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"l ( *a/ity ) ! cr[n l$g$ above 8 gold5 horn1 ly+ 9 virg9 lu/re ( sanctity1 ! lion spr+s out ( 8 lair 9 e s\l1 ro>+ aft] 8 prey4 ,x is a /range & pa9ful position1 ! k+ ( bea/s & ! bea/ ( purity1 rampant = ev] on ei!r side ( ! cr[n4 ,is x to be s = ev]8 ,:o says lion8--:o says unicorn8 ,a lion1 a lion66 ,hi1 a unicorn6 ,n[ !y are at x1 !y h =gott5 all ab\t ! cr[n4 ,x is a great] ?+ to h an enemy ?an to h an object4 ,! lion & ! unicorn 7 fight+1 x is no "q any m ( ! cr[n4 ,we "k ?is1 because :5 ! lion beat ! unicorn1 he did n take ! cr[n & put x on 8 head1 & say1 8,n[ ,mr4 ,purity1 ,i'm k+04 ,he drove ! unicorn out ( t[n1 expell$ him1 oblit]at$ him1 expurgat$ him f ! memory1 exil$ him f ! k+dom4 ,in/antly ! t[n 0 all lion1 !re 0 no unicorn at all1 no sc5t nor flav\r ( unicorn4 8,unicorn60 !y said 9 ! city4 8,t is a my?ological bea/ t nev] exi/$40 ,!re 0 no "q any m ( rivalry4 ,! unicorn 0 eras$ f ! annals ( fact4 ,:y did ! lion fight ! unicorn8 ,:y did ! unicorn fight ! lion8 ,:y mu/ ! "o oblit]ate ! o!r8 ,0 x ! raison d'tre ( ea* ( !m1 to oblit]ate ! o!r8 ,b ?9k1 if ! lion really de/roy$1 kill$ ! unicorn3 n m]ely drove him out ( t[n1 b annihilat$ him6 ,w\ld n ! lion at once expire1 z if he _h creat$ a vacuum ar\nd himself8 ,is n ! unicorn necess>y to ! v exi/5ce ( ! lion1 is n ea* opposite kept 9 /able equilibrium by ! opposition ( ! o!r4 ,?is is a t]rible position3 to h = a raison d'tre a purpose :i*1 if once fulfill$1 w\ld ( necessity entail ! cessation f exi/5ce ( bo? oppon5ts4 ,!y w\ld bo? cease to be1 if ei!r ( !m really won 9 ! fight :i* is _! sole reason = exi/+4 ,?is is a tr\blesome ?\ght4 ,x makes u at once exam9e our own he>ts4 ,:at d we f9d !re8--a want1 a ne$1 a cry+ out1 a div9e discont5t4 ,is x ! lion1 is x ! unicorn8--"o1 or bo?8 ,b c]ta9ly !re is ?is cry+ al\d1 ?is infant cry+ 9 ! night1 born into a bl9d want4 ,:at d we f9d at ! core ( our he>ts8--a want1 a void1 a holl[ want4 ,x is ! lion t mu/ ne$s fight ! unicorn1 ! unicorn t mu/ ne$s fight ! lion4 ,suppos+ ! lion refuses ! obligation ( 8 be+1 & says1 8,i won't fight1 ,i'll j lie d[n4 ,i'll be a lion c\*ant40 ,:at !n is ! lion8 ,a void1 a holl[ a*e1 a want4 8,:at am ,i80 says ! lion1 z he lies ) 8 head betwe5 8 paws1 or walks by ! riv] fe$+ on raspb]ries1 peacefully1 l a unicorn4 8,i am a holl[ void1 my ro>+ is ! resonance ( a holl[ drum1 my /r5g? is ! p[] ( ! vacuum1 draw+ all ?+s )9 itself40 ,!n he groans ) horrible self-consci\sness4 ,aft] all1 !re is no?+ = x b to set ^u ! unicorn1 & s =get1 =get1 obta9 ! preci\s self-oblivion4 ,?us are we1 !n1 r\nd$ ^u a void1 a holl[ want1 l ! lion4 ,& ?is want makes u draw all ?+s into ourselves1 to fill up ! void4 ,b x is a bottomless pit1 ?is void4 ,if ev] x 7 fill$1 !re w\ld be a great cessation f be+1 ( ! :ole univ]se4 ,?us we portray ourselves 9 ! field ( ! royal arms4 ,! :ole hi/ory is ! fight1 ! :ole raison d'tre4 ,= ! :ole field is occupi$ by ! lion & ! unicorn4 ,^! alone are ! liv+ occupants ( ! immortal & mortal field4 ,we h =gott5 ! ,cr[n1 :i* is ! key/one ( ! fight4 ,we are l ! lion & ! unicorn1 we g on fight+ und]nea? ! ,cr[n1 entirely oblivi\s ( its supremacy4 ,x is mode/ common s5se = u to ackn[l$ge1 all ( u1 n[adays1 t we are built r\nd a void & holl[ want :i*1 if satisfi$1 w\ld imply our collapse1 our utt] ceas+ to be4 ,!re=e we reg>d our crav+ ) complac5ce1 we feel ! great a*+ ( ! ,want1 & we say1 ) conviction1 8,i "k ,i exi/1 ,i "k ,i am ,i1 because ,i feel ! div9e discont5t :i* is p]sonal to me1 & et]nal1 & pres5t always 9 me40 ,t is because we are incomplete1 we /& ^u "o side ( ! %ield1 or on ! o!r4 ,on ! "o side we are 9 d>kness1 our eyes gleam phosphoresc5t l cat's eyes4 ,& ) ^! phosphoresc5t gleam+ eyes we look across at ! opposite pure bea/1 & we say1 8,yes1 ,i am a lion1 my raison d'tre is to dev\r t unicorn1 ,i am m\ld$ ^u an et]nal void1 a ,want40 ,gleam+ bright1 we see ourselves reflect$ ^u ! surface ( ! d>kness & we say3 8,i am ! pure unicorn1 x is = me to oppose & resi/ = ev] t avid lion4 ,if he ceas$ to exi/1 ,i %\ld be supreme & unique & p]fect4 ,!re=e ,i w de/roy him40 ,b ! lion w n be de/roy$4 ,if he 71 if he 7 swall[$ into ! belly ( ! unicorn1 ! unicorn w\ld fly asund] into *aos4 ,?is is l be+ a creature :o walks by night1 :o says3 8,m5 see by d>kness1 & 9 ! d>kness !y h _! be+40 ,or l a creature t walks by day1 & says3 8,m5 live by ! light40 ,we are envelop$ 9 ! d>kness1 l ! lion3 or l ! unicorn1 envelop$ 9 ! light4 ,= ! womb is full ( d>kness1 & also flood$ ) ! /range :ite light ( et]nity4 ,& we1 ! peoples ( ! _w1 we are enclos$ )9 ! womb ( our era1 we are !re begott5 & conceiv$1 b n br\ght =?4 ,a myriad1 myriad p1 we roam 9 ! belly ( our era1 seek+1 seek+1 want+4 ,& we seek & want deliv]ance4 ,b we say we want to ov]come ! lion t %>es ) u ?is univ]sal womb1 ! walls ( :i* are %ut1 & h no w9d[ to in=m u t we are 9 prison4 ,we roam )9 ! va/ walls ( ! womb1 unn\ri%$ n[1 because ! "t ( our deliv]ance is ripe1 ev5 ov]pa/1 & ! body ( our era is lean & )]$ because ( u1 )]$ & inflexible4 ,we roam unn\ri%$1 m\ld$ ea* ( u ar\nd a core ( want1 a void4 ,we /& 9 ! d>kness ( ! womb & we say3 8,behold1 !re is ! light1 ! :ite light ( et]nity1 :i* we want40 ,& we make w> ^u ! lion ( d>kness1 annihilate him1 s t we may be free 9 ! et]nal light4 ,or else1 sudd5ly1 we admit ourselves ! lion1 & we ru% rampant on ! unicorn ( *a/ity4 ,we /& 9 ! light ( ,virg9ity1 9 ! :ol5ess ( our unbroa*$ immortality1 & we say3 8,lo ! d>kness surr\nds u1 to envelop u4 ,let u resi/ ! p[]s ( d>kness40 ,!n l ! bright & virg9 unicorn we make w> ^u ! rav5+ lion4 ,or we cry3 8,ours is ! /r5g? & glory ( ! ,creator1 :o prec$es ,creation1 & all is unto u40 ,s we op5 a rav5+ m\?1 to swall[ back all "t has br\ght =?4 ,& !re is no re/1 no cessation f ! conflict4 ,= we are two opposites :i* exi/ by virtue ( our int]-opposition4 ,remove ! opposition & !re is collapse1 a sudd5 crumbl+ into univ]sal no?+ness4 ,! d>kness1 ?is has n\ri%$ u4 ,! d>kness1 ?is is a va/ inf9ite1 an orig91 a ,s\rce4 ,! ,beg9n+1 ?is is ! great sph]e ( d>kness1 ! womb :]e9 ! univ]se is begott54 ,b ?is univ]sal1 inf9ite d>kness conceives ( its own opposite4 ,if !re is univ]sal1 inf9ite d>kness1 !n !re is univ]sal1 inf9ite light1 = !re _c exi/ a specific inf9ite save by virtue ( ! opposite & equival5t specific inf9ite4 ,s t if !re be univ]sal1 inf9ite d>kness 9 ! beg9n+1 !re mu/ be univ]sal1 inf9ite light 9 ! end4 ,& ^! are two relative halves4 ,into ! womb ( ! prim>y d>kness ent]s ! ray ( ultimate light1 & "t is begott51 conceiv$1 !re is ! beg9n+ ( ! end4 ,we are ! beg9n+ ( ! end4 ,& !re1 )9 ! womb1 we rip5 ^u ! beg9n+1 till we become aw>e ( ! end4 ,we are fruit1 we are an integral "p ( ! tree4 ,till ! "t comes = u to fall1 & we hang 9 susp5se1 realis+ t we are an integral "p ( ! va/ beyond1 :i* /ret*es "u u & grasps u ev5 be=e we drop into x4 ,we are ! beg9n+1 :i* has conceiv$ u )9 its womb ( d>kness1 & n\ri%$ u to ! fulness ( our gr[?4 ,?is is ours t we adh]e to4 ,?is is our ,god1 ,jehovah1 ,zeus1 ! ,fa!r ( ,heav51 ?is t has conceiv$ & creat$ u1 9 ! beg9n+1 & br\ght u ! fulness ( our /r5g?4 ,& :5 we h come to ! fulness ( our /r5g?1 l lions :i* h be5 f$ till !y are full gr[n1 !n ! /range necessity comes ^u u1 we mu/ travel away1 roam l fall+ fruit1 fall f ! initial d>kness ( ! tree1 ( ! cave :i* has re>$ u1 into ! et]nal light ( g]m9ation & begett+1 ! et]nal light1 %$d+ our d>kness l ! fruit t rots on ! gr\nd4 ,we travel across betwe5 ! two great opposites ( ! ,beg9n+ & ! ,end1 ! et]nal night & ev]la/+ day1 & ! transit is a /ride tak51 ! night gives u up = ! day to receive u4 ,& :at are we betwe5 ! two8 ,b be=e ! transit is accompli%$1 :il/ we are yet l fruit heavy & ripe on ! trees1 we realise ! deliri\s fre$om ( ! end1 ! goal1 & we cry3 8,behold1 ,i1 :o am "h )9 ! d>kness1 ,i am ! light6 ,i am ! light1 ,i am ,unicorn1 ! beam ( *a/ity4 ,behold1 ! beam ( ,virg9ity gleams )9 my lo9s1 9 ?is circumambi5t d>kness4 ,behold1 ,i am n ! ,beg9n+1 ,i am ! ,end4 ,! ,end is univ]sal light1 ! a*iev+ aga9 ( inf9ite unblemi%$ be+1 ! inf9ite on5ess ( ! ,light1 ! escape f ! inf9ite n-be+ ( ! d>kness40 ,all ! "t1 ^! cries take place )9 ! womb1 ^! are ! myriad unborn utt]+ !mselves z !y come t[>ds maturity1 cry aft] cry z ! d>kness develops itself ov] ! sea ( ,light1 & fle% is born1 & limbs2 cry aft] cry z ! light develops )9 ! d>kness1 & m9d is born1 & ! consci\sness ( t :i* is outside my own fle% & limbs1 & ! desire = ev]la/+ life gr[s m insi/5t4 ,^! are ! cries ( ! two adv]s>ies1 ! two opposites4 ,fir/ ( all ! fle% develops 9 spl5d\r & glory out ( ! prolific d>kness1 begott5 by ! light x develops to a great triumph1 till x dances nak$ 9 glory ( itself1 be=e ! ,ark1 nak$ 9 glory ( itself 9 ! procession ( h]oes travell+ t[>ds ! wise goddess1 ! :ite light1 ! ,m9d1 ! light :i* ! vessel ( liv+ d>kness has caught & captur$ )9 itself1 & holds 9 triumph4 ,! fle% ( d>kness triumphant circles r\nd ! treasure ( light :i* x has envelop$1 :i* x calls ,m9d1 & ?is is ! ec/asy1 ! dance be=e ! ,ark1 ! ,bac*ic delirium4 ,& !n1 )9 ! womb1 ! light gr[s /rong] & f9ds voice1 x cries out3 8,behold1 ,i am free1 ,i am n envelop$ )9 ?is d>kness4 ,behold1 ,i am ! ev]la/+ light1 ! ,et]nity t /ret*es =w>d = ev]1 utt]ly ! opposite ( t d>kness :i* dep>ts backw>d1 backw>d = ev]4 ,come ov] to me1 to ! light1 to ! light t /reams into ! glori\s et]nity4 ,= n[ ! d>kness is revok$ = ev]40 ,x is ! voice ( ! unicorn cry+ 9 ! wild]ness1 x is ! ,son ( ,man4 ,& behold1 9 ! fight1 ! unicorn beats ! lion1 & drives him out ( t[n4 ,b all ( ?is is )9 ! ,womb4 ,! d>kness builds up ! w>m %ad[ ( ! fle% 9 spl5d\r & triumph1 enclos+ ! light4 ,?is is ! z5i? ( ,david & ,solomon1 & ( ,assyria & ,egypt4 ,!n ! light1 wre/l+ )9 ! vessel1 ?r[s up a :ite gleam ( univ]sal love1 :i* is ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi1 & ,%elley4 ,!n ea* has rea*$ its maximum ( self-ass]tion4 ,! fle% is made p]fect )9 ! womb1 ! _s is at la/ made p]fect also1 )9 ! womb4 ,!y are equally p]fect1 equally supreme1 ! "o adh]+ to ! inf9ite d>kness ( ! beg9n+1 ! o!r adh]+ to ! inf9ite light ( ! end4 ,yet1 )9 ! womb1 !y are et]nally opposite4 ,d>kness /&s ov] aga9/ light1 light /&s ov] aga9/ d>k4 ,! lion is re>$ aga9/ ! unicorn1 ! unicorn is re>$ aga9/ ! lion4 ,"o says1 8,behold1 ! d>kness :i* gave u bir? is et]nal & inf9ite3 ?is we belong to40 ,! o!r says1 8,we are ( ! ,light1 :i* is ev]la/+ & inf9ite40 ,& !re is no reconciliation1 save 9 negation4 ,f ! pres5t1 ! /ream fl[s 9 opposite directions1 back to ! pa/1 on to ! future4 ,!re are two goals1 at opposite ends ( "t4 ,!re is ! va/ orig9al d>k out ( :i* ,creation issu$1 !re is ! ,et]nal light into :i* all mortality passes4 ,& bo? are equally inf9ite1 bo? are equally ! goal1 & bo? equally ! beg9n+4 ,& we1 fully equipp$ 9 fle% & _s1 fully built up ( d>kness1 p]fectly compos$ out ( light1 :at are we b light & %ad[ ly+ toge!r 9 opposition1 or lion & unicorn fight+1 ! "o to vanqui% ! o!r4 ,?is is our et]nal life1 9 ^! two et]nities :i* nullify ea* o!r4 ,& we1 betwe5 !m bo?1 :at are we b nullity8 ,& ?is is because we see 9 "p1 always 9 "p4 ,we are enclos$ )9 ! womb1 we are ! se$ f ! lo9s ( ! et]nal light1 or we are ! d>kness :i* is envelop$ by ! body ( ! pa/1 by our era4 ,unless ! sun 7 envelop$ 9 ! body ( d>kness1 w\ld a ca/ %ad[ run ) me z ,i walk8 ,unless ! night lay )9 ! embrace ( light1 w\ld ! fi% gleam phosphoresc5t 9 ! sea1 w\ld ! light break out ( ! black coals ( ! he>?1 w\ld ! electricity gleam out ( itself1 sudd5ly decl>+ an opposite be+8 ,love & p[]1 light & d>kness1 ^! are ! tempor>y conque/ ( ! "o inf9ite by ! o!r4 ,9 love1 ! ,*ri/ian love1 ! ,end ass]ts itself supreme3 9 p[]1 9 /r5g? l ! lion's ! ,beg9n+ re-e/abli%es itself unique4 ,b :5 ! opposition is complete on ei!r side1 !n !re is p]fection4 ,x is ! p]fect opposition ( d>k & light t br9dles ! tig] ) gold flame & d>k flame4 ,x is ! sur*>ge ( d>kness t op5s ! rav5+ m\? ( ! tig]1 & drives 8 eyes to po9ts ( phosphoresc5ce4 ,x is ! p]fect balance ( light & d>kness t flick]s 9 ! /epp+ ( a de]4 ,b x is ! conqu]$ d>kness t fl>es & palpitates 9 h] eyes4 ,!re are ! two et]nities fight+ ! fight ( ,creation1 ! light project+ itself into ! d>kness1 ! d>kness envelop+ h]self )9 ! embrace ( light4 ,& !n !re is ! consummation ( ea* 9 ! o!r1 ! consummation ( light 9 d>kness & d>kness 9 light1 :i* is absolute3 our bodies ca/ up l foam ( two meet+ waves1 b foam :i* is absolute1 complete1 beyond ! limitation ( ei!r inf9ity1 consummate ov] bo? et]nities4 ,! direct opposites ( ! ,beg9n+ & ! ,end1 by _! v directness1 imply _! own supreme relation4 ,& ?is supreme relation is made absolute 9 ! cla% & ! foam ( ! meet+ waves4 ,& ! cla% & ! foam are ! ,cr[n1 ! ,absolute4 ,! lion & ! unicorn are n fight+ = ! ,cr[n4 ,!y are fight+ b5ea? x4 ,& ! ,cr[n is ^u _! fight4 ,if !y made fri5ds & lay d[n side by side1 ! ,cr[n w\ld fall on !m bo? & kill !m4 ,if ! lion really beat ! unicorn1 !n ! ,cr[n press+ on ! head ( ! k+ ( bea/s alone w\ld de/roy him4 ,:i* x has done & is do+4 ,z x is de/roy+ ! unicorn :o has a*iev$ supremacy 9 ano!r field4 ,s t n[1 9 ,europe1 bo? ! lion & ! unicorn are gone mad1 ea* ) a cr[n tumbl$ on 8 b\nd-9 head4 ,& )\t rhyme or reason !y te> !mselves & ea* o!r1 & ! fight is no fight1 x is a fr5zy ( bl9d ?+s da%+ !mselves & ea* o!r to pieces4 ,n[ ! unicorn ( virtue & virg9 spontaneity has got ! ,cr[n slipp$ ov] ! eyes1 l a circle ( utt] light1 & has gone mad ) ! extremity ( light3 :il/ ! lion ( p[] & spl5d\r1 its own ,cr[n ( supreme night settl$ d[n ^u x1 ro>s 9 an agony ( imprison$ d>kness4 ,n[ )9 ! )]$ body ( our era1 )9 ! husk ( ! pa/1 ! se$ ( light has come to supreme self-consci\sness & has gone mad ) ! fl>e ( et]nal light 9 its eyes1 :il/ ! fruit ( d>kness1 unable to fall f ! tree1 has turn$ r\nd t[>ds ! tree & is become mad1 cl++ fa/] ^u ! utt] night :5ce x %\ld h dropp$ away long ago4 ,= ! /iff5$1 exhau/$1 inflexible lo9s ( our era are too dry to give u =? 9 lab\r1 ! tree is )]$1 we are p5t 91 fa/5$1 & n[ h turn$ r\nd1 "s to ! s\rce ( d>kness1 "s to ! s\rce ( light1 & gone mad1 purely giv5 up to fr5zy4 ,= ! d>k has travell$ to ! light1 & ! light t[>ds ! d>k4 ,b :5 !y rea*$ ! b\nd1 nei!r c\ld leap =?4 ,! fruit c\ld n fall f ! tree1 ! lion j full gr[n c\ld n get out ( ! cave1 ! unicorn c\ld n ent] ! illimitable =e/1 ! lily c\ld n leap out ( ! d>kness ( h] bulb /raight into ! sun4 ,:at !n8 ,! road 0 /opp$4 ,:i!r !n8 ,backw>d1 back to ! kn[n et]nity4 ,!re 0 a great1 horrible huddle backw>ds4 ,! process ( bir? _h be5 arre/$1 ! inflexible1 )]$ lo9s ( ! "m-era 7 too old & set1 ! pa/ 0 taut ar\nd u all4 ,!n began *aos1 ! go+ asund]1 ! beg9n+ ( no?+ness4 ,!n we leap$ back1 by reflex f ! b\nd & limit1 back ^u ourselves into madness4 ,!re is a d>k beyond ! d>kness ( ! womb1 !re is a light beyond ! light ( k4 ,!re is ! d>kness ( all ! heav5s = ! se$ ( man to inve/1 & ! light ( all ! heav5s = ! womb to receive4 ,b we don't "k x4 ,h[ c ! unborn )9 ! womb "k ( ! heav5s outside2 h[ c !y8 ,h[ c !y "k ( ! tides beyond8 ,on ! "o h& murmurs ! utt]1 inf9ite sea ( d>kness1 full ( unconceiv$ creation3 on ! o!r ! inf9ite light /irs ) et]nal procreation4 ,!y are two seas :i* et]nally attract & oppose ea* o!r1 two tides :i* et]nally advance to repel ea* o!r1 :i* foam ^u "o ano!r1 z ! ocean foams on ! l&1 & ! l& ru%es d[n into ! sea4 ,& we1 9 ! great movem5t1 are begott51 conceiv$ & br\ght =?1 l ! waves :i* meet & cla% & bur/ up into foam1 s5d+ ! foam l light1 l %ad[1 into ! z5i? ( ! absolute1 beyond ! grasp ( ei!r et]nity4 ,we are ! foam & ! =e%ore1 t :i*1 betwe5 ! oceans1 is n1 b t :i* sup]s$es ! oceans 9 utt] reality1 & gleams 9 absolute ,et]nity4 ,! ,beg9n+ is-n1 nor ! et]nity :i* lies beh9d u1 save 9 "p4 ,p>tial also is ! et]nity :i* lies 9 front4 ,b t :i* is n p>tial1 b :ole1 t :i* is n relative1 b absolute1 is ! cla% ( ! two into "o1 ! foam ( be+ ?r[n up into consummation4 ,x is ! music :i* comes :5 ! cymbals cla% "o ^u ! o!r3 ?is is absolute & timeless4 ,! cymbals sw+ back 9 "o or ! o!r direction ( "t1 t[>ds "o or ! o!r relative et]nity4 ,b absolute1 timeless1 beyond "t or et]nity1 beyond space or inf9ity1 is ! music t 0 ! consummation ( ! two cymbals 9 opposition4 ,x is t :i* comes :5 night cla%es on day1 ! ra9b[1 ! yell[ & rose & blue & purple ( dawn & sunset1 :i* leaps out ( ! break+ ( light ^u d>kness1 ( d>kness ^u light1 absolute beyond day or night2 ! ra9b[1 ! iridesc5ce :i* is d>kness at once & light1 ! two-9-"o2 ! cr[n t b9ds !m bo?4 ,x is ! lovely body ( foam t walks = ev] betwe5 ! two seas1 p]fect & consummate1 ! reveal$ consummation1 ! on5ess t has tak5 be+ out ( ! two4 ,we say ! foam is evanesc5t1 ! w9d passes ov] x & x is gone--he :o w\ld save 8 life mu/ lose x4 ,b if inde$ ! foam 7-n1 if ! two seas fell ap>t1 if ! sea fell dep>t$ f ! l&1 & ! l& f ! sea1 if ! two halves1 day & night1 7 ripp$ asund]1 )\t attraction or opposition1 :at !n8 ,!n !re w\ld be betwe5 !m no?+ness1 utt] no?+ness4 ,:i* is mean+less4 ,s t ! foam & ! iridesc5ce1 ! music t comes f ! cymbals1 all =m$ ?+s t come f p]fect union 9 opposition1 all beauty & all tru? & be+1 all p]fection1 ^! are ! be-all & ! end-all1 absolute1 timeless1 beyond "t or et]nity1 beyond ! ,limit or ! ,inf9ite4 ,?is lovely body ( foam1 ?is iris betwe5 ! two floods1 ?is music betwe5 ! cymbals1 ?is tru? betwe5 ! surge ( facts1 ?is supreme reason betwe5 conflict+ desires1 ?is holy _s betwe5 ! opposite div9ities1 ?is is ! ,absolute made visible betwe5 ! two ,inf9ities1 ! ,timelessness into :i* are assum$ ! two ,et]nities4 ,x is wrong to try to make ! lion lie d[n ) ! lamb4 ,?is is ! supreme s91 ! un=givable blasphemy ( :i* ,*ri/ spoke4 ,?is is ! creat+ ( no?+ness1 ! br++ ab\t1 or ! /riv+ to br+ ab\t ! nihil :i* is pure mean+lessness4 ,! great d>kness ( ! lion mu/ ga!r into itself ! little1 feeble d>kness ( ! lamb4 ,! great light ( ! lamb mu/ absorb else:]e1 9 ! :ole _w1 ! small1 weak light ( ! lion4 ,! lamb inde$ w inh]it ! _w1 r ?an ! lion4 ,x is ! triumph ( ! meek1 b ! meek1 l ! m]ciless1 %all p]i% 9 _! own triumph4 ,any?+ t triumphs1 p]i%es4 ,! consummation comes f p]fect relat$ness4 ,to ?is a man may w94 ,b he :o triumphs1 p]i%es4 ,! cr[n is ^u ! p]fect balance ( ! fight1 x is n ! fruit ( ei!r victory4 ,! cr[n is n prize ( ei!r combatant4 ,x is ! raison d'tre ( bo?4 ,x is ! absolute )9 ! fight4 ,& ^? alone are evil1 :o say1 8,! lion %all lie d[n ) ! lamb1 ! eagle %all mate ) ! dove1 ! lion %all mun* 9 ! /able ( ! unicorn40 ,= !y blaspheme aga9/ ! raison d'tre ( all life1 !y try to de/roy ! ess5tial1 intr9sic nature ( ,god4 ,b x is ! fight ( opposites :i* is holy4 ,! fight ( l ?+s is evil4 ,= if a ?+ turn r\nd ^u itself 9 bl9d fr5zy ( de/ruction1 ?is is to say3 8,! lamb %all ro> l ! lion1 ! dove /rike d[n h] prey l ! eagle1 & ! unicorn %all dev\r ! innoc5t virg9 9 h] pa?04 ,:i* is precisely ! equival5t blasphemy to ! blasphemy ( univ]sal meekness1 or peace4 ,& ?is1 ?is la/1 is our blasphemy ( ! w>4 ,we w\ld h ! lamb ro> l ! lion1 all doves turn into eagles4 ,,ii ,,! ,,lion ,,beat ,,! ,,unicorn ,,& ,,drove ,,him ,,out ,,( ,,t[n ,life is a travell+ to ! edge ( k1 !n a leap tak54 ,we _c "k be=eh&4 ,we are driv5 f beh9d1 always z ov] ! edge ( ! precipice4 ,x is a leap tak51 into ! beyond1 z a l>k leaps into ! sky1 a fragm5t ( e>? :i* travels to be fus$ out1 sublimat$1 9 ! %9+ ( ! heav5s4 ,b x is n dea?4 ,dea? is nei!r "h nor !re4 ,dea? is a temporal1 relative fact4 ,9 ! absolute1 x means no?+4 ,! l>k falls f ! sky & goes runn+ back to h] ne/4 ,?is is ! ebb ( ! wave4 ,! wave ( e>? flung up 9 spray1 a l>k1 a cl\d ( l>ks1 aga9/ ! :ite wave ( ! sun4 ,! spray ( e>? & ! foam ( heav5 are "o1 consummat$1 a ra9b[ mid-way1 a song4 ,! l>ks return to e>?1 ! rays g back to heav54 ,b ^! are only ! %uttles t weave ! iris1 ! song1 mid-way1 9 absolut5ess1 timelessness4 ,out ( ! d>k1 orig9al flame issues a t9y gre5 flick]1 a we$ com+ alive4 ,on ! edge ( ! bright1 ultimate1 spiritual flame ( ! heav5s is reveal$ a fragm5t ( iris1 a t\* ( gre51 a we$ com+ into be+4 ,! two flames surge & int]m+le1 ca/+ up a cre/ ( leaves & /ems1 _! battlefield1 _! meet+-gr\nd1 _! m>riage b$1 ! embrace becomes clos]1 m un?9kably vivid1 x leaps to climax1 ! battle gr[s fi]c]1 fi]c]1 intol]ably1 till !re is ! swoon1 ! climax1 ! consummation1 ! little yell[ disk gleams absolute betwe5 heav5 & e>?1 radiant ( bo? et]nities1 fram$ 9 ! two inf9ities4 ,:i* is a we$1 a s[-?i/le bur/+ into blossom4 ,& we1 ! =e%ore 9 :om ! waves ( d>k & light are unequally see?+1 we c see ?is p]fection1 ?is absolute1 z "t op5s to disclose x = a mom5t1 l ! ,dove t hov]$ inc&esc5t f heav51 be=e x is clos$ aga9 9 utt] timelessness4 8,b ! w9d passe? ov] x & is gone40 ,! w9d passes ov] x & we are gone4 ,x is "t :i* bl[s 9 l a w9d1 clos+ up ! cl\ds aga9 ^u ! p]fect gleam4 ,x is ! w9d ( "t1 out ( ei!r et]nity1 a w9d :i* has a s\rce & an issue1 :i* swirls pa/ ! light ( ?is absolute1 l waves pa/ a light$ buoy4 ,= ! light is n temporal nor et]nal1 b absolute4 ,& we1 :o are temporal & et]nal1 at mom5ts only we cease f our temporality4 ,9 ^!1 our mom5ts1 we see ! s[-?i/le gleam+1 light )9 d>kness1 d>kness )9 light1 consummat$1 we are ) ! song & ! iris4 ,& !n x is we1 n ! iris1 n ! song1 :o are bl[n away4 ,we are bl[n = a mom5t aga9/ ! yell[ light ( ! w9d[1 ! fl[]1 !n on aga9 into ! d>k turmoil4 ,we h made a mi/ake4 ,we are l travell]s travell+ 9 a tra91 :o wat* ! c\ntry pass by & pass away2 all ( u :o wat* ! sun sett+1 slid+ d[n into ext9ction1 we are mi/ak54 ,x is n ! c\ntry :i* passes by & fades1 x is n ! sun :i* s9ks to oblivion4 ,nei!r is x ! fl[] t )]s1 nor ! song t dies out4 ,x is we :o are c>ri$ pa/ 9 ! see! ( mortality4 ,! fl[] is timeless & beyond condition4 ,x is we :o are swept on 9 ! condition ( "t4 ,s we %all be swept z long z "t la/s4 ,dea? is "p ( ! /ory4 ,b we h be+ also 9 timelessness1 we %all become aga9 absolute1 z we h be5 absolute1 z we are absolute4 ,we "k t we are purely absolute4 ,we "k 9 ! la/ issue we are absolv$ f all opposition4 ,we "k t 9 ! process ( life we are purely relative4 ,b timelessness is our fate1 & "t is subord9ate to our fate4 ,b "t is et]nal4 ,& ! life ( man is l a fl[] t comes into blossom & passes away4 ,9 ! beg9n+1 ! light t\*es ! d>kness1 ! d>kness t\*es ! light1 & ! two embrace4 ,!y embrace 9 opposition1 only 9 _! desire is _! unanimity4 ,!re are two sep>ate /atem5ts1 ! d>k wants ! light1 & ! light wants ! d>k4 ,b ^! two /atem5ts are conta9$ )9 ! "o3 8,!y want ea* o!r40 ,& ?is is ! condition ( absolut5ess1 ?is condition ( _! want+ ea* o!r1 t :i* makes light & d>k consummate ev5 9 opposition4 ,! int]relation betwe5 !m1 ?is is con/ant & absolute1 let x be call$ love or p[] or :at x may4 ,x is all ! ?+s t x c be call$4 ,9 ! beg9n+1 light t\*es d>kness & d>kness t\*es light4 ,!n life has begun4 ,! light enfolds & implicates & involves ! d>k1 ! d>k receives & int]p5etrates ! light1 !y come ne>]1 !y are m f9ely comb9$1 till !y bur/ into ! crisis ( on5ess1 ! blossom1 ! utt] be+1 ! transc5d5t & timeless flame ( ! iris4 ,!n "t passes on4 ,out ( ! swoon ! waves ebb back1 d>k t[>ds ! d>k1 light t[>ds ! light4 ,!y ebb back & away1 ! leaves return unto ! d>kness ( ! e>?1 ! quiv]+ glimm] ( sub/ance returns into ! light1 ! gre5 ( ! la/ wav]+ iris disappe>s1 ! waves ebb ap>t1 fur!r1 fur!r1 fur!r4 ,yet !y nev] sep>ate4 ,! :ole flood rec$es1 ! tides are go+ to sep>ate4 ,& !y sep>ate entirely1 save = "o enfold$ ripple1 ! t9y1 sil5t1 sc>ce-visible enfold$ pools ( ! se$s4 ,^! lie pot5t1 ! meet+-gr\nd1 ! well-head :]e9 ! tides w surge aga91 :5 ! turn comes4 ,?is is ! life ( man4 ,9 him too ! tide sweeps toge!r t[>ds ! utt] consummation1 ! consummation ) ! d>kness1 ! consummation ) ! light1 fle% & _s1 "o culm9at+ crisis1 :5 man passes into timelessness & absolut5ess4 ,! residue ( imp]fect fusion & unfulfill$ desire rema9s1 ! *ild1 ! well-head :]e ! tides w fl[ 9 aga91 ! se$4 ,! absolute relation is nev] fully reveal$4 ,x leaps to its maximum ( revelation 9 ! fl[]1 ! mature life4 ,b "s ( x rolls aside1 lies pot5t 9 ! enfold$ se$4 ,my desire is fulfill$1 ,i1 z individual am become timeless & absolute1 p]fect4 ,b ! :ole desire ( :i* ,i am "p rema9s yet to be consummat$4 ,9 me ! two waves cla% to p]fect consummation4 ,b imm$iately ^u ! cla% come ! next waves ( ! tide rippl+ 91 ! ripples1 =]unn]s1 :i* t9ily meet & enfold ea* o!r1 ! se$1 ! unborn *ild4 ,= we are all waves ( ! tide4 ,b ! tide conta9s all ! waves4 ,x may happ5 t waves :i* meet & m+le come to no consummation1 only a confusion & a swirl & a fall+ away aga94 ,^! are ! myriad lives ( human be+s :i* pass 9 confusion ( no?+ness1 ! uncreat$ lives4 ,!re are myriads ( human lives t are n absolute nor timeless1 myriads t j wav] & toss tempor>ily1 nev] become m ?an relative1 nev] come into be+4 ,!y h no be+1 no immortality4 ,!re are myriads ( plants t nev] come to fl[]1 b :i* p]i% away = ev]1 always sep>at$ 9 ! fr+e ( "t1 nev] unit$1 nev] consummat$1 nev] br\ght =?4 ,i "k ,i am comp\nd ( two waves1 ,i1 :o am temporal & mortal4 ,:5 ,i am timeless & absolute1 all duality has vani%$4 ,b :il/ ,i am temporal & mortal1 ,i am fram$ 9 ! /ruggle & embrace ( ! two opposite waves ( d>kness & ( light4 ,!re is ! wave ( light 9 me :i* seeks ! d>kness1 :i* has = its goal ! ,s\rce & ! ,beg9n+1 = its ,god ! ,almighty ,creator to ,:om is all p[] & glory4 ,?i!r ! light ( ! se$ ( man /ruggles & aspires1 into ! inf9ite d>kness1 ! womb ( all creation4 ,:at way is x t leads me on to ! ,s\rce1 to ! ,beg9n+8 ,x is ! way ( ! blood1 ! way ( p[]4 ,d[n ! road ( ! blood1 fur!r & fur!r into ! d>kness1 ,i come to ! ,almighty ,god ,:o 0 9 ! beg9n+1 is n[1 & ev] %all be4 ,i come to ! ,s\rce ( ,p[]4 ,i am receiv$ back into ! utt] d>kness ( ! ,creator1 ,i am once aga9 ) ,him4 ,?is is a consummation1 a becom+ et]nal4 ,?is is an arrival into et]nity4 ,b et]nity is only relative4 ,i c become "o ) ,god1 consummat$ into et]nity1 by tak+ ! road d[n ! s5ses into ! utt] d>kness ( p[]1 till ,i am "o ) ! d>kness ( initial p[]1 beyond k ( any opposite4 ,x is ?us1 seek+ consummation 9 ! utt] d>kness1 t ,i come to ! woman 9 desire4 ,%e is ! doorway1 %e is ! gate to ! d>k et]nity ( p[]1 ! creator's p[]4 ,:5 ,i put my h& on h]1 my he>t beats ) a passion ( fe> & ec/asy1 = ,i t\* my own pass+ away1 my own ceas+-to-be1 ,i appreh5d my own consummation 9 a d>kness :i* oblit]ates me 9 its inf9ity4 ,my ve9s rock z if !y 7 be+ de/roy$1 ! blood takes fire on ! edge ( oblivion1 & beats backw>d & =w>d4 ,i resi/1 yet ,i am compell$2 ! woman resi/s1 yet %e is compell$4 ,& we are ! relative p>ts dom9at$ by ! /range compulsion ( ! absolute4 ,gradually my ve9s relax _! gates1 gradually ! rock+ blood goes =w>d1 quiv]s on ! edge ( oblivion1 !n yields itself up1 passes into ! bord]l& ( oblivion4 ,oh1 & !n ,i w\ld die1 ,i w\ld quickly die1 to h all p[]1 all life at once1 to come in/antly to pure1 et]nal oblivion1 ! s\rce ( life4 ,b pati5ce is fi]ce at ! bottom ( me2 fi]ce1 indomitable1 abid+ pati5ce4 ,s my blood goes =? 9 %ock aft] %ock ( deliri\s pass+-away1 9 %ock aft] %ock ent]+ into consummation1 till my s\l is slipp+ its moor+s1 my m9d1 my w fuses d[n1 ,i melt out & am gone into ! et]nal d>kness1 ! primal creative d>kness reigns1 & ,i am n1 & at la/ ,i am4 ,%ock aft] %ock ( ec/asy & ! angui% ( ec/asy1 dea? aft] dea? ( trespass into ! unkn[n1 till ,i fall d[n into ! flame1 ,i lapse into ! intol]able flame1 a pallid %ad[ ,i am transfus$ into ! flux ( un5durable d>kness1 & am gone4 ,no sp>k nor ve/ige rema9s )9 ! supreme d>k fl[ ( ! flame1 ,i am contribut$ aga9 to ! immortal s\rce4 ,i am ) ! d>k ,almighty ( ! beg9n+4 ,till1 new-creat$1 ,i am ?r[n =? aga9 on ! %ore ( creation1 w>m & lu/r\s1 goodly1 new born f ! d>kness out ( :i* all "t has issu$4 ,& !n1 new-born on ! knees ( d>kness1 new-issu$ f ! womb ( creation1 ,i op5 my eyes to ! light & "k ! goal1 ! end1 ! light :i* /&s ov] ! end ( ! j\rney1 ! ev]la/+ day1 ! on5ess ( ! _s4 ,! new j\rney1 ! new life has begun1 ! travell+ to ! opposite et]nity1 to ! inf9ite light ( ! ,_s1 ! consummation 9 ! ,_s4 ,my s\rce & issue is 9 two et]nities1 ,i am f\nd$ 9 ! two inf9ities4 ,b absolute is ! ra9b[ t goes betwe52 ! iris ( my v be+4 ,x may be1 h[ev]1 t ! se$ ( light nev] propagates )9 ! d>kness1 t ! light 9 me is /]ile1 t ,i am nev] re-born )9 ! womb1 ! ,s\rce1 to be issu$ t[>ds ! opposite et]nity4 ,x may be !re is a great inequality1 disproportion1 )9 me1 t ,i am ne>ly all d>kness1 l ! night1 ) a few glimm]s ( cold light1 moonlight1 l ! tig] ) :ite eyes ( reflect$ light br9dl$ 9 ! flame ( d>kness4 ,!n ,i %all return aga9 & aga9 to ! womb ( d>kness1 avid1 nev] satisfi$1 my _s w fall unf]tile into ! womb1 w nev] be conceiv$ !re1 nev] br\ght =?4 ,i %all "k ! "o consummation1 ! "o direction only1 into ! d>kness4 ,x w be ) me = ev] ! almo/1 almo/1 almo/1 ( satisfaction1 ( fulfilm5t4 ,i %all "k ! "o et]nity1 ! "o inf9ite1 ! "o immortality1 ,i %all h p>tial be+2 b nev] ! :ole1 nev] ! full4 ,!re is an inf9ite :i* does n "k me4 ,i am always relative1 always p>tial1 always1 9 ! la/ issue1 unconsummate4 ,! b>r5 womb c nev] be satisfi$1 if ! quick ( d>kness be /]ile )9 x4 ,b nei!r c ! unf]tile lo9s be satisfi$1 if ! se$ ( light1 ( ! _s1 be dead )9 !m4 ,!y w return aga9 & aga9 & aga9 to ! womb ( d>kness1 ask+1 ask+1 & nev] satisfi$4 ,!n ! unconsummat$ s\l1 unsatisfi$1 uncreat$ 9 "p1 w seek to make itself :ole by br++ ! :ole _w "u its own ord]1 w seek to make itself absolute & timeless by dev\r+ its opposite4 ,adh]+ to ! "o et]nity ( d>kness1 x w seek to dev\r ! et]nity ( light4 ,realis+ ! "o inf9ite ( ! ,s\rce1 x w endeav\r to absorb into its on5ess ! opposite inf9ite ( ! ,goal4 ,?is is ! inf9ite ) its tail 9 its m\?4 ,consummat$ 9 "o inf9ite1 & "o alone1 ?is s\l w ass]t ! on5ess ( all ?+s1 t all ?+s are "o 9 ! ,"o ,inf9ite ( ! ,d>kness1 ( ! ,s\rce4 ,"o is "o & all alone & ev] m %all be s4 ,?is is ! cry ( ! ,s\l consummat$ 9 "o et]nity only4 ,!re is "o et]nity1 "o inf9ite1 "o ,god4 8,?