a*ieve on e>?4 ,meet me at ! /ation2 y & ,dij5 w see me com+ t[>d y1 dress$ z ,i am n[4 ,i %all be prec$$ by a fell[ pass5g]-a little boy c>ry+ a silv] jug40 ,my guru plac$ bo? h&s on my head1 ) a murmur$ bless+4 ,z he conclud$ ) ! words1 8,,taba ,,asi10 ,,fn#ai-a ,i he>d a peculi> rumbl+ s\nd4 ,,fn#ai-b ,8 body began to melt gradually )9 ! pi]c+ light4 ,fir/ 8 feet & legs vani%$1 !n 8 torso & head1 l a scroll be+ roll$ up4 ,to ! v la/1 ,i c\ld feel 8 f+]s re/+ lightly on my hair4 ,! effulg5ce fad$2 no?+ rema9$ be=e me b ! b>r$ w9d[ & a pale /ream ( sunlight4 ,i rema9$ 9 a half-/upor ( confusion1 que/ion+ :e!r ,i _h n be5 ! victim ( a halluc9ation4 ,a cre/fall5 ,dij5 soon ent]$ ! room4 8,ma/] 0 n on ! n9e o'clock tra91 nor ev5 ! n9e-?irty40 ,my fri5d made 8 ann\ncem5t ) a slightly apologetic air4 8,come !n2 ,i "k he w arrive at t5 o'clock40 ,i took ,dij5's h& & ru%$ him =cibly along ) me1 he$less ( 8 prote/s4 ,9 ab\t t5 m9utes we ent]$ ! /ation1 :]e ! tra9 0 already puff+ to a halt4 8,! :ole tra9 is fill$ ) ! light ( ,ma/]'s aura6 ,he is !re60 ,i exclaim$ joyfully4 8,y dream s80 ,dij5 laugh$ mock+ly4 8,let u wait "h40 ,i told my fri5d details ( ! way 9 :i* our guru w\ld approa* u4 ,z ,i f9i%$ my description1 ,sri ,yuktesw> came into view1 we>+ ! same clo!s ,i _h se5 a %ort "t e>li]4 ,he walk$ sl[ly 9 ! wake ( a small lad be>+ a silv] jug4 ,= a mom5t a wave ( cold fe> pass$ ?r\gh me1 at ! unprec$5t$ /rang5ess ( my exp]i5ce4 ,i felt ! mat]iali/ic1 tw5tie?-c5tury _w slipp+ f me2 0 ,i back 9 ! anci5t days :5 ,jesus appe>$ be=e ,pet] on ! sea8 ,z ,sri ,yuktesw>1 a mod]n ,yogi-,*ri/1 rea*$ ! spot :]e ,dij5 & ,i 7 spee*lessly root$1 ,ma/] smil$ at my fri5d & rem>k$3 8,i s5t y a message too1 b y 7 unable to grasp x40 ,dij5 0 sil5t1 b gl>$ at me suspici\sly4 ,aft] we _h escort$ our guru to 8 h]mitage1 my fri5d & ,i proce$$ t[>d ,s]ampore ,college4 ,dij5 halt$ 9 ! /reet1 indignation /ream+ f 8 e pore4 8,s6 ,ma/] s5t me a message6 ,yet y conceal$ x6 ,i dem& an explanation60 8,c ,i help x if y\r m5tal mirror oscillates ) su* re/lessness t y _c regi/] our guru's in/ructions80 ,i retort$4 ,! ang] vani%$ f ,dij5's face4 8,i see :at y mean10 he said ruefully4 8,b please expla9 h[ y c\ld "k ab\t ! *ild ) ! jug40 ,by ! "t ,i _h f9i%$ ! /ory ( ,ma/]'s ph5om5al appe>ance at ! bo>d+h\se t morn+1 my fri5d & ,i _h rea*$ ,s]ampore ,college4 8,! acc\nt ,i h j he>d ( our guru's p[]s10 ,dij5 said1 8makes me feel t any univ]sity 9 ! _w is only a k9d]g>t540 ,,fn#ai-a ,! ,b5gali 8,good-by02 lit]ally1 x is a hopeful p>adox3 8,!n ,i come40 ,,fn#ai-b ,! *>act]i/ic s\nd ( demat]ialization ( bodily atoms4 ,,*apt]3 #bj ,,we ,,d ,,n ,,visit ,,ka%mir 8,fa!r1 ,i want to invite ,ma/] & f\r fri5ds to accompany me to ! ,himalayan foo?ills dur+ my summ] vacation4 ,may ,i h six tra9 passes to ,ka%mir & en\gh money to cov] our travel exp5ses80 ,z ,i _h expect$1 ,fa!r laugh$ he>tily4 8,?is is ! ?ird "t y h giv5 me ! same cock-&-bull /ory4 ,didn't y make a simil> reque/ la/ summ]1 & ! ye> be=e t8 ,at ! la/ mom5t1 ,sri ,yuktesw>ji refuses to g40 8,x is true1 ,fa!r2 ,i don't "k :y my guru w n give me 8 def9ite ^w ab\t ,ka%mir4 ,,fn#bj-a ,b if ,i tell him t ,i h already secur$ ! passes f y1 someh[ ,i ?9k t ?is "t he w cons5t to make ! j\rney40 ,fa!r 0 unconv9c$ at ! mom5t1 b ! foll[+ day1 aft] "s good-humor$ gibes1 he h&$ me six passes & a roll ( t5-rupee bills4 8,i h>dly ?9k y\r !oretical trip ne$s su* practical props10 he rem>k$1 8b "h !y are40 ,t aft]noon ,i exhibit$ my booty to ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,?\gh he smil$ at my en?usiasm1 8 words 7 noncommittal3 8,i w\ld l to g2 we %all see40 ,he made no comm5t :5 ,i ask$ 8 little h]mitage disciple1 ,kanai1 to accompany u4 ,i also invit$ ?ree o!r fri5ds--,raj5dra ,na? ,mitra1 ,jot9 ,auddy1 & "o o!r boy4 ,our date ( dep>ture 0 set = ! foll[+ ,monday4 ,on ,saturday & ,sunday ,i /ay$ 9 ,calcutta1 :]e m>riage rites = a c\s9 7 be+ celebrat$ at my family home4 ,i arriv$ 9 ,s]ampore ) my luggage e>ly ,monday morn+4 ,raj5dra met me at ! h]mitage door4 8,ma/] is out1 walk+4 ,he has refus$ to g40 ,i 0 equally griev$ & obdurate4 8,i w n give ,fa!r a ?ird *ance to ridicule my *im]ical plans = ,ka%mir4 ,come2 ! re/ ( u w g anyh[40 ,raj5dra agre$2 ,i left ! a%ram to f9d a s]vant4 ,kanai1 ,i knew1 w\ld n take ! trip )\t ,ma/]1 & someone 0 ne$$ to look aft] ! luggage4 ,i be?\ght myself ( ,beh>i1 previ\sly a s]vant 9 my family home1 :o 0 n[ employ$ by a ,s]ampore s*oolma/]4 ,z ,i walk$ along briskly1 ,i met my guru 9 front ( ! ,*ri/ian *ur* ne> ,s]ampore ,c\r?\se4 8,:]e are y go+80 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s face 0 unsmil+4 8,sir1 ,i he> t y & ,kanai w n take ! trip we h be5 plann+4 ,i am seek+ ,beh>i4 ,y w recall t la/ ye> he 0 s anxi\s to see ,ka%mir t he ev5 (f]$ to s]ve )\t pay40 8,i rememb]4 ,nev]!less1 ,i don't ?9k ,beh>i w be will+ to g40 ,i 0 exasp]at$4 8,he is j eag]ly wait+ = ?is opportunity60 ,my guru sil5tly resum$ 8 walk2 ,i soon rea*$ ! s*oolma/]'s h\se4 ,beh>i1 9 ! c\rty>d1 greet$ me ) a fri5dly w>m? t abruptly vani%$ z soon z ,i m5tion$ ,ka%mir4 ,) a murmur$ ^w ( apology1 ! s]vant left me & ent]$ 8 employ]'s h\se4 ,i wait$ half an h\r1 n]v\sly assur+ myself t ,beh>i's delay 0 be+ caus$ by prep>ations = 8 trip4 ,f9ally ,i knock$ at ! front door4 8,beh>i left by ! back /airs ab\t ?irty m9utes ago10 a man in=m$ me4 ,a slight smile hov]$ ab\t 8 lips4 ,i dep>t$ sadly1 wond]+ :e!r my invitation _h be5 too co]cive or :e!r ,ma/]'s unse5 influ5ce 7 at "w4 ,pass+ ! ,*ri/ian *ur*1 aga9 ,i saw my guru walk+ sl[ly t[>d me4 ,)\t wait+ to he> my report1 he exclaim$3 8,s ,beh>i w\ld n g6 ,n[1 :at are y\r plans80 ,i felt l a recalcitrant *ild :o is det]m9$ to defy 8 ma/]ful fa!r4 8,sir1 ,i am go+ to ask my uncle to l5d me 8 s]vant1 ,lal ,dh>i40 8,see y\r uncle if y want to10 ,sri ,yuktesw> repli$ ) a *uckle4 8,b ,i h>dly ?9k y w enjoy ! visit40 ,appreh5sive b rebelli\s1 ,i left my guru & ent]$ ,s]ampore ,c\r?\se4 ,my pat]nal uncle1 ,s>ada ,gho%1 a gov]nm5t attorney1 welcom$ me affectionately4 8,i am leav+ today ) "s fri5ds = ,ka%mir10 ,i told him4 8,= ye>s ,i h be5 look+ =w>d to ?is ,himalayan trip40 8,i am happy = y1 ,mukunda4 ,is !re any?+ ,i c d to make y\r j\rney m com=table80 ,^! k9d words gave me a lift ( enc\ragem5t4 8,de> uncle10 ,i said1 8c\ld y possibly sp>e me y\r s]vant1 ,lal ,dh>i80 ,my simple reque/ _h ! effect ( an e>?quake4 ,uncle jump$ s viol5tly t 8 *air ov]turn$1 ! pap]s on ! desk flew 9 e direction1 & 8 pipe1 a long1 coconut-/emm$ hubble-bubble1 fell to ! floor ) a great clatt]4 8,y selfi% "y man10 he %\t$1 quiv]+ ) wra?1 8:at a prepo/]\s idea6 ,:o w look aft] me1 if y take my s]vant on "o ( y\r pleasure jaunts80 ,i conceal$ my surprise1 reflect+ t my amiable uncle's sudd5 *ange ( front 0 only "o m enigma 9 a day fully devot$ to incompreh5sibility4 ,my retreat f ! c\r?\se (fice 0 m alacrit\s ?an dignifi$4 ,i return$ to ! h]mitage1 :]e my fri5ds 7 expectantly ga!r$4 ,conviction 0 gr[+ on me t "s suffici5t if exce$+ly recondite motive 0 beh9d ,ma/]'s attitude4 ,remorse seiz$ me t ,i _h be5 try+ to ?w>t my guru's w4 8,mukunda1 w\ldn't y l to /ay a:ile long] ) me80 ,sri ,yuktesw> inquir$4 8,raj5dra & ! o!rs c g ahead n[1 & wait = y at ,calcutta4 ,!re w be pl5ty ( "t to cat* ! la/ ev5+ tra9 leav+ ,calcutta = ,ka%mir40 8,sir1 ,i don't c>e to g )\t y10 ,i said m\rnfully4 ,my fri5ds paid n ! slighte/ att5tion to my rem>k4 ,!y summon$ a hackney c>riage & dep>t$ ) all ! luggage4 ,kanai & ,i sat quietly at our guru's feet4 ,aft] a half h\r ( complete sil5ce1 ,ma/] rose & walk$ t[>d ! second-floor d9+ patio4 8,kanai1 please s]ve ,mukunda's food4 ,8 tra9 leaves soon40 ,gett+ up f my blanket seat1 ,i /agg]$ sudd5ly ) nausea & a gha/ly *urn+ s5sation 9 my /oma*4 ,! /abb+ pa9 0 s int5se t ,i felt ,i _h be5 abruptly hurl$ into "s viol5t hell4 ,grop+ bl9dly t[>d my guru1 ,i collaps$ be=e him1 attack$ by all symptoms ( ! dread ,asiatic *ol]a4 ,sri ,yuktesw> & ,kanai c>ri$ me to ! sitt+ room4 ,rack$ ) agony1 ,i cri$1 8,ma/]1 ,i surr5d] my life to y20 = ,i believ$ x 0 inde$ fa/ ebb+ f ! %ores ( my body4 ,sri ,yuktesw> put my head on 8 lap1 /rok+ my =ehead ) angelic t5d]ness4 8,y see n[ :at w\ld h happ5$ if y 7 at ! /ation ) y\r fri5ds10 he said4 8,i _h to look aft] y 9 ?is /range way1 because y *ose to d\bt my judgm5t ab\t tak+ ! trip at ?is p>ticul> "t40 ,i und]/ood at la/4 ,inasmu* z great ma/]s seldom see fit to display _! p[]s op5ly1 a casual obs]v] ( ! day's ev5ts w\ld h imag9$ t _! sequ5ce 0 q natural4 ,my guru's int]v5tion _h be5 too subtle to be suspect$4 ,he _h work$ 8 w ?r\gh ,beh>i & my ,uncle ,s>ada & ,raj5dra & ! o!rs 9 su* an inconspicu\s mann] t probably ev]yone b myself ?\ght ! situations _h be5 logically normal4 ,z ,sri ,yuktesw> nev] fail$ to obs]ve 8 social obligations1 he in/ruct$ ,kanai to g = a speciali/1 & to notify my uncle4 8,ma/]10 ,i prote/$1 8only y c heal me4 ,i am too f> gone = any doctor40 8,*ild1 y are protect$ by ! ,div9e ,m]cy4 ,don't worry ab\t ! doctor2 he w n f9d y 9 ?is /ate4 ,y are already heal$40 ,) my guru's words1 ! excruciat+ suff]+ left me4 ,i sat up feebly4 ,a doctor soon arriv$ & exam9$ me c>efully4 8,y appe> to h pass$ ?r\gh ! wor/10 he said4 8,i w take "s specim5s ) me = laboratory te/s40 ,! foll[+ morn+ ! physician arriv$ hurri$ly4 ,i 0 sitt+ up1 9 good spirits4 8,well1 well1 "h y are1 smil+ & *att+ z ?\gh y _h _h no close call ) dea?40 ,he patt$ my h& g5tly4 8,i h>dly expect$ to f9d y alive1 aft] ,i _h discov]$ f ! specim5s t y\r disease 0 ,asiatic *ol]a4 ,y are =tunate1 "y man1 to h a guru ) div9e heal+ p[]s6 ,i am conv9c$ ( x60 ,i agre$ :olehe>t$ly4 ,z ! doctor 0 prep>+ to leave1 ,raj5dra & ,auddy appe>$ at ! door4 ,! res5tm5t 9 _! faces *ang$ into sympa?y z !y glanc$ at ! physician & !n at my some:at wan c\nt5ance4 8,we 7 angry :5 y didn't turn up z agre$ at ! ,calcutta tra94 ,y h be5 sick80 8,yes40 ,i c\ld n help laugh+ z my fri5ds plac$ ! luggage 9 ! same corn] x _h occupi$ ye/]day4 ,i quot$3 8,!re 0 a %ip t w5t to ,spa92 :5 x arriv$1 x came back aga960 ,ma/] ent]$ ! room4 ,i p]mitt$ myself a convalesc5t's lib]ty1 & captur$ 8 h& lov+ly4 8,guruji10 ,i said1 8f my twelf? ye> on1 ,i h made _m unsuccessful attempts to rea* ! ,himalayas4 ,i am f9ally conv9c$ t )\t y\r bless+s ! ,goddess ,p>vati ,,fn#bj-b w n receive me60 ,,fn#bj-a ,al?\gh ,ma/] fail$ to make any explanation1 8 reluctance to visit ,ka%mir dur+ ^? two summ]s may h be5 a =ekn[l$ge t ! "t 0 n ripe = 8 illness !re 7see *apt] #bb74 ,,fn#bj-b ,lit]ally1 8( ! m\nta9s40 ,p>vati1 my?ologically repres5t$ z a daught] ( ,himavat or ! sacr$ m\nta9s1 is a "n giv5 to ! ,,%akti or 8consort0 ( ,%iva4 ,,*apt]3 #ba ,,we ,,visit ,,ka%mir 8,y are /rong en\gh n[ to travel4 ,i w accompany y to ,ka%mir10 ,sri ,yuktesw> in=m$ me two days aft] my miracul\s recov]y f ,asiatic *ol]a4 ,t ev5+ our p>ty ( six entra9$ = ! nor?4 ,our fir/ leisurely /op 0 at ,simla1 a que5ly city re/+ on ! ?rone ( ,himalayan hills4 ,we /roll$ ov] ! /eep /reets1 admir+ ! magnific5t views4 8,engli% /rawb]ries = sale10 cri$ an old woman1 squatt+ 9 a picturesque op5 m>ket place4 ,ma/] 0 curi\s ab\t ! /range little r$ fruits4 ,he b\ght a basketful & (f]$ x to ,kanai & myself1 :o 7 ne>-by4 ,i ta/$ "o b]ry b spat x ha/ily on ! gr\nd4 8,sir1 :at a s\r fruit6 ,i c\ld nev] l /rawb]ries60 ,my guru laugh$4 8,oh1 y w l !m-9 ,am]ica4 ,at a d9n] !re1 y\r ho/ess w s]ve !m ) sug> & cream4 ,aft] %e has ma%$ ! b]ries ) a =k1 y w ta/e !m & say3 #8,:at delici\s /rawb]ries6' ,!n y w rememb] ?is day 9 ,simla40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s =eca/ vani%$ f my m9d1 b reappe>$ !re _m ye>s lat]1 %ortly aft] my arrival 9 ,am]ica4 ,i 0 a d9n] gue/ at ! home ( ,mrs4 ,alice ,t4 ,hasey 7,si/] ,yogmata7 9 ,we/ ,som]ville1 ,massa*usetts4 ,:5 a dess]t ( /rawb]ries 0 put on ! table1 my ho/ess pick$ up h] =k & ma%$ my b]ries1 add+ cream & sug>4 8,! fruit is r t>t2 ,i ?9k y w l x fix$ ?is way10 %e rem>k$4 ,i took a m\?ful4 8,:at delici\s /rawb]ries60 ,i exclaim$4 ,at once my guru's pr$iction 9 ,simla em]g$ f ! fa?omless cave ( memory4 ,x 0 /agg]+ to realize t long ago ,sri ,yuktesw>'s ,god-tun$ m9d _h s5sitively detect$ ! program ( k>mic ev5ts w&]+ 9 ! e!r ( futurity4 ,our p>ty soon left ,simla & entra9$ = ,rawalp9di4 ,!re we hir$ a l>ge l&au1 drawn by two horses1 9 :i* we />t$ a sev5-day trip to ,sr9ag>1 capital city ( ,ka%mir4 ,! second day ( our nor?b\nd j\rney br\ght into view ! true ,himalayan va/ness4 ,z ! iron :eels ( our c>riage creak$ along ! hot1 /ony roads1 we 7 enraptur$ ) *ang+ vi/as ( m\nta9\s gr&eur4 8,sir10 ,auddy said to ,ma/]1 8,i am greatly enjoy+ ^! glori\s sc5es 9 y\r holy company40 ,i felt a ?rob ( pleasure at ,auddy's appreciation1 = ,i 0 act+ z ho/ on ?is trip4 ,sri ,yuktesw> caught my ?\ght2 he turn$ to me & :isp]$3 8,don't flatt] y\rself2 ,auddy is n ne>ly z entranc$ ) ! sc5]y z he is ) ! prospect ( leav+ u long en\gh to h a cig>et40 ,i 0 %ock$4 8,sir10 ,i said 9 an und]tone1 8please d n break our h>mony by ^! unpleasant words4 ,i c h>dly believe t ,auddy is hank]+ = a smoke40 ,,fn#ba-a ,i look$ appreh5sively at my usually irrepressible guru4 8,v well2 ,i won't say any?+ to ,auddy40 ,ma/] *uckl$4 8,b y w soon see1 :5 ! l&au halts1 t ,auddy is quick to seize 8 opportunity40 ,! c>riage arriv$ at a small c>avans]ai4 ,z our horses 7 l$ to be wat]$1 ,auddy inquir$1 8,sir1 d y m9d if ,i ride a:ile ) ! driv]8 ,i w\ld l to get a little outside air40 ,sri ,yuktesw> gave p]mission1 b rem>k$ to me1 8,he wants fre% smoke & n fre% air40 ,! l&au resum$ its noisy progress ov] ! du/y roads4 ,ma/]'s eyes 7 tw9kl+2 he in/ruct$ me1 8,crane up y\r neck ?r\gh ! c>riage door & see :at ,auddy is do+ ) ! air40 ,i obey$1 & 0 a/\nd$ to obs]ve ,auddy 9 ! act ( exhal+ r+s ( cig>et smoke4 ,my glance t[>d ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 apologetic4 8,y are "r1 z always1 sir4 ,auddy is enjoy+ a puff along ) a panorama40 ,i surmis$ t my fri5d _h receiv$ a gift f ! cab driv]2 ,i knew ,auddy _h n c>ri$ any cig>ets f ,calcutta4 ,we cont9u$ on ! labyr9?9e way1 adorn$ by views ( riv]s1 valleys1 precipit\s crags1 & multitud9\s m\nta9 ti]s4 ,e night we /opp$ at ru/ic inns1 & prep>$ our own food4 ,sri ,yuktesw> took special c>e ( my diet1 insi/+ t ,i h lime juice at all meals4 ,i 0 /ill weak1 b daily improv+1 ?\gh ! rattl+ c>riage 0 /rictly design$ = discom=t4 ,joy\s anticipations fill$ our he>ts z we ne>$ c5tral ,ka%mir1 p>adise l& ( lotus lakes1 float+ g>d5s1 gaily canopi$ h\seboats1 ! _m-bridg$ ,jhelum ,riv]1 & fl[]-/rewn pa/ures1 all r+$ r\nd by ! ,himalayan maje/y4 ,our approa* to ,sr9ag> 0 ?r\gh an av5ue ( tall1 welcom+ trees4 ,we engag$ rooms at a d\ble-/ori$ inn ov]look+ ! noble hills4 ,no runn+ wat] 0 available2 we drew our supply f a ne>-by well4 ,! summ] wea!r 0 ideal1 ) w>m days & slightly cold nights4 ,we made a pilgrimage to ! anci5t ,sr9ag> temple ( ,swami ,%ank>a4 ,z ,i gaz$ ^u ! m\nta9-peak h]mitage1 /&+ bold aga9/ ! sky1 ,i fell into an ec/atic trance4 ,a vision appe>$ ( a hilltop mansion 9 a di/ant l&4 ,! l(ty ,%ank>a a%ram be=e me 0 trans=m$ into ! /ructure :]e1 ye>s lat]1 ,i e/abli%$ ! ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip headqu>t]s 9 ,am]ica4 ,:5 ,i fir/ visit$ ,los ,angeles1 & saw ! l>ge build+ on ! cre/ ( ,m\nt ,wa%+ton1 ,i recogniz$ x at once f my long-pa/ visions 9 ,ka%mir & else:]e4 ,a few days at ,sr9ag>2 !n on to ,gulm>g 78m\nta9 pa?s ( fl[]s071 elevat$ by six ?\s& feet4 ,!re ,i _h my fir/ ride on a l>ge horse4 ,raj5dra m\nt$ a small trott]1 ^: he>t 0 fir$ ) ambition = spe$4 ,we v5tur$ onto ! v /eep ,khilanm>g2 ! pa? l$ ?r\gh a d5se =e/1 ab\nd+ 9 tree-mu%rooms1 :]e ! mi/-%r\d$ trails 7 (t5 prec>i\s4 ,b ,raj5dra's little animal nev] p]mitt$ my ov]siz$ /e$ a mom5t's re/1 ev5 at ! mo/ p]il\s turns4 ,on1 on1 untir+ly came ,raj5dra's horse1 oblivi\s to all b ! joy ( competition4 ,our /r5u\s race 0 rew>d$ by a brea?-tak+ view4 ,= ! fir/ "t 9 ?is life1 ,i gaz$ 9 all directions at sublime sn[-capp$ ,himalayas1 ly+ ti] ^u ti] l silh\ettes ( huge pol> be>s4 ,my eyes fea/$ exult+ly on endless rea*es ( icy m\nta9s aga9/ sunny blue skies4 ,i roll$ m]rily ) my "y companions1 all we>+ ov]coats1 on ! sp>kl+ :ite slopes4 ,on our d[nw>d trip we saw af> a va/ c>pet ( yell[ fl[]s1 :olly transfigur+ ! bleak hills4 ,our next excursions 7 to ! fam\s royal 8pleasure g>d5s0 ( ! ,emp]or ,jehangir1 at ,%alim> & ,ni%at ,bagh4 ,! anci5t palace at ,ni%at ,bagh is built directly ov] a natural wat]fall4 ,ru%+ d[n f ! m\nta9s1 ! torr5t has be5 regulat$ ?r\gh +5i\s contrivances to fl[ ov] colorful t]races & to gu% into f\nta9s amid/ ! dazzl+ fl[]-b$s4 ,! /ream also ent]s sev]al ( ! palace rooms1 ultimately dropp+ fairy l into ! lake bel[4 ,! imm5se g>d5s are riot\s ) color--roses ( a doz5 hues1 snapdragons1 lav5d]1 pansies1 poppies4 ,an em]ald enclos+ outl9e is giv5 by symmetrical r[s ( ,,*9>s1 ,,fn#ba-b cypresses1 *]ry trees2 beyond !m t[] ! :ite au/]ities ( ! ,himalayas4 ,ka%mir grapes are consid]$ a r>e delicacy 9 ,calcutta4 ,raj5dra1 :o _h be5 promis+ himself a v]itable fea/ on rea*+ ,ka%mir1 0 disappo9t$ to f9d !re no l>ge v9ey>ds4 ,n[ & !n ,i *aff$ him jocosely ov] 8 baseless anticipation4 8,oh1 ,i h become s mu* gorg$ ) grapes ,i c't walk60 ,i w\ld say4 8,! invisible grapes are brew+ )9 me60 ,lat] ,i he>d t sweet grapes gr[ abundantly 9 ,kabul1 we/ ( ,ka%mir4 ,we consol$ ourselves ) ice cream made ( ,,rabri1 a heavily cond5s$ milk1 & flavor$ ) :ole pi/a*io nuts4 ,we took sev]al trips 9 ! ,,%ik>as or h\seboats1 %ad$ by r$-embroid]$ canopies1 c\rs+ along ! intricate *annels ( ,dal ,lake1 a network ( canals l a wat]y spid] web4 ,"h ! num]\s float+ g>d5s1 crudely improvis$ ) logs & e>?1 /rike "o ) amazem5t1 s incongru\s is ! fir/ sight ( vegetables & melons gr[+ 9 ! mid/ ( va/ wat]s4 ,occasionally "o sees a peasant1 disda9+ to be 8root$ to ! soil10 t[+ 8 squ>e plot ( 8l&0 to a new location 9 ! _m-f+]$ lake4 ,9 ?is /ori$ vale "o f9ds an epitome ( all ! e>?'s beauties4 ,! ,lady ( ,ka%mir is m\nta9-cr[n$1 lake-g>l&$1 & fl[]-%od4 ,9 lat] ye>s1 aft] ,i _h t\r$ _m di/ant l&s1 ,i und]/ood :y ,ka%mir is (t5 call$ ! _w's mo/ sc5ic spot4 ,x possesses "s ( ! *>ms ( ! ,swiss ,alps1 & ( ,lo* ,lomond 9 ,scotl&1 & ( ! exquisite ,engli% lakes4 ,an ,am]ican travel] 9 ,ka%mir f9ds mu* to rem9d him ( ! rugg$ gr&eur ( ,alaska & ( ,pikes ,peak ne> ,d5v]4 ,z entries 9 a sc5ic beauty conte/1 ,i (f] = fir/ prize ei!r ! gorge\s view ( ,xo*imilco 9 ,mexico1 :]e m\nta9s1 skies1 & popl>s reflect !mselves 9 myriad lanes ( wat] amid/ ! playful fi%1 or ! jewel-l lakes ( ,ka%mir1 gu>d$ l beautiful maid5s by ! /]n surveillance ( ! ,himalayas4 ,^! two places /& out 9 my memory z ! lovelie/ spots on e>?4 ,yet ,i 0 aw$ also :5 ,i fir/ beheld ! wond]s ( ,yell[/one ,national ,p>k & ( ! ,gr& ,canyon ( ! ,colorado1 & ( ,alaska4 ,yell[/one ,p>k is p]haps ! only region :]e "o c see innum]able geys]s %oot+ high into ! air1 p]=m+ ye> aft] ye> ) clockwork regul>ity4 ,its opal & sapphire pools & hot sulphur\s spr+s1 its be>s & wild creatures1 rem9d "o t "h ,nature left a specim5 ( h] e>lie/ creation4 ,motor+ along ! roads ( ,wyom+ to ! 8,devil's ,pa9t ,pot0 ( hot bubbl+ mud1 ) gurgl+ spr+s1 vapor\s f\nta9s1 & sp\t+ geys]s 9 all directions1 ,i 0 dispos$ to say t ,yell[/one des]ves a special prize = uniqu5ess4 ,! anci5t maje/ic r$woods ( ,yosemite1 /ret*+ _! huge columns f> into ! unfa?omable sky1 are gre5 natural ca!drals design$ ) skill div9e4 ,?\gh !re are wond]ful falls 9 ! ,ori5t1 none mat* ! torr5tial beauty ( ,niag>a ne> ! ,canadian bord]4 ,! ,mammo? ,caves ( ,k5tucky & ! ,c>lsbad ,cav]ns 9 ,new ,mexico1 ) colorful iciclelike =mations1 are /unn+ fairyl&s4 ,_! long ne$les ( /alactite spires1 hang+ f cave ceil+s & mirror$ 9 und]gr\nd wat]s1 pres5t a glimpse ( o!r worlds z fanci$ by man4 ,mo/ ( ! ,h9dus ( ,ka%mir1 _w-fam$ = _! beauty1 are z :ite z ,europeans & h simil> features & bone /ructure2 _m h blue eyes & blonde hair4 ,dress$ 9 ,we/]n clo!s1 !y look l ,am]icans4 ,! cold ,himalayas protect ! ,ka%miris f ! sultry sun & pres]ve _! light complexions4 ,z "o travels to ! s\!rn & tropical latitudes ( ,india1 he f9ds progressively t ! p become d>k] & d>k]4 ,aft] sp5d+ happy weeks 9 ,ka%mir1 ,i 0 =c$ to return to ,b5gal = ! fall t]m ( ,s]ampore ,college4 ,sri ,yuktesw> rema9$ 9 ,sr9ag>1 ) ,kanai & ,auddy4 ,be=e ,i dep>t$1 ,ma/] h9t$ t 8 body w\ld be subject to suff]+ 9 ,ka%mir4 8,sir1 y look a picture ( heal?10 ,i prote/$4 8,!re is a *ance t ,i may ev5 leave ?is e>?40 8,guruji60 ,i fell at 8 feet ) an implor+ ge/ure4 8,please promise t y won't leave y\r body n[4 ,i am utt]ly unprep>$ to c>ry on )\t y40 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 sil5t1 b smil$ at me s compassionately t ,i felt reassur$4 ,reluctantly ,i left him4 8,ma/] dang]\sly ill40 ,?is telegram f ,auddy rea*$ me %ortly aft] my return to ,s]ampore4 8,sir10 ,i wir$ my guru frantically1 8,i ask$ = y\r promise n to leave me4 ,please keep y\r body2 o!rwise1 ,i also %all die40 8,be x z y wi%40 ,?is 0 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s reply f ,ka%mir4 ,a lett] f ,auddy arriv$ 9 a few days1 in=m+ me t ,ma/] _h recov]$4 ,on 8 return to ,s]ampore dur+ ! next =tnight1 ,i 0 griev$ to f9d my guru's body r$uc$ to half its usual weight4 ,=tunately = 8 disciples1 ,sri ,yuktesw> burn$ _m ( _! s9s 9 ! fire ( 8 sev]e fev] 9 ,ka%mir4 ,! metaphysical me?od ( physical transf] ( disease is kn[n to highly advanc$ yogis4 ,a /rong man c assi/ a weak] "o by help+ to c>ry 8 heavy load2 a spiritual sup]man is able to m9imize 8 disciples' physical or m5tal burd5s by %>+ ! k>ma ( _! pa/ actions4 ,j z a ri* man loses "s money :5 he pays (f a l>ge debt = 8 prodigal son1 :o is ?us sav$ f dire consequ5ces ( 8 own folly1 s a ma/] will+ly sacrifices a portion ( 8 bodily weal? to light5 ! mis]y ( disciples4 ,,fn#ba-c ,by a secret me?od1 ! yogi unites 8 m9d & a/ral vehicle ) ^? ( a suff]+ individual2 ! disease is convey$1 :olly or 9 "p1 to ! sa9t's body4 ,hav+ h>ve/$ ,god on ! physical field1 a ma/] no long] c>es :at happ5s to t mat]ial =m4 ,?\gh he may all[ x to regi/] a c]ta9 disease 9 ord] to relieve o!rs1 8 m9d is nev] affect$2 he consid]s himself =tunate 9 be+ able to r5d] su* aid4 ,! devotee :o has a*iev$ f9al salvation 9 ! ,"l f9ds t 8 body has completely fulfill$ its purpose2 he c !n use x 9 any way he deems fit4 ,8 "w 9 ! _w is to alleviate ! sorr[s ( mank9d1 :e!r ?r\gh spiritual means or by intellectual c\nsel or ?r\gh w p[] or by ! physical transf] ( disease4 ,escap+ to ! sup]consci\sness :5ev] he s desires1 a ma/] c rema9 oblivi\s ( physical suff]+2 sometimes he *ooses to be> bodily pa9 /oically1 z an example to disciples4 ,by putt+ on ! ailm5ts ( o!rs1 a yogi c satisfy1 = !m1 ! k>mic law ( cause & effect4 ,?is law is me*anically or ma!matically op]ative2 its work+s c be sci5tifically manipulat$ by m5 ( div9e wisdom4 ,! spiritual law does n require a ma/] to become ill :5ev] he heals ano!r p]son4 ,heal+s ord9>ily take place ?r\gh ! sa9t's k ( v>i\s me?ods ( in/antane\s cure 9 :i* no hurt to ! spiritual heal] is involv$4 ,on r>e occasions1 h[ev]1 a ma/] :o wi%es to greatly quick5 8 disciples' evolution may !n volunt>ily "w out on 8 own body a l>ge measure ( _! undesirable k>ma4 ,jesus signifi$ himself z a ransom = ! s9s ( _m4 ,) 8 div9e p[]s1 ,,fn#ba-d 8 body c\ld nev] h be5 subject$ to dea? by crucifixion if he _h n will+ly coop]at$ ) ! subtle cosmic law ( cause & effect4 ,he ?us took on himself ! consequ5ces ( o!rs' k>ma1 especially t ( 8 disciples4 ,9 ?is mann] !y 7 highly purifi$ & made fit to receive ! omnipres5t consci\sness :i* lat] desc5d$ on !m4 ,only a self-realiz$ ma/] c transf] 8 life =ce1 or convey into 8 own body ! diseases ( o!rs4 ,an ord9>y man _c employ ?is yogic me?od ( cure1 nor is x desirable t he %\ld d s2 = an uns\nd physical in/rum5t is a h9drance to ,god--m$itation4 ,! ,h9du scriptures tea* t ! fir/ duty ( man is to keep 8 body 9 good condition2 o!rwise 8 m9d is unable to rema9 fix$ 9 devotional conc5tration4 ,a v /rong m9d1 h[ev]1 c transc5d all physical difficulties & atta9 to ,god-realization4 ,_m sa9ts h ignor$ illness & succe$$ 9 _! div9e que/4 ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi1 sev]ely afflict$ ) ailm5ts1 heal$ o!rs & ev5 rais$ ! dead4 ,i knew an ,indian sa9t1 half ( ^: body 0 once fe/]+ ) sores4 ,8 diabetic condition 0 s acute t "u ord9>y conditions he c\ld n sit /ill at "o "t = m ?an fifte5 m9utes4 ,b 8 spiritual aspiration 0 undet]rable4 8,"l10 he pray$1 8wilt ,?\ come into my brok5 temple80 ,) ceaseless comm& ( w1 ! sa9t gradually became able to sit daily 9 ! lotus po/ure = eighte5 cont9u\s h\rs1 engross$ 9 ! ec/atic trance4 8,&10 he told me1 8at ! end ( ?ree ye>s1 ,i f\nd ! ,inf9ite ,light blaz+ )9 my %att]$ =m4 ,rejoic+ 9 ! joyful spl5d\r1 ,i =got ! body4 ,lat] ,i saw t x _h become :ole ?r\gh ! ,div9e ,m]cy40 ,a hi/orical heal+ incid5t conc]ns ,k+ ,bab] 7#adhc-aecj71 f\nd] ( ! ,mogul empire 9 ,india4 ,8 son1 ,pr9ce ,humayun1 0 mortally ill4 ,! fa!r pray$ ) angui%$ det]m9ation t he receive ! sickness1 & t 8 son be sp>$4 ,aft] all physicians _h giv5 up hope1 ,humayun recov]$4 ,bab] imm$iately fell sick & di$ ( ! same disease :i* _h /rick5 8 son4 ,humayun succe$$ ,bab] z ,emp]or ( ,h9du/an4 ,_m p imag9e t e spiritual ma/] has1 or %\ld h1 ! heal? & /r5g? ( a ,s&[4 ,! assumption is unf\nd$4 ,a sickly body does n indicate t a guru is n 9 t\* ) div9e p[]s1 any m ?an lifelong heal? necess>ily indicates an inn] illum9ation4 ,! condition ( ! physical body1 9 o!r words1 _c rightfully be made a te/ ( a ma/]4 ,8 di/+ui%+ qualifications mu/ be s\ght 9 8 own doma91 ! spiritual4 ,num]\s bewild]$ seek]s 9 ! ,we/ errone\sly ?9k t an eloqu5t speak] or writ] on metaphysics mu/ be a ma/]4 ,! ri%is1 h[ev]1 h po9t$ out t ! acid te/ ( a ma/] is a man's ability to ent] at w ! brea?less /ate1 & to ma9ta9 ! unbrok5 ,,samadhi ( ,,nirbikalpa4 ,,fn#ba-e ,only by ^! a*ievem5ts c a human be+ prove t he has 8ma/]$0 ,,maya or ! duali/ic ,cosmic ,delusion4 ,he alone c say f ! dep?s ( realization3 8,,ekam ,,sat10-8,only ,"o exi/s40 8,! ,,v$as decl>e t ! ignorant man :o re/s cont5t ) mak+ ! slighte/ di/9ction betwe5 ! individual s\l & ! ,supreme ,self is expos$ to dang]10 ,%ank>a ! great moni/ has writt54 8,:]e !re is duality by virtue ( ignorance1 "o sees all ?+s z di/9ct f ! ,self4 ,:5 ev]y?+ is se5 z ! ,self1 !n !re is n ev5 an atom o!r ?an ! ,self4 4 4 4 8,z soon z ! k ( ! ,reality has sprung up1 !re c be no fruits ( pa/ actions to be exp]i5c$1 ow+ to ! unreality ( ! body1 9 ! same way z !re c be no dream aft] wak+40 ,only great gurus are able to assume ! k>ma ( disciples4 ,sri ,yuktesw> w\ld n h suff]$ 9 ,ka%mir unless he _h receiv$ p]mission f ! ,_s )9 him to help 8 disciples 9 t /range way4 ,few sa9ts 7 ev] m s5sitively equipp$ ) wisdom to c>ry out div9e comm&s ?an my ,god-tun$ ,ma/]4 ,:5 ,i v5tur$ a few words ( sympa?y ov] 8 emaciat$ figure1 my guru said gaily3 8,x has its good po9ts2 ,i am able n[ to get into "s small ,,ganjis 7und]%irts7 t ,i hav5't worn 9 ye>s60 ,li/5+ to ,ma/]'s jovial laugh1 ,i rememb]$ ! words ( ,/4 ,francis de ,sales3 8,a sa9t t is sad is a sad sa9t60 ,,fn#ba-a ,x is a m>k ( disrespect1 9 ,india1 to smoke 9 ! pres5ce ( "o's eld]s & sup]iors4 ,,fn#ba-b ,! ,ori5tal plane tree44 ,,fn#ba-c ,_m ,*ri/ian sa9ts1 includ+ ,!rese ,neumann 7see *apt] #ci71 are famili> ) ! metaphysical transf] ( disease4 ,,fn#ba-d ,*ri/ said1 j be=e he 0 l$ away to be crucifi$3 8,?9ke/ ?\ t ,i _c n[ pray to my ,fa!r1 & he %all pres5tly give me m ?an twelve legions ( angels8 ,b h[ !n %all ! scriptures be fulfill$1 t ?us x mu/ be80-,,mat!w #bf3ec-ed4 ,,fn#ba-e ,see 44_/*apt]s #bf1 #dc ,,notes4 ,,*apt]3 #bb ,,! ,,he>t ,,( ,a ,,/one ,,image 8,z a loyal ,h9du wife1 ,i d n wi% to compla9 ( my husb&4 ,b ,i ye>n to see him turn f 8 mat]iali/ic views4 ,he delights 9 ridicul+ ! pictures ( sa9ts 9 my m$itation room4 ,de> bro!r1 ,i h deep fai? t y c help him4 ,w y80 ,my elde/ si/] ,roma gaz$ besee*+ly at me4 ,i 0 pay+ a %ort visit at h] ,calcutta home on ,giri% ,vidy>atna ,lane4 ,h] plea t\*$ me1 = %e _h ex]cis$ a pr(\nd spiritual influ5ce ov] my e>ly life1 & _h lov+ly tri$ to fill ! void left 9 ! family circle by ,"m's dea?4 8,belov$ si/]1 ( c\rse ,i w d any?+ ,i c40 ,i smil$1 eag] to lift ! gloom pla9ly visible on h] face1 9 contra/ to h] usual calm & *e]ful expression4 ,roma & ,i sat a:ile 9 sil5t pray] = guidance4 ,a ye> e>li]1 my si/] _h ask$ me to initiate h] into ,,kriya ,,yoga1 9 :i* %e 0 mak+ notable progress4 ,an inspiration seiz$ me4 8,tomorr[10 ,i said1 8,i am go+ to ! ,dak%9esw> temple4 ,please come ) me1 & p]suade y\r husb& to accompany u4 ,i feel t 9 ! vibrations ( t holy place1 ,div9e ,"m w t\* 8 he>t4 ,b don't disclose our object 9 want+ him to g40 ,si/] agre$ hopefully4 ,v e>ly ! next morn+ ,i 0 pleas$ to f9d t ,roma & h] husb& 7 9 read9ess = ! trip4 ,z our hackney c>riage rattl$ along ,upp] ,circul> ,road t[>d ,dak%9esw>1 my bro!r-9-law1 ,sati% ,*&ra ,bose1 amus$ himself by d]id+ spiritual gurus ( ! pa/1 pres5t1 & future4 ,i notic$ t ,roma 0 quietly weep+4 8,si/]1 *e] up60 ,i :isp]$4 8,don't give y\r husb& ! satisfaction ( believ+ t we take 8 mock]y s]i\sly40 8,mukunda1 h[ c y admire wor?less humbugs80 ,sati% 0 say+4 8,a ,,sadhu',s v appe>ance is repulsive4 ,he is ei!r z ?9 z a skeleton1 or z unholily fat z an elephant60 ,i %\t$ ) laught]4 ,my good-natur$ reaction 0 annoy+ to ,sati%2 he retir$ into sull5 sil5ce4 ,z our cab ent]$ ! ,dak%9esw> gr\nds1 he gr9n$ s>ca/ically4 8,?is excursion1 ,i suppose1 is a s*eme to re=m me80 ,z ,i turn$ away )\t reply1 he caught my arm4 8,"y ,mr4 ,monk10 he said1 8don't =get to make prop] arrangem5ts ) ! temple au?orities to provide = our noon meal40 8,i am go+ to m$itate n[4 ,d n worry ab\t y\r lun*10 ,i repli$ %>ply4 8,div9e ,"m w look aft] x40 8,i don't tru/ ,div9e ,"m to d a s+le ?+ = me4 ,b ,i d hold y responsible = my food40 ,sati%'s tones 7 ?reat5+4 ,i proce$$ alone to ! colonnad$ hall :i* fronts ! l>ge temple ( ,kali1 or ,"m ,nature4 ,select+ a %ady spot ne> "o ( ! pill>s1 ,i arrang$ my body 9 ! lotus po/ure4 ,al?\gh x 0 only ab\t sev5 o'clock1 ! morn+ sun w\ld soon be oppressive4 ,! _w rec$$ z ,i became devotionally entranc$4 ,my m9d 0 conc5trat$ on ,goddess ,kali1 ^: image at ,dak%9esw> _h be5 ! special object ( adoration by ! great ma/]1 ,sri ,ramakri%na ,p>amhansa4 ,9 answ] to 8 angui%$ dem&s1 ! /one image ( ?is v temple _h (t5 tak5 a liv+ =m & conv]s$ ) him4 8,sil5t ,"m ) /ony he>t10 ,i pray$1 8,?\ became/ fill$ ) life at ! reque/ ( ,?y belov$ devotee ,ramakri%na2 :y do/ ,?\ n also he$ ! wails ( ?is ye>n+ son ( ,?9e80 ,my aspir+ zeal increas$ b\ndlessly1 accompani$ by a div9e peace4 ,yet1 :5 five h\rs _h pass$1 & ! ,goddess :om ,i 0 inw>dly visualiz+ _h made no response1 ,i felt slightly di%e>t5$4 ,sometimes x is a te/ by ,god to delay ! fulfillm5t ( pray]s4 ,b ,he ev5tually appe>s to ! p]si/5t devotee 9 :atev] =m he holds de>4 ,a dev\t ,*ri/ian sees ,jesus2 a ,h9du beholds ,kri%na1 or ! ,goddess ,kali1 or an exp&+ ,light if 8 wor%ip takes an imp]sonal turn4 ,reluctantly ,i op5$ my eyes1 & saw t ! temple doors 7 be+ lock$ by a prie/1 9 con=mance ) a noon-h\r cu/om4 ,i rose f my seclud$ seat "u ! op51 ro($ hall1 & /epp$ into ! c\rty>d4 ,its /one floor 0 scor*+ "u ! midday sun2 my b>e feet 7 pa9fully burn$4 8,div9e ,"m10 ,i sil5tly remon/rat$1 8,?\ did/ n come to me 9 vision1 & n[ ,?\ art hidd5 9 ! temple beh9d clos$ doors4 ,i want$ to (f] a special pray] to ,!e today on behalf ( my bro!r-9-law40 ,my inw>d petition 0 in/antly ackn[l$g$4 ,fir/1 a delightful cold wave desc5d$ ov] my back & "u my feet1 bani%+ all discom=t4 ,!n1 to my amazem5t1 ! temple became greatly magnifi$4 ,its l>ge door sl[ly op5$1 reveal+ ! /one figure ( ,goddess ,kali4 ,gradually x *ang$ into a liv+ =m1 smil+ly nodd+ 9 greet+1 ?rill+ me ) joy indescribable4 ,z if by a my/ic syr+e1 ! brea? 0 )drawn f my lungs2 my body became v /ill1 ?\gh n in]t4 ,an ec/atic enl>gem5t ( consci\sness foll[$4 ,i c\ld see cle>ly = sev]al miles ov] ! ,ganges ,riv] to my left1 & beyond ! temple into ! entire ,dak%9esw> prec9cts4 ,! walls ( all build+s glimm]$ transp>5tly2 ?r\gh !m ,i obs]v$ p walk+ to & fro ov] di/ant acres4 ,?\gh ,i 0 brea?less & my body 9 a /rangely quiet /ate1 yet ,i 0 able to move my h&s & feet freely4 ,= sev]al m9utes ,i exp]im5t$ 9 clos+ & op5+ my eyes2 9 ei!r /ate ,i saw di/9ctly ! :ole ,dak%9esw> panorama4 ,spiritual sight1 x-raylike1 p5etrates into all matt]2 ! div9e eye is c5t] ev]y:]e1 circumf]5ce n[h]e4 ,i realiz$ anew1 /&+ !re 9 ! sunny c\rty>d1 t :5 man ceases to be a prodigal *ild ( ,god1 engross$ 9 a physical _w inde$ dream1 baseless z a bubble1 he re9h]its 8 et]nal realms4 ,if 8escapism0 be a ne$ ( man1 cramp$ 9 8 n>r[ p]sonality1 c any escape comp>e ) ! maje/y ( omnipres5ce8 ,9 my sacr$ exp]i5ce at ,dak%9esw>1 ! only extraord9>ily-enl>g$ objects 7 ! temple & ! =m ( ! ,goddess4 ,ev]y?+ else appe>$ 9 its normal dim5sions1 al?\gh ea* 0 enclos$ 9 a halo ( mell[ light-:ite1 blue1 & pa/el ra9b[ hues4 ,my body seem$ to be ( e!real sub/ance1 ready to levitate4 ,fully consci\s ( my mat]ial surr\nd+s1 ,i 0 look+ ab\t me & tak+ a few /eps )\t di/urb+ ! cont9uity ( ! blissful vision4 ,beh9d ! temple walls ,i sudd5ly glimps$ my bro!r-9-law z he sat "u ! ?orny bran*es ( a sacr$ ,,bel tree4 ,i c\ld ef=tlessly disc]n ! c\rse ( 8 ?\ghts4 ,some:at uplift$ "u ! holy influ5ce ( ,dak%9esw>1 8 m9d yet held unk9d reflections ab\t me4 ,i turn$ directly to ! graci\s =m ( ! ,goddess4 8,div9e ,"m10 ,i pray$1 8wilt ,?\ n spiritually *ange my si/]'s husb&80 ,! beautiful figure1 hi!rto sil5t1 spoke at la/3 8,?y wi% is grant$60 ,i look$ happily at ,sati%4 ,z ?\gh in/9ctively aw>e t "s spiritual p[] 0 at "w1 he rose res5tfully f 8 seat on ! gr\nd4 ,i saw him runn+ beh9d ! temple2 he approa*$ me1 %ak+ 8 fi/4 ,! all-embrac+ vision disappe>$4 ,no long] c\ld ,i see ! glori\s ,goddess2 ! t[]+ temple 0 r$uc$ to its ord9>y size1 m9us its transp>5cy4 ,aga9 my body swelt]$ "u ! fi]ce rays ( ! sun4 ,i jump$ to ! %elt] ( ! pill>$ hall1 :]e ,sati% pursu$ me angrily4 ,i look$ at my wat*4 ,x 0 "o o'clock2 ! div9e vision _h la/$ an h\r4 8,y little fool10 my bro!r-9-law blurt$ out1 8y h be5 sitt+ !re cross-legg$ & cross-ey$ = six h\rs4 ,i h gone back & =? wat*+ y4 ,:]e is my food8 ,n[ ! temple is clos$2 y fail$ to notify ! au?orities2 we are left )\t lun*60 ,! exaltation ,i _h felt at ! ,goddess' pres5ce 0 /ill vibrant )9 my he>t4 ,i 0 embold5$ to exclaim1 8,div9e ,"m w fe$ u60 ,sati% 0 beside himself ) rage4 8,once & = all10 he %\t$1 8,i w\ld l to see y\r ,div9e ,"m giv+ u food "h )\t prior arrangem5ts60 ,8 words 7 h>dly utt]$ :5 a temple prie/ cross$ ! c\rty>d & jo9$ u4 8,son10 he address$ me1 8,i h be5 obs]v+ y\r face s]5ely gl[+ dur+ h\rs ( m$itation4 ,i saw ! arrival ( y\r p>ty ?is morn+1 & felt a desire to put aside ample food = y\r lun*4 ,x is aga9/ ! temple rules to fe$ ^? :o d n make a reque/ be=eh&1 b ,i h made an exception = y40 ,i ?ank$ him1 & gaz$ /raight into ,sati%'s eyes4 ,he flu%$ ) emotion1 l[]+ 8 gaze 9 sil5t rep5tance4 ,:5 we 7 s]v$ a lavi% meal1 includ+ out-(-season mangoes1 ,i notic$ t my bro!r-9-law's appetite 0 meag]4 ,he 0 bewild]$1 div+ deep into ! ocean ( ?\ght4 ,on ! return j\rney to ,calcutta1 ,sati%1 ) s(t5$ expression1 occasionally glanc$ at me plead+ly4 ,b he did n speak a s+le ^w aft] ! mom5t ! prie/ _h appe>$ to invite u to lun*1 z ?\gh 9 direct answ] to ,sati%'s *all5ge4 ,! foll[+ aft]noon ,i visit$ my si/] at h] home4 ,%e greet$ me affectionately4 8,de> bro!r10 %e cri$1 8:at a miracle6 ,la/ ev5+ my husb& wept op5ly be=e me4 8#8,belov$ ,,devi1' ,,fn#bb-a he said1 #8,i am happy beyond expression t ?is re=m+ s*eme ( y\r bro!r's has wr\ght a trans=mation4 ,i am go+ to undo e wrong ,i h done y4 ,f tonight we w use our l>ge b$room only z a place ( wor%ip2 y\r small m$itation room %all be *ang$ into our sleep+ qu>t]s4 ,i am s9c]ely sorry t ,i h ridicul$ y\r bro!r4 ,= ! %ameful way ,i h be5 act+1 ,i w puni% myself by n talk+ to ,mukunda until ,i h progress$ 9 ! spiritual pa?4 ,deeply ,i w seek ! ,div9e ,"m f n[ on2 som$ay ,i mu/ surely f9d ,h]6'0 ,ye>s lat]1 ,i visit$ my bro!r-9-law 9 ,delhi4 ,i 0 ov]joy$ to p]ceive t he _h develop$ highly 9 self-realization1 & _h be5 bless$ by ! vision ( ,div9e ,"m4 ,dur+ my /ay ) him1 ,i notic$ t ,sati% secretly sp5t ! great] "p ( e night 9 div9e m$itation1 ?\gh he 0 suff]+ f a s]i\s ailm5t1 & 0 engag$ dur+ ! day at 8 (fice4 ,! ?\ght came to me t my bro!r-9-law's life span w\ld n be a long "o4 ,roma mu/ h read my m9d4 8,de> bro!r10 %e said1 8,i am well1 & my husb& is sick4 ,nev]!less1 ,i want y to "k t1 z a devot$ ,h9du wife1 ,i am go+ to be ! fir/ "o to die4 ,,fn#bb-b ,x won't be long n[ be=e ,i pass on40 ,tak5 aback at h] om9\s words1 ,i yet realiz$ _! /+ ( tru?4 ,i 0 9 ,am]ica :5 my si/] di$1 ab\t a ye> aft] h] pr$iction4 ,my y\nge/ bro!r ,bi%nu lat] gave me ! details4 8,roma & ,sati% 7 9 ,calcutta at ! "t ( h] dea?10 ,bi%nu told me4 8,t morn+ %e dress$ h]self 9 h] bridal f9]y4 8#8,:y ?is special co/ume8' ,sati% inquir$4 8#8,?is is my la/ day ( s]vice to y on e>?1' ,roma repli$4 ,a %ort "t lat] %e _h a he>t attack4 ,z h] son 0 ru%+ out = aid1 %e said3 8#8,son1 d n leave me4 ,x is no use2 ,i %all be gone be=e a doctor c\ld arrive4' ,t5 m9utes lat]1 hold+ ! feet ( h] husb& 9 rev]5ce1 ,roma consci\sly left h] body1 happily & )\t suff]+4 8,sati% became v reclusive aft] 8 wife's dea?10 ,bi%nu cont9u$4 8,"o day he & ,i 7 look+ at a l>ge smil+ photograph ( ,roma4 8#8,:y d y smile8' ,sati% sudd5ly exclaim$1 z ?\gh 8 wife 7 pres5t4 #8,y ?9k y 7 clev] 9 arrang+ to g be=e me4 ,i %all prove t y _c long rema9 away f me2 soon ,i %all jo9 y4' 8,al?\gh at ?is "t ,sati% _h fully recov]$ f 8 sickness1 & 0 enjoy+ excell5t heal?1 he di$ )\t app>5t cause %ortly aft] 8 /range rem>k be=e ! photograph40 ,?us prophetically pass$ my de>ly belov$ elde/ si/] ,roma1 & h] husb& ,sati%-he :o *ang$ at ,dak%9esw> f an ord9>y worldly man to a sil5t sa9t4 ,,fn#bb-a ,goddess4 ,,fn#bb-b ,! ,h9du wife believes x is a sign ( spiritual advancem5t if %e dies be=e h] husb&1 z a pro( ( h] loyal s]vice to him1 or 8dy+ 9 h>ness40 ,,*apt]3 #bc ,i ,,receive ,,my ,,univ]sity ,,degree 8,y ignore y\r textbook assignm5ts 9 philosophy4 ,no d\bt y are dep5d+ on an unlabori\s #8intuition' to get y ?r\gh ! exam9ations4 ,b unless y apply y\rself 9 a m s*ol>ly mann]1 ,i %all see to x t y don't pass ?is c\rse40 ,pr(essor ,d4 ,c4 ,gho%al ( ,s]ampore ,college 0 address+ me /]nly4 ,if ,i fail$ to pass 8 f9al writt5 classroom te/1 ,i w\ld be ineligible to take ! conclusive exam9ations4 ,^! are =mulat$ by ! faculty ( ,calcutta ,univ]sity1 :i* numb]s ,s]ampore ,college among its affiliat$ bran*es4 ,a /ud5t 9 ,indian univ]sities :o is unsuccessful 9 "o subject 9 ! ,a4,b4 f9als mu/ be exam9$ anew 9 ,,all 8 subjects ! foll[+ ye>4 ,my in/ructors at ,s]ampore ,college usually treat$ me ) k9dness1 n unt+$ by an amus$ tol]ance4 8,mukunda is a bit ov]-drunk ) religion40 ,?us summ+ me up1 !y tactfully sp>$ me ! emb>rassm5t ( answ]+ classroom que/ions2 !y tru/$ ! f9al writt5 te/s to elim9ate me f ! li/ ( ,a4,b4 c&idates4 ,! judgm5t pass$ by my fell[ /ud5ts 0 express$ 9 _! nickname = me-8,mad ,monk40 ,i took an +5i\s /ep to nullify ,pr(essor ,gho%al's ?reat to me ( failure 9 philosophy4 ,:5 ! results ( ! f9al te/s 7 ab\t to be publicly ann\nc$1 ,i ask$ a classmate to accompany me to ! pr(essor's /udy4 8,come along2 ,i want a witness10 ,i told my companion4 8,i %all be v mu* disappo9t$ if ,i h n succe$$ 9 outwitt+ ! in/ructor40 ,pr(essor ,gho%al %ook 8 head aft] ,i _h inquir$ :at rat+ he _h giv5 my pap]4 8,y are n among ^? :o h pass$10 he said 9 triumph4 ,he hunt$ ?r\gh a l>ge pile on 8 desk4 8,y\r pap] isn't "h at all2 y h fail$1 9 any case1 ?r\gh non-appe>ance at ! exam9ation40 ,i *uckl$4 8,sir1 ,i 0 !re4 ,may ,i look ?r\gh ! /ack myself80 ,! pr(essor1 nonplus$1 gave 8 p]mission2 ,i quickly f\nd my pap]1 :]e ,i _h c>efully omitt$ any id5tification m>k except my roll call numb]4 ,unw>n$ by ! 8r$ flag0 ( my "n1 ! in/ructor _h giv5 a high rat+ to my answ]s ev5 ?\gh !y 7 unembelli%$ by textbook quotations4 ,,fn#bc-a ,see+ ?r\gh my trick1 he n[ ?und]$1 8,%e] braz5 luck60 ,he add$ hopefully1 8,y are sure to fail 9 ! ,a4,b4 f9als40 ,= ! te/s 9 my o!r subjects1 ,i receiv$ "s coa*+1 p>ticul>ly f my de> fri5d & c\s91 ,prabhas ,*&ra ,ghose1 ,,fn#bc-b son ( my ,uncle ,s>ada4 ,i /agg]$ pa9fully b successfully-) ! l[e/ possible pass+ m>ks-?r\gh all my f9al te/s4 ,n[1 aft] f\r ye>s ( college1 ,i 0 eligible to sit = ! ,a4,b4 exam9ations4 ,nev]!less1 ,i h>dly expect$ to avail myself ( ! privilege4 ,! ,s]ampore ,college f9als 7 *ild's play comp>$ to ! /iff ones :i* w\ld be set by ,calcutta ,univ]sity = ! ,a4,b4 degree4 ,my almo/ daily visits to ,sri ,yuktesw> _h left me little "t to ent] ! college halls4 ,!re x 0 my pres5ce r ?an my abs5ce t br\ght =? ejaculations ( amazem5t f my classmates6 ,my cu/om>y r\t9e 0 to set out on my bicycle ab\t n9e-?irty 9 ! morn+4 ,9 "o h& ,i w\ld c>ry an (f]+ = my guru-a few fl[]s f ! g>d5 ( my ,,pan?i bo>d+h\se4 ,greet+ me affably1 ,ma/] w\ld invite me to lun*4 ,i inv>iably accept$ ) alacrity1 glad to bani% ! ?\ght ( college = ! day4 ,aft] h\rs ) ,sri ,yuktesw>1 li/5+ to 8 incomp>able fl[ ( wisdom1 or help+ ) a%ram duties1 ,i w\ld reluctantly dep>t ar\nd midnight = ! ,,pan?i4 ,occasionally ,i /ay$ all night ) my guru1 s happily engross$ 9 8 conv]sation t ,i sc>cely notic$ :5 d>kness *ang$ into dawn4 ,"o night ab\t elev5 o'clock1 z ,i 0 putt+ on my %oes ,,fn#bc-c 9 prep>ation = ! ride to ! bo>d+h\se1 ,ma/] que/ion$ me gravely4 8,:5 d y\r ,a4,b4 exam9ations />t80 8,five days h5ce1 sir40 8,i hope y are 9 read9ess = !m40 ,transfix$ ) al>m1 ,i held "o %oe 9 ! air4 8,sir10 ,i prote/$1 8y "k h[ my days h be5 pass$ ) y r ?an ) ! pr(essors4 ,h[ c ,i enact a f>ce by appe>+ = ^? difficult f9als80 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s eyes 7 turn$ pi]c+ly on m9e4 8,y mu/ appe>40 ,8 tone 0 coldly p]emptory4 8,we %\ld n give cause = y\r fa!r & o!r relatives to criticize y\r pref]5ce = a%ram life4 ,j promise me t y w be pres5t = ! exam9ations2 answ] !m ! be/ way y c40 ,uncontrollable te>s 7 c\rs+ d[n my face4 ,i felt t ,ma/]'s comm& 0 unreasonable1 & t 8 int]e/ 01 to say ! lea/1 belat$4 8,i w appe> if y wi% x10 ,i said amid/ sobs4 8,b no "t rema9s = prop] prep>ation40 ,"u my brea? ,i mutt]$1 8,i w fill up ! %eets ) y\r tea*+s 9 answ] to ! que/ions60 ,:5 ,i ent]$ ! h]mitage ! foll[+ day at my usual h\r1 ,i pres5t$ my b\quet ) a c]ta9 m\rnful solemnity4 ,sri ,yuktesw> laugh$ at my woebegone air4 8,mukunda1 has ! ,"l ev] fail$ y1 at an exam9ation or else:]e80 8,no1 sir10 ,i respond$ w>mly4 ,grateful memories came 9 a revivify+ flood4 8,n laz9ess b burn+ zeal = ,god has prev5t$ y f seek+ college honors10 my guru said k9dly4 ,aft] a sil5ce1 he quot$1 8#8,seek ye fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god1 & ,8 righte\sness2 & all ^! ?+s %all be add$ unto y4'0 ,,fn#bc-d ,= ! ?\s&? "t1 ,i felt my burd5s lift$ 9 ,ma/]'s pres5ce4 ,:5 we _h f9i%$ our e>ly lun*1 he sugge/$ t ,i return to ! ,,pan?i4 8,does y\r fri5d1 ,rome% ,*&ra ,dutt1 /ill live 9 y\r bo>d+h\se80 8,yes1 sir40 8,get 9 t\* ) him2 ! ,"l w inspire him to help y ) ! exam9ations40 8,v well1 sir2 b ,rome% is unusually busy4 ,he is ! honor man 9 our class1 & c>ries a heavi] c\rse ?an ! o!rs40 ,ma/] wav$ aside my objections4 8,rome% w f9d "t = y4 ,n[ g40 ,i bicycl$ back to ! ,,pan?i4 ,! fir/ p]son ,i met 9 ! bo>d+h\se comp\nd 0 ! s*ol>ly ,rome%4 ,z ?\gh 8 days 7 q free1 he oblig+ly agre$ to my diffid5t reque/4 8,( c\rse2 ,i am at y\r s]vice40 ,he sp5t sev]al h\rs ( t aft]noon & ( succe$+ days 9 coa*+ me 9 my v>i\s subjects4 8,i believe _m que/ions 9 ,engli% lit]ature w be c5t]$ 9 ! r\te ( ,*ilde ,h>old10 he told me4 8,we mu/ get an atlas at once40 ,i ha/5$ to ! home ( my ,uncle ,s>ada & borr[$ an atlas4 ,rome% m>k$ ! ,european map at ! places visit$ by ,byron's romantic travel]4 ,a few classmates _h ga!r$ ar\nd to li/5 to ! tutor+4 8,rome% is advis+ y wrongly10 "o ( !m comm5t$ to me at ! end ( a session4 8,usually only fifty p] c5t ( ! que/ions are ab\t ! books2 ! o!r half w involve ! au?ors' lives40 ,:5 ,i sat = ! exam9ation 9 ,engli% lit]ature ! foll[+ day1 my fir/ glance at ! que/ions caus$ te>s ( gratitude to p\r =?1 wett+ my pap]4 ,! classroom monitor came to my desk & made a sympa!tic inquiry4 8,my guru =etold t ,rome% w\ld help me10 ,i expla9$4 8,look2 ! v que/ions dictat$ to me by ,rome% are "h on ! exam9ation %eet6 ,=tunately = me1 !re are v few que/ions ?is ye> on ,engli% au?ors1 ^: lives are wrapp$ 9 deep my/]y s f> z ,i am conc]n$60 ,my bo>d+h\se 0 9 an upro> :5 ,i return$4 ,! boys :o _h be5 ridicul+ ,rome%'s me?od ( coa*+ look$ at me 9 awe1 almo/ deaf5+ me ) congratulations4 ,dur+ ! week ( ! exam9ations1 ,i sp5t _m h\rs ) ,rome%1 :o =mulat$ que/ions t he ?\ght 7 likely to be set by ! pr(essors4 ,day by day1 ,rome%'s que/ions appe>$ 9 almo/ ! same =m on ! exam9ation %eets4 ,! news 0 widely circulat$ 9 ! college t some?+ resembl+ a miracle 0 occurr+1 & t success seem$ probable = ! abs5t-m9d$ 8,mad ,monk40 ,i made no attempt to hide ! facts ( ! case4 ,! local pr(essors 7 p[]less to alt] ! que/ions1 :i* _h be5 arrang$ by ,calcutta ,univ]sity4 ,?9k+ ov] ! exam9ation 9 ,engli% lit]ature1 ,i realiz$ "o morn+ t ,i _h made a s]i\s error4 ,"o section ( ! que/ions _h be5 divid$ into two p>ts ( ,a or ,b1 & ,c or ,d4 ,in/ead ( answ]+ "o "q f ea* "p1 ,i _h c>elessly answ]$ bo? que/ions 9 ,gr\p ,i1 & _h fail$ to consid] any?+ 9 ,gr\p ,,ii4 ,! be/ m>k ,i c\ld score 9 t pap] w\ld be #cc1 ?ree less ?an ! pass+ m>k ( #cf4 ,i ru%$ to ,ma/] & p\r$ out my tr\bles4 8,sir1 ,i h made an unp>donable blund]4 ,i don't des]ve ! div9e bless+s ?r\gh ,rome%2 ,i am q unwor?y40 8,*e] up1 ,mukunda40 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s tones 7 light & unconc]n$4 ,he po9t$ to ! blue vault ( ! heav5s4 8,x is m possible = ! sun & moon to int]*ange _! positions 9 space ?an x is = y to fail 9 gett+ y\r degree60 ,i left ! h]mitage 9 a m tranquil mood1 ?\gh x seem$ ma!matically inconceivable t ,i c\ld pass4 ,i look$ once or twice appreh5sively into ! sky2 ! ,"l ( ,day appe>$ to be securely an*or$ 9 8 cu/om>y orbit6 ,z ,i rea*$ ! ,,pan?i1 ,i ov]he>d a classmate's rem>k3 8,i h j le>n$ t ?is ye>1 = ! fir/ "t1 ! requir$ pass+ m>k 9 ,engli% lit]ature has be5 l[]$40 ,i ent]$ ! boy's room ) su* spe$ t he look$ up 9 al>m4 ,i que/ion$ him eag]ly4 8,long-hair$ monk10 he said laugh+ly1 8:y ?is sudd5 int]e/ 9 s*ola/ic matt]s8 ,:y cry 9 ! elev5? h\r8 ,b x is true t ! pass+ m>k has j be5 l[]$ to #cc po9ts40 ,a few joy\s leaps took me into my own room1 :]e ,i sank to my knees & prais$ ! ma!matical p]fections ( my ,div9e ,fa!r4 ,e day ,i ?rill$ ) ! consci\sness ( a spiritual pres5ce t ,i cle>ly felt to be guid+ me ?r\gh ,rome%4 ,a significant incid5t occurr$ 9 connection ) ! exam9ation 9 ,b5gali4 ,rome%1 :o _h t\*$ little on t subject1 call$ me back "o morn+ z ,i 0 leav+ ! bo>d+h\se on my way to ! exam9ation hall4 8,!re is ,rome% %\t+ = y10 a classmate said to me impati5tly4 8,don't return2 we %all be late at ! hall40 ,ignor+ ! advice1 ,i ran back to ! h\se4 8,! ,b5gali exam9ation is usually easily pass$ by our ,b5gali boys10 ,rome% told me4 8,b ,i h j _h a hun* t ?is ye> ! pr(essors h plann$ to massacre ! /ud5ts by ask+ que/ions f our anci5t lit]ature40 ,my fri5d !n briefly outl9$ two /ories f ! life ( ,vidyasag>1 a r5[n$ philan?ropi/4 ,i ?ank$ ,rome% & quickly bicycl$ to ! college hall4 ,! exam9ation %eet 9 ,b5gali prov$ to conta9 two p>ts4 ,! fir/ in/ruction 03 8,write two in/ances ( ! *>ities ( ,vidyasag>40 ,z ,i transf]r$ to ! pap] ! lore t ,i _h s rec5tly acquir$1 ,i :isp]$ a few words ( ?anksgiv+ t ,i _h he$$ ,rome%'s la/-m9ute summons4 ,_h ,i be5 ignorant ( ,vidyasag>'s b5efactions to mank9d 7includ+ ultimately myself71 ,i c\ld n h pass$ ! ,b5gali exam9ation4 ,fail+ 9 "o subject1 ,i w\ld h be5 =c$ to /& exam9ation anew 9 all subjects ! foll[+ ye>4 ,su* a prospect 0 und]/&ably abhorr5t4 ,! second in/ruction on ! %eet read3 8,write an essay 9 ,b5gali on ! life ( ! man :o has mo/ inspir$ y40 ,g5tle read]1 ,i ne$ n in=m y :at man ,i *ose = my !me4 ,z ,i cov]$ page aft] page ) praise ( my guru1 ,i smil$ to realize t my mutt]$ pr$iction 0 com+ true3 8,i w fill up ! %eets ) y\r tea*+s60 ,i _h n felt incl9$ to "q ,rome% ab\t my c\rse 9 philosophy4 ,tru/+ my long tra9+ "u ,sri ,yuktesw>1 ,i safely disreg>d$ ! textbook explanations4 ,! highe/ m>k giv5 to any ( my pap]s 0 ! "o 9 philosophy4 ,my score 9 all o!r subjects 0 j b>ely )9 ! pass+ m>k4 ,x is a pleasure to record t my unselfi% fri5d ,rome% receiv$ 8 own degree ,,cum ,,laude4 ,fa!r 0 wrea!d 9 smiles at my graduation4 8,i h>dly ?\ght y w\ld pass1 ,mukunda10 he confess$4 8,y sp5d s mu* "t ) y\r guru40 ,ma/] _h inde$ correctly detect$ ! unspok5 criticism ( my fa!r4 ,= ye>s ,i _h be5 unc]ta9 t ,i w\ld ev] see ! day :5 an ,a4,b4 w\ld foll[ my "n4 ,i seldom use ! title )\t reflect+ t x 0 a div9e gift1 conf]r$ on me = reasons some:at obscure4 ,occasionally ,i he> college m5 rem>k t v little ( _! cramm$ k rema9$ ) !m aft] graduation4 ,t admission consoles me a bit = my und\bt$ academic defici5cies4 ,on ! day ,i receiv$ my degree f ,calcutta ,univ]sity1 ,i knelt at my guru's feet & ?ank$ him = all ! bless+s fl[+ f 8 life into m9e4 8,get up1 ,mukunda10 he said indulg5tly4 8,! ,"l simply f\nd x m conv5i5t to make y a graduate ?an to re>range ! sun & moon60 ,,fn#bc-a ,i mu/ d ,pr(essor ,gho%al ! ju/ice ( admitt+ t ! /ra9$ relation%ip betwe5 u 0 n due to any fault ( 81 b solely to my abs5ces f classes & inatt5tion 9 !m4 ,pr(essor ,gho%al 01 & is1 a rem>kable orator ) va/ philosophical k4 ,9 lat] ye>s we came to a cordial und]/&+44 ,,fn#bc-b ,al?\gh my c\s9 & ,i h ! same family "n ( ,gho%1 ,prabhas has accu/om$ himself to translit]at+ 8 "n 9 ,engli% z ,ghose2 !re=e ,i foll[ 8 own spell+ "h4 ,,fn#bc-c ,a disciple always removes 8 %oes 9 an ,indian h]mitage4 ,,fn#bc-d ,,mat!w #f3cc4 ,,*apt]3 #bd ,i ,,become ,a ,,monk ,,( ,,! ,,swami ,,ord] 8,ma/]1 my fa!r has be5 anxi\s = me to accept an executive position ) ! ,b5gal-,nagpur ,railway4 ,b ,i h def9itely refus$ x40 ,i add$ hopefully1 8,sir1 w y n make me a monk ( ! ,swami ,ord]80 ,i look$ plead+ly at my guru4 ,dur+ prec$+ ye>s1 9 ord] to te/ ! dep? ( my det]m9ation1 he _h refus$ ?is same reque/4 ,today1 h[ev]1 he smil$ graci\sly4 8,v well2 tomorr[ ,i w initiate y into swami%ip40 ,he w5t on quietly1 8,i am happy t y h p]si/$ 9 y\r desire to be a monk4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya (t5 said3 #8,if y don't invite ,god to be y\r summ] ,gue/1 ,he won't come 9 ! w9t] ( y\r life4'0 8,de> ma/]1 ,i c\ld nev] falt] 9 my goal to belong to ! ,swami ,ord] l y\r rev]$ self40 ,i smil$ at him ) measureless affection4 8,he t is unm>ri$ c>e? = ! ?+s t belong to ! ,"l1 h[ he may please ! ,"l3 b he t is m>ri$ c>e? = ! ?+s ( ! _w1 h[ he may please 8 wife40 ,,fn#bd-a ,i _h analyz$ ! lives ( _m ( my fri5ds :o1 aft] und]go+ c]ta9 spiritual discipl9e1 _h !n m>ri$4 ,laun*$ on ! sea ( worldly responsibilities1 !y _h =gott5 _! resolutions to m$itate deeply4 ,to allot ,god a second>y place 9 life 01 to me1 inconceivable4 ,?\gh ,he is ! sole ,own] ( ! cosmos1 sil5tly %[]+ u ) gifts f life to life1 "o ?+ yet rema9s :i* ,he does n own1 & :i* ea* human he>t is emp[]$ to )hold or be/[-man's love4 ,! ,creator1 9 tak+ inf9ite pa9s to %r\d ) my/]y ,8 pres5ce 9 e atom ( creation1 c\ld h _h b "o motive-a s5sitive desire t m5 seek ,him only ?r\gh free w4 ,) :at velvet glove ( e humility has ,he n cov]$ ! iron h& ( omnipot5ce6 ,! foll[+ day 0 "o ( ! mo/ memorable 9 my life4 ,x 0 a sunny ,?ursday1 ,i rememb]1 9 ,july1 #aiad1 a few weeks aft] my graduation f college4 ,on ! inn] balcony ( 8 ,s]ampore h]mitage1 ,ma/] dipp$ a new piece ( :ite silk into a dye ( o*]1 ! traditional color ( ! ,swami ,ord]4 ,aft] ! clo? _h dri$1 my guru drap$ x ar\nd me z a r5unciate's robe4 8,som$ay y w g to ! ,we/1 :]e silk is pref]r$10 he said4 8,z a symbol1 ,i h *os5 = y ?is silk mat]ial in/ead ( ! cu/om>y cotton40 ,9 ,india1 :]e monks embrace ! ideal ( pov]ty1 a silk-clad swami is an unusual sight4 ,_m yogis1 h[ev]1 we> g>m5ts ( silk1 :i* pres]ves c]ta9 subtle bodily curr5ts bett] ?an cotton4 8,i am av]se to c]emonies10 ,sri ,yuktesw> rem>k$4 8,i w make y a swami 9 ! ,,bidwat 7non-c]emoni\s7 mann]40 ,! ,,bibidisa or elaborate initiation into swami%ip includes a fire c]emony1 dur+ :i* symbolical fun]al rites are p]=m$4 ,! physical body ( ! disciple is repres5t$ z dead1 cremat$ 9 ! flame ( wisdom4 ,! newly-made swami is !n giv5 a *ant1 su* z3 8,?is ,,atma is ,brahma0 ,,fn#bd-b or 8,?\ art ,t0 or 8,i am ,he40 ,sri ,yuktesw>1 h[ev]1 ) 8 love ( simplicity1 disp5s$ ) all =mal rites & m]ely ask$ me to select a new "n4 8,i w give y ! privilege ( *oos+ x y\rself10 he said1 smil+4 8,yogan&a10 ,i repli$1 aft] a mom5t's ?\ght4 ,! "n lit]ally means 8,bliss 7,,an&a7 ?r\gh div9e union 7,,yoga740 8,be x s4 ,=sak+ y\r family "n ( ,mukunda ,lal ,gho%1 h5ce=? y %all be call$ ,yogan&a ( ! ,giri bran* ( ! ,swami ,ord]40 ,z ,i knelt be=e ,sri ,yuktesw>1 & = ! fir/ "t he>d him pron\nce my new "n1 my he>t ov]fl[$ ) gratitude4 ,h[ lov+ly & tirelessly _h he labor$1 t ! boy ,mukunda be som$ay trans=m$ into ! monk ,yogan&a6 ,i joyfully sang a few v]ses f ! long ,sanskrit *ant ( ,"l ,%ank>a3 8,m9d1 nor intellect1 nor ego1 feel+2 ,sky nor e>? nor metals am ,i4 ,i am ,he1 ,i am ,he1 ,bless$ ,_s1 ,i am ,he6 ,no bir?1 no dea?1 no ca/e h ,i2 ,fa!r1 "m1 h ,i none4 ,i am ,he1 ,i am ,he1 ,bless$ ,_s1 ,i am ,he6 ,beyond ! flights ( fancy1 =mless am ,i1 ,p]meat+ ! limbs ( all life2 ,bondage ,i d n fe>2 ,i am free1 ev] free1 ,i am ,he1 ,i am ,he1 ,bless$ ,_s1 ,i am ,he60 ,e swami belongs to ! anci5t mona/ic ord] :i* 0 organiz$ 9 its pres5t =m by ,%ank>a4 ,,fn#bd-c ,because x is a =mal ord]1 ) an unbrok5 l9e ( sa9tly repres5tatives s]v+ z active lead]s1 no man c give himself ! title ( swami4 ,he rightfully receives x only f ano!r swami2 all monks ?us trace _! spiritual l9eage to "o common guru1 ,"l ,%ank>a4 ,by v[s ( pov]ty1 *a/ity1 & ob$i5ce to ! spiritual tea*]1 _m ,ca?olic ,*ri/ian mona/ic ord]s resemble ! ,ord] ( ,swamis4 ,9 addition to 8 new "n1 usually end+ 9 ,,an&a1 ! swami takes a title :i* indicates 8 =mal connection ) "o ( ! t5 subdivisions ( ! ,swami ,ord]4 ,^! ,,dasanamis or t5 agnom5s include ! ,,giri 7m\nta971 to :i* ,sri ,yuktesw>1 & h5ce myself1 belong4 ,among ! o!r bran*es are ! ,,sag> 7sea71 ,,bh>ati 7l&71 ,,aranya 7=e/71 ,,puri 7tract71 ,,tir?a 7place ( pilgrimage71 & ,,s>aswati 7wisdom ( nature74 ,! new "n receiv$ by a swami ?us has a tw(old significance1 & repres5ts ! atta9m5t ( supreme bliss 7,,an&a7 ?r\gh "s div9e quality or /ate-love1 wisdom1 devotion1 s]vice1 yoga-& ?r\gh a h>mony ) nature1 z express$ 9 h] inf9ite va/ness ( oceans1 m\nta9s1 skies4 ,illu/ration3 ,,! ,,"l ,,9 ,,8 ,,aspect ,,z ,,%iva1 ,n a hi/orical p]sonage l ,kri%na1 ,%iva is ! "n giv5 to ,god 9 ! la/ aspect ( ,8 ?reefold nature 7,creator-,pres]v]-,de/roy]74 ,%iva1 ! ,annihilator ( maya or delusion1 is symbolically repres5t$ 9 ! scriptures z ! ,"l ( ,r5unciates1 ! ,k+ ( ,yogis4 ,9 ,h9du art ,he is always %[n ) ! new moon 9 ,8 hair1 & we>+ a g>l& ( hood$ snakes1 anci5t emblem ( evil ov]come & p]fect wisdom4 ,! 8s+le0 eye ( omnisci5ce is op5 on ,8 =ehead4--see %iva4jpg ,! ideal ( selfless s]vice to all mank9d1 & ( r5unciation ( p]sonal ties & ambitions1 leads ! majority ( swamis to engage actively 9 humanit>ian & educational "w 9 ,india1 or occasionally 9 =eign l&s4 ,ignor+ all prejudices ( ca/e1 cre$1 class1 color1 sex1 or race1 a swami foll[s ! precepts ( human bro!rhood4 ,8 goal is absolute unity ) ,_s4 ,imbu+ 8 wak+ & sleep+ consci\sness ) ! ?\ght1 8,i am ,he10 he roams cont5t$ly1 9 ! _w b n ( x4 ,?us only may he ju/ify 8 title ( swami-"o :o seeks to a*ieve union ) ! ,,swa or ,self4 ,x is ne$less to add t n all =mally titl$ swamis are equally successful 9 rea*+ _! high goal4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 bo? a swami & a yogi4 ,a swami1 =mally a monk by virtue ( 8 connection ) ! anci5t ord]1 is n always a yogi4 ,anyone :o practices a sci5tific te*nique ( ,god-contact is a yogi2 he may be ei!r m>ri$ or unm>ri$1 ei!r a worldly man or "o ( =mal religi\s ties4 ,a swami may conceivably foll[ only ! pa? ( dry reason+1 ( cold r5unciation2 b a yogi engages himself 9 a def9ite1 /ep-by-/ep proc$ure by :i* ! body & m9d are discipl9$1 & ! s\l lib]at$4 ,tak+ no?+ = grant$ on emotional gr\nds1 or by fai?1 a yogi practices a ?or\ghly te/$ s]ies ( ex]cises :i* 7 fir/ mapp$ out by ! e>ly ri%is4 ,yoga has produc$1 9 e age ( ,india1 m5 :o became truly free1 truly ,yogi-,*ri/s4 ,l any o!r sci5ce1 yoga is applicable to p ( e clime & "t4 ,! !ory advanc$ by c]ta9 ignorant writ]s t yoga is 8unsuitable = ,we/]n]s0 is :olly false1 & has lam5tably prev5t$ _m s9c]e /ud5ts f seek+ its manifold bless+s4 ,yoga is a me?od = re/ra9+ ! natural turbul5ce ( ?\ghts1 :i* o!rwise imp>tially prev5t all m51 ( all l&s1 f glimps+ _! true nature ( ,_s4 ,yoga _c "k a b>ri] ( ,ea/ & ,we/ any m ?an does ! heal+ & equitable light ( ! sun4 ,s long z man possesses a m9d ) its re/less ?\ghts1 s long w !re be a univ]sal ne$ = yoga or control4 ,! anci5t ri%i ,patanjali def9es 8yoga0 z 8control ( ! fluctuations ( ! m9d-/uff40 ,,fn#bd-d ,8 v %ort & ma/]ly expositions1 ! ,,yoga ,,sutras1 =m "o ( ! six sy/ems ( ,h9du philosophy4 ,,fn#bd-e ,9 contradi/9ction to ,we/]n philosophies1 all six ,h9du sy/ems embody n only !oretical b practical tea*+s4 ,9 addition to e conceivable ontological inquiry1 ! six sy/ems =mulate six def9ite discipl9es aim$ at ! p]man5t removal ( suff]+ & ! atta9m5t ( timeless bliss4 ,! common ?read l9k+ all six sy/ems is ! decl>ation t no true fre$om = man is possible )\t k ( ! ultimate ,reality4 ,! lat] ,,upani%ads uphold ! ,,yoga ,,sutras1 among ! six sy/ems1 z conta9+ ! mo/ efficaci\s me?ods = a*iev+ direct p]ception ( tru?4 ,?r\gh ! practical te*niques ( yoga1 man leaves beh9d =ev] ! b>r5 realms ( speculation & cognizes 9 exp]i5ce ! v]itable ,ess5ce4 ,! ,,yoga sy/em z outl9$ by ,patanjali is kn[n z ! ,eightfold ,pa?4 ,! fir/ /eps1 7#a7 ,,yama & 7#b7 ,,niyama1 require obs]vance ( t5 negative & positive moralities-avoidance ( injury to o!rs1 ( untru?fulness1 ( /eal+1 ( incont95ce1 ( gift-receiv+ 7:i* br+s obligations72 & purity ( body & m9d1 cont5tm5t1 self-discipl9e1 /udy1 & devotion to ,god4 ,! next /eps are 7#c7 ,,asana 7"r po/ure72 ! sp9al column mu/ be held /raight1 & ! body firm 9 a com=table position = m$itation2 7#d7 ,,pranayama 7control ( ,,prana1 subtle life curr5ts72 & 7#e7 ,,pratyah>a 7)drawal ( ! s5ses f ext]nal objects74 ,! la/ /eps are =ms ( yoga prop]3 7#f7 ,,dh>ana 7conc5tration72 hold+ ! m9d to "o ?\ght2 7#g7 ,,dhyana 7m$itation71 & 7#h7 ,,samadhi 7sup]consci\s p]ception74 ,?is is ! ,eightfold ,pa? ( ,yoga ,,fn#bd-f :i* leads "o to ! f9al goal ( ,,kaivalya 7,absolut5ess71 a t]m :i* might be m compreh5sibly put z 8realization ( ! ,tru? beyond all intellectual appreh5sion40 8,:i* is great]10 "o may ask1 8a swami or a yogi80 ,if & :5 f9al on5ess ) ,god is a*iev$1 ! di/9ctions ( ! v>i\s pa?s disappe>4 ,! ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 h[ev]1 po9ts out t ! me?ods ( yoga are all-embracive4 ,its te*niques are n meant only = c]ta9 types & temp]am5ts1 su* z ^? few :o incl9e t[>d ! mona/ic life2 yoga requires no =mal allegiance4 ,because ! yogic sci5ce satisfies a univ]sal ne$1 x has a natural univ]sal applicability4 ,a true yogi may rema9 dutifully 9 ! _w2 !re he is l butt] on wat]1 & n l ! easily-dilut$ milk ( un*urn$ & undiscipl9$ humanity4 ,to fulfill "o's e>?ly responsibilities is inde$ ! high] pa?1 provid$ ! yogi1 ma9ta9+ a m5tal un9volvem5t ) egoti/ical desires1 plays 8 "p z a will+ in/rum5t ( ,god4 ,!re are a numb] ( great s\ls1 liv+ 9 ,am]ican or ,european or o!r non-,h9du bodies today :o1 ?\gh !y may nev] h he>d ! words ,,yogi & ,,swami1 are yet true exempl>s ( ^? t]ms4 ,?r\gh _! dis9t]e/$ s]vice to mank9d1 or ?r\gh _! ma/]y ov] passions & ?\ghts1 or ?r\gh _! s+le he>t$ love ( ,god1 or ?r\gh _! great p[]s ( conc5tration1 !y are1 9 a s5se1 yogis2 !y h set !mselves ! goal ( yoga-self-control4 ,^! m5 c\ld rise to ev5 great] heights if !y 7 taught ! def9ite sci5ce ( yoga1 :i* makes possible a m consci\s direction ( "o's m9d & life4 ,yoga has be5 sup]ficially misund]/ood by c]ta9 ,we/]n writ]s1 b its critics h nev] be5 its practition]s4 ,among _m ?\ghtful tributes to yoga may be m5tion$ "o by ,dr4 ,c4 ,g4 ,jung1 ! fam\s ,swiss psy*ologi/4 8,:5 a religi\s me?od recomm5ds itself z #8sci5tific1' x c be c]ta9 ( its public 9 ! ,we/4 ,yoga fulfills ?is expectation10 ,dr4 ,jung writes4 ,,fn#bd-g 8,q ap>t f ! *>m ( ! new1 & ! fasc9ation ( ! half-und]/ood1 !re is good cause = ,yoga to h _m adh]5ts4 ,x (f]s ! possibility ( controllable exp]i5ce1 & ?us satisfies ! sci5tific ne$ ( #8facts1' & besides ?is1 by reason ( its bread? & dep?1 its v5]able age1 its doctr9e & me?od1 :i* include e phase ( life1 x promises undream$-( possibilities4 8,e religi\s or philosophical practice means a psy*ological discipl9e1 t is1 a me?od ( m5tal hygi5e4 ,! manifold1 purely bodily proc$ures ( ,yoga ,,fn#bd-h also mean a physiological hygi5e :i* is sup]ior to ord9>y gymna/ics & brea?