,! ,works ( ! ,rev4 ,john ,wesley1 ,m4,a4 ,transcrib]'s ,notes ,punctuation has be5 /&>diz$4 ,mo/ ( ! non-common abbreviations us$ to save space 9 pr9t+ h be5 exp&$ to ! non-abbreviat$ =m = easi] read+4 ,! au?or has us$ an a/]isk 7997 to indicate passages he consid]s mo/ wor?y ( att5tion4 ,! text is v inconsi/5t 9 its usage ( quotation m>ks4 ,! transcrib] has attempt$ to make _! use consi/5t ?r\gh\t ?is "w = improv$ readability4 ,*>act]s 9 small caps h be5 replac$ by all caps4 ,non-pr9table *>act]i/ics h be5 giv5 ! foll[+ ,italic text3 -- text ,?is book 0 writt5 9 a p]iod :5 _m words _h n become /&>diz$ 9 _! spell+4 ,words may h multiple spell+ v>iations or inconsi/5t hyph5ation 9 ! text4 ,^! h be5 left un*ang$ unless indicat$ ) a ,transcrib]'s ,note4 ,footnotes are id5tifi$ 9 ! text ) a sup]script numb] & are %[n imm$iately bel[ ! p>agraph 9 :i* !y appe>4 ,transcrib]'s ,notes are us$ :5 mak+ corrections to ! text or to provide additional in=mation = ! mod]n read]4 ,^! notes are id5tifi$ by symbols 9 ! text & are %[n imm$iately bel[ ! p>agraph 9 :i* !y appe>4 ,,! ,,works ,,( ,,! ,rev4 ,,john ,,wesley1 ,m4,a4 ,late ,fell[ ( ,l9coln-,college1 ,,ox=d4 ,,volume ,,xiii4 ,,bri/ol3 ,pr9t$ by ,,william ,,p9e1 9 ,w9e-,/reet4 ,,mdcclxxii4 ,,! ,,cont5ts ,( ! ,,?irte5? ,,volume4 ,lett]s writt5 by ,mr4 ,bra9]d ,an ,extract f ,miss ,m>y ,gilb]t's ,j\rnal ,an ,extract f ,elizabe? ,h>p]'s ,j\rnal ,a %ort ,acc\nt ( ,ann ,johnson ,a %ort ,acc\nt ( ,ann ,rog]s ,a %ort ,acc\nt ( ,m>y ,langson ,a %ort ,acc\nt ( ,hannah ,ri*>dson ,a ,lett] to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,john ,wesley1 by a ,g5tlewoman ,an ,extract ( ,mrs4 ,l99999999's ,lett]s ,,lett]s ,,writt5 ,,by ,mr4 ,,bra9]d4 ,to 8 bro!r ,john1 !n a /ud5t at ,yale-,college 9 ,new-,hav54 ,kaunaumeek1 ,april #cj1 #agdc4 ,de> ,bro!r1 99,i ,,%\ld tell y1 8,i long to see y10 b t my own exp]i5ce has taught me1 !re is no happ9ess to be enjoy$ 9 e>?ly fri5ds1 ?\gh ev] s ne> & de>1 or any o!r enjoym5t t is n ,god himself4 ,!re=e1 if ! ,god ( all grace w\ld be pleas$ graci\sly to af=d u ea* 8 pres5ce & grace1 t we may p]=m ! "w1 & endure ! trials he calls u to1 9 a tiresome wild]ness1 till we arrive at our j\rney's end2 ! di/ance at :i* we are held f ea* o!r at pres5t1 is a matt] ( no great mom5t4,b alas6 ! pres5ce ( ,god is :at ,i want4,i live 9 ! mo/ lonely melan*oly des]t1 ab\t eighte5 miles f ,albany4 ,i bo>d ) a poor ,scot*man3 8 wife c talk sc>ce a ^w ( ,engli%4 ,my diet consi/s mo/ly ( ha/y-pudd+1 boil$ corn1 & bread bak$ 9 ! a%es4 ,my lodg+ is a little /raw1 laid ^u "s bo>ds1 a little way f ! gr\nd2 = x is a log-room1 )\t any floor1 t ,i lodge 94 ,my "w is exce$+ h>d3 ,i travel on foot a mile & half1 ! wor/ ( way1 almo/ daily1 & back aga92 = ,i live s f> f my ,indians4,i h n se5 an ,engli% p]son ?is mon?4,^! & _m o!r circum/ances z uncom=table1 att5d me2 & my spiritual conflicts & di/resses s f> exce$ all ^! t ,i sc>ce ?9k ( !m4 ,! ,"l grant t ,i may be enabl$ 8to endure h>dness1 z a good soldi] ( ,jesus ,*ri/60 ,z to my success "h ,i _c say mu*3 ! ,indians seem g5]ally well dispos$ t[>ds me1 & are mo/ly v att5tive to my in/ructions3 two or ?ree are "u "s convictions2 b !re seems to be little ( ! special work+s ( ! div9e ,_s among !m yet2 :i* gives me _m a he>t-s9k+ h\r4 ,sometimes ,i hope ,god has abundant bless+s 9 /ore = !m & me2 b at o!r times ,i am s ov]:elm$ ) di/ress1 t ,i _c see h[ 8 deal+s ) me are consi/5t ) cov5ant love & fai?fulness1 & ,i say 8surely 8 t5d] m]cies are clean gone = ev]40 ,b h[ev]1 ,i see1 ,i ne$$ all ?is *a/isem5t already3 8x is good = me10 t ,i h endur$ ^! trials4 ,d n be disc\rag$ by my di/resses3 ,i 0 "u great di/ress1 at ,mr4 ,pomroys1 :5 ,i saw y la/2 b 8,god has be5 ) me ( a tru?10 s9ce t4 ,b let u always rememb]1 t we mu/ ?r\gh mu* tribulation ent] into ,god's et]nal k+dom4 ,! righte\s are sc>cely sav$3 x is an inf9ite wond]1 t we h hopes ( be+ sav$ at all4 ,= my "p1 ,i feel ! mo/ vile ( any creature liv+2 & ,i am sure1 !re is n su* ano!r exi/+ on ?is side hell4,n[ all y c d = me1 is1 to pray incessantly1 t ,god w\ld make me humble1 holy1 resign$1 & heav5ly m9d$1 by all my trials48,be /rong 9 ! ,"l1 & 9 ! p[] ( 8 might40 ,let u run1 wre/le1 & fight1 t we may obta9 ! prize1 & obta9 t compleat happ9ess1 to be 8holy1 z ,god is holy40 ,s wi%+ & pray+ t y may advance 9 le>n+ & grace1 & be fit = special s]vice = ,god1 ,i rema9 ,y\r affectionate ,bro!r1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 duplicate ^w 8&0 remov$ 99 99 99 99 99 ,to 8 ,bro!r ,john1 at ,yale-college 9 ,new-,hav54 ,kaunaumeek1 ,decemb] #bg1 #agdc4 ,de> ,bro!r1 ,i ,,long to see y1 & "k h[ y f>e 9 y\r j\rney ?r\gh ! _w ( sorr[1 :]e we are compass$ ab\t ) 8vanity1 confusion1 & vexation ( _s40 ,i am m we>y ( life ?an ev] ,i 04 ,! :ole _w appe>s to me l a va/ empty space1 :5ce no?+ desirable1 or at lea/ satisfactory1 c possibly be d]iv$1 & long daily to die m & m to x2 ev5 ?\gh ,i obta9 n t com=t f spiritual ?+s :i* ,i e>ne/ly desire4 ,worldly pleasures1 su* z fl[ f greatness1 ri*es1 hon\rs1 & s5sual gratifications1 are inf9itely worse ?an none4 ,may ! ,"l deliv] u m & m f ^! vanities6 ,i h sp5t mo/ ( ! fall & w9t] 9 a v weak /ate ( body2 & sometimes "u press+ inw>d trials1 b 8hav+ obta9$ help f ,god1 ,i cont9ue to ?is day20 & am n[ some?+ bett] 9 heal?4 ,i f9d no?+ m conducive to a life ( ,*ri/ianity1 ?an a dilig5t & fai?ful improvem5t ( preci\s "t4 ,let u !n fai?fully p]=m t bus9ess1 :i* is allot$ u by div9e ,provid5ce to ! utmo/ ( our bodily /r5g? & m5tal vig\r4 ,:y %\ld we s9k ) any p>ticul> trials1 we are call$ to enc\nt] 9 ! _w8 ,dea? & et]nity are j be=e u2 a few toss+ bill[s m w waft u to ! _w ( spirits1 & we hope 7?r\gh inf9ite grace7 into endless pleasures4 ,let u !n 8run ) pati5ce ! race t is set be=e u40 ,& ,oh t we c\ld dep5d m ^u ! liv+ ,god1 & less ^u our own wisdom & /r5g?6 ,de> bro!r1 may ! ,god ( all grace com=t y\r he>t1 & succe$ y\r /udies1 & make y an in/rum5t ( good to 8 p4 ,?is is ! in/ant pray] ( ,y\r affectionate ,bro!r1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 8:]e0 replac$ ) 8:5ce0 p] ,errata 99 99 99 99 99 ,to 8 ,bro!r ,israel1 at ,haddam4 ,kaunaumeek1 ,janu>y #ba1 #agdcd4 ,my de> ,bro!r1 ,,!re is b "o ?+1 t des]ves our highe/ c>e2 & t is1 t we may answ] ! great end1 = :i* we 7 made1 viz4 to glorify t ,god1 :o has giv5 u our be+s & all our com=ts1 & d all ! good we possibly c to our fell[-creatures3 & v]ily life is n wor? ! hav+1 if x be n employ$ = ?is noble end4 ,yet1 alas1 h[ little is ?is ?\ght (8 ,mo/ m5 love to live to !mselves1 )\t reg>d to ! glory ( ,god1 or ! good ( _! fell[ creatures3 !y e>ne/ly desire1 & eag]ly pursue ! ri*es1 hon\rs1 & pleasures ( life1 z if !y really suppos$ t weal?1 or greatness1 or m]rim5t1 c\ld make _! immortal s\ls happy4 ,b1 alas1 :at false & delusive dreams are ^!6 ,& h[ mis]able w ^? ere long be1 :o are n awak$ out ( !m1 to see1 t all _! happ9ess consi/s 9 liv+ to ,god1 & becom+ 8holy1 z he is holy60 ,oh1 may y nev] fall into ! temp]s & vanities1 ! s5suality & folly ( ! pres5t _w6 ,y are left1 z x 71 alone 9 a wide _w1 to act = y\rself2 be sure !n to rememb]1 x is a _w ( temptation4 ,y h no e>?ly p>5ts to =m y\r y\? to piety1 by _! examples & seasonable c\nsels2 let ?is excite y ) great f]v5cy to look up to ! ,fa!r ( m]cies = assi/ance aga9/ all ! vanities ( ! _w4 ,& if y w\ld glorify ,god1 & make y\r own s\l happy 9 ?is & ! com+ _w1 obs]ve ^! few directions2 ?\gh n f a fa!r1 yet f a bro!r :o is t\*$ ) a t5d] conc]n = y\r pres5t & future happ9ess4 ,&1 99,fir/1 ,resolve ^u1 & daily endeav\r to practise a life ( s]i\sness4 ,?9k ( ! life ( ,*ri/2 & :5 y c f9d t he 0 pleas$ ) je/+1 !n y may indulge x 9 y\rself4 ,aga91 ,be c>eful to make a good improvem5t ( preci\s "t4 ,:5 y cease f lab\r1 fill up y\r "t 9 read+1 m$itation1 & pray]3 & :ile y\r h&s are lab\r+1 let y\r he>t be employ$1 z mu* z possible 9 div9e ?\ghts4 ,fur!r1 ,take he$ t y fai?fully p]=m ! bus9ess y h to d 9 ! _w1 f a reg>d to ! comm& ( ,god4 ,we %\ld always look ^u ourselves z ,god's s]vants1 plac$ 9 ,god's _w to d 8 "w2 & accord+ly lab\r fai?fully = him2 n ) a design to gr[ ri* & great1 b to glorify ,god1 & d all ! good we possibly c4 99,aga91 ,nev] expect happ9ess f ! _w4 ,if y hope = happ9ess 9 ! _w1 hope = x f ,god1 & n f ! _w4 ,d n ?9k y %all be m happy1 if y live to su* or su* a /ate ( life1 if y live to be = y\rself1 to be settl$ 9 ! _w1 or if y %\ld ga9 an e/ate 9 x3 b look ^u x t y %all !n be happy1 :5 y c be con/antly employ$ = ,god1 & n = y\rself2 & desire to live 9 ?is _w1 only to d & suff] :at ,god allots to y4 ,:5 y c be ( ! _s & temp] ( angels1 :o are will+ to come d[n into ?is l[] _w1 to p]=m :at ,god comm&s !m1 ?\gh _! desires are heav5ly1 & n set on e>?ly ?+s1 !n y w be ( t temp] t y ought to h4 ,once m1 ,nev] ?9k t y c live to ,god by y\r own /r5g?2 b always look to1 & rely on him = assi/ance1 yea1 = all /r5g? & grace4 ,!re is no great] tru? ?an ?is1 t 8we c d no?+ ( ourselves20 yet no?+ b our own exp]i5ce c effectually tea* x to u4 ,inde$ we are a long "t 9 le>n+1 t all our /r5g? & salvation is 9 ,god4 ,?is is a life1 t no unconv]t$ man c live2 yet x is a life t e godly s\l is press+ aft]4 ,let x !n be y\r great conc]n to devote y\rself & y\r all to ,god4 ,i long to see y1 t ,i may say mu* m to y ?an ,i n[ c1 b ,i desire to commit y to ! ,fa!r ( m]cies1 & ,god ( all grace2 pray+ t y may be direct$ safely ?r\gh an evil _w1 to ,god's heav5ly k+dom4 ,i am y\r affectionate lov+ bro!r1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to a special ,fri5d4 ,! ,=ks ( ,delaw>e1 ,july #ca1 #agdd4 99,,c]ta9ly ! greate/1 ! noble/ pleasure ( intellig5t creatures mu/ result f _! acqua9tance ) ! bless$ ,god1 & ) _! own immortal s\ls4 ,& ,oh1 h[ div9ely sweet is x1 to look into our own s\ls1 :5 we c f9d all our passions unit$ & engag$ 9 pursuit ( ,god1 our :ole s\ls passionately brea?+ aft] a con=mity to him1 & ! full enjoym5t ( him6 ,v]ily !re are no h\rs pass away ) s mu* pleasure1 z ^? t are sp5t 9 commun+ ) ,god & our own he>ts4 ,oh1 h[ sweet is a _s ( devotion1 a _s ( s]i\sness & div9e solemnity1 a _s ( gospel simplicity1 love1 t5d]ness6 ,oh1 h[ desirable1 & h[ pr(itable to ! ,*ri/ian life1 is a _s ( holy wat*fulness1 & godly jeal\sy ov] ourselves2 :5 we are afraid ( no?+ s mu* z t we %all (f5d ! bless$ ,god1 :om we appreh5d1 to be a fa!r & a fri5d2 :om we love & long to please6 ,surely ?is is a temp]1 wor?y ( ! highe/ ambition & close/ pursuit ( intellig5t creatures4 ,oh1 h[ va/ly sup]ior is ! peace1 & satisfaction d]iv$ f ^! div9e frames1 to t :i* we pursue 9 ?+s imp]t95t & trifl+6 ,our own bitt] exp]i5ce tea*es u1 t 89 ! mid/ ( su* laught] ! he>t is sorr[ful10 & !re is no true satisfaction b 9 ,god4 ,b1 alas6 h[ %all we obta9 & reta9 ?is sweet _s ( religion8 ,let u foll[ ! apo/le's direction1 ,philippians ii4 #ab4 & lab\r ^u ! enc\ragem5t he !re m5tions1 = x is ,god only c af=d u fav\r2 & he w be s\ght1 & x is fit we %\ld wait ^u him = s ri* a m]cy4 ,oh1 may ! ,god ( all grace af=d u ! influ5ces ( 8 ,_s3 & help u t we may f our he>ts e/eem x our greate/ lib]ty & happ9ess1 t 8:e!r we live1 we may live to ! ,"l1 or :e!r we die1 we may die to ! ,"l30 t 9 life & dea?1 we may be 86 ,i am 9 a v poor /ate ( heal?3 b ?r\gh div9e goodness1 ,i am n discont5t$3 ,i bless ,god = ?is retirem5t2 ,i nev] 0 m ?ankful = any ?+1 ?an ,i h be5 ( late = ! necessity ,i am "u ( self-d5ial3 99,i love to be a pilgrim & /rang] 9 ?is wild]ness3 x seems mo/ fit = su* a poor1 ignorant1 wor?less creature z ,i4 ,i w\ld n *ange my pres5t mission = any o!r bus9ess 9 ! :ole _w4 ,i may tell y freely1 ,god has ( late giv5 me great fre$om & f]v5cy 9 pray] :5 ,i h be5 s weak & feeble1 my nature seem$ z if x w\ld spe$ily dissolve4 ,i feel z if my all 0 lo/1 & ,i 0 undone1 if ! poor ,hea!n be n conv]t$4 ,i feel diff]5t f :at ,i did :5 ,i saw y la/1 m crucifi$ to all ! enjoym5ts ( life4 ,x w\ld be v refre%+ to me1 to see y "h 9 ?is des]t2 especially 9 my weak disconsolate h\rs3 b1 ,i c\ld be cont5t nev] to see y1 or any ( my fri5ds aga9 9 ?is _w1 if ,god w\ld bless my lab\rs to ! conv]sion ( ! poor ,indians4 ,i h mu* t ,i c\ld will+ly communicate to y1 :i* ,i mu/ omit1 till ,provid5ce gives u leave to see ea* o!r4 ,9 ! mean "t1 ,i re/ ,y\r oblig$ fri5d & s]vant1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to 8 ,bro!r ,john1 at ,college4 ,crosweeksung1 9 ,new-,j]sey1 ,decemb] #bh1 #agde4 ,v ,de> ,bro!r1 ,i ,,am 9 "o cont9u$ & un9t]rupt$ hurry2 & div9e ,provid5ce ?r[s s mu* ^u me1 t ,i d n see x w ev] be o!rwise4 ,may ,i 8obta9 m]cy ( ,god to be fai?ful to ! dea?60 ,i _c say1 ,i am we>y ( my hurry2 ,i only want /r5g? & grace to d m = ,god4 ,my de> bro!r1 ,! ,"l ( heav51 t has c>ri$ me ?r\gh _m trials1 bless y2 bless y = "t & et]nity2 & fit y to d s]vice = him 9 8 *ur* bel[1 & to enjoy 8 blissful pres5ce 9 8 *ur* triumphant4 ,my bro!r2 8! "t is %ort30 ,oh let u fill x up = ,god2 let u c\nt ! suff]+s ( ?is pres5t "t z no?+1 if we c b 8f9i% our c\rse ) joy40 ,oh1 let u /rive to live to ,god4 ,i bless ! ,"l1 ,i h no?+ to d ) e>?1 b only to lab\r hone/ly 9 x = ,god1 till ,i %all 8accompli% z an hirel+ my day40 ,i d n desire to live "o m9ute = any ?+ t e>? c af=d4 ,oh1 t ,i c\ld live = none b ,god1 till my dy+ mom5t6 ,i am y\r affectionate bro!r1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to 8 ,bro!r ,israel1 at ,college1 writt5 a few ,mon?s be=e 8 ,dea?4 ,bo/on1 ,june #cj1 #agdg4 ,my de> bro!r1 ,,x is f ! sides ( et]nity ,i n[ address y4 ,i am he>tily sorry1 t ,i h s little /r5g? to write :at ,i long to communicate to y4 ,b let me tell y1 my bro!r1 et]nity is ano!r ?+ ?an we ord9>ily take x to be4 ,oh1 h[ va/ & b\ndless6 ,oh1 h[ fix$ & unalt]able6 ,oh1 ( :at inf9ite importance is x1 t we be prep>$ = et]nity6 ,i h be5 j dy+ = m ?an a week2 & all ar\nd me h ?\ght s3 9 ?is "t ,i h _h cle> views ( et]nity3 h se5 ! bless$ness ( ! godly2 & h long$ to %>e _! happy /ate2 z well z be5 com=tably satisfi$1 t ,i %all d s2 b ,oh1 :at angui% is rais$ 9 my m9d1 to ?9k ( an et]nity = ^? :o are ,*ri/less1 = ^? :o br+ _! false hopes to ! grave ) !m6 ,! sight 0 s dreadful1 ,i c\ld by no means be> x3 my ?\ghts recoil$1 & ,i said1 8,:o c dwell ) ev]la/+ burn+s60 ,oh1 me?\ght1 t ,i c\ld n[ see my fri5ds1 t ,i might w>n !m1 to see to x1 !y lay _! f\ndation = et]nity sure4 ,& y my de> bro!r1 ,i h be5 p>ticul>ly conc]n$ =2 & h wond]$ ,i s mu* neglect$ conv]s+ ) y ab\t y\r spiritual /ate at our la/ meet+4 ,oh1 let me besee* y n[ to exam9e1 :e!r y are inde$ a new creature8 ,:e!r ! glory ( ,god has ev] be5 ! highe/ conc]n ) y8 ,:e!r y h ev] be5 reconcil$ to all ! p]fections ( ,god8 ,9 a ^w1 :e!r ,god has be5 y\r portion1 & a holy con=mity to him y\r *ief delight8 ,if y h reason to ?9k y are graceless1 ,oh1 give y\rself no re/1 till ,god arise & save4 ,b if ! case %\ld be o!rwise1 bless ,god = 8 grace1 & press aft] hol9ess4 ,oh1 my de> bro!r1 flee fle%ly lu/s1 & ! in*ant+ amusem5ts1 z well z corrupt doctr9es ( ! pres5t day2 & /rive to live to ,god4 ,take ?is z ! la/ l9e f ,y\r affectionate dy+ bro!r1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to a "y ,g5tleman1 a ,c&idate = ! ,m9i/ry1 writt5 at ! same "t4 ,v de> ,sir1 ,,h[ amaz+ x is1 t ! liv+ :o "k !y mu/ die1 %\ld not)/&+ 8put f> away ! evil day10 9 a season ( heal? & prosp]ity3 & live at su* an awful di/ance f ! grave1 & ! great conc]ns beyond x6 ,& especially1 t any ^: m9ds h be5 div9ely enlight5$1 to behold ! important ?+s ( et]nity %\ld live 9 ?is mann]4 ,& yet1 h[ frequ5tly is ?is ! case8 99,h[ r>e are ! in/ances ( ^? :o live & act1 f day to-day1 z on ! v]ge ( et]nity2 /riv+ to fill up all _! rema9+ mom5ts1 9 ! s]vice ( _! great ,ma/]8 ,we ins5sibly trifle away "t1 :ile we seem to h en\gh ( x2 & are s /rangely amus$1 z 9 a great measure to lose a s5se ( ! hol9ess1 necess>y to prep>e u to be inhabitants ( ! heav5ly p>adise4 ,b1 ,oh1 de> ,sir1 a dy+ b$1 if we enjoy our reason1 w give ano!r view ( ?+s4 ,i h n[1 f> m ?an ?ree weeks1 la9 "u ! greate/ weakness2 ! great] "p ( ! "t1 expect+ daily & h\rly to ent] into ! et]nal _w4 ,& ,oh1 ( :at va/ importance has a holy1 spiritual life1 appe>$ to me to be 9 ?is season6 ,i h long$ to call ^u all my fri5ds1 to make x _! bus9ess to live to ,god2 & especially all t are design$ =1 or engag$ 9 ! s]vice ( ! sanctu>y4 ,o de> ,sir1 d n ?9k x en\gh1 to live at ! rate ( common ,*ri/ians4 ,alas1 to h[ little purpose d !y (t5 conv]se1 :5 !y meet toge!r6 ,! visits1 ev5 ( ^? :o are call$ ,*ri/ians inde$1 are frequ5tly q b>r52 & consci5ce _c b condemn u = ! misemploym5t ( "t1 :ile we h be5 conv]sant ) !m4 ,b ! way to enjoy ! div9e pres5ce1 & be fitt$ = 8 s]vice1 is to live a life ( great devotion & con/ant self-d$ication to him2 obs]v+ ! motions & dispositions ( our own he>ts1 :5ce we may le>n ! corruptions t lodge !re1 & our con/ant ne$ ( help f ,god = ! p]=mance ( ! lea/ duty4 ,& ,oh1 de> ,sir1 let me besee* y frequ5tly to att5d ! great & preci\s duties ( secret fa/+ & pray]4 8enlight5d0 replac$ ) 8enlight5$0 8frequ5t0 replac$ ) 8frequ5tly0 p] ,errata ,oh lab\r to be prep>$ & qualifi$ to d mu* = ,god4 ,suff] me to entreat y e>ne/ly to 8give y\rself to pray]1 to read+ & m$itation0 on div9e tru?s3 /rive to p5etrate to ! bottom ( !m1 & nev] be cont5t ) a sup]ficial k4 ,by ?is means1 y\r ?\ghts w gr[ weighty & judici\s2 & y !reby w be possess$ ( a valuable treasure1 out ( :i* y may produce 8?+s new & old10 to ! glory ( ,god4 ,& n[1 8,i comm5d y to ! grace ( ,god20 e>ne/ly desir+1 t a pl5tiful portion ( ! div9e ,_s may re/ ^u y2 t y may live to ,god 9 e capacity1 & t y may be ri*ly qualifi$ = ! 8inh]itance ( ! sa9ts 9 light40 ,i sc>ce expect to see y\r face any m 9 ! body2 & !re=e intreat y to accept ?is z ! la/ tok5 ( love1 f ,y\r s9c]ely affectionate dy+ fri5d1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to 8 ,bro!r ,john1 at ,be!l1 ! ,t[n ( ,*ri/ian ,indians 9 ,new-,j]sey1 writt5 at ,bo/on1 n long be=e 8 dea?4 8be=e0 replac$ ) 8n long be=e0 p] ,errata ,de> ,bro!r1 99,i ,,am n[ j on ! v]ge ( et]nity1 expect+ v spe$ily to appe> 9 ! unse5 _w4 ,i feel myself no m an inhabitant on e>?1 & sometimes e>ne/ly long to 8dep>t & be ) ,*ri/40 ,i bless ,god1 he has = "s ye>s giv5 me an abid+ conviction1 t x is impossible = any rational creature to enjoy true happ9ess )\t be+ entirely 8devot$ to him40 ,"u ! influ5ce ( ?is conviction ,i h 9 "s measure act$3 ,oh t ,i _h done m s6 ,i saw bo? ! excell5cy & necessity ( hol9ess2 b nev] 9 su* a mann] z n[1 :5 ,i am j br\ght to ! sides ( ! grave4 ,oh1 my bro!r1 pursue aft] hol9ess3 press t[>ds ! bless$ m>k2 & let y\r ?ir/y s\l cont9ually say1 8,i %all nev] be sanctifi$ till ,i awake 9 ?y lik5ess40 ,& n[1 my de> bro!r1 z ,i mu/ press y to pursue aft] p]sonal hol9ess1 to be z mu* 9 fa/+ & pray] z y\r heal? w all[1 & to live above ! rate ( common ,*ri/ians3 s ,i mu/ intreat y to att5d to y\r public "w2 lab\r to di/+ui% betwe5 true & false religion2 & to t end1 wat* ! motions ( ,god's ,_s ^u y\r own he>t2 look to him = help1 & imp>tially comp>e y\r exp]i5ces ) 8 ^w4 ,*>ge my p 9 ! "n ( _! dy+ m9i/]1 yea1 9 ! "n ( him :o 0 dead & is alive1 to live & walk z becomes ! gospel4 ,tell !m1 h[ great ! expectations ( ,god & 8 p are f !m1 & h[ awfully !y w w\nd ,god's cause1 if !y fall into vice3 z well z fatally prejudice o!r poor ,indians4 99,always insi/1 t _! joys are delusive1 al?\gh !y may h be5 rapt up into ! ?ird heav5s1 unless ! ma9 t5or ( _! lives be spiritual1 wat*ful & holy4 ,9 press+ ^! ?+s1 8?\ %alt bo? save ?yself1 & ^? t he> !e40 ,god kn[s1 ,i 0 he>tily will+ to h s]v$ him long] 9 ! "w ( ! m9i/ry1 al?\gh x _h /ill be5 att5d$ ) all ! lab\rs & h>d%ips ( pa/ ye>s1 if he _h se5 fit3 b z 8 w appe>s o!rwise1 ,i c ) ! utmo/ fre$om say1 8,! w ( ! ,"l be done40 ,x affects me1 to ?9k ( leav+ y 9 a _w ( s93 my he>t pities y1 t ^? /orms & tempe/s are yet be=e y1 :i* ?r\gh grace ,i am almo/ deliv]$ f4 ,b 8,god lives1 & bless$ be my rock30 he is ! same ,almighty fri5d2 & w1 ,i tru/1 be y\r guide & help]1 z he has be5 m9e4 ,& n[1 my de> bro!r1 8,i comm5d y to ,god & to ! ^w ( 8 grace1 :i* is able to build y up1 & give y an inh]itance among all !m t are sanctifi$40 ,may y enjoy ! div9e pres5ce1 bo? 9 private & public2 & may 8! arms ( y\r h&s be made /rong1 by ! "r h& ( ! mighty ,god ( ,jacob60 ,:i* are ! passionate desires & pray]s ( ,y\r affectionate dy+ bro!r1 ,,david ,,bra9]d4 ,,"s ,reflections & ,obs]vations ,,on ,,! ,prec$+ ,memoirs ( ,mr4 ,,bra9]d4 ,i4 ,,we h "h an opportunity1 9 a v lively in/ance1 to see ! nature ( true religion2 & ! mann] ( its op]ation :5 exemplifi$ 9 a high degree4 ,p>ticul>ly x may be obs]v$4 #a4 ,h[ greatly ,mr4 ,bra9]d's religion diff]$ f t ( "s :o1 dep5d+ on some?+ pa/1 settle 9 a cold1 c>eless1 & c>nal frame ( m9d1 & 9 a neglect ( ?or\gh1 e>ne/ religion4 ,al?\gh 8 convictions & conv]sion 7 exce$+ cle>1 yet h[ f> 0 he f act+ z ?\gh he ?\ght he _h got ?r\gh 8 "w1 :5 once he _h obta9$ satisfaction ( 8 int]e/ 9 ,*ri/8 ,on ! contr>y1 ?is 0 ) him b ! beg9n+ ( 8 "w1 8 ent]+ on ! great bus9ess1 8 fir/ sett+ out 9 8 race4 ,8 obta9+ re/ 9 ,*ri/1 aft] e>ne/ /riv+ to ent] 9 at ! /rait gate1 he did n look ^u z putt+ an end to any fur!r occasion = /riv+ & viol5ce 9 religion3 b ^! 7 cont9u$1 & ma9ta9$ con/antly1 ?r\gh all *anges1 to ! v end ( life4 ,he cont9u$ press+ =w>d1 =get+ ! ?+s t 7 beh9d1 & rea*+ =? t[>ds ! ?+s t 7 be=e4 ,8 pa9s & e>ne/ness 9 religion 7 r increas$ ?an dim9i%$1 aft] he _h receiv$ satisfaction conc]n+ ! safety ( 8 /ate4 ,love to ,god1 & long+s aft] hol9ess1 7 m effectual to engage him to pa9s & activity1 ?an fe> ( hell _h be5 be=e4 ,& z 8 conv]sion 0 n ! end ( 8 "w1 or ( 8 dilig5ce 9 religion2 s nei!r 0 x ! end ( ! "w ( ! ,_s ( ,god on 8 he>t2 b r ! beg9n+2 ! fir/ dawn+ ( ! light1 :i* !nce=w>d increas$ m & m2 ! beg9n+ ( 8 holy affections1 8 sorr[ = s91 8 love to ,god1 8 rejoic+ 9 ,*ri/1 8 long+s aft] hol9ess4 ,& ! p[]ful op]ations ( ! ,_s ( ,god h]e91 7 c>ri$ on1 f ! day ( 8 conv]sion1 to 8 dy+ day4 ,8 religi\s exp]i5ces1 8 admiration1 joy1 & praise1 did n only hold = a few days1 weeks1 or mon?s2 & !n gradually die away1 till !y came to leave him )\t any s5sible exp]i5ce ( holy & div9e affections1 = mon?s toge!r2 z x is ) _m1 :o soon come to t pass1 t x is aga9 ) !m mu* z x is us$ to be be=e _! conv]sion1 ) respect to any pres5t views ( ,god's glory1 or ard5t out-go+s ( _! s\ls aft] div9e objects2 b only n[ & !n !y h a com=table reflection on times pa/2 & s re/ easy1 ?9k+ all well2 !y h _h a good cle> "w1 & !y d\bt n b !y %all g to heav5 :5 !y die4 ,h[ f> o!rwise 0 x ) ,mr4 ,bra9]d6 ,8 exp]i5ces1 in/ead ( dy+ away1 7 evid5tly ( an increas+ nature4 ,8 fir/ love1 & o!r holy affections1 ev5 at ! beg9n+ 7 v great2 b aft] mon?s & ye>s1 became mu* great]1 & m rem>kable2 & ! ex]cises ( 8 m9d cont9u$ exce$+ great1 7?\gh n equally s at all times7 )\t remissness1 & )\t dw9dl+ away1 ev5 till 8 decease4 ,!y began 9 a "t ( g5]al deadness1 & 7 greatly increas$ 9 ! g5]al reviv+ ( religion4 ,& :5 a g5]al deadness return$1 8 exp]i5ces 7 /ill kept up 9 _! height1 & s cont9u$ 9 a g5]al c\rse :]ev] he 01 9 sickness & 9 heal?1 liv+ & dy+4 ,! *ange t 0 wr\ght 9 him at 8 conv]sion1 0 agreeable to scripture1 a great *ange1 & an abid+ *ange1 r5d]+ him a new creature3 n only a *ange z to com=t2 & a transi5t *ange1 consi/+ 9 pass+ affections2 b a *ange ( nature1 a *ange ( ! abid+ temp] ( 8 m9d4 ,n a p>tial *ange1 9 op9ion1 or outw>d re=mation1 mu* less a *ange f "o error to ano!r2 b an univ]sal *ange1 bo? int]nal1 & ext]nal1 f ! habits ( s91 to univ]sal hol9ess4 99,x appe>s pla9ly1 f 8 conv]sion to 8 dea?1 t ! great object ( ! new appetites giv5 him1 & !nce=w>d ma9ta9$ & increas$ 9 8 he>t1 0 ,,hol9ess1 con=mity to ,god1 liv+ to ,god1 & glorify+ him4 ,?is 0 :at drew 8 he>t2 ?is 0 ! c5t] ( 8 s\l2 ?is 0 ! ocean to :i* all 8 religi\s affections t5d$3 ?is 0 ! object :i* engag$ 8 eag] desires & e>ne/ pursuits3 he knew no true happ9ess1 b ?is3 ?is 0 :at he long$ = mo/ vehem5tly & con/antly on e>?2 & ?is 0 ) him ! beauty & bless$ness ( heav51 to be p]fectly holy1 & p]fectly ex]cis$ 9 ! holy employm5ts ( heav52 to glorify ,god1 & enjoy him = ev]4 99,8 religi\s affections 7 att5d$ ) evangelical humiliation2 consi/+ 9 a s5se ( 8 own insuffici5cy1 & despicabl5ess4 ,h[ deeply affect$ 0 he almo/ cont9ually ) 8 great defects 9 religion2 ) 8 va/ di/ance f t spirituality t became him2 ) 8 ignorance1 deadness1 un/ead9ess1 b>r5ness8 ,he 0 n only affect$ ) ! remembrance ( 8 =m] s9fulness1 b ) ! s5se ( 8 pres5t vil5ess4 ,he 0 n only dispos$ to ?9k meanly ( himself z be=e ,god2 b among m51 & comp>$ ) !m4 ,he 0 apt to ?9k o!r sa9ts bett] ?an he2 yea1 to look ^u himself z ! lea/ ( sa9ts2 yea1 ! vile/ & wor/ ( mank9d1 ,& not)/&+ 8 great atta9m5ts 9 spiritual k1 yet we f9d !re is sc>ce any ?+ he is m frequ5tly abas$ )1 ?an 8 ignorance4 8?9k ( o!r0 replac$ ) 8?9k o!r0 p] ,errata 99,h[ em95tly did he appe> to be ( a meek & quiet _s1 resembl+ ! lamb-l1 dove-l ,_s ( ,*ri/6 ,h[ full ( love1 meekness1 quietness1 =giv5ess1 & m]cy6 ,8 love 0 n fondness = a p>ty1 b univ]sal2 (t5 ex]cis$ to 8 greate/ oppos]s & enemies4 ,8 love & meekness 7 effectual 9 exp5sive & pa9ful de$s ( k9dness2 readily confess+ faults "u ! greate/ trials1 & humbl+ himself ev5 at ! feet ( ^? f :om he _h suff]$ mo/3 & f "t to "t pray+ = 8 enemies1 abhorr+ ! ?\ghts ( bitt]ness & res5tm5t t[>ds !m4 ,i sc>ce knew :]e to look = a p>allel in/ance ( self-d5ial1 9 ^! respects1 9 ! pres5t age4 ,he 0 a p]son ( great zeal2 b h[ did he abhor a bitt] zeal1 & lam5t x :]e he saw x6 ,& ?\gh he 0 once drawn into "s degrees ( x1 by ! =ce ( example2 yet h[ did he g ab\t ) a he>t bruis$ & brok5 9 pieces = x all 8 life aft]6 ,( h[ s(t & t5d] a _s 0 he6 ,h[ f> 7 8 exp]i5ces1 hopes1 & joys1 f a t5d5cy to less5 conviction & t5d]ness ( consci5ce1 to cause him to be less affect$ ) pres5t & pa/ s9s1 & less consci5ti\s ) respect to future s9s1 m easy 9 ! neglect ( duties t are tr\blesome1 less apt to be al>m$ at 8 own defects1 & m easily induc$ to a compliance ) c>nal appetites6 ,on ! contr>y1 h[ t5d] 0 8 consci5ce6 h[ apt 0 8 he>t to smite him6 h[ greatly 0 he al>m$ at ! appe>ance ( evil6 h[ great & con/ant 0 8 jeal\sy ov] 8 own he>t6 h[ /rict 8 c>e & wat*fulness aga9/ s96 h[ deep & s5sible 7 ! w\nds t s9 made 9 8 consci5ce6 ,^? evils t are g5]ally acc\nt$ small1 7 almo/ an insupportable burd5 to him2 su* z 8 inw>d defici5cies1 8 hav+ no m love to ,god1 any slackness or dulness1 any un/ead9ess1 or w&]+1 h[ did ! consid]ation ( su* ?+s z ^! abase him1 & fill him ) %ame & confusion6 ,8 love & hope1 ?\gh !y ca/ out a s]vile fe> ( hell1 yet 7 att5d$ )1 & promot$ a rev]5tial filial fe> ( ,god1 a dread ( s91 & ( ,god's holy displeasure4 ,8 assurance & com=t promot$ & ma9ta9$ m\rn+ = s93 holy m\rn+ ) him1 0 n only ! "w ( an h\r or a day1 at 8 fir/ conv]sion2 b he 0 a m\rn] = s9 all 8 days4 ,he did n1 aft] he receiv$ =giv5ess1 =get 8 pa/ s9s1 committ$ be=e 8 conv]sion2 b ! remembrance ( !m f "t to "t1 fill$ 8 he>t ) r5ew$ grief3 & h[ la/+ly did ! s9s committ$ aft] 8 conv]sion1 affect & break 8 he>t6 ,if he did any ?+ :]eby he ?\ght he _h di%on\r$ ,god1 he _h nev] done ) call+ x to m9d ) sorr[3 ?\gh he 0 assur$ t ,god _h =giv5 x1 yet he nev] =gave himself4 ,8 religion 0 n l a blaz+ meteor1 fly+ ?r\gh ! firmam5t ) a bright tra91 & !n quickly go+ out2 b l ! /eady lights ( heav51 t are con/ant pr9ciples ( light1 ?\gh sometimes hid ) cl\ds4 ,nor l a l&-flood1 :i* fl[s f> & wide1 be>+ d[n all a=e x1 & !n dri$ up2 b l a /ream f$ by liv+ spr+s2 :i* ?\gh sometimes dim9i%$1 yet is a con/ant /ream4 99,mr4 ,bra9]d's com=ts 7 n l ^? ( "s o!r p]sons1 :i* are att5d$ ) a spiritual satiety1 & put an end to _! religi\s long+s1 at lea/ to ! ard5cy ( !m4 ,on ! contr>y1 h[ 7 !y always att5d$ ) long+s & ?ir/+s aft] great] degrees ( con=mity to ,god6 ,& ! great] & sweet] 8 com=ts 71 ! m vehem5t 7 8 desires aft] hol9ess4 ,= 8 long+s 7 n s mu* aft] joyful discov]ies ( ,god's love2 z aft] great] spirituality1 an he>t m engag$ = ,god1 to love & exalt1 & dep5d ^u him2 an ability bett] to s]ve him1 to d m = 8 glory4 ,& 8 desires 7 p[]ful & effectual1 to animate him to ! eag] pursuit ( ^! ?+s4 ,8 com=ts nev] put an end to 8 seek+ aft] ,god1 b greatly enl>g$ him !re94 ,8 religion did n consi/ only 9 exp]i5ce1 )\t practice4 ,all 8 com=ts _h a direct t5d5cy to practice2 & ?is1 n m]ely a practice negatively good1 b a practice positively holy1 9 a s]i\s1 dev\t1 humble1 meek1 *>itable1 & b5efic5t conv]sation3 mak+ ! s]vice ( ,god1 ! bus9ess ( life1 :i* he pursu$ ) ! greate/ e>ne/ness & dilig5ce to ! end ( 8 days4 ,,iii4 ,! =ego+ acc\nt %ews1 t !re is inde$ su* a ?+ z true exp]im5tal religion1 aris+ f imm$iate div9e influ5ces1 sup]naturally enlight5+ & conv9c+ ! m9d1 & p[]fully quick5+1 sanctify+1 & gov]n+ ! he>t2 :i* religion is inde$ ( happy t5d5cy1 & ( no hurtful consequ5ce to human society2 not)/&+ !re h be5 _m pret5ces to exp]im5tal religion1 t h prov$ to be no?+ b en?usiasm4 po9t ,,ii4 n indicat$ 9 text ,if any insi/1 t ,mr4 ,bra9]d's religion 0 en?usiasm1 ,i w\ld ask1 if su* ?+s z ^! are ! fruits ( en?usiasm1 viz4 hone/y & simplicity1 s9c]e & e>ne/ desires & endeav\rs1 to "k & d :atev] is "r1 & to avoid e ?+ t is wrong2 love to ,god1 plac+ ! happ9ess ( life 9 him2 n only 9 contemplat+ him1 b 9 be+ active 9 pleas+1 & s]v+ him2 a firm belief 9 ! ,messiah1 z ! ,savi\r ( ! _w2 toge!r ) great love to him1 & long+ = ! enl>gem5t ( 8 k+dom2 resignation to ! w ( ,god1 "u all trials2 b5evol5ce to mank9d1 rea*+ all p]sons )\t di/9ction1 manife/$ 9 sweetness ( spee* & behavi\r1 m]cy1 lib]ality1 & e>ne/ seek+ ! good ( ! s\ls & bodies ( m52 att5d$ ) extraord9>y humility1 meekness1 =giv5ess ( injuries1 & love to enemies2 a mode/1 & dec5t deportm5t1 among sup]iors1 inf]iors1 & equals3 a dilig5t improvem5t ( "t1 & e>ne/ c>e to lose no "p ( x2 great wat*fulness aga9/ all sorts ( s91 ( he>t1 spee*1 & action2 & ! =ego+ amiable virtues all end+ 9 a m>vell\s peace1 unmoveable calmness1 & resignation1 9 ! s5sible approa*es ( dea?3 ,i say1 if all ^! ?+s are en?usiasm1 t en?usiasm is a desirable & excell5t ?+4 8s]ve0 replac$ ) 8s]v+0 p] ,errata 8s90 replac$ ) 8( s90 p] ,errata ,& :]eas !re are _m t are n pr(ess$ oppos]s ( exp]im5tal religion1 :o yet d\bt ( x1 f ! bad lives ( "s pr(essors2 & are ready to det]m9e !re is no?+ 9 all ! talk ab\t be+ born aga91 because t _m t pret5d to x1 manife/ no abid+ alt]ation 9 _! disposition & behavi\r2 are z c>eless1 c>nal1 or covet\s z ev]2 yea1 p]haps mu* worse ?an ev]3 x is ackn[l$g$1 t ?is is ! case ) "s2 b !y may see x is n s ) all4 ,!re are "s indisputable in/ances ( su* a *ange1 a 8r5ovation ( ! _s ( ! m9d10 & a 8walk+ 9 newness ( life40 ,9 ! =ego+ in/ance p>ticul>ly1 !y may see ! abid+ influ5ce ( su* a "w ( conv]sion2 ! fruits ( su* exp]i5ce ?r\gh a c\rse ( ye>s2 "u a great v>iety ( circum/ances1 & ! bless$ ev5t ( x 9 life & dea?4 ,,iv4 ,is !re n mu* 9 ! prec$+ memoirs to tea* & excite to duty1 u :o are call$ to ! "w ( ! m9i/ry8 ,:at a deep s5se _h he ( ! importance ( t "w1 & ) :at weight did x lie on 8 m9d8 ,h[ s5sible 0 he ( 8 own insuffici5cy = ?is "w3 & h[ great 0 8 dep5d5ce on ,god's suffici5cy6 ,h[ solicit\s1 t he might be fitt$ = x6 ,& to ?is end h[ mu* "t did he sp5d 9 pray] & fa/+1 z well z read+ & m$itation2 giv+ himself to ^! ?+s6 ,h[ did he d$icate 8 :ole life1 all 8 p[]s & tal5ts to ,god & r5\nce ! _w1 ) all its ensn>+ enjoym5ts1 t he might be :olly at lib]ty to s]ve ,*ri/ 9 ?is "w2 & to please him :o _h *os5 him to be 8 soldi]4 ,) :at solicitude1 solemnity1 & dilig5ce did he devote himself to ,god our ,savi\r1 &1 seek 8 pres5ce & bless+1 at ! "t ( 8 ord9ation6 ,& h[ 0 8 :ole he>t con/antly engag$1 8 :ole "t employ$1 8 :ole /r5g? sp5t 9 ! bus9ess he !n und]took6,& 8 hi/ory %ews u ! "r way to success 9 ! "w ( ! m9i/ry4 ,he s\ght x z a resolute soldi] seeks victory1 9 a siege or battle1 or z a man t runs a race = a prize4 ,animat$ ) love to ,*ri/ & s\ls1 h[ did he 8lab\r always f]v5tly10 n only 9 ^w & doctr9e1 9 public & private1 b 9 pray]s day & night1 8wre/l+ ) ,god0 9 secret1 & 8travail+ 9 bir?10 ) unutt]able groans1 8until1 ,*ri/ 7 =m$0 9 ! he>ts ( ! p to :om he 0 s5t6 ,h[ did he ?ir/ = a bless+ on 8 m9i/ry2 & 8wat* = s\ls z "o t mu/ give acc\nt60 ,h[ did he g =? 9 ! /r5g? ( ! ,"l ,god2 dep5d+ on a special influ5ce ( ! ,_s6 ,& :at 0 ! happy fruit at la/1 ?\gh aft] long wait+1 & _m disc\rag+ appe>ances6 ,l a true son ( ,jacob1 he p]sev]$ 9 wre/l+ until ! break+ ( ! day4 ,v4 ,! =ego+ acc\nt may in/ruct ,*ri/ians 9 g5]al2 z x %ews 9 _m respects1 ! "r way ( practis+ religion1 9 ord] to obta9 ! ends ( x2 or h[ ,*ri/ians %\ld 8run ! race set be=e !m10 if !y w\ld adorn _! pr(ession1 be s]viceable to mank9d1 h ! com=ts ( religion :ile !y live1 be free f disquiet+ d\bts2 enjoy peace 9 ! approa* ( dea?1 & 8f9i% _! c\rse ) joy40,9 g5]al he mu* recomm5d$1 = ?is purpose1 ! r$emption ( "t1 & great dilig5ce 9 wat*fulness4 99,& 8 example1 ) reg>d to "o duty 9 special1 may be ( great use to bo? m9i/]s & private ,*ri/ians3 ,i mean ! duty ( secret fa/+4 ,! read] has se5 h[ mu* ,mr4 ,bra9]d recomm5ds ?is duty1 h[ frequ5tly he ex]cis$ himself 9 x2 & ( :at great b5efit x evid5tly 0 to 8 s\l4 ,among all ! days he sp5t 9 secret fa/+ & pray]1 !re is sc>ce an in/ance ( "o1 b :at 0 att5d$ ) a rem>kable bless+4,b x mu/ be obs]v$1 t :5 he set ab\t ?is duty1 he did x 9 good e>ne/3 8/irr+ up himself to take hold ( ,god10 & 8cont9u+ in/ant 9 pray]10 ) mu* ( ! _s ( ,jacob1 :o said to ! angel4 8,i w n let !e g1 except ?\ bless me40 ,,vi4 ,"o ?+ m may be obs]v$ 9 ! prec$+ acc\nt1 ! rem>kable disposal ( div9e ,provid5ce1 ) respect to ! circum/ances ( 8 la/ sickness & dea?4 8di-div9e0 replac$ ) 8div9e0 ,?\gh he _h long be5 infirm1 8 con/itution be+ brok5 by fatigues & h>d%ips2 & ?\gh he 0 (t5 br\ght v l[ by illness1 yet 8 life 0 pres]v$1 till he _h se5 t :i* he _h s greatly desir$1 a glori\s "w ( grace among ! ,indians4 ,& ?\gh x 0 ! pleasure ( ,god1 t he %\ld be tak5 (f f 8 lab\rs among t p1 :o 7 s de> to him2 yet ?is 0 n be=e !y 7 well in/ruct$ 9 ! ,*ri/ian religion1 confirm$ 9 ! ,*ri/ian fai? & mann]s1 =m$ into a *ur*2 br\ght into a way ) respect to ! education ( *ildr52 collect$ 9 a t[n by !mselves1 on a good piece ( l& ( _! own2 & introduc$ into ! way ( husb&ry4 ,^! ?+s 7 j br\ght to pass by 8 indefatigable application1 & !n he 0 tak5 (f f 8 "w4 ,if ?is _h be5 b a little soon]1 !y w\ld by no means h be5 prep>$ = su* a disp5sation3 & x probably w\ld h be5 m hurt to _! spiritual int]e/1 & to ! cause ( ,*ri/ianity among !m4 8m0 replac$ ) 8m hurt0 p] ,errata 8& (0 replac$ ) 8& to0 p] ,errata ,! "t & circum/ances ( 8 illness 7 s ord]$1 t he _h j opportunity to f9i% 8 j\rnal4 ,a f\ndation 0 h]eby laid = a conc]n 9 o!rs = t cause1 & prop] c>e & measures to be tak5 = ! ma9ta9+ x aft] 8 dea?4 ,z x has actually prov$ to be ( great b5efit 9 ?is respect2 x hav+ excit$ _m 9 ^? p>ts1 & also m di/ant p>ts ( ,am]ica1 to ex]t !mselves = ! promot+ s glori\s a "w1 rem>kably op5+ _! he>ts & h&s3 & n only 9 ,am]ica1 b 9 ,great-,brita91 :]e t ,j\rnal has be5 an occasion ( "s l>ge b5efactions1 made = ! promot+ ! int]e/ ( ,*ri/ianity among ! ,indians4 ,he 0 n tak5 (f f ! "w ( ! m9i/ry among 8 p1 till 8 bro!r 0 9 a capacity to succe$ him3 :o succe$s him 9 ! l _s1 & "u ^: prud5t & fai?ful c>e 8 congregation has fl\ri%$1 & be5 v happy1 s9ce he left !m2 & probably c\ld n h be5 s well provid$ = o!rwise4 ,if ,mr4 ,bra9]d _h be5 disabl$ soon]1 8 bro!r w\ld n h be5 ready to /& up 9 8 place2 hav+ tak5 8 fir/ degrees at college1 b ab\t t "t t he 0 seiz$ ) ?is fatal consumption4 ,?\gh 9 t w9t] t he lay sick at ,mr4 ,dick9son's 9 ,elisabe?-,t[n1 he cont9u$1 = a long "t 9 an extreme l[ /ate1 s t sometimes x 0 h>dly expect$ he w\ld live a day to an end2 yet 8 life 0 sp>$ a:ile long]2 he liv$ to see 8 bro!r arrive 9 ,new-,j]sey1 be+ come to succe$ him 9 ! c>e ( 8 ,indians3 & he himself _h opportunity to assi/ 9 8 exam9ation & introduction into 8 bus9ess3 & to commit ! conduct ( 8 de> p to "o :om he well knew1 & c\ld use fre$om ) 9 giv+ him p>ticul> in/ructions1 & "u ^: c>e he c\ld leave 8 congregation ) great *e>fulness4 8succ$0 replac$ ) 8succe$0 ,! provid5ce ( ,god 0 rem>kable 9 s ord]+ x1 t be=e 8 dea? he %\ld take a j\rney to ,bo/on2 :i* 0 ( v happy consequ5ce to ! int]e/ ( religion1 & especially among 8 own p4 ,by ?is means1 z has be5 obs]v$1 he 0 br\ght into acqua9tance ) _m p]sons ( note & influ5ce1 m9i/]s1 & o!rs1 belong+ bo? to ! t[n & v>i\s p>ts ( ! c\ntry2 & _h opportunity "u ! be/ advantages1 to be> a te/imony = ,god & true religion4 ,! provid5ce ( ,god 0 obs]vable 9 8 go+ to ,bo/on at a "t :5 n only ! hon\rable commission]s 7 seek+ mission>ies1 to ! ,six ,nations1 b j aft] 8 j\rnal1 :i* gives an acc\nt ( 8 lab\rs & success among ! ,indians1 _h be5 spread at ,bo/on2 :]eby 8 "n 0 kn[n1 & ! m9ds ( s]i\s p 7 well prep>$ to receive him1 & ! te/imony he gave = ,god2 to ex]t !mselves = uphold+ ! int]e/ ( religion among 8 congregation1 & among ! ,indians else:]e2 & to reg>d 8 judgm5t conc]n+ ! qualifications ( mission>ies4 ,if he _h gone !re ! fall be=e1 7:5 he _h int5d$ x1 b 0 prev5t$ by a sudd5 increase ( 8 illness7 x w\ld n h be5 to s good effect2 & also if he _h n be5 unexpect$ly deta9$ 9 ,bo/on4 ,:5 he w5t f my h\se he int5d$ to make b a v %ort /ay !re2 b div9e ,provid5ce by 8 be+ br\ght s l[ !re1 deta9$ him long3 !reby to make way = ! fulfill+ its own graci\s designs4 ,?us1 al?\gh x 0 ! pleasure ( ,god1 t he %\ld be tak5 away f 8 congregation2 yet x 0 grant$ to him t be=e he di$ he %\ld see !m well provid$ = e way3 he saw !m provid$ = ) "o to in/ruct !m1 & take c>e ( _! s\ls2 8 own bro!r :om he c\ld confide 92 he saw a good f\ndation laid = ! support ( ! s*ool among !m3 ^? ?+s t be=e 7 want+1 be+ suppli$2 & he _h also opportunity to leave all 8 dy+ *>ges1 ) 8 successor 9 ! c>e ( 8 p1 & by him to s5d 8 dy+ c\nsels to !m4 99,ano!r ?+1 :]e9 appe>s ! m]ciful disposal ( ,provid5ce1 0 t he did n die 9 ! wild]ness1 among ! savages at ,kaunaumeek1 or ! ,=ks ( ,delaw>e1 or at ,susquahannah3 b 9 a place :]e 8 dy+ behavi\r might be obs]v$1 & "s acc\nt giv5 = ! b5efit ( survivors3 & also :]e c>e might be tak5 ( him 9 8 sickness1 & prop] hon\rs done him at 8 dea?4 99,i w\ld n conclude my obs]vations on ! m]ciful circum/ances ( ,mr4 ,bra9]d's dea?1 )\t ackn[l$g+ ) ?ankfulness1 ! graci\s disp5sation ( ,provid5ce to me & my family 9 s ord]+1 t he 7?\gh ! ord9>y place ( 8 abode 0 m ?an two hundr$ miles di/ant7 %\ld be ca/ to my h\se1 9 8 la/ sickness1 & %\ld die "h3 s t we _h opportunity = mu* conv]sation ) him1 & to %ew him k9dness 9 su* circum/ances1 & to see 8 dy+ behavi\r1 to he> 8 dy+ spee*es1 to receive 8 dy+ c\nsels1 & to h ! b5efit ( 8 dy+ pray]s4 ,may ,god 9 inf9ite m]cy grant1 t we may ev] reta9 a prop] remembrance ( ^! ?+s1 & make a due improvem5t ( ! advantages we h _h6 ,! ,"l grant also1 t ! =ego+ acc\nt may be = ! spiritual b5efit ( all t read x1 & prove a happy means ( promot+ true religion 9 ! _w4 ,am54 duplicate ^w 8!0 remov$ ,an ,,extract ( ,miss ,m>y ,gilb]t's ,,j\rnal4 ,,to ,,! ,,read]4 #a4 ,,among ! innum]able novelties :i* h appe>$ 9 ! _w1 )9 half a c5tury1 ,i d n rememb] to h se5 ! exp]i5ce ( a *ild writt5 by h]self4 ,h]e9 mu* v>iety is n to be expect$1 nor any art or ornam5t at all3 z %e set d[n f "t to "t1 m]ely = h] own use1 j :at occurr$ betwe5 ,god & h] own s\l4 ,b on ?is v acc\nt1 p]sons ( und]/&+ w set ! great] value ^u x3 because x conta9s only g5u9e ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce1 pa9t$ 9 its native col\rs4 #b4 ,! reflections occasionally int]sp]s$1 are always j1 frequ5tly /rong & affect+3 p>ticul>ly ^? on dea?1 or ! %ortness ( life1 especially f ! m\? ( a *ild4 ,& ! language :]e9 !y are express$1 al?o' pla9 & altoge!r un/udi$1 is yet pure & t]se 9 ! highe/ degree1 yea frequ5tly elegant3 su* z ! mo/ polite ei!r ( our lawy]s or div9es w\ld n easily alt] = ! bett]4 ,su* language ,i h>dly "k :]e to f9d1 unless 9 ! almo/ inimitable lett]s ( ,jane ,coop]3 betwe5 :om & ,miss ,gilb]t !re 0 a rem>kable resemblance1 bo? 9 s5tim5t & expression4 ,& _h x pleas$ ! all-wise ,dispos] ( all ?+s1 to give h] a few m ye>s on e>?1 & an increase ( grace 9 proportion to h] ye>s1 %e w\ld h be5 ano!r ,jane ,coop]4 ,,john ,,wesley4 ,liv]pool1 ,april #g?1 #agfh4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a %ort ,,acc\nt ( ,miss ,,m>y ,,gilb]t4 ,,! ensu+ acc\nt x is hop$ may animate ^? :o are 9 ! morn+ ( life1 to a due improvem5t ( _! "t1 9 rememb]+ _! ,,creator 9 ! days ( _! y\?2 s t !y may (f] him ! fir/ fruits ( ^? preci\s mom5ts1 9 :i* !y are probation]s = an awful et]nity3 & :i* :5 pa/1 :e!r !y h be5 employ$ 9 ! important task or n1 are irrecov]ably gone4 8talk0 replac$ ) 8task0 p] ,errata ,if x has ?is happy effect1 ! desir$ end w be fully answ]$1 :i* is1 t ,god's grace & sav+ p[] may be manife/$1 9 additional in/ances1 bo? ( liv+ & dy+ witnesses4 ,miss ,m>y ,gilb]t1 0 ! elde/ daught] ( ,na?aniel ,gilb]t1 ( ! isl& ( ,antigua1 ,esq2 by 8 wife ,elizabe?1 bo? p]sons ( good families & em95t piety1 ^: *ief /udy x 0 to tra9 up _! *ildr5 9 ! k ( ,god & 8 ways1 accord+ to ! e/abli%$ religion ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&4 ,%e 0 born 9 ! same isl& on ! #bh? ( ,febru>y1 #agea1 "u ! happy circum/ance ( hav+ p>5ts1 :o z !y 7 want+ 9 no act ( c>e & t5d]ness to _! (fspr+1 s took c>e 9 p>ticul> to make !m l "y ,timo?y1 acqua9t$ f _! infancy ) ! holy scriptures4 ,9 ! e>lie/ dawn ( reason %e discov]$ an extraord9>y capacity & uncommon und]/&+2 a great will+ness to le>n2 & a desire ( be+ in/ruct$1 :i* (t5 occasion$ h] to ask ! mo/ p]t95t que/ions4 ,su* a g5ius 0 obs]v$ by h] p>5ts ) mu* gratitude1 to him :o is ! au?or & disp5s] ( e good & p]fect gift4 ,h] natural disposition 0 a mixture ( good & evil4 ,%e 0 a /rict obs]v] ( tru?1 :i* appe>$ to arise f a nobl5ess ( m9d1 :i* made h] incapable ( ^? meannesses f :5ce ! vice ( fal%ood spr+s4 ,b z e fl[] 9 nature's g>d51 h[ev] bloom+ ne$s improv+1 s did ?is pr9ciple 9 h]2 = z x 0 productive ( "s virtues1 s x no less occasion$ ! greate/ blemi%es 9 h] temp]2 su* z high-spirit$ness1 pride & self-w2 :i* not)/&+ ! %9+ example ( h] p>5ts1 & _! c>e to re/ra91 w\ld1 :ile %e 0 v "y (t5 ga9 an asc5d5cy4 ,9 ! ye> #ageg1 h] fa!r & "m made a voyage to ,engl&1 7br++ ?is daught] & _! o!r *ildr5 ) !m7 entirely ^u a religi\s acc\nt1 & 9 ord] to enjoy ! company ( "s :o 7 e/eem$ p]sons ( rem>kable piety & ext5sive usefulness1 & ) !m to p>take ( ^? sacr$ privileges1 ) :i* _! native isl& 0 n yet fav\r$4 ,dur+ _! resid5ce 9 ,engl&1 %e %ew$ ! greate/ delight 9 read+ religi\s books1 & 9 receiv+ ! in/ruction ( s]i\s ,*ri/ians1 :o 7 frequ5tly ent]ta9$ at h] fa!r's h\se4 ,s t :at 0 record$ ( ! royal psalmi/1 might be ass]t$ ( h]1 ,all h] delight 0 9 ! sa9ts ^u e>?4 ,h] fa!r's affairs call+ him back to ,antigua1 he1 ) 8 family left ,engl&1 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> #agei1 tak+ ) !m a p]son ^: s5tim5ts & abilities !y approv$ (1 to ^: c>e !y committ$ ! education ( _! *ildr51 = :om _! daught] ,m>y soon contract$ a v t5d] affection2 f> f %unn+ ! company ( "o t 0 to correct h] faults1 & ^: pres5ce mu/ re/ra9 ! little levities ( *ildhood4 ,%e = ^! v reasons1 delight$ 9 be+ con/antly conf9$ ) h]1 ev5 9 ^? h\rs :i* %e might h sp5t at play ) h] si/]s4 ,^! seasons %e employ$ 9 improv+ h] m9d1 & hav+ ! lib]ty ( retir+ into a closet )9 h] gov]ness's *amb]1 %e w\ld cont9ue 9 x = a long "t e day read+1 pray+1 & m$itat+1 & h] rem>ks ^u :at %e read1 7 (t5 j1 & in/ructive4 ,z soon z %e _h le>n$ to write1 %e seldom fail$ not+ d[n :atev] appe>$ useful 9 any au?or %e read2 & hav+ a v ret5tive memory1 %e /or$ x ) scripture tru?s1 s t _m ( h] relatives & o!rs1 7 greatly surpris$ at h] read9ess 9 repeat+1 & f9d+ out almo/ any text 9 ^? sacr$ pages4 ,%e likewise wrote sev]al books ( well collect$ texts1 9 pro( ( "s ( ! fundam5tal doctr9es ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 su* z1 ,! fall5 /ate ( man1 ! necessity ( rep5tance1 ( ! new bir?1 & ( hol9ess4 ,be=e %e 0 twelve ye>s ( age1 %e correspond$ ) "s p]sons 9 ,engl&1 & h] lett]s 7 mu* admir$2 ?o' z %e grew old]1 h] /ile greatly improv$1 s t %e _h acquir$ bo? an easy & elegant mann] ( address+ diff]5t p]sons1 & ^u v>i\s occasions1 ?o' religion 0 h] con/ant !me3 h]e91 z 9 o!r in/ances1 endeav\r+ to r$eem z mu* z possible ! gold5 mom5ts ( h] contract$ span4 ,?us %e g5tly & pr(itably pass$ five ye>s ( h] pilgrimage1 )\t v>iation1 & exempt f vicissitudes "u h] p>5ts ro(1 till 9 ! ye> #agfd1 !y ?\ght x mo/ = h] advantage to s5d h] to ,engl&1 to f9i% h] education4 ,"h %e arriv$ ! #bh? ( ,may t ye>3 f t "t bo>d+ ) an aunt1 & be+ "u ! c>e ( ! same tutoress1 :o _h be=e gone ) h] to ,antigua4 ,?is sep>ation f ! be/ ( p>5ts1 c\ld n b prove an afflictive circum/ance to "o ( h] great s5sibility1 & :o 0 a mo/ dutiful & affectionate *ild2 b ?is 0 alleviat$ by ! pleas+ hopes !y gave h]1 t !y !mselves w\ld soon come & reside 9 ,engl&1 a ?\ght :i* z x enabl$ h] *e>fully to be> _! abs5ce1 s x animat$ h] to a m ?an ord9>y improvem5t ( "t1 9 ord] to r5d] !m ! utmo/ satisfaction1 :5 %e %\ld h ! happ9ess ( be+ re/or$ to !m2 a p]iod1 :i* %e (t5 m5tion$ ) ! greate/ delight2 b :i* ! inf9itely wise dispos] ( ev5ts saw "r nev] to indulge h] )4 ,x 0 ) great pleasure t we obs]v$1 z h] ye>s increas$1 h] good und]/&+1 & ! p[] ( religion entirely prevail$ ov] ^? temp]s1 :i* h be=e be5 m5tion$1 s t %e became1 e day m amiable1 & 0 m ende>$ to all t knew h]4 ,on ! fir/ ( ,janu>y #agfe1 %e began to keep a di>y1 *iefly consi/+ ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) h] s\l4 ,?is w give a ju/] conception ( h] und]/&+ 9 ! way ( godl9ess1 ( h] improvem5t ( "t1 & ! propriety ( h] s5tim5ts on _m occasions1 ?an any ?+ t c\ld be said ^u ! subject4 ,%e 0 "o ( ^? happy few1 :o are n afraid ( be+ s+ul>ly pi\s1 & 0 deeply conv9c$ t ! s]vice ( ,god is no imp$im5t to1 b ! greate/ augm5tation ( true happ9ess1 9 e p]iod & circum/ance ( life4 ,%e _h le>n$ to disda9 ! follies ( ! _w1 always *us+ pla9ness & neatness 9 dress1 r ?an gaiety & extravagance1 & pref]r+ an h\r's solitude1 sp5t 9 commun+ ) h] own he>t1 or 9 se>*+ ! ^w ( ,god1 be=e all ^? trifl+ amusem5ts1 :i* s mu* engross ! att5tion1 & wa/e ! "t ( ! g5]ality ( p]sons ( all ages4 ,?us ?\gh "y 9 ye>s1 %e contemplat$ h] latt] end1 & appli$ h] he>t unto true wisdom1 & is n[ reap+ ! va/ advantage 9 a ble/ et]nity4 ,%e 0 s ex]cis$ 9 ! ne$ful duty ( self-inspection1 z to disc]n ! imp]fection ( h] be/ p]=mances1 & utt]ly to disclaim e o!r hope ( obta9+ ! div9e fav\r ?an t built on ! sure f\ndation1 ,jesus ,*ri/ & him crucifi$4 ,an int]e/ 9 8 aton+ blood1 0 :at %e s9c]ely s\ght aft]2 be+ truly s5sible ( ! necessity ( be+ born aga91 be=e we c ent] into ! k+dom ( heav54 ,%e ?\ght ! "t long ere %e 0 admitt$ into ! glori\s lib]ty ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god2 & w\ld greatly deplore h] own in/ability1 levity1 & want ( e>ne/ness1 to :i* %e attribut$ h] ,"l's delay2 b ^! ?+s ?o' felt by h] t5d] & enlight5$ consci5ce1 did n appe> to o!rs4 ,& ! ,"l 0 n slack conc]n+ 8 promise1 z h] foll[+ exp]i5ce prov$1 :5 he came sudd5ly to ! temple ( h] he>t1 nev] to leave h] m4 ,"s weeks be=e h] la/ sickness %e told a fri5d1 t %e _h be5 greatly l$ out 9 ! m$itation ( dea?1 t %e =m]ly consid]$ x z v dreadful1 b _h ( late se5 x 9 a diff]5t view3 s t if x w\ld please ,god to f9i% 8 "w 9 h] s\l1 %e c\ld be cont5t1 "y z %e 01 to give up all t 7 de> bel[1 9 hope ( receiv+ !m aga9 9 t et]nal day4 ,a few days be=e h] disord] seiz$ h]1 be+ ask$ by a fri5d1 conc]n+ ! /ate ( h] s\l1 %e said1 8%e _h a confid5ce t ,god w\ld n long )-hold ! bless+1 t %e soon %\ld "k 8 p>don+ love1 &1 t %e 0 pati5tly wait+ ^u him40 ,z soon z %e 0 tak5 ill1 7:i* 0 on ! #aj? ( ,janu>y1 #agfh17 %e 0 ask$ h[ %e f\nd h] m9d8 ,%e repli$1 8,q compos$1 t %e believ$ ! ,"l _h visit$ h] 9 love1 & t :e!r x t]m9at$ 9 life1 or dea?1 x w\ld be greatly to h] advantage40 ,dur+ ! :ole "t ( h] illness n a d\bt seem$ to di/urb h]1 nor did %e ev] lose h] /$fa/ hope1 t if %e 0 tak51 ! ,"l w\ld p]fect 8 "w 9 h] s\l4 ,%e 0 also endu$ ) a con/ant _s ( pray]1 & to all ar\nd behav$ ) ! utmo/ pati5ce & meekness4 ,%e seldom compla9$1 & decl>$ %e _h n a murmur+ ?