,,asbury _/ ,,up ,,f ,,me?odism ,,h]b]t ,,asbury ,,up ,,f ,,me?odism ,illu/ration ,,alfr$ ,a ,,knopf ,,new ,,york #aibf ,copyright #aibf by ,alfr$ ,a4 ,knopf1 ,inc4 ,manufactur$ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ( ,am]ica ,,to ,,/anley ,,walk] ,,*apt] ,i ,page #c ,,home ,,life ,,( ,a ,,boy ,,de/9$ ,,= ,,heav5 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,page #be ,,! ,,ma*9]y ,,( ,,salvation ,,*apt] ,,iii ,page #cf ,,taboos ,,( ,,! ,,"l',s ,,day ,,*apt] ,,iv ,page #ef ,,ag5ts ,,( ,,god ,,*apt] ,v ,page #ih ,a ,,bad ,,boy ,,comes ,,to ,,jesus ,,*apt] ,,vi ,page #aae ,,notes ,,on ,a ,,sa9t$ ,,relative ,,*apt] ,,vii ,page #abi ,,div]sions ,,( ,,an ,,ab&on$ ,,s9n] ,,*apt] ,,viii ,page #afh ,,conclusions ,,( ,a ,,man ,,gone ,,to ,,! ,,devil ,,asbury _/ ,,up ,,f ,,me?odism ,,home ,,life ,,( ,a ,,boy ,,de/9$ ,,= ,,heav5 #a ,on my fa!r's side1 accord+ to my family belief1 ,i am relat$ to ,cotton ,ma!r2 on my "m's side to ,rog] ,williams4 ,my great-great-uncle 0 ,francis ,asbury1 ! fir/ ,bi%op ( ! ,me?odi/ ,*ur* to be orda9$ 9 ,am]ica2 8 eld] half-bro!r 0 my great-great-gr&fa!r1 ,?omas ,asbury1 :o1 dis[n$ by 8 fa!r = v>i\s s9s1 ran away f ! family cottage 9 ,engl& & w5t to sea4 ,lat] he kidnapp$ ,susan ,j5n+s & m>ri$ h]1 & !n settl$ 9 ,virg9ia & s escap$ ! fate ( ! ,bi%op1 :o d\btless w5t to ! ,me?odi/ ,heav54 ,my great-gr&fa!r 0 ! ,rev4 ,daniel ,asbury ( ,fairfax ,c\nty1 ,va41 an e>ly pill> ( ,me?odism & "o ( ! great organiz]s ( ! ,*ur* 9 ! ,s\?4 ,:5 a "y man he w5t to ,nor? ,c>ol9a1 & 9 #agia f\nd$1 9 ,l9coln ,c\nty1 ! fir/ ,me?odi/ *ur* we/ ( ! ,catawba ,riv]4 ,lat] he 0 a ,presid+ ,eld] & labor$ valiantly = ! ,wesleyan ,god4 ,:5 b a boy he 0 captur$ by ! ,indians & kept a prison] = sev]al ye>s1 & is said to h conv]t$ ! entire tribe to ,*ri/ianity4 ,?r\gh\t 8 :ole life ,sunday 0 8 great day--he 0 born on ,sunday1 conv]t$ on ,sunday1 captur$ by ! ,indians on ,sunday1 releas$ on ,sunday1 rea*$ home on ,sunday1 0 orda9$ z a m9i/] on ,sunday1 & on a ,sunday m>ri$ ,nancy ,morris 9 ,brunswick ,c\nty1 ,va4 ,8 fir/ *ild 0 born on ,sunday & he di$ on ,sunday4 ,my gr&fa!r 0 ! ,rev4 ,william ,asbury ( ,nor? ,c>ol9a1 a local prea*] :o1 = "s reason t ,i h nev] kn[n1 quit rais+ s\ls to ,heav5 & mov$ ov] into ,mississippi1 :]e he _h equally poor success rais+ coons & cotton4 ,he m>ri$ ,susan ,le/] ,m>ks1 memb] ( an equally religi\s family4 ,sev]al ( 8 sev5 sons 7 ,me?odi/ prea*]s1 & my fa!r1 too1 w\ld h assum$ ! clo? _h n ! ,civil ,w> come along4 ,he enli/$ 9 ! ,conf$]ate ,army & became an (fic] ( infantry1 & infantrym5 d n make good prea*]s4 ,at ! close ( ! ,w> he /udi$ ,civil ,eng9e]+ & !n mov$ to ,miss\ri1 & settl$ 9 ,f>m+ton1 :]e ,i 0 born4 ,he 0 c\nty ,surveyor ( my home c\nty ( ,/4 ,francois = m ?an ?irty ye>s1 & ,city ,cl]k ( ,f>m+ton = tw5ty ye>s4 ,! exig5cies ( local politics compell$ him to att5d s]vices & take an active "p 9 *ur* "w1 b ,i h no recollection ( him z a religi\s man1 al?\gh he impos$ religion ^u 8 home & impress$ ^u 8 family ! necessity ( ,*ri/ian salvation4 ,i fir/ suspect$ t he might n be z religi\s z report$ :5 ,i :ack$ him across ! %9s ) a broom/ick z he sat 9 ! y>d "o day nurs+ 8 rheumatism4 ,he did n turn ! o!r %94 ,?is 0 n long aft] we _h mov$ f ! cottage across ! /reet f ! ,masonic & ,ca?olic cemet]ies to our new h\se on ! o!r side ( ! t[n1 ne> ! mansions ( our fir/ families1 ! ,web]s & ! ,cayces4 ,curi\sly en\gh1 ^! gravey>ds 7 side by side1 al?\gh _! occupants presumably w5t to diff]5t ,heav5s4 ,!re 0 a high f5ce betwe5 !m1 & x 0 n easy to dispose ( ! bord]-l9e burial plots2 ! ,prote/ants felt t a few ,ca?olic demons might be able to crawl ?r\gh or "u ! f5ce1 & ! ,ca?olics did n wi% to h _! mortal rema9s s close to ^? ( su* b5ight$ hea!n z ! ,me?odi/s & ! ,presbyt]ians4 ,my "m's p1 ! ,pri*>ds & ! ,blues1 came orig9ally f ,nor? ,c>ol9a1 ,georgia & ,t5nessee1 & 7 = ! mo/ "p dev\t ,bapti/s1 believ+ t 9 imm]sion alone 0 true salvation4 ,! /r5g? ( _! religi\s convictions may be se5 9 ! fact t _m ( !m nev] =gave my "m = m>ry+ a ,me?odi/ & transf]r+ h] lett] to my fa!r's ,*ur*1 =sak+ ! au/]ities ( h] family fai?4 ,!y consid]$ ! ,me?odi/s too lib]al6 ,! true ,bapti/ ( ^? days 0 9 a con/ant emotional upheaval2 8 religion 0 a cank] t ate deep] & deep]1 & he 0 able to f9d no relief2 ! m religi\s he became1 ! m mis]able he 04 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! ,me?odi/ enjoy$ t]rific & p]iodical emotional explosions1 & !reaft] 0 g5]ally able to live = a few days 9 comp>ative calm4 ,b ! ,bapti/ 0 wrapp$ 9 gloom f ! mom5t ( 8 conv]sion until he 0 call$ home to ,jesus4 ,:5 my "m's =be>s came up f ! ,s\? !y settl$ )9 a radius ( tw5ty miles ( ,f>m+ton1 _m ( !m 9 ! vic9ity ( ,hazel ,run & ,fr5* ,village4 ,!y 7 f>m]s1 ) a spr9kl+ ( small /orekeep]s1 prea*]s & c\ntry doctors4 ,my "m's fa!r1 ,joseph ,pri*>d1 0 a f>m]1 b he 0 v religi\s & 0 r5[n$ ?r\gh\t ! c\ntryside ar\nd ,fr5* ,village = 8 exploits z a fai? heal]2 he c\ld cure too?a*e1 remove w>ts & /op ! fl[ ( blood4 ,8 me?od 0 m]ely to say3 8,x w be gone by ! "t y get home10 & g5]ally x 04 ,he frequ5tly remov$ w>ts f my own h&s2 at lea/ !y vani%$ )9 a reasonable "t aft] he _h look$ at !m & pron\nc$ 8 incantations1 & ,i reg>d$ him ) awe4 ,!re 0 a tradition 9 our family t my gr&fa!r boa/$ ,indian blood 9 8 ve9s1 & al?\gh ,i d n ?9k x 0 true1 at ! "t x gave me great pride & satisfaction2 x inve/$ me ) au?ority at su* times z we play$ ,indian & ,wild ,we/ games4 ,he made a two-ye> trip ov]l& to ,cali=nia dur+ ! #ahdi gold ru%1 )\t conspicu\s success1 & br\ght back ) him ! musket ) :i* we 7 giv5 to und]/& he _h sla9 innum]able ,indians4 ,two or ?ree times a ye> 8 *ildr5 & 8 gr&*ildr51 a va/ horde all told1 held family reunions at 8 ,fr5* ,village f>m1 & ! big mom5t ( ! day came 9 ! aft]noon :5 all ( ! gr&*ildr5 troop$ into ! woods beh9d ! b>n to wat* ,gr&pa kill a squirrel4 ,we /ood 9 a half-circle1 almo/ ov]come by awe1 :ile my gr&fa!r load$ 8 gun ) great c>e1 p\r+ ! correct am\nt ( p[d] f 8 p[d] horn & dump+ ! bullets f 8 p\* into ! palm ( 8 h&1 :]e he c\nt$ !m c>efully4 ,& !n he kill$ ! squirrel1 :ile we /ood beh9d him & m>vel$4 ,he nev] fail$2 he 0 an excell5t rifle %ot2 9 8 n9ety-fir/ ye>1 ?ree ye>s be=e he di$1 he knock$ a squirrel f a tree z easily z ,davy ,crockett c\ld h done x4 ,z a "y man 9 ,georgia & lat] 9 ,miss\ri my gr&fa!r ,pri*>d 0 fam\s z a lead] ( ,bapti/ s+-songs4 ,8 favorite hymn 0 8,! ,prodigal ,son10 :i* he 0 wont to bell[ ) fanatical f]vor z he sat bolt upright 9 an uncom=table1 /raight-back$ *air & direct$ ! s++ ) a /ick4 ,he sang f an old hymn book :i* _h be5 9 8 family = _m ye>s1 a curi\s volume ) ! music pr9t$ 9 squ>e notes4 ,_m ( ! hymns express$ s5tim5ts t to-day1 ev5 9 religi\s circles1 w\ld be consid]$ obsc5e4 ,i recall "o t said3 8,oh1 s9n]s6 ,my b[els d move ) desire60 ,i 0 con/antly "u ! influ5ce ( my "m's p1 :o did :at !y c\ld to ov]come ! p]nici\s influ5ce ( ! ,me?odi/s2 !y prevail$ ^u me to visit !m & att5d _! revivals & o!r religi\s meet+s1 & o!rwise attempt$ to ov]see & assure my ev5tual salvation4 ,"s ( my fa!r's p1 too1 _h come up f ! ,s\?1 f ,virg9ia & ,nor? ,c>ol9a & ,mississippi1 & _h settl$ ar\nd ,f>m+ton4 ,_m ( !m 7 excessively pi\s1 al?\gh x is my recollection t !y did n c>ry _! love ( ,god & man into ! conduct ( _! temporal affairs2 religion 0 n p]mitt$ to int]f]e ) bus9ess4 ,betwe5 !m & my "m's p !re 0 a con/ant1 al?\gh n op51 fight = my s\l1 & ! s\ls ( my si/] & bro!rs4 ,! b\t appe>s to h be5 a draw4 #b ,we 7 a musical family4 ,my eld] bro!r & ,i play$ ! h>monica1 or ,fr5* h>p1 z we call$ x !n1 & my si/] p]=m$ capably ^u ! organ1 ! guit> & ! m&ol94 ,%e 0 p>ticul>ly adept ^u ! guit>1 & enjoy$ an enviable reputation = ! way %e :ang$ out ! f&ango pieces & ! tune descriptive ( ! ,battle ( ,seba/opol1 :i* requires mu* bang+ & ?ump+ & difficult f+]+4 ,my fa!r 0 a fiddl]4 ,he did n "k "o note f ano!r1 b he c\ld tuck 8 fiddle "u 8 *91 tap ! floor ) 8 foot & play ) great _s su* tunes z 8,fi%]'s ,hornpipe10 8,billy 9 ! ,l[ ,gr\nd10 8,turkey 9 ! ,/raw0 & 8,! ,arkansas ,travel]40 ,b 8 muse 0 dumb if he c\ld n pat 8 foot4 ,i c\ld also beat a sn>e drum passably1 & lat] ,i le>n$ to play ! viol91 ! cornet & ! alto horn1 s t we _h q a family or*e/ra1 & our h\se 0 frequ5tly fill$ ) music4 ,anyh[ we play$ ^! in/rum5ts4 ,b n on ,sunday4 ,our ,prea*] assur$ u t music on ,sunday1 except 9 *ur*1 0 s9ful & an affront to ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 & on ,saturday night1 aft] a f9al orgy ( melody1 my "m ga!r$ up ! guit>s & m&ol9s1 ! fiddles1 ! drums & ! h>monicas & all ( ! o!r musical in/rum5ts1 ev5 ! jew's-h>p1 & put !m "u lock & key until ,monday morn+4 ,we c\ld n ev5 play a comb on ,sunday1 al?\gh on r>e occasions1 usually :5 ! ,prea*] 0 !re & gave p]mission & absolution f s9ful consequ5ces1 ,i 0 p]mitt$ to br+ out my big h>monica1 f :i* ,i c\ld produce ! sonor\s tones ( an organ1 & play *ur* hymns su* z 8,rock ( ,ages0 & 8,ne>]1 ,my ,god1 to ,!e40 ,b ,i 0 =bidd5 to play 8,turkey 9 ! ,/raw0 or 8,! ,mock+ ,bird0 ) v>iations4 ,! latt] 0 my favorite tune1 because by jiggl+ my h& ov] ! h>monica ,i c\ld produce a v effective trill :i* ,i fondly believ$ 0 z beautiful z ! s++ ( a can>y1 b if ,i laun*$ into su* a tune on ,sunday ,i _h debau*$ ! ,sabba?1 & my h>monica 0 tak5 f me4 ,& frequ5tly ,i myself 0 tak5 into ! wood%$ & taught a prop] respect = ! ,"l's ,day4 ,"u no circum/ances c\ld we play ! fiddle 9 our h\se on ,sunday1 because ( all music1 t :i* came f ! fiddle 0 ! mo/ s9ful4 ,x 0 ! ,devil's in/rum5t4 ,no fiddl+ on ,sunday _h be5 a c>d9al rule ( my fa!r's family s9ce ,colonial days 9 ,virg9ia1 & lat] 9 ,mississippi & 9 ,nor? ,c>ol9a my gr&mo!r _h compell$ h] ,negro slaves to put up _! musical in/rum5ts f ,saturday night to ,monday morn+4 ,ev5tually ,i took lessons f ! music tea*] 9 ,f>m+ton & le>n$ to call ! fiddle a viol91 & z ,i grew old] ,i play$ :5 ,i pleas$1 al?\gh n v successfully4 ,b s long z ! in/rum5t rema9$ a fiddle x 0 play$ 9 our h\se on ,sunday on only "o occasion4 ,& !n ! p]=mance 0 a neighborhood sc&al1 & only ! fact t ! in/rum5t _h be5 play$ by a ,prea*] sav$ u f gett+ into tr\ble ) ,god & ,8 repres5tatives 9 ,f>m+ton4 ,?is tweak+ ( ! heav5ly nose occurr$ dur+ a ,di/rict ,conf]5ce1 :5 ! visit+ prea*]s 7 p>cel$ out among ! fai?ful ( ! local ,me?odi/ *ur*4 ,two came to u1 "o a "y man fill$ ) good works & a con/ant1 fretful worry ov] ! l[ e/ate ( ! human race1 & ! o!r an old man :o _h be5 a wick$ s9n] 9 8 "t & :o _h nev] be5 able to resi/ an occasional temptation to h a good "t4 ,he 0 a ,virg9ian & an accompli%$ fiddl]1 b he c\ld play no?+ b dance music1 :i* ! d>kies _h taught him4 ,! fir/ ,sunday !y 7 at our h\se my fa!r admitt$ t we _h a fiddle1 & ! old ,prea*] dem&$ t x be br\ght out = him to p]=m ^u4 ,my fa!r & "m 7 9 t]ror all aft]noon = fe> t ! neighbors w\ld he> ! wail+ ( ! fiddle1 al?\gh !y prevail$ ^u ! old man to use a mute & ! music c\ld h>dly be he>d outside ! room4 ,we 7 p>ticul>ly afraid t a dev\t ,si/]1 :o liv$ next door to u & ^: pr9cipal occupation 0 go+ to *ur*1 might he> x2 if %e _h x w\ld h be5 no?+ %ort ( a cata/rophe1 = ! tale w\ld h be5 all ov] t[n be=e nightfall4 ,s we clos$ ! w9d[s & ! doors1 mut$ ! fiddle & put ! old ,prea*] 9 ! p>lor1 :]e he fiddl$ until he _h s9n$ en\gh4 ,b ev5 !n sev]al p pass+ along ! /reet he>d x1 & ,i d n ?9k t we ev] q liv$ x d[n4 ,we c\ld conv9ce no "o t ! fiddle _h be5 play$ by a ,man ( ,god4 ,ev]yone knew bett]2 ,m5 ( ,god did n d su* ?+s4 #c ,e ,w$nesday night we att5d$ pray] meet+1 & on ,sundays we w5t to ,sunday s*ool & twice to *ur*4 ,& on ,sunday aft]noon1 & on week days1 !re 7 ! sessions ( ! v>i\s *ur* organizations4 ,we _h grace be=e meat 9 our home1 & :5 ! ,prea*] came to d9n] he deliv]$ long-w9d$ pray]s on ! univ]sal !me ( 8gimme40 ,we did n h t emotional orgy call$ family pray]1 b ,i did n escape x2 ,i enc\nt]$ x 9 _m ,f>m+ton homes & 9 ! h\ses ( almo/ all ( my relatives4 ,x 0 p>ticul>ly oppressive 9 ! home ( an oppressively dev\t k9sman :om ,i call$ uncle4 ,he 0 n actually my uncle2 he 0 relat$ to my fa!r by m>riage1 & ,i d n believe !re 0 any blood k9%ip1 b ,i ?\ght ( him z uncle1 & he _h a c]ta9 measure ( au?ority ov] me1 s t to a consid]able ext5t ,i 0 "u 8 control & subject to 8 influ5ce until ,i became intellig5t en\gh to h an occasional ?\ght ( my own4 ,my uncle 0 an extraord9>ily pi\s man1 an (ficial ( our *ur* & ( our ,sunday s*ool1 & a lead] 9 e movem5t design$ to entice ! s9n] f 8 wick$ ways & lead him to ! true religion ( ! ,wesleyans4 ,he 0 int5t ^u salvation = ev]yone1 & let no opportunity pass to s]ve ! ,"l4 ,he fr[n$ ^u laught]1 & al?\gh he _h a v *>m+ family1 !re 0 little joy 9 8 home2 a laugh seem$ to make him uncom=table & />t a tra9 ( dismal religi\s ?\ght1 & ,i ga!r$ ! impression t all mir? 0 a direct & /udi$ affront to ,god4 ,e night aft] d9n]1 or supp]1 z we call$ x !n1 8 liv+ room 0 giv5 ov] to family pray]4 ,i frequ5tly sp5t ! night ) 8 y\nge/ son1 my *um = _m ye>s1 & 0 compell$ to att5d ) ! o!rs & absorb my nightly dose ( religion1 & li/5 to a solemn acc\nt ( ! fe>ful ?+s t ,god w\ld d to u if we /ray$ f ! pa? ( righte\sness4 ,!re 0 no laught]1 & !re 7 no jokes2 ! :ole atmosph]e ( ! h\se turn$ gray & gloomily oppressive :5 my uncle rose f 8 seat1 glanc$ sorr[fully at 8 family1 & ann\nc$3 8,we w n[ h pray]s40 ,he turn$ & ) b[$ head pass$ into ! liv+ room4 ,we sat at ! supp] table = a mom5t 9 sil5ce1 myself see+ gobl9s & fe>some av5g+ creatures ( ,god le]+ at me f e %ad$ corn] ( ! room1 & my m9d rac+ madly ov] ! day's activities to discov] :at ,i _h done t requir$ an alibi4 ,9 a few mom5ts my aunt arose & w5t sl[ly into ! o!r room1 & !n "o by "o ! o!rs4 ,we m>*$ solemnly1 ) d[nca/ eyes2 we might h be5 go+ to a fun]al4 ,inde$1 x seems to me n[ t we mu/ 9 tru? h be5 go+ to a fun]al2 "h 0 a f9e h\se built = ! w>m? ( human happ9ess1 turn$ into a =bidd+ mausoleum by ! m]e m5tion ( ,god4 ,9 ! liv+ room ,uncle await$ u1 /&+ beside ! small table on :i*1 always1 !re 0 no?+ b ! ,family ,bible4 ,he wait$ 9 sil5ce until we _h tak5 our places1 & !n he laid rev]5t h&s ^u ! ,book & began fumbl+ ) ! pages1 glanc+ %>ply ov] 8 spectacles to make sure t ev]yone 0 und]go+ "s sort ( emotional upheaval1 & look+ p>ticul>ly = "s sign ( revolt f 8 son & myself4 ,i d\bt if he ev] knew x1 b :5 ,i att5d$ family pray] 9 8 h\se ,i did n ?9k ( revolt4 ,i 0 9 an agony ( fright2 ,i felt z if some?+ 0 cru%+ me1 & t some?+ 0 my uncle's ,god1 an av5g+ mon/] ready to dev\r me = my s9s4 ,god 0 9 ! h\se & ,i 0 afraid4 ,! mo/ uncom=table *airs 9 ! h\se 7 us$ = family pray]1 & we p]*$ ^u _! edges1 afraid to s9k back & relax1 because we _h be5 told _m times t discom=t & righte\sness 7 well-nigh synonym\s4 ,god w\ld h be5 sc&aliz$ & indignant _h we made ourselves com=table to li/5 to ,8 ,^w4 ,& !n my uncle read f ! ,bible4 ,he read )\t joy2 he held 9 8 h& ! ,book :i* 9 8 eyes 0 ! sole hope ( humanity1 ! ,book t conta9$ ! glad news t = all mank9d !re 0 salvation1 b he read x z if x 7 a s5t5ce ( dea?1 sl[ly & solemnly1 dwell+ ) horrible cl>ity ^u ^? phrases t promis$ puni%m5t4 ,! ,bible seem$ to h no effect ^u him b to make him gloomy & mis]able4 ,at ! conclusion ( 8 read+1 he sl[ly clos$ ! ,bible & plac$ x ^u ! table4 ,he !n /ood = a mom5t 9 pr(\nd ?\ght1 8 *9 re/+ ^u 8 brea/4 ,i assum$ t he 0 ov]come by contemplation ( ! s9s ( a wick$ _w4 ,^? ( u :o 7 "y began ab\t ?is "t to it* ) t devili% it* :i* inv>iably afflicts a y\ng/] :5 !re is a p5alty = scrat*+4 ,we it*$ & it*$1 b we 7 afraid to scrat* because ,god 0 9 ! room1 & we knew z well z we knew any?+ t ,he w\ld puni% u if we mov$4 ,& f9ally my uncle />$ at ! ceil+ & said3 8,let u pray40 ,) almo/ ! precision ( automata we knelt by our *airs1 our knees gr9d+ into ! h>d c>pet1 :ile my uncle's voice so>$ 9 a sonor\s appeal to ! ,"l to give u "s ( ?is & "s ( t1 to bless u & make u prosp]\s1 &1 9 effect1 to hell ) su* infidels z ,jews1 ,ca?olics & ,presbyt]ians4 ,& !n he rose sl[ly to 8 feet & pass$ f ! room1 )\t speak+4 ,we foll[$1 & scatt]$ ab\t our v>i\s affairs1 b x 0 a long "t be=e we c\ld %ake (f ! effects ( ! religi\s debau* & play ) any ze/4 ,& ne>ly always ,i awoke "s h\rs lat] 9 ! ?roes ( a nightm>e1 pursu$ by fi5ds & demons %riek+ t ,i 0 to be boil$ & fri$ & cook$ 9 ! fires ( ,hell4 ,e night ye> aft] ye> ?is sort ( ?+ w5t on 9 h\ses all ov] ,f>m+ton1 & = t matt] all ov] ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,x w\ld be int]e/+ to "k h[ _m h\rs 7 wa/$ 9 ! c\rse ( a ye> by su* s5seless appeals to ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 by ?is con/ant reit]ation ( 8gimme1 gimme1 gimme40 #d ,_m ( my relatives on my "m's side att5d$ ,colony ,*ur*1 ab\t ?ree miles f ,f>m+ton4 ,?is 0 a h>d-%ell ,bapti/ congregation1 ! memb]s ( :i* took _! religion ) ! utmo/ s]i\sness & 7 con/antly on ! look\t = s9 to re> its reptile head4 ,if x did !y assail$ x ) glad cries4 ,!re 0 no organ 9 ?is *ur*2 inde$1 = _m ye>s none ( ! ,bapti/ *ur*es 9 & ab\t ,f>m+ton w\ld p]mit any sort ( music at _! s]vices1 hold+ t music 0 an inv5tion ( ! ,devil design$ to entice ,*ri/ians f respectful contemplation ( ! m]cies & graces ( ! ,"l1 & t no dev\t ,*ri/ian c\ld he> music & /ill keep 8 m9d on ,god & 8 he>t true to ! fai?4 ,_! attitude t[>d ! organ 0 exactly t ( ! good ,si/] ( :om ,w ,c>leton sang 9 8 ,f>m ballads3 ,i've be5 a ,si/] good & true ,= five & ?irty ye>2 ,i've done :at seem$ my "p to d1 ,& pray$ my duty cle>4 ,b dea? w /op my voice1 ,i "k1 ,= he is on my track2 ,& "s day ,i to *ur* w g1 ,& nev]more come back4 ,& :5 ! folks get up to s+1 ,:5e'er t "t %all be-- ,i d n want no pat5t ?+1 ,a-squeal9' ov] me4 ,9 lat] ye>s1 ( c\rse1 ! ,bapti/s became almo/ civiliz$ & mo/ ( _! *ur*es b\ght organs2 9 "s !re 7 ev5 pianos4 ,b 9 few ( ! *ur*es ( ! ,f>m+ton c\ntryside1 9 my e>ly y\?1 0 !re m f]v5t religion on tap ?an at ,colony ,*ur*4 ,!re 7 frequ5t revivals1 & _m basket d9n]s1 :5 ! f>m wom5 br\ght huge quantities ( food to ! *ur* e>ly 9 ! morn+1 & all day long ! congregation gave itself up to an orgy ( eat+ & sav+ s\ls4 ,at mo/ ( ^! revivals !re 7 foot-wa%+s2 !y 7 usually ann\nc$ at ! morn+ s]vice = ! aft]noon1 & !n !re 0 a great scurry+ home or to ! ne>e/ creek1 or crick1 z x 0 g5]ally call$1 :]e ! feet 7 wa%$ vigor\sly ) soap & made pres5table = public exposure 9 ! aisles & ar\nd ! pulpit ( ! *ur*4 ,"o ( ! mo/ fam\s ( ! ,colony ,*ur* foot-wa%+s1 "o t is /ill talk$ ab\t :5 ! good ,bro!rs & ,si/]s get toge!r 9 t neighborhood1 end$ ! enmity ( a wid[1 ,si/] ,letts1 & a lawy] ^: "n ,i d n recall4 ,= ye>s !re _h be5 great bitt]ness betwe5 !m1 & al?\gh ! congregation _h pray$ = !m & _h exhort$ !m to =give1 ! ,"l _h n ent]$ _! he>ts1 & s !y cont9u$ to treasure _! hate4 ,b at l5g?1 on a ,sunday morn+ dur+ a revival1 ! prea*] ann\nc$ t !re w\ld be a foot-wa%+ t aft]noon1 & ! ,bro!r rose & spoke3 8,i h op5$ my he>t to ,god10 he said1 8& ,he has in/ruct$ me to =give ,si/] ,letts4 ,?is aft]noon ,i %all wa% h] feet40 ,!re 0 a murmur ( en?usiasm all ov] ! *ur*1 & "o lea!r-lung$ ,bro!r popp$ to 8 feet & %\t$3 8,am51 ,bro!r6 ,glory to ,god60 ,& !n ,si/] ,letts b\nc$ to h] feet & cri$ t %e1 too1 prais$ ! ,"l & w\ld wa% ! feet ( ! ,bro!r4 ,t aft]noon ! *ur* 0 cr[d$4 ,almo/ e family ( ! c\ntryside 0 on h& to see ,god end ?is bitt] qu>rel :i* _h come s ne> to disrupt+ ! congregation4 ,! s]vice proce$$ z usual1 op5+ ) "s su* cat*y hymn z 8,br++ 9 ! ,%eaves10 & !n ?r\gh ! s]mon to ! sl[1 solemn songs l 8,h[ ,firm a ,f\ndation0 & 8,ne>]1 ,my ,god1 to ,!e40 ,!n came ! foot-wa%+1 :5 ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s prov$ _! humility & %[$ t :5 x came "r d[n to brass tacks !y 7 no bett] ?an ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x 0 felt t ! legal ,bro!r & ,si/] ,letts %\ld h ! honor ?us to %[ (f fir/ be=e ,god1 & s = a little :ile no "o mov$ :5 ! ,prea*] ann\nc$ t ! "t _h come1 & t bas9s ( wat] & t[els w\ld be provid$4 ,b at l5g? ! ,bro!r got to 8 feet & m>*$ /iffly d[n ! aisle to ! pulpit1 :]e he procur$ a pan & a t[el4 ,) ^! 9 h& he p>ad$ back up ! aisle t[>d ! la/ r[1 :]e ,si/] ,letts rock$ back & =? & murmur$ 9 ec/asy3 8,praise ! ,"l1 ,bro!r6 ,praise ! ,"l60 ,mov+ sl[ly to a *orus ( am5s & un9telligible mumbl+s ( piety1 ! ,bro!r 0 "s di/ance up ! aisle :5 ,si/] ,letts />t$ to meet him4 ,halfway betwe5 ! back door & ! pulpit !y /opp$1 fac+ ea* o!r4 ,& !n a new difficulty arose4 ,!y _h by n[ ?or\ghly giv5 !mselves to ,god & 7 suffus$ ) a wond]ful gl[ ( self-appreciation at ?is pro( ( _! humility1 b ea* want$ to prove x fir/4 ,ea* appe>$ to feel t ! "o :o fir/ wa%$ a foot w\ld receive ! great] am\nt ( kudos f ! ,"l4 ,s !y began to argue1 & ! heat ( ! discussion spread all ov] ! congregation1 & "h & !re ,bro!rs & ,si/]s became s upset by ! _s t !y jump$ to _! feet & began %\t+ l\dly1 b\nc+ up & d[n & fl++ _! arms ab\t4 ,my si/]1 a small *ild1 0 practically ov]come by curiosity1 & add$ to ! excitem5t by lean+ too f> f h] seat & fall+ into ! aisle1 s eag] 0 %e to see ! c]emony4 ,%e 0 promptly spank$ & put back 9 place by my ,aunt ,ophelia1 & sev]al dev\t p]sons ne> h] intimat$ /rongly t %e 0 a s9ful1 blasphem\s little wret*4 ,x seem$ = a "t t !re w\ld be a deadlock1 z nei!r ,si/] ,letts nor ! ,bro!r 0 will+ to give 94 ,s ! congregation sang a hymn :ile !y /ood />+ at ea* o!r1 & !n ! ,prea*] pray$ to ! ,"l to make a decision z to :o %\ld wa% ^: feet fir/4 ,& app>5tly ,god said ,e5ey ,me5ey ,m9ey ,mo & pick$ ,si/] ,letts to be ,x1 = ! ,bro!r sudd5ly surr5d]$ & sat 9 a *air :i* _h be5 pu%$ into ! aisle = him4 ,he b>$ 8 foot1 & ,si/] ,letts dropp$ to h] knees & pok$ x into ! bas9 ( wat]4 ,i d n "k if ! ,bro!r wriggl$ 8 toes4 ,hav+ lav$ him1 ,si/] ,letts pli$ h] t[el vigor\sly to a groan+ *orus ( 8,am560 t arose f all p>ts ( ! *ur*1 & !n %e sat 9 ! *air & remov$ h] %oe & /ock+ & ! ,bro!r p]=m$ ! c]emony4 ,! congregation1 ev]yone fill$ to ! bur/+ po9t ) emotion1 !n /ood & sang quav]+ly 8,h[ ,firm a ,f\ndation40 ,si/] ,letts & ! ,bro!r return$ to _! seats4 ,x 0 g5]ally agre$ t by wa%+ ea* o!r's feet !y _h practically assur$ !mselves *oice seats 9 ,heav54 #e ,i 0 fall[ gr\nd = all ^! se$s ( piety1 = ,i 0 a highly emotional & excitable boy4 ,i wept :5 ,i he>d sl[ music1 ,i %iv]$ ) fe> ov] ! gho/ /ories & ! frightful tales ( ,hell t 7 told to me ) su* regul>ity1 & x 0 usually ,i :o saw ! spooks :5 we play$ or hunt$ = bumblebees among ! tombs ( ! ,masonic cemet]y4 ,!re is no tell+ :at ,i might h se5 _h ,i ev] be5 able to summon suffici5t c\rage to ent] ! ,ca?olic cemet]y at night4 ,i did g z f> z j inside ! gate once1 & imm$iately !re arose 9 front ( me an app>ition t to my m9d c\ld be no?+ less ?an ! ,devil himself4 ,& ?is 0 n surpris+1 = ,i well knew t ! ,ca?olics 7 wor%ip]s ( a false ,god1 & x 0 q likely t _! gravey>d 0 ! abode ( evil spirits4 ,because ( my temp]am5t1 :i* impell$ me to believe ev]y?+ ,i 0 told1 & because f "t to "t ,i _h %[n indications ( be+ a bad boy if re/ra9t 7 n ex]cis$1 ,i receiv$ m religi\s in/ruction ?an my si/] or my bro!rs4 ,aga91 !re 0 ! matt] ( ance/ry4 ,our family connections1 especially my fa!r's p1 7 v pr\d ( our relation%ip to ! ,bi%op & our direct desc5t f ! ,rev4 ,daniel ,asbury1 & !y settl$ on me to c>ry on ! family tradition4 ,!re 0 mu* talk ( s5d+ me to a !ological s*ool1 & ,i appe>$ to be de/9$ = ! ,*ur*1 s t ,i 0 always wait+ = ! call to prea*1 ?