\ %alt h no o!r god be=e me40 ,b :y ?is ,comm&m5t1 unless !re 7 9 tru? ano!r god1 at lea/ ! equal ( ,jehovah8 ,consummat$ 9 ! d>kness only1 hav+ n en\gh /r5g? 9 ! light1 ! p>tial s\l cries out 9 a convulsion ( insi/5ce t ! d>kness alone is inf9ite & et]nal1 t all light is f ! small1 conta9$ s\rces1 ! lamps light$ at w by ! desire ( ! ,creator1 ! sun1 ! moon & />s4 ,^! are ! lamps & c&les ( ! ,almighty1 :i* ,he bl[s out at w4 ,^! are little portions ( special d>kness1 d>kness transfigur$1 ^! lights4 ,!re is "o ,god1 "o ,creator1 "o ,almighty2 !re is "o inf9ite & "o et]nity1 x is ! inf9ite & ! et]nity ( ! ,s\rce4 ,!re is ,"o ,way3 x is ! ,way ( ! ,law4 ,!re is "o ,life1 ! ,life ( ,creation1 !re is "o ,goal1 ! ,beg9n+1 !re is "o immortality1 ! immortality ( ! great ,i ,am4 ,all is ,god1 ! ,"o ,god4 ,^? :o d5y ?is are to be /amp$ out1 tortur$1 tortur$ = ev]4 ,x is possible !n to d5y x8 ,hav+ decl>$ ! ,"o ,god1 !n ! p>tial s\l1 fulfill$ ( ! d>kness only1 proce$s to e/abli% ?is ,god on e>?1 to dev\r & oblit]ate all else4 ,ris+ f ! d>kness ( consummation 9 ! fle%1 ) ! woman1 x seeks to e/abli% its k+dom ov] all ! _w4 ,x /rides =?1 ! "l1 ! ma/]1 /rong = ma/]y4 ,x w dom9ate all1 all1 x w br+ all "u ! rules ( itself1 ( ! ,"o1 ! ,d>kness light$ ) ! lamps ( its own *oice4 ,?is is ! h]oic tyrant1 ! fabul\s k+-w>rior1 l ,s>danapolus or ,caes>1 l ,saul ev54 ,^! w>rior k+s seek to pass beyond all relat$ness1 to become absolute 9 might & p[]4 ,& !y fall inevitably4 ,_! ,judas is a ,david1 a ,brutus3 ! individual :o kn[s some?+ ( bo? flames1 b commits himself to nei!r4 ,he holds himself1 9 8 own ego1 sup]ior ei!r to ! creative d>k p[]-flame1 or ! consci\s love-flame4 ,& s1 he is ! small man slay+ ! great4 ,he is virtu\s egoi/ic ,brutus1 or ,david3 ,david slay+ ! prepo/]\s ,golia?1 ov]?r[+ ! h]oic ,saul1 tak+ ,ba?%eba & s5d+ ,uriah to dea?3 ,david danc+ nak$ be=e ! ,ark1 ass]t+ ! on5ess1 8 own on5ess1 ! "o inf9ity1 himself1 ! egoi/ic ,god1 ,i ,,am4 ,& ,david nev] w5t 9 unto ,mi*al any m1 because %e je]$ at him4 ,s t %e 0 b>r5 all h] life4 ,b x 0 ,david :o really 0 b>r54 ,mi*al1 :5 %e mock$1 mock$ ! /]ility ( ,david4 ,= ! _s 9 him 0 bla/$ ) unf]tility2 he c\ld n become born aga91 he c\ld n be conceiv$ 9 ! _s4 ,mi*al1 ! womb ( pr(\nd d>kness1 c\ld n conceive to ! ov]weak se$ ( ,david's _s4 ,david's se$ 0 too impure1 too feeble 9 %e] _s1 too egoi/ic1 x br$ & begot prepond]ant egoi/s4 ,! flood ( vanity set 9 aft] ,david1 ! lamps & c&les began to gutt]4 ,p[] is %e] flame1 & _s is %e] flame1 & betwe5 !m is ! clue ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,b ,david put a false clue betwe5 !m3 ! clue ( 8 own ego1 cunn+ & triumphant4 ,x is unf]tility ( _s :i* s5ds man rag+ to ! woman1 & s5ds him rag+ away aga91 unsatisfi$4 ,x is n ! woman's b>r5ness3 x is 8 own4 ,x is /]ility 9 himself :i* makes a ,don ,juan4 ,& ! c\rse ( ! b>r5 _s is dogmatically to ass]t ,"o ,god1 ,"o ,way1 ,"o ,glory1 "o exclusive salvation4 ,& ?is ,"o ,god is inde$ ,god1 ?is "o ,way is ! way1 b x is ! way ( egoism1 & ! ,"o ,god is ! reflection1 inevitably1 ( ! wor%ipp]'s ego4 ,?is is ! %am ,cr[n1 :i* ! victori\s lion & ! victori\s unicorn alike puts on 8 own head4 ,:5 ei!r triumphs1 ! true cr[n disappe>s1 & ! triumphant puts a false cr[n on 8 own head3 ! cr[n ( /]ile egoism4 ,! true ,cr[n is above ! fight itself1 & above ! embrace itself1 n ^u ! br[ ( ei!r fight] or lov]4 ,or1 if y l1 9 ! true fight x %9es equally ^u ! br[ ( ! defeat$ & ! w9n]4 ,= sometimes1 x is bless$ to be beat5 9 a fight4 ,he :o triumphs1 p]i%es4 ,z ,caes> p]i%$1 & ,napoleon4 ,9 ! fight !y 7 wond]ful1 & ! p[] 0 ) !m4 ,b :5 !y w\ld be supreme1 %e] triumph]s1 exalt$ 9 _! own ego1 !n !y fell4 ,triumph is a false absolution1 ! w9n] salutes 8 enemy1 & ! light ( victory is on bo? _! br[s1 s9ce bo? are consummat$4 ,9 ! same way1 ,jesus triumphant p]i%$4 ,any individual :o w triumph1 9 love or 9 w>1 p]i%es4 ,!re is no triumph4 ,!re is b consummation 9 ei!r case4 ,s ,%elley also p]i%es4 ,he wants to be love triumphant1 z ,napoleon want$ to be p[] triumphant4 ,bo? fell4 ,9 bo?1 !re is ! spuri\sness ( ! ego try+ to seize ! ,cr[n t belongs only to ! consummation4 ,9 ! ,roman 8,triumph0 itself lay ! s\rce ( ,rome's d[nfall4 ,& 9 ! arrogance ( ,engl&'s disp5sation ( ,lib]ty 9 ! _w lies ! d[nfall ( ,engl&4 ,:5 ,lib]ty triumphs1 z 9 ,russia1 :]e !n is ! ,briti% ,empire8 ,:]e !n is ! ,briti% ,lion1 cr[n$ ,fidei ,def5sor1 ,def5d] ( ! ,fai? ( ,lib]ty & ,love8 ,:5 lib]ty ne$s no m def5d+1 !n ! protective lion _h bett] look out4 ,take c>e ( ass]t+ any absolute1 ei!r ( p[] or love1 ( empire or democracy4 ,! mom5t p[] triumphs1 x becomes spuri\s ) %e] egoism1 l ,caes> & ,napoleon4 ,& ! mom5t democracy triumphs1 x too becomes hide\s ) egoism1 l ,russia n[4 ,ei!r lion or unicorn1 triumphant1 turns into a %e] bea/ ( prey4 ,foe x has none3 only prey--or victims4 ,s we h se5 9 ! _w1 e "t t p[] has triumph$3 e "t ! lion & ! eagle h jamm$ ! cr[n d[n on _! heads4 ,n[ x w be giv5 u to see democracy triumphant1 ! unicorn & ! dove seiz+ ! cr[n1 & on ! in/ant turn+ into bea/s ( prey4 ,! true cr[n is ^u ! consummation itself1 n ^u ! triumph ( "o ov] ano!r1 nei!r 9 love nor 9 p[]4 ,! ego is ! false absolute4 ,& ! ego cr[n$ ) ! cr[n is ! mon/] & ! tyrant1 :e!r x repres5t "o man1 an ,emp]or1 or a :ole mass ( p1 a ,demos4 ,a million egos summ$ up "u a cr[n are n bett] ?an "o individual cr[n$ ego4 ,!y are a million times worse4 ,,iii ,,! ,,flux ,,( ,,corruption ,! tig] blaz$ transc5d5t into immortal d>kness4 ,! unique pho5ix ( ! des]t grew up to maturity & wisdom4 ,sitt+ ^u h] tree1 %e 0 ! only "o ( h] k9d 9 all creation1 supreme1 ! z5i?1 ! p]fect ari/ocrat4 ,%e atta9$ to p]fection1 eagle-l %e rose 9 h] ne/ & lift$ h] w+s1 surpass+ ! z5i? ( mortality2 s %e 0 translat$ into ! flame ( et]nity1 %e became "o ) ! fi]y ,orig94 ,x 0 n = h] to sit tight1 & ass]t h] own tight ego4 ,%e 0 gone z %e came4 ,9 ! ne/ 0 a little a%1 a little floccul5t grey du/ wav]+ ^u a blue-r$1 dy+ coal4 ,! r$ coal /irr$ & ga!r$ /r5g?1 gradually x grew :ite ) heat1 x %ot =? %>p gold flames4 ,x 0 ! "y pho5ix )9 ! ne/1 ) curv$ beak gr[+ h>d & cry/al1 l a scimit>1 & talons h>d5+ into pure jewels4 ,:]e91 h[ev]1 is ! immortality1 9 ! con/ant occupation ( ! ne/1 ! wid['s cruse1 or 9 ! surpass+ ( ! pho5ix8 ,%e goes gadd+ (f into flame1 into h] consummation4 ,9 ! flame %e is timeless4 ,b ! a% )9 ! ne/ lies 9 ! re/less holl[ ( "t1 %ak5 on ! tall tree ( ! des]t4 ,x w rise to ! same consummation1 become absolute 9 flame4 ,9 a l[1 %ady bu%1 f> (f1 on ! o!r side ( ! _w1 :]e ! ra9s are cold & ! mi/s wrap ! leaves 9 a *illness1 ! r+-dove presses l[ on ! b\gh1 :ile h] mate s5ds =? ! la/ ru-cuooo ( peace4 ,! mi/ d>k5s & ebbs-9 9 waves1 ! trees are melt$ away1 all ?+s pass into a univ]sal on5ess1 ) ! la/ re-e*o+ dove1 peace1 all pure peace1 ebb+ 9 s(t]1 s(t] waves to a univ]sal /illness4 ,! d>k blue tranquillity is univ]sal & inf9ite1 ! doves are asleep 9 ! sleep+ b\ghs1 all fruits are fall5 & are sil5t & cold1 all ! leaves melt away into pure mi/ ( d>kness4 ,x is /range1 t away on ! o!r side ( ! _w1 ! tig] gleams ?r\gh ! hot-purple d>kness1 & :]e ! dawn comes crimson1 ! pho5ix lifts h] w+s 9 a yawn l an ov]-sumptu\s eagle1 & passes into flame above ! gold5 palpable fire ( ! des]t4 ,"h are ! oppos+ ho/s ( angels1 ! ruddy *oirs1 ! upright1 ru%+ flames1 ! l(ty ,*]ubim t palpitate ab\t ! ,pres5ce1 ! ,s\rce2 & !n ! tall1 /ill angels s(t & pe>ly z mi/1 :o await r\nd ! ,goal1 ! att5dants t hov] on ! edge ( ! la/ ,assumption4 ,& f ! se$ two travell]s set =?1 9 opposite directions1 ! "o conc5trat+ t[>ds ! upp]1 ruddy1 blaz+ sun1 ! z5i?1 ! creative fire2 ! o!r t[>ds ! blue1 cold sil5ce1 divid+ itself & ev] divid+ itself till x is inf9ite 9 ! univ]sal d>kness4 ,& at ! summit1 ! z5i?1 !re is a fla%1 a flame1 z ! travell] ent]s into inf9ite1 !re is a r$ spla% z ! poppy leaps into ! upp]1 fi]y et]nity4 ,& f> bel[ !re is un?9kable sil5ce z ! roots ramify & divide & pass into ! on5ess ( unutt]able sil5ce4 ,! flame is gone1 ! fl[] has leapt away1 ! fruit rip5s & falls4 ,!n d>k ebbs back to d>k1 & light to light1 hot to hot1 & cold to cold4 ,?is is dea? & decay & corruption4 ,& ! worm1 ! maggot1 ^! are ! m9i/]s ( sep>ation1 ^! are ! t9y cla%+ ripples t /ill ebb toge!r1 :5 ! *ief tide has set back1 to fl[ utt]ly ap>t4 ,?is is ! t]ror & wond] ( d>k return+ to d>k1 & ( light return+ to light1 ! two dep>t+ back to _! ,s\rces4 ,?is we _c be> to ?9k (4 ,x is ! temporal flux ( corruption1 z ! flux toge!r 0 ! temporal flux ( creation4 ,! flux is temporal4 ,x is only ! p]fect meet+1 ! p]fect int]p5etration into on5ess1 ! kiss1 ! bl[1 ! two-9-"o1 t is timeless & absolute4 ,& d>k is n will+ to return to d>k till x has kn[n ! light1 nor light to light till x has kn[n ! d>k1 till ! two h be5 consummat$ into on5ess4 ,b ! act ( dea? may itself be a consummation1 & life may be a /ate ( negation4 ,x may be t our /ate ( life is itself a d5ial ( ! consummation1 a prev5tion1 a negation2 t ?is life is our nullification1 our n-be+4 ,x may be t ! fl[] is held f ! se>* ( ! light1 & ! roots f ! d>k1 l a plant t is pot-b\nd4 ,x may be t1 z 9 ! autumnal cabbage1 ! light & ! d>k are made prison]s 9 u1 _! opposition is ov]come1 ! ultimate mov+ has ceas$4 ,we h =gott5 our goal & our end4 ,we h enclos$ ourselves 9 our exfoliation1 !re are _m little *annels t run out into ! s&4 ,?is is evil1 :5 t :i* is temporal & relative ass]ts itself et]nal & absolute4 ,?is ,i1 :i* ,i am1 has no be+ save 9 timelessness4 ,9 my consummation1 :5 t :i* came f ! ,beg9n+ & t :i* came f ! ,end are transfus$ into on5ess1 !n ,i come into be+1 ,i h exi/5ce4 ,till !n ,i am only a "p ( nature2 ,i am n4 ,b z "p ( nature1 z "p ( ! flux1 ,i h my in/rum5tal id5tity1 my inf]ior ,i1 my self-consci\s ego4 ,if ,i say t ,i am1 ?is is false & evil4 ,i am n4 ,among u all1 h[ _m h be+8--too few4 ,our ready-made individuality1 our id5tity is no m ?an an accid5tal cohesion 9 ! flux ( "t4 ,! cohesion w break d[n & utt]ly cease to be4 ,! atoms w return into ! flux ( ! univ]se4 ,& t unit ( cohesion :i* ,i 0 w vani% utt]ly4 ,matt] is inde/ructible1 _s is inde/ructible4 ,?is ( u rema9s1 9 any case1 g5]al 9 ! flux4 ,b ! s\l t has n come into be+ has no be+ = ev]4 ,! s\l does n come into be+ at bir?4 ,! s\l comes into be+ 9 ! mid/ ( life1 j z ! pho5ix 9 h] maturity becomes immortal 9 flame4 ,t is n h] p]i%+3 x is h] becom+ absolute3 a blossom ( fire4 ,if %e did n pass into flame1 %e w\ld nev] really exi/4 ,x is by h] translation into fire t %e is ! pho5ix4 ,o!rwise %e 7 only a bird1 a transitory cohesion 9 ! flux4 ,x is absurd to talk ab\t all m5 be+ immortal1 all hav+ s\ls4 ,v few m5 h be+ at all4 ,!y p]i% utt]ly1 z individuals4 ,_! endurance aft]w>ds is ! endurance ( ,matt] )9 ! flux1 non-individual3 & _s )9 ! flux4 ,mo/ m5 are j transitory natural ph5om5a4 ,:e!r !y live or die does n matt]3 except 9 s f> z e failure 9 ! "p is a failure 9 ! :ole4 ,_! dea? is ( no m matt] ?an ! cutt+ ( a cabbage 9 ! g>d51 an act utt]ly ap>t f grace4 ,!y ass]t !mselves z important1 z absolute mortals4 ,!y are j li>s4 ,:5 "o cuts a fat autumnal cabbage1 "o cuts (f a lie1 to boil x d[n 9 ! pot4 ,!y are all j fat lies1 ^! p1 ^! _m p1 ^! mortals4 ,!y are innum]able cabbages 9 ! regulat$ cabbage plot4 ,& our great m5 are no m ?an ,mrs4 ,wiggs ( ! ,cabbage ,pat*4 ,! cabbage is a nice fat lie4 ,t is :y we eat x4 ,x is ! bus9ess ( ! tru?ful to eat up ! lies4 ,a fatt$ c[ is a lie1 & a fat pig is a lie1 & a fatt$ %eep is a lie1 j ! same3 ^! sacrificial bea/s1 ^! lambs & calves1 become fat lies :5 !y are m]ely protect$ & f$ full4 ,! cabbage is a lie because x ass]ts itself z a p]man5cy1 9 ! /ate :]e9 x f9ds itself4 ,9 ! swirl ( ! ,beg9n+ & ! ,end1 /alk & leaves take place4 ,b ! /alk & leaves are only ! swirl ( ! waves4 ,yet !y say1 !y are absolute1 !y h a*iev$ a p]man5t =m4 ,x is a lie4 ,_! univ]sal absolute is only ! f>-(f dawn+ ( ! tru?1 ! false dawn :i* 9 itself is no?+1 no?+ except 9 relation to t :i* comes aft]4 ,b !y say1 8,we are ! consummation & ! reality1 we are ! fulfilm5t40 ,?is is pure amorph\sness4 ,ea* "o becomes a s+le1 sep>ate entity1 a s+le sep>ate nullity4 ,hav+ />t$ along ! way to et]nity1 !y say1 8,we are !re1 we h arriv$10 & !y enclose !mselves 9 ! nullity ( ! falsehood4 ,& ?is is ! /ate ( man1 :5 he falls into self-suffici5cy1 & ass]ts t 8 self-consci\s ego is ,x4 ,he falls into ! condition ( f9e cabbages4 ,!n !y are weal?y & fat4 ,!y g no fur!r1 s !y become weal?y4 ,all t great =ce :i* w\ld c>ry !m nak$ ov] ! edge ( "t1 into timelessness1 into be+1 !y conv]t into fatness1 into hav+4 ,& !y are full ( self-satisfaction4 ,hav+ no be+1 !y ass]t _! artificial complet5ess1 & ! life )9 !m becomes a w-to-h2 :i* is ! expression ( ! w-to-p]si/1 9 ! tempor>y unit4 ,selfi%ness is ! subjugat+ ( all ?+s to a false entity1 & ri*es is ! great flux ov] ! edge ( ! bottomless pit1 ! falsity1 ! nullity4 ,= :]e is ! ri* man :o is n ! v bottomless pit8 ,travel ne>]1 ne>]1 ne>] to him1 & "o comes to ! gap1 ! hole1 ! abyss :]e 8 s\l %\ld be4 ,he is n4 ,& to /op up 8 holl[ness1 he drags all ?+s unto himself4 ,& :at are we all1 all ( u1 collectively1 ev5 ! poore/1 n[1 9 ?is age8 ,we are only pot5tially ri* m54 ,we are all alike4 ,! di/9ction betwe5 ri* & poor is purely accid5tal4 ,ri* & poor alike are only1 ea* "o1 a pit-head surr\nd+ ! bottomless pit4 ,b ! ri* man1 by p\r+ va/ quantities ( matt] d[n 8 void1 gives himself a m pleasant illusion ( fulfilm5t ?an ! poor man c get3 t is all4 ,yet we w\ld give our lives1 e "o ( u1 = ?is illusion4 ,!re are no ri* or poor1 !re are no masses & middle classes & ari/ocrats4 ,!re are myriads ( fram$ gaps1 p1 & a few timeless f\nta9s1 m5 & wom54 ,t is all4 ,myriads ( fram$ gaps6 ,myriads ( little egos1 all we>+ ! cr[n ( life6 ,myriads ( little ,humpty-,dumpties1 self-satisfi$ empt9esses1 all ab\t to h a great fall4 ,! curr5t ideal is to be a gap ) a great heap ( matt] ar\nd x1 :i* c be s5t clatt]+ d[n4 ,! mo/ sacr$ ?+ is to give all y\r hav+ s t x c be put on ! heaps t surr\nd all ! o!r bottomless pits4 ,if y give away all y\r hav+1 ev5 y\r life1 !n1 y are a bottomless pit ) no sides to x4 ,:i* is inf9ite4 ,s t to become inf9ite1 give away all y\r hav+1 ev5 to y\r life4 ,s t y w a*ieve immortality y\rself4 ,l ! h]oes ( ! w>1 y w become ! bottomless pit itself2 b m ?an ?is1 y w be contribut+ to ! public good1 y w be "o ( ^? :o make bless$ hi/ory3 :i* means1 y w be heap+ goods ^u ! dw9dl+ heaps ( sup]fluity t surr\nds ^! bottomless lives ( ! myriad p4 ,if we poor c ea* ( u hire a s]vant1 !n ! s]vant w be l a /one tumbl+ always ahead ( u d[n ! bottomless pit4 ,:i* creates an almo/ p]fect illusion ( hav+ a solid e>? b5ea? u4 ,long ago we agre$ t we _h fulfill$ all purpose & t our only bus9ess 0 to look aft] o!r p4 ,we said2 8,x is m>vell\s1 we are really complete40 ,if ! regulation cabbage1 hide-b\nd & solid1 c\ld walk ab\t on 8 /alk1 he w\ld be v mu* z we are4 ,he w\ld ?9k ( himself z we ?9k ( ourselves1 he w\ld talk1 z we talk1 ( ! public good4 ,b inside him1 prop] & f9e1 ! he>t w\ld be knock+ & urg5t1 ! he>t ( ! cabbage4 ,( c\rse = a long "t he w\ld n he> x4 ,8 good1 envelop+ gre5 leaves outside1 ! heap r\nd ! hole1 w\ld h clos$ ^u him v e>ly1 l ,wordswor?'s 8,%ades ( ! prison h\se10 v close & complete & gratify+4 ,b ! he>t w\ld beat )9 him1 beat & beat1 gr[ l\d] & l\d]1 till x 0 ?re%+ ! :ole ( 8 inside rott51 ?re%+ him holl[1 till 8 inside began to dev\r 8 consci\sness4 ,!n he w\ld say3 8,i mu/ d some?+40 ,look+ r\nd he w\ld see little dw9dly cabbages /ruggl+ 9 ! pat*1 & w\ld say3 8,s mu* inju/ice1 s mu* suff]+ & pov]ty 9 ! _w1 x _c be40 ,!n he w\ld set =? to make dw9dly cabbages into prop]1 f9e cabbages4 ,s he w\ld be a re=m]4 ,he w\ld kick1 kick1 kick aga9/ ! conditions :i* make "s cabbages poor & dw9dly1 mo/ cabbages poor] & m dw9dly ?an himself4 ,he w\ld b be kick+ aga9/ ! pricks4 ,b x is v pr(itable to kick aga9/ ! pricks4 ,x gives "o a s5sation1 & saves "o ! necessity ( bur/+4 ,if our re=m]s _h n _h ! prickly wrongs ( ! poor to kick1 s t !y hurt _! toe q sorely1 !y might long ago h bur/ outw>ds f ! enclos$ =m 9 :i* we h kept secure4 ,let no "o suff]1 !y h said4 ,no m\se %all be caught by a cat1 no m\se4 ,x is a transgression4 ,e m\se %all become a pet1 & e cat %all lap milk 9 peace1 f ! sauc] ( utt] b5evol5ce4 ,?is is ! mill5nium1 ! gold5 age t is to be1 :5 all %all be dome/icat$1 & ! lion & ! leop>d & ! hawk %all come to our door to lap milk & to peck ! crumbs1 & no s\nd %all be he>d b ! l[+ ( fat c[s & ! baa-+ ( fat %eep4 ,?is is ! ,gre5 ,age t is to be1 ! age ( ! p]fect cabbage4 ,?is 0 our hope & our fulfilm5t1 = ?is1 9 ?is hope1 we liv$ & we di$4 ,s ! virtu\s1 public-spirit$ ones h suff]$ bitt]ly f ! aspect ( _! myriad m-or-less blight$ neighbors1 :om !y love z !mselves4 ,!y h liv$ & di$ to "r ! wrong conditions ( social inju/ice4 ,mean:ile ! ?re%+ has cont9u$ at ! core ( u1 till our entrails are ?re%$ rott54 ,we are a w9c+ mass ( self-consci\sness & corruption1 )9 our plausible r9d4 ,! mo/ unselfi%1 ! mo/ humanit>ian ( u all1 he is ! holl[e/ & fulle/ ( rott5ness4 ,! m rott5 we become1 ! m insi/5t & insane becomes our desire to ameliorate ! conditions ( our poor]1 & maybe heal?i] neighb\rs4 ,fools1 vile fools6 ,:y _c we ackn[l$ge & admit ! horrible pulse & ?re% ( corruption )9 u4 ,:at is ?is self-consci\sness t palpitates )9 u l a disease8 ,:at is x t ?re%es & ?re%es )9 u1 drives u mad if we see a cat cat* a sp>r[8 ,we d>e n "k4 ,oh1 we are convuls$ ) %ame long be=e we come to ! po9t4 ,x is indec5t beyond endurance to ?9k ( x4 ,yet "h let x be told4 ,x 0 ! liv+ desire = immortality1 = be+1 :i* urg$ u ceaselessly4 ,x 0 ! bud )9 ! cabbage1 ?re%+1 ?re%+1 ?re%+4 ,& n[1 oh our convulsion ( %ame1 :5 we mu/ "k ?is6 ,we w\ld r die4 ,yet x %all be made kn[n4 ,x 0 ! /ruggl+ ( ! light & d>kness )9 u1 t[>ds consummation1 t[>ds absolut5ess1 t[>ds fl[]+4 ,oh1 we %riek ) ang] ( %ame z ! tru? comes out3 t ! cabbage is rott5 )9 because x want$ to /raddle up into weakly fi]y fl[]1 want$ to /raddle =? 9 a spire ( ragg$1 yell[1 inconsequ5tial blossom4 ,oh ,god1 x is un5durable1 ?is revelation1 ?is disclosure1 x is n to be borne4 ,our s\ls p]i% 9 an agony ( self-consci\s %ame1 we w n h x4 ,yet _h we li/5$1 ! hide-b\nd cabbage might h bur/1 might h op5$ ap>t1 = a v5tur+ =? ( ! t5d]1 timid1 ridicul\s clu/] ( aspirations1 t issue 9 little yell[ tips ( flame1 ! fl[]s nak$ 9 et]nity1 nak$ above ! />+ unborn cr[d ( amorph\s entities1 ! cabbages3 ! myriad egos4 ,b ! cr[d ( ass]tive egos1 ( t\gh entities1 !y 7 too /rong1 too _m4 ,quickly !y ext+ui%$ any %oot ( t5d] immortality f among !m1 viol5tly !y adh]$ to ! null r9d & to ! ?re% ( rott5ness )94 ,/ill ! liv+ desire beat & ?re%$ at ! he>t ( u1 rel5tlessly4 ,& /ill ! fix$ w ( ! temporal =m we h s f> atta9$1 ! /atic1 mid-way =m1 triumph$ 9 ass]tion4 ,/ill ! false ,i1 ! ego1 held d[n ! real1 unborn ,i1 :i* is a blossom ) all a blossom's fragility4 ,yet con/antly ! ris+ fl[] pu%$ & ?ru/ at ! belly & he>t ( u1 ?ra%$ & beat rel5tlessly4 ,if x c\ld n beat its way ?r\gh into be+1 x mu/ ?ra% u holl[4 ,let x d s !n1 we said4 ,?is also we enjoy1 ?is be+ ?re%$ rott5 inside4 ,?is is s5sationalism1 r$uction ( ! complex tissue back ?r\gh rott5ness to its elem5ts4 ,& ?is s5sationalism1 ?is r$uction back1 has become our v life1 our only =m ( life at all4 ,we enjoy x1 x is our lu/4 ,x became at la/ a collective activity1 a w>1 :51 )9 ! great r9d ( virtue we ?re% de/ruction fur!r & fur!r1 till our :ole civilization is l a great r9d full ( corruption1 ( break+ d[n1 a m]e %ell ?reat5$ ) collapse ^u itself4 ,& ! road ( corruption leads back to "o et]nity4 ,! activity ( utt] go+ ap>t has1 9 et]nity1 a result equival5t to ! result ( utt] com+ toge!r4 ,! tig] rises supreme1 ! la/ br9dl$ flame ^u ! d>kness2 ! de] melts away1 a blood-/a9$ %ad[ receiv$ into ! utt] pallor ( light2 ea* hav+ leapt =w>d into et]nity1 at opposite extremes4 ,)9 ! clos$ %ell ( ! ,*ri/ian conception1 we lapse utt]ly back1 ?r\gh r$uction1 back to ! ,beg9n+4 ,x is ! triumph ( dea?1 ( decomposition4 ,& ! process is t ( ! s]p5t ly+ prone 9 ! cold1 wat]y fire ( corruption1 flick]+ ) ! fl[+-ap>t ( ! two /reams4 ,8 belly is :ite ) ! light fl[+ =? f him1 8 back is d>k & br9dl$ :]e ! d>kness returns to ! ,s\rce4 ,he is ! ridge :]e ! two floods fl[ ap>t4 ,s 9 ! orange-speckl$ belly ( ! newt1 ! light is tak+ leave ( ! d>kness1 & return+ to ! light2 ! imp]i\s1 demon-l cre/ is ! fl[+ home ( ! d>kness4 ,he is ! god )9 ! flux ( corruption1 f him proce$s ! great retrogression back to ! ,beg9n+ & back to ! ,end4 ,^! are our gods4 ,!re are else:]e ! gold5 angels ( ! ,kiss1 ! gold51 fi]y angels ( /rife1 ^? t h be+ :5 we come toge!r1 z opposites1 z complem5ts com+ to consummation4 ,!re is delight & triumph else:]e1 ^! angels s\nd _! l\d trumpets4 ,!n m5 are l br&s t h bur/ spontane\sly into flame1 ! pho5ix1 ! tig]1 ! gli/5+ dove1 ! :ite-burn+ unicorn4 ,b "h are only ! angels t cleave asund]1 t]rible & inv9cible4 ,) cold1 irresi/ible h&s !y put u ap>t1 !y s5d l unto l1 d>kness unto d>kness4 ,!y ?ru/ ! seas backw>d f embrace1 backw>d f ! lock$ /rife4 ,!y set ! cold phosphoresc5t flame ( light fl[+ back to ! light1 & cold heavy d>kness fl[+ back to ! d>kness4 ,!y are ! absolute angels ( corruption1 !y are ! snake1 ! newt1 ! wat]-lily1 z reflect$ f bel[4 ,i cease to be1 my d>kness lapses into utt]1 /one d>kness1 my light into a light t is ke5 & cold z fro/4 ,?is goes on )9 ! r9d4 ,b ! r9d rema9s p]man5t1 falsely absolute1 my false absolute self1 my self-consci\s ego4 ,till ! "w ( corruption is f9i%$2 !n ! r9d also1 ! public =m1 ! civilization1 ! e/abli%$ consci\sness ( mank9d disappe>s z well 9 ! m\? ( ! worm1 tak5 unutt]ably asund] by ! h&s ( ! angels ( sep>ation4 ,x ceases to be1 all ! civilization & all ! consci\sness1 x passes utt]ly away1 a tempor>y cohesion 9 ! flux4 ,x 0 ?is1 ?is r9d1 ?is p]si/5t tempor>y cohesion1 t 0 evil1 ?is alone 0 evil4 ,& x de/roys u all be=e itself is de/roy$4 ,,iv ,,)9 ,,! ,,sepul*re ,)9 ! womb ( ! e/abli%$ pa/1 ! light has ent]$ ! d>kness1 ! future is conceiv$4 ,x is conceiv$1 ! beg9n+ ( ! end has tak5 place4 ,light is )9 ! grip ( d>kness1 d>kness )9 ! embrace ( light1 ! ,beg9n+ & ! ,end are clos$ ^u "o ano!r4 ,!y come ne>] & ne>]1 till ! on5ess is full gr[n )9 ! womb ( ! pa/1 )9 ! belly ( ,"t1 x mu/ move out1 mu/ be br\ght =?1 into timelessness4 ,b some?+ )holds x4 ,! pregnancy is accompli%$1 ! h\r ( lab\r has come4 ,yet ! lab\r does n beg94 ,! lo9s ( ! pa/ are )]$1 ! "y unborn is %ut 94 ,all ! "t1 )9 ! womb1 light has be5 travell+ to ! d>k1 ! int]fusion ( ! two into a on5ess has cont9u$4 ,n[ t x is fulfill$1 x meets ) "s arre/4 ,x is ! dry walls ( ! womb :i* _c relax4 ,!re is a /ruggle4 ,!n ! d>kness1 hav+ ov]come ! light1 rea*+ ! dead null wall ( ! womb1 reacts into self-consci\sness1 & recoils ^u itself4 ,at ! same "t ! light has surpass$ its limit1 become consci\s1 & />ts 9 reflex to recoil ^u itself4 ,?us ! false ,i comes into be+3 ! ,i :i* ?9ks itself supreme & inf9ite1 & :i* is1 9 fact1 a sick foetus %ut up 9 ! walls ( an unrelax$ womb4 ,"h1 at ?is mom5t :5 ! bir? pangs %\ld beg91 :5 ! great opposition betwe5 ! old & ! "y %\ld take place1 :5 ! "y %\ld beat back ! old body t surr\nds x1 & ! old womb & lo9s %\ld expel ! "y body1 !re is a deadlock4 ,! two _c fight ap>t4 ,! walls ( ! old body are inflexible & ins5sible1 ! unborn does n "k t !re c be any travell+ =?4 ,x conceives itself z ! :ole univ]se1 surr\nd$ by d>k nullity4 ,x does n "k t x is 9 prison4 ,x believes itself to h fill$ up ! :ole ( ! univ]se1 "r to ! extremes :]e is no?+ b blank nullity4 ,x is trem5d\sly conceit$4 ,x c only react ^u itself4 ,& ! reaction c only take ! =m ( self-consci\sness4 ,= ! self is ev]y?+1 univ]sal1 ! surr\nd+ womb is j ! out] d>kness 9 :i* t :i* is1 exi/s4 ,!re=e !re rema9s ei!r to die1 to pass into ! out] d>kness1 or to ent] into self-k4 ,s ! unborn recoils ^u itself1 d>k ^u d>k1 light ^u light4 ,?is is ! horror ( corruption begun already )9 ! unborn1 already dissolution & corruption set 9 be=e bir?4 ,& ?is is ! triumph ( ! ego4 ,mortality has usurp$ ! ,cr[n4 ,! unborn1 react+ ^u ! null walls ( ! womb1 assumes t x has rea*$ ! limit ( all space & all be+4 ,x concludes t its self is fulfill$1 t all consummation is a*iev$4 ,x takes = c]ta9 t itself has fill$ ! :ole ( space & ! :ole ( "t4 ,& ?is is ! glory ( ! ego4 ,!re is no m fight to be f\ght1 !re is no m to be s\ght & embrac$4 ,all is f\ght & ov]come1 all is embrac$ & conta9$4 ,x is all conclud$1 !re is no?+ rema9+ b ! out] no?+ness1 ! only activity is ! reaction aga9/ ! out] no?+ness1 into ! a*iev$ be+ ( ! self1 all else is fulfill$ & conclud$4 ,to die is m]ely to assume no?+ness4 ,! limit ( all life is rea*$4 ,& ?is is ! apo!osis ( ! ego4 ,s !re is ! great turn+ r\nd ^u ! self1 d>k ^u d>k1 light ^u light1 ! flux ( sep>ation1 corruption )9 ! unborn4 ,! tides :i* are set t[>ds ea* o!r swirl back z f a promontory :i* int]v5es4 ,!re has be5 no consummation4 ,!re c be no consummation4 ,! only ?+ is to return1 to g back--t :i* came f ! ,beg9n+ to g back to ! ,beg9n+1 t :i* came f ! ,end to return to ! ,end4 ,9 ! return lies ! fulfilm5t4 ,& ?is is ! unconsci\s undo+ ( ! ego4 ,t :i* we are is absolute4 ,!re is no add+ to x1 no sup]s$+ ?is accompli%$ self4 ,x is f9al & univ]sal4 ,all t rema9s is ?or\ghly to explore x4 ,t is1 to analyse x4 ,analysis presupposes a corpse4 ,x is at ?is crisis 9 ! human hi/ory t tragic art appe>s aga91 t art becomes ! only absolute1 ! only wat*word among ! p4 ,?is a*iev$ self1 :i* we are1 is absolute & univ]sal4 ,!re is no?+ beyond4 ,all t rema9s is to /ate ?is self1 & ! reactions ^u ?is self1 p]fectly4 ,& ! p]fect /atem5t presumes to be art4 ,x is ae/heticism4 ,at ?is crisis !re is a great cry ( lonel9ess4 ,e man conceives himself z a complete unit surr\nd$ by nullity4 ,& he _c be> x4 ,yet 8 pride is 9 ?is also4 ,! greate/ conceit ( all is ! cry ( lonel9ess4 ,at ?is crisis1 emotion turns into s5tim5t1 & s5tim5talism takes ! place ( feel+4 ,! ego has no feel+1 x has only s5tim5ts4 ,& ! myriad egos sway 9 tides ( s5tim5talism4 ,b ! tacit utt]ance ( e man1 :5 ?is /ate is rea*$1 is 8,aprs moi le ,dluge40 ,& :5 ! deluge beg9s to set 91 !re is pr(\nd secret satisfaction on e h&4 ,= ! ego 9 a man secretly hates e o!r ego4 ,9 a democracy :]e e little ego is cr[n$ ) ! false cr[n ( its own supremacy1 e o!r ego is a false usurp]1 & no?+ m4 ,we c only tol]ate ^? ^: cr[ns are n yet manufactur$1 because !y c't af=d x4 ,& aga91 ! supreme little ego 9 man hates an unconqu]$ univ]se4 ,we %all nev] re/ till we h heap$ t9 cans on ! ,nor? ,pole & ! ,s\? ,pole1 & put up b>b-wire f5ces on ! moon4 ,b>b-wire f5ces are our sign ( conque/4 ,we h wrea!d ! _w ) !m4 ,! back ( creation is brok54 ,we h kill$ ! my/]ies & dev\r$ ! secrets4 ,x all lies n[ )9 our sk91 )9 ! ego ( humanity4 ,s circumscrib$ )9 ! out] nullity1 we give ourselves up to ! flux ( dea?1 to analysis1 to introspection1 to me*anical w> & de/ruction1 to humanit>ian absorption 9 ! body politic1 ! poor1 ! bir?-rate1 ! mortality ( infants1 l a man absorb$ 9 8 own fle% & memb]s1 look+ = ev] at himself4 ,x is ! cont9u$ activity ( dis9tegration--dis9tegration1 sep>at+1 sett+ ap>t1 inve/igation1 rese>*1 ! resolution back to ! orig9al void4 ,all ?is goes on )9 ! glassy1 ins5ti5t1 ins5sible envelope ( nullity4 ,& )9 ?is envelope1 l ! glassy insects )9 _! r9d1 we imag9e we fill ! :ole cosmos1 t we conta9 )9 ourselves ! :ole ( "t1 :i* %all tick =? f u z f a clock1 n[ ev]la/+ly4 ,we are capable ( no?+ b r$uction )9 ! envelope4 ,our e activity is ! activity ( dis9tegration1 ( corruption1 ( dissolution1 :e!r x be our sci5tific rese>*1 our social activity--7! social activity is l>gely conc]n$ ) r$uc+ all ! p>ts conta9$ )9 ! envelope to an equality1 s t !re %all be no unequal pressure1 t5d+ to rupture ! envelope1 :i* is div9e7--our art1 or our anti-social activity1 s5suality1 s5sationalism1 crime1 w>4 ,ev]y?