\ght1 ?o' %e appe>$ to suff] exquisitely2 h] disord] be+ a putrid fev]1 ) a sore ?roat1 :i* mortifi$ "s days be=e h] dissolution3 x 0 likewise att5d$ ) a deafness t encreas$ gradually1 till at la/ !re 0 no conv]s+ ) h]4 ,%e 0 also depriv$ v e>ly ( spee*1 :i* z %e reta9$ h] s5ses1 r5d]$ h] situation v try+1 z well z depriv$ h] fri5ds ( t pr(it & satisfaction1 :i* might o!rwise h be5 expect$4 ,b on ,?ursday ! #ad?1 7be=e ! disease _h made s great a progress1 ?o' ev5 !n h] spee* 0 ?ick1 & h] he>+ dull7 %e desir$ ! :ole family1 w\ld come & pray ) h]1 & to "s ( h] fri5ds made ?is good confession3 t %e _h f\nd ,*ri/1 t %e lov$ ,god1 kn[+ t he _h fir/ lov$ h]1 t %e 0 n[ nei!r afraid nor unwill+ to die2 & t %e exp]i5c$ unspeakable1 & till n[1 unkn[n happ9ess4 ,f ?is "t %e spoke b little1 except ab\t two days aft]w>ds1 :5 %e said to "o :o desir$ h] to speak to h]1 t %e 0 p]fectly resign$ to ! div9e w2 ?is %e utt]$ ) difficulty1 & c\ld add no m4 ,b ?o' h] lips 7 ?us clos$ to all bel[1 x 0 evid5t1 h] he>t 0 op5 to ,god 9 pray]1 :i* 0 disc]nable f ! frequ5t lift+ up ( h] h&s & eyes ) great devotion2 9 ?is po/ure %e sweetly yield$ up h] _s on ! #ba/ in/ant1 at ! age ( ne> #ag ye>s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,an ,,extract f h] ,,j\rnal4 ,,tuesday1 ,janu>y #a/1 #agfe1 :5 ,i awoke 9 ! morn+1 ,i f\nd my he>t rais$ 9 ?ankfulness to ,god = 8 m]cies1 9 br++ me to ! beg9n+ ( ano!r ye>2 & f\nd my s\l mu* 9 ! same frame all ! day4 99,o6 may ?is ye> be sp5t m to ! glory ( my ,almighty ,mak] & ,pres]v]1 ?an ! la/ has be53 & may e ?\ght1 ^w & "w1 t5d to ?is glori\s end4 ,w$nesday #b1 ,i f\nd a bless+ :ile dress+1 b lo/ x by giv+ way to levity2 yet ! m]ciful ,"l re/or$ x to me 9 ! ev5+3 bless$ be 8 "n4 ,?ursday #c4 ,i f\nd my s\l 9 a dead1 dull frame1 ) a great dis9cl9ation to duty1 :i* ,i did n yield to1 & ?o' ,i f\nd no imm$iate bless+1 yet ,i d\bt n1 b ! ,"l 0 pleas$ ) my endeav\rs to wait ^u him4 ,friday #d4 ,i awoke ) "s degree ( com=t1 & _h my ?\ghts /ay$ on ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,i f\nd a desire1 :ile ,i he>d ! book ( m>tyrs read1 ( be+ l !m2 b c\ld n submit to die = ! tru? z !y did2 x seem$ too great a trial to fle% & blood3 yet ,i tru/ 0 ! ,"l to call me to x1 he w\ld give me /r5g? to be> x4 ,saturday #e4 ,i sp5t ! morn+ 9 writ+ lett]s to my de> fri5ds 9 ,antigua1 = :om ,i f9d ! mo/ t5d] affection4 ,o6 t we may all at l5g? meet ar\nd ! ?rone1 & /& at ! la/ day among ! %eep at 8 "r h&6 8,o t ea* 9 ! day ,( 8 com+1 might say1 ,i h f\ght my way ?ro'4 ,i h f9i%$ ! "w ?\ did/ give me to d40 ,sunday #f4 ,9 ! morn+ my ?\ghts 7 v w&]+ & my m9d mu* discompos$4 ,:5 ,i came up1 ,i read & writ my j\rnal1 & sp5t ! re/ ( ! morn+ com=tably4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i read ! exp]i5ce ( ,elizabe? ,we/4 ,may ,i l ! bee suck honey out ( e fl[]1 ga!r pr(it out ( e book ,i read1 e s]mon ,i he>1 & e occurr5ce 9 life1 let x seem ev] s trifl+4 ,! ev5+ text 0 ,isaiah lviii4 #a4 ,cry al\d & sp>e n1 c4 ,! prea*] %ew$ our transgressions 9 ! mo/ gl>+ col\rs1 & my own consci5ce convict$ me t ,i _h done all :i* he _h m5tion$1 & m too3 s t 7 ,i to be tri$ by works1 ,i c\ld n be sav$4 ,monday #g4 ,i f\nd my he>t rais$ 9 ?ankfulness = ! m]cies ( ! night pa/4 ,o = a cont9uance ( x6 ,surely _h ,i always a deep s5se ( ! innum]able obligations ,i owe to my ,almighty b5efactor1 x w\ld keep me f fall+ into _m ( ^? ?+s1 :i* are s preval5t ov] me4 ,"l give me a ?ankful he>t4 ,tuesday #h4 ,i awoke 9 a s]i\s frame1 b x did n cont9ue long2 = ,i yield$ too mu* to w&]+ ?\ghts1 :i* robb$ me ( t bless+4 ,"l make me m wat*ful = ! future6 ,9 ! ev5+ my uncle prea*$ a fun]al s]mon1 on1 ,x is appo9t$ unto m5 once to die1 c4 ,hebrews ix4 #bg4 ,my s\l 0 v mu* ble/1 & /irr$ up to seek ! ,"l1 b ,o h[ soon d my good resolutions die away4 ,!y are l ! morn+ cl\d1 & ! e>ly dew :i* passe? away4 ,"l /r5g!n1 & confirm !m4 ,w$nesday #i4 ,i f\nd my s\l 9 a v dead frame1 & cont9u$ s all ! day4 ,i may truly say1 8,my dr[sy p[]s :y sleep ye s8 ,awake my sluggi% s\l6 ,no?+ has half ?y "w to d4 ,yet no?+'s half s dull40 ,?\ ,god ( love quick5 my droop+ p[]s6 ,/ir up & awak5 my ins5sible s\l1 & give me to seek ?y face ) my :ole he>t6 ,& ,o be ?\ f\nd ( me6 ,?ursday #aj4 ,i 0 v cold & dead all ! day1 & f\nd nei!r p[]1 nor incl9ation1 to pray or read1 :i* ,i yield$ to2 & pass$ ! day )\t p]=m+ ei!r ( ^! duties4 ,o my ,god1 p>don my s9s ( omission1 z well z ^? ( commission4 ,!y are bo? z innum]able z ! hairs ( my head1 b ?y m]cies are /ill m4 ,friday #aa4 ,i 0 v busy ?is day ) sett+ my ?+s 9 ord]1 :i* 7 come f ,london1 & be+ 9 a hurry1 my m9d 0 n z /ay$ z ,i c\ld h wi%$4 ,o my ,god1 ga!r 9 my scatt]$ ?\ghts1 & let my m9d be fixt entire on !e6 ,saturday #ab4 ,i 0 enabl$1 bless$ be ! ,"l1 to be s]i\s & wat*ful4 ,9 ! ev5+1 ,mr4 ,rodda prea*$4 ,8 text 0 ,m>k xii4 #bd4 ,?\ art n f> f ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,i 0 mu* ble/ "u ! s]mon1 & my m9d 0 /ay$ on :at 0 deliv]$4 ,sunday #ac4 ,9 ! ev5+1 my uncle prea*$ on ,isaiah xxx4 #ba4 ,?is is ! way1 walk ye 9 x4 ,i f\nd my ?\ghts mu* compos$1 b be+ 9 great pa91 ,i c\ld n att5d1 z mu* z ,i f\nd myself incl9$ to d4 ,o h[ _m h9drances h we :ile bel[6 ,sometimes f ! _w1 sometimes f ! infirmities ( ! body2 & v (t5 f a corrupt he>t6 ,"l1 d ?\ arm me ) ?y ,_s's might1 & enable me to combat & ov]come1 all ! enemies ( my salvation4 ,monday #ad4 ,our class met at t5 z usual1 b my s\l 0 9 a v w&]+ dead frame1 & aft]w>ds ,i 0 light & trifl+2 ?is is ! natural consequ5ce ( ! o!r1 if n /rove aga9/4 ,tuesday #ae4 ,i 0 9 a v cold indiff]5t frame all ! day4 ,9 ! ev5+ :ile my uncle cate*is$ u1 su* a _s ( laught] came ^u u1 t we c\ld h>dly speak4 ,"l deliv] u f a light1 trifl+ _s1 z also f an unlov+1 disput+ _s4 8,mutual love ! tok5 be1 ,"l1 t we belong to !e40 ,9 ! ev5+ my uncle prea*$ on ,hosea xiv4 #a1 #b4 ,my s\l 0 ble/ especially 9 s++ ! la/ hymn1 9 :i* are ^! sweet words4 8,he'll nev] qu5* ! smok+ flax1 ,b raise x to a flame3 ,! bruis$ re$ he nev] breaks1 ,nor scorns ! meane/ "n40 ,w$nesday #af4 ,i arose ?is morn+ ) "s degree ( recollection & /ay$ness ^u my _s4 ,x p>tly cont9u$ all ! day2 b 9 ! ev5+1 yield+ to levity1 ,i lo/ x4 ,"l1 give me p[] ov] a trifl+ _s6 ,give me a cont9ual s5se ( ?y pres5ce6 ,!n ,i %all n easily yield to ?is or any o!r temptation4 ,i retir$ & read ! #c;d *apt] ( ,mat!w4 ,w5t to pray]1 & f\nd enl>gem5t 9 x4 ,?ursday #ag4 ,all ?is day ,i 0 9 a v disagreeable frame1 :i* ,i _c well describe4 ,i retir$1 read ! psalms1 & ! #d? ( ,mat!w4 ,o may ,i l our bless$ ,"l :5 tempt$1 answ] ! tempt] ) ! ^w ( ,god4 ,! text ?is ev5+ 0 ,isaiah liv4 #bb4 ,look unto me & be ye sav$4 ,my ?\ghts 7 v w&]+ all ! "t4 ,o :5 w my m9d be con/antly fix$ on1 & look+ to t glori\s object ( our fai? & love6 ,friday #ah4 ,my s\l 0 9 a cold dead frame1 & s x cont9u$ all ! day1 yea all ! week4 ,= ?o' ,i _c accuse myself ( ! omission ( any kn[n duty1 yet su* a total indiff]5cy ,i h n felt = "s "t4 ,o t ,god w\ld give me to see ! fatal cause1 ! accurs$ ?+ t keeps my he>t f him6 ,saturday #ai4 ,i 0 mu* 9 ! same /ate1 & felt n ! lea/ life 9 any duty till ev5+4 ,!n ! ,"l enabl$ me to p\r out my compla9ts into 8 compassionate bosom1 ) great enl>gem5t4 ,:5 ,mrs4 ,l4 met me1 ,i told h] my /ate1 %e advis$ me n to let my deadness disc\rage me1 b /ill to hold on 9 ! ways ( ! ,"l1 :o p]haps might be prov+ & try+ me to see if ,i w\ld d s or n4 ,?is gave me "s com=t1 & left me hopes t he w\ld at l5g? come & visit my s\l ) 8 salvation4 ,sunday #bj4 ,my uncle's text ?is ev5+ 0 ,luke xiii4 #c4 ,i tell ye nay1 b except ye rep5t1 ye %all all likewise p]i%4 ,! ^w came ) p[] to my he>t4 ,o ,god1 give me grace t ,i may n prove a =getful he>]1 b a do] ( ! ^w1 t s ,i may be bless$ 9 my de$4 ,monday #ba4 ,i f\nd a desire :5 ,i awoke to sp5d ! day to ! glory ( ,god1 & ,i made x my e>ne/ pray] to him t he w\ld enable me to d x4 ,i bless ,god1 t ?r\gh 8 grace ,i 0 s]i\s1 & f\nd my m9d /ay$ on him 9 "s measure4 ,o t ,i may always h a recollect$ _s6 ,?\ ,"l1 ha/ promis$ to keep him 9 p]fect peace ^: m9d is /ay$ on !e4 ,tuesday #bb4 ,my m9d 0 9 "s measure s]i\s1 b n z mu* z ! day be=e4 ,! text to-night 0 ,habakkuk ii4 #d4 ,! j %all live by 8 fai?4 ,my ?\ghts 7 mu* drawn (f on acc\nt ( my be+ to set ! tune1 le/ ,i %\ld =get x4 ,o h[ easily do? ! enemy get an advantage ov] me1 :5 ,i am n /&+ ^u my gu>d6 ,"l1 give me a wat*ful _s6 ,w$nesday #bc4 ,my s\l seem$ l a b>r5 wild]ness1 :]e no?+ b we$s & ?orns gr[2 no?+ b evil did ,i f9d 9 my he>t4 ,o my ,god1 give me ?yself2 !n %all ?is wild]ness become l a wat]$ g>d5 :i* ?\ ha/ plant$4 ,?ursday #bd4 ,i f\nd my m9d kept 9 a s]i\s frame all ! day1 bless$ be ,god4 ,friday #be4 ,i cont9u$ 9 a s]i\s frame1 :i* ,i bless ,god1 la/$ all ! day4 ,o h[ mu* sweet] is x to be 9 su* a /ate1 ?an to enjoy all t ! _w calls pleasure6 ,b inde$ x is only !y :o t]m x s4 ,! p ( ,god see !re is no pleasure 9 ^! fooli% ?+s2 = surely no?+ c satisfy an immortal s\l creat$ = ! enjoym5t ( ,god1 b ,god himself4 ,saturday #bf4 ,i h reason to praise ! ,"l1 t ,i f\nd my s\l /ill s]i\s2 ?is ,i acc\nt a great bless+1 especially to me1 :o am naturally ( su* a trifl+ _s4 ,monday #bh4 ,:5 ,i awoke1 my ?\ghts 7 /ill /ay$1 & ,i bless ,god1 ,i 0 9 a s]i\s frame all ! day4 ,o my s\l1 if ?\ had/ always an awful s5se ( ! div9e pres5ce1 ?\ w\lde/ be always s]i\s & recollect$1 = x is impossible t a s\l :i* consid]s ,god is pres5t %\ld d>e to behave 9 a trifl+ mann] be=e 8 awful maje/y4 ,?ursday #ca4 ,! ev5+ text 0 ,mat!w xi4 #bh4 ,come unto me all ye t are heavy lad51 c4 ,my m9d 0 tak5 up ) obs]v+ a g5tleman & lady :o 7 laugh+ & talk+ toge!r all ! s]mon "t4 ,"l =give my s9 & lay x n to my *>ge4 ,friday ,febru>y #a4 ,my m9d 0 mu* /ay$ on ! ?+s ( ,god :5 ,i awoke & x cont9u$ s all ! day4 ,saturday #b4 ,my s\l 0 mu* alive ?is day1 & ,i 0 giv5 to see m cle>ly ?an ev]1 ! my/]y ( iniquity :i* is 9 my he>t4 ,o ?\ :o se>*e/ & trie/ ! re9s ( ! *ildr5 ( m51 give me to see m & m ( ! s9fulness ( x1 & d ?\ wa% & cleanse x 9 ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,monday #d4 ,?is morn+ we exp]i5c$ ,god's provid5tial c>e ov] u2 = ! *imney ( ! little p>l\r took fire1 & might h done great mis*ief _h x n be5 discov]$ 9 "t4 ,?us ! ,"l took c>e ( u :]e we knew ( no dang]1 & c\ld n take c>e ( ourselves4 8:50 replac$ ) 8:]e0 p] ,errata ,?ursday #g4 ,?is day my uncle1 & ,miss ,he sat out ha/ily = ,bri/ol1 :]e my ,aunt ,bly 0 9 great di/ress1 ,mr4 ,bly hav+ di$ sudd5ly1 & left h] among /rang]s1 ) :om %e 0 q unacqua9t$ till )9 ?ree or f\r weeks4 ,o h[ _m un=ese5 tr\bles are we liable to1 :i* are all s _m calls to u1 to lay up our he>t & treasure above4 870 replac$ ) 8:]e0 ,sunday #aj4 ,mr4 ,rodda prea*$ on ,mat!w iii4 #aj4 ,! disc\rse1 bless$ be ,god1 came ) p[] to my s\l4 ,o ,"l give me ! he>+ e>1 ! see+ eye1 & ! und]/&+ he>t4 ,monday #aa4 ,?is morn+ be+ to be tak5 measure (f = our m\rn+1 we 7 oblig$ to g out1 :i* dissipat$ my ?\ghts v mu*4 ,o :at a little s]ves to draw our m9ds f ,god6 ,b alas !y are n s easily drawn (f o!r ?+s2 su* enemies are we to ourselves4 ,tuesday #ab4 ,my ?\ghts 7 pretty mu* /ay$ ?is day1 & ,i 0 enabl$ to resi/ a temptation n to g to pray] because ! wea!r 0 cold1 & ,i 0 unwill+ to leave ! fire4 ,w$nesday #ac4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i read ,miss ,coop]'s life & lett]s4 ,!n we all joyn$ 9 pray]4 ,my s\l 0 ble/ & enl>g$ 9 t duty4 ,:5 ,i 0 9 b$1 ,i took a review ( my pa/ life1 & f\nd reason to humble myself be=e ,god1 = my unfai?fulness 9 n mak+ a bett] use ( 8 _m m]cies to me4 ,b ,o may ,i n[ beg9 & s]ve & love him all my days4 ,monday #ah1 ,tuesday #ai4 ,my s\l 0 9 a s]i\s & yet dead frame ^! days4 ,o may ,i improve e /ate ,i am 92 & make ! v temptations ( ! enemy1 s]ve z weapons to fight aga9/ him )4 ,?us %all ,i by ?r[+ 8 d>ts back ^u 8 own head1 =ce him to fly f me4 duplicate ^w 8z0 remov$ ,?ursday #ba4 ,i 0 9 a com=table frame ( _s ?is day4 ,9 ! ev5+ :il/ ,i 0 conv]s+ ) my si/]s & c\s9s ^u religion1 ,i f\nd my s\l greatly ble/2 & ,i 0 mu* enl>g$ aft]w>ds 9 pray+ ) !m1 bless$ be ,god4 ,sunday #bd4 ,i f9i%$ writ+ ! life ( t excell5t man1 ,mr4 ,black]by2 ,o may ,i live 8 life1 die 8 dea?1 & be 9 ! place :]e d\btless he n[ is4 ,!re ,i %all be free f all impurity1 all sorr[1 all s91 & be et]nally out ( ! rea* ( dea?4 ,monday1 ,tuesday1 & ,w$nesday4 ,i 0 9 a s]i\s1 ?o' dead frame4 ,"l1 quick51 /r5g!n1 & com=t me by ?y ^w1 & _s4 99,?ursday #bh4 ,0 my bir?-day4 ,i f\nd a desire1 & resolution1 to be m devot$ to ,god ! ensu+ ye>1 ?an ,i 0 ! =ego+4 ,o may ! ,"l enable me to p]=m my resolutions4 ,i also f\nd s]i\s reflections on ! %ortness ( life1 & ?ankfulness to ,god1 = sp>+ me to see f\rte5 ye>s4 ,o may ,i let ^! reflections h _! due weight1 & influ5ce on all my conduct = ! "t to come4 ,& always consid] t 8,my life is a dream1 ,my "t z a /ream1 ,glides swiftly away3 ,& ! fugitive mom5ts = no "o w /ay40 ,"l1 d ?\ give me s to numb] my days1 t ,i may apply my he>t unto wisdom4 ,saturday1 ,m>* #b4 ,my uncle return$ home1 & ) him my aunt ,bly1 :om ,i 0 mu* rejoic$ to see4 ,saturday #i4 ,?is ev5+ poor ,mrs4 ,l1 0 tak5 extreamly ill4 ,x br\ght _m s]i\s reflections to my m9d4 ,well may we say1 9 ! mid/ ( life we are 9 dea?4 ,o may ,i always consid] ?is & nev] yield to levity1 or any ?+ :i* is displeas+ to a ,god ( ! /ricte/ purity1 :o may /rike me dead 9 a mom5t2 & s9ce ,i may die ?is day1 let me sp5d ?is & e o!r z ?o' x 7 my la/4 ,sunday #ag4 ,at night z ,i sat by ! fire-side1 ,i f\nd my s\l ble/1 & _m s]i\s reflections br\ght to my m9d1 :i* cont9u$ till ,i w5t to b$4 ,monday #ah4 ,i awoke 9 mu* ! same /ate1 & cont9u$ s all ! day1 bless$ be ,god4 ,tuesday #ai4 ,! text ?is ev5+ 0 ,john v4 #h4 ,wilt ?\ be made :ole8 ,my he>t seem$ to reply1 ,yea1 ,"l1 ,i w if ?\ wilt3 & ( ?is ,i ne$ n d\bt2 = ?\ art always m ready to give1 ?an ,i am to receive4 ,o t ?\ w\ld'/ ev] 8,make me will+ to receive1 ,all ?y goodness waits to give40 duplicate ^w 8to0 remov$ 8w\d'/0 replac$ ) 8w\ld'/0 ,saturday #bc4 ,my s\l 0 mu* ble/1 & my he>t rais$ 9 ?ankfulness = ! _m m]cies ,i h receiv$ at ! h&s ( my m]ciful ,god3 at ! same "t ,i 0 humbl$ "u a s5se ( ! ungrateful returns ,i h made him4 8,:5 all ! m]cies ( my ,god ,my ris+ s\l surveys1 ,:y1 my cold he>t1 art ?\ n lo/1 ,9 wond]1 love1 & praise40 ,sunday #bd4 ,mr4 ,murry1 prea*$ f ,numb]s xxiii4 #aj4 ,let me die ! dea? ( ! righte\s1 c4 ,o may ,i n only die 8 dea?1 b also live 8 life2 = inde$ 'tis impossible to d ! =m]1 unless we fir/ d ! latt]4 ,saturday #cj4 ,mr4 ,fl1 9 ! ev5+ prea*$ on ,john xx4 #ai4 ,peace be unto y4 ,?o' ,i 0 mu* tempt$ ) dr[s9ess "u ! ^w1 yet "s p>ts ( x 7 greatly ble/ to me4 ,he aft]w>ds met ! society1 & told !m1 t 9 sev]al places bo? 9 ?is r\nd1 & o!rs1 numb]s 7 conv9c$ & br\ght to ,*ri/4 ,o may ,i be "o6 8,into t happy numb]1 ,"l1 ,a we>y s9n] take1 ,jesus1 fulfil ?y graci\s ^w1 ,= ?y own m]cy's sake40 ,sunday #ca4 ,i sp5t ! morn+ 9 read+ ! eight la/ *apt]s ( ,romans1 & ,mr4 ,wesley's notes ^u !m4 ,inde$ ,i ?9k !y are a mo/ beautiful "p ( ! scripture4 ,o t !y & e o!r "p ( t holy book may be writt5 ^u my he>t4 ,sunday1 ,april #g4 ,0 ,ea/]-day4 ,i 0 prev5t$ f he>+ ! s]mon by a viol5t too?-a*4 ,o h[ _m pa9s are we subject to :ile 9 ?is mortal life6 ,b :5 ?is mortal %all put on immortality1 :at a glori\s *ange %all we und]go8 ,"l1 let ?is *ange pass ^u me1 & to t end let me n[ rise f a dea? ( s9 unto a life ( righte\sness4 8,?y resurrection's p[] imp>t1 ,& rise triumphant 9 my he>t40 ,?ursday #aa4 ,at noon1 we _h ! pleasure ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,john ,wesley's company to d9n]2 & 9 ! ev5+ he prea*$ on ,j]emiah viii4 #bb4 ,is !re no balm 9 ,gilead1 c4 ,8 conv]sation 0 v edify+1 & ,god ble/ x to my poor s\l4 ,friday #ab4 ,at five 9 ! morn+1 ,mr4 ,wesley prea*$ on ,psalms lxxxiv4 #a4 ,h[ amiable are ?y tab]nacles1 ,o ,"l ( ho/s4 ,at night we took leave ( him1 & ( my uncle1 aunt1 & ,mrs4 ,l4 ,^! at "o 9 ! morn+ set out = ,liv]pool1 & he at five = ,newca/le-^u-,tyne4 ,sunday #ad4 ,i f\nd my m9d mu* oppress$ ) p]plex+ ?\ghts conc]n+ my de> p>5ts4 ,b :y1 ,o my s\l1 do/ ?\ suff] ^! anxi\s c>es to oppress ?y tr\bl$ brea/8 ,is n ! ,god :o gave me ^! t5d] p>5ts at lib]ty to take !m f me8 ,& is he n able to raise me up fri5ds 9 _! room8 ,besides1 ?is is c>+ = ! morr[4 ,is x n "t en\gh to make myself uneasy :5 ! trial comes1 )\t anticipat+ :at may nev] be8 ,!n1 ,o my s\l1 tru/ ?\ 9 ,god3 = he w be ! help ( my c\nt5ance1 & my ,god4 ,saturday #bj4 ,i 0 all ?is day 9 a fretful frame1 :i* ,i too mu* yield$ to4 ,o ,god1 give me p[] ov] ?is1 & e o!r easily besett+ s94 ,sunday #ba4 ,i read a lett] ( ,miss ,bts to ,mr4 ,wesley1 conc]n+ ! mann] ( h] br++ up ! poor *ildr5 t %e has tak54 ,9 :i* ,i c\ld n help obs]v+ ! p[] ( fai?4 ,h[ has %e surm\nt$ e difficulty t /ood 9 h] way4 ,o may ,i l h] live by fai?1 till ,i %all g to live 8,:]e fai? is sweetly lo/ 9 sight1 ,& hope 9 full supream delight1 ,& ev]la/+ love40 ,monday #bb4 ,expect+ our fri5ds home f ,liv]pool1 ,miss ,he1 & ,i sat up to receive !m2 ab\t twelve at night !y came v mu* fatigu$4 ,!y in=m$ u ( a n>r[ escape !y _h met )2 ! coa* !y 7 9 0 ov]turn$ ) six p 9 x1 & "s on ! outside3 yet n "o 0 hurt4 ,surely ! provid5ce ( ,god 0 ov] !m = good4 ,i soon got to b$ sleepy en\gh1 & :5 asleep1 ,i dreamt a v p>ticul> dream3 99,i ?\ght ,mrs4 ,l bid my c\s9 ,a1 & me look out at a w9d[1 & we %\ld see an angel1 :o w\ld tell u com=table news4 ,we did1 & aft] "s "t we saw a bright />1 :i* grew bright] & bright]1 till an angel appe>$ exce$+ly beautiful & maje/ic4 ,z he came ne>] ,i 0 q ov]:elm$ at 8 pres5ce1 & c\ld sc>ce look at him1 8 lu/re s dazzl$ my eyes4 ,:5 he approa*$ me1 ,i ?\ght ,i fa9tly utt]$ ^! words2 8,speak1 ,"l1 ?y s]vant he>e?40 ,at ?is he said1 8,! ,"l has s5t me to tell y1 t all y\r s9s are =giv51 & w nev] be rememb]$ aga9/ y any m1 unless y fall aga9 into s94 ,he has blott$ out y\r transgressions1 & ca/ !m beh9d 8 back40 ,i imm$iately said1 ,h[ c ^! ?+s be8 ,c ,i1 :o am s great a s9n]1 & h nev] truly rep5t$ be =giv58 ,he answ]$2 8,) ,god no?+ is impossible4 ,cont9ue wait+ ^u ,god 9 8 appo9t$ way1 & y w soon f9d ! tru? ( ^! promises30 ,he spoke mu* to me conc]n+ my unbelief1 & !n sudd5ly disappe>$1 leav+ me q ov]:elm$1 b mu* com=t$4 ,o t my dream may be %ortly fulfill$4 ,saturday #bg4 ,i 0 9 a v cold dead frame all ! day1 & :5 ,i retir$ to pray] 9 ! ev5+1 ,i f\nd no life1 b /ill ,i _h ! bless+ ( wait+ ^u ,god1 & an e>ne/ desire & pant+ 9 my s\l = fai?1 ?o' ,i c\ld n utt] a ^w4 ,"l1 let me nev] re/ till ,i get ?is pe>l ( great price into my possession2 !n %all ,i be truly happy1 & n till !n4 ,sunday1 ,may #e4 ,my uncle met ! society1 & in=m$ !m ( 8 be+ to leave !m soon4 ,! sorr[ t sat on e c\nt5ance w\ld h drawn te>s f any ones eyes1 :o c\ld 9 ! lea/ sympa?ize ) ano!r's grief4 ,o ,"l :at is man6 ,h[ v>i\s1 h[ un=ese51 (t5 are ! *anges ( ?is %ort life6 ,"l1 prep>e me = :atev] ?\ ha/ 9 ?y wisdom prep>$ = me4 ,monday #f4 ,we 7 9 a great hurry 9 pack+ up all ! day1 & at night sat up till twelve o'clock4 ,hav+ a viol5t cold1 ,i 0 q disord]$ all ! next day1 s z n to be able to read or pray1 or d any ?+ else z ,i w\ld4 ,o h[ does ?is corruptible body press d[n ! s\l6 ,b :5 x %all escape f ?is prison ( clay1 & w+ its way to ! mansions ( et]nal joy2 h[ w x exult 9 ! glori\s *ange1 & rejoice 9 be+ deliv]$ f ?is dungeon :i* has s long clogg$ x ) its manifold infirmities6 ,?ursday #i4 ,9 ! aft]noon we w5t ) ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,wh to ! old ca/le on ! top ( ! hill1 :]e x seems ,lady ,ca!r9e ,p>r1 ! la/ wife ( ,k+ ,h5ry ! ,,viii4 0 born4 ,inde$ x is a v5]able ru91 & /rongly %ews :at all worldly gr&eur mu/ come to4 ,o t ,i & all t are ne> & de> to me1 may nev] desire su* fad+ transitory enjoym5ts6 ,b may we seek = & obta9 a h\se n made ) h&s1 et]nal 9 ! heav5s4 8,j]usalem1 ! sa9t's abode1 ,^: f\nd] is ! liv+ ,god40 ,monday #ac4 ,i bless ,god1 ,i f\nd my s\l 9 a v s]i\s frame ?is day1 hav+ a measure ( ! _s ( pray]4 ,o may x always cont9ue6 99,9 ! aft]noon we took a walk to ! m\nt1 :i* 0 ?r[n up to batt] d[n ! old ca/le on ! top ( ! hill4 ,x 0 delightfully pleasant to see all ! gre5 fields & ! little lonely h\ses t /& !re4 ,i c\ld h lik$ to /ay !re all ! aft]noon1 ! wea!r 0 s calm & s]5e1 & all nature seem$ lively & sprightly4 ,o 0 my s\l b illum9at$ by ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness z ?is e>? is by ! mat]ial sun6 ,h[ happy1 h[ unspeakably happy1 w\ld x be 9 ! possession ( su* a bless+6 8,if ?is felicity 7 m9e1 ,i e o!r w\ld resign1 ,) j & holy scorn3 ,*e>ful & bli! my way pursue1 ,& ) ! promis$ l& 9 view1 ,s++ to ,god return40 ,tuesday #ad4 ,i f\nd my s\l 9 a s]i\s frame all ! day long1 bless$ be ,god :o kept me s4 ,?ursday #af4 ,i f\nd my s\l alive4 ,my uncle's text 0 ,god is love4 #a ,john xvi4 #d4 ,friday #ag4 ,i /ill cont9u$ 9 "s measure ble/4 ,"l increase ! sp>k & let x gr[ into a flame6 ,saturday #ah4 ,i 0 mu* tempt$ to levity1 :i* ,i gave way to4 ,b :ile ,mr4 ,ck 0 prea*+ 9 ! ev5+ f ^! words1 ,o ,israel ?\ ha/ de/roy$ ?yself3 b 9 me is ?9e help4 ,hosea xiii4 #i4 ,my s\l 0 mu* refre%$1 & aft]w>ds ,i 0 enabl$ to wat* aga9/ e ?+ t might deprive me ( x1 s t ,i lay d[n1 & rose ) x aga9 ! next morn+1 all ?anks be ascrib$ to ,god1 = _h ,i be5 left to myself1 ,i %\ld und\bt$ly h lo/ x imm$iately4 ,sunday #ai4 ,i awoke 9 ! same wat*ful _s1 & an eag] desire = fai?1 :i* ,i 0 enabl$ to pray = ) great e>ne/ness4 ,monday #bj4 ,i yield$ s mu* to levity1 t x 0 ) difficulty ,i =c$ myself to duty1 & :5 ,i did1 ,i 0 q cold & dead1 & my ?\ghts 7 w&]+ on "s fooli% ?+ or o!r4 ,o ,god deliv] me f a trifl+ _s4 ,tuesday #ba4 ,i f\nd myself ?\ghtful & s]i\s 9 ! morn+1 b 9 ! aft]noon ,i 0 ov]come by levity4 ,o h[ soon am ,i drawn (f :at is good8 ,b h[ difficult d ,i f9d x to prevail ) myself to =sake ! evil8 ,= (t5 :5 ! ,"l %ews me ! error ( my ways1 ?\gh = ! pres5t ,i feel sorr[ & regret1 yet ! next temptation t (f]s f9ds me ready to comply ) x2 & ?is d\btless ,i %\ld always d1 did n ,god 9 t mom5t /ep 9 & h9d] me by 8 re/ra9+ grace2 su* a prop5sity h ,i to d t :i* grieves my ,god & w\nds my own consci5ce4 ,saturday #be4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i retir$1 & ent]+ into a /rict self-exam9ation1 ,i f\nd ,i mu/ own ) ! royal ,psalmi/1 my inw>d p>ts are v wick$ness4 ,i saw cle>ly t ,i _h brok5 e comm&m5t1 !re=e 7 ,i to be tri$ by ! law ( works ,i mu/ et]nally p]i%4 ,i mu/ come ) ! ,publican1 cry+1 ,god be m]ciful to me a s9n]4 ,h[ truly might ,i say1 8,no good ^w1 or "w1 or ?\ght1 ,h ,i to buy ?y grace1 ,m]cy ,i accept unb\ght1 ,?y pr(] ,i embrace40 99,sunday #bf4 ,9 ! aft]noon we w5t to ,mrs4 ,cs to see ! corpse ( h] daught]4 ,i 0 n at all %ock$ at ! sight1 b x br\ght _m s]i\s reflections to my m9d4 ,h[ is %e :o n _m mon?s ago 0 9 all ! bloom & vig\r ( y\?1 cut d[n l a fl[]6 ,s1 j s1 ?\ght ,i1 mu/ ,i %ortly be3 ,i mu/ die1 be /ret*$ 9 a c(f91 & laid 9 ! sil5t grave1 & %ortly x w be =got ev5 by my ne>e/ & de>e/ fri5ds1 t !re 0 ev] su* a p]son4 ,o may ?is awful ?\ght nev] be abs5t f my m9d6 ,h[ w x less5 my e/eem = all ^! p]i%+ enjoym5ts6 ,h[ w x make me sp5d e preci\s mom5t1 9 prep>ation = a nev]-end+ et]nity6 ,may ! ,"l grant t :5 dea? comes1 he may n appe> z a k+ ( t]rors1 b l a welcome mess5g] s5t to c>ry me to my ,fa!r's h\se4 ,sunday ,june #b4 ,9 ! ev5+ my uncle prea*$ 8 f>well s]mon on ,acts xx4 #bg4 ,i h n %unn$ to decl>e unto y ! :ole c\nsel ( ,god4 ,he repeat$ briefly ! doctr9e :i* he _h taught !m1 & exhort$ !m to take he$1 lea/ ! ^w %\ld rise up 9 judgem5t aga9/ !m 9 ! la/ day4 ,o may x n aga9/ me6 ,= alas z yet ,i h be5 a b>r5 fig-tree4 ,well may ,i say1 8,long h ,i sat b5ea? ! s\nd ,( ?y salvation ,"l1 ,b /ill h[ weak my fai? is f\nd1 ,& k ( ?y ^w40 ,"l let x be no long] s ) me1 b may ,i n[ be> fruit to ?y glory4 ,tuesday #d4 ,we 7 call$ up at half an h\r aft] "o1 & at a qu>t] pa/ two1 set out on our j\rney to ,*e/]4 ,:5 we came ne> ,lanca/]1 our coa*man _h l twice to h ov]turn$ u4 ,at sev5 we breakfa/$ !re1 at "o d9$ at ,pre/on1 & at n9e 9 ! ev5+ rea*$ ,mr4 ,as h\se 9 ,w>r+ton4 ,we soon got to b$ truly fatigu$1 & ,i slept till six 9 ! morn+ )\t ev] wak+1 or mov+ out ( ! po/ure ,i lay myself 9 :5 ,i w5t to b$4 ,ab\t eight on ,w$nesday morn+1 we set out aga91 & _h a delightful j\rney ! re/ ( ! way to ,*e/]1 :]e we arriv$ ab\t noon4 ,9 ! aft]noon we took a walk r\nd ! walls4 ,y h "h an ext5sive prospect ( a f9e op5 c\ntry1 f> unlike ! b>r5 ,k5dal m\nta9s4 ,we !n walk$ to ! dock1 & f !nce to ! prea*+-h\se4 ,mr4 ,gd prea*$ on ,mat!w ix4 #bb4 ,daught] be ( good com=t1 c4 ,i f\nd my s\l humbl$ "u a s5se ( my own vil5ess1 & fix$ a resolution to set out a fre% 9 ! n>r[ way ( hol9ess1 if ! ,"l w give me /r5g?2 = )\t he does1 all my resolutions w be 9 va94 ,sunday #i4 ,mr4 ,gd prea*$1 met ! society & spoke to ! *ildr54 ,i f\nd my s\l ble/4 ,o may x be a la/+ bless+1 & n l a gue/ :i* t>rie? b a day4 ,monday #aj4 ,9 ! aft]noon we w5t to see ! infirm>y4 ,ev]y?+ is neat & clean ab\t x4 ,i f\nd a ?ankfulness to ,god1 t he _h kept me f all ^! disord]s t o!rs h4 ,o may my life be s+ul>ly good1 z he has be5 s s+ul>ly m]ciful to me4 ,i exp]i5ce m]cies t v few o!rs h2 :i* x w\ld be almo/ impossible to enum]ate4 ,h[ few h su* p>5ts1 :o f my e>lie/ days h in/ruct$ me h[ to fe> & love ,god6 ,h[ _m are tortur$ ) brok5 limbs1 & depriv$ ( _! sight1 :il/ ,i am pres]v$ f all ^!1 & kept 9 heal?1 /r5g?1 & ! full ex]cise ( my reason4 ,_m m m]cies ,i am indebt$ = to my graci\s ,b5efactor2 h[ truly may ,i say1 8,n m ?an o!rs ,i des]ve1 ,yet ,god ha? giv5 me m1 ,= ,i h food :il/ o!rs />ve1 ,or beg f door to door40 ,?ursday #ac4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i set out ) my uncle1 aunt1 ,mrs4 ,l1 & "s o!r fri5ds1 to g to a little village call$ ,crisl+ton1 ab\t two miles out ( ! t[n1 :]e my uncle 0 to prea*4 ,we _h a v pleasant walk1 & w5t to see ! delightfulle/1 ?\gh odde/ contriv$ g>d5 t ,i ev] saw4 ,! own] ( x is ! ,rector ( t place1 b "o w\ld ?9k by ! mann] ( 8 lay+ x out1 t he _h v little else to ?9k (4 ,"s "p ( x repres5ts a field ( battle1 a g5]al's t5t1 ) cannons all r\nd x1 a m\nt1 a t[]1 a draw-bridge1 & e ?+ to resemble a camp ( soldi]s4 ,! o!r p>ts ( ! g>d5 are laid out 9 ! same peculi> ta/e4 ,tuesday #ah4 ,at private pray]s 9 ! morn+1 ,i _h p[] to pray p>ticul>ly aga9/ my besett+ s9s1 & bless$ be ,god1 ,i d 9 "s measure ov]come !m4 ,inde$ he is a ,god1 bo? he>+ & answ]+ pray]4 ,9 ! aft]noon we _h a deal ( company1 & !y be+ good s+]s1 pa/ away ! "t v agreeably4 ,mr4 ,bt p]suad$ my aunt1 ,mrs4 ,l1 ,miss ,h & myself to g to 8 class1 :i* we did ^u 8 promis+ n to speak to u4 ,i l 8 mann] mu*1 & ,i ?9k ,i 0 pr(it$ by x4 ,friday #ba4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i w5t to ! *apel2 !re 0 no prea*+1 b a private meet+4 ,hav+ be5 mu* refre%$1 especially 9 ! s++ t hymn ,wre/l+ ,jacob1 ,i _h no reason to rep5t go+4 ,my desires 7 mu* enl>g$ aft] ,god1 ) a hatr$ to s94 ,o t ,i may inde$ =sake x1 & hate x z deadly poison6 ,sunday #bc4 ,9 ! morn+ we w5t to ! new *apel4 ,mr4 ,h op5$ x1 8 text 0 9 #b ,*ronicles vi4 #da4 ,let ?y ,prie/s ,o ,"l ,god1 be cloa!d ) salvation1 & let ?y sa9ts rejoice 9 goodness4 ,he conclud$ ) say+1 t z ,god _h giv5 u a m conv5i5t place to wor%ip him 91 we ought 9 gratitude to let our lives & conv]sations be m exempl>y ?an ev] be=e4 ,monday #bd1 & ,tuesday #be4 ,i sp5t mo/ "p ( ^! days 9 retirem5t1 my m9d 0 mu* compos$1 & my ?\ghts /ay$ on ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,w$nesday #bf4 ,?is aft]noon we came to our own h\se4 ,i sp5t ! ev5+ 9 a little room by myself4 ,i f\nd enl>gem5t 9 pray]1 & my s\l mu* ble/4 ,?ursday #bg4 ,:5 ,i retir$ 9 ! morn+ to private pray]1 ,i exp]i5c$ great p[] & sweetness 9 ! duty4 ,my m9d 0 kept 9 a s]i\s frame1 till ,i w5t out ( my *amb]1 :5 ,i gave way to frett+4 ,o h[ _m temptations are we liable to6 ,& :ile we endeav\r to %un "o1 we (t5 fall into ano!r4 ,:5 ,i avoid levity1 ,i too (t5 fall into frett+4 ,we h ne$ to h ! wisdom ( ! s]p5t ) ! h>mlessness ( ! dove4 ,friday #bh1 & ,saturday #bi4 ,7 sp5t com=tably4 ,i _h great sweetness 9 pray]1 & mu* ( ! _s ( x4 ,sunday #cj4 ,i ta/$ ! good ^w ( ,god 9 read+ ! #aa? *apt] ( ! ,hebrews4 ,o h[ mu* did ^? excell5t ones ( ! e>? endure = _! bless$ ,ma/]1 :ile ,i :o h e means ( enc\ragem5t ,i c desire1 7& f> m ?an ,i des]ve7 am c>eless & sup9e 9 work+ out my own salvation4 ,b s9ce ?\ ha/ conv9c$ me ( my error1 ,o ,"l1 d ?\ help me to am5d x1 & let me n[ turn to !e1 ) all my he>t & s\l4 ,tuesday1 ,july #b1 & ,w$nesday #c4 ,bo? ^! days ,i 0 ill & 9 viol5t pa94 ,on ,?ursday morn+ ,i endeav\r$ to look to ,god1 & 0 reliev$4 ,o h[ good is he to me1 ! unwor?ie/ ( 8 creatures4 ,"l give me a ?ankful he>t4 ,i 0 h9d]$ go+ to prea*+ all ?is week1 by reason ( a viol5t cold4 ,b if t 0 sanctifi$1 ,i h ne$ to be ?ankful1 & to bless ,god = afflict+ me4 ,saturday #bj4 ,?o' ,i 0 v busy all ! morn+1 my m9d 0 kept 9 a s]i\s pray+ frame4 ,"l make me truly ?ankful = ?is m]cy6 ,sunday #ba4 ,we w5t to ,/4 ,john's *ur*4 ,i f\nd my s\l ble/ at ! sacram5t1 & felt an e>ne/ desire = fai?4 ,o may x always cont9ue6 8,"l give me fai?20 ,be all my cry2 & he t gives me ! desire1 w fulfil x4 ,w$nesday #bd4 ,9 ! ev5+ we w5t d[n to my aunt ,bs1 :]e we p>t$ ) my de> fri5d ,miss ,h4 ,i 0 mu* conc]n$ at tak+ leave1 b ,i com=t$ myself ) ! hope ( see+ h] soon aga93 if we %\ld n meet aga9 9 ?is vale ( te>s1 may we meet :]e cry+1 & pa91 & dea? are ov]4 ,tuesday #cj4 ,i 0 9 a lukew>m frame all ! day1 b 9 ! ev5+ z my uncle & o!rs 7 speak+ _! /ates to "o ano!r1 ,i c\ld sc>ce help %$d+ te>s1 to ?9k ,i _h made s little use ( all ! means ,i enjoy4 ,:5 ,i came up to b$1 ,i f\nd a great e>ne/ness = fai?1 :i* ,i pray$ = ) some?+ ( a confid5ce t ,i %\ld receive1 till unbelief /ept 93 !n ,i ?\ght ,i _h n rep5t$ en\gh1 _h n =sak5 my s9s long en\gh1 & at la/ ,i yield$1 rose f my knees1 & lo/ ! bless+ :i* ,i might h receiv$1 _h ,i held on4 ,may ,i le>n m wisdom = ! future1 & :5 ,i get su* a preci\s mom5t1 improve x1 & n s %amefully yield to ! enemy ( my s\l4 ,sunday1 ,augu/ #d4 ,i w5t to *ur*1 & 0 mu* ble/1 p>ticul>ly at ! sacram5t4 ,friday #af4 ,we _h ! pleasure ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,john ,wesley's company to tea1 & 9 ! ev5+ he prea*$ on #b ,cor9?ians vi4 #b4 ,n[ is ! accept$ "t3 n[ is ! day ( salvation4 ,sunday #ah4 ,9 ! morn+ ,mr4 ,wesley prea*$ on ,m>k ix4 #bc4 ,my s\l 0 exce$+ly ble/4 ,he seem$ to speak z exactly to my /ate1 z if ,i _h m5tion$ x to him4 ,he answ]$ e objection t has (t5times occurr$ to my m9d aga9/ believ+1 & !n gave me enc\ragem5t to come to ,*ri/1 & believe 9 him4 ,b :5 ,i came home1 my m9d 0 mu* hurri$1 s t ,i lo/ ! bless+ ,i _h receiv$4 ,o6 h[ unfai?ful h ,i hi!rto be51 to ! manifold fav\rs ,god has be/[$ on me6 ,"l p>don ! pa/1 & make me m fai?ful = ! future4 ,monday #ai4 ,i 0 mu* disord]$ ) a viol5t cold 9 my head1 & s ,i cont9u$ all ,tuesday & ,w$nesday1 t ,i sc>ce c\ld read1 or pray1 or d any ?+ else1 z ,i w\ld h done4 ,b prais$ be ,god1 my m9d 0 kept 9 a sweet compos$ frame1 & ,i _h mu* ( ! _s ( pray]4 ,o ! goodness ( ,god to me1 ! mo/ unwor?y ( 8 creatures6 ,me1 :o h s (t5 s9n$ aga9/ him6 ,"l write ! law ( gratitude on my he>t6 ,on ,w$nesday our class met = ! fir/ "t4 ,al?o' x 0 some?+ ( a cross1 ,i exp]i5c$ ! goodness ( ,god4 ,w$nesday #bh4 ,9 ! ev5+ our class met aga93 ?anks be to ,god1 ,i 0 9 a compos$ frame1 & _h my m9d /ay$ on him2 z inde$ x _h be5 all ! day1 & all ! week4 ,?ursday #bi4 ,9 ! aft]noon we w5t ) ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,bt to ,eaton by wat]1 to see ,"l ,grosv5or's seat4 ,we _h a p>cel ( ob/9ate m5 9 ! boat1 :o knew no?+ ( ! sea1 & yet w\ld h _! own way1 :i* r5d]$ :at might h be5 o!rwise pleasant1 v disagreeable4 ,! g>d5s are extremely pleasant1 & f> surpass any ?+ ,i h ev] se54 ,my m9d 0 fixt on ,god1 :ile ,i 0 9 ! boat1 & ,i _h su* a confid5ce 9 him1 t ,i don't "k ,i felt fe> arise once ! :ole "t4 ,sunday1 ,septemb] #a4 ,at *ur* ,i felt great e>ne/ness = ! bless+4 8,au?or ( fai?1 to !e ,i lift ,my we>y1 long+ eyes3 ,o let me n[ receive t gift1 ,my s\l )\t x dies40 ,w$nesday #d4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 v cold & dead4 ,o my ,god1 let me nev] give way to a lukew>m _s1 = ?is ( all ?+s1 ,i f9d hurtful to my s\l1 & x too (t5 br+s on levity1 :i* to me is sl[ poison4 ,x does n appe> he9\s z "s o!r s9s d1 b /eals ^u me unaw>es4 ,& :5 ,i am once d[n1 x is n an easy matt] to rise aga94 ,!re=e let me be 8,always /&+ on my gu>d1 ,& wat*+ unto pray]40 ,monday #i4 ,i 0 mu* ble/ ?is day1 & my desires aft] ! bless+ mu* quick5$2 ?anks be to ,god4 ,9 ! ev5+ we w5t to *apel1 ,mr4 ,m prea*$ f ,luke vi4 #ai4 ,he is b a "y prea*]1 yet ,i l him mu* bett] ?an _m o!rs1 & "s p>ts ( ! s]mon 7 ble/ to me4 ,w$nesday #aa4 ,at night :ile ,i 0 meet+ 9 class1 my s\l 0 mu* refre%$1 & ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld n give up t sp>k1 small z x 01 = all ! _w's ri*es4 ,& if ! =eta/e be s sweet1 ,o :at mu/ ! full enjoym5t be8 ,"l z ?\ ha/ giv5 me ?is desire1 ,o fulfil x6 ,let me nev] re/1 till ,i am made a joyful p>tak] ( ! inh]itance ( ! sa9ts 9 light4 ,?ursday #ab4 ,bless$ be ,god my s\l 0 mu* alive ?is day also1 & ,i 0 mu* quick5$ "u my uncle's prea*+ 9 ! ev5+4 ,sunday #ae4 ,?is morn+ ,mr4 ,ms made an exce$+ f9e disc\rse ^u ,philippians iii4 #g4 ,b :at ?+s 7 ga9 to me1 ^? ,i c\nt$ loss = ,*ri/4 ,my s\l 0 mu* com=t$ & enc\rag$1 :ile he 0 invit+ s9n]s to come & ta/e ! sweetness t is 9 ,*ri/1 & to =sake all ^? ?+s1 :i* be=e we c\nt$ ga91 9 ord] to p>take ( ^? hidd5 treasures4 ,monday #ag4 ,i 0 ov]come by a trifl+ _s1 & also gave way to w&]+ ?\ghts3 = :i* ! ,"l 9 m]cy gave me to feel mu* remorse4 ,:ile ,i 0 at prea*+ 9 ! ev5+1 ,he also gave me a f]v5t desire to look to t ,jesus :om 8 s]vant 0 po9t+ out to u f ,john iii4 #ad1 #ae4 ,o t ,i may ev] look to him1 to heal ! w\nd :i* s9 has made6 8,/ung by ! scorpion s92 ,my poor expir+ s\l10 ,o t ,i c\ld add 8,! balmy s\nd drank 91 ,& 0 at once made :ole40 ,i /aid at ! b&s z ,i c\ld n g home by myself1 & my aunt *ose to /ay4 ,i exp]i5c$ t x 0 good = me to be !re1 = my s\l 0 exce$+ly ble/4 ,"l make me truly ?ankful = ?is1 & all ?y o!r m]cies daily conf]r$ ^u me1 ! *ief ( s9n]s4 ,tuesday1 ,octob] #a4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i f\nd my s\l quick5$ "u religi\s conv]sation1 & cont9u$ s all ,w$nesday & ,?ursday1 hav+ great enl>gem5t 9 pray]1 & free access to ! ?rone2 bless$ be ,god4 ,monday #ad4 ,my m9d 0 9 a s]i\s frame mo/ "p ( ?is day4 ,9 ! ev5+ we _h a com=table love-fea/1 at :i* my s\l 0 mu* com=t$1 & f\nd a great wre/l+ & agoniz+ = ! bless+4 ,saturday #ai4 ,i 0 r cold all day1 b glory be to ,god1 ,i _h great enl>gem5t 9 pray]1 especially 9 ! ev5+4 ,sunday #bj4 ,mr4 ,mr prea*$ on ,mat!w v4 #bb1 #bf4 ,agree ) ?9e adv]s>y quickly1 c4 ,he e>ne/ly exhort$ & intreat$ e "o to agree ) ,god by =sak+ _! s9s & turn+ to him1 le/ he %\ld swe> 9 8 wra?1 !y %\ld n ent] into 8 re/4 ,! ^w came ) p[] to my s\l1 & ,i felt a resolution nev] to re/1 till ,i _h made my peace ) ,god4 ,o may ! ,"l confirm x1 or x w be l ! morn+ cl\d4 ,monday #ba4 ,i arose ?is morn+ ) an e>ne/ desire1 & a det]m9ation by ! grace ( ,god to give myself up to him4 ,o may ,i nev]1 nev] re/1 till ,i fully re/ 9 him4 ,tuesday #bb4 ,my s\l 0 9 a s]i\s frame1 b 9 ! ev5+ ,i gave s mu* way to an inord9ate desire aft] a fooli% ?+1 t my m9d 0 q drawn (f f ,god4 ,:5 ,i w5t to b$1 ,i 0 greatly humbl$1 & a%am$ on acc\nt ( x1 & ,i tru/ ,i %all nev] s yield aga9 to ! enemy ( my s\l4 ,w$nesday #cj4 ,i 0 9 a v indiff]5t /ate all ! day1 b 9 ! ev5+ 9 class-meet+ ,i 0 mu* quick5$1 & /irr$ up by a "y p]son's giv+ an acc\nt1 h[ %e f\nd peace ! day be=e 9 private pray]4 ,i 01 & am /ill det]m9$ by ! grace ( ,god nev] to re/ till ,i also f9d him :om my s\l desires to love4 ,my s\l cont9u$ mu* ble/ all ! ev5+1 & ,i dropt asleep ) e>ne/ desires to be br\ght into t glori\s lib]ty ( ! sons ( ,god4 ,de>e/ ,jesus1 h[ long w x be be=e ?\ wilt manife/ ?yself to me1 z ?\ do/ n unto ! _w8 ,o come & take up ?9e abode 9 my long+ he>t1 & live & reign 9 me )\t a rival4 ,?ursday #ca4 ,my s\l 0 greatly ble/ all ?is day1 & my he>t mu* drawn out aft] ,god4 ,i also f\nd enl>gem5t 9 pray+ = fai?4 ,o ?\ ,son ( ,god1 d ?\ n[ imp>t to me ?is great & ine/imable bless+1 & make me truly happy 9 ?y love4 ,d ?\ n[ arise ^u my poor s\l ) heal+ 9 ?y w+s1 & keep me cont9ually4 ,friday1 ,novemb] #a4 ,i /ill cont9u$ 9 a com=table frame1 f9d+ a great hung] & ?ir/ = fai?4 ,i c\ld truly say f he>t-felt exp]i5ce1 8,?\ ha/ pron\nc$ ! m\rn] ble/1 ,& lo = !e ,i ev] m\rn3 ,i _c1 no ,i w n re/1 ,till ?\ my only re/ return3 ,till ?\ ! ,pr9ce ( peace appe>1 ,& ,i receive ! ,com=t]40 ,saturday #b4 ,i f\nd my s\l 9 a v wat*ful frame1 f a great conc]n ,i felt ^u my consci5ce = s91 & ! fe> ,i _h ( fall+ into a c>eless lukew>m _s aga94 ,"l d ?\ always let me reta91 8,a _s /ill prep>$1 ,& arm$ ) jeal\s fe>1 ,= ev] /&+ on its gu>d1 ,& wat*+ unto pray]40 ,monday #d4 ,i 0 ov]come 9 "s measure by levity1 b ! graci\s ,god gave me to feel mu* remorse = x1 & also enc\rag$ me to tru/ t he :o _h %ew$ me ! evils ( ?is1 & all o!r s9s1 w\ld p>don !m4 ,saturday #i4 ,my s\l 0 n s lively to-day1 z x 0 "s days ago4 ,:5 ,i retir$ to pray]1 ,i felt a great backw>dness to x1 :i* 0 height5$ by a consid]ation ( my own unfai?fulness to ,god4 ,b ! ?\ght 0 imm$iately *eck$ by ?is1 if ,i am unfai?ful1 w my keep+ f him make me m fai?ful8 ,no surely3 x is ! ,"l alone t c imp>t ! bless+ ( a fai?ful he>t2 !n ,i w wait ^u him = x1 & he has promis$1 ,^? t ask %all receive4 ,monday #ah4 ,i 0 9 a s]i\s pray+ frame4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,m prea*$ on ,john ix4 #be4 ,my s\l 0 exce$+ly ble/1 & ,i seem$ j ready to lay hold on ! bless+4 ,h[ ,i lo/ x1 ,i am n s5sible4 ,sunday #bd4 ,mr4 ,me prea*$ 9 ! morn+ on1 ,d all to ! glory ( ,god4 ,:5 ,i came home & retir$1 ,i f\nd "s lib]ty 9 pray]4 ,o h[ good is ,god to me1 & h[ undes]v+1 h[ unfai?ful a creature am ,i8 ,"l p>don ! pa/1 & give me /r5g? = ! "t to come4 ,tuesday1 ,decemb] #c1 & ,w$nesday #d4 ,i 0 r 9 a cold frame4 ,o t ! ,"l w\ld deliv] me f a lukew>m _s6 ,= ,i f9d t an inlet to all wrong temp]s1 & !re=e x mu/ be hurtful to me1 & displeas+ to ,god4 ,saturday #g4 ,i 0 mu* ca/ d[n on acc\nt ( hav+ yield$ to _m wrong temp]s ! day be=e4 ,9 ! ev5+1 ,i w5t to prea*+ )\t ! lea/ expectation ( a bless+2 h[ev] z ,i 0 "u ! ^w1 bemoan+ my helpless condition1 ! ,"l 9 a measure com=t$ & enc\rag$ me to tru/ 9 him4 ,inde$ ,i am (t5 pa9$ t my pa9 is ov] s soon1 & griev$ t ,i c grieve no m6 ,sunday #h4 ,9 ! morn+ ,mr4 ,m prea*$ on ,romans i4 #ag4 ,= ! j %all live by fai?4 ,my ?\ghts 7 w&]+ "u ! ^w1 & :5 ,i came home & retir$1 ,i f\nd no life nor lib]ty 9 pray]4 ,o :5 %all ,i be enabl$ to come ) boldness to ! ?rone ( grace ?r\gh ,jesus ! ,m$iator ( ! new cov5ant1 & to call him1 my ,"l & my ,god4 ,?ursday #ab4 ,my uncle's text 0 ,prov]bs xxiii4 #bc4 ,dur+ ! fir/ "p1 my m9d 0 pretty mu* /ay$1 b t[>ds ! latt] end x 0 mu* drawn (f by a ?+ :i* probably may nev] happ54 ,o = a /ay$1 & compos$ m9d 9 wait+ ^u ,god6 ,surely x is a great s9 to h ! m9d w&]+ ^u fooli% ?+s1 :5 s imm$iately 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,saturday #ad4 ,?is day1 z well z ! day be=e1 my body 0 mu* disord]$4 ,9 ! ev5+ :5 ,i retir$1 ,i 0 humbl$ "u a s5se ( pa/ m]cies receiv$1 & my own unfai?fulness to ,god4 ,sometimes ,i am all alive1 ,i am s 9 e>ne/1 s dilig5t 9 ! means1 & take su* delight 9 !m6 ,!n "o ?+1 or ano!r /eps 91 is yield$ to1 & deprives me ( all my life & e>ne/ness4 ,& ?\gh ,i d n neglect ! means1 yet h[ are !y hurri$ ov]1 & h[ slightly p]=m$6 ,& inde$ ,i am (t5 glad :5 !y are f9i%$4 ,"l1 :at is man8 ,:at am ,i8 ,:at a poor un/able creature6 ,"l1 quick5 me6 ,make me m alive1 m 9 e>ne/4 ,"l make me1 & keep me1 :at ,i ought1 :at ,i want to be4 ,saturday #ba4 ,all ?is week1 ,i h exp]i5c$ a /ay$ness ( m9d1 & a degree ( recollection = :i* ,i desire to be ?ankful4 ,b alas6 ,i d n f9d t e>ne/ness1 t hung]+ & ?ir/+ :i* ,i did4 ,"l :at is ! cause8 ,o remove x :atev] x be6 ,remove ! accurs$ ?+1 :i* sep>ates betwe5 !e & my s\l4 ,on ,saturday night1 ! ,"l 0 pleas$ to %ew me ! ?+ :i* _h qu5*$ t e>ne/ness1 & ,i am n s5sible t ,i h ?is week yield$ to x4 ,o :at a good ,god is ours6 ,he %ew$ me my s93 he gave me to feel remorse = x1 & !n imp>t$ p[] to subdue x4 ,"l give me a ?ankful he>t4 ,sunday #bb4 ,?is morn+ ,i 0 mu* affect$ 9 read+ ! #ae? v]se ( ! #d? *apt] ( ! ,hebrews4 ,= we h n an high prie/ :o _c be t\*$ ) ! feel+ ( our infirmities3 = he 0 9 all po9ts tempt$ l z we are1 yet )\t s94 ,o :at com=table words1 especially :5 ! enemy is p\r+ 9 floods ( temptation ^u u2 at su* a "t h[ sweet is ! m$itation ^u su* words6 ,h[ com=table ! reflection t our ,god kn[s1 & n only kn[s b sympa?izes ) u 9 all our afflictions1 di/resses1 & temptations2 & w assur$ly deliv] u out ( !m6 ,o may ?is scripture be ev] pres5t ) my m9d1 & may x prove a com=t to me 9 trials1 :ile x also h9d]s me f yield+ to my spiritual enemy1 by assur+ me t ,jesus is ev] able & will+ to help me4 ,w$nesday #be4 ,i 0 impress$ ) a s5se ( gratitude to ,god = s5d+ 8 ,son into ! _w1 to be born ( a pure virg91 & 9 a mean mang]1 & all to rescue me f endless woe4 ,o t my he>t may nev] = "o mom5t1 lose ! s5se ( ?is great & ine/imable bless+4 99,sunday #bi4 ,i 0 n v well1 & /ay$ at home ) my fri5d ,miss ,h :o 0 9 great affliction = ! loss ( poor1 or r happy little ,n$ ,h4 ,he di$ ( a sc>let-fev] a week ago4 ,o t ,i 0 z safely l&$ on ! happy %ore6 ,b alas6 ,i am /ill 9 an evil _w1 & liable to crosses & temptations3 ,yea liable to fall f grace :5 ,i get x1 & p]haps to be lo/ = ev]8 ,"l pres]ve me1 & :5 ,i die1 ,o let me die unto !e4 ,tuesday #ca4 ,! wat*-night 0 to la/ till half pa/ twelve3 b we came home betwe5 t5 & elev54 ,i w\ld n g to b$ till ne> twelve1 sp5d+ ! "t 9 pray] & m$itation4 ,"l make me truly ?ankful = ?y m]cy1 9 br++ me to ! conclusion ( ano!r ye>1 & grant t ,i may sp5d ! ensu+ ye> to ! glory ( ?y bless$ "n1 ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,w$nesday1 ,janu>y #a4 ,i awoke 9 a lukew>m /ate1 & ?\gh ,i endeav\r$ to pray1 yet x 0 n ) t life & f]v5cy ,i desir$4 ,o h[ _m h be5 cut (f 9 ! la/ ye>1 & ,i am yet ^u pray+ gr\nd6 ,"l sp>e me yet ano!r ye>1 & ,o let x be sp5t s1 z w %ew my gratitude to !e1 = ?is undes]v$ m]cy4 ,?ursday #b4 ,i 0 to my great conc]n ov]come by a trifl+ _s4 ,o h[ is x t ,i am s soon (f my wat*1 t ! enemy s frequ5tly gets ! bett]6 ,o ,god give me1 ,i besee* !e = ?y ,son's sake1 a recollect$1 s]i\s1 pray+ _s4 ,friday #c4 ,my s\l 0 9 a m recollect$ frame ?an ! =ego+ day4 ,"l make me ?ankful ev5 = ?is m]cy4 ,saturday #d4 ,i cont9u$ mu* 9 ! same /ate z ! day be=e4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,rs prea*$ on ,lam5tations iii4 #bb4 ,x is ( ! ,"l's m]cies t we are n consum$1 because 8 compassions fail n4 ,_h x n be5 = ?is1 ,"l :]e %\ld ,i & all ! rebelli\s sons ( ,adam1 h be5 at ?is day8 99,monday #f4 ,i f\nd my m9d 9 a s]i\s frame1 b x is seldom t x cont9ues4 ,o t ,god w\ld make me m /able1 t ,i may n be l ! sea cont9ually fluctuat+1 & driv5 ab\t ) e w9d ( temptation3 b l ! sun :i* con/antly rises & sets at ! appo9t$ times1 & nev] fails to br+ a regul> succession ( day & night1 accord+ to ! comm& ( t ,god :o made him1 :5 he s5t him =? ) a commission to rule ! day1 & to be = signs1 & = seasons1 = days1 & = ye>s4 ,tuesday #g4 ,?is day ,i f\nd great enl>gem5t 9 pray]1 :i* made me p]=m t duty ) mu* pleasure3 b :5 my s\l is dead1 x is a mo/ bur!nsome task4 ,?ursday #i4 ,i w5t to *apel4 ,mr4 ,rs prea*$ on ,psalms xxxiv4 #ad4 ,seek peace & ensue x4 ,! s]mon 0 t$i\s1 & ,i s cold1 t ,i 0 q tir$ "u x1 & f\nd myself gr[+ impati5t4 ,o h[ soon am ,i tir$ ( :at is good6 ,! _w are n s soon we>y at ! play-h\se1 or 9 ! ball-room1 z ,i am 9 ,god's h\se1 & "u 8 ^w4 ,truly ! *ildr5 ( ?is _w1 are wis] 9 _! g5]ation1 ?an ! *ildr5 ( light4 ,friday #aj4 ,i 0 oppress$ all ?is day1 ) t torm5t+ passion1 ! fe> ( dea?1 9 s mu* t ,i _h n com=t 9 any ?+4 ,i 0 ov]:elm$ 9 an in/ant ) su* horror & dread1 z pla9ly told me ,i 0 unfit to die2 unfit to appe> be=e ! awful judge ( quick & dead4 ,o my ,god1 d ?\ give me ! p>don ( my s9s1 & remove ?is bondage1 7! fe> ( dea?7 f my consci5ce6 ,"l prep>e me1 make me meet to see ?y face4 ,saturday #aa4 ,at night ,mr4 ,ms made an excell5t disc\rse ^u ! b>r5 fig-tree4 ,i fe> ?is "* belongs to me4 ,o may ,i at la/ be> fruit6 ,tuesday #ad4 ,?is1 z well z ! ?ree foll[+ days1 my s\l seem$ to be mu* 9 e>ne/1 & press+ =w>d aft] ! bless+2 & al?o' ,i 0 mu* tempt$ on ,friday to ang]1 yet ,i f\nd p[] to resi/ x1 & also great enl>gem5t 9 pray+ = fai?4 ,o h[ graci\s is ,god6 ,"l make me truly ?ankful = ?y numb]less m]cies be/[$ on me1 ! unwor?ie/ worm ?y h&s h made6 ,my uncle prea*$ on ,isaiah xix4 ,if ye be will+ & ob$i5t1 ye %all eat ! good ( ! l&4 ,he said _m p 7 will+ en\gh to be sav$1 b few 7 will+ to be sav$ 9 ,god's way1 :i* 0 to confess & =sake s91 & turn to ,god1 by us+ all ! means :i* he has appo9t$4 ,b ,i ?9k ,god has br\ght me s f>1 z to make me truly will+ to be sav$ 9 8 own way2 & 7 x possible to be sav$ 9 s91 ,i _h r be sav$ f x4 ,= heav5 w\ld be no heav5 to me1 :ile pride1 ang]1 & self-w h possession ( my brea/2 :]e=e ,"l1 deliv] me f ! guilt & p[] ( ^! ?+s n[1 & f9ally deliv] me f ! 9-be+ ( !m4 ,saturday #ah4 ,i /ill f\nd my desires aft] ,god v e>ne/1 & 0 mu* enl>g$ 9 wre/l+ = ! bless+1 bo? 9 private pray]1 & "u ! ^w4 ,9 ! ev5+1 :ile ,mr4 ,me 0 disc\rs+ on ^! words1 ,let him t name? ! "n ( ,*ri/ dep>t f iniquity1 #b ,timo?y ii4 #ai4 ,i f\nd mu* enl>gem5t 9 private pray]4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i 0 admitt$ to meet 9 b&1 :i* ,i f\nd ble/ to me1 & tru/ to f9d x s con/antly1 z ,i %all1 if x is n my own fault4 ,monday #bj4 ,i did n f9d my s\l s mu* alive ?is day1 z ,i did all la/ week4 ,o :at a *angeable creature am ,i8 ,nev]1 nev]1 at "o /ay4 ,"l /r5g!n1 settle1 & /abli% me4 ,tuesday #ba4 ,bless$ be ,god1 he s\ght me ev5 :5 ,i 0 /ray+ f him1 & did n suff] me long to cont9ue 9 a lukew>m /ate4 ,?is day he gave me back t wre/l+ _s :i* ,i _h lo/ ! day be=e4 ,i c say my s\l is a ?ir/ = ,god1 ev5 = ! liv+ ,god4 ,i am will+1 yea1 ,"l1 ,i am desir\s1 to =sake all my s9s1 & to return unto !e4 ,o my ,god1 make me 9 e>ne/1 & take me = ?y *ild4 ,keep me1 keep me1 graci\s ,"l1 & nev] let me g4 ,w$nesday #bb4 ,i /ill f\nd e>ne/ desires1 & my s\l to be all on a /ret* = ,god4 ,"l cont9ue ?is bless+1 till ?\ imp>t to me t :i* my s\l desire?1 ev5 ?y bless$ self4 ,!n %all ,i be possess$ ( all t is desirable 9 e>? or heav54 99,friday #bd4 ,^u a /rict self-exam9ation1 ,i tru/1 ,i may say1 ,i h made "s progress 9 ! heav5ly j\rney1 )9 ?is la/ ?ree mon?s2 = ^! reasons1 ,i f9d m p[] ov] s91 ev5 my besett+ s9s h n dom9ion ov] me4 ,& if ?ro' unwat*fulness ,i yield to !m1 my he>t is brok5 on acc\nt !re(1 & ,i endeav\r to be m wat*ful = ! future4 ,i f9d m delight 9 ! ord9ances ( ,god1 & a m /ay$1 compos$ m9d 9 wait+ ^u him2 & :5 w&]+ ?\ghts assault me1 ,i f9d p[] to resi/ !m4 ,i h m p[] to plead ! promises 9 pray]2 my desires are m e>ne/1 & ,i h a m wat*ful _s dur+ ! day3 if ,i deceive myself1 ! ,"l kn[e? x is n will+ly4 ,i s9c]ely desire to be tri$1 & to "k ! wor/ ( my /ate4 ,"l1 se>* well if !re be any way ( wick$ness 9 me1 & lead me 9 ! way ev]la/+4 ,?ursday #cj4 ,i 0 r cold & dead ?is day4 ,o :at is ! cause ( ?is in/ability8 ,"l %ew x to me = ,jesus's sake1 ?o' n = m9e1 & make me 9 e>ne/4 ,i f\nd my s\l some?+ quick5$ at night1 :ile my uncle 0 prea*+ on ^! words4 ,only believe4 ,m>k v4 #cf4 ,friday #ca4 ,i 0 mu* tempt$ to fretfulness ?is morn+1 b ?ro' m]cy 0 re/ra9$ f lett+ x break out into words or actions1 ?anks be to ,god = ?is2 z also t ,i f\nd a degree ( lib]ty 9 pray]4 ,monday1 ,febru>y #c4 ,:5 ,i awoke ?is morn+1 ,i f\nd an e>ne/ desire to sp5d ! day to ! glory ( ,god4 ,i soon f\nd myself /ripp$ ( all my /r5g?1 & a trifl+ _s prevail$ ov] me4 ,"l1 ,i br+ ?is besett+ s9 to !e4 ,?\ kn[e/ 'tis my grief1 my burd54 ,"l give me p[] ov] x4 ,saturday #h4 ,all ?is week ,i h be5 h9d]$ go+ to *apel by reason ( a bad cold4 ,& z to ! /ate ( my s\l1 ,i "k n :at to say4 ,sometimes ,i h be5 groan+ "u my unbelief2 sometimes cold & dead1 yet ,i f9d a hope left1 t ,i1 ev5 ,i1 %all yet rejoice 9 ! ,god ( my salvation3 t ,i %all f9d 8 fav\r1 & ta/e an e>ne/ ( et]nal bliss2 ,am51 ,"l ,jesus4 ,b ,"l make me 9 e>ne/1 make me alive to !e4 ,i _c be> ?is in/ability1 ?is halt+ betwe5 two op9ions4 ,"l1 ,i am conv9c$ ?