+ ex]cises1 inasmu* z x is n m]ely me*ani/ic & sci5tific1 b also philosophical2 9 its tra9+ ( ! p>ts ( ! body1 x unites !m ) ! :ole ( ! _s1 z is q cle>1 = in/ance1 9 ! ,,pranayama ex]cises :]e ,,prana is bo? ! brea? & ! univ]sal dynamics ( ! cosmos4 8,:5 ! ?+ :i* ! individual is do+ is also a cosmic ev5t1 ! effect exp]i5c$ 9 ! body 7! inn]vation71 unites ) ! emotion ( ! _s 7! univ]sal idea71 & out ( ?is !re develops a lively unity :i* no te*nique1 h[ev] sci5tific1 c produce4 ,yoga practice is un?9kable1 & w\ld also be ineffectual1 )\t ! concepts on :i* ,yoga is bas$4 ,x comb9es ! bodily & ! spiritual ) ea* o!r 9 an extraord9>ily complete way4 8,9 ! ,ea/1 :]e ^! ideas & practices h develop$1 & :]e = sev]al ?\s& ye>s an unbrok5 tradition has creat$ ! necess>y spiritual f\ndations1 ,yoga is1 z ,i c readily believe1 ! p]fect & appropriate me?od ( fus+ body & m9d toge!r s t !y =m a unity :i* is sc>cely to be que/ion$4 ,?is unity creates a psy*ological disposition :i* makes possible intuitions t transc5d consci\sness40 ,! ,we/]n day is inde$ ne>+ :5 ! inn] sci5ce ( self-control w be f\nd z necess>y z ! out] conque/ ( nature4 ,?is new ,atomic ,age w see m5's m9ds sob]$ & broad5$ by ! n[ sci5tifically indisputable tru? t matt] is 9 reality a conc5trate ( en]gy4 ,f9] =ces ( ! human m9d c & mu/ lib]ate en]gies great] ?an ^? )9 /ones & metals1 le/ ! mat]ial atomic giant1 newly unlea%$1 turn on ! _w 9 m9dless de/ruction4 ,,fn#bd-i ,,fn#bd-a ,i ,,cor9?ians #g3cb-cc4 ,,fn#bd-b ,lit]ally1 8,?is s\l is ,_s40 ,! ,supreme ,_s1 ! ,uncreat$1 is :olly uncondition$ 7,,neti1 ,,neti1 n ?is1 n t7 b is (t5 ref]r$ to 9 ,,v$anta z ,,sat-,,*it-,,an&a1 t is1 ,be+-,intellig5ce-,bliss4 ,,fn#bd-c ,sometimes call$ ,%ank>a*>ya4 ,,a*>ya means 8religi\s tea*]40 ,%ank>a's date is a c5t] ( ! usual s*ola/ic dispute4 ,a few records indicate t ! pe]less moni/ liv$ f #eaj to #dgh ,b4,c42 ,we/]n hi/orians assign him to ! late eigh? c5tury ,a4,d4 ,read]s :o are int]e/$ 9 ,%ank>a's fam\s exposition ( ! ,,brahma ,,sutras w f9d a c>eful ,engli% translation 9 ,dr4 ,paul ,deuss5's ,,sy/em ,,( ,,! ,,v$anta 7,*icago3 ,op5 ,c\rt ,publi%+ ,company1 #aiab74 ,%ort extracts f 8 writ+s w be f\nd 9 ,,select$ ,,works ,,( ,,sri ,,%ank>a*>ya 7,natesan ,co41 ,madras74 ,,fn#bd-d 8,,*itta ,,vritti ,,nirodha0-,,yoga ,,sutra ,i3#b4 ,patanjali's date is unkn[n1 ?\gh a numb] ( s*ol>s place him 9 ! second c5tury ,b4,c4 ,! ri%is gave =? treatises on all subjects ) su* insight t ages h be5 p[]less to outmode !m2 yet1 to ! subsequ5t con/]nation ( hi/orians1 ! sages made no ef=t to atta* _! own dates & p]sonalities to _! lit]>y works4 ,!y knew _! lives 7 only tempor>ily important z fla%es ( ! great inf9ite ,life2 & t tru? is timeless1 impossible to tradem>k1 & no private possession ( _! own4 ,,fn#bd-e ,! six or?odox sy/ems 7,,sadd>sana7 are ,,sankhya1 ,,yoga1 ,,v$anta1 ,,mimamsa1 ,,nyaya1 & ,,vaisesika4 ,read]s ( a s*ol>ly b5t w delight 9 ! subtleties & broad scope ( ^! anci5t =mulations z summ>iz$1 9 ,engli%1 9 ,,hi/ory ,,( ,,indian ,,philosophy1 ,vol4 ,i1 by ,pr(4 ,sur5drana? ,das,gupta 7,cambridge ,univ]sity ,press1 #aibb74 ,,fn#bd-f ,n to be confus$ ) ! 8,noble ,eightfold ,pa?0 ( ,buddhism1 a guide to man's conduct ( life1 z foll[s 7#a7 ,"r ,ideals1 7#b7 ,"r ,motive1 7#c7 ,"r ,spee*1 7#d7 ,"r ,action1 7#e7 ,"r ,means ( ,livelihood1 7#f7 ,"r ,ef=t1 7#g7 ,"r ,remembrance 7( ! ,self71 7#h7 ,"r ,realization 7,,samadhi74 ,,fn#bd-g ,dr4 ,jung att5d$ ! ,indian ,sci5ce ,congress 9 #aicg & receiv$ an honor>y degree f ! ,univ]sity ( ,calcutta4 ,,fn#bd-h ,dr4 ,jung is "h ref]r+ to ,,ha?a ,,yoga1 a specializ$ bran* ( bodily po/ures & te*niques = heal? & longevity4 ,,ha?a is useful1 & produces spectacul> physical results1 b ?is bran* ( yoga is little us$ by yogis b5t on spiritual lib]ation4 ,,fn#bd-i ,9 ,plato's ,,timaeus /ory ( ,atlantis1 he tells ( ! inhabitants' advanc$ /ate ( sci5tific k4 ,! lo/ cont95t is believ$ to h vani%$ ab\t #iejj ,b4,c4 ?r\gh a cataclysm ( nature2 c]ta9 metaphysical writ]s1 h[ev]1 /ate t ! ,atlanteans 7 de/roy$ z a result ( _! misuse ( atomic p[]4 ,two ,fr5* writ]s h rec5tly compil$ a ,,bibliography ,,( ,,atlantis1 li/+ ov] #agjj hi/orical & o!r ref]5ces4 ,,*apt]3 #be ,,bro!r ,,ananta ,,& ,,si/] ,,nal9i 8,ananta _c live2 ! s&s ( 8 k>ma = ?is life h run out40 ,^! inexorable words rea*$ my inn] consci\sness z ,i sat "o morn+ 9 deep m$itation4 ,%ortly aft] ,i _h ent]$ ! ,swami ,ord]1 ,i paid a visit to my bir?place1 ,gorakhpur1 z a gue/ ( my eld] bro!r ,ananta4 ,a sudd5 illness conf9$ him to 8 b$2 ,i nurs$ him lov+ly4 ,! solemn inw>d pron\ncem5t fill$ me ) grief4 ,i felt t ,i c\ld n be> to rema9 long] 9 ,gorakhpur1 only to see my bro!r remov$ be=e my helpless gaze4 ,amid/ uncompreh5d+ criticism f my relatives1 ,i left ,india on ! fir/ available boat4 ,x cruis$ along ,burma & ! ,*9a ,sea to ,japan4 ,i disemb>k$ at ,kobe1 :]e ,i sp5t only a few days4 ,my he>t 0 too heavy = sightsee+4 ,on ! return trip to ,india1 ! boat t\*$ at ,%anghai4 ,!re ,dr4 ,misra1 ! %ip's physician1 guid$ me to sev]al curio %ops1 :]e ,i select$ v>i\s pres5ts = ,sri ,yuktesw> & my family & fri5ds4 ,= ,ananta ,i pur*as$ a l>ge c>v$ bamboo piece4 ,no soon] _h ! ,*9ese salesman h&$ me ! bamboo s\v5ir ?an ,i dropp$ x on ! floor1 cry+ out1 8,i h b\ght ?is = my de> dead bro!r60 ,a cle> realization _h swept ov] me t 8 s\l 0 j be+ fre$ 9 ! ,inf9ite4 ,! s\v5ir 0 %>ply & symbolically crack$ by its fall2 amid/ sobs1 ,i wrote on ! bamboo surface3 8,= my belov$ ,ananta1 n[ gone40 ,my companion1 ! doctor1 0 obs]v+ ^! proce$+s ) a s>donic smile4 8,save y\r te>s10 he rem>k$4 8,:y %$ !m until y are sure he is dead80 ,:5 our boat rea*$ ,calcutta1 ,dr4 ,misra aga9 accompani$ me4 ,my y\nge/ bro!r ,bi%nu 0 wait+ to greet me at ! dock4 8,i "k ,ananta has dep>t$ ?is life10 ,i said to ,bi%nu1 be=e he _h _h "t to speak4 8,please tell me1 & ! doctor "h1 :5 ,ananta di$40 ,bi%nu nam$ ! date1 :i* 0 ! v day t ,i _h b\ght ! s\v5irs 9 ,%anghai4 8,look "h60 ,dr4 ,misra ejaculat$4 8,don't let any ^w ( ?is get ar\nd6 ,! pr(essors w be add+ a ye>'s /udy ( m5tal telepa?y to ! m$ical c\rse1 :i* is already long en\gh60 ,fa!r embrac$ me w>mly z ,i ent]$ our ,gurp> ,road home4 8,y h come10 he said t5d]ly4 ,two l>ge te>s dropp$ f 8 eyes4 ,ord9>ily undemon/rative1 he _h nev] be=e %[n me ^! signs ( affection4 ,outw>dly ! grave fa!r1 inw>dly he possess$ ! melt+ he>t ( a "m4 ,9 all 8 deal+s ) ! family1 8 dual p>5tal role 0 di/9ctly manife/4 ,soon aft] ,ananta's pass+1 my y\ng] si/] ,nal9i 0 br\ght back f dea?'s door by a div9e heal+4 ,be=e relat+ ! /ory1 ,i w ref] to a few phases ( h] e>li] life4 ,! *ildhood relation%ip betwe5 ,nal9i & myself _h n be5 ( ! happie/ nature4 ,i 0 v ?92 %e 0 ?9n] /ill4 ,?r\gh an unconsci\s motive or 8complex0 :i* psy*iatri/s w h no difficulty 9 id5tify+1 ,i (t5 us$ to tease my si/] ab\t h] cadav]\s appe>ance4 ,h] retorts 7 equally p]meat$ ) ! call\s frankness ( extreme y\?4 ,sometimes ,"m int]v5$1 end+ ! *ildi% qu>rels1 tempor>ily1 by a g5tle box on my e>1 z ! eld] e>4 ,"t pass$2 ,nal9i 0 betro!d to a "y ,calcutta physician1 ,pan*anon ,bose4 ,he receiv$ a g5]\s d[ry f ,fa!r1 presumably 7z ,i rem>k$ to ,si/]7 to comp5sate ! bridegroom-to-be = 8 fate 9 ally+ himself ) a human bean-pole4 ,elaborate m>riage rites 7 celebrat$ 9 due "t4 ,on ! w$d+ night1 ,i jo9$ ! l>ge & jovial gr\p ( relatives 9 ! liv+ room ( our ,calcutta home4 ,! bridegroom 0 lean+ on an imm5se gold-brocad$ pill[1 ) ,nal9i at 8 side4 ,a gorge\s purple silk ,,s>i ,,fn#be-a c\ld n1 alas1 :olly hide h] angul>ity4 ,i %elt]$ myself beh9d ! pill[ ( my new bro!r-9-law & gr9n$ at him 9 fri5dly fa%ion4 ,he _h nev] se5 ,nal9i until ! day ( ! nuptial c]emony1 :5 he f9ally le>n$ :at he 0 gett+ 9 ! matrimonial lott]y4 ,feel+ my sympa?y1 ,dr4 ,bose po9t$ unobtrusively to ,nal9i1 & :isp]$ 9 my e>1 8,say1 :at's ?is80 8,:y1 ,doctor10 ,i repli$1 8x is a skeleton = y\r obs]vation60 ,convuls$ ) mir?1 my bro!r-9-law & ,i 7 h>d put to x to ma9ta9 ! prop] decorum be=e our assembl$ relatives4 ,z ! ye>s w5t on1 ,dr4 ,bose ende>$ himself to our family1 :o call$ on him :5ev] illness arose4 ,he & ,i became fa/ fri5ds1 (t5 jok+ toge!r1 usually ) ,nal9i z our t>get4 8,x is a m$ical curiosity10 my bro!r-9-law rem>k$ to me "o day4 8,i h tri$ ev]y?+ on y\r lean si/]-cod liv] oil1 butt]1 malt1 honey1 fi%1 meat1 eggs1 tonics4 ,/ill %e fails to bulge ev5 "o-hundr$? ( an in*40 ,we bo? *uckl$4 ,a few days lat] ,i visit$ ! ,bose home4 ,my err& !re took only a few m9utes2 ,i 0 leav+1 unnotic$1 ,i ?\ght1 by ,nal9i4 ,z ,i rea*$ ! front door1 ,i he>d h] voice1 cordial b comm&+4 8,bro!r1 come "h4 ,y are n go+ to give me ! slip ?is "t4 ,i want to talk to y40 ,i m\nt$ ! /airs to h] room4 ,to my surprise1 %e 0 9 te>s4 8,de> bro!r10 %e said1 8let u bury ! old hat*et4 ,i see t y\r feet are n[ firmly set on ! spiritual pa?4 ,i want to become l y 9 e way40 ,%e add$ hopefully1 8,y are n[ robu/ 9 appe>ance2 c y help me8 ,my husb& does n come ne> me1 & ,i love him s de>ly6 ,b /ill m ,i want to progress 9 ,god-realization1 ev5 if ,i mu/ rema9 ?9 ,,fn#be-b & unattractive40 ,my he>t 0 deeply t\*$ at h] plea4 ,our new fri5d%ip /eadily progress$2 "o day %e ask$ to become my disciple4 8,tra9 me 9 any way y l4 ,i put my tru/ 9 ,god in/ead ( tonics40 ,%e ga!r$ toge!r an armful ( m$ic9es & p\r$ !m d[n ! ro( dra94 ,z a te/ ( h] fai?1 ,i ask$ h] to omit f h] diet all fi%1 meat1 & eggs4 ,aft] sev]al mon?s1 dur+ :i* ,nal9i _h /rictly foll[$ ! v>i\s rules ,i _h outl9$1 & _h adh]$ to h] veget>ian diet 9 spite ( num]\s difficulties1 ,i paid h] a visit4 8,sis1 y h be5 consci5ti\sly obs]v+ ! spiritual injunctions2 y\r rew>d is ne>40 ,i smil$ mis*iev\sly4 8,h[ plump d y want to be-z fat z our aunt :o hasn't se5 h] feet 9 ye>s80 8,no6 ,b ,i long to be z /\t z y are40 ,i repli$ solemnly4 8,by ! grace ( ,god1 z ,i h spok5 tru? always1 ,i speak truly n[4 ,,fn#be-c ,?r\gh ! div9e bless+s1 y\r body %all v]ily *ange f today2 9 "o mon? x %all h ! same weight z m9e40 ,^! words f my he>t f\nd fulfillm5t4 ,9 ?irty days1 ,nal9i's weight equall$ m9e4 ,! new r\ndness gave h] beauty2 h] husb& fell deeply 9 love4 ,_! m>riage1 begun s inauspici\sly1 turn$ out to be ideally happy4 ,on my return f ,japan1 ,i le>n$ t dur+ my abs5ce ,nal9i _h be5 /rick5 ) typhoid fev]4 ,i ru%$ to h] home1 & 0 agha/ to f9d h] r$uc$ to a m]e skeleton4 ,%e 0 9 a coma4 8,be=e h] m9d became confus$ by illness10 my bro!r-9-law told me1 8%e (t5 said3 #8,if bro!r ,mukunda 7 "h1 ,i w\ld n be f>+ ?us4'0 ,he add$ despair+ly1 8,! o!r doctors & myself see no hope4 ,blood dys5t]y has set 91 aft] h] long b\t ) typhoid40 ,i began to move heav5 & e>? ) my pray]s4 ,engag+ an ,anglo-,indian nurse1 :o gave me full coop]ation1 ,i appli$ to my si/] v>i\s yoga te*niques ( heal+4 ,! blood dys5t]y disappe>$4 ,b ,dr4 ,bose %ook 8 head m\rnfully4 8,%e simply has no m blood left to %$40 8,%e w recov]10 ,i repli$ /\tly4 8,9 sev5 days h] fev] w be gone40 ,a week lat] ,i 0 ?rill$ to see ,nal9i op5 h] eyes & gaze at me ) lov+ recognition4 ,f t day h] recov]y 0 swift4 ,al?\gh %e rega9$ h] usual weight1 %e bore "o sad sc> ( h] ne>ly fatal illness3 h] legs 7 p>alyz$4 ,indian & ,engli% speciali/s pron\nc$ h] a hopeless cripple4 ,! incessant w> = h] life :i* ,i _h wag$ by pray] _h exhau/$ me4 ,i w5t to ,s]ampore to ask ,sri ,yuktesw>'s help4 ,8 eyes express$ deep sympa?y z ,i told him ( ,nal9i's plight4 8,y\r si/]'s legs w be normal at ! end ( "o mon?40 ,he add$1 8,let h] we>1 next to h] sk91 a b& ) an unp]=at$ two-c>at pe>l1 held on by a clasp40 ,i pro/rat$ myself at 8 feet ) joyful relief4 8,sir1 y are a ma/]2 y\r ^w ( h] recov]y is en\gh4 ,b if y insi/ ,i %all imm$iately get h] a pe>l40 ,my guru nodd$4 8,yes1 d t40 ,he w5t on to correctly describe ! physical & m5tal *>act]i/ics ( ,nal9i1 :om he _h nev] se54 8,sir10 ,i inquir$1 8is ?is an a/rological analysis8 ,y d n "k h] bir? day or h\r40 ,sri ,yuktesw> smil$4 8,!re is a deep] a/rology1 n dep5d5t on ! te/imony ( cal5d>s & clocks4 ,ea* man is a "p ( ! ,creator1 or ,cosmic ,man2 he has a heav5ly body z well z "o ( e>?4 ,! human eye sees ! physical =m1 b ! inw>d eye p5etrates m pr(\ndly1 ev5 to ! univ]sal patt]n ( :i* ea* man is an integral & individual "p40 ,i return$ to ,calcutta & pur*as$ a pe>l = ,nal9i4 ,a mon? lat]1 h] p>alyz$ legs 7 completely heal$4 ,si/] ask$ me to convey h] he>tfelt gratitude to my guru4 ,he li/5$ to h] message 9 sil5ce4 ,b z ,i 0 tak+ my leave1 he made a pregnant comm5t4 8,y\r si/] has be5 told by _m doctors t %e c nev] be> *ildr54 ,assure h] t 9 a few ye>s %e w give bir? to two daught]s40 ,"s ye>s lat]1 to ,nal9i's joy1 %e bore a girl1 foll[$ 9 a few ye>s by ano!r daught]4 8,y\r ma/] has bless$ our home1 our entire family10 my si/] said4 8,! pres5ce ( su* a man is a sanctification on ! :ole ( ,india4 ,de> bro!r1 please tell ,sri ,yuktesw>ji t1 ?r\gh y1 ,i humbly c\nt myself z "o ( 8 ,,kriya ,,yoga disciples40 ,,fn#be-a ,! gracefully drap$ dress ( ,indian wom54 ,,fn#be-b ,because mo/ p]sons 9 ,india are ?91 reasonable plumpness is consid]$ v desirable4 ,,fn#be-c ,! ,h9du scriptures decl>e t ^? :o habitually speak ! tru? w develop ! p[] ( mat]ializ+ _! words4 ,:at comm&s !y utt] f ! he>t w come true 9 life4 ,,*apt]3 #bf ,,! ,,sci5ce ,,( ,,kriya ,,yoga ,! sci5ce ( ,,kriya ,,yoga1 m5tion$ s (t5 9 ^! pages1 became widely kn[n 9 mod]n ,india ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 my guru's guru4 ,! ,sanskrit root ( ,,kriya is ,,kri1 to d1 to act & react2 ! same root is f\nd 9 ! ^w ,,k>ma1 ! natural pr9ciple ( cause & effect4 ,,kriya ,,yoga is ?us 8union 7yoga7 ) ! ,inf9ite ?r\gh a c]ta9 action or rite40 ,a yogi :o fai?fully foll[s its te*nique is gradually fre$ f k>ma or ! univ]sal *a9 ( causation4 ,because ( c]ta9 anci5t yogic injunctions1 ,i _c give a full explanation ( ,,kriya ,,yoga 9 ! pages ( a book int5d$ = ! g5]al public4 ,! actual te*nique mu/ be le>n$ f a ,,kriyaban or ,,kriya ,,yogi2 "h a broad ref]5ce mu/ suffice4 ,,kriya ,,yoga is a simple1 psy*ophysiological me?od by :i* ! human blood is dec>boniz$ & re*>g$ ) oxyg54 ,! atoms ( ?is extra oxyg5 are transmut$ into life curr5t to rejuv5ate ! bra9 & sp9al c5t]s4 ,,fn#bf-a ,by /opp+ ! accumulation ( v5\s blood1 ! yogi is able to less5 or prev5t ! decay ( tissues2 ! advanc$ yogi transmutes 8 cells into pure en]gy4 ,elijah1 ,jesus1 ,kabir & o!r prophets 7 pa/ ma/]s 9 ! use ( ,,kriya or a simil> te*nique1 by :i* !y caus$ _! bodies to demat]ialize at w4 ,,kriya is an anci5t sci5ce4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya receiv$ x f 8 guru1 ,babaji1 :o r$iscov]$ & cl>ifi$ ! te*nique aft] x _h be5 lo/ 9 ! ,d>k ,ages4 8,! ,,kriya ,,yoga :i* ,i am giv+ to ! _w ?r\gh y 9 ?is n9ete5? c5tury10 ,babaji told ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 8is a revival ( ! same sci5ce :i* ,kri%na gave1 mill5niums ago1 to ,arjuna1 & :i* 0 lat] kn[n to ,patanjali1 & to ,*ri/1 ,/4 ,john1 ,/4 ,paul1 & o!r disciples40 ,,kriya ,,yoga is ref]r$ to by ,kri%na1 ,india's greate/ prophet1 9 a /anza ( ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita3 8,(f]+ inhal+ brea? into ! outgo+ brea?1 & (f]+ ! outgo+ brea? into ! inhal+ brea?1 ! yogi neutralizes bo? ^! brea?s2 he ?us releases ! life =ce f ! he>t & br+s x "u 8 control40 ,,fn#bf-b ,! int]pretation is3 8,! yogi arre/s decay 9 ! body by an addition ( life =ce1 & arre/s ! mutations ( gr[? 9 ! body by ,,apan 7elim9at+ curr5t74 ,?us neutraliz+ decay & gr[?1 by quiet+ ! he>t1 ! yogi le>ns life control40 ,kri%na also relates ,,fn#bf-c t x 0 he1 9 a =m] inc>nation1 :o communicat$ ! inde/ructible yoga to an anci5t illum9ato1 ,vivasvat1 :o gave x to ,manu1 ! great legislator4 ,,fn#bf-d ,he1 9 turn1 in/ruct$ ,ik%waku1 ! fa!r ( ,india's sol> w>rior dyna/y4 ,pass+ ?us f "o to ano!r1 ! royal yoga 0 gu>d$ by ! ri%is until ! com+ ( ! mat]iali/ic ages4 ,,fn#bf-e ,!n1 due to prie/ly secrecy & man's indiff]5ce1 ! sacr$ k gradually became inaccessible4 ,,kriya ,,yoga is m5tion$ twice by ! anci5t sage ,patanjali1 =emo/ expon5t ( yoga1 :o wrote3 8,,kriya ,,yoga consi/s ( body discipl9e1 m5tal control1 & m$itat+ on ,,aum40 ,,fn#bf-f ,patanjali speaks ( ,god z ! actual ,cosmic ,s\nd ( ,,aum he>d 9 m$itation4 ,,fn#bf-g ,,aum is ! ,creative ,^w1 ,,fn#bf-h ! s\nd ( ! ,vibratory ,motor4 ,ev5 ! yoga-beg9n] soon inw>dly he>s ! wondr\s s\nd ( ,,aum4 ,receiv+ ?is blissful spiritual enc\ragem5t1 ! devotee becomes assur$ t he is 9 actual t\* ) div9e realms4 ,patanjali ref]s a second "t to ! life-control or ,,kriya te*nique ?us3 8,lib]ation c be accompli%$ by t ,,pranayama :i* is atta9$ by disjo9+ ! c\rse ( inspiration & expiration40 ,,fn#bf-i ,/4 ,paul knew ,,kriya ,,yoga1 or a te*nique v simil> to x1 by :i* he c\ld swit* life curr5ts to & f ! s5ses4 ,he 0 !re=e able to say3 8,v]ily1 ,i prote/ by our rejoic+ :i* ,i h 9 ,*ri/1 ,i ,,die ,,daily40 ,,fn#bf-aj ,by daily )draw+ 8 bodily life =ce1 he unit$ x by yoga union ) ! rejoic+ 7et]nal bliss7 ( ! ,*ri/ consci\sness4 ,9 t felicit\s /ate1 he 0 consci\sly aw>e ( be+ dead to ! delusive s5sory _w ( ,,maya4 ,9 ! initial /ates ( ,god-contact 7,,sabikalpa ,,samadhi7 ! devotee's consci\sness m]ges ) ! ,cosmic ,_s2 8 life =ce is )drawn f ! body1 :i* appe>s 8dead10 or motionless & rigid4 ,! yogi is fully aw>e ( 8 bodily condition ( susp5d$ animation4 ,z he progresses to high] spiritual /ates 7,,nirbikalpa ,,samadhi71 h[ev]1 he communes ) ,god )\t bodily fixation1 & 9 8 ord9>y wak+ consci\sness1 ev5 9 ! mid/ ( exact+ worldly duties4 ,,fn#bf-aa 8,,kriya ,,yoga is an in/rum5t ?r\gh :i* human evolution c be quick5$10 ,sri ,yuktesw> expla9$ to 8 /ud5ts4 8,! anci5t yogis discov]$ t ! secret ( cosmic consci\sness is intimately l9k$ ) brea? ma/]y4 ,?is is ,india's unique & dea?less contribution to ! _w's treasury ( k4 ,! life =ce1 :i* is ord9>ily absorb$ 9 ma9ta9+ ! he>t-pump1 mu/ be fre$ = high] activities by a me?od ( calm+ & /ill+ ! ceaseless dem&s ( ! brea?40 ,! ,,kriya ,,yogi m5tally directs 8 life en]gy to revolve1 upw>d & d[nw>d1 ar\nd ! six sp9al c5t]s 7m$ull>y1 c]vical1 dorsal1 lumb>1 sacral1 & coccygeal plexuses7 :i* correspond to ! twelve a/ral signs ( ! zodiac1 ! symbolic ,cosmic ,man4 ,"o-half m9ute ( revolution ( en]gy ar\nd ! s5sitive sp9al cord ( man effects subtle progress 9 8 evolution2 t half-m9ute ( ,,kriya equals "o ye> ( natural spiritual unfoldm5t4 ,! a/ral sy/em ( a human be+1 ) six 7twelve by pol>ity7 inn] con/ellations revolv+ ar\nd ! sun ( ! omnisci5t spiritual eye1 is int]relat$ ) ! physical sun & ! twelve zodiacal signs4 ,all m5 are ?us affect$ by an inn] & an out] univ]se4 ,! anci5t ri%is discov]$ t man's e>?ly & heav5ly environm5t1 9 twelve-ye> cycles1 pu% him =w>d on 8 natural pa?4 ,! scriptures av] t man requires a million ye>s ( normal1 diseaseless evolution to p]fect 8 human bra9 suffici5tly to express cosmic consci\sness4 ,"o ?\s& ,,kriya practic$ 9 eight h\rs gives ! yogi1 9 "o day1 ! equival5t ( "o ?\s& ye>s ( natural evolution3 #cfe1jjj ye>s ( evolution 9 "o ye>4 ,9 ?ree ye>s1 a ,,kriya ,,yogi c ?us accompli% by intellig5t self-ef=t ! same result :i* nature br+s to pass 9 a million ye>s4 ,! ,,kriya %ort cut1 ( c\rse1 c be tak5 only by deeply develop$ yogis4 ,) ! guidance ( a guru1 su* yogis h c>efully prep>$ _! bodies & bra9s to receive ! p[] creat$ by int5sive practice4 ,! ,,kriya beg9n] employs 8 yogic ex]cise only f\rte5 to tw5ty-eight times1 twice daily4 ,a numb] ( yogis a*ieve emancipation 9 six or twelve or tw5ty-f\r or =ty-eight ye>s4 ,a yogi :o dies be=e a*iev+ full realization c>ries ) him ! good k>ma ( 8 pa/ ,,kriya ef=t2 9 8 new life he is h>moni\sly propell$ t[>d 8 ,inf9ite ,goal4 ,! body ( ! av]age man is l a fifty-watt lamp1 :i* _c accommodate ! billion watts ( p[] r\s$ by an excessive practice ( ,,kriya4 ,?r\gh gradual & regul> increase ( ! simple & 8foolpro(0 me?ods ( ,,kriya1 man's body becomes a/rally trans=m$ day by day1 & is f9ally fitt$ to express ! inf9ite pot5tials ( cosmic en]gy-! fir/ mat]ially active expression ( ,_s4 ,,kriya ,,yoga has no?+ 9 common ) ! unsci5tific brea?+ ex]cises taught by a numb] ( misguid$ zealots4 ,_! attempts to =cibly hold brea? 9 ! lungs is n only unnatural b decid$ly unpleasant4 ,,kriya1 on ! o!r h&1 is accompani$ f ! v beg9n+ by an accession ( peace1 & by soo?+ s5sations ( reg5]ative effect 9 ! sp9e4 ,! anci5t yogic te*nique conv]ts ! brea? into m9d4 ,by spiritual advancem5t1 "o is able to cognize ! brea? z an act ( m9d-a dream-brea?4 ,_m illu/rations c\ld be giv5 ( ! ma!matical relation%ip betwe5 man's respiratory rate & ! v>iations 9 8 /ates ( consci\sness4 ,a p]son ^: att5tion is :olly engross$1 z 9 foll[+ "s closely knit intellectual argum5t1 or 9 attempt+ "s delicate or difficult physical feat1 automatically brea!s v sl[ly4 ,fixity ( att5tion dep5ds on sl[ brea?+2 quick or unev5 brea?s are an inevitable accompanim5t ( h>mful emotional /ates3 fe>1 lu/1 ang]4 ,! re/less monkey brea!s at ! rate ( #cb times a m9ute1 9 contra/ to man's av]age ( #ah times4 ,! elephant1 tortoise1 snake & o!r animals not$ = _! longevity h a respiratory rate :i* is less ?an man's4 ,! tortoise1 = in/ance1 :o may atta9 ! age ( #cjj ye>s1 ,,fn#bf-ab brea!s only #d times p] m9ute4 ,! rejuv5at+ effects ( sleep are due to man's tempor>y unaw>5ess ( body & brea?+4 ,! sleep+ man becomes a yogi2 ea* night he unconsci\sly p]=ms ! yogic rite ( releas+ himself f bodily id5tification1 & ( m]g+ ! life =ce ) heal+ curr5ts 9 ! ma9 bra9 region & ! six sub-dynamos ( 8 sp9al c5t]s4 ,! sleep] ?us dips unkn[+ly into ! res]voir ( cosmic en]gy :i* su/a9s all life4 ,! volunt>y yogi p]=ms a simple1 natural process consci\sly1 n unconsci\sly l ! sl[-pac$ sleep]4 ,! ,,kriya ,,yogi uses 8 te*nique to saturate & fe$ all 8 physical cells ) undecay+ light & keep !m 9 a magnetiz$ /ate4 ,he sci5tifically makes brea? unnecess>y1 )\t produc+ ! /ates ( subconsci\s sleep or unconsci\sness4 ,by ,,kriya1 ! outgo+ life =ce is n wa/$ & abus$ 9 ! s5ses1 b con/ra9$ to reunite ) subtl] sp9al en]gies4 ,by su* re9=cem5t ( life1 ! yogi's body & bra9 cells are electrifi$ ) ! spiritual elixir4 ,?us he removes himself f /udi$ obs]vance ( natural laws1 :i* c only take him-by circuit\s means z giv5 by prop] food1 sunlight1 & h>moni\s ?\ghts-to a million-ye> ,goal4 ,x ne$s twelve ye>s ( normal heal?ful liv+ to effect ev5 slight p]ceptible *ange 9 bra9 /ructure1 & a million sol> returns are exact$ to suffici5tly ref9e ! c]ebral t5em5t = manife/ation ( cosmic consci\sness4 ,unty+ ! cord ( brea? :i* b9ds ! s\l to ! body1 ,,kriya s]ves to prolong life & enl>ge ! consci\sness to inf9ity4 ,! yoga me?od ov]comes ! tug ( w> betwe5 ! m9d & ! matt]-b\nd s5ses1 & frees ! devotee to re9h]it 8 et]nal k+dom4 ,he kn[s 8 real nature is b\nd nei!r by physical encasem5t nor by brea?1 symbol ( ! mortal enslavem5t to air1 to nature's elem5tal compulsions4 ,introspection1 or 8sitt+ 9 ! sil5ce10 is an unsci5tific way ( try+ to =ce ap>t ! m9d & s5ses1 ti$ toge!r by ! life =ce4 ,! contemplative m9d1 attempt+ its return to div9ity1 is con/antly dragg$ back t[>d ! s5ses by ! life curr5ts4 ,,kriya1 controll+ ! m9d ,,directly ?r\gh ! life =ce1 is ! easie/1 mo/ effective1 & mo/ sci5tific av5ue ( approa* to ! ,inf9ite4 ,9 contra/ to ! sl[1 unc]ta9 8bullock c>t0 !ological pa? to ,god1 ,,kriya may ju/ly be call$ ! 8airplane0 r\te4 ,! yogic sci5ce is bas$ on an empirical consid]ation ( all =ms ( conc5tration & m$itation ex]cises4 ,yoga enables ! devotee to swit* (f or on1 at w1 life curr5t f ! five s5se telephones ( sight1 s\nd1 smell1 ta/e1 & t\*4 ,atta9+ ?is p[] ( s5se-disconnection1 ! yogi f9ds x simple to unite 8 m9d at w ) div9e realms or ) ! _w ( matt]4 ,no long] is he unwill+ly br\ght back by ! life =ce to ! mundane sph]e ( r[dy s5sations & re/less ?\ghts4 ,ma/] ( 8 body & m9d1 ! ,,kriya ,,yogi ultimately a*ieves victory ov] ! 8la/ enemy10 dea?4 ,s %alt ?\ fe$ on ,dea?1 t fe$s on m53 ,& ,dea? once dead1 !re's no m dy+ !n4 ,,fn#bf-ac ,! life ( an advanc$ ,,kriya ,,yogi is influ5c$1 n by effects ( pa/ actions1 b solely by directions f ! s\l4 ,! devotee ?us avoids ! sl[1 evolution>y monitors ( egoi/ic actions1 good & bad1 ( common life1 cumbr\s & snail-l to ! eagle he>ts4 ,! sup]ior me?od ( s\l liv+ frees ! yogi :o1 %orn ( 8 ego-prison1 ta/es ! deep air ( omnipres5ce4 ,! ?ralldom ( natural liv+ is1 9 contra/1 set 9 a pace humiliat+4 ,con=m+ 8 life to ! evolution>y ord]1 a man c comm& no concession>y ha/e f nature b1 liv+ )\t error aga9/ ! laws ( 8 physical & m5tal end[m5t1 /ill requires ab\t a million ye>s ( inc>nat+ masqu]ades to "k f9al emancipation4 ,! telescopic me?ods ( yogis1 dis5gag+ !mselves f physical & m5tal id5tifications 9 favor ( s\l-individuality1 ?us comm5d !mselves to ^? :o eye ) revolt a ?\s& ?\s& ye>s4 ,?is num]ical p]iph]y is enl>g$ = ! ord9>y man1 :o lives 9 h>mony n ev5 ) nature1 let alone 8 s\l1 b pursues in/ead unnatural complexities1 ?us (f5d+ 9 8 body & ?\ghts ! sweet sanities ( nature4 ,= him1 two times a million ye>s c sc>ce suffice = lib]ation4 ,gross man seldom or nev] realizes t 8 body is a k+dom1 gov]n$ by ,emp]or ,s\l on ! ?rone ( ! cranium1 ) subsidi>y reg5ts 9 ! six sp9al c5t]s or sph]es ( consci\sness4 ,?is !ocracy ext5ds ov] a ?rong ( ob$i5t subjects3 tw5ty-sev5 ?\s& billion cells-end[$ ) a sure if automatic intellig5ce by :i* !y p]=m all duties ( bodily gr[?s1 trans=mations1 & dissolutions-& fifty million sub/ratal ?\ghts1 emotions1 & v>iations ( alt]nat+ phases 9 man's consci\sness 9 an av]age life ( sixty ye>s4 ,any app>5t insurrection ( bodily or c]ebral cells t[>d ,emp]or ,s\l1 manife/+ z disease or depression1 is due to no disloyalty among ! humble citiz5s1 b to pa/ or pres5t misuse by man ( 8 individuality or free w1 giv5 to him simultane\s ) a s\l1 & revocable nev]4 ,id5tify+ himself ) a %all[ ego1 man takes = grant$ t x is he :o ?9ks1 wills1 feels1 dige/s meals1 & keeps himself alive1 nev] admitt+ ?r\gh reflection 7only a little w\ld suffice67 t 9 8 ord9>y life he is naught b a puppet ( pa/ actions 7k>ma7 & ( nature or environm5t4 ,ea* man's intellectual reactions1 feel+s1 moods1 & habits are circumscrib$ by effects ( pa/ causes1 :e!r ( ?is or a prior life4 ,l(ty above su* influ5ces1 h[ev]1 is 8 regal s\l4 ,spurn+ ! transitory tru?s & fre$oms1 ! ,,kriya ,,yogi passes beyond all disillusionm5t into 8 unfett]$ ,be+4 ,all scriptures decl>e man to be n a corruptible body1 b a liv+ s\l2 by ,,kriya he is giv5 a me?od to prove ! scriptural tru?4 8,outw>d ritual _c de/roy ignorance1 because !y are n mutually contradictory10 wrote ,%ank>a 9 8 fam\s ,,c5tury ,,( ,,v]ses4 8,realiz$ k alone de/roys ignorance4 4 4 4 ,k _c spr+ up by any o!r means ?an inquiry4 #8,:o am ,i8 ,h[ 0 ?is univ]se born8 ,:o is its mak]8 ,:at is its mat]ial cause8' ,?is is ! k9d ( inquiry ref]r$ to40 ,! intellect has no answ] = ^! que/ions2 h5ce ! ri%is evolv$ yoga z ! te*nique ( spiritual inquiry4 ,,kriya ,,yoga is ! real 8fire rite0 (t5 extoll$ 9 ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita4 ,! purify+ fires ( yoga br+ et]nal illum9ation1 & ?us diff] mu* f outw>d & little-effective religi\s fire c]emonies1 :]e p]ception ( tru? is (t burnt1 to solemn *ant$ accompanim5t1 along ) ! inc5se6 ,! advanc$ yogi1 )hold+ all 8 m9d1 w1 & feel+ f false id5tification ) bodily desires1 unit+ 8 m9d ) sup]consci\s =ces 9 ! sp9al %r9es1 ?us lives 9 ?is _w z ,god ha? plann$1 n impell$ by impulses f ! pa/ nor by new witlessnesses ( fre% human motivations4 ,su* a yogi receives fulfillm5t ( 8 ,supreme ,desire1 safe 9 ! f9al hav5 ( inexhau/ibly blissful ,_s4 ,! yogi (f]s 8 labyr9?9e human long+s to a mono!i/ic bonfire d$icat$ to ! unp>allel$ ,god4 ,?is is inde$ ! true yogic fire c]emony1 9 :i* all pa/ & pres5t desires are fuel consum$ by love div9e4 ,! ,ultimate ,flame receives ! sacrifice ( all human madness1 & man is pure ( dross4 ,8 bones /ripp$ ( all desir\s fle%1 8 k>mic skeleton blea*$ 9 ! antiseptic suns ( wisdom1 he is clean at la/1 in(f5sive be=e man & ,mak]4 ,ref]r+ to yoga's sure & me?odical efficacy1 ,"l ,kri%na praises ! te*nological yogi 9 ! foll[+ words3 8,! yogi is great] ?an body-discipl9+ ascetics1 great] ev5 ?an ! foll[]s ( ! pa? ( wisdom 7,,jnana ,,yoga71 or ( ! pa? ( action 7,,k>ma ,,yoga72 be ?\1 ,o disciple ,arjuna1 a yogi60 ,,fn#bf-ad ,,fn#bf-a ,! not$ sci5ti/1 ,dr4 ,george ,w4 ,crile ( ,clevel&1 expla9$ be=e a #aidj meet+ ( ! ,am]ican ,association = ! ,advancem5t ( ,sci5ce ! exp]im5ts by :i* he _h prov$ t all bodily tissues are electrically negative1 except ! bra9 & n]v\s sy/em tissues :i* rema9 electrically positive because !y take up revivify+ oxyg5 at a m rapid rate4 ,,fn#bf-b ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 ,,iv3#bi4 ,,fn#bf-c ,,bhagavad ,,gita ,,iv3#a-b4 ,,fn#bf-d ,! au?or ( ,,manava ,,dh>ma ,,%a/ras4 ,^! in/itutes ( canoniz$ common law are effective 9 ,india to ?is day4 ,! ,fr5* s*ol>1 ,l\is ,jacolliot1 writes t ! date ( ,manu 8is lo/ 9 ! night ( ! ante-hi/orical p]iod ( ,india2 & no s*ol> has d>$ to refuse him ! title ( ! mo/ anci5t lawgiv] 9 ! _w40 ,9 ,,la ,,bible ,,dans ,l',,inde1 pages #cc-cg1 ,jacolliot reproduces p>allel textual ref]5ces to prove t ! ,roman ,,code ,,( ,,ju/9ian foll[s closely ! ,,laws ,,( ,,manu4 ,,fn#bf-e ,! />t ( ! mat]iali/ic ages1 accord+ to ,h9du scriptural reckon+s1 0 #cajb ,b4,c4 ,?is 0 ! beg9n+ ( ! ,desc5d+ ,dwap>a ,age 7see page #agd74 ,mod]n s*ol>s1 bli!ly believ+ t #aj1jjj ye>s ago all m5 7 sunk 9 a b>b>\s ,/one ,age1 summ>ily dismiss z 8my?s0 all records & traditions ( v anci5t civilizations 9 ,india1 ,*9a1 ,egypt1 & o!r l&s4 ,,fn#bf-f ,patanjali's ,,aphorisms1 ,,ii3#a4 ,9 us+ ! words ,,kriya ,,yoga1 ,patanjali 0 ref]r+ to ei!r ! exact te*nique taught by ,babaji1 or "o v simil> to x4 ,t x 0 a def9ite te*nique ( life control is prov$ by ,patanjali's ,,aphorism ,,ii3#di4 ,,fn#bf-g ,patanjali's ,,aphorisms1 ,i3#bg4 ,,fn#bf-h 8,9 ! beg9n+ 0 ! ,^w1 & ! ,^w 0 ) ,god1 & ! ,^w 0 ,god4 4 4 4 ,all ?+s 7 made by him2 & )\t him 0 n any ?+ made t 0 made40-,,john #a3a-c4 ,,aum 7,,om7 ( ! ,,v$as became ! sacr$ ^w ,,am9 ( ! ,moslems1 ,,hum ( ! ,tibetans1 & ,,am5 ( ! ,*ri/ians 7its mean+ 9 ,hebrew be+ ,,sure1 ,,fai?ful74 8,^! ?+s sai? ! ,am51 ! fai?ful & true witness1 ! beg9n+ ( ! creation ( ,god40-,,revelations #c3ad4 ,,fn#bf-i ,,aphorisms ,,ii3#di44 ,,fn#bf-aj ,i ,,cor9?ians #ae3ca4 8,our rejoic+0 is ! correct translation2 n1 z usually giv51 8y\r rejoic+40 ,/4 ,paul 0 ref]r+ to ! ,,omnipres5ce ( ! ,*ri/ consci\sness44 ,,fn#bf-aa ,,kalpa means "t or aeon4 ,,sabikalpa means subject to "t or *ange2 "s l9k ) ,,prakriti or matt] rema9s4 ,,nirbikalpa means timeless1 *angeless2 ?is is ! highe/ /ate ( ,,samadhi4 ,,fn#bf-ab ,accord+ to ! ,,l9coln ,,libr>y ,,( ,,ess5tial ,,in=mation1 p4 #ajcj1 ! giant tortoise lives betwe5 #bjj & #cjj ye>s4 ,,fn#bf-ac ,%akespe>e3 ,,sonnet #adf4 ,,fn#bf-ad ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 ,,vi3#df4 ,,*apt]3 #bg ,,f\nd+ ,a ,,yoga ,,s*ool ,,at ,,ran*i 8,:y are y av]se to organizational "w80 ,ma/]'s "q />tl$ me a bit4 ,x is true t my private conviction at ! "t 0 t organizations 7 8hornets' ne/s40 8,x is a ?ankless task1 sir10 ,i answ]$4 8,no matt] :at ! lead] does or does n1 he is criticiz$40 8,d y want ! :ole div9e ,,*anna 7milk curd7 = y\rself alone80 ,my guru's retort 0 accompani$ by a /]n glance4 8,c\ld y or anyone else a*ieve ,god-contact ?r\gh yoga if a l9e ( g5]\s-he>t$ ma/]s _h n be5 will+ to convey _! k to o!rs80 ,he add$1 8,god is ! ,honey1 organizations are ! hives2 bo? are necess>y4 ,any ,,=m is useless1 ( c\rse1 )\t ! _s1 b :y %\ld y n />t busy hives full ( ! spiritual nect>80 ,8 c\nsel mov$ me deeply4 ,al?\gh ,i made no outw>d reply1 an adamant resolution arose 9 my brea/3 ,i w\ld %>e ) my fell[s1 s f> z lay 9 my p[]1 ! un%ackl+ tru?s ,i _h le>n$ at my guru's feet4 8,"l10 ,i pray$1 8may ,?y ,love %9e =ev] on ! sanctu>y ( my devotion1 & may ,i be able to awak5 t ,love 9 o!r he>ts40 ,on a previ\s occasion1 be=e ,i _h jo9$ ! mona/ic ord]1 ,sri ,yuktesw> _h made a mo/ unexpect$ rem>k4 8,h[ y w miss ! companion%ip ( a wife 9 y\r old age60 he _h said4 8,d y n agree t ! family man1 engag$ 9 useful "w to ma9ta9 8 wife & *ildr51 ?us plays a rew>d+ role 9 ,god's eyes80 8,sir10 ,i _h prote/$ 9 al>m1 8y "k t my desire 9 ?is life is to esp\se only ! ,cosmic ,belov$40 ,ma/] _h laugh$ s m]rily t ,i und]/ood 8 obs]vation 0 made m]ely z a te/ ( my fai?4 8,rememb]10 he _h said sl[ly1 8t he :o disc>ds 8 worldly duties c ju/ify himself only by assum+ "s k9d ( responsibility t[>d a mu* l>g] family40 ,! ideal ( an all-sid$ education = y\? _h always be5 close to my he>t4 ,i saw cle>ly ! arid results ( ord9>y in/ruction1 aim$ only at ! developm5t ( body & intellect4 ,moral & spiritual values1 )\t ^: appreciation no man c approa* happ9ess1 7 yet lack+ 9 ! =mal curriculum4 ,i det]m9$ to f\nd a s*ool :]e "y boys c\ld develop to ! full /ature ( manhood4 ,my fir/ /ep 9 t direction 0 made ) sev5 *ildr5 at ,dihika1 a small c\ntry site 9 ,b5gal4 ,a ye> lat]1 9 #aiah1 ?r\gh ! g5]osity ( ,sir ,man9dra ,*&ra ,nundy1 ! ,mah>aja ( ,kasimbaz>1 ,i 0 able to transf] my fa/-gr[+ gr\p to ,ran*i4 ,?is t[n 9 ,bih>1 ab\t two hundr$ miles f ,calcutta1 is bless$ ) "o ( ! mo/ heal?ful climates 9 ,india4 ,! ,kasimbaz> ,palace at ,ran*i 0 trans=m$ into ! headqu>t]s = ! new s*ool1 :i* ,i call$ ,,brahma*>ya ,,vidyalaya ,,fn#bg-a 9 accordance ) ! educational ideals ( ! ri%is4 ,_! =e/ a%rams _h be5 ! anci5t seats ( le>n+1 secul> & div9e1 = ! y\? ( ,india4 ,at ,ran*i ,i organiz$ an educational program = bo? gramm> & high s*ool grades4 ,x includ$ agricultural1 indu/rial1 comm]cial1 & academic subjects4 ,! /ud5ts 7 also taught yoga conc5tration & m$itation1 & a unique sy/em ( physical developm5t1 8,yogoda10 ^: pr9ciples ,i _h discov]$ 9 #aiaf4 ,realiz+ t man's body is l an electric batt]y1 ,i reason$ t x c\ld be re*>g$ ) en]gy ?r\gh ! direct ag5cy ( ! human w4 ,z no action1 slight or l>ge1 is possible )\t ,,will+1 man c avail himself ( 8 prime mov]1 w1 to r5ew 8 bodily tissues )\t burd5some app>atus or me*anical ex]cises4 ,i !re=e taught ! ,ran*i /ud5ts my simple 8,yogoda0 te*niques by :i* ! life =ce1 c5tr$ 9 man's m$ulla oblongata1 c be consci\sly & in/antly re*>g$ f ! unlimit$ supply ( cosmic en]gy4 ,illu/ration3 ,c5tral build+ ( ! ,yogoda ,sat-,sanga ,brahma*>ya ,vidyalaya at ,ran*i1 ,bih>1 e/abli%$ 9 #aiah z a yoga s*ool = boys1 ) gramm> & high s*ool education4 ,connect$ ) x is ! philan?ropic ,lahiri ,mahasaya ,mission4--see ran*i4jpg ,! boys respond$ wond]fully to ?is tra9+1 develop+ extraord9>y ability to %ift ! life en]gy f "o "p ( ! body to ano!r "p1 & to sit 9 p]fect poise 9 difficult body po/ures4 ,,fn#bg-b ,!y p]=m$ feats ( /r5g? & endurance :i* _m p[]ful adults c\ld n equal4 ,my y\nge/ bro!r1 ,bi%nu ,*>an ,gho%1 jo9$ ! ,ran*i s*ool2 he lat] became a lead+ physical culturi/ 9 ,b5gal4 ,he & "o ( 8 /ud5ts travel$ to ,europe & ,am]ica1 giv+ exhibitions ( /r5g? & skill :i* amaz$ ! univ]sity savants1 includ+ ^? at ,columbia ,univ]sity 9 ,new ,york4 ,at ! end ( ! fir/ ye> at ,ran*i1 applications = admission rea*$ two ?\s&4 ,b ! s*ool1 :i* at t "t 0 solely resid5tial1 c\ld accommodate only ab\t "o hundr$4 ,in/ruction = day /ud5ts 0 soon add$4 ,9 ! ,,vidyalaya ,i _h to play fa!r-"m to ! little *ildr51 & to cope ) _m organizational difficulties4 ,i (t5 rememb]$ ,*ri/'s words3 8,v]ily ,i say unto y1 ,!re is no man t ha? left h\se1 or bre?r5 or si/]s1 or fa!r1 or "m1 or wife1 or *ildr51 or l&s1 = my sake1 & ! gospel's1 b he %all receive an hundr$fold n[ 9 ?is "t1 h\ses & bre?r51 & si/]s1 & mo!rs1 & *ildr51 & l&s1 ) p]secutions2 & 9 ! _w to come et]nal life40 ,,fn#bg-c ,sri ,yuktesw> _h int]pret$ ^! words3 8,! devotee :o =goes ! life-exp]i5ces ( m>riage & family1 & ex*anges ! problems ( a small h\sehold & limit$ activities = ! l>g] responsibilities ( s]vice to society 9 g5]al1 is und]tak+ a task :i* is (t5 accompani$ by p]secution f a misund]/&+ _w1 b also by a div9e inn] cont5tm5t40 ,"o day my fa!r arriv$ 9 ,ran*i to be/[ a pat]nal bless+1 long )held because ,i _h hurt him by refus+ 8 (f] ( a position ) ! ,b5gal-,nagpur ,railway4 8,son10 he said1 8,i am n[ reconcil$ to y\r *oice 9 life4 ,x gives me joy to see y amid/ ^! happy1 eag] y\ng/]s2 y belong "h r ?an ) ! lifeless figures ( railroad timetables40 ,he wav$ t[>d a gr\p ( a doz5 little ones :o 7 tagg+ at my heels4 8,i _h only eight *ildr510 he obs]v$ ) tw9kl+ eyes1 8b ,i c feel = y60 ,) a l>ge fruit or*>d & tw5ty-five f]tile acres at our disposal1 ! /ud5ts1 tea*]s1 & myself enjoy$ _m happy h\rs ( outdoor labor 9 ^! ideal surr\nd+s4 ,we _h _m pets1 includ+ a "y de] :o 0 fairly idoliz$ by ! *ildr54 ,i too lov$ ! fawn s mu* t ,i all[$ x to sleep 9 my room4 ,at ! light ( dawn1 ! little creature w\ld toddle ov] to my b$ = a morn+ c>ess4 ,"o day ,i f$ ! pet e>li] ?an usual1 z ,i _h to att5d to "s bus9ess 9 ! t[n ( ,ran*i4 ,al?\gh ,i caution$ ! boys n to fe$ ! fawn until my return1 "o ( !m 0 disob$i5t1 & gave ! baby de] a l>ge quantity ( milk4 ,:5 ,i came back 9 ! ev5+1 sad news greet$ me3 8,! little fawn is ne>ly dead1 ?r\gh ov] fe$+40 ,9 te>s1 ,i plac$ ! app>5tly lifeless pet on my lap4 ,i pray$ pite\sly to ,god to sp>e its life4 ,h\rs lat]1 ! small creature op5$ its eyes1 /ood up1 & walk$ feebly4 ,! :ole s*ool %\t$ = joy4 ,b a deep lesson came to me t night1 "o ,i c nev] =get4 ,i /ay$ up ) ! fawn until two o'clock1 :5 ,i fell asleep4 ,! de] appe>$ 9 a dream1 & spoke to me3 8,y are hold+ me back4 ,please let me g2 let me g60 8,all "r10 ,i answ]$ 9 ! dream4 ,i awoke imm$iately1 & cri$ out1 8,boys1 ! de] is dy+60 ,! *ildr5 ru%$ to my side4 ,i ran to ! corn] ( ! room :]e ,i _h plac$ ! pet4 ,x made a la/ ef=t to rise1 /umbl$ t[>d me1 !n dropp$ at my feet1 dead4 ,accord+ to ! mass k>ma :i* guides & regulates ! de/9ies ( animals1 ! de]'s life 0 ov]1 & x 0 ready to progress to a high] =m4 ,b by my deep atta*m5t1 :i* ,i lat] realiz$ 0 selfi%1 & by my f]v5t pray]s1 ,i _h be5 able to hold x 9 ! limitations ( ! animal =m f :i* ! s\l 0 /ruggl+ = release4 ,! s\l ( ! de] made its plea 9 a dream because1 )\t my lov+ p]mission1 x ei!r w\ld n or c\ld n g4 ,z soon z ,i agre$1 x dep>t$4 ,all sorr[ left me2 ,i realiz$ anew t ,god wants ,8 *ildr5 to love ev]y?+ z a "p ( ,him1 & n to feel delusively t dea? ends all4 ,! ignorant man sees only ! unsurm\ntable wall ( dea?1 hid+1 seem+ly =ev]1 8 *]i%$ fri5ds4 ,b ! man ( unatta*m5t1 he :o loves o!rs z expressions ( ! ,"l1 und]/&s t at dea? ! de> ones h only return$ = a brea?+-space ( joy 9 ,him4 ,! ,ran*i s*ool grew f small & simple beg9n+s to an in/itution n[ well-kn[n 9 ,india4 ,_m dep>tm5ts ( ! s*ool are support$ by volunt>y contributions f ^? :o rejoice 9 p]petuat+ ! educational ideals ( ! ri%is4 ,"u ! g5]al "n ( ,,yogoda ,,sat-,,sanga1 ,,fn#bg-d fl\ri%+ bran* s*ools h be5 e/abli%$ at ,midnapore1 ,lak%manpur1 & ,puri4 ,! ,ran*i headqu>t]s ma9ta9s a ,m$ical ,dep>tm5t :]e m$ic9es & ! s]vices ( doctors are suppli$ freely to ! poor ( ! locality4 ,! numb] treat$ has av]ag$ m ?an #ah1jjj p]sons a ye>4 ,! ,,vidyalaya has made its m>k1 too1 9 ,indian competitive sports1 & 9 ! s*ola/ic field1 :]e _m ,ran*i alumni h di/+ui%$ !mselves 9 lat] univ]sity life4 ,! s*ool1 n[ 9 its tw5ty-eigh? ye> & ! c5t] ( _m activities1 ,,fn#bg-e has be5 honor$ by visits ( em95t m5 f ! ,ea/ & ! ,we/4 ,"o ( ! e>lie/ great figures to inspect ! ,,vidyalaya 9 its fir/ ye> 0 ,swami ,pranaban&a1 ! ,b5>es 8sa9t ) two bodies40 ,z ! great ma/] view$ ! picturesque outdoor classes1 held "u ! trees1 & saw 9 ! ev5+ t "y boys 7 sitt+ motionless = h\rs 9 yoga m$itation1 he 0 pr(\ndly mov$4 8,joy comes to my he>t10 he said1 8to see t ,lahiri ,mahasaya's ideals = ! prop] tra9+ ( y\? are be+ c>ri$ on 9 ?is in/itution4 ,my guru's bless+s be on x40 ,a "y lad sitt+ by my side v5tur$ to ask ! great yogi a "q4 8,sir10 he said1 8%all ,i be a monk8 ,is my life only = ,god80 ,?\gh ,swami ,pranaban&a smil$ g5tly1 8 eyes 7 pi]c+ ! future4 8,*ild10 he repli$1 8:5 y gr[ up1 !re is a beautiful bride wait+ = y40 ,! boy did ev5tually m>ry1 aft] hav+ plann$ = ye>s to ent] ! ,swami ,ord]4 ,sometime aft] ,swami ,pranaban&a _h visit$ ,ran*i1 ,i accompani$ my fa!r to ! ,calcutta h\se :]e ! yogi 0 tempor>ily /ay+4 ,pranaban&a's pr$iction1 made to me s _m ye>s be=e1 came ru%+ to my m9d3 8,i %all see y1 ) y\r fa!r1 lat] on40 ,z ,fa!r ent]$ ! swami's room1 ! great yogi rose f 8 seat & embrac$ my p>5t ) lov+ respect4 8,bhagabati10 he said1 8:at are y do+ ab\t y\rself8 ,don't y see y\r son rac+ to ! ,inf9ite80 ,i blu%$ to he> 8 praise be=e my fa!r4 ,! swami w5t on1 8,y recall h[ (t5 our bless$ guru us$ to say3 #8,,banat1 ,,banat1 ,,ban ,,jai4' ,,fn#bf-f ,s keep up ,,kriya ,,yoga ceaselessly1 & rea* ! div9e portals quickly40 ,! body ( ,pranaban&a1 :i* _h appe>$ s well & /rong dur+ my amaz+ fir/ visit to him 9 ,b5>es1 n[ %[$ def9ite ag+1 ?\gh 8 po/ure 0 /ill admirably erect4 8,swamiji10 ,i inquir$1 look+ /raight into 8 eyes1 8please tell me ! tru?3 ,ar5't y feel+ ! advance ( age8 ,z ! body is weak5+1 are y\r p]ceptions ( ,god suff]+ any dim9ution80 ,he smil$ angelically4 8,! ,belov$ is m ?an ev] ) me n[40 ,8 complete conviction ov]:elm$ my m9d & s\l4 ,he w5t on1 8,i am /ill enjoy+ ! two p5sions-"o f ,bhagabati "h1 & "o f above40 ,po9t+ 8 f+] heav5w>d1 ! sa9t fell into an ec/asy1 8 face lit ) a div9e gl[-an ample answ] to my "q4 ,notic+ t ,pranaban&a's room conta9$ _m plants & packages ( se$1 ,i ask$ _! purpose4 8,i h left ,b5>es p]man5tly10 he said1 8& am n[ on my way to ! ,himalayas4 ,!re ,i %all op5 an a%ram = my disciples4 ,^! se$s w produce sp9a* & a few o!r vegetables4 ,my de> ones w live simply1 sp5d+ _! "t 9 blissful ,god-union4 ,no?+ else is necess>y40 ,fa!r ask$ 8 bro!r disciple :5 he w\ld return to ,calcutta4 8,nev] aga910 ! sa9t repli$4 8,?is ye> is ! "o 9 :i* ,lahiri ,mahasaya told me ,i w\ld leave my belov$ ,b5>es =ev] & g to ! ,himalayas1 !re to ?r[ (f my mortal frame40 ,my eyes fill$ ) te>s at 8 words1 b ! swami smil$ tranquilly4 ,he rem9d$ me ( a little heav5ly *ild1 sitt+ securely on ! lap ( ! ,div9e ,"m4 ,! burd5 ( ! ye>s has no ill effect on a great yogi's full possession ( supreme spiritual p[]s4 ,he is able to r5ew 8 body at w2 yet sometimes he does n c>e to ret>d ! ag+ process1 b all[s 8 k>ma to "w itself out on ! physical plane1 us+ 8 old body z a "t-sav+ device to exclude ! necessity ( work+ out k>ma 9 a new inc>nation4 ,mon?s lat] ,i met an old fri5d1 ,san&an1 :o 0 "o ( ,pranaban&a's close disciples4 8,my adorable guru is gone10 he told me1 amid/ sobs4 8,he e/abli%$ a h]mitage ne> ,ri%ike%1 & gave u lov+ tra9+4 ,:5 we 7 pretty well settl$1 & mak+ rapid spiritual progress 9 8 company1 he propos$ "o day to fe$ a huge cr[d f ,ri%ike%4 ,i inquir$ :y he want$ su* a l>ge numb]4 8#8,?is is my la/ fe/ival c]emony1' he said4 ,i did n und]/& ! full implications ( 8 words4 8,pranaban&aji help$ ) ! cook+ ( great am\nts ( food4 ,we f$ ab\t #bjjj gue/s4 ,aft] ! fea/1 he sat on a high plat=m & gave an inspir$ s]mon on ! ,inf9ite4 ,at ! end1 be=e ! gaze ( ?\s&s1 he turn$ to me1 z ,i sat beside him on ! dais1 & spoke ) unusual =ce4 8#8,san&an1 be prep>$2 ,i am go+ to kick ! frame4' ,,fn#bg-g 8,aft] a /unn$ sil5ce1 ,i cri$ l\dly1 #8,ma/]1 don't d x6 ,please1 please1 don't d x6' ,! cr[d 0 tongue-ti$1 wat*+ u curi\sly4 ,my guru smil$ at me1 b 8 solemn gaze 0 already fix$ on ,et]nity4 8#8,be n selfi%1' he said1 #8nor grieve = me4 ,i h be5 long *e]fully s]v+ y all2 n[ rejoice & wi% me ,godspe$4 ,i g to meet my ,cosmic ,belov$4' ,9 a :isp]1 ,pranaban&aji add$1 #8,i %all be reborn %ortly4 ,aft] enjoy+ a %ort p]iod ( ! ,inf9ite ,bliss1 ,i %all return to e>? & jo9 ,babaji4 ,,fn#bg-h ,y %all soon "k :5 & :]e my s\l has be5 encas$ 9 a new body4' 8,he cri$ aga91 #8,san&an1 "h ,i kick ! frame by ! second ,,kriya ,,yoga4' ,,fn#bg-i 8,he look$ at ! sea ( faces be=e u1 & gave a bless+4 ,direct+ 8 gaze inw>dly to ! spiritual eye1 he became immobile4 ,:ile ! bewild]$ cr[d ?\ght he 0 m$itat+ 9 an ec/atic /ate1 he _h already left ! tab]nacle ( fle% & plung$ 8 s\l into ! cosmic va/ness4 ,! disciples t\*$ 8 body1 seat$ 9 ! lotus po/ure1 b x 0 no long] ! w>m fle%4 ,only a /iff5$ frame rema9$2 ! t5ant _h fl$ to ! immortal %ore40 ,i inquir$ :]e ,pranaban&a 0 to be reborn4 8,t's a sacr$ tru/ ,i _c divulge to anyone10 ,san&an repli$4 8,p]haps y may f9d out "s o!r way40 ,ye>s lat] ,i discov]$ f ,swami ,ke%aban&a ,,fn#bg-aj t ,pranaban&a1 a few ye>s aft] 8 bir? 9 a new body1 _h gone to ,badr9>ayan 9 ! ,himalayas1 & !re jo9$ ! gr\p ( sa9ts ar\nd ! great ,babaji4 ,,fn#bg-a ,,vidyalaya1 s*ool4 ,,brahma*>ya "h ref]s to "o ( ! f\r /ages 9 ! ,v$ic plan = man's life1 z compris+ t ( 7#a7 ! celibate /ud5t 7,,brahma*>i72 7#b7 ! h\sehold] ) worldly responsibilities 7,,griha/ha72 7#c7 ! h]mit 7,,vanapra/ha72 7#d7 ! =e/ dwell] or w&]]1 free f all e>?ly conc]ns 7,,sannyasi74 ,?is ideal s*eme ( life1 :ile n widely obs]v$ 9 mod]n ,india1 /ill has _m dev\t foll[]s4 ,! f\r /ages are c>ri$ out religi\sly "u ! lifelong direction ( a guru4 ,,fn#bg-b ,a numb] ( ,am]ican /ud5ts also h ma/]$ v>i\s ,,asanas or po/ures1 includ+ ,b]n>d ,cole1 an in/ructor 9 ,los ,angeles ( ! ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip tea*+s4 ,,fn#bg-c ,,m>k #aj3bi-cj44 ,,fn#bg-d ,yogoda3 ,,yoga1 union1 h>mony1 equilibrium2 ,,da1 t :i* imp>ts4 ,sat-,sanga3 ,,sat1 tru?2 ,,sanga1 fell[%ip4 ,9 ! ,we/1 to avoid ! use ( a ,sanskrit "n1 ! ,,yogoda ,,sat-,,sanga movem5t has be5 call$ ! ,,self-,,realization ,,fell[%ip4 ,,fn#bg-e ,! activities at ,ran*i are describ$ m fully 9 *apt] #dj4 ,! ,lak%manpur s*ool is 9 ! capable *>ge ( ,mr4 ,g4 ,c4 ,dey1 ,b4,a4 ,! m$ical dep>tm5t is ably sup]vis$ by ,dr4 ,s4 ,n4 ,pal & ,sasi ,bhusan ,mullick4 ,,fn#bg-f ,"o ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's favorite rem>ks1 giv5 z enc\ragem5t = 8 /ud5ts' p]sev]ance4 ,a free translation is3 8,/riv+1 /riv+1 "o day behold6 ! ,div9e ,goal60 ,,fn#bg-g i4e41 give up ! body4 ,,fn#bg-h ,lahiri ,mahasaya's guru1 :o is /ill liv+4 7,see *apt] #cc47 ,,fn#bg-i ,! second ,,kriya1 z taught by ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 enables ! devotee t has ma/]$ x to leave & return to ! body consci\sly at any "t4 ,advanc$ yogis use ! second ,kriya te*nique dur+ ! la/ exit ( dea?1 a mom5t !y inv>iably "k be=eh&4 ,,fn#bg-aj ,my meet+ ) ,ke%aban&a is describ$ 9 *apt] #db4 ,,*apt]3 #bh ,,ka%i1 ,,reborn ,,& ,,r$iscov]$ 8,please d n g into ! wat]4 ,let u ba! by dipp+ our buckets40 ,i 0 address+ ! "y ,ran*i /ud5ts :o 7 accompany+ me on an eight-mile hike to a neighbor+ hill4 ,! pond be=e u 0 invit+1 b a di/a/e = x _h aris5 9 my m9d4 ,! gr\p ar\nd me foll[$ my example ( dipp+ buckets1 b a few lads yield$ to ! temptation ( ! cool wat]s4 ,no soon] _h !y div$ ?an l>ge wat] snakes wiggl$ ar\nd !m4 ,! boys came out ( ! pond ) comical alacrity4 ,we enjoy$ a picnic lun* aft] we rea*$ our de/9ation4 ,i sat "u a tree1 surr\nd$ by a gr\p ( /ud5ts4 ,f9d+ me 9 an inspirational mood1 !y pli$ me ) que/ions4 8,please tell me1 sir10 "o y\? inquir$1 8if ,i %all always /ay ) y 9 ! pa? ( r5unciation40 8,ah1 no10 ,i repli$1 8y w be =cibly tak5 away to y\r home1 & lat] y w m>ry40 ,incr$ul\s1 he made a vehem5t prote/4 8,only if ,i am dead c ,i be c>ri$ home40 ,b 9 a few mon?s1 8 p>5ts arriv$ to take him away1 9 spite ( 8 te>ful resi/ance2 "s ye>s lat]1 he did m>ry4 ,aft] answ]+ _m que/ions1 ,i 0 address$ by a lad nam$ ,ka%i4 ,he 0 ab\t twelve ye>s old1 a brilliant /ud5t1 & belov$ by all4 8,sir10 he said1 8:at w be my fate80 8,y %all soon be dead40 ,! reply came f my lips ) an irresi/ible =ce4 ,?is unexpect$ disclosure %ock$ & griev$ me z well z ev]yone pres5t4 ,sil5tly rebuk+ myself z an ,,enfant ,,t]rible1 ,i refus$ to answ] fur!r que/ions4 ,on our return to ! s*ool1 ,ka%i came to my room4 8,if ,i die1 w y f9d me :5 ,i am reborn1 & br+ me aga9 to ! spiritual pa?80 ,he sobb$4 ,i felt con/ra9$ to refuse ?is difficult occult responsibility4 ,b = weeks aft]w>d1 ,ka%i press$ me dogg$ly4 ,see+ him unn]v$ to ! break+ po9t1 ,i f9ally consol$ him4 8,yes10 ,i promis$4 8,if ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r l5ds ,8 aid1 ,i w try to f9d y40 ,illu/ration3 ,ka%i1 lo/ & r$iscov]$--see ka%i4jpg ,dur+ ! summ] vacation1 ,i />t$ on a %ort trip4 ,regrett+ t ,i c\ld n take ,ka%i ) me1 ,i call$ him to my room be=e leav+1 & c>efully in/ruct$ him to rema91 aga9/ all p]suasion1 9 ! spiritual vibrations ( ! s*ool4 ,someh[ ,i felt t if he did n g home1 he might avoid ! imp5d+ calamity4 ,no soon] _h ,i left ?an ,ka%i's fa!r arriv$ 9 ,ran*i4 ,= fifte5 days he tri$ to break ! w ( 8 son1 expla9+ t if ,ka%i w\ld g to ,calcutta = only f\r days to see 8 "m1 he c\ld !n return4 ,ka%i p]si/5tly refus$4 ,! fa!r f9ally said he w\ld take ! boy away ) ! help ( ! police4 ,! ?reat di/urb$ ,ka%i1 :o 0 unwill+ to be ! cause ( any unfavorable publicity to ! s*ool4 ,he saw no *oice b to g4 ,i return$ to ,ran*i a few days lat]4 ,:5 ,i he>d h[ ,ka%i _h be5 remov$1 ,i entra9$ at once = ,calcutta4 ,!re ,i engag$ a horse cab4 ,v /rangely1 z ! vehicle pass$ beyond ! ,h[rah bridge ov] ! ,ganges1 ,i beheld ,ka%i's fa!r & o!r relatives 9 m\rn+ clo!s4 ,%\t+ to my driv] to /op1 ,i ru%$ out & gl>$ at ! un=tunate fa!r4 8,mr4 ,murd]]10 ,i cri$ some:at unreasonably1 8y h kill$ my boy60 ,! fa!r _h already realiz$ ! wrong he _h done 9 =cibly br++ ,ka%i to ,calcutta4 ,dur+ ! few days ! boy _h be5 !re1 he _h eat5 contam9at$ food1 contract$ *ol]a1 & pass$ on4 ,my love = ,ka%i1 & ! pl$ge to f9d him aft] dea?1 night & day haunt$ me4 ,no matt] :]e ,i w5t1 8 face loom$ up be=e me4 ,i began a memorable se>* = him1 ev5 z long ago ,i _h se>*$ = my lo/ "m4 ,i felt t inasmu* z ,god _h giv5 me ! faculty ( reason1 ,i mu/ utilize x & tax my p[]s to ! utmo/ 9 ord] to discov] ! subtle laws by :i* ,i c\ld "k ! boy's a/ral :]eab\ts4 ,he 0 a s\l vibrat+ ) unfulfill$ desires1 ,i realiz$-a mass ( light float+ some:]e amid/ millions ( lum9\s s\ls 9 ! a/ral regions4 ,h[ 0 ,i to tune 9 ) him1 among s _m vibrat+ lights ( o!r s\ls8 ,us+ a secret yoga te*nique1 ,i broadca/$ my love to ,ka%i's s\l ?r\gh ! microphone ( ! spiritual eye1 ! inn] po9t betwe5 ! eyebr[s4 ,) ! ant5na ( uprais$ h&s & f+]s1 ,i (t5 turn$ myself r\nd & r\nd1 try+ to locate ! direction 9 :i* he _h be5 reborn z an embryo4 ,i hop$ to receive response f him 9 ! conc5tration-tun$ radio ( my he>t4 ,,fn#bh-a ,i intuitively felt t ,ka%i w\ld soon return to ! e>?1 & t if ,i kept unceas+ly broadca/+ my call to him1 8 s\l w\ld reply4 ,i knew t ! slighte/ impulse s5t by ,ka%i w\ld be felt 9 my f+]s1 h&s1 arms1 sp9e1 & n]ves4 ,) undim9i%$ zeal1 ,i practic$ ! yoga me?od /eadily = ab\t six mon?s aft] ,ka%i's dea?4 ,walk+ ) a few fri5ds "o morn+ 9 ! cr[d$ ,b[baz> section ( ,calcutta1 ,i lift$ my h&s 9 ! usual mann]4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 !re 0 response4 ,i ?rill$ to detect electrical impulses trickl+ d[n my f+]s & palms4 ,^! curr5ts translat$ !mselves into "o ov]p[]+ ?\ght f a deep recess ( my consci\sness3 8,i am ,ka%i2 ,i am ,ka%i2 come to me60 ,! ?\ght became almo/ audible z ,i conc5trat$ on my he>t radio4 ,9 ! *>act]i/ic1 slightly ho>se :isp] ( ,ka%i1 ,,fn#bh-b ,i he>d 8 summons aga9 & aga94 ,i seiz$ ! arm ( "o ( my companions1 ,proka% ,das1 ,,fn#bh-c & smil$ at him joyfully4 8,x looks z ?\gh ,i h locat$ ,ka%i60 ,i began to turn r\nd & r\nd1 to ! undisguis$ amusem5t ( my fri5ds & ! pass+ ?rong4 ,! electrical impulses t+l$ ?r\gh my f+]s only :5 ,i fac$ t[>d a ne>-by pa?1 aptly nam$ 8,s]p5t9e ,lane40 ,! a/ral curr5ts disappe>$ :5 ,i turn$ 9 o!r directions4 8,ah10 ,i exclaim$1 8,ka%i's s\l mu/ be liv+ 9 ! womb ( "s "m ^: home is 9 ?is lane40 ,my companions & ,i approa*$ clos] to ,s]p5t9e ,lane2 ! vibrations 9 my uprais$ h&s grew /rong]1 m pron\nc$4 ,z if by a magnet1 ,i 0 pull$ t[>d ! "r side ( ! road4 ,rea*+ ! entrance ( a c]ta9 h\se1 ,i 0 a/\nd$ to f9d myself transfix$4 ,i knock$ at ! door 9 a /ate ( int5se excitem5t1 hold+ my v brea?4 ,i felt t ! successful end _h come = my long1 ardu\s1 & c]ta9ly unusual que/6 ,! door 0 op5$ by a s]vant1 :o told me h] ma/] 0 at home4 ,he desc5d$ ! /airway f ! second floor & smil$ at me inquir+ly4 ,i h>dly knew h[ to frame my "q1 at once p]t95t & imp]t95t4 8,please tell me1 sir1 if y & y\r wife h be5 expect+ a *ild = ab\t six mon?s80 8,yes1 x is s40 ,see+ t ,i 0 a swami1 a r5unciate attir$ 9 ! traditional orange clo?1 he add$ politely1 8,pray in=m me h[ y "k my affairs40 ,:5 he he>d ab\t ,ka%i & ! promise ,i _h giv51 ! a/oni%$ man believ$ my /ory4 8,a male *ild ( fair complexion w be born to y10 ,i told him4 8,he w h a broad face1 ) a c[lick atop 8 =ehead4 ,8 disposition w be notably spiritual40 ,i felt c]ta9 t ! com+ *ild w\ld be> ^! resemblances to ,ka%i4 ,lat] ,i visit$ ! *ild1 ^: p>5ts _h giv5 him 8 old "n ( ,ka%i4 ,ev5 9 infancy he 0 /rik+ly simil> 9 appe>ance to my de> ,ran*i /ud5t4 ,! *ild %[$ me an in/antane\s affection2 ! attraction ( ! pa/ awoke ) r$\bl$ int5sity4 ,ye>s lat] ! te5-age boy wrote me1 dur+ my /ay 9 ,am]ica4 ,he expla9$ 8 deep long+ to foll[ ! pa? ( a r5unciate4 ,i direct$ him to a ,himalayan ma/] :o1 to ?is day1 guides ! reborn ,ka%i4 ,,fn#bh-a ,! w1 project$ f ! po9t betwe5 ! eyebr[s1 is kn[n by yogis z ! broadca/+ app>atus ( ?\ght4 ,:5 ! feel+ is calmly conc5trat$ on ! he>t1 x acts z a m5tal radio1 & c receive ! messages ( o!rs f f> or ne>4 ,9 telepa?y ! f9e vibrations ( ?\ghts 9 "o p]son's m9d are transmitt$ ?r\gh ! subtle vibrations ( a/ral e!r & !n ?r\gh ! gross] e>?ly e!r1 creat+ electrical waves :i*1 9 turn1 translate !mselves into ?\ght waves 9 ! m9d ( ! o!r p]son4 ,,fn#bh-b ,e s\l 9 its pure /ate is omnisci5t4 ,ka%i's s\l rememb]$ all ! *>act]i/ics ( ,ka%i1 ! boy1 & !re=e mimick$ 8 ho>se voice 9 ord] to /ir my recognition4 ,,fn#bh-c ,proka% ,das is ! pres5t director ( our ,yogoda ,ma? 7h]mitage7 at ,dak%9esw> 9 ,b5gal4 ,,*apt]3 #bi ,,rab9drana? ,,tagore ,,& ,i ,,comp>e ,,s*ools 8,rab9drana? ,tagore taught u to s+1 z a natural =m ( self-expression1 l ! birds40 ,bhola ,na?1 a bright f\rte5-ye>-old lad at my ,ran*i s*ool1 gave me ?is explanation aft] ,i _h complim5t$ him "o morn+ on 8 melodi\s outbur/s4 ,) or )\t provocation1 ! boy p\r$ =? a tuneful /ream4 ,he _h previ\sly att5d$ ! fam\s ,tagore s*ool ( 8,sant9iketan0 7,hav5 ( ,peace7 at ,bolpur4 8,! songs ( ,rab9drana? h be5 on my lips s9ce e>ly y\?10 ,i told my companion4 8,all ,b5gal1 ev5 ! unlett]$ peasants1 delights 9 8 l(ty v]se40 ,bhola & ,i sang toge!r a few refra9s f ,tagore1 :o has set to music ?\s&s ( ,indian poems1 "s orig9al & o!rs ( ho>y antiquity4 8,i met ,rab9drana? soon aft] he _h receiv$ ! ,nobel ,prize = lit]ature10 ,i rem>k$ aft] our vocaliz+4 8,i 0 drawn to visit him because ,i admir$ 8 undiplomatic c\rage 9 dispos+ ( 8 lit]>y critics40 ,i *uckl$4 ,bhola curi\sly inquir$ ! /ory4 8,! s*ol>s sev]ely flay$ ,tagore = introduc+ a new /yle into ,b5gali poetry10 ,i began4 8,he mix$ colloquial & classical expressions1 ignor+ all ! prescrib$ limitations de> to ! pundits' he>ts4 ,8 songs embody deep philosophic tru? 9 emotionally appeal+ t]ms1 ) little reg>d = ! accept$ lit]>y =ms4 8,"o influ5tial critic slight+ly ref]r$ to ,rab9drana? z a #8pigeon-poet :o sold 8 coo+s 9 pr9t = a rupee4' ,b ,tagore's rev5ge 0 at h&2 ! :ole ,we/]n _w paid homage at 8 feet soon aft] he _h translat$ into ,engli% 8 ,,gitanjali 7#8,song ,(f]+s'74 ,a tra9load ( pundits1 includ+ 8 "o-"t critics1 w5t to ,sant9iketan to (f] _! congratulations4 8,rab9drana? receiv$ 8 gue/s only aft] an int5tionally long delay1 & !n he>d _! praise 9 /oic sil5ce4 ,f9ally he turn$ aga9/ !m _! own habitual weapons ( criticism4 8#8,g5tlem51' he said1 #8! fragrant honors y "h be/[ are incongru\sly m+l$ ) ! putrid odors ( y\r pa/ contempt4 ,is !re possibly any connection betwe5 my aw>d ( ! ,nobel ,prize1 & y\r sudd5ly acute p[]s ( appreciation8 ,i am /ill ! same poet :o displeas$ y :5 ,i fir/ (f]$ my humble fl[]s at ! %r9e ( ,b5gal4' 8,! newspap]s publi%$ an acc\nt ( ! bold *a/isem5t giv5 by ,tagore4 ,i admir$ ! outspok5 words ( a man unhypnotiz$ by flatt]y10 ,i w5t on4 8,i 0 introduc$ to ,rab9drana? 9 ,calcutta by 8 secret>y1 ,mr4 ,c4 ,f4 ,&rews1 ,,fn#bi-a :o 0 simply attir$ 9 a ,b5gali ,,dhoti4 ,he ref]r$ lov+ly to ,tagore z 8 ,,gurudeva4 8,rab9drana? receiv$ me graci\sly4 ,he emanat$ a soo?+ aura ( *>m1 culture1 & c\rtl9ess4 ,reply+ to my "q ab\t 8 lit]>y backgr\nd1 ,tagore told me t "o anci5t s\rce ( 8 inspiration1 besides our religi\s epics1 _h be5 ! classical poet1 ,bidyapati40 ,inspir$ by ^! memories1 ,i began to s+ ,tagore's v]sion ( an old ,b5gali song1 8,light ! ,lamp ( ,?y ,love40 ,bhola & ,i *ant$ joy\sly z we /roll$ ov] ! ,,vidyalaya gr\nds4 ,ab\t two ye>s aft] f\nd+ ! ,ran*i s*ool1 ,i receiv$ an invitation f ,rab9drana? to visit him at ,sant9iketan 9 ord] to discuss our educational ideals4 ,i w5t gladly4 ,! poet 0 seat$ 9 8 /udy :5 ,i ent]$2 ,i ?\ght !n1 z at our fir/ meet+1 t he 0 z /rik+ a model ( sup]b manhood z any pa9t] c\ld desire4 ,8 beautifully *isel$ face1 nobly patrician1 0 fram$ 9 long hair & fl[+ be>d4 ,l>ge1 melt+ eyes2 an angelic smile2 & a voice ( flutelike quality :i* 0 lit]ally en*ant+4 ,/alw>t1 tall1 & grave1 he comb9$ an almo/ womanly t5d]ness ) ! delightful spontaneity ( a *ild4 ,no idealiz$ conception ( a poet c\ld f9d m suitable embodim5t ?an 9 ?is g5tle s+]4 ,illu/ration3 ,rab9drana? ,tagore1 inspir$ poet ( ,b5gal1 & ,nobel ,prizeman 9 lit]ature--see tagore4jpg ,tagore & ,i 7 soon deep 9 a comp>ative /udy ( our s*ools1 bo? f\nd$ along unor?odox l9es4 ,we discov]$ _m id5tical features-outdoor in/ruction1 simplicity1 ample scope = ! *ild's creative _s4 ,rab9drana?1 h[ev]1 laid consid]able /ress on ! /udy ( lit]ature & poetry1 & ! self-expression ?r\gh music & song :i* ,i _h already not$ 9 ! case ( ,bhola4 ,! ,sant9iketan *ildr5 obs]v$ p]iods ( sil5ce1 b 7 giv5 no special yoga tra9+4 ,! poet li/5$ ) flatt]+ att5tion to my description ( ! en]giz+ 8,yogoda0 ex]cises & ! yoga conc5tration te*niques :i* are taught to all /ud5ts at ,ran*i4 ,tagore told me ( 8 own e>ly educational /ruggles4 8,i fl$ f s*ool aft] ! fif? grade10 he said1 laugh+4 ,i c\ld readily und]/& h[ 8 innate poetic delicacy _h be5 affront$ by ! dre>y1 discipl9>y atmosph]e ( a s*oolroom4 8,t is :y ,i op5$ ,sant9iketan "u ! %ady trees & ! glories ( ! sky40 ,he motion$ eloqu5tly to a little gr\p /udy+ 9 ! beautiful g>d54 8,a *ild is 9 8 natural sett+ amid/ ! fl[]s & songbirds4 ,only ?us may he fully express ! hidd5 weal? ( 8 individual end[m5t4 ,true education c nev] be cramm$ & pump$ f )\t2 r x mu/ aid 9 br++ spontane\sly to ! surface ! inf9ite ho>ds ( wisdom )940 ,,fn#bi-b ,i agre$4 8,! ideali/ic & h]o-wor%ip+ in/9cts ( ! "y are />v$ on an exclusive diet ( /ati/ics & *ronological eras40 ,! poet spoke lov+ly ( 8 fa!r1 ,dev5drana?1 :o _h inspir$ ! ,sant9iketan beg9n+s4 8,fa!r pres5t$ me ) ?is f]tile l&1 :]e he _h already built a gue/ h\se & temple10 ,rab9drana? told me4 8,i />t$ my educational exp]im5t "h 9 #aija1 ) only t5 boys4 ,! eight ?\s& p\nds :i* came ) ! ,nobel ,prize all w5t = ! upkeep ( ! s*ool40 ,! eld] ,tagore1 ,dev5drana?1 kn[n f> & wide z 8,mah>i%i10 0 a v rem>kable man1 z "o may discov] f 8 ,,autobiography4 ,two ye>s ( 8 manhood 7 sp5t 9 m$itation 9 ! ,himalayas4 ,9 turn1 8 fa!r1 ,dw>kana? ,tagore1 _h be5 celebrat$ ?r\gh\t ,b5gal = 8 munific5t public b5efactions4 ,f ?is illu/ri\s tree has sprung a family ( g5iuses4 ,n ,rab9drana? alone2 all 8 relatives h di/+ui%$ !mselves 9 creative expression4 ,8 bro!rs1 ,gogon5dra & ,aban9dra1 are among ! =emo/ arti/s ,,fn#bi-c ( ,india2 ano!r bro!r1 ,dwij5dra1 is a deep-see+ philosoph]1 at ^: g5tle call ! birds & woodl& creatures respond4 ,rab9drana? invit$ me to /ay ov]night 9 ! gue/ h\se4 ,x 0 inde$ a *>m+ spectacle1 9 ! ev5+1 to see ! poet seat$ ) a gr\p 9 ! patio4 ,"t unfold$ backw>d3 ! sc5e be=e me 0 l t ( an anci5t h]mitage-! joy\s s+] encircl$ by 8 devotees1 all aureol$ 9 div9e love4 ,tagore knitt$ ea* tie ) ! cords ( h>mony4 ,nev] ass]tive1 he drew & captur$ ! he>t by an irresi/ible magnetism4 ,r>e blossom ( poesy bloom+ 9 ! g>d5 ( ! ,"l1 attract+ o!rs by a natural fragrance6 ,9 8 melodi\s voice1 ,rab9drana? read to u a few ( 8 exquisite poems1 newly creat$4 ,mo/ ( 8 songs & plays1 writt5 = ! delectation ( 8 /ud5ts1 h be5 compos$ at ,sant9iketan4 ,! beauty ( 8 l9es1 to me1 lies 9 8 art ( ref]r+ to ,god 9 ne>ly e /anza1 yet seldom m5tion+ ! sacr$ ,"n4 8,drunk ) ! bliss ( s++10 he wrote1 8,i =get myself & call !e fri5d :o art my "l40 ,! foll[+ day1 aft] lun*1 ,i bade ! poet a reluctant f>ewell4 ,i rejoice t 8 little s*ool has n[ gr[n to an int]national univ]sity1 8,viswa-,bh>ati10 :]e s*ol>s ( all l&s h f\nd an ideal sett+4 8,:]e ! m9d is )\t fe> & ! head is held high2 ,:]e k is free2 ,:]e ! _w has n be5 brok5 up into fragm5ts by n>r[ dome/ic walls2 ,:]e words come out f ! dep? ( tru?2 ,:]e tireless /riv+ /ret*es its arms t[>d p]fection2 ,:]e ! cle> /ream ( reason has n lo/ its way into ! dre>y des]t s& ( dead habit2 ,:]e ! m9d is l$ =w>d by ,!e into ev]-wid5+ ?\ght & action2 ,into t heav5 ( fre$om1 my ,fa!r1 let my c\ntry awake60 ,,fn#bi-d ,,rab9drana? ,,tagore ,,fn#bi-a ,! ,engli% writ] & publici/1 close fri5d ( ,mahatma ,g&hi4 ,mr4 ,&rews is honor$ 9 ,india = 8 _m s]vices to 8 adopt$ l&4 ,,fn#bi-b 8,! s\l hav+ be5 (t5 born1 or1 z ! ,h9dus say1 #8travel+ ! pa? ( exi/5ce ?r\gh ?\s&s ( bir?s' 4 4 4 !re is no?