+ alike contributes to ! flux ( dea?1 to corruption1 & lib]ates ! /atic data ( ! consci\sness4 ,:atev] s+le act is p]=m$ by any man n[1 9 ?is condition1 x is an act ( r$uction1 dis9tegration4 ,! sci5ti/ 9 8 laboratory1 ! arti/ 9 8 /udy1 ! /atesman1 ! artisan1 ! s5suali/ obta9+ ke5 gratification1 e "o ( ^! is r$uc+ d[n t :i* is himself to its simpl] elem5ts1 r$uc+ ! comp\nd back to its p>ts4 ,x is ! pure process ( corruption 9 all ( u4 ,! activity ( dea? is ! only activity4 ,x is l ! decay ( our fle%1 & e new /ep 9 decay lib]ates a s5sation1 ke51 mom5t>ily gratify+1 or a consci\s k ( ! p>ts t made a :ole2 k equally gratify+4 ,x is l ,dmitri ,k>amazov1 :o seeks & exp]i5ces s5sation aft] s5sation1 r$uction aft] r$uction1 till f9ally he is /ripp$ utt]ly nak$ be=e ! police1 & ! quick ( him p]i%es4 ,!re is no m any physical or integral ,dmitri ,k>amazov4 ,t :i* is 9 ! hospital1 aft]w>ds1 is a conglom]ation ( qualities1 /rictly an idiot1 a nullity4 ,& ,do/oevsky has %[n u p]fectly ! utt] subjection ( all human life to ! flux ( corruption4 ,t is 8 !me1 ! !me ( r$uction ?r\gh s5sation aft] s5sation1 consci\sness aft] consci\sness1 until nullity is rea*$1 all complexity is brok5 d[n1 an individual becomes an amorph\s heap ( elem5ts1 qualities4 ,!re are ! two types1 ! d>k ,dmitri ,k>amazov1 or ,rogozh92 & ! ,my%k9 on ! o!r h&4 ,dmitri ,k>amazov & ,rogozh9 w ea* ( !m plunge ! fle% )9 ! r$uc+ ag5t1 ! woman1 obta9 ! s5sation & ! r$uction )9 ! fle%1 add to ! s5sual exp]i5ce1 & progress t[>ds utt] d>k dis9tegration1 to nullity4 ,my%k9 on ! o!r h& w react ^u ! a*iev$ consci\sness or p]sonality or ego ( e "o he meets1 dis9tegrate ?is consci\sness1 ?is ego1 & 8 own z well1 obta9+ ! k ( ! factors t made up ! complexity ( ! consci\sness1 ! ego1 9 ! woman & 9 himself1 r$uce fur!r & fur!r back1 till himself is a babbl+ idiot1 a vessel full ( dis9tegrat$ p>ts1 & ! woman is r$uc$ to a nullity4 ,?is is real dea?4 ,! actual physical fact ( dea? is "p ( ! life-/ream4 ,x is an incid5tal po9t :5 ! flux ( light & d>k has fl[$ suffici5tly ap>t = ! conjunction1 :i* we call life1 to disappe>4 ,we live ) ! pure flux ( dea?1 x is "p ( u all ! "t4 ,b our blossom+ is transc5d5t1 beyond dea? & life4 ,only :5 we fall into egoism d we lose all *ance ( blossom+1 & !n ! flux ( corruption is ! brea? ( our exi/5ce4 ,f top to bottom1 9 ! :ole nation1 we are engag$1 fundam5tally engag$ 9 ! process ( r$uction & dissolution4 ,our rew>d is s5sational gratification 9 ! fle%1 or s5sational gratification )9 ! m9d1 ! utt] gratification we exp]i5ce :5 we c pull ap>t ! :ole into its factors4 ,?is is ! rew>d 9 sci5tific & introspective k1 ?is is ! rew>d 9 ! pleasure ( *eap s5suality4 ,9 ea* case1 ! exp]i5ce rema9s z x 7 absolute4 ,x is ! /atem5t ( :at is1 or :at 04 ,& a /atem5t ( :at is1 is ! absolute foot/ep 9 ! progress backw>d t[>ds ! />t+ place1 x is ! undo+ ( a complete unit into ! factors :i* previ\sly w5t to mak+ its on5ess4 ,x is ! r$uction ( ! iris back into its compon5t waves4 ,!re 0 ! bliss :5 ! iris came into be+4 ,!re is n[ ! bliss :5 ! iris passes out ( be+1 & ! :ole is torn ap>t4 ,! secret ( ! :ole is nev] captur$4 ,c]ta9 data are captur$4 ,! secret escapes d[n ! s5sual1 or ! s5sational1 or intellectual1 ?rill ( pleasure4 ,s !re goes on r$uction aft] r$uction )9 ! %ell4 ,& we1 :o f9d our utmo/ gratification 9 ?is process ( r$uction1 ?is flux ( corruption1 ?is retrogression ( dea?1 we w pres]ve ) might & ma9 ! glassy envelope1 ! insect r9d1 ! tight-%ut %ell ( ! cabbage1 ! )]$1 null walls ( ! womb4 ,= by virtue ( ?is null envelope alone d we proce$ un9t]rupt$ 9 ?is process ( gratify+ r$uction4 ,& ?is is utt] evil1 ?is secret1 sil5t wor%ip ( ! null envelope t pres]ves u intact = our gratification ) ! flux ( corruption4 ,intact )9 ! null envelope1 :i* we h come to wor%ip z ! pres]v] ( ?is our life-activity ( r$uction1 we re-act back ^u :at we are4 ,we d n seek any m ! consummation ( union4 ,we seek ! consummation ( r$uction4 ,:5 a man seeks a woman 9 love1 or 9 positive desire1 he seeks a union1 he seeks a consummation ( himself ) t :i* is n himself1 light ) d>k1 d>k ) light4 ,b )9 ! glassy1 null envelope ( ! enclosure1 no union is s\ght1 no union is possible2 aft] a c]ta9 po9t1 only r$uction4 ,ego reacts ^u ego only 9 friction4 ,!re are small egos1 _m small p1 :o h n rea*$ ! limit ( ! conf9es :i* we wor%ip4 ,!y may /ill h small consummation 9 union4 ,b all ^? :o are /rong & h travell$ f> h met & react$ f ! nullity4 ,& !n1 :5 a man seeks a woman1 he seeks n a consummation 9 union1 b a frictional r$uction4 ,he seeks to plunge 8 comp\nd fle% into ! cold acid t w r$uce him1 9 supreme s5sual exp]i5ce1 d[n to 8 p>ts4 ,?is is ,rogozh9 seek+ ,na/asia ,filippovna1 ,dmitri 8 ,gru%5ka1 or ,d',annunzio 9 ,fuoco seek+ 8 ,fosc>9a4 ,?is is m or less :at happ5s :5 a soldi]1 madd5$ ) lu/ ( pure de/ructiv5ess1 viol5tly rapes ! woman ( 8 captivity4 ,x is t he may de/roy ano!r be+ by ! v act :i* is call$ ! act ( creation1 or procreation4 ,9 ! brute soldi] x is cruelty-lu/3 z x 0 9 ! ,r$ ,indian4 ,b :5 we come to civiliz$ man1 x is n s simple4 ,8 cruelty-lu/ is direct$ almo/ z mu* aga9/ himself z aga9/ 8 victim4 ,he is de/roy+1 r$uc+1 break+ d[n t ( himself :i* is )9 ! envelope4 ,he is imm]s+ himself )9 a ke51 fi]ce1 t]rible r$uc+ ag5t4 ,?is is true ( ! h]o 9 ,edg> ,allan ,poe's tales1 ,ligeia1 or ! ,fall ( ! ,h\se ( ,u%]4 ,! man seeks 8 own s5sational r$uction1 b he dis9tegrates ! woman ev5 m1 9 ! "n ( love4 ,9 ! "n ( love1 :at horrors m5 p]petrate1 & are applaud$6 ,x is only 9 supreme crises t man rea*es ! supreme pit* ( annihilation4 ,! diff]5ce1 h[ev]1 is only a diff]5ce 9 degree1 n 9 k9d4 ,! bank-cl]k p]=ms 9 a mild degree :at ,poe p]=m$ int5sely & dea?lily4 ,^! are ! m5 9 :om ! developm5t is r l[1 ^: s\ls are co>sely comp\nd$1 s t ! r$uction is co>se1 a sort ( activity ( co>se hate4 ,b ! m5 ( f9] s5sibility & f9] developm5t1 s5su\s or consci\s1 !y mu/ proce$ m gradually & subtly & f9ely 9 ! process ( r$uction4 ,x is necess>y = a f9ely comp\nd$ nature to r$uce itself m f9ely1 to "k ! subtle gratification ( its own r$uction4 ,a subtle nature l ,my%k9's w\ld f9d no pleasure ( r$uction 9 connection ) ,gru%5ka1 sc>cely any ) ,na/asia4 ,he mu/ proce$ m delicately4 ,he mu/ give up 8 s\l to ! r$uction4 ,x is 8 m9d1 8 consci\s self he wants to r$uce4 ,he wants to dissolve x back4 ,he wants to become infantile1 l a *ild1 to r$uce & resolve back all ! complexity ( 8 consci\sness1 to ! rudim5t>y condition ( *ildhood4 ,t is 8 ideal4 ,s he seeks m5tal contacts1 m5tal re-actions4 ,x is 9 8 m5tal or consci\s contacts t he seeks to obta9 ! gratification ( self-r$uction4 ,he rea*es 8 crisis 9 8 monologue ( self-analysis1 self-dissolution1 9 ! draw+-room sc5e :]e he falls 9 a fit4 ,& ( c\rse1 all ?is r$uc+ activity is drap$ 9 allur+ s5tim5talism4 ,! mo/ evil ?+s 9 ! _w1 today1 are to be f\nd "u ! *iffon folds ( s5tim5talism4 ,s5tim5tality is ! g>m5t ( our vice4 ,x cov]s vici\sness z inevitably z gre5ness cov]s a bog4 ,) all our talk ( advance1 progress1 we are all ! "t work+ backw>ds4 ,our h]o9es become y\ng] & y\ng]4 ,9 ! movies1 ! h]o9e is becom+ m & m *ildi%1 & t\*$ ) infantile idiocy4 ,we _c be> hone/ maturity4 ,we want to r$uce ourselves back1 back to ! corruptive /ate ( *ildi%ness4 ,n[ x is all v well = a *ild to be a *ild4 ,b = a gr[n p]son to be slimily1 pornigraphically rea*+ out = *ild-gratifications1 is disgu/+4 ,! same ) ! preval5t love ( boys4 ,x is ! desire to be r$uc$ back1 r$uc$ back1 9 our accompli%$ ego3 always )9 ! un%att]$ r9d ( our complet5ess & complac5cy1 to g backw>ds1 9 s5tim5talis$ dis9tegration1 to ! /ates ( *ildhood4 ,& no matt] :at happ5s to u1 n[1 we s5tim5talise x & use x z a means ( s5sational r$uction4 ,ev5 ! great w> does n alt] our civilization "o iota1 9 its total nature4 ,! =m1 ! :ole =m1 rema9s intact4 ,only inside ! complete envelope we wri! ) s5sational exp]i5ces ( dea?1 hurt1 horror1 r$uction4 ,! goodness ( any?+ dep5ds on ! direction 9 :i* x is mov+4 ,*ildhood1 l a bud1 /riv+ & gr[+ & /ruggl+ t[>ds blossom+ full maturity1 is surely beautiful4 ,b *ildhood z a goal1 = :i* gr[n p aim3 *ildi%ness futile & s5tim5tal1 = :i* m5 & wom5 lu/1 & :i* always retreats :5 grasp$1 l ! ignis fatuus ( a poison\s m>% ( corruption3 ?is is disgu/+4 ,:ile we live1 we are balanc$ betwe5 ! flux ( life & ! flux ( dea?4 ,all ! :ile our bodies are be+ compos$ & decompos$4 ,b :ile e man fully lives1 all ! "t ! two /reams keep fus+ into ! ?ird reality1 ( real creation4 ,e new ge/ure1 e fre% smile ( a *ild is a new em]g5ce into creative be+3 a glimpse ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,b :5 gr[n p />t grimac+ ) *ildi%ness1 or lu/+ aft] *ild-gratifications1 x is corruption pure & simple4 ,& ! /ill cle> look on an old face1 & ! /illness ( old1 )]$ h&s1 :i* h ga!r$ ! long repose ( autumn1 ?is is ! purity ( ! two /reams consummat$1 & ! bloom1 l autumn crocuses1 ( age4 ,b ! pa9t$1 silly *ild-face t old wom5 make n[adays3 or ! h>py's face t _m h1 lu/+ = ! s5sations ( y\?3 ! h>d1 voraci\s1 selfi% faces ( old m51 seek+ _! own ends1 dev\r+ ! %oots ( "y life3 ?is is vile4 ,:ile we live1 we are balanc$ betwe5 ! flux ( life & ! flux ( dea?4 ,b ! real clue is ! ,holy ,gho/1 t moves u on into ! /ate ( blossom+4 ,& ea* ye> ! blossom+ is diff]5t3 f ! delicate blue spe$wells ( *ildhood to ! equally delicate1 frail f>ewell fl[]s ( old age3 ?r\gh all ! poppies & sunfl[]s3 ye> aft] ye> ( diff]5ce4 ,:ile we live1 we *ange1 & our fl[]+ is a con/ant *ange4 ,b once we fall into ! /ate ( egoism1 we _c *ange4 ,! ego1 ! self-consci\s ego rema9s fix$1 a f9al envelope ar\nd u4 ,& we are !n safe inside ! mundane egg ( our own self-consci\sness & self-e/eem4 ,safe we are6 ,safe z h\ses6 ,%ut up l unborn *ick5s t _c break ! %ell ( ! egg4 ,t's h[ safe we are6 ,& z we c't be born1 we c only rot4 ,t's h[ safe we are6 ,safe )9 ! ev]la/+ walls ( ! egg-%ell we h n ! c\rage1 nor ! en]gy1 to crack1 we fall1 l ! %ut-up *ick51 into a pure flux ( corruption1 & ! worms are our angels4 ,& mank9d falls into ! /ate ( innum]able little worms br$ )9 ! unbrok5 %ell3 all clamor+ = food1 food1 food1 all fe$+ on ! dead body ( creation1 all cry+ peace6 peace6 univ]sal peace6 bro!rhood ( man6 ,ev]y?+ mu/ be 8univ]sal01 to ! conqu]+ worm4 ,x is only life :i* is diff]5t4 ,v ,,! ,,nuptials ,,( ,,dea? ,,& ,,! ,,att5dant ,,vulture ,to ^? :o are 9 prison1 ^: be+ is prison] )9 ! walls ( unliv+ fact1 !re are only two =ms ( triumph3 ! triumph ( in]tia1 or ! triumph ( ! ,w4 ,!re is no fl[]+ possible4 ,& ! exp]i5ce en r\te to ei!r triumph1 is ! exp]i5ce ( s5sationalism4 ,/one walls ne$ n a prison make3 t is1 n an absolute prison4 ,if ! great sun has %one into a man's s\l1 ev5 prison-walls _c blot x out4 ,yet prison-walls1 unless !y be a tempor>y %elt] are deadly ?+s4 ,s1 if we are imprison$ )9 walls ( accompli%$ fact1 exp]i5ce1 or k1 we are prison$ inde$4 ,! liv+ sun is %ut out f9ally4 ,a false sun1 l a lamp1 %9es4 ,all absolutes are prison-walls4 ,^! 8laws0 :i* sci5ce has inv5t$1 l cons]vation ( en]gy1 inde/ructibility ( matt]1 gravitation1 ! w-to-live1 survival ( ! fitte/3 & ev5 ^! absolute facts1 l--! e>? goes r\nd ! sun1 or ! d\btful atoms1 electrons1 or e!r--!y are all prison-walls1 unless we realise t we don't "k :at !y mean4 ,we don't "k :at we mean1 ultimately1 by cons]vation1 or inde/ructibility4 ,our atoms1 electrons1 e!r1 are caps t fit exce$+ badly4 ,& our w-to-live conta9s a g]m ( suicide1 & our survival-(-!-fitte/ ! g]m ( deg5]acy4 ,z = ! e>? go+ r\nd ! sun3 x goes r\nd z ! blood goes r\nd my body1 absolutely my/]i\sly1 ) ! rapidity & hesitation ( life4 ,b ! human ego1 9 its pettifogg+ arrogance1 sets up ^! ?+s = y z absolutes1 & unless y kick h>d & kick 9 "t1 !y are y\r prison walls =ev]4 ,y\r _s w be l a dead bee 9 a cell4 ,once y are 9 prison1 y h no exp]i5ce left1 save ! exp]i5ce ( r$uction1 de/ruction go+ on inw>dly4 ,y\r s5tim5talism is only ! smell ( y\r own rott5ness4 ,?is r$uction )9 ! self is s5sationalism4 ,& s5sationalism1 ( c\rse1 is progressive4 ,y c't h y\r cake & eat x4 ,to get a s5sation1 y eat y\r cake4 ,t is1 to get a s5sation1 y r$uce d[n "s "p ( y\r complex psy*e1 physical & psy*ic4 ,y get a fla%1 z :5 y /rike a mat*4 ,b a mat* once /ruck c nev] be /ruck aga94 ,x is f9i%$--s5sationalism is an exhau/ive process4 ,! resolv+ d[n is progressive4 ,x c app>5tly g on ad inf9itum4 ,b 9 inf9ity x means :at we call utt] dea?1 utt] no?+ness1 opposites releas$ f opposition1 & f conjunction1 till !re is no?+ left at all1 only nullity itself4 ,s5sationalism progresses 9 ! individual4 ,?is is ! doom ( x4 ,?is is ! doom ( egoi/ic sex4 ,egoi/ic sex-excitem5t means ! react+ ( ! sexes aga9/ "o ano!r 9 a purely r$uc+ activity4 ,! r$uction progresses4 ,:5 ,i h f9ally r$uc$ "o complexity1 "o unit1 ,i mu/ proce$ to ! next1 ! l[]4 ,x is ! progressive activity ( dissolution )9 ! s\l4 ,& ! climax ( ?is progression is 9 p]v]sity1 degradation & dea?4 ,b only ! v p[]ful & en]getic ego c g ?r\gh all ! phases ( its own viol5t r$uction4 ,! ord9>y crude s\l1 aft] hav+ enjoy$ ! brief r$uction 9 ! sex1 is f9i%$ !re1 blas1 empty4 ,& alcohol is sl[ & crude1 & opium is only = ! imag9ative1 ! some:at spiritual nature4 ,!n rema9 ! opium-drugs1 = a f9i%]1 a la/ r$uc]4 ,!re rema9s only ! r$uction ( ! contact ) dea?4 ,s t z ! sex is exhau/$1 gradually1 a ke5] desire1 ! desire = ! t\* ( dea? foll[s on1 9 an int5se nature4 ,!n come ! fatal drugs4 ,or else ^? equally fatal w>s & revolutions :i* really create no?+ at all1 b de/roy1 & leave empt9ess4 ,:5 a man is cleav+ l a fly ) spread arms ^u ! face ( a rock1 ) inf9ite space b5ea? him1 & he feels 8 foo?old go+1 & he cries out to ! m5 on ! rope1 & falls away1 dangl+ into endless space1 j]k$ back by ! ?9 rope1 !n he p]i%es1 he is fus$ 9 ! r$uc+ flame ( dea?4 ,he kn[s ano!r ke5 angui% ( r$uction4 ,:at matt]s to t man1 aft]w>ds8 ,does any ( ! complex life ( ! _w bel[ matt]8 ,none4 ,all t is left is ! triumph ( 8 w 9 hav+ gone s f> & recov]$4 ,& all t lies ahead is ano!r risk1 ano!r slip1 ano!r agony ( ! fall1 or a demoni% triumph ( ! w4 ,& ! f9al consummation ( su* a man is ! la/ fall ( all1 ! few horrible seconds :il/ he drops1 l a meteorite1 to ext9ction4 ,?is is 8 f9al & utt] satisfaction1 ! sma% ( ext9ction at ! bottom4 ,b ev5 ?is man is n a pure egoi/4 ,?is man /ill has 8 s\l op5 to ! my/]y ( ! m\nta9s1 he /ill feels ! passion ( ! contact ) dea?4 ,if he w9s1 h[ev]1 9 ! conte/3 if 8 w triumphs 9 ! te/3 !n !re is dang] ( 8 fall+ into f9al egoism1 ! m-or-less in]t complac5cy ( a self-satisfi$ old man4 ,! s\l is /ill alive1 :ile x has passion3 any sort ( passion1 ev5 = ! bru% ) dea?1 or = ! f9al & utt] r$uction4 ,& 9 ! bru% ) dea? x may be releas$ aga9 into positive life4 ,a man may be suffici5tly releas$ by a fall on ! rope & ! dangl+ = a few m9utes ( agony1 9 space4 ,t may f9ally r$uce 8 s\l to its elem5ts1 set x free & *ild-l1 & break-d[n t egoi/ic entity :i* has develop$ ^u x f ! pa/4 ,! ne> t\* ( dea? may be a release into life2 if only x w break ! egoi/ic w1 & release t o!r fl[4 ,b if a man1 hav+ fall5 v ne> to dea?1 gets up at l5g? & says3 8,i did x6 ,x's my triumph6 ,i beat ! m\nta9s t "t60--!n1 ( c\rse1 8 ego has only pull$ itself 9 triumph out ( ! m5ace1 & ! individual w g on m egoi/ic & b>r5ly complac5t4 ,if a man says3 8,i fell6 ,b ! unse5 goodness help$ me1 :5 ,i /ruggl$ = life1 & s ,i 0 sav$0--!n ?is man w g on 9 life unimprison$1 ! *annels ( 8 he>t op51 & passion /ill fl[+ ?r\gh him4 ,b if ! bru% ) dea? only gave ! brilliant s5sational ?rill ( fe>1 foll[$ imm$iately1 by ! gam9 exultance3 8,yah6 ,i got myself out all "r60--!n ! ego cont9ues intact1 hav+ enjoy$ ! s5sation1 & rema9+ vulg>ly triumphant 9 ! p[] ( ! ,w4 ,& x w cont9ue in]t & complac5t till ! next ?rill4 ,s x is ) w>4 ,:oev] goes to w> 9 8 own might alone1 w ev5 if he come out victori\s1 come out b>r53 a b>r5 triumph]1 ^: /r5g? is 9 in]tia4 ,a man mu/ d 8 own utmo/3 b ev5 !n1 ! f9al /roke w be deliv]$1 or ! f9al /r5g? w be giv5 f ! unse51 & ! man mu/ feel x4 ,if he doesn't feel x1 he w be an in]t victor1 or equally in]t vanqui%$1 complac5t & /]ile 9 ei!r case4 ,!re mu/ be a c]ta9 fai?4 ,& t means1 an ultimate reliance on t :i* is beyond our w1 & n conta9$ 9 our ego4 ,we h gone to w>4 ,= a hundr$ ye>s we h be5 pil+ up safety ^u safety1 we h gr[n enorm\sly )9 ! %ell ( our civilization1 we h r\nd$ (f our own ego & gr[n almo/ complac5t ab\t our own triumphs ( w4 ,till we come to a po9t :]e sex seems exhau/$1 & passion falls flat4 ,:5 ev5 criticism & analysis n[ only fatigue ! m9d & we>y ! s\l4 ,!n we gradually1 gradually =mulate ! desire3 ,oh1 give u ! bru% ) dea?1 & let u see if we c w9 out all "r6 ,we g into a w> l ?is 9 ord] to get once m ! f9al r$uction "u ! t\* ( dea?4 ,t ! dea? is s inhuman1 cold1 me*anical1 sordid1 ! giv+ ( ! body to ! grip ( cold1 /agnant mud & /agnant wat]1 :il/ "o awaits = "s fall+ dea?1 ! k ( ! gas cl\ds t may lac]ate & r$uce ! lungs to a heav+ mass1 ?is1 ?is sort ( self-inflict$ ,sadism1 br+s almo/ a f9al satisfaction to our civiliz$ & /ill passionate m54 ,almo/6 ,& :5 x is ov]1 & we h won out1 %all we be releas$ into a new lease ( life8 ,or %all we only ext5d our dre>y lease ( egoism & complac5cy8 ,%all we "k ! b>r5 triumph ( ! w8--or ! equally b>r5 triumph in]tia1 helplessness1 b>r5 irresponsibility4 ,& /ill1 z f> z !re is any passion 9 ! w>1 x is a passion = ! embrace ) dea?4 ,! desire to deal dea? & to take dea?4 ,! enemy is ! bride1 ^: body we w r$uce ) rapture ( agony & w\nds4 ,we are ! bridegroom1 engag$ ) him 9 ! long1 voluptu\s embrace1 ! giv+ ( agony1 ! ris+ & ris+ ( ! sl[ unwill+ transport ( mis]y1 ! soak+-9 ( day aft] day ( wet mud1 9 p5etration ( ! heavy1 sordid1 un5durable cold1 on & on to ! climax1 ! lac]ation ( ! blade1 l a fro/ ?r\gh ! tissue1 bla/+ x4 ,?is is ! desire & ! consummation1 ?is is ! w>4 ,b at l5g?1 we %all be satisfi$1 at l5g? we %all h consummation4 ,!n ! w> w end4 ,& :at !n8 ,x is n really a "q ( victories or defeats4 ,x is a "q ( fulfilm5t1 & release f ! old prison-h\se ( a dead =m4 ,! w> is "o b\t 9 ! t]rific1 horrible lab\r1 our civilization labor+ 9 *ild-bir?1 & unable to br+ =?4 ,h[ w x end8 ,w !re be a release1 a relaxation ( ! horrible walls1 & a real issu+1 a bir?8 ,or w x end 9 no?+1 all ! agony go+ to /iff5 ! old =m dead]1 to enclose ! unborn m helplessly & dre>ily4 ,x may easily be4 ,= beh9d u all1 9 ! w>1 /& ! old & ! eld]ly1 complac5t ) egoism1 b5t on ma9ta9+ ! old =m4 ,oh1 !y are ! monkey gr9n+ ) anxiety & anticipation1 beh9d u1 wait+ = ! burnt "y cat to pull ! *e/nut out ( ! fire4 ,& 9 ! end1 !y w ?rill ) ! triumph ( _! egoi/ic w1 & h>d5 h>d] /ill ) vulture-l en]tia1 rapaci\s in]tia4 ,9 sex1 we h plung$ ! quick ( creation deep into ! cold flux ( r$uction1 corruption1 till ! quick is ext+ui%$4 ,9 w> we h plung$ ! :ole quick ( ! liv+1 s5ti5t body into a cold1 cold flux4 ,mu* has di$ & mu* w die4 ,b if ! :ole quick dies1 & !re rema9 only ! mat]ial1 me*anical unquick5$ tissue1 act+ at ! bidd+ ( ! me*anical w1 & ! /]ile ego triumphant1 !n x is a poor tale1 a b>r5ly poor tale4 ,i h se5 a soldi] at ! seaside :o 0 maim$4 ,"o leg 0 only a small /ump1 ) ! tr\s] fold$ back on x4 ,he 0 a h&some man ( ab\t ?irty1 f9ely built4 ,8 face 0 sun-br[n$1 & extraord9>ily beautiful1 /ill1 ) a /range placidity1 some?+ l p]fection1 ab/ract1 complete4 ,he _h kn[n 8 consummation4 ,x seem$ he c\ld nev] desire corruption or r$uction aga91 he _h _h 8 satisfaction ( dea?4 ,he 0 become almo/ imp]sonal1 a simple ab/raction1 all 8 p]sonality loos$ & undone4 ,he 0 n[ l a babe j born1 new to beg9 life4 ,yet 9 a s5se1 /ill-born4 ,! newness & c&\r1 l a fl[] j unloos$1 0 some?+ /range & r>e 9 him4 ,yet unloos$1 curi\sly1 into ! light ( dea?4 ,s he came =w>d d[n ! pi]1 9 ! sun%9e1 sl[ly on 8 crut*es4 ,beh9d1 ! sea 0 milk-:ite & vague1 z if full ( gho/s1 & sil5t1 except :5 a long :ite wave plung$ to sil5ce out ( ! smoo?1 milky sil5ce ( ! sea1 com+ f v f> out ( ! gho/ly /illness4 ,! maim$ soldi]1 /rong & h&some1 ) "s ( ! frail c&\r ( a newly-wak5$ *ild 9 8 face1 came sl[ly d[n ! pi] on 8 crut*es1 look+ at ev]ybody :o look$ at him4 ,he 0 nave l a *ild1 wond]+4 ,! p />$ at him ) a sort ( fasc9ation4 ,s he 0 r va91 r pr\d1 l a va9 *ild4 ,he did n "k he 0 maim$1 x _h n ent]$ 8 consci\sness4 ,8 s\l1 s clean & new & f9e1 c\ld n conceive ( su* a ?+4 ,he 0 r va9 & slightly o/5tati\s1 n z a man ) a w\nd1 a trophy1 m z a *ild :o is conspicu\s among envi\s eld]s4 ,! wom5 p>ticul>ly 7 fasc9at$4 ,!y c\ld n look away f him4 ,! /range ab/raction ( horror & dea? 0 s p]fect 9 8 face1 l ! horror ( bir? on a new-born infant1 t !y 7 almo/ hy/]ical4 ,!y gravitat$ t[>ds him1 helplessly1 !y c\ld n move away f him4 ,!y want$ him1 !y want$ him s badly1 t !y 7 almo/ beside !mselves4 ,!y want$ 8 consummation1 8 p]fect complet5ess 9 horror & dea?4 ,!y too want$ ! consummation4 ,!y foll[$ him1 !y made excuses to talk to him4 ,& he1 /range1 ab/ract1 gl[+ /ill f ! consummation ( de/ruction & pa9 & horror1 l a bridegroom j come f ! bride1 seem$ to gl[ be=e ! wom51 to give (f a /range1 une>?ly radiance1 :i* 0 l an embrace1 a mo/ poignant embrace to _! s\ls4 ,b /ill 8 eyes 7 look+1 look+1 look+ = someone :o 0 n eag] = him1 to "k him1 to dev\r him1 l wom5 r\nd a p]fect *ild4 ,he _h n realiz$ yet :at all ! att5tion meant1 :i* he receiv$4 ,he 0 s /rong 9 8 new bir?4 ,& he 0 look+ = 8 own k9d1 = ! liv+1 ! new-born1 r\nd ab\t4 ,b he 0 surr\nd$ by gre$y1 voraci\s p1 l birds seek+ ! dea? 9 him1 peck+ at ! dea? 9 him4 ,x 0 horrible1 r s9i/]1 ! wom5 r\nd ! man1 !re on ! pi] /ret*$ f ! /ill1 sunny l& ov] ! :ite sea1 noiseless & inhuman4 ,! _s ( de/ruction is div9e1 :5 x breaks ! ego & op5s ! s\l to ! wide heav5s4 ,9 corruption !re is div9ity4 ,aphrodite is1 on "o side1 ! great goddess ( de/ruction 9 sex1 ,dionysus 9 ! _s4 ,molo* & "s gods ( ,egypt are gods also ( ! k ( dea?4 ,9 ! s(t & %9y voluptu\sness ( decay1 9 ! m>%y *ill heat ( reptiles1 !re is ! sign ( ! ,godhead4 ,x is ! activity ( dep>ture4 ,& dep>ture is ! opposite equival5t ( com+ toge!r2 decay1 corruption1 de/ruction1 break+ d[n is ! opposite equival5t ( creation4 ,9 inf9ite go+-ap>t !re is reveal$ aga9 ! pure absolute1 ! absolute relation3 ?is "t truly z a ,gho/3 ! gho/ ( :at 04 ,we :o live1 we c only live or die4 ,& :51 l ! maim$ soldi] on ! pi] ) ! :ite sea beh9d1 :5 we h come "r back into life1 & ! wond] ( dea? fades (f our faces aga91 :at !n8 ,%all we g on ) wide1 c>eless eyes & ! fa9t a/oni%$ smile wait+ all our lives = ! accompli%$ dea?8 ,wait+ = dea? f9ally8 ,& cont9u+ ! s5sational r$uction process8 ,or %all we fade into a dry empty egoism8 ,:i* w ! maim$ soldi] d8 ,he _c rema9 z he is1 cle> & peaceful4 ,are we really doom$1 & smil+ ) ! wond] ( doom8 ,ev5 if we are1 we ne$ n say3 8,x is f9i%$40 ,x is nev] f9i%$4 ,t is "o "t :5 ,jesus spoke a fatal half-tru?1 9 8 ,consummatum ,e/6 ,dea? consummates no?+4 ,x c b abruptly close ! individual life4 ,b ,life itself1 & ev5 ! =ms m5 h giv5 x1 w p]si/ & p]si/4 ,!re is no consummation into dea?4 ,dea? leaves /ill fur!r dea?s4 ,leon>do knew ?is3 he knew ! /range endlessness ( ! flux ( corruption4 ,x is ,mona ,lisa's ironic smile4 ,ev5 ,mi*ael ,angelo knew x4 ,x is 9 8 ,l$a & ! ,swan4 ,= ! swan is "o ( ! symbols ( div9e corruption ) its reptile feet buri$ 9 ! ooze & mud1 its voluptu\s =m yield+ & embrac+ ! ooze ( wat]1 its beauty :ite & cold & t]rify+1 l ! dead beauty ( ! moon1 l ! wat]-lily1 ! sacr$ lotus1 its neck & head l ! snake1 x is = u a flame ( ! cold :ite fire ( flux1 ! phosphoresc5ce ( corruption1 ! salt1 cold burn+ ( ! sea :i* corrodes all x t\*es1 coldly r$uces e sun-built =m to a%1 to ! orig9al elem5ts4 ,?is is ! beauty ( ! swan1 ! lotus1 ! snake1 ?is cold :ite salty fire ( inf9ite r$uction4 ,& !re 0 "s sugge/ion ( ?is 9 ! ,*ri/ ( ! e>ly ,*ri/ians1 ! ,*ri/ :o 0 ! ,fi%4 ,s t1 :5 ,leon>do & ,mi*ael ,angelo repres5t ,l$a 9 ! embrace ( ! swan1 !y are pa9t+ mank9d 9 ! clasp ( ! div9e flux ( corruption1 ! s++ dea?4 ,mank9d turn$ back1 to cold1 bygone consummations4 ,:5 ! swan fir/ rose out ( ! m>%es1 x 0 a glory ( creation4 ,b :5 we turn back1 to seek its consummation aga91 x is a fe>ful fl[] ( corruption4 ,& corruption1 l gr[?1 is only div9e :5 x is pure1 :5 all is giv5 up to x4 ,if x be exp]i5c$ z a controll$ activity )9 an intact :ole1 ?is is vile4 ,:5 ! cabbage fl\ri%es r\nd a holl[ rott5ness1 ?is is vile4 ,:5 corruption goes on )9 ! liv+ womb1 ?is is un?9kable4 ,! *ick5 dead 9 ! egg is an abom9ation4 ,we _c subject a div9e process to a /atic w1 n )\t blasphemy & loa?som5ess4 ,! /atic w mu/ be subject to ! process ( r$uction1 also4 ,= ! pure absolute1 ! ,holy ,gho/1 lies also 9 ! relation%ip :i* is made manife/ by ! dep>ture1 ! dep>ture ad inf9itum1 ( ! oppos+ elem5ts4 ,corruption w at la/ break d[n = u ! dead5$ =ms1 & release u into ! inf9ity4 ,b ! /atic ego1 ) its w-to-p]si/1 neutralises bo? life & dea?1 & utt]ly defies ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,! unp>donable s96 ,x is possible = ?is /atic w1 ?is vile r9d ( no?+ness1 to triumph = a long :ile ov] ! div9e relation 9 ! flux1 to ass]t an absolute nullity ( /atic =m4 ,?is we d :o pres]ve intact our complete null concept ( life1 z an envelope ar\nd ?is flux ( de/ruction1 ! w>4 ,! :ole concept & =m ( life rema9s absolute & /atic1 ar\nd ! gigantic b conta9$ see?+ ( ! fight4 ,x is ! rott5ness see?+ )9 ! cabbage1 corruption )9 ! old1 fix$ body4 ,! cabbage does n relax1 ! body is n brok5 op54 ,! r$uction is seal$ & conta9$4 ,t is our attitude n[4 ,x is ! attitude ( ! wom5 :o flutt] r\nd & peck at dea? 9 u4 ,?is is ! c>rion process set 91 ! process ( obsc5ity1 ! baboon1 ! vulture 9 u4 ,9 s f> z we fight to rema9 ideally intact1 9 s f> z we seek to give & to h ! exp]i5ce ( dea?1 s t we may rema9 un*ang$ 9 our :ole consci\s =m1 may pres]ve ! /atic entity ( our conception1 ar\nd ! fight1 we are obsc5e4 ,we are l vultures & obsc5e insects4 ,we may give ourselves utt]ly to de/ruction4 ,!n our consci\s =ms are de/roy$ along ) u1 & some?+ new mu/ arise4 ,b we may n h corruption )9 ourselves z s5sationalism1 our sk9 & out] =m intact4 ,to de/roy life = ! pres]v+ ( a /atic1 rigid =m1 a %ell1 a glassy envelope1 ?is is ! lugubri\s activity ( ! m5 :o fight to save democracy & to end all fight+4 ,! fight itself is div9e1 ! relation betray$ 9 ! fight is absolute4 ,b ! glassy envelope ( ! e/abli%$ concept is only a f\l nullity4 ,de/ruction & ,creation are ! two relative absolutes betwe5 ! oppos+ inf9ites4 ,life is 9 bo?4 ,life may ev51 = a :ile be almo/ entirely 9 "o1 or almo/ entirely 9 ! o!r4 ,! end ( ei!r on5ess is dea?4 ,= life is really 9 ! two1 ! absolute is ! pure relation1 :i* is bo?4 ,if we h our fill ( de/ruction1 !n we %all turn aga9 to creation4 ,we %all ne$ to live aga91 & live h>d1 = once our great civiliz$ =m is brok51 & we are at la/ born into ! op5 sky1 we %all h a :ole new univ]se to gr[ up into1 & to f9d relations )4 ,! future w op5 its delicate1 dawn+ icons 9 front ( u1 unfa?omable4 ,b let u wat* t we d n pres]ve an envelop+ falsity ar\nd our de/ructive activity1 "s nullity ( virtue & self-righte\sness1 "s conceit ( ! 8g5]al good0 & ! salvation ( ! _w by br++ x all )9 our own conceiv$ :ole =m4 ,?is is ! utt] lie & obsc5ity4 ,! ego1 l ,humpty ,dumpty1 sitt+ = ev] on ! wall4 ,! vulture 0 once1 p]haps1 an eagle4 ,x became a supreme /rong bird1 almo/ l ! pho5ix4 ,b at a c]ta9 po9t1 x said3 8,i am ,x40 ,& !n x proce$$ to pres]ve its own /atic =m cry/al ab\t ! flux ( corruption1 fix$1 absolute z a cry/al1 ab\t ! horrible see! ( corruption4 ,!n ! eagle became a vulture4 ,& ! dog1 ?r\gh c[>dice1 arre/$ itself at a c]ta9 po9t & became dome/ic1 or a hyna1 pres]v+ a glassy1 fix$ =m ab\t a voraci\s see! ( corruption4 ,& ! baboon1 almo/ a man1 or almo/ a high bea/1 arre/$ himself & became obsc5e1 a grey1 ho>y r9d clos$ ^u an activity ( /rong corruption4 ,& ! l\se1 9 its little glassy envelope1 br+s ev]y?+ into ! corrupt+ pot ( its little belly4 ,& ^! are all p]fectly-arre/$ egoi/s1 ass]t+ !mselves /atic & f\l1 triumphant 9 in]tia & 9 w4 ,let u wat* t we d n turn ei!r into c>rion or into c>rion eat]s4 ,let u wat* t we d n become1 9 ! vulg> triumph ( our w1 & ! obsc5e in]tia ( our ego1 vultures :o fe$ on putresc5ce4 ,! lu/ = dea?1 = pa91 = torture1 is ev5 !n bett] ?an ?is fatal triumph ( in]tia & ! egoi/ic w4 ,any?+ is bett] ?an t4 ,! ,r$ ,indians1 full ( ,sadism & self-torture & dea?1 de/roy$ !mselves4 ,b ! eagle1 :5 x gets /uck & c "k no m blossom+ turns into a vulture ) a nak$ head1 & becomes c>rion-f\l4 ,!re mu/ always be "s balance betwe5 ! passion = de/ruction & ! passion = creation1 9 e liv+ activity2 = 9 ! race to de/ruction we c utt]ly de/roy ! vital quick ( our be+1 leave u amorph\s1 undi/+ui%$1 vegetable2 & 9 ! race = creation we c lose ourselves 9 m]e production1 & pile ourselves ov] ) dead null mon/rosities ( obsolete =m4 ,all bir? comes ) ! r$uction ( old tissue4 ,b ! r$uction is n ! bir?4 ,t is ! fallacy ( all ( u1 :o repres5t ! old tissue n[4 ,9 ?is fallacy we g c>e]+ d[n ! slope 9 our voluptu\sness ( dea? & horror1 c>e]+ into oblivion1 l ,hippolytus trammell$ up & borne away 9 ! traces ( 8 madd5$ horses4 ,:o says t ! _s ( de/ruction w outrun itself8 ,n till ! driv] be annihilat$4 ,!n ! de/ructive c>e] w run itself out4 ,& !n :at8 ,b nei!r de/ruction nor production is1 9 itself1 evil4 ,! dang] lies 9 ! fall into egoism1 :i* neutralises bo?4 ,:5 de/ruction & production alike are me*anical1 mean+less4 ,! race ( de/ruction may outrun itself4 ,b /ill ! =m may rema9 intact1 ! old imprison+ laws4 ,only ^? :o h n travell$ to ! conf9es w be left1 ! mean1 ! av]age1 ! labor]s1 ! slaves3 all ( !m little cr[n$ egos4 ,/ill ! anci5t mummy w h ! p )9 its belly4 ,!re !y w be slaves3 n to ! enemy1 b to !mselves1 ! concept e/abli%$ ab\t !m3 be+ slaves1 !y w be happy enclos$ )9 ! tomb-l belly ( a concept1 l goldfi% 9 a b[l1 :i* ?9k !mselves ! c5tre ( ! univ]se4 ,?is is l ! vultures ( ! m\nta9s4 ,!y h kept ! =m & height ( eagles4 ,b _! s\ls h turn$ into ! s\ls ( slaves & c>rion eat]s4 ,_! size1 _! /r5g?1 _! supremacy ( ! m\nta9s1 rema9s intact4 ,b !y h become c>rion eat]s4 ,?is is ! tomb1 ! :it$ sepul*re1 ?is v =m1 ?is lib]ty1 ?is ideal = :i* we are fight+4 ,! ,g]mans are fight+ = ano!r sepul*re4 ,!irs is ! sepul*re ( ! ,eagle become vulture1 ours is ! sepul*re ( ! lion become dog3 soon to become hyna4 ,b we w\ld h our own sepul*re1 9 :i* we %all dwell secure :5 ! rage ( de/ruction is ov]4 ,let x be ! sepul*re ( ! dog or ! vulture1 ! sepul*re ( democracy or ari/ocracy1 :at does x matt]6 ,inside x1 ! worms w jig ! same jazzy dances1 & heave & /ruggle to get hold ( va/ & va/] /ores ( c>rion1 or its equival5t1 gold4 ,! c>rion birds1 ari/ocrats1 sit up high & remote1 on ! /]ile rocks ( ! old absolute1 _! obsc5e heads gripp$ h>d & small1 l knots ( /one cl5*$ ^u !mselves =ev]4 ,! c>rion dogs & hynas ( ! old1 arid1 democratic absolute1 pr[l among ! b>e /ones ( ! common e>?1 9 numb]s1 _! lo9s cr++1 _! heads %>p5$ to /one4 ,^? :o w hold p[]1 aft]w>ds1 !y w sit on _! rocks & heights ( unutt]able morality1 :i* h become f\l ?r\gh ! c\rse ( ages1 l vultures ^u ! un*angeable m\nta9-tops4 ,! fix$1 exi/+ =m w p]si/ =ev] b5ea? !m1 ab\t !m1 !y w h become ! _s inc>nate ( ! fix$ =m ( life4 ,!y w eat c>rion1 hav+ become a /atic hung] = ke5 putresc5ce4 ,?is alone w support ! inc>nation ( ho>y fixity :i* !y are4 ,& beside ! c>rion !y w fight ! multitudes ( ho>y1 obsc5e dogs1 :i* also p]si/4 ,x is ! mortal =m become null & fix$ & endur+1 glassy1 horrible1 beyond life & dea?1 beyond consummation1 ! awful1 /ony nullity4 ,x is timeless1 almo/ z ! ra9b[4 ,b x is n utt]ly timeless4 ,x is only un?9kably sl[1 /atic 9 its pass+ away1 p]petuat$4 ,its v aspect ( timelessness is a fraud4 ,:at is evil8--n dea?1 nor ! blood-dev\r+ ,molo*1 b ?is _s ( p]petuation & app>5t timelessness1 ?is obsc5ity :i* holds ! great c>rion birds1 & ! c>rion dogs4 ,! tig]1 ! hawk1 ! weasel1 are beautiful ?