\ art ,god1 ,o !n let me s]ve !e4 ,sunday #i4 ,?is morn+ be+ h9d]$ att5d+ ! public means1 ,i sp5t "s "t 9 private1 & ,i f\nd ! ,"l 0 will+ to he> & answ] pray]1 = he enl>g$ my he>t 9 t duty1 & enabl$ me to pray ) life & f]v5cy2 bless$ be 8 "n4 ,sunday #af4 ,?is day ,i f\nd mu* sweetness & enl>gem5t 9 private duty1 & my m9d 0 9 "s measure /aid on ,god4 ,o = an he>t to praise & love him = ?is1 & all 8 m]cies6 ,! re/ ( ! week ,i f\nd my s\l ble/ at diff]5t times1 ) a desire to wait ^u ,god 9 private3 x 0 pr(itable to me3 :i* inde$ ,i ne$ nev] d\bt1 see+ he has promis$ t !y t wait ^u him %all r5ew _! /r5g?4 ,friday #bh4 ,:5 ,i awoke ?is morn+1 ,i felt a ?ankfulness to ,god = safely br++ me to see ! end ( my fifte5? ye>1 & = an e>ne/ desire to sp5d ! rema9d] ( a %ort life to 8 glory4 ,h[ "t flies8 ,x 0 b ! o!r day s9ce ,i 0 b a little infant1 utt]ly unable to help myself3 9 ?is t5d] /ate ! ,"l provid$ me good p>5ts & k9d fri5ds1 ^: con/ant c>e x has be51 to tra9 me up = heav51 & to d$icate me to him betimes4 ,n[ ,i am come to ye>s ( reason1 %\ld x n be my "o endeav\r1 my con/ant aim to glorify ,god 9 my body & 9 my _s1 :i* are 8 by creation & r$emption1 z also by ! e>ly d$ication :i* my de> p>5ts made ( me to him8 ,%\ld ,i n f my he>t ratify & confirm by my own act & de$1 t :i* !y promis$ on my behalf8 ,"l ,i am will+1 ,i am truly will+ s to d4 ,jesus ,"l l5d me ?9e aid1 & ,i w devote myself to !e1 body1 s\l1 & _s1 a liv+ sacrifice4 ,l5d me ?9e aid1 & ,i w take !e = my prophet1 to tea* me2 my prie/ to atone = my s9s1 & my k+ to reign ov] me4 ,come de> ,"l1 & take me = ?9e own8 ,?9e 9 "t1 & ?9e to et]nity4 ,monday1 ,m>* #c4 ,?is week ,i h be5 conf9$ by a sev]e cold1 h[ev] ,i h n be5 remiss 9 private duties1 ?\gh ,i h f\nd little life 9 !m4 ,a sort ( /upidity has ov]spread my m9d1 :i* has made me unfit = any duty4 ,?is ,i c acc\nt = no o!r way ?an by my disord]1 :i* always ?r[s me into ?is dull frame4 ,o h[ ?is vile body weighs d[n ! s\l6 ,h[ happy are ^? :o are deliv]$ f x6 ,sunday #af4 ,?is week z well z ! =m] ,i h f\nd my he>t z cold1 dead1 & h>d z x 0 possible2 nor ev5 has x be5 broke or s(t5$ :ile wait+ ^u ! ,"l ei!r 9 private pray]1 or "u ! ^w4 ,on ,friday ev5+ at ! wat*-night1 ,i f\nd my m9d v w&]+1 b t[>ds ! latt] end x 0 m compos$1 & ,i really believe ! ,"l wait$ to be graci\s to me1 b my unbeliev+ he>t put ! bless+ away1 by ?9k+ ,i 0 n wor?y6 ,o my ,god1 :5 %all ,i be wor?y8 ,sunday #bc4 ,i f\nd my he>t greatly melt$ 9 ! aft]noon :ile ,i 0 meet+ my b&1 & at "s lib]ty aft]w>ds 9 private pray]1 b my old companion coldness return$ 9 ! ev5+4 ,?ursday #bg4 ,z we 7 go+ to *apel ?is ev5+1 a p>cel ( g5teel well-dress$ boys set ^u u1 ?r[+ dirt 9 su* a mann] z almo/ bl9d$ u1 & hall[+ & hoot+ aft] u4 ,o :at enmity is 9 ! he>t ( man aga9/ e ?+ t is good ev5 :5 *ildr58 ,o h[ graci\s has ,god be5 to me1 t ,i h nev] be5 taught to despise & treat any p]son ill1 ei!r on acc\nt ( any natural infirmities1 or ( ! religion !y pr(ess2 b f my e>lie/ infancy h ,i be5 tra9$ up 9 ! nurture & admonition ( ! ,"l3 h[ w ?is enhance my condemnation1 if ,i make n a "r use ( ^! privileges6 ,friday #bh4 ,be+ ,good-,friday1 ,i sp5t m "t ?an usual 9 read+ & pray]1 9 :i* duty ,i f\nd my s\l v mu* ble/ & enl>g$4 ,w$nesday1 ,april #b4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,wesley gave u 8 company to tea1 & aft]w>ds prea*$ on ,romans viii4 #cc1 #cd4 ,i f\nd my m9d v w&]+4 ,! next ev5+ he prea*$ aga9 on ,john v4 #h1 #i4 ,jesus sai? unto him1 rise take up ?y b$ & walk4 ,i f\nd a bless+ ?is ev5+ ?\gh ,i s\ght x n z ,i ought4 ,o :at a good ,god is ours6 ,friday #d4 ,?is day ,i 0 v light & trifl+2 b 9 ! aft]noon ! ,"l 0 aga9 pleas$ to /ir me up1 by ! means ( our maid1 :o ?is day f\nd ! ,"l 9 communicat+ ) a sick woman4 ,o my ,god1 :at a sl[ progress d ,i make8 ,o!rs f9d ,jesus1 b alas6 = me1 ,i f9d him n4 ,i 0 also mu* ble/ 9 ! ev5+ :ile ,mr4 ,wesley 0 prea*+ on ^! words1 ,john xvii4 #c4 ,?is is et]nal life1 c4 ,saturday #e4 ,i set ap>t ?is day1 9 ord] to seek ! ,"l by pray] & m$itation2 & al?\gh ,i did n f9d him1 s z to enable me to rejoice 9 him1 z a p>don+ ,god1 yet ,i f\nd him enl>g+ my he>t 9 pray]1 enabl+ me to plead 8 promises1 & to cry to him = m]cy1 )\t :i* ,i cle>ly see ,i am undone = ev]4 8,i give up e plea beside1 ,"l ,i am damn$1 b ,*ri/ has di$40 ,"l1 ?\ ha/ said1 ,i came n to call ! righte\s1 b s9n]s to rep5tance4 ,i am !n "o ?\ came/ to save4 ,o save me = ?y m]cy's sake6 8,no ne$ ( !e ! righte\s h1 ,?\ cam'/ ! lo/ to seek & save40 ,i f\nd ! ^w v sweet 9 ! ev5+ :ile ,mr4 ,wesley 0 in=c+ ! words1 ,mat!w ix4 #e4 ,:e!r is x easi] to say1 ,?y s9s be =giv5 !e8 ,or to say1 ,arise & walk8 ,sunday #f4 ,?is morn+ ,i f\nd my desires v e>ne/ = ! bless+1 :ile ,mr4 ,wesley 0 prea*+ on ,isaiah xxxv4 #h4 ,& a highway %all be !re1 & a way1 c4 ,& also aft]w>ds :ile he 0 adm9/r+ ! sacram5t4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 aga9 enc\rag$ to come to ! ,"l1 :ile ,mr4 ,wesley 0 invit+ u to come & dr9k ( ! wat] ( life freely1 b /ill ,i _h n p[] to accept ! invitation4 ,we aft]w>ds _h a com=table love-fea/4 ,sunday #ac4 ,i arose pretty e>ly & w5t to ! prea*+4 ,i aft]w>ds f\nd great sweetness1 9 m$itat+ on ! love ( ,god to s9n]s1 & 8 will+ness to receive !m ^u _! s9c]e rep5tance1 z also 9 private pray]4 ,w$nesday #af4 ,all ?is day ,i 0 v melan*oly1 :i* 0 *iefly occasion$ by recollect+ ! sorr[ful sc5e ,i saw t day two-ye>s2 :5 ,i _h ! la/ sight ( ^? :om ,i love z my own s\l4 ,o h[ _m un=ese5 ev5ts h happ5$ 9 t "t6 ,"s ( !m h be5 v try+ to me1 & made me rep5t leav+ my native l&3 yet n[ ,i see !y 7 all work+ toge!r = my good1 & ,i tru/ ,i h no cause to rep5t1 see+ my s\l has mu* prosp]$ s9ce ,i h be5 at ?is place1 :]eas ,i did n ga91 b r lo/ gr\nd1 :ile ,i 0 9 ,london & ,k5dal4 ,h[ wisely does ,god ord] all ?+s = ! b5efit ( 8 poor undes]v+ creatures3 & h[ ungrateful are we1 n to r5d] him ! tribute ( an he>t & life devot$ to 8 s]vice6 ,friday #ah4 ,mr4 ,m kept a wat*-night & prea*$ on ^! al>m+ words4 ,at midnight !re 0 a cry made3 ,behold ! bridegroom come?1 g ye out to meet him4 ,mat!w xxv4 #f4 ,i f\nd my s\l mu* ble/ "u "o ( 8 pray]s4 ,o may ,i h oil 9 my lamp :5 ! bridegroom comes t ,i may n be %ut out ) ! fooli% virg9s1 b ent] ) ! wise into ! joy ( my ,"l4 ,sunday #bj4 ,?is morn+ ,mr4 ,r prea*$ on ^? com=table words ( our ,"l's ,him t come? unto me ,i w 9 no wise ca/ out4 ,john vi4 #cg4 ,i f\nd myself mu* enc\rag$ to come to ! ,"l1 especially :5 he 0 invit+ ! "y to come1 & close 9 ) ,jesus4 ,tuesday #bb4 ,?is day ,i f\nd great backw>dness to private duty1 b 0 enabl$ to break ?r\gh & f\nd ! ,"l z good z 8 ^w1 ,!y t wait ^u him %all r5ew _! /r5g?4 ,w$nesday #bc4 ,i f\nd mu* sweetness & enl>gem5t 9 private duty ?is day1 & 0 9 a measure ble/1 :ile meet+ my class 9 ! ev5+4 ,o h[ good is x to draw nigh to ,god1 & yet h[ backw>d am ,i s to d6 ,friday #be4 ,i f\nd myself mu* griev$ ^u acc\nt ( hav+ giv5 way to levity4 ,o h[ prone am ,i to ?is evil6 ,"l1 help me aga9/ x1 or ,i fe> x w s9k me l[] ?an ! grave4 ,i sp5t my ev5+ com=tably1 & ,i tru/ pr(itably 9 read+ ! book ( m>tyrs4 ,o :at did !y g ?r\gh = ! sake ( _! ,"l6 ,:ile ,i _c take up ! lea/ cross )\t murmur+4 ,saturday #bf4 ,?is day ,i f\nd great enl>gem5t 9 pray+ = my fri5ds & relations1 z also = ! :ole _w1 & = my own poor s\l4 ,"l1 help me ev] to cont9ue h]e94 8,help me to believe1 obey2 ,help me to rep5t & love2 ,help me to take ! bless+ giv51 ,help me q f hell to heav540 ,sunday #bg4 ,mr4 ,ms prea*$ on ,mat!w xi4 #bj1 #cj4 ,take my yoke ^u y1 c4 ,o :at w\ld ,i n give to be enabl$ s to d6 ,b alas z yet ,i am l a bullock unaccu/om$ to ! yoke4 ,o ,"l1 help me ?is day to take ?y sweet yoke ^u me1 & le>n ( !e1 = ,i am truly conv9c$ t till !n1 ,i %all nev] f9d re/ to my poor s\l4 ,i h no objections to make1 take me z ,i am1 & let me be ?9e = ev]4 8,take my body1 _s1 s\l1 ,only ?\ possess ! :ole40 ,?ursday #bi4 ,i w5t to five o'clock prea*+4 ,z ,i w5t my he>t 0 rais$ to ,god1 t he w\ld please to bless 8 ^w to my s\l2 & inde$ ,mr4 ,m gave a v pr(itable disc\rse on ,ephesians vi4 #aj4 ,"l1 help me s to put on ! :ole arm\r ( ,god1 t ,i may be able to )/& 9 ! evil day1 & hav+ done all to /&4 ,w$nesday #cj4 ,i f\nd my he>t mu* brok5 on acc\nt ( s9 ?is ev5+ 9 meet+ my class4 ,"l1 give me a brok5 & contrite he>t1 = su* ?\ wilt n despise4 ,?ursday1 ,may #a4 ,go+ a little e>li] ?an usual to prea*+1 ,i took out my little bible1 & f\nd a peculi> sweetness 9 read+ ! lv4 *apt] ( ,isaiah4 ,friday #b4 ,i f\nd great sweetness 9 read+ & pray]4 ,o = a wat*ful _s to keep x4 ,saturday #c4 ,i _h a great s]i\sness & solemnity ^u my m9d ?is morn+1 :i* cont9u$ all day1 7bless$ be ,god47 ,sunday #d4 ,i 0 mu* ca/ d[n by he>+ t my poor papa 0 9 a bad /ate ( heal?2 b 0 com=t$ by ?is consid]ation1 t if ,i made ,god my fa!r & my fri5d1 no?+ b my own unfai?fulness c\ld ev] sep>ate me f him4 ,monday #e4 ,i rose ?is morn+ ) a desire to sp5d ! day to 8 glory1 & bless$ be 8 "n1 he did enable me to keep a recollect$ _s1 & also to seek him 9 8 appo9t$ ways1 9 do+ :i* ,i f\nd great sweetness4 ,w$nesday #g4 ,i 0 disappo9t$ go+ to prea*+1 :i* 0 a cross to me at fir/2 b ,i 0 s ble/ :ile meet+ my class1 t ! loss 0 abundantly made up2 my he>t 0 s(t5$ & melt$ = my pa/ (f5ces1 & at ! same "t a com=table hope sprung up1 t ! ,"l w\ld h m]cy ev5 ^u me4 ,friday #i1 & ,saturday #aj4 ,i c't say1 t ,i f\nd my s\l s mu* ble/ ^? two days1 z x _h be5 ! two prec$+4 ,:at is ! cause ,i "k n1 b :atev] x is1 ,i tru/ ! ,"l w discov] x to me1 & remove x4 ,on ,saturday ev5+ ,i 0 greatly %ock$ at ! melan*oly acc\nt ( ! dea? ( two ( my uncles2 & ,satan /rongly sugge/$ t my de> ,papa w\ld soon foll[4 ,?is h9d]$ me f sleep+ great "p ( ! night4 ,e su* al>m+ provid5ce %\ld l\dly s\nd 9 our e>s1 ,be ye also ready1 = at su* an h\r z ye ?9k n1 ! ,son ( man come?4 ,sunday #aa4 ,i broke ! matt] to my c\s9 by degrees1 ?9k+ x w\ld %ock h] to tell x to h] at once4 ,b ,o h[ h] cries & lam5tations pi]c$ my he>t6 ,i endeav\r$ to com=t h]1 b all 9 va92 all h] cry 01 if %e did b "k 8 s\l 0 happy1 !n %e %\ld be easy4 ,at la/ %e seem$ to take "s com=t 9 ! consid]ation t he _h religi\s fri5ds ab\t him 9 8 illness4 ,surely x is a griev\s ?+ to lose a t5d] p>5t4 ,o may ,i n by my s9s1 provoke ,god to lay ! same affliction ^u me4 ,alas6 x w\ld be a heavy /roke4 ,i "k n h[ ,i %\ld be> x2 ,i fe> ,i %\ld murmur aga9/ ! h& t inflict$ x1 unless pres]v$ !refrom by ! re/ra9+ grace ( ,god4 ,my m9d 0 n[ f> f ! com=table frame x 0 9 ! la/ week2 x 0 s confus$1 t ,i c\ld n = "o qu>t] ( an h\r keep x /ay$ on ,god4 ,b not)/&+ ?is1 ,i took up my cross1 & us$ private pray] con/antly4 ,inde$ ,i 0 (t5 tempt$ to ?9k1 ,i _h bett] let x alone1 = ,i 0 only mock+ ,god by draw+ ne> to him ) my lips1 :ile my he>t 0 f> f him4 ,if ?is 0 ! case x 0 n ) my desire or approbation4 ,! ,"l kn[e?1 ,i w\ld h pray$ bett] if ,i c\ld4 ,i w\ld fa9 h my lips1 & he>t1 & life g toge!r 9 8 s]vice2 & !re=e s9ce he has put ?is desire into my he>t1 he w graci\sly p>don :at has be5 amiss1 & enable me to d bett] = ! future4 ,?ursday #bb4 ,?is morn+ ,i w5t to my aunt ,bs1 :]e ,i sp5t ! day v agreeably4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 mu* ble/1 :ile my uncle 0 prea*+ on ,john i4 #aa1 #ab4 ,he came unto 8 own1 b 8 own receiv$ him n3 b z _m z receiv$ him1 to !m gave he p[] to become ! sons ( ,god4 ,o w\ld he n[ himself imp>t1 t ,i may become ! *ild ( ,god4 ,sunday #be4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,m made a sweet ,disc\rse on ,acts xvi4 #cj4 ,sirs1 :at mu/ ,i d to be sav$8 ,inde$ ,i ?\ght ,i _h p[] to believe1 ,i f\nd ! bless+ nigh2 b ,o my fai?less he>t drew back & lo/ ! preci\s pe>l4 ,unbelief aga9 prevail$ & left me helpless1 b bless$ be ,god1 n a hopeless s9n]4 ,i /ill h a hope1 & ,i tru/ x is n ! hope ( an hypocrite4 ,?ursday #bi4 ,?is day ,i 0 mu* beset by w&r+ ?\ghts1 & to my grief & %ame1 yield$ b too mu* to !m4 ,h[ long %all va9 ?\ghts1 :i* are (t5 ! =]unn]s ( va9 words1 lodge )9 me4 ,o = p[] to resi/ & ov]come6 ,saturday #ca4 ,i f\nd great p[] ?is day ov] t evil1 ) :i* ,i h be5 s mu* beset1 bless$ be ,god4 ,sunday1 ,june #a4 ,?is morn+ my s\l 0 9 a measure ble/ :ile ,mr4 ,rs 0 %ew+ h[ we _h de/roy$ ourselves1 f ,hosea xiii4 #i4 ,he _h n "t to %ew u :]e our help lay3 b bless$ be ,god1 he has %ew$ ?is to me4 ,may ,i seek = x :]e x only c be f\nd4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 /irr$ up to ask ! bless+1 & ,i tru/ ) "s importunity4 ,monday #b4 ,?is morn+ my s\l 0 exce$+ly ble/ :ile ,mrs4 ,l 0 speak+ to me1 enc\rag+ me to come1 & lay hold ( ! bless+1 assur+ me1 t ev5 n[ ! ,"l 0 will+ to imp>t x4 ,my desires 7 also v /rong 9 ! aft]noon2 al?\gh ,i 0 9 company1 & ! conv]sation n v edify+2 7s graci\s 0 ! ,"l to me47 ,tuesday #c4 ,i f\nd my s\l exce$+ly ble/ ?is day1 especially 9 ! ev5+3 su* hope & confid5ce ,i _h t ! ,"l w\ld reveal himself t ,i _h no d\bt ( x1 & su* a sweet calm 0 ^u my _s till ,i w5t to b$ z ,i nev] exp]i5c$ be=e4 ,i 0 also greatly enc\rag$ by accid5tally op5+ ! bible ^u ^! words1 ,!n %all we "k if we foll[ on to "k ! ,"l4 ,am56 ,let x be accord+ to ?y ^w1 ,"l ,jesus4 ,w$nesday #d4 ,i exp]i5c$ a measure ( ! same confid5ce z ! night be=e4 ,"l cont9ue x1 & also increase x1 s t ,i may nev] d\bt m4 ,?ursday #e4 ,i 0 n altoge!r 9 su* a sweet frame z ! two prec$+ days2 nev]!less my m9d 0 /ay$ on ,god1 & my desires e>ne/ = ! bless+1 :ile my uncle 0 disc\rs+ ^u ^! words1 ,except ye rep5t1 ye %all all likewise p]i%4 ,luke xiii4 #e4 ,friday #f4 ,my m9d 0 di/ract$ ) w&]+ ?\ghts1 b ! graci\s ,"l soon ga!r$ !m 9 aga91 & ,i exp]i5c$ a sweet calm ^u my _s1 & lib]ty 9 pray]4 ,sunday #h4 ,i w5t to *ur* expect+ ! ,sacram5t1 b !re be+ none1 we _h a s]mon on ,galatians vi4 #i4 ,x 0 a v pretty disc\rse1 %ew+ :at well-do+ 02 b no?+ ( a *ange ( he>t 0 m5tion$4 ,o1 ?\ght ,i1 h[ _m may g ?us f>1 & p]i% at la/4 ,"l1 let me n be "o ( ?is numb]4 ,monday #i4 ,?is aft]noon we set out = ,eaton to see ,"l ,grosv5or's g>d5s2 !y are ! mo/ elegant & pleasant ,i ev] saw4 ,i d n f9d ! sight ( su* ?+s to draw my m9d f ,god3 b am r l$ to m$itate on ! vanity ( all worldly enjoym5ts1 & to desire to h sub/antial pleasures1 ev5 ^? :i* are at ,god's "r-h&4 ,! re/ ( ! week1 my m9d 0 9 mu* confusion1 by reason ( remov+2 b /ill ,i h f\nd p[] to be con/ant 9 private duty1 & to resi/ all temptations to ! contr>y4 ,by ?us do+ ,i 0 enabl$ to keep a great] wat* ov] my words1 & ?\ghts1 & to avoid my besett+ evil1 levity4 ,o ,"l1 make me truly ?ankful4 8beset+0 replac$ ) 8besett+0 ,monday #af4 ,i 0 mu* ca/ d[n1 by receiv+ a lett] f my de> mamma1 conta9+ a melan*oly acc\nt ( ! situation ( my de> papa's heal?3 b 9 ! mid/ ( my anxiety1 ,i f\nd a great confid5ce 9 ,god3 s t mo/ ( my uneas9ess 0 ^u 8 acc\nt4 ,"l1 /r5g!n1 com=t1 & bless him = ,jesus's sake4 ,! two foll[+ days my m9d 0 mu* hurri$ by ! confusion ! h\se has be5 92 nev]!less ,i h be5 con/ant 9 private duty1 & h g5]ally f\nd x good to draw nigh to ,god4 ,o :at a ,god h we to deal )1 & yet ,i _c f9d a he>t to love him4 ,"l1 s(t5 ?is obdurate he>t1 & give me an he>t to love !e2 = ?is ?\ kn[e/ is all my desire4 ,tuesday #bd4 ,all ?is week ,i h be5 9 a v disagreeable frame1 be+ nei!r 9 e>ne/ = my s\l1 nor q =getful ( x4 ,i h be5 con/ant 9 private duties1 ?o' ,i am (t5 fe>ful t ,i am only draw+ nigh to ,god ) my lips2 b on ,saturday1 my s\l 0 mu* ble/ "u ,mr4 ,r's prea*+3 8 text 0 9 ,romans viii4 #ag1 #ah4 ,& if *ildr5 !n heirs1 c4 ,my desires 7 exce$+ly e>ne/ to be made a p>tak] ( ^? glori\s privileges ( ! sons ( ,god4 ,o ,"l1 :5 %all ,i be "o ( ?y *ildr58 ,sunday #bi4 ,9 ! morn+ ,mr4 ,r's text 0 9 ,romans viii4 #cb4 ,he t sp>$ n 8 own son1 c4 ,o ^! enc\rag+1 ^! he>t reviv+ words6 ,:y1 ,o my s\l art ?\ s backw>d to believe ! promises ( ,god8 ,surely he is n a man1 t c deceive !e4 ,o !n believe ! record true4 ,!n1 & n till !n1 %alt ?\ exp]i5ce real happ9ess4 ,monday1 ,july #g4 ,all ?is week my s\l has be5 cold & dead1 & ,i 7to my %ame & grief7 h be5 too neglig5t 9 private duties4 ,h[ truly may x be said ! way ( s9 is d[n hill8 ,i 0 h9d]$ f pray] "o day at my usual h\r1 & almo/ e day aft]w>ds1 some?+ happ5$ j at t "t to keep me f t duty4 ,i obs]ve t if ,i neglect x "o day1 ,i am sure to d ! same = sev]al days runn+4 ,"l1 help me to be wat*ful1 see+ my subtle adv]s>y is ev] wat*+ to betray me into s91 ei!r ( omission or commission4 ,sunday #ac4 ,i f\nd a small degree ( life 9 private pray]1 :i* 0 ! only duty ,i 0 quick5$ 9 ?is day4 ,"l help me out ( ?is /upid /ate6 ,on ,?ursday ev5+ my uncle prea*$ on ,mat!w xiii4 #df4 ,:o :5 he _h f\nd "o pe>l ( great price1 c4 ,o t ! ,"l w\ld enable me in/antly to "p ) all1 & pur*ase ?is pe>l6 ,all ?is week my s\l has be5 9 ! same lukew>m /ate1 & yet g5]ally quick5$ 9 private pray]1 especially "o ev5+ ,i _h su* a discov]y ( ! love ( ,god to s9n]s1 t ,i 0 almo/ enabl$ to believe he di$ = me4 ,sunday #bj4 ,?is morn+ ,mr4 ,m gave u a sweet disc\rse on #b ,pet] i4 #d4 ,:]eby are giv5 unto u exce$+ great promises1 c4 ,i f\nd my s\l ble/ "u x1 & aft]w>ds at ! sacram5t 9 ,/4 ,john's *ur*1 bless$ be ,god4 ,monday #ba4 ,i 0 too neglectful ( private duty ?is day1 & !re=e 'tis no wond] if my s\l 0 dry & b>r5 9 o!r duties4 ,:ile we 7 at prea*+ 9 ! ev5+1 my de> fri5d ,miss ,d arriv$ f ,irel&4 ,i 0 mu* rejoic$ to see h]1 & %e seem$ to be s at see+ me4 ,may we all at la/ meet r\nd our ,fa!r's ?rone6 ,friday #be4 ,9 ! aft]noon we walk$ to ,crisl+ton2 & w5t to see ! rector's g>d51 :o is = ev] alt]+ x4 ,aft] be+ at great exp5ce to h x done to 8 m9d1 /ill x does n please him4 ,o h[ re/less is ! m9d ( man6 ,ev] seek+ aft] re/1 he _c f9d x nigh1 nor ev] w1 till he f9ds x 9 ,jesus4 ,friday1 ,augu/ #a4 ,! /ate ( my s\l ?is week has be5 mu* z usual4 ,o t ! ,"l w\ld /ir me up6 ,t he w\ld make me 9 e>ne/1 & !n ,i %\ld soon atta9 ! prize4 ,i %all "o day p]i% by ! h& ( s91 unless a miracle ( m]cy int]pose4 ,"l1 save or ,i p]i%6 ,save1 or ,i mu/ inevitably fall a prey to ! evil t lies 9 ?is rebelli\s he>t4 ,sunday #c4 ,i f\nd myself mu* enc\rag$ :ile ,mr4 ,gk 0 describ+ ! re/ t rema9$ to ^? :o 7 seek]s aft] ,god1 t ,i might include myself 9 t numb]2 b ,i sometimes fe>1 ev5 ?is appellation does n belong to me4 ,"l1 suff] me n to deceive myself = ?y m]cy's sake4 ,tuesday #e4 ,my poor he>t /ill cont9u$ dead2 no life1 no p[] 9 draw+ ne> to ,god4 ,/ill my s\l is z a b>r5 wild]ness4 ,"l1 wat] me ) ! dew ( ?y grace1 !n ! wild]ness w become a fruitful l&1 & ! des]t1 spr+s ( wat]4 ,sunday #ag4 ,9 retirem5t1 bo? be=e & aft] prea*+1 ,i f\nd my s\l greatly l$ out to pray = fai?1 = myself1 & my de> p>5ts1 & a measure ( confid5ce1 t ,god w\ld he> my pray]3 b alas = me1 9 ! aft]noon levity aga9 prevail$1 & ,i lo/ bo? ! confid5ce1 & p[] to pray = x4 ,sunday #ag4 ,mr4 ,mr prea*$ on ,acts xxiv4 #af4 ,h]e9 ,i ex]cise myself1 to h a consci5ce void ( (f5ce t[>ds ,god1 & t[>ds man4 ,on 8 m5tion+ 8 go+ away1 ,i c\ld n =be> bur/+ into te>s2 ,i am sure all ! p 7w\ld !y speak ! tru? imp>tially7 mu/ ackn[l$ge he has ex]cis$ himself to h a consci5ce void ( (f5ce4 99,w$nesday #bj4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,mr gave u a sweet disc\rse1 on ,colossians iii4 #aa4 ,b ,*ri/ is all1 & 9 all4 ,my conc]n at p>t+ ) him1 /ole away all ! b5efit ,i might h reap$ f ! s]mon4 ,alas6 t ,i %\ld be s fooli% z to look m to ! s]vant ?an to 8 ,"l1 & ?9k because he is go+ away1 ,i %all nev] m be ble/ "u prea*+2 z if ,god c\ld n bless me1 z well by "o z ano!r4 ,"l1 ,i besee* !e1 to =give ?is s94 ,?ursday #ba4 ,?is morn+ ,i arose to he> ,mr4 ,ms la/ disc\rse1 :i* 0 v affect+1 & drew te>s f _m eyes4 ,i f\nd mu* cause = lam5tation1 t ,i _h n pr(it$ m by him1 & a det]m9$ resolution to set out afre% 9 ! /r5g? ( div9e grace1 t ,i may n h ! same compla9t to make1 :5 we "p ) ! next4 ,"l1 /r5g!n ?is resolution4 ,sunday #bd4 ,i 0 "s "p ( ?is day employ$ 9 read+ ,mr4 ,morgan's crucifi$ ,jesus4 ,o t ,i c\ld copy aft] my afflict$1 self-d5y+ ,ma/]6 ,he nev] s\ght to please himself2 b alas = me1 h[ seldom is x ,i seek to please any o!r6 ,"l1 =give me3 let me le>n to d5y myself1 take up my cross & foll[ !e4 ,?ursday #bh4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,j :o is ! assi/ant prea*$ 8 fir/ s]mon on #a ,cor9?ians iii4 #bb4 ,all are y\rs4 ,i ?9k him a good prea*]2 b ,i _c yet give up ,mr4 ,m = any o!r4 ,friday #bi4 ,mr4 ,gd prea*$ on #a ,cor9?ians i4 #bc4 ,we prea* ,*ri/ crucifi$4 ,x 0 a good s]mon1 b ,i ?\ght s mu* ( ,mr4 ,m1 t ,i 0 q tir$ because x 0 n him4 ,"l =give me my too great atta*m5t to ! creature1 & fix my he>t m ^u ! ,creator4 ,sunday #ca4 ,?is morn+ ,mr4 ,gd prea*$ f ,hosea vi4 #a4 ,come let u return to ! ,"l1 c4 ,he spoke exactly to ! /ate ,i seem$ to be 91 & ,i 0 det]m9$ to set ?is day ap>t1 to exam9e myself1 & to seek ! ,"l 9 good e>ne/4 ,b z soon z ,i came home1 ,satan prep>$ some?+ to draw my m9d (f1 & r5d] me unfit = any duty1 :e!r read+1 pray+1 or any ?+ else4 ,"l1 make me m c>eful = ! "t to come1 t ,i may n s easily let slip ! ?+s :i* ,i h receiv$4 ,tuesday1 ,septemb] #b4 ,my s\l 0 9 a measure ble/ 9 meet+ class1 & ,i f\nd a resolution to set out afre%4 ,"l1 let x n prove abortive z all o!rs h done1 b d ?\ br+ x to good effect = ?y m]cy's sake4 ,w$nesday #c4 ,i ?9k ?is day ,i f\nd m solidity1 & n s mu* levity ( _s z ,i did ! day be=e4 ,i also f\nd my s\l 9 a measure quick5$ bo? 9 private pray]1 & 9 meet+ b&1 = :i* undes]v$ m]cies1 ,"l make me truly ?ankful1 & let me %ew my gratitude by endeav\r+ to reta91 & improve !m1 t s ,i may h m4 ,friday #ab4 ,9 ! ev5+ at prea*+1 ,i f\nd my s\l 9 a small degree quick5$4 ,"l1 cont9ue ev5 ?is sp>k1 & bl[ x into a flame6 ,monday #ae4 ,i met our class to r5ew ! tickets2 b ,i miss$ ,mr4 ,mr's lively mann] ( exam9+ & exhort+ ea* "o1 accord+ to _! v>i\s /ates4 ,sunday #ba4 ,i w5t to ! sacram5t at ,/4 ,john's *ur*1 b all ! "t ,i 0 !re1 ,i 0 s beset ) a p>ticul> temptation1 t ,i _h h>d "w to keep f yield+ to x4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,jn prea*$ & met ! society2 b ,i sadly miss$ ,mr4 ,m's close & sweet applications & exhortations1 :i* "u ,god 7 exce$+ pr(itable to me4 ,?is week my poor un/able m9d has be5 mu* toss$ ) va9 & w&r+ ?\ghts4 ,o :5 %all my he>t & treasure be laid up 9 heav56 ,!n1 & n till !n1 w my m9d also be fix$1 /$fa/ly fix$ 9 t ?rice happy place4 ,i h also be5 dry & dead 9 e means1 :i* inde$ is no wond]1 :5 fooli% ?\ghts are giv5 way to2 !y necess>ily damp ! "w ( ,god 9 ! s\l4 ,"l1 make me m wat*ful4 ,sunday #bh4 ,i sp5t ! day com=tably1 & f\nd a degree ( sweetness 9 pray]4 ,o = a ?ankful he>t6 ,?ursday1 ,octob] #aj4 ,?is day be+ ! qu>t]ly meet+1 we _h a numb] ( /range prea*]s 9 t[n2 & 9 ! ev5+ "o ,mr4 ,st prea*$4 ,he is n a v connect$ prea*]1 b "o ( ! mo/ lively & p[]ful1 t ,i ev] he>d4 ,i 0 m /irr$ up & quick5$ "u ?is s]mon1 ?an ,i h be5 = mon?s be=e4 ,!re seem$ to be an awful solemnity1 re/+ ^u ! :ole congregation4 ,monday #bf4 ,9 ! ev5+ x ra9$ mu*2 b ,i v5tur$ out1 & 0 well paid = s do+1 by ,mr4 ,m's disc\rse ^u #a ,cor9?ians vi4 #aa4 ,b ye are ju/ifi$ 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,sunday1 ,novemb] #b4 ,i w5t to ! sacram5t at ,tr9ity *ur*1 b f\nd no p>ticul> bless+ 9 t ord9ance1 or inde$ any o!r2 my m9d be+ mu* ex]cis$1 z x _h be5 great "p ( ! la/ week1 9 :i* no?+ seem$ sweet or pr(itable to me1 b private pray]4 ,sunday #i4 ,all ?is week my m9d has be5 mu* div]t$ f ,god1 by a circum/ance :i* befel me1 n v pleas+ to fle% & blood4 ,"l1 give me wisdom1 grace1 & prud5ce to guide me ?r\gh ! trials ,i am liable to meet ) "h3 & ,o at la/ receive my poor s\l to ! peaceful hav5 ( ev]la/+ re/2 :]e all ! /orms ( ?is tumultu\s life are ov]1 & all is quietness & assurance = ev]6 99,monday #ag4 ,mr4 ,jn d9$ ) u ?is day2 ,i ?9k he is "o ( ! mo/ agreeable m5 ,i "k4 ,on ,?ursday ev5+ my uncle prea*$ ^u ,mat!w xx4 #cb4 ,:at w ye t ,i %all d unto y8 ,my s\l 0 m ble/ "u ?is disc\rse1 ?an "u any s9ce ,mr4 ,st prea*$4 ,9 ! application1 he desir$ ea* to ask _! own s\l1 :at is my mo/ prevail+ desire8 ,ri*es1 hon\r1 or pleasure8 ,b my he>t reject$ all ^!1 & repli$1 8,none b ,*ri/ to me be giv51 ,none by ,*ri/ 9 e>? or heav540 ,sunday #bc4 ,i f\nd my s\l mu* quick5$ 9 private duty to-day4 ,o h[ good is x to draw nigh to ,god1 & yet h[ loa? am ,i to d x6 ,sunday #cj4 ,9 read+ ! scripture1 & "o ( ! volumes ( ! ,libr>y1 ,i f\nd a degree ( enl>gem5t1 & also 9 private pray]1 ?o' ,i _h felt a great backw>dness to x4 ,tuesday1 ,decemb] #b4 ,aft] ,i 0 9 b$1 my m9d 0 mu* employ$ 9 m$itat+ on dea?1 & ! vanity ( all e>?ly ?+s1 occasion$ by he>+ t poor ,miss ,ly 0 extreamly ill1 :om ,i _h se5 9 p]fect heal? ! la/ ,friday4 ,o may ,i sp5d e mom5t ( life 9 prep>+ = a nev] end+ et]nity6 ,sunday #g4 ,9 none ( ! duties ( ! day1 did ,i f9d any life2 my s\l 0 z a b>r5 wild]ness unwat]$ ) ! dew ( heav54 ,"l1 h[ long6 ,:5 %all ,i ta/e & see t ! ,"l is graci\s1 by 8 giv+ ev5 to me ! k ( salvation by ! remission ( my s9s8 ,monday ev5+ ,mr4 ,jn prea*$ on ,mat!w ix4 #ab4 ,! :ole h no ne$ ( a physician1 b !y t be sick4 ,"l1 ,i am sick1 sick ( s91 & truly sick ( self4 ,"l1 heal me2 be ?\ my physician1 & ,i %all ne$ no o!r4 ,sunday #ad4 ,mr4 ,jn prea*$ ?is morn+ ^u ,isaiah lv4 #a4 ,ho1 e "o t ?ir/e?1 c4 ,"l1 ,i d 9 "s measure ?ir/4 ,o give me to dr9k ( ?is liv+ wat]6 99,i 0 s affect$ :5 ,i came home at he>+ t poor ,miss ,ly 0 n likely to recov]1 t ,i c\ld n read or pray z ,i desir$2 b ,i f\nd _m s]i\s1 & ,i tru/ pr(itable reflections4 ,o may ?is provid5ce be productive ( good to my s\l1 & to ! s\ls ( all h] fri5ds & relations1 to :om x w c]ta9ly be an affect+ /roke1 if x does please ,god to require h] s\l at ?is "t4 ,on ,monday ev5+ at f\r o'clock1 x pleas$ ,god to take to himself ! s\l ( my de> ,miss ,ly4 ,al?\gh ,i f\nd ! affection ,i _h = h] 9 h] life-"t1 z /rong z ev]1 ,i c\ld n %$ a te>1 :5 ,i fir/ he>d ( h] dep>ture3 ,i _h su* a sight ( h] 9 glory1 t1 in/ead ( wi%+ h] back1 ,i almo/ rejoic$ at h] happy *ange1 & long$ = ! h\r to come1 :]e9 ,i also %all be releas$ & c>ri$ by ! angels into ,abraham's bosom1 :]e ,i %all be et]nally happy 9 ! enjoym5t ( 8 love1 :o liv$ & di$ = me1 a poor mis]able s9n]4 ,b aft]w>ds ,i f\nd nature recoil1 & _h ! cruelty to ?9k1 t c\ld a wi% re/ore h] to h] ag$ p>5ts1 p>ticul>ly h] poor di/ract$ "m1 ,i %\ld be tempt$ to d x4 ,b ,o bless$ be ,god1 no?+1 no?+ c recall u1 :5 once we are l&$ on ! happy %ore4 ,"l1 grant t :5ev] dea? calls me h5ce1 ,i may be prep>$ to meet x4 ,let ! k+ ( t]rors be *ang$ into ! pr9ce ( peace2 let ! /+ ( dea? be drawn1 & ,o give me a victory ov] ! n[ t]rible & victori\s grave4 99,?ursday #ah4 ,?is day ,i ) my aunt1 ,mrs4 ,l1 & ,miss ,h1 7 invit$ to ! fun]al ( ,miss ,ly3 ! two =m] decl9$ go+1 b ,miss ,h & ,i accept$ ! invitation2 & ) f\r o!r "y wom51 7 h] be>]s4 ,o :at an impression did ?is solemn sc5e make on my n[ ?\ghtful m9d1 to see h]1 :om n ?ree weeks ago1 ,i _h se5 9 all ! bloom & vig\r ( y\?1 n[ cut d[n1 & h] sweet agreeable tab]nacle consign$ to ! sil5t grave6 ,"l1 ?\ght ,i1 h[ soon may ?is be my case2 h[ soon may ,i also be cut d[n 9 ! morn+ ( my life1 & my p>5ts also be lam5t+ my untimely end6 ,& am ,i ready8 ,c ,i say ) an assur$ confid5ce1 ,o dea?1 :]e is ?y /+2 ,o grave1 :]e is ?y victory8 ,alas1 alas6 x is n s ) me6 ,! approa* ( ?is =midable foe makes me tremble6 ,o suff] me n to re/ 9 ?is /ate1 b enable ev5 me to look ) triumph on ! m\ld]+ tomb6 ,sunday #ba4 ,i did n g out 9 ! morn+1 b sp5t ! day v com=tably1 f9d+ great sweetness 9 pray]1 & mu* s]i\sness & solidity ^u my m9d all ! day4 ,! two foll[+ days also my m9d 0 mu* busi$ ab\t ! ?+s ( et]nity1 & my own latt] end4 ,?ursday #be4 7,be+ ,*ri/mas-day47 ,9 ! ev5+ my uncle prea*$ ) mu* life & p[]1 on ,luke ii4 #aj4 ,behold ,i br+ y good tid+s ( great joy4 ,! enemy /irr$ up ! mob to make a di/urbance :ile we 7 s++ ! la/ hymn2 b 9 spite ( !m1 we conclud$ s++1 & aft] wait+ "s m9utes !y 7 disp]s$1 & we return$ home 9 peace4 99,friday #bf4 ,?is day & ! next my s\l 0 n 9 s sweet a frame z a few days be=e3 x might be occasion$ p>tly by a viol5t cold1 :i* weigh$ d[n my body v mu*4 ,o happy day :5 ! s\l %all be releas$ f its prison1 & fre$ f its bodily-*a92 :5 ! disembodi$ _s %all be receiv$ ) %\ts ( joy1 into ! p>adise ( ,god4 ,sunday #bh4 ,?is morn+ ! family w5t to ! h\se ( ,god1 b a viol5t cold conf9$ me at home2 h[ev]1 ! ,"l 0 pres5t !re also1 = my s\l 0 greatly refre%$ 9 private duty4 ,inde$ all ! day ,i f\nd great sweetness & com=t 9 my s\l1 ?\gh my cold unfitt$ me = any set wait+ ^u ,god4 ,w$nesday #ca4 ,?is night ,i det]m9$ to sit up till ,i _h begun ! ,new-,ye>1 :i* ,i accord+ly did1 sp5d+ ! "t 9 read+1 m$itation1 & pray]1 & ,i f\nd x com=table & pr(itable to wait ^u ,god 9 ! /illness ( ! night4 ,o may ! resolutions :i* ,i ?is night made1 be br\ght to good effect6 ,?ursday1 ,janu>y #h1 #agfg4 ,?is day bless$ be ,god my s\l 0 mu* alive1 & my desires & expectations quick5$ by he>+ t ,mrs4 ,mn1 a p]son 9 our class _h f\nd ! peace ( ,god4 ,i f\nd mu* att5tion & sweetness likewise "u ,mr4 ,rs s]mon 9 ! ev5+4 ,saturday #aj4 ,mr4 ,rs prea*$ ^u ,isaiah xliii4 #be1 #bf4 ,i1 ev5 ,i am he t blotte? out ?y transgressions = m9e own sake4 ,my s\l 0 9 a wait+1 expect+ frame4 ,"l1 h[ long %all x be e're ?\ satisfy my long+ he>t ) ?y love1 ! ?+ ,i desire above all o!rs4 ,i c truly say1 8,( all ?\ ha/ 9 e>?1 or heav51 ,let love alone be m9e40 ,sunday #aa4 ,we w5t to *ur*1 _h a s]mon on ,ecclesia/es ix4 #aj4 ,x 0 an exce$+ pretty disc\rse1 b n a ^w ( ,*ri/ 9 x4 ,! m9i/] exhort$ u to improve our "t 9 works ( piety1 *>ity1 & ! duty ( our respective call+s1 b nev] told u h[ we 7 to be enabl$ to d all ^! ?+s1 presum+1 ,i suppose t 8 auditory ne$$ no su* in=mation4 ,t[>ds ! latt] end he all[$ u a little innoc5t div]sion1 & conclud$ ) say+ t by a dilig5t improvem5t ( our "t 9 all ! duties he _h recit$1 we %\ld recomm5d ourselves to ,god1 & be acc\nt$ wor?y to be admitt$ into heav54 ,i f\nd mu* ?ankfulness t ,i 0 bett] in/ruct$4 ,i 0 at prea*+ 9 ! foll[+ =tnight b twice3 all ?is "t ,i 0 sometimes 9 e>ne/1 !n too c>eless4 ,"l1 p>don :at is pa/1 & ,o let me = ! future give all dilig5ce to make my call+ & election sure4 8?ankness0 replac$ ) 8?ankfulness0 p] ,errata ,sunday #be4 ,i did n g out 9 ! morn+1 b ,i sp5t ! "t v com=tably1 9 read+ ! bless$ ^w ( ,god2 & 9 ! aft]noon ,i read ,mr4 ,h]vey's m$itations1 :i* 7 also exce$+ sweet & pr(itable4 ,sunday1 ,febru>y #a4 ,i w5t to ! sacram5t ?is day at ,tr9ity *ur*4 ,?is be+ ! place :]e ! rema9s ( my de> ,miss ,ly 7 deposit$1 x br\ght _m s]i\s reflections1 b !y did n draw me (f ! duty1 9 :i* ,i 0 m imm$iately engag$4 ,= ?is week pa/ ,i h at times f\nd a measure ( s]i\sness & enl>gem5t 9 private duty4 ,i sc>cely "k :at /ate my s\l has be5 9 ?is =tnight pa/1 n hav+ _h "t to write4 ,i fe> ,i am fall+ into ! =m] ,laodicean _s4 ,"l ,jesus1 quick5 me2 ,o save me = ?y m]cy's sake4 ,saturday #bh4 ,?is be+ my bir?-day1 ,i w\ld h sp5t 9 retirem5t1 b 0 prev5t$2 h[ev] ,i sp5t two h\rs h]e9 exce$+ com=tably4 ,o may ,i sp5d ea* day & mom5t 9 ! s]vice ( him1 :o has s graci\sly pres]v$ me to ?is "t6 ,surely x is ( ! ,"l's m]cies t ,i h n long s9ce be5 consum$1 because 8 t5d] compassions fail n4 ,sunday1 ,m>* #h4 ,my he>t 0 mu* drawn t[>ds ,god ?is morn+1 bo? be=e & at *ur*4 ,friday ev5+ a "y /rang] :o appe>$ q illit]ate1 agreeably surpris$ u ) a connect$ s5sible & pr(itable disc\rse on1 ,behold ,god is my salvation4 ,o :5 %all ,i exp]im5tally say ^! words8 ,"l1 :y n n[8 ,sunday #ae4 ,i sp5t ! morn+ v com=tably 9 read+ ! scripture ) ,mr4 ,wesley's notes2 9 ! aft]noon ,mr4 ,h]vey's sweet m$itations on ! />ry heav5s4 ,i f\nd my s\l 9 a s]i\s ?\ghtful frame1 till ,i 0 discompos$ by a trifl+ incid5t4 ,sunday #bi4 ,i f\nd my s\l mu* l$ out 9 pray]1 ev5 :ile ,i 0 read+1 z ,i did dur+ ! latt] end ( ! la/ week2 bless$ be ,god = x4 ,sunday1 ,april #e4 ,i 0 greatly di/ress$ at *ur*1 & aft]w>ds1 ^u acc\nt ( my s9s1 & at times 0 ev5 ready to believe t ! ,"l w\ld ca/ me (f = ev]4 ,all ,i c\ld say 01 8,guilty ,i /& be=e ?y face1 ,i feel on me ?y wra? abide1 ',tis j ! s5t5ce %\ld take place1 ',tis jb ,o ?y son ha? di$40 ,9 ! ev5+ we _h a pr(itable & lively love-fea/1 at :i* my poor s\l f\nd "s refre%m5t4 ,o may x be daily f$ ) ! bread ( life6 8,?is manna to my s\l be giv51 ,s5t f ! tree ( life 9 heav540 ,friday #ag4 ,?is day be+ ,good-,friday1 we w5t to ! sacram5t at ! ,ca!dral1 b 9 no means :e!r public or private1 0 my s\l ble/1 ?o' ,i f\nd great att5tion to ! s]mon prea*$ by ,mr4 ,gd 9 ! ev5+1 ^u ! words ) :i* our once dy+1 ?o' n[ ev] liv+ ,savi\r clos$ 8 suff]+1 pa9ful life6 ,x is f9i%$4 ,john xix4 #cj4 ,amaz+ tru?6 8',tw]e bold to ?9k x true1 ,if n f> bold] /ill to disbelieve40 ,t ! au?or & possessor ( life et]nal1 %\ld himself become a prey to dea?6 ,& = :om8 ,= angels8 ,no1 :5 !y left _! fir/ & ble/ e/ate1 x 0 irretrievably lo/4 ,= 8 fri5ds8 ,no1 b = enemies1 = rebels1 = vile apo/ates1 = ungrateful s9n]s6 ,well might ! apo/le cry out1 8,o ! l5g? & bread?1 ! dep? & height ( ?is /up5d\s love60 ,?is day 0 ! sad anniv]s>y on :i* ,i p>t$ f ! t5d]e/1 be/ ( p>5ts1 & took a long1 if n a la/ f>ewel ( my native l&2 :e!r ,i %all ev] see t1 or my de>e/ p>5ts m1 ! ,"l kn[e?4 8,b ,o may we all meet on t peaceful %ore1 ,:]e pa91 & dea?1 & p>t+ are no m60 ,sunday1 ,may #c4 ,= ?is =tnight my s\l has be5 9 g5]al 9 a lifeless1 inactive frame2 & ,i h f\nd little bless+ 9 any means1 except private pray]2 9 ?is ,i h be5 frequ5tly quick5$ & refre%$4 ,sunday #bd4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i f\nd my s\l refre%$ 9 private pray] ?is day1 b ,i _h h>d "w 9 ! ev5+ to keep my m9d /ay$ on ,god1 & att5tive to ! s]mon4 ,tuesday #bf4 ,my s\l 0 v cold & dead all day1 b at ! class meet+1 ,i f\nd my desires greatly quick5$2 especially dur+ ! la/ pray]4 ,?is la/$ all ! ev5+2 ,o may x /ill cont9ue4 ,"l1 let n my fooli% he>t rob me ( ! bless+4 ,sunday1 ,june #g4 ,i w5t to ! sacram5t ?is morn+ at ! ,ca!dral1 b f\nd no p>ticul> bless+1 ?o' my he>t 0 aft]w>ds refre%$1 :ile wait+ ^u ,god 9 private duties4 ,sunday #ad4 ,my s\l 0 mu* ble/ 9 private pray] ?is morn+1 b ! re/ ( ! day ,i 0 s weigh$ d[n ) dr[s9ess t ,i c\ld sc>ce read or pray ) any satisfaction3 h[ev]1 my m9d 0 9 a s]i\s frame mo/ ( ! day4 ,sunday #ba4 ,i w5t to ! sacram5t at ,w]burgh's *ur*1 & f\nd my he>t affect$ ) a lively s5se ( ,god's love to my s\l 9 s5d+ 8 ,son to die = me4 ,o t ?is 8 love might /ir me up to love him aga91 = al?o' he is 9 himself altoge!r lovely1 yet no?+ b a deep he>t-felt conviction t ,jesus lov$ me1 & gave himself = me1 c induce u to love him aga94 ,b ah6 ,i _c1 _c love4 8,?is is my %ame1 my grief1 my hell1 ,i d n love ! ble$+ ,lamb2 ,! ,lamb t lov$ my s\l s well1 ,?is is my grief1 my hell1 my %ame40 ,sunday #bh4 ,9 private pray] ?is morn+ my s\l 0 greatly ble/1 & ,i f\nd sweet enl>gem5t 9 pray+ = ! bless+1 bo? = myself1 & = my de>e/ p>5ts2 likewise ,i f\nd lib]ty to pray = all my relations & fri5ds1 = ! *ur*1 & = all ! _w4 ,bless$ be ! ,"l = ?is undes]v$ m]cy4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 /irr$ up by ,mr4 ,gs disc\rse f ,hebrews ii4 #c4 ,h[ %all we escape1 if we neglect s great salvation8 ,"l1 h[ %all ,i escape8 ,only by fly+ to ! w\nds ( ,jesus2 t is ! only city ( refuge4 ,o may ,i escape ?i!r1 z ,lot did to ,zo>1 e'er ! /orm ( div9e v5geance be p\r$ on ?is guilty head4 99,monday1 ,july #f4 ,my m9d 0 mu* di/ress$ ?is day by t fe> :i* love alone ca/s out1 7! fe> ( dea?47 ,:at p>ticul>ly br\ght me to reflect ^u x at ?is "t1 0 a dream :i* ,mrs4 ,lr _h _h conc]n+ me2 at fir/ ,i pray$ e>ne/ly t ! ,"l w\ld sp>e my life1 be+ excessively fright5$ at ! ?\ght ( dy+3 b aft]w>ds ,i began to consid]1 :at if my reque/ %\ld be grant$ 9 wra?1 z :5 ! ,israelites pray$ = meat8 ,:at w\ld become ( me !n8 ,p]haps ! ,"l sees1 if ,i live ,i %all di%on\r him2 be a sc&al to my pr(ession2 a reproa* to ! p among :om ,i am2 & a grief to my p>5ts4 ,n[ if ! ,"l %\ld take me f ! evil to come1 %\ld prev5t me f do+1 z well z suff]+ evil1 by tak+ me to himself1 :at cause ( compla9t %\ld ,i h8 ,surely none1 nay x w\ld be matt] ( rejoic+ to all et]nity3 besides %\ld none ( ^! ?+s happ51 b 7 ,i sure ( glid+ ?ro' ?is _w easily & pleasantly2 w\ld x n be bett] to rea* ! de/9$ hav51 )\t putt+ to sea at all2 or at lea/ ) a v %ort1 & z yet a pleasant passage6 ,did any ev] ?9k x 0 too soon to g to heav58 ,surely no4 ,no su* compla9ts 7 ev] made by "o s\l t got ?i!r at all4 ,b alas6 ,i am unwill+ to "p ) life1 because ,i "k n :]e ,i %all g4 ,o6 8,:o c tell me if ?is /rife1 ,9 heav5 or hell %all end80 8z0 replac$ ) 8z :50 p] ,errata 8bett]0 replac$ ) 8be bett]0 p] ,errata ,"l %all my s\l be c>ri$ by angels into ,abraham's bosom1 or hurri$ by fi5ds into endless torm5ts6 ,"l 'tis true1 ,i am a great s9n]2 b ,jesus is an ,almighty ,savi\r4 ,i entirely r5\nce all dep5d5ce ^u myself4 8,?is all my hope1 & all my plea1 ,= me ! ,savi\r di$40 ,yes1 my de>e/ ,jesus ?\ did'/ die = me3 !n ,i may be sav$4 ,"l ,i believe2 help ?\ m9e unbelief4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,hn gave an acc\nt ( ! life & dea? ( ,mr4 ,pl ,gd1 an em95t & useful prea*]2 & !n gave out ^! l9es1 9 :i* ,i jo9$ ) my :ole he>t3 8,o may we ?us our p>t+ brea?1 ,into ! ,savi\r's h& resign3 ,o ,jesus1 let me die 8 dea?1 ,& let 8 latt] end be m9e40 ,we came home tw5ty m9utes be=e t51 & ,i fell asleep ) ! same s]i\s impressions on my _s1 :i* also la/$ mo/ "p ( ! next day1 & = sev]al days aft]4 ,sunday1 ,augu/ #b4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,fl took 8 leave ( u f ^! words 9 ,luke iv4 #db4 ,& he said ,i mu/ g & prea* ! k+dom ( ,god to o!r cities also3 = !re=e am ,i s5t4 ,! next ev5+ ,mr4 ,jn took 81 f ,romans viii4 #ag4 ,& if *ildr51 !n heirs1 heirs ( ,god1 & jo9t heirs ) ,*ri/4 ,he 0 exce$+ lively4 ,i f\nd conc]n 9 p>t+ ) !m4 ,o may ,i pr(it m by ! next6 99,?ursday #f4 ,he>+ ?is day ( a v melan*oly affair1 conc]n+ a p]son :om ,i knew only by sight3 ,i 0 exce$+ly /irr$ up to ?ankfulness1 = be+ s situat$1 t x 0 almo/ impossible ! l %\ld befal me3 ,i am surr\nd$ ) t5d] & c>eful fri5ds1 :o cont9ually wat* ov] me 9 love3 ,i am ble/ ) p>5ts1 :o by words :5 pres5t ) !m1 & by lett]s n[ abs5t1 8,w>n me to %un ! _w's delusive sn>es2 ,tea* by _! lives1 & gu>d me by _! pray]s40 ,& he has incl9$ my he>t to li/5 to ! in/ructions & advice1 ,i daily receive f "o or ano!r4 ,i w5t to our private meet+ on ,friday1 & f\nd my s\l ble/1 & he>tily jo9$ 9 ,mr4 ,b's pray] = ! poor unhappy creature to suff] ! ensu+ day4 ,also ,i 0 greatly /irr$ up to pray = h]1 :5 9 private at night4 ,saturday #ae4 ,ab\t "o o'clock my aunt ,br & little c\s9s1 arriv$ 9 ,*e/]2 ,i 0 extreamly glad to see !m4 ,o :5 w my de> p>5ts come8 ,"l1 ?y "t is be/1 only let me be resign$ to ?y w4 8,s9ce none c d\bt ?y equal love1 ,unmeasurably k9d1 ,to ?y un]r+1 graci\s w ,be e wi% resign'd40 ,sunday #af4 ,! ensu+ week ,i 0 mu* indispos$1 & did n g out till ! next ,saturday sev'night3 dur+ ?is "t1 my s\l 0 kept 9 a calm reliance ^u ,god1 ?o' at times ,i f\nd deadness2 :i* ,i p>tly imput$ to my disord] 7a sev]e cold47 ,saturday1 ,septemb] #ac4 ,mr4 ,pn go+ to ,irel&1 gave a v pr(itable disc\rse ^u ,john xvi4 #ca4 ,d ye n[ believe8 ,inde$ ?is 0 a v com=table day to my poor s\l2 :i* bless$ be ! ,"l1 0 mu* refre%$ 9 all ! means ( grace1 bo? at sacram5t1 private pray]1 & ! prea*+4 ,?is ev5+ ,mr4 ,tr arriv$ 9 ,*e/]4 ,o may 8 com+ among/ u be productive ( mu* good to ?is p1 & to my poor s\l6 ,friday #ah4 ,?is 0 a fa/-day kept to intreat ! ,"l to revive 8 "w 9 ?is l&4 ,mr4 ,tr & my uncle pray$ alt]nately1 & ) mu* p[]4 ,o t x may be su* a fa/ z ! ,"l approves (1 & an acceptable day to him4 ,on ,saturday ev5+1 ,mr4 ,tr prea*$ f ,john xii4 #bb4 ,sir1 we w\ld see ,jesus4 ,"l ,i w\ld see him too4 ,o may x be n[4 ,monday #ba4 ,mr4 ,hn1 :o _h accompani$ ,lady ,m to t[n1 ) h] & h] bro!r1 d9$ ) u4 ,%e is ! mo/ affable lady ,i h ev] se51 & dresses almo/ z pla9 z we d4 duplicate ^w 8z0 remov$ ,sunday1 ,octob] #d4 ,9 ! ev5+ my s\l 0 quick5$ :ile ,mr4 ,tr 0 prea*+ on ! p>able ( ! dry bones4 99,tuesday1 ,novemb] #ag4 ,on ?is day 7 unit$1 my uncle ,f1 & my truly de> & respect$ fri5d ,mrs4 ,m ,l4 ,) unspeakable pleasure ,i embrac$ h]1 z a mo/ de> lov$ relative4 ,) ! same satisfaction %e 0 receiv$ by ^? ( my aunts1 :o reside 9 ?is place1 z _! si/]2 & ,i d\bt n w be by ^? :o are n[ abs5t1 :5 !y he> ! surpris+ tid+s4 ,my he>t's desire & pray] to ,god = !m is1 t !y may be long ble/ ) ea* o!r2 t ?is union may be a means ( unit+ !m m closely to ! bless$ bridegroom ( ! *ur*2 & t f9ally1 !y & we may be receiv$ into ! family ( heav51 ) a ,well-done good & fai?ful s]vants1 ent] ye into ! joy ( y\r ,"l4 ,?ursday #ai4 ,! committ+ a kn[n s91 ?rew me into exquisite di/ress1 s t ,i h>dly d>$ to g to pray]1 & ,satan mak+ ! be/ ( 8 opportunity sorely w\nd$ me2 yea1 _h sla9 me1 _h n ! s9n]'s fri5d /ept 9 to rescue me1 & giv5 me hope4 ,?is hope 0 confirm$ 9 meet+ my class on ,tuesday4 ,bless$ be 8 "n = ?is6 ,b /ill ?is c't suffice1 unless he give me 8 de> self :i* my s\l truly longe? =4 ,sunday #bi4 ,i sp5t ! day pr(itable1 & com=tably1 ?anks be to ,god4 ,mr4 ,tr prea*$ 9 ! ev5+ on ,isaiah lv4 #a4 ,ho1 e "o t ?ir/e?1 c4 ,o h[ sweet an invitation to ! ?ir/y s\l6 ,"l1 give me grace to accept x4 ,?ursday ev5+ my uncle prea*$ on ,m>k vii4 #bd4 ,b he c\ld n be hid4 ,aft] s]mon he in=m$ u ( ,mr4 ,pn's be+ tak5 to re/ on ,sunday1 ,novemb] #bb1 :o ab\t two mon?s ago 0 /&+ 9 t pulpit1 invit+ s9n]s to come to ,*ri/ 9 ! mo/ e>ne/ mann]3 he !n d9$ ) u1 & aft] d9n] sung a hymn v suitable1 7z x has prov$7 = himself1 :o 0 s soon to ent] into ! joy ( 8 ,"l4 ,x 0 a fun]al hymn1 & begun ) ^! l9es1 8,away ) our sorr[ & fe>1 ,we soon %all recov] our home1 ,! city ( sa9ts %all appe>1 ,! day ( et]nity come4 8,f e>? we %all quickly remove1 ,& m\nt to our native abode1 ,! h\se ( our ,fa!r above3 ,! palace ( angels & ,god40 99,my m9d 0 mu* tak5 up all ! ev5+1 & ! foll[+ day1 ) ! ?\ght ( dea?2 :i* occasion$ _m s]i\s reflections4 ,i ?9k if ! ,"l w\ld make me meet = glory1 ,i c\ld 7"y z ,i am17 quit ! _w1 & n leave a wi% beh9d3 b ! ,"l's w be done6 ,?ursday1 ,decemb] #aj4 ,my uncle gave an exce$+ com=table & pr(itable disc\rse f ,isaiah xl4 #a4 ,com=t ye1 ,com=t ye my p1 sai? y\r ,god4 ,my s\l 0 mu* refre%$1 h]e9 ,god fulfill$ t promise1 ,be=e !y call1 ,i w answ]1 = ,i w5t )\t ! lea/ expectation ( a bless+1 & sc>cely d>$ to pray = "o1 kn[+ my great unwor?9ess4 ,h[ev] ! ,"l met me1 & gave fre% hopes & desires1 = :i* may ,i bless 8 "n1 :ile ,i h brea?4 99,sunday #ac4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,ck prea*$ a s]mon on ^! awful words1 ,revelation vi4 #ag4 ,= ! great day ( 8 wra? is come1 & :o %all be able to /&8 ,:o inde$ b ^? :o h wa%$ _! robes1 & made !m :ite 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb1 :o h made ! judge _! fri5d6 ,^! & ^! only %all /& ) boldness 9 t day4 ,"l1 %all ,i be "o ( t numb]8 ,friday #be4 ,i f\nd a bless+ at ! ,"l's table1 :]e ,i solemnly d$icat$ myself to him1 :o gave himself = me4 ,o may x be unres]v$ly & irrevocably6 ,"l1 "h is my he>t2 ,o take & seal x2 seal x = ?y c\rts above4 ,sunday #bg4 ,our h\se be+ 9 su* confusion1 z x has be5 = "s days pa/1 by reason ( ! sickness :i* has be5 9 x1 my m9d has n be5 9 t compos$ sweet frame z ,i c\ld wi%3 b "o bless+ ,i h exp]i5c$1 :i* is1 ,i h be5 enabl$ to ex]cise pati5ce1 s z n to murmur & fret1 ?o' e ?+ has gone cross ) me4 ,nay ?ro' ! m]cy ( ,god1 ,i h rejoic$ 9 x3 & be5 ?ankful = hav+ an opportunity ( *e>fully be>+ ! cross2 = all :i* ,i desire to praise my ,god4 ,monday1 ,decemb] #bc4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,tr made a useful disc\rse on ,lam5tations iii4 #bb4 ,x is ( ! ,"l's m]cies t we are n consum$1 because 8 compassions fail n4 ,he %ew$ ! _m ways :]eby we might h be5 consum$2 & ! _m m]cies we h receiv$ f ,god4 ,:5 ,i fir/ w5t into ! *apel1 my m9d 0 exce$+ly di/urb$ by _m evil temp]s4 ,b 9 s++ ?is v]se1 8,f ang] set our spirits free1 ,x worke? n ?y righte\sness3 ,9 pati5ce let u wait on !e1 ,& quietly our s\ls possess30 ,! ?\ght cross'd my m9d3 %all ,i ?us mock ,god2 pray to him to compose my m9d1 :ile ,i am yield+ to ^! temp]s8 ,i resolv$ to /rive aga9/ !m3 ?ro' 8 /r5g? ,i ov]came !m1 & f\nd a bless+ ?o' entirely unexpect$4 99,friday #bi4 ,i 0 conf9$ to my b$1 be+ mu* indispos$4 ,o :at a %ort transition f "t to et]nity6 ,i ?\ght mu* ( dy+1 b felt no fe>3 n because ,i 0 n[ ready1 b ,i firmly believ$ ! ,"l w\ld cut %ort 8 "w 9 righte\sness if he call$ me4 ,?is illness1 aft] a day or two1 mu* increas$1 & appe>$ to be a putrid fev]3 b h] m9d cont9u$ /ay$ ^u ,god4 ,ab\t a =tnight1 aft] %e 0 tak51 %e express$ a full confid5ce 9 him1 be+ :olly deliv]$ f ! fe> ( dea?4 ,a few days aft]1 h] spee* & he>+ 7 tak5 away1 by ! viol5ce ( h] di/emp]4 ,b x 0 easy to disc]n1 t h] und]/&+ rema9$1 ?o' %e c\ld conv]se ) none b ,god4 ,h] eyes & h&s almo/ cont9ually lift$ up1 %ew$ h] he>t 0 /ill ) him4 ,9 h] greate/ agonies ( pa91 !re 0 n ! lea/ m>k ( impati5ce3 till on ,janu>y ! #ba/1 #agfh1 ab\t f\r o'clock 9 ! aft]noon1 %e quietly resign$ h] _s to ,god4 ,an ,extract f ! ,,j\rnal ( ,,elizabe? ,,h>p]4 ,to ! ,,read]4 #a4 ,,to set ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/ian p]fection too high1 is ! ready way to drive x out ( ! _w4 ,let a man only describe x1 z imply+ a fre$om f mi/akes & human infirmities2 & :oev] kn[s !re is no su* fre$om 9 ?is life1 naturally concludes1 8,!re is no p]fection40 ,h5ce we %\ld always c>efully gu>d aga9/ ?is1 by insi/+1 x is no m & no less1 ?an giv+ ,god all our he>t3 lov+ him ) all our he>t1 & our neighb\r z ourselves4 #b4 ,?is is well consi/5t ) a ?\s& infirmities1 :i* belong to e s\l :ile 9 ! body4 ,to place ?is 9 ! cle>e/ & fulle/ light1 ,i h publi%$ ! foll[+ extract f ! artless j\rnal ( a pla9 woman1 wrote m]ely = h] own use4 ,i h no d\bt1 b ,god _h all h] he>t4 ,b yet h[ _m 7 h] infirmities6 ,& ^! are ! m app>5t1 because %e 0 a p]son ( no uncommon end[m5ts2 "o t _h j pla91 natural und]/&+1 )\t any advantage ( education1 & :o wrote d[n daily j :at %e felt1 ) all possible artlessness & simplicity4 ,! *ief ( ^! are1 w&]+ ?\ghts 7:e!r natural or pret]-natural37 li/lessness 9 private pray] 7,i believe1 entirely ow+ to bodily disord]37 hurry 9 bus9ess 7x seems1 n app>5t to o!rs1 ?\gh frequ5tly felt by h]self37 want ( a /$dy1 inv>iable adv]t5ce to ! pres5ce ( ,god3 speak+ too _m words1 m ?an 7 /rictly necess>y3 speak+ ?r\gh ignorance1 a ^w n /rictly true3 speak+ sometimes too quick1 s z to h ! appe>ance ( ang]3 omission ( ?+s :i* _h bett] be done4 ,p]haps "o might m5tion likewise "u ?is head1 su* vehem5t temptations to ang]1 to impati5ce1 to fretfulness1 to immod]ate sorr[1 & to foll[ h] own w1 t at div]s times %e escap$ ) ! sk9 ( h] tee?1 & sc>ce knew :e!r %e escap$ or n4 ,s p>ticul> a detail ( ^! ?+s1 may be ( s+ul> use to ^? :o f9d ! same temptations3 & :o may be enc\rag$ h]eby1 to hold ! beg9n+ ( _! confid5ce /$fa/ unto ! end4 #c4 ,b x may be object$1 8,if p]fection means only t love :i* is consi/5t ) all ^! infirmities1 !n h[ does x diff] f :at is exp]i5c$ by e believ]80 ,i answ]1 #a4 ,_m are deliv]$ f ^! infirmities1 9 a f> great] measure ?an %e 04 ,i judge h] to h be5 a real witness ( ,*ri/ian p]fection1 b only 9 a l[ degree4 #b4 ,:om d y "k t exp]i5ces ev5 :at %e did1 t nev]-fail+ love ( ,god & man1 t un9t]rupt$ calmness ( m9d1 t inv>iable meekness1 g5tl5ess1 humility8 ,t cont9ual hung] & ?ir/ aft] righte\sness aft] ! entire image ( ,god8 ,above all1 t absolute1 unres]v$ dep5d5ce ^u ,*ri/1 z ! f\nta9 ( e good & p]fect gift1 ( all hol9ess & happ9ess8 ,does e believ] exp]i5ce ?is8 ,i w be bold to say1 n "o 9 a ?\s&4 ,i suppose n "o ^u e>?1 unless he has receiv$ ano!r gift1 widely diff]5t f :at he receiv$ :5 he 0 ju/ifi$4 ,at lea/ ,i "k no "o 9 ! ?ree k+doms1 :o comes up to ?is exp]i5ce1 7besides a few 9 _! fir/ love17 unless aft] ju/ification he has f\nd a second *ange wr\ght 9 a mom5t4 ,h[ev]1 conc]n+ t circum/ance we ne$ n dispute1 :e!r x be wr\ght gradually or in/antane\sly4 ,only let ! *ange be wr\ght4 ,only let our s\ls be r5ew$ 9 ! :ole image ( ,god4 ,only let all t m9d be 9 u1 :i* 0 also 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus3 let him reign 9 our he>ts )\t a rival2 at all times & 9 all places4 ,let u be all devot$ to him 9 s\l & 9 body3 & let all our ?