,a ,,dead ,,man',s ,,di>y4            ,a
 ,,dead ,,man',s ,,di>y          ,writt5
 aft] 8 ,decease4      ,,) ,a ,,preface 
,,by      ,g4,t4 ,,bettany1 ,m4,a4      
,i s5t my ,s\l ?r\gh ! ,invisible1      
,"s lett] ( t ,aft] ,life to spell3     
,& by-&-by my ,s\l return'd to me1    ,&
 answ]$1 ',i myself am ,heav'n & ,hell4'
      ,rubiyt ( ,om> ,khayym4           
7,fitzg]ald's ,translation47      ,,w>d1
 ,,lock ,,& ,,co41      ,,london1 ,,new 
,,york ,,& ,,melb\rne4      #ahij4      
7,all rights res]v$47                   
,,preface4      ,! lit]ature purport+ to
 describe ! /ate ( mank9d aft] dea?1    
:e!r z ,hades1 ,int]m$iate ,/ate1       
,purgatory1 ,hell1 or ,heav51 has  mo/ly
 err$ 9 ! direction ( too great detail4 
,on ! "o h&1  we h _h ^? :o ) ,sw$5borg 
decl>e t aft] dea? a man  is s little   
*ang$ t he ev5 does n "k b he is liv+ 9 
! pres5t _w2 t ! resemblances betwe5 !  
two worlds are s  great1 t 9 ! spiritual
 _w !re are cities1 ) palaces &  h\ses1 
& also writ+s & books1 employm5ts &     

m]*&ises4  ,on ! o!r h&1 we h ! picture 
drawn by ! writ] ( ,lett]s  f ,hell1 (  
imag9>y h\ses & sc5es1 ( seem+ actions1 
(  semblances ( m5 compell$ to appe> to 
be do+ aft] dea? !  v ?+s !y did 9 life1
 despair all ! :ile gnaw+ at _!  he>ts4 
,ar*deacon ,f>r>1 9 ,*apt] ,,iv4 ( 8    
,m]cy & ,judgm5t1  has giv5 a v>i$ &    
horrify+ s]ies ( extracts f anci5t  &   
mod]n div9es describ+ _! detail$        
conceptions ab\t !  future ( ! wick$4 ,z
 to ! future ( ! beatifi$1 no "o  ne$s  
rem9d+ ( ! multitude ( ^w-pictures1 (t5 
mutually  contradictory1 9 :i* _!       
exi/5ce has be5 depict$4    ,?us we see 
t ! human m9d _c *oose b speculate 9 "s 
fa%ion on ! future /ate1 :ile no man has
 ! "r to claim  t he _h said ! la/ ^w on
 ! subject4 ,x may !re=e be  confid5tly 
anticipat$ t ! rem>kable n>rative "h    
pres5t$1  ( :i* consid]able portions h  
already appe>$1 s]ially1 9 !  ,engli%   
edition ( ,lipp9cott's ,mon?ly ,magaz9e1
 w f9d a v  l>ge numb] ( int]e/$ read]s1
 :o w be glad to p]use x 9  ! connect$ &

 complet$ =m1 9 :i* x is be/ calculat$  
to  express ! au?or's full mean+ &      
exp]i5ces4 ,x w n by its  l5g? or excess
 ( detail ov]burd5 ! read]1 nor does x  
claim  to be m ?an a n>rative ( exp]i5ce
 :i* may be left to convey  its own     
lessons4 ,! writ]1 :o pref]s to rema9   
anonym\s1 is "o  ^: essays & /ories h   
be5 receiv$ ) high appreciation on  bo? 
sides ( ! ,atlantic4 ,8 n>rative is put 
=? z 8 actual  exp]i5ce dur+ a l5g!n$   
abs5ce f ! body1 dur+ :i*  he 0 believ$ 
to be dead4 ,( c\rse no o!r liv+ p]son c
  confirm or d5y 8 exp]i5ces1 ?\gh _m   
may deem !m incr$ible1  fictiti\s1 or ! 
imag9+s or visions ( a trancelike /ate4 
,i d  n pret5d to decide to :at category
 !y belong1 nor d ,i feel  call$ ^u to  
condemn or approve any ( ! ass]tions or 
op9ions  ?us put =w>d4 ,if any "o holds 
!ological convictions :i* appe>  to     
conflict ) !m1 ,i w\ld rem>k t !        
publi%]s1 9 lett+  ! ,dead ,man speak = 
himself1 d n hold !mselves responsible  
= 8 op9ions1 m]ely hav+ assur$ !mselves 