+ ( :i* %e has n ga9$ ! k2 no wond] t %e is able to recollect 4 4 4 :at =m]ly %e knew4 4 4 4 ,= inquiry & le>n+ is rem9isc5ce all40-,,em]son4 ,,fn#bi-c ,rab9drana?1 too1 9 8 sixties1 engag$ 9 a s]i\s /udy ( pa9t+4 ,exhibitions ( 8 8futuri/ic0 "w 7 giv5 "s ye>s ago 9 ,european capitals & ,new ,york4 ,,fn#bi-d ,,gitanjali 7,new ,york3 ,macmillan ,co474 ,a ?\ghtful /udy ( ! poet w be f\nd 9 ,,! ,,philosophy ,,( ,,rab9drana? ,,tagore1 by ! celebrat$ s*ol>1 ,sir ,s4 ,radhakri%nan 7,macmillan1 #aiah74 ,ano!r expository volume is ,b4 ,k4 ,roy's ,,rab9drana? ,,tagore3 ,,! ,,man ,,& ,,8 ,,poetry 7,new ,york3 ,dodd1 ,mead1 #aiae74 ,,buddha ,,& ,,! ,,gospel ,,( ,,buddhism 7,new ,york3 ,putnam's1 #aiaf71 by ! em95t ,ori5tal art au?ority1 ,an&a ,k4 ,coom>aswamy1 conta9s a numb] ( illu/rations 9 color by ! poet's bro!r1 ,aban9dra ,na? ,tagore4 ,,*apt]3 #cj ,,! ,,law ,,( ,,miracles ,! great noveli/ ,leo ,tol/oy wrote a delightful /ory1 ,,! ,,?ree ,,h]mits4 ,8 fri5d ,ni*olas ,ro]i* ,,fn#cj-a has summ>iz$ ! tale1 z foll[s3 8,on an isl& !re liv$ ?ree old h]mits4 ,!y 7 s simple t ! only pray] !y us$ 03 #8,we are ?ree2 ,?\ art ,?ree-h m]cy on u6' ,great miracles 7 manife/$ dur+ ?is naive pray]4 8,! local bi%op ,,fn#cj-b came to he> ab\t ! ?ree h]mits & _! inadmissible pray]1 & decid$ to visit !m 9 ord] to tea* !m ! canonical invocations4 ,he arriv$ on ! isl&1 told ! h]mits t _! heav5ly petition 0 undignifi$1 & taught !m _m ( ! cu/om>y pray]s4 ,! bi%op !n left on a boat4 ,he saw1 foll[+ ! %ip1 a radiant light4 ,z x approa*$1 he disc]n$ ! ?ree h]mits1 :o 7 hold+ h&s & runn+ ^u ! waves 9 an ef=t to ov]take ! vessel4 8#8,we h =gott5 ! pray]s y taught u1' !y cri$ z !y rea*$ ! bi%op1 #8& h ha/5$ to ask y to repeat !m4' ,! aw$ bi%op %ook 8 head4 8#8,de> ones1' he repli$ humbly1 #8cont9ue to live ) y\r old pray]6'0 ,h[ did ! ?ree sa9ts walk on ! wat]8 ,h[ did ,*ri/ resurrect 8 crucifi$ body8 ,h[ did ,lahiri ,mahasaya & ,sri ,yuktesw> p]=m _! miracles8 ,mod]n sci5ce has1 z yet1 no answ]2 ?\gh ) ! adv5t ( ! atomic bomb & ! wond]s ( rad>1 ! scope ( ! _w-m9d has be5 abruptly enl>g$4 ,! ^w 8impossible0 is becom+ less prom95t 9 ! sci5tific vocabul>y4 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,,guru ,,& ,,disciple1 ,=e/ h]mitages 7 ! anci5t seats ( le>n+1 secul> & div9e1 = ! y\? ( ,india4 ,"h a v5]able guru1 lean+ on a wood5 m$itation elb[-prop1 is initiat+ 8 disciple into ! augu/ my/]ies ( ,_s4--see guru4jpg ,! anci5t ,v$ic scriptures decl>e t ! physical _w op]ates "u "o fundam5tal law ( ,,maya1 ! pr9ciple ( relativity & duality4 ,god1 ! ,sole ,life1 is an ,absolute ,unity2 ,he _c appe> z ! sep>ate & div]se manife/ations ( a creation except "u a false or unreal veil4 ,t cosmic illusion is ,,maya4 ,e great sci5tific discov]y ( mod]n times has s]v$ z a confirmation ( ?is simple pron\ncem5t ( ! ri%is4 ,newton's ,law ( ,motion is a law ( ,,maya3 8,to e action !re is always an equal & contr>y reaction2 ! mutual actions ( any two bodies are always equal & oppositely direct$40 ,action & reaction are ?us exactly equal4 8,to h a s+le =ce is impossible4 ,!re mu/ be1 & always is1 a pair ( =ces equal & opposite40 ,fundam5tal natural activities all betray _! mayic orig94 ,electricity1 = example1 is a ph5om5on ( repulsion & attraction2 its electrons & protons are electrical opposites4 ,ano!r example3 ! atom or f9al p>ticle ( matt] is1 l ! e>? itself1 a magnet ) positive & negative poles4 ,! entire ph5om5al _w is "u ! inexorable sway ( pol>ity2 no law ( physics1 *emi/ry1 or any o!r sci5ce is ev] f\nd free f inh]5t opposite or contra/$ pr9ciples4 ,physical sci5ce1 !n1 _c =mulate laws outside ( ,,maya1 ! v texture & /ructure ( creation4 ,nature h]self is ,,maya2 natural sci5ce mu/ p]=ce deal ) h] ineluctable quiddity4 ,9 h] own doma91 %e is et]nal & inexhau/ible2 future sci5ti/s c d no m ?an probe "o aspect aft] ano!r ( h] v>i$ inf9itude4 ,sci5ce ?us rema9s 9 a p]petual flux1 unable to rea* f9ality2 fit inde$ to =mulate ! laws ( an already exi/+ & function+ cosmos1 b p[]less to detect ! ,law ,fram] & ,sole ,op]ator4 ,! maje/ic manife/ations ( gravitation & electricity h become kn[n1 b :at gravitation & electricity are1 no mortal kn[e?4 ,,fn#cj-c ,to surm\nt ,,maya 0 ! task assign$ to ! human race by ! mill5nial prophets4 ,to rise above ! duality ( creation & p]ceive ! unity ( ! ,creator 0 conceiv$ ( z man's highe/ goal4 ,^? :o cl+ to ! cosmic illusion mu/ accept its ess5tial law ( pol>ity3 fl[ & ebb1 rise & fall1 day & night1 pleasure & pa91 good & evil1 bir? & dea?4 ,?is cyclic patt]n assumes a c]ta9 angui%+ monotony1 aft] man has gone ?r\gh a few ?\s& human bir?s2 he beg9s to ca/ a hopeful eye beyond ! compulsions ( ,,maya4 ,to te> ! veil ( ,,maya is to pi]ce ! secret ( creation4 ,! yogi :o ?us d5udes ! univ]se is ! only true mono!i/4 ,all o!rs are wor%ip+ hea!n images4 ,s long z man rema9s subject to ! duali/ic delusions ( nature1 ! ,janus-fac$ ,,maya is 8 goddess2 he _c "k ! "o true ,god4 ,! _w illusion1 ,,maya1 is individually call$ ,,avidya1 lit]ally1 8n-k10 ignorance1 delusion4 ,,maya or ,,avidya c nev] be de/roy$ ?r\gh intellectual conviction or analysis1 b solely ?r\gh atta9+ ! int]ior /ate ( ,,nirbikalpa ,,samadhi4 ,! ,old ,te/am5t prophets1 & se]s ( all l&s & ages1 spoke f t /ate ( consci\sness4 ,ezekiel says 7#dc3a-b73 8,aft]w>ds he br\ght me to ! gate1 ev5 ! gate t looke? t[>d ! ea/3 &1 behold1 ! glory ( ! ,god ( ,israel came f ! way ( ! ea/3 & 8 voice 0 l a noise ( _m wat]s3 & ! e>? %9$ ) 8 glory40 ,?r\gh ! div9e eye 9 ! =ehead 7ea/71 ! yogi sails 8 consci\sness into omnipres5ce1 he>+ ! ,^w or ,aum1 div9e s\nd ( _m wat]s or vibrations :i* is ! sole reality ( creation4 ,among ! trillion my/]ies ( ! cosmos1 ! mo/ ph5om5al is light4 ,unlike s\nd-waves1 ^: transmission requires air or o!r mat]ial m$ia1 light-waves pass freely ?r\gh ! vacuum ( int]/ell> space4 ,ev5 ! hypo!tical e!r1 held z ! int]planet>y m$ium ( light 9 ! undulatory !ory1 c be disc>d$ on ! ,e9/e9ian gr\nds t ! geometrical prop]ties ( space r5d] ! !ory ( e!r unnecess>y4 ,"u ei!r hypo!sis1 light rema9s ! mo/ subtle1 ! free/ f mat]ial dep5d5ce1 ( any natural manife/ation4 ,9 ! gigantic conceptions ( ,e9/e91 ! velocity ( light-#ahf1jjj miles p] second-dom9ates ! :ole ,!ory ( ,relativity4 ,he proves ma!matically t ! velocity ( light is1 s f> z man's f9ite m9d is conc]n$1 ! only ,,con/ant 9 a univ]se ( un/ayable flux4 ,on ! sole absolute ( light-velocity dep5d all human /&>ds ( "t & space4 ,n ab/ractly et]nal z hi!rto consid]$1 "t & space are relative & f9ite factors1 d]iv+ _! measurem5t validity only 9 ref]5ce to ! y>d/ick ( light-velocity4 ,9 jo9+ space z a dim5sional relativity1 "t has surr5d]$ age-old claims to a *angeless value4 ,"t is n[ /ripp$ to its rightful nature-a simple ess5ce ( ambiguity6 ,) a few equational /rokes ( 8 p51 ,e9/e9 has bani%$ f ! cosmos e fix$ reality except t ( light4 ,9 a lat] developm5t1 8 ,unifi$ ,field ,!ory1 ! great physici/ embodies 9 "o ma!matical =mula ! laws ( gravitation & ( electromagnetism4 ,r$uc+ ! cosmical /ructure to v>iations on a s+le law1 ,e9/e9 ,,fn#cj-d rea*es across ! ages to ! ri%is :o proclaim$ a sole texture ( creation-t ( a protean ,,maya4 ,on ! epo*al ,!ory ( ,relativity h aris5 ! ma!matical possibilities ( explor+ ! ultimate atom4 ,great sci5ti/s are n[ boldly ass]t+ n only t ! atom is en]gy r ?an matt]1 b t atomic en]gy is ess5tially m9d-/uff4 8,! frank realization t physical sci5ce is conc]n$ ) a _w ( %ad[s is "o ( ! mo/ significant advances10 ,sir ,ar?ur ,/anley ,edd+ton writes 9 ,,! ,,nature ,,( ,,! ,,physical ,,_w4 8,9 ! _w ( physics we wat* a %ad[graph p]=mance ( ! drama ( famili> life4 ,! %ad[ ( my elb[ re/s on ! %ad[ table z ! %ad[ ink fl[s ov] ! %ad[ pap]4 ,x is all symbolic1 & z a symbol ! physici/ leaves x4 ,!n comes ! al*emi/ ,m9d :o transmutes ! symbols4 4 4 4 ,to put ! conclusion crudely1 ! /uff ( ! _w is m9d-/uff4 4 4 4 ,! reali/ic matt] & fields ( =ce ( =m] physical !ory are altoge!r irrelevant except 9 s f> z ! m9d-/uff has itself spun ^! imag9+s4 4 4 4 ,! ext]nal _w has ?us become a _w ( %ad[s4 ,9 remov+ our illusions we h remov$ ! sub/ance1 = inde$ we h se5 t sub/ance is "o ( ! greate/ ( our illusions40 ,) ! rec5t discov]y ( ! electron microscope came def9ite pro( ( ! light-ess5ce ( atoms & ( ! inescapable duality ( nature4 ,,! ,,new ,,york ,,times gave ! foll[+ report ( a #aicg demon/ration ( ! electron microscope be=e a meet+ ( ! ,am]ican ,association = ! ,advancem5t ( ,sci5ce3 8,! cry/all9e /ructure ( tung/51 hi!rto kn[n only indirectly by means ( ,x-rays1 /ood outl9$ boldly on a fluoresc5t scre51 %[+ n9e atoms 9 _! correct positions 9 ! space lattice1 a cube1 ) "o atom 9 ea* corn] & "o 9 ! c5t]4 ,! atoms 9 ! cry/al lattice ( ! tung/5 appe>$ on ! fluoresc5t scre5 z po9ts ( light1 arrang$ 9 geometric patt]n4 ,aga9/ ?is cry/al cube ( light ! bomb>d+ molecules ( air c\ld be obs]v$ z danc+ po9ts ( light1 simil> to po9ts ( sunlight %imm]+ on mov+ wat]s4 4 4 4 8,! pr9ciple ( ! electron microscope 0 fir/ discov]$ 9 #aibg by ,drs4 ,cl9ton ,j4 ,davisson & ,le/] ,h4 ,g]m] ( ! ,bell ,telephone ,laboratories1 ,new ,york ,city1 :o f\nd t ! electron _h a dual p]sonality p>tak+ ( ! *>act]i/ic ( bo? a p>ticle & a wave4 ,! wave quality gave ! electron ! *>act]i/ic ( light1 & a se>* 0 begun to devise means = #8focus+' electrons 9 a mann] simil> to ! focus+ ( light by means ( a l5s4 8,= 8 discov]y ( ! ,jekyll-,hyde quality ( ! electron1 :i* corroborat$ ! pr$iction made 9 #aibd by ,de ,broglie1 ,fr5* ,nobel ,prize w9n+ physici/1 & %[$ t ! entire realm ( physical nature _h a dual p]sonality1 ,dr4 ,davisson also receiv$ ! ,nobel ,prize 9 physics40 8,! /ream ( k10 ,sir ,james ,jeans writes 9 ,,! ,,my/]i\s ,,univ]se1 8is head+ t[>ds a non-me*anical reality2 ! univ]se beg9s to look m l a great ?\ght ?an l a great ma*9e40 ,tw5tie?-c5tury sci5ce is ?us s\nd+ l a page f ! ho>y ,,v$as4 ,f sci5ce1 !n1 if x mu/ be s1 let man le>n ! philosophic tru? t !re is no mat]ial univ]se2 its w>p & wo( is ,,maya1 illusion4 ,its mirages ( reality all break d[n "u analysis4 ,z "o by "o ! reassur+ props ( a physical cosmos cra% b5ea? him1 man dimly p]ceives 8 idolatr\s reliance1 8 pa/ transgression ( ! div9e comm&3 8,?\ %alt h no o!r gods be=e ,me40 ,9 8 fam\s equation outl9+ ! equival5ce ( mass & en]gy1 ,e9/e9 prov$ t ! en]gy 9 any p>ticle ( matt] is equal to its mass or weight multipli$ by ! squ>e ( ! velocity ( light4 ,! release ( ! atomic en]gies is br\ght ab\t ?r\gh ! annihilation ( ! mat]ial p>ticles4 ,! 8dea?0 ( matt] has be5 ! 8bir?0 ( an ,atomic ,age4 ,light-velocity is a ma!matical /&>d or con/ant n because !re is an absolute value 9 #ahf1jjj miles a second1 b because no mat]ial body1 ^: mass increases ) its velocity1 c ev] atta9 ! velocity ( light4 ,/at$ ano!r way3 only a mat]ial body ^: mass is inf9ite c\ld equal ! velocity ( light4 ,,?is ,,conception ,,br+s ,,u ,,to ,,! ,,law ,,( ,,miracles4 ,! ma/]s :o are able to mat]ialize & demat]ialize _! bodies or any o!r object1 & to move ) ! velocity ( light1 & to utilize ! creative light-rays 9 br++ into in/ant visibility any physical manife/ation1 h fulfill$ ! necess>y ,e9/e9ian condition3 _! mass is inf9ite4 ,! consci\sness ( a p]fect$ yogi is ef=tlessly id5tifi$1 n ) a n>r[ body1 b ) ! univ]sal /ructure4 ,gravitation1 :e!r ! 8=ce0 ( ,newton or ! ,e9/e9ian 8manife/ation ( in]tia10 is p[]less to ,,compel a ma/] to exhibit ! prop]ty ( 8weight0 :i* is ! di/+ui%+ gravitational condition ( all mat]ial objects4 ,he :o kn[s himself z ! omnipres5t ,_s is subject no long] to ! rigidities ( a body 9 "t & space4 ,_! imprison+ 8r+s-pass-n0 h yield$ to ! solv5t3 8,i am ,he40 8,fiat lux6 ,& !re 0 light40 ,god's fir/ comm& to ,8 ord]$ creation 7,,g5esis #a3c7 br\ght into be+ ! only atomic reality3 light4 ,on ! beams ( ?is immat]ial m$ium occur all div9e manife/ations4 ,devotees ( e age te/ify to ! appe>ance ( ,god z flame & light4 8,! ,k+ ( k+s1 & ,"l ( lords2 :o only ha? immortality1 dwell+ 9 ! light :i* no man c approa* unto40 ,,fn#cj-e ,a yogi :o ?r\gh p]fect m$itation has m]g$ 8 consci\sness ) ! ,creator p]ceives ! cosmical ess5ce z light2 to him !re is no diff]5ce betwe5 ! light rays compos+ wat] & ! light rays compos+ l&4 ,free f matt]-consci\sness1 free f ! ?ree dim5sions ( space & ! f\r? dim5sion ( "t1 a ma/] transf]s 8 body ( light ) equal ease ov] ! light rays ( e>?1 wat]1 fire1 or air4 ,long conc5tration on ! lib]at+ spiritual eye has enabl$ ! yogi to de/roy all delusions conc]n+ matt] & its gravitational weight2 !nce=? he sees ! univ]se z an ess5tially undiff]5tiat$ mass ( light4 8,optical images10 ,dr4 ,l4 ,t4 ,trol& ( ,h>v>d tells u1 8are built up on ! same pr9ciple z ! ord9>y #8half-tone' engrav+s2 t is1 !y are made up ( m9ute dott+s or /rippl+s f> too small to be detect$ by ! eye4 4 4 4 ,! s5sitiv5ess ( ! ret9a is s great t a visual s5sation c be produc$ by relatively few ,quanta ( ! "r k9d ( light40 ,?r\gh a ma/]'s div9e k ( light ph5om5a1 he c in/antly project into p]ceptible manife/ation ! ubiquit\s light atoms4 ,! actual =m ( ! projection-:e!r x be a tree1 a m$ic9e1 a human body-is 9 con=mance ) a yogi's p[]s ( w & ( visualization4 ,9 man's dream-consci\sness1 :]e he has loos5$ 9 sleep 8 clut* on ! egoi/ic limitations t daily hem him r\nd1 ! omnipot5ce ( 8 m9d has a nightly demon/ration4 ,lo6 !re 9 ! dream /& ! long-dead fri5ds1 ! remote/ cont95ts1 ! resurrect$ sc5es ( 8 *ildhood4 ,) t free & uncondition$ consci\sness1 kn[n to all m5 9 ! ph5om5a ( dreams1 ! ,god-tun$ ma/] has =g$ a nev]-sev]$ l9k4 ,innoc5t ( all p]sonal motives1 & employ+ ! creative w be/[$ on him by ! ,creator1 a yogi re>ranges ! light atoms ( ! univ]se to satisfy any s9c]e pray] ( a devotee4 ,= ?is purpose 7 man & creation made3 t he %\ld rise up z ma/] ( ,,maya1 kn[+ 8 dom9ion ov] ! cosmos4 8,& ,god said1 ,let u make man 9 our image1 aft] our lik5ess3 & let !m h dom9ion ov] ! fi% ( ! sea1 & ov] ! f[l ( ! air1 & ov] ! cattle1 & ov] all ! e>?1 & ov] e creep+ ?+ t creepe? ^u ! e>?40 ,,fn#cj-f ,9 #aiae1 %ortly aft] ,i _h ent]$ ! ,swami ,ord]1 ,i witness$ a vision ( viol5t contra/s4 ,9 x ! relativity ( human consci\sness 0 vividly e/abli%$2 ,i cle>ly p]ceiv$ ! unity ( ! ,et]nal ,light beh9d ! pa9ful dualities ( ,,maya4 ,! vision desc5d$ on me z ,i sat "o morn+ 9 my little attic room 9 ,fa!r's ,gurp> ,road home4 ,= mon?s ,_w ,w> ,i _h be5 rag+ 9 ,europe2 ,i reflect$ sadly on ! va/ toll ( dea?4 ,z ,i clos$ my eyes 9 m$itation1 my consci\sness 0 sudd5ly transf]r$ to ! body ( a capta9 9 comm& ( a battle%ip4 ,! ?und] ( guns split ! air z %ots 7 ex*ang$ betwe5 %ore batt]ies & ! %ip's cannons4 ,a huge %ell hit ! p[d] magaz9e & tore my %ip asund]4 ,i jump$ into ! wat]1 toge!r ) ! few sailors :o _h surviv$ ! explosion4 ,he>t p\nd+1 ,i rea*$ ! %ore safely4 ,b alas6 a /ray bullet end$ its furi\s flight 9 my *e/4 ,i fell groan+ to ! gr\nd4 ,my :ole body 0 p>alyz$1 yet ,i 0 aw>e ( possess+ x z "o is consci\s ( a leg gone to sleep4 8,at la/ ! my/]i\s foot/ep ( ,dea? has caught up ) me10 ,i ?\ght4 ,) a f9al sigh1 ,i 0 ab\t to s9k into unconsci\sness :5 lo6 ,i f\nd myself seat$ 9 ! lotus po/ure 9 my ,gurp> ,road room4 ,hy/]ical te>s p\r$ =? z ,i joyfully /rok$ & p9*$ my rega9$ possession-a body free f any bullet hole 9 ! brea/4 ,i rock$ to & fro1 inhal+ & exhal+ to assure myself t ,i 0 alive4 ,amid/ ^! self-congratulations1 aga9 ,i f\nd my consci\sness transf]r$ to ! capta9's dead body by ! gory %ore4 ,utt] confusion ( m9d came ^u me4 8,"l10 ,i pray$1 8am ,i dead or alive80 ,a dazzl+ play ( light fill$ ! :ole horizon4 ,a s(t rumbl+ vibration =m$ itself into words3 8,:at has life or dea? to d ) ,light8 ,9 ! image ( ,my ,light ,i h made y4 ,! relativities ( life & dea? belong to ! cosmic dream4 ,behold y\r dreamless be+6 ,awake1 my *ild1 awake60 ,z /eps 9 man's awak5+1 ! ,"l inspires sci5ti/s to discov]1 at ! "r "t & place1 ! secrets ( ,8 creation4 ,_m mod]n discov]ies help m5 to appreh5d ! cosmos z a v>i$ expression ( "o p[]-light1 guid$ by div9e intellig5ce4 ,! wond]s ( ! motion picture1 ( radio1 ( television1 ( rad>1 ( ! photo-electric cell-! all-see+ 8electric eye10 ( atomic en]gies1 are all bas$ on ! electromagnetic ph5om5on ( light4 ,! motion picture art c portray any miracle4 ,f ! impressive visual /&po9t1 no m>vel is b>r$ to trick photography4 ,a man's transp>5t a/ral body c be se5 ris+ f 8 gross physical =m1 he c walk on ! wat]1 resurrect ! dead1 rev]se ! natural sequ5ce ( developm5ts1 & play havoc ) "t & space4 ,assembl+ ! light images z he pleases1 ! photograph] a*ieves optical wond]s :i* a true ma/] produces ) actual light rays4 ,! lifelike images ( ! motion picture illu/rate _m tru?s conc]n+ creation4 ,! ,cosmic ,director has writt5 ,8 own plays1 & assembl$ ! trem5d\s ca/s = ! pageant ( ! c5turies4 ,f ! d>k boo? ( et]nity1 ,he p\rs ,8 creative beam ?r\gh ! films ( successive ages1 & ! pictures are ?r[n on ! scre5 ( space4 ,j z ! motion-picture images appe> to be real1 b are only comb9ations ( light & %ade1 s is ! univ]sal v>iety a delusive seem+4 ,! planet>y sph]es1 ) _! c\ntless =ms ( life1 are naught b figures 9 a cosmic motion picture1 tempor>ily true to five s5se p]ceptions z ! sc5es are ca/ on ! scre5 ( man's consci\sness by ! inf9ite creative beam4 ,a c9ema audi5ce c look up & see t all scre5 images are appe>+ ?r\gh ! in/rum5tality ( "o imageless beam ( light4 ,! colorful univ]sal drama is simil>ly issu+ f ! s+le :ite light ( a ,cosmic ,s\rce4 ,) inconceivable +5uity ,god is /ag+ an ent]ta9m5t = ,8 human *ildr51 mak+ !m actors z well z audi5ce 9 ,8 planet>y !at]4 ,"o day ,i ent]$ a motion picture h\se to view a newsreel ( ! ,european battlefields4 ,_w ,w> ,i 0 /ill be+ wag$ 9 ! ,we/2 ! newsreel record$ ! c>nage ) su* realism t ,i left ! !at] ) a tr\bl$ he>t4 8,"l10 ,i pray$1 8:y do/ ,?\ p]mit su* suff]+80 ,to my int5se surprise1 an in/ant answ] came 9 ! =m ( a vision ( ! actual ,european battlefields4 ,! horror ( ! /ruggle1 fill$ ) ! dead & dy+1 f> surpass$ 9 f]ocity any repres5tation ( ! newsreel4 8,look int5tly60 ,a g5tle voice spoke to my inn] consci\sness4 8,y w see t ^! sc5es n[ be+ enact$ 9 ,france are no?+ b a play ( *i>oscuro4 ,!y are ! cosmic motion picture1 z real & z unreal z ! !at] newsreel y h j se5-a play )9 a play40 ,my he>t 0 /ill n com=t$4 ,! div9e voice w5t on3 8,creation is light & %ad[ bo?1 else no picture is possible4 ,! good & evil ( ,,maya mu/ ev] alt]nate 9 supremacy4 ,if joy 7 ceaseless "h 9 ?is _w1 w\ld man ev] seek ano!r8 ,)\t suff]+ he sc>cely c>es to recall t he has =sak5 8 et]nal home4 ,pa9 is a prod to remembrance4 ,! way ( escape is ?r\gh wisdom6 ,! trag$y ( dea? is unreal2 ^? :o %udd] at x are l an ignorant actor :o dies ( fright on ! /age :5 no?+ m is fir$ at him ?an a blank c>tridge4 ,my sons are ! *ildr5 ( light2 !y w n sleep =ev] 9 delusion40 ,al?\gh ,i _h read scriptural acc\nts ( ,,maya1 !y _h n giv5 me ! deep insight t came ) ! p]sonal visions & _! accompany+ words ( consolation4 ,"o's values are pr(\ndly *ang$ :5 he is f9ally conv9c$ t creation is only a va/ motion picture1 & t n 9 x1 b beyond x1 lies 8 own reality4 ,z ,i f9i%$ writ+ ?is *apt]1 ,i sat on my b$ 9 ! lotus po/ure4 ,my room 0 dimly lit by two %ad$ lamps4 ,lift+ my gaze1 ,i notic$ t ! ceil+ 0 dott$ ) small mu/>d-color$ lights1 sc9tillat+ & quiv]+ ) a radiumlike lu/]4 ,myriads ( p5cill$ rays1 l %eets ( ra91 ga!r$ into a transp>5t %aft & p\r$ sil5tly ^u me4 ,at once my physical body lo/ its grossness & became metamorphos$ into a/ral texture4 ,i felt a float+ s5sation z1 b>ely t\*+ ! b$1 ! weightless body %ift$ slightly & alt]nately to left & "r4 ,i look$ ar\nd ! room2 ! furniture & walls 7 z usual1 b ! little mass ( light _h s multipli$ t ! ceil+ 0 invisible4 ,i 0 wond]-/ruck4 8,?is is ! cosmic motion picture me*anism40 ,a voice spoke z ?\gh f )9 ! light4 8,%$d+ its beam on ! :ite scre5 ( y\r b$ %eets1 x is produc+ ! picture ( y\r body4 ,behold1 y\r =m is no?+ b light60 ,i gaz$ at my arms & mov$ !m back & =?1 yet c\ld n feel _! weight4 ,an ec/atic joy ov]:elm$ me4 ,?is cosmic /em ( light1 blossom+ z my body1 seem$ a div9e replica ( ! light beams /ream+ out ( ! projection boo? 9 a c9ema h\se & manife/+ z pictures on ! scre54 ,= a long "t ,i exp]i5c$ ?is motion picture ( my body 9 ! dimly light$ !at] ( my own b$room4 ,despite ! _m visions ,i h _h1 none 0 ev] m s+ul>4 ,z my illusion ( a solid body 0 completely dissipat$1 & my realization deep5$ t ! ess5ce ( all objects is light1 ,i look$ up to ! ?robb+ /ream ( lifetrons & spoke entreat+ly4 8,div9e ,light1 please )draw ?is1 my humble bodily picture1 into ,?yself1 ev5 z ,elijah 0 drawn up to heav5 by a flame40 ,?is pray] 0 evid5tly />tl+2 ! beam disappe>$4 ,my body resum$ its normal weight & sank on ! b$2 ! sw>m ( dazzl+ ceil+ lights flick]$ & vani%$4 ,my "t to leave ?is e>? _h app>5tly n arriv$4 8,besides10 ,i ?\ght philosophically1 8! prophet ,elijah might well be displeas$ at my presumption60 ,,fn#cj-a ,?is fam\s ,russian arti/ & philosoph] has be5 liv+ = _m ye>s 9 ,india ne> ! ,himalayas4 8,f ! peaks comes revelation10 he has writt54 8,9 caves & ^u ! summits liv$ ! ri%is4 ,ov] ! sn[y peaks ( ! ,himalayas burns a bright gl[1 bright] ?an />s & ! fanta/ic fla%es ( lightn+40 ,,fn#cj-b ,! /ory may h a hi/orical basis2 an editorial note in=ms u t ! bi%op met ! ?ree monks :ile he 0 sail+ f ,ar*angel to ! ,slovetsky ,mona/]y1 at ! m\? ( ! ,dv9a ,riv]4 ,,fn#cj-c ,m>coni1 ! great inv5tor1 made ! foll[+ admission ( sci5tific inadequacy be=e ! f9alities3 8,! inability ( sci5ce to solve life is absolute4 ,?is fact w\ld be truly fright5+ 7 x n = fai?4 ,! my/]y ( life is c]ta9ly ! mo/ p]si/5t problem ev] plac$ be=e ! ?\ght ( man40 ,,fn#cj-d ,a clue to ! direction tak5 by ,e9/e9's g5ius is giv5 by ! fact t he is a lifelong disciple ( ! great philosoph] ,sp9oza1 ^: be/-kn[n "w is ,,e?ics ,,demon/rat$ ,,9 ,,geometrical ,,ord]4 ,,fn#cj-e ,i ,,timo?y #f3ae-af4 ,,fn#cj-f ,,g5esis #a3bf4 ,,*apt]3 #ca ,,an ,,int]view ,,) ,,! ,,sacr$ ,,"m 8,rev]5d ,"m1 ,i 0 baptiz$ 9 infancy by y\r prophet-husb&4 ,he 0 ! guru ( my p>5ts & ( my own guru ,sri ,yuktesw>ji4 ,w y !re=e give me ! privilege ( he>+ a few incid5ts 9 y\r sacr$ life80 ,i 0 address+ ,srimati ,ka%i ,moni1 ! life-companion ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,f9d+ myself 9 ,b5>es = a %ort p]iod1 ,i 0 fulfill+ a long-felt desire to visit ! v5]able lady4 ,%e receiv$ me graci\sly at ! old ,lahiri home/ead 9 ! ,g>udesw> ,mohulla section ( ,b5>es4 ,al?\gh ag$1 %e 0 bloom+ l a lotus1 sil5tly emanat+ a spiritual fragrance4 ,%e 0 ( m$ium build1 ) a sl5d] neck & fair sk94 ,l>ge1 lu/r\s eyes s(t5$ h] mo!rly face4 8,son1 y are welcome "h4 ,come up/airs40 ,ka%i ,moni l$ ! way to a v small room :]e1 = a "t1 %e _h liv$ ) h] husb&4 ,i felt honor$ to witness ! %r9e 9 :i* ! pe]less ma/] _h condesc5d$ to play ! human drama ( matrimony4 ,! g5tle lady motion$ me to a pill[ seat by h] side4 8,x 0 ye>s be=e ,i came to realize ! div9e /ature ( my husb&10 %e began4 8,"o night1 9 ?is v room1 ,i _h a vivid dream4 ,glori\s angels float$ 9 unimag9able grace above me4 ,s reali/ic 0 ! sight t ,i awoke at once2 ! room 0 /rangely envelop$ 9 dazzl+ light4 8,my husb&1 9 lotus po/ure1 0 levitat$ 9 ! c5t] ( ! room1 surr\nd$ by angels :o 7 wor%ip+ him ) ! supplicat+ dignity ( palm-fold$ h&s4 ,a/oni%$ beyond measure1 ,i 0 conv9c$ t ,i 0 /ill dream+4 8#8,woman1' ,lahiri ,mahasaya said1 #8y are n dream+4 ,=sake y\r sleep =ev] & =ev]4' ,z he sl[ly desc5d$ to ! floor1 ,i pro/rat$ myself at 8 feet4 8#8,ma/]1' ,i cri$1 #8aga9 & aga9 ,i b[ be=e y6 ,w y p>don me = hav+ consid]$ y z my husb&8 ,i die ) %ame to realize t ,i h rema9$ asleep 9 ignorance by ! side ( "o :o is div9ely awak5$4 ,f ?is night1 y are no long] my husb&1 b my guru4 ,w y accept my insignificant self z y\r disciple8' ,,fn#ca-a 8,! ma/] t\*$ me g5tly4 #8,sacr$ s\l1 arise4 ,y are accept$4' ,he motion$ t[>d ! angels4 #8,please b[ 9 turn to ea* ( ^! holy sa9ts4' 8,:5 ,i _h f9i%$ my humble g5uflections1 ! angelic voices s\nd$ toge!r1 l a *orus f an anci5t scripture4 8#8,consort ( ! ,div9e ,"o1 ?\ art bless$4 ,we salute !e4' ,!y b[$ at my feet & lo6 _! refulg5t =ms vani%$4 ,! room d>k5$4 8,my guru ask$ me to receive initiation into ,,kriya ,,yoga4 8#8,( c\rse1' ,i respond$4 #8,i am sorry n to h _h its bless+ e>li] 9 my life4' 8#8,! "t 0 n ripe4' ,lahiri ,mahasaya smil$ consol+ly4 #8,mu* ( y\r k>ma ,i h sil5tly help$ y to "w out4 ,n[ y are will+ & ready4' 8,he t\*$ my =ehead4 ,masses ( :irl+ light appe>$2 ! radiance gradually =m$ itself into ! opal-blue spiritual eye1 r+$ 9 gold & c5t]$ ) a :ite p5tagonal />4 8#8,p5etrate y\r consci\sness ?r\gh ! /> into ! k+dom ( ! ,inf9ite4' ,my guru's voice _h a new note1 s(t l di/ant music4 8,vision aft] vision broke z oceanic surf on ! %ores ( my s\l4 ,! panoramic sph]es f9ally melt$ 9 a sea ( bliss4 ,i lo/ myself 9 ev]-surg+ bless$ness4 ,:5 ,i return$ h\rs lat] to aw>5ess ( ?is _w1 ! ma/] gave me ! te*nique ( ,,kriya ,,yoga4 8,f t night on1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya nev] slept 9 my room aga94 ,nor1 !reaft]1 did he ev] sleep4 ,he rema9$ 9 ! front room d[n/airs1 9 ! company ( 8 disciples bo? by day & by night40 ,! illu/ri\s lady fell into sil5ce4 ,realiz+ ! uniqu5ess ( h] relation%ip ) ! sublime yogi1 ,i f9ally v5tur$ to ask = fur!r rem9isc5ces4 8,son1 y are gre$y4 ,nev]!less y %all h "o m /ory40 ,%e smil$ %yly4 8,i w confess a s9 :i* ,i committ$ aga9/ my guru-husb&4 ,"s mon?s aft] my initiation1 ,i began to feel =lorn & neglect$4 ,"o morn+ ,lahiri ,mahasaya ent]$ ?is little room to fet* an article2 ,i quickly foll[$ him4 ,ov]come by viol5t delusion1 ,i address$ him sca?+ly4 8#8,y sp5d all y\r "t ) ! disciples4 ,:at ab\t y\r responsibilities = y\r wife & *ildr58 ,i regret t y d n int]e/ y\rself 9 provid+ m money = ! family4' 8,! ma/] glanc$ at me = a mom5t1 !n lo6 he 0 gone4 ,aw$ & fright5$1 ,i he>d a voice res\nd+ f e "p ( ! room3 8#8,x is all no?+1 don't y see8 ,h[ c\ld a no?+ l me produce ri*es = y8' 8#8,guruji1' ,i cri$1 #8,i implore p>don a million times6 ,my s9ful eyes c see y no m2 please appe> 9 y\r sacr$ =m4' 8#8,i am "h4' ,?is reply came f above me4 ,i look$ up & saw ! ma/] mat]ialize 9 ! air1 8 head t\*+ ! ceil+4 ,8 eyes 7 l bl9d+ flames4 ,beside myself ) fe>1 ,i lay sobb+ at 8 feet aft] he _h quietly desc5d$ to ! floor4 8#8,woman1' he said1 #8seek div9e weal?1 n ! paltry t9sel ( e>?4 ,aft] acquir+ inw>d treasure1 y w f9d t outw>d supply is always =?com+4' ,he add$1 #8,"o ( my spiritual sons w make provision = y4' 8,my guru's words naturally came true2 a disciple did leave a consid]able sum = our family40 ,i ?ank$ ,ka%i ,moni = %>+ ) me h] wondr\s exp]i5ces4 ,,fn#ca-b ,on ! foll[+ day ,i return$ to h] home & enjoy$ sev]al h\rs ( philosophical discussion ) ,t9c\ri & ,duc\ri ,lahiri4 ,^! two sa9tly sons ( ,india's great yogi foll[$ closely 9 8 ideal foot/eps4 ,bo? m5 7 fair1 tall1 /alw>t1 & heavily be>d$1 ) s(t voices & an old-fa%ion$ *>m ( mann]4 ,8 wife 0 n ! only woman disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya2 !re 7 hundr$s ( o!rs1 includ+ my "m4 ,a woman *ela once ask$ ! guru = 8 photograph4 ,he h&$ h] a pr9t1 rem>k+1 8,if y deem x a protection1 !n x is s2 o!rwise x is only a picture40 ,a few days lat] ?is woman & ,lahiri ,mahasaya's daught]-9-law happ5$ to be /udy+ ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita at a table beh9d :i* hung ! guru's photograph4 ,an electrical /orm broke out ) great fury4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya1 protect u60 ,! wom5 b[$ be=e ! picture4 ,lightn+ /ruck ! book :i* !y _h be5 read+1 b ! two devotees 7 unhurt4 8,i felt z ?\gh a %eet ( ice _h be5 plac$ ar\nd me to w>d (f ! scor*+ heat10 ! *ela expla9$4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya p]=m$ two miracles 9 connection ) a woman disciple1 ,abhoya4 ,%e & h] husb&1 a ,calcutta lawy]1 />t$ "o day = ,b5>es to visit ! guru4 ,_! c>riage 0 delay$ by heavy traffic2 !y rea*$ ! ,h[rah ma9 /ation only to he> ! ,b5>es tra9 :i/l+ = dep>ture4 ,abhoya1 ne> ! ticket (fice1 /ood quietly4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya1 ,i besee* !e to /op ! tra960 %e sil5tly pray$4 8,i _c suff] ! pangs ( delay 9 wait+ ano!r day to see !e40 ,! :eels ( ! snort+ tra9 cont9u$ to move r\nd & r\nd1 b !re 0 no onw>d progress4 ,! eng9e] & pass5g]s desc5d$ to ! plat=m to view ! ph5om5on4 ,an ,engli% railroad gu>d approa*$ ,abhoya & h] husb&4 ,contr>y to all prec$5t1 he volunte]$ 8 s]vices4 8,babu10 he said1 8give me ! money4 ,i w buy y\r tickets :ile y get abo>d40 ,z soon z ! c\ple 0 seat$ & _h receiv$ ! tickets1 ! tra9 sl[ly mov$ =w>d4 ,9 panic1 ! eng9e] & pass5g]s clamb]$ aga9 to _! places1 kn[+ nei!r h[ ! tra9 />t$1 nor :y x _h /opp$ 9 ! fir/ place4 ,arriv+ at ! home ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya 9 ,b5>es1 ,abhoya sil5tly pro/rat$ h]self be=e ! ma/]1 & tri$ to t\* 8 feet4 8,compose y\rself1 ,abhoya10 he rem>k$4 8,h[ y love to bo!r me6 ,z if y c\ld n h come "h by ! next tra960 ,abhoya visit$ ,lahiri ,mahasaya on ano!r memorable occasion4 ,?is "t %e want$ 8 int]cession1 n ) a tra91 b ) ! /ork4 8,i pray y to bless me t my n9? *ild may live10 %e said4 8,eight babies h be5 born to me2 all di$ soon aft] bir?40 ,! ma/] smil$ sympa!tically4 8,y\r com+ *ild w live4 ,please foll[ my in/ructions c>efully4 ,! baby1 a girl1 w be born at night4 ,see t ! oil lamp is kept burn+ until dawn4 ,d n fall asleep & ?us all[ ! light to become ext+ui%$40 ,abhoya's *ild 0 a daught]1 born at night1 exactly z =ese5 by ! omnisci5t guru4 ,! "m in/ruct$ h] nurse to keep ! lamp fill$ ) oil4 ,bo? wom5 kept ! urg5t vigil f> into ! e>ly morn+ h\rs1 b f9ally fell asleep4 ,! lamp oil 0 almo/ gone2 ! light flick]$ feebly4 ,! b$room door unlat*$ & flew op5 ) a viol5t s\nd4 ,! />tl$ wom5 awoke4 ,_! a/oni%$ eyes beheld ! =m ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 8,abhoya1 behold1 ! light is almo/ gone60 ,he po9t$ to ! lamp1 :i* ! nurse ha/5$ to refill4 ,z soon z x burn$ aga9 brightly1 ! ma/] vani%$4 ,! door clos$2 ! lat* 0 affix$ )\t visible ag5cy4 ,abhoya's n9? *ild surviv$2 9 #aice1 :5 ,i made inquiry1 %e 0 /ill liv+4 ,"o ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's disciples1 ! v5]able ,kali ,kum> ,roy1 relat$ to me _m fasc9at+ details ( 8 life ) ! ma/]4 8,i 0 (t5 a gue/ at 8 ,b5>es home = weeks at a "t10 ,roy told me4 8,i obs]v$ t _m sa9tly figures1 ,,d&a ,,fn#ca-c swamis1 arriv$ 9 ! quiet ( night to sit at ! guru's feet4 ,sometimes !y w\ld engage 9 discussion ( m$itational & philosophical po9ts4 ,at dawn ! exalt$ gue/s w\ld dep>t4 ,i f\nd dur+ my visits t ,lahiri ,mahasaya did n once lie d[n to sleep4 8,dur+ an e>ly p]iod ( my association ) ! ma/]1 ,i _h to cont5d ) ! opposition ( my employ]10 ,roy w5t on4 8,he 0 /eep$ 9 mat]ialism4 8#8,i don't want religi\s fanatics on my /aff1' he w\ld sne]4 #8,if ,i ev] meet y\r *>latan guru1 ,i %all give him "s words to rememb]4' 8,?is al>m+ ?reat fail$ to int]rupt my regul> program2 ,i sp5t ne>ly e ev5+ 9 my guru's pres5ce4 ,"o night my employ] foll[$ me & ru%$ rudely into ! p>lor4 ,he 0 d\btless fully b5t on utt]+ ! pulv]iz+ rem>ks he _h promis$4 ,no soon] _h ! man seat$ himself ?an ,lahiri ,mahasaya address$ ! little gr\p ( ab\t twelve disciples4 8#8,w\ld y all l to see a picture8' 8,:5 we nodd$1 he ask$ u to d>k5 ! room4 #8,sit beh9d "o ano!r 9 a circle1' he said1 #8& place y\r h&s ov] ! eyes ( ! man 9 front ( y4' 8,i 0 n surpris$ to see t my employ] also 0 foll[+1 albeit unwill+ly1 ! ma/]'s directions4 ,9 a few m9utes ,lahiri ,mahasaya ask$ u :at we 7 see+4 8#8,sir1' ,i repli$1 #8a beautiful woman appe>s4 ,%e we>s a r$-bord]$ ,,s>i1 & /&s ne> an elephant-e> plant4' ,all ! o!r disciples gave ! same description4 ,! ma/] turn$ to my employ]4 #8,d y recognize t woman8' 8#8,yes4' ,! man 0 evid5tly /ruggl+ ) emotions new to 8 nature4 #8,i h be5 fooli%ly sp5d+ my money on h]1 ?\gh ,i h a good wife4 ,i am a%am$ ( ! motives :i* br\ght me "h4 ,w y =give me1 & receive me z a disciple8' 8#8,if y lead a good moral life = six mon?s1 ,i %all accept y4' ,! ma/] enigmatically add$1 #8,o!rwise ,i won't h to initiate y4' 8,= ?ree mon?s my employ] refra9$ f temptation2 !n he resum$ 8 =m] relation%ip ) ! woman4 ,two mon?s lat] he di$4 ,?us ,i came to und]/& my guru's veil$ prophecy ab\t ! improbability ( ! man's initiation40 ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h a v fam\s fri5d1 ,swami ,trailanga1 :o 0 reput$ to be ov] ?ree hundr$ ye>s old4 ,! two yogis (t5 sat toge!r 9 m$itation4 ,trailanga's fame is s widespread t few ,h9dus w\ld d5y ! possibility ( tru? 9 any /ory ( 8 a/\nd+ miracles4 ,if ,*ri/ return$ to e>? & walk$ ! /reets ( ,new ,york1 display+ 8 div9e p[]s1 x w\ld cause ! same excitem5t t 0 creat$ by ,trailanga decades ago z he pass$ ?r\gh ! cr[d$ lanes ( ,b5>es4 ,on _m occasions ! swami 0 se5 to dr9k1 ) no ill effect1 ! mo/ deadly poisons4 ,?\s&s ( p1 includ+ a few :o are /ill liv+1 h se5 ,trailanga float+ on ! ,ganges4 ,= days toge!r he w\ld sit on top ( ! wat]1 or rema9 hidd5 = v long p]iods "u ! waves4 ,a common sight at ! ,b5>es ba?+ ,,ghats 0 ! swami's motionless body on ! bli/]+ /one slabs1 :olly expos$ to ! m]ciless ,indian sun4 ,by ^! feats ,trailanga s\ght to tea* m5 t a yogi's life does n dep5d ^u oxyg5 or ord9>y conditions & precautions4 ,:e!r he 7 above wat] or "u x1 & :e!r or n 8 body lay expos$ to ! fi]ce sol> rays1 ! ma/] prov$ t he liv$ by div9e consci\sness3 dea? c\ld n t\* him4 ,! yogi 0 great n only spiritually1 b physically4 ,8 weight exce$$ ?ree hundr$ p\nds3 a p\nd = ea* ye> ( 8 life6 ,z he ate v seldom1 ! my/]y is increas$4 ,a ma/]1 h[ev]1 easily ignores all usual rules ( heal?1 :5 he desires to d s = "s special reason1 (t5 a subtle "o kn[n only to himself4 ,great sa9ts :o h awak5$ f ! cosmic mayic dream & realiz$ ?is _w z an idea 9 ! ,div9e ,m9d1 c d z !y wi% ) ! body1 kn[+ x to be only a manipulatable =m ( cond5s$ or froz5 en]gy4 ,?\gh physical sci5ti/s n[ und]/& t matt] is no?+ b congeal$ en]gy1 fully-illum9$ ma/]s h long pass$ f !ory to practice 9 ! field ( matt]-control4 ,trailanga always rema9$ completely nude4 ,! h>ass$ police ( ,b5>es came to reg>d him z a baffl+ problem *ild4 ,! natural swami1 l ! e>ly ,adam 9 ! g>d5 ( ,ed51 0 utt]ly unconsci\s ( 8 nak$ness4 ,! police 7 q consci\s ( x1 h[ev]1 & unc]emoni\sly committ$ him to jail4 ,g5]al emb>rassm5t ensu$2 ! enorm\s body ( ,trailanga 0 soon se51 9 its usual entirety1 on ! prison ro(4 ,8 cell1 /ill securely lock$1 (f]$ no clue to 8 mode ( escape4 ,! disc\rag$ (fic]s ( ! law once m p]=m$ _! duty4 ,?is "t a gu>d 0 po/$ be=e ! swami's cell4 ,might aga9 retir$ be=e "r4 ,trailanga 0 soon obs]v$ 9 8 non*alant /roll ov] ! ro(4 ,ju/ice is bl9d2 ! outwitt$ police decid$ to foll[ h] example4 ,! great yogi pres]v$ a habitual sil5ce4 ,,fn#ca-d ,9 spite ( 8 r\nd face & huge1 b>rel-l /oma*1 ,trailanga ate only occasionally4 ,aft] weeks )\t food1 he w\ld break 8 fa/ ) potfuls ( clabb]$ milk (f]$ to him by devotees4 ,a skeptic once det]m9$ to expose ,trailanga z a *>latan4 ,a l>ge bucket ( calcium-lime mixture1 us$ 9 :itewa%+ walls1 0 plac$ be=e ! swami4 8,ma/]10 ! mat]iali/ said1 9 mock rev]5ce1 8,i h br\ght y "s clabb]$ milk4 ,please dr9k x40 ,trailanga unhesitat+ly dra9$1 to ! la/ drop1 ! conta9]ful ( burn+ lime4 ,9 a few m9utes ! evildo] fell to ! gr\nd 9 agony4 8,help1 swami1 help60 he cri$4 8,i am on fire6 ,=give my wick$ te/60 ,! great yogi broke 8 habitual sil5ce4 8,sc(f]10 he said1 8y did n realize :5 y (f]$ me poison t my life is "o ) y\r own4 ,except = my k t ,god is pres5t 9 my /oma*1 z 9 e atom ( creation1 ! lime w\ld h kill$ me4 ,n[ t y "k ! div9e mean+ ( boom]ang1 nev] aga9 play tricks on anyone40 ,! well-purg$ s9n]1 heal$ by ,trailanga's words1 slunk feebly away4 ,! rev]sal ( pa9 0 n due to any volition ( ! ma/]1 b came ab\t ?r\gh un]r+ application ( ! law ( ju/ice :i* upholds creation's f>!/ sw++ orb4 ,m5 ( ,god-realization l ,trailanga all[ ! div9e law to op]ate in/antane\sly2 !y h bani%$ =ev] all ?w>t+ crosscurr5ts ( ego4 ,! automatic adju/m5ts ( righte\sness1 (t5 paid 9 an unexpect$ co9 z 9 ! case ( ,trailanga & 8 w\ld be murd]]1 assuage our ha/y indignance at human inju/ice4 8,v5geance is m9e2 ,i w repay1 sai? ! ,"l40 ,,fn#ca-e ,:at ne$ = man's brief res\rces8 ! univ]se duly conspires = retribution4 ,dull m9ds discr$it ! possibility ( div9e ju/ice1 love1 omnisci5ce1 immortality4 8,airy scriptural conjectures60 ,?is ins5sitive viewpo9t1 aweless be=e ! cosmic spectacle1 ar\ses a tra9 ( ev5ts :i* br+s its own awak5+4 ,! omnipot5ce ( spiritual law 0 ref]r$ to by ,*ri/ on ! occasion ( 8 triumphant entry into ,j]usalem4 ,z ! disciples & ! multitude %\t$ = joy1 & cri$1 8,peace 9 heav51 & glory 9 ! highe/10 c]ta9 ,ph>isees compla9$ ( ! undignifi$ spectacle4 8,ma/]10 !y prote/$1 8rebuke ?y disciples40 8,i tell y10 ,jesus repli$1 8t1 if ^! %\ld hold _! peace1 ! /ones w\ld imm$iately cry out40 ,,fn#ca-f ,9 ?is reprim& to ! ,ph>isees1 ,*ri/ 0 po9t+ out t div9e ju/ice is no figurative ab/raction1 & t a man ( peace1 ?\gh 8 tongue be torn f its roots1 w yet f9d 8 spee* & 8 def5se 9 ! b$rock ( creation1 ! univ]sal ord] itself4 8,?9k y10 ,jesus 0 say+1 8to sil5ce m5 ( peace8 ,z well may y hope to ?rottle ! voice ( ,god1 ^: v /ones s+ ,8 glory & ,8 omnipres5ce4 ,w y dem& t m5 n celebrate 9 honor ( ! peace 9 heav51 b %\ld only ga!r toge!r 9 multitudes to %\t = w> on e>?8 ,!n make y\r prep>ations1 ,o ,ph>isees1 to ov]topple ! f\ndations ( ! _w2 = x is n g5tle m5 alone1 b /ones or e>?1 & wat] & fire & air t w rise up aga9/ y1 to be> witness ( ,8 ord]$ h>mony40 ,! grace ( ! ,*ri/like yogi1 ,trailanga1 0 once be/[$ on my ,,sajo ,,mama 7mat]nal uncle74 ,"o morn+ ,uncle saw ! ma/] surr\nd$ by a cr[d ( devotees at a ,b5>es ghat4 ,he manag$ to edge 8 way close to ,trailanga1 ^: feet he t\*$ humbly4 ,uncle 0 a/oni%$ to f9d himself in/antly fre$ f a pa9ful *ronic disease4 ,,fn#ca-g ,! only kn[n liv+ disciple ( ! great yogi is a woman1 ,%ank>i ,mai ,jiew4 ,daught] ( "o ( ,trailanga's disciples1 %e receiv$ ! swami's tra9+ f h] e>ly *ildhood4 ,%e liv$ = =ty ye>s 9 a s]ies ( lonely ,himalayan caves ne> ,badr9a?1 ,k$>na?1 ,am>na?1 & ,pasupat9a?4 ,! ,,brahma*>9i 7woman ascetic71 born 9 #ahbf1 is n[ well ov] ! c5tury m>k4 ,n ag$ 9 appe>ance1 h[ev]1 %e has reta9$ h] black hair1 sp>kl+ tee?1 & amaz+ en]gy4 ,%e comes out ( h] seclusion e few ye>s to att5d ! p]iodical ,,melas or religi\s fairs4 ,?is woman sa9t (t5 visit$ ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,%e has relat$ t "o day1 9 ! ,b>ackpur section ne> ,calcutta1 :ile %e 0 sitt+ by ,lahiri ,mahasaya's side1 8 great guru ,babaji quietly ent]$ ! room & held conv]se ) !m bo?4 ,on "o occasion h] ma/] ,trailanga1 =sak+ 8 usual sil5ce1 honor$ ,lahiri ,mahasaya v po9t$ly 9 public4 ,a ,b5>es disciple object$4 8,sir10 he said1 8:y d y1 a swami & a r5unciate1 %[ su* respect to a h\sehold]80 8,my son10 ,trailanga repli$1 8,lahiri ,mahasaya is l a div9e kitt51 rema9+ :]ev] ! ,cosmic ,"m has plac$ him4 ,:ile dutifully play+ ! "p ( a worldly man1 he has receiv$ t p]fect self-realization = :i* ,i h r5\nc$ ev5 my lo9clo?60 ,,fn#ca-a ,"o is rem9d$ "h ( ,milton's l9e3 8,he = ,god only1 %e = ,god 9 him40 ,,fn#ca-b ,! v5]able "m pass$ on at ,b5>es 9 #aicj4 ,,fn#ca-c ,/aff1 symboliz+ ! sp9al cord1 c>ri$ ritually by c]ta9 ord]s ( monks4 ,,fn#ca-d ,he 0 a ,,muni1 a monk :o obs]ves ,,mauna1 spiritual sil5ce4 ,! ,sanskrit root ,,muni is ak9 to ,greek ,,monos1 8alone1 s+le10 f :i* are d]iv$ ! ,engli% words ,,monk1 ,,monism1 etc4 ,,fn#ca-e ,,romans #ab3ai4 ,,fn#ca-f ,,luke #ai3cg-dj4 ,,fn#ca-g ,! lives ( ,trailanga & o!r great ma/]s rem9d u ( ,jesus' words3 8,& ^! signs %all foll[ !m t believe2 ,9 my "n 7! ,*ri/ consci\sness7 !y %all ca/ out devils2 !y %all speak ) new tongues2 !y %all take up s]p5ts2 & if !y dr9k any deadly ?+1 x %all n hurt !m2 !y %all lay h&s on ! sick1 & !y %all recov]40-,,m>k #af3ag-ah4 ,,*apt]3 #cb ,,rama ,,is ,,rais$ ,,f ,,! ,,dead 8,n[ a c]ta9 man 0 sick1 nam$ ,laz>us4 4 4 4 ,:5 ,jesus he>d t1 he said1 ,?is sickness is n unto dea?1 b = ! glory ( ,god1 t ! ,son ( ,god might be glorifi$ !reby4'0 ,,fn#cb-a ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 exp\nd+ ! ,*ri/ian scriptures "o sunny morn+ on ! balcony ( 8 ,s]ampore h]mitage4 ,besides a few ( ,ma/]'s o!r disciples1 ,i 0 pres5t ) a small gr\p ( my ,ran*i /ud5ts4 8,9 ?is passage ,jesus calls himself ! ,son ( ,god4 ,?\gh he 0 truly unit$ ) ,god1 8 ref]5ce "h has a deep imp]sonal significance10 my guru expla9$4 8,! ,son ( ,god is ! ,*ri/ or ,div9e ,consci\sness 9 man4 ,no ,,mortal c glorify ,god4 ,! only honor t man c pay 8 ,creator is to seek ,him2 man _c glorify an ,ab/raction t he does n "k4 ,! #8glory' or nimbus ar\nd ! head ( ! sa9ts is a symbolic witness ( _! ,,capacity to r5d] div9e homage40 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on to read ! m>vel\s /ory ( ,laz>us' resurrection4 ,at its conclusion ,ma/] fell into a long sil5ce1 ! sacr$ book op5 on 8 knee4 8,i too 0 privileg$ to behold a simil> miracle40 ,my guru f9ally spoke ) solemn unction4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya resurrect$ "o ( my fri5ds f ! dead40 ,! "y lads at my side smil$ ) ke5 int]e/4 ,!re 0 en\gh ( ! boy 9 me1 too1 to enjoy n only ! philosophy b1 9 p>ticul>1 any /ory ,i c\ld get ,sri ,yuktesw> to relate ab\t 8 wondr\s exp]i5ces ) 8 guru4 8,my fri5d ,rama & ,i 7 insep>able10 ,ma/] began4 8,because he 0 %y & reclusive1 he *ose to visit our guru ,lahiri ,mahasaya only dur+ ! h\rs ( midnight & dawn1 :5 ! cr[d ( daytime disciples 0 abs5t4 ,z ,rama's close/ fri5d1 ,i s]v$ z a spiritual v5t ?r\gh :i* he let out ! weal? ( 8 spiritual p]ceptions4 ,i f\nd inspiration 9 8 ideal companion%ip40 ,my guru's face s(t5$ ) memories4 8,rama 0 sudd5ly put to a sev]e te/10 ,sri ,yuktesw> cont9u$4 8,he contract$ ! disease ( ,asiatic *ol]a4 ,z our ma/] nev] object$ to ! s]vices ( physicians at times ( s]i\s illness1 two speciali/s 7 summon$4 ,amid/ ! frantic ru% ( m9i/]+ to ! /rick5 man1 ,i 0 deeply pray+ to ,lahiri ,mahasaya = help4 ,i hurri$ to 8 home & sobb$ out ! /ory4 8#8,! doctors are see+ ,rama4 ,he w be well4' ,my guru smil$ jovially4 8,i return$ ) a light he>t to my fri5d's b$side1 only to f9d him 9 a dy+ /ate4 8#8,he _c la/ m ?an "o or two h\rs1' "o ( ! physicians told me ) a ge/ure ( despair4 ,once m ,i ha/5$ to ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 8#8,! doctors are consci5ti\s m54 ,i am sure ,rama w be well4' ,! ma/] dismiss$ me bli!ly4 8,at ,rama's place ,i f\nd bo? doctors gone4 ,"o _h left me a note3 #8,we h done our be/1 b 8 case is hopeless4' 8,my fri5d 0 inde$ ! picture ( a dy+ man4 ,i did n und]/& h[ ,lahiri ,mahasaya's words c\ld fail to come true1 yet ! sight ( ,rama's rapidly ebb+ life kept sugge/+ to my m9d3 #8,all is ov] n[4' ,toss+ ?us on ! seas ( fai? & appreh5sive d\bt1 ,i m9i/]$ to my fri5d z be/ ,i c\ld4 ,he r\s$ himself to cry out3 8#8,yuktesw>1 run to ,ma/] & tell him ,i am gone4 ,ask him to bless my body be=e its la/ rites4' ,) ^! words ,rama sigh$ heavily & gave up ! gho/4 ,,fn#cb-b 8,i wept = an h\r by 8 belov$ =m4 ,always a lov] ( quiet1 n[ he _h atta9$ ! utt] /illness ( dea?4 ,ano!r disciple came 92 ,i ask$ him to rema9 9 ! h\se until ,i return$4 ,half-daz$1 ,i trudg$ back to my guru4 8#8,h[ is ,rama n[8' ,lahiri ,mahasaya's face 0 wrea!d 9 smiles4 8#8,sir1 y w soon see h[ he is1' ,i blurt$ out emotionally4 #8,9 a few h\rs y w see 8 body1 be=e x is c>ri$ to ! crematory gr\nds4' ,i broke d[n & moan$ op5ly4 8#8,yuktesw>1 control y\rself4 ,sit calmly & m$itate4' ,my guru retir$ into ,,samadhi4 ,! aft]noon & night pass$ 9 unbrok5 sil5ce2 ,i /ruggl$ unsuccessfully to rega9 an inn] composure4 8,at dawn ,lahiri ,mahasaya glanc$ at me consol+ly4 #8,i see y are /ill di/urb$4 ,:y didn't y expla9 ye/]day t y expect$ me to give ,rama tangible aid 9 ! =m ( "s m$ic9e8' ,! ma/] po9t$ to a cup-%ap$ lamp conta9+ crude ca/or oil4 #8,fill a little bottle f ! lamp2 put sev5 drops into ,rama's m\?4' 8#8,sir1' ,i remon/rat$1 #8he has be5 dead s9ce ye/]day noon4 ,( :at use is ! oil n[8' 8#8,nev] m9d2 j d z ,i ask4' ,lahiri ,mahasaya's *e]ful mood 0 incompreh5sible2 ,i 0 /ill 9 ! unassuag$ agony ( b]eavem5t4 ,p\r+ out a small am\nt ( oil1 ,i dep>t$ = ,rama's h\se4 8,i f\nd my fri5d's body rigid 9 ! dea?-clasp4 ,pay+ no att5tion to 8 gha/ly condition1 ,i op5$ 8 lips ) my "r f+] & manag$1 ) my left h& & ! help ( ! cork1 to put ! oil drop by drop ov] 8 cl5*$ tee?4 8,z ! sev5? drop t\*$ 8 cold lips1 ,rama %iv]$ viol5tly4 ,8 muscles vibrat$ f head to foot z he sat up wond]+ly4 8#8,i saw ,lahiri ,mahasaya 9 a blaze ( light1' he cri$4 ,he %one l ! sun4 #8,arise2 =sake y\r sleep1' he comm&$ me4 #8,come ) ,yuktesw> to see me4'0 8,i c\ld sc>cely believe my eyes :5 ,rama dress$ himself & 0 /rong en\gh aft] t fatal sickness to walk to ! home ( our guru4 ,!re he pro/rat$ himself be=e ,lahiri ,mahasaya ) te>s ( gratitude4 8,! ma/] 0 beside himself ) mir?4 ,8 eyes tw9kl$ at me mis*iev\sly4 8#8,yuktesw>1' he said1 #8surely h5ce=? y w n fail to c>ry ) y a bottle ( ca/or oil6 ,:5ev] y see a corpse1 j adm9i/] ! oil6 ,:y1 sev5 drops ( lamp oil mu/ surely foil ! p[] ( ,yama6' ,,fn#cb-c 8#8,guruji1 y are ridicul+ me4 ,i don't und]/&2 please po9t out ! nature ( my error4' 8#8,i told y twice t ,rama w\ld be well2 yet y c\ld n fully believe me1' ,lahiri ,mahasaya expla9$4 #8,i did n mean ! doctors w\ld be able to cure him2 ,i rem>k$ only t !y 7 9 att5dance4 ,!re 0 no causal connection betwe5 my two /atem5ts4 ,i didn't want to int]f]e ) ! physicians2 !y h to live1 too4' ,9 a voice res\nd+ ) joy1 my guru add$1 #8,always "k t ! inexhau/ible ,p>amatman ,,fn#cb-d c heal anyone1 doctor or no doctor4' 8#8,i see my mi/ake1' ,i ackn[l$g$ remorsefully4 #8,i "k n[ t y\r simple ^w is b9d+ on ! :ole cosmos4'0 ,z ,sri ,yuktesw> f9i%$ ! awesome /ory1 "o ( ! spellb\nd li/5]s v5tur$ a "q t1 f a *ild1 0 d\bly und]/&able4 8,sir10 he said1 8:y did y\r guru use ca/or oil80 8,*ild1 giv+ ! oil _h no mean+ except t ,i expect$ some?+ mat]ial & ,lahiri ,mahasaya *ose ! ne>-by oil z an objective symbol = awak5+ my great] fai?4 ,! ma/] all[$ ,rama to die1 because ,i _h p>tially d\bt$4 ,b ! div9e guru knew t inasmu* z he _h said ! disciple w\ld be well1 ! heal+ mu/ take place1 ev5 ?\gh he _h to cure ,rama ( dea?1 a disease usually f9al60 ,sri ,yuktesw> dismiss$ ! little gr\p1 & motion$ me to a blanket seat at 8 feet4 8,yogan&a10 he said ) unusual gravity1 8y h be5 surr\nd$ f bir? by direct disciples ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,! great ma/] liv$ 8 sublime life 9 p>tial seclusion1 & /eadfa/ly refus$ to p]mit 8 foll[]s to build any organization ar\nd 8 tea*+s4 ,he made1 nev]!less1 a significant pr$iction4 8#8,ab\t fifty ye>s aft] my pass+1' he said1 #8my life w be writt5 because ( a deep int]e/ 9 yoga :i* ! ,we/ w manife/4 ,! yogic message w encircle ! globe1 & aid 9 e/abli%+ t bro!rhood ( man :i* results f direct p]ception ( ! ,"o ,fa!r4' 8,my son ,yogan&a10 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on1 8y mu/ d y\r "p 9 spread+ t message1 & 9 writ+ t sacr$ life40 ,fifty ye>s aft] ,lahiri ,mahasaya's pass+ 9 #ahie culm9at$ 9 #aide1 ! ye> ( completion ( ?is pres5t book4 ,i _c b be /ruck by ! co9cid5ce t ! ye> #aide has also u%]$ 9 a new age-! era ( revolution>y atomic en]gies4 ,all ?\ghtful m9ds turn z nev] be=e to ! urg5t problems ( peace & bro!rhood1 le/ ! cont9u$ use ( physical =ce bani% all m5 along ) ! problems4 ,?\gh ! human race & its works disappe> tracelessly by "t or bomb1 ! sun does n falt] 9 its c\rse2 ! />s keep _! inv>iable vigil4 ,cosmic law _c be /ay$ or *ang$1 & man w\ld d well to put himself 9 h>mony ) x4 ,if ! cosmos is aga9/ might1 if ! sun w>s n ) ! planets b retires at dueful "t to give ! />s _! little sway1 :at avails our mail$ fi/8 ,%all any peace inde$ come out ( x8 ,n cruelty b good w arms ! univ]sal s9ews2 a humanity at peace w "k ! endless fruits ( victory1 sweet] to ! ta/e ?an any nurtur$ on ! soil ( blood4 ,! effective ,league ( ,nations w be a natural1 nameless league ( human he>ts4 ,! broad sympa?ies & disc]n+ insight ne$$ = ! heal+ ( e>?ly woes _c fl[ f a m]e intellectual consid]ation ( man's div]sities1 b f k ( man's sole unity-8 k9%ip ) ,god4 ,t[>d realization ( ! _w's highe/ ideal-peace ?r\gh bro!rhood-may yoga1 ! sci5ce ( p]sonal contact ) ! ,div9e1 spread 9 "t to all m5 9 all l&s4 ,?\gh ,india's civilization is anci5t above any o!r1 few hi/orians h not$ t h] feat ( national survival is by no means an accid5t1 b a logical incid5t 9 ! devotion to et]nal v]ities :i* ,india has (f]$ ?r\gh h] be/ m5 9 e g5]ation4 ,by %e] cont9uity ( be+1 by intransitivity be=e ! ages-c du/y s*ol>s truly tell u h[ _m8-,india has giv5 ! wor?ie/ answ] ( any p to ! *all5ge ( "t4 ,! ,biblical /ory ,,fn#cb-e ( ,abraham's plea to ! ,"l t ! city ( ,sodom be sp>$ if t5 righte\s m5 c\ld be f\nd !re91 & ! div9e reply3 8,i w n de/roy x = t5's sake10 ga9s new mean+ 9 ! light ( ,india's escape f ! oblivion ( ,babylon1 ,egypt & o!r mighty nations :o 7 once h] contempor>ies4 ,! ,"l's answ] cle>ly %[s t a l& lives1 n by its mat]ial a*ievem5ts1 b 9 its ma/]pieces ( man4 ,let ! div9e words be he>d aga91 9 ?is tw5tie? c5tury1 twice dy$ 9 blood ere half ov]3 ,no nation t c produce t5 m51 great 9 ! eyes ( ! ,unbribable ,judge1 %all "k ext9ction4 ,he$+ su* p]suasions1 ,india has prov$ h]self n witless aga9/ ! ?\s& cunn+s ( "t4 ,self-realiz$ ma/]s 9 e c5tury h hall[$ h] soil2 mod]n ,*ri/like sages1 l ,lahiri ,mahasaya & 8 disciple ,sri ,yuktesw>1 rise up to proclaim t ! sci5ce ( yoga is m vital ?an any mat]ial advances to man's happ9ess & to a nation's longevity4 ,v scanty in=mation ab\t ! life ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya & 8 univ]sal doctr9e has ev] appe>$ 9 pr9t4 ,= ?ree decades 9 ,india1 ,am]ica1 & ,europe1 ,i h f\nd a deep & s9c]e int]e/ 9 8 message ( lib]at+ yoga2 a writt5 acc\nt ( ! ma/]'s life1 ev5 z he =etold1 is n[ ne$$ 9 ! ,we/1 :]e lives ( ! great mod]n yogis are little kn[n4 ,no?+ b "o or two small pamphlets 9 ,engli% has be5 writt5 on ! guru's life4 ,"o biography 9 ,b5gali1 ,,sri ,,sri ,,fn#cb-f ,,%yama ,,*>an ,,lahiri ,,mahasaya1 appe>$ 9 #aida4 ,x 0 writt5 by my disciple1 ,swami ,satyan&a1 :o = _m ye>s has be5 ! ,,a*>ya 7spiritual preceptor7 at our ,,vidyalaya 9 ,ran*i4 ,i h translat$ a few passages f 8 book & h incorporat$ !m into ?is section devot$ to ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,x 0 into a pi\s ,brahm9 family ( anci5t l9eage t ,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 born ,septemb] #cj1 #ahbh4 ,8 bir?place 0 ! village ( ,ghurni 9 ! ,nadia di/rict ne> ,kri%nag>1 ,b5gal4 ,he 0 ! y\nge/ son ( ,muktaka%i1 ! second wife ( ! e/eem$ ,gaur ,mohan ,lahiri4 7,8 fir/ wife1 aft] ! bir? ( ?ree sons1 _h di$ dur+ a pilgrimage47 ,! boy's "m pass$ away dur+ 8 *ildhood2 little ab\t h] is kn[n except ! reveal+ fact t %e 0 an ard5t devotee ( ,"l ,%iva1 ,,fn#cb-g scripturally designat$ z ! 8,k+ ( ,yogis40 ,! boy ,lahiri1 ^: giv5 "n 0 ,%yama ,*>an1 sp5t 8 e>ly ye>s 9 ! ance/ral home at ,nadia4 ,at ! age ( ?ree or f\r he 0 (t5 obs]v$ sitt+ "u ! s&s 9 ! po/ure ( a yogi1 8 body completely hidd5 except = ! head4 ,! ,lahiri e/ate 0 de/roy$ 9 ! w9t] ( #ahcc1 :5 ! ne>by ,jalangi ,riv] *ang$ its c\rse & disappe>$ into ! dep?s ( ! ,ganges4 ,"o ( ! ,%iva temples f\nd$ by ! ,lahiris w5t into ! riv] along ) ! family home4 ,a devotee rescu$ ! /one image ( ,"l ,%iva f ! swirl+ wat]s & plac$ x 9 a new temple1 n[ well-kn[n z ! ,ghurni ,%iva ,site4 ,gaur ,mohan ,lahiri & 8 family left ,nadia & became resid5ts ( ,b5>es1 :]e ! fa!r imm$iately erect$ a ,%iva temple4 ,he conduct$ 8 h\sehold along ! l9es ( ,v$ic discipl9e1 ) regul> obs]vance ( c]emonial wor%ip1 acts ( *>ity1 & scriptural /udy4 ,j & op5-m9d$1 h[ev]1 he did n ignore ! b5eficial curr5t ( mod]n ideas4 ,! boy ,lahiri took lessons 9 ,h9di & ,urdu 9 ,b5>es /udy-gr\ps4 ,he att5d$ a s*ool conduct$ by ,joy ,n>ayan ,ghosal1 receiv+ in/ruction 9 ,sanskrit1 ,b5gali1 ,fr5*1 & ,engli%4 ,apply+ himself to a close /udy ( ! ,,v$as1 ! "y yogi li/5$ eag]ly to scriptural discussions by le>n$ ,brahm9s1 includ+ a ,m>hatta pundit nam$ ,nag-,bhatta4 ,%yama ,*>an 0 a k9d1 g5tle1 & c\rage\s y\?1 belov$ by all 8 companions4 ,) a well-proportion$1 bright1 & p[]ful body1 he excell$ 9 swimm+ & 9 _m skillful activities4 ,9 #ahdf ,%yama ,*>an ,lahiri 0 m>ri$ to ,srimati ,ka%i ,moni1 daught] ( ,sri ,debn>ayan ,sanyal4 ,a model ,indian h\sewife1 ,ka%i ,moni *e]fully c>ri$ on h] home duties & ! traditional h\sehold]'s obligation to s]ve gue/s & ! poor4 ,two sa9tly sons1 ,t9c\ri & ,duc\ri1 bless$ ! union4 ,at ! age ( #bc1 9 #ahea1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya took ! po/ ( acc\ntant 9 ! ,milit>y ,eng9e]+ ,dep>tm5t ( ! ,engli% gov]nm5t4 ,he receiv$ _m promotions dur+ ! "t ( 8 s]vice4 ,?us n only 0 he a ma/] be=e ,god's eyes1 b also a success 9 ! little human drama :]e he play$ 8 giv5 role z an (fice work] 9 ! _w4 ,z ! (fices ( ! ,army ,dep>tm5t 7 %ift$1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 transf]r$ to ,gazipur1 ,mirjapur1 ,danapur1 ,na9i ,tal1 ,b5>es1 & o!r localities4 ,aft] ! dea? ( 8 fa!r1 ,lahiri _h to assume ! entire responsibility ( 8 family1 = :om he b\ght a quiet resid5ce 9 ! ,g>udesw> ,mohulla neighborhood ( ,b5>es4 ,x 0 9 8 ?irty-?ird ye> t ,lahiri ,mahasaya saw fulfillm5t ( ! purpose = :i* he _h be5 re9c>nat$ on e>?4 ,! a%-hidd5 flame1 long sm\ld]+1 receiv$ its opportunity to bur/ into flame4 ,a div9e decree1 re/+ beyond ! gaze ( human be+s1 works my/]i\sly to br+ all ?+s into out] manife/ation at ! prop] "t4 ,he met 8 great guru1 ,babaji1 ne> ,ranikhet1 & 0 initiat$ by him into ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,?is auspici\s ev5t did n happ5 to him alone2 x 0 a =tunate mom5t = all ! human race1 _m ( :om 7 lat] privileg$ to receive ! s\l-awak5+ gift ( ,,kriya4 ,! lo/1 or long-vani%$1 highe/ art ( yoga 0 aga9 be+ br\ght to light4 ,_m spiritually ?ir/y m5 & wom5 ev5tually f\nd _! way to ! cool wat]s ( ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,j z 9 ! ,h9du leg5d1 :]e ,"m ,ganges (f]s h] div9e draught to ! p>*$ devotee ,bhagira?1 s ! cele/ial flood ( ,,kriya roll$ f ! secret fa/nesses ( ! ,himalayas into ! du/y haunts ( m54 ,,fn#cb-a ,,john #aa3a-d4 ,,fn#cb-b ,a *ol]a victim is (t5 rational & fully consci\s "r up to ! mom5t ( dea?4 ,,fn#cb-c ,! god ( dea?4 ,,fn#cb-d ,lit]ally1 8,supreme s\l40 ,,fn#cb-e ,,g5esis #ah3bc-cb4 ,,fn#cb-f ,,sri1 a prefix mean+ 8holy10 is atta*$ 7g5]ally twice or ?rice7 to names ( great ,indian tea*]s4 ,,fn#cb-g ,"o ( ! tr9ity ( ,godhead-,brahma1 ,vi%nu1 ,%iva-^: univ]sal "w is1 respectively1 t ( creation1 pres]vation1 & dissolution-re/oration4 ,%iva 7sometimes spell$ ,siva71 repres5t$ 9 my?ology z ! ,"l ( ,r5unciates1 appe>s 9 visions to ,8 devotees "u v>i\s aspects1 su* z ,mahadeva1 ! matt$-hair$ ,ascetic1 & ,nat>aja1 ! ,cosmic ,danc]4 ,,*apt]3 #cc ,,babaji1 ,,! ,,yogi-,,*ri/ ,,( ,,mod]n ,,india ,! nor!rn ,himalayan crags ne> ,badr9>ayan are /ill bless$ by ! liv+ pres5ce ( ,babaji1 guru ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,! seclud$ ma/] has reta9$ 8 physical =m = c5turies1 p]haps = mill5niums4 ,! dea?less ,babaji is an ,,avat>a4 ,?is ,sanskrit ^w means 8desc5t02 its roots are ,,ava1 8d[n10 & ,,tri1 8to pass40 ,9 ! ,h9du scriptures1 ,,avat>a signifies ! desc5t ( ,div9ity into fle%4 8,babaji's spiritual /ate is beyond human compreh5sion10 ,sri ,yuktesw> expla9$ to me4 8,! dw>f$ vision ( m5 _c pi]ce to 8 transc5d5tal />4 ,"o attempts 9 va9 ev5 to picture ! avat>'s atta9m5t4 ,x is inconceivable40 ,! ,,upani%ads h m9utely classifi$ e /age ( spiritual advancem5t4 ,a ,,siddha 78p]fect$ be+07 has progress$ f ! /ate ( a ,,jivanmukta 78fre$ :ile liv+07 to t ( a ,,p>amukta 78supremely free0-full p[] ov] dea?72 ! latt] has completely escap$ f ! mayic ?ralldom & its re9c>national r\nd4 ,! ,,p>amukta !re=e seldom returns to a physical body2 if he does1 he is an avat>1 a div9ely appo9t$ m$ium ( sup]nal bless+s on ! _w4 ,an avat> is unsubject to ! univ]sal economy2 8 pure body1 visible z a light image1 is free f any debt to nature4 ,! casual gaze may see no?+ extraord9>y 9 an avat>'s =m b x ca/s no %ad[ nor makes any footpr9t on ! gr\nd4 ,^! are outw>d symbolic pro(s ( an inw>d lack ( d>kness & mat]ial bondage4 ,su* a ,god-man alone kn[s ! ,tru? beh9d ! relativities ( life & dea?4 ,om> ,khayyam1 s grossly misund]/ood1 sang ( ?is lib]at$ man 9 8 immortal scripture1 ! ,,rubaiyat3 8,ah1 ,moon ( my ,delight :o "k'/ no wane1 ,! ,moon ( ,heav'n is ris+ once aga92 ,h[ (t h]eaft] ris+ %all %e look ,?r\gh ?is same ,g>d5 aft] me-9 va960 ,! 8,moon ( ,delight0 is ,god1 et]nal ,pol>is1 ana*ron\s nev]4 ,! 8,moon ( ,heav'n0 is ! outw>d cosmos1 fett]$ to ! law ( p]iodic recurr5ce4 ,its *a9s _h be5 dissolv$ =ev] by ! ,p]sian se] ?r\gh 8 self-realization4 8,h[ (t h]eaft] ris+ %all %e look 4 4 4 aft] me-9 va960 ,:at fru/ration ( se>* by a frantic univ]se = an absolute omission6 ,illu/ration3 ,,babaji1 ,,! ,,mahavat>1 ,guru ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 ,i h help$ an arti/ to draw a true lik5ess ( ! great ,yogi-,*ri/ ( mod]n ,india4--see babaji4jpg ,illu/ration3 ,"o ( ! caves occupi$ by ,babaji 9 ! ,drongiri ,m\nta9s ne> ,ranikhet 9 ! ,himalayas4 ,a gr&son ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 ,an&a ,mohan ,lahiri 7second f "r1 9 :ite71 & ?ree o!r devotees are visit+ ! sacr$ spot4--see cave4jpg ,*ri/ express$ 8 fre$om 9 ano!r way3 8,& a c]ta9 scribe came1 & said unto him1 ,ma/]1 ,i w foll[ !e :i!rsoev] ?\ goe/4 ,& ,jesus sai? unto him1 ,! foxes h holes1 & ! birds ( ! air h ne/s2 b ! ,son ( man ha? n :]e to lay 8 head40 ,,fn#cc-a ,spaci\s ) omnipres5ce1 c\ld ,*ri/ inde$ be foll[$ except 9 ! ov]>*+ ,_s8 ,kri%na1 ,rama1 ,buddha1 & ,patanjali 7 among ! anci5t ,indian avat>s4 ,a consid]able poetic lit]ature 9 ,tamil has gr[n up ar\nd ,aga/ya1 a ,s\? ,indian avat>4 ,he work$ _m miracles dur+ ! c5turies prec$+ & foll[+ ! ,*ri/ian era1 & is cr$it$ ) reta9+ 8 physical =m ev5 to ?is day4 ,babaji's mission 9 ,india has be5 to assi/ prophets 9 c>ry+ out _! special disp5sations4 ,he ?us qualifies = ! scriptural classification ( ,,mahavat> 7,great ,avat>74 ,he has /at$ t he gave yoga initiation to ,%ank>a1 anci5t f\nd] ( ! ,swami ,ord]1 & to ,kabir1 fam\s m$ieval sa9t4 ,8 *ief n9ete5?-c5tury disciple 01 z we "k1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 revivali/ ( ! lo/ ,,kriya art4 ,! ,,mahavat> is 9 con/ant communion ) ,*ri/2 toge!r !y s5d out vibrations ( r$emption1 & h plann$ ! spiritual te*nique ( salvation = ?is age4 ,! "w ( ^! two fully-illum9$ ma/]s-"o ) ! body1 & "o )\t x-is to inspire ! nations to =sake suicidal w>s1 race hatr$s1 religi\s sect>ianism1 & ! boom]ang-evils ( mat]ialism4 ,babaji is well aw>e ( ! tr5d ( mod]n times1 especially ( ! influ5ce & complexities ( ,we/]n civilization1 & realizes ! necessity ( spread+ ! self-lib]ations ( yoga equally 9 ! ,we/ & 9 ! ,ea/4 ,t !re is no hi/orical ref]5ce to ,babaji ne$ n surprise u4 ,! great guru has nev] op5ly appe>$ 9 any c5tury2 ! mis9t]pret+ gl>e ( publicity has no place 9 8 mill5nial plans4 ,l ! ,creator1 ! sole b sil5t ,p[]1 ,babaji works 9 a humble obscurity4 ,great prophets l ,*ri/ & ,kri%na come to e>? = a specific & spectacul> purpose2 !y dep>t z soon z x is accompli%$4 ,o!r avat>s1 l ,babaji1 und]take "w :i* is conc]n$ m ) ! sl[ evolution>y progress ( man dur+ ! c5turies ?an ) any "o out/&+ ev5t ( hi/ory4 ,su* ma/]s always veil !mselves f ! gross public gaze1 & h ! p[] to become invisible at w4 ,= ^! reasons1 & because !y g5]ally in/ruct _! disciples to ma9ta9 sil5ce ab\t !m1 a numb] ( t[]+ spiritual figures rema9 _w-unkn[n4 ,i give 9 ^! pages on ,babaji m]ely a h9t ( 8 life-only a few facts :i* he deems x fit & helpful to be publicly imp>t$4 ,no limit+ facts ab\t ,babaji's family or bir?place1 de> to ! annali/'s he>t1 h ev] be5 discov]$4 ,8 spee* is g5]ally 9 ,h9di1 b he conv]ses easily 9 any language4 ,he has adopt$ ! simple "n ( ,babaji 7rev]$ fa!r72 o!r titles ( respect giv5 him by ,lahiri ,mahasaya's disciples are ,mahamuni ,babaji ,mah>aj 7supreme ec/atic sa9t71 ,maha ,yogi 7greate/ ( yogis71 ,trambak ,baba & ,%iva ,baba 7titles ( avat>s ( ,%iva74 ,does x matt] t we "k n ! patronymic ( an e>?