+s to me2 & z !y /rike ! dove & ! h>e1 t is ! w ( ,god1 x is a consummation1 a br++ toge!r ( two extremes1 a mak+ p]fect "o f ! duality4 ,b ! baboon1 & ! hyna1 ! vulture1 ! condor1 & ! c>rion cr[1 ^! fill me ) fe> & horror4 ,^! are ! highly develop$ life-=ms1 n[ arre/$1 petrifi$1 froz51 falsely1 timeless4 ,! baboon 0 almo/ z man1 ! hyna z ! lion3 ! vulture & ! condor are great] ?an ! eagle1 ! c>rion cr[ is /rong] ?an ! hawk4 ,& ^! obsc5e bea/s are n a%am$4 ,!y are />k & /atic1 !y are n mix$4 ,_! w is ho>y1 ageless4 ,be=e u1 ! ,egyptians h kn[n !m & wor%ipp$ !m4 ,! baboon1 ) 8 intellig5ce & 8 un?9kable lo9s1 ! cunn+ hyna ) 8 cr++1 /rick5 lo9s1 ^! are ! /atic =m ( "o a*iev$ ego1 ! egoi/ic ,*ri/ian1 ! democratic1 ! unselfi%4 ,! vulture1 ) h] nak$ neck & nak$1 small /ony head1 ?is is ! /atic =m ( ! o!r a*iev$ ego1 ! eagle1 ! ,self1 ari/ocratic1 lordly1 pagan4 ,x is un?9kable & un5durable4 ,yet we are drawn m & m 9 ?is direction4 ,aft] ! supreme intellig5ce1 ! baboon1 aft] ! supreme pride1 ! vulture4 ,! millionaire3 ! int]national f9anci]3 ! bank]s ( ?is _w4 ,! baboons1 ! hynas1 ! vultures4 ,! snake is ! _s ( ! great corruptive pr9ciple1 ! fe/]+ cold ( ! m>%4 ,?is is h[ he seems1 z we look back4 ,we revolt f him1 b we %>e ! same life & tide ( life z he4 ,he /ruggles z we /ruggle1 he enjoys ! sun1 he comes to ! wat] to dr9k1 he curls up1 hides himself to sleep4 ,& "u ! l[ skies ( ! f> pa/ ons1 he em]g$ a k+ out ( *aos1 a long beam ( new life4 ,b ! vulture looms out 9 sleep l a rock1 inv9cible )9 ! ho>y1 /atic =m1 inv9cible aga9/ ! flux ( bo? et]nities4 ,"o day !re 0 a l\d1 t]rible scream f ! g>d51 te>+ ! s\l4 ,oh1 & x 0 a snake ly+ on ! w>m g>d5 b$1 & 9 8 tee? ! leg ( a frog1 a frog spread out1 scream+ ) horror4 ,we ran ne>4 ,! snake glanc$ at u %>ply1 hold+ fa/ to ! frog1 try+ to get fur!r hold4 ,9 s try+1 x let ! frog escape1 :i* leap$ convuls$1 away4 ,!n ! snake slid noiselessly "u cov]1 sull5ly1 nev] look+ at u aga94 ,we 7 all :ite ) fe>4 ,b :y8 ,9 ! _w ( twilight z 9 ! _w ( light1 "o bea/ %all dev\r ano!r4 ,! _w ( corruption has its /ages1 :]e ! l[] %all dev\r ! high]1 ad inf9itum4 ,s a snake1 also1 dev\rs ! fasc9at$ bird1 ! little1 /atic bird ) its t9y skull4 ,yet is !re no great reptile t %all swall[ ! vulture8 ,z yet1 ! vulture is beyond life or *ange4 ,x /&s h>d1 immune )9 ! pr9ciple ( corruption1 & ! pr9ciple ( creation1 unbreakable4 ,x is kept /atic by ! fire ( putresc5ce1 :i* makes ! void )9 balance ! void )\t4 ,x is a *angeless tomb :]e9 ! latt] /ages ( corruption take place1 c\nt]act+ p]fectly ! action ( life4 ,life dev\rs dea? to keep ! /atic nullity ( ! =m4 ,s ! ragg$1 grey-&-black vulture sits hulk$1 motionless1 l a ho>y1 f\l piece ( liv+ rock1 its nak$ head & neck sunk 91 only ! curv$ beak protrud+1 ! nak$ eyelids l[]$4 ,motionless1 beyond life1 x sits on ! /]ile heights4 ,x does n sleep1 x /ays utt]ly /atic4 ,:5 x spreads its great w+s & floats d[n ! air1 /ill x is /atic1 /ill ?is is ! sleep1 a dream-float+4 ,:5 x rips up c>rion & swall[s x1 x is /ill ! same dream-motion1 /atic1 beyond ! +lut9ation4 ,! nak$1 obsc5e head is always fa/ lock$1 l /one4 ,x is ?is nak$1 obsc5e head ( a bird1 sleep-lock$1 a petrifi$ knot ( sleep1 t ,i _c be> to ?9k (4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( x1 ,i nei!r live nor die1 ,i am petrifi$ into f\lness4 ,! knot ( volition1 ! w knott$ ^u a p]petuat$ mom5t1 w n n[ be unloos$ = ev]4 ,x w rema9 ho>y1 un*ang+1 timeless4 ,till x disappe>s1 sudd5ly4 ,amid all ! flux ( "t1 ( ! two et]nities1 ?is head rema9s unbrok5 9 a cold1 rivett$ sleep4 ,b "o day x w be brok54 ,i am set utt]ly aga9/ ?is small1 nak$1 /one-cl9*$ head1 x is a f\l vision ,i want to wipe away4 ,b ,i am set utt]ly also aga9/ ! loa?some1 cr++1 imprison$ lo9s ( ! hyna1 t cr+e d[n ! h9d legs ( ! bea/ ) _! /atic weight4 ,aga9 ! /atic w has knott$ into rivett$1 endless nullity1 b "h ^u ! lo9s4 ,9 ! vulture1 ! head is turn$ to /one1 ! fire is 9 ! talons & ! beak4 ,9 ! ho>y1 glassy hyna1 ! lo9s are turn$ to /one1 heavy1 s9k+ d[n to e>?1 almo/ dragg$ along1 ! fire is 9 ! :ite eyes1 & 9 ! fangs4 ,! hyna c sc>cely see & he> ! liv+ _w2 x draws back on to ! /ony fixity ( its own lo9s1 draws back ^u its own nullity1 sightless save = c>rion4 ,! vulture c nei!r see nor he> ! liv+ _w1 x is "o supreme glance1 ! glance 9 se>* ( c>rion1 its own absolute qu5*+1 beyond :i* is no?+4 ,?is is ! end1 & beyond ! end4 ,?is is beyond ! beg9n+ & ! end4 ,"h ! beg9n+ & ! end are revok$4 ,! vulture1 revok+ ! end1 ! end petrifi$ ^u ! beg9n+1 is a nullity4 ,! hyna1 ! beg9n+ petrifi$ b5ea? ! end1 is a nullity4 ,?is is beyond ! beg9n+ & ! end1 ?is is ari/ocracy gone beyond ari/ocracy1 ! ,i gone beyond ! ,i2 ! o!r is democracy gone beyond democracy1 ! n-me surpass$ ^u itself4 ,?is is ! *angelessness ( ! k+doms ( ! e>?1 null1 un?9kable4 ,?is is ! la/ /ate into :i* man may fall1 9 ! triumph ( w & ! triumph ( in]tia1 ! /ate ( ! animat$ sepul*re4 ,,vi ,,to ,,be1 ,,& ,,to ,,be ,,diff]5t ,beh9d me !re is "t /ret*+ back = ev]1 on to ! un?9kable beg9n+s1 inf9itely4 ,& ?is is et]nity4 ,ahead ( me1 :]e ,i d n "k1 !re is "t /ret*+ on inf9itely1 to et]nity4 ,^! are ! two et]nities4 ,we _c say1 !y are "o & ! same4 ,!y are two & utt]ly diff]5t4 ,if ,i look at ! et]nity ahead1 my back is t[>ds ! o!r et]nity1 ?is latt] is =gott51 x is n4 ,:i* is ! ,*ri/ian attitude4 ,if ,i look at ! et]nity beh9d1 back to ! s\rce1 !n !re is = me "o et]nity1 "o only4 ,& ?is is ! pagan et]nity1 ! et]nity ( ,pan4 ,?is is ! et]nity "s ( u are ve]+ r\nd to1 9 private life1 dur+ ! pa/ few ye>s4 ,! two et]nities are n "o et]nity4 ,x is only by d5y+ ! v mean+ ( spee* itself1 t we c argue !m into on5ess4 ,!y are two1 relative to "o ano!r4 ,!y are only "o 9 _! mutual relation1 :i* relation is timeless & absolute4 ,! et]nities are temporal & relative4 ,b _! relation is con/ant1 absolute )\t mitigation4 ,! motion ( ! et]nities is dual3 !y fl[ toge!r1 & !y fl[ ap>t1 !y fl[ = ev] t[>ds union1 !y />t back =ev] 9 opposition1 to fl[ = ev] back to ! issue1 back into ! un?9kable future1 back into ! un?9kable pa/4 ,we h kn[n bo? directions4 ,! ,pagan1 ari/ocratic1 lordly1 s5su\s1 has decl>$ ! ,et]nity ( ! ,orig91 ! ,*ri/ian1 humble1 spiritual1 unselfi%1 democratic1 has decl>$ ! ,et]nity ( ! ,issue1 ! ,end4 ,we h he>d bo? decl>ations1 we h se5 ea* great ideal fulfill$1 z f> z is possible1 at ?is "t1 on e>?4 ,& n[ we say3 8,!re is no et]nity1 !re is no inf9ite1 !re is no ,god1 !re is no immortality40 ,& all ! "t we "k we are cutt+ (f our nose to spite our face4 ,)\t ,god1 )\t "s sort ( immortality1 n necess>ily life-ev]la/+1 b )\t some?+ absolute1 we are no?+4 ,yet n[1 9 our spitefulness ( self-fru/ration1 we w\ld r be no?+ ?an li/5 to our own be+4 ,god is n ! "o inf9ite1 nor ! o!r1 our immortality is n 9 ! orig9al et]nity1 nei!r 9 ! ultimate et]nity4 ,god is ! utt] relation betwe5 ! two et]nities1 ,he is 9 ! fl[+ toge!r & ! fl[+ ap>t4 ,?is utt] relation is timeless1 absolute & p]fect4 ,x is 9 ! ,beg9n+ & ! ,end1 j ! same4 ,:e!r x be reveal$ or n1 x is ! same4 ,x is ! ,unreveal$ ,god3 :at ,jesus call$ ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,my immortality is n f ! beg9n+1 9 my endless ance/ry4 ,nor is x on ahead 9 life ev]la/+4 ,my life comes to me f ! great ,creator1 ! ,beg9n]4 ,& my _s runs t[>ds ! ,com=t]1 ! ,goal f> ahead4 ,b ,i1 :at am ,i betwe58 ,^! two halves ,i always am4 ,b ,i am nev] myself until !y are consummat$ into a sp>k ( on5ess1 ! gleam ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,& 9 ?is sp>k is my immortality1 my non-mortal be+1 t :i* is n swept away d[n ei!r direction ( "t4 ,i am n immortal till ,i h a*iev$ immortality4 ,& immortality is n a "q ( "t1 ( ev]la/+ life4 ,x is a "q ( consummate be+4 ,mo/ m5 die & p]i% away1 unconsummat$1 una*iev$4 ,x is n easy to a*ieve immortality1 to w9 a consummate be+4 ,x is supremely difficult4 ,x means undaunt$ suff]+ & undaunt$ enjoym5t1 bo?4 ,& :5 a man has rea*$ 8 ultimate ( enjoym5t & 8 ultimate ( suff]+1 bo?1 !n he kn[s ! two et]nities1 !n he is made absolute1 l ! iris1 creat$ out ( ! two4 ,!n he is immortal4 ,x is n a "q ( "t4 ,x is a "q ( be+4 ,x is n a "q ( submission1 submitt+ to ! div9e grace3 x is a "q ( submitt+ to ! div9e grace1 9 suff]+ & self-oblit]ation1 & x is a "q ( conqu]+ by div9e grace1 z ! tig] leaps on ! trembl+ de]1 9 utt] satisfaction ( ! ,self1 9 complete fulfilm5t ( desire4 ,! fulfilm5t is dual4 ,& hav+ kn[n ! dual fulfilm5t1 !n )9 ! fulfill$ s\l is e/abli%$ ! div9e relation1 ! ,holy ,_s dwells !re1 ! s\l has a*iev$ immortality1 x has atta9$ to absolute be+4 ,s ! body ( man is begott5 & born 9 an ec/asy ( delight & ( suff]+4 ,x is a flame k9dl$ betwe5 ! oppos+ conflu5t elem5ts ( ! air4 ,x is ! battle-gr\nd & m>riage-b$ ( ! two invisible ho/s4 ,x flames up to its full /r5g?1 & is consummate1 p]fect1 absolute1 ! human body4 ,x is a revelation ( ,god1 x is ! foam-bur/ ( ! two waves1 x is ! iris ( ! two et]nities4 ,x is a flame1 flapp+ & travell+ 9 ! w9ds ( mortality4 ,!n ! pressure ( ! d>k & ! light relaxes1 ! flame s9ks4 ,we wat* ! sl[ dep>ture1 till only ! wick gl[s4 ,!n !re is ! dead body1 cold1 rigid1 p]fect 9 its absolute =m1 ! revelation ( ! consummation ( ! flux1 a p]fect jet ( foam t has fall5 & is vani%+ away4 ,! two waves are fa/ go+ asund]1 ! sn[-wrea? melts1 corruption's quick fire is burn+ 9 ! a*iev$ revelation4 ,we _c be> x1 t ! body %\ld decay4 ,we cov] x up1 we _c be> x4 ,x is ! revelation ( ,god1 x is ! mo/ holy ( all reveal$ ?+s4 ,& x melts into sl[ putresc5ce4 ,we _c be> x4 ,we wi% above all to pres]ve ?is a*iev$ & p]fect =m1 ?is revelation ( ,god4 ,& despair comes ov] u :5 x passes away4 8,sic transit10 we say1 9 agony4 ,! p]fect =m 0 n a*iev$ 9 "t1 b 9 timelessness4 ,x does n belong to today or tomorr[1 or to et]nity4 ,x j is4 ,x is we :o pass away1 we & ! :ole flux ( ! two et]nities1 ^! pass4 ,?is is ! et]nal flux4 ,b ! ,god-quick1 :i* is ! con/ant )9 ! flux1 ?is is nei!r temporal nor et]nal1 x is truly timeless4 ,& ?is p]fect body 0 a revelation ( ! timeless ,god1 timeless z ,he4 ,if we1 9 our mortality are temporal1 if we are "p ( ! flux ( ! et]nities !n we swirl away 9 our liv+ flux1 ! fle% decomposes & is lo/4 ,b all ! "t1 :e!r 9 ! glad w>m conflu5ce ( creation or 9 ! cold fl[+-ap>t ( corruption1 ! same quick rema9s absolute & timeless1 ! revelation is 9 ,god1 timeless4 ,?is alone ( mortality does n belong to ! pass+ away1 ?is consummation1 ?is revelation ( ,god )9 ! body1 or )9 ! s\l4 ,?is revelation ( ,god is ,god4 ,b we :o live1 we are ( ! flux1 we belong to ! two et]nities4 ,only p]petuation is a s94 ,! p]fect relation is p]fect4 ,b x is !re=e timeless4 ,& we mu/ n ?9k to tie a knot 9 ,"t1 & ?us to make ! consummation temporal or et]nal4 ,! consummation is timeless1 & we belong to ,"t1 9 our process ( liv+4 ,only ,matt] is a v sl[ flux1 ! waves ebb+ sl[ly ap>t4 ,s we engrave ! belov$ image on ! sl[1 sl[ wave4 ,we h ! image 9 m>ble1 or 9 pictur$ col\r4 ,?is is art1 ?is transf]r+ to a sl[ flux ! =m t 0 atta9$ at ! maximum ( conflu5ce betwe5 ! two quick waves4 ,?is is art1 ! revelation ( a pure1 an absolute relation betwe5 ! two et]nities4 ,matt] is a sl[1 big wave fl[+ back to ! ,orig94 ,& ,_s is a sl[1 inf9ite wave fl[+ back to ! ,goal1 ! ultimate ,future4 ,on ! sl[ wave ( matt] & _s1 on m>ble or bronze or col\r or air1 & on ! consci\sness1 we impr9t a p]fect revelation1 & ?is is art3 :e!r x reveal ! relation 9 creation or 9 corruption1 x is ! same1 x is a revelation ( ,god3 :e!r x be ,pi]o della ,francesca or ,leon>do da ,v9ci1 ! g>on qui pisse or ,phidias1 or ,*ri/ or ,rabelais4 ,because ! revelation is impr9t$ on /one or granite1 on ! sl[1 la/-rec$+ wave1 !re=e x rema9s ) u = a long1 long "t1 l ! sculptures ( ,egypt4 ,b x is all ! "t sl[ly pass+ away1 unh9d]$1 9 its own "t4 ,x passes away1 b x is n 9 any s5se lo/4 ,our s\ls are e/abli%$ ^u all ! revelations1 ^u all ! timeless a*iev$ relation%ips1 z ! se$ conta9s a convolut$ memory ( all ! revelation 9 ! plant x repres5ts4 ,! fl[] is ! burn+ ( ,god 9 ! bu%3 ! flame ( ! ,holy ,gho/3 ! actual ,pres5ce ( accompli%$ on5ess1 accompli%$ out ( twoness4 ,! true ,god is creat$ e "t a pure relation%ip1 or a consummation out ( twoness into on5ess takes place4 ,s t ! poppy fl[] is ,god come r$ out ( ! poppy-plant4 ,& a man1 if he w9 to a %e] fusion 9 himself ( all ! manifold creation1 a pure relation1 a %e] gleam ( on5ess out ( manyness1 !n ?is man is ,god creat$ :]e be=e ,god 0 uncreate4 ,he is ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 tissue ( flame & fle%1 :]eas be=e1 ! ,holy ,gho/ 0 b ,gho/4 ,x is true ( a man z x is true ( a d&elion or ( a tig] or ( a dove4 ,ea* creature1 by "s my/]y1 a*iev$ a consummation 9 itself ( all ! w&]+ sky & s9k+ e>?1 & leap$ into ! o!r k+dom1 :]e fl[]s are1 ( ! gleam+ ,gho/4 ,s x is = ev]4 ,! two waves ( ,"t fl[ 9 f ! et]nities1 t[>ds a meet+1 a consummation4 ,& ! meet+1 ! consummation1 is heav51 is absolute4 ,all ! :ile1 z long z "t la/s1 ! %ock ( ! two waves pass$ into on5ess1 !re is a new heav54 ,all ! :ile1 heav5 is creat$ f ! flux ( "t1 ! galaxies betwe5 ! night4 ,& we too may be heav5ly bodies1 h[ev] we swirl back 9 ! flux4 ,:5 we h surg$ into be+1 :5 we h caught fire ) friction1 we are ! immortals ( heav51 ! invisible />s t make ! galaxy ( night1 no matt] h[ ! skies are toss$ ab\t4 ,we c =get1 b we _c cease to be4 ,life nor dea? makes any diff]5ce1 once we are4 ,= ev] ! k+dom ( ,heav5 is e/abli%$ m p]fectly1 m beautifully1 betwe5 ! flux ( ! two et]nities4 ,"o by "o1 9 our consummation1 we pass1 a new />1 into ! galaxy t ar*es betwe5 ! nightfall & ! dawn1 "o by "o1 l ! bu%es 9 ! des]t1 we take fire ) ,god1 & burn timelessly3 & )9 ! flame is heav5 t has come to pass4 ,e fl[] t comes out1 e bird t s+s1 e hawk t drops l a blade on h] prey1 e tig] fla%+ 8 paws1 e s]p5t hiss+ out poison1 e dove bubbl+ 9 ! leaves1 ?is is timeless heav5 e/abli%$ f ! flood1 9 ?is we h our =m & our be+4 ,e night new ,heav5 may ripple into be+1 e era a new ,cycle ( ,god may take place4 ,b x is all timeless4 ,! error ( errors is to try to keep heav5 fix$ & rock+ l a boat an*or$ )9 ! flux ( "t4 ,!n !re is sure to be %ipwreck3 8,die ,well5 v]s*l+5 am ,ende ,s*iff] und ,kahn40 ,f ! flux ( "t ,heav5 takes place 9 timelessness4 ,! flux mu/ g on4 ,?is is s91 ?is ty+ ! knot 9 ,"t1 ?is an*or+ ! ark ( et]nal tru? ^u ! wat]s4 ,!re is no ark1 !re is no et]nal sy/em1 !re is no rock ( et]nal tru?4 ,9 ,"t & 9 ,et]nity all is flux4 ,only 9 ! o!r dim5sion1 :i* is n ! "t-space dim5sion1 is !re ,heav54 ,we c no m /ay 9 ?is heav51 ?an ! fl[] c /ay on its /em4 ,we come & g4 ,s ! body t came into be+ & walk$ transfigur$ 9 heav5l9ess mu/ lie d[n & fuse away 9 ! sl[ fire ( corruption4 ,"t swirls away1 out ( sight ( ! heav5l9ess4 ,heav5 is n "h nor !re nor any:]e4 ,heav5 is 9 ! o!r dim5sion4 ,9 ! "y1 9 ! unborn1 ?is k+dom ( ,heav5 :i* 0 reveal$ & has pass$ away1 is e/abli%$2 ( ?is ,heav5 ! "y & ! unborn h _! be+4 ,& if 9 u ! ,heav5 be n reveal$1 if !re be no transfiguration1 no consummation1 !n ! infants cry 9 ! night1 9 want1 void1 /rong want4 ,?is is evil1 ?is desire = con/ancy1 = fixity 9 ! temporal _w4 ,?is is ! d5ial ( ! absolute good1 ! revocation ( ! ,k+dom ( ,heav54 ,we _c "k ,god1 9 t]ms ( ! p]man5t1 temporal _w2 we _c4 ,we c only "k ! revelation ( ,god 9 ! physical _w4 ,& ! revelation ( ,god is ,god4 ,b x vani%es z ! ra9b[4 ,! revelation is a condition 9 ! :ole flux ( "t4 ,:5 ?is condition has pass$ away1 ! revelation is no m reveal$4 ,x has gone4 ,& !n ,god is gone1 except to memory1 a rememb]+ ( a critical mom5t )9 ! flux4 ,b !re is no revelation ( ,god 9 memory4 ,memory is n tru?4 ,memory is p]si/5ce1 p]petuation ( a mom5t>y cohesion 9 ! flux4 ,god is gone1 until next "t4 ,b ! next "t w come4 ,& !n aga9 we %all see ,god1 & once m1 x w be diff]5t4 ,x is always diff]5t4 ,& we are all1 n[1 liv+ on ! /ale memory ( a revelation ( ,god4 ,:i* is purely a repetitive & temporal ?+4 ,b x conta9s u1 x is our prison4 ,:]eas1 !re is no?+ = a man to d b to behold ,god1 & to become ,god4 ,x is no good liv+ on memory4 ,:5 ! fl[] op5s1 see him1 don't rememb] him4 ,:5 ! sun %9es1 be him1 & !n cease aga94 ,s we seek w>1 dea?1 to kill ?is memory )9 u4 ,we hate ?is imprison+ memory s mu*1 we w kill ! :ole _w r ?an rema9 9 prison to x4 ,b :y d we n create a new revelation ( ,god1 in/ead ( seek+ m]ely ! de/ruction ( ! old revelations8 ,we d ?is1 because we are c[>ds4 ,we say 8,! great revelation _c be de/roy$1 b ,i1 :o am a failure1 ,i c be de/roy$04 ,s we de/roy ! individual /ones r ?an decide to pull d[n ! :ole edifice4 ,! edifice mu/ /&1 b ! individual bricks mu/ sacrifice !mselves4 ,s c>efully we remove s+le lives f ! edifice1 & we de/roy ^! s+le lives1 c>efully support+ ! edifice 9 ! weak5$ place4 ,& ! soldi] says3 8,i die = my ,god & my ,c\ntry04 ,:51 z a matt] ( fact1 9 8 dea? 8 ,god & 8 c\ntry are s mu* de/roy$4 ,b we mu/ always lie1 always conv]t our action to a lie4 ,we "k t we are liv+ 9 a /ate ( falsity1 t all our social & religi\s =m is dead1 a cry/allis$ lie4 ,yet we say3 8,we w die = our social & religi\s =m04 ,9 tru?1 we proce$ to die because ! :ole frame ( our life is a falsity1 & we "k t1 if we die suffici5tly1 ! :ole frame & =m & edifice w collapse ^u itself4 ,b x 7 mu* bett] to pull x d[n & h a great cle> space1 ?an to h x collapse on top ( u4 ,= we %all be l ,samson1 buri$ among ! ru9s4 ,& moreov]1 if we are l ,samson1 try+ to pull ! temple d[n1 we mu/ rememb] t ! next g5]ation w be none ! less slaves1 sightless1 9 ,gaza1 at ! mill4 ,& !y w be by no means eag] to commit suicide by br++ m temple beams d[n ) a bang on _! heads4 ,!y w say3 8,x is a v nice temple1 q wea!r-tight4 ,:at's wrong ) x80 ,!y w be ne> en\gh to ext9ction to be v canny & cauti\s ab\t imp]ill+ !mselves4 ,no1 if we are to break ?r\gh1 x mu/ be 9 ! /r5g? ( life bubbl+ inside u4 ,! *ick5 does n break ! %ell out ( animosity aga9/ ! %ell4 ,x bur/s out 9 its bl9d desire to move "u a great] heav5s4 ,& s mu/ we4 ,we mu/ bur/ out1 & move "u a great] heav5s4 ,z ! *ick5 bur/s out1 & has a :ole new univ]se to get into relation%ip )4 ,our univ]se is n mu* m ?an a mann]ism ) u n[4 ,if we break ?r\gh1 we %all f9d1 t man is n man1 z he seems to be1 nor woman woman4 ,! pres5t seem+ is a ridicul\s trave/y4 ,& ev5 ! sun is n ! sun z x appe>s to be4 ,x is some?+ t+l+ ) magnific5ce4 ,& !n />ts ! "o glori\s activity ( man3 ! gett+ himself into a new relation%ip ) a new heav5 & a new e>?4 ,oh1 if we knew1 ! e>? is ev]y?+ & ! sun is ev]y?+ t we h miss$ kn[+4 ,b if we p]si/ 9 our attitude ( p>asites on ! body ( e>? & sun1 ! e>? & ! sun w be m]e victims on :i* we fe$ our l\se-l complac5cy = a long "t yet3 we1 a myriad myriad little egos1 five billion fe$+ l "o4 ,! ?+ 9 itself6 ,:y ,i nev] yet met a man :o 0 any?+ b :at he _h be5 told to be4 ,let a man be a man-9-himself1 & !n he c beg9 to talk ab\t ! ,d+ an ,si*4 ,m5 may be utt]ly diff]5t f ! ?+s !y n[ seem4 ,& !n !y w behold1 to _! a/oni%m5t1 t ! sun is absolutely diff]5t f ! ?+ !y n[ see1 & t !y call 8sun04 ,,! ,,novel ,,! ,,novel ,somebody says ! novel is doom$4 ,somebody else says x is ! gre5 bay tree gett+ gre5]4 ,ev]ybody says some?+1 s :y %\ldn't ,i6 ,mr4 ,santayana sees ! mod]n novel expir+ because x is gett+ s ?92 :i* means1 ,mr4 ,santayana is bor$4 ,i am r bor$ myself4 ,x becomes h>d] & h>d] to read ! :ole ( any mod]n novel4 ,"o reads a bit1 & kn[s ! re/2 or else "o doesn't want to "k any m4 ,?is is sad4 ,b aga91 ,i don't ?9k x's ! novel's fault4 ,r ! noveli/s'4 ,y c put any?+ y l 9 a novel4 ,s :y d p always g on putt+ ! same ?+8 ,:y is ! vol au v5t always *ick56 ,*ick5 vol au v5ts may be ! rage4 ,b :o sick5s fir/ %\ts fir/ = some?+ else4 ,! novel is a great discov]y3 f> great] ?an ,galileo's telescope or somebody else's wireless4 ,! novel is ! highe/ =m ( human expression s f> atta9$4 ,:y8 ,because x is s incapable ( ! absolute4 ,9 a novel1 ev]y?+ is relative to ev]y?+ else1 if t novel is art at all4 ,!re may be didactic bits1 b !y ar5't ! novel4 ,& ! au?or may h a didactic 8purpose0 up 8 sleeve4 ,inde$ mo/ great noveli/s h1 z ,tol/oi _h 8 ,*ri/ian-socialism1 & ,h>dy 8 pessimism1 & ,flaub]t 8 intellectual desp]ation4 ,b ev5 a didactic purpose s wick$ z ,tol/oi's or ,flaub]t's _c put to dea? ! novel4 ,y c tell me1 ,flaub]t _h a 8philosophy01 n a 8purpose04 ,b :at is a noveli/'s philosophy b a purpose on a r high] level8 ,& s9ce e noveli/ :o am\nts to any?+ has a philosophy--ev5 ,balzac--any novel ( importance has a purpose4 ,if only ! 8purpose0 be l>ge en\gh1 & n at outs ) ! passional inspiration4 ,vronsky s9n$1 did he8 ,b also ! s9n+ 0 a consummation dev\tly to be wi%$4 ,! novel makes t obvi\s3 9 spite ( old ,leo ,tol/oi4 ,& ! w\ld-be-pi\s ,pr9ce 9 ,resurrection is a muff1 ) 8 piety t nobody wants or believes 94 ,!re y h ! greatness ( ! novel itself4 ,x won't let y tell didactic lies1 & put !m ov]4 ,nobody 9 ! _w is any?+ b delight$ :5 ,vronsky gets ,anna ,k>n9a4 ,!n :at ab\t ! s98--,:y1 :5 y look at x1 all ! trag$y comes f ,vronsky's & ,anna's fe> ( society4 ,! mon/] 0 social1 n phallic at all4 ,!y c\ldn't live 9 ! pride ( _! s9c]e passion1 & spit 9 ,"m ,grundy's eye4 ,& t1 t c[>dice1 0 ! real 8s904 ,! novel makes x obvi\s1 & knocks all old ,leo's tee? out4 8,z an (fic] ,i am /ill useful4 ,b z a man1 ,i am a ru910 says ,vronsky--or words to t effect4 ,well :at a skunk1 collaps+ z a man & a male1 & rema9+ m]ely z a social in/rum5t2 an 8(fic]01 ,god love u6--m]ely because p at ! op]a turn backs on him6 ,z if p's backs w]5't pref]able to _! faces1 anyh[6 ,& old ,leo tries to make out1 x 0 all because ( ! phallic s94 ,old li>6 ,because :]e w\ld any ( ,leo's books be1 )\t ! phallic spl5d\r8 ,& !n to blame ! column ( blood1 :i* really gave him all 8 life ri*es6 ,! ,judas6 ,cr+e to a mangy1 bloodless ,society1 & try to dress up t dirty old ,"m ,grundy 9 a new bonnet & face-p[d] ( ,*ri/ian-,socialism4 ,bro!rs inde$6 ,sons ( a ca/rat$ ,fa!r6 ,! novel itself gives ,vronsky a kick 9 ! beh9d1 & knocks old ,leo's tee? out1 & leaves u to le>n4 ,x is su* a bore t ne>ly all great noveli/s h a didactic purpose1 o!rwise a philosophy1 directly opposite to _! passional inspiration4 ,9 _! passional inspiration1 !y are all phallic wor%ipp]s4 ,f ,balzac to ,h>dy1 x is s4 ,nay1 f ,apuleius to ,e4 ,m4 ,=/]4 ,yet all ( !m1 :5 x comes to _! philosophy1 or :at !y ?9k-!y-are1 !y are all crucifi$ ,jesuses4 ,:at a bore6 ,& :at a burd5 = ! novel to c>ry6 ,b ! novel has c>ri$ x4 ,sev]al ?\s&s ( ?\s&s ( lam5table crucifixions ( self-h]oes & self-h]o9es4 ,ev5 ! silly duplicity ( ,resurrection1 & ! wick$] duplicity ( ,salammb1 ) t flay$ phallic ,ma?o1 tortur$ ^u ! ,cross ( a gilt ,pr9cess4 ,y c't fool ! novel4 ,ev5 ) man crucifi$ ^u a woman3 8 8de> cross04 ,! novel w %[ y h[ de> %e 03 de> at any price4 ,& x w leave y ) a bad ta/e ( disgu/ aga9/ ^! h]oes :o turn _! wom5 into a 8de> cross01 & ask = _! own crucifixion4 ,y c fool pretty ne>ly e o!r m$ium4 ,y c make a poem pieti/ic1 & /ill x w be a poem4 ,y c write ,hamlet 9 drama3 if y wrote him 9 a novel1 he'd be half comic1 or a trifle suspici\s3 a suspici\s "*1 l ,do/oevsky's ,idiot4 ,someh[1 y sweep ! gr\nd a bit too cle> 9 ! poem or ! drama1 & y let ! human ,^w fly a bit too freely4 ,n[ 9 a novel !re's always a tom-cat1 a black tom-cat t p\nces on ! :ite dove ( ! ,^w1 if ! dove doesn't wat* x2 & !re is a banana-sk9 to trip on2 & y "k !re is a wat]-closet on ! premises4 ,all ^! ?+s help to keep ! balance4 ,if1 9 ,plato's ,dialogues1 somebody _h sudd5ly /ood on 8 head & giv5 smoo? ,plato a kick 9 ! w9d1 & set ! :ole s*ool 9 an upro>1 !n ,plato w\ld h be5 put into a mu* tru] relation to ! univ]se4 ,or if1 9 ! mid/ ( ! ,timaeus1 ,plato _h only paus$ to say3 8,& n[1 my de> ,cleon--7or :oev] x 07--,i h a bellya*e1 & mu/ retreat to ! privy3 ?is too is "p ( ! ,et]nal ,idea ( man01 !n we nev] ne$ h fall5 s l[ z ,freud4 ,& if1 :5 ,jesus told ! ri* man to take all he _h & give x to ! poor1 ! ri* man _h repli$3 8,all "r1 old sport6 ,y are poor1 ar5't y8 ,come on1 ,i'll give y a =tune4 ,come on60 ,!n a great deal ( snivell+ & mi/ak5ness w\ld h be5 sp>$ u all1 & we might nev] h produc$ a ,m>x & a ,l594 ,if only ,jesus _h accept$ ! =tune6 ,yes1 x's a pity ( pities t ,ma!w1 ,m>k1 ,luke1 & ,john didn't write /raight novels4 ,!y did write novels2 b a bit crook$4 ,! ,evangels are wond]ful novels1 by au?ors 8) a purpose40 ,pity !re's s mu* ,s]mon-on-!-,m\nt+4 8,ma!w1 ,m>k1 ,luke1 & ,john ,w5t to b$ ) _! bree*es on60-- z e *ild kn[s4 ,ah1 if only !y'd tak5 !m (f6 ,great] novels1 to my m9d1 are ! books ( ! ,old ,te/am5t1 ,g5esis1 ,exodus1 ,samuel1 ,k+s1 by au?ors ^: purpose 0 s big1 x didn't qu>rel ) _! passionate inspiration4 ,! purpose & ! inspiration 7 almo/ "o4 ,:y1 9 ! "n ( ev]y?+ bad1 ! two ev] %\ld h got sep>at$1 is a my/]y6 ,b 9 ! mod]n novel !y are hopelessly divorc$4 ,:5 !re is any inspiration !re1 to be divorc$ f4 ,?is1 !n1 is :at is ! matt] ) ! mod]n novel4 ,! mod]n noveli/ is possess$1 hag-ridd51 by su* a /ale old 8purpose01 or idea-(-himself1 t 8 inspiration succumbs4 ,( c\rse he d5ies hav+ any didactic purpose at all3 because a purpose is suppos$ to be l cat>rh1 some?+ to be a%am$ (4 ,b he's got x4 ,!y've all got x3 ! same snivell+ purpose4 ,!y're all little ,jesuses 9 _! own eyes1 & _! 8purpose0 is to prove x4 ,oh ,"l6--,"l ,jim6 ,sylve/re ,bonn>d6 ,if ,w9t] ,comes6 ,ma9 ,/reet6 ,ulysses6 ,pan6 ,!y are all pa!tic or sympa!tic or antipa!tic little ,jesuses accomplis or manqus4 ,& !re is a h]o9e :o is always 8pure01 usually1 n[adays1 on ! muck-heap6 ,l ! ,gre5 ,hatt$ ,woman4 ,%e is all ! "t at ! feet ( ,jesus1 ?\gh h] behavi\r !re may be mislead+4 ,heav5 kn[s :at ! ,savi\r really makes ( x3 :e!r %e's a ,gre5 ,hat or a ,con/ant ,nymph 7eighte5 mon?s ( con/ancy1 & h] he>t fail$71 or any ( ! re/ ( 'em4 ,!y are all1 h]oes & h]o9es1 noveli/s & %e-noveli/s1 little ,jesuses or ,jesusesses4 ,!y may be wall[+ 9 ! mire3 b !n didn't ,jesus h>r[ ,hell6 ,a la bonne heure6 ,oh1 !y are all noveli/s ) an idea ( !mselves6 ,:i* is a 8purpose01 ) a v5geance6 ,= :at a we>y1 false1 sick5+ idea x is n[adays6 ,! novel gives !m away4 ,!y c't fool ! novel4 ,n[ really1 x's "t we left (f insult+ ! novel any fur!r4 ,if y\r purpose is to prove y\r own ,jesus qualifications1 & ! ?9 /ream ( y\r inspiration is 8s901 !n dry up1 = ! int]e/ is dead4 ,life z x is6 ,:at's ! good ( pret5d+ t ! lives ( a set ( tupp5ny ,gre5 ,hats & ,con/ant ,nymphs is ,life-z-x-is1 :5 ! novel itself proves t all x am\nts to is life z x is isn't life1 b a sort ( ev]la/+ & intricate & bor+ habit3 ( ,jesus peccant & ,jesusa peccante4 ,^! we>isome sick5+ little p]sonal novels6 ,aft] all1 !y ar5't novels at all4 ,9 e great novel1 :o is ! h]o all ! "t8 ,n any ( ! *>act]s1 b "s unnam$ & nameless flame beh9d !m all4 ,j z ,god is ! pivotal int]e/ 9 ! books ( ! ,old ,te/am5t4 ,b j a trifle too intimate1 too frre et co*on1 !re4 ,9 ! great novel1 ! felt b unkn[n flame /&s beh9d all ! *>act]s1 & 9 _! words & ge/ures !re is a flick] ( ! pres5ce4 ,if y are too p]sonal1 too human1 ! flick] fades out1 leav+ y ) some?+ awfully lifelike1 & z lifeless z mo/ p are4 ,we h to *oose betwe5 ! quick & ! dead4 ,! quick is ,god-flame1 9 ev]y?+4 ,& ! dead is dead4 ,9 ?is room :]e ,i write1 !re is a little table t is dead3 x doesn't ev5 weakly exi/4 ,& !re is a ridicul\s little iron /ove1 :i* = "s unkn[n reason is quick4 ,& !re is an iron w>drobe trunk1 :i* = "s /ill m my/]i\s reason is quick4 ,& !re are sev]al books1 ^: m]e corpus is dead1 utt]ly dead & non-exi/5t4 ,& !re is a sleep+ cat1 v quick4 ,& a glass lamp1 t1 alas1 is dead4 ,:at makes ! diff]5ce8 ,qui5 sabe6 ,b diff]5ce !re is4 ,& ,i "k x4 ,& ! sum & s\rce ( all quickness1 we w call ,god4 ,& ! sum & total ( all deadness we may call human4 ,& if "o tries to f9d out1 :]e9 ! quickness ( ! quick lies1 x is 9 a c]ta9 weird relation%ip betwe5 t :i* is quick &--,i don't "k2 p]haps all ! re/ ( ?+s4 ,x seems to consi/ 9 an odd sort ( fluid1 *ang+1 grotesque or beautiful relat$ness4 ,t silly iron /ove someh[ belongs4 ,:]eas ?is ?9-%ank$ table doesn't belong4 ,x is a m]e disconnect$ lump1 l a cut-(f f+]4 ,& n[ we see ! great1 great m]its ( ! novel4 ,x c't exi/ )\t be+ 8quick04 ,! ord9>y unquick novel1 ev5 if x be a be/ sell]1 disappe>s into absolute no?+ness1 ! dead bury+ _! dead ) surpris+ spe$4 ,= ev5 ! dead l to be tickl$4 ,b ! next m9ute1 !y've =gott5 bo? ! tickl+ & ! tickl]4 ,secondly1 ! novel conta9s no didactive absolute4 ,all t is quick1 & all t is said & done by ! quick1 is1 9 "s way godly4 ,s t ,vronsky's tak+ ,anna ,k>n9a we mu/ c\nt godly1 s9ce x is quick4 ,& t ,pr9ce 9 ,resurrection1 foll[+ ! convict girl1 we mu/ c\nt dead4 ,! convict tra9 is quick & alive4 ,b t w\ld-be-expiatory ,pr9ce is z dead z lumb]4 ,! novel itself lays d[n ^! laws = u1 & we sp5d our "t evad+ !m4 ,! man 9 ! novel mu/ be 8quick04 ,& ?is means "o ?+1 among a ho/ ( unkn[n mean+3 x means he mu/ h a quick relat$ness to all ! o!r ?+s 9 ! novel3 sn[1 b$-bugs1 sun%9e1 ! phallus1 tra9s1 silk-hats1 cats1 sorr[1 p1 food1 diph!ria1 fu*sias1 />s1 ideas1 ,god1 too?-pa/e1 lightn+1 & toilet-pap]4 ,he mu/ be 9 quick relation to all ^! ?+s4 ,:at he says & does mu/ be relative to !m all4 ,& ?is is :y ,pi]re1 = example1 9 ,w> & ,peace1 is m dull & less quick ?an ,pr9ce ,&r4 ,pi]re is q nicely relat$ to ideas1 too?-pa/e1 ,god1 p1 foods1 tra9s1 silk-hats1 sorr[1 diph!ria1 />s4 ,b 8 relation to sn[ & sun%9e1 cats1 lightn+ & ! phallus1 fu*sias & toilet-pap]1 is sluggi% & mussy4 ,he's n quick en\gh4 ,! really quick1 ,tol/oi lov$ to kill !m (f or muss !m ov]4 ,l a true ,bol%evi/4 ,"o c't help feel+ ,nata%a is r mussy & unfre%1 m>ri$ to t ,pi]re4 ,pi]re 0 :at we call1 8s human04 ,:i* means1 8s limit$04 ,m5 clott+ toge!r into social masses 9 ord] to limit _! individual liabilities3 ?is is humanity4 ,& ?is is ,pi]re4 ,& ?is is ,tol/oi1 ! philosoph] ) a v nauseat+ ,*ri/ian-bro!rhood idea ( himself4 ,:y limit man to a ,*ri/ian-bro!rhood8 ,i myself1 ,i c\ld belong to ! sweete/ ,*ri/ian-bro!rhood "o day1 & ride aft] ,attila ) a raw beef/eak = my saddle-clo?1 to see ! r$ cock cr[ 9 flame ov] all ,*ri/5dom1 next day4 ,& t is man6 ,t1 really1 0 ,tol/oi4 ,t1 ev51 0 ,l591 ,god 9 ! ma*9e ( ,*ri/ian-bro!rhood1 t ha%es m5 up into social sausage-meat4 ,damn all absolutes4 ,oh damn1 damn1 damn all absolutes6 ,i tell y1 no absolute is go+ to make ! lion lie d[n ) ! lamb3 unless1 l ! lim]ick1 ! lamb is inside4 8,!y return$ f ! ride ,) lamb ,leo inside ,& a smile on ! face ( ! tig]6 ,s+ fol-di-lol-lol6 ,fol-di-lol-lol6 ,fol-di-lol-ol-di-lol-olly60 ,= man1 !re is nei!r absolute nor absolution4 ,su* ?