\gh consci\s ( a vague hope t x w\ld be delay$4 ,b ,i _h no idea t ,i %\ld escape su* a fate1 = ,i accept$ z a basic fact ( life t 9 e g5]ation at lea/ "o ,asbury %\ld be a ,me?odi/ prea*]4 ,:]ev] ,i w5t ,i enc\nt]$ ! assumption t ,i 0 to succe$ ! ,bi%op & ! ,presid+ ,eld]1 & become a ,me?odi/ ,messiah h[l+ 9 ! wild]ness ( s9 & %ov+ s\ls into ! heav5ly hopp]s ) bo? h&s4 ,ev]yone seem$ to take x = grant$1 & :5 ,i talk$ to a /rang] he inv>iably said3 8,well1 well6 ,s y\r "n is ,asbury80 8,yes1 sir40 8,k9 to ! ,bi%op80 8,yes1 sir40 8,well1 well6 ,i suppose y w be a prea*]1 too80 8,yes1 sir4 ,i guess s40 ,if ! p]son to :om ,i talk$ 0 himself a ,prea*]1 or a ,bro!r1 he w\ld smile g5tly1 pat my head ) a moi/ palm & say3 8,god bless y1 my boy10 & pad on d[n ! /reet4 ,i c recall b "o p]son :o did n make "s su* s5seless rem>k4 ,he 0 a h>dw>e drumm] f ,/4 ,l\is1 a fat1 waggi% p]son 9 fla%y raim5t1 d\btless a s9n]1 :o /opp$ me z ,i m>*$ pr\dly pa/ ,doss's b>b] %op c>ry+ a /r+ ( fi%1 "o ( :i* 0 z l>ge a bass z 0 ev] tak5 out ( ! ,/4 ,francis ,riv]4 ,he tri$ to buy ! big fi%1 & :5 ,i refus$ to sell he ask$ me my "n & ! inevitable conv]sation foll[$4 ,b :5 ,i said to him3 8,yes1 sir1 ,i guess s10 he wr9kl$ 8 nose & said3 8,don't be a damn$ fool1 kid40 ,i felt a sudd5 ru% ( affection = ?is outspok5 p]son1 al?\gh ,i %udd]$ at ! ?\ght ( :at w\ld happ5 to him if a ,prea*] or a ,bro!r he>d him us+ pr(anity & told ,god ab\t x4 ,i pr(f]$ him "o ( my /r+1 a f9e crappie1 :i* he accept$ gratefully & on :i* he fea/$ lat] at ! ,/4 ,francis ,hotel4 ,lat] 9 ! ev5+ ,i met him z he swung bli!ly ?r\gh ! doors ( ,p]r+]'s ,saloon1 & he jovially invit$ me 9 to h a glass ( be]4 ,i ?\ght he mu/ be crazy2 ,i w\ld no m h ent]$ a saloon !n ?an ,i w\ld h committ$ mayhem ^u ! ,prea*]4 ,9 lat] life1 ( c\rse1 ,i did ent] saloons1 b h nev] be5 able to br+ myself to bite a prea*]1 al?\gh at times ,i h be5 sorely tempt$4 ,b x 0 a long "t be=e ,i und]/ood :at ! drumm] meant :5 he said1 z we p>t$3 8,well1 look out1 kid1 & don't let !m put t ,bi%op /uff ov] on y40 ,,! ,,ma*9]y ,,( ,,salvation ,f>m+ton 0 ab\t eight or t5 miles f ! lead-m9+ di/rict ( ,s\!a/ ,miss\ri1 :]e a great numb] ( l[ =eign]s 7 employ$1 b ,god did n p]mit any ore to be f\nd ne> u & s kept our t[n holy & undefil$ by _! pres5ce4 ,we did n greatly conc]n ourselves ) _! evil ways1 because we knew t =eign]s 7 little if any bett] ?an ! bea/s ( ! field1 & t ,god _h put !m on e>? = "s inscrutable purpose ( ,8 own1 ) :i* we 7 n to m$dle4 ,ev5 ! ,prea*]s & ! amateur devil-*as]s 9 su* t[ns z ,flat ,riv] & ,bonne ,t]re devot$ _! activities pr9cipally to spread+ ! ,gospel among ! home-br$ & let ! ,hunkies c>ry on :atev] nef>i\s practices pleas$ !m be/4 ,we didn't want !m 9 our ,heav51 anyh[4 ,our t[n ne/l$ 9 ! foo?ills ( ! ,oz>ks1 "s eighty-six miles f ,/4 ,l\is & two miles f ! ,de ,lassus /ation on ! ,belmont bran* ( ! ,iron ,m\nta9 ,railroad4 ,b ! civiliz+ influ5ces ( ! city seldom t\*$ any ( u except a few weal?y families :o c\ld af=d ! railroad f>e = frequ5t trips4 ,we _h !n "s #b1ejj inhabitants1 ! va/ majority ( :om 7 dev\t work]s = ! ,prote/ant ,god1 especially on ,sunday4 ,dur+ ! week _m ( !m put s& 9 ! sug> & weigh$ _! ?umbs ) ! sausage1 & o!rwise engag$ 9 legitimate & pr(itable bus9ess ent]prise1 b on ,sunday !y prais$ ! ,"l4 ,!re 7 b two or ?ree ,jewi% families 9 t[n !n1 & ,i d n recall t !y ev] attempt$ to practice _! religion2 c]ta9ly n 9 public4 ,d\btless our ,god w\ld h de/roy$ !m if !y _h ?us flaunt$ _! s9 9 our faces1 & mock$ u ) _! hea!n rites4 ,x is my recollection t !y att5d$ ! ,presbyt]ian *ur*1 b if s x 0 = bus9ess or social reasons4 ,! ,ca?olics _h a *ur*1 b !y 7 n num]ically /rong1 & did n am\nt to a great deal 9 ! t[n's s*eme ( ?+s1 al?\gh !y occasionally captur$ a city (fice or did a bit ( proselyt+ among ! backslid]s ( ! ,prote/ant congregations4 ,!y labor$ e>ne/ly "o :ole summ] try+ to ensn>e my si/] aft] h] allegiance to ! ,me?odi/ ,fa!r _h wav]$1 b !y 7 unsuccessful4 ,%e c\ld n swall[ ! ,pope1 or ! holy images & ! l4 ,nor c\ld %e le>n to cross h]self prop]ly1 al?\gh ,i became mu* int]e/$ & help$ h]2 we us$ to g beh9d ! b>n & practice 9 all s]i\sness1 b we inv>iably f\nd ourselves giggl+ at ! rite4 ,& few ?+s c de/roy religion quick] ?an a he>ty giggle4 ,! ,prote/ants ( ,f>m+ton made little if any ef=t to induce ! ,ca?olics to ab&on _! debau*]ies & embrace ! true religion2 g5]ally we consid]$ !m b5ight$ hea!ns & crazy p & let x g at t1 confid5t t 9 due "t ,god w\ld bla/ !m ) ,8 wra?1 de/roy _! *ur*es & p]haps s5d _! "y wom5 to ,heav5 to be virg9 angels 9 a ,prote/ant p>adise4 ,i 0 v eag] to see ?is :olesale de/ruction1 & wait$ pati5tly = _m ye>s1 hop+ t ,god w\ld furni% advance in=mation to ,8 intimate1 our ,me?odi/ pa/or1 s we w\ld be able to view ! p]=mance4 ,i /rongly favor$ an e>?quake & a bolt ( lightn+1 z be+ m spectacul>4 ,b ,i am sorry to say t no?+ ev] happ5$1 al?\gh "o night lightn+ /ruck ! /eeple ( ! ,ca?olic *ur* & !re 0 "s talk ab\t t[n t ,god 0 limb]+ up ,8 muscles & gett+ ready to %[ :at ,he c\ld really d4 ,"s ( our mo/ advanc$ ?9k]s conc$$ t p]haps ! ,ca?olics & ! few nondescripts :o pr(ess$ religion = ! sake ( bus9ess b :o w\ld n att5d *ur*1 _h _! own ,god1 q diff]5t f ours & unque/ionably a v inf]ior ,deity4 ,b p :o held ?is view 7 consid]$ entirely too *>itable2 x 0 all "r to admit t ,god might1 9 ! fullness ( "t1 & out ( t lov+ m]cy :i* keeps half ! _w con/antly at ! ?roats ( ! o!r half1 rel5t & p]mit a few ,ca?olics to ent] ,heav5 z l[ m5ials1 b to say t !y might h a ,heav5 ( _! own 0 go+ a bit too f>4 ,bo? socially & spiritually !y 7 on ! o!r side ( ! railroad tracks4 ,!y 7 simply n 9 our set1 & :5 any ( !m att5d$ our p>ties1 z sometimes happ5$ despite e precaution1 x 0 a matt] ( v great conc]n4 ,?+s may be diff]5t n[1 b :5 ,i 0 a boy cr++ be=e ! ?reat5+ la% ( ! ,me?odi/ ,god1 !re 0 grave d\bt t anyone :o liv$ s\? ( ! ,po/ ,(fice w\ld ev] am\nt to any?+ spiritually4 ,all ( ! reign+ sects ( ! ,prote/ants _h *ur*es 9 our t[n4 ,!re 0 also a ,lu!ran ,*ur* some:]e d[n by ,s*ramm's ,ice ,plant1 b its congregation 0 made up ( ,g]mans & :at n1 :o rank$ sc>cely high] ?an ! ,ca?olics & ! ,jews4 ,= "s "t dur+ my f9al ye> 9 high s*ool ,i 0 devot$ly atta*$ to a "y ,lu!ran girl1 & ?is atta*m5t 0 ! cause ( consid]able conc]n among "s ( my relatives4 ,x 01 !n1 my int5tion to m>ry h]1 al?\gh ,i quickly ab&on$ x aft] ,i _h t5tatively broa*$ ! matt] to "o ( my aunts4 8,%e is n a ,*ri/ian girl10 my aunt prote/$4 8,%e is a ,lu!ran10 ,i said4 8,!y are ,prote/ants40 8,b "s ( _! s]vices are 9 ,g]man6 ,h[ c !y be ,*ri/ians80 ,%e 0 p]fectly s9c]e4 ,%e believ$ firmly t ,god und]/ood no language b ,engli%1 & t1 hav+ no k ( ,g]man1 ,he c\ld n look ) favor ^u a ,lu!ran4 ,b x develop$ t ?is p>ticul> ,lu!ran c\ld n look ) favor ^u a ,me?odi/1 :i* 0 probably an insult to our ,me?odi/ ,god4 ,x 0 a great _m ye>s be=e ,i ov]came my surprise t ,god did n d some?+ ab\t x1 yet ,he seems to h done no?+ b make h] happy & h] husb& prosp]\s4 ,mo/ ( ! *ur*es 9 our t[n 7 on ,columbia ,/reet1 ! pr9cipal ?or\ghf>e1 & !y & _! subsidi>y s*ools 7 s num]\s t we pr\dly call$ ,f>m+ton 8,! ,city ( ,s*ools & ,*ur*es10 & enjoy$ great r5[n ?r\gh\t ,s\!a/ ,miss\ri = municipal piety & ,*ri/ian education4 ,on ?is /reet wor%ip$ ! ,presbyt]ians1 ! ,s\!rn ,me?odi/s--?is 0 ! *ur* ( ! ,asburys & enjoy$ special favors f ! ,"l--! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/s1 & ! ,*ri/ians or ,campbellites4 ,! ,bapti/s _h a *ur* 9 ano!r "p ( t[n1 9 ,doss's ,addition4 ,ea* ( ^! *ur*es _h a great _m int]lock+ organizations1 includ+ ,home ,mission>y ,societies1 ,=eign ,mission>y ,societies1 ,ladies' ,aid ,societies & o!r holy gr\ps4 ,! ,ladies' ,aid ,societies ( ! ,middle ,we/ h become fam\s1 & !y des]ve _! r5[n4 ,:5 ,i 0 a boy !y 7 9 tru? mo/ noble organizations4 ,!y rotat$ _! meet+s at ! homes ( ! memb]s1 p]=m+ at ea* h\se ab\t once e two weeks1 accord+ to ! numb] ( wom5 :o belong$4 ,_! sessions 7 excessively sanctimoni\s2 !y op5$ & clos$ ) pray]1 & frequ5tly "s good ,si/] w\ld at o!r times feel ! _s ( ! ,"l work+ )9 h]1 & %e w\ld pop up f ! quilt+ frame or ! %irt on :i* %e 0 sew+ = ! hea!n & yelp an appeal to ,god to give h] some?+ or damn somebody4 ,!re 7 also ,bible-read+s at ^! meet+s2 9 fact e "t a memb] ( our *ur* call$ on ano!r memb]1 a v]se f ! ,bible 0 read & a pray] 0 (f]$4 ,& curi\sly en\gh ^! dev\t ,*ri/ian ,si/]s display$ a great] lik+ = ! books ( ! ,old ,te/am5t ?an = ^? ( ! ,new4 ,9 all ( our congregations !re 7 _m special societies = "y p1 to :i* ! *ildr5 ( ! godly _h to belong & ^: meet+s !y _h to att5d4 ,_! numb] 0 great1 & ! majority ( _! titles escape me1 b ,i recall su* outfits z ! ,*ri/ian ,endeavor1 ! ,loyal ,temp]ance ,legion1 ! ,epwor? ,league1 ! ,bapti/ ,"y ,p's ,union1 & ! ,sun%9e ,brigade4 ,! ,legion 0 a union organization ( juv5ile foes ( rum1 & we us$ to meet on ,sunday aft]noons 9 ! ,presbyt]ian or ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur* & he> lectures on ! evils ( dr9k1 aft] :i* we w\ld /&1 raise our "r h&s & %\t 9 unison3 ,we hate ,rum6 ,we hate ,rum6 ,we hate ,rum6 ,our bodies w nev] be ravag$ by dr9k6 ,! ,sun%9e ,brigade 0 ano!r union organization1 9 :i* all ( ! *ur*es comb9$1 & 0 compos$ ( boys f eight to twelve or ?irte5 ye>s ( age4 ,we met two or ?ree times a week1 9 ! ev5+ aft] supp]1 g5]ally on ! spaci\s lawn ( ,m]rifield ,huff1 ! lawy]1 & fir/ we he>d a ,bible-read+ & a pray]4 ,!n we drill$1 9 milit>y fa%ion1 "u ! comm& ( old] boys :o _h be5 away to milit>y s*ools4 ,!n !re 7 m v]ses f ! ,bible1 ano!r pray]1 & we 7 s5t home ) unctu\s comm&s to be good boys & ?9k (t5 ( ! m]cy ( ! ,"l4 ,!y call$ u 8,little ,soldi]s ( ! ,"l10 & 8,our ,gr\p ( ,manly ,little ,fell[s40 ,!re 0 no?+ we c\ld d ab\t x4 ,! activities ( ! ,epwor? ,league & ! ,bapti/ ,"y ,p's ,union are too well kn[n to require comm5t2 !y p]si/ to ?is day1 & !re seems to be no likelihood t ! pres5t g5]ation w make an intellectual advance suffici5t to laugh !m out ( exi/5ce4 ,=tunately ,f>m+ton 0 sp>$ ! ,"y ,m5's ,*ri/ian ,association1 & ,i _h no contacts ) t rem>kable ag5cy ( salvation until ,i w5t to ,france ) ! ,am]ican ,army4 ,( my _m enc\nt]s ) ! ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 abroad1 two /& out 9 my memory4 ,"o occurr$ :5 ,i want$ a too?bru%1 :ile 9 comm& ( a platoon ( infantry 9 ! support l9e on ! ,vesle riv] front1 betwe5 ,fismes & ,bazo*es4 ,i walk$ ! eight miles or s back to division headqu>t]s ) a five-franc note 9 my pocket1 all ! money ,i _h 9 ! _w4 ,! ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 cante5 0 op5 !re1 & aft] ! secret>y 9 *>ge _h greet$ me sweetly z ,bro!r & inquir$ aft] ! condition ( my immortal s\l1 he produc$ a too?bru%1 = :i* he want$ two francs1 !n ab\t =ty c5ts4 ,i said ,i w\ld buy x1 !re be+ no ,r$ ,cross hut ne> :]e ,i c\ld h got "o = no?+1 & laid d[n my five-franc note4 ,b ! ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 man c\ld n *ange x1 nor c\ld we f9d anybody else ar\nd headqu>t]s :o c\ld d s4 ,! ,y man said t he c\ld n let me h ! too?bru% )\t paym5t & put x back 9 ! case1 & ,i walk$ ! eight miles back to my comm& )\t x1 reject+ 8 (f] ( a free pocket ,bible ) ! obs]vation t ! l9e 0 "o hell ( a place = a ,bible4 ,! second enc\nt] ) ! ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 occurr$ a week or s lat]1 at ,la ,pres ,f>m1 on ! same front & on ! road betwe5 ,mont ,/4 ,m>t9 & ,*]y ,*>treuve4 ,i _h ab\t two hundr$ sick & flat-foot$ infantrym5 !re1 wait+ = gas masks & o!r equipm5t s !y c\ld be mov$ to ! front1 & !y _h no?+ to smoke4 ,nei!r did !y h any money1 because !y _h n be5 paid = mon?s4 ,to ! f>m came a ,y4 ,m4 ,c4 ,a4 man lad5 ) boxes1 & :5 ,i ask$ him :at !y 71 he said cig>s4 ,he %[$ !m to my platoon s]geant & myself2 !y 7 f9e1 fat1 h&some smokes4 ,i sugge/$ t he lay out 8 /ock1 & t ,i w\ld h ! s]geant m>* ! troops pa/ 9 columns ( twos1 s t ea* man c\ld h a cig>4 8,t's f9e10 said ! ,y man1 8!y're fifte5-c5t cig>s1 b ! boys c h !m = t5 c5ts40 ,i told him t to my k !re 0 n t5 c5ts 9 ! :ole outfit1 & sugge/$ t he give ! cig>s to ! soldi]s & look to ,heav5 = paym5t4 ,b he w\ld n2 he said t he _h br\ght ! cig>s to ! l9e to sell & t he _h to h ! money = !m4 ,s ,i did ! ?+ t seem$ be/ "u ! circum/ances4 ,i took 8 cig>s away f him1 ! s]geant head$ him = ,division ,headqu>t]s1 & ,i kick$ him z h>d z ,i c\ld 9 ! pants4 ,! la/ ,i saw ( him1 he 0 /umbl+ d[n ! hill t[>d ! crossroad v[+ v5geance4 ,b ,i paid little att5tion to him2 ,i 0 busy h&+ out free cig>s1 & a few m9utes lat] ev]ybody at ! f>m 0 puff+ happily4 ,we _h also 9 ,f>m+ton ?ree d5om9ational s*ools1 ,elmwood ,sem9>y1 a girl's college ) prim>y & gramm> dep>tm5ts = bo? sexes1 op]at$ by ! ,presbyt]ians across ! /reet f _! *ur*2 ,c>leton ,college 9 ! l[] end ( ! t[n1 a ,nor!rn ,me?odi/ in/itution1 & ,bapti/ ,college1 ne> ! ,bapti/ *ur*4 ,c>leton & ,bapti/ 7 co$ucational4 ,i 0 educat$--,god save ! m>k6--at ,elmwood & ,c>leton1 & at bo? !re 0 mu* emphasis on religi\s tea*+4 ,c>leton1 ( c\rse1 s9ce x 0 run by ! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/s1 0 frankly a mill = gr9d+ out work]s = ! ,"l1 & !y p\r$ out ( ! hopp] 9 l>ge numb]s = _m ye>s4 ,gawky c\ntry boys came f ! f>ms ar\nd ,bull ,run1 ,hazel ,run & ,fr5* ,village1 & d[n-/ate t[>d ,lib]tyville & ,fr$]ickt[n1 & ent]$ ,c>leton ,college1 to em]ge a few ye>s lat] rip-snort+ evangeli/s hot on ! trail ( ! ,devil4 ,^? :o did n become pr(essional ,satan-*as]s develop$1 9 ! c\rse ( "t1 into pussyfoot+ ,bro!rs ) ke5 e>s = sc&al1 gimlet eyes = bor+ se>*+ly & suspici\sly into all amusem5t & pleasure1 & wagg+ tongues = scatt]+ se$s ( hol9ess4 ,& ,god made _! tee? v %>p1 = backbit+4 ,curi\sly en\gh1 ! ,presbyt]ians 9 ,f>m+ton compris$ ! lib]al elem5t1 9 s f> z we _h a lib]al elem5t4 ,?is 0 because our weal?y families1 or at lea/ our social lead]s1 7 app>5tly ,episcopalians at he>t & p]haps belong$ to ! ,presbyt]ian congregation only because we _h no ,episcopal *ur*4 ,!y 7 able to g to ,/4 ,l\is frequ5tly1 & did1 & consequ5tly acquir$ a bit ( metropolitan poli%1 & rubb$ (f "s ( our small-t[n intol]ance & r\ghness4 ,f "t to "t rumors 7 afloat t "s ( ^! p _h be5 se5 ent]+ ,episcopal *ur*es 9 ,/4 ,l\is1 b ,i h nev] he>d t !y 7 v]ifi$4 ,b = _m ye>s ?is elem5t _h a virtual monopoly ( su* s9ful practices z play+ c>ds1 danc+ & buggy-rid+ on ! ,sabba?4 ,i h he>d sev]al ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 & m ?an "o doleful & sorr[+ ,prea*]1 speak regretfully ( ! unholy spectacle ( a "y man ( "o ( ^! families driv+ a spank+ pair ?r\gh ! he>t ( ! t[n on ,sunday aft]noon1 ) an ab&on$ "y woman beside him & nei!r app>5tly c>+ "o s+le damn ab\t ! fate ( religion4 ,x 0 prophesi$ t !y c\ld come to no good end4 ,b ! g]m !y plant$ multipli$ enorm\sly4 ,,taboos ,,( ,,! ,,"l',s ,,day #a ,sunday %\ld be a day ( gladness1 & ( light & beauty1 = x is !n t ! =?right religioni/ is close/ to 8 ,god1 & :5 he is1 if ev]1 9 communion ) ! ,holy ,_s & presumably receives in/ruction ) :i* to conf\nd ! wick$ dur+ ! ensu+ week4 ,b 9 small communities :i* suff] f ! blight ( religion x nev] is1 & :5 ,i 0 a boy 9 ,f>m+ton ,sunday 0 a day ( dreadful gloom2 ov] ev]y?+ hung an atmosph]e ( morbid fe> & dejection4 ,9 ! morn+ ! :ole t[n donn$ its ,sunday suit1 almo/ always black & fun]eal & depress+1 & !re=e becom+ to religi\s practice1 & trudg$ sorr[fully & solemnly to ,sunday ,s*ool & to *ur*1 !re to wail doleful hymns & he> an unle>n$ man 8measure ) words ! immeasurable & s9k ! /r+ ( ?\ght into ! fa?omless20 & besee* ! ,"l ^u ! univ]sal pray] !me ( 8gimme40 ,!n ! village m>*$1 9 m\rnful cad5ce1 back home = ,sunday d9n]4 ,b be=e ! meal 0 eat5 ! juv5ile memb]s ( ! religi\s h\sehold 7 comm&$ to remove _! sabba? raim5t1 & 7 n aga9 p]mitt$ to assume ! habilim5ts ( ! godly until aft] supp]1 :5 ! family clut*$ its ,bibles & w&]$ =? despair+ly to ev5+ s]vice4 ,^! excursions1 ) att5dance ^u ! v>i\s meet+s ( ! "y p's societies & o!r *ur* organizations1 compris$ almo/ ! sum total ( ! ,sunday activity ( our t[n's inhabitants4 ,9 rec5t ye>s ! "y folks !re appe> to h gone :olehe>t$ly to ! ,devil1 & are gallivant+ ab\t ! c\ntry 9 automobiles1 li/5+ to radios1 danc+1 att5d+ baseball games on ! ,sabba? & o!rwise disport+ !mselves 9 a s9ful mann]1 b 9 my y\? we _h to obs]ve a v def9ite li/ ( ,sunday taboos1 9 addition to ! special don'ts laid d[n by ! m dev\t families1 accord+ to _! fe> ( ,god & ! f]vor ( _! belief4 ,we c\ld n play c>d games on ,sunday4 ,regulation play+ c>ds ( c\rse1 7 taboo at all times 9 ! be/ & mo/ religi\s families1 = ,god1 we 7 told1 _h in=m$ ! ,prea*] t c>ds 7 an inv5tion ( ! ,devil1 design$ to lure true believ]s into s92 b on ,sunday we c\ld n ev5 play su* games z ,lotto1 ,old ,maid & ,au?ors4 ,on week days ^! 7 consid]$ v amus+ & in/ructive pa/imes1 al?\gh 9 "s qu>t]s x 0 felt t !y caus$ too mu* laught]1 b if anyone s mu* z ?\ght ( !m on ,sunday he 0 head$ = ,hell4 ,! taboo aga9/ dr9k+ 0 9 effect e day 9 ! week = ! godly & _! *ildr51 n on acc\nt ( ! possible h>mful physical effects ( liquor1 b because ,god object$4 ,& ev5 ! ,t[n ,sot hesitat$ to take a dr9k on ,sunday1 = he knew t e ,prea*] & e ,bro!r & ,si/] w\ld be h[l+ to ,god to damn 8 immortal s\l & make a horrible example out ( him4 ,& h[ !y did love horrible examples6 ,no indoor games 7 p]mitt$4 ,?is taboo 0 9 =ce aga9/ 8,drop-!-,h&k]*ief10 8,puss-9-!-,corn]10 8,r+-,ar\nd ! ,rosy10 & 8,london ,bridge is ,fall+ ,d[n20 9 fact1 x includ$ ev]y?+ ! ,prea*] c\ld ?9k ( except games f\nd$ on ! ,bible4 ,t is1 we c\ld play games 9 :i* que/ions ( ,biblical hi/ory 7 ask$ & answ]$1 b !y _h to be conduct$ 9 a v solemn & decor\s mann]4 ,at ! fir/ laugh1 or at ! fir/ "q bas$ on ! m ribald portions ( ! ,scriptures1 su* z ,numb]s & ,deut]onomy1 ! game 0 /opp$ & ev]yone w5t home 9 disgrace4 ,"o ( my "y fri5ds :o once ask$ :at happ5$ to ,laban's h\sehold idol 0 s\ndly ?ra%$1 z 0 ano!r :o reque/$ a "y lady to enum]ate ! +r$i5ts ( ,ezekiel's bread4 ,! curi\s may le>n :at ! ,holy ,prophet ate by consult+ ,ezekiel #d3ae4 ,we c\ld h no outdoor games2 9 _m families1 inde$1 x 0 consid]$ irreligi\s to g out ( doors at all except to *ur*4 ,re/less boys 7 sometimes p]mitt$ to walk ar\nd ! block1 & once 9 a great :ile to play1 if !y did s quietly & rema9$ 9 ! back y>d1 :]e1 presumably1 ! ,"l c\ld n see !m4 ,anyh[1 ! neighbors c\ldn't4 ,p>ties & teas 7 =bidd51 & we c\ld n visit on ,sunday1 z a g5]al rule1 except among relatives4 ,& su* visits 7 usually turn$ into holy s+-songs1 b s9ce mo/ ( ! hymns 7 ei!r pornographic or slightly ,sadi/ic1 !re 7 ?rills galore 9 ?is sort ( ?+4 ,walk+ along ! ma9 /reet ( ! t[n on ,sunday 0 a s9 ( ! fir/ magnitude4 ,occasionally a gr\p w\ld obta9 p]mission to /roll s$ately d[n to ,old ,maid's ,spr+s & take kodak pictures 9 a ref9$ & g5teel mann]1 b a "y man & a girl caught ambl+ along ,columbia /reet 7 ! objects ( mu* unfavorable comm5t4 ,x 0 g5]ally agre$ t !y 7 no bett] ?an !y %\ld be1 & (t5 a ,prea*]1 or a ,bro!r or ,si/]1 w\ld /op !m & ord] !m to cease desecrat+ ! ,"l's ,day by su* frivol\s conduct4 8,g home10 !y w\ld be told1 8& pray to ,god to =give y40 ,we c\ld n g buggy-rid+ on ,sunday until we 7 old en\gh to take our hope ( ! h]eaft] 9 our h&s & tacitly admit our allegiance to ,satan4 ,girls :o did s & ?us flaunt$ _! s9 7 o/racis$ by _m ( our be/ families1 & 7 reg>d$ z ab&on$ hussies1 if n sc>let wom54 ,a man _h to hold a good _m promissory notes = 8 daught] to get away ) a ?+ l t4 ,! ,"l did n approve ( ,sunday-night supp]s1 & s we c\ld n h !m4 ,9 ! homes ( ! godly !re 0 only a cold snack = ! ev5+ meal4 ,x 0 consid]$ s9ful to light a fire 9 ! cook-/ove aft] twelve o'clock noon4 ,"o woman :o mov$ to ,f>m+ton f ,/4 ,l\is _h ! braz5 audacity to give =mal ,sunday-night d9n]s1 b %e sc&aliz$ ! t[n & nobody w\ld att5d b a few ,episcopalians disguis$ z ,presbyt]ians4 ,& ev5 !y c\ld n br+ !mselves to we> ev5+ clo!s4 ,b ,god soon puni%$ h]2 %e 0 s sev]ely criticis$ t %e f9ally w5t back to ! city4 ,danc+ on ,sunday1 ( c\rse1 or = t matt] on any o!r day1 0 ! ,s9 ( ,s9s4 ,i 0 told1 & until ,i 0 almo/ gr[n believ$ x1 t :oev] danc$ on ! ,sabba? w\ld imm$iately be engulf$ 9 a wave ( ,heav5ly wra?1 & 8 s\l plung$ into ! ,fires ( ,hell to frizzle & fry ?r\gh\t et]nity4 ,sunday newspap]s 7 n consid]$ religi\s1 al?\gh my fa!r w5t to ! ,devil to ! ext5t ( buy+ !m ea* ,sunday & p]mitt+ my bro!rs & myself to read ! comic sections4 ,usually we w5t to ,pelty's ,book ,/ore = !m aft] *ur*1 br++ home ! ,/4 ,l\is ,globe-,democrat1 ! ,republic & ! ,po/-,dispat*1 toge!r ) a horde ( small boys ^: p>5ts w\ld n p]mit !m to read any?+ on ,sunday b ! ,bible1 & :o !re=e came to our h\se & sprawl$ all ov] ! place read+ ! comics & ! magaz9e sections4 ,my fa!r 0 sev]ely criticiz$ = buy+ ! ,sunday newspap]s1 b he p]si/$ 9 8 wick$ness4 ,my pray]ful uncle w\ld n p]mit !m 9 8 h\se2 inde$1 all ( 8 books b ! ,bibles rema9$ 9 a lock$ case f ,saturday night to ,monday morn+4 ,b :5 my bro!rs & myself pass$ 8 home ) ! ,sunday pap]s "u our arms he always /opp$ u1 & kept u wait+ on ! sidewalk = half an h\r or m :ile he glanc$ at !m & eag]ly dev\r$ ! news4 ,b he w\ld n let u come 9 :ile we _h ! pap]s2 he w\ld meet u on ! walk1 & we 7 n old en\gh to object4 ,my fa!r f9ally became v tir$ ( ?is practice1 & himself w5t aft] ! pap]s4 ,! fir/ day he did ?is1 my uncle 0 on 8 front por*1 wait+ = u to come by1 & he /opp$ my fa!r & rea*$ = "o ( ! pap]s4 ,b my fa!r w\ld n let him h any ( !m4 8,no1 no10 he said4 8,y d n believe 9 ,sunday pap]s40 ,& !reaft] my uncle did n read our ,sunday pap]s1 al?\gh he occasionally visit$ u 9 ! aft]noon & look$ at !m1 aft] express+ 8 sorr[ at f9d+ !m 9 our h\se4 ,once he f\nd 8 son sprawl$ 9 our y>d guffaw+ ov] ! antics ( ! ,yell[ ,kid :5 he %\ld h be5 at a meet+ ( ! ,loyal ,temp]ance ,legion1 lift+ 8 *ildi% voice aga9/ ! ,rum ,demon4 ,my uncle *as$ ! lad home ) ?reats ( puni%m5t1 & !n himself took up ! funny section4 ,baseball games 7 play$ by ! ungodly on ! outskirts ( ! t[n on ,sunday1 b ! game 0 fr[n$ ^u by ! ,prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 :o d5\nc$ x z a lure ( ,satan & pr$ict$ dire spiritual tortures = ! play]s4 ,small boys :o att5d$ ! games 7 s\ndly :ipp$1 b occasionally we became s fev]i% ) ! desire to witness a conte/ t we slipp$ away f home & wat*$ ! game1 pret5d+ t we 7 go+ to visit relatives & li/5 to hymns play$ on an organ4 ,b !re 7 always spies ( ! ,"l at ! game to tell on u4 ,x 0 ?is opposition to ,sunday baseball t drove my y\ng] bro!r out ( ! ,me?odi/ ,sunday s*ool1 only a little :ile aft] ,i myself _h ab&on$ ! *ur*4 ,he 0 9 ! class taught by ,bro!r ,b5jam9 ,m>bury1 a lawy] & an exce$+ly l\d & bitt] antagoni/ ( baseball4 ,he d5\nc$ ! game be=e 8 class "o day1 & my bro!r said t he c\ld n see any?+ wrong ) x4 ,bro!r ,m>bury />$ at him /]nly4 8,w\ld ,jesus ,*ri/ att5d a baseball game on ,sunday if ,he 7 "h80 he dem&$4 ,my bro!r said he did n "k1 b ?\ght ,he w\ld1 & ,bro!r ,m>bury imm$iately knelt & ask$ ,god to =give ! blasphemy4 ,my bro!r 0 infuriat$ & nev] w5t back to ,sunday s*ool4 ,8 comm5t 03 8,:at did he h to br+ ,jesus ,*ri/ into x =80 #b ,we arose at ! usual h\r on ,sunday morn+1 p]haps a little lat]1 & imm$iately aft] breakfa/ began to get ready = ,sunday s*ool4 ,!re 0 hair to comb1 %oes to poli% 9 ! kit*51 cravats to tie ar\nd necks t _h become enl>g$ & r$d5$ by v>i\s activities on ! play+ fields1 & !re 7 nickels to secrete = ! collection boxes4 ,worse1 !re 7 ,sunday-s*ool lessons & ,gold5 ,texts to le>n1 & ! cate*ism to memorize4 ,dress$ 9 our ,sunday suits1 our hair slick$ moi/ly to our heads & ,sunday-s*ool pamphlets 9 our h&s1 my two bro!rs & ,i w5t solemnly d[n to ,newman's corn]1 turn$ into ! unnam$ /reet t ran pa/ ,elmwood ,sem9>y & !n into ,columbia ,/reet & s to ! ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur*4 ,ord9>ily a trip d[nt[n 0 a great deal ( fun2 we tripp$ ea* o!r1 pok$ ea* o!r 9 ! ribs or _h two or ?ree fights en r\te1 v>y+ ) ! w>m? ( our fri5d%ip = o!r boys we met ^u ! way4 ,b on ,sunday we w5t solemnly & fe>fully1 fir/ ,emmett1 !n myself & !n ,fr$1 accord+ to age & /ature4 ,we met o!r simil> gr\ps1 array$ z we 7 9 _! ,sunday suits & clut*+ _! lesson pamphlets1 & our greet+s 7 subdu$ & =mal4 ,we conv]g$ ^u ! *ur*1 & all ov] t[n ! bells toll$ & ! fai?ful m>*$ to he> ,god's intimates expla9 ,8 writt5 ^w1 & tell u calmly & def9itely :at ,he meant by ! mo/ obscure passages 9 ,8 ,book4 ,we sat 9 *ur* = an h\r & a half li/5+ to v>i\s v]sions ( ! ,hebraic fairy tales4 ,9 our *ur* ! ,sunday-s*ool room 0 set ap>t f ! ma9 auditorium1 b occasionally ! att5dance 0 s l>ge t x ov]fl[$ into ! *ur* prop]4 ,to mo/ ( u ,sunday s*ool 0 torture1 & ,i h no d\bt t x is /ill torture to mo/ *ildr54 ,x may be t ,i did n le>n a great deal ab\t ! ,bible 9 ,sunday s*ool1 b ,i d "k t x 0 9 ,sunday s*ool t ,i fir/ began to d\bt ! ,book4 ,i 0 naturally curi\s & inquisitive1 & ev5 !n1 "y z ,i 01 ,i c\ld n swall[ ! miracles ( ,jonah & ! :ale1 & ! idea ( ! virg9 bir? ( ,jesus ,i consid]$ absurd1 because 9 common ) mo/ small-t[n boys ,i _h a v def9ite k ( ! proc$ure employ$ 9 br++ babies into ! _w4 ,up to ! age ( sev5 or eight ,i ?\ght ! doctor br\ght !m 9 8 suitcase1 or t !y grew on bu%es 9 ! back y>d & 7 pluck$ :5 ripe1 b aft] ,i began to loaf ar\nd ! liv]y /able & ! ,po/ ,(fice build+ ,i acquir$ m correct in=mation4 ,nor c\ld ,i believe t ,noah's ,ark w\ld h held two ( e liv+ ?+ !n ^u ! e>?4 ,b ! ,prea*]s & ,bro!rs & ,si/]s insi/$ t ^! ?+s 7 lit]ally true2 !y d5\nc$ anyone :o d\bt$ & s\ght = symbolical mean+ z an unbeliev] & a blasphem\s son ( ,satan4 ,my si/]1 at ! age ( t51 0 ! object ( special pray]s & solemn conf]5ces because1 = no o!r reason ?an t %e want$ to be contr>y1 %e express$ a d\bt ( ! ,virg9 ,bir?4 ,%e 0 9 ,mrs4 ,judge ,c>t]'s ,sunday-s*ool class at ! "t1 b %e did n l ,mrs4 ,c>t] & disagre$ ) h] :5 %e ?\ght %e c\ld d s )\t subsequ5t puni%m5t4 ,mrs4 ,c>t] frequ5tly told h] pupils1 all little girls ab\t eight or t5 ye>s old1 ( ! m>vel\s mann] 9 :i* ,*ri/ came into ! _w1 b %e told x s vaguely t none ( !m _h any real und]/&+ ( x4 ,"o ,sunday morn+1 aft] ,mrs4 ,c>t] _h read some?+ ab\t ! ,virg9 ,bir?1 my si/] said flatly t %e did n believe x4 8,don't believe :at80 ask$ ,mrs4 ,c>t]4 8,virg9 bir?10 said my si/]4 8,i ?9k x's fooli%40 ,un=tunately1 %e made ?is obs]vation at a "t :5 ! :ole ,sunday s*ool 0 quiet save = ! mumbl+ ( ! cate*ism 9 v>i\s classes1 & h] ?9 little voice rea*$ e corn] ( ! room4 ,& in/antly !re 0 a horrifi$ sil5ce1 brok5 aft] a mom5t by someone :o said3 8,x's t blasphem\s little ,asbury girl40 ,mrs4 ,c>t] 0 /unn$2 ! effect ^u h] 0 ! same z if ,god _h walk$ 9 ! door & ann\nc$ t ,buddha1 or ,zoroa/]1 & n ,jesus ,*ri/1 0 ,8 son4 ,%e />$ = a mom5t at ?is bra% *ild :o _h defi$ religion &1 9 effect1 d5\nc$ ! ,holy ,book4 8,m>y60 %e said t]ribly4 8,d y realize :at y h done80 ,my si/]'s conception ( virg9 bir?1 or ( any sort ( bir?1 0 decid$ly hazy4 ,%e ?\ght ,virg9 ,bir? meant t ,*ri/ _h be5 born 9 a /able1 & %e knew p]fectly well t no nice *ild w\ld be born 9 su* a place4 ,anyh[1 %e _h he>d s mu* ab\t x t %e _h become q bor$ by x1 & %e felt x incumb5t ^u h] to d5y x4 ,b f ,mrs4 ,c>t]'s attitude %e knew t %e _h said a t]rible ?+2 at fir/ %e ?\ght ( recant+1 b %e look$ ab\t & felt ( h]self1 & :5 %e did n see any av5g+ angels ent]+ & c\ld f9d no sign t %e _h be5 /rick51 %e /uck to h] guns4 8,well10 %e said1 8,i j don't believe x40 8,m>y60 said ,mrs4 ,c>t]4 8,g home & pray60 ,s my si/] w5t home1 b ,i d n ?9k t %e pray$4 ,mrs4 ,c>t] & ! ,prea*] call$ t aft]noon & told my fa!r & "m :at _h be5 said & done t day 9 ,god's h\se1 & !re 0 a consid]able to-d ab\t x1 bo? ,mrs4 ,c>t] & ! ,prea*] dropp+ to _! knees & pray+1 & insi/+1 t my si/] pray also = =giv5ess4 ,b my fa!r & "m took ! attitude t s9ce my si/] did n "k :at %e 0 talk+ ab\t1 %e probably _h n s9n$ to any great ext5t4 ,b x 0 a good _m ye>s be=e %e aga9 _h c\rage to express a d\bt z to ! ,virg9 ,bir?4 ,& if %e goes to ,heav5 %e w probably f9d t ,mrs4 ,c>t] & ! ,prea*] h in/ruct$ ,/4 ,pet] to cate*ize h] ab\t x1 & n to admit h] until %e has aton$ fully = h] he9\s (f5se at ! age ( t54 #c ,"s ( our families 9 :i* !re 0 an un=tunate excess ( girls p]mitt$ !m to h call]s on ,sunday aft]noon1 b su* affairs 7 conduct$ 9 a prim & prissy mann]4 ,hol9ess 0 ! motif4 ,! boy1 if he _h be5 a good lad all week & _h done no?+ to affront ,god or ! ,prea*]1 0 dress$ 9 8 ,sunday suit1 & ! "y lady wore ! frock t 0 kept 9 res]ve = w$d+s1 fun]als & baptiz+s1 & ^? cannibali/ic ex]cises call$ ! ,"l's ,supp]4 ,& x 0 def9itely und]/ood t if a boy call$ on a girl on a ,sunday1 he 0 c\rt+ h]1 & int5d$ to propose m>riage4 ,!y c\ld n talk2 !y mu/ conv]se1 & _! conv]sation mu/ be on subjects bo? inspir+ & uplift+4 ,^! bons mots t are n[ kn[n z wise cracks 7 fr[n$ ^u1 & a repetition ( !m result$ 9 ! "y g5tleman be+ %[n ! door4 ,! piano & ! phonograph1 9 ^? h\ses :i* possess$ su* wond]s1 7 "u lock & key & cov]$ ov] ) drap]ies to hide !m1 = x 0 ,god's day & ,god want$ no fooli%ness4 ,! girl's fa!r sat 9 v>i\s /rategic places ab\t ! h\se1 mov+ f "o to ano!r z 8 suspicions ( ! boy's int5tions arose & subsid$1 & h] "m mov$ solemnly to & fro 9 h] be/ cr9kly silk dress4 ,!re 0 no?+ ( joy 9 ! he>ts ( a boy & girl :o und]w5t ! torture ( ! ,sunday-aft]noon call2 to p>aphrase ! immortal song ( ,casey1 ,god _h /ruck !m out4 ,! fir/1 & almo/ ! la/1 "y lady ^u :om ,i call$ on a ,sunday aft]noon liv$ ne> ! wat]works1 & h] fa!r & "m1 rock+ solemnly ^u ! front por* & d\btless reflect+ gloomily ^u ! wick$ness ( ! race1 pres5t$ su* a =bidd+ spectacle t ,i walk$ f\r times ar\nd ! block be=e v5tur+ 94 ,b at l5g? ,i did1 & ! !n idol ( my he>t greet$ me at ! front door4 ,ord9>ily %e w\ld h se5 me com+1 & %e w\ld h pok$ h] head out ( ! w9d[ & yell$3 8,hey6 ,i'll be out 9 a m9ute40 ,!n we w\ld h pil$ side by side into ! lawn sw+ & begun swapp+ trade-la/s1 & ! air w\ld h be5 ?ick ) appreciative squeals & 8he saids0 & 8%e saids40 ,b ?is 0 ,sunday1 a day giv5 ov] to ! glory t is religion1 & s %e met me at ! door ) a prim & pretty curtsy4 ,h] fa!r gave me a g5tle b suspici\s greet+1 because to ! religi\s p>5t e boy ?9ks ( a girl only 9 t]ms ( s$uction1 & h] "m /opp$ h] rock+ *air long en\gh to inquire3 8,did y g to ,sunday s*ool to-day1 ,h]bie80 8,yes1 ma'am40 8,:at 0 ! ,gold5 ,text80 %e dem&$1 suspici\sly4 ,i told h] & %e ask$3 8,did y /ay to *ur*80 8,yes1 ma'am40 8,bro!r ,j5k9s prea*$ su* a beautiful s]mon40 8,yes1 ma'am40 ,& !n %e smil$ a g5tle smile1 sigh$ a dolefully religi\s sigh & told h] daught] t %e c\ld take me into ! p>lor1 t holy ( holies :i* 0 d>k5$ & unus$ dur+ ! week1 b op5$ on ,sundays = call]s & on o!r special occasions su* z fun]als & w$d+s4 ,! room 0 extraord9>ily gloomy1 because ! curta9s 7 nev] rais$ en\gh to let 9 a great deal ( light1 & x smell$ mu/y f be+ clos$ all week4 ,& inv>iably ! gloom 0 add$ to by a crayon portrait ( ! head ( ! h\se1 a goggle-ey$ enl>gem5t ( a v ord9>y photograph by ,trappe1 :i* /ood on an easel 9 a corn]4 ,i _h consid]$ ?is call an occasion1 & ) ! aid ( my eld] si/] :o 0 visit+ u f ,memphis1 ,i _h made an elaborate toilet & _h be5 p]mitt$ to we> my ,sunday suit4 ,b ,i did n h a good "t2 ,i _h kn[n ?is girl a long "t & admir$ h] int5sely1 b %e seem$ sudd5ly to h *ang$4 ,%e sat /iffly on "o side ( ! room ne> a w9d[1 h&s fold$ demurely 9 h] lap1 & ,i sat z /iffly on ! o!r4 ,we inquir$ coldly conc]n+ ea* o!r's heal?1 & ,i _h prep>$ 9 my m9d a suitable &1 inde$1 q holy comm5t on c]ta9 aspects ( our s*ool life & 0 ab\t to deliv] x :5 h] "m call$ g5tly f ! por*3 8,don't play ! piano1 de>3 x's ,sunday40 ,my obs]vation w5t unutt]$1 & we sat = "s little "t 9 an emb>rass$ sil5ce brok5 only by ! crun* ( h] "m's rock+ *air & ! croon+ melody ( a hymn1 ea* wi%+ to ,heav5 t ! o!r 0 else:]e4 ,i ye>n$ to he> ! piano1 b ?is in/rum5t1 ) its delightful t9kle & its capacity = produc+ ragtime1 0 g5]ally reg>d$ z a helli% contraption2 9 fact1 any sort ( fa/ music 0 consid]$ m or less s9ful4 ,if !re _h be5 an organ 9 ! h\se1 ! "y lady w\ld h be5 p]mitt$ to play x1 & we c\ld h sung f ! family hymn book1 provid$ we did s 9 prop] humility4 ,b !re 0 only a piano1 & x 0 taboo4 ,pres5tly ! "m spoke aga93 8,don't play ! phonograph1 de>2 x's ,sunday40 ,?is admonition 0 modifi$ lat] by p]mission to play an organ record ( ! hymn1 8,face to ,face10 & we play$ x ov] five times be=e ! "m got tir$ ( he>+ x4 ,%e said1 8,y'd bett] /op n[1 de>2 x's ,sunday40 ,!n %e sugge/$ t we turn to o!r means ( ent]ta9m5t4 8,p]haps ,h]bie w\ld l to look at ! album1 de>4 ,w\ld y1 ,h]bie80 8,yes1 ma'am10 ,i said4 ,s we look$ at ! album1 /iffly & 9 sil5ce1 ! sacr$ book held on our knees1 b we 7 v c>eful t our knees did n t\*4 ,we d>$ n giggle at ! sight ( ! bu%y-:isk]$ memb]s ( ! "y lady's family1 & made no comm5t on _! raim5t1 :i* we rightly consid]$ outl&i%4 ,we turn$ ! pages & />$1 & ! girl expla9$4 8,t's ,uncle ,m>t940 8,tak5 :5 he w5t to ,niag>a ,falls on 8 honeymoon1 de>10 said h] "m4 8,uncle ,m>t9 0 a great travel]40 8,yes1 ma'am10 ,i said1 feel+ t comm5t 0 expect$4 8,w\ldn't y l to travel1 ,h]bie80 8,yes1 ma'am40 8,well1 be a good boy & read y\r ,bible & maybe "s day ,god w make y a great travel]40 8,yes1 ma'am40 8,b don't travel on ,sunday1 ,h]bie40 8,no1 ma'am40 ,& crun* w5t ! rock] & we turn$ ano!r page1 to f9d ,aunt ,ella smil+ g5tly at u ?r\gh a mass ( glori\s fl\nces & tra9s & swit*es4 ,we le>n$ f ! "m t ,aunt ,ella _h be5 conv]t$1 at an extraord9>ily e>ly age1 dur+ a revival ne> ,hazel ,run1 & _h liv$ a s+ul>ly dev\t & godly life4 ,!n we look$ ?r\gh ! /]eopticon at v>i\s places ( int]e/1 murmur+ our awe :5 ! "m swi%$ g5tly into ! room & po9t$ out1 9 a view ( ,niag>a ,falls1 ! exact spot :]e ,uncle ,m>t9 _h /ood4 ,x 01 %e expla9$1 "o ( ,god's rocks4 ,to my k ?is family _h "s v comical /]eopticon views1 sc5es depict+ ! life ( an un=tunate tramp :o 0 kick$ he>tily & effectively at e place he appli$ = n\ri%m5t1 b we did n see !m on ,sunday aft]noon4 ,!y 7 ,saturday-night /uff4 ,saturday night 0 nigg] night 9 ,f>m+ton1 & ! :ole t[n let d[n ! b>s some:at4 ,t 0 ! night :5 ^? :o drank got tight1 & :5 ^? :o ba!d got wet1 & :5 ^? :o _h amor\s int5tions did _! be/ to c>ry !m out4 ,_h ,i call$ on ,saturday night ,i %\ld h be5 p]mitt$ to enjoy ! adv5tures ( ! un=tunate tramp1 b n on ,sunday4 ,!y _h be5 put away1 "u lock & key 9 ! writ+ desk1 & w\ld n be br\ght out until ,monday4 ,!y 7 n calculat$ to promulgate a prop] respect = ! ,"l's ,day2 !y 7 consid]$ d[nright wick$ "o day a week & funny ! o!r six4 ,ev5 9 my infatuat$ condition an h\r or s ( ?is 0 q en\gh4 ,ord9>ily ?is girl & ,i _h mu* 9 common2 at t "t ,i rank$ h] high among ! beautiful fl[]s ( ,god1 & _h ,i /opp$ at h] h\se on a week day we w\ld h _h gleeful & upro>i\s conv]se1 al?\gh ev5 !n we w\ld h be5 liable to religi\s in/ruction & cate*ism f e snoop+ ,bro!r & ,si/] :o saw u4 ,b ! taboos t ?is ,*ri/ian family _h rais$ on its holy day /ood betwe5 u & c\ld n be brok5 d[n2 we 7 horribly uncom=table 9 ea* o!r's pres5ce1 & we nev] got ov] x4 ,%e 0 nev] aft]w>d ! same girl4 ,& :5 ,i took myself & my ,sunday suit into ! sunlight ( ! por* h] "m /opp$ rock+ & croon+ hymns long en\gh to dem&4 8,are y go+ to *ur* to-night1 ,h]bie80 8,yes1 ma'am10 ,i repli$4 8,i got to40 ,& s ,i w5t out ( ! gate & away f !re4 ,?is sort ( ?+ 9 ! homes ( ,f>m+ton drove all ( ! boys to m or less op5 revolt z rapidly z !y rea*$ an age at :i* !y felt able to defy p>5tal & *ur*ly au?ority4 ,by ! "t ,i left ! t[n ! ,sunday-aft]noon call]s1 except ^? :o made unavoidable duty calls1 7 to be f\nd only 9 ! homes ( ! ungodly1 :]e !re 0 music & pleasure & gayety1 :]e ! p>lor 0 wide op5 sev5 days a week & ! phonograph bl>$ & ! piano t9kl$ :5ev] anyone want$ to he> !m4 ,to ^! h\ses also w5t ! girls f ! dev\t families = cl&e/9e meet+s ) _! swee!>ts2 !y c\ld n ent]ta9 anyone 9 ! dismal mausoleums into :i* _! fa!rs & mo!rs _h trans=m$ _! homes4 ,_m a small-t[n romance has be5 blight$ by ! ,sunday-aft]noon call4 ,,ag5ts ,,( ,,god #a ,9 ,f>m+ton we _h n only ^? ,prea*]s :o _h be5 orda9$ to ! m9i/ry & s lic5s$ to prea* by bo? ,god & man1 b ! t[n 0 ov]run ) volunte]s1 ,bro!rs & ,si/]s :o %\t$ ! ^w ( ,god :5ev] !y c\ld f9d an audi5ce1 :o gave ! te/imony at ! camp meet+s1 ! protract$ meet+s1 & at ^? orgies conduct$ by ! pr(essional evangeli/ :o *as$ ! ,devil f any t[n t w\ld gu>antee him a fat fee4 ,^! ,prea*]s & _! allies controll$ ,f>m+ton to a v l>ge ext5t1 & :5 !y 7 defeat$1 at elections or o!rwise1 !y rais$ _! voices 9 h[ls ( d5unciation & call$ ^u ,god to puni% ! guilty4 ,x 0 _m ye>s be=e ,i le>n$ t a c&idate endors$ by a ,prea*] 0 n necess>ily call$ by ,god to assume ! (fice4 ,x 0 ess5tial = any man :o want$ to hold public (fice to pr(ess religion & be se5 at *ur*1 & usually ! m noise he made 9 religi\s ga!r+s1 ! great] 8 *ances ( success at ! polls4 ,if any c&idate d>$ to hold views contr>y to ^? ( ! godly1 a vile :isp]+ campaign 0 />t$ aga9/ him1 & 8 p]sonal life 0 rak$ ov] & b>$ ) _m gloat+ ref]5ces to ! ,*ri/ian duty ( ! p to puni% ?is up/>t4 ,occasionally ! ungodly or anti-religi\s elem5t elect$ a mayor or :at n1 b g5]ally religion triumph$ & ?anks 7 (f]$ to ,god1 & !n ?r\gh\t 8 t]m ! (fice-hold] 0 h>ass$ by pi\s hypocrites seek+ favors & special privilege4 ,my fa!r1 z c\nty surveyor & city cl]k1 0 con/antly be+ *eck$ up to det]m9e if he rema9$ /eadfa/ 9 ! fai?4 ,i d n ?9k t my fa!r 0 reg>d$ z a fir/-class ,*ri/ian 9 ,f>m+ton2 ,i am sure t 9 _m qu>t]s x 0 felt t he 0 m or less disgrac+ 8 ance/ry because he did n b\nd to 8 feet at camp meet+s & simil> ga!r+s & make a holy %[ ( himself ) hypocritical te/imony4 ,he w5t to *ur*1 & until ,i 0 old en\gh to d pretty mu* z ,i pleas$1 he saw to x t ,i w5t also1 & to ,sunday s*ool & ,epwor? ,league & o!r places :]e ! ,me?odi/ ,god c\ld take a peek at my s\l4 ,b he 0 only passively religi\s2 he %[$ no trem5d\s en?usiasm = ! ,wesleyan ,deity1 & he nev] made a p>ticul>ly active ef=t to keep me 9 ! pa? t1 accord+ to "s1 leads to spiritual glory4 ,9 a religi\s s5se ,i 0 annoy$ mu* less by my fa!r & my "m ?an ,i 0 by ! busybodies :o seem$ to be appo9t$ by ! ,"l to take c>e ( ev]ybody's bus9ess b _! own4 ,mo/ ( ! religi\s in/ruction t ,i receiv$ came f volunte]s1 ei!r relatives ( my p>5ts1 or ,bro!rs & ,si/]s :om ,i enc\nt]$ dur+ my pa!tic ef=ts to h a good "t4 ,&1 ( c\rse1 f ! ,prea*]4 ,to _m ( ^! ,i put que/ions2 ,i ask$ !m to expla9 c]ta9 ?+s 9 ! ,bible & 9 ! *ur* s]vice t ,i did n und]/&1 & :i* seem$ to conflict ) ! little def9ite k t ,i _h ( life & human be+s4 ,inv>iably ,i 0 told t ! ,bible ne$$ no expla9+2 ,i 0 m]ely to believe x & h fai?4 ,i 0 afraid ( ! ,prea*]s 9 ,f>m+ton1 & ( ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 desp]ately afraid ( !m1 because !y fill$ my m9d ) horrible pictures ( ,hell & ! ro>+ fires ( old ,nick2 _! object 9 talk+ religion to small boys seem$ to be to fright5 !m into be+ good4 ,& ,i ?9k t mo/ ( ! o!r boys 7 afraid ( !m1 too1 except su* brave s\ls z my c\s91 ,b>ney ,blue1 :o 0 a 8bad boy0 & afraid ( nei!r ,god nor ,devil4 ,"o ( my great mom5ts 0 :5 ,i he>d ,b>ney tell a pry+ old ,bro!r to g to hell4 ,& curi\sly en\gh1 & incompreh5sibly to _m ( ! good old p ( ,f>m+ton1 ,b>ney is to-day exce$+ly prosp]\s & well ?\ght ( 9 8 community4 ,b !re 7 v few l ,b>ney2 mo/ ( u trembl$ 9 our boots1 ev5 ! r$-topp$ ones we 7 s pr\d (1 :5 a ,prea*] or a ,bro!r or ,si/] came snoop+ ab\t1 head b[$ "u its burd5 ( religi\s horror1 & dem&$ in=mation z to our conduct & ! condition ( our s\ls4 ,9 ! cities ! cry ( ! y\ng/]s 0 8,*eese x1 ! cop10 b 9 ,f>m+ton x 0 8,look out1 !re's a ,prea*]60 ,we c\ld n />t a game ( m>bles any:]e 9 t[n b "o ( !m1 or else a ,bro!r or ,si/]1 did n p\nce ^u u & dem& to "k if we 7 play+ 8= keeps40 ,& s9ce we inv>iably 71 & did n "k en\gh to tell ! ,prea*] :at 0 politely call$ a fib1 ! game /opp$ !n & !re :ile we absorb$ a little religion & le>n$ t ,god abhorr$ little boys :o play$ = keeps4 ,we 7 told t ,god _h ,8 eye on u :5 we did su* ?+s1 & t our ,gu>dian ,angels put black m>ks 9 _! little books e "t we %ot a m>ble4 8,y mu/ give y\r he>t to ,jesus10 we 7 told4 8,he w n let y dwell 9 ! ,heav5ly ,mansions if y p]si/ 9 ?is s9ful practice40 ,we us$ to play m>bles 9 a vacant lot beh9d ! ,*ri/ian *ur*1 & x 0 a v f9e playgr\nd1 ) a level /ret* on :i* ! m>bles roll$ beautifully4 ,b we _h to give x up1 because ! lot 0 ne> ! home ( a ,si/]1 :o sp5t mo/ ( h] wak+ h\rs 9 front ( h] w9d[1 />+ out ?r\gh ! curta9s 9 a con/ant se>* = s9 & sc&al4 ,we _h no m ?an drawn ! r+ & legg$ = fir/ %ot ?an %e came out on h] por* & %\t$3 8,are y boys play+ = keeps80 ,& we answ]$ 9 unison1 politely1 z we _h be5 taught3 8,yes1 ma'am40 ,%e /opp$ ! game1 swoop+ d[n ^u u ) ! gl9t ( ! ,heav5-born fanatic 9 h] eye4 ,%e told u t we 7 wick$ & s9ful & blasphem\s & ,heav5 kn[s :at else besides to play = keeps 9 ! v %ad[ ( a ,h\se ( ,god4 ,%e inv>iably ?reat5$ u ) puni%m5t rang+ f spank+ to ev]la/+ torm5t 9 ,hell1 & if we d>$ to say any?+ to h] o!r ?an ! conv5tional 8,yes1 ma'am10 %e said we 7 saucy & ?reat5$ to telephone our mo!rs4 ,occasionally %e did s1 & a m>ble game beh9d ! ,*ri/ian *ur* 0 !n foll[$ by ! wails ( little boys be+ l$ into ! wood%$4 ,%e p]=m$ h] w> dance _m times1 & f9ally we w5t to play ne> ! liv]y /able4 ,! atmosph]e !re 0 n s uplift+1 b at lea/ we 7 9 peace1 = ! ho/l]s _h no int]e/ at all 9 our immortal s\ls1 al?\gh !y 7 v mu* int]e/$ 9 :o won ! m>bles4 #b ,! liv]y /ables 9 ,f>m+ton 7 a sort ( symbol ( ! h]etical elem5t ( ! t[n4 ,! big ,mayb]ry ,by+ton b>n1 d[n ! block f ,braun's ,hotel & ,saloon1 0 a p>ticul>ly delightful place to loaf2 x 0 infe/$ by s9n]s1 ab&on$ wret*es :o swore horrible oa?s1 smok$ cig>ettes1 & drank :isky & g9 out ( big bottles4 ,! politicians loaf$ !re at su* times z !y felt !y w\ld n be se5 by ! m godly "p ( our citiz5ry4 ,two ( our mo/ celebrat$ d>kies1 ,uncle ,l\is ,burks & ,uncle ,mose ,bridges1 sp5t mo/ ( _! "t at ! ,mayb]ry b>n1 & we consid]$ !m q fasc9at+1 especially ,uncle ,l\is4 ,he regal$ u ) tales ( ! days :51 9 ! ,s\? be=e ! ,civil ,w>1 he _h no duties except be ! fa!r ( z _m *ildr5 z possible2 t 0 8 job4 ,he e/imat$ ! numb] ( 8 prog5y any:]e f fifty to five hundr$1 accord+ to ! am\nt ( liquor he _h consum$ be=e c\nt+1 & we g5]ally gave him ! b5efit ( ! d\bt & call$ x five hundr$4 ,we rank$ him ) ! great fa!rs ( ! ,bible1 & ,i recall t x seem$ to me some:at /range t ! prea*]s did n (f] ,uncle ,l\is's a*ievem5ts z pro( ( ! tru? ( c]ta9 portions ( ! ,book4 ,uncle ,mose's pr9cipal claim to our att5tion 0 8 dog1 a sad-ey$ little mongrel t trott$ at ! end ( a /r+ ev]y:]e ,uncle ,mose w5t4 ,we 7 p]mitt$ to play ) ! dog occasionally1 mu* to ! disgu/ ( our p>5ts1 z we inv>iably w5t home scrat*+4 ,bo? ,uncle ,l\is & ,uncle ,mose 7 reg>d$ z s9n]s1 p>tly on acc\nt ( _! color4 ,x 0 n believ$ t a black man c\ld ent] ! ,k+dom ( ,heav51 al?\gh ! delud$ creatures _h *ur*es & pray$ to ,god4 ,& !n _! dome/ic arrangem5ts 7 some:at haphaz>d1 & ,uncle ,l\is frequ5tly boa/$ t he did n m>ry all ! mo!rs ( 8 *ildr5 be=e ! ,w>4 ,bo? he & ,uncle ,mose 7 famili> figures ar\nd ,f>m+ton = _m ye>s2 !y did odd jobs at ! homes ( ! godly1 & = _! pay receiv$ "p ca% & "p religi\s lectures & pray]s4 ,!y ?riv$ on ! ca%1 & app>5tly ! pray]s did n hurt !m4 ,x 0 at ! liv]y /able1 also1 t ! drumm]s f ,/4 ,l\is1 wait+ = rigs to take !m to ! t[ns ( ! lead-m9+ di/rict ar\nd ,bonne ,t]re1 ,flat ,riv] & ,elv9s1 left _! /ocks ( /ories4 ,! com+ ( a drumm] 0 an ev5t ) u2 x meant t we %\ld he> ?+s t 7 n meant = our little e>s1 & t = a little :ile at lea/ we c\ld revel 9 ! sight ( a man giv5 ov] to s9 & seem+ly enjoy+ x4 ,he us$ to assure u solemnly t play+ m>bles = keeps 0 n a s9 any:]e 9 ! _w b 9 ,f>m+ton1 & tell /ories1 :i* we reg>d$ z fanciful untru?s1 ( t[ns 9 :i* little boys did n h to g to ,sunday s*ool4 ,! drumm] came 9 on ! h]dic f ,de ,lassus be=e ! int]urban railroad 0 built1 & he 0 g5]ally a gorge\s spectacle4 ,he 0 n welcom$ 9 our be/ homes1 & ev5 8 pres5ce 9 *ur* 0 n consid]$ a good om5 = ! =ces ( righte\sness1 s he c\ld usually be f\nd loaf+ 9 front ( ! liv]y /able or doz+ 9 a *air tilt$ aga9/ ! wall ( ! ,/4 ,francis ,hotel4 ,he br\ght ) him n only ! late/ /ories1 b ! mo/ advanc$ raim5t2 ! fir/ peg-top tr\s]s ev] se5 9 ,f>m+ton adorn$ ! legs ( a %oe drumm] travel+ out ( ,/4 ,l\is1 & !y creat$ a furor & e/abli%$ a /yle4 ,soon our mo/ /yli% dress]s _h !m4 ,besides be+ ! abode ( wick$ness & ! lair ( ,satan1 & !re=e an extraord9>ily fasc9at+ place1 ! liv]y /able 0 also ! pr9cipal loaf+ place ( a d>ky :o _h fits4 ,he 0 "o ( our t[n *>act]s1 & 0 reg>d$ by myself & ! o!r boys z a p]son ( rem>kable accompli%m5ts4 ,we felt t to be able to h fits set him above u2 we gloat$ enorm\sly :5 he sudd5ly %riek$1 fell to ! gr\nd & began foam+ at ! m\?4 ,our attitude t[>d him 0 respectful1 & he appreciat$ x4 ,he 01 x seem$ to me1 pr\d ( 8 fits4 ,i h kn[n him to rise1 f9ally1 bru% himself (f & ask1 simply3 8,0 x a good "o80 ,g5]ally we ?\ght x 04 ,?is d>ky became su* an attraction = u t = a long "t1 :5 a gr\p ( u c\ld f9d no?+ int]e/+ to d1 & :5 !re 0 = ! mom5t no "o 9 sight to rem9d u ( our duty to ,god & ! *ur*1 x 0 ! cu/om = "o ( u to say3 8,let's g ov] to ! liv]y /able & see ,tod h a fit40 ,we !reupon troop$ solemnly to ! big b>n & ga!r$ 9 a circle ab\t ! d>ky1 :o 0 g5]ally sitt+ aga9/ ! side ( ! build+ :ittl+ on a /ick4 ,we wat*$ him sil5tly = a :ile1 & !n someone mu/]$ up c\rage en\gh to say3 8,go+ to h a fit to-day1 ,tod80 ,) ! in/9ct ( ! true arti/1 ,tod ignor$ u = a "t1 int5t ^u 8 :ittl+4 ,f9ally he gave u brief att5tion4 8,maybe10 he said1 & return$ to 8 task4 ,& !n sudd5ly he utt]$ a blood-curdl+ %riek & tumbl$ headlong f 8 *air4 ,we wat*$1 fasc9at$1 utt]+ little murmurs ( 8ah60 z he wri!d & moan$1 & :5 x 0 all ov] we settl$ back ) a little sigh ( satisfaction4 ,we felt t we _h se5 a fir/-rate p]=mance1 & :5 ! d>ky _h a fit 9 front ( ! ,po/ ,(fice1 or 9 ! y>d ( ! c\r?\se1 8 audi5ce 0 increas$ by z _m boys & m5 z 7 d[nt[n1 %opkeep]s leav+ _! w>es to run across & wat*4 ,!re 0 no?+ ( call\sness 9 our attitude t[>d ! d>ky4 ,my own feel+ 9 ! matt] 0 t ,tod 0 hav+ fits = our b5efit1 & because he enjoy$ x1 b at l5g? ,i came to le>n t he c\ld n help x1 t ! poor fell[ 0 ill4 ,!n ,i 0 sorry = him1 & "o day ,i ask$ "o ( our mo/ prom95t ,bro!rs :y ,tod _h fits4 ,he imm$iately seiz$ ^u ! "q to give me "s religi\s in/ruction4 8,he has s9n$10 said ! ,bro!r1 8& ,god is puni%+ him40 ,he elaborat$ 8 /atem5t1 expla9+ t ,tod _h probably neglect$ to att5d ,sunday s*ool1 or _h n read 8 ,bible1 & t he _h ?us become a blasphem\s s9n] & 0 be+ prop]ly dealt )4 ,he po9t$ out t ,i1 too1 might gr[ up & h fits if ,i 0 n a good boy4 ,n[1 ,i did n want to h fits1 & nei!r did ,i want to be a good boy4 ,i want$ to h "s fun2 ,i want$ to run ab\t1 & play m>bles1 & g swimm+1 & put tick-tacks aga9/ p's w9d[ on ,hall[e5 night4 ,i want$ to d all sorts ( ?+s t good boys did n d1 yet ,i mo/ c]ta9ly did n want to h fits4 8,b1 ,uncle ,si10 ,i said1 8h[ d y "k t ,god is mak+ him h fits8 ,& :y does ,god d x80 8,h]bie60 ,he 0 %ock$4 8,y are blasphem\s6 ,y mu/ n "q ! wisdom ( ! ,almighty4 ,i h fai?1 & ,i believe 9 ,god & ! hol9ess ( ,8 acts4 ,i "k t ?is man mu/ h s9n$1 or ,god w\ld n puni% him s40 ,i 0 n prep>$ to conf\nd ?is faulty logic2 x 0 n !n ! bus9ess ( small boys to "q any?+ _! eld]s told !m1 b to accept )\t comm5t ! pe>ls ( wisdom t fell f be:isk]$ lips4 ,b x seem$ to me small bus9ess = ,god to be engag$ ^u4 ,yet x did n cause me great surprise1 = ,i _h long kn[n t ! ,god :o press$ s heavily ^u ,f>m+ton 0 a conception ( unutt]able cruelty1 an omnipot5t ,be+ ^: greate/ joy lay 9 s+l+ out ! weak & l[ly & inflict+ horrible tortures ^u !m1 to ! va/ & gloat+ satisfaction ( ! ,bro!rs & _! k9d4 ,"s "t aft]w>d1 because ,i 0 worri$ ov] ?is tortur+ & puni%m5t ( ! d>ky ^: wri?