-releas$ ma/]8 8,:5ev] anyone utt]s ) rev]5ce ! "n ( ,babaji10 ,lahiri ,mahasaya said1 8t devotee attracts an in/ant spiritual bless+40 ,! dea?less guru be>s no m>ks ( age on 8 body2 he appe>s to be no m ?an a y\? ( tw5ty-five4 ,fair-sk9n$1 ( m$ium build & height1 ,babaji's beautiful1 /rong body radiates a p]ceptible gl[4 ,8 eyes are d>k1 calm1 & t5d]2 8 long1 lu/r\s hair is copp]-color$4 ,a v /range fact is t ,babaji be>s an extraord9>ily exact resemblance to 8 disciple ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,! simil>ity is s /rik+ t1 9 8 lat] ye>s1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya might h pass$ z ! fa!r ( ! y\?ful-look+ ,babaji4 ,swami ,kebalan&a1 my sa9tly ,sanskrit tutor1 sp5t "s "t ) ,babaji 9 ! ,himalayas4 8,! pe]less ma/] moves ) 8 gr\p f place to place 9 ! m\nta9s10 ,kebalan&a told me4 8,8 small b& conta9s two highly advanc$ ,am]ican disciples4 ,aft] ,babaji has be5 9 "o locality = "s "t1 he says3 #8,,d]a ,,d&a ,,u?ao4' 7#8,let u lift our camp & /aff4'7 ,he c>ries a symbolic ,,d&a 7bamboo /aff74 ,8 words are ! signal = mov+ ) 8 gr\p in/antane\sly to ano!r place4 ,he does n always employ ?is me?od ( a/ral travel2 sometimes he goes on foot f peak to peak4 8,babaji c be se5 or recogniz$ by o!rs only :5 he s desires4 ,he is kn[n to h appe>$ 9 _m slightly diff]5t =ms to v>i\s devotees-sometimes )\t be>d & m\/a*e1 & sometimes ) !m4 ,z 8 undecay+ body requires no food1 ! ma/] seldom eats4 ,z a social c\rtesy to visit+ disciples1 he occasionally accepts fruits1 or rice cook$ 9 milk & cl>ifi$ butt]4 8,two amaz+ incid5ts ( ,babaji's life are kn[n to me10 ,kebalan&a w5t on4 8,8 disciples 7 sitt+ "o night ar\nd a huge fire :i* 0 blaz+ = a sacr$ ,v$ic c]emony4 ,! ma/] sudd5ly seiz$ a burn+ log & lightly /ruck ! b>e %\ld] ( a *ela :o 0 close to ! fire4 8#8,sir1 h[ cruel6' ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 :o 0 pres5t1 made ?is remon/rance4 8#8,w\ld y r h se5 him burn$ to a%es be=e y\r eyes1 accord+ to ! decree ( 8 pa/ k>ma8' 8,) ^! words ,babaji plac$ 8 heal+ h& on ! *ela's disfigur$ %\ld]4 #8,i h fre$ y tonight f pa9ful dea?4 ,! k>mic law has be5 satisfi$ ?r\gh y\r slight suff]+ by fire4' 8,on ano!r occasion ,babaji's sacr$ circle 0 di/urb$ by ! arrival ( a /rang]4 ,he _h climb$ ) a/oni%+ skill to ! ne>ly inaccessible l$ge ne> ! camp ( ! ma/]4 8#8,sir1 y mu/ be ! great ,babaji4' ,! man's face 0 lit ) inexpressible rev]5ce4 #8,= mon?s ,i h pursu$ a ceaseless se>* = y among ^! =bidd+ crags4 ,i implore y to accept me z a disciple4' 8,:5 ! great guru made no response1 ! man po9t$ to ! rocky *asm at 8 feet4 8#8,if y refuse me1 ,i w jump f ?is m\nta94 ,life has no fur!r value if ,i _c w9 y\r guidance to ! ,div9e4' 8#8,jump !n1' ,babaji said unemotionally4 #8,i _c accept y 9 y\r pres5t /ate ( developm5t4' 8,! man imm$iately hurl$ himself ov] ! cliff4 ,babaji in/ruct$ ! %ock$ disciples to fet* ! /rang]'s body4 ,:5 !y return$ ) ! mangl$ =m1 ! ma/] plac$ 8 div9e h& on ! dead man4 ,lo6 he op5$ 8 eyes & pro/rat$ himself humbly be=e ! omnipot5t "o4 8#8,y are n[ ready = disciple%ip4' ,babaji beam$ lov+ly on 8 resurrect$ *ela4 #8,y h c\rage\sly pass$ a difficult te/4 ,dea? %all n t\* y aga92 n[ y are "o ( our immortal flock4' ,!n he spoke 8 usual words ( dep>ture1 #8,,d]a ,,d&a ,,u?ao'2 ! :ole gr\p vani%$ f ! m\nta940 ,an avat> lives 9 ! omnipres5t ,_s2 = him !re is no di/ance inv]se to ! squ>e4 ,only "o reason1 !re=e1 c motivate ,babaji 9 ma9ta9+ 8 physical =m f c5tury to c5tury3 ! desire to furni% humanity ) a concrete example ( its own possibilities4 ,7 man nev] v\*saf$ a glimpse ( ,div9ity 9 ! fle%1 he w\ld rema9 oppress$ by ! heavy mayic delusion t he _c transc5d 8 mortality4 ,jesus knew f ! beg9n+ ! sequ5ce ( 8 life2 he pass$ ?r\gh ea* ev5t n = himself1 n f any k>mic compulsion1 b solely = ! upliftm5t ( reflective human be+s4 ,8 f\r report]-disciples-,mat!w1 ,m>k1 ,luke1 & ,john-record$ ! ineffable drama = ! b5efit ( lat] g5]ations4 ,= ,babaji1 also1 !re is no relativity ( pa/1 pres5t1 future2 f ! beg9n+ he has kn[n all phases ( 8 life4 ,yet1 accommodat+ himself to ! limit$ und]/&+ ( m51 he has play$ _m acts ( 8 div9e life 9 ! pres5ce ( "o or m witnesses4 ,?us x came ab\t t a disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 pres5t :5 ,babaji deem$ ! "t to be ripe = him to proclaim ! possibility ( bodily immortality4 ,he utt]$ ?is promise be=e ,ram ,gopal ,muzumd>1 t x might f9ally become kn[n = ! inspiration ( o!r seek+ he>ts4 ,! great ones speak _! words & p>ticipate 9 ! seem+ly natural c\rse ( ev5ts1 solely = ! good ( man1 ev5 z ,*ri/ said3 8,fa!r 4 4 4 ,i knew t ?\ he>e/ me always3 b ,,because ,,( ,,! ,,p ,,:i* ,,/& ,,by ,i ,,said ,,x1 t !y may believe t ?\ ha/ s5t me40 ,,fn#cc-b ,dur+ my visit at ,ranbajpur ) ,ram ,gopal1 8! sleepless sa9t10 ,,fn#cc-c he relat$ ! wondr\s /ory ( 8 fir/ meet+ ) ,babaji4 8,i sometimes left my isolat$ cave to sit at ,lahiri ,mahasaya's feet 9 ,b5>es10 ,ram ,gopal told me4 8,"o midnight z ,i 0 sil5tly m$itat+ 9 a gr\p ( 8 disciples1 ! ma/] made a surpris+ reque/4 8#8,ram ,gopal1' he said1 #8g at once to ! ,dasasam$h ba?+ ,,ghat4' 8,i soon rea*$ ! seclud$ spot4 ,! night 0 bright ) moonlight & ! glitt]+ />s4 ,aft] ,i _h sat 9 pati5t sil5ce = a:ile1 my att5tion 0 drawn to a huge /one slab ne> my feet4 ,x rose gradually1 reveal+ an und]gr\nd cave4 ,z ! /one rema9$ balanc$ 9 "s unkn[n mann]1 ! drap$ =m ( a "y & surpass+ly lovely woman 0 levitat$ f ! cave high into ! air4 ,surr\nd$ by a s(t halo1 %e sl[ly desc5d$ 9 front ( me & /ood motionless1 /eep$ 9 an inn] /ate ( ec/asy4 ,%e f9ally /irr$1 & spoke g5tly4 8#8,i am ,mataji1 ,,fn#cc-d ! si/] ( ,babaji4 ,i h ask$ him & also ,lahiri ,mahasaya to come to my cave tonight to discuss a matt] ( great importance4' 8,a nebul\s light 0 rapidly float+ ov] ! ,ganges2 ! /range lum9esc5ce 0 reflect$ 9 ! opaque wat]s4 ,x approa*$ ne>] & ne>] until1 ) a bl9d+ fla%1 x appe>$ by ! side ( ,mataji & cond5s$ itself in/antly into ! human =m ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,he b[$ humbly at ! feet ( ! woman sa9t4 8,be=e ,i _h recov]$ f my bewild]m5t1 ,i 0 fur!r wond]/ruck to behold a circl+ mass ( my/ical light travel+ 9 ! sky4 ,desc5d+ swiftly1 ! flam+ :irlpool ne>$ our gr\p & mat]ializ$ itself into ! body ( a beautiful y\? :o1 ,i und]/ood at once1 0 ,babaji4 ,he look$ l ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 ! only diff]5ce be+ t ,babaji appe>$ mu* y\ng]1 & _h long1 bright hair4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya1 ,mataji1 & myself knelt at ! guru's feet4 ,an e!real s5sation ( beatific glory ?rill$ e fib] ( my be+ z ,i t\*$ 8 div9e fle%4 8#8,bless$ si/]1' ,babaji said1 #8,i am int5d+ to %$ my =m & plunge into ! ,inf9ite ,curr5t4' 8#8,i h already glimps$ y\r plan1 belov$ ma/]4 ,i want$ to discuss x ) y tonight4 ,:y %\ld y leave y\r body8' ,! glori\s woman look$ at him besee*+ly4 8#8,:at is ! diff]5ce if ,i we> a visible or invisible wave on ! ocean ( my ,_s8' 8,mataji repli$ ) a qua9t fla% ( wit4 #8,dea?less guru1 if x makes no diff]5ce1 !n please d n ev] rel9qui% y\r =m4' ,,fn#cc-e 8#8,be x s1' ,babaji said solemnly4 #8,i w nev] leave my physical body4 ,x w always rema9 visible to at lea/ a small numb] ( p on ?is e>?4 ,! ,"l has spok5 ,8 own wi% ?r\gh y\r lips4' 8,z ,i li/5$ 9 awe to ! conv]sation betwe5 ^! exalt$ be+s1 ! great guru turn$ to me ) a b5ign ge/ure4 8#8,fe> n1 ,ram ,gopal1' he said1 #8y are bless$ to be a witness at ! sc5e ( ?is immortal promise4' 8,z ! sweet melody ( ,babaji's voice fad$ away1 8 =m & t ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya sl[ly levitat$ & mov$ backw>d ov] ! ,ganges4 ,an aureole ( dazzl+ light templ$ _! bodies z !y vani%$ into ! night sky4 ,mataji's =m float$ to ! cave & desc5d$2 ! /one slab clos$ ( itself1 z if work+ on an invisible lev]age4 8,inf9itely inspir$1 ,i w5d$ my way back to ,lahiri ,mahasaya's place4 ,z ,i b[$ be=e him 9 ! e>ly dawn1 my guru smil$ at me und]/&+ly4 8#8,i am happy = y1 ,ram ,gopal1' he said4 #8,! desire ( meet+ ,babaji & ,mataji1 :i* y h (t5 express$ to me1 has f\nd at la/ a sacr$ fulfillm5t4' 8,my fell[ disciples in=m$ me t ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h n mov$ f 8 dais s9ce e>ly ! prec$+ ev5+4 8#8,he gave a wond]ful disc\rse on immortality aft] y _h left = ! ,dasasam$h ,,ghat1' "o ( ! *elas told me4 ,= ! fir/ "t ,i fully realiz$ ! tru? 9 ! scriptural v]ses :i* /ate t a man ( self-realization c appe> at diff]5t places 9 two or m bodies at ! same "t4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya lat] expla9$ to me _m metaphysical po9ts conc]n+ ! hidd5 div9e plan = ?is e>?10 ,ram ,gopal conclud$4 8,babaji has be5 *os5 by ,god to rema9 9 8 body = ! duration ( ?is p>ticul> _w cycle4 ,ages %all come & g--/ill ! dea?less ma/]1 ,,fn#cc-f behold+ ! drama ( ! c5turies1 %all be pres5t on ?is /age t]re/rial40 ,,fn#cc-a ,,mat!w #h3ai-bj4 ,,fn#cc-b ,,john #aa3da-db4 ,,fn#cc-c ,! omnipres5t yogi :o obs]v$ t ,i fail$ to b[ be=e ! ,t>akesw> %r9e 744_/*apt] #ac74 ,,fn#cc-d 8,holy ,"m40 ,mataji also has liv$ ?r\gh ! c5turies2 %e is almo/ z f> advanc$ spiritually z h] bro!r4 ,%e rema9s 9 ec/asy 9 a hidd5 und]gr\nd cave ne> ! ,dasasam$h ,,ghat4 ,,fn#cc-e ,?is incid5t rem9ds "o ( ,?ales4 ,! great ,greek philosoph] taught t !re 0 no diff]5ce betwe5 life & dea?4 8,:y1 !n10 inquir$ a critic1 8d y n die80 8,because10 answ]$ ,?ales1 8x makes no diff]5ce40 ,,fn#cc-f 8,v]ily1 v]ily1 ,i say unto y1 ,if a man keep my say+ 7rema9 unbrok5ly 9 ! ,*ri/ ,consci\sness71 he %all nev] see dea?40-,,john #h3ea4 ,,*apt]3 #cd ,,mat]ializ+ ,a ,,palace ,,9 ,,! ,,himalayas 8,babaji's fir/ meet+ ) ,lahiri ,mahasaya is an en?rall+ /ory1 & "o ( ! few :i* gives u a detail$ glimpse ( ! dea?less guru40 ,^! words 7 ,swami ,kebalan&a's preamble to a wondr\s tale4 ,! fir/ "t he rec\nt$ x ,i 0 lit]ally spellb\nd4 ,on _m o!r occasions ,i coax$ my g5tle ,sanskrit tutor to repeat ! /ory1 :i* 0 lat] told me 9 sub/antially ! same words by ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,bo? ^! ,lahiri ,mahasaya disciples _h he>d ! awesome tale direct f ! lips ( _! guru4 8,my fir/ meet+ ) ,babaji took place 9 my ?irty-?ird ye>10 ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h said4 8,9 ! autumn ( #ahfa ,i 0 /ation$ 9 ,danapur z a gov]nm5t acc\ntant 9 ! ,milit>y ,eng9e]+ ,dep>tm5t4 ,"o morn+ ! (fice manag] summon$ me4 8#8,lahiri1' he said1 #8a telegram has j come f our ma9 (fice4 ,y are to be transf]r$ to ,ranikhet1 :]e an army po/ ,,fn#cd-a is n[ be+ e/abli%$4' 8,) "o s]vant1 ,i set out on ! #ejj-mile trip4 ,travel+ by horse & buggy1 we arriv$ 9 ?irty days at ! ,himalayan site ( ,ranikhet4 ,,fn#cd-b 8,my (fice duties 7 n on]\s2 ,i 0 able to sp5d _m h\rs roam+ 9 ! magnific5t hills4 ,a rumor rea*$ me t great sa9ts bless$ ! region ) _! pres5ce2 ,i felt a /rong desire to see !m4 ,dur+ a ramble "o e>ly aft]noon1 ,i 0 a/\nd$ to he> a di/ant voice call+ my "n4 ,i cont9u$ my vigor\s upw>d climb on ,drongiri ,m\nta94 ,a slight uneas9ess beset me at ! ?\ght t ,i might n be able to retrace my /eps be=e d>kness _h desc5d$ ov] ! jungle4 8,i f9ally rea*$ a small cle>+ ^: sides 7 dott$ ) caves4 ,on "o ( ! rocky l$ges /ood a smil+ "y man1 ext5d+ 8 h& 9 welcome4 ,i notic$ ) a/oni%m5t t1 except = 8 copp]-color$ hair1 he bore a rem>kable resemblance to myself4 8#8,lahiri1 y h come6' ,! sa9t address$ me affectionately 9 ,h9di4 #8,re/ "h 9 ?is cave4 ,x 0 ,i :o call$ y4' 8,i ent]$ a neat little grotto :i* conta9$ sev]al wool5 blankets & a few ,,kam&ulus 7begg+ b[ls74 8#8,lahiri1 d y rememb] t seat8' ,! yogi po9t$ to a fold$ blanket 9 "o corn]4 8#8,no1 sir4' ,some:at daz$ at ! /rang5ess ( my adv5ture1 ,i add$1 #8,i mu/ leave n[1 be=e nightfall4 ,i h bus9ess 9 ! morn+ at my (fice4' 8,! my/]i\s sa9t repli$ 9 ,engli%1 #8,! (fice 0 br\ght = y1 & n y = ! (fice4' 8,i 0 dumbf\nd$ t ?is =e/ ascetic %\ld n only speak ,engli% b also p>aphrase ! words ( ,*ri/4 ,,fn#cd-c 8#8,i see my telegram took effect4' ,! yogi's rem>k 0 incompreh5sible to me2 ,i inquir$ 8 mean+4 8#8,i ref] to ! telegram t summon$ y to ^! isolat$ p>ts4 ,x 0 ,i :o sil5tly sugge/$ to ! m9d ( y\r sup]ior (fic] t y be transf]r$ to ,ranikhet4 ,:5 "o feels 8 unity ) mank9d1 all m9ds become transmitt+ /ations ?r\gh :i* he c "w at w4' ,he add$ g5tly1 #8,lahiri1 surely ?is cave seems famili> to y8' 8,z ,i ma9ta9$ a bewild]$ sil5ce1 ! sa9t approa*$ & /ruck me g5tly on ! =ehead4 ,at 8 magnetic t\*1 a wondr\s curr5t swept ?r\gh my bra91 releas+ ! sweet se$-memories ( my previ\s life4 8#8,i rememb]6' ,my voice 0 half-*ok$ ) joy\s sobs4 #8,y are my guru ,babaji1 :o has belong$ to me always6 ,sc5es ( ! pa/ arise vividly 9 my m9d2 "h 9 ?is cave ,i sp5t _m ye>s ( my la/ inc>nation6' ,z ineffable recollections ov]:elm$ me1 ,i te>fully embrac$ my ma/]'s feet4 8#8,= m ?an ?ree decades ,i h wait$ = y "h-wait$ = y to return to me6' ,babaji's voice rang ) cele/ial love4 #8,y slipp$ away & vani%$ into ! tumultu\s waves ( ! life beyond dea?4 ,! magic w& ( y\r k>ma t\*$ y1 & y 7 gone6 ,?\gh y lo/ sight ( me1 nev] did ,i lose sight ( y6 ,i pursu$ y ov] ! lum9esc5t a/ral sea :]e ! glori\s angels sail4 ,?r\gh gloom1 /orm1 upheaval1 & light ,i foll[$ y1 l a "m bird gu>d+ h] "y4 ,z y liv$ out y\r human t]m ( womb-life1 & em]g$ a babe1 my eye 0 ev] on y4 ,:5 y cov]$ y\r t9y =m 9 ! lotus po/ure "u ! ,nadia s&s 9 y\r *ildhood1 ,i 0 invisibly pres5t6 ,pati5tly1 mon? aft] mon?1 ye> aft] ye>1 ,i h wat*$ ov] y1 wait+ = ?is p]fect day4 ,n[ y are ) me6 ,lo1 "h is y\r cave1 lov$ ( yore6 ,i h kept x ev] clean & ready = y4 ,"h is y\r hall[$ ,,asana-blanket1 :]e y daily sat to fill y\r exp&+ he>t ) ,god6 ,behold !re y\r b[l1 f :i* y (t5 drank ! nect> prep>$ by me6 ,see h[ ,i h kept ! brass cup brightly poli%$1 t y might dr9k aga9 !refrom6 ,my own1 d y n[ und]/&8' 8#8,my guru1 :at c ,i say8' ,i murmur$ brok5ly4 #8,:]e has "o ev] he>d ( su* dea?less love8' ,i gaz$ long & ec/atically on my et]nal treasure1 my guru 9 life & dea?4 8#8,lahiri1 y ne$ purification4 ,dr9k ! oil 9 ?is b[l & lie d[n by ! riv]4' ,babaji's practical wisdom1 ,i reflect$ ) a quick1 rem9isc5t smile1 0 ev] to ! =e4 8,i obey$ 8 directions4 ,?\gh ! icy ,himalayan night 0 desc5d+1 a com=t+ w>m?1 an inn] radiation1 began to pulsate 9 e cell ( my body4 ,i m>vel$4 ,0 ! unkn[n oil endu$ ) a cosmical heat8 8,bitt] w9ds :ipp$ ar\nd me 9 ! d>kness1 %riek+ a fi]ce *all5ge4 ,! *ill wavelets ( ! ,goga% ,riv] lapp$ n[ & !n ov] my body1 out/ret*$ on ! rocky bank4 ,tig]s h[l$ ne>-by1 b my he>t 0 free ( fe>2 ! radiant =ce newly g5]at$ )9 me convey$ an assurance ( unassailable protection4 ,sev]al h\rs pass$ swiftly2 fad$ memories ( ano!r life wove !mselves into ! pres5t brilliant patt]n ( reunion ) my div9e guru4 8,my solit>y mus+s 7 int]rupt$ by ! s\nd ( approa*+ foot/eps4 ,9 ! d>kness1 a man's h& g5tly help$ me to my feet1 & gave me "s dry clo?+4 8#8,come1 bro!r1' my companion said4 #8,! ma/] awaits y4' 8,he l$ ! way ?r\gh ! =e/4 ,! somb] night 0 sudd5ly lit by a /eady lum9osity 9 ! di/ance4 8#8,c t be ! sunrise8' ,i inquir$4 #8,surely ! :ole night has n pass$8' 8#8,! h\r is midnight4' ,my guide laugh$ s(tly4 #8,yond] light is ! gl[ ( a gold5 palace1 mat]ializ$ "h tonight by ! pe]less ,babaji4 ,9 ! dim pa/1 y once express$ a desire to enjoy ! beauties ( a palace4 ,our ma/] is n[ satisfy+ y\r wi%1 ?us free+ y f ! bonds ( k>ma4' ,,fn#cd-d ,he add$1 #8,! magnific5t palace w be ! sc5e ( y\r initiation tonight into ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,all y\r bro!rs "h jo9 9 a paean ( welcome1 rejoic+ at ! end ( y\r long exile4 ,behold6' 8,a va/ palace ( dazzl+ gold /ood be=e u4 ,/udd$ ) c\ntless jewels1 & set amid/ l&scap$ g>d5s1 x pres5t$ a spectacle ( unp>allel$ gr&eur4 ,sa9ts ( angelic c\nt5ance 7 /ation$ by respl5d5t gates1 half-r$d5$ by ! glitt] ( rubies4 ,diamonds1 pe>ls1 sapphires1 & em]alds ( great size & lu/] 7 imb$d$ 9 ! decorative ar*es4 8,i foll[$ my companion into a spaci\s reception hall4 ,! odor ( inc5se & ( roses waft$ ?r\gh ! air2 dim lamps %$ a multicolor$ gl[4 ,small gr\ps ( devotees1 "s fair1 "s d>k-sk9n$1 *ant$ musically1 or sat 9 ! m$itative po/ure1 imm]s$ 9 an inn] peace4 ,a vibrant joy p]vad$ ! atmosph]e4 8#8,fea/ y\r eyes2 enjoy ! arti/ic spl5dors ( ?is palace1 = x has be5 br\ght into be+ solely 9 y\r honor4' ,my guide smil$ sympa!tically z ,i utt]$ a few ejaculations ( wond]m5t4 8#8,bro!r1' ,i said1 #8! beauty ( ?is /ructure surpasses ! b\nds ( human imag9ation4 ,please tell me ! my/]y ( its orig94' 8#8,i w gladly enlight5 y4' ,my companion's d>k eyes sp>kl$ ) wisdom4 #8,9 reality !re is no?+ inexplicable ab\t ?is mat]ialization4 ,! :ole cosmos is a mat]ializ$ ?\ght ( ! ,creator4 ,?is heavy1 e>?ly clod1 float+ 9 space1 is a dream ( ,god4 ,he made all ?+s out ( ,8 consci\sness1 ev5 z man 9 8 dream consci\sness reproduces & vivifies a creation ) its creatures4 8#8,god fir/ creat$ ! e>? z an idea4 ,!n ,he quick5$ x2 en]gy atoms came into be+4 ,he coord9at$ ! atoms into ?is solid sph]e4 ,all its molecules are held toge!r by ! w ( ,god4 ,:5 ,he )draws ,8 w1 ! e>? aga9 w dis9tegrate into en]gy4 ,en]gy w dissolve into consci\sness2 ! e>?-idea w disappe> f objectivity4 8#8,! sub/ance ( a dream is held 9 mat]ialization by ! subconsci\s ?\ght ( ! dream]4 ,:5 t cohesive ?\ght is )drawn 9 wakefulness1 ! dream & its elem5ts dissolve4 ,a man closes 8 eyes & erects a dream-creation :i*1 on awak5+1 he ef=tlessly demat]ializes4 ,he foll[s ! div9e ar*etypal patt]n4 ,simil>ly1 :5 he awak5s 9 cosmic consci\sness1 he w ef=tlessly demat]ialize ! illusions ( ! cosmic dream4 8#8,be+ "o ) ! inf9ite all-accompli%+ ,w1 ,babaji c summon ! elem5tal atoms to comb9e & manife/ !mselves 9 any =m4 ,?is gold5 palace1 in/antane\sly creat$1 is real1 ev5 z ?is e>? is real4 ,babaji creat$ ?is palatial mansion out ( 8 m9d & is hold+ its atoms toge!r by ! p[] ( 8 w1 ev5 z ,god creat$ ?is e>? & is ma9ta9+ x intact4' ,he add$1 #8,:5 ?is /ructure has s]v$ its purpose1 ,babaji w demat]ialize x4' 8,z ,i rema9$ sil5t 9 awe1 my guide made a sweep+ ge/ure4 #8,?is %imm]+ palace1 sup]bly embelli%$ ) jewels1 has n be5 built by human ef=t or ) labori\sly m9$ gold & gems4 ,x /&s solidly1 a monum5tal *all5ge to man4 ,,fn#cd-e ,:oev] realizes himself z a son ( ,god1 ev5 z ,babaji has done1 c rea* any goal by ! inf9ite p[]s hidd5 )9 him4 ,a common /one locks )9 itself ! secret ( /up5d\s atomic en]gy2 ,,fn#cd-f ev5 s1 a mortal is yet a p[]h\se ( div9ity4' 8,! sage pick$ up f a ne>-by table a graceful vase ^: h&le 0 blaz+ ) diamonds4 #8,our great guru creat$ ?is palace by solidify+ myriads ( free cosmic rays1' he w5t on4 #8,t\* ?is vase & its diamonds2 !y w satisfy all ! te/s ( s5sory exp]i5ce4' 8,i exam9$ ! vase1 & pass$ my h& ov] ! smoo? room-walls1 ?ick ) gli/5+ gold4 ,ea* ( ! jewels scatt]$ lavi%ly ab\t 0 wor?y ( a k+'s collection4 ,deep satisfaction spread ov] my m9d4 ,a subm]g$ desire1 hidd5 9 my subconsci\sness f lives n[ gone1 seem$ simultane\sly gratifi$ & ext+ui%$4 8,my /ately companion l$ me ?r\gh ornate ar*es & corridors into a s]ies ( *amb]s ri*ly furni%$ 9 ! /yle ( an emp]or's palace4 ,we ent]$ an imm5se hall4 ,9 ! c5t] /ood a gold5 ?rone1 encru/$ ) jewels %$d+ a dazzl+ m$ley ( colors4 ,!re1 9 lotus po/ure1 sat ! supreme ,babaji4 ,i knelt on ! %9+ floor at 8 feet4 8#8,lahiri1 are y /ill fea/+ on y\r dream desires = a gold5 palace8' ,my guru's eyes 7 tw9kl+ l 8 own sapphires4 #8,wake6 ,all y\r e>?ly ?ir/s are ab\t to be qu5*$ =ev]4' ,he murmur$ "s my/ic words ( bless+4 #8,my son1 arise4 ,receive y\r initiation into ! k+dom ( ,god ?r\gh ,,kriya ,,yoga4' 8,babaji /ret*$ out 8 h&2 a ,,homa 7sacrificial7 fire appe>$1 surr\nd$ by fruits & fl[]s4 ,i receiv$ ! lib]at+ yogic te*nique be=e ?is flam+ alt>4 8,! rites 7 complet$ 9 ! e>ly dawn4 ,i felt no ne$ = sleep 9 my ec/atic /ate1 & w&]$ ar\nd ! palace1 fill$ on all sides ) treasures & priceless ,,objets ,d',,art4 ,desc5d+ to ! gorge\s g>d5s1 ,i notic$1 ne>-by1 ! same caves & b>r5 m\nta9 l$ges :i* ye/]day _h boa/$ no adjac5cy to palace or fl[]$ t]race4 8,re5t]+ ! palace1 fabul\sly gli/5+ 9 ! cold ,himalayan sunlight1 ,i s\ght ! pres5ce ( my ma/]4 ,he 0 /ill en?ron$1 surr\nd$ by _m quiet disciples4 8#8,lahiri1 y are hungry4' ,babaji add$1 #8,close y\r eyes4' 8,:5 ,i reop5$ !m1 ! en*ant+ palace & its picturesque g>d5s _h disappe>$4 ,my own body & ! =ms ( ,babaji & ! clu/] ( *elas 7 all n[ seat$ on ! b>e gr\nd at ! exact site ( ! vani%$ palace1 n f> f ! sunlit entrances ( ! rocky grottos4 ,i recall$ t my guide _h rem>k$ t ! palace w\ld be demat]ializ$1 its captive atoms releas$ into ! ?\ght-ess5ce f :i* x _h sprung4 ,al?\gh /unn$1 ,i look$ tru/+ly at my guru4 ,i knew n :at to expect next on ?is day ( miracles4 8#8,! purpose = :i* ! palace 0 creat$ has n[ be5 s]v$1' ,babaji expla9$4 ,he lift$ an e>!n vessel f ! gr\nd4 #8,put y\r h& !re & receive :atev] food y desire4' 8,z soon z ,i t\*$ ! broad1 empty b[l1 x became heap$ ) hot butt]-fri$ ,,lu*is1 curry1 & r>e sweetmeats4 ,i help$ myself1 obs]v+ t ! vessel 0 ev]-fill$4 ,at ! end ( my meal ,i look$ ar\nd = wat]4 ,my guru po9t$ to ! b[l be=e me4 ,lo6 ! food _h vani%$2 9 its place 0 wat]1 cle> z f a m\nta9 /ream4 8#8,few mortals "k t ! k+dom ( ,god includes ! k+dom ( mundane fulfillm5ts1' ,babaji obs]v$4 #8,! div9e realm ext5ds to ! e>?ly1 b ! latt]1 be+ illusory1 _c include ! ess5ce ( reality4' 8#8,belov$ guru1 la/ night y demon/rat$ = me ! l9k ( beauty 9 heav5 & e>?6' ,i smil$ at memories ( ! vani%$ palace2 surely no simple yogi _h ev] receiv$ initiation into ! augu/ my/]ies ( ,_s amid/ surr\nd+s ( m impressive luxury6 ,i gaz$ tranquilly at ! />k contra/ ( ! pres5t sc5e4 ,! gaunt gr\nd1 ! skyey ro(1 ! caves (f]+ primitive %elt]-all seem$ a graci\s natural sett+ = ! s]aphic sa9ts ar\nd me4 8,i sat t aft]noon on my blanket1 hall[$ by associations ( pa/-life realizations4 ,my div9e guru approa*$ & pass$ 8 h& ov] my head4 ,i ent]$ ! ,,nirbikalpa ,,samadhi /ate1 rema9+ unbrok5ly 9 its bliss = sev5 days4 ,cross+ ! successive /rata ( self-k1 ,i p5etrat$ ! dea?less realms ( reality4 ,all delusive limitations dropp$ away2 my s\l 0 fully e/abli%$ on ! et]nal alt> ( ! ,cosmic ,_s4 ,on ! eigh? day ,i fell at my guru's feet & implor$ him to keep me always ne> him 9 ?is sacr$ wild]ness4 8#8,my son1' ,babaji said1 embrac+ me1 #8y\r role 9 ?is inc>nation mu/ be play$ on an outw>d /age4 ,pr5atally bless$ by _m lives ( lonely m$itation1 y mu/ n[ m+le 9 ! _w ( m54 8#8,a deep purpose und]lay ! fact t y did n meet me ?is "t until y 7 already a m>ri$ man1 ) mode/ bus9ess responsibilities4 ,y mu/ put aside y\r ?\ghts ( jo9+ our secret b& 9 ! ,himalayas2 y\r life lies 9 ! cr[d$ m>ts1 s]v+ z an example ( ! ideal yogi-h\sehold]4 8#8,! cries ( _m bewild]$ worldly m5 & wom5 h n fall5 unhe>d on ! e>s ( ! ,great ,ones1' he w5t on4 #8,y h be5 *os5 to br+ spiritual solace ?r\gh ,,kriya ,,yoga to num]\s e>ne/ seek]s4 ,! millions :o are encumb]$ by family ties & heavy worldly duties w take new he>t f y1 a h\sehold] l !mselves4 ,y mu/ guide !m to see t ! highe/ yogic atta9m5ts are n b>r$ to ! family man4 ,ev5 9 ! _w1 ! yogi :o fai?fully dis*>ges 8 responsibilities1 )\t p]sonal motive or atta*m5t1 treads ! sure pa? ( enlight5m5t4 8#8,no necessity compels y to leave ! _w1 = inw>dly y h already sund]$ its e k>mic tie4 ,n ( ?is _w1 y mu/ yet be 9 x4 ,_m ye>s /ill rema9 dur+ :i* y mu/ consci5ti\sly fulfill y\r family1 bus9ess1 civic1 & spiritual duties4 ,a sweet new brea? ( div9e hope w p5etrate ! arid he>ts ( worldly m54 ,f y\r balanc$ life1 !y w und]/& t lib]ation is dep5d5t on inn]1 r ?an out]1 r5unciations4' 8,h[ remote seem$ my family1 ! (fice1 ! _w1 z ,i li/5$ to my guru 9 ! high ,himalayan solitudes4 ,yet adamant9e tru? rang 9 8 words2 ,i submissively agre$ to leave ?is bless$ hav5 ( peace4 ,babaji in/ruct$ me 9 ! anci5t rigid rules :i* gov]n ! transmission ( ! yogic art f guru to disciple4 8#8,be/[ ! ,,kriya key only on qualifi$ *elas1' ,babaji said4 #8,he :o v[s to sacrifice all 9 ! que/ ( ! ,div9e is fit to unravel ! f9al my/]ies ( life ?r\gh ! sci5ce ( m$itation4' 8#8,angelic guru1 z y h already favor$ mank9d by resurrect+ ! lo/ ,,kriya art1 w y n increase t b5efit by relax+ ! /rict requirem5ts = disciple%ip8' ,i gaz$ besee*+ly at ,babaji4 #8,i pray t y p]mit me to communicate ,,kriya to all seek]s1 ev5 ?\gh at fir/ !y _c v[ !mselves to complete inn] r5unciation4 ,! tortur$ m5 & wom5 ( ! _w1 pursu$ by ! ?reefold suff]+1 ,,fn#cd-g ne$ special enc\ragem5t4 ,!y may nev] attempt ! road to fre$om if ,,kriya initiation be )held f !m4' 8#8,be x s4 ,! div9e wi% has be5 express$ ?r\gh y4' ,) ^! simple words1 ! m]ciful guru bani%$ ! rigor\s safegu>ds t = ages _h hidd5 ,,kriya f ! _w4 #8,give ,,kriya freely to all :o humbly ask = help4' 8,aft] a sil5ce1 ,babaji add$1 #8,repeat to ea* ( y\r disciples ?is maje/ic promise f ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita3 8,,swalpamasya ,,dh>masya1 ,,trayata ,,mahato ,,bhoyat0--8,ev5 a little bit ( ! practice ( ?is religion w save y f dire fe>s & colossal suff]+s40' ,,fn#cd-h 8,z ,i knelt ! next morn+ at my guru's feet = 8 f>ewell bless+1 he s5s$ my deep reluctance to leave him4 8#8,!re is no sep>ation = u1 my belov$ *ild4' ,he t\*$ my %\ld] affectionately4 #8,:]ev] y are1 :5ev] y call me1 ,i %all be ) y in/antly4' 8,consol$ by 8 wondr\s promise1 & ri* ) ! newly f\nd gold ( ,god-wisdom1 ,i w5d$ my way d[n ! m\nta94 ,at ! (fice ,i 0 welcom$ by my fell[ employees1 :o = t5 days _h ?\ght me lo/ 9 ! ,himalayan jungles4 ,a lett] soon arriv$ f ! head (fice4 8#8,lahiri %\ld return to ! ,danapur ,,fn#cd-i (fice1' x read4 #8,8 transf] to ,ranikhet occurr$ by error4 ,ano!r man %\ld h be5 s5t to assume ! ,ranikhet duties4' 8,i smil$1 reflect+ on ! hidd5 crosscurr5ts 9 ! ev5ts :i* _h l$ me to ?is fur!rmo/ spot ( ,india4 8,be=e return+ to ,danapur1 ,i sp5t a few days ) a ,b5gali family at ,moradabad4 ,a p>ty ( six fri5ds ga!r$ to greet me4 ,z ,i turn$ ! conv]sation to spiritual subjects1 my ho/ obs]v$ gloomily3 8#8,oh1 9 ^! days ,india is de/itute ( sa9ts6' 8#8,babu1' ,i prote/$ w>mly1 #8( c\rse !re are /ill great ma/]s 9 ?is l&6' 8,9 a mood ( exalt$ f]vor1 ,i felt impell$ to relate my miracul\s exp]i5ces 9 ! ,himalayas4 ,! little company 0 politely incr$ul\s4 8#8,lahiri1' "o man said soo?+ly1 #8y\r m9d has be5 "u a /ra9 9 ^? r>efi$ m\nta9 airs4 ,?is is "s daydream y h rec\nt$4' 8,burn+ ) ! en?usiasm ( tru?1 ,i spoke )\t due ?\ght4 #8,if ,i call him1 my guru w appe> "r 9 ?is h\se4' 8,int]e/ gleam$ 9 e eye2 x 0 no wond] t ! gr\p 0 eag] to behold a sa9t mat]ializ$ 9 su* a /range way4 ,half-reluctantly1 ,i ask$ = a quiet room & two new wool5 blankets4 8#8,! ma/] w mat]ialize f ! e!r1' ,i said4 #8,rema9 sil5tly outside ! door2 ,i %all soon call y4' 8,i sank into ! m$itative /ate1 humbly summon+ my guru4 ,! d>k5$ room soon fill$ ) a dim aural moonlight2 ! lum9\s figure ( ,babaji em]g$4 8#8,lahiri1 d y call me = a trifle8' ,! ma/]'s gaze 0 /]n4 #8,tru? is = e>ne/ seek]s1 n = ^? ( idle curiosity4 ,x is easy to believe :5 "o sees2 !re is no?+ !n to d5y4 ,sup]s5sual tru? is des]v$ & discov]$ by ^? :o ov]come _! natural mat]iali/ic skepticism4' ,he add$ gravely1 #8,let me g6' 8,i fell entreat+ly at 8 feet4 #8,holy guru1 ,i realize my s]i\s error2 ,i humbly ask p>don4 ,x 0 to create fai? 9 ^! spiritually bl9d$ m9ds t ,i v5tur$ to call y4 ,because y h graci\sly appe>$ at my pray]1 please d n dep>t )\t be/[+ a bless+ on my fri5ds4 ,unbeliev]s ?\gh !y be1 at lea/ !y 7 will+ to inve/igate ! tru? ( my /range ass]tions4' 8#8,v well2 ,i w /ay a:ile4 ,i d n wi% y\r ^w discr$it$ be=e y\r fri5ds4' ,babaji's face _h s(t5$1 b he add$ g5tly1 #8,h5ce=?1 my son1 ,i %all come :5 y ne$ me1 & n always :5 y call me4 ,,fn#cd-aj' 8,t5se sil5ce reign$ 9 ! little gr\p :5 ,i op5$ ! door4 ,z if mi/ru/+ _! s5ses1 my fri5ds />$ at ! lu/r\s figure on ! blanket seat4 8#8,?is is mass-hypnotism6' ,"o man laugh$ blatantly4 #8,no "o c\ld possibly h ent]$ ?is room )\t our k6' 8,babaji advanc$ smil+ly & motion$ to ea* "o to t\* ! w>m1 solid fle% ( 8 body4 ,d\bts dispell$1 my fri5ds pro/rat$ !mselves on ! floor 9 aw$ rep5tance4 8#8,let ,,halua ,,fn#cd-aa be prep>$4' ,babaji made ?is reque/1 ,i knew1 to fur!r assure ! gr\p ( 8 physical reality4 ,:ile ! porridge 0 boil+1 ! div9e guru *att$ affably4 ,great 0 ! metamorphosis ( ^! d\bt+ ,?omases into dev\t ,/4 ,pauls4 ,aft] we _h eat51 ,babaji bless$ ea* ( u 9 turn4 ,!re 0 a sudd5 fla%2 we witness$ ! in/antane\s de*emicalization ( ! electronic elem5ts ( ,babaji's body into a spread+ vapor\s light4 ,! ,god-tun$ w p[] ( ! ma/] _h loos5$ its grasp ( ! e!r atoms held toge!r z 8 body2 =?) ! trillions ( t9y lifetronic sp>ks fad$ into ! inf9ite res]voir4 8#8,) my own eyes ,i h se5 ! conqu]or ( dea?4' ,maitra1 ,,fn#cd-ab "o ( ! gr\p1 spoke rev]5tly4 ,8 face 0 transfigur$ ) ! joy ( 8 rec5t awak5+4 #8,! supreme guru play$ ) "t & space1 z a *ild plays ) bubbles4 ,i h beheld "o ) ! keys ( heav5 & e>?4' 8,i soon return$ to ,danapur4 ,firmly an*or$ 9 ! ,_s1 aga9 ,i assum$ ! manifold bus9ess & family obligations ( a h\sehold]40 ,lahiri ,mahasaya also relat$ to ,swami ,kebalan&a & ,sri ,yuktesw> ! /ory ( ano!r meet+ ) ,babaji1 "u circum/ances :i* recall$ ! guru's promise3 8,i %all come :5ev] y ne$ me40 8,! sc5e 0 a ,,kumbha ,,mela at ,allahabad10 ,lahiri ,mahasaya told 8 disciples4 8,i _h gone !re dur+ a %ort vacation f my (fice duties4 ,z ,i w&]$ amid/ ! ?rong ( monks & sadhus :o _h come f great di/ances to att5d ! holy fe/ival1 ,i notic$ an a%-sme>$ ascetic :o 0 hold+ a begg+ b[l4 ,! ?\ght arose 9 my m9d t ! man 0 hypocritical1 we>+ ! outw>d symbols ( r5unciation )\t a correspond+ inw>d grace4 8,no soon] _h ,i pass$ ! ascetic ?an my a/\nd$ eye fell on ,babaji4 ,he 0 kneel+ 9 front ( a matt$-hair$ an*orite4 8#8,guruji6' ,i ha/5$ to 8 side4 #8,sir1 :at are y do+ "h8' 8#8,i am wa%+ ! feet ( ?is r5unciate1 & !n ,i %all clean 8 cook+ ut5sils4' ,babaji smil$ at me l a little *ild2 ,i knew he 0 intimat+ t he want$ me to criticize no "o1 b to see ! ,"l z resid+ equally 9 all body-temples1 :e!r ( sup]ior or inf]ior m54 ,! great guru add$1 #8,by s]v+ wise & ignorant sadhus1 ,i am le>n+ ! greate/ ( virtues1 pleas+ to ,god above all o!rs-humility4'0 ,,fn#cd-a ,n[ a milit>y sanatorium4 ,by #ahfa ! ,briti% ,gov]nm5t _h already e/abli%$ c]ta9 telegraphic communciations4 ,,fn#cd-b ,ranikhet1 9 ! ,almora di/rict ( ,unit$ ,prov9ces1 is situat$ at ! foot ( ,n&a ,devi1 ! highe/ ,himalayan peak 7#be1ffa feet7 9 ,briti% ,india4 ,,fn#cd-c 8,! sabba? 0 made = man1 & n man = ! sabba?40--,,m>k #b3bg4 ,,fn#cd-d ,! k>mic law requires t e human wi% f9d ultimate fulfillm5t4 ,desire is ?us ! *a9 :i* b9ds man to ! re9c>national :eel4 ,,fn#cd-e 8,:at is a miracle8-',tis a reproa*1 ',tis an implicit satire on mank9d40 --,edw>d ,"y1 9 ,,night ,,?\ghts4 ,,fn#cd-e ,! !ory ( ! atomic /ructure ( matt] 0 exp\nd$ 9 ! anci5t ,indian ,,vaisesika & ,,nyaya treatises4 8,!re are va/ worlds all plac$ away )9 ! holl[s ( ea* atom1 multif>i\s z ! motes 9 a sunbeam40--,,yoga ,,vasi%?a4 ,,fn#cd-g ,physical1 m5tal1 & spiritual suff]+2 manife/$1 respectively1 9 disease1 9 psy*ological inadequacies or 8complexes10 & 9 s\l-ignorance4 ,,fn#cd-h ,*apt] ,,ii3#dj4 ,,fn#cd-i ,a t[n ne> ,b5>es4 ,,fn#cd-aj ,9 ! pa? to ! ,inf9ite1 ev5 illum9$ ma/]s l ,lahiri ,mahasaya may suff] f an excess ( zeal1 & be subject to discipl9e4 ,9 ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 we read _m passages :]e ! div9e guru ,kri%na gives *a/isem5t to ! pr9ce ( devotees1 ,arjuna4 ,,fn#cd-aa ,a porridge made ( cream ( :eat fri$ 9 butt]1 & boil$ ) milk4 ,,fn#cd-ab ,! man1 ,maitra1 to :om ,lahiri ,mahasaya is "h ref]r+1 aft]w>d became highly advanc$ 9 self-realization4 ,i met ,maitra %ortly aft] my graduation f high s*ool2 he visit$ ! ,maham&al h]mitage 9 ,b5>es :ile ,i 0 a resid5t4 ,he told me !n ( ,babaji's mat]ialization be=e ! gr\p 9 ,moradabad4 8,z a result ( ! miracle10 ,maitra expla9$ to me1 8,i became a lifelong disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya40 ,,*apt]3 #ce ,,! ,,*ri/like ,,life ,,( ,,lahiri ,,mahasaya 8,?us x become? u to fulfill all righte\sness40 ,,fn#ce-a ,9 ^! words to ,john ! ,bapti/1 & 9 ask+ ,john to baptize him1 ,jesus 0 ackn[l$g+ ! div9e rights ( 8 guru4 ,f a rev]5t /udy ( ! ,bible f an ,ori5tal viewpo9t1 ,,fn#ce-b & f intuitional p]ception1 ,i am conv9c$ t ,john ! ,bapti/ 01 9 pa/ lives1 ! guru ( ,*ri/4 ,!re are num]\s passages 9 ! ,bible :i* inf] t ,john & ,jesus 9 _! la/ inc>nations 71 respectively1 ,elijah & 8 disciple ,eli%a4 7,^! are ! spell+s 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t4 ,! ,greek translators spell$ ! names z ,elias & ,eliseus2 !y reappe> 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t 9 ^! *ang$ =ms47 ,! v end ( ! ,old ,te/am5t is a pr$iction ( ! re9c>nation ( ,elijah & ,eli%a3 8,behold1 ,i w s5d y ,elijah ! prophet be=e ! com+ ( ! great & dreadful day ( ! ,"l40 ,,fn#ce-c ,?us ,john 7,elijah71 s5t 8be=e ! com+ 4 4 4 ( ! ,"l10 0 born slightly e>li] to s]ve z a h]ald = ,*ri/4 ,an angel appe>$ to ,za*>ias ! fa!r to te/ify t 8 com+ son ,john w\ld be no o!r ?an ,elijah 7,elias74 8,b ! angel said unto him1 ,fe> n1 ,za*>ias3 = ?y pray] is he>d2 & ?y wife ,elisabe? %all be> !e a son1 & ?\ %alt call 8 "n ,john4 4 4 4 ,& _m ( ! *ildr5 ( ,israel %all he turn to ! ,"l _! ,god4 ,& he %all g be=e him ,,fn#ce-d ,,9 ,,! ,,_s ,,& ,,p[] ,,( ,,elias1 to turn ! he>ts ( ! fa!rs to ! *ildr51 & ! disob$i5t to ! wisdom ( ! j2 to make ready a p prep>$ = ! ,"l40 ,,fn#ce-e ,jesus twice unequivocally id5tifi$ ,elijah 7,elias7 z ,john3 8,elias is come already1 & !y knew him n4 4 4 4 ,!n ! disciples und]/ood t he spake unto !m ( ,john ! ,bapti/40 ,,fn#ce-f ,aga91 ,*ri/ says3 8,= all ! prophets & ! law prophesi$ until ,john4 ,& if ye w receive x1 ?is is ,elias1 :i* 0 = to come40 ,,fn#ce-g ,:5 ,john d5i$ t he 0 ,elias 7,elijah71 ,,fn#ce-h he meant t 9 ! humble g>b ( ,john he came no long] 9 ! outw>d elevation ( ,elijah ! great guru4 ,9 8 =m] inc>nation he _h giv5 ! 8mantle0 ( 8 glory & 8 spiritual weal? to 8 disciple ,eli%a4 8,& ,eli%a said1 ,i pray !e1 let a d\ble portion ( ?y _s be ^u me4 ,& he said1 ,?\ ha/ ask$ a h>d ?+3 nev]!less1 if ?\ see me :5 ,i am tak5 f !e1 x %all be s unto !e4 4 4 4 ,& he took ! ,,mantle ( ,elijah t fell f him40 ,,fn#ce-i ,! roles became rev]s$1 because ,elijah-,john 0 no long] ne$$ to be ! o/5sible guru ( ,eli%a-,jesus1 n[ p]fect$ 9 div9e realization4 ,:5 ,*ri/ 0 transfigur$ on ! m\nta9 ,,fn#ce-aj x 0 8 guru ,elias1 ) ,moses1 :om he saw4 ,aga91 9 8 h\r ( extremity on ! cross1 ,jesus cri$ out ! div9e "n3 8,,eli1 ,,eli1 ,,lama ,,saba*?ani8 t is to say1 ,my ,god1 my ,god1 :y ha/ ?\ =sak5 me8 ,"s ( !m t /ood !re1 :5 !y he>d t1 said1 ,?is man calle? = ,elias4 4 4 4 ,let u see :e!r ,elias w come to save him40 ,,fn#ce-aa ,! et]nal bond ( guru & disciple t exi/$ betwe5 ,john & ,jesus 0 pres5t also = ,babaji & ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,) t5d] solicitude ! dea?less guru swam ! ,le!an wat]s t swirl$ betwe5 ! la/ two lives ( 8 *ela1 & guid$ ! successive /eps tak5 by ! *ild & !n by ! man ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,x 0 n until ! disciple _h rea*$ 8 ?irty-?ird ye> t ,babaji deem$ ! "t to be ripe to op5ly ree/abli% ! nev]-sev]$ l9k4 ,!n1 aft] _! brief meet+ ne> ,ranikhet1 ! selfless ma/] bani%$ 8 de>ly-belov$ disciple f ! little m\nta9 gr\p1 releas+ him = an outw>d _w mission4 8,my son1 ,i %all come :5ev] y ne$ me40 ,:at mortal lov] c be/[ t inf9ite promise8 ,unkn[n to society 9 g5]al1 a great spiritual r5aissance began to fl[ f a remote corn] ( ,b5>es4 ,j z ! fragrance ( fl[]s _c be suppress$1 s ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 quietly liv+ z an ideal h\sehold]1 c\ld n hide 8 innate glory4 ,sl[ly1 f e "p ( ,india1 ! devotee-bees s\ght ! div9e nect> ( ! lib]at$ ma/]4 ,! ,engli% (fice sup]9t5d5t 0 "o ( ! fir/ to notice a /range transc5d5tal *ange 9 8 employee1 :om he ende>+ly call$ 8,ec/atic ,babu40 8,sir1 y seem sad4 ,:at is ! tr\ble80 ,lahiri ,mahasaya made ?is sympa!tic inquiry "o morn+ to 8 employ]4 8,my wife 9 ,engl& is critically ill4 ,i am torn by anxiety40 8,i %all get y "s ^w ab\t h]40 ,lahiri ,mahasaya left ! room & sat = a %ort "t 9 a seclud$ spot4 ,on 8 return he smil$ consol+ly4 8,y\r wife is improv+2 %e is n[ writ+ y a lett]40 ,! omnisci5t yogi quot$ "s p>ts ( ! missive4 8,ec/atic ,babu1 ,i already "k t y are no ord9>y man4 ,yet ,i am unable to believe t1 at w1 y c bani% "t & space60 ,! promis$ lett] f9ally arriv$4 ,! a/\nd$ sup]9t5d5t f\nd t x conta9$ n only ! good news ( 8 wife's recov]y1 b also ! same phrases :i*1 weeks e>li]1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h repeat$4 ,! wife came to ,india "s mon?s lat]4 ,%e visit$ ! (fice1 :]e ,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 quietly sitt+ at 8 desk4 ,! woman approa*$ him rev]5tly4 8,sir10 %e said1 8x 0 y\r =m1 halo$ 9 glori\s light1 t ,i beheld mon?s ago by my sickb$ 9 ,london4 ,at t mom5t ,i 0 completely heal$6 ,soon aft]1 ,i 0 able to und]take ! long ocean voyage to ,india40 ,day aft] day1 "o or two devotees bes\ght ! sublime guru = ,,kriya initiation4 ,9 addition to ^! spiritual duties1 & to ^? ( 8 bus9ess & family life1 ! great ma/] took an en?usia/ic int]e/ 9 education4 ,he organiz$ _m /udy gr\ps1 & play$ an active "p 9 ! gr[? ( a l>ge high s*ool 9 ! ,b5galitola section ( ,b5>es4 ,8 regul> disc\rses on ! scriptures came to be call$ 8 8,,gita ,assembly10 eag]ly att5d$ by _m tru?-seek]s4 ,by ^! manifold activities1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya s\ght to answ] ! common *all5ge3 8,aft] p]=m+ "o's bus9ess & social duties1 :]e is ! "t = devotional m$itation80 ,! h>moni\sly balanc$ life ( ! great h\sehold]-guru became ! sil5t inspiration ( ?\s&s ( que/ion+ he>ts4 ,e>n+ only a mode/ sal>y1 ?rifty1 uno/5tati\s1 accessible to all1 ! ma/] c>ri$ on naturally & happily 9 ! pa? ( worldly life4 ,?\gh ensconc$ 9 ! seat ( ! ,supreme ,"o1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya %[$ rev]5ce to all m51 irrespective ( _! diff]+ m]its4 ,:5 8 devotees salut$ him1 he b[$ 9 turn to !m4 ,) a *ildlike humility1 ! ma/] (t5 t\*$ ! feet ( o!rs1 b seldom all[$ !m to pay him simil> honor1 ev5 ?\gh su* obeisance t[>d ! guru is an anci5t ,ori5tal cu/om4 ,a significant feature ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's life 0 8 gift ( ,,kriya initiation to ^? ( e fai?4 ,n ,h9dus only1 b ,moslems & ,*ri/ians 7 among 8 =emo/ disciples4 ,moni/s & duali/s1 ^? ( all fai?s or ( no e/abli%$ fai?1 7 imp>tially receiv$ & in/ruct$ by ! univ]sal guru4 ,"o ( 8 highly advanc$ *elas 0 ,abdul ,gufoor ,khan1 a ,mohamm$an4 ,x %[s great c\rage on ! "p ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya t1 al?\gh a high-ca/e ,brahm91 he tri$ 8 utmo/ to dissolve ! rigid ca/e bigotry ( 8 "t4 ,^? f e walk ( life f\nd %elt] "u ! ma/]'s omnipres5t w+s4 ,l all ,god-inspir$ prophets1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya gave new hope to ! outca/es & d[n-trodd5 ( society4 8,always rememb] t y belong to no "o1 & no "o belongs to y4 ,reflect t "s day y w sudd5ly h to leave ev]y?+ 9 ?is _w-s make ! acqua9tance%ip ( ,god n[10 ! great guru told 8 disciples4 8,prep>e y\rself = ! com+ a/ral j\rney ( dea? by daily rid+ 9 ! balloon ( ,god-p]ception4 ,?r\gh delusion y are p]ceiv+ y\rself z a bundle ( fle% & bones1 :i* at be/ is a ne/ ( tr\bles4 ,,fn#ce-ab ,m$itate unceas+ly1 t y may quickly behold y\rself z ! ,inf9ite ,ess5ce1 free f e =m ( mis]y4 ,cease be+ a prison] ( ! body2 us+ ! secret key ( ,,kriya1 le>n to escape into ,_s40 ,illu/ration3 ,,lahiri ,,mahasaya1 ,disciple ( ,babaji & ,guru ( ,sri ,yuktesw>--see lahiri4jpg ,! great guru enc\rag$ 8 v>i\s /ud5ts to adh]e to ! good traditional discipl9e ( _! own fai?4 ,/ress+ ! all-inclusive nature ( ,,kriya z a practical te*nique ( lib]ation1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya !n gave 8 *elas lib]ty to express _! lives 9 con=mance ) environm5t & up br++4 8,a ,moslem %\ld p]=m 8 ,,namaj ,,fn#ce-ac wor%ip f\r times daily10 ! ma/] po9t$ out4 8,f\r times daily a ,h9du %\ld sit 9 m$itation4 ,a ,*ri/ian %\ld g d[n on 8 knees f\r times daily1 pray+ to ,god & !n read+ ! ,bible40 ,) wise disc]nm5t ! guru guid$ 8 foll[]s into ! pa?s ( ,,bhakti 7devotion71 ,,k>ma 7action71 ,,jnana 7wisdom71 or ,,raja 7royal or complete7 ,,yogas1 accord+ to ea* man's natural t5d5cies4 ,! ma/]1 :o 0 sl[ to give 8 p]mission to devotees wi%+ to ent] ! =mal pa? ( monkhood1 always caution$ !m to fir/ reflect well on ! au/]ities ( ! mona/ic life4 ,! great guru taught 8 disciples to avoid !oretical discussion ( ! scriptures4 8,he only is wise :o devotes himself to realiz+1 n read+ only1 ! anci5t revelations10 he said4 8,solve all y\r problems ?r\gh m$itation4 ,,fn#ce-ad ,ex*ange unpr(itable religi\s speculations = actual ,god-contact4 ,cle> y\r m9d ( dogmatic !ological debris2 let 9 ! fre%1 heal+ wat]s ( direct p]ception4 ,attune y\rself to ! active inn] ,guidance2 ! ,div9e ,voice has ! answ] to e dilemma ( life4 ,?\gh man's +5uity = gett+ himself into tr\ble appe>s to be endless1 ! ,inf9ite ,succor is no less res\rceful40 ,! ma/]'s omnipres5ce 0 demon/rat$ "o day be=e a gr\p ( disciples :o 7 li/5+ to 8 exposition ( ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita4 ,z he 0 expla9+ ! mean+ ( ,,kuta/ha ,,*aitanya or ! ,*ri/ ,consci\sness 9 all vibratory creation1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya sudd5ly gasp$ & cri$ out3 8,i am dr[n+ 9 ! bodies ( _m s\ls (f ! coa/ ( ,japan60 ,! next morn+ ! *elas read a newspap] acc\nt ( ! dea? ( _m p ^: %ip _h f\nd]$ ! prec$+ day ne> ,japan4 ,! di/ant disciples ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya 7 (t5 made aw>e ( 8 enfold+ pres5ce4 8,i am ev] ) ^? :o practice ,,kriya10 he said consol+ly to *elas :o c\ld n rema9 ne> him4 8,i w guide y to ! ,cosmic ,home ?r\gh y\r enl>g+ p]ceptions40 ,swami ,satyan&a 0 told by a devotee t1 unable to g to ,b5>es1 ! man _h nev]!less receiv$ precise ,,kriya initiation 9 a dream4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h appe>$ to in/ruct ! *ela 9 answ] to 8 pray]s4 ,if a disciple neglect$ any ( 8 worldly obligations1 ! ma/] w\ld g5tly correct & discipl9e him4 8,lahiri ,mahasaya's words 7 mild & heal+1 ev5 :5 he 0 =c$ to speak op5ly ( a *ela's faults10 ,sri ,yuktesw> once told me4 ,he add$ ruefully1 8,no disciple ev] fl$ f our ma/]'s b>bs40 ,i c\ld n help laugh+1 b ,i tru?fully assur$ ,sri ,yuktesw> t1 %>p or n1 8 e ^w 0 music to my e>s4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya c>efully grad$ ,,kriya into f\r progressive initiations4 ,,fn#ce-ae ,he be/[$ ! ?ree high] te*niques only aft] ! devotee _h manife/$ def9ite spiritual progress4 ,"o day a c]ta9 *ela1 conv9c$ t 8 wor? 0 n be+ duly evaluat$1 gave voice to 8 discont5t4 8,ma/]10 he said1 8surely ,i am ready n[ = ! second initiation40 ,at ?is mom5t ! door op5$ to admit a humble disciple1 ,br9da ,bhagat4 ,he 0 a ,b5>es po/man4 8,br9da1 sit by me "h40 ,! great guru smil$ at him affectionately4 8,tell me1 are y ready = ! second te*nique ( ,,kriya80 ,! little po/man fold$ 8 h&s 9 supplication4 8,gurudeva10 he said 9 al>m1 8no m initiations1 please6 ,h[ c ,i assimilate any high] tea*+s8 ,i h come today to ask y\r bless+s1 because ! fir/ div9e ,,kriya has fill$ me ) su* intoxication t ,i _c deliv] my lett]s60 8,already ,br9da swims 9 ! sea ( ,_s40 ,at ^! words f ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 8 o!r disciple hung 8 head4 8,ma/]10 he said1 8,i see ,i h be5 a poor workman1 f9d+ fault ) my tools40 ,! po/man1 :o 0 an un$ucat$ man1 lat] develop$ 8 insight ?r\gh ,,kriya to su* an ext5t t s*ol>s occasionally s\ght 8 int]pretation on involv$ scriptural po9ts4 ,innoc5t alike ( s9 & syntax1 little ,br9da won r5[n 9 ! doma9 ( le>n$ pundits4 ,besides ! num]\s ,b5>es disciples ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 hundr$s came to him f di/ant p>ts ( ,india4 ,he himself travel$ to ,b5gal on sev]al occasions1 visit+ at ! homes ( ! fa!rs-9-law ( 8 two sons4 ,?us bless$ by 8 pres5ce1 ,b5gal became honeycomb$ ) small ,,kriya gr\ps4 ,p>ticul>ly 9 ! di/ricts ( ,kri%nag> & ,bi%nupur1 _m sil5t devotees to ?is day h kept ! invisible curr5t ( spiritual m$itation fl[+4 ,among _m sa9ts :o receiv$ ,,kriya f ,lahiri ,mahasaya may be m5tion$ ! illu/ri\s ,swami ,vhask>an&a ,s>aswati ( ,b5>es1 & ! ,deog>h ascetic ( high /ature1 ,balan&a ,brahma*>i4 ,= a "t ,lahiri ,mahasaya s]v$ z private tutor to ! son ( ,mah>aja ,isw>i ,n>ayan ,s9ha ,bahadur ( ,b5>es4 ,recogniz+ ! ma/]'s spiritual atta9m5t1 ! mah>aja1 z well z 8 son1 s\ght ,,kriya initiation1 z did ! ,mah>aja ,jot9dra ,mohan ,?akur4 ,a numb] ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's disciples ) influ5tial worldly position 7 desir\s ( exp&+ ! ,,kriya circle by publicity4 ,! guru refus$ 8 p]mission4 ,"o *ela1 ! royal physician to ! ,"l ( ,b5>es1 />t$ an organiz$ ef=t to spread ! ma/]'s "n z 8,ka%i ,baba0 7,exalt$ ,"o ( ,b5>es74 ,,fn#ce-af ,aga9 ! guru =bade x4 8,let ! fragrance ( ! ,,kriya fl[] be waft$ naturally1 )\t any display10 he said4 8,its se$s w take root 9 ! soil ( spiritually f]tile he>ts40 ,al?\gh ! great ma/] did n adopt ! sy/em ( prea*+ ?r\gh ! mod]n m$ium ( an organization1 or ?r\gh ! pr9t+ press1 he knew t ! p[] ( 8 message w\ld rise l a resi/less flood1 inundat+ by its own =ce ! banks ( human m9ds4 ,! *ang$ & purifi$ lives ( devotees 7 ! simple gu>antees ( ! dea?less vitality ( ,,kriya4 ,9 #ahhf1 tw5ty-five ye>s aft] 8 ,ranikhet initiation1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 retir$ on a p5sion4 ,,fn#ce-ag ,) 8 availability 9 ! daytime1 disciples s\ght him out 9 ev]-increas+ numb]s4 ,! great guru n[ sat 9 sil5ce mo/ ( ! "t1 lock$ 9 ! tranquil lotus po/ure4 ,he seldom left 8 little p>lor1 ev5 = a walk or to visit o!r p>ts ( ! h\se4 ,a quiet /ream ( *elas arriv$1 almo/ ceaselessly1 = a ,,d>%an 7holy sight7 ( ! guru4 ,to ! awe ( all behold]s1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya's habitual physiological /ate exhibit$ ! sup]human features ( brea?lessness1 sleeplessness1 cessation ( pulse & he>tbeat1 calm eyes unbl9k+ = h\rs1 & a pr(\nd aura ( peace4 ,no visitors dep>t$ )\t upliftm5t ( _s2 all knew !y _h receiv$ ! sil5t bless+ ( a true man ( ,god4 ,! ma/] n[ p]mitt$ 8 disciple1 ,pan*anon ,bhatta*>ya1 to op5 an 8,arya ,mission ,in/itution0 9 ,calcutta4 ,"h ! sa9tly disciple spread ! message ( ,,kriya ,,yoga1 & prep>$ = public b5efit c]ta9 yogic h]bal ,,fn#ce-ah m$ic9es4 ,9 accordance ) anci5t cu/om1 ! ma/] gave to p 9 g5]al a ,,neem ,,fn#ce-ai oil = ! cure ( v>i\s diseases4 ,:5 ! guru reque/$ a disciple to di/il ! oil1 he c\ld easily accompli% ! task4 ,if anyone else tri$1 he w\ld enc\nt] /range difficulties1 f9d+ t ! m$ic9al oil _h almo/ evaporat$ aft] go+ ?r\gh ! requir$ di/ill+ processes4 ,evid5tly ! ma/]'s bless+ 0 a necess>y +r$i5t4 ,illu/ration3--lmwrit+4jpg ,lahiri ,mahasaya's h&writ+ & signature1 9 ,b5gali script1 are %[n above4 ,! l9es occur 9 a lett] to a *ela2 ! great ma/] int]prets a ,sanskrit v]se z foll[s3 8,he :o has atta9$ a /ate ( calmness :]e9 8 eyelids d n bl9k1 has a*iev$ ,,sambhabi ,,mudra40 7,,sign$7 8,,sri ,,%yama ,,*>an ,,deva ,,%>man0 ,! ,arya ,mission ,in/itution und]took ! publication ( _m ( ! guru's scriptural comm5t>ies4 ,l ,jesus & o!r great prophets1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya himself wrote no books1 b 8 p5etrat+ int]pretations 7 record$ & arrang$ by v>i\s disciples4 ,"s ( ^! volunt>y amanu5ses 7 m disc]n+ ?an o!rs 9 correctly convey+ ! pr(\nd insight ( ! guru2 yet1 on ! :ole1 _! ef=ts 7 successful4 ,?r\gh _! zeal1 ! _w possesses unp>allel$ comm5t>ies by ,lahiri ,mahasaya on tw5ty-six anci5t scriptures4 ,sri ,an&a ,mohan ,lahiri1 a gr&son ( ! ma/]1 has writt5 an int]e/+ booklet on ,,kriya4 8,! text ( ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita is a "p ( ! great epic1 ! ,,mahabh>ata1 :i* possesses sev]al knot-po9ts 7,,vyas-,,kutas710 ,sri ,an&a wrote4 8,keep ^? knot-po9ts unque/ion$1 & we f9d no?+ b my?ical /ories ( a peculi> & easily-misund]/ood type4 ,keep ^? knot-po9ts unexpla9$1 & we h lo/ a sci5ce :i* ! ,ea/ has pres]v$ ) sup]human pati5ce aft] a que/ ( ?\s&s ( ye>s ( exp]im5t4 ,,fn#ce-bj ,x 0 ! comm5t>ies ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya :i* br\ght to light1 cle> ( allegories1 ! v sci5ce ( religion t _h be5 s clev]ly put out ( sight 9 ! riddle ( scriptural lett]s & imag]y4 ,no long] a m]e un9telligible juggl]y ( words1 ! o!rwise unmean+ =mulas ( ,v$ic wor%ip h be5 prov$ by ! ma/] to be full ( sci5tific significance4 4 4 4 8,we "k t man is usually helpless aga9/ ! insurg5t sway ( evil passions1 b ^! are r5d]$ p[]less & man f9ds no motive 9 _! indulg5ce :5 !re dawns on him a consci\sness ( sup]ior & la/+ bliss ?r\gh ,,kriya4 ,"h ! give-up1 ! negation ( ! l[] passions1 syn*ronizes ) a take-up1 ! ass]tion ( a beatitude4 ,)\t su* a c\rse1 hundr$s ( moral maxims :i* run 9 m]e negatives are useless to u4 8,our eag]ness = worldly activity kills 9 u ! s5se ( spiritual awe4 ,we _c compreh5d ! ,great ,life beh9d all names & =ms1 j because sci5ce br+s home to u h[ we c use ! p[]s ( nature2 ?is famili>ity has br$ a contempt = h] ultimate secrets4 ,our relation ) nature is "o ( practical bus9ess4 ,we tease h]1 s to speak1 to "k h[ %e c be us$ to s]ve our purposes2 we make use ( h] en]gies1 ^: ,s\rce yet rema9s unkn[n4 ,9 sci5ce our relation ) nature is "o t exi/s betwe5 a man & 8 s]vant1 or 9 a philosophical s5se %e is l a captive 9 ! witness box4 ,we cross-exam9e h]1 *all5ge h]1 & m9utely weigh h] evid5ce 9 human scales :i* _c measure h] hidd5 values4 ,on ! o!r h&1 :5 ! self is 9 communion ) a high] p[]1 nature automatically obeys1 )\t /ress or /ra91 ! w ( man4 ,?is ef=tless comm& ov] nature is call$ #8miracul\s' by ! uncompreh5d+ mat]iali/4 8,! life ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya set an example :i* *ang$ ! errone\s notion t yoga is a my/]i\s practice4 ,e man may f9d a way ?r\gh ,,kriya to und]/& 8 prop] relation ) nature1 & to feel spiritual rev]5ce = all ph5om5a1 :e!r my/ical or ( ev]yday occurr5ce1 9 spite ( ! matt]-(-factness ( physical sci5ce4 ,,fn#ce-ba ,we mu/ be> 9 m9d t :at 0 my/ical a ?\s& ye>s ago is no long] s1 & :at is my/]i\s n[ may become lawfully intelligible a hundr$ ye>s h5ce4 ,x is ! ,inf9ite1 ! ,ocean ( ,p[]1 t is at ! back ( all manife/ations4 8,! law ( ,,kriya ,,yoga is et]nal4 ,x is true l ma!matics2 l ! simple rules ( addition & subtraction1 ! law ( ,,kriya c nev] be de/roy$4 ,burn to a%es all ! books on ma!matics1 ! logically-m9d$ w always r$iscov] su* tru?s2 de/roy all ! sacr$ books on yoga1 its fundam5tal laws w come out :5ev] !re appe>s a true yogi :o comprises )9 himself pure devotion & consequ5tly pure k40 ,j z ,babaji is among ! greate/ ( avat>s1 a ,,mahavat>1 & ,sri ,yuktesw> a ,,jnanavat> or ,inc>nation ( ,wisdom1 s ,lahiri ,mahasaya may ju/ly be call$ ,,yogavat>1 or ,inc>nation ( ,yoga4 ,by ! /&>ds ( bo? qualitative & quantitative good1 he elevat$ ! spiritual level ( society4 ,9 8 p[] to raise 8 close disciples to ,*ri/like /ature & 9 8 wide dissem9ation ( tru? among ! masses1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya ranks among ! saviors ( mank9d4 ,8 uniqu5ess z a prophet lies 9 8 practical /ress on a def9ite me?od1 ,,kriya1 op5+ = ! fir/ "t ! doors ( yoga fre$om to all m54 ,ap>t f ! miracles ( 8 own life1 surely ! ,,yogavat> rea*$ ! z5i? ( all wond]s 9 r$uc+ ! anci5t complexities ( yoga to an effective simplicity n beyond ! ord9>y grasp4 ,9 ref]5ce to miracles1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya (t5 said1 8,! op]ation ( subtle laws :i* are unkn[n to p 9 g5]al %\ld n be publicly discuss$ or publi%$ )\t due discrim9ation40 ,if 9 ^! pages ,i h appe>$ to fl\t 8 caution>y words1 x is because he has giv5 me an inw>d reassurance4 ,also1 9 record+ ! lives ( ,babaji1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 & ,sri ,yuktesw>1 ,i h ?\ght x advisable to omit _m true miracul\s /ories1 :i* c\ld h>dly h be5 includ$ )\t writ+1 also1 an explanatory volume ( ab/ruse philosophy4 ,new hope = new m56 8,div9e union10 ! ,,yogavat> proclaim$1 8is possible ?r\gh self-ef=t1 & is n dep5d5t on !ological beliefs or on ! arbitr>y w ( a ,cosmic ,dictator40 ,?r\gh use ( ! ,,kriya key1 p]sons :o _c br+ !mselves to believe 9 ! div9ity ( any man w behold at la/ ! full div9ity ( _! own selves4 ,,fn#ce-a ,,mat!w #c3ae4 ,,fn#ce-b ,_m ,biblical passages reveal t ! law ( re9c>nation 0 und]/ood & accept$4 ,re9c>national cycles are a m reasonable explanation = ! diff]5t /ates ( evolution 9 :i* mank9d is f\nd1 ?an ! common ,we/]n !ory :i* assumes t some?+ 7consci\sness ( egoity7 came out ( no?+1 exi/$ ) v>y+ degrees ( lu/ihood = ?irty or n9ety ye>s1 & !n return$ to ! orig9al void4 ,! inconceivable nature ( su* a void is a problem to delight ! he>t ( a m$ieval ,s*oolman4 ,,fn#ce-c ,,mala*i #d3e4 ,,fn#ce-d 8,be=e him10 i4e41 8be=e ! ,"l40 ,,fn#ce-e ,,luke #a3ac-ag4 ,,fn#ce-f ,,mat!w #ag3ab-ac4 ,,fn#ce-g ,,mat!w #aa3ac-ad4 ,,fn#ce-h ,,john #a3ba4 ,,fn#ce-i ,,ii ,,k+s #b3i-ad4 ,,fn#ce-aj ,,mat!w #ag3c4 ,,fn#ce-aa ,,mat!w #bg3df-di4 ,,fn#ce-ab 8,h[ _m sorts ( dea? are 9 our bodies6 ,no?+ is !re9 b dea?40-,,m>t9 ,,lu!r1 ,,9 8,,table-,,talk40 ,,fn#ce-ac ,! *ief pray] ( ! ,mohamm$ans1 usually repeat$ f\r or five times daily4 ,,fn#ce-ad 8,seek tru? 9 m$itation1 n 9 moldy books4 ,look 9 ! sky to f9d ! moon1 n 9 ! pond40-,,p]sian ,,prov]b4 ,,fn#ce-ae ,z ,,kriya ,,yoga is capable ( _m subdivisions1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya wisely sift$ out f\r /eps :i* he disc]n$ to be ^? :i* conta9$ ! ess5tial m>r[1 & :i* 7 ( ! highe/ value 9 actual practice4 ,,fn#ce-af ,o!r titles be/[$ on ,lahiri ,mahasaya by 8 disciples 7 ,,yogib> 7greate/ ( yogis71 ,,yogiraj 7k+ ( yogis71 & ,,munib> 7greate/ ( sa9ts71 to :i* ,i h add$ ,,yogavat> 7inc>nation ( yoga74 ,,fn#ce-ag ,he _h giv51 altoge!r1 ?irty-five ye>s ( s]vice 9 "o dep>tm5t ( ! gov]nm5t4 ,,fn#ce-ah ,va/ h]bal k is f\nd 9 anci5t ,sanskrit treatises4 ,himalayan h]bs 7 employ$ 9 a rejuv5ation treatm5t :i* ar\s$ ! att5tion ( ! _w 9 #aich :5 ! me?od 0 us$ on ,pundit ,madan ,mohan ,malaviya1 #gg-ye>-old ,vice-,*ancellor ( ,b5>es ,h9du ,univ]sity4 ,to a rem>kable ext5t1 ! not$ s*ol> rega9$ 9 #de days 8 heal?1 /r5g?1 memory1 normal eyesight2 indications ( a ?ird set ( tee? appe>$1 :ile all wr9kles vani%$4 ,! h]bal treatm5t1 kn[n z ,,kaya ,,kalpa1 is "o ( #hj rejuv5ation me?ods outl9$ 9 ,h9du ,,ayurv$a or m$ical sci5ce4 ,pundit ,malaviya und]w5t ! treatm5t at ! h&s ( ,sri ,kalpa*>ya ,swami ,be%undasji1 :o claims #agff z 8 bir? ye>4 ,he possesses docum5ts prov+ him to be m ?an #ajj ye>s old2 ,,associat$ ,,press report]s rem>k$ t he look$ ab\t #dj4 ,anci5t ,h9du treatises divid$ m$ical sci5ce into #h bran*es3 ,,salya 7surg]y72 ,,salakya 7diseases above ! neck72 ,,kaya*ikitsa 7m$ic9e prop]72 ,,bhutavidya 7m5tal diseases72 ,,kaum>a 7c>e ( infancy72 ,,agada 7toxicology72 ,,rasayana 7longevity72 ,,vagik>ana 7tonics74 ,v$ic physicians us$ delicate surgical in/rum5ts1 employ$ pla/ic surg]y1 und]/ood m$ical me?ods to c\nt]act ! effects ( poison gas1 p]=m$ ,caes>ean sections & bra9 op]ations1 7 skill$ 9 dynamization ( drugs4 ,hippocrates1 fam\s physician ( ! #e? c5tury ,b4,c41 borr[$ mu* ( 8 mat]ia m$ica f ,h9du s\rces4 ,,fn#ce-ai ,! ,ea/ ,indian m>gosa tree4 ,its m$ic9al values h n[ become recogniz$ 9 ! ,we/1 :]e ! bitt] ,,neem b>k is us$ z a tonic1 & ! oil f se$s & fruit has be5 f\nd ( utmo/ wor? 9 ! treatm5t ( leprosy & o!r diseases4 ,,fn#ce-bj 8,a numb] ( seals rec5tly excavat$ f ar*aeological sites ( ! ,indus valley1 datable 9 ! ?ird mill5nium ,b4,c41 %[ figures seat$ 9 m$itative po/ures n[ us$ 9 ! sy/em ( ,yoga1 & w>rant ! inf]5ce t ev5 at t "t "s ( ! rudim5ts ( ,yoga 7 already kn[n4 ,we may n unreasonably draw ! conclusion t sy/ematic introspection ) ! aid ( /udi$ me?ods has be5 practic$ 9 ,india = five ?\s& ye>s4 4 4 4 ,india has develop$ c]ta9 valuable religi\s attitudes ( m9d & e?ical notions :i* are unique1 at lea/ 9 ! wid5ess ( _! application to life4 ,"o ( ^! has be5 a tol]ance 9 que/ions ( intellectual belief-doctr9e-t is amaz+ to ! ,we/1 :]e = _m c5turies h]esy-hunt+ 0 common1 & bloody w>s betwe5 nations ov] sect>ian rivalries 7 frequ5t40-,extracts f an article by ,pr(essor ,w4 ,norman ,br[n 9 ! ,may1 #aici issue ( ! ,,bullet9 ( ! ,am]ican ,c\ncil ( ,le>n$ ,societies1 ,wa%+ton1 ,d4,c4 ,,fn#ce-ba ,"o ?9ks "h ( ,c>lyle's obs]vation 9 ,,s>tor ,,res>tus3 8,! man :o _c wond]1 :o does n habitually wond] 7& wor%ip71 7 he presid5t ( innum]able ,royal ,societies & c>ri$ 4 4 4 ! epitome ( all laboratories & obs]vatories1 ) _! results1 9 8 s+le head1-is b a pair ( spectacles beh9d :i* !re is no eye40 ,,*apt]3 #cf ,,babaji',s ,,int]e/ ,,9 ,,! ,,we/ 8,ma/]1 did y ev] meet ,babaji80 ,x 0 a calm summ] night 9 ,s]ampore2 ! l>ge />s ( ! tropics gleam$ ov] our heads z ,i sat by ,sri ,yuktesw>'s side on ! second-/ory balcony ( ! h]mitage4 8,yes40 ,ma/] smil$ at my direct "q2 8 eyes lit ) rev]5ce4 8,?ree times ,i h be5 bless$ by ! sight ( ! dea?less guru4 ,our fir/ meet+ 0 9 ,allahabad at a ,,kumbha ,,mela40 ,! religi\s fairs held 9 ,india s9ce "t immemorial are kn[n z ,,kumbha ,,melas2 !y h kept spiritual goals 9 con/ant sight ( ! multitude4 ,dev\t ,h9dus ga!r by ! millions e six ye>s to meet ?\s&s ( sadhus1 yogis1 swamis1 & ascetics ( all k9ds4 ,_m are h]mits :o nev] leave _! seclud$ haunts except to att5d ! ,,melas & be/[ _! bless+s on worldly m5 & wom54 8,i 0 n a swami at ! "t ,i met ,babaji10 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on4 8,b ,i _h already receiv$ ,,kriya initiation f ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,he enc\rag$ me to att5d ! ,,mela :i* 0 conv5+ 9 ,janu>y1 #ahid at ,allahabad4 ,x 0 my fir/ exp]i5ce ( a ,,kumbha2 ,i felt slightly daz$ by ! clamor & surge ( ! cr[d4 ,9 my se>*+ gazes ar\nd ,i saw no illum9$ face ( a ma/]4 ,pass+ a bridge on ! bank ( ! ,ganges1 ,i notic$ an acqua9tance /&+ ne>-by1 8 begg+ b[l ext5d$4 8#8,oh1 ?is fair is no?+ b a *aos ( noise & begg>s1' ,i ?\ght 9 disillusionm5t4 #8,i wond] if ,we/]n sci5ti/s1 pati5tly enl>g+ ! realms ( k = ! practical good ( mank9d1 are n m pleas+ to ,god ?an ^! idl]s :o pr(ess religion b conc5trate on alms4' 8,my sm\ld]+ reflections on social re=m 7 int]rupt$ by ! voice ( a tall sannyasi :o halt$ be=e me4 8#8,sir1' he said1 #8a sa9t is call+ y4' 8#8,:o is he8' 8#8,come & see = y\rself4' 8,hesitantly foll[+ ?is laconic advice1 ,i soon f\nd myself ne> a tree ^: bran*es 7 %elt]+ a guru ) an attractive gr\p ( disciples4 ,! ma/]1 a bright unusual figure1 ) sp>kl+ d>k eyes1 rose at my approa* & embrac$ me4 8#8,welcome1 ,swamiji1' he said affectionately4 8#8,sir1' ,i repli$ emphatically1 #8,i am ,,n a swami4' 8#8,^? on :om ,i am div9ely direct$ to be/[ ! title ( 8swami0 nev] ca/ x (f4' ,! sa9t address$ me simply1 b deep conviction ( tru? rang 9 8 words2 ,i 0 engulf$ 9 an in/ant wave ( spiritual bless+4 ,smil+ at my sudd5 elevation into ! anci5t mona/ic ord]1 ,,fn#cf-a ,i b[$ at ! feet ( ! obvi\sly great & angelic be+ 9 human =m :o _h ?us honor$ me4 8,babaji-= x 0 inde$ he-motion$ me to a seat ne> him "u ! tree4 ,he 0 /rong & "y1 & look$ l ,lahiri ,mahasaya2 yet ! resemblance did n /rike me1 ev5 ?\gh ,i _h (t5 he>d ( ! extraord9>y simil>ities 9 ! appe>ance ( ! two ma/]s4 ,babaji possesses a p[] by :i* he c prev5t any specific ?\ght f aris+ 9 a p]son's m9d4 ,evid5tly ! great guru wi%$ me to be p]fectly natural 9 8 pres5ce1 n ov]aw$ by k ( 8 id5tity4 8#8,:at d y ?9k ( ! ,,kumbha ,,mela8' 8#8,i 0 greatly disappo9t$1 sir4' ,i add$ ha/ily1 #8,up until ! "t ,i met y4 ,someh[ sa9ts & ?is commotion don't seem to belong toge!r4' 8#8,*ild1' ! ma/] said1 ?\gh app>5tly ,i 0 ne>ly twice 8 own age1 #8= ! faults ( ! _m1 judge n ! :ole4 ,ev]y?+ on e>? is ( mix$ "*1 l a m+l+ ( s& & sug>4 ,be l ! wise ant :i* seizes only ! sug>1 & leaves ! s& unt\*$4 ,?\gh _m sadhus "h /ill w&] 9 delusion1 yet ! ,,mela is bless$ by a few m5 ( ,god-realization4' 8,9 view ( my own meet+ ) ?is exalt$ ma/]1 ,i quickly agre$ ) 8 obs]vation4 8#8,sir1' ,i comm5t$1 #8,i h be5 ?9k+ ( ! sci5tific m5 ( ! ,we/1 great] by f> 9 intellig5ce ?an mo/ p congregat$ "h1 liv+ 9 di/ant ,europe & ,am]ica1 pr(ess+ diff]5t cre$s1 & ignorant ( ! real values ( su* ,,melas z ! pres5t "o4 ,!y are ! m5 :o c\ld b5efit greatly by meet+s ) ,india's ma/]s4 ,b1 al?\gh high 9 intellectual atta9m5ts1 _m ,we/]n]s are w$d$ to rank mat]ialism4 ,o!rs1 fam\s 9 sci5ce & philosophy1 d n recognize ! ess5tial unity 9 religion4 ,_! cre$s s]ve z insurm\ntable b>ri]s t ?reat5 to sep>ate !m f u =ev]4' 8#8,i saw t y are int]e/$ 9 ! ,we/1 z well z ! ,ea/4' ,babaji's face beam$ ) approval4 #8,i felt ! pangs ( y\r he>t1 broad en\gh = all m51 :e!r ,ori5tal or ,occid5tal4 ,t is :y ,i summon$ y "h4 8#8,ea/ & ,we/ mu/ e/abli% a gold5 middle pa? ( activity & spirituality comb9$1' he cont9u$4 #8,india has mu* to le>n f ! ,we/ 9 mat]ial developm5t2 9 return1 ,india c tea* ! univ]sal me?ods by :i* ! ,we/ w be able to base its religi\s beliefs on ! un%akable f\ndations ( yogic sci5ce4 8#8,y1 ,swamiji1 h a "p to play 9 ! com+ h>moni\s ex*ange betwe5 ,ori5t & ,occid5t4 ,"s ye>s h5ce ,i %all s5d y a disciple :om y c tra9 = yoga dissem9ation 9 ! ,we/4 ,! vibrations !re ( _m spiritually seek+ s\ls come floodlike to me4 ,i p]ceive pot5tial sa9ts 9 ,am]ica & ,europe1 wait+ to be awak5$4'0 ,at ?is po9t 9 8 /ory1 ,sri ,yuktesw> turn$ 8 gaze fully on m9e4 8,my son10 he said1 smil+ 9 ! moonlight1 8y are ! disciple t1 ye>s ago1 ,babaji promis$ to s5d me40 ,i 0 happy to le>n t ,babaji _h direct$ my /eps to ,sri ,yuktesw>1 yet x 0 h>d = me to visualize myself 9 ! remote ,we/1 away f my belov$ guru & ! simple h]mitage peace4 8,babaji !n spoke ( ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita10 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on4 8,to my a/oni%m5t1 he indicat$ by a few words ( praise t he 0 aw>e ( ! fact t ,i _h writt5 int]pretations on v>i\s ,,gita *apt]s4 8#8,at my reque/1 ,swamiji1 please und]take ano!r task1' ! great ma/] said4 #8,w y n write a %ort book on ! und]ly+ basic unity betwe5 ! ,*ri/ian & ,h9du scriptures8 ,%[ by p>allel ref]5ces t ! inspir$ sons ( ,god h spok5 ! same tru?s1 n[ obscur$ by m5's sect>ian diff]5ces4' 8#8,mah>aj1' ,,fn#cf-b ,i answ]$ diffid5tly1 #8:at a comm&6 ,%all ,i be able to fulfill x8' 8,babaji laugh$ s(tly4 #8,my son1 :y d y d\bt8' he said reassur+ly4 #8,inde$1 ,^: "w is all ?is1 & ,:o is ! ,do] ( all actions8 ,:atev] ! ,"l has made me say is b\nd to mat]ialize z tru?4' 8,i deem$ myself emp[]$ by ! bless+s ( ! sa9t1 & agre$ to write ! book4 ,feel+ reluctantly t ! p>t+-h\r _h arriv$1 ,i rose f my leafy seat4 8#8,d y "k ,lahiri8' ,,fn#cf-c ! ma/] inquir$4 #8,he is a great s\l1 isn't he8 ,tell him ( our meet+4' ,he !n gave me a message = ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 8,aft] ,i _h b[$ humbly 9 f>ewell1 ! sa9t smil$ b5ignly4 #8,:5 y\r book is f9i%$1 ,i %all pay y a visit1' he promis$4 #8,good-by = ! pres5t4' 8,i left ,allahabad ! foll[+ day & entra9$ = ,b5>es4 ,rea*+ my guru's home1 ,i p\r$ out ! /ory ( ! wond]ful sa9t at ! ,,kumbha ,,mela4 8#8,oh1 didn't y recognize him8' ,lahiri ,mahasaya's eyes 7 danc+ ) laught]4 #8,i see y c\ldn't1 = he prev5t$ y4 ,he is my incomp>able guru1 ! cele/ial ,babaji6' 8#8,babaji6' ,i repeat$1 awe/ruck4 #8,! ,yogi-,*ri/ ,babaji6 ,! invisible-visible savior ,babaji6 ,oh1 if ,i c\ld j recall ! pa/ & be once m 9 8 pres5ce1 to %[ my devotion at 8 lotus feet6' 8#8,nev] m9d1' ,lahiri ,mahasaya said consol+ly4 #8,he has promis$ to see y aga94' 8#8,gurudeva1 ! div9e ma/] ask$ me to give y a message4 8,tell ,lahiri10 he said1 8t ! /or$-up p[] = ?is life n[ runs l[2 x is ne>ly f9i%$40' 8,at my utt]ance ( ^! enigmatic words1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya's figure trembl$ z ?