\ghts1 & words1 & actions1 be cont9ually (f]$ up to ,god1 z holy sacrifices acceptable to ,god ?r\gh ,*ri/4 #d4 ,a few m circum/ances relat+ to ?is amiable woman1 may n be unacceptable to ! read]4 ,elizabe?1 ! daught] ( ,william & ,joan ,tuck1 0 born at ,p5zance1 ,decemb] #bj1 #agcd4 ,%e 0 br\ght to ,r$ru?1 :5 ab\t f\r ye>s old1 & z %e grew up1 liv$ z o!r h>mless p did4 ,june #cj1 #agee1 %e 0 m>ri$ to "o ,&rew ,h>p]1 a %opkeep] ( ,r$ru?2 & ?ree or f\r ye>s aft]1 %e became weak & sickly4 ,at ! same "t %e grew di/re/ 9 h] m9d1 :i* %e /rove to remove by v>i\s ways2 b all to no purpose4 ,9 ! latt] end ( ! ye> #agfc1 a fev] br\ght h] to ! br9k ( et]nity4 ,%e 0 greatly afraid to die3 & he>+ !re 7 "s 9 ! t[n1 :o _h no fe> ( dea?1 %e intreat$ h] husb&1 )\t delay1 to s5d = "o ( ! prea*]s4 ,conv]s+ ) him1 %e saw ! way ( conqu]+ ! fe> ( dea?4 ,%e soon recov]$ h] heal?1 & f t "t s\ght ! ,"l ) h] :ole he>t1 till on ,ea/]-day 7hav+ jo9$ ! society be=e7 z %e 0 receiv+ ! ,"l's supp]1 ^! words 7 /rongly appli$ to h] s\l1 ,x is ,god t ju/ifie?3 :o is he t condemne?8 ,%e w5t home1 call$ h] husb&1 & said1 8,n[ all my s9s are =giv54 ,i am n afraid to die n[3 = ,i love ,god1 & ,i "k he loves me40 #e4 ,f ?is "t %e walk$ closely ) ,god1 & 0 he>ty & zeal\s 9 8 cause4 ,!re 0 no?+ 9 h] p[]1 :i* %e 0 n ready to d = ! s]vants or *ildr5 ( ,god4 ,%e 0 exce$+ly tempt$1 aft] %e believ$ ,god _h cleans$ h] f inbr$ s94 ,( ?is %e gives a l>ge acc\nt 9 h] j\rnal3 b %e did n ca/ away h] confid5ce4 ,:5 %e saw dea? approa*+1 %e 0 n mov$1 b calmly look$ up to ,god4 ,%e exhort$ h] husb&1 & all ne> h]1 n to love ! _w1 or ! ?+s ( ! _w4 ,a little aft] %e said1 8,"l1 ?\ kn[e/ all ?+s3 ?\ kn[e/ t ,i love !e4 ,?\ kn[e/1 x ha? be5 my only desire1 to please !e3 ,come1 ,"l ,jesus6 ,come1 & sanctify me ?r\gh\t1 _s1 s\l & body6 ,o come quickly40 ,9 a little "t %e cri$1 8,he is come6 ,he is come60 ,& pres5tly fell asleep4 99 99 99 99 99 ,an ,,extract f h] ,,j\rnal4 ,,augu/ #h1 #agfe4 ,aft] breakfa/1 z ,i 0 at pray]1 ! ,"l broke 9 ^u my s\l4 ,o may he ha/5 ! happy "t1 :5 ,i %all be fill$ ) 8 fulness1 & assi/ me to believe to full salvation6 ,o t he w\ld make me a clean he>t1 & r5ew a "r _s )9 me6 ,friday #i4 ,bless$ be 8 "n1 he has kept me ?is day1 amid/ all ! hurry ( bus9ess4 ,i long to get into ! glori\s lib]ty ( 8 de> *ildr54 ,may ! ,"l increase my fai?1 & confirm my hope1 = my de> ,r$eem]'s sake6 ,saturday #aj4 ,i 0 ) "s :o d n hold 8s9less p]fection10 z !y call x1 to be atta9able "h4 ,aft]w>ds ,i f\nd1 ! talk+ ab\t _! op9ion 0 n ( use to me4 ,x only damp$ my _s4 ,may ! ,"l ( 8 great goodness lead me into all tru?6 ,sunday #aa4 ,we 7 talk+ ( ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce1 :i* is useful 9 its place2 b ,i fe>1 ,i talk$ too mu*4 ,"l1 give me a t5d] consci5ce1 8! slighte/ t\* ( s9 to feel40 ,monday #ab4 ,to-day1 glory be to 8 "n1 ,i h _h p[] ov] my besett+ s94 ,i hope1 x w n be long be=e ,i h an evid5ce1 t he has made an end ( my inbr$ s94 ,may he ev] keep me humble1 & fill me ) love1 m to be desir$ ?an gold1 yea1 ?an mu* f9e gold4 99,aft]w>d ,i 0 talk+ ) a ,*ri/ian fri5d conc]n+ ?is bless+2 & we saw1 t none c receive x1 till !y feel ! want ( x fir/1 & t !n x mu/ be receiv$ by simple fai? alone4 ,i said1 8,suppose ,i beg9 to live n[1 & believe f ?is "t80 ,%e said1 8,t is ! "r way40 ,"l ,i d believe3 help my unbelief1 & increase my fai? m & m4 ,:5 ,i 0 go+ to b$1 ,i f\nd great confid5ce 9 ! ,"l4 ,may he increase x to ! p]fect day6 ,tuesday #ac4 ,glory be to ,god1 ?is has be5 a day ( m>r[ & fat ?+s to my s\l4 ,may he keep me l[ at 8 feet1 & humble me 9 ! v du/ be=e 8 glori\s ,maje/y6 ,w$nesday #ad4 ,i wak$ )1 ,n[ is ! ax laid to ! root ( ! tree4 ,may ! ,"l root up :atev] is n ( 8 own plant+6 ,glory be to 8 "n = :at he has done4 ,i h n f\nd any ang] rise 9 me ?is day4 ,b ,i 0 surpris$ at private pray] two or ?ree times1 ) some?+ /rik+ me betwe5 ! %\ld]s z ) a d>t4 ,:atev] x is1 may ! ,"l give me p[] ov] x1 & take x f me 9 8 own due "t4 ,?ursday #ae4 ,i 0 mu* di/re/ = a cle>] evid5ce1 & cri$ to ,god1 to increase my fai?4 ,9 reprov+ a p]son1 ,i f\nd some?+ rise z quick z ?\ght4 ,b ,i look$ to ! ,"l1 & x 0 gone4 ,friday #af4 ,bless$ be ,god1 he has %ewn me to-day my weakness & helplessness m ?an ev]4 ,i am amaz$ to see ! greatness ( ,god1 z well z 8 unb\nd$ love 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 ,i see1 t unless he save me by free grace1 ,i mu/ p]i% = ev]4 ,?is morn+ ,i c believe he has giv5 me ! bless+4 ,glory be to ,god = ev] & ev]6 ,saturday #ag4 ,bless$ be 8 "n1 t ,i desire no?+1 b to "k ,jesus ,*ri/1 & him crucifi$2 & t ,i feel1 he suff]$ & di$ = me4 ,may my he>t be ev] melt$ d[n into ! pr(\nde/ humility & self-abasem5t be=e 8 awful ,maje/y6 ,tuesday #bj4 ,= two or ?ree days ,i h be5 conf9$ to my b$1 b my m9d is /ay$ ^u ,god3 & ,i loa? ! v appe>ance ( s92 ,i w\ld n deceive myself = ! _w4 ,"l1 give me to try myself by ?y ^w1 weigh myself 9 ! balance ( ! sanctu>y6 ,w$nesday #ba4 ,i told "o to-day1 8,if y die 9 ! /ate y are 91 y w g to hell40 ,i spoke x purely = ! good ( h] s\l4 ,yet ! m9ute ,i spoke1 some?+ %ock$ me1 & ,i 0 afraid1 x 0 too h>%4 ,may ! ,"l p>don :at 0 amiss 9 x1 & enable me to speak 9 a m prop] mann] = ! "t to come6 ,?ursday #bb4 ,o :at h ,i felt ?is day by ang]6 ,may ! ,"l speak peace anew to my s\l1 & fill me aga9 ) 8 love1 & make an utt] end ( s9 9 me1 = ,jesus ,*ri/'s sake6 ,friday #bc4 ,i 0 greatly tempt$ ) ang] ?is day3 b glory be to ,god1 x did n break out4 ,may ! ,"l de/roy x1 root & bran*1 = x is ! tr\ble ( my s\l4 ,may ,i nev] be at ease till he roots up ?is & e bitt] root besides6 ,saturday #bd4 ,glory be to ,god1 x is /ill my desire to be cleans$ f all s94 ,& is he n able & will+ to d x n[8 ,may he enable me to believe1 bless me ) 8 love1 & keep me ev] 9 x6 ,monday #bf4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i desire no?+ b to be fre$ f e ?+ contr>y to 8 love1 & to be :olly d$icat$ to 8 s]vice4 ,?is day ,i /rongly cri$ to ,god1 to be deliv]$ f all s91 & to h 8 ,_s witness x to my _s3 & ,i c\ld plead ! promise = x4 ,& :atev] s9 he saves me f1 may ,i give him all ! glory6 ,tuesday #bg4 ,glory be to ,god1 ?is has be5 a day ( long+ desire to be fill$ ) 8 full salvation2 & ,i felt m pa9 = want ( ?is1 ?an ev] ,i did :5 "u conviction1 = want ( p>don4 ,i h felt a v sore he>t1 to be cleans$ f ! 9-be+ ( s92 bless$ be ,god = x4 ,i believe1 he is able & will+ to d ?is3 ,i believe1 ,8 w is my sanctification4 ,o t ,i may believe he w d x n[6 ,! ,"l enable me1 to believe x f ?is "t6 ,& may ,i wat* always1 pray )\t ceas+1 & 9 e ?+ give ?anks6 ,may my life be "o cont9ual look+-up to ,jesus ! capta9 ( my salvation6 ,w$nesday #bh4 ,my he>t is /ill sore1 because ,i _c yet believe1 t ! ,"l has made an end ( 9-be+ s94 ,b ,i hope to see ! happy mom5t1 & to h ! div9e evid5ce )9 me4 ,may ,i be det]m9$ to wre/le = x 9 mighty pray]1 & expect x e mom5t6 ,friday #cj4 ,h[ %all ,i praise ! ,"l1 = :at he has done = my s\l8 ,o ! love ( a de> ,r$eem] to s9ful du/ & a%es6 ,praise ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 & all t is )9 me praise 8 holy "n4 ,sunday1 ,septemb] #a4 ,"l1 enable me to believe4 ,help my unbelief6 ,cleanse me f all fil?9ess ( fle% & _s1 t ,i may p]fect hol9ess 9 ! fe> ( ,god4 ,monday #b4 ,glory be to ,god1 ?o' ,i am tempt$2 ,i d n n[ f9d any ?+ 9 me1 to side ) ! temptation4 ,if ! ,"l has ca/ out my enemy1 may he keep him out = ev]6 99,tuesday #c4 ,glory be to ,god1 t he has increas$ my fai?4 ,temptations assault2 b !y h no place 9 me4 ,yet ,i 0 jeal\s ov] myself1 le/ ,i spoke too mu*1 ) "s ( our ,*ri/ian fri5ds4 ,h[ c>eful %\ld we be1 p>ticul>ly among ,*ri/ians6 ,= !n we are too apt to be mo/ (f our gu>d4 ,w$nesday #d4 ,i f9d ,i am solemnly /aid on ,god3 & my "o desire is1 to compreh5d ! l5g?1 & bread?1 & dep?1 & height ( t love :i* passe? k4 ,yet ! enemy presses sore at me ) temptations2 b ,i h p[] f ,god to /& aga9/ !m4 ,o h[ %all ,i praise ! ,"l = 8 goodness8 ,may sil5ce speak 8 praise6 ,saturday #g4 ,glory be to ,god1 he does increase my fai?4 ,b ,i h be5 mu* tr\bl$ ) w&]+ ?\ghts4 ,! ,"l give me p[] to ov]come !m all1 & look e mom5t to my de> ,r$eem]6 99,sunday #h4 ,glory be to ,god1 t we h once m se5 ?y s]vant1 ,mr4 ,john ,wesley 9 ! body4 ,b ?is morn+1 be+ glad to see our fri5ds1 ,i d\bt1 ,i 0 c>ri$ away ) ov]-mu* joy4 ,may ! ,"l keep me on su* occasions ^u my wat*-t[] = ! "t to come6 ,monday #i4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i c /ill believe4 ,satan ?ru/s sore at me ) 8 fi]y d>ts4 ,b !y h no po9t3 !y _c ent] my s\l3 ! ,"l keeps me 9 ! try+ h\r4 ,?ursday #ab4 ,i rose ) new desires to seek ! ,"l1 & ,i f\nd him at ! morn+ prea*+4 ,aft] d9n]1 "s ( our neighb\rs 7 talk+ ( "o t _h wrong$ !m1 & ,i ?\ght x 0 bett] ,i %\ld be read+ my bible4 ,s ,i )drew4 ,glory be to ,god :o gave me light to see1 & p[] to take ! saf] pa?4 ,9 ! ev5+ "s 7 plead+ = a wild]ness-/ate4 ,i told !m1 t 0 n ! ,"l's w conc]n+ u3 & ,i f\nd fre$om to tell !m :at he _h done = my s\l4 ,o may he keep me l[ at 8 feet1 dep5d+ ^u him e mom5t = fre% supplies ( grace6 ,friday #ac4 ,?anks be to ,god1 ,i am at peace ) ,god & all m51 & love !m all = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,i see1 ,i am myself all weakness3 yet ,i c d all ?+s ?r\gh ,*ri/'s /r5g!n+ me4 ,8 m]cies are new unto me e morn+4 ,o may he give me a ?ankful he>t6 ,sunday #ae4 ,i 0 mu* tempt$ ) w&]+ ?\ghts at *ur*1 & to ang] ab\t ! *ildr53 b1 glory be to ,god1 ,i p]ceiv$ ! enemy 9 8 fir/ approa*1 & look$ = /r5g?1 & receiv$ x4 ,may ! ,"l give me a wat*ful1 pray+ _s1 & fill my s\l ) humble love6 ,monday #af4 ,0 ! qu>t]ly meet+1 & ,mr4 ,w4 0 !re4 ,i want$ to g2 b cont9ually ano!r & ano!r bus9ess int]pos$4 ,i 0 (t5 tempt$ to impati5ce2 b ,i saw ! temptation j z x came1 & x fl$ away4 ,at ! love-fea/1 ,i /ood up to speak3 b ,i _h only spoke two or ?ree words1 :5 ,mr4 ,furz 7,i suppose n he>+ me7 conclud$4 ,i 0 tempt$ to be displeas$2 b x took no place1 ! ,"l giv+ me /r5g?4 ,tuesday #ag4 ,:at a solemn morn+ 0 ?is6 ,de> ,mr4 ,w4 prea*$ 8 f>ewel s]mon4 ,may ! ,"l graft x on my he>t1 & bright5 my evid5ce m & m4 ,i h _h reason+s to-day1 :e!r ! "w 0 done3 b glory be to ,god1 ,i _c d\bt ( x4 ,i _c d\bt1 b he has ca/ out s94 ,may he keep x out = ev]6 99,w$nesday #ah4 ,i am afraid1 le/ ,i %\ld ?9k some?+ ( myself4 ,o may ! ,"l keep ! foot ( pride f me6 ,x is ( 8 free m]cy t ,i am out ( hell1 & t ,i am pres]v$ to ?is h\r4 ,& ,i mu/ /ill p]i%1 if he 7 extreme to m>k my misdo+s1 & if he did n wa% my mo/ holy ?+s 9 8 blood4 ,?ursday #ai4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i h be5 /ay$ ^u him ?is day1 & desir+ to be fill$ ) all 8 fulness4 ,o = ?is _s ( pray] at all times1 & 9 all places1 to set ! ,"l always be=e me6 ,saturday #ba4 ,my :ole desire1 is to h e ?\ght1 ^w & "w1 br\ght into ! ob$i5ce ( ,*ri/1 & to h my s\l always asc5d+ to ,god1 :]ev] ,i am1 & :atev] ,i am ab\t4 ,?is ev5+ he 0 pleas$ to bright5 my evid5ce4 ,may he wa% & keep me clean e mom5t6 ,w$nesday #be4 ,?is has be5 a day ( temptation & trial on e side2 b glory be to ,god1 ,i c\ld rejoice 9 ! mid/ ( x4 ,may ! ,"l always give me to see ! diff]5ce betwe5 s9 & temptation6 ,?ursday #bf4 ,i (t5 feel a sor5ess ( he>t1 z sore z if x _h be5 cutt+4 ,may ! ,"l give me to "k1 :e!r x is f him1 or f any ?+ ,i h done amiss6 ,if x is1 may he br+ x to my m9d1 t ,i may br+ x to him & h x done away6 ,sunday #bi4 ,i h f\nd ?is a solemn day to my s\l3 especially at *ur* 9 ! morn+1 at ! noon prea*+1 & 9 ! aft]noon1 :ile ?ree ( u 7 conv]s+ toge!r on spiritual ?+s4 ,o may we meet1 :]e we %all ca/ our cr[ns be=e ! ,lamb1 & praise him to all et]nity6 ,monday #cj4 ,i "k :at ! sor5ess ( he>t means4 ,truly ,i am sick ( love4 ,come into ?y g>d51 my love1 my dove1 ?\ *iefe/ ( t5 ?\s&6 ,o :at amaz+ love1 t ?\ & ?y ,fa!r %\ld condesc5d to dwell ) du/ & a%es6 ,?\ ,god ( love1 make me truly ?ankful = all ?y b5efits6 ,?ursday1 ,octob] #c4 ,?is morn+ ! body crav$ re/2 b ,i =c$ myself to rise4 ,inde$1 my delight is 9 ! law ( ! ,"l1 & 9 8 law d ,i ex]cise myself day & night4 ,x 0 an happy day4 ,b t[>d ev5+ ,i 0 n s lively4 ,my body sunk "u me4 ,& ! enemy ( s\ls is ready at e turn4 ,b1 bless$ be ,god1 ,i 0 m ?an conqu]or4 ,friday #d4 ,i 0 greatly bless$ ) ! love ( ,god4 ,o h[ happy is x1 to love him ) all our he>t8 ,yet 9 ! aft]noon1 ?ro' hurry ( bus9ess1 ,i 0 mu* tempt$ to peevi%ness4 ,b glory be to ,god1 he sav$ me f x4 ,let me die r ?an (f5d him6 ,saturday #e4 ,i w5t to br+ home my little *ild f my "m-9-law's4 ,on ! road ,i call$ to see a neighb\r1 :o ask$ = my husb& & "m4 ,i said1 )\t ?9k+1 !y gave _! s]vice to h]4 ,b h[ 0 ,i surpris$1 z soon z ! words 7 out ( my m\?6 ,i cri$ to ,god = p>don1 yet cont9u$ 9 heav9ess all ! day1 & at night 0 almo/ afraid to g to sleep4 ,9 ! morn+1 :ile sev]al ( u 7 at pray]1 x pleas$ ,god to set me at lib]ty4 ,tuesday #h4 ,i _h great fre$om 9 pray] ) my fri5ds1 be=e ,i came away4 ,i _h a solemn s5se ( ,god all ! way home1 admir+ 8 wisdom & greatness & goodness 9 all 8 works4 ,b ,i am afraid1 :5 ,i said1 8,put ! be/ clo? on my pillion1 n ! maid's10 le/ !re %\ld be pride 9 x4 ,if !re 01 ,"l1 take x all away1 & save me f x = ! "t to come6 ,friday #aa4 ,i 0 mu* out ( ord] 9 body1 yet happy 9 s\l4 ,b at noon ,i spoke a ^w unadvis$ly1 :i* afflict$ me mu*4 ,! ,"l p>don me1 & give me p[] to wat* ov] my e ?\ght1 & ^w1 & action6 ,saturday #ab4 ,?is be+ ! fair-day1 0 a "t ( mu* hurry3 b1 bless$ be ,god1 ,i 0 kept 9 peace4 ,& (t5 ,i enjoy bless$ communion ) ,god1 & c1 z x 71 grasp my ,savi\r ) e>ne/ affection4 ,inde$ he is preci\s to my s\l4 ,he is all ,i desire 9 e>? or heav54 ,sunday #ac4 ,?9k+ ( go+ to ,truro1 ,i cut a piece ( oil-case1 & p9n$ on my bonnet1 to keep (f ! ra94 ,b x came to me soon aft]1 8,h n y be5 do+ "w on ! ,"l's-day80 ,i 0 affright$1 & cri$ to ,god3 & quickly 8 peace fl[$ back into my he>t4 ,tuesday #be4 ,i 0 assault$ by a /rong temptation to lightness4 ,b1 glory be to ,god1 ,i 0 n ov]come4 ,aft]w>ds ,i 0 r\ghly accus$1 = speak+ a ^w t 0 n took well4 ,if ,i s9n$ !re91 may ! ,"l humble me = x1 & tea* me to gu>d my words4 ,may ,i live no long]1 b to adorn ! gospel ( ,god my ,savi\r4 ,friday #ah4 ,i 0 tempt$ to set my he>t on our g>d54 ,b ,i cri$ = help & 0 deliv]$4 ,i hope to use bo? ?is1 & e ?+ else1 ) a s+le eye to ! glory ( ,god4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i h solid1 settl$ peace2 & f9d my he>t enl>g$1 to promote 8 glory z f> z lies 9 my p[]4 ,may he assi/ me1 & keep me to ! end6 ,saturday #ai4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i see & feel my own weakness m & m4 ,my s\l is greatly drawn out aft] ,god1 = a l>g] measure ( grace4 ,o may ,i be ?r\ghly 8,will+ to receive1 ,:at ?y goodness waits to give60 ,tuesday #bb4 ,?is has be5 a day ( trial1 ev5 f my ne>e/ fri5d4 ,b1 glory be to ,god1 ,i h be5 kept 9 peace2 ?\gh )\t ,*ri/ ,i _c /& a mom5t4 ,i long to be ne>] ,*ri/1 & to h a m awful s5se ( ,god's pres5ce 9 my worldly bus9ess4 ,"l1 take away ! _s ( =getfulness f me1 & let me set !e always be=e me4 8wordly0 replac$ ) 8worldly0 ,friday #be4 ,i 0 wak$ ?is morn+ by ! cries ( my little *ild1 :o 0 v ill4 ,i ask$ ! maid to get up1 & light ! fire4 ,%e 0 unwill+1 & spoke quick4 ,i answ]$ quick1 8,i wond] y c lie by ! *ild1 & he> him cry s40 ,imm$iately ,i felt a dang] ( ang]1 & /opp$ %ort1 glory be to ,god4 ,saturday #bf4 ,i kept my b$ mo/ "p ( ! day1 & 0 likewise heavy 9 _s1 & _h h>dly any p[] to pray4 ,b 9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 greatly com=t$1 9 ?9k+ h[ glori\s ! *ange w\ld be1 :5 ?is mortal w\ld put on immortality1 & dea? be swall[$ up 9 victory4 ,monday #bh4 ,my little boy cont9u$ exce$+ ill3 ,i 0 q resign$ conc]n+ him1 only desir+ x might please ,god1 to ease 8 pa91 ei!r by life or by dea?4 ,b ,i want m pati5ce3 ,i want a m feel+ s5se ( ! suff]+s ( our ,"l1 :i* he endur$ = me1 ?\gh he knew no s94 ,& %all ,i1 :o des]ve hell1 compla9 ( any ?+8 ,saturday ,novemb] #b4 ,my *ild be+ v unruly1 ,i _h a /ruggle to avoid ang] 9 correct+ h]4 ,may ! ,"l enable me1 to keep my wat* e mom5t2 o!rwise ,i _c b fall4 ,monday #d4 ,?is has be5 a bless$ day ( communion ) ,god1 p>ticul>ly 9 private pray]4 ,& yet ,i feel s9 & ,satan always ne>4 ,b ,i f9d ,*ri/ ne>] /ill4 ,w$nesday #f4 ,glory be to ,god1 my :ole desire is1 to "k m ( myself1 & m ( ,god3 to see m ( ,god 9 e ?+1 & to be fill$ ) a deep] awe ( 8 con/ant pres5ce4 ,?ursday #g4 ,bless$ be ! ,"l = pati5ce1 "u ! unk9d treatm5t ( my ne>e/ & de>e/ fri5ds4 ,i h be5 ?is week mu* drawn out 9 pray]1 = ! s\ls ( all p4 ,b ,i long$ mo/ ( all = ! prosp]ity ( ,sion1 & t ! ,"l might ev] reign supreme 9 m9e own he>t4 ,tuesday #ab4 ,"s "p ( ! day1 ,i 0 dull & heavy2 till ,i cri$ to ! ,"l1 & he quick5$ me4 ,9 ! aft]noon1 :5 ! maid spoke1 ,i felt lightness fla%+ on me z quick z lightn+4 ,b ! ,"l lift$ up 8 /&>d aga9/ x3 & x w5t z quick z x came4 ,may he keep me f x z f ! greate/ ( s9s2 = inde$ !re is no little s9 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,w$nesday #ac4 ,?is has be5 a day ( /rong pray]1 & ,god has bless$ me 9 a glori\s mann]4 ,yet ! p[]s ( d>kness surr\nd$ me 9 private pray]1 s t sometimes ,i 0 almo/ afraid4 ,b ,i cri$ to ! ,"l1 & he refre%$ my s\l2 & ,i c\ld say ) de> confid5ce1 ,?\gh ,i walk ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i w fe> no evil4 ,monday #ah4 ,i spoke a ^w unaw>es1 :i* ,i 0 aft]w>ds afraid1 0 n true4 ,!n x came to me1 8,:]e is y\r clean he>t n[80 ,b imm$iately ,i cri$ to ,god1 8,"l1 give me p[] to wat* ov] my words1 & always to ?9k be=e ,i speak40 ,w$nesday #bj4 ,bless$ be ,god1 he has kept me ?is day also1 & refre%$ me ) ! %[]s ( 8 grace4 ,yet ! enemy que/ion$ my evid5ce1 & said1 x 0 only ju/ification :i* ,i exp]i5c$4 ,b ,i "k him to be a li> f ! beg9n+4 ,aft]w>ds1 9 ! hurry ( bus9ess1 he /rove to s[ peevi%ness 9 me3 b ,i begg$ ! ,"l to keep me f x1 & he he>d me4 ,saturday #bc4 ,i 0 heavy 9 s\l1 & _h _m pr(ane words br\ght be=e me4 ,sometimes also x 0 sugge/$1 8,?\ wilt de/roy ?yself30 at o!r times1 8,?\ ha/ committ$ ! unp>donable s940 ,! ,"l keep me 9 ! h\r ( temptation1 & f ! h\r ( temptation6 ,monday #be4 ,?is 0 a bless$ day to my s\l4 ,my m9d 0 solemnly /ay$ on ,god4 ,all ! cl\ds 7 disp]s$1 & ! sun ( righte\sness %one ^u me aga94 ,tuesday #bf4 ,our lead] n com+1 ,i 0 desir$ to lead ! b&4 ,x 0 a cross to me1 = fe> ,i %\ld n dis*>ge my duty4 ,b ! ,"l gave me a ^w to speak to ea*1 & p[] to wre/le = !m 9 pray]4 ,yet at night1 ,i _h mu* reason+1 :e!r ,i _h spok5 "r2 & !n x 0 sugge/$1 ,i _h done well4 ,! ,"l give me p[] to flee f pride1 9 e k9d & degree6 ,?ursday #bh4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,*ri/ 0 exce$+ preci\s to me ?is morn+4 ,o :at love _h ,i = ,*ri/6 ,! ,"l fill me ) love e mom5t6 ,saturday #cj4 ,i f9d my %ort-com+s daily1 & am amaz$ at ! goodness ( ,god4 ,i 0 mu* di/ress$ ?is ev5+1 because1 ,i did n take up my cross1 & give ?anks aft] tea1 ?\gh we _h /rang]s4 ,! ,"l p>don me = x1 & make me bold] = ! "t to come6 8did0 replac$ ) 8,i did0 p] ,errata ,tuesday1 ,decemb] #c4 ,bless$ be ,god1 he rais$ me up to he> 8 ^w4 ,& x 0 _s & life to my s\l4 ,o :at has he done = me1 a s9n]8 ,he has sav$ me f guilt & f 9-br$ corruption1 & has fill$ me ) love4 ,n[ let pati5ce h its p]fect "w6 ,w$nesday #d4 ,pride has pres5t$ itself to-day3 b ,i look$ unto ,god1 & !re 0 no?+ 9 me to jo9 ) x3 glory be to 8 "n6 ,i f\nd great love to my si/]s1 & to "s 9 p>ticul>4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k1 :e!r x is only a natural love3 b ,i am soon assur$1 ,i love !m only = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,inde$ my he>t is inl>g$ t[>d all mank9d2 ?\gh p>ticul>ly ! p ( ,god4 ,b ,i want m fai? & pati5ce4 ,i want to be m humble & meek4 ,o may ,i be all l a little *ild6 99,friday #f4 ,i us$ ab/95ce2 & m\rn$1 t ,i c\ld n d5y myself m4 ,:5 ,i ?9k1 :at my ,"l suff]$ = me1 :at a little is x1 to suff] ! loss ( an ord9>y meal = him8 ,o may x be my meat & dr9k1 to d 8 bless$ w on e>?1 z x is done 9 heav56 ,saturday #g4 ,i advis$ ) "s ( my fri5ds1 ab\t dress+ meat on ,sunday4 ,s ,i dress$ meat to-night = our d9n] to-morr[1 accord+ to _! advice1 & resolv$ h]eaft] 7:oev] 0 pleas$ or displeas$7 to obey ,god r ?an man4 ,i _h aft]w>ds "s %>p words conc]n+ x3 b a s(t answ] turn$ away wra?4 ,tuesday #aj4 ,we _h %>p words aga9 to-day1 b1 glory be to ,god1 ,i _h pati5ce4 ,i did n make any reply1 & f\nd no?+ b love 9 my he>t4 ,may ,god give me ! :ole m9d :i* 0 9 my bless$ ,"l6 ,?ursday #ab4 ,amid/ ! tr\bles & trials ( ! ungodly1 ,i _h ! refre%+ spr+s ( my ,"l's love & grace4 ,at night ,i 0 dull & sleepy be=e family-pray]3 b !n ! ,"l quick5$ my s\l4 ,i h be5 begg+ ( him to-day m fai?1 m wat*fulness1 m humility3 m und]/&+ 9 8 ^w1 m k ( ,satan's devices1 & p[] to %un !m at ! fir/ approa*4 ,& ,o may he wa% my be/ p]=mances 9 8 preci\s blood6 ,may ,i /ill take great delight 9 ! law ( ! ,"l1 & keep 8 comm&m5ts ) my :ole he>t6 99,sunday #ae4 ,aft] ,i w5t to b$1 ,i 0 mu* di/re/1 = cutt+ a ribb& to we>4 ,i 0 nev] till n[ conv9c$1 t x 0 prophan+ ! ,"l's-day3 bless$ be ,god = conv9c+ n[6 ,o :at tr\ble 0 ,i 9 = a qu>t] ( an h\r6 ,b ,i cri$ to ,god1 & he rose on my s\l aga94 ,may he abide !re91 till "t %all comm5ce a glori\s et]nity6 ,tuesday #ag4 ,i _h a difficult talk 9 ! ev5+1 be+ oblig$ to lead ! b&4 ,o h[ insuffici5t am ,i = su* a "w6 ,i did n ?9k x 0 s great a ?+ be=e4 ,! ,"l p>don :atev] ,i said amiss4 ,!re seem$ to be a cl\d ov] u 9 pray]4 ,if ! cause 0 9 me1 ! ,"l reveal x1 & take x away1 = ,*ri/'s sake6 ,sunday #bb4 ,! enemy pres5t$ pride to me3 b1 bless$ be ,god1 ,i look$ to him1 & x fl$ away4 ,i hope1 he w nev] be able any m to s[ ?is se$ 9 my he>t4 ,monday #bc4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i h f\nd m love to my de> ,savi\r to-day ?an ev] ,i did4 ,o :at hung]+ & ?ir/+ did ,i feel1 to d 8 w1 z x is done 9 heav58 ,w$nesday #be4 ,?is has be5 a bless$ day to my s\l2 ?\gh ,i 0 griev$ = ! slo? ( "s ( our family1 :o w\ld n rise to ! e>ly prea*+4 ,! ,"l /ir !m up to r$\ble _! dilig5ce4 ,! enemy accus$ me to-day1 ( go+ ) too mu* boldness to ! ,"l's table4 ,b ,i "k x is only free grace t has enabl$ me s to d4 ,friday #bg4 ,?is has be5 a day ( trial3 b bless$ be ,god1 ,i 0 kept 9 p]fect peace4 ,yet ,i c\ld n b feel heav9ess = my de> fri5ds1 to ?9k ( _! preci\s1 nev]-dy+ s\ls4 ,! ,"l give me a t5d] conc]n = !m1 & enable me to pray = !m1 & nev] cease4 99,tuesday #ca4 ,i spoke an improp] ^w1 :i* ?rew me into great heav9ess4 ,b ,i cri$ to ,god1 8,"l1 ?\ kn[e/1 ,i w\ld n (f5d !e will+ly3 ,i w\ld soon] put my h& 9 ! fire40 ,& he 0 graci\sly pleas$ to bless me t in/ant4 ,b ,i saw1 :ile ,i 0 at pray]1 t ,i _h be5 talk+ ab\t religion 9 too light a mann]4 ,! ,"l p>don me1 & give m awe & rev]5ce1 = ! "t to come6 ,w$nesday1 ,janu>y #a1 #agff4 ,i f\nd an increase ( love to ,god & 8 p4 ,9 ! ev5+ ! p[] ( ,god 0 ^u ! congregation1 9 a glori\s mann]4 ,we sat "u ! dropp+s ( 8 sanctu>y1 & rejoic$ 9 him ) joy unspeakable4 ,?ursday #b4 ,glory be to ,god1 my he>t 0 inl>g$1 to love him ) e faculty ( my s\l1 ) mo/ ard5t love to ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 & t5d] affection to all m54 ,tuesday #g4 ,my de> ,m rag$ aga9/ me mu*4 ,"l lay n ! s9 to h] *>ge6 ,& say to ! enemy1 8,hi!rto %alt ?\ g1 & no f>!r40 ,i am mu* out ( ord] 9 body1 & d n f9d my _s s lively z x 02 p]haps ?r\gh bodily weakness4 ,b ,i c /ill rejoice 9 ,god1 & love him ) all my he>t4 ,?ursday #i4 ,i 0 tempt$ to peevi%ness ?is morn+2 b ,i pray$1 & x f\nd no place 9 me4 ,i _h likewise ?\ghts ab\t my husb&1 because he did n come home s soon z ,i expect$4 ,b ,i look$ to ! ,"l1 & 0 resign$ to :atev] he w\ld please to lay ^u me4 ,saturday #aa4 ,?is has be5 a day ( sore temptation3 yet m9e enemy ga9$ no advantage ov] me4 ,b ,i want to be> ! cross m *e>fully2 = to-day ,i wept "u x3 ?\gh x 0 only1 to ?9k "o :o pr(ess$ religion1 %\ld act s contr>y to x4 ,sunday #ab4 ,! enemy 0 let loose ^u me inw>dly1 z well z outw>dly4 ,he sugge/$1 8,:at w become ( !e8 ,?\ wilt make an end ( ?yself1 & be ca/ away at la/40 ,i _h sc>ce p[] to look to ,god1 & ?\ght x did n signify to /rive any m4 ,b1 be=e ,i slept1 he return$ & heal$ my s\l4 ,may he give m lib]ty1 love & p[]6 8npon0 replac$ ) 8^u0 ,saturday #ah4 ,i h be5 mu* out ( ord] = sev]al days1 & h n rose to ! morn+ prea*+4 ,if !re is any slo? 9 me1 ! ,"l give me to see x2 ,i am n s5sible ( x4 ,& ,i hope ! ,"l accepts ( ! w1 z ! p[] is tak5 f me4 ,9 ! ev5+1 my bro!r-9-law be+ ) u1 & my husb& be+ unwill+ to pray1 ,i delay$ pray+ till my bro!r 0 gone to b$4 ,b x came to me aft]w>d1 8,:o art ?\ t ?\ art afraid ( a man t %all die80 ,! ,"l p>don me = x4 ,i hope :e!r my husb& prays or no1 ,i %all n omit x = ! "t to come4 ,monday #bg4 ,glory be to ,god = 8 unb\nd$ m]cies to su* a rebel z me6 ,:at bless+s has he giv5 me ?is day8 ,h[ happy h ,i be5 9 8 love8 ,may he keep ! door ( my m\?1 t ,i may nev] m speak unadvis$ly ) my lips6 ,& above all1 may he keep my he>t1 t ,i may no m reason aga9/ him4 ,w$nesday #bi4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,*ri/ has be5 exce$+ preci\s to me to-day4 ,o h[ my he>t 0 enl>g$ to poor s\ls6 ,if ,i c\ld h my lib]ty1 ,i w\ld sp5d all ! "t 9 ! s]vice ( ,god1 & h no?+ to d ) ! _w4 ,yet ,i see my own helplessness m & m1 & t x is ( pure love ,i am out ( hell4 ,friday #ca4 ,to-day ,i _h a solemn s5se ( ,god1 :ile ,i 0 9 my bus9ess1 & _h mu* wat*fulness ov] my words1 say+ cont9ually 9 my he>t1 8,! ,"l sees me60 ,glory be to 8 "n6 ,monday1 ,febru>y #c4 ,glory be to ,god ?is has be5 a solemn day to my s\l4 ,9 ! ev5+ my poor ,m rag$ greatly3 b ,i 0 enabl$ to /& 9 ! h\r ( trial4 ,sunday #i4 ,bless$ be ,god1 my evid5ce 0 z cle> z ! %9+ ( ! sun4 ,yet 9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 mu* tempt$ by ! enemy1 caus+ _m wick$ oa?s to pass be=e my m9d4 ,b 9 ! mid/ ( all ,i c\ld rejoice 9 ,god1 kn[+ 9 :om ,i _h believ$4 ,monday #aj4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i desire no?+1 b to dr9k deep] & deep] ( 8 _s4 ,i see my evid5ce cle>2 b ,i see m & m ( my own weakness1 & long to live m to 8 glory4 ,i am jeal\s ov] myself1 because ,i d n rise 9 ! morn+ z ,i us$ to d4 ,surely x is n because ,i %un ! cross3 = ,i d love him ) all my :ole he>t4 ,may he deep5 8 "w ( grace 9 my s\l1 & /amp 8 :ole image ^u my he>t6 ,friday #ba4 ,two m5 com+ 91 "o ( :om 0 9 dr9k1 z we 7 go+ to dr9k tea1 ,i ?\ght x w\ld be m =m ?an devotion1 to ask a bless+ op5ly4 ,s ,i %unn$ ! cross4 ,b ,i suff]$ = x aft]w>d4 ,! ,"l be prais$1 t he did n ent] into judgm5t ) me1 b gave me "t to draw ne> him ?r\gh ! ,son ( 8 love4 ,may he make me m fruitful = ! future4 ,saturday #bb4 ,i 0 twice tempt$ to-day to ang] 9 ! %ape ( zeal4 ,b ,i saw ! sn>e1 bless$ be ,god1 & fl$ f x4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 mu* di/ress$ ) w&r+s 9 ! public s]vice3 all :i* ,i believe1 proce$$ f my omission ye/]day4 ,! ,"l help me to wat* & pray m1 le/ ,i ent] into temptation6 ,monday #be4 ,at ! love fea/1 ,i 0 9 pa9 mo/ ( ! "t1 long+ to break ?r\gh3 & yet ,i c\ld n decl>e :at ,god _h done = my s\l4 ,! ,"l p>don me = my omission6 ,i believe he is deep5+ 8 "w 9 me4 ,he does sit ^u me z a ref9]'s fire4 ,?ursday #bg4 ,glory be to ,god1 he discov]s m & m ( 8 love1 to me ! unwor?ie/ ( 8 creatures4 ,yet1 ,i d\bt1 ,i 0 n s wat*ful z ,i ought1 "s "p ( ?is day4 ,& ,i fe>1 ,i lay 9 b$ too long ?is morn+4 ,! ,"l help me to use m viol5ce to myself6 ,monday1 ,m>* #c4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i enjoy p]fect peace amid/ ! /orms ( an ungrateful _w4 ,9 trials f ! _w1 & trials f !m ( my own h\%old1 he is my /rong hold1 to :i* ,i always resort4 ,yet ,i f9d ! company ( ! _w a great burd51 :5 ,i am oblig$ to be ) !m 9 my bus9ess4 ,i want p[] to reprove !m m4 ,! ,"l help me 9 ?is also6 ,?ursday #f4 ,glory be to ,god ,i am amaz$ :5 ,i ?9k ( 8 goodness & my unwor?9ess4 ,h[ did he bless me ?is ev5+ at ! room8 ,i f\nd ,i 0 all light 9 ! ,"l4 ,h[ pure has he made my he>t ?r\gh fai?6 ,x is all ( grace1 free grace4 ,?is 0 a day ( trial3 b1 bless$ be ,god x 0 no trial to me1 because ! ,"l took (f ! burd54 ,only ,i 0 conc]n$ = _! s\ls4 ,"l1 save !m1 = ?y de> "n sake6 ,monday #aj4 ,glory be to ,god = ! bless+s ( ?is day4 ,o h[ did he bless me ?is ev5+8 ,i wept to see ! goodness ( ,god 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus t[>d me & all poor s9n]s4 ,i f9d inde$ a busy foe4 ,b 8 grace is suffici5t = me4 ,i h my evid5ce /ill cle>4 ,! ,"l give me to pray always3 make me ?ankful1 keep me humble1 & keep me to ! end6 ,?ursday #ac4 ,i 0 attack$ ) a light _s to-day1 :i* ,i dread & abhor4 ,& all ! company 0 assault$ ) x at ! same "t3 b ! ,"l s5t u help 9 ! "t ( ne$4 ,friday #ba4 ,i rose to ! prea*+ ?is morn+1 ?\gh my body compla9$4 ,/ill1 9 ! mid/ ( trials1 my desire is1 to "k m ( ,god & to live ne>] to him4 ,i _h peace all ?is day1 & p[] to look to ,god1 9 all ! hurry ( my bus9ess4 ,glory be to 8 holy "n1 = all is bless+s1 temporal & spiritual4 ,sunday #bc4 ,i 0 mu* griev$ at *ur*1 to he> p mock+ ,god1 by say+ :at !y d n believe1 & :at !y w flatly d5y1 z soon z !y are out ( *ur*4 ,x made me d\bt1 :e!r ,i ought to g to *ur* or n8 ,b ,i consid]$1 ,i am n to look to !m3 ,i am to look to ,god only4 ,monday #ca4 ,bless$ be ,god1 t ,i am out ( hell1 t ,i h hope ( see+ him 9 glory1 & t he gives me n[ to commune ) him1 ev5 z a man ) 8 fri5d4 ,yet ,i want to be m wat*ful ov] my words4 ,i believe x is my privilege to speak no m words ?an are necess>y1 & to ! glory ( ,god4 ,! ,"l p>don me = speak+ amiss to-day1 & keep me e mom5t wat*+ unto pray]6 ,tuesday1 ,april #a4 ,?is has be5 a day ( bless$ humiliation to my s\l1 on acc\nt ( my pa/ life4 ,i /& amaz$ at ! goodness ( ,god t[>d me4 ,bless$ be 8 "n1 = giv+ me ?is ev5ness ( m9d4 ,b ,i h ne$1 to come out ( myself m1 & to rely m on ,*ri/3 ! ,"l increase my fai?1 & enable me s to d6 ,friday #aa4 ,bless$ be ,god1 = ! peace ,i /ill enjoy amid/ a _w ( bus9ess3 ,b ,i want to s9k d[n cont9ually into ! dep?s ( humble love4 ,i h n to-day s mu* com=t z ,i (t5 enjoy4 ,b ,i c rely ^u my ,god3 & ,i c appeal to him1 x is my "o c>e1 to please him 9 all ?+s4 ,sunday #ac4 ,glory be to ,god1 = a peace t passe? all und]/&+4 ,b ,i h n felt s mu* ( 8 quickn+ p[] to-day z 9 "t pa/4 ,i h exam9$ myself1 & bes\ght ! ,"l to %ew me1 if !re 0 any evil 9 me4 ,i d n f9d any2 & x came to me1 ,/& /ill1 & see ! salvation ( ,god4 ,i h a solid peace3 & ?\gh ,i h n s mu* livel9ess 9 duty z usual1 yet ,i f9d m wat*fulness ov] my words & actions4 ,b /ill h[ %ort am ,i ( :at ,i w\ld be8 ,sunday #bj4 ,bless$ be ,god1 = giv+ me a resign$ w1 9 ! h\r ( trial4 ,x has be5 expect$ ^! ?ree days1 t e mom5t w\ld be ! la/ ) my de> little boy4 ,yet he keeps my m9d 9 p]fect peace4 ,b ! enemy is v busy1 accus+ me ( h>d-he>t$ness1 = n weep+ m4 ,h[ev]1 ,i am kept 9 ! fire & 9 ! wat]4 ,& ! ,"l prep>e me = :atev] ,i h to g ?r\gh6 99,friday #be4 ,i am at pres5t mu* fatigu$ 9 body1 & v l[ 9 spirits4 ,! ,"l 0 pleas$ to take my de> little ,george to himself on ,w$nesday morn+4 ,he support$ me 9 a wond]ful mann]3 b ,i h f\nd ! trial ne>] to-day ?an ev]4 ,! ,"l grant ,i may n grieve 8 holy ,_s6 ,& :atev] ?y pur] eyes h se5 amiss 9 me already1 cov] ) ! mantle ( =giv+ love6 ,may we humble ourselves "u ?y mighty h&6 ,may x be a means ( press+ u clos] to !e6 ,& may we foll[ on1 to meet our de> infants1 9 ! upp] & bett] _w6 ,saturday #bf4 ,glory be to ,god1 t ,i am /ill on pray+ gr\nd4 ,8 grace is /ill suffici5t = me1 ?\gh ,i f9d a try+ _w1 & a tempt+ enemy3 sometimes ,i feel my *ild v ne>4 ,! ,"l p>don me1 if x is wrong6 ,give me m ( ! life & p[] ( ,god 9 my s\l1 & keep me f a dead =m ( religion6 ,sunday #bg4 ,s9ce la/ night1 ,i h be5 9 heav9ess ?r\gh temptations aga9/ my husb&4 ,o ,"l1 be pleas$ to disp]se ! cl\d & %9e on ?y own "w6 ,besides1 we h be5 expos$ to-day1 to ! company ( c>nal fri5ds4 ,"l1 p>don our backw>dness 9 reprov+1 & give u m c\rage = ,god1 & make u ?ankful1 t he ha? made u to diff] & give me m ( t fire ( love 9 my he>t6 ,tuesday #bi4 ,glory be to ,god1 he return$ to 8 temple ?is ev5+4 ,! meet+ ( ! b&s 0 a bless$ means ( grace to me4 ,:5 our bre?r5 & si/]s spoke ( ! goodness ( ,god1 x 0 _s & life to my s\l4 ,yet ,i 0 myself backw>d to speak1 & :5 ,i attempt$ x1 0 seiz$ ) trembl+ all ov]4 ,b at la/1 bless$ be ,god1 he op5$ my m\?1 & !n all my burd5 dropt (f4 ,"l1 help me always to tell ( ?y goodness1 & keep me 9 ?y laws1 till grace end 9 glory6 99,?ursday1 ,may #a4 ,i h kept my b$ mo/ ( ! day1 be+ 9 mu* pa94 ,o h[ unfit are we at su* a "t1 = s great a "w z work+ out our salvation6 ,let none po/pone _! rep5tance to a sick-b$3 x is "w en\gh !n1 to /ruggle ) sickness & pa94 ,b h[ pleasant is a sick-b$1 :5 p]fum$ ) ! love ( ,god1 & :5 we h a preci\s ,*ri/ 9 our bosom8 ,come life1 come dea?1 ) my de> ,jesus1 & life or dea? is sweet4 ,tuesday #f4 ,"l1 ,i beg ?is "o ?+ at ?y h&1 ! salvation ( my de> "m6 ,%e is n[ "u ?y afflict+ h&4 ,be pleas$ to sanctify h] affliction3 & let x be to ! sav+ ( h] s\l1 = ?y de> ,son's sake4 ,w$nesday #ad4 ,glory be to ,god1 he has giv5 me to-day a sight ( myself & ( my numb]less infirmities4 ,b he has n be5 extreme to m>k :at 0 done amiss3 bless$ be 8 "n = ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,o t ,i may h m ( ! m9d t 0 9 him1 m ( a meek1 quiet1 tea*able _s4 ,may ,i n[ beg96 ,may ,i n[ set out ) d\ble dilig5ce6 ,may ,i run1 & n be we>y2 walk1 & n fa9t6 ,friday #af4 ,i _h reason+ ab\t go+ to *ur*1 :e!r x 0 necess>y to g s (t58 ,b :5 ,i br\ght x to ! ^w ( ,god1 ,i saw1 aft] we h done all1 we are unpr(itable s]vants4 ,"l let me resi/ him /$fa/ 9 ! fai?4 ,?ursday #bb4 ,ye/]day ,i 0 tr\bl$ conc]n+ "o ( our bre?r52 b resolv$ to tell no "o :at ,i he>d1 unless himself or 8 wife4 ,?is aft]noon !y came to my h\se1 & ,i told !m all ,i _h he>d4 ,!y told me j h[ ! ?+ 01 & ,i f\nd x 0 a me] mi/ake4 ,s ,satan 0 disappo9t$ ( 8 aim1 & our love to ea* o!r confirm$4 ,sunday #be4 ,he>+ ( ! di/ress ( "s ( my neighb\rs1 my he>t ov]fl[$ ) ?ankfulness1 to ?9k ,god _h provid$ me & m9e ) temporal bless+s also4 ,8 c>e 0 ov] me 9 my y\? likewise1 n leav+ me to my own *oice4 ,b ,i praise him above all1 = 8 p>don+ love1 & = full r$emption ?r\gh ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,?ursday #bi4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i f\nd an unspeakable bless+ at ! morn+ prea*+1 & aga9 9 private pray]2 b above all1 at ! meet+ ( ! select society4 ,&1 ,i ?9k1 s did e "o pres5t4 ,i 0 at fir/ unwill+ to speak2 b ,i knew1 n to speak w\ld be griev+ ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,s ,i broke ?r\gh1 z did sev]al o!rs3 & we 7 all s fill$ ) consolation1 t we c\ld only say1 8,enl>ge our he>t1 to make !e room40 ,?ursday1 ,june #e4 ,glory be to ,god1 t he ha? giv5 me a ?ankful he>t1 = 8 love t[>d me ev5 9 my e>ly days6 ,h[ did 8 k9d h& pres]ve me1 :5 ,i did n "k him8 ,h[ did x c>ry me ?r\gh ! he$less /eps ( y\?1 keep me f ! malice & intrigues ( all my enemies1 & at la/ br+ me to 8 de> self1 & to ! k ( 8 love6 ,& ?\gh ! /orms n[ rise high1 yet bless$ be 8 "n1 all is calm )94 ,"l1 be pleas$ to h pity ^u ,satan's in/rum5ts1 & save _! de> s\ls4 ,i f9d no?+ rises 9 my he>t aga9/ !m3 b ,i am con/ra9$ to m\rn = !m3 especially = ^? :o h kn[n ,god1 & d n live to 8 glory4 ,tuesday #aj4 ,i f9d x a heavy burd5 to be 9 ! company ev5 ( ^? t are call$ civil p4 ,b z ,i am call$ to take up ?is cross1 may ! ,"l enable me to be> x4 ,"l1 let me rely :olly on !e4 ,i feel ?\ art all 9 all6 ,?\ art my /r5g?1 z well z my righte\sness4 ,)\t !e ,i c d no?+4 ,tuesday #ag4 ,i did n enjoy s l>ge a measure ( love z ,i h sometimes done4 ,:at is ! reason ,i "k n3 ! ,"l p>don me = x1 & give me to see t all my do+s are z fil?y rags 9 ! sight ( a pure ,god3 & t ,i want ! preci\s blood ( my ,r$eem] to int]pose = me e mom5t4 ,i feel ! same want ( him t ev] ,i did3 ,i believe ,i am writt5 on ! palms ( 8 h&s4 ,b /ill ,i want m ( ! life & p[] ( religion3 ,i am hungry & ?ir/y aft] ?is4 ,w$nesday #ah4 ,i 0 tempt$ ?is morn+ to res5tm5t3 b1 glory be to ,god1 x c\ld n ent]4 ,"l1 se>* me & prove me1 empty me ( myself & fill me all ) ,god4 ,= ev] wa%1 & keep me clean1 & let ,*ri/ be all 9 all4 ,w$nesday #be4 ,i f\nd indiff]5ce ab\t go+ to *ur*4 ,i begg$ ( ! ,"l to direct me1 & imm$iately ! reason+s disappe>$4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i p\r$ out my s\l be=e him1 & pray$ till ,i c\ld sc>ce speak4 ,i long = a clos] communion ) ,god1 & = m wisdom & und]/&+ 9 8 ways4 ,tuesday1 ,july #h4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i am /ill ! monum5t ( 8 free m]cy4 ,amid/ a _w ( bus9ess & hurry1 ,i /ill enjoy peace1 & commune ) ,god1 z a man ) 8 fri5d4 ,i h n s mu* joy z 9 "t pa/2 b my fai? is /rong1 & ,i enjoy a calm peace4 ,& :5 temptation comes z a flood1 8 _s lifts up a /&>d aga9/ x4 ,meet+ 9 b& at night1 ,i 0 q /ript1 & felt my no?+ness4 ,glory be to ,god1 t ,i am out ( hell1 because 8 compassions fail n4 99,tuesday #bb4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i am /ill assur$ t ! ,"l has giv5 me a clean he>t1 & r5ew$ a "r _s )9 me2 & ,i c h no d\bt ( x1 ?\gh ,i am n s ov]fl[$ ) joy 9 ! means ( grace z ,i h be54 ,b ,i h a calmness & p[] :i* ,i nev] _h 9 s great degree1 9 ! mid/ ( ! close/ trials4 ,only ,i am griev$ = s9n]s1 & pray t ! ,"l w\ld pluck !m z br&s out ( ! burn+4 ,friday #be4 ,?is ev5+ ,i h be5 at ! int]m5t ( an acqua9tance4 ,:at no?+s we are1 & h[ soon turn$ to our "m e>?8 ,%\ld n ?is ?\ght cause u to live 9 love & peace ) all m58 ,& to live z expect+ ! mess5g] ( dea? e mom5t8 ,saturday1 ,augu/ #b4 ,i h be5 = sev]al days mu* disord]$ 9 body4 ,9 my illness ,i _h h>dly p[] to pray1 or to d any ?+4 ,o may ,i prize heal? m1 & make full use ( x1 :5 ! ,"l s5ds x4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i _h no fe> ( dea?1 & no anxi\s c>e = my *ildr54 ,i only want$ m p[] to praise ,god4 ,& w he n give t & all ?+s8 ,o cleanse me f my secret faults6 ,& let no s9 ev] m prevail ov] me6 99,w$nesday #f4 ,bless$ be ?y "n1 ,i d n f9d any ?+ )9 to close ) temptations4 ,ye/]day ang] pres5t$ z quick z ?\ght2 b x f\nd no entrance4 ,yet %ame cov]$ me1 = fe> any t 7 pres5t might disc]n ! appe>ance ( x4 ,& ,i begg$ ! ,"l to %ew me1 if !re 0 any evil root left8 ,z f> z ,i "k myself1 ,i d n f9d !re is3 ,i d firmly believe1 he ha? purifi$ me f all s94 ,b ,i am big ) ! desire ( liv+ ne>] ,god3 ,o h[ de> 0 he to me ?is night8 ,?\ art altoge!r lovely3 ?\ art fair] ?an ! sons ( m54 ,?ursday #ad4 ,glory be to ,god1 !re has be5 a cry 9 my de> "m's s\l all ?is day4 ,"l1 increase x6 ,?\ ha/ set h] s9s 9 array be=e h]4 ,may %e nev] re/ till %e re/s 9 !e6 ,friday #bb4 ,i w5t ?ree or f\r miles ?is ev5+ to ! prea*+3 ,my m9d 0 solemnly /ay$ on ,god2 b ,i 0 n v lively3 my husb& be+ talk+ mo/ ( ! way ab\t worldly affairs4 ,o ,"l1 direct him 9 all 8 ways1 & let no?+ hurt 8 preci\s s\l4 ,saturday #cj4 ,i h be5 mu* disord]$ 9 body all ?is day2 b1 glory be to ,god1 h enjoy$ calmness ( _s4 ,yet ,i h be5 griev$ to see "s ( my family1 s busy ab\t ! _w1 & s little conc]n$ = _! poor s\ls1 b trifl+ away _! preci\s mom5ts4 ,"l1 let me r$eem ! "t6 ,let me nev] re/ 9 any ?+ ,i h atta9$3 b /ill press on1 till ,i "k all t love ( ,god t passe? k6 ,?ursday ,septemb] #d4 ,bless$ be ,god = ! com=t ,i _h 9 he>+ de> ,mr4 ,w4 at ,p5ryn4 ,i 0 tempt$ to impati5ce1 bo? 9 ! morn+1 :5 my husb& /ay$ long be=e he set out3 & at noon1 :5 ,i 0 disappo9t$ ( be+ 9 ,mr4 ,w4's company4 ,b ,i look$ up1 & felt no?+ b calmness & quietness ( _s4 ,tuesday #i4 ,i wak$ betwe5 f\r & five1 ) praises 9 my m\?4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i f9d an inl>g$ he>t1 to run ! ways ( ! ,"l ) great delight4 ,8 love is sweet] ?an honey to my ta/e1 & my w is swall[$ up 9 84 ,sunday #ad4 ,a cold almo/ disabl$ me f speak+1 :i* gave me to see ! great bless+ ( spee*4 ,"l1 help me to use x m to ?y glory6 ,?is aft]noon1 bless$ be ,god1 we _h ! happ9ess ( hav+ de> ,mr4 ,w4's company4 ,"l impr9t 8 exhortations deep on my he>t6 ,& may all ! words he deliv]$ be wat]$ ) ! dew ( ?y heav5ly grace6 ,tuesday #af4 ,glory be to ,god1 he has kept me 9 ! h\r ( /rong temptation4 ,! enemy be>s me a tyrann\s hatr$1 & /irs up my bosom fri5ds aga9/ me4 ,"l1 ?\ kn[e/ !y lay to my *>ge ?+s ,i "k n4 ,b ?\ art to me a place ( broad riv]s4 ,& ^! light afflictions w "w out = me an et]nal weight ( glory4 ,w$nesday1 ,octob] #a4 ,bless$ be ,god1 he keeps me 9 trials f ^? :o are ne>e/ & de>e/ to me4 ,:at a p[]ful en]gy has love8 ,x keeps my s\l 9 p]fect peace1 :ile all ar\nd me is /orm & tempe/4 ,saturday #be4 ,i h ! greate/ reason to bless ,god ( any creature3 = he gives me great hope1 t my de> husb& w n proce$ on 8 int5d$ voyage4 ,he seems at l5g? to see ! /r5g? ( ! objections aga9/ x4 ,i wept ov] him la/ night1 & reason$ ) him 9 mu* love1 till "o o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,&1 glory be to ,god1 :atev] x 0 to him1 x 0 a bless$ means ( grace to me4 ,monday1 ,novemb] #c4 ,at night ,i 0 mu* fright$ betwe5 sleep+ & wak+1 ,i believe1 by ! enemy4 ,i 0 afraid ,i _h (f5d$ my ,"l1 by n go+ to *ur* ye/]day 9 ! aft]noon4 ,i bes\ght ! ,"l to p>don me = ! omission2 & he soon spoke ! answ] to my he>t4 ,w$nesday #e4 ,glory be to ,god = ! bless+s ( ?is day1 & = giv+ me m pati5ce & m wat*fulness4 ,inde$ ,i 0 tempt$ to ang] aga9/ my husb&1 & aft]w>ds to lightness4 ,b help 0 at h&4 ,o t ,i may be m ?ankful6 ,"l1 may ?y pure love always fill my s\l3 & d ?\ wat] me e mom5t6 ,monday #bd4 ,i 0 calm & s]5e all ?is day1 & _h p[] to re/ra9 my words4 ,b 9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 mu* tempt$1 :5 "o told me1 ,mr4 ,mason design$ to make me lead] ( a b&4 ,i f\nd x h>d to leave my si/]s1 & h>d] /ill to und]take s important a *>ge4 ,:5 he gave me ! pap] ! next day1 ,i 0 closely ex]cis$4 ,& :5 ,i came to ! b&1 x 0 a great m\nta91 & ,i 0 full ( %ame & confusion4 ,b :5 ,i began to speak1 ,i f\nd a little fre$om1 &1 bless$ be ,god1 he help$ my infirmity4 ,aft]w>ds ,i f\nd ! same p[] to pray1 z if we _h be5 toge!r "s "t4 ,"l1 bless u toge!r1 & let me be always little1 & base1 & vile 9 my own eyes6 ,friday #bh4 ,glory be to ,god1 ?is has be5 a bless$ day4 ,my s\l has be5 full ( love to ! p ( ,god1 my b& 9 p>ticul>4 ,& ! ,"l gives me m light into myself1 m fre$om f w&]+s & evil reason+s1 & m p[] to *eck my own _s4 ,b ,o6 ! mighty void ,i saw 9 myself6 ,i nev] saw x s be=e4 ,?is con/ra9$ me to wre/le ) ! ,"l4 ,& he did n s5d me empty away4 ,monday1 ,decemb] #a4 ,glory be to ,god1 ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness %one on my s\l all ! day long4 ,:5ev] ,satan 0 nigh1 ,i look$ to him1 & 0 in/antly sav$4 ,he gave me a cle> sight ( ! "w ( my s\l1 & a bright] evid5ce ?an ev]1 accompani$ ) ! pure /reams ( 8 love p\r+ d[n into my he>t4 ,friday #e4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i f\nd a t5d] consci5ce1 & p[] to set ! ,"l always be=e me4 ,& ,i c n[ enjoy my ,god 9 my bus9ess1 z well z 9 my duty4 ,my he>t is con/antly /ay$ ^u him1 & ,i long = m ( t liv+ pr9ciple )94 ,o t ?\ w\ld/ fill me ) heav51 ) love1 ) ,god6 99,saturday #f4 ,i f9d my s\l is1 z a well ( wat]1 spr++ up into ev]la/+ life4 ,b ,i ?ir/ = m4 ,bless$ be ,god1 he does keep my s\l 9 p]fect peace1 & 9 ! mid/ ( fire & wat]1 give me pati5ce1 ) an hope full ( immortality4 ,b ,i feel a great sor5ess ( _s1 = ^? ( my family4 ,"l1 give !m to "k !mselves1 & direct !m 9 all ?+s6 ,take ! cause into ?9e h&s1 & enable me1 to /& /ill1 & see ! salvation ( ,god4 ,tuesday #ab4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i enjoy peace & p[]1 9 ! mid/ ( multitudes & hurry ( bus9ess4 ,my eye is /ill s+le t[>d ! m>k ( my high call+1 & my "o desire1 to live m to ,god4 ,friday #ai4 ,x 0 a cross to me to rise 9 ! morn+1 b ,i 0 well rew>d$ = tak+ x up4 ,i 0 v lively all day2 b 9 ! aft]noon 0 sudd5ly tempt$ to lightness2 s 7 all ( u :o aft]w>ds met 9 b&2 b ! temptation soon fl$ away4 ,my s\l is alive to ,god1 & only longs to fa?om m ( ! dep?s ( humble love4 ,monday #bb4 ,my s\l's desire ?is day has be51 to s9k d[n into ! dep? ( humility4 ,i see my helplessness1 & feel ! want ( my ,r$eem]'s m]its e mom5t4 ,b h[ (t5 does my own w pres5t itself6 ,yet x prevails no?+4 ,i want to be always z clay 9 ! h&s ( ! pott]1 & to be all m\ld$ into love6 ,z f> z ,i "k1 ,i d love ! ,"l ) all my he>t4 ,b ,i want to h all va9 reason+s de/roy$4 ,saturday1 ,janu>y #c1 #agfg4 ,i 0 greatly bless$ to-night1 9 a weep+ /ate1 & m\rn$ be=e ! ,"l = ! s9s ( o!rs4 ,yet at "s times1 quickness pres5t$ itself1 b only z a fly+ cl\d4 ,i f\nd a great rev]5ce to-night1 :ile ,i said1 ,our ,fa!r4 ,may ?is awful s5se ( 8 ,maje/y re/ ^u me1 :]esoev] ,i g6 ,?ursday #h4 ,i 0 tempt$ to ?9k lightly ( my husb&1 z if he 0 always ask+1 b n wat*+4 ,i 0 mu* disord]$ 9 body1 :i* weigh$ d[n my m9d :5 ,i wait$ on ! ,"l 9 private4 ,b1 on read+ ! second *apt] ( ,ze*>iah1 my s\l reviv$ greatly3 & ,i _h a lively s5se ( 8 sp>+ m]cy2 b /ill m1 9 talk+ ) a de> fri5d4 ,i c\ld !n see1 :at a s9n] ,i _h be5 9 times pa/1 9 wi%+ = my own w2 & c\ld bless ! ,"l1 t n my w1 b 81 _h tak5 place4 ,o1 may a due s5se ( ! love & m]cies ( ,god be ev] engrav5 on my he>t6 ,tuesday #ac4 ,glory be to ,god = %ew+ me1 ,i _h done amiss1 9 reprov+ my husb& be=e company1 & = giv+ me to be humbl$ on ! acc\nt1 & to ackn[l$ge my fault4 ,& bless$ be ,god = ! ,*ri/ian conv]sation we h _h toge!r ?is ev5+1 :]e9 we h se51 :at advantage ,satan _h ga9$ ov] u 9 "t pa/4 ,we _h p[] to speak to "o ano!r ) all fre$om1 ( ! /ate ( our s\ls2 & ,i tru/ ?is w be ! beg9n+ ( happy days betwe5 u4 ,sunday #ah4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i h to-day f\nd mu* life & light 9 my s\l at *ur*4 ,& ,i _h a solemn "t1 9 accompany+ ! relicks ( si/] ,h>ris to ! grave4 ,we fulfill$ our promise1 9 s++ h] body to *ur*1 z we did h] s\l to glory4 ,i 0 aft]w>ds tempt$ bo? to lightness & to impati5ce2 b ,i bless ,god1 ,i rema9 9 peace & love4 ,my desire is1 to "k myself z ,i am kn[n ( ,god1 & to live no long] ?an ,i live to him4 99,friday #bc4 ,glory be to ,god1 ?\gh ! enemy rages1 ,i enjoy a calm peace 9 my s\l4 ,b ?is ev5+ ,i f\nd little p[] to pray4 ,i believe x 0 ow+ to disord] ( body4 ,ye/]day ,i kept my b$ all day4 ,i am /ill mu* indispos$4 ,b ,i 0 mu* delight$ ) ! amiabl5ess ( ,*ri/4 ,& ,i saw ! great ne$ we h ( him1 & %all h1 :5 we /& nak$ be=e ,god4 ,i saw ! wor? ( ,*ri/ exce$+ly1 & loa!d myself & all my own p]=mances3 yet be+ p]suad$1 t nei!r life1 nor dea?1 nor ?+s pres5t1 nor ?+s to come1 %\ld ev] sep>ate me f 8 love4 ,tuesday1 ,febru>y #c4 ,i h be5 conf9$ to my b$ by a fev]1 f ,saturday till to-day4 ,i f\nd n mu* joy1 b pati5ce & peace1 & sweet tranquility ( m9d3 especially :5 si/] ,pe>ce pray$ ) me4 ,i f\nd a long+ desire to see "s ( my o!r si/]s4 ,b1 :5 "o ( !m came1 ,i c\ld n speak to h] at fir/1 ,i 0 s ov]come ) joy4 ,! ,"l bless$ u 9 ! aft]noon also1 :5 ,mr4 ,/orey pray$ ) u4 ,glory be to 8 holy "n1 = *ri/ian conv]sation2 & = all ! o!r helps we enjoy1 to make our call+ & election sure4 ,monday #bc4 ,all ye/]day & to-day1 ,i h be5 mu* disord]$ by ! *olic4 ,at six ?is ev5+ ,i b[$ be=e ,god 9 pray]1 & gave myself up to him4 ,i !n resolv$ to try1 :e!r ,i c\ld n g to ! prea*+4 ,i w5t1 & 0 bett] aft] x ?an be=e4 ,:ile ,i 0 9 /rong pa91 ! enemy ?ru/ sore at me3 ,b ,i did n give place to him = a mom5t4 ,bless$ be ,god = a t5d] consci5ce6 ,i f9d1 if ev] ,i speak a ^w unaw>es2 if x is n "r1 ,i see x imm$iately1 & am griev$ t ,i 0 n m on my gu>d4 ,"l1 help me to wat* & pray e mom5t1 t all my words may be to edification6 ,monday1 ,m>* #b4 ,bless$ be ,god1 = ! love ,i h felt ye/]day & to-day1 "u ! prea*+ ( ,mr4 ,haim4 ,o may x s9k deep 9 my he>t1 & spr+ up into et]nal life6 ,i f9d ,satan is cont9ually tempt+2 b he has no success4 ,i want to be m ( a *ild-l _s2 to live m 9 ,*ri/1 & always ne> to ,god4 ,?ursday #e4 ,my husb& & maid bo? be+ sick1 my body has be5 mu* ex]cis$ ?is week4 ,b1 glory be to ,god1 ,i h enjoy$ con/ant peace1 & _m bless$ refre%+s4 ,nor h ,i f\nd "o anxi\s ?