+s _h n[ become less an amus+ exhibit ?an a t]rible manife/ation ( ! ,almighty1 ,i ask$ ano!r ,bro!r h[ he knew t ,god _h a h& 9 x4 ,b nei!r he nor ,uncle ,si ev] told me4 ,none ( !m 7 ev] able to tell me h[ !y knew s well :at ,god want$ & :at ,god did n want2 !y m]ely left ) me ! impression t on occasion !y walk$ ) ,god & t ,god spoke to !m & ask$ _! advice on ! conduct ( ! human race4 ,b ! s\rce ( _! in=mation ,i c\ld n det]m9e4 ,i h nev] f\nd anyone :o c\ld satisfy my curiosity on ?is po9t2 ,i nev] !n1 or lat]1 f\nd a religi\s en?usia/ :o w\ld admit t he 0 (f]+ m]ely 8 p]sonal int]pretation ( ! utt]ances t o!r m5 _h cr$it$ to ! ,almighty4 ,b !re 0 no?+ t ent]$ ! m9d ( ,god t ! ,prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s ( ,f>m+ton did n "k & t !y c\ld n expla9 & apply to local affairs4 ,!y knew precisely :at 0 a s9 & :at 0 n1 & x 0 curi\s t ! s9s 7 inv>iably ?+s f :i* !y receiv$ no pleasure4 ,nor 0 any?+ :i* paid a pr(it a s94 ,!y knew v well t ,god consid]$ x a s9 to play c>ds or dance1 b t ,he ?\ght x only good bus9ess practice to raise ! price ( beans or sw9dle a fell[ citiz5 9 ! matt] ( t[n lots1 or refuse cr$it to ! poor & suff]+4 #c ,z ,i grew old]1 & began to be skeptical ( :at ,i 0 told1 ,i became increas+ly annoy$ n only by ! m5tal mann]isms ( ^! p1 b by _! physical mann]isms z well4 ,n only did !y walk z if _! soles 7 greas$1 slid+ & slipp+ ab\t1 b !y talk$ z if _! tongues 7 greas$ also4 ,_! language 0 oily2 !y p\r$ out _! words unctu\sly1 ) mu* r\ndab\t phras+ & unnecess>y language4 ,if !y want$ to tell ab\t a man go+ across ! /reet f ! ,c\rt ,h\se to ! ,po/ ,(fice !y w\ld take him up ! hill pa/ ! ,masonic cemet]y1 ) side trips to ,j]usalem & o!r ,jewi% c5t]s4 ,if ,i w5t d[nt[n & met a man l ,%]iff ,r>id51 :o w always h a place 9 my affections because he p]mitt$ 8 son ,l9n & myself to roam ! jail y>d & />e ?r\gh ! b>s at ! nigg] prison]s1 he w\ld say3 8,h['re y1 ,h]bie8 ,h['re y\r folks80 ,b if ,i met a ,prea*] ! greet+ 0 ?is3 8,good aft]noon1 ,h]b]t4 ,& h[ are y\r de> fa!r & "m80 ,& !n he patt$ me on ! head1 p9*$ my arm1 & padd$ away1 slid+ greasily along ! pavem5t1 8 eagle eye al]t = little boys play+ m>bles or = o!r signs ( s94 ,he might h be5 sk9ny & pitifully 9 ne$ ( food1 b nev]!less ,i ?\ght ( him z greasy4 ,he _h ab\t him an un:olesome atmosph]e2 ,i c\ld n be com=table 9 8 pres5ce4 ,i felt t he _h to be wat*$1 & :5 ,i became old en\gh to und]/& "s ( ! looks t he be/[$ ^u ! "y & fem99e memb]s ( 8 flock ,i realiz$ t he %\ld h be54 ,i _h n liv$ v _m ye>s be=e ,i le>n$ to look ^u ,prea*]s1 & _! famili>s1 ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 z useless incumbrances ^u an o!rwise fair en\gh e>?4 ,b :ile ,i hat$ all ( !m1 ) a few natural exceptions1 ! "o ,i always hat$ mo/ 0 ! curr5t pa/or ( our ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur*4 ,he 0 my spiritual fa!r1 ! gu>dian ( my s\l & ! director ( my life 9 ! h]eaft]1 & he tri$ to see to x t ,i w5t into ! h]eaft] ) prop] respect = him & a prop] respect = 8 ,god4 ,i _h to call him ,bro!r & be v meek & g5tle 9 8 pres5ce1 & /& )\t mov+ :ile he patt$ me on ! head1 ask$ me fool que/ions1 & told me h[ mu* ,god lov$ little boys & girls4 ,he call$ me a 8manly little fell[10 :i* annoy$ me exce$+ly1 & ,i h ! ^w ( my "y nephew t small boys are /ill annoy$ by x4 ,b he made x q cle>1 out ( 8 pr(\nd k ( ! wi%es ( ! ,almighty1 t ,god did n want little boys & girls to h a good "t4 ,q ! contr>y4 ,god want$ !m to d exactly :at ! ,prea*] told !m to d2 ,he want$ !m to accept ! ,prea*] z _! guide & _! philosoph] & to believe ev]y?+ !y 7 told1 )\t frett+ him ) unansw]able & !re=e blasphem\s que/ions4 ,he want$ ! little boys & girls to sp5d mo/ ( _! "t pray+ to ,him to 8gimme ?is & gimme t10 & ! re/ ( x be+ little g5tlem5 & little ladies1 solemn & subdu$1 speak+ only :5 spok5 to & answ]+ promptly :5 call$4 ,god told ! ,prea*]1 :o relay$ ! message on to me v impressively1 t x 0 a s9 to play m>bles on ,sunday1 or to play = keeps at any "t2 t x 0 a s9 to roll hoops on ! sidewalk 9 front ( ! *ur* or rattle a /ick aga9/ ! picket f5ce 9 front ( ! p>sonage4 ,ev]y?+ t ,i want$ to d1 ev]y?+ t seem$ to hold any promise ( fun or excitem5t1 0 a s94 ,b x 0 n a s9 to saw wood = ! ,prea*]1 or to c>ry huge armfuls ( /icks & fill 8 kit*5 b91 & x 0 n a s9 to m[ 8 lawn or rake ! tra% 9 8 back y>d4 ,! *ildr5 ( ! godly 7 p]mitt$ to d ^! ?+s because ( ! pr(\nd love :i* ! ,prea*] bore = !m2 8 motto 0 8,suff] little *ildr5 to come unto me1 & ,i w put !m to "w40 ,& s9ce by 8 own admission ! ,prea*] 0 a ,man ( ,god1 we 7 p]mitt$ to p]=m ^! labors = no?+4 ,a boy 0 paid tw5ty-five to fifty c5ts1 enorm\s & gratify+ sums 9 ^? days1 if he m[$ ! lawn or rak$ ! tra% = a family giv5 ov] to s91 b if he did ! job = a ,prea*] or a dev\t ,bro!r1 he receiv$ no?+ b a pat on ! back & a pray]1 or he c\ld li/5 to a v]se f ! ,bible & a lecture on 8 duty to s]ve ! ,"l &1 incid5tally1 ! self-appo9t$ ambassadors ( ! ,"l4 ,once :5 ,i 0 ab\t twelve ye>s old our pa/or telephon$ my "m & ask$ t ,i be s5t to 8 h\se to help him p]=m c]ta9 tasks :i* %\ld h be5 done by ! d>ky m5 ( all "w ab\t t[n4 ,b our family did n wi% to (f5d ! ,prea*]1 s ,i did ! "w4 ,& x 0 h>d "w4 ,i toil$ all morn+ clean+ out ! ,prea*]'s wood%$ & /ack+ split /ove wood 9 neat piles1 & !n ,i c>ri$ 9 en\gh to fill two big wood5 boxes 9 ! kit*54 ,dur+ ?is "t ! ,prea*] sat 9 8 /udy1 hold+ communion ) ,god1 & ,i presume1 read+ ! ,scriptures4 ,occasionally he came out to ! wood%$ to sup]9t5d my "w1 ord]+ me to d ?is & d t & scold+ me because ,i did n "w fa/]1 b he did none ( ! "w himself4 ,& :5 ,i 0 ?r\gh he told me to come into 8 /udy & receive paym5t4 ,i hurri$ aft] him1 v we>y1 b ) pleasant visions ( a qu>t] float+ be=e my eyes4 ,i believ$ t 0 ! lea/ ,i %\ld receive1 & to me x 0 a great deal ( money2 prop]ly exp5d$ at ,mc,kinney's or ,otto ,rottg]'s1 x w\ld keep me 9 jawbreak]s = m ?an a week1 & !re might be en\gh left to buy a bag ( peewees or an agate4 ,b ,i did n receive ! tw5ty-five c5ts4 ,! ,prea*] clos$ ! door :5 we got into 8 /udy1 & !n he comm&$ me to kneel4 ,he put a h& on my %\ld]1 & he said3 8,my de> boy1 ,i am go+ to pray = y4 ,i am go+ to ask ! ,"l ,jesus to ent] y\r he>t & make y a good boy40 ,& !n he knelt & pray$ some:at 9 ?is fa%ion3 8,o ,"l ,jesus1 bless ?is little boy :o has ?is day p]=m$ labor 9 ,?y behalf10 etc4 ,x 0 all v confus+4 ,i w5t home some:at 9 d\bt z to :e!r ! ,prea*] or ,god own$ ! wood%$4 ,b labor ( little boys 0 n all t ! ,prea*]s got = no?+4 ,!y 7 invet]ate begg>s1 & all ( !m _h f9e1 highly develop$ noses = *ick5s & o!r da9ties2 x 0 seldom t a family c\ld h a *ick5 or turkey d9n] )\t ! ,prea*] dropp+ 94 ,x is true t _! sal>ies 7 n l>ge1 b !y _h free use ( ! p>sonage1 & !y 7 n 9 dire circum/ances at all4 ,yet !y always _h _! h&s out1 grasp+2 !y 7 ecclesia/ical tramps begg+ = a donation4 ,9 our t[n we us$ to give %[]s = !m2 _m families made p]iodical donations to ! ,pa/or1 & sometimes !re 7 surprise p>ties1 :5 ! ,prea*] & 8 wife 7 l$ into a room & %[n piles ( old clo?+1 food & disc>d$ furniture1 all ( :i* 0 s5t next day to ! p>sonage4 ,! ,prea*] 0 always pa!tically grateful = ^! ?+s2 he w\ld kneel 9 ! mid/ ( !m & (f] a pray] = ! s\ls ( ! good p :o _h ?us giv5 him ! clutt]+s ( _! cell>s & attics1 :i* !y _h no fur!r use =4 ,he seldom _h en\gh self-respect to refuse !m4 #d ,! notion 0 preval5t 9 ,f>m+ton1 among ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 t ! ,prea*]s 7 _! s]vants & %\ld p$dle ,god to !m #cfe days a ye>4 ,x 0 felt also t _! wives %\ld be con/antly at ! ,"l's "w2 t !y %\ld be at home at all times1 available = consultation & pray] meet+s1 & t :5 !y w5t abroad !y %\ld dress sob]ly & walk ) due humility4 ,! wife ( ,bro!r ,c\rt1 "o ( our ,me?odi/ pa/ors1 0 sev]ely criticiz$ = h] dep>ture f ?is =mula ( conduct4 ,app>5tly ! ,c\rts _h means o!r ?an ! sal>y paid !m by ! *ur*1 & !y kept a maid1 :i* 9 itself 0 en\gh to ar\se suspicion t ,mrs4 ,c\rt 0 n a true s]vant ( ! ,"l4 ,b ! /raw t broke ! religi\s back ( ! ,c\rts & ha/5$ ! end ( ,bro!r ,c\rt's m9i/ry 0 ! fact t ,mrs4 ,c\rt took a nap ea* aft]noon4 ,?is 0 consid]$ no?+ less ?an sc&al\s1 & = a long "t our ,bro!rs & ,si/]s refus$ to believe t ! wife ( a man ( ,god %\ld s f> =get h]self z to lie ab$ :5 %e might be pray+ or sitt+ at h] front w9d[ look+ ?r\gh ! curta9s = a s9 to happ54 ,b ! /ory p]si/$1 & 0 broadca/ by a dis*>g$ s]vant :o swore t ) h] own eyes %e _h se5 ,mrs4 ,c\rt s\nd asleep at ?ree o'clock 9 ! aft]noon4 ,f9ally two ,si/]s appo9t$ !mselves a committee ( inve/igation4 ,!y rang ! bell at ! p>sonage "o aft]noon1 & told ! maid t !y _h call$ to jo9 ,mrs4 ,c\rt 9 aft]noon pray]1 &1 al?\gh !y did n say x1 backbit+ gossip4 8,mrs4 ,c\rt10 said ! maid1 8is asleep & _c be di/urb$4 ,c y call lat]80 ,!y c\ld n4 ,!y _h b>ely /r5g? en\gh to get home1 b aft] pray] !y reviv$ suffici5tly to sally =? & c>ry ! awful news ?r\gh\t ! t[n4 ,!re c\ld no long] be any d\bt4 ,! wife ( ! ,pa/or ( ! ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur* took a nap 9 ! aft]noon4 ,! ,si/]s _h call$1 & _h be5 s in=m$ by ! maid1 & :ile a few *ronic d\bt]s rema9$1 ! va/ majority realiz$ t 9 a matt] involv+ su* s]i\s consequ5ces to ,mrs4 ,c\rt's spiritual welf>e1 a matt] t directly affect$ & almo/ de/roy$ h] *ances ( go+ to ,heav51 ! ,si/]s c\ld n tell a lie4 ,s ,bro!r ,c\rt soon resign$ & accept$ a call to a t[n :]e memb]s ( 8 family c\ld sleep :5 !y felt l x1 & c\ld ev5 snore )\t jeop>diz+ _! immortal s\ls4 ,nor did 8 successor la/ v long4 ,he 0 an ,engli%man1 & spoke 9 a high nasal voice1 pron\nc+ 8 words v di/9ctly1 syllable by syllable4 ,he 0 criticiz$ = sev]al reasons4 ,"o 0 t 8 favorite phrase 0 8& an-gels c d no m10 & x 0 felt t x 0 some:at blasphem\s to m5tion angels s (t5 be=e mix$ company4 ,& !n he spoke f notes1 :]eas x 0 a cu/om ( our ,pa/ors to prea* solely out ( div9e inspiration at ! mom5t ( deliv]y4 ,!re 0 mu* talk ab\t ! new ,prea*]'s notes1 & x 0 felt t1 someh[1 he 0 lack+ 9 devotion to ,god2 _m ,bro!rs & ,si/]s argu$ t if he 7 really a ,man ( ,god he w\ld n h to use notes1 b w\ld be inspir$ & fill$ ) words z he rose 9 ! pulpit4 ,8 f9i% came ! ,sunday morn+ t ! w9d blew ?r\gh an op5$ w9d[ & scatt]$ 8 notes1 s t he _h to leave ! pulpit & *ase ! scraps up & d[n ! aisle be=e he c\ld proce$ ) 8 disc\rse4 ,?is 0 reg>d$ z direct evid5ce t ,god _h des]t$ him1 & he left t[n soon aft]w>d4 #e ,! p]sonalities ( ! prea*]s ( my home t[n1 impress$ z !y 7 ^u my gr[+1 pla/ic m9d1 probably w rema9 ) me always1 b ,i am ?ankful t = ! mo/ "p _! names elude me4 ,i rememb] cle>ly1 h[ev]1 ,bro!r ,j5k9s & ,bro!r ,fonta9e1 ( our ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur*2 ,bro!r ,nations1 ( ! s-call$ ,*ri/ian *ur*2 ,bro!r ,hickok1 ( ! ,presbyt]ian *ur*1 &1 cle>e/ ( all1 ,bro!r ,l9coln ,mc,connell1 ! pr(essional it9]ant evangeli/ :o 8conv]t$0 me ) ! aid ( half a doz5 /rong-arm$ & /rong-lung$ ,bro!rs & ,si/]s :o dragg$ & pu%$ me d[n ! aisle ( ! *ur* to ! m\rn]s' b5*1 :]e ,i 0 surr\nd$ & ov]:elm$ by 8work]s = ! ,"l40 ,bro!r ,j5k9s ,i recall z a meek1 ?9 little man ) a sad smile & a classical appetite = fri$ *ick54 ,at ! "t ,i 0 v mu* 9 awe ( him1 & li/5$ to 8 e utt]ance ) ! mo/ pr(\nd respect4 ,i ?\ght him sa9tly1 & conclud$ t he & ,god 7 ! close/ sort ( fri5ds1 & t ! ,deity w\ld n d>e laun* ^u a plan = a new univ]se or />t a new w> )\t consult+ ,bro!r ,j5k9s4 ,b 9 tru? he 0 probably only "u-n\ri%$4 ,bro!r ,j5k9s 0 a demon quot] ( platitudes & ,biblical passages2 no?+ happ5$ t x did n rem9d him ( a quotation f ! ,bible4 ,bro!r ,fonta9e 0 a plump man :o w\ld h be5 jovial & possibly likable--t is giv+ him ! b5efit ( a great d\bt--if he _h n be5 s burd5$ by ! tr\bles ( ,god & if he _h n be5 s frightfully aw>e ( ! responsibilities ( 8 position z a recipi5t & promulgator ( ,heav5ly wisdom & comm&s4 ,he (ficiat$ at ! w$d+ ( my si/]1 pr9cipally because our family belong$ to 8 *ur* & ! pres5ce ( ano!r prea*] at ! w$d+ w\ld h depriv$ ,bro!r ,fonta9e ( a goodly fee & made an enemy ( him = life4 ,*ri/ian *>ity does n function well :5 x hits ! pocketbook4 ,i ?9k my si/] w\ld h pref]r$ ,bro!r ,hickok1 b %e yield$ to public op9ion & ,bro!r ,fonta9e got ! job4 ,he arriv$ at ! h\se *ew+ tobacco1 a habit ( 8 :i* he dislik$ int5sely 9 o!r m51 b = :i* he f\nd ju/ification = himself 9 ! belief t he walk$ ) ! ,"l & t x 0 tacitly und]/ood he 0 to h a little leeway4 ,he 0 excessively sanctimoni\s2 & s 0 8 wife4 ,we h nev] =giv5 h] = h] attitude at ! w$d+4 ,i recall t %e look$ suspici\sly f "t to "t at ! groom1 & wat*$ ! :ole proce$+ ) an air t said !re mu/ ( a necessity be some?+ wrong some:]e2 = "o ?+1 !re 0 q a deal ( laught] 9 our h\se t day1 & t 9 itself 0 a sign t ! ,"l 0 n hov]+ ov] ! h\setop4 ,imm$iately aft] ! c]emony ,si/] ,fonta9e p>ad$ up front & began wav+ h] h&s back & =? be=e my si/]'s face1 %\t+ at ! top ( h] lungs3 8,praise ! ,"l1 ,si/]6 ,praise ! ,"l60 ,we ga!r$ t %e ?\ght my si/] %\ld imm$iately fall ^u h] knees & ?ank ,god t %e _h at la/ acquir$ a husb&1 ev5 ?\gh ,si/] ,fonta9e did n seem to ?9k mu* ( him4 ,b we 7 greatly (f5d$2 we consid]$ x a reflection on our family & :olly uncall$ =1 because my si/] 01 9 fact1 nei!r old nor homely1 & %e _h _h & reject$ a great _m fir/-class matrimonial opportunities4 ,i _h an int5se dislike = ,bro!r ,fonta9e & 8 ways1 & "t has n s(t5$ my impression ( him4 ,he de>ly lov$ to be ! only man 9 a fem99e ga!r+1 :]e he c\ld make heavy inroads ^u ! cake & ice cream & lay d[n ! law to ! ador+ ,si/]s4 ,i h seldom kn[n a ,prea*] :o 0 n afflict$ ) ?is mania1 b 9 ,bro!r ,fonta9e x _h develop$ into a highly acute disease4 ,i rememb] t he 0 always pres5t at our h\se :5 ! memb]s ( ! ,ladies' ,aid ,society came once ea* week = _! bit ( sew+ = ! hea!n & to enjoy _! pleasant aft]noon ( sc&al4 ,he _h no bus9ess !re2 he did n sew & he did n contribute mu* to ! symposium1 b he li/5$ avidly & ate he>tily4 ,x 0 8,don't y ?9k s1 ,bro!r ,fonta9e80 & 8,i fe> ,i mu/ take issue ) y1 ,si/]4 ,! ,"l provide? answ]s = all problems affect+ human conduct40 ,fool talk l t4 ,x 0 ! practice ( our ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ prea*]s to /& at ! door ( ! *ur* aft] e p]=mance & %ake h&s ) ! cu/om]s1 mak+ su* rem>ks z 8,praise ! ,"l1 ,si/]6 ,get "r ) ,jesus1 ,bro!r60 ,i always dread$ ?is "p ( ! s]vice1 & sev]al "y girls told me t !y did also4 ,all ( ! prea*]s :o did ?is1 & almo/ all ( !m did1 %ook h&s ) a clammy pressure t put me 9 m9d ( an oy/]1 & x always seem$ to me t :5 a lady cu/om] pass$ ?r\gh ! door ! ,man ( ,god inv>iably f\nd x necess>y to sigh4 ,b al?\gh ,i _c rate ,bro!r ,fonta9e v highly among ! s]vants ( ! ,"l1 my y\ng] bro!r consign$ him to ev5 l[] dep?s4 ,!y w5t fi%+ toge!r once1 at ,bro!r ,fonta9e's reque/1 & ,fr$ appe>$ at ! p>sonage ) lun*1 fi%+ tackle & c> f>e4 ,bro!r ,fonta9e knelt & ask$ div9e guidance = ! exp$ition1 & !n !y bo>d$ a trolley c> & w5t to ,de ,lassus1 to fi% ! ,/4 ,francis ,riv] ar\nd ,blumey]'s ,=d4 ,fr$ paid 8 f>e4 8,y mu/ pay my f>e1 too1 ,fr$10 said ,bro!r ,fonta9e4 8,i am ! m9i/]40 ,s ,fr$ paid4 ,!re 0 no?+ else t he c\ld d2 he 0 afraid t if he did n ,bro!r ,fonta9e w\ld :i/le to ,god to call d[n an av5g+ angel arm$ ) ?und]bolts & lightn+4 ,!n x develop$ t ,bro!r ,fonta9e _h br\ght nei!r lun* nor fi%+ tackle2 he _h br\ght only himself1 & be+ a ,man ( ,god t 0 suffici5t4 ,p]haps he felt t s9ce 8 influ5ce ) ! ,almighty 0 und\bt$ly great en\gh to make ! trip successful1 ,fr$ _h no "r to expect him to be> any ( ! exp5ses or furni% any equipm5t4 ,s he us$ ,fr$'s tackle & ate ,fr$'s lun*1 & :5 t 0 n en\gh = him he s5t ,fr$ a mile & a half to a f>mh\se to buy a bottle ( milk1 = :i* ,fr$ paid & :i* ! rev]5d "o guzzl$ )\t (f]+ to %>e x4 ,?r\gh\t ! :ole day ,bro!r ,fonta9e alt]nately pray$ & fi%$1 b !re mu/ h be5 some?+ wrong ) 8 connect+ l9e to ,heav51 = he caught no fi%4 ,he f9ally turn$ ! tackle ov] to ,fr$1 ) ! rem>k t ,fr$ _h n br\ght ! "r sort ( worms1 & ) ! fur!r explanation t worms be+ ,god's creatures z well z fi%1 ,god probably did n want ! fi% to eat !m4 ,fr$ fi%$ e>ne/ly2 he 0 ord9>ily a good & successful fi%]man1 & x 0 a matt] ( pride ) him n to g home )\t a /r+4 ,b nei!r did ,fr$ cat* any fi%1 & he became increas+ly annoy$ at ,bro!r ,fonta9e4 ,! prea*] app>5tly labor$ "u ! delusion t ,fr$ requir$ religi\s in/ruction4 ,he told1 sev]al times1 ! /ory ( ! loaves & ! fi%es1 & _m o!r ,biblical fairy tales z well4 ,once1 :5 ,fr$ 0 anxi\sly wat*+ 8 cork & felt c]ta9 t a p]* 0 nibbl+ at 8 hook1 ,bro!r ,fonta9e /opp$ him to read ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt f a ,bible :i* he drew f 8 pocket4 ,ev]y?+ he saw rem9d$ him ( some?+ 9 ! ,scriptures4 ,s pass$ ! day1 & :5 ,fr$ came home t night1 ) no fi%1 he ate heavily ( supp] & !n d>$ p>5tal wra? by say+3 8,no m ( ^! damn$ prea*]s = me40 ,bro!r ,nations is probably ,f>m+ton's mo/ illu/ri\s gift to religion4 ,x is true t he ev5tually resign$ f ! m9i/ry & became ,probate ,judge & ,pr9cipal ( ! ,high ,s*ool1 b he rema9$ a /eadfa/ adh]5t ( ! ,prote/ant ,god & a s+ul>ly dev\t & godly man4 ,i presume he /ill is1 z he is ! same ,gilb]t ,o4 ,nations :o 9 #aibd ran = ,presid5t z ! c&idate ( :at he call$ ! ,am]ican p>ty1 ask+ = ! votes ( ! electorate on a pro-,ku ,klux ,klan & anti-ev]y?+ else plat=m4 ,i am told t he is n[ ! editor ( a magaz9e devot$ to bait+ ! ,ca?olics4 ,once :5 ,bro!r ,nations 0 pr9cipal ( ! ,f>m+ton ,high ,s*ool he :al$ me because ,b>ney ,blue & ,i _h ?r[n sn[balls at ,jake ,s*aeff]1 ! t[n truckman4 ,i felt t ! lick+ 0 com+ to me & ,i bore no malice2 only ! week be=e ,i _h ?r[n lumps ( coal at ,pete ,&]son's h\se across ! /reet & _h be5 w>n$ t ! hurl+ ( any?+ at all w\ld result 9 puni%m5t4 ,b aft] ! ?ra%+ 0 ov]1 ,bro!r ,nations told me t ?r[+ sn[balls at ,jake ,s*aeff] 0 a s9 aga9/ ,god3 t ,*ri/ _h ref]5ce to x :5 he said3 8,let him :o is )\t s9 ca/ ! fir/ /one40 ,i c\ld n plead t ,i 0 )\t s91 because x _h be5 impress$ on me by e ,bro!r & ,si/] & ,prea*] t ,i met t ,i 0 practically brok5 out ) x4 ,b "y & gullible z ,i 01 ,bro!r ,nations' /atem5t s\nd$ silly4 ,i c\ld und]/& t f ,jake ,s*aeff]'s viewpo9t ,i _h s9n$1 & griev\sly1 because ,jake 0 /oop+ ov] :5 ! sn[ball /ruck & ,i _h put a /one 9 ! c5t] ( x to make ! sn[ pack tight]2 ,i 0 will+ to admit t & rep5t4 ,b :at did ,god c>e if two boys smack$ sn[balls aga9/ a s(t "p ( ,jake's p]son8 ,x seem$ to me t if ,god _h be5 really int]e/$ 9 ! matt] ,he w\ld h advis$ ,jake ,s*aeff] n to /oop ov] :5 two boys 7 abroad ) sn[balls4 ,?us ,he might h prev5t$ a s94 ,fur!r1 if ,god 0 z intellig5t z ,i _h be5 l$ to believe1 ,he mu/ h kn[n t boys _c resi/ ! temptation to ?r[ sn[balls1 & s9ce ,he made bo? ! boys & ! sn[balls ,he 0 responsible = ! s9 committ$ aga9/ ,himself4 ,b ,bro!r ,nations appe>$ to believe t ,god _h p]mitt$ me to s9 9 ord] t ,i might ta/e ! joys ( ca/igatory rebuke4 ,& ,i did4 ,bro!r ,hickok 0 ! only ,prea*] ( ^? days to :om ,i gave ! slighte/ measure ( respect4 ,i _h a g5u9e admiration = him1 b x 0 n because he 0 a ,prea*] or because he pret5d$ to any inside k ( ! cu/oms ( ,heav5 or ! ?\ghts & wi%es ( ,god4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i h he>d him admit t !re 7 ?+s 9 ! ,bible he did n und]/&1 & ,i h he>d him admit t !re 7 passages 9 x t he did n p>ticul>ly c>e =4 ,b ,i lik$ him simply because he *ew$ tobacco )\t any ef=t at concealm5t1 & play$ lawn t5nis on ! c\rts ne> our home1 & because ,i suspect$1 e "t ,i saw him wallop a t5nis ball or bite a *unk f a slab ( plug-cut1 t he 0 ,wild ,bill ,hickok 9 disguise4 ,ab\t ! "t ,bro!r ,hickok came to ,f>m+ton ,i acquir$ a book devot$ to ! adv5tures ( ,wild ,bill1 ,kit ,c>son1 ,buffalo ,bill & o!r h]oes ( ! ,we/]n pla9s1 & ( !m all ,i lik$ ,wild ,bill be/4 ,he seem$ to me to be ev]y?+ t a man ought to be4 ,he _h m not*es on 8 gun ?an any ( ! o!rs1 & x appe>$ t he c\ld n s mu* z sneeze )\t a r$sk9 bit+ ! du/4 ,i put ! "q ( id5tity to ,bro!r ,hickok r bluntly1 & told him ,i w\ld respect 8 confid5ce1 b he d5i$ x1 al?\gh ,i ga!r$ ! impression t he 0 a relative ( ,wild ,bill &1 ( c\rse1 mighty pr\d ( him4 ,b ,i 0 n satisfi$1 & = a long "t ,i %ad[$ him 9 ! mann] set =? by ,old & ,"y ,k+ ,brady 9 t /]l+ nickel novel1 8,secret ,s]vice10 hop+ to le>n 8 secret4 ,h[ev]1 ,i nev] did solve ! "q to my own satisfaction4 ,b pr9cipally ,i admir$ ,bro!r ,hickok because he 0 ! only ,prea*] ,i knew :o did n proclaim incessantly t he 0 a ,man ( ,god & !re=e entitl$ to ! l>ge/ piece ( pie1 & because he 0 ! only "o :o did n seem to be impress$ by my relation%ip ) ,bi%op ,asbury4 ,he didn't seem to give a damn ab\t ! ,bi%op2 8 only ambition1 s f> z ,i 0 conc]n$1 0 to beat me at t5nis1 :i* he did4 ,b f ! o!rs1 & f ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 ,i got ! impression t ! "r rev]5d deceas$1 seat$ at ,god's "r h& betwe5 ,jesus ,*ri/ & ,/4 ,pet]1 p]haps cr[d+ ! latt] a bit1 _h no?+ to d b receive messages f ! ,almighty t\*+ on my conduct1 & relay !m to me by :atev] ,prea*] ,i happ5$ to meet4 ,= _m ye>s ,i ?\ght t ,god & ! ,bi%op _h a consultation on my case e night4 ,i d n ?9k t ,i %all ev] =get ,bro!r ,l9coln ,mc,connell1 al?\gh ,i probably %\ld n recognize him if ,i saw him to-day4 ,i hope n4 ,b = "s eighte5 long ye>s ,i h *]i%$ a compell+ desire to /& him 9 a corn]1 m9us 8 b& & s+]s & 8 o!r aids to emotion1 & !n b9d & gag him4 ,aft] t ,i want to talk to him = h\rs & h\rs1 embelli%+ my rem>ks ) su* florid words z ,i h acquir$ 9 v>i\s milit>y & j\rnali/ic ent]prises1 & possibly inv5t+ new ones = ! occasion4 ,he 0 responsible = ! mo/ mis]able p]iod ( my life4 ,b x 0 he1 too1 :o def9itely kept me f be+ a ,prea*]1 or ev5 a ,bro!r1 & s1 p]haps1 ,i %\ld ?ank him4 ,if he _h let me alone ,i might at ?is mom5t be call+ "s o!r prea*] ,bro!r2 ,i might be an intimate ( ,god1 & a walk+ ,ba$ek] ( ,heav52 ,i might ev5 be gloat+ ov] ! glories ( a ,heav5 pav$ ) gold & populat$ by angels1 all female1 all beautiful1 all amiable4 ,c]ta9ly ,i %\ld n be giv5 ov] to a life ( s92 t is to say1 ,i %\ld n be hav+ a pretty good "t ) ?is bus9ess ( liv+4 ,bro!r ,mc,connell1 z ,i write1 is a pa/or ( a ,bapti/ *ur* 9 ,oklahoma ,city1 ,okla41 ) occasional =ays onto ! ,*autauqua plat=m1 & is a pot5t =ce 9 ! life ( t abode ( righte\sness4 ,b if reports are to be believ$1 !re are ev5 !re ^? :o consid] him a blight4 ,he has be5 ! c5tral figure 9 sev]al r[s t h und\bt$ly r$\nd$ to ! great] glory ( ,god2 he tri$ to prev5t ! citiz5s ( 8 t[n f see+ "o ( ! be/ ,am]ican plays ( rec5t ye>s because x dealt a bit too tru?fully ) c]ta9 aspects ( religi\s fanaticism1 & he erect$ a radio broadca/+ /ation :i* blanket$ ! city & =c$ ! population to li/51 willy-nilly1 to 8 s]mons & 8 pond]\s pron\ncem5ts aga9/ s94 ,i once wrote a magaz9e article 9 :i* ,i discuss$ a few ( ! activities ( ,bro!r ,mc,connell1 & he put me 9 my place 9 an int]view :i*1 x seems to me1 %[s t he has n *ang$ a great deal s9ce ! "t t ,i fir/ %ook h&s ) him z he lean$ ov] ! m\rn]'s b5* & besee*$ me to give my he>t to 8 ,god4 ,i give x "h4 ,x appe>$ 9 ! ,oklahoma ,city ,news1 on ,janu>y #bg1 #aibe4 8,he is a v small potato40 ,t 0 ! reply ( ! ,rev4 ,l9coln ,mc,connell1 ,fir/ ,bapti/ ,*ur* pa/or4444 8,i h "s d\bt10 said ! ,rev4 ,mc,connell1 8z to :e!r ,i %\ld feel honor$ or o!rwise by ! repeat$ m5tion ( my "n 9 ?is article by ,h]b]t ,asbury )\t realiz+ t ?is writ] _c possibly h inh]it$ any?