\gh t\*$ by a lightn+ curr5t4 ,9 an in/ant ev]y?+ ab\t him fell sil5t2 8 smil+ c\nt5ance turn$ incr$ibly /]n4 ,l a wood5 /atue1 somb] & immovable 9 its seat1 8 body became colorless4 ,i 0 al>m$ & bewild]$4 ,nev] 9 my life _h ,i se5 ?is joy\s s\l manife/ su* awful gravity4 ,! o!r disciples pres5t />$ appreh5sively4 8,?ree h\rs pass$ 9 utt] sil5ce4 ,!n ,lahiri ,mahasaya resum$ 8 natural1 *e]ful demeanor1 & spoke affectionately to ea* ( ! *elas4 ,ev]yone sigh$ 9 relief4 8,i realiz$ by my ma/]'s reaction t ,babaji's message _h be5 an unmi/akable signal by :i* ,lahiri ,mahasaya und]/ood t 8 body w\ld soon be unt5ant$4 ,8 awesome sil5ce prov$ t my guru _h in/antly controll$ 8 be+1 cut 8 la/ cord ( atta*m5t to ! mat]ial _w1 & fl$ to 8 ev]-liv+ id5tity 9 ,_s4 ,babaji's rem>k _h be5 8 way ( say+3 #8,i %all be ev] ) y4' 8,?\gh ,babaji & ,lahiri ,mahasaya 7 omnisci5t1 & _h no ne$ ( communicat+ ) ea* o!r ?r\gh me or any o!r int]m$i>y1 ! great ones (t5 condesc5d to play a "p 9 ! human drama4 ,occasionally !y transmit _! prophecies ?r\gh mess5g]s 9 an ord9>y way1 t ! f9al fulfillm5t ( _! words may infuse great] div9e fai? 9 a wide circle ( m5 :o lat] le>n ! /ory4 8,i soon left ,b5>es1 & set to "w 9 ,s]ampore on ! scriptural writ+s reque/$ by ,babaji10 ,sri ,yuktesw> cont9u$4 8,no soon] _h ,i begun my task ?an ,i 0 able to compose a poem d$icat$ to ! dea?less guru4 ,! melodi\s l9es fl[$ ef=tlessly f my p51 ?\gh nev] be=e _h ,i attempt$ ,sanskrit poetry4 8,9 ! quiet ( night ,i busi$ myself ov] a comp>ison ( ! ,bible & ! scriptures ( ,,sanatan ,,dh>ma4 ,,fn#cf-d ,quot+ ! words ( ! bless$ ,"l ,jesus1 ,i %[$ t 8 tea*+s 7 9 ess5ce "o ) ! revelations ( ! ,,v$as4 ,to my relief1 my book 0 f9i%$ 9 a %ort "t2 ,i realiz$ t ?is spe$y bless+ 0 due to ! grace ( my ,,p>am-,,guru-,,mah>aj4 ,,fn#cf-e ,! *apt]s fir/ appe>$ 9 ! ,,sadhusambad j\rnal2 lat] !y 7 privately pr9t$ z a book by "o ( my ,kidd]pore disciples4 8,! morn+ aft] ,i _h conclud$ my lit]>y ef=ts10 ,ma/] cont9u$1 8,i w5t to ! ,rai ,ghat "h to ba! 9 ! ,ganges4 ,! ghat 0 des]t$2 ,i /ood /ill = a:ile1 enjoy+ ! sunny peace4 ,aft] a dip 9 ! sp>kl+ wat]s1 ,i />t$ = home4 ,! only s\nd 9 ! sil5ce 0 t ( my ,ganges-dr5*$ clo?1 swi%-swa%+ ) e /ep4 ,z ,i pass$ beyond ! site ( ! l>ge banyan tree ne> ! riv] bank1 a /rong impulse urg$ me to look back4 ,!re1 "u ! %ade ( ! banyan1 & surr\nd$ by a few disciples1 sat ! great ,babaji6 8#8,greet+s1 ,swamiji6' ,! beautiful voice ( ! ma/] rang out to assure me ,i 0 n dream+4 #8,i see y h successfully complet$ y\r book4 ,z ,i promis$1 ,i am "h to ?ank y4' 8,) a fa/-beat+ he>t1 ,i pro/rat$ myself fully at 8 feet4 #8,p>am-guruji1' ,i said implor+ly1 #8w y & y\r *elas n honor my ne>-by home ) y\r pres5ce8' 8,! supreme guru smil+ly decl9$4 #8,no1 *ild1' he said1 #8we are p :o l ! %elt] ( trees2 ?is spot is q com=table4' 8#8,please t>ry a:ile1 ,ma/]4' ,i gaz$ entreat+ly at him4 #8,i %all be back at once ) "s special sweetmeats4' 8,:5 ,i return$ 9 a few m9utes ) a di% ( delicacies1 lo6 ! lordly banyan no long] %elt]$ ! cele/ial tr\pe4 ,i se>*$ all ar\nd ! ghat1 b 9 my he>t ,i knew ! little b& _h already fl$ on e!ric w+s4 8,i 0 deeply hurt4 #8,ev5 if we meet aga91 ,i w\ld n c>e to talk to him1' ,i assur$ myself4 #8,he 0 unk9d to leave me s sudd5ly4' ,?is 0 a wra? ( love1 ( c\rse1 & no?+ m4 8,a few mon?s lat] ,i visit$ ,lahiri ,mahasaya 9 ,b5>es4 ,z ,i ent]$ 8 little p>lor1 my guru smil$ 9 greet+4 8#8,welcome1 ,yuktesw>1' he said4 #8,did y j meet ,babaji at ! ?re%old ( my room8' 8#8,:y1 no1' ,i answ]$ 9 surprise4 8#8,come "h4' ,lahiri ,mahasaya t\*$ me g5tly on ! =ehead2 at once ,i beheld1 ne> ! door1 ! =m ( ,babaji1 bloom+ l a p]fect lotus4 8,i rememb]$ my old hurt1 & did n b[4 ,lahiri ,mahasaya look$ at me 9 a/oni%m5t4 8,! div9e guru gaz$ at me ) fa?omless eyes4 #8,y are annoy$ ) me4' 8#8,sir1 :y %\ldn't ,i be8' ,i answ]$4 #8,out ( ! air y came ) y\r magic gr\p1 & into ! ?9 air y vani%$4' 8#8,i told y ,i w\ld see y1 b didn't say h[ long ,i w\ld rema94' ,babaji laugh$ s(tly4 #8,y 7 full ( excitem5t4 ,i assure y t ,i 0 fairly ext+ui%$ 9 ! e!r by ! gu/ ( y\r re/lessness4' 8,i 0 in/antly satisfi$ by ?is unflatt]+ explanation4 ,i knelt at 8 feet2 ! supreme guru patt$ me k9dly on ! %\ld]4 8#8,*ild1 y mu/ m$itate m1' he said4 #8,y\r gaze is n yet faultless-y c\ld n see me hid+ beh9d ! sunlight4' ,) ^! words 9 ! voice ( a cele/ial flute1 ,babaji disappe>$ into ! hidd5 radiance4 8,t 0 "o ( my la/ visits to ,b5>es to see my guru10 ,sri ,yuktesw> conclud$4 8,ev5 z ,babaji _h =etold at ! ,,kumbha ,,mela1 ! h\sehold]-inc>nation ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya 0 draw+ to a close4 ,dur+ ! summ] ( #ahie 8 /alw>t body develop$ a small boil on ! back4 ,he prote/$ aga9/ lanc+2 he 0 work+ out 9 8 own fle% ! evil k>ma ( "s ( 8 disciples4 ,f9ally a few *elas became v insi/5t2 ! ma/] repli$ cryptically3 8#8,! body has to f9d a cause to g2 ,i w be agreeable to :atev] y want to d4' 8,a %ort "t lat] ! incomp>able guru gave up 8 body 9 ,b5>es4 ,no long] ne$ ,i seek him out 9 8 little p>lor2 ,i f9d e day ( my life bless$ by 8 omnipres5t guidance40 ,ye>s lat]1 f ! lips ( ,swami ,ke%aban&a1 ,,fn#cf-f an advanc$ disciple1 ,i he>d _m wond]ful details ab\t ! pass+ ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 8,a few days be=e my guru rel9qui%$ 8 body10 ,ke%aban&a told me1 8he mat]ializ$ himself be=e me z ,i sat 9 my h]mitage at ,h>dw>4 8#8,come at once to ,b5>es4' ,) ^! words ,lahiri ,mahasaya vani%$4 8,i entra9$ imm$iately = ,b5>es4 ,at my guru's home ,i f\nd _m disciples assembl$4 ,= h\rs t day ,,fn#cf-g ! ma/] exp\nd$ ! ,,gita2 !n he address$ u simply4 8#8,i am go+ home4' 8,sobs ( angui% broke out l an irresi/ible torr5t4 8#8,be com=t$2 ,i %all rise aga94' ,aft] ?is utt]ance ,lahiri ,mahasaya ?rice turn$ 8 body ar\nd 9 a circle1 fac$ ! nor? 9 8 lotus po/ure1 & glori\sly ent]$ ! f9al ,,maha-,,samadhi4 ,,fn#cf-h 8,lahiri ,mahasaya's beautiful body1 s de> to ! devotees1 0 cremat$ ) solemn h\sehold] rites at ,manik>nika ,ghat by ! holy ,ganges10 ,ke%aban&a cont9u$4 8,! foll[+ day1 at t5 o'clock 9 ! morn+1 :ile ,i 0 /ill 9 ,b5>es1 my room 0 suffus$ ) a great light4 ,lo6 be=e me /ood ! fle% & blood =m ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya6 ,x look$ exactly l 8 old body1 except t x appe>$ y\ng] & m radiant4 ,my div9e guru spoke to me4 8#8,ke%aban&a1' he said1 #8x is ,i4 ,f ! dis9tegrat$ atoms ( my cremat$ body1 ,i h resurrect$ a remodel$ =m4 ,my h\sehold] "w 9 ! _w is done2 b ,i d n leave ! e>? entirely4 ,h5ce=? ,i %all sp5d "s "t ) ,babaji 9 ! ,himalayas1 & ) ,babaji 9 ! cosmos4' 8,) a few words ( bless+ to me1 ! transc5d5t ma/] vani%$4 ,wondr\s inspiration fill$ my he>t2 ,i 0 uplift$ 9 ,_s ev5 z 7 ! disciples ( ,*ri/ & ,kabir ,,fn#cf-i :5 !y _h gaz$ on _! liv+ gurus aft] physical dea?4 8,:5 ,i return$ to my isolat$ ,h>dw> h]mitage10 ,ke%aban&a w5t on1 8,i c>ri$ ) me ! sacr$ a%es ( my guru4 ,i "k he has escap$ ! spatio-temporal cage2 ! bird ( omnipres5ce is fre$4 ,yet x com=t$ my he>t to en%r9e 8 sacr$ rema9s40 ,ano!r disciple :o 0 bless$ by ! sight ( 8 resurrect$ guru 0 ! sa9tly ,pan*anon ,bhatta*>ya1 f\nd] ( ! ,calcutta ,arya ,mission ,in/itution4 ,,fn#cf-aj ,i visit$ ,pan*anon at 8 ,calcutta home1 & li/5$ ) delight to ! /ory ( 8 _m ye>s ) ! ma/]4 ,9 conclusion1 he told me ( ! mo/ m>vel\s ev5t 9 8 life4 8,"h 9 ,calcutta10 ,pan*anon said1 8at t5 o'clock ( ! morn+ :i* foll[$ 8 cremation1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya appe>$ be=e me 9 liv+ glory40 ,swami ,pranaban&a1 ! 8sa9t ) two bodies10 also confid$ to me ! details ( 8 own sup]nal exp]i5ce4 8,a few days be=e ,lahiri ,mahasaya left 8 body10 ,pranaban&a told me at ! "t he visit$ my ,ran*i s*ool1 8,i receiv$ a lett] f him1 reque/+ me to come at once to ,b5>es4 ,i 0 delay$1 h[ev]1 & c\ld n leave imm$iately4 ,z ,i 0 9 ! mid/ ( my travel prep>ations1 ab\t t5 o'clock 9 ! morn+1 ,i 0 sudd5ly ov]:elm$ ) joy to see ! %9+ figure ( my guru4 8#8,:y hurry to ,b5>es8' ,lahiri ,mahasaya said1 smil+4 #8,y %all f9d me !re no long]4' 8,z ! import ( 8 words dawn$ on me1 ,i sobb$ brok5-he>t$ly1 believ+ t ,i 0 see+ him only 9 a vision4 8,! ma/] approa*$ me com=t+ly4 #8,"h1 t\* my fle%1' he said4 #8,i am liv+1 z always4 ,d n lam5t2 am ,i n ) y =ev]8'0 ,f ! lips ( ^! ?ree great disciples1 a /ory ( wondr\s tru? has em]g$3 ,at ! morn+ h\r ( t51 on ! day aft] ! body ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya _h be5 consign$ to ! flames1 ! resurrect$ ma/]1 9 a real b transfigur$ body1 appe>$ be=e ?ree disciples1 ea* "o 9 a diff]5t city4 8,s :5 ?is corruptible %all h put on incorruption1 & ?is mortal %all h put on immortality1 !n %all be br\ght to pass ! say+ t is writt51 ,dea? is swall[$ up 9 victory4 ,o dea?1 :]e is ?y /+8 ,o grave1 :]e is ?y victory80 ,,fn#cf-aa ,,fn#cf-a ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 lat] =mally initiat$ into ! ,swami ,ord] by ! ,,mahant 7mona/]y head7 ( ,buddh ,gaya4 ,,fn#cf-b 8,great ,k+0-a title ( respect4 ,,fn#cf-c ,a guru usually ref]s to 8 own disciple simply by 8 "n1 omitt+ any title4 ,?us1 ,babaji said 8,lahiri10 n 8,lahiri ,mahasaya40 ,,fn#cf-d ,lit]ally1 8et]nal religion10 ! "n giv5 to ! body ( ,v$ic tea*+s4 ,,sanatan ,,dh>ma has come to be call$ ,,h9duism s9ce ! "t ( ! ,greeks :o designat$ ! p on ! banks ( ! riv] ,indus z ,,indoos1 or ,,h9dus4 ,! ^w ,,h9du1 prop]ly speak+1 ref]s only to foll[]s ( ,,sanatan ,,dh>ma or ,h9duism4 ,! t]m ,,indian applies equally to ,h9dus & ,mohamm$ans & o!r ,,inhabitants ( ! soil ( ,india 7& also ?r\gh ! confus+ geographical error ( ,columbus1 to ! ,am]ican ,mongoloid aborig9als74 ,! anci5t "n = ,india is ,,aryav>ta1 lit]ally1 8abode ( ! ,aryans40 ,! ,sanskrit root ( ,,arya is 8wor?y1 holy1 noble40 ,! lat] e?nological misuse ( ,,aryan to signify n spiritual1 b physical1 *>act]i/ics1 l$ ! great ,ori5tali/1 ,max ,mull]1 to say qua9tly3 8,to me an e?nologi/ :o speaks ( an ,aryan race1 ,aryan blood1 ,aryan eyes & hair1 is z great a s9n] z a l+ui/ :o speaks ( a doli*ocephalic diction>y or a bra*ycephalic gramm>40 ,,fn#cf-e ,,p>am-,,guru is lit]ally 8guru supreme0 or 8guru beyond10 signify+ a l9e or succession ( tea*]s4 ,babaji1 ! ,,guru ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 0 ! ,,p>am-,,guru ( ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,,fn#cf-f ,my visit to ,ke%aban&a's a%ram is describ$ on pp4 #dje-djh4 ,,fn#cf-g ,septemb] #bf1 #ahie is ! date on :i* ,lahiri ,mahasaya left 8 body4 ,9 a few m days he w\ld h rea*$ 8 sixty-eigh? bir?day4 ,,fn#cf-h ,fac+ ! nor?1 & ?rice revolv+ ! body1 are p>ts ( a ,v$ic rite us$ by ma/]s :o "k be=eh& :5 ! f9al h\r is ab\t to /rike = ! physical body4 ,! la/ m$itation1 dur+ :i* ! ma/] m]ges himself 9 ! ,cosmic ,,aum1 is call$ ! ,,maha1 or great1 ,,samadhi4 ,,fn#cf-i ,kabir 0 a great sixte5?-c5tury sa9t ^: l>ge foll[+ includ$ bo? ,h9dus & ,mohamm$ans4 ,at ! "t ( 8 dea?1 ! disciples qu>rel$ ov] ! mann] ( conduct+ ! fun]al c]emonies4 ,! exasp]at$ ma/] rose f 8 f9al sleep1 & gave 8 in/ructions4 8,half ( my rema9s %all be buri$ by ! ,moslem rites20 he said1 8let ! o!r half be cremat$ ) a ,h9du sacram5t40 ,he !n vani%$4 ,:5 ! disciples op5$ ! c(f9 :i* _h conta9$ 8 body1 no?+ 0 f\nd b a dazzl+ array ( gold-color$ *ampak fl[]s4 ,half ( ^! 7 ob$i5tly buri$ by ! ,moslems1 :o rev]e 8 %r9e to ?is day4 ,9 8 y\? ,kabir 0 approa*$ by two disciples :o want$ m9ute intellectual guidance along ! my/ic pa?4 ,! ma/] respond$ simply3 8,pa? presupposes di/ance2 ,if ,he be ne>1 no pa? ne$e/ ?\ at all4 ,v]ily x make? me smile ,to he> ( a fi% 9 wat] a?ir/60 ,,fn#cf-aj ,pan*anon e/abli%$1 9 a sev5te5-acre g>d5 at ,deog>h 9 ,bih>1 a temple conta9+ a /one /atue ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,ano!r /atue ( ! great ma/] has be5 set by disciples 9 ! little p>lor ( 8 ,b5>es home4 ,,fn#cf-aa ,i ,,cor9?ians #ae3ed-ee4 ,,*apt]3 #cg ,i ,,g ,,to ,,am]ica 8,am]ica6 ,surely ^! p are ,am]icans60 ,?is 0 my ?\ght z a panoramic vision ( ,we/]n faces pass$ be=e my inw>d view4 ,imm]s$ 9 m$itation1 ,i 0 sitt+ beh9d "s du/y boxes 9 ! /or]oom ( ! ,ran*i s*ool4 ,a private spot 0 difficult to f9d dur+ ^? busy ye>s ) ! y\ng/]s6 ,! vision cont9u$2 a va/ multitude1 ,,fn#cg-a gaz+ at me int5tly1 swept actorlike across ! /age ( consci\sness4 ,! /or]oom door op5$2 z usual1 "o ( ! "y lads _h discov]$ my hid+ place4 8,come "h1 ,bimal10 ,i cri$ gaily4 8,i h news = y3 ! ,"l is call+ me to ,am]ica60 8,to ,am]ica80 ,! boy e*o$ my words 9 a tone t impli$ ,i _h said 8to ! moon40 8,yes6 ,i am go+ =? to discov] ,am]ica1 l ,columbus4 ,he ?\ght he _h f\nd ,india2 surely !re is a k>mic l9k betwe5 ^? two l&s60 ,bimal scamp]$ away2 soon ! :ole s*ool 0 in=m$ by ! two-legg$ newspap]4 ,,fn#cg-b ,i summon$ ! bewild]$ faculty & gave ! s*ool into its *>ge4 8,i "k y w keep ,lahiri ,mahasaya's yoga ideals ( education ev] to ! =e10 ,i said4 8,i %all write y frequ5tly2 ,god will+1 som$ay ,i %all be back40 ,te>s /ood 9 my eyes z ,i ca/ a la/ look at ! little boys & ! sunny acres ( ,ran*i4 ,a def9ite epo* 9 my life _h n[ clos$1 ,i knew2 h5ce=? ,i w\ld dwell 9 f> l&s4 ,i entra9$ = ,calcutta a few h\rs aft] my vision4 ,! foll[+ day ,i receiv$ an invitation to s]ve z ! delegate f ,india to an ,int]national ,congress ( ,religi\s ,lib]als 9 ,am]ica4 ,x 0 to conv5e t ye> 9 ,bo/on1 "u ! auspices ( ! ,am]ican ,unit>ian ,association4 ,my head 9 a :irl1 ,i s\ght out ,sri ,yuktesw> 9 ,s]ampore4 8,guruji1 ,i h j be5 invit$ to address a religi\s congress 9 ,am]ica4 ,%all ,i g80 8,all doors are op5 = y10 ,ma/] repli$ simply4 8,x is n[ or nev]40 8,b1 sir10 ,i said 9 dismay1 8:at d ,i "k ab\t public speak+8 ,seldom h ,i giv5 a lecture1 & nev] 9 ,engli%40 8,engli% or no ,engli%1 y\r words on yoga %all be he>d 9 ! ,we/40 ,i laugh$4 8,well1 de> guruji1 ,i h>dly ?9k ! ,am]icans w le>n ,b5gali6 ,please bless me ) a pu% ov] ! hurdles ( ! ,engli% language40 ,,fn#cg-c ,:5 ,i broke ! news ( my plans to ,fa!r1 he 0 utt]ly tak5 aback4 ,to him ,am]ica seem$ incr$ibly remote2 he fe>$ he might nev] see me aga94 8,h[ c y g80 he ask$ /]nly4 8,:o w f9ance y80 ,z he _h affectionately borne ! exp5ses ( my education & :ole life1 he d\btless hop$ t 8 "q w\ld br+ my project to an emb>rass+ halt4 8,! ,"l w surely f9ance me40 ,z ,i made ?is reply1 ,i ?\ght ( ! simil> "o ,i _h giv5 long ago to my bro!r ,ananta 9 ,agra4 ,)\t v mu* guile1 ,i add$1 8,fa!r1 p]haps ,god w put x into y\r m9d to help me40 8,no1 nev]60 ,he glanc$ at me pite\sly4 ,i 0 a/\nd$1 !re=e1 :5 ,fa!r h&$ me1 ! foll[+ day1 a *eck made out = a l>ge am\nt4 8,i give y ?is money10 he said1 8n 9 my capacity z a fa!r1 b z a fai?ful disciple ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,g !n to t f> ,we/]n l&2 spread !re ! cre$less tea*+s ( ,,kriya ,,yoga40 ,i 0 imm5sely t\*$ at ! selfless _s 9 :i* ,fa!r _h be5 able to quickly put aside 8 p]sonal desires4 ,! j realization _h come to him dur+ ! prec$+ night t no ord9>y desire = =eign travel 0 motivat+ my voyage4 8,p]haps we %all n meet aga9 9 ?is life40 ,fa!r1 :o 0 sixty-sev5 at ?is "t1 spoke sadly4 ,an intuitive conviction prompt$ me to reply1 8,surely ! ,"l w br+ u toge!r once m40 ,z ,i w5t ab\t my prep>ations to leave ,ma/] & my native l& = ! unkn[n %ores ( ,am]ica1 ,i exp]i5c$ n a little trepidation4 ,i _h he>d _m /ories ab\t ! mat]iali/ic ,we/]n atmosph]e1 "o v diff]5t f ! spiritual backgr\nd ( ,india1 p]vad$ ) ! c5turi$ aura ( sa9ts4 8,an ,ori5tal tea*] :o w d>e ! ,we/]n airs10 ,i ?\ght1 8mu/ be h>dy beyond ! trials ( any ,himalayan cold60 ,"o e>ly morn+ ,i began to pray1 ) an adamant det]m9ation to cont9ue1 to ev5 die pray+1 until ,i he>d ! voice ( ,god4 ,i want$ ,8 bless+ & assurance t ,i w\ld n lose myself 9 ! fogs ( mod]n utilit>ianism4 ,my he>t 0 set to g to ,am]ica1 b ev5 m /rongly 0 x resolv$ to he> ! solace ( div9e p]mission4 ,i pray$ & pray$1 muffl+ my sobs4 ,no answ] came4 ,my sil5t petition increas$ 9 excruciat+ cresc5do until1 at noon1 ,i _h rea*$ a z5i?2 my bra9 c\ld no long] )/& ! pressure ( my agonies4 ,if ,i cri$ once m ) an increas$ dep? ( my inn] passion1 ,i felt z ?\gh my bra9 w\ld split4 ,at t mom5t !re came a knock outside ! ve/ibule adjo9+ ! ,gurp> ,road room 9 :i* ,i 0 sitt+4 ,op5+ ! door1 ,i saw a "y man 9 ! scanty g>b ( a r5unciate4 ,he came 91 clos$ ! door beh9d him &1 refus+ my reque/ to sit d[n1 indicat$ ) a ge/ure t he wi%$ to talk to me :ile /&+4 8,he mu/ be ,babaji60 ,i ?\ght1 daz$1 because ! man be=e me _h ! features ( a y\ng] ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,he answ]$ my ?\ght4 8,yes1 ,i am ,babaji40 ,he spoke melodi\sly 9 ,h9di4 8,our ,heav5ly ,fa!r has he>d y\r pray]4 ,he comm&s me to tell y3 ,foll[ ! behe/s ( y\r guru & g to ,am]ica4 ,fe> n2 y w be protect$40 ,aft] a vibrant pause1 ,babaji address$ me aga94 8,y are ! "o ,i h *os5 to spread ! message ( ,,kriya ,,yoga 9 ! ,we/4 ,long ago ,i met y\r guru ,yuktesw> at a ,,kumbha ,,mela2 ,i told him !n ,i w\ld s5d y to him = tra9+40 ,i 0 spee*less1 *ok$ ) devotional awe at 8 pres5ce1 & deeply t\*$ to he> f 8 own lips t he _h guid$ me to ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,i lay pro/rate be=e ! dea?less guru4 ,he graci\sly lift$ me f ! floor4 ,tell+ me _m ?+s ab\t my life1 he !n gave me "s p]sonal in/ruction1 & utt]$ a few secret prophecies4 8,,kriya ,,yoga1 ! sci5tific te*nique ( ,god-realization10 he f9ally said ) solemnity1 8w ultimately spread 9 all l&s1 & aid 9 h>moniz+ ! nations ?r\gh man's p]sonal1 transc5d5tal p]ception ( ! ,inf9ite ,fa!r40 ,) a gaze ( maje/ic p[]1 ! ma/] electrifi$ me by a glimpse ( 8 cosmic consci\sness4 ,9 a %ort :ile he />t$ t[>d ! door4 8,d n try to foll[ me10 he said4 8,y w n be able to d s40 8,please1 ,babaji1 don't g away60 ,i cri$ repeat$ly4 8,take me ) y60 ,look+ back1 he repli$1 8,n n[4 ,"s o!r "t40 ,ov]come by emotion1 ,i disreg>d$ 8 w>n+4 ,z ,i tri$ to pursue him1 ,i discov]$ t my feet 7 firmly root$ to ! floor4 ,f ! door1 ,babaji gave me a la/ affectionate glance4 ,he rais$ 8 h& by way ( b5$iction & walk$ away1 my eyes fix$ on him long+ly4 ,aft] a few m9utes my feet 7 free4 ,i sat d[n & w5t into a deep m$itation1 unceas+ly ?ank+ ,god n only = answ]+ my pray] b = bless+ me by a meet+ ) ,babaji4 ,my :ole body seem$ sanctifi$ ?r\gh ! t\* ( ! anci5t1 ev]-y\?ful ma/]4 ,long _h x be5 my burn+ desire to behold him4 ,until n[1 ,i h nev] rec\nt$ to anyone ?is /ory ( my meet+ ) ,babaji4 ,hold+ x z ! mo/ sacr$ ( my human exp]i5ces1 ,i h hidd5 x 9 my he>t4 ,b ! ?\ght occurr$ to me t read]s ( ?is autobiography may be m incl9$ to believe 9 ! reality ( ! seclud$ ,babaji & 8 _w int]e/s if ,i relate t ,i saw him ) my own eyes4 ,i h help$ an arti/ to draw a true picture ( ! great ,yogi-,*ri/ ( mod]n ,india2 x appe>s 9 ?is book4 ,! eve ( my dep>ture = ! ,unit$ ,/ates f\nd me 9 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s holy pres5ce4 8,=get y 7 born a ,h9du1 & don't be an ,am]ican4 ,take ! be/ ( !m bo?10 ,ma/] said 9 8 calm way ( wisdom4 8,be y\r true self1 a *ild ( ,god4 ,seek & incorporate into y\r be+ ! be/ qualities ( all y\r bro!rs1 scatt]$ ov] ! e>? 9 v>i\s races40 ,!n he bless$ me3 8,all ^? :o come to y ) fai?1 seek+ ,god1 w be help$4 ,z y look at !m1 ! spiritual curr5t emanat+ f y\r eyes w ent] into _! bra9s & *ange _! mat]ial habits1 mak+ !m m ,god-consci\s40 ,he w5t on1 8,y\r lot to attract s9c]e s\ls is v good4 ,ev]y:]e y g1 ev5 9 a wild]ness1 y w f9d fri5ds40 ,bo? ( 8 bless+s h be5 amply demon/rat$4 ,i came alone to ,am]ica1 into a wild]ness )\t a s+le fri5d1 b !re ,i f\nd ?\s&s ready to receive ! "t-te/$ s\l-tea*+s4 ,i left ,india 9 ,augu/1 #aibj1 on ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,sp>ta1 ! fir/ pass5g] boat sail+ = ,am]ica aft] ! close ( ,_w ,w> ,i4 ,i _h be5 able to book passage only aft] ! removal1 9 ways fairly miracul\s1 ( _m 8r$-tape0 difficulties conc]n$ ) ! grant+ ( my passport4 ,dur+ ! two-mon?s' voyage a fell[ pass5g] f\nd out t ,i 0 ! ,indian delegate to ! ,bo/on congress4 8,swami ,yogan&a10 he said1 ) ! fir/ ( _m qua9t pronunciations by :i* ,i 0 lat] to he> my "n spok5 by ! ,am]icans1 8please favor ! pass5g]s ) a lecture next ,?ursday night4 ,i ?9k we w\ld all b5efit by a talk on #8,! ,battle ( ,life & ,h[ to ,fight ,x4'0 ,alas6 ,i _h to fight ! battle ( my own life1 ,i discov]$ on ,w$nesday4 ,desp]ately try+ to organize my ideas into a lecture 9 ,engli%1 ,i f9ally ab&on$ all prep>ations2 my ?\ghts1 l a wild colt eye+ a saddle1 refus$ any coop]ation ) ! laws ( ,engli% gramm>4 ,fully tru/+ 9 ,ma/]'s pa/ assurances1 h[ev]1 ,i appe>$ be=e my ,?ursday audi5ce 9 ! saloon ( ! /eam]4 ,no eloqu5ce rose to my lips2 spee*lessly ,i /ood be=e ! assemblage4 ,aft] an endurance conte/ la/+ t5 m9utes1 ! audi5ce realiz$ my pr$icam5t & began to laugh4 ,! situation 0 n funny to me at ! mom5t2 indignantly ,i s5t a sil5t pray] to ,ma/]4 8,y ,,c6 ,speak60 ,8 voice s\nd$ in/antly )9 my consci\sness4 ,my ?\ghts fell at once into a fri5dly relation ) ! ,engli% language4 ,=ty-five m9utes lat] ! audi5ce 0 /ill att5tive4 ,! talk won me a numb] ( invitations to lecture lat] be=e v>i\s gr\ps 9 ,am]ica4 ,i nev] c\ld rememb]1 aft]w>d1 a ^w t ,i _h spok54 ,by discreet inquiry ,i le>n$ f a numb] ( pass5g]s3 8,y gave an inspir+ lecture 9 /irr+ & correct ,engli%40 ,at ?is delightful news ,i humbly ?ank$ my guru = 8 timely help1 realiz+ anew t he 0 ev] ) me1 sett+ at naught all b>ri]s ( "t & space4 ,once 9 a:ile1 dur+ ! rema9d] ( ! ocean trip1 ,i exp]i5c$ a few appreh5sive tw+es ab\t ! com+ ,engli%-lecture ordeal at ! ,bo/on congress4 8,"l10 ,i pray$1 8please let my inspiration be ,?yself1 & n aga9 ! laught]-bombs ( ! audi5ce60 ,illu/ration3 ,a gr\p ( delegates to ! #aibj ,int]national ,congress ( ,religi\s ,lib]als at ,bo/on1 :]e ,i gave my maid5 spee* 9 ,am]ica4 7,left to ,"r7 ,rev4 ,clay ,mac,cauley1 ,rev4 ,t4 ,rhondda ,williams1 ,pr(4 ,s4 ,u%igasaki1 ,rev4 ,jabez ,t4 ,sund]l&1 myself1 ,rev4 ,*as4 ,w4 ,w5dte1 ,rev4 ,samuel ,a4 ,eliot1 ,rev4 ,basil ,m>t91 ,rev4 ,*ri/oph] ,j4 ,/reet1 ,rev4 ,samuel ,m4 ,cro!rs4--see congress4jpg ,,! ,,city ,,( ,,sp>ta dock$ ne> ,bo/on 9 late ,septemb]4 ,on ! six? ( ,octob] ,i address$ ! congress ) my maid5 spee* 9 ,am]ica4 ,x 0 well receiv$2 ,i sigh$ 9 relief4 ,! magnanim\s secret>y ( ! ,am]ican ,unit>ian ,association wrote ! foll[+ comm5t 9 a publi%$ acc\nt ,,fn#cg-d ( ! congress proce$+s3 8,swami ,yogan&a1 delegate f ! ,brahma*>ya ,a%ram ( ,ran*i1 ,india1 br\ght ! greet+s ( 8 ,association to ! ,congress4 ,9 flu5t ,engli% & a =cible deliv]y he gave an address ( a philosophical "* on #8,! ,sci5ce ( ,religion1' :i* has be5 pr9t$ 9 pamphlet =m = a wid] di/ribution4 ,religion1 he ma9ta9$1 is univ]sal & x is "o4 ,we _c possibly univ]salize p>ticul> cu/oms & convictions1 b ! common elem5t 9 religion c be univ]saliz$1 & we c ask all alike to foll[ & obey x40 ,due to ,fa!r's g5]\s *eck1 ,i 0 able to rema9 9 ,am]ica aft] ! congress 0 ov]4 ,f\r happy ye>s 7 sp5t 9 humble circum/ances 9 ,bo/on4 ,i gave public lectures1 taught classes1 & wrote a book ( poems1 ,,songs ,,( ,,! ,,s\l1 ) a preface by ,dr4 ,fr$]ick ,b4 ,rob9son1 presid5t ( ! ,college ( ! ,city ( ,new ,york4 ,,fn#cg-e ,/>t+ a transcont95tal t\r 9 ! summ] ( #aibd1 ,i spoke be=e ?\s&s 9 ! pr9cipal cities1 end+ my we/]n trip ) a vacation 9 ! beautiful ,alaskan nor?4 ,) ! help ( l>ge-he>t$ /ud5ts1 by ! end ( #aibe ,i _h e/abli%$ an ,am]ican headqu>t]s on ! ,m\nt ,wa%+ton ,e/ates 9 ,los ,angeles4 ,! build+ is ! "o ,i _h se5 ye>s be=e 9 my vision at ,ka%mir4 ,i ha/5$ to s5d ,sri ,yuktesw> pictures ( ^! di/ant ,am]ican activities4 ,he repli$ ) a po/c>d 9 ,b5gali1 :i* ,i "h translate3 #aa? ,augu/1 #aibf ,*ild ( my he>t1 ,o ,yogan&a6 ,see+ ! photos ( y\r s*ool & /ud5ts1 :at joy comes 9 my life ,i _c express 9 words4 ,i am melt+ 9 joy to see y\r yoga /ud5ts ( diff]5t cities4 ,behold+ y\r me?ods 9 *ant affirmations1 heal+ vibrations1 & div9e heal+ pray]s1 ,i _c refra9 f ?ank+ y f my he>t4 ,see+ ! gate1 ! w9d+ hilly way upw>d1 & ! beautiful sc5]y spread out b5ea? ! ,m\nt ,wa%+ton ,e/ates1 ,i ye>n to behold x all ) my own eyes4 ,ev]y?+ "h is go+ on well4 ,?r\gh ! grace ( ,god1 may y ev] be 9 bliss4 ,,sri ,,yuktesw> ,,giri ,illu/ration3 ,ma9 build+ at ! ,m\nt ,wa%+ton ,e/ates 9 ,los ,angeles1 e/abli%$ 9 #aibe z ,am]ican headqu>t]s = ! ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip4--see mtwa%4jpg ,ye>s sp$ by4 ,i lectur$ 9 e "p ( my new l&1 & address$ hundr$s ( clubs1 colleges1 *ur*es1 & gr\ps ( e d5om9ation4 ,illu/ration3 ,i /& on ! dais be=e "o ( my classes 9 ,am]ica4 ,?is class ( a ?\s& yoga /ud5ts 0 held 9 ,wa%+ton1 ,d4,c4--see dc4jpg ,t5s ( ?\s&s ( ,am]icans receiv$ yoga initiation4 ,to !m all ,i d$icat$ a new book ( pray] ?\ghts 9 #aibi-,,:isp]s ,,f ,,et]nity1 ) a preface by ,amelita ,galli-,curci4 ,,fn#cg-f ,i give "h1 f ! book1 a poem entitl$ 8,god6 ,god6 ,god601 compos$ "o night z ,i /ood on a lecture plat=m3 ,f ! dep?s ( slumb]1 ,z ,i asc5d ! spiral /airway ( wakefulness1 ,i :isp]3 ,god6 ,god6 ,god6 ,?\ art ! food1 & :5 ,i break my fa/ ,( nightly sep>ation f ,!e1 ,i ta/e ,!e1 & m5tally say3 ,god6 ,god6 ,god6 ,no matt] :]e ,i g1 ! spotlight ( my m9d ,ev] keeps turn+ on ,!e2 ,& 9 ! battle d9 ( activity ,my sil5t w> cry is ev]3 ,god6 ,god6 ,god6 ,:5 boi/]\s /orms ( trials %riek1 ,& :5 worries h[l at me1 ,i dr[n _! clamor1 l\dly *ant+3 ,god6 ,god6 ,god6 ,:5 my m9d weaves dreams ,) ?reads ( memories1 ,!n on t magic clo? ,i f9d emboss$3 ,god6 ,god6 ,god6 ,e night1 9 "t ( deepe/ sleep1 ,my peace dreams & calls1 ,joy6 ,joy6 ,joy6 ,& my joy comes s++ ev]more3 ,god6 ,god6 ,god6 ,9 wak+1 eat+1 work+1 dream+1 sleep+1 ,s]v+1 m$itat+1 *ant+1 div9ely lov+1 ,my s\l con/antly hums1 unhe>d by any3 ,god6 ,god6 ,god6 ,sometimes-usually on ! fir/ ( ! mon? :5 ! bills roll$ 9 = upkeep ( ! ,m\nt ,wa%+ton & o!r ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip c5t]s6-,i ?\ght long+ly ( ! simple peace ( ,india4 ,b daily ,i saw a wid5+ und]/&+ betwe5 ,we/ & ,ea/2 my s\l rejoic$4 ,i h f\nd ! great he>t ( ,am]ica express$ 9 ! wondr\s l9es by ,emma ,laz>us1 c>v$ at ! base ( ! ,/atue ( ,lib]ty1 ! 8,"m ( ,exiles03 ,f h] beacon-h& ,gl[s _w-wide welcome2 h] mild eyes comm& ,! air-bridg$ h>bor t tw9 cities frame4 8,keep1 anci5t l&s1 y\r /ori$ pomp60 cries %e ,) sil5t lips4 8,give me y\r tir$1 y\r poor1 ,y\r huddl$ masses ye>n+ to brea! free1 ,! wret*$ refuse ( y\r teem+ %ore4 ,s5d ^!1 ! homeless1 tempe/-to/ to me1 ,i lift my lamp beside ! gold5 door4 ,,fn#cg-a ,_m ( ^? faces ,i h s9ce se5 9 ! ,we/1 & in/antly recogniz$44 ,,fn#cg-b ,swami ,preman&a1 n[ ! lead] ( ! ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions 9 ,wa%+ton1 ,d4,c41 0 "o ( ! /ud5ts at ! ,ran*i s*ool at ! "t ,i left !re = ,am]ica4 7,he 0 !n ,brahma*>i ,jot947 ,,fn#cg-c ,sri ,yuktesw> & ,i ord9>ily conv]s$ 9 ,b5gali4 ,,fn#cg-d ,,new ,,pilgrimages ,,( ,,! ,,_s 7,bo/on3 ,beacon ,press1 #aiba74 ,,fn#cg-e ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,rob9son visit$ ,india 9 #aici1 & 7 honor$ gue/s at ! ,ran*i s*ool4 ,,fn#cg-f ,mme4 ,galli-,curci & h] husb&1 ,hom] ,samuels1 ! piani/1 h be5 ,kriya ,yoga /ud5ts = tw5ty ye>s4 ,! inspir+ /ory ( ! fam\s prima donna's ye>s ( music has be5 rec5tly publi%$ 7,,galli-,,curci',s ,,life ,,( ,,song1 by ,c4 ,e4 ,le,massena1 ,paeb> ,co41 ,new ,york1 #aide74 ,,*apt]3 #ch ,,lu!r ,,burbank--,a ,,sa9t ,,amid/ ,,! ,,roses 8,! secret ( improv$ plant bre$+1 ap>t f sci5tific k1 is love40 ,lu!r ,burbank utt]$ ?is wisdom z ,i walk$ beside him 9 8 ,santa ,rosa g>d54 ,we halt$ ne> a b$ ( edible cacti4 8,:ile ,i 0 conduct+ exp]im5ts to make #8sp9eless' cacti10 he cont9u$1 8,i (t5 talk$ to ! plants to create a vibration ( love4 #8,y h no?+ to fe>1' ,i w\ld tell !m4 #8,y don't ne$ y\r def5sive ?orns4 ,i w protect y4' ,gradually ! useful plant ( ! des]t em]g$ 9 a ?ornless v>iety40 ,illu/ration3 ,lu!r ,burbank1 belov$ fri5d1 poses ) me 9 8 ,santa ,rosa g>d54--see burbank4jpg ,illu/ration3 ,lu!r ,burbank--see burbank#b4;jpg ,i 0 *>m$ at ?is miracle4 8,please1 de> ,lu!r1 give me a few cacti leaves to plant 9 my g>d5 at ,m\nt ,wa%+ton40 ,a workman /&+ ne>-by />t$ to /rip (f "s leaves2 ,burbank prev5t$ him4 8,i myself w pluck !m = ! swami40 ,he h&$ me ?ree leaves1 :i* lat] ,i plant$1 rejoic+ z !y grew to huge e/ate4 ,! great horticulturi/ told me t 8 fir/ notable triumph 0 ! l>ge potato1 n[ kn[n by 8 "n4 ,) ! indefatigability ( g5ius1 he w5t on to pres5t ! _w ) hundr$s ( cross$ improvem5ts on nature-8 new ,burbank v>ieties ( tomato1 corn1 squa%1 *]ries1 plums1 nect>9es1 b]ries1 poppies1 lilies1 roses4 ,i focus$ my cam]a z ,lu!r l$ me be=e ! fam\s walnut tree by :i* he _h prov$ t natural evolution c be telescopically ha/5$4 8,9 only sixte5 ye>s10 he said1 8?is walnut tree rea*$ a /ate ( abundant nut production to :i* an unaid$ nature w\ld h br\ght ! tree 9 twice t "t40 ,burbank's little adopt$ daught] came romp+ ) h] dog into ! g>d54 8,%e is my human plant40 ,lu!r wav$ to h] affectionately4 8,i see humanity n[ z "o va/ plant1 ne$+ = its highe/ fulfillm5ts only love1 ! natural bless+s ( ! great outdoors1 & intellig5t cross+ & selection4 ,9 ! span ( my own lifetime ,i h obs]v$ su* wondr\s progress 9 plant evolution t ,i look =w>d optimi/ically to a heal?y1 happy _w z soon z its *ildr5 are taught ! pr9ciples ( simple & rational liv+4 ,we mu/ return to nature & nature's ,god40 8,lu!r1 y w\ld delight 9 my ,ran*i s*ool1 ) its outdoor classes1 & atmosph]e ( joy & simplicity40 ,my words t\*$ ! *ord close/ to ,burbank's he>t-*ild education4 ,he pli$ me ) que/ions1 int]e/ gleam+ f 8 deep1 s]5e eyes4 8,swamiji10 he said f9ally1 8s*ools l y\rs are ! only hope ( a future mill5nium4 ,i am 9 revolt aga9/ ! educational sy/ems ( our "t1 sev]$ f nature & /ifl+ ( all individuality4 ,i am ) y he>t & s\l 9 y\r practical ideals ( education40 ,z ,i 0 tak+ leave ( ! g5tle sage1 he autograph$ a small volume & pres5t$ x to me4 ,,fn#ch-a 8,"h is my book on ,,! ,,tra9+ ,,( ,,! ,,human ,,plant10 ,,fn#ch-b he said4 8,new types ( tra9+ are ne$$-fe>less exp]im5ts4 ,at times ! mo/ d>+ trials h succe$$ 9 br++ out ! be/ 9 fruits & fl[]s4 ,educational innovations = *ildr5 %\ld likewise become m num]\s1 m c\rage\s40 ,i read 8 little book t night ) int5se int]e/4 ,8 eye envision+ a glori\s future = ! race1 he wrote3 8,! mo/ /ubborn liv+ ?+ 9 ?is _w1 ! mo/ difficult to sw]ve1 is a plant once fix$ 9 c]ta9 habits4 4 4 4 ,rememb] t ?is plant has pres]v$ its individuality all ?r\gh ! ages2 p]haps x is "o :i* c be trac$ backw>d ?r\gh eons ( "t 9 ! v rocks !mselves1 nev] hav+ v>i$ to any great ext5t 9 all ^! va/ p]iods4 ,d y suppose1 aft] all ^! ages ( repetition1 ! plant does n become possess$ ( a w1 if y s *oose to call x1 ( unp>allel$ t5acity8 ,inde$1 !re are plants1 l c]ta9 ( ! palms1 s p]si/5t t no human p[] has yet be5 able to *ange !m4 ,! human w is a weak ?+ beside ! w ( a plant4 ,b see h[ ?is :ole plant's lifelong /ubbornness is brok5 simply by bl5d+ a new life ) x1 mak+1 by cross+1 a complete & p[]ful *ange 9 its life4 ,!n :5 ! break comes1 fix x by ^! g5]ations ( pati5t sup]vision & selection1 & ! new plant sets out ^u its new way nev] aga9 to return to ! old1 its t5aci\s w brok5 & *ang$ at la/4 8,:5 x comes to s s5sitive & pliable a ?+ z ! nature ( a *ild1 ! problem becomes va/ly easi]40 ,magnetically drawn to ?is great ,am]ican1 ,i visit$ him aga9 & aga94 ,"o morn+ ,i arriv$ at ! same "t z ! po/man1 :o deposit$ 9 ,burbank's /udy ab\t a ?\s& lett]s4 ,horticulturi/s wrote him f all p>ts ( ! _w4 8,swamiji1 y\r pres5ce is j ! excuse ,i ne$ to get out into ! g>d510 ,lu!r said gaily4 ,he op5$ a l>ge desk-draw] conta9+ hundr$s ( travel fold]s4 8,see10 he said1 8?is is h[ ,i d my travel+4 ,ti$ d[n by my plants & correspond5ce1 ,i satisfy my desire = =eign l&s by a glance n[ & !n at ^! pictures40 ,my c> 0 /&+ be=e 8 gate2 ,lu!r & ,i drove along ! /reets ( ! little t[n1 its g>d5s bright ) 8 own v>ieties ( ,santa ,rosa1 ,pea*bl[1 & ,burbank roses4 8,my fri5d ,h5ry ,=d & ,i bo? believe 9 ! anci5t !ory ( re9c>nation10 ,lu!r told me4 8,x %$s light on aspects ( life o!rwise inexplicable4 ,memory is n a te/ ( tru?2 j because man fails to rememb] 8 pa/ lives does n prove he nev] _h !m4 ,memory is blank conc]n+ 8 womb-life & infancy1 too2 b he probably pass$ ?r\gh !m60 ,he *uckl$4 ,! great sci5ti/ _h receiv$ ,,kriya initiation dur+ "o ( my e>li] visits4 8,i practice ! te*nique dev\tly1 ,swamiji10 he said4 ,aft] _m ?\ghtful que/ions to me ab\t v>i\s aspects ( yoga1 ,lu!r rem>k$ sl[ly3 8,! ,ea/ inde$ possesses imm5se ho>ds ( k :i* ! ,we/ has sc>cely begun to explore40 ,intimate communion ) nature1 :o unlock$ to him _m ( h] jeal\sly gu>d$ secrets1 _h giv5 ,burbank a b\ndless spiritual rev]5ce4 8,sometimes ,i feel v close to ! ,inf9ite ,p[]10 he confid$ %yly4 ,8 s5sitive1 beautifully model$ face lit ) 8 memories4 8,!n ,i h be5 able to heal sick p]sons ar\nd me1 z well z _m ail+ plants40 ,he told me ( 8 "m1 a s9c]e ,*ri/ian4 8,_m times aft] h] dea?10 ,lu!r said1 8,i h be5 bless$ by h] appe>ance 9 visions2 %e has spok5 to me40 ,we drove back reluctantly t[>d 8 home & ^? wait+ ?\s& lett]s4 8,lu!r10 ,i rem>k$1 8next mon? ,i am />t+ a magaz9e to pres5t ! tru?-(f]+s ( ,ea/ & ,we/4 ,please help me decide on a good "n = ! j\rnal40 ,we discuss$ titles = a:ile1 & f9ally agre$ on ,,ea/-,,we/4 ,aft] we _h re5t]$ 8 /udy1 ,burbank gave me an article he _h writt5 on 8,sci5ce & ,civilization40 8,?is w g 9 ! fir/ issue ( ,,ea/-,,we/10 ,i said gratefully4 ,z our fri5d%ip grew deep]1 ,i call$ ,burbank my 8,am]ican sa9t40 8,behold a man10 ,i quot$1 89 :om !re is no guile60 ,8 he>t 0 fa?omlessly deep1 long acqua9t$ ) humility1 pati5ce1 sacrifice4 ,8 little home amid/ ! roses 0 au/]ely simple2 he knew ! wor?lessness ( luxury1 ! joy ( few possessions4 ,! mode/y ) :i* he wore 8 sci5tific fame repeat$ly rem9d$ me ( ! trees t b5d l[ ) ! burd5 ( rip5+ fruits2 x is ! b>r5 tree t lifts its head high 9 an empty boa/4 ,i 0 9 ,new ,york :51 9 #aibf1 my de> fri5d pass$ away4 ,9 te>s ,i ?\ght1 8,oh1 ,i w\ld gladly walk all ! way f "h to ,santa ,rosa = "o m glimpse ( him60 ,lock+ myself away f secret>ies & visitors1 ,i sp5t ! next tw5ty-f\r h\rs 9 seclusion4 ,! foll[+ day ,i conduct$ a ,v$ic memorial rite ar\nd a l>ge picture ( ,lu!r4 ,a gr\p ( my ,am]ican /ud5ts1 g>b$ 9 ,h9du c]emonial clo!s1 *ant$ ! anci5t hymns z an (f]+ 0 made ( fl[]s1 wat]1 & fire-symbols ( ! bodily elem5ts & _! release 9 ! ,inf9ite ,s\rce4 ,?\gh ! =m ( ,burbank lies 9 ,santa ,rosa "u a ,lebanon c$> t he plant$ ye>s ago 9 8 g>d51 8 s\l is en%r9$ = me 9 e wide-ey$ fl[] t blooms by ! wayside4 ,)drawn = a "t into ! spaci\s _s ( nature1 is t n ,lu!r :isp]+ 9 h] w9ds1 walk+ h] dawns8 ,8 "n has n[ pass$ into ! h]itage ( common spee*4 ,li/+ 8burbank0 z a transitive v]b1 ,web/]'s ,new ,int]national ,diction>y def9es x3 8,to cross or graft 7a plant74 ,h5ce1 figuratively1 to improve 7any?+1 z a process or in/itution7 by select+ good features & reject+ bad1 or by add+ good features40 8,belov$ ,burbank10 ,i cri$ aft] read+ ! def9ition1 8y\r v "n is n[ a synonym = goodness60 ,,lu!r ,,burbank ,,santa ,,rosa1 ,,cali=nia ,u4,s4,a4 ,decemb] #bb1 #aibd ,i h exam9$ ! ,yogoda sy/em ( ,swami ,yogan&a & 9 my op9ion x is ideal = tra9+ & h>moniz+ man's physical1 m5tal1 & spiritual natures4 ,swami's aim is to e/abli% 8,h[-to-,live0 s*ools ?r\gh\t ! _w1 :]e9 education w n conf9e itself to intellectual developm5t alone1 b also tra9+ ( ! body1 w1 & feel+s4 ,?r\gh ! ,yogoda sy/em ( physical1 m5tal1 & spiritual unfoldm5t by simple & sci5tific me?ods ( conc5tration & m$itation1 mo/ ( ! complex problems ( life may be solv$1 & peace & good-w come ^u e>?4 ,! ,swami's idea ( "r education is pla9 commons5se1 free f all my/icism & non-practicality2 o!rwise x w\ld n h my approval4 ,i am glad to h ?is opportunity ( he>tily jo9+ ) ! ,swami 9 8 appeal = int]national s*ools on ! art ( liv+ :i*1 if e/abli%$1 w come z ne> to br++ ! mill5nium z any?+ ) :i* ,i am acqua9t$4 ,,fn#ch-a ,burbank also gave me an autograph$ picture ( himself4 ,i treasure x ev5 z a ,h9du m]*ant once treasur$ a picture ( ,l9coln4 ,! ,h9du1 :o 0 9 ,am]ica dur+ ! ,civil ,w> ye>s1 conceiv$ su* an admiration = ,l9coln t he 0 unwill+ to return to ,india until he _h obta9$ a portrait ( ! ,great ,emancipator4 ,plant+ himself adamantly on ,l9coln's door/ep1 ! m]*ant refus$ to leave until ! a/oni%$ ,presid5t p]mitt$ him to engage ! s]vices ( ,daniel ,hunt+ton1 ! fam\s ,new ,york arti/4 ,:5 ! portrait 0 f9i%$1 ! ,h9du c>ri$ x 9 triumph to ,calcutta4 ,illu/ration3 ,lu!r ,burbank's signature--see bsignature4jpg ,,fn#ch-b ,new ,york3 ,c5tury ,co41 #aibb4 ,,*apt]3 #ci ,,!rese ,,neumann1 ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,/igmati/ 8,return to india4 ,i h wait$ = y pati5tly = fifte5 ye>s4 ,soon ,i %all swim out ( ! body & on to ! ,%9+ ,abode4 ,yogan&a1 come60 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s voice s\nd$ />tl+ly 9 my inn] e> z ,i sat 9 m$itation at my ,mt4 ,wa%+ton headqu>t]s4 ,trav]s+ t5 ?\s& miles 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye1 8 message p5etrat$ my be+ l a fla% ( lightn+4 ,fifte5 ye>s6 ,yes1 ,i realiz$1 n[ x is #aice2 ,i h sp5t fifte5 ye>s 9 spread+ my guru's tea*+s 9 ,am]ica4 ,n[ he recalls me4 ,t aft]noon ,i rec\nt$ my exp]i5ce to a visit+ disciple4 ,8 spiritual developm5t "u ,,kriya ,,yoga 0 s rem>kable t ,i (t5 call$ him 8sa9t10 rememb]+ ,babaji's prophecy t ,am]ica too w\ld produce m5 & wom5 ( div9e realization ?r\gh ! anci5t yogic pa?4 ,?is disciple & a numb] ( o!rs g5]\sly insi/$ on mak+ a donation = my travels4 ,! f9ancial problem ?us solv$1 ,i made arrangem5ts to sail1 via ,europe1 = ,india4 ,busy weeks ( prep>ations at ,m\nt ,wa%+ton6 ,9 ,m>*1 #aice ,i _h ! ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip *>t]$ "u ! laws ( ! ,/ate ( ,cali=nia z a non-pr(it corporation4 ,to ?is educational in/itution g all public donations z well z ! rev5ue f ! sale ( my books1 magaz9e1 writt5 c\rses1 class tuition1 & e o!r s\rce ( income4 8,i %all be back10 ,i told my /ud5ts4 8,nev] %all ,i =get ,am]ica40 ,at a f>ewell banquet giv5 to me 9 ,los ,angeles by lov+ fri5ds1 ,i look$ long at _! faces & ?\ght gratefully1 8,"l1 he :o rememb]s ,!e z ! ,sole ,giv] w nev] lack ! sweetness ( fri5d%ip among mortals40 ,i sail$ f ,new ,york on ,june #i1 #aice ,,fn#ci-a 9 ! ,,europa4 ,two /ud5ts accompani$ me3 my secret>y1 ,mr4 ,c4 ,ri*>d ,wright1 & an eld]ly lady f ,c9c9nati1 ,miss ,ettie ,blet*4 ,we enjoy$ ! days ( ocean peace1 a welcome contra/ to ! pa/ hurri$ weeks4 ,our p]iod ( leisure 0 %ort-liv$2 ! spe$ ( mod]n boats has "s regrettable features6 ,l any o!r gr\p ( inquisitive t\ri/s1 we walk$ ar\nd ! huge & anci5t city ( ,london4 ,! foll[+ day ,i 0 invit$ to address a l>ge meet+ 9 ,caxton ,hall1 at :i* ,i 0 introduc$ to ! ,london audi5ce by ,sir ,francis ,y\nghusb&4 ,our p>ty sp5t a pleasant day z gue/s ( ,sir ,h>ry ,laud] at 8 e/ate 9 ,scotl&4 ,we soon cross$ ! ,engli% ,*annel to ! cont95t1 = ,i want$ to make a special pilgrimage to ,bav>ia4 ,?is w\ld be my only *ance1 ,i felt1 to visit ! great ,ca?olic my/ic1 ,!rese ,neumann ( ,konn]sreu?4 ,ye>s e>li] ,i _h read an amaz+ acc\nt ( ,!rese4 ,in=mation giv5 9 ! article 0 z foll[s3 7#a7 ,!rese1 born 9 #ahih1 _h be5 injur$ 9 an accid5t at ! age ( tw5ty2 %e became bl9d & p>alyz$4 7#b7 ,%e miracul\sly rega9$ h] sight 9 #aibc ?r\gh pray]s to ,/4 ,t]esa1 8,! ,little ,fl[]40 ,lat] ,!rese ,neumann's limbs 7 in/antane\sly heal$4 7#c7 ,f #aibc onw>d1 ,!rese has ab/a9$ completely f food & dr9k1 except = ! daily swall[+ ( "o small consecrat$ waf]4 7#d7 ,! /igmata1 or sacr$ w\nds ( ,*ri/1 appe>$ 9 #aibf on ,!rese's head1 brea/1 h&s1 & feet4 ,on ,friday ( e week !reaft]1 %e has pass$ ?r\gh ! ,passion ( ,*ri/1 suff]+ 9 h] own body all 8 hi/oric agonies4 7#e7 ,kn[+ ord9>ily only ! simple ,g]man ( h] village1 dur+ h] ,friday trances ,!rese utt]s phrases :i* s*ol>s h id5tifi$ z anci5t ,aramaic4 ,at appropriate times 9 h] vision1 %e speaks ,hebrew or ,greek4 7#f7 ,by ecclesia/ical p]mission1 ,!rese has sev]al times be5 "u close sci5tific obs]vation4 ,dr4 ,fritz ,g]lick1 editor ( a ,prote/ant ,g]man newspap]1 w5t to ,konn]sreu? to 8expose ! ,ca?olic fraud10 b end$ up by rev]5tly writ+ h] biography4 ,,fn#ci-b ,z always1 :e!r 9 ,ea/ or ,we/1 ,i 0 eag] to meet a sa9t4 ,i rejoic$ z our little p>ty ent]$1 on ,july #af?1 ! qua9t village ( ,konn]sreu?4 ,! ,bav>ian peasants exhibit$ lively int]e/ 9 our ,=d automobile 7br\ght ) u f ,am]ica7 & its assort$ gr\p-an ,am]ican "y man1 an eld]ly lady1 & an olive-hu$ ,ori5tal ) long hair tuck$ "u 8 coat coll>4 ,!rese's little cottage1 clean & neat1 ) g]aniums bloom+ by a primitive well1 0 alas6 sil5tly clos$4 ,! neighbors1 & ev5 ! village po/man :o pass$ by1 c\ld give u no in=mation4 ,ra9 began to fall2 my companions sugge/$ t we leave4 8,no10 ,i said /ubbornly1 8,i w /ay "h until ,i f9d "s clue lead+ to ,!rese40 ,two h\rs lat] we 7 /ill sitt+ 9 our c> amid/ ! dismal ra94 8,"l10 ,i sigh$ compla9+ly1 8:y did/ ,?\ lead me "h if %e has disappe>$80 ,an ,engli%-speak+ man halt$ beside u1 politely (f]+ 8 aid4 8,i don't "k = c]ta9 :]e ,!rese is10 he said1 8b %e (t5 visits at ! home ( ,pr(essor ,wurz1 a sem9>y ma/] ( ,ei*/att1 eighty miles f "h40 ,! foll[+ morn+ our p>ty motor$ to ! quiet village ( ,ei*/att1 n>r[ly l9$ ) cobble/on$ /reets4 ,dr4 ,wurz greet$ u cordially at 8 home2 8,yes1 ,!rese is "h40 ,he s5t h] ^w ( ! visitors4 ,a mess5g] soon appe>$ ) h] reply4 8,?\gh ! bi%op has ask$ me to see no "o )\t 8 p]mission1 ,i w receive ! man ( ,god f ,india40 ,deeply t\*$ at ^! words1 ,i foll[$ ,dr4 ,wurz up/airs to ! sitt+ room4 ,!rese ent]$ imm$iately1 radiat+ an aura ( peace & joy4 ,%e wore a black g[n & spotless :ite head dress4 ,al?\gh h] age 0 ?irty-sev5 at ?is "t1 %e seem$ mu* y\ng]1 possess+ inde$ a *ildlike fre%ness & *>m4 ,heal?y1 well-=m$1 rosy-*eek$1 & *e]ful1 ?is is ! sa9t t does n eat6 ,!rese greet$ me ) a v g5tle h&%ak+4 ,we bo? beam$ 9 sil5t communion1 ea* kn[+ ! o!r to be a lov] ( ,god4 ,dr4 ,wurz k9dly (f]$ to s]ve z int]pret]4 ,z we seat$ ourselves1 ,i notic$ t ,!rese 0 glanc+ at me ) naive curiosity2 evid5tly ,h9dus _h be5 r>e 9 ,bav>ia4 8,don't y eat any?+80 ,i want$ to he> ! answ] f h] own lips4 8,no1 except a consecrat$ rice-fl\r waf]1 once e morn+ at six o'clock40 8,h[ l>ge is ! waf]80 8,x is pap]-?91 ! size ( a small co940 ,%e add$1 8,i take x = sacram5tal reasons2 if x is unconsecrat$1 ,i am unable to swall[ x40 8,c]ta9ly y c\ld n h liv$ on t1 = twelve :ole ye>s80 8,i live by ,god's light40 ,h[ simple h] reply1 h[ ,e9/e9ian6 8,i see y realize t en]gy fl[s to y\r body f ! e!r1 sun1 & air40 ,a swift smile broke ov] h] face4 8,i am s happy to "k y und]/& h[ ,i live40 8,y\r sacr$ life is a daily demon/ration ( ! tru? utt]$ by ,*ri/3 #8,man %all n live by bread alone1 b by e ^w t proce$e? out ( ! m\? ( ,god4'0 ,,fn#ci-c ,aga9 %e %[$ joy at my explanation4 8,x is inde$ s4 ,"o ( ! reasons ,i am "h on e>? today is to prove t man c live by ,god's invisible light1 & n by food only40 8,c y tea* o!rs h[ to live )\t food80 ,%e appe>$ a trifle %ock$4 8,i _c d t2 ,god does n wi% x40 ,z my gaze fell on h] /rong1 graceful h&s1 ,!rese %[$ me a little1 squ>e1 fre%ly heal$ w\nd on ea* ( h] palms4 ,on ! back ( ea* h&1 %e po9t$ out a small]1 cresc5t-%ap$ w\nd1 fre%ly heal$4 ,ea* w\nd w5t /raight ?r\gh ! h&4 ,! sight br\ght to my m9d di/9ct recollection ( ! l>ge squ>e iron nails ) cresc5t-tipp$ ends1 /ill us$ 9 ! ,ori5t1 b :i* ,i d n recall hav+ se5 9 ! ,we/4 ,! sa9t told me some?+ ( h] weekly trances4 8,z a helpless onlook]1 ,i obs]ve ! :ole ,passion ( ,*ri/40 ,ea* week1 f ,?ursday midnight until ,friday aft]noon at "o o'clock1 h] w\nds op5 & ble$2 %e loses t5 p\nds ( h] ord9>y #aba-p\nd weight4 ,suff]+ int5sely 9 h] sympa!tic love1 ,!rese yet looks =w>d joy\sly to ^! weekly visions ( h] ,"l4 ,i realiz$ at once t h] /range life is int5d$ by ,god to reassure all ,*ri/ians ( ! hi/orical au!nticity ( ,jesus' life & crucifixion z record$ 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t1 & to dramatically display ! ev]-liv+ bond betwe5 ! ,galilean ,ma/] & 8 devotees4 ,pr(essor ,wurz relat$ "s ( 8 exp]i5ces ) ! sa9t4 8,sev]al ( u1 includ+ ,!rese1 (t5 travel = days on sight-see+ trips ?r\gh\t ,g]many10 he told me4 8,x is a /rik+ contra/-:ile we h ?ree meals a day1 ,!rese eats no?+4 ,%e rema9s z fre% z a rose1 unt\*$ by ! fatigue :i* ! trips cause u4 ,z we gr[ hungry & hunt = wayside inns1 %e laughs m]rily40 ,! pr(essor add$ "s int]e/+ physiological details3 8,because ,!rese takes no food1 h] /oma* has %runk4 ,%e has no excretions1 b h] p]spiration gl&s function2 h] sk9 is always s(t & firm40 ,at ! "t ( p>t+1 ,i express$ to ,!rese my desire to be pres5t at h] trance4 8,yes1 please come to ,konn]sreu? next ,friday10 %e said graci\sly4 8,! bi%op w give y a p]mit4 ,i am v happy y s\ght me out 9 ,ei*/att40 ,!rese %ook h&s g5tly1 _m times1 & walk$ ) our p>ty to ! gate4 ,mr4 ,wright turn$ on ! automobile radio2 ! sa9t exam9$ x ) little en?usia/ic *uckles4 ,su* a l>ge cr[d ( y\ng/]s ga!r$ t ,!rese retreat$ into ! h\se4 ,we saw h] at a w9d[1 :]e %e pe]$ at u1 *ildlike1 wav+ h] h&4 ,illu/ration3 ,,!rese ,,neumann1 ,fam\s ,ca?olic ,/igmati/ :o inspir$ my #aice pilgrimage to ,konn]sreu?1 ,bav>ia--see neumann4jpg ,f a conv]sation ! next day ) two ( ,!rese's bro!rs1 v k9d & amiable1 we le>n$ t ! sa9t sleeps only "o or two h\rs at night4 ,9 spite ( ! _m w\nds 9 h] body1 %e is active & full ( en]gy4 ,%e loves birds1 looks aft] an aqu>ium ( fi%1 & works (t5 9 h] g>d54 ,h] correspond5ce is l>ge2 ,ca?olic devotees write h] = pray]s & heal+ bless+s4 ,_m seek]s h be5 cur$ ?r\gh h] ( s]i\s diseases4 ,h] bro!r ,f]d9&1 ab\t tw5ty-?ree1 expla9$ t ,!rese has ! p[]1 ?r\gh pray]1 ( work+ out on h] own body ! ailm5ts ( o!rs4 ,! sa9t's ab/95ce f food dates f a "t :5 %e pray$ t ! ?roat disease ( a "y man ( h] p>i%1 !n prep>+ to ent] holy ord]s1 be transf]r$ to h] own ?roat4 ,illu/ration3 ,two ,bro!rs ( ,!rese ,neumann1 ,i /& ) !m 9 ,konn]sreu?1 ,bav>ia4--see nbro!rs4jpg ,on ,?ursday aft]noon our p>ty drove to ! home ( ! bi%op1 :o look$ at my fl[+ locks ) "s surprise4 ,he readily wrote out ! necess>y p]mit4 ,!re 0 no fee2 ! rule made by ! ,*ur* is simply to protect ,!rese f ! onru% ( casual t\ri/s1 :o 9 previ\s ye>s _h flock$ on ,fridays by ! ?\s&s4 ,we arriv$ ,friday morn+ ab\t n9e-?irty 9 ,konn]sreu?4 ,i notic$ t ,!rese's little cottage possesses a special glass-ro($ section to af=d h] pl5ty ( light4 ,we 7 glad to see ! doors no long] clos$1 b wide-op5 9 hospitable *e]4 ,!re 0 a l9e ( ab\t tw5ty visitors1 arm$ ) _! p]mits4 ,_m _h come f great di/ances to view ! my/ic trance4 ,!rese _h pass$ my fir/ te/ at ! pr(essor's h\se by h] intuitive k t ,i want$ to see h] = spiritual reasons1 & n j to satisfy a pass+ curiosity4 ,my second te/ 0 connect$ ) ! fact t1 j be=e ,i w5t up/airs to h] room1 ,i put myself into a yogic trance /ate 9 ord] to be "o ) h] 9 telepa?ic & televisic rapport4 ,i ent]$ h] *amb]1 fill$ ) visitors2 %e 0 ly+ 9 a :ite robe on ! b$4 ,) ,mr4 ,wright foll[+ closely beh9d me1 ,i halt$ j inside ! ?re%old1 awe/ruck at a /range & mo/ frightful spectacle4 ,blood fl[$ ?9ly & cont9u\sly 9 an in*-wide /ream f ,!rese's l[] eyelids4 ,h] gaze 0 focus$ upw>d on ! spiritual eye )9 ! c5tral =ehead4 ,! clo? wrapp$ ar\nd h] head 0 dr5*$ 9 blood f ! /igmata w\nds ( ! cr[n ( ?orns4 ,! :ite g>m5t 0 r$ly splot*$ ov] h] he>t f ! w\nd 9 h] side at ! spot :]e ,*ri/'s body1 long ages ago1 _h suff]$ ! f9al indignity ( ! soldi]'s spe>-?ru/4 ,!rese's h&s 7 ext5d$ 9 a ge/ure mat]nal1 plead+2 h] face wore an expression bo? tortur$ & div9e4 ,%e appe>$ ?9n]1 *ang$ 9 _m subtle z well z outw>d ways4 ,murmur+ words 9 a =eign tongue1 %e spoke ) slightly quiv]+ lips to p]sons visible be=e h] inn] sight4 ,z ,i 0 9 attunem5t ) h]1 ,i began to see ! sc5es ( h] vision4 ,%e 0 wat*+ ,jesus z he c>ri$ ! cross amid/ ! je]+ multitude4 ,,fn#ci-d ,sudd5ly %e lift$ h] head 9 con/]nation3 ! ,"l _h fall5 "u ! cruel weight4 ,! vision disappe>$4 ,9 ! exhau/ion ( f]vid pity1 ,!rese sank heavily aga9/ h] pill[4 ,at ?is mom5t ,i he>d a l\d ?ud beh9d me4 ,turn+ my head = a second1 ,i saw two m5 c>ry+ out a pro/rate body4 ,b because ,i 0 com+ out ( ! deep sup]consci\s /ate1 ,i did n imm$iately recognize ! fall5 p]son4 ,aga9 ,i fix$ my eyes on ,!rese's face1 dea?ly pale "u ! rivulets ( blood1 b n[ calm1 radiat+ purity & hol9ess4 ,i glanc$ beh9d me lat] & saw ,mr4 ,wright /&+ ) 8 h& aga9/ 8 *eek1 f :i* blood 0 trickl+4 8,dick10 ,i inquir$ anxi\sly1 87 y ! "o :o fell80 8,yes1 ,i fa9t$ at ! t]rify+ spectacle40 8,well10 ,i said consol+ly1 8y are brave to return & look ^u ! sight aga940 ,rememb]+ ! pati5tly wait+ l9e ( pilgrims1 ,mr4 ,wright & ,i sil5tly bade f>ewell to ,!rese & left h] sacr$ pres5ce4 ,,fn#ci-e ,! foll[+ day our little gr\p motor$ s\?1 ?ankful t we 7 n dep5d5t on tra9s1 b c\ld /op ! ,=d :]ev] we *ose ?r\gh\t ! c\ntryside4 ,we enjoy$ e m9ute ( a t\r ?r\gh ,g]many1 ,holl&1 ,france1 & ! ,swiss ,alps4 ,9 ,italy we made a special trip to ,assisi to honor ! apo/le ( humility1 ,/4 ,francis4 ,! ,european t\r end$ 9 ,greece1 :]e we view$ ! ,a!nian temples1 & saw ! prison 9 :i* ! g5tle ,socrates ,,fn#ci-f _h drunk 8 dea? potion4 ,"o is fill$ ) admiration = ! arti/ry ) :i* ! ,greeks h ev]y:]e wr\ght _! v fancies 9 alaba/]4 ,we took %ip ov] ! sunny ,m$it]ranean1 disemb>k+ at ,pale/9e4 ,w&]+ day aft] day ov] ! ,holy ,l&1 ,i 0 m ?an ev] conv9c$ ( ! value ( pilgrimage4 ,! _s ( ,*ri/ is all-p]vasive 9 ,pale/9e2 ,i walk$ rev]5tly by 8 side at ,be?lehem1 ,ge?semane1 ,calv>y1 ! holy ,m\nt ( ,olives1 & by ! ,riv] ,jordan & ! ,sea ( ,galilee4 ,our little p>ty visit$ ! ,bir? ,mang]1 ,joseph's c>p5t] %op1 ! tomb ( ,laz>us1 ! h\se ( ,m>?a & ,m>y1 ! hall ( ! ,la/ ,supp]4 ,antiquity unfold$2 sc5e by sc5e1 ,i saw ! div9e drama t ,*ri/ once play$ = ! ages4 ,on to ,egypt1 ) its mod]n ,cairo & anci5t pyramids4 ,!n a boat d[n ! n>r[ ,r$ ,sea1 ov] ! va/y ,arabian ,sea2 lo1 ,india6 ,illu/ration3 ,mr4 ,wright1 myself1 ,miss ,blet*--9 ,egypt--see camel4jpg ,,fn#ci-a ,! rem>kable inclusion "h ( a complete date is due to ! fact t my secret>y1 ,mr4 ,wright1 kept a travel di>y4 ,,fn#ci-b ,o!r books on h] life are ,,!rese ,,neumann3 ,a ,,/igmati/ ,,( ,,our ,,day1 & ,,fur!r ,,*ronicles ,,( ,,!rese ,,neumann1 bo? by ,fri$ri* ,ritt] von ,lama 7,milwaukee3 ,bruce ,pub4 ,co474 ,,fn#ci-c ,,mat!w #d3d4 ,man's body batt]y is n su/a9$ by gross food 7bread7 alone1 b by ! vibratory cosmic en]gy 7^w1 or ,,aum74 ,! invisible p[] fl[s into ! human body ?r\gh ! gate ( ! m$ulla oblongata4 ,?is six? bodily c5t] is locat$ at ! back ( ! neck at ! top ( ! five sp9al ,,*akras 7,sanskrit = 8:eels0 or c5t]s ( radiat+ =ce74 ,! m$ulla is ! pr9cipal entrance = ! body's supply ( univ]sal life =ce 7,,aum71 & is directly connect$ ) man's p[] ( w1 conc5trat$ 9 ! sev5? or ,*ri/ ,consci\sness c5t] 7,,kuta/ha7 9 ! ?ird eye betwe5 ! eyebr[s4 ,cosmic en]gy is !n /or$ up 9 ! bra9 z a res]voir ( inf9ite pot5tialities1 poetically m5tion$ 9 ! ,,v$as z ! 8?\s&-petal$ lotus ( light40 ,! ,bible inv>iably ref]s to ,,aum z ! 8,holy ,gho/0 or invisible life =ce :i* div9ely upholds all creation4 8,:at8 "k ye n t y\r body is ! temple ( ! ,holy ,gho/ :i* is 9 y1 :i* ye h ( ,god1 & ye are n y\r own80-,i ,,cor9?ians #f3ai4 ,,fn#ci-d ,dur+ ! h\rs prec$+ my arrival1 ,!rese _h already pass$ ?r\gh _m visions ( ! clos+ days 9 ,*ri/'s life4 ,h] entrancem5t usually />ts ) sc5es ( ! ev5ts :i* foll[$ ! ,la/ ,supp]4 ,h] visions end ) ,jesus' dea? on ! cross or1 occasionally1 ) 8 entombm5t4 ,,fn#ci-e ,!rese has surviv$ ! ,nazi p]secution1 & is /ill pres5t 9 ,konn]sreu?1 accord+ to #aide ,am]ican news dispat*es f ,g]many4 ,,fn#ci-f ,a passage 9 ,eusebius relates an int]e/+ enc\nt] betwe5 ,socrates & a ,h9du sage4 ,! passage runs3 8,ari/ox5us1 ! musician1 tells ! foll[+ /ory ab\t ! ,indians4 ,"o ( ^! m5 met ,socrates at ,a!ns1 & ask$ him :at 0 ! scope ( 8 philosophy4 #8,an inquiry into human ph5om5a1' repli$ ,socrates4 ,at ?is ! ,indian bur/ out laugh+4 #8,h[ c a man inquire into human ph5om5a1' he said1 #8:5 he is ignorant ( div9e ones8'0 ,! ,ari/ox5us m5tion$ 0 a pupil ( ,ari/otle1 & a not$ writ] on h>monics4 ,8 date is #ccj ,b4,c4 ,,*apt]3 #dj ,i ,,return ,,to ,,india ,gratefully ,i 0 inhal+ ! bless$ air ( ,india4 ,our boat ,,rajputana dock$ on ,augu/ #bb1 #aice 9 ! huge h>bor ( ,bombay4 ,ev5 ?is1 my fir/ day (f ! %ip1 0 a =eta/e ( ! ye> ahead-twelve mon?s ( ceaseless activity4 ,fri5ds _h ga!r$ at ! dock ) g>l&s & greet+s2 soon1 at our suite 9 ! ,taj ,mahal ,hotel1 !re 0 a /ream ( report]s & photograph]s4 ,bombay 0 a city new to me2 ,i f\nd x en]getically mod]n1 ) _m innovations f ! ,we/4 ,palms l9e ! spaci\s b\lev>ds2 magnific5t /ate /ructures vie = int]e/ ) anci5t temples4 ,v little "t 0 giv5 to sight-see+1 h[ev]2 ,i 0 impati5t1 eag] to see my belov$ guru & o!r de> ones4 ,consign+ ! ,=d to a baggage c>1 our p>ty 0 soon spe$+ ea/w>d by tra9 t[>d ,calcutta4 ,,fn#dj-a ,our arrival at ,h[rah ,/ation f\nd su* an imm5se cr[d assembl$ to greet u t = a:ile we 7 unable to dism\nt f ! tra94 ,! "y ,mah>aja ( ,kasimbaz> & my bro!r ,bi%nu head$ ! reception committee2 ,i 0 unprep>$ = ! w>m? & magnitude ( our welcome4 ,prec$$ by a l9e ( automobiles & motorcycles1 & amid/ ! joy\s s\nd ( drums & con* %ells1 ,miss ,blet*1 ,mr4 ,wright1 & myself1 fl[]-g>l&$ f head to foot1 drove sl[ly to my fa!r's home4 ,illu/ration3 ,my bro!r ,bi%nu2 ,motilal ,mukh]ji ( ,s]ampore1 a highly advanc$ disciple ( ,sri ,yuktesw>2 my fa!r2 ,mr4 ,wright2 myself2 ,tulsi ,n>ayan ,bose2 ,swami ,satyan&a ( ,ran*i--see bi%nu4jpg ,illu/ration3 ,i /& ) my two si/]s1 ,roma 7at left7 & ,nal9i--see si/]s4jpg ,my ag$ p>5t embrac$ me z "o return+ f ! dead2 long we gaz$ on ea* o!r1 spee*less ) joy4 ,bro!rs & si/]s1 uncles1 aunts1 & c\s9s1 /ud5ts & fri5ds ( ye>s long pa/ 7 gr\p$ ar\nd me1 n a dry eye among u4 ,pass$ n[ into ! ar*ives ( memory1 ! sc5e ( lov+ reunion vividly endures1 un=gettable 9 my he>t4 ,illu/ration3 ,my v5]able fa!r1 seat$ 9 ! tranquil lotus po/ure1 ,calcutta1 #aicf--see fa!r#b4;jpg ,z = my meet+ ) ,sri ,yuktesw>1 words fail me2 let ! foll[+ description f my secret>y suffice4 8,today1 fill$ ) ! highe/ anticipations1 ,i drove ,yogan&aji f ,calcutta to ,s]ampore10 ,mr4 ,wright record$ 9 8 travel di>y4 8,we pass$ by qua9t %ops1 "o ( !m ! favorite eat+ haunt ( ,yogan&aji dur+ 8 college days1 & f9ally ent]$ a n>r[1 wall$ lane4 ,a sudd5 left turn1 & !re be=e u t[]$ ! simple b inspir+ two-/ory a%ram1 its ,spani%-/yle balcony jutt+ f ! upp] floor4 ,! p]vasive impression 0 t ( peaceful solitude4 8,9 grave humility ,i walk$ beh9d ,yogan&aji into ! c\rty>d )9 ! h]mitage walls4 ,he>ts beat+ fa/1 we proce$$ up "s old cem5t /eps1 trod1 no d\bt1 by myriads ( tru?-seek]s4 ,! t5sion grew ke5] & ke5] z on we /rode4 ,be=e u1 ne> ! head ( ! /airs1 quietly appe>$ ! ,great ,"o1 ,swami ,sri ,yuktesw>ji1 /&+ 9 ! noble pose ( a sage4 ,illu/ration3 ,sri ,yuktesw> & myself 9 ,calcutta1 #aice4 ,he is c>ry+ ! gift umbrella-cane--see gurus4jpg 8,my he>t heav$ & swell$ z ,i felt myself bless$ by ! privilege ( be+ 9 8 sublime pres5ce4 ,te>s blurr$ my eag] sight :5 ,yogan&aji dropp$ to 8 knees1 & ) b[$ head (f]$ 8 s\l's gratitude & greet+1 t\*+ ) 8 h& 8 guru's feet & !n1 9 humble obeisance1 8 own head4 ,he rose !n & 0 embrac$ on bo? sides ( ! bosom by ,sri ,yuktesw>ji4 8,no words pass$ at ! beg9n+1 b ! mo/ int5se feel+ 0 express$ 9 ! mute phrases ( ! s\l4 ,h[ _! eyes sp>kl$ & 7 fir$ ) ! w>m? ( r5ew$ s\l-union6 ,a t5d] vibration surg$ ?r\gh ! quiet patio1 & ev5 ! sun elud$ ! cl\ds to add a sudd5 blaze ( glory4 8,on b5d$ knee be=e ! ma/] ,i gave my own unexpress$ love & ?anks1 t\*+ 8 feet1 call\s$ by "t & s]vice1 & receiv+ 8 bless+4 ,i /ood !n & fac$ two beautiful deep eyes sm\ld]+ ) introspection1 yet radiant ) joy4 ,we ent]$ 8 sitt+ room1 ^: :ole side op5$ to ! out] balcony fir/ se5 f ! /reet4 ,! ma/] brac$ himself aga9/ a worn dav5port1 sitt+ on a cov]$ mattress on ! cem5t floor4 ,yogan&aji & ,i sat ne> ! guru's feet1 ) orange-color$ pill[s to lean aga9/ & ease our positions on ! /raw mat4 8,i tri$ & tri$ to p5etrate ! ,b5gali conv]sation betwe5 ! two ,swamijis-= ,engli%1 ,i discov]$1 is null & void :5 !y are toge!r1 al?\gh ,swamiji ,mah>aj1 z ! great guru is call$ by o!rs1 c & (t5 does speak x4 ,b ,i p]ceiv$ ! sa9tl9ess ( ! ,great ,"o ?r\gh 8 he>t-w>m+ smile & tw9kl+ eyes4 ,"o quality easily disc]nible 9 8 m]ry1 s]i\s conv]sation is a decid$ positiv5ess 9 /atem5t-! m>k ( a wise man1 :o kn[s he kn[s1 because he kn[s ,god4 ,8 great wisdom1 /r5g? ( purpose1 & det]m9ation are app>5t 9 e way4 8,/udy+ him rev]5tly f "t to "t1 ,i not$ t he is ( l>ge1 a?letic /ature1 h>d5$ by ! trials & sacrifices ( r5unciation4 ,8 poise is maje/ic4 ,a decid$ly slop+ =ehead1 z if seek+ ! heav5s1 dom9ates 8 div9e c\nt5ance4 ,he has a r l>ge & homely nose1 ) :i* he amuses himself 9 idle mom5ts1 flipp+ & wiggl+ x ) 8 f+]s1 l a *ild4 ,8 p[]ful d>k eyes are halo$ by an e!real blue r+4 ,8 hair1 p>t$ 9 ! middle1 beg9s z silv] & *anges to /reaks ( silv]y-gold & silv]y-black1 end+ 9 r+lets at 8 %\ld]s4 ,8 be>d & m\/a*e are scant or ?9n$ out1 yet seem to enhance 8 features &1 l 8 "*1 are deep & light at ! same "t4 8,he has a jovial & rollick+ laugh :i* comes f deep 9 8 *e/1 caus+ him to %ake & quiv] ?r\gh\t 8 body-v *e]ful & s9c]e4 ,8 face & /ature are /rik+ 9 _! p[]1 z are 8 muscul> f+]s4 ,he moves ) a dignifi$ tread & erect po/ure4 8,he 0 clad simply 9 ! common ,,dhoti & %irt1 bo? once dy$ a /rong o*] color1 b n[ a fad$ orange4 8,glanc+ ab\t1 ,i obs]v$ t ?is r dilapidat$ room sugge/$ ! own]'s non-atta*m5t to mat]ial com=ts4 ,! wea!r-/a9$ :ite walls ( ! long *amb] 7 /reak$ ) fad+ blue pla/]4 ,at "o end ( ! room hung a picture ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 g>l&$ 9 simple devotion4 ,!re 0 also an old picture %[+ ,yogan&aji z he _h fir/ arriv$ 9 ,bo/on1 /&+ ) ! o!r delegates to ! ,congress ( ,religions4 8,i not$ a qua9t concurr5ce ( mod]nity & antiquation4 ,a huge1 cut-glass1 c&le-light *&eli] 0 cov]$ ) cobwebs ?r\gh disuse1 & on ! wall 0 a bright1 up-to-date cal5d>4 ,! :ole room emanat$ a fragrance ( peace & calmness4 ,beyond ! balcony ,i c\ld see coconut trees t[]+ ov] ! h]mitage 9 sil5t protection4 8,x is int]e/+ to obs]ve t ! ma/] has m]ely to clap 8 h&s toge!r &1 be=e f9i%+1 he is s]v$ or att5d$ by "s small disciple4 ,incid5tally1 ,i am mu* attract$ to "o ( !m-a ?9 lad1 nam$ ,prafulla1 ,,fn#dj-b ) long black hair to 8 %\ld]s1 a mo/ p5etrat+ pair ( sp>kl+ black eyes1 & a heav5ly smile2 8 eyes tw9kle1 z ! corn]s ( 8 m\? rise1 l ! />s & ! cresc5t moon appe>+ at twilight4 8,swami ,sri ,yuktesw>ji's joy is obvi\sly int5se at ! return ( 8 #8product' 7& he seems to be some:at inquisitive ab\t ! #8product's product'74 ,h[ev]1 pr$om9ance ( ! wisdom-aspect 9 ! ,great ,"o's nature h9d]s 8 outw>d expression ( feel+4 8,yogan&aji pres5t$ him ) "s gifts1 z is ! cu/om :5 ! disciple returns to 8 guru4 ,we sat d[n lat] to a simple b well-cook$ meal4 ,all ! di%es 7 vegetable & rice comb9ations4 ,sri ,yuktesw>ji 0 pleas$ at my use ( a numb] ( ,indian cu/oms1 #8f+]-eat+' = example4 8,aft] sev]al h\rs ( fly+ ,b5gali phrases & ! ex*ange ( w>m smiles & joyful glances1 we paid obeisance at 8 feet1 bade adieu ) a ,,pronam1 ,,fn#dj-c & dep>t$ = ,calcutta ) an ev]la/+ memory ( a sacr$ meet+ & greet+4 ,al?