\ght conc]n+s _! liv+ or dy+4 ,sunday #ae4 ,god 0 pleas$ ?is week to afflict my body ) sickness4 ,i mo/ly kept my b$4 ,sometimes ,i _h d\bts4 ,is x n1 because ,i d n speak m to my poor "m8 ,or because ,i h tak5 too mu* ^u me1 9 be+ lead] ( a b&8 ,b ^! d\bts did n tr\ble me s mu* z ! close reflections ,i _h f my husb&4 ,twice ,i wept conc]n+ x2 b !n ,i ?\ght1 ! sorr[ ( ! _w worke? dea?4 ,i look$ to ! ,"l1 & he deliv]$ me4 ,& ,i said to him1 ,%all ,i "o day see ?y face1 )\t a veil betwe58 ,& %all ,i /& at ?y "r h&1 9 ! great day ( acc\nts8 ,& h[ cle> an assurance ( x did he give me6 ,i f9d e>ne/ desires to dr9k deep] ( 8 ,_s1 t ,i may be always ! same1 all ( a-piece at all times & 9 all places1 & may h a solemn awe re/+ ^u me1 9 bus9ess & company1 especially among pr(essors ( religion4 ,?ursday #be4 ,i 0 mu* griev$ ?is ev5+ at ! /ubbornness ( my *ild4 ,"l1 bless ! correction1 & give h] ?y grace1 :atev] ?\ )-holde/ f h]6 ,& help me to dis*>ge my duty t[>d my *ildr51 9 ?is & 9 all ?+s4 ,?ursday1 ,april #b4 ,i saw m ?an ev] ! necessity ( simply foll[+ my bless$ ,"l3 ,& ! great ne$ ( grace r ?an gifts2 al?\gh gifts also are great bless+s4 ,"l1 on :omsoev] !y are be/[$1 may !y beg ?y aid1 to use !m s+ly to ?y glory4 ,i f9d an encreas+ zeal = ,god & 8 p4 ,i long to live m to ,god1 & to h less to d ) ! _w2 & am sometimes tempt$ aga9/ my husb&1 = incumbr+ himself s mu* ) x4 ,yet ,i am ?ankful to ,god = ^! outw>d bless+s3 ,b my :ole aim is1 to be m devot$ to ,god4 ,w$nesday #h4 ,i want to h e ?\ght br\ght into ob$i5ce to ,*ri/3 ,& to feel cont9ually ! awful s5se ( ! pres5ce ( ! great ,god6 ,i h _h a ?ankful & a melt+ he>t1 to ?9k :at bless$ helps my *ildr5 h 9 _! t5d] ye>s2 & inde$1 9 look+ back on my own life1 & on ! bless$ %[]s ( grace1 :i* ,god has p\r$ ^u me1 f "t to "t1 9 *ri/ian conv]sation4 ,"l1 give me a ?ankful he>t1 & fulfil 9 me all ! good pleasure ( ?y w6 ,monday #bj4 ,glory be to ,god1 t ,i am out ( hell1 & t ,i /ill f9d1 ,god is a ,god ( love4 ,my desire is1 to beg9 n[2 to live ?is mom5t1 & believe = ! next4 ,i h be5 = "s "t conf9$ to my b$1 & am /ill conf9$ to my room4 ,b all is well1 :ile ,i am enabl$1 9 e /ate1 to be cont5t4 ,i h _h a week ( close trials & temptations2 b ( deep consolations likewise4 ,b ,i see ,i am /ill %ort 9 be>+ all ?+s1 & 9 disc]n+ ! enemy's fir/ approa*4 ,yet glory be to ?y great & holy "n1 = :at ,i d enjoy4 ,o help me to prize ?y bless+s m1 & to believe & love to ! end6 ,sunday #bf4 ,9 ! morn+1 be=e ,i rose1 w&]+ ?\ghts 7 ?r[n into my m9d4 ,i begg$ ! ,"l to give me p[] to drive !m out2 & he he>d my pray]4 ,he gave me likewise a ?ankful he>t1 to ?9k h[ ri*ly he _h provid$ = me1 9 temporals 7:ile s _m 7 9 press+ want7 z well z 9 spirituals3 ,i c\ld n help weep+ be=e ! ,"l1 & ask+1 8,:y me1 or m9e8 ,:y ha/ ?\ giv5 me ?is composure ( m9d1 m desirable ?an all ?is _w8 ,"l1 give me to press aft] m inw>d solitude1 & keep & wat] me e mom5t60 ,sunday1 ,may #c4 ,glory be to ?y great & holy "n1 = all ?y bless+s & m]cies3 ,b above all1 = my de> ,jesus3 ,i feel ! value ( 8 blood & m]its m ?an ev]4 ,i f9d myself all weakness & helplessness3 8 blood is all my plea4 ,?r\gh ?is ,i enjoy great peace ( m9d2 al?\gh mu* indispos$ 9 body4 ,b ,i h be5 9 d\bt :at to d4 ,i said1 ab\t a ye> be=e ,i f\nd peace ) ,god1 t ,i w\ld n eat any m fle% supp]s1 except ,i 0 ) *ild4 ,b1 z my pres5t disord] 0 ?\ght to require x1 ,i eat ?is ev5+ a little ( a calf's foot4 ,"l1 keep me f scrupul\s fe>s aft] x3 ,let n ! enemy accuse me = x4 ,help me 9 ?is1 & all ?+s1 to extol ?y love & gu>dian c>e4 ,monday #be4 ,glory be to ,god = new desires to s]ve him3 ,"l1 encrease !m e mom5t2 & enable me to put 9 practice e desire1 & e resolution1 :i* is to ?y glory6 ,let me nev] be we>y ( well-do+2 b endure to ! end1 t no man take my cr[n6 ,sunday1 ,june #ad4 ,to-day ,i 0 at ! h\se ( m\rn+1 at si/] ,pe>ce's1 ^: *ild 0 ne> dea?4 ,x 0 an happy "t4 ,:ile we read ! exp]i5ce ( "s dep>t$ sa9ts1 ! ,"l %[]$ d[n 8 love ^u u4 ,aft] ! boy di$1 ,i ?\ght1 ,:o c tell1 :at a bless$ convoy surr\nd$ u1 al?\gh unse5 by mortal eyes8 ,& ,i _h /rong fai?1 t1 ?r\gh ! blood ( ! ,lamb1 ,i %\ld "o day meet ! sa9ts above4 ,i f\nd also great fai? = ! welf>e ( ,zion1 & hope t ! ,"l w\ld soon build h] up4 ,9 my late indisposition1 ,i f\nd little activity & little p[] to pray4 ,& ,i f\nd ! enemy tak+ e occasion to tempt me3 ,b !re 0 no?+ 9 me to side ) ! temptation4 ,glory be to ,god = pure love6 ,glory be to ,jesus ,*ri/1 my ,"l6 ,o cont9ue to reign supreme ,"l ov] e motion ( my s\l6 ,?ursday #be4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i enjoy a /$dy peace1 & ev5ness ( m9d4 ,b illness weighs d[n my body & s\l1 s t ,i am n active 9 ! s]vice ei!r ( ,god or man4 ,i f\nd my own _s v ne> 9 reprov+3 ,b ,i look$ to ! ,"l1 & 0 sav$4 ,& ,i 0 kept 9 a great measure f reason+4 ,on ! close/ exam9ation1 ,i f\nd no?+ b love 9 my he>t4 ,b ,i long to h all t m9d :i* 0 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus my ,"l6 ,monday1 ,july #f4 ,at night1 aft] ,i 0 9 b$1 ,i f\nd my m9d w&] aft] di/ant ?+s4 ,i f\nd x h>d to fix my m9d on ! ,"l only2 b1 glory to him1 ! f\nta9 is /ill op54 ,i h be5 mu* bett] 9 body to-day1 & h be5 able to p\r out my s\l to ,god1 m freely ?an = "s "t pa/4 ,inde$ = "s "t ,i h _h little life 9 pray]3 ,b1 bless$ be ,god1 he ev5 !n gave me p[]1 :i* ,i _h n1 :5 ,i c\ld rejoice to g to pray]1 & f\nd x sweet to my ta/e4 ,he only kn[s1 :at is be/ = u4 ,& :5 ,i 0 tri$ to-day1 he gave me a meek & quiet _s4 ,b ,i believe ,i spoke aft]w>d m ?an 0 necess>y2 yet1 bless$ be ,god1 )\t condemnation4 ,saturday #aa4 ,at a fun]al1 ,i 0 mu* tempt$ to look at ^? :o 7 /ill 9 _! s9s1 & to pref] myself be=e !m4 ,b pres5tly x came1 ,:o make? !e to diff]8 ,= a mom5t ,i sunk almo/ into despair4 ,b ,i ?\ght on ! love ( ,god1 & receiv$ com=t4 ,s busy is ! enemy1 fir/ to lift u up1 & !n to ca/ u d[n4 ,tuesday1 ,augu/ #d4 ,glory be to ,god1 9 ! mid/ ( trials1 ,i 0 z calm z if ,i 0 out ( ! body4 ,9 ! ev5+1 :ile ,i 0 e>ne/ 9 private pray]1 ,i felt z x 7 a d>t %ot ?r\gh me4 ,i />t$ a little1 b /ill kept call+ ^u ,god1 till ,i 0 m ?an conqu]or4 ,saturday #h4 ,?is ev5+ ,i 0 oblig$ to speak on behalf ( ! injur$4 ,& ,i ?\ght x my duty to speak %>ply1 ?\gh /ill 9 love & meekness4 ,i f\nd love = ,god & 8 cause con/ra9$ me s to speak3 ,= ,i hate e ?+ t w\ld di%on\r him4 ,sunday1 ,septemb] #i4 ,i 0 closely tri$ f a ne> qu>t]3 ,b ,i 0 kept 9 peace4 ,i wept to myself1 to ?9k ( ! sore bondage s9 _h br\ght ^u !m :o are "u ! p[] ( x4 ,x gave me to see ! unc]ta9ty ( all ?+s b ! love ( ,*ri/4 ,sunday #bi4 ,i 0 di/urb$ soon aft] midnight1 & aga9 a little be=e day4 ,i did n wake any m1 till almo/ six4 ,i 0 griev$ to be disappo9t$ ( ! prea*+1 & yet cont5t$1 see+ !re 0 no w ( my own 9 ! omission ( x4 ,all ?is day ,i _h a solemn "t4 ,my s\l enjoy$ peace & tranquillity1 & ,i f\nd x good1 to leave ! ?+s ( "t beh9d1 & to wait simply ^u ,god4 ,?ursday1 ,octob] #a4 ,:5 ! select society met1 ,i 0 mu* tir$1 & v heavy4 ,b ! ,"l 0 pleas$ to bless o!rs 9 a glori\s mann]4 ,imm$iately x 0 sugge/$1 8,?is is false fire3 or :y am n ,i affect$60 ,i begg$ ! ,"l1 to answ] = himself4 ,&1 be=e we p>t$1 ,i _h ! petition ,i ask$ ( him1 & 0 refre%$ bo? 9 s\l & body4 ,saturday #c4 ,be+ mu* disord]$ 9 body1 ,i 0 oblig$ to lie d[n4 ,i dream$ ,i 0 exhort+ "s p ( note1 9 an exce$+ solemn mann]4 ,& ,i 0 s happy 9 ,god1 t ,i aft]w>d felt ! good effect ( x1 ev5 ^u my body4 ,yet1 9 ! end1 me?\ght ,i 0 tempt$ to lightness4 ,see h[ ,satan besets u sleep+ & wak+6 ,tuesday #f4 ,i _h /rong desires to be fill$ ) ,god1 & ,i f9d fai? t ,i %all2 t ,i %all be entirely devot$ to ,god1 & t e mom5t4 ,my he>t is m enl>g$ 9 love to all mank9d1 p>ticul>ly to my bre?r52 & ,i h p[] to cov] _! faults ) love1 & to pray = !m4 ,bless$ be ,god1 t 8 "w is spread+ among u3 ,m & m are br\ght to ! k ( ,god3 ,& _m are go+ f h\se to h\se1 to call ^u ,god & tell ( 8 goodness4 ,x is no wond] !re=e t ,satan rages3 ,b ,i tru/ he w be disappo9t$ ( 8 hope4 ,! ,"l make u fai?ful1 & keep u e mom5t wat*+ unto pray]6 ,sunday #ah4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i f9d ! fruits ( ! ,_s encreas+2 p>ticul>ly by means ( private pray]4 ,inde$ ! enemy ?ru/s sore at me !re91 /riv+ to make me afraid1 till ,i sometimes cry out1 8,%all ,i be afraid to ?ank & praise my ,god80 ,he !n pres5tly flies1 & imm$iately ! ,"l %[]s d[n 8 bless+s ^u me4 ,?\gh ,i h be5 kept by sickness f ! public means1 ?is has be5 a sabba? ( re/ to my s\l4 ,i _h a solemn1 peaceable "t 9 read+1 & a glori\s "t 9 private pray]1 betwe5 five & six4 ,& 9 ! ev5+1 ! ,"l p\r$ 8 grace on my he>t1 z ! dew ^u ! t5d] h]b4 ,i nev] saw s mu* ( 8 greatness be=e4 ,"l1 fill me ) ?is awful s5se ( ?y maje/y1 & let me be kept e mom5t 9 t sil5t heav5 ( love6 ,sunday1 ,novemb] #a4 ,i h kept my b$ = "s days1 be+ mu* disord]$ 9 body4 ,b1 glory be to ,god1 he has _m times refre%$ my s\l ) 8 love3 p>ticul>ly1 :5 ,i h be5 fav\r$ ) ! company ( 8 de> *ildr54 ,:5 !y call$ ^u him 9 pray]1 he 0 pleas$ to he>1 & answ] ev5 :ile !y 7 call+4 ,9 g5]al1 ,i h f\nd calm composure ( _s1 a deliv]ance f my own w1 pati5ce & resignation to ! w ( ,god1 & p[] 9 ! h\r ( temptation4 ,b ,i want m /r5g? ( fai? & love2 = ,i f9d ! enemy is always wat*+4 ,& sometimes he comes v ne>1 /riv+ to s[ ! evil se$ aga94 ,b1 glory be to ,god1 he has sav$ me yet1 ?\gh sometimes ,i h be5 sc>cely sav$3 ,s t ,i see ,i mu/ live ?is mom5t to ,god1 & wat* & look to my de> ,"l e mom5t4 ,monday #b4 ,:5 ,i wak$1 my husb& soon began talk+ to me ab\t worldly bus9ess4 ,x 0 lawful1 b ,i quickly f\nd x 0 n exp$i5t3 ,= ,i _h n s mu* p[] to pray z usual4 ,b1 9 ! ev5+1 bless$ be ,god1 ,i wait$ ^u him 9 a sweet1 calm peace1 at ! prea*+4 ,only ,i f\nd a little reason+1 8,:at if ,i %\ld fall 9 lab\r80 ,b x 0 quickly remov$3 ,& ?\gh my body fail$ a little1 yet ,i 0 fre] f w&r+s ?an ,i ev] 0 = a long "t4 ,?ursday #e4 ,! ,"l does /ill bless me & keep me2 b ,i come %ort ( :at ,i desire to be4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i f9d /rong desires to be :olly devot$ to ,god 9 e ?+4 ,b 9 ! ev5+1 ,i f9d ,i h /ill come %ort1 ?\gh )\t condemnation & fe>4 ,bless$ be ,god1 ,i am kept f inord9ate sorr[ = my de> fri5d's illness4 ,"l1 prep>e me = ! same h\r4 ,&1 if x be ?y bless$ w1 rebuke ! disord]1 & raise h] up1 = ! good ( h] family1 & ( ?y p4 ,sunday #h4 ,! ,"l 0 pleas$ to call h] to himself4 ,! day be=e %e seem$ mu* bett]4 ,b 9 ! ev5+ %e fell worse aga91 & ?is morn+1 ab\t n9e1 dep>t$4 ,:5 ^w came ( ?is1 ,i 0 n %ock$ at fir/2 b 9 a :ile ,i began to reason on :at _h pass$ betwe5 u ! ev5+ be=e4 ,%e !n said1 8,:5 dea? seem$ nigh "s nights s9ce1 ! enemy ?ru/ sore at me1 & said1 ,?is w be ?y end3 ,b ,i said1 ,n )\t ,god's p]mission3 ,he c br+ me d[n to ! belly ( hell1 & br+ me up aga91 z he did ,jonah out ( ! :ale's belly4 ,b x is "o ?+ to talk ( dea?1 & ano!r to h x br\ght home to u40 ,!n h] husb&1 & *ildr51 & fri5ds came ne>1 & sorr[ seem$ to ov]:elm h]4 ,b %e said1 8,god is able to bless & keep !m1 )\t me1 if he is pleas$ to take me4 ,& if he is pleas$ to sp>e me1 ,i c d no?+ = !m1 )\t ! ,"l40 ,:5 ,i reflect$ ^u ^! ?+s1 n wat*+ unto pray]1 ,i 0 quickly encompass$ ) a flood ( temptations3 ,s t ,i nev] rememb] to h pass$ su* a night1 s9ce ,i knew ! goodness ( ,god4 ,i c\ld n sleep till six 9 ! morn+4 ,b1 glory be ,god1 ,i _h peace at ! bottom1 & cont9u$ /riv+ ) all my might4 ,ab\t ,monday noon ,i f\nd ease1 & at five 9 ! ev5+1 ,i c\ld wait ^u ! ,"l )\t di/raction4 ,on ,tuesday ,i _h su* a sweet & resign$ w z ,i sc>ce ev] _h be=e4 ,i 0 mu* tak5 up ) ! bless$ness ( heav51 & _h no d\bt b ,i %\ld be !re2 b _h no w ( my own to die or live1 only z ! ,"l %\ld please1 & n "o reluctant ?\ght conc]n+ ! leav+ ( my fri5ds or family4 ,i lay q passive 9 ! h&s ( my de> ,"l4 ,o may he ev] keep me s6 ,m>y ,pe>ce 0 a woman ( good s5se1 :i*1 mix$ ) grace1 0 exce$+ amiable4 ,%e _h great light z to ! spiritual life1 c\ld see ! /ate ( our s\ls1 & set !m be=e u z cle> z ! sun4 ,%e 0 ( a _s t sympa?iz$ ) e "o1 bo? 9 _! temporal & spiritual trials4 ,inde$ h] own life 0 a life ( trials2 :i*1 %e always said1 0 be/ = h]1 & no m ?an 0 ne$ful to keep h] f pride1 & to break h] /ubborn w4 ,b %e bore all h] trials ) sweetness ( temp]1 & nev] m5tion$ !m b to a ne> fri5d4 ,%e 0 a dutiful *ild1 a t5d] p>5t1 an affectionate wife1 & a fai?ful fri5d4 ,may ,i tread 9 h] /eps1 & foll[ ! example ( h] pati5ce to ! end6 ,friday1 ,decemb] #ah4 ,i am mu* bur!n$ 9 body1 & conf9$ by reason ( my bur!n4 ,yet1 bless$ be ,god1 ,i h pati5ce to be> x1 & t>ry 8 leisure4 ,i h be5 mu* tempt$ to an angry zeal1 aga9/ "s ( my unconv]t$ relations4 ,b ,i saw ! sn>e1 & 0 deliv]$4 ,sometimes x is a cross to g to private pray]3 b ,i /ill h peace & love4 ,9 meet+ my b&1 ,i saw & felt my weakness v mu*4 ,yet ! ,"l bless$ u1 :ile we call$ ^u him4 ,"l1 bless me 9 ! approa*+ h\r ( trial4 ,bless :at is =m$ 9 me1 &1 if x live 9 ?is _w2 may x be devot$ to ?y s]vice4 ,sanctify h] sickness to my *ild1 t is n[ "u ?y correct+ h&4 ,prep>e h] = life or = dea?3 & may ,i1 & all my de> *ildr5 meet at ?y "r-h&4 ,sunday #bg4 ,i see m & m1 t e ?+ ,i receive1 is = ! sake ( my de> ,"l1 & t ,i always want 8 preci\s blood1 to wa% & keep me clean4 ,bless$ be 8 "n = fai? 9 him4 ,i f9d 8 light discov]s d>kness m & m4 ,x is a great ?+ to come empty to ,god4 ,"l1 help me to come :olly out ( myself1 to come to !e1 z at fir/ ,i came1 & to return to !e all ?\ give/ me4 ,& help me 9 ! approa*+ trial1 to glorify ?y great & holy "n1 ei!r by life1 or by dea?4 ,to me1 to live be ,*ri/1 & to die be ga94 ,w$nesday #cj4 ,?\gh ,i 0 greatly bur!n$ 9 body1 ,i enjoy$ mu* peace ( m9d4 ,b ,i 0 desir\s1 t ^? :o _h s highly di%on\r$ ,god %\ld be op5ly expell$ f u4 ,"l1 lay ?y mighty h& ^u !m1 & s9k !m into deep rep5tance1 t !y may cry mightily to ,god1 t he may enable !m to return to him1 f :om !y h s deeply revolt$4 ,friday1 ,janu>y #a1 #agfh4 ,glory be to ,god = 8 unb\nd$ m]cies to me1 9 ! ye> t is pa/4 ,?anks be to ,god & ! ,lamb1 t he has giv5 me to see ! beg9n+ ( ano!r ye>4 ,:atev] "t ,i live1 may ,i live m to 8 glory1 ?an ev] ,i h done h]et(ore6 ,saturday #b4 ,?is day has be5 a day ( fai?1 & peace1 & love3 & my s\l has be5 mu* drawn out 9 pray]4 ,n[ let me expect fre% trials1 aft] su* a %[] ( bless+s4 ,sunday #c4 ,?\gh ,i am /ill conf9$ f ! outw>d means1 :i* are highly desirable1 yet1 bless$ be ,god1 ,i f9d him pres5t ) me1 keep+ my s\l 9 p]fect peace4 ,b ,i d\bt ,i spoke m words to-day ?an 7 to ! glory ( ,god4 ,o let ! blood ( ?y ,son1 ,jesus ,*ri/1 /ill cleanse me f all s96 ,sunday #aj4 ,?\gh mu* disord]$ 9 body1 ,i enjoy$ mu* peace & love 9 my s\l4 ,i calmly expect ! ,"l to deliv] me ( ! fruit ( my womb4 ,b ,i d n f9d any w1 b to glorify ,god2 ei!r by life or by dea?4 ,sunday #ag4 ,_m times ,i h n p[] to speak3 b1 bless$ be ,god1 ,i f9d mu* ?ankfulness = all 8 m]cies4 ,my desires are /ill /rong = ,god & 8 "w1 & ,i f9d an increase ( peace & pati5ce4 ,9 meet+ my b&1 & 9 family pray]1 he bless$ u 9 an uncommon mann]4 ,b ! m bless+s ,i receive f him1 ! m ,i see & feel ( my own weakness4 99,saturday #bc4 ,:5 ! ,"l op5s my h&1 to relieve ! want ( any ( 8 poor creatures1 ,i f9d /ill !re is ne$ to cry to him1 t ,i may give him all ! glory4 ,bless$ be 8 "n1 my own _s is dy+ daily4 ,yet ,i sometimes f9d x a cross to g to private pray]2 b s mu* ! m am ,i ble/ !re94 ,& ! ,"l greatly bless$ u 9 family pray]1 :5 ,i e>ne/ly call$ ^u him1 to come & de/roy inbr$ s9 out ( ! he>ts ( ^? :o "k 8 p>don+ love4 ,sunday #bd4 ,i _h a long+ desire to speak v pla9ly to my de> "m4 ,b ,i c\ld n2 ,i c\ld only pray ) h]1 & read to h] "s passages ( scripture4 ,b1 bless$ be ,god1 he has answ]$ my pray]1 ) reg>d to my family's keep+ ! ,"l's day4 ,"l1 enable !m always to keep a sabba? ( re/1 & to f9d re/ 9 _! own s\ls6 ,sunday #ca4 ,glory1 & ?anks1 & praise1 be to ,god & ! ,lamb1 = 8 unb\nd$ love to su* an helpless worm6 ,bless$ be 8 holy "n1 ,i enjoy peace1 & love to ,god & all mank9d4 ,i h no desire to live1 unless to 8 glory3 b1 ?r\gh ! burd5 & pa9 ( my body1 ,i _c put my desires 9 practice z ,i w\ld3 bless$ be ,god1 t he takes ! w = ! de$4 ,"l1 help me 9 my pres5t condition1 to glorify !e by pati5ce3 to be cont5t to suff] z long z ?y goodness pleases1 & to wait till ?y good "t is come4 ,& let me reg>d nei!r pa91 nor ease1 b z x br+s me ne>] to my de> ,"l4 ,f ,tuesday to ,friday ,i 0 q conf9$ to my b$4 ,on ,tuesday1 ,i _h mu* lib]ty 9 meet+ my b&3 b s9ce t "t1 ,i h _h little p[]1 except at int]vals4 ,on ,friday ev5+1 x 0 /rongly sugge/$ to me1 8,?\ wilt fail1 :5 ?y h\r ( trial comes40 ,i imm$iately told my husb&3 he pray$ ) me1 & ,i f\nd lib]ty4 ,ye/]day morn+1 ! same temptation assault$ me /rongly3 b ,i spoke ( x z soon z x came4 ,& s9ce t "t1 bless$ be 8 "n1 ,i h felt x no m4 ,"l1 help me6 ,"l1 keep me e mom5t6 ,keep me to ! end1 = my de> ,"l's sake6 ,a %ort ,,acc\nt ( ,,ann ,,johnson4 ,by ,,john ,,johnson4 #a4 ,,%e 0 born at ,lambe?1 ,octob] #ag1 #agag4 ,h] "m di$ :ile %e 0 "y4 ,ab\t sixte51 %e m>ri$ a seaf>+ man1 :o by 8 extravagance expos$ h] to _m difficulties4 ,(t5 9 sail+ f port to port1 to prev5t1 if possible1 8 wa/+ 8 money :5 he came f sea1 %e 0 9 great dang]1 & !n made _m resolutions2 b !y quickly di$ away4 #b4 ,on ,febru>y #ad1 #agdg4 ,h] husb& br\ght h] to ,dubl94 ,b %e 0 /ill ! same3 8,i d n rememb]1 said %e1 t ,i _h any ?\ght1 :e!r ,i _h a s\l or n1 till ,i 0 ab\t tw5ty-eight ye>s old40 ,at t "t %e began to reflect ) t]ror1 on ! immortality ( h] s\l4 ,%e saw & felt1 t hell 0 h] j des]t1 & c\ld f9d no way to escape x4 ,%e knew %e 0 "u ! wra? ( ,god1 b knew n h[ to appease x4 ,%e w5t f *ur* to *ur*1 & endeav\r$ to d :atev] %e 0 taught2 b f\nd all %e c\ld d 0 no?+4 ,sometimes inde$ h] convictions subsid$ = a "t2 b return$ ) d\ble viol5ce4 ,! cry ( h] s\l cont9ually 01 8,"l :at mu/ ,i d to be sav$8 ,%ew me ! way :]e9 ,i %\ld g60 ,?us %e w5t on = sev]al ye>s4 #c4 ,ab\t f\rte5 ye>s ago %e he>d ,mr4 ,?omas ,wal% prea* 9 ! ,new-room4 ,%e said1 8,he made my s\l tremble exce$+ly40 ,h] fe>s 7 r increas$ ?an less5$4 ,b ! eyes ( h] und]/&+ 7 n op5$1 ) reg>d to ! true me?od ( salvation4 ,aft]w>ds %e he>d 8t bless$ man ( ,god10 7z %e ju/ly call$ him7 ,paul ,gre5wood4 ,%e !n saw1 t by grace we are sav$ ?r\gh fai?1 & at ! same "t1 s9 receiv$ a mortal w\nd4 ,%e det]m9$1 no?+ %\ld prev5t h] seek+ ! pe>l ( great price1 t preci\s fai?4 ,%e _h mu* opposition2 b no?+ /opp$ h] s\l on full /ret* = salvation4 ,su* 0 h] desire to he> ! ^w1 t frequ5tly :5 %e 0 lock$ into ! room1 up "o pair ( /airs1 %e got out at a w9d[4 ,%e directly jo9$ ! society1 & c\nt$ all ?+s loss1 s %e might w9 ,*ri/4 #d4 ,x 0 n long be=e x pleas$ ,god to remove ! oppos] out ( ! way4 ,%e n[ frequ5tly receiv$ mu* com=t3 b t did n satisfy4 ,no?+ c\ld give h] la/+ com=t1 till %e knew h] s9s 7 blott$ out4 ,?is %e e>ne/ly s\ght bo? 9 private & public1 miss+ no opportunity ( he>+ ! prea*+4 ,& "o ,sunday morn+1 z ,mr4 ,deaves 0 giv+ out an hymn1 ,god 0 pleas$ to reveal 8 ,son 9 h]1 & to enable h] to say ) a cle> confid5ce1 8,he has lov$ me1 & giv5 himself = me40 ,x 0 ) mu* difficulty t %e refra9$ f cry+ out1 & exhort+ all to praise ! ,"l4 ,%e n[ delight$ to run ! way ( 8 comm&m5ts4 ,h] he>t 0 enl>g$4 ,bo? h] he>t & h&s 7 op5 t[>ds ^? t fe>$ ,god1 & _h h] p[] be5 equal to h] w1 none ( !m %\ld h want$ any ?+4 ,= "s mon?s %e walk$ z on ! w+s ( ! w9d4 8,jesus all ! day long ,0 h] joy & h] song3 ,o t all 8 salvation may see6 ,he has lov'd me1 %e cri$1 ,he ha? suff]'d & di$ ,to r$eem su* a rebel z me60 ,?\gh h] outw>d situation 0 disagreeable1 be+ surr\nd$ great "p ( ! day1 ) ^? :o con/ra9$ h] to see & he> :at h] s\l abhorr$2 yet 8 grace 0 suffici5t = h]1 & %e rema9$ always rejoic+1 & prais+ ! ,god ( h] salvation4 #e4 ,aft] "s mon?s1 x 0 %ewn h]1 t ! se$s ( s9 7 n yet root$ out ( h] he>t4 ,yet %e did n let g h] confid5ce 9 ,god1 nei!r lose ! p[] ov] h] besett+ s91 :i* 0 ang]4 ,& x 0 h] pr9ciple1 n to re/ an h\r1 )\t a feel+ s5se ( ! love ( ,god4 #f4 ,on ,octob] ! #i?1 #agfj1 by ! provid5ce ( ,god1 %e & ,i 7 m>ri$4 ,%e 0 truly an helpmate = t5 ye>s1 ?ree mon?s1 & two days3 dur+ :i* "t we c\ld truly say1 !re nev] 0 any ?+ b love & t5d]ness t[>d ea* o!r4 ,!re nev] 01 t ,i rememb]1 b once1 any appe>ance ( :at is call$ a qu>rel4 ,& 9 a few h\rs %e saw1 x 0 n h] bus9ess1 to int]f]e ) ! discipl9e ( ! society4 #g4 ,al?\gh !re 0 ! mo/ t5d] affection betwe5 u1 yet s exce$+ great 0 h] love to s\ls1 & h] desire = _! welf>e1 t %e 0 will+ at all times = me to g to any "p ( ! k+dom1 )\t ev] say+1 8,if y mu/ g1 /ay a few days long]40 ,& if ,i 0 abs5t ?ree or six mon?s1 nay1 a :ole ye>1 :i* 0 once ! case1 %e nev] compla9$4 ,%e c\ld "p ) husb&1 or any ?+1 to glorify him1 :o _h done s mu* = h]4 ,! la/ "t ,i spoke ( leav+ h]1 %e 0 ill4 ,my fri5ds !n advis$ me1 n to g4 ,i 0 incl9$ to foll[ _! advice1 z !re appe>$ little hope ( h] recov]y4 ,b %e insi/$ on my go+ :]e ,provid5ce call$1 say+1 8,i nev] h h9d]$ y yet4 ,& if ,i %\ld d x n[1 ,i believe x w\ld be displeas+ to ,god40 ,i w5t1 & aft] an abs5ce ( ?ree mon?s1 return$ j at ! "t1 :5 %e 0 tak5 ) t la/ illness1 :i* prev5t$ h] go+ out any m4 ,& = my com+ home j at t "t1 %e prais$ ,god to h] late/ h\r4 #h4 ,dur+ ! la/ t5 ye>s ( h] life1 %e _h _m & great conflicts4 ,! s5se ( inbr$ s91 & ( h] hav+ s _m times (f5d$ ,god1 aft] %e _h kn[n 8 love1 (t5 lay heavy ^u h] m9d1 & pi]c$ h] ) deep sorr[4 ,! e>ne/ desire ( h] s\l 01 to be :olly giv5 up to ,god4 ,b %e 0 torm5t$ ) t fe>1 le/ %e %\ld n glorify ,god 9 life & 9 dea?3 p>ticul>ly1 le/ by any improp] behavi\r at h] dea?1 %e %\ld be a reproa* to ! gospel4 ,likewise anxi\s c>e ab\t ! _w1 sometimes exce$+ly di/ress$ h]4 ,%e 0 tempt$ to fe>1 le/ %e %\ld live to be a burd5 to ! society4 ,or1 at lea/1 till %e c\ld n be helpful to o!rs1 z %e knew1 x 0 m bless$ to give ?an to receive4 ,b ?ro' ! m]cy ( ,god1 none ( ! ?+s :i* %e _h fe>$ came ^u h]4 #i4 ,above two ye>s ago1 ! disord] :i* occasion$ h] dea? began to be viol5t4 ,yet %e did n abate h] dilig5ce1 to support h]self & family1 till ,july #agfi4 ,h] pa9s !n s increas$1 t %e _h no ease night or day1 only :5 %e slept1 :i* 0 seldom m ?an an h\r or two4 ,b not)/&+ ?is1 %e c\ld n be prevail$ ^u to keep h] room be=e ,*ri/mas4 ,f t "t %e 0 9 exquisite pa91 z ?o' h] b[els 7 te>+ asund]4 ,%e (t5 said1 we>isome nights & days are appo9t$ = me4 ,yet 9 ! %>pe/ pa91 %e nev] *>g$ ,god fooli%ly1 or once said1 he dealt h>dly ) h]4 #aj4 ,dur+ ?is long conf9em5t1 %e felt a ke5 conviction ( h] pa/ unfai?fulness1 toge!r ) a pi]c+ s5se ( inbr$ s94 ,& on bo? ^! acc\nts1 %e 0 (t5 cry+ out 9 deep di/ress1 ,god be m]ciful to me a s9n]4 ,%e /$dily believ$1 x 0 ! privilege ( ,god's p1 always to feel ! cle> witness ( 8 _s4 ,accord+ly %e 0 always1 ei!r rejoic+ 9 ! ,"l1 or deeply di/ress$ = want ( x4 ,ev5 9 ! sev]e/ pa91 %e 0 n satisfi$ ) pati5ce1 unless %e _h joy 9 ! ,"l4 #aa4 ,%e (t5 w\ld say1 8,! devil tells me1 ! peace ,i feel is only /upidity3 t ,i h be5 an hypocrite all my life1 & nev] 0 conv]t$4 ,b ,i c ) confid5ce answ]1 ?is is false4 ,i nev] desir$ to deceive ei!r myself or o!rs4 ,i "k ! ,"l did awak5 my s\l1 & conv]t me to himself4 ,& ,i _c accuse myself ( lukew>mness 9 my duty s9ce4 ,i h seldom wilfully miss$ my class1 or b&1 or a s]mon4 ,yet ! mann] 9 :i* ,i (t5 p]=m$ ^? duties1 causes my s\l to tremble4 ,my body 0 pres5t3 b (t51 too (t5 my m9d 0 engag$ 9 my bus9ess4 ,h]e9 ,i mu/ plead guilty be=e ,god1 & he might ju/ly h ca/ me out ( 8 pres5ce40 #ab4 ,all ?is "t ! h& ( ! ,"l 0 und]nea? h]1 & did n suff] h] to s9k 9 ! deep wat]s4 ,yet %e (t5 compla9$1 8,i _c rejoice 9 pa910 :]eas ,/4 ,paul says1 ,rejoice 9 tribulation3 & t happy s\l1 ,nancy ,rog]s said1 8,e pa9 is a spr+ to my s\l1 to lift me up to heav540 ,i told h]1 8,:5 y1 l ,nancy1 are ne> y\r end1 y may triumph ov] pa9 also4 ,b %\ld x be o!rwise1 y\r et]nal /ate does n dep5d on t40 ,%e cri$ out1 8,nay1 b :at ! scriptures decl>e1 & :at o!rs h exp]i5c$1 is = me40 ,%e did n fe> be+ ca/ into hell3 yet h] di/ress1 at times1 0 exce$+ great4 ,%e 0 vehem5tly a?ir/ = full salvation1 & (t5 broke out into deep lam5tation4 8,i am unlike ! ,"l6 ,:5 %all ,i awake up aft] 8 full lik5ess60 ,sometimes %e seem$ j ready to lay hold on ! hope set be=e h]4 ,b %e 0 *eck$ by a s5se ( h] unpr(itabl5ess 9 ! ways ( ,god3 & w\ld (t5 break out1 8,true ,"l1 true6 ,i am unpr(itable inde$40 #ac4 ,at "s times %e 0 afraid1 le/ %e %\ld live to exp5d all %e _h1 & leave me 9 di/ress4 ,b ab\t a mon? be=e h] dea?1 ^! fe>s vani%$ away1 & %e 0 q resign$ to ! w ( ,god1 leav+ x :olly to him to d :at seem$ him good1 ) h] & all t %e _h4 ,f ?is "t %e _h no o!r c>e ?an t :i* relat$ to h] s\l4 ,%e 0 n[ releas$ f h] sev]e pa9s1 & h] s\l felt a solemn peace2 ?o' %e 0 /ill frequ5tly tempt$ to fe>1 le/ %e %\ld deceive h]self4 #ad4 ,ne> ?ree weeks aft]1 ,i 0 read+ 9 ! fifte5? volume ( ! ,*ri/ian ,libr>y1 t section 9 ,isaac ,ambrose's look+ unto ,jesus1 8,desir+ ,jesus ) respect to 8 dea?40 ,! ,"l n[ turn$ 8 h& ^u h]1 & caus$ h] to feel 8 p[]4 ,h] body seem$ to be =gott52 :ile h] _s rejoic$ 9 ,god h] ,savi\r1 cry+ out1 8,o ! goodness ( ,god1 :i* direct$ t passage to be read ?is night60 ,!n %e began to s+ 8,?\ %eph]d ( ,israel & m9e1 ,! joy & desire ( my he>t6 ,= clos] communion ,i p9e2 ,i long to reside :]e ?\ art4 ,! pa/ure ,i langui% to f9d1 ,:]e all :o _! %eph]d obey1 ,are f$1 on ?y bosom recl9'd1 ,are scre5'd f ! heat ( ! day40 ,f ?is "t %e did rejoice ev]more2 & yet long$ to triumph m4 ,h] ambiti\s s\l c\ld n re/1 till :olly swall[$ up 9 ,god4 #ae4 ,janu>y #g4 ,%e desir$ to be tak5 out ( b$4 ,z soon z h] cloa?s 7 on1 %e expect$ to h gone to re/4 ,b ,god 0 pleas$ to keep h] a little long] 9 ! body1 = ! com=t ( h] surviv+ fri5ds4 ,z soon z %e 0 a little reviv$1 ,i ask$1 8,if %e c\ld /ay h] s\l ^u ! ,"l80 ,%e said1 8,yes1 ,i c1 ?o' ,i h n always t full assurance ( fai?40 ,b ! next morn+1 ,god fulfill$ ! desire ( h] he>t1 & fill$ h] ) fai? & love4 ,ab\t t5 %e seem$ j expir+3 b %e soon reviv$4 ,i said1 8,my de>1 c y rely on ! ,"l80 ,%e answ]$ ) triumph1 8,i c2 yes1 ,i c4 ,all is pla9 be=e me4 ,!re is no?+ n[ 9 ! way4 ,o ! preci\s blood ( ,god6 ,o ! preci\s blood ( ,god6 ,t preci\s blood cleanse? f all s9 & f all /a9s40 ,i ask$1 8,has t blood cleans$ y f all /a9s80 ,%e said1 8,yes1 yes4 ,x has wa%$ me1 & x w /ill wa% me40 ,i said1 8,= sorr[ y %all soon h joy40 ,%e said1 8,sorr[6 ,i h _h no sorr[4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( :at my ,"l suff]$ = me1 m9e is no?+40 ,inde$ ! exce$+ happ9ess %e n[ enjoy$1 made h] =get all h] =m] pa9s4 ,%e said1 8,i %all be l him6 ,i _c tell :at t is3 b ,i %all be l him40 ,! convulsions !n foll[$ ea* o!r ) little respite2 b 9 ! int]vals1 %e 0 /ill prais+ ,god4 #af4 ,w$nesday #i4 ,9 ! morn+ %e 0 9 great agonies1 b said1 8,"l1 ?\ do/ all ?+s well6 ,n[ ,i h no?+ to d b to praise3 e brea? %all be praise4 ,i h j conqu]$ dea?4 ,o ,jesus1 ?\ did/ br+ me into ! _w1 & ha/ pref]r$ me 9 ! _w1 & ha/ br\ght me ?ro' ! _w60 ,i said1 8,he has br\ght y safe to ,jordan's bank40 ,%e said1 8,o yes1 he has1 ,o t ,i may g full sail into port6 ,i h a bless$ pilot40 ,?is day _m p]sons came to see h]4 ,"o said1 8,bless$ are ! dead :i* die 9 ! ,"l60 ,%e repli$1 8,s sai? ! ,_s3 = !y re/ f _! lab\rs40 ,a convulsion foll[$1 aft] :i* %e 0 light-head$3 unless any "o spoke to h] ( ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,!n = a "t1 h] reason return$4 ,%e did n sleep ! :ole night1 & h] brea? 0 almo/ gone3 yet %e said1 8,i d n feel mu* pa940 ,?ursday #aj4 ,e>ly 9 ! morn+ %e 0 aga9 compos$1 & said1 8,i %all soon be ) him4 ,i %all dr9k ( ! riv] t makes glad ! city ( ,god4 ,he has br\ght me out ! :ite l95 & put x ^u me4 ,i see ,jesus6 ,i see ,jesus6 ,he is wor? m ?an all ,i h bel[40 ,?is day %e (t5 doz$2 b z soon z awake1 said1 8,o preci\s ,jesus60 ,?us %e sp5t ! day1 & mo/ "p ( ! night1 say+1 8,i h (t5 be5 we>y ( speak+ ( him3 b n[ ,i c speak ( him = ev]40 #ag4 ,friday #aa4 ,%e knew all t came to see h]1 & spoke to sev]al ( !m4 ,ab\t t5 h] daught] ask$ h] bless+4 ,%e kiss$ h]1 & said1 8,! ,"l bless y & give y grace to be dutiful40 ,soon aft] "o came1 t 0 v de> to h]4 ,%e w\ld h spoke to h]2 b at fir/ 0 n able4 ,b aft] a %ort "t %e said1 8,h] voice has be5 pleasant to me4 ,f>ewell4 ,i %all soon be 9 heav520 ,^! 7 ! la/ words ,i c\ld und]/&2 b %e 0 s5sible to ! la/4 ,ab\t tw5ty m9utes be=e "o1 %e fell asleep4 8,?us may we all our p>t+ brea? ,into ! ,savi\r's h&s resign6 ,o ,jesus let me die h] dea?1 ,& let h] latt] end be m9e60 ,a %ort ,,acc\nt ( ,,ann ,,rog]s4 ,by ,,john ,,johnson4 ,saturday1 ,april #h1 #agfi4 ,i ,,w5t to see ,ann ,rog]s1 a "y woman :o _h be5 = sev]al ye>s a memb] ( ! society 9 ,dubl94 ,two or ?ree ye>s ago %e believ$ ,god _h sav$ h] f all s91 & ev] s9ce behav$ 9 ! mo/ exempl>y mann]4 8,my body1 %e said1 is exce$+ weak3 b ,*ri/ is preci\s to my s\l1 & has n suff]$ me 9 all my weakness & pa9 to feel "o murmur+ ?\ght40 ,i enquir$1 h[ ! "w ( ,god began 9 h] s\l8 ,%e said1 8,may 0 six ye>s ,i came to live ) ,mrs4 ,riggs1 :]e ,m>y ,f]is liv$2 at :i* "t ,i _h no notion ( real1 he>t religion4 ,b h] behavi\r /ruck me1 & n long aft]1 ,i w5t ) h] on ,sunday morn+ to ! ,new-,room4 ,f t "t ,i saw myself a vile1 helpless s9n]1 ( :i* ,i 0 conv9c$ m & m2 yet ) /rong hope1 expect+ deliv]ance "u e s]mon ,i he>d1 & 9 e meet+ = pray]4 ,b 9 ab\t two mon?s my hope grew weak1 & ,i conclud$ ,god did n he> my pray]s4 ,!n deep sorr[ seiz$ my he>t1 till "o night go+ to b$1 ,i cri$ e>ne/ly = m]cy1 & begg$ t if !re 7 any = me1 ,i might wake "t en\gh to att5d ! morn+ prea*+4 ,i awoke at ! "t4 ,9 t mom5t ,i 0 enabl$ to believe1 t ,god lov$ me4 ,i rejoic$ unspeakably2 ,i 0 happy 9 8 love1 & h nev] s9ce d\bt$ ( 8 fav\r4 8,?is joy cont9u$ = "s mon?s1 b ) an e>ne/ hope ( see+ great] ?+s ?an ^!3 ^? words be+ frequ5tly 9 my m\?1 & almo/ cont9ually 9 my m9d1 ,wre/l+ ,i w n let !e g1 ,till ,i ?y "n1 ?y nature "k6 ,& "o day z ,i 0 sitt+ 9 my room1 ! p[] ( ,god came mightily ^u me1 & ^? words 7 appli$ to my he>t1 9 a mann] ,i _c express1 ,?\ art all fair1 my love3 !re is no spot 9 !e4 ,x is impossible to tell h[ my s\l 0 fill$ ) love3 surely x 0 angel's food6 ,i 0 call$ d[n to d9n]1 b c\ld eat no?+3 ,on ?is "o said1 #8,nancy1 h y got ! second bless+8' ,i did n "k h[ to answ] to ?is1 or :at "n to call x by4 ,b ,i said1 ,i nev] 0 s happy 9 all my life3 ,i am q fill$ ) love4 ,& f t "t ,i h cont9u$1 except "s weeks 9 ! beg9n+ ( la/ ye>1 7:5 ,i 0 hurt by disput+ ab\t a ?ird p]son7 rejoic+ ev]more1 pray+ )\t ceas+1 & 9 e ?+ giv+ ?anks4 ,my p>ticul> pray] 01 t ,god w\ld give me all ! grace :i* he _h promis$ 9 8 ^w40 ,f ! "t t ?is disord] began1 x 0 h] con/ant pray]1 8,"l1 if ,i recov]1 let x be to ?y glory2 if n1 ?y w be done6 ,only d n take me h5ce1 till ?\ ha/ f9i%$ ?y "w 9 my s\l40 ,?is1 %e add$1 8is my :ole desire4 ,& ,i mu/ be> ?is te/imony1 ! ,"l ,jesus ha? always1 on 8 "p1 be5 fai?ful & graci\s to me4 ,& ?\gh1 on my "p1 ,i h be5 mu* want+1 yet he ha? borne ) me & mightily bless$ my s\l40 ,h] "m told me1 8,ye/]day ,i ?\ght %e 0 expir+2 %e did n appe> l h]self2 till %e broke out1 #8,! goodness ( ,god has be5 s manife/$ to my s\l1 t ,i c\ld n speak4 ,^? words 7 spoke to my he>t1 ,i h lov$ !e ) an ev]la/+ love4 ,&1 ,?\ %alt be m9e1 9 t day1 :5 ,i make up my jewels4 ,o6 ,i h sweet =eta/es ( heav56 ,i w\ld gladly g to him my s\l loves4'0 ,sunday #i4 ,i saw h] aga94 ,%e 0 !n s weak1 %e c\ld h>dly speak to be he>d4 ,b aft] ,i _h spoke a few words ( ! love ( ,jesus1 %e f\nd /r5g? & said1 8,! fir/ ,sunday 9 ,febru>y la/1 at ! sacram5t1 ,i did inde$ eat 8 fle% & dr9k 8 blood4 ,! glory ( ! ,"l %one into my s\l1 & ,i felt s mu* ( 8 love1 x 0 almo/ m ?an my feeble body c\ld be>3 x 0 a real =eta/e ( heav540 ,%e said1 8,?ree nights ago ,i 0 9 exquisite pa91 su* z ,i nev] felt be=e3 b e pa9 0 a spr+ to my s\l1 to lift me up to heav54 ,i c\ld ?ank him = all1 & me?\ght ,i w\ld n recov] = ! :ole _w4 ,inde$ ! love ( ,jesus s ravi%es my s\l t ,i w\ld n h "o pa9 less ?an he pleases40 ,!n correct+ h]self %e said1 8,pa96 ,x _c be call$ pa93 8 pres5ce makes x heav5 to me60 ,"o said1 8,he has br\ght y ?r\gh ! wild]ness1 )9 sight ( ! good l&40 ,%e said1 8,o yes6 ,o yes6 ,he has2 & he w be ) me ?r\gh ! valley2 ?is ,i _c d\bt40 ,i !n took my leave & saw h] no m4 ,:at foll[s1 ,i _h f ^? t att5d$ h]4 8on0 replac$ ) 8"o0 p] ,errata ,%e exhort$ all t came1 p>ticul>ly ^? t sat up ) h]1 to r$eem ! "t4 ,to "o %e said1 8,o ,sally1 turn to ,god ) y\r :ole he>t3 y h b little "t30 & to !m all1 8,make ha/e6 ,get ready6 ,y h no "t to sp>e40 ,aft]w>d ,satan 0 p]mitt$ to ?ru/ sore at h]4 ,wak+ out ( sleep1 %e began to reproa* h]self1 = sleep+1 say+1 8,if ,i _h n slept1 x w\ld n h be5 ?us ) me4 ,i _c d\bt ( ! fav\r ( my ,"l3 nei!r c ,i fe> 8 ca/+ me into hell4 ,b ,i am tempt$ to ?9k1 ,i %all h sore di/ress at ! h\r ( dea?40 ,?is la/$ "s h\rs2 b 9 ! ev5+ %e said1 8,*ri/ is come1 & ,satan is gone40 ,nor 0 he suff]$ to tr\ble h] any m4 ,all t foll[$ 0 peace & love4 ,yet %e 0 exce$+ly conc]n$ = h] "m1 le/ %e %\ld n freely give h] up to ,god4 ,h] "m 0 ask$1 ,:e!r %e c\ld or no8 ,%e answ]$1 8,s9ce x is ! w ( ,god to take h]1 ,i d give h] up freely40 ,& ?is reply gave h] entire satisfaction4 ,! day be=e %e di$1 ! ?\ght ( be+ = ev] ) ! ,"l1 0 transport+ to h] s\l4 ,b %e said to h] "m1 8,i *>ge y :5 ,i am dead1 let none ( ! wick$ come into ! room4 ,let x be fill$ ) ^? t fe> ,god2 & :ile !y are s++ ! praises ( ,god bel[1 ,i %all be s++ !m above40 ,ab\t ?ree 9 ! morn+ %e said e>ne/ly1 8,o preci\s ,*ri/6 ,o preci\s ,*ri/60 ,^! 7 h] la/ words3 b %e /ill express$ h] happ9ess1 sometimes by lift+ h] eyes t[>ds heav51 & sometimes by look+ pleasantly on ^? ab\t h]1 till h] sight fail$1 & h] _s w5t up to ,god4 ,"s ye>s be=e %e di$1 %e n[ & !n wrote d[n a little ( h] exp]i5ce4 ,i believe ^! acc\nts1 imp]fect z !y are1 w be acceptable to ! pi\s read]4 8,april #aj1 #agfd4 ,! ,"l has bless$ me 9 a wond]ful mann]4 ,glory & praise to 8 great "n6 ,o t ?y praise may dwell on my he>t6 ,o my ,"l1 enable ! unwor?ie/ ( ?y s]vants1 to give !e ?anks = ?y unspeakable love6 ,o t ,i c\ld invite all to ta/e & see h[ good ?\ art1 h[ full ( tru? & grace6 ,o ?\ unexhau/$ f\nta9 ( love1 enable me e mom5t to ca/ myself ^u !e1 & to receive out ( ?y fulness grace = grace40 ,i cont9u$ ?us = five days1 yet ) _m w&]+s f my ,god3 b ,i _h ?is cry 9 my he>t1 ,de> ,"l1 deliv] me f a he>t s prone to w&] f !e6 ,tuesday1 ,may #bb4 ,z ,i 0 at my "w1 ^! words came to my he>t ) p[]1 ,i w take away ! he>t ( /one1 & w give !e an he>t ( fle%4 ,i 0 lo/ 9 wond]1 yet f\nd unbelief till ^? words 7 spoke to my he>t1 ,ye are clean ?r\gh ! ^w ,i h spok54 ,i f\nd a *ange 9 myself f t mom5t1 & c\ld say1 ,i love !e ) e faculty ( my s\l4 ,truly ,i c say1 t ,god is love6 ,& t he delights to d 8 ne$y creatures good4 ,septemb] #ad1 #agfe4 ,i _h a great] desire ?an usual to retire f ! _w3 yea ev5 f ! conv]se ( ! holie/ ,*ri/ians1 to wait ^u ,god alone4 ,i want$ to h a clos] acqua9tance ) ! bless$ ,jesus4 ,happy he t c g to ,god at any "t1 pray+ to him ) fai? & f]v5cy4 ,my ,god1 all my s\l cries al\d = m ( ?y light & love6 ,o my ,"l1 manife/ ?yself 9 me m fully6 ,none liv+ has great] cause to love & s]ve !e4 ,sunday #ae4 ,! s]mon at *ur* caus$ "s heav9ess2 b ,i 0 refre%$ at ! ,"l's table4 ,o ,jesus1 assi/ me to look ?r\gh e means1 to !e1 ! f\nta9 ( life & love6 ,monday #af4 ,! s]mon 0 z m>r[ & fatness to my s\l4 ,i did truly wait ^u ,god4 ,i h be5 happy ?is :ole day3 ,jesus has be5 preci\s to me4 ,i f\nd him 9 e means ( grace3 he is ne> me 9 e "t ( ne$4 ,i see mu* ( my helplessness & weakness4 ,e mom5t1 ,"l1 ,i want ,! m]it ( ?y dea?4 ,tuesday #ag4 ,i h f\nd ?is day1 mo/ com=table communion ) ,jesus1 & free access to ! ?rone ( grace4 ,yet ,i h be5 greatly tempt$3 b ! ,"l /ood by me1 & made a way = me to escape4 ,i want to be all att5tion to 8 voice1 & to be m dead to ! ?+s ( "t & s5se3 let me h no w1 ,o ,jesus1 b ?9e6 ,let ?y w be done 9 me & by me6 ,w$nesday #ah4 ,?is morn+ ,i 0 s /upid ,i c\ld h>dly pray3 b ?\ art n extreme to m>k :at is amiss4 ,all ! day ,i 0 mu* hurri$ 9 bus9ess1 & c\ld n att5d ! public means ( grace4 ,b 9 ! ev5+ he made up ! want1 giv+ me free access to him 9 pray]3 & !re9 he graci\sly refre%$ my poor droop+ s\l4 ,o my ,god1 let ! fire ( ?y love burn up :atev] is n agreeable to !e4 ,& let su* a s5se ( ?y free1 unm]it$ love re/ on me1 z may keep me ev] l[ at ?y ble$+ feet6 ,?ursday #ai4 ,?is :ole day1 ?\gh mu* employ$ 9 my bus9ess1 ! ,"l /ood by me1 & enabl$ me to look to him4 ,9 ! ev5+ he made a way = me to he> 8 ^w1 & ,i f\nd x good to wait ^u him4 ,he does fulfil 8 ^w1 ,!y t wait ^u ! ,"l1 %all r5ew _! /r5g?4 ,!y %all run & n be we>y2 %all walk & n fa9t4 ,i daily see my unpr(itabl5ess4 ,my %ort-com+s are _m2 yet he freely p>dons3 ,i see t my /r5g? is p]fect weakness2 t if ,jesus left me a mom5t1 ,i %\ld fall4 ,& we _c be any o!rwise sav$1 ?an by a con/ant look+ to him4 ,o ,jesus keep my eye fix$ on !e1 till ,i am look$ into all ?y lovely lik5ess4 ,friday #bj4 ,i f\nd mu* ( ! goodness ( ! ,"l4 ,i want to love him m1 t ,i may s]ve him bett]4 ,i d n love or praise him z ,i w\ld3 b he does n despise ! day ( small ?+s4 ,i f9d he visits me ) 8 love 9 a p>ticul> mann]1 be=e any p>ticul> trial4 ,a trial ,i met ) ?is ev5+ caus$ heav9ess = a "t3 b ,i 0 com=t$ "u ! s]mon4 ,h[ numb]less are ?y ?\ghts ( love to my s\l6 ,!y are m ?an ! s&s on ! sea %ore4 ,saturday #ba4 ,i f\nd my m9d frequ5tly w&]+4 ,o ?\ fri5d ( s9n]s1 ,settle & fix my wav'r+ s\l ,) all ?y weight ( love6 ,i 0 v>i\sly tempt$1 & ,i reason$ ) ! temptation1 :i* increas$ x m & m1 till ,jesus %ew$ me1 x 0 f an enemy1 & graci\sly deliv]$ me4 ,o tea* me wisdom to "k 8 devices1 & p>don my unfai?fulness6 ,/r5g!n my fai?1 confirm my hope1 & p]fect me 9 love4 ,sunday #ab4 ,?is has be5 a sabba? ( re/ to my s\l4 ,glory be to ?y great & glori\s "n1 ,o ?\ f\nta9 ( love6 ,:at %all ,i d to praise !e = ?y free grace to ! mo/ unfai?ful ( ?y *ildr58 ,o :at cause h ,i to e/eem ?y ^w8 ,x is sweet] ?an honey or ! honey-comb4 ,i am a?ir/ = all t ,*ri/ has pur*as$ = me4 ,i long = m ( 8 meek & l[ly m9d6 ,! m9d t be>e? all ?+s3 ,o t e ?\ght may cont9ually rise to !e6 ,monday #bc4 ,?is has be5 an happy day to me1 ! mo/ unwor?y ( ?y *ildr54 ,i h _h a con/ant s5se ( ! pres5ce ( my ,belov$1 com=t+ & refre%+ my s\l4 ,i sat "u 8 %ad[ ) great delight1 & 8 fruit 0 sweet to my ta/e4 ,yet ,i see t my wants are _m1 & t !re are heights & dep?s to be atta9$ "h4 ,i am truly a%am$ be=e ,god ( my own unpr(itabl5ess4 ,yet he graci\sly passes by all my follies1 )\t ev5 upbraid+ me4 ,yea1 he applies ) p[] t com=table promise1 ,i w betro? !e unto me 9 righte\sness1 & 9 judgm5t1 & 9 lov+-k9dness1 & fai?fulness2 & ?\ %alt "k ! ,"l4 ,i "k !e2 b ,i long to "k !e m1 ,o ?\ t art altoge!r lovely6 ,insatiate to ?is spr+ ,i fly3 ,i dr9k1 & yet am ev] dry1 ,ah6 :o aga9/ su* *>ms is pro(8 ,ah6 :o t loves1 c love en\gh6 ,tuesday #bd4 ,i 0 closely assault$ by ! enemy4 ,he pursue? h>d aft] me3 b :5 he come? 9 l a flood1 ,jesus lifts up a /&>d aga9/ him4 ,he br\ght _m heavy accusations aga9/ me4 ,i dur/ n /ay to reason ) him = a mom5t4 ,b ,i flew to ,jesus z = my life1 & cri$ to him to deliv] me4 ,& he did s1 by apply+ t promise to my he>t1 ,my grace is suffici5t = !e4 ,i f9d x is1 ev5 = me4 ,! "n ( ,jesus is a /rong t[]1 :]e ! righte\s may always resort4 ,i sp5t great "p ( ?is day 9 visit+ ! sick1 & f\nd x a bless+ to me4 ,h[ mu* bett] is x1 to g to ! h\se ( m\rn+1 ?an to ! h\se ( fea/+6 ,h[ glad %\ld ,i be ( m "t to sp5d among ?y afflict$ foll[]s8 ,b 9 ?is1 z 9 e ?+ beside1 n m9e w1 b ?9e be done4 ,?ursday #bf4 ,i f9d ?is day1 ?y love is bett] ?an life4 ,?y /r5g? is made p]fect 9 my weakness4 ,i long to be :olly giv5 up to !e4 ,i visit$ "o ( our sick fri5ds1 & my s\l 0 refre%$ ) h]4 ,to enjoy ?y pres5ce on a sick b$1 is unspeakable happ9ess4 ,!n no?+ w d1 b a real int]e/ 9 a crucifi$ ,r$eem]4 ,x is only ! bless$ exp]i5ce ( ?is1 :i* !n gives true peace1 fre$om f all anxi\s c>e1 & resignation 9 pa94 ,our an*or is ca/ )9 ! veil3 our hope is full ( immortality4 ,o glori\s hope ( p]fect bliss6 ,& am ,i a p>tak] ( ?is hope8 ,o wondr\s grace6 ,o b\ndless love6 ,friday #bg4 ,o ,jesus1 :at ha/ ?\ done = me8 ,:at %all ,i say unto !e8 ,?is ,i c say1 t ,i love !e3 & let x be ) e faculty ( my s\l6 ,i d f9d ?y "n z o9tm5t p\r$ =?4 ,?\ leade/ me 9 gre5 pa/ures1 by ! /ill wat]s ( com=t4 ,:5 nature fails1 & day & night ,divide ?y works no m1 ,my ev] ?ankful s\l1 ,o ,"l1 ,?y goodness %all adore4 ,saturday #bh4 ,?is morn+ ,i _h a trial1 b ,jesus /ood by me1 & kept my m9d 9 peace4 ,visit+ a fri5d 9 ! ev5+1 ,i 0 mu* com=t$4 ,god 0 ) u ( a tru?4 ,o h[ full ( love are ?y ?\ghts t[>ds me6 ,all ?+s %all "w toge!r = my good4 ,monday #cj4 ,?is has be5 "o ( my be/ days4 ,i ?9k ,i nev] _h be=e su* a s5se ( ! goodness ( ,god to me1 & my entire dep5d5ce on him4 ,my s\l has be5 ^u ! /ret* = all ! fruit ( ! ,_s4 ,i nev] saw su* beauty 9 humility1 & felt su* a desire aft] x4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! foll[+ pap] be>s no date4 8,o ,jesus1 h[ ri*ly ha/ ?\ provid$ = me "h8 ,?\ give/ me a l>ge e>ne/ ( my inh]itance4 ,?\ do/ give me to dr9k ( t f\nta9 ( liv+ wat]4 ,o t x may be 9 me z a well ( wat]1 spr++ up into ev]la/+ life6 ,o ?\ faire/ among t5 ?\s&1 :at ha/ ?\ done = su* a worm z me6 ,?\ ha/ pur*as$ = me hol9ess & heav52 yea1 heav5 ^u e>?4 ,?\ do/ give ?yself to me1 & ) ?yself all ?+s4 ,be a/oni%$1 ,o my s\l1 at ! l>ge inh]itance :i* ?y ,jesus has pur*as$ = !e6 ,behold ! riv]s ( pleasure t fl[ at 8 "r h&6 ,& !re ?\ %alt behold 8 face )\t a veil3 8,f> f a _w ( grief & s91 ,) ,god et]nally %ut 960 ,a %ort ,acc\nt ( ! ,dea? ( ,,m>y ,,langson1 ,( ,taxall1 9 ,,*e%ire1 ,:o di$ ,janu>y ! #bi?1 #agfi4 ,,:5 ,m>y ,langson 0 ab\t f\rte5 ye>s ( age1 x pleas$ ,god to awak5 h] by ! prea*+ ( ! gospel2 & soon aft] %e receiv$ a cle> s5se ( 8 p>don+ love1 9 ! enjoym5t ( :i* %e cont9u$1 ?\gh n exempt$ f ^? trials & temptations :i* are common to believ]s4,f h] fir/ he>+ ! prea*+1 %e 0 dilig5t 9 ! use ( all ! means ( grace1 :e!r private1 or public3 & ?\gh ! prea*+ 0 seldom ne>1 %e att5d$ at e possible opportunity4 ,%e 0 con/ant at meet+ h] class2 & ^? :o 7 mo/ acqua9t$ ) h]1 be+ ( ! same family1 obs]v$ t %e always express$ ! /ate ( h] s\l1 j z x 01 & manife/$ su* a _s ( s9c]ity 9 all h] deportm5t1 z conv9c$ !m t %e 0 an ,israelite inde$1 9 :om 0 no guile4 ,h] /ep-"m be+ r5d]$ incapable ( manag+ ! affairs ( ! h\se1 ! c>e ( a "y family 9 a great measure devolv$ on h]1 :i*1 ) ! att5dance ne$ful = h] helpless /ep-"m1 necess>ily br\ght consid]able ex]cises & trials1 to "o ( su* t5d] ye>s2 yet be+ inw>dly /r5g!n$ = ! p]=mance ( ^! duties1 %e manife/$ z mu* t5d]ness t[>ds h]1 z if %e _h be5 h] own "m2 7an example too r>ely se5 9 su* cases7 & 0 enabl$ to g ?r\gh h] con/antly-try+ circum/ances ) unwe>i$ pati5ce4 ,al?\gh by ^! means %e 0 depriv$ ( provid+ = h]self su* sort ( app>el1 & conv5i5ces z ^? ( h] age usually expect1 & may innoc5tly enjoy4 99,hav+ be5 tri$1 & 9 "s measure intangl$ 9 h] affections1 %e 0 s5sible ( a decl9e 9 h] spiritual consolations1 b ?r\gh ! m]cy ( ,god1 ?is la/$ n long2 = %e re/$ n till %e _h recov]$ all %e _h lo/2 s t %e 0 enabl$ to te/ify to a ,*ri/ian fri5d1 :ile %e rema9$ 9 heal?1 8,i f9d my he>t loose f e creature1 & all creat$ good1 & :olly fix$ on ,god3 ?is is ! desire ( my s\l4 8,o t ,i might walk ) ,god1 ,jesus my companion be2 ,lead me to ! ble/ abode1 ,?ro' ! fire1 & ?ro' ! sea3 ,!n ,i %all no m compla91 ,nev] at my lot rep9e1 ,welcome toil1 or grief1 or pa91 ,all is well1 if ,*ri/ is m9e40 ,:5 ! grace ( ,god ?us takes place 9 ! he>t1 h[ little does e ?+ we suff] = 8 sake appe>6 ,h[ empty is all ! _w calls good & great1 to a s\l fill$ ) div9e love6 ,f ! foll[+ rem>kable circum/ances1 x seems z if %e _h "s appreh5sions ( ! ne> approa* ( dea?4 ,%e began to be m abundantly dilig5t 9 ! use ( e means ( grace1 = "s weeks be=e h] la/ sickness4 ,x 0 also obs]v$ t ?\gh %e _h n be5 accu/om$ to pray at ! class-meet+1 yet be+ n[ exce$+ly f]v5t 9 _s1 "o ev5+ at class1 %e broke out into e>ne/ pray]2 %e appe>$ to enjoy mu* fre$om1 & great ne>ness to ,god1 & 0 deeply affect$ ) a s5se ( ! evil ( s91 & h] own weakness1 :i* occasion$ h] cry+ to ,god 9 su* expressions z ^!1 8,o ,"l6 ,r let me die1 ?an live to (f5d1 or ev] s9 aga9/ !e60 ,inde$ ! vehem5t importunity ) :i* %e utt]$ ^! petitions made h] bre?r5 suspect t some?+ m ?an common w\ld happ52 = ! p[] ( ,god 0 unusually pres5t4 ,soon aft] 7on ! #ad? ( ,janu>y1 #agfi7 %e sick5$ = ! small-pox4 ,"o !n ask$ h]1 h[ %e felt h] s\l3 %e said1 8,my evid5ce is cle>1 & life or dea?1 ! w ( ! ,"l be done40 99,dur+ h] illness1 %e cont9u$ p]fectly resign$ to ! w ( ,god4 ,! ,?ursday aft] sick5+1 %e became bl9d1 :5 "o ( ! society com+ 91 & disc]n+ ! di/emp] to be dang]\s1 sat d[n & wept4 ,z soon z %e p]ceiv$ x1 %e said1 8,dolly6 ,:at are y do+8 ,are y weep+ = me8 ,don't y "k1 t if ,god takes me away1 x is f mu* evil t is 9 ! _w8 ,i h (t5 look$ at y\r "m1 & ?\ght1 ,o t ,i 0 b z ne> glory z h]3 7%e be+ ab\t f\rscore7 b n[ ,i ?9k ,i am ne>] glory ?an %e is1 & %all be 9 possession ( x be=e h]60 duplicate ^w 8to0 remov$ ,:5 %e 0 ask$ aga9 h[ %e f\nd h]self1 %e answ]$1 8,glory is e mom5t op5 to my s\l2 !re is no?+ betwe5 me & et]nal glory1 b a few mom5ts m ( light affliction40 ,at night %e call$ = h] fa!r1 & said to him1 ,de> fa!r1 y h _h _m trials & difficulties 9 ! _w1 & y h _m m be=e y1 b fe> n1 y are 9 ! way1 ! "r way2 cont9ue 9 x1 & ,god w br+ y ?ro' all40 ,on ,saturday ! #ba/1 ab\t elev5 at night1 %e broke out 9 an extasy ( joyful praise2 speak+ 9 ! mo/ delightful language = m ?an an h\r toge!r1 conc]n+ ,jesus & 8 k+dom4 ,"s t 7 pres5t on be+ ask$ :at %e !n said1 answ]$1 we he>d words n possible = m5 to utt]2 & inde$ b little ( ! conv]sation c\ld be reta9$ by any ( !m1 !y 7 s ov]:elm$ ) a s5se ( ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,once %e 0 obs]v$ to speak 9 ! foll[+ mann]1 8,!re is nev] a fi5d left n[3 !y are all bani%$2 ,jesus has conqu]$ !m all = me60 ,by :i* x seems1 ?is 0 h] triumph 9 ! la/ combat %e _h ) ,satan4 ,%e !n repeat$ & expla9$1 9 a mo/ feel+ & s5sible mann]1 _m passages ( scripture1 especially ,daniel vii4 #i1 #aj4 8,i beheld till ! ?rones 7 ca/ d[n1 & ! ,anci5t ( ,days did sit1 ^: g>m5t 0 :ite z sn[1 & ! hair ( 8 head l ! pure wool2 8 ?rone 0 z ! fi]y flame1 & 8 :eels z burn+ fire4 ,a fi]y /ream issu$ & came =? f be=e him2 ?\s& ?\s&s m9i/]$ unto him1 & t5 ?\s& times t5 ?\s& /ood be=e him3 ! judgm5t 0 set1 & ! books 7 op5$10 add+ 9 ! end1 8,o lovely ,jesus6 ,bless$ ,jesus6 ,adorable ,jesus6 ,glory6 ,glory6 ,glory6 ,glory6 ,to ,god 9 ! highe/6 ,on e>? peace2 good-w t[>ds m540 ,?us ,*ri/'s com+ 9 ! cl\ds to judgm5t1 0 to h] inf9itely desirable1 & s abundantly 0 h] s\l ravi%$ ) ! prospect1 t %e c\ld n =be> rejoic+ ) joy unspeakable & full ( glory4 99,:ile 9 heal?1 %e seem$ at a loss to cons5t to ! doom ( ! wick$1 b n[ %e said1 8,o h[ will+ is ,*ri/ to save all t come to him8 ,b !y :o w n come1 %all be de/roy$1 & ?\gh ,i c\ld n = a long "t say ,am5 to ! s5t5ce ( imp5it5t s9n]s1 yet n[ ,i c1 see+ h[ will+ ,god is to save all :o w accept ( 8 (f]$ m]cy40 ,%e likewise repeat$ ,revelation xiv4 #a1 #b1 #c1 tak+ p>ticul> notice ( ^? words1 an hundr$ & =ty-f\r ?\s&1 9 ! fir/ & ?ird v]ses3 & said1 8,a goodly company6 ,& ,i %all be "o1 & all t h di$ 9 ! ,"l1 & all ! prea*]s :om ,i h lov$1 7m5tion+ "s ( !m by "n7 & ,i %all see !m !re2 & all ! ,me?odi/s1 t are su* inde$2 !y %all be !re40 ,may we be ,israelites inde$1 :o are s call$1 & n re/ 9 a "n to live :ile we are dead4 duplicate ^w 8&0 remov$ ,%e aga9 cri$ out1 ,o preci\s ,jesus6 ,my ,belov$ is m9e1 & ,i am 86 ,he is ! faire/ ( t5 ?\s&1 yea altoge!r lovely4 ,o :at glory d ,i see6 ,& all = me6 ,h[ does my s\l burn ) love to ,jesus1 :o has provid$ x = me6 ,i wond] t t happ9ess c\ld h no high] title ?an heav540 ,canticles v4 #af4 ,^! 7 ! words %e *ose = ! text ( h] fun]al s]mon4 ,on ,monday ! #bc;d1 %e call$ h] fa!r1 & said1 8,i am go+40 ,he ask$ :]e8 ,%e answ]$ 8to heav53 add+1 ,i am glad ,i d n leave y1 9 y\r s9s1 b t y are br\ght into ! "r way4 ,only endure1 & y w %ortly foll[ me6 ,d n grieve = me2 ,o resign me40 ,he cri$1 8,i am a wret*1 ,i _c resign y20 to :i* %e answ]$1 8t is nature1 ,i 0 a wret* too1 b ,god has set me at lib]ty2 d y pray to him1 & he w give y m grace40 ,he compla9$ 8,i _c pray1 d y pray = me40 ,%e said1 8my b[els ye>n = y20 & !n lay quiet a little int]c$+ = him & ! family2 aft] :i* %e broke out1 8,"l ha/5 ?y "w2 d m n[ 9 my s\l 9 a day1 ?an ?