+ m f 8 illu/ri\s ance/ry ?an 8 "n4 8,i confess t x is r surpris+ to me t editors ( a magaz9e c\ld atta* en\gh importance to su* *eap drivel z ?is z to give x ! position & ! space !y d4 8,! natural assumption is t !y believe ab\t religion1 ! religion ( ,*ri/1 :at ?is poor fell[ does1 & !re=e1 actually believe t ?is #8weak /uff' is a contribution to _! cause4 8,i rememb] ,f>m+ton1 ,mo41 v well1 hav+ be5 !re ab\t tw5ty-five ye>s ago4 ,i d n rememb] ,h]b]t ,asbury at all4 8,i am n surpris$ t ,i d n1 z he mu/ h be5 !n some:at z he evid5tly is n[--a v small potato--& :ile ,i w\ld feel naturally z int]e/$ 9 8 conv]sion z 9 anyone else1 at ! same "t ,i am =c$ to admit t x w\ld n be possible = a man ( tra9+ & exp]i5ce to li/ a man ( 8 evid5t m5tality v highly1 ev5 ?\gh he 7 a pr(ess$ conv]t 9 8 meet+4 8,i am v sorry t he 0 n really conv]t$4 ,if ! ,editor ( ! ,am]ican ,m]cury c>es = ?+s ( a really con/ructive nature1 ,i c give him ! life /ory ( ?\s&s ( m5 & wom5 :om because ( ! g5u95ess ( _! conv]sion to ,*ri/ 9 my own meet+s1 h giv5 to ! _w *>act]s ( su* beauty & wor? z h reflect$ cr$it ^u !mselves & _! *ur* & h prov$ a bless+ to society at l>ge4 8,i h nev] ask$ p to /& up if !y want to g to ,heav54 ,i ?9k t v ridicul\s40 #f ,x 0 ^! p :o taught me ( ,god1 & :o _h dom9ion ov] my spiritual welf>e6 ,& n only did !y in/ruct me to wor%ip _! conception ( ,him2 !y ?reat5$ me ) et]nal damnation if ,i didn't1 & ) ev5 m horrible puni%m5t if ,i v5tur$ to ca/ d\bt ^u ! tru? & hol9ess ( ! ,bible4 ,et]nal damnation meant t ,i %\ld1 9 ! life to come1 hang ?r\gh\t et]nity on a revolv+ spit ov] a great fire 9 ! deepe/ pit ( ,hell1 :ile little r$ devils jabb$ :ite-hot pok]s into my quiv]+ fle% & ,satan /ood by & curl$ 8 lip 9 glee4 ,i receiv$ ! impression t ,satan 0 ! only "o actively conc]n$ ) religion :o 0 ev] p]mitt$ to laugh4 ,god 0 n1 nor ,8 disciples1 & t ,satan c\ld & app>5tly did 0 suffici5t pro( t laught] 0 wick$4 ,& !y describ$ ,god to me1 & told me 9 m9ute detail ( ! ar*itectural design ( ,heav5 & ! furni%+s ( ! ,mansions 9 ! ,sky4 ,i d n "k :]e !y obta9$ _! in=mation4 ,i ga!r$ t ,god 0 an old man :o wore a long :ite nightg[n & boa/$ a luxuriant gr[? ( :isk]s1 ) a disposition comp\nd$ ( ! sn>ls ( a w\nd$ wildcat & ! pleasant conceits ( a mu/ elephant4 ,he *ew$ tobacco--p]haps t impression 0 due to ! fact t s _m ( our prea*]s 7 addict$ to ! vile we$--& ,he _h an enorm\s head :i* conta9$ an eye = e p]son on e>?1 & ?is eye 0 con/antly ^u its object4 ,& x 0 a v9dictive & jaundic$ eye1 pe]+ into ! inn]mo/ dep?s ( ! s\l & ! m9d & ! he>t = "s ?\ght or feel+ t might call = puni%m5t4 ,! descriptions ( ,heav5 & ! physical appe>ance ( ! angels v>i$ some:at1 accord+ to :e!r ! tale 0 told by a prea*] or a ,bro!r1 or a ,si/]4 ,b all ( !m talk$ ) gu/o ( /reets pav$ ) gold & ( cl\ds l9$ ) silv]1 ( magnific5t build+s con/ruct$ ( preci\s /ones1 & ( angels sitt+ on ! cl\ds ) no wor?i] purpose 9 life ?an /rumm+ a gold5 h>p1 protect$ f ! wea!r by no m sub/antial raim5t ?an a :ite nightg[n1 a halo & a pair ( s&als4 ,& :oev] told ! tale1 !re 0 always t und]ly+ idea ( syb>itic magnific5ce2 ,heav5 bore no resemblance to ! l[ly /able 9 :i* ! f\nd] ( _! religion 0 born1 & x 0 n a somb] retreat = ! fur!r developm5t ( ! s\l & ! cultivation ( ^? virtues t are lo/ sight ( ^u ! e>?4 ,z x 0 describ$ to me 9 my y\?1 & z x is /ill describ$ on ^? r>e occasions :5 ,i c br+ myself to hold conv]se ) a ,prea*]1 ,heav5 0 a cele/ial reproduction ( ! palace ( a ,babylonian mon>*4 ,nobody work$1 & ,god's ,h\se ab\nd$ ) gold & silv] & rubies & diamonds1 & on e cl\d t roll$ d[n ! /reet 0 a beautiful woman1 et]nally "y & amiable4 ,! ,heav5 t ,i 0 taught to aspire to 0 a motion picture set on an ev5 gr&] scale ?an ! creations ( ,cecil ,de ,mille4 ,b ev5 m emphasis 0 plac$1 9 ^! tales1 on fem99e virg9ity4 ,x seem$ t ,heav5 0 fill$ ) virg9s2 ,i h nev] he>d a ,prea*] describe an angel )\t m5tion+ ! fact t ! angel 0 a virg91 & ,i h nev] he>d a ,prea*] describe ,m>y simply z ! "m ( ,jesus4 ,%e is always ! ,virg9 ,"m1 & he pron\nces x all 9 capitals4 ,ev5 z a boy ,i 0 impress$ ) ! frequ5cy ) :i* ! ^w 8virg90 appe>$ 9 ! disc\rses ( our ,pa/or & 9 ! lectures s freely be/[$ ^u me by ! ,bro!rs4 ,x seem$ to me t ! ^w fasc9at$ !m2 al?\gh ,i might be trembl+ ) fe> t ,god w\ld /rike me dead because ,i _h n le>n$ my ,sunday-s*ool lesson or _h =gott5 ! ,gold5 ,text1 ,i 0 s impress$ t ,i f\nd "t to wond] at ! en?usiasm ) :i* !y m\!d x4 ,x seem$ impossible = ,prea*]s or dev\t ,bro!rs to say 8virg90 z casually z !y did o!r words2 !y gloat$ ov] x1 toy$ ) x1 roll$ x ab\t _! tongues & ta/$ ! full flavor ( x be=e x slid dripp+ly f _! lips ) an amaz+ cl>ity ( pronunciation4 ,usually !y accompani$ x ) a doleful sigh4 ,i ?\ght !n t ! sigh 0 f excess ( piety1 & ,i ?\ght t _! eyes %one & _! brea? came a little fa/] f ! same cause1 t ^! ?+s 7 possibly manife/ations ( ,god1 & ,i 0 greatly impress$4 ,b ,i am old] n[ & ,i "k bett]4 ,:5 ,i became old en\gh to und]/& :at 0 meant by virg9ity1 & to und]/& t x 0 some?+ m ?an a badge ( ! angels1 ,i und]/ood also _m o!r ?+s t _h hi!rto be5 my/]ies4 ,i knew !n :at 0 9 ! m9d ( "o ( ! ,bro!rs1 an extraord9>ily dev\t man ) an a/\nd+ k ( ! wi%es ( ,god & ! mann]s & cu/oms ( ,heav51 :5 he /opp$ me on ! /reet "o day & ask$ me :at1 if any?+1 _h happ5$ on a rec5t hay ride to ,blumey]'s ,=d & back by memb]s ( our social set4 8,did ! boys & girls sit close toge!r80 he ask$4 8,yes1 sir4 ,we _h to4 ,we 7 on a hay wagon40 8,did y boys sit "r up aga9/ !m80 ,i told him we did1 & 9 my y\?ful innoc5ce ,i rem>k$ t ,i _h be5 compell$ to sit s close to "o girl t we c\ld h>dly tell our legs ap>t4 ,! old man drew a %>p brea?1 sigh$ & 8 eyes gli/5$4 ,he repeat$ ! ^w 8legs0 ) gu/o1 he gloat$ ov] x1 & !n he said3 8,y sat s close to h] t y\r legs t\*$8 ,y\r leg t\*$ h]s8 ,y\r leg 0 "r up aga9/ h]80 8,yes1 sir4 ,i _h to40 8,! leg ( a "y virg960 mus$ ! old devil4 8,t 0 wick$4 ,x is wick$ to ?9k ( ! legs ( a virg94 ,god w puni% y40 ,he w5t away mutt]+ to himself4 ,i 0 disgu/$1 n at 8 ideas1 because ,i _h practically ! same ?\ght ab\t virg9s t he did1 & s did mo/ ( ! o!r boys ( ! t[n1 b at 8 mann]4 ,"h 0 an old man :o _h set himself up z a mundane repres5tative ( ! ,"l1 :o told me :om to wor%ip & h[ to wor%ip ,him1 :o held daily communion ) ,god & receiv$ messages f ,him t\*+ on my conduct1 gloat+ & trembl+ because a boy _h sat ) 8 leg aga9/ ! leg ( a girl 9 ! =c$ conf9em5t ( a hay ride4 ,god kn[s :at is happ5+ to him if he is alive 9 ^! days ( %ort skirts & silk /ock+s4 ,ano!r ( our ,bro!rs1 a v prom95t memb] ( "o ( our ,prote/ant *ur*es1 kept a /ore 9 ! bus9ess di/rict n f> f ! ,c\rt ,h\se4 ,he 0 wait+ on a cu/om] ! day t ! fir/ woman to ride a/ride 9 our t[n cant]$ d[n ,columbia ,/reet1 & 8 p]=mance 0 a t[n sc&al = _m ye>s4 ,he caught a glimpse ( ! girl ?r\gh ! w9d[1 & he ab&on$ 8 cu/om] & ru%$ to ! /reet1 9 company ) half ! c\nty (ficials :o _h be5 doz+ ) _! feet on _! desks1 & all ( ! t[n loaf]s4 ,! ,bro!r foll[$ h] = sev]al blocks1 miss+ no detail ( h] co/ume1 :i* 0 r biz>re & d>+ = ^? days1 & !n he w5t back to 8 /ore & 8 cu/om]4 ,he /ood = a :ile wrapp$ 9 contemplation4 8,%e 0 rid+ l a man60 he said4 8,h] legs--h] legs----0 ,my exp]i5ces 9 ^! matt]s1 ( c\rse1 7 pr9cipally ) ,prea*]s & ,bro!rs1 b ,i _h occasional contacts ) ! ,si/]s4 ,!y1 too1 describ$ ,god & ,heav51 b !y did n conceive ,god z be+ q s old & feeble z ! ,be+ wor%ipp$ by ! ,bro!rs1 & = ! mo/ "p !y populat$ ,heav5 ) h&some1 /alw>t "y m51 presumably virg9s4 ,i recall "o exce$+ly dev\t ,si/] :o express$ ! belief t !re 7 no female angels 9 ,heav51 & ,i h he>d h] pray+ ) extraord9>y f]vor to ,god1 9 effect1 to make an exception 9 h] case4 ,:e!r %e 0 ju/ifi$ 9 ?is optimi/ic op9ion ( h]self ,i nev] knew1 b ,i assume t %e & ! o!r ,si/]s1 9 _! discussion ( ! virg9ity ( angels1 exp]i5c$ ! same sort ( vic>i\s pleasure t seem$ to mean s mu* to ! ,prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs4 #g ,i did n g to _m camp meet+s2 ours 0 n a camp-meet+ c\ntry4 ,we w5t 9 m = protract$ meet+s1 & = ! /irr+ revivals ( pr(essional evangeli/s1 held 9 com=table *ur* build+s4 ,usually ,i w5t to camp meet+ only because "s girl 9 :om ,i 0 int]e/$ _h to g4 ,b !y 7 v popul> ) a c]ta9 type ( "y man ab\t ,f>m+ton1 :o knew t religi\s emotion is v ak9 to secul> emotion2 ! l9e ( dem>cation is v ?91 & mo/ m5 :o h be5 ar\nd religi\s wom5 v mu* "k t "o emotion c quickly be trans=m$ into ! o!r4 ,"y girls are mu* easi] prey aft] !y h be5 ov]:elm$ by religion1 _! n]ves upset & _! bra9s :irl+ ) emotion1 & !y are !n easily p]suad$ t ! ,"l w =give1 ev5 ?\gh ,8 e>?ly ag5ts w n4 ,( c\rse su* a /atem5t c\ld n be prov51 b x is q likely t m s$uctions h occurr$ at camp meet+s1 & en r\te to & f !m1 ?an on all ! front por*es & lawn sw+s t 7 ev] manufactur$1 al?\gh 9 ,f>m+ton = _m ye>s a lawn sw+ 0 reg>d$ z a lure ( ,hell4 ,ev5 :ile ! s]vice 0 9 progress ! buggies ar\nd ! meet+ t5t 7 fill$ ) m5 & wom5 pett+1 or1 z we call$ x !n1 spoon+4 ,/range ?+s happ5$ at ^! camp meet+s1 & at ! o!r ga!r+s z well1 :5 a =?right religioni/ saw ! light4 ,at "o su* holy conclave an old woman1 = _m ye>s a ?orn 9 ! fle% ( ! godly1 sudd5ly b\nc$ to h] feet & %\t$3 8,praise ! ,"l6 ,my corn hurts6 ,praise ! ,"l60 ,& ?is1 because x embodi$ physical suff]+ & a great deal ( m5tal torture z well1 0 accept$ z an infallible sign t ,god _h at la/ ent]$ h] s\l4 ,%e _h be5 conv]t$1 & all ! re/ ( h] life %e 0 a pry+1 sanctimoni\s old pe/4 ,%e us$ to /op me on ! /reet & inquire z to ! condition ( my s\l1 & ask me :e!r ,i said my pray]s at night1 & :e!r ,i read ! ,bible1 & %e w\ld grab me by ! arm & p9* me & dem& ! ,gold5 ,text ( ! la/ ,sunday-s*ool lesson4 ,& if by any *ance ,i _h =gott5 or did n "k1 %e scold$ me & pr$ict$ dire ?+s = me 9 ! life to come4 ,incid5tally1 %e knew all ab\t ! life to come2 x seems t ,god _h appe>$ to h] 9 a vision1 & _h describ$ ,heav5 to h]4 ,at all ( ^! meet+s extraord9>y ef=ts 7 made to ensn>e ! *ildr5 & conv]t !m to ,*ri/ianity2 ! work]s = ! ,"l 7 n at all conc]n$ ) ! fact t ! *ildr5 did n "k :at x 0 all ab\t1 t !y _h no opportunity to *oose _! own religion1 & ) ! fur!r & obvi\s fact t !y succumb$ to no?+ b fright & a great surge ( emotion4 ,t me?od p]si/s4 ,! ,*ur* /ill obta9s its conv]ts by noise & appeals to primitive emotion1 & by ?reats1 r ?an by intellig5tly implant+ a true & deep-seat$ conception ( ,god & ! heav5ly wond]s4 ,b to ! religioni/s a conv]t is a conv]t1 no matt] h[ obta9$2 ,i h kn[n boys to be ?ra%$ because !y w\ld n pr(ess religion4 ,z ) ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ! unspok5 & always d5i$ slogan ( ! ,me?odi/s & ( ! o!r ,prote/ant sects is 8,cat* 'em :ile !y're "y10 b unlike ! ,ca?olics ! ,prote/ants _c hold !m4 ,= "o ?+1 !y d n put on a good en\gh %[2 !y d n und]/& light+1 & !y h no uni=ms & no ,lat9 *ant]s4 ,a ,ca?olic prie/ cov]$ by a surplice or :at n1 & 8 voice ris+ & fall+ sonor\sly 9 ! *ant+ ( a bit ( ,lat91 is a v impressive spectacle1 & 8 appe>ance l5ds dignity to 8 words4 ,! g5tle />e t mo/ ( !m we> is also effective4 ,z soon z an embryo ,me?odi/ becomes intellig5t en\gh to visualize ! sort ( ,heav5 t ! ,bro!rs are prep>+ = him1 he %udd]s & =?) goes to ! ,devil1 :ile ! ,ca?olics fill _! conv]ts ) su* fe> ( ,god & ! ,pope1 or ! ,pope & ,god1 to put !m 9 ! ord] ( _! importance1 t v few get away4 ,a r5egade ,ca?olic is almo/ z r>e z a ,me?odi/ ,prea*] :o does n ?9k he is spr\t+ w+s1 & t 8 voice is truly ! ,voice ( ,god4 ,a ,,bad ,,boy ,,comes ,,to ,,jesus #a ,x is cle>1 !n1 t n only 0 my ance/ral backgr\nd religi\s1 b t ,i liv$ 9 an atmosph]e heavy ) religi\s feel+4 ,religion & ! ,*ur* dom9at$ ! :ole ( my e>ly life4 ,among all ( my relatives ,i d n recall "o ^: home 0 n oppress$1 & ^: life 0 n made mis]able & fretful1 by ! t]rible fe> ( a rel5tless ,god ^: pr9cipal occupation seem$ to be snoop+ ab\t se>*+ = someone to puni%4 ,religion 0 p\r$ d[n my ?roat 9 doses t /rangl$ me & made me sick ( s\l4 ,!re 0 simply too mu* ( x4 ,god 0 f$ to me morn+1 noon & night1 & ,he did n ta/e good2 ,i 0 h\nd$ f pill> to po/ by a pack ( bay+1 sanctimoni\s hypocrites besee*+ me to get "r ) ,jesus1 & to read & believe t collection ( ,hebrew fairy tales call$ ! ,bible4 ,i came f9ally to ?9k ( ,god z ,i did ( ca/or oil1 & ! flavor t ,he left 9 my m\? 0 j z frightful4 ,he & ,8 religion 7 p]sonifi$ by ! d\r-fac$ m5 & wom5 :o w5t slid+ ab\t ! t[n2 rubb+ _! h&s toge!r1 scrap+ ! sk9 f _! s\ls b n f _! palms4 ,!y 7 irritat+ly g5tle1 & !y sigh$ s\lfully & m\!d platitudes ) enorm\s gu/o2 !y call$ ea* o!r ,bro!r & ,si/] & pok$ _! messy1 pry+ f+]s into e bit ( fun t anybody tri$ to h2 !y f$ _! little %rivel$ s\ls ) sc&al & sme>$ dirt ov] ev]y?+ t 0 amus+4 ,!y reg>d$ all "y m5 z pr(essional s$uc]s1 & = ! great] glory ( ,god ru9$ ! reputations ( "y girls :o w5t buggy-rid+ & seem$ to enjoy x--& no?+ c be s completely & irrevocably ru9$ z ! reputation ( a "y girl 9 a small t[n4 ,b despite ! feel+s ( disgu/ & revolt :i* ! labors ( ^! s]vants ( ! ,"l evok$ 9 me1 ,i did n def9itely align myself on ! side ( ! non-believ]s & ! s9n]s until aft] ,i _h be5 8conv]t$40 ,i began on t night to hate ! ,*ur* & its religion1 & all ( its pry+1 messy hypocrisy & sanctimony4 ,& especially ,i hat$ ! prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s4 ,i /ill d2 !y give me a pa9 9 ! neck4 ,i felt t ,i _h be5 betray$2 ,i knew t ! _s ( ,god 0 n work+ 9 me1 b ,i 0 told t x 0 & d>$ to d5y x4 ,i 0 told t ,i mu/ 8get "r ) ! ,"l10 :atev] t may be4 ,i felt t ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s & ! evangeli/ _h tak5 an unfair advantage ( my emotions2 !re 0 a b& at ! revival1 & "u ! influ5ce ( music ,i w d any?+4 ,x compell$ me to d some?+ t ,i did n want to d2 x humiliat$ me 9 my own eyes1 & no?+ t has ev] happ5$ to me s9ce has made me s mis]able & a%am$4 ,i _h rea*$ ! ripe old age ( f\rte5 or fifte5 :5 ! h& ( ! ,"l1 op]at+ ?r\gh ! ag5cy ( ,bro!r ,mc,connell & a horde ( wail+ ,bro!rs & ,si/]s ) religi\s f]vor break+ out ^u !m l boils1 rea*$ out & pluck$ me f ! burn+4 ,b x 0 n _! fault t ,i _h n be5 conv]t$ e>li]2 !y _h tri$ (t5 en\gh4 ,"o ( my e>lie/ recollections is ( a ,prea*] ask+ me :y ,i did n pr(ess religion & jo9 ! ,*ur*1 & :y ,i _h n giv5 my he>t to ,god1 z he call$ x4 ,i 0 occasionally s+l$ out at protract$ meet+s & at revivals & made ! object ( special pray]s1 b until ,bro!r ,mc,connell came ) 8 improv$ te*nique & circus me?ods ,i _h always held out4 #b ,my own *ur*1 ( c\rse1 0 ! ,s\!rn ,me?odi/1 b ! revival meet+ at :i* ,i 0 conv]t$ 0 a union ga!r+ 9 ! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/ edifice1 :i* 0 ab\t a block f ,braun's saloon & an ev5 %ort] di/ance f ! c\nty jail4 ,we call$ x ! ,rock *ur* because x 0 con/ruct$ l>gely ( granite blocks4 ,its memb]s 7 consid]$ good en\gh p 9 _! way1 b !y 7 h>dly among ! socially elect1 = _m ( !m liv$ s\? ( ! ,po/ ,(fice among ! ,ca?olics & ! ,lu!rans1 & 9 "s circles x 0 suspect$ t !y held1 at times1 int]c\rse ) ! ,devil4 ,nev]!less1 !y 7 ,me?odi/s & ,*ri/ians & fir/-class politicians1 & by ?is "t !y h probably assum$ control ( ! t[n4 ,all ( ! ,prote/ant congregations ( ,f>m+ton *ipp$ 9 to pay ! #fjj dem&$ by ,bro!r ,mc,connell = 8 week's "w = ! ,"l4 ,?is 0 a goodly fee1 b x 0 n consid]$ exorbitant1 z ,bro!r ,mc,connell 0 a pr(essional devil-*as] ) a national reputation1 & x 0 felt t he1 if anyone1 c\ld put ,f>m+ton on ! "r side ( ! heav5ly l$g]4 ,!re 0 consid]able rivalry among our good p z to :o %\ld ent]ta9 ! evangeli/ & pay = 8 fri$ *ick5 & o!r delicacies1 & ,i d n recall :o f9ally drew ! plum4 ,b ! family ^: b$ & bo>d he grac$ 0 consid]$ v =tunate2 x _h practically assur$ itself ( ultimate salvation1 s9ce ! emiss>ies ( ! ,devil w\ld n d>e to invade su* a sanctu>y ( ,god4 ,bro!r ,mc,connell 0 an extraord9>ily agile man4 ,?r\gh\t 8 s]vice1 & p>ticul>ly aft] ! collection _h be5 tak5 up & f\nd to be good1 he b\nd$ back & =? ab\t ! pulpit1 *as+ ! ,devil hi!r & yon1 %ak+ 8 hair f 8 eyes1 sweat+ at e pore & ro>+ *>ges ab\t d5s ( evil t ,i1 = "o1 0 nev] able to f9d 9 ,f>m+ton1 al?\gh ,i head$ sev]al explor+ p>ties4 ,he dealt l>gely 9 t sort ( goods2 to him1 & to mo/ ( ! o!r prea*]s t ,i recall1 morality & goodness 7 no?+ b *a/ity1 & !y nev] let an opportunity pass to ins9uate t ! f9e/ m5 9 our t[n :il$ away _! idle h\rs ) sc>let wom54 ,_! ins9uations1 ( c\rse1 _h no basis 9 fact2 to my k !re 0 b "o pr(essional sc>let woman 9 t[n1 & !re simply 0 n "t4 ,h[ev]1 !re 71 to be sure1 amateurs4 ,! *ur* 0 cr[d$ on ! night ,i 0 told t ,jesus _h tak5 possession ( my s\l4 ,i sat ab\t ! middle ( ! c5t] section ) my eld] bro!r1 a phlegmatic boy :o 0 also conv]t$ b :o w\ld nev] talk mu* ab\t x1 :ile across ! aisle 7 my si/] & my y\ng] bro!r4 ,e few mom5ts ! evangeli/ w\ld /op %\t+ & s9k back into 8 *air1 gasp+1 wip+ 8 br[ & break+ into sobs z he b[$ 8 head 9 a pray] t came 9 a ?roaty mumble f 8 lips4 ,"h & !re ?r\gh\t ! h\se 0 an e*o+ gasp & a /rangl$ sob1 utt]ances ( tortur$ & fright5$ s\ls ab\t to be swirl$ into a great wave ( religi\s fr5zy4 ,& /&+ 9 ! aisle & ab\t ! pulpit 7 ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 exp]i5c$ revival work]s1 eag] retriev]s = ! ,"l1 _! faces flu%$ ) emotion & _! eagle eyes rov+ ! congregation 9 que/ ( j su* p]sons4 ,! in/ant ! evangeli/ sat d[n1 8 b& lead] popp$ up l a tra9$ seal1 & f ! b& & ! augm5t$ *oir p\r$ ! lilt+ measures ( a hymn4 ,oh1 t w be ,glory = me6 ,glory = me1 ,yes1 glory = me6 ,:5 by ,8 grace ,i %all look on ,8 face1 ,t w be glory1 ,yes1 glory = me6 ,! fir/ hymn 0 usually some?+ ( ?is sort1 a tune ) a sw+ to x1 to get ! congregation sway+ 9 rhy?m1 & to attract ! unc]ta9 s9n]s l\ng+ ab\t ! door & look+ 91 unable to decide :e!r or n to ent]4 ,usually !y came 9 aft] he>+ 8,glory0 & a song or two l 8,br++ 9 ! ,%eaves0 & 8,jesus1 ,lov] ( ,my ,s\l40 ,lat] ! *oir swung into ! doleful songs l 8,rock ( ,ages0 & 8,ne>]1 ,my ,god1 to ,!e40 ,! emotional appeal 0 t]rific2 aft] ! fir/ hymn or two ! audi5ce jo9$1 bell[+ ! words ) fanatical f]vor4 ,murmurs began to arise z ! evangeli/ alt]nately talk$ & pray$1 & !n sudd5ly ! music /opp$1 ! prea*] %ut (f 8 talk & = an in/ant !re 0 a sil5ce4 ,x 0 !atrical hokum1 b effective z always4 ,!n ,bro!r ,mc,connell leap$ & lung$ to ! front ( ! pulpit1 8 eyes gl>+ & 8 hair /ream+ d[n be=e 8 eyes4 ,he flung 8 arms wide4 8,come to ,jesus60 he %\t$4 8,bro!rs6 ,si/]s6 ,come to ,jesus60 ,he /ood !re trembl+1 implor+ ! s9n]s to ab&on _! helli% lives1 & ! *oir boom$ into song3 ,lives !re a fri5d l ! l[ly ,jesus8 ,no1 n "o6 ,no1 n "o6 ,all ov] ! *ur* n[ !re 7 cries ( ec/atic agony z ! victims wri!d 9 emotional torture1 & aft] a little :ile p began jump+ to _! feet & %\t+3 8,glory6 ,glory to ,god6 ,hallelujah60 ,! noise 0 deaf5+4 ,p 7 %\t+ 9 e "p ( ! audi5ce1 !y 7 weep+ & moan+4 ,"o old woman jump$ to h] feet1 climb$ onto h] seat & began to yell3 8,i see ,jesus6 ,i see ,jesus6 ,i see ,jesus60 ,%e repeat$ x ov] & ov] aga91 8,i see ,jesus60 & f9ally %e collaps$ into h] seat1 mumbl+ & weep+4 ,! evangeli/ took up ! cry4 ,he ro>$ back & =? across ! pulpit1 %ak+ 8 h&s above 8 head1 call+ on ,god to damn ! s9n]s4 ,8 :ole body quiv]$ & he scream$ at ! top ( 8 voice3 8,jesus is 9 ?is h\se6 ,come to ,jesus6 ,give y\r he>t to ,god60 ,& above ! ro> ( 8 voice & ! rumble ( ! see?+ congregation rose ! music4 ,x ebb$ & fl[$1 x beat aga9/ ! raft]s & reb\nd$ f ! floor1 always t regul> beat ( a hymn1 l tom-toms 9 ! jungles ( ,hayti4 ,_m ( ! *oir memb]s sang hy/]ically1 _! voices ris+ on ! high notes into v]itable %rieks1 b !re 0 no *ange 9 ! /eady ?und] ( ! organ or ! wail ( ! viol91 & !re 0 no escap+ ! emotional effect ( ! song3 8,br++ 9 ! %eaves1 ,br++ 9 ! %eaves1 ,we %all come rejoic+1 ,br++ 9 ! %eaves40 ,!n !re 0 te/imony4 ,old sk9fl9ts :o _h devot$ _! lives to *eat+ _! neighbors1 old wom5 ^: gossip+ & backbit+ 7 ! talk ( ! t[n1 hopp$ into ! aisles & told h[1 at "s previ\s meet+1 ,god _h ent]$ _! he>ts & made !m pure & holy4 ,_! voices rose to %rieks2 !y grew r$ 9 ! face f ! f]vor ( _! %\ts1 & "o old man :o _h only t day *eat$ half a doz5 m5 9 a real-e/ate deal /ood 9 ! aisle ) 8 h&s rais$ t[>d ,heav5 & wept bitt]ly ov] ! s9s ( ! _w4 ,te>s /ream$ d[n _! faces1 & _m :o _h only a few h\rs be=e dump$ s& 9 ! sug> groan$ l\dly 9 sympa!tic torm5t1 & %\t$ 8,am51 ,bro!r6 ,am560 ,by ?is "t ,bro!r ,mc,connell's coll> hung limp ab\t 8 neck1 b 8 passion = ! ,"l 0 un*eck$4 ,he /opp$ ! te/imony :5 x appe>$ t ev]ybody 9 ! *ur* want$ to say some?+2 !re 0 ano!r hymn & he began call+ = conv]ts4 ,he %\t$ t we 7 all wick$ s9n]s & mu/ come to ,jesus4 8,all :o want to g to ,heav5 /& up60 ,naturally1 ev]ybody /ood up4 ,he told !m to sit d[n2 !y obey$1 = he held !m 9 ! holl[ ( 8 h&4 8,all ,*ri/ians /& up60 ,ev]ybody /ood up except my si/]1 & z ,i ?9k ?+s ov] aft] ! lapse ( ye>s ,i "k t 0 :at fir/ caus$ me to suspect t %e 01 & is1 a rem>kably intellig5t woman4 ,%e said aft]w>d t %e res5t$ ,bro!r ,mc,connell's holi]-?an-?\ attitude1 & ?\ght he 0 an old w9dbag4 ,%e c\ld n swall[ 8 repeat$ ass]tion t he 0 a repres5tative ( ,god1 & t ! ,"l _h s5t him to ga!r ,f>m+ton into ! fold4 ,%e _h1 bett] ?an anyone else !re1 control ov] h] emotions2 %e c\ld n be /amp$$4 ,b = sev]al ye>s !reaft] %e 0 ! t>get ( a great deal ( mission>y zeal2 ev5 ! ,ca?olics tri$ _! h&s ) h] aft] x _h become obvi\s t %e w\ld n subscribe to ! beliefs ( ! ,me?odi/s1 b all ( x 0 unsuccessful4 ,!y c\ld n feaze h] ev5 :5 !y po9t$ h] out z 8t ,asbury girl :o w\ldn't say %e 0 a ,*ri/ian40 ,half ! m5 & wom5 9 ! *ur* 7 sobb+ :ile ! b& play$1 ! *oir sang its dismal tunes & ,bro!r ,mc,connell sway$ back & =? 9 ! pulpit & plead$ ) !m to get "r ) ,god & confess _! s9s4 8,oh1 ,bro!rs1 come to ,jesus60 he cri$4 8,let ,god ent] y\r he>t ?is night6 ,give y\r he>t to ,jesus60 ,at ! beg9n+ ( ! moan+ & groan+ ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s :o 7 to act z procur]s = ! ,"l scatt]$ ov] ! *ur*1 & z ! s]vices w5t on !y pick$ out ! ones :o seem$ to be mo/ upset emotionally & !re=e ripe/ = glory4 ,!y hung ov] ^! poor creatures1 snivel+ d[n _! necks1 exult+ 9 _! mis]y1 exhort+ !m to m>* d[n ! aisle & see ,god4 ,^! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 ( c\rse1 _h be5 conv]t$ _m ye>s be=e & 7 ,o4,k4 ) ! ,"l4 8,oh1 ,bro!r60 !y plead$4 8,come to glory6 ,give y\r he>t to ,jesus6 ,jesus di$ t y might be sav$6 ,he di$ on ! cross = y6 ,bro!r1 come to ,jesus60 ,& s on ad nauseam1 ) _! cont9ual repetition ( ,jesus & glory1 glory & ,jesus4 ,!re 0 no attempt at s5sible argum5t1 no ef=t to %[ ! prospective conv]ts t ! ,*ri/ian religion 0 bett] ?an ! ,mohamm$an religion or ! religion ( ,zoroa/]2 !re 0 no?+ b a cont9ual hamm]+ at emotional weaknesses4 ,& f9ally ! bewild]$ bra9s ( ! victims sagg$ "u ! /ra9 & !y /umbl$ into ! aisles & 7 haul$ & %ov$ & pu%$ d[n to ! m\rn]s' b5*1 & presumably into ! pres5ce ( ,god z embodi$ 9 ,8 e>?ly repres5tative1 ,bro!r ,l9coln ,mc,connell4 #c ,i 0 fair game = !m4 ,!re 0 h>dly anybody 9 ! *ur* :o did n "k h[ emotional & h[ excitable ,i 01 & h[ music affect$ me4 ,:y1 ,i us$ to be ?rill$ ov] ! way ,i myself play$ ! viol91 & h be5 kn[n to hang entranc$ ov] a tune ( my own composition6 ,ev5 be=e ! s]vices began ,i saw t _m ( ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s _h spott$ me & 7 only wait+ ! prop] mom5t to p\nce ^u me1 & :5 ! call = conv]ts came z _m ( !m z c\ld get ne> me plead$ & begg$ & cajol$2 !y scrambl$ & almo/ f\ght 9 _! eag]ness to ensn>e su* a prime morsel = ! ,"l4 ,!y c\ld h work$ no m furi\sly if ,god _h be5 keep+ ! score4 ,!y scree*$ at me t n[ 0 ! "t to see ,jesus1 t ,god 0 wait+ impati5tly = me to be conv]t$4 ,"s ( !m ev5 ?reat5$4 ,!y pa9t$ horrible pictures ( ,hell2 !y told me t unless ,i w5t d[n ! aisle & confess$ my s9s & ask$ ,god to =give me ,i w\ld sizzle & burn & scor* =ev]more4 ,"o old woman1 h] face work+ ) fanatical fury1 scream$ at me t ,i 0 hold+ up ! salvation ( my :ole family2 t my fa!r & my "m & my si/]s & bro!rs w\ld n g to ,heav5 unless ,i pr(ess$ religion2 %e %\t$ t ,satan 0 wait+ outside ! *ur* to lead me into ! dep?s ( ,hell & light a fire "u my immortal s\l4 ,! :ole crew pu%$ & tugg$ & haul$ at me2 "o ,bro!r got hold ( my arm & tri$ to drag me into ! aisle1 yell+ 8,come to ,jesus6 ,jesus is call+ = y60 ,& up on ! plat=m ,bro!r ,mc,connell 0 rampag+ to & fro1 work+ himself into a fr5zy1 %\t+ t 8,jesus wants y60 & above ! ro> ( ! ,*ri/ian work]s & ! moans ( ! victims rose ! wail+ :9e ( a viol9 play$ (f key1 ! ?und] ( ! organ & ! emotion-fill$ voices ( ! *oir4 8,rock ( ,ages1 cleft = me1 ,let me hide myself 9 !e60 ,by ?is "t ,i 0 cry+2 ,i did n want to g to ,hell1 & ,i 0 horribly afraid ( ! ,devil1 & ,i 0 n old en\gh to realize :at 0 be+ done to me4 ,yet some?