\gh ,i write *iefly ( my ext]nal impressions ( him1 yet ,i 0 always consci\s ( ! true basis ( ! sa9t-8 spiritual glory4 ,i felt 8 p[]1 & %all c>ry t feel+ z my div9e bless+40 ,f ,am]ica1 ,europe1 & ,pale/9e ,i _h br\ght _m pres5ts = ,sri ,yuktesw>4 ,he receiv$ !m smil+ly1 b )\t rem>k4 ,= my own use1 ,i _h b\ght 9 ,g]many a comb9ation umbrella-cane4 ,9 ,india ,i decid$ to give ! cane to ,ma/]4 8,?is gift ,i appreciate inde$60 ,my guru's eyes 7 turn$ on me ) affectionate und]/&+ z he made ! unwont$ comm5t4 ,f all ! pres5ts1 x 0 ! cane t he s+l$ out to display to visitors4 8,ma/]1 please p]mit me to get a new c>pet = ! sitt+ room40 ,i _h notic$ t ,sri ,yuktesw>'s tig] sk9 0 plac$ ov] a torn rug4 8,d s if x pleases y40 ,my guru's voice 0 n en?usia/ic4 8,behold1 my tig] mat is nice & clean2 ,i am mon>* 9 my own little k+dom4 ,beyond x is ! va/ _w1 int]e/$ only 9 ext]nals40 ,z he utt]$ ^! words ,i felt ! ye>s roll back2 once aga9 ,i am a "y disciple1 purifi$ 9 ! daily fires ( *a/isem5t6 ,z soon z ,i c\ld te> myself away f ,s]ampore & ,calcutta1 ,i set out1 ) ,mr4 ,wright1 = ,ran*i4 ,:at a welcome !re1 a v]itable ovation6 ,te>s /ood 9 my eyes z ,i embrac$ ! selfless tea*]s :o _h kept ! bann] ( ! s*ool fly+ dur+ my fifte5 ye>s' abs5ce4 ,! bright faces & happy smiles ( ! resid5tial & day /ud5ts 7 ample te/imony to ! wor? ( _! _m-sid$ s*ool & yoga tra9+4 ,yet1 alas6 ! ,ran*i in/itution 0 9 dire f9ancial difficulties4 ,sir ,man9dra ,*&ra ,nundy1 ! old ,mah>aja ^: ,kasimbaz> ,palace _h be5 conv]t$ into ! c5tral s*ool build+1 & :o _h made _m pr9cely donations 0 n[ dead4 ,_m free1 b5evol5t features ( ! s*ool 7 n[ s]i\sly endang]$ = lack ( suffici5t public support4 ,i _h n sp5t ye>s 9 ,am]ica )\t le>n+ "s ( its practical wisdom1 its undaunt$ _s be=e ob/acles4 ,= "o week ,i rema9$ 9 ,ran*i1 wre/l+ ) critical problems4 ,!n came int]views 9 ,calcutta ) prom95t lead]s & educators1 a long talk ) ! "y ,mah>aja ( ,kasimbaz>1 a f9ancial appeal to my fa!r1 & lo6 ! %aky f\ndations ( ,ran*i began to be right$4 ,_m donations includ+ "o huge *eck arriv$ 9 ! nick ( "t f my ,am]ican /ud5ts4 ,)9 a few mon?s aft] my arrival 9 ,india1 ,i _h ! joy ( see+ ! ,ran*i s*ool legally incorporat$4 ,my lifelong dream ( a p]man5tly end[$ yoga educational c5t] /ood fulfill$4 ,t vision _h guid$ me 9 ! humble beg9n+s 9 #aiag ) a gr\p ( sev5 boys4 ,9 ! decade s9ce #aice1 ,ran*i has enl>g$ its scope f> beyond ! boys' s*ool4 ,widespread humanit>ian activities are n[ c>ri$ on !re 9 ! ,%yama ,*>an ,lahiri ,mahasaya ,mission4 ,! s*ool1 or ,yogoda ,sat-,sanga ,brahma*>ya ,vidyalaya1 conducts outdoor classes 9 gramm> & high s*ool subjects4 ,! resid5tial /ud5ts & day s*ol>s also receive vocational tra9+ ( "s k9d4 ,! boys !mselves regulate mo/ ( _! activities ?r\gh autonom\s committees4 ,v e>ly 9 my c>e] z an educator ,i discov]$ t boys :o impi%ly delight 9 outwitt+ a tea*] w *e]fully accept discipl9>y rules t are set by _! fell[ /ud5ts4 ,nev] a model pupil myself1 ,i _h a ready sympa?y = all boyi% pranks & problems4 ,sports & games are enc\rag$2 ! fields res\nd ) hockey & football practice4 ,ran*i /ud5ts (t5 w9 ! cup at competitive ev5ts4 ,! outdoor gymnasium is kn[n f> & wide4 ,muscle re*>g+ ?r\gh w p[] is ! ,,yogoda feature3 m5tal direction ( life en]gy to any "p ( ! body4 ,! boys are also taught ,,asanas 7po/ures71 sword & ,,la?i 7/ick7 play1 & jujitsu4 ,! ,yogoda ,heal? ,exhibitions at ! ,ran*i ,,vidyalaya h be5 att5d$ by ?\s&s4 ,in/ruction 9 prim>y subjects is giv5 9 ,h9di to ! ,,kols1 ,,santals1 & ,,mundas1 aborig9al tribes ( ! prov9ce4 ,classes = girls only h be5 organiz$ 9 ne>-by villages4 ,! unique feature at ,ran*i is ! initiation into ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,! boys daily practice _! spiritual ex]cises1 engage 9 ,,gita *ant+1 & are taught by precept & example ! virtues ( simplicity1 self-sacrifice1 honor1 & tru?4 ,evil is po9t$ out to !m z be+ t :i* produces mis]y2 good z ^? actions :i* result 9 true happ9ess4 ,evil may be comp>$ to poison$ honey1 tempt+ b lad5 ) dea?4 ,ov]com+ re/lessness ( body & m9d by conc5tration te*niques has a*iev$ a/oni%+ results3 x is no novelty at ,ran*i to see an appeal+ little figure1 ag$ n9e or t5 ye>s1 sitt+ = an h\r or m 9 unbrok5 poise1 ! unw9k+ gaze direct$ to ! spiritual eye4 ,(t5 ! picture ( ^! ,ran*i /ud5ts has return$ to my m9d1 z ,i obs]v$ collegians ov] ! _w :o are h>dly able to sit /ill ?r\gh "o class p]iod4 ,,fn#dj-d ,ran*i lies #bjjj feet above sea level2 ! climate is mild & equable4 ,! tw5ty-five acre site1 by a l>ge ba?+ pond1 includes "o ( ! f9e/ or*>ds 9 ,india-five hundr$ fruit trees-mango1 guava1 lit*i1 jackfruit1 date4 ,! boys gr[ _! own vegetables1 & sp9 at _! ,,*>kas4 ,a gue/ h\se is hospitably op5 = ,we/]n visitors4 ,! ,ran*i libr>y conta9s num]\s magaz9es1 & ab\t a ?\s& volumes 9 ,engli% & ,b5gali1 donations f ! ,we/ & ! ,ea/4 ,!re is a collection ( ! scriptures ( ! _w4 ,a well-classifi$ museum displays ar*eological1 geological1 & an?ropological exhibits2 trophies1 to a great ext5t1 ( my w&]+s ov] ! ,"l's v>i$ e>?4 ,illu/ration3 ,a gr\p ( ,ran*i /ud5ts & tea*]s pose ) ! v5]able ,mah>aja ( ,kasimbaz> 7at c5t]1 9 :ite74 ,9 #aiah he gave 8 ,kasimbaz> ,palace & tw5ty-five acres 9 ,ran*i z a p]man5t site = my yoga s*ool = boys4--see tea*]s4jpg ,! *>itable hospital & disp5s>y ( ! ,lahiri ,mahasaya ,mission1 ) _m outdoor bran*es 9 di/ant villages1 h already m9i/]$ to #aej1jjj ( ,india's poor4 ,! ,ran*i /ud5ts are tra9$ 9 fir/ aid1 & h giv5 praisewor?y s]vice to _! prov9ce at tragic times ( flood or fam9e4 ,9 ! or*>d /&s a ,%iva temple1 ) a /atue ( ! bless$ ma/]1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,daily pray]s & scripture classes are held 9 ! g>d5 "u ! mango b[]s4 ,bran* high s*ools1 ) ! resid5tial & yoga features ( ,ran*i1 h be5 op5$ & are n[ fl\ri%+4 ,^! are ! ,yogoda ,sat-,sanga ,vidyapi? 7,s*ool7 = ,boys1 at ,lak%manpur 9 ,bih>2 & ! ,yogoda ,sat-,sanga ,high ,s*ool & h]mitage at ,ejmali*ak 9 ,midnapore4 ,a /ately ,yogoda ,ma? 0 d$icat$ 9 #aici at ,dak%9esw>1 directly on ! ,ganges4 ,only a few miles nor? ( ,calcutta1 ! new h]mitage af=ds a hav5 ( peace = city dwell]s4 ,suitable accommodations are available = ,we/]n gue/s1 & p>ticul>ly = ^? seek]s :o are int5sely d$icat+ _! lives to spiritual realization4 ,! activities ( ! ,yogoda ,ma? include a =tnightly mail+ ( ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip tea*+s to /ud5ts 9 v>i\s p>ts ( ,india4 ,illu/ration3 ,yogoda ,ma?1 beautiful h]mitage ( ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip at ,dak%9esw> on ! ,ganges4 ,f\nd$ 9 #aich z a yoga retreat = /ud5ts ( ,ea/ & ,we/4--see ma?4jpg ,x is ne$less to say t all ^! educational & humanit>ian activities h requir$ ! self-sacrific+ s]vice & devotion ( _m tea*]s & work]s4 ,i d n li/ _! names "h1 because !y are s num]\s2 b 9 my he>t ea* "o has a lu/r\s ni*e4 ,inspir$ by ! ideals ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 ^! tea*]s h ab&on$ promis+ worldly goals to s]ve humbly1 to give greatly4 ,mr4 ,wright =m$ _m fa/ fri5d%ips ) ,ran*i boys2 clad 9 a simple ,,dhoti1 he liv$ = a:ile among !m4 ,at ,ran*i1 ,calcutta1 ,s]ampore1 ev]y:]e he w5t1 my secret>y1 :o has a vivid gift ( description1 haul$ out 8 travel di>y to record 8 adv5tures4 ,"o ev5+ ,i ask$ him a "q4 8,dick1 :at is y\r impression ( ,india80 8,peace10 he said ?\ghtfully4 8,! racial aura is peace40 ,,fn#dj-a ,we broke our j\rney 9 ,c5tral ,prov9ces1 halfway across ! cont95t1 to see ,mahatma ,g&hi at ,w>dha4 ,^? days are describ$ 9 *apt] #dd4 ,,fn#dj-b ,prafulla 0 ! lad :o _h be5 pres5t ) ,ma/] :5 a cobra approa*$ 7see page #aaf74 ,,fn#dj-c ,lit]ally1 8holy "n10 a ^w ( greet+ among ,h9dus1 accompani$ by palm-fold$ h&s lift$ f ! he>t to ! =ehead 9 salutation4 ,a ,,pronam 9 ,india takes ! place ( ! ,we/]n greet+ by h&%ak+4 ,,fn#dj-d ,m5tal tra9+ ?r\gh c]ta9 conc5tration te*niques has produc$ 9 ea* ,indian g5]ation m5 ( prodigi\s memory4 ,sir ,t4 ,vijay>aghava*>i1 9 ! ,,h9du/an ,,times1 has describ$ ! te/s put to ! mod]n pr(essional 8memory m50 ( ,madras4 8,^! m510 he wrote1 87 unusually le>n$ 9 ,sanskrit lit]ature4 ,seat$ 9 ! mid/ ( a l>ge audi5ce1 !y 7 equal to ! te/s t sev]al memb]s ( ! audi5ce simultane\sly put !m to4 ,! te/ w\ld be l ?is3 "o p]son w\ld />t r++ a bell1 ! numb] ( r+s hav+ to be c\nt$ by ! #8memory man4' ,a second p]son w\ld dictate f a pap] a long ex]cise 9 ari?metic1 involv+ addition1 subtraction1 multiplication1 & division4 ,a ?ird w\ld g on recit+ f ! ,,ramayana or ! ,,mahabh>ata a long s]ies ( poems1 :i* _h to be reproduc$2 a f\r? w\ld set problems 9 v]sification :i* requir$ ! composition ( v]ses 9 prop] met] on a giv5 subject1 ea* l9e to end 9 a specifi$ ^w1 a fif? man w\ld c>ry on ) a six? a !ological disputation1 ! exact language ( :i* _h to be quot$ 9 ! precise ord] 9 :i* ! disputants conduct$ x1 & a sev5? man 0 all ! :ile turn+ a :eel1 ! numb] ( revolutions ( :i* _h to be c\nt$4 ,! memory exp]t _h simultane\sly to d all ^! feats purely by m5tal processes1 z he 0 all[$ no pap] & p5cil4 ,! /ra9 on ! faculties mu/ h be5 t]rific4 ,ord9>ily m5 9 unconsci\s envy are apt to depreciate su* ef=ts by affect+ to believe t !y involve only ! ex]cise ( ! l[] function+s ( ! bra94 ,x is n1 h[ev]1 a pure "q ( memory4 ,! great] factor is ! imm5se conc5tration ( m9d40 ,,*apt]3 #da ,,an ,,idyl ,,9 ,,s\? ,,india 8,y are ! fir/ ,we/]n]1 ,dick1 ev] to ent] t %r9e4 ,_m o!rs h tri$ 9 va940 ,at my words ,mr4 ,wright look$ />tl$1 !n pleas$4 ,we _h j left ! beautiful ,*amundi ,temple 9 ! hills ov]look+ ,mysore 9 s\!rn ,india4 ,!re we _h b[$ be=e ! gold & silv] alt>s ( ! ,goddess ,*amundi1 patron deity ( ! family ( ! reign+ mah>aja4 8,z a s\v5ir ( ! unique honor10 ,mr4 ,wright said1 c>efully /[+ away a few bless$ rose petals1 8,i w always pres]ve ?is fl[]1 spr9kl$ by ! prie/ ) rose wat]40 ,my companion & ,i ,,fn#da-a 7 sp5d+ ! mon? ( ,novemb]1 #aice1 z gue/s ( ! ,/ate ( ,mysore4 ,! ,mah>aja1 ,h4,h4 ,sri ,kri%n>aja ,wadiy> ,,iv1 is a model pr9ce ) intellig5t devotion to 8 p4 ,a pi\s ,h9du1 ! ,mah>aja has emp[]$ a ,mohamm$an1 ! able ,mirza ,ismail1 z 8 ,dewan or ,premi]4 ,popul> repres5tation is giv5 to ! sev5 million inhabitants ( ,mysore 9 bo? an ,assembly & a ,legislative ,c\ncil4 ,! heir to ! ,mah>aja1 ,h4,h4 ! ,yuv>aja1 ,sir ,sri ,kri%na ,n>as+h>aj ,wadiy>1 _h invit$ my secret>y & me to visit 8 enlight5$ & progressive realm4 ,dur+ ! pa/ =tnight ,i _h address$ ?\s&s ( ,mysore citiz5s & /ud5ts1 at ! ,t[n ,hall1 ! ,mah>ajah's ,college1 ! ,univ]sity ,m$ical ,s*ool2 & ?ree mass meet+s 9 ,bangalore1 at ! ,national ,high ,s*ool1 ! ,int]m$iate ,college1 & ! ,*etty ,t[n ,hall :]e ov] ?ree ?\s& p]sons _h assembl$4 ,:e!r ! eag] li/5]s _h be5 able to cr$it ! gl[+ picture ,i drew ( ,am]ica1 ,i "k n2 b ! applause _h always be5 l\de/ :5 ,i spoke ( ! mutual b5efits t c\ld fl[ f ex*ange ( ! be/ features 9 ,ea/ & ,we/4 ,mr4 ,wright & ,i 7 n[ relax+ 9 ! tropical peace4 ,8 travel di>y gives ! foll[+ acc\nt ( 8 impressions ( ,mysore3 8,brilliantly gre5 rice fields1 v>i$ by tassel$ sug> cane pat*es1 ne/le at ! protective foot ( rocky hills-hills dott+ ! em]ald panorama l excresc5ces ( black /one-& ! play ( colors is enhanc$ by ! sudd5 & dramatic disappe>ance ( ! sun z x seeks re/ beh9d ! solemn hills4 8,_m raptur\s mom5ts h be5 sp5t 9 gaz+1 almo/ abs5t-m9d$ly1 at ! ev]-*ang+ canvas ( ,god /ret*$ across ! firmam5t1 = ,8 t\* alone is able to produce colors t vibrate ) ! fre%ness ( life4 ,t y\? ( colors is lo/ :5 man tries to imitate ) m]e pigm5ts1 = ! ,"l resorts to a m simple & effective m$ium-oils t are nei!r oils nor pigm5ts1 b m]e rays ( light4 ,he tosses a spla% ( light "h1 & x reflects r$2 ,he waves ! bru% aga9 & x bl5ds gradually into orange & gold2 !n ) a pi]c+ ?ru/ ,he /abs ! cl\ds ) a /reak ( purple t leaves a r+let or fr+e ( r$ ooz+ out ( ! w\nd 9 ! cl\ds2 & s1 on & on1 ,he plays1 night & morn+ alike1 ev]-*ang+1 ev]-new1 ev]-fre%2 no patt]ns1 no duplicates1 no colors j ! same4 ,! beauty ( ! ,indian *ange 9 day to night is beyond comp>e else:]e2 (t5 ! sky looks z if ,god _h tak5 all ! colors 9 ,8 kit & giv5 !m "o mighty kaleidoscopic toss into ! heav5s4 8,i mu/ relate ! spl5dor ( a twilight visit to ! huge ,kri%n>aja ,sag> ,dam1 ,,fn#da-b con/ruct$ twelve miles outside ( ,mysore4 ,yogan&aji & ,i bo>d$ a small bus &1 ) a small boy z (ficial crank] or batt]y sub/itute1 />t$ (f ov] a smoo? dirt road1 j z ! sun 0 sett+ on ! horizon & squa%+ l an ov]ripe tomato4 8,our j\rney l$ pa/ ! omnipres5t squ>e rice fields1 ?r\gh a l9e ( com=t+ banyan trees1 9 betwe5 a grove ( t[]+ coconut palms1 ) vegetation ne>ly z ?ick z 9 a jungle1 & f9ally1 approa*+ ! cre/ ( a hill1 we came face-to-face ) an imm5se artificial lake1 reflect+ ! />s & fr+e ( palms & o!r trees1 surr\nd$ by lovely t]rac$ g>d5s & a r[ ( electric lights on ! br9k ( ! dam-& bel[ x our eyes met a dazzl+ spectacle ( color$ beams play+ on geys]like f\nta9s1 l s _m /reams ( brilliant ink p\r+ =?-gorge\sly blue wat]falls1 arre/+ r$ cat>acts1 gre5 & yell[ sprays1 elephants sp\t+ wat]1 a m9iature ( ! ,*icago ,_w's ,fair1 & yet mod]nly out/&+ 9 ?is anci5t l& ( paddy fields & simple p1 :o h giv5 u su* a lov+ welcome t ,i fe> x w take m ?an my /r5g? to br+ ,yogan&aji back to ,am]ica4 8,ano!r r>e privilege-my fir/ elephant ride4 ,ye/]day ! ,yuv>aja invit$ u to 8 summ] palace to enjoy a ride on "o ( 8 elephants1 an enorm\s bea/4 ,i m\nt$ a ladd] provid$ to climb al(t to ! ,,h[dah or saddle1 :i* is silk-cu%ion$ & boxlike2 & !n = a roll+1 toss+1 sway+1 & heav+ d[n into a gully1 too mu* ?rill$ to worry or exclaim1 b hang+ on = de> life60 ,s\!rn ,india1 ri* ) hi/orical & ar*aeological rema9s1 is a l& ( def9ite & yet indef9able *>m4 ,to ! nor? ( ,mysore is ! l>ge/ native /ate 9 ,india1 ,hyd]abad1 a picturesque plateau cut by ! mighty ,godav>i ,riv]4 ,broad f]tile pla9s1 ! lovely ,nilgiris or 8,blue ,m\nta9s10 o!r regions ) b>r5 hills ( lime/one or granite4 ,hyd]abad hi/ory is a long1 colorful /ory1 />t+ ?ree ?\s& ye>s ago "u ! ,&hra k+s1 & cont9u+ "u ,h9du dyna/ies until ,a4,d4 #abid1 :5 x pass$ to a l9e ( ,moslem rul]s :o reign to ?is day4 ,! mo/ brea?-tak+ display ( ar*itecture1 sculpture1 & pa9t+ 9 all ,india is f\nd at ,hyd]abad 9 ! anci5t rock-sculptur$ caves ( ,ellora & ,ajanta4 ,! ,kailasa at ,ellora1 a huge monoli?ic temple1 possesses c>v$ figures ( gods1 m51 & bea/s 9 ! /up5d\s proportions ( a ,mi*elangelo4 ,ajanta is ! site ( five ca!drals & tw5ty-five mona/]ies1 all rock excavations ma9ta9$ by trem5d\s fresco$ pill>s on :i* arti/s & sculptors h immortaliz$ _! g5ius4 ,hyd]abad ,city is grac$ by ! ,osmania ,univ]sity & by ! impos+ ,mecca ,masjid ,mosque1 :]e t5 ?\s& ,mohamm$ans may assemble = pray]4 ,mysore ,/ate too is a sc5ic wond]l&1 ?ree ?\s& feet above sea level1 ab\nd+ 9 d5se tropical =e/s1 ! home ( wild elephants1 bison1 be>s1 pan!rs1 & tig]s4 ,its two *ief cities1 ,bangalore & ,mysore1 are clean1 attractive1 ) _m p>ks & public g>d5s4 ,h9du ar*itecture & sculpture a*iev$ _! highe/ p]fection 9 ,mysore "u ! patronage ( ,h9du k+s f ! elev5? to ! fifte5? c5turies4 ,! temple at ,belur1 an elev5?-c5tury ma/]piece complet$ dur+ ! reign ( ,k+ ,vi%nuv>dhana1 is unsurpass$ 9 ! _w = its delicacy ( detail & exub]ant imag]y4 ,! rock pill>s f\nd 9 nor!rn ,mysore date f ! ?ird c5tury ,b4,c41 illum9at+ ! memory ( ,k+ ,asoka4 ,he succe$$ to ! ?rone ( ! ,maurya dyna/y !n prevail+2 8 empire includ$ ne>ly all ( mod]n ,india1 ,afghani/an1 & ,balu*i/an4 ,?is illu/ri\s emp]or1 consid]$ ev5 by ,we/]n hi/orians to h be5 an incomp>able rul]1 has left ! foll[+ wisdom on a rock memorial3 ,?is religi\s inscription has be5 engrav$ 9 ord] t our sons & gr&sons may n ?9k a new conque/ is necess>y2 t !y may n ?9k conque/ by ! sword des]ves ! "n ( conque/2 t !y may see 9 x no?+ b de/ruction & viol5ce2 t !y may consid] no?+ z true conque/ save ! conque/ ( religion4 ,su* conque/s h value 9 ?is _w & 9 ! next4 ,asoka 0 a gr&son ( ! =midable ,*&ragupta ,maurya 7kn[n to ! ,greeks z ,s&rocottus71 :o 9 8 y\? _h met ,alex&] ! ,great4 ,lat] ,*&ragupta de/roy$ ! ,mac$onian g>risons left 9 ,india1 defeat$ ! invad+ ,greek army ( ,seleucus 9 ! ,punjab1 & !n receiv$ at 8 ,patna c\rt ! ,hell5ic ambassador ,mega/h5es4 ,int5sely int]e/+ /ories h be5 m9utely record$ by ,greek hi/orians & o!rs :o accompani$ or foll[$ aft] ,alex&] 9 8 exp$ition to ,india4 ,! n>ratives ( ,arrian1 ,diodoros1 ,plut>*1 & ,/rabo ! geograph] h be5 translat$ by ,dr4 ,j4 ,w4 ,m',cr9dle ,,fn#da-c to ?r[ a %aft ( light on anci5t ,india4 ,! mo/ admirable feature ( ,alex&]'s unsuccessful invasion 0 ! deep int]e/ he display$ 9 ,h9du philosophy & 9 ! yogis & holy m5 :om he enc\nt]$ f "t to "t & ^: society he eag]ly s\ght4 ,%ortly aft] ! ,greek w>rior _h arriv$ 9 ,taxila 9 nor!rn ,india1 he s5t a mess5g]1 ,onesikritos1 a disciple ( ! ,hell5ic s*ool ( ,diog5es1 to fet* an ,indian tea*]1 ,d&amis1 a great sannyasi ( ,taxila4 8,hail to !e1 ,o tea*] ( ,brahm9s60 ,onesikritos said aft] seek+ out ,d&amis 9 8 =e/ retreat4 8,! son ( ! mighty ,god ,zeus1 be+ ,alex&] :o is ! ,sov]eign ,"l ( all m51 asks y to g to him1 & if y comply1 he w rew>d y ) great gifts1 b if y refuse1 he w cut (f y\r head60 ,! yogi receiv$ ?is fairly compulsive invitation calmly1 & 8did n s mu* z lift up 8 head f 8 c\* ( leaves40 8,i also am a son ( ,zeus1 if ,alex&] be su*10 he comm5t$4 8,i want no?+ t is ,alex&]'s1 = ,i am cont5t ) :at ,i h1 :ile ,i see t he w&]s ) 8 m5 ov] sea & l& = no advantage1 & is nev] com+ to an end ( 8 w&]+s4 8,g & tell ,alex&] t ,god ! ,supreme ,k+ is nev] ! ,au?or ( insol5t wrong1 b is ! ,creator ( light1 ( peace1 ( life1 ( wat]1 ( ! body ( man & ( s\ls2 ,he receives all m5 :5 dea? sets !m free1 be+ 9 no way subject to evil disease4 ,he alone is ! ,god ( my homage1 :o abhors slaught] & in/igates no w>s4 8,alex&] is no god1 s9ce he mu/ ta/e ( dea?10 cont9u$ ! sage 9 quiet scorn4 8,h[ c su* z he be ! _w's ma/]1 :5 he has n yet seat$ himself on a ?rone ( inn] univ]sal dom9ion8 ,nei!r z yet has he ent]$ liv+ into ,hades1 nor does he "k ! c\rse ( ! sun ?r\gh ! c5tral regions ( ! e>?1 :ile ! nations on its b\nd>ies h n s mu* z he>d 8 "n60 ,aft] ?is *a/isem5t1 surely ! mo/ cau/ic ev] s5t to assault ! e>s ( ! 8,"l ( ! ,_w10 ! sage add$ ironically1 8,if ,alex&]'s pres5t dom9ions be n capaci\s en\gh = 8 desires1 let him cross ! ,ganges ,riv]2 !re he w f9d a region able to su/a9 all 8 m51 if ! c\ntry on ?is side be too n>r[ to hold him4 ,,fn#da-d 8,"k ?is1 h[ev]1 t :at ,alex&] (f]s & ! gifts he promises are ?+s to me utt]ly useless2 ! ?+s ,i prize & f9d ( real use & wor? are ^! leaves :i* are my h\se1 ^! bloom+ plants :i* supply me ) daily food1 & ! wat] :i* is my dr9k2 :ile all o!r possessions :i* are amass$ ) anxi\s c>e are wont to prove ru9\s to ^? :o ga!r !m1 & cause only sorr[ & vexation1 ) :i* e poor mortal is fully fraught4 ,z = me1 ,i lie ^u ! =e/ leaves1 & hav+ no?+ :i* requires gu>d+1 close my eyes 9 tranquil slumb]2 :]eas _h ,i any?+ to gu>d1 t w\ld bani% sleep4 ,! e>? supplies me ) ev]y?+1 ev5 z a "m h] *ild ) milk4 ,i g :]ev] ,i please1 & !re are no c>es ) :i* ,i am =c$ to cumb] myself4 8,%\ld ,alex&] cut (f my head1 he _c also de/roy my s\l4 ,my head alone1 !n sil5t1 w rema91 leav+ ! body l a torn g>m5t ^u ! e>?1 :5ce also x 0 tak54 ,i !n1 becom+ ,_s1 %all asc5d to my ,god1 :o enclos$ u all 9 fle% & left u ^u e>? to prove :e!r1 :5 "h bel[1 we %all live ob$i5t to ,8 ord9ances & :o also w require ( u all1 :5 we dep>t h5ce to ,8 pres5ce1 an acc\nt ( our life1 s9ce ,he is ,judge ( all pr\d wrongdo+2 = ! groans ( ! oppress$ become ! puni%m5t ( ! oppressor4 8,let ,alex&] !n t]rify ) ^! ?reats ^? :o wi% = weal? & :o dread dea?1 = aga9/ u ^! weapons are bo? alike p[]less2 ! ,brahm9s nei!r love gold nor fe> dea?4 ,g !n & tell ,alex&] ?is3 ,d&amis has no ne$ ( aught t is y\rs1 & !re=e w n g to y1 & if y want any?+ f ,d&amis1 come y to him40 ,) close att5tion ,alex&] receiv$ ?r\gh ,onesikritos ! message f ! yogi1 & 8felt a /rong] desire ?an ev] to see ,d&amis :o1 ?\gh old & nak$1 0 ! only antagoni/ 9 :om he1 ! conqu]or ( _m nations1 _h met m ?an 8 mat*40 ,alex&] invit$ to ,taxila a numb] ( ,brahm9 ascetics not$ = _! skill 9 answ]+ philosophical que/ions ) pi?y wisdom4 ,an acc\nt ( ! v]bal skirmi% is giv5 by ,plut>*2 ,alex&] himself fram$ all ! que/ions4 8,:i* be ! m num]\s1 ! liv+ or ! dead80 8,! liv+1 = ! dead are n40 8,:i* bre$s ! l>g] animals1 ! sea or ! l&80 8,! l&1 = ! sea is only a "p ( l&40 8,:i* is ! clev]e/ ( bea/s80 8,t "o ) :i* man is n yet acqua9t$40 7,man fe>s ! unkn[n47 8,:i* exi/$ fir/1 ! day or ! night80 8,! day 0 fir/ by "o day40 ,?is reply caus$ ,alex&] to betray surprise2 ! ,brahm9 add$3 8,impossible que/ions require impossible answ]s40 8,h[ be/ may a man make himself belov$80 8,a man w be belov$ if1 possess$ ) great p[]1 he /ill does n make himself fe>$40 8,h[ may a man become a god80 ,,fn#da-e 8,by do+ t :i* x is impossible = a man to d40 8,:i* is /rong]1 life or dea?80 8,life1 because x be>s s _m evils40 ,alex&] succe$$ 9 tak+ out ( ,india1 z 8 tea*]1 a true yogi4 ,?is man 0 ,swami ,sph9es1 call$ 8,kalanos0 by ! ,greeks because ! sa9t1 a devotee ( ,god 9 ! =m ( ,kali1 greet$ ev]yone by pron\nc+ ,h] auspici\s "n4 ,kalanos accompani$ ,alex&] to ,p]sia4 ,on a /at$ day1 at ,susa 9 ,p]sia1 ,kalanos gave up 8 ag$ body by ent]+ a fun]al pyre 9 view ( ! :ole ,mac$onian army4 ,! hi/orians record ! a/oni%m5t ( ! soldi]s :o obs]v$ t ! yogi _h no fe> ( pa9 or dea?1 & :o nev] once mov$ f 8 position z he 0 consum$ 9 ! flames4 ,be=e leav+ = 8 cremation1 ,kalanos _h embrac$ all 8 close companions1 b refra9$ f bidd+ f>ewell to ,alex&]1 to :om ! ,h9du sage _h m]ely rem>k$3 8,i %all see y %ortly 9 ,babylon40 ,alex&] left ,p]sia1 & di$ a ye> lat] 9 ,babylon4 ,8 ,indian guru's words _h be5 8 way ( say+ he w\ld be pres5t ) ,alex&] 9 life & dea?4 ,! ,greek hi/orians h left u _m vivid & inspir+ pictures ( ,indian society4 ,h9du law1 ,arrian tells u1 protects ! p & 8orda9s t no "o among !m %all1 "u any circum/ances1 be a slave b t1 enjoy+ fre$om !mselves1 !y %all respect ! equal "r to x :i* all possess4 ,= ^?1 !y ?\ght1 :o h le>n$ nei!r to dom9e] ov] nor cr+e to o!rs w atta9 ! life be/ adapt$ = all vicissitudes ( lot40 ,,fn#da-f 8,! ,indians10 runs ano!r text1 8nei!r put out money at usury1 nor "k h[ to borr[4 ,x is contr>y to e/abli%$ usage = an ,indian ei!r to d or suff] a wrong1 & !re=e !y nei!r make contracts nor require securities40 ,heal+1 we are told1 0 by simple & natural means4 8,cures are effect$ r by regulat+ diet ?an by ! use ( m$ic9es4 ,! rem$ies mo/ e/eem$ are o9tm5ts & pla/]s4 ,all o!rs are consid]$ to be 9 great measure p]nici\s40 ,engagem5t 9 w> 0 re/rict$ to ! ,,k%atriyas or w>rior ca/e4 8,nor w\ld an enemy com+ ^u a husb&man at 8 "w on 8 l&1 d him any h>m1 = m5 ( ?is class be+ reg>d$ z public b5efactors1 are protect$ f all injury4 ,! l& ?us rema9+ unravag$ & produc+ heavy crops1 supplies ! inhabitants ) ! requisites to make life enjoyable40 ,,fn#da-g ,! ,emp]or ,*&ragupta :o 9 #cje ,b4,c4 _h defeat$ ,alex&]'s g5]al1 ,seleucus1 decid$ sev5 ye>s lat] to h& ov] ! re9s ( ,india's gov]nm5t to 8 son4 ,travel+ to ,s\? ,india1 ,*&ragupta sp5t ! la/ twelve ye>s ( 8 life z a p5niless ascetic1 seek+ self-realization 9 a rocky cave at ,sravanabelagola1 n[ honor$ z a ,mysore %r9e4 ,ne>-by /&s ! _w's l>ge/ /atue1 c>v$ out ( an imm5se b\ld] by ! ,ja9s 9 ,a4,d4 #ihc to honor ! sa9t ,comatesw>a4 ,! ubiquit\s religi\s %r9es ( ,mysore are a con/ant rem9d] ( ! _m great sa9ts ( ,s\? ,india4 ,"o ( ^! ma/]s1 ,?ayumanav>1 has left u ! foll[+ *all5g+ poem3 ,y c control a mad elephant2 ,y c %ut ! m\? ( ! be> & ! tig]2 ,y c ride a lion2 ,y c play ) ! cobra2 ,by al*emy y c eke out y\r livelihood2 ,y c w&] ?r\gh ! univ]se incognito2 ,y c make vassals ( ! gods2 ,y c be ev] y\?ful2 ,y c walk on wat] & live 9 fire2 ,b control ( ! m9d is bett] & m difficult4 ,9 ! beautiful & f]tile ,/ate ( ,travancore 9 ! extreme s\? ( ,india1 :]e traffic is convey$ ov] riv]s & canals1 ! ,mah>aja assumes e ye> a h]$it>y obligation to expiate ! s9 incurr$ by w>s & ! annexation 9 ! di/ant pa/ ( sev]al petty /ates to ,travancore4 ,= fifty-six days annually ! ,mah>aja visits ! temple ?rice daily to he> ,v$ic hymns & recitations2 ! expiation c]emony ends ) ! ,,lak%adipam or illum9ation ( ! temple by a hundr$ ?\s& lights4 ,! great ,h9du lawgiv] ,manu ,,fn#da-h has outl9$ ! duties ( a k+4 8,he %\ld %[] am5ities l ,indra 7"l ( ! gods72 collect taxes g5tly & imp]ceptibly z ! sun obta9s vapor f wat]2 ent] into ! life ( 8 subjects z ! w9d goes ev]y:]e2 mete out ev5 ju/ice to all l ,yama 7god ( dea?72 b9d transgressors 9 a noose l ,v>una 7,v$ic deity ( sky & w9d72 please all l ! moon1 burn up vici\s enemies l ! god ( fire2 & support all l ! e>? goddess4 8,9 w> a k+ %\ld n fight ) poison\s or fi]y weapons nor kill weak or unready or weaponless foes or m5 :o are 9 fe> or :o pray = protection or :o run away4 ,w> %\ld be resort$ to only z a la/ resort4 ,results are always d\btful 9 w>40 ,madras ,presid5cy on ! s\!a/ coa/ ( ,india conta9s ! flat1 spaci\s1 sea-girt city ( ,madras1 & ,conjeev]am1 ! ,gold5 ,city1 capital site ( ! ,pallava dyna/y ^: k+s rul$ dur+ ! e>ly c5turies ( ! ,*ri/ian era4 ,9 mod]n ,madras ,presid5cy ! nonviol5t ideals ( ,mahatma ,g&hi h made great headway2 ! :ite di/+ui%+ 8,g&hi caps0 are se5 ev]y:]e4 ,9 ! s\? g5]ally ! ,mahatma has effect$ _m important temple re=ms = 8unt\*ables0 z well z ca/e-sy/em re=ms4 ,! orig9 ( ! ca/e sy/em1 =mulat$ by ! great legislator ,manu1 0 admirable4 ,he saw cle>ly t m5 are di/+ui%$ by natural evolution into f\r great classes3 ^? capable ( (f]+ s]vice to society ?r\gh _! bodily labor 7,,sudras72 ^? :o s]ve ?r\gh m5tality1 skill1 agriculture1 trade1 comm]ce1 bus9ess life 9 g5]al 7,,vaisyas72 ^? ^: tal5ts are adm9i/rative1 executive1 & protective-rul]s & w>riors 7,,k%atriyas72 ^? ( contemplative nature1 spiritually inspir$ & inspir+ 7,,brahm9s74 8,nei!r bir? nor sacram5ts nor /udy nor ance/ry c decide :e!r a p]son is twice-born 7i4e41 a ,,brahm9720 ! ,,mahabh>ata decl>es1 8"* & conduct only c decide40 ,,fn#da-i ,manu in/ruct$ society to %[ respect to its memb]s ins(> z !y possess$ wisdom1 virtue1 age1 k9%ip or1 la/ly1 weal?4 ,ri*es 9 ,v$ic ,india 7 always despis$ if !y 7 ho>d$ or unavailable = *>itable purposes4 ,ung5]\s m5 ( great weal? 7 assign$ a l[ rank 9 society4 ,s]i\s evils arose :5 ! ca/e sy/em became h>d5$ ?r\gh ! c5turies into a h]$it>y halt]4 ,social re=m]s l ,g&hi & ! memb]s ( v num]\s societies 9 ,india today are mak+ sl[ b sure progress 9 re/or+ ! anci5t values ( ca/e1 bas$ solely on natural qualification & n on bir?4 ,e nation on e>? has its own di/9ctive mis]y-produc+ k>ma to deal ) & remove2 ,india1 too1 ) h] v]satile & invuln]able _s1 %all prove h]self equal to ! task ( ca/e-re=mation4 ,s entranc+ is s\!rn ,india t ,mr4 ,wright & ,i ye>n$ to prolong our idyl4 ,b "t1 9 its immemorial rud5ess1 dealt u no c\rte\s ext5sions4 ,i 0 s*$ul$ soon to address ! conclud+ session ( ! ,indian ,philosophical ,congress at ,calcutta ,univ]sity4 ,at ! end ( ! visit to ,mysore1 ,i enjoy$ a talk ) ,sir ,c4 ,v4 ,raman1 presid5t ( ! ,indian ,academy ( ,sci5ces4 ,?is brilliant ,h9du physici/ 0 aw>d$ ! ,nobel ,prize 9 #aicj = 8 important discov]y 9 ! diffusion ( light-! 8,raman ,effect0 n[ kn[n to e s*oolboy4 ,wav+ a reluctant f>ewell to a cr[d ( ,madras /ud5ts & fri5ds1 ,mr4 ,wright & ,i set out = ! nor?4 ,on ! way we /opp$ be=e a little %r9e sacr$ to ! memory ( ,sadasiva ,brahman1 ,,fn#da-aj 9 ^: eighte5?-c5tury life /ory miracles clu/] ?ickly4 ,a l>g] ,sadasiva %r9e at ,n]ur1 erect$ by ! ,raja ( ,pudukkottai1 is a pilgrimage spot :i* has witness$ num]\s div9e heal+s4 ,_m qua9t /ories ( ,sadasiva1 a lovable & fully-illum9$ ma/]1 are /ill curr5t among ! ,s\? ,indian villag]s4 ,imm]s$ "o day 9 ,,samadhi on ! bank ( ! ,kav]i ,riv]1 ,sadasiva 0 se5 to be c>ri$ away by a sudd5 flood4 ,weeks lat] he 0 f\nd buri$ deep b5ea? a m\nd ( e>?4 ,z ! villag]s' %ovels /ruck 8 body1 ! sa9t rose & walk$ briskly away4 ,sadasiva nev] spoke a ^w or wore a clo?4 ,"o morn+ ! nude yogi unc]emoni\sly ent]$ ! t5t ( a ,mohamm$an *iefta94 ,8 ladies scream$ 9 al>m2 ! w>rior dealt a savage sword ?ru/ at ,sadasiva1 ^: arm 0 sev]$4 ,! ma/] dep>t$ unconc]n$ly4 ,ov]come by remorse1 ! ,mohamm$an pick$ up ! arm f ! floor & foll[$ ,sadasiva4 ,! yogi quietly ins]t$ 8 arm into ! ble$+ /ump4 ,:5 ! w>rior humbly ask$ = "s spiritual in/ruction1 ,sadasiva wrote ) 8 f+] on ! s&s3 8,d n d :at y want1 & !n y may d :at y l40 ,! ,mohamm$an 0 uplift$ to an exalt$ /ate ( m9d1 & und]/ood ! sa9t's p>adoxical advice to be a guide to s\l fre$om ?r\gh ma/]y ( ! ego4 ,! village *ildr5 once express$ a desire 9 ,sadasiva's pres5ce to see ! ,madura religi\s fe/ival1 #aej miles away4 ,! yogi indicat$ to ! little ones t !y %\ld t\* 8 body4 ,lo6 in/antly ! :ole gr\p 0 transport$ to ,madura4 ,! *ildr5 w&]$ happily among ! ?\s&s ( pilgrims4 ,9 a few h\rs ! yogi br\ght 8 small *>ges home by 8 simple mode ( transportation4 ,! a/oni%$ p>5ts he>d ! vivid tales ( ! procession ( images1 & not$ t sev]al *ildr5 7 c>ry+ bags ( ,madura sweets4 ,an incr$ul\s y\? d]id$ ! sa9t & ! /ory4 ,! foll[+ morn+ he approa*$ ,sadasiva4 8,ma/]10 he said scornfully1 8:y don't y take me to ! fe/ival1 ev5 z y did ye/]day = ! o!r *ildr580 ,sadasiva compli$2 ! boy imm$iately f\nd himself among ! di/ant city ?rong4 ,b alas6 :]e 0 ! sa9t :5 ! y\? want$ to leave8 ,! we>y boy rea*$ 8 home by ! anci5t & prosaic me?od ( foot locomotion4 ,,fn#da-a ,miss ,blet*1 unable to ma9ta9 ! active pace set by ,mr4 ,wright & myself1 rema9$ happily ) my relatives 9 ,calcutta4 ,,fn#da-b ,?is dam1 a huge hydro-electric in/allation1 lights ,mysore ,city & gives p[] to factories = silks1 soaps1 & s&alwood oil4 ,! s&alwood s\v5irs f ,mysore possess a delightful fragrance :i* "t does n exhau/2 a slight p9prick revives ! odor4 ,mysore boa/s "s ( ! l>ge/ pione] indu/rial und]tak+s 9 ,india1 includ+ ! ,kol> ,gold ,m9es1 ! ,mysore ,sug> ,factory1 ! huge iron & /eel works at ,bhadravati1 & ! *eap & effici5t ,mysore ,/ate ,railway :i* cov]s _m ( ! /ate's #cj1jjj squ>e miles4 ,! ,mah>aja & ,yuv>aja :o 7 my ho/s 9 ,mysore 9 #aice h bo? rec5tly di$4 ,! son ( ! ,yuv>aja1 ! pres5t ,mah>aja1 is an ent]pris+ rul]1 & has add$ to ,mysore's indu/ries a l>ge airplane factory4 ,,fn#da-c ,six volumes on ,,anci5t ,,india 7,calcutta1 #ahgi74 ,,fn#da-e ,nei!r ,alex&] nor any ( 8 g5]als ev] cross$ ! ,ganges4 ,f9d+ det]m9$ resi/ance 9 ! nor?we/1 ! ,mac$onian army refus$ to p5etrate f>!r2 ,alex&] 0 =c$ to leave ,india & seek 8 conque/s 9 ,p]sia4 ,,fn#da-e ,f ?is "q we may surmise t ! 8,son ( ,zeus0 _h an occasional d\bt t he _h already atta9$ p]fection4 ,,fn#da-f ,all ,greek obs]v]s comm5t on ! lack ( slav]y 9 ,india1 a feature at complete v>iance ) ! /ructure ( ,hell5ic society4 ,,fn#da-g ,,creative ,,india by ,pr(4 ,b5oy ,kum> ,s>k> gives a compreh5sive picture ( ,india's anci5t & mod]n a*ievem5ts & di/9ctive values 9 economics1 political sci5ce1 lit]ature1 art1 & social philosophy4 7,lahore3 ,motilal ,ban>si ,dass1 ,publi%]s1 #aicg1 #gad pp41 #e4jj47 ,ano!r recomm5d$ volume is ,,indian ,,culture ,,?r\gh ,,! ,,ages1 by ,s4 ,v4 ,v5atesv>a 7,new ,york3 ,longmans1 ,gre5 ,co41 #e4jj74 ,,fn#da-h ,manu is ! univ]sal lawgiv]2 n alone = ,h9du society1 b = ! _w4 ,all sy/ems ( wise social regulations & ev5 ju/ice are patt]n$ aft] ,manu4 ,nietzs*e has paid ! foll[+ tribute3 8,i "k ( no book 9 :i* s _m delicate & k9dly ?+s are said to woman z 9 ! ,,lawbook ,,( ,,manu2 ^? old graybe>ds & sa9ts h a mann] ( be+ gallant to wom5 :i* p]haps _c be surpass$ 4 4 4 an incomp>ably intellectual & sup]ior "w 4 4 4 replete ) noble values1 x is fill$ ) a feel+ ( p]fection1 ) a say+ ( yea to life1 & a triumphant s5se ( well-be+ 9 reg>d to itself & to life2 ! sun %9es ^u ! :ole book40 ,,fn#da-i 8,inclusion 9 "o ( ^! f\r ca/es orig9ally dep5d$ n on a man's bir? b on 8 natural capacities z demon/rat$ by ! goal 9 life he elect$ to a*ieve10 an article 9 ,,ea/-,,we/ = ,janu>y1 #aice1 tells u4 8,?is goal c\ld be 7#a7 ,,kama1 desire1 activity ( ! life ( ! s5ses 7,,sudra /age71 7#b7 ,,ar?a1 ga91 fulfill+ b controll+ ! desires 7,,vaisya /age71 7#c7 ,,dh>ma1 self-discipl9e1 ! life ( responsibility & "r action 7,,k%atriya /age71 7#d7 ,,mok%a1 lib]ation1 ! life ( spirituality & religi\s tea*+ 7,,brahm9 /age74 ,^! f\r ca/es r5d] s]vice to humanity by 7#a7 body1 7#b7 m9d1 7#c7 w p[]1 7#d7 ,_s4 8,^! f\r /ages h _! correspond5ce 9 ! et]nal ,,gunas or qualities ( nature1 ,,tamas1 ,,rajas1 & ,,sattva3 ob/ruction1 activity1 & expansion2 or1 mass1 en]gy1 & intellig5ce4 ,! f\r natural ca/es are m>k$ by ! ,,gunas z 7#a7 ,,tamas 7ignorance71 7#b7 ,,tamas-,,rajas 7mixture ( ignorance & activity71 7#c7 ,,rajas-,,sattva 7mixture ( "r activity & enlight5m5t71 7#d7 ,,sattva 7enlight5m5t74 ,?us has nature m>k$ e man ) 8 ca/e1 by ! pr$om9ance 9 himself ( "o1 or ! mixture ( two1 ( ! ,,gunas4 ,( c\rse e human be+ has all ?ree ,,gunas 9 v>y+ proportions4 ,! guru w be able rightly to det]m9e a man's ca/e or evolution>y /atus4 8,to a c]ta9 ext5t1 all races & nations obs]ve 9 practice1 if n 9 !ory1 ! features ( ca/e4 ,:]e !re is great lic5se or s-call$ lib]ty1 p>ticul>ly 9 int]m>riage betwe5 extremes 9 ! natural ca/es1 ! race dw9dles away & becomes ext9ct4 ,! ,,purana ,,samhita comp>es ! (fspr+ ( su* unions to b>r5 hybrids1 l ! mule :i* is incapable ( propagation ( its own species4 ,artificial species are ev5tually ext]m9at$4 ,hi/ory (f]s abundant pro( ( num]\s great races :i* no long] h any liv+ repres5tatives4 ,! ca/e sy/em ( ,india is cr$it$ by h] mo/ pr(\nd ?9k]s ) be+ ! *eck or prev5tive aga9/ lic5se :i* has pres]v$ ! purity ( ! race & br\ght x safely ?r\gh mill5niums ( vicissitudes1 :ile o!r races h vani%$ 9 oblivion40 ,,fn#da-aj ,8 full title 0 ,sri ,sadasiv5dra ,s>aswati ,swami4 ,! illu/ri\s successor 9 ! =mal ,%ank>a l9e1 ,jagadguru ,sri ,%ank>a*>ya ( ,sr+]i ,ma?1 wrote an inspir+ ,,ode d$icat$ to ,sadasiva4 ,,ea/-,,we/ = ,july1 #aidb1 c>ri$ an article on ,sadasiva's life4 ,,*apt]3 #db ,,la/ ,,days ,,) ,,my ,,guru 8,guruji1 ,i am glad to f9d y alone ?is morn+40 ,i _h j arriv$ at ! ,s]ampore h]mitage1 c>ry+ a fragrant burd5 ( fruit & roses4 ,sri ,yuktesw> glanc$ at me meekly4 8,:at is y\r "q80 ,ma/] look$ ab\t ! room z ?\gh he 7 seek+ escape4 8,guruji1 ,i came to y z a high-s*ool y\?2 n[ ,i am a gr[n man1 ev5 ) a gray hair or two4 ,?\gh y h %[]$ me ) sil5t affection f ! fir/ h\r to ?is1 d y realize t once only1 on ! day ( meet+1 h y ev] said1 #8,i love y'80 ,i look$ at him plead+ly4 ,ma/] l[]$ 8 gaze4 8,yogan&a1 mu/ ,i br+ out into ! cold realms ( spee* ! w>m s5tim5ts be/ gu>d$ by ! wordless he>t80 8,guruji1 ,i "k y love me1 b my mortal e>s a*e to he> y say s40 8,be x z y wi%4 ,dur+ my m>ri$ life ,i (t5 ye>n$ = a son1 to tra9 9 ! yogic pa?4 ,b :5 y came into my life1 ,i 0 cont5t2 9 y ,i h f\nd my son40 ,two cle> te>drops /ood 9 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s eyes4 8,yogan&a1 ,i love y always40 8,y\r answ] is my passport to heav540 ,i felt a weight lift f my he>t1 dissolv$ =ev] at 8 words4 ,(t5 _h ,i wond]$ at 8 sil5ce4 ,realiz+ t he 0 unemotional & self-conta9$1 yet sometimes ,i fe>$ ,i _h be5 unsuccessful 9 fully satisfy+ him4 ,8 0 a /range nature1 nev] utt]ly to be kn[n2 a nature deep & /ill1 unfa?omable to ! out] _w1 ^: values he _h long transc5d$4 ,a few days lat]1 :5 ,i spoke be=e a huge audi5ce at ,alb]t ,hall 9 ,calcutta1 ,sri ,yuktesw> cons5t$ to sit beside me on ! plat=m1 ) ! ,mah>aja ( ,santo% & ! ,mayor ( ,calcutta4 ,?\gh ,ma/] made no rem>k to me1 ,i glanc$ at him f "t to "t dur+ my address1 & ?\ght ,i detect$ a pleas$ tw9kle 9 8 eyes4 ,!n came a talk be=e ! alumni ( ,s]ampore ,college4 ,z ,i gaz$ ^u my old classmates1 & z !y gaz$ on _! own 8,mad ,monk10 te>s ( joy %[$ una%am$ly4 ,my silv]-tongu$ pr(essor ( philosophy1 ,dr4 ,gho%al1 came =w>d to greet me1 all our pa/ misund]/&+s dissolv$ by ! al*emi/ ,"t4 ,a ,w9t] ,sol/ice ,fe/ival 0 celebrat$ at ! end ( ,decemb] 9 ! ,s]ampore h]mitage4 ,z always1 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s disciples ga!r$ f f> & ne>4 ,devotional ,,sankirtans1 solos 9 ! nect>-sweet voice ( ,kri/o-da1 a fea/ s]v$ by "y disciples1 ,ma/]'s pr(\ndly mov+ disc\rse "u ! />s 9 ! ?rong$ c\rty>d ( ! a%ram-memories1 memories6 ,joy\s fe/ivals ( ye>s long pa/6 ,tonight1 h[ev]1 !re 0 to be a new feature4 ,illu/ration3 ,la/ ,sol/ice ,fe/ival celebrat$ by ,sri ,yuktesw>1 ,decemb]1 #aice4 ,my ,guru is seat$ 9 ! c5t]2 ,i am at 8 "r1 9 ! l>ge c\rty>d ( 8 h]mitage 9 ,s]ampore4--see fe/ival4jpg 8,yogan&a1 please address ! assemblage-9 ,engli%40 ,ma/]'s eyes 7 tw9kl+ z he made ?is d\bly unusual reque/2 0 he ?9k+ ( ! %ipbo>d pr$icam5t t _h prec$$ my fir/ lecture 9 ,engli%8 ,i told ! /ory to my audi5ce ( bro!r disciples1 end+ ) a f]v5t tribute to our guru4 8,8 omnipres5t guidance 0 ) me n alone on ! ocean /eam]10 ,i conclud$1 8b daily ?r\gh\t my fifte5 ye>s 9 ! va/ & hospitable l& ( ,am]ica40 ,aft] ! gue/s _h dep>t$1 ,sri ,yuktesw> call$ me to ! same b$room :]e-once only1 aft] a fe/ival ( my e>ly ye>s-,i _h be5 p]mitt$ to sleep on 8 wood5 b$4 ,tonight my guru 0 sitt+ !re quietly1 a semicircle ( disciples at 8 feet4 ,he smil$ z ,i quickly ent]$ ! room4 8,yogan&a1 are y leav+ n[ = ,calcutta8 ,please return "h tomorr[4 ,i h c]ta9 ?+s to tell y40 ,! next aft]noon1 ) a few simple words ( bless+1 ,sri ,yuktesw> be/[$ on me ! fur!r mona/ic title ( ,,p>amhansa4 ,,fn#db-a 8,x n[ =mally sup]s$es y\r =m] title ( ,,swami10 he said z ,i knelt be=e him4 ,) a sil5t *uckle ,i ?\ght ( ! /ruggle :i* my ,am]ican /ud5ts w\ld und]go ov] ! pronunciation ( ,,p>amhansaji4 ,,fn#db-b 8,my task on e>? is n[ f9i%$2 y mu/ c>ry on40 ,ma/] spoke quietly1 8 eyes calm & g5tle4 ,my he>t 0 palpitat+ 9 fe>4 8,please s5d someone to take *>ge ( our a%ram at ,puri10 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on4 8,i leave ev]y?+ 9 y\r h&s4 ,y w be able to successfully sail ! boat ( y\r life & t ( ! organization to ! div9e %ores40 ,9 te>s1 ,i 0 embrac+ 8 feet2 he rose & bless$ me ende>+ly4 ,! foll[+ day ,i summon$ f ,ran*i a disciple1 ,swami ,seban&a1 & s5t him to ,puri to assume ! h]mitage duties4 ,,fn#db-c ,lat] my guru discuss$ ) me ! legal details ( settl+ 8 e/ate2 he 0 anxi\s to prev5t ! possibility ( litigation by relatives1 aft] 8 dea?1 = possession ( 8 two h]mitages & o!r prop]ties1 :i* he wi%$ to be de$$ ov] solely = *>itable purposes4 8,arrangem5ts 7 rec5tly made = ,ma/] to visit ,kidd]pore1 ,,fn#db-d b he fail$ to g40 ,amulaya ,babu1 a bro!r disciple1 made ?is rem>k to me "o aft]noon2 ,i felt a cold wave ( premonition4 ,to my press+ inquiries1 ,sri ,yuktesw> only repli$1 8,i %all g to ,kidd]pore no m40 ,= a mom5t1 ,ma/] trembl$ l a fright5$ *ild4 78,atta*m5t to bodily resid5ce1 spr++ up ( its own nature i4e41 aris+ f immemorial roots1 pa/ exp]i5ces ( dea?10 ,patanjali wrote1 ,,fn#db-e 8is pres5t 9 slight degree ev5 9 great sa9ts40 ,9 "s ( 8 disc\rses on dea?1 my guru _h be5 wont to add3 8,j z a long-cag$ bird hesitates to leave its accu/om$ home :5 ! door is op5$407 8,guruji10 ,i entreat$ him ) a sob1 8don't say t6 ,nev] utt] ^? words to me60 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s face relax$ 9 a peaceful smile4 ,?\gh ne>+ 8 eighty-fir/ bir?day1 he look$ well & /rong4 ,bask+ day by day 9 ! sun%9e ( my guru's love1 unspok5 b ke5ly felt1 ,i bani%$ f my consci\s m9d ! v>i\s h9ts he _h giv5 ( 8 approa*+ pass+4 8,sir1 ! ,,kumbha ,,mela is conv5+ ?is mon? at ,allahabad40 ,i %[$ ,ma/] ! ,,mela dates 9 a ,b5gali almanac4 ,,fn#db-f 8,d y really want to g80 ,n s5s+ ,sri ,yuktesw>'s reluctance to h me leave him1 ,i w5t on1 8,once y beheld ! bless$ sight ( ,babaji at an ,allahabad ,,kumbha4 ,p]haps ?is "t ,i %all be =tunate en\gh to see him40 8,i d n ?9k y w meet him !re40 ,my guru !n fell into sil5ce1 n wi%+ to ob/ruct my plans4 ,:5 ,i set out = ,allahabad ! foll[+ day ) a small gr\p1 ,ma/] bless$ me quietly 9 8 usual mann]4 ,app>5tly ,i 0 rema9+ oblivi\s to implications 9 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s attitude because ! ,"l wi%$ to sp>e me ! exp]i5ce ( be+ =c$1 helplessly1 to witness my guru's pass+4 ,x has always happ5$ 9 my life t1 at ! dea? ( ^? de>ly belov$ by me1 ,god has compassionately arrang$ t ,i be di/ant f ! sc5e4 ,,fn#db-g ,our p>ty rea*$ ! ,,kumbha ,,mela on ,janu>y #bc1 #aicf4 ,! surg+ cr[d ( ne>ly two million p]sons 0 an impressive sight1 ev5 an ov]:elm+ "o4 ,! peculi> g5ius ( ! ,indian p is ! rev]5ce innate 9 ev5 ! l[lie/ peasant = ! wor? ( ! ,_s1 & = ! monks & sadhus :o h =sak5 worldly ties to seek a div9] an*orage4 ,impo/]s & hypocrites !re are inde$1 b ,india respects all = ! sake ( ! few :o illum9e ! :ole l& ) sup]nal bless+s4 ,we/]n]s :o 7 view+ ! va/ spectacle _h a unique opportunity to feel ! pulse ( ! l&1 ! spiritual ardor to :i* ,india owes h] qu5*less vitality be=e ! bl[s ( "t4 ,illu/ration3 ,! woman yogi1 ,%ank>i ,mai ,jiew1 only liv+ disciple ( ! great ,trailanga ,swami4 ,! turban$ figure seat$ directly beside h] is ,swami ,b5oyan&a1 a director ( our ,ran*i yoga s*ool = boys 9 ,bih>4 ,! picture 0 tak5 at ! ,h>dw> ,kumbha ,mela 9 #aich2 ! woman sa9t 0 !n #aab ye>s old4--see majiew4jpg ,illu/ration3 ,second-floor d9+ patio ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s ,s]ampore h]mitage4 ,i am seat$ 79 c5t]7 at my guru's feet4--see s]ampore4jpg ,! fir/ day 0 sp5t by our gr\p 9 %e] />+4 ,"h 7 c\ntless ba!rs1 dipp+ 9 ! holy riv] = remission ( s9s2 !re we saw solemn rituals ( wor%ip2 yond] 7 devotional (f]+s be+ /rewn at ! du/y feet ( sa9ts2 a turn ( our heads1 & a l9e ( elephants1 cap>ison$ horses & sl[-pac$ ,rajputana camels fil$ by1 or a qua9t religi\s p>ade ( nak$ sadhus1 wav+ scept]s ( gold & silv]1 or flags & /ream]s ( silk5 velvet4 ,an*orites we>+ only lo9clo?s sat quietly 9 little gr\ps1 _! bodies besme>$ ) ! a%es t protect !m f ! heat & cold4 ,! spiritual eye 0 vividly repres5t$ on _! =eheads by a s+le spot ( s&alwood pa/e4 ,%av5-head$ swamis appe>$ by ! ?\s&s1 o*]-rob$ & c>ry+ _! bamboo /aff & begg+ b[l4 ,_! faces beam$ ) ! r5unciate's peace z !y walk$ ab\t or held philosophical discussions ) disciples4 ,"h & !re "u ! trees1 ar\nd huge piles ( burn+ logs1 7 picturesque sadhus1 ,,fn#db-h _! hair braid$ & mass$ 9 coils on top ( _! heads4 ,"s wore be>ds sev]al feet 9 l5g?1 curl$ & ti$ 9 a knot4 ,!y m$itat$ quietly1 or ext5d$ _! h&s 9 bless+ to ! pass+ ?rong-begg>s1 mah>ajas on elephants1 wom5 9 multicolor$ ,,s>is--_! bangles & anklets t9kl+1 ,,fakirs ) ?9 arms held grotesquely al(t1 ,,brahma*>is c>ry+ m$itation elb[-props1 humble sages ^: solemnity hid an inn] bliss4 ,high above ! d9 we he>d ! ceaseless summons ( ! temple bells4 ,on our second ,,mela day my companions & ,i ent]$ v>i\s a%rams & tempor>y huts1 (f]+ ,,pronams to sa9tly p]sonages4 ,we receiv$ ! bless+ ( ! lead] ( ! ,,giri bran* ( ! ,swami ,ord]-a ?91 ascetical monk ) eyes ( smil+ fire4 ,our next visit took u to a h]mitage ^: guru _h obs]v$ = ! pa/ n9e ye>s ! v[s ( sil5ce & a /rict fruit>ian diet4 ,on ! c5tral dais 9 ! a%ram hall sat a bl9d sadhu1 ,pragla ,*ak%u1 pr(\ndly le>n$ 9 ! ,,%a/ras & highly rev]$ by all sects4 ,aft] ,i _h giv5 a brief disc\rse 9 ,h9di on ,,v$anta1 our gr\p left ! peaceful h]mitage to greet a ne>-by swami1 ,kri%nan&a1 a h&some monk ) rosy *eeks & impressive %\ld]s4 ,recl9+ ne> him 0 a tame lioness4 ,succumb+ to ! monk's spiritual *>m--n1 ,i am sure1 to 8 p[]ful physique6-! jungle animal refuses all meat 9 favor ( rice & milk4 ,! swami has taught ! tawny-hair$ bea/ to utt] 8,,aum0 9 a deep1 attractive gr[l-a cat devotee6 ,illu/ration3 ,kri%nan&a1 at ! #aicf ,allahabad ,kumbha ,mela1 ) 8 tame veget>ian lioness4--see lion4jpg ,our next enc\nt]1 an int]view ) a le>n$ "y sadhu1 is well describ$ 9 ,mr4 ,wright's sp>kl+ travel di>y4 8,we rode 9 ! ,=d across ! v l[ ,ganges on a creak+ pontoon bridge1 crawl+ snakelike ?r\gh ! cr[ds & ov] n>r[1 twi/+ lanes1 pass+ ! site on ! riv] bank :i* ,yogan&aji po9t$ out to me z ! meet+ place ( ,babaji & ,sri ,yuktesw>ji4 ,alight+ f ! c> a %ort "t lat]1 we walk$ "s di/ance ?r\gh ! ?ick5+ smoke ( ! sadhus' fires & ov] ! slipp]y s&s to rea* a clu/] ( t9y1 v mode/ mud-&-/raw huts4 ,we halt$ 9 front ( "o ( ^! insignificant tempor>y dwell+s1 ) a pygmy doorless entrance1 ! %elt] ( ,k>a ,patri1 a "y w&]+ sadhu not$ = 8 exceptional intellig5ce4 ,!re he sat1 cross-legg$ on a pile ( /raw1 8 only cov]+-& incid5tally 8 only possession-be+ an o*] clo? drap$ ov] 8 %\ld]s4 8,truly a div9e face smil$ at u aft] we _h crawl$ on all f\rs into ! hut & ,,pronam$ at ! feet ( ?is enlight5$ s\l1 :ile ! k]os5e lant]n at ! entrance flick]$ weird1 danc+ %ad[s on ! ?at*$ walls4 ,8 face1 especially 8 eyes & p]fect tee?1 beam$ & gli/5$4 ,al?\gh ,i 0 puzzl$ by ! ,h9di1 8 expressions 7 v reveal+2 he 0 full ( en?usiasm1 love1 spiritual glory4 ,no "o c\ld be mi/ak5 z to 8 greatness4 8,imag9e ! happy life ( "o unatta*$ to ! mat]ial _w2 free ( ! clo?+ problem2 free ( food crav+1 nev] begg+1 nev] t\*+ cook$ food except on alt]nate days1 nev] c>ry+ a begg+ b[l2 free ( all money entanglem5ts1 nev] h&l+ money1 nev] /or+ ?+s away1 always tru/+ 9 ,god2 free ( transportation worries1 nev] rid+ 9 vehicles1 b always walk+ on ! banks ( ! sacr$ riv]s2 nev] rema9+ 9 "o place long] ?an a week 9 ord] to avoid any gr[? ( atta*m5t4 8,su* a mode/ s\l6 unusually le>n$ 9 ! ,,v$as1 & possess+ an ,m4,a4 degree & ! title ( ,,%a/ri 7ma/] ( scriptures7 f ,b5>es ,univ]sity4 ,a sublime feel+ p]vad$ me z ,i sat at 8 feet2 x all seem$ to be an answ] to my desire to see ! real1 ! anci5t ,india1 = he is a true repres5tative ( ?is l& ( spiritual giants40 ,i que/ion$ ,k>a ,patri ab\t 8 w&]+ life4 8,don't y h any extra clo!s = w9t]80 8,no1 ?is is en\gh40 8,d y c>ry any books80 8,no1 ,i tea* f memory ^? p :o wi% to he> me40 8,:at else d y d80 8,i roam by ! ,ganges40 ,at ^! quiet words1 ,i 0 ov]p[]$ by a ye>n+ = ! simplicity ( 8 life4 ,i rememb]$ ,am]ica1 & all ! responsibilities t lay on my %\ld]s4 8,no1 ,yogan&a10 ,i ?\ght1 sadly = a mom5t1 89 ?is life roam+ by ! ,ganges is n = y40 ,aft] ! sadhu _h told me a few ( 8 spiritual realizations1 ,i %ot an abrupt "q4 8,are y giv+ ^! descriptions f scriptural lore1 or f inw>d exp]i5ce80 8,half f book le>n+10 he answ]$ ) a /raight=w>d smile1 8& half f exp]i5ce40 ,we sat happily a:ile 9 m$itative sil5ce4 ,aft] we _h left 8 sacr$ pres5ce1 ,i said to ,mr4 ,wright1 8,he is a k+ sitt+ on a ?rone ( gold5 /raw40 ,we _h our d9n] t night on ! ,,mela gr\nds "u ! />s1 eat+ f leaf plates p9n$ toge!r ) /icks4 ,di%wa%+s 9 ,india are r$uc$ to a m9imum6 ,two m days ( ! fasc9at+ ,,kumbha2 !n nor?we/ along ! ,jumna banks to ,agra4 ,once aga9 ,i gaz$ on ! ,taj ,mahal2 9 memory ,jit5dra /ood by my side1 aw$ by ! dream 9 m>ble4 ,!n on to ! ,br9daban a%ram ( ,swami ,ke%aban&a4 ,illu/ration3 ,my companions & ,i pose be=e ! 8dream 9 m>ble10 ! ,taj ,mahal at ,agra4--see taj4jpg ,my object 9 seek+ out ,ke%aban&a 0 connect$ ) ?is book4 ,i _h nev] =gott5 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s reque/ t ,i write ! life ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,dur+ my /ay 9 ,india ,i 0 tak+ e opportunity ( contact+ direct disciples & relatives ( ! ,yogavat>4 ,record+ _! conv]sations 9 volum9\s notes1 ,i v]ifi$ facts & dates1 & collect$ photographs1 old lett]s1 & docum5ts4 ,my ,lahiri ,mahasaya portfolio began to swell2 ,i realiz$ ) dismay t ahead ( me lay ardu\s labors 9 au?or%ip4 ,i pray$ t ,i might be equal to my role z biograph] ( ! colossal guru4 ,sev]al ( 8 disciples fe>$ t 9 a writt5 acc\nt _! ma/] might be belittl$ or mis9t]pret$4 8,"o c h>dly d ju/ice 9 cold words to ! life ( a div9e inc>nation10 ,pan*anon ,bhatta*>ya _h once rem>k$ to me4 ,o!r close disciples 7 simil>ly satisfi$ to keep ! ,yogavat> hidd5 9 _! he>ts z ! dea?less preceptor4 ,nev]!less1 m9dful ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's pr$iction ab\t 8 biography1 ,i sp>$ no ef=t to secure & sub/antiate ! facts ( 8 outw>d life4 ,illu/ration3 ,mr4 ,wright & ,i pose ) ! v5]able ,swami ,ke%aban&a & a disciple at ! /ately h]mitage 9 ,br9daban--see ke%aban&a4jpg ,swami ,ke%aban&a greet$ our p>ty w>mly at ,br9daban 9 8 ,katayani ,pei? ,a%ram1 an impos+ brick build+ ) massive black pill>s1 set 9 a beautiful g>d54 ,he u%]$ u at once into a sitt+ room adorn$ ) an enl>gem5t ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's picture4 ,! swami 0 approa*+ ! age ( n9ety1 b 8 muscul> body radiat$ /r5g? & heal?4 ,) long hair & a sn[-:ite be>d1 eyes tw9kl+ ) joy1 he 0 a v]itable patri>*al embodim5t4 ,i in=m$ him t ,i want$ to m5tion 8 "n 9 my book on ,india's ma/]s4 8,please tell me ab\t y\r e>li] life40 ,i smil$ entreat+ly2 great yogis are (t5 uncommunicative4 ,ke%aban&a made a ge/ure ( humility4 8,!re is little ( ext]nal mom5t4 ,practically my :ole life has be5 sp5t 9 ! ,himalayan solitudes1 travel+ on foot f "o quiet cave to ano!r4 ,= a :ile ,i ma9ta9$ a small a%ram outside ,h>dw>1 surr\nd$ on all sides by a grove ( tall trees4 ,x 0 a peaceful spot little visit$ by travel]s1 ow+ to ! ubiquit\s pres5ce ( cobras40 ,ke%aban&a *uckl$4 8,lat] a ,ganges flood wa%$ away ! h]mitage & cobras alike4 ,my disciples !n help$ me to build ?is ,br9daban a%ram40 ,"o ( our p>ty ask$ ! swami h[ he _h protect$ himself aga9/ ! ,himalayan tig]s4 ,,fn#db-i ,ke%aban&a %ook 8 head4 8,9 ^? high spiritual altitudes10 he said1 8wild bea/s seldom mole/ ! yogis4 ,once 9 ! jungle ,i enc\nt]$ a tig] face-to-face4 ,at my sudd5 ejaculation1 ! animal 0 transfix$ z ?\gh turn$ to /one40 ,aga9 ! swami *uckl$ at 8 memories4 8,occasionally ,i left my seclusion to visit my guru 9 ,b5>es4 ,he us$ to joke ) me ov] my ceaseless travels 9 ! ,himalayan wild]ness4 8#8,y h ! m>k ( w&]lu/ on y\r foot1' he told me once4 #8,i am glad t ! sacr$ ,himalayas are ext5sive en\gh to engross y4' 8,_m times10 ,ke%aban&a w5t on1 8bo? be=e & aft] 8 pass+1 ,lahiri ,mahasaya has appe>$ bodily be=e me4 ,= him no ,himalayan height is inaccessible60 ,two h\rs lat] he l$ u to a d9+ patio4 ,i sigh$ 9 sil5t dismay4 ,ano!r fifte5-c\rse meal6 ,less ?an a ye> ( ,indian hospitality1 & ,i _h ga9$ fifty p\nds6 ,yet x w\ld h be5 consid]$ ! height ( rud5ess to refuse any ( ! di%es1 c>efully prep>$ = ! endless banquets 9 my honor4 ,9 ,india 7n[h]e else1 alas67 a well-padd$ swami is consid]$ a delightful sight4 ,,fn#db-aj ,aft] d9n]1 ,ke%aban&a l$ me to a seclud$ nook4 8,y\r arrival is n unexpect$10 he said4 8,i h a message = y40 ,i 0 surpris$2 no "o _h kn[n ( my plan to visit ,ke%aban&a4 8,:ile roam+ la/ ye> 9 ! nor!rn ,himalayas ne> ,badr9>ayan10 ! swami cont9u$1 8,i lo/ my way4 ,%elt] appe>$ 9 a spaci\s cave1 :i* 0 empty1 ?\gh ! emb]s ( a fire gl[$ 9 a hole 9 ! rocky floor4 ,wond]+ ab\t ! occupant ( ?is lonely retreat1 ,i sat ne> ! fire1 my gaze fix$ on ! sunlit entrance to ! cave4 8#8,ke%aban&a1 ,i am glad y are "h4' ,^! words came f beh9d me4 ,i turn$1 />tl$1 & 0 dazzl$ to behold ,babaji6 ,! great guru _h mat]ializ$ himself 9 a recess ( ! cave4 ,ov]joy$ to see him aga9 aft] _m ye>s1 ,i pro/rat$ myself at 8 holy feet4 8#8,i call$ y "h1' ,babaji w5t on4 #8,t is :y y lo/ y\r way & 7 l$ to my tempor>y abode 9 ?is cave4 ,x is a long "t s9ce our la/ meet+2 ,i am pleas$ to greet y once m4' 8,! dea?less ma/] bless$ me ) "s words ( spiritual help1 !n add$3 #8,i give y a message = ,yogan&a4 ,he w pay y a visit on 8 return to ,india4 ,_m matt]s connect$ ) 8 guru & ) ! surviv+ disciples ( ,lahiri w keep ,yogan&a fully occupi$4 ,tell him1 !n1 t ,i won't see him ?is "t1 z he is eag]ly hop+2 b ,i %all see him on "s o!r occasion4'0 ,i 0 deeply t\*$ to receive f ,ke%aban&a's lips ?is consol+ promise f ,babaji4 ,a c]ta9 hurt 9 my he>t vani%$2 ,i griev$ no long] t1 ev5 z ,sri ,yuktesw> _h h9t$1 ,babaji did n appe> at ! ,,kumbha ,,mela4 ,sp5d+ "o night z gue/s ( ! a%ram1 our p>ty set out ! foll[+ aft]noon = ,calcutta4 ,rid+ ov] a bridge ( ! ,jumna ,riv]1 we enjoy$ a magnific5t view ( ! skyl9e ( ,br9daban j z ! sun set fire to ! sky-a v]itable furnace ( ,vulcan 9 color1 reflect$ bel[ u 9 ! /ill wat]s4 ,! ,jumna bea* is hall[$ by memories ( ! *ild ,sri ,kri%na4 ,"h he engag$ ) innoc5t sweetness 9 8 ,,lilas 7plays7 ) ! ,,gopis 7maids71 exemplify+ ! sup]nal love :i* ev] exi/s betwe5 a div9e inc>nation & 8 devotees4 ,! life ( ,"l ,kri%na has be5 misund]/ood by _m ,we/]n comm5tators4 ,scriptural allegory is baffl+ to lit]al m9ds4 ,a hil>i\s blund] by a translator w illu/rate ?is po9t4 ,! /ory conc]ns an inspir$ m$ieval sa9t1 ! cobbl] ,ravidas1 :o sang 9 ! simple t]ms ( 8 own trade ( ! spiritual glory hidd5 9 all mank9d3 ,"u ! va/ vault ( blue ,lives ! div9ity clo!d 9 hide4 ,"o turns aside to hide a smile on he>+ ! p$e/rian int]pretation giv5 to ,ravidas' poem by a ,we/]n writ]3 8,he aft]w>ds built a hut1 set up 9 x an idol :i* he made f a hide1 & appli$ himself to its wor%ip40 ,ravidas 0 a bro!r disciple ( ! great ,kabir4 ,"o ( ,ravidas' exalt$ *elas 0 ! ,rani ( ,*itor4 ,%e invit$ a l>ge numb] ( ,brahm9s to a fea/ 9 honor ( h] tea*]1 b !y refus$ to eat ) a l[ly cobbl]4 ,z !y sat d[n 9 dignifi$ alo(ness to eat _! own uncontam9at$ meal1 lo6 ea* ,brahm9 f\nd at 8 side ! =m ( ,ravidas4 ,?is mass vision accompli%$ a widespread spiritual revival 9 ,*itor4 ,9 a few days our little gr\p rea*$ ,calcutta4 ,eag] to see ,sri ,yuktesw>1 ,i 0 disappo9t$ to he> t he _h left ,s]ampore & 0 n[ 9 ,puri1 ab\t ?ree hundr$ miles to ! s\?4 8,come to ,puri a%ram at once40 ,?is telegram 0 s5t on ,m>* #h? by a bro!r disciple to ,atul ,*&ra ,roy ,*[dhry1 "o ( ,ma/]'s *elas 9 ,calcutta4 ,news ( ! message rea*$ my e>s2 angui%$ at its implications1 ,i dropp$ to my knees & implor$ ,god t my guru's life be sp>$4 ,z ,i 0 ab\t to leave ,fa!r's home = ! tra91 a div9e voice spoke )94 8,d n g to ,puri tonight4 ,?y pray] _c be grant$40 8,"l10 ,i said1 grief-/rick51 8,?\ do/ n wi% to engage ) me 9 a #8tug ( w>' at ,puri1 :]e ,?\ wilt h to d5y my incessant pray]s = ,ma/]'s life4 ,mu/ he1 !n1 dep>t = high] duties at ,?y behe/80 ,9 ob$i5ce to ! inw>d comm&1 ,i did n leave t night = ,puri4 ,! foll[+ ev5+ ,i set out = ! tra92 on ! way1 at sev5 o'clock1 a black a/ral cl\d sudd5ly cov]$ ! sky4 ,,fn#db-aa ,lat]1 :ile ! tra9 ro>$ t[>d ,puri1 a vision ( ,sri ,yuktesw> appe>$ be=e me4 ,he 0 sitt+1 v grave ( c\nt5ance1 ) a light on ea* side4 8,is x all ov]80 ,i lift$ my arms besee*+ly4 ,he nodd$1 !n sl[ly vani%$4 ,z ,i /ood on ! ,puri tra9 plat=m ! foll[+ morn+1 /ill hop+ aga9/ hope1 an unkn[n man approa*$ me4 8,h y he>d t y\r ,ma/] is gone80 ,he left me )\t ano!r ^w2 ,i nev] discov]$ :o he 0 nor h[ he _h kn[n :]e to f9d me4 ,/unn$1 ,i sway$ aga9/ ! plat=m wall1 realiz+ t 9 div]se ways my guru 0 try+ to convey to me ! deva/at+ news4 ,see?+ ) rebellion1 my s\l 0 l a volcano4 ,by ! "t ,i rea*$ ! ,puri h]mitage ,i 0 ne>+ collapse4 ,! inn] voice 0 t5d]ly repeat+3 8,collect y\rself4 ,be calm40 ,i ent]$ ! a%ram room :]e ,ma/]'s body1 unimag9ably lifelike1 0 sitt+ 9 ! lotus po/ure-a picture ( heal? & lovel9ess4 ,a %ort "t be=e 8 pass+1 my guru _h be5 slightly ill ) fev]1 b be=e ! day ( 8 asc5sion into ! ,inf9ite1 8 body _h become completely well4 ,no matt] h[ (t5 ,i look$ at 8 de> =m ,i c\ld n realize t its life _h dep>t$4 ,8 sk9 0 smoo? & s(t2 9 8 face 0 a beatific expression ( tranquillity4 ,he _h consci\sly rel9qui%$ 8 body at ! h\r ( my/ic summon+4 8,! ,lion ( ,b5gal is gone60 ,i cri$ 9 a daze4 ,i conduct$ ! solemn rites on ,m>* #aj?4 ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 buri$ ,,fn#db-ab ) ! anci5t rituals ( ! swamis 9 ! g>d5 ( 8 ,puri a%ram4 ,8 disciples lat] arriv$ f f> & ne> to honor _! guru at a v]nal equ9ox memorial s]vice4 ,! ,,amrita ,,baz> ,,patrika1 lead+ newspap] ( ,calcutta1 c>ri$ 8 picture & ! foll[+ report3 ,! dea? ,,bh&>a c]emony = ,srimat ,swami ,sri ,yuktesw> ,giri ,mah>aj1 ag$ #ha1 took place at ,puri on ,m>* #ba4 ,_m disciples came d[n to ,puri = ! rites4 ,"o ( ! greate/ exp\nd]s ( ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita1 ,swami ,mah>aj 0 a great disciple ( ,yogiraj ,sri ,%yama ,*>an ,lahiri ,mahasaya ( ,b5>es4 ,swami ,mah>aj 0 ! f\nd] ( sev]al ,yogoda ,sat-,sanga 7,self-,realization ,fell[%ip7 c5t]s 9 ,india1 & 0 ! great inspiration beh9d ! yoga movem5t :i* 0 c>ri$ to ! ,we/ by ,swami ,yogan&a1 8 pr9cipal disciple4 ,x 0 ,sri ,yuktesw>ji's prophetic p[]s & deep realization t inspir$ ,swami ,yogan&a to cross ! oceans & spread 9 ,am]ica ! message ( ! ma/]s ( ,india4 ,8 int]pretations ( ! ,,bhagavad ,,gita & o!r scriptures te/ify to ! dep? ( ,sri ,yuktesw>ji's comm& ( ! philosophy1 bo? ,ea/]n & ,we/]n1 & rema9 z an eye-op5] = ! unity betwe5 ,ori5t & ,occid5t4 ,z he believ$ 9 ! unity ( all religi\s fai?s1 ,sri ,yuktesw> ,mah>aj e/abli%$ ,,sadhu ,,sabha 7,society ( ,sa9ts7 ) ! coop]ation ( lead]s ( v>i\s sects & fai?s1 = ! inculcation ( a sci5tific _s 9 religion4 ,at ! "t ( 8 demise he nom9at$ ,swami ,yogan&a 8 successor z ! presid5t ( ,,sadhu ,,sabha4 ,india is really poor] today by ! pass+ ( su* a great man4 ,may all =tunate en\gh to h come ne> him inculcate 9 !mselves ! true _s ( ,india's culture & ,,sadhana :i* 0 p]sonifi$ 9 him4 ,i return$ to ,calcutta4 ,n tru/+ myself z yet to g to ! ,s]ampore h]mitage ) its sacr$ memories1 ,i summon$ ,prafulla1 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s little disciple 9 ,s]ampore1 & made arrangem5ts = him to ent] ! ,ran*i s*ool4 8,! morn+ y left = ! ,allahabad ,,mela10 ,prafulla told me1 8,ma/] dropp$ heavily on ! dav5port4 8#8,yogan&a is gone6' he cri$4 #8,yogan&a is gone6' ,he add$ cryptically1 #8,i %all h to tell him "s o!r way4' ,he sat !n = h\rs 9 sil5ce40 ,my days 7 fill$ ) lectures1 classes1 int]views1 & reunions ) old fri5ds4 ,b5ea? a holl[ smile & a life ( ceaseless activity1 a /ream ( black brood+ pollut$ ! inn] riv] ( bliss :i* = s _m ye>s _h me&]$ "u ! s&s ( all my p]ceptions4 8,:]e has t div9e sage gone80 ,i cri$ sil5tly f ! dep?s ( a torm5t$ _s4 ,no answ] came4 8,x is be/ t ,ma/] has complet$ 8 union ) ! ,cosmic ,belov$10 my m9d assur$ me4 8,he is et]nally gl[+ 9 ! dom9ion ( dea?lessness40 8,nev] aga9 may y see him 9 ! old ,s]ampore mansion10 my he>t lam5t$4 8,no long] may y br+ y\r fri5ds to meet him1 or pr\dly say3 #8,behold1 !re sits ,india's ,,jnanavat>6'0 ,mr4 ,wright made arrangem5ts = our p>ty to sail f ,bombay = ! ,we/ 9 e>ly ,june4 ,aft] a =tnight 9 ,may ( f>ewell banquets & spee*es at ,calcutta1 ,miss ,blet*1 ,mr4 ,wright & myself left 9 ! ,=d = ,bombay4 ,on our arrival1 ! %ip au?orities ask$ u to cancel our passage1 z no room c\ld be f\nd = ! ,=d1 :i* we w\ld ne$ aga9 9 ,europe4 8,nev] m9d10 ,i said gloomily to ,mr4 ,wright4 8,i want to return once m to ,puri40 ,i sil5tly add$1 8,let my te>s once aga9 wat] ! grave ( my guru40 ,,fn#db-a ,lit]ally1 ,,p>am1 highe/2 ,,hansa1 swan4 ,! ,,hansa is repres5t$ 9 scriptural lore z ! vehicle ( ,brahma1 ,supreme ,_s2 z ! symbol ( discrim9ation1 ! :ite ,,hansa swan is ?\ght ( z able to sep>ate ! true ,,soma nect> f a mixture ( milk & wat]4 ,,ham-,,sa 7pron\nc$ ,,hong-,,sau7 are two sacr$ ,sanskrit *ant words possess+ a vibratory connection ) ! incom+ & outgo+ brea?4 ,,aham-,,sa is lit]ally 8,i am ,he40 ,,fn#db-b ,!y h g5]ally evad$ ! difficulty by address+ me z ,,sir4 ,,fn#db-c ,at ! ,puri a%ram1 ,swami ,seban&a is /ill conduct+ a small1 fl\ri%+ yoga s*ool = boys1 & m$itation gr\ps = adults4 ,meet+s ( sa9ts & pundits conv5e !re p]iodically4 ,,fn#db-d ,a section ( ,calcutta4 ,,fn#db-e ,,aphorisms3 ,,ii3#i4 ,,fn#db-f ,religi\s ,,melas are m5tion$ 9 ! anci5t ,,mahabh>ata4 ,! ,*9ese travel] ,hieu5 ,tsiang has left an acc\nt ( a va/ ,,kumbha ,,mela held 9 ,a4,d4 #fdd at ,allahabad4 ,! l>ge/ ,,mela is held e twelf? ye>2 ! next l>ge/ 7,,ardha or half7 ,,kumbha occurs e six? ye>4 ,small] ,,melas conv5e e ?ird ye>1 attract+ ab\t a million devotees4 ,! f\r sacr$ ,,mela cities are ,allahabad1 ,h>dw>1 ,nasik1 & ,ujja94 ,e>ly ,*9ese travel]s h left u _m /rik+ pictures ( ,indian society4 ,! ,*9ese prie/1 ,fa-,hsi51 wrote an acc\nt ( 8 elev5 ye>s 9 ,india dur+ ! reign ( ,*&ragupta ,,ii 7e>ly #d? c5tury74 ,! ,*9ese au?or relates3 8,?r\gh\t ! c\ntry no "o kills any liv+ ?+1 nor dr9ks w9e4 4 4 4 ,!y d n keep pigs or f[l2 !re are no deal+s 9 cattle1 no but*]s' %ops or di/ill]ies4 ,rooms ) b$s & mattresses1 food & clo!s1 are provid$ = resid5t & travel+ prie/s )\t fail1 & ?is is ! same 9 all places4 ,! prie/s occupy !mselves ) b5evol5t m9i/rations & ) *ant+ liturgies2 or !y sit 9 m$itation40 ,fa-,hsi5 tells u ! ,indian p 7 happy & hone/2 capital puni%m5t 0 unkn[n4 ,,fn#db-g ,i 0 n pres5t at ! dea?s ( my "m1 eld] bro!r ,ananta1 elde/ si/] ,roma1 ,ma/]1 ,fa!r1 or ( sev]al close disciples4 7,fa!r pass$ on at ,calcutta 9 #aidb1 at ! age ( eighty-n9e47 ,,fn#db-h ,! hundr$s ( ?