( ! s]i\s  _s 9 :i* !y are n>rat$4    ,!
 record ( ^! exp]i5ces be+ giv5 9 ! =m (
 a di>y1 !  writ] has n felt b\nd to    
tell 8 /ory ) ! simple directness  :i*  
is expect$ 9 a "w ( fiction1 b has not$ 
d[n 9 8  n>rative1 z is ! mann] (       
di>i/s1 ! ?\ghts :i* ! record  ( 8      
exp]i5ces h ar\s$4 ,?\gh ^! occasional  
digressions  h no imm$iate be>+ ^u !    
facts record$1 !y w1 ,i ?9k1  be f\nd to
 conta9 "s int]e/+ read+1 nor d !y1 9 my
  op9ion1 int]f]e s]i\sly ) !           
complet5ess ( ! n>rative z  an arti/ic  
:ole4    ,9 conclusion1 ,i w\ld add t ! 
writ] only desires t 8  exp]i5ces may be
 read 9 a c&id _s1 & t z no man c  prove
 him to be wrong :o has n actually ent]$
 ! _w (  spirits1 ^? :o reject 8        
n>rative w endeav\r to ma9ta9  an       
attitude ( susp5d$ judgm5t1 until !y are
 9 a position to  judge = !mselves4 ,=  
myself1 ,i c b say t ! moral ( !        
au?or's tea*+ is wor?y ( ! mo/ s]i\s    
att5tion1 & if put  into practice !re c 
be no "q t x w\ld conduce greatly to  ! 

happ9ess ( mank9d4      ,g4,t4 ,bettany4
          ,,cont5ts4                    
,,page      ,,preface                   
#e        ,,*apt] ,i4      ,,expla9s    
,,my ,,title                            
#ac        ,,*apt] ,,ii4      ,,deals   
,,) ,,dea? ,,& ,,! ,,dread ,,( ,,x      
#ai        ,,*apt] ,,iii4      ,,deals  
,,) ,,life ,,& ,,! ,,lu/ ,,( ,,x1 ,,b   
,,has    ,,no ,,direct ,,be>+ ,,on ,,my 
,,/ory                         #bf      
,,*apt] ,,iv4      ,i ,,die             
#df        ,,*apt] ,v4      ,,is ,,(    
,,an ,,explanatory ,,nature ,,only      
#eh        ,,*apt] ,,vi4      ,,tells   
,,( ,,my ,,fir/ ,,awful ,,awak5+ ,,9    
,,hell1    ,,& ,,( ,,! ,,%ameful ,,s9   
,,:i* ,,br\ght    ,,me ,,?i!r           
#fg        ,,*apt] ,,vii4      ,,%[s ,,!
 ,,fitness ,,( ,,my ,,puni%m5t          
#hg        ,,*apt] ,,viii4      ,i      
,,make ,,an ,,unexpect$ ,,discov]y ,,9  
,,hell1 ,,&    ,,meet ,,) ,,an ,,old    
,,acqua9tance                           
#id        ,,*apt] ,,ix4      ,i ,,see  