+s %\ld be left to mon/]s l ! "r-angl$ triangle1 :i* does only exi/ 9 ! ideal consci\sness4 ,a man c't h a squ>e on 8 hypot5use1 let him try z he may4 ,ay6 ,ay6 ,ay6--,man h&+ out absolutes to man1 z if we 7 all books ( geometry ) axioms1 po/ulates & def9itions 9 front4 ,god ) a pair ( compasses6 ,moses ) a set squ>e6 ,man a geometric bifurcation1 n ev5 a radi%6 ,holy ,moses6 8,hon\r ?y fa!r & ?y "m60 ,t's awfully cute6 ,b suppos+ !y are n honorable8 ,h[ !n1 ,moses8 ,voice ( ?und] f ,s9ai3 8,pret5d to hon\r !m60 8,love ?y neighb\r z ?yself40 ,alas1 my neighb\r happ5s to be mean & dete/able4 ,voice ( ! lamb5t ,dove1 coo+3 8,put x ov] him1 t y love him40 ,talk ab\t ! cunn+ ( s]p5ts6 ,i nev] saw ev5 a s]p5t kiss+ 8 in/9ctive enemy4 ,pfui6 ,i w\ldn't black5 my m\?1 kiss+ my neighb\r1 :o1 ,i repeat1 to me is mean & dete/able4 ,dove1 g home6 ,! ,goat & ,compasses1 inde$6 ,ev]y?+ is relative4 ,e ,comm&m5t t ev] issu$ out ( ! m\? ( ,god or man1 is /rictly relative3 adh]+ to ! p>ticul> "t1 place & circum/ance4 ,& ?is is ! beauty ( ! novel2 ev]y?+ is true 9 its own relation%ip1 & no fur!r4 ,= ! relat$ness & int]relat$ness ( all ?+s fl[s & *anges & trembles l a /ream1 & l a fi% 9 ! /ream ! *>act]s 9 ! novel swim & drift & float & turn belly-up :5 !y're dead4 ,s1 if a "* 9 a novel wants two wives--or ?ree--or ?irty3 well1 t is true ( t man1 at t "t1 9 t circum/ance4 ,x may be true ( o!r m51 else:]e & else:54 ,b to inf] t all m5 at all times want two1 ?ree1 or ?irty wives2 or t ! noveli/ himself is advocat+ furi\s polygamy2 is j imbecility4 ,x has be5 j z imbecile to inf] t1 because ,dante wor%ipp$ a remote ,beatrice1 e man1 all m51 %\ld g wor%ipp+ remote ,beatrices4 ,& t w\ldn't h be5 s bad1 if ,dante _h put ! ?+ 9 its true light4 ,:y d we slur ov] ! actual fact t ,dante _h a cosy bifurcat$ wife 9 8 b$1 & a family ( lu/y little ,dant9os8 ,petr>*1 ) 8 ,laura 9 ! di/ance1 _h twelve little legitimate ,petr>*s ( 8 own1 betwe5 8 knees4 ,yet all we he> is ,laura6 ,laura6 ,beatrice6 ,beatrice6 ,di/ance6 ,di/ance6 ,:at bunk6 ,:y didn't ,dante & ,petr>* *ant 9 *orus3 ,oh be my spiritual concub9e ,beatrice6 ,laura6 ,my old girl's got sev]al babies t are m9e1 ,b ?\ be my spiritual concub9e1 ,beatrice6 ,laura6 ,!n !re w\ld h be5 an hone/ relation betwe5 all ! bun*4 ,nobody grudges ! g5ts _! spiritual concub9es4 ,b keep+ a wife & family--twelve *ildr5--up "o's sleeve1 has always be5 recognis$ z a dirty trick4 ,:i* reveals h[ immoral ! absolute is6 ,inv>iably keep+ "s vital fact d>k6 ,di%onorable6 ,"h we come ^u ! ?ird ess5tial quality ( ! novel4 ,unlike ! essay1 ! poem1 ! drama1 ! book ( philosophy1 or ! sci5tific treatise3 all ( :i* may beg ! "q1 :5 !y don't d[nright fil* x2 ! novel inh]5tly is & mu/ be3 #a4 ,quick4 #b4 ,int]relat$ 9 all its p>ts1 vitally1 organically4 #c4 ,honorable4 ,i call ,dante's ,comm$ia slightly di%onorable1 ) nev] a m5tion ( ! cosy bifurcat$ wife1 & ! kids4 ,& ,w> & ,peace ,i call d[nright di%onorable1 ) t fat1 dilut$ ,pi]re = a h]o1 /uck up z pref]able & desirable1 :5 ev]ybody kn[s t he wasn't attractive1 ev5 to ,tol/oi4 ,( c\rse ,tol/oi1 be+ a great creative arti/1 0 true to 8 *>act]s4 ,b be+ a man ) a philosophy1 he wasn't true to 8 own "*4 ,"* is a curi\s ?+4 ,x is ! flame ( a man1 :i* burns bright] or dimm]1 blu] or yell[] or r$d]1 ris+ or s9k+ or fl>+ accord+ to ! draughts ( circum/ance & ! *ang+ air ( life1 *ang+ itself cont9ually1 yet rema9+ "o s+le1 sep>ate flame1 flick]+ 9 a /range _w3 unless x be bl[n out at la/ by too mu* adv]sity4 ,if ,tol/oi _h look$ into ! flame ( 8 own belly1 he w\ld h se5 t he didn't really l ! fat1 fuzzy ,pi]re1 :o 0 a poor tool1 aft] all4 ,b ,tol/oi 0 a p]sonality ev5 m ?an a "*4 ,& a p]sonality is a self-consci\s ,i am3 be+ all t is left 9 u ( a once-almighty ,p]sonal ,god4 ,s be+ a p]sonality & an almighty ,i am1 ,leo proce$$ delib]ately to lionise t ,pi]re1 :o 0 a dome/ic sort ( h\se-dog4 ,doesn't anybody call t di%onorable on ,leo's "p8 ,he might j z well h be5 true to himself6 ,b no6 ,8 self-consci\s p]sonality 0 sup]ior to 8 own belly & knees1 s he ?\ght he'd improve on himself1 by creep+ inside ! sk9 ( a lamb2 ! dodd]+ old lion t he 06 ,leo6 ,lon6 ,secretly1 ,leo wor%ipp$ ! human male1 man z a column ( rapaci\s & liv+ blood4 ,he c\ld h>dly meet ?ree lu/y1 roi/]\s "y gu>dsm5 9 ! /reet1 )\t cry+ ) envy3 & t5 m9utes lat]1 fulm9at+ on !m black oblivion & annihilation1 utmo/ moral ?und]-bolts4 ,h[ bor+1 9 a great man6 ,& h[ bor+1 9 a great nation l ,russia1 to let its old-,adam manhood be s improv$ ^u by ^! re=m]s1 :o all feel !mselves %ort ( some?+1 & !re=e live by spite1 t at la/ !re's no?+ left b a lot ( %ells ( m51 improv+ !mselves /eadily empti] & empti]1 till !y rattle ) words & =mulae1 z if !y'd swall[$ ! :ole encyclopdia ( socialism4 ,b wait6 ,!re is life 9 ! ,russians4 ,some?+ new & /range w em]ge out ( _! weird transmogrification into ,bol%evi/s4 ,:5 ! lion swall[s ! lamb1 fluff & all1 he usually gets a pa91 & !re's a rumpus4 ,b :5 ! lion tries to =ce himself d[n ! ?roat ( ! huge & popul> lamb--a na/y old %eep1 really--!n x's a ph5om5on4 ,old ,leo did x3 w$g$ himself bit by bit d[n ! ?roat ( wooly ,russia4 ,& n[ out ( ! m\? ( ! bol%evi/ lambk9 /ill waves an angry1 mi/ak51 tuft$ leon9e tail1 l an agitat$ exclamation m>k4 ,mean:ile x's a deadlock4 ,b :at a di%onorable ?+ = t claw-bit+ little ,leo to d6 ,& 9 8 novels y see him at x4 ,s t ! pap]y lips ( ,resurrection :isp]3 8,alas6 ,i w\ld h be5 a novel4 ,b ,leo spoil$ me40 ,c\nt ,tol/oi _h t la/ weakness ( a great man3 he want$ ! absolute3 ! absolute ( love1 if y l to call x t4 ,talk ab\t ! 8la/ infirmity ( noble m9ds06 ,x's a p]fect epidemic ( s5ility4 ,he want$ to be absolute3 a univ]sal bro!r4 ,leo 0 too tight = ,tol/oi4 ,he want$ to puff1 & puff1 & puff1 till he became ,univ]sal ,bro!rhood itself1 ! great gooseb]ry ( our globe4 ,!n pop w5t ,leo6 ,& f ! bits sprang up bol%evi/s4 ,x's all bunk4 ,no man c be absolute4 ,no man c be absolutely good or absolutely "r1 nor absolutely lovable1 nor absolutely belov$1 nor absolutely lov+4 ,ev5 ,jesus1 ! p>agon1 0 only relatively good & relatively "r4 ,judas c\ld take him by ! nose4 ,no god1 t m5 c conceive (1 c\ld possibly be absolute or absolutely "r4 ,all ! gods t m5 ev] discov]$ are /ill ,god3 & !y contradict "o ano!r & fly d[n "o ano!r's ?roats1 m>vell\sly4 ,yet !y are all ,god3 ! incalculable ,pan4 ,x is r nice1 to "k :at a lot ( gods !re are2 & h be51 & w be1 & t !y are all ( !m ,god all ! :ile4 ,ea* ( !m utt]s an absolute3 :i*1 9 ! e>s ( all ! re/ ( !m1 falls flat4 ,?is makes ev5 et]nity lively4 ,b man1 poor man1 bobb+ l a cork 9 ! /ream ( "t1 mu/ hit* himself to "s absolute /> ( righte\sness ov]head4 ,s he ?r[s out 8 l9e1 & hooks on4 ,only to f9d1 aft] a :ile1 t 8 /> is sl[ly fall+3 till x drops into ! /ream ( "t ) a fizzle1 & !re's ano!r absolute /> gone out4 ,!n we scan ! heav5s afre%4 ,z = ! babe ( love1 we're simply tir$ ( *ang+ its napk9s4 ,put ! brat d[n1 & let x le>n to run ab\t1 & manage its own little bree*es4 ,b x's nice to ?9k t all ! gods are ,god all ! :ile4 ,& if a god only g5u9ely feels to y l ,god1 !n x is ,god4 ,b if x doesn't feel q1 q altoge!r l ,god to y1 !n wait a:ile1 & y'll he> him fizzle4 ,! novel kn[s all ?is1 irrevocably4 8,my de>10 x k9dly says1 8"o ,god is relative to ano!r god1 until he gets into a ma*9e2 & !n x's a case = ! traffic cop60 8,b :at am ,i to d60 cries ! despair+ noveli/4 8,f ,amon & ,ra to ,mrs4 ,eddy1 f ,a%t>o? & ,jupit] to ,annie ,besant1 ,i don't "k :]e ,i am40 8,oh yes y d1 my de>60 replies ! novel4 8,y are :]e y are1 s y ne$n't hit* y\rself on to ! skirts ei!r ( ,a%t>o? or ,eddy4 ,if y meet !m1 say h[-d-y-d6 to !m q c\rte\sly4 ,b don't hook on1 or ,i %all turn y d[n40 8,refra9 f hook+ on60 says ! novel4 8,b be honorable among ! ho/60 he adds4 ,hon\r6 ,:y1 ! gods are l ! ra9b[1 all col\rs & %ades4 ,s9ce light itself is invisible1 a manife/ation has got to be p9k or black or blue or :ite or yell[ or v]milion1 or 8t9t$04 ,y may be a !osophi/1 & !n y w cry3 ,avaunt6 ,?\ d>k-r$ aura6 ,away666--,oh come6 ,?\ pale-blue or ?\ primrose aura1 come6 ,?is y may cry if y are a !osophi/4 ,& if y put a !osophi/ 9 a novel1 he or %e may cry avaunt6 to ! he>t's cont5t4 ,b a !osophi/ _c be a noveli/1 z a trumpet _c be a regim5tal b&4 ,a !osophi/1 or a ,*ri/ian1 or a ,holy ,roll]1 may be conta9$ 9 a noveli/4 ,b a noveli/ may n put up a f5ce4 ,! w9d bl[e? :]e x li/e?1 & auras w be r$ :5 !y want to4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 only ! ,holy ,gho/ kn[s truly :at righte\sness is4 ,& heav5 only kn[s :at ! ,holy ,gho/ is6 ,b x s\nds all "r4 ,s ! ,holy ,gho/ hov]s among ! flames1 f ! r$ to ! blue & ! black to ! yell[1 putt+ br& to br& & flame to flame1 z ! w9d *anges1 & life travels 9 flame f ! unse5 to ! unse51 m5 w nev] "k h[ or :y4 ,only travel x mu/1 & n die d[n 9 na/y fumes4 ,& ! hon\r1 :i* ! novel dem&s ( y1 is only t y %all be true to ! flame t leaps 9 y4 ,:5 t ,pr9ce 9 ,resurrection s cruelly betray$ & ab&on$ ! girl1 at ! beg9n+ ( h] life1 he betray$ & wett$ on ! flame ( 8 own manhood4 ,:51 lat]1 he bulli$ h] ) 8 rep5tant b5evol5ce1 he aga9 betray$ & slobb]$ ^u ! flame ( 8 wan+ manhood1 till 9 ! end 8 manhood is ext9ct1 & he's j a lump ( half-alive eld]ly meat4 ,x's ! olde/ ,pan-my/]y4 ,god is ! flame-life 9 all ! univ]se2 multif>i\s1 multif>i\s flames1 all col\rs & beauties & pa9s & sombr5esses4 ,:i*ev] flame flames 9 y\r manhood1 t is y1 = ! "t be+4 ,x is y\r manhood1 don't make wat] on x1 says ! novel4 ,a man's manhood is to hon\r ! flames 9 him1 & to "k t none ( !m is absolute3 ev5 a flame is only relative4 ,b see old ,leo ,tol/oi wett+ on ! flame4 ,z if ev5 8 wet 7 absolute6 ,sex is flame1 too1 ! novel ann\nces4 ,flame burn+ aga9/ e absolute1 ev5 aga9/ ! phallic4 ,= sex is s mu* m ?an phallic1 & s mu* deep] ?an functional desire4 ,! flame ( sex s+es y\r absolute1 & cruelly scor*es y\r ego4 ,:at1 w y ass]t y\r ego 9 ! univ]se8 ,wait till ! flames ( sex leap at y l /rip$ tig]s4 8,!y return$ f ! ride ,) ! lady inside1 ,& a smile on ! face ( ! tig]40 ,y w play ) sex1 w y6 ,y w tickle y\rself ) sex z ) an ice-cold dr9k f a soda-f\nta96 ,y w pet y\r be/ girl1 w y1 & spoon ) h]1 & titillate y\rself & h]1 & d z y l ) y\r sex8 ,wait6 ,only wait till ! flame y h dribbl$ on flies back at y1 lat]6 ,only wait6 ,sex is a life-flame1 a d>k "o1 res]v$ & mo/ly invisible4 ,x is a deep res]ve 9 a man1 "o ( ! core-flames ( 8 manhood4 ,:at1 w\ld y play ) x8 ,w\ld y make x *eap & na/y6 ,buy a k+-cobra1 & try play+ ) t4 ,sex is ev5 a maje/ic res]ve 9 ! sun4 ,oh1 give me ! novel6 ,let me he> :at ! novel says4 ,z = ! noveli/1 he is usually a dribbl+ li>4 ,,him ,,) ,,8 ,,tail ,,9 ,,8 ,,m\? ,,him ,,) ,,8 ,,tail ,,9 ,,8 ,,m\? ,answ] a fool accord+ to 8 folly1 philosophy ditto4 ,solemnity is a sign ( fraud4 ,religion & philosophy bo? h ! same dual purpose3 to get at ! beg9n+ ( ?+s1 & at ! goal ( ?+s4 ,!y h bo? decid$ t ! s]p5t has got 8 tail 9 8 m\?1 & t ! end is "o ) ! beg9n+4 ,x seems to me "t someone gave t s]p5t ( et]nity ano!r dummy to suck4 ,!y've all decid$ t ! beg9n+ ( all ?+s is ! life-/ream itself1 en]gy1 e!r1 libido1 n to m5tion ! ,sanskrit joys ( ,puru%a1 ,pradhana1 ,kala4 ,hav+ po/ulat$ ! s]p5t ( ! beg9n+1 n[ see all ! h]oes f ,moses & ,plato to ,b]gson1 wre/l+ ) him might & ma91 to pu% 8 tail into 8 m\?4 ,jehovah creates man 9 8 ,own ,image1 accord+ to ,8 ,own ,w4 ,if man behaves accord+ to ! ready-made ,w ( ,god1 =mulat$ 9 a bun* ( some:at unsav\ry comm&m5ts1 !n lucky man w be receiv$ into ! bosom ( ,jehovah4 ,man isn't v ke54 ,& t is ,s91 orig9al & p]petual4 ,!n ,plato discov]s h[ lovely ! intellectual idea is3 9 fact1 ! only p]fection is ideal4 ,b ! old dragon ( creation1 :o fa!r$ u all1 didn't h an idea 9 8 head4 ,plato 0 prep>$4 ,he popp$ ! ,logos into ! m\? ( ! dragon1 & ! s]p5t ( et]nity 0 r\nd$ (f4 ,! old dragon1 ugly & v5om\s1 wore yet ! preci\s jewel ( ! ,platonic idea 9 8 head4 ,unable to f9d ! dragon :olesale1 mod]n philosophy sets up a retail %op4 ,y c't lay salt on ! old sc\ndrel's tail1 because1 ( c\rse1 he's got x 9 8 m\?1 accord+ to po/ulate4 ,he doesn't seem to be sprawl+ 9 8 old lair1 across ! heav5s4 ,9 fact1 he appe>s to h vamoos$4 ,p]haps1 in/ead ( be+ "o big old boy1 he is really an inf9ite numb] ( little t9y boys3 atoms1 electrons1 units ( =ce or en]gy1 t9y little birds all sp9n+ ) _! tails 9 _! beaks4 ,j ! same 9 detail z 9 ! gross4 ,no?+ w come out ( ! egg t isn't 9 x4 ,evolution s+s away at ! same old song4 ,out ( ! amba1 or "s su* old-fa%ion$ entity1 ! dragon ( evolv$ life /ret*es himself enorm\s & m enorm\s1 only1 at la/1 to return ea* "t1 & put 8 tail into 8 own m\?1 & be an amba once m4 ,! amba1 or ! electron1 or :atev] x may lately be--! rose w\ld be j z sc5tless--is ! con/ant1 f :i* all manife/ liv+ creation />ts out1 & to :i* x all returns4 ,!re 0 a "t :5 man 0 n1 nor monkey1 nor c[1 n catfi%4 ,b ! amba 7or ! electron1 or ! atom1 or :atev] x is7 always 0 & always w be4 ,boom6 tiddy-ra-ta6 ,boom6 ,boom6 tiddy-ra-ta6 ,boom6 ,h[ d y "k8 ,h[ does anyone "k1 :at always 0 or wasn't8 ,bunk ( geology1 & /rata1 & all t1 biology or evolution4 8,"o1 two1 ?ree f\r five1 ,cat* a little fi% alive4 ,six1 sev51 eight n9e t51 ,i h let him g aga944440 ,bunk ( beg9n+s & ( ends1 & heads & tails4 ,:y does man always want to "k s damn$ mu*8 ,or r1 s damn$ little8 ,if he c't draw a r+ r\nd creation1 & fa/5 ! s]p5t's tail into its m\? ) ! padlock ( "o f9al cl9*+ idea1 !n creation c g to hell1 z f> z man is conc]n$4 ,!re is su* a ?+ z life1 or life en]gy4 ,we "k1 because we've got x1 or _h x4 ,x isn't a con/ant4 ,x comes & x goes4 ,b we want x4 ,?is ,i ?9k is inconte/able4 ,m ?an any?+ else 9 ! _w1 we want to h life1 & life-en]gy abundant 9 u4 ,we ?9k if we eat yea/1 vitam9es & proteids1 we're sure ( x4 ,we're _h4 ,we diddle ourselves = ! million million? "t4 ,:at we want is life1 & life-en]gy inside u4 ,:]e x comes f1 or :at x is1 we don't "k1 & nev] %all4 ,x is ! capital ,x ( all our k4 ,b we want x1 we mu/ h x4 ,x is ! all 9 all4 ,?is we "k1 n[1 = good & all3 t :i* is good1 & moral1 is t :i* br+s into u a /rong]1 deep] fl[ ( life & life-en]gy3 evil is t :i* impairs ! life-fl[4 ,b man's difficulty is1 t he c't h life = ! ask+4 8,he ask$ life ( ,!e1 & ,?\ gave/ x him3 ev5 l5g? ( days = ev] & ev]40 ,!re's a pretty motto = ! tomb6 ,x isn't l5g? ( days = ev] & ev] t a man wants4 ,x is /rong life )9 himself1 :ile he lives4 ,b h[ to get x8 ,y may be z heal?y z a c[1 & yet h fe> inside y1 because y\r life is n en\gh4 ,we "k1 really1 t we c't h life = ! ask+1 nor f9d x by seek+1 nor get x by /riv+4 ,! riv] fl[s into u f beh9d & bel[4 ,we mu/ turn our backs to x1 & g ahead4 ,! fa/] we g ahead1 ! /rong] ! riv] ru%es into u4 ,! mom5t we turn r\nd to embrace ! riv] ( life1 x ebbs away1 & we see no?+ b a /ony fium>a4 ,we mu/ g ahead4 ,b :i* way is ahead8 ,we don't "k4 ,we only "k t1 cont9u+ 9 ! way we are go+1 ! riv] ( life fl[s feebl] & feebl] 9 u1 & we lose all s5se ( vital direction4 ,we beg9 to talk ab\t vitam9es4 ,we become idiotic4 ,we cunn+ly prep>e our own suicide4 ,?is is ! philosophic problem3 to f9d ! way ahead4 ,allons6--!re is no road be=e u4 ,plato said t ahead1 ahead 0 ! p]fect ,idea1 gleam+ 9 ! br[ ( ! dragon4 ,we h pretty well caught up ) ! p]fect ,idea1 & we f9d x a sort ( va/1 :ite1 poli%$ tomb-/one4 ,if ! m\? ( ! s]p5t is ! op5 grave1 into :i* ! tail disappe>s1 !n ?ree *e]s = ! ,logos1 & d[n %e goes4 ,we *ildr5 ( a lat] ,pa1 "k t ,life is real1 ,life is e>ne/1 & ! ,grave is n its ,goal4 ,let u side-/ep4 ,all goals become graves4 ,e goal is a grave1 :5 y get !re4 ,well1 ,i came out ( an egg-cell1 l an amba1 & ,i g into ! grave4 ,i c't help x4 ,x's n my fault1 & x's n my bus9ess4 ,i don't want et]nal life1 nor l5g? ( days = ev] & ev]4 ,no?+ s long drawn out4 ,i give up all t sort ( /uff4 ,yet :ile ,i live1 ,i want to live4 ,dea?1 no d\bt1 solves its own problems4 ,let ,life solve ! problem ( liv+4 8,tea* me to live t s ,i may ,rise glori\s at ! ,judgm5t ,day40 ,i h no desire to rise glori\s at any ,judgm5t ,day1 :5 ! s]p5t f9ally *okes himself ) 8 own tail4 8,tea* me to live t ,i may ,g gaily on f day to day40 ,nay1 9 all ! _w1 ,i feel ! life-urge weak5+4 ,x may be1 !re are too _m p alive4 ,i feel x is1 because !re is too mu* automatic consci\sness & self-consci\sness 9 ! _w4 ,we c't live by lov+ life1 alone4 ,life is l a caprici\s mi/ress3 ! m y woo h] ! m %e despises y4 ,y h to get up & g to some?+ m int]e/+4 ,!n %e'll pelt aft] y4 ,life is ! riv]1 d>kly sp>kl+1 t ent]s into u f beh9d1 :5 we set our faces t[>ds ! unkn[n4 ,t[>ds "s goal666 ,b !re is no et]nal goal4 ,e attempt to f9d an et]nal goal puts ! tail ( ! s]p5t into 8 m\? aga91 :]eby he *okes himself 9 "o m la/ gasp4 ,:at is !re !n1 if !re is no et]nal goal8 ,by itself1 ! riv] ( life j gets n[h]e4 ,x s9ks into ! s&4 ,! riv] ( life foll[s ! liv+4 ,if ! liv+ don't get any:]e1 ! riv] ( life doesn't4 ,! old s]p5t lays him d[n & goes into a torpor1 in/ead ( danc+ at our heels & s5d+ ! life-sp>ks up our legs & sp9e1 z we travel4 ,s we've got to get some:]e4 ,is !re no goal8 8,oh man6 on y\r f\r legs1 y\r two1 & y\r ?ree1 :]e are y go+80--says ! ,sph9x4 8,i'm j go+ to say ,h[-d-y-d8 to ,susan10 replies ! man4 ,& he passes )\t a scrat*4 ,:5 ! cock cr[s1 he says 8,h[-d-y-d80 8,h[-d-y-d ,pet]8 ,h[-d-y-d8 old li>60 8,h[-d-y-d1 ,oh ,sun60 ,a *all5ge & a greet+4 ,we live 9 a multiple univ]se4 ,i am a *ick t absolutely refuses to *irp inside ! moni/ic egg4 ,see me walk =?1 ) a bit ( egg-%ell /ick+ to my tail6 ,:5 ! cuckoo1 ! c[1 & ! c(fee-plant *ipp$ ! ,mundane ,egg1 at v>i\s po9ts1 !y /epp$ out1 & imm$iately set (f 9 diff]5t directions4 ,n diff]5t directions ( space & "t1 b diff]5t directions 9 creation3 )9 ! f\r? dim5sion4 ,! cuckoo w5t cuckoo-w>ds1 ! c[ w5t c[-wise1 & ! c(fee-plant />t$ c(f+4 ,?ree v di/9ct roads across ! f\r? dim5sion4 ,! c[ 0 dumb1 & ! cuckoo too4 ,!y w5t _! ways1 z creatures d1 ,till !y *anc$ to meet1 9 ! ,"l's gre5 ,zoo4 ,! bird gave a cluck1 ! c[ gave a coo1 ,at ! sight ( ea* o!r ! pair ( !m flew ,into tantrums1 & />t$ _! hullabaloo4 ,!y />tl$ creation2 & :5 !y 7 ?r\gh ,ea* said to ! o!r3 till ,i came across y ,i wasn't aw>e ( ! ?+s ,i c\ld d6 ,cuckoo6 ,moo6 ,cuckoo6 ,& ?is1 ,i hold1 is ! true hi/ory ( evolution4 ,! ,greeks made equilibrium _! goal4 ,equilibrium is h>dly a goal to travel t[>ds4 ,yet x's some?+ to atta94 ,y travel 9 ! f\r? dim5sion1 n 9 y>ds & miles1 l ! et]nal s]p5t4 ,equilibrium argues ei!r a duali/ic or a plurali/ic univ]se4 ,! ,greeks1 be+ sane1 7 pan!i/s & plurali/s1 & s am ,i4 ,creation is a f\r? dim5sion1 & 9 x !re are all sorts ( ?+s1 gods & :at-n4 ,t br[n h51 scrat*+ ) h] h9d leg 9 su* common fa%ion1 is a sort ( goddess 9 ! creative dim5sion4 ,( c\rse1 if y /ay outside ! f\r? dim5sion1 & try to measure creation 9 l5g?1 bread? & height1 y've set y\rself ! difficult task ( measur+ up ! ,monad1 ! ,mundane ,egg4 ,:i* is a game1 l any o!r4 ,! solution is1 ( c\rse 7let me :isp]73 put 8 tail 9 8 m\?6 ,once y realise t1 willy nilly1 y're inside ! ,monad1 y give x up4 ,y're inside x & y always w be4 ,!re=e1 ,jonah1 sit /ill 9 ! :ale's belly1 & h a look r\nd4 ,= y'll nev] measure ! :ale1 s9ce y're inside him4 ,& !n y see x's a f\r? dim5sion1 ) all sorts ( gods & goddesses 9 x4 ,t br[n h51 :o1 be+ a ,rhode ,isl& ,r$1 is big & /uffy l plu%-uphol/]y1 is ( c\rse1 a goddess 9 h] own rights4 ,if ,i myself _h to make a poem to h]1 ,i %\ld beg93 ,oh my flat-foot$ plu% arm*air ,s commonly scrat*+ 9 ! y>d--6 ,b ?is poem w\ld only reveal my own limitations4 ,because ,flat-foot is ! fav\rite ( ! :ite leghorn cock1 & he %akes ! tid-bit = h] ) a mo/ woo+ noise1 & :5 %e lays an egg1 he bri/les l a d\ble :ite poppy1 & ru%es to meet h]1 z %e fl\nd]s d[n f ! *ick5-h\se1 & 8 e*o ( h] ,i've-laid-an-egg cackle is ri* & resonant4 ,e p9e-tree on ! m\nta9s he>s him3 ,%e's laid an egg6 ,i've ,%e's laid an egg6 ,i've ,& 8 poem w\ld be3 8,oh y :o make me feel s good1 :5 y sit next me on ! p]* ,at night6 7tempor>ily1 ( c\rse67 ,oh y :o make my fea!rs bri/le ) ! vanity ( life6 ,oh y ^: cackle makes my ?roat g (f l a rocket6 ,oh y :o walk s sl[ly1 & make me feel swift] ,?an my boss6 ,oh y :o b5d y\r head d[n1 & move 9 ! "u ,circle1 :ile ,i prance 9 ! upp]6 ,oh y1 come6 come6 come6 = "h is a bit ( fat f ,! roa/ veal2 ,i am %ak+ x = y40 ,9 ! f\r? dim5sion1 9 ! creative _w1 we live 9 a plurali/ic univ]se1 full ( gods & /range gods & unkn[n gods2 a univ]se :]e t ,rhode ,isl& ,r$ h5 is a goddess 9 h] own "r & ! :ite cock is a god indisputable1 ) a little r$ r+ on 8 leg3 :i* ! boss put !re4 ,:y8 ,:y1 ,i mean1 is he a god8 ,because he is some?+ t no?+ else is4 ,c]ta9ly he is some?+ t ,i am n4 ,& %e is some?+ t nei!r he is nor ,i am4 ,:5 %e scrat*es & f9ds a bug 9 ! e>?1 %e seems fairly to gobble d[n ! monad ( all monads2 & :5 %e lays1 %e c]ta9ly ?9ks %e's put ! ,mundane ,egg 9 ! ne/4 ,j "p ( h] naive nature6 ,z = ! goal1 :i* doesn't exi/1 b :i* we are always com+ back to3 well1 x doesn't spatially1 or temporally1 or et]nally exi/3 b 9 ! f\r? dim5sion1 x does4 ,:at ! ,greeks call$ equilibrium3 :at ,i call relation%ip4 ,equilibrium is j a bit me*anical4 ,x became v me*anical ) ! ,greeks3 an intellectual nail put ?r\gh x4 ,i don't want to be 8good0 or 8righte\s0--& ,i won't ev5 be 8virtu\s01 unless 8vir0 means a man1 & 8vis0 means ! life-riv]4 ,b ,i d want to be alive4 ,& to be alive1 ,i mu/ h a goal 9 ! creative1 n ! spatial univ]se4 ,i want1 9 ! ,greek s5se1 an equilibrium betwe5 me & ! re/ ( ! univ]se4 ,t is1 ,i want a relation%ip betwe5 me & ! br[n h54 ,! ,greek equilibrium took too mu* = grant$4 ,! ,greek nev] ask$ ! br[n h51 nor ! horse1 nor ! swan1 if x w\ld k9dly be equilibrat$ ) him4 ,he took x = grant$ t h5 & horse w\ld be only too delight$4 ,y c't take x = grant$4 ,t br[n h5 is extraord9>ily call\s to my god-l pres5ce4 ,%e doesn't ev5 *oose to "k me to nod to4 ,if ,i've got to /rike a balance betwe5 u1 ,i've got to "w at x4 ,b t is :at ,i want3 t %e %all nod to me1 ) a 8,h[dy60--& ,i %all nod to h]1 m politely3 8,h[-d-y-d1 ,flat-foot80 ,& betwe5 u !re %all exi/ ! ?ird ?+1 ! connaissance4 ,t is ! goal4 ,i %all n betray myself nor my own life-passion = h]4 ,:5 %e walks into my b$room & makes dropp+s 9 my %oes1 ,i %all *ase h] ) disgu/1 & %e w flutt] & squawk4 ,& ,i %all n ask h] to be human = my sake4 ,t is ! mi/ake ! ,greeks made4 ,!y talk$ ab\t equilibrium1 & !n1 :5 !y want$ to equilibrate !mselves ) a horse1 or an ox1 or an acan?us1 !n horse1 ox1 & acan?us _h to become n9e-t5?s human1 to accommodate !m4 ,call t equilibrium8 ,z a matt] ( fact1 we don't call x equilibrium1 we call x an?ropomorphism4 ,& an?ropomorphism is a bore4 ,too mu* an?ropos makes ! _w a dull hole4 ,s ,greek sculpture t5ds to become a bore4 ,if x's a horse1 x's an an?ropomorphis$ horse4 ,if x's a ,praxiteles ,h]mes1 x's a ,h]mes s ,praxitelis$1 t x beg9s sug>ily to bore u4 ,equilibrium1 9 its v be/ s5se--9 ! s5se ! ,greeks orig9ally meant x--/&s = ! /range sp>k t flies betwe5 two creatures1 two ?+s t are equilibrat$1 or 9 liv+ relation%ip4 ,x is a goal3 to come to t /ate :5 ! sp>k w fly f me to ,flat-foot1 ! br[n h51 & f h] to me4 ,i %all leave (f address+ h]3 8,oh my flat-foot$ plu% arm-*air60 ,i realise t is only imp]t95t an?ropomorphism on my "p4 ,%e might z well address me3 8,oh my sk9-flappy split pole60 ,:i* w\ld be l h] impud5ce4 ,sk9-flappy1 ( c\rse1 w\ld ref] to my blue %irt & baggy cord tr\s]s4 ,h[ w\ld %e "k ,i don't gr[ !m l a loose sk96 ,9 ! e>ly ,greeks1 ! sp>k betwe5 man & man1 /rang] & /rang]1 man & woman1 /rang] & /rang]ess1 0 alive & vivid4 ,ev5 ^? ,doric ,apollos4 ,9 ! ,egyptians1 ! sp>k betwe5 man & ! liv+ univ]se rema9s alight = ev] 9 ^? e>ly1 sil5t1 motionless /atues ( ,ph>aohs4 ,!y say1 x is ! /atue ( ! s\l ( ! man4 ,b :at is ! s\l ( a man1 except t 9 him :i* is himself alone1 susp5d$ 9 imm$iate relation%ip to ! sum ( ?+s8 ,n isolat$ or cut (f4 ,! ,greeks began ! cutt+ ap>t bus9ess4 ,& ,rod9's rem]g+ 0 only an intellectual tack+ on aga94 ,! s]p5t hasn't got 8 tail 9 8 m\?4 ,he is on ! al]t1 ) lift$ head l a li/5+1 sp>ky fl[]4 ,! ,egyptians knew4 ,b :5 ! olde/ ,egyptians c>ve a hawk or a ,sekhet-cat1 or pa9t birds or ox5 or p3 & :5 ! ,assyrians c>ve a %e-lion3 & :5 ! cave-m5 drew ! *>g+ bison1 or ! re9de]1 9 ! caves ( ,altamira3 or :5 ! ,h9doo pa9ts geese or elephants or lotus 9 ! great caves ( ,india ^: "n ,i =get--,ajanta6--!n h[ m>vell\s x is6 ,h[ m>vell\s is ! liv+ relation%ip betwe5 man & 8 object6 be x man or woman1 bird1 bea/1 fl[] or rock or ra93 ! exquisite frail mom5t ( pure conjunction1 :i*1 9 ! f\r? dim5sion1 is timeless4 ,an ,egyptian hawk1 a ,*9ese pa9t+ ( a camel1 an ,assyrian sculpture ( a lion1 an ,african feti% idol ( a woman pregnant1 an ,aztec rattlesnake1 an e>ly ,greek ,apollo1 a cave-man's pa9t+s ( a ,pre-hi/oric mammo?1 on & on1 h[ p]fect ! timeless mom5ts betwe5 man & ! o!r ,pan-creatures ( ?is e>? ( ours6 ,& by ! way1 speak+ ( cave-m51 h[ did ^? progna?\s semi-apes ( ,altamira come to depict s delicately1 s beautifully1 a female bison *>g+1 ) sw++ udd]1 or de] /oop+ fe$+1 or an ant$iluvian mammo? deep 9 contemplation4 ,x is art on a pure1 high level1 beautiful z ,plato1 f>1 f> m 8civiliz$0 ?an ,burne ,jones4 ,hadn't somebody bett] write ,mr4 ,wells' ,hi/ory backw>ds1 to prove h[ we've deg5]at$1 9 our /upid visionlessness1 s9ce ! cave-m58 ,! pictures 9 ! cave repres5t mom5ts ( purity :i* are ! quick ( civilization4 ,! pure relation betwe5 ! cave-man & ! de]3 fifty p]-c5t4 man1 & fifty p]-c5t4 bison1 or mammo?1 or de]4 ,x is n n9ety-n9e p]-c5t4 man1 & "o p]-c5t4 horse3 z 9 a ,raphael horse4 ,or hundr$ p]-c5t4 fool1 z :5 ,f4 ,g4 ,watts sculpts a bronze horse & calls x ,physical ,en]gy4 ,if x is to be life1 !n x is fifty p]-c5t4 me1 fifty p]-c5t4 !e3 & ! ?ird ?+1 ! sp>k1 :i* spr+s f out ( ! balance1 is timeless4 ,jesus1 :o saw x a bit vaguely1 call$ x ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,betwe5 man & woman1 fifty p]-c5t4 man & fifty p]-c5t4 woman3 !n ! pure sp>k4 ,ei!r ?is1 or less ?an no?+4 ,z = ideal relation%ips1 & pure love1 y might z well />t to wat] t9 pansies ) c>bolic acid 7:i* is pure en\gh1 9 ! antiseptic s5se7 9 ord] to get ! ,g>d5 ( ,p>adise4 ,,bless$ ,,are ,,! ,,p[]ful ,,bless$ ,,are ,,! ,,p[]ful ,! reign ( love is pass+1 & ! reign ( p[] is com+ aga94 ,! day ( popul> democracy is ne>ly done4 ,already we are ent]+ ! twilight1 t[>ds ! night t is at h&4 ,be=e ! d>kness comes1 x is z well to take our directions4 ,x is "t to enquire into ! nature ( p[]1 s t we d n crassly blund] into a new era3 or fall d[n ! gulf ( an>*y1 9 ! d>k1 z we cross ! bord]s4 ,we h a confus$ idea1 t w & p[] are someh[ id5tical4 ,we ?9k we c h a w-to-p[]4 ,a w-to-p[] seems to "w out z bully+4 ,& bully+ is some?+ despicable & dete/able4 ,tyranny1 too1 :i* seems to u ! apo!osis ( p[]1 is dete/able4 ,x comes f our mi/ak5 idea ( p[]4 ,x comes f ! anci5t mi/ake1 old z ,moses1 ( confus+ p[] ) w4 ,! p[] ( ,god1 & ! w ( ,god1 we h imag9$ id5tical4 ,we ne$ only ?9k = a mom5t1 & we c see ! va/ness ( diff]5ce betwe5 ! two4 ,! ,jews1 9 ,moses' "t1 & aga9 p>ticul>ly 9 ! "t ( ! ,k+s1 came to look ^u ,jehovah z ! apo!osis ( arbitr>y w4 ,?is is ! root ( a v great deal ( evil2 an old1 old root4 ,w is no m ?an an attribute ( ! ego4 ,x is1 z x 71 ! accel]ator ( ! eng9e3 or ! in/rum5t :i* increases ! pressure4 ,a man may h a /rong w1 an iron w1 z we say1 & yet be a /upid me*anical in/rum5t1 useful simply z an in/rum5t1 )\t any p[] at all4 ,an in/rum5t1 ev5 an iron "o1 has no p[]4 ,! p[] has to be put into x4 ,?is is true ( m5 ) iron wills1 j ! same4 ,! ,jews made ! mi/ake ( deify+ ,w1 ! e?ical ,w ( ,god4 ,! ,g]mans aga9 made ! mi/ake ( deify+ ! egoi/ic ,w ( ,man3 ! w-to-p[]4 ,!re is a c]ta9 inh]5t /upidity 9 apo!osis$ ,w1 & a consequ5t inevitable inf]iority 9 ! devotees !re(4 ,!y all h an inf]iority complex4 ,because p[] is n 9 ! lea/ l ,w4 ,p[] comes to u1 we "k n h[1 f beyond4 ,:]eas our w is our own4 ,:5 a man prides himself on some?+ t is j 9 himself1 "p ( 8 own ego1 he falls into conceit1 & conceit c>ries an inf]iority complex z its %ad[4 ,if a man1 or a race1 or a nation is to be any?+ at all1 he mu/ h ! g5]osity to admit t 8 /r5g? comes to him f beyond4 ,x is n 8 own1 self-g5]at$4 ,x comes z electricity comes1 out ( n[h]e into some:]e4 ,x is no good try+ to intellectualise ab\t x4 ,all attempts to argue & intellectualise m]ely /rangle ! passages ( ! he>t4 ,we wi% to keep our he>ts op54 ,!re=e we bru% aside argum5t & intellectual haggl+4 ,! intellect is "o ( ! mo/ curi\s in/rum5ts ( ! psy*e4 ,b1 l ! w1 x is only an in/rum5t4 ,& x works only "u pressure ( ! w4 ,by will+ & by intellectualis+ we h done all we c1 = ! "t be+4 ,we only exhau/ ourselves1 & lose our lives--t is1 our liv+ness1 our p[] to live--by any fur!r /ra9+ ( ! w & ! intellect4 ,x is "t to take our h&s (f ! ?rottle3 kn[+ well en\gh :at we are ab\t1 & *oos+ our c\rse ( action ) a /eady he>t4 ,to take "o's h& (f ! ?rottle is n ! same z to let g ! re9s4 ,man lives to live1 & = no o!r reason4 ,& life is n m]e l5g? ( days4 ,_m p hang on1 & hang on1 into a corrupt old age1 j because !y h n liv$1 & !re=e _c let g4 ,we mu/ live4 ,& to live1 life mu/ be 9 u4 ,x mu/ come to u1 ! p[] ( life1 & we mu/ n try to get a /rangle-hold ^u x4 ,f beyond comes to u ! life1 ! p[] to live1 & we mu/ wisely keep our he>ts op54 ,b ! life w n come unless we live4 ,t is ! :ole po9t4 8,to him t ha? %all be giv540 ,to him t ha? life %all be giv5 life3 on condition1 ( c\rse1 t he lives4 ,& aga91 life does n mean l5g? ( days4 ,poor old ,que5 ,victoria _h l5g? ( days4 ,b ,emily ,bront _h life4 ,%e di$ ( x4 ,& aga9 8liv+0 doesn't mean j do+ c]ta9 ?