+ kept tell+ me t ,i %\ld n d ?is ?+2 t x 0 all a mock]y & a fraud4 ,i "k n[1 & ,i knew soon aft] t night1 t ! music 0 :at 0 ! matt] ) me1 n religion4 ,i did n see ,jesus1 & ,i nev] h4 ,x 0 t sl[ music2 t doleful1 wail+ *ant ( ! hymns4 ,i c\ldn't )/& x4 ,i nev] c\ld4 ,9 ! army ,i us$ to g to all ( ! fun]als because ,i got su* a t]rific kick out ( ! fun]al m>* & ! slid+ tramp ( troops m>*+ at half-/ep4 ,b ,i 0 doom$4 ,x 0 9 ! c>ds t my self-respect 0 to be /ripp$ f me & t ,i 0 to be emotionally but*]$ to make a religi\s holiday4 ,!y dragg$ & haul$ at me until ,i 0 9 ! aisle1 & !n !y got beh9d me & urg$ me =w>d4 ,"o old woman leap$ ahead ( u & p]=m$ a w> dance t w\ld h done cr$it to a fr5zi$ wor%ip] ( ,voodoo4 ,& z %e pranc$ & cavort$ %e scream$3 8,a bad boy is com+ to ,jesus60 ,o!rs 7 go+ d[n too1 %eph]d$ by ! h>d-work+ ,bro!rs & ,si/]s1 & z !y rea*$ ! b5* ,bro!r ,mc,connell rea*$ =w>d & grabb$ _! h&s4 ,= ea* "o he %\t$ 8,praise ! ,"l6 ,ano!r s9n] come to ,jesus60 & !n he gave ! s9n] an exp]t %ove t catapult$ him into ! h&s ( a wait+ ,bro!r :o imm$iately knelt ) him & pray$4 ,! team "w 0 magnific5t4 ,i tri$ to hang back1 b ! b& began play+ aga94 ,! ?und]\s cad5ces ( 8,ne>]1 ,my ,god1 to ,!e10 peal$ f ! organ1 & ,i c\ldn't /& x4 ,i 0 be+ torn to pieces emotionally1 & ,i /agg]$ & /umbl$ d[n ! aisle1 sobb+1 h>dly able to /&4 ,!y ?\ght x 0 religion1 & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s :o 7 pu%+ & %ov+ me %\t$ ec/atically t ,god _h me2 x 0 obvi\s t ,i 0 suff]+1 & suff]+ has always be5 accept$ z a true sign ( hol9ess4 ,b x 0 n ,god & x 0 n religion4 ,x 0 ! music4 ,beh9d me came my bro!r1 s$ately1 z he always did ?+s4 ,he w5t calmly to jo9 ! godly2 = him !re 0 no pu%+ & no pull+2 :5 he saw me be+ dragg$ into ! aisle he simply got to 8 feet & foll[$4 ,i h always suspect$ t he w5t along m]ely to take c>e ( me2 frequ5tly he did t4 ,he 0 cont9ually fight+ my battles1 & if he did n l ! nicknames t ! o!r boys fa/5$ onto me1 he prote/$ s fi]cely t ! "n 0 transf]r$ to 8 %\ld]s4 ,!y tri$ to call me 8,cat0 = "s obscure reason :5 ,i 0 a boy1 & my bro!r did n l x2 & to ?is day he is 8,cat0 ,asbury 9 ,f>m+ton4 ,bro!r ,mc,connell grabb$ my h& & %ook x clammily :5 ,i rea*$ ! m\rn]s' b5*1 & ,i 0 %ov$ into a seat4 ,imm$iately a ,bro!r plopp$ d[n beside me1 an old man :om ,i _h kn[n all my life1 & :o ,i knew p]fectly well 0 an old sk9fl9t & a hypocrite1 a ,sunday ,*ri/ian4 ,he put 8 arm ar\nd my %\ld]s & began to pray1 cry+ d[n my neck & %\t+ t ano!r s\l _h be5 sav$1 call+ on ! ,"l to witness ! good "w t he 0 do+4 ,i half expect$ him to say3 8,give me cr$it1 ,god2 give me cr$it60 ,& all ! "t ,i 0 wi%+ to ,god t ! b& w\ld /op play+2 my n]ves 7 be+ %att]$ by ! con/ant & /eady beat ( ! hymns1 & ! p5etrat+ wail ( ! viol9 & ! ?und] ( ! organ4 ,& at la/ x did /op4 ,!re 0 sil5ce 9 ! *ur*1 except t "h & !re someone 0 wri?+ & moan+4 ,b ! %\t+ _h ceas$4 ,bro!r ,mc,connell _h 8 b5*es full1 all ( 8 work]s _h ea* a conv]t to "w ^u1 & he decid$ to call x a day & save :atev] s9n]s rema9$ 9 ! congregation = ano!r night4 ,s pr9t$ c>ds 7 pass$ ar\nd1 :i* we 7 to sign1 indicat+ ! *ur* we w\ld jo94 ,!n ! evangeli/ said = all ( u :o _h be5 baptiz$ to sit d[n4 ,my bro!r & ,i sat d[n4 ,) no music to upset me ,i began to ?9k1 & ! m ,i ?\ght1 ! angri] ,i got4 ,i 0 a%am$2 ,i boil$ ) fury & ,i want$ to sma% ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s 9 _! smug faces4 ,b ,i 0 j a boy & ,i 0 afraid4 ,x 0 at ?is po9t t my y\ng] bro!r came d[n ! aisle & tapp$ me on ! %\ld]4 8,hey60 he said4 8,m>y said to /& up2 y hav5't be5 baptiz$60 8,y tell h]10 ,i said1 8to g to hell60 ,luckily none ( ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s he>d me1 s ,i escap$ special pray]s4 ,i sign$ my c>d1 agree+ to become a memb] ( ! ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur*1 & soon aft]w>d ,i 0 releas$4 ,my si/] & my two bro!rs w5t home1 b ,i sneak$ away & w5t d[n to ! ,po/ ,(fice1 :]e ,i f\nd ano!r boy ^: influ5ce ) a b>t5d] 0 suffici5t to get u a dr9k4 ,i w5t ) him to a saloon n f> f ! old ,gr& ,lead] build+1 & !re ,i _h my fir/ dr9k1 a g9 rickey1 & :5 ! b>t5d] w\ld n sell me ano!r ,i gave a ,negro c>t-driv] a half-doll> & he b\ght me a bottle ( squirrel :isky :i* ,i consum$ 9 ! vacant lot beh9d ! ,odd ,fell[s' ,hall4 ,i got glori\sly drunk1 & ab\t ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ ,i /agg]$ home & up ! /airs to ! room :i* ,i %>$ ) my bro!r4 ,i awak5$ him1 try+ to undress1 & he ask$3 8,:at's ! matt] ) y80 8,hell's fire1 ,emmett60 ,i repli$4 8,i've got religion40 ,i w5t to ! prea*]'s h\se ! next day s ,bro!r ,j5k9s c\ld spr9kle holy wat] ^u my head & mumble a pray]1 & lat]1 hav+ ?us be5 baptiz$1 ,i jo9$ ! *ur*1 b ,i jo9$ ) my tongue 9 my *eek & a sne] 9 my he>t4 ,i h nev] se5 any?+ 9 any *ur* s9ce t w\ld impel me to remove ei!r my tongue or ! sne]4 ,& :5 ,i admitt$ publicly t ,i _h be5 conv]t$ & 0 n[ a good & fai?ful s]vant ( ! ,me?odi/ ,god1 ,i said to myself3 8,ov] ! left40 ,t 0 our way ( say+3 8,i am l hell60 ,,notes ,,on ,a ,,sa9t$ ,,relative #a ,i w5t d[nt[n ! next morn+ aft] ,i _h become a c]tifi$ "o hundr$ p] c5t4 conv]t1 & 0 met by sw>ms ( ,bro!rs & ,si/]s :o ov]:elm$ me ) congratulations1 & regal$ me ) tales ( _! own exp]i5ces :5 !y saw ,god1 & ( ! temptations t ! ,devil w\ld n[ prep>e = me4 ,x seem$ t ,i 0 n yet safe2 ,i _h1 s f> z !y knew1 accept$ ,god & 0 "o ( ,8 *os5 *ildr51 al?\gh n a ,jew1 b ,he w\ld /ill p]mit ,satan to h 8 way ) me ^u occasion4 ,i 0 in/ruct$ to walk humbly & ) d[nca/ eyes1 n d>+ to look up le/ ,i be l$ into s94 ,! ,bro!rs1 gloat+ ! :ile1 seem$ especially anxi\s t ! h&some "y virg9s ( ! t[n %\ld n induce me to tread ! sc>let pa?s ( wick$ness2 ! ,si/]s 7 m conc]n$ ) ! ,dr9k ,demon1 & ! evils ( play+ c>ds & danc+4 ,"o ,si/] /opp$ me 9 front ( ,morris ,bro!rs' /ore &1 beat+ "t ) h] h&1 lift$ h] voice 9 song3 8,yield n to temptation1 ,= yield+ is s940 ,& s on4 ,ne>ly all ( !m seem$ to be obsess$ by ! conviction t at la/ ,i _h done some?+ to ju/ify my ance/ry2 t ,bi%op ,asbury _h look$ d[n f ! ,heav5ly ,mansions ^u ,bro!r ,mc,connell's revival meet+ & _h approv$ ! mann] 9 :i* my conv]sion _h be5 br\ght ab\t4 8,! ,bi%op is pr\d ( y to-day1 ,h]bie10 said "o dev\t ,bro!r :o sold %oddy clo?+ at high prices4 8,la/ night 0 a great night = ,god & ! ,bi%op40 ,i did n ask him h[ he knew t ,bi%op ,asbury 0 pr\d ( me1 nor did ,i inquire into ! s\rce ( 8 in=mation t ! conv]sion1 by =ce1 ( a f\rte5-ye>-old boy 0 a great ?+ = ,god4 ,i m]ely said3 8,yes1 sir10 & w5t my way4 ,b x w5t on day aft] day2 ev]ybody 9 t[n1 x seem$1 _h a ^w to say ab\t ! pride t n[ swell$ ! he>t ( ! ,bi%op z he w5t ab\t among ! virg9s ( ,heav5 & loll$ on a cl\d /rumm+ 8 gold5 h>p & produc+ plat9um & diamond music4 ,i got v tir$ ( x1 & f9ally1 to "o old ,si/] :o _h app>5tly ?\ght ( no?+ else = a week1 ,i said3 8,oh1 to hell ) ! ,bi%op60 ,:at blasphemy6 ,%e gasp$ & hurri$ away1 & long be=e ,i rea*$ home %e _h telephon$ & told my "m t ,i _h blasphem$ & cri$ out aga9/ ,god4 ,naturally1 my "m 0 worri$2 %e ?\ght f ! tale told to h] t ,i _h gone up & d[n ! /reets ( ! t[n %\t+ defiance ( ,god & yell+ op5 praise ( ! ,devil & all 8 works4 ,b ,i told h] ! :ole /ory1 & %e li/5$ )\t comm5t1 & :5 ,i _h f9i%$ all %e said 0 ?is3 8,well1 don't say #8hell' to !m40 ,i ?9k t 0 ! la/ ,i ev] he>d f my "m ab\t religion1 & f my fa!r ,i he>d ev5 less4 ,once my "m ask$ me to read ! ,bible1 & al?\gh ( c\rse ,i _h already done s1 ,i read x aga94 ,i read x twice1 f ! fir/ absurdity ( ,g5esis to ! f9al fairy tale ( ,revelation4 ,b ,i f\nd no?+ 9 x t caus$ me to believe t x 0 an inspir$ "w1 & no?+ t prov$1 to me1 ! correctness ( ! pret5sions s freely made by ! ,si/]s & ,bro!rs & ! ,prea*]s t !y1 & !y alone1 7 ! repres5tatives & accr$it$ ag5ts ( ,jesus ,*ri/ on e>?4 ,& ! s]mons t ,i he>d !reaft]--! ,prea*]s select$ s+le v]ses f ! ,bible & con/ruct$ elaborate h>angues ar\nd !m--/ruck me m =cibly ?an ev] z ! tra%ie/ sort ( poppycock & bald]da%4 ,i 0 no long] afraid ( ! ,hell t !y pictur$ ) su* avidity1 & ,i no long] ?rill$ to _! tales ( ! magnific5ce ( ,heav51 al?\gh ( c\rse to a gr[+ boy ! pres5ce ( s _m virg9 angels1 all app>5tly will+ & available1 0 int]e/+4 ,b none ( !m prea*$ ! religion ( ,*ri/2 !y prea*$ hatr$ & rev5ge4 ,!y held out slight hope ( rew>d2 in/ead !y 7 prophets ( torture1 promis+ et]nal puni%m5t = petty crimes4 #b ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t1 also1 t ,i began to inve/igate ! glories ( ,bi%op ,asbury1 & to make su* inquiries z ,i c\ld into 8 sa9tly virtues4 ,we _h 9 our libr>y ! ,bi%op's ,j\rnals 9 ?ree volumes1 & we _h also two or ?ree volumes ( biography1 all ( :i* ,i read4 ,9 lat] ye>s ,i h read _m o!rs4 ,probably tw5ty or ?irty books1 9 "o =m or ano!r1 h be5 writt5 ab\t ,bi%op ,asbury1 & ,i ?9k t ,i h gone pretty ?or\ghly into mo/ ( !m4 ,b mo/ ( !m are s5seless if n d[nright idiotic2 !y 7 writt5 by prea*]s & publi%$ by ! ,me?odi/ ,*ur*1 & ! :ole slant is religi\s4 ,!y are bas$ on ! assumption t a ,prea*] & a ,bi%op mu/ ( necessity be a holy man1 & t all ! little idiosyncrasies & faults t give a clue to ! real "* ( ! man1 are b manife/ations ( ! fight betwe5 ,god & ,satan4 ,f an ecclesia/ical po9t ( view !re c be no "q ( ,bi%op ,asbury's greatness1 = !re h be5 few m5 :o h left a m def9ite impr9t on ,am]ican religi\s culture4 ,!re 7 few] ?an #ejj ,me?odi/s 9 ,am]ica :5 he came "h 9 #agga2 :5 he di$ !re 7 #bad1jjj1 ) good *ur*es & great influ5ce4 ,he _h complet$ ! *ur* organization accord+ to 8 own ideas1 ignor+ to a l>ge ext5t ! plans ( ,john ,wesley z set =? by ,?omas ,rank9 & ,?omas ,coke1 & he _h assum$ z mu* p[] z a ,pope ( ,rome4 ,z a religi\s organiz] he has _h few equals1 & x is a great pity t he did s mu* unnecess>y organiz+1 & t 8 amaz+ g5ius %\ld h fl[]$ 9 su* a futile & prepo/]\s creation z ! pres5t-day ,me?odi/ ,*ur*2 a great pity t he c\ld n h develop$ a m flexible cre$1 "o t w\ld h gr[n z ! _w grew1 in/ead ( /&+ /ock-/ill & view+ ! univ]se ) intol]ant suspicion1 ) con/ant bick]+s ab\t ! wi%es ( ,god & yelp+ appeals to ! ,almighty to damn somebody4 ,b /ati/ically ,bi%op ,asbury is ev5 great]4 ,he prea*$ 8 fir/ s]mon 9 ,am]ica at ,philadelphia on ! day he set foot on ?is cont95t1 9 ,octob]1 #agga1 & deliv]$ 8 f9al pron\ncem5t aga9/ s9 on 8 dea?b$1 :51 propp$ ^u 8 pill[s1 he exp\nd$ ! tw5ty-fir/ *apt] ( ,revelation4 ,9 ^! =ty-five ye>s he prea*$ "s #ag1jjj s]mons1 & probably #bj1jjj 9 8 :ole life1 = he began prea*+ :5 he 0 ab\t fifte5 or sixte51 "s ?ree ye>s aft] 8 conv]sion4 ,! numb] ( words t he utt]$ = ! ,"l is simply incalculable2 !re is no tell+ h[ f> !y w\ld rea* if !y c\ld be laid end to end4 ,9 _! me?ods ( prea*+ & 9 _! intol]ance ! prea*]s ( my boyhood1 ( o!r sects z well z ,me?odi/s1 7 dev\t & fai?ful foll[]s ( ,bi%op ,asbury4 ,! bell[+ evangeli/ ( ! ,billy ,sunday & ,l9coln ,mc,connell type is 8 l9eal ecclesia/ical desc5dant4 ,he prea*$ always at ! top ( 8 voice1 = he _h great fai? 9 exhortation1 & to him ! good s]mon 0 ! noisy s]mon2 ev5 to-day ! ,prea*] :o rants & raves is ! "o :o is reg>d$ by 8 flock z ne>e/ to ,god4 ,:5 ,bi%op ,asbury 0 n prea*+ he 0 pray+2 he rose e morn+ at f\r o'clock & pray$ & read ! ,bible until six1 :5 he breakfa/$ & set =? on 8 travels4 ,he w\ld n sleep m ?an six h\rs a night because ,wesley _h decid$ t six h\rs 0 en\gh4 ,"o day a week he fa/$1 & "p ( ano!r day1 puni%+ 8 fle% = ! great] glory ( ! ,"l4 ,?is love ( self-inflict$ puni%m5t affect$ 8 :ole life4 ,z a boy he 0 moody & s5sitive2 he appe>s to h be5 ( ! type t compla9s con/antly t he is be+ 8pick$ on40 ,he 0 introspective1 f9d+ 8 greate/ joy 9 self-pity1 & he 0 nev] happy1 z we us$ to say 9 ,miss\ri1 unless he 0 mis]able4 ,8 playmates 9 ! little ,engli% s*ool ne> ,birm+ham call$ him 8p>son0 because ( 8 pi\s lugubri\sness1 & :5 ! tea*] beat him or some?+ happ5$ to cross him he s\ght solace 9 pray]4 ,ref]5ces to 8 num]\s physical ailm5ts beg9 to appe> 9 ,bi%op ,asbury's ,j\rnals ab\t #aggb1 :5 he 0 9 8 late tw5ties4 ,he _h nev] be5 /rong physically1 & nev] aft] he came to ,am]ica 0 he 9 good heal?4 ,he 0 app>5tly a hypo*ondriac1 ) all ! hypo*ondriac's morbid delight 9 rec\nt+ 8 symptoms2 _m pages ( 8 ,j\rnals are fill$ ) !m4 ,he took enorm\s doses ( m$ic9e1 p]=m$ slight surgical op]ations ^u himself1 & rais$ great bli/]s on ! slighte/ provocation1 frequ5tly bli/]+ 8 :ole body f ?roat to abdom54 ,once he prea*$ a :ole aft]noon ) s _m bli/]s t he 0 n able ei!r to /& or sit1 = he _h bli/]$ n only ! soles ( 8 feet b less ref9$ portions ( 8 anatomy also2 he _h to be propp$ up 9 ! pulpit1 :]e he rav$ & rant$ = h\r aft] h\r1 sav+ _m s9n]s4 ,he took no c>e ( himself :atev]1 rid+ horseback ?r\gh sn[/orms & ra9/orms ) bit+ pa9s 9 8 *e/1 & ) 8 /oma* & ?roat fill$ ) ulc]s1 fev]i% f pa9 & religion4 ,all ( ^! ?+s he notes 9 8 ,j\rnals ) great gu/o1 & gives long li/s ( ! m$ic9es he took & ! measures he employ$ to combat 8 sickness4 ,t>t> emetic 0 8 favorite rem$y1 & ( ?is he swall[$ enorm\s quantities4 ,= an ulc]at$ ?roat he us$ a g>gle ( 8sage tea1 honey1 v9eg> & mu/>d1 & aft] t ano!r g>gle ( sage1 tea1 alum1 rose leaves & loaf sug> to /r5g!n ! p>ts40 ,ano!r favorite rem$y 0 a diet1 z he call$ x1 made f ?is rem>kable =mula3 8"o qu>t ( h>d cid]1 "o hundr$ nails1 a h&ful ( snake root1 a h&ful ( p5nell se$1 a h&ful ( wormwood40 ,he boil$ ?is concoction f a qu>t to a p9t1 & drank a w9eglass ( x ea* morn+ be=e breakfa/ = t5 days1 mean:ile us+ no butt]1 milk or meat4 ,he notes 9 8 ,j\rnal t 8x w make ! /oma* v sick40 ,x w4 ,i brew$ ! dr9k once1 & ,i _h z soon dr9k dynamite2 bootleg g9 is nect> by comp>ison4 ,!re c be little d\bt t ,bi%op ,asbury's physical condition _h a great deal to d ) 8 extraord9>y piety1 = x is true t mo/ ( ! religi\s lead]s h _h _m ?+s wrong ) _! bodies1 & t ! sick] a man is1 ! m religi\s he is likely to be4 ,a man :o is heal?y & normal m5tally & physically seldom becomes fanatically religi\s4 ,true1 heal?y m5 sometimes become monks & prea*]s1 b except 9 r>e in/ances su* m5 are comp>atively mod]ate 9 _! views4 ,& g5]ally !y d !mselves v well 9 a mat]ial way1 especially if !y become monks4 ,x 0 once my j\rnali/ic duty to make a daily visit to a ,franciscan mona/]y 9 ,qu9cy1 ,ill9ois1 & ! good bro!rs rema9 a high light 9 a some:at drab p]iod4 ,jovial & pot-belli$1 !y 7 v]itable ,fri> ,tucks 9 br[n ba?robes1 extraord9>ily he>ty eat]s & dr9k]s1 & n ev5 at pre-,vol/ead banquets h ,i ev] receiv$ z mu* free food & dr9k z f ! good ,franciscans4 ,x 0 easy to see :y su* m5 z ^! w5t 9 = religion1 b x is n s easy to und]/& ! motive ( ! ,prote/ant m9i/]4 ,! e>?ly rew>ds are no?+ to speak (1 & :at ) evolution & "o ?+ & ano!r1 he c no long] be c]ta9 t !re is a ,heav5 to g to4 ,! ,franciscans 7 fasc9at+ spectacles z !y padd$ on _! s&al$ feet ?r\gh ! g>d5s ( ! mona/]y & along ! gravel$ pa?s t l$ to ! *ur* next door4 ,i became p>ticul>ly fond ( ,bro!r ,john--,i ?9k !y call$ him ,bro!r ,john1 anyh[ ,i did--:o might h /epp$ f ! pages ( ,boccaccio4 ,he 0 ! press repres5tative ( ! mona/]y2 he always answ]$ my r+1 & ?r\gh ! b>s ( ! door ,i c\ld see him1 waddl+ g5ially d[n ! corridor1 puff+ & rattl+ 8 keys4 ,x always seem$ to me t ,bro!r ,john 0 misca/2 d\btless he liv$ a happy & c>efree life1 ?\gh p]haps ov]ly clutt]$ ) pray]1 b ,i ?\ght x a great pity t he c\ld n h be5 an ald]man4 ,& :at a b>t5d] he w\ld h made6 ,8 paun* w\ld h elect$ him a ,city ,fa!r1 & 8 fund ( /ories w\ld h got him a job 9 any fir/-class b>room4 ,b possibly he has re=m$ & is n[ lead+ "s su* useful life4 ,bro!r ,john made b "o ef=t to conv]t me & induce me to jo9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & :5 ,i said 8,bunk60 he /opp$ imm$iately & said t inasmu* z ,i w\ld und\bt$ly g to ,hell he w\ld /ill take advantage ( my reportorial capacity to get a little publicity = ! ,*ur* be=e t un=tunate ev5t occurr$4 ,b !re 0 no tol]ance 9 ! attitude ( my rev]5d relative1 ! ,bi%op4 ,8 out/&+ *>act]i/ic 0 intol]ance2 x %[s 9 a hundr$ diff]5t acts ( 8 c>e]2 he 0 arbitr>y & dom9e]+4 ,anyone :o 0 well dress$ or :o bore any outw>d signs ( prosp]ity 0 (f5sive 9 8 sight2 he prea*$ ! gospel ( pov]ty & self-d5ial1 & believ$ t all pleasure 0 wick$ & t self-inflict$ suff]+ 0 heav5ly bliss4 ,he 0 imp]i\s & scornful ( re/ra9t & opposition2 :at he said 0 true he ?\ght 0 true1 & t 0 all !re 0 to x4 ,:5 m5 diff]$ ) him !y 7 wrong1 & he _h no disposition to reop5 any "q :i* he _h once settl$ 9 8 m9d4 ,he believ$ t he 0 appo9t$ by ,god to rule ! ,me?odi/s 9 ,am]ica1 & t he 0 a legitimate successor ( ! ,apo/les4 ,9 #ahja he wrote3 8,i w tell ! _w :at ,i re/ my au?ority on2 fir/1 div9e au?ority2 second1 s5iority 9 ,am]ica2 ?ird1 ! election ( ! ,g5]al ,conf]5ce2 f\r?1 my ord9ation by ,?omas ,coke1 ,philip ,william ,ott]be91 ,ri*>d ,:atcoat & ,?omas ,vasey2 fif?1 because ! signs ( an ,apo/le h be5 se5 9 me40 ,div9e au?ority & ! signs ( an ,apo/le6 ,yet 8 /eadfa/ belief t he 0 s appo9t$ 0 "o ( ! secrets ( 8 p[] & influ5ce1 :i* 7 great] ?an t ( any o!r *ur*man ( 8 "t4 ,we are ev5 yet feel+ _! effects1 & we %all cont9ue to feel !m4 ,!re seems to be no hope1 :at ) ,bo>ds ( ,temp]ance1 ,prohibition & ,public ,morals & simil> intol]ant activities1 t ! ,me?odi/ ,*ur* w ev] become m wor?y ( respect ?an x 0 9 8 day4 ,inde$1 x gr[s worse & worse4 ,ano!r prime factor 9 ,bi%op ,asbury's extraord9>y piety1 z c be se5 by ! entries 9 8 ,j\rnals & by a /udy ( ! biographies writt5 by o!r cl]gym51 0 8 t]rific m5tal turmoil4 ,?r\gh\t 8 :ole life 8 m9d :irl$ l a p9:eel2 he 0 con/antly 9 :at1 back 9 ,miss\ri1 we us$ to call a 8t]rible /ate40 ,ab\t ! "t he began to be ill he />t$ ref]r+ to himself z 8,poor ,francis10 & !reaft] t 0 ! dom9ant note ( 8 life4 ,he piti$ himself because ( 8 physical ills1 & !n dos$ himself ) horrid m$ic9es1 & ) ble$+s & bli/]+s1 mak+ 8 ailm5ts m pa9ful & himself an object ( great] pity4 ,he tortur$ himself ?us physically1 & flogg$ 8 m9d ) con/ant ?\ghts ( 8 unwor?9ess2 he 0 cont9ually grovel+ be=e ,god1 besee*+ ! ,almighty to put temptation 9 8 pa?4 ,^! extracts tak5 at r&om f 8 ,j\rnals %[ ! tr5d ( 8 ?\ght3 8,i d n suffici5tly love ,god nor live by fai?4 8,i mu/ lam5t t ,i am n p]fectly crucifi$ ) ,god4 8,i feel "s conviction = sleep+ too long4 8,my he>t is griev$ & groane? = want ( m hol9ess4 8,ungu>d$ & trivial conv]sation has br\ght a degree ( spiritual deadness4 8,my consci5ce reproves me = ! appe>ance ( levity4 8,a cl\d re/$ on my m9d1 :i* 0 occasion$ by talk+ & je/+4 ,i also feel at times tempt$ to impati5ce & pride ( he>t4 8,my he>t is /ill depress$ = want ( m religion4 8,7 ,i to /& on my own m]it1 :]e %\ld ,i g b to hell8 8,"h ,i receiv$ a bitt] pill f "o ( my greate/ fri5ds ref]r+ to 8 la/ lett] f ,john ,wesley4 ,praise ! ,"l = my trials also6 ,may !y be sanctifi$40 ,bi%op ,asbury prea*$ ! same doctr9e ( p]sonal conv]sion & sanctification t is prea*$ by pres5t-day ,me?odi/ m9i/]s1 & he s\ght ?is blissful /ate = himself ) fr5zi$ zeal\sness4 ,at times he ?\ght he _h ent]$ into :at he call$ ! full fruition ( a life ) ,god2 at o!r times he fanci$ himself giv5 up to ,satan4 ,! old] he grew1 ! gloomi] & m introspective he became1 & l mo/ ( ! o!r great religioni/s he _h a pron\nc$ /reak ( melan*olia4 ,he _h alt]nat+ p]iods ( exaltation & depression2 he 0 ei!r so>+ ! heights ( religi\s ec/asy or fl\nd]+ 9 ! dep?s ( s9 & despair4 ,he did n seem able to f9d any middle gr\nd 9 :i* he c\ld obta9 a measure ( peace & cont5tm5t2 occasionally 9 8 ,j\rnals he not$ t he 0 happy 9 ,god & at peace1 b ! next entry %[$ him groan+ 9 great vexation ( _s1 cry+ out a d\bt ( ! value ( 8 religi\s life4 ,he ye>n$ = a con/ant religi\s ?rill1 & m\rn$ because he c\ld n satisfy 8 ye>n+4 ,,div]sions ,,( ,,an ,,ab&on$ ,,s9n] #a ,almo/ imm$iately aft] my conv]sion1 or at lea/ z soon z x _h become nois$ ab\t t ,i _h consign$ my holy relative to :at "s ( our m f9icky ,si/]s1 unable to br+ !mselves to say 8,hell10 ref]r$ to coyly z 8! bad place10 ,i ab&on$ myself to a life ( s9 & became a total spiritual loss 9 ! eyes ( all ,f>m+ton except memb]s ( my imm$iate family & c]ta9 ( my intimate fri5ds :o collaborat$ ) me 9 v>i\s wick$ b pleasant ent]prises4 ,t is to say1 ,i ca/ aside ! taboos & ! inhibitions t religion _h ?r[n ab\t me1 & became = ! fir/ "t 9 my life a normal boy4 ,i exi/$ simply to play & raise hell g5]ally1 & = "s curi\s reason ! activity :i* gave me ! mo/ pleasure 0 ?r[+ rocks at ! *ur* or 9 "s mann] int]rupt+ ! s]vice4 ,x 0 n long be=e ev5 ! mo/ hopeful _h ceas$ _! talk ( s5d+ me to a !ological s*ool & fitt+ me to c>ry on ! family labors1 = ,i began to smoke cig>ettes1 play c>ds1 swe>1 dr9k :5 ,i c\ld f9d a b>t5d] will+ to ignore ! law =bidd+ ! sale ( liquor to a m9or1 & to cock an appreciative & apprais+ eye at ! girls4 ,x 0 !n agre$ t x 0 too late to d any?+ ) me or = me1 & on ! ,sunday morn+ t ,i m\nt$ my new bicycle & rode braz5ly pa/ ! ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur* z ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s fil$ ) b[$ heads into ! edifice = wor%ip1 ,i 0 consign$ body & s\l to ! sizzl+ pits ( ,hell4 ,i suff]$ a great deal ( physical agony be=e ,i le>n$ to smoke cig>ettes1 & x 0 "s "t be=e ,i le>n$ to bl[ smoke ?r\gh my nose ) ! non*alant ease affect$ by ! gr\p ( old] boys & "y m5 :o loaf$ 9 ,doss's b>b] %op & ar\nd ! ,po/ ,(fice ,build+ & ,mc,kinney's peanut & popcorn ma*9e4 ,my old] bro!r _h le>n$ a ye> or s be=e1 & he frequ5tly made himself v (f5sive to me by boa/+ t he c\ld smoke a :ole package ( ,sweet ,caporals or ,drums )\t becom+ ill4 ,i ye>n$ to try1 b he w\ld n give me a cig>ette1 & nei!r w\ld any ( ! o!r boys1 & my f9ances 7 9 su* %ape t ,i c\ld n pur*ase any4 ,&1 ( c\rse1 su* wick$ ?+s c\ld n be pur*as$ & *>g$ to my fa!r2 ,i c\ld h *>g$ a plug ( *ew+ tobacco to him1 b n cig>ettes4 ,b "o day ,i 0 loaf+ hopefully 9 ,mc,kinney's :5 my bro!r came 9 & produc$ a dime t he _h amass$ by labori\s "w *opp+ wood at home1 & b\ght a package ( ,sweet ,caporal ,little ,cig>s4 ,^! 7 really no?+ b cig>ettes wrapp$ ) tobacco in/ead ( pap]1 b !y resembl$ a cig> & 7 ?\ght to be inf9itely m /yli% & manly ?an ! ord9>y cig>ette4 ,i ask$ him = "o1 & he said he w\ld n give "o to ,john ! ,bapti/ himself4 ,b ,i p]si/$1 & foll[$ him home1 agha/ at 8 det]m9ation to hide beh9d ! b>n & smoke ! :ole package "o aft] ! o!r4 8,i'll light "o f ! end ( ! o!r10 he boa/$4 ,f9ally z we came opposite ,bro!r ,nixon's h\se j s\? ( ,elmwood ,sem9>y1 he rel5t$ & v c>efully op5$ ! box & h&$ me a ,little ,cig>4 ,x 0 a great mom5t4 ,! y>d ( ,elmwood ,sem9>y fairly sw>m$ ) girl /ud5ts1 includ+ ! "y lady :o at ! "t repres5t$ ev]y?