\s&s ( ,indian sadhus are controll$ by an executive committee ( sev5 lead]s1 repres5t+ sev5 l>ge sections ( ,india4 ,! pres5t ,,maham&alesw> or presid5t is ,joy5dra ,puri4 ,?is sa9tly man is extremely res]v$1 (t5 conf9+ 8 spee* to ?ree words-,tru?1 ,love1 & ,"w4 ,a suffici5t conv]sation6 ,,fn#db-i ,!re are _m me?ods1 x appe>s1 = outwitt+ a tig]4 ,an ,au/ralian explor]1 ,francis ,birtles1 has rec\nt$ t he f\nd ! ,indian jungles 8v>i$1 beautiful1 & safe40 ,8 safety *>m 0 flypap]4 8,e night ,i spread a quantity ( %eets ar\nd my camp & 0 nev] di/urb$10 he expla9$4 8,! reason is psy*ological4 ,! tig] is an animal ( great consci\s dignity4 ,he pr[ls ar\nd & *all5ges man until he comes to ! flypap]2 he !n sl9ks away4 ,no dignifi$ tig] w\ld d>e face a human be+ aft] squatt+ d[n ^u a /icky flypap]60 ,,fn#db-aj ,aft] ,i return$ to ,am]ica ,i took (f sixty-five p\nds4 ,,fn#db-aa ,sri ,yuktesw> pass$ at ?is h\r-#g3jj ,p4,m41 ,m>* #i1 #aicf4 ,,fn#db-ab ,fun]al cu/oms 9 ,india require cremation = h\sehold]s2 swamis & monks ( o!r ord]s are n cremat$1 b buri$4 7,!re are occasional exceptions47 ,! bodies ( monks are symbolically consid]$ to h und]gone cremation 9 ! fire ( wisdom at ! "t ( tak+ ! mona/ic v[4 ,,*apt]3 #dc ,,! ,,resurrection ,,( ,,sri ,,yuktesw> 8,"l ,kri%na60 ,! glori\s =m ( ! avat> appe>$ 9 a %imm]+ blaze z ,i sat 9 my room at ! ,reg5t ,hotel 9 ,bombay4 ,%9+ ov] ! ro( ( a high build+ across ! /reet1 ! ineffable vision _h sudd5ly bur/ on my sight z ,i gaz$ out ( my long op5 ?ird-/ory w9d[4 ,! div9e figure wav$ to me1 smil+ & nodd+ 9 greet+4 ,:5 ,i c\ld n und]/& ! exact message ( ,"l ,kri%na1 he dep>t$ ) a ge/ure ( bless+4 ,wondr\sly uplift$1 ,i felt t "s spiritual ev5t 0 presag$4 ,illu/ration3 ,,kri%na1 ,,anci5t ,,prophet ,,( ,,india1 ,a mod]n arti/'s conception ( ! div9e tea*] ^: spiritual c\nsel 9 ! ,bhagavad ,gita has become ! ,h9du ,bible4 ,kri%na is portray$ 9 ,h9du art ) a peacock fea!r 9 8 hair 7symbol ( ! ,"l's lila1 play or creative sport71 & c>ry+ a flute1 ^: enraptur+ notes awak5 ! devotees1 "o by "o1 f _! sleep ( maya or cosmic delusion4--see kri%na4jpg ,my ,we/]n voyage _h1 = ! "t be+1 be5 cancell$4 ,i 0 s*$ul$ = sev]al public addresses 9 ,bombay be=e leav+ on a return visit to ,b5gal4 ,sitt+ on my b$ 9 ! ,bombay hotel at ?ree o'clock 9 ! aft]noon ( ,june #ai1 #aicf-"o week aft] ! vision ( ,kri%na-,i 0 r\s$ f my m$itation by a beatific light4 ,be=e my op5 & a/oni%$ eyes1 ! :ole room 0 trans=m$ into a /range _w1 ! sunlight transmut$ into sup]nal spl5dor4 ,waves ( rapture engulf$ me z ,i beheld ! fle% & blood =m ( ,sri ,yuktesw>6 8,my son60 ,ma/] spoke t5d]ly1 on 8 face an angel-bewit*+ smile4 ,= ! fir/ "t 9 my life ,i did n kneel at 8 feet 9 greet+ b in/antly advanc$ to ga!r him hungrily 9 my arms4 ,mom5t ( mom5ts6 ,! angui% ( pa/ mon?s 0 toll ,i c\nt$ weightless aga9/ ! torr5tial bliss n[ desc5d+4 8,ma/] m9e1 belov$ ( my he>t1 :y did y leave me80 ,i 0 incoh]5t 9 an excess ( joy4 8,:y did y let me g to ! ,,kumbha ,,mela8 ,h[ bitt]ly h ,i blam$ myself = leav+ y60 8,i did n want to int]f]e ) y\r happy anticipation ( see+ ! pilgrimage spot :]e fir/ ,i met ,babaji4 ,i left y only = a little :ile2 am ,i n ) y aga980 8,b is x ,,y1 ,ma/]1 ! same ,lion ( ,god8 ,are y we>+ a body l ! "o ,i buri$ b5ea? ! cruel ,puri s&s80 8,yes1 my *ild1 ,i am ! same4 ,?is is a fle% & blood body4 ,?\gh ,i see x z e!real1 to y\r sight x is physical4 ,f ! cosmic atoms ,i creat$ an entirely new body1 exactly l t cosmic-dream physical body :i* y laid b5ea? ! dream-s&s at ,puri 9 y\r dream-_w4 ,i am 9 tru? resurrect$-n on e>? b on an a/ral planet4 ,its inhabitants are bett] able ?an e>?ly humanity to meet my l(ty /&>ds4 ,!re y & y\r exalt$ lov$ ones %all som$ay come to be ) me40 8,dea?less guru1 tell me m60 ,ma/] gave a quick1 mir?ful *uckle4 8,please1 de> "o10 he said1 8won't y relax y\r hold a little80 8,only a little60 ,i _h be5 embrac+ him ) an octopus grip4 ,i c\ld detect ! same fa9t1 fragrant1 natural odor :i* _h be5 *>act]i/ic ( 8 body be=e4 ,! ?rill+ t\* ( 8 div9e fle% /ill p]si/s ar\nd ! inn] sides ( my arms & 9 my palms :5ev] ,i recall ^? glori\s h\rs4 8,z prophets are s5t on e>? to help m5 "w out _! physical k>ma1 s ,i h be5 direct$ by ,god to s]ve on an a/ral planet z a savior10 ,sri ,yuktesw> expla9$4 8,x is call$ ,,hiranyaloka or #8,illum9$ ,a/ral ,planet4' ,!re ,i am aid+ advanc$ be+s to rid !mselves ( a/ral k>ma & ?us atta9 lib]ation f a/ral rebir?s4 ,! dwell]s on ,hiranyaloka are highly develop$ spiritually2 all ( !m _h acquir$1 9 _! la/ e>?-inc>nation1 ! m$itation-giv5 p[] ( consci\sly leav+ _! physical bodies at dea?4 ,no "o c ent] ,hiranyaloka unless he has pass$ on e>? beyond ! /ate ( ,,sabikalpa ,,samadhi into ! high] /ate ( ,,nirbikalpa ,,samadhi4 ,,fn#dc-a 8,! ,hiranyaloka inhabitants h already pass$ ?r\gh ! ord9>y a/ral sph]es1 :]e ne>ly all be+s f e>? mu/ g at dea?2 !re !y work$ out _m se$s ( _! pa/ actions 9 ! a/ral worlds4 ,none b advanc$ be+s c p]=m su* r$emptive "w effectually 9 ! a/ral worlds4 ,!n1 9 ord] to free _! s\ls m fully f ! cocoon ( k>mic traces lodg$ 9 _! a/ral bodies1 ^! high] be+s 7 drawn by cosmic law to be reborn ) new a/ral bodies on ,hiranyaloka1 ! a/ral sun or heav51 :]e ,i h resurrect$ to help !m4 ,!re are also highly advanc$ be+s on ,hiranyaloka :o h come f ! sup]ior1 subtl]1 causal _w40 ,my m9d 0 n[ 9 su* p]fect attunem5t ) my guru's t he 0 convey+ 8 ^w-pictures to me p>tly by spee* & p>tly by ?\ght-transf]5ce4 ,i 0 ?us quickly receiv+ 8 idea-tabloids4 8,y h read 9 ! scriptures10 ,ma/] w5t on1 8t ,god encas$ ! human s\l successively 9 ?ree bodies-! idea1 or causal1 body2 ! subtle a/ral body1 seat ( man's m5tal & emotional natures2 & ! gross physical body4 ,on e>? a man is equipp$ ) 8 physical s5ses4 ,an a/ral be+ works ) 8 consci\sness & feel+s & a body made ( lifetrons4 ,,fn#dc-b ,a causal-bodi$ be+ rema9s 9 ! blissful realm ( ideas4 ,my "w is ) ^? a/ral be+s :o are prep>+ to ent] ! causal _w40 8,adorable ,ma/]1 please tell me m ab\t ! a/ral cosmos40 ,?\gh ,i _h slightly relax$ my embrace at ,sri ,yuktesw>'s reque/1 my arms 7 /ill ar\nd him4 ,treasure beyond all treasures1 my guru :o _h laugh$ at dea? to rea* me6 8,!re are _m a/ral planets1 teem+ ) a/ral be+s10 ,ma/] began4 8,! inhabitants use a/ral planes1 or masses ( light1 to travel f "o planet to ano!r1 fa/] ?an electricity & radioactive en]gies4 8,! a/ral univ]se1 made ( v>i\s subtle vibrations ( light & color1 is hundr$s ( times l>g] ?an ! mat]ial cosmos4 ,! entire physical creation hangs l a little solid basket "u ! huge lum9\s balloon ( ! a/ral sph]e4 ,j z _m physical suns & />s roam 9 space1 s !re are also c\ntless a/ral sol> & /ell> sy/ems4 ,_! planets h a/ral suns & moons1 m beautiful ?an ! physical ones4 ,! a/ral lum9>ies resemble ! aurora borealis-! sunny a/ral aurora be+ m dazzl+ ?an ! mild-ray$ moon-aurora4 ,! a/ral day & night are long] ?an ^? ( e>?4 8,! a/ral _w is inf9itely beautiful1 clean1 pure1 & ord]ly4 ,!re are no dead planets or b>r5 l&s4 ,! t]re/rial blemi%es--we$s1 bact]ia1 insects1 snakes-are abs5t4 ,unlike ! v>iable climates & seasons ( ! e>?1 ! a/ral planets ma9ta9 ! ev5 temp]ature ( an et]nal spr+1 ) occasional lum9\s :ite sn[ & ra9 ( _m-color$ lights4 ,a/ral planets ab\nd 9 opal lakes & bright seas & ra9b[ riv]s4 8,! ord9>y a/ral univ]se-n ! subtl] a/ral heav5 ( ,hiranyaloka-is peopl$ ) millions ( a/ral be+s :o h come1 m or less rec5tly1 f ! e>?1 & also ) myriads ( fairies1 m]maids1 fi%es1 animals1 gobl9s1 gnomes1 demigods & spirits1 all resid+ on diff]5t a/ral planets 9 accordance ) k>mic qualifications4 ,v>i\s sph]ic mansions or vibratory regions are provid$ = good & evil spirits4 ,good ones c travel freely1 b ! evil spirits are conf9$ to limit$ zones4 ,9 ! same way t human be+s live on ! surface ( ! e>?1 worms inside ! soil1 fi% 9 wat]1 & birds 9 air1 s a/ral be+s ( diff]5t grades are assign$ to suitable vibratory qu>t]s4 8,among ! fall5 d>k angels expell$ f o!r worlds1 friction & w> take place ) lifetronic bombs or m5tal ,,mantric ,,fn#dc-c vibratory rays4 ,^! be+s dwell 9 ! gloom-dr5*$ regions ( ! l[] a/ral cosmos1 work+ out _! evil k>ma4 8,9 ! va/ realms above ! d>k a/ral prison1 all is %9+ & beautiful4 ,! a/ral cosmos is m naturally attun$ ?an ! e>? to ! div9e w & plan ( p]fection4 ,e a/ral object is manife/$ prim>ily by ! w ( ,god1 & p>tially by ! w-call ( a/ral be+s4 ,!y possess ! p[] ( modify+ or enhanc+ ! grace & =m ( any?+ already creat$ by ! ,"l4 ,he has giv5 ,8 a/ral *ildr5 ! fre$om & privilege ( *ang+ or improv+ at w ! a/ral cosmos4 ,on e>? a solid mu/ be trans=m$ into liquid or o!r =m ?r\gh natural or *emical processes1 b a/ral solids are *ang$ into a/ral liquids1 gases1 or en]gy solely & in/antly by ! w ( ! inhabitants4 8,! e>? is d>k ) w>f>e & murd] 9 ! sea1 l&1 & air10 my guru cont9u$1 8b ! a/ral realms "k a happy h>mony & equality4 ,a/ral be+s demat]ialize or mat]ialize _! =ms at w4 ,fl[]s or fi% or animals c metamorphose !mselves1 = a "t1 into a/ral m54 ,all a/ral be+s are free to assume any =m1 & c easily commune toge!r4 ,no fix$1 def9ite1 natural law hems !m r\nd-any a/ral tree1 = example1 c be successfully ask$ to produce an a/ral mango or o!r desir$ fruit1 fl[]1 or inde$ any o!r object4 ,c]ta9 k>mic re/rictions are pres5t1 b !re are no di/9ctions 9 ! a/ral _w ab\t desirability ( v>i\s =ms4 ,ev]y?+ is vibrant ) ,god's creative light4 8,no "o is born ( woman2 (fspr+ are mat]ializ$ by a/ral be+s ?r\gh ! help ( _! cosmic w into specially patt]n$1 a/rally cond5s$ =ms4 ,! rec5tly physically disembodi$ be+ arrives 9 an a/ral family ?r\gh invitation1 drawn by simil> m5tal & spiritual t5d5cies4 8,! a/ral body is n subject to cold or heat or o!r natural conditions4 ,! anatomy includes an a/ral bra91 or ! ?\s&-petal$ lotus ( light1 & six awak5$ c5t]s 9 ! ,,su%umna1 or a/ral c]ebro-sp9al axis4 ,! he>t draws cosmic en]gy z well z light f ! a/ral bra91 & pumps x to ! a/ral n]ves & body cells1 or lifetrons4 ,a/ral be+s c affect _! bodies by lifetronic =ce or by ,,mantric vibrations4 8,! a/ral body is an exact c\nt]p>t ( ! la/ physical =m4 ,a/ral be+s reta9 ! same appe>ance :i* !y possess$ 9 y\? 9 _! previ\s e>?ly soj\rn2 occasionally an a/ral be+ *ooses1 l myself1 to reta9 8 old age appe>ance40 ,ma/]1 emanat+ ! v ess5ce ( y\?1 *uckl$ m]rily4 8,unlike ! spacial1 ?ree-dim5sional physical _w cogniz$ only by ! five s5ses1 ! a/ral sph]es are visible to ! all-inclusive six? s5se-intuition10 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on4 8,by %e] intuitional feel+1 all a/ral be+s see1 he>1 smell1 ta/e1 & t\*4 ,!y possess ?ree eyes1 two ( :i* are p>tly clos$4 ,! ?ird & *ief a/ral eye1 v]tically plac$ on ! =ehead1 is op54 ,a/ral be+s h all ! out] s5sory organs-e>s1 eyes1 nose1 tongue1 & sk9-b !y employ ! intuitional s5se to exp]i5ce s5sations ?r\gh any "p ( ! body2 !y c see ?r\gh ! e>1 or nose1 or sk94 ,!y are able to he> ?r\gh ! eyes or tongue1 & c ta/e ?r\gh ! e>s or sk91 & s =?4 ,,fn#dc-d 8,man's physical body is expos$ to c\ntless dang]s1 & is easily hurt or maim$2 ! e!real a/ral body may occasionally be cut or bruis$ b is heal$ at once by m]e will+40 8,gurudeva1 are all a/ral p]sons beautiful80 8,beauty 9 ! a/ral _w is kn[n to be a spiritual quality1 & n an outw>d con=mation10 ,sri ,yuktesw> repli$4 8,a/ral be+s !re=e atta* little importance to facial features4 ,!y h ! privilege1 h[ev]1 ( co/um+ !mselves at w ) new1 colorful1 a/rally mat]ializ$ bodies4 ,j z worldly m5 don new array = gala ev5ts1 s a/ral be+s f9d occasions to b$eck !mselves 9 specially design$ =ms4 8,joy\s a/ral fe/ivities on ! high] a/ral planets l ,hiranyaloka take place :5 a be+ is lib]at$ f ! a/ral _w ?r\gh spiritual advancem5t1 & is !re=e ready to ent] ! heav5 ( ! causal _w4 ,on su* occasions ! ,invisible ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 & ! sa9ts :o are m]g$ 9 ,him1 mat]ialize ,!mselves into bodies ( ,_! own *oice & jo9 ! a/ral celebration4 ,9 ord] to please ,8 belov$ devotee1 ! ,"l takes any desir$ =m4 ,if ! devotee wor%ip$ ?r\gh devotion1 he sees ,god z ! ,div9e ,"m4 ,to ,jesus1 ! ,fa!r-aspect ( ! ,inf9ite ,"o 0 appeal+ beyond o!r conceptions4 ,! individuality ) :i* ! ,creator has end[$ ea* ( ,8 creatures makes e conceivable & inconceivable dem& on ! ,"l's v]satility60 ,my guru & ,i laugh$ happily toge!r4 8,fri5ds ( o!r lives easily recognize "o ano!r 9 ! a/ral _w10 ,sri ,yuktesw> w5t on 9 8 beautiful1 flutelike voice4 8,rejoic+ at ! immortality ( fri5d%ip1 !y realize ! inde/ructibility ( love1 (t5 d\bt$ at ! "t ( ! sad1 delusive p>t+s ( e>?ly life4 8,! intuition ( a/ral be+s pi]ces ?r\gh ! veil & obs]ves human activities on e>?1 b man _c view ! a/ral _w unless 8 six? s5se is some:at develop$4 ,?\s&s ( e>?-dwell]s h mom5t>ily glimps$ an a/ral be+ or an a/ral _w4 8,! advanc$ be+s on ,hiranyaloka rema9 mo/ly awake 9 ec/asy dur+ ! long a/ral day & night1 help+ to "w out intricate problems ( cosmic gov]nm5t & ! r$emption ( prodigal sons1 e>?b\nd s\ls4 ,:5 ! ,hiranyaloka be+s sleep1 !y h occasional dreamlike a/ral visions4 ,_! m9ds are usually engross$ 9 ! consci\s /ate ( highe/ ,,nirbikalpa bliss4 8,inhabitants 9 all p>ts ( ! a/ral worlds are /ill subject to m5tal agonies4 ,! s5sitive m9ds ( ! high] be+s on planets l ,hiranyaloka feel ke5 pa9 if any mi/ake is made 9 conduct or p]ception ( tru?4 ,^! advanc$ be+s endeavor to attune _! e act & ?\ght ) ! p]fection ( spiritual law4 8,communication among ! a/ral inhabitants is held entirely by a/ral telepa?y & television2 !re is none ( ! confusion & misund]/&+ ( ! writt5 & spok5 ^w :i* e>?-dwell]s mu/ endure4 ,j z p]sons on ! c9ema scre5 appe> to move & act ?r\gh a s]ies ( light pictures1 & d n actually brea!1 s ! a/ral be+s walk & "w z intellig5tly guid$ & coord9at$ images ( light1 )\t ! necessity ( draw+ p[] f oxyg54 ,man dep5ds ^u solids1 liquids1 gases1 & en]gy = su/5ance2 a/ral be+s su/a9 !mselves pr9cipally by cosmic light40 8,ma/] m9e1 d a/ral be+s eat any?+80 ,i 0 dr9k+ 9 8 m>vel\s elucidations ) ! receptivity ( all my faculties-m9d1 he>t1 s\l4 ,sup]consci\s p]ceptions ( tru? are p]man5tly real & *angeless1 :ile fleet+ s5se exp]i5ces & impressions are nev] m ?an tempor>ily or relatively true1 & soon lose 9 memory all _! vividness4 ,my guru's words 7 s p5etrat+ly impr9t$ on ! p>*m5t ( my be+ t at any "t1 by transf]r+ my m9d to ! sup]consci\s /ate1 ,i c cle>ly relive ! div9e exp]i5ce4 8,lum9\s raylike vegetables ab\nd 9 ! a/ral soils10 he answ]$4 8,! a/ral be+s consume vegetables1 & dr9k a nect> fl[+ f glori\s f\nta9s ( light & f a/ral brooks & riv]s4 ,j z invisible images ( p]sons on ! e>? c be dug out ( ! e!r & made visible by a television app>atus1 lat] be+ dismiss$ aga9 into space1 s ! ,god-creat$1 unse5 a/ral bluepr9ts ( vegetables & plants float+ 9 ! e!r are precipitat$ on an a/ral planet by ! w ( its inhabitants4 ,9 ! same way1 f ! wilde/ fancy ( ^! be+s1 :ole g>d5s ( fragrant fl[]s are mat]ializ$1 return+ lat] to ! e!ric invisibility4 ,al?\gh dwell]s on ! heav5ly planets l ,hiranyaloka are almo/ fre$ f any necessity ( eat+1 /ill high] is ! uncondition$ exi/5ce ( almo/ completely lib]at$ s\ls 9 ! causal _w1 :o eat no?+ save ! manna ( bliss4 8,! e>?-lib]at$ a/ral be+ meets a multitude ( relatives1 fa!rs1 mo!rs1 wives1 husb&s1 & fri5ds1 acquir$ dur+ diff]5t inc>nations on e>?1 ,,fn#dc-e z !y appe> f "t to "t 9 v>i\s p>ts ( ! a/ral realms4 ,he is !re=e at a loss to und]/& :om to love especially2 he le>ns 9 ?is way to give a div9e & equal love to all1 z *ildr5 & individualiz$ expressions ( ,god4 ,?\gh ! outw>d appe>ance ( lov$ ones may h *ang$1 m or less accord+ to ! developm5t ( new qualities 9 ! late/ life ( any p>ticul> s\l1 ! a/ral be+ employs 8 un]r+ intuition to recognize all ^? once de> to him 9 o!r planes ( exi/5ce1 & to welcome !m to _! new a/ral home4 ,because e atom 9 creation is inext+ui%ably d[]$ ) individuality1 ,,fn#dc-f an a/ral fri5d w be recogniz$ no matt] :at co/ume he may don1 ev5 z on e>? an actor's id5tity is discov]able by close obs]vation despite any disguise4 8,! span ( life 9 ! a/ral _w is mu* long] ?an on e>?4 ,a normal advanc$ a/ral be+'s av]age life p]iod is f five hundr$ to "o ?\s& ye>s1 measur$ 9 accordance ) e>?ly /&>ds ( "t4 ,z c]ta9 r$wood trees outlive mo/ trees by mill5niums1 or z "s yogis live sev]al hundr$ ye>s ?\gh mo/ m5 die be=e ! age ( sixty1 s "s a/ral be+s live mu* long] ?an ! usual span ( a/ral exi/5ce4 ,visitors to ! a/ral _w dwell !re = a long] or %ort] p]iod 9 accordance ) ! weight ( _! physical k>ma1 :i* draws !m back to e>? )9 a specifi$ "t4 8,! a/ral be+ does n h to cont5d pa9fully ) dea? at ! "t ( %$d+ 8 lum9\s body4 ,_m ( ^! be+s nev]!less feel slightly n]v\s at ! ?\ght ( dropp+ _! a/ral =m = ! subtl] causal "o4 ,! a/ral _w is free f unwill+ dea?1 disease1 & old age4 ,^! ?ree dreads are ! curse ( e>?1 :]e man has all[$ 8 consci\sness to id5tify itself almo/ :olly ) a frail physical body requir+ con/ant aid f air1 food1 & sleep 9 ord] to exi/ at all4 8,physical dea? is att5d$ by ! disappe>ance ( brea? & ! dis9tegration ( fle%ly cells4 ,a/ral dea? consi/s ( ! disp]sem5t ( lifetrons1 ^? manife/ units ( en]gy :i* con/itute ! life ( a/ral be+s4 ,at physical dea? a be+ loses 8 consci\sness ( fle% & becomes aw>e ( 8 subtle body 9 ! a/ral _w4 ,exp]i5c+ a/ral dea? 9 due "t1 a be+ ?us passes f ! consci\sness ( a/ral bir? & dea? to t ( physical bir? & dea?4 ,^! recurr5t cycles ( a/ral & physical encasem5t are ! ineluctable de/9y ( all un5light5$ be+s4 ,scriptural def9itions ( heav5 & hell sometimes /ir man's deep]-?an-subconsci\s memories ( 8 long s]ies ( exp]i5ces 9 ! bli!some a/ral & disappo9t+ t]re/rial worlds40 8,belov$ ,ma/]10 ,i ask$1 8w y please describe m 9 detail ! diff]5ce betwe5 rebir? on ! e>? & 9 ! a/ral & causal sph]es80 8,man z an individualiz$ s\l is ess5tially causal-bodi$10 my guru expla9$4 8,t body is a matrix ( ! ?irty-five ,,ideas requir$ by ,god z ! basic or causal ?\ght =ces f :i* ,he lat] =m$ ! subtle a/ral body ( n9ete5 elem5ts & ! gross physical body ( sixte5 elem5ts4 8,! n9ete5 elem5ts ( ! a/ral body are m5tal1 emotional1 & lifetronic4 ,! n9ete5 compon5ts are intellig5ce2 ego2 feel+2 m9d 7s5se-consci\sness72 five in/rum5ts ( ,,k1 ! subtle c\nt]p>ts ( ! s5ses ( sight1 he>+1 smell1 ta/e1 t\*2 five in/rum5ts ( ,,action1 ! m5tal correspond5ce = ! executive abilities to procreate1 excrete1 talk1 walk1 & ex]cise manual skill2 & five in/rum5ts ( ,,life ,,=ce1 ^? emp[]$ to p]=m ! cry/alliz+1 assimilat+1 elim9at+1 metaboliz+1 & circulat+ functions ( ! body4 ,?is subtle a/ral encasem5t ( n9ete5 elem5ts survives ! dea? ( ! physical body1 :i* is made ( sixte5 gross metallic & nonmetallic elem5ts4 8,god ?\ght out diff]5t ideas )9 ,himself & project$ !m into dreams4 ,lady ,cosmic ,dream ?us sprang out decorat$ 9 all h] colossal endless ornam5ts ( relativity4 8,9 ?irty-five ?\ght categories ( ! causal body1 ,god elaborat$ all ! complexities ( man's n9ete5 a/ral & sixte5 physical c\nt]p>ts4 ,by cond5sation ( vibratory =ces1 fir/ subtle1 !n gross1 ,he produc$ man's a/ral body & f9ally 8 physical =m4 ,accord+ to ! law ( relativity1 by :i* ! ,prime ,simplicity has become ! bewild]+ manifold1 ! causal cosmos & causal body are diff]5t f ! a/ral cosmos & a/ral body2 ! physical cosmos & physical body are likewise *>act]i/ically at v>iance ) ! o!r =ms ( creation4 8,! fle%ly body is made ( ! fix$1 objectifi$ dreams ( ! ,creator4 ,! dualities are ev]-pres5t on e>?3 disease & heal?1 pa9 & pleasure1 loss & ga94 ,human be+s f9d limitation & resi/ance 9 ?ree-dim5sional matt]4 ,:5 man's desire to live is sev]ely %ak5 by disease or o!r causes1 dea? arrives2 ! heavy ov]coat ( ! fle% is tempor>ily %$4 ,! s\l1 h[ev]1 rema9s encas$ 9 ! a/ral & causal bodies4 ,,fn#dc-g ,! adhesive =ce by :i* all ?ree bodies are held toge!r is desire4 ,! p[] ( unfulfill$ desires is ! root ( all man's slav]y4 8,physical desires are root$ 9 egotism & s5se pleasures4 ,! compulsion or temptation ( s5sory exp]i5ce is m p[]ful ?an ! desire-=ce connect$ ) a/ral atta*m5ts or causal p]ceptions4 8,a/ral desires c5t] ar\nd enjoym5t 9 t]ms ( vibration4 ,a/ral be+s enjoy ! e!real music ( ! sph]es & are entranc$ by ! sight ( all creation z exhau/less expressions ( *ang+ light4 ,! a/ral be+s also smell1 ta/e1 & t\* light4 ,a/ral desires are ?us connect$ ) an a/ral be+'s p[] to precipitate all objects & exp]i5ces z =ms ( light or z cond5s$ ?\ghts or dreams4 8,causal desires are fulfill$ by p]ception only4 ,! ne>ly-free be+s :o are encas$ only 9 ! causal body see ! :ole univ]se z realizations ( ! dream-ideas ( ,god2 !y c mat]ialize any?+ & ev]y?+ 9 %e] ?\ght4 ,causal be+s !re=e consid] ! enjoym5t ( physical s5sations or a/ral delights z gross & suffocat+ to ! s\l's f9e s5sibilities4 ,causal be+s "w out _! desires by mat]ializ+ !m in/antly4 ,,fn#dc-h ,^? :o f9d !mselves cov]$ only by ! delicate veil ( ! causal body c br+ univ]ses into manife/ation ev5 z ! ,creator4 ,because all creation is made ( ! cosmic dream-texture1 ! s\l ?9ly clo!d 9 ! causal has va/ realizations ( p[]4 8,a s\l1 be+ invisible by nature1 c be di/+ui%$ only by ! pres5ce ( its body or bodies4 ,! m]e pres5ce ( a body signifies t its exi/5ce is made possible by unfulfill$ desires4 ,,fn#dc-i 8,s long z ! s\l ( man is encas$ 9 "o1 two1 or ?ree body-conta9]s1 seal$ tightly ) ! corks ( ignorance & desires1 he _c m]ge ) ! sea ( ,_s4 ,:5 ! gross physical receptacle is de/roy$ by ! hamm] ( dea?1 ! o!r two cov]+s-a/ral & causal-/ill rema9 to prev5t ! s\l f consci\sly jo9+ ! ,omnipres5t ,life4 ,:5 desirelessness is atta9$ ?r\gh wisdom1 its p[] dis9tegrates ! two rema9+ vessels4 ,! t9y human s\l em]ges1 free at la/2 x is "o ) ! ,measureless ,amplitude40 ,i ask$ my div9e guru to %$ fur!r light on ! high & my/]i\s causal _w4 8,! causal _w is indescribably subtle10 he repli$4 8,9 ord] to und]/& x1 "o w\ld h to possess su* trem5d\s p[]s ( conc5tration t he c\ld close 8 eyes & visualize ! a/ral cosmos & ! physical cosmos 9 all _! va/ness-! lum9\s balloon ) ! solid basket-z exi/+ 9 ideas only4 ,if by ?is sup]human conc5tration "o succe$$ 9 conv]t+ or resolv+ ! two cosmoses ) all _! complexities into %e] ideas1 he w\ld !n rea* ! causal _w & /& on ! bord]l9e ( fusion betwe5 m9d & matt]4 ,!re "o p]ceives all creat$ ?+s--solids1 liquids1 gases1 electricity1 en]gy1 all be+s1 gods1 m51 animals1 plants1 bact]ia-z =ms ( consci\sness1 j z a man c close 8 eyes & realize t he exi/s1 ev5 ?\gh 8 body is invisible to 8 physical eyes & is pres5t only z an idea4 8,:atev] a human be+ c d 9 fancy1 a causal be+ c d 9 reality4 ,! mo/ colossal imag9ative human intellig5ce is able1 9 m9d only1 to range f "o extreme ( ?\ght to ano!r1 to skip m5tally f planet to planet1 or tumble endlessly d[n a pit ( et]nity1 or so> rocketlike into ! galaxi$ canopy1 or sc9tillate l a se>*light ov] milky ways & ! />ry spaces4 ,b be+s 9 ! causal _w h a mu* great] fre$om1 & c ef=tlessly manife/ _! ?\ghts into in/ant objectivity1 )\t any mat]ial or a/ral ob/ruction or k>mic limitation4 8,causal be+s realize t ! physical cosmos is n prim>ily con/ruct$ ( electrons1 nor is ! a/ral cosmos basically compos$ ( lifetrons-bo? 9 reality are creat$ f ! m9ute/ p>ticles ( ,god-?\ght1 *opp$ & divid$ by ,,maya1 ! law ( relativity :i* int]v5es to app>5tly sep>ate ! ,n\m5on f ,8 ph5om5a4 8,s\ls 9 ! causal _w recognize "o ano!r z individualiz$ po9ts ( joy\s ,_s2 _! ?\ght-?+s are ! only objects :i* surr\nd !m4 ,causal be+s see ! diff]5ce betwe5 _! bodies & ?\ghts to be m]ely ideas4 ,z a man1 clos+ 8 eyes1 c visualize a dazzl+ :ite light or a fa9t blue haze1 s causal be+s by ?\ght alone are able to see1 he>1 feel1 ta/e1 & t\*2 !y create any?+1 or dissolve x1 by ! p[] ( cosmic m9d4 8,bo? dea? & rebir? 9 ! causal _w are 9 ?\ght4 ,causal-bodi$ be+s fea/ only on ! ambrosia ( et]nally new k4 ,!y dr9k f ! spr+s ( peace1 roam on ! trackless soil ( p]ceptions1 swim 9 ! ocean-endlessness ( bliss4 ,lo6 see _! bright ?\ght-bodies zoom pa/ trillions ( ,_s-creat$ planets1 fre% bubbles ( univ]ses1 wisdom-/>s1 spectral dreams ( gold5 nebulae1 all ov] ! skiey blue bosom ( ,inf9ity6 8,_m be+s rema9 = ?\s&s ( ye>s 9 ! causal cosmos4 ,by deep] ec/asies ! fre$ s\l !n )draws itself f ! little causal body & puts on ! va/ness ( ! causal cosmos4 ,all ! sep>ate eddies ( ideas1 p>ticul>iz$ waves ( p[]1 love1 w1 joy1 peace1 intuition1 calmness1 self-control1 & conc5tration melt into ! ev]-joy\s ,sea ( ,bliss4 ,no long] does ! s\l h to exp]i5ce its joy z an individualiz$ wave ( consci\sness1 b is m]g$ 9 ! ,"o ,cosmic ,ocean1 ) all its waves-et]nal laught]1 ?rills1 ?robs4 8,:5 a s\l is out ( ! cocoon ( ! ?ree bodies x escapes =ev] f ! law ( relativity & becomes ! ineffable ,ev]-,exi/5t4 ,,fn#dc-aj ,behold ! butt]fly ( ,omnipres5ce1 its w+s et*$ ) />s & moons & suns6 ,! s\l exp&$ into ,_s rema9s alone 9 ! region ( lightless light1 d>kless d>k1 ?\ghtless ?\ght1 intoxicat$ ) its ec/asy ( joy 9 ,god's dream ( cosmic creation40 8,a free s\l60 ,i ejaculat$ 9 awe4 8,:5 a s\l f9ally gets out ( ! ?ree j>s ( bodily delusions10 ,ma/] cont9u$1 8x becomes "o ) ! ,inf9ite )\t any loss ( individuality4 ,*ri/ _h won ?is f9al fre$om ev5 be=e he 0 born z ,jesus4 ,9 ?ree /ages ( 8 pa/1 symboliz$ 9 8 e>?-life z ! ?ree days ( 8 exp]i5ce ( dea? & resurrection1 he _h atta9$ ! p[] to fully arise 9 ,_s4 8,! undevelop$ man mu/ und]go c\ntless e>?ly & a/ral & causal inc>nations 9 ord] to em]ge f 8 ?ree bodies4 ,a ma/] :o a*ieves ?is f9al fre$om may elect to return to e>? z a prophet to br+ o!r human be+s back to ,god1 or l myself he may *oose to reside 9 ! a/ral cosmos4 ,!re a savior assumes "s ( ! burd5 ( ! inhabitants' k>ma ,,fn#dc-aa & ?us helps !m to t]m9ate _! cycle ( re9c>nation 9 ! a/ral cosmos & g on p]man5tly to ! causal sph]es4 ,or a fre$ s\l may ent] ! causal _w to aid its be+s to %ort5 _! span 9 ! causal body & ?us atta9 ! ,absolute ,fre$om40 8,resurrect$ ,"o1 ,i want to "k m ab\t ! k>ma :i* =ces s\ls to return to ! ?ree worlds40 ,i c\ld li/5 =ev]1 ,i ?\ght1 to my omnisci5t ,ma/]4 ,nev] 9 8 e>?-life _h ,i be5 able at "o "t to assimilate s mu* ( 8 wisdom4 ,n[ = ! fir/ "t ,i 0 receiv+ a cle>1 def9ite insight into ! enigmatic int]spaces on ! *eck]bo>d ( life & dea?4 8,! physical k>ma or desires ( man mu/ be completely work$ out be=e 8 p]man5t /ay 9 a/ral worlds becomes possible10 my guru elucidat$ 9 8 ?rill+ voice4 8,two k9ds ( be+s live 9 ! a/ral sph]es4 ,^? :o /ill h e>?ly k>ma to dispose ( & :o mu/ !re=e re9habit a gross physical body 9 ord] to pay _! k>mic debts c\ld be classifi$1 aft] physical dea?1 z tempor>y visitors to ! a/ral _w r ?an z p]man5t resid5ts4 8,be+s ) unr$eem$ e>?ly k>ma are n p]mitt$ aft] a/ral dea? to g to ! high causal sph]e ( cosmic ideas1 b mu/ %uttle to & fro f ! physical & a/ral worlds only1 consci\s successively ( _! physical body ( sixte5 gross elem5ts1 & ( _! a/ral body ( n9ete5 subtle elem5ts4 ,aft] ea* loss ( 8 physical body1 h[ev]1 an undevelop$ be+ f ! e>? rema9s = ! mo/ "p 9 ! deep /upor ( ! dea?-sleep & is h>dly consci\s ( ! beautiful a/ral sph]e4 ,aft] ! a/ral re/1 su* a man returns to ! mat]ial plane = fur!r lessons1 gradually accu/om+ himself1 ?r\gh repeat$ j\rneys1 to ! worlds ( subtle a/ral texture4 8,normal or long-e/abli%$ resid5ts ( ! a/ral univ]se1 on ! o!r h&1 are ^? :o1 fre$ =ev] f all mat]ial long+s1 ne$ return no m to ! gross vibrations ( e>?4 ,su* be+s h only a/ral & causal k>ma to "w out4 ,at a/ral dea? ^! be+s pass to ! inf9itely f9] & m delicate causal _w4 ,%$d+ ! ?\ght-=m ( ! causal body at ! end ( a c]ta9 span1 det]m9$ by cosmic law1 ^! advanc$ be+s !n return to ,hiranyaloka or a simil> high a/ral planet1 reborn 9 a new a/ral body to "w out _! unr$eem$ a/ral k>ma4 8,my son1 y may n[ compreh5d m fully t ,i am resurrect$ by div9e decree10 ,sri ,yuktesw> cont9u$1 8z a savior ( a/rally re9c>nat+ s\ls com+ back f ! causal sph]e1 9 p>ticul>1 r ?an ( ^? a/ral be+s :o are com+ up f ! e>?4 ,^? f ! e>?1 if !y /ill reta9 ve/iges ( mat]ial k>ma1 d n rise to ! v high a/ral planets l ,hiranyaloka4 8,j z mo/ p on e>? h n le>n$ ?r\gh m$itation-acquir$ vision to appreciate ! sup]ior joys & advantages ( a/ral life & ?us1 aft] dea?1 desire to return to ! limit$1 imp]fect pleasures ( e>?1 s _m a/ral be+s1 dur+ ! normal dis9tegration ( _! a/ral bodies1 fail to picture ! advanc$ /ate ( spiritual joy 9 ! causal _w &1 dwell+ on ?\ghts ( ! m gross & gaudy a/ral happ9ess1 ye>n to revisit ! a/ral p>adise4 ,heavy a/ral k>ma mu/ be r$eem$ by su* be+s be=e !y c a*ieve aft] a/ral dea? a p]man5t /ay 9 ! causal ?\ght-_w1 s ?9ly p>tition$ f ! ,creator4 8,only :5 a be+ has no fur!r desires = exp]i5ces 9 ! pleas+-to-!-eye a/ral cosmos1 & _c be tempt$ to g back !re1 does he rema9 9 ! causal _w4 ,complet+ !re ! "w ( r$eem+ all causal k>ma or se$s ( pa/ desires1 ! conf9$ s\l ?ru/s out ! la/ ( ! ?ree corks ( ignorance &1 em]g+ f ! f9al j> ( ! causal body1 comm+les ) ! ,et]nal4 8,n[ d y und]/&80 ,ma/] smil$ s en*ant+ly6 8,yes1 ?r\gh y\r grace4 ,i am spee*less ) joy & gratitude40 ,nev] f song or /ory _h ,i ev] receiv$ su* inspir+ k4 ,?\gh ! ,h9du scriptures ref] to ! causal & a/ral worlds & to man's ?ree bodies1 h[ remote & mean+less ^? pages comp>$ ) ! w>m au!nticity ( my resurrect$ ,ma/]6 ,= him inde$ exi/$ n a s+le 8undiscov]'d c\ntry f ^: b\rn no travell] returns06 8,! int]p5etration ( man's ?ree bodies is express$ 9 _m ways ?r\gh 8 ?reefold nature10 my great guru w5t on4 8,9 ! wakeful /ate on e>? a human be+ is consci\s m or less ( 8 ?ree vehicles4 ,:5 he is s5su\sly int5t on ta/+1 smell+1 t\*+1 li/5+1 or see+1 he is work+ pr9cipally ?r\gh 8 physical body4 ,visualiz+ or will+1 he is work+ ma9ly ?r\gh 8 a/ral body4 ,8 causal m$ium f9ds expression :5 man is ?9k+ or div+ deep 9 introspection or m$itation2 ! cosmical ?\ghts ( g5ius come to ! man :o habitually contacts 8 causal body4 ,9 ?is s5se an individual may be classifi$ broadly z #8a mat]ial man1' #8an en]getic man1' or #8an intellectual man4' 8,a man id5tifies himself ab\t sixte5 h\rs daily ) 8 physical vehicle4 ,!n he sleeps2 if he dreams1 he rema9s 9 8 a/ral body1 ef=tlessly creat+ any object ev5 z d ! a/ral be+s4 ,if man's sleep be deep & dreamless1 = sev]al h\rs he is able to transf] 8 consci\sness1 or s5se ( ,i-ness1 to ! causal body2 su* sleep is revivify+4 ,a dream] is contact+ 8 a/ral & n 8 causal body2 8 sleep is n fully refre%+40 ,i _h be5 lov+ly obs]v+ ,sri ,yuktesw> :ile he gave 8 wondr\s exposition4 8,angelic guru10 ,i said1 8y\r body looks exactly z x did :5 la/ ,i wept ov] x 9 ! ,puri a%ram40 8,o yes1 my new body is a p]fect copy ( ! old "o4 ,i mat]ialize or demat]ialize ?is =m any "t at w1 mu* m frequ5tly ?an ,i did :ile on e>?4 ,by quick demat]ialization1 ,i n[ travel in/antly by light express f planet to planet or1 inde$1 f a/ral to causal or to physical cosmos40 ,my div9e guru smil$4 8,?\gh y move ab\t s fa/ ^! days1 ,i _h no difficulty 9 f9d+ y at ,bombay60 8,o ,ma/]1 ,i 0 griev+ s deeply ab\t y\r dea?60 8,ah1 :]e9 did ,i die8 ,isn't !re "s contradiction80 ,sri ,yuktesw>'s eyes 7 tw9kl+ ) love & amusem5t4 8,y 7 only dream+ on e>?2 on t e>? y saw my dream-body10 he w5t on4 8,lat] y buri$ t dream-image4 ,n[ my f9] fle%ly body-:i* y behold & are ev5 n[ embrac+ r closely6-is resurrect$ on ano!r f9] dream-planet ( ,god4 ,som$ay t f9] dream-body & f9] dream-planet w pass away2 !y too are n =ev]4 ,all dream-bubbles mu/ ev5tually bur/ at a f9al wakeful t\*4 ,diff]5tiate1 my son ,yogan&a1 betwe5 dreams & ,reality60 ,?is idea ( ,,v$antic ,,fn#dc-ab resurrection /ruck me ) wond]4 ,i 0 a%am$ t ,i _h piti$ ,ma/] :5 ,i _h se5 8 lifeless body at ,puri4 ,i compreh5d$ at la/ t my guru _h always be5 fully awake 9 ,god1 p]ceiv+ 8 own life & pass+ on e>?1 & 8 pres5t resurrection1 z no?+ m ?an relativities ( div9e ideas 9 ! cosmic dream4 8,i h n[ told y1 ,yogan&a1 ! tru?s ( my life1 dea?1 & resurrection4 ,grieve n = me2 r broadca/ ev]y:]e ! /ory ( my resurrection f ! ,god-dream$ e>? ( m5 to ano!r ,god-dream$ planet ( a/rally g>b$ s\ls6 ,new hope w be infus$ into ! he>ts ( mis]y-mad1 dea?-fe>+ dream]s ( ! _w40 8,yes1 ,ma/]60 ,h[ will+ly w\ld ,i %>e ) o!rs my joy at 8 resurrection6 8,on e>? my /&>ds 7 uncom=tably high1 unsuit$ to ! natures ( mo/ m54 ,(t5 ,i scold$ y m ?an ,i %\ld h4 ,y pass$ my te/2 y\r love %one ?r\gh ! cl\ds ( all reprim&s40 ,he add$ t5d]ly1 8,i h also come today to tell y3 ,nev] aga9 %all ,i we> ! /]n gaze ( c5sure4 ,i %all scold y no m40 ,h[ mu* ,i _h miss$ ! *a/isem5ts ( my great guru6 ,ea* "o _h be5 a gu>dian angel ( protection4 8,de>e/ ,ma/]6 ,rebuke me a million times-d scold me n[60 8,i %all *ide y no m40 ,8 div9e voice 0 grave1 yet ) an und]curr5t ( laught]4 8,y & ,i %all smile toge!r1 s long z our two =ms appe> diff]5t 9 ! ,,maya-dream ( ,god4 ,f9ally we %all m]ge z "o 9 ! ,cosmic ,belov$2 our smiles %all be ,8 smile1 our unifi$ song ( joy vibrat+ ?r\gh\t et]nity to be broadca/ to ,god-tun$ s\ls60 ,sri ,yuktesw> gave me light on c]ta9 matt]s :i* ,i _c reveal "h4 ,dur+ ! two h\rs t he sp5t ) me 9 ! ,bombay hotel room he answ]$ my e "q4 ,a numb] ( _w prophecies utt]$ by him t ,june day 9 #aicf h already come to pass4 8,i leave y n[1 belov$ "o60 ,at ^! words ,i felt ,ma/] melt+ away )9 my encircl+ arms4 8,my *ild10 8 voice rang out1 vibrat+ into my v s\l-firmam5t1 8:5ev] y ent] ! door ( ,,nirbikalpa ,,samadhi & call on me1 ,i %all come to y 9 fle% & blood1 ev5 z today40 ,) ?is cele/ial promise ,sri ,yuktesw> vani%$ f my sight4 ,a cl\d-voice repeat$ 9 musical ?und]3 8,tell all6 ,:osoev] kn[s by ,,nirbikalpa realization t y\r e>? is a dream ( ,god c come to ! f9] dream-creat$ planet ( ,hiranyaloka1 & !re f9d me resurrect$ 9 a body exactly l my e>?ly "o4 ,yogan&a1 tell all60 ,gone 0 ! sorr[ ( p>t+4 ,! pity & grief = 8 dea?1 long robb] ( my peace1 n[ fl$ 9 />k %ame4 ,bliss p\r$ =? l a f\nta9 ?r\gh endless1 newly op5$ s\l-pores4 ,anci5tly clogg$ ) disuse1 !y n[ wid5$ 9 purity at ! driv+ flood ( ec/asy4 ,subconsci\s ?\ghts & feel+s ( my pa/ inc>nations %$ _! k>mic ta9ts1 lu/r\sly r5ew$ by ,sri ,yuktesw>'s div9e visit4 ,9 ?is *apt] ( my autobiography ,i h obey$ my guru's behe/ & spread ! glad tid+1 ?\gh x conf\nd once m an incuri\s g5]ation4 ,grovel+1 man kn[s well2 despair is seldom ali52 yet ^! are p]v]sities1 no "p ( man's true lot4 ,! day he wills1 he is set on ! pa? to fre$om4 ,too long has he he>k5$ to ! dank pessimism ( 8 8du/-?\-art0 c\nselors1 he$less ( ! unconqu]able s\l4 ,i 0 n ! only "o privileg$ to behold ! ,resurrect$ ,guru4 ,"o ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s *elas 0 an ag$ woman1 affectionately kn[n z ,,ma 7,"m71 ^: home 0 close to ! ,puri h]mitage4 ,ma/] _h (t5 /opp$ to *at ) h] dur+ 8 morn+ walk4 ,on ! ev5+ ( ,m>* #af1 #aicf1 ,ma arriv$ at ! a%ram & ask$ to see h] guru4 8,:y1 ,ma/] di$ a week ago60 ,swami ,seban&a1 n[ 9 *>ge ( ! ,puri h]mitage1 look$ at h] sadly4 8,t's impossible60 ,%e smil$ a little4 8,p]haps y are j try+ to protect ! guru f insi/5t visitors80 8,no40 ,seban&a rec\nt$ details ( ! burial4 8,come10 he said1 8,i w take y to ! front g>d5 to ,sri ,yuktesw>ji's grave40 ,ma %ook h] head4 8,!re is no grave = him6 ,?is morn+ at t5 o'clock he pass$ 9 8 usual walk be=e my door6 ,i talk$ to him = sev]al m9utes 9 ! bright outdoors4 8#8,come ?is ev5+ to ! a%ram1' he said4 8,i am "h6 ,bless+s p\r on ?is old gray head6 ,! dea?less guru want$ me to und]/& 9 :at transc5d5t body he _h visit$ me ?is morn+60 ,! a/\nd$ ,seban&a knelt be=e h]4 8,ma10 he said1 8:at a weight ( grief y lift f my he>t6 ,he is ris560 ,,fn#dc-a ,9 ,,sabikalpa ,,samadhi ! devotee has spiritually progress$ to a /ate ( inw>d div9e union1 b _c ma9ta9 8 cosmic consci\sness except 9 ! immobile trance-/ate4 ,by cont9u\s m$itation1 he rea*es ! sup]ior /ate ( ,,nirbikalpa ,,samadhi1 :]e he moves freely 9 ! _w & p]=ms 8 outw>d duties )\t any loss ( ,god-realization4 ,,fn#dc-b ,sri ,yuktesw> us$ ! ^w ,,prana2 ,i h translat$ x z lifetrons4 ,! ,h9du scriptures ref] n only to ! ,,anu1 8atom10 & to ! ,,p>amanu1 8beyond ! atom10 f9] electronic en]gies2 b also to ,,prana1 8creative lifetronic =ce40 ,atoms & electrons are bl9d =ces2 ,,prana is inh]5tly intellig5t4 ,! pranic lifetrons 9 ! sp]matozoa & ova1 = in/ance1 guide ! embryonic developm5t accord+ to a k>mic design4 ,,fn#dc-c ,adjective ( ,,mantra1 *ant$ se$-s\nds dis*>g$ by ! m5tal gun ( conc5tration4 ,! ,,puranas 7anci5t ,,%a/ras or treatises7 describe ^! ,,mantric w>s betwe5 ,,devas & ,,asuras 7gods & demons74 ,an ,,asura once tri$ to slay a ,,deva ) a pot5t *ant4 ,b due to mispronunciation ! m5tal bomb act$ z a boom]ang & kill$ ! demon4 ,,fn#dc-d ,examples ( su* p[]s are n want+ ev5 on e>?1 z 9 ! case ( ,hel5 ,kell] & o!r r>e be+s4 ,,fn#dc-e ,"l ,buddha 0 once ask$ :y a man %\ld love all p]sons equally4 8,because10 ! great tea*] repli$1 89 ! v num]\s & v>i$ lifespans ( ea* man1 e o!r be+ has at "o "t or ano!r be5 de> to him40 ,,fn#dc-f ,! eight elem5tal qualities :i* ent] into all creat$ life1 f atom to man1 are e>?1 wat]1 fire1 air1 e!r1 motion1 m9d1 & individuality4 7,,bhagavad ,,gita3 ,,vii3#d47 ,,fn#dc-g ,body signifies any s\l-encasem5t1 :e!r gross or subtle4 ,! ?ree bodies are cages = ! ,bird ( ,p>adise4 ,,fn#dc-h ,ev5 z ,babaji help$ ,lahiri ,mahasaya to rid himself ( a subconsci\s desire f "s pa/ life = a palace1 z describ$ 9 *apt] #cd4 ,,fn#dc-i 8,& he said unto !m1 ,:]esoev] ! body is1 ?i!r w ! eagles be ga!r$ toge!r40-,,luke #ag3cg4 ,:]ev] ! s\l is encas$ 9 ! physical body or 9 ! a/ral body or 9 ! causal body1 !re ! eagles ( desires-:i* prey on human s5se weaknesses1 or on a/ral & causal atta*m5ts-w also ga!r to keep ! s\l a prison]4 ,,fn#dc-aj 8,him t ov]come? w ,i make a pill> 9 ! temple ( my ,god1 & he %all g no m out 7i4e41 %all re9c>nate no m74 4 4 4 ,to him t ov]come? w ,i grant to sit ) me 9 my ?rone1 ev5 z ,i also ov]came1 & am set d[n ) my ,fa!r 9 8 ?rone40-,,revelation #c3ab1 #ba4 ,,fn#dc-aa ,sri ,yuktesw> 0 signify+ t1 ev5 z 9 8 e>?ly inc>nation he _h occasionally assum$ ! weight ( disease to light5 8 disciples' k>ma1 s 9 ! a/ral _w 8 mission z a savior enabl$ him to take on c]ta9 a/ral k>ma ( dwell]s on ,hiranyaloka1 & ?us ha/5 _! evolution into ! high] causal _w4 ,,fn#dc-ab ,life & dea? z relativities ( ?\ght only4 ,,v$anta po9ts out t ,god is ! only ,reality2 all creation or sep>ate exi/5ce is ,,maya or illusion4 ,?is philosophy ( monism receiv$ its highe/ expression 9 ! ,,upani%ad comm5t>ies ( ,%ank>a4 ,,*apt]3 #dd ,,) ,,mahatma ,,g&hi ,,at ,,w>dha 8,welcome to ,w>dha60 ,mahadev ,desai1 secret>y to ,mahatma ,g&hi1 greet$ ,miss ,blet*1 ,mr4 ,wright1 & myself ) ^! cordial words & ! gift ( wrea?s ( ,,khadd> 7homespun cotton74 ,our little gr\p _h j dism\nt$ at ! ,w>dha /ation on an e>ly morn+ 9 ,augu/1 glad to leave ! du/ & heat ( ! tra94 ,consign+ our luggage to a bullock c>t1 we ent]$ an op5 motor c> ) ,mr4 ,desai & 8 companions1 ,babasaheb ,de%mukh & ,dr4 ,p+ale4 ,a %ort drive ov] ! muddy c\ntry roads br\ght u to ,,maganvadi1 ! a%ram ( ,india's political sa9t4 ,illu/ration3 ,,mahatma ,,g&hi1 ,i enjoy a quiet lun* ) ,india's political sa9t at 8 h]mitage 9 ,w>dha1 ,augu/1 #aice4--see g&hi4jpg ,mr4 ,desai l$ u at once to ! writ+ room :]e1 cross-legg$1 sat ,mahatma ,g&hi4 ,p5 9 "o h& & a scrap ( pap] 9 ! o!r1 on 8 face a va/1 w9n+1 w>m-he>t$ smile6 8,welcome60 he scribbl$ 9 ,h9di2 x 0 a ,monday1 8 weekly day ( sil5ce4 ,?\gh ?is 0 our fir/ meet+1 we beam$ on ea* o!r affectionately4 ,9 #aibe ,mahatma ,g&hi _h honor$ ! ,ran*i s*ool by a visit1 & _h inscrib$ 9 its gue/-book a graci\s tribute4 ,! t9y #ajj-p\nd sa9t radiat$ physical1 m5tal1 & spiritual heal?4 ,8 s(t br[n eyes %one ) intellig5ce1 s9c]ity1 & discrim9ation2 ?is /atesman has mat*$ wits & em]g$ ! victor 9 a ?\s& legal1 social1 & political battles4 ,no o!r lead] 9 ! _w has atta9$ ! secure ni*e 9 ! he>ts ( 8 p t ,g&hi occupies = ,india's unlett]$ millions4 ,_! spontane\s tribute is 8 fam\s title-,,mahatma1 8great s\l40 ,,fn#dd-a ,= !m alone ,g&hi conf9es 8 attire to ! widely-c>toon$ lo9clo?1 symbol ( 8 on5ess ) ! d[ntrodd5 masses :o c af=d no m4 8,! a%ram resid5ts are :olly at y\r disposal2 please call on !m = any s]vice40 ,) *>act]i/ic c\rtesy1 ! ,mahatma h&$ me ?is ha/ily-writt5 note z ,mr4 ,desai l$ our p>ty f ! writ+ room t[>d ! gue/ h\se4 ,our guide l$ u ?r\gh or*>ds & fl[]+ fields to a tile-ro($ build+ ) lattic$ w9d[s4 ,a front-y>d well1 tw5ty-five feet across1 0 us$1 ,mr4 ,desai said1 = wat]+ /ock2 ne>-by /ood a revolv+ cem5t :eel = ?re%+ rice4 ,ea* ( our small b$rooms prov$ to conta9 only ! irr$ucible m9imum-a b$1 h&made ( rope4 ,! :itewa%$ kit*5 boa/$ a faucet 9 "o corn] & a fire pit = cook+ 9 ano!r4 ,simple ,arcadian s\nds rea*$ our e>s-! cries ( cr[s & sp>r[s1 ! l[+ ( cattle1 & ! rap ( *isels be+ us$ to *ip /ones4 ,obs]v+ ,mr4 ,wright's travel di>y1 ,mr4 ,desai op5$ a page & wrote on x a li/ ( ,,satyagraha ,,fn#dd-b v[s tak5 by all ! ,mahatma's /rict foll[]s 7,,satyagrahis73 8,nonviol5ce2 ,tru?2 ,non-,/eal+2 ,celibacy2 ,non-,possession2 ,body-,labor2 ,control ( ! ,palate2 ,fe>lessness2 ,equal ,respect = all ,religions2 ,,swade%i 7use ( home manufactures72 ,fre$om f ,unt\*ability4 ,^! elev5 %\ld be obs]v$ z v[s 9 a _s ( humility40 7,g&hi himself sign$ ?is page on ! foll[+ day1 giv+ ! date also-,augu/ #bg1 #aice47 ,two h\rs aft] our arrival my companions & ,i 7 summon$ to lun*4 ,! ,mahatma 0 already seat$ "u ! arcade ( ! a%ram por*1 across ! c\rty>d f 8 /udy4 ,ab\t tw5ty-five b>efoot$ ,,satyagrahis 7 squatt+ be=e brass cups & plates4 ,a community *orus ( pray]2 !n a meal s]v$ f l>ge brass pots conta9+ ,,*apatis 7:ole-:eat unleav5$ bread7 spr9kl$ ) ,,ghee2 ,,tals>i 7boil$ & dic$ vegetables71 & a lemon jam4 ,! ,mahatma ate ,,*apatis1 boil$ beets1 "s raw vegetables1 & oranges4 ,on ! side ( 8 plate 0 a l>ge lump ( v bitt] ,,neem leaves1 a notable blood cleans]4 ,) 8 spoon he sep>at$ a portion & plac$ x on my di%4 ,i bolt$ x d[n ) wat]1 rememb]+ *ildhood days :5 ,"m _h =c$ me to swall[ ! disagreeable dose4 ,g&hi1 h[ev]1 bit by bit 0 eat+ ! ,,neem pa/e ) z mu* reli% z if x _h be5 a delici\s sweetmeat4 ,9 ?is trifl+ incid5t ,i not$ ! ,mahatma's ability to deta* 8 m9d f ! s5ses at w4 ,i recall$ ! fam\s app5dectomy p]=m$ on him "s ye>s ago4 ,refus+ ane/hetics1 ! sa9t _h *att$ *e]fully ) 8 disciples ?r\gh\t ! op]ation1 8 infecti\s smile reveal+ 8 unaw>5ess ( pa94 ,! aft]noon br\ght an opportunity = a *at ) ,g&hi's not$ disciple1 daught] ( an ,engli% admiral1 ,miss ,madele9e ,slade1 n[ call$ ,mirabai4 ,,fn#dd-c ,h] /rong1 calm face lit ) en?usiasm z %e told me1 9 flawless ,h9di1 ( h] daily activities4 8,rural recon/ruction "w is rew>d+6 ,a gr\p ( u g e morn+ at five o'clock to s]ve ! ne>-by villag]s & tea* !m simple hygi5e4 ,we make x a po9t to clean _! latr9es & _! mud-?at*$ huts4 ,! villag]s are illit]ate2 !y _c be educat$ except by example60 ,%e laugh$ gaily4 ,i look$ 9 admiration at ?is highborn ,engli%woman ^: true ,*ri/ian humility enables h] to d ! scav5g]+ "w usually p]=m$ only by 8unt\*ables40 8,i came to ,india 9 #aibe10 %e told me4 8,9 ?is l& ,i feel t ,i h #8come back home4' ,n[ ,i w\ld nev] be will+ to return to my old life & old int]e/s40 ,we discuss$ ,am]ica = a:ile4 8,i am always pleas$ & amaz$10 %e said1 8to see ! deep int]e/ 9 spiritual subjects exhibit$ by ! _m ,am]icans :o visit ,india40 ,,fn#dd-d ,mirabai's h&s 7 soon busy at ! ,,*>ka 7sp9n+ :eel71 omnipres5t 9 all ! a%ram rooms &1 inde$1 due to ! ,mahatma1 omnipres5t ?r\gh\t rural ,india4 ,g&hi has s\nd economic & cultural reasons = enc\rag+ ! revival ( cottage indu/ries1 b he does n c\nsel a fanatical repudiation ( all mod]n progress4 ,ma*9]y1 tra9s1 automobiles1 ! telegraph h play$ important p>ts 9 8 own colossal life6 ,fifty ye>s ( public s]vice1 9 prison & out1 wre/l+ daily ) practical details & h>% realities 9 ! political _w1 h only increas$ 8 balance1 op5-m9d$ness1 sanity1 & humor\s appreciation ( ! qua9t human spectacle4 ,our trio enjoy$ a six o'clock supp] z gue/s ( ,babasaheb ,de%mukh4 ,! #g3jj ,p4,m4 pray] h\r f\nd u back at ! ,,maganvadi a%ram1 climb+ to ! ro( :]e ?irty ,,satyagrahis 7 gr\p$ 9 a semicircle ar\nd ,g&hi4 ,he 0 squatt+ on a /raw mat1 an anci5t pocket wat* propp$ up be=e him4 ,! fad+ sun ca/ a la/ gleam ov] ! palms & banyans2 ! hum ( night & ! crickets _h />t$4 ,! atmosph]e 0 s]5ity itself2 ,i 0 enraptur$4 ,a solemn *ant l$ by ,mr4 ,desai1 ) responses f ! gr\p2 !n a ,,gita read+4 ,! ,mahatma motion$ to me to give ! conclud+ pray]4 ,su* div9e unison ( ?\ght & aspiration6 ,a memory =ev]3 ! ,w>dha ro( top m$itation "u ! e>ly />s4 ,punctually at eight o'clock ,g&hi end$ 8 sil5ce4 ,! h]culean labors ( 8 life require him to apportion 8 "t m9utely4 8,welcome1 ,swamiji60 ,! ,mahatma's greet+ ?is "t 0 n via pap]4 ,we _h j desc5d$ f ! ro( to 8 writ+ room1 simply furni%$ ) squ>e mats 7no *airs71 a l[ desk ) books1 pap]s1 & a few ord9>y p5s 7n f\nta9 p5s72 a nondescript clock tick$ 9 a corn]4 ,an all-p]vasive aura ( peace & devotion4 ,g&hi 0 be/[+ "o ( 8 captivat+1 cav]n\s1 almo/ too?less smiles4 8,ye>s ago10 he expla9$1 8,i />t$ my weekly obs]vance ( a day ( sil5ce z a means = ga9+ "t to look aft] my correspond5ce4 ,b n[ ^? tw5ty-f\r h\rs h become a vital spiritual ne$4 ,a p]iodical decree ( sil5ce is n a torture b a bless+40 ,i agre$ :olehe>t$ly4 ,,fn#dd-e ,! ,mahatma que/ion$ me ab\t ,am]ica & ,europe2 we discuss$ ,india & _w conditions4 8,mahadev10 ,g&hi said z ,mr4 ,desai ent]$ ! room1 8please make arrangem5ts at ,t[n ,hall = ,swamiji to speak !re on yoga tomorr[ night40 ,z ,i 0 bidd+ ! ,mahatma good night1 he consid]ately h&$ me a bottle ( citronella oil4 8,! ,w>dha mosquitoes don't "k a ?+ ab\t ,,ahimsa1 ,,fn#dd-f ,swamiji60 he said1 laugh+4 ,! foll[+ morn+ our little gr\p breakfa/$ e>ly on a ta/y :eat porridge ) molasses & milk4 ,at t5-?irty we 7 call$ to ! a%ram por* = lun* ) ,g&hi & ! ,,satyagrahis4 ,today ! m5u includ$ br[n rice1 a new selection ( vegetables1 & c>damom se$s4 ,noon f\nd me /roll+ ab\t ! a%ram gr\nds1 on to ! graz+ l& ( a few imp]turbable c[s4 ,! protection ( c[s is a passion ) ,g&hi4 8,! c[ to me means ! entire sub-human _w1 ext5d+ man's sympa?ies beyond 8 own species10 ! ,mahatma has expla9$4 8,man ?r\gh ! c[ is enjo9$ to realize 8 id5tity ) all t lives4 ,:y ! anci5t ri%is select$ ! c[ = apo!osis is obvi\s to me4 ,! c[ 9 ,india 0 ! be/ comp>ison2 %e 0 ! giv] ( pl5ty4 ,n only did %e give milk1 b %e also made agriculture possible4 ,! c[ is a poem ( pity2 "o reads pity 9 ! g5tle animal4 ,%e is ! second "m to millions ( mank9d4 ,protection ( ! c[ means protection ( ! :ole dumb creation ( ,god4 ,! appeal ( ! l[] ord] ( creation is all ! m =ceful because x is spee*less40 ,?ree daily rituals are enjo9$ on ! or?odox ,h9du4 ,"o is ,,bhuta ,,yajna1 an (f]+ ( food to ! animal k+dom4 ,?is c]emony symbolizes man's realization ( 8 obligations to less evolv$ =ms ( creation1 in/9ctively ti$ to bodily id5tifications :i* also corrode human life1 b lack+ 9 t quality ( lib]at+ reason :i* is peculi> to humanity4 ,,bhuta ,,yajna ?us re9=ces man's read9ess to succor ! weak1 z he 9 turn is com=t$ by c\ntless solicitudes ( high] unse5 be+s4 ,man is also "u bond = rejuv5at+ gifts ( nature1 prodigal 9 e>?1 sea1 & sky4 ,! evolution>y b>ri] ( incommunicability among nature1 animals1 man1 & a/ral angels is ?us ov]come by (fices ( sil5t love4 ,! o!r two daily ,,yajnas are ,,pitri & ,,nri4 ,,pitri ,,yajna is an (f]+ ( oblations to ance/ors1 z a symbol ( man's ackn[l$gm5t ( 8 debt to ! pa/1 ess5ce ( ^: wisdom illum9es humanity today4 ,,nri ,,yajna is an (f]+ ( food to /rang]s or ! poor1 symbol ( ! pres5t responsibilities ( man1 8 duties to contempor>ies4 ,9 ! e>ly aft]noon ,i fulfill$ a neighborly ,,nri ,,yajna by a visit to ,g&hi's a%ram = little girls4 ,mr4 ,wright accompani$ me on ! t5-m9ute drive4 ,t9y "y fl[]like faces atop ! long-/emm$ colorful ,,s>is6 ,at ! end ( a brief talk 9 ,h9di ,,fn#dd-g :i* ,i 0 giv+ outdoors1 ! skies unloos$ a sudd5 d[np\r4 ,laugh+1 ,mr4 ,wright & ,i climb$ abo>d ! c> & sp$ back to ,,maganvadi amid/ %eets ( driv+ silv]4 ,su* tropical int5sity & spla%6 ,re5t]+ ! gue/ h\se ,i 0 /ruck anew by ! />k simplicity & evid5ces ( self-sacrifice :i* are ev]y:]e pres5t4 ,! ,g&hi v[ ( non-possession came e>ly 9 8 m>ri$ life4 ,r5\nc+ an ext5sive legal practice :i* _h be5 yield+ him an annual income ( m ?an #bj1jjj1 ! ,mahatma disp]s$ all 8 weal? to ! poor4 ,sri ,yuktesw> us$ to poke g5tle fun at ! commonly inadequate conceptions ( r5unciation4 8,a begg> _c r5\nce weal?10 ,ma/] w\ld say4 8,if a man lam5ts3 #8,my bus9ess has fail$2 my wife has left me2 ,i w r5\nce all & ent] a mona/]y1' to :at worldly sacrifice is he ref]r+8 ,he did n r5\nce weal? & love2 !y r5\nc$ him60 ,sa9ts l ,g&hi1 on ! o!r h&1 h made n only tangible mat]ial sacrifices1 b also ! m difficult r5unciation ( selfi% motive & private goal1 m]g+ _! inmo/ be+ 9 ! /ream ( humanity z a :ole4 ,! ,mahatma's rem>kable wife1 ,ka/urabai1 did n object :5 he fail$ to set aside any "p ( 8 weal? = ! use ( h]self & _! *ildr54 ,m>ri$ 9 e>ly y\?1 ,g&hi & 8 wife took ! v[ ( celibacy aft] ! bir? ( sev]al sons4 ,,fn#dd-h ,a tranquil h]o9e 9 ! int5se drama t has be5 _! life toge!r1 ,ka/urabai has foll[$ h] husb& to prison1 %>$ 8 ?ree-week fa/s1 & fully borne h] %>e ( 8 endless responsibilities4 ,%e has paid ,g&hi ! foll[+ tribute3 ,i ?ank y = hav+ _h ! privilege ( be+ y\r lifelong companion & helpmate4 ,i ?ank y = ! mo/ p]fect m>riage 9 ! _w1 bas$ on ,,brahma*>ya 7self-control7 & n on sex4 ,i ?ank y = hav+ consid]$ me y\r equal 9 y\r life "w = ,india4 ,i ?ank y = n be+ "o ( ^? husb&s :o sp5d _! "t 9 gambl+1 rac+1 wom51 w9e1 & song1 tir+ ( _! wives & *ildr5 z ! little boy quickly tires ( 8 *ildhood toys4 ,h[ ?ankful ,i am t y 7 n "o ( ^? husb&s :o devote _! "t to gr[+ ri* on ! exploitation ( ! labor ( o!rs4 ,h[ ?ankful ,i am t y put ,god & c\ntry be=e bribes1 t y _h ! c\rage ( y\r convictions & a complete & implicit fai? 9 ,god4 ,h[ ?ankful ,i am = a husb& t put ,god & 8 c\ntry be=e me4 ,i am grateful to y = y\r tol]ance ( me & my %ortcom+s ( y\?1 :5 ,i grumbl$ & rebell$ aga9/ ! *ange y made 9 our mode ( liv+1 f s mu* to s little4 ,z a "y *ild1 ,i liv$ 9 y\r p>5ts' home2 y\r "m 0 a great & good woman2 %e tra9$ me1 taught me h[ to be a brave1 c\rage\s wife & h[ to keep ! love & respect ( h] son1 my future husb&4 ,z ! ye>s pass$ & y became ,india's mo/ belov$ lead]1 ,i _h none ( ! fe>s t beset ! wife :o may be ca/ aside :5 h] husb& has climb$ ! ladd] ( success1 z s (t5 happ5s 9 o!r c\ntries4 ,i knew t dea? w\ld /ill f9d u husb& & wife4 ,= ye>s ,ka/urabai p]=m$ ! duties ( treasur] ( ! public funds :i* ! idoliz$ ,mahatma is able to raise by ! millions4 ,!re are _m humor\s /ories 9 ,indian homes to ! effect t husb&s are n]v\s ab\t _! wives' we>+ any jewelry to a ,g&hi meet+2 ! ,mahatma's magical tongue1 plead+ = ! d[ntrodd51 *>ms ! gold bracelets & diamond necklaces "r (f ! arms & necks ( ! weal?y into ! collection basket6 ,"o day ! public treasur]1 ,ka/urabai1 c\ld n acc\nt = a disbursem5t ( f\r rupees4 ,g&hi duly publi%$ an audit+ 9 :i* he inexorably po9t$ out 8 wife's f\r rupee discrepancy4 ,i _h (t5 told ?is /ory be=e classes ( my ,am]ican /ud5ts4 ,"o ev5+ a woman 9 ! hall _h giv5 an outrag$ gasp4 8,mahatma or no ,mahatma10 %e _h cri$1 8if he 7 my husb& ,i w\ld h giv5 him a black eye = su* an unnecess>y public insult60 ,aft] "s good-humor$ bant] _h pass$ betwe5 u on ! subject ( ,am]ican wives & ,h9du wives1 ,i _h gone on to a full] explanation4 8,mrs4 ,g&hi consid]s ! ,mahatma n z h] husb& b z h] guru1 "o :o has ! "r to discipl9e h] = ev5 insignificant errors10 ,i _h po9t$ out4 8,sometime aft] ,ka/urabai _h be5 publicly rebuk$1 ,g&hi 0 s5t5c$ to prison on a political *>ge4 ,z he 0 calmly bidd+ f>ewell to 8 wife1 %e fell at 8 feet4 #8,ma/]1' %e said humbly1 #8if ,i h ev] (f5d$ y1 please =give me4'0 ,,fn#dd-i ,at ?ree o'clock t aft]noon 9 ,w>dha1 ,i betook myself1 by previ\s appo9tm5t1 to ! writ+ room ( ! sa9t :o _h be5 able to make an unfl9*+ disciple out ( 8 own wife-r>e miracle6 ,g&hi look$ up ) 8 un=gettable smile4 8,mahatmaji10 ,i said z ,i squatt$ beside him on ! uncu%ion$ mat1 8please tell me y\r def9ition ( ,,ahimsa40 8,! avoidance ( h>m to any liv+ creature 9 ?\ght or de$40 8,beautiful ideal6 ,b ! _w w always ask3 ,may "o n kill a cobra to protect a *ild1 or "o's self80 8,i c\ld n kill a cobra )\t violat+ two ( my v[s--fe>lessness1 & non-kill+4 ,i w\ld r try inw>dly to calm ! snake by vibrations ( love4 ,i _c possibly l[] my /&>ds to suit my circum/ances40 ,) 8 amaz+ c&or1 ,g&hi add$1 8,i mu/ confess t ,i c\ld n c>ry on ?is conv]sation 7 ,i fac$ by a cobra60 ,i rem>k$ on sev]al v rec5t ,we/]n books on diet :i* lay on 8 desk4 8,yes1 diet is important 9 ! ,,satyagraha movem5t-z ev]y:]e else10 he said ) a *uckle4 8,because ,i advocate complete cont95ce = ,,satyagrahis1 ,i am always try+ to f9d out ! be/ diet = ! celibate4 ,"o mu/ conqu] ! palate be=e he c control ! procreative in/9ct4 ,semi-/>vation or unbalanc$ diets are n ! answ]4 ,aft] ov]com+ ! inw>d ,,gre$ = food1 a ,,satyagrahi mu/ cont9ue to foll[ a rational veget>ian diet ) all necess>y vitam9s1 m9]als1 calories1 & s =?4 ,by inw>d & outw>d wisdom 9 reg>d to eat+1 ! ,,satyagrahi',s sexual fluid is easily turn$ into vital en]gy = ! :ole body40 ,! ,mahatma & ,i comp>$ our k ( good meat-sub/itutes4 8,! avocado is excell5t10 ,i said4 8,!re are num]\s avocado groves ne> my c5t] 9 ,cali=nia40 ,g&hi's face lit ) int]e/4 8,i wond] if !y w\ld gr[ 9 ,w>dha8 ,! ,,satyagrahis w\ld appreciate a new food40 8,i w be sure to s5d "s avocado plants f ,los ,angeles to ,w>dha40 ,,fn#dd-aj ,i add$1 8,eggs are a high-prote9 food2 are !y =bidd5 to ,,satyagrahis80 8,n unf]tiliz$ eggs40 ,! ,mahatma laugh$ rem9isc5tly4 8,= ye>s ,i w\ld n c\nt5ance _! use2 ev5 n[ ,i p]sonally d n eat !m4 ,"o ( my daught]s-9-law 0 once dy+ ( malnutrition2 h] doctor insi/$ on eggs4 ,i w\ld n agree1 & advis$ him to give h] "s egg-sub/itute4 8#8,g&hiji1' ! doctor said1 #8unf]tiliz$ eggs conta9 no life sp]m2 no kill+ is involv$4' 8,i !n gladly gave p]mission = my daught]-9-law to eat eggs2 %e 0 soon re/or$ to heal?40 ,on ! previ\s night ,g&hi _h express$ a wi% to receive ! ,,kriya ,,yoga ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya4 ,i 0 t\*$ by ! ,mahatma's op5-m9d$ness & _s ( inquiry4 ,he is *ildlike 9 8 div9e que/1 reveal+ t pure receptivity :i* ,jesus prais$ 9 *ildr51 84 4 4 ( su* is ! k+dom ( heav540 ,! h\r = my promis$ in/ruction _h arriv$2 sev]al ,,satyagrahis n[ ent]$ ! room-,mr4 ,desai1 ,dr4 ,p+ale1 & a few o!rs :o desir$ ! ,,kriya te*nique4 ,i fir/ taught ! little class ! physical ,,yogoda ex]cises4 ,! body is visualiz$ z divid$ into tw5ty p>ts2 ! w directs en]gy 9 turn to ea* section4 ,soon ev]yone 0 vibrat+ be=e me l a human motor4 ,x 0 easy to obs]ve ! rippl+ effect on ,g&hi's tw5ty body p>ts1 at all times completely expos$ to view6 ,?\gh v ?91 he is n unpleas+ly s2 ! sk9 ( 8 body is smoo? & unwr9kl$4 ,lat] ,i initiat$ ! gr\p into ! lib]at+ te*nique ( ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,! ,mahatma has rev]5tly /udi$ all _w religions4 ,! ,ja9 scriptures1 ! ,biblical ,new ,te/am5t1 & ! sociological writ+s ( ,tol/oy ,,fn#dd-aa are ! ?ree ma9 s\rces ( ,g&hi's nonviol5t convictions4 ,he has /at$ 8 cr$o ?us3 ,i believe ! ,bible1 ! ,,koran1 & ! ,,z5d-,,ave/a ,,fn#dd-ab to be z div9ely inspir$ z ! ,,v$as4 ,i believe 9 ! in/itution ( ,gurus1 b 9 ?is age millions mu/ g )\t a ,guru1 because x is a r>e ?+ to f9d a comb9ation ( p]fect purity & p]fect le>n+4 ,b "o ne$ n despair ( ev] kn[+ ! tru? ( "o's religion1 because ! fundam5tals ( ,h9duism z ( e great religion are un*angeable1 & easily und]/ood4 ,i believe l e ,h9du 9 ,god & ,8 on5ess1 9 rebir? & salvation4 4 4 4 ,i c no m describe my feel+ = ,h9duism ?an = my own wife4 ,%e moves me z no o!r woman 9 ! _w c4 ,n t %e has no faults2 ,i d>esay %e has _m m ?an ,i see myself4 ,b ! feel+ ( an indissoluble bond is !re4 ,ev5 s ,i feel = & ab\t ,h9duism ) all its faults & limitations4 ,no?+ delights me s mu* z ! music ( ! ,,gita1 or ! ,,ramayana by ,tulsidas4 ,:5 ,i fanci$ ,i 0 tak+ my la/ brea?1 ! ,,gita 0 my solace4 ,h9duism is n an exclusive religion4 ,9 x !re is room = ! wor%ip ( all ! prophets ( ! _w4 ,,fn#dd-ac ,x is n a mission>y religion 9 ! ord9>y s5se ( ! t]m4 ,x has no d\bt absorb$ _m tribes 9 its fold1 b ?is absorption has be5 ( an evolution>y1 imp]ceptible "*4 ,h9duism tells ea* man to wor%ip ,god accord+ to 8 own fai? or ,,dh>ma1 ,,fn#dd-ad & s lives at peace ) all religions4 ,( ,*ri/1 ,g&hi has writt53 8,i am sure t if ,he 7 liv+ "h n[ among m51 ,he w\ld bless ! lives ( _m :o p]haps h nev] ev5 he>d ,8 "n 4 4 4 j z x is writt53 #8,n e "o t sai? unto me1 ,"l1 ,"l 4 4 4 b he t doe? ! w ( my ,fa!r4' ,,fn#dd-ae ,9 ! lesson ( ,8 own life1 ,jesus gave humanity ! magnific5t purpose & ! s+le objective t[>d :i* we all ought to aspire4 ,i believe t ,he belongs n solely to ,*ri/ianity1 b to ! entire _w1 to all l&s & races40 ,on my la/ ev5+ 9 ,w>dha ,i address$ ! meet+ :i* _h be5 call$ by ,mr4 ,desai 9 ,t[n ,hall4 ,! room 0 ?rong$ to ! w9d[ sills ) ab\t #djj p assembl$ to he> ! talk on yoga4 ,i spoke fir/ 9 ,h9di1 !n 9 ,engli%4 ,our little gr\p return$ to ! a%ram 9 "t = a good-night glimpse ( ,g&hi1 enfold$ 9 peace & correspond5ce4 ,night 0 /ill l+]+ :5 ,i rose at #e3jj ,a4,m4 ,village life 0 already /irr+2 fir/ a bullock c>t by ! a%ram gates1 !n a peasant ) 8 huge burd5 balanc$ prec>i\sly on 8 head4 ,aft] breakfa/ our trio s\ght out ,g&hi = f>ewell ,,pronams4 ,! sa9t rises at f\r o'clock = 8 morn+ pray]4 8,mahatmaji1 good-by60 ,i knelt to t\* 8 feet4 8,india is safe 9 y\r keep+60 ,ye>s h roll$ by s9ce ! ,w>dha idyl2 ! e>?1 oceans1 & skies h d>k5$ ) a _w at w>4 ,alone among great lead]s1 ,g&hi has (f]$ a practical nonviol5t alt]native to arm$ might4 ,to r$ress grievances & remove inju/ices1 ! ,mahatma has employ$ nonviol5t means :i* aga9 & aga9 h prov$ _! effectiv5ess4 ,he /ates 8 doctr9e 9 ^! words3 ,i h f\nd t life p]si/s 9 ! mid/ ( de/ruction4 ,!re=e !re mu/ be a high] law ?an t ( de/ruction4 ,only "u t law w\ld well-ord]$ society be intelligible & life wor? liv+4 ,if t is ! law ( life we mu/ "w x out 9 daily exi/5ce4 ,:]ev] !re are w>s1 :]ev] we are confront$ ) an oppon5t1 conqu] by love4 ,i h f\nd t ! c]ta9 law ( love has answ]$ 9 my own life z ! law ( de/ruction has nev] done4 ,9 ,india we h _h an ocul> demon/ration ( ! op]ation ( ?is law on ! wide/ scale possible4 ,i don't claim t nonviol5ce has p5etrat$ ! #cfj1jjj1jjj p 9 ,india1 b ,i d claim x has p5etrat$ deep] ?an any o!r doctr9e 9 an incr$ibly %ort "t4 ,x takes a fairly /r5u\s c\rse ( tra9+ to atta9 a m5tal /ate ( nonviol5ce4 ,x is a discipl9$ life1 l ! life ( a soldi]4 ,! p]fect /ate is rea*$ only :5 ! m9d1 body1 & spee* are 9 prop] coord9ation4 ,e problem w\ld l5d itself to solution if we det]m9$ to make ! law ( tru? & nonviol5ce ! law ( life4 ,j z a sci5ti/ w "w wond]s out ( v>i\s applications ( ! laws ( nature1 a man :o applies ! laws ( love ) sci5tific precision c "w great] wond]s4 ,nonviol5ce is inf9itely m wond]ful & subtle ?an =ces ( nature l1 = in/ance1 electricity4 ,! law ( love is a f> great] sci5ce ?an any mod]n sci5ce4 ,consult+ hi/ory1 "o may reasonably /ate t ! problems ( mank9d h n be5 solv$ by ! use ( brute =ce4 ,_w ,w> ,i produc$ a _w-*ill+ sn[ball ( w> k>ma t swell$ into ,_w ,w> ,,ii4 ,only ! w>m? ( bro!rhood c melt ! pres5t colossal sn[ball ( w> k>ma :i* may o!rwise gr[ into ,_w ,w> ,,iii4 ,?is unholy tr9ity w bani% =ev] ! possibility ( ,_w ,w> ,,iv by a f9ality ( atomic bombs4 ,use ( jungle logic in/ead ( human reason 9 settl+ disputes w re/ore ! e>? to a jungle4 ,if bro!rs n 9 life1 !n bro!rs 9 viol5t dea?4 ,w> & crime nev] pay4 ,! billions ( doll>s t w5t up 9 ! smoke ( explosive no?+ness w\ld h be5 suffici5t to h made a new _w1 "o almo/ free f disease & completely free f pov]ty4 ,n an e>? ( fe>1 *aos1 fam9e1 pe/il5ce1 ! ,,danse ,,macabre1 b "o broad l& ( peace1 ( prosp]ity1 & ( wid5+ k4 ,! nonviol5t voice ( ,g&hi appeals to man's highe/ consci5ce4 ,let nations ally !mselves no long] ) dea?1 b ) life2 n ) de/ruction1 b ) con/ruction2 n ) ! ,annihilator1 b ) ! ,creator4 8,"o %\ld =give1 "u any injury10 says ! ,,mahabh>ata4 8,x ha? be5 said t ! cont9uation ( species is due to man's be+ =giv+4 ,=giv5ess is hol9ess2 by =giv5ess ! univ]se is held toge!r4 ,=giv5ess is ! might ( ! mighty2 =giv5ess is sacrifice2 =giv5ess is quiet ( m9d4 ,=giv5ess & g5tl5ess are ! qualities ( ! self-possess$4 ,!y repres5t et]nal virtue40 ,nonviol5ce is ! natural outgr[? ( ! law ( =giv5ess & love4 8,if loss ( life becomes necess>y 9 a righte\s battle10 ,g&hi proclaims1 8"o %\ld be prep>$1 l ,jesus1 to %$ 8 own1 n o!rs'1 blood4 ,ev5tually !re w be less blood spilt 9 ! _w40 ,epics %all som$ay be writt5 on ! ,indian ,,satyagrahis :o )/ood hate ) love1 viol5ce ) nonviol5ce1 :o all[$ !mselves to be m]cilessly slaught]$ r ?an retaliate4 ,! result on c]ta9 hi/oric occasions 0 t ! arm$ oppon5ts ?rew d[n _! guns & fl$1 %am$1 %ak5 to _! dep?s by ! sight ( m5 :o valu$ ! life ( ano!r above _! own4 8,i w\ld wait1 if ne$ be = ages10 ,g&hi says1 8r ?an seek ! fre$om ( my c\ntry ?r\gh bloody means40 ,nev] does ! ,mahatma =get ! maje/ic w>n+3 8,all !y t take ! sword %all p]i% ) ! sword40 ,,fn#dd-af ,g&hi has writt53 ,i call myself a nationali/1 b my nationalism is z broad z ! univ]se4 ,x includes 9 its sweep all ! nations ( ! e>?4 ,,fn#dd-ag ,my nationalism includes ! well-be+ ( ! :ole _w4 ,i d n want my ,india to rise on ! a%es ( o!r nations4 ,i d n want ,india to exploit a s+le human be+4 ,i want ,india to be /rong 9 ord] t %e c infect ! o!r nations also ) h] /r5g?4 ,n s ) a s+le nation 9 ,europe today2 !y d n give /r5g? to ! o!rs4 ,presid5t ,wilson m5tion$ 8 beautiful f\rte5 po9ts1 b said3 8,aft] all1 if ?is endeavor ( ours to arrive at peace fails1 we h our armam5ts to fall back ^u40 ,i want to rev]se t position1 & ,i say3 8,our armam5ts h fail$ already4 ,let u n[ be 9 se>* ( some?+ new2 let u try ! =ce ( love & ,god :i* is tru?40 ,:5 we h got t1 we %all want no?+ else4 ,by ! ,mahatma's tra9+ ( ?\s&s ( true ,,satyagrahis 7^? :o h tak5 ! elev5 rigor\s v[s m5tion$ 9 ! fir/ "p ( ?is *apt]71 :o 9 turn spread ! message2 by pati5tly educat+ ! ,indian masses to und]/& ! spiritual & ev5tually mat]ial b5efits ( nonviol5ce2 by arm+ 8 p ) nonviol5t weapons--non-coop]ation ) inju/ice1 ! will+ness to endure indignities1 prison1 dea? itself r ?an resort to arms2 by enli/+ _w sympa?y ?r\gh c\ntless examples ( h]oic m>tyrdom among ,,satyagrahis1 ,g&hi has dramatically portray$ ! practical nature ( nonviol5ce1 its solemn p[] to settle disputes )\t w>4 ,g&hi has already won ?r\gh nonviol5t means a great] numb] ( political concessions = 8 l& ?an h ev] be5 won by any lead] ( any c\ntry except ?r\gh bullets4 ,nonviol5t me?ods = eradication ( all wrongs & evils h be5 /rik+ly appli$ n only 9 ! political ar5a b 9 ! delicate & complicat$ field ( ,indian social re=m4 ,g&hi & 8 foll[]s h remov$ _m long/&+ feuds betwe5 ,h9dus & ,mohamm$ans2 hundr$s ( ?