,,"s ,,/range ,,sights ,,9 ,,hell1 ,,&  
,,am    ,,fav\r$ ,,) ,,some?+ ,,9 ,,!   
,,nature    ,,( ,a ,,s]mon              
#aac        ,,*apt] ,x4      ,a         
,,love-,,/ory ,,9 ,,hell                
#abh        ,,*apt] ,,xi4      ,,!      
,,my/]y ,,( ,,! ,,dead ,,:o ,,die       
#adh        ,,*apt] ,,xii4      ,i ,,see
 ,,! ,,bro!r ,,:om ,,we ,,h ,,all ,,lo/ 
#afg        ,,*apt] ,,xiii4      ,a     
,,dream ,,( ,,et]nal ,,re/              
#ahj        ,,*apt] ,,xiv4      ,,hope  
#bjf        ,,*apt] ,,xv4      ,,heav5  
#bac          ,illu/ration              
,,*apt] ,i4    ,,expla9s ,,my ,,title4  
,x has always be5 a fav\rite fancy ( m9e
 t ,i %\ld l to  die ^u "s sunny1       
songful morn+1 9 spr+ or e>ly summ]4 ,! 
?\ght ( dy+ 9 ! night1 & ( f9d+ ?is ?9 &
 arial  some?+1 :i* ,i h le>n$ to call  
my s\l1 be+ driv5  remorselessly        
nightw>d1 z ,adam & ,eve 7 driv5 f      
,p>adise2  ! see+ x 9 imag9ation1 a     
spectral1 unsub/antial %ad[ (  myself1  
flitt+ a-%iv]+ out into ! black-womb$   

d>kness1 &  fumbl+ ) filmy h&s t x might
 clasp ! clos] ar\nd x  ! w>m famili>   
robe ( fle%1 only to f9d t robe fall5   
away  = ev]--?is ?\ght1 ,i mu/ confess1 
fills me at all times ) an  abhorr5t    
loa?+ & dread4    ,to look up by night  
at ! cold glitt] ( ! />s1 & to fancy my 
disembodi$ _s w++ its we>y way !reto1   
?r\gh fa?omless  leagues ( void &       
voiceless e!r1 causes me ev] to %iv]1 & 
to  turn %udd]+ly to e>? aga92 b ! ?\ght
 ( pass+ peacefully  away ^u "s sunny1  
summ] morn+ seems less l dy+ ?an l      
/epp+ out ( doors to be among ! birds & 
! butt]flies4 ,!n  ! heav5 ( my hopes   
w\ld n seem s v di/ant aft] all 7&  oh6 
h[ mu* m heav5ly & homelike w\ld t heav5
 appe> did  ,i b "k x to be ?is side ( !
 />s671 & my fir/ entry  into ! dim &   
%ad[y realm ( ! _s-_w w\ld seem !  less 
/range & unfamili> = my hav+ to pass out
 on my way to x  ?r\gh ! fields1 !      
fl[]s1 & ! sun%9e t ,i love s well4     
,to me1 h[ev]1 9 ! utt] solitude (      
midnight wak+1 & 9 !  sc>cely less utt] 

solitude ( day-dream+ 9 ! mid/ ( m51 !  
?\ght :i* ev] mo/ oppresses me 9 !      
contemplation ( dea?1 is  n s mu* !     
,unkn[n :i* lies beyond1 z ! ?\ght ( its
 awful  lonel9ess1--! ?\ght t human     
faces may %9e on my face1 human  h&s lie
 clasp$ 9 m9e1 & human voices be> me    
company up to !  v b\nd>y l9e ( t /ill &
 sil5t l&1 b t :5 t  b\nd>y l9e is once 
rea*$1 all ^! mu/ fail & =sake me1 &  ,i
 mu/ turn to face ! unkn[n d>kness nak$1
 desolate1 & alone4    ,b :y d ,i all[  
my ?\ghts1 y say1 to brood ?us morbidly 
^u  dea? & ! dea? mom5t8 ,i w tell y4   
,because ,i :o n[ write  to y h--save   
only 9 ! la/ & utt]mo/ giv+ up ( !      
_s--be5 = "s n>r[ space ( "t dead2      
because on me !re  once fell t ?9 &     
impalpable veil :i* cuts (f1 z by a wall
  ( va/ & imp5etrable night1 ! dead "o f
 ^? :om he leaves  beh9d4    ,! facts ( 
! matt] are simply ^!4 ,"s ye>s ago ,i  
became  s]i\sly ill1 grew worse day by  
day1 & 0 pron\nc$ dy+1 &  f9ally dead4  
,dead ,i app>5tly 01 & dead ,i rema9$ to