+ t 0 desirable 9 ! female sex1 & ,i vision$ _! cries ( />tl$ admiration z ,i pass$1 puff+ non*alantly1 bl[+ smoke f my nose & p]haps f my e>s4 ,i _h no d\bt ( my ability to h&le ! innoc5t-look+ ,little ,cig>2 inde$1 at t "t ,i consid]$ no problem insurm\ntable4 ,my bro!r in/ruct$ me to fill my m\? ) smoke & !n take a long1 deep brea?1 & aft] t bl[ ! smoke out g5tly & sl[ly1 hold+ ! ,little ,cig> betwe5 ! fir/ & second f+] & crook+ ! little f+] z we did :5 we drank tea or c(fee1 t be+ a m>k ( g5tility & ref9em5t4 ,z we came 9 front ( ! old ,cl>dy home/ead less ?an half a block f ! ,sem9>y ,i /ruck a mat* & appli$ x to ! end ( ! ,little ,cig>1 :ile my bro!r wat*$ anxi\sly & f "t to "t gave me advice4 ,i puff$ z he direct$4 8,got a m\?ful80 he ask$4 ,unable to speak1 my *eeks bulg+1 ,i nodd$4 8,n[ take a long brea?40 ,b1 alas1 ,i did n brea!2 ,i swall[$1 & :ile ! smoke p5etrat$ me & spread ?r\gh\t my int]ior1 x did n take ! correct r\te4 ,i began to /rangle1 & my bro!r got excit$4 8,bl[ x out1 y damn fool60 he cri$4 8,y'll *oke60 ,i did *oke4 ,i did ev5 worse2 ,i became v ill1 & ! spectacle :i* s intrigu$ ! "y ladies ( ! ,sem9>y t day 0 n t ( a "y g5tleman go+ non*alantly to ,hell by ! cig>ette r\te4 ,in/ead1 !y saw a v sick boy roll+ on ! sidewalk try+ desp]ately to /em a di/ress+ int]nal upheaval4 ,x 0 sev]al days lat] be=e ,i _h en\gh c\rage to try aga91 & ,i debat$ )9 myself :e!r or n ,god _h caus$ me to be s ill 9 ord] to %[ me t smok+ 0 a s94 ,b ,i _h def9itely committ$ myself to ! ,devil1 s a few days lat] ,i begg$ a dime f my fa!r & b\ght a package ( ,drums & ano!r ( ,sweet ,caporals1 ! two mo/ popul> br&s ( cig>ettes4 ,) ^!1 & a supply ( mat*es1 ,i w5t beh9d ! b>n4 ,i made a neat pile ( sawdu/ to lie ^u1 & !re ,i rema9$ ! :ole aft]noon1 smok+ "o cig>ette aft] ano!r4 ,i 0 t]ribly ill at fir/1 b gradually improv$ until ! la/ ?ree or f\r gave me no tr\ble4 ,i did n h mu* appetite = d9n] t night1 b ,i _h conqu]$ ! cig>ette & ,i felt a gl[ ( pride at ! fact t ,i _h got a v good />t 9 ! direction ( ! bad place4 ,! basis ( my ov]:elm+ desire to smoke cig>ettes 0 ! fact t cig>ette-smok+ :5 ,i 0 a boy 9 ,f>m+ton 0 "o ( ! major s9s4 ,x rank$ ) adult]y & j a little ahead ( murd] & !ft4 ,! ,prea*]s call$ !m c(f9 nails & deliv]$ viol5t s]mons aga9/ !m1 & e once 9 a :ile an evangeli/ w\ld come to t[n ) m$ical *>ts %[+ ! effect ( tobacco ^u ! int]ior human organs4 ,b ! fact t x 0 bad physically = gr[+ boys 0 seldom /ress$ at all2 we 7 impress$ in/ead ) ! fact t ,god ?\ght x a s9 to smoke cig>ettes1 al?\gh x did n appe> t x 0 a s9 = ! tobacconi/ to sell !m4 ,t 0 bus9ess4 ,_m ef=ts 7 made to re=m me aft] ,i _h begun to smoke4 ,my "m said %e _h hop$ ,i w\ldn't1 b t 0 all %e said1 & my fa!r said he did n give a hoot :e!r ,i smok$ or n1 b t he hop$ ,i w\ld n be a fool & ov]do x4 ,he himself _h le>n$ ! art ( *ew+ tobacco :5 he 0 a boy ( sev5 9 ,mississippi1 & s f> z ,i h ev] be5 able to le>n1 ,god _h nev] call$ him to acc\nt4 ,he di$ at ! age ( sev5ty-n9e1 sudd5ly1 & a slab ( plug-cut 0 9 8 pocket4 ,x is impossible = me to believe t ,god refus$ him entrance into :atev] ,heav5 !re may be on acc\nt ( 8 habit1 :i* he ?or\ghly enjoy$4 ,b ! ,prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s did n agree ) my p>5ts1 nor w\ld !y admit t x 0 none ( _! bus9ess4 ,on ! contr>y1 !y said t x 0 ! ,"l's bus9ess1 & s9ce !y 7 ! duly accr$it$ ag5ts ( ! ,"l1 appo9t$ by ,him to lead ,f>m+ton into ! pa?s ( righte\sness1 x 0 _! bus9ess also4 ,:5 ,bro!r ,fonta9e 0 our ,me?odi/ pa/or he did n look ) disfavor ^u *ew+1 because he himself 0 seldom )\t a *ew & presumably _h an indulg5ce f ,god1 b he look$ ^u ! cig>ette z an inv5tion ( ! ,devil4 ,9 ?is view he 0 upheld by ! ,ladies' ,aid ,society & ! ,f>m+ton bran* ( ! ,wom5's ,*ri/ian ,temp]ance ,union4 ,& ! ,w4 ,c4 ,t4 ,u41 ) ! possible exception ( ! ,me?odi/ ,bo>d ( ,temp]ance1 ,prohibition & ,public ,morals1 0 & is ! _w's be/ example ( an organization ma9ta9$ = ! sole purpose ( m9d+ o!r p's bus9ess4 ,! hullabaloo ov] my smok+ only made me m det]m9$ to smoke until my insides turn$ black & ,i 0 call$ home by ,satan & trans=m$ into a tobacco demon4 ,= t reason ,i probably smok$ too mu*4 ,z a matt] ( pr9ciple ,i always light$ a cig>ette j 9 front ( ! ,s\!rn ,me?odi/ *ur*1 & 9 front ( ! home ( my uncle1 :o 0 an enemy ( any?+ t provid$ physical pleasure & cont5tm5t4 ,i always smok$ ano!r z ,i pass$ ! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/ *ur*1 ! sc5e ( ! ,mc,connell revival orgy1 & /ill ano!r 9 front ( ! ,*ri/ian *ur*1 9 memory ( ,bro!r ,nations4 ,t 0 f\r 9 half a mile1 & ( c\rse 0 too _m1 b sometimes ,i 0 n p]mitt$ to f9i% all ( !m4 ,frequ5tly a ,bro!r or a ,si/]1 see+ me ?us flaunt+ my s9 on ! public highway1 snat*$ ! na/y ?+ f my m\? & gave me a lecture t dripp$ religion & 0 pr9cipally conc]n$ ) ! fate ( boys :o defi$ ,god & ,jesus ,*ri/ by smok+ cig>ettes4 ,"o ,si/] ask$ me3 8,:]e did y get ! vile ?+s80 ,i told h] t ,i _h b\ght !m at h] husb&'s /ore1 & %e %riek$3 8,y saucy1 blasphem\s boy60 ,b on t p>ticul> occasion ,i 0 n lectur$1 al?\gh %e telephon$ my "m t ,i _h be5 impud5t to h]4 ,my "m told h] x 0 too bad4 #b ,i le>n$ to play p9o*le :5 ,i 0 ab\t fifte51 only a few mon?s aft] ,i _h become an accompli%$ cig>ette fi5d & 0 g5]ally consid]$ a f9e prospect = ,satan1 & !reaft] 0 a regul> p>ticipant 9 ! game t w5t on e night 9 ! back room ( ,k>l ,s*liess]'s cig> factory4 ,?is 0 a notable d5 ( evil1 & :ile religion _h me 9 its clut*es ,i ?\ght black magic 0 practic$ !re1 & t its habitus _h communion ) ! ,devil2 among u x 0 believ$ t ,god _h d\btless nev] he>d ( ! place or ,he w\ld h de/roy$ x ) a )]+ bla/ ( lightn+4 ,x 0 frequ5t$ by ,g]mans & o!r l[ =ms ( life1 & !y 7 pr9cipally ,ca?olics & ,lu!rans1 ) a spr9kl+ ( r5egade ,prote/ants l myself4 ,! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s held ! op9ion t if ?is cr[d _h a ,god at all he mu/ h be5 a v que] be+1 = bur/s ( ribald laught] came f ,s*liess]'s back room1 & !re 0 c>d-play+1 & ,i d n d\bt t occasionally someone gambl$4 ,s*liess] 0 ! ,t[n ,sociali/1 & 0 look$ ^u ) grave suspicion by ! bett] elem5t1 z 9 ^? days x 0 g5]ally recogniz$ t a ,sociali/ 0 an emiss>y ( ! ,devil4 ,b ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s & ! ,prea*]s look$ ) ev5 m suspicion ^u ,victor ,quesnel4 ,9 ?is attitude !y _h ! support ( ! ,ca?olics4 ,victor ,quesnel 0 born 9 ,france1 b he _h liv$ 9 ,f>m+ton = _m ye>s4 ,he frequ5tly quot$ ,voltaire1 & appe>$ to believe t a man's religion & 8 belief or disbelief 9 ,god 0 a matt] ( 8 own p]sonal ta/e1 & he 0 !re=e reg>d$ z an a!i/4 ,z a matt] ( fact he 0 probably m truly religi\s ?an mo/ ( ! pi\s ,bro!rs & ,si/]s2 ! pr9cipal diff]5ce 0 t he did n try to compel ev]yone he met to embrace 8 cre$4 ,frequ5tly1 & )\t p>ticul> reg>d z to :o he>d him1 ,quesnel discuss$ ! advantages ( sleep+ nak$1 or1 z we say 9 pres5t-day j\rnalism1 undrap$4 ,t 0 8 hobby4 ,he said he ?\ght x 0 a heal?ful practice1 t he slept bett] )\t clo?+1 & t come :at might he 0 go+ to cont9ue to sleep t way4 ,?is 0 consid]$ hea!ni% doctr9e2 "s ( our f9e/ *ur* memb]s own$ /ores 9 :i* !y sold nightg[ns & pajamas1 & x 0 felt t ,quesnel's attitude 0 n only a direct affront to ,god b 0 also injuri\s to bus9ess4 ,moreov]1 ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s did n consid] su* a practice mode/2 !re 7 scores1 p]haps hundr$s ( p 9 ,f>m+ton :o _h nev] 9 _! lives remov$ all ( _! clo?+4 ,once at a meet+ ( ! ,ladies' ,aid ,society ,i he>d an old ,si/] say t %e _h rea*$ ! age ( sixty & _h nev] be5 entirely undress$2 & t :5 %e ba!d %e kept h] eyes clos$ z %e appli$ ! sponge to h] body4 ,a great deal ( juicy conv]sation c\ld be ov]he>d at ^! ,ladies' ,aid meet+s by a bright "y lad :o knew :]e ! be/ keyholes 7 locat$4 #c ,sunday 0 mu* m enjoyable aft] ,i _h become a s9n] & _h left ,sunday s*ool & ! ,*ur* to :atev] fate ! ,"l _h 9 /ore = !m4 ,i arose a little lat]1 _h a leisurely breakfa/ & a refre%+ qu>rel or fight ) my bro!rs & si/]1 & !n w5t leisurely to my room & z leisurely put on my ,sunday suit1 ) no int5tion ( remov+ x until ,i retir$ = ! night4 ,curi\sly en\gh1 z soon z ,i quit go+ regul>ly to *ur* & ,sunday s*ool ,i began to we> my ,sunday suit all day1 & ! little voice t ,i _h 9 ! selection ( ?is g>m5t ,i rais$ 9 hopeful pleas = l\d *ecks & gl>+ colors4 ,no long] did ,i wi% to clo! myself 9 ! sombre blacks suitable = *ur* we> & religi\s activity2 ,i desir$ to blossom & bloom 9 ! m viol5t & pleasant colors ( ,hell4 ,once array$ 9 my ,sunday suit1 ,i left ! h\se1 a cig>ette dangl+ f my l[] lip1 & my hat1 c>efully telescop$ 9 ! prevail+ mode1 sitt+ j s on ! side ( my head4 ,i tri$ to "t my m>* d[nt[n s t ,i w\ld rea* ,elmwood ,sem9>y j z ! "y lady /ud5ts resid5t !re m>*$ across ! /reet1 aft] ,sunday s*ool1 f ! ,presbyt]ian *ur*2 !y 7 n p]mitt$ to rema9 at ! *ur* dur+ ! fifte5 or tw5ty-m9ute int]val because !y attract$ su* hordes ( fev]i% boys int5t ^u ev]y?+ b religion4 ,usually ,i rea*$ ! sc5e 9 "t1 & lean$ non*alantly aga9/ ! ,sem9>y f5ce1 puff+ vigor\sly & o/5tati\sly on a cig>ette & w9k+ at v>i\s & sundry ( ! girls z !y pass$ 9 _! caps & g[ns4 ,= ^! sm>t-aleck activities ,i 0 pres5tly plac$ ^u ! s*ool's black li/ & 0 n p]mitt$ to call ^u ! "o night ea* mon? allott$ to su* social int]c\rse1 b z ,i soon le>n$ to climb a rope ladd] ?is did n annoy me greatly4 ,anyh[1 call+ night at ,elmwood ,sem9>y 0 n v excit+4 ,! proc$ure 0 to place a doz5 or s *airs ab\t a big room1 9 pairs b ) at lea/ twelve in*es betwe5 !m1 9 :i* sat ! girls & _! call]s4 ,9 ! c5t] sat a gimlet-ey$ tea*]1 con/antly ready ) ,biblical & o!r uplift+ quotations & see+ to x t no?+ sc&al\s occurr$4 ,f eight to t5 ! call] 0 p]mitt$ to engage 8 lady love 9 conv]sation1 b x 0 a rule t ev]y?+ t 0 said mu/ be audible to ! tea*] on gu>d4 ,:isp]+s & giggl+s 7 taboo1 & result$ 9 ! "y man be+ plac$ on ! black li/1 & =bidd5 !reaft] to d>k5 ! doors ( ! in/itution4 ,b occasionally ! tea*] relax$ h] vigilance = a mom5t1 provid+ an opportunity to arrange a cl&e/9e meet+4 ,t 0 ! pr9cipal reason t ! boys ( ,f>m+ton w5t to ,elmwood on call+ nights4 ,! regul> ,sunday incid5t ( ! ,sem9>y girls hav+ be5 br\ght to a satisfactory & successful conclusion1 ,i w5t on d[nt[n4 ,i 0 v "y !n1 & ,i consid]$ myself1 9 my ,sunday suit1 a v /rik+ & elegant figure4 ,i ?\ght ( myself z a p>ade1 & felt morally c]ta9 t ! eyes ( e girl 7 ^u me1 & t _! he>ts 7 flutt]+ ) amatory admiration4 ,! ,me?odi/ *ur* 0 only two blocks s\? ( ! ,presbyt]ian edifice1 & ,i g5]ally rea*$ x z ! ,sunday-s*ool pupils troop$ out ) _! arms full ( lesson pamphlets & _! s\ls full ( salvation1 ,gold5 ,texts & cate*isms4 ,i reg>d$ !m pity+ly1 puff$ va+lori\sly at my symbol ( s91 & w5t on pa/ ! ,*ri/ian *ur* & ! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/ *ur* & s to ,mc,kinney's1 ! ,po/ ,(fice ,build+ & ! fasc9at+ popcorn & peanut ma*9e4 ,9 ! w9t] "t ,doss's b>b] %op 0 g5]ally op5 until noon s ,billy ,prie/] c\ld %9e ! %oes ( ! "y bucks :o propos$ to defile ! ,sabba? by gallivant+ ar\nd ) "y hussies4 ,x 0 a favorite loaf+ place = all ab&on$ wret*es :o did n c>e = ! glory t 0 free 9 all *ur*es4 ,b 9 summ] we g5]ally sat 9 front ( ,mc,kinney's & ! ,po/ ,(fice ,build+ &1 :5 f9ances p]mitt$1 ate popcorn & peanuts1 envy+ ,riley ,h\gh z he hurri$ out n[ & !n to att5d to ! ma*9e & /uff 8 m\? ) popcorn be=e ha/5+ back into ! /ore4 ,all ( ! "y s9n]s ( ! t[n loaf$ !re dur+ ! *ur* s]vices1 & at twelve o'clock noon we rose 9 a body & walk$ d[n ! /reet to ,pelty's ,book ,/ore1 :]e ! ,sunday pap]s 7 di/ribut$4 ,! aft]noons 7 devot$ to baseball games & amatory pursuits1 & occasionally we w5t fi%+4 ,b ?is 0 consid]$ a ,c>d9al ,s91 & 0 fr[n$ ^u by ev5 our lib]al elem5t2 x 0 felt t x 0 a desecration ( ,god's ,day to drag "o ( ,8 creatures f ! riv] ) a cruel fi%hook4 ,on week days1 ( c\rse1 fi%+ 0 all "r1 al?\gh a wa/e ( "t1 b on ,sunday an exp$ition to ,blumey]'s ,=d1 or to ,grun]'s ,hole1 0 foll[$ ! next morn+ by buzz+ comm5t all ov] t[n1 & only a gr[n man c\ld hope to indulge 9 su* s9ful adv5tures & escape subsequ5t puni%m5t4 #d ,x 0 ! cu/om ( our pa/ors & pi\s bre?r51 & ( ! pr(essional sorc]]s :o 7 import$ f "t to "t to ca/ _! spells & %oo ! demons away f our h\setops1 to proclaim l\dly & incessantly t our collective morals 7 comp\nd$ ( a slice ( ,sodom & a cut ( ,gomorrah1 ) an extract ( ,babylon to flavor ! sorry /ew4 ,!y worri$ con/antly & fretfully ov] our amor\s activities2 9 _! m fev]i% disc\rses appe>$ significant ref]5ces to ! great difficulty ( rema9+ pure1 & 9 effect !y advis$ our "y wom5 to g arm$ to ! tee?1 prep>$ to d battle 9 def5se ( _! virg9ity4 ,9 ,f>m+ton & o!r small t[ns ( ! ,middle ,we/ ?is sort ( ?+ 0 ! pr9cipal /ock 9 trade ( ^? :o w\ld lead _! bre?r5 to ! wor%ip ( ! curr5t god2 ! evangeli/ assur$ 8 he>]s t _! t[n 0 ov]run by h>lots1 & t bro!ls ab\nd$ 9 :i* prom95t m5 ab&on$ !mselves to %ameful orgies1 :ile *ur* att5dance dw9dl$1 & collections became small] & small]1 & *ick5 appe>$ less & less frequ5tly ^u ! m9i/]ial table4 ,8 tirades 7 g5]ally 9 ?is fa%ion3 8,%all we p]mit ^! pa9t$ daught]s ( ,jezebel1 ^! b$iz5$ hussies1 to /alk ! /reets ( ?is fair city & flaunt _! s9 9 ! face ( ! ,"l8 ,%all we p]mit !m to lure our sons & bro!rs into _! vile haunts & ply _! nef>i\s trade 9 ! v %ad[ ( ! ,h\se ( ,god8 ,no6 ,i say ,,no6 ,jesus ,*ri/ mu/ live 9 ?is t[n60 ,imm$iately ev]yone %\t$ 8,am51 ,bro!r60 & 8,praise ! ,"l60 ,b x 0 sometimes difficult to det]m9e :e!r ! congregation prais$ ! ,"l = inspir+ ! evangeli/ s c\rage\sly to defy ! h>lots1 or = p]mitt+ him to discov] !m4 ,if ! ,man ( ,god c\ld f9d !m1 :y n ! damn$1 too8 ,c]ta9ly !re 7 always _m :o wond]$ if ! bro!r _h acquir$ any good addresses or telephone numb]s s9ce com+ to t[n4 ,n infrequ5tly1 inde$1 he 0 /eal?ily %ad[$ home by "y m5 eag] to settle ?is "q4 ,^! *>ges & d5unciations 7 repeat$1 ) trimm+s1 at ! meet+s = m5 only :i* 7 always a mo/ int]e/+ feature ( ! revivals4 ,at simil> ga!r+s = wom51 or ladies1 z we call$ !m 9 small-t[n j\rnalism1 8 wife or a dev\t ,si/] discuss$ ! "q f ! fem99e viewpo9t4 ,:at w5t on at ^! latt] conclaves ,i d n "k1 ?\gh ,i c guess1 = ,i h (t5 se5 "y girls com+ out ( !m giggl+ & blu%+4 ,! meet+s = m5 7 juicy1 inde$4 ,! evangeli/ discuss$ all angles ( ! subject1 & 9 a v free mann]4 ,8 own amor\s exploits be=e he 0 conv]t$ 7 recit$ 9 consid]able detail1 & he pa9t$ vivid ^w pictures ( ! bro!ls he _h visit$1 bo? z a pay+ cli5t & 9 ! c\rse ( 8 holy "w4 ,almo/ inv>iably !y 7 subt]ranean palaces hung ) silks & sat9s1 ) s(t rugs ^u ! floor1 & fill$ ) a va/ multitude ( h&some "y wom51 all z loose z a%es4 ,hav+ ?us intimat$1 ) "s smirk+1 t = _m ye>s he 0 almo/ ! sole support ( h>lotry1 he became confid5tial4 ,he lean$ =w>d & said3 8,!re are su* ,d5s ( ! ,devil "r "h 9 y\r t[n60 ,?is 0 fir/-h& in=mation1 & imm$iately !re 0 a /ir 9 ! audi5ce1 _m ( 8 he>]s betray+ an eag]ness to be gone4 ,b be=e !y c\ld get away ! evangeli/ ?und]$3 8,%all we p]mit !m to cont9ue _! wick$ practices80 ,i always hop$ to be pres5t "s day :5 ! audi5ce =got itself & answ]$ t "q ) ! ?\ght t 0 s pla9ly 9 its m9d1 namely1 8,yes60 ,b1 alas1 ,i nev] he>d x1 al?\gh !re 0 mu* %\t+ ( 8,am560 & 8,glory to ,god60 ,^! meet+s = m5 only 7 g5]ally held 9 ! aft]noon1 & _! net result 0 t ! bus9ess ( ! drug /ore increas$ imm$iately1 & :5 night fell b&s ( "y good-=-no?+s scurri$ hi!r & yon ab\t ! t[n1 se>*+ fev]i%ly = ! ,d5s ( ! ,devil4 ,!y se>*$ )\t fe>1 confid5t t mod]n sci5ce w\ld save !m f any unt[>d consequ5ces1 & kn[+ t no matt] :at !y did !y w\ld g to ,heav5 if !y p]mitt$ a prea*] to int]c$e = !m 9 ! end1 or a prie/ to spr9kle !m ) holy wat]4 ,b ! ,d5s ( ! ,devil 7 n f\nd1 nei!r 9 ,f>m+ton nor 9 any o!r small t[n 9 t region1 = ! v good reason t !y did n exi/4 ,! evangeli/ did n "k :at he 0 talk+ ab\t2 he 0 simply us+ /ock bla!r :i* he _h f\nd by exp]i5ce w\ld excite ! weak-m9d$ to bo? sexual & religi\s emotions4 ,he knew t :5 !y 7 ?us upset !y w\ld be less likely to "q 8 rav+s--t !y w\ld be m pliable 9 8 h&s & easi] to conv]t4 ,our small t[ns 7 n ov]run by h>lots simply because h>lotry c\ld n fl\ri% 9 a small t[n4 ,x 0 economically impossible2 !re 7 n en\gh ca% cu/om]s to make ! sc>let c>e] pr(itable4 ,also1 ! poor girls _h to meet too mu* competition f emotional ladies :o _h ! pr(essional _s b reta9$ _! amateur /&+ by v>i\s te*nicalities4 ,& h>lots1 l ! re/ ( u1 _h to live2 !y requir$ ! same sort ( raim5t & food t suffic$ _! virtu\s si/]s2 x 0 n until !y di$ t !y wore no?+ b ! smoke ( ,hell & 7 able to subsi/ on a diet ( brim/one & sulphur4 ,_m m5 :o 9 l>g] communities w\ld h patroniz$ ! pr(essionals c\ld n d s 9 a small t[n4 ,!y c\ld n af=d to2 x 0 too dang]\s4 ,! mom5t a woman 0 suspect$ ( be+ a h>lot %e 0 eag]ly wat*$ by ev]yone f ! mayor d[n to ! prea*]s1 & ! "n ( e man se5 talk+ to h]1 or ev5 look+ at h]1 w5t w++ swiftly f m\? to m\?1 & 0 f9ally po/$ on ! heav5ly bullet9 bo>d z t ( an immoral wret*4 ,a h\se 9 :i* h>lotry 0 practic$ 0 picket$ day & night by small boys eag] to le>n ! =bidd5 my/]ies1 & by ,bre?r5 & ,si/]s hopefully sniff+ = s94 ,x 0 n possible = a h>lot to keep h] cli5tle secret1 = ! sexual life ( a small t[n is an op5 book1 & news ( amor\s do+s c\ld n travel fa/] if ea* _h a tabloid newspap]4 ,exact /ati/ics1 ( c\rse1 are n available1 b x is probably true t no small ,am]ican t[n has ev] h>bor$ a h>lot ^: income f pr(essional s]vices 0 suffici5t to fe$ & clo! h]4 ,few if any su* t[ns h ev] be5 ! abode ( m ?an "o h>lot at a "t4 ,:5 ,i 0 a boy e "o _h its t[n h>lot1 j z x _h its t[n sot 7?is1 ( c\rse1 0 be=e drunk>ds became ext9ct7 & its t[n idiot4 ,b %e 0 g5]ally a poor creature :o 0 employ$ by day z a dome/ic s]vant & practic$ h] anci5t art only 9 h] h\rs ( leisure4 ,%e turn$ to x p>tly = economic reasons1 b *iefly because ( a great ye>n+ = human companion%ip1 :i* %e c\ld obta9 9 no o!r way4 ,%e rema9$ 9 x because %e 0 almo/ in/antly br&$ a ,daught] ( ,satan1 & %unn$ by good & bad alike4 ,%e seldom1 if ev]1 realiz$ t %e 0 do+ wrong2 h] moral /&>ds 7 ^? ( a b$bug4 ,%e ?\ght ( h>lotry 9 t]ms ( new ribbons & an occasional pair ( %oes1 & 9 t]ms ( social int]c\rse2 %e 0 unmoral r ?an immoral1 & ! proce$s ( h] pr(ession1 to h]1 7 j s mu* extra sp5d+ money4 ,small-t[n m5 :o occasionally visit$ ! l>g] cities1 & !re ?\ght no?+ ( sp5d+ f t5 to fifty doll>s 9 metropolitan bro!ls1 7 v /+y 9 deal+ ) ! t[n h>lot4 ,!y consid]$ a doll> an enorm\s price = h]1 & frequ5tly !y refus$ to give h] any?+4 ,_m small communities 7 n able to support ev5 a "p-"t h>lot2 consequ5tly "s memb]s ( ! craft w5t f t[n to t[n1 tak+ secul> jobs & practic+ h>lotry z a side l9e until driv5 out by ! godly1 or until ! inevitable bus9ess depression occurr$4 ,i recall "o :o made sev]al t[ns along ! ,o4 ,k4 ,railroad 9 ,nor!a/]n ,miss\ri z regul>ly z ! %oe drumm]s4 ,h] /udio 0 always an empty box c> on ! t[n sid+1 & %e _h a mania = inscrib+ 9 su* c>s ! exact dates & h\rs ( h] adv5tures1 & h] honor>ia4 ,x 0 n unusual to f9d 9 a c> "s su* inscription z ?is3 8,t5 ,p4,m41 ,july #h4 ,fifty c5ts40 ,^! writ+s1 scrawl$ 9 lead p5cil or ) a bit ( *alk1 7 sign$ 8,box ,c> ,molly40 ,once1 9 a c> f :i* ,i _h unload$ _m heavy bags ( cem5t1 ,i came across :at seem$ to be a pa!tic bit ( v e>ly1 & app>5tly au!ntic1 ,box-,c>-,molliana4 ,on ! wall 0 ?is3 8,i 0 ru9$ 9 ?is c> ,may #aj4 8,,box ,,c> ,,molly40 ,our t[n h>lot 9 ,f>m+ton 0 a scrawny creature call$ v>i\sly ,fanny ,fewclo!s & ,hatrack1 b usually ! latt] 9 def]5ce to h] figure4 ,:5 %e /ood ) h] arms out/ret*$ %e bore a rem>kable resemblance to ! tall hatracks !n 9 g5]al use 9 our homes1 & s9ce %e 0 always mo/ amiable & oblig+1 %e 0 frequ5tly ask$ to pose ?us = ! b5efit ( drumm]s & o!r infidels4 ,9 "t1 %e came to take a consid]able pride 9 ?is accompli%m5t2 %e ref]r$ to h]self z a model1 & talk$ vaguely ( ab&on+ h] wick$ life & go+ to ,/4 ,l\is1 :]e %e 0 sure %e c\ld make a liv+ pos+ = arti/s4 ,six days a week ,hatrack 0 a compet5t & m or less virtu\s drudge employ$ by "o ( our be/ families1 b ,sunday 0 h] day (f1 & %e !n1 9 turn1 (f]$ h] s\l to ! ,"l & w5t to ! ,devil4 ,= ! latt] purpose %e utiliz$ bo? ! ,masonic & ,ca?olic cemet]ies4 ,hatrack's regul> ,sunday-night p>ade1 h] desc5t f righte\sness into s91 0 "o ( ! mo/ fasc9at+ ev5ts ( ! week1 & promptly aft] supp] ^? ( u :o did n h engagem5ts to take "y ladies to *ur* 7:i* 0 practically equival5t to publi%+ ! banns7 w5t d[nt[n to ! loaf+ place 9 front ( ! ,po/ ,(fice & wait$ impati5tly4 ,on week days ,hatrack turn$ a deaf e> to ! bl&i%m5ts ( our r\s1 b on ,sunday night %e 0 m graci\s4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 0 n until %e _h gone to *ur* & _h be5 giv5 to und]/&1 tacitly b none ! less cle>ly1 t !re 0 no room = h] 9 ! ,k+dom ( ,heav54 ,our ,sunday-night s]vices usually began ab\t eight o'clock1 foll[+ ! meet+s ( ! v>i\s "y p's societies4 ,at sev5-?irty1 reg>dless ( ! wea!r1 ! angul> figure ( ,hatrack c\ld be disc]n$ com+ d[n ! hill f ! direction ( ! cemet]ies4 ,%e liv$ some:]e 9 t section & work$ out by ! day4 ,%e 0 always dress$ 9 h] be/1 & 9 h] eyes 0 ! light ( a great resolve4 ,%e 0 go+ to *ur*1 & !re 0 t 9 h] walk & mann] :i* said t !reaft] %e 0 go+ to lead a bett] life4 ,!re 0 always a gr\p ( m5 wait+ = h] ar\nd ! ,po/ ,(fice4 ,b al?\gh sev]al mutt]$ 8,"h %e comes60 x 0 n good =m to speak to h] !n1 & %e walk$ pa/ !m z if %e _h n se5 !m4 ,b !y1 ) _! wide k ( ! vag>ies ( ! ,ag5ts ( ,god1 gr9n$ hopefully & settl$ d[n to wait4 ,!y knew %e w\ld be back4 ,%e w5t on up ! /reet pa/ ! ,c\rt ,h\se & turn$ into ! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/ *ur*1 :]e %e took a seat 9 ! la/ r[4 ,all ab\t h] 7 empty seats2 if !y 7 n empty :5 %e got !re !y 7 soon empti$4 ,no "o spoke to h]4 ,no "o ask$ h] to come to ,jesus4 ,no "o held out a welcom+ h&4 ,no "o pray$ = h]4 ,no "o (f]$ h] a hymn book4 ,at ! protract$ meet+s & revivals1 :i* %e inv>iably att5d$1 none ( ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s tri$ to conv]t h]2 %e 0 a ,sc>let ,woman & belong$ to ! ,devil4 ,!re 0 no place = h] 9 a respectable congregation4 ,!y c\ld n af=d to be se5 talk+ to h]1 ev5 9 *ur*1 :]e ,god's love1 by _! !ory1 made bro!rs & si/]s ( u all4 ,x 0 pitiful to wat* h]2 %e li/5$ to ! ,^w ) su* rapt att5tion2 %e sang ! hymns ) su* fanatical f]vor1 & %e s ye>n$ = ! com=ts ( t b>b>ic religion & ! bless+s ( easy int]c\rse ) dec5t p4 ,b %e nev] got !m4 ,f ! ,*ri/ians & _! ,god %e got no?+ b scorn4 ,( all ! s9n]s 9 our t[n ,hatrack w\ld h be5 easie/ to conv]t2 %e 0 s pa!tically eag] = salvation4 ,if a ,prea*]1 or a ,bro!r1 or a ,si/]1 _h s mu* z spok5 a k9d ^w to h] %e w\ld h dropp$ to h] knees & giv5 up h] s\l to ! ,me?odi/ ,god4 ,& h] conv]sion1 9 all likelihood1 w\ld h be5 p]man5t1 = %e 0 n m5tally equipp$ = a /ruggle aga9/ ! gr&iose improbabilities ( reveal$ religion4 ,if someone _h told h]1 z ,i 0 told1 t ,god 0 an old man ) long :isk]s1 %e w\ld n h call$ ,him 8,daddy10 z "s ( h] m flippant city si/]s might h done2 %e w\ld h accept$ ,him & glori$ 9 ,him4 ,b %e 0 n pluck$ f ! burn+1 = ! work]s = ! ,"l w\ld h no?