\ wa/ wont to d 9 _m days40 ,%e !n repeat$ ,revelation xxii4 #a4 & said1 8well may !y be call$ riv]s1 = ,i see f\nta9s ^u f\nta9s3 ,o :at riv]s ( pleasure are !re6 ,h[ %all ,i swim 9 ^? oceans ( love to all et]nity6 ,i am ov]come ) love6 ,oh if ,i 7 loose f ?is affliction h[ w\ld ,i s+60 ,& call+ on ^? :o 7 pres5t to s+1 %e gave out 8,no ne$ ( ! sun 9 t day1 ,:i* nev] is foll[$ by night1 ,:]e ,jesus's beauties display1 ,a pure1 & a p]man5t light3 ,! ,lamb is _! light & _! sun1 ,& lo6 ,by reflection !y %9e1 ,) ,jesus ineffably "o1 ,& bright 9 effulg5ce div9e40 8?y0 replac$ ) 8!y0 p] ,errata ,to h] fa!r %e said1 8,y h _m difficulties 9 ! _w1 & ,i w tell y :at y mu/ d2 give y\r h&s to ! _w1 & y\r he>t to ,god1 & he w make a way = y40 99,%e seem$ to enjoy a happy =esight ( ! prosp]ity ( ! "w ( ,god1 :5 %e said1 8,y may look = glori\s times to come2 = ! ,"l has a great "w to d on e>?1 be=e ! *ur* militant c jo9 ! *ur* triumphant40 ,to "s ( ! society :o 7 pres5t1 %e said1 8,god has giv5 y ! means ( grace1 9 ord] to br+ y safe to glory2 see t y d n slight or neglect any ( !m2 use !m con/antly1 & look ?r\gh !m all to ,jesus40 ,aft]w>ds "o ask$1 h[ %e 08 ,%e answ]$1 8,weak 9 body1 b happy 9 s\l3 ,i long to be gone to heav540 ,be+ told1 y mu/ be resign$1 %e answ]$1 8,i am resign$1 b w\ld r be ) ,jesus40 ,"s :o desir$ to s]ve ! ,"l1 b 7 n he>tily 9 e>ne/1 came to see h]4 ,"o ( ^!1 %e _h invit$ "s "t be=e to ! class-meet+2 & he _h almo/ promis$ to come1 b neglect$4 ,%e said to him1 8,i ?\ght y w\ld h be5 at ! meet+ z y propos$2 ,o h[ 0 my s\l griev$ t y did n come6 ,w y come ! next "t8 ,! ,me?odi/ way is ! "r way4 ,x 0 a happy turn t ,i 0 ev] br\ght into x4 ,o h[ good h ,i f\nd x to rememb] my ,creator 9 ! days ( my y\?4 ,n[ ,i c say1 ?\gh ,i walk ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i w fe> no evil1 = ! ,"l is ) me1 8 rod & /aff %all com=t me40 ,%e !n enc\rag$ !m he>tily to jo9 ) ! p ( ,god1 & n to fe> any reproa* !y might suff] on t acc\nt4 ,:5 ! disord] 0 at ! height1 %e said1 8,"s may ?9k t ,i h a heavy affliction4 ,no3 ,i h none t ,i c sp>e4 ,oh6 x's a happy affliction60 998,o!rs1 said %e1 may say ( me1 %e 0 once bloom+2 h[ is %e alt]$ n[8 ,b ,i 0 nev] s beautiful 9 all my life2 ,i am z ! ,k+'s daught]1 all-glori\s )93 & my raim5t is ( wr\ght gold40 ,a little be=e h] dep>ture1 be+ visit$ by ! wife ( "o ( ! lead]s1 %e ask$ h[ h] husb& did8 ,add+1 8,he has _h _m /ruggles to help me =w>d 9 ! ways ( ! ,"l2 b n[ he may rejoice 9 all 8 lab\rs1 = ,i am go+ safe to glory1 & hope to meet him !re4 ,o little *ildr56 ,love "o ano!r40 ,%e also advis$ h]1 z %e _h _m *ildr51 to take c>e :at example %e set be=e !m4 ,aft]w>ds "o ask$ :e!r %e ?\ght h] pres5t sickness w\ld end 9 dea?1 %e answ]$1 8,i _c tell2 b ! w ( ! ,"l be done4 ,only ?is ,i "k1 t nei!r life nor dea? %all sep>ate me f ! love ( ,jesus1 :o has r$eem$ me f ! f\ndation ( ! _w4 ,if ,i die1 z soon z y see me dep>t1 s+ ,happy s\l1 ?y days are end$3 & :5 y c>ry me to ! grave1 s+ ! same hymn4 ,:5 y return let n y\r he>ts be fill$ ) grief1 b praise ,god1 z ,i %all be rejoic+ ) him 9 glory40 ,an ,,hymn1 ,sung at ! "t ( h] dep>ture4 #a4 ,,happy s\l1 ?y days are end$1 ,all ?y m\rn+ days bel[3 ,g by angel-gu>ds att5d$1 ,to ! sight ( ,jesus g4 ,hallelujah1 ,am54 #b4 ,wait+ to receive ?y ,_s1 ,lo ! ,savi\r /&s above1 ,%ews ! pur*ase ( 8 m]it1 ,rea*es out ! cr[n ( love4 #c4 ,/ruggle ?r\gh ?y late/ passion1 ,to ?y de> ,r$eem]'s brea/1 ,to 8 utt]mo/ salvation1 ,to ?9e ev]la/+ re/4 #d4 ,= ! joy he sets be=e !e ,be> a mom5t>y pa92 ,die1 to live ! life ( glory1 ,suff] ) ?y ,"l to reign4 ,a %ort ,,acc\nt ( ! ,,dea? ( ,mrs4 ,,hannah ,,ri*>dson4 ,by ,mr4 ,,*>les ,,wesley4 ,bri/ol1 ,saturday1 ,april #ai1 #agda4 ,i ,,0 ha/ily call$ to "o t 0 a dy+4 ,x 0 ,hannah ,ri*>dson1 a "y woman :o _h long be5 a s9c]e m\rn] = ,*ri/1 a true ,hannah1 a woman ( a sorr[ful _s4 ,god _h awak5$ & drawn h] f h] infancy1 & %e he>tily lab\r$ to e/abli% h] own righte\sness1 seek+ acceptance 7z we did all7 n by fai?1 b z x 7 by ! works ( ! law4 ,:5 x pleas$ ,god to s5d ! gospel ( 8 free grace to ?is city1 %e gladly p>t$ ) h] own righte\sness1 & submitt$ h]self to ! righte\sness ( ,god4 ,%e 0 a con/ant he>] ( 8 ^w1 b receiv$ no b5efit by x2 no com=t1 no peace1 no life4 ,yet %e cont9u$ wait+ = sev]al mon?s1 till x pleas$ our ,"l1 :o s5ds by :om he w s5d1 to make use ( my m9i/ry1 & apply ! ^w ( reconciliation to h] s\l4 ,jesus gave h] a tok5 = good1 & %e w5t home to h] h\se ju/ifi$4 ,%e rejoic$ 9 ,god h] ,savi\r1 & te/ifi$1 ,9 him ,i h r$emption1 ?r\gh 8 blood1 ! =giv5ess ( my s9s4 ,b alas6 ! ,com=t] 0 z a gue/ t t>rie? b a day4 ,%e soon gave place to ! reason+ devil1 :o ask$1 ,h[ c ^! ?+s be8 8,h[ c y be ju/ifi$1 s vile a s9n] z y8 ,y only deceive y\rself6 ,ha? ,god = ,*ri/'s sake =giv5 y8 ,he ha? n surely =giv5 y40 ,by su* sugge/ions he well-nigh tore away h] %ield4 ,all ! com=t ( h] fai?1 all h] peace & joy 9 believ+ he did entirely spoil h] (2 ,god s p]mitt+ x1 to try h]1 & prove h]1 & %ew h] :at 0 9 h] he>t1 t he might d h] good 9 h] latt] end4 ,he hid 8 face f h]1 & %e 0 tr\bl$4 8,i w allure h]1 said ,god1 & br+ h] into ! wild]ness40 ,"h %e long w&]$ out ( ! way1 9 a b>r5 & dry l&1 :]e no wat] 04 ,! poor & ne$y s\ght wat]1 & !re 0 none1 & h] tongue fail$ = ?ir/4 ,%e c\ld truly say ) ! prophet1 ,v]ily ?\ art a ,god t hide/ ?yself4 ,or1 ) ! pati5t man1 ,behold1 ,i g =w>d1 b he is n !re1 & backw>d1 b ,i _c p]ceive him2 on ! left h&1 :]e he do? "w1 b ,i _c behold him2 he hide? himself on ! "r h&1 t ,i _c see him4 ,h] bones 7 smitt5 asund]1 z ) a sword1 :ile ! enemy said unto h]1 8,:]e is n[ ?y ,god8 ,:]e is n[ ?y fai?8 ,?\ art a ?\s& times worse ?an ev]40 8b0 replac$ ) 8t0 p] ,errata ,s inde$ %e seem$ to h]self1 :5 s9 appe>$ s94 ,god 0 n[ uncov]+ h] he>t1 & conv9c+ h] ( orig9al s94 ,! old man ( s9 0 m & m reveal$1 till at la/ %e saw t h] inw>d p>ts 7 v wick$ness1 & e imag9ation ( ! ?\ghts ( h] he>t only evil cont9ually4 ,%e _h no p[] to pray or praise1 or s mu* z to ?9k "o good ?\ght1 & at ! same "t 0 s torn & di/ract$ ) d\bts & fe>s1 t %e dispair$ ev5 ( life4 ,t ?\ght above all torm5t$ h]1 8,:at w\ld become ( me1 if ,i %\ld die 9 ?is d>kness8 ,)\t hol9ess no "o %all see ! ,"l40 ,at o!r times %e _h a fa9t p]suasion1 t ,god w\ld f9i% 8 "w be=e he call$ h] h5ce4 ,%e dur/ n say %e _h fai?1 or any int]e/ 9 ,*ri/2 & yet %e c\ld n give x up4 ,"o little sp>k ( hope lay z at ! v bottom ( h] he>t2 :i* 0 ,*ri/'s hold ( h]4 ,he w\ld n quit 8 pur*ase1 or let h] g4 ,ev5 ?is 0 (t5 a great tr\ble to h]1 t %e c\ld n fe> dea? z =m]ly2 7= ?is fe> 0 entirely ca/ out ! fir/ mom5t %e 0 s5sible ( h] ju/ification74 ,&1 :5ev] %e _h ! lea/ com=t or peace1 %e />t$ back z x 71 & fe>$ to take hold ( x1 suspect+ t %e 0 fall+ asleep aga91 & re/+ )\t ,*ri/4 ,%e w5t m\rn+ all ! day long1 & refus$ to be com=t$1 because he 0 n4 ,= _m days & mon?s %e walk$ on /ill 9 d>kness1 & _h no light1 b aga9/ hope believ$ 9 hope2 /agg]+ (t5times1 b n fall+ ?r\gh unbelief4 ,/ill %e bore up "u h] cont9ual fe>s ( be+ a ca/away4 ,%e wait$ 9 a con/ant use ( all ! means ( grace2 nev] miss$ ! communion1 or he>+ ! ^w1 ?\gh all 0 torm5t to h]1 = %e nev] f\nd b5efit2 no?+ %e said1 affect$ h]1 !re 0 none s wick$ z h]4 ,i am a witness to h] _m compla9ts & wail+s4 ,yet %e p]si/$ ) a glori\s ob/9acy2 & foll[$ on to "k ! ,"l1 walk+ 9 all 8 comm&m5ts & ord9ances blameless4 ,%e w5t on /eadily 9 ! way ( h] duty1 nev] int]mitt+ x on acc\nt ( h] inw>d conflicts4 ,n slo?ful 9 bus9ess1 b work+ almo/ cont9ually ) h] own h&s4 ,mo/ /rict 0 %e1 & unblameable 9 all h] relative duties1 & 9 all mann] ( conv]sation4 ,^? :o liv$ ) h] nev] he>d a light & trifl+ ^w come out ( h] m\?4 ,%e did n sit /ill1 till %e %\ld be pure 9 he>t1 b r$eem$ ! "t1 & b\ght up e opportunity ( do+ good4 ,to d good %e nev] =got1 b spoke to all1 & w>n$ all1 bo? *ildr5 & gr[n p]sons1 z ,god deliv]$ !m into h] h&s4 ,%e 0 exce$+ t5d]-he>t$ t[>ds ! sick1 :e!r 9 body or s\l4 ,%e c\ld n rejoice ) ^? t rejoic$1 b %e wept ) ^? t wept1 & enc\rag$ !m to wait ^u ,god1 to be nev] we>y ( well-do+2 = 9 ! end said %e1 !y w\ld reap1 if !y fa9t$ n4 99,see "h a patt]n ( true m\rn+6 ,a spectacle = m5 & angels6 ,a s\l /&+ up "u ! intol]able weight ( orig9al s96 ,tr\bl$ on e side6 p]plex$1 b n 9 despair2 p]secut$ by s91 ! _w1 & ! devil1 b n =sak52 ca/ out1 b n de/roy$2 walk+ on z ev5ly "u t load ( d>kness1 z if %e _h be5 9 ! broad light ( ,god's c\nt5ance4 ,:osoev] ?\ art t seeke/ ,*ri/ sorr[+1 g ?\ & d likewise4 ,9 ?is agony %e cont9u$1 till x pleas$ ,god to visit h] ) h] la/ sickness4 ,= ! two or ?ree fir/ days1 %e c\ld n be kept f ! ^w1 b 0 !n con/ra9$ to take h] b$4 ,%e _h e>ly notice ( h] dep>ture1 & told "o ( h] b&1 t %e %\ld n recov]4 ,%e _h express'd great e>ne/ness to see me1 b ,i c\ld n visit h] 'till ! ,?ursday foll[+4 ,i !n f\nd h]1 to h] own s5se & feel+1 9 utt] despair4 8,i am dy+1 7%e cri$7 )\t p>don1 )\t a ,savi\r1 )\t hope40 ,i pray$ 9 full assurance ( fai?1 & !n te/ifi$ ! love ( ,*ri/ to h]1 a lo/ s9n]2 decl>+ to h]1 t he w\ld fulfil 9 h] ! "w ( fai? ) p[]4 8,my s\l = y\r's 7,i told h]7 if y dep>t h5ce1 be=e y\r eyes h se5 8 salvation4 ,yet a little :ile1 & he t %all come w come1 & w n t>ry4 ,! ^w ( our ,god %all /& = ev]4 ,e "o t seeke? f9de?4 ,fe> n2 behold1 he comes quickly2 & "o mom5t ( 8 pres5ce w make y abundant am5ds = all ! pa9 ( abs5ce40 ,:5 ,i 0 gone1 h] suff]+s r increas$1 & ,satan rag$ ! m4 ,! lyon tore h] z x 7 to pieces3 %e 0 9 a mighty conflict1 & said1 8,none kn[s :at ,i h gone ?ro' 9 ?is sickness2 my enemy triumphs ov] me2 x is ! h\r ( d>kness1 x is m ?an ,i am able to be>40 99,! captive exile ha/5e? t %e may be loos$1 & t %e %\ld n die 9 ! pit1 nor t h] bread %\ld fail4 ,?is trial 0 ! sev]e/ ( all4 8,! devil 7%e said7 besets me sorely1 ,i %all nev] hold out2 ,i %all p]i% at la/2 b if ,i am lo/ ,i am cont5t3 ?o' ,i g d[n to hell1 let b ,*ri/ be ) me1 & ,i w g )\t fe>40 ,"h %e seem$ to be /r5g!n$ to endure a great] agony4 ,%e drank ( ! cup :i* h] ,"l drank (1 & _h fell[%ip 9 ^? suff]+s1 :i* made him cry out1 ,my ,god my ,god1 :y ha/ ?\ =sak5 me6 ,to compleat h] di/ress1 ! angel ( dea? came6 ,%e 0 /ruck & *ang$ on a sudd5 7s t "o came & told me %e 0 j a dy+47 ,!n z man w\ld judge1 %e let g h] hold ( ,god3 ,& ! _s fail$ be=e him1 & ! s\l :i* he _h made4 99,9 ?is dreadful mom5t1 ?is la/ extremity1 ?is deepe/ di/ress ! human s\l is capable (! ,com=t] came4 ,! ,"l1 h] ,savi\r1 came sudd5ly to 8 temple1 z light5+ %9e? f "o end ( ! heav5 unto ! o!r1 s 0 ! com+ ( ! ,son ( man4 ,he took away ! veil f h] he>t1 & reveal$ himself 9 h]1 9 a mann] ! _w kn[e? n (4 ,%e broke out1 8,n[ ,i "k t ,*ri/ di$ = me4 ,he has wa%$ me f all my s9s 9 8 preci\s blood4 ,i h et]nal life abid+ 9 me40 ,soon aft] %e _h f\nd r$emption1 ,i call$1 & saw h] 9 full triumph ( fai?4 ,o h[ unlike :at %e 0 at my la/ visit6 ,if any man is 9 ,*ri/ he is a new creature4 ,?is is ! "w :i* despis]s w n believe1 ?o' a man decl>e x unto !m4 ,h] s\l 0 pass$ f dea? unto life1 an hidd51 ev]la/+ life 9 ,god4 ,aft] we _h pray$ %e witness$ a good confession4 8,i believe 9 ,jesus ,*ri/2 ,i feel ! tru? ( ^! words ( 81 ,i am ! resurrection & ! life4 ,i h no fe>1 no d\bt1 no tr\ble4 ,y\r words 7 true3 he has fulfill$ 8 promise40 99,nev] did ,i behold a s\l s fill$4 ,"s ( h] words 71 8,n[ inde$ he has made me am5ds = my wait+4 ,bless$ be ,god1 all my pa9 is no?+2 ,i h suff]$ no?+4 ,i smell ! sweet od\r ( ! "n ( ,jesus4 ,8 smell is z ! smell ( ,lebanon4 ,:o is s sweet z my ,belov$8 ,my ,belov$ is m9e1 & ,i am 84 ,i love ,jesus ,*ri/ ) all my he>t4 ,i desire to be dissolv$ & to be ) ,*ri/4 ,b 8 w be done4 ,i h no w ( my own40 ,:ile ,i 0 say+1 8,d\bt n1 b be p]suad$ t nei!r life nor dea?1 nor ?+s pres5t nor ?+s0 ,%e int]rupt$ me ) 8,no1 no1 ,i _c d\bt1 al?o' ,i did d\bt4 ,i _c fe> n[2 p]fect love ha? ca/ out fe>4 ,i h full r$emption 9 ! blood ( ,jesus40 99,to h] si/]s %e _h said be=e ,i came1 8,heav5 is op56 ,i see ,jesus ,*ri/ ) all 8 angels & sa9ts 9 :ite4 ,& ,i am jo9$ to !m4 ,i %all nev] be p>t$ m4 ,i see :at ,i _c utt] or express6 ,_c y see ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,!re1 !re he /&s1 ready to receive y all4 ,o d n d\bt ( ! love ( ,jesus3 look on me6 ,if he has tak5 me into 8 bosom1 :o ne$s despair8 ,fe> n1 fe> n4 ,he is lov+ unto e man3 ,i believe ,*ri/ di$ = all40 ,h] fir/ words1 aft] ,i left h]1 71 8,lib]ty lib]ty6 ,?is is ! glori\s lib]ty ( ! sons ( ,god6 ,i "k x1 ,i see x1 ,i feel x4 ,believe1 believe !re is su* a lib]ty6 ,& he w give x y4 ,i am sanctifi$ :olly1 _s1 s\l & body40 ,%e _h sp5t ! "t1 :ile ,i 0 abs5t1 9 f]v5t pray]2 & at my ?ird visit told me1 8,i h :atsoev] ,i ask4 ,i h ask$ life = my "m & si/]s1 & h obta9$ x40 ,i took ! opportunity1 & put h] ^u pray+ = ! peace ( ,j]usalem1 = union1 & = ! prea*]s ( reprobation1 t ,god might op5 _! eyes2 = my bro!r1 & = ! lambs ( ?is fold1 t !y might n be turn$ out ( ! way4 ,! f\r? "t ,i came to see h]1 !y told me %e _h be5 9 a great conflict2 (t5times repeat+1 8,i w wre/le ) !e = a bless+1 ,i w n let !e g unless ?\ bless him4 ,bless t s\l6 ,give him ! ?+ ,i ask40 ,at la/1 %e said1 8,n[ ,i am m ?an conqu]or4 ,i h ! petitions ,i ask4 ,n "o is unansw]$40 ,to me1 %e said1 8,i h p[] ) ,god1 & ) man1 & h prevail$40 ,f exp\nd+ at ! ,malt-room1 ,i return$ ! la/ "t1 & f\nd h] ready = ! ,bridegroom4 ,h] e ^w 0 full ( p[]1 & life1 & love4 ,x 0 ! ,_s ( h] ,fa!r :i* spoke 9 h]4 ,%e _h be5 wre/l+ aga91 & mak+ int]cession = ! sa9ts1 & all mank9d2 p>ticul>ly our own *ur* & nation4 ,"s ( h] words 71 8,?y judgm5ts are abroad 9 ! e>?2 ,o t ! inhabitants ( ?is l& may le>n righte\sness6 ,grant me1 sweet ,jesus1 t !y may rep5t & live40 ,%e pray$ f]v5tly = ! society1 t !y might abide 9 ! ^w1 keep close toge!r1 & be all ( "o he>t & m9d4 ,!re is a curse ^u !m1 7said %e7 a curse ( un?ankfulness2 b ,i h pray$ my de> ,"l to remove x1 & he w remove x40 ,:5 "o ( h] si/]s came to see h]1 :o 0 deeply m\rn+ = ,*ri/1 %e lab\r$ mu* to com=t h]1 bad h] look at h]1 s mis]able & hopeless an unbeliev] lately2 & assur$ h] ! ,com=t] %\ld quickly come4 ,at ! sight ( h] si/]'s te>s1 ,o h[ sweetly did %e lam5t ov] h]6 ,i nev] saw su* sympa?y6 ,! _s 9 h] m\rn$ l a turtle-dove1 & made int]cession ) groan+s t _c be utt]$4 99,all ! "t ( h] sickness1 %e nev] once compla9$1 or %ew$ ! lea/ s5sibility ( pa91 or t %e _h any body at all4 ,:5 "o ask$ h] if %e did n feel h] pa9s1 be+ !n 9 /rong convulsions1 %e answ]$1 8,my pa9 is great1 b ,i d n feel x4 ,x does n tr\ble me4 ,i *use x r ?an ease2 = my ,"l *uses x4 ,pa9 or ease1 life or dea?1 'tis all "o4 ,! ,_s be>e? witness ) my _s1 t ,i am a *ild ( ,god3 ,i h ! e>ne/ ( m9e inh]itance 9 my he>t4 ,i h no w4 ,i am made p]fect 9 love40 ,i ask$1 :e!r t peace :i* %e ta/$ above a ye> ago1 0 ! same %e n[ enjoy$8 ,%e answ]$1 8,x 0 ( ! same k9d1 9 ! l[e/ or fir/ degree4 ,x surely 0 ju/ification40 ,aft] ,i w5t1 %e said1 8,?is day %all ,i be ) him 9 p>adise4 ,)9 f\r & tw5ty h\rs ,i %all be ) my ,belov$40 99,%e cont9u$ all night 9 ! lab\r ( love1 mak+ p[]ful supplication = all m54 ,ab\t ?ree on ,sunday morn+ %e said1 8,x is f9i%$40 ,all suff]+ ev5 = o!rs ceas$ f t mom5t1 & %e began ! new song1 :i* %all nev] end4 ,h] :ole employm5t n[ 0 ! same ) !irs1 to :om %e 0 come1 ! innum]able company ( angels1 ! *ur* ( ! fir/-born4 ,%e sang to ! h>p]s h>ps1 )\t any int]mission1 till two 9 ! aft]noon2 ev5 :ile !y 7 giv+ h] cordials1 %e sang4 ,h] hope 0 full ( immortality1 h] looks ( heav51 till ) smiles ( triumph %e resign$ h] _s into ! h&s ( h] de> ,r$eem]4 ,dea? want$ all its pomp & circum/ances ( horror4 ,%e w5t away )\t an agony1 or sigh1 or groan4 ,%e only re/$2 & sweetly fell asleep 9 ! arms ( ,jesus4 ,a ,,lett] to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,,john ,,wesley4 ,by a ,,g5tlewoman4 ,laton-,/one1 ,novemb] #h1 #agfd4 ,rev]5d & de> ,sir1 ,i ,,h nev] yet _h an opportunity ( fully lay+ be=e y1 ! reasons ( my com+ to reside at ?is place1 & ! nature ( my employm5t "h1 :i* ,i w n[ take ! lib]ty to d4 ,dur+ my =m] abode among ?is p1 !y 7 (t5 laid on my m9d 9 pray]1 & ,i 0 (t5 greatly com=t$1 by an hope1 t !y w\ld "o day he> & receive ! gospel4 ,remov+ f ^! p>ts 9 ,febru>y1 #agfa1 ^? ?\ghts 7 tak5 f me1 = a season3 b aft] a ye> & an half1 be+ provid5tially call$ to return hi!r1 ! same ?\ghts return$ into my m9d4 ,yet ,i c\ld n easily cons5t to leave ,london1 till ,i _h1 ) my fri5d1 laid x be=e ! ,"l2 be+ fully p]suad$1 t if x 0 ( ,god1 he w\ld make pla9 pa?s = our feet4 ,soon aft]1 _m outw>d provid5ces confirm$ u1 9 our belief1 t x 0 ,god's appo9tm5t4 ,8 ,_s also %one cle>] ^u our s\ls1 & conv9c$ u1 x 0 a cross :i* he call$ u to take up4 ,"o day 9 p>ticul>1 :5 my fri5d & ,i 7 lay+ x be=e him 9 pray]1 he condesc5d$ to assure h]1 t he w\ld n s5d u a w>f>e at our own *>ges4 ,i ?\ght1 let n my ,"l be angry1 & ,i w ask yet "o sign m4 ,?is 0 ! settl+ ( an affair1 :i* seem$ to man impossible4 ,& x 0 settl$ )9 a few days4 ,o ,god1 :o c /ay ?y h&8 ,b no soon] 0 my design m5tion$ to o!rs1 ?an x 0 vehem5tly oppos$1 "o 9 p>ticul> *>g$ me n to g1 say+1 8,x 0 all a s*eme ( ! devil40 ,ei!r t night1 or ! next1 ,i dream$ ,i 0 at ,laton-,/one1 & a great numb] ( all sorts ( p ab\t me4 ,i 0 pre/ 9 _s to speak to !m2 b be+ pa9$ at ! appe>ance ( _m gay ones among !m1 ,i said1 9 ! angui% ( my s\l1 8,"l1 :at d ,i "h among ?is p80 ,imm$iately ,i ?\ght ,jesus came d[n1 & /ood j be=e me4 ,! brightness ( 8 pres5ce s ov]came me1 t !re 0 no /r5g? left 9 me4 ,he said1 8,i w s5d y to a p1 t are n a p2 & ,i w g ) y3 br+ !m unto me4 ,i w lay my h& ^u !m1 & heal !m3 fe> n2 only believe40 ,he !n disappe>$1 leav+ me q p5etrat$ ) 8 pres5ce & 8 words4 ,aft] hav+ wept "s "t1 ,i ?\ght ,i told ! p :at ! ,"l _h said4 ,ab\t half seem$ s]i\s & att5tive1 & desir\s ( be+ sep>at$ f ! re/4 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 to f9d !m a place to meet 93 9 ord] to :i*1 ,i 0 oblig$ to walk ov] a floor no ?ick] ?an a waf]3 h[ev]1 ,i w5t ov]1 & n a spl9t] gave way "u my feet4 ,soon aft] ,i awoke ) ^! words1 8,! m\? ( ! ,"l ha? spok5 x40 ,our fe>s 7 n[ remov$1 & on ,m>* #bd1 #agfc1 we came to ?is h\se1 9 ob$i5ce to :at we believ$ ! w ( our heav5ly ,fa!r4 ,we came1 tru/+ 9 him2 &1 bless$ be ,god1 we h n tru/$ him 9 va94 ,f ! fir/ h\r we f\nd 8 pres5ce ) u1 b did n see1 = :at end we 7 come4 ,we !re=e /ood /ill to see 8 salvation4 ,mean "t we det]m9$1 to live by rule 9 e ?+3 & 9 ord] to supply ! want ( ! public means1 f :i* we 7 9 great measure cut (f1 we agre$ to sp5d an h\r e ev5+1 "p 9 read+ to ! family1 & "p 9 private pray]s4 ,! fir/ book we read 01 8,! ,rebuke to ,backslid]s1 & ,spur to ,loit]]s40 ,& glory be to ,god1 our meet+ has hi!rto nev] be5 9 va94 ,9 ab\t a week1 a poor woman :om ,i _h =m]ly talk$ )1 com+ to ask *>ity1 desir$ to "k1 if %e might n come :5 we w5t to pray]s8 ,i told h]1 %e might at sev5 9 ! ev5+4 ,%e did s1 z did two or ?ree m soon aft]4 ,we !n appo9t$ !m to come on ,?ursday nights4 ,9 a little "t !y 7 increas$ to above tw5ty4 ,we n[ ?\ght x be/1 to talk ) !m1 & t z closely z we c\ld4 ,"s 7 quickly (f5d$ & came no m4 ,"s appe>$ conv9c$ ( s94 ,^! we desir$ to come to u on ,tuesday nights2 & ! second "t we met1 two ( !m f\nd peace ) ,god4 ,a little be=e ?is1 we judg$ ! "t 0 come to h public prea*+ "h4 ,?is 0 a close trial to me1 su* z few c conceive1 unless !y h be5 9 ! same situation4 ,b ,i knew1 :osoev] w\ld n =sake all1 c\ld n be ,*ri/'s disciple3 see+ he _h said1 ,if any man love fa!r or "m m ?an me1 he is n wor?y ( me4 ,we !n appli$ to y1 & ! next ,sunday1 ,may ! #be?1 ,mr4 ,murl9 prea*$ ! fir/ s]mon4 ,?is cont9u$ e o!r ,sunday1 ?\gh n )\t consid]able opposition4 ,9 ,novemb]1 ,mr4 ,morgan receiv$ tw5ty-five into ! society1 & divid$ !m into two classes4 ,ah ,"l6 ,h[ _m ( ^! %all ,i meet at ! resurrection ( ! j6 ,b a new sc5e n[ op5$4 ,! reasons on :i* ,i proce$$1 ,i w lay be=e y z pla9ly z ,i c4 ,f a *ild ,i h ev] believ$1 ,god _h appo9t$ me = "s "w1 9 :i* ,i %\ld be mu* ble/1 if ,i 0 fai?ful2 b t if ,i took up ) any ?+ less ?an ,i 0 call$ to1 ,i %\ld only be sav$ z by fire4 ,(t5 h ,i pant$ aft] an outw>d1 z well z inw>d con=mity to ! w ( ,god2 greatly desir+ to live z ! fir/ ,*ri/ians did1 :5 all t believ$ 7 ( "o s\l1 & c\nt$ n any ( ! ?+s !y possess$ _! own4 ,b ,i saw ! "t 0 n yet come2 yet ,i c\ld n b believe1 9 y\r day some?+ ( ?is k9d w\ld be4 ,:5 ,i 0 ab\t sev5te51 ! ,"l 0 pleas$ to %ew me1 t ,i 0 n to build tab]nacles "h4 ,= none ( ^? ways ,i _h cut out = myself1 7 su* z he _h appo9t$ = me4 ,i _c bett] describe :at ,i !n felt1 ?an by transcrib+ "p ( a lett] to a fri5d4 8,! ,"l has be5 m]ciful above all ,i c ask or ?9k4 ,i f\nd a great] bless+ ! la/ "t ,i 0 9 t[n ?an ev]40,& )9 ?is day or two1 ,i see mu* m cle>ly ! way 9 :i* ,i ought to walk4 ,! ,"l seems to call me to mu* m activ5ess1 s t ,i am sometimes ready to cry out1 8,"l1 :at w\ld/ ?\ h me to d80 ,!n ,i consid]$1 ,c ,i d m = ! s\ls or bodies ( ^? ab\t me8 ,b ?is does n seem to be ! ?+4 99,:at ,i am n[ l$ to wi% = is1 to s]ve ^? t are 9 ,*ri/1 bo? ) s\l & body4 ,& z soon z ! ,"l has prep>$ me = 8 "w1 & set me at lib]ty1 my firm resolution is1 by ! grace ( ,god1 to be :olly giv5 up to ! *ur*4 ,i pla9ly see1 ,i h no m to d ) ! _w1 ?an to all[ myself ! b>e necess>ies ( life4 ,& ?o' x has pleas$ ,god1 ,i %\ld n h my liv+ to "w =1 t is no reason my h&s %\ld be idle4 ,i w\ld be z ^? describ$ by ,/4 ,paul1 to br+ up *ildr51 to lodge /rang]s1 to be ready = ! meane/ (fices1 to relieve ! afflict$1 to visit ! fa!rless & wid[s1 & dilig5tly foll[ aft] e good "w40 ,epp+-,=e/1 ,may #bc1 #ageg4 ,i h ev] s9ce f\nd ! same impressions on my s\l2 & :5 we came to ?is h\se1 ,i felt a k9d ( re/ ,i did n be=e1 z if ,i 0 :]e ,god w\ld h me to be4 ,b "o day reflect+1 t we _h m room ?an we want$1 & ?9k+1 :om ,i %\ld take 9 to fill x1 x 0 /rongly impre/ ^u my m9d1 ,he t believe? %all n make ha/e4 ,n long aft] ! ?\ght ( br++ up *ildr5 return$4 ,b ,i 0 afraid ( mak+ ha/e2 till x appe>$ f _m reasons to be ! w ( ,god1 t we %\ld take 9 "o t (f]$4 ,soon aft] we 7 induc$ to receive ano!r1 & pres5tly two m4 ,i n[ saw our family w\ld be an increas+ "o2 z we c\ld n br+ up ev5 ^! *ildr5 prop]ly1 )\t a p]son ^: con/ant bus9ess x %\ld be1 to tea* !m dur+ ! s*ool-h\rs4 ,= x 0 impossible we %\ld d x long1 :ile we 7 necess>ily employ$ 9 s _m o!r ?+s4 ,i knew ?is1 & ! o!r exp5ces :i* mu/ att5d ! keep+ six or sev5 *ildr51 w\ld require an hundr$ a ye> m ?an ,i _h4 ,b ,i rememb]$ aga91 ,! ,"l live?1 & truly hi!rto he ha? help$ u4 99,our me?od ( educat+ our *ildr5 is ?is4 ,z our design is to fit !m = good s]vants1 we endeav\r z e>ly z possible1 to inure !m to lab\r1 e>ly-ris+ & cleanl9ess4 ,we h n[ elev54 ,?ree ( ^!1 7two ( :om are elev5 ye>s old1 ! o!r1 betwe5 n9e & t57 rise at f\r4 ,"o lights ! nurs]y fire1 "o m9e1 ! o!r1 t bel[4 ,at five1 ! re/ ( ! family are call$4 ,& :5 ! *ildr5 are dre/ & h pray$1 !y g 79 summ]7 9 ! g>d5 f six till half an h\r aft]1 :ile ! bigg] ones make ! b$s1 & clean ! rooms4 ,at half h\r aft] six we all jo9 9 family pray]3 at sev5 breakfa/ 9 ! same room2 two or ?ree ^u h]b tea1 ! re/ ^u milk-porridge4 ,at eight1 ! bell r+s = s*ool1 :]e !y cont9ue till twelve2 & !n aft] a few m9utes sp5t 9 pray]1 come to u4 ,9 w9t]1 ?is is _! h\r = ex]cise1 in/ead ( ! morn+ & ev5+4 ,9 hot wea!r we read to !m some?+ !y are pleas$ )1 or conv]se famili>ly1 s z 7)\t seem+ to aim at x7 to in/il into !m pr9ciples ( religion1 at ! same "t giv+ !m "s k9d ( employ1 :i* is r amusem5t ?an bus9ess3 yet x j takes (f ! appe>ance ( idl5ess4 ,=1 f ! v beg9n+1 !y h be5 c>efully taught1 nev] to d any ?+1 b :at !y c\ld give ,god a reason =4 ,on ?is acc\nt we nev] use ! t]m play1 nor suff] any to give !m ^? toys or play-?+s1 :i* *ildr5 are usually br\ght up to sp5d half _! "t 94 ,& :5 "s ( ^! 7 privately giv51 !y ?rew !m aside )\t any bidd+4 ,_! recreation consi/s 9 div]sify+ _! bus9ess1 :i* is v>i$ ev5 dur+ _! s*ool-h\rs4 ,only ! v little ones n[ & !n run 9 ! g>d5 = a qu>t] ( an h\r2 b /ill ) a degree ( s]i\sness2 & !y "k x is = _! heal?4 ,at "o we d9e3 at two s*ool beg9s aga91 except on ,saturdays4 ,at five !y return to u4 ,ab\t six !y sup4 ,at half aft] six !y beg9 to be wa%$1 & at sev5 g to b$4 ,inde$ 9 summ] _! supp] is soon]1 s t !y h an h\r ) u 9 ! g>d54 ,dur+ ?is "t !y are all employ$1 "s 9 wat]+1 o!rs 9 fet*+ ! wat]1 ! re/ 9 pump+4 ,& "w ( ?is k9d !y are all v fond (4 99,b ,o6 :at a want ( wisdom d ,i f9d6 ,i see 9 !m1 :at ,i _c put 9 practice4 ,i want ! *ildr5 n to be a mom5t f "u ! eye & ! att5tion ( "s judici\s p]son3 s t if ! elev5 *ildr5 7 at "w 9 s _m diff]5t p>ts ( ! g>d51 "o might obs]ve1 t ea* works dilig5tly4 ,= slo? 9 temporals always produces slo? 9 spirituals4 ,yet at ! same "t _! "w mu/ n be a task2 = !n x w\ld n answ] ! end4 ,aga91 _! ?\ghts all ! day long w naturally t5d to evil4 ,& _! words w be trifl+4 ,to bid !m d o!rwise1 avails no m1 ?an to bid ! blackamoor be :ite4 ,& to reprove !m cont9ually1 w\ld be a burd5 great] ?an !y c\ld be>4 ,b if by little /ories & h9ts1 _! m9ds c\ld be ins5sibly drawn to bett] subjects1 !y w\ld be at l5g? br\ght to rememb]1 t ,god is pres5t1 & is look+ ^u !m e mom5t4 ,:5 ,i consid] ?is1 & _m m ?+s1 :i* ,i see af> (f1 b _c br+ to effect1 ,i am con/ra9$ to say1 8,o ,"l6 ,i am n yet ?r\ghly furni%$ to e good "w40 ,"s may say1 8,?is is worldly wisdom1 n gospel simplicity4 ,& aft] all y _c *ange _! he>ts40 ,mo/ c]ta94 ,b ha? n ,god said1 ,tra9 up a *ild 9 ! way x %\ld g8 ,n[ ,i ?9k true simplicity is to obey ,god1 & leave ! consequ5ce to him4 ,& we h already reason to believe1 our lab\r has n be5 9 va94 ,!re are dawn+s ( grace 9 mo/ ( ! *ildr54 ,"s ( !m ,god 0 pleas$ to bless 9 a p>ticul> mann]1 on ! #g? ( la/ ,june4 ,9 ! ev5+1 ,betty ,l1 ab\t t5 ye>s old1 0 mu* conc]n$ = "o ( ! little ones1 :o _h /ole some?+4 ,:5 !y w5t to b$1 n kn[+ !y 7 ov]he>d1 ?y began to conv]se freely2 & ,betty ,l said1 8,let u g to pray] = ,h's s\l40 ,%e !n pray$ 9 a v affect+ mann]1 aft]w>ds "o ab\t eight1 pray$1 plead+ mu* = ,h1 & add$1 8,"l1 don't let u s ?9k ( h] s91 z to =get our own4 ,"l don't let u laugh & trifle1 & talk ( fooli% ?+s :5 we come (f our knees1 b make u ,*ri/ians40 ,"o ( !m !n ?ank$ ,god1 = _! 8good corrections1 & tea*+10 & said 8,"l1 if we are n ,*ri/ians1 we %all be m puni%$ ?an o!rs40 ,:5 !y _h done1 ,nancy ,tripp w5t 9 to undress !m4 ,%e fir/ w5t to pray] ) !m z usual1 & ! _s ( conviction fell on ,betty ,l 9 a v uncommon mann]4 ,we came up & f\nd h] 9 an exce$+ great agony3 %e 0 ! v picture ( t]ror4 ,! ve9s ( h] neck 7 z if !y w\ld bur/4 ,%e wrung h] h&s1 & cri$ ) a bitt] cry1 8,o my s9s60 ,i believe m ?an an hundr$ times4 ,%e !n broke out into su* a confession ( h] orig9al s91 & he>t s9s1 z 0 q a/oni%+3 add+1 8,o6 ,i h nev] done any ?+ = !e 9 my :ole life4 ,i h broke all ?y laws1 ,i h kept ! devil's comm&m5ts2 ,i h kept none ( ?y comm&m5ts4 ,may su* a wret* come to ! ,"l8 ,wilt ?\ receive me8 ,wilt ?\ p>don me8 ,wilt ?\ make me a ,*ri/ian8 ,tell me1 ,"l1 %all ,i g to heav5 or hell8 ,%all ,i g to heav5 or hell1 ,"l8 ,o tell me6 ,%all ,i g to heav5 or hell8 ,wilt ?\ make me a ,*ri/ian8 ,wilt ?\ =give me80 ,%e !n paus$ a little1 & add$1 8,b wilt ?\1 ,"l8 ,yes1 he w1 he w4 ,b wilt ?\ ,"l8 ,yes1 ?\ wilt1 ?\ wilt40 ,mr4 ,dorn=d !n gave out an hymn4 ,%e n[ seem$ q calm3 ! horror :i* be=e appe>$ 9 h] c\nt5ance 0 gone1 & _h left a sweet smile4 ,h] att5tion seem$ q fixt4 ,& aft] rema9+ "s "t ) h] eyes upw>d1 %e said1 8,jesus is smil+ ^u me40 ,%e _h at ! same "t a sight ( him z ^u ! cross1 say+1 8,i h p>don$ all y\r s9s2 & if y pray1 ,i w give y abundant love40 ,aft] %e _h sat sil5t a :ile1 %e broke out1 8,o :at a sweet ,savi\r he is6 ,he has =giv5 me all my s9s,all1 all4 ,"l1 ?\ wilt1 ?\ ha/ =giv5 me4,o let !m be p]fectly =giv56 ,b %all ,i ev] s9 aga91 ,"l8 ,o don't let me s9 aga940 ,"s "t aft]1 %e said1 8,o :at a sweet ,savi\r ?\ art6 ,:at sweet love is ?9e6 ,o = m su* love1 m su* love z ?9e6 ,b don't let me s9 aga96 ,fill me ) love1 t ,i may nev] s9 aga960 8?y0 replac$ ) 8!y0 p] ,errata ,?is sc5e 0 /rik+3 b x 0 no?+ to ! *ange t foll[$4 ,%e 0 ( a f> worse natural temp]1 !n any ( ! *ildr53 b n[ x might inde$ be said1 8,love made h] will+ he>t 9 swift ob$i5ce move40 ,s great 0 ! *ange bo? 9 w & und]/&+1 z pla9ly decl>$ ! h& t wr\ght x4 ,we sometimes hope1 sev]al ( !m w *use to be entirely devot$ to ,god4 ,if s1 !y may cont9ue toge!r :5 !y gr[ up1 ea* foll[+ su* an employm5t z %e is fit =1 & all ?r[+ ! produce ( _! lab\r into a common /ock1 & may n ,god be pleas$ to call "s "y wom51 n br\ght up ) u1 :o h a desire to devote !mselves :olly to ,god1 to ca/ 9 _! lot ) u8 ,p]haps "s :o d n want1 may be glad to get out ( ! hurry ( ! _w1 at lea/ = a season1 t ! t5d] flame may n be put out1 nor any unhall[$ fires mix ) x4 ,h[ mu* is some?+ ( ?is k9d want$8 ,a place ( refuge = ! weak & unexp]i5c$8 ,h[ (t5 d we see ^? :o are j sett+ out 9 ! good way1 ei!r :olly turn$ aside1 or at lea/ p]suad$ to take up ) a l[] way1 ?an ! ,_s ( ,god at fir/ po9t$ out8 ,b if ev] ?is design be br\ght to p]fection1 x is ,god only t mu/ *use ! p]sons1 & br+ u toge!r1 z x is he only t make? m5 to be ( "o m9d 9 an h\se4 ,& :osoev] comes to u1 mu/ desire to be con=m$ to _! crucifi$ head4 ,we c promise !m only pov]ty1 lab\r & sorr[1 ! inw>d & outw>d cross4 ,b :5 !y embrace ?is ) _! :ole he>ts1 !y assur$ly exp]i5ce1 t 9 pov]ty is ri*es1 9 lab\r ease1 & 9 sorr[ con/ant rejoic+4 ,all ?is is 9 ! h& ( my ,god1 z also ano!r ?\ght ,i _h1 conc]n+ ag$ wid[s4 ,b s exce$+ great is 8 fai?fulness1 t ,i "k n h[ to despair ( any ?+4 ,a few ( ! _m in/ances h]e(1 :i* we h receiv$1 y mu/ give me leave to m5tion4 ,i h be5 always l$1 s9ce ,i _h any "w ( ,god ^u my s\l1 to walk by fai? 9 outw>d ?+s z well z inw>d4 ,h5ce ,i h frequ5tly1 :5 an object ( di/ress pres5t$1 gone beyond my income1 believ+ ,god w\ld make x up 9 ! "t ( ne$4 ,9 ?is confid5ce1 ,i receiv$ f\r or five m *ildr51 ?\gh ,i _h no?+ 9 h&1 & m b$d+ & cloa?s 7 to be b\ght imm$iately4 ,= ?is we want$ two gu9eas directly4 ,"s fri5ds s5d+ u ^w1 !y w\ld call on su* a day2 my fri5d pray$1 t ,god w\ld put x into _! he>ts to help u4 ,!y came1 & "o ( !m put two gu9eas into my h&4 ,we prais$ ! ,"l1 & receiv$ x z a tok5 = good4 ,soon aft] we 7 advis$ to put up a poor box4 ,i f\nd great reluctance to x1 :i* conv9c$ me1 x requires less grace 9 "s cases1 to give ?an to receive4 ,h[ev]1 lay+ x be=e ! ,"l 9 pray]1 ,i saw x 0 8 w1 & cons5t$4 ,s on ,tuesday1 ,febru>y #a1 x 0 put up 9 ! passage-room1 ) ?is inscription1 8,= ! ma9t5ance ( a few poor orphans1 t !y may be br\ght up 9 ! fe> ( ! ,"l40 ,a few days aft] we took out #bs4 #g;d4 b no m = a great :ile4 ,dur+ ?is "t we 7 mu* /rait5$1 n hav+ ! nurs]y furni%$1 nor ! necess>ies = ! *ildr54 ,x 0 n[ /rongly sugge/$1 8,y see y h done wrong1 & ,god w n help y any m40 ,b hav+ rec\rse to pray]1 our fai? 0 /r5g!n$4 ,soon aft]1 ! foll[+ ?\ght 0 mu* impre/ on my m9d4 ,if ,*ri/ 0 n[ ^u e>?1 & 9 want ( food & raim5t1 %\ld ,i be afraid to give him m9e1 le/ ,i %\ld want x myself8 ,%\ld ,i n r say1 8,let all ,i h be (f]$1 = ! necessities ( my ,"l4 ,he is well able to repay x1 & if he is n1 !n let u want toge!r40 ,i saw ! case ) ! *ildr5 0 ! same1 & t :at 0 done to "o ( ^!1 0 done to him4 ,a light broke 9 ^u my m9d :i* q satisfi$ me1 & con/ra9$ me to say1 8,"l1 ?y ^w is en\gh1 ?\ ha/ said1 ,love "o ano!r z ,i h lov$ y3 let _! wants be m9e1 my sub/ance !irs40 ,we 7 n[ n only 9 want ( ! ?+s above-m5tion$1 b ( money to keep ! h\se4 ,j !n a gu9ea 0 put into ! box1 & soon aft]1 ano!r3 9 a few days "o br\ght u ?irty %ill+s1 say+1 8,fe> n3 only believe40 ,ab\t ! same "t we receiv$ f\r gu9eas f ano!r h&1 :i* help$ u ?r\gh t qu>t]4 ,to avoid t$i\sness1 ,i pass ov] _m o!r helps :i* we receiv$ f "t to "t2 conf9+ myself to ^? :]e9 ! h& ( ! ,"l is m em95tly to be obs]v$4 99,"s "t s9ce1 be+ oblig$ to pay a sum ( money 9 a day's "t1 & hav+ none 9 ! h\se1 nor any due1 ,i attempt$ to borr[ x ( a fri5d1 b c\ld n4 ,i tri$ ano!r1 & 0 disappo9t$ !re also4 ,n kn[+ :at to d1 ,i w5t up /airs & wait$ be=e ! ,"l1 tell+ him ,i w\ld yet tru/ him & praise him4 ,op5+ ! la/ volume ( s]mons1 ,i ca/ my eye on ?is s5t5ce1 8,*ri/ *>ges himself ) all our temporal affairs1 :5 we *>ge ourselves ) ^? t relate to 8 glory40 ,x 0 appli$ to my he>t ) su* a p[]1 z ,i _h v seldom felt4 ,& su* a s5se ( ! imm$iate pres5ce ( ,god seiz$ my s\l z almo/ ov]:elm$ x4 ,o :at a fre$om ( _s did ,i feel6 ,i c\ld truly say1 8,all my c>e on !e is ca/40 ,9 ! ev5+1 a p]son desir$ to speak ) me1 & br\ght me a little above ! sum4 99,9 ,spr+ we 7 aga9 r$uc$ to ab\t "o p5ny1 & expect$ a bill ( two or ?ree p\nds to be br\ght 9 e h\r4 ,we look$ to ! ,"l1 & f\nd him aga9 to be a pres5t help4 ,= :ile we 7 consult+ :at to d1 a basket came :i* "o _h s5t u f ,london1 ) "s provisions1 & a little p>cel1 9 :i* 7 f\r p\nds1 ?ree %ill+s & n9ep5ce4 ,9 ,augu/ we _h an h\r ( trial aga94 ,! *ildr5 be+ increas$ to t51 we 7 9 great want ( l952 b h[ to procure x = !m we c\ld n tell4 ,i 0 unwill+ to run f>!r 9 debt1 hav+ already sp5t ! two next qu>t]s be=e !y came 91 nor 0 t en\gh to pay :at 0 ow+4 ,& ,i _h no?+ 9 ! h\se4 ,s we agre$ to lay x be=e ! ,"l toge!r4 ,:ile ,i 0 alone1 x 0 viol5tly sugge/$1 8!re is s mu* ( self 9 all y d1 t ,god is r di%on\r$ ?an glorifi$ !reby40 ,i said1 8,"l1 ,i am ! pur*ase ( ?y blood4 ,i plead t only4 ,& ,i believe ?\ wilt n leave me1 nor =sake me40 ,aft]w>ds ,i felt mu* peace4 ,ris+ f my knees1 ,i op5$ ! bible on ! foll[+ words4 ,acqua9t ?yself n[ ) him1 & be at peace2 !reby %all good come unto !e4 ,!n! ,almighty %all be ?y def5ce1 & ?\ %alt h pl5ty ( silv]?\ %alt also decree a ?+1 & x %all be e/abli%$1 & ! light %all %9e on ?y ways4 ,i felt my s\l in/antly /r5g!n$4 ,& e ^w 0 s op5$ & appli$1 t to ?is day x seems new :5ev] ,i read x3 p>ticul>ly t promise1 ,?\ %all decree a ?+1 & x %all be e/abli%$1 & ! light %all %9e on ?y ways4 ,inde$ ! :ole appe>$ m full & /rong ?an ,i h words to express4 ,two or ?ree days aft] we receiv$ five gu9eas2 ! same day ?ree m1 & two f ano!r h&4 ,9 a little :ile we receiv$ f\r m1 ) a promise ( ! same ye>ly4 ,o my ,god1 :o w\ld n tru/ !e8 ,:o w\ld n take !e at ?y ^w8 ,p]haps "s w wond]1 h[ "o :o has s great an income z ,i1 c ev] exp]i5ce want4 ,b y "k :at ,i h4 ,y "k likewise1 t be=e ,i took any *ildr51 ,i e ye> sp5t m ?an my income1 tru/+ t ,god w\ld supply :at 0 lack+4 ,o!rs may wond] at my pres5t imprud5t way ( proce$+2 b ,i "k 9 :om ,i h believ$4 ,inde$ _h ,i s\ght ! praise ( m51 ,i %\ld h tak5 c>e ( myself r ?an ( o!rs4 ,= ,i "k1 s long z ?\ do/ well unto ?yself1 m5 w speak well ( !e4 ,b we h *ose ! cross = our portion1 & we _c give x up4 ,a few days s9ce hav+ paid ! week's bill1 my fri5d said1 8,we h b a few %ill+s left40 ,! ,tuesday foll[+ ,i receiv$ two lett]s4 ,op5+ "o ( !m ,i 0 a little surpris$1 to f9d a gu9ea inclos$1 ) ! foll[+ l9es f "o ,i _h nev] conv]s$ )4 ,novemb] #e1 #agfd4 8,my de> *ild1 ,) mu* pleasure ,i he>d y\r *>itable design1 :i* ,i pray ,god to bless & succe$4 ,be nev] disc\rag$1 ?\gh div9e wisdom %\ld ex]cise y at times1 ev5 ) _m1 great & al>m+ difficulties3 = ?is is frequ5tly ! way 9 :i* ,god leads 8 *ildr51 9 ord] to improve _! fai? & pati5ce4 ,b ev5 suppos+ he %\ld n succe$ ?is affair1 accord+ to y\r pres5t plan1 yet he w nev] fail to bless ^?1 :o s9c]ely endeav\r to promote 8 hon\r1 ! k+dom ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 & ! good ( s\ls4 8,i desire t y w\ld accept ( ! inclos$1 & t y w\ld set me d[n z an annual contributor ( ! same sum4 ,may ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ be ) all ( u3 =get u n 9 y\r pray]s4 ,i am1 ) mu* respect & reg>d4 ,y\r v affectionate fri5d40 ,^! l9es 7 greatly ble/ to me1 & ,i f\nd mu* ?ankfulness4 ,9 ! o!r lett] 0 ano!r gu9ea inclos$1 ) ^! few words3 8,i h felt y\r burd51 & %\ld be ?ankful y _h m help4 ,b p]haps x is r ! w ( ,god conc]n+ y1 to give y day by day y\r daily bread4 ,i pray him to be ) y40 ,! same night "o br\ght half a gu9ea f a p]son unkn[n1 :o desir$ to be set d[n z an annual contributor ( two ,gu9eas4 ,:5 a ye>ly subscription 0 fir/ propos$1 ,i 0 av]se to x1 fe>+ x might give (f5ce1 till a v p>ticul> fri5d1 m5tion$ x to a few ( h] acqua9tance1 unkn[n to u4 ,aft]w>ds ,i 0 conv9c$1 x 0 ( ,god4 ,x n[ am\nts to ab\t f\rte5 p\nds a ye>4 ,our family at pres5t consi/s ( sixte53 elev5 *ildr51 "o tea*] = !m1 "o s]vant1 ourselves1 & "o lame ) ! palsy4 ,:5 ,i look back to la/ ,*ri/mas1 ,i am a/oni%$ at ! lov+-k9dness ( my ,god6 ,:at he ha? done = u1 & :at he ha? br\ght u ?r\gh1 ,i c easi] bless him =1 ?an repeat6 ,"o ?+ m ,i ask ( him3 ,& 9 ?is also he w he> me3 t he w\ld re/ore sev5fold into ! bosom ( ^? he has made helpful to u1 ei!r by pray]1 by ^w1 or by de$4 ,& if a cup ( cold wat] is n =gott5 be=e him1 surely n "o ( ^! %all lose _! rew>d4 ,o ,sir1 we h s _m m]cies1 ,i "k n h[ to leave (f rec\nt+ !m4 ,n[ ,i see t design ( ,god1 9 jo9+ si/] ,r4 & me toge!r4 ,x w\ld h be5 impossible = me to h gone ?r\gh my pres5t und]tak+ alone4 ,i "k ,i h nei!r grace = ! spiritual1 nor capacity = ! temporal "p4 ,x is !re=e 9 ! greate/ t5d]ness1 t our ,"l has giv5 h] to u z a "m4 ,i tru/1 bo? ?is & e bless+1 %all h ! effect :i* ,god design$ 9 x4 ,i am1 ,m4 ,b4 ,an ,,extract ( ,,lett]s4 ,by ,mrs4 ,l999999994 ,to ! ,,read]4 ,,! p]son :o publi%$ ^! lett]s ab\t twelve ye>s ago1 obs]ves1 ! writ] ( !m1 8nev] suppos$ !y w\ld be made public1 b put d[n ! s5tim5ts ( h] he>t1 9 ! confid5ce ( fri5d%ip4 ,?is may excuse ! inaccuracies "s may f9d3 besides !y are n recomm5d$ z patt]ns ( polite1 epi/ol>y correspond5ce4 ,_! m]it is ( ano!r k9d4 ,x consi/s nei!r 9 ! f95ess ( ! language1 nor 9 ! elegance ( ! mann]40,i really ?9k x does1 z well z 89 ! goodness ( ! s5tim5t40 ,i am n a%am$ to recomm5d !m1 z 8patt]ns ( truly polite1 epi/ol>y correspond5ce30 express+ ! noble/ s5tim5ts 9 ! mo/ elegant mann]1 9 ! pure/1 yea1 & f9e/ language4 ,yet und\bt$ly ev5 ! beauty ( ! language is no?+ comp>$ to ! _s :i* brea!s ?r\gh\t4 ,happy !y :o bo? ta/e h] _s & are p>tak]s ( x3 :o walk 9 ! light z he is ! light1 & "k t ! blood ( ,jesus ,*ri/ 8 ,son cleanse? f all s94 ,j4 ,w4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,lett]s ,to ,mrs4 999999994 ,,y\r lett]1 my ev] de> fri5d1 has be5 a great bless+ to me2 t y %\ld write 9 ! /yle y n[ d1 fill$ me ) su* a s5se ( m9e own unwor?9ess1 & ( ! goodness ( ,god to me1 t x melt$ my /ony he>t1 & drew te>s f m9e eyes4 ,oh w\ld ! ,god ,i adore enable me to be ( any help to y1 h[ w\ld my s\l dilate 9 ?ankfulness8 ,bless$ ,r$eem]1 draw u bo?1 & s w we run aft] !e4 ,oh ,_s ( tru?1 desc5d on ?9e unwor?y s]vants1 & make u fully s5sible ( ! seal ( our r$emption6 ,conv9ce u /ill m deeply ( our s9s1 & make u /ill m fully to "k1 t !y are wa%$ away by ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,?\ kn[e/ ! burd5s we lab\r "u1 ! dissipations ( our ?\ghts1 our w&r+s 9 pray]1 our spiritual slo?1 & all ! h>dness ( our he>ts4 ,/ir u up e>ne/ly to seek aft] ! ?+s ( ,god1 & fix our incon/ant m9ds4 ,?\ kn[e/ t we desire 7= ?is desire comes f !e7 t ! love ( ! ,fa!r may abide 9 our he>ts4 ,we beg ?9e assi/ance t we may eag]ly seek aft] ?is love4 ,oh tea* u ! pray] ( fai?1 & enable u con/antly & undaunt$ly to press =w>d t[>d ! m>k ( ! prize ( our high call+6 ,be ?\ our guide1 be ?\ our com=t] = ev] & = ev]4 ,am51 ,am54 99,:at a task h y laid ^u me8 ,i wat* ov] y6 ,i y\r guide6 ,?is q ov]comes me4 ,i _c be> x4 ,oh1 my love1 !re is no "o s mu* wants a guide & a director z ,i d4 ,sure ?is lett] ( y\r's 0 p>ticul>ly design$ by provid5ce to humble me2 b unwor?y z ,i am1 ,i w by ! grace ( ,god /rive to d e ?+ y desire ( me3 b !n y mu/ return ! same to me1 & take me into ! numb] ( ^? y wat* ov]4 ,let u g h& 9 h& 9 ^! pa?s :i* lead to ev]la/+ life4 ,:at %all ,i say to quick5 y\r /eps8 ,x 0 said to me s9ce ,i saw y1 by ,mr4 99999999 8,i hope /ill to h a great deal m pleasure f y1 by see+ y press =w>d40 ,?9k ^! words 7 address$ to y by ! same p]son4 ,oh :at a bless+ ( ,god accompanies ! words ( "o :o is uni=mly a ,*ri/ian1 ( "o :o sp5ds & is sp5t = ! s]vice ( 8 ma/]1 ( "o :o has no view b ! glory ( ,god & ! salvation ( s\ls6 ,:o w\ld n /rive e>ne/ly to foll[ s bright an example8 ,! v sight ( su* a p]son animates ! s\l 9 its w>f>e4 ,o :at s\l1 :i* is ! lea/ alive to ,god1 w\ld n ev5 agonize to be p]fectly r5ew$ aft] ! image ( ,*ri/8 ,is y\r he>t1 is my he>t s dead1 t ?is w n affect x8,alas1 ,i grieve = m9e ownmay ,god give me to rejoice = y\r's4 ,i h "t = no m4 ,may ! bless+ & influ5ce ( ! ev]-adorable ,tr9ity1 ,fa!r1 ,son1 & ,holy ,_s1 be cont9ually ) y\r s\l4 ,i am y\r ev]-affectionate1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,?9k y are n[ ?r\gh div9e grace1 /rong en\gh to be> :at ,i am go+ to say to y1 t ,i h long se5 a mixture ( pride & vanity ev5 9 ! be/ ( y\r p]=mances4 ,b ,i c\ld h>dly all[ myself to believe x4 ,:at6 h ,i (t5 said1 %all ,i judge s ( h]1 :om e body admires = h] surpris+ mode/y & humility8 ,is x n because %e is m excell5t ?an myself1 & !re=e ,i am seek+ to f9d "s fault 9 h]8 ,!n ,i h (t5 pray$ to ,god1 n to suff] my s\l to be deceiv$ by any s9i/] views1 & to p]fect 9 y :at 0 want+4 ,& ?is ,i tru/ he w d = u bo?1 if we keep ! long+ eye ( our s\ls /eadily fix$ ^u him4 ,oh = hol9ess ( he>t6 ,let u lab\r1 my de> companion1 = hol9ess1 z a dy+ s9n] lab\rs = life4 ,i _h ye/]day a mo/ delightful lett] f ,mr4 999999994 ,x s5t me to my knees s conv9c$ ( my black +ratitude to my heav5ly ,fa!r1 t ,i c\ld nei!r f9d words nor ?\ghts suffici5t to express my unwor?9ess2 yet at ! same "t my he>t 0 full ( ?anksgiv+1 "u a s5se ( 8 unb\nd$ m]cies4 ,o help me1 my de> fri5d1 to be m & m ?ankful6 ,su* advantagesde>e/ ,jesus1 h[ ju/ly great mu/ be my condemnation1 if ,i d n make suitable improvem5ts4 ,take ! latt] "p ( ,mr4 99999999's lett]1 apply x to y\rself con/antly1 e m9ute if possible4 8,y h ne$ !re=e to wat* & pray always1 & !n especially :5 y might seem to h lea/ ne$4 ,y h reason to fe> always3 = y\r enemies are always wat*+4 ,b y h reason likewise to rejoice always1 because he t keepe? y nev] sleeps40 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,h read y\r lett] ) te>s1 & e>ne/ pray]s to ,god = y1 & = myself4 ,we are bo? unwor?y creatures2 inde$1 my love1 we are m unwor?y ?an we c ei!r express or conceive4 ,o let u fly to ! blood ( spr9kl+4 ,!re & !re alone c we f9d help4 ,?anks be to ,god1 t y h a cle> view ( y\r own he>t4 ,?is is a mo/ pr(itable prospect1 ?\gh a mo/ dreadful "o4 ,?9k me n cruel1 :5 ,i wi% t ! holy ,_s may deeply w\nd y\r s\l ) a s5se ( its corruptions4 ,! deep] ! conviction1 ! firm] ! peace t foll[s4 99,i h>dly "k h[ to believe y1 :5 y tell me y are hurri$ away by desires aft] worldly happ9ess4 ,is x possible8 ,alas1 my fri5d1 p>don ! h>%ness ( ! expression1 if ! love ( ! _w is 9 y\r he>t1 y are only a pa9t$ sepul*re1 beautiful inde$ outw>dly1 b )94 ,my de> creature1 ,i _c be> to ?9k ?isa ,*ri/ian to be hurri$ away ) desires & endeav\rs aft] worldly happ9ess6 ,if ,/4 ,paul's "* ( a ,*ri/ian is "r1 h[ f> are y f be+ a ,*ri/ian8 8,ye are dead10 says he1 8& y\r life is hid ) ,*ri/ 9 ,god40 ,may n ^! viol5t rag+s ( pride1 vanity1 c4 y speak (1 be "s ( ! la/ /ruggles ( a dy+ enemy8 ,:5 ! /rong man arm$ keepe? 8 h\se1 8 goods are 9 peace4 ,b :5 !re is a /rong] comes ^u him to ov]come him1 & to take f him t arm\r 9 :i* he tru/$1 no wond] ! h\se is 9 a tumult4 ,& ?is ,i hope is y\r pres5t case4 ,b bew>e1 my de> s\l1 ( ?9k+1 t y nev] %\ld be o!rwise4 ,limit n ! grace ( ,god4 ,he has only to say1 ,peace1 be /ill1 & imm$iately ! w9ds & seas obey him4 8,b h[ to obta9 ?is peace80 ,oh my de> fri5d1 w y foll[ ! advice ( ! meane/ & mo/ unwor?y ( ! s]vants ( ,*ri/8 ,look ^u y\rself z be+ only n[ fully conv9c$ ( y\r guilt & dreadful condition4 ,look ^u y\rself z a poor1 lo/1 helpless1 mis]able creature4 ,set be=e y\r eyes y\r s9s1 ) all _! aggravations2 & :5 y\r s\l is weigh$ d[n to ! du/ "u a s5se ( y\r own vil5ess1 !n ?r[ y\rself at ! foot ( ! cross3 !re lie z a loa?some lep] be=e ! almighty heal]3 !re let y\r p>*$ s\l gasp 7) ! utmo/ /ret* ( all y\r faculties7 aft] ^? life-giv+ /reams :i* fl[$ f ,*ri/'s h&s1 8 feet1 8 pi]c$ side2 & !re keep ! eye ( y\r m9d fix$1 until ! /ill small voice be he>d 9 y\r s\l8,be ( good *e]1 ?y s9s are =giv5 !e40 99 99 99 99 99 ,i ,,0 9 hopes1 my de>1 t ,i _h cause to ?9k y _h ga9$ gr\nd2 b if ,i 0 mi/ak51 am v sorry4 ,god =bid h[ev] t y %\ld h gone back3 ,i mu/ n = my own ease believe t4 99,! reason = y\r n f9d+ s mu* com=t z usual fl[+ f ! cross1 is because y lay y\rself too mu* out ^u outw>d ?+s4 ,i d\bt n b y\r own w is inde$ v p[]ful1 & x w ev] be s1 :ile y indulge y\rself 9 ca/le-build+4 ,let y\r s*emes be ev] s good1 !y are 7unless ,god _h giv5 y ! means & p[] to p]=m !m7 m]ely ! creatures ( y\r own w2 & ,i don't "k any ?+ t self-w m delights 91 ?an 9 ^! imag9>y good projects4 ,believe me1 my de> s\l1 ,i speak f exp]i5ce4 ,!re is no?+ m enc\rages self-w1 pride1 & e temp] we ought to subdue1 ?an ^! s*emes4 ,= ,god's sake /rive to get ! bett] ( ?is folly4 ,i "k y\r temp] is naturally incl9$ to x1 & !re=e y ought to be m p>ticul>ly wat*ful4 ,_c y1 my love1 keep y\r ?\ghts fix$ on ! pres5t mom5t1 9 a con/ant dep5dance on ! lead+s ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 & only wi%+ t e succe$+ mom5t may br+ a new accession ( grace to y\r s\l1 )\t fix+ on ! p>ticul> means1 by :i* y w\ld h x come8 ,:5 ! w is 9 ?is total resignation to ,god1 x br+s a peace to ! s\l1 :i* _c be describ$4 ,i don't l y\r go+ to ,vauxhall1 ,i ?9k y ought to try e possible means1 to get (f4 ,suppose y 7 to be s9c]e1 & own x 0 aga9/ y\r consci5ce4 ,pray ,god direct y :at to d4 ,if y are really =c$ to g1 ,god w pres]ve y\r he>t f ! pollutions ( ! place4 ,if ?is is ! case1 ,i ?9k y w be 9 less dang] ( be+ hurt !re1 ?an 9 y\r visit to ,mrs4 999999993 = 9 ?is visit y w lie expos$ to ! wor/ enemy y h1 t is1 y\rself4 ,) ^? good p1 :om y love & admire1 & :o love & admire y1 y w )\t ! mo/ con/ant wat*fulness1 be cont9ually fall+ into self-seek+ & self-applause4 ,i fe>1 my love1 y w soon ?9k me too pla9 9 my speak+2 b ,i _c answ] x to my consci5ce1 s9ce :at has pa/ betwe5 u1 n to w>n y ( e ?+ :i* seems to me to prev5t y\r progress 9 grace4 ,don't imag9e ?\gh1 t ,i wi% y w\ld n make ?is visit to ,mrs4 999999992 q ! contr>y2 b ,i wi% y to keep ! mo/ con/ant gu>d ^u y\r own he>t1 t :at %\ld be = y\r heal?1 be n unto y an occasion ( fall+4 ,i am y\r ev] s9c]e & affectionate1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 99,i ,,?ank ,god1 t y n[ see ! dang] ( w&r+ imag9ations 9 a cle>] light2 b ,i _c guess :at s*emes a he>t l y\rs 7:i* ,i %\ld hope 0 desir\s ( no?+ b :at imm$iately t5d$ to increase 9 x ! love ( ,god7 c pursue1 :i* are n = :at we call do+ good4 ,dep5d ^u x1 my de>1 if y c by an act ( y\r w wa/e a ?\ght on any future view ( happ9ess1 t reg>ds only y\r situation 9 ?is _w1 y are yet f> f ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,to a s\l1 t has b ! l[e/ s5se ( ! p>don+ love ( ,god1 e ?+ t does n lead to a great] s5se ( ?is love is insipid4 ,outw>d ?+s1 accord+ to ! pres5t circum/ances we are 91 ought to be att5d$ to ) prud5ce1 ?\gh n ) anxi\sness2 b t s\l :i* runs out aft] !m 9 future1 ought to tremble4 ,my de> creature1 are we n e mom5t on ! br9k ( et]nity1 & may plunge 9 ! next1 = ought we "k8 ,:at !n h we to d1 b e mom5t to grasp aft] new degrees ( grace1 new p[] ov] s91 a /ill high] s5se ( ! love ( ,god %$ abroad 9 our he>ts8 8,)\t hol9ess no man %all see ! ,"l0,alas6 :at is a life ( sixty or sev5ty ye>s 7suppos+ we c\ld be c]ta9 ( s _m7 to atta9 univ]sal hol9ess8 ,& %all we lose a mom5t8 ,outw>dly we mu/ a great _m3 b /ill our he>ts may be ga9+ gr\nd 9 ! /eady pursuit ( t end1 = :i* we 7 creat$1 & to :i* we h su* glori\s enc\ragem5ts4 ,:at6 %all ,*ri/ cry out to u 9 va91 8,give me ?y he>t80 ,or %all we d>e to divide t he>t1 :i* co/ him s de>8 ,o my fri5d1 be jeal\s = y\r r$eem+ ,god4 ,suff] n t s\l1 = :i* he %$ 8 preci\s blood1 to /ray "o mom5t f him4 miss+ ^w 8(0 ins]t$ ,i am sorry y f\nd pleasure at ,vauxhall4 ,i c\ld n h believ$ x1 _h y n told me s y\rself4 ,i see1 my love1 ,i h ?