+s3 runn+ aft] wom51 or digg+ a g>d51 or work+ an eng9e1 or becom+ a memb] ( ,p>liam5t4 ,j because1 = ,"l ,byron1 to sleep ) a 8cr[n$ head0 0 life itself1 x doesn't foll[ t x w be life = me to sleep ) a cr[n$ head1 or ev5 a head uncr[n$4 ,sleep+ ) heads is no joke1 anyh[4 ,& liv+ won't ev5 consi/ 9 jazz+ or motor+ or go+ to ,wembley1 j because mo/ folks d x4 ,liv+ consi/s 9 do+ :at y really1 vitally want to d3 :at ! life 9 y wants to d1 n :at y\r ego imag9es y want to d4 ,& to f9d out h[ ! life 9 y wants to be liv$1 & to live x1 is t]ribly difficult4 ,somebody has to give u a clue4 ,& ?is is ! real ex]cise ( p[]4 ,t settles two po9ts4 ,fir/1 p[] is life ru%+ 9 to u4 ,second1 ! ex]cise ( p[] is ! sett+ ( life 9 motion4 ,& ?is is v f> f ,w4 ,if y want a dictator1 :e!r x is ,l591 or ,mussol9i1 or ,primo de ,riv]a1 ask1 n :e!r he c set money 9 circulation1 b if he c set life 9 motion1 by dictat+ to 8 p4 ,n[1 al?\gh we hate to admit x1 ,l59 did set life a good deal 9 motion1 = ! ,russian prolet>iat4 ,! ,russian prolet>iat 0 l a *ild t _h be5 kept "u too mu*4 ,s x 0 dy+ to be free4 ,x 0 crazy to keep h\se = itself4 ,n[1 l a *ild1 x is keep+ h\se = itself1 )\t ,papa or ,mama to int]f]e4 ,& naturally x enjoys x4 ,= ! "t x's a game4 ,b = u1 ,engli% or ,am]ican or ,fr5* or ,g]man p1 x w\ld n be a game4 ,we h m or less kept h\se = ourselves = a long "t1 & x's n v ?rill+ aft] ye>s ( x4 ,s a ,l59 w\ldn't d u any good4 ,he w\ldn't set any life go+ 9 u at all4 ,! ,gallic & ,lat9 blood isn't ?rill$ ab\t keep+ h\se1 anyh[4 ,x wants ,glory1 or else ,glory4 ,glory on horse-back1 or ,glory upset4 ,if !re 0 any ,glory to upset1 ei!r 9 ,france or ,italy or ,spa91 !n communism might fl\ri%4 ,b s9ce !re isn't ev5 a sp>k ( ,glory to bl[ out--,alfonso6 ,victor ,emmanuel6 ,po9c>6--:at's ! good ( bl[+8 ,s !y set up a little h>mless ,glory 9 baggy tr\s]s--,papa ,mussol9i--or a bit ( fat1 self-lov+ b amiable eld]-bro!r ,glory 9 ,g5]al de ,riv]a3 & !y call x p[]4 ,& ! democratic _w holds up its h&s1 & moans3 8,dictators6 ,tyranny60 ,:ile ! cons]vative _w *e]s l\dly1 & cries3 8,! ,man6 ,! ,man6 ,el hombre6 ,l'uomo6 ,l'homme6 ,hooray6660 ,bunk6 ,we want life4 ,& we want ! p[] ( life4 ,we want to feel ! p[] ( life 9 ourselves4 ,we're sick ( be+ s(t1 & amiable1 & h>mless4 ,we're sick to dea? ( ev5 enjoy+ ourselves4 ,we're a bit a%am$ ( our own exi/5ce4 ,or if we ar5't we ought to be4 ,b :at !n8 ,%all we exclaim1 9 a fat voice3 8,aha6 ,p[]6 ,glory6 ,=ce6 ,! ,man60--& proce$ to set up a h>mless ,mussol9i1 or a fat ,riv]a8 ,well1 let u1 if we want to4 ,only x won't make ! slighte/ diff]5ce to our real liv+4 ,except x's probably a good ?+ to h ! press--! newspap] press--cru%$ "u ! up-to-date rubb] heel ( a tyrann\s b h>mless dictator4 ,we won't speak ( poor old ,h9d5burg4 ,except1 :y didn't !y set up 8 wood5 /atue ) all ! nails knock$ into x1 = a ,presid5t8 ,= surely !y drove some?+ 91 ) ^? nails6 ,we _h a h>mless dictator1 9 ,mr4 ,lloyd ,george4 ,bett] g ahead ) ! ,h\ses ( ,repres5tatives1 ?an h ano!r %ot 9 t direction4 ,p[]6 ,h[ c !re be p[] 9 politics1 :5 politics is money8 ,money is p[]1 !y say4 ,is x8 ,money is to p[] :at m>g>9e is to butt]3 a na/y sub/itute4 ,no1 p[] is some?+ y've got to respect1 ev5 rev]e1 be=e y c h x4 ,x isn't boss+1 or bully+1 hir+ a mans]vant or ,salvationis+ y\r social inf]ior1 issu+ l\d ord]s & gett+ y\r own way1 do+ y\r oppon5t d[n4 ,t isn't p[]4 ,p[] is p\voir3 to be able to4 ,might3 ! ability to make3 to br+ ab\t t :i* may-be4 ,& :]e are we to get ,p[]1 or ,might1 or ,glory1 or ,hon\r1 or ,wisdom8 ,out ( ,lloyd ,george1 or ,l591 or ,mussol9i1 or ,riv]a1 or any?+ else political8 ,bah6 ,x has to be 9 ! p1 be=e x c come out 9 politics4 ,d we want ,p[]1 ,might1 ,glory1 ,hon\r1 & ,wisdom8 ,if we d1 we'd bett] />t to get !m1 ea* man = himself4 ,b if we don't1 we'd bett] cont9ue our lick-spittl+ c\rse ( be+ z happy1 z happy z ,k+s4 8,! _w is s full ( a numb] ( ?+s ,we ought all to be happy1 z happy z ,k+s40 ,:i* ,k+s1 might we ask8 ,bett] be c>eful6 ,myself ,i want ,p[]4 ,b ,i don't want to boss anybody4 ,i want ,hon\r4 ,b ,i don't see any exi/+ nation or gov]nm5t t c\ld give x me4 ,i want ,glory4 ,b heav5 save me f mank9d4 ,i want ,might4 ,b p]haps ,i've got x4 ,! fir/ ?+1 ( c\rse1 is to op5 "o's he>t to ! s\rce ( ,p[]1 & ,might1 & ,glory1 & ,hon\r4 ,x j dep5ds1 :i* gates ( "o's he>t "o op5s4 ,y c op5 ! humble gate1 or ! pr\d gate4 ,or y c op5 bo?1 & see :at comes4 ,be/ op5 bo?1 & take ! responsibility4 ,b set a gu>d at ea* gate1 to keep out ! li>s1 ! snivell]s1 ! mongrel & ! gre$y4 ,h[ev] sm>t we be1 h[ev] ri* & clev] or lov+ or *>itable or spiritual or impeccable1 x doesn't help u at all4 ,! real p[] comes 9 to u f beyond4 ,life ent]s u f beh9d1 :]e we are sightless1 & f bel[1 :]e we d n und]/&4 ,& unless we yield to ! beyond1 & take our p[] & might & hon\r & glory f ! unse51 f ! unkn[n1 we %all cont9ue empty4 ,we may h l5g? ( days4 ,b an empty t9 c la/s long] ?an ,alex&] liv$4 ,s1 anomal\s z x may s\nd1 if we want p[]1 we mu/ put aside our own w1 & our own conceit1 & accept p[]1 f ! beyond4 ,& hav+ admitt$ ! p[] f ! beyond into u1 we mu/ abide by x1 & n traduce x4 ,c\rage1 discipl9e1 inw>d isolation1 ^! are ! conditions ^u :i* p[] w abide 9 u4 ,& betwe5 brave p !re w be ! communion ( p[]1 prior to ! communion ( love4 ,! communion ( p[] does n exclude ! communion ( love4 ,x includes x4 ,! communion ( love is only a "p ( ! great] communion ( p[]4 ,p[] is ! supreme quality ( ,god & man3 ! p[] to cause1 ! p[] to create1 ! p[] to make1 ! p[] to d1 ! p[] to de/roy4 ,& !n1 betwe5 ^? ?+s :i* are creat$ or made1 love is ! supreme b9d+ relation%ip4 ,& betwe5 ^? :o1 ) a s+le impulse1 set out passionately to de/roy :at mu/ be de/roy$1 joy flies l electric sp>ks1 )9 ! communion ( p[]4 ,love is simply & purely a relation%ip1 & 9 a pure relation%ip !re c be no?+ b equality2 or at lea/ equipoise4 ,b ,p[] is m ?an a relation%ip4 ,x is l electricity1 x has diff]5t degrees4 ,m5 are p[]ful or p[]less1 m or less3 we "k n h[ or :y4 ,b x is s4 ,& ! communion ( p[] w always be a communion 9 inequality4 ,9 ! end1 z 9 ! beg9n+1 x is always ,p[] t rules ! _w6 ,!re mu/ be rule4 ,& only ,p[] c rule4 ,love _c1 %\ld n1 does n seek to4 ,! /atem5t t love rules ! camp1 ! c\rt1 ! grove1 is a lie2 & ! fact t su* love has to rhyme ) 8grove01 proves x4 ,p[] rules & w always rule4 ,because x 0 ,p[] t creat$ u all4 ,! act ( love itself is an act ( p[]1 orig9al z orig9al s94 ,! p[] is giv5 u4 ,z soon z !re is an act1 ev5 9 love1 x is p[]4 ,love itself is purely a relation%ip4 ,b 9 an age t1 l ours1 has lo/ ! my/]y ( p[]1 & ! rev]5ce = p[]1 a false p[] is sub/itut$3 ! p[] ( money4 ,?is is a p[] bas$ on ! =ce ( human envy & gre$1 no?+ m4 ,s nations naturally become m envi\s & gre$y e day4 ,:ile individuals ooze away 9 a c[>dice t !y call love4 ,!y call x love1 & peace1 & *>ity1 & b5evol5ce1 :5 x is m]e c[>dice4 ,collectively !y are hide\sly gre$y & envi\s4 ,true p[]1 z di/9ct f ! spuri\s p[]1 :i* is m]ely ! =ce ( c]ta9 human vices direct$ & int5sifi$ by ! human w3 true p[] nev] belongs to u4 ,x is giv5 u1 f ! beyond4 ,ev5 ! simple/ =m ( p[]1 physical /r5g?1 is n our own1 to d z we l )4 ,z ,samson f\nd4 ,b p[] is giv5 diff]5tly1 9 v>y+ degrees & v>y+ k9d to diff]5t p4 ,x always 0 s1 x always w be s4 ,!re w nev] be equality 9 p[]4 ,!re w always be un5d+ inequality4 ,n[adays1 :5 ! only p[] is ! p[] ( human gre$ & envy1 ! greate/ m5 9 ! _w are m5 l ,mr4 ,=d1 :o c satisfy ! mod]n lu/1 we c call x no?+ else1 = own+ a motorc>3 or m5 l ! great f9anci]s1 :o c so> on w+s ( gre$ to uncanny heights1 & ev5 c spiritualise gre$4 ,!y talk ab\t 8equal opportunity03 b x is bunk1 ridicul\s bunk4 ,x is ! old fable ( ! fox ask+ ! /ork to d9n]4 ,all ! food is to be s]v$ 9 a %all[ di%1 levell$ to p]fect equality1 & y get :at y c4 ,if y're a fox1 l ! born f9anci]1 y get a bellyful & m4 ,if y're a /ork1 or a flam+o1 or ev5 a man1 y h ! food gobbl$ f "u y\r nose1 & y g comp>atively empty4 ,is ! fox1 !n1 or ! f9anci]1 ! highe/ animal 9 creation8 ,bah6 ,humanity nev] bunk$ itself s ?or\ghly z ) ! bunk ( equality1 ev5 qualifi$ d[n to 8equal opportunity04 ,9 liv+ life1 we are all born ) diff]5t p[]s1 & diff]5t degrees ( p[]3 "s high]1 "s l[]4 ,! only ?+ to d is honorably to accept x1 & to live 9 ! communion ( p[]4 ,is x n bett] to s]ve a man 9 :om p[] lives1 ?an to clam\r = equality ) ,mr4 ,motor-c> ,=d1 or ,mr4 ,%ady ,/9nes8 ,pfui6 to y\r equality ) su* m56 ,x gives me goosefle%4 ,h[ mu* bett] x mu/ h be51 to be a colonel "u ,napoleon1 ?an to be a ,m>%al ,fo*6 ,oh6 h[ mu* bett] x mu/ h be51 to live 9 t]ror ( ,pet] ! ,great--:o 0 great--?an to be a memb] ( ! prolet>iat "u ,comrade ,l593 or ev5 to be ,comrade ,l593 ?\gh ev5 he 0 greati%1 f> great] ?an any extant millionaire4 ,p[] is beyond u4 ,ei!r x is giv5 u f ! unkn[n1 or we h n got x4 ,& bett] to t\* x 9 ano!r1 ?an nev] to "k x4 ,bett] be a ,russian & %oot oneself out ( %e] t]ror ( ,pet] ! ,great's displeasure1 ?an to live l a well-to-d ,am]ican1 & nev] "k ! my/]y ( ,p[] at all4 ,live 9 blank /]ility4 ,= ,p[] is ! fir/ & greate/ ( all my/]ies4 ,x is ! my/]y t is beh9d all our be+1 ev5 beh9d all our exi/5ce4 ,ev5 ! ,phallic erection is a fir/ bl9d movem5t ( p[]4 ,love is said to call ! p[] into motion3 b x is probably ! rev]se3 t ! slumb]+ p[] calls love into be+4 ,p[] is manifold4 ,!re is physical /r5g?1 l ,samson's4 ,!re is racial p[]1 l ,david's or ,mahomet's4 ,!re is m5tal p[]1 l t ( ,socrates1 & e?ical p[]1 l t ( ,moses1 & spiritual p[]1 l ,jesus' or l ,buddha's1 & me*anical p[]1 l t ( ,/eph5son1 or milit>y p[]1 l ,napoleon's1 or political p[]1 l ,pitt's4 ,^! are all true manife/ations ( p[]1 com+ out ( ! unkn[n4 ,unlike ! millionaire p[]1 :i* comes out ( ! kn[n =ces ( human gre$ & envy4 ,p[] puts some?+ new into ! _w4 ,x may be ,edison's gramaphone1 or ,newton's ,law or ,cs>'s ,rome or ,jesus' ,*ri/ianity1 or ev5 ,attila's *>r$ ru9s & empti$ spaces4 ,some?+ new displaces some?+ old1 & sometimes room has to be cle>$ be=eh&4 ,!n p[] is obvi\s4 ,p[] is mu* m obvi\s 9 its de/ructive ?an 9 its con/ructive activity4 ,a tree falls ) a cra%4 ,x grew )\t a s\nd4 ,yet true de/ructive p[] is p[] j ! same z con/ructive4 ,ev5 ,attila1 ! ,sc\rge ( ,god1 :o help$ to sc\rge ! ,roman _w out ( exi/5ce1 0 great ) p[]4 ,he 0 ! sc\rge ( ,god3 n ! sc\rge ( ! ,league ( ,nations1 hir$ & paid 9 ca%4 ,if x mu/ be a sc\rge1 let x be a sc\rge ( ,god4 ,b let x be p[]1 ! old div9e p[]4 ,! mom5t ! div9e p[] manife/s itself1 x is "r3 :e!r x be ,attila or ,napoleon or ,george ,wa%+ton4 ,b ,lloyd ,george1 & ,woodr[ ,wilson1 & ,l591 !y nev] _h ! "r smell4 ,!y nev] ev5 r\s$ real fe>3 no real passion4 ,:]eas a manife/ation ( real p[] ar\ses passion1 & always w4 ,"t x %\ld aga94 ,bless$ are ! p[]ful1 = !irs is ! k+dom ( e>?4 444 ,,love ,,0 ,,once ,a ,,little ,,boy 444 ,,love ,,0 ,,once ,a ,,little ,,boy ,collapse1 z (t5 z n1 is ! result ( p]si/+ 9 an old attitude t[>ds "s important relation%ip1 :i*1 9 ! c\rse ( "t1 has *ang$ its nature4 ,love itself is a relation%ip1 :i* *anges z all ?+s *ange1 save ab/ractions4 ,if y want some?+ really m durable ?an diamonds y mu/ be cont5t ) et]nal tru?s l 8twice two are f\r04 ,love is a relation%ip betwe5 ?+s t live1 hold+ !m toge!r 9 a sort ( unison4 ,!re are o!r vital relation%ips4 ,b love is ?is special "o4 ,9 e liv+ ?+ !re is ! desire1 = love1 or = ! relation%ip ( unison ) ! re/ ( ?+s4 ,t a tree %\ld desire to develop itself betwe5 ! p[] ( ! sun1 & ! opposite pull ( ! e>?'s c5tre1 & to balance itself betwe5 ! f\r w9ds ( heav51 & to unfold itself betwe5 ! ra9 & ! %9e1 to h roots & feel]s 9 blue heav5 & inn]mo/ e>?1 bo?1 ?is is a manife/ation ( love3 a knitt+ toge!r ( ! div]se cosmos into a on5ess1 a tree4 ,at ! same "t1 ! tree mu/ mo/ p[]fully ex]t itself & def5d itself1 to ma9ta9 its own integrity aga9/ ! re/ ( ?+s4 ,s t love1 z a desire1 is balanc$ aga9/ ! opposite desire1 to ma9ta9 ! integrity ( ! individual self4 ,hate is n ! opposite ( love4 ,! real opposite ( love is individuality4 ,we live 9 ! age ( individuality1 we call ourselves ! s]vants ( love4 ,t is to say1 we enact a p]petual p>adox4 ,take ! love ( a man & a woman1 today4 ,z sure z y />t ) a case ( 8true love0 betwe5 !m1 y end ) a t]rific /ruggle & conflict ( ! two oppos+ egos or individualities4 ,x is nobody's fault3 x is ! inevitable result ( try+ to snat* an int5sifi$ individuality out ( ! mutual flame4 ,love1 z a relation%ip ( unison1 means & mu/ mean1 to "s ext5t1 ! s9k+ ( ! individuality4 ,woman = c5turies 0 expect$ to s9k h] individuality into t ( h] husb& & family4 ,n[adays ! t5d5cy is to insi/ t a man %all s9k 8 individuality into 8 job1 or 8 bus9ess1 prim>ily1 & second>ily into 8 wife & family4 ,at ! same "t1 education & ! public voice urges man & woman into int5s] individualism4 ,! sacrifice takes ! old symbolic =m ( ?r[+ a few gra9s ( inc5se on ! alt>4 ,a c]ta9 am\nt ( "t1 labor1 money1 emotion are sacrific$ on ! alt> ( love1 by man & woman3 especially emotion4 ,b ea* calculates ! sacrifice4 ,& man & woman alike1 ea* saves 8 individual ego1 h] individual ego1 intact1 z f> z possible1 9 ! scrimmage ( love4 ,mo/ ( our talk ab\t love is cant1 & bunk4 ,! treasure ( treasures to man & woman today is 8 own1 or h] own ego4 ,& ?is ego1 ea* hopes x w fl\ri% l a salam&] 9 ! flame ( love & passion4 ,:i* x well may3 b = ! fact t !re are two salam&]s 9 ! same flame1 & !y fight till ! flame goes out4 ,!n !y become grey cold liz>ds ( ! vulg> ego4 ,x is mu* easi]1 ( c\rse1 :5 !re is no flame4 ,!n !re is no s]i\s fight4 ,y c't wor%ip love & individuality 9 ! same brea?4 ,love is a mutual relation%ip1 l a flame betwe5 wax & air4 ,if ei!r wax or air insi/s on gett+ its own way1 or gett+ its own back too mu*1 ! flame goes out & ! unison disappe>s4 ,at ! same "t1 if "o yields itself up to ! o!r entirely1 !re is a gutt]+ mess4 ,y h to balance love & individuality1 & actually sacrifice a portion ( ea*4 ,y h to h "s sort ( balance4 ,! ,greeks said equilibrium4 ,b :]eas y c q nicely balance a p\nd ( butt] aga9/ a p\nd ( *eese1 x is q ano!r matt] to balance a rose & a ruby4 ,/ill m difficult is x to put male man 9 "o scale & female woman 9 ! o!r1 & equilibrate t little pair ( opposites4 ,unless1 ( c\rse1 y ab/ract !m4 ,x's easy en\gh to balance a citiz5 aga9/ a citiz5ess1 a ,*ri/ian aga9/ a ,*ri/ian1 a _s aga9/ a _s1 or a s\l aga9/ a s\l4 ,!re's a =mula = ea* case4 ,lib]ty1 ,equality1 ,frat]nity1 etc41 etc4 ,b ! mom5t y put "y ,tom 9 "o scale1 & "y ,kate 9 ! o!r3 :y1 n ,god ,himself has succe$$ z yet 9 /rik+ a nice level balance4 ,probably doesn't int5d to1 ev]4 ,probably x's "o ( ! ?+s t are mo/ fasc9at+ because !y are ne>ly possible1 yet absolutely impossible4 ,/ill1 a miss is bett] ?an a mile4 ,y c at lea/ draw blood4 ,h[ c ,i equilibrate myself ) my black c[ ,susan8 ,i call h] daily at six o'clock4 ,& sometimes %e comes4 ,b sometimes1 aga91 %e doesn't1 & ,i h to hunt h] away among ! timb]4 ,possibly %e is ly+ peacefully 9 c[y in]tia1 l a black ,h9du /atue1 among ! oak-scrub4 ,!n %e rises ) a sigh+ heave4 ,my call+ 0 a m]e no?+ aga9/ ! black /illness ( h] c[y passivity4 ,or possibly %e is away d[n 9 ! bottom corn]1 l[+ sotto voce & bl9dly to "s f>-(f1 inaccessible bull4 ,!n :5 ,i call at h]1 & approa*1 %e screws r\nd h] tail & fl+s h] %>p1 ela/ic haun* 9 ! air ) a kick & a flick1 & plunges (f l a buck rabbit1 or l a black demon among ! p9e trees1 h] udd] sw++ l a *ime ( bells4 ,or possibly ! coyotes h be5 h[l+ 9 ! night along ! top f5ce4 ,& !n ,i call 9 va94 ,x's a "q ( saddl+ a horse & sift+ ! bottom timb]4 ,& !re at la/ ! horse sudd5ly w9ces1 />ts3 & ) a c]ta9 pang ( fe> ,i too cat* sight ( some?+ black & motionless & alive1 & t]ribly sil5t1 among ! tree-trunks4 ,x is ,susan1 h] e>s ap>t1 /&+ l "s spid] susp5d$ motionless by a ?read1 f ! web ( ! et]nal sil5ce4 ,! /range faculty %e has1 c[-giv51 ( becom+ a susp5d$ gho/1 hidd5 9 ! v crevices ( ! atmosph]e6 ,x is some?+ 9 h] w4 ,x is h] t>nhelm4 ,& !n1 %e doesn't "k me4 ,if ,i am afoot1 %e kn[s my voice1 b n ! advanc+ me1 9 a blue %irt & cord tr\s]s4 ,%e waits1 susp5d$ by ! ?read1 till ,i come close4 ,!n %e rea*es =w>d h] nose1 to smell4 ,%e smells my h&3 gives a little snort1 exhal+ h] brea?1 ) a k9d ( contempt1 turns1 & ambles up t[>ds ! home/ead1 p]fectly assur$4 ,if ,i am on horse-back1 al?\gh %e kn[s ! grey horse p]fectly well1 at ! same "t %e doesn't "k :at x is4 ,%e waits till ! wick$ ,azul1 :o is a born c[-pun*+ pony1 advances mis*iev\sly at h]4 ,!n r\nd %e sw+s1 z if on ! bla/ ( "s sudd5 w9d1 & ) h] e>s back1 h] head r d[n1 h] black back curv$1 up %e goes1 ?r\gh ! timb]1 ) surpris+1 swimm+ swiftness4 ,& ! ,azul1 snort+ ) jolly mis*ief1 da%es aft] h]4 ,& :5 %e is safely 9 h] milk+ place1 /ill %e wat*es ) h] great black eyes z ,i dism\nt4 ,& %e has to smell my h& be=e ! c[y peace ( be+ milk$ ent]s h] blood4 ,till !n1 !re is some?+ ro>+ 9 ! *aos ( h] univ]se4 ,:5 h] c[y peace comes1 !n h] univ]se is sil5t1 & l ! sea ) an ev5 tide1 )\t sail or smoke3 no?+4 ,t is ,susan1 my black c[4 ,& h[ am ,i go+ to equilibrate myself ) h]8 ,or ev51 if y pref] ! ^w1 to get 9 h>mony ) h]8 ,equilibrium8 ,h>mony8 ) t black blossom6 ,try x6 ,%e doesn't ev5 "k me4 ,if ,i put on a pair ( :ite tr\s]s1 %e :eels away z if ! devil 0 on h] back4 ,i h to g beh9d h]1 talk to h]1 /roke h]1 & let h] smell my h&2 & smell ! :ite tr\s]s4 ,%e doesn't "k !y are tr\s]s4 ,%e doesn't "k t ,i am a g5tleman on two feet4 ,n %e4 ,some?+ my/]i\s happ5s 9 h] blood & h] be+1 :5 %e smells me & my nice :ite tr\s]s4 ,yet %e kn[s me1 too4 ,%e likes to l+]1 :ile "o talks to h]4 ,%e kn[s q well %e makes me mad :5 %e sw+s h] tail 9 my face4 ,s sometimes %e sw+s x1 j on purpose3 & looks at me out ( ! black corn] ( h] great1 pure-black eye1 :5 ,i yell at h]4 ,& :5 ,i f9d h]1 away d[n ! timb]1 :5 %e is a gho/1 & lo/ to ! _w1 l a spid] dangl+ 9 ! void ( *aos1 !n %e is reliev$4 ,%e comes to1 out ( a sort ( trance1 & is reliev$1 trott+ up home ) a que]1 j]ky c[y gladness4 ,b %e is nev] really glad1 z ! horses are4 ,!re is always a c]ta9 unt\*$ *aos 9 h]4 ,:]e %e is :5 %e's 9 ! trance1 heav5 only kn[s4 ,t's ,susan6 ,i h a c]ta9 relation to h]4 ,b t %e & ,i are 9 equilibrium1 or 9 h>mony1 ,i w\ld nev] gu>antee :ile ! _w /&s4 ,z = h] individuality be+ 9 balance ) m9e1 "o c only feel ! great blank ( ! gulf4 ,yet a relation%ip !re is4 ,%e kn[s my t\* & %e goes v /ill & peaceful1 be+ milk$4 ,i1 too1 ,i "k h] smell & h] w>m? & h] feel4 ,& ,i %>e "s ( h] c[y sil5ce1 :5 ,i milk h]4 ,!re is a sort ( relation betwe5 u4 ,& ?is relation is "p ( ! my/]y ( love3 ! individuality on ea* side1 m9e & ,susan's1 susp5d$ 9 ! relation%ip4 ,c[ ,susan by ! =e/'s rim ,a black-ey$ ,susan 0 to him ,& no?+ m-- ,"o und]/&s ,wordswor? & ! primrose & ! yokel4 ,! yokel _h no relation at all--or next to none--) ! primrose4 ,wordswor? ga!r$ x into 8 own bosom & made x "p ( 8 own nature4 8,i1 ,william1 am also a yell[ primrose blossom+ on a bank40 ,?is1 we mu/ ass]t1 is an imp]t95ce on ,william's "p4 ,he ou/s ! primrose f its own individuality4 ,he doesn't all[ x to call its s\l its own4 ,x mu/ be id5tical ) 8 s\l4 ,because1 ( c\rse1 by begg+ ! "q1 !re is b ,"o ,s\l 9 ! univ]se4 ,?is is bunk4 ,a primrose has its own peculi> primrosy id5tity1 & all ! ov]s\l+ 9 ! _w won't melt x into a ,williami% on5ess4 ,nei!r w ! yokel's rem>k+3 8,nay1 boy1 t's no?+4 ,x's only a primrose60--turn ! primrose into no?+4 ,! primrose w nei!r be assimilat$ nor annihilat$1 & ,b\ndless ,love breaks on ! rock ( "o m fl[]4 ,x has its own individuality1 :i* x op5s ) lovely navet to sky & w9d & ,william & yokel1 bee & beetle alike4 ,x is itself4 ,b its v fl[]9ess is a k9d ( communion ) all ?+s3 ! love unison4 ,9 ?is lies ! et]nal absurdity ( ,wordswor?'s l9es4 ,8 own behavi\r1 primrosely1 0 z fooli% z ! yokel's4 8,a primrose by ! riv]'s brim ,a yell[ primrose 0 to him ,& no?+ m--0 ,a primrose by ! riv]'s brim ,a yell[ primrose 0 to him ,& a great deal m-- ,a primrose by ! riv]'s brim ,lit up its pallid yell[ glim ,^u ! floor-- ,& wat*$ old ,fa!r ,william trim ,8 c\rse beside ! riv]'s brim ,& trembl$ sore-- ,! yokel1 go+ = a swim ,_h v ne>ly trod on him ,an h\r be=e4 ,& n[ ! poet's f+]s slim ,7 rea*+ out to pluck at him ,& hurt him m4 ,oh g5tlem51 h>k to my hymn6 ,to be a primrose is my :im ,^u ! floor1 ,& no?+ m4 ,! sky is ) me1 & ! dim ,e>? clasps my roots4 ,y\r %ad[s skim ,my face once m4444 ,leave me !re=e ,^u ! floor2 ,say au revoir4444 ,ah ,william6 ,! 8some?+ m0 t ! primrose 0 to y1 0 y\rself 9 ! mirror4 ,& if ! yokel actually got z f> z behold+ a 8yell[ primrose01 he got f> en\gh4 ,y see x is n s easy ev5 = a poet to equilibrate himself ev5 ) a m]e primrose4 ,he didn't leave x ) a s\l ( its own4 ,x _h to h 8 s\l4 ,& nature _h to be sweet & pure1 ,williami%4 ,sweet-,williami% at t6 ,an?ropomorphis$6 ,an?ropomorphism1 t all[s no?+ to call its s\l its own1 save an?ropos3 & only a special br&1 ev5 ( him6 ,poetry c tell allur+ lies1 :5 we let our feel+s1 or our ego1 run away ) u4 ,& we mu/ always bew>e ( romance3 ( p :o love nature1 or fl[]s1 or dogs1 or babies1 or pure adv5ture4 ,x means !y are gett+ into a love-sw+ :]e ev]y?+ is easy & no?+ opposes _! own egoism4 ,nature1 babies1 dogs are s lovable1 because !y c't answ] back4 ,! primrose1 alas6 c\ldn't pipe up & say3 8,hey6 ,bill6 get (f ! b>r[60 ,t's ! be/ ( m5 & wom54 ,!re's b\nd to be a lot ( back *at4 ,y c ,lucy ,gray y\r woman z h>d z y l1 "o day %e's b\nd to come back at y3 8,:o are y :5 y're at home80 ,a man isn't go+ to spread 8 own ego ov] a woman1 z he has done ov] nature & primroses1 & dogs1 or horses1 or babies1 or 8! p01 or ! prolet>iat or ! poor-&-ne$y4 ,! old h5 takes ! cock by ! be>d1 & says3 8,t's me1 m9d y60 ,man is an individual1 & woman is an individual4 ,:i* s\nds easy4 ,b x's n z easy z x seems4 ,^! two individuals are z diff]5t z *alk & *eese4 ,true1 a p\nd ( *alk weighs z mu* z a p\nd ( *eese4 ,b ! pro( ( ! pudd+ is 9 ! eat+1 n ! scales4 ,t is to say1 y c ann\nce t m5 & wom5 %\ld be equal & are equal4 ,all "r4 ,put !m 9 ! scales4 ,alas6 my wife is ab\t tw5ty p\nds heavi] ?an ,i am4 ,no?+ to d b to ab/ract4 ,l'homme e/ n libre3 ) a napk9 r\nd 8 little tail4 ,nev]!less1 ,i am a citiz51 my wife is a citiz5ess3 ,i c vote1 %e c vote1 ,i c be s5t to prison1 %e c be s5t to prison1 ,i c h a passport1 %e c h a passport1 ,i c be an au?or1 %e c be an au?oress4 ,ooray6 ,,oo-bloom9-ray6 ,y see1 we are bo? ,briti% subjects4 ,ev]ybody b[6 ,subjects6 ,subjects6 ,subjects6 ,madame is already %ak+ h]self l a wet h54 ,b yes1 my de>6 we are bo? subjects4 ,& z subjects1 we enjoy a lovely equality1 lib]ty1 my de>6 ,equality6 ,frat]nity or ,sorority6 my de>6 ,ar5't y pleas$8 ,b x's no use talk+ to a wet h54 ,t 8subject0 0 a cold d\*e4 ,z subjects1 m5 & wom5 may be equal4 ,b z objects1 x's ano!r pair ( %oes4 ,:]e1 ,i ask y1 is ! equality betwe5 an arr[ & a horse%oe8 or a s]p5t & a squa%-blossom8 ,f9d me ! equation t equates ! cock & ! h54 ,y c't4 ,z inhabitants ( my backy>d1 z loyal subjects ( my ran*o1 !y1 ! cock & ! h51 are equal4 ,:5 he gets :eat1 %e gets :eat4 ,:5 s\r milk is put out1 x is z mu* = him z = h]4 ,%e is j z free to g :]e %e likes1 z he is4 ,& if %e likes to cr[ at sunrise1 %e may4 ,!re is no law aga9/ x4 ,& he c lay an egg1 if ! fit takes him4 ,absolutely no?+ =bids4 ,isn't t equality8 ,if x isn't1 :at is8 ,ev5 !n1 !y're two v diff]5t objects4 ,z equals1 !y are j a c\ple ( b>ny>d f[ls1 cluck+6 g5]alis$6 ,b de> me1 :5 he comes pranc+ up ) 8 r$ be>d %ak+1 & 8 eye gleam+1 & %e comes sl[ly pott]+ aft]1 ) h] nose to ! gr\nd1 !y're two v diff]5t objects4 ,y nev] ?9k ( equality3 or ( inequality1 = t matt]4 ,!y're a cock & a h51 & y accept !m z su*4 ,y don't ?9k ( !m z equals1 or z unequals4 ,b y ?9k ( !m toge!r4 ,:]e91 !n1 lies ! toge!rness8 ,w\ld y call x love8 ,i w\ldn't4 ,_! two egos are absolutely sep>ate4 ,he's a cock1 %e's a h54 ,he nev] ?9ks ( h] = a mom5t1 z if %e 7 a cock l himself2 & %e nev] ?9ks = a mom5t t he is a h5 l h]self4 ,i nev] he> any?+ 9 h] squawk :i* w\ld seem to say3 8,ar5't ,i a f[l z mu* z y are1 y brute60 ,:]eas ,i always he> wom5 %riek+ at _! m53 8,ar5't ,i a human be+ z mu* z y are80 ,x seems beside ! po9t4 ,i always answ] my sp\se1 ) sweet reasonabl5ess3 8,my de>1 we are bo? ,briti% ,subjects4 ,:at c ,i say m1 on ! score ( equality8 ,y are a ,briti% ,subject z mu* z ,i am40 ,curi\sly1 %e hates to h x put t way4 ,%e wants to be a human be+ z mu* z ,i am4 ,b absolutely & hone/ly1 ,i don't "k :at a human-be+ is4 ,:]eas ,i d "k :at a ,briti% ,subject is4 ,x c be def9$4 ,& ,i c see h[ a ,civis ,romanum1 or a ,briti% ,subject c be free1 :e!r x's he or %e4 ,! he-ness or ! %e-ness doesn't matt]4 ,b h[ a man c consid] himself free1 ,i don't "k4 ,any m ?an a cock-rob9 or a d&elion4 ,imag9e a d&elion sudd5ly hiss+3 8,i am free & ,i w be free60 ,!n wriggl+ on 8 root l a snake ) 8 tail pegg$ d[n6 ,:at a horrify+ sight6 ,s x is :5 a man1 ) two legs & a p5is1 a belly & a m\? beg9s to %\t ab\t be+ free4 ,"o wants to ask3 :i* bit d y ref] to8 ,!re's a cock & !re's ! h51 & _! two egos or individualities seem to /ay ap>t )\t friction4 ,!y nev] coo at "o ano!r1 nor hold ea* o!r's h&4 ,i nev] see h] sitt+ on 8 lap & be+ pett$4 ,true1 sometimes he calls = h] to come & eat a titbit4 ,& sometimes he da%es at h] & walks ov] h] = a mom5t4 ,%e doesn't seem to m9d4 ,i nev] he> h] squawk+3 8,don't y ?9k y c walk ov] me60 ,yet %e's by no means d[ntrodd54 ,%e's j h]self1 & seems to h a good "t3 & %e doesn't l x if he is miss+4 ,s !re is ?is peculi> toge!rness ab\t !m4 ,y c't call x love4 ,x w\ld be too ridicul\s4 ,:at !n8 ,z f> z ,i c see1 x is desire4 ,& ! desire has a fluctuat+ int5sity1 b x is always !re4 ,8 desire is always t[>ds h]1 ev5 :5 he has absolutely =gott5 h]4 ,& by ! way %e puts h] feet d[n1 ,i c see %e always walks 9 h] plumes ( desirabl5ess1 ev5 :5 %e's go+ broody4 ,! my/]y ab\t h]1 is h] /range undy+ desirabl5ess4 ,y c see x 9 e /ep %e takes4 ,%e is desirable4 ,& ?is is ! brea? ( h] life4 ,x is ! same ) ,susan4 ,! que] c[y my/]y ( h] is h] *angeless c[y desirabl5ess4 ,%e is f>1 alas1 f any bull4 ,%e nev] ev5 remotely dreams ( a bull1 save at r>e & brief p]iods4 ,yet h] :ole be+ & motion is t ( be+ desirable3 or else fracti\s4 ,x seems to unite h] ) ! v air1 & ! plants & trees4 ,ev5 to ! sky & ! trees & ! grass & ! runn+ /ream1 %e is subtly1 delicately & purely desirable1 9 c[y desirability4 ,x is h] c[y my/]y4 ,!n h] fracti\sness is ! fireworks ( h] desirabl5ess4 ,to me %e is fracti\s1 tiresome1 & a faggot4 ,yet ! subtle desirabl5ess is 9 h]1 = me4 ,z x is 9 a br[n h51 or ev5 a s[4 ,x is l a peculi> *>m3 ! creature's femal5ess1 h] desirabl5ess4 ,x is h] sex1 no d\bt3 b s subtle z to h no?+ to d ) function4 ,x is a my/]y1 l a delicate flame4 ,x w\ld be false to call x love1 because love complicates ! ego4 ,! ego is always conc]n$ 9 love4 ,b 9 ! frail1 subtle desir\sness ( ! true male1 t[>ds ev]y?+ female1 & ! equally frail1 indescribable desirability ( e female = e male1 lies ! real clue to ! equat+1 or ! relat+1 ( ?+s :i* o!rwise are incomm5surable4 ,& ?is1 ?is desire1 is ! reality :i* is inside love4 ,! ego itself plays a false "p 9 x4 ,! individual is l a deep pool1 or t>n1 9 ! m\nta9s1 f$ f b5ea? by unse5 spr+s1 & hav+ no obvi\s inlet or outlet4 ,! spr+s :i* fe$ ! individual at ! dep?s are s\rces ( p[]1 p[] f ! unkn[n4 ,b x is n until ! /ream ( desire ov]fl[s & goes runn+ d[nhill into ! op5 _w1 t ! individual has 8 fur!r1 second>y exi/5ce4 ,n[ we h imag9$ love to be some?+ absolute & p]sonal4 ,x is nei!r4 ,9 its ess5ce1 love is no m ?an ! /ream ( cle> & unmuddi$1 subtle desire :i* fl[s f p]son to p]son1 creature to creature1 ?+ to ?+4 ,! mom5t ?is /ream ( delicate b pot5t desire dries up1 ! love has dri$ up1 & ! joy ( life has dri$ up4 ,x's no good try+ to turn on ! tap4 ,desire is ei!r fl[+1 or gone1 & ! love ) x1 & ! life too4 ,?is subtle /ream+ ( desire is beyond ! control ( ! ego4 ,! ego says3 8,?is is my love1 to d z ,i l )6 ,?is is my desire1 giv5 me = my own pleasure40 ,b ! ego deceives itself4 ,! individual _c possess ! love :i* he himself feels4 ,nei!r %\ld he be entirely possess$ by x4 ,nei!r man nor woman %\ld sacrifice individuality to love1 nor love to individuality4 ,if we lose desire out ( our life1 we become empty vessels4 ,b if we break\t own integrity1 we become a squalid mess1 l a j> ( honey dropp$ & sma%$4 ,! individual has no?+1 really1 to d ) love4 ,t is1 8 individuality hasn't4 ,out ( ! deep sil5ce ( 8 individuality runs ! /ream ( desire1 into ! op5 squa%-blossom ( ! _w4 ,& ! /ream ( desire may meet & m+le ) ! /ream f a woman4 ,b x is nev] himself t meets & m+les ) h]self3 any m ?an two lakes1 ^: wat]s meet to make "o riv]1 9 ! di/ance1 meet 9 !mselves4 ,! two individuals /ay ap>t1 = ev] & ev]4 ,b ! two /reams ( desire1 l ! ,blue ,nile & ! ,:ite ,nile1 f ! m\nta9s "o & f ! l[ hot lake ! o!r1 meet & at l5g? mix _! /range & ali5 wat]s1 to make a ,nilus ,flux4 ,see !n ! *ildi% mi/ake we h made1 ab\t love4 ,we h insi/$ t ! two individualities %\ld 8fit04 ,we h insi/$ t ! 8love0 betwe5 man & woman mu/ be 8p]fect04 ,:at on e>? t means1 is a my/]y4 ,:at w\ld a p]fect ,nilus ,flux be8--"o t nev] ov]fl[$ its banks8 or "o t always ov]fl[$ its banks8 or "o t _h exactly ! same ov]fl[ e ye>1 to a hair's-bread?8 ,my de>1 x is absurd4 ,p]fect love is an absurdity4 ,z = ca/+ out fe>1 y'd bett] be c>eful4 ,= fe>1 l curses & *ick5s1 w also come home to roo/4 ,p]fect love1 ,i suppose1 means t a m>ri$ man & woman nev] contradict "o ano!r1 & t !y bo? ( !m always feel ! same ?+ at ! same mom5t1 & kiss "o ano!r on ! /r5g? ( x4 ,:at bl>ney6 ,x means1 ,i suppose1 t !y are absolutely intimate3 ?is preci\s intimacy t lov]s insi/ on4 ,!y tell ea* o!r ev]y?+3 & if %e puts on *iffon knick]s1 he ties ! /r+s = h]3 & if he bl[s 8 nose1 %e holds ! hanky4 ,pfui6 ,is any?