+ to d ) h]1 & by ! end ( ! s]vice h] eyes _h gr[n sull5 & h] lip _h curl$ upw>d 9 a sne]4 ,be=e ! f9al hymn 0 sung & ! b5$iction pron\nc$ ^u ! congregation1 %e got to h] feet & left ! *ur*4 ,none tri$ to /op h]2 %e 0 n want$ 9 ! ,h\se ( ,god4 ,i h se5 h] sit alone & mis]ably unhappy :ile ! ,prea*] bell[$ a s]mon ab\t =giv5ess1 ) ! :ole *ur* rock+ to a *orus ( sobb+1 moan+ am5s z he told ! /ories ( v>i\s ,biblical h>lots1 & h[ ,god _h =giv5 !m4 ,b = ,hatrack !re 0 no =giv5ess4 ,m>y ,magdal5e 0 a sa9t 9 ,heav51 b ,hatrack rema9$ a h>lot 9 ,f>m+ton4 ,e ,sunday night = ye>s %e w5t ?r\gh ! same proc$ure4 ,%e 0 hopeful always t someone w\ld speak to h] & make a place = h]1 t ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s :o talk$ s volubly ab\t ! grace & ! m]cy ( ,god w\ld (f] h] "s ( ! religion t !y dripp$ s freely ov] ev]yone else 9 t[n4 ,b !y did n1 & s %e w5t back d[n ! /reet to ! ,po/ ,(fice1 swi%+ h] skirts & braz5ly (f]+ h]self to all :o desir$ h]4 ,! m5 :o _h be5 wait+ = h]1 & :o _h kn[n t %e w\ld come1 le]$ at h] & hail$ h] ) obsc5e spee* & ge/ure4 ,& %e gave !m back le] = le]1 meet+ _! sallies ) giggles1 & motion+ ) h] head t[>d ! cemet]ies4 ,& s %e w5t up ! hill4 ,a little :ile lat] a man left ! gr\p1 rem>k+ t he mu/ g home4 ,he foll[$ h]4 ,& a mom5t aft] t ano!r left1 & !n ano!r1 until beh9d ,hatrack 0 a l9e ( m51 ab\t "o to a block1 :o w\ld n look at "o ano!r1 & :o look$ %eepi%ly at ! gr\nd :5 !y met anyone com+ ! o!r way4 ,z ea* man acco/$ h] 9 turn ,hatrack inquir$ :e!r he 0 a ,prote/ant or a ,ca?olic4 ,if he 0 a ,prote/ant %e took him into ! ,ca?olic cemet]y2 if he 0 a ,ca?olic !y w5t into ! ,masonic cemet]y4 #e ,i fell a will+ victim to ! wiles ( ! ,rum ,demon on ! night ( my conv]sion1 & !reaft]1 9 common ) o!r boys ( ! t[n :o 7 aflame ) revolt aga9/ ! religi\s taboos :i* _h s oppress$ u1 ,i drank :5ev] ,i c\ld obta9 ! liquor4 ,?is 0 n (t51 because ,i seldom _h any money & x 0 difficult to f9d a b>t5d] :o w\ld sell a dr9k to a m9or4 ,! eagle eye ( ! ,w4 ,c4 ,t4 ,u4 0 con/antly ^u him4 ,b occasionally ! d>kies w\ld buy = u 9 return = "o swig at ! bottle1 & z (t5 z possible we pur*as$ by ?is means a p9t or qu>t ( :isky or g94 ,i did n dr9k because ,i lik$ ! ta/e ( liquor1 = ,i didn't1 & ,i d n n[1 b ,i ?\ght x 0 sm>t & manly to get drunk4 ,& !re 0 ano!r1 & a deep] reason4 ,x seem$ to me t 9 ! eyes ( ! ,prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s a man c\ld commit no m he9\s s9 ?an to get tight2 x 0 ev5 worse ?an smok+4 ,su* be+ ! case1 ,i felt t x 0 incumb5t ^u me to a*ieve t condition1 & !reby %[ !m t ,i _h no use = !m & ! ?+s = :i* !y /ood4 ,& t 0 also ! reason we sang vulg> songs1 & ro>$ ) gu/o ! p>odies on hymns t we le>n$ f "t to "t4 ,x 0 our cu/om to get z drunk z possible & !n gr\p ourselves ab\t ! pump 9 ! c\r?\se y>d1 :]e we bell[$ ditties & p>odies until ! t[n m>%al or "s outrag$ ,bro!r or ,si/] /opp$ u4 ,!re 7 few su* songs t we did n s+2 x 0 at ! pump1 on a summ] night1 t ,i fir/ he>d ! 8,song ( ,jack ,hall40 ,x 0 taught to u by a %oe drumm] f ,/4 ,l\is1 :o sang x ) appropriate ge/ures1 & = a long "t x 0 our favorite song4 ,! v]sion t we sang 0 ?is--x %\ld be r5d]$ ) great gu/o & feel+1 & ! f9al l9e ( ea* v]se %\ld be dragg$ f deep d[n 9 ! *e/3 ,oh1 me nyme x is ,jack ,hall1 'tis ,jack ,hall1 ,oh1 me nyme x is ,jack ,hall1 'tis ,jack ,hall2 ,oh1 me nyme x is ,jack ,hall1 ,& ,i'll tell y\se "o & all1 ,! /ory ( me fall1 ,god damn y\r eyes4 ,oh1 ,i kill$ a man 'tis said1 s 'tis said1 ,oh1 ,i kill$ a man 'tis said1 s 'tis said2 ,oh1 ,i kill$ a man 'tis said1 ,& ,i kick$ 8 bloody head1 ,& ,i left him ly9' dead1 ,god damn 8 eyes4 ,s !y *uck$ me "h 9 quod1 "h 9 quod1 ,s !y *uck$ me "h 9 quod1 "h 9 quod2 ,s !y *uck$ me "h 9 quod1 ,) a ball & *a9 & rod1 ,!y did1 s help me ,god1 ,god damn _! eyes4 ,well1 ! p>son he did come1 he did come1 ,well1 ! p>son he did come1 he did come2 ,well1 ! p>son he did come1 ,& he look$ s ,god-damn$ glum1 ,z he talk$ ( ,k+dom ,come1 ,god damn 8 eyes4 ,& ! %]iff he came1 too1 he came1 too1 ,& ! %]iff he came1 too1 he came1 too2 ,& ! %]iff he came1 too1 ,) 8 little boys 9 blue1 ,he said3 8,jack1 we'll see y ?r\gh1 ,god damn y\r eyes40 ,s x's up ! rope ,i g1 up ,i g1 ,s x's up ! rope ,i g1 up ,i g2 ,s x's up ! rope ,i g1 ,& ^? devils d[n bel[1 ,!y'll say3 8,jack1 we told y s60 ,god damn _! eyes4 ,! p>odies on hymns t we sang 7 almo/ innum]able1 & 7 und\bt$ly sung all ov] ! c\ntry by o!r boys :o1 9 ! eyes ( _! eld]s1 7 only be+ sm>t-alecky1 b :o1 l u1 _h a deep] reason = ! eag]ness ) :i* !y p>ad$ _! disrespect = ! ,*ur* & = religion4 ,x 0 "o ( ! few ways we knew to flaunt our s91 & no?+ pleas$ u m ?an to break up a *ur* s]vice1 or at lea/ int]rupt x1 by bell[+ at ! top ( our voices "s disreputable & unholy p>ody t _h rea*$ u 9 "o way or ano!r4 ,"o ( our mo/ enjoyable ,sunday-night escapades 0 to ga!r 9 a gr\p outside a *ur* w9d[1 & s+ a p>ody imm$iately aft] ! *oir & ! congregation inside _h sung ! hymn itself4 ,we p]si/$ 9 ?is until f9ally ! pa/or ( ! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/ *ur* _h ,w9t ,jackson1 ! ,night ,m>%al1 *ase u away4 ,we w5t )\t comm5t or objection :5 ,jackson ord]$ u to disp]se1 because he _h j kill$ a desp]ado nam$ ,yates1 & we consid]$ him some?+ ( a h]o2 we ?\ght t he w5t ab\t ) 8 f+] con/antly 9 ! trigg] ( 8 revolv]1 & t ! f+] it*$4 ,on ?is p>ticul> night ! p>ody :i* made ! ,me?odi/ m9i/] s angry1 & swept f 8 m9d all ?\ght ( 8 ,*ri/ian duty to turn ! o!r *eek = u to swat1 0 on 8,oh1 t w be glory = me40 ,our v]sion w5t l ?is3 ,oh1 !re w be no *ick5 = me1 ,no *ick5 = me1 no *ick5 = me2 ,:5 all ! prea*]s h gulp$ _! %>e1 ,!re'll be no *ick51 no *ick5 = me4 ,to give ! prop] sw+ to ! tune1 8gulp$0 mu/ be pron\nc$ 8gullup$40 ,p]haps ! mo/ celebrat$ ( all ! p>odies1 at t "t1 0 on ! favorite old hymn1 8,at ! ,b>40 ,we sang x ?us3 ,at ! b>1 at ! b>1 ,:]e ,i smok$ my fir/ cig>1 ,& ! nickels & ! dimes roll$ away2 ,x 0 !re1 by *ance1 ,t ,i ripp$ my ,sunday pants1 ,& n[ ,i c we> !m e day4 ,ano!r p>odi$ 8,ne>]1 ,my ,god1 to ,!e10 ?us3 ,n]o1 my dog1 has fleas1 ,n]o has fleas2 ,al?\gh ,i wa% him clean1 ,n]o1 my dog1 has fleas4 ,& ?us1 to ! tune ( 8,hallelujah1 ,?9e ! ,glory03 ,hellilujah1 ,i'm a hobo1 ,hellilujah1 ,i'm a bum2 ,hellilujah1 give u a h&\t1 ,revive u aga94 ,!re 0 also 9 circulation at t "t a great numb] ( p>odies on hymns 9 :i* m5tion 0 made ( ,bee*am's ,pills1 ! m]its ( :i* 7 emblazon$ on e b>n & f5ce ?r\gh\t ! c\ntryside4 ,i h he>d t ^! p>odies 7 circulat$ by ! ,bee*am ,pill p !mselves 9 response to a plea ( ,engli% *ur*es = hymn books1 b ,i d n "k if ! /ory is true4 ,"o ( our favorites ( ?is collection 0 ! p>ody on 8,h>k1 ! h]ald angels s+40 ,x w5t3 ,h>k1 ! h]ald ,angels s+1 ,bee*am's ,pills are j ! ?+2 ,peace on e>? & m]cy mild1 ,two = man & "o = *ild4 #f ,to my long li/ ( unhall[$ b frequ5tly pleasant accompli%m5ts ,i add$1 9 my sixte5? summ]1 j\rnalism & danc+2 ,i w5t to "w on ! ,f>m+ton ,times & le>n$ to waltz & two-/ep1 & on occasion danc$ ! ,virg9ia ,reel & ! quadrille ) _s & ab&on if n ) elegant grace4 ,! practice ( j\rnalism 0 n !n1 9 all qu>t]s1 consid]$ a s9 ( ! fir/ magnitude2 nor is x s consid]$ to-day except :5 v>i\s ,prea*]s & o!r goody-bodies f9d _! names m5tion$ infrequ5tly & _! daily d5unciations ignor$4 ,x is !n ! fa%ion to d5\nce ! newspap]s1 & to deplore ! l[ plane to :i* ! f\r? e/ate has fall54 ,b 9 ,f>m+ton 9 my y\? ! feel+ aga9/ ! ,sunday newspap] 0 s great t x 0 felt g5]ally t all j\rnalism 0 at lea/ slightly ta9t$1 & s ,i li/ x z a s94 ,s f> z ! f9ancial rew>ds g1 x is ev5 n[ no?+ less ?an a crime4 ,!re 0 no "q ab\t ! s9fulness ( danc+1 especially ! r\nd dances1 z we us$ to call ! waltz & two-/ep4 ,9 "s p>ts ( ! c\ntry exception 0 made = ! squ>e dances1 b ev]y:]e 9 my section ( ,miss\ri ! waltz & two-/ep 7 consid]$ ,/eps t[>d ,hell4 ,i frequ5tly he>d ,prea*]s & ,bro!rs & ,si/]s pron\nce solemn judgm5t aga9/ "y girls :o indulg$ 9 su* he9\s practices1 & br& !m be=e ,god & man z ab&on$ sc>let wom5 glory+ 9 ! unsanctifi$ embraces ( wick$ m54 ,t 0 ! way ! ,prea*]s usually talk$1 too4 ,"o man 9 our t[n 0 ev5 criticiz$ = waltz+ ) 8 wife4 ,n only 0 ! wick$ waltz & ! devili% two-/ep1 no matt] h[ decor\sly p]=m$1 a ,sunday taboo 9 our t[n1 b 9 our mo/ religi\s families x 0 taboo at all times1 & sev]al p]sons 7 dismiss$ f *ur* = p>ticipat+ 9 su* orgies4 ,we _h "o ,prea*] :o in=m$ u t bo? ,sodom & ,gomorrah 7 de/roy$ by ,god because _! inhabitants danc$ & = no o!r reason1 & ! pr$iction 0 freely made t ,f>m+ton 0 de/9$ = ! same dreadful end1 & he intimat$ t we w\ld n ev5 reap ! resultant b5efits ( great fame & publicity4 ,8 tirades 7 /rik+ly simil> to ! ones t are be+ made e day n[ by ! ,me?odi/ ,bo>d ( ,temp]ance1 ,prohibition & ,public ,morals aga9/ ,new ,york ,city & o!r c5t]s ( s94 ,z ,i h said1 = _m ye>s ! ,presbyt]ians1 city slick]s at he>t1 _h a virtual monopoly ( danc+ 9 ,f>m+ton4 ,x 0 !y :o introduc$ ! waltz & ! two-/ep1 to ! great horror ( all ( our old wom51 bo? male & female1 & x is !y :o mu/ be held responsible :5 ,god s5ds ,8 av5g+ angels to bla/ & de/roy4 ,occasionally a ,bapti/ or a ,me?odi/ backslid suffici5tly to trip ! light fanta/ic toe1 z ,i delight$ to call x z a juv5ile report] on ! ,times1 b n (t52 g5]ally ! ,presbyt]ians alone ?us flaunt$ _! wick$ness4 ,b :5 ,god fail$ to p]=m z expect$1 o!rs became bold & ab&on$ all caution1 & :5 ,i left ,f>m+ton1 danc+ 0 g5]al & ! t[n 0 obvi\sly head$ /raight = ,hell4 ,b ev5 !n !re 0 v little danc+ done on ,sunday night4 ,we _h two newspap]s 9 ,f>m+ton1 ! ,times & ! ,news1 ! =m] own$ by ,mr4 ,!odore ,fi%] & ! latt] by ! ,d5man bro!rs1 extraord9>ily dev\t memb]s ( ! ,nor!rn ,me?odi/ *ur* & lead]s 9 mo/ ( ! t[n's religi\s activities4 ,mr4 ,fi%] 0 a ,presbyt]ian1 a lib]al at he>t1 b = bus9ess reasons he 0 unable to d or say any?+ to /em ! tide ( pry+ ,puritanism4 ,bo? pap]s 7 controll$ by ! *ur*es ( ! t[n1 & publi%$ ev]y?+ t ! ,prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s ask$ !m to2 z ,i grew old]1 ,mr4 ,fi%] became m confid5tial & frequ5tly express$ 8 disgu/ at _m ?+s t w5t on 9 ,f>m+ton1 b he 0 p[]less4 ,if he _h said a ^w 9 favor ( a m lib]al attitude 8 pap] w\ld h _h an ev5 m difficult "t gett+ along1 & ,heav5 kn[s x 0 h>d en\gh z x 02 ,mr4 ,fi%] frequ5tly _h to sp5d all ( ,saturday morn+ collect+ adv]tis+ acc\nts s he c\ld pay wages 9 ! aft]noon4 ,b ! ,news 0 always v prosp]\s4 ,:5 ,i w5t into ! newspap] bus9ess1 or game1 z x is call$ 9 ! motion pictures & ! s*ools ( ,j\rnalism1 ,i w5t 9 ) ! en?usia/ic ?or\ghness ) :i* ,i _h ab&on$ myself to a life ( s94 ,mr4 ,fi%] hir$ me at #b a week1 dur+ ! summ] vacation1 to be ! (fice devil1 & = t pr9cely wage ,i built ! fires ea* morn+1 swept ! (fice1 c>ri$ copy1 set type1 di/ribut$ pi1 kick$ ! job press1 crank$ ! gasol9e eng9e on ,?ursdays1 f$ ! big roll] press1 fold$ ! pap]s1 wrote names on !m & c>ri$ !m to ! ,po/ ,(fice 9 sacks4 ,& ,i _h _m o!r duties besides4 ,^! multitud9\s activities suffic$ me = a few weeks1 because 9 do+ !m1 & 9 s be+ engag$ 9 j\rnali/ic practice1 ,i _h ! same feel+ t s enc\rag$ me :5 ,i danc$ or drank or smok$ cig>ettes2 ,i 0 confid5t t ,i 0 do+ some?+ ( :i* ! righte\s did n :olly approve4 ,b lat] ,i became ambiti\s4 ,i want$ to be an editor4 ,only ,god kn[s :y1 b ,i did4 ,s ,i became an editor2 inde$1 ,i became _m editors4 ,us+ ! small job press & ,mr4 ,fi%]'s /ock ( v>i-color$ inks1 ,i pr9t$ c>ds in=m+ ! _w t ,i 0 sport+ editor1 society editor1 fire editor1 crime editor1 baseball editor1 football editor1 f9ancial editor1 religi\s editor1 & b>b]-%op editor1 ?is la/ because ,i purpos$ to int]view ! cu/om]s 9 ,doss's b>b] %op4 ,?us equipp$1 ,i felt able to h&le any j\rnali/ic problem t might confront me1 & ,i sp5t my sp>e "t int]view+ p & ga!r+ items :i*1 because ( ! extreme godl9ess ( our citiz5s1 usually consi/$ ( no?+ m excit+ ?an ann\ncem5ts t s-&-s 0 on ! sick li/1 or _h be5 on ! sick li/ & 0 n[ improv+4 ,:5 ,i ask$ a bank] if he knew any news ,i gravely pres5t$ him ) my f9ancial-editor c>d2 & :5 x became my pr\d duty to int]view my y\?ful idol & our mo/ fam\s citiz51 ,mr4 ,b>ney ,pelty1 ! major-league baseball pit*]1 he le>n$ by ocul> pro( t ,i 0 bo? sport+ editor & baseball editor1 & z su* fully compet5t to transmit to type & to po/]ity 8 dea?less utt]ances4 ,z ,i recall !m1 ^! 7 g5]ally t he w\ld be 9 t[n to visit 8 relatives or because "s memb] ( 8 family 0 on ! sick li/1 & w\ld !n return to ,/4 ,l\is to take up aga9 ! on]\s duties ( 8 pr(ession4 ,once he pr$ict$ t ! ,br[ns w\ld w9 ! p5nant1 & ,i wrote ?is exclusive in=mation ) all ! l>ge & h&some words at my comm&1 b he 0 mi/ak54 ,z "t w5t on ,i became almo/ ev]y?+ t x 0 possible to be on ! ,times2 ,i 0 pr9t]1 pressman1 report]1 me*anic1 editor ( ?is & t1 & :at n4 ,b ,i 0 nev] p]mitt$ to write editorials or *ronicle ! do+s ( our be/ p4 ,! ,times 0 passionately addict$ to ! ,democrats1 & ea* week our editorial page trumpet$ ! widely kn[n & indisputable fact t ! ,republicans 7 a lot ( skunks4 ,^! bla/s 7 writt51 & well writt51 by ,mr4 ,fi%] himself1 & my own %>e 9 ! good "w 0 m]ely to put !m into type1 & occasionally correct ,mr4 ,fi%]'s phraseology :5 ,i did n ?9k t he _h express$ himself cle>ly4 ,& s9ce ^! corrections 7 made at ! case aft] ! pro( _h be5 correct$1 !y ne>ly always got pr9t$1 sometimes ) dire results4 ,once ,mr4 ,fi%] wrote1 9 jovial ve91 ab\t ! gaudy h\se 9 :i* a c]ta9 political c&idate resid$1 & ,i correct$ x to read 8bawdy h\se10 hold+ t ! latt] 0 m def9itely descriptive4 ,ano!r memb] ( ,mr4 ,fi%]'s family1 :o _h previ\sly spok5 to me pleasantly :5 %e met me on ! /reet b :o reg>d$ me z no?+ b hir$ help aft] ,i _h accept$ employm5t1 wrote ab\t ! social activities ( our fir/ families on ,columbia ,/reet & ! second & ?ird families 9 ,doss's ,addition4 ,i 0 occasionally p]mitt$ to describe ! pitiful do+s ( ! ,ca?olics1 ! ,lu!rans & o!r curi\s humans d[n ne> ! ice plant1 & ! weekly dances giv5 by ! ab&on$ "y p at our *ief s\rce ( civic pride1 ! insane asylum4 ,b ! functions ( ,society 7 obvi\sly beyond ! descriptive p[]s ( a m]e pr9t]'s devil4 ,x 0 bad en\gh t su* a p]son _h to set ! type4 ,nev]!less ,i att5d$ ^! functions1 & ga9$ great com=t by ins]t+ my "n 9 ! li/ ( ^? pres5t1 & by add+ ! important & vital in=mation t da9ty & delici\s refre%m5ts _h be5 s]v$ & a good "t _h by all4 ,if x 0 a bir?day p>ty ! ho/ 0 wi%$ _m happy returns ( ! day4 ,x 0 my belief at t "t t x 0 aga9/ ! law to publi% an acc\nt ( a social ev5t )\t s /at+4 ,x 0 n always true2 frequ5tly ! refre%m5ts 7 n delici\s & no "o _h a good "t1 b 9 ^? days ,i did n h t high reg>d = ! tru? t ,i h s9ce acquir$ ?r\gh labors on ! great metropolitan j\rnals2 inde$1 a night seldom passes n[ t ,i d n ask myself3 8,h ,i writt5 ! tru? to-day80 ,! answ]1 has1 s f>1 elud$ me4 ,b ,mr4 ,fi%]1 & to an ev5 great] ext5t ! ,bro!rs ,d5man1 sole own]s ( ! ,news1 frankly tri$ to please ! adv]tis]s & ! subscrib]s2 !re 0 n !n t f9e _s ( indep5d5ce :i* is su* an ess5tial "p ( mod]n j\rnalism4 ,i advanc$ rapidly on ! ,times1 & ev5tually 0 receiv+ #g a week & _h appo9t$ myself to s _m editor%ips t my c>ds fill$ two pockets4 ,i 0 satisfi$1 & probably w\ld h rema9$ s = "s ye>s1 b ! end ( my allott$ "t 9 ,f>m+ton 0 draw+ ne>4 ,i w5t to ,nor!a/ ,miss\ri to visit relatives1 & ,mr4 ,fi%] dis*>g$ me = ov]-/ay+ my leave4 ,?is 0 a t]rific bl[2 x seem$ to me t my j\rnali/ic c>e] _h be5 cut (f 9 ! fl[] ( its y\?4 ,i w5t to "w 9 a lumb] y>d1 & kept ! job until ! fir/ c>load ( cem5t came 94 ,b aft] ,i _h pull$ & tugg$ at ! n9ety-eight-p\nd sacks = t5 h\rs ,i conclud$ t ! lumb] bus9ess held out no gl[+ promise = a "y man :o wi%$ to reta9 8 heal? & h leisure = a reasonable am\nt ( traffic ) ,satan4 ,s ,i resign$ & w5t to ,qu9cy1 ,ill41 :]e aft] consid]able negotiations ,i obta9$ a job z report] on ! ,qu9cy ,j\rnal & emb>k$ on a c>e] 9 daily j\rnalism4 ,s f> ?is has kept me 9 ! cities1 :]e ! opportunities = s9 are va/ly m num]\s ?an 9 ! small t[ns1 b :]e !re is less s9 9 proportion to ! numb] ( inhabitants4 ,?is is true despite ! horde ( wail+ prophets & pr(essional devil-*as]s & snoop]s ^: pr9cipal occupation is viol5t & false d5unciation ( e city l>ge en\gh to h an electric-light plant4 ,& 9 a city "o c1 by dilig5t se>*1 f9d a few p :o w admit t a man's religion1 or 8 lack ( religion1 is 8 own affair4 ,,conclusions ,,( ,a ,,man ,,gone ,,to ,,! ,,devil ,if !re is any?+ 9 religi\s inh]itance1 or 9 ! influ5ce ( a religi\s environm5t1 ,i %\ld be1 if n an actual ,pa/or ( a flock1 at lea/ "o ( ! mo/ dev\t ( ! fai?ful1 a snoop+ ,bro!r conc]n$ only ) good works4 ,b in/ead ( c>ry+ on ! "w ( my =efa!rs ,i f9d myself full ( contempt = ! ,*ur*1 & disgu/ = ! =ms ( religion4 ,to me su* ?+s are silly2 ,i _c und]/& h[ gr[n p c believe 9 !m1 or h[ !y c repress _! giggles z !y li/5 to ! m9i/]ial platitudes & p]=m su* mumm]ies z are ! rule 9 all *ur*es4 ,nev] s9ce ! night ( my 8conv]sion0 h ,i gone into a *ur* to wor%ip4 ,i h frequ5tly ent]$ su* d5s ( righte\sness1 b my visits1 except = a few t ,i made soon aft] ,bro!r ,mc,connell's revival meet+ to please my fa!r & "m1 h be5 on newspap] assignm5t or out ( curiosity4 ,i h inquir$ into ! doctr9e ( almo/ e sect t has adh]5ts 9 ,am]ica1 b 9 none ( !m h ,i be5 able to f9d any sign ( a true & b5efic5t ,god4 ,i c see only gr\ps ( sanctimoni\s1 self-seek+ ,little ,jack ,horn]s *as+ ab\t pok+ _! f+]s into someone else's pie1 & !n %\t+ gleefully3 8,look at me1 ,god6 ,look :at ,i f\nd6 ,ooooh6 ,a9't x nice & smutty80 ,!y _c practice _! religion )\t pranc+ & cavort+ be=e ! public eye2 !y are con/antly %[+ (f4 ,!y are n s mu* conc]n$ ) ! glory ( ,god z ) ! glory ( ! front page4 ,& :at "t !y are n :irl+ giddily 9 su* imbecilities1 !y are engag$ 9 disgu/+ squabbles among !mselves z to :o %all h ! local ag5cy = purvey+ religion2 !y want to copyright salvation 9 ! "n ( _! p>ticul> sect4 ,on all sides we he> t religion is ! greate/ ?+ 9 ! _w & t mank9d's *ief ne$ is m ( x4 ,b x is my conviction t mank9d w\ld be inf9itely bett] (f ) less ( x1 & probably be/ (f ) none ( x4 ,no?+ has ev] caus$ m tr\ble4 ,! :ole hi/ory ( religion is a record ( w>1 murd]1 torture1 rape1 massacre1 di/ru/1 hypocrisy1 angui%1 p]secution & cont9ual & unseemly bick]+2 x is a r>e *ur* t has n be5 ! sc5e ( disord]ly brawls4 ,x has divid$ t[ns & nations into bitt] factions2 x has turn$ bro!r aga9/ si/] & fa!r aga9/ son2 x has blight$ romances2 x is a prime cause ( insanity2 !re is h>dly any?+ h>mful to ! human race t x has n done z x pursu$ its m$dlesome1 intol]ant way d[n ! ages4 ,its foll[]s proclaim l\dly t _! p>ticul> belief is synonym\s ) love1 & bawl ?reats & epi!ts aga9/ anyone :o d5ies x2 b 9 tru? religion comes m ne>ly to be+ synonym\s ) hatr$ & rev5ge1 ) ea* sect pray+ to ,god to grant x special privileges & to damn ! o!rs4 ,i h nev] at any "t regrett$ my complete )drawal f all =ms ( religion & *ur*ly c]emony4 ,dur+ _m ye>s ( my *ildhood1 :ile m5tal & physical habits 7 =m+1 ^! ?+s kept me 9 con/ant t]ror2 ,i 0 horrifi$ by ! ?\ght ( ! awful ?+s t ,god 0 prep>+ to d to me2 ,i 0 fe>ful & mis]able le/ ,i give bir? to an idea t 0 n p]fectly righte\s & 9 keep+ ) ,8 comm&s z laid d[n by ,8 ag5ts4 ,! ,bible1 :i* ,i necess>ily int]pret$ 9 ! light ( :at ,i _h be5 taught1 caus$ me m nightm>es ?an any o!r book ,i h ev] read1 & ,i 0 va/ly m al>m$ by ! tales ( ! fires ( ,hell relat$ to me by ! ,prea*]s & ! ,bro!rs & ,si/]s ?an ,i 0 9 lat] life by ! ?und] ( ,g]man artill]y or ! crackle ( ma*9e-gun bullets4 ,s9ce ,i left ,f>m+ton ,i h be5 ne> dea? _m times1 bo? z a soldi] 9 ,france & f ! natural illnesses incid5t to civil life4 ,at lea/ ?ree times ,i h be5 told t ,i _h b a few h\rs to live4 ,yet ev5 !n ,i did n feel ! ne$ ( religion1 nor = a prea*] or a prie/ to pray ov] me to a ,god t nei!r ( u knew1 & p]=m c]emonies f\nd$ on pagan rites4 ,h[ c an intellig5t ,god pay any att5tion to a la/-m9ute dea?b$ rep5tance t x is s obvi\sly ! result ( fe> & no?+ else8 ,! religioni/ expects ,god to wa% all 8 s9s (f ! slate m]ely because1 :5 he is ab\t to die1 he says he is sorry4 ,if !re be a ,god1 _c ,he look into su* a %runk5 little s\l & see t !re is no?+ 9 x b a fe> ( dea? & a horror ( ! unkn[n8 ,i am n an a!i/1 because = all ,i "k to ! contr>y !re may be a ,god1 or any numb] ( ,gods1 b to me ! ,god wor%ip$ by my =efa!rs & by ! religioni/s ( to-day is a cruel1 prepo/]\s creation conceiv$ by a p :o felt ! ne$ ( *a/isem5t4 ,he is a cele/ial traffic cop1 h\nd$ by :imp]+ weakl+s :o besee* ,him to tell !m !y are on ! "r road1 & yet keep try+ to %[ ,him :i* way ! traffic %\ld g4 ,9 ! ,*ri/ian & ,jewi% conceptions ( ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r ,i c see no?+ t is fit = a civiliz$ man to wor%ip2 inde$1 ! ne>] a man approa*es civilization & intellig5ce1 ! less ne$ !re is = him to wor%ip any?+4 ,conv]sely x is ! /upid1 illit]ate man1 kn[+ nei!r h[ to read nor h[ to ?9k1 :o is mo/ (t5 ! religi\s fanatic4 ,he und]/&s no?+ & is afraid ( ev]y?+2 he goes ?r\gh life z a small boy goes pa/ a gravey>d at night1 :i/l+ to keep up 8 c\rage4 ,he requires religion & its tw91 sup]/ition1 to give him /r5g? to contemplate ! wond]s ( ! sunset & ! fall+ ra94 ,= my "p1 ,i simply refuse to worry ab\t ,god4 ,if !re is a ,god1 ,i hope t ,i may 9 "t f9d favor 9 ,8 sight & obta9 my %>e ( ! spiritual loot2 !re is no?+ t ,i c d ab\t x4 ,& if !re is no ,god1 !re is no?+ ,i c d ab\t t1 ei!r4 ,i pr(ess nei!r k nor !ory ab\t ! ,supreme ,be+ & ! heav5ly wond]s2 kn[+ no?+1 ,i believe no?+1 & believ+ no?+1 ,i am prep>$ to believe any?+1 ask+ only reasonably correct in=mation & au!ntic signs4 ,^! ,i fail to f9d 9 selfi% pray]s1 con/ant squabbl+ ov] ! wi%es ( ! ,"l & ! build+ ( magnific5t temples )9 sight & he>+ ( ! ram%ackle t5em5ts ( ! poor4 ,i d n believe t ,i %all ev] f9d !m1 = 8,:]e=e & :5ce we are ye _c "k1 ,nor :]e life spr+s1 nor :i!r life do? g40 ,)\t religion ,i ?or\ghly enjoy ! bus9ess ( liv+4 ,i am oppress$ by no dreadful taboos1 & ,i am )\t fe>2 ,i set myself no /&>ds save ^? ( ord9>y self-respect1 dec5t consid]ation ( ! rights & privileges ( o!rs1 & ! obs]vance ( ! laws ( ! l& except ,prohibition4 ,to my own satisfaction1 at lea/1 ,i h prov$ t religion & ! ,*ur* are n at all necess>y to a full & happy life4 ,& if ,i am ?us a s9n] & my *ance ( ultimate salvation =feit1 !n ! fault lies at ! door ( ^? fanatics ^: me?od ( tea*+ religion to a *ild 01 & is1 to hamm] x into 8 head by con/ant ?reats ( t]rible puni%m5t1 by draw+ tortur+ ^w pictures ( ,hell1 by describ+ ,god z a vici\s1 v9dictive old man1 by scold+ & torm5t+ & lay+ d[n taboos until ! poor *ild's bra9 :irls 9 an agony ( fright & mis]y4 ,i "k ( no bett] way to salute !m ?an to ref] !m to c]ta9 words ( _! own ,savior1 to be f\nd 9 ! ?irty-f\r? v]se ( ! tw5ty-?ird *apt] ( ! ,book ( ,/4 ,luke4 99 99 99 99 99 ,if ,i ev] h a son1 :i* n[ seems unlikely1 8 boyhood w be q diff]5t f my own4 ,= him ,sunday %all be a day ( re/ & pleasure2 !re %all be no taboos1 & no att5dance ^u *ur* & ,sunday s*ool unless _! p]=mances are m int]e/+ ?an o!r available ent]ta9m5t4 ,!y n[ rank j bel[ ! mov+ pictures1 & are !re=e la/4 ,i %all br+ my son 9 contact ) ! sacr$ books ( ! ,*ri/ians1 ! ,jews1 ! ,buddhi/s & ( all ! o!r religions z rapidly z he is able to compreh5d !m1 & he %all be p]mitt$ to *oose 8 own religion if he decides t a religion is necess>y to 8 happ9ess & peace ( m9d4 ,b if he %[s any signs ( becom+ a prea*]1 prie/ or rabbi1 or ev5 a ,bro!r1 ,i %all :ale hell out ( him4 ,i am t intol]ant4 ,,! ,,end ,a ,,note ,,on ,,! ,,type ,,9 ,,:i* ,,?is ,,book ,,is ,,set ,?is book is compos$ on ! ,l9otype 9 ,bodoni1 s-call$ aft] its design]1 ,giambatti/a ,bodoni 7#agdj-ahac7 a celebrat$ ,italian s*ol> & pr9t]4 ,bodoni plann$ 8 type especially = use on ! m smoo?ly f9i%$ pap]s t came into vogue late 9 ! eighte5? c5tury & drew 8 lett]s ) a me*anical regul>ity t is readily app>5t on comp>ison ) ! less =mal old /yle4 ,o!r *>act]i/ics t w be not$ are ! squ>e s]ifs )\t fillet & ! m>k$ contra/ betwe5 ! light & heavy /rokes4 ,illu/ration ,,set ,,up1 ,,electrotyp$ ,,& ,,pr9t$ ,,by ,,! ,,vail-,,ball\ ,,press1 ,,inc41 ,,b+hamton1 ,n4 ,y4 ,,esp>to ,,pap] ,,manufactur$ ,,9 ,,scotl&1 ,,& ,,furni%$ ,,by ,w4 ,f4 ,,e!r+ton ,,co41 ,,new ,,york ,,b\nd ,,by ,h4 ,,wolff ,,e/ate1 ,,new ,,york4 ,,transcrib]',s ,,notes3 ,italiciz$ text is surr\nd$ by und]scores3 italics4 ,obvi\s typographical errors h be5 correct$4 ,inconsi/5cies 9 hyph5ation h be5 /&>diz$4 ,ar*aic or v>iant spell+ has be5 reta9$4 ,on page #ci1 bas$ ^u context1 8,we c\ld h no indoor games0 9 ! orig9al %\ld be 8,we c\ld h no outdoor games02 ?is e,book reflects ?is *ange4