\ght f> too highly ( y4 ,:at a frightful di/ance is !re /ill betwe5 y1 & a ,*ri/ian6 ,c\ld any "o :o _h ! m9d :i* 0 9 ,*ri/ h felt pleasure1 :]e !y saw ,god di%on\r$1 & _! fell[-creatures runn+ headlong to de/ruction8 ,y _h reason inde$ to be a%am$1 & ?ank ,god t y 0 s4 ,! curiosity 9 reg>d to ! a/ronomical in/rum5ts might di/ract y\r m9d = a long] "t1 b y\r tak+ delight 9 ^! did n %ew su* an excessive depravity ( he>t1 z ! o!r3 = a/ronomy is only accid5tally made a means ( di%on\r+ ,god1 & hurt+ ! s\ls ( m52 b ,vauxhall is necess>ily s4 ,i am y\r ev] affectionate1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 99,i ,,write1 my love1 to y to ?ank y = ! pleasure y gave me la/ ,?ursday1 & /ill to urge y m & m cont9ually to press =w>ds4 ,"y z y are1 y may p]haps be v ne> ! end ( y\r c\rse1 & ! "t giv5 y to "w 9 may1 = ought y "k1 be v ne>ly elaps$4 ,t =m ( y\rs1 :i* n[ delights ! eyes ( y\r fri5d1 & seems to promise a long cont9uance ( heal? & vig\r1 may soon p]haps become defac$ & loa?some meat = crawl+s worms1 & t s\l1 t preci\s & immortal s\l ( y\rs1 :i* is n[ f> f lov+ its ,creator z x ought to d1 may soon /& nak$ 9 ! sight ( t ,god1 to :om x has be5 ungratefulits day ( probation pa/& its lot ca/ = a :ole et]nity4 ,oh my fri5d1 my de>e/ companion 9 my pilgrimage1 ,i conjure y by all y\r he>t holds de>1 t y lose n a mom5t6 ,oh may t ,god1 :o is love itself1 s inflame y\r s\l ) a s5se ( 8 love1 z may consume all its dross1 & make x ?r\gh ,*ri/ an acceptable sacrifice to himself6 ,i ?9k ! la/ "t ,i saw y ,i _h ! satisfaction ( obs]v+ less ( self-seek+ 9 y1 ?an ,i ev] did be=e4 ,sure ,god w give me greatly to rejoice 9 y4 ,f>ewel4 ,:5ev]1 my love1 ,i ?9k too well ( y1 fail n to tell me1 & take %ame to y\rself = deceiv+ me4 ,i am y\r's1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,?ank y = y\r lett]s1 & rejoice at a great "p ( ! acc\nt y give me4 ,y h be5 v happy inde$2 & x seems to me t ,god gave y ?is happ9ess z prep>atory to ! trials1 :i* 7 to ensue4 ,& if y %\ld aft] ?is goodness ( ,god t[>ds y1 grieve 8 holy ,_s1 by suff]+ y\r he>t to indulge any temp]1 :i* y "k to be contr>y to 8 w1 :at words w\ld be /rong en\gh to pa9t y\r black +ratitude8 ,i w deal pla9ly ) y4 ,i ?9k y are n[ 9 a mo/ dang]\s situation4 ,e ?+ ar\nd y w conspire to tempt y to ! s9 :i* mo/ easily besets y1 & !re=e y mu/ n be "o mom5t (f y\r gu>d4 ,y mu/ pray )\t ceas+1 ev5 9 ! fulle/ s5se ( ! words & con/antly /rive to h /rongly pa9t$ 9 y\r imag9ation ,jesus ,*ri/1 & him crucifi$4 ,!re is no?+ ,i ?9k m t5ds to humble u1 ?an ! consid]ation ( ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/4 ,:5 y f9d y\rself go+ to say or d any ?+ ) a view to praise1 ?9k1 ?is temp]1 ?is vanity ( m9e add$ to ! weight ( my ,savi\r's suff]+s1 & made m bitt] 8 cup ( bitt]ness4 ,oh1 if y _h a s\l capable ( feel+1 if y h "o sp>k ( gratitude1 c y ?9k ?is1 & s98 ,0 y n[ /&+ on ,m\nt ,calv>y ne> ! cross ( ! bless$ ,jesus 7suppose ! dreadful de$ 0 b n[ p]=m+7 & y saw ! ,r$eem] ( ! _w j nail$ to 8 cross1 say1 w\ld y help to drive ! nails /ill deep]8 ,w\ld y press ! ?orns clos] to 8 sacr$ temples8 ,w\ld y help to increase t load1 :i* made him cry out1 8,my ,god1 my ,god1 :y ha/ ?\ =sak5 me80 ,does n y\r s\l %udd] at ! ?\ght8 ,o my fri5d w\ld y n r die1 gladly die1 = ?is y\r suff]+ ,"l8 ,w\ld y n gladly be cut 9 t5 ?\s& pieces to save him "o pang8 ,i "k y w\ld4 ,& w y n /rive aga9/ t s91 :i* increas$ 8 suff]+s8 ,w y n /rive1 my love8,yes1 sure y w4 ,is n e ?+ we c give up by f> too small a return = :at ! ,r$eem] has done = u8 ,& %all we n give ?is little8 ,above all %all we n give up :at mo/ ( all sep>ates u f him1 our self-love1 & self-seek+8 ,?9k my fri5d :5 any "o is h9t+ to y1 h[ extraord9>y y are8?is p]son is ignorantly driv+ me f my ,savi\r40 ,& if y %\ld1 :i* ,god =bid1 f9d y\rself tempt$ to indulge a va9 complac5cy 9 _! applause1 ?9k imm$iately h[ _! praise w\ld be turn$ into contempt1 did !y "k y\r he>t z x really is1 & blu% = ?us deceiv+ !m4 ,recollect "s ( ! mean motives :i* p]haps h be5 ! spr+s ( "s ( y\r mo/ admir$ words & actions1 & let y\r s\l )9 y be humbl$ to ! du/4 ,& my de>1 ,i beg y w be c>eful h[ y draw praise ^u y\rself by prais+ o!rs4 ,?is is :at ,i am v apt to fall into2 & !re=e ,i am ! m s5sible ( its hurtfulness4 ,& bew>e h[ y suff] y\rself to attempt expla9+ nice po9ts ( doctr9e1 unless x is evid5t !re w be good done by x1 & !n y may hope ,god w pres]ve y f ! pride1 :i* g5]ally accompanies ?is display ( ! capacity4 ,may y con/antly walk 9 ! light ( ,god's c\nt5ance1 & g on conqu]+1 & to conqu]6 99 99 99 99 99 ,i ,,am glad1 my de> fri5d1 t y\r visit to 99999999 has be5 ( su* b5efit to y2 & ,i pray ,god to cont9ue x to y\r s\l1 & n to suff] ^! impressions to we> (f4 ,temptations d\btless w att5d e situation we are 92 b ! s\l t re/s secure 9 ! love ( ,god w easily conqu] !m4 ,i wi% y may f9d m & m b5efit f ! *ur* pray]s3 !y are = human compositions v excell5t1 & ,i belief ! be/ =m ( pray]s t ev] 0 put toge!r4 ,i _c reproa* y = t :i* ,god has p>don$1 b y c]ta9ly ought n[ to be m wat*ful1 t y fall n aga92 = !n great inde$ w\ld be y\r condemnation4 ,! dang] :i* may accrue to y by go+ to ,miss 99999999 w ,i f9d be kn[n to y by exp]i5ce only4 ,%e is c]ta9ly a good creature h]self1 & ,i love h]1 b !re is a _s haunts h] absolutely contr>y to ! _s ,i am seek+ aft]4 ,%e is n capable1 my de>1 ( wat*+ y\r words ) any ill design4 ,h] only view is to f9d out y\r errors4 ,& if possible cure y ( !m4 ,i d\bt n b if y c\ld conv]se ) h] alone1 & keep cle> ( disputes1 %e might be ( great use to y1 & ,i hope ,god w bless ?is & e o!r means to ! good ( y\r s\l4 ,! mo/ excell5t p 9 ! _w w be ( little avail1 unless 8 ,_s assi/s1 & ) ?is !re is no?+ s weak or mean1 b :at may t5d to increase 8 love 9 our he>ts4 99,= my own "p1 sil5ce & solitude seem at pres5t be/ = me1 & ,i am m hurt by "s religi\s p1 :om ,i conv]se )1 ?an by ! p ( ! _w4 ,inde$ !re is sc>ce any1 :o does n 9 "s measure hurt me1 except ,mr4 999999994 ,numb]less are ! sn>es t lie 9 our way to ! heav5ly k+dom4 ',tis truly a w>f>e1 & a v difficult "o1 b ! cr[n t awaits u at ! end1 is well wor? ! /riv+ =1 ev5 unto blood4 ,besides ! enc\ragem5ts & com=ts we f9d 9 ! way are glori\s3 sure ,i am t ,alex&] nev] f\nd su* joy 9 all 8 conque/s1 z ! s\l t presses aft] ! foot/eps ( ,*ri/ does 9 "o conque/ ov] self-w4 ,!re is m delight 9 suff]+ = ,god1 ?an 9 reign+ ) ! _w4 ,to clasp ! cross ( ,*ri/ close to ! he>t is m happ9ess ?an angels c give2 & :at inexpressible satisfaction is x to a s\l1 ^: e faculty loves its ,r$eem]1 to cry out1 ,give me to feel ?9e agonies1 ,"o drop ( ?y sad cup af=d2 ,i fa9 ) !e w\ld sympa?ize1 ,& %>e ! suff]+s ( my ,"l4 8haunts0 replac$ ) 8haunts h]0 p] ,errata 99,oh ,god ( unspeakable m]cy1 unb\nd$ love1 h[ little is all we c d or suff] = !e6 ,oh t we might n h a ?\ght1 nor ev5 a pulse beat1 b = our ,god6 ,:at is all t e>? or heav5 itself c give 9 comp>ison ( !e8 ,oh uncreat$ beauty1 h[ does e o!r excell5ce fade away at ?y pres5ce6 ,h[ does a ta/e ( ?y love make e o!r love insipid6 ,& a ray ( ?y light d>k5 ! brighte/ ( creat$ ,be+s6 ,oh :51 :5 %all our s\ls be :olly swall[$ up 9 !e6 ,:5 %all we "k !e ev5 also z we are kn[n6 ,?\ kn[e/ ! desire ( our he>ts4 ,?\ see/ h[ our s\ls /ret*1 & pant aft] !e1 ev5 to fa9t+6 ,oh give u to dr9k ( ! wat]s ( life1 ev5 9 ?is our pilgrimage1 until we come to dr9k freely ( !m f t riv]1 :i* proce$e? out ( ! ?rone ( ,god1 & ( ! ,lamb = ev] & ev]4 ,am51 ,"l ,jesus4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my belov$ fri5d1 ,i ,,h be5 admir+ ! goodness ( ,god to y1 9 ord]+ y\r be+ at ,l99999999 at a "t1 :5 x mu/1 in/ead ( be+ hurtful1 be pr(itable to y\r s\l4 ,! att5d+ ! sick b$ ( a de> relation 9 dang] ( dea?1 is a mo/ glori\s "t = ex]cis+ a numb] ( ,*ri/ian graces4 ,su* a sc5e z ?is keeps ! m9d 9 a mo/ prop] temp]1 humble1 recollect$1 s]i\s2 & 9 y\r p>ticul> circum/ances1 ?is illness ( 99999999 has fre$ y f mo/ ( ! sn>es y appreh5d$4 ,h[ does e ?+ "w toge!r = good to ^? :o love ,god6 ,& h[ ungrateful is t he>t1 :i* does n /rive m & m to love him 9 de$ & 9 tru?6 ,:at1 my love1 are ! inw>d temptations y compla9 (1 & :at are ^? unacc\ntable scruples8 ,! be/ ?+ y c d is n to argue ab\t !m 9 y\r own m9d1 b imm$iately fly to pray]2 & if y _c pray1 only wi% e>ne/ly to pray4 99',tis "r1 t y %\ld ?9k y\rself ! vile/ creature brea?+1 & ,i am e day m & m conv9c$1 t e s\l :i* really loves ,god mu/ necess>ily 9 its own p>ticul> ?9k ! same3 & 9 :atev] proportion ! love ( ,god increases 9 ! s\l1 9 ! same proportion w ! s5se ( its own vil5ess & helplessness increase1 till at la/ x is 9 a mann] annihilat$ be=e ,god4 ,?is is a po9t :i* ! wisdom ( ! _w _c und]/&1 & :i* no s*eme ( doctr9e c tea* ! he>t2 b :5 we truly "k ,jesus ,*ri/ crucifi$1 !n we c truly cry out1 ,:at6 to me su* love8 to ! vile/ & mo/ ungrateful ( all creatures8 ,o :5ce su* love to me8 ,i grieve = ! s9 y fell into4 ,_h ! temp] ( y\r m9d be5 really *>itable1 y c]ta9ly c\ld n lightly h spok5 evil ( any "o4 ,no?+ is m contr>y to ! true _s ( ! gospel1 ?an ?is want ( univ]sal love4 ,& yet !re is no?+ s common ev5 among ^? :o 9 mo/ o!r respects are unblameable4 ,h[ ought we e mom5t to wat*6 ,oh :5 %all we inde$ be r5ew$ aft] ! image ( ,*ri/6 ,adieu4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,:at1 my de> companion1 c ,i write s animat+ z y\r pres5t circum/ances8 ,god seems1 ,i ?9k1 9 a mo/ peculi> mann] to wat* ov] y\r s\l = good4 ,:at int]e/+1 :at he>t-affect+ sc5es h y gone ?r\gh8 ,! acc\nt ,i _h ( y\r 99999999 dea?1 has made me see ! goodness ( ,god to y 9 ! /ronge/ light1 & ,i am ready to %udd]1 :5 ,i ?9k t x is possible1 ev5 aft] all ?is1 t y %\ld aga9 be ungrateful4 ,oh wat* e mom5t6 ,?9k :at horrors & agonies y mu/ feel1 if y %\ld n[ suff] y\r he>t to turn aside f ?is t5d] & m]ciful ,god6 ,! circum/ances y are n[ 9 are l five tal5ts giv5 to y\r c>e4 ,rememb] y are to ga9 ) !m five tal5ts m1 or expect to he> ^! dreadful words,?\ slo?ful & wick$ s]vant4 ,y\r heav5ly ,fa!r seems to be mak+ a pla9 way be=e y\r face4 ,i see y 9 a light almo/ prophetical4 ,i rejoice1 & yet ,i tremble4 ,y seem po9t$ out1 ,i ?9k1 z an in/rum5t 9 ! h&s ( ,god = ! conv]sion ( ,miss 999999992 b "h y w be 9 dang] f y\r old enemies1 pride1 & love ( tea*+1 & above all t self-sett+-up :i* y h f\nd s difficult to ov]come4 ,o my de> love1 fail n e h\r ( ! day to pray p>ticul>ly = humility4 ,i tru/ y are n 9 dang] f any increase ( =tune4 ,no surely4 ,! he>t ( my belov$ fri5d _c be s mean & l[1 z to pride itself 9 dross & dirt4 ,p]haps y w f9d "s difficulties 9 reg>d to ! temp]s ( y\r 999999992 h[ necess>y w x be = y 9 ?is case to place con/antly be=e y\r eyes ! meekness & l[l9ess ( ! ,lamb ( ,god8 ,& fe> n1 y w 9 all ^! ?+s be m ?an conqu]or ?r\gh him1 :o has lov$ y4 8y\r0 replac$ ) 8y0 99 99 99 99 99 ,i ,,pity y1 my de> fri5d2 ,i saw ye/]day t y\r head 0 full1 & y\r he>t n s w>m t[>ds ,god z x sometimes is4 ,oh :5 %all we be free f ^! di/ractions8 ,or r :5 %all our love to our ,r$eem] be s int5se1 t our he>ts may be con/antly fix$ on him1 & we 7z x 77 walk ?r\gh ! fire )\t be+ burnt8 99,i rememb] hav+ sometimes said to y ! beg9n+ ( la/ summ]1 8,!re is m a va/ deal 9 fai? ?an we all imag9e20 & ?\gh1 ?anks to ! free grace ( ,god1 we bo? "k m ( fai? n[1 ?an we did at t "t1 yet ,i may /ill repeat ! say+1 & may cont9ue to repeat x1 till our eyes are fully op5$ 9 et]nity4 8,all ?+s are possible to him t believe?10 said ! ,god ( tru?2 & :y !n d n y & ,i conqu] all s98 ,because we d n believe4 ,! unb\nd$ ri*es ( ! grace ( ,god 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus are h>dly m a/oni%+1 ?an ! p]v]s5ess ( t s\l1 :i* w n fully tru/ 9 !m4 ,*ri/ /&s ev] ready to save to ! utt]mo/1 if we w b believe1 t he c1 & w d x2 & we draw back & %r9k f 8 r$eem+ h&4 ,we suff] ! d>k cl\ds ( our fall5 nature to obscure ! glori\s light ( ! promises ( ,god4 ,& ?\gh our heads may be fully conv9c$ ( _! tru?1 & we may h "s desires ( atta9+ !m1 yet !re is 9 ! c5tre ( our s\ls an hidd5 root ( unbelief1 :i* j z we are go+ to lay hold on ! prize1 :isp]s8,h[ c ^! ?+s be80 & !n we s9k4 ,i h he>d x obs]v$ ( ! eagle1 t %e holds h] "y ones full aga9/ ! bright beams ( ! mid day sun3 if !y behold x /$fa/ly1 %e n\ri%es !m1 b if !y turn away _! heads or %ut _! eyes1 %e da%es !m to ! gr\nd4 ,!re is some?+ v /rik+ 9 ?is4 ,a nom9al believ]1 :o makes a pr(ession ( hol9ess1 has all ! outw>d m>ks ( a true believ]1 z ^! da/>d eagles h ( ! o!rs2 b he _c look /$fa/ly at ! glori\s beams ( ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness3 & h[ dreadful is ! consequ5ce8 ,oh my love1 h[ ought we to wat* & pray6 ,h[ c>eful ought we to be n to lose sight = "o mom5t ( our immat]ial sun1 le/ ! eye ( our m9ds %\ld by t means contract a dimness & weakness1 :i* might r5d] u incapable ( /$fa/ly behold+ him1 :5 he %all appe> 9 all ! fulness ( 8 glory4 ,may ! ,god ( m]cy pres]ve y 9 all temptations1 & be y\r portion 9 "t & 9 et]nity4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,praise ,god ) my :ole he>t = y\r happ9ess & /r5g?1 & ,i pray him to increase x e mom5t4 ,o may t bless$ peace nev] leave y\r s\l3 x is et]nal life begun1 & t5 ?\s&s laid 9 ! balance ) ?is peace w\ld be all light] ?an vanity4 ,x is a glori\s sign1 t 9 outw>d tr\bles1 or inw>d temptations1 y c leave ! means ( y\r deliv]ance intirely to ,god1 )\t suff]+ y\r imag9ation to run out aft] ! mann] 9 :i* y probably may be deliv]$4 ,o t we c\ld always v5ture ourselves ^u ! m]cies ( our ,god6 ,!n w\ld he inde$ "w wond]s = uwond]s :i* we n[ c sc>ce believe1 ?\gh ! ,god ( tru? himself decl>es !m unto u4 ,& ?is ,god w surely keep y 9 ! dang]s to :i* y are go+ to be expos$1 if y w be wat*ful to keep ! eye ( y\r m9d con/antly turn$ t[>ds him1 & wait & hang ^u him1 z a little *ild on its fond p>5t1 draw+ all y\r help1 all y\r com=t f him1 & him alone4 ,if y h b little outw>d retirem5t1 %ut m closely ! door ( y\r he>t1 & !re 9 its inmo/ recesses commune ) y\r ,god1 & ,r$eem]1 !re be cont9ually cry+ unto him,"l ?\ kn[e/ all ?+s1 ?\ kn[e/ t ,i love !e2 ?\ kn[e/1 ,o life & joy ( my s\l1 t ,i desire no?+ b to d ?y p]fect w1 & to be con=m$ to ! lik5ess ( ?y suff]+s1 z well z to ! lik5ess ( ?y resurrection4 ,oh crucify 9 me ! :ole body ( s96 ,give me an humble1 a mortifi$1 & *ild-l _s1 & 9 ?9e own good "t p]fect ! "w ?\ ha/ begun 9 my s\l4 ,z to examples :i* are n good1 ,i hope ,i may say1 t all ! effect !y c h ^u my belov$ fri5d 79 h] pres5t happy /ate ( m9d7 w be to drive h] ne>] to h] ,god1 & 9 t ne>ness :at com=t does ! believ+ s\l f9d8 ,:at ?o' e>? & hell engage ,to %ake t s\l ) fe>2 ,calmly x defies ! rage ,( p]secution ne>4 ,suff]+ fai? %all bright] gr[1 ,z gold :5 9 ! furnace tri$3 ,only ,jesus w we "k1 ,& ,jesus crucifi$4 ,yes1 my love1 let ^? :o /ile !mselves our be/ fri5ds jo9 ) ! _w 9 call+ u mopes & en?usia/s4 ,/ill /$fa/ly fix$ on ! rock :i* _c be mov$1 we w endure1 nay joyfully take up ! reproa* = 8 sake1 :o hid n 8 bless$ face f %ame & spitt+ = our sakes1 to make u 7accurs$ & lo/ creatures7 heirs ( et]nal glory4 ,oh t 8 /r5g? may b accompany u1 & ! light ( 8 c\nt5ance cont9ually abide ) u2 & !n we %all n fail to g on conqu]+ & to conqu]4 ,am54 ,= ,god's sake avoid disputes ( all k9ds4 ,i 0 delight$ ! la/ "t y 0 ) me1 to obs]ve t y 0 greatly alt]$ = ! bett] 9 ?is respect4 ,?9k n t ,i w omit to pray = y1 & fail n to pray = me4 ,oh my fri5d1 soon w "t be swall[$ up 9 et]nity4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i ,,readily believe y1 my de> fri5d1 t y h n br\ght back ! same he>t y c>ri$ ) y3 = ,i ?\ght ,i discov]$ ! two la/ times ,i saw y1 a fall+ (f f ! grace y _h1 & ! happy /ate ( m9d y _h be5 92 b = ,god's sake /rive to recov] y\rself be=e y are sunk l[]4 ,?9k h[ dreadful y\r case w be1 if y %\ld s grieve ! ,_s ( ,god1 z to cause him to dep>t f y4 ,i "k y\r he>t to be ungrateful & deceitful1 & y y\rself "k full well h[ mu* x is s2 b fe> n to se>* into its mo/ hidd5 corruptions4 ,0 x t5 times m vile & pollut$ ?an x is1 ! blood ( ,jesus is all-suffici5t to cleanse x4 ,& my de> s\l1 let me intreat ( y e>ne/ly to seek aft] a cle> & con/ant s5se ( ! p>don+ love ( ,god4 ,?is only c enable y to trample all temptations "u y\r feet3 believe me1 unless y really walk 9 ! light ( 8 c\nt5ance1 y nev] c conqu] all ! p[]s & works ( d>kness4 ,oh seek ! peace :i* passes all und]/&+4 ,y h ne$ en\gh ( x1 ,i am sure1 consid]+ ! _m sn>es y walk 94 ,i really fe> y d n dilig5tly seek aft] ,god3 'tis v c]ta9 !y t seek %all f9d2 & !re=e t ! ,r$eem] is n fully manife/$ 9 y\r s\l is entirely ow+ to y\r slo? & neglig5ce4 ,h[ is x possible = y to keep y\r gr\nd aga9/ temptations :i* are cont9ually /rik+ ^u y\r s5ses1 unless y h 9 y ! sub/ance ( ?+s hop$ =1 ! evid5ce ( ?+s n se58 ,:5 our und]/&+s are cle> 9 gospel doctr9es1 we are too apt to imag9e our he>ts are s4 ,my de> fri5d1 = ,god's sake deceive n y\rself4 ,oh suff] n y\r s\l to re/1 till y c say ) full assurance ( fai?1 8,my s9s are =giv540 ,dep5d ^u x ?is is ! fir/ /ep 9 true ,*ri/ianity4 ,oh cry to ,god e mom5t f ! bottom ( y\r he>t1 & he w d m = y1 ?an y c ei!r ask or ?9k4 ,i am a witness ( 8 free & b\ndless m]cy4 ,= "s days pa/ ,i h be5 9 ! wild]ness1 my s\l we>y1 fa9t1 & desolate2 no rejoic+ 9 ,god2 n "o ray f ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness3 b ?is morn+1 ?is bless$ morn+1 my ,belov$ return$ to my s\l1 & ,i rejoic$ ) joy unspeakable1 & c\ld say ) ! fulle/ assurance1 8,my s9s are done away,*ri/ is m9e,god ! ,fa!r is my reconcil$ ,fa!r,god ! ,holy ,gho/ is my com=t] & guide40 99,oh my fri5d1 my he>t is n[ s ov]:elm$ ,i c sc>ce write4 ,i c\ld repeat a ?\s& & a ?\s& times ov],*ri/ is m9e4 ,my s\l is ready to spr+ out ( its prison1 & ,i c\ld at ?is mom5t face dea? 9 all its horrible prospects to g to my ,r$eem]4 ,oh dea?1 :]e is ?y /+8 ,o grave1 :]e is ?y victory8 ,my de> love1 y "k n :at y lose by y\r neglig5ce4 ,o seek1 /rive1 agonize2 c\ld y suff] ! utmo/ tortures 9 body or m9d1 !y w\ld be all z no?+ to ga9 "o mom5t ( ?is sweetness3 & ,oh pray = me1 t ,i may n by s9n+ grieve ! bless$ ,com=t]1 & lose my pres5t peace4 ,god be ) y my de> fri5d4 ,god bless y bo? n[ & = ev]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> fri5d1 ,i ,,m\rn = y1 & may y m\rn too f y\r v inmo/ s\l1 till ,god himself gives y ! true com=t4 ,oh ?\ de> backslid]1 :at %all ,i say8 ,h[ %all ,i f9d words /rong en\gh to make a la/+ impression on a he>t s incon/ant1 s slo?ful1 & c>eless8 ,oh t ! ,_s ( ,god w\ld assi/ my weak endeav\rs1 & po9t my o!rwise unavail+ words6 ,y own y d n /rive e>ne/ly3 alas ,i too pla9ly see y d n4 ,b ! bless$ ,com=t] /rives ) y1 & /ill y resi/ & grieve him4 ,h[ irksome is x to me always to write ! same ?+8 ,my de> s\l1 = ,god's sake be m 9 e>ne/4 ,h[ c y talk ( slo? & c>elessness1 :5 y are /&+ on ! br9k ( a precipice8 ,c y promise y\rself ano!r day8 ,& are y fit to die 9 ! /ate y are n[ 98 ,nay1 are y n afraid to die8 ,oh if ! ,"l %\ld say ( y1 z ( ! b>r5 fig-tree1 8,cut x d[n1 :y cumb]e? x ! gr\nd10 h[ w\ld y be ov]:elm$ ) dread & confusion8 ,= y :o "k s well :at are ! glori\s promises ( ! gospel1 to suff] y\r ?\ghts to run ^u worldly ?+s is inexcusable4 ,x seems /range1 t y %\ld ?9k y love ,*ri/ m ?an y did1 :5 y 0 9 a bett] /ate2 h[ev] above all ?+s hold fa/1 & /rive to increase ?is love1 b !n at ! same "t take c>e t y hate s9 9 ! same proportion1 & t y /rive aga9/ x ) ! utmo/ e>ne/ness3 = to talk ( lov+ ,*ri/1 & at ! same "t to give way to slo?1 c>elessness1 & worldly-m9d$ness1 is an abom9able mock]y4 ,if y are encompass$ ) t5 ?\s& temptations nev] fe>1 s y\r own he>t cons5t n to !m4 ,y\r bless$ ,ma/] w surely help y1 if y c b tru/ him3 & nev] give way1 to t seem+ impossibility ( pray+4 ,?\gh p]haps y _c pray ) com=t1 or ) any k9d ( connection1 yet if y be ev] s di/ract$ y may surely cry1 ,"l1 h m]cy ^u me,jesus1 pity me4 ,or ev5 suppos+ y c\ld n d ?is f y\r he>t1 ask y\rself :e!r y d n desire to pray2 & if y d1 ?ank ,god = t desire1 & ! next ?\ght w be pray]4 ,c\ld y n make ! increase ( y\r family pr(itable1 by jo9+ at /at$ times ( ! day 9 "s act ( devotion8 ,if x 7 b = "o qu>t] ( an h\r at a "t1 !re w\ld d\btless be a bless+ att5d+ x4 ,suppose y 7 to s+ an hymn toge!r1 or by turns pray1 ei!r f "s =m ( pray]1 or :at w\ld be bett]1 extempore4 ,y ought r to be sil5t1 & be ?\ght a mope1 ?an to jo9 9 trifl+ disc\rse4 ,consid]1 my love1 y are to set an example to y\r "y fri5ds2 & fe> n b ,god w deliv] y f ?is bondage into ! glori\s lib]ty ( 8 *ildr54 ,! feeble tru/ y n[ h is ! "w ( 8 bless$ ,_s1 & he w increase x into an holy confid5ce4 ,let n !re=e y\r com=t sick51 b tru/ 9 t ,jesus1 :o di$ t y might live2 to ^: all-m]ciful bosom ,i commit y1 ,& am y\r affectionate ,fri5d1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,hope y\r pres5t circum/ances d n prev5t y\r con/ant wat*+ ov] y\r own he>t1 & press+ =w>d 9 ! way ( hol9ess4 ,9 ! mid/ ( all ^! prospects dea? may come6 ,& are y fit to die8 ,we _c too (t5 ask ourselves ?is "q4 ,we _c be too s]i\s4 ,!re is only a mom5t betwe5 u & et]nity4 ,may ! ,"l ,jesus s prep>e u1 t at :atev] h\r he calls we may be ready1 our lamps trimm$1 & we ourselves z ^? :o wait = ! bridegroom4 ,adieu1 my de>4 ,may ! ,almighty pres]ve y f all evil4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,( :at s]vice1 my de> love1 c any ?+ ,i say be ( to y8 ,i h tri$ all means 9 my p[] to keep y\r m9d m /eady b 9 va94 ,if ,god has at any "t s bless$ my lett]s1 t !y h made any impression on y x has gone (f 9 two or ?ree days3 & :5 y h _h ^? great b5efits inde$ ( conv]s+ ) liv+ ,*ri/ians1 ?\gh = a "t y h be5 rais$ & lively1 yet y h soon sunk into y\r =m] slo? & c>elessness4 ,!re mu/ c]ta9ly be "s hidd5 corruption 9 y\r he>t1 :i* causes ?is incon/ancy4 ,i (t5 /udy y z ,i w\ld a book1 b y are 9 tru? "o ( ! mo/ puzzl+ books ,i ev] met )4 ,i (t5 rejoice to see 9 y 7z ,i ?9k7 an increase ( grace1 & a decrease ( t pride & selfi%ness1 :i* "u an appe>ance ( humility y once _h to a great degree4 ,! la/ "t y 0 ) me1 ,i ?\ght y greatly advanc$2 & n[ y are fall5 aga9 into pride & selfi%ness4 ,! ,"l ,jesus raise y up4 ,inde$1 my de> s\l1 y grieve & w\nd me4 ,y br+ sorr[ 9 my he>t1 & te>s 9 my eyes3 nay & sometimes y\r lett]s tempt me to impati5ce2 b !n ,i imm$iately recollect my own cont9ual backslid+s1 & ! long-suff]+ ( ,god t[>ds me1 & c ,i be impati5t ) my fri5d8 ,if y\r want ( retirem5t is n ow+ to y\rself1 nev] lay y\r coldness ^u t3 = 0 y\r he>t s9c]e1 ,god w\ld /r5g!n y at all times to look up to him4 ,b if z y say1 y trifl$ away y\r "t1 & indulg$ an unwill+ness to pray]1 no wond] ,god )-held t portion ( 8 grace he w\ld o!rwise h giv5 y4 ,dep5d ^u x1 :5ev] y f9d an unwill+ness to pray1 t ( all times is ! mo/ prop] = y to pray 92 !re=e nev] say on su* an occasion1 8,i w g read "s good book1 or d "s good "w1 :i* may p]haps br+ my m9d into a bett] frame = pray]40 ,no1 d n s fooli%ly2 b g1 & pro/rate y\rself be=e ,god ) all y\r unwill+ness2 & he w soon give y bo? ! w & ! p[] to praise him4 ,am54 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,,x is impossible = me to judge rightly1 till ,i "k m ( y\r affair1 & !n ,i d\bt n1 b ,god1 if we ask 9 s9c]ity1 w direct u bo? to agree 9 our s5tim5ts1 z to :at w be mo/ conducive to y\r et]nal welf>e4 ,h[ev] ?us mu* ,i c say1 be n unequally yok$ ) an unbeliev]4 ,to m>ry a man 9 hopes ( mak+ him a ,*ri/ian1 w be lead+ y\rself into temptation4 ,! advantages y speak ( may d\btless be great bless+s to y1 if y are v c]ta9 y c enjoy !m4 ,y ought to be v explicit ) ! p]son1 :oev] he is1 bo? ) reg>d to y\r s5tim5ts & 8 own he>t4 ,y _c imag9e ! cont9ual sn>es y w walk 91 if y are jo9$ to "o1 :o is n jo9$ to ,*ri/2 especially if y h any fondness = him4 ,z 9 a m>ri$ /ate !re are m allurem5ts to draw ! m9d f ,god ?an 9 a s+le "o1 s 7if ! companion be a ,*ri/ian7 !re are also advantages 9 x1 :i* p]haps may almo/ make ! balance ev54 ,b h[ dreadful w x be1 if he :o %\ld be y\r help1 prove to y an occasion ( fall+8 ,above all ?+s1 my de>1 try ! s9c]ity ( y\r own he>t4 ,exam9e well :e!r y c accept ?is (f] ) a s+le eye to ! glory ( ,god1 & ! good ( y\r own s\l2 & fe> n1 if y ask c\nsel ( ,god 9 fai? no?+ wav]+1 t he w give y fre$om ( m9d1 ei!r to accept or refuse z w be mo/ pr(itable = y4 ,i d n wond] t y\r s\l is at pres5t di/ract$ ) worldly ?\ghts4 ,an affair ( ?is k9d always occasions a ?\s& di/ractions1 especially :]e x is 9 susp5se4 ,i fe> y\r increase ( company does n at all add to y\r spiritual happ9ess4 ,! ,"l ,jesus bless y3 ,i pity y4 ,:at ne$ h we ( cont9ual assi/ance f above8 ,h[ d we walk z on burn+ coals8 ,o let u /rive = t /ate ( m9d1 9 :i* we c say1 no?+ gives me pa9 b :at is contr>y to ! w ( ,god1 & t5ds to draw my s\l f him2 & no?+ gives me pleasure1 b z x is agreeable to 8 w1 & t5ds to draw my s\l ne>] to him4 ,am54 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,s\l1 ,i ,,am glad to write to y once m "u ! "n ( 999999991 & ,i hope ,god w give me /r5g? to say all ,i wi% at ?is important juncture4 ,important x is inde$ to y2 & ! ne>] ! "t approa*es1 ! m ,i feel = y4 ,alas1 y are n[ plung+ into difficulties1 :i* y c h no notion ( until y exp]i5ce !m4 ,y w h ne$ ( m ?an d\ble wat*fulness4 ,oh cry e>ne/ly to ,god = grace & /r5g? to keep y\r s\l f s9k+ "u ! delusive argum5ts1 :i* y\r ?ree gr& enemies1 ! _w1 ! fle%1 & ! devil w be cont9ually attack+ y ) 9 y\r new /ate ( life4 ,y "k1 my love1 9 all our int]c\rse1 ,i h n fail$ to set be=e y ! disadvantages & di/ractions y mu/ necess>ily meet ) 9 a m>ri$ life4 ,?is ,i ?\ght x my duty to d1 ?\gh y\r int5tions 9 reg>d to m>riage 7 always f\nd$ ^u ,*ri/ian motives4 ,_h ,i f\nd y incl9$ to d$icate y\rself m p>ticul>ly to ,god 9 a s+le /ate1 ,i %\ld d\btless h enc\rag$ t incl9ation2 b z ?is 0 n ! case1 & ,i did n d>e absolutely to dissuade any "o f m>ry+1 ,i h !re=e only /rove to gu>d y aga9/ ! evils att5d+ t condition1 & pray ,god grant y may f9d !m ov]balanc$ by ! good4 ,! fir/ evil1 :i* p are apt to fall into :5 !y m>ry1 is an extreme selfi%ness3 ?is ,i h se5 mo/ flagrant in/ances (1 b !n ! p 7 n ,*ri/ians4 ,oh my fri5d1 rememb] y h tak5 ^u y ! sacr$ "n ( ,*ri/ian4 ,! next ?+ :i* our sex 9 p>ticul> is v subject to1 is a pretty indol5ce ( s\l1 & a k9d ( hugg+ !mselves z ?\gh !y 7 become p ( va/ consequ5ce2 & !n all !y say or d1 & e ?+ :i* belongs to !m1 is ( importance4 ,y w ?9k p]haps !re is no dang] ( y\r fall+ into any ?+ s l[ & silly z ?is2 b d n ?9k s1 = )\t extreme wat*fulness x w /eal imp]ceptibly ^u y1 & if y once gr[ important1 ! flood-gates ( worldly-m9d$ness w be set op51 & y\r fai?1 y\r love1 & peace1 w be borne away by ! impetu\s torr5t4 ,! ,"l ,jesus bless y & keep y1 & grant t 9 all ! *anges ( ?is mortal life1 y\r he>t may !re be fix$ :]e true joys are to be f\nd4 ,y\r ev]-affectionate 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,"k n h[ to assume to myself ! "* y m5tion1 & yet ,i d>e n neglect to d any ?+1 :i* y tell me may be ( b5efit to y\r s\l4 ,i "k ,god c convey bless+s by ! meane/ in/rum5t1 & rely+ :olly on 8 p[] & goodness1 ,i ent] aga9 into ?is correspond5ce4 ,y compla9 t ,i h n lately be5 s wat*ful ov] y z usual3 ,9 writ+ ,i c]ta9ly h n1 & y "k ! reason2 b z to speak+1 if ,i h !re fail$1 x is entirely ow+ to my be+ s apt to ?9k highly ( y4 ,i fe> 9 ?is ,i may h dealt ) y z ) my own he>tjudg$ too fav\rably ( bo?4 ,may ,god give me a cle>] insight bo? into y & into myself4 99,i d\bt n b y\r pres5t condition contributes greatly to y\r be+ m 9 e>ne/1 & y h ne$ to lay up all ! /r5g? y c aga9/ :at may be a "t ( trial inde$4 ,i am glad y f\nd su* a bless+ on ,sunday4 ,i d\bt n b ! great] degree ( light & joy y h1 ! m y w be assault$ by temptations1 & ^! p]haps n only ( a /range1 b also ( an imp]t95t & ridicul\s k9d4 ,! devil w sometimes play ! buffoon3 b ,i h f\nd ! be/ way ( deal+ ) ^! temptations 0 n to combat !m1 b to let !m pass ?r\gh ! m9d1 z y w\ld let a tr\blesome cr\d ( p pass by y\r door )\t reg>d+ !m4 99,! speak+ evil ( y\r neighb\r be=e y are aw>e1 ?\gh x has n all ! blackness ( prem$itat$ evil speak+1 yet x is a sure sign1 t y h n t _s ( love1 )\t :i* ! highe/ atta9m5ts are b z s\nd+ brass1 & z a t9kl+ cymbal4 ,i (t5 am sorry to see h[ mu* ?is div9e temp] is want+ among/ religi\s p4 ,= my own "p1 ,i /& self-condemn$ 9 ?is1 ?\gh x is a s91 :i* ,i h ev5 a natural av]sion to2 & ,i fe> !re are b few he>ts 9 :i* ?is root ( bitt]ness does n gr[ almo/ imp]ceptibly4 ,h[ev]1 ! ,capta9 ( our salvation c give u to tread ev5 ?is enemy "u our feet4 ,let u !re=e g on1 no?+ disc\rag$1 tru/+ 9 8 help1 & foll[+ 8 /eps1 until we appreh5d1 t = :i* we are appreh5d$ ( ?is div9e lead]4 ,y\r ev] affectionate & fai?ful1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 99,,mr4 ,v4 has desir$ me to meet ,dr4 99999999 at 8 h\se2 b ?\gh ,i hon\r ! "* ( t wor?y man1 yet ,i r fe>1 ?an desire to d ?is4 ,i really n[ dread ! be+ set up z some?+ to be ?\ght well (4 ,i see su* a dep? ( pride & self-love 9 my own he>t1 t ,i dread any ?+1 :i* c give ! lea/ food to ^! helli% temp]s4 ,i am well satisfi$1 t !re c be no p]fect peace1 no p]fect love1 till ^! be done away4 ,0 n ! bless$ ,jesus meek & l[ly ( he>t8 ,0 n he despis$ & reject$8 ,& we8 ,oh1 my de> love1 tremble = y\rself & = me4 ,we are e/eem$1 admir$1 & s\ght aft]4 ,d we n1 ?9k y1 tread ^u burn+ coals8 ,h[ dang]\s1 h[ difficult to act = ! glory ( ,god1 )\t sacrific+ some?+ to self8 ,& ?is self is all t sep>ates f ,god?is self is all t keeps ! bless+s bo? ( "t & et]nity f our s\ls4 ,oh let u le>n1 & "k & feel1 t we are no?+1 & t ,god is all 9 all4 ,c]ta9 x is t unless we die ) ,*ri/1 we _c rise to 8 life4 ,unless we are crucifi$ ) him "h1 we _c reign ) him h]eaft]4 ,let u !n nail our corrupt nature to 8 cross1 & cont9ually mortify e temp] t is contr>y to 8 p]fect w4 ,suff] we mu/2 b ! love ( ,god w make all suff]+s sweet1 & 8 grace w enable u to conqu] all difficulties4 ,i rejoice at ! victory1 :i* y tell me has be5 giv5 y ov] 7,i suppose7 "s reign+ s94 ,is n ?is enc\ragem5t to press =w>d8 ,if y w\ld pres]ve con/ant peace & recollection1 look m into y\r own he>t1 & lay n out y\rself too mu* ^u o!rs4 ,i h se5 s mu* ( ! ill effects ( ?is1 t ,i dread x bo? = y & myself4 ,wat* cont9ually4 ,y\r ev] affectionate1 c4 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,,y\r lett]1 my de> life1 has giv5 me great pleasure4 ,?is is inde$1 z x ought to be4 ,& ,oh by no means suff] ?is anxi\s desire aft] ,god1 ?is ?ir/ aft] hol9ess to abate2 only let x be mix$ ) t k9d ( resignation1 :i* implies a will+ness to suff]1 s y may be kept f s94 ,! pa9 y speak ( ,i rejoice 94 ,oh my love1 ?is is "r2 & may y m & m be con=m$ to ,jesus ,*ri/1 & him crucifi$4 ,a s\l ?us pa9$1 ?us long+1 ?us /ruggl+ = salvation1 & at ! same "t ly+ l[ at ! foot ( ! cross1 & cry+1 8,"l ?y w be done10 is an object 9 :i* ! holy angels rejoice1 nay on :i* ,god himself looks d[n well pleas$4 ,to su* a s\l e gospel bless+ is ne> at h&4 ,! ,sun ( ,righte\sness is on ! po9t ( ris+ 9 x ) heal+ 9 8 w+s2 ! et]nal ,com=t] is ready to witness ) x1 t x is born ( ,god1 & to fill x ) t peace1 :i* passe? all und]/&+4 ,! bless$ & adorable ,tr9ity is ready to raise x f its fall5 /ate1 & to p]fect ! new creation4 ,:at enc\rag+ prospects6 ,only let n ?is happy pa9 be tak5 f y by any com=t ! _w c give1 b hold x de> to y\r he>t1 z light to y\r eyes1 till ,god himself *ange x to joy unspeakable4 99,i h long ?\ght t to wi% = any ?+1 b ! salvation ( our own s\ls & t ( o!rs is wrong3 because 9 no?+ else c we be sure t our wi%es are agreeable to ! w ( ,god4 ,i d n "k h[ to believe1 t y c\ld wi% = m ri*es2 & if ! be+ pleas$ ) ! ?\ghts ( ga9 proce$$ only f ?is motive1 t y ?\ght ,god 0 putt+ x m 9 y\r p[] to relieve ! necessities ( o!rs1 ,i w\ld n d>e to condemn y3 b x is s difficult to take any satisfaction ( ?is k9d )\t "s mixture ( worldly-m9d$ness1 t we _c be too c>eful 9 ?is respect2 nay we ought r to fe> le/ we %\ld n be f\nd fai?ful /ew>ds ( ! tal5ts put into our h&s1 z kn[+1 t bo? 9 spiritual & temporal bless+s1 8,to :om mu* is giv51 ( !m %all mu* be requir$40 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,,if x %\ld please ,god to make any ?+ ,i write ( b5efit to y\r s\l1 ,i %\ld greatly rejoice1 b )\t t my words w avail no?+4 ,& really ! acc\nt y give ( y\rself at pres5t is s /range1 t ,i "k n h[ to speak to y1 or :e!r h>%ness or love is mo/ necess>y4 ,?is ,i "k1 t my own s\l is greatly pa9$ = y1 b ,i d>e n flatt] y1 8,if any man ha? n ! ,_s ( ,*ri/1 he is none ( 820 & d\btless to take a pleasure 9 expos+ ! faults ( o!rs is a temp] z di/ant f ! ,_s ( ,*ri/1 z hell is f heav54 99,believe me1 my de> life1 if ! love ( ,god reign$ 9 y\r he>t1 y w\ld r cov] ?an expose ! faults ev5 ( ! vile/ ( m54 ,& :5 oblig$ = _! own good1 or ! w>n+ ( o!rs1 to speak to ! disadvantage ( any "o1 y w\ld d x ) fe> & caution1 at ! same "t look+ up to ,god1 le/ any bitt]ness %\ld mix1 ei!r ) y\r ?\ghts or words4 ,god is love1 & inf9ite /reams ( love are p]petually fl[+ f him ?r\gh all creat$ nature4 ,8 acts ( judgm5t z well z m]cy are only acts ( love1 & design$ ei!r to remove or to less5 ! evils occasion$ by ! fall ( angels & ( man2 & ! s\l :i* is born ( ,god w z necess>ily p>take ( ?is div9e pr9ciple ( univ]sal love1 z ! *ild y n[ c>ry )9 y p>takes ( y\r corrupt nature4 ,y h great reason !n to tremble1 :ile ?is temp] has any foot+ 9 y\r s\l4 ,don't sit d[n cont5t$1 because y h int]vals ( recollection1 b wre/le mightily ) ,god 9 f]v5t pray]1 until he speak peace to y\r s\l1 & 8 love be %$ abroad 9 y\r he>t1 be=e :i* ?is evil disposition w fly z a mi/ be=e ! morn+ sun4 ,y greatly affect me by :at y say 9 reg>d to ! expect$ h\r ( dang]2 b fe> n4 ,no creature on e>? c be m unwor?y ?an ,i am2 & ! ,god ( m]cy protect$ me1 & gave me /r5g?1 & c\rage1 & calmness2 & ,i d\bt n b he w %ew ! same m]cy to y3 nay ,i h a /rong confid5ce he w 9 y\r h\r ( extremity give y a cle>] s5se ( 8 p>don+ love1 ?an y h yet exp]i5c$4 ,fe> n1 only believe1 8,all ?+s are possible to him t believe?40 ,x has pleas$ ,god )9 ^! few days to give me a sev]e trial1 & et]nal glory be to 8 "n1 ,i h /ood x1 cry+ only1 ,"l1 ?y w be done4 ,my little boy 0 tak5 on ,saturday ev5+ ) /rong convulsions1 & betwe5 t "t & ,sunday ev5+1 _h ,i believe1 full =ty fits4 ,he is n[ mu* bett]4 ,god is ev] m]ciful3 he br+s to ! bord]s ( ! grave1 & raises up aga94 ,o h[ good x is to suff]8 ,h[ glori\s to h grace triumph ov] nature8 ,h[ sweet to lay l[ at ! foot ( ! cross1 & bless ,god = e ?+ :i* m con=ms u to ! suff]+ ,jesus8 ,be wat*ful1 & e>ne/4 ,adieu4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 99,,:]e ! consid]ation ( ! prophecies is a means ( /irr+ any "o up to great] dilig5ce1 or mak+ !m sit loos] to ! ?+s ( ?is _w1 & seek m e>ne/ly aft] ! ?+s ( ,god1 !y _c consid] !m too att5tively4 ,e s\l %\ld c>efully obs]ve t way1 9 :i* ,god p>ticul>ly leads x1 & punctually foll[ e means :i* x f9ds by exp]i5ce br+s x ne>] to ,god4 ,"s are awak5$ & br\ght l[ by m$itat+ on ! sev]e judgm5ts ( ,god2 o!rs are melt$ d[n by reflect+ on 8 m]cies4 ,"s are employ$ usefully to !mselves1 & x may be to o!rs1 by accurately consid]+ ! sev]al amaz+ disp5sations ( ,god 9 ! :ole s*eme ( our r$emption4 ,o!rs by a m simple & g5]al view ( ,god1 z inf9ite wisdom & inf9ite love1 re/ calmly on 8 w1 & ?\gh 9 a l[] & less %9+ way1 pursue ! same end1 viz4 salvation by ! blood ( ! ,lamb f ! p[] z well z f ! guilt ( s91 & union ) ! pure f\nta9 ( all happ9ess4 ,all ^! ways are good 9 !mselves1 & are made s to e s\l1 :i* 9 !m foll[s ! lead+s ( ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,b ,i may make t1 :i* is good 9 itself1 evil to me1 by us+ x only because ano!r ?9ks x "r1 & n because ,i f9d x ! means :i* mo/ unites my s\l to ,*ri/2 & !re=e we ought nev] to blame any "o = n be+ affect$ by t :i* affects u4 ',tis v c]ta9 t ! judgm5ts ( ,god are n[ abroad 9 ! e>?1 & t "s ( ! signs ( ! la/ times pla9ly appe>2 ?is 7:e!r ! calculation 9 ! lett] be "r or wrong7 is obvi\s to e "o1 & calls al\d = s]i\sness & wat*fulness4 ,happy are ^? :o %all /& unmov$ 9 ! "t ( temptation4 ,happy are ^? :o :5 all nature is agoniz+ ar\nd !m c fly to ! only rock ( refuge1 & !re f9d %elt] f ! /orm1 & %ad[ f ! heat4 ,b above all happy are ^?1 :o %all h ! glory ( suff]+ = _! ,r$eem]1 ( seal+ _! te/imony ) _! blood1 or 9 ! mid/ ( ! fire %\t+ = joy1 & bless+ ,god = a m>tyr's cr[n4 ,^!1 ^! are glori\s prospects1 & weak z we are1 %\ld ,god hon\r u ) a trial l ?is1 he w\ld also give u /r5g? to be m ?an conqu]ors4 ,9 ! mean "t let u n be we>y or fa9t 9 our m9ds1 b manfully fight till we obta9 complete victory ov] our evil he>ts2 & !n %all we /& ) humble confid5ce ev5 be=e our judge1 & ?\gh all nature 0 dissolv$1 we %\ld rema9 un%ak51 & be :olly swall[$ up 9 joy full ( glory4 ,am51 ,"l ,jesus4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> ,fri5d1 99,i ,,?ank y = y\r la/ lett]1 & ,i bless ,god1 t y 0 n (f5d$ at m9e4 ,?is be>+ ( pla9-deal+ is a com=table pro( to me ( y\r s9c]ity4 ,if temptations increase1 ,god w give a proportionable increase ( /r5g?4 ,!re wants no?+ b fai?fulness on y\r "p to ! grace already giv54 ,i "k n ! p>ticul>s ( y\r suff]+s1 b ,i "k x is good to suff]4 ,x is a discipl9e all mu/ g ?r\gh1 :o make any tol]able advance 9 ! s*ool ( ,*ri/4 ,i c\ld wi% y to seek m aft] religion1 ?an com=t4 ,con/ant & he>t-felt resignation is a bulw>k aga9/ e trial1 & a f\ndation = solid peace1 & joy transc5d5tly pure4 ,! :ole /ate ( a s\l made p]fect 9 love /&s 9 t "o petition1 ,?y w be done3 & if we c\ld b pres]ve t temp] :i* ^! words describe1 ,i "k n :at c\ld hurt u4 ,suppose n[ :5 ,i fir/ wake 9 a morn+ ,i %\ld lift up my he>t1 8,"l ,i bless !e = ?is new day :i* ?\ ha/ giv5 me4 ,9 ?is day ,i %all h fre% manife/ations ( ?y w conc]n+ me1 ei!r 9 com=ts or 9 suff]+s4 ,"l1 ,i am ?y creature1 deal ) me z x %all please !e3 only leave me n to myself1 b let ?y grace be suffici5t = me1 & ?y /r5g? be made p]fect 9 my weakness40 ,:5 settl$ 9 ?is frame ( m9d1 suppose my trials to beg94 ,i am tempt$ by ! p]v]s5ess & evil temp]s ( my own family to impati5ce1 to ang]2 b ,i imm$iately recollect myself1 8,"l x is ?y w ,i %\ld be> ?is2 p>don _! p]v]s5ess1 & give me to be ?ankful = e opportunity ( self-d5ial & =be>ance40 ,well6 n[ ano!r1 & m difficult trial appe>s4 ,i am to behave to p1 :om ,i "k to be my bitt] enemies1 :om ,i "k to be cont9ually seek+ occasions ( evil aga9/ me1 z if !y 7 my de> fri5ds4 ,"h e faculty ( ! s\l is al>m$1 & nature %r9ks back affright$4 ,b :at does grace say8 8,"l ,i ?ank !e = ?is glori\s trial6 ,:at a bless+ is x ,i %\ld be p]mitt$ to dr9k ( ! same cup my ,savi\r drank (6 ,oh bless ^! m9e enemies2 fill _! he>ts ) ?y love2 let ?y w be p]fect$ bo? 9 !m & me40 ,?is temptation is conqu]$1 b ano!r & a m try+ "o imm$iately succe$s4 ,i am treat$ unk9dly by p ,i love1 & :o are really my fri5ds4 ,"h my he>t is w\nd$1 x s9ks1 x is ready to fa9t2 b recov]+ itself x re/s ^u ,god1 & says1 8,"l1 ev5 9 ?is1 ?y w be done1 & let ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/ be p]fect$ 9 me1 t ,i may be also a p>tak] ( 8 glory40 ,9 ?is mann] "o might in/ance 9 all k9ds ( affliction1 & f9d com=t & /r5g? 9 ea*4 ,i "k n h[ to ?9k s meanly ( y1 z to imag9e y\r he>t 9 dang] ( be+ drawn away by ! _w4 ,b ,i "k ,i am always apt to set y 9 too high a light1 & x may be s1 9 ?is case2 ?is "o ?+ h[ev] ,i am sure (1 t we are fight+ = et]nity1 & ?is aga9/ innum]able enemies1 dang]\s ones )\t1 b f> m dang]\s ones )94 ,if ! ,"l himself 0 n on our side1 h[ c\ld we ma9ta9 our gr\nd "o mom5t4 ,to 8 almighty protection ,i comm5d y & y\rs1 & am ,y\r ev]-affectionate1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 999999994 ,de> ,sir1 ,i ,,am mu* oblig$ to y = y\r k9d conc]n on my acc\nt4 ,my illness ,i believe is r tr\blesome ?an dang]\s1 a disord] 9 my /oma*1 :i* has be5 att5d$ ) a slight fev]4 ,i 0 ill1 :5 y & ,mr4 99999999 7 to see me ?\gh ,i did n compla91 & ,i look$ ^u x z a p>ticul> bless+3 = _h my spirits be5 9 _! full fl[1 an ev5t s mu* wi%$1 w\ld h too mu* elat$ me3 b my disord] s]v$ to keep ! balance ( my m9d ev54 ,i see ! goodness ( ,god to me 9 e ?+1 & !re=e sickness or heal?1 life or dea? are equally welcome to me1 z com+ f ! same graci\s h&4 ,nature1 its true1 %r9ks at suff]+1 b grace triumphs 9 resignation1 & is ?ankful = ! disp5sation ( ! pres5t mom5t1 )\t wi%+ or will+ 9 reg>d to ! future4 ,b ,i hope to le>n "s lessons ( ?is k9d f y next ,sunday4 ,till !n f>ewell1 & may ! fulness ( e gospel bless+ re/ ^u y\r s\l4 ,y\r's1 c4 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,de> ,sir1 ,,! judgm5ts ( ,god ^u ,lisbon are dreadful inde$4 ,i "k n :at he>t c be h>d en\gh to he> ( !m )\t conc]n4 ,:at b ! amaz+ m]cy ( a long-suff]+ ,god c prev5t ,london f feel+ ! same dreadful bl[6 ,& if ,god %\ld arise to %ake t]ribly our l&1 :at great reason w ^? p]sons h to be ?ankful1 :om ,god has drawn f all worldly s*emes ( happ9ess1 & fix$ _! he>ts on a basis1 :i* c nev] be %ak51 ?\gh ! e>? be mov$1 & ! m\nta9s ca/ into ! mid/ ( ! sea8 ,i h be5 mu* com=t$ 9 respect ( ! mis]ies ( o!rs by ?is scripture,:5 ! judgm5ts ( ,god are abroad 9 ! e>?1 ! inhabitants !re( w le>n righte\sness4 ,if su* a bless$ end is produc$ by ^! sev]e acts ( ju/ice1 h we n reason ev5 9 ! mid/ ( t]ror to admire & adore8 ,! :ole univ]se appe>s to me to be 9 ! h& ( ,god1 z a gra9 ( du/ 9 ! balance2 & ,i1 a creature m insignificant1 m wor?less1 & s9ful ?an c be conceiv$1 am among ! re/ 9 ?is almighty h&1 & all is safe4 ,my he>t is by nature pa9fully t5d]1 & yet 9 ! mid/ ( feel+1 ei!r = myself or o!rs1 !re is a secret satisfaction 9 my inmo/ s\l1 t ,god is glorifi$ 9 e act ( 8 provid5ce1 :e!r ( judgm5t or m]cy2 & ,i h>dly "k h[ to =m any o!r pray] ?an ,?y w be done4 ,i fe> ,i %all n see y on ,?ursday2b :]ev] y are1 may ! ,god ( all consolation be y\r light & y\r %ield1 & br+ y safe to t city1 :i* has et]nal f\ndations4 ,i am y\r ev]-oblig$ fri5d & s]vant1 c4 99 99 99 99 99 99,,by :at y said to ,mr4 99999999 :5 he _h ! pleasure ( he>+ y1 ,i imag9e y ?9k my illness is ow+ to a cause ( :i* ,i am by no means c]ta92 h[ev] ! b>e probability ( su* a *>ge w\ld n be )\t my imm$iately reflect+ on ! dang]s & temptations t w\ld att5d x4 ,a s\l1 t is really desir\s ( atta9+ ! pure love ( ,god1 is exce$+ly jeal\s ( any ?+ t has a possibility ( draw+ x f its c5tre ( happ9ess1 & looks ^u any ev5t :i* has ?is possible t5d5cy 7let ! _w t]m x bless+ or mis=tune7 ) a t5d]1 anxi\s fe>1 :i* none c und]/& b ^? :o h felt x4 ,?is 0 my case1 & my imag9ation w\ld sometimes pa9t a ?\s& in/ances :i* might draw my s\l d[n to e>?4 ,& ?is fe> 7?\gh x nev] made me wi% any ?+ b :at 0 ! w ( ,god7 w\ld br+ ! te>s to my eyes1 & cause an uneas9ess1 :i* d\btless proce$$ f want ( fai?4 ,b t ,god ^: m]cies are r5ew$ e morn+1 soon deliv]$ me f ^? fe>s1 & calm peace1 p]fect resignation & wat*fulness succe$$4 ,& = ?is =tnight pa/1 ?\gh ,i h be5 9 cont9ual unc]ta9ty1 :e!r ,i %\ld cont9ue 9 ! condition ,i am ?\ght to be 9 or n1 my m9d by ! all-suffici5t grace ( ,god has be5 s equally kept1 t ,i h n _h ! lea/ wi% or *oice ( my own1 b h be5 equally pleas$ ) :atev] seem$ to be ! lead+s ( ,provid5ce conc]n+ me4 ,& y _c ?9k1 :at a "w ( annihilation ?is unc]ta9ty has be5 ! means ( c>ry+ on 9 my s\l1 :i* ,i see pla9ly 9 ! nature ( ?+s c\ld n s well h be5 effect$ by any o!r4 ,i nev] c be en\gh ?ankful = ! unspeakable m]cies ( ,god to s unwor?y a creature4 ,my w has be5 br\ght into deadness1 :i* ,i1 ev5 a few mon?s ago1 %\ld h ?\ght almo/ impossible2 & ,i see1 & h "s =eta/es ( t /ate :i* is call$ ! pure & dis9t]e/$ love ( ,god1 9 a mann] ,i _c express4 ,i %\ld be v glad to see y :5 y\r affairs w p]mit1 = ,i h n _h "o help f )\t s9ce ,i saw y la/2 nor h ,i _h _m ( ^? joys & com=ts f )9 :i* h sometimes be5 indulg$ me4 ,& inde$ my animal frame w\ld h be5 too weak to h borne !m1 unless ,god _h 9 a p>ticul> mann] support$ x3 = e faculty ( my s\l has be5 weigh$ d[n by cont9ual sickness4 ,i h n only be5 incapable ( any outw>d application1 b also ( int5se ?9k+ or f]v5t pray]4 ,b 9 ! mid/ ( ?is my weakness1 ! /r5g? ( ,god has m abundantly be5 made manife/1 t ,i might be abas$ ev5 to ! du/1 & 8 free grace exalt$2 s t ,i well und]/& :at ,/4 ,paul meant1 :5 he said1 ,!re=e w ,i glory 9 weakness1 9 di/resses1 t ! p[] ( ,*ri/ may re/ ^u me4,b ,i mu/ f9i% ?is already too long lett]4 ,f>ewell6 ,may ! dew ( heav5 cont9ually refre% y6 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,janu>y #ai1 #agef4 ,de> ,sir1 ,i ,,am mu* oblig$ to y = y\r lett]1 f :i* ,i h le>nt a v useful lesson1 viz4 ,nev] to fancy t ! p>ticul> circum/ances ( o!rs w\ld be m advantage\s to me ?an my own4 ,y are ready almo/ to envy me my _m h\rs ( retirem5t2 :5 at ! same "t1 ,i am cont9ually compla9+ t ,i h s few1 & (t5 cry+ out1 :5 %all ,i h a :ole day to myself8 ,& !n ,i frequ5tly ?9k1 7 ,i a man & 9 ! m9i/ry1 my "t w\ld !n be all sp5t = ,god2 b n[1 :at an inundation ( trifl+ fl[s 9 ^u me1 :i* 'tis impossible = me to avoid1 )\t altoge!r go+ out ( ! _w4 ,i ent] ^u ! subject1 on :i* y bid me write ) fe> & trembl+4 ,my abilities are really f> f be+ equal to x3 = al?\gh ,i "k _m ,*ri/ians1 :o w\ld imm$iately cry out1 t x ne$$ n "o mom5t's consid]ation1 ,i d>e n d s2 = ,i n[ really feel ! weight ( x ^u my s\l4 99',tis a mo/ al>m+ tru?1 t a m9i/] may speak ) ! tongue ( m5 & ( angels1 & t ! p[] ( ,god may s accompany 8 words z to make !m ! means ( conv]t+ ?\s&s2 & yet = want ( duly se>*+ into 8 own he>t1 he may suff] x to be ov]gr[n ) poison\s we$s1 ) temp]s & incl9ations1 :i* if unsubdu$1 w absolutely %ut him out f ! k+dom ( glory1 to :i* he is lead+ o!rs4 ,h[ easy = a man :o is cont9ually sett+ =? ! glori\s tru?s ( ! gospel1 & in=c+ hol9ess ( he>t & life1 to imag9e 7= want ( con/ant self-exam9ation7 t he himself is :at he prea*es8 ,?is is a mo/ dang]\s sn>e2 & !re=e h[ absolutely necess>y is t retirem5t :i* af=ds opportunity = a dilig5t se>* into ! recesses ( ! he>t1 & gives ! s\l leisure to wait 9 awful sil5ce be=e ,god1 :]e1 free f e object ( s5se1 & f ! work+s ( imag9ation1 x may ) all its faculties pro/rate be=e ! et]nal ,tr9ity1 & feel itself to be no?+1 & ,god to be all 9 all8 ,b !n x may be ask$1 %all n a man :o ) s+l5ess ( he>t1 sp5ds & is sp5t = ! s]vice ( ,god1 be s kept by div9e grace1 t 8 s\l %all suff] no loss by ! want ( retirem5t8 ,d\btless4 ,:]e s9c]ity & s+l5ess ( he>t are pres]v$1 t s\l %all be def5d$ z ) a %ield4 ,b ?is ,i take to be ! gr& temptation ( e m9i/] ( ! gospel2 he sets out p]haps 7?\gh ?is is n always ! case7 ) a s+le view to ! glory ( ,god & ! salvation ( s\ls4 ,! p[] ( ,god accompanies 8 words1 ! he>ts ( ! p fall "u him4 ,8 reputation daily increases1 till at la/ he becomes popul>4 ,he sees himself surr\nd$ by a cr\d ( p1 :o = ! mo/ "p he> him z an angel ( ,god1 _! ?ir/y s\ls gasp+ aft] ! tru?s he utt]s4 ,an innoc5t & an holy joy fills 8 he>t2 8,"h are s\ls t may be won to ,*ri/1 & t by me6 ,"l1 :at amaz+ love1 t ,i :o am ! lea/ ( all ?y s]vants %\ld be ?us ble/60,s f> all is well1 all is happy3 b ! subtil enemy ( mank9d s /rongly impresses ?is1 by me1 t a self-complac5cy1 sep>ate f ! glory ( ,god1 arises 9 8 he>t1 & ?is1 if n imm$iately quell$1 leads him to ! br9k ( a precipice4 ,god /ill1 = ! sake ( o!rs1 cont9ues 8 usefulness2 b e conv]sion :i* he is ! means ( mak+1 is fre% food = 8 self-love2 & by degrees he becomes s dead to ! love ( ,god1 t he prea*es ev5 ! pure/ doctr9es ( ! gospel1 ) ! same _s1 ) :i* a lawy] pleads at ! b>4 ,b on ! contr>y1 t bless$ s]vant ( ,*ri/ :o /$fa/ly pursues ! n>r[ pa?1 :o conqu]s e ris+ ( self-love 9 its fir/ appe>ance1 & con/antly ref]s all ! good he does or speaks to ! au?or & giv] ( all good1 he %all be kept 9 all 8 ways1 & ble/ 9 all 8 works4 ,& ?\gh 8 s\l may pant = retirem5t1 z ?9k+ he %\ld !re enjoy ne>] communion ) ,god1 & make high] advances 9 ! div9e life1 ?is may n p]haps be imm$iately p]mitt$ him3 b 9 ord] t 8 future cr[n may be ! bright]1 ,god may make 8 pres5t usefulness a sure sign to him1 t he ought to cont9ue 8 con/ant lab\rs = o!rs1 ?