+ s loa?some z intimacy1 especially ! m>ri$ sort1 or ! sort t 8lov]s0 indulge 96 ,x's a mi/ake & ends 9 disa/]4 ,:y8 ,because ! individualities ( m5 & wom5 are incomm5surable1 & !y w no m meet ?an ! m\nta9s ( ,abyss9ia w meet ) ,lake ,victoria ,nyanza4 ,x is f> m important to keep !m di/9ct1 ?an to jo9 !m4 ,if !y are to jo91 !y w jo9 9 ! ?ird l& :]e ! two /reams ( desire meet4 ,( c\rse1 z citiz5 & citiz5ess1 z two p]sons1 ev5 z two spirits1 man & woman c be equal & intimate4 ,b ?is is _! out]1 m g5]al or common selves4 ,! individual man himself1 & ! individual woman h]self1 ?is is ano!r pair ( %oes4 ,x is a pity t we h insi/$ on putt+ all our eggs 9 "o basket3 call+ love ! basket1 & ourselves ! eggs4 ,x is a pity we h insi/$ on be+ individuals only 9 ! communi/ic1 semi-ab/ract or g5]alis$ s5se3 z vot]s1 money-own]s1 8free0 m5 & wom53 free 9 s f> z we are all alike1 & individuals 9 s f> z we are comm5surable integ]s4 ,by turn+ ourselves into integ]s3 e man to himself & e woman to h]self a ,numb] ,"o2 an inf9ite numb] ( ,numb] ,ones2 we h de/roy$ ourselves z desir\s or desirable individuals1 & brok5 ! inw>d s\rces ( our p[]1 & flood$ all mank9d into "o dre>y m>% :]e ! riv]s ( desire lie dead ) ev]y?+ else1 except a /agnant unity4 ,x is a pity ( pities wom5 h le>n$ to ?9k l m54 ,any husb& w say1 8!y hav5't40 ,b !y h3 !y've all le>n$ to ?9k l "s o!r bea/ly man1 :o is n _! husb&4 ,our education goes on & on1 on & on1 mak+ ! sexes alike1 de/roy+ ! orig9al individuality ( ! blood1 to sub/itute = x ?is dre>y individuality ( ! ego1 ! ,numb] ,"o4 ,out ( ! ego /reams nei!r ,blue ,nile nor ,:ite ,nile4 ,! inf9ite numb] ( little human egos makes a mosquito m>%1 :]e no?+ happ5s except buzz+ & bit+1 ooze & deg5]ation4 ,& !y call ?is m>%1 ) its poison\s w-o-!-wisps1 & its cl\ds ( mosquitos1 democracy1 & ! reign ( love66 ,y c h x4 ,i am a man1 & ! ,m\nta9s ( ,abyss9ia1 & my ,blue ,nile fl[s t[>ds ! des]t4 ,!re %\ld be a woman some:]e f> ,s\?1 l a great lake1 s5d+ =? h] ,:ite ,nile t[>ds ! des]t1 too3 & ! riv]s w meet among ! ,slopes ( ! ,_w1 some:]e4 ,b alas1 e woman ,i've ev] met sp5ds h] "t say+ %e's z good z any man1 if n bett]1 & %e c beat him at 8 own game4 ,s ,lake ,victoria ,nyanza gets up on end1 & decl>es x's ! ,m\nta9s ( ,abyss9ia1 & ! ,m\nta9s ( ,abyss9ia fall flat & cry3 8,y're all t1 & m1 my de>60--& betwe5 !m1 y're bogg$4 ,i give x up4 ,b at any rate x's nice to "k :at's wrong1 s9ce wrong x is4 ,if we 7 m51 if we 7 wom51 our individualities w\ld be lone & a bit my/]i\s1 l t>ns1 & f$ ) p[]1 male p[]1 female p[]1 f und]nea?1 invisibly4 ,& f u ! /reams ( desire w\ld fl[ out 9 ! et]nal glimm]+ adv5ture1 to meet 9 "s unkn[n des]t4 ,mais n\s avons *ang t\t cela4 ,i'll bet ! yokel1 ev5 !n1 0 m himself1 & ! /ream ( 8 desire 0 /rong] & m gurgl+1 ?an ,william ,wordswor?'s4 ,= a long "t ! yokel reta9s 8 own integrity1 & 8 own real /ream ( desire fl[s f him4 ,once y break ?is1 & turn him1 :o 0 a yokel1 into /ill ano!r ,numb] ,"o1 an ass]tive newspap]-p>cel ( an ego1 y've done x6 ,b don't1 de>1 d>l+ read]1 :5 ,i say 8desire01 imm$iately conclude t ,i mean a jungleful ( rampag+ ,don ,juans & rap+ buck nigg]s4 ,:5 ,i say t a woman %\ld be et]nally desirable1 don't say t ,i mean e man %\ld want to sleep ) h]1 ! in/ant he sets eyes on h]4 ,on ! contr>y4 ,don ,juan 0 only ,don ,juan because he _h no real desire4 ,he _h brok5 8 own integrity1 & 0 a mess to />t )4 ,no /ream ( desire1 ) a c\rse ( its own1 fl[$ f him4 ,he 0 a m>% 9 himself4 ,he ma%$ & trampl$ ev]y?+ up1 & desir$ no woman1 s he ran aft] e "o ( !m1 ) an it* in/ead ( a /eady flame4 ,& tortur$ by 8 own it*1 he inflam$ 8 it* m & m4 ,t's ,don ,juan1 ! man :o c\ldn't desire a woman4 ,he %\ldn't h tri$4 ,he %\ld h gone into a mona/]y at fifte54 ,z = ! yokel1 8 little /ream may h fl[$ out ( commonplace little hills1 & be5 ready to m+le ) ! /reams ( any easy1 puddly little yokeless4 ,b :at does x matt]6 ,& m5 are f> less promiscu\s1 ev5 !n1 ?an we l to pret5d4 ,x's ,don ,juan]y1 sex-9-!-head1 no real desire1 :i* leads to pr(ligacy or squalid promiscuity4 ,! yokel usually met desire ) desire3 :i* is all "r3 & suffici5tly r>e to ensure ! moral balance4 ,desire is a liv+ /ream4 ,if we gave free re91 or a free c\rse1 to our liv+ fl[ ( desire1 we %\ldn't g f> wrong4 ,x's q diff]5t f giv+ a free re9 to an it*+1 pruri5t imag9ation4 ,t is our vil5ess4 ,! liv+ /ream ( sexual desire itself does n (t51 9 any man1 f9d its object1 its conflu5t1 ! /ream ( desire 9 a woman into :i* x c fl[4 ,! two /reams fl[ toge!r1 spontane\sly1 n (t51 9 ! life ( any man or woman4 ,mo/ly1 m5 & wom5 alike ru% into a sort ( pro/itution1 because our idiotic civilisation has nev] le>n$ to hold 9 rev]5ce ! true desire-/ream4 ,we =ce our desire f our ego3 & ?is is deadly4 ,desire itself is a pure ?+1 l sun%9e1 or fire1 or ra94 ,x is desire t makes ! :ole _w liv+ to me1 keeps me 9 ! fl[ connect$4 ,x is my fl[ ( desire t makes me move z ! birds & animals move ?r\gh ! sun%9e & ! night1 9 a k9d ( accompli%$ innoc5ce1 n %ut outside ( ! natural p>adise4 ,= life is a k9d ( ,p>adise1 ev5 to my horse ,azul1 ?\gh he doesn't get 8 own way 9 x1 by any means1 & is sometimes 9 a real temp] ab\t x4 ,sometimes he ev5 gets a bellya*e1 ) wet alfalfa4 ,b ev5 ! bellya*e is "p ( ! natural p>adise4 ,n l human ennui4 ,s a man c g =? 9 desire1 ev5 to ! primroses4 ,b let him refra9 f fall+ all ov] ! poor blossom1 z ,william did4 ,or try+ to incorporate x 9 8 own ego1 :i* is a sort ( lu/4 ,na/y an?ropomorphic lu/4 ,ev]y?+ t exi/s1 ev5 a /one1 has two sides to its nature4 ,x fi]cely ma9ta9s its own individuality1 its own solidity4 ,& x rea*es =? f itself 9 ! subtle/ fl[ ( desire4 ,x fi]cely resi/s all inroads4 ,at ! same "t x s9ks d[n 9 ! curi\s weight1 or fl[1 ( t desire :i* we call gravitation4 ,& imp]ceptibly1 ?r\gh ! c\rse ( ages1 x fl[s into delicate comb9ation ) ! air & sun & ra94 ,at "o "t1 m5 wor%ipp$ /ones3 symbolically1 no d\bt1 because ( _! my/]i\s durability1 _! p[] ( h>dness1 resi/ance1 _! /r5g? ( rema9+ un*ang$4 ,yet ev5 !n1 wor%ipp+ man did n re/ till he _h erect$ ! /one into a pill>1 a m5hir1 symbol ( ! et]nal desire1 z ! phallus itself is b a symbol4 ,& we1 m5 & wom51 are ! same z /ones3 ! p[]ful resi/ance & cohesiv5ess ( our individuality is c\nt]$ by ! my/]i\s fl[ ( desire1 f u & t[>ds u4 ,x is ! same ) ! worlds1 ! />s1 ! suns4 ,all is alive1 9 its own degree4 ,& ! c5tripetal =ce ( sp9n+ e>? is ! =ce ( e>?'s individuality3 & ! c5trifugal =ce is ! =ce ( desire4 ,e>?'s imm5se c5tripetal en]gy1 almo/ passion1 balanc$ aga9/ h] furi\s c5trifugal =ce1 holds h] susp5d$ betwe5 h] moon & h] sun1 9 a dynamic equilibrium4 ,s in/ead ( ! ,greek3 ,"k ?yself6 we %all h to say to e man3 8,be ,?yself6 ,be ,desir\s60--& to e woman3 8,be ,?yself6 ,be ,desirable60 ,be ,?yself6 does n mean3 ,ass]t ?y ego6 ,x means1 be true to y\r own integrity1 z man1 z woman3 let y\r he>t /ay op51 to receive ! my/]i\s infl[ ( p[] f ! unkn[n3 "k t ! p[] comes to y f beyond1 x is n g5]at$ by y\r own w3 !re=e all ! "t1 be wat*ful1 & rev]5tial t[>ds ! my/]i\s com+ ( p[] into y4 ,be ,?yself6 is ! gr& cry ( individualism4 ,b individualism makes ! mi/ake ( consid]+ an individual z a fix$ entity3 a little w9dmill t sp9s )\t %ift+ gr\nd or *ang+ its own nature4 ,& ?is is nons5se4 ,:5 p[] ent]s u1 x does n j move u me*anically4 ,x *anges u4 ,:5 ! unse5 w9d bl[s1 x bl[s ^u u1 & ?r\gh u4 ,x c>ries u l a %ip on a sea4 ,& x ro>s to flame 9 u1 l a draught 9 a fi]ce fire4 ,or l a d&elion 9 fl[]4 ,:at is ! diff]5ce betwe5 a d&elion & a w9dmill8 ,heap on m wood6 ,ev5 ! ,nirvani/s consid] man z a fix$ entity1 a *angeless ego1 :i* is capable ( no?+1 ultimately1 b rem]g+ into ! inf9ite4 ,a little w9dmill t c turn fa/] & fa/]1 till x becomes actually invisible1 & no?+ rema9s 9 no?+ness1 except a blur & a fa9t hum4 ,i am n a w9dmill4 ,i am n ev5 an ego4 ,i am a man4 ,i am myself1 & ,i rema9 myself only by ! grave ( ! p[]s t ent] me1 f ! unse51 & make me =ev] newly myself4 ,& ,i am myself1 also1 by ! grace ( ! desire t fl[s f me & consummates me ) ! o!r unkn[n1 ! invisible1 tangible creation4 ,! p[]s t ent] me fluctuate & ebb4 ,& ! desire t goes =? f me waxes & wanes4 ,sometimes x is weak1 & ,i am almo/ isolat$4 ,sometimes x is /rong1 & ,i am almo/ c>ri$ away4 ,b suppos+ ! cult ( ,individualism1 ,lib]ty1 ,fre$om1 & s =?1 has l&$ me 9 ! /ate ( egoism1 ! /ate s prettily & nause\sly describ$ by ,h5ley 9 8 ,invictus3 :i*1 aft] all1 is b ! yelp ( a h\se-dog1 a dome/icat$ creature ) an inf]iority complex6 8,x matt]s n h[ /rait ! gate1 ,h[ *>g$ ) puni%m5t ! scroll3 ,i am ! ma/] ( my fate6 ,i am ! capta9 ( my s\l60 ,are y1 old boy8 ,!n :y hippety-hop8 ,he 0 a cripple at t6 ,z a matt] ( fact1 x is ! slave's bravado6 ,! mod]n slave is he :o does n receive 8 p[]s f ! unse51 & give rev]5ce1 b :o ?9ks he is 8 own little boss4 ,only a slave w\ld take ! tr\ble to %\t3 8,i am free60 ,t is to say1 to %\t x 9 ! face ( ! op5 heav5s4 ,9 ! face ( m51 & _! in/itutions & prisons4 ,yes-yes6 ,b 9 ! face ( ! op5 heav5s ,i w\ld be a%am$ to talk ab\t fre$om4 ,i h no life1 no real p[]1 unless x w come to me4 ,& ,i accompli% no?+1 n ev5 my own fulfill$ exi/5ce1 unless ,i g =?1 delicately1 desir\s1 & f9d ! mat+ ( my desire2 ev5 if x be only ! sky itself1 & trees1 & ! c[ ,susan1 & ! inexpressible consolation ( a /atue ( an ,egyptian ,ph>aoh1 or ! ,old ,te/am5t1 or ev5 ?ree rubies4 ,^! answ] my desire ) fulfilm5t4 ,:at bunk !n to talk ab\t be+ ma/] ( my fate6 :5 my fate dep5ds ^u ^! ?+s3--n to m5tion ! unse5 reality t s5ds /r5g?1 or life into me1 )\t :i* ,i am a g\rd rattle4 ,! ego1 ! little consci\s ego t ,i am1 t doll-l entity1 t mannik9 made 9 ridicul\s lik5ess ( ! ,adam :i* ,i am3 am ,i go+ to all[ t t is all ( me8 ,& %\t ab\t x8 ,( c\rse1 if ,i am no?+ b an ego1 & woman is no?+ b ano!r ego1 !n !re is really no vital diff]5ce betwe5 u4 ,two little dolls ( consci\s entities1 squeak+ :5 y squeeze !m4 ,& ) a t9y bit ( an extrane\s app5dage to m>k :i* is :i*4 8,woman is j ! same z man10 l\dly said ! political speak]1 8,save = a v little diff]5ce40 8,?ree *e]s = ! v little diff]5ce60 says a vulg> voice f ! cr[d4 ,b t's a *e/nut4 8,quick6 ,%>p6 ,on ! al]t6 ,let e g5tleman put on 8 %irt6 ,& be quick if y please6 ,let e lady put on h] *emise60 ,?\gh n[adays1 a lady's *emise won't save h] face4 ,9 or out h] *emise1 h[ev]1 doesn't make mu* diff]5ce to ! mod]n woman4 ,%e's a f9i%$-(f ego1 an ass]tive consci\s entity1 cut (f l a doll f any my/]y4 ,& h] nudity is ab\t z int]e/+ z a doll's4 ,if y c be int]e/$ 9 ! nudity ( a doll1 !n jazz on1 jazz on6 ,! same ) ! m54 ,no matt] h[ !y pull _! %irts (f !y nev] arrive at _! own nak$ness4 ,!y h none4 ,!y c only be undress$4 ,nak$ !y _c be4 ,)\t _! clo!s on1 !y are l a dismantl$ /reet-c> )\t its adv]tisem5ts3 sort ( public article t doesn't ref] to any?+4 ,! ego6 ,an?ropomorphism6 ,love6 ,:at x works out to 9 ! end is t ev5 an?ropos disappe>s1 & leaves a sawdu/ mannik9 wondr\sly jazz+4 8,my little si/]s1 ! birds60 says ,francis ( ,assisi4 8,:ew60 goes ! blackbird4 8,li/5 to me1 my little si/]s1 y birds60 8,:ew60 goes ! blackbird4 8,i'm a cock1 mi/]60 ,love6 ,:at's ! good ( woman :o isn't desirable1 ev5 ?\gh %e's z pretty z pa9t1 & ! waves 9 h] hair are z p]man5t z ! pyramids6 ,he buri$ 8 face 9 h] p]man5t wave1 & cri$3 8,help6 ,get me out60 ,individualism6 ,read ! adv]tisem5ts6 8,jew-jew's hats give a man t individual t\* he s mu* desires4 ,no man c\ld lack individuality 9 ,poppem's pyjamas40 ,poor devil6 ,if he 0 left to 8 own sk91 :]e w\ld he be6 ,pop goes ! weasel6 ,,reflections ,,on ,,! ,,dea? ,,( ,a ,,porcup9e ,,reflections ,,on ,,! ,,dea? ,,( ,a ,,porcup9e ,!re are _m b>e places on ! little p9e trees1 t[>ds ! top1 :]e ! porcup9es h gnaw$ ! b>k away & left ! :ite fle% %[+4 ,& "s trees are dy+ f ! top4 ,ev]yone says1 porcup9es %\ld be kill$2 ! ,indians1 ,mexicans1 ,am]icans all say ! same4 ,at full moon a mon? ago1 :5 ,i w5t d[n ! long cle>+ 9 ! brilliant moonlight1 ?r\gh ! poor dry h]bage a big porcup9e began to waddle away f me1 t[>ds ! trees & ! d>kness4 ,! animal _h rais$ all its hairs & bri/les1 s t by ! light ( ! moon x seem$ to h a tall1 sway+1 moonlit aureole ar*+ its back z x w5t4 ,t seem$ curi\sly fe>some1 z if ! animal 7 emitt+ itself demon-l on ! air4 ,x waddl$ v sl[ly1 ) its :ite spiky spoon-tail /e]+ flat1 beh9d ! r\nd be>-l m\nd ( its back4 ,x _h a lumb]+1 beetle's1 squalid motion1 unpleasant4 ,i foll[$ x into ! d>kness ( ! timb]1 & !re1 squat l a great tick1 x began scrapily to creep up a p9e-trunk4 ,x 0 v l a great aureol$ tick1 a bug1 /ruggl+ up4 ,i /ood ne> & wat*$1 dislik+ ! pres5ce ( ! creature4 ,x is a duty to kill ! ?+s4 ,b ! dislike ( kill+ him 0 great] ?an ! dislike ( him4 ,s ,i wat*$ him climb4 ,& he wat*$ me4 ,:5 he _h got ne>ly ! height ( a man1 all 8 long hairs sway+ ) a bri/l+ gleam l an aureole1 he hesitat$1 & sli!r$ d[n4 ,evid5tly he _h decid$1 ei!r t ,i 0 h>mless1 or else t x 0 risky to g up any fur!r1 :5 ,i c\ld knock him (f s easily ) a pole4 ,s he sli!r$ podgily d[n aga91 & waddl$ away ) ! same be/ial1 /upid motion ( t :ite-spiky repulsive spoon-tail4 ,he 0 z big z a middle-siz$ pig3 or m l a be>4 ,i let him g4 ,he 0 repugnant4 ,he made a c]ta9 squalor 9 ! moonlight ( ! ,rocky ,m\nta9s4 ,z all savag]y has a t\* ( squalor1 t makes "o a little sick at ! /oma*4 ,& anyh[1 x seem$ almo/ m squalid to pick up a p9e-b\gh & pu% him ov]1 hit him & kill him4 ,a few days lat]1 on a hot1 motionless morn+ :5 ! p9e-trees put out _! bri/les 9 /eal?y1 h>d ass]tion2 & ,i 0 n 9 a good temp]1 because ,black-ey$ ,susan1 ! c[1 _h disappe>$ into ! timb]1 & ,i _h _h to ride hunt+ h]1 s x 0 ne>ly n9e o'clock be=e %e 0 milk$3 ,madame came 9 sudd5ly out ( ! sunlight1 say+ 8,i got su* a %ock6 ,!re are two /range dogs1 & "o ( !m has got ! mo/ awful be>d1 all r\nd 8 nose40 ,%e 0 fright5$1 l a *ild1 at some?+ unnatural4 8,be>d6 ,porcup9e quills1 probably6 ,he's be5 aft] a porcup9e40 8,ah60 %e cri$ 9 relief4 8,v likely6 ,v likely60--!n ) a *ange ( tone2 8,poor ?+1 w !y hurt him80 8,!y w4 ,i wond] :5 he came40 8,i he>d dogs b>k 9 ! night40 8,did y8 ,:y didn't y say s8 ,i %\ld h kn[n ,susan 0 hid+--0 ,! ran* is lonely1 !re is no s\nd 9 ! night1 save ! innum]able noises ( ! night1 t y c't put y\r f+] on2 cosmic noises 9 ! f> deeps ( ! sky1 & ( ! e>?4 ,i w5t out4 ,& 9 ! full blaze ( sunlight 9 ! field1 /ood two dogs1 a black-&-:ite1 & a big1 bu%y1 r h&some s&y-r$ dog1 ( ! collie type4 ,& sure en\gh1 ?is latt] did look que] & a bit horrify+1 8 :ole muzzle set r\nd ) :ite sp9es1 l "s gha/ly gr[?2 l an unnatural be>d4 ,! black-&-:ite dog made (f z ,i w5t ?r\gh ! f5ce4 ,b ! r$ dog :imp]$ & hesitat$1 & mov$ on hot bricks4 ,he 0 fat & 9 good condition4 ,i ?\ght he might belong to "s %eph]ds h]d+ %eep 9 ! =e/ ranges1 among ! m\nta9s4 ,he wait$ :ile ,i w5t up to him1 wagg+ 8 tail & :imp]+1 & duck+ 8 head1 & danc+4 ,he d>5't rub 8 nose ) 8 paws any m3 x hurt too mu*4 ,i patt$ 8 head & look$ at 8 nose1 & he :imp]$ l\dly4 ,he mu/ h _h ?irty quills1 or m1 /ick+ out ( 8 nose1 all ! way r\nd3 ! :ite1 ugly ends ( ! quills protrud+ an in*1 sometimes m1 sometimes less1 f 8 already swoll51 blood-puff$ muzzle4 ,! porcup9es "h h quills only two or ?ree in*es long4 ,b !y are devili%2 & a dog w die if he does n get !m pull$ out4 ,because !y "w fur!r & fur!r 91 & w sometimes em]ge ?r\gh ! sk9 away 9 "s unexpect$ place4 ,!n ! fun began4 ,i got him 9 ! y>d3 & he drank up ! :ole half-gallon ( ! *ick5s' s\r milk4 ,!n ,i />t$ pull+ out ! quills4 ,he 0 a big1 bu%y1 h&some dog1 b 8 n]ve 0 gone1 & e "t ,i got a quill out1 he gave a yelp4 ,"s long quills 7 fairly easy4 ,b ! %ort] ones1 ne> 8 lips1 7 deep 91 & h>d to get hold (1 & h>d to pull out :5 y did get hold ( !m4 ,& ) e "o t came out1 came a little spurt ( blood & ano!r yelp & wri!4 ,! dog want$ ! quills out3 b 8 n]ve 0 gone4 ,e "t he saw my h& com+ to 8 nose1 he j]k$ 8 head away4 ,i quiet$ him1 & /eal?ily manag$ to j]k out ano!r quill1 ) ! blood all ov] my f+]s4 ,b ) e "o t came out1 he grew m tiresome4 ,i tri$ & tri$ & tri$ to get hold ( ano!r quill1 & he j]k$ & j]k$1 & wri!d & :imp]$1 & ran "u ! por* floor4 ,x 0 a curi\sly unpleasant1 n]ve-try+ job4 ,! day 0 blaz+ hot4 ,! dog came out & ,i /ruggl$ ) him aga9 = an h\r or m4 ,!n we bl9dfold$ him4 ,b ei!r he smell$ my h& approa*+ 8 nose1 or "s weird in/9ct told him4 ,he j]k$ 8 head1 ?is way1 t way1 up1 d[n1 sideways1 r\ndwise1 z "o's f+]s came sl[ly1 sl[ly1 to seize a quill4 ,! quills on 8 lips & *9 7 deep 91 only ab\t a qu>t] ( an in* ( :ite /ub protrud+ f ! swoll51 blood-ooz$1 fe/]+ black sk94 ,x 0 v difficult to j]k !m out4 ,we let him lie = an int]val1 hidd5 9 ! quiet cool place "u ! por* floor4 ,aft] half an h\r1 he crept out aga94 ,we got a rope r\nd 8 nose1 beh9d ! bri/les1 & "o held :ile ! o!r got ! /ubs ) ! pli]s4 ,b x 0 too try+4 ,if a quill came out1 ! dog's yelp />tl$ e n]ve4 ,& he 0 fright5$ ( ! pa91 x 0 impossible to hold 8 head /ill any long]4 ,aft] /ruggl+ = two h\rs1 & extract+ "s tw5ty quills1 ,i gave up4 ,x 0 impossible to quiet ! creature1 & ,i _h _h en\gh4 ,8 nose on ! top 0 cle>3 a punctur$1 puffy1 blood-d>k5$ mess2 & 8 lips 7 cle>4 ,b j on 8 r\nd little *91 :]e ! few :ite hairs are1 0 /ill a bun* ( :ite quills1 eight or n9e1 deep 94 ,we let him g1 & he div$ "u ! por*1 & !re he lay invisible3 save = ! end ( 8 bu%y1 foxy tail1 :i* mov$ :5 we came ne>4 ,t[>ds noon he em]g$1 ate up ! *ick5-food1 & /ood ) t doggi% look ( dejection1 & fe>1 & fri5dl9ess1 & gre$9ess1 wagg+ 8 tail4 ,b ,i _h _h en\gh4 8,g home60 ,i said4 8,g home6 ,g home to y\r ma/]1 & let him f9i% = y40 ,he w\ld n g4 ,s ,i l$ him across ! blaz+ hot cle>+1 9 ! way ,i ?\ght he %\ld g4 ,he foll[$ a hundr$ y>ds1 !n /ood motionless 9 ! blaz+ sun4 ,he 0 n go+ to leave ! place4 ,& ,i6 ,i simply did n want him4 ,s ,i pick$ up a /one4 ,he dropp$ 8 tail1 & sw]v$ t[>ds ! h\se4 ,i knew :at he 0 go+ to d4 ,he 0 go+ to dive "u ! por*1 & !re /ick1 haunt+ ! place4 ,i dropp$ my /one1 & f\nd a good /ick "u ! c$> tree4 ,already 9 ! heat 0 t /+-l bit+ ( electricity1 ! ?und] ga!r+ 9 ! %e] sun%9e1 )\t a cl\d1 & mak+ "o's :ole body feel dislocat$4 ,i c\ld n be> to h t dog ar\nd any m4 ,go+ quietly to him1 ,i sudd5ly gave him "o h>d hit ) ! /ick1 cry+3 8,g home60 ,he turn$ quickly1 & ! end ( ! /ick caught him on 8 sore nose4 ,) a fi]ce yelp1 he w5t (f l a wolf1 d[nhill1 l a fla%1 gone4 ,& ,i /ood 9 ! field full ( pangs ( regret1 at hav+ hit him1 un9t5tionally1 on 8 sore nose4 ,b he 0 gone4 ,& !n ! pres5t moon came1 & aga9 ! night 0 cle>4 ,b 9 ! int]val !re _h be5 heavy ?und]-ra9s1 ! dit* 0 runn+ ) bright wat] across ! field1 & ! night1 s fair1 _h n ! t]rific1 mirror-l brilliancy1 t\*$ ) t]ror1 s />tl+ bright1 ( ! moon 9 ! la/ days ( ,june4 ,we 7 alone on ! ran*4 ,madame w5t out into ! cle> night1 j be=e retir+4 ,! /ream ran 9 a cord ( silv] across ! field1 9 ! /raight l9e :]e ,i _h tak5 ! irrigation dit*4 ,! p9e tree 9 front ( ! h\se ?rew a black %ad[4 ,! m\nta9 slope came d[n to ! f5ce1 wild & al]t4 8,come60 said %e excit$ly4 8,!re is a big porcup9e dr9k+ at ! dit*4 ,i ?\ght at fir/ x 0 a be>40 ,:5 ,i got out he _h gone4 ,b among ! grasses & ! com+ wild sunfl[]s1 "u ! moon1 ,i saw 8 greyi% halo1 l a pallid liv+ bu%1 mov+ ov] ! field1 9 ! di/ance1 9 ! moonlit clair-obscur4 ,we got ?r\gh ! f5ce1 & foll[+1 soon caught him up4 ,!re he lumb]$1 ) 8 :ite spoon-tail spik$ ) bri/les1 /e]+ beh9d almo/ z if he 7 mov+ backw>ds1 & ?is 0 8 head4 ,8 long1 long hairs above ! quills quiv]+ ) a dim grey gleam1 l a bu%4 ,& aga9 ,i dislik$ him4 8,%\ld "o kill him80 ,%e hesitat$4 ,!n ) a sort ( disgu/3 8,yes60 ,i w5t back to ! h\se1 & got ! little tw5ty-two rifle4 ,n[ nev] 9 my life _h ,i %ot at any live ?+3 ,i nev] want$ to4 ,i always felt guns v repugnant3 s9i/]1 mean4 ,) difficulty ,i _h fir$ once or twice at a t>get3 b res5t$ do+ ev5 s mu*4 ,o!r p c\ld %oot if !y want$ to4 ,myself1 individually1 x 0 repugnant to me ev5 to try4 ,b some?+ sl[ly h>d5s 9 a man's s\l4 ,& ,i knew n[1 x _h h>d5$ 9 m9e4 ,i f\nd ! gun1 & ) r trembl+ h&s1 got x load$4 ,!n ,i pull$ back ! trigg] & foll[$ ! porcup9e4 ,x 0 /ill lumb]+ ?r\gh ! grass4 ,com+ ne>1 ,i aim$4 ,! trigg] /uck4 ,i press$ ! little cat* ) a safety-p9 ,i f\nd 9 my pocket1 & releas$ ! trigg]4 ,!n we foll[$ ! porcup9e4 ,he 0 /ill lumb]+ t[>ds ! trees4 ,i w5t sideways on1 /ood q ne> to him1 & fir$1 9 ! cle>-d>k ( ! moonlight4 ,& z usual ,i aim$ too high4 ,he turn$1 w5t scuttl+ back :5ce he _h come4 ,i got ano!r %ell 9 place1 & foll[$4 ,?is "t ,i fir$ full into ! m\nd ( 8 r\nd back1 bel[ ! gli/5+ grey halo4 ,he seem$ to /umble on to 8 hidd5 nose1 & /ruggl$ a few /rides1 duck+ 8 head "u l a h$gehog4 8,he's n dead yet6 ,oh1 fire aga960 cri$ ,madame4 ,i fir$1 b ! gun 0 empty4 ,s ,i ran quickly1 = a c$> pole4 ,! porcup9e 0 ly+ /ill1 ) subsid+ halo4 ,he /irr$ fa9tly4 ,s ,i turn$ him & hit him h>d ov] ! nose2 or :]e1 9 ! d>k1 8 nose %\ld h be54 ,& x 0 done4 ,he 0 dead4 ,& 9 ! moonlight1 ,i look$ d[n on ! fir/ creature ,i _h ev] %ot4 8,does x seem mean80 ,i ask$ al\d1 d\btful4 ,aga9 ,madame hesitat$4 ,!n3 8,no60 %e said res5tfully4 ,& ,i felt %e 0 "r4 ,?+s l ! porcup9e1 "o mu/ be able to %oot !m1 if !y get 9 "o's way4 ,"o mu/ be able to %oot4 ,i1 myself1 mu/ be able to %oot1 & to kill4 ,= me1 ?is is a volta face4 ,i h always pref]r$ to walk r\nd my porcup9e1 r ?an kill x4 ,n[1 ,i "k x's no good walk+ 'r\nd4 ,"o mu/ kill4 ,i buri$ him 9 ! adobe hole4 ,b "s animal dug d[n & ate him2 = two days lat] !re lay ! sp9es & bones spread out1 ) ! long skeletons ( ! porcup9e-h&s4 ,! only nice ?+ ab\t him--or h]1 = ,i believe x 0 a female1 by ! dugs on h] belly--7 ! feet4 ,!y 7 l longi%1 al]t black h&s1 paw-h&s4 ,t is :y a porcup9e's tracks 9 ! sn[ look almo/ z if a *ild _h gone by1 leav+ nak$ little human foot-pr9ts1 l a little boy4 ,s1 he is gone3 or %e is gone4 ,b !re is ano!r "o1 bigg] & black]-look+1 among ! we/ timb]4 ,t too is to be %ot4 ,x is "p ( ! bus9ess ( ran*+3 ev5 :5 x's only a little half-ab&on$ ran* l ?is "o4 ,:]ev] man e/abli%es himself1 ^u ! e>?1 he has to fight = 8 place1 aga9/ ! l[] ord]s ( life4 ,food1 ! basis ( exi/5ce1 has to be f\ght = ev5 by ! mo/ idyllic ( f>m]s4 ,y plant1 & y protect y\r gr[+ crop ) a gun4 ,food1 food1 h[ /rangely x relates man ) ! animal & vegetable _w6 ,h[ important x is6 ,& h[ fi]ce is ! fight t goes on ar\nd x4 ,! same :5 "o sk9s a rabbit1 & takes out ! inside1 "o realises :at an enorm\s "p ( ! animal1 comp>atively1 is inte/9al1 :at a big "p ( him is j = food-app>atus2 = liv+ on o!r organisms4 ,& :5 "o wat*es ! horses 9 ! big field1 _! noses to ! gr\nd1 bite-bite-bit+ at ! grass1 & /epp+ absorb$ly on1 & bite-bite-bit+ )\t ev] lift+ _! noses1 cropp+ (f ! grass1 ! "y %oots ( alfalfa1 ! d&elions1 ) a bl9d1 rel5tless1 unwe>i$ p]si/5ce1 "o's :ole life pauses4 ,"o sudd5ly realises aga9 h[ all creatures dev\r1 & mu/ dev\r ! l[] =ms ( life4 ,s ,susan1 sw++ across ! field1 snat*es (f ! tops ( ! little wild sunfl[]s z if %e 7 m[+4 ,& d[n !y g1 d[n h] black ?roat4 ,& :5 %e /&s 9 h] c[y oblivion *ew+ h] cud1 ) h] l[] jaw sw++ peacefully1 & ,i am milk+ h]1 sudd5ly ! camomiley smell ( h] brea?1 z %e glances r\nd ) gl>+1 smoke-blue eyes1 makes me realise x is ! sunfl[]s t are h] ball ( cud4 ,sunfl[]s6 ,& !y w g to mak+ h] gli/5+ black hide1 & ! ?ick cream on h] milk4 ,& ! *ick5s1 :5 !y see a great black beetle1 t ! ,mexicans call a toro1 float+ pa/1 !y are aft] x 9 a ru%4 ,& if x settles1 in/antly ! br[n h5 /abs x ) h] beak4 ,x is a great beetle two or ?ree in*es long3 b 9 a second x is 9 ! crop ( ! *ick54 ,gone6 ,& ,timsy1 ! cat1 z %e spies on ! *ipmunks1 cr\*es 9 ano!r sort ( oblivion1 s(t1 & /ill4 ,! *ipmunks come to dr9k ! milk f ! *ick5s' b[l4 ,two ( !m met at ! b[l4 ,!y 7 little squirrely ?+s ) /ripes d[n _! backs4 ,!y sat up 9 front ( "o ano!r1 lift+ _! inquisitive little noses & hump+ _! backs4 ,!n ea* put its two little h&s on ! o!r's %\ld]s1 !y re>$ up1 gaz+ into ea* o!r's faces2 & f9ally !y put _! two little noses toge!r1 9 a sort ( kiss4 ,b ,miss ,timsy c't /& ?is4 ,9 a s(t1 :ite-&-yell[ leap %e is aft] !m4 ,!y skip ) ! d>t+ j]k ( *ipmunks1 to ! wood-heap1 & ) "o s(t1 high-leap+ sideways b\nd ,timsy goes ?r\gh ! air4 ,h] sn[-flake ( a paw comes d[n on "o ( ! *ipmunks4 ,%e looks at x = a second4 ,x squirms4 ,swiftly & triumphantly %e puts h] two fl[]y little :ite paws on x1 legs /raight out 9 front ( h]1 back ar*$1 gaz+ conc5trat$ly yet :imsically4 ,*ipmunk does n /ir4 ,%e takes x s(tly 9 h] m\?1 :]e x dangles s(tly1 l a lady's tippet4 ,& ) a pr\d1 pranc+ motion ! ,timsy sets (f t[>ds ! h\se1 h] :ite little feet h>dly t\*+ ! gr\nd4 ,b %e gets %oo$ away4 ,we refuse to loan h] ! sitt+-room any m1 = h] gladiatorial displays4 ,if ! *ippy mu/ be 8but*]$ to make a ,timsy holiday01 x %all be outside4 ,disappo9t$1 b /ill high-/epp+1 ! ,timsy sets (f t[>ds ! clay ov5 by ! %$4 ,!re %e lays ! *ippy g5tly d[n1 & s(t z a little :ite cl\d lays "o small paw on its /rip$ back4 ,*ippy does n move4 ,s(t z ?i/le-d[n %e raises h] paw a t9y1 t9y bit1 to release him4 ,& all ( a sudd51 ) an ela/ic j]k1 he d>ts f "u ! :ite release ( h] paw4 ,& in/antly1 %e is up 9 ! air & d[n %e comes on him1 ) ! =w>d-?ru/+ bolts ( h] :ite paws4 ,bo? creatures are motionless4 ,!n %e takes him s(tly 9 h] m\? aga91 & looks r\nd1 to see if %e c slip into ! h\se4 ,%e _c4 ,s %e trots t[>ds ! wood-pile4 ,x is a game1 & x is pretty4 ,*ippy escapes into ! wood-pile1 & %e s(tly1 s(tly reconnoitres among ! faggots4 ,( all ! animals1 !re is no d5y+ x1 ! ,timsy is ! mo/ pretty1 ! mo/ f9e4 ,x is n h] m]e corpus t is beautiful2 x is h] bloom ( aliv5ess4 ,h] 8inf9ite v>iety02 ! s(t1 sn[-flakey lightness ( h]1 & at ! same "t h] lean1 heavy f]ocity4 ,i _h nev] realis$ ! latt]1 till ,i 0 ly+ 9 b$ "o day mov+ my toe1 unconsci\sly1 "u ! b$clo!s4 ,sudd5ly a t]rific bl[ /ruck my foot4 ,! ,timsy _h sprung out ( n[h]e1 ) a hurl+1 /eely =ce1 ?ud ^u ! b$clo!s :]e ! toe 0 mov+4 ,x 0 z if someone _h aim$ a sudd5 bl[1 v9dictive & un]r+4 8,timsy60 ,%e look$ at me ) ! vacant1 fel9e gl>e ( h] hunt+ eyes4 ,x is n ev5 f]ocity4 ,x is ! dilation ( ! /range1 vacant arrogance ( p[]4 ,! p[] is 9 h]4 ,& s x is4 ,life moves 9 circles ( p[] & ( vividness1 & ea* circle ( life only ma9ta9s its orbit ^u ! subjection ( "s l[] circle4 ,if ! l[] cycles ( life are n ma/]$1 !re c be no high] cycle4 ,9 nature1 "o creature dev\rs ano!r1 & ?is is an ess5tial "p ( all exi/5ce & ( all be+4 ,x is n some?+ to lam5t ov]1 nor some?+ to try to re=m4 ,! ,buddhi/ :o refuses to take life is really ridicul\s1 s9ce if he eats only two gra9s ( rice p] day1 x is two gra9s ( life4 ,we did n make creation1 we are n ! au?ors ( ! univ]se4 ,& if we see t ! :ole ( creation is e/abli%$ ^u ! fact t "o life dev\rs ano!r life1 "o cycle ( exi/5ce c only come into exi/5ce ?r\gh ! subjugat+ ( ano!r cycle ( exi/5ce1 !n :at is ! good ( try+ to pret5d t x is n s8 ,! only ?+ to d is to realise :at is high]1 & :at is l[]1 9 ! cycles ( exi/5ce4 ,x is nons5se to decl>e t !re is no high] & l[]4 ,we "k full well t ! d&elion belongs to a high] cycle ( exi/5ce ?an ! h>t/ongue f]n1 t ! ant's is a high] =m ( exi/5ce ?an ! d&elion's1 t ! ?ru% is high] ?an ! ant1 t ,timsy ! cat1 is high] ?an ! ?ru%1 & t ,i1 a man1 am high] ?an ,timsy4 ,:at d we mean by high]8 ,/rictly1 we mean m alive4 ,m vividly alive4 ,! ant is m vividly alive ?an ! p9e-tree4 ,we "k x1 !re is no try+ to refute x4 ,x is all v well say+ t !y are bo? alive 9 two diff]5t ways1 & !re=e !y are incomp>able1 incomm5surable4 ,?is is also true4 ,b "o tru? does n displace ano!r4 ,ev5 app>5tly contradictory tru?s d n displace "o ano!r4 ,logic is f> too co>se to make ! subtle di/9ctions life dem&s4 ,truly1 x is futile to comp>e an ant ) a great p9e-tree1 9 ! absolute4 ,yet z f> z exi/5ce is conc]n$1 !y are n only plac$ 9 comp>ison to "o ano!r1 !y are occasionally pitt$ aga9/ "o ano!r4 ,& if x comes to a conte/1 ! little ant w dev\r ! life ( ! huge tree4 ,if x comes to a conte/4 ,&1 9 ! cycles ( exi/5ce1 ?is is ! te/4 ,f ! l[e/ =m ( exi/5ce1 to ! highe/1 ! te/ "q is3 ,c ?y neighb\r f9ally ov]come !e8 ,if he c1 !n he belongs to a high] cycle ( exi/5ce4 ,?is is ! tru? beh9d ! survival ( ! fitte/4 ,e cycle ( exi/5ce is e/abli%$ ^u ! ov]com+ ( ! l[] cycles ( exi/5ce4 ,! real "q is1 :]e9 does fitness lie8 ,fitness = :at8 ,fit m]ely to survive8 ,t :i* is only fit to survive w survive only to supply food or contribute 9 "s way to ! exi/5ce ( a high] =m ( life1 :i* is able to d m ?an survive1 :i* c really vive1 live4 ,life is m vivid 9 ! d&elion ?an 9 ! gre5 f]n1 or ?an 9 a palm tree4 ,life is m vivid 9 a snake ?an 9 a butt]fly4 ,life is m vivid 9 a wr5 ?an 9 an alligator4 ,life is m vivid 9 a cat ?an 9 an o/ri*4 ,life is m vivid 9 ! ,mexican :o drives ! wagon1 ?an 9 ! two horses 9 ! wagon4 ,life is m vivid 9 me1 ?an 9 ! ,mexican :o drives ! wagon = me4 ,we are speak+ 9 t]ms ( exi/5ce3 t is1 9 t]ms ( species1 race1 or type4 ,! d&elion c take hold ( ! l&1 ! palm tree is driv5 into a corn]1 ) ! f]n4 ,! snake c dev\r ! fi]ce/ insect4 ,! fi]ce bird c de/roy ! greate/ reptile4 ,! great cat c de/roy ! greate/ bird4 ,! man c de/roy ! horse1 or any animal4 ,"o race ( man c subjugate & rule ano!r race4 ,all ?is 9 t]ms ( exi/5ce4 ,z f> z exi/5ce goes1 t life-species is ! highe/ :i* c dev\r1 or de/roy1 or subjugate e o!r life-species aga9/ :i* x is pitt$ 9 conte/4 ,?is is a law4 ,!re is no escap+ ?is law4 ,anyone1 or any race1 try+ to escape x1 w fall a victim3 w fall into subjugation4 ,b let u insi/ & insi/ aga91 we are talk+ n[ ( exi/5ce1 ( species1 ( types1 ( races1 ( nations1 n ( s+le individuals1 nor ( be+s4 ,! d&elion 9 full fl[]1 a little sun bri/l+ ) sun-rays on ! gre5 e>?1 is a nonp>eil1 a nonsu*4 ,fooli%1 fooli%1 fooli% to comp>e x to any?