\s&s ( ,moslems look to ! ,mahatma z _! lead]4 ,! unt\*ables h f\nd 9 him _! fe>less & triumphant *ampion4 8,if !re be a rebir? 9 /ore = me10 ,g&hi wrote1 8,i wi% to be born a p>iah 9 ! mid/ ( p>iahs1 because !reby ,i w\ld be able to r5d] !m m effective s]vice40 ,! ,mahatma is inde$ a 8great s\l10 b x 0 illit]ate millions :o _h ! disc]nm5t to be/[ ! title4 ,?is g5tle prophet is honor$ 9 8 own l&4 ,! l[ly peasant has be5 able to rise to ,g&hi's high *all5ge4 ,! ,mahatma :olehe>t$ly believes 9 ! inh]5t nobility ( man4 ,! inevitable failures h nev] disillusion$ him4 8,ev5 if ! oppon5t plays him false tw5ty times10 he writes1 8! ,,satyagrahi is ready to tru/ him ! tw5ty-fir/ "t1 = an implicit tru/ 9 human nature is ! v ess5ce ( ! cre$40 ,,fn#dd-ah 8,mahatmaji1 y are an exceptional man4 ,y mu/ n expect ! _w to act z y d40 ,a critic once made ?is obs]vation4 8,x is curi\s h[ we delude ourselves1 fancy+ t ! body c be improv$1 b t x is impossible to evoke ! hidd5 p[]s ( ! s\l10 ,g&hi repli$4 8,i am engag$ 9 try+ to %[ t if ,i h any ( ^? p[]s1 ,i am z frail a mortal z any ( u & t ,i nev] _h any?+ extraord9>y ab\t me nor h ,i n[4 ,i am a simple individual liable to err l any o!r fell[ mortal4 ,i own1 h[ev]1 t ,i h en\gh humility to confess my errors & to retrace my /eps4 ,i own t ,i h an immovable fai? 9 ,god & ,8 goodness1 & an unconsumable passion = tru? & love4 ,b is t n :at e p]son has lat5t 9 him8 ,if we are to make progress1 we mu/ n repeat hi/ory b make new hi/ory4 ,we mu/ add to ! inh]itance left by our ance/ors4 ,if we may make new discov]ies & inv5tions 9 ! ph5om5al _w1 mu/ we decl>e our bankruptcy 9 ! spiritual doma98 ,is x impossible to multiply ! exceptions s z to make !m ! rule8 ,mu/ man always be brute fir/ & man aft]1 if at all80 ,,fn#dd-ai ,am]icans may well rememb] ) pride ! successful nonviol5t exp]im5t ( ,william ,p5n 9 f\nd+ 8 #ag? c5tury colony 9 ,p5nsylvania4 ,!re 7 8no =ts1 no soldi]s1 no militia1 ev5 no arms40 ,amid/ ! savage fronti] w>s & ! but*]ies t w5t on betwe5 ! new settl]s & ! ,r$ ,indians1 ! ,quak]s ( ,p5nsylvania alone rema9$ unmole/$4 8,o!rs 7 sla92 o!rs 7 massacr$2 b !y 7 safe4 ,n a ,quak] woman suff]$ assault2 n a ,quak] *ild 0 sla91 n a ,quak] man 0 tortur$40 ,:5 ! ,quak]s 7 f9ally =c$ to give up ! gov]nm5t ( ! /ate1 8w> broke out1 & "s ,p5nsylvanians 7 kill$4 ,b only ?ree ,quak]s 7 kill$1 ?ree :o _h s f> fall5 f _! fai? z to c>ry weapons ( def5ce40 8,resort to =ce 9 ! ,great ,w> 7,i7 fail$ to br+ tranquillity10 ,frankl9 ,d4 ,roosevelt has po9t$ out4 8,victory & defeat 7 alike /]ile4 ,t lesson ! _w %\ld h le>n$40 8,! m weapons ( viol5ce1 ! m mis]y to mank9d10 ,lao-tzu taught4 8,! triumph ( viol5ce ends 9 a fe/ival ( m\rn+40 8,i am fight+ = no?+ less ?an _w peace10 ,g&hi has decl>$4 8,if ! ,indian movem5t is c>ri$ to success on a nonviol5t ,,satyagraha basis1 x w give a new mean+ to patriotism &1 if ,i may say s 9 all humility1 to life itself40 ,be=e ! ,we/ dismisses ,g&hi's program z "o ( an impractical dream]1 let x fir/ reflect on a def9ition ( ,,satyagraha by ! ,ma/] ( ,galilee3 8,ye h he>d t x ha? be5 said1 ,an eye = an eye1 & a too? = a too?3 b ,i say unto y1 ,t ye resi/ n evil3 ,,fn#dd-bj b :osoev] %all smite !e on ?y "r *eek1 turn to him ! o!r also40 ,g&hi's epo* has ext5d$1 ) ! beautiful precision ( cosmic tim+1 into a c5tury already desolat$ & deva/at$ by two ,_w ,w>s4 ,a div9e h&writ+ appe>s on ! granite wall ( 8 life3 a w>n+ aga9/ ! fur!r %$d+ ( blood among bro!rs4 ,,mahatma ,,g&hi',s ,,h&writ+ ,,9 ,,h9di ,illu/ration--see g&hi#b4;jpg ,mahatma ,g&hi visit$ my high s*ool ) yoga tra9+ at ,ran*i4 ,he graci\sly wrote ! above l9es 9 ! ,ran*i gue/-book4 ,! translation is3 8,?is in/itution has deeply impress$ my m9d4 ,i *]i% high hopes t ?is s*ool w enc\rage ! fur!r practical use ( ! sp9n+ :eel40 7,,sign$7 ,,moh&as ,,g&hi ,septemb] #ag1 #aibe ,illu/ration--see g&hiflag4jpg ,a national flag = ,india 0 design$ 9 #aiba by ,g&hi4 ,! /ripes are saffron1 :ite & gre52 ! ,,*>ka 7sp9n+ :eel7 9 ! c5t] is d>k blue4 8,! ,,*>ka symbolizes en]gy10 he wrote1 8& rem9ds u t dur+ ! pa/ eras ( prosp]ity 9 ,india's hi/ory1 h& sp9n+ & o!r dome/ic crafts 7 prom95t40 ,,fn#dd-a ,8 family "n is ,moh&as ,k>am*& ,g&hi4 ,he nev] ref]s to himself z 8,mahatma40 ,,fn#dd-b ,! lit]al translation f ,sanskrit is 8hold+ to tru?40 ,,satyagraha is ! fam\s nonviol5ce movem5t l$ by ,g&hi4 ,,fn#dd-c ,false & alas6 malici\s reports 7 rec5tly circulat$ t ,miss ,slade has sev]$ all h] ties ) ,g&hi & =sak5 h] v[s4 ,miss ,slade1 ! ,mahatma's ,,satyagraha disciple = tw5ty ye>s1 issu$ a sign$ /atem5t to ! ,,unit$ ,,press1 dat$ ,dec4 #bi1 #aide1 9 :i* %e expla9$ t a s]ies ( baseless rumors arose aft] %e _h dep>t$1 ) ,g&hi's bless+s1 = a small site 9 nor!a/]n ,india ne> ! ,himalayas1 = ! purpose ( f\nd+ !re h] n[-fl\ri%+ ,,kisan ,,a%ram 7c5t] = m$ical & agricultural aid to peasant f>m]s74 ,mahatma ,g&hi plans to visit ! new a%ram dur+ #aidf4 ,,fn#dd-d ,miss ,slade rem9d$ me ( ano!r di/+ui%$ ,we/]n woman1 ,miss ,m>g>et ,woodr[ ,wilson1 elde/ daught] ( ,am]ica's great presid5t4 ,i met h] 9 ,new ,york2 %e 0 int5sely int]e/$ 9 ,india4 ,lat] %e w5t to ,pondi*]ry1 :]e %e sp5t ! la/ five ye>s ( h] life1 happily pursu+ a pa? ( discipl9e at ! feet ( ,sri ,aurob9do ,gho%4 ,?is sage nev] speaks2 he sil5tly greets 8 disciples on ?ree annual occasions only4 ,,fn#dd-e ,= ye>s 9 ,am]ica ,i _h be5 obs]v+ p]iods ( sil5ce1 to ! con/]nation ( call]s & secret>ies4 ,,fn#dd-f ,h>mlessness2 nonviol5ce2 ! f\ndation rock ( ,g&hi's cre$4 ,he 0 born into a family ( /rict ,ja9s1 :o rev]e ,,ahimsa z ! root-virtue4 ,ja9ism1 a sect ( ,h9duism1 0 f\nd$ 9 ! #f? c5tury ,b4,c4 by ,mahavira1 a contempor>y ( ,buddha4 ,mahavira means 8great h]o02 may he look d[n ! c5turies on 8 h]oic son ,g&hi6 ,,fn#dd-g ,h9di is ! l+ua franca = ! :ole ( ,india4 ,an ,indo-,aryan language bas$ l>gely on ,sanskrit roots1 ,h9di is ! *ief v]nacul> ( nor!rn ,india4 ,! ma9 dialect ( ,we/]n ,h9di is ,h9du/ani1 writt5 bo? 9 ! ,,devanag>i 7,sanskrit7 *>act]s & 9 ,arabic *>act]s4 ,its subdialect1 ,urdu1 is spok5 by ,moslems4 ,,fn#dd-h ,g&hi has describ$ 8 life ) a deva/at+ c&or 9 ,,! ,,/ory ,,( ,,my ,,exp]im5ts ,,) ,,tru? 7,ahm$abad3 ,navajivan ,press1 #aibg-bi1 #b vol47 ,?is autobiography has be5 summ>iz$ 9 ,,mahatma ,,g&hi1 ,,8 ,,own ,,/ory1 edit$ by ,c4 ,f4 ,&rews1 ) an introduction by ,john ,haynes ,holmes 7,new ,york3 ,macmillan ,co41 #aicj74 ,_m autobiographies replete ) fam\s names & colorful ev5ts are almo/ completely sil5t on any phase ( inn] analysis or developm5t4 ,"o lays d[n ea* ( ^! books ) a c]ta9 dissatisfaction1 z ?\gh say+3 8,"h is a man :o knew _m notable p]sons1 b :o nev] knew himself40 ,?is reaction is impossible ) ,g&hi's autobiography2 he exposes 8 faults & subt]fuges ) an imp]sonal devotion to tru? r>e 9 annals ( any age4 ,,fn#dd-i ,ka/urabai ,g&hi di$ 9 imprisonm5t at ,poona on ,febru>y #bb1 #aidd4 ,! usually unemotional ,g&hi wept sil5tly4 ,%ortly aft] h] admir]s _h sugge/$ a ,memorial ,fund 9 h] honor1 #abe lacs ( rupees 7ne>ly f\r million doll>s7 p\r$ 9 f all ov] ,india4 ,g&hi has arrang$ t ! fund be us$ = village welf>e "w among wom5 & *ildr54 ,he reports 8 activities 9 8 ,engli% weekly1 ,,h>ijan4 ,,fn#dd-aj ,i s5t a %ipm5t to ,w>dha1 soon aft] my return to ,am]ica4 ,! plants1 alas6 di$ on ! way1 unable to )/& ! rigors ( ! long ocean transportation4 ,,fn#dd-aa ,?oreau1 ,rusk91 & ,mazz9i are ?ree o!r ,we/]n writ]s ^: sociological views ,g&hi has /udi$ c>efully4 ,,fn#dd-ab ,! sacr$ scripture giv5 to ,p]sia ab\t #ajjj ,b4,c4 by ,zoroa/]4 ,,fn#dd-ac ,! unique feature ( ,h9duism among ! _w religions is t x d]ives n f a s+le great f\nd] b f ! imp]sonal ,v$ic scriptures4 ,h9duism ?us gives scope = wor%ipful incorporation into its fold ( prophets ( all ages & all l&s4 ,! ,v$ic scriptures regulate n only devotional practices b all important social cu/oms1 9 an ef=t to br+ man's e action into h>mony ) div9e law4 ,,fn#dd-ad ,a compreh5sive ,sanskrit ^w = law2 con=mity to law or natural righte\sness2 duty z inh]5t 9 ! circum/ances 9 :i* a man f9ds himself at any giv5 "t4 ,! scriptures def9e ,,dh>ma z 8! natural univ]sal laws ^: obs]vance enables man to save himself f degradation & suff]+40 ,,fn#dd-ae ,,mat!w #g3ba4 ,,fn#dd-af ,,mat!w #bf3eb4 ,,fn#dd-ag 8,let n a man glory 9 ?is1 t he love 8 c\ntry2 ,let him r glory 9 ?is1 t he love 8 k9d40-,,p]sian ,,prov]b4 ,,fn#dd-ah 8,!n came ,pet] to him & said1 ,"l1 h[ (t %all my bro!r s9 aga9/ me1 & ,i =give him8 till sev5 times8 ,jesus sai? unto him1 ,i say n unto !e1 ,until sev5 times3 b1 ,until sev5ty times sev540-,,mat!w #ah3ba-bb4 ,,fn#dd-ai ,*>les ,p4 ,/e9metz1 ! great electrical eng9e]1 0 once ask$ by ,mr4 ,rog] ,w4 ,babson3 8,:at l9e ( rese>* w see ! greate/ developm5t dur+ ! next fifty ye>s80 8,i ?9k ! greate/ discov]y w be made along spiritual l9es10 ,/e9metz repli$4 8,"h is a =ce :i* hi/ory cle>ly tea*es has be5 ! greate/ p[] 9 ! developm5t ( m54 ,yet we h m]ely be5 play+ ) x & h nev] s]i\sly /udi$ x z we h ! physical =ces4 ,som$ay p w le>n t mat]ial ?+s d n br+ happ9ess & are ( little use 9 mak+ m5 & wom5 creative & p[]ful4 ,!n ! sci5ti/s ( ! _w w turn _! laboratories ov] to ! /udy ( ,god & pray] & ! spiritual =ces :i* z yet h h>dly be5 scrat*$4 ,:5 ?is day comes1 ! _w w see m advancem5t 9 "o g5]ation ?an x has se5 9 ! pa/ f\r40 ,,fn#dd-bj ,t is1 resi/ n evil ) evil4 7,,mat!w #e3ch-ci7 ,,*apt]3 #de ,,! ,,b5gali 8,,joy-,,p]meat$0 ,,"m 8,sir1 please d n leave ,india )\t a glimpse ( ,nirmala ,devi4 ,h] sanctity is int5se2 %e is kn[n f> & wide z ,an&a ,moyi ,ma 7,joy-,p]meat$ ,"m740 ,my niece1 ,amiyo ,bose1 gaz$ at me e>ne/ly4 8,( c\rse6 ,i want v mu* to see ! woman sa9t40 ,i add$1 8,i h read ( h] advanc$ /ate ( ,god-realization4 ,a little article ab\t h] appe>$ ye>s ago 9 ,,ea/-,,we/40 8,i h met h]10 ,amiyo w5t on4 8,%e rec5tly visit$ my own little t[n ( ,jam%$pur4 ,at ! entreaty ( a disciple1 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma w5t to ! home ( a dy+ man4 ,%e /ood by 8 b$side2 z h] h& t\*$ 8 =ehead1 8 dea?-rattle ceas$4 ,! disease vani%$ at once2 to ! man's glad a/oni%m5t1 he 0 well40 ,a few days lat] ,i he>d t ! ,blissful ,"m 0 /ay+ at ! home ( a disciple 9 ! ,bh[anipur section ( ,calcutta4 ,mr4 ,wright & ,i set out imm$iately f my fa!r's ,calcutta home4 ,z ! ,=d ne>$ ! ,bh[anipur h\se1 my companion & ,i obs]v$ an unusual /reet sc5e4 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma 0 /&+ 9 an op5-topp$ automobile1 bless+ a ?rong ( ab\t "o hundr$ disciples4 ,%e 0 evid5tly on ! po9t ( dep>ture4 ,mr4 ,wright p>k$ ! ,=d "s di/ance away1 & accompani$ me on foot t[>d ! quiet assemblage4 ,! woman sa9t glanc$ 9 our direction2 %e alit f h] c> & walk$ t[>d u4 8,fa!r1 y h come60 ,) ^! f]v5t words %e put h] arm ar\nd my neck & h] head on my %\ld]4 ,mr4 ,wright1 to :om ,i _h j rem>k$ t ,i did n "k ! sa9t1 0 hugely enjoy+ ?is extraord9>y demon/ration ( welcome4 ,! eyes ( ! "o hundr$ *elas 7 also fix$ ) "s surprise on ! affectionate tableau4 ,i _h in/antly se5 t ! sa9t 0 9 a high /ate ( ,,samadhi4 ,utt]ly oblivi\s to h] outw>d g>b z a woman1 %e knew h]self z ! *angeless s\l2 f t plane %e 0 joy\sly greet+ ano!r devotee ( ,god4 ,%e l$ me by ! h& into h] automobile4 8,an&a ,moyi ,ma1 ,i am delay+ y\r j\rney60 ,i prote/$4 8,fa!r1 ,i am meet+ y = ! fir/ "t 9 ?is life1 aft] ages60 %e said4 8,please d n leave yet40 ,we sat toge!r 9 ! re> seats ( ! c>4 ,! ,blissful ,"m soon ent]$ ! immobile ec/atic /ate4 ,h] beautiful eyes glanc$ heav5w>d &1 half-op5$1 became /ill$1 gaz+ into ! ne>-f> inn] ,elysium4 ,! disciples *ant$ g5tly3 8,victory to ,"m ,div9e60 ,i _h f\nd _m m5 ( ,god-realization 9 ,india1 b nev] be=e _h ,i met su* an exalt$ woman sa9t4 ,h] g5tle face 0 burni%$ ) ! ineffable joy t _h giv5 h] ! "n ( ,blissful ,"m4 ,long black tresses lay loosely beh9d h] unveil$ head4 ,a r$ dot ( s&alwood pa/e on h] =ehead symboliz$ ! spiritual eye1 ev] op5 )9 h]4 ,t9y face1 t9y h&s1 t9y feet-a contra/ to h] spiritual magnitude6 ,i put "s que/ions to a ne>-by woman *ela :ile ,an&a ,moyi ,ma rema9$ entranc$4 8,! ,blissful ,"m travels widely 9 ,india2 9 _m p>ts %e has hundr$s ( disciples10 ! *ela told me4 8,h] c\rage\s ef=ts h br\ght ab\t _m desirable social re=ms4 ,al?\gh a ,brahm91 ! sa9t recognizes no ca/e di/9ctions4 ,,fn#de-a ,a gr\p ( u always travel ) h]1 look+ aft] h] com=ts4 ,we h to "m h]2 %e takes no notice ( h] body4 ,if no "o gave h] food1 %e w\ld n eat1 or make any inquiries4 ,ev5 :5 meals are plac$ be=e h]1 %e does n t\* !m4 ,to prev5t h] disappe>ance f ?is _w1 we disciples fe$ h] ) our own h&s4 ,= days toge!r %e (t5 /ays 9 ! div9e trance1 sc>cely brea?+1 h] eyes unw9k+4 ,"o ( h] *ief disciples is h] husb&4 ,_m ye>s ago1 soon aft] _! m>riage1 he took ! v[ ( sil5ce40 ,illu/ration3 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma1 ! ,b5gali 8,joy-,p]meat$ ,"m40--see amoyima4jpg ,! *ela po9t$ to a broad-%\ld]$1 f9e-featur$ man ) long hair & ho>y be>d4 ,he 0 /&+ quietly 9 ! mid/ ( ! ga!r+1 8 h&s fold$ 9 a disciple's rev]5tial attitude4 ,refre%$ by h] dip 9 ! ,inf9ite1 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma 0 n[ focus+ h] consci\sness on ! mat]ial _w4 8,fa!r1 please tell me :]e y /ay40 ,h] voice 0 cle> & melodi\s4 8,at pres5t1 9 ,calcutta or ,ran*i2 b soon ,i %all be return+ to ,am]ica40 8,am]ica80 8,yes4 ,an ,indian woman sa9t w\ld be s9c]ely appreciat$ !re by spiritual seek]s4 ,w\ld y l to g80 8,if ,fa!r c take me1 ,i w g40 ,?is reply caus$ h] ne>-by disciples to />t 9 al>m4 8,tw5ty or m ( u always travel ) ! ,blissful ,"m10 "o ( !m told me firmly4 8,we c\ld n live )\t h]4 ,:]ev] %e goes1 we mu/ g40 ,reluctantly ,i ab&on$ ! plan1 z possess+ an impractical feature ( spontane\s enl>gem5t6 8,please come at lea/ to ,ran*i1 ) y\r disciples10 ,i said on tak+ leave ( ! sa9t4 8,z a div9e *ild y\rself1 y w enjoy ! little ones 9 my s*ool40 8,:5ev] ,fa!r takes me1 ,i w gladly g40 ,a %ort "t lat] ! ,ran*i ,,vidyalaya 0 9 gala array = ! sa9t's promis$ visit4 ,! y\ng/]s look$ =w>d to any day ( fe/ivity-no lessons1 h\rs ( music1 & a fea/ = ! climax6 8,victory6 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma1 ki jai60 ,?is reit]at$ *ant f scores ( en?usia/ic little ?roats greet$ ! sa9t's p>ty z x ent]$ ! s*ool gates4 ,%[]s ( m>igolds1 t9kle ( cymbals1 lu/y bl[+ ( con* %ells & beat ( ! ,,mridanga drum6 ,! ,blissful ,"m w&]$ smil+ly ov] ! sunny ,,vidyalaya gr\nds1 ev] c>ry+ )9 h] ! portable p>adise4 8,x is beautiful "h10 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma said graci\sly z ,i l$ h] into ! ma9 build+4 ,%e seat$ h]self ) a *ildlike smile by my side4 ,! close/ ( de> fri5ds1 %e made "o feel1 yet an aura ( remot5ess 0 ev] ar\nd h]-! p>adoxical isolation ( ,omnipres5ce4 8,please tell me some?+ ( y\r life40 8,fa!r kn[s all ab\t x2 :y repeat x80 ,%e evid5tly felt t ! factual hi/ory ( "o %ort inc>nation 0 b5ea? notice4 ,i laugh$1 g5tly repeat+ my "q4 8,fa!r1 !re is little to tell40 ,%e spread h] graceful h&s 9 a deprecatory ge/ure4 8,my consci\sness has nev] associat$ itself ) ?is tempor>y body4 ,be=e ,i came on ?is e>?1 ,fa!r1 #8,i 0 ! same4' ,z a little girl1 #8,i 0 ! same4' ,i grew into womanhood1 b /ill #8,i 0 ! same4' ,:5 ! family 9 :i* ,i _h be5 born made arrangem5ts to h ?is body m>ri$1 #8,i 0 ! same4' ,& :51 passion-drunk1 my husb& came to me & murmur$ ende>+ words1 lightly t\*+ my body1 he receiv$ a viol5t %ock1 z if /ruck by lightn+1 = ev5 !n #8,i 0 ! same4' 8,my husb& knelt be=e me1 fold$ 8 h&s1 & implor$ my p>don4 8#8,"m1' he said1 #8because ,i h desecrat$ y\r bodily temple by t\*+ x ) ! ?\ght ( lu/-n kn[+ t )9 x dwelt n my wife b ! ,div9e ,"m-,i take ?is solemn v[3 ,i %all be y\r disciple1 a celibate foll[]1 ev] c>+ = y 9 sil5ce z a s]vant1 nev] speak+ to anyone aga9 z long z ,i live4 ,may ,i ?us atone = ! s9 ,i h today committ$ aga9/ y1 my guru4' 8,ev5 :5 ,i quietly accept$ ?is proposal ( my husb&'s1 #8,i 0 ! same4' ,&1 ,fa!r1 9 front ( y n[1 #8,i am ! same4' ,ev] aft]w>d1 ?\gh ! dance ( creation *ange ar\nd me 9 ! hall ( et]nity1 #8,i %all be ! same4'0 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma sank into a deep m$itative /ate4 ,h] =m 0 /atue-/ill2 %e _h fl$ to h] ev]-call+ k+dom4 ,! d>k pools ( h] eyes appe>$ lifeless & glassy4 ,?is expression is (t5 pres5t :5 sa9ts remove _! consci\sness f ! physical body1 :i* is !n h>dly m ?an a piece ( s\lless clay4 ,we sat toge!r = an h\r 9 ! ec/atic trance4 ,%e return$ to ?is _w ) a gay little laugh4 8,please1 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma10 ,i said1 8come ) me to ! g>d54 ,mr4 ,wright w take "s pictures40 8,( c\rse1 ,fa!r4 ,y\r w is my w40 ,h] glori\s eyes reta9$ ! un*ang+ div9e lu/] z %e pos$ = _m photographs4 ,"t = ! fea/6 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma squatt$ on h] blanket-seat1 a disciple at h] elb[ to fe$ h]4 ,l an infant1 ! sa9t ob$i5tly swall[$ ! food aft] ! *ela _h br\ght x to h] lips4 ,x 0 pla9 t ! ,blissful ,"m did n recognize any diff]5ce betwe5 curries & sweetmeats6 ,z dusk approa*$1 ! sa9t left ) h] p>ty amid/ a %[] ( rose petals1 h] h&s rais$ 9 bless+ on ! little lads4 ,_! faces %one ) ! affection %e _h ef=tlessly awak5$4 8,?\ %alt love ! ,"l ?y ,god ) all ?y he>t1 & ) all ?y s\l1 & ) all ?y m9d1 & ) all ?y /r5g?30 ,*ri/ has proclaim$1 8?is is ! fir/ comm&m5t40 ,,fn#de-b ,ca/+ aside e inf]ior atta*m5t1 ,an&a ,moyi ,ma (f]s h] sole allegiance to ! ,"l4 ,n by ! hairsplitt+ di/9ctions ( s*ol>s b by ! sure logic ( fai?1 ! *ildlike sa9t has solv$ ! only problem 9 human life-e/abli%m5t ( unity ) ,god4 ,man has =gott5 ?is />k simplicity1 n[ befogg$ by a million issues4 ,refus+ a mono!i/ic love to ,god1 ! nations disguise _! infidelity by punctili\s respect be=e ! outw>d %r9es ( *>ity4 ,^! humanit>ian ge/ures are virtu\s1 because = a mom5t !y div]t man's att5tion f himself1 b !y d n free him f 8 s+le responsibility 9 life1 ref]r$ to by ,jesus z ! fir/ comm&m5t4 ,! uplift+ obligation to love ,god is assum$ ) man's fir/ brea? ( an air freely be/[$ by 8 only ,b5efactor4 ,on "o o!r occasion aft] h] ,ran*i visit ,i _h opportunity to see ,an&a ,moyi ,ma4 ,%e /ood among h] disciples "s mon?s lat] on ! ,s]ampore /ation plat=m1 wait+ = ! tra94 8,fa!r1 ,i am go+ to ! ,himalayas10 %e told me4 8,g5]\s disciples h built me a h]mitage 9 ,dehra ,dun40 ,z %e bo>d$ ! tra91 ,i m>vel$ to see t :e!r amid/ a cr[d1 on a tra91 fea/+1 or sitt+ 9 sil5ce1 h] eyes nev] look$ away f ,god4 ,)9 me ,i /ill he> h] voice1 an e*o ( measureless sweetness3 8,behold1 n[ & always "o ) ! ,et]nal1 #8,i am ev] ! same4'0 ,,fn#de-a ,i f9d "s fur!r facts ( ,an&a ,moyi ,ma's life1 pr9t$ 9 ,,ea/-,,we/4 ,! sa9t 0 born 9 #ahic at ,dacca 9 c5tral ,b5gal4 ,illit]ate1 %e has yet /unn$ ! intellectuals by h] wisdom4 ,h] v]ses 9 ,sanskrit h fill$ s*ol>s ) wond]m5t4 ,%e has br\ght consolation to b]eav$ p]sons1 & effect$ miracul\s cures1 by h] m]e pres5ce4 ,,fn#de-b ,,m>k #ab3cj4 ,,*apt]3 #df ,,! ,,woman ,,yogi ,,:o ,,nev] ,,eats 8,sir1 :i!r are we b\nd ?is morn+80 ,mr4 ,wright 0 driv+ ! ,=d2 he took 8 eyes (f ! road long en\gh to gaze at me ) a que/ion+ tw9kle4 ,f day to day he seldom knew :at "p ( ,b5gal he w\ld be discov]+ next4 8,god will+10 ,i repli$ dev\tly1 8we are on our way to see an eigh? wond] ( ! _w-a woman sa9t ^: diet is ?9 air60 8,repetition ( wond]s-aft] ,!rese ,neumann40 ,b ,mr4 ,wright laugh$ eag]ly j ! same2 he ev5 accel]at$ ! spe$ ( ! c>4 ,m extraord9>y gri/ = 8 travel di>y6 ,n "o ( an av]age t\ri/1 t6 ,! ,ran*i s*ool _h j be5 left beh9d u2 we _h ris5 be=e ! sun4 ,besides my secret>y & myself1 ?ree ,b5gali fri5ds 7 9 ! p>ty4 ,we drank 9 ! exhil>at+ air1 ! natural w9e ( ! morn+4 ,our driv] guid$ ! c> w>ily among ! e>ly peasants & ! two-:eel$ c>ts1 sl[ly drawn by yok$1 hump-%\ld]$ bullocks1 incl9$ to dispute ! road ) a honk+ int]lop]4 8,sir1 we w\ld l to "k m ( ! fa/+ sa9t40 8,h] "n is ,giri ,bala10 ,i in=m$ my companions4 8,i fir/ he>d ab\t h] ye>s ago f a s*ol>ly g5tleman1 ,/hiti ,lal ,nundy4 ,he (t5 came to ! ,gurp> ,road home to tutor my bro!r ,bi%nu40 8#8,i "k ,giri ,bala well1' ,/hiti ,babu told me4 #8,%e employs a c]ta9 yoga te*nique :i* enables h] to live )\t eat+4 ,i 0 h] close neighbor 9 ,nawabganj ne> ,i*apur4 ,,fn#df-a ,i made x a po9t to wat* h] closely2 nev] did ,i f9d evid5ce t %e 0 tak+ ei!r food or dr9k4 ,my int]e/ f9ally m\nt$ s high t ,i approa*$ ! ,mah>aja ( ,burdwan ,,fn#df-b & ask$ him to conduct an inve/igation4 ,a/\nd$ at ! /ory1 he invit$ h] to 8 palace4 ,%e agre$ to a te/ & liv$ = two mon?s lock$ up 9 a small section ( 8 home4 ,lat] %e return$ = a palace visit ( tw5ty days2 & !n = a ?ird te/ ( fifte5 days4 ,! ,mah>aja himself told me t ^! ?ree rigor\s scrut9ies _h conv9c$ him beyond d\bt ( h] non-eat+ /ate4' ,illu/ration3 ,,giri ,,bala1 ,?is great woman yogi has n tak5 food or dr9k s9ce #ahhj4 ,i am pictur$ ) h]1 9 #aicf1 at h] home 9 ! isolat$ ,b5gal village ( ,biur4 ,h] non-eat+ /ate has be5 rigor\sly inve/igat$ by ! ,mah>aja ( ,burdwan4 ,%e employs a c]ta9 yoga te*nique to re*>ge h] body ) cosmic en]gy f ! e!r1 sun1 & air4--see giribala4jpg 8,?is /ory ( ,/hiti ,babu's has rema9$ 9 my m9d = ov] tw5ty-five ye>s10 ,i conclud$4 8,sometimes 9 ,am]ica ,i wond]$ if ! riv] ( "t w\ld n swall[ ! ,,yog9i ,,fn#df-c be=e ,i c\ld meet h]4 ,%e mu/ be q ag$ n[4 ,i d n ev5 "k :]e1 or if1 %e lives4 ,b 9 a few h\rs we %all rea* ,purulia2 h] bro!r has a home !re40 ,by t5-?irty our little gr\p 0 conv]s+ ) ! bro!r1 ,lambad> ,dey1 a lawy] ( ,purulia4 8,yes1 my si/] is liv+4 ,%e sometimes /ays ) me "h1 b at pres5t %e is at our family home 9 ,biur40 ,lambad> ,babu glanc$ d\btfully at ! ,=d4 8,i h>dly ?9k1 ,swamiji1 t any automobile has ev] p5etrat$ into ! int]ior z f> z ,biur4 ,x might be be/ if y all resign y\rselves to ! anci5t jolt ( ! bullock c>t60 ,z "o voice our p>ty pl$g$ loyalty to ! ,pride ( ,detroit4 8,! ,=d comes f ,am]ica10 ,i told ! lawy]4 8,x w\ld be a %ame to deprive x ( an opportunity to get acqua9t$ ) ! he>t ( ,b5gal60 8,may ,gane% ,,fn#df-d g ) y60 ,lambad> ,babu said1 laugh+4 ,he add$ c\rte\sly1 8,if y ev] get !re1 ,i am sure ,giri ,bala w be glad to see y4 ,%e is approa*+ h] sev5ties1 b cont9ues 9 excell5t heal?40 8,please tell me1 sir1 if x is absolutely true t %e eats no?+80 ,i look$ directly into 8 eyes1 ^? telltale w9d[s ( ! m9d4 8,x is true40 ,8 gaze 0 op5 & honorable4 8,9 m ?an five decades ,i h nev] se5 h] eat a morsel4 ,if ! _w sudd5ly came to an end1 ,i c\ld n be m a/oni%$ ?an by ! sight ( my si/]'s tak+ food60 ,we *uckl$ toge!r ov] ! improbability ( ^! two cosmic ev5ts4 8,giri ,bala has nev] s\ght an inaccessible solitude = h] yoga practices10 ,lambad> ,babu w5t on4 8,%e has liv$ h] entire life surr\nd$ by h] family & fri5ds4 ,!y are all well accu/om$ n[ to h] /range /ate4 ,n "o ( !m :o w\ld n be /upefi$ if ,giri ,bala sudd5ly decid$ to eat any?+6 ,si/] is naturally retir+1 z befits a ,h9du wid[1 b our little circle 9 ,purulia & 9 ,biur all "k t %e is lit]ally an #8exceptional' woman40 ,! bro!r's s9c]ity 0 manife/4 ,our little p>ty ?ank$ him w>mly & set out t[>d ,biur4 ,we /opp$ at a /reet %op = curry & ,,lu*is1 attract+ a sw>m ( ur*9s :o ga!r$ r\nd to wat* ,mr4 ,wright eat+ ) 8 f+]s 9 ! simple ,h9du mann]4 ,,fn#df-e ,he>ty appetites caus$ u to =tify ourselves aga9/ an aft]noon :i*1 unkn[n at ! mom5t1 0 to prove fairly labori\s4 ,our way n[ l$ ea/ ?r\gh sun-bak$ rice fields into ! ,burdwan section ( ,b5gal4 ,on ?r\gh roads l9$ ) d5se vegetation2 ! songs ( ! ,,maynas & ! /ripe-?roat$ ,,bulbuls /ream$ out f trees ) huge1 umbrellalike bran*es4 ,a bullock c>t n[ & !n1 ! ,,r9i1 ,,r9i1 ,,manju1 ,,manju squeak ( its axle & iron-%od wood5 :eels contra/+ %>ply 9 m9d ) ! ,,swi%1 ,,swi% ( auto tires ov] ! ari/ocratic asphalt ( ! cities4 8,dick1 halt60 ,my sudd5 reque/ br\ght a jolt+ prote/ f ! ,=d4 8,t ov]burd5$ mango tree is fairly %\t+ an invitation60 ,! five ( u da%$ l *ildr5 to ! mango-/rewn e>?2 ! tree _h b5evol5tly %$ its fruits z !y _h rip5$4 8,full _m a mango is born to lie unse510 ,i p>aphras$1 8& wa/e its sweetness on ! /ony gr\nd40 8,no?+ l ?is 9 ,am]ica1 ,swamiji1 eh80 laugh$ ,saile% ,mazumd>1 "o ( my ,b5gali /ud5ts4 8,no10 ,i admitt$1 cov]$ ) mango juice & cont5tm5t4 8,h[ ,i h miss$ ?is fruit 9 ! ,we/6 ,a ,h9du's heav5 )\t mangoes is inconceivable60 ,i pick$ up a rock & d[n$ a pr\d beauty hidd5 on ! highe/ limb4 8,dick10 ,i ask$ betwe5 bites ( ambrosia1 w>m ) ! tropical sun1 8are all ! cam]as 9 ! c>80 8,yes1 sir2 9 ! baggage comp>tm5t40 8,if ,giri ,bala proves to be a true sa9t1 ,i want to write ab\t h] 9 ! ,we/4 ,a ,h9du ,,yog9i ) su* inspir+ p[]s %\ld n live & die unkn[n-l mo/ ( ^! mangoes40 ,half an h\r lat] ,i 0 /ill /roll+ 9 ! sylvan peace4 8,sir10 ,mr4 ,wright rem>k$1 8we %\ld rea* ,giri ,bala be=e ! sun sets1 to h en\gh light = photographs40 ,he add$ ) a gr91 8,! ,we/]n]s are a skeptical lot2 we c't expect !m to believe 9 ! lady )\t any pictures60 ,?is bit ( wisdom 0 indisputable2 ,i turn$ my back on temptation & re5t]$ ! c>4 8,y are "r1 ,dick10 ,i sigh$ z we sp$ along1 8,i sacrifice ! mango p>adise on ! alt> ( ,we/]n realism4 ,photographs we mu/ h60 ,! road became m & m sickly3 wr9kles ( ruts1 boils ( h>d5$ clay1 ! sad infirmities ( old age6 ,our gr\p dism\nt$ occasionally to all[ ,mr4 ,wright to m easily maneuv] ! ,=d1 :i* ! f\r ( u pu%$ f beh9d4 8,lambad> ,babu spoke truly10 ,saile% ackn[l$g$4 8,! c> is n c>ry+ u2 we are c>ry+ ! c>60 ,our climb-91 climb-out auto t$ium 0 beguil$ ev] & anon by ! appe>ance ( a village1 ea* "o a sc5e ( qua9t simplicity4 8,our way twi/$ & turn$ ?r\gh groves ( palms among anci5t1 unspoil$ villages ne/l+ 9 ! =e/ %ade10 ,mr4 ,wright has record$ 9 8 travel di>y1 "u date ( ,may #e1 #aicf4 8,v fasc9at+ are ^! clu/]s ( ?at*$ mud huts1 decorat$ ) "o ( ! names ( ,god on ! door2 _m small1 nak$ *ildr5 innoc5tly play+ ab\t1 paus+ to />e or run wildly f ?is big1 black1 bullockless c>riage te>+ madly ?r\gh _! village4 ,! wom5 m]ely peep f ! %ad[s1 :ile ! m5 lazily loll b5ea? ! trees along ! roadside1 curi\s b5ea? _! non*alance4 ,9 "o place1 all ! villag]s 7 gaily ba?+ 9 ! l>ge tank 79 _! g>m5ts1 *ang+ by drap+ dry clo?s ar\nd _! bodies1 dropp+ ! wet ones74 ,wom5 be>+ wat] to _! homes1 9 huge brass j>s4 8,! road l$ u a m]ry *ase ov] m\nt & ridge2 we b\nc$ & toss$1 dipp$ into small /reams1 det\r$ ar\nd an unf9i%$ causeway1 sli!r$ across dry1 s&y riv] b$s & f9ally1 ab\t #e3jj ,p4,m41 we 7 close to our de/9ation1 ,biur4 ,?is m9ute village 9 ! int]ior ( ,bankura ,di/rict1 hidd5 9 ! protection ( d5se foliage1 is unapproa*able by travel]s dur+ ! ra9y season1 :5 ! /reams are rag+ torr5ts & ! roads s]p5tlike spit ! mud-v5om4 8,ask+ = a guide among a gr\p ( wor%ip]s on _! way home f a temple pray] 7out 9 ! lonely field71 we 7 besieg$ by a doz5 scantily clad lads :o clamb]$ on ! sides ( ! c>1 eag] to conduct u to ,giri ,bala4 8,! road l$ t[>d a grove ( date palms %elt]+ a gr\p ( mud huts1 b be=e we _h rea*$ x1 ! ,=d 0 mom5t>ily tipp$ at a dang]\s angle1 toss$ up & dropp$ d[n4 ,! n>r[ trail l$ ar\nd trees & tank1 ov] ridges1 into holes & deep ruts4 ,! c> became an*or$ on a clump ( bu%es1 !n gr\nd$ on a hillock1 requir+ a lift ( e>? clods2 on we proce$$1 sl[ly & c>efully2 sudd5ly ! way 0 /opp$ by a mass ( bru% 9 ! middle ( ! c>t track1 necessitat+ a det\r d[n a precipit\s l$ge into a dry tank1 rescue f :i* dem&$ "s scrap+1 adz+1 & %ovel+4 ,aga9 & aga9 ! road seem$ impassable1 b ! pilgrimage mu/ g on2 oblig+ lads fet*$ spades & demoli%$ ! ob/acles 7%ades ( ,gane%67 :ile hundr$s ( *ildr5 & p>5ts />$4 8,soon we 7 ?read+ our way along ! two ruts ( antiquity1 wom5 gaz+ wide-ey$ f _! hut doors1 m5 trail+ alongside & beh9d u1 *ildr5 scamp]+ to swell ! procession4 ,ours 0 p]haps ! fir/ auto to trav]se ^! roads2 ! #8bullock c>t union' mu/ be omnipot5t "h6 ,:at a s5sation we creat$-a gr\p pilot$ by an ,am]ican & pione]+ 9 a snort+ c> "r into _! hamlet fa/ness1 invad+ ! anci5t privacy & sanctity6 8,halt+ by a n>r[ lane we f\nd ourselves )9 a hundr$ feet ( ,giri ,bala's ance/ral home4 ,we felt ! ?rill ( fulfillm5t aft] ! long road /ruggle cr[n$ by a r\gh f9i%4 ,we approa*$ a l>ge1 two-/ori$ build+ ( brick & pla/]1 dom9at+ ! surr\nd+ adobe huts2 ! h\se 0 "u ! process ( repair1 = ar\nd x 0 ! *>act]i/ically tropical framework ( bamboos4 8,) fev]i% anticipation & suppress$ rejoic+ we /ood be=e ! op5 doors ( ! "o bless$ by ! ,"l's #8hung]less' t\*4 ,con/antly agape 7 ! villag]s1 "y & old1 b>e & dress$1 wom5 alo( some:at b inquisitive too1 m5 & boys unaba%$ly at our heels z !y gaz$ on ?is unprec$5t$ spectacle4 8,soon a %ort figure came into view 9 ! doorway-,giri ,bala6 ,%e 0 swa!d 9 a clo? ( dull1 goldi% silk2 9 typically ,indian fa%ion1 %e drew =w>d mode/ly & hesitat+ly1 pe]+ slightly f b5ea? ! upp] fold ( h] ,,swade%i clo?4 ,h] eyes gli/5$ l sm\ld]+ emb]s 9 ! %ad[ ( h] head piece2 we 7 enamor$ by a mo/ b5evol5t & k9dly face1 a face ( realization & und]/&+1 free f ! ta9t ( e>?ly atta*m5t4 8,meekly %e approa*$ & sil5tly ass5t$ to our snapp+ a numb] ( pictures ) our #8/ill' & #8movie' cam]as4 ,,fn#df-f ,pati5tly & %yly %e endur$ our photo te*niques ( po/ure adju/m5t & light arrangem5t4 ,f9ally we _h record$ = po/]ity _m photographs ( ! only woman 9 ! _w :o is kn[n to h liv$ )\t food or dr9k = ov] fifty ye>s4 7,!rese ,neumann1 ( c\rse1 has fa/$ s9ce #aibc47 ,mo/ mo!rly 0 ,giri ,bala's expression z %e /ood be=e u1 completely cov]$ 9 ! loose-fl[+ clo?1 no?+ ( h] body visible b h] face ) its d[nca/ eyes1 h] h&s1 & h] t9y feet4 ,a face ( r>e peace & innoc5t poise-a wide1 *ildlike1 quiv]+ lip1 a fem99e nose1 n>r[1 sp>kl+ eyes1 & a wi/ful smile40 ,mr4 ,wright's impression ( ,giri ,bala 0 %>$ by myself2 spirituality enfold$ h] l h] g5tly %9+ veil4 ,%e ,,pronam$ be=e me 9 ! cu/om>y ge/ure ( greet+ f a h\sehold] to a monk4 ,h] simple *>m & quiet smile gave u a welcome beyond t ( honey$ oratory2 =gott5 0 our difficult1 du/y trip4 ,! little sa9t seat$ h]self cross-legg$ on ! v]&ah4 ,?\gh be>+ ! sc>s ( age1 %e 0 n emaciat$2 h] olive-color$ sk9 _h rema9$ cle> & heal?y 9 tone4 8,"m10 ,i said 9 ,b5gali1 8= ov] tw5ty-five ye>s ,i h ?\ght eag]ly ( ?is v pilgrimage6 ,i he>d ab\t y\r sacr$ life f ,/hiti ,lal ,nundy ,babu40 ,%e nodd$ 9 ackn[l$gm5t4 8,yes1 my good neighbor 9 ,nawabganj40 8,dur+ ^? ye>s ,i h cross$ ! oceans1 b ,i nev] =got my e>ly plan to som$ay see y4 ,! sublime drama t y are "h play+ s inconspicu\sly %\ld be blazon$ be=e a _w t has long =gott5 ! inn] food div9e40 ,! sa9t lift$ h] eyes = a m9ute1 smil+ ) s]5e int]e/4 8,baba 7honor$ fa!r7 kn[s be/10 %e answ]$ meekly4 ,i 0 happy t %e _h tak5 no (f5se2 "o nev] kn[s h[ great yogis or yog9is w react to ! ?\ght ( publicity4 ,!y %un x1 z a rule1 wi%+ to pursue 9 sil5ce ! pr(\nd s\l rese>*4 ,an inn] sanction comes to !m :5 ! prop] "t arrives to display _! lives op5ly = ! b5efit ( seek+ m9ds4 8,"m10 ,i w5t on1 8please =give me1 !n1 = burd5+ y ) _m que/ions4 ,k9dly answ] only ^? t please y2 ,i %all und]/& y\r sil5ce1 also40 ,%e spread h] h&s 9 a graci\s ge/ure4 8,i am glad to reply1 ins(> z an insignificant p]son l myself c give satisfactory answ]s40 8,oh1 no1 n insignificant60 ,i prote/$ s9c]ely4 8,y are a great s\l40 8,i am ! humble s]vant ( all40 ,%e add$ qua9tly1 8,i love to cook & fe$ p40 ,a /range pa/ime1 ,i ?\ght1 = a non-eat+ sa9t6 8,tell me1 ,"m1 f y\r own lips-d y live )\t food80 8,t is true40 ,%e 0 sil5t = a few mom5ts2 h] next rem>k %[$ t %e _h be5 /ruggl+ ) m5tal ari?metic4 8,f ! age ( twelve ye>s f\r mon?s d[n to my pres5t age ( sixty-eight--a p]iod ( ov] fifty-six ye>s--,i h n eat5 food or tak5 liquids40 8,are y nev] tempt$ to eat80 8,if ,i felt a crav+ = food1 ,i w\ld h to eat40 ,simply yet regally %e /at$ ?is axiomatic tru?1 "o kn[n too well by a _w revolv+ ar\nd ?ree meals a day6 8,b y d eat some?+60 ,my tone held a note ( remon/rance4 8,( c\rse60 ,%e smil$ 9 swift und]/&+4 8,y\r n\ri%m5t d]ives f ! f9] en]gies ( ! air & sunlight1 ,,fn#df-g & f ! cosmic p[] :i* re*>ges y\r body ?r\gh ! m$ulla oblongata40 8,baba kn[s40 ,aga9 %e acquiesc$1 h] mann] soo?+ & unemphatic4 8,"m1 please tell me ab\t y\r e>ly life4 ,x holds a deep int]e/ = all ( ,india1 & ev5 = our bro!rs & si/]s beyond ! seas40 ,giri ,bala put aside h] habitual res]ve1 relax+ into a conv]sational mood4 8,s be x40 ,h] voice 0 l[ & firm4 8,i 0 born 9 ^! =e/ regions4 ,my *ildhood 0 unrem>kable save t ,i 0 possess$ by an insatiable appetite4 ,i _h be5 betro!d 9 e>ly ye>s4 8#8,*ild1' my "m (t5 w>n$ me1 #8try to control y\r gre$4 ,:5 ! "t comes = y to live among /rang]s 9 y\r husb&'s family1 :at w !y ?9k ( y if y\r days are sp5t 9 no?+ b eat+8' 8,! calamity %e _h =ese5 came to pass4 ,i 0 only twelve :5 ,i jo9$ my husb&'s p 9 ,nawabganj4 ,my "m-9-law %am$ me morn+1 noon1 & night ab\t my glutton\s habits4 ,h] scold+s 7 a bless+ 9 disguise1 h[ev]2 !y r\s$ my dormant spiritual t5d5cies4 ,"o morn+ h] ridicule 0 m]ciless4 8#8,i %all soon prove to y1' ,i said1 /ung to ! quick1 #8t ,i %all nev] t\* food aga9 z long z ,i live4' 8,my "m-9-law laugh$ 9 d]ision4 #8,s6' %e said1 #8h[ c y live )\t eat+1 :5 y _c live )\t ov]eat+8' 8,?is rem>k 0 unansw]able6 ,yet an iron resolution scaffold$ my _s4 ,9 a seclud$ spot ,i s\ght my ,heav5ly ,fa!r4 8#8,"l1' ,i pray$ incessantly1 #8please s5d me a guru1 "o :o c tea* me to live by ,?y light & n by food4' 8,a div9e ec/asy fell ov] me4 ,l$ by a beatific spell1 ,i set out = ! ,nawabganj ,,ghat on ! ,ganges4 ,on ! way ,i enc\nt]$ ! prie/ ( my husb&'s family4 8#8,v5]able sir1' ,i said tru/+ly1 #8k9dly tell me h[ to live )\t eat+4' 8,he />$ at me )\t reply4 ,f9ally he spoke 9 a consol+ mann]4 #8,*ild1' he said1 #8come to ! temple ?is ev5+2 ,i w conduct a special ,,v$ic c]emony = y4' 8,?is vague answ] 0 n ! "o ,i 0 seek+2 ,i cont9u$ t[>d ! ,,ghat4 ,! morn+ sun pi]c$ ! wat]s2 ,i purifi$ myself 9 ! ,ganges1 z ?\gh = a sacr$ initiation4 ,z ,i left ! riv] bank1 my wet clo? ar\nd me1 9 ! broad gl>e ( day my ma/] mat]ializ$ himself be=e me6 8#8,de> little "o1' he said 9 a voice ( lov+ compassion1 #8,i am ! guru s5t "h by ,god to fulfill y\r urg5t pray]4 ,he 0 deeply t\*$ by its v unusual nature6 ,f today y %all live by ! a/ral light1 y\r bodily atoms f$ f ! inf9ite curr5t4'0 ,giri ,bala fell into sil5ce4 ,i took ,mr4 ,wright's p5cil & pad & translat$ into ,engli% a few items = 8 in=mation4 ,! sa9t resum$ ! tale1 h] g5tle voice b>ely audible4 8,! ,,ghat 0 des]t$1 b my guru ca/ r\nd u an aura ( gu>d+ light1 t no /ray ba!rs lat] di/urb u4 ,he initiat$ me into a ,,kria te*nique :i* frees ! body f dep5d5ce on ! gross food ( mortals4 ,! te*nique includes ! use ( a c]ta9 ,,mantra ,,fn#df-h & a brea?+ ex]cise m difficult ?an ! av]age p]son c\ld p]=m4 ,no m$ic9e or magic is involv$2 no?+ beyond ! ,,kria40 ,9 ! mann] ( ! ,am]ican newspap] report]1 :o _h unkn[+ly taught me 8 proc$ure1 ,i que/ion$ ,giri ,bala on _m matt]s :i* ,i ?\ght w\ld be ( int]e/ to ! _w4 ,%e gave me1 bit by bit1 ! foll[+ in=mation3 8,i h nev] _h any *ildr52 _m ye>s ago ,i became a wid[4 ,i sleep v little1 z sleep & wak+ are ! same to me4 ,i m$itate at night1 att5d+ to my dome/ic duties 9 ! daytime4 ,i slightly feel ! *ange 9 climate f season to season4 ,i h nev] be5 sick or exp]i5c$ any disease4 ,i feel only slight pa9 :5 accid5tally injur$4 ,i h no bodily excretions4 ,i c control my he>t & brea?+4 ,i (t5 see my guru z well z o!r great s\ls1 9 vision40 8,"m10 ,i ask$1 8:y don't y tea* o!rs ! me?od ( liv+ )\t food80 ,my ambiti\s hopes = ! _w's />v+ millions 7 nipp$ 9 ! bud4 8,no40 ,%e %ook h] head4 8,i 0 /rictly comm&$ by my guru n to divulge ! secret4 ,x is n 8 wi% to tamp] ) ,god's drama ( creation4 ,! f>m]s w\ld n ?ank me if ,i taught _m p to live )\t eat+6 ,! lusci\s fruits w\ld lie uselessly on ! gr\nd4 ,x appe>s t mis]y1 />vation1 & disease are :ips ( our k>ma :i* ultimately drive u to seek ! true mean+ ( life40 8,"m10 ,i said sl[ly1 8:at is ! use ( y\r hav+ be5 s+l$ out to live )\t eat+80 8,to prove t man is ,_s40 ,h] face lit ) wisdom4 8,to demon/rate t by div9e advancem5t he c gradually le>n to live by ! ,et]nal ,light & n by food40 ,! sa9t sank into a deep m$itative /ate4 ,h] gaze 0 direct$ inw>d2 ! g5tle dep?s ( h] eyes became expressionless4 ,%e gave a c]ta9 sigh1 ! prelude to ! ec/atic brea?less trance4 ,= a "t %e _h fl$ to ! que/ionless realm1 ! heav5 ( inn] joy4 ,! tropical d>kness _h fall54 ,! light ( a small k]os5e lamp flick]$ fitfully ov] ! faces ( a score ( villag]s squatt+ sil5tly 9 ! %ad[s4 ,! d>t+ gl[worms & di/ant oil lant]ns ( ! huts wove bright e]ie patt]ns into ! velvet night4 ,x 0 ! pa9ful h\r ( p>t+2 a sl[1 t$i\s j\rney lay be=e our little p>ty4 8,giri ,bala10 ,i said z ! sa9t op5$ h] eyes1 8please give me a keepsake-a /rip ( "o ( y\r ,,s>is40 ,%e soon return$ ) a piece ( ,b5>es silk1 ext5d+ x 9 h] h& z %e sudd5ly pro/rat$ h]self on ! gr\nd4 8,"m10 ,i said rev]5tly1 8r let me t\* y\r own bless$ feet60 ,,fn#df-a ,9 nor!rn ,b5gal4 ,,fn#df-b ,h4 ,h4 ,sir ,bijay ,*& ,mahtab1 n[ dead4 ,8 family d\btless possesses "s record ( ! ,mah>aja's ?ree inve/igations ( ,giri ,bala4 ,,fn#df-c ,woman yogi4 ,,fn#df-d 8,remov] ( ,ob/acles10 ! god ( good =tune4 ,,fn#df-e ,sri ,yuktesw> us$ to say3 8,! ,"l has giv5 u ! fruits ( ! good e>?4 ,we l to see our food1 to smell x1 to ta/e x--! ,h9du likes also to t\* x60 ,"o does n m9d ,,he>+ x1 ei!r1 if no "o else is pres5t at ! meal6 ,,fn#df-f ,mr4 ,wright also took mov+ pictures ( ,sri ,yuktesw> dur+ 8 la/ ,w9t] ,sol/ice ,fe/ival 9 ,s]ampore4 ,,fn#df-g 8,:at we eat is radiation2 our food is s mu* quanta ( en]gy10 ,dr4 ,george ,w4 ,crile ( ,clevel& told a ga!r+ ( m$ical m5 on ,may #ag1 #aicc 9 ,memphis4 8,?is all-important radiation1 :i* releases electrical curr5ts = ! body's electrical circuit1 ! n]v\s sy/em1 is giv5 to food by ! sun's rays4 ,atoms1 ,dr4 ,crile says1 are sol> sy/ems4 ,atoms are ! vehicles t are fill$ ) sol> radiance z s _m coil$ spr+s4 ,^! c\ntless atomfuls ( en]gy are tak5 9 z food4 ,once 9 ! human body1 ^! t5se vehicles1 ! atoms1 are dis*>g$ 9 ! body's protoplasm1 ! radiance furni%+ new *emical en]gy1 new electrical curr5ts4 #8,y\r body is made up ( su* atoms1' ,dr4 ,crile said4 #8,!y are y\r muscles1 bra9s1 & s5sory organs1 su* z ! eyes & e>s4'0 ,som$ay sci5ti/s w discov] h[ man c live directly on sol> en]gy4 8,*lorophyll is ! only sub/ance kn[n 9 nature t someh[ possesses ! p[] to act z a #8sunlight trap1'0 ,william ,l4 ,laur5ce writes 9 ! ,,new ,,york ,,times4 8,x #8cat*es' ! en]gy ( sunlight & /ores x 9 ! plant4 ,)\t ?is no life c\ld exi/4 ,we obta9 ! en]gy we ne$ = liv+ f ! sol> en]gy /or$ 9 ! plant-food we eat or 9 ! fle% ( ! animals t eat ! plants4 ,! en]gy we obta9 f coal or oil is sol> en]gy trapp$ by ! *lorophyll 9 plant life millions ( ye>s ago4 ,we live by ! sun ?r\gh ! ag5cy ( *lorophyll40 ,,fn#df-h ,pot5t vibratory *ant4 ,! lit]al translation ( ,sanskrit ,,mantra is 8in/rum5t ( ?\ght10 signify+ ! ideal1 inaudible s\nds :i* repres5t "o aspect ( creation2 :5 vocaliz$ z syllables1 a ,,mantra con/itutes a univ]sal t]m9ology4 ,! inf9ite p[]s ( s\nd d]ive f ,,aum1 ! 8,^w0 or creative hum ( ! ,cosmic ,motor4 ,,*apt]3 #dg ,i ,,return ,,to ,,! ,,we/ 8,i h giv5 _m yoga lessons 9 ,india & ,am]ica2 b ,i mu/ confess t1 z a ,h9du1 ,i am unusually happy to be conduct+ a class = ,engli% /ud5ts40 ,my ,london class memb]s laugh$ appreciatively2 no political turmoils ev] di/urb$ our yoga peace4 ,india 0 n[ a hall[$ memory4 ,x is ,septemb]1 #aicf2 ,i am 9 ,engl& to fulfill a promise1 giv5 sixte5 mon?s e>li]1 to lecture aga9 9 ,london4 ,engl&1 too1 is receptive to ! timeless yoga message4 ,report]s & newsreel cam]am5 sw>m$ ov] my qu>t]s at ,grosv5or ,h\se4 ,! ,briti% ,national ,c\ncil ( ! ,_w ,fell[%ip ( ,fai?s organiz$ a meet+ on ,septemb] #bi? at ,:itefield's ,congregational ,*ur* :]e ,i address$ ! audi5ce on ! weighty subject ( 8,h[ ,fai? 9 ,fell[%ip may ,save ,civilization40 ,! eight o'clock lectures at ,caxton ,hall attract$ su* cr[ds t on two nights ! ov]fl[ wait$ 9 ,w9dsor ,h\se auditorium = my second talk at n9e-?irty4 ,yoga classes dur+ ! foll[+ weeks grew s l>ge t ,mr4 ,wright 0 oblig$ to arrange a transf] to ano!r hall4 ,! ,engli% t5acity has admirable expression 9 a spiritual relation%ip4 ,! ,london yoga /ud5ts loyally organiz$ !mselves1 aft] my dep>ture1 into a ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip c5t]1 hold+ _! m$itation meet+s weekly ?r\gh\t ! bitt] w> ye>s4 ,un=gettable weeks 9 ,engl&2 days ( sight-see+ 9 ,london1 !n ov] ! beautiful c\ntryside4 ,mr4 ,wright & ,i summon$ ! tru/y ,=d to visit ! bir?places & tombs ( ! great poets & h]oes ( ,briti% hi/ory4 ,our little p>ty sail$ f ,s\?ampton = ,am]ica 9 late ,octob] on ! ,,brem54 ,! maje/ic ,/atue ( ,lib]ty 9 ,new ,york h>bor br\ght a joy\s emotional gulp n only to ! ?roats ( ,miss ,blet* & ,mr4 ,wright1 b to my own4 ,! ,=d1 a bit batt]$ f /ruggles ) anci5t soils1 0 /ill puissant2 x n[ took 9 its /ride ! transcont95tal trip to ,cali=nia4 ,9 late #aicf1 lo6 ,m\nt ,wa%+ton4 ,! ye>-end holidays are celebrat$ annually at ! ,los ,angeles c5t] ) an eight-h\r gr\p m$itation on ,decemb] #bd? 7,spiritual ,*ri/mas71 foll[$ ! next day by a banquet 7,social ,*ri/mas74 ,! fe/ivities ?is ye> 7 augm5t$ by ! pres5ce ( de> fri5ds & /ud5ts f di/ant cities :o _h arriv$ to welcome home ! ?ree _w travel]s4 ,! ,*ri/mas ,day fea/ includ$ delicacies br\ght fifte5 ?\s& miles = ?is glad occasion3 ,,guc*i mu%rooms f ,ka%mir1 cann$ ,,rasagulla & mango pulp1 ,,pap> biscuits1 & an oil ( ! ,indian ,,keora fl[] :i* flavor$ our ice cream4 ,! ev5+ f\nd u gr\p$ ar\nd a huge sp>kl+ ,*ri/mas tree1 ! ne>-by fireplace crackl+ ) logs ( aromatic cypress4 ,gift-"t6 ,pres5ts f ! e>?'s f> corn]s-,pale/9e1 ,egypt1 ,india1 ,engl&1 ,france1 ,italy4 ,h[ labori\sly _h ,mr4 ,wright c\nt$ ! trunks at ea* =eign junction1 t no pilf]+ h& receive ! treasures int5d$ = lov$ ones 9 ,am]ica6 ,plaques ( ! sacr$ olive tree f ! ,holy ,l&1 delicate laces & embroid]ies f ,belgium & ,holl&1 ,p]sian c>pets1 f9ely wov5 ,ka%miri %awls1 ev]la/+ly fragrant s&alwood trays f ,mysore1 ,%iva 8bull's eye0 /ones f ,c5tral ,prov9ces1 old ,indian co9s ( dyna/ies long fl$1 bejewel$ vases & cups1 m9iatures1 tape/ries1 temple inc5se & p]fumes1 ,,swade%i cotton pr9ts1 lacqu] "w1 ,mysore ivory c>v+s1 ,p]sian slipp]s ) _! inquisitive long toe1 qua9t old illum9at$ manuscripts1 velvets1 brocades1 ,g&hi caps1 pott]ies1 tiles1 brasswork1 pray] rugs-booty ( ?ree cont95ts6 ,"o by "o ,i di/ribut$ ! gaily wrapp$ packages f ! imm5se pile "u ! tree4 8,si/] ,gyanamata60 ,i h&$ a long box to ! sa9tly ,am]ican lady ( sweet visage & deep realization :o1 dur+ my abs5ce1 _h be5 9 *>ge at ,mt4 ,wa%+ton4 ,f ! pap] tissues %e lift$ a ,,s>i ( gold5 ,b5>es silk4 8,?ank y1 sir2 x br+s ! pageant ( ,india be=e my eyes40 8,mr4 ,dick9son60 ,! next p>cel conta9$ a gift :i* ,i _h b\ght 9 a ,calcutta baza>4 8,mr4 ,dick9son w l ?is10 ,i _h ?\ght at ! "t4 ,a de>ly belov$ disciple1 ,mr4 ,dick9son _h be5 pres5t at e ,*ri/mas fe/ivity s9ce ! #aibe f\nd+ ( ,mt4 ,wa%+ton4 ,at ?is elev5? annual celebration1 he 0 /&+ be=e me1 unty+ ! ribbons ( 8 squ>e little package4 8,! silv] cup60 ,/ruggl+ ) emotion1 he />$ at ! pres5t1 a tall dr9k+ cup4 ,he seat$ himself "s di/ance away1 app>5tly 9 a daze4 ,i smil$ at him affectionately be=e resum+ my role z ,santa ,claus4 ,! ejaculatory ev5+ clos$ ) a pray] to ! ,giv] ( all gifts2 !n a gr\p s++ ( ,*ri/mas c>ols4 ,mr4 ,dick9son & ,i 7 *att+ toge!r sometime lat]4 8,sir10 he said1 8please let me ?ank y n[ = ! silv] cup4 ,i c\ld n f9d any words on ,*ri/mas night40 8,i br\ght ! gift especially = y40 8,= =ty-?ree ye>s ,i h be5 wait+ = t silv] cup6 ,x is a long /ory1 "o ,i h kept hidd5 )9 me40 ,mr4 ,dick9son look$ at me %yly4 8,! beg9n+ 0 dramatic3 ,i 0 dr[n+4 ,my old] bro!r _h playfully pu%$ me into a fifte5-foot pool 9 a small t[n 9 ,nebraska4 ,i 0 only five ye>s old !n4 ,z ,i 0 ab\t to s9k = ! second "t "u ! wat]1 a dazzl+ multicolor$ light appe>$1 fill+ all space4 ,9 ! mid/ 0 ! figure ( a man ) tranquil eyes & a reassur+ smile4 ,my body 0 s9k+ = ! ?ird "t :5 "o ( my bro!r's companions b5t a tall sl5d] will[ tree 9 su* a l[ dip t ,i c\ld grasp x ) my desp]ate f+]s4 ,! boys lift$ me to ! bank & successfully gave me fir/-aid treatm5t4 8,twelve ye>s lat]1 a y\? ( sev5te51 ,i visit$ ,*icago ) my "m4 ,x 0 #ahic2 ! great ,_w ,p>liam5t ( ,religions 0 9 session4 ,"m & ,i 7 walk+ d[n a ma9 /reet1 :5 aga9 ,i saw ! mighty fla% ( light4 ,a few paces away1 /roll+ leisurely along1 0 ! same man ,i _h se5 ye>s be=e 9 vision4 ,he approa*$ a l>ge auditorium & vani%$ )9 ! door4 8#8,"m1' ,i cri$1 #8t 0 ! man :o appe>$ at ! "t ,i 0 dr[n+6' 8,%e & ,i ha/5$ into ! build+2 ! man 0 seat$ on a lecture plat=m4 ,we soon le>n$ t he 0 ,swami ,vivekan&a ( ,india4 ,,fn#dg-a ,aft] he _h giv5 a s\l-/irr+ talk1 ,i w5t =w>d to meet him4 ,he smil$ on me graci\sly1 z ?\gh we 7 old fri5ds4 ,i 0 s "y t ,i did n "k h[ to give expression to my feel+s1 b 9 my he>t ,i 0 hop+ t he w\ld (f] to be my tea*]4 ,he read my ?\ght4 8#8,no1 my son1 ,i am n y\r guru4' ,vivekan&a gaz$ ) 8 beautiful1 pi]c+ eyes deep into my own4 #8,y\r tea*] w come lat]4 ,he w give y a silv] cup4' ,aft] a little pause1 he add$1 smil+1 #8,he w p\r out to y m bless+s ?an y are n[ able to hold4' 8,i left ,*icago 9 a few days10 ,mr4 ,dick9son w5t on1 8& nev] saw ! great ,vivekan&a aga94 ,b e ^w he _h utt]$ 0 indelibly writt5 on my inmo/ consci\sness4 ,ye>s pass$2 no tea*] appe>$4 ,"o night 9 #aibe ,i pray$ deeply t ! ,"l w\ld s5d me my guru4 ,a few h\rs lat]1 ,i 0 awak5$ f sleep by s(t /ra9s ( melody4 ,a b& ( cele/ial be+s1 c>ry+ flutes & o!r in/rum5ts1 came be=e my view4 ,aft] fill+ ! air ) glori\s music1 ! angels sl[ly vani%$4 8,! next ev5+ ,i att5d$1 = ! fir/ "t1 "o ( y\r lectures "h 9 ,los ,angeles1 & knew !n t my pray] _h be5 grant$40 ,we smil$ at ea* o!r 9 sil5ce4 8,= elev5 ye>s n[ ,i h be5 y\r ,,kriya ,,yoga disciple10 ,mr4 ,dick9son cont9u$4 8,sometimes ,i wond]$ ab\t ! silv] cup2 ,i _h almo/ p]suad$ myself t ,vivekan&a's words 7 only metaphorical4 ,b on ,*ri/mas night1 z y h&$ me ! squ>e box by ! tree1 ,i saw1 = ! ?ird "t 9 my life1 ! same dazzl+ fla% ( light4 ,9 ano!r m9ute ,i 0 gaz+ on my guru's gift :i* ,vivekan&a _h =ese5 = me =ty-?ree ye>s e>li]-a silv] cup60 ,illu/ration3 ,mr4 ,e4 ,e4 ,dick9son ( ,los ,angeles2 he s\ght a silv] cup--see dick9son4jpg ,,fn#dg-a ,! *ief disciple ( ! ,*ri/like ma/] ,sri ,ramakri%na4 ,,*apt]3 #dh ,,at ,,enc9itas ,,9 ,,cali=nia 8,a surprise1 sir6 ,dur+ y\r abs5ce abroad we h _h ?is ,enc9itas h]mitage built2 x is a #8welcome-home' gift60 ,si/] ,gyanamata smil+ly l$ me ?r\gh a gate & up a tree-%ad$ walk4 ,i saw a build+ jutt+ out l a great :ite ocean l9] t[>d ! blue br9e4 ,fir/ spee*lessly1 !n ) 8,oh's60 & 8,ah's601 f9ally ) man's insuffici5t vocabul>y ( joy & gratitude1 ,i exam9$ ! a%ram-sixte5 unusually l>ge rooms1 ea* "o *>m+ly appo9t$4 ,illu/ration3 ,enc9itas1 ,cali=nia1 ov]look+ ! ,pacific4 ,ma9 build+ & "p ( ! gr\nds ( ! ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip--see enc9itas4jpg ,! /ately c5tral hall1 ) imm5se ceil+-high w9d[s1 looks out on a unit$ alt> ( grass1 ocean1 sky-a symphony 9 em]ald1 opal1 sapphire4 ,a mantle ov] ! hall's huge fireplace holds ! fram$ lik5ess ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya1 smil+ 8 bless+ ov] ?is f> ,pacific heav54 ,directly bel[ ! hall1 built into ! v bluff1 two solit>y m$itation caves confront ! inf9ities ( sky & sea4 ,v]&ahs1 sun-ba?+ nooks1 acres ( or*>d1 a eucalypti grove1 flag/one pa?s lead+ ?r\gh roses & lilies to quiet arbors1 a long flight ( /airs end+ on an isolat$ bea* & ! va/ wat]s6 ,0 dream ev] m concrete8 8,may ! good & h]oic & b\ntiful s\ls ( ! sa9ts come "h10 reads 8,a ,pray] = a ,dwell+10 f ! ,,z5d-,,ave/a1 fa/5$ on "o ( ! h]mitage doors1 8& may !y g h& 9 h& ) u1 giv+ ! heal+ virtues ( _! bless$ gifts z widespread z ! e>?1 z f>-flung z ! riv]s1 z high-rea*+ z ! sun1 = ! fur!rance ( bett] m51 = ! increase ( abundance & glory4 8,may ob$i5ce conqu] disob$i5ce )9 ?is h\se2 may peace triumph "h ov] discord2 free-he>t$ giv+ ov] av>ice1 tru?ful spee* ov] deceit1 rev]5ce ov] contempt4 ,t our m9ds be delight$1 & our s\ls uplift$1 let our bodies be glorifi$ z well2 & ,o ,light ,div9e1 may we see ,!e1 & may we1 approa*+1 come r\nd ab\t ,!e1 & atta9 unto ,?9e entire companion%ip60 ,?is ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip a%ram _h be5 made possible ?r\gh ! g5]osity ( a few ,am]ican disciples1 ,am]ican bus9essm5 ( endless responsibilities :o yet f9d "t daily = _! ,,kriya ,,yoga4 ,n a ^w ( ! h]mitage con/ruction _h be5 all[$ to rea* me dur+ my /ay 9 ,india & ,europe4 ,a/oni%m5t1 delight6 ,dur+ my e>li] ye>s 9 ,am]ica ,i _h comb$ ! coa/ ( ,cali=nia 9 que/ ( a small site = a seaside a%ram2 :5ev] ,i _h f\nd a suitable location1 "s ob/acle _h inv>iably aris5 to ?w>t me4 ,gaz+ n[ ov] ! broad acres ( ,enc9itas1 ,,fn#dh-a humbly ,i saw ! ef=tless fulfillm5t ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s long-ago prophecy3 8a h]mitage by ! ocean40 ,a few mon?s lat]1 ,ea/] ( #aicg1 ,i conduct$ on ! smoo? lawns at ,enc9itas ! fir/ ( _m ,sunrise ,s]vices4 ,l ! magi ( old1 sev]al hundr$ /ud5ts gaz$ 9 devotional awe at ! daily miracle1 ! e>ly sol> fire rite 9 ! ea/]n sky4 ,to ! we/ lay ! inexhau/ible ,pacific1 boom+ its solemn praise2 9 ! di/ance1 a t9y :ite sail+ boat1 & ! lonely flight ( a seagull4 8,*ri/1 ?\ art ris560 ,n alone ) ! v]nal sun1 b 9 ! et]nal dawn ( ,_s6 ,_m happy mon?s sp$ by2 9 ! peace ( p]fect beauty ,i 0 able to complete at ! h]mitage a long-project$ "w1 ,,cosmic ,,*ants4 ,i set to ,engli% words & ,we/]n musical notation ab\t =ty songs1 "s orig9al1 o!rs my adaptations ( anci5t melodies4 ,includ$ 7 ! ,%ank>a *ant1 8,no ,bir?1 ,no ,dea?02 two favorites ( ,sri ,yuktesw>'s3 8,wake1 ,yet ,wake1 ,o my ,sa9t60 & 8,desire1 my ,great ,enemy02 ! ho>y ,sanskrit 8,hymn to ,brahma02 old ,b5gali songs1 8,:at ,lightn+ ,fla%60 & 8,!y ,h ,he>d ,?y ,"n02 ,tagore's 8,:o is 9 my ,temple802 & a numb] ( my compositions3 8,i ,w be ,?9e ,always10 8,9 ! ,l& ,beyond my ,dreams10 8,come ,out ( ! ,sil5t ,sky10 8,li/5 to my ,s\l ,call10 8,9 ! ,temple ( ,sil5ce10 & 8,?\ ,art my ,life40 ,= a preface to ! songbook ,i rec\nt$ my fir/ out/&+ exp]i5ce ) ! receptivity ( ,we/]n]s to ! qua9tly devotional airs ( ! ,ea/4 ,! occasion _h be5 a public lecture2 ! "t1 ,april #ah1 #aibf2 ! place1 ,c>negie ,hall 9 ,new ,york4 8,mr4 ,hunsick]10 ,i _h confid$ to an ,am]ican /ud5t1 8,i am plann+ to ask ! audi5ce to s+ an anci5t ,h9du *ant1 #8,o ,god ,beautiful6'0 8,sir10 ,mr4 ,hunsick] _h prote/$1 8^! ,ori5tal songs are ali5 to ,am]ican und]/&+4 ,:at a %ame if ! lecture 7 to be m>r$ by a comm5t>y ( ov]ripe tomatoes60 ,i _h laugh+ly disagre$4 8,music is a univ]sal language4 ,am]icans w n fail to feel ! s\l-aspiration 9 ?is l(ty *ant40 ,,fn#dh-b ,dur+ ! lecture ,mr4 ,hunsick] _h sat beh9d me on ! plat=m1 probably fe>+ = my safety4 ,8 d\bts 7 gr\ndless2 n only _h !re be5 an abs5ce ( unwelcome vegetables1 b = "o h\r & tw5ty-five m9utes ! /ra9s ( 8,o ,god ,beautiful60 _h s\nd$ un9t]rupt$ly f ?ree ?\s& ?roats4 ,blase' no long]1 de> ,new ,york]s2 y\r he>ts _h so>$ out 9 a simple paean ( rejoic+6 ,div9e heal+s _h tak5 place t ev5+ among ! devotees *ant+ ) love ! ,"l's bless$ "n4 ,! seclud$ life ( a lit]>y m9/rel 0 n my role = long4 ,soon ,i 0 divid+ e =tnight betwe5 ,los ,angeles & ,enc9itas4 ,sunday s]vices1 classes1 lectures be=e clubs & colleges1 int]views ) /ud5ts1 ceaseless /reams ( correspond5ce1 articles = ,,ea/-,,we/1 direction ( activities 9 ,india & num]\s small c5t]s 9 ,am]ican cities4 ,mu* "t 0 giv51 also1 to ! arrangem5t ( ,,kriya & o!r ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip tea*+s into a s]ies ( /udies = ! di/ant yoga seek]s ^: zeal recogniz$ no limitation ( space4 ,joy\s d$ication ( a ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions took place 9 #aich at ,wa%+ton1 ,d4,c4 ,set amid/ l&scap$ gr\nds1 ! /ately *ur* /&s 9 a section ( ! city aptly call$ 8,fri5d%ip ,heights40 ,! ,wa%+ton lead] is ,swami ,preman&a1 educat$ at ! ,ran*i s*ool & ,calcutta ,univ]sity4 ,i _h summon$ him 9 #aibh to assume lead]%ip ( ! ,wa%+ton ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip c5t]4 8,preman&a10 ,i told him dur+ a visit to 8 new temple1 8?is ,ea/]n headqu>t]s is a memorial 9 /one to y\r tireless devotion4 ,"h 9 ! nation's capital y h held al(t ! light ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya's ideals40 ,preman&a accompani$ me f ,wa%+ton = a brief visit to ! ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip c5t] 9 ,bo/on4 ,:at joy to see aga9 ! ,,kriya ,,yoga b& :o _h rema9$ /eadfa/ s9ce #aibj6 ,! ,bo/on lead]1 ,dr4 ,m4 ,w4 ,lewis1 lodg$ my companion & myself 9 a mod]n1 arti/ically decorat$ suite4 8,sir10 ,dr4 ,lewis said to me1 smil+1 8dur+ y\r e>ly ye>s 9 ,am]ica y /ay$ 9 ?is city 9 a s+le room1 )\t ba?4 ,i want$ y to "k t ,bo/on possesses "s luxuri\s ap>tm5ts60 ,! %ad[s ( approa*+ c>nage 7 l5g!n+ ov] ! _w2 already ! acute e> might he> ! frightful drums ( w>4 ,dur+ int]views ) ?\s&s 9 ,cali=nia1 & ?r\gh a _w-wide correspond5ce1 ,i f\nd t m5 & wom5 7 deeply se>*+ _! he>ts2 ! tragic out] insecurity _h emphasiz$ ne$ = ! ,et]nal ,an*orage4 8,we h inde$ le>n$ ! value ( m$itation10 ! lead] ( ! ,london ,self-,realization ,fell[%ip c5t] wrote me 9 #aida1 8& "k t no?+ c di/urb our inn] peace4 ,9 ! la/ few weeks dur+ ! meet+s we h he>d air-raid w>n+s & li/5$ to ! explosion ( delay$-action bombs1 b our /ud5ts /ill ga!r & ?or\ghly enjoy our beautiful s]vice40 ,ano!r lett] rea*$ me f w>-torn ,engl& j be=e ,am]ica ent]$ ! conflict4 ,9 nobly pa!tic words1 ,dr4 ,l4 ,cranm] ,byng1 not$ editor ( ,,! ,,wisdom ,,( ,,! ,,ea/ ,,s]ies1 wrote3 8,:5 ,i read ,,ea/-,,we/ ,i realiz$ h[ f> ap>t we seem$ to be1 app>5tly liv+ 9 two diff]5t worlds4 ,beauty1 ord]1 calm1 & peace come to me f ,los ,angeles1 sail+ into port z a vessel lad5 ) ! bless+s & com=t ( ! ,holy ,grail to a beleagu]$ city4 8,i see z 9 a dream y\r palm tree grove1 & ! temple at ,enc9itas ) its ocean /ret*es & m\nta9 views1 & above all its fell[%ip ( spiritually m9d$ m5 & wom51 a community compreh5d$ 9 unity1 absorb$ 9 creative "w1 & repl5i%$ 9 contemplation4 ,x is ! _w ( my own vision1 9 ! mak+ ( :i* ,i hop$ to be> my little "p1 & n[ 4 4 4 8,p]haps 9 ! body ,i %all nev] rea* y\r gold5 %ores nor wor%ip 9 y\r temple4 ,b x is some?+ & m1 to h _h ! vision & "k t 9 ! mid/ ( w> !re is /ill a peace t abides 9 y\r h>bors & among y\r hills4 ,greet+s to all ! ,fell[%ip f a common soldi]1 writt5 on ! wat*t[] wait+ = ! dawn40 ,! w> ye>s br\ght a spiritual awak5+ among m5 ^: div]sions _h nev] be=e includ$ a /udy ( ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,"o sweet di/illm5t f ! bitt] h]bs ( w>6 ,to satisfy a gr[+ ne$1 an inspir+ little ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions 0 built & d$icat$ 9 #aidb at ,hollywood4 ,! site faces ,olive ,hill & ! di/ant ,los ,angeles ,planet>ium4 ,! *ur*1 f9i%$ 9 blue1 :ite1 & gold1 is reflect$ amid/ ! wat] hyac9?s 9 a l>ge pool4 ,! g>d5s are gay ) fl[]s1 a few />tl$ /one de]1 a /a9$-glass p]gola1 & a qua9t wi%+ well4 ,?r[n 9 ) ! p5nies & ! kaleidoscopic wi%es ( man has be5 _m a pure aspiration = ! sole treasure ( ,_s6 ,a univ]sal b5ignity fl[s f small ni*es ) /atues ( ,lahiri ,mahasaya & ,sri ,yuktesw>1 & ( ,kri%na1 ,buddha1 ,confucius1 ,/4 ,francis1 & a beautiful "m-(-pe>l reproduction ( ,*ri/ at ! ,la/ ,supp]4 ,illu/ration3 ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions1 ,hollywood1 ,cali=nia4--see hollywood4jpg ,ano!r ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions 0 f\nd$ 9 #aidc at ,san ,diego4 ,a quiet hilltop temple1 x /&s 9 a slop+ valley ( eucalypti1 ov]look+ sp>kl+ ,san ,diego ,bay4 ,illu/ration3 ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions1 ,san ,diego1 ,cali=nia--see s&iego4jpg ,sitt+ "o ev5+ 9 ?is tranquil hav51 ,i 0 p\r+ out my he>t 9 song4 ,"u my f+]s 0 ! sweet-ton$ organ ( ! *ur*1 on my lips ! ye>n+ pla9t ( an anci5t ,b5gali devotee :o _h se>*$ = et]nal solace3 ,9 ?is _w1 ,"m1 none c love me2 ,9 ?is _w !y d n "k love div9e4 ,:]e is !re pure lov+ love8 ,:]e is !re truly lov+ ,!e8 ,!re my he>t longs to be4 ,my companion 9 ! *apel1 ,dr4 ,lloyd ,k5nell1 ! ,san ,diego c5t] lead]1 0 smil+ a little at ! words ( ! song4 8,tell me truly1 ,p>amhansaji1 has x be5 wor? x80 ,he gaz$ at me ) an e>ne/ s9c]ity4 ,i und]/ood 8 laconic "q3 8,h y be5 happy 9 ,am]ica8 ,:at ab\t ! disillusionm5ts1 ! he>ta*es1 ! c5t] lead]s :o c\ld n lead1 ! /ud5ts :o c\ld n be taught80 8,bless$ is ! man :om ! ,"l do? te/1 ,doctor6 ,he has rememb]$ n[ & !n to put a burd5 on me60 ,i ?\ght1 !n1 ( all ! fai?ful ones1 ( ! love & devotion & und]/&+ t lay 9 ! he>t ( ,am]ica4 ,) sl[ emphasis ,i w5t on1 8,b my answ] is3 ,yes1 a ?\s& times yes6 ,x has be5 wor?-:ile2 x has be5 a con/ant inspiration1 m ?an ev] ,i dream$1 to see ,we/ & ,ea/ br\ght clos] 9 ! only la/+ bond1 ! spiritual60 ,sil5tly ,i add$ a pray]3 8,may ,babaji & ,sri ,yuktesw>ji feel t ,i h done my "p1 n disappo9t+ ! high hope 9 :i* !y s5t me =?40 ,i turn$ aga9 to ! organ2 ?is "t my song 0 t+$ ) a m>tial valor3 ,! gr9d+ :eel ( ,"t do? m> ,full _m a life ( moon & /> ,& _m a brightly smil+ morn-- ,b /ill my s\l is m>*+ on6 ,d>kness1 dea?1 & failures vi$2 ,to block my pa? !y fi]cely tri$2 ,my fight ) jeal\s ,nature's /rong-- ,b /ill my s\l is m>*+ on6 ,new ,ye>'s week ( #aide f\nd me at "w 9 my ,enc9itas /udy1 revis+ ! manuscript ( ?is book4 8,p>amhansaji1 please come outdoors40 ,dr4 ,lewis1 on a visit f ,bo/on1 smil$ at me plead+ly f outside my w9d[4 ,soon we 7 /roll+ 9 ! sun%9e4 ,my companion po9t$ to new t[]s 9 process ( con/ruction along ! edge ( ! ,fell[%ip prop]ty adjo9+ ! coa/ highway4 8,sir1 ,i see _m improvem5ts "h s9ce my la/ visit40 ,dr4 ,lewis comes twice annually f ,bo/on to ,enc9itas4 8,yes1 ,doctor1 a project ,i h long consid]$ is beg9n+ to take def9ite =m4 ,9 ^! beautiful surr\nd+s ,i h />t$ a m9iature _w colony4 ,bro!rhood is an ideal bett] und]/ood by example ?an precept6 ,a small h>moni\s gr\p "h may inspire o!r ideal communities ov] ! e>?40 ,illu/ration3 ,! ,self-,realization ,*ur* ( ,all ,religions 9 ,wa%+ton1 ,d4,c41 ^: lead]1 ,swami ,preman&a1 is "h pictur$ ) me--see preman&a4jpg 8,a spl5did idea1 sir6 ,! colony w surely be a success if ev]yone s9c]ely does 8 "p60 8#8,_w' is a l>ge t]m1 b man mu/ enl>ge 8 allegiance1 consid]+ himself 9 ! light ( a _w citiz510 ,i cont9u$4 8,a p]son :o truly feels3 #8,! _w is my homel&2 x is my ,am]ica1 my ,india1 my ,philipp9es1 my ,engl&1 my ,africa1' w nev] lack scope = a useful & happy life4 ,8 natural local pride w "k limitless expansion2 he w be 9 t\* ) creative univ]sal curr5ts40 ,dr4 ,lewis & ,i halt$ above ! lotus pool ne> ! h]mitage4 ,bel[ u lay ! illimitable ,pacific4 8,^! same wat]s break equally on ! coa/s ( ,we/ & ,ea/1 9 ,cali=nia & ,*9a40 ,my companion ?rew a little /one into ! fir/ ( ! oceanic sev5ty million squ>e miles4 8,enc9itas is a symbolic spot = a _w colony40 8,t is true1 ,doctor4 ,we %all arrange "h = _m conf]5ces & ,congresses ( ,religion1 invit+ delegates f all l&s4 ,flags ( ! nations w hang 9 our halls4 ,dim9utive temples w be built ov] ! gr\nds1 d$icat$ to ! _w's pr9cipal religions4 8,z soon z possible10 ,i w5t on1 8,i plan to op5 a ,yoga ,in/itute "h4 ,! bless$ role ( ,,kriya ,,yoga 9 ! ,we/ has h>dly m ?an j begun4 ,may all m5 come to "k t !re is a def9ite1 sci5tific te*nique ( self-realization = ! ov]com+ ( all human mis]y60 ,illu/ration3 ,speak]s at a #aide ,int]racial ,meet+ 9 ,san ,francisco dur+ ! conv5+ ( ! ,peace ,conf]5ce4 7,left to "r7 ,dr4 ,maneck ,ankles>ia1 ,john ,cohee1 myself1 ,hugh ,e4 ,mac,beth1 ,v9ce ,m4 ,t[ns5d1 ,jr41 ,ri*>d ,b4 ,moore--see sanfr4jpg ,f> into ! night my de> fri5d-! fir/ ,,kriya ,,yogi 9 ,am]ica--discuss$ ) me ! ne$ = _w colonies f\nd$ on a spiritual basis4 ,! ills attribut$ to an an?ropomorphic ab/raction call$ 8society0 may be laid m reali/ically at ! door ( ,ev]yman4 ,utopia mu/ spr+ 9 ! private bosom be=e x c fl[] 9 civic virtue4 ,man is a s\l1 n an in/itution2 8 inn] re=ms alone c l5d p]man5ce to out] ones4 ,by /ress on spiritual values1 self-realization1 a colony exemplify+ _w bro!rhood is emp[]$ to s5d inspir+ vibrations f> beyond its locale4 ,augu/ #ae1 #aide1 close ( ,global ,w> ,,ii6 ,end ( a _w2 dawn ( an enigmatic ,atomic ,age6 ,! h]mitage resid5ts ga!r$ 9 ! ma9 hall = a pray] ( ?anksgiv+4 8,heav5ly ,fa!r1 may nev] x be aga96 ,?y *ildr5 g h5ce=? z bro!rs60 ,gone 0 ! t5sion ( w> ye>s2 our spirits purr$ 9 ! sun ( peace4 ,i gaz$ happily at ea* ( my ,am]ican comrades4 8,"l10 ,i ?\ght gratefully1 8,?\ ha/ giv5 ?is monk a l>ge family60 ,,fn#dh-a ,a small t[n on ,coa/ ,highway #aja1 ,enc9itas is #ajj miles s\? ( ,los ,angeles1 & #be miles nor? ( ,san ,diego4 ,,fn#dh-b ,i translate "h ! words ( ,guru ,nanak's song3 ,o ,god beautiful6 ,o ,god beautiful6 ,9 ! =e/1 ,?\ art gre51 ,9 ! m\nta91 ,?\ art high1 ,9 ! riv]1 ,?\ art re/less1 ,9 ! ocean1 ,?\ art grave6 ,to ! s]viceful1 ,?\ art s]vice1 ,to ! lov]1 ,?\ art love1 ,to ! sorr[ful1 ,?\ art sympa?y1 ,to ! yogi1 ,?\ art bliss6 ,o ,god beautiful6 ,o ,god beautiful6 ,at ,?y feet1 ,o ,i d b[6