 all int5ts  & purposes = ! great] "p ( 
two days1 aft] :i*1 to !  int5se & utt] 
a/oni%m5t ( my fri5ds & ( ! physicians1 
,i  exhibit$ symptoms ( return+         
vitality1 & 9 ! c\rse ( a week  or two 0
 convalesc5t4 ,! m$ical & sci5tific     
aspects ( !  case are1 ,i am assur$ by  
^? mo/ compet5t to judge1 ( unusual     
int]e/1 b x is n to !m t ,i n[ wi% to   
direct att5tion4 ,x  is r to t dim      
bord]l& betwixt life & dea?1 :]e9 !  _s 
hov]s on unc]ta9 p9ion1 z if hesitat+   
:e!r to return  to ! body x has lately  
t5ant$1 or to w+ its way to ! %ad[y     
heights ( ! _w ,unse54    ,:]e1 dur+ ^? 
two-score h\rs1 ,i w\ld ask1 0 my s\l1  
gho/1  or life-pr9ciple8 ,_h x pass$    
into "s int]m$iate _s-realm1  !re to    
await till ! ,fa!r ( ,spirits %\ld comm&
 x ei!r  f9ally to quit ! mortal        
habitation 9 :i* x _h s long f\nd  a    
home1 or to return !reto till su* "t z  
,he %\ld call x to  ,himself8 ,or 0 x   
/ill hov]+ ov] ! body1 /ruggl+ &  /riv+ 
to free itself f ! fett]s :i* b\nd x to 

t :i*1  )\t x1 7 b a s5seless &         
inanimate clod8    ,to t "q ,i am prep>$
 ) an answ]1 & s /range a  "o1 t ,i _c  
hope my /ory w be reg>d$ ) any?+ b      
incr$ulity1 nor c ,i reasonably expect x
 to be o!rwise1 =  ,i am aw>e t :at ,i  
am ab\t to relate ,i myself %\ld reject 
unhesitat+ly 7 x pr(f]$ me on ! te/imony
 ( ano!r4    ,illu/ration               
,illu/ration          ,,*apt] ,,ii4     
,,deals ,,) ,,dea? ,,& ,,! ,,dread ,,(  
,,x4      ,if ! ?\ghts :i* are c\rs+    
?r\gh my bra9 at ?is mom5t be  n less   
gruesome to read ?an !y are to write1   
?is *apt] w1 ,i  fe>1 be b sorry read+2 
= ,i feel /rangely depress$ & n]v\s1  z 
,i settle d[n to ! op5+ pages ( my di>y4
    ,! w9d is rag+ & ro>+ outside until 
! /\t walls ( !  h\se seem to rock &    
sway l tree-tops1 & ! sudd5 gu/s &      
squalls make my />tl$ he>t b\nd & beat  
fa/] 9 my bosom1 &  turn me sick ) a    
s5se ( lonel9ess & ( loss4    ,ev5 :5 ,i
 lie w>m 9 my b$ ! s\nd ( ! w9d at      
midnight  /rikes a *ill ?r\gh me1 s t ,i

 %iv] 9 spite ( ! blankets4  ,z x comes 
%riek+ & sobb+ ?r\gh key-hole & lattice1
 !  v doors & w9d[s seem to p>take ( my 
sup]/ition1 & to be  t\*$ ) "s uncanny  
dread2 = long aft] x has di$ away ,i    
he> !m creak+ compla9+ly among !mselves1
 z if !y too 7  n]v\s & 9 fe>4 ,9 !     
w9d's %riek at su* times !re is always  
to me "s sugge/ion ( ! sights x has se51
 & ( ! ru9 x has  wr\ght4 ,i seem to    
see1 z ,i li/5 to its wail+1 a we>y moon
 t  looks out :ite & wan ^u a bleak     
hea?1 :]e a dead woman lies  /ra9+ a    
liv+ babe to h] milkless brea/2 or ^u a 
wa/e (  hurry+ wat]s t heave & ro> &    
hurl !mselves 9 huge bill[s  ^u "o      
desolate figure1 cl++ despair+ly to a   
brok5 ma/4 ,&  !n !re is a sudd5 lull 9 
! /orm2 ! moon is hidd5 by cl\ds  once  
m1 & ! infant's wail1 ! /rong man's cry1
 & ! %riek  ( ! w9d1 gloat+ 9 savage    
exultation ov] its gha/ly secrets1  die 
away into a di/ant rumble1 & all is /ill
 save ! beat+ ( my  he>t1 & ! /eal?y    
creak+ ( door & casem5t4    ,ev5 z ,i   

write ,i c he> its wail+ s die away 9 ! 
di/ance1 &  ,i seem to see x cr\*+1 /ill
 & quiet & pan!r-l1 yet ev]  ga!r+      
itself toge!r1 & creep+ ne>] & ne>]1 s t
 x  may take me unaw>e1 & 9 "o sudd5    
b\nd sweep d[n ^u me1 z an  eagle swoops
 ^u 8 prey1 & be> me away to de/ruction4
    ,li/5 to x n[6--:i/l+1 wail+1       
%riek+1 l a live ?+6 ,is  x any wond]1  
on su* a night1 & ) a s\nd 9 ! air l t  
( innum]able lam5tations1 t ,i feel     
/rangely consci\s ( !  ne> approa* (    
dea?1 & _c dissociate my ?\ghts f       
,! knell1 ! %r\d1 ! mattock1 & ! grave1 
,! deep damp vault1 ! d>kness1 & ! worm8
    ,= ,i d fe> dea?1 z ,i believe we   
all d 9 "s moods4  ,not)/&+ our reit]at$
 beliefs 9 ,*ri/ & 9 ,immortality2      
not)/&+ our pray]s1 hymn-s++1 & he>tfelt
 decl>ations  ( our tru/ 9 ,god1 & 9 ,8 
c>e = u1 are !re n mom5ts  9 ! life (   
ea* ( u :5 ! human nature )9 recoils 9  
dumb & desolate prote/ f ! ?\ght ( an   
exi/5ce 9 :i*  ! body w be left to      
decay8 ,we ?9k at su* times ( our own   

dea? & burial4 ,we picture ! m\rn+      
coa*es sett+ out1 )  solemn pomp &      
pageantry ( woe1 to be> u away to our   
la/ e>?ly  re/+-place4 ,we see !m drive 
back--briskly n[1 & z ?\gh !  grief 7   
left beh9d ) ! c(f9--to ! d>k5$ h\se1 & 
we see ! m\rn]s alight & re-ent] to draw
 up ! bl9ds ) a  sigh ( ?9ly-disguis$   
satisfaction1 & to turn ) a natural if  
humiliat+ relief to life & ! ?+s ( life 
aga94 ,& z we  ?9k ( ! d>kness com+ on1 
& ( t des]t$ body ( ours1  :i* _h once s
 crav$ = light & w>m? & human           
companion%ip1  ly+1 9 ! fir/ awful night
 ( desolation1 away out "u ! sods  9 t  
dre>y cemet]y1 we c almo/ fancy t we see
 ! uneasy  s\l1 re/less ev5 9 heav51    
/eal+ sadly to e>? aga91 &  hov]+1 = v  
companion%ip1 ov] ! =sak5 m\nd t cov]s  
its anci5t comrade4    ,s1 too1 !re are 
mom5ts ( midnight wak+1 :5 we lie on our
 b$  z 9 a grave1 & feel ! awful ?\ght (
 dea? borne 9 ^u u  ) unutt]able1       
intol]able horror4 ,!n ! d>kness :i*    
%uts  out ^? objects t 9 ! day-"t       

di/ract ! att5tion ( our  outw>d eye1 & 
( our m9d1 s]ves only to make our m5tal 
vision  d\bly ke51 & to conc5trate all  
our faculties1 z to "o inw>d  focal po9t
 ( light1 on t hateful ?\ght4 ,!n d we  
seem to  feel ! e>? ru%+ swiftly on its 
way1 z if eag] to hurry u  to our own   
dissolution2 & !n d we /ret* =? impot5t 
h&s  & va91 /riv+ hopelessly to /ay x on
 its c\rse4 ,yet ev] is  our /riv+ (    
none avail3 ,dea?1 hide\s & inexorable1 
/>es u  9 ! face--a wall ( va/ &        
imp5etrable night1 :i* closes  9 ^u u on
 e side4 ,we gasp & *oke z ?\gh "s bony 
&  cruel f+]s lay clut*+ at our ?roat4  
,is !re no way1 we cry1  ) he>t /ra9$   
unto bur/+1 is !re no way by :i* we may 
escape ! ,inescapable8--no loop-hole    
?r\gh :i* we may creep1 &  elude ?is    
black & grisly ?+8 ,b f ! holl[ womb (  
night  comes back ! sull5 answ]1 ,escape
 !re is none1 & !n1 l  doom$ crim9als :o
 snat* gre$ily at a day's reprieve1 we  
?ru/  ! gha/ly ?+ away f u1 & /rive to  
di/ract our ?\ghts 9  folly4            

,illu/ration          ,illu/ration      
,,*apt] ,,iii4    ,,deals ,,) ,,life ,,&
 ,,! ,,lu/ ,,( ,,x1 ,,b ,,has ,,no      
,,direct ,,be>+ ,,on ,,my  ,,/ory4#a    
,%all we n we>y 9 ! w9dless days        
,h]eaft]1 = ! murmur ( ! sea1           
,! cool salt air across "s grassy lea8  
,%all we n g bewild]$ ?r\gh a maze      
,( /ately /reets ) glitt]+ gems ablaze1 
,=lorn amid ! pe>l & ivory1             
,/ra9+ our eyes beyond ! b\rne to see   
,phantoms f out life's de> =sak5 ways8  
,give u aga9 ! crazy clay-built ne/1    
,summ]1 & s(t unseasonable spr+1        
,our fl[]s to pluck1 our brok5 songs to 
s+1    ,our fairy gold ( ev5+ 9 ! ,we/2 
,/ill to ! l& we love our long+s cl+1   
,! sweet va9 _w ( turmoil & unre/4      
--,graham ,r4 ,tomson4      ,let me     
frankly confess t ,i love ?is _w & ! ?+s
 ( x1  & s1 ,i believe1 d all 9 :om !   
great1 glad1 aborig9al &  ,god-giv5 love
 ( life is :ole & heal?y1 & n /unt$ by  
sickness ( m9d or body4 ,= ! b]eav$ & ! 
sorr[-/rick5  ,i make e all[ance & w\ld 

h all t5d]ness1 b ,i suspect  ei!r !    
hone/y or ! heal? 7& by heal? ,i mean1 (
 c\rse1  m5tal z well z physical        
s\ndness7 ( ^? :o express !mselves  z   
be+ desir\s ( dep>t+1 or :o ass]t t love
 ( ?is  _w is irreconcilable ) ! love ( 
,god4    ,x is n ,god's _w1 ) its love &
 fri5d%ip & little  *ildr51 its fields &
 fl[]s1 sea & sky1 sunlight & />%9e1  & 
sweet consolations ( ,art & ,song1 aga9/
 :i* we are bidd5 to  bew>e4 ,no x is   
man's _w--! _w :i* devotes itself to    
ga91  or to ! wi% to be somebody 9      
society2 to ! fritt]+ away ( our  days 9
 fa%ionable frivolity1 or 9 /ruggl+ to  
outdo our neighb\r1  n 9 ! purity ( our 
lives1 or ! dignity ( our actions1 b 9  
our clo!s1 our c>riages1 & ! company we 
keep--?is _w x is  :i* _c be rightly    
lov$ by "o 9 :om dwelle? ! love ( !     
,fa!r4    ,b ,god's _w we c nev] love   
half en\gh1 c nev] suffici5tly          
appreciate & enjoy4 ,suppose t y & ,i1  
my read]1 _h to make  a _w--call x a    
heav5 if y w--( our own design+1 & 7    

entru/$ ) inf9ite pot5tialities = !     
purpose4 ,c\ld we1 c\ld  all ( u comb9$1
 ev] conceive ( any?+ half s beautiful z
 ?is  _w at :i* s _m ( u gaze ) apa!tic 
eyes8      ,an idle poet1 "h & !re1     
,looks r\nd him1 b = all ! re/1    ,!   
_w1 unfa?omably fair1      ,is dull] ?an
 a witl+'s je/4    ,at be/ we c\ld b    
copy1 b if x s happ5$ t we1 to :om x  0 
giv5 to create1 _h nev] be5 p]mitt$ to  
set eyes ev5 ^u  ?is e>? be=eh&1 :at    
sort ( a _w !n1 ?9k y1 %\ld we  contrive
 to con/ruct8    ,i believe t if ,god 7 
to make a man1 a full-gr[n man 9 a      
mom5t1  & 7 to set him d[n 9 ! mid/ ( ! 
_w1 to look ^u x  ) new eyes1 & = ! fir/
 "t1 in/ead ( lett+ him gr[ up  f a     
*ild1 to become accu/om$ to x--= x is   
true1 z ,mr4  ,l[ell says1 t we glance  
c>elessly at ! sunrise1 & get us$ to    
,orion & ! ,pleiades1--,i believe t t   
man w\ld be 9 dang]  ( delirium f 8     
ov]:elm+ joy & wond] at ! beauty & !    
b\ndlessness ( t :i* he saw ar\nd4      
,ev5 ?is grim old ,london is full (     

beauty & ( b\ndlessness2 (  beauty :i*  
/rikes me brea?less1 & ( b\ndlessness ( 
life1 &  sky2 = 9 :at slum ( x1 be x    
nev] s /ifl+1 are we q %ut  out f view (
 ! />s or ! sun%9e1 or ( ! human faces t
  come & g 9 ! /reets8 ,b a mom5t ago1  
:ile look+ out f  my w9d[ ^u a cr[d$1   
*ok+ city ?or\ghf>e1 ,i caught "o       
glimpse ( a woman's pr(ile1 z %e pass$ )
 h] head pois$1 &  half-turn$ t[>ds me2 
& ?\gh ! vision 0 gone 9 an in/ant1  !  
sweep ( ! que5ly neck1 ivory-:ite &     
/ately z a lily-/em1  set my s5ses      
vibrat+ ) a ?rill ( exquisite pleasure4 
,&  yond]1 look+ into a w9d[1 ,i see    
ano!r face1 ! sweet pure face  ( a      
maid54 ,i run my eye l a f+] along !    
pr(ile1 ,i foll[  ! fl[+ l9e ( ! hair2 b
 ev5 z ,i look1 %e turns1 is gone  & is 
=gott51 = h] place is tak5 by a girl ) a
 basket (  fl[]s1 ! fl[]s t ,i love z ,i
 love no?+ else b poetry4  ,x is        
,em]son1 ,i ?9k1 :o tells u t ,god's    
lovelie/ gifts are  ! commone/2 & t sun 
& sky & fl[]s are sc>ce d5i$ to  a      

begg>'s call2 & x is pitiful1 z he says 
9 ano!r passage1  ! ?+s by :i* we call  
ourselves ri* or poor4 ,:y1 ,i h gone   
home f my morn+'s walk1 feel+ ri*] 9 !  
possession ( a  h&ful ( honey-suckle ?an
 if ,i _h f\nd a purse ( sov]eigns by  !
 wayside2 nor c\ld all ! art-treasures (
 ,bond ,/reet 7n t  ,i fail to          