+ else on e>?4 ,x is itself incomp>able & unique4 ,b t is ! f\r? dim5sion1 ( be+4 ,x is 9 ! f\r? dim5sion1 n[h]e else4 ,because1 9 ! "t-space dim5sion1 any man may tread on ! yell[ sun-mirror1 & x is gone4 ,any c[ may swall[ x4 ,any bun* ( ants may annihilate x4 ,?is br+s u to ! inexorable law ( life4 #a4 ,any creature t atta9s to its own fullness ( be+1 its own liv+ self1 becomes unique1 a nonp>eil4 ,x has its place 9 ! f\r? dim5sion1 ! heav5 ( exi/5ce1 & !re x is p]fect1 x is beyond comp>ison4 #b4 ,at ! same "t1 e creature exi/s 9 "t & space4 ,& 9 "t & space x exi/s relatively to all o!r exi/5ce1 & c nev] be absolv$4 ,its exi/5ce imp+es on o!r exi/5ces1 & is itself imp+$ ^u4 ,& 9 ! /ruggle = exi/5ce1 if an ef=t on ! "p ( any "o type or species or ord] ( life1 c f9ally de/roy ! o!r species1 !n ! de/roy] is ( a m vital cycle ( exi/5ce ?an ! "o de/roy$4 7,:5 speak+ ( exi/5ce we always speak 9 types1 species1 n individuals4 ,species exi/4 ,b ev5 an individual d&elion has be+47 #c4 ,! =ce :i* we call vitality1 & :i* is ! det]m9+ factor 9 ! /ruggle = exi/5ce1 is1 h[ev]1 d]iv$ also f ! f\r? dim5sion4 ,t is to say1 ! ultimate s\rce ( all vitality is 9 t o!r dim5sion1 or region1 :]e ! d&elion blooms1 & :i* m5 h call$ heav51 & :i* n[ !y call ! f\r? dim5sion3 :i* is only a way ( say+ t x is n to be reckon$ 9 t]ms ( space & "t4 #d4 ,! prim>y way1 9 our exi/5ce1 to get vitality1 is to absorb x f liv+ creatures l[] ?an ourselves4 ,x is ?us trans=m$ into a new & high] creation4 7,!re are _m ways ( absorb+3 dev\r+ food is "o way1 love is (t5 ano!r4 ,! be/ way is a pure relation%ip1 :i* includes ! be+ on ea* side1 & :i* all[s ! transf] to take place 9 a liv+ fl[1 enhanc+ ! life 9 bo? be+s47 #e4 ,no creature is fully itself till x is1 l ! d&elion1 op5$ 9 ! bloom ( pure relation%ip to ! sun1 ! entire liv+ cosmos4 ,s we /ill f9d ourselves 9 ! tangle ( exi/5ce & be+1 a tangle :i* man has nev] be5 able to get out (1 except by sacrific+ ! "o to ! o!r4 ,sacrifice is useless4 ,! clue to all exi/5ce is be+4 ,b y c't h be+ )\t exi/5ce1 any m ?an y c h ! d&elion fl[] )\t ! leaves & ! long tap root4 ,be+ is n ideal1 z ,plato w\ld h x3 nor spiritual4 ,x is a transc5dant =m ( exi/5ce1 & z mu* mat]ial z exi/5ce is4 ,only ! matt] sudd5ly ent]s ! f\r? dim5sion4 ,all exi/5ce is dual1 & surg+ t[>ds a consummation into be+4 ,9 ! se$ ( ! d&elion1 z x floats ) its little umbrella ( hairs1 sits ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 t9y compass4 ,! ,holy ,gho/ is t :i* holds ! light & ! d>k1 ! day & ! night1 ! wet & ! sunny1 unit$ 9 "o little clue4 ,!re x sits1 9 ! se$ ( ! d&elion4 ,! se$ falls to e>?4 ,! ,holy ,gho/ r\ses1 say+3 8,come60 ,& out ( ! sky come ! rays ( ! sun1 & out ( e>? comes dampness & d>k & ! dea?-/uff4 ,!y are call$ 91 l ^? bidd5 to a fea/4 ,! sun sits d[n at ! he>?1 inside ! se$2 & ! d>k1 damp dea?-return] sits on ! opposite side1 ) ! ho/ betwe54 ,& ! ho/ says to !m3 8,come6 ,be m]ry toge!r60 ,s ! sun looks ) desir\s curiosity on ! d>k face ( ! e>?1 & ! d>k damp "o looks ) wond] on ! bright face ( ! o!r1 :o comes f ! sun4 ,& ! ho/ says3 8,"h y are at home6 ,lift me up1 betwe5 y1 t ,i may cease to be a ,gho/4 ,= x longs me to look out1 x longs me to dance ) ! danc]s40 ,s ! sun 9 ! se$1 & ! e>?y "o 9 ! se$ take h&s1 & laugh1 & beg9 to dance4 ,& _! danc+ is l a fire k9dl$1 a bonfire ) leap+ flame4 ,& ! tread+ ( _! feet is l ! runn+ ( little /reams1 d[n into ! e>?4 ,s f ! dance ( ! sun-9-!-se$ ) ! e>?y dea?-return]1 gre5 little flames ( leaves %oot up1 & h>d little trickles ( roots /rike d[n4 ,& ! ho/ laughs1 & says3 8,i am be+ lift$ up6 ,dance h>d]6 ,oh wre/le1 y two1 l wond]ful wre/l]s1 nei!r ( :i* c w940 ,s sun-9-!-se$ & ! dea?-return]1 :o is e>?y1 dance fa/] & fa/] & ! leaves ris+ gre5] beg9 to dance 9 a r+ above-gr\nd1 fi]cely ov]:elm+ any outsid]1 9 a :irl ( swords & lions' tee?4 ,& ! e>?y "o wre/les1 wre/les ) ! sun-9-!-se$1 s ! long roots rea* d[n l arms ( a fight] gripp+ ! p[] ( e>?1 & /rangles all intrud]s1 /rangl+ any intrud] m]cilessly4 ,till ! two fall 9 "o /range embrace1 & f ! c5tre ! long fl[]-/em lifts l a phallus1 budd$ ) a bud4 ,& out ( ! bud ! voice ( ! ,holy ,gho/ is he>d cry+3 8,i am lift$ up6 ,lo6 ,i am lift$ up6 ,i am "h60 ,s ! bud op5s1 & !re is ! fl[] pois$ 9 ! v middle ( ! univ]se1 ) a r+ ( gre5 swords bel[1 to gu>d x1 & ! octopus1 arms deep 9 e>?1 dr9k+ & ?reat5+4 ,s ! ,holy ,gho/1 be+ a d&elion fl[]1 looks r\nd1 & says3 8,lo6 ,i am yell[6 ,i believe ! sun has l5t me 8 body6 ,lo6 ,i am sappy ) gold51 bitt] blood6 ,i believe dea? out ( ! damp black e>? has l5t me 8 blood6 ,i am inc>nate6 ,i l my inc>nation6 ,b ?is is n all4 ,i w keep ?is inc>nation4 ,x is good6 ,b oh6 if ,i c w9 to ano!r inc>nation1 :o kn[s h[ wond]ful x w be6 ,?is "o w h to give place4 ,?is "o c help to create ! next40 ,s ! ,holy ,gho/ leaves ! clue ( himself beh9d1 9 ! se$1 & w&]s =? 9 ! comp>ative *aos ( our univ]se1 seek+ ano!r inc>nation4 ,& ?is w g on = ev]4 ,man1 z yet1 is less ?an half gr[n4 ,ev5 8 fl[]-/em has n appe>$ yet4 ,he is all leaves & roots1 )\t any clue put =?4 ,no sign ( bud any:]e4 ,ei!r he w h to />t budd+1 or he w be =sak5 ( ! ,holy ,gho/3 ab&on$ z a failure 9 creation1 z ! i*?yosaurus 0 ab&on$4 ,be+ ab&on$ means los+ 8 vitality4 ,! sun & ! e>?-d>k w cease ru%+ toge!r 9 him4 ,already x is ceas+4 ,to m51 ! sun is becom+ /ale1 & ! e>? /]ile4 ,b ! sun itself w nev] become /ale1 nor ! e>? b>r54 ,x is only t ! clue is miss+ inside m54 ,!y are l fl[]less1 se$less fat cabbages1 no?+ inside4 ,vitality dep5ds ^u ! clue ( ! ,holy ,gho/ inside a creature1 a man1 a nation1 a race4 ,:5 ! clue goes1 ! vitality goes4 ,& ! ,holy ,gho/ seeks = ev] a new inc>nation1 & subord9ates ! old to ! new4 ,y w "k t any creature or race is /ill alive ) ! ,holy ,gho/1 :5 x c subord9ate ! l[] creatures or races1 & assimilate !m into a new inc>nation4 ,no man1 or creature1 or race c h vivid vitality unless x be mov+ t[>ds a blossom+3 & ! mo/ p[]ful is t :i* moves t[>ds ! z-yet-unkn[n blossom4 ,blossom+ means ! e/abli%+ ( a pure1 new relation%ip ) all ! cosmos4 ,?is is ! /ate ( heav54 ,& x is ! /ate ( a fl[]1 a cobra1 a j5ny-wr5 9 spr+1 a man :5 he kn[s himself royal & cr[n$ ) ! sun1 ) 8 feet gripp+ ! core ( ! e>?4 ,?is too is ! f\r? dim5sion3 ?is /ate1 ?is my/]i\s o!r reality ( ?+s 9 a p]fect$ relation%ip4 ,x is into ?is p]fect$ relation%ip t e /raight l9e curves1 z if to "s core1 pass+ out ( ! "t-space dim5sion4 ,b any man1 creature1 or race mov+ t[>ds blossom+ w h to draw imm5se supplies ( vitality f m51 or creatures bel[1 passionate /r5g?4 ,& he w h to accompli% a p]fect$ relation ) all ?+s4 ,!re w be conque/1 always4 ,b ! aim ( conque/ is a p]fect relation ( conqu]ors ) conqu]$1 = a new blossom+4 ,fre$om is illusory4 ,sacrifice is illusory4 ,almightyness is illusory4 ,fre$om1 sacrifice1 almightyness1 ^! are all human side-tracks1 cul-de-sacs1 bunk4 ,all t is real is ! ov]:elm+ness ( a new inspirational comm&1 a new relation%ip ) all ?+s4 ,heav5 is always !re4 ,no a*iev$ consummation is lo/4 ,procreation goes on = ev]1 to support ! a*iev$ revelation4 ,b ! tor* ( revelation itself is h&$ on4 ,& ?is is all important4 ,ev]y?+ liv+ wants to procreate m liv+ ?+s4 ,b m important ?an ?is is ! fact t e revelation is a tor* held out1 to k9dle new revelations4 ,z ! d&elion holds out ! sun to me1 say+3 8,c y take x60 ,e gleam ( heav5 t is %[n--l a d&elion fl[]1 or a gre5 beetle--quiv]s ) /range passion to k9dle a new gleam1 nev] yet beheld4 ,?is is n self-sacrifice3 x is self-contribution3 9 :i* ! highe/ happ9ess lies4 ,! tor* ( exi/5ce is h&$ on1 9 ! womb ( procreation4 ,& ! tor* ( revelation is h&$ on1 by e liv+ ?+1 f ! protococcus to a brave man or a beautiful woman1 h&$ to :omsoev] c take x4 ,he :o c take x1 has p[] beyond all ! re/4 ,! cycle ( procreation exi/s purely = ! keep+ alight ( ! tor* ( p]fection1 9 any species3 ! tor* be+ ! d&elion 9 blossom1 ! tree 9 full leaf1 ! peacock 9 all 8 plumage1 ! cobra 9 all 8 col\r1 ! frog at full leap1 woman 9 all ! my/]y ( h] fa?omless desirabl5ess1 man 9 ! fulness ( 8 p[]3 e creature become its pure self4 ,"o cycle ( p]fection urges to k9dle ano!r cycle1 z yet unkn[n4 ,& ) ! k9dl+ f ! tor* ( revelation comes ! inru% ( vitality1 & ! ne$ to consume & consummate ! l[] cycles ( exi/5ce1 into a new ?+4 ,?is consum+ & ?is consummat+ means conque/1 & fe>less ma/]y4 ,fre$om lies 9 ! hon\rable yield+ t[>ds ! new flame1 & ! hon\rable ma/]y ( t :i* %all be new1 ov] t :i* mu/ yield4 ,z ,i mu/ ma/] my horses1 :i* are 9 a l[] cycle ( exi/5ce4 ,& !y1 !y are reliev$ & happy to s]ve4 ,if ,i turn !m loose into ! m\nta9 ranges1 to run wild till !y die1 ! ?rill ( real happ9ess is gone out ( _! lives4 ,e l[] ord] seeks 9 "s measure to s]ve a high] ord]3 & rebels aga9/ be+ conqu]$4 ,x is always conque/1 & x always w be conque/4 ,if ! conqu]$ be an old1 decl9+ race1 !y w h h&$ on _! tor* to ! conqu]or3 :o w burn 8 f+]s badly1 if he is too flippant4 ,& if ! conqu]$ be a b>b>ic race1 !y w consume ! fire ( ! conqu]or1 & leave him flameless1 unless he wat* x4 ,b x is always conque/1 conqu]$ & conqu]or1 = ev]4 ,! ,k+dom ( heav5 is ! ,k+dom ( conqu]ors1 :o c s]ve ! conque/ = ev]1 aft] _! own conque/ is made4 ,9 heav51 9 ! p]fect$ relation1 is peace3 9 ! f\r? dim5sion4 ,b !re is gett+ !re4 ,& t1 = ev]1 is ! process ( conque/4 ,:5 ! rose blossom$1 !n ! great ,conque/ 0 made by ! ,vegetable ,k+dom4 ,b ev5 ?is conqu]or ( conqu]ors1 ! rose1 _h to l5d himself t[>ds ! cat]pill> & ! butt]fly ( a lat] conque/4 ,a conqu]or1 b tribut>y to ! lat] conque/4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z equality4 ,9 ! k+dom ( heav51 9 ! f\r? dim5sion1 ea* s\l t a*ieves a p]fect relation%ip ) ! cosmos1 f its own c5tre1 is p]fect1 & incomp>able4 ,x has no sup]ior4 ,x is a conqu]or1 & incomp>able4 ,b e man1 9 ! /ruggle ( conque/ t[>ds 8 own consummation1 mu/ ma/] ! inf]ior cycles ( life1 & nev] rel9qui% 8 ma/]y4 ,also1 if !re be m5 beyond him1 mov+ on to a new] consummation ?an 8 own1 he mu/ yield to _! great] dem&1 & s]ve _! great] my/]y1 & s be fai?ful to ! k+dom ( heav5 :i* is )9 him1 :i* is ga9$ by conque/ & by loyal s]vice4 ,any man :o a*ieves 8 own be+ w1 l ! d&elion or ! butt]fly1 pass into t o!r dim5sion :i* we call ! f\r?1 & ! old p call$ heav54 ,x is ! /ate ( p]fect$ relation%ip4 ,& "h a man w h 8 peace = ev]3 :e!r he s]ve or comm&1 9 ! process ( liv+4 ,b ev5 ?is entails 8 fai?ful allegiance to ! k+dom ( heav51 :i* mu/ be = ev] & = ev] ext5d$1 z creation conqu]s *aos4 ,s t my p]fection w b s]ve a p]fection :i* /ill lies ahead1 unreveal$ & unconceiv$1 & beyond my own4 ,we h tri$ to build walls r\nd ! k+dom ( heav53 b x's no good4 ,x's only ! cabbage rott+ inside4 ,our la/ wall is ! gold5 wall ( money4 ,?is is a fatal wall4 ,x cuts u (f f life1 f vitality1 f ! alive sun & ! alive e>?1 z no?+ c4 ,no?+1 n ev5 ! mo/ fanatical dogmas ( an iron-b\nd religion1 c insulate u f ! inru% ( life & inspiration1 z money c4 ,we are los+ vitality3 los+ x rapidly4 ,unless we seize ! tor* ( inspiration1 & drop our moneybags1 ! moneyless w be k9dl$ by ! flame ( flames1 & !y w consume u l old rags4 ,we are los+ vitality1 ow+ to money & money-/&>ds4 ,! tor* 9 ! h&s ( ! moneyless w set our h\se on fire1 & burn u to dea?1 l %eep 9 a flam+ corral4 ,,ari/ocracy ,,ari/ocracy ,ev]y?+ 9 ! _w is relative to ev]y?+ else4 ,& e liv+ ?+ is relat$ to e o!r liv+ ?+4 ,b creation moves 9 cycles1 & 9 degrees4 ,!re is high] & l[]1 9 ! cycles ( creation1 & great] & less1 9 ! degree ( life4 ,ea* ?+ t atta9s to purity 9 its own cycle ( exi/5ce1 is pure & is itself1 &1 9 its purity1 is beyond comp>e4 ,b 9 relation to o!r ?+s1 x is ei!r high] or l[]1 ( great] or less degree4 ,we h to admit t a daisy is m highly develop$ ?an a f]n1 ev5 if x be a tree-f]n4 ,! daisy belongs to a high] ord] ( life4 ,t is1 ! daisy is m alive4 ,! f]n m torpid4 ,& a bee is m alive ?an a daisy3 ( a high] ord] ( life4 ,! daisy1 pure z x is 9 its own be+1 yet1 :5 comp>$ ) ! bee1 is limit$ 9 its be+4 ,& birds are high] ?an bees3 m alive4 ,& mammals are high] ?an birds4 ,& man is ! highe/1 mo/ develop$1 mo/ consci\s1 mo/ alive ( ! mammals3 ma/] ( !m all4 ,b ev5 )9 ! species1 !re is a diff]5ce4 ,! night+ale is high]1 pur]1 ev5 m alive1 m subtly1 delicately alive1 ?an ! sp>r[4 ,& ! p>rot is m highly develop$1 or m alive1 ?an ! pigeon4 ,among m51 ! diff]5ce 9 be+ is inf9ite4 ,& x is a diff]5ce 9 degree z well z 9 k9d4 ,"o man is1 9 himself1 m1 m alive1 m ( a man1 ?an ano!r4 ,"o man has great] be+ ?an ano!r1 a pur] manhood1 a m vivid liv+ness4 ,! diff]5ce is inf9ite4 ,&1 see+ t ! inf]iors are va/ly m num]\s ?an ! sup]iors1 :5 ,jesus came1 ! inf]iors1 :o are no means ! meek t !y %\ld be1 set out to inh]it ! e>?4 ,jesus1 9 a _w ( arrogant ,ph>isees & egoi/ic ,romans1 ?\ght t purity & pov]ty 7 "o4 ,x 0 a fatal mi/ake4 ,purity is (t5 en\gh poor4 ,b pov]ty is only too r>ely pure4 ,pov]ty too (t5 is only ! result ( natural poorness1 poorness 9 c\rage1 poorness 9 liv+ vitality1 poorness 9 manhood3 poor life1 poor "*4 ,n[ ! poor 9 life are ! mo/ impure1 ! mo/ easily deg5]ate4 ,b ! few m5 ri* 9 life & pure 9 he>t read purity into pov]ty1 & ,*ri/ianity />t$4 8,*>ity suff]e? long1 & is k9d4 ,*>ity envie? n4 ,*>ity vaunte? n itself1 is n puff$ up40 ,!y are ! words ( a noble manhood4 ,!re happ5$ :at 0 b\nd to happ53 ! m5 ) pure he>ts left ! scramble = money & p[] to ! impure4 ,/ill ! great appeal3 8,! ,k+dom ( ,heav5 is )9 y10 act$ p[]fully on ! he>ts ( ! poor1 :o 7 /ill full ( life4 ,! ri* 7 m active1 b less alive4 ,! poor /ill want$1 mo/ ( all1 ! ,k+dom ( ,heav54 ,until ! pure m5 began to mi/ru/ ! figurative ,k+dom ( ,heav53 8,n mu* ,k+dom ( ,heav5 = a hungry man10 !y said4 ,?is 0 a mi/ake1 & a fall into impurity4 ,= ev5 if ,i die ( hung]1 ! ,k+dom ( ,heav5 is )9 me1 & ,i am )9 x1 if ,i truly *oose4 ,b once ! pure man said ?is3 8,n mu* ,k+dom ( ,heav5 = a hungry man10 ! ,s\l began to die out ( m54 ,by ! old cre$1 e s\l 0 equal 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,by ! new cre$1 e body %\ld be equal 9 ! sight ( m54 ,& be+ equal meant1 hav+ equal possessions4 ,& possessions 7 reckon$ 9 t]ms ( money4 ,s t money became ! "o absolute4 ,& man figures z a money-possessor & a money-gett]4 ,! absolute1 ! ,god1 ! ,k+dom ( ,heav5 itself1 became money2 h>d1 h>d ca%4 8,! ,k+dom ( ,heav5 is )9 y0 n[ means 8,! money is 9 y\r pocket40 8,!n %all ?y peace be z a riv]0 n[ means 8,!n %all ?y inve/m5ts br+ !e a safe & ample income40 8,l'homme e/ n libre0 means 8,he is born )\t a son40 8,et on le tr\ve p>t\t en*a90 means 8,he we>s bree*es1 & mu/ fill 8 pockets40 ,s n[ !re is a new 7a new-old7 ari/ocracy1 completely unmy/]i\s & sci5tific3 ! ari/ocracy ( money4 ,h y a million gold8 7= heav5's sake1 ! gold /&>d67 ,!n y are a k+4 ,h y five hundr$ ?\s&8 ,!n y are a "l4 8,9 my c\ntry1 we're all k+s & que5s10 z ! ,am]ican lady said1 be+ a bit sick ( c]ta9 ,briti% snobb]y4 ,%e 0 q "r3 !y are all pot5tial k+s & que5s4 ,b until !y come into _! k+dom--five hundr$ ?\s& doll>s m9imum--!y might j z well be common]s4 ,yet ev5 /ill1 !re is natural ari/ocracy4 ,ari/ocracy ( bir? is bunk1 :5 a ,kais] ,wilhelm & an ,emp]or ,franz-,josef & a ,cz> ,nicolas is all t noble bir? w d = y4 ,yet ! :ole ( life is e/abli%$ on a natural ari/ocracy4 ,& ari/ocracy ( bir? is a little m natural ?an ari/ocracy ( money4 7,oh1 = ,god's sake1 ! gold /&>d67 ,b a millionaire c d )\t bir?1 :]eas bir? _c d )\t doll>s4 ,s1 by ! all-prevail+ law ( pragmatism1 ! doll> has x4 ,:at !n does natural ari/ocracy consi/ 98 ,x's n j bra9s6 ,! m9d is an in/rum5t1 & ! savant1 ! pr(essor1 ! sci5ti/1 has be5 look$ ^u s9ce ! ,ptolemies1 z a sort ( upp] s]vant4 ,& ju/ly4 ,! millionaire has bra9s too3 s does a mod]n ,presid5t or ,prime ,m9i/]4 ,!y all belong to ! class ( upp] s]vants4 ,!y s]ve1 =soo?1 ! public4 8,ca1 ,ca1 ,caliban6 ,get a new ma/]1 be a new man40 ,:at does a natural ari/ocracy consi/ 98 ,c\nt ,keys]l+ says3 8,n 9 :at a man c d1 b :at he is40 ,un=tunately :at a man is1 is measur$ by :at he c d1 ev5 9 nature4 ,a night+ale1 be+ a night+ale1 c s+3 :i* a sp>r[ c't4 ,if y are some?+ y'll d some?+1 ipso facto4 ,! "q is :at k9d ( ?+ c a man d8 ,c he put m life into u1 & release 9 u ! f\nta9s ( our vitality8 ,or c he only help to fe$ u1 & give u money or amusem5t4 ,! provid+ ( food1 money1 & amusem5t belongs1 truly1 to ! s]vant class4 ,! provid+ ( life belongs to ! ari/ocrat4 ,if a man1 :e!r by ?\ght or action1 makes life1 he is an ari/ocrat4 ,s ,cs> & ,cic]o are bo? /rictly ari/ocrats4 ,lack+ ^! two1 ! fir/ c5tury ,b4,c4 w\ld h be5 f> less vital1 less vividly alive4 ,& ,antony1 :o seem$ s mu* m vital1 robu/ & robu/i\s1 01 :5 we look at x1 comp>atively unimportant4 ,cs> & ,cic]o lit ! flame4 ,h[8 ,x is easi] ask$ ?an answ]$4 ,b "o ?+ !y did1 :atev] else3 !y put m5 into a new relation ) ! univ]se4 ,cs> op5$ ,gaul1 ,g]many & ,brita91 & let ! gleam ( ice & sn[1 ! %agg9ess ( ! nor?1 ! my/]y ( ! m5hir & ! mi/letoe 9 ^u ! r /uffy s\l ( ,rome1 & ( ! ,ori5t4 ,& ,cic]o 0 discov]+ ! moral nature ( man1 z citiz5 *iefly1 & s putt+ man 9 new relation to man4 ,b ,cs> 0 great] ?an ,cic]o4 ,he put man 9 new relation to ice & sun4 ,only ,cs> 01 p]haps1 also too mu* an egoi/2 he nev] knew ! my/]ies he mov$ among/4 ,b ,cs> 0 great beyond morality4 ,man's life consi/s 9 a connection ) all ?+s 9 ! univ]se4 ,:oev] c e/abli%1 or initiate a new connection betwe5 mank9d & ! circumambi5t univ]se is1 9 8 own degree1 a savi\r4 ,because mank9d is always exhau/+ its human possibilities1 always deg5]at+ into repetition1 torpor1 ennui1 lifelessness4 ,:5 ennui sets 91 x is a sign t human vitality is wan+1 & ! human connection ) ! univ]se is gone /ale4 ,!n he :o comes to make a new revelation1 a new connection1 :e!r he be soldi]1 /atesman1 poet1 philosoph]1 arti/1 he is a savi\r4 ,:5 ,george ,/eph5son inv5t$ ! locomotive eng9e1 he provid$ a means ( communication1 b he didn't alt] 9 ! slighte/ man's vital relation to ! univ]se4 ,b ,galileo & ,newton1 discov]]s1 n inv5tors1 !y made a big diff]5ce4 ,& ! en]gy releas$ 9 mank9d because ( !m 0 enorm\s4 ,! same is true ( ,pet] ! ,great1 ,fr$]ick ! ,great1 & ,napoleon4 ,! same is true ( ,voltaire1 ,%elley1 ,wordswor?1 ,byron1 ,r\sseau4 ,!y e/abli%$ a new connection betwe5 mank9d & ! univ]se1 & ! result 0 a va/ release ( en]gy4 ,! sun 0 reborn to man1 s 0 ! moon4 ,to man1 ! v sun goes /ale1 becomes a habit4 ,comes a savi\r1 a se]1 & ! v sun dances new 9 heav54 ,t is because ! sun is always sun beyond sun beyond sun4 ,! sun is e sun t ev] has be51 ,helios or ,mi?ras1 ! sun ( ,*9a or ( ,brahma1 or ( ,p]u or ( ,mexico3 great gorge\s suns1 besides :i* our puny 8envelope ( inc&esc5t gas0 is a smoky c&le-wick4 ,x is our fault4 ,:5 man becomes /ale & paltry1 8 sun is ! m]e /uff t our sun is4 ,:5 man is great & spl5did1 ! sun ( ,*9a & ,mi?ras blazes ov] him & gives him1 n radiant en]gy 9 ! =m ( heat & light1 b life1 life1 life6 ,! _w is to u :at we take f x4 ,! sun is to u :at we take f x4 ,& if we are puny1 x is because we take punily f ! sup]b sun4 ,man is great accord+ z 8 relation to ! liv+ univ]se is va/ & vital4 ,m5 are relat$ to m53 includ+ wom53 & ?is1 ( c\rse1 is v important4 ,b "o w\ld ?9k x 7 ev]y?+4 ,"o w\ld ?9k1 to read mod]n books1 t ! life ( any tupp5ny bank-cl]k 0 m important ?an sun1 moon1 & />s2 & to read ! p]t drivel ( ! critics1 "o w\ld be l$ to imag9e t e ?ree-f>?+ :ipp]-snapp] :o lifts up 8 voice 9 approval or c5sure 7 ! ?rice-greate/ ,h]mes speak+ 9 judgm5t out ( ! my/]ies4 ,?is is ! democratic age ( *eap clap-trap1 & x sits 9 jackdaw judgm5t on all greatness4 ,& ?is is ! result ( mak+1 9 our own conceit1 man ! measure ( ! univ]se4 ,don't y be tak5 94 ,! univ]se1 s va/ & pr(\nd1 measures man up v accurately1 = ! yelp+ mongrel ) 8 tail betwe5 8 legs1 t he is4 ,& ! great sun1 & ! moon1 ) a smile w soon />t dropp+ ! mongrel d[n ! va/ refuse-pit ( oblivion4 ,oh1 ! univ]se has a t]rible hole 9 ! middle ( x1 an oubliette = all ( y1 :ipp]-snapp]+ mongrels4 ,man1 ( c\rse1 be+ measure ( ! univ]se1 is measur$ only aga9/ man4 ,has1 ( c\rse1 vital relation%ip only ) 8 own *eap little species4 ,h5ce ! *eap little twaddl] he has become4 ,9 ! great ages1 man _h vital relation ) man1 ) woman3 & beyond t1 ) ! c[1 ! lion1 ! bull1 ! cat1 ! eagle1 ! beetle1 ! s]p5t4 ,& beyond ^!1 ) n>cissus & anemone1 mi/letoe & oak-tree1 myrtle1 olive1 & lotus4 ,& beyond ^! ) humus & slant+ wat]1 cl\d-t[]s & ra9b[ & ! sweep+ sun-limbs4 ,& beyond t1 ) sun1 & moon1 ! liv+ night & ! liv+ day4 ,d y imag9e ! great realities1 ev5 ! ram ( ,amon1 are only symbols ( some?+ human8 ,d y imag9e ! great symbols1 ! dragon1 ! snake1 ! bull1 only ref] to bits1 qualities or attributes ( little man8 ,x is pu]ile4 ,! pu]ilty1 ! puppyi% conceit ( mod]n :ite humanity is almo/ funny4 ,amon1 ! great ram1 d y ?9k he doesn't /& alone 9 ! univ]se1 )\t y\r p]mission1 oh *eap little man8 ,because he's !re1 d y ?9k y br$ him1 out ( y\r own almight9ess1 y *eap-jack8 ,amon1 ! great ram6 ,mi?ras1 ! great bull6 ,! mi/letoe on ! tree4 ,d y ?9k1 y /uffy little human fool sitt+ 9 a *air & we>+ lambs-wool und]we> & eat+ y\r mutton & beef "u ! ,*ri/mas decoration1 d y ?9k !n t ,amon1 ,mi?ras1 ,mi/letoe1 & ! :ole ,tree ( ,life 7 j inv5t$ to contribute to y\r complac5cy8 ,y fool6 ,y dyspeptic fool1 ) y\r indige/ion tablets6 ,y c eat y\r mutton & y\r beef1 & by sixp5n'or? ( ! gold5 b\gh1 till y\r belly turns s\r1 y fool4 ,d y ?9k1 because y keep a fat ca/rat$ cat1 ! moon is ^u y\r knees8 ,d y ?9k1 9 y\r wool5 und]we>1 y are clo!d 9 ! might ( ,amon8 ,y idiot6 ,y *eap-jack idiot6 ,0 n ! ram creat$ be=e y 71 y twaddl]8 ,did he n come 9 night out ( *aos8 ,& is he n /ill clo!d 9 might8 ,to y1 he is mutton4 ,y\r wond]ful p]spicacity relates y to him j t f>4 ,b any f>!r1 he is--well1 wool4 ,don't y see1 idiot & fool1 t y h lo/ ! ram out ( y\r life entirely1 & x is "o great connection gone1 "o great life-fl[ brok58 ,don't y see y are s mu* ! empti]1 mutton-/uff$ & wool-wadd$1 b lifeless1 lifeless4 ,& ! oak-tree1 ! sl[ great oak-tree1 isn't he alive8 ,doesn't he live :]e y don't live1 ) a va/ sil5ce y %all nev]1 nev] p5etrate1 ?\gh y *op him into k9dl+ %r$ f %r$8 ,he is alive ) life su* z y h n got & w nev] h4 ,& 9 s f> z he is a va/1 p[]ful1 sil5t life1 y %\ld wor%ip him4 ,y %\ld seek a liv+ relation ) him4 ,didn't ! old ,engli%man h a liv+1 vital relation to ! oak-tree1 a my/ic relation8 ,yes1 my/ic6 ,didn't ! r$-fac$ old ,admirals :o made ,engl&1 h a liv+ relation 9 sacr$ness1 ) ! oak-tree :i* 0 _! %ip1 _! ark8 ,! la/ liv+ vibration & p[] 9 pure connection1 betwe5 man & tree1 com+ d[n f ! ,druids4 ,& all y c d n[ is to twiddle-twaddle ab\t gold5 b\ghs1 because y are empty1 empty1 empty1 holl[1 defici5t1 & c>dbo>dy4 ,d y ?9k ! tree is n1 n[ & = ev]1 sacr$ & fe>some8 ,! trees h turn$ aga9/ y1 fools1 & y are runn+ 9 imbecility to y\r own de/ruction4 ,d y ?9k ! bull is at y\r disposal1 y z5i? ( creation8 ,:y1 ,i tell y1 ! blood ( ! bull is inde$ y\r poison4 ,y\r ve9s are bur/+1 ) beef4 ,y may well turn veget>ian4 ,b ev5 milk is bull's blood3 or ,ha?or's4 ,my c[ ,susan is at my disposal inde$4 ,b :5 ,i see h] sudd5ly em]g+1 jet-black1 slid+ ?r\gh ! gate ( h] little corral into ! op5 sun1 does n my he>t /& /ill1 & cry out1 9 "s long-=gott5 tongue1 salutation to ! fe>some "o8 ,is n ev5 n[ my life wid5$ & deep5$ 9 connection ) h] life1 ?robb+ ) ! o!r pulse1 ( ! bull's blood8 ,is n ?is my life1 ?is ?robb+ ( ! bull's blood 9 my blood8 ,& z ! :ite cock calls 9 ! doorway1 :o calls8 ,m]ely a b>ny>d roo/]1 wor? a doll>-&-a-half4 ,b li/56 ,"u ! old dawns ( creation ! ,holy ,gho/1 ! ,m$iator1 %\ts al\d 9 ! twilight4 ,& e "t ,i he> him1 a f\nta9 ( vitality gu%es up 9 my body4 ,x is life4 ,s x is6 ,degree aft] degree aft] degree wid5s out ! relation betwe5 man & 8 univ]se1 till x rea*es ! sun1 & ! night4 ,! impulse ( exi/5ce1 ( c\rse1 is to dev\r all ! l[] ord]s ( life4 ,s man n[ looks ^u ! :ite cock1 ! c[1 ! ram1 z good to eat4 ,b liv+ & hav+ be+ means ! relat$ness betwe5 me & all ?+s4 ,9 s f> z ,i am ,i1 a be+ :o is pr\d & 9 place1 ,i h a connection ) my circumambi5t univ]se1 & ,i "k my place4 ,:5 ! :ite cock cr[s1 ,i d n he> myself1 or "s an?ropomorphic conceit1 cr[+4 ,i he> ! n-me1 ! voice ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,& :5 ,i see ! h>d1 solid1 longi% gre5 cones ?ru/+ up at blue heav5 f ! high blui% tips ( ! balsam p9e1 ,i say3 8,behold6 ,look at ! /rong1 f]tile sil5ce ( ! ?ru/+ tree6 ,god is 9 ! bu% l a cl5*$ d>k fi/1 or a ?ru/ phallus40 ,s x is ) e natural ?+4 ,x has a vital relation ) all o!r natural ?+s4 ,only ! ma*9e is absolv$ f vital relation4 ,x is bas$ on ! my/]y ( neut]s4 ,! neutralis+ ( "o great natural =ce aga9/ ano!r1 makes me*anical p[]4 ,makes ! eng9e's :eels g r\nd4 ,does ! e>? g r\nd l a :eel1 9 ! same way8 ,no6 ,9 ! liv+1 balanc$1 hov]+ flight ( ! e>?1 !re is a /range lean+1 an un/atic equilibrium1 a balance t is non-balance4 ,?is is ow+ to ! relativity ( e>?1 moon1 & sun1 a vital1 ev5 s5ti5t relat$ness1 nev] p]p5dicul>3 no?+ neutral or neut]4 ,e natural ?+ has its own liv+ relation to e o!r natural ?+4 ,s ! tig]1 /rip$ 9 gold & black1 lies & /ret*es 8 limbs 9 p]fection betwe5 all t ! day is1 & all t is night4 ,he has a by-!-way relat$ness ) trees1 soil1 wat]1 man1 cobras1 de]1 ants1 & ( c\rse1 ! %e-tig]4 ,( all ^! he is reckless z ,cs> 04 ,:5 he /ret*es himself sup]bly1 he /ret*es himself betwe5 ! liv+ day & ! liv+ night1 ! va/ inexhau/ible duality ( creation4 ,& he is ! fang$ & br9dl$ ,holy ,gho/1 ) ice-%9+ :isk]s4 ,! same ) man4 ,8 life consi/s 9 a relation ) all ?+s3 /one1 e>?1 trees1 fl[]s1 wat]1 insects1 fi%es1 birds1 creatures1 sun1 ra9b[1 *ildr51 wom51 o!r m54 ,b 8 greate/ & f9al relation is ) ! sun1 ! sun ( suns3 & ) ! night1 :i* is moon & d>k & />s4 ,9 ! la/ great connections1 he lifts 8 body spee*less to ! sun1 &1 ! same body1 b s diff]5t1 to ! moon & ! />s1 & ! spaces betwe5 ! />s4 ,sun6 ,yes1 ! actual sun6 ,t :i* blazes 9 ! day6 ,:i* sci5ti/s call a sph]e ( blaz+ gas--:at a lot ( human gas !re is1 :i* has nev] be5 set ablaze6--& :i* ! ,greeks call ,helios6 ,! sun1 ,i tell y1 is alive1 & m alive ?an ,i am1 or a tree is4 ,x may h blaz+ gas1 z ,i h hair1 & a tree has leaves4 ,b ,i tell y1 x is ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 full raim5t1 %ak+ & walk+1 & alive z a tig] is1 only m s1 9 ! sky4 ,& :5 ,i c turn my body to ! sun1 & say3 8,sun6 ,sun60 & we meet--!n ,i am come f9ally into my own4 ,= ! univ]se ( day1 f9ally1 is ! sun4 ,& :5 ! day ( ! sun is my day too1 ,i am a "l ( all ! _w4 ,& at night1 :5 ! sil5ce ( ! moon1 & ! />s1 & ! spaces betwe5 ! />s1 is ! sil5ce ( me too1 !n ,i am come into my own by night4 ,= night is a va/ untellable life1 & ! ,holy ,gho/ />ry1 beheld z we only behold night on e>?4 ,9 8 ultimate & surpass+ relation1 man is giv5 only to t :i* he c nev] describe or acc\nt =2 ! sun1 z x is alive1 & ! liv+ night4 ,a man's supreme mom5t ( active life is :5 he looks up & is ) ! sun1 & is ) ! sun z a woman is ) *ild4 ,! actual yell[ sun ( morn+4 ,?is makes man a "l1 an ari/ocrat ( life4 ,& ! supreme mom5t ( quiesc5t life is :5 a man looks up into ! night1 & is gone into ! night1 s ! night is l a woman ) *ild1 be>+ him4 ,& ?is1 a man has to himself4 ,! true ari/ocrat is ! man :o has pass$ all ! relation%ips & has met ! sun1 & ! sun is ) him z a diadem4 ,cs> 0 l ?is4 ,he pass$ ?r\gh ! great relation%ips1 ) ru?lessness1 & came to ! sun4 ,& he became a sun-man4 ,b he 0 too unconsci\s4 ,he 0 n aw>e t ! sun = ev] 0 beyond him1 & t only 9 8 relation to ! sun 0 he deifi$4 ,he want$ to be ,god4 ,alex&] 0 wis]4 ,he plac$ himself a god among m54 ,b :5 blood fl[$ f a w\nd 9 him1 he said1 8,look6 ,x is ! blood ( a man l o!r m540 ,! sun makes man a "l3 an ari/ocrat3 almo/ a deity4 ,b 9 8 consummation ) night & ! moon1 man kn[s = ev] 8 own pass+ away4 ,b no man is man 9 all 8 spl5d\r till he passes fur!r ?an e relation%ip3 fur!r ?an mank9d & womank9d1 9 ! la/ leap to ! sun1 to ! night4 ,! man :o c t\* bo? sun & night1 z ! woman t\*$ ! g>m5t ( ,jesus1 becomes a "l & a savi\r1 9 8 own k9d4 ,) ! sun he has 8 f9al & ultimate relation%ip1 beyond man or woman1 or any?+ human or creat$4 ,& 9 ?is f9al relation is he mo/ int5sely alive1 surpass+4 ,e creature at its z5i? surpasses creation & is alone 9 ! face ( ! sun1 & ! night3 ! sun t lives1 & ! night t lives & survives4 ,!n we pass beyond e o!r relation%ip1 & e o!r relation%ip1 ev5 ! int5se/ passion ( love1 s9ks into subord9ation & obscurity4 ,inde$1 e relation%ip1 ev5 t ( pure/ love1 is only an approa* ne>] & ne>]1 to a man's la/ consummation ) ! sun1 ) ! moon or night4 ,& 9 ! consummation ) ! sun1 ev5 love is left beh9d4 ,he :o has ! sun 9 8 face1 9 8 body1 he is ! pure ari/ocrat4 ,he :o has ! sun 9 8 brea/1 & ! moon 9 8 belly1 he is ! fir/3 ! ari/ocrat ( ari/ocrats1 supreme 9 ! ari/ocracy ( life4 ,because he is mo/ alive4 ,be+ alive con/itutes an ari/ocracy :i* !re is no gett+ beyond4 ,he :o is mo/ alive1 intr9sically1 is ,k+1 :e!r m5 admit x or n4 ,9 ! face ( ! sun4 ,life rises 9 circles1 9 degrees4 ,! mo/ liv+ is ! highe/4 ,& ! l[] %all s]ve ! high]1 if !re is to be any life among m54 ,m life6 ,m vivid life6 ,n m safe cabbages1 or mean+less masses ( p4 ,p]haps ,do/oevsky 0 m vividly alive ?an ,plato3 culm9at+ a m vivid life circle1 & giv+ ! clue t[>ds a high] circle /ill4 ,b ! clue hidd51 z x always is hidd51 9 e revelation1 und]nea? :at is /at$4 ,all creation contributes1 & mu/ contribute to ?is3 t[>ds ! a*iev+ ( a va/]1 vivid] cycle ( life4 ,t is ! goal ( liv+4 ,he :o gets ne>] ! sun is lead]1 ! ari/ocrat ( ari/ocrats4 ,or he :o1 l ,do/oevsky1 gets ne>e/ ! moon ( our n-be+4 ,!re is1 ( c\rse1 ! p[] ( m]e cons]vatism & in]tia4 ,des]ts made ! cactus ?orny4 ,b ! cactus /ill is a rose ( roses4 ,:]eas a sort ( c[>dice made ! porcup9e sp9y4 ,!re is a diff]5ce betwe5 ! c[>dice ( in]tia1 :i* n[ gov]ns ! democratic masses1 p>ticul>ly ! capitali/ masses3 & ! cons]vative fight+ _s :i* sav$ ! cactus 9 ! middle ( ! des]t4 ,! democratic mass1 capitali/ & prolet>iat alike1 are a va/1 sluggi%1 gha/lily gre$y porcup9e1 lumb]+ ) in]tia4 ,ev5 ,bol%evism is ! same porcup9e3 no?+ b gre$ & in]tia4 ,! cactus _h a rose to fight =4 ,b :at has democracy to fight =1 aga9/ ! liv+ elem5ts1 except money1 money1 money6 ,! _w is /uck solid inside an a*iev$ =m1 & bri/l+ ) a myriad sp9es1 to protect its hulk+ body z x fe$s3 gnaw+ ! b>k ( ! 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