,! ,works ( ! ,rev4 ,john ,wesley1 ,m4,a4 ,transcrib]'s ,notes ,punctuation has be5 /&>diz$4 ,mo/ ( ! non-common abbreviations us$ to save space 9 pr9t+ h be5 exp&$ to ! non-abbreviat$ =m = easi] read+4 ,! au?or has us$ an a/]isk 7997 to indicate passages he consid]s mo/ wor?y ( att5tion4 ,! text is v inconsi/5t 9 its usage ( quotation m>ks4 ,! transcrib] has attempt$ to make _! use consi/5t ?r\gh\t ?is "w = improv$ readability4 ,*>act]s 9 small caps h be5 replac$ by all caps4 ,non-pr9table *>act]i/ics h be5 giv5 ! foll[+ ,italic text3 -- text emphasiz$ text )9 italics -- text ,?is book 0 writt5 9 a p]iod :5 _m words _h n become /&>diz$ 9 _! spell+4 ,words may h multiple spell+ v>iations or inconsi/5t hyph5ation 9 ! text4 ,^! h be5 left un*ang$ unless indicat$ ) a ,transcrib]'s ,note4 ,footnotes are id5tifi$ 9 ! text ) a sup]script numb] & are %[n imm$iately bel[ ! p>agraph 9 :i* !y appe>4 ,transcrib]'s ,notes are us$ :5 mak+ corrections to ! text or to provide additional in=mation = ! mod]n read]4 ,^! notes are id5tifi$ by symbols 9 ! text & are %[n imm$iately bel[ ! p>agraph 9 :i* !y appe>4 ,,! ,,works ,,( ,,! ,rev4 ,,john ,,wesley1 ,m4,a4 ,late ,fell[ ( ,l9coln-,college1 ,,ox=d4 ,,volume ,,xi4 ,,bri/ol3 ,pr9t$ by ,,william ,,p9e1 9 ,w9e-,/reet4 ,,mdcclxxii4 ,,! ,,cont5ts ,( ! ,,elev5? ,,volume4 ,an ,extract ( ! life & dea? ( ,mr4 ,?omas ,haliburton4 ,,"p ,,iv4 8,,iii40 replac$ ) 8,,iv40 ,*apt] ,,iv4 ,( 8 dea?4 ,an extract ( ! life ( ,monsieur de ,r5ty4 ,*apt] ,i4 ,( 8 m>riage1 bir?1 & g5]al way ( life4 ,*apt] ,,ii4 ,8 humility4 ,*apt] ,,iii4 ,8 self-d5ial & mortification4 ,*apt] ,,iv4 ,8 pati5ce4 ,*apt] ,v4 ,8 fai?4 ,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 hope4 ,*apt] ,,vii4 ,8 love ( ,god4 ,*apt] ,,viii4 ,section ,i4 ,8 love ( man 9 g5]al4 ,section ,,ii4 ,8 *>ity to ! poor4 ,section ,,iii4 ,8 *>ity to ! sick4 ,section ,,iv4 ,8 zeal = ! salvation ( 8 neighb\r4 8,,vi40 replac$ ) 8,,iv40 ,*apt] ,,ix4 ,8 outw>d behavi\r & conduct ( bus9ess4 ,*apt] ,x4 ,8 dea?4 ,an extract f ! life & dea? ( ,?omas ,wal%4 ,! introduction4 ,*apt] ,i4 ,( 8 bir? & education4 ,*apt] ,,ii4 ,( 8 religion1 & ! /ruggle :i* he f\nd betwe5 nature & grace1 till ! sixte5? ye> ( 8 age4 ,*apt] ,,iii4 ,giv+ a f>!r acc\nt ( him2 ! corruptions he /ruggl$ aga9/1 & ! means he made use ( to subdue !m4 ,*apt] ,,iv4 ,( 8 =sak+ ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,*apt] ,v4 ,"s fur!r acc\nt ( 8 progress 9 ! way ( life1 ) o!r reasons ( 8 conduct1 9 reg>d ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,*apt] ,,vi4 ,( "s p>ticul>s previ\s to 8 ,conv]sion4 ,*apt] ,,vii4 ,giv+ a f>!r acc\nt ( 8 s\l p>ticul>ly ( 8 deep convictions4 ,*apt] ,,viii4 ,( 8 f9d+ re/ to 8 s\l4 ,*apt] ,,ix4 ,( ! confirmation ( 8 s\l 9 ! grace ( ,god1 & ! happy effects :i* x produc$ 9 him4 ,*apt] ,x4 ,8 employm5t among 8 ,*ri/ian bre?r51 & ! treatm5t he met ) f ! _w4 ,*apt] ,,xi4 ,8 provid5tial appo9tm5t to lab\r = ! good ( 8 neighb\r1 by prea*+ ! gospel4 ,*apt] ,,xii4 ,he beg9s to prea*4 ,,"p ,,ii4 ,*apt] ,i4 ,( 8 entire application to prea*+ ! gospel4 ,*apt] ,,ii4 ,he goes into ! prov9ces ( ,le9/] & ,conn\ght1 & prea*es ! ^w !re4 ,*apt] ,,iii4 ,"s f>!r acc\nt ( ! tr\bles he met )1 on acc\nt ( prea*+ ! gospel4 ,*apt] ,,iv4 ,a %ort acc\nt ( ! endeav\rs ( ! ,romi% cl]gy1 to prev5t 8 usefulness among _! p4 8,,vi0 replac$ ) 8,,iv0 ,*apt] ,v4 ,he goes to ,engl&1 & lab\rs !re4 ,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 love to s\ls1 & zeal = promot+ ! glory ( ,god4 ,*apt] ,,vii4 ,8 application to /udy1 love to ! holy scriptures1 improvem5t :i* he made !re(4 ,*apt] ,,viii4 ,8 mann] ( prea*+4 ,*apt] ,,ix4 ,( 8 frequ5t sickness1 ! ex]cises ( 8 m9d !re91 & ! improvem5t :i* he made !re(4 ,*apt] ,x4 ,( 8 temptations1 conflicts1 & ex]cises ( s\l4 ,*apt] ,,xi4 ,8 communion ) ,god4 ,*apt] ,,xii4 ,"s f>!r p>ticul>s1 relat+ to ! head ( 8 communion ) ,god4 ,,"p ,,iii4 ,*apt] ,i4 ,an extract f ,mr4 ,?omas ,wal%'s di>y1 relat+ *iefly1 to ! exp]i5ce ( 8 own s\l1 9 8 c\rse ( walk+ ) ,god4 ,*apt] ,,ii4 ,! extract f 8 di>y cont9u$4 ,*apt] ,,iii4 ,! same cont9u$4 ,an ,,extract ( ! ,,life ,,& ,,dea? ,,( ,mr4 ,,?omas ,,haliburton4 ,,"p ,,iv4 8,,iii40 replac$ ) 8,,iv40 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,( 8 dea?4 #a4 ,,on ,w$nesday1 ,septemb] #ag1 7& "s days prec$+7 he 0 "u great tr\ble ( m9d2 & a fri5d ask+ him t morn+1 ,h[ he _h re/$ 9 ! night8 ,he answ]$1 8,n well4 ,i h be5 ?is night sore toss$ ) ! ?\ghts ( et]nity4 ,i h be5 ?9k+ on ! ,t]ribilia ,dei1 & all t is difficult 9 dea? to a ,*ri/ian4 ,all my enemies h be5 r\nd ab\t me4 ,i _h a great conflict1 & fai? 0 l to fail4 ,o t ,i may be kept n[ 9 ?is la/ trial1 f be+ an (f5ce to 8 p60 i4 e4 ,! t]rible ?+s ( ,god4 ,9 ! aft]noon1 :5 "s ( 8 bre?r5 visit$ him1 he said1 8,i am b "y1 & ( little exp]i5ce1 b ?is dea?-b$ n[ makes me old2 !re=e ,i use ! fre$om to exhort y to fai?fulness 9 ! ,"l's "w4 ,y w nev] rep5t ?is4 ,he is a good ma/]4 ,i h always f\nd him s4 ,if ,i _h a ?\s& lives ,i %\ld ?9k all too little to be employ$ 9 8 s]vice40 #b4 ,?ursday1 ,septemb] #ah4 ,be+ ask$ 9 ! morn+1 ,h[ he 08 ,he said1 8,o :at a t]rible conflict _h ,i ye/]day6 ,b n[ ,i may say1 ,i h f\ght ! good fight1 ,i h kept ! fai?4 ,n[ he ha? put a new song 9 my m\?4 ,praise1 praise is comely = ! upright4 ,%ortly ,i %all h ano!r sight ( ,god ?an ev] ,i _h1 & be m fit to praise him ?an ev]4 ,o ! ?\ghts ( an inc>nate ,god are sweet & ravi%+6 ,&1 ,o6 h[ d ,i wond] at myself1 t ,i d n admire him m6 ,o t ,i c\ld hon\r him8 ,:at a wond] ,i enjoy su* composure "u ^! pa9s1 & 9 view ( approa*+ dea?6 ,o1 :at a m]cy1 t ,i h ! use ( my reason1 till ,i h decl>$ 8 goodness to me60 ,to 8 wife he said1 8,he came to me 9 ! ?ird wat* ( ! night1 walk+ ^u ! wat]s2 & he said to me1 ,i am ,alpha & ,omega1 ! beg9n+ & ! end3 ,i 0 dead1 & am alive1 & live = ev]more & h ! keys ( dea? & hell4 ,he /ill$ ! tempe/ ( my s\l1 & !re is a sweet calm40 ,:5 desir$ to be t5d] ( 8 heal?1 he said1 8,i'll /rive to la/ z long z ,i c4 ,i h no m to d ) my "t1 b to tepe x out = ! glory ( ,god40 ,!n he said1 8,i %all see my ,r$eem] /& on ! e>? at ! la/ day4 ,b be=e !n1 ,i %all see ! ,lamb 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rone4 ,o1 x w be a glori\s company1 ! spirits ( j m5 made p]fect1 & ,jesus ! m$iator ( ! new cov5ant6 ,o1 = grace6 ,grace to be pati5t to ! end60 i4 e4 ,sp5d x ?riftily4 ,!n he desir$ a m9i/] to pray4 ,aft] pray]1 he call$ = a little wat] to wa% 8 eyes1 & said1 8,i hope to get !m wa%$ %ortly1 & made l doves eyes1 & !n f>ewel s91 f>ewel sorr[40 ,!n tak+ "s refre%m5t1 he said1 8,i get sleep f him1 & food f him2 & ,i %all get himself4 ,my fle% & my he>t faile?2 b ,god is ! /r5g? ( my he>t1 & my portion = ev]40 ,see+ 8 y\nge/ *ild1 he said to h] 8,m>y1 my de>1 ! ,"l bless y2 ! ,god ( y\r fa!r1 & my fa!r1 bless y2 ! ,god t f$ me all my life2 ! angel t r$eem$ me f evil1 bless y & ! re/1 & be y\r portion2 t is a good h]itage1 bett] !n if ,i _h cr[ns & scept]s to leave y4 ,my *ild1 ,i receiv$ y f him1 & ,i give y to him aga940 ,to 8 wife he said1 8,my de> enc\rage y\rself 9 ! ,"l2 he w keep y1 ?\gh y ev5 fall into enemies h&s40 ,& !n1 decl>+ 8 will+ness to "p ) 8 de>e/ relations1 he said1 8,?is is ! practice ( religion1 to make use ( x :5 we come to ! p9*2 ?is is a lesson ( practical div9ity40 ,:5 ! physician came1 he said1 8,doctor1 z to ?is piece ( "w1 y are ne> at an end ( x4 ,god be ) y1 & p]suade y to be 9 e>ne/2 ,i return y ?anks = y\r dilig5ce4 ,is my pulse l[8 ,i am well pleas$ x is4 ,i w\ld h be5 cont5t to h be5 away long e're n[2 a few /rokes m1 & victory1 victory1 =ev]1 ?r\gh ! capta9 ( our salvation60 8,n[ get acqua9tance ) ,god4 ,! little acqua9tance ,i h _h ) ,god )9 ^! two days1 has be5 bett] ?an t5 ?\s& times ! pa9s ,i h be5 at all my life ab\t religion4 ,x is good to h him to g to1 :5 we are turn+ our face to ! wall4 ,he is kn[n 9 ,sion = a sure refuge1 a v pres5t help 9 tr\ble40 8,:at a /range h>dness !re is 9 ! he>ts ( m58 ,b :e!r !y w he>1 or :e!r !y w =be>1 x is our duty to speak2 & :5 we are dead & gone1 :at we spoke 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 may take hold ( !m40 ,to 8 elde/ *ild he said1 8,ah1 ,m>g>et1 y seem sometimes to h convictions f ,god4 ,bew>e ( !m2 !y are ! mo/ dang]\s ?+s y ev] m$dl$ )4 ,ea* ( !m is ,god's mess5g]2 & if y despise ! mess5g] ( ,god1 he w be av5g$ ( y40 ,to a m9i/] :o came 9 he said1 8,i am wait+ = ! salvation ( ,god40 ,he answ]$1 8,if ! ,"l w\ld sp>e y x w\ld be a m]cy to ?is place40 ,he repli$1 8,:at c a poor wret* signify8 ,i c\ld d no?+3 ,i signify no?+4 ,b1 ,i tell y1 bro!r1 :at ,i h ?\ght ( long2 ,i fe>1 f ! tak+ (f ! s]vants ( ,god at ?is "t1 t !re is l to be a g5]al ov]fl[+ consumption1 runn+ ov] n only ?is1 b all ! re=m$ *ur*es40 ,to ! apo!c>y he said1 8,/udy religion 9 y\?3 :5 y come to be z ,i am1 y w f9d no com=t )\t x4 ,i give y ?is z a solemn w>n+ f ,god2 if y come to be h>d5$ by ! frequ5t sight ( m5 9 my /ate1 y may come to be h>d5$ = ev]40 ,to ?ree m9i/]s he said1 8,my de> bre?r51 x is purely f a s9c]e love to y1 t ,i presume to say1 :5 ,god help$ me to dilig5ce 9 /udy+ & m$itat+1 ,i f\nd him !n rem>kably %9+ ^u me4 ,!re is no?+ to be _h ) a slack h&4 ,y are 9 an evil day4 ,h[ev]1 be fai?ful & ,god w /r5g!n y = 8 own "w1 if y are fai?ful !re94 ,y _c1 x is true1 br+ all p]sons to ! ,"l1 b y may make _! consci5ces1 w !y1 or nill !y1 speak = ! ,"l4 8fai?ul0 replac$ ) 8fai?ful0 8,i rep5t cont9u$ he1 ,i did n d m = him2 b ,i h peace 9 x2 :at ,i did1 ,i did 9 s9c]ity3 he accepts ( ! mite4 ,x 0 ! delight ( my he>t to prea* ! gospel1 & x made me sometimes neglect a frail body4 ,i desir$ to decrease1 t ! bridegroom might increase1 & to be no?+1 t he might be all4 ,& ,i rejoice 9 8 highness4 998,bre?r51 ?is is enc\ragem5t to y to try & g f>!r4 ,alas6 ,i h gone no l5g?2 b w\ld fa9 h gone f>!r3 ! h& ( ! dilig5t make? ri*4 ,mu* /udy1 mu* pray]1 temptations also1 & di/9ct deliv]ances f temptations1 are useful helps1 ,i 0 fond en\gh ( books2 b ,i mu/ say :at ,god let me see ( my ill he>t1 0 ( m use ?an all my books40 ,"o said1 8,?is is to believe & !re=e to speak40 ,he repli$1 8,! ,"l help me to hon\r him4 ,i desire no m4 ,o t ,i _h ! tongues ( m5 & angels to praise him6 ,i hope %ortly1 to get a w to answ] my duty1 & ability to answ] my w4 ,o to be help$ s1 & to fe> always6 ,h[ soon %\ld ,i fall1 if he )drew6 ,b d n /umble1 ,sirs1 ?\gh1 ,i %\ld be %ak54 ,! f\ndation /&e? sure40 ,:5 advis$ to be quiet a little1 he said1 8,h[ %\ld a man be/[ 8 la/ brea?1 b 9 comm5d+ ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,god cloa!d 9 our nature1 dy+ = our s9s60 ,& :5 aga9 pre/ to be t5d] ( 8 body1 he said1 8,o b my he>t is full60 ,& !n desir+ a m9i/] to pray = him1 he said1 8,pray t ,god may h pity on a weak ?+1 t is n able to be> mu* 9 ! conflict60 ,to two o!r m9i/]s he said1 8,above all scan y\r own he>ts1 & make use ( :at discov]ies y get !re1 to enable y to dive into consci5ces1 to awak5 hypocrites1 & to sep>ate ! preci\s f ! vile2 & to d x ) t accuracy1 & caution1 z n to make sad ! he>ts :i* ,god ha? made glad60 8,) respect to ! diff]5ce :i* ?is oa? is l to make among m9i/]s1 ) ! greate/ e>ne/ness ,i say1 :5ev] x beg9s1 rememb]1 diff]5ce is a hot ?+2 !re mu/ be condesc5sion1 t5d]ness & =be>ance4 ,we mu/ n fly at ! ball4 ,:atev] appreh5sions ,i h1 ( "s m9i/]s n act+ consci5ti\sly1 & prea*+ 9 su* a way z may d hurt2 yet ,i w\ld speak t5d]ly1 & act t5d]ly t[>d !m4 ,let !re be mu* ( ! =be>ance & meekness t is 9 ,jesus4 ,foll[ peace3 peace is wor? mu*3 w\nd n our *ur* among h] enemies4 ,! deadly evil :i* ,i fe> w ru9 all1 is1 coldness & indiff]5cy4 ,_m seem to try1 h[ f> !y may g )\t be+ lo/2 b ! ,*ri/ian's rule is1 to /& at a di/ance40 ,to him :o _h succe$$ him 9 ! p>i% ( ,c]es1 he said1 8,t p 7 my *oice1 to :om1 ) mu* peace & pleasure1 ,i prea*$1 z ,i c\ld1 ?\gh n z ,i %\ld1 ! gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,?\gh ,i own1 t 9 all ?+s ,i h s9n$ exce$+ly be=e ! ,"l1 yet ,i h peace1 9 t ) mu* conc]n ,i aim$ at lead+ !m to ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,tell !m1 t ,i die rejoic+ 9 ! fai? & pr(ession ( :at ,i (t5 prea*$ to !m1 "u a l[ /ate ( body4 ,tell !m1 t ! gospel ,i prea*$ to !m1 if !y receive x n1 w be a witness aga9/ !m4 ,we are1 l our ma/]1 set = ! fall & ris+ aga9 ( _m4 ,& if we c d no m1 yet if we be fai?ful1 !y %all "k1 t a prophet ha? be5 among !m40 99,9 ! night-"t he said1 8,?is gr[+ weakness ( my eyes1 is a sign ( a *ange approa*+4 ,if he %ut my eyes he w op5 my eyes3 eyes no m to behold vanity4 ,b ,i %all behold him 9 righte\sness1 & :5 ,i awake1 ,i %all be satisfi$ ) 8 lik5ess60 99,aft]w>ds he said1 8,if ?is be ! la/ day ( my conflict1 ,i w\ld humbly desire ( ! ,"l1 t he w\ld condesc5d1 to be t5d] to "o t loves 8 appe>+3 t z he has dealt wond]fully ) me hi!rto1 s he may deal t5d]ly ) me ev5 to ! end1 9 loos+ ! p9s ( my tab]nacle1 & help+ me to hon\r him by a compos$ resignation ( myself into 8 h&s40 ,:5 "o said1 8,sir1 ,i ?9k y h ne$ ( re/30 ,he answ]$1 8,i h no ne$ ( re/1 7 x n to put me 9 case1 to f9i% my c\rse ) joy4 ,lo1 "h ! p[] ( ,*ri/'s dea?1 & ! efficacy ( 8 resurrection6 ,i f9d ! advantage ( "o at ! "r-h& ( ,god1 :o is able to save to ! utt]mo/6 ,t is ! sight ,i long =3 he w b %ut my eyes1 & op5 !m 9 glory4 ,to h my s\l entirely submissive to him 9 all ?+s1 t is my desire4 ,&1 s x w be %ortly2 !n nev] w !re be a reluctant ?\ght1 nev] "o m e/rang$ ?\ght f ,god60 99,to "o :o ask$1 if he 0 n fa9t1 he answ]$1 8,i am n fa9t1 ,i am refre%$ z ) w9e4 ,o !re is a sweet calm 9 my s\l4 ,my desires are t[>ds him1 & ! remembrance ( 8 "n4 ,rememb] him6 ,:y %\ld n ,i rememb] him1 t rememb]$ me 9 my l[ condition8 ,he pass$ by & said1 live6 ,& :5 he says1 he gives life40 ,he !n desir$ to h read ! =m] "p ( ! fir/ *apt] ( ! second epi/le to ! ,cor9?ians4 ,& aft] ! #i? & #aj? v]ses 7 read1 ,we _h ! s5t5ce ( dea? 9 ourselves1 t we %\ld n tru/ 9 ourselves b 9 ,god :i* raise? ! dead3 :o deliv]$ u f s great a dea?1 & do? deliv]1 9 :om we tru/ t he w yet deliv] u4 ,he said1 8,n[ !re 'tis all4 ,god ha? deliv]$ me1 & ,i tru/ t he w deliv] me1 & bruise ,satan %ortly "u my feet1 & ,i %all get ! victory ov] ! cunn+ _w1 & ! deceitful he>t4 ,_m a we>y day h ,i _h ) my unbelief6 ,if ,i _h _h fai? to believe ?+s n se51 to believe t my happ9ess lay n 9 ?+s temporal b et]nal3 if ,i _h _h fai?'s abid+ impression realiz+ ^! ?+s1 ,i %\ld n h kn[n h[ to abide out ( heav5 a mom5t40 99,:5 he 0 desir$ to sleep1 he answ]$1 8,^? ,i am go+ to1 sleep n day nor night1 b cry1 ,holy1 holy1 holy6 ,!y t wait on ! ,"l %all r5ew _! /r5g?1 & m\nt up ) w+s z ( an eagle4 ,i _c get my he>t 9 a "r tune1 z ,i w\ld h x2 b x w be s 9 a %ort "t40 ,aft] he _h la9 /ill a little1 "o said1 8,y h n slept40 ,he answ]$1 8,no2 ,i _h mu* "w2 b bless$ be ,god1 pleasant "w40 ,aft]w>ds1 :5 8 wife ask$ h[ he 01 he said1 8,my de>1 ,i am long+ = ! salvation ( ,god1 & ha/5+ to x40 ,!n see+ h] v sad1 he said1 8,my de>1 enc\rage y\rself2 "h is a body go+ to clay1 & a s\l go+ to heav52 :]e ,i hope y are to come40 99#c4 ,friday1 ,septemb] #ai4 ,ab\t five 9 ! morn+1 :5 he 0 desir$ to try if he c\ld sleep1 he answ]$1 8,no1 no2 %\ld ,i lie "h altoge!r useless8 ,%\ld n ,i sp5d ! la/ ( my /r5g?1 to %ew =? 8 glory80 ,he !n held up 8 h&s 7:i* 7 mu* swell$7 & said1 8,lame h&s1 & lame feet6 ,b see a lame man leap+ & rejoic+60 99,feel+ "s pa91 he said1 8,?is is "o ( ! =e-runn]s ( ! *ange1 ! great *ange4 ,o :5 %all ,i be admitt$ to see ! glory ( ! high] h\se8 ,in/ead ( t cl\dy light ( a creat$ sun1 to see t cle> & p]fect glory60 ,aft] "s "t's sil5ce1 he took leave ( 8 wife & *ildr51 salut+ & speak+ to !m all1 "o by "o4 ,!n he said1 8,a k9d & affectionate wife y h be5 to me4 ,! ,"l bless y1 & he %all bless y40 ,to a m9i/] t came 91 he said1 8,bro!r1 ,i am ^u a piece ( try+ "w4 ,i am p>t+ ) my wife & *ildr54 ,i am resolv$1 ,i bless 8 "n2 ?\gh ,i h _h "o ( ! be/ ( wives1 yet %e is no m m9e1 b ! ,"l's40 99,!n to 8 son he said1 8,god bless ! lad1 & let my "n be nam$ ^u him4 ,b ,o1 :at is my "n6 ,let ! "n ( ! ,"l be nam$ ^u him4 ,tell ! g5]ation foll[+1 h[ good ,god is1 & h& d[n ?is te/imony40 ,aft] t1 he spoke to 8 s]vants & said1 8,my de> fri5ds1 make religion y\r bus9ess4 ,i *>ge y all1 bew>e ( graceless ma/]s2 seek to be ) !m t fe> ! ,"l40 ,!n he said1 8,"h's a demon/ration ( ! reality ( religion2 & t ,i a poor1 weak1 timor\s man1 once z mu* afraid ( dea? z any3 ,i t h be5 _m ye>s "u ! t]rors ( dea?1 come n[1 9 ! m]cy ( ,god1 & by ! p[] ( 8 grace1 compos$ly & ) joy to look dea? 9 ! face4 ,i h se5 x 9 its pal5ess1 & 9 all its circum/ances ( horror4 ,i d>e look x 9 ! face 9 its mo/ gha/ly %ape1 & hope )9 a :ile to h ! victory40 ,he !n said to "s m9i/]s1 8,my bre?r51 ,i h be5 giv+ up my wife & *ildr5 to ,god4 ,i am ^u ! w+ = et]nity2 b glory to ,god1 ,i "k 9 :om ,i h believ$40 99,!n he said1 8,de> bre?r51 w y speak a ^w to "o t longs to he> ( him8 ,o ,i love to he> ! gospel1 ,i love to prea* x3 ',tis a joyful s\nd1 a sweet s\nd4 ,i love to he> ( 8 "n4 ,8 "n is z o9tm5t p\r$ =?4 ,i love to live prea*+ ,*ri/2 & ,i love to die prea*+ ,*ri/40 ,aft] t he said1 8,bre?r51 ,i take ?is opportunity to ackn[l$ge y\r t5d]ness to me1 :o am unwor?y ( x 9 _m respects4 ,i c say1 ,i desir$ to live 9 love ) y1 & bless ,god1 !re 0 h>mony among u4 ,! ,"l bless y & y\r lab\rs3 ! ,"l himself multiply bless+s on y & y\r families1 & support y aga9/ all disc\ragem5ts40 ,!n to "o ( !m he said1 8,my de> fri5d1 %ew k9dness to my de> wife1 & *ildr54 ,i recomm5d h] to y\r c>e2 %e has be5 ! fri5d ( my bosom1 ! wife ( my y\?1 a fai?ful fri5d40 ,aft]w>d he said1 8,let pati5ce h its p]fect "w4 ,my s\l longs m ?an !y t wait = ! morn+4 ,"l ,jesus make ha/e1 until ! day break1 & ! %ad[s flee away60 #d4 ,aft] ?is1 at 8 desire1 a pap] 0 read ov]1 :i* he _h dictat$ "s days be=e4 ,?is he own$ be=e sev]al witnesses1 & desir$ !m to atte/ x4 ,! t5or :]e( foll[s4 ,hav+ be=e s dispos$ ( my worldly conc]ns1 z ,i judg$ exp$i5t = my family2 ,i ?\ght myself b\nd1 moreov]1 by ?is latt] w1 to decl>e my s5tim5ts z to religion2 be+ ?r\gh ! m]cy ( ,god1 9 ! full & compos$ ex]cise ( my reason1 al?\gh v weak 9 body4 ,fir/1 !n1 ,i ackn[l$ge1 ,i came into ! _w a defil$ bran* ( apo/ate ,adam1 "u ! guilt ( 8 s91 & ta9t$ ) ! pollution ( s9 d]iv$ f him2 hav+ a he>t full ( ali5ation f1 & enmity aga9/ ,god3 9 a ^w1 a *ild ( wra?1 an heir ( hell4 ,& long did ,i foll[ ! b5t ( ?is corrupt nature1 go+ on f ill to worse3 inde$ ,i _h ru9$ myself1 & c\ld d no?+ = my own recov]y2 & mu/ h be5 ev]la/+ly lo/1 if ,god 9 t5d] m]cy _h n look$ ^u me4 ,i mu/1 on ! o!r h&1 bless ,god :o ca/ my lot 9 a l& :]e ! gospel ( ,*ri/ is reveal$2 :o s ord]$ x1 t ,i 0 born ( religi\s p>5ts1 & by !m 0 s]i\sly devot$ to him4 ,& :]eas ,i e>ly subject$ myself to o!r lords1 ,i adore ,god1 t by 8 ^w & 8 _s1 he ceas$ n to /rive ) me1 until 9 ! day ( 8 p[] he made me *e>fully return to ! ,god ( my fa!rs4 ,i bless ,god1 t :5 ,i /ood trembl+ "u ! t]rors ( 8 law1 he seasonably snat*$ me f despair1 by discov]+ ! bless$ way ( salvation = self-de/roy$ s9n]s ?r\gh a dy+ ,savi\r4 ',tis he alone :o mu/ answ] = me4 ,)\t him ,i am undone4 ,on him ! efficacy ( 8 suff]+s1 ! p[] ( 8 resurrection1 & ( 8 :ole m$iation1 z reveal$ 9 ! gospel1 d ,i build all my hope4 ,i bless ,god t ev] he hon\r$ su* a s9ful1 unwor?y worm1 to prea* ! glori\s gospel ( 8 ,son4 ,i confess ,i h b ill manag$ ?is glori\s tru/1 b h be5 a s9n] 9 all ,i did exce$+ly4 ,yet s f> z ,i "k my own he>t1 x 0 ! life ( my life1 to prea* ,*ri/ crucifi$2 nor dur/ ,i deal coldly & indiff]5tly 9 a matt] :]eon ,i knew dep5d$ bo? my own & my he>]s salvation4 ,& ,i mu/ be> te/imony to my ma/]1 t he nev] bid me g any "p ( my w>f>e ^u my own *>ges4 ,if ,i 0 /rait5$1 x 0 9 my own b[els2 b :5 ,i freely gave :at ,i _h freely receiv$1 ,i nev] want$ se$ = s[+1 & bread = ! eat]1 nor 7,i hope7 a bless+4 ,i desire to jo9 my insignificant te/imony to t ( ! glori\s cl\d ( witnesses1 t ! gospel is ! p[] ( ,god unto salvation1 to e "o t believe?2 t ! way ( hol9ess is ! way ( pleasantness & peace2 & ! ord9ances ( ! gospel1 are ! effectual means ( communion & fell[%ip ) ! ,fa!r & ! ,son4 ,inde$ all 9 ,god's way1 & 9 8 ^w1 is glori\s1 hon\rable1 & l himself3 he ne$s none ( our te/imonies2 b x is ! lea/ we c d to celebrate 8 praises4 ,i !re=e be+ 9 "s s5se oblig$1 take ?is solemn occasion1 be=e all ! _w1 to ackn[l$ge ^!1 among _m o!r obligations1 ,i h receiv$ f him4 ,& to bequea?1 z my la/ legacy to my family1 ?is advice1 to *use ! ,"l = _! ,god3 = he ha? be5 my fa!r's ,god1 ! ,god bo? ( my wife's pr$ecessors & m9e4 ,we hope he ha? be5 our ,god4 ,& ,i recomm5d him to my *ildr51 solemnly *>g+ !m1 z !y w answ] x at ! la/ day1 to make x _! fir/ c>e1 to seek peace ) ,god1 & reconciliation ?r\gh ,*ri/ crucifi$2 & be+ reconcil$1 to make x _! p]petual /udy to please him 9 all ?+s4 ,x is my repeat$ *>ge to y all1 foll[ ,god2 foll[ him e>ly1 foll[ him fully4 ,i h (t devot$ y1 z ,i c\ld1 to ,god2 & !re is no?+ ,i h s mu* at he>t z to h ?is /&1 t ye may inde$ be ! ,"l's4 ,o t ,god himself may det]m9e y\r t5d] he>ts to seek him e>ly1 & he w be a good portion1 & see well to y4 ,z = my body1 ,i commit x to ! du/ "u ! c>e ( ! keep] ( ,israel2 expect+ & hop+ t t quickn+ _s1 :o is ! _s ( ! head1 & actuates all ! memb]s ( 8 my/ical body1 w 9 due "t1 quick5 my mortal body3 & = my _s1 ,i commit x unto ! ,"l ,jesus1 ) :om ,i h entru/$ x long ago3 & ,i w end ) ,/eph51 cry+1 ,"l ,jesus1 receive my _s4 ,,?o4 ,,haliburton4 #c4 ,soon aft] he said1 8,i confess ,god has be5 beat+ me 9 a mort> ?is long "t2 b he has be5 do+ mu* "w4 ,my s\l is ev5 z a wean$ *ild4 ,i am loos$ f all my enjoym5ts4 ,my he>t is dis5gag$ ev5 f my de>e/ wife & *ildr51 b ,i h put !m 9 a good h&40 ,to a fri5d he said1 8,!re is a sweet composure 9 ! ,"l4 ,! beams ( ! h\se are1 z goodly c$>4 ,i am lay+ d[n my tab]nacle to resume x aga94 ,o = grace to be fai?ful unto dea?6 ,aft] we h gone ?r\gh _m ?+s1 we h /ill ne$ to wait on ,god till ! la/4 ,= he t endure? to ! end1 ! same %all be sav$40 ,!n he said to ! physician1 8,i fancy my feet are gr[+ cold3 yea all ! p>ts ( ?is body are go+ to ru94 ,y may believe a man /epp+ into et]nity4 ,i am n act+ z a fool4 ,i h weigh$ et]nity ?is night4 ,i h look$ on dea? 9 e circum/ance t is t]rible to nature4 ,& "u ! view ( all ^!1 ,i f\nd1 t 9 ! way ( ,god !re is n only a rational satisfaction1 b a p[] t engages & rejoices ! he>t4 ,i h n>r[ ?\ghts3 ,i am l to be ov]:elm$1 &1 ,i "k n :]e ,i am1 :5 ,i ?9k on :at ,i am to be1 & :at ,i am to see4 ,i h long desir$ & pray$ = x40 99,"s "t aft] he said1 8,o sirs1 ,i dread mightily1 t a rational sort ( religion is com+ 9 among u1 a religion t consi/s :olly 9 moral duties & ord9ances1 )\t ! p[] ( godl9ess1 a way ( s]v+ ,god :i* is m]e deism1 hav+ no relation to ,jesus ,*ri/ & ! ,_s ( ,god40 ,to a m9i/] t came f ,ed9burgh1 he said1 8,come & see y\r fri5d 9 ! be/ case y ev] saw him 91 long+ = a deliv]ance1 & ha/+ to ! com+ ( ! day ( ,god4 ,i s5t = y1 to enc\rage y to prea* ! gospel 9 an ill _w1 & to /& by ,*ri/1 :o _h be5 s good to me4 ,?is is ! be/ pulpit t ev] ,i 0 94 ,i am n[ laid on ?is b$ = ?is end1 t ,i may comm5d my ,"l40 #f4 ,saturday1 ,septemb] #bj4 ,9 ! morn+ :5 a m9i/] ask$ h[ he 01 he answ]$1 8,i am compos$1 wait+ = him40 ,he repli$1 8,y see h[ k9dly he deals ) y3 he gives y bo? heav5ly ex]cise & heav5ly enjoym5ts3 he deals s t5d]ly ) y1 t y h little to d b to praise40 ,he answ]'d1 8,i h reason to desire ! help ( all to praise him4 ,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 & all t is )9 me1 magnify 8 holy "n60 ,to "s ent]+ ! room1 he said1 8,y are all v welcome4 ,i am tak+ a little w9e = refre%m5t4 ,9 a:ile1 ,i %all h new w9e 9 ! k+dom ( 8 glory4 ,i d>e sc>ce all[ my ?\ghts to fix directly ^u x4 ,i mu/ look aside le/ ,i be ov]:elm$4 ,b ,i mu/ speak ( him :o ha? done wond]ful ?+s = me1 & kept me 9 a p]fect calm4 ,v]ily1 light is s[n = ! upright1 & gladness = ! true ( he>t4 ,o :5 %all ,i conceive aright ( glory6 ,i _c ord] my spee* n[1 because ( d>kness6 ,i long to behold x1 b ,i w wait till he comes4 ,i h exp]i5c$ mu* ( 8 goodness s9ce ,i lay on ?is b$4 ,i h f\nd t tribulation worke? exp]i5ce1 & exp]i5ce pati5ce1 & pati5ce hope4 ,& ,i h f\nd ! love ( ,god %$ abroad 9 my s\l40 ,!n turn+ to 8 wife1 he said1 8,my de>1 enc\rage y\rself 9 ! hope1 t "u ! conduct ( ! same capta9 ( salvation1 y w come ?i!r also4 ,ca/ y\rself & y\r family ^u ! ,"l4 ,enc\rage y\rself2 ,god live?4 ,bless$ be my ,r$eem]1 ! rock ( my salvation60 99,!n he said1 8,:o is l unto him8 ,o1 :at has he all[$ me ?is night6 ,i "k n[ ! mean+ ( t1 ,:atsoev] ye %all ask 9 my "n1 ye %all receive x4 ,! ,"l ha? ev5 all[$ me to be v m9ute 9 e circum/ance4 ,_m a day h ,i fe>$1 h[ ,i %\ld get ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?3 b n[ ,i fe> n4 ,bless$ be ,god1 :o1 s9ce ,i laid d[n "h1 ha? c>ri$ on a "w ( sanctification f> 9 my s\l1 t makes me meet = heav56 ,"y z ,i am1 ,i die old & satisfi$ ) days4 ,! *ild is go+ to die an hundr$ ye>s old4 ,i am l a %ock ( corn1 fully ripe4 ,b1 ,o1 ,i h be5 "u a bright sun1 9 a day :5 ! sun ( righte\sness %one1 & ,i h _h glori\s %[]s40 ,aft] a little sil5ce he said1 8,i h slept1 & am refre%$4 ,& n[ :at %all ,i say8 ,i c say no m to comm5d ! ,"l2 n = want ( matt]1 b ( words4 ,well1 ,sirs1 y'll meet ) difficulties2 b ?is may enc\rage y1 y see ,god owns 8 s]vants own him1 & despise :at 8 enemies c d aga9/ !m8,god has kept my judgm5t = ! be/ piece ( "w ,i ev] _h4 ,o :at ( ,god d ,i see6 ,i nev] saw any ?+ l x4 ,! beg9n+ & end ( religion are wond]ful sweet40 ,"o said1 8,god's deal+ ) y has be5 v uncommon40 ,he answ]$1 8,v uncommon inde$1 if y knew all t ,i "k4 ,b !re9 is ! excell5cy ( 8 p[] se51 9 t he make? ! weak /rong40 ,a :ile aft] he said to ^? ab\t him1 8,o ?is is ! mo/ hon\rable pulpit ,i 0 ev] 96 ,i am prea*+ ! same ,*ri/1 ! same hol9ess1 ! same happ9ess ,i did be=e4 ,i h mu* satisfaction 9 t4 ,i am n a%am$ ( ! gospel ,i h prea*$4 ,i 0 nev] a%am$ ( x 9 all my days2 & ,i am n a%am$ ( x at ! la/4 ,"h am ,i1 a weak man1 9 ! h& ( ! k+ ( t]rors1 rejoic+ 9 hope ( ! glory t %all be reveal$2 & t by ! dea? & resurrection ( a despis$ ,*ri/4 ,:5 ! beg9n+ ( ?is tr\ble 0 ^u me1 ,i aim'd 7z my /r5g? w\ld all[7 at t1 %ew me "s tok5 = good2 & inde$ ,i ?9k1 ,god ha? %ew$ me a tok5 = good40 ,!n p]ceiv+ 8 spirits fa9t1 he said1 8,come ,"l ,jesus1 receive my _s1 flutt]+ )9 my brea/ l a bird to be out ( a sn>e4,:5 %all ,i he> him say1 ,! w9t] is pa/2 arise my love & come away8 ,come & take me by ! h&1 ,t ,i /umble n 9 ! d>k valley ( dea?60 ,!n he desir$ a m9i/] to pray2 & aft] pray] said1 8,"l1 ,i wait = ?y salvation4 ,i wait z ! wat*man wat*e? = ! morn+4 ,i am we>y ) delays6 ,o :y are 8 *>iot :eels s long a com+6 ,i am sick ( love4 ,i am fa9t ) delay60 ,!n he said1 8draw ! curta9s ab\t me1 & let me see :at he has a m9d to d ) me30 ,& aft] a :ile1 8,:5ce is ?is to me8 ,!re is a /range *ange )9 ?is half h\r4 ,ah1 ,i am l to be %ipwreck$ to heal? aga98 ,o :at sort ( provid5ce is ?is8 ,i 0 9 hopes to h be5 at my j\rney's end3 & n[ ,i am deta9$ by a cross w9d4 ,i desire to be pati5t "u 8 h&2 b he mu/ op5 my he>t to glorify him4 ,o pray = me2 pray = me2 t none :o fe> him may be a%am$ on my acc\nt40 ,to ! apo!c>y he said1 8,i ?\ght to h be5 away1 b ,i am come back aga94 ,i 0 glad to be gone2 yet ,i am n we>i$4 ,he has n all[$ a frett+ ?\ght4 ,my pa9 is great2 b ,i am enabl$ to be> x4 ,o ,i am a monum5t ( ! p[] ( ,god4 ,my great desire has be5 ^! _m ye>s1 to suff] = ! tru? ( our religion4 ,& n[ ,god has giv5 me ! greate/ hon\r to be a liv+ witness to x4 ,i am a monum5t t we h n foll[$ cunn+ly devis$ fables4 ,i %all be at heav5 %ortly1 by ! ^w ( my te/imony1 & ! blood ( ! ,lamb40 ,!n to a citiz5 he said1 8,!re are b few names 9 ?is place1 t set _! faces heav5w>d4 ,b be y enc\rag$ to g on3 y h be5 a k9d neighb\r2 ! ,"l bless y & y\r family4 ,!y t are plant$ 9 ! h\se ( ! ,"l1 %all fl\ri% 9 ! c\rts ( our ,god4 ,"h is an evid5ce ( x4 ,la/ w9t] ,i ?\ght ,i 0 go+ to be ca/ out z a )]$ bran*1 & n[ ! dead /ock t 0 cut has budd$ aga91 & gr[n a tall c$> 9 ,lebanon40 ,!n he said to ! m9i/]s1 8,i desire to he> ! ^w read1 ! ^w prea*$4 ,_m times1 :5 ,i ?\ght on ! wor?ies ( old1 ,i said ,i 0 born out ( due "t3 b n[ ,i ?9k ,i am born 9 due "t2 = ,i %all see ,jesus6 ,jesus t deliv]s f ! wra? to come4 ,i %all see ,elijah & ,moses1 ! great old te/am5t prophets4 ,i %all see ! two great m$iators1 ! type & ! antitype4 ,! ?ree disciples got a glori\s sight ( ,*ri/ 9 8 transfiguration1 to confirm _! fai? aga9/ ! objections ( ! unbeliev+4 ,0 he despis$ z a m]e man & 8 godhead dis[n$8 ,lo1 "h he appe>s 9 div9e maje/y & glory6 ,did !y say he 0 aga9/ ! law8 ,lo1 "h ,moses1 by :om ! law 0 giv51 ador+ him4 ,did !y say1 he 0 n ! ,messiah =etold by ! prophets8 ,lo1 "h ,elijah ! mo/ zeal\s ( !m1 own+ & hon\r+ him4 ,0 he reproa*$ z a deceiv] ( ! p8 ,lo1 ! voice f heav5 sai?1 ,?is is my belov$ ,son1 9 :om ,i am well pleas$3 he> ye him4 ,yet ?is sight 0 ( %ort cont9uance4 ,b 9 heav5 we %all h an abid+ sight4 ,we %all !n behold 8 glory2 & we %all be l unto him3 = we %all see him z he is4 8,o6 ,i am full ( matt]6 ,i "k n :]e to beg9 or end4 ,! ,_s ( ! ,"l1 ha? be5 mighty ) me6 ,o1 ! book ( ,god is a /range book6 ',tis writt5 )9 & )\t4 ,i nev] /udi$ x to ! half ( :at ,i %\ld3 b n[ ,god ha? giv5 me mu* ( x toge!r4,nev] 0 ,i m uneasy 9 my life3 & yet ,i 0 nev] m easy4 ,all my bones are ready to break2 my h& is a burd5 to me2 & yet all is easy60 99,!n to 8 wife1 he said1 8,o my sweet bird1 are y !re8 ,i am no m y\rs4 ,i am ! ,"l's4 ,i rememb] on ! day ,i took y by ! h&1 ,i ?\ght on p>t+ ) y4 ,b ,i knew n h[ to get my he>t (f ( y aga93 yet n[ ,i h got x done4 ,w y n give me to ! ,"l1 my de>80 ,!n see+ h] v sad1 he said1 8,my de>1 d n weep3 y %\ld r rejoice3 rejoice ) me1 & let u exalt 8 "n toge!r4 ,i %all be 9 ! same family ) y3 b y mu/ /ay a little beh9d & take c>e ( ,god's *ildr540 99,:5 wak5$ out ( sleep1 he said1 8,i am n[ h& 9 h&1 grappl+ ) my la/ enemy3 & ,i f9d1 he is a conqu]able enemy2 ,yea1 ,i am m ?an conqu]or40 ,"o said1 8,a /range *ampion inde$60 ,he answ]$1 8,i8 ,n ,i1 b ! grace ( ,god t is 9 me4 ,by ! grace ( ,god ,i am :at ,i am2 & ! ,god ( peace ha? bruis$ ,satan "u my feet4 ,i h (t5 wond]$ h[ ! m>tyrs c\ld clap _! h&s 9 ! fire3 ,i d n wond] at x n[4 ,i c\ld clap my h&s1 ?\gh y held burn+ c&les to !m1 & ?9k x no h>d%ip1 ?\gh ! flames 7 go+ ab\t !m4 ,& yet1 7 ! ,"l )drawn1 ,i %\ld cry & n be able to be> x1 if y b t\*$ my foot40 ,sunday1 ,septemb] #ba4 ,ab\t ?ree 9 ! morn+ he said1 8,& is x ! sabba? !n8 ,?is is ! be/ sabba? ,i ev] _h4 ,on a sabba? night my ,george w5t to 8 re/3 ,i be/[$ him on ,god3 bless$ be 8 "n2 & he made me cont5t4 ,i w\ld h giv5 him all my *ildr5 t way2 & ,i hope x %all be s3 bless$ be 8 "n60 99,aft] a little pause he said1 8,%all ,i =get ,sion8 ,!n let my "r-h& =get h] cunn+4 ,o1 to h ,god return+ to 8 *ur*1 & 8 "w go+ on 9 ! _w6 ,if e drop ( my blood1 e atom ( my body1 e hair ( my head1 7 m51 !y %\ld all g to ! fire1 to h ?is go+ on40 99,aft] t he said1 8,i c\ld n believe t ,i c\ld h borne1 & borne *e>fully ?is rod s long4 ,?is is a miracle1 pa9 )\t pa94 ,bless$ be ,god t ev] ,i 0 born4 ,i h a fa!r1 a "m1 & t5 bre?r5 & si/]s 9 heav51 & ,i %all be ! elev5?4 ,o bless$ be ! day t ev] ,i 0 born6 ,o if ,i 7 :]e he is6 ,& yet = all ?is1 ,god's )draw+ f me1 w\ld make me z weak z wat]4 ,all :i* ,i enjoy1 ?\gh x be miracle ^u miracle1 w\ld n make me /& )\t new supplies f ,god4 ,! ?+ ,i rejoice 9 is1 t ,god is altoge!r full1 & t 9 ,jesus ,*ri/ !re is all ! fulness ( ! ,godhead40 ,!n to 8 wife he said1 8,o wait ^u him2 = he is a good ,god to all t s]ve him4 ,he nev] takes any ?+ f !m1 b he gives !m z good or bett] back aga94 ,my de>1 we h _h _m a sweet day toge!r3 we mu/ "p = a :ile2 b we %all meet aga91 & %all h "o "w1 ! praises ( ,god1 & ! praises ( ! ,lamb60 99,!n to "s pres5t he said1 8,d y ?9k t he w come & receive ! prison] ( hope to day8 ,:e!r he d x or no1 he is holy & righte\s2 yet1 ,i confess1 ,i long = x4 ,i d n tire4 ,b ! hirel+ longs = 8 wages4 ,if 9 8 adorable wisdom he try me fur!r1 holy & rev]5d is 8 "n2 he is n want+ to me4 ,i desire only grace to be fai?ful unto dea?1 until ,i come to ! l& ( praises1 to ?y gates1 ,o ,j]usalem1 to give ?anks to ! "n ( ! ,god ( ,jacob40 ,!n a m9i/] ask+1 if he %\ld pray8 ,he answ]$1 8,yea1 yea1 pray = me40 ,& aft] pray] he said1 8,?is night my sk9 has burn$1 my he>t has pant$1 my body has be5 bruis$1 & !re is a sore ^u me1 t is rack+ my _s3 & yet ,i _c say1 b ! ,"l /ill holds me 9 heal? 9 ! mid/ ( all4 ,if he %\ld please to cont9ue me ye>s 9 ?is case1 ,i h no reason to compla940 ,"o said1 8,no hypocrite is able1 9 su* a condition1 to c\nt]feit su* language40 ,he answ]$1 8',tis z great a wond] to me1 z to any ab\t me4 ,bro!r1 ,i "k n :e!r ,i may desire y to beg ( ! ,"l1 ) respect to ?is poor body to %ort5 my trial1 if x be 8 w3 ! hirel+ longs = 8 wages2 b ,i h reason to d x ) submission4 8,i long = a deliv]ance f ! body4 ,b if ,god l5g!n my tr\ble1 !n :y n6 ,righte\s is 8 "n4 ,i "k n :at alt]ation may be4 ,i confess1 ,i am l a bird on ! w+3 & ,i w\ld fa9 be at ,immanuel's l&1 :]e ! tree ( life is4 998,well1 all ?is is enc\ragem5t to y1 to acqua9t y\rselves ) ,god4 ,all ^! s(t cloa?s are l sackclo? to me2 & yet ,i h p]fect ease ( _s4 ,my brea/ & my /oma* are drawn all toge!r1 z x 7 ) cords2 & yet ! m]cy ( ,god keeps me compos$4 ,:at is ?is8 ,i c\ld sc>ce h believ$1 ev5 ?o' ,i _h be5 told1 t ,i c\ld h kept 9 ! "r ex]cise ( my judgm5t1 "u ?is rack+ pa94 ,:atev] come ( x1 ?is is a demon/ration t !re is a reality 9 religion2 & ,i rejoice 9 ?is1 t ,god ha? hon\r$ a s9ful worm1 s z to be a demon/ration ( 8 grace4 ,my de> fri5ds1 :ile ,i live1 ,i mu/ prea* ! gospel4 ,he has giv5 me a:ile yet "h1 :i* ought to be reckon$ preci\s1 & s long z x la/s1 my "w is /ill to comm5d him4 ,! ^w speaks1 provid5ce speaks 9 me2 despise n ! gospel "u ?is new discov]y4 ,i am a s9n]2 %ame belongs to me3 wor?y is ! ,lamb to receive glory40 ,to two m9i/]s :o /ay$ ) him :ile ! re/ w5t to *ur*1 he said1 8,if my head w\ld be> x1 ,i w\ld fa9 he> s++4 ,i d n f9d any *ange1 & ,god has 9 "s measure tak5 away my incl9ation to limit him1 z to ! h\r40 ,he !n jo9$ 9 s++ ! latt] "p ( ! #hd? psalm2 & aft] s++ said1 998,i always _h a mi/un$ voice1 & :i* is worse1 a mi/un$ he>t3 b :5 ,i jo9 ! temple s]vice above1 !re %all n be "o /r+ ( ! affections out ( tune40 ,to "s t came f *ur* he said1 8,y h be5 9 ! assembly ( ,god's p1 :]e9 communion ) ! ,fa!r & ,son may be atta9$4 ,^! enjoym5ts are "s ( ! mo/ valuable to be _h "h1 & ! way to ! re/ :i* rema9e? = ! p ( ,god4 ,o h[ amiable are ?y tab]nacles ev5 "h6 ,b h[ mu* m s above1 :]e !re is ! eagle's eye1 t c see ! glori\s light1 ev5 ! light ( ! ,"l60 99,!n to ! m9i/]s he said1 8,:5 ?is tr\ble began1 ,i expect$ no smile f ,god4 ,i ?\ght if ,i c\ld /eal away1 creep+ ) t]rors1 to be plung$ into et]nity ) a p]adv5ture1 x 0 fair4 ,b he ha? tak5 me out ( ! miry clay1 & set my feet ^u a rock4 ,i am no?+1 less ?an no?+1 a vile s9n]2 b m]cy does all40 ,9 ! night he caus$ ! songs ( degrees to be read1 & said1 8,^! psalms are s call$ 7say "s7 because !y 7 sung on ! /eps ( ! /airs t l$ up to ! temple4 ,& :at fitt] to be read to a poor s9n]1 t aims at climb+ up ! hill ( ,god1 :]e ! great temple ( ,god is80 99#h4 ,monday1 ,septemb] #bb4 ,at half an h\r pa/ two1 he ask$ :at h\r x 01 & said1 8,e>ly 9 ! morn+ my fri5ds %all be acqua9t$2 = ,i expect ?is c\gh w ha/5 my deliv]ance4 ,well1 well2 ,i %all get out ( ! d>k cl\d2 )9 a little ,i %all be 9 ,abraham's bosom2 yes1 9 81 :o c>ries ! lambs 9 8 bosom3 & ,i am sure ( goodness & m]cy to foll[ me4 ,o h[ good is he to a poor worm6 ,let u exalt 8 "n toge!r4 ,x is ! con/ant employ ( all above1 day & night4 ,!y see & s+2 !y h a cle> vision4 ,o :5 %all ,i see 8 face1 :o is fair] ?an ! sons ( m56 ,yea1 :o is bright] ?an ! sun 9 8 /r5g?60 ,to a m9i/] he said1 8,c\ld ,i h believ$ 7b ,i am an unbeliev]7 t ,i c\ld h _h ?is pleasure 9 ?is condition8 ,once or twice ,satan 0 assault+ my fai?4 ,i wak$ 9 a sort ( c>nal frame1 & ,i ?\ght ,i _h lo/ my jewel2 b n[ he w /& by me to ! end4 99,:at %all ,i r5d] to him8 ,my bones are riv+ ?r\gh my sk92 & yet all my bones are prais+ him40 ,aft] /ruggl+ ) a defluction 9 8 ?roat1 he said3 8,?is is a mess5g] f ,god to ha/5 me home4 ,! o!r day ,i w\ld h gone away )\t ?is glori\s evid5ce ( ! grace ( ,god4 ,b ?is is m = my advantage1 t ,i am ?us tri$ & com=t$4 ,i said1 ,:y are 8 *>iot :eels s long a com+8 ,b ,i w n say s any m4 ,yet a little :ile1 & he t %all come1 w come1 & w n t>ry40 ,!n he said1 8,if ,i %\ld say t ,i w\ld speak no m 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 x w\ld be l a fire )9 my brea/40 ,& "s look+ at him z 9 amaze1 he said1 8,:y look ye /$fa/ly on me1 z ?\gh by my might or p[] ,i 7 s8 ,n ,i1 b ! grace ( ,god 9 me4 ',tis ! ,_s ( ,god t supports me40 ,to 8 wife he said1 8,be n disc\rag$1 my de>1 at ! unavoidable consequ5ces ( nature4 ',tis an evid5ce t !re is b a v little "t m1 & dea? w be swall[$ up 9 victory3 ! body w be %ak5 9 pieces1 & yet1 bless$ be ,god1 my head is z compos$ z x 0 be=e my sickness40 99,!n to "s pres5t he said1 8,my moi/ure is mu* exhau/$ ?is night1 b ! dew lies all night on my bran*es1 ! dew t waits n = man1 nor t>ries = ! sons ( m54 ,o :at _c grace d8 ,h[ h ,i =m]ly rep9$ at ! hundr$? "p ( ?is tr\ble6 ,o /udy ! p[] ( religion6 ',tis ! p[] ( religion1 & n ! "n1 w give ! com=t ,i f9d4 ,i h peace 9 ! mid/ ( pa94 ,&1 ,o h[ mu* ( t ,i h _h = a "t pa/6 ,my peace has be5 l a riv]1 n a discompos$ ?\ght4 ,!re h be5 "s little sugge/ions1 :5 my enemies jo9$ 9 a league toge!r1 & made _! great assault ^u me4 ,i _h !n "o assault1 & ,i 0 l to fall4 ,b s9ce ! ,"l rebuk$ !m1 !re is n a discompos$ ?\ght1 b all is calm40 ,to a g5tlewoman he said1 8,y are come to see y\r old1 dy+ fri5d2 a wond] inde$1 b a wond] ( m]cy4 ,i am prea*+ /ill1 & ,i w\ld be s cont5t to d1 till ^! fle% & bones 7 wa/$ to no?+4 99,! ,god ( glory appe>$ to me1 & ! fir/ sight ,i _h ( him 0 su*1 z won my he>t to him1 s z x 0 nev] loos$4 ,_m w&r+s ,i h _h1 b ,i 0 nev] myself1 till ,i w5t back to my c5t] aga940 ,he !n rattl$ a little 9 8 ?roat1 & said1 8,?is may be irksome to y2 b e mess5g] ( dea? is pleasant to me1 & ,i am only deta9$ "h1 t ,i may trumpet =? 8 praise a little long]40 8v]0 replac$ ) 8nev]0 99,ab\t noon he said1 8,i 0 j ?9k+ on ! pleasant spot ( e>? ,i %all get to lie 91 beside ,mr4 ,ru!r=d1 ,mr4 ,=re/]1 & ,mr4 ,&]son4 ,i %all come 9 z ! little "o among !m1 & ,i %all get my pleasant ,george 9 my h&2 & ,o1 we %all be a knot ( bonny du/40 ,!n he said1 8,x w n be all my sore bones1 t w make me we>y yet 7z long z ,god gives me judgm5t to conceive1 & a tongue to speak7 to prea* 8 gospel40 ,!n ) ! utmo/ w>m? he broke out1 8,/range1 ?is body is s9k+ into corruption1 & yet my intellectuals are s lively1 t ,i _c say !re is ! lea/ alt]ation1 ! lea/ decay ( judgm5t or memory4 ,su* vigor\s act+s ( my _s t[>d ,god1 & ?+s t are n se56 ,b n unto u2 n unto u2 :i* ,i mu/ h /ill on my he>t1 le/ curs$ self /eal ! glory f ,god60 ,"s "t aft] he said1 8,good is ! w ( ! ,"l4 ,e "o ( ^! ?r[s is good2 & ,i mu/ n want "o ( !m3 ,i mu/ n fly f my po/1 b /& z a c5t9el1 = ?is is my p>ticul> "w4 ,?is w\ld be h>d "w )\t ,*ri/3 b 'tis easy ) him :o is ! capta9 ( my salvation40 ,he m5tion$ ! pa9 9 8 head1 b said1 8,9 a battle !re mu/ be blood & du/4 ,e battle ( ! w>rior is ) confus$ noise1 & g>m5ts roll$ 9 blood4 ',tis meet ,i %\ld be s h>d put to x1 t ,i may "k to :om ,i owe my /r5g?4 ,o t ,i 7 at ! ?rone above1 t my glimm]+ light 7 tak5 away1 t ?is un/eady fai? might t]m9ate 9 vision60 ,!n he said1 8,if ,i am able1 ?\gh ,i _c speak1 ,i'll %ew y a sign ( triumph1 :5 ,i am ne> glory60 ,to 8 wife he said1 8,my de> be n disc\rag$1 ?\gh ,i %\ld g away 9 a fa9t+ fit4 ,! ,"l's way is ! be/ way4 ,i am compos$4 ,?\gh my body be vex$1 my _s is unt\*$40 99,"o said1 8,n[ y are putt+ y\r seal to t tru?1 t godl9ess is great ga94 ,& ,i hope y are enc\rag+ y\rself 9 ! ,"l40 ,z a sign ( x1 he lift$ up 8 h&s & clapp$ !m4 ,& 9 a little "t1 ab\t sev5 9 ! morn+1 he w5t to ! l&1 :]e ! we>y are at re/4 ,an ,,extract ( ! ,,life ( ,monsieur ,,de ,,r5ty1 ,a late ,,nobleman ( ,,france4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,( 8 bir?1 m>riage1 & g5]al way ( life4 #a4 ,,mr4 ,de ,r5ty desc5d$ f "o ( ! mo/ noble h\ses ( ,artois4 ,he 0 ! only son ( ,*>les ,de ,r5ty1 & 0 born 9 ! ye> #afaa1 at ,b5y 9 ,l[ ,norm&y4 ,!re he 0 br\ght up till six or sev5 ye>s ( age1 & !n by 8 "m c>ri$ to ,p>is1 :]e he liv$ ) h] ab\t two ye>s1 till he 0 put into ! college ( ,nav>re2 :5ce he 0 s5t to ,ca51 till at sev5te5 he 0 remov$ to an academy1 or s*ool ( g5teel ex]cises at ,p>is4 ,he 0 soon accompli%$ 9 all ! ex]cises !re taught3 ,b :at !n pleas$ him mo/ 01 ! ma!matics4 ,= ^! he slight$ all sorts ( div]sions1 till he und]/ood !m p]fectly1 & compos$ "s books !re94 #b4 ,ab\t ?is "t a /ation] :om he us$1 pres5t$ him ) ,kempis ( ! imitation ( ,*ri/2 & "s "t aft] press$ him to read x1 :i* he _h no soon] done1 ?an he felt new ?\ghts & affections1 & resolv$ s]i\sly to pursue ! "o ?+ ne$ful1 ! work+ out 8 salvation4 ,& ev] aft] he s e/eem$ t book1 t he always c>ri$ x ab\t him1 & made use ( x on all occasions4 #c4 ,at ! age ( tw5ty-two1 he m>ri$ ,elizabe? de ,balsac1 daught] ( ! ,c\nt ( ,graville1 by :om he _h five *ildr51 f\r ( :i* 7two sons & two daught]s7 surviv$ him4 #d4 ,hav+ liv$ to ! age ( tw5ty-sev5 ye>s1 x pleas$ ,god to t\* 8 he>t m closely2 & ?is "t he m>k$ z ! beg9n+ ( 8 entire *ange1 & p]fect consecration to ,god's s]vice3 9 ord] :]eto1 he 0 well conv9c$ ( ! necessity ( a good guide2 & ,god provid$ him "o1 su* z 8 ne$ requir$1 a p]son ( deep le>n+1 ( great piety1 & well-exp]i5c$ 9 ! directions ( s\ls1 :o _h ! conduct ( him = twelve ye>s4 ,by 8 advice he )drew altoge!r f c\rt1 he r5\nc$ all visits ( pure complim5t1 & all unnecess>y employm5ts to give himself up to ^? :i* might glorify ,god1 & help 8 neighb\r4 #e4 ,e day be=e d9n]1 & aga9 9 ! ev5+1 he made an exact se>* into 8 smalle/ faults4 ,he communicat$ ?ree or f\r times a week1 hav+ ev] an incr$ible e/eem ( ! holy ,eu*>i/1 bless+ & prais+ ,god = its in/itution1 & excit+ all m5 to d ! same4 ,he 0 us$ to say1 8,t ! great design ( ,god 9 ! inc>nation1 life1 dea?1 & resurrection ( 8 ,son1 0 to convey to u 8 ,_s1 to be unto u life et]nal4 ,& 9 ord] to cause u to die to ourselves1 & live !reby1 he gave him to u 9 ?is holy sacram5t1 & ) him all ! bless+s ( grace1 to dispose u = ^? ( glory40 #f4 ,"o day 9 a week he visit$ ! poor sick p ( ! great hospital de ,dieu3 ano!r ^? ( 8 own p>i%2 a ?ird ! prison]s2 & 9 ! re/ he us$ to meet at assemblies ( piety4 ,he assembl$ 8 own family e ev5+ to pray]s1 & disc\rs$ to !m e ,saturday on ! gospel = ! next day4 ,& ( 8 *ildr5 he took m special c>e1 to engrave deeply 9 !m ! fe> ( ,god1 & to conv9ce !m t ! cu/oms & maxims ( ! _w 7 utt]ly irreconcilable to ! gospel ( ,*ri/4 #g4 ,! ord] he kept 9 8 j\rnies 0 ?is3 9 ! morn+1 be=e sett+ out1 !y jo9$ 9 pray]2 aft] sett+ out1 ! fir/ ?+ done 01 ! say+ ! it9]>ium2 next 01 ! s++ ! litanies ( our ,"l2 !n foll[$ "s m$itation1 & aft] t a "p ( ! div9e (fice4 ,?is be+ done he ent]ta9$ ! company ) "s good disc\rse4 ,behold+ ! spaci\s ext5t ( ! c\ntry1 he w\ld speak ( ! imm5sity ( ,god4 ,^u ! pres5t+ ( any beautiful object1 he w\ld disc\rse ( ! beauty ( ,god1 & 9 s lively a mann] z to t\* ! v he>t4 ,approa*+ ne> ! place :]e !y 7 to d9e1 he began 8 self-exam9ation3 & be+ come ?i!r1 z soon z out ( 8 coa*1 he w5t to ! *ur*1 & next1 if !re 7 any 9 ! place1 to ! hospital4 ,be+ at 8 inn1 ! fir/ ?+ he did 9 8 *amb] 01 to ca/ himself on 8 knees1 & to pray ) great affection = all p]sons t ent]$ t place1 & = p>don ( all disord]s t _h be5 !re committ$4 ,if he saw any ?+ (f5sive writt5 on ! walls or *imneys1 he defac$ x1 & 9 ! place wrote some?+ ( in/ruction4 ,& always be=e 8 dep>ture he endeav\r$ to give "s good advice to ! s]vants ( ! h\se1 or to su* poor z he c\ld meet )1 t s he might n pass ?r\gh any place )\t do+ "s good !re4 ,aft] d9n]1 :5 9 8 coa* aga91 he took a little "t = recollection1 !n sung ! ,vesp]s2 :i* done1 he wi%$ ! company to use "s useful conv]sation4 ,ab\t f\r !y sung ! ev5+ psalms2 aft]w>d he appli$ himself to m5tal pray]2 & be+ come to 8 inn1 8 ex]cises 7 ! same ) ^? ( ! morn+4 8sign+0 replac$ ) 8s++0 99#h4 ,a full] acc\nt ( 8 g5]al way ( life he writ to 8 second director1 z foll[s3 8,i h delay$ "s days aft] ! comm& ,i _h1 to set d[n ! employ+ ( my "t1 = ! bett] discov]+ ( "s ?+s !re92 b ,i f9d no?+ !re ( /rict ord] because all consi/s 9 foll[+ ! ord] ( ,god1 :i* causes 9 a mann] cont9ually diff]5t ?+s1 ?\gh all ^u ! same f\ndation4 8,= my outw>d behavi\r1 ,i usually rise at five 7t is1 aft] "p ( ! night sp5t 9 pray]47 ,at my awak5+1 ,i consid] myself z no?+1 be=e ! maje/y ( ,god4 ,i unite me to 8 ,son & ,_s4 ,be+ ris51 ,i ca/ myself d[n1 & adore ! bless+ ( ! inc>nation1 :i* gives u access to ,god2 & deliv] up myself to ! ,holy ,jesus1 to be ent]$ into 8 ,_s4 8,be+ cloa!d1 ,i g into ! *apel1 :]e ,i ca/ myself d[n1 & adore ,god1 abas+ me be=e him1 & mak+ me ! mo/ little1 mo/ nak$1 mo/ empty ( myself t ,i c2 & ,i hold me !re by fai?1 hav+ rec\rse to 8 ,son & to 8 ,holy ,_s1 t :atsoev] is 8 pleasure may be done by me4 8,betwe5 six & sev5 ,i read two *apt]s ( ! ,new ,te/am5t b>e-head$ & on my knees4 ,i !n give place to my affairs2 b if !re be no bus9ess urg5t1 ,i pro/rate myself be=e ,god till ,i g to *ur*4 ,!re ,i /ay till half an h\r pa/ elev51 except :5 we d9e "s poor p1 !n ,i return at elev54 ,be=e d9n] ,i exam9e myself1 & use "s pray]s = ! ,*ur*1 & = ! propagation ( ! fai?4 ,i d9e at twelve1 & 9 ! :ile h some?+ read4 ,half an h\r pa/ twelve ,i sp5d an h\r ) !m t h bus9ess ) me4 ,!n ,i g out :i!r ! ord] ( ,god %all direct4 ,"s days are assign$ = c]ta9 ex]cises2 o!rs are n4 ,b be x z x w1 ,i endeav\r to sp5d ab\t ev5+ an h\r 9 devotion4 ,ab\t sev51 aft] ,i h us$ "s pray]s1 we g to supp]4 ,aft] supp] ,i in/ruct my *ildr54 ,at n9e are family pray]s1 aft] :i* ,i m$itate till t52 & !n go+ to my *amb]1 & recomm5d+ myself to my ,god1 aft] "s %ort pray]s1 ,i endeav\r to repose4 998,z to ! ord] ( my int]ior1 ,i h n 7z ,i may say7 any2 = s9ce ,i left my ,brevi>y1 all my =ms h left me2 & n[ in/ead ( s]v+ me z means to g to ,god1 !y w\ld only be h9drances4 ,i be> 9 me ord9>ily an exp]im5tal v]ity1 & a pl5itude ( ! pres5ce ( ! mo/ ,holy ,tr9ity1 :i* elevates me to a simple view ( ,god2 & ) t ,i d all t 8 provid5ce enjo9s me1 n reg>d+ any ?+ = _! greatness or littl5ess1 b only ! ord] ( ,god1 & ! glory !y may r5d] him4 8pes5ce0 replac$ ) 8pres5ce0 8,= ! ?+s done 9 community1 ,i (t5 _c re/ !re3 ,i p]=m inde$ ! ext]ior = ! keep+ ( ord]2 b foll[ always my int]ior1 because :5 a man ha? ,god1 !re is no ne$ to se>* = him else:]e4 ,& :5 he holds u 9 "o mann]1 x is n = u to take hold ( him 9 ano!r1 & ! s\l kn[s well :at unites x & :at multiplies & directs x4 8,= ! int]ior !re=e1 ,i foll[ 8 attractive2 & = ! ext]ior ,i see ! div9e w1 :i* ,i foll[1 ) ! disc]nm5t ( 8 _s1 9 all simplicity2 & s ,i possess by 8 grace1 9 all ?+s1 sil5ce ( _s1 a pr(\nd rev]5ce1 & solid peace4 ,i communicate almo/ e day1 p]ceiv+ myself /rongly drawn !reto4 99,i cont9ually give up myself to ,god ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/1 wor%ipp+ him 9 _s & 9 tru?1 lov+ him ) all my he>t1 ) all my s\l1 ) all my m9d1 & ) all my /r5g?1 & see+ 9 all ?+s ! conduct ( ,god1 & adorn+ & foll[+ x4 ,& ?is only abid+ 9 my s\l1 all ?+s else are defac$ & blott$ out4 ,i h no?+ ( s5sible 9 me1 unless n[ & !n "s transitory t\*es3 ,b1 if any d>e to say x1 :5 ,i s\nd my w1 ,i f9d x s quick & flam+1 t x w\ld dev\r me1 if ! same ,"l :o animates x 7?\gh unwor?y7 did n re/ra9 x4 ,i ent] into a heat & into fire1 & ev5 to my f+]s ends1 feel t all )9 me speaks = its ,god1 & /ret*e? itself =? 9 l5g? & bread? 9 8 imm5sity1 t x may !re dissolve & !re lose itself to glorify him40 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,8 ,humility4 #a4 ,,/4 ,au/9 well obs]ves1 ,t pov]ty ( _s is no?+ else b humility3 ,! truly humble kn[+ !mselves to be no?+ ( !mselves b s9 & mis]y1 to h no?+1 z be+ at be/ b manifold receiv]s ( ! grace ( ,god2 to be able to d no?+1 hav+ no p[] ( !mselves ev5 to ?9k a good ?\ght1 & to des]ve no?+ b %ame & contempt1 b mis]y & puni%m5t4 ,& !y are will+1 yea desir\s1 t all o!rs %\ld ?9k ( !m z !y d ( !mselves4 #b4 ,m4 de ,r5ty be+ well conv9c'd t ?is is ! f\ndation ( all virtue1 & t x 0 ! prop] virtue ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 :om he _h propos$ to himself z 8 patt]n 9 all ?+s1 embrac$ x ) 8 :ole affection1 gave himself up to x ) all 8 =ce1 & practis$ x 9 its utmo/ latitude4 #c4 ,he _h s l[ an op9ion ( himself1 z x w\ld be a difficult ?+ to express4 ,! greatness ( ,god1 :5ev] he consid]$ x1 humbl$ him to an immeasurable dep?2 8,a mote1 said he1 9 ! sun is v little1 b ,i am f> less 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 ,i am no?+40 ,b correct+ himself1 he add$1 8,alas ,i am too mu*2 ,i am a s9n]1 an ana!ma ?r\gh my crimes40 ,to ! same p]son he wrote1 8,me?9ks ,i break myself 9 pieces be=e ,god3 t ,i am spok5 (1 t ,i h s mu* z a "n is a /range ?+40 ,i h se5 him v (t5 7says "o t knew him well7 humble himself1 z x 7 to ! c5tre ( ! e>?1 :ile he spoke to me ( ,god2 say+1 8,x 0 n = su* a "o z him to speak ( him1 b t he ought r to conta9 himself 9 sil5ce40 99#d4 ,?is exce$+ l[ op9ion he _h ( himself1 made him m ?an once say1 ) te>s 9 8 eyes1 8,t he 0 mu* a/oni%$ at ! goodness ( m5 9 suff]+ ( him1 & t he c\ld n en\gh wond]1 :y e :]e !y ?rew n dirt at him1 & t all ! creatures did n b&y aga9/ him40 ,& he 0 p]suad$1 x 0 mu* boldness 9 him to speak1 & t m5 %ew$ great pati5ce 9 endur+ 8 conv]sation4 #e4 ,nor 0 !re any ?+ :i* did n s]ve to increase 8 humility4 ,he abas$ himself mu* 9 ! consid]ation ( ! weakness ( our nature1 ( :i* z he expre/ x1 8,x is important t a man h exp]i5ce1 t he nei!r =get himself1 nor ! place he ought to hold3 t no fle% may glory 9 8 sight2 t be+ abas$ & r5d]$ z a ?