\gh x %\ld be ) mu* temptation1 fe>1 & trembl+4 ,h[ev] ?is is v c]ta91 t ,god to a s]vant ?us s9c]e1 w po9t out a pla9 pa?1 ei!r by inw>d lead+s :i* _c be mi/ak51 or outw>d provid5ces4,adieu6 ,p>don ! weakness ( ?is2 let me see y ! fir/ "t y h to sp>e1 & believe me ,y\r ev] oblig$ & affectionate s]vant1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,de> ,sir1 ,,:atev] ! ,_s ( ,god makes useful to my he>t1 ei!r f scripture or f spiritual au?ors1 ,i ?ankfully receive1 & give him ! glory3 b ,i well "k !re is b "o great t\*-/one1 by :i* all doctr9es are to be tri$2 & !re=e ,i hope y\r k9d fe>s = me1 le/ ,i %\ld n en\gh e/eem ! writt5 ^w ( ,god1 are ne$less4 ,i am s f> f sett+ any human writ] on a foot+ ) ?is1 t ,i sc>cely read !m at all1 i4 e4 9 comp>ison ( my bible4 ,i look ov] "s few1 b ?is is v diff]5t f ! mann] ( read+ y recomm5d1 & :i* ,i /rive by ! grace ( ,god to practise2 nay1 x w\ld be ! greate/ slav]y to me y c conceive1 if ,i 7 oblig$ to read _m religi\s books3 h[ev] ,i return y ! s9c]e/ ?anks = y\r c>e1 & beg y w 9 all ?+s wat* ov] me ) a 8godly jeal\sy40,b my de> fri5d1 c\ld y imag9e t ,i enquir$ aft] ! /ate ( y\r m9d accord+ to ! common acceptation ( ! ^w8 ,i only desir$ to "k :at spiritual bless+s y _h bo? f )\t & )91 t ,i might %>e !m ) y4 ,& ?is ,i 0 embold5$ to d by ! sweet acc\nt y _h giv5 9 y\r =m] lett]1 ( ! bless+s y enjoy$ at ,bri/ol4 ,! ,"l refre% y\r s\l cont9ually ) ! ri* /reams ( 8 r$eem+ love1 & may 8 ev]la/+ arms be b5ea? y6 ,i "k y\r pres5t /ate1 ( hang+ z x 7 9 susp5ce betwe5 ! visible & invisible _w1 is a disp5sation big ) div9e love4 ,& 0 ,i to pray = y t pray] :i* my s\l mo/ loves1 x w\ld be1 8t y %\ld lie 9 ! h& ( ,god z an in/rum5t1 )\t *oice1 till ! w ( ,god 0 p]fect$ 9 y40 ,?is w\ld be ! pray] ( pure love & enlight5$ fai?2 b if ,i desc5d$ to ! t5d]ness ( fri5d%ip1 ,i %\ld ask y\r spe$y recov]y4 ,if x %\ld be giv5 me to see y aga9 9 ?is _w ( vanity & woe1 ,i %all be ?ankful1 & p]haps x may be s3 b ,i "k nsome?+ seems to :isp] me t ! ?read bo? ( y\r life & m9e is ne>ly spun4 ,= my "p1 ,i h )9 ^! few days _h a sweet call to et]nity1 by a sudd5 & viol5t disord] 9 my /oma* & b[els 7call$ accord+ to ! fa%ionable phrase a n]v\s *olick7 :i* seems to h set me a good way =w>ds on my j\rney4 ,happy pa96 ,k9d mess5g]6 ,o my fri5d1 ,i h no?+ b m]cies to tell y (4 ,s support$6 ,su* wond]\s grace6 ,su* b\ndless love6 ,i all s9 & mis]y3 ! ,savi\r all t5d]ness & m]cy3 ! probable approa* ( dea? delightful3 no /+ rema9+4 ,no clog ^u my *>iot-:eels4 ,m]cies too f )\t :i* ,i _h nev] be=e exp]i5c$ 9 a "t ( sickness4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 99999999 pray+ & s++ by my b$1 ) su* p[] ( fai? & love1 su* unction f above6 ,does ?is hurry ! spirits8 ,does ?is endang]8 ,h[ f> f x8 ,i prote/ n only my s\l rejoic$1 b ev5 my body grew bett] z he pray$4 ,d n fail to ?ank ,god on my behalf1 & pray = me t ,i may n be ungrateful to su* amaz+ m]cy4 ,may ! ,"l ,jesus pres]ve y1 sweet5 e pa91 & make y rejoice cont9ually ) joy unspeakable & full ( glory4 ,y\r ev]-affectionate & oblig$ fri5d1 99999999 ,june #g1 #agef4 99 99 99 99 99 ,june #ae1 #agef4 ,de> ,sir1 ,,y\r v k9d lett] has pa9$ me extremely1 b ,i hope x has be5 made a means ( humbl+ my s\l be=e ,god4 ,h[ little d ,i des]ve t y %\ld write to me 9 ?is mann]8 ,alas y d n "k me2 ,i am less ?an ! lea/ ( all ! m]cies ( ,god2 d n1 ,i besee* y1 ?9k s highly ( me2 x really makes me a%am$ ( myself4 ,oh t ,i c\ld be l[] ?an ! du/6 ,oh t ,i c\ld %r9k into no?+ at ! pres5ce ( my ,god6 ,! way too 9 :i* y speak ( y\rself1 puts me 9 a /range dilemma1 ,i d>e n pay religi\s complim5ts1 & yet h[ %all ,i write to y1 z if ,i believ$ y8 ,h[ mu* great] has y\r cross ( sickness be5 ?an m9e8 ,s long1 s l+]+1 su* inconv5i5ces z x lays y "u4 ,b yet ?is is c]ta9ly no excuse = a s\l1 taught ( ,god1 z y\r's is1 to wi% its removal4 99,did y inde$ wi% = any ?+ b sanctification8 ,surely1 my de> fri5d1 y wrong y\rself2 x _c be4 ,oh rememb] ! glori\s pa? y h (t5 po9t$ out to me1 ( p]fect resignation6 ,i h consid]$ y z a patt]n to me1 p>ticul>ly 9 ?is4 ,i mu/ n ?9k t y h any 8reluctance to be> ! cross20 x w\ld w\nd my he>t too mu*4 ,d ,i n "k1 t y love ,god above all ?+s8 ,d n ,i "k ! s9c]e desires ( y\r s\l aft] hol9ess8 ,& is !re any way 9 ! spiritual life1 :i* s imm$iately leads to hol9ess1 z will+ suff]+8 ,happy are ^? to :om ,god gives ! grace ( do+ mu* = him1 = 8 cause1 = 8 p2 b t5 times m bless$ are !y :o suff] ) ,*ri/4 ,is !re a joy absolutely pure8 ,x is t ( suff]+4 ,oh did we b "k ! heal?1 ! peace1 ! life t is at ! bottom ( e bitt] cup2 ) :at alacrity %\ld we dr9k x8 ,) :at ?ankfulness1 nay1 ) te>s ( joy1 %\ld we cry1 ,"l1 :at unb\nd$ m]cy1 :at a/oni%+ grace is ?is1 to a worm l me2 t ,i %\ld be l$ 9 ?is mo/ excell5t way2 t ,i %\ld be made to tread 9 ^? foot/eps :i* are mo/ em95tly ?9e8 ,de>e/ ,savi\r1 sweet is ?y cross1 sweet is ?y ?orny cr[n2 ?y /ripes1 ?y w\nds1 ?y pa91 m delightful ?an b$s ( roses4 ,let o!r s\ls glory 9 m\nt ,tabor2 my joy %all be to /ay ) !e on m\nt ,calv>y1 t ,i may be made con=mable to ?y dea?4 ,su* w\ld be ! language ( a s\l truly s5sible ( ! great b5efit ( suff]+1 & embrac+1 ) sweet complac5cy1 ! cross1 :i* ?us unit$ x ) its ,r$eem]4 ,may ?is be ! language ( y\r s\l & m9e2 !n %all we be f\nd un%ak5 9 ! fi]y trial1 & come out z gold purifi$ sev5 times4 ,b aft] all1 :at suff]+ h ,i _h 9 ?is illness8 ,x c sc>ce be call$ suff]+1 :5 ,god s5sibly supports4 ,! suff]+ is :5 he leaves ! s\l 7z x 7 alone7 9 pa9 or 9 affliction1 to /ruggle ) ! p[]s ( d>kness1 :i* at su* a "t eag]ly beset x4 ,?is ,i h sometimes kn[n1 & ?is is suff]+ inde$4,i h ! same confid5ce 9 ,god = my de> ,mr4 999999991 t y h4 ,0 ,i to be remov$1 ,i d\bt n b x w\ld be made a means ( good to 8 s\l2 b x seems at pres5t to be ! w ( ,god t ,i %\ld cont9ue "s "t long]4 ,my inw>d weakness is n s great1 & my pa91 ?\gh pretty con/ant1 is s slight1 t x is sc>ce wor? ! m5tion+4 ,i ?ank ,god t y\r heal? is return+1 & tru/ we %all meet aga9 on ?is side ! riv]2 b 9 ! mean "t pray e>ne/ly = me4 ,i fe> ease m ?an pa94 ,f>ewell6 ,may y & ,i con/antly jo9 9 ?is pray]1 8,?y w be done 9 u1 & by u1 9 "t & 9 et]nity60 ,y\r ev]-oblig$ & affectionate fri5d1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,july #a1 #agef4 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,receiv$ y\r lett] ) mu* ?ankfulness1 = ,i began to be v uneasy at n he>+ f y 9 s long a "t4 ,& y h = ^! two days la9 ) su* a weight on my _s1 t ,i "k n h[ to acc\nt = x4 ,i well "k ! mann] 9 :i* ! praise y be/[$ 0 meant4 ,b y "k n h[ ,i dread self-complac5cy4 ,& !re=e ?\gh ,i (t5 f9d t praise humbles me1 yet x gives me a pa9 ,i "k n h[ to express4 ,i h inde$ (t5 he>d y speak ^? words y m5tion1 b !y nev] affect$ me till n[4 ,& did y speak !m 89 ! bitt]ness ( y\r s\l80,call me no m y\r fri5d6 ,i am n wor?y ! "n4 ,h[ (t5 h ,i he>d !m ) unconc]n1 look+ on !m only z words ( c\rse1 a k9d ( common-place humility4 ,w y =give me8 ,i promise y = ! future ,i w pay m att5tion to e ?+ y say4 ,i w n1 by ! grace ( ,god1 be s indol5t & s fai?less 9 ! ?+s :i* conc]n y z ,i h be54 ,i "k ,i am apt to ?9k too highly ( ^? ,i love1 & ,i hate to be di/urb$ 9 ! ?\ght4 ,y _c imag9e h[ +5i\s ,i am 9 ca/+ ^! burd5s f me3 a lat5t fe> ( displeas+1 & a false humility1 furni% me ) argum5ts4 8,:y w\ld ,i pret5d to speak s & s1 to p s mu* m advanc$ 9 grace ?an myself80 ,n consid]+ t ,god c "w by ! weake/ & mo/ unwor?y4 ,b _c ,i pray = y8 ,oh my fri5d1 if ev] ,i h be5 want+ 9 ard5t pray]s = y1 ,i hope nev] to be s aga94 ,t communion ( _s :i* ,i h ) y 9 ! life ( ,*ri/1 %all ,i tru/ add w+s to my pray]s on y\r behalf1 & ga9 new degrees ( /r5g? to my own s\l4 99,y\r la/ lett] is a com=table e>ne/ to me1 t ,i %all at lea/ h "o companion 9 ! way :i* ,god has s5t me to walk 91 ! way ( ! cross1 ! inw>d crucifixion1 z y s ju/ly call x2 7?anks be to ,god = ?is refre%m5t to my _s67 ,_m speak ( ?is1 & because ,/4 ,paul m5tions ! be+ crucifi$ ) ,*ri/1 !y prea* ab\t & ab\t x2 b ,i see pla9ly t y n only speak b feel4,& d y "k s mu* ( ! bitt]ness ( ! creature8 ,! ,"l be prais$6 ,may y daily "k x m & m6 ,i am sure ?is exp]i5ce w only make ! hidd5 manna ! sweet]4 ,& ,i am equally sure1 t ^? bitt] draughts are absolutely necess>y to e s\l t w\ld :olly give itself up to ,god4 ',tis easy to talk ( ! w be+ p]fectly resign$1 swall[$ up 9 ! w ( ,god1 c4 ,& :ile ?is only floats z a notion 9 ! bra91 no great suff]+s w att5d x4 ,b :5 ! s\l really feels :at ?is implies1 t x is a be+ cut (f f ! creature1 !n x kn[s inde$ :at x is to suff]2 !n x fights z x 7 9 ! mid/ ( ! fire4 ,e ?\ght mu/ be br\ght into ob$i5ce to ,*ri/2 & ,god effects ?is 9 ! s\l z x is able to be> x3 fir/ "o trial comes1 !n ano!r4 ,"o /rikes at love ( ! creature1 ano!r at self-love1 a ?ird at spiritual pride4 ,& ! fight cont9ues till ,*ri/ has br\ght d[n all 8 enemies1 & l$ captivity captive4 ,& to atta9 ?is /ate ( glori\s lib]ty1 :o w\ld n rejoice to suff]8 ,:at a c[>d mu/ he be1 :o w\ld fly f a field ( battle1 :]e to die is to conqu]8 ,oh :at bless$ enc\ragem5ts has a ,*ri/ian to fight manfully6 ,let u n be we>y or fa9t 9 our m9ds4 ,we h n yet resi/$ unto blood1 /riv+ aga9/ s92 b let u n fail to d x4 ,h we n a capta9 :o treads all ! p[]s ( dea? & hell "u 8 feet8 ,is he n ,jehovah1 mighty to save8 ,& has he n promis$ t he w save ev5 to ! utt]mo/8 ,! way we h to travel is inde$ long1 & !re are lions 9 x4 ,b :at ( t6 ,jesus ! deliv]] is ) u1 & no?+ %all hurt u4 ,?r\gh ,jesus we c all ?+s d1 all ?+s suff]1 all ?+s conqu]1 & :at w\ld we m8 ,f>ewel6 ,may ! peace ( ,god be ) y1 & make y\r s\l to re/ on him4 ,y\r ev] oblig$ & affectionate ,fri5d & ,s]vant1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ,miss 999999994 ,w$nesday ,night1 ,febru>y #ac1 #aged4 ,a ,,cold has be5 ! means ( prev5t+ me f sp5d+ ! ev5+ 9 ! trifl+ mann] :i* y1 my de> fri5d1 h be5 =c$ to d2 ?\gh ,i _c b hope t y\r m9d1 9 ! mid/ ( all ?is noise & nons5se1 has be5 enabl$ to keep itself 9 a /ate ( recollection2 & t y are /ill m fully conv9c$ t all1 ! _w calls pleasure & gaiety1 is m]e vanity & vexation ( _s4,i ?ank y = y\r lett]2 x has giv5 me great satisfaction1 & fre% cause to praise ,god on y\r acc\nt3 ,i rejoice 9 y\r joy1 & may our graci\s & k9d ,r$eem] increase & e/abli% y\r joy & peace 9 believ+6 ,y h inde$ ! utmo/ reason to be ?ankful1 t su* a "w ( m]cy has be5 begun 9 y\r s\l2 & fe> n b t bless$ _s :o has conv9c$ y ( s91 & l$ y to look to ! only means ( deliv]ance1 w p]fect ! "w he has begun6 ,:at a happy sign1 t y c already lay hold on1 & apply ! promises to y\rself8 ,o cont9ue in/ant 9 pray]1 = /ill great] degrees ( fai?2 & %un z y w\ld ! mo/ deadly poison1 e action1 ^w1 & ?\ght1 :i* is contr>y to ! ,_s ( ,god6 ,& always reflect ) ! mo/ ?ankful he>t on ! love ( ,*ri/ to y\r s\l4 ,?9k t our m]ciful ,savi\r is m ready to he> ?an we to pray4 ,?9k ) :at joy ! fa!r receiv$ ! return+ prodigal1 & be assur$ t y & ,i1 & e return+ s9n]1 w be receiv$ ) ! same joy1 cloa!d ) ! same glori\s robes1 & admitt$ to sit d[n at ! same fea/1 ev5 ! m>riage-supp] ( ! ,lamb6 ,i am1 ) ! utmo/ t5d]ness1 ,y\r ev]-affectionate & fai?ful ,fri5d1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,w$nesday ,night1 ,m>* #bj1 #aged4 99,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,am rejoic$1 & bless ,god t y\r m9d 0 9 s happy a /ate1 :ile y\r body 0 9 ! mid/ ( folly & confusion4 ,y obs]ve v ju/ly1 t ^? div]sions are absolutely unfit = "o :o is seek+ salvation4 ,no?+ inde$ c be m contr>y to ! _s ( ! gospel1 ?an :at ! _w calls polite amusem5ts4 ,:at c be m absurd ?an = "o :o desires to be a ,*ri/ian1 :o desires ! m9d :i* 0 9 ,*ri/1 :o desires t ju/ification by fai?1 :i* alone c produce 9 ! he>t true humility & meekness1 deadness to ! _w1 con/ant resignation to ,god1 & f]v5t desire to d 8 w3 ?an = su* a p]son 79 all ! extravagance & gl>e ( dress7 to be swimm+ or skipp+ ab\t a room1 & wi%+ to draw ! att5tion & admiration ( ! mo/ vile & pr(ligate "p ( ! human species8 ,:at absurdity = su* a p]son z ?is to sit 9 t h\se1 :i* is z mu* devot$ to ! devil z ! *ur* is to ,god1 = ?ree h\rs toge!r1 to he> obsc5ities1 at :i* a virtu\s ,hea!n w\ld h blu%$8,if y ask tw5ty ( ! p :o d ^! ?+s1 :e!r !y are ,*ri/ians1 n9ete5 ( !m w answ]1 !y are ,*ri/ians to be sure6 ,:at d y ?9k ( !m8 ,or if !y are n n[ q s good z !y ought to be1 !y hope to be bett] by & by6 ,b c a s\l :i* truly seeks aft] salvation d ^! ?+s8 ,no c]ta9ly4 ,& :5 ! ,_s ( ,god has wr\ght 9 a s\l ?is hatr$ ( ! vanities x us$ to delight 91 x has reason to rejoice inde$4 ,:at great] m>k ( ! love ( ,god to u1 ?an 8 hav+ ?us drawn u to delight 9 himself8 ,if we love a fri5d1 we desire & /rive t ?is fri5d may return our love1 & joy & delight 9 u3 &1 amaz+ condesc5sion6 w ! ,creator ( all ?+s visible & invisible1 ! ,god :o call$ angels & ar*angels into be+1 ?us deal ) u poor s9ful worms8 ,:at he>t c )/& su* love8 ,:at he>t b mu/ at ?is ?\ght s9k into ! du/1 & lose itself 9 wond]1 joy1 & adoration8 ,i h "t = no m4 ,adieu4 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,,bless$ are !y t m\rn1 = !y %all be com=t$6 ,bless$ are !y :o hung] & ?ir/ aft] righte\sness1 = !y %all be fill$4 ,^! are ! words ( ! ,god ( tru?3 & c y !n1 my de> fri5d1 be disc\rag$ because y are n[ m\rn+ aft] ?is ,god1 :o only hides himself f y1 t y may m e>ne/ly seek him8,heav9ess may endure = a night1 b joy come? 9 ! morn+4 ,!re c]ta9ly is no heav9ess l ?is heav9ess3 :5 a s\l has be5 s5sible 7?\gh 9 ! lea/ degree7 ( ! influ5ces ( ! sun ( righte\sness1 & f9ds 8 all-*e]+ beams )drawn1 h[ pa9ful1 h[ heavy is ! d>kness6 ,?is is inde$ d>kness t may be felt3 b :5 ! joy returns1 :at peace6 ,:at happ9ess6 ,look1 my de>1 on ! mat]ial sun1 obs]ve h[ all ! creation ar\nd y is bright5$ & gladd5$ :5 he %9es2 & be assur$1 t on y\r e>ne/ seek+ aft] ,*ri/1 he w 9 l mann] %9e aga9 on y\r s\l1 & make x glad ) ! light ( 8 c\nt5ance4 ,y\r ev] affectionate 99999999 ,w$nesday ,night1 ,april #aged4 99 99 99 99 99 ,july #ai1 #aged4 ,i ,,am v glad1 my de>1 t y\r m9d is 9 s happy a /ate1 & t y seem to h s true a s5se ( ! littl5ess ( all ! _w calls great & desirable4 ,! love ( ,god1 & ! love ( ! _w are directly opposite to ea* o!r4 ,& !re=e ,/4 ,john says1 ,if any man love ! _w1 ! love ( ! ,fa!r is n 9 him3 ?is is a sure rule to try ourselves by4 ,we may talk well1 & act well 9 "s outw>d ?+s2 nay1 p]haps be zeal\s = ! g5u9e doctr9es ( ! gospel3 ,yet all ?is :ile1 if ! love ( ! _w rema9s 9 our he>ts1 we may be v c]ta9 we are no ,*ri/ians4,i fe> y h n mu* opportunity ( be+ alone1 b see f y\r lett] y make good use ( t y h4 ,h[ev] ,god is bo? able & will+ to pres]ve 7ei!r alone or 9 company7 ! s\l :i* con/antly looks t[>ds him4 ,i 0 afraid y\r be+ at 99999999 might hurt y1 b ?ank ,god1 ,i _h no cause = fe>4 ,y seem ,i ?9k r to advance ?an g back4 ,give ,god ! glory6 ,= :atev] ( good is 9 y1 is all f 8 free & b\ndless m]cy4 ,& cease n con/antly to fight1 9 ! /r5g? ( y\r ,r$eem]1 aga9/ e s91 & fe> n b he w set y free1 take (f ! heavy burd5 y compla9 (1 & cloa? y ) 8 p]fect righte\sness4 ,adieu4 99 99 99 99 99 99,,y tell me1 my de>1 t y\r pres5t d>k /ate ( m9d is ow+ to y\r ?\ghts dwell+ s mu* on worldly objects4 ,b c>ry y\r s9c]ity yet a little fur!r1 & tell me if x is n "s "o p>ticul> object on :i* y\r ?\ghts are fix$1 & :i* rivals y\r ,creator 9 y\r he>t8 ,i mu* fe> ?is is ! case3 & if s1 y w f9d x v difficult to conqu]1 b let n any difficulty disc\rage y f /riv+ to 8pluck out ?is "r eye1 & ca/ x f y40 ,! grace ( ,god is suffici5t = y1 8 /r5g? is made p]fect 9 y\r weakness4 ,& y may dep5d ^u x1 t z soon z ev] y h giv5 up y\r idol1 ! sun ( righte\sness w aga9 arise 9 y\r s\l ) heal+ 9 8 w+s2 ! ,god ( m]cy w aga9 be kn[n by y1 z y\r reconcil$ ,fa!r 9 ,*ri/2 & ! bless$ ,_s w lead1 & guide1 & fill y ) t peace :i* passes all und]/&+2 & y w walk 9 all ! ord9ances ( ! ,"l rejoic+4 ,i am y\r ev] affectionate & fai?ful fri5d1 99999999 ,tuesday ,morn+1 ,augu/ #ab1 #aged4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> fri5d1 ,,y\r la/ lett] gave me great pleasure3 ,i s9c]ely rejoice 9 ! happ9ess ( y\r s\l1 z 9 t ( my own1 & ,i hope ,god w /r5g!n y m & m by 8 grace1 s t y may =sake e ?+ = him4 ,above all1 sacrifice y\r own w3 let ?is con/antly be ! language ( y\r he>t1 8,"l1 n my w1 b ?9e be done40 ,/rive n only to be cont5t1 b to rejoice 9 e ?+ t mortifies y\r corrupt nature4 ,h\rly reflect1 t y are a fall5 creature1 s5t into ?is _w = no o!r end ?an to be re/or$ to t nature :i* our fir/ fa!r lo/1 & s be made fit = ! k+dom ( heav54 ,rememb]1 t ,*ri/ di$ = y1 t y might live :olly to him2 & ! m y d ?is1 ! m y w c]ta9ly h ( t peace :i* passe? all und]/&+4 ,i am y\r ev] affectionate fri5d1 99999999 ,septemb] #af1 #agee4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> fri5d1 ,i ,,h read ,mr4 ,b4's lett]1 & ?9k x exce$+ly pretty2 ! /ile is easy & fl[+1 ! language s(t & affect+1 ! s5tim5ts he expresses1 9 reg>d to 8 fri5d & y\rself1 v beautiful4 ,b :at is all ?is to ! purpose8 ,or h[ c ?is conv9ce y1 t y ought to give up ^? means ( grace :i* y h f\nd s extremely b5eficial to y\r s\l1 9 ord] to make a prop] wife = ,mr4 ,c48 ',tis true1 !re are sev]al ass]tions 9 ,mr4 ,b4's lett]1 design$ to %ew ! reasonabl5ess ( y\r mak+ ! promise2 b ass]t+ & prov+ are two ?+s4 ,:atev] has ! appe>ance ( argum5t 9 ?is lett] may1 ,i imag9e1 be r$uc$ to ^! heads3 #a/4 ,t x is absolutely wrong = any memb] ( ! *ur* ( ,engl& to att5d ! meet+s ( sep>ati/s4 #b;dly4 ,t 9 ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 a s\l may f9d e ?+ necess>y = its atta9+ ! highe/ degrees ( fai? & hol9ess4 #c;dly4 ,t ,mr4 ,w4 is a sep>ati/3 & #d?ly4 ,t y\r hav+ any acqua9tance ) him1 w hurt ,mr4 ,c4 bo? 9 8 temporal int]e/1 & 9 8 "* z a m9i/]4,! op9ion ,i _h conceiv$ ( ,mr4 ,b4 0 v high1 ,i imag9$ him actuat$ by t _s ( univ]sal love1 :i* is ! fir/ & rul+ pr9ciple ( e s\l t is born ( ,god2 & ,i make no d\bt b ?is is 8 real "*3 h[ev] 79 ?is affair7 he may seem to incl9e to a p>tial selfi% or?odoxy4 99,c\ld ! *ur* ( ,engl& be prov$ to be ! only *ur* ( ,*ri/1 !re might be "s reason = ! cry ( s*ism1 :i* we he> s mu* (3 b :at is %e1 m ?an "o ( ! mo/ unexceptionable ( ^? _m divisions into :i* ! univ]sal *ur* is brok58 ,& !re=e a sep>ation f h]1 ?\gh causeless1 or f mi/ak5 motives1 _c prop]ly be call$ mak+ a s*ism 9 ! *ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,= my "p 7b ,i speak x ) submission to ,mr4 ,b4's judgm5t7 ,i appreh5d1 t ! only real & dang]\s s*ism is ! want ( t _s ( love1 :i* makes u rejoice 9 :atev] is good & excell5t 9 p ( all d5om9ations1 & ready to believe good ev5 ( ^? :o mo/ diff] f u 9 c]emonies & op9ion4 ,& :y a p]son ( ?is _s 7suppose "o 9 communion ) ! *ur* ( ,engl&7 may n be all[$ sometimes to he> a m9i/] among ! ,presbyt]ians1 or any o!r sect1 if !y f9d ?is m9i/]'s prea*+ ble/ to _! s\ls1 ,i _c imag9e4 ,:at ,/4 ,paul says 9 reg>d to giv+ (f5ce to weak bre?r51 is (t5 quot$ to prove :at x has no?+ to d )2 = ,/4 ,paul surely does n mean1 t he neglect$ ^? ?+s :i* 7 pr(itable to 8 s\l1 = fe> ( giv+ (f5ce to ! weak2 b t he refra9$ f outw>d ?+s 7su* z mak+ diff]5ce 9 meats1 c47 :i* he1 z /rong 9 fai?1 knew to be :olly indiff]5t1 le/ 8 example %\ld tempt ^? :o 7 weak to d ?+s by :i* _! consci5ces might be w\nd$4,z to ,mr4 ,b4's second argum5t1 9 "o s5se ( x1 ,i he>tily agree ) him3 ! homilies1 ! articles1 & liturgy ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 d\btless conta9 all ! doctr9es necess>y to fai? & hol9ess4 ,b1 alas1 h[ little are ^! doctr9es reg>d$ ei!r 9 prea*+ or practice1 by ! g5]ality ( h] m9i/]s6 ,let any "o :o has ! lea/ degree ( s]i\sness1 look r\nd ! *ur*es ( ,london4 ,w he n see ! p = ! mo/ "p repeat+ an excell5t set ( pray]s1 j z a p>rot repeats a song2 & ! m9i/] giv+ =? doctr9es f ! pulpit1 z directly contr>y to ^! pray]s z d>kness is to light8 ,?is is s pla9 a matt] ( fact1 t x _c be contradict$2 & x is z notori\s1 t :5ev] any m9i/] 9 ! *ur* ( ,engl& beg9s to prea* h] real doctr9es1 & live up to h] precepts1 he is imm$iately call$ a ,me?odi/4 ,?is "n is giv5 to him z a reproa*4 ,b z x comes ^u him = speak+ ! tru?1 x is 9 fact a glory4 ,ev] s9ce ,*ri/ 0 ^u ! e>?1 real ,*ri/ians h _h a nick-"n3 b surely no "o :o is s9c]ely b5t to foll[ him c reg>d ?is3 ,i d\bt n b ,mr4 ,b4 himself is call$ a ,me?odi/4 ,b ,i n[ come to ,mr4 ,b4's ?ird argum5t1 t mo/ dreadful *>ge laid aga9/ ,mr4 ,w4 t he is a sep>ati/4 ,?is *>ge has be5 repeat$ ov] & ov] aga91 b has nev] yet be5 cle>ly prov$4 ,if f\r walls1 ) a /eeple & bells1 0 ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 ,mr4 ,w4 might ) "s %ad[ ( reason be said to h sep>at$ f x1 because he seldom prea*es 9 ^! places3 b ?is is no fault ( 81 = he w gladly prea* 9 any ( !m1 :5 _! respective m9i/]s w let him4 ,& he 0 nev] d5i$ prea*+ 9 :at is call$ a *ur*1 till he /rongly insi/$ on t doctr9e = :i* ! m>tyrs ( ! re=mation laid d[n _! lives1 & :i* is ! v fundam5tal doctr9e ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 ju/ification by fai?4 ,any "o :o w\ld read ,mr4 ,w4's ,appeals ) a s9c]e & imp>tial _s1 w\ld ,i believe be fully conv9c$1 t ?is *>ge aga9/ him c\ld n /&4,z to ! hurt y\r be+ acqua9t$ ) ,mr4 ,w4 might d to ,mr4 ,c4 9 8 temporal int]e/1 x dep5ds entirely ^u himself4 ,if he prea*es to 8 p smoo? ?+s1 & prophesies deceits2 if he jo9s ) !m 9 _! innoc5t amusem5ts1 :i* lull s\ls asleep1 & keeps !m 9 an utt] ignorance ( _! fall & _! r$emption1 till !y awake 9 a mis]able et]nity3 g y :]e y w1 n a dog w move its tongue aga9/ him1 nor w ! g5]osity ( 8 p>i%ion]s be 9 ! lea/ abat$ t[>ds him2 & all !y say ( him w only be1 poor man6 :at pity t su* a good-natur$ good sort ( a man %\ld h su* a sad wife4 ,b d ,i ?9k ,mr4 ,c4 w act 9 ?is mann]8 ,no1 c]ta9ly ,i d n4 ,i v]ily believe1 f :at y y\rself h said ( him1 t he int5ds to prove himself a true m9i/] ( ,*ri/1 t he w boldly & e>ne/ly call s9n]s to rep5tance1 & t 8 life & conv]sation w be :olly agreeable to 8 prea*+4 ,& if ?is is ! case1 ?\gh y 7 nev] to see ,mr4 ,w4 aga91 ,mr4 ,c4 w\ld be call$ a ,me?odi/1 ! greate/ "p ( 8 p>i%ion]s w\ld cry out aga9/ him1 & 9 all probability _! g5]osity t[>ds him w\ld greatly decrease4 ,s t consid] ! affair 9 :at light y w1 y\r be+ acqua9t$ ) ,mr4 ,w4 _c mat]ially hurt ,mr4 ,c4 ,& z to ! objection ( ?is acqua9tance ca/+ a reproa* on y\r husb&'s m9i/ry1 'tis q ne$less2 = x is n to be suppos$1 if ,mr4 ,c4 be ! man y c approve ( = a husb&1 t y w leave 8 *ur* :5 he himself prea*es1 to g aft] any o!r m9i/] :atev]4 ,& :atev] y may d at ?is "t at prop] opportunities1 w ,i d\bt n be s guid$ by ,*ri/ian prud5ce1 t he1 z a good & pi\s man1 _c reasonably object to x4 ,b at pres5t y & ,mr4 ,c4 "k v little ( ea* o!r1 & he c]ta9ly _h no "r to propose su* t]ms z ^! to y1 till he _h giv5 y frequ5t opportunities ( judg+1 :e!r 8 he>t & s5tim5ts 7 su* z y c\ld entirely approve (4 ,= my "p1 by ! little ,i c judge 9 ?is affair1 ,i believe him to be a good & a s9c]e man1 & ,i he>tily wi% him happy1 & t ) y1 if x c be br\ght ab\t )\t y\r do+ any ?+ to w\nd y\r consci5ce4 ,9 ! mean "t1 :e!r ?is affair is ev] conclud$ ^u or n1 frequ5t conv]s+ toge!r 9 ! _s ( ,*ri/ianity1 may be a bless+ to bo?4 ,& h[ is x possible = y to give a direct answ] to a man1 till y are 9 "s measure acqua9t$ ) him1 & c judge ( 8 temp] & dispositions8 ,i 0 q delight$ ) ! s(tness & affection = y ) :i* y\r pappa m5tion$ ?is affair to me la/ night4 ,if y say any ?+ ( my writ+ to y1 give my respects to him & y\r mamma1 ) love to ,miss ,b4 & believe me ,y\r fai?ful1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ,mr4 999999994 ,my de> 999999991 ,,jo9 ) me 9 prais+ ! free grace & m]cy ( ,god1 :i* has s wond]fully display$ x self 9 y\r s\l6 ,i don't "k :e!r y\r lett] mo/ a/oni%$ or delight$ me2 b ?is ,i am sure (1 t ,i don't "k h[ en\gh to express my ?ankfulness to ,god 9 y\r behalf4 ,! means s weak too6 ,no?+ b a book put into y\r h&s1 :i* ?\s&s might h read )\t reg>d+ x4 ,no examples ( vital religion1 no "o to urge or enc\rage y to seek r$emption6 ,b ! ,almighty c inde$ "w by ! weake/ means1 & ! poore/ in/rum5ts2 no?+ is too h>d = ! ,"l3 & ,oh may he p]fect ! "w he has begun6,oh graci\s & ev]-bless$ ,r$eem]1 cont9ue ?y m]cy to ?is bro!r ( my s\l2 conv9ce him m & m ( ! dreadful /ate he is 9 by nature1 & ! absolute necessity ( ju/ification by fai? alone6 ,oh ju/ify him freely2 grant him r$emption ?r\gh ?y blood1 ! =giv5ess ( s9s3 ,fill him ) all peace & joy 9 believ+1 & give him to g on 9 ?y /r5g?1 till he arrives at t fulness ( fai? "h1 & 9 ! end to ?y et]nal glory h]eaft]1 :i* ?\ ha/ pur*as$ = ^? :o love !e6 ,am51 ,am54 ,i rejoice 9 y\r desir+ to receive ! sacram5t4 ,! only prep>ation requir$ ( u is rep5tance1 fai?1 & lovelove to ,god & all mank9d4 ,i h wrote out a little catalogue ( books :i* ,i make my con/ant /udy1 & :i* ,i hope w be y\rs2 always remembr+1 t ! ,bible is to be e/eem$ by u inf9itely beyond any human compositions4 ,o!r books ,i %all occasionally recomm5d to y1 z !y b5efit my own m9d1 or are prop] = ! /ate ( y\rs4,z to =ms ( pray] 9 private1 y h no occasion = !m4 ,pray f y\r own he>t4 ,!re is no ne$ ( elegance ( expression1 to make a pray] acceptable to ,god4 ,! desire ( ! he>t is its pray]2 & t once s9c]ely turn$ to ,god1 w c]ta9ly receive an answ] ( peace4 ,:5 y fir/ awake1 /rive to fix y\r m9d imm$iately on ,god3 let ! fir/ book y op5 be ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,!re read1 n sev]al *apt]s1 b j s mu* z y f9d w be food suffici5t = pres5t m$itation4 ,if ! fir/ v]se y read p>ticul>ly affects y1 don't read fur!r1 b close ! book1 & let t v]se h its full effect on y\r m9d4 ,:5 y fall on y\r knees be=e ! ,almighty1 recollect ! dang]s & temptations y are mo/ likely to fall into t day1 & p>ticul>ly pray to be kept by ! grace ( ,god 9 ea* ( !m4 ,e>ne/ly pray = p[] ov] ! s9 :i* mo/ easily besets y4 ,b above all ?+s1 /rive 9 y\r morn+ & ev5+ pray]s to ga9 ! mo/ lively s5se ( y\r own no?+ness1 nay to feel t y are ev5 worse ?an no?+1 t y are by y\r fall5 nature sold "u s91 & des]v+ no?+ at ! h& ( ,god b et]nal puni%m5t4 ,& :5 y\r m9d is deeply impress$ ) ?is consid]ation1 !n look to ! ,lamb ( ,god1 :o take? away ! s9s ( ! _w4 ,!re see ! p[] by :i* y\r fall5 nature may be re/or$3 !re see ! blood by :i* y are cleans$ f all s93 !re see ! full r$emption pur*as$ = y1 & /ra9 e faculty ( y\r s\l eag]ly to lay hold on ?is r$emption3 & be assur$ t ! et]nal ,_s ( ,god w assi/ y 9 ^! y\r pray]s4 ,! ,_s itself1 says ,/4 ,paul1 make? int]cession = u4,9 ! c\rse ( ! ensu+ day1 & 9 all occurr5ces1 /rive to keep y\r he>t 9 a /ate ( pray]1 always ready to be lift$ up to ,god2 & ?is1 ev5 9 ! hurry ( bus9ess1 may be done1 & no "o be s5sible ( x except y\rself4 ,& be sure1 my de>1 nev] to omit mak+ use ( any opportunity ( do+ good :i* falls 9 y\r way1 ei!r to ! bodies or s\ls ( y\r fell[ creatures4,at night foll[ ! same rule z 9 ! morn+2 only exam9+1 be=e y beg ! protection ( ,god = ! night1 e action ( ! pa/ day3 :at good y h done1 :at left undone1 :at faults y h be5 guilty (1 :at m]cies y h receiv$1 & accord+ly address y\rself to ! fa!r ( m]cy4 ,i h "t to say no m at pres5t4 ,cont9ue to write to me1 & fail n to pray = ,y\r ev]-affectionate 99999999 ,decemb] #bb1 #agec4 99 99 99 99 99 ,janu>y #g1 #aged4 ,i ,,return my de>e/ 99999999 ?anks = 8 la/ lett]2 ! satisfaction :i* x & ! conv]sation we _h toge!r on ,saturday gave me1 is inexpressible4 ,oh may y1 by ! assi/+ grace ( ,god1 cont9ue 9 ! happy way y are n[ 91 & /ill press =w>d to high] degrees ( fai? & love4 ,b1 my de>1 y mu/ n ?9k too highly ( me2 ,i am "o ( ! mo/ unwor?y objects ( ! free m]cy ( ,god4 ,i /& m1 p]haps1 9 ne$ ( y\r pray]s ?an y ( m9e2 y mu/ too pray = me1 & we mu/ bo? /rive to /r5g!n ea* o!r4 ,i %\ld be glad to "k :e!r y1 la/ night1 not)/&+ ! disagreeable mann] ( ! prea*]1 receiv$ any com=t & satisfaction f :at he said3 ,i own ,i did2 8 words 7"u all ^! disadvantages7 rais$ & /r5g!n$ me 9 a rem>kable mann]4 ,i wi% x _h be5 ! same ) y all2 b y\r expectations 7 s highly rais$ by ! "n ( 999999991 t an angel w\ld h>dly h satisfi$ !m3 & ?us %all we be always disappo9t$1 if we look m at man ?an ,god4 ,! mo/ fam\s prea*]1 let 8 eloqu5ce1 8 mann]1 8 doctr9e1 be ev] s ne> p]fection1 c nev] make ! s\l ta/e ! words ( salvation1 unless ! ,_s ( ,god accompanies & in=ces 8 prea*+4 ,& ! same bless$ ,_s c make ! words ( ! meane/1 ! mo/ despicable prea*] ( ! gospel1 effectual to awak51 to conv9ce1 & to com=t4 ,b 9 ord] to our reap+ ^! b5efits1 we mu/ he> ) s+l5ess ( int5tion2 n seek+ to h our outw>d e>s & eyes delight$1 b desir+ ! s9c]e milk ( ! ^w1 to n\ri% & /r5g!n our s\ls4 ,w\ld x n be ! highe/ madness to ?r[ away ! wat] ( life1 because x 0 br\ght to u 9 an e>!n vessel8 ,solomon says1 8,to ! hungry s\l e bitt] ?+ is sweet40 ,s to ! s\l :i* really hung]s & ?ir/s aft] ,*ri/1 ! s\nd ( ! gospel ( peace1 7let ! voice :i* proclaims x be h>% or s(t7 w be sweet inde$4 ,oh may y & ,i1 my de> 999999991 always f9d x s to u6 ,may t bless$ ,r$eem] 9 :om we h peace1 be de>] to u ?an light1 ?an life1 ?an any ?+ we c =m to our imag9ation ei!r "h or h]eaft]6 ,9 dang]s1 9 difficulties1 9 temptations1 may we /ill look to him z our def5ce1 our deliv]]1 our /r5g?4 ,he is all 9 all ?r\gh\t ! oracles ( ,god1 bo? 9 ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5t3 may he be all 9 all to our s\ls2 may we walk by 8 light1 conqu] by 8 /r5g?1 & 9 ! end be joyful p>tak]s ( t ev]la/+ felicity :i* he has prep>$ = ^? t love him4 ,?is is ! con/ant wi% & pray] (1 ,y\r affectionate 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,saturday ! #ag?4 ,i ,,receiv$ my de>e/ 99999999's long lett]1 & h m & m reason to be ?ankful to ,god on y\r acc\nt4 ,oh h[ my s\l exults 9 y\r happ9ess1 9 y\r increase 9 fai?1 & love to ,*ri/6,y\r conv]sation ) ! capta9 delights me2 no d\bt b he rejoic$ ov] y!re y see ! true *ri/ian _s4 ,! advice he gave y is excell5t3 ,oh may we be bo? enabl$ to foll[ x6 ,^? :o =sake all = ,*ri/1 w c]ta9ly f9d all 9 ,*ri/4,z to 999999991 ,i w\ld advise y to try fir/1 to raise 9 him a desire to receive ! sacram5t1 be=e y p]suade him to receive x2 & be e>ne/ at ! ?rone ( grace on 8 behalf4 ,all probable means are to be made use (1 b x is ! ,_s ( ,god alone c conv9ce ( s94,i h be5 lately a good deal affect$ ) ! dea? ( a lady 9 ?is neighb\rhood1 :o l$ :at is call$ an innoc5t life4 ,mr4 99999999 att5d$ h]1 & all 8 endeav\rs to conv9ce h] 7 9 va93 h] answ]s 71 8,?\gh %e _h n made su* a %ew ( religion z "s o!rs1 yet %e _h done h] duty40 ,?is is ! mo/ fatal delusion ( all2 ?is bl9dness is ! mo/ dreadful /ate 9 :i* a s\l c laun* into et]nity6 ,c y & ,i be ev] en\gh ?ankful to t ,god :o has op5$ our eyes1 to see ! ?+s :i* make = our peace8 ,0 our :ole life to be "o cont9u$ act ( praise1 x w\ld be no?+ 9 comp>ison to ! bless+s we h receiv$2 nay1 ev5 ! et]nity1 :i* we %all sp5d 9 cont9ual praise1 is n en\gh fully to express all we owe to our r$eem+ ,god,r$emption1 h[ mu* is compreh5d$ 9 ?is ^w6 ,& h[ sweet does x s\nd to a s\l s5sible ( its wants6 ,may t pa!tic pray] my de> 99999999 has made = me be he>d2 !n %all ,i exp]i5ce t fulness ( r$emption = :i* ,i long6 ,!n %all ,i inde$ be intirely dead to ! _w & s91 & live only to ,*ri/4 ,all ?is unspeakable happ9ess1 ,i z s9c]ely wi% to ! bro!r ( my s\l z to myself2 ,& am 8 truly affectionate1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,sunday ,aft]noon1 ,m>* #aj1 #aged4 ,my de> 999999991 ,,la/ night aft] y 7 gone1 ,i read y\r lett]1 & ?\ght ( :at y _h told me ) ! greate/ satisfaction4 ,:at reason h y to be ?ankful1 t ,god %\ld at s e>ly a "t ( y\r life conv9ce y ( s91 & give y to "k1 t y h r$emption ?r\gh ,*ri/6 ,h[ might y h plung$ into all ! follies & vices ( y\?1 & laid up a l>ge /ock = future & bitt] rep5tance1 _h n ! free & unb\nd$ grace ( ,god display$ its p[] 9 y\r s\l6 ,oh cont9ue e>ne/ly to seek /ill m & m ( ! fulness ( ,*ri/4 ,?9k n because y h _h a s5se ( ! p>don+ love ( ,god1 t y are to re/ "h3 no1 /ill seek = fre% evid5ces ( 8 love to y\r s\l2 press =w>d ) unwe>i$ dilig5ce t[>ds ! m>k ( ! high call+ ( ,god 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus2 seek & /rive to ga9 ! abid+ witness ( ! ,_s2 /rive = t p]fect r5ewal ( he>t by :i* y may say1 8',tis no m ,i t live1 b ,*ri/ live? 9 me40,y tell me y 0 assault$1 "s days aft] y _h ?is de> s5se ( ! m]cies ( ,god 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 ) d\bts & fe>s4 ,:5ev] y are attack$ 9 ?is mann] aga91 argue ?us ) y\rself38,?is peace & joy :i* ,i felt1 ?is s5se ( =giv5ess seem$ to me to be ! "w ( ,god ^u my s\l3 b 0 x really s8 ,might n a w>m imag9ation deceive me1 or might n ! great enemy ( s\ls trans=m himself into an angel ( light1 9 ord] to lull me into a fatal security8 ,b h ,i n an infallible rule to judge by1 :e!r ?is "w 0 ( ,god8 ,:at 7 ! fruits x produc$8 ,did ,i ^u ?is gr[ m c>eless & remiss8 ,0 my m9d puff$ up ) spiritual pride8 ,did ,i all[ myself lib]ties :i* be=e ,i 0 afraid to take8,or did ,i1 on ! contr>y1 wat* /ill m dilig5tly aga9/ ! mo/ di/ant approa*es ( s98 ,did ,i f9d increas+ p[] ov] s9s ( ! he>t1 z well z outw>d s98 ,did ,i f9d 9 me a /ill deep] s5se ( my own no?+ness & ! all-suffici5cy ( my ,r$eem]1 & a l>ge increase ( ! love ( ,god & all mank9d8 ,if ^! 7 ! happy fruits ( ?is evid5ce1 ,i h no cause to d\bt ?is "w 0 c]ta9ly ( ,god40 ,9 ?is mann]1 my de>1 if y w exam9e y\rself1 begg+ ! assi/ance ( ! bless$ ,_s1 to enable y to se>* e w9d+ & turn+ ( y\r he>t1 y c nev] be deceiv$1 & w always be able by ! %ield ( fai? to repel all ! fi]y d>ts ( ! devil4 ,i ?ank y = y\r affectionate pray] = me 7may ,god return all ^? bless+s d\ble on y\r own head7 & am1 ,y\r ev]-affectionate fri5d1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,i ,,did n expect to see my de> 99999999 on ,saturday1 = ! wea!r 0 s extremely bad1 t ,i ?\ght y w\ld make ! be/ ( y\r way to 999999994 ,i h read y\r lett] ) great pleasure1 & hope y w cont9ue ?us dilig5tly to exam9e ! /ate ( y\r own m9d3 & t on e exam9ation y w f9d an increase ( t 8treasure :i* nev] faile?40,i rejoice t y h be5 happy en\gh to suff] reproa* = ! sake ( ,*ri/1 & m especially = ! grace giv5 y to suff] joyfully4 ,y may dep5d ^u x t !re is ! same real di/9ction betwe5 ,*ri/ians & ! _w n[1 t !re 0 :5 our bless$ ,ma/] said1 8,because ye are n ( ! _w1 !re=e ! _w hate? y40 ,& h[ ought our he>ts to exult ) praise & ?anksgiv+1 :5 we c say we are n ( ! _w6 ,:at unspeakable happ9ess w x be = u to be f\nd 7:5 our ,r$eem] comes to judgm5t7 among ^? :o 7 n a%am$ ( him 9 ?is 8adult]\s & p]v]se g5]ation60 ,is any ?+ too mu* to suff]1 :5 animat$ by ! hopes ( hav+ ^! glori\s words address$ to u1 8,come ye bless$60 ,i am n[ ) my poor aunt 999999991 :o is 9 great affliction = ! loss ( poor ,mrs4 ,c4 ,see my de> 999999991 99h[ little all t is e/eem$ 9 ?is _w avails1 :5 ,god is pleas$ to lay 8 h& ^u u6 ,"h 0 y\?1 beauty1 ri*es1 fri5ds2 b h[1 z 9 a mom5t1 0 ! possessor ( all ^! cut (f6 ,& by a dreadful disease1 br\ght to be ! companion ( loa?some worms6 ,alas1 h[ is t sweet smile1 :i* once sat ^u h] c\nt5ance1 n[ *ang$ to gha/l9ess6 ,h[ are h] f9e features & delicate complexion n[ become ev5 horrible to behold6 ,oh t "s pr\d beauty w\ld "h /op1 & consid] :at %e h]self mu/ "o day assur$ly be6 ,& ,oh t ?is ?\ght might /rike me /ill ) deep] s]i\sness1 t %e :o 0 my fri5d & confidant1 ev5 f my e>lie/ y\?2 %e :om ,i lov$ ) m ?an a si/]'s t5d]ness2 is n[alas1 :]e is n[ h] preci\s s\l8 ,de>e/ ,r$eem]1 ?y grace is all-suffici5t1 & ?y m]cies inf9ite6 ,is x n n[ rejoic+ ) !e8 ,7 n all ^? helps af=d$ h] by ?y b\ndless love1 :i*1 ev5 to ! la/1 h] ill-judg+ fri5ds d5i$ h]8 ,o _h ,i b se5 h] rejoic+ 9 ! love ( ,god1 & fill$ ) ! prospects ( a bless$ et]nity1 h[ w\ld my s\l h joy$ 9 h] dep>ture6 ,h[ w\ld my he>t h dilat$ itself ) ! glori\s ?\ght1 t my fri5d 0 deliv]$ f ! gild$ sn>es t surr\nd$ h]1 & gone to sure & unb\nd$ happ9ess6 ,& ev5 n[ ,i _c d\bt ! m]cies ( my ,god2 surely we %all meet aga91 & jo9 9 et]nal praises to ! great au?or ( our salvation6 ,i am1 ) all affection1 y\r fai?ful fri5d1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de>e/ 999999991 ,i ,,am oblig$ to y = y\r lett]1 ?\gh ! fir/ side ( x fright$ me extreamly4 ,i h be5 s accu/om$ to see y /rong 9 fai?1 & rejoic+ 9 ,god1 t ! v m5tion ( weak fai? al>m$ me4 ,b ?anks be to ,god1 :o has n suff]$ y to be tempt$ above :at y 7 able to be>1 b has ) ! temptation also made a way = y to escape3 & ,i hope ?is trial w be a means ( mak+ y /ill m wat*ful4 ,y h ne$ to wat* & pray always1 & m especially at ^? times1 :5 y\r enemies seem to be at peace ) y4 ,:5 we are bless$ ) ! light ( ,god's c\nt5ance1 & h p[] ov] ! s9 :i* mo/ easily besets u1 we are v apt to be (f our gu>d2 & by be+ secure1 we lay ourselves op5 to dang] f t gr& tempt]1 :o is always wat*+ ov] u = evil4 ,& if we take n c>e to keep ! lov+ eye ( our m9d con/antly fix$ on t ,god :o is always wat*+ ov] u = good1 we mu/ fall4 ,"h all our /r5g? lies3 b ,god w n give u ?is /r5g?1 unless we c>efully & cont9ually seek x3 !re=e1 n[ ! free grace ( ,god has aga9 rais$ y up1 be d\bly c>eful 9 e ?\ght1 ^w1 & action1 & be assur$ t y\r m]ciful ,r$eem] w be ev] ready to he> y :5 y call ^u him4 ,t 8 love may daily ab\nd 9 y\r he>t m & m1 is ! s9c]e pray] (1 ,y\r affectionate1 99999999 ,july #ab1 #aged4 99 99 99 99 99 ,monday1 ,augu/ #e1 #aged4 ,my de> 999999991 ,,y are inde$ a great /rang]2 sure y might contrive to call1 ?\gh x 7 b = half an h\r4,i am glad y he>d ,mr4 999999992 = to he> him & to pr(it1 to a s9c]e s\l is ! same ?+4 ,i ?ank ,god too1 t y are 9 s happy a /ate ( m9d1 & y\r s\l s *>m+ly alive to ,god2 t y seem s mu* 9 love ) hol9ess1 & s eag]ly press+ aft] x 9 all its bran*es3 dep5d ^u x1 = e degree ( hol9ess y ga9 "h1 y w also ga9 a new degree ( happ9ess bo? "h & h]eaft]4 ,! ne>] ! s\l is to ! image ( ,*ri/1 ! m x w love him1 & ! m x w be lov$ by him1 & by ! ,fa!r ?r\gh him3 & ?is love is ! highe/ felicity bo? ( sa9ts & angels4 ,imp]fect 79 degree7 z x is "h bel[1 ! s\l t ta/es x1 w\ld n *ange x = all t e>? or heav5 c\ld give4 ,& :at !n mu/ x be above 9 ! k+dom ( et]nal glory6 ,:]e ! s\l1 deliv]$ f ?is e>?ly clog1 w h no h9drances or ob/ructions to ! pure love ( ,god1 b w be :olly swall[$ up 9 x4 ,y\r 99999999 gave me an acc\nt ( y\r ye/]day's conv]sation3 ,i congratulate y t y c s boldly & judici\sly too1 speak = ! tru?4 ,i pray ,god to increase y 9 e good ^w & "w1 & am1 ,y\r ev]-affectionate ,fri5d1 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> 999999991 ,i ,,return y _m ?anks = y\r lett]4 ,j be=e ,i receiv$ x ,i 0 ?9k+ ( y1 & to tell y ! tru?1 ) "s fe>1 7occasion$ by y\r long abs5ce7 ei!r t y 7 gr[n cold to me1 or1 :at 0 inf9itely worse1 7 gr[n cold to ! ways ( ,god4 ,b y\r lett] dispell$ all my fe>s1 & ,i rejoice & give ?anks to our heav5ly ,fa!r = 8 great & manifold m]cies to y\r s\l6,i wi% ,i c\ld h se5 y (t5 9 y\r la/ illness1 b t y "k 0 impossible3 h[ev]1 ! small "t ,i 0 ) y gave me ! utmo/ satisfaction1 & ,i _c be en\gh s5sible ( ! goodness ( my ,god1 t ,i 7weak & unwor?y z ,i am7 %\ld be made an in/rum5t ( su* increase ( com=t to y4 ,_h y !n di$1 y w\ld d\btless n[ be s++ praises to ,god & ! ,lamb2 b z y are suff]$ to cont9ue long] ^u e>?1 x is to ?is end1 t y %\ld approve y\rself a fai?ful s]vant to ,god1 9 ! mid/ ( ?is crook$ & p]v]se g5]ation1 t y %\ld %9e z a light 9 ! _w1 & by sp5d+ y\rself 9 ! s]vice ( ,god "h1 increase y\r capacity ( happ9ess h]eaft]4 ,god is m]ciful to y 9 a peculi> mann]4 ,to be kept z y are1 :5 s mu* engag$ 9 bus9ess1 & ) s few opportunities ( att5d+ ! means ( grace1 calls = ! utmo/ gratitude2 !re=e let no occasion pass ( %ew+ y\r love to t ,r$eem]1 :o has ?us sav$ y f s9 & ! love ( ! _w4 ,all y c d1 is by f> too small a return = su* unb\nd$ goodness4 ,y\r pres5t /ate ( m9d is a glori\s & happy "o inde$2 b suff] n y\rself to be (f y\r wat* = "o mom5t1 = ,satan is always wat*+ to hurt a s\l t is ?us happily escap$ f 8 sn>e4 ,b y\r c]ta9 help lies 9 ,*ri/2 keep !re=e ! eye ( ! m9d fix$ ^u him1 & y w /ill g on conqu]+1 & to conqu]4 ,i am1 y\r ev]-affectionate fri5d1 99999999 ,sunday1 ,decemb] #h1 #aged4 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> 999999991 ,i ,,am delight$ ) ! rules y h laid d[n = y\r conduct3 y mu/ con/antly look up to ,god = grace & /r5g? fai?fully to practise !m4 ,i rejoice 9 y\r love to y\r ,r$eem]2 & be assur$1 ! long] y live1 ! m y w be conv9c$1 t ?is is y\r only sure refuge & la/+ happ9ess4 99,9 reg>d to y\r go+ s (t5 to 999999991 take ! foll[+ advice2 %un1 z y w\ld poison1 e ?+ t y f9d a means ( mak+ y less alive to ,god4 ,life is %ort4 ,we h a great "w to d1 & ,god only kn[s h[ few ( ^? h\rs1 :i* are ev] on ! w+1 may be giv5 u to d x 94 ,!re=e lose n a mom5t6 ,rememb] a ,*ri/ian _c /& /ill2 he mu/ g ei!r =w>ds or backw>ds2 & if y h n made "s advances t[>d heav5 s9ce ! clock /ruck la/1 y h gone back t[>ds ! contr>y road4 ,keep ?is con/antly 9 y\r m9d1 p>ticul>ly 9 y\r visits4,may ! peace & love ( ,god be ev] ) y1 & fail n to rememb] at ! ?rone ( grace1 ,y\r ev]-affectionate fri5d1 99999999 ,novemb] #bg1 #agee4 duplicate ^w 8(0 remov$ 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ,miss 999999994 ,sunday ,morn+4 ,my de> ,fri5d1 ,i ,,h j "t en\gh to wi% t y\r s\l may ?is day prosp]1 & t ,god may be f\nd by y 9 all 8 ord9ances4 ,oh t 8 love may be m & m %$ abroad 9 y\r he>t6 ,& ?is x c]ta9ly w be1 if y walk closely ) him1 & suff] n y\r imag9ation to lead y f y\r only true happ9ess4 ,oh /rive cont9ually aft] a con/ant recollection1 & communion ) ,god4,i "k ! unpr(itable mann] 9 :i* y w be employ$ ?is aft]noon2 b ?is ne$ n h9d] y\r he>t f be+ ) y\r ,savi\r2 he w support & com=t y4,take c>e t y run n into mak+ obs]vations1 ei!r on ! p]sons1 mann]s1 or dress ( y\r visitors3 f\r "y ladies 9 a h\se toge!r1 are 9 ! utmo/ dang] f ?is s93 & dep5d ^u x1 x is z contr>y to ,*ri/ian love z ly+ or /eal+4 ,adieu4 99999999 99 99 99 99 99 ,my de> fri5d1 ,i ,,h be5 ?9k+1 s9ce ,i saw y1 ( all ! sn>es to :i* y are go+ to be expos$1 & ,i s9c]ely pray t ,god may protect y 9 e dang]1 & hold up y\r go+s 9 8 pa?s4 ,b 9 ord] to ga9 ?is graci\s protection1 y mu/ take ! greate/ c>e t y d no?+ to grieve 8 bless$ ,_s1 & cause him to dep>t f y4 ,& ?is any s9ful compliance w c]ta9ly d3 !re=e :5 y are desir$ to d any ?+ unbecom+ a *ri/ian1 fe> n 7"y z y are7 to be> y\r te/imony = ,god aga9/ an evil _w4 ,b d x 9 ! _s ( meekness2 & if by ?is means y draw ^u y\rself ! appellations ( :imsical1 ob/9ate1 & ridicul\s1 look ^u ! reproa* z matt] ( rejoic+1 & z add+ a great] lu/re to ! cr[n y w h]eaft] receive4 ,!re is "o temptation1 :i* at y\r age is peculi>ly dang]\s1 & t is a desire ( be+ ?\ght h&some4 ,y mu/ be ev] on y\r wat* aga9/ ?is2 = x w raise a ?\s& temp]s 9 y\r s\l1 z contr>y to ! m9d :i* 0 9 ,*ri/ z d>kness is to light4 ,!re is no?+ :i* is a great] c\nt]-poise to ?is desire1 ?an br++ ! m9d to be cont5t$1 nay ev5 to rejoice t ano!r %\ld out%9e u4 ,let ,miss ,f be ! means by :i* y acquire a conque/ ov] ?is fir/ born ( female pride3 set y\rself e day to take delight 9 h] beauty2 to wi% = its embelli%m5t1 & to be mo/ pleas$ :5 %e appe>s to ! greate/ advantage4,if :5 y read ?is y col\r1 & cry1 8,de>6 :at c %e mean8 ?is is va/ly odd60dep5d ^u x !re is some?+ 9 y\r he>t :i* makes ! advice ,i h giv5 highly necess>y2 & fail n1 z y prize y\r peace ( m9d & increase ( grace1 to put x 9 practice4 ,we %\ld enjoy mu* m ( ! light ( ,god's c\nt5ance1 & ( t peace :i* passe? all und]/&+1 if we w\ld att5d to1 & wat* aga9/1 ^? occasions ( fall+1 :i* f _! commonness we are apt to call little4,a s\l is (t5 ca/ into heav9ess = h\rs1 by an ungu>d$ ^w4,y w n1 my love1 be angry ) me t ,i deal ?us freely ) y3 ,i wat* ov] y\r s\l 9 t5d] love2 & ?\gh s5sible ( my own unwor?9ess1 ei!r to advise or p]suade2 ?\gh s5sible ( my own great & manifold s9s & imp]fections1 ,i _c desi/ f gu>d+ y aga9/ all t may h9d] y\r be+ made p]fect 9 ! love ( ,god4 ,i am1 ,y\r ev]-affectionate1 99999999 ,novemb] #cj1 #aged4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i ,,?ank y1 my love1 = writ+ to me1 & rejoice t y are happy3 ,god nev] fails to he> ^? t call ^u him1 & is graci\s above all t we c ei!r ask or ?9k4 ,z to my illness1 x is extremely tr\blesome1 b ,i believe n dang]\s3 & ,i mu/ cont9ue to be> x = a good :ile long]1 )\t attempt+ to remove x1 because my apo!c>y himself kn[s n :at to make ( x3 99h[ev]1 ,i am j z ,i ought to be2 ,i delight to d & to suff] ! w ( ,god1 & 8 m]cies are sweet to my s\l4 ,i am 9 t happy /ate ( resignation1 t ,i h n a wi%1 b = an increase ( grace & hol9ess4 ,sunday my s\l long$ aft] ! sacram5t1 & ! te>s came 9 my eyes1 because ,i c\ld n g to *ur*4 ,b are ! fl[+ /reams ( r$eem+ love conf9$ to place or "t8 ,i f\nd inde$ !y 7 n2 = my s\l 0 at home sweetly repl5i%$ ) e bless+ ,i c\ld h hop$ = at ! alt>4 ,h[ mu* are ^? to be piti$ :o "k n ! love ( ,god6 ,h[ mu* are ^? to be piti$ :o set _! he>ts on any ?+ 9 ?is infant-/ate ( exi/5ce6 ,h[ poor1 h[ l[1 h[ trifl+ is e ?+1 t does n look t[>ds et]nity6 ,i h su* an exp]im5tal s5se ( ! no?+ness ( all worldly ?+s1 t !y seem no m to me ?an danc+ puppets2 & ,i am sometimes ready to affront my bro!r & ,mr4 999999991 by smil+ at ! important air ) :i* !y talk ( _! bus9ess1 z !y call x4,i ?9k !re is v little probability t ,i %all be fit to come to ! w$d+4 ,pray ,god keep y\r si/]'s he>t 9 ?is "t ( dang] & di/raction1 & bless y bo? ) ! bless+s ( 8 *ildr54 99999999 ,janu>y #g1 #agee4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 999999994 ,rev]5d ,sir1 ,,y\r "* = c&\r & piety takes f me all fe> t y %\ld be (f5d$ at ! address ( a p]son unkn[n1 ev5 ?\gh ?is address is design$ to po9t out some?+ amiss 9 y2 :i* x is absolutely necess>y 7= ! good ( y\r own s\l1 & = ! et]nal welf>e ( ^? :o he> y7 t y %\ld am5d4,y believe6,y feel ! p[]1 & live ! life ( fai?6,oh :y w y n /rive t o!rs may be p>tak]s ( l happ9ess ) y8,i "k y\r g5]al mann] ( prea*+3 ,i myself h he>d y2 & :ile my e> has be5 delight$ ) y\r affect+ deliv]y1 y\r elegant language1 & well-turn$ p]iods1 my he>t has bl$ to ?9k t su* tal5ts %\ld be s mis]ably p]v]t$3 bl$ = y1 & = ^? poor s\ls1 :om ?is way ( prea*+ lulls into a fatal security4 ,p>don my fre$om ( spee*2 p>don my boldness t[>ds y2 b y y\rself w ackn[l$ge1 t :]e ! f\ndation is uns\nd1 ! build+ mu/ fall2 & no true f\ndation c be laid except ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,y\r own exp]i5ce mu/ tell y1 t a div9e p[] c alone *ange ! he>t2 t all outw>d regul>ity ( behavi\r1 all r\nds & =ms ( devotion1 & all moral duties1 )\t ?is *ange are1 utt]ly unavail+1 & only l beautify+ ! outside ( a sepul*re1 :i* )9 is full ( dead m5s bones & ( all uncleanness4 ,y are s5sible too1 t fai? 9 a dy+ ,r$eem] is ! only means giv5 u by :i* ?is *ange ( he>t c be effect$4 ,to :at purpose !n is x to tell poor1 lo/1 undone man1 ( ! dignity ( 8 rational nature1 & ! beauty ( virtue8,de> sir1 = ! sake ( t ,god :om y love & adore1 away ) ^! %ad[s1 & sub/itute 9 _! place realities4 ,h[ w\ld x delight ! he>t ( sev]al ( y\r fri5ds 7:o greatly love & e/eem y1 & :o wi% well to ! gospel ( ,*ri/7 to see y1 ) all ! =ce ( eloqu5ce1 lab\r+ to conv9ce y\r he>]s ( ! s9 ( _! nature1 _! condemnation 9 ! sight ( ,god1 & _! utt] incapacity to help !mselves2 & !n proclaim+ to !m1 8,behold ! ,lamb ( ,god1 :o take? away ! s9s ( ! _w60 ,i am s5sible ( ! difficulties y w h to enc\nt]1 9 ?us *ang+ y\r mann] ( prea*+3 b ?\gh ! battle be h>d to fight1 great w be ! glory ( ! victory4 ',tis true1 y\r enemies are /rong & p[]ful2 ! devil1 ! _w1 all ! wick$1 & all ! self righte\s w be jo9$ toge!r aga9/ y3 b look up ) an eye ( fai?1 & see h[ _m m are = y4 ,?9k ( ! holy angels rejoic+ ov] e s9n] conv]t$ by y\r means2 ?9k t ! ,capta9 ( y\r salvation1 y\r ,god & ,r$eem]1 w be ev] ne> to help1 to /r5g!n & com=t y6 ,& consid] :at unutt]able joy y\r s\l w feel1 :5 at t p]iod ( "t :i* is ! mo/ delightful to ! true ,*ri/ian1 y c ) firm confid5ce cry out ) ,/4 ,paul1 8,i h f\ght a good fight1 ,i h f9i%$ my c\rse1 ,i h kept ! fai?2 h5ce=? is laid up = me a cr[n ( righte\sness40 ,i am1 7?\gh y\r unkn[n & unwor?y7 ,y\r truly affectionate fri5d4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to ,mr4 ,g999999994 ,i ,,am mu* oblig$ to y = y\r lett] to me2 & if x w increase y\r joy to "k t ,i love my ,savi\r m ?an heal?1 or light1 or life1 be assur$ t ,i d2 & t ,i %\ld ?9k myself ! mo/ ungrateful & vile ( all creatures if ,i did n4 ,x is my con/ant & e>ne/ desire e day1 nay e h\r1 to increase 9 ! k & love ( ,god1 & to be sav$ n only f ! guilt1 b also f ! p[] ( s94 ,i "k t ! grace ( ,god ?r\gh ,*ri/ is suffici5t = me2 ,i "k t ! blood ( ,*ri/ cleanse? 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