+ t is n at all1 ,jesus ,*ri/ may be 9 him1 ! life ( grace & hol9ess1 wait+ = ! "t ( our r$emption40 #f4 ,b mu* 0 he humbl$ by ! consid]ation ( 8 pa/ s9s2 ,9 "o ( 8 lett]s to 8 director1 he writes ?us1 8my faults are z "o great heap1 :i* ,i feel 9 myself1 ob/ruct+ ! light f ,god4 ,i am /rangely remiss & ungrateful1 ,i f9d mu* 9 myself to conf\nd & humble me40 ,9 ano!r1 8,i am s5sible ( my fault1 9 m5tion+1 t ,i _h plac$ a s]vant 9 su* a family4 ,i _h a motion )9 me1 n to h spok5 x2 & yet x escap$ f me3 ( :i* ,i am exce$+ s5sible4 ,i %\ld h be5 m fai?ful to ! ,_s ( ,god40 ,& 9 ano!r1 8,i am z bl9d 7or r m7 9 see+ my faults z 9 o!r ?+s4 ,only 9 g5]al1 ,i h a deep s5se ( my mis]y3 ,& ,i c say1 ,i am n ignorant ( my unwor?9ess1 & ! deplorable corruption s9 ha? wr\ght 9 me4 ,b lately ,i m5tion$ ! faults ( a c]ta9 p]son to ano!r t knew ( !m be=e1 to make him und]/& t he 0 9 a bett] condition4 ,b my consci5ce reproa*$ me1 t ,i might h done ?is )\t3 & ,i confess ,i m$dl$ too mu* 9 t affair4 ,9 sum1 ,i am a /raggl] f ,god1 & a gr\nd ov] run ) ?orns40 #g4 ,he drew yet fur!r matt] ( humiliation f 8 rank & condition1 & ! secul> advantages :i* x gave him4 ,he n only despis$1 b 0 a%am$ ( !m2 (t5 groan+ be=e ! maje/y ( ,god1 & say+1 8,he 0 9 ! l[e/ condition accord+ to ! ,_s ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & t he _h great confusion to see himself 9 t e/ate40 ,h5ce x 01 t he solemnly r5\nc$ 8 nobility1 & gave x into ! h&s ( our ,"l2 t he did n love ev5 = any "o to call him ,monsieur1 & t he :olly decl9$ ! title ( ,m>quiss 7:i* 0 prop] to 8 h\se7 & suff]$ only t ( ,b>on ( ,r5ty4 #h4 ,ev5 ! gifts & graces ( ,god made him m humble2 ?us produc+ _! true effect1 :i* is1 to abase & elevate ! s\l bo? toge!r1 to raise x to ,god1 & abase x to itself4 ,9 :atev] good 0 done by him he assum$ no %>e at all1 b ref]r$ all to ,god ! true s\rce4 ,& s 9 ! managem5t ( all ^? tal5ts1 he _h always 8 h&s clean1 )\t t\*+ :at app]ta9e? to ,god4 ,nor w\ld he !re=e t any "o %\ld consid] him 9 :at he said or did1 b reg>d ,god alone !re94 ,& to "o :o mu* desir$ a visit f him1 he wrote ?us1 8,i _c be> ! acc\nt y make ( my visits & society4 ,let u look mu* ^u ,god2 let u b9d ourselves /rictly to ,jesus ,*ri/1 t we may le>n ( him fully to r5\nce ourselves4 ,o1 my ,god1 :5 w x be t we %all eye ourselves no m1 :5 we %all speak no m ( ourselves1 & :5 all vanity %all be de/roy$60 #i4 ,he likewise e/eem$ himself mo/ unwor?y ( any ( ! grace or fav\rs ( ,god4 ,( :i* he says to a fri5d1 8,! gifts ( ,god are sometimes s great1 t !y put u beyond ourselves4 ,z among m5 if a poor man receives a gift f a pr9ce1 accord+ to ! gr&eur ( 8 own p[]1 he is utt]ly ov]:elm$1 & c f9d no words to express 8 ackn[l$gm5t3 ,s ,god gives bless+s t g beyond our expectations or capacities1 & :i* make u see h[ unwor?y we are1 )\t d>+ to lift up our eyes2 s do? _! brightness dazzle1 & _! greatness a/oni% u40 #aj4 ,! same op9ion :i* he _h ( himself he 0 will+1 yea desir\s t o!rs likewise %\ld h ( him4 8,if ,i 7 to wi% any ?+1 said he1 x %\ld be1 to be mu* humbl$1 & to be treat$ z an (f-sc\r+ by m540 ,& h5ce he receiv$ contempt1 :5 x came1 n ) pati5ce only1 b ) joy3 ( :i* he gave an evid5t pro( 9 8 fir/ j\rney to ,dijon1 :5ce he ?us wrote to 8 director2 8,! reports "h spread conc]n+ me are1 t ,i h no?+ b artifice & %ews ( devotion2 & t ,i kept private1 out ( fe> by com+ abroad ( discov]+ :at ,i 04 ,mo/1 ,i f9d1 ev5 ( ^? f :om ,i expect$ q ! contr>y1 h sollicit$ aga9/ me4 ,& h]eby ,god ha? %ewn me _m fav\rs4 ,i h be5 ) !m1 & receiv$ humiliation ) great joy4 ,i h be5 v w>y ( op5+ myself 9 any ?+ t might recomm5d me to !m4 ,i h only done 9 my bus9ess :at tru? requir$2 & = any ?+ else1 ,i h made x matt] ( confusion1 z ,i ought4 ,i %all be "h1 ,i believe z "o excommunicate1 z ! scape-goat ( ! old law1 driv5 out into ! wild]ness = my enorm\s s9s4 ,i desire only to love ,god1 & condemn myself40 #aa4 ,nor 0 x only 9 8 words b 9 8 actions also1 t ! humility ( 8 he>t appe>$4 ,s9ce 8 entire d$ication ( himself to ,god1 he w\ld n suff] a cu%ion to be c>ri$ to *ur* = him2 b to be !re hid & disreg>d$1 he (t5 m+l$ himself among me*anics & mean p]sons4 ,he kept himself always z mu* z he c\ld at ! l[] end ( ! *ur*2 & frequ5tly1 if ! door 0 %ut1 said 8 pray]s on ! outside ( x1 t he 8might n1 z he said1 put any to ! tr\ble ( op5+ x to a poor s9n]40 99#ab4 ,dur+ ! w> at ,p>is1 he w5t himself to buy bread = ! poor1 & c>ri$ ?r\gh ! /reets z mu* z 8 /r5g? w\ld p]mit4 ,at ! same "t (f]+ to take into 8 c>e ! *ur* plate ( a mona/]y1 he press$ !m to let him c>ry x to 8 lodg+1 7:i* 0 two miles !nce7 & on foot z he 01 a v l>ge & weighty piece4 ,& be+ desir$ t :5 he did !m ! fav\r to visit !m aga91 he w\ld come 9 8 coa*1 by reason ( ! di/ance2 he answ]$1 8he did n love to make use ( a coa*1 he mu/ endeav\r to make himself 9 e ?+ v little40 ,he w5t !re=e ?i!r on foot1 & return$ at five or six1 9 ! %orte/ days1 sometimes 9 ?aw+ wea!r4 ,& be+ told ( ! pa9s he took1 he repli$1 8,our ,"l took pa9s 9 a f> o!r mann]40 #ac4 ,:5 he 0 assi/+ ) 8 own h& 9 ! repair+ ( "o ( 8 h\ses1 he ?us express$ himself3 8,bless$ = ev] be our great ,god1 by ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,i believe ,i ought to lab\r 9 ! l[e/ employm5ts2 & ! "t ,i sp5d !re91 ,i c\nt v de>1 reg>d+ x z ord]$ by ,god4 ,:at makes me ! m to "k x is 8 ord]1 is ?is2 t f "t to "t ,i feel m ( retribution f him 9 "o in/ant1 ?an ! pati5ce & humiliation ( a s9n] c\ld m]it 9 all 8 life4 ,he s op5s himself to me1 t ,i am q mollifi$1 & melt$ into te>s4 ,my eyes are s full ( !m1 t (t5 ,i h mu* ado to keep !m 91 pi]c$ z ,i am ) love1 ) rev]5ce1 & ) ackn[l$gm5t ( 8 goodness manife/$ by 8 enlightn+ pres5ce1 & ( 8 inexplicable conduct4 ,i see1 we are n1 by a _s ( pride1 "u pret5ce ( ! glory ( ,god1 to disp5se ) ourselves f lab\r+ 9 ?+s mean & pa9ful4 ,x 0 a "w v gross & mean = ,jesus ,*ri/ to conv]se ) m51 :o _h m ( rud5ess ?an ^! /ones ,i deal )4 ,o t ,i may obta9 a "p 9 8 ob$i5ce1 & submission to ! ord]s ( ,god 8 ,fa!r40 #ad4 ,be+ "o day to g to a p]son ( great quality1 9 a bus9ess t mu* conc]n$ ! glory ( ,god1 he w\ld n use 8 coa*1 ?o' he 0 to trav]se 9 a mann] all ,p>is1 & x p\r$ d[n ra94 ,"o mov$1 t at lea/ 8 footman might c>ry a cloak1 :i* he might take :5 he came ?i!r4 ,b he yield$ n4 ,only he cons5t$ to ?r[ ! cloak ov] him3 & 9 ! nobleman's h\se he laid aside ! wet cloak1 & appe>$ 9 ! o!r ord9>y "o ( 8 own4 #ae4 ,behold ano!r effect ( 8 humility1 ( :i* he writ to 8 director1 ,decemb] #bf1 #afdf4 8,! o!r day my ,"l ,*ancellor's lady s5t me a packet ( lett]s1 9 :i* 7 "s f ! k+1 :]e9 ,i 0 made c\nsellor ( /ate4 ,i s5t h] ^w1 t ,i receiv$ :at _h ! m>k ( ! k+ ) all respect4 ,b ,i mo/ humbly begg$ %e w\ld be pleas$ to take x 9 good "p1 if ,i did n accept ^? lett]s1 b desir$ t ! bus9ess might sleep )\t noise4 ,my disposition t[>ds affairs ( ?is nature is1 to h no?+ at all to d ) !m4 ,if !y come ^u me p]=ce1 )\t my seek+1 our ,"l w give me /r5g? to be> !m40 #af4 ,to ! same p]son on ano!r occasion1 he wrote z foll[s3 8,walk+ "o day ?r\gh ! /reets ( ,p>is1 9 a mean dress1 ,i deeply reflect$ on t ( ! apo/le1 ,we are become z ! fil? & (f-sc[]+ ( ! _w4 ,i consid]$ h[ mu* neatness & new ?+s1 ev5 9 ! mo/ trifl+ in/ances1 d hurt 7if "o take n good he$7 ! simplicity & l[l9ess ( a ,*ri/ian _s4 ,& ,i saw x 0 a great temptation = any1 to ?9k to pres]ve 8 outw>d gr&eur1 9 hopes !reby to h m weight & au?ority = ! s]vice ( ,god4 ,?is is a pret5ce1 inde$1 t ! infirmity ( mo/ ,*ri/ians makes use ( 9 ! beg9n+3 b exp]i5ce draws !m at la/ to ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o 0 made ! l[e/ ( m540 #ag4 ,a fur!r pro( ( 8 humility1 0 8 c>riage to ! director4 ,he did no?+ t conc]n$ himself1 )\t 8 conduct3 to him he propos$ :atev] he design$1 ei!r by speak+ or writ+1 cle>ly & punctually1 desir+ 88 advice1 8 pleasure1 & bless+ ^u x20 & t ) ! utmo/ respect & submission3 & )\t reply or disput+1 he simply & exactly foll[$ 8 ord]4 ,8 director hav+ writt5 to him1 he answ]$ 9 ^! t]ms2 8,i besee* y to believe1 t al?\gh ,i am mo/ imp]fect & a great s9n]1 yet if y d me ! fav\r to s5d me a ^w ( :at y "k to be necess>y = me1 ,i hope ) ,god's help to pr(it !reby4 ,i pant n aft] any ?+ b to f9d ,god & ,jesus ,*ri/1 9 simplicity & tru?4 ,i pret5d to no?+ 9 ?is _w b ?is2 & beside ?is ,i desire no?+40 #ah4 ,! la/ effect ( 8 humility we %all m5tion1 0 8 extreme contempt ( ! _w4 ,he despis$ all :i* x c\ld give or promise2 all its goods1 pleasures1 hon\rs1 dignities2 c\nt$ all its allurem5ts z dung & dross1 trampl$ "u foot all its glories4 ,he beheld = ?is end our ,"l = 8 patt]n1 :o1 f 8 v fir/ entrance into x1 made an op5 pr(ession ( an absolute contempt ( x1 8,because he 0 n ( ! _w40 99#ai4 ,to animate a lady ) ! same _s1 he wrote to h] ?us3 8,i wond] h[ a ?+ s little z man1 drawn out ( no?+ 9 8 orig9al1 infect$ ) 8 fir/ p>5t's s91 & ! addition ( 8 own3 :5 he is rais$ to s high a degree ( hon\r1 z to be "o ) ,*ri/ ! ,son ( ,god2 c cont9ue to e/eem ! _w1 or make any acc\nt ( its vanities6 ,%all ! ?+s ( ! e>? wa/e ! little "t we h to secure ! treasures ( heav52 ?+s t w all pass away l a dream3 z we see our fa!rs are gone already1 & !re is no m remembrance ( !m3 _! joys & griefs1 _! pleasures & pa9s1 are !y n all vani%$ away8 ,& are we n sure !y 7 out ( _! s5ses1 if !y consid]$ any ?+ b ,god 9 _! ways8 ,! same w befall u3 ,e ?+ else w pass away1 & ,god alone w abide40 99,! same lady1 9 ano!r lett]1 he enc\rages ?us3 8,c\rage1 all is well6 ,we mu/ die to ! _w1 & se>* out ! h9drances x br+s to our p]fection4 ,we mu/ live 9 ! _w z n liv+ !re2 possess x1 z n possess+ x4 ,let u drive out ( our m9ds ! affection to our f9e h\ses2 let u ru9 ! delights ( our g>d5s2 let u burn our groves2 let u bani% ^! va9 images :i* we h ( our *ildr52 approv+ 9 !m :at we condemn 9 ourselves1 ! %[ & glitt] ( ! _w40 99,i "k !re is a diff]5ce ( conditions2 b all ought to reject ^? intailm5ts on noble blood1 7z m5 acc\nt !m7 ^? pr9ciples ( aspir+ to ! highe/1 & ( be>+ no?+4 ,let u take f !m ?is vanity ( m9d1 ?is /atel9ess ( behavi\r4 ,let u arm !m aga9/ ! p]nici\s examples ( ^? gr&ees 9 /ory1 ^: puni%m5ts are z em95t 9 hell1 z _! presumption 0 ^u e>?4 998,my design is n1 t y %\ld demoli% y\r walk1 or let y\r g>d5s run into a wild]ness4 ,! ru9s ,i speak ( mu/ be made 9 our own m9ds1 n execut$ on ?+s ins5sible4 ,:5 ,i say1 we mu/ set all on fire1 my ?\ghts 71 to foll[ t admirable _s ( ! apo/le1 :o w\ld t we h pov]ty amid/ our ri*es1 & dive/m5t 9 ! mid/ ( our possessions3 he means1 t our _s be ?or\ghly purifi$ & sep>at$ f all creatures2 because a ,*ri/ian does himself great wrong1 if he ent]ta9s 9 8 he>t any o!r incl9ations ?an ^? ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o saw all ! _w )\t de/roy+ x1 b )al )\t cleav+ to x40 #bj4 ,x is to br+ u to ?is _s1 t ,god p]mits u to meet s _m pa9s & tr\bles 9 ! _w2 z :5 a man sets ?orns 9 a way1 to make m5 take ano!r4 8,god has 8 ends1 says ,m4 ,de ,r5ty1 9 all ^! contr>ieties1 viz4 t ^? :o are 81 %\ld be yet m 81 & despise m & m all t is 9 ! _w4 ,by ^! ! confusion & vanity ( ! _w are made kn[n to !m t are n ( x2 :o be+ 9 ! _s ( dea?1 wait = no?+ m !re b dea?2 br++ =?1 9 ! mean :ile1 ! fruits ( life et]nal40 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,8 self-d5ial & mortification4 #a4 ,,z x is absolutely necess>y = e soldi] ( ,*ri/1 :o w\ld n s fight z "o t beate? ! air1 to keep ! body "u1 & br+ x into subjection2 ,m4 de ,r5ty vigor\sly appli$ himself to ?is "w4 ,he made b "o meal a day = sev]al ye>s2 till he 0 injo9$ to take m n\ri%m5t1 to be ! bett] able to und]go ! great lab\rs he und]took = 8 neighb\r4 ,he nev]!less eat b little1 & always ( ! wor/4 ,a p]son :o obs]v$ him at d9n] "o day1 took notice1 all he eat 0 "s pe>s only1 & t ) s great s]i\sness & recollection1 t x 0 easy to disc]n 8 m9d 0 on ,god1 & n ^u 8 meat4 99#b4 ,:5 "o ( 8 fri5ds ent]ta9$ him "o day at ,ca51 he 0 mu* griev$ 7z he aft]w>ds decl>$7 t ,*ri/ians %\ld be fea/]s2 add+1 ,x 0 a torm5t to be :]e !re 0 s mu* sup]fluity4 ,h]eon 8 fri5ds took no m ?\ght ab\t 8 diet1 kn[+ 8 be/ ent]ta9m5t 0 ! meane/ f>e1 & t !y c\ld n oblige him m1 ?an by leav+ him to 8 lib]ty4 ,& (t5 at ,p>is1 :5 he 0 s f> f home1 t he c\ld n return to d9n]1 he w\ld /ep into a bak]'s %op1 & aft] a piece ( bread & a draught ( wat]1 *e>fully g on ) 8 bus9ess4 #c4 ,nor did he d5y himself only ) reg>d to 8 ta/e1 b to all 8 o!r s5ses also4 ,:5 he w5t into ! c\ntry1 & came 9 ! ev5+ to 8 inn1 aft] hav+ dismiss$ 8 s]vants1 he ei!r pass$ ! night 9 a *air1 or lay d[n 9 8 cloa?s & boots1 :i* 0 8 cu/om till dea?4 ,& :5 at ,ami5s1 a lady1 9 hon\r ( 8 virtue & quality1 _h prep>$ him a ri* b$ 9 a /ately *amb]1 he made no use ( x1 b laid him d[n ^u a b5*1 & !re slept till morn+4 #d4 ,be+ come to ,pontois 9 w9t]1 & lodg+ at ! ,c>melite ,nuns1 he told !m n to make a fire1 or prep>e a b$4 ,he !n w5t to visit ! prison]s 7:i* he nev] =got7 & at 8 return1 ab\t n9e 9 ! ev5+1 f9d+ !m go+ to pray]s1 )\t tak+ any ?+ to eat1 he w5t into ! *ur* ) !m1 :]e he cont9u$ till elev54 ,& inde$ at e "t & e place1 on e occasion1 ev5 9 ! slighte/ & meane/ ?+s1 he kept a wat*ful eye ov] himself1 t he might 9 no in/ance fulfil ! desires ( ! fle%1 b daily inure himself to endure h>d%ip4 8,po9tois0 replac$ ) 8,pontois0 99#e4 ,a %ort description ( 8 mortification1 or deadness to ! _w1 we h 9 8 own words4 8,s9ce ! "t ,i gave up my lib]ty to ,god1 ,i 0 giv5 to und]/&1 to :at a /ate ! s\l is br\ght1 :i* is capable ( union ) him4 ,i saw my s\l r$uc$ into a small po9t1 contract$ & %runk up to no?+4 ,at ! same "t ,i beheld myself z encompass$ ) :atsoev] ! _w loves1 & z x 71 a h& remov+ all ?is f> f me1 & plung+ x into ! ocean4 ,fir/1 ,i saw remov$ all outw>d ?+s1 k+doms1 great (fices1 /ately build+s1 ri* & elegant furniture1 gold & silv]1 recreations1 pleasures3 all :i* h9d] ! s\l 9 h] way to ,god1 ( :i* !re=e x is 8 pleasure %e be dive/$1 t %e may arrive at t dea? :i* w br+ h] into ! possession ( real life4 ,secondly1 all inw>d ?+s1 :i* are ( a m delicate & preci\s nature1 z le>n+1 reason1 /r5g? ( memory & und]/&+2 to :i* likewise we are 9 a mann] dead1 if we are alive to ,god4 ,& ,i p]ceiv$ t we mu/ come l little infants1 simple & innoc5t1 sep>at$ n only f evil1 b ev5 f our ord9>y mann] ( do+ :at is good4 ,we are to und]take :at ?+s ! div9e provid5ce pres5ts to u1 by mak+ our way by ,god to !m1 r ?an by !m to ,god4 ,a truly mortifi$ s\l sees no?+ b ,god3 n s mu* 7if ,i may s speak7 z ! ?+s %e does1 ( :i* no?+ /ays 9 h]1 nei!r *oice1 nor joy1 nor sorr[1 = _! greatness1 or = _! littl5ess1 = good or bad success2 b only ! good pleasure & ord] ( ,god1 :i* rule? 9 all ?+s1 & :i* 9 all ?+s cont5ts ! s\l t adh]es to him1 & n to ! vicissitude ( affairs1 & is !re=e con/antly ev51 always ! same 9 ! mid/ ( all *anges40 #f4 ,z to ! p>ticul>s ( ,m4 de ,r5ty's mortification1 9 ! fir/ place1 he 0 dead to ri*es4 8,i ackn[l$ge be=e ,god 7says he 9 a lett] to 8 director7 8 great m]cy to me ?ro' 8 ,son1 9 free+ me f ! ?+s ( ?is _w1 & my con/ant ?\ghts are1 t if 8 ord] did n oblige me to d o!rwise1 ,i w\ld quit all t ,i h40 ,& to ano!r1 8,all t c be imag9$ 9 ?is _w is ( small conc]n1 ?\gh x 7 ! los+ ( all our goods4 ,?is poor ant-hill is n wor? a s]i\s ?\ght4 ,_h we b a little fai? & a little love1 h[ happy %\ld we e/eem ourselves 9 giv+ away all1 to att5d on ,god only40 99#g4 ,?us entirely1 ev5 9 ! possession ( ri*es1 0 8 he>t engag$ f !m4 ,& :5 ! bett] "p ( 8 e/ate 0 9 dang] ( be+ lo/1 he said1 )\t ! lea/ emotion1 8,s9ce ,god ha? committ$ ?is e/ate to me1 ,i w d :at %all behove me to pres]ve x1 & !n 'tis all "o to me :at foll[s40 ,yea1 he (t5 express$ a k9d ( holy envy t[>d ! poor1 & a high e/eem ( _! condition1 bo? z mo/ advantage\s = ,*ri/ian p]fection1 & because ,*ri/ himself _h liv$ & di$ !re94 8,i av[ to y1 7says he to a fri5d7 ! m ( ri*es come to me1 ! m d ,i discov] ( ! malignity affix$ to !m4 ,my he>t is /rongly incl9$ to foll[ him :o 0 ! mo/ poor & depress$ among all 8 foll[]s4 ,b t ,i "k ,i may n put myself into t e/ate1 ,i %\ld pant aft] x v mu*4 ,:at ,i inf] f h5ce is ?is1 t n kn[+ ! c\nsels ( ,god1 ,i _c tell h[ he w dispose ( me = ! future3 b ,i (f] myself up to :atsoev] %all please him1 kn[+ t ) him ,i c d all ?+s40 #h4 ,?is inw>d temp] appe>$ 9 a ?\s& outw>d effects4 ,he p>t$ ) sev]al books1 because ri*ly b\nd3 us$ no gloves 9 season2 wore no cloa?s1 b pla9 & close made2 c>ri$ no silv] ab\t him1 b = works ( *>ity4 ,i h se5 him at fir/ 9 8 coa*1 ) a page & footman2 aft]w>d1 9 8 coa* ) a footman1 )\t a page2 !n ) 8 footman only1 )\t 8 coa*2 & 9 f9e1 )\t ei!r4 #i4 ,& z he 0 dead to ri*es1 & to all ! ?+s ( ! _w1 s he 01 secondly1 to ! p]sons 9 x3 hav+ no affection = any1 b :at 0 gr\nd$ ^u1 & subord9ate to ! love ( ,god4 ,?is 0 p>ticul>ly obs]vable1 ) reg>d to ^? :o 7 engag$ to him by "o ( ! t5d]e/ ties1 :o dep5d$ ^u him1 & us$ 8 c\nsel = ! conduct ( _! s\ls4 99,to "o ( ^! he wrote1 8,i _c he> )\t tr\ble ! great matt] y make ( my conv]sation3 let u brea! aft] ,god1 & le>n f ,jesus ,*ri/ an entire r5unciation ( our own affections40 ,& 9 ano!r lett] ?us3 8,jesus ,*ri/ is ev] ! same1 & 8 grace is cont9ually advanc+2 & z long z ,i am 81 ,i %all be y\rs = 8 sake4 ,he is n wont to "p s\ls by ! sep>ation ( bodies3 s9ce 8 cu/om is1 only to take away :at might be a h9drance to ! p]fect life ( ! _s40 99#aj4 ,to a fri5d :o _h lo/ 8 director he wrote ?us3 8,8 remove w\ld d\btless be a great loss to y & all ! c\ntry1 if ! provid5ce ( ,god did n r sanctify & e/abli%1 ?an de/roy2 b by remov+ ^! visible supports1 he (t5 settles u m firmly 9 our adh]5ce to him ?r\gh ,*ri/1 :]e we f9d all p[]1 & :o is s ne> t he is ev5 9 ! mid/ ( u2 & :5 our dep5d5ce ^u creatures is cut (f by 8 provid5ce1 we exp]im5tally f9d1 t we are n left de/itute1 b t supply is made ei!r by ! _s :i* dwelle? 9 u1 or by 8 m9i/]s t rema92 :o ! few] !y are1 ! m is ! grace we receive by !m multipli$4 ,nor %\ld we be fur!r engag$ to ^? :o assi/ u 9 our spiritual conduct1 ?an z to ,god's in/rum5ts1 ^: help x is 8 w we %\ld make use (1 b no long] ?an he please?2 & :5 x is 8 w to take !m f u by dea?1 or o!rwise1 we ought n to lose our c\rage1 b ) submission & gratitude resign all to him1 :o w aga9 provide = u z seeme? him be/40 #aa4 ,he 01 ,?irdly1 dead to all desire ( e k9d4 ,be+ "o day ask$1 8,h[ he c\ld be s quiet 9 su* circum/ances10 he answ]$1 8,t ?r\gh ,god's m]cy1 he 0 indiff]5t to all ?+s1 & t he no long] felt ei!r fe> or desire ( any ?+40 ,& writ+ to 8 director1 he says1 8,= ! future ,i c\ld wi%1 if !re be any ?+ left = me to wi%1 t ,i _h no?+ left me b my ,god3 ,?is is ! ri* treasure ( ! he>t1 ! sure repl5i%m5t ( ! s\l40 #ab4 ,he _h no eag] desire ev5 ( s5sible consolations2 t\*+ :i*1 he express$ himself ?us1 8,dryness1 & o!r tr\bles ( _s1 are to be borne ) ^u any t]ms1 & we mu/ give up ourselves z =lorn creatures1 ?r[+ ourselves :olly ^u ,god40 ,& aga91 8h[ev] dry y\r s\l may be1 :5 y endeav\r to place x 9 a /ate ( rev]5ce & affiance 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 p]sev]e /ill z mu* z y c1 & keep y\rself %ut up 9 ! cab9et ( y\r he>t2 suff] n ! noise ( all ^? tempe/s )\t2 be /ill1 & m9d !m n4 ,!y h all _! use2 !y s]ve to purge ! s\l1 & dispose x = ! op]ation ( ,god ^u x4 ,let !n di/ractions1 & all sorts ( imag9ations assault y1 z x please? ,god1 b let !m n h9d] y f t holy ex]cise2 div]t+ 7z y are able7 y\r m9d f !m1 cont9ue y\r sacrifice1 ) full assurance y %all n wait long1 be=e y\r ,"l come40 ,& :5 he f\nd himself = a "t1 9 su* a condition1 he w\ld cry out al\d1 8,i am ?9e1 ,o ,god1 9 spite ( all ^! ?+s1 & s ,i w cont9ue )\t res]ve = ev]40 ,& sometimes he w\ld write ) 8 f+] ^u ! gr\nd1 8,i am cont5t ) e ?+ t proce$s f ! w ( ,god3 ,i ask no?+ else b :at he appo9ts = me2 ,i w nev] tr\ble myself to be fre$ f dryness2 my resolution is1 to bless ,god at all times40 99#ac4 ,la/ly1 ,he 0 dead to 8 own w1 :i* he _h p]fectly resign$1 9 con=mity to ! w ( ,god4 8,f> be x f me1 sai? he 9 "o ( 8 lett]s1 to act 9 ?is by my own _s2 ,i w\ld h x :olly annihilat$1 t x might "k no o!r language b no?+1 & cont9ually no?+2 to foll[ 9 all ! foot/eps ( ! div9e w1 accord+ to its measure & mann]40 ,9 ano!r ?us3 8,my ,savi\r ha? graci\sly br\ght me to su* a /ate ( indiff]5cy = e ?+ t ,i c\ld be well cont5t$1 all my life1 to be fix'd to my b$1 a p>alytic1 n able to /ir1 )\t mak+ any reflection on any s]vice ,i might r5d] to my neighb\r1 or t ,i c\ld r5d] him no m3 all ?+s accord+ to ! w ( ,god1 be+ equal to me40 ,& 9 a ?ird3 8,( late ,i h be5 busi$ 9 su* employm5ts z 7 suffici5t to h ov]:elm$ s weak a _s z m9e1 _h x n be5 absolutely resign$ to ! w ( ,god4 ,x is on him alone ,i re/1 hav+ r5\nc$ myself4 ,i adore ! decrees ( 8 sacr$ w1 :o holde? all ?+s 9 8 own h&s1 to keep u subject unto him by 8 ju/ice1 & to sanctify u by 8 love3 happy1 if we h ! he>ts ( *ildr51 ! _s ( ,*ri/ ,jesus1 to sigh aft] him1 & cry cont9ually1 ,abba ,fa!r40 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,8 pati5ce4 #a4 ,,que/ionless ! humble man is pati5t1 because he kn[s he des]ves f> m ?an he suff]s3 ,& :oev] w se>* into ! true cause ( 8 own impati5ce1 w f9d x to be no o!r ?an pride4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,m4 de ,r5ty be+ mo/ humble1 0 by consequ5ce mo/ pati5t4 #b4 ,p]sons :o _h liv$ a v long "t ) him1 & c>efully /udi$ all 8 actions1 nev] he>d him compla9 = any ?+ :atev]2 nei!r = sickness1 or loss1 or any o!r occasion2 b !y always obs]v$ 9 him a con/ancy immovable1 cont9ually lift+ up 8 he>t to ,god1 & (f]+ all to him1 )\t o!rwise dwell+ on :at 0 griev\s2 be+ glad t ! "w ( ,god w5t on1 & receiv+ all 9 ! _s ( sacrifice4 #c4 ,9 8 second j\rney to ,dijon1 ) 8 lady & ! ,c\ntess ( ,*atres1 he 0 seiz$ ) a viol5t rheumatism1 :i* put him into pa9 all ov] 8 body3 & :5 he 0 oblig$ to take 8 b$1 he w5t ?i!r q /oop+1 support$ by a /aff1 & by a p]son t l$ him4 99,b not)/&+ ! extremity ( ! pa91 he made no compla9t1 nor utt]$ "o ^w4 ,! ladies see+ him fir/ q pale & wan1 & 9 a mom5t all on fire1 told him1 8,surely he 0 v ill20 ,he answ]$ only by a disc\rse on ! pa9 endur$ by ,jesus ,*ri/1 & ! fav\r x 0 = a s\l to suff] = ,god's w2 b 9 t]ms s full ( sweetness1 & ) s mu* ( love & zeal1 t ! company 7 affect$ ) great devotion 9 he>+ him40 99#d4 ,:5 he 0 aga9 ask$1 :e!r he 0 n 9 mu* pa91 he at l5g? answ]$ pla9ly1 8,my pa9s are great ev5 to swoon+2 b ?\gh ,i feel _! extremity1 yet ?r\gh ! grace ( ,god1 ,i yield n up myself to !m1 b to him40 ,he said f>!r1 t be+ l$ into 8 *apel ( ,citry1 & set d[n ^u a b5* by reason ( 8 illness1 ! b5* broke )\t any visible cause1 & t he believ$ ! evil _s _h brok5 x1 9 ord] to provoke him to impati5ce1 mak+ him fall unt[>dly2 8,b by ! m]cy ( ,god1 said he1 ?\gh ! pa9 t surpris$ me 0 %>p1 ,i 0 no m mov$ ?an y see me n[40 #e4 ,nor 0 x only 9 sickness1 b 9 all occurr5ces ( life1 he c>efully practis$ ?is virtue2 s t :atsoev] befel him1 ?\gh x %ock$ 8 :ole nature1 8 body1 _s1 judgm5t1 w1 incl9ation1 desires1 designs1 & ^? ( ! be/ sort1 he possess$ 8 s\l 9 pati5ce & tranquillity1 receiv+ all )\t any alt]ation1 )\t be+ ei!r exalt$ or deject$ by x4 99#f4 8,pray+ to ,god1 says he 9 "o ( 8 pray]s1 be=e ! holy sacram5t1 a poor man came to me to beg an alms4 ,9 ?is in/ant x 0 giv5 me to und]/&1 t if we 7 well enlight5$1 we %\ld nev] imag9e ourselves to be h9dr$1 by any p]son or ?+3 because we %\ld 9 all ?+s reg>d ! ord] ( ,god1 conduct+ all to our advantage2 we %\ld see t bo? inw>d & outw>d di/ractions are to be receiv$ ) ?is same _s2 & t ! uneas9ess ^! little accid5ts give u1 spr+s purely f our want ( mortification4 8,we ought inde$1 z f> z we c1 to %un ! occasions4 ,b :5 !y come1 we mu/ look ^u !m z ord]$ by ,god1 & receive & be> !m ) all sweetness1 humility & rev]5ce3 &1 ?\gh !y int]rupt u1 ! ord] ( ,god is n int]rupt$ 9 u4 ,& ?is inde$ is ! great secret ( ! spiritual life2 ?is is p>adise ^u e>?4 8,9 tru?1 no?+ tr\bles u b ?ro' our own fault3 all ! vexation :i* we inw>dly feel1 or outw>dly %ew1 :5 any "o crosses or h9d]s u f do+ any ?+1 fl[s f ! disord] ( our too mu* engag$ _s4 ,= remov+ ( :i*1 & ! keep+ our he>ts 9 peace we mu/ m>k ?is well3 :oev] h9d]s u f do+ "o good "w1 !reby gives u ! means ( practis+ ano!r4 99,a man suppose1 int]rupts y\r read+ & pray]4 ,b he gives y an occasion ( ex]cis+ pati5ce1 :i* at ?is "t w please ,god1 & p]fect y1 m ?an all ^? employm5ts4 ,9 !m !re 0 some?+ ( y\r own w2 b 9 ?is y :olly r5\nce y\rself4 ,& ! fulness ( ,god is n1 b 9 ! empt9ess ( ! creature40 #g4 ,"o great s\rce ( ,m4 de ,r5ty's pati5ce1 0 ! high e/eem he _h ( suff]+s1 :i* sometimes made him ready to cry out ) t holy woman1 8,ei!r to die or suff]06 8,i see says he1 t 9 a mann]1 e ?+ is unpr(itable 9 ?is life b to suff]4 ,e pleasure is a too ha/y seizure ( t recomp5ce1 :i* is n due to crim9als1 :o soj\rn 9 ?is _w only to be purg$4 ,"s pleasures inde$ may be sometimes necess>y1 9 reg>d ( our weakness1 b ev5 !y are apt to h9d] ! s\l f atta9+ s high a degree ( p]fection40 #h4 8,?\gh ,i d>e n *use or br+ suff]+s ^u myself1 7says he 9 a lett] to 8 director7 yet hav+ always be=e my eyes h[ little ,i r5d] to ,god = 8 fav\rs1 ,i am inflam$ to suff] ) our ,"l4 ,9 e o!r ?+ we are receiv]s f ,god4 ,b 9 ?is ?\gh we receive ! grace to suff]1 yet ! suff]+ is t :i* we c 9 a mann] give to ,god1 & :i* is ! be/ gage & pro( ( our love40 ,b he v wisely adds1 8al?\gh ,i "k ?is1 yet ,i cease n to "k :at ,i am3 & amid/ all my incl9ations & desires1 ,i d>e n to beg to suff] ! lea/ ?+3 ,or1 if ,i happ5 to d s ,i revoke x aft]w>ds1 z hav+ done fooli%ly4 ,i h too mu* exp]i5ce ( my weakness4 ,i give myself only to my ,god = e ?+ he pleases4 ,by 8 ord] ,i w all3 ,) him ,i c d all3 & t :i* is ord]$ by him is always accompani$ by grace40 #i4 ,! same _s he e>ne/ly recomm5d$ to all :o 7 /udi\s ( ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,to "o ( :om he said1 8,x is a great fav\r to suff]2 t is if y suff] 9 ! _s ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,b !re are v few t d s2 v few t ) a p]fect resignm5t to :at ,god orda9s conc]n+ !m2 v few )\t "s inquietude1 & dwell+ 9 _! ?\ghts ^u _! pressures3 few t give all ev5ts to ! conduct ( ,god1 to employ !mselves entirely 9 8 praise1 & to give way by _! acquiesc5ce & submission1 = him to ex]cise all 8 rights & p[] ev] !m40 99#aj4 ,"o t 0 9 great pa9 he enc\rag$ ?us3 8,_m are call$ ,*ri/ians1 b few h a ,*ri/ian _s4 ,_m look up to heav5 9 _! pray]s1 b 9 _! lives !y are *ildr5 ( nature1 look+ only ^u ! e>?4 ,if !y d lift up _! eyes to heav51 x is only to compla92 to pray ,god to condesc5d to _! desires1 n to %ew _! acceptance ( 84 ,or p]haps !y w give "s small ?+s to ,god2 b n ^? on :i* !y h fix$ _! affection4 ,if he sep>ates !m f !m1 x is a dismembr+ :i* he mu/ make1 & to :i* !y _c cons5t4 ,z ?\gh ! life ( ,*ri/ians 7 n a life ( sacrifice1 a cont9ual imitation ( a crucifi$ ,savi\r4 998,god1 :o kn[s our wret*$ness1 takes f u = our good1 ! cause ( our evil1 a p>5t1 a *ild1 a husb&1 t he may by ano!r evil1 affliction1 draw u to himself1 & make u see t all ^! ties to :atsoev] x be t sep>ates u f him1 are s _m ob/acles to our real happ9ess3 & su* ob/acles t we %all "o day own 9 ! face ( all ! creation1 ! greate/ m]cy he ev] did u 01 to free u f !m4 ,b we mu/ bew>e n to c\nt ?is m]cy a *ance or mis=tune2 = ?is w\ld be to turn ! rem$y into poison4 8,let u ent] into ! holy disposition :i* 0 9 ,*ri/1 to suff] will+ly = ! glory ( ,god1 & our salvation4 ,is x n /range1 t ?\gh ! way he pa/ ?r\gh to glory1 0 ignom9y1 pa91 & ! cross1 yet !y :o call !mselves 8 foll[]s1 desire & expect ano!r way = !mselves to walk 98 ,x is a %ame = a ,*ri/ian to pass 8 days m at ease ?an ,jesus ,*ri/ did4 ,let u !re=e g aft] him1 & suff] ) him4 ,bless$ be sickness1 ! loss ( hon\r1 ri*es1 goods ( ! ne>e/ ?+s1 & ! sep>ation f all creatures1 :i* hold u b[$ t[>ds ! e>?1 if x set u /raight1 & make u lift up our eyes to heav51 & ent] into ! designs ( ,god ov] u4 ,bless$ be ! plague1 ! w> ! fam9e1 all ! sc\rges ( ,god1 :i* produce 9 u ^! effects ( grace & salvation6 8,*ir/ian0 replac$ ) 8,*ri/ian0 #aa4 ,! greate/ ex]cise ( pati5ce he ev] _h 0 t :i* 0 giv5 to him by 8 "m4 ,%e _h claim$ a l>ge %>e ( :at 8 fa!r _h bequea!d to him2 :o ) great submission & respect gave h] all t he believ$ h] due1 ov] & above4 ,b %e dem&$ /ill m4 ,be+ advis$ by c\ncil1 x c\ld n be giv5 )\t wrong to 8 *ildr52 he ref]r$ ! :ole bus9ess to arbitrators1 & agre$ t 8 "m %\ld *oose !m all4 ,! day be+ come = _! giv+ s5t5ce1 8 "m 0 9 "o *amb] ( ! h\se1 & h] son1 ) 8 lady & a fri5d 9 an o!r1 :]e 8 employm5t 01 to pray to ,god = su* an issue z might be = 8 glory1 & ! procurem5t ( peace4 ,:5 ! aw>d 0 br\ght1 al?\gh x 0 n advantage\s to him1 & !re 0 a l>ge p5alty on :omsoev] did n /& to x1 he he>d x ) p]fect calmness1 & imm$iately sign$ x )\t objection or dispute4 8ref]$0 replac$ ) 8ref]r$0 #ab4 ,believ+ n[ t 8 "m 0 fully satisfi$1 he 0 no soon] return$ home1 ?an he caus$ ,te ,deum to be sung1 beg9n+ x himself1 9 ?anksgiv+ = ?is happy conclusion4 ,b ,god1 to ref9e & purify him ! m1 p]mitt$ ! cross to cont9ue ^u him4 ,= 8 "m1 n satisfi$ yet1 f\nd means to appeal f ! aw>d1 )\t incurr+ ! p5alty4 ,h] son did all t 0 possible = him to alt] h] design2 aft] e>ne/ pray]1 & extraord9>y fa/+1 he w5t to h]1 ca/ himself on 8 knees be=e h]1 & ) ! utmo/ rev]5ce1 humility & submission1 begg$ ( h] ov] & ov]1 ) abundance ( te>s1 8t %e w\ld please to take him & 8 family to h]self2 & aft] t %e might dispose z %e pleas$ ( all ! goods 8 fa!r _h left him40 ,b nei!r w\ld %e cons5t to ?is1 b p]si/$ 9 h] resolution1 ( su+ him at ! p>liam5t ( ,dijon4 ,?is he might h prev5t$1 & nev] /irr$ out ( ,p>is1 b 9 respect to h]1 he decl9$ x1 & det]m9$ to g to ,dijon4 #ac4 ,be+ come ?i!r1 he f\nd all m5s m9ds fully prejudic$ aga9/ him1 :i* he gladly endur$1 t he might be p>tak] ( ! reproa*1 & hon\r ! abasem5t ( ! ,son ( ,god4 ,& :5 a p]son ( piety acqua9t$ him ) ! /range reports :i* 7 spread abroad conc]n+ him1 he ) admirable calmness rais$ 8 he>t to ,god1 & humbl$ himself be=e him4 ,%e ask$1 ,:e!r x 0 true t injuri\s pap]s _h be5 put 9 aga9/ 8 "m8 ,he answ]$1 8,no2 he _h se5 all ! writ+s1 & f\nd !m drawn ) ! respect due to a p>5t40 99,%e ask$ fur!r1 8,if he 0 n mu* afflict$ at h] h>% mann] ( proce$+ aga9/ him80 ,he said1 8,no2 because ,i s mu* adore ! ord] ( ,god ov] me1 t ,i _c be afflict$ at t :i* he p]mits to befal me4 ,i am a great s9n]1 & !re=e n only my "m1 b all ! ^w h j cause to take "p aga9/ me40 #ad4 ,%e adds 9 a memorial1 t _m ways 7 propos$ = adju/+ ! diff]5ce2 b t x 0 ! greate/ difficulty 9 ! _w to br+ 8 "m to jo9 9 any3 t 9 ! mid/ ( ^! delays1 %e said to ,m4 de ,r5ty1 8,sir1 ,i %all will+ly say ! ,te ,deum1 :5 once y\r bus9ess is end$40 ,& t "o day :5 !y believ$ x w\ld be :olly conclud$1 he came to h] ) a *e>ful c\nt5ance1 & said1 8,x is n[ "t to say ! ,te ,deum1 s9ce y _h ! goodness to promise x4 ,& may ,i be s bold z to desire to say x ) y8 ,o :at a great & wise ,god h we6 ,:o kn[s well1 h[ to d all ?+s1 z !y ought & :5 !y ought1 n accord+ to our precipitation1 b 8 ord]1 :i* is our sanctification60 ,h]eupon he said ! ,te ,deum1 ) a _s s elevat$ to ,god1 z gave suffici5t evid5ce ( 8 be+ :olly fill$ ) him4 ,& :5 aft]w>ds all 0 brok5 (f1 )\t hopes ( mak+ up aga91 he said1 998,x is well2 ?\gh no?+ be done1 x 0 v fit to return ?anks to ,god1 = do+ 8 own w1 & n t ( a s9n]1 unwor?y to be he>d or reg>d$40 #ae4 ,!re pass$ _m o!r ?+s at ,dijon1 & s9ce at ,p>is1 dur+ ^! diff]5ces1 ev5 to ! dea? ( 8 "m4 ,b ,i d\bt n1 he :o is n[ 9 ! place ( p]fect *>ity1 approves ( my pass+ ov] 9 sil5ce ! fail+s ( h]1 to :om all 8 life he bore s mu* love & respect4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,8 fai?4 #a4 ,,mr4 de ,r5ty /udi$ ) a p>ticul> c>e a solid f\ndation 9 ?is virtue1 kn[+ h[ all o!r virtues dep5d ^u x1 z on _! root1 _! rule & measure4 ,& he possess$ x 9 s high a degree1 t he 0 m assur$ ( ! pres5ce ( ,god1 & ! tru? ( ! my/]ies ( ,*ri/ianity1 ?an ( ! %9+ ( ! sun4 ,he truly liv$ by fai?3 ?is 0 ! pa? :]e9 he walk$1 work+ all by ! _s !re(4 ,he beheld ?+s n ) 8 bodily eyes1 b ) ^? t pi]c$ deep]4 ,consid]+ !m n accord+ to _! pres5t condition1 or ! ord] ( nature2 b accord+ to _! future & et]nal1 _! relation to grace & glory2 reg>d+ no?+ b z x 01 or might be a means ( 8 own or o!rs salvation4 #b4 ,be+ =tifi$ by ?is fai?1 he 0 wont to say1 he felt no difficulty at all1 :5 79 8 y\ng] ye>s7 he 0 9 a /ate ( dryness1 :olly depriv$ ( s5sible com=ts4 ,to :i* purpose he writes 9 "o ( 8 lett]s ?us2 8,we seldom meet ) p]sons addict$ to pray]1 t behave !mselves well "u inw>d trials4 ,!y h no pati5ce to wait = com=t4 ,!y fret !mselves1 & hurry ?is way & t1 z if by _! own means !y c\ld procure x1 seek+ = ano!r support ?an t ( fai?1 :i* alone %\ld suffice any spiritual man4 ,= ! j %\ld live by fai?1 & on t f\ndation re/1 9 expectation ( our ,savi\r1 ) pati5ce2 kn[+ ^! joys are b supplem5ts to ! littl5ess1 & cordials = ! fa9t+s ( our fai?40 #c4 ,animat$ by ?is _s1 he reli$ n on any ?+ t came to him 9 an extraord9>y way2 re/+ nei!r on visions1 miracles1 revelations1 nor inw>d motions1 b solely on a pure & nak$ fai?1 to c>ry him to ,god4 #d4 ,he knew our p]fection consi/s 9 no?+ else1 b ! r5ewal ( our s\l 9 fai?1 hope1 & *>ity3 9 p]=m+ to ,god ! sacrifices ( a lively fai?1 a p]fect hope1 & f]v5t *>ity4 ,to cultivate & adorn 8 s\l ) ^!1 0 !re=e 8 con/ant c>e2 to unite x m & m intimately ) ,god1 ?r\gh fai? work+ by love1 & to give himself up ) all 8 /r5g? to ?is hidd5 & div9e life4 #e4 ,"s ye>s be=e 8 dea?1 he 0 peculi>ly employ$ 9 ! contemplation ( ! bless$ ,tr9ity4 ,:]e=e he gave ?is acc\nt to 8 spiritual guide2 998,i c>ry ab\t ) me ord9>ily an exp]im5tal v]ify1 & a pl5itude ( ! pres5ce ( ! ,holy ,tr9ity40 ,& aga91 8,i possess ! sacr$ ,tr9ity ) a pl5itude ( tru? & cle>ness2 & ?is 9 s pure & vigor\s a mann]1 t my outw>d employm5t creates me no div]sion at all40 ,& ano!r "t he writ ?us2 8,jesus ,*ri/ worke? ! exp]i5ce ( 8 k+dom 9 my he>t1 & ,i f9d him !re my ,"l & my ,ma/]1 & myself :olly 84 ,i discov] n[ a great] enl>gem5t ( my he>t1 b su* z ,i am n able to express2 only ?us1 x is a simple b mo/ real sight ( ! ,tr9ity1 cont9ually accompani$ ) prais+1 bless+1 & (f]+ all homage !reto40 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 ,hope4 #a4 ,a ,,/rong fai? _c b produce a firm hope & *>ity4 ,a true belief 9 ,god1 :at he is 9 himself1 & :at he is to u1 w "w a /rong affiance 9 him1 & ard5t *>ity t[>ds him2 z appe>$ 9 ,m4 de ,r5ty1 :o be+ gr\nd$ 9 fai?1 _h also an undaunt$ hope1 & inflam$ affections4 #b4 ,! exp]i5ce ( ! p[] & m]cy ( ,god1 & fai? 9 ! inf9ite m]its ( our ,r$eem]1 7 ! two pill>s on :i* he built 8 hope3 & re/+ on ^!1 he hop$ all ?+s4 ,he us$ to say1 t :5 he look$ at himself1 !re 0 no?+ s little :]e9 he appreh5d$ n difficulty4 ,b :5 he look$ ^u ,god1 he c\ld ?9k no?+ difficult1 mu* less impossible4 #c4 ,accord+ly 9 all affairs1 he reli$ n ^u 8 own prud5ce1 conduct1 c>e1 or any human /r5g? or wisdom1 b on ,god alone1 say+1 8,:5 we h done our duty ) great diffid5ce 9 ourselves1 we ought to att5d :olly on ,god1 & wait 8 "t40 ,& ?us he writ to a fri5d1 8,z = my *ildr51 ,i leave !m 9 ! h&s ( ! holy ,jesus1 )\t det]m9+ any ?+ conc]n+ !m1 n kn[+ :at w\ld befall to-morr[4 ,he give? me great confid5ce 9 8 protection1 :i* r5d]s me altoge!r bl9d1 )\t wi%+ any ?+1 b be+ ready = 8 w 9 e ?+40 #d4 ,gu>d$ ) 8 p]fect confid5ce1 he fe>$ no?+1 b rema9$ firm & resolute aga9/ all enc\nt]s4 ,he walk$ securely 9 all places1 at all times1 9 ! /reets1 9 ! fields1 by day & by night2 travell+ ?r\gh woods & =e/s1 reput$ dang]\s1 & frequ5t$ by robb]s1 )\t any o!r def5ce ?an 8 tru/ 9 ,god4 ,a fri5d told him "o day1 he 0 afraid to walk 9 ! ev5+ 9 ! /reets ( ,p>is )\t a sword1 & desir$ 8 advice2 :o told him1 he _h left (f we>+ a sword a long "t1 & advis$ him1 aft] he _h comm5d$ ! bus9ess to ,god by pray]1 to tru/ 9 8 protection2 assur+ himself1 t 8 protection ov] u1 is accord+ to our reliance ^u him40 #e4 ,"o day a scaffold on :i* he /ood ) 8 workm5 fell d[n1 & hurt sev]al ( !m3 b x mov$ n him2 8 _s rema9$ 9 ! same ev5ness z if no?+ _h happ5$2 be+ settl$ on him 9 :om is no v>iabl5ess1 nei!r %ad[ ( turn+4 #f4 ,^? words 7 f\nd 9 "o ( 8 lett]s to 8 director4 8,my s\l be+ arm$ ) confid5ce & love1 fe>s nei!r ! devil nor hell1 nor all ! /ratagems ( man4 ,nei!r ?9k ,i at all on heav5 or e>?1 b only h[ to fulfil ! w ( ,god 9 e ?+40 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,8 love ( ,god4 #a4 ,,! s5tim5ts ,m4 ,de ,r5ty _h ( ! love ( ,god1 he ?us expre/ 9 a lett] to 8 director2 8,9 all ,i read 9 ! scripture1 ,i nei!r und]/& nor f9d any ?+ b ?is ,love4 ,! v end ( ! comm&m5t is love1 out ( a s9c]e he>t4 ,& ?is is acquir$ by fai? 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 z ! apo/le obs]ves 9 ! foll[+ words4 ,fai? unite? u to him1 :]eby we sacrifice our s\ls & bodies1 ?ro' 8 _s2 :i* conducte? u to ! compleat end ( ! law1 to deliv] u up to ,god & br+ him d[n to u 9 *>ity1 & a graci\s inexplicable union2 to :om be praise = ev]6 ,am560 #b4 ,writ+ to ano!r1 he says1 8,i ?ank our ,"l1 :o ha? dispos$ y to a p]fect self-d5ial4 ,?is is ! way to love2 & our love ( ,god is %ewn1 n s mu* 9 receiv+ gifts & graces f him1 z 9 =gett+ ourselves1 9 r5\nc+ all ?+s1 & suff]+ con/antly & c\rage\sly = him40 #c4 ,s inflam$ 0 ,m4 ,de ,r5ty ) ?is love1 t all 8 ?\ghts1 words & works1 7 ! fruits ( x4 ,all 8 virtues drew _! orig9al f ?is3 x 0 ! beg9n+1 & motive1 & end ( all4 8,i _c conceal f y1 said he to a fri5d1 t ,i h a fire 9 my he>t1 :i* burns & consumes )\t ceas+40 ,& ?is div9e fire 0 s ard5t 9 8 s\l1 t ! flames !re( (t5 bur/ =? into 8 ext]ior2 & he ha? own$1 t :5ev] he pron\nc$ ! "n ( ,god1 he ta/$ su* a sweetness z c\ld n be expre/4 #d4 ,"o ( 8 fri5ds assures u1 8he has (t5 se5 him s inflam$ ) love1 t he appe>$ l "o beside himself3 & t he has told him1 :5 ^! transports 7 ^u him1 he 0 ready to ca/ himself into ! fire1 to te/ify 8 love to ,god40 ,& "o ( 8 lett]s he concludes ?us3 8,i mu/ n[ hold my peace2 yet :5 ,i cease to speak1 ! fire )9 t consumes me w n let me re/4 ,let u burn !n1 & burn :olly & 9 e "p = ,god4 ,s9ce we h no be+ b by him1 :y d we n live to him8 ,i speak x al\d & x w\ld be my cr[n ( glory1 to seal x ) my blood40 99#e4 ,to ano!r he writes ?us3 8,i "k n :at y\r int5t 01 9 writ+ ^? words1 #8,my ,god & my all6' ,only y incite me !reby to return ! same to y & to all creatures1 #8,my ,god & my all6 ,my ,god & my all6 ,my ,god & my all6' ,is y\r he>t full ( x1 & ?9k y x possible ,i %\ld be sil5t on su* an invitation6 ,be x kn[n to y1 t he is my ,god & my all2 & if y d\bt ( x1 ,i %all speak x a hundr$ times ov]4 ,i %all add no m1 = any ?+ else is sup]flu\s to him t is truly p5etrat$ ) #8,my ,god & my all'40 99#f4 ,?is love ( ,god wr\ght 9 him an incr$ible zeal = 8 hon\r1 :i* he ?us expresses to 8 director2 8,"o day be+ transport$ ) an e>ne/ desire to be all devot$ to ,god1 & all consum$ = him1 ,i (f]$ up to him all ,i c\ld1 yea1 & all ,i c\ld n4 ,i w\ld will+ly1 if !y _h be5 m9e1 h made a de$ ( gift to him ( heav5 & e>?3 & 9 ano!r way1 ,i w\ld gladly h be5 ! l[e/ ( all mank9d4 ,yea1 & if support$ by 8 grace1 ,i c\ld h be5 cont5t1 to advance 8 glory1 to h suff]$ ! pa9s ( ! damn'd4 ,9 ?is disposition ( a calm zeal1 !re is no sort ( m>tyrdom1 no degree ( greatness or littl5ess1 hon\r or di%on\r1 t pass$ n ?r\gh my s\l1 & t ,i w\ld n readily h embrac$ = ! advancem5t ( 8 glory4 ,x is impossible to express "o circum/ance ( :at ,i felt4 ,all ,i c\ld d 01 to give up my lib]ty to ,god1 writ+ ! de$ 9 pap] & sign+ x ) my blood40 #g4 ,see "h ! zeal ( a man all on fire ) ! love ( ,god6 ,& ! sure/ pro( ( love1 con=mity to 8 w4 ,?is intimate union ( 8 w ) ,god's1 ! object & end ( all 8 actions1 0 inde$ "o ( 8 s+ul> graces1 z x is ! sum ( all p]fection4 ,he writ ?us to "o conc]n+ ! ,c\ntess ( ,*atres1 ) :om he _h ! /ricte/ fri5d%ip2 8,i mu/ own1 t dur+ my abs5ce f h]1 my he>t 0 t5d]ly s5sible ( h] pa94 ,b my desire submits to ! w ( ,god1 & :5 t is signifi$1 he gives me grace to obey4 ,i 0 n at ,p>is1 b at ,citry1 :5 %e dep>t$2 ,i 0 s5t = po/ b came two h\rs too late4 ,ent]+ ! t[n1 ,i soon he>d ! news ( h] dea?4 ,pres5tly ,i fixt myself to ! w ( ,god2 :]eupon ,i f\nd no m alt]ation 9 my s\l1 ?an if %e _h be5 alive4 ,i see 8 ord] 9 ?is1 t ,i assi/$ h] n at h] dea?1 & d\bt n b he p]mitt$ x = h] advantage40 #h4 ,ano!r "t he writ ?us3 8,i h ^! ?ree weeks _h a fev]1 ) a defluxion1 & an extreme weakness4 ,my frame ( m9d dur+ ?is condition1 has be5 a simple adh]5ce to ! w ( ,god4 ,i h a he>t will+ & ready to receive any afflictions t c befall me4 ,i desire :atev] is decre$ f above1 & beg x ) all my he>t40 #i4 ,9 ! ye> #afda1 "o ( 8 *ildr51 :om he t5d]ly lov$ di$4 ,:5 ! news 0 br\ght him1 he spoke n "o ^w1 nor1 %ew$ ! lea/ sign ( di/urbance3 8 affection to ! *ild yield+ to 8 absolute con=mity ) ! w ( ,god4 #aj4 ,at ! end ( ! ye> #afdc1 8 lady fell desp]ately sick1 s t %e 0 giv5 ov] by h] physicians1 & left spee*less & )\t s5se4 ,?is affect$ him 9 ! mo/ s5sible mann]2 & he broke out into ^! words3 8,i _c d5y b my nature is deeply affect$ ) ! s5se ( s great a loss4 ,yet my _s is fill$ ) s wond]ful a joy1 to see myself 9 su* a /ate1 z to give up1 & sacrifice to my ,god1 a ?+ s de> to me1 t if dec5cy did n =bid x1 ,i w\ld give "s op5 te/imony ( my read9ess !reto40 ,h]eby he evid5c$ ! w ( ,god to be s absolutely 81 t he n only will$ :atev] ,god will$1 b also will$ x z ,god do?1 ) pleasure & satisfaction4 ,b x pleas$ ,god to re/ore 8 lady to h] heal?1 ) respect 7z we may believe7 to ! c>riage ( 8 fai?ful s]vant4 #aa4 ,f ?is p]fect subord9ation to ! w ( ,god1 sprung 8 admirable tranquillity4 ,f ?is f\nta9 fl[$ ^? riv]s ( peace :i* he possess$ 9 s great p]fection1 t on ! mo/ sudd5 surprisals1 8 _s 0 n alt]$1 nor put into any disord]4 ,s t he c\ld say f ! abundance ( 8 he>t1 8,i compreh5d n t ?+ y call mortification4 ,he :o f9ds no resi/ance 9 8 _s to any ?+1 is n capable ( x4 ,:oso wille? :atsoev] ,god wille?1 is pleas$1 :atsoev] happ5s40 #ab4 ,) ?is ,love ( ,god 0 jo9$ s deep a rev]5ce ( him1 z (t5 ca/ him into trembl+4 ,& ?is unspeakable respect unto ,god's greatness caus$ him (t5 to walk 9 ! fields b>e-head$1 ev5 9 ra91 or ! heat ( ! sun3 & be+ ask$ by a fri5d1 :at x 0 t kept him 9 t con/ant awe1 & h[ he atta9$ t wond]ful rev]5ce he bore to ,god at all times1 9 all places1 9 all employm5ts1 he answ]$1 8,! sight ( 8 glori\s maje/y1 :i* cont9ually seems pres5t by me1 keeps me 9 exce$+ awe1 ) a deep s5se ( 8 greatness & my own vil5ess4 ,a mote 9 ! sun is little1 b ,i am f> less 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god40 8presc5ce0 replac$ ) 8pres5ce0 99#ac4 ,& sure x is1 t ?is deep s5se ( 8 own vil5ess1 be=e ! maje/y ( ,god1 well becomes n only ! greate/ ( s9n]s1 b ! holie/ ( m5 ^u e>?4 ,he t f a valley beholds ! sun :5 x rises1 & appe>s on ! po9t ( a high m\nta91 may ?9k him t /&s above to be ne> x1 & almo/ able to rea* x ) 8 h&4 ,b ! same man not)/&+ beholds x at a va/ di/ance above 8 head4 ,& ?\gh 9 reality1 he is ne>] ?an ! o!r t /&s 9 ! valley1 yet ! proportion is s small z sc>ce des]ves to be nam$1 9 respect to ! total di/ance4 #ad4 ,?is rev]5ce ( ,god occasion$ 9 him a great rev]5ce likewise to :atsoev] 0 devot$ to him3 z fir/ to all holy places2 at 8 entrance into a *ur*1 8 demeanor 0 highly mode/ & s]i\s4 ,he nev] sat d[n !re4 ,he w\ld rema9 9 x z long z possibly he c\ld2 sometimes sev5 or eight h\rs toge!r4 ,if any p]son spoke to him 9 *ur*1 8 answ] 0 %ort2 if a long] 0 requir$1 he w5t out & gave x4 #ae4 ,he _h great respect1 secondly1 to holy p]sons1 especially to prie/s1 :om he highly hon\r$ = _! "w sake4 ,:5ev] he met !m1 he salut$ !m ) pr(\nd humility1 & 9 8 travels w\ld alight (f 8 horse to d x4 ,:5 !y visit$ him1 he ent]ta9$ !m ) great respect2 at _! go+1 wait+ on !m to ! gate3 ,& if any d9$ at 8 table1 he gave !m ! upp] h&1 :i* civility he obs]v$ to 8 own *apla94 #af4 ,& z he _h ?is rev]5ce = !m1 s _h he an e>ne/ desire1 t !y might live accord+ to ! dignity ( _! call+4 ,:5 he saw any t did n1 he pr(e/ 8 he>t melt$ into sorr[ = !m1 & t he pro/rat$ himself be=e our ,savi\r1 & begg$ ) te>s "s apo/olical spirits4 ,he (t5 said1 8,give u1 ,o ,"l1 our poor fi%]m51 m51 simple 9 appe>ance1 & vile 9 ! eyes ( m52 b great & holy )91 & fit to conv]t s\ls by _! sanctity1 pray]s1 & re/less lab\rs60 ,& h]e9 ,i discov] a great mi/ake ord9>y 9 ! _w1 t outw>d greatness & pomp is ! way to keep up m5's cr$it1 & make !m m capable ( do+ good to _! neighb\rs4 ,o1 no6 ,x is grace t ha? p[] ^u ! s\ls1 & an holy & humble life t ga9e? he>ts6 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,8 ,love ( man4 ,,section ,i4 ,( 8 love to man 9 g5]al4 #a4 ,,! gr& ex]cise ( ,m4 de ,r5ty1 0 to apply & unite himself to our ,savi\r1 & f t union & example to d]ive all 8 virtues & good works4 ,to m\ld himself aft] him 0 8 g5]al c\rse1 bo? 9 8 inw>d temp]s & outw>d behavi\r4 ,he nev] took 8 eye (f ( ?is div9e copy1 b endeav\r$ to draw e l9e exactly1 to p5cil 8 true lik5ess1 & make him 8 native & p]fect orig9al4 #b4 ,?is 0 ! scope ( all 8 designs & c>es1 & p>ticul>ly t ( 8 *>ity to 8 neighb\r2 = :i* he prop\nd$ our ,savi\r z 8 gr& exempl>1 weigh+ ! affection he %ew$ = m52 m>k+ :at he _h done1 & :at he _h suff]$ = !m1 h[ he s\ght aft]1 & conv]s$ ) !m2 h[ he in/ruct$1 com=t$1 & enc\rag$ !m1 sometimes reprov+1 sometimes be>+ ) _! infirmities2 at all times c>ry+ !m 9 8 bosom1 yea1 9 ! mo/ intimate inclosure ( 8 he>t4 #c4 ,he well weigh$ :at ,*ri/ _h deliv]$ conc]n+ ?is virtue3 t he _h e/abli%$ x z ! p]fection ( 8 law2 t he _h t]m$ ?is comm& peculi>ly 8 own2 t he _h expressly & solemnly bequea!d x to 8 foll[]s1 & en=c$ ! execution ( x ^u !m by all ! /ronge/ & mo/ ende>+ ties2 t he _h made ?is virtue ! di/9ctive "* ( ^? :o 7 9 reality 8 disciples2 & t he _h *>g$ u to love our neighb\r1 accord+ to ! model1 measure1 & fa%ion t he _h lov$ u4 ,& accord+ly he det]m9$1 z f> z he c\ld1 to love 8 neighb\r ) ! b5t & _s ( 8 ma/]4 8,i sigh 7said he7 aft] my ,savi\r ,jesus1 desir+ to imitate & foll[ him :i!r he please?4 ,i besee* y1 by y\r pray]s1 obta9 = me 8 _s1 to be my life1 my :ole life4 ,sigh & groan = me aft] my ,god1 t ,i may be :olly = him1 9 8 ,son1 t ,i may foll[ him1 & n live b by 8 ,_s40 #d4 ,agreeably to ?is he endeav\r$1 9 all ! comm]ce he _h ) m51 to unite himself mo/ intimately to our ,savi\r1 giv+ himself up z an in/rum5t to be guid$ by 8 h& 9 ! help+ ( o!rs1 besee*+ him to brea! ^u him 8 _s ( love1 recomm5d$ s mu* 9 8 ^w1 b m 9 8 actions1 & to inflame him ) ?is sacr$ fire :i* he ha? k9dl$ 9 8 *ur*1 t he might be :olly consum$ ) x4 ,he consult$ him 9 all 8 d\bts conc]n+ x1 begg+ him to inspire :at1 & h[1 & :51 he %\ld speak & act = ! good ( 8 neighb\r2 & t 9 him & by him x might all be done4 99#e4 ,he look$ ^u m5 n accord+ to _! natural qualities1 _! beauty1 nobility1 ri*es1 or worldly di/9ctions1 b accord+ to _! m noble relations1 & ^? common to all1 viz4 ,z creatures div9e1 ! lively images ( ,god1 =m$ to praise & love him to all et]nity2 z purpl$ 9 ! blood ( ,jesus1 bro!rs & co-heirs ) him1 8 inh]itance b\ght ) ! price ( 8 life1 & a ?\s& pangs1 & :o !re=e mu/ be inf9itely de> unto him1 & mo/ t5d]ly belov$ ( him4 99,9 ?is capacity x 0 t he beheld m51 & appli$ to _! necessities4 ,& h]eby z he 0 highly useful to 8 neighb\r1 s he did n prejudice b greatly advantage himself4 ,he look$ ^u ,god & ,*ri/ 9 e man4 ,he consid]$1 x 0 !y t dem&$ succ\r ( him4 ,& :ile he 0 p]=m+ ) all 8 might :atev] 0 necess>y = ! s\l & body ( ! lea/ ( 8 bre?r5 believ$ v]ily x 0 ,god & ,*ri/ to :om he r5d]$ t assi/ance4 ,& ! same ?\ght %\ld all make use (1 :o w\ld b5efit _! neighb\r1 )\t prejudice to !mselves1 o!rwise1 a man %all soon] lose 8 own s\l1 ?an lead ano!r to ,god4 #g4 ,! *>ity ( ?is man ( ,god1 built on ^! f\ndations1 0 s enl>g$1 t x seem$ to h no b\nds2 9 t he lov$ n only all ,*ri/ians1 b all m51 )\t except+ any4 ,?y comm&m5t1 says ,david1 is exce$+ broad2 ! same dim5sions _h 8 *>ity2 embrac+ ! pres5t & abs5t1 dome/ics & /rang]s1 fri5ds & enemies1 good & bad2 e/eem+ all accord+ to _! degree1 speak+ 7z he c\ld7 well ( all1 do+ good to all1 & ill to none4 #h4 ,!re 0 n any consid]able good "w ( a public nature1 done at ,p>is1 or )9 a great di/ance ( x1 :]e9 he _h n a great %>e4 ,!re 0 no und]tak+ !re1 t5d+ to ! hon\r ( ,god or good ( m51 ( :i* he 0 n ei!r ! au?or1 or promot]1 or f9i%]1 & v (t5 all ^! toge!r4 ,he 0 "o at all ! meet+s ( piety2 & ( _m ! v s\l4 ,he kept correspond5ce ?r\gh\t ! :ole k+dom1 conc]n+ works ( *>ity1 receiv+ lett]s f all p>ts1 desir+ 8 advice 9 all difficulties t occurr$1 9 ! erect+ or p]fect+ hospitals1 sem9>ies ( religion1 & frat]nities ( virtu\s p]sons1 associat+ toge!r = ! bett] apply+ !mselves to _! own & o!rs salvation1 & ! manag+ all sorts ( good works4 #i4 ,f ,ca5 "o writes ( him ?us3 8,m4 de ,r5ty 0 our support & refuge 9 ! execution ( all our designs1 relat+ to ! s]vice ( ,god1 ! sav+ ( s\ls1 & ! relief ( ! poor & di/ress$4 ,to him we cont9ually wrote1 & f him we receiv$ c\nsel & succ\r on all occasions4 ,nor h we met ) any s9ce 8 dea? to :om we c\ld h ! l rec\rse 9 ! ?+s ( ,god40 ,ano!r f ,dijon writes ?us3 8,we _c b ackn[l$ge ! great b5efit ?is prov9ce has receiv$ f ,m4 de ,r5ty4 ,:]ev] he came he ha? wond]fully advanc$ all works ( piety4 ,we may truly say1 t 8 days 7 fill$ ) ! fulness ( ,god4 ,nor d we believe he lo/ "o m9ute ( "t1 9 :i* he did n ei!r speak or act some?+ = 8 s]vice40 #aj4 ,he appli$ himself to ! necessities ( ! ,engli%1 ! ,iri%1 ! captives 9 ,b>b>y1 & ( ! missions into ! ,levant2 took great pa9s = ! support ( ! hospital at ,m>seilles2 lab\r$ mu* = ! relief ( galley-slaves1 & contribut$ mu* to ! advanc+ ! affairs ( ,new ,france 9 ,am]ica4 ,he _h a design likewise to purge all trades & manufactures f ! corruptions :i* _h gr[n ^u !m1 s t m5 might live ^u !m l ,*ri/ians2 :i* ?+ he begun & p]fect$ 9 two ( !m4 #aa4 ,! scripture he mo/ /udi$1 next ! life ( our bless$ ,savi\r1 to qualify himself = all good works1 0 ,/4 ,paul's description ( *>ity1 9 ! #ac? *apt] ( 8 fir/ epi/le to ! ,cor9?ians4 ,& :osoev] is ex]cis$ 9 ! virtues !re describ$1 w n run 9 va91 nor lab\r 9 va94 99,inde$ ! m any "o is animat$ ) ?is _s1 ! m %all he advance hol9ess 9 o!rs4 ,yea1 ?\gh 8 words be few & ord9>y4 ,= our words d n d]ive _! =ce f ! m\? t speaks1 b f ! disposition ( ! he>t1 & ! p[] ( ! _s t dwells !re4 #ab4 ,to qualify himself to be m ext5sively useful to 8 neighb\r ,m4 de ,r5ty1 to ! natural abilities ,god _h giv5 him1 & to ! le>n+ he _h acquir$ 9 8 y\?1 _h by 8 indu/ry add$ sev]al small] p>ts ( k3 & t n only = 8 own use1 b to tea* !m to o!rs1 :]eby to help !mselves4 ,yea1 he abas$ himself to le>n ! meane/ skill1 :i* might be any way useful to 8 neighb\r4 ,"o day 9 ,p>is he c>ri$ a fri5d ) him to a poor man1 :o got 8 liv+ by mak+ wick]-baskets4 ,he !re f9i%$ a basket :i* he _h begun "s days be=e1 ) design z soon z he _h le>n$ x1 to tea* "s poor p 9 ! c\ntry to make !m1 to help to get _! liv+4 ,he !n left ! basket ) ! poor man1 & a piece ( money = tea*+ him4 #ac4 ,inde$ he took ^u him all %apes1 trans=m$ himself into all figures1 condesc5d$ to all ?+s = ! good ( 8 neighb\r3 all 8 ?\ghts1 words & actions1 be+ :olly ca/ 9 ! m\ld ( *>ity3 99,:i* made him say "o day1 8,me?9ks my s\l is all *>ity1 & ,i am n able to express ) :at ard\r & /range expansion my he>t is r5ew$ 9 ! div9e life ( my ,savi\r1 burn+ 9 love to all mank9d40 ,,section ,,ii4 ,8 *>ity to ! poor4 99#a4 ,,) reg>d to ! poor1 ,m4 de ,r5ty's ?\ghts /ay$ n on _! habit or outw>d appe>ance2 b pass+ fur!r1 he beheld "u ^!1 ) ! eye ( fai?1 ,jesus ,*ri/ pres5t & dwell+ 9 !m4 ,& z he burn$ ) an ard5t affection to our ,"l1 s he lov$ !m t5d]ly1 succ\r$ !m ) all 8 might1 & left no?+ unattempt$ = _! sakes4 ,& ) ^! eyes1 n ^? ( nature1 mu/ e "o behold ! poor1 t w love !m inde$1 & h b[els ( compassion = !m4 #b4 ,f ! ye> #afda1 he invit$ to d9n] two poor m5 twice a week1 on ,tuesdays & ,fridays4 ,b increase ( bus9ess oblig$ him five or six ye>s aft] to r$uce x to "o day1 commonly ,?ursday2 :5 he invit$ ?ree2 & will+ to jo9 spiritual alms to corporal1 he s\ght out su* z seem$ mo/ to ne$ in/ruction4 ,to ?is end1 :ile at ,p>is1 aft] 8 morn+ devotions1 he w5t to ,/4 ,an?ony's gate1 & took su* z 7 newly arriv$1 :om c\rte\sly salut+1 he br\ght home 79 w9t] to ! fire7 made !m sit d[n1 & ) a cordial affection1 :i* appe>$ 9 8 :ole behavi\r1 in/ruct$ !m 9 ! *ief po9ts ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,:ile !y sat at table1 he s]v$ !m himself1 sett+ be=e !m ) 8 own h&s ! di%es br\ght 9 by 8 s]vants & *ildr54 ,aft] d9n]1 he wait$ on !m himself to ! gate1 & dismiss$ !m ) an alms4 ,?is he cont9u$ to 8 dea?1 & :5 he c\ld n d x 9 p]son1 8 lady did ! same to s _m poor wom54 #c4 ,besides _m o!r *>ities at 8 own h\se1 he endeav\r$ ! g5]al relief ( all ! poor 9 ,p>is1 & ! p>ts adjac5t2 busi$ himself to und]/& _! wants1 /udi$ ways ( r$ress1 & c>efully pursu$ !m4 ,:at he c\ld n accompli% himself1 he comm5d$ to o!rs1 spake = !m1 begg$ = !m1 b\ght necess>ies = !m2 lab\r$ to e/abli% settl$ c\rses ( liv+ = m5 & *ildr5 t 7 de/itute1 & :5 he c\ld n at pres5t provide = !m abroad1 ma9ta9$ !m at 8 own h\se till he c\ld4 #d4 ,he 0 ! fir/ t motion$ "s relief = ! poor ,engli%1 driv5 by p]secution out _! own c\ntry4 ,he engag$ p]sons ( quality 9 ! pur*as+ ( l&s = _! subsi/5ce4 ,:5 x 0 done1 himself und]took ! *>ge ( di/ribut+ "o "p ( ?is *>ity4 ,?is he p]=m$1 mon?ly1 go+ to !m a foot1 & commonly alone ent]+ _! *amb]1 he salut$ !m ) all t5d]ness & respect1 & gave !m _! all[ance wrapt up 9 a pap]4 99#e4 ,9 all 8 visits to ! poor1 aft] a g5]al survey ( _! wants1 he exam9$ 9 p>ticul> z well _! spiritual z bodily necessities2 & endeav\r$ 9 ! fir/ place to m>k _! incl9ations1 _! passions1 _! ill habits2 :at vices 7 pr$om9ant 9 !m1 & :at 7 _! *ief infirmities3 t l a prud5t physician he might apply fit rem$ies1 & tea* !m h[ to make ! true use ( _! pov]ty4 #f4 ,z to _! temporal necessities1 he consid]$ ! capacity1 indu/ry1 trade or employm5t ( ea*3 = tradesm51 he consid]$ :at tools or mat]ials 7 necess>y to set !m to "w4 ,^! he provid$1 ei!r r$eem+ _! own1 or buy+ new4 ,he !n gave !m provisions = two or ?ree days1 & provid$ !m "w n only = !mselves1 b also = _! wives & *ildr54 ,aft]w>ds he b\ght "s ( _! "w1 :i* he be/[$ 9 alms ^u o!rs1 & took ord]s = ! quick sale ( ! re/1 com+ to !m f "t to "t to see if all w5t well1 & enc\rage !m to take pa9s4 suppli$ miss+ ^w 8to0 #g4 ,to ^! we may add1 8 *>ity to poor prison]s1 :om he visit$1 com=t$1 & reliev$1 & :5 he f\nd x exp$i5t = !m1 7:i* he always fir/ consid]$7 us$ all means = _! enl>gem5t4 #h4 ,!re 0 9 ,l[-,norm&y1 "o :o _h be5 a prison] = sev]al ye>s1 & ?o' innoc5t1 0 9 great extremity4 ,_m _h endeav\r$ 8 release b )\t success1 because ( a p[]ful adv]s>y4 ,! ?+ be+ comm5d$ to ,m4 de ,r5ty1 aft] a j in=mation ( ! case1 he committ$ ! prosecution ( x to 8 own advocate1 made a report ( x to ! c\ncil1 & w5t frequ5tly 9 p]son to sollicit x4 #i4 ,b not)/&+1 p]ceiv+ ! poor man's cause to hang long1 he *ang$ 8 purpose1 & writ to 8 adv]s>y1 (f]+1 if ! bus9ess might be ref]r$ to him1 to take a j\rney into ,norm&y imm$iately4 ,:5 he came to ! t[n1 he w5t directly to ! prison1 & aft] an exhortation to ! prison]s1 second$ by 8 alms1 he told ! poor man 8 design1 & exhort$ him to pray to ,god = a bless+ on 8 endeav\rs1 & to re/ 9 hope t by "s means or o!r he %\ld %ortly be deliv]$4 #aj4 ,he !n w5t to ! o!r's h\se2 :5ce he return$ to ! prison = in=mation on "s difficulties t occurr$4 ,f9d+ all ! prison]s toge!r at _! usual devotions1 he wait$ till !y _h done4 ,hav+ !n receiv$ in=mation1 he w5t back to ! o!r1 ) :om he came to su* an agreem5t1 t ?is poor man1 aft] a _w ( mis]y1 dur+ n9e ye>s imprisonm5t1 0 at l5g? set at lib]ty4 ,he ma9ta9$ him eight days at 8 own h\se1 advis+ & exhort+ him e ev5+3 & at 8 dep>ture p]suad$ him to g & see 8 7=m]7 adv]s>y2 :om he n[ f\nd z tractable & fri5dly1 z be=e he _h be5 sev]e4 ,,section ,,iii4 ,8 *>ity to ! sick4 #a4 ,,if 8 *>ity to ! poor 0 ?us great1 x 0 /ill great] to su* poor z 7 sick4 ,he 0 n cont5t to assi/ ^! 9 "o or two ways2 b !y f\nd 9 him1 & (t5 9 "o visit1 a b5efactor1 a physician1 apo!c>y1 surgeon1 a pa/or1 fri5d & s]vant4 #b4 ,9 ! ye> #afda1 he le>n$ to let blood1 & sev]al p>ts ( surg]y4 ,he acqua9t$ himself likewise ) ! mann] ( mak+ up mo/ sorts ( m$ic9es2 & he consult$ ) a physician1 by :om he 0 in/ruct$ 9 ! pr9cipal p>ts ( ! art ( physic4 ,:5ev] he w5t abroad1 he _h ) him a surgeon's box1 & p[d]s = ! cure ( mo/ ord9>y diseases2 :i* he us$ ) great dext]ity1 & ) equal prud5ce1 nev] advanc+ beyond 8 k4 #c4 ,9 8 visits to ! sick1 he nev] %unn$ any s]vice necess>y = !m1 & 9 8 p[] to p]=m2 z mak+ _! b$s1 help+ !m to b$1 mak+ _! fire1 sett+ 9 ord] _! little h\%old-/uff2 hop+ !reby to w9 ^u _! affections1 & draw !m to ,god ) m facility4 8%un$0 replac$ ) 8%unn$0 #d4 ,9 e family he took an opportunity to enquire :e!r ,god 0 s]v$ !re8 ,& :e!r any qu>rels or diff]5ces 7 among !m1 :i* he took c>e to make up )\t delay4 ,& he nev] left any )\t provid+ = all _! necessities1 :i* he took notice ( ) incr$ible dilig5ce1 sweetness1 & respect2 disp5s+ ) o!r bus9ess1 t he might h "t to he> all _! compla9ts4 #e4 ,nei!r did he only visit ! sick1 b !y also s\ght him1 & w\ld f9d him out :]esoev] he came1 if !y 7 able to g abroad4 ,! sick1 ! weak1 ! lame1 or o!rwise infirm1 flock$ to him f all qu>t]s3 he might (t5 be se5 encompass$ ) !m2 "s reque/+ 8 m$ic9es1 "s 8 alms1 "s 8 c\nsel4 ,he treat$ all1 z a true disciple ( 8 great ma/]1 ) ! l diffusive *>ity2 & /ood 9 ! mid/ ( !m ) ! l goodness & pati5ce1 endeav\r+ to d good1 & to m9i/] com=t to all4 #f4 ,nor did 8 *>ity decl9e ! c>e ( ^? diseases :i* nature _c behold )\t horror & av]sion4 ,dur+ 8 /ay at ,dijon1 he 0 in=m$ ( "o1 :o hav+ be5 among a company ( soldi]s1 0 left by !m 9 s noisome a condition1 t none w\ld come ne> h]1 & ! p]son :]e %e lodg$ 0 go+ to turn h] out ( doors4 ,he w5t in/antly to ! h\se1 p]swad$ !m to keep h] !re1 & hir$ a woman to att5d h]4 ,!n he provid$ h] prop] physic & n\ri%m5t1 :i* he br\ght h] ) 8 own h&s3 9 ! mean "t1 read+ to h] e day1 in/ruct+ & com=t+ h]4 ,by ?is means he at l5g? n only retriev$ h] f ! jaws ( dea?1 b induc$ h] to sp5d ! re/ ( h] life 9 a virtu\s & ,*ri/ian mann]4 ,,section ,,iv4 ,8 zeal = ! salvation ( 8 neighb\r4 #a4 ,m4 de ,r5ty be+ cont9ually inflam$ ) ! love ( ,god1 incessantly s\ght always1 & us$ all means to make him m kn[n & lov$ by all m51 bo? "h & et]nally4 ,& ?is 8 zeal _h no b\nds2 x ext5d$ n only to all ,france1 b to all ! _w2 insomu* t he said to an intimate fri5d1 8,i am ready to s]ve all m51 n except+ "o1 & to lay d[n my life = any "o40 ,he e>ne/ly desir$ to enlight5 ) ! k ( ,god1 & inflame ) 8 love1 ! :ole _w2 ( :i* ,p>is be+ z x 7 an epitome1 he w5t ?r\gh all ! qu>t]s & /reets ( t va/ city1 se>*+ out :at he c\ld remove or br+ 91 = ! glory ( ,god1 & salvation ( s\ls4 ,& ! same _s :i* mov$ him h]eto1 ble/ 8 endeav\rs to rectify :at 0 amiss1 & to /r5g!n :at 0 "r4 99,?is he did 9 s _m sev]al ways1 z a man w\ld ?9k x impossible3 b :at _c a man d t is zeal\s1 dis9t]e/$1 & full ( ,god8 #b4 ,he p]=m$ :at possibly he c\ld 9 8 own p]son1 n sp>+ any pa9s1 nor los+ "o mom5t3 & :]e 8 p[] fell %ort1 he engag$ o!rs3 & 9 all places he lab\r$1 z mu* z 9 him lay1 to induce su* z desir$ to foll[ ,*ri/1 to jo9 toge!r1 & assi/ "o ano!r 9 work+ out bo? _! own & _! neighb\r's salvation4 ,_m su* societies he e/abli%$ at ,ca51 at ,ami5s1 at ,dijon1 & 9 sev]al p>ts ( ,burgundy2 ^: endeav\rs be+ animat$ by a true zeal = ,god1 7 bless$ ) unexpect$ success4 8,am9es0 replac$ ) 8,ami5s0 #c4 ,to arm "o :o 0 ?us engag$1 aga9/ ! difficulties he met )1 he writ to him ?us3 8,i am v s5sible ( ! pres5t /orms t y endure2 ?\gh !re is no reason :y m5 %\ld al>m y ?us1 see+ !y h no cause ( reproa* f y\r design1 nor h y done any ?+ aga9/ ! gospel3 yet ,i d n wond] at ^! crosses4 ',tis suffici5t to "k t y desire to foll[ ,jesus ,*ri/3 !re=e y mu/ reckon contradiction to be y\r portion 9 ^! days ( y\r fle%4 ,only be firm 9 y\r confid5ce 9 our ,"l1 suff]+ none ( ^! /orms to tr\ble y1 or to obscure t light :i* ha? mov$ y to1 & gu>d$ y 9 ?is bus9ess4 ,god deliv] y f ! reason+s ( fle% & blood1 :i* at su* times are apt to multiply ^u u3 be assur$1 t if y he>k5 n to !m1 ,god w manife/ himself unto y2 he w com=t & =tify y 9 fai?1 & 9 exp]i5ce ( ! gift ( 8 holy ,_s40 #d4 ,to ano!r he writ ?us3 8,bless$ = ev] be ! ,holy ,jesus1 = ! good beg9n+ ( ^? y m5tion4 ,if ! o!r _h a little m c\rage to break h] fett]s1 x w\ld be a great /ep3 & surely !re ne$s n s mu* delib]ation to give up ourselves to him1 al?\gh he be to ! ,jews a /umbl+-block1 & to ! ,greeks fooli%ness4 ,n t ,god ha? any ne$ ( our good p>ts or excell5t qualities1 :o commonly conf\nds ! wisdom ( ! wise1 by little ?+s :i* he *use?4 ,bless$ be t littl5ess :i* is acc\nt$ weakness1 & yet ov]?r[e? all ! p[] & prud5ce ( ! _w40 99#e4 ,we m5tion$ be=e 8 endeav\r to re=m trades f ! abuses & corruptions :i*1 9 process ( "t1 !y _h contract$1 & to sanctify !m1 t "s at lea/ 9 ea* might live l ! primitive ,*ri/ians1 9 common2 d$uct+ f _! flock only _! necess>y ma9t5ance1 & be/[+ ! re/ on ! poor4 ,&1 at l5g?1 he 9 "p effect$ x2 s t !re are n[ two companies 9 ,p>is1 "o ( taylors1 ! o!r ( %oemak]s1 & ( ^! 9 sev]al qu>t]s ( ! city1 7& ! l !re are at ,?\l\se7 :o live 9 community2 ris+1 eat+1 work+ & pray+ toge!r morn+ & ev5+3 call+ ea* o!r bro!rs1 & liv+ toge!r 9 ! /ricte/ unity & concord4 #f4 ,pass+ "o day by ! hospital ( ,/4 ,g]vase1 & he>+ x 0 devot$ to ! lodg+ ( poor travell]s1 he desir$ leave ( ! sup]ior to in/ruct !m1 9 ! ev5+ :5 !y 7 met toge!r4 ,& ?is he did f t "t1 e night1 com+ ?i!r on foot1 & commonly alone1 summ] & w9t]4 ,aft] in/ruct+ !m1 he jo9$ ) !m 9 pray]1 :i* he conclud$ ) 8 alms4 ,& ?is he cont9u$ _m ye>s1 till "s ,*ur*m51 mov$ by 8 example1 und]took t "w1 :i* !y cont9ue to ?is day4 8:]e0 replac$ ) 870 99#g4 ,8 t5d]ness ( he>t to ^! poor p 0 exce$+ great1 jo9$ ) su* humility z _c easily be express$4 ,:5 he met any "o at ! hospital1 he salut$ him ) great respect1 put him be=e him1 & talk$ ) him b>e-head$4 ,if any kneel$ to him1 he did ! l to !m1 & cont9u$ on 8 knees till !y rose fir/4 ,"o ( !m obs]v+ him dilig5tly1 & kn[+ him to be ! ,"l ( ! place :]e he himself liv$1 0 deeply affect$ at ! sight1 & came & fell at 8 feet3 ,m4 de ,r5ty did ! l to him1 & cont9u$ 9 t po/ure a long "t1 resolv+ n to rise be=e ! poor man4 99#h4 ,go+ "o day to visit ! holy place ( ,monmatre1 aft] 8 pray]s said 9 ! *ur*1 he retir$ into a desolate "p ( ! m\nta91 ne> a little spr+4 ,!re he kneel$ d[n to pray]1 & t end$1 d9$ on a piece ( bread & a draught ( wat]4 ,aft] d9n] he took out 8 te/am5t1 & read a *apt] on 8 knees1 b>e-head$1 ) extraord9>y rev]5ce4 ,j !n came a poor man1 say+ 8 pray]s4 ,m4 de ,r5ty rose up to salute him1 & fell into a disc\rse ) him conc]n+ ,god1 & t s p[]fully1 t ! poor man /rik+ 8 brea/1 fell d[n ^u ! gr\nd to adore t great ,god4 ,imm$iately aft]1 came a poor maid to draw wat] at ! well1 :om he ask$1 ,:at %e 08 ,%e answ]$1 a s]vant1 8,b d y "k1 said he1 y are a ,*ri/ian1 & to :at end y 0 creat$80 ,:5ce he took occasion s to in/ruct h]1 t confess+ %e _h nev] be=e ?\ght ( ! end ( h] creation1 %e promis$ f !nce=? deeply to consid]1 & s]i\sly to pursue x4 #i4 ,9 8 fir/ return f ,dijon1 he /opp$ ?ree or f\r times 9 ! way1 to in/ruct ! poor pass5g]s2 & once w5t out ( ! road1 to %ew "s lab\r]s 9 ! field1 h[ to sanctify ! "w !y 7 ab\t4 #aj4 ,a "y maid 9 ,p>is1 hav+ be5 v cruelly us$ by h] uncle1 fell into su* a disord]1 t 9 a fury %e accus$ our ,savi\r z ! cause ( h] mis]y1 = ab&on+ h] to su* a man4 ,9 ?is horrible condition1 %e receiv$ ! sacram5t sev]al times 9 a day2 on purpose to d despight to our ,savi\r1 & provoke him to f9i% h] de/ruction4 ,m4 de ,r5ty 0 no soon] in=m$ ( ?is1 ?an he ha/$ to f9d h] out2 z he did1 aft] eight days se>*1 9 ! v act ( communicat+4 ,he imm$iately convey$ h] !nce1 & took s great c>e bo? ( h] s\l & body1 t %e return$ to h]self1 & gave ample te/imonies ( h] rep5tance4 #aa4 ,z ! design ( advanc+ ! salvation ( m51 is att5d$ ) mu* do+ & mu* suff]+1 x is necess>y = him t und]takes x1 to =tify himself ) c\rage & pati5ce2 & bo? ^! 7 mo/ em95tly 9 ,m4 de ,r5ty1 be+1 9 ! fir/ place1 full ( c\rage1 resolute1 & labori\s2 employ+ 8 body z if he _h two m 9 res]ve :5 t 0 sp5t2 dispat*+ m bus9ess 9 "o half-h\r1 ?an o!rs did 9 _m days4 ,v bold he 0 9 ent]+ ^u difficulties1 & quick 9 extricat+ himself f !m4 #ab4 ,a lady :o _h left mu* to pi\s uses1 made him h] executor4 ,be+ in=m$1 h] fri5ds1 m5 ( em95t p[]1 7 mu* displeas$1 he repli$1 8,i nev] mov$ h] to be/[ any ( h] e/ate ?is way2 b s9ce h] piety has prompt$ h] to x1 ,i %all n be dismay$ ) any p[] t %all oppose x3 my c>e is to p]=m h] w1 & = o!r ?+s ,i take no ?\ght40 #ac4 ,see+ "o day "s g5tlem5 fight+1 he ?rew himself betwe5 _! swords1 lay+ hold on ^? :o seem$ mo/ outrage\s4 ,at fir/ !y qu>rell$ ) him2 b 9 a %ort "t 7 fri5ds1 bo? ) him1 & ) "o ano!r4 99#ad4 ,8 zeal 0 accompani$1 secondly1 ) unp>allel$ pati5ce2 a virtue highly requisite = him t w\ld save ! s\ls ( m52 see+ he mu/ endeav\r to w9 _! he>ts1 at :i* he is to make 8 fir/ entrance2 n foll[+ 8 own w or incl9ations1 b !irs2 becom+ all ?+s to all m52 wait+ long = _! conv]sion1 & att5d+ 7)\t be+ tir$ & disc\rag$1 ?\gh by all 8 lab\r he %\ld ga9 b little gr\nd7 ! fav\rable mom5ts :]e9 !y may yield to 8 motives4 ,he mu/1 l ?is holy man1 n only be will+ to endure hung]1 ?ir/1 heat1 cold1 wet1 we>9ess & o!r outw>d pa9s1 insep>ably att5dant on employm5ts ( ?is nature2 b also ! importunities1 compla9ts1 passions1 ! repulses1 ! contempts & injuries t are cont9ually to be expect$ 9 !m4 #ae4 ,:ile he 0 employ$ 9 in/ruct+ ! poor travell]s 9 ! hospital ( ,/4 ,g]vase1 a man :o 0 settl$ !re1 look+ ^u x z an intrusion into 8 (fice1 came to him1 z he 0 9 ! mid/ ( ! poor1 & ) _m injuri\s & reproa*ful words1 =bad him to come any m4 ,m4 de ,r5ty hav+ he>d him )\t any emotion1 repli$1 8,! poor p _h mu* ne$ ( in/ruction2 & s9ce he w\ld n be at ! pa9s ( x himself1 he pray$ him n to h9d] "o t w\ld40 ,?is did n satisfy him at all1 b he came f\r days toge!r to drive out ,m4 de ,r5ty1 int]rupt+ him z soon z he began2 b he /ill receiv$ him ) ! same _s1 & at l5g? ov]came evil ) good4 #af4 ,"o day he visit$ a p]son :o1 f a gr\ndless suspicion1 _h cruelly us$ 8 wife2 :o und]/&+ 8 bus9ess1 ent]ta9$ him v co>sely1 giv+ him mu* opprobri\s language1 lift+ up 8 h& to /rike him1 & (f]+ to ?ru/ him out ( doors4 ,m4 de ,r5ty repli$ n "o ^w1 b aft] "s "t1 drew ne> aga91 embrac$ him1 & acco/$ him ) su* s(t language1 t he 0 p]swad$1 at l5g?1 to g to confession1 :i* he _h n done 9 twelve ye>s be=e1 & to be fully reconcil$ to 8 wife2 insomu* t he liv$ & di$ a good ,*ri/ian4 #ag4 ,ano!r "t1 visit+ a poor1 old man t 0 sick1 he began1 z usual1 to speak ( spiritual ?+s4 ,b ! old man1 in/ead ( li/n+1 fell into a passion1 tell+ him1 he und]/ood ^? ?+s bett] ?an he4 ,m4 de ,r5ty told him1 he w\ld be glad to be in/ruct$2 & aft] a great deal ( pati5ce1 & att5tion1 tak+ advantage f "s ?+s 9 t weak disc\rse1 to conv9ce & in=m him bett]1 he proce$$ s happily1 t ! re/ ( 8 days he l$ a truly ,*ri/ian life4 #ah4 ,8 pati5ce 9 be>+ ) ! faults & imp]fections ( o!rs1 z x 0 truly exempl>y1 s x nev] took away1 or weak5$ 8 desire to correct !m1 = :i* he only wait$ a prop] occasion4 ,:5 he int5d$ to reprove ano!r1 he commonly fir/ accus$ himself1 to prep>e !m by 8 example4 ,hav+ su* an int5tion1 he began a disc\rse ( t op5ness ) :i* ,*ri/ians ought to tell "o ano!r ! tru?2 = want ( :i* we gr[ grey 9 our vices1 & (t5 c>ry !m ) u to our graves2 say+1 8,he %\ld hold himself extremely oblig$ to any :o w\ld %ew him t k9dness4 ,8 fri5d f9d+ 8 he>t exce$+ly s(t5$1 bes\ght him to deal freely & pla9ly ) him1 9 tell+ him :atsoev] he saw amiss 9 him2 :i* ?+ !n he did40 8extreamly0 replac$ ) 8extremely0 99#ai4 ,b 8 pati5ce did n 9 ! lea/ break 9 ^u t =titude1 :i* is (t5 requisite 9 ! ?+s ( ,god1 = ! good ( our neighb\r1 & = ! wor?y pres]v+ ( our j au?ority4 ,he knew sev]ity mu/ be us$ sometimes1 especially :5 we h to d ) /ubborn (f5d]s2 & accord+ly advis$ a fri5d1 conc]n+ a ?ird p]son1 8,take he$ ( humbl+ y\rself be=e t man2 ! abas+ y\rself 9 ?is case1 w\ld bo? prejudice him1 & ! cause ( ,god4 ,reprove him sev]ely & r\ndly40 #bj4 ,& n 9 ^! in/ances only1 b 9 all o!rs1 8 zeal 0 accompani$ bo? ) fre$om & prud5ce4 ,= ?\gh 8 humility has conceal$ _m ( 8 inw>d graces & outw>d actions1 yet _m likewise has 8 zeal br\ght to light1 :]e he judg$ x necess>y = ! glory ( ,god1 or ! good ( 8 neighb\r3 conc]n+ :i* he ?us wrote to a virtu\s lady3 8,give me leave to speak my ?\ghts ( t lib]ty we ought to use1 9 communicat+ freely ! gifts ( ,god be/[$ ^u u1 to su* p]sons z may reap fruit f !m2 n /ifl+ !m 9 ourselves1 :]eby we ob/ruct a second fruit1 :i* ,god expects f 8 graces4 99,we %\ld consid] ourselves set 9 ! _w z a *ry/al1 :i*1 plac$ 9 ! middle ( ! univ]se1 w\ld give free passage to all ! light :i* x receives f above3 s ought we to imp>t all ! tal5ts we receive1 & ?is )\t disguise1 or ! lea/ claim ( propriety4 998,f>!r3 z ! *ry/al1 if sev]al tor*es 7 set "u x1 w\ld transmit ! beams ( !m all t[>ds heav53 s :atev] hon\rs or comm5dations we receive f bel[1 %\ld freely pass ?r\gh u up to ,god2 = ,god ha? !re=e be/[$ ^u u su* ?+s z are praise-wor?y1 n t ! praise !re( %\ld re/ ^u u1 b t x may pass ?r\gh u to him1 t he may be bless$ & prais$ 9 all ?+s40 ins]t$ skipp$ ^w 8be0 #ba4 ,yet 8 zeal1 ?\gh free1 0 n s indiscreet1 z to be its own h]ald ^u e appe>ance ( do+ good2 b 0 v circumspect 9 weigh+ all circum/ances4 ,accord+ly1 9 ! same lett]1 he gives ?is wise advice1 t\*+ ! ord] & measure :i* are necess>y to be obs]v$ 9 ?is communication4 8,to "s1 we mu/ lay op5 our he>ts freely & exactly2 to o!rs m res]v$ly2 to o!rs we %\ld be altoge!r lock$ up1 conceal+ f !m :at we see no disposition 9 !m to make a good use (40 99#bb4 ,zeal inde$ %\ld be always att5d$ ) prud5ce1 to consid] ?+s well1 & execute !m 9 ! be/ mann]2 to prev5t mis*iefs1 or r$ress !m ) z mu* ( sweetness1 & z little acrimony z possible3 & 9 desp]ate cases1 or :]e ! cure w\ld prove worse ?an ! disease1 to suff] & pass !m ov]2 "s s\ls hav+ defects1 z x 71 incorrigible1 :i* ,god p]mits to p]fect !m by humility2 & o!rs likewise1 t h an int]c\rse ) !m1 by pati5ce & *>ity4 99#bc4 ,"o great po9t ( prud5ce requisite 9 a zeal\s man1 is1 nei!r to hurt 8 body by too mu* lab\r1 nor 8 m9d ) too mu* bus9ess4 ,z to ! latt] ( ^!1 ,m4 de ,r5ty took especial c>e1 s to manage all 8 works ( *>ity1 t 8 piety might n be h9d]$ b advanc$ !reby1 indisp5sably p]=m+ all 8 ex]cises ( devotion2 & :ile he conv]s$ mo/ ) 8 neighb\r1 res]v+ a consid]able "p1 bo? ( ! day & night1 = conv]s+ ) ,god4 ,z to ! o!r1 he ?us express$ himself to a cl]gyman1 :o _h impair$ 8 heal? by extreme lab\r3 8,give me leave1 ,sir1 to tell y pla9ly1 t y %\ld n impose too mu* ^u y\rself1 le/ = want ( mod]ation1 y r5d] y\rself altoge!r uns]viceable4 ,! enemy usually takes no small advantage ( su* free & well-dispos$ natures2 y are n y\r own1 b a debtor to all m54 ,pres]ve y\rself !re=e1 n by indulg+ y\r body1 b by lay+ ^u x no m ?an x is able to be>40 #bd4 ,be+ at ,citry1 9 ! latt] end ( ! ye> #afdb1 he _h a /rong impression ^u 8 _s1 t at 8 return to ,p>is1 he %\ld f9d a new employm5t ab\t ! poor1 & be mu* tak5 up !re94 ,accord+ly1 two days aft] 8 return ?i!r1 "s p]sons came to advise ) him1 ab\t a c\rse ( reliev+ all su* poor 9 ! city1 z 7 a%am$ to beg4 ,he und]took to visit a f\r? "p ( !m1 & to assi/ !m accord+ to _! necessities4 ,an employm5t suffici5t to take up ! :ole "t ( "o man1 :i* yet he p]=m$1 not)/&+ ! multitude ( 8 o!r occupations2 s t we mu/ say1 )\t a special assi/ance1 he c\ld n h done & suff]$ :at he did2 b ,god1 :o ha? limit$ our /r5g? ( body1 c increase x :5 & h[ he please?4 #be4 ,sometimes he receiv$ be=e-h& only a pres5t impulse ( some?+ to be done1 )\t any p>ticul> discov]y4 ,z :5 he 0 mu* press$ 9 _s to g to ,pontois1 )\t und]/&+ any reason = x2 yet1 believ+ x to be ! call ( ,god1 he imm$iately und]took ! j\rney2 :]e unexpect$ly he met ) a nobleman ( great quality1 :o 0 come f a prov9ce f> di/ant1 on purpose to be in/ruct$ by ,m4 de ,r5ty1 h[ to s]ve ,god1 :i* he _h1 till !n1 little kn[n1 & less practis$4 #bf4 ,b ?\gh ?is great s]vant ( ,god _h an excell5t faculty ( assi/+ all1 yet 0 he m em95tly assi/ant to "s p>ticul> p]sons1 = ! heal+ _! s\ls1 & lead+ !m on apace 9 ! n>r[ way ( p]fection4 ,i %all m5tion "o only1 ! ,c\ntess ( ,*atres1 :o be+ deep 9 ! affections ( ! _w1 z are mo/ "y ladies ( h] quality1 x pleas$ ,god to inspire h] ) a desire to ask advice ( ,m4 de ,r5ty2 ?is he gave h] ) s happy success1 t he himself 0 a/oni%$ at x4 ,9 less ?an a ye>1 %e 0 s p]fectly dis5gag$ f all ^? little conv5i5ces & accommodations1 :i* our ladies p]swade !mselves are absolutely necess>y1 t "o (f]+ h] some?+ ( ?is k9d1 :i* %e 0 =m]ly fond (1 %e answ]$1 8,i ?ank ,god1 ,i h quitt$ ?is1 & _m m ?+s1 = ! love ( ,god1 & yet f9d no want at all40 #bg4 ,god gave him light to disc]n h] prop] way1 h[ to r5\nce h]self1 & advance 9 ! pa?s ( solid virtue1 & to support h] 9 great inw>d afflictions4 ,& %e1 on h] "p1 resign$ up h]self to 8 guidance1 & =c$ h]self to put 8 advice 9 execution3 a ?+ v requisite 9 ^? :o w\ld make use ( ! conduct ( o!rs to good purpose4 99#bh4 ,?\gh ?is happy int]c\rse1 accompani$ ) su* signal bless+s1 _h contract$ a /rict & p]fect fri5d%ip betwe5 !m1 yet he 0 v w>y & res]v$ 9 8 conv]sation ) h]2 visit+ h] only :5 ! "w ( ,god requir$ x1 & nei!r speak+ nor /ay+ ) h] any long] ?an 0 precisely necess>y4 ,?is %e ?\ght a little h>%1 & compla9$ ( x to a fri5d1 :om %e knew to h "s p[] ) him1 say+1 8,m4 de ,r5ty extremely mortifies me ) 8 civilities & res]v$ness4 ,i h great ne$ to see him (t51 & yet _c obta9 x4 ,nay1 :5 we are toge!r1 he w n sit d[n1 except :5 ,i am sick1 or n able to /& any long]2 & always ) 8 hat 9 8 h&4 ,i beg y to tell him1 :at out ( respect ,i d>e n1 :at inquietude ,i suff]1 to see 8 behavi\r su* t[>d me1 :o ought to be cont9ually "u 8 feet40 ,! p]son acqua9t+ him ) ?is1 he answ]$1 8,i proce$ 9 ?is mann] because my duty to ,god & to ! ,c\ntess ( ,*atres require x4 ,my ,savi\r obliges me to conv]se ) h]2 b ,i mu/ d no m ?an :at is necess>y1 & s retire1 = :i* ?is po/ure is mo/ conv5i5t4 ,if we sat d[n1 we %\ld =get ourselves1 & talk m ?an is necess>y1 & p]haps pass on to ?+s unpr(itable3 !re=e we ought bo? to /& ^u our gu>d40 #bi4 ,^? :o und]take ! conduct ( s\ls1 ought s]i\sly to consid] ?is answ]2 & to be fully p]suad$1 t ! bus9ess does n consi/ 9 speak+ mu* to !m1 b 9 dispos+ !m to speak to ,god1 & 9 mak+ !m fit = ,god to speak to !m4 #cj4 ,9 ! ye> #afdg1 hav+ visit$ "o afflict$ ) great pa9s1 he ?us writ to 8 director3 8,i h be5 ) ! p]son y "k (1 & h told h] :at ,i ?\ght suitable to h] condition4 ,i acqua9t$ h] h[ we ought to lay ?is sure f\ndation1 t we are no?+ b weakness & mis]y itself2 & t ,god f ?is insuffici5cy ( ourselves to all good1 means to extract humility & diffid5ce ( ourselves1 oblig+ u !reby to fly to 8 ,son1 to f9d /r5g? 9 ,him1 & a rem$y = all our mis]ies4 8,z conc]n+ myself1 ,i h n mu* to say4 ,only ,i f9d )9 myself1 by ! m]cy ( ,god1 a great tranquility 9 8 pres5ce1 ?r\gh ! ,_s ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & su* an inw>d exp]i5ce ( et]nal life1 z ,i am n able to express4 ,yet ,i f9d myself1 s nak$ & b>r5 t ,i wond] at ! condition ,i am 91 & by :i* ,i disc\rse4 ,9 my conv]se ) ?is p]son1 ,i begun my spee*1 n kn[+ h[ to pursue x4 ,aft] ! second s5t5ce ,i _h n ! lea/ =esight ( :at %\ld be ! ?ird2 & s ( ! re/4 ,n b t ,i seem to h a p]fect k ( ! ?+s ,i speak1 9 su* a mann] z ,i am capable ( x4 ,b ,i only utt] :at is giv5 me1 & 9 ! same way z x is communicat$1 ,i communicate x to o!rs40 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,8 outw>d behavi\r1 & conduct ( bus9ess4 #a4 ,m4 de ,r5ty be+ s5sible1 t ev5 our outw>d behavi\r is ( great consequ5ce 9 ! s]vice ( our neighb\r1 be+ t :i* makes ! fir/ impression ^u !m1 did :atev] he c\ld = ! well compos+ 8 ext]ior1 keep+ 8 ge/ures1 motions1 looks1 & all p>ts ( 8 conv]sation 9 su* a h>mony1 z he judg$ fitt$ to draw 8 neighb\r to ,god4 99#b4 ,he 0 v mode/1 always calm & inviolably equal4 8,among all ! ?+s ,i obs]v$ 9 ,m4 de ,r5ty1 7says "o ( 8 intimate fri5ds7 :at fir/ affect$ me 01 8 r>e mode/y & great ev5ness ( behavi\r4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 8 looks :i* c>ri$ s mu* rev]5ce 9 x "o might easily judge1 he 0 always actually 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god40 #c4 ,9 e condition or employm5t :atsoev]1 he 0 ! same 9 8 looks1 ge/ures1 words & actions1 :e!r alone or 9 company1 ) ri* or poor1 /rang]s or fri5ds1 be=e 8 *ildr5 or s]vants1 yea ev5 be=e 8 footman1 9 ! c\ntry or t[n1 at ! table1 & e :]e4 #d4 ,& su* a con/ant equality 0 ! m obs]vable1 because ( 8 natural disposition1 :i* 0 n sl[1 heavy & phlegmatick1 b *ol]ick1 hot & active4 ,b ! exact & p]petual c>e he _h ov] himself1 _h :olly inv]t$ 8 nature1 & br\ght him to a behavi\r1 z well z temp]1 directly opposite to ^? he took f 8 "m's womb4 #e4 ,ano!r ( 8 fri5ds writes ( him ?us3 8,t :i* pleas$ me mo/ 9 him 01 ,8 great recollection & intimate union ) ,god3 att5d$ ) su* a wond]ful peace ( m9d1 z %one =? 9 8 c\nt5ance1 & begot a k9d ( devotion 9 8 behold]s4 ,?is union1 me?\ght1 0 ev] ! same1 )\t any sign ( di/raction or levity1 or any ^w n necess>y1 no complaisance or human reg>d ev] =c+ him to scatt] 8 _s4 ,n b he 0 full ( civility2 b /ill s z to look m )9 himself ?an )\t40 duplicate ^w 8a0 remov$ #f4 ,& inde$ ?is cont9ual pres5ce ( ,god1 s :olly took up 8 _s1 t no unusual accid5t or object1 or any ?+ r>e or extraord9>y c\ld div]t him4 ,i nev] saw him admire any ?+ 9 ! _w1 nor fix 8 eyes ^u any curiosity :atev]4 ,& 8 gait 9 ! /reets 0 s recollect$1 mode/ & equal1 )\t gaz+ on any ?+1 t a man might see ,jesus ,*ri/ 0 8 way1 8 employm5t1 & 8 all4 8eys0 replac$ ) 8eyes0 #g4 ,9 8 spee* he 0 v resolv$1 by *oice z well z by nature4 ,9 :atev] company x conc]n$ him to speak1 he did s 9 8 c\rse1 ) a compos$ demeanor1 & words few1 b mat]ial4 ,he 0 nev] kn[n =w>d or eag] to speak1 or 9 speak+ to d x ) a high] tone ?an ord9>y4 ,if he gave an acc\nt ( any bus9ess1 he did x s briefly1 & 9 words s p]t95t1 t x 0 a v h>d matt] to f9d "o t spoke bett]1 & yet less ?an he4 #h4 ,?+s t 7 unpr(itable1 or ! news ( ! times1 7 nev] ! subject ( 8 disc\rse3 b always some?+ p]ta9+ to ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,& :5 ! conv]sation 0 div]t$ to worldly ?+s1 he ei!r took leave ( ! company or /ole away )\t4 #i4 ,& :5 he talk$ ev5 ( good ?+s1 x 0 ) c>e & mod]ation3 say+1 8,!re 0 mu* ne$ ( sp>+ness & sobriety1 :5 we speak ev5 ( ! ?+s ( ,god1 le/ x turn to no good acc\nt3 & t x 0 a great tr\ble to him1 :5 among s]i\s p]sons to he> !m (t5 sp5d preci\s "t 9 talk+ ( virtue at l>ge1 & to f9d !m dep>t+ f su* conf]5ces1 ) dry1 empty1 & dissipat$ spirits40 #aj4 ,z to conduct ( bus9ess1 8 me?od 01 s]i\sly to consid] ?+s1 be=e any resolution1 & if aft] 8 own s5se 0 giv51 he f\nd ano!r's to be bett] he readily quitt$ 8 own4 ,aft] he _h resolv$1 he 0 prompt1 firm1 & con/ant 9 ! execution ( x4 ,b sometimes1 :5 he _h gone ?r\gh ! difficulties ( a design1 he left x to a fri5d to f9i%2 n out ( incon/ancy1 b to ga9 "t = und]tak+ m1 z well z to avoid ! hon\r ( x4 #aa4 ,9 all affairs t conc]n$ ! s]vice ( ,god1 he _h an immoveable con/ancy4 ,& besides ! =ce ( 8 words1 !re appe>$ 9 8 face an extraord9>y assurance1 7?\gh 8 ord9>y deportm5t 0 always sweet & quiet7 :i* p>ticul>ly appe>$ 9 all meet+s1 :]eby he manife/$ su* a _s t ^? :o beheld him1 felt !mselves /ruck ) awful reg>d4 ,8 proposals g5]ally c>ri$ s mu* light & =ce 9 !m1 t all 7 con/ra9$ to acquiesce 9 8 det]m9ation4 ,b if any disput$ 8 reasons he knew h[ to en=ce !m2 & if !y *anc$ to make ano!r reply1 7:i* 0 a ?+ t exce$+ r>ely happ5$7 he said n "o ^w m1 b 8 v sil5ce1 & ! /ead9ess ( 8 c\nt5ance1 re/ra9$ any fur!r dispute4 ,! meet+ end$1 he w\ld g to t p]son & ask 8 p>don2 in=m+ him1 8,t :at he aim$ at1 01 n to make good 8 op9ion b to advance ! cause ( ,god2 9 all o!r ?+s he 0 ready to yield to e "o40 99#ab4 ,b ( all ?+s he took c>e1 n to ov]*>ge himself ) bus9ess1 to ! prejudice ( 8 piety4 ,he knew t outw>d employm5ts1 ev5 ! mo/ holy1 may be h9drances to inw>d hol9ess4 ,:]e=e he 0 c>eful n to ov]burd5 himself ) !m1 & v vigilant1 t !y %\ld n di/ract & dissipate him1 nor secul>ize 8 s\l1 b s]ve only z means to elevate & unite him m to ,god4 99#ac4 ,& ,god s bless$ him !re91 t 9 ! multitude ( bus9ess1 he 0 /ill 9 a cont9ual recollection4 ,a famili> fri5d ask+ him1 ,:e!r 9 t ?rong ( employm5ts1 he obs]v$ 8 usual two h\rs ( pray]2 he answ]$1 8,:5 ,i c1 ,i keep ?ree h\rs1 sometimes f\r or five2 b :5 occasion (f]s to s]ve my neighb\r1 ,i easily quit !m1 = ,god ( 8 m]cy ha? giv5 me ! grace1 to be insep>ably ) him1 ev5 9 ! cr[d ( bus9ess40 ,to ! same purpose he writ to 8 director2 8,i cont9ue my devotion out ( ! "t & place ( pray]1 ev5 9 ! mid/ ( conv]se & bus9ess3 & ,i tell y s9c]ely1 ?o' ,i p]=m e ?+ s ill1 yet ,i f9d little diff]5ce ( times = pray]1 be+ recollect$ cont9ually40 ,& ! same might be ga!r$ 7z 0 obs]v$ be=e7 f 8 mode/y & compos$ c\nt5ance1 cle>ly evid5c+1 t 8 s\l 0 :olly & con/antly 9 application to ,god1 f :om he drew light & /r5g?1 = ! conduct ( all 8 bus9ess4 ,( :i* he ?us wrote to 8 director2 8,my recollection h9d]s no bus9ess at all1 b fur!rs x4 ,)\t x ,i %\ld h a sollicit\s desire ( do+ all myself3 :]eas ,i n[ act 9 a mo/ calm way1 9 :i* ,i h no %>e2 = x is our ,"l t do? all40 ,9 ano!r lett] ?us2 8,f9d+ myself "o day mu* bur!n$ ) v>iety ( bus9esses1 ,i _h a desire to draw (f my m9d :olly2 & at ! same in/ant x 0 done4 ,s9ce t "t !y create me no tr\ble1 & ,i dispat* !m m readily )\t ?9k+ ( !m4 ,?is grace ha? be5 (t5 r5ew$ 9 me1 7al?\gh 9 sev]al mann]s7 :i* ,i ackn[l$ge to be v great1 because x pres]ves me dis5gag$1 ev5 9 ! multiplicity ( bus9ess40 99#ad4 ,if aft] he _h done 8 "p1 any design misc>ri$1 he re/$ well satisfi$4 ,on su* an occasion he ?us writ to a fri5d2 8,we may take up good designs1 & ,god (t5 inspires !m2 yet :5 he is pleas$ to p]mit a contr>y ev5t1 we mu/ adore 8 secret w1 :i* br+s m ( m]cy 9 ! cross+ ( !m1 ?an if !y _h succe$$4 ,we %\ld always be jeal\s ov] our _s1 t x fix n ^u any ?+40 ,& aga91 8,our ,"l has 8 designs1 :i* he effects by su* means z we w\ld n at all make *oice (3 ,! reason is1 because he w\ld break our wills1 & abate our dep5d5cies ^u e>?4 ,!re=e he (t5 crosses our be/ und]tak+s1 be+ m jeal\s ( ! sacrifice ( our he>ts1 ?an any ?+ else1 h[ speci\s s ev]40 #ae4 ,i _c bett] conclude ?is *apt]1 ?an ) a lett] writ to 8 director on ?is subject3 8,= ^! ?ree or f\r mon?s ,i h be51 z x 71 cont9ually employ$ 9 outw>d works2 z remov+ f place to place1 new build+ a *ur*1 tak+ c>e ( ! sick1 reconcil+ diff]5ces1 conf]r+ ) all sorts ( p4 ,ye/]day he>+ ^? words ( ! gospel read1 #8,?\ art tr\bl$ ab\t _m ?+s1' x 0 said to my he>t1 #8,?\ art n tr\bl$ ab\t _m ?+s1' giv+ me to und]/&1 t ! ?+s we are employ$ ^u1 accord+ to ! w ( ,god1 d n create u t tr\ble2 & t ,m>?a 0 n reprov$ = do+ ! "w1 b = do+ x too sollicit\sly4 ,our ,savi\r intimat+ to h]1 t no bus9ess %\ld be done ) inord9ate agitation ( _s4 ,s9ce our great bus9ess is1 to he> ! et]nal ^w1 & act no?+ ) di/urbance1 b all 9 peace by 8 ,_s40 998,i receiv$ h]eby a great support 9 ! p]=mance ( ^! petty ext]ior (fices1 & made no difficulty at all to yield myself up to ?is holily disord]$ div9e ord]4 ,at ! same "t ,i enjoy$ su* a s5sible impression ( ,god1 yet excell+ all s5se1 t if ,i _h be5 ?r[n l a b[l1 ,i c\ld nev] h lo/ ! sight ( my ,god4 ,our ,"l turns ?is b[l 9 a /range mann]1 ev5 z x please? him4 ,& ^! sev]al turn+s are all = ! s\l's advantage1 :]eby %e is fa%ion$ = e occasion1 t %e may d no?+ = or by h]self2 b all = ,god1 & accord+ to him4 8,i see likewise t "o :om ,god employs 9 ^! l[ affairs1 if he foll[ !m ) ! same fidelity1 is z acceptable to ,god1 z "o t is employ$ 9 ! mo/ noble functions4 ,w no?+ please y b to conv]t worlds8 ,y %all be cont5t to c>ry /ones2 & sometimes to sit /ill & d no?+4 ,y are !n to (f] ! sacrifice ( pati5ce4 ,& ,i believe x is a ?\s& times m r>e1 to f9d a s\l ?us fai?ful 9 pati5ce1 & cont5t to d no m ?an ,god w\ld h him1 ?an fai?ful 9 actions t appe> abroad4 8,i h "o ^w m to tell y2 :i* is1 t ,i am really a%am$ & conf\nd$1 t ,i d no m = ,god3 :i* inde$1 ) ! s5se ( my unfitness = any ?+ t is good1 w\ld "w me mu* torm5t1 did ,i n consid]1 ,he is all-suffici5t1 & do? ) u z he please?40 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,( 8 dea?4 #a4 ,,on ! #aa? ( ,april1 #afdi1 he f\nd himself v ill1 & hav+ conceal$ 8 sickness five days1 0 !n con/ra9$ to take 8 b$4 ,he endur$ great pa9s all ov] 8 body1 ) :i* 8 m9d too 0 s mu* affect$1 t he pr(e/1 if ,god _h n assi/$ him aga9/ ! rav+s ( 8 imag9ation1 he %\ld h spok5 m extravagancies ?an any madman4 8,!re 0 mu*1 he said1 9 su* a condition to humble him4 ,b x 0 ! duty ( a s9n] to hon\r ,god1 9 all conditions :]e9 he %\ld place him40 #b4 ,dur+ ^! great pa9s & torm5ts1 & dur+ ! :ole c\rse ( 8 sickness1 8 ord9>y employm5t consi/$ 9 affectionate elevations ( 8 s\l to ,god1 9 ?\ghts & words ( bless+1 praise1 & submission to :atsoev] 0 laid ^u him1 & ( meekness & p]fect ob$i5ce to all t att5d$1 & _h ! c>e ( him1 ) su* a humble & cont5t$ _s1 t he ?\ght all well done1 ?\gh sometimes x 0 o!rwise4 #c4 ,8 pati5ce nev] gave way to any compla9t4 ,& :5 8 keep]1 :o 0 ( ! hospital ( *>ity1 ) :om he _h visit$ s _m poor & sick1 importun$ him to decl>e 8 pa91 998,o si/]1 said he1 h[ does ! love ( ,god wipe away all pa98 ,! s]vants ( ,god suff] no?+40 ,ano!r fri5d ask+1 if 8 pa9 0 n great8 ,he answ]$1 no4 ,! o!r repli$1 8,he ?\ght x 040 8,x is true1 sai? he1 t ,i am mu* clogg$ ) my disease2 b ,i feel x n1 because ,i d n ?9k ( x40 #d4 ,be+ urg$ to take "s sweet ?+s1 he refus$1 say+1 8,^! make little = life or = dea?40 ,yet he refus$ n physic1 b took x ) a *e>ful c\nt5ance1 ?\gh x 0 v bitt]1 & he _h a great difficulty 9 swall[+4 ,inde$ :5 "o told him ( ano!r m$ic9e :i* _h done great cures1 he answ]$1 8,pati5ce is a sov]eign rem$y10 intimat+ 8 unwill+ness to try x4 ,yet :5 x 0 br\ght1 he took x )\t any reluctance4 #e4 ,8 sickness increas+ m & m1 yet he nev] call$ = any ?+ to refre% him3 & :5 !y _h =c$ clean %eets ^u 8 b$1 & a pill[1 :i* he _h be=e refus$1 he said1 8,lo6 ,"h lies a g5tleman at 8 ease40 99#f4 ,feel+ "s joy arise 9 him1 ^u ! sight ( a p]son ( 8 acqua9tance1 ) :om he _h held a /rict correspond5ce 9 spiritual ?+s1 :o came out ( ! c\ntry on purpose to visit him3 he imm$iately repeat$ ?rice ov]1 ) great f]v\r1 8,i desire no?+ m b ,god40 #g4 ,reflect+ on ! poor1 ! con/ant objects ( 8 t5d]e/ c>e1 he said to 8 lady1 8,i recomm5d ! poor to y4 ,w n y h a great c>e ( !m8 ,y w p]=m x bett] ?an ,i4 ,fe> no?+3 :at y give to !m1 w n less5 ! re/40 #h4 ,! greate/ "p ( ! fir/ week ( 8 illness1 & "s "p ( ! second likewise1 0 sp5t by him 9 works ( m]cy1 appo9t+ ( alms1 & giv+ ord]s = lett]s to be writ into sev]al prov9ces1 ab\t bus9ess ( *>ity :]e) he /ood *>g$1 & :]e( he gave an exact acc\nt4 #i4 ,_m p]sons ( quality com+ to visit him1 he receiv$ !m ) mu* civility1 b n )\t "s conc]n1 because mo/ ( ^? visits drew on disc\rse ( worldly ?+s4 8,!y come hi!r1 said he1 to talk philosophy2 ( :i* ,i h no ne$40 ,& ano!r "t 8 expression 01 8,a ,*ri/ian %\ld talk little40 99#aj4 ,a lady ( great piety com+ to visit him said1 8,sir1 ,i w\ld ) all my he>t lay d[n my life to save y\rs40 ,he repli$ ) a *e>ful look1 & eyes lift$ up to heav51 8,to die is n to be lo/4 ,our conv]sation & union w h]eaft] be m ne> & intimate40 ,%e said1 8,b1 ,sir1 if x pleas$ ,god to re/ore y\r heal?1 & cont9ue y long] ) u2 d n y desire x8 ,/4 ,m>t9 desir$ to live ^u ^! t]ms40 ,he answ]$1 8,o ,madam1 !re is no comp>ison betwe5 a sa9t & a s9n]6 ,! w ( ,god be done40 #aa4 ,! ?ird day ( 8 sickness he desir$ 8 director might be s5t =4 ,& be+ ask$1 if he f\nd himself worse8 ,he answ]$1 8,no2 b 9 a bus9ess ( ?is consequ5ce1 x is n safe to delay1 = fe> ( a surprizal1 ! judgm5t & memory be+ bo? s subject to decay40 ,! next day he made 8 confession1 ! day aft] he confess$ aga91 & almo/ e day till 8 dea?4 #ab4 ,! pa/or ( 8 p>i% hav+ adm9i/]$ to him ! ,holy ,communion1 & obs]v+ 8 deep sil5ce1 n speak+ "o ^w2 b only ) pr(\nd humility1 8,my ,god1 my ,god1 p>don me2 ,i am a great s9n]60 ,he ask$ him ! reason1 :y he spake s little1 & did n apply himself to ^? :o 7 well-pleas$ to he> him8 8,x is n fitt+1 said he1 to speak 9 ! pres5ce ( him :om ,i h receiv$1 nor take up any room 9 ^? he>ts1 :i* ought to be fill$ only ) ,god40 ,he add$1 998,my _s is n[ appli$ to t joy1 :i* a creature ought to h1 to see himself ^u ! po9t ( be+ re-unit$ to 8 fir/ pr9ciple1 & 8 la/ end40 #ac4 ,! same day aft] d9n]1 "o told him1 8,x 0 fit to use "s div]sion f 8 s]i\s ?\ghts2 ! physicians judg+ 8 disease to h mu* ( melan*oly 9 x40 ,to :om he repli$1 8,i nev] _h any joy comp>able to t ,i h felt ?is day40 ,he ask$ him1 = :at cause8 8,to ?9k1 said he1 t ,i am go+ to be unit$ ) my ,god40 ,he add$ e>ne/ly1 8,i desire to be dissolv$1 & to be ) ,*ri/4 ,! ,_s & ! bride say1 ,come2 & let him t he>e? say1 ,come4 ,& he t ?ir/e?1 ,let him come4 ,behold ,i come quickly4 ,am52 ,come ,"l ,jesus60 99#ad4 ,ab\t noon1 he desir$ 8 w9d[ might be set op51 t he might behold ! brightness ( ! day3 :i* be+ done1 he cri$ out1 8,o bright day ( et]nity6 ,h[ ?is sun-%9e *e>s me6 ,help+ me to m$itate on t day1 :i* %all nev] h night60 99#ae4 ,! m 8 sickness increas$1 ! m he /rove to unite himself to ,god by pray]1 imitat+ 8 ma/]1 :o 9 ! /r5g? ( 8 agony1 pray$ ! m e>ne/ly4 ,& :5 ! viol5ce ( 8 disease s oppre/ him1 t he _h ne$ ( great] /ra9+1 to keep 8 m9d fix$ ^u ,god1 he cri$ out1 8,c\rage1 c\rage6 ,et]nity is at h&60 #af4 ,_m su* spee*es he utt]$ ) incr$ible f]vor1 ?o' he c\ld n pron\nce !m di/9ctly1 by reason ( ! extreme dryness ( 8 ?roat1 occasion$ by ! fev]4 ,at la/1 /opp+ 8 spee*1 he fix$ 8 eyes /$fa/ly on heav51 = a qu>t] ( an h\r toge!r1 ) a smil+ look1 & full ( rev]5ce1 z if he saw "s extraord9>y sight4 ,aft] :i* ga!r+ all 8 /r5g?1 he sat up 9 8 b$1 took (f 8 cap1 & hold+ x 9 8 h&1 said1 7) words half /ifl$ 9 8 ?roat1 z well by ! ardor ( 8 _s1 z ! weakness ( 8 body7 8,i adore y1 ,i adore y40 #ag4 ,! curate hav+ us$ ! s]vice ( ! *ur*1 to :i* he att5d$ ) great devotion1 answ]+ to e pray]1 ask$ him1 if he w\ld n give a bless+ to 8 *ildr58 ,he answ]$1 8,h[ s1 good ,sir1 %all ,i presume to give a bless+ 9 y\r pres5ce8 ,i %\ld be happy to receive "o f y40 ,b be+ urg$ !reto1 & told ! *ur* all[$ x1 he lift$ up 8 h&s & eyes to heav51 say+1 8,may x please ,god to bless y & to pres]ve y by 8 grace f ! malignity ( ! _w1 t y may h no "p !re96 ,& above all1 my *ildr51 may y live 9 ! fe> & love ( ,god1 & yield due ob$i5ce to y\r "m60 #ah4 ,on ,saturday1 ab\t half an h\r pa/ t5 9 ! =5oon1 be+ j recov]$ out ( a viol5t convulsion1 look+ att5tively on ^? t 7 pres5t1 he made signs ) 8 h&s1 head1 & eyes1 ) a pleasant c\nt5ance1 = an intimate fri5d to come ne> him4 ,:i* be+ done1 he said1 8be50 replac$ ) 8be+0 8,sir1 ,i h "o ^w to say to y be=e ,i die30 7!n paus+ a little to recov] 8 /r5g?1 he te/ifi$ 8 affection to him1 b 9 words t c\ld n di/9ctly be und]/ood4 ,at l5g? rais+ 8 voice1 & speak+ m articulately1 he w5t on7 8,! p]fection ( a ,*ri/ian life1 is to be unit$ to ,god by fai?4 ,let u n entangle ourselves 9 novelties4 ,let u adore 8 conduct ov] u1 & cont9ue fai?ful to him unto ! end4 ,let u adh]e to t "o ,god1 crucifi$ = our salvation4 ,let u unite all our actions1 & all t is 9 u to 8 m]its2 hop+ t if we cont9ue fai?ful to him by 8 grace1 we %all be p>tak]s ( ! glory ( 8 ,fa!r4 ,i hope we %all !re see "o ano!r "o day1 :i* %all nev] h an end40 #ai4 ,"s "t aft]1 fix+ 8 eyes ^u heav51 he said1 8,! holy ,jesus1 :]e is he80 ,!y br\ght him 8 picture1 :i* he affectionately kiss$4 ,!n turn+ himself he pres5tly ent]$ 8 la/ agony2 :i* held ab\t a qu>t] ( an h\r1 ! greate/ "p ( :i* he sp5t 9 pron\nc+ ! "n ( ,jesus2 mak+ z well z he c\ld1 acts ( resignation1 & comm5d+ 8 _s to ,god3 ,aft] :i* he expir$ sweetly1 & 8 holy s\l dep>t$ to its place ( re/4 #bj4 ,?us liv$ & di$ ,m4 de ,r5ty1 "o ( ! mo/ glori\s lights ,god ha? be/[$ ^u 8 *ur* 9 our age4 ,he di$ at ,p>is1 9 ! #cg? ye> ( 8 age1 ! #bd? ( ,april #afdi1 ab\t noon4 ,we h great reason to admire ! secret c\nsels ( ,god1 9 tak+ out ( ! _w1 9 ! fl[] ( 8 age1 a man s qualifi$ to advance ! hon\r ( ,god1 & ! good ( 8 neighb\r4 ,b :5 we say1 x 0 ! h& ( ,god1 all ?+s are !re9 conclud$4 ,h]eby he is pleas$ to let u "k1 t he ha? no ne$ ( u = ! advanc+ 8 glory2 & t :5 he does use u z in/rum5ts !re91 we ought to behave ) all humility 9 8 pres5ce4 ,he ha? translat$ him to ano!r place1 :]e he glorifies 8 maje/y ) great] p]fection2 & :]e he waits = u to glorify & love1 toge!r ) him1 ,god ! ,fa!r1 ! ,son1 & ! ,holy ,gho/1 to all et]nity6 ,am56 ,an ,,extract f ! ,,life & ,,dea? ( ,,?omas ,,wal%4 ,,! ,,introduction4 ,,! exce$+ ri*es ( ! grace ( ,god our ,savi\r1 & ! effectual work+ ( 8 mighty p[]1 h 9 all ages %one mo/ conspicu\sly 9 ! holy lives & exempl>y conv]sation ( 8 em95t s]vants1 ! excell5t ( ! e>?1 ) :om are 8 peculi> delights4 ,& al?\gh1 /rictly speak+1 ,he only is wise & good1 nev]!less1 !re is a s5se 9 :i* goodness is ) propriety ascrib$ bo? to angels & to m54 ,?is consi/s 9 _! resemblance ( him :o is ! s\rce & model ( all goodness1 hol9ess1 & p]fection2 z proce$+ f 8 fulness1 :5ce life & bless$ness fl[ to e creature1 :e!r 9 heav5 or 9 e>?4 ,( ?is k9d ! scriptures furni% u ) sev]al examples1 ,abraham1 ,eno*1 ,noah1 ,daniel & ,job1 7beside _m o!rs7 are describ$ 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t1 z m5 walk+ be=e ,god1 & p]fect 9 _! g5]ation4 ,& ! elev5? *apt] to ! ,hebrews conta9s little else ?an an acc\nt ( anci5t wor?ies1 em95tly rem>kable = _! fai?1 suff]+s1 pati5ce1 & glori\s end2 :o consid]+ !mselves z /rang]s & pilgrims 9 ?is _w1 s\ght a city :i* ha? f\ndations1 ^: build] & mak] is ,god4 ,& ,god1 sai? ! apo/le1 ha? provid$ "s bett] ?+s = u1 t !y )\t u %\ld n be made p]fect4 ,! "t w\ld fail to m5tion p>ticul>ly ! names ( all ! em95tly fai?ful1 :o h liv$ & adorn$ _! pr(ession1 s9ce life & immortality h be5 br\ght to light by ! gospel4 ,!y are an innum]able company4 ,x is en\gh = u to "k1 t if any "o love? ,god1 ! same is kn[n ( him4 ,_! names are writt5 9 ! ,lamb's book ( life1 & %all at la/ be numb]$ among/ 8 jewels4 ,:5 names1 & sects1 & p>ties fall1 ,& ?\1 ,o ,*ri/1 art all 9 all6 ,among ! numb] ( p]sons em95t = _! usefulness & p]sonal hol9ess1 :i* ! pres5t g5]ation has produc$1 he1 a "p ( ^: life is "h relat$1 may ju/ly be consid]$ z "o2 & 8 example is "o1 :i* 9 "s respects may be said to h its peculi> excell5cies4 ,a circum/antial detail ( su* ?+s z (t5 f9d a place 9 ?is k9d ( writ+s1 namely1 family1 *ildhood1 education1 /ature1 complexion1 & a v>iety ( common occurr5ces1 is judg$1 z well t$i\s z =eign to ! design ( ! "w1 :i* is to repres5t1 pr9cipally :at pass$ betwe5 ,god & 8 s\l 9 ! progress ( 8 conv]sation & daily walk+ ) ,god4 ,& yet nei!r is intellig5ce ( ?is sort :olly omitt$2 he has left a few p>ticul>s relative !reto1 :i* w enable ! read] to =m "s idea1 z well ( ! =m] z latt] "p ( 8 pilgrimage4 ,8 pray] 01 #8,t ?is little book 7mean+ :at is "h call$ ! fir/ "p1 great "p ( :i* he wrote himself7 may be made a bless+ to all :o %all read x2 t ! ,"l ,jesus may make x a means ( k9dl+ holy desire 9 _! s\ls1 & ( /irr+ !m up to ! fe> & love ( ,god4' ,,"p ! ,,fir/4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,( 8 bir? & education4 ,,?omas ,,wal%1 0 born 9 ! ye> ( our ,"l #agcj1 at a place call$ ,bally ,l9n1 9 ! c\nty1 & )9 ab\t t5 miles ( ! city ( ,lim]ick 9 ,irel&4 ,8 fa!r1 ,edmund ,wal%1 0 by occupation a c>p5t]1 a man ( tol]able education1 & /rong natural und]/&+4 ,8 "m's "n 0 ,hel5a ,n\gham1 born ( reputable p>5ts4 ,!y 7 bo? memb]s (1 & entirely biggott$ to ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,:5 ab\t eight ye>s old1 he 0 put to s*ool to le>n ,engli% 78 "m tongue 0 ,iri%47 ,aft]w>ds he w5t to s*ool to "o ( 8 bro!rs 7( :om he _h sev]al7 by :om he 0 initiat$ into ! ,lat9 tongue4 ,hav+ acquir$ its rudim5ts 9 "s tol]able degree1 he w5t aft]w>ds into ! neighb\r+ c\nty ( ,cl>e1 ) a design to be put appr5tice1 8 fri5ds int5d+ him to be ( 8 fa!r's trade4 ,b ,god 9 8 adorable provid5ce & unse>*able wisdom1 _h1 z ! ev5t %ew$1 o!r designs conc]n+ him4 ,disappo9t$ !re=e 9 ?is he return$ to s*ool1 & proce$$ 9 8 pursuit ( le>n+2 apply+ himself at pres5t to ! /udy ( ,lat91 :i* he _h b lately int]mitt$4 ,aft] he _h made "s consid]able progress 9 ?is1 he appli$ himself to ! /udy ( "s p>ts ( ! ma!maticks1 = :i* he ?\ght he _h a bett] g5ius ?an = languages4 ,he soon acquir$ ! k ( ari?metic1 bo? vulg> & decimal1 measur+ sup]ficies & solids1 c4 ,& aft]w>ds w5t to ! city ( ,lim]ick 9 ord] to p]fect himself 9 writ+4 ,& n[ hav+ cont9u$ at s*ool till ab\t ! n9ete5? ye> ( 8 age1 & hav+ acquir$ su* bran*es ( lit]ature z fitt$ him = be+ useful to o!rs 9 ! same way3 he quitt$ s*ool1 & set up "o = himself1 want+ nei!r s*ol>s nor ability to in/ruct !m1 :i* he did ) success1 dur+ ! "t he cont9u$ 8 s*ool4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,( 8 religion1 & ! /ruggle :i* he f\nd betwe5 nature & grace1 till ! sixte5? ye> ( 8 age4 ,,8 p>5ts 7be+ z has be5 obs]v$7 memb]s (1 & /rongly atta*$ to ! *ur* ( ,rome1 br\ght him up 9 ! same pr9ciples & communion1 & took c>e t 8 m9d %\ld be e>ly furni%$ ) ! fir/ & fundam5tal p>ts ( :at !y judg$ 8 duty t[>ds ,god4 8,:5 7says he7 ,i 0 "y ,i le>n$ ! ,"l's pray]1 & ,ave ,m>ia1 9 ,iri%1 toge!r ) ! hundr$ & ?irtie? psalm 9 ,lat92 ) ! ,popi% augm5tation !reto4 ,& n[ ,i began to imbibe t un*>itable1 anti-scriptural op9ion1 t all diss5t]s f ! *ur* ( ,rome 7 h]etics1 & 9 a /ate ( damnation4 ,b1 s9ce ! ,"l ha? enlight5$ my und]/&+1 ,i am fully conv9c$ t !re9 ,i greatly err$1 n kn[+ ! scriptures1 nei!r ! p[] ( ,god4 8,i _c b lam5t ! case ( ^? p>5ts1 :o alas6 n kn[+ :at !y d1 endeav\r to in/ill into ! m9ds ( _! *ildr5 su* p]nici\s pr9ciples3 & ,i d e>ne/ly intreat all *ildr51 z soon z !y come to ye>s ( discretion1 to exam9e1 & judge = !mselves40 ,x pleas$ our ,"l to "w 9 8 he>t v e>ly4 ,he made him be> ! yoke 9 8 y\?1 & by 8 t]rors re/ra9$ him f excess1 & ! great (f5ce4 8,ev5 :ile ,i 0 "y & ignorant 7says he7 ,god 0 /riv+ ) me1 & (t5 t]rifi$ my he>t3 especially :5ev] ,i ?\ght ( ! day ( judgm5t1 & ( et]nity6 8,at ^? times especially1 ,i frequ5tly repeat$ ! pray]s ,i _h le>nt4 ,b alas6 to h[ little purpose8 ,:ile ,i pray$ nei!r ) ! _s1 nor ) und]/&+4 ,my he>t 0 h>d & /ubborn1 & my und]/&+ 0 bl9d & fooli%4 ,i _h no j conception ei!r ( ,god1 or ( religion4 ,nay1 s great 0 my ignorance1 t :5 ,i nam$ our ,savi\r 9 ,iri%1 ,i ?\ght ! "n belong$ to "s woman 9 heav54 8,:ile ,i 0 ?us fooli%1 & bl9d 7ev5 z a bea/ be=e !e67 my fall5 nature began p[]fully to discov] itself4 ,! se$ ( ! s]p5t work+ 9 my he>t1 broke =? 9 words & 9 de$s4 ,n[ pride1 ang]1 & self-w especially1 reign$ ov] me4 ,b alas6 ,i !n little knew t ^? accurs$ temp]s proce$$ f t s\rce ( univ]sal disord]1 & all human mis]ies1 orig9al s94 ,i believ$ t ?is _h br\ght temporal dea? into ! _w1 & great disord] into ! :ole /ate ( ! visible creation3 b ( its subject+ ! s\l to spiritual1 & expos+ x to et]nal dea?1 ,i _h no appreh5sion4 ,i _h1 x is true1 conviction :5ev] ,i did amiss2 told a lie1 or fell into any o!r outw>d s94 ,b ! ,_s ( ,god1 & ! holy scriptures alone1 ,i n[ pla9ly see1 c\ld conv9ce me t my temp]s des]v$ ! damnation ( hell4 ,& hi!rto ,i 0 ignorant ( bo?4 8,:5 ,i 0 ab\t eight ye>s old1 ,i began to love play1 & div]s o!r silly pleasures1 sp5d+ ! "t ,i 0 out ( s*ool 9 cat*+ ( birds1 play+ at ball1 & ! l4 ,my fondness = ^! occasion$ my frequ5tly break+ ! sabba?1 :i* ,i usually sp5t ei!r 9 ^! va9 amusem5ts1 or 9 read+ "s pr(ane hi/ory1 or o!r unpr(itable book2 & inde$ no "o s mu* z told me1 t ^! k9ds ( employm5ts 7 any violation ( ! ,"l's day3 my p>5ts1 l ! re/ ( _! neighb\rs1 e/eem+ !m innoc5t div]sions1 h>mless amusem5ts4 8,i did n !n "k t ,i ought n on ?is day to d m9e own pleasure1 to speak m9e own words1 or ?9k my own ?\ghts2 t ,i ought to sp5d x :olly 9 glorify+ ,god1 by pray+ to him1 he>+ 8 ^w1 & read+ & m$itat+ !re92 call+ ! sabba? a delight1 ! holy ( ! ,"l1 hon\rable4 ,o ! curse ( ignorance & evil example6 ,h[ _m s\ls d ^! lead into ! broad way ( de/ruction6 ,h[ happy w\ld x h be5 = my poor s\l1 if ,i _h kn[n & rememb]$ my ,creator 9 ! days ( my y\?6 ,_h ,i be5 br\ght up 9 ! nurture & admonition ( ! ,"l2 _h ,i kn[n ! scriptures f my *ildhood6 ,h[ w\ld x h contribut$ to prev5t my wrong conceptions1 & to regulate1 at lea/1 9 "s measure1 my :ole conduct4 ,isaiah lvii4 #ac4 ,ecclesia/es xii4 #a4 ,ephesians vi4 #d4 #b ,timo?y iii4 #ae4 8,f ! t5? to ! f\rte5? ye> ( my age1 my corruptions increas$1 took deep] root1 & m visibly appe>$ 9 my :ole conv]sation3 & yet ,i 0 m regul> & consci5ti\s 9 dis*>g+ my duty t[>ds ,god4 7,s ,i 0 taught to call a dull =m ( words1 "p ( :i* only 7 address$ to ,god1 & ! greate/ "p to sa9ts & angels47 ,my p>5ts accord+ to cu/om br\ght me at ! usual times to ! prie/1 :o exam9$ me conc]n+ ! ,pat] ,no/]1 ,ave ,m>ia1 & cr$o 9 ,deum1 ) "s o!r rites ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,b alas6 to h[ little purpose8 ,x made me nei!r wis]1 nor bett]4 ,"s "p1 x is true1 ( :at he taught me1 0 accord+ to ! ^w ( ,god2 b ! great] "p entirely repugnant !reto1 & to all tru? & righte\sness4 ,b ,i knew n !n h[ to di/+ui% betwe5 ! tru?s ( ,god1 & ! traditions ( m51 hav+ _h no k ( ! law & ! te/imony1 ! only infallible t\*/one ( doctr9e & practice4 ,he might !re=e h impos$ :atev] he pleas$ ^u me2 & ! r1 z ,i 0 taught to believe :atev] he said1 & to consid] x z com+ f ! m\? ( ,god4 ,inde$ ,i c\ld n help obs]v+ ev5 !n1 t sev]al ( ^? rev]5d g5tlem5 frequ5tly err$ 9 practice3 ?o' /ill ,i ?\ght !y 7 infallible z to doctr9e4 8,aft] ?is cate*is+1 ,i became m inquisitive1 & began to read books ( devotion4 ,^! ,i f\nd = ! pres5t _h _! use4 ,:5ev] ,i read ( ! passion ( our ,savi\r2 ! love ( ,god to s9n]s2 ! joys ( heav51 or ! mis]ies ( ! damn$1 my he>t became deeply affect$2 & mu* desire t[>ds ,god enk9dl$ 9 my s\l40 ,b alas6 x soon di$ away aga91 becom+ l ! morn+ cl\d4 ,! incon/ancy & corruption ( 8 he>t1 easily prevail+ ov] ^? div9e1 b transi5t impressions4 8,f ! f\rte5? to ! sixte5? ye> ( my age1 ,i _h m ( ! =m1 ?\gh less ( ! p[] ( godl9ess1 ?an ev5 be=e4 ,i n[ att5d$ ! public wor%ip 7t is1 w5t to mass7 & e night repeat$ my pray]s1 :i* 7 inde$ no bett] ?an va9 repetitions4 ,b /ill1 pride1 ang]1 self-w1 & rev5ge m p[]fully prevail$ ov] me ?an ev]3 & ,i add$ to ^! my =m] prevail+ abom9ations1 lies & evil words4 ,inde$ ,i _h an entire av]sion to curs+ & swe>+ 9 ! gross s5se2 b ab\nd$ 9 petty oa?s & bad wi%es4 ,( ?is sort !re are legions 9 ! ,iri% language20 p]haps m1 & m wick$ly expressive ?an 9 any o!r language4 8,be+ at play1 ,i rememb] "o day1 & provok$ by "o ( my play-fell[s1 ,i swore 7horror to ?9k67 by ! glori\s "n ( ,jehovah 7to ! be/ ( my remembrance ,i nev] did s be=e1 nor ev] s9ce74 ,9 t in/ant ,i felt ,i _h griev\sly s9n$ aga9/ ,god1 & des]v$ 8 wra? & heavy displeasure40 8,to ! re/ ( my evils ,i jo9$ disob$i5ce to my p>5ts4 ,inde$ ,i d>$ n %ew x outw>dly1 to my fa!r especially1 :om ,i s dread$ z (t5 to tremble = fe> ( him4 ,b my he>t 0 h>d & /ubborn40 ,"o in/ance ( ?is he m5tions :i* wr\ght him _m a bitt] reflection aft]w>ds2 = ye>s he h>dly ev] ?\ght ( x )\t be+ deeply affect$ ) %ame & sorr[4 ,hav+ "o day ?ro' 8 /ubbornness greatly provok$ 8 "m1 & giv5 h] a wick$ & imp]t95t answ]1 %e said to him 8,y h griev$ me40 8,x w5t l an arr[ ?r\gh my he>t4 ,i knew ! fif? comm&m5t 7! f\r? inde$ ,i !n call$ x accord+ to ! cu/om ( ! *ur* ( ,rome7 /rictly =bids disob$i5ce to p>5ts1 & t to hon\r !m1 is ! fir/ comm&m5t ) promise4 ,ju/ly !re=e 0 ,i condemn$4 ,b1 ,o ,god6 ,h[ little is x to be wond]$ at1 t ,i did n rightly love1 nei!r 0 ob$i5t to my e>?ly p>5ts1 :ile ,i knew nei!r love1 nor ob$i5ce t[>ds !e1 my ,fa!r1 :o art 9 heav58 ,well d ,i "k n[ 7& prais$ be ?y love = ?is k7 t su* z are fr[>d t[>ds !e1 w1 :ile !y rema9 s1 nev] be truly a com=t to _! p>5ts40 ,!y may inde$1 pay an outw>d compliance1 & a seem+ly dutiful subjection1 z is (t5 se5 ev5 among pr(ess$ worldl+s2 b cordially & dis9t]e/$ly to love1 hon\r & rev]5ce our p>5ts1 c only be ! effect ( subjection 9 he>t & life to ! ,fa!r ( spirits4 ,s univ]sally true is x1 t 8,a foe to ,god1 0 ne'er true fri5d to man40 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,giv+ a f>!r acc\nt ( him2 ! corruptions he /ruggl$ aga9/1 & ! means he made use ( to subdue !m1 f ! sixte5? to ! eighte5? ye> ( 8 age4 ,,n[1 bo? 8 s9s & convictions daily encreas$ ^u him4 ,! desire ( ! fle% 9 p>ticul> rag$ 9 8 nature1 & x want$ n its frequ5t & preval5t incitem5ts4 ,n[ likewise he began to assume ! man1 & kept m company ?an be=e1 :i* n a little inflam$ 8 besett+ s94 ,temptations f )\t 7 multipli$1 & !re want$ n opportunities & solicitations f ! devil & nature to defile himself be=e ! ,"l4 ,b /ill ! prev5t+ grace ( ,god re/ra9$ him f s9n+ aga9/ him1 9 ! actual transgression4 ,?is inde$1 ?o' x did n1 c\ld n1 exempt f guilt1 fe> & %ame1 consid]+ ! purity ( ! gospel law1 nev]!less became ju/ly matt] ( 8 ?anksgiv+ to ,god4 8,i d 7says he7 praise ,god unfeign$ly1 = )-hold+ me f my own actual wick$ness1 & prev5t+ my lead+ o!rs into ! curs$ & dete/able abom9ation4 ,b ,i abhor & condemn myself = ! concupisc5ce & wick$ness ( my he>t1 :i* 7) grief & horror ,god kn[e? ,i speak x67 discov]$ itself 9 o!r respects1 su* z x is a %ame ev5 to m5tion4 ,( ?is no human eye c\ld be a witness40 ,b ,god1 8 holy angels1 & 8 own consci5ce 7 m ?an t5 ?\s& witnesses aga9/ him4 ,& n[1 at l5g?1 8 life became a burd5 to him1 almo/ insupportable4 ,8 true "* at ?is "t 01 ,o wret*$ man t ,i am6 :o %all deliv] me6 ,he felt 8indwell+ s91 indwell+ hell10 & brea!d 9 _m a groan1 ,o :at is life )\t my ,god8 ,a burd5 m ?an ,i c be>4 ,i /ruggle to ?r[ ( my load1 ,me f myself ,i /rive to te>6 8,! ,_s ( ,god 7says he7 deeply w\nd$ me4 ,! arr[s ( ! almighty /uck fa/ 9 me1 & my v bones trembl$ because ( my s94 ,i 0 p]suad$ 9 my he>t t ?is commotion 0 conviction = my s92 b _h little conception t ! ,holy ,_s 0 ! *ief ag5t 9 ! "w3 = alas6 ,s great 0 my ignorance t ,i did n "k !re 0 any ,holy ,gho/ = me to receive40 8,:ile ,i 0 ?us 9 ! mid/ ( my extremity1 ,i confess$ to ! prie/ accord+ to ! cu/om ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,he advis$ me to say _m pray]s 7z he t]m$ c\nt+ my beads7 b alas6 ,?is did n d3 & inde$ h[ %\ld x8 ,i 0 br\ght into captivity ?r\gh ! p[] ( s9 :i* reign$ 9 my memb]s4 ,& ev5 my multipli$ pray]s c\ld be little else ?an an abom9ation to ! ,"l1 :ile nei!r ! =m1 nor ! matt] ( !m 0 accord+ to ! w ( ,god4 ,_m ( !m be+ little else ?an va9 repetitions1 & babbl+s to physicians ( no value1 9 ?is respect2 :i* !re=e left me "u ! p[] ( s9 & dea?40 ,inde$ h[ else %\ld x be8 ,:ile he 0 yet un?\ght (2 at lea/ unappli$ to1 :o alone c\ld help him2 ev5 ,jesus1 ^: "n is salvation3 & beside :i*1 9 heav5 or 9 e>?1 !re is none o!r1 by :i* a s9n] c be sav$4 ,he x is t invites1 & he only c1 & do?1 give ! we>y & ! heavy lad51 to f9d re/ to _! s\ls1 & :o at l5g? did 8allay 8 fev] ( desire1 by spr9kl+ him ) 8 blood40 ,he>+ ! prie/ prea* "o ,"l's day1 & declaim vehem5tly aga9/ a v>iety ( gross s9s1 ! disc\rse1 ?o' 7z 8 words are7 8mix$ ) _m falsities10 s deeply affect$ him1 t 9 ! angui% ( 8 _s1 he resolv$ nev] m to return to h\se or home1 till ,god %\ld %ew him m]cy4 ,?is precipitate & unadvis$ resolution 0 h[ev] ( %ort cont9uance4 ,9 fact1 ! commotion & disord]$ /ate ( 8 s\l ill admitt$ ( any ?+ uni=mly /eady :e!r "r or wrong1 ei!r by purpose or 9 practice3 x !re=e soon vani%$ away1 & he aga9 s\ght by v>i\s ways to procure "s alleviation ( 8 di/ress4 8,i /rove 7says he7 to div]t myself 9 ! be/ mann] ,i c\ld1 seek+ re/ & peace 9 ! mis]able com=ts ( ?is _w4 ,b my consci5ce 0 /ill re/less1 & a hell op5$ 9 my brea/4 ,n kn[+ :at to d1 nor :i* way to turn = re/1 ,i at l5g? attempt$ to quiet ! clam\rs ( my tr\bl$ m9d1 by solemnly resolv+ h[ sob]ly1 righte\sly1 & godly ,i w\ld live ! residue ( my life4 ,full ( ^! good purposes1 & /r5g!n$ z ,i ?\ght by v[s & promises1 ,i hop$ all w\ld be well2 hav+ all ?is :ile no idea ( ! satisfaction by ,*ri/ & ! all-suffici5cy ( 8 m]its2 & !re=e1 resolv+ only 9 my own /r5g?1 my resolutions prov$ z brok5 ci/]ns1 :i* c\ld hold no com=t2 & z brok5 re$s1 :i* af=d$ no /r5g?60 duplicate ^w 8(0 remov$ ,/ruggl+ on /ill 9 ! d>k1 he add$ fa/+ to 8 pray]s & resolutions4 ,b all ?is did n d4 ,he /ill f\nd himself b\nd z 9 affliction & iron4 ,he rema9$ 9 sore bondage1 do+ ! evil he w\ld n1 & n do+ ! good1 :i* he w\ld h done1 7,romans vii47 ,8 convictions became /ill %>p] & 8 fe> ( hell m deeply di/ress+4 ,endeav\r+ !re=e by "s means or o!r to procure re/ = 8 s\l1 he _h rec\rse to 8 =m] %ifts1 & says1 8,i repeat$ my resolutions & v[s aga9/ s92 b especially :5ev] ,i fell into any outw>d wick$ness2 & above all1 ! s9 t did s easily beset me4 ,!n ,i 0 z on ! rack1 & ?ro' extremity ( angui%1 h frequ5tly /ruck myself aga9/ ! gr\nd1 te>+ ! hairs f (f my head40 8#g0 replac$ ) 8vii0 = consi/5cy ,8 light began n[ to encrease ) 8 pa9ful feel+4 8,ab\t ?is "t 7says he7 by read+1 & ! help ( ! holy ,_s1 ,i began to h a /ill cle>] notion conc]n+ ! nature & consequ5ces ( s91 & p>ticul>ly ( ^? :i* by ! *ur* ( ,rome are t]m$ mortal s9s40 ,?is increase ( k did n h[ev] m5d1 mu* less heal 8 he>t4 ,no1 ,! sudd5 ray ( heav5ly light1 ,:i* dimly dawn$ ^u 8 night1 ,b made 8 d>kness visible1 ,& left him to a deep] hell4 ,& ev5 9 ?is respect he f\nd x true1 t he t encrease? k1 encrease? sorr[2 a proposition :i* is univ]sally true1 ) respect to all ! pursuits ( ! s\l aft] happ9ess3 ! k ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & him crucifi$1 alone except$4 ,/ruggl+ !re=e 9 8 *a9s1 he resolv$ ^u o!r measures4 ,& f9d+ t 8 pray]s1 te>s1 resolutions1 & v[s did n avail1 he devis$ ano!r exp$i5t1 & came to ?is det]m9ation1 solemnly to swe> to ! ,"l1 imag9+ t !n x w\ld n be possible t he %\ld break ) him aft]w>ds1 has _h be5 ! case1 ) all 8 =m] ef=ts4 ,accord+ly he b\nd himself by an oa?1 t = ! "t to come he w\ld ab/a9 f1 & utt]ly r5\nce all ^? s9s :i* _h wr\ght him s mu* uneas9ess4 ,?is proc$ure begot 9 him = ! pres5t1 r "s cessation f torm5t1 ?an true peace1 & left him = a :ile 9 deep security4 ,b alas6 ,x 0 n long ere he f\nd ?is b& likewise 0 altoge!r weak z ! /aff ( a brok5 re$4 ,he fell into "o ( ^? v s9s1 aga9/ ! commission ( :i* he _h s sacr$ly b\nd himself2 involv+ by ?is means 8 enlight5$ consci5ce 9 ! additional guilt ( 7:at he call$7 p]jury1 & ?us r5d]$ 8 anxiety & emb>rassm5t great beyond description4 ,:o c conceive :at 8 we>y _s n[ exp]i5c$6 ,8 wret*$ness & confusion exce$$ all ! p[]s ( words to express4 ,yea1 he gave up hope2 & became well nigh desp]ate4 ,he knew n :i!r to betake himself1 or :at %\ld be 8 next /ep2 reason+ ?us ) himself 9 ! bitt]ness ( 8 s\l1 8,s9ce ,i h p]jur$ myself 9 "o in/ance1 ,i may z well commit all my old s9s ov] aga94 ,?us 7adds he7 ,i 0 driv5 by ! devil1 allur$ by s9 & corruption1 & deceiv$ by my own evil he>t40 ,ab\t ?is "t likewise1 x pleas$ our ,"l to visit him ) a fit ( illness1 by :i* 8 fe>s & mis]y 7 consid]ably increas$4 ,he (t5 bewail$ himself 9 ! utt]mo/ angui% ( _s1 ) weep+ & lam5tation1 brea?+ out 8 s\l 9 moans4 8,o ! guilt ( s92 :5 *>g$ home ^u ! consci5ce by ! ,_s ( ,god1 :at an intol]able load6 ,a w\nd$ _s :o c be>60 ,?us1 be+ ignorant ( ,god's righte\sness2 ! way ( becom+ righte\s1 or ju/ifi$1 :i* he ha? appo9t$1 he w5t ab\t to e/abli% 8 own righte\sness1 expect+ to be ju/ifi$ by ! works ( ! law1 & n by ! fai? ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,he became we>i$ 9 ! multitude ( 8 c\nsels1 & seek+ n 9 ,god's way x f>$ ) him accord+ly4 ,= /ill1 al?\gh he s\ght = re/1 he f\nd x n1 because he s\ght x n aright4 ,^! 7 inde$ ! days ( 8 inv9cible ignorance1 at :i* !re=e ! ,god ( love graci\sly w9k$4 ,he knew n1 because z yet he _h no "o to tea* him4 8,h[ 7z he says7 c\ld ,i d o!rwise8 ,i _h n ! bible to in/ruct me2 = ,i nev] _h read x1 except a little at s*ool1 :5 ,i 0 ab\t elev5 ye>s old4 ,woe to y 7he adds7 ye bl9d guides 7mean+ ! ,romi% cl]gy7 ye h tak5 away ! key ( k1 t is1 ! ^w ( ,god f ! p4 ,x is ?is :i* unfolds ! hidd5 treasures ( 8 w1 & free grace t[>ds mank9d4 ,:ile !re=e ,i rema9$ ignorant ( ?is1 no wond] t ,i w5t on 9 error1 & f\ght z "o t beate? ! air40 ,b n[ ! true tea*] began m p[]fully to manife/ himself to him1 al?\gh z yet he knew him n4 ,! _s ( tru? proce$+ f ! ,fa!r & ! ,son1 wr\ght 9 him daily1 a /ill deep] solicitude ab\t 8 salvation4 ,among o!rs ( 8 reflections 9 ref]5ce !reto1 he began to ?9k m s]i\sly ?an ev]1 ( ! doctr9e ( ! *ur* ( ,rome1 & ( 8 own connexions ) h]2 resolv+ t :atev] might be ! consequ5ce1 he w\ld1 bo? d1 & avoid1 :atev] appe>$ to him1 nay 9 any measure contribute to ! true life ( 8 s\l4 ,?us1 hi!rto 8,drawn by a secret p[] he flew1 ,nor /ay'd to prop ! papal ?rone1 ,! tru? det]m9$ to pursue1 ,& pant+ = a ,god unkn[n2 ,by works ( legal righte\sness1 ,he bl9dly s\ght ! grace t'obta91 ,b c\ld n f9d ! pa?s ( peace1 ,b lab\r'd ?ro' ! fire 9 va940 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,( 8 =sak+ ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,a ,,v>iety ( incid5ts contribut$ to ?is "p ( 8 conduct4 ,he 0 fir/ deeply conc]n$ ab\t ! weighty affair ( 8 own salvation2 & !n began to ?9k s]i\sly ( ! influ5ce :i* 8 religi\s connexions might h !reon1 :i* prep>$ him = att5d+ to :atev] he at any "t ei!r read1 or _h spok5 to him on ?is head4 ,t :i* outw>dly contribut$ mo/ !reto 0 ! in/ance ( 8 bro!r1 ( :om he _h le>n$ ,lat94 8,a man 7to use 8 own words7 ( tol]able le>n+1 & design$ = a ,popi% prie/4 ,b see+ _m errors among !m1 he r5\nc$ pop]y40 ,ab\t ! eighte5? ye> ( 8 age1 :ile he 0 a /rict obs]v] ( ! ,romi% *ur*1 ?is bro!r 7^: rel9qui%+ x 0 "s ye>s be=e7 began frequ5tly to disc\rse ) him conc]n+ ! pr9ciples ( ! ,romani/s4 ,b 8,i /r5u\sly 7says he7 ?\gh ignorantly )/ood him2 all$g+ 9 my def5ce ! traditions & canons ( ! *ur*1 :ile he1 on ! contr>y1 appeal$ to ! law1 & to ! te/imony4 ,he (t5 said to me1 ,my bro!r :y d y n read ,god's ^w8 ,lay aside prejudice1 & let u reason toge!r40 8,to ! same purpose spake ano!r p]son 9 ! neighb\rhood1 "o ,mr4 ,philip ,gey]1 a ,prote/ant1 & well v]s$ 9 controv]sy4 ,mr4 ,wal%1 y are a sob] "y man 7s inde$ ,i 0 g5]ally ?\ght to be1 ?\gh ,god kn[s ,i 0 drunk ) enmity aga9/ him7 & :at pity x is t y d n read ! holy scriptures8 ,:y w y suff] y\rself to be deceiv$ by ! ,pope & 8 frat]nity40 ,reason+s ( ?is k9d1 :i* 7 occasionally made use ( ) him f "t to "t1 toge!r ) he>+ ! scriptures frequ5tly read 9 8 bro!r's s*ool1 put him at l5g? ^u a dilig5t consid]ation ( bo? sides ( ! "q4 ,b z x g5]ally happ5s 9 l cases1 an atta*m5t to old s5tim5ts1 ! prejudices ( education1 %ame1 or fe> ( man1 ) a v>iety ( o!r consid]ations1 kept him = "s "t 9 /rong susp5se4 ,8 brea/ 0 mov$ ) contr>y1 & !re=e conflict+ passions4 ,he revolv$ 9 8 m9d1 & reject$ _m a ?\ght on ! head1 & aga9 resum$ & embrac$ !m4 ,?us halt+ betwe5 two op9ions1 he compla9s ( ! 8,corruption ( 8 he>t & prejudice ( 8 education1 :i* 7 z smoke ^u 8 s\l1 s dimm+ 8 und]/&+ t he c\ld see no?+ cle>ly40 8,i _h 7cont9ues he7 a cu/om ( repeat+ frequ5tly z ,i walk$ by ! way1 "s pray]s1 or articles ( fai? :i* ,i _h le>n$ 9 my *ildhood4 ,& walk+ "o day 9 ,septemb]1 #agdh1 9 a pleasant field1 ,i 0 rum9at+ deeply on :at my oppon5ts urg$ aga9/ ! doctr9e ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,i said 9 my he>t,p]haps all is n "r4 ,p]adv5ture ,i h be5 impos$ ^u4 ,b !n h[ %all ,i "k8 ,h[ c ,i be c]ta9ly assur$ :e!r ! prie/ has l$ me 9 ! "r way8,imm$iately x occurr$ to my m9d1 t on ,god alone1 ,i c\ld safely v5ture my salvation1 & t )\t d\bt1 he w\ld lead me by 8 c\nsel1 if ,i ask$ wisdom ( him40 8occurrd0 replac$ ) 8occurr$0 8,!n ,i cri$ unto ! ,"l ,god1 & said,all ?+s are kn[n to !e1 & ?\ see/ t ,i want to wor%ip !e aright4 ,%ew me ! way :]e9 ,i ought to g1 nor suff] me to be deceiv$ by m540 ,! ,"l :o appreh5d$1 & in/ruct$ ,saul1 :5 he enquir$ ( him 9 a/oni%m5t1 ,:at wilt ?\ h me to d8 ,att5d$ to1 & answ]$ 8 pray]2 :i* he did n cease !n1 to p\r out be=e him4 ,! ,fa!r ( lights1 & ! giv] ( wisdom to all t ask x1 did1 accord+ to ! adorable me?ods ( 8 work+1 in/ruct & det]m9e 8 *oice 9 ?is p>ticul>4 ,acts ix4 ,to ?is "t & occasion may be ref]r$ :at he has m ?an once told me1 det]m9$ him ) respect to ! ,popi% doctr9e ( m]it1 & _h mu* influ5ce on 8 entirely r5\nc+ ! communion ( t *ur*3 namely1 ! deep impression on 8 m9d ( ^? words ( ,/4 ,paul1 ,if righte\sness come by ! law1 !n ,*ri/ is dead 9 va94 ,?is passage he assur$ me he _h n rememb]$ ev] to h read1 or he>d2 & t aft]w>ds1 :5 he met ) x 7,galatians ii4 #ba47 x 0 to him l life f ! dead4 ,truly1 ,o ,god1 ,?y ^w is a light1 & by tak+ he$ !reto1 ?is "y man's way 0 cleans$4 ,soon aft] ?is1 he resolv$ to /& no long] 9 despond+ hesitation1 halt+ betwe5 two op9ions4 8,!re=e1 7says he7 go+ to my bro!r & ! o!r p]sons :o us$ to conv]se ) me on ?is head1 & provid5tially meet+ ! two pr9cipal ones toge!r1 ,i det]m9$ n[1 once = all1 ei!r to conv9ce1 or be conv9c$ by !m2 = ,i _h an unfeign$ desire to save my s\l40 8,propos+ !re=e my design1 !y desir$ me to br+ a bible1 & ) x ,nelson's fea/s1 & fa/s ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&4 ,accord+ly1 we began read+1 & conv]s+1 & cont9u$ toge!r till midnight40 ,! result ( :i* 01 he n[ det]m9$ no long] to resi/ conviction4 8,i 0 7says he7 con/ra9$ to give place to ! light ( tru?4 ,x 0 s conv9c+ t ,i _h no?+ m to say4 ,i at l5g? confess$ ! weakness ( my =m] reason+s1 & ! /r5g? ( ^? :i* 7 oppos$ to me60 8,ab\t "o o'clock 9 ! morn+ ,i retir$ to my lodg+1 & accord+ to my usual cu/om w5t to pray]3 b n[1 only to ! ,god ( heav51 ,i no m pray$ to any angel or _s4 ,= ,i am deeply p]suad$ t !re is b "o ,god1 & "o ,m$iator betwe5 ,god & man1 ev5 ! man ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,!re=e ,i resolv$ no long] to suff] any man to beguile me 9 a volunt>y humility1 9 wor%ip+ ei!r sa9ts or angels4 ,^! latt] ,i consid]$ z !y are repres5t$1 ,m9i/r+ spirits s5t =? to m9i/] = !m :o %all be heirs ( salvation4 ,b ) reg>d to any wor%ip be+ paid to !m1 "o ( !mselves said1 ,see ?\ d x n1 wor%ip ,god4 ,god only4 8b0 replac$ ) 8b0 ,colossians ii4 #ah4 ,hebrews i4 #ad4 ,revelation xix4 #aj4 8,all my sophisms on ?is head 7 entirely ov]?r[n by a few h\rs c&id read+ ! holy scriptures1 :i* n[ became z a lant]n to my feet1 & a lamp to my pa?s1 direct+ me 9 ! way :]e9 ,i %\ld g4 ,i c\ld see no mann] ( au?ority ei!r 9 ! old ,te/am5t or ! new = invocat+ any sa9t1 or apo/le :atsoev]4 ,god1 ! triune ,god1 is1 alone1 ! prop] object ( pray]1 & ( all div9e wor%ip40 ,he is likewise a jeal\s ,god 7,exodus xx4 #e47 & w n give 8 glory to ano!r1 be=e 8 glori\s ,maje/y ! ho/s ( heav51 angels & au?orities1 pr9cipalities & p[]s1 ?rones & dom9ions1 vail+ _! faces1 fall d[n 9 l[ly pro/rations1 :ile !y adore him 7:om all %\ld adore67 t sitte? ^u ! ?rone1 & ! ,lamb1 t live? = ev] & ev]40 omitt$ ^w 8&0 suppli$ ,n _m days aft]1 he fell into disc\rse ) 8 fa!r on ! head1 & in=m$ him1 t he 0 m9d$ to =sake ! *ur* ( ,rome1 be+ cle>ly conv9c$ %e 0 n t infallible1 or pure *ur* he once e/eem$ h]1 8b r 7to use 8 words7 an h>lot1 :o _h committ$ spiritual & vile adult]y4 ,my fa!r 7adds he7 0 mu* provok$1 & produc$ 8 /rong reasons to ov]?r[ all ,i _h said4 ,i d>$ n b li/5 to him1 :i* ,i did ) mu* att5tion4 ,b ! m he argu$1 ! m 0 ,i confirm$ 9 my =m] resolution40 ,be+ n[ fully satisfi$1 & delib]ately det]m9$1 he resolv$ to omit no becom+ me?od ( te/ify+ ! same4 ,& accord+ly 7hav+ no temporal int]e/ to s]ve !reby1 z may be und5iably pla9 to e "o7 he1 )\t f>!r delay1 publickly & 9 =m1 r5\nc$ 8 =m] communion2 abjur$ ! errors ( ! *ur* ( ,rome1 & !nce =w>d regul>ly att5d$ ! s]vice ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&4 ,he 0 greatly delight$ ) ! pray]s4 7,z 01 ,/4 ,au/9 at 8 fir/ att5dance1 ) ! s]vice ( ! ,*ur* 9 g5]al4 ,confess41 book #i1 *apt] #f4 ,8 he>t melt$ ) div9e sweetness1 & 8 eyes fl[$ d[n ) te>s ( love47 ,a c]ta9 provid5ce seem$ to direct ! v matt] ( ! fir/ s]mon :i* he he>d !re4 8,! fir/ text 7says he7 ,i he>d prea*$ on at *ur*1 0 ,he t believe? & is baptiz$1 %all be sav$3 b he t believe? n1 %all be damn$1 7,m>k xvi4 #af47 8,yet1 alas6 ,h[ little did ,i "k ( believ+8 ,be+ taught1 & accu/om$ to call by ! "n ( fai?1 ! peculi> pr9ciples ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,b ,i h n[ le>n$ a bett] lesson1 & "k t rightly to believe1 is "o ( ! greate/ ?+s 9 ! _w40 8,& n[ t ,i h left ! *ur* ( ,rome1 ,i nev]!less decl>e t ,i ?9k !re are _m s9c]e s\ls among !m4 ,= ,i be> !m witness1 t !y h a zeal = ,god1 ?o' n accord+ to k4 ,_m ( !m h ju/ice1 m]cy1 & tru?2 & may 7not)/&+ _m errors 9 s5tim5t1 & !re=e 9 practice1 ?ro' inv9cible ignorance7 s9ce z is ,god's maje/y1 s is 8 m]cy1 be dealt ) accord+ly40 ,!re h be5 d\btless1 & /ill are among !m1 "s burn+ & %9+ lights2 p]sons :o 7:atev] _! p>ticul> s5tim5ts may be7 are devot$ to ! s]vice ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 accord+ z _! light & opportunities admit4 ,& 9 reality1 :atev] op9ions p may hold1 !y are mo/ approv$ ( ,god1 ^: temp]s & behavi\r correspond mo/ ) ! model ( 8 holy ^w4 ,?is h[ev]1 c be no ju/ification ( av[$ unscriptural t5ets1 su*1 z has be5 (t5 prov$1 are _m ( ^? ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 8,x may be ask$ !n1 #8,:y did ,i leave _! communion1 s9ce ,i ?\ght s fav\rably ( !m3' ,i answ]1 because ,i 0 abundantly conv9c$1 t z a *ur*1 !y h err$ f ! "r way1 & adult]at$ ! tru?s ( ,god ) ! inv5tions & traditions ( m52 :i* ! scriptures1 & ev5 celebrat$ writ]s ( !mselves abundantly te/ify4 ,god is my witness h]e91 t ! sole motive :i* induc$ me to leave !m1 0 an unfeign$ desire to "k ! way ( ,god m p]fectly1 9 ord] to ! salvation ( my s\l4 ,= al?o' ,i !n felt1 & d yet feel my he>t to be z ! prophet speaks1 deceitful1 & desp]ately wick$ ) reg>d to ,god2 yet ,i 0 s9c]e 9 my re=mation1 hav+ f ! holy ,_s an e>ne/ desire to save my s\l1 & prep>e to meet my ,god4 8,if x %\ld be /ill ask$1 #8,b c\ld ,i n be sav$1 suppos+ ,i _h nev] left ! *ur* ( ,rome8' ,i answ]1 ,if ,i _h nev] kn[n ! tru? ( ! scriptures conc]n+ ! way ( salvation1 nor be5 conv9c$ t _! pr9ciples 7 anti-scriptural1 !n ,i ?9k ,i might h be5 sav$ 9 h] communion1 ! m]ciful ,god mak+ all[ance = my inv9cible ignorance4 ,b n[1 s9ce ,god ha? enlight5$ my m9d1 & giv5 me to see ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus1 if ,i _h /ill cont9u$ a memb] ( ! *ur* ( ,rome1 ,i c\ld n h be5 sav$4 8,) reg>d to o!rs1 ,i say no?+4 ,i "k t e man mu/ be> 8 own burd51 & give an acc\nt ( himself to ,god4 ,to _! own ma/]1 bo? !y & ,i mu/ /& or fall4 ,b love h[ev]1 & t5d] compassion = _! s\ls1 con/ra9 me to p\r out a pray] to ,god 9 _! behalf4 8,all s\ls are ?9e1 ,o ,"l ,god1 & ?\ wille/ all to come to ! k ( ! tru? & be sav$4 ,= ?is end ?\ did give ?y only begott5 ,son1 t :osoev] believe? 9 him1 might n p]i%1 b h ev]la/+ life4 ,i besee* !e !re=e ,o et]nal ,god1 %ew ?y t5d] m]cies ^u ^? poor s\ls :o h be5 long delud$ by ! god ( ?is _w1 ! pope1 & 8 cl]gy4 ,jesus1 ?\ lov] ( s\ls & fri5d ( s9n]s1 s5d to !m ?y light1 & tru?1 t !y may lead !m1 & call ^? /ray+ %eep1 n[ p]i%+ = lack ( k1 to ! light ( ?y ^w1 :i* is able to make !m wise to salvation ?r\gh fai?1 :i* is 9 !e60 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,"s fur!r acc\nt ( 8 progress 9 ! way ( life1 ) o!r reasons ( 8 conduct 9 reg>d ( ! *ur* ( ,rome4 ,,! affair ( r5\nc+ communion ) ! ,romi% *ur*1 & decl>+ himself a memb] ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 be+ n[ ov]1 he set himself to read ) mu* dilig5ce ! holy scriptures1 toge!r ) ! writ+s ( "s ( ! mo/ em95t ,prote/ant div9es4 ,& h]eby he receiv$ fur!r light e day1 be+ m & m p]suad$ t 8 conduct 0 "r4 ,by ?is means he began likewise to see into ! nature ( ! gospel1 & ! "o1 only way :i* x po9ts to life & bless$ness1 grace & glory4 #8,n[ 7says he7 ,i beg9 to disc]n cle>ly t x is ! blood ( ,*ri/ alone :i* cleanse? f s91 & t by "o (f]+ ( himself once = all1 he ha? p]fect$ = ev] !m t are sanctifi$4',p]fectly accompli%$1 )\t any ne$ ( o!r helps1 or repetitions ( ! same1 all t 0 necess>y 9 ord] to ! ju/ification & glorification ( all believ]s4 ,hebrews x4 #ad4 8,i likewise became n[ m cle>ly s5sible ( ! errors :i* ,i =m]ly held4 ,z #a/1 ,?9k+ t my own works c\ld m]it some?+ f ,god4 #b;dly1 va9ly imag9+ t !re is a place = ! purgation ( s9 aft] dea?4 ,:5 at any "t !re=e ,i 0 ask$ n[1 :y ,i _h left ! *ur* ( ,rome8 ,i c\ld answ] ^u good & solid gr\nds3 because ,i am well assur$ t ! doctr9es ( m]it 7to speak ( no m7 & works ( sup]]ogation1 are contr>y bo? to reason & scripture40,to reason1 x be+ absurd to suppose t a creature1 receiv+ life1 & brea?1 & all ?+s f its ,creator1 %\ld be able to love1 adore1 & obey him1 m ?an is requir$ ( him z 8 indisp5sable duty4,to scripture2 be+ flatly contr>y to ! words ( ,*ri/1 ,:5 ye %all h done all ^! ?+s :i* are comm&$ y1 say1 t is1 take k1 we are unpr(itable s]vants4 ,luke xvii4 #aj4 8,beside1 ,if ! blood ( ,*ri/1 ! m]it ( all he ha? done & suff]$1 cleanse? f all s91 :at imag9able ne$ c !re be ( ! fire ( purgatory8 ,surely :5 all s9 is cleans$1 or tak5 away1 !re c be none rema9+40 ,alas = ^? :o tru/ = safety to su* a /aff ( a brok5 re$6 ,def]r+ ! pres5t opportunities & means ( deliv]ance f s9 & dea?1 "u ! pret5ce ( "s future purgation f s9 9 ! invisible _w4 #a ,john i4 #g4 8,if all ! light ( ?is _w 0 to be imm$iately at once ext+ui%$1 all human s\ls t 7 n 9 "s real degree ( reg5]ation1 w\ld imm$iately f9d !mselves b ! rage ( fire1 & horror ( d>kness40 ,o !n ?\ poor s9n]1 :oev] ?\ art1 rep5t1 rep5t1 & turn to ,god1 :il/ ?\ ha/ fle% ^u !e2 = z long z t la/s ! k+dom ( ,god is nigh at h&3 b if ?\ die/ )\t true conv]sion1 bett] ?\ had/ nev] be5 born6 ,= !n 8black lakes1 bottomless pits1 ages ( a gnaw+ worm1 & a fire t nev] ceases to burn1 w /& betwe5 !e & ! k+dom ( heav5 = ev]40 ,8 n[ encreas+ k 9 ! ?+s ( ,god2 8 ability f ! holy scriptures to di/+ui% betwe5 tru? & error1 became daily & ju/ly matt] ( 8 ?anksgiv+ to ,god4 ,b yet 8 unreg5]ate nature 0 n1 c\ld n be truly at re/4 ,! ^w ( ,god 0 n[ inde$ 8 /udy & delight4 ,b x s]v$ likewise1 by %ew+ him h[ 8 he>t & life mu/ be1 m deeply to di/ress him4 ,! comm&m5t 9 its spiritual & ext5sive mean+1 /ill dissect+ 8 inw>d p>ts1 slew him 7,romans vii4 #haa47 s t he 0 cle>ly & di/ress+ly s5sible ( 8 dea? 9 trespasses & s9s4 ,8 convictions & angui% ( _s became !re=e m afflictive ?an ev]4 ,! small cessation f pa9 :i* 8 rel9qui%+ pop]y af=d$1 s]v$ n[1 only to augm5t 8 sorr[1 to f9d t aft] all1 ! great affair 0 yet to d4 ,& su* 0 8 pres5t anxiety1 t he ev5 =got1 or neglect$ to eat 8 bread4 8,my consci5ce 7says he7 /ill condemn$ me1 !re 0 no re/ 9 my bones by reason ( s940 ,& yet mean+ to make sure "w1 he desir$ to "k ! utt]mo/ ( 8 evil & dang]4 ,to ?is end he read ^? passages1 bo? div9e & human1 :i* seem$ mo/ to condemn him3 8,= ,i 0 will+ 7adds he7 to "k ! wor/ ( my condition3 n inde$ t ?is 0 always ! case4 ,sometimes ! devil1 & ! corruption ( my nature s f> prevail$ z to hu% my consci5ce1 & dr[n my convictions1 by a v>iety ( ?\ghts1 & ?+s40 ,?us f> did he lab\r ?r\gh ! furnace ( he>t-torm5t+ conflict2 assault$ on ! "o h& by ! ,romani/s1 :o /ill wr\ght him all ! tr\ble !y c\ld1 bo? by calumny & cont5tion3 ,& on ! o!r1 by ! rul] ( ! d>kness ( ?is _w2 ,satan & 8 emiss>ies1 seek+ to dev\r him4 ,our ,"l's words1 ,john xvi4 #ba4 7 lit]ally v]ifi$ 9 him2 z inde$ !y are m or less1 9 e "o t is truly born aga94 ,he travail$ 9 bir?1 & 0 9 sorr[1 & pa9 to be deliv]$4 ,! agony ( 8 he>t frequ5tly extort$ f him1 compla9ts to ?is effect1 ! sorr[s ( dea? h compass$ me ab\t1 & ! pa9s ( hell h got hold ^u me6 ,he f\nd tr\ble & heav9ess4 ,9 8 di/ress he cri$ unto ! ,"l1 & said1 ,o ,"l ,i besee* !e deliv] my s\l6 ,i am oppress$1 und]take = me6 ,& ?us he rema9$ = "s "t wait+1 & long+ = 8 ,god1 ev5 z ! ?ir/y gr\nd = %[]s4 ,8 sorr[ x is true 0 (t5 int]sp]s$ ) gleams ( sweetly reviv+ hope4 ,t yet a little :ile1 & he :om he s\ght w\ld come1 & w\ld n t>ry1 :ile 8 v pulse /ill beat1 ,make no long t>ry+1 ,o my ,god4 ,make ha/e my belov$1 & come away4 ,be ?\ l a roe1 or a "y h>t ^u ! m\nta9s ( ,be!r4 ,! ,"l did inde$ wait to be graci\s to him1 & 0 exalt$ 9 hav+ m]cy ^u him4 ,he br\ght to ! bir?1 & gave /r5g? to br+ =?4 ,= ! _s ( heav9ess1 he aft]w>ds receiv$ ! g>m5ts ( praise1 & = m\rn+ ! oil ( joy4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,( "s p>ticul>s previ\s to 8 conv]sion4 ,,aft] hav+ made use ( e means1 :i* ei!r m5 or books c\ld sugge/1 b )\t ! desir$ effect1 7be+ n[ 9 ! n9ete5? ye> ( 8 age7 z he return$ to 8 lodg+ "o ev5+ 9 ! city ( ,lim]ick1 ,m>* #ag1 #agdi1 he saw an uncommonly l>ge conc\rse ( p assembl$ 9 a place call$ ! ,p>ade adjo9+ to ! ma9 /reet4 ,he turn$ aside to see :at x meant2 & p]ceiv+ a man prea*+ to ! p 9 ! op5 air 7a ?+ !n q new 9 ,irel&17 he eag]ly /opp$ to "k :at he said4 ,& he>+ him 7,mr4 ,r4 ,s47 f ,mat!w xi4 #bh4 affectionately1 & e>ne/ly entreat all p]sons to come to ,jesus ,*ri/1 t !y might f9d re/ to _! s\ls3 & )al exhort+ !m to se>* ! scriptures1 & see = !mselves if :at he said 0 n true2 x fill$ him ) wond]1 & ) desire to "k m ( ?is matt]4 ,he _h ( a long "t sorely felt ! want ( re/1 t is1 happ9ess 9 8 s\l4 ,& not)/&+ all 8 endeav\rs to obta9 x1 l ! poor woman 9 ! gospel1 :o _h sp5t all t %e _h ^u physicians & 0 no?+ bett]$1 b r grew worse1 8 case became e day m insupportable4 ,a press+ invitation !re=e to p>take (1 & an assurance ( f9d+ ! v ?+ he s want$1 c\ld n fail ( be+ acceptable to him4 ,m>k v4 #be4 ,s imp5etrable is ! abyss ( ,god's judgm5ts6 ,great ?+s do? he1 :i* :o c compreh5d6 ,he _h prep>$ ! s\l ( 8 s]vant to receive ) inexpressible joy1 ! gospel ( peace1 & s5t x him 9 a way :i* he lea/ ( all expect$1 & :i* ! wisdom ( man w\ld nev] h made *oice (1 ,?us1 ,:ile yet he toil'd1 a sudd5 cry ,proclaim'd ?' approa*+ multitude1 ,:o told ( ,jesus pass+ by1 ,( free r$emption 9 8 blood3 ,up/>t$ light1 ! begg> bl9d1 ,he sprang ! heal+ t\* to meet1 ,ca/ all 8 fil?y rags beh9d1 ,& groan'd = fai? at ,jesu's feet4 8,b "h 7says he7 x may be ne$ful1 9 ord] ! bett] to und]/& "s p>ticul>s :i* w be h]eaft] relat$1 to premise a few ?+s relative to ?is prea*]1 & ! p to :om he belong$1 #a/1 he 0 "o ( ! p call$ ,me?odi/s1 & a memb] ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&4 #b;dly1 ,?is p began to prea* ,*ri/1 & ju/ification ?ro' 8 blood1 ab\t ! ye> #agch1 hav+ _h _! beg9n+ at ,ox=d1 9 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,john & ,*>les ,wesley2 ! =m] a fell[ ( ,l9coln ,college1 & ! latt]1 /ud5t ( ,*ri/ ,*ur*4 ,^! two bro!rs hav+ obta9$ m]cy !mselves1 7 call$ ( ,god to publi% 8 love to o!rs likewise1 by prea*+ ! gospel ( ! k+dom1 to e creature t w\ld he> ! joyful s\nd4 ,accord+ly1 out !y g into ! lanes & highways1 cry+ 9 ! voice ( wisdom to ! sons ( m51 besee*+ & compell+ s9n]s to turn to ,god1 to come to t fea/ ( m>r[ & fat ?+s1 :i* he ha? prep>$ = all :o w b accept ( life & salvation40 duplicate ^w 8a0 remov$ ,see ,luke xiv4 #afbd4 ,prov]bs viii4 #ae4 & comp>e ) ,prov]bs i4 #bd4 8,aft] ^! s]vants ( ,god _h be5 ?us employ$ = "s "t1 x pleas$ _! div9e ,ma/]1 to s5d =? o!r lab\r]s also into 8 h>ve/1 to assi/ 9 ! same bless$ "w3 n inde$ su* z human wisdom w\ld h appo9t$1 ! great or wise m5 ( ?is _w2 b q ! contr>y3 ! poor 7= ! mo/ "p7 & z ,/4 ,paul says1 ! base & weak1 t ?us1 leav+ no room = boa/+ or glory+ 9 man1 :oso glorie? might glory 9 ! ,"l40 #a ,cor9?ians i4 #beca4 8,"s ( ^!1 aft] prea*+ ! gospel 9 ! /reets & highways1 to _! own c\ntrym51 br\ght ! glad tid+s to ,irel& also2 :]e1 go+ ab\t f place to place1 ?ro' cities & villages1 !y freely decl>$1 :at !y _h s freely receiv$1 to e "o t w\ld he>4 ,& glory be to ,god1 _! lab\r ( love 0 n 9 va94 ,he t s5t !m1 gave _! ^w 8 bless+1 s t _m receiv$ x gladly2 & hav+ felt its p[]1 to ?is day br+ =? fruit ) pati5ce2 ! fruit ( righte\sness1 to ! glory ( ,god40 ,x 0 "s weeks be=e he _h opportunity ( he>+ !m aga91 be+ oblig$ to take c>e ( 8 s*ool 9 ! c\ntry4 ,on 8 next return to ,lim]ick he he>d ano!r ( !m 7,mr4 ,t4 ,w47 & lik$ _! prea*+ /ill bett]4 ,b 8 fondness =1 & atta*m5t to ! ^w ( ,god1 w\ld n admit ( 8 tak+ ?+s ( s high a nature ^u tru/4 ,he !re=e comp>$ _! doctr9e ) ! ^w ( ,god1 & ) ! articles & homilies 7:i* 7 n[ likewise 8 second>y1 /&>ds ( tru?7 ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&2 & 8,i f\nd x1 7says he7 to be consonant ) bo?4 ,i became daily m & m atta*$ to !m1 & _! mann] ( liv+ encreas$ my affection = !m4 ,!y appe>$ to me to be true foll[]s ( ,*ri/1 & 8 apo/les1 adorn+ ! doctr9e ( ,god 9 all ?+s40 8,:5 !y _h prea*$ ! gospel at ,lim]ick = "s "t1 !y came ov] to ,new-,m>ket1 a village :]e ,i !n resid$1 ab\t eight miles f !nce4 ,9 a little "t !re 0 a society =m$1 7s !y call$ ^? :o met weekly toge!r1 9 ord] to s+ ! praises ( ,god1 to pray to him1 & to help ea* o!r on to heav547 ,to ^! ,i jo9$ myself a memb]1 ,septemb] #bi1 #agdi1 9 ord] to be m fully in/ruct$ 9 ! way ( salvation40 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,giv+ a f>!r acc\nt ( ! /ate ( 8 s\l1 p>ticul>ly ( 8 deep convictions4 ,,god _h1 by ?is "t1 made pla9 8 way be=e 8 face4 ,8 holy ^w _h fully in=m$ 8 und]/&+1 h[ a s9n] c f9d fav\r ) ,god4 ,8 scruples 7 all remov$1 & he want$ only ! possession ( :at he saw z at a di/ance2 to "k1 by exp]i5ce1 ! c]ta9ty ( ^? ?+s :]e9 he _h be5 in/ruct$4 ,8 s\l rea*$ out ) vehem5cy ( desire to ! m>k ( ! prize ( 8 high call+4 ,b yet he c\ld n lay hold on ! hope set be=e him4 ,he c\ld n break ! bondage ( unbelief1 ( :i* he 0 n[ deeply conv9c$1 & "u :i* he groan$ cont9ually4 ,9 %ort1 he felt :at _c be easily expla9$3 ! sorr[s & /ruggl+s1 z well z joys1 ( ! truly reg5]ate1 be+ ( su* a nature1 t /rang]s to t happy *ange c h v imp]fect conceptions (4 7#a ,*ronicles ii4 #aa47 99,he p>ticul>ly describes ! mann]1 9 :i* he p]ceiv$ himself wr\ght ^u1 z foll[s1 8#a/4 ,! ,"l conv9c$ me ( my bosom s91 t :i* did mo/ easily beset me2 repres5t+ ! he9\sness ( x 9 v>i\s circum/ances40 8#b;dly4 ,all my o!r abom9ations3 s9s 9 g5]al1 ( omission1 & commission 7 set 9 array be=e me1 z an army ready to dev\r me2 or1 z s _m devils ready to te> me 9 pieces4 ,god wrote !m d[n 9 l>ge *>act]s1 s t ,i might well say1 ,my s9s 7 ev] be=e me40 8#c;dly4 ,i 0 cle>ly conv9c$1 t n only my s9s1 b likewise :at ,i call$ my duties1 7 an abom9ation unto ! ,"l4 ,my righte\sness appe>$ z fil?y rags4 ,! corrupt tree c\ld n br+ =? good fruit40 8#d?ly4 ,! same _s conv9c$ me1 t ,i 0 an unbeliev]2 t ,i _h n true fai?1 & !re=e no "p nor lot 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,z an unbeliev] ,i 0 condemn$ already1 & ! wra? ( ,god abode ^u me1 7,john iii47 ,i ass5t$ inde$ to e ?+ reveal$ 9 ! bible2 yet ,i n[ cle>ly p]ceiv$1 ,i lack$ ! v true1 ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,i le>n$ f ! ,me?odi/s1 s call$1 & _h x confirm$ to me by ! ,new ,te/am5t1 t :osoev] has true fai?1 has ) x ! remission ( s9s1 & is at peace ) ,god4 ,i read1 t :osoev] believe?1 is born ( ,god2 & he t is born ( ,god s9ne? n3 b ,i s9n$1 & !nce inf]r$1 ,i _h n fai?1 nei!r 0 born ( ,god40 ,romans iv4 #e4 & v4 #a4 & viii4 #a4 ,john iii4 #ah4 ,acts4 xiii4 #ci4 #a ,john v4 #aj4 #a ,john iii4 #i4 & v4 #a4 ,arabic *apt] numb]s replac$ ) ,roman num]als = consi/5cy4 8#e?ly4 ,i 0 deeply conv9c$1 t ,i c\ld n help myself2 t ,i 0 utt]ly unable to "w1 ei!r rep5tance1 fai? or hol9ess 9 my own s\l1 & t x 0 by grace alone ,i c\ld be sav$40 8#f?ly4 ,i 0 )\t com=t1 & mis]able4 ,my s\l 0 griev$1 & my he>t fa9t$ )9 me4 ,i f\nd lab\r & sorr[ beyond expression4 ,worldly com=ts avail$ n\ght4 ,i _h no re/ night or day4 ,:5 ,i pray$ ,i 0 tr\bl$2 :5 ,i he>d a s]mon1 ,i 0 pi]c$ z ) d>ts & arr[s4 ,:5ev] ,i ei!r read or conv]s$1 /ill ,i 0 brok5 & bruis$ 9 he>t4 ,?us 0 ,i /ripp$ ( all1 & wret*$1 & bl9d & nak$2 hav+ nei!r fai? nor p[]1 hol9ess nor happ9ess4 ,truly !re 0 no s\nd "p 9 me4 ,all 0 w\nds & bruises1 & putrify+ sores4 ,(t5 ,i c\ld nei!r sleep nor eat4 ,! affliction ( my s\l s affect$ my body1 t at l5g? ,i 0 oblig$ to take to my b$40 8#g?ly4 ,i saw by ! same light ( ! holy ,_s1 ! gr\nd ( all ?is1 namely1 ,orig9al s94 ,?is ,i felt 0 ! s\rce ( all my mis]y & helplessness4 ,by "o man s9 ent]$ into ! _w1 & dea? by s91 & s dea? pass$ ^u all1 = t all h s9n$4 ,"h ,i saw ! root ( all evil4 ,h5ce are we *ildr5 ( wra?2 bani%$ f ,god1 & ! tree ( life40 ,romans v4 #ab4 ,?is 0 8 /ate ab\t ! ye> #agdi4 ,& 9 sub/ance1 ,i believe 7?o' all d n s circum/antially att5d to x7 ?is agrees ) ! exp]i5ce ( mo/ ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god4 ,"o w\ld n h[ev] attempt to fix a det]m9ate po9t3 mak+ ! progress ( ! "w ( ,god 9 "o1 or a ?\s& p]sons1 a /&>d by :i* to judge ( ! g5u95ess ( ! exp]i5ce ( o!rs4 ,!re are div]sities ( op]ations by ! same _s4 ,b x is ! same ,god1 :o worke? all 9 all4 ,) "s s\ls1 x please? our ,"l to deal m g5tly1 ?an ) o!rs2 z 7to m5tion no m examples7 9 ! case ( ,lydia1 & ! jaylor1 7,acts xvi47 ,! latt]1 trembl+ & t]rifi$1 fell d[n1 pro/rate1 be=e ,paul & ,silas1 & said1 9 ! utmo/ con/]nation1 ,:at mu/ ,i d to be sav$6 ,:ile ! =m]1 )\t any su* previ\s t]ror1 _h h] he>t g5tly op5$ to att5d unto1 & receive ! words ( et]nal life1 :i* 7 spok5 ( ,paul4 ,& !re are no d\bt1 ?\s&s ( resembl+ in/ances at ?is day4 ,b 9 g5]al1 x may be obs]v$1 t ) reg>d to ^?1 :om ,god int5ds = ! s]vice ( o!r s\ls1 he gives !m to feel1 z !y are able to be>1 ! utt]mo/ ( _! nature's dea?2 ! bitt]ness & des]t ( ! s9 t dwells 9 ! he>t1 z well z ! wick$ works ( _! life1 be=e he %ews !m 8 salvation2 t be+ feel+ly acqua9t$ ) ! evil nature ( s91 & ! wret*$ness ( an unreg5]ate /ate1 !y may be ! bett] capable ( sympa?iz+ )1 & c\nsell+ o!rs 9 l circum/ances2 & be quick5$ 9 _! endeav\rs ( sav+ s\ls f dea?4 ,b 9 all :o are begett+ aga9 to newness ( life1 !re is a deep consci\sness ( want4 ,& !re nev] has be5 an in/ance ( true conv]sion among gr[n p]sons1 :]e ! s\l did n previ\sly feel its pov]ty1 guilt1 or dang]1 9 a great] or less degree4 ,our ,savi\r heals none :o h n a feel+ want1 produc+ e>ne/ desires ( be+ heal$4 ,x is ! we>y & ! heavy lad51 :om he calls to come to him1 t !y may f9d re/ to _! s\ls4 ,he is ! liv+ bread1 & ! wat] ( life1 = :i*1 only awak5$ s\ls hung] & ?ir/1 & ) :i* alone1 !y c be satisfi$4 ,hav+ m5tion$ ,/4 ,au/91 ) ref]5ce to ! usual mann] ( our ,"l's deal+ ) s\ls1 int5d$ = ! s]vice ( o!rs2 & consid]+ ! resemblance1 :i* 9 "s p>ts ( 8 exp]i5ce1 !re is1 ) ! exp]i5ce ( him be=e u1 ,i p]suade myself x w n be unacceptable to "s read]s1 to subjo9 a %ort acc\nt ( ! travail ( 8 s\l1 above f\rte5 hundr$ ye>s ago1 9 8 own words4 8,?\1 ,o ,"l1 did/ turn me ab\t t[>ds myself2 & tooke/ me f beh9d my back1 :]e ,i _h plac$ me1 :il/ ,i _h no m9d to obs]ve myself1 t ,i might see h[ de=m$ a ?+ ,i 02 cov]$ ov] ) scabs & ulc]s3 & ,i beheld1 & abhorr$4,b ,i1 !n a wret*$ "y man1 _h 9 ! fir/ dawn+ ( my y\?1 begg$ ( !e *a/ity2 & _h said1 ,give me *a/ity2 b yet a:ile d n give x4 ,= ,i fe>$ ?\ %\ld/ he> me too soon1 & pres5tly heal me ( t disease & concupisc5ce :i* ,i wi%$1 r might be satiat$ ?an ext+ui%$4,b n[ 0 ! day come1 9 :i* ,i 0 laid nak$ to myself1 & my consci5ce began to reproa* me4,i 0 inw>dly corrod$1 & extremely conf\nd$40 8,amid/ ?is great controv]sy )91 :i* ,i hotly disput$ ) my s\l1 tr\bl$ z well 9 c\nt5ance z 9 m9d1my eyes1 =ehead1 *eeks1 col\r1 ! acc5t ( my voice m spoke my passion ?an words c\ld4,!re 0 a little g>d5 belong+ to my lodg+1 :i* ,i _h ! use (4 ,?i!r ?is tumult 9 my brea/ c>ri$ me away1 :]e none might h9d] ! hot cont5tion :i* 0 engag$ )9 me1 until conclud$ 9 t issue1 :i* ?\ already knewe/1 b n ,i4 ,only ,i 0 9 suff]+ a dea? t w\ld beget life3 well kn[+ :at evil ,i !n 02 n kn[+ :at good1 )9 a little :ile1 ,i 0 to be4,i frett$ my _s1 :il/ all my bones cri$ out4,f :5ce su* a mon/]8 ,let ?y m]cy enlight5 me1 & let me enquire1 ,:5ce su* a mon/]8 & h[ c ?is be80 8,?us ,i 0 accus+ myself mu* m sev]ely ?an =m]ly1 & w9d+ to & fro 9 my *a92 a small piece only ( :i* n[ held me2 yet held me /ill4 ,& ?\1 ,o ,"l1 press$/ sore ^u me 9 m9e inn] p>ts1 ) a sev]e m]cy1 r$\bl+ ! la%es ( fe> & %ame4,& ! po9t ( "t1 9 :i* ,i 0 to become ano!r man1 z x approa*$ ne>]1 /ruck me ) m horror4 ,yet x did n make me to recoil1 or turn away2 b only to /& 9 a susp5se40 998,su* 0 ! conte/ act$ )9 my he>t4,b z soon z m pr(\nd m$itation _h drawn out1 f ! v bottom ( ?is s9k1 & laid on an heap1 all my mis]y be=e ! view ( my s\l2 !re arose 9 me a mighty tempe/1 br++ ) x great %[]s ( te>s4,i1 "u a c]ta9 fig-tree1 ?rew d[n myself1 ,i "k n h[1 & gave lib]ty to my te>s2 & ! riv]s ( my eyes ran a-pace4 ,& ,i said1 ,?\1 ,"l1 h[ long8 ,h[ long wilt ?\ be angry1 = ev]8 ,rememb] n my =m] iniquities1 ,psalms lxxix4 #e1 #h4 ,= ,i well p]ceiv$ ,i 0 /ill possess$1 & )-held by !m1 & !re=e ca/ out su* mis]able compla9ts1 ,h[ long8 ,h[ long8 ,to-morr[1 & to-morr[8 ,:y n pres5tly8 ,:y n ?is v h\r1 an end to my fil?9ess40 998,^! ?+s ,i utt]$ z ,i wept ) bitt] contrition3 & behold1 ,i he>d a voice z f a neighb\r+ h\se1 z ( a boy or girl1 9 a s++ note1 say+1 & (t5 repeat+2 tolle1 lege2 tolle1 lege2 take up & read2 take up & read4 ,& pres5tly my c\nt5ance be+ alt]$1 ,i began to consid]1 :e!r *ildr5 7 wont 9 any k9d ( play to s+ su* words3 nor c\ld ,i call to m9d t ,i any :]e he>d ! l40 8,:]eupon1 suppress+ ! c\rse ( my te>s1 ,i rose up1 int]pret+ x to be a div9e admonition1 t ,i %\ld op5 ! book1 & read ! place ,i fir/ light ^u4,s gett+ up ha/ily1 ,i return$ to ! place :]e ,i _h be5 sitt+ be=e1 = !re ,i _h left ,/4 ,paul's epi/les4 ,i cat*$ x up1 op5$ x1 read 9 sil5ce ! piece ( ! *apt] on :i* ,i fir/ ca/ m9e eyes2 n 9 riot+ & drunk5ness2 n 9 *amb]+ & wantonness2 n 9 /rife & envy+3 b put ye on ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 & make n provision = ! fle%1 to fulfil ! lu/s !re(4 ,romans xiii4 #ac40 8,i c\ld read no f>!r1 nor 0 !re ne$3 = at ! end ( ^? l9es1 z x 7 ) a new light ( confid5ce /ream+ into my s\l1 ! d>kness ( all =m] d\bt+ & hesitancy 0 dispell$40 998,o ,jesus ,*ri/1 my help]1 & my ,r$eem]6 ,h[ sweet on a sudd5 became x to me1 to submit my neck to ?y easy yoke1 & my %\ld]s1 unto ?y light burd54,& :at be=e1 x 0 my fe> to lose1 h[ 0 x n[ my joy to dismiss6 ,= ?\ ! true1 & ! supreme sweetness1 did/ expel !m f me3 ?\ expell$/ !m & ?yself ent]$/ into me in/ead ( !m3 m delici\s ?an all delights1 b n to fle% & blood3 m bright & glori\s ?an all light1 b to ! inw>d hidd5 man1 exalt$ above ! heights ( all hon\r1 b n to ^? :o exalt !mselves4,& n[ my infant tongue began to conv]se ) !e1 my ambition1 & my ri*es1 & my salvation1 my ,"l ,god60 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,( 8 f9d+ re/ to 8 s\l4 ,,al?\gh ! night _h hi!rto hung ^u 8 s\l1 yet he frequ5tly saw ! promise ( deliv]ance at a di/ance4 ,b n[ ! day-spr+ f on high began to dawn ^u him4 ,! mann] ( :i* he describes z foll[s1 8,hav+ giv5 an acc\nt ( my convictions1 ,i ?9k x may n be improp] to relate likewise1 h[ ! promise 0 fulfill$ 9 me4 ,& ?is also is ! "w ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 conv9c+ ( righte\sness z he do? ( s94 8#a/4 ,he k9dl$ 9 my s\l e>ne/ desires t[>ds ,god4 ,!re 0 a t5d]ness 9 my he>t4 ,x began to w>m & dissolve aft] x 0 brok5 by ! law1 & scor*$ by ! wra? ( ,god2 & to be a little com=t$ & enc\rag$4 998#b;dly4 ,light began to spr+ up 9 my m9d4 ,i saw at l5g?1 n my guilt only1 b likewise ! all suffici5cy ( ,*ri/1 & 8 atonem5t4 ,i 0 conv9c$ t he came to seek & to save lo/ s9n]s3 t he ta/$ dea? = e man2 t he wille? all m5 to be sav$1 & come to ! k ( ! tru?1 9 ord] !reto4 ,o :at a glori\s view _h ,i ( ! m]cy ( ,god 9 giv+ 8 ,son1 & ( ! unspeakable love & pity ( ,*ri/ 9 dy+ = s9n]s4 ,i 0 con/ra9$ to cry out1 ,"l1 :at mann] ( love is ?is1 :]e) ?\ has lov$ u6 ,:at is man t ?\ %\lde/ be s m9dful ( him6 ,b ,i c\ld n yet say t ,i _h r$emption 9 ! blood ( ,*ri/1 ! =giv5ess ( my s9s4 ,i did n exp]i5ce ! m]it ( 8 dea? appli$ to my s\l4 8#c;dly4 ,b ,i _h /rong hope t ,god w\ld be m]ciful to my unrighte\sness1 & blot out my s9s = 8 "n sake4 ,i c\ld see ! promise & p>don held =? to me1 ?\gh z yet ,i 0 n able to lay hold ( !m4 ,at c]ta9 seasons inde$ ,i c\ld be almo/ confid5t t !re 0 no condemnation to me2 & c\ld v5ture my s\l ^u ,*ri/1 = life & salvation4 ,b ?is soon vani%$ away1 :i* conv9c$ me x 0 n ju/ify+ fai?1 else ! witness w\ld be 9 my he>t2 = he t believe? on ! ,son ( ,god ha? ! witness 9 himself4 ,& because ye are sons1 ,god ha? s5t =? ! _s ( 8 ,son into y\r he>t cry+1 ,abba1 ,fa!r4 #a ,john v4 #aj4 ,galatians iv4 #f4 8#d?ly4 ,!re 0 k9dl$ 9 my s\l a /ill m vehem5t ?ir/ aft] ,*ri/4 ,no?+ c\ld n[ satisfy me %ort ( ! assur$ k1 t ,i _h an int]e/ 9 8 blood4 ,my s\l 0 sick ) f]v5t long+s4 ,i e/eem$ all ?+s b dung & dross = ! excell5cy ( ! k ( ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,he appe>$ altoge!r lovely to me4 ,i beheld all glory1 all happ9ess1 all ri*es1 & hon\r 9 ! ,savi\r4 ,i _h no desire aft] o!r ?+s3 all reli% = !m 0 gone1 #8,give me ,*ri/1 or else ,i die6' ,s9 lo/ its p[]1 s t no s9 _h dom9ion ov] me4 ,i 0 s tak5 up 9 behold+ ! ,"l ,jesus1 9 read+ & 9 pray]1 t ,i _h no desire ( any ?+ else4 ,nei!r ! lu/ ( ! fle%1 ! lu/ ( ! eye1 nor ! pride ( life1 _h any p[] ov] me4 ,b yet ,i c\ld n say1 ,i 0 !n a believ]4 ,i _h inde$ an utt] hatr$ to all s91 & p[] to =sake e ?+ t ,i believ$ to be (f5sive to ,god1 & contr>y to ! holy w ( my ,"l ,jesus1 :om ,i s\ght & desir$ above all ?+s visible or invisible4 8#e?ly4 ,& n[1 ab\t f\r mon?s aft] my mo/ deep awak5+s1 & jo9+ ! ,me?odi/ society1 ! cle> day began to %9e & ! ,"l1 :o is ri* 9 m]cy visit$ me ) 8 salvation4 ,he br\ght me out ( ! horrible pit1 & miry clay1 & set my feet ^u ! rock ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,! p>ticul> mann] ( :i* 0 z foll[s1 8,com+ into ! room :]e we 7 accu/om$ to meet toge!r1 to he> ! ^w ( exhortation2 be=e prea*+ began1 ,i sat mus+4 ,my s\l 0 look+ out & long+ = ,*ri/1 z ! wat*man = ! morn+4 ,! congregation be+ assembl$1 ! s]vant ( ,god 7,mr4 ,w4 ,t47 p\r$ out 8 s\l 9 pray]4 ,& z he pray$1 ! p[] ( ! ,"l came d[n 9 ! mid/ ( u4 ,! w9d[s ( heav5 7 op5$1 & ! skies p\r$ d[n righte\sness4 ,my he>t melt$ l wax be=e ! fire2 especially at ! m5tion ( ^? words1 ,:o is ?is t come? f ,edom1 ) dy$ g>m5ts f ,bozrah8 ,?is t is glori\s 9 8 app>el travell+ 9 ! greatness ( 8 /r5g?8 ,& aga91 at ! s++ ^? words 9 ! hymn4 8,behold ! ,savi\r ( mank9d1 ,nail'd to ! %ameful tree6 ,h[ va/ ! love t him incl9'd ,to ble$1 & die = !e6 ',tis done6 ! preci\s ransom's paid2 ,receive my s\l he cries2 ,see1 :]e he b[s 8 sacr$ head6 ,he b[s 8 head & dies40 8,! =m] words 9 ! pray]1 & ^! 9 ! hymn1 came ) su* p[] to my he>t t ,i 0 con/ra9$ to cry out1 ,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 & all t is )9 me1 bless 8 holy "n2 = he ha? =giv5 all m9e iniquity1 & heal$ my diseases4 8,& n[ ,i 0 div9ely assur$ t ,god1 = ,*ri/'s sake1 _h =giv5 me all my s9s4 ,! ,_s ( ,god bore witness ) my _s t ,i 0 a *ild ( ,god4 ,m]cy & tru? met toge!r 9 my he>t2 righte\sness & peace kiss$ ea* o!r4 ,yea1 s great 0 ! deliv]ance1 & s /rong ! consolation1 t ,i c\ld n conta9 myself4 ,i broke out into te>s ( joy & love1 hav+ obta9$ su* m]cy ,i c\ld n b jo9 ) ! angels to s+ praises to him t sitte? ^u ! ?rone1 & to ! ,lamb1 :o s lov$ me1 & wa%$ me f my s9s1 9 8 own blood4 ,a new song 0 inde$ put into my m\?1 ev5 ( ?anksgiv+ unto my ,god4 998,i _h (t5 9 private cri$ al\d to ,god1 yet x 0 n till n[1 t ,i did s 9 ! congregation4 ,b my w\nd be+ heal$1 a necessity 0 laid ^u me to decl>e :at ! ,"l _h done = my s\l4 ,9 ! same h\r ano!r :o sat next to me 0 fill$ ) joy & peace 9 believ+4 ,we bo? )drew to ano!r room1 & gave ?anks & praise to ,god toge!r4 8,& n[ ,i felt ( a tru? t fai? 9 ,*ri/1 is ! sub/ance or subsi/ance ( ?+s hop$ =1 & an evid5ce ( ?+s n se54 ,god1 & ! ?+s ( ! invisible _w1 ( :i* ,i _h only he>d be=e by ! he>+ ( ! e>1 appe>$ n[ 9 _! true light1 z sub/antial realities1 & = him4 998,i c\ld n[ lay hold on ,*ri/1 & ! promises ( ,god ?r\gh him4 ,fai? 9 8 blood br\ght heav5 into my brea/1 & fill$ me ) righte\sness1 & peace & joy 9 ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,x gave me to see a reconcil$ ,god1 & an all suffici5t ,savi\r4 ,& ?us 0 x an evid5ce to me4 ,?r\gh ?is fai? ,i c\ld say1 ,*ri/ lov$ me1 & gave himself = me4 ,o ?is is ! gift ( ,god6 ,fai? ( ! op]ation ( ! ,holy ,gho/40 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,( ! confirmation ( 8 s\l 9 ! grace ( ,god1 & ! happy effects :i* x produc$ 9 him4 ,,he liv$ n[ z 9 ano!r _w4 ,behold ,god is my salvation1 w5t ?r\gh ! :ole ( 8 he>t & conduct4 ,8 s\l 0 delight$ ) ^? good ?+s res]v$ =1 & enjoy$ only by su* z love ,god4 ,he s ta/$ t ! ,"l is graci\s1 z left no room1 at pres5t1 = evil reason+s1 & engross$ 8 :ole body & s\l = ,god4 ,! ov]fl[+s ( 8 joy correspond+ ) 8 =m] sorr[1 r5d]$ him happy beyond all description4 ,& ?is1 z may be obs]v$ 9 ! exp]i5ce ( ! fai?ful1 is commonly ! case2 ! peace & joy ( ju/ifi$ s\ls1 be+ usually proportionate to _! previ\s di/ress2 ,god 9 ?is respect likewise1 com=t+ !m accord+ to ! "t :]e9 he _h %ew$ !m tr\ble4 ,! gr& enquiry is 8,am ,i really conv]t$8 ,am ,i n[ at peace1 & 9 fell[%ip ) ,god my ,savi\r80 ,if s1 is n ! precise h[ immat]ial8 ,su* p]sons !n z h be5 l$ by sl[1 & gradual /eps2 :o h by a comp>atively easy transition pass$ f d>kness to light1 ,let !m give glory to _! deliv]]1 & n1 on ?is acc\nt1 p]plex !mselves ) scruples = hav+ be5 s g5tly dealt )4 ,let !m live only = ,him1 & !y %all be f9ally approv$1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god & ( 8 holy angels4 ,8 happ9ess n[ receiv$ daily increase f ! und\bt$ assurances :i* he receiv$ ( ! g5u9e *ange4 ,he obs]ves1 8! m ,i comp>e my exp]i5ce ) ! ^w ( ,god1 & ) ! exp]i5ce ( 8 *ildr51 ,i am ! m confirm$ t x is no delusion1 no fancy2 b a real "w ( ,god1 a sav+ *ange wr\ght 9 my s\l by ! ,_s ( ,god1 ?r\gh fai? 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i am p]suad$ h[ev] t ! natural man1 7#a ,cor9?ians ii4 #ad47 _c receive ! ?+s ( ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,he has nei!r eyes to see1 nor a he>t to und]/& !m4 ,a /rang] do? n int]m$dle ) ?is joy4 ,x is ! hidd5 manna1 & ! :ite /one1 & ! new "n 7( adoption7 writt5 !reon1 7,revelation ii4 #ag47 :i* no man kn[e? save he t receive? x4 ,glory1 glory be to ,god on high6 8,n[ did ,i f9d ! yoke ( ,*ri/ to be easy inde$1 & 8 burd5 light4 ,8 ?\ghts & comm&m5ts 7 sweet to my s\l1 sweet] ?an honey to my tongue4 ,x 0 my com=t all ! day long to praise my ,"l1 & to walk 9 ! ways :i* he set be=e me4 ,he creat$ me unto good works1 & ,i *e>fully walk$ 9 !m40 ,! ,love ( ,god be+ ?us %$ abroad 9 8 he>t enabl$ him rightly to love 8 bro!r also4 ,8 s\l 0 drawn out 9 good w & t5d] affection to e creature3 neighb\rs & /rang]s1 fri5ds & enemies4 8,i c\ld 7says he7 unfeign$ly love !m t hat$ me1 & pray = !m t despitefully us$ & p]secut$ me60 ,?us truly evid5c+ himself1 to be a *ild ( 8 ,fa!r 9 heav54 99,b he did n /op "h4 ,8 s\l ?ir/$ m & m = all ! m9d t 0 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,he foll[$ aft]1 & long$ =1 an entire r5ovation2 = ne>] & /rong] union & communion ) ! ,"l ,jesus3 nor c\ld he be at all easy1 o!rwise ?an 9 a free & ne> access to him1 & a sweet enjoym5t ( 8 graci\s pres5ce4 ,8 con/ant cry 01 8,make me holy4 ,fulfil 9 me all ! good pleasure ( ?y goodness1 & ! "w ( fai? ) p[]40 ,= ?is he /ruggl$1 & plead$ mu* ) ,god4 ,?is 0 e>ly 8 m>k1 & ! glori\s prize at :i* he aim$ ?r\gh\t ! residue ( 8 *ri/ian race4 ,8 enjoym5ts 7 hi!rto1 ) sc>ce ! smalle/ alloy1 hav+ _h1 n s mu* z a d\bt conc]n+ ! reality ( :at _h pass$ 9 8 s\l4 ,! fury ( ! oppressor 0 s re/ra9$1 & ! light ( div9e tru? s abode ) him1 t he cont9ually set to 8 seal t ,god is love1 & take? pleasure 9 ! prosp]ity ( 8 *ildr54 ,all fe> ( dea? & hell 0 remov$ f him2 nei!r _h s9 any dom9ion ov] him4 8,god 7says he7 gave me ! victory ?ro' our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 ^: righte\sness 0 imput$ to me = ! remission ( my s9s60 8,!re=e did ,i "k t ,i 0 a *ild ( ,god1 "u grace1 because s9 did n reign 9 my mortal body1 t ,i %\ld obey x 9 ! desires !re(4 ,if s mu* z an evil ?\ght 0 at any "t inject$1 or ! rema9s ( ! old man began to /ir 9 me1 ,i _h imm$iate p[] to resi/ & ov]come !m6 8,tempt$ inde$ ,i 02 b 9 e temptation !re 0 a way made = my escape4 ,:5ev] ! enemy came 9 ^u me z a flood1 ,jesus appo9t$ salvation = walls & bulw>ks ar\nd me4 ,he lift$ up a /&>d aga9/ him1 & fru/rat$ all 8 c\nsels3 = great] is he t 0 9 me1 ?an he t is 9 ! _w4 998,i may say 9 few words1 t ! k+dom ( ,god 0 )9 me4 ,i f$ ^u m>r[ & fatness1 & ) com=t drew wat] out ( ! wells ( salvation4 ,s91 & temptation1 & pa9 fl$ be=e ! ,"l ,jesus1 :o dwelt 9 my he>t by fai?4 ,i walk$ & talk$ ) ,god all ! day long4 ,:atsoev] ,i believ$ to be 8 w1 ,i did to ! utt]mo/ ( my p[]1 ) my :ole he>t4 ,pray]1 read+1 fa/+1 wat*+1 communicat+1 & ,*ri/ian fell[%ip1 7 ! joy ( my s\l4 ,! comm&m5ts ( ,god1 & 8 holy laws1 7 my delight4 ,i n only rejoic$ ev] m1 b pray$ )\t ceas+1 & 9 e ?+ gave ?anks1 :e!r ,i eat or drank1 or :atev] ,i did1 x 0 inde$ 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 & to ! glory ( ,god60 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,8 employm5t among 8 ,*ri/ian bre?r51 & ! treatm5t he met ) f ! _w4 99,,! treasure ( light & love1 :i* ,god _h put into ! s\l ( 8 s]vant1 began n[1 to %9e cle>ly to o!rs4 ,!y c\ld easily disc]n an amaz+ *ange 9 8 v aspect1 z well z temp]s1 & conduct 9 g5]al4 ,! calm1 & at ! same "t1 div9e *e>fulness & s]5ity ( 8 s\l1 r5d]$ him a desirable1 z well z useful memb] ( _! religi\s meet+s4 ,& ! lov+ zeal :i* he felt = promot+ ! glory ( 8 dy+ ,god1 prompt$ him to ex]t himself ) mu* f]v\r 9 ! s]vice ( 8 neighb\r4 ,?us ) a he>t set on fire1 to pay1 at lea/ "s small returns1 = all t ocean ( m]cy1 & love :i* he _h exp]i5c$ 9 himself1 he s\ght opportunities1 & embrac$ e occasion ( imp>t+ all ! good :i* he possibly c\ld to o!rs2 till x seem$ good to ^? :o direct$ _! religi\s ex]cises to appo9t him lead] ( a class1 7s call$7 t is1 a little company ( ,*ri/ian fri5ds1 mutually agre$ to meet toge!r weekly1 9 ord] to _! fur!rance 9 ! way ( godl9ess3 "o p]son ( :i* 0 /il$ lead]4 ,?is 0 ! little (fice assign$ him at pres5t1 9 :i* 8,my bus9ess 7says he7 01 #a/4 ,to see ea* p]son 9 my class once a week1 & if any 7 abs5t1 to enquire into ! cause4 #b4 ,:5ev] we met toge!r1 to s+ psalms or hymns1 & to pray ) !m4 #c4 ,to exam9e h[ _! s\ls prosp]$1 & :at progress !y _h made ! prece$+ week 9 ! way ( ! ,"l80 ,:e!r !y 7 unanim\sly det]m9$ to s]ve ,god ) _! :ole he>t8 ,if any _h fall5 into s91 !y 7 reprov$2 if tempt$1 !y 7 com=t$ & enc\rag$2 & ^? :o ran well1 adorn+ _! pr(ession 9 all ?+s1 7 exhort$ /ill to press =w>d1 & give glory to ,god4 ,aft] a fai?ful1 & fri5dly exam9ation ( ea* o!r 7betwe5 :i* & ! ,popi% ,auricul> ,confession1 ) :i* "s h errone\sly or unk9dly p>allel'd x1 !re is sc>ce ! mo/ di/ant resemblance7 !y conclud$ ) prais+ ,god & pray]s suit$ to _! sev]al conditions4 8p>rallel'd0 replac$ ) 8p>allel'd0 ,b besides ?is1 he met ) ! :ole society two or ?ree times a week1 :5 ) praises & pray]s1 !re 0 always a ^w ( exhortation prea*$ or read4 ,& x pleas$ ,god1 to te/ify 8 approbation !re(1 by ! s+ul> display ( 8 pres5ce among/ !m2 by repl5i%+ _! s\ls ) abundance ( 8 grace & heav5ly b5$iction4 99,&1 8,o 7adds he7 h[ wond]fully did we exp]i5ce ! p[]1 & love ( ,god1 :5ev] we made pray] & supplication to him6 ,we _h a heav5 among u2 a p>adise )9 u6 ,! ,"l p\r$ su* peace & joy into our he>ts1 & we 7 (t5 s happy t we did n "k h[ to "p4 ,we liv$ z bre?r51 & /rove toge!r = ! hope ( ! gospel4 ,we 7 ( "o he>t1 & ( "o m9d1 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,& is n ?is ! communion ( ,sa9ts80 ,s de> ! tye1 :]e s\ls agree ,9 ,jesu's dy+ love2 ,!n only c x clos] be1 ,:5 all are jo9'd above6 ,mean "t1 8 hi!rto undi/urb$ repose1 began to be sorely assault$4 ,8 relations n[ took a second al>m4 8,!y ?\ght 7says he7 ,t ,i 0 turn$ h]etic altoge!r40 ,to =sake ! *ur* ( ,rome1 & decl>e himself a memb] ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 0 bad en\gh1 & ) !m matt] ( mu* displeasure2 b to become a ,me?odi/ beside6 ,?is !y judg$ ! v consummation ( apo/acy1 & gave him up z undone = ev]4 ,& x 0 n only 8 k9dr$1 :o s judg$ ( him1 8,b 7adds he7 my neighb\rs 9 g5]al 7 l-m9d$ ) my relations1 & n only ^? ( ! *ur* ( ,rome2 b sev]al likewise :o call$ !mselves ,prote/ants4 ,!y 7 extremely angry t ,i %\ld1 z !y call$ x1 #8*ange my religion4'0 ,9 reality ?is is no alt]ation ( ! case2 x is 9 ?is respect no m ?an a "n3 a true ,me?odi/ 7= !y are n all ,israel :o are call$ ,israel7 be+ no o!r ?an a true ,*ur*man4 ,!y make n s mu* z a pret5ce to be a di/9ct1 indep5dant body ( p4 ,!y are prop]ly a religi\s society1 7n a new ?+ 9 ,engl&7 consi/+1 = ! mo/ "p ( pr(ess$ memb]s ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&2 ^: only design is to promote among ea* o!r1 & mank9d 9 g5]al1 ! g5u9e religion ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 8,& n[ did ,i see pla9ly1 t p]sons ( e d5om9ation1 :o are yet 9 _! s9s1 "u ! guilt & p[] ( !m1 are at enmity aga9/ ,*ri/4 ,& t ,prote/ants1 z well z ,papi/s1 h naturally a _s ( calumny & p]secution40 ,alas1 names & op9ions1 :at are !y8 ,!y d n1 _c alt] ! nature ( m5 or ?+s2 & exp]i5ce abundantly %ews1 h[ little influ5ce !y h ov] ! temp]s & life ( ! g5]ality ( mank9d4 8,re=m$ & unre=m$ 7adds he7 ,i f\nd x to be j alike2 & t _m :o spoke aga9/ ! ,pope & ,inquisition 7 !mselves 9 reality ( ! same _s40 duplicate ^w 8!0 remov$ 8,:5 ,i 0 fir/ conv]t$1 ,i _h no notion t p c\ld hate1 & speak evil ( me1 = fe>+ ,god1 & work+ righte\sness4 ,b exp]i5ce has taught me o!rwise1 ,i soon f\nd ! tru? ( ! apo/le's words1 ,t all :o w live godly 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 %all suff] p]secution1 7#b ,timo?y iii4 #ab47 relations1 acqua9tance1 & neighb\rs1 ri* & poor1 old & "y1 cl]gy & laity1 7 all aga9/ me4 ,"s said ,i 0 an hypocrite2 o!rs t ,i 0 mad2 o!rs1 judg+ m fav\rably1 t ,i 0 deceiv$4 ,_m t be=e ?\ght well2 yea1 highly ( me1 knew n h[ to h>b\r a good ?\ght ( me40 ,?is is n inde$ ! av[$ reason ( ! opposition :i* ! _w has 9 all ages made to ! s]vants ( ,*ri/4 ,b t x is ! true "o ! scriptures abundantly te/ify4 ,b :5 ,god speaks p[]fully to ! he>t1 ! s5tim5ts & words ( m51 be !y flatt]+ or ?reatn+1 make b little impression4 ,he 0 !re=e s f> f be+ mov$ by ?is treatm5t1 t x became to him1 r a confirmation ( ! doctr9e ( ! ,son ( ,god1 :o says1 expressly1 ,wo unto y1 :5 all m5 %all speak well ( y2 & bless$ are ye :5 m5 %all revile y1 & p]secute y1 & %all say all mann] ( evil ( y falsely = my "n-sake4 8,( a tru? ! _w lie? 9 ! wick$ "o4 ,& !y :o are aft] ! fle%1 w hate & p]secute !m t are aft] ! ,_s4 ,! devil hates ,*ri/ & 8 *ildr54 ,x is ! ,_s ( ,*ri/ 9 8 *ildr51 :i* t evil _s 9 ! *ildr5 ( disob$i5ce s viol5tly opposes4 ,! _s ( ! _w lu/e? to envy4 ,! devil envi$ ,adam2 s did ,ca9 8 bro!r ,abel3 & z x has be5 ( old "t1 s x is at ?is day4 ,light c h no communion ) d>kness1 nei!r ,*ri/ ) ,belial4 ,9 ?is respect1 !re is no?+ new "u ! sun2 b t :i* ha? be51 is ! ?+ t is4 ,! true wor%ipp]s ( ,god1 "u ! old ,te/am5t1 & ! s9c]e disciples ( ,*ri/1 "u ! new1 h be5 evil treat$ by ^? among :om !y liv$4 ,!y hat$ !m1 because _! works 7 righte\s4 ,& s x is ev5 n[40 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,8 provid5tial appo9tm5t to lab\r = ! good ( 8 neighb\r1 by prea*+ ! gospel4 ,,he _h f 8 fir/ ?or\gh awak5+1 a love to1 & conc]n = ! s\ls ( o!rs4 ,! same cause :i* made him s solicit\s = 8 own salvation1 produc$ 9 him a t5d] sympa?y = ! s\ls ( 8 neighb\rs1 & ! appreh5sions he _h ( 8 own dang]1 impell$ him to w>n o!rs also4 ,! h& ( ,god 01 no d\bt1 9 ?is1 z well z 9 ! :ole s]ies ( 8 prece$+ conv]sion4 ,8 adorable wisdom1 _h appo9t$ him an in/rum5t ( sav+ s\ls f endless mis]y2 hav+ fir/ prep>$ him = x 7)\t 8 k ( any su* design7 by ! hell1 & heav51 s to speak1 ( 8 own exp]i5ce4 ,ev5 be=e he _h obta9$ m]cy1 he began to w>n o!rs1 exhort+ all1 ) :om he _h any sort ( int]c\rse1 to flee f ! wra? to come4 ,?us 7z he obs]ves7 8:ile ,i 0 9 unbelief myself1 ,i sometimes =got my own condition ?r\gh eag]ness ( desire = ! salvation ( o!r s\ls40 ,mean "t x 0 frequ5tly impress$ ^u 8 m9d1 8,y mu/ prea* ! gospel4 ,?\ %alt be> public te/imony to ! tru? ( ,god10 by op5ly decl>+ 8 lov+ k9dness1 9 ! r$emption ( ! _w4 ,b he (t5 resi/$ ! ?\ght1 urg+ ! impossibility !re(1 f a v>iety ( consid]ations1 & say+ 9 effect1 ,s5d by :om ?\ wilt s5d2 b s5d n me4 ,inde$1 ?\gh he might h nev] s mu* desir$ x1 9 submission to ! w ( ,god2 nev]!less1 :5 ! ?\ght fir/ pres5t$ itself to him1 be+ a consci\s unbeliev]1 he might h ju/ly said1 & x 0 ! language ( 8 he>t1 8,h[ %all ,i tea* ! _w to praise8 ,un*ang'd my he>t1 unloos'd my tongue8 ,give me ! p[] ( fai? to prove1 ,& ,jesus %all be all my song40 ,influ5c$ by ^! k9ds ( consid]ations1 he c\ld n1 :ile he rema9$ himself "u ! bondage1 ?9k ( publi%+ peace & lib]ty to o!rs4 ,b ! case 01 9 "s degree alt]$1 aft] he _h ta/$ t ! ,"l is graci\s4 ,he 0 !n drawn out m abundantly ) love to s\ls1 & 8 conviction became /ill /rong]1 t he mu/ prea* ,*ri/ ,jesus to ! p4 ,?is put him ^u e>ne/ pray]1 & frequ5t fa/+s1 to "k1 assur$ly1 ! w ( ,god1 9 a matt]1 :i* he rightly judg$ ( s great mom5t4 8,i pro/rat$ myself be=e ! ,"l 7says he7 & intreat$ him1 to %ew me 8 pleasure h]e92 to conv9ce me by 8 holy _s1 :e!r ! ?\ghts ( my he>t 7 accord+ to 8 holy w1 &1 :e!r ,i ought to speak 9 8 "n2 or if ,i 0 "u a delusion1 to %ew me ?is also1 & deliv] me f x4 ,i c\ld appeal to ! se>*] ( he>ts1 t ,i desir$ only to glorify him & d 8 w 9 all ?+s40 ,he conduct$ himself 9 x ) all possible secresy2 be+ ev5 !n p]suad$1 t ! affairs ( ,god are to be c>ri$ on )\t noise2 & t no o/5tation %\ld be us$ ev5 9 =sak+ all to s]ve ,*ri/1 9 ?is or any o!r way4 ,& yet to see him employ$ always = ,god1 sp5d+ 8 "t only 9 read+1 writ+1 exhort+ o!rs1 & 9 pr(\nd m$itation1 x 0 easy to imag9e t he ei!r project$ some?+ = ,god's glory1 m ?an c\ld be execut$ by him 9 private2 or1 at lea/1 t :e!r he _h any su* design1 or n1 ,god meant x conc]n+ him4 ,he /ill kept ! affair )9 8 own brea/ hav+ m5tion$ x to no "o p]son :atsoev]2 till f "s words he occasionally dropp$1 "o day among 8 bre?r51 "o ( !m ga!r$1 t he _h "s ?\ghts ( t k9d4 ,at l5g? x became matt] ( mu* & e>ne/ pray]1 among ! mo/ s]i\s ( 8 ,*ri/ian acqua9tance1 ) :om1 aft]w>ds1 he held frequ5t conv]sations on ! head2 be+ fe>ful ( tak+ "o /ep 9 a matt] ( s great importance1 )\t ! cle>e/ intimations ( ! div9e good-pleasure4 ,he well knew t to engage 9 ! endeav\r ( sav+ s\ls f dea?1 0 to comm5ce w> ) ,satan1 & all ! sons ( disob$i5ce2 nev]!less1 be+ at l5g? p]suad$ ( ! w ( ,god1 & n kn[+ h[ soon he might be 9 ano!r _w1 ! great conc]nm5t ( mis]able s\ls1 prevail$ ) him to engage 9 x2 conclud+ t if b "o or two p]sons1 might by 8 means be won to ,god1 x w\ld recomp5se any treatm5t he might meet ) 9 ! _w4 ,he 0 fully dispos$ to sacrifice 8 reputation1 z well z life1 to advance ! k+dom ( ! ,son ( ,god4 ,he judg$ t ! k ( languages1 & o!r bran*es ( human lit]ature1 are highly exp$i5t1 & 9 "s cases necess>y2 b t h[ev]1 !y are n absolutely s1 9 ord] to qualify a man = prea*+ ! gospel ) success4 ,he knew t he might und]/& s\nd doctr9e1 & hold fa/ a =m ( s\nd spee*1 )\t ! k ( ei!r ,lat91 ,greek1 or ,hebrew4 ,he nev]!less1 at no "t spoke disrespectfully ( le>n+3 q ! contr>y2 b yet p]ceiv$ ) adoration ! tru? ( ,/4 ,paul's words1 ) ref]5ce to ! div9e conomy1 9 ! managem5t ( ! affairs ( 8 k+dom3 ,aft] t 9 ! wisdom ( ,god2 accord+ to 8 wise disposals1 leav+ !m to make ! trial1 ! _w1 :e!r ,jewi% or ,g5tile1 by all _! boa/$ ,wisdom knew n ,god1 x pleas$ ,god by ! fooli%ness ( prea*+ to save !m t believe4 7#a ,cor9?ians i4 #ba47 ,he well knew by ?is "t1 t x is ! inspiration ( ! ,almighty1 giv+ heav5ly und]/&+1 :i* only1 avails "h2 t ! mo/ %9+ abilities1 natural or acquir$1 )\t ! wisdom t is f above1 & ! ano9t+ ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 are1 9 ! acc\nt ( ,god1 9 respect ( br++ sons to glory1 light] ?an vanity2 nor bett] ?an s\nd+ brass1 or a t9kl+ cymbal4 ,9 fact1 t ! le>n+ ( ! _w1 us$ o!rwise1 ?an 9 subs]vi5ce to ! true int]e/s ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 9 tea*+1 & v9dicat+ simplicity1 & purity ( he>t1 & subjection 9 life to him1 r fe$s ! pride ( human und]/&+1 & makes a p]son m l ,satan ?an he w\ld be )\t x3 b t rightly us$1 x is a good gift ( ,god1 & greatly conducive to 8 glory4 ,inde$ f 8 e>lie/ days1 he did n neglect any means :i* 0 9 8 p[]1 = ! cultivat+ 8 und]/&+4 ,b he n[ set himself to ?is po9t2 impell$ z x 7 !reto f 8 be+ m abundantly press$ 9 _s1 conc]n+ ! matt] :i* he _h s long 9 debate ) himself2 :i* 0 n[1 e day1 m pla9 to him4 ,he !re=e appli$ ) all dilig5ce to :at he judg$ ! mo/ suitable /udies2 9 :i* he sp5t ! greate/ "p ( 8 wak+ h\rs4 ,! ^w ( life _h h[ev]1 ! *ief %>e ( 8 att5tion4 ,he made ?is 8 "o1 fav\rite /udy & delight1 f ?is "t especially1 till he c\ld "w no long]4 ,he read x mu* ^u 8 knees1 9 ! _s ( pray]4 ,! foll[+ is a specim5 only1 ( 8 cont9u$ practice1 8,"l ,jesus1 ,i lay my s\l at ?y feet to be taught & gov]n$ by !e4 ,take ! veil f ! my/]y1 & %ew me ! tru? z x is 9 ?yself4 ,be ?\ my sun & />1 by day & by night60 ,?is 0 ! way 9 :i* he s\ght = wisdom to w9 s\ls1 & by :i* 8 pr(it+ s visibly appe>$ to all m54 ,8 increas+ k 9 ! ?+s ( ,god1 0 an additional confirmation to him1 ( ! div9e appo9tm5t conc]n+ him4 ,! hidd5 treasures1 & dep? ( tru? 9 ,god's ^w2 8 my/]i\s wisdom 9 ! me?ods ( salvation1 7 e day1 m & m cle>ly reveal$ to him4 ,! seal$ book 0 n[ op5$1 & !reby1 ?r\gh ! assi/ance ( ! ,_s ( tru?1 8 judgm5t grew cle>]1 & /rong]1 9 ! fundam5tal doctr9es ( rep5tance1 ju/ification & hol9ess4 ,he pr(esses t1 if at any "t he 0 9 d\bt conc]n+ any po9t ( doctr9e1 or ! s5se ( any passage ( scripture1 8 div9e in/ructor conv9c$ him1 t ei!r x 0 n ne$ful = him to "k x !n2 or if x 01 direct$ him1 ei!r imm$iately by himself1 ?r\gh "s div9e impression1 or ! provid5tial provision ( "s p]son or book1 :]eby 8 d\bts 7 always solv$4 ,! conc]n :i* he felt = ! salvation ( 8 neighb\r /ill increas$ ^u him1 & a burn+ desire t e body might be z happy 9 ! ,"l ,jesus1 z he felt himself1 engross$ all 8 ?\ghts4 8,! ,_s ( ,god 7says he7 n[ conv9c$ me cle>ly1 n only ( s9 & ( righte\sness 9 my own s\l1 b likewise1 h[ ! "w ( conv]sion is to be c>ri$ on 9 ! s\ls ( o!rs4 ,i 0 a?ir/ = div9e k4 ,i desir$ to be ev] 9 ! s*ool ( ,*ri/1 le>n+ ! lessons ( 8 grace4 ,! glory ( ! ,"l (t5 pass$ be=e me 9 pray]1 & ! light ( et]nity %one ^u my s\l1 :ile my ,"l f$ me z ) m>r[ & fatness60 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,he beg9s to prea*4 ,,:at he _h done hi!rto1 ) ref]5ce to ! conv]sion ( s\ls1 0 only z necessity oblig$ him4 ,! peace1 & p]fection ( 8 own s\l1 be+ 8 ma9 object ( conc]n1 till provid5ce1 hav+ design$ him = ! m9i/ry ( ! gospel1 put him ^u m ext5sive measures = promot+ ! k+dom ( ,*ri/4 ,he began to consid] m ne>ly1 t s\ls hav+ co/ our ,savi\r s de>1 no?+ c\ld be done m acceptable to him ?an to prev5t _! loss2 & t ! glory ( ,god's maje/y1 did mo/ %9e 9 ! salvation ( s9n]s pur*as$ ) ! blood ( 8 ,son4 ,^! consid]ations k9dl$ 9 him su* love to mank9d1 t he c\ld no long] refra9 f exhort+1 fir/ 8 ,*ri/ian bre?r51 ) all f]v\r1 to devote _! he>ts )\t res]ve to ,god2 & next1 e s\l ) :om he _h any sort ( int]c\rse4 ,8 he>t bl$ = poor c>eless s9n]s aga9/ ,god1 & _! own s\ls4 ,! ^w ( ! ,"l 0 9 him1 s t he c\ld n b speak4 ,he knew n h[ to =be> publi%+ z on ! h\se top1 t inf9ite love :i* dealt s graci\sly ) himself4 8,x is n en\gh t ,i s]ve our ,"l3 all he>ts mu/ love him1 & all tongues mu/ praise him60 ,god t\*$ 8 he>t 9 su* a mann] z to leave no d\bt :e!r ?is appo9tm5t 0 f heav52 & ! concurr5ce ( outw>d provid5ces confirm$ 8 int]nal p]suasion4 ,?us1 fre$ f all f>!r wav]+ & irresolution1 he ent]$ ^u t employm5t1 :i* he v]ily believ$1 he w\ld wi% he _h done at ! h\r ( dea?1 & 9 ! day ( judgm5t4 ,desir\s !re=e to ex]cise 8 ,"l's tal5t1 & ! "t af=d+ a provid5tial provision = x1 ev5 out ( ! ord9>y way2 he took ! opportunity ( 8 pres5t connexions1 & )\t look+ f>!r1 pursu$ ! foll[+ measures4 8,i op5$1 7says he7 my m9d to t man ( ,god1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,john ,wesley4 ,i spoke my ?\ghts freely1 & )\t disguise1 desir+ 8 advice on ! occasion2 :i* he sweetly & humbly gave me3 add+ )al1 t ,i might write to him aft]w>ds4 ,i did s1 giv+ him a brief acc\nt ( my conv]sion to ,god1 & ( :at ,i exp]i5c$ 9 my s\l conc]n+ prea*+4 ,8 answ] 0 z foll[s1 8,my de> bro!r1 8,x is h>d to judge :at ,god has call$ y to1 till trial is made4 ,!re=e :5 y h an opportunity1 y may g to ,%ronil1 & sp5d two or ?ree days ) ! p !re4 ,speak to !m 9 ,iri%40 ,%ronil is a village 9 ! c\nty ( ,tipp]>y1 di/ant f ! place he !n resid$ at ,new-,m>ket1 ab\t ?irty ,engli% miles4 ,! inhabitants1 _m ( :om 7 ,prote/ant ,diss5t]s1 _h sometime be=e gladly receiv$ ! ^w ( ,god f ! ,me?odi/s4 ,?i!r he w5t1 accompani$ by "o ( 8 own bro!rs1 & ano!r ( 8 ,*ri/ian bre?r52 hav+ be5 comm5d$ to ! grace ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 by ! e>ne/ pray]s ( sev]al ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god4 8,we walk$ x1 7says he7 & gave ourselves to pray]1 conv]s+ ( ! ?+s ( ! k+dom ( heav51 & exhort+ ^? we met ) 9 ! way to fe> ! ,"l1 & dep>t f evil40 ,!y arriv$ !re ! next day1 :i* 0 9 ,july #agej4 ,! bre?r5 receiv$ !m k9dly 9 ! ,"l1 ?\gh !y 7 unkn[n to !m by face4 ,& hav+ _h k ( 8 err&1 & in=m$ _! neighb\rs1 !re assembl$ 9 ! ev5+1 a consid]able congregation1 to :om1 = ! fir/ "t1 he prea*$ ! ^w ( ,god1 *oos+ = 8 text1 ! words ( ,/4 ,paul1 ,!re=e we conclude t a man is ju/ifi$ by fai? )\t ! de$s ( ! law4 ,he did s aga9 ! next morn+1 on ,be+ ju/ifi$ by fai?1 we h peace ) ,god1 ?r\gh our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 7,romans v4 #a47 & 9 l mann]1 morn+ & ev5+1 dur+ ! few days he /ay$ among !m4 ,& ! ,"l bore te/imony to ! ^w ( 8 grace4 ,= al?\gh "s1 7z has always be5 ! case17 contradict$ & mock$1 yet o!rs 7 deeply affect$1 & "s 7 turn$ to ! ,"l1 8,s graci\s 0 ,god 7z he adds7 to own ! lab\r ( 8 poor creature1 & to bless ! ^w ( 8 weake/ & meane/ mess5g]4 ,n unto me1 b unto ?y "n be ! glory6 ,o ,god1 ?\ ha/ done ! "w4 ,?\ did/ give ! ^w1 & did/ also apply x2 = ?\ only can/ turn ! he>ts ( ! disob$i5t to ! wisdom ( ! j4 ,o my ,god1 /& by me /ill2 & z hi!rto ?\ ha/ help$ me1 nev] leave nor =sake me3 b keep my s\l 9 peace1 & give me a humble1 & a meek _s4 ,let me lab\r dilig5tly 9 ?y v9ey>d1 & sp5d my life & /r5g? 9 ! lab\r ( love4 ,am51 ,"l ,jesus60 ,?us h we br\ght to a conclusion :at 0 propos$ 9 ?is fir/ "p2 hav+ se5 him f 8 y\?1 ?r\gh ! v>i\s travels ( 8 s\l1 ! :ole process ( 8 conv]sion1 till 8 he>t be+ at lib]ty1 he began to publi% ! voice ( wisdom to all ar\nd him4 ,x rema9s1 to give "s acc\nt ( 8 lab\rs1 trials1 & success 9 ! ,"l's "w1 toge!r ) ! g5]al t5or ( 8 exp]i5ce1 till ,god 0 pleas$ to call him h5ce4 ,,"p ,,ii4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,( 8 entire application to prea*+ ! gospel4 ,,x be+ n[1 no long] matt] ( d\bt1 :at ! w ( ,god 0 conc]n+ him2 trial hav+ be5 made1 & ! fruit answ]+ to ! design1 he resolv$ to def] no long]1 /irr+ up ! gift ( ,god :i* 0 9 him4 ,sett+ aside !re=e e o!r conc]n1 & employm5t1 he devot$ himself entirely to ! "w ( :i* he believ$ ,god _h assign$ him4 ,he set out ) a resolution to give himself up :olly to ! dictates ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 & to be ready to g :at way soev] ! voice ( heav5 %\ld call him4 ,& t 8 und]/&+ might n be dissipat$1 & scatt]$ ^u div]s objects1 & s h less =ce to ent] deep into ! ?+s ( ,god1 he began 8 "w ) apply+ himself altoge!r to ! /udy ( ! holy scriptures1 & to pray]4 ,& ! pr(ici5cy :i* by ^? means he made daily1 9 ! wisdom t is f above1 quickly appe>$4 ,he truly lab\r$ 9 ! ^w1 & fai?fully & f]v5tly en=c$ ! div9e tru?s he le>n$ !re f4 ,8 s\l became /rangely enl>g$ 9 lab\rs ( love = ! salvation ( 8 neighb\r2 :ile he imp>t$ to !m abundantly :at ,god _h s ri*ly1 & s freely be/[$ ^u him4 ,! words ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ 7 9 g5]al exce$+ preci\s to him2 & f 8 fir/ acqua9tance ) !m1 8 :ole delight & 8 c\nsellors4 ,! :ole ( 8 foll[+ conduct to 8 dea?1 seem$ influ5c$ by ^? words ( ,*ri/ 7applicable to all real ,*ri/ians7 ,ye are ! salt ( ! e>?4 ,ye are ! light ( ! _w4 ,a city set ^u an hill _c be hid3 nei!r d m5 7mu* less ,god7 light a c&le1 to put x "u a bu%el1 t is1 hide x2 b on a c&le/ick1 t x may give light to all ab\t x4 ,& n[1 ! div9e provid5ce concurr+ ) 8 convictions & incl9ation1 made 8 way cle>1 to put into execution :at he _h be5 s long delib]at+ ^u4 ,conf]r+ !re=e no long] ) fle% & blood1 & resolv+ to d5y himself1 & take up 8 cross to foll[ ,jesus1 he bid f>ewel to 8 k9dr$1 & to 8 acqua9tance 9 g5]al4 ,*oos+ ! ,"l = 8 sole portion1 he lit]ally left all1 & w5t out into ! wide _w1 entirely unanxi\s ab\t :at he %\ld eat1 or :at he %\ld dr9k1 or :]e)al he %\ld be cloa!d1 be+ fully p]suad$1 t an entire reliance on ,god 0 all ?+s4 ,he w5t to sp5d 8 life 9 besee*+ s9n]s to be reconcil$ to ,god4 ,?us1 8,by ,*ri/ himself orda9'd & s5t1 ,an h]ald ( r$eem+ grace1 ,eag] to ! highways he w5t1 ,& fill'd ! l& ) ,jesu's praise60 ,?is 0 ab\t ! latt] end ( ,augu/ #agej1 :5 go+ f ! place ( 8 nativity to ,lim]ick1 he _h daily opportunity ( publi%+ ^? glad tid+s1 :i* he fir/ he>d 9 t city1 & :i* became ! p[] ( ,god to 8 salvation4 ,at fir/1 he commonly exp\nd$ ! scriptures e morn+3 & aft] a little :ile1 bo? ev5+ & morn+1 ) mu* e>ne/ness exhort$ & bes\ght multitudes1 :o att5d$ 8 disc\rses1 to seek ! ,"l :ile he may be f\nd4 ,& x pleas$ ,god imm$iately to be> te/imony to ! ^w ( 8 grace by him4 ,sev]al p]sons :o he>d him1 & :o1 till !n1 _h be5 c>eless & utt]ly unconc]n$ ab\t ! matt]1 became s]i\sly conc]n$ = _! salvation2 :ile 9 ! mean "t o!rs1 :o _h be5 deeply di/ress$ ) ! guilt ( s91 felt 8 ^w1 ! p[] ( ,god unto salvation4 ,he 0 ab\t ?is "t call$ to be> reproa* = 8 "w's sake4 ,! m9ds ( "s p]sons became evil affect$ t[>ds him4 ,! int]e/s ( ! ,god ( ?is _w1 _h already suff]$ loss by 8 zeal1 & unwe>i$ dilig5ce1 & !y 7 9 dang] ( suff]+ yet m4 ,satan !re=e by e means endeav\r$ to prev5t ! fruit ( 8 lab\rs4 ,8 unpoli%$ y\?2 8 r\ghness bo? ( address & dialect1 ow+ p>tly to natural temp]1 p>tly to hav+ be5 br\ght up mu* 9 ! c\ntry1 & p>tly to 8 hav+ be5 =m]ly ( ! *ur* ( ,rome2 b m ?an all1 8 be+ a native ( t neighb\rhood1 gave "s p]sons occasion = be+ deeply (f5d$ at him1 :o express$ x by _! unk9d1 & uncivil treatm5t t[>ds him4 ,?is ,i _h f "s ( ! p]sons !mselves1 a consid]able "t aft]1 :o m5tion$ x to _! own reproa*1 t he1 :om !n !y s lov$ & hon\r$ 0 nev]!less1 once ! object ( _! scorn4 ,!re is 9 "s p>ts ( ,irel& a v rem>kable diff]5ce betwe5 ! dialect ( ! ,prote/ants1 & ,romani/s1 ev5 ( ! same c\nty or p>i%4 ,:at is call$ ! brogue1 9 its excess is a sort ( ,%ibbole? = ! latt]2 & among ! y\ng] sort ( ,prote/ants especially1 a t]m ( reproa*4 ,i rememb] x 0 a v common objection to him1 :5 he prea*$ fir/ 9 ! t[n ( my nativity4 ,b z he s\ght n 8 own ?+s1 nei!r /rove to please man1 hav+ 9 view only ! glory ( ,god1 & ! good ( s\ls1 ?is did n 9 ! lea/ damp 8 f]v\r1 or ret>d 8 progress4 ,z he saw daily ! fruit ( 8 lab\rs1 s he 0 n to be h9d]$1 or disc\rag$ by any treatm5t ( himself2 r he rejoic$ 9 contempt = 8 ma/]'s sake4 ,he _h put 8 h& to ! pl\gh 7,luke ix4 #fb47 & hav+ c\nt$ ! co/1 settl$ x 9 8 he>t n to look back4 ,he wax$ /ill /rong]1 & grew e day m mighty 9 ! scriptures1 & 9 con=mity to our ,"l1 z well z m in/rum5tal 9 br++ o!rs acqua9t$ ) ! only true ,god1 & our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,!re are _m in/ances ( ! good effects ( ^! 8 fir/ lab\rs4 ,x pla9ly appe>$ t ! ^w ( ,god 9 8 m\? 0 att5d$ ) ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,x 0 n an uncommon case1 = p]sons to be s p5etrat$ by 8 f]v5t disc\rses1 z to resolve n to leave ! place1 till !y %\ld f9d re/ 9 _! s\ls1 & ! in/ances 7 n a few1 to :om ! ,god ( love condesc5d$ ev5 9 ?is p>ticul> by s5d+ !n ! ,_s ( adoption into _! he>ts1 te/ify+ ,?y s9s are =giv52 & enabl+ !m to cry ,abba ,fa!r4 ,8 "t 0 n[ :olly tak5 up 9 se>*+1 exp\nd+1 & en=c+ ! scriptures1 :i* he did bo? 9 public & 9 private2 & pray]1 visit+ ! sick1 & :atsoev] o!r p>ticul> employm5ts occasional1 or /at$1 _h any relation to 8 "o purpose ( sp5d+1 & be+ sp5t 9 ! s]vice ( 8 ma/]4 ,& hav+ be5 ?us employ$ at ,lim]ick = "s "t1 x 0 judg$ exp$i5t1 t he %\ld g & prea* ! gospel 9 o!r places also4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,he goes into ! prov9ces ( ,le9/] & ,conn\ght & prea*es ! ^w !re4 ,,8 way into ^? p>ts _h1 9 "s degree1 be5 prep>$ be=e him3 _m hav+ receiv$ t gospel1 :i* he prea*$ f o!rs ( 8 bre?r54 ,he foll[$ !m flam+ ) desire = ! salvation ( s\ls1 & ) zeal = ! glory ( 8 ma/]4 ,by ?is /ripl+ _m /\t-he>t$ ,goliah's 7 r$uc$ to ! ob$i5ce ( ,*ri/4 ,8 lab\rs n[1 7 great] ?an he _h hi!rto kn[n2 = beside prea*+ always twice1 & sometimes ?rice a day1 he (t5 travell$ _m miles betwe54 ,b x 0 r5d]$ pleasant to him1 do+ x he>tily z to ! ,"l4 ,:]e love is1 !re is no lab\r1 & if !re be lab\r1 ! lab\r is lov$4 ,yes1 x c>ries a burd5 )\t a burd54 ,8 endeav\rs 7 cr[n'd ) mu* success4 ,multitudes ( p ( all d5om9ations att5d$ 8 prea*+1 :]ev] he came2 s t 9 a little "t he 0 g5]ally kn[n all ar\nd ! c\ntry4 ,n[ !re=e did ! ,god ( ?is _w /ir up 8 emiss>ies4 ,he has be5 sometimes waylaid 9 8 j\rney1 & escap$ _! h&s1 only by rem>kable int]positions ( div9e provid5ce4 ,x may be t$i\s to enum]ate all ! in/ances4 ,! foll[+ ,i set d[n abridg$ f 8 j\rnal4 8,?ursday1 ,janu>y #d1 #agej4 ,) mu* weakness ( body1 ,i prea*$ ?is morn+1 & soon aft] set out = ,rosgrea4 ,ab\t a mile f ! t[n ,i met a l>ge company arm$ ) clubs4 ,sev5ty-eight m5 7 sworn ^u ! occasion4 ,at ! fir/ sight ( !m ,i 0 a little daunt$2 b ,i pray$ to ! ,"l = direction1 & 0 /r5g!n$4 ,!y compell$ me to alight1 say+1 ,!y w\ld br+ a m9i/] ( ! *ur* ( ,engl& & a ,romi% prie/ to talk ) me4 ,i let !m "k1 ,i prea*$ n aga9/ any p>ticul> *ur*1 b aga9/ s9 & wick$ness 9 all4 ,i said1 suppos+ ?ree p]sons among y ( diff]5t d5om9ations2 x may be a ,*ur*man1 a ,quak]1 & ,papi/1 sitt+ d[n & dr9k+ to excess1 beg9 to dispute1 ea* affirm+1 t 8 0 ! be/ religion3 :]e is ! religion ( all ^! m58 ,surely !y are )\t any1 unless x be t ( ,belial4 ,!y are ( _! fa!r ! devil1 :ile 8 works !y d40 8,aft] "s fur!r disc\rse on ! design ( my com+ to prea* to !m1 & appeal+ to !mselves conc]n+ ! necessity ( x1 _! rage seem$ abat$1 & !n told me1 !y w\ld let me g on condition t ,i w\ld swe> nev] m to come to ,rosgrea4 ,b :5 ,i resolutely refus$ ?is1 !y consult$ on r\gh] measures2 & aft] mu* debate1 7 det]m9$ to put me into a well1 :i* !y _h prep>$ = t purpose4 ,!y hurri$ me away into ! t[n1 :]e ,i 0 surr\nd$ z by s _m human wolves4 ,!y held a consultation aga91 & resolv$ ei!r to make me swe>1 or to put me into ! well4 ,b ,i refus$ ei!r to swe> or promise4 ,"s !n cri$ vehem5tly #8,put him 91' b o!rs z positively said1 #8,!y %\ld n4' 8,aft] "s "t ! p>i% m9i/] came1 :o behav$ well1 & desir$ ,i might be set at lib]ty4 ,!y cons5t$1 provid$ ,i w\ld g out ( t[n imm$iately4 ,f an inn1 :]e !y conf9$ me1 !y br\ght me out into ! /reet1 & x be+ m>ket-day1 ,i began to prea* to ! p4 ,b tak+ me by ! back1 !y hurl'd me be=e !m out ( t[n4 ,at l5g? ,i got on horseback1 & tak+ (f my hat1 ,i pray$ = !m "s consid]able "t4 ,i !n call$ ^u !m 9 ! "n ( ,god1 = ,*ri/'s sake1 to rep5t2 & told !m1 z to myself1 9 ! cause ( ,god1 ,i fe>$ nei!r devils nor m52 t to d _! s\ls good 0 my sole motive ( com+ among !m1 & t if ,god p]mitt$1 !y might put me 9 ! well1 or /one me2 be x h[ x w\ld1 ,i 0 cont5t40 8,i came (f f !m at l5g? 9 peace ( consci5ce1 & s]5ity ( m9d4 ,f ! fir/ ( x to ! la/1 ,i 0 n ! lea/ di/urb$1 nor /irr$ 9 ang] or malice t[>ds !m4 ,o ,god1 x is ?\ alone t ha/ wr\ght ?is deliv]ance = me40 ,he abode 9 ^? p>ts = "s mon?s1 & w5t ?r\gh bo? evil & good report4 ,:ile go+ ab\t daily1 he endeav\r$1 by all means ! conv]sion ( _! s\ls4 ,he (t5 want$ prop] necess>ies = 8 body1 & mu* impair$ 8 heal?1 ?r\gh ! greatness ( 8 fatigues4 ,b ?is by no means dampt ! conc]n :i* he felt = p]i%+ s9n]s1 great numb]s ( :om 7 pres5t to 8 view :]ev] he came4 ,a desire ( be+ in/rum5tal t[>ds op5+ _! eyes1 & turn+ !m to ,god1 br\ght him among !m2 nor c\ld any p]sonal inconv5i5ces alt] 8 purpose1 till provid5ce direct$ 8 way else:]e4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,"s f>!r acc\nt ( ! tr\ble he met ) on acc\nt ( prea*+ ! gospel4 ,,our ,savi\r1 said ( 8 k+dom1 ,if x 7 ( ?is _w1 !n w\ld my s]vants fight1 t ,i %\ld n be deliv]$ into y\r h&s4 ,satan on ! contr>y1 is said to be ! pr9ce1 & god ( ?is _w4 ,& h[ num]\s are 8 poor vassals6 ,:5 !re=e 8 s]vants p]ceive _! ma/]'s k+dom 9 dang]1 !y d fight1 le/ x %\ld be subject$ to its rightful ,"l4 ,& h5ce only c be acc\nt$ = t opposition1 :i* ?is s]vant ( ,*ri/1 burn+ ) desire to promote 8 k+dom1 met ) among mo/ d5om9ations ( ,*ri/ians1 s call$1 :]ev] he came4 ,"s1 x is true1 9 almo/ e place1 receiv$ ! ^w gladly2 :ile o!rs n only did n reg>d x1 b treat$ him ) unk9dness1 ev5 to abusive language1 bl[s1 or imprisonm5t4 ,! foll[+ in/ance1 & :i* 0 ! occasion ( my fir/ k ( him1 happ5$ 9 ! t[n ( my nativity1 ab\t tw5ty miles f ! city ( ,cork4 ,at ! repeat$ reque/ ( "s ( ! inhabitants1 he w5t ?i!r accompani$ by a few fri5ds f ! t[n ( ,b&on1 ,june #aa1 #ageb4 ,! magi/rate1 :o 0 also rector ( ! p>i%1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,william ,ellis1 0 appli$ to = ! use ( ! m>ket-h\se2 :i* be+ refus$1 x 0 propos$1 t he %\ld prea* at a small di/ance f ! t[n4 ,?i!r he w5t accompani$ by multitudes to :om1 "u ! canopy ( heav51 ne> a spaci\s /r&1 & %ad$ by a spread+ tree1 he affectionately decl>$ ! gospel ( ! grace ( ,god4 ,by ! "t he _h got to ! place appo9t$1 ! magi/rate1 _h s5t 8 s]jeants to =bid him prea*+1 8,b be+ 7to use 8 own words7 ( ! op9ion1 t x 0 bett] to obey ,god ?an man10 he /ept up ^u a table prep>$ = t purpose1 & imm$iately op5+ 8 little bible read to !m1 ,job xxi4 #c4 ,suff] me t ,i may speak1 & aft] t ,i h spok51 mock on4 ,! seasonable s+ul>ity ( ! text1 s excit$ _! att5tion1 t !y p]mitt$ him to f9i% quietly4 ,! ^w 0 ) p[]4 ,sev]al faces 7 turn$ to pal5ess & wet ) te>s1 :ile he urg$ x home ^u ! consci5ce1 t our s9s 7 ! betray]s & murd]]s ( ! ,son ( ,god4 ,on 8 return into ! t[n1 he 0 seiz$ by ! (fic]s1 & br\ght be=e ! magi/rate1 foll[$ by an a/oni%$ multitude4 ,be+ ask$ _m & v>i\s que/ions conc]n+ ?is way1 he answ]$ fully1 & )\t fe>4 ,! conv]sation la/$ ne> an h\r1 9 :i* he l>gely expla9$ himself1 giv+ ! reasons ( 8 conduct2 & all$g+ 9 its behalf1 prec$5ts bo? f scripture & f antiquity4 ,b ,mr4 ,ellis1 hav+ pr$et]m9$ :at he w\ld d1 0 n to be mov$ by argum5ts4 ,he !re=e let him "k1 t unless he w\ld promise to prea* no m 9 ?is way1 at lea/ n 9 ^? p>ts1 he %\ld be committ$ to prison )\t delay4 ,he repli$1 8,t z he _h be5 s e>ne/ly importun$ to come !re1 he c\ld n1 9 consci5ce1 promise n to come20 & ask$1 8,are !re no swe>]s1 drunk>ds1 sabba?-break]s1 & ! l1 9 ^? p>ts80 ,be+ answ]$1 8,!re are40 ,he add$1 t if aft] he _h prea*$ !re a few times1 !re appe>$ to be no re=mation among !m1 he w\ld nev] come ?i!r m4 ,b ?is n satisfy+1 he 0 ord]$ to prison4 ,he w5t ?i!r ) all read9ess1 & e/eem$ x matt] ( ?anksgiv+1 t 8 ,"l c\nt$ him wor?y1 to suff] reproa* = 8 "n's-sake4 ,sev]al p]sons accompani$ him into ! prison1 :]e1 he1 ) 8 fri5ds1 sang praises to ,god1 & exhort$ ! p4 ,! /reet 0 cr\d$1 "s say+ "o ?+1 & "s ano!r2 9 g5]al h[ev]1 !y 7 displeas$ at 8 conf9em5t2 & almo/ ! :ole t[n seem$ conc]n$ 9 8 behalf4 ,he /ill 7z f> z 8 voice w\ld rea*7 prea*$ to !m ?ro' ! w9d[4 ,! inhabitants %ew$ ! utmo/ civility t[>ds him2 & n kn[+ h[ long he might be conf9$1 provid$ b$d+ & provision = him & 8 companions4 ,b x 0 n long be=e ! magi/rate s5t to let him g4 ,com+ out1 & see+ su* a numb] ( p1 he w\ld fa91 h prea*$ to !m2 b 0 dissuad$ by 8 fri5ds4 ,he !n w5t to a private room1 & exhort$ till t5 o'clock1 z _m z came to him4 ,he w5t ?i!r twice aft]w>ds1 & ?o' ) mu* contradiction1 prea*$ to !m t gospel1 :i* is ! p[] ( ,god unto salvation4 ,8 endeav\rs 7 n all lo/4 ,!re are to ?is h\r "s ( ! fruit ( 8 lab\rs 9 t place2 p]sons to :om1 because ( ! bless+ :i* ,god made him to _! s\ls1 8 memory w be ev] preci\s4 ,! foll[+ in/ance happ5$ 9 ! nor? ( ,irel&1 "s "t aft]1 at a place call$ ,new-,t[n1 :e!r he w5t on ! ,"l's day4 ,at ! desire ( sev]al p]sons1 he int5d$ to h prea*$ 9 a place call$ ! ,*ur* ,gre51 :]e 7 assembl$1 a l>ge company to he> him4 ,b :ile 8 h&s 7 lift$ up 9 pray]1 !re came "o ,mr4 ,mortim]1 a presbyt]ian1 & ) him sev]al hundr$ p]sons1 :o tak+ hold ( him by ! brea/1 pull$ him ) viol5ce to ! gr\nd4 ,!y haul$ him ?ro' ! mob1 & _h well nigh *oak$ him1 :5 "o ,mr4 ,bi]s fre$ him f ! h&s ( him :o held him4 ,b = ?is he 0 soon /ruck to ! gr\nd himself4 ,be+ got free1 x griev$ him exce$+ly to see su* a will+ multitude disappo9t$2 s he w5t to a place at "s di/ance f ! =m]4 ,b "h likewise1 by ! "t he _h begun1 ! same p]sons pursu$ him4 ,p]ceiv+ !re=e t x 0 va9 to attempt prea*+1 he retir$ to a little h\se 9 a g>d51 at "s small di/ance4 ,b nei!r "h c\ld he be at re/2 ! mob foll[$1 & to avoid _! fury1 he 0 oblig$ to wade ?ro' wet mead[s1 & !n climb ov] ! m\nta9s1 till #8wet & we>y1 we 7he _h "o p]son ) him7 came to ! h\se ( "o ,mr4 ,ambey1 :o suppli$ u ) all we want$4' ,8 t5d]1 brok5 con/itution c\ld n h[ev]1 endure ?is fatigue1 )\t feel+ its effects4 ,he 0 oblig$ 9 a few days to take to 8 b$1 :]e a fev] conf9$ him = "s "t4 ,x ne$ n be dissembl$1 t ! au?ors ( ?is outrage t[>ds a /rang]1 *>geable ) no crime save t ( endeav\r+ to save s\ls f dea?1 7 a company ( ,presbyt]ians6 ,b alas6 :at are names8 8,lib]ty ( consci5ce1 & "r ( private judgem5t10 are good & speci\s words4 ,b h[ reconcilable !y are to su* conduct z ?is let all ! _w judge4 ,! /ate ( 8 he>t1 on t occasion1 he expresses ?us4 8,9 ! mid/ ( x all1 my m9d 0 calm4 ,i _h no rem>kable consolation1 or fe>1 or sorr[4 ,i pray$ = !m1 & d /ill pray ,god to =give !m1 & n lay ?is s9 to _! *>ge40 ,i pass ov] a numb] ( o!r in/ances ( ! opposition he met )1 ( a private z well z public nature2 & only m5tion ^!1 z a specim5 ( ! malice :i* ,satan be>s to ,god's k+dom1 & s]vants4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,a %ort acc\nt ( ! endeav\rs ( ! ,romi% cl]gy1 to prev5t 8 usefulness among _! p4 ,! means he made use ( to in/ruct !m1 & ! success :i* he met ) !re94 ,,not)/&+ ! /rict laws :i* are 9 =ce1 to prev5t ! propagation ( ,pop]y 9 ^! k+doms1 & to re/ra9 ! attempts ( ,romi% prie/s & jesuits2 x is no secret1 t bo? 9 ,irel& & ,engl&1 _! endeav\rs1 are z unwe>i$ z ev]4 ,!y compass sea & l& all r\nd ! globe1 & h>dly /ick at any ?+ t may contribute t[>ds _! mak+ proselytes4 ,! endeav\rs ( ?is s]vant ( ,*ri/1 to conv]t to him memb]s ( t communion1 /irr$ up _! cl]gy aga9/ him :]ev] he came4 ,8 "n 0 well kn[n 9 all _! *ur*es2 & 9 :atsoev] place !re appe>$ b a probability ( 8 com+1 ! prie/s took c>e1 to r5d] him z obnoxi\s to ! p z !y possibly c\ld2 insomu*1 t !y /uck at no?+1 ?\gh nev] s false1 to compass _! end4 ,!y h[ev] c>efully avoid$ 8 hav+ opportunity to talk ) !mselves4 ,i d n f9d t f ! "t ( 8 leav+ _! communion1 he _h ev] any settl$ p]sonal int]views ) !m1 al?\gh = ! sake ( _! poor ignorant p1 = :om he _h ! t5d]e/ compassion1 he has frequ5tly desir$ x2 sometimes ev5 9 public4 ,"o occasional conv]sation only1 ) "o ( _! prie/s1 on bo>d a %ip1 9 a passage f ,engl& to ,dubl91 he relates1 z foll[s1 8,we disc\rs$ on ! foll[+ p>ticul>s4 #a4 ,! ,pope's infallibility4 #b4 ,transub/antiation4 #c4 ,invocation ( sa9ts4 #d4 ,purgatory4 ,b he c\ld n )/& ! =ce ( pla9 scripture1 & !re=e )drew4 ,! company 7 greatly pleas$ to f9d1 h[ little ! ,romi% cl]gy h to say = !mselves1 :5 oppos$ by argum5ts tak5 f scripture & reason40 8occcasional0 replac$ ) 8occasional0 ,9 "o place1 7,cl7 ! prie/ in=m$ 8 congregation1 7to su* l[ %ifts 7 !y driv57 & indu/ri\sly spread abroad1 8t he _h be5 a s]vant boy to a c]ta9 prie/1 & t hav+ /ol5 8 ma/]'s books1 he le>n$ to prea* by t means40 ,! conduct ( ano!r ( !m at ,cork1 0 /ill m extraord9>y4 ,!re 0 9 t place a va/ resort ( ,ca?olics 7s call$7 to 8 s]mons1 :i* 7 (t5 "u ! op5 firmam5t1 z well z daily )9 doors1 bo? 9 ,iri% & ,engli%2 & among ! ,romani/s1 :o 7 happily /irr$ up !reby to a conc]n = _! salvation1 !re 0 "o eld]ly woman1 :o _h be5 9 "s religi\s (fice among !m4 ,%e entirely =sook _! communion1 con/antly att5d$ 8 s]mons1 & !nce=w>d1 receiv$ ! ,"l's supp] 9 ! *ur* ( ,engl&4 ,! ,romi% prie/s became /rangely irritat$1 & lab\r$ vehem5tly to /op ! gr[+ evil2 to :i* end1 "o ( !m affirm$ to ! p1 t 8,z to t ,wal%1 :o _h "s "t be=e turn$ h]etic1 & w5t ab\t prea*+1 he _h be5 dead long ago3 & t he1 :o !n prea*$ 9 ?is mann]1 0 b ! devil 9 8 %ape40 ,b _! endeav\rs1 prov$ 9 great measure ineffectual2 =1 h[ev] a few p]sons might receive ill impressions f su* ins9uations2 yet sev]al ( _! communion 9 _m places he>d him gladly1 & w\ld n be h9d]$ !refrom4 ,r1 ! m ! prie/s urg$ !m1 !y prevail$ ! less4 ,8 lab\rs1 & pray]s1 & te>s1 = _! poor /ray+ s\ls1 ov] :om 8 b[els s (t5 ye>n$1 _h1 on _m ! desir$ effect2 be+ !reby1 n only re=m$ f ,pop]y1 b really conv]t$ to ,god4 ,( ! common natives ( ,irel&1 x has be5 frequ5tly obs]v$1 t ( all ! natives ( ! globe1 !re are none :o exce$ !m = hospitality1 good nature1 & susceptibility ( religi\s impressions4 ,x might well !re=e1 occasion ! #8ye>n+ ( ! b[els' ( ?is lov] ( s\ls1 to see su* multitudes ( !m deta9$ 9 total ignorance by _! prie/s1 to :om !y pay ! mo/ implicit ob$i5ce4 99,& h5ce x 01 t f ! beg9n+ ( ! conc]n :i* he felt = 8 own s\l1 he set himself1 by all possible means to turn !m f d>kness to light4 ,& :i!r 9 ! highways1 at inns1 9 ! city or c\ntry1 he let slip no probable means ( in/ruct+ !m4 ,"o circum/ance :i* is mu* m common 9 ,irel& ?an ,engl&1 ,i mean ! numb] ( /reet begg>s1 furni%$ him ) frequ5t opportunities ( ?is k9d4 ,8 mann] ( address+ !m 0 easy & famili>3 talk+ to !m always 9 a /ile suit$ to _! capacity & prejudices4 ,he avoid$ entirely ! diff]5ce ( *ur*es1 & all matt] ( dispute1 speak+ only ( ! dreadful evil ( s91 ! great affairs ( et]nal life1 & et]nal dea?1 ( judgm5t1 & ( ! suff]+s & sacrifice ( ! ,son ( ,god4 ,& 8 disc\rses _h (t5 su* imm$iate effect1 t fall+ on _! knees1 & smit+ _! brea/s1 !y h wept1 & cri$ = m]cy1 9 ! op5 /reets4 ,he always conclud$ 8 in/ructions ) giv+ !m money1 if he _h x1 :i* inde$ 0 n always ! case4 ,x w\ld be t$i\s to enum]ate all ! conv]sations1 & v>i\s int]c\rses :i* he _h ) memb]s ( t communion1 & ! good effects :i* 7 produc$ by !m4 ,two or ?ree only1 may be relat$ f 8 own acc\nts4 8,?is day came to my room4 ,i ask$ him1 h[ he hop$ to be sav$8 ,& hav+ talk$ toge!r 9 ,iri% = "s "t1 he became greatly affect$1 & said1 #8,i h sav$ "s money to leave to "s ,prie/ or ,fri> :5 ,i die1 9 ord] to procure me ! =giv5ess ( my s9s1 & ,i am will+ to leave x to y1 if y w accept ( x4' ,i told him1 t no man c\ld =give 8 s9s2 t ! gift ( ,god 0 n to be pur*as$ ) money2 & t only ! blood ( ,*ri/1 our great ,high-prie/1 c\ld cleanse f s94 ,he 0 deeply w\nd$1 & cri$ e>ne/ly to ,god1 to :om1 aft] pray] ,i comm5d$ him40 ,at ano!r "t he writes1 8,a poor woman1 a papi/1 came to my room1 desir\s ( salvation4 ,i pray$ ) h] 9 ,iri%4 ,%e frequ5tly fell on h] knees & cri$ = m]cy1 resolv+ no m to reg>d ! prie/'s curses1 b to seek h] salvation accord+ z ! ^w ( ,god directs40 ,aga91 8,be+ on a j\rney1 :]e ,i breakfa/$ 7x 0 a ,romani/'s7 ,i reprov$ ! l&lord = swe>+1 & talk$ to all :o 7 pres5t4 ,i exhort$ likewise a woman at ! door1 to seek f ,god1 rep5tance & salvation4 ,%e cri$ ) amaze6 ,to ! bless$ ,virg91 & to ! twelve apo/les to help h]4 ,b ,i taught h] to direct h] pray]s to ,god ! ,fa!r1 ?r\gh ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/40 99,beside 8 frequ5t occasional conv]sations ) !m1 he w5t to z _m ( _! own h\ses z he c\ld get admittance1 :]e he reg>d$ ! *ildr5 & s]vants1 ev5 z ! ma/]s & mi/resses4 ,b :at mo/ ( all contribut$ to ! success ( 8 attempts = _! good1 0 8 public prea*+1 to :i* great numb]s ( !m frequ5tly resort$1 :]ev] he came2 induc$ !reto1 *iefly by 8 prea*+ 9 ,iri%1 & su* ?+s z !y easily und]/ood4 ,!re is 9 ! ,iri% language a peculi>ly affect+ expressiv5ess1 p>ticul>ly ) respect to ! ?+s ( ,god2 :i*1 be+ press$ home ^u ! consci5ce1 by 8 zeal\s & al>m+ way ( prea*+1 (t5 left !m ba!d 9 te>s4 ,i saw a v rem>kable in/ance ( ?is 9 ! t[n ( my nativity2 prea*+ !re on a m>ket-day1 _m ( ! c\ntry p runn+ ) surprize to he> him1 smote _! brea/s & wept1 9 su* a mann] z 0 entirely new to !m1 "s affirm+1 t !y c\ld g all ov] ! _w ) him6 ,x may be truly said1 he seldom prea*$ a s]mon 9 ,iri%1 f :i* "s ( !m did n receive advantage4 ,he briefly m5tions a few in/ances himself1 z foll[s1 8,aft] prea*+ bo? 9 ,iri% & ,engli%1 a poor papi/ woman came to me1 say+1 #8,%e came = in/ruction2 = t z %e 0 a poor woman1 %e c\ld n h x else:]e1 & %e want$ to save h] s\l4' ,i told h]1 t all :i* 0 9 my p[]1 ,i w\ld d = h] will+ly4 ,%e wept1 & ,i pray$ ) h]1 po9t+ h] = all h] s\l want$1 to ,jesus1 :o alone is ! way1 ! tru?1 & ! life40 99,aga91 8,janu>y #d1 #agea4 ,my s\l 0 delight$ to see ) :at e>ne/ness ! poor ,iri%1 7mean+ ! ,romani/s7 receiv$ ! ^w1 be+ 9 g5]al deeply affect$4 ,o h[ did !y weep1 & cry = m]cy6 ,may ,god he> _! pray]4 ,surely ?is p w rise up 9 judgm5t aga9/ ,prote/ants1 :o hav+ ! light ( ! gospel1 ei!r neglect or despise x4 ,& also aga9/ ! pa/ors ( ?is ignorant p1 :o hold !m 9 error4 ,o1 :at h ! ,romi% cl]gy to answ] = be=e ,god60 8,april1 #agea4 ,_m ( !m pr(ess$ aft] prea*+1 t !y receiv$ m b5efit f t "o s]mon1 ?an f all ! masses !y _h att5d$ dur+ _! :ole life40 ,at ano!r "t prea*+ conc]n+ ! good ,sam>itan 7,luke x4 #cj47 8,two memb]s ( ! *ur* ( ,rome 7 deeply conv9c$ ( _! want ( a ,savi\r1 & ?irty-f\r p]sons jo9$ !mselves toge!r1 to seek & s]ve ! ,"l40 8,friday1 ,may #h4 ,i conv]s$ ) a woman :o 0 =m]ly ( ! *ur* ( ,engl&1 b _h be5 s$uc$ by ! ,romi% prie/s4 ,%e 0 conv9c$ ( h] error & return$4 ,to ,god be ! glory40 8,aft] prea*+ on ,john i4 #ag4 ,s9n]s cri$ out mightily4 ,"o came confess+ h] de$s & said1 ,%e _h liv$ an adultress1 worse ?an ,m>y ,magdal52 %e wept1 trembl$ & ro>$ al\d40 ,! circum/ance ( 8 prea*+ & speak+ 9 ,iri%1 7a ?+ t multitudes1 at lea/ ( prote/ants 9 ,irel& _c d7 next to ! s+ul> bless+ ( ,god ^u 8 lab\rs1 contribut$ mo/ to ! success ( 8 endeav\rs4 ,?\gh x is obs]vable t :5 he prea*$ "o day 9 ,iri%1 on ,oxmon-,t[n-,gre5 9 ,dubl91 among ^? :o 7 affect$ by ! disc\rse1 !re 0 "o man cut to ! he>t1 al?\gh he did n1 at all und]/& ! language4 ,9 a j\rney once betwe5 ,cork & ,b&on1 he fell into conv]sation ) a man :o rode "s miles ) him1 till z 0 8 con/ant mann]1 he began to apply some?+ to 8 he>t1 conc]n+ ! wor? ( 8 s\l1 & ! way ( salvation4 ,b he fav\r+ n ! ?+s ( ,god1 became griev\sly (f5d$4 8,8 prejudice 9 %ort ran s high1 t he decl>$1 al?\gh he 7 %ot = x1 he w\ld h satisfaction2 add+ ) an oa?1 ?\ %alt nev] deceive ano!r1 = ,i am resolv$ to be ! dea? ( y j n[40 8grievosly0 replac$ ) 8griev\sly0 8,i 0 quiet 9 my m9d1 be+ p]suad$ t ! ,god ( ,daniel 0 /ill ! same1 ,i did n feel ! lea/ ang]1 or ris+ ( rev5ge t[>ds him2 & /ill reprov$ him :5ev] he swore4 ,9 ! mid/ ( 8 rage ,i reprov$ him 9 ,iri%4 ,he 0 in/antly amaz$2 & repli$1 #8,:y did y n speak s to me 9 ! beg9n+8' ,! lion became a lamb1 & ,i !n let him "k /ill speak+ 9 ,iri%1 :at ,*ri/ _h done = s9n]s4 ,he dep>t$ ) a brok5 he>t40 ,:5 "s ( !m once foll[$ him aft] prea*+1 desir\s ( in/ruction4 8,i told !m 7says he7 z to religion t x 0 n a b>e pr(ession t w\ld avail any "o4,t ! true way1 0 to =sake s9 & foll[ ,*ri/2 & t 9 ord] !reto1 x 0 ne$ful t a p]son %\ld1 #a/4 ,be poor 9 _s2 feel t he is a s9n]4 #b;dly1 ,m\rn on t acc\nt ) a brok5 & contrite he>t4 #c;dly1 ,=sake s9 by apply+ to ! ,"l = /r5g?4 #d?ly1 ,believe 9 ,*ri/1 & him only = salvation2 z x is 8 blood alone1 t cleanse? f all unrighte\sness3 & #e?ly1 ,obey ! gospel by con=m+ to ! rules !re laid d[n2 liv+ sob]ly1 righte\sly1 & godly 9 ! pres5t _w40 ,?is 0 ! sum ( :at he taught !m f "t to "t1 z ! way ( salvation1 :i*1 expla9$ & en=c$ by ! holy scriptures1 he oppos$ to e o!r device1 or tradition ( m54 ,& s zeal\sly conc]n$ 0 he = en=c+ ^! tru?s :]ev] he came1 t to "o1 amid/ a great numb] ( ,romani/s1 ^: att5tion "s endeav\r$ to h9d]1 he said1 8,if my doctr9e be n accord+ to ! ^w ( ,god1 /one me on ! spot4 ,make a sacrifice ( me3 only he> = y\rselves40 8,o t ,god w\ld call !m to ! k ( ! gospel ( peace1 & op5 to !m a door ( salvation4 ,op5 ,"l ! eyes ( _! prie/s4 ,rememb] ! pur*ase ( ?y blood1 nor suff] ^? poor s\ls to p]i%1 = :om ,*ri/ ha? di$40 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,he goes to ,engl& & lab\rs !re4 ,,! enl>gem5t ( s\l1 ) :i* x pleas$ ,god to bless him1 left no b\nds to 8 desires1 ( spread+ ! fav\r ( ! k ( ,jesus1 9 e place3 & 8 provid5tial connexions1 af=d$ him a l>ge sph]e ( action4 ,! p ) :om he 0 m imm$iately unit$1 & :o 71 accord+ to ! div9e disposals1 ! in/rum5ts ( 8 salvation1 _h n[1 ?r\gh ! bless+ ( heav51 spread ! joyful s\nd1 well nigh all ov] ,engl&1 & ,irel&4 ,& h5ce arose a necessity = _m lab\r]s4 ,x 0 !re=e judg$ exp$i5t t1 7hav+ be5 successfully employ$ betwe5 two & ?ree ye>s 9 8 native c\ntry7 he %\ld g to ,engl& likewise3 to :i* only ! conviction ( its be+ ! w ( ,god1 c\ld h reconcil$ him2 feel+ :at 0 natural on ! occasion1 8,a /ruggle )9 himself on leav+ 8 fri5ds & c\ntry40 8recil$0 replac$ ) 8reconcil$0 ,may #aj4 #agec4 ,he emb>k$ at ,dubl9 ) "s o!r fri5ds1 & ! next day arriv$ at ,p>k-gate4 ,conc]n+ ?is voyage1 & 8 arrival 9 ,engl&1 he writes z foll[s4 8,!re 7 on bo>d sev]al g5try1 & (fic]s1 ) a l>ge numb] ( cabb9 pass5g]s4 ,!y curs$1 swore1 & blasphem$ z ?\gh !y 7 9 hell4 ,i reprov$ !m aga9 & aga92 b !y /ill p]si/$1 & said ,i 0 mad4 ,o ,god1 if !re nev] 0 any o!r damnation 9 ! _w to come1 ?an ! company ( su* wret*es1 :o w\ld n flee f x40 ,london 0 ! place :]e he 0 appo9t$ *iefly to lab\r4 ,he arriv$ !re ! #ca/ ( ,may #agec1 & prea*$ 8 fir/ s]mon f #a ,john ii4 #a4 ,& n[ did he1 m vig\r\sly ?an ev]1 apply himself1 bo? 9 public & 9 private1 to ! lab\r ( 8 call+2 resolv+1 9 a place ( su* dang]s1 to make ! be/ use ( bo?4 ,he f\nd himself 9 ! mid/ ( a num]\s & well in/ruct$ p1 _m ( :om 7 deeply exp]i5c$ 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,?is 0 to him matt] ( great joy1 ?\gh at ! same "t ( mu* c>efulness1 kn[+1 t 9 ord] to be truly pr(itable to !m1 a sup]ficial acqua9tance ) ?+s w\ld b ill suffice4 ,he !re=e lab\r$ to be a scribe well in/ruct$2 to be deeply & judici\sly in=m$1 9 ?+s p]ta9+ to ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,x 0 8 daily & nightly /udy1 h[ he might be/ contribute 8 "p t[>ds ! fe$+ !m ) ! s9c]e milk ( ! ^w1 & ! build+ !m up 9 _! mo/ holy fai?4 ,b nei!r did he "h int]mit 8 endeav\rs1 = ! salvation ( 8 poor ignorant c\ntrym51 7( :om great numb]s1 ( ! l[] sort are con/antly employ$ 9 ,london7 /ill deta9$ 9 t d>kness1 f :i* he _h s happily escap$ himself4 ,he !re=e appo9t$ times = expla9+ to z _m ( !m z w\ld he>1 ! fir/ pr9ciples ( ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/2 & prea*$ sev]al times 9 ,iri%1 9 ,moor-fields1 & else:]e2 endeav\r+ likewise1 to h z _m private int]views ) !m z he possibly c\ld4 ,x 0 "h he fir/ =m$ to himself a m exact plan = ! improvem5t ( 8 "t1 ) respect to 8 public & private capacity1 z a prea*]1 & a *ri/ian1 assign+ det]m9ate portions ( x to c]ta9 employm5ts1 :i* unless :5 necessity requir$ o!rwise1 he punctually obs]v$4 ,he prea*$ con/antly twice a day1 & visit$ _m p 9 _! families2 besides frequ5t att5dance on ! sick1 & dy+2 f "s ( :om1 he 0 r>ely a day abs5t4 ,! abilities ) :i* ,god _h end[$ him1 & 8 fai?ful improvem5t ( !m1 consid]ably encreas$ 8 "w2 = x seem$ good to ^?1 :om ! div9e wisdom _h hon\r$1 ) ! ov] sight1 ( a multitude ( p]sons "h1 9 _! abs5ce1 to intru/ him ) t bran* ( _! "w4 ,8 exactness & submissive fai?fulness !re91 appe>$ 9 _m & v>i\s p>ticul>s1 ( :i* a "p only may be ga!r$ f ! foll[+ lett] to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,john ,wesley4 8,hon\r$ ,sir1 8,i ,?ank y = y\r lett]4 ,i long$ exce$+ly to he> f y4,y\r acc\nt ( ! good woman 9 y\r ,j\rnal 0 refre%+ to my s\l4 ,:at ,i h to say is z foll[s10 #a4 8,mr4 ,wesley is gone to ,bri/ol4 ,he met u on ,monday morn+s1 & ^u ! :ole1 all 0 well4 ,we p>t$ mu* 9 love4 #b4 ,mr4 ,f goes on well4 ,i conv]se ) him :5 ,i c4 #c4 ,! ,"l is p[]fully c>ry+ on 8 "w4 ,s9n]s are al>m$1 & sa9ts edifi$4 ,?is day 9 visit+ ! sick1 my s\l 0 greatly com=t$1 by he>+ ( ,god's deal+s ) _! s\ls4 8,on ,monday ,i beg9 to *ange ! tickets4 ,god give me integrity1 wisdom1 meekness1 & love4 ,i ?9k1 consid]+ ^! p>ticul>s1 ,i _c leave ,london yet4 ,x seems provid5ce keeps me "h /ill4 8,y h ! pray]s ( y\r *ildr54 ,i don't =get y4 ,a son hon\re? 8 fa!r1 & a fa!r love? 8 son4 ,let x be s till dea?1 & ! devil c get little advantage4 ,y\r prea*+ has be5 (t51 & exce$+ly ble/ to my s\l4 ,my he>t's desire1 & pray] to ,god is1 t ! ,"l w\ld make me p>tak] ( 8 hol9ess4 8,de> ,sir1 ,i tru/ y\r s\l w1 9 "t1 & 9 et]nity1 p>take ( t great salvation1 y h prea*$ 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l4 ,o may x please ,god1 t we may meet full ( holy & happy love6 ,i feel my s\l ?is mom5t /rongly drawn aft] ,god2 b !re is yet some?+ t keeps me out ( p]fect re/ & lib]ty4 ,jesus1 take my :ole he>t6 ,conf\nd1 ov]p[] me ) ?y grace4 ,reque/+ y\r pray]s & c\nsel1 ,i rema91 8,y\r v affectionate son1 ,?omas ,wal%40 ,london1 ,april #cj4 ,8 advancem5t 9 div9e k1 & 9 ! div9e life1 :ile he rema9$ "h1 became m & m visible4 ,! fruit ( 8 public m9i/ry 0 likewise /ill m disc]nible2 & ! g5]al t5or ( 8 conduct 0 acceptable to ! p4 ,!y _h abundant evid5ce ( 8 devot$ness to ,god1 & ( 8 truly s]v+ z a son 9 ! gospel4 ,he 0 g5]ally ble/ to all k9ds ( he>]s4 ,8 disc\rses 7 always ( an awak5+ nature1 ent]+ into ! v he>t2 & s+ul>ly calculat$ to assi/1 su* z 7 ard5tly seek+ aft] p]fect love1 7#a ,john iv4 #ag1 #ah47 & h]eby1 ?r\gh ! div9e bless+1 he became in/rum5tal to su* a revival ( ! "w ( ,god1 z _h n be5 kn[n1 z to its dep?1 f ! fir/ union ( t society4 ,nor are !re a few 9 ,london1 :o bless ,god t ev] !y he>d 8 voice4 ,?us did he sp5d ! "t ( 8 abode 9 ,engl&1 spread+ ! fav\r ( 8 good o9tm5t all ar\nd him1 & by 8 example1 z well z prea*+1 press+ e "o to make sure "w = et]nity4 ,he p]ceiv$ cle>ly1 x 0 ! good provid5ce ( ,god :i* prep>$ 8 way1 & direct$ him hi!r4 ,he came f ,irel& to ,london1 ?ree sev]al times2 ! la/ ( :i* ! longe/ "t ( 8 cont9u+ !re1 7ab\t two ye>s17 & ! mo/ pr(itable bo? to himself & to o!rs4 ,& "h especially x 01 t ?r\gh 8 great & incessant lab\rs2 8 unwe>i$ application to private /udy & public m9i/rations1 he laid ! f\ndation ( t disord]1 :i* at l5g?1 remov$ him to ano!r _w4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,8 love to s\ls1 & zeal = promot+ ! glory ( ,god4 ,,"s acc\nt ( 8 endeav\rs = ! salvation ( 8 neighb\r1 has already be5 giv54 ,b ?is be+ s consid]able a "p ( 8 "*1 des]ves a m full consid]ation3 ?\gh x _c be told1 ( h[ _m & v>i\s exp$i5ts he s]v$ himself = ! conv]sion ( s9n]s4 ,he wat*$ e opportunity2 & 0 lit]ally in/ant 9 season1 out ( season2 t is cont9ually1 at all times & places1 seek+ h[ he might be/ accompli% ! end1 = :i* alone he desir$ to live4 ,! int5s5ess ( 8 desire1 & 8 application to ?is "o ?+1 kept him cont9ually z on ! w+1 sp5d+1 & be+ sp5t 9 ?is behalf2 reg>d+ nei!r reproa*1 pa91 loss1 nor dea? itself4 8,i h1 said he1 b "o life1 & x is a h>d case if ,i _c readily lose t = 8 sake1 :o gave 8 life a ransom = m9e1 & = ! life ( ! _w4 ,my he>t ble$s = ! _w :i* lie? 9 ! wick$ "o40 ,x 0 ow+ to ?is likewise1 t he embrac$ e possible opportunity ( cry+ al\d1 9 ! mo/ conspicu\s places ( public resort1 & ( en=c+ ! voice ( wisdom1 say+1 ,h[ long ye simple ones w ye love simplicity1 & scorn]s delight 9 scorn+1 & fools hate k6 ,turn ye at my repro(2 behold ,i w p\r out my ,_s ^u y1 ,i w make kn[n my words unto y4 99,m\nta9s1 m>ket-places1 highways1 mead[s1 rooms1 prisons1 & %ips1 7 ! frequ5t !atres ( 8 publi%+ ! gospel ( peace4 ,& h]e9 !re appe>$ 9 him some?+ next to m>vell\s1 be+ a liv+ fire1 cont9ually burn+ 9 ! love ( ,god & man2 /ill m\nt+ upw>ds1 & k9dl+ all t 7 capable ab\t him2 z prone to f]v\r & activity1 z "s are to cold & indol5ce4 ,he 0 nev] we>y ( well-do+1 nor ev] spoke slightly1 & ) indiff]5t affection ( ! great ,god1 & ( ! ?+s ( religion2 b ) a s]i\sness & rev]5ce1 becom+ "o :o by fai? saw ! ,invisible1 & look$ to be %ortly ) him6 99,he 0 9 tru? a mighty adv]s>y to ! devil's k+dom1 & took e possible /ep1 :i* he judg$ might1 9 any measure1 promote ! hon\r ( ,god1 to ^: sole glory he sacrific$ himself1 ) all 8 lab\rs & /udies4 ,x is sc>cely possible to enable a /rang] to him to conceive1 ! fl[ ( 8 s\l1 & en]gy ( 8 _s & expressions on ^! occasions2 :ile he endeav\r$ by all means to save "s4 ,to ?is end1 he truly imp>t$1 n ! gospel ( ,god only1 b likewise 8 own s\l4 ,x 0 ?is noble object :i* rais$ him above1 ev5 t att5tion to 8 body1 :i* x requir$4 ,x 0 truly said ( him1 ,he scorn'd 8 feeble fle% to sp>e1 ,reg>dless ( its swift decl9e2 ,8 s+le aim1 8 ceaseless pray] ,to spread ! righte\sness div9e3 ,he truly triumph$ 9 ! cross1 ,its pr9ts z on 8 body %ew'd1 ,lavi% ( life = ,jesu's cause1 ,^: blood = all s freely fl['d4 ,! fire :i* burn$ 9 8 he>t nev] said 8,x is en\gh40 ,& ! success ) :i* x pleas$ our ,"l to prosp] 8 lab\rs1 0 a con/ant motive to 8 go+ =w>d4 ,8 designs ( do+ good 7 )\t limits1 e/eem+ himself a debtor to all1 & embrac+ 9 affection1 n less ?an ! :ole _w4 ,rid+ ?r\gh ,wales & f9d+ t1 9 _m places !y did n und]/& ,engli%1 he felt great conc]n on ! occasion1 & =m$ a resolution1 if 8 life & heal? p]mitt$1 to le>n ! ,wel* language4 ,& x 0 giv5 him n only to believe1 & !re=e to speak = ,god2 b also to suff] = 8 cause4 ,b he rejoic$ 9 8 suff]+s1 & fill$ up t :i* is beh9d ( ! afflictions ( ,*ri/ 9 8 fle%4 ,meantime ! end1 :i* he /ill kept 9 view1 toge!r ) 8 frequ5t reflections1 on ! love ( ,jesus2 ! dang] ( s9n]s dy+ )\t conv]sion2 & ! pres5t salvation to :i* !y are entitl$1 ?ro' ! blood ( ! ,lamb3 made him m ?an sup]ior to e ?+ :i*1 ei!r m51 or ! malice ( ,satan c\ld inv5t aga9/1 or inflict ^u him4 ,8 w>m he>t & f]v5t c\rage1 fe>$ no dang] 9 ! dis*>ge ( 8 duty1 be+ well assur$ t walk+ uprightly1 he walk$ surely4 ,he dread$ n ! faces ( m51 b :]e occasion (f]$1 boldly reprov$ :at he saw amiss 9 e "o4 ,:]ev] !re appe>$ any probability ( 8 do+ good1 he 0 nev] h9d]$ by ! prospect ( dang]4 ,9 "o place1 hav+ prea*$ to a va/ numb] ( ,romani/s & o!rs1 & a prospect appe>+ ( do+ mu* good1 he int5d$1 to g aga93 b a report prevail$ t if he attempt$ x2 a great man w\ld ei!r h him /on$1 or s5t to jail4 ,on ?is occasion 8,i reflect$ 7says he7 :at ,god _h done 9 =m] times = ^? :o put _! tru/ 9 him4 ,& he gave me /r5g? accord+ to my day4 ,i f\nd my fai? 9 him greatly /r5g!n$1 & resolv$1 simply to rely on 8 protection2 n d\bt+ b t he w\ld /& by me4 ,s ,i w5t ?i!r & prea*$ 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l4 8,! fe> ( man prev5t$ _! giv+ me entrance into _! h\ses z be=e2 s ,i /ood on a *air 9 ! /reet1 & ?ank$ ,god = ! privilege4 ,!y receiv$ ! ^w )\t di/urbance1 & ) joy4 ,on my return ,i pray$ at two h\ses 9 ! way1 & ! p[] ( ,god 0 greatly 9 ! mid/ ( u4 ,prais$ be ,god1 & ! ,lamb = ev]60 ,8 lab\rs 7 inde$ mu* beyond 8 /r5g?2 & 8 zeal w\ld n suff] him to /& /ill3 s t 8 fri5ds 7 oblig$ sometimes 7z ,orig5's "m1 to prev5t h] "y son's burn+ ) 8 fa!r7 to hide 8 cloa?s1 or lock him 9 8 room 9 ! morn+4 99,8 :ole conv]sation 0 l fire1 w>m+1 refre%+1 & com=t+ all t 7 ab\t him1 & begett+ 9 _! s\ls a measure ( ! same zeal = ! glory ( ,god1 & ! salvation ( s9n]s :i* burn$ 9 8 own brea/4 ,x 0 n possible to be mu* ) him1 & n to he> disc\rses :i* br$ a dete/ation ( s91 & a love ( hol9ess4 ,to :at purpose is x to live 7seem$ ! motto ( 8 life7 & n to live to "s good purpose8 ,8 endeav\rs to d good1 ext5d$ to *ildr5 also4 ,he fir/1 introduc$ 9 _m places ! cu/om ( meet+ weekly1 su* ( !m z c\ld att5d1 9 ord] to in/ruct !m 9 su* tru?s1 z _! capacity admitt$ (4 ,9 do+ ?is he desir$ _! p>5ts might be pres5t likewise1 to :om 8 affect+ mann] ( address 0 n less s]viceable1 ?an to ! *ildr54 ,:ile 9 ,london1 he _h sev]al int]views ) ! ,jews1 frequ5tly att5d+ _! synagogues1 & reason+ ) !m out ( ! ,hebrew scriptures4 ,& al?o' ,i _c say ) c]ta9ty t any ( !m 7 conv]t$1 yet1 sure ,i am f eye witnesses1 t !y 7 n able to ga9-say ! p[] by :i* he spoke4 99,:5 at any "t he met any ( 8 ,*ri/ian acqua9tance1 9 ! /reet1 or call$ at _! h\ses pass+ by1 he _h always some?+ to say by way ( wat*-^w1 :i* he left ^u _! m9ds4 ,su* z1 8,well1 let u hold out a little long]6 ,are we press+ =w>d8 ,let u hold fa/ fai?1 & a good consci5ce4 ,are we wat*+ n[ unto pray]1 & press+ aft] p]fect love80 ,i well rememb] "o in/ance ( ! good effects ( ?is1 :i* a p]son m5tion$ to me s9ce 8 dea?4 8,i %all nev] =get1 says he1 a ^w :i* ,mr4 ,wal%1 tak+ me by ! h& "o day1 spoke to me 9 my %op1 ',tis worse ?an dea?1 my ,god to love1 & n my ,god alone40 ,x 0 l a nail 9 a sure place1 & left a useful impression ev] aft]4 ,! gravity & e>ne/ness1 ) :i* he deliv]$ ^! k9ds ( little mem5to's to 8 fri5ds1 c>ri$ !m1 by ,god's help to ! he>t1 & left !m !re4 ,s t ,i h he>d sev]al ( 8 say+s1 9 ?is way1 call$ to remembrance1 s9ce 8 decease1 by sev]al ( 8 acqua9tance4 ,he did :atsoev] he did = ,god1 ) all 8 might1 sp5d+ 8 v life 9 e action1 ev5 z ?o' he %\ld m]it heav5 !reby1 & yet1 at ! same "t despis+ himself z an unpr(itable s]vant4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,8 application to /udy1 love to ! holy scriptures1 & improvem5t 9 div9e k4 ,,! fir/ mat]ials ( 8 le>n+1 7 n v consid]able2 he _h acquir$ "s k ( ,lat9 9 8 *ildhood1 b left x (f = ! ,ma!matics3 s t by ! "t he resum$ 8 grammatical /udies1 he _h almo/ all to d aga94 ,h[ev]1 ! /r5g? ( 8 natural capacity1 & int5se application to /udy1 aft] 8 conv]sion1 soon recov]$1 :at he _h lo/1 ) va/ increase4 ,f ! "t ( 8 fir/1 deep conc]n ab\t salvation1 he read1 z has be5 intimat$1 ! ^w ( ,god1 ) unwe>i$ application2 & e ?+ else1 only z x _h "s ref]5ce to ! tru?s conta9$ !re93 & ?is practice he cont9u$ ) increas+ dilig5ce1 & delight1 till sickness disqualifi$ him = all /udy4 ,& to su* a degree ( em95cy did he arrive !re91 t ,i believe1 x may be said ) tru?1 he 0 sc>ce ev] a mom5t wak+1 :]e9 he 0 n ei!r talk+ (1 read+1 or m$itat+ on "o tru? or o!r conta9$ 9 holy scripture4 ,at fir/ he read ! ,engli% bible *iefly2 b 8 endeav\rs = ! good ( _m ( 8 ignorant c\ntrym51 induc$ him to read1 & get well acqua9t$ ) ! ,new ,te/am5t 9 ,iri% likewise4 ,he next set himself1 to und]/& ! scriptures1 bo? ( ! ,old ,te/am5t & ! ,new1 9 _! orig9al4 ,x 0 n till aft] he _h acquir$ "s tol]able k ( ! ,greek ,te/am5t1 t he ent]$ ^u ! /udy ( ,hebrew4 ,?is 0 at ,london1 ab\t ,decemb] #agee4 ,he agre$ ) a ,jew to in/ruct him1 at ! rate ( a %ill+ an h\r4 ,a few lessons s]v$ all ! ends he ne$$2 & be+ fully initiat$ into ! g5ius ( ! language1 he soon became z x 7 swall[$ up 9 x4 ,! matt] ( ! /udy s ende>$ ! language to him1 t he proce$$ !re9 ) incr$ible swiftness4 ,he discov]$ e day1 su* a dep? ( hidd5 wisdom1 9 ! writ+s ( ,moses1 & ! prophets1 read 9 _! own tongue1 z he c\ld h>dly h conceiv$ f our translation1 ?o' = ! mo/ "p1 deem$ ! be/ 9 ! _w4 ,he ascrib$ x to a special assi/ance f heav51 t ! /udy ( ! tongue1 became s easy & pleasant4 ,& ,i h he>d him m5tion ?is v p>ticul> z an argum5t 7at lea/ to himself7 ( ! reg>d ( heav51 to ?is fir/1 mo/ simple1 & excell5t ( languages2 9 assi/+ ^? :o ) upright m9ds enquire into x aft] ! m9d ( ,god4 ,& to ?is purpose he writes z foll[s4 8,! ,hebrew 7says ar*bi%op ,u%]7 is ! fir/ tongue ( ! _w1 & ! mo/ ord]ly spee*3 9 comp>ison ( :i* all o!r languages may be condemn$ = b>b>\s confusion40 8,sure ,i am 7says an em95t writ]7 t x ought to be ! fir/ language we are taught1 aft] we h le>n$ to lisp our own3 & 7 ,i wor?y to advise1 ! ori5tal dialects %\ld foll[ ! ,hebrew1 ! ,greek %\ld foll[ ! ,arabic1 & ! ,lat9 be acquir$ by conv]sation & read+1 9 ! same mann] z ! mod]n languages ( ,europe are acquir$40 8,decemb] #bj1 #agef4 ,i sp5t ! =5oon 9 my /udies1 9 :i* ,god has1 & does greatly assi/ me4 ,ab\t ?is "t twelve-mon? ,i c\ld n read a s5t5ce ( ,hebrew ) any c]ta9ty1 or con/rue a v]se ) read9ess4 ,b n[ ,i c read my bible ?r\gh1 & und]/& x1 almo/ z well z ,lat9 or ,engli%4 ,?is ha? ,god done1 enabl+ me to read 8 bless$ ^w 9 ! fir/ & be/ ( languages4 ,o may all my /udies & tal5ts be devot$ to 8 glory60 99,8 application 0 inde$ prodigi\s4 ,i h kn[n him sp5d f\rte5 h\rs1 ( ! f\r & tw5ty1 9 ?is /udy1 except+ only ! int]vals ( pray]1 :i* he frequ5tly p\r$ out = 8 bless+1 ^: inspiration alone tea*e? man true wisdom4 ,he (t5 int]mix$ a v]se ( praise1 or petition2 & !n1 turn+ 8 face to ! wall1 & lift+ up 8 he>t & c\nt5ance to heav51 ) 8 arms claspt ab\t 8 brea/1 he w\ld /& = "s "t be=e ! ,"l 9 solemn recollection1 & !n return to 8 "w4 99,x 0 a r>e ?+ ev] to see him1 b ) a book 9 8 h&1 or speak+ ( ! ?+s ( ,god1 or 9 m$itation4 ,:5 9 travell+1 he at any "t /opt at an inn1 z soon z he 0 %[$ to 8 *amb]1 to /ay :e!r = an h\r1 or a night2 he w\ld take out 8 little ,hebrew psalt] 7:i* 0 8 fav\rite travell+ companion7 or "s o!r spiritual book1 & fall imm$iately to 8 usual "w2 unless ! "t 0 tak5 up 9 exhort+ ! l&lord1 or s]vants1 or 9 %ort1 any he met )4 ,accommodations = 8 body 7 8 smalle/ c>e2 & 8 att5tion to ^!1 7 always1 z x 7 by ! bye4 ,he1 l ! tortoise1 _h 8 h\se always ) him1 & seem$ e :]e1 & yet no :]e at home1 9 ?is _w4 ,he pursu$ 8 "w1 well nigh equally1 at all times1 & 9 all places1 spontane\sly to t5d to ,god4 ,ev5 aft] prea*+1 he has imm$iately resum$ 8 /udies1 7hav+ books always ) him17 & ?is (t51 :]e sev]al p]sons h be5 talk+1 or o!rwise employ$1 z _! occasions requir$ r\nd ab\t him4 ,he1 /ill pursu$ 8 "w1 z ?o' he 7 retir$ 9 a closet3 proce$+ on ! s5tim5t1 t he _h no o!r bus9ess 9 ?is _w1 ?an to pray1 & prea*1 & /udy1 & live 9 e place1 & 9 e ?+1 = ,god6 ,! frequ5cy ( 8 /at$ times ( pray]1 71 at fir/ especially1 mu* int]rupt$ h]eby4 ,b he foll[$ ! light :i* he !n _h2 & int5d+ all 8 acquirem5ts = ! glory ( ,god1 9 ! int]e/ ( s\ls1 he ?\ght he might on "s occasions1 7z "o expresses x17 8leave ,god1 = ,god40 ,he 0 n1 h[ev]1 )\t frequ5t jeal\sies1 le/ 8 int5se application1 ev5 to ?is k9d ( employm5t1 %\ld 9 any wise1 div]t 8 he>t f :at he mo/ priz$1 namely1 close att5tion to ,jesus4 ,aft] a :ile !re=e1 hav+ ma/]$ ! ma9 difficulties 9 8 "w1 8 application became mu* m mod]ate4 ,he began to 8,le>n well to "k1 h[ mu* ne$ n be kn[n40 99,"o day he writes z foll[s4 8,i 0 all day closely employ$ at /udy4 ,b ,i fe> ,i love my books too mu*4 ,x is true my /udies relate to ! ^w ( ,god3 b ,i (t5 f9d my m9d c>ri$ out 9 desire aft] languages1 arts & sci5ces2 yet ,i see ! vanity ( e ?+1 :5 sep>ate f ,god3 to be sure1 ,i prize ! k ( ,*ri/ crucifi$ above all o!r k4 ,to imitate 8 wisdom1 goodness1 meekness1 pati5ce & love3 alas6 :at are ,hebrew1 ,greek1 ,lat91 ,logic1 ,metaphysics1 e ?+ to ?is6 ,:at is any ?+ to ! love ( ,jesus6 ,o t sweet peace ( consci5ce1 & cont5tm5t ( m9d2 :i* arise f r$emption 9 8 blood6 ,o ,"l1 ?\ kn[e/ t ,i desire to be great 9 ?y grace2 to be arm$ ) ?y arm\r4 ,my s\l longs to rise above ^! little1 transitory ?+s4 ,i fa9 w\ld re/ 9 !e6 ,i ?ir/ = ! div9e life4 ,i pray = ! _s ( illum9ation4 ,i ca/ my s\l ^u ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! ,god ( glory1 & ,r$eem] ( ! _w4 ,i desire to be con=mable unto him2 8 fri5d1 s]vant1 disciple1 & sacrifice6 ,come n[ my ,jesus6 ,see ! long+s ( my s\l1 & f9i% ! "w !re40 99,f h5ce may be ga!r$ bo?1 :at 0 ! _s ( ! man1 & ! t5d5cy ( 8 /udies4 ,he desir$ to "k3 b x 0 ,god1 & ! ?+s ( ,god1 :i* he propos$ to himself1 z ! sole matt] ( 8 k4 ,= al?o' he read occasionally bo? logic & metaphysics1 hi/ory1 & natural philosophy1 yet x 0 all ) ref]5ce to 8 "o gr& po9t4 ,:atev] treasures he ga!r$ f abroad 9 ^!1 or 9 any o!r way2 z ! indu/ri\s bee1 collect+ h] sweets f diff]5t fl[]s1 deposits all 9 "o hive2 s he r$uc$1 & made all 8 atta9m5ts subs]vi5t to1 ! ^w ( ,god1 & acqua9tance ) ,jesus1 z 8 c5tral po9t4 ,& 8 fe>1 le/ 9 any ?+ he %\ld deviate f ?is1 _h mu* influ5ce on ! regulation ( 8 /udies4 ,he well knew1 t to h a he>t always at leisure = ,god1 att5tive to 8 tea*+1 & ob$i5t to 8 dictates1 is ! great ?+ to :i* e design mu/ give place2 & t ! he>t is capable ( be+ ov]*>g$ ) ?+s1 9 "s respects1 lawful & excell5t1 z ) surfeit+ & drunk5ness1 or c>es ( ?is life2 all ( :i* are !re=e1 to be z c>efully gu>d$ aga9/4 ,& p]haps !re are few ?+s by :i* ! _s ( d>kness1 s s]ves himself1 among ! ?9k+ _w1 z by ?is v p>ticul>2 div]t+ ! m9d f prop] application to ! "o ?+ ne$ful1 n inde$ by ?+s s5sual1 or immoral1 :i* !y abhor1 & w\ld p]haps be %ock$ at ! ?\ght (2 b by ?+s1 9 "s respects innoc5t1 & plausible1 if n necess>y3 x may be by curi\s speculations on gov]nm5t1 ! works ( nature or grace1 & ideal pursuits ( v>i\s k9ds4 99,bi%op ,taylor m5tions x z a say+ ( ,oegidius1 8an old1 & simple woman :o loves ,jesus1 may be great] ?an 0 bro!r ,bonadv5ture40 ,& inasmu* z ! giv+ our :ole he>t to ,god1 is t1 )\t :i*1 no?+ 9 religion is available2 if ?is be n done1 is x n ! same ?+1 :e!r x be ?r\gh gaz+ at ! />s1 cat*+ ( butt]flies1 or committ+ adult]y8 ,! dea? ( ! body is z fully affect$ by ! prick ( a lancet1 z by ! /roke ( a cannon-ball4 ,&1 to su* alas1 z procure ! loss ( _! own s\l1 h[ little diff]5ce does x make1 :e!r x 0 done by ! crimes1 ( ! grosse/ k9d1 or1 by :at ! flatt]y ( self-love1 & a mi/ak5 _w call little ?+s4 ,he 0 ?r\ghly s5sible ( 8 dang] 9 ?is respect1 & began to regulate himself accord+ly4 ,he f\nd t[>ds ! conclusion ( 8 /udies 9 p>ticul>1 t m true wisdom is obta9$ f ,god1 by pray] & holy m$itation 9 "o h\r1 ?an f ! application ( ye>s to folio volumes2 & !re=e e/eem$ "o s+le s5tim5t1 ga9$ 9 ?is mann]1 ( m value ?an a ?\s& speculations acquir$ by m]e d9t ( /udy 9 ! way ( human sci5ce4 ,he p]ceiv$ well ! diff]5ce :i* !re is betwe5 /udy+ b>ely to in/ruct o!rs1 7:i* 9 its place1 is also "r & necess>y7 & /udy+ to p]fect "o's self1 to produce t purity1 & dis5gagem5t :i* is absolutely necess>y to receive ! true light ( ! holy ,_s4 8,! secrets ( ! k+dom ( heav5 are n und]/ood ?or\ghly1 b by ! sons ( ! k+dom1 & by !m1 too 9 sev]al degrees1 ,god di/ribut+ to e "o sev]ally z he wille?2 b to su* z "k n ,god1 ! :ole sy/em ( ?is wisdom is insipid & flat1 if n totally reject$1 dull z ! foot ( a rock1 & unle>n$ z ! elem5ts ( our "m tongue4 ,b s are ma!matics to a ,scy?ian bo>1 & music to a camel40 99,8 settl$ mann] n[ 01 to assign ! morn+ :olly to ! read+1 fir/ a *apt] out ( ! ,old ,te/am5t1 & frequ5tly "s ( ! psalms 9 ,hebrew4 ,!n he read1 & dige/ "s "p ( 8 ,greek ,te/am5t4 ,8 mann] ( do+ ?is1 took him up great "p ( ! =5oon3 & aft]w>ds1 he read1 wrote1 or 0 o!rwise employ$ z occasions direct$4 ,he frequ5tly _h "s p]sons to visit him = in/ruction 9 "s po9t ( le>n+2 *iefly 9 ,hebrew4 ,two or ?ree "y m5 ( ,cambridge1 at diff]5t times1 be+ 9 t[n1 & kn[+ him1 *ose to be initiat$ by him 9 ! ,hebrew tongue4 ,he 0 con/antly z communicative z receptive ( in/ruction1 )hold+ no?+ f any "o1 t he ?\ght might be useful to !m4 ,he read ! scriptures 9 ord]2 beg9n+ a book1 & go+ ?ro' ) x regul>ly2 fix+ at ! same "t ^u su* p>ts1 z _h mo/ imm$iate ref]5ce to ! doctr9es & precepts ( ! gospel-/ate ( ?+s2 :i* he n only read mo/ frequ5tly1 b likewise committ$ to memory4 99,& ! degree ( p]fection to :i* he arriv$ 9 ?is p>ticul>1 0 really surpris+4 ,8 acqua9tance ) ! lett] ( scripture1 & 8 ret5tive memory1 suppli$ him z ) a con/ant concordance4 ,& ,i believe !re 0 n a rem>kable passage1 hi/orical1 doctr9al1 or preceptive1 f ,g5esis to ! ,revelation1 :i* he c\ld n1 on ! b>e m5tion (1 turn to imm$iately4 8,?y ^w 7says he7 ,o ,"l1 ,i h = m9e inh]itance = ev]4 ,x is ! joy ( my he>t1 & ( m value to me ?an millions ( worlds4 ,o ,god1 give me und]/&+1 t ,i may keep ?y law6 ,b let my :ole dep5dance be 9 ,jesu's m]its4 ,he is my advocate4 ,only by fai? 9 him ,i /&4 ,he is my sure refuge1 & portion1 9 ! l& ( ! liv+60 ,be+ at sea "o "t1 & ! wea!r becom+ extremely tempe/u\s1 ! m>9]s !mselves 7 appreh5sive ( dea?4 ,he 9 l mann] expect$ ! same1 & put into 8 bosom1 a small bible :i* he _h ) him1 resolv+ t :at he s lov$ 9 life1 %\ld n be p>t$ f him ev5 9 dea?4 ,su* 0 8 love to1 & s+ul> e/eem = ! ^w ( ,god4 ,9 ?is mann] x 01 t he became 9 tru?1 a scribe1 well in/ruct$ to ! k+dom ( heav51 & br\ght out ( ! treasury ( 8 he>t-exp]i5ce1 ! old & new1 & deep ?+s ( ! ^w ( ,jehovah4 ,x 0 f ?is f\nta9 he d]iv$ 8 ideas1 s5tim5ts & expressions1 on all occasions2 expla9+ doctr9es1 en=c+ duties & resolv+ difficulties1 well nigh1 altoge!r 9 scripture words4 ,! _s ( wisdom s re/$ ^u him1 t !re 0 no?+ ( a div9e nature1 :i* occurr$ to 8 own m9d1 or 0 propos$ to him by o!rs1 respect+ doctr9es1 exp]i5ce1 or practice1 ( :i* he c\ld n speak ) conv9c+ cle>ness & satisfaction4 ,he _h a s+ul> faculty = ?r[+ light ^u d\btful cases2 & x 0 n unusual ) him1 by two or ?ree words to set to rights1 & entirely quiet ! m9ds ( p]sons1 p]plex$ be=e1 ab\t po9ts ( doctr9e1 or exp]i5ce4 ,a mo/ rem>kable in/ance ( ?is ,i rememb] to h kn[n 9 ,irel&3 a p]son :o 0 greatly emb>rass$ 9 8 m9d conc]n+ a po9t 9 religion1 :i* appe>$ to him ( great importance1 & :o _h receiv$ no satisfaction f all 8 =m] rese>*es on ! head1 came to ,mr4 ,wal%1 & relat$ ! matt] to him2 :i* hav+ he>d1 he only ask$ "o "q1 requir+ ! p]son to answ]4 ,& :e!r x 01 t ,god1 j !n %one ^u ! man's s\l1 & by 8 imm$iate light solv$ ! difficulty2 or :e!r x 0 ?r\gh m]e rational conviction1 result+ f ! argum5ts impli$ 9 8 "q1 ,i "k n2 b he 0 in/antly satisfi$1 & be+ conv9c$ ( 8 =m] mi/ake1 _h no fur!r uneas9ess on ! head4 ,8 insight into ! invisible _w1 s realiz$ to him ?+s to come1 t he spake ( !m z "o :o bo? he>d & saw !m4 ,& !y _h _! proportionable influ5ce on ! :ole ( 8 behavi\r4 ,he act$ z 9 ! imm$iate pres5ce ( ,god2 & ?us w5t on read+ & m$itat+ day & night1 9 ! law ( 8 ,god2 & dev\r+1 l ano!r ,ezekiel1 ! :ole div9e volume4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,8 mann] ( prea*+4 ,,at fir/ 8 s]mons consi/$ *iefly1 ( a numb] ( well *os5 texts ( scripture1 suit$ to ! p>ticul> subject on :i* he treat$1 & :i*1 he1 = ! mo/ "p1 cit$ ) bo? ! *apt] & v]se4 ,he _h 9 ?is mann] =m$1 z x 71 a body ( div9ity 9 8 head1 :i* 0 a k9d ( /ore h\se ( 8 s]mons4 ,"t & exp]i5ce h[ev]1 br\ght him (f f ! cu/om (1 s p>ticul>ly cit+ ! places ( ! scriptures1 he made use (2 unless :]e he judg$ x s+ul>ly useful1 bo? = ! conviction & satisfaction ( ! he>]s4 99,a con/ant c\rse ( read+1 mu* conv]sation ) ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 & ! acqua9tance1 :i* a life ( fai?1 m$itation & pray]1 gave him ) ,god1 & ) ! motions ( 8 own s\l1 greatly ext5d$ 8 views into div9e ?+s 9 g5]al2 & furni%$ him ) v>iety ( subjects = ! edification & com=t ( ! *ur* ( ,god3 s t 9 ! la/ two or ?ree ye>s ( 8 c\rse1 8 s]mons _h 9 !m dep?1 & solidity1 f> beyond ^? ( 8 =m] ye>s4 ,! /ate ( 8 own he>t1 _h mu* influ5ce on ! p>ticul> subjects ( 8 s]mons3 z is surely ! case ) all1 to :om prea*+ is n a m]e bus9ess ( c\rse3 b on ! contr>y1 an affair ( ! weightie/ importance 9 ! _w1 requir+ ! deepe/ att5tion & mo/ circumspect walk+4 ,he knew t ! words ( an unfeel+ he>t1 are b empty s\nds2 & t al?\gh !y might please = ! pres5t1 !y r>ely pr(it ! he>]s4 ,& x 0 on ?is acc\nt1 t att5d+ con/antly to ! motions ( 8 own s\l1 he h>dly ev] prea*$ a s]mon1 )\t convey+ ne>ly ! l s5sations to o!rs1 :e!r ( deep contrition ( _s1 holy m\rn+1 or spiritual joy1 :i* he felt 9 8 own s\l4 8,:51 says he1 ,i am 9 heav9ess1 ,i am l$ to speak *iefly ( trials2 :5 lively & f]v5t1 ,i am l$ to speak ( ! com=ts ( believ]s2 & :5 ,i am hung]+ & ?ir/+ aft] righte\sness1 ,i press ^u o!rs to cleanse !mselves f all fil?9ess ( fle% & _s1 & to p]fect hol9ess4 ,& h5ce ,i le>n1 #a/4 ,h[ ne$ful x is = a prea*] to be 9 a "r _s himself1 :5ev] he speaks to o!rs4 ,&1 #b;dly1 ,! wisdom ( ,god1 9 s ord]+1 t e s\l might receive its portion ( ! milk ( ! ^w 9 due season40 99,all 8 s]mons might be truly said to be 8 own f ,god4 ,he /ole n ! ^w f 8 neighb\r1 nor cat*$ at trivial incid5ts to furni% him ) an h\r's disc\rse4 ,8 he>t 0 a treasury well furni%$1 insomu* t he 0 nev] at a loss = some?+ 9 season3 ev5 sometimes :5 he has be5 s tak5 up ) o!r p>ts ( 8 call+1 z n to h ! lea/ "t = prep>+ to prea*2 yet ! p\r+s out ( 8 feel+ s\l1 evid5c$ !mselves to wait+ he>ts1 to be ( ,god4 99,!re 0 no?+ :9+1 light1 or trivial 9 8 disc\rses2 no?+ put on2 no?+ t c\ld excite levity1 mu* less laught]2 b r1 & :i* 0 commonly ! case1 groans & te>s & cries4 ,8 s]mons _h 9 !m su* a dep? ( div9e tru?1 confirm$ by ! ^w ( ,god1 ) su* a greatness & maje/y z begot 9 ! he>]s an awe & rev]5ce1 :i* remov$ f> away1 all petulancy & ?\ghtless irrev]5ce ( _s3 & produc$ 9 _m a solemnity & att5tion ( s\l1 becom+ ^? :o he> disc\rses = life1 or dea? et]nal4 ,to all ( :i*1 8 grave & mortifi$ c\nt5ance1 contribut$ n a little4 ,9 %ort 8 :ole behavi\r 9 ! pulpit 0 su*1 z became a mess5g] ( ,god1 put 9 tru/ ) ! m9i/ry ( reconciliation4 ,8 disc\rses 7 suit$ to give a portion to ev]yone1 z _! ne$ requir$2 milk = babes1 & = /rong] m51 /rong] meat3 ?\gh /ill !y _h ?is t5d5cy1 ) reg>d to all1 to excite p's he>ts to ! pure love ( ,god4 99,& al?\gh he prea*$ fai? 9 ,*ri/ z ! only way1 ( obta9+ all ! good ?+s ( grace & glory1 yet he did x 9 su* a mann] z effectually to gu>d x aga9/ ! abuse ( lib]t9es1 :o turn ! fre5ess ( ! grace ( ,god1 into an occasion ( wantonness2 :o :ile !y promise lib]ty to o!rs1 are1 at ! same "t s]vants ( corruption4 ,p]sons ( ?is "* c\ld n 9 ! lea/ s]ve !mselves f 8 disc\rses2 9 e "o ( :i* he s prea*$ fai? 9 ,*ri/1 z to e/abli% ! law1 9 its true s5se1 t is1 to secure all ! int]e/s ( g5u9e hol9ess1 bo? 9 he>t & life2 all ! fruits ( righte\sness2 ! mo/ rigor\s reg>d to m5s duty to ,god1 _! neighb\r1 & !mselves4 ,:5 he fir/ began to prea*1 8 *ief tal5t seem$ to be = quick5+ su* z 7 dead 9 trespasses & s9s2 = t]rify+ c>eless s9n]s ) ! dread ( ,god's judgm5ts1 al>m+ !m1 z x 71 to flee f ! wra? to come4 ,x 0 truly said ( him1 8,he fi]ce on ! ,phili/9es flies1 ,compels ! captives to come 92 ,spoils ,satan ( 8 lawful prize1 ,& te>s !m f ! toils ( s940 8tuly0 replac$ ) 8truly0 ,8 c\rage & resolution 9 ?is1 7 su* z are r>ely to be f\nd4 ,he judg$1 t !re 0 no?+ m likely to pull d[n ! /rong holds ( ,satan1 ?an to lay ! axe to ! root ( s92 & 9 all 8 s]mons1 he ev] us$ to discov] its dete/able nature1 press+ ^u ! consci5ce1 an entire purgation f dead works4 ,& he did x 9 su* a mann] z (t5 pi]c$ ! v jo9ts & m>r[ ( 8 he>]s4 ,x 0 easy to discov] 9 him likewise1 ! utmo/ imp>tiality4 ,kn[+ t he 0 to deliv] 8 ,"l's message1 he sp>$ no man f any human reg>ds3 b boldly detect+ _! s91 comm5d$ himself to e man's consci5ce 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,& yet1 8 zeal 0 temp]$ ) wisdom & discretion = not)/&+ 8 press+ vehem5tly ^u ! consci5ce ( 8 he>]s1 9 all 8 s]mons1 yet 7al?\gh "s 7 sometimes (f5d$7 !y 7 nev] able to resi/ ! au?ority by :i* he spake4 ,b x 0 n z a ,boan]ges1 a son ( ?und] only1 t he excell$4 ,8 own happy exp]i5ce1 ( ! =giv+1 heal+1 & com=t+ virtue ( ! blood ( ,jesus2 toge!r ) 8 mighty acqua9tance ) ! promises ( life 9 him1 fitt$ him = adm9i/r+ com=t1 & mu* enc\ragem5t to ! we>y1 & ! heavy-lad5 ) s92 ,to su*1 he 0 9 tru?1 a son ( consolation2 8 lips dropp$ sweetness to !m1 z ! honey-comb4 99,o ,god1 h[ _m a ble$+ w\nd ha/ ?\ made him an in/rum5t ( heal+1 by p\r+ into ! he>ts ( ! disconsolate1 ! w9e & oil ( ! gospel1 9 a ri* pr(usion ( ^? preci\s1 gold5 promises1 :i* be+ ratifi$ to u by ! holy blood ( ?y de> ,son1 are all yea1 & am5 9 him1 to ?9e et]nal glory6 ,yes1 8,refre%+1 s(t1 z v]nal %[]s1 ,8 ^w1 on we>y s9n]s falls1 ,or1 l ! rapid torr5t p\rs1 ,:ile s\ls to ,jesu's blood he calls60 99,x 0 sc>cely possible = ! mo/ icy1 & rocky he>t1 to rema9 long s "u 8 mov+ & au?oritative disc\rse1 laid home to ! consci5ce1 by ! sword ( ! ,_s1 :i*1 l ! flam+ sword 9 p>adise1 turn$ e way1 to e he>t4 ,& accord+ly1 x 0 a v r>e ?+ = him ev] to prea* a s]mon1 )\t s5d+ "s away1 ei!r brok5-he>t$1 rejoic+ 9 ,god1 or increas$ m or less1 9 ! k ( ! ,crucifi$4 99,t[>ds ! latt] "p ( 8 progress1 ! two la/ ye>s ( 8 life especially1 ! :ole b5t ( 8 s\l1 8 read+1 m$itations1 pray]1 conv]sation & prea*+1 t5d$ altoge!r1 to ! deep ?+s ( ,god1 7#a ,cor9?ians ii4 #aj47 ! s p]fectly lov+ him1 ) all ! capacity ( ! s\l & body1 z ! /ate ( humanity c admit4 ,! entire salvation ( ,god1 f all s91 to all ! m9d t 0 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 0 n[ 8 con/ant1 & mo/ belov$ !me1 bo? 9 public & private4 ,& he omitt$ no?+ :i* might ei!r in=m 8 judgm5t1 or affect 8 own1 or ! he>ts ( o!rs1 9 ref]5ce to ?is mo/ int]e/+ conc]n ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god4 99,8 ?\ghts on ! head became !re=e ?or\ghly dige/$2 s t !re 0 h>dly an objection :i* ei!r ,satan1 m51 or ! he>t ( unbelief c\ld br+ aga9/ x1 = :i* he _h n a conv9c+ answ]4 ,8 own he>t-acqua9tance !re)1 w be se5 f a subsequ5t acc\nt ( 8 exp]i5ce4 ,! light :i* he _h into ! nature1 & 8 f]v5t mann] ( en=c+ ! wor?1 & necessity ( ,*ri/ian hol9ess1 0 "o great means ( enk9dl+1 9 ! he>ts ( _m1 t fire ( pure love1 to ,god & man1 :i* has s9ce 8 dea? likewise1 increas$ m abundantly1 & /ill burns 7,o may x ev] burn67 among/ u1 to ! great] glory ( ,god4 ,only su* z 7 exp]im5tal witnesses ( x1 hav+ a true reli% = ?+s ( s high a nature1 c rightly conceive ( ! abilities1 ) :i* ,god end[$ him1 = ?is "p ( 8 "w2 ( ! mann] 9 :i*1 he1 ,) /r5g? & utt]ance f above ,urg'd on ! sa9ts ?ro' grace =giv51 ,to scale ! m\nt ( holie/ love1 ,to seize ! brighte/ ?rone 9 heav56 ,9 all 8 disc\rses on ! subject1 he z mu* z may be1 c>efully avoid$ 8 own words1 bo? 9 expla9+1 & en=c+ its nature1 ext5t1 & ! means ( atta9+ !reto4 ,he did x 9 ! words :i* ! ,holy ,gho/ tea*e?1 expla9+ ^? spiritual ?+s1 ) spiritual words3 7#a ,cor9?ians ii4 #ac47 :ile 9 ! mean "t1 8 f]v5t & affect+ mann] ( urg+ !m1 & inde$ e o!r "p ( ! doctr9e ( salvation1 comm&$1 8,audi5ce & att5tion1 /ill z night ,or summ]s noon-tide air40 ,he _h n1 x mu/ be ackn[l$g$1 at lea/ he _h b little made use (1 ! art ( prea*+3 n inde$ t he 0 ignorant ( su* rules z1 orators lay d[n = ord]+1 & conduct+ public disc\rses4 ,8 k bo? ( ,logic & ,rhetoric 0 f> f be+ inconsid]able4 ,he _h bo? read1 & 9 "s good degree1 dige/$ ! pr9ciples ( bo?4 ,b ! eag]ness ) :i* he proce$$ 9 8 "w2 & ! rapid fl[ ( 8 s\l1 s5d+ =? its good matt]1 n l ! di/ill+ ( a wat]-pot1 b z a pl5tiful %[] f ! heav5s1 wat]+ deep & wide all ar\nd1 did n suff] him to att5d1 ) exactness1 to su* niceties 9 composition or deliv]y3 nay1 ev5 prev5t$ t mod]ation1 z to ! l5g?1 & mann] ( deliv]+ 8 disc\rses1 :i* w\ld h be5 mu* m easy to himself1 & to 8 audi5ce1 _m ( !m be+ (t5 9 pa9 = him4 99,yet aft]w>ds1 :5 ! repeat$ advice ( 8 fri5ds1 & ! necessity ( 8 con/itution1 oblig$ him to a m sl[1 & delib]ate mann]1 "s ascrib$ x to 7:at !y call$7 8 want ( p[]2 su* is ! folly & weakness ( _m1 9 _! s5tim5ts ) reg>d to ?is p>ticul>6 ,h[ common is x to imag9e1 t ! pres5ce & p[] ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 & t influ5ce by :i* s\ls are awak5$1 ju/ifi$1 or built up 9 hol9ess1 dep5ds ^u ! l\dness ( ! prea*]'s voice1 or ! swiftness ( 8 expression8 ,9 o!r words1 ^u ! /r5g? ( a man's lungs1 & x may be1 ! assurance ( 8 ge/ure & utt]ance4 ,a s5tim5t n m /range to ! truly wise1 ?an x is common ) _m4 ,z ?\gh noise1 & animal activity %\ld be dignifi$ ) ! names ( _s & p[]1 & ! want ( !m ascrib$ to dryness1 deadness & =mality6 ,/rictly speak+ inde$1 !re is no necess>y div9e p[] 9 any man's mann] ( speak+1 :e!r l\d or l[1 swiftly or s(tly4 ,x is ! ,_s t quick5e?1 & z he please?2 & x may be que/ion$1 :e!r effects t h be5 sometimes produc$1 by a l\d1 vehem5t1 & ov]be>+ mann] ( speak+1 7 n 9 great measure m]ely me*anical1 if n ( ,satan himself1 to ca/ an odium ^u ! "w ( ,god4 ,9 tru? ! mo/ sub/antial1 g5u9e effects ( ! gospel m9i/ry1 arise f its deliv]y1 n ) noise & human vehem5ce1 7:i* (t5 r calls (f ! m9d f ! inw>d life & communion ) ,god37 b ) di/9ct calmness1 & wise delib]ation4 ,!re may (t5 be a /rong w9d1 an e>?quake1 & fire2 b ! ,"l is 9 ! /ill1 small voice1 7#a ,k+s xix4 #aa4 #ab47 & ^? are only 9 ord] to ?is4 ,8 ^w1 x is true1 is a sword1 & a hamm]1 :i* w\nds & breaks human he>ts 9 pieces2 & any "o's mann] ( speak+ contributes t[>ds ?is s f> z x is to be comm5d$4 ,b consid]$ indep5d5tly ( ?is 7:i* is too (t5 ! case7 ! l\dness ( a man's voice is 9 reality no bett] ?an ! bl[+ ( a trumpet1 or ! s\nd ( a drum4 ,n by might1 or by p[]1 b by my ,_s1 sai? ! ,"l ( ho/s4 ,:at is "h int5d$1 is nak$ly to repres5t a common mi/ake1 9 ord] to its removal4 ,8 s]mons 7 seldom less ?an an h\r long2 & yet1 _h 9 !m su* an agreeable v>iety1 t !y 7 r>ely1 if ev] t$i\s1 unless to su* z want$ a sav\r = ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,he 0 always at ! conclusion1 9 a ba? ( sweat4 ,& ! place ( prea*+ be+ (t5 at "s di/ance f 8 lodg+1 8 sudd5ly gr[+ cold aga91 0 "o reason ( ! frequ5cy ( ! fev]s :i* he _h f "t to "t1 dur+ 8 :ole life ( public lab\r4 ,he (t5 resolv$ be=e he began to prea*1 to re/ra9 ! rapidity ( 8 _s1 b 9 va93 8,! sword 7z he once said to me7 be+ too ke5 = ! scabb>d40 ,! f]v\r ( 8 s\l broke ?r\gh all 8 resolutions1 b wa/$ at ! same "t1 ! v spr+s ( life1 :i* he felt imm$iately aft]w>ds4 ,) reg>d to ! mann] ( 8 prep>+ = s]mons1 he seem$ to keep betwe5 ! two extremes1 neglect ( all actual1 previ\s prep>ation1 & a dry s*ola/ic composition ( exact mat]ials4 ,to h no reg>d to ! matt]1 & mann] ( 8 disc\rses be=e h&1 "u ! pret5ce ( dep5dance ^u heav51 = imm$iate influ5ce & utt]ance1 he judg$ to be rank en?usiasm2 & (t51 a cloke = a lazy1 indol5ce ( _s2 on acc\nt1 ( :i*1 nons5se has be5 too (t5 dignifi$ ) ! sacr$ names ( inspiration & p[]4 ,& yet1 he judg$ x alike culpable1 to seek aft] & tru/ to m]e dry human skill1 9 fix+ ^u heads1 & tak+ su* measures1 z to prea* only ones self1 indep5dant z x 71 on ! quick5+1 enlight+ pres5ce ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 )\t :i* all prea*+ & all he>+ are va94 99,he pray$ & /udi$1 & /udi$ & pray$ aga91 go+ always 7unless necessity prev5t$7 f 8 closet & (f 8 knees1 into ! pulpit4 ,b :5 he came !re1 he gave himself up :olly into ! h&s ( ,god1 to be actuat$ & us$ by him1 9 all respects1 z might be mo/ = 8 glory4 ,& x 0 glori\s & wond]ful1 to see ! good effects1 :i* 7 produc$ at ^? times1 by ! words ( ,god fl[+ f 8 lips1 & ent]+ into ! he>t1 )\t inde$ ! ornam5ts ( /udi$ eloqu5ce1 b 9 _! native maje/y & simplicity2 su* z !y are 9 !mselves1 & z he himself reli%$ !m4 ,"o circum/ance relat+ to 8 mann]1 01 t he almo/ always begun1 & 9 g5]al conclud$ 8 s]mons ) a text ( scripture3 b s judici\sly *os51 z seldom fail$ to t\* ! he>t1 & frequ5tly to ca/ light on ! :ole subject4 ,"o might easily ga!r f 8 way ( prea*+1 h[ s5sible he 0 ( a mi/ake 9 _m prea*]s1 :o cont5t !mselves1 suppos+ !re be b demon/ration 9 _! s]mons1 t !y h spok5 ?+s :i* _c be ga9say'd4 ,:]eas if !re be no?+ m ?an cle>ness ( demon/ration1 x may inde$ be said to ! prea*]1 ?\ prea*e/ well2 b :at !n8 ,:o are quick5$ 9 _! pursuit ( ,god & heav58 ,:o hates 8 s9s8 ,or :o loves ,god ! m = y\r disc\rse8 ,n[ :]e ^! are n to be f\nd1 may n a s9n] z well be he>k5+ to a ma!matician demon/rat+ ,euclid's elem5ts1 z to a prea*] prea*+ ?us8 ,x 0 f> f satisfy+ him t 8 s]mons _h 9 !m suffici5t demon/ration4 ,/ill reta9+ 9 m9d1 ,:at is ! end ( prea*+1 br++ s\ls acqua9t$ )1 & build+ !m up 9 ,god2 he rat$ 8 s]mons accord+ly3 & = ! m effectual promotion ( ?is1 /udi$ to be well acqua9t$ ) all ! motions ( ! human he>t1 po9t+ 8 disc\rses !re cont9ually2 lay+ hold1 z x 7 ( its v inmo/ ?\ghts1 & ) ! s9n]s own weapons1 slay+ ! enemies ( 8 salvation4 ,he appli$ to ! consci5ce at e turn1 & aft] hav+ at any "t demon/rat$ a peculi>ly int]e/+ tru? ( a g5]al nature1 he always took c>e to make x a p]sonal ?+1 by que/ion+ ! he>t ( e "o conc]n+ _! "p !re94 ,he frequ5tly introduc$1 by way ( comp>ison1 _m ( ! incid5tal occurr5ces 9 life1 ?+s respect+ call+s1 families1 & a ?\s& little matt]s1 by :i* ! great conc]ns ( ! s\l ent] m deeply & s5sibly into ! m9ds ( ! common p4 ,i h he>d a woman ( kn[n integrity say1 t int5d+ "o ev5+ to h 8 judgm5t1 aft] prea*+ on sev]al p>ticul>s1 :i* 7 a weight to h] m9d2 he s anticipat$ e objection1 & answ]$ !m 9 ! s]mon1 t %e ne$$ no f>!r enquiry4 99,x 0 usual ) him 9 8 s]mons1 to propose & answ] div]s cases ( consci5ce1 :i* 0 an inexpressible satisfaction to _m4 ,9 describ+ ( vices 7= :i* he 0 em95tly rem>kable7 he did n s mu* dwell ^u ! vice itself ab/ract$ly1 z he %ew$ ! p]sons to !mselves1 :o 7 guilty !re(2 & repres5t$ ! unavoidable dang] ( su* z liv$ & di$ !re94 ,x 0 n s mu* pride1 envy1 ang]1 lu/1 drunk5ness1 swe>+1 & ! l1 :i* he pa9t$ 9 _! dete/able nature1 7?\gh he did ?is also27 b 8 drift at su* times1 0 to describe ! pr\d1 ! envi\s1 ! angry1 & ! lu/ful man2 to al>m ! drunk>d1 & ! swe>]1 c4 z ) ! voice ( ?und]1 to escape = _! lives4 ,! mo/ guilty p]son c sit & he> 8 vice describ$1 ) composure en\gh2 b ! consci5ce ( a s9n] _c s easily escape1 :5 ! prea*] speak+ z x 7 to "o p]son 7?\gh )\t p>ticul>iz+ any7 *>ges x home1 ,?\ art ! man4 ,x 0 9 ?is way t 8 s]mons 71 by ! grace ( ,god1 effectual to ! awak5+ & conv]t+ ( s _m4 ,8 :ole life be+ "o s]ies ( holy liv+ & m5tal improvem5t1 pres]v$ 8 he>t1 l an ev]-fre%1 & ov]fl[+ f\nta91 :i* on e occasion p\r$ =? its fruitful /reams ( holy doctr9e1 & p]suasive exhortation4 ,x 0 easy to disc]n1 t he felt ! ?+s he deliv]$4 ,he gave himself :olly to ?is "o ?+2 &1 :i* 0 ! cr[n+ glory ( all1 0 himself a patt]n ( ! tru?s he taught4 ,8 own example /r5g!ns all 8 laws2 ,he is himself ! graci\s sa9t he draws4 99,inde$ ?is 0 fir/ & la/1 8 ma9 conc]n1 ,t :ile he m9i/]$ to ! wants ( o!rs1 he might n su/a9 loss 9 8 own s\l1 nor h to take up t sad compla9t1 ,!y made me keep] ( ! v9ey>ds1 b m9e own v9ey>d h ,i n kept4 ,x is a fe>ful case = a prea*]1 to be only l a *annel 9 a g>d51 ?r\gh :i* ! wat] runs to cool & moi/5 ! h]bs & fl[]s1 b no?+ = its own use2 if n l ! spoils ( bev]s1 %eep & silk-worms1 design$ to cloa? o!rs1 :i* are made ! occasion ( _! own nak$ness1 if n ! cause ( _! dea?4 ,?is inde$ is nev] ! int5tion ( ,god1 conc]n+ 8 s]vants2 b m5 br+ x ^u !mselves ?r\gh ! abuse ( 8 fav\rs4 ,:at is ?is b to build a =tune = o!rs1 ^u ! ru9s ( "o's own h\se1 :ile aft] prea*+ to o!rs1 ?\ ?yself do/ become a ca/away4 ,canticles i4 #f4 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,( 8 frequ5t sickness1 ! ex]cises ( 8 m9d !re91 & ! improvem5t :i* he made !re(4 ,,8 orig9al con/itution 0 /rong1 & 8 make & /ature su*1 z1 humanly speak+1 indicat$ heal? & long life4 ,he seem$ free f ^? incumbrances ( con/itution :i* "s h to /ruggle ) well nigh all _! days4 ,8 complexion t5d$ r to ! melan*olic1 al?\gh f 8 f]v\r ( _s1 "o w\ld h ?\ght ! contr>y4 ,b ! grace ( ,god1 is p[]ful to alt]1 & ev5 inv]t ! c\rse ( nature4 ,h[ev]1 ! natural temp]ature ( 8 body seem$ well calculat$ bo? = ! s]vice ( ,god1 & ( 8 neighb\r4 ,b 9 fact1 if 8 bones _h be5 brass1 & 8 fle% iron1 !y mu/ h yield$ to ! viol5ce :i* 8 lab\rs (f]$ to 8 con/itution4 ,he enjoy$ good heal? till above n9ete51 :i* 0 ! ye> ( 8 conv]sion to ,god4 ,b f ! tw5tie? to ! tw5ty-eigh?1 8 life may be said to h be5 a l+]+ dea?2 z he nev] 0 a day free f pa9 or weakness4 ,a sl[ fev]1 & pa9 at 8 /oma* 71 = ! mo/ "p1 8 companions1 day & night4 ,! mann] ( 8 prea*+1 int5se /udy1 little re/1 & frequ5t fatigues1 broke ! v frame ( 8 nature1 & br\ght him 9 a %ort "t to su* a habit ( body1 z no m$ic9es 7 able to remove4 8,x is1 z he once express$ x1 7speak+ ( 8 illness7 9 ! "w ( ,god1 9 ! cause ( ,*ri/6 ,!re=e ,i rejoice2 = ,i c\nt n my life de> to myself1 if ,i may b glorify my ,"l ,god1 & only ,ma/]1 ,jesus ,*ri/40 ,x is surpriz+1 t1 consid]+ 8 weakness & habitual disord]s1 he c\ld g ?ro' su* daily & nightly lab\rs z he did3 nor c x be acc\nt$ = o!rwise1 ?an t ! /r5g? ( ,god 0 made p]fect 9 8 weakness4 ,sometimes 7says he7 :5 ,i beg9 ! lab\r ( love1 ,i am h>dly able1 ei!r to walk or speak2 b aft] ,i h lab\r$ a :ile1 ,i f9d new /r5g?1 & am ev5 bett] ?an :5 ,i begun60 ,z to ! use :i* he always made ( 8 illnesses1 x w be be/ ga!r$ f 8 own words4 998,tuesday1 ,janu>y #ah1 #agea4 ,i prea*$ on ,mat!w v4 #c4 b c\ld n f9i%2 be+ seiz$ ) an ague4 ,imm$iately ,i w5t to b$4 ,i c\ld re/ 9 ! w ( ,god1 be+ p]suad$ x 0 = ! bett]4 ,true x is1 t afflictions are n joy\s1 b griev\s :ile !y la/1 ?\gh aft]w>ds !y yield ! peaceable fruits ( righte\sness4 ,h[ great1 ,o my ,god1 are ?y goodness1 & t5d] m]cies t[>ds me6 ,if ,i _h a ?\s& tongues1 ,i c\ld n praise my ,god z he des]ves4 ,he rememb]s me 9 ! "t ( my tr\ble1 & leaves n my s\l com=tless4 ,"l1 !re is no?+ good 9 me1 t ?\ %\ld/ reg>d1 & s rememb] me4 ,all is ( ?y free grace1 & undes]v$ m]cy4 ,o ! ravi%+ joy t seizes my he>t1 9 m$itat+ on ! dy+ love ( my ,savi\r6 ,x raises me above all human ?+s1 & c>ries my s\l deep into ! my/]ies ( godl9ess40 ,two ?+s he !n especially rem>k$1 #a/4 ,h[ sad an affair x is to leave ! "w ( salvation to a "t ( sickness8 8,exp]i5ce has /rongly taught me1 t if my peace 0 n made be=e su* an affliction 7ref]r+ to a viol5t fev]1 z ?is 07 x w\ld nev] h be5 made1 di/raction1 & almo/ madness w\ld take up ! "t2 & n rep5tance4 ,look ,o ,jesus ^u ^? :o are putt+ ! evil day af> (f40 #b;dly4 ,t be=e ea* ( 8 illnesses2 he _h _h rem>kable displays ( ! div9e goodness t[>ds him4 ,?us he says1 8,i _c b rem>k ! exce$+ goodness ( ,god1 = be=e my illnesses = "s ye>s pa/1 he always gives me a cle> manife/ation ( 8 love40 ,! foll[+ acc\nt 0 aft] a fev]1 :i* la/$ n9e & tw5ty days1 at a place call$ ,tirrelspass 9 ,irel&4 #a4 8,i _h no joy = tw5ty days4 ,! sev]ity ( my sickness & pa91 press$ d[n my s\l4 ,nei!r div9e light nor love %one into my he>t2 yet ,i pray$ (t5 ) fre$om & f]v\r40 duplicate ^w 8&0 remov$ #b4 8,i _h no /rong temptations2 no fe> ( dea?1 or hell3 nei!r _h ,i any desire to die4 ,on ! ?irte5? day1 ,i _h an assurance1 t ,i %\ld n die 9 ,tirrelspass4 ,my greate/ uneas9ess arose f ! place :]e ,i lay1 :i* 0 a n>r[ room1 ) a %op adjo9+1 :]e 0 hurry & noise almo/ cont9ually4 ,?is circum/ance1 ?ro' ! evil ( my he>t1 (t5 became a temptation to impati5ce4 ,b ,i cri$ unto ! ,"l1 & he made e ?+ m easy to me e day40 #c4 8,ab\t ! tw5tie? day1 my s\l & body mu* reviv$4 ,i c\ld aft] a night ( heav9ess rejoice 9 ,god4 ,i exp]i5c$ mu* ( ! love ( ,*ri/4 ,b yet ,i felt ! old man4 ,alas6 :at an evil he>t h ,i6 ,h[ h>d is x to humble me1 & wean my desires f e>?8 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ my he>t & re9s4 ,& is x n my desire to love !e ) all my s\l1 & s]ve !e ) all my /r5g?80 8,is !re a ?+ b5ea? ! sun1 ,t /rives ) !e my he>t to %>e8 ,ah1 te> x !nce1 & reign alone ,! ,"l ( ev'ry motion !re60 #d4 8,on ! tw5ty-six? day1 e>ly 9 ! morn+1 ! graci\s ,"l repl5i%$ my s\l ) 8 love4 ,he p\r$ out 8 ,_s ^u me4 ,! int]c\rse 0 op5 betwe5 heav5 & my s\l4 ,i lov$1 & c\ld pray = all ! _w1 z = myself4 ,o h[ does ,*ri/ inl>ge ! he>t6 ,:at flames ( div9e *>ity does he k9dle !re6 ,! tw5ty-sev5? day ,i _h su* a s5se ( ! m]cy ( ,god z q ov]came my s\l4 ,9 ! ev5+ h[ev]1 ,i felt a sev]e /ruggle3 b ! bless$ ,_s soon set my he>t at lib]ty40 8,"l1 s9ce x ha? pleas$ !e1 to sp>e me a little long]1 make my life useful4 ,let me be :olly giv5 up to !e1 & ?y s]vice1 t ,i may glorify !e1 9 all ?+s1 ?ro' ,jesus ,*ri/1 my de>e/ ,"l & ,savi\r4 ,am540 8,lim]ick1 ,octob] #bh1 #agee4 ,i 0 seiz$ ) a fev]1 :i* conf9$ me to my room1 till ,friday1 ,novemb] #g4 ,i rem>k ! foll[+ p>ticul>s10 998#a/4 ,i exam9$ :at might be ! cause ( ?is illness2 b c\ld n disc]n any ?+ 9 p>ticul>4 ,i saw inde$ t _m ( my temp]s1 words & actions 7 n truly holy4 ,i 0 a%am$ ( my be/ p]=mances1 ,i saw my be/ liv+ z a m]e blot3 yet ! guilt ( no p>ticul> s9 lay ^u my consci5ce40 8#b;dly4 ,i 0 m subject to temptation 9 ?is sickness ?an usual3 n inde$ to ?9k h>d ( ,god1 or rep9e at my illness3 b ,i _h spiritual conflicts1 wre/l+s aga9/ pr9cipalities & p[]s1 aga9/ ! rul]s ( ! d>kness ( ?is _w2 aga9/ wick$ spirits 9 high places4 ,! ?ird day1 :i* 0 ,?ursday1 ,octob] #cj1 ,i _h ! sore/ conflict t ev] ,i felt4 ,i 0 sudd5ly seiz$ 9 body1 & amaz$ 9 m9d4 ,i ?\ght e mom5t w\ld h be5 my la/4 ,i _h a vehem5t ?ir/4 ,my tongue 0 dry & turgid4 ,& my s\l 0 9 an agony4 ,i 0 ov]:elm$ ) fe>1 sorr[1 & sore affliction40 998,all ! s9s ( my life pass$ be=e me1 b especially ^? :i* 7 s9ce ,i _h be5 enlight5$1 & s9ce ,i prea*$ ! gospel4 ,i saw1 & felt myself hell-des]v+2 t ,i 0 no?+1 & c\ld d no good "w be=e ,god4 ,i 0 really poor1 9 su* a mann] & degree1 z ,i nev] felt be=e4 ,i 0 /ript1 humbl$1 empti$1 laid op51 conf\nd$ & afraid ( ,god's judgm5ts2 ?o' n afraid ( ! devil1 or hell4 ,nay1 ,i all ! :ile knew ,i _h r$emption 9 ! blood ( ,jesus1 & t all my s9s 7 =giv54 ,:o c und]/&8 ,only su* z h felt ! same40 8#c;dly1 ,9 ! mid/ ( my tr\bles1 ,i _h lib]ty 9 pray]4 ,my und]/&+ & memory rema9$ ) me1 & abundance ( spiritual matt] 0 sugge/$ to my m9d4 ,ev5 passages ( scripture1 t ,i nev] us$ be=e1 7 br\ght to me 9 pray]4 ,i 0 al>m$ 9 e "p1 & cri$ mightily to ,god4 ,i cri$ to all ab\t me to pray = me4 ,surely !y saw ! bitt]ness ( my s\l4 ,god rememb] !m = good1 :o !n sympa?iz$ ) me 9 my tr\ble40 998#d?ly1 ,x left me gradually1 & )\t any s5sible joy4 ,peace & confid5ce arose by degrees1 9 my _s4 ,! v extremity ( ! combat1 la/$ ab\t a qu>t] ( an h\r4 ,x j !n occurr$ to me1 t "s days be=e1 ,i he>d ,jesus1 z x 71 speak1 & say to me1 ,satan ha? desir$ to h !e1 t he may sift y z :eat1 b ,i h pray$ = !e1 t ?y fai? may n fail4 ,& n[ ,i fully und]/ood x4 ,9 s _m in/ances1 are ^? words ( our ,"l true1 #8,:at ,i d1 ?\ kn[e/ n n[2 b ?\ %alt "k h]eaft]4'0 8#e?ly1 ,i felt1 7& might x n be ! design ( ,god 9 ! :ole87 ,t ! "n ( ,jesus alone c\ld avail to br+ me to ,god4 ,i _h su* a deep s5se ( ?is1 z ,i nev] _h be=e4 ,i _h besides1 extraord9>y evid5ce ( ! et]nal p[] & godhead ( ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,9 all my illnesses ?is tru? has be5 wond]fully reveal$ to me1 bo? by ! ext]nal evid5ce ( holy writ1 & ! int]nal evid5ce ( ! holy ,_s4 ,none ( ! pray]s :i* ,i made use (1 s foil$ & drove away ,satan1 z #8,jesus1 ,son ( ! liv+ ,god1 h m]cy ^u1 & save me f ?is h\r4' ,likewise ! fifty-?ird ( ,isaiah1 ! tw5ty-?ird ( ,j]emiah1 & ! sixte5? ( ,/4 ,mat!w1 ) mu* ( ! ,revelation1 came into my m9d3 & my pray]s 7 made up *iefly ( passages f ^! places4 ,i cri$ out1 :5 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld speak no m1 & said1 ,"l1 ,i h tru/$ 9 !e1 & ,i believe ?\ wilt raise me up at ! la/ day40 8,i _h at ! same "t1 mo/ e>ne/ desires1 to be made holy4 ,i saw m cle>ly ?an ev] ! nature & necessity ( p]fect love2 & 0 fully p]suad$ ( ! necessity ( prea*+ ,*ri/ian p]fection1 & ( decl>+1 t all is ( grace40 8#f?ly1 ,= f\r or five days1 aft] x 0 ov]1 ,i _h mu* ( ! pres5ce ( ,god1 & ( ,*ri/4 ,_m scripture tru?s reveal$ to me1 & /rong assurances1 t ,god w\ld sp>e me a little long]1 to prea* 8 gospel to ! ignorant1 & !m t are out ( ! way1 & to help =w>d ! fai? ( 8 *ildr540 998,i write ?is acc\nt ,novemb] #h1 #agee1 be+ pretty free f bodily pa91 at peace ) ,god1 & all mank9d1 desir\s1 & det]m9$ to live :olly to ! glory ( ,god2 to be a s]vant ( all1 giv+ my life1 "t1 & /r5g?1 ) e o!r tal5t intru/$ to me1 to ,god1 & ! *ur*1 :i* my de> ,jesus pur*as$ ) 8 blood4 ,to him ) ! ,almighty ,fa!r1 & et]nal ,_s1 be ascrib$ ! k+dom1 p[]1 & glory1 = ev]1 & to et]nity40 ,! v day on :i* he wrote ^! reflections1 & ! fir/ ( 8 go+ out1 aft] ?is illness1 x be+ a day appo9t$ = fa/+ & pray]1 to av]t ! judgm5t ( ,god1 :i* seem$ imp5d+ ov] ^! nations2 he 0 tak5 9 a *air to ! prea*+-h\se1 & prea*$ = a full h\r1 8hav+ 7z he expresses x7 a deep s5se ( ! maje/y ( ,god1 & joyful confid5ce1 t he w\ld def5d ! real ,israelites f ! imp5d+ evil40 ,! frequ5t exp]i5ce :i* he _h ( rem>kable escapes f conf9em5t1 by disord]s :i* ?reat5$ him ) a sudd5 removal h5ce1 & ^! 9 times ( prea*+ especially1 made x a frequ5t & felt expression ) him1 8,:5 ,i am weak1 !n ,i am /rong40 8,:5 "o kn[s 7says he1 on ano!r ( ^! occasions7 t ,god is = him1 t he has r$emption 9 ! blood ( ,*ri/1 !n :e!r he be ri*1 or poor1 9 sickness1 or 9 heal?1 he is happy1 & c rejoice4 ,h ,i recov]$ my /r5g?8 ,& am ,i freely =giv5 my =m] trespasses8 ,does ! ,_s ( ,god dwell 9 my he>t8 ,& c ,i by fai? behold a reconcil$ ,god1 & int]c$+ ,savi\r1 at 8 "r h&8 ,well1 !n1 welcome sickness1 contempt1 pov]ty1 & dea?4 ,if ,i meet ) worldly tr\bles1 'tis to make my cr[n ! bright]4 ,if ,i suff] = ,*ri/'s sake1 happy am ,i4 ,if ,i be> ! cross1 ,i %all we> ! cr[n4 ,is my body cold8 ,i am w>m$ ) ! flames ( sacr$ love2 nak$8 ,i h a cov]+ ( wr\ght gold1 ! righte\sness ( my ,savi\r6 ,hungry8 ,i h meat to eat ! _w kn[e? n (1 ! hidd5 manna1 & ! bread ( life4 ,let me suff] !n ) ,*ri/4 ,m5 may kill my body2 b x w\ld only s5d me ! soon] to heav540 ,! foll[+ in/ance1 ! la/ ,i %all m5tion on ?is head1 is ! r ins]t$1 because 9 x may be se5 a true picture ( ! man1 f ! free p\r+s out ( 8 own he>t4 ,x 0 at ,bri/ol1 aft] recov]+ f a dang]\s fev]4 998,= ?ree days la/ pa/1 ,i _h mu* conv]se ) ,god1 & vehem5t desires to live :olly to 8 glory4 ,i h enquir$ into ! reason ( m9e affliction1 & ?9k1 ,god did x to humble me1 t ,i %\ld n be puff$ up ) ! praises ( ! p4 ,!y _c inde$ too mu* admire ! tru?s ( ,god1 nor be too ?ankful to him = !m4 ,b ! dang] 01 le/ ,i %\ld ?9k myself somebody3 yet ,i _c lay to my own *>ge ! desire ( applause1 nei!r did ,i f9d x lift me up3 on ! contr>y1 x (t5 made me a%am$1 kn[+ my own vil5ess1 & h[ little ,i ei!r suff]$ or did = ,god40 998,& truly ,i 0 nev] m s5sible ( my unpr(itabl5ess1 ?an ,i am at ?is h\r4 ,i blu% to see & he> h[ o!rs live1 & h liv$2 & at h[ l[ a rate ,i yet live4 ,b above all1 :5 ,i consid] ! life ( ! holy ,jesus1 ,o h[ f> %ort d ,i come6 ,i am n entirely dead to myself4 ,i am n altoge!r free f affection to creatures4 ,i _c rejoice equally to suff]1 z to be com=t$4 ,i speak words ,i ought n4 ,i sp5d "s m9utes unpr(itably4 ,9 %ort1 ,i d n love ,god1 or my neighb\r z ,i ought40 998,o1 0 x n = free grace1 & ! blood ( spr9kl+1 :]e %\ld ,i appe>6 ,b ?\ kn[e/ my desire1 or r ! desire ( ?y _s )9 me4 ,?\ kn[e/ t !re ha/ nev] be5 a sa9t ^u e>? :om ,i d n desire to resemble1 9 do+ & suff]+ ?y :ole w4 ,i w\ld walk ) !e1 my ,god1 z ,eno* did4 ,i w\ld foll[ !e to a l& unkn[n1 z ,abraham did4 ,i w\ld r5\nce all = !e1 z did ,moses1 & ,paul4 ,i w\ld1 z did ,/eph51 seal ?y tru? ) my blood60 998,is n ?is ! desire ( my s\l1 ,o my ,savi\r8 ,o1 give me p[]2 give grace & con/ancy4 ,= unless ?\ helpe/1 all my long+s & pray+ w prove fruitless4 ,b if ?\ wat]e/ ^! plants1 ( ?9e own "r h&'s plant+1 ?is gra9 %all become a great tree1 & my s\l %all be swall[$ up 9 !e my ,"l ,god60 8,jesus 0 my com=t1 & my joy1 my life1 & my /r5g?4 ,o1 if ,i _h n ,jesus = my help1 ,i %\ld be mis]able4 ,b s9ce ,i h !e ,i am happy 9 ^! my afflictions4 ,! lovely smiles ( ?y c\nt5ance1 :i* %9e ) glory1 revive & raise me4 ,o1 div9e love6 ,:at ha/ ?\ done = me1 a poor s9n]6 ,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 & =get n 8 b5efits4 8,o t my s\l 0 loos5$ f ?is body1 t ,i might asc5d ! holy hill ( ! ,"l6 ,my ,jesus1 :5 %all ,i behold ,!e face to face6 ,o t ?is sep>ate wall 0 brok5 d[n1 ?is p>tition tak5 away1 & t ,i c\ld ev5 n[ ent] into ! cele/ial c\rts !re to s+ ev]la/+ hallelujah's to my ,"l1 ,god1 ,fa!r1 ,son1 & ,holy ,gho/1 ,am560 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,( 8 temptations1 conflicts & v>i\s ex]cises ( s\l4 ,,x is a po9t ( wisdom1 well wor?y our pursuit1 to "k :at 9 ! c\rse ( our exp]i5ce we ought to ascribe to ,god1 to angels1 :e!r good or evil1 & to ourselves4 ,h[ greatly w\ld x contribute to prev5t _m evil reason+s & self-torm5t+ con/]nations8 ,& x is a po9t ( k to :i* ! *ildr5 ( ! k+dom d actually atta9 ?r\gh fai? & pray]4 8pusuit0 replac$ ) 8pursuit0 ,! foll[+ few p>ticul>s1 9 ! c\rse ( ! exp]i5ce ( ?is man ( ,god1 :i* are ascrib$ to ! ag5cy ( ! p[] ( d>kness1 are 7among an inf9ity ( o!r in/ances 9 ! _w7 suffici5t pro(s ( ! attempts ( ^? malici\s spirits1 to /eal & to de/roy1 to rob u ( ! grace ( ,god1 & to de/roy our s\ls4 ,conc]n+ ! v>iety ( inw>d conflicts :i* he w5t ?r\gh1 he (t5 took notice t !y 7 greate/ on ! ,"l's day2 & says on ! occasion1 8,"l ,i am m afflict$ on ?y day1 ?an on any o!r4 ,?\ kn[e/ ! cause4 ,if x be ! enemy t afflicts me1 d ?\ rebuke him2 let him h no p[] ov] my body or s\l4 ,& ,o give me ?y meek1 & long-suff]+ m9d to be> :atsoev] burd5 ?\ p]mitte/ to come ^u me40 ,he obs]ves likewise1 ,:5 ,i h mo/ life & p[] 9 prea*+1 !n ! devil & s9 mu/] all _! =ce1 & ?ru/ sore at me4 ,b hi!rto ,god has pres]v$ me bo? f ! great (f5ce1 & f mis]y & dejection4 ,! in/ances ( ! resi/ance he f\nd 9 ! "t ( prea*+ f invisible p[]s1 7 highly rem>kable4 ,he has sometimes />t$ 9 amaze1 at horrible injections1 conc]n+ ,god1 or ,*ri/1 or "s fundam5tal article ( ! ,*ri/ian religion2 ev5 !n1 :ile he has be5 p[]fully ass]t+1 prov+1 & en=c+ x4 ,i h (t5 he>d him say1 !re 0 n a s+le div9e tru?1 9 ! :i* he 0 !n e/abli%$1 = :i* he _h n f\ght1 resi/+ z x 7 unto blood4 ,= he w\ld take no?+ ^u tru/2 nor see ) ! eyes ( o!rs4 ,he d]iv$ 8 s5tim5ts1 f ! f\nta9 head4 ,8 be/ ?+s came f ,god 9 ! way ( lab\r & /riv+4 ,he has be5 sometimes depriv$ ( ! use ( "s ( 8 s5ses1 dur+ ! v "t ( prea*+3 once 9 p>ticul>1 #agea4 ,9 ! mid/ ( 8 disc\rse1 he1 9 an in/ant lo/ 8 eye-sight & fell back 9 ! pulpit1 yet reta9+1 dur+ ! :ole "t1 ! p]fect use ( 8 und]/&+3 he h[ev]1 soon recov]$1 & f9i%$ 8 s]mon4 ,he believ$1 & 0 n conf\nd$4 duplicate ^w 8&0 remov$ ,(t5 :5 he has be5 di/urb$ 9 ! sil5ce ( ! night 9 ways m ?an natural1 well kn[+ ! cause1 he has ) mu* confid5ce1 9 ! "n ( ,jesus comm&$ ! adv]s>y to be gone2 & he f\nd x always accord+ to 8 fai?4 ,rid+ "o day ) a fri5d1 & talk+ z he 0 wont1 ( ! goodness ( ,god1 & ( ! confid5ce :i* he f\nd 9 him48,j !n1 7says he7 my horse on a pla9 place ?rew me ov] 8 head4 ,z ,i came to ! gr\nd1 x 01 z x 71 s\nd$ 9 my e>s1 #8,w y tru/ ,god n[8' ,yes ,i said1 = ev]6 ,?r\gh ! m]cy ( ! ,"l ,i 0 n hurt4 ,i saw an enemy _h done x4 ,i 0 ?ankful & felt no contr>y emotion 9 my he>t40 ,"o p>ticul> :i* ought p]haps to be r$uc$ to ?is head1 & :i* to "s1 no d\bt1 w appe> s+ul>1 0 a pa9ful appreh5sion1 :i* he sometimes _h ( dy+4 ,& :at r5d]s x ! m obs]vable is1 t x 0 s ev5 at ^? times1 :5 he c\ld truly triumph 9 ,*ri/1 kn[+ t he %\ld be ) him = ev]4 ,( ?is we h ! foll[+ acc\nt f himself4 8,saturday1 ,decemb] #a1 #agec4 ,aft] prea*+ ,i /udi$ closely till t54 ,i f\nd inf9ite sweetness 9 ,god2 & mu* p[] brea!d into my s\l aft] all ! m9d ( ,*ri/4 ,at pres5t ,i am tempt$ *iefly ) ! fe> ( dea?4 ,i believe my p>don is seal$ by ! blood ( ! cov5ant4 ,i h no fe> ( hell1 & yet ,i am sorely appreh5sive ( dea?40 ,aga91 8,monday #bb;d4 ,i 0 ?is day1 z ,i h be5 frequ5tly ( late mu* p]plex$ at ! ?\ght ( dy+4 ,i believe my ,r$eem] live?1 & t ,i h an int]e/ 9 8 blood1 & yet1 not)/&+1 ,i am sore amaz$ at ! ?\ght ( dissolution40 ,& ?us 9 reality x 0 ) ?is s]vant ( ,god2 s t ! uncom=table appreh5sions :i* he sometimes felt1 ev5 till ne> 8 end1 9 reg>d ( dy+ mu/ ne$s be ascrib$1 *iefly1 to ! p]mission ( ,god to ,satan1 to ex]cise him 9 ?is mann]2 & may be consid]$ z a ?orn 9 8 fle%1 ! mess5g] ( ,satan to buffet him2 p]haps p>tly = ! easem5t ( o!r tempt$ s\ls1 & ) reg>d to himself1 !reby m fully 8,to prove him1 & illu/rate 8 high wor?1 ,^: con/ant p]sev]ance ov]came ,:atev] ,satan's malice c\ld inv5t40 ,milton4 ,he /udi$ deeply ! nature ( ! ,*ri/ian w>f>e1 & 0 well practis$ 9 ! use ( its weapons4 ,8 ?\ghts on ! :ole arm\r ( ,god1 7 ! g5u9e result ( 8 own exp]i5ce4 ,! combats :i* he met )1 ne$$ n less ?an ! :ole2 & he bo? tri$1 & prov$ t e "p !re( is inde$ ess5tial4 ,some?+ v diff]5t f ! prece$+ p>ticul>s he relates z foll[s1 ,!re is a s]mon ( 8 pr9t$ "u ?is title4 8:]e0 replac$ ) 870 8,friday1 ,augu/ #b1 #aged4 ,i talk$ ) "o to-day1 :o 0 sorely tempt$1 7h[ my/]i\s67 to kill me2 & = no o!r reason ?an because %e 0 awak5$ "u my prea*+ to feel h]self a poor lo/ s9n]40 ,aga91 8,septemb] #af4 ,aft] prea*+1 a "y woman came to me1 & said1 t "s "t be=e1 %e _h br\ght a knife ) h] to prea*+1 int5d+ to kill me2 b 0 s t]rifi$ "u ! la/ pray]1 t %e dur/ n attempt x4 ,! devil sugge/$1 t if %e did b take away my life1 ! burd5 :i* %e felt ?r\gh my prea*+1 w\ld imm$iately dep>t40 ,i %all conclude ?is *apt] ) a few o!r p>ticul>s1 relat+ to ?is head ( trials1 tak5 f 8 own words4 8,?is day ,i 0 sorely tempt$4 ,satan ?rew _m ( 8 fi]y d>ts at me4 ,i nev] be=e felt su* agony 9 resi/+1 :at are commonly call$ blasphem\s ?\ghts4 ,i cri$ unto ! ,"l1 & he deliv]$ me60 8,9 ! ev5+ 7n ( ! same day7 ,i 0 9 great di/ress4 ,my s\l 0 mu* weigh$ d[n4 ,i felt griev\s horror 9 my _s1 & yet ,i 0 resolv$1 al?\gh ! ,"l %\ld slay me1 to tru/ 9 him4 ,9 ! v h\r t ,i came to ?is resolution1 my burd5 0 remov$2 & ! ,"l gave me to rejoice 9 _s40 8,?is day1 7,april #aged7 ,i _h conv]sation ) "s ,*ri/ian fri5ds1 conc]n+ temptations1 & ! g5]al exp]i5ce ( ! sa9ts4 ,& h[ev] ,satan may be p]mitt$ to tr\ble _! body or s\l1 ,i always believ$1 t ,god do? n hide 8 face1 unless to puni% u = commission ( s91 or omission ( duty4 ,& ! m ,i m$itate ^u ?is subject1 ! m abundantly ,i am confirm$ 9 my judgm5t40 8,?ursday #ba4 ,i _h a mis]able night4 ,sometime aft] ,i w5t to b$1 ,i 0 sorely assault$ ( ! devil4 ,i attempt$ to compose myself1 b c\ld n4 ,i 0 sudd5ly seiz$ ) a weakness1 & cold sweat4 ,my he>t fail$ me4 ,my s\l 0 afflict$2 my _s 0 griev$1 & sore vex$4 ,! eye ( my fai? 0 d>k5$2 ! s5se ( ,god's love dep>t$2 & ! ang] ( ! ,"l seem$ reveal$ t[>ds me4 ,i c\ld see no?+ b ?ick d>kness1 & he> no?+ b ?undr+s f ,s9ai6 ,x seem$ to me1 z ?\gh !re 0 a /ruggle betwe5 ju/ice & m]cy conc]n+ me4 ,b al?\gh ,i 0 9 su* confusion1 & p]plexity1 ,i saw t m]cy got ! victory1 & triumph$ ov] judgm5t40 998,my /r5g? s fail$ me t x seem$ z ?\gh ,i _h n an h\r to live4 ,i rose h[ev]1 & dress$ myself2 b c\ld sc>cely pray "o ^w4 ,i cri$ ,m]cy6 ,m]cy6 ,m]cy6 ,i /ret*$ myself ^u ! floor1 & c\ld weep only a few te>s4 ,i _h gone ?r\gh sore tr\ble & d>kness be=e ?is "t2 b su* a night z ?is1 ,i nev] _h be=e 7& ,o my ,god1 may ,i nev] see su* ano!r47 ,aft] be+ = "s "t on ! floor1 ,i got up & walk$ a little1 ab\t ! room2 & !n ?rew myself ^u my knees4 ,be+ a little reviv$1 ,i w5t to b$ aga94 ,dur+ ! little :ile ,i slept1 ,i _h be=e me ! cause ( my tr\ble4 ,i soon got up1 & my head 0 n[ z wat]1 & my eyes a f\nta9 ( te>s4 8,my confid5ce return$1 s t ,i c\ld look up & believe t ! ,"l 0 m9e4 ,i w5t & prea*$ on ,ze*>iah iv4 #g4 ,:o art ?\ ,o great m\nta98 ,be=e ,z]ubbabel ?\ %alt become a pla92 & he %all br+ =? ! head/one !re( ) %\t+s1 cry+1 grace1 grace unto x4 ,& my s\l 0 humbl$ to ! du/4 ,my pray+ & prea*+ 0 f my v he>t4 ,let x be = ev] rememb]$1 to ! glory ( ! great ,god1 & my ,savi\r ,*ri/1 t ,i 0 n suff]$ to be long 9 ?is condition4 ,9 ab\t half an h\r1 ,i receiv$ "s confid5ce1 & 9 ! morn+ my fai? 0 increas$4 8,let x be also rem>k$1 t ! scripture promises 7 ( great com=t to me1 p>ticul>ly ,hosea xiv4 #a4 ,john ii4 #b1 #c4 ,glory1 hon\r1 praise1 wor%ip1 & dom9ion be ascrib$ unto !e1 ,o ,"l6 ,ye angels ( ,god1 bless him on my behalf6 ,let all 9 heav5 & all 9 e>? jo9 to wor%ip ! triune ,god1 ,fa!r1 ,son1 & ,holy ,gho/60 ,! foll[+ 0 "s "t aft]4 8,tuesday1 #ba4 ,i _h a sorr[ful morn+4 ,my s\l 0 9 heav9ess ?r\gh manifold temptations4 ,! enemy came ^u me 9 my sleep1 & griev$ my s\l4 ,al?\gh ,i _h joy at night1 yet sorr[ att5d$ me 9 ! morn+4 ,i _h int5d$ to h prea*$ on ! beatitudes2 b f9d+ myself full ( tr\bles & temptations1 ,i *ang$ my purpose & prea*$ f ,hebrews iv4 #adaf4 ,o my ,god1 mu/ ,i p]i%8 ,ha/ ?\ br\ght me ?us f> & %all ,i be ca/ (f8 ,o1 =bid x ,savi\r4 ,=sake n ! "w ( ?9e own h&s4 ,come & de/roy ! "w ( ! devil6 ,my ,god1 my ,god1 d n =sake me4 ,?\ kn[e/ t s9 is hateful to me4 ,h ,i n a love to righte\sness8 ,d n my s\l & fle% cry out = ! liv+ ,god8 ,am ,i n will+ to g ev5 ?r\gh ! fire1 r ?an (f5d ,!e8 ,:y !n %\ld ! enemy prevail aga9/ me8 8,jesus ha/ ?\ n b\ght my s\l8 ,am n ,i ?9e8 ,o t my head 7 wat]s1 ,o t ,i c\ld ev5 weep te>s ( blood3 ,"l ,god let n ?y lov+ k9dness dep>t f me4 ,:]e art ?\ ,jesus ?\ ,son ( ,god6 ,my great ,high-,prie/1 :]e is ?y aton+ blood8 ,:]e is he t 0 tempt$ 9 all po9ts l unto me8 ,is !re no help = me 9 my ,god8 ,:y art ?\ ca/ d[n ,o my s\l8 ,o t ,i c\ld yield my la/ brea?1 if no?+ else w end ! /rife6 ,oh6 ! langui%m5ts ( my s\l = an abs5t ,god6 ,h[ does my _s fa9t )9 me6 ,h[ d ,i p9e6 ,o sun ( righte\sness1 arise ^u me ) heal+ 9 ?y w+s4 ,come ,"l ,jesus1 ,o come1 & save me = ?y m]cy's sake4 ,:]e are ! s\nd+s ( ?y b[els1 ,do/ ?\ n see my lab\r+ brea/8 ,is n my pa9 ev5 worse ?an /rangl+8 ,return ,o ,"l1 see my gasp+ long+1 a*+ he>t4 ,am ,i n an object ( pity8 ,h ,i n ne$ ( ,!e6 ,n[ answ] me by fire6 ,get ?yself ! victory6 ,i want ! seal ( ?y ,_s1 ! e>ne/ ( my heav560 ,! ,"l did he> 8 pray]4 ,i f9d x !re=e add$ soon aft]4 8,o h[ pl5tifully did ! ,"l p\r 8 love & consolation into my s\l6 ,i am amaz$ at ! goodness & long-suff]+ ( ,god t[>ds me4 ,& ,i obs]ve 9 g5]al1 t aft] great heav9ess & conflicts1 come extraord9>y joy & consolation4 ,o may ,i husb& well ?is preci\s gift ( ,god60 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,8 communion ) ,god4 ,,"u ?is head1 is compreh5d$ ! :ole ( 8 conduct1 & exp]i5ce1 z a ,*ri/ian1 consid]$ 9 8 private capacity4 ,& = ?is especially1 we are furni%$ ) ! mo/ ample mat]ials1 bo? f ! g5]al t5or ( 8 conv]sation & f 8 di>y4 ,he liv$ = ?is "o ?+4 ,all 8 actions & employm5ts _h ?is s+le t5d5cy2 & he consid]$ e ?+ else1 ) ref]5ce !reto3 mak+ 8 e/imate ( ! good or evil ( e int5tion1 action1 ex]cise1 & und]/&+1 accord+ z x t5d$ to promote1 or h9d] ?is be/ ( pursuits1 & noble/ enjoym5t ( ! human s\l4 ,)\t reg>d+ ! incl9ations ( nature1 he embrac$1 or reject$ e ?+1 ) a view altoge!r to ! promotion ( ! holy & happy fell[%ip ( 8 s\l ) ! ,fa!r1 & ) 8 ,son ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,i am aw>e1 h[ mu* m easy x is to say great ?+s on ?is head1 conc]n+ "o's self1 or o!rs1 ?an to say no?+ b ! tru?4 ,& x may be que/ion$1 :e!r ! great] "p ( ! %9+ acc\nts h]e( :i* we h se51 are ! simple tru?3 ! writ]s (t5 %ew+1 r :at !y c\ld say1 ?an :at ! p]sons :om !y describe1 really 74 ,x is a fruitless expectation to look = m 9 m51 ?an ! /ate ( humanity really admits4 ,! p]fection ( human k9d is su* a /ate ( m9d & body1 z _! nature admits (1 & z ,god has provid$ = !m1 9 ! ocean ( 8 love1 & treasures ( 8 grace4 ,! sum ( our p]fection is1 t be+ sav$ f all our enemies1 7t is s9s1 includ+ all wrong temp]s1 z well z words1 & actions17 we love ,god ) all ! p[]s ( ! s\l1 & s]ve him1 ) ! :ole capacity1 ( bo? our s\l & body4 ,& :oev] has atta9$ to ?is 7:i* :oso d5ies ! possibility (1 rejects ! c\nsel & ^w ( ,god7 is1 a p]fect man1 accord+ to ! scripture2 manifold infirmities1 necess>ily connect$ ) a dy+ body not)/&+4 99,?is s]vant ( ,god _h 8 infirmities1 prop]ly s call$1 :i* (t5 made him weep 9 secret places4 ,& yet1 s p[]fully did ! grace ( our ,"l "w 9 him1 to ! de/ruction ( s92 & to su* a degree ( victory did he atta9 ov] himself1 ! _w & ,satan1 t1 to _m1 he seem$ m ?an human2 be+ 9 tru? a man ( ano!r _w1 9 :om dwelt ri*ly ! ,_s ( ! liv+ ,god4 ,to su* z 7 witnesses ( 8 f]v5t zeal1 mighty pray]1 /eady s]i\sness1 & habitual heav5ly-m9d$ness1 ,i %all n wond] if all t foll[s1 seems f> %ort ( a full description ( him4 ,& yet1 ,i am aw>e on ! o!r h&1 t to _m o!rs1 x may h all ! air ( m]e ideal flight1 or en?usia/ic folly2 to p]sons1 :o1 cold !mselves1 ?9k ardor comes f hell4 ,! deep1 & g5u9e acqua9tance ) ,god1 to :i* he atta9$1 0 9 tru? beyond t :i* ! g5]ality ( ,*ri/ians arrive at2 al?\gh all are1 )\t d\bt1 equally entitl$ !reto4 ,he truly put (f ! old man ) 8 de$s1 & became r5ew$ 9 ! _s ( 8 m9d4 ,he fully exp]i5c$ ! significancy ( ^? words1 ,s9 %all n h dom9ion ov] y4 ,& he t ha? suff]$ 9 ! fle%1 ha? ceas$ f s94 ,z also1 ye are dead3 & he t is dead1 is fre$ f s94 ,& f h5ce x 01 t !re appe>$ ?r\gh\t 8 :ole c>riage1 su* fruit unto hol9ess4 ,9 him might be se51 h[ great ?+s ,god do? = 8 *ildr51 :o simply foll[ him1 ev5 9 ?is _w3 no less ?an mak+ !m complete be=e him 9 love4 ,my fir/ acqua9tance ) him1 begun soon aft] ! m]cy ( ,god _h /irr$ me up1 to seek 8 face4 ,f a /udi\s reg>d to ! holy scriptures1 x 0 soon giv5 me to und]/&1 :at mann] ( p]son a ,*ri/ian approv$ ( ,god mu/ be3 & !nce=w>d1 ,i bo? read1 conv]s$1 & ?\ght ( little else4 ,& 9 him ,i saw cle>ly1 :at till !n ,i _h only conceiv$3 9 him my conceptions 7 truly exemplifi$4 ,mu* _h be5 report$1 bo? ( ! gifts & graces ( ,mr4 ,wal%2 yet1 ,i f\nd 9 him1 mu* m1 ?an ,i _h ei!r conceiv$ or he>d4 ,nor did ! long intimacy ) him1 ) :i* ,i 0 aft]w>ds privileg$1 alt]1 9 ! lea/ my s5tim5ts4 ,x might p]haps be ?\ght t$i\s1 m9utely to describe all ! p>ticul> graces1 :i* adorn$ 8 life4 ,& inde$ to conceive ( ! excell5cies :i* appe>$ 9 him1 !y ne$ n be att5d$ to1 "o by "o2 = nei!r s1 c\ld !y be fully compreh5d$4 ,b he walk$ be=e ,god1 9 su* a mann]1 z abundantly includ$ !m all4 ,he 0 a p]son ( a surpriz+ greatness ( s\l1 = :i* ! :ole circumf]5ce ( creat$ good1 0 f>1 f> too little3 he f\nd 9 ,god4 8,t some?+ /ill1 :i* prompts ?' et]nal sigh1 ,= :i* we be> to live1 nor fe> to die40 ,! love ( ,jesus1 fill$ up 9 8 s\l1 t mighty void1 ?is :ole creation leaves 9 human he>ts4 ,8 exactness 9 all ^? p>ticul>s1 :i* comprize m5's duty to ,god1 _! neighb\r & !mselves1 0 su*1 & s well kn[n1 t x w\ld be easy to swell ?is *apt]1 by enl>g+ on ea* ( !m1 to an enorm\s size4 ,b pass+ ov] ! great] "p ( !m1 ,i %all only po9t out a few p>ticul>s1 relat+ *iefly to 8 int]nal /ate1 :i* 7 )9 my own notice3 ref]r+ ! read]1 = a l>g]1 & m satisfactory picture ( him1 to ! foll[+ collection f 8 di>y3 9 :i* are repres5t$1 ^? secret transactions ( ,god ^u 8 s\l1 to :i* himself alone c\ld be privy4 ,! p>ticul>s ,i premise are1 ,i4 ,8 ,pray]4 ,f ! e>lie/ dawn ( ! grace ( ,god 9 8 s\l1 he 0 s+ul>ly rem>kable = con/ancy & importunity 9 pray]4 ,he 0 e>ly a wre/l] ) ,god1 & prevail$ to ! obta9+ t em95cy 9 ! k ( ,god1 = :i* he 0 appreh5d$ 9 ,*ri/1 & :i* is "h relat$ 9 "p4 ,! m he got acqua9t$ ) div9e ?+s1 ! m did he increase 9 ?is s\l-enri*+ ex]cise4 8,he t has nev] pray$1 c nev] conceive2 & he t has pray$1 z he ought1 c nev] =get1 h[ mu* is to be ga9$ by pray]40 ,beside ! daily1 & (t5 public p\r+ out ( 8 s\l1 9 g5]al int]cession1 & occasional addresses to ,god1 9 behalf ( ne$y s\ls 7groan+ "u ! guilt ( s91 or body ( corruption1 or :atev] 0 ! cause7 :o (t5 came to him = t purpose2 he _h 8 own /at$ times = approa*+ ,god 9 secret2 9 :i* x 0 f> f suffic+1 b>ely to pres5t himself1 & wait1 :e!r 9 sil5ce1 or 9 disc\rse be=e ! ,"l4 ,he acc\nt$ ! "w /ill to d1 unless he felt 8 _s affect$ ) s5tim5ts suitable to 8 condition2 :e!r ( holy m\rn+1 self repreh5sion1 recov]y1 or increase ( peace & joy 9 ! ,holy ,gho/1 or "s e/abli%m5t 9 fai?1 meekness1 pati5ce1 hope1 or love4 ,pray+ ) all pray]1 seem$ ! bus9ess ( 8 life2 = ! do+ ( :i*1 he wait$ nei!r = po/ures1 times1 or places4 ,an he>t s dispos$1 r5d]$ holy to him1 e ?+ ( ?is k9d1 :i* may be said ( places4 99,pro/rate ^u 8 face1 kneel+1 /&+1 walk+1 eat+2 9 e po/ure1 & 9 e place & condition1 he 0 a man mighty 9 pray]4 ,9 sleep itself1 to my c]ta9 k1 8 s\l w5t on 7,canticles v4 #b47 9 groans1 & sighs1 & te>s to ,god4 ,8 he>t hav+ atta9$ su* a habit ( t5d5cy to its ,"l1 c\ld !n only give ov]1 :5 x ceas$ to beat4 ,! enjoym5ts ( ! div9e sweetness1 :i* ,god imp>t$ to him 9 secret1 & ! ne>ness ( access to ! div9e ,maje/y1 ) :i* he 0 fav\r$1 7 inde$ amaz+4 ,he has be5 sometimes1 z x 71 lo/ 9 glori\s abs5ce1 on 8 knees1 ) 8 face heav5w>d1 & arms clasp$ r\nd 8 brea/3 9 su* composure1 t sc>ce c\ld "o he> him s mu* z brea!4 ,8 s\l seem$ absorb$ 9 ,god1 & enjoy$ a calmness & transport1 :i* c "h1 be well en\gh reconcil$4 ,f ! s]5ity1 & some?+ resembl+ spl5dor1 :i* appe>$ on 8 c\nt5ance1 & 9 all 8 ge/ures aft]w>ds1 "o might easily discov]1 :at he _h be5 ab\t4 99,x 0 especially t[>ds ! conclusion ( 8 ,"l's "w1 t he 0 fav\r$ ) su* ne> fell[%ip ) him4 ,he approa*$ ! ?rone ( grace ) mu* ( ! rev]5tial boldness ( fai?1 believ+1 t :atev] he ask$1 he %\ld h ! petitions he ask$ =2 ! holy ,_s mak+ int]cession 9 8 he>t1 accord+ to ! w ( ,god4 ,& to su* a degree ( confid5ce 9 him1 did he arrive by ?is means1 t 9 ! greate/ /raits ( 8 life 7& he met ) "s ?+s :i* came home to him1 ) ! deepe/ s5sibility7 he 0 m ?an kept up2 s t he seem$ to fe> no?+1 ev5 :]e1 to all human appreh5sion1 e ?+ 0 to be fe>$4 ,he s ab&on$ himself to ,god1 9 ! dis*>ge ( 8 duty1 t 8 v fri5ds 7 sometimes ready to *>ge him ) be+ a little ra% or imprud5t4 ,al?o' he endeav\r$ to use 8 und]/&+ z f> z ev] x w\ld g2 yet act+ 9 view ( ^? ?+s :i* are n se51 & f motives ref]r+ to et]nity1 he 0 n1 x is true1 s att5tive to ! decorums among m51 z m]e human prud5ce w\ld h dictat$4 ,& 9 reality x is a tru?1 :i* is le>n$ f a s]ies ( exp]i5ce1 & confirm$ by numb]less examples1 t :oev] w\ld d mu* = ,god1 %\ld take c>e ( be+ 79 a s5se7 too wise4 ,!re is reason to ?9k1 t if ! apo/les !mselves _h consult$ ! directions ( b>e human reason1 !y nev] _h und]took ! conv]sion ( ! _w4 ,an habitual _s ( mortification s]v$ z w+s to 8 pray]4 ,& p]haps ! want ( ?is1 is1 mu* m ?an is commonly ?\ght1 a gr& cause ( t indispos$ness to1 & we>9ess 9 pray]1 :i* is s g5]ally compla9$ ( among ,*ri/ians2 _m ( :om are (t5 ev5 glad ( a pret5d$ occasion to avoid ! duty4 8,some?+ is amiss 9 u1 & x want$ a "n1 till ! ,_s ( ,god1 by enjo9+ u ! duty ( mortification1 ha? taught u to "k1 t want ( mortification ( _s1 is ! case ( all1 at lea/ ( _m ( our secret & spiritual indispositions4 ,! excell5cies ( heav5 _c be disc]n$ b by a _s disreli%+ ! l[ appetites ( ! _w4 ,unless our _s be mortifi$1 we nei!r love to pray1 nor does ,god love to he> u40 ,we f9d all ! way ?ro' our heav5ly j\rney1 t to be c>nally m9d$1 9 ! lea/ degree1 is a proportionable degree ( dea?4 ,& t a m9d truly spiritual alone1 has true life & peace4 ,x is h>d to say positively :i* he 0 mo/ rem>kable =1 ! _s or ! gift ( pray]1 ?o' x ne$ n be told :i* he mo/ e/eem$4 ,8 public "*1 made x "r & necess>y = him1 to desire & endeav\r aft] spiritual gifts4 ,& ! em95cy to :i* he arriv$ !re9 9 g5]al1 is too well kn[n to ne$ a p>ticul> relation4 ,to he> him1 on "s occasions p\r out 8 s\l to ,god1 made "o (t5 ?9k1 :5ce ha? a man ^! ?+s8 ,su* a sluice ( div9e oratory ran ?ro' ! :ole ( 8 language on religi\s subjects1 z is r>ely to be met )4 ,8 public addresses to ,god1 7 commonly well nigh altoge!r1 9 ! words ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 99,x seem$ z ?o' he turn$ ! :ole bible into words ( adoration1 confession1 petition1 supplication1 ?anksgiv+ & glory3 :ile at ! same "t 8 expressions gl[$ ) ! love ( ,god3 & all ?is ) su* ard\r1 int5tion1 p]t95cy & fai?1 t x has seem$ sometimes 7"o "t 9 p>ticul> 0 peculi>ly notic$7 z ?o' ! heav5s 7 bur/ op51 & ,god himself appe>$ 9 ! congregation4 ,some?+ ( t ,acts iv4 #ca4 0 (t5 conceiv$ :ile he pray$4 ,b he made no acc\nt ( ?is ) reg>d to ! p]fection ( 8 own s\l4 ,he made x 8 *ief aim to foll[ aft] love1 & to live 9 a mom5t>y _s ( wat*ful pray]4 99,he has sometimes _h v rem>kable answ]s to pray]4 ,"o only ,i %all m5tion4 ,a numb] ( religi\s societies bo? 9 ,engl& & ,irel& appo9t$ a public fa/1 = ! implor+ ,god1 to re/ore to heal? an em95t s]vant ( ! *ur*1 :o _h be5 "s "t "u langui%m5t ( body4 ,mr4 ,wal% 0 !n 9 ,dubl91 & p\r+ out 8 s\l ab\t noon1 he spoke al\d1 9 a mann] :i* %ew$ x n to be ( himself1 & said he %all n die1 b live1 & decl>e ! works ( ! ,"l4 ,&1 bless$ be ,god1 ! ev5t %ew$ ! pr$iction to be ( ,god4 ,t[>ds ! latt] "p ( 8 progress1 & be=e 8 la/ sickness 9 p>ticul>1 8 pray] _h less ( lab\r 9 x ?an =m]ly2 & consi/$ = ! mo/ "p1 ( a passive receiv+ ! impressions ( ! div9e ,_s3 ,god act+ r 9 him1 ?an he act$ himself4 ,& s /ill1 & recollect$ did he frequ5tly appe> h]e91 t x 0 z if ,god 0 visibly be=e him1 & t he spoke to ! div9e ,maje/y1 ) ne>ness ( access1 & *ild-l famili>ity4 ,inde$ e object & occurr5ce1 spoke to him ( ,god3 nor c\ld !re be want+ to him1 at any "t or place1 inc5tives to raise 8 he>t 9 pray] or praise to him :om 8 s\l lov$4 ,"o p>ticul> :i* he le>n$ 9 ! c\rse ( 8 exp]i5ce1 01 t al?o' ! lights :i* are receiv$ f ,god 9 ! way ( pray]1 are1 ( all o!rs1 to be mo/ fai?fully att5d$ to2 yet nev]!less1 "o ought n to act ^u e appe>ance ( ?is k9d2 t ! enemy ( man's salvation c1 & (t5 does1 mimick ! ,_s ( ,god2 & z an angel ( light1 imposes ^u ! s]vants ( ,god1 by repres5t+ z f him1 t :i* is (t5 no o!r ?an ,satan's illusions1 or our own imag9ation3 on acc\nt ( :i*1 "s p]sons h 9 mo/ ages1 be5 l$ into griev\s mi/akes1 & improprieties ( conduct4 ,he p]ceiv$ dang] ) reg>d to himself f ?is qu>t]1 & 0 !re=e v sp>+ 9 m5tion+ mu* ( :at he (t5 felt4 ,he weigh$ e ?+ by ! ^w ( ,god1 avoid$ precipitancy ( conduct1 & mak+ ha/e2 & at ! same "t1 lab\r$ cont9ually to ab&on himself1 z x 7 bl9dfold to ! tea*+ ( ! ,_s ( tru?1 & ( purity4 ,,ii4 ,r$eem+ ! "t4 ,9 ord] to d ?is effectually1 8 mann] 0 to draw up a plan 9 writ+ 7till use made x famili> to him7 ( ! mann]1 9 :i* he judg$ x mo/ pr(itable to sp5d ! day4 ,he di/ribut$ x into c]ta9 portions1 & assign$ to ea* its p>ticul> employm5t3 all[+ only = occasional int]ruptions 9 ! bus9ess ( 8 pr(ession4 ,read+ ! scriptures1 pray]1 & visit+ ! sick1 _h ! gr& places 9 ?is division4 ,he c\ld nev] f9d any leisure = m]e1 c]emoni\s visits1 or unnecess>y conv]sation ( any k9d4 ,ev5 at meals1 & inde$ 9 e little incid5tal matt] he ceas$ n to pursue 8 ma9 end ( liv+3 namely1 to get1 & to d good 9 8 g5]ation4 99,x 0 really surpriz+1 to see 8 ?rift9ess 9 ?is p>ticul>4 ,he ev5 depriv$ himself ( su* indulg5ces z nature requir$1 9 ord] to h] p]=m+ ! (fices he impos$ ^u h]3 su*1 = example1 z ab/a9+ f all /udy imm$iately aft] meals3 :51 not)/&+ he eat exce$+ sp>+ly1 m relaxation w\ld h be5 bett] = 8 heal?3 likewise1 a suffici5t quantity ( prop] ex]cise2 b mo/ ( all1 a suffici5cy ( sleep4 ,he 0 (t5 up late at /udy1 & 8 g5]al "t ( ris+ 0 f\r o'clock1 or a little aft]1 sometimes betwe5 ?ree & f\r4 ,he 0 (t5 urg$ to take m re/4 ,i rememb] once to h he>d a g5tlewoman1 compassionat+ ! wa/+1 dy+ condition ( 8 body1 say+1 8,sure ,mr4 ,wal%1 y may at lea/1 lie long] 9 b$ on ,sunday morn+1 :5 ! prea*+ is n s e>ly40 ,to :i* he repli$ ) 8 usual zeal & abrupt pla9ness1 #8,%\ld a man rob ,god8' ,he 0 commonly up e>lie/ on ! ,"l's-day1 = :i* he _h ! highe/ v5]ation4 ,he has sometimes said1 he ?\ght !re 0 some?+ peculi>ly sacr$ 9 ! v air1 & ! :ole /ructure ( nature on ?is day4 99,dur+ ! long intimacy ,i _h ) him1 ,i d n rememb] to h kn[n him sp5d a m9ute 9 disc\rses ab\t national occurr5ces1 politics1 or worldly div]sions4 ,he knew t ^! 7 n 8 affairs1 & t 8 bus9ess 0 ,"o4 ,& ! same may be said ( :at is call$ free & pleasant conv]sation4 ,s provid5t 0 he ( "t1 & s b5t ^u ! pursuit ( t 8imm5se rev5ue :i* ea* mom5t pays10 t 9 :atsoev] company he 01 unless some?+ relative to ! "o ?+ ne$ful 0 disc\rs$ (1 he ei!r took out a book 7impolite z x may seem7 or cont9u$ 9 pr(\nd sil5ce1 save :5 he answ]$ a "q4 ,& if at any "t any ?+ va91 or t5d+ to levity 0 spok51 s z to occasion ! lea/ appe>ance ( approbation 9 8 looks or ge/ure1 he sev]ely repreh5d$ himself = x aft]w>ds1 & pray$ = /r5g? = ! "t to come4 ,& yet not)/&+ all 8 caution1 c>e1 & dilig5ce1 he frequ5tly lam5t$ 8 n improv+ ! "t bett]1 #8,i d n use e mom5t to ! be/ purposes1' 0 a frequ5t reflection ) him aga9/ himself4 ,,iii4 ,dis5gagem5t f ! _w4 ,al?\gh :at has be5 said ( him already1 implies 8 j contempt ( e e>?ly ?+2 yet 8 em95cy !re91 des]ves to be tak5 "s f>!r notice (4 ,8 indiff]5cy to ?is _w 0 su*1 z ev5 bord]$ ^u abhorr5cy2 & ! r1 z he c\ld n b obs]ve1 :at a gulph to s\ls x is2 & h[ _m are lo/ = ev] ?r\gh _! undue atta*m5t to x4 ,he kept at ! utmo/ di/ance f :at worldly m5 mo/ ard5tly c\rt1 & e>ne/ly s\ght :at !y mo/ abhor4 ,! va9 ?+s2 ri*es1 hon\rs1 & pleasures ( ?is _w1 7 too poor1 = s g5]\s a he>t3 he %ew$ ! greatness ( 8 s\l1 by despis+ all t 0 b5ea? x4 ,he _h ! mo/ g5]\s contempt ( money2 e/eem+ x 7unless to be/[ on ! poor1 or procure a book sometimes7 z ! pebbles 9 ! /reet4 ,he _h a full reliance on ! provid5ce ( ,god1 & f\nd a happ9ess !re91 :i* inf9itely surpass$ all ! enjoym5ts & treasures ( ! univ]se4 ,,iv4 ,recollection ( _s1 & gov]nm5t ( 8 ?\ghts4 99,8 c>riage1 aspect1 words1 & ! :ole ( 8 behavi\r1 spoke ! solemnity & pr(\nd recollection ( 8 s\l4 ,nor c a /rang] bett] conceive ( him1 9 reg>d to ?is p>ticul>1 ?an by =m+ to himself1 an idea ( a p]son return$ f ! happy dead1 conv]s+ ) m54 ,& x 0 ne>ly 9 ?is mann] t "s h express$ _! surprize at him4 ,a g5tleman said to me "o day1 8,i met ,mr4 ,wal% 9 ! /reet1 & ,i decl>e he seem$ to me l a p]son return$ f ! o!r _w40 ,s emaciat$ a c\nt5ance1 su* fix$ness ( ?\ght1 & s]5ity ( deportm5t1 z appe>$ 9 him1 t[>ds ! conclusion ( 8 race especially1 7 surpris+ 9 s "y a man2 & discov]$ a some?+1 v diff]5t f ! busy ways ( m54 ,"o ne$$ only to look on him to p]ceive t !re 0 some?+ 9 him m ?an common4 ,& if z ! son ( ,sira* says1 8,a man may be kn[n by 8 look1 & "o t has und]/&+ may be p]ceiv$ by ! m>k+ ( 8 c\nt5ance10 !y mu/ be inde$1 sup]ficial obs]v]s1 t c\ld n disc]n 9 8 v aspect ! excell5cies t dwelt )9 him4 ,an air ( wisdom & piety appe>$ 9 him cont9ually4 ,!re seem$ to be some?+ peculi>ly di/+ui%+ 9 ! v features ( 8 c\nt5ance4 ,"s h tak5 him to be little less ?an =ty ye>s ( age1 at ! "t he 0 b ab\t five & tw5ty4 99,8 uni=m composure 0 ! r to be notic$1 z 8 life 0 n ( ! recluse1 b ( ! popul> k9d4 ,he _h to d ) multitudes2 &1 unless on special occasions1 0 seldom above six h\rs toge!r out ( company4 ,x is true he seldom appe>$ 9 publick1 unless to speak ( ! ?+s ( et]nity1 9 "s respect or o!r4 ,b he 0 s %ut 9 ) ,god1 t all places became alike to him2 & he reta9$ ! same att5tion to ,god 9 ! mo/ ?rong$ /reets ( ,london1 z he c\ld h _h 9 ! mo/ seque/]$ wild]ness4 ,curi\s sights1 elegant furniture 9 %ops or h\ses1 magnific5t build+s1 f9e %ews1 ! r++ ( bells1 fir+ ( guns1 ) e ?+ ( ?is k9d2 7 no m to him ?an ! *irp+ ( a sp>r[1 or ! buzz+ ( a fly4 99,to all :i*1 ! con/ant gov]nm5t :i* he _h ov] 8 s5ses1 greatly contribut$4 ,! diff]5ce ( ta/es1 h>mony ( s\nds1 & :atev] 8 eyes c\ld behold1 7 z no?+ to him4 ,he 0 9 ?is respect truly crucifi$ to ! _w1 & ! _w to him4 ,ev5 9 travell+ ?r\gh ! mo/ pleasant p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 & 9 ! pleasante/ seasons1 :5 ! /up5d\s beauties ( ! creation1 ! spaci\s firmam5t1 ! v]dure ( ! c\ntry1 7nature's lovelie/ univ]sal robe27 ! music ( ! groves1 & all ! jo9t beauties ( nature1 might h furni%$ him ) delightful contemplation2 yet he seem$ ins5sible to ! :ole1 enjoy+ a 8,p>adise )9 him happi] f>60 99,:5 he at any "t adv]t$ to ! works ( ,god 9 ! creation1 he 0 delight$ *iefly ) ! heav5s1 pav$ z x 71 ) ^? liv+ fires1 ! spangl$ />s4 ,b ! use :i* he made ( e ?+1 0 to get m acqua9t$ ) ,god1 & s by ?is /up5d\s scaffold+ ,creation's gold5 /eps to climb to him6 ,he 0 9 tru? loos$ f e>?'s inclosure1 & f ! contract$ circle ( ! sun1 8 he>t 0 set at l>ge4 ,*ri/1 & ! scriptures1 ) ?+s p]ta9+ to !m1 7 ! only & uni=m objects ( 8 att5tion1 & e ?+1 place or p]son1 :i* did n s]ve to promote1 9 "s degree1 8 k & love ( ^!1 _h ) him ! e/imate ( trivial & insignificant4 99,& h5ce x 01 t ! pres5ce ( ,god became s exce$+ famili> to him4 ,he c\ld n be cont5t a mom5t )\t x4 ,& h]eby 0 he fitt$ likewise1 = m glori\s1 & m frequ5t div9e communications2 ( :i* he _h n a few1 9 ! c\rse ( 8 progress4 ,sev]al times has he be5 q lo/ to himself1 & ins5sible ( e ?+ ab\t him1 be+ left 9 ! visions ( ,god4 ,two in/ances 9 p>ticul> are relat$ 9 8 di>y1 9 :i* he seem$ z ?\gh he 0 out ( ! body = sometime4 ,"o day ,i rememb] go+ to visit a p]son :o 0 ill1 z soon he got to ! /air case1 be+ 9 8 usual composure1 8,did y see t light80 said he1 ) a sudd5 l[ voice4 ,to :i* ,i answ]$ p>tly ) a sigh1 hav+ se5 no?+4 ,he said no m4 ,b x 0 easy to disc]n 9 him ! re/ ( t day & night1 a v peculi> solemnity ( s\l4 ,9 places ( publick wor%ip1 he h>dly ev] saw any body1 s z to di/+ui% !m2 & 9 e means ( grace1 8 gr& aim 01 to f9d m ( ,god )9 him4 ,he wait$ = ?is 9 lively e>ne/ composure2 & ?us approa*+ ! ,"l's table 9 p>ticul>1 he ate ! fle% & drank ! blood ( ! ,son ( ,god inde$4 8,my he>t burn$6 ,0 9 a flame6 ,o :at a fire ( div9e love 0 !re60 7 ! frequ5t memorials :i* he left 9 8 di>y1 aft] communicat+ ^? heav5ly sweets1 :i* (t5 ov]fl[$ 8 s\l at ! alt>1 & spread _! inundation ov] e o!r "p ( 8 holy liv+4 ,8 recollection c>ri$ itself into ! mid/ ( all 8 lab\rs1 9 :i* he 0 /ill pres]v$1 )\t dissipation1 not)/&+ _! multiplicity1 & sometimes intricate nature4 ,x 0 v usual ) him to express :at he felt ( ,god1 by ! simile ( fire1 to :i* ! op]ations ( ! ,holy ,gho/ are frequ5tly comp>$ 9 scripture4 ,he (t5 felt 9 pray]1 9 prea*+1 & walk+1 a k9d ( scor*+ )9 him1 f ! love ( ,god4 ,& f ! abundance ( ! he>t1 8 m\? g5]ally spoke4 ,words ( life1 & fire issu$ z x 7 out ( 8 lips1 :i* 7 no o!r ?an ! sp>ks ( a burn+ he>t4 ,& (t5 he c\ld h>dly refra9 f express+ ! holy raptures ( 8 s\l out al\d2 z1 ,o holy ,god6 ,glori\s ,jehovah6 ,bless$ ,jesus6 ,son ( ! liv+ ,god6 ,he us$ frequ5tly to /& up & s+1 ,o love1 h[ *e>+ is ?y ray6 ,all pa9 be=e ?y pres5ce flies6 ,c>e1 angui%1 sorr[ melt away1 ,:]e'er ?y heal+ beams arise2 ,o ,jesu1 no?+ may ,i see1 ,no?+ he>1 feel1 or ?9k b !e6 ,give to my eyes refre%+ te>s1 ,give to my he>t *ase hall['d fires1 ,give to my s\l ) filial fe>s1 ,! love t all heav5's ho/ inspires3 ,t all my p[]s ) all _! might ,9 ?y sole glory may unite6 ,!re 0 at fir/ an eag]ness 9 8 _s = ! success ( 8 lab\rs1 b he 9 "t became unanxi\s on ! head1 be+ taught ( ,god1 t hav+ done 8 "p1 he %\ld ?9k no m ab\t ! matt]1 b /ill g on /raight =w>d1 keep+ himself 9 repose ) ,god3 9 imitation ( ! angels1 :o cont9ually wat* ov] ! s\ls1 :i* ,god ha? giv5 !m 9 *>ge2 b :o lose no?+ ( _! tranquility or happ9ess1 ev5 :5 _! utmo/ c>e is unsuccessful4 ,& f h5ce p>tly1 arose t extreme t5d]ness ( consci5ce1 :i* 0 s rem>kable 9 him1 & :i* gave him a con/ant holy jeal\sy ov] himself 9 e ?+ he did2 s t n a ^w1 motion1 or a look1 c\ld escape him1 unexam9$ or unc5sur$1 if x des]v$ x2 h5ce likewise x 01 t he _h s v peculi> a reg>d to all 8 words2 speak+ ei!r to ! purpose1 t is1 :5 occasion requir$ him to speak1 or n at all4 ,& yet not)/&+ 8 utmo/ circumspection1 he 0 deeply consci\s1 h[ f> %ort he /ill came ( t rectitude1 & entire r5ovation becom+ a p]son 9 fell[%ip ) ! ,god ( unspott$ hol9ess4 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 8,v40 replac$ ) 8,,xii40 ,"s p>ticul>s relat+ to ! head ( 8 communion ) ,god4 ,v4 ,,8 great rule 0 to imitate our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 9 ! mo/ p]fect mann] he c\ld4 ,! :ole t5or ( 8 conduct pla9ly discov]$1 t he s\ght no?+ b ,god4 ,!re 0 9 ! *a/ity ( 8 mann]s1 a purity next to angelical2 & a circumspection 9 8 e /ep1 :i* decl>$1 t to him to live 0 ,*ri/4 ,he kept at ! utmo/ di/ance f s5sual indulg5ces ( e k9d4 ,8 s5ses 7 kept "u ! close/ cu/ody1 & he exam9$ 8 consci5ce almo/ cont9ually4 ,nor c\ld x be obs]v$ at any "t1 t he act$ o!rwise ?an )9 ! rules ( ! utmo/ dec5cy4 ,,vi4 99,he 0 a man ( te>s1 & sighs1 & groans4 ,he want$ n inde$ ! joy ( a good consci5ce2 & kn[+ cont9ually 9 :om he believ$1 he enjoy$ ! b5efits result+ !refrom1 & yet ?is not)/&+1 ! :ole ( 8 ,*ri/ian pilgrimage1 0 int]sp]s$ ) mu* weep+4 ,he seldom _h a dry h&k]*ief a :ole day toge!r2 8 eyes be+ = ! mo/ "p1 9 private especially1 z op5$ f\nta9s2 & :i* did n cease to fl[ 9 ! night season4 ,h[ (t5 h ,i kn[n him wat] 8 pill[ ) ^? br9y riv]s6 ,sometimes lam5t+ 8 two great e/rangem5t f 8 belov$2 sometimes m\rn+ = ! m\rn]s2 b (t5] ?an all1 he 0 sick ( love6 ,love to ! ,crucifi$6 ,to "s inde$1 !re seem$ 9 him some?+1 at lea/ bord]+ ^u1 an unyield+ au/]ity ( _s3 & s mu* is true1 t ) reg>d to m51 & evil angels1 he 0 undaunt$1 & c\rage\s1 z a lion1 9 ! cause ( ,god1 & ( a good consci5ce3 yet1 9 o!r respects1 he 0 a man ( ! ke5e/ s5sibility1 & t5d]e/ affections4 ,he 0 9 ! pres5ce ( 8 invisible obs]v]1 pliant z melt$ wax1 & cloa!d ) dove-l meekness4 ,he 0 (t51 z x 71 delug$ 9 te>s1 pro/rate be=e ! foot/ool ( 8 ,"l's maje/y1 & ov]:elm$ ) a s5se ( 8 glory4 ,,vii4 ,he 0 )\t affectation1 a man ( humility2 n inde$ s z to dis[n1 or n to make use ( ! gifts & graces1 ) :i* ,god _h end[$ him3 ?is w\ld h be5 to lie aga9/ ! tru?2 b not)/&+ all t he _h1 yet tak+ k :5ce x came1 he e/eem$ himself z no?+2 b 0 truly diffid5t (1 & he>tily despis$ himself4 ,& ! only use :i* he made ( ! sup]ior qualifications :i* ,god be/[$ ^u him1 0 to consid] himself z oblig$ !reby1 to devote himself m abundantly to ! s]vice ( ,god1 & ( 8 neighb\r4 ,! praises ( o!rs s]v$ only to abase him1 at ! sight ( 8 own no?+ness4 #8,"l1 ,i am vile6 a worm6 ,o deliv] me f ?is evil man myself6 ,?\ only art wor?y1' 7 ! frequ5t expressions ( 8 lips & p54 ,if any p]son1 at any "t1 gave him b ! smalle/ h9t1 by way ( repro(1 he receiv$ x ei!r ) sil5ce1 or ?ankfulness1 accord+ to ! mann] & occasion !re(4 ,& suppos+ x to be a matt] 9 :i* he 0 really )\t blame1 yet ! repro( 0 n lo/ ^u him4 ,he !reby took occasion1 to ent] m deeply into himself1 mak+ ! /ricte/ scrut9y into ! :ole ( 8 temp]s & behavi\r4 ,he (t5 said to ,god on ^! occasions1 #8,"l1 ?\gh ?\ kn[e/ ,i am cle> 9 ?is matt]1 yet1 alas6 ,h[ _m ?+s are !re = :i* ,i /& reprov$ be=e !e6 ,my ,god1 ,i adore !e 9 ?is1 :i* ?\ ha/ p]mitt$4' ,he (t5 repeat$ z a lesson ( in/ruction to himself1 ^? words ( ,kempis1 8,?\ du/1 le>n to obey4 ,?\ e>? & clay1 le>n to demean ?yself4 ,?\ oughte/ to be su* a little *ild1 t e body might trample !e "u _! feet 9 ! /reets40 ,,viii4 ,!re 0 ! utmo/ /ead9ess 9 ! :ole ( 8 religi\s conduct4 ,! c\rse ( ! sun1 & ! seasons1 is n m regul>1 ?an 7 8 successive ex]cises ( pray]1 m$itation1 prea*+1 & /udy2 s t f kn[+ h[ he sp5t "o day1 may be ga!r$1 8 mann] ( sp5d+ :ole mon?s1 or ye>s2 all[+ only = ! diff]5ce ( circum/ances & occasions4 ,?us x 0 9 ?+s p]ta9+ to ,god1 & 8 s]vice2 ?\gh at ! same "t1 8 att5tion to himself1 8 ease & conv5i5cies1 0 su*1 t "s h acc\nt$ x n less ?an blame-wor?y neglig5ce3 s truly did he live1 n to himself1 or ! w ( man1 b to ,god4 ,,ix4 ,! love ( ,god 0 ! f\nta91 :5ce issu$ =? ^? fruitful /reams1 :i* r5d]$ 8 s\l fl\ri%+ z ! g>d5 ( ! ,"l1 & ext5d$ _! salut>y influ5ce all ar\nd1 :]ev] he came4 ,x 0 to ?is he r$uc$ e ?+4 ,all 8 works 7 done 9 love1 & !re=e wr\ght 9 ,god4 ,x 0 a debt he 0 ev] pay+1 & f :i* he 0 nev] to be dis*>g$4 #8,my ,god1 let me love !e6 ,jesus1 ,son ( ! liv+ ,god1 ?\ kn[e/ t ,i love !e6 ,o love div9e1 :at ha/ ?\ done6 ,o t all ! _w did b "k !e6 ,h[ w\ld !y !n love !e1 ?\ altoge!r lovely6' ,to ?is effect he (t5 brea!d out ! w>m emotions ( 8 he>t3 s deeply 0 he p5etrat$ ) ! love ( ,god 8 ,savi\r4 ,he 0 always exce$+ly pleas$ )1 & frequ5tly repeat$ ^? l9es1 8,et]nity too %ort to speak ?y praise6 ,or fa?om ?y pr(\nd ( love to man60 ,& aga91 )\t reg>d+ _! connexion2 b ov]:elm$ ) ! ?\ght ( ! dy+ love ( ,jesus1 he w\ld utt] sometimes abruptly1 & ) a/oni%m5t1 8,s5sations new 9 angel bosoms rise ,susp5d _! song2 & make a pause 9 bliss40 99,la/ly1 ,by fai? ,i /&6 0 8 conclud+ po9t1 aft] all t ,god _h done = him4 ,& x 0 n unusual ) him to say1 on ! close/ exam9ation ( all he 01 & all he did1 8,if ,*ri/ =sook me b = a mom5t1 ,i %\ld fall & p]i% aft] all40 ,yes1 x 0 f 8 fullness he receiv$ all 8 good ?+s1 & ) ! dep5d5t helplessness ( an infant1 he _h rec\rse to him cont9ually1 = light1 & /r5g?1 & love3 = e ?+ 9 %ort1 :i* he want$4 ,he c\ld be happy only 9 conv]sation ) him2 delight$ peculi>ly 9 ^? p>ts ( scripture :i* describe & ende> him2 & f ! fulness ( 8 :ole s\l1 repeat$ (t51 ,god =bid t ,i %\ld glory1 save 9 ! cross ( my ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,to him t ha? lov$ u1 & wa%$ u f our s9s 9 8 own blood1 to him be ! glory1 bo? n[ & to et]nity6 99,to sum up ?is head4 ,he ?\ght pray] to be m 8 bus9ess ?an any ?+ else 9 ?is _w2 & f ! desire :i* he _h to r$eem ! "t1 he employ$ great "p ( ! night1 z well z ! day1 9 pray]1 m$itation1 /udy1 & lab\r+ = ! good ( 8 neighb\r4 ,he 0 pr(\ndly s]i\s1 & always recollect$ at home & abroad4 ,he wat*$ ov] e motion ( 8 s\l1 keep+ 8 ?\ghts 9 subjection to ,*ri/ cont9ually4 ,he propos$ to himself ! man ,*ri/ ,jesus1 z 8 great model & rule 9 e ?+2 imitat+ him especially1 9 ! purity ( 8 body1 & 9 ! *a/ity ( 8 affections4 ,walk+ 9 deep humility be=e ,god1 he 0 pati5t ( repro(1 nor ev] retort$ any ?+1 ) heat or prejudice4 ,!re 0 a /ead9ess 9 8 proce$+s = ,god1 & 9 ref]5ce to et]nity1 :i* n all ! p[]s ( e>? & hell 7 able to int]rupt4 ,he ate b little1 wept mu*1 lov$ m1 receiv$ all by fai?2 & r>ely op5$ 8 m\?1 b ab\t heav5ly ?+s4 ,,"p ,,iii4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,an extract f ,mr4 ,?omas ,wal%'s di>y1 relat+ *iefly1 to ! exp]i5ce ( 8 own s\l1 9 8 c\rse ( walk+ ) ,god4 ,,conc]n+ ! extract :i* "h foll[s1 x may be premis$1 #a4 ,t al?\gh !re 0 ! utmo/ uni=mity 9 ! :ole s]ies ( 8 progress2 nev]!less1 few p]sons 7 s s5sible ( v>i\s alt]ations 9 _s1 ) respect to ! s5sations ( joy & sorr[2 delight 9 ,god1 & compla9+s = ! want ( x3 ow+ 9 great measure to a s+ul> t5d]ness ( consci5ce2 & ! close att5tion :i* he _h to all ! movem5ts ( 8 inw>d man2 s t ?+s :i* "s ov]look1 or entirely disreg>d1 7 e/eem$ by him1 ) reg>d to himself at lea/1 z capital defections1 f ! law ( p]fect lib]ty & love4 ,8 di>y consi/s ( ! feel+ ( 8 own he>t1 ?r\gh e "p ( 8 ,*ri/ian race1 ) sc>ce a s+le h\r omitt$4 ,he always wrote d[n reflections ^u himself1 z ei!r ! pressure1 or felicity ( 8 s\l at t "t sugge/$2 add+ any spiritual obs]vation1 or maxim1 :i* 8 own exp]i5ce confirm$ to him4 #b4 ,x w be easily disc]n$1 t ! peculi>ity ( 8 writ+1 is a c]ta9 s5t5ti\s abruptness2 ow+ 9 "p to ! g5ius ( ! ,hebrew tongue1 9 :i* 8 latt] /udies :olly t]m9at$4 ,?\gh :at mo/ contribut$ !reto1 0 ! rapid fl[ ( 8 s\l1 on ! subjects ( :i* he ei!r spoke or wrote1 :i* rais$ him above att5d+ to t accuracy1 :i* writ+s1 at lea/ ( a public nature require4 ,9 _m places !re is !re=e a manife/ defici5cy1 bo? z to words1 p>ticles & /ops2 9 %ort1 l ! writ+s ( ! anti5ts1 )\t p]iod or p>agraph1 9 mo/ places3 s t lib]ty has be5 necess>ily tak5 to add1 retr5*1 or alt]1 sometimes a ^w1 or s5t5ce1 to r5d] ! s5se intelligible2 ?\gh /ill reta9+ 8 s5se entire4 #c4 ,! ins]t+ ! precise date ( e day's exp]i5ce1 is judg$ unnecess>y4 ,moreov] ! exp]i5ce ( sev]al days1 sometimes di/ant f ea* o!r1 7?o' r>ely above a week7 are ?r[n into ! same p>agraph1 = ! sake ( brevity4 ,! s]ies ( p>ticul>s1 z to ! ord] ( "t1 is relat$ z !y occurr$2 & e p>agraph beg9s ) ! exp]i5ce ( a di/ant day4 ,! read] be+ adv]tis$ ( ^! p>ticul>s1 we proce$ to ! extract itself4 8,at ! close ( ?is la/ day ( ! ye>1 7#agej1 ! ye> 9 :i* he began to prea*7 ,i exam9$ myself h[ ,i _h liv$ ! pa/ ye>8 ,& c\ld only say1 ,i _h n wick$ly dep>t$ f my ,god2 b 0 he>tily a%am$ t ,i _h n glorifi$ him bett]2 resolv+ to wat* = ! "t to come40 998,i pray$ to ,god = quietness1 & humility ( m9d2 & f\nd assi/ance aga9/ #8?is evil man1 myself4' ,o = a he>t con/antly fix$ on ,god6 ,i 0 reprov$ ?is day 9 _s = an idle ^w40 8,! ,"l 0 ) me all ?is day4 ,i desire to be ) ! ,"l cont9ually1 t my communion may be /rong] ) ,jesus ?an ev]4 ,o1 x is heav5 ^u e>? to h ,*ri/ 9 ones he>t4 ,x is ! beg9n+ ( ! glory ( ,god1 to receive ! lovely ,jesus2 & ) him1 ! joy ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,o t ,i _h ! tongue ( an angel to praise my ,"l6 ,ha/5 ,"l ! glad h\r :5 ,i %all see !e z ?\ art60 8,i prea*$ ?is morn+ on ! great & preci\s promises1 ,ezekiel xxxvi4 ,my s\l aspir$ to h !m accompli%$2 = ,i feel ! evil ( my nature1 & especially ! evil he>t ( unbelief t is )9 me40 8,friday1 ,febru>y #bb4 ,i prea*$ ?is morn+ on ,song ( ,solomon ii4 #h4 b 0 bo? d>k & weak1 hav+ sc>cely any p[] to expla9 any ?+4 ,o :at a grief x is = "o to prea*1 :5 he is left to himself1 :5 ! ,"l is n 8 pres5t /r5g? & tea*]6 ,to prea* consolation to o!rs1 & feel none himself6 ,?is exposes "o to great temptation40 8,saturday #bc4 ,my s\l enjoy$ sweet repose 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb1 :ile my he>t 0 engag$ 9 m$itation on 8 dy+ love4 ,o1 :]e c we f9d an in/ance ( su* love1 z t ( ,god to m5 on ,calv>y6 ,:5 ! innoc5t di$ = a guilty _w1 to br+ !m to ,god60 8,w$nesday #bg4 ,i 0 n alive to ,god to-day4 ,unnecess>y talk br\ght deadness ^u my s\l40 8,great "p ( ?is day ,i liv$ z 9 heav54 ,heav5 0 )9 me4 ,god 0 9 my s\l4 ,! influ5ces ( 8 ,_s wr\ght s p[]fully ^u me1 t my joy 0 beyond expression4 ,o ! l5g? & bread?1 & height1 ( ! love ( ,god6 ,well may x be said to pass k4 ,! spiritual man may disc]n x1 b _c set x =? 9 ! mann] he feels x4 ,^? words ( ,isaiah lxi4 #aj4 lift$ up my s\l1 z 9 a fi]y *>iot1 above ! fabric ( ?is _w4 ,i w greatly rejoice 9 ! ,"l1 my s\l %all be joyful 9 my ,god1 = he ha? cloa!d me ) ! g>m5ts ( salvation1 he ha? cov]$ me ) ! robe ( righte\sness1 z a bridegroom decke? himself ) o9tm5ts1 & z a bride adorne? h]self ) h] jewels4 ,i c\ld say1 t ! ,"l _h s done = my s\l4 ,o :at enemies are ! *ildr5 ( m5 to _! own s\ls8 ,!y deprive !mselves ( happ9ess "h1 & ( et]nal glory h]eaft]2 imag9+ t e>?ly enjoym5ts are above :at religion c af=d4 ,b alas6 x is because !y "k n ?is religion :i* br+s su* happ9ess to ! s\l40 998,o h[ sweet 0 ,jesus to my s\l4 ,! rose = sweetness2 ! lilly = :it5ess2 ! apple-tree = fruitfulness2 :at are !y all to !e6 ,ent]+ into my closet1 ! mom5t ,i b[$ my knee1 ! ,"l p\r$ d[n a bless+ into my s\l4 ,o :at a heav5 ^u e>? did ,i exp]i5ce = "s mom5ts6 ,tongue _c express ! goodness ( ,god to my s\l4 ,o :]e %all ,i f9d words to praise8 ,h[ am ,i lo/ 9 ! ocean1 ( ! imm5sity ( ?y m]cy6 ,"l1 ,i "k n h[ to give !e ?anks4 ,:]e to beg91 ,i _c tell4 ,o my s\l1 fall into sil5t amazem5t6 ,let all ,i h1 or am1 drop into no?+60 8,m>*1 ,friday #h4 ,?is 0 a day ( mu* temptation2 b ,god1 = my support & confirmation1 0 pleas$ to give me fre% manife/ations ( 8 love40 8,read+ & pray] to day1 7 ( little com=t to me4 ,if x 7 n t ,i f9d ! abid+ witness ( ! ,_s 9 my s\l1 my bondage w\ld be v great4 ,x is ! goodness ( ,god :i* pres]ves me 9 ! fai?4 ,! enemies ( my salvation are ?ru/+ sore at me f day to day4 ,def5d1 & keep me1 ,o my ,god1 = ,jesu's sake40 8,9 pray]1 ,i saw ! great difficulty ( be+ a ,*ri/ian 9 reality4 ,!re are _m :o eat _! own bread1 & we> _! own app>el1 & are will+ to be call$ by ! "n ( ,jesus1 to take away _! reproa*,! abom9ation ( be+ call$ ,hea!ns4 ,b !y love not)/&+1 ! ways ( dea?1 & d>kness1 r ?an light2 & d :at ,hea!ns w\ld n d4 ,! n9ety-fir/ psalm 0 made a great bless+ to me1 ! n9? v]se especially40 8,?is morn+ ! ,"l gave me language t ,i knew n (1 rais+ my s\l to him1 9 a wond]ful mann]4 ,aft] prea*+ h[ev] 9 ! ev5+1 at my return to my room1 ,i felt little life 9 my s\l1 b a ,_s ( slo?fulness4 ,o :at a poor creature6 ,h[ incapable ( ?9k+ a good ?\ght1 or do+ a truly good action6 ,s9ful du/ & a%es40 ,friday #bb4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i _h an e>ne/ desire to be dissolv$1 & to be ) ,*ri/4 ,i want$ to see ,jesus1 :o bore & suff]$ s mu* = me40 8,! #be?1 my s\l 0 v dull4 ,i _h a desire to pray1 b c\ld n1 ?r\gh ! deadness ( my he>t1 & w&]+ ( my ?\ghts4 ,?is is a ?+ ,i h to compla9 ( 9 g5]al2 namely1 w&]+ 9 pray]1 want ( e>ne/ness & f]v\r40 8,! #bi?1 ,i _c say1 t till ?ree o'clock ,i _h true communion ) ,god4 ,b !n1 ! ,"l cle>ly manife/$ himself to me40 8#agea4 ,april #f4 ,i _h n mu* ( ! pres5ce ( ,god1 nor ( ! com=t ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 yet my he>t & my fle% cry out = ! liv+ ,god60 8,o :at an av]sion ,i _h ?is morn+ to /udy1 & foll[+ ! ,lamb6 ,if x 7 n = promises :i* ! gospel af=ds1 ,i %\ld be (t5 br\ght into bondage3 v (t5 is my s\l ca/ d[n & my _s disquiet$ )9 me2 s t ,i mu/ ne$s utt]ly fa9t1 if x 0 n t ,i firmly hope ,i %all yet praise ,god = ! heal? ( 8 c\nt5ance4 ,i felt nei!r com=t nor p[] 9 prea*+4 ,o :at a poor creature am ,i :5 left to myself6 ,h[ d>k ( conception2 h[ sl[ ( he>t & spee*6 ,x sometimes happ5s1 t :ile ,i am ?us writ+ d[n my condition1 ! ,"l appe>s to my help3 s x is n[2 = ,god has be5 pleas$ to manife/ himself unto me6 ,& ,o :at a welcome gue/6 ,at 8 com+ my re9s & my he>t rejoice2 my tr\bles are done away2 my s\l is greatly refre%$2 my fai? /r5g!n$2 my hope confirm$1 & my love encreas$4 ,glory be to ,god mo/ high60 8,god & 8 ways 7 sweet to my s\l ?is morn+4 ,great 0 ! peace ( my m9d1 & ! joy :i* arose f consid]+ :at ! ,"l _h done = my s\l4 ,o h[ did ,i long to be altoge!r l him1 9 righte\sness & true hol9ess6 ,?r\gh\t ! day1 ,i enjoy$ sweet repose 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i prea*$ on #a ,cor9?ians i4 #cj4 ,& ,god did inde$ p\r ( 8 graci\s _s into my s\l4 ,truly we _h a heav5 ^u e>?6 ,o t ,i _h ! tongue ( an angel to glorify !e = all ?y b5efits60 8,?ursday ,may #bc4 ,i 0 9 great tr\ble1 go+ to prea*+ ?is morn+4 ,my temptations 7 sore1 & my trials exce$+ great2 occasion$ p>tly1 by ! condition ( "s1 :o = a "t ran well1 b are turn$ aga9 to ! fle%-pots ( ,egypt4 ,:ile ,i prea*$ h[ev]1 on ,psalms xxiii4 #a4 my ,%eph]d gave me to fe$ ^u 8 hidd5 manna40 998,i f\nd x h>d "w to be :olly set ap>t = ,god ?is day4 ,i prea*$ com=t to o!rs1 b c\ld lay hold on little ( x myself40 8,i am (t5 l a day 9 spr+2 ! sun %9+ bright = a little :ile1 & soon )draw+ aga94 ,! sun ( righte\sness (t5 %9es ^u me1 ) 8 bright beams2 b alas6 ! light is soon cl\d$1 & ! joy vani%es away4 ,yet /ill1 bless$ be ,god1 my he>t /&s fa/ believ+ 9 ! ,"l4 ,= ,i take x = grant$1 t ! want ( /rong light & joy1 no m argues want ( fai?1 ?an ! abs5ce ( uncl\d$ day1 argues no sun 9 ! firmam5t40 8,an unusual fondness = company1 br\ght deadness ^u my s\l4 ,! vanities ( ! _w importunately intrud$ ^u me4 ,if ,god 7 n on my side1 ,i %\ld h be5 long ago z ,sodom1 & l unto ,gomorrah4 ,su* vanities cr\d$ 9 ^u me at pray]1 t ev5 ,i =got :at ,i 0 say+4 ,i am a man sorely di/ress$ ) ! w&]+ ( my he>t4 ,i arose f pray] & read1 & pray$ aga94 ,! ,"l at l5g? met me1 & in/antly releas$ me f my sorr[1 & gave me p[] to wait ^u him )\t di/raction40 8,saturday ,june #ab4 ,great 0 ! com=t :i* ,i _h 9 ,god4 ,i _h ! full assurance ( fai?1 t ,god 0 my ,god1 & ,*ri/ my ,savi\r4 ,o ! happ9ess ( kn[+ ?is60 8,tuesday #bh4 ,i 0 deeply conv9c$ ( my depravity4 ,o my ,god1 ,i see ! impurity ( my he>t 9 su* a mann] z fright5s me4 ,i "k t ,*ri/ c h no communion ) ,belial2 nei!r righte\sness ) unrighte\sness4 ,"l break n ! bruis$ re$1 nor qu5* ! smoak+ flax4 ,r s5d d[n ?y ,holy ,_s1 & set me free f ! p[] ( indwell+ s94 ,consume x ,o ,god4 ,ca/ out ! _s ( uncleanness = ,*ri/'s sake40 8,?is aft]noon ,i walk$ 9 ! fields1 & _h a sweet meet+ ) my ,"l4 ,he gave me 8 love40 8,sunday morn+4 ,i 0 s /upid1 t ,i c\ld sc>cely pray4 ,w&r+ ?\ghts cr\d$ 9 ^u me4 ,o = an he>t to pray4 ,i f9d 9 g5]al1 t "u ! mo/ afflictive trials1 :5 ,i c 9 f]v5t pray] p\r out my s\l be=e ! ,"l1 he gives me in/ant relief4 ,b :5 ,i _c pray1 ,o !n is my life bur!nsome to me2 ,i _c be> myself40 8,! ^w ?is morn+1 0 sweet to ! s\ls ( ! p4 ,!y seem$ to dr9k ( ! f\nta9 ( ! wat] ( life4 ,i _h a glori\s manife/ation ( ! love ( ,god to my s\l4 ,my delight surely is 9 ! ,"l1 & 8 ,son ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?\ art my ,god1 my love1 my joy1 my help1 my heal?1 & my all 9 all6 ,bless$ be ?y "n1 ,am540 8,too mu* giv5 to talk2 _h n ! usual long+ aft] pray] & m$itation4 ,yet ! ,"l helps m9e infirmity40 8,i _h great joy 9 my s\l1 & long+ desires to be ) ,*ri/4 ,o t ev5 n[1 ,i c\ld behold 8 lovely face1 & amiable c\nt5ance60 8,friday1 ,july #i?4 ,i _h a lively s5se ( ! ,"l's hav+ blott$ out my =m] transgressions2 & t he _h promis$ to give me a clean he>t4 ,i _h great peace2 my s\l be+ fill$ ) ! love ( ,god40 8,saturday #aj4 ,ex]cis$ ?is morn+ by false accusations4 ,my only conc]n 01 le/ x %\ld h9d] ! "w ( ,god4 ,b 9 consid]ation ( 8 ov]-rul+ p[] & provid5ce1 ,i re/$ pati5tly on 8 w4 ,my ,jesus 0 made p]fect ?r\gh suff]+s4 ,o t ,i may be enabl$ to foll[ my ma/]1 9 ! way ( ! cross60 ,walk+ 9 a g>d5 ?is day1 ,god made x an ,ed5 to my s\l2 p\r+ 8 love into my he>t4 ,i p>took ( ! wat] & ! tree ( life3 & ! hidd5 manna 0 ra9$ f heav5 into my s\l6 ,monday #ai4 ,all ! day1 my s\l ?ir/$ = ! liv+ ,god4 ,i 0 transport$1 & exce$+ly rejoic$ 9 read+ "s div9e m$itations4 ,o my ,god1 ,:at %all ,i say8 ,angels _c praise !e wor?ily6 ,:at !n %all ,i :o am a worm ( ! e>? d8 ,o t ,i _h w+s l a dove8 ,lovely ,jesus1 :5 %all ,i see ?y face1 jo9+ ! re/ ( ! r$eem$1 to celebrate ! wond]s ( ?y r$eem+ love6 ,o t ?is 7 ! mom5t6 ,my s\l %all ere long take its flight to ! mansions1 :i* ,i firmly believe my ,savi\r is prep>+ = me4 ,o my ,god1 my ,savi\r1 my all6 8,?ursday #be4 ,i _h b little light or p[]4 ,! ,"l humbl$1 & %ew$ me m9e own weakness2 b did n leave me to x4 ,he %ew$ me cle>ly1 t x 0 nei!r to my graces1 humbl+s1 desires1 do+s1 or suff]+s ,i mu/ tru/ = happ9ess & salvation1 b 9 ,*ri/ alone40 8,ah1 ,"l1 :o is suffici5t = ^! ?+s6 ,o let me die1 t ,i may see !e6 ,:i!r is my belov$ gone8 ,return ,"l1 return4 ,i am a feeble & helpless creature4 ,yet rejoice n aga9/ me1 ,o m9e enemy2 = ?\gh ,i fall into temptations1 heav9ess1 & trials1 ,i %all rise aga94 ,o pr\d ,phili/9es1 deceitful ,delilahs1 inbr$ s91 pride ( he>t1 ang]1 & folly1 :o c remove y4 ,"l ,jesus1 ?\ can/1 & ?\ alone40 8,at ! sacram5t1 ,o h[ did my s\l banquet 9 ,jesus6 ,:at div9e consolation did ,i feel 9 ,god my ,savi\r40 8,w$nesday #bc4 ,tempt$ to laugh on my v knees1 ,o ,"l my ,god be my rock4 ,hide me 9 ?y w\nds1 & deliv] me f myself4 ,o ,jesus ,i cry out ( ! deeps1 he> my pray]1 & let my cry come up be=e !e60 8,sure ,i am1 t if my salvation dep5d$ on ought b ! love ( ,god my ,savi\r1 ,i nev] %\ld see ! ,"l4 ,alas ,i am all weakness1 unbelief1 disob$i5ce1 & d>kness4 ,my s\l 0 weigh$ d[n ) inbr$ s94 ,b ,i no soon] began to compla91 & bewail myself be=e him1 ?an he p\r$ 8 love ^u me1 & gave me sweet access to him40 8#ageb4 ,janu>y #f4 ,i c\ld h>dly acc\nt to myself1 h[ my ?\ghts _h be5 employ$ ?is day4 ,o t !y 7 e mom5t tak5 up 9 ! contemplation ( ?y wondr\s love & compassion to me1 & all ! fall5 race2 ,o = an humble1 l[ly1 simple1 pure1 & p]fect m9d6 ,:at %all ,i say to !e1 ?\ delight ( my he>t8 ,h[ mu* fair] art ?\ ?an ! sons ( m560 998,:5 ,i look back ^u my life ,i c see no?+ t does n ne$ to be wa%$ ) ! blood ( ,*ri/4 ,my be/ actions are imp]fect ,i h ne$ to fly to my ,savi\r1 t f him ,i might receive t robe1 :i* is pure & compleat4 ,my :ole desire is to be devot$ to !e60 8,a%am$1 to lift my eyes up to heav54 ,i fell d[n be=e ! ,"l my mak]2 & ,i may well say t he wait$ to be graci\s2 = be=e ,i c\ld utt] _m words 8 love fill$ my he>t4 ,i c\ld !n look up ) confid5ce1 & saw my ,fa!r ,god1 smile ^u me1 & my de> ,r$eem] at 8 "r h& full ( grace & tru? = me4 ,o h[ sweetly did ! ev] bless$ ,tr9ity jo9 to bless me6 ,help me to praise !e1 ,o ?\ /r5g? ( ,israel40 8,god 0 mu* ) me 9 private4 ,o :at a heav5 ^u e>? is x1 to commune ) him 9 pray]1 holy read+1 & div9e m$itation4 ,jesus is a well ( life4 ,h[ bless$ is x to hold intimacy ) him6 ,?is is p>adise inde$40 8,sunday4 ,x 0 a glori\s sabba? to my s\l40 8,"p ( ?is day 0 ! happie/ ,i ev] yet saw4 ,i c\ld freely dep>t to be ) him :om my s\l love?4 ,truly ,i seem$ to ant$ate ! sweetness ( ! cele/ial felicity1 :i* ! glorifi$ spirits enjoy above6 ,my song 0 praises to my ,god40 8,_h calm repose 9 ,god4 ,a day ( sore temptation4 ,i 0 kept1 b ?ro' mom5t>y wat*+ unto pray]4 ,o :at am ,i6 ,h[ weak1 h[ bl9d1 h[ poor6 ,z to /r5g?1 a bruis$ re$2 = love & zeal1 z ! smoak+ flax4 ,b ?\1 ,o ,god1 art /rong1 & 9 !e is my hope40 8somak+0 replac$ ) 8smoak+0 8,ill 9 body1 d>k 9 m9d1 dead 9 affections1 & sorely tr\bl$ ) temptations4 ,yet ,i 0 pres]v$ f incl9+ to iniquity ) my he>t40 8,sunday4 ,my s\l agoniz$ to ent] into ! re/ ( ! p ( ,god4 ,i saw him by fai?1 & ! promises 7 /rongly br\ght to my remembrance1 especially1 #8,ask :at y w1 & x %all be done unto y4'0 8#agec4 ,m>* #g4 ,9 ! morn+ !re 0 an op5 int]c\rse betwe5 ,god & my s\l1 :i* = "s h\rs rema9$ undi/urb$4 ,ab\t noon ,i felt sore w> betwe5 nature & grace2 s t ,i 0 br\ght l[4 ,nature w\ld h me manage = myself1 grace 0 = ca/+ all my c>e ^u ,god4 ,o ?\ au?or ( e good gift1 s5d me help f ?y holy place to subdue ! old man4 ,take away ! p]v]s5ess ( my own natural w1 & make me l[ly & pati5t z ?\ my ,"l art4 ,?\ art ! s\rce ( grace & ( goodness4 ,9 !e1 ,o ,lamb ( ,god1 is all ,i want40 8,?ursday #h4 ,p\r$ out my s\l be=e ! ,"l1 :o gave me to feel he>ty contrition ) e>ne/ desires to be sanctifi$ :olly4 ,= 8,o h[ wav]+ is my m9d ,to/ ab\t ) e w9d8 ,o h[ quickly do? my he>t ,f ! liv+ ,god dep>t40 8,son ( ,god1 set me free1 & knit my s\l to ?yself60 8,saturday #aj4 ,! ,"l sweetly refre%$ my _s1 ,i 0 /rongly mov$ to p\r out my s\l1 = my enemies1 & all t =get ,god4 ,!re 0 a burn+ 9 my he>t aft] all ! life ( ,god4 ,no?+ appe>$ s desirable z hol9ess4 ,o ,god take ! :ole capacity ( my s\l1 & possess x by ?y _s40 8,sunday #be4 ,i h _h a pro( to day ( ! vanity & unc]ta9ty ( human fri5d%ip4 ,"s :o lov$ & greatly e/eem$ me :5 ,i left ,dubl91 ab\t t5 weeks ago1 w n[1 at my return1 h>dly speak to me4 ,o t ,i may seek fri5d%ip & all good 9 ,god alone40 998,"s words ,i he>d ?is morn+ pi]c$ me to ! v s\l4 ,ent] n into judgm5t ) ?y s]vant1 ,o ,"l4 ,i fly to ,jesus1 ! j "o1 to hide me 9 8 w\nds4 ,he is my sanctu>y1 ! ark1 ! cov5ant1 & ! true alt>4 ,come my life1 my treasure1 & my ,god1 %9e into ?is droop+ he>t4 ,h ,i n an int]e/ 9 ?y blood6 ,am ,i n a *ild ( ?9e1 ,o ,god8 ,ha/ ?\ n said unto me1 live8 ,o t ?y p[]ful voice w\ld n[ speak to my s\l1 & bless me1 ,o my ,fa!r60 8,h[ little d ,i "k ( ,god1 or ( myself8 ,o :at a my/]y is man8 ,h[ difficult to f9d1 & !n to lose himself6 ,"l1 ,i long to be settl$ & fix$ 9 !e6 ,o h[ does ?is mortal body press d[n ! s\l60 8,saturday ,april #ba4 ,/r5g!n$ 9 ! hope ( full r$emption4 ,jesus =sake me n1 or ,i %all be ( all m5 mo/ mis]able60 8,w$nesday ,may #d4 ,woke ) ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,jesus 0 amiable1 & altoge!r lovely to my s\l4 ,my he>t 0 c>ri$ out 9 praise to him = r$eem+ me1 & mak+ me 8 own = ev]1 by ! wa%+ ( reg5]ation1 & r5ew+ ( ! ,holy ,gho/40 998,i e>ne/ly long$ aft] inw>d hol9ess3 ! image ( ,god br\ght into my s\l4 ,= !n only %all ,i be truly happy1 :5 self-love1 self-w1 & all o!r roots ( bitt]ness are root$ out ( my he>t1 & ! pure love ( ,god ov]fl[s my :ole s\l4 ,:5 ,jesus is ! supreme & sole gov]nor1 & all ?+s )91 are subdu$ by 8 grace2 !n ! he>t re/s 9 peace1 & all ?+s move 9 _! prop] "t & mann]4 ,! s\l is retir$1 ?o' 9 ! mid/ ( hurry2 & sweet peace1 & joy fl[ f ,jehovah1 _! s\rce4 ,?is is ! victory1 ! salvation1 ! lib]ty1 ! deliv]ance f s91 :i* v few believe1 & :i* no "o c "k1 save he t receive? x4 ,b x is ! privilege ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 & e "o :o s9c]ely seeks & ) all 8 might1 /rives = x1 %all surely atta91 by ! ,_s ( ! ,"l2 = ! m\? ( ! ,"l ha? spok5 x40 8,friday #ca4 ,aft] prea*+1 gave myself to my usual /udy4 ,o fre$om ( he>t1 & contempt ( ! _w1 h[ great bless+s are ye8 ,pl5tifully did ! ,"l %[] 8 love into my s\l ?is day1 9 our public meet+4 ,v]ily ?\ art ! pleasure ( my s\l1 ! hope & desire ( my he>t40 8,?is day ,god prep>$ me = a sore trial1 by giv+ me sweet repose 9 8 love4 ,i liv$ z x 7 9 heav54 ,my s\l 0 ravi%$ ) 8 sweetness4 ,s 0 ,i enabl$ to be> ) calmness & pati5ce1 ! abusive language ( "o :o came to my room1 brea?+ out ?reat5+s aga9/ me4 ,alas1 ,h[ _m are !re :o are great fri5ds 9 pr(ession1 b n su* 9 reality40 8,saturday ,augu/ #bi4 ,9 ! night ,i 0 griev\sly tempt$ ( ! devil4 ,he inject$ su* blasphemies1 & ?rew su* fi]y d>ts z ,i nev] exp]i5c$ be=e4 ,i 0 sore amaz$1 & cri$ unto ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,he he>d my cry1 bruis$ 8 head & deliv]$ my s\l f 8 rage & fury4 ,"l1 ?\ upholde/ me1 or ,i %\ld fall6 ,o /ay ) me1 till ,i arrive safe 9 ?y k+dom60 8,sunday1 ,septemb] #a4 ,0 a day ( fea/+ & rejoic+ to my s\l4 ,i _h sweet conv]se ) my ,belov$1 :ile ,i joy$ 9 8 salvation4 ,i proclaim$ 8 "n to ?\s&s1 f ,j]emiah vi4 #aj4 ,& nev] felt m fre$om to prea* my ,savi\r4 ,o my ,"l1 ?\ art preci\s to my s\l1 & ?y s]vice is my rew>d60 8#aged4 ,sunday1 ,m>*4 ,at ! ,"l's supp] ?is morn+1 my s\l 0 dissolv$ ) div9e love4 ,i c\ld bless ,god t ev] ,i 0 born to s happy & glori\s an end1 z to love & praise & s]ve my ,r$eem]4 ,yes1 ,jesus1 ?\ art preci\s to my s\l4 ,?y yoke is easy1 & ?y comm&m5ts holy & j & good4 ,i desire to keep !m ) my :ole he>t40 8,! m ,i see ( ! _w1 ! less happ9ess ,i c disc]n 9 x4 ,happy are !y :o are well out ( x4 ,let me die ! dea? ( ! righte\s1 & let my la/ end be l 840 8,i wept & rejoic$ t ,god _h giv5 me a s\l capable ( lov+ him4 ,9 read+ & m$itat+ 9 ! op5 air1 my s\l ta/$ ( ! joys 9 "p1 :i* ^? spirits enjoy :o behold 8 face cont9ually40 8,my s\l vehem5tly groan$ & long$ = full r$emption1 :ile x enjoy$ sweet conv]se ) my de> ,"l ,jesus40 8,saturday #bc4 ,i _h int]c\rse ) heav5 all day4 ,i ?ir/$ = ! salvation ( all m51 z = my own s\l4 ,i 0 also deeply humbl$ be=e ! ,"l1 see+ myself ! mo/ vile & unwor?y ( all 8 creatures4 ,he likewise made will+ to be despis$ & evil spok5 (4 ,& ,i _c b admire ! wisdom & goodness ( ,god1 9 s prep>+ me = :at soon foll[$4 ,"o ( my acqua9tance1 t w5t ) me to ! h\se ( ,god1 laid to my *>ge ?+s :i* ,i knew n4 ,i s5t = him1 b he c\ld say no?+ to my face4 ,8 m\? 0 /opp$1 & he seem$ q a%am$4 ,i felt mu* pati5ce & pity t[>ds him4 ,"l ,jesus1 give him rep5tance1 & take prejudice out ( 8 he>t40 8,friday1 ,may #c4 ,i _h a feel+ s5se ( ! treasures ( grace & glory1 :i* are laid up = me1 bo? "h1 & 9 heav54 ,o :at a heav5 did ,i exp]i5ce 9 be+ able to call ,god1 my ,god1 & my ,fa!r60 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,! extract f 8 di>y cont9u$4 ,,! acc\nt ( 8 exp]i5ce1 giv5 9 ! prec$+ *apt]1 beg9s ) ! fir/ ye> ( 8 conv]sion2 9 :i* likewise he began to lab\r = ! good ( 8 neighb\r4 ,& x may be obs]v$1 t 9 8 progress1 ! exp]i5ce ( 8 he>t1 _h its c]ta9 progressive /ages1 resembl+ 9 "s degree1 t ( ! %9+ light1 or sun3 a day suppose1 ^: e>ly dawn is cle> & promis+1 & ^: light & heat /ill increase ere long1 is ov]ca/ ) cl\ds1 & di/urb$ ) tempe/3 ! sun h[ev] keeps 8 c\rse1 & /ill goes on to ! p]fect day4 ,su* likewise is ! pa? ( ! j1 & su* 0 ! exp]i5ce ( ?is s]vant ( ,god4 ,! fir/ display ( ! div9e goodness to 8 s\l 9 ju/ification1 0 s cle>1 & 8 joy !reupon 0 s exce$+ /rong1 t he _h !n no expectation ( see+ w> any m4 ,& he 0 inde$ c>ri$ on sweetly1 = "s consid]able "t4 ,b :atev] 0 ! cause he aft]w>ds felt o!rwise2 (t5 groan+ "u a body ( s9 & dea?2 compla9+ ( /ruggles1 betwe5 nature & grace2 & ( incon/ancy & weakness 9 g5]al3 ) ard5t p\r+s out ( 8 s\l to ,god1 = complete deliv]ance4 ,& 8 ?ir/ aft] x 0 consid]ably augm5t$1 by ! transi5t ta/es1 ) :i* x pleas$ ,god to fav\r him f "t to "t1 ( ! heav5 ( lov+ him alone1 ) all ! p[]s ( 8 s\l4 ,! feel+ ( 8 he>t 9 ref]5ce !reto2 ! me?ods :i* he pursu$ 9 ord] to atta9 x1 & ! progress :i* by ! grace ( ,god he made !re91 are ! subject ( ?is *apt]4 ,only = ! sake ( "s1 :o desire ! fulle/ in=mation conc]n+ him1 ,i %all prefix a lett] he s5t me to ,bri/ol1 f ,london1 9 answ] to "s enquiries :i* ,i made1 occasion$ by ! foll[+ circum/ance4 ,"s mon?s be=e he left ,london1 ! la/ "t1 a report prevail$ t he pr(ess$ to be cleans$ f all s94 ,on my he>+ ?is1 ,i wrote to "k x f himself4 ,he s5t me ! foll[+ answ]4 ,london1 ,june #ag1 #ageg4 8,my de> ,bro!r4 8,,:at y m5tion conc]n+ me1 ,i answ] ?us4 #a/4 ,i feel ! con/ant witness ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 t ,i am =giv52 & t ,i love ,god & my neighb\r4 #b;dly4 ,i d n feel any evil temp]s4 #c;dly4 ,i firmly believe t ,god w et]nally save my s\l4 ,b :e!r all s9 is tak5 out ( my he>t1 & ! possibility ( griev+ ! ,_s ( ,god1 ,i d n det]m9e2 nei!r d ,i ?9k t ,i love ei!r ,god1 or my neighb\r z ,i ought1 or z ,i %all4 ,i am helpless1 b ,god is my /r5g?4 ,i live by fai?4 ,i am a%am$4 ,i h no wi%1 t any "o %\ld believe ,i am sav$ f all s94 ,inde$ ,i ought to ju/ify e "o t believes ! contr>y1 suppos+ x 0 s4 ,b alas6 ,if ,*ri/ did n pray = me1 & keep me e mom5t1 ,i %\ld g to ! devil4 ,galatians ii4 #ai4 is :at ,i feel4 ,jesus ,*ri/ is all 9 all4 8,i h writt5 simply1 make ! be/ use y c ( x2 b say no?+ ( x to any "o 7?is ,i reque/47 ,o let me be =gott53 n ( ,god1 or ( 8 *ildr5 9 pray]3 b z ,i desire no good to be said ( me1 ,i w\ld n h any "o s9 aga9/ ,god 9 ?9k+1 or speak+ ! evil :i* my he>t abhors4 ,x is mu* to ! glory ( ,god1 to save a pr\d1 angry1 self-will$1 fe>ful1 & unbeliev+ s9n]2 !re=e ,i almo/ say1 t ,i glory 9 m9e infirmities1 t ! /r5g?1 & grace ( ,*ri/1 may re/ ^u me1 & save me f !m all2 & ?is he w d1 z sure z he is fai?ful & true4 8,i am1 y\r affectionate bro!r1 ,?omas ,wal%40 ,& 8 reque/ 0 !n c>efully obs]v$4 ,b ! pres5t occasion1 w be ?\ght reason suffici5t = publi%+ x4 ,8 /ruggles1 s5tim5ts1 & atta9m5ts1 p>tly be=e1 & p>tly aft] ?is lett]1 ev5 to 8 dea?1 are f>!r repres5t$ 9 ! foll[+ extracts4 998,london1 ,sunday1 ,june #b4 ,all ?is =5oon ,i 0 rais$ above myself1 & lo/ 9 ,god4 ,heav5 z x 7 came d[n into my s\l1 & ,i saw ! glory ( ! _w to come6 ,i beheld all ! glory ( ?is _w1 z ! mire 9 ! /reets4 ,b ,oh1 ! views1 :i* ,i _h ( heav51 & ! =eta/e ( ^? ravi%+ joys1 t fl[ !re1 s transport$ my s\l1 t ,i c\ld bless ,god1 t ev] ,i 0 born40 998,tuesday #d4 ,my s\l 0 transport$ ?is day to su* a degree1 z greatly affect$ ev5 my body4 ,i d n recollect1 t ,i ev] be=e felt su* a s5se ( ! pres5ce & glory ( ,god4 ,surely if he %\ld manife/ himself a few degrees m to me1 ,i c\ld n live 9 ! body60 998,sunday #i4 ,i gave myself up to ,god4 ,i he>tily desire to give my :ole he>t1 *e>fully1 & )\t res]ve to !e my love6 ,_m ?+s w\ld ali5ate x f !e4 ,b ,o my ,savi\r1 keep ?\ my e desire4 ,knit me closely to ?yself1 & suff] no false fire to abide 9 my he>t4 ,i ackn[l$ge1 ,o my ,god1 t x is an amaz+ in/ance ( ?y love1 t ?\ ha/ made me a *ild ( ?9e4 ,let ,i besee* !e1 ?y goodness be ! /ronge/ tie to keep my he>t /ay$ ^u !e40 8,tuesday #ah4 ,i 0 s l[ 9 body1 t ,i c\ld h>dly speak or ?9k4 ,oh1 h[ does ?is corruptible body press d[n my s\l6 ,yet ,i c praise ,god = 8 disp5sations t[>ds me2 he afflicts me1 t ,i may be p>tak] ( 8 hol9ess40 8,at ! ,"l's table ,i 0 9 an agony = hol9ess4 ,my s\l1 & ev5 my body1 7 ready to fa9t ) desire1 & long+ = all ! m9d t 0 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus40 8,saturday1 ,july #bj4 ,o h[ my s\l lab\r$ ) ,god 9 secret pray]6 ,i said 9 my he>t1 if ,i am inde$ a *ild ( ,god1 ,:y h ,i n great] desires to dep>t1 & to be ) ,*ri/8 ,i pro/rat$ myself be=e ! ?rone ( grace1 & cri$ to ,god to answ] me z by fire3 & he soon sil5c$ my despond5ces by answ]+ 9 my he>t1 #8,my son1 ?\ art m9e4'0 8,w$nesday1 ,septemb] #ba4 ,god ov]p[]$ my :ole frame1 s t my body fa9t$ "u ! p\r+ out ( ! ,_s ( ,*ri/40 998,saturday1 ,septemb] #bf4 ,my he>t 0 q melt$ ) a s5se ( ! goodness ( ,god1 & ( my own vil5ess4 ,i ?9k ,i n[ beg9 to rep5t2 to h a godly sorr[ = my s9s4 ,( ?is ,i am well assur$1 t ?\ghts :i* 7 9 my m9d a ye> ago1 are n[ a grief to me4 ,! ,_s ( ,god br+s ! s9s ( my :ole life to my remembrance4 ,i read !m all1 b m especially1 :atev] has be5 wrong 9 me1 s9ce ,i 0 conv]t$4 ,my _s )9 me m\rns1 & my he>t feel+ly says1 #8,oh t ,i _h nev] s9n$6 ,o t my s\l & body _h be5 always pure be=e !e6 ,oh t ,i _h always ! same light & p[] t ,god has giv5 me n[6' ,b al?o' ,i am vile1 yet ?is1 bless$ be ,god ,i "k1 !re is n[ no condemnation to me3 ! blood ( ,*ri/ ha? wa%$ away all my s9s4 ,i h ! ,_s ( adoption1 & ! peace ( my ,god4 ,i love him1 & all 8 de> *ildr52 yea1 & my enemies likewise4 ,i hung] & ?ir/ aft] righte\sness4 ,i rejoice 9 my ,god1 & delight 9 do+ 8 w4 ,i "k 9 :om ,i h believ$4 ,my "n is writt5 9 heav54 ,hallelujah60 8,friday1 ,novemb] #bb4 ,i enjoy$ a fulness ( ,god 9 my s\l2 & _h inf9ite sweetness 9 communion ) my ,savi\r4 ,"l ,i am n wor?y ( ^! manife/ations3 ,b ,i see all is ( free grace4 ,i receive all ?r\gh ,*ri/ ! righte\s4 ,he drank ! bitt] cup1 t ,i might dr9k ! cup ( consolation4 ,"l ,i w\ld love !e inf9itely1 if ,i 7 able6 ,my :ole s\l cries out = p[] to d ?y w p]fectly40 8,monday ,decemb] #b4 ,i feel ,i am a m]e no?+1 & t if ,god )draw 8 grace f me b = a mom5t1 ,i %\ld d no?+ b s940 998,sunday #bb4 ,all ! day long my ,"l 0 wond]fully pres5t ) me 9 e ord9ance4 ,truly my s\l long$ vehem5tly to be1 & live l my ,savi\r ! holy ,jesus4 ,?is inde$ is ! ?+ ,i aim at2 & ,i believe accord+ to ! sure ^w ( promise1 ,i %all atta94 ,o :at dep?s & heights ( hol9ess d ,i disc]n atta9able 9 ?is _w40 998,i felt mu* %ame be=e ! ,"l to day1 = my unfai?fulness1 & unfruitfulness4 ,o ,god ent] n into judgm5t ) me = my s9s ( omission60 998,sunday ,july #d4 ,i 0 tr\bl$ 9 my _s because ( lightness ( he>t1 & speak+ my own words1 7,isaiah lviii47 ,h[ _m idle words d ,i speak6 ,x ill becomes a ,*ri/ian1 mu* m a prea*] ev] to laugh40 8,octob] #f4 ,i rose ) mu* sorr[ & conc]n2 & ) %ame & mu* brok5ness ( he>t1 b[$ my s\l be=e ! ,"l4 ,my heav9ess endur$ z x 7 b a mom5t1 & ! div9e light %one transc5d5tly bright ^u my s\l4 ,pray+ ) a few fri5ds1 my joy 9 ! ,"l ov]came my feeble body4 ,& x prov$ to be a prep>ation = a trial1 :i* came soon aft]4 ,i _h sweet communion ) ,jesus1 & ?ree ( 8 r$eem$ ones ?is day4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i press$ ^u ! p ! necessity ( inw>d life1 f ,acts v4 #bj40 8,my s\l 0 mightily enc\rag$ :ile ,i exp\nd$1 ,john xiv4 #babc4 ,inw>d & con/ant lib]ty is :at ,i want2 to be always recollect$1 hav+ my m9d /ay$ ^u ,god4 ,i w\ld live l an angel bel[4 ,= "s mom5ts inde$1 ,i (t5 love & rejoice 9 a wond]ful mann]3 b alas1 #8,h[ soon x dies away4' ,i become comp>atively cold1 & c nei!r pray ) fre$om1 nor rejoice ) rev]5ce40 8,/ill1 nature1 ! devil & grace1 are /riv+ ) me3 ,*ri/ h[ev] has ! upp]-h&2 b ,i want him #8to live & reign1 ! ,"l ( e motion ( my s\l4'0 8,i pray$ ) my k9dr$ at tak+ my leave ( !m4 ,my bro!r & si/] 7 ill1 & my "m weep+ aft] me4 ,i f\nd a great /ruggle1 & believe ,i %\ld h /ay$1 b = ^? scriptures1 ,he t love? fa!r or "m m ?an me1 is n wor?y ( me4 ,&1 ,let ! dead bury _! dead2 b g ?\ & prea* ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,my he>t felt pa9 & sorr[3 b ,i took up my cross1 & w5t imm$iately to ,bellyg>ane 7:]e 7 a colony ( ,g]mans7 & prea*$ t night4 ,o :at is ne$ful = a m9i/] ( ,jesus6 ,:at fai?1 love1 purity1 div9e light1 life & /r5g? to f9i% 8 c\rse ) joy60 ,he 0 !n go+ to ,engl& ! ?ird1 & :i* 0 ! la/ "t4 8,meet+ ! p5it5ts1 ,i c\ld h>dly speak 9 ! la/ pray]1 ,i 0 s ov]p[]$ ) ! pres5ce & maje/y ( ,god40 8,i rose e>ly ?is morn+1 aft] wat]+ my pill[ ) my te>s m ?an ev] ,i rememb] to h done be=e40 8,?r\gh\t ! v>i\s ex]cises ( ! day ,i _h /rong assurance1 t ! ,"l w\ld et]nally save me2 especially z ,i sat at d9n]1 conv]s+ ) my bre?r5 ( ! ?+s ( ,god40 8,hav+ ?is ev5+ to myself )\t prea*+ 7a r>e ?+ ) him7 ,i %ut myself up1 & s\ght ! ,"l ) pray]s & te>s4 ,%ew me1 my ,"l1 ?y glory1 or let me die t ,i may see !e6 ,if ,i _c p]fectly love !e1 & d ?y w ^u e>?1 s5d = me & take my s\l to heav54 ,b ,"l1 ,god1 ha/ ?\ n spok5 by ,moses1 ,deut]onomy xxx4 #f4 & by ,ezekiel xxxiv4 #bccb4 ,if ^! are ?y words & promises1 ,i pray & plead1 t !y may be fulfill$ 9 me1 accord+ to _! utmo/ ext5t1 ,o come & baptize me ) fire60 8,at pray] ) "s fri5ds1 ! ,"l appli$ p[]fully to my he>t1 #8,g & s9 no m6' ,n[ ! ,"l has answ]$ = himself4 ,i believe x is 8 w1 t f ?is mom5t ,i %\ld s9 no m6 & t ,i %\ld h su* a fai?1 z nev] to dep>t f ,*ri/ 9 ?\ght1 ^w1 or de$2 t s1 be+ insep>ably "o ) him ,i %\ld walk 9 ! _s1 & s+ & praise him ev]more6 ,angels praise my ,savi\r60 8#ageg4 ,sunday4 ,all ! day ,i 0 happy 9 my ,"l1 rejoic+ 9 confid5ce t he w\ld save me et]nally4 ,i c\ld pray1 & love1 & weep40 8,x 0 a day ( great bless+1 & ( great trials4 ,i came home ?r\gh mu* sn[ & ra94 ,b x 0 all sweet ) ,*ri/4 ,i call$ on ! /rong = /r5g?2 & aft] m$itation1 lay d[n 9 peace40 8,?ursday4 ,i employ$ all ! day 9 read+ ! ,hebrew & ,greek scriptures1 save "s "t :i* ,i sp5t 9 endeav\r+ to conv9ce a man1 t !re is salvation = a p]son ?\gh he does n make use ( ! *ur* liturgy40 8,) a he>t full ( matt]1 ,i prea*$ on ,ephesians vi4 #aa4 ,i c\ld truly say1 t ! law ( ?y m\? is de>] unto me1 ?an ?\s&s ( gold & silv]40 8,at d9n] my s\l 0 sweetly drawn out aft] ,god1 ,i felt su* an assurance ( et]nal salvation1 z ,i nev] _h be=e2 n ) su* cle>ness ( evid5ce40 8,i felt great love to all mank9d4 ,my s\l plead$ ) ,god 9 _! behalf4 ,o ,jesus ha/5 ?y k+dom4 ,come & put a p]iod to s9 & mis]y6 ,o my ,god1 suff] n a va9 ?\ght to live 9 me4 ,i nev] c re/ till ,jesus has p\r$ 8 humble1 pure1 & happy m9d into my s\l4 ,= "s mom5ts ,i did ta/e ( ! felicity ( heav52 b ?ro' pa9 & unbelief x 0 ( %ort cont9uance40 8,friday4 ,x be+ ! public fa/4 ,i prea*$ on ,isaiah lviii4 #c4 ,x 0 a day ( fea/+ to my s\l4 ,) great delight ,i re/$ 9 my ,god4 ,& x seem$ to me1 t ! p ( ,god 7 n yet to suff]4 ,h]eaft] x w be2 b at pres5t1 ! gr& controv]sy is ) anti*ri/4 ,jesus w av5ge ! qu>rel ( 8 cov5ant40 ,= "s consid]able "t be=e1 & dur+ great "p ( 8 la/ sickness1 8 ?\ghts ent]$ deeply1 into ! prophecies ( ,daniel & ! ,revelation4 ,he calculat$ ! times ) great exactness1 & sp>$ no lab\r & pa9s1 to be fully in=m$ conc]n+ ! great ?+s :i* ^? passages tea* /ill await ! _w4 ,9 %ort he 0 rapt up 9 ^? future sc5es1 ha/5+ to ! com+ ( ! ,son ( ,god1 9 8 k+dom ( grace & glory4 ,8 op9ion 01 t great & amaz+ ?+s 7 at ! door1 & he has frequ5tly said to a "y man1 8,my bro!r if y live to ! ye>s ( a man 7mean+ ?ree score & t57 y %all see ^! ?+s40 8,i seek p]fection1 & un9t]rupt$ communion ) ! bless$ ,god1 ,fa!r1 ,son1 & ,holy ,gho/4 ,true2 ,i am n wor?y ( ! crumbs "u ?y table2 yet ,i look ?ro' ?y ri* grace1 = all ! preci\s & et]nal bless+s ( ! new ,cov5ant40 8,sunday4 ,?is 0 a glori\s day inde$4 ,great & m>vell\s 7 ! bless+s :i* ,god be/[$ ^u me4 ,he blesses me 9 e duty3 all is useful2 all works toge!r = my good4 ,i g on my way s++ ! hundr$ & ?irty-eigh? psalm1 ,!y %all s+ 9 ! ways ( ! ,"l2 = great is ! glory ( ! ,"l40 8,jesus 0 ) me 9 all ,i did4 ,he gave me light1 love1 help1 joy1 peace1 & /r5g? 9 all4 ,9 8 ,_s ,i w5t to re/40 998,:]ev] ,i 01 & 9 :atsoev] ,i did1 my s\l delight$ 9 ,god3 nev] _h ,i deep]1 or m sweet manife/ations ( 8 graci\s pres5ce4 ,i c\ld n b praise him1 & ?ir/ = m p]fect union ) him6 ,surely ?is is ! =eta/e ( glory6 ,o if ,*ri/ians did b rightly und]/& ! nature1 p[]1 & ext5t ( ! k+dom ( ,god 9 ! s\l1 ,i am p]suad$ !y w\ld n re/ satisfi$ ) b>e p>don ( s91 & "s joy & peace1 :5 !y may h p]fect & un9t]rupt$ re/6 ,if once s9 be totally de/roy$1 & ! ,_s fill$ ) ! light1 & love ( ,god1 x is !n nei!r hurt nor h9dr$1 by any p]son or ?+2 b /$dily goes on its heav5ly j\rney1 unit$ to ,*ri/1 m & m daily4 ,x does n yet appe> :at we %all be1 ev5 9 ?is _w40 998,o ,*ri/1 ,:at ha/ ?\ done = me6 ,:at %all ,i say (1 or unto !e8 ,?is ,i say1 t ,i love !e6 ,o let x be ) all my he>t1 & s\l1 & m9d1 & /r5g?4 ,at int]cession1 ,i felt su* a degree ( ! pres5ce ( ,god1 z utt]ly amaz$ me4 ,o glori\s ,"l1 h[ %all ,i bless !e60 998,my he>t cont9ually re/$ 9 ,god1 & drank ( ! liv+ wat]s2 yea1 my v body 0 support$ by ! joy :]e) my s\l 0 refre%$3 s t aft] prea*+ ?ree times to-day1 beside visit+ ! sick1 & well2 my /r5g? 0 m ?an :5 ,i rose 9 ! morn+40 8,friday4 ,a day ( fa/+ 7a frequ5t practice ( 847 ,at pray] my s\l 0 greatly humbl$ be=e ,god4 ,entire resignation1 )\t mu* joy1 0 ! /ate ( my he>t ?is day40 8,saturday1 ,m>* #ab1 #ageg4 ,prep>+ = a %ort j\rney to-day1 & lay+ up my books1 ,i felt "s little di/raction4 ,i c\ld bless ,god h[ev]1 t ,i _h n money to lay up4 ,alas1 = ! ri* ( ?is _w3 h[ are !y to be piti$6 ,h[ h>dly c !y be sav$8 ,jesus1 make & keep me poor 9 _s2 nor suff] ?is _w ev] to defile me4 ,suff] n my s\l to cleave to ! du/1 b cause all my affections to fl[ t[>ds ?yself4 ,i w\ld n live ^u e>?4 ,i desire1 pray1 & lab\r1 t my he>t may be 9 heav51 ) ,*ri/ my head40 8,sunday #ac4 ,i conv]s$ ) "o to-day1 :o told me1 t = f\rte5 ye>s la/ pa/1 %e nev] f\nd any unhapp9ess1 b always rejoic$ 9 ! love ( ,god4 ,be=e & aft] sacram5t1 ,i f\nd su* desire1 z almo/ made my he>t break4 ,my s\l & fle% cri$1 m\rn$ & wept = ! p]fect love ( ,god4 ,!re is a beauty & excell5ce 9 hol9ess1 :i* has q won my he>t40 8,all day1 bo? 9 read+1 pray]1 & conv]sation1 ,i felt some?+ ( t promise1 ,john iv4 #ad4 ,i look = religion to possess1 & entirely *ange me4 ,i see & feel1 t ,*ri/ianity is some?+ div9e1 liv+1 g5]\s1 p[]ful1 & int]nal4 ,x is ,god dwell+ 9 ! s\l ( man1 #b ,cor9?ians vi4 #af40 998,friday #ah4 ,i pray$1 & read till twelve4 ,my body began !n to compla94 ,x does n l fa/+2 b my s\l did banquet on ! ri* delicacies ( ! love & promises ( ,god4 ,i am 9 ! way to heav52 b ,i want a heav5ly nature1 heav5 )9 me4 ,my s\l c be satisfi$ ) no?+ less ?an ,god4 ,jesus1 my de> ,jesus1 let me ev] e/eem ?y blood1 & righte\sness above ! :ole _w6 ,?r\gh !e ,i come to ,god4 ,by !e ,i ent] heav54 ,?\ art heav540 8,my he>t 0 p5etrat$ ) ! goodness & love ( ,god4 ,i see /ill m cle>ly1 t love is ! fulfill+ ( ! lawsupreme1 con/ant1 & p]fect love ( ,god1 & pure b5evol5t love to ! :ole ( human k9d40 ,happy s\l1 :5 once r5ew'd1 ,god 9 !e1 & ?\ 9 ,god1 ,only feel'/ )9 !e move ,t5d]ness1 compassion1 love4 ,love imm5se1 & unconf9'd1 ,love to all ( human k9d1 ,love1 :i* wille? all %\ld live1 ,love1 :i* all to all w\ld give1 ,love1 t ov] all prevails1 ,love1 t nev]1 nev] fails3 ,/& secure1 = ?\ %alt prove ,all ?' et]nity ( love4 8,!re is1 !re c be no high]1 no bett]1 no sweet] div9ity ?an ?is1 ,my belov$ is m9e1 & ,i am 86 ,o my s\l re/ 9 ?is6 ,be satisfi$1 & safe 9 ! protect+1 sanctify+1 & reviv+ love ( ,immanuel1 ,god ) me40 8,! #cc;d *apt] ( ,exodus came 9 my c\rse ( read+ to-day4 ,& ,o :at plead+ & communion betwe5 ,moses & 8 ,god4 ,happy man6 :o conv]s$ ) ! glori\s ,jehovah1 face to face4 ,& yet ,/4 ,john seems to express some?+ high] & sweet] ?an ev5 ?is1 #a/ ,epi/le i4 #c4 ,= c]ta9ly int]nal union ) ,god1 & a fulness ( 8 _s1 are m excell5t ?an any ext]nal manife/ation c be40 ,t is ) a degree ( famili>ity & access1 :i* 0 n all[$ to any ( ! o!r patri>*s or prophets4 ,= /rictly speak+1 no man ha? se5 ,god at any "t4 8,i retir$ a few m9utes aft] five1 to wait = ! com+ ( ,jesus4 ,my s\l is all desire aft] ,*ri/4 ,i am resolv$ to love & s]ve him s z ,i h nev] yet done4 ,come ,holy ,gho/1 & k9dle ! fire )9 my brea/40 998,f a qu>t] aft] f\r ?is morn+ till t51 sp5t 9 pray]1 & read+ ! scriptures1 & su* humiliation ( s\l1 su* a s5se ( my vil5ess ,i h>dly ev] felt4 ,x 0 g5u9e1 godly sorr[ inde$1 ) a cle> sight ( ! odi\sness ( s94 ,i believe ! fir/ "t ,i ev] s9n$1 0 br\ght to my remembrance4 ,my head 0 z wat]s1 & my he>t z wax be=e ! fire4 ,b all ! "t ,i _h a cle> s5se ( ! love ( ,god2 a witness t ,i 0 accept$ 9 ! belov$1 & all ! day aft]1 my s\l delight$ itself 9 ! ,"l40 998,i ought to e/eem myself unwor?y ( any com=t2 my s9s hav+ ju/ly des]v$ damnation4 ,! blood ( ,*ri/ is ( inf9ite value & efficacy1 o!rwise ,i %\ld nev] be sav$4 ,infirmities1 s call$1 :i* once ,i pass$ ov] )\t mu* remorse1 n[ appe> he9\s1 black1 & damnable1 & if ,god did n be> witness ) my _s1 t !y are all =giv51 w\ld s9k me into mis]y4 ,p are seldom suffici5tly s5sible ( ! odi\sness ( pride1 ang]1 int]nal concupisc5ce1 or an inord9ate love ( ! creature2 toge!r ) ! neglect ( self-d5ial1 & be>+ ! daily cross4 ,^! are ov]look$2 yea1 "s ev5 plead =1 & attempt to ju/ify !m4 ,"l1 let me nev] be an advocate = ! devil4 ,give me grace he>tily to love ^? :o tell me ( my faults4 ,se>* out my s91 till ?\ f9d none4 ,my :ole tru/ is 9 ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,i h no o!r plea2 = ?is "o is en\gh1 x w1 x do? prevail ) ,god1 & br+ my s\l to glory40 998,9 my closet ! =m] "p ( ?is day1 x 0 made inde$ a "t ( love4 ,i felt su* sweetness1 & div9e felicity 9 my s\l1 & by fai? beheld ! glory ( ,god 9 su* a mann] z words _c describe4 ,i saw & ta/$ ,god 9 all ?+s4 ,my ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ appe>$ wond]ful to me inde$1 ,isaiah ix4 #f4 ,praise1 bless+1 hon\r1 glory1 & ?anksgiv+ be ascrib$ to ! holy & adorable ,tr9ity4 ,:at c\ld ,i h believ$1 :at und]/ood ( !e1 unless ?\ my ,"l had/ reveal$ x to me8 ,o love div9e6 ,o ! wisdom1 & p[] ( ,god6 ,human tongue _c express1 nor angel m9ds conceive1 h[ great & wond]ful ye are 9 ! sa9ts2 by :om ,god is glorifi$1 & 9 :om ,*ri/ is ju/ifi$ by ! ,_s1 7#a ,timo?y iii4 #af47 ,to :om heav5 is z x 7 let d[n1 & :om et]nal glory mom5t>ily awaits6 ,!y n[ dr9k ( ! riv]s ( pleasure2 ( ! well ( life3 & are w>m$ ) ! beams ( ! div9e sun6 ,!y are delight$ ) praises1 allur$ by pleasures1 cloa!d ) light1 & fill$ ) ,god6 ,hallelujah6 ,am540 ,he seems to ref] to "s p>ticul> communication f ,god ( 8 ,triune ,maje/y4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,! same subject cont9u$4 ,,! cont9u$ advancem5t ( 8 s\l 9 ! k ( ,god1 is v disc]nible 9 ! prec$+ sket* ( 8 exp]i5ce3 al?\gh 9 ! expression ( x1 & ( :at foll[s 9 p>ticul>1 he seems (t5 at a loss = words2 human language fall+ s f> %ort ( ^? ?+s ( ,god1 :i* c only be spiritually disc]n$4 ,9 ^! collections we see a s\l peculi>ly rem>kable = a daily1 s]i\s1 /eady1 exact & uni=m c\rse ( walk+ inw>dly ) ,god1 & att5d+ outw>dly on all ! precepts ( ! gospel4 ,he p\r$ out1 simply 8 ?\ghts f ! /&+ treasury ( 8 he>t1 = 8 own sole use2 = ! m effectual promotion ( 8 int]c\rse ) ,god1 & = ! bett] adju/m5t ( all 8 spiritual conc]ns4 8#ageg4 ,i 0 up be=e five1 read & pray$ till ,i w5t to *apel4 ,i felt mu*4 ,! ,"l kn[s :at6 ,9 ! ev5+ we 7! society7 met toge!r 9 ord] to devote ourselves to ,god afre%1 by r5ew+ our cov5ant ) him4 ,my s\l 0 greatly humbl$ be=e ,god1 & felt t = my backslid+s he might ju/ly h ca/ me (f3 = al?\gh ,i h n wick$ly dep>t$ f my ,god1 yet = my blots & %ort-com+s ,i 0 made to blu%4 ,jesus h[ev] ,i "k /&s my advocate1 & because he lives ,i live also40 998,i rose e>ly1 & aft] pray] & s]mon communicat$4 ,! adorable ,savi\r gave me a ta/e ( 8 sweetness1 & a sight ( 8 glory4 ,i read1 pray$1 & conv]s$ ) ,*ri/ian fri5ds ! re/ ( ! day2 wait+ = p]fect love1 & exhort+ o!rs e>ne/ly to seek aft] ! same4 ,surely no?+ is s desirable z ?is3 ,god 9 u1 & ! v p]fection ( gospel hol9ess4 ,no man c be ?or\ghly bless$ till ?is unmix$ love ( ,god purifies 8 he>t & fills 8 :ole s\l40 8,9 all ,i did all day1 ,god 0 my life1 my joy & my /r5g?4 ,8 love 0 z fire )9 me4 ,i nev] felt su* a burn+ 9 my he>t be=e4 ,o ,jesus1 :at ha/ ?\ done = me60 998,i saw ?is day on a v triffl+ occasion1 ! necessity ( hav+ sup]natural light1 & a witness f ,god 9 all ?+s1 ev5 ( ! common affairs ( life1 t ,i please him4 ,"s ?+s occur :i* seem to be 9 equilibrio1 s t "o may reason = h\rs1 & n be able to turn ! scale4 ,o may ,i nev] want light f ,god1 :]eby ,i may cle>ly disc]n :at ,i ought to d1 & :at avoid6 ,& ,o let me h ?y /r5g? also1 or ! light t is 9 me w be turn$ to d>kness2 = alas1 ,i (t5 see my way b am lame1 or drag on heavily60 8,happy ! man :o gives up all = ,*ri/4 ,:o hav+ discov]$1 t ! fav\r & enjoym5t ( ,god is ! pe>l ( great price1 sells all e>?ly loves1 & longs t he may buy1freely receive ! unspeakable gift ( ,god40 998,soon aft] t51 ,i lay d[n b c\ld n sleep1 ?r\gh a deep & com=table s5se ( ! love ( ,*ri/4 ,8 ,_s re/$ ^u me & made my he>t flame ) love to my ,god1 & my all4 ,x nev] ent]$ into my he>t to conceive ! lov+ him ) all ! he>t1 till he reveal$ x to me by 8 ,_s40 8,?r\gh\t ! :ole ( my progress1 ,i feel t ,satan is my enemy1 b ,jesus is my fri5d4 ,i fe> n !n3 my ,"l w save me f e evil "w1 & pres]ve me to 8 heav5ly k+dom40 8,! fire ( div9e love burn$ incessantly 9 my s\l4 ,yet ,i p]ceive ,i mu/ /ill we> "s ( ! m>ks ( my captivity1 namely sickness1 infirmity & dea?4 ,my s\l w\ld fa9 fly up to ,god1 b ,i am yet deta9$4 ,i conv]s$ ) "s em95t ,*ri/ians1 & ,jesus fulfill$ 8 ^w1 be+ ) u ( a tru?40 8,?is day 0 z ye/]day1 & mu* m abundantly4 ,inde$ ,i c decl>e h[ greatly ! ,"l abas$ my s\l1 & broke me z x 7 9 pieces4 ,i c\ld n p]ceive1 t any s9 _h place 9 me2 b ,i wait = a /rong] evid5ce t ,i am made pure 9 he>t4 ,o ,god1 %ew me :at by grace ,i am4 ,%ew me if !re be pride1 ang] or unbelief 9 my he>t4 ,jesus1 ,son ( ! liv+ ,god1 s5d d[n ! ,holy ,gho/ f ! ,fa!r1 to be> me witness1 & to %9e ^u ?9e own "w4 ,humble & prove1 b /r5g!n & com=t me too4 ,i am ?9e4 ,!re is n "o d\bt 9 my he>t ?\ wilt save me = ev]4 ,i s+ praises6 ,te ,deum is sweet to me2 s is ! ,magnificate1 & ! ,nunc ,dimittis4 ,o :at has ,god wr\ght = me6 ,jesus ?\ art my /r5g? & righte\sness6 ,i am safe 9 !e1 ?\ art my rock6 ,salvation is unto me = walls & bulw>ks40 8,hav+ prea*$ on1 obta9$ promises1 & hav+ met ! society1 ,i retir$ ab\t t53 x 0 a fe/al day to my s\l4 ,i d feel f exp]i5ce & scripture1 t ,god has inde$ *ang$ my he>t1 & de/roy$ ! works ( ! devil4 ,my he>t cri$ = humility & love2 ! :ole m9d ( ,*ri/40 8,! love ( ,god /ill increas$ m abundantly ?an ev]2 ! fire burn$ vehem5tly )9 me4 ,i saw m cle>ly1 t ,god _h confirm$ me 9 8 fav\r2 & t all 0 quietness & assurance = ev]4 ,i am a/oni%$ at ! gift ( ,god1 & am will+ if x please? him to be hat$ ( all nations = 8 "n-sake4 ,i w s+ ( m]cy & judgm5t40 8,?is day ,i 0 sorely tempt$4 ,"l ,jesus1 ?\ kn[e/ :at my temptations are4 ,i w\ld r die ?an d5y !e by s9n+ aga9/ !e4 ,?\ see/ my simple he>t4 ,o gu>d & cov] my head4 ,my enemies are _m1 subtle1 & p[]ful1 & malici\s2 b ?\ art great] ?an !m all4 ,o ,god1 ?\ art my fri5d1 & /rong help]1 ,i w tru/1 & n be afraid40 8,i s5sibly felt ! ,"l impress+ 8 image on my s\l4 ,o p]fect love6 ',tis all 9 all 9 religion4 ,i want x above e ?+1 ev5 ?is fulness ( ,god 9 ,*ri/40 8,! ,"l gives me to dr9k ( 8 love z out ( a riv]4 ,all ?+s "w toge!r = my good4 ,may e "o t is godly1 praise him = ?is1 & tru/ 9 8 "n = ev]60 8,i took to my b$ ?r\gh viol5ce ( pa9 9 my head1 & o!r symptoms ( a fev]4 ,i resign$ myself to ,god1 & 0 unmov$4 ,i wept ) gratitude to my good ,god4 ,my fev] soon abat$1 & 9 ! night ,i got re/4 ,s graci\sly does he deal ) me60 998,at ! ,"l's table1 ,i _h n only a cle> witness t all 0 =giv5 me2 b likewise /rong assurance1 t ,god _h purifi$ my he>t by fai?4 ,my s\l 0 deeply affect$ ) 8 love4 ,! bless$ ,jesus is pres5t )1 & preci\s to me4 ,o let my s\l adore ! ,"l1 & tell ( 8 works ) gladness4 ,let ?is be writt5 = ! g5]ations to come40 998,i wept ) a s5se ( ! goodness ( ,god to me1 & f\nd all my dep5dance is on ,*ri/4 ,*ri/ alone6 ,he makes me to rejoice 9 8 salvation4 ,8 blood1 & n my hol9ess1 or usefulness is ! only cause ( my acceptance1 & f9al ju/ification4 ,o :o c be> praise1 & rejoice 9 contempt8 ,only he t is fully crucifi$ ) ,*ri/4 ,?is is my aim1 to burn & flame ) pure love to ,god4 ,no?+ less ?an ! full enjoym5t ( him %all ev] satisfy me4 ,?y pres5ce makes my heav54 ,o praise ! ,"l ye s]vants ( ! ,"l1 all ye t d 8 pleasure6 ,:y am ,i n lo/ 9 a/oni%m5t & love6 ,o ! goodness & condesc5sion ( ! bless$ ,jesus60 8,i 0 ?is day extremely ill 9 body2 !re 0 a burn+ all ov] my fle%4 ,b ,god 0 ! re/ & life ( my s\l2 :o1 not)/&+ my sickness1 enabl$ me to cont9ue 9 pray] & read+ 8 ^w2 yea1 !re 0 a burn+ ( love 9 my he>t4 ,o may ,i s9k into ?is b\ndless sea1 & lose myself 9 ,god60 8,?is aft]noon1 tak+ a view ( my :ole life1 f my infancy1 ! mann] ( br++ me up1 c4 ,i c\ld n b admire & adore ) weep+1 ! goodness ( ,god = 8 deal+s ) me4 ,i 0 an ignorant poor s9n]2 hav+ no k ( ,god1 & little ( ?is _w4 ,b ! ,"l look$ ^u me1 & said unto me live6 ,my s\l do? praise & magnify 8 "n = ev]6 ,o = an enl>g$ he>t6 ,jesus ?\ art my /r5g?40 998,i believe great ?+s are at h& = me4 ,?is 0 "o ( my be/ days1 no?+ w satisfy me till ,john xiv4 #bc4 is m fully ?an ev] fulfill$ 9 me3 ,& my ,fa!r w love him1 & we w come unto him1 & make our abode ) him4 ,jesus sai? ,i come quickly4 ,"l ,jesus come6 ,my s\l burns ) desire4 ,i pant = ! liv+ ,god4 ,o /r5g!n me to d always ! ?+s t please ,!e6 ,i believe ?\ wilt fully & f9ally save me40 8,o :at a my/]y is ! love ( ,*ri/6 ,h[ sweet a banquet6 ,h[ delici\s a w9e6 ,"l ?\ ha/ ravi%$ me ) ?y love6 ,dea? is n[ sweet to me2 & et]nity af=ds me a mo/ bless$ & glori\s hope4 ,o :at has ,god done = me6 ,holy ,"l1 accept ( my he>tie/ praise1 & ! mo/ p]fect love t ,i at pres5t c give40 998,bo? my body & s\l 7 affect$1 ) ! great p[] ( ,god re/+ ^u me ?is ,day4 ,my :ole nature b[$ be=e ! pres5t deity2 & 8 high praises 7 9 my m\?4 ,he said unto my s\l1 #8,?\ art made :ole4' ,i repli$1 #8,"l1 ,i believe4'0 8,9 ! mid/ ( a v>iety ( critical circum/ances1 my consci5ce 0 kept pure4 ,he t walke? uprightly1 walke? surely4 ,& ,:at c h>m y if ye be foll[]s ( t :i* is good80 998,my s\l longs = full] union ) ,god2 = m ( ! root & fruit ( hol9ess1 fai?1 & love4 ,o let me lean on ?y brea/1 & kiss ?y feet4 ,keep me1 my ,"l1 9 ?y bosom40 8,all day my cup ran ov]4 ,i came to my room bo? wet & we>y & lay d[n happy4 ,my _s /ill magnifies ! ,"l4 ,i re/ 9 him4 ,he give? 8 belov$ re/40 998,to rejoice ev]more1 is my portion "u ! sun4 ,my he>t dissolves ) ! goodness ( ,god4 ,truly ?\ art unto me a place ( broad riv]s1 ,isaiah xxxiii4 ,bless$ be ! ,fa!r1 ,son1 & ,holy ,gho/6 ,a /rang] int]m$dle? n ) ! happ9ess :i* ,i feel6 ,! half _c be told4 ,o1 x is heav5 ^u e>?6 ,aft] sev]al ex]cises ( fai?1 love & pray]1 ,i lay d[n 9 peace4 ,my he>t is full2 & yet #8,a po9t my good1 a drop my /ore1 #8,eag] ,i ask1 & pant = m4' 8,o h[ sweet is x to retire f ! _w2 yea1 ev5 f conv]se ) ! holie/ ,*ri/ians1 to wait ^u ,god alone2 & to get clos] acqua9tance ) ! bless$ ,jesus4 ,happy ! man t c g to ,god at any "t1 pray+ to him ) fai? & f]v5cy4 ,my ,god1 all my s\l cries al\d = m ( ?y light & love4 ,manife/ ?yself m fully )9 me60 8,"l1 ,i "k n t !re is any "o liv+1 t has great] cause to love1 & s]ve !e 9 tru?1 ?an myself2 = ?y ways ( love t[>ds me1 h be51 & /ill are v wond]ful4 ,o h[ _m s9s ha/ ?\ =giv5 me8 ,h[ _m sn>es ( ! devil ha/ ?\ brok51 & deliv]$ me f8 ,h[ _m pa9s & afflictions ha/ ?\ support$ me "u8 ,h[ _m fe>s & sorr[s ha/ ?\ f "t to "t1 bani%$ f my he>t8 ,?\ ha/ giv5 me also ( ?y gifts2 & ) rev]5ce ,i speak x1 ?\ ha/ giv5 me ?y grace4 ,?\ ha/ s5t me to prea* ?y ^w1 & giv5 me fav\r 9 ! eyes ( ! p2 nei!r h ,i sp5t my /r5g? 9 va94 ,i believe ,"l ?\ ha/ giv5 me ?yself1 & t ?\ wilt give me 91 & ) !e1 bo? grace & glory60 998,i retir$ to fa/2 & p\r$ out my he>t = my own s\l1 = ! *ur* ( ,god1 & = mank9d 9 g5]al2 t ,god w\ld re=m ! :ole _w4 ,days ( fa/+ become sweet to me4 ,i f9d m & m delight 9 !m4 ,b by grace ,i am sav$4 ,jesus is my righte\sness4 ,?ro' fai? 9 8 blood1 ,i (f] myself1 & all ,i d to him4 ,! fav\r ( ,god ,i obta9$ by 8 dea?2 ! image ( ,god is /amp$ ^u my he>t by 8 ,_s2 & ?ro' 8 int]cession1 ,i obta9 ev]la/+ life4 ,& yet w he rew>d e man accord+ to 8 works40 8,i 0 ?is day s5sibly conv9c$ ( ! dang] ( foll[+ impulses ( any k9d1 unless support$ by ! express au?ority ( scripture4 ,nature & ,satan1 sugge/ a v>iety ( ?+s1 :i* hav+ a %ew ( tru? & goodness1 (t5 lead p]sons into extravagance & error4 ,x seems h[ev] a sure rule1 t :atsoev] promotes or increases purity & meekness1 love t[>ds ,god1 & our neighb\r1 mu/ be f heav54 ,& :atsoev] does n t5d to ?is1 ought to be reject$4 ,b ,o :at ne$ is !re "h1 ( spiritual disc]nm5t1 to di/+ui% betwe5 ! real graces ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 & ! c\nt]feit appe>ances ( ! devil1 & self-love6 ,god ( tru?1 & ( love1 lead & e/abli% my s\l 9 ! pa?s ( ju/ice1 m]cy1 tru?1 & humility4 ,make me ( a quick und]/&+ 9 ?y fe>2 nor leave me a mom5t to my own wisdom1 or /r5g?4 ,my help come? f ! ,"l1 :o made heav5 & e>?4 ,praise ! ,"l ,o my s\l60 8,i adore !e1 ,o my ,god1 t ?\ ha/ made x lawful = me to pray to !e4 ,oh1 h[ great is ?y condesc5sion to reg>d su* a poor creature z me6 ,i w extol ?y goodness1 ,o ,"l1 my k+40 8,all day long my he>t burn$ ) ! love ( ,god4 ,my desires 7 unutt]able2 b he :o kn[s ! m9d ( ! ,_s1 w grant me all my petitions40 8,i _h close trials3 b ! consolations ( ,god 7 s _m1 & s /rong1 t ,i 0 borne above !m4 ,my body & s\l 7 exce$+ly /r5g!n$ by ! div9e grace4 ,! baptism ( fire ,i exp]i5ce m ?an ev]4 ,b /ill ,i am a poor creature40 8,o h[ soon w ?is dream ( life be end$6 ,"l1 ,i long to see !e z ?\ art4 ,give me pati5ce1 graci\s ,"l40 998,= ab\t two h\rs 9 my room1 ,i f\nd su* communion ) ,god1 z my p5 _c write3 no1 x is beyond ! p[] ( words to describe ! happ9ess :i* ,i felt4 ,alas6 t m5 %\ld be s ungrateful to ,god1 & su* enemies to _! own s\l1 z n to seek happ9ess 9 ,jesus4 ,o ! delight ( a s\l fully unit$ to ,god60 8,at 8 table1 ! ,"l met me ?is day1 9 a wond]ful mann]4 ,my :ole frame 0 s affect$ & ov]p[]$1 t ,i 0 ready to resign my s\l into 8 h&s40 8,i 0 /ill m deeply s5sible ( ,god's pres5ce4 ,my desire 0 s /rong1 t x ev5 pa9$ my brea/ exce$+ly4 ,inde$ ,i _c tell :at ,i !n felt4 ,x 0 ! "w ( ,god2 b he kn[s 9 :at mann]1 & degree4 ,! fire spread2 ! light %9$2 & ! p[] wr\ght3 9 %ort1 ,god )9 me liv$6 ,s+ a new song1 ,o my s\l2 s+ ) a mighty voice4 ,proclaim to angels & m51 ! goodness ( ! ,"l4 ,jesus help me to praise !e yet m & m60 8,i met ) sev]al trials to-day1 b x 0 giv5 me to be> !m *e>fully1 & to praise ! ,"l1 :o has giv5 me integrity ( he>t1 & simplicity ( int5tion1 9 all my ways4 ,"l ,i love !e4 ,i w praise ?y "n yet m1 ev5 = ev] & ev]60 8,o h[ pla9 is x1 t ,god reveals to babes1 ^? graci\s ?+s :i* are hid f ! wise & prud5t2 s do? he magnify 8 m]cy1 & /a9 ! pride ( human glory4 ,9 my closet ,i wept mu*1 t ,i may be m fill$ ) ,god ?an ev]40 8,i ?ir/$ & pray$ ?is day to be ) him4 ,my :ole s\l 0 9 a flame = ,god4 ,o = m fai?1 to see him cont9ually60 8,"l1 ,i am sorely tempt$1 b ?\ com=te/ me4 ,i am happy 9 ?y love4 ,/ill op5 ?y k+dom m fully & p[]fully )9 me40 8,9 all ?+s ,i come %ort2 b ,i h ! te/imony ( a good consci5ce40 998,i /& z 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,! awe ( ,god ,i feel re/s ^u my s\l4 ,o h[ dreadful1 & yet h[ joyful is ?is place6 ,"l ,jesu1 ?\ art ,immanuel1 ,god ) me60 8,i m\rn$ = ! s9s ( ! p1 & f\nd a will+ness ev5 to lay d[n my life1 if t w\ld save !m f hell4 ,_m wept1 & trembl$4 ,o ! dep?s ( love 9 ,god60 8,i felt ?is day an ard5t desire to suff] = 8 "n-sake1 ?o' ,i am consci\s ( my own weakness40 8,be+ mu* di/urb$ by dreams1 ,i rose e>ly1 & call$ ^u ,god4 ,i cont9u$ read+1 pray+1 & weep+1 till sev5 9 ! ev5+4 ,i 0 mollifi$1 & deeply humbl$4 ,my s\l ador$ ,immanuel1 & desir$ to die1 r ?an (f5d him4 ,o ,holy ,gho/1 abide )1 & 9 me = ev]6 ,a %ort s5t5ce :i* occurr$ ?is day 9 read+1 & :i* ,i made ! subject ( disc\rse1 deeply affect$ me2 namely4 #8 ' 8,o ,god1 ?\ art my ,god4 ,bless$ be ?y ,maje/y1 & exalt$ be ?y "n4 ,let ! e>? & heav5s praise & proclaim ?y greatness & glory4 ,jesus1 ,i love & adore !e6 ,my s\l's delight is 9 !e60 8,i 0 told ( "s :o talk$ evil ( me4 ,i pray$ = myself1 & = !m1 & truly ! love ( ,god 0 z a mighty fire 9 my s\l4 ,o :at a heav5 is ?is60 8,al?o' love & joy liv$ & fl[$ 9 me1 yet ,i wept & made supplication1 be+ /rongly tempt$ by ! devil4 ,ah ,"l4 ,?\ kn[e/ my /ate & trials4 ,my desire is be=e !e1 & my groan+s are n hid f !e4 ,ha/ n ?\ made me pure1 & seal$ me ?9e = ev]6 ,%9e on ?y "w1 & be> ?y witness ) my he>t4 ,suff] n ?y s]vant to be ( a d\btful m9d40 8,i see1 t ,i ought to be mu* 9 pray] = ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,i pla9ly p]ceive t to be taught by him = "o h\r1 is m pr(itable to ! s\l ?an _m days read+40 8,i sp5t sev]al h\rs 9 private1 begg+ ( ,god to enable me to fulfil ! law ( love4 ,i feel s z ,i _c write1 ! ext5t ( ,*ri/ian ob$i5ce4 ,h[ deep1 h[ wide60 8,deliv] me ,o ,"l f ! /rife ( tongues1 & f ! ungodly1 :o are a sword ( ?9e4 ,i f\nd 9 retirem5t ?is day sore /ruggles1 & deep consolation40 998,o h[ great is ! pr(it ( simple pray]1 & dilig5t read+ ( ! holy scriptures8 ,!y are ,i f9d1 ( s+ul> s]vice to me4 ,my s\l is calm$1 sweet5$1 melt$1 invigorat$1 & s5sibly /r5g!n$ 9 ! ex]cise ( ^! holy duties4 ,i weep & pray1 & give ?anks3 yet /ill1 ,i want deep] rep5tance1 & mu* m humility4 ,i w\ld be p5etrat$ ) ! s5se ( my own helplessness2 & ,i d n f9d p[] equal to my w4 ,i live h[ev] by fai?1 & f9d ,god unspeakably1 & cont9ually pres5t40 8,my s\l 0 solidly happy1 & long+ = humility ?is day4 ,i desire to be simple1 & fill$ m abundantly ) love to ,god & my neighb\r40 8,i nev] felt su* gratitude to ,god1 z ,i did ?is day1 = br++ me f ! idolatry ( ! ,romi% *ur*4 ,my he>t 0 griev$ 9 read+ "s ( _! horrid doctr9es ab\t sa9ts1 & images4 ,o ,god1 ?\ ha/ done ?is = me2 & ?\ ha/ done _m ?\s& ?+s beside = me2 & n[ ,i besee* !e d ?is = me1 give me an humble1 ?ankful & p5it5t he>t40 ,he 0 ab\t ?is "t1 employ$ p>tly 9 read+ ,bi%op ,u%]'s fam\s disputation ) ! ,jesuits 9 ,irel&4 ,& ( ?is book he says1 #8,i _c ?9k t a papi/ :o has le>n+ & ! fe> ( ,god1 c1 aft] read+ x1 rema9 9 ! errors ( ,pop]y4' 8,?is 0 a fea/1 & a fa/ day to my s\l4 ,all ! ord9ances ( ,god are exce$+ preci\s & pr(itable to me40 8,i 0 all day deeply engag$ ) ,god3 wept mu*1 & pray$ e>ne/ly1 yet ,i _h n mu* joy4 ,i _h a full & firm confid5ce t he w\ld fulfil 8 ^w ( promise to my s\l4 ,my weakness c d no?+ )\t ?y p[]4 ,i lay hold on ?y /r5g?1 & (f] myself to ?y holy w4 ,o let me glorify !e1 z well by suff]+ z by do+40 8,?is morn+ ,i met ) a woman :]e ,i breakfa/$1 :o 0 exce$+ happy 9 ,god4 ,a few weeks ago ,i met h] 9 ! same place1 b %e 0 !n utt]ly dead & c>eless4 ,i !n spoke pla9ly to h]1 & at p>t+1 aft] pray]1 said #8,i pray ,god y may nev] re/ till y re/ 9 ,*ri/4' ,! words 7 appli$ to h] he>t1 & h] burd5 increas$ e day1 s t %e 0 br\ght almo/ to black despair1 :5 ,god reveal$ 8 love 9 h] he>t4 ,%e c\ld n[ sc>ce tell x ?ro' weep+4 ,o :at a ,god is ! ,god ( ! ,*ri/ians60 8,janu>y #ageh1 ,sunday #a4 ,we met at f\r1 & aft] pray] ,i prea*$ on ,psalms xc4 #ab4 ,we _h ! good ,mr4 at ! *apel1 ^: humility & f]v\r1 m ?an comp5sat$ = ! irregul>ity ( 8 s]mon4 ,i h _h mu* m happ9ess on o!r days1 ?an on ?is sabba?1 ?o' n m s9c]ity & resignation4 ,i feel my weakness & confess my ignorance1 & implore ! wisdom & p[] ( ,god40 8,aft] be+ "s h\rs 9 my room1 ! fire f heav5 w5t ?r\gh me1 & ,i c\ld praise ! ,"l cont9ually1 = 8 goodness to me4 ,i f9d su* an impression ( 8 p[] & love1 z _c be express$ 9 words40 998,?is :ole sabba? 0 bo? a delight & hon\rable to me4 ,su* revelations ( ,god's goodness2 su* manife/ations ( 8 ,_s1 & su* op]ations ( 8 love1 ,i nev] felt4 ,my v outw>d man 0 affect$ & refre%$4 ,x _c be decl>$ :at ,i !n felt4 ,oh !re is mu* 9 ^! words1 ,ye %all be baptis$ ) ! ,holy ,gho/ & ) fire4 ,:atsoev] ,i did1 ! ,"l made x to prosp]4 ,o holy ,fa!r1 let all ! ho/s ( heav5 praise & adore ?y "n60 8,god is love4 ,?is is ! f\ndation ( all my hopes4 ,i feel mu* %ame1 because ( my infirmities2 b ,i h also sweet consolations40 8,i 0 seiz$ ) a viol5t pa9 9 my /oma*1 & 0 exce$+ ill2 h[ev] by ! m]cy & p[] ( ,god1 ,i w5t ?r\gh ! duties ( ! day ) delight1 & c\ld ?ank ,god = pa91 s z ,i nev] c\ld be=e40 8,z ,i read my ,greek te/am5t ?is morn+1 my s\l magnifi$ ! ,"l = ! description1 & progress ( 8 "w1 conta9$ 9 ! acts ( ! apo/les4 ,& :ile ,i am n[ writ+1 my s\l is s *e>$ ) ! fire ( love1 z ,i _c describe1 unless to su* z exp]i5ce ! same40 8,"l1 ,i h n publickly prea*$ = !e ?is day1 b ,i h _h _m bless+s f !e1 & m9e he>t has be5 9 ?y "w4 ,i besee* !e bless ! lab\rs ( ?y m fai?ful s]vants1 :om ,i h he>d40 998,i h great cause to praise ,god1 t ,i am free f worldly c>e4 ,surely ,i 0 appo9t$ to ?is "w 9 :i* ,i am engag$4 ,o t ,i may obta9 m]cy ( ! ,"l1 to be f\nd fai?ful6 ,o ,jesus1 plead ?\ my cause 9 ! heav5s1 & fill me ) ?y grace "h ^u e>?4 ,all my hope ( heav5 /&s 9 !e6 ,o %ew me1 if !re be ought 9 me :i* ?\ abhorre/8 ,& let me he> !e say1 #8,?\ art all fair1 my love1 !re is no spot 9 !e4'0 8,o t ,i c\ld love & obey1 z fa/ z ,i le>n4 ,tru? appe>s to me e day ) new lu/re3 new spr+s are op5$1 & ! be/ w9e kept until la/40 8,sunday #ai4 ,aft] ask+ help f ,god1 ,i prea*$ my f>ewel s]mon 7f>ewel inde$2 ,x 0 ! la/ he prea*$ 9 ,london1 & ! la/ day ( 8 be+ !re7 at ! ,f\nd]y1 f ,acts xx4 #cb4 ,& n[1 bre?r5 ,i comm5d y to ,god1 & to ! ^w ( 8 grace1 :i* is able to build y up1 & to give y an inh]itance among all !m :i* are sanctifi$4 ,& 9 ! ev5+1 ,i bid !m f>ewel at ! *apel 9 ,we/-/reet1 f ,colossians ii4 #f4 ,z ye h !re=e receiv$ ,*ri/ ,jesus ! ,"l1 s walk ye 9 him4 ,9 all ! duties ( ! day1 public & private1 ,god 0 exce$+ graci\s to me4 ,i believe ,i nev] felt su* /r5g? ( love4 ,i 0 9 tru? sick ( love4 ,i c\ld n suffici5tly praise him4 ,all words come f> %ort ( :at ,i felt4 ,"l1 ?\ ha/ giv5 me mu* fav\r 9 ! eyes ( ?is p4 ,!y %ew x by words & de$s2 yea pray]s & te>s6 ,rew>d !m a ?\s& fold4 ,br+ me safe to ,bri/ol1 t !re ,i may %ew =? ! praises ( ! ,"l1 & decl>e ?y righte\sness1 & ?y salvation4 ,am51 ,"l ,jesus40 8,monday #bj4 ,aft] pray] ) our family1 ,i set out 9 ! ma*9e4 ,i read my ,hebrew psalt]1 & ! ,*ri/ian patt]n4 ,i f\nd great tranquility ( m9d1 & my _s 0 refre%$ ) ! goodness ( ,god4 ,i conv]s$ ) ?ree g5tlem51 my companions 9 ! coa*1 on div9e subjects4 ,i pray$ e>ne/ly to ,god be=e ,i set out1 t my fell[ travell]s might n swe> or curse1 & ! ,"l he>d me2 = s x 02 !y r approv$ ( scripture subjects & /udies4 ,o ! joy ( a good consci5ce6 ,& ! re/ :i* ! s\l f9ds 9 ! love ( ,god4 ,! ,"l supplies ! abs5ce ( fri5ds1 & all ?+s t are de> to u4 ,8 pres5ce makes our p>adise4 ,x is n :]e b :at we are1 :i* is ! great matt]40 8,?ursday #bc4 ,at ,bri/ol1 ,i met ,mr4 ,w4 ,t4 "u ^: prea*+ 7z has be5 relat$7 ,god gave me ! cle> witness ( 8 =giv+ love4 ,our meet+ 0 = ! bett]4 ,z iron %>pne? iron1 s do? ! c\nt5ance ( a man 8 fri5d4 ,we rememb]$ ! ye>s ( ! "r h& ( ! mo/ high2 & h[ ! ,"l fill$ our m\?s ) laught]1 :5 he br\ght back our captivity4 ,"l bless ?is man1 & make him fai?ful 9 all ?+s6 ,& n[ t ,i am come to ?is city to prea* ! gospel ( ! k+dom1 & sp5d my life & /r5g? 9 ?y s]vice2 assi/ me ,o ,"l1 & make ?y goodness kn[n to me4 ,give me wisdom & /r5g?1 ,o help me ,"l ,jesus1 to glorify ?y "n4 ,am540 8,i read ?r\gh to day1 ! epi/le ( ,/4 ,james4 ,& ,i d n wond] t ! pr\d1 ! s5sual1 & ! lov]s ( ! _w1 yea all ! ungodly ( ! e>?1 %\ld f9d fault ) x4 ,9 pray] ) ! family1 ! _s 0 p\r$ out f on high ^u u1 & great grace re/$ ^u u all40 8,aft] pray] ?is morn+1 ,i began & read ?r\gh1 9 ,greek & ,lat9 ! #b;d4 ,epi/le to ,timo?y1 & f\nd mu* in/ruction1 & repro( = my s\l4 ,o :at a man ought a m9i/] to be6 ,h[ holy1 & h[ wise6 ,:at c\rage1 zeal1 pati5ce & temp]ance1 are necess>y = him 9 an especial mann] 9 ord] to give acc\nt ( himself & o!rs to ,god ) joy40 8,prea*+ on #a ,john iv4 #ah4 ,my m9d 0 m cle>ly enlight5$ ?an ev]1 to see t p]fect love is ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,by simple1 b p[]ful fai?1 ,i desire to atta9 x2 & to live & gr[ 9 ?is love1 till my _s returns to ,god40 ,) su* desires1 & 9 su* m$itations z ^! did he sp5d 8 days & nights1 long+ & sigh+ = ! sight ( ,god cont9ually2 & 9 8 pray]s1 ! viol5ce ( 8 affections1 did n a little increase ! weakness ( 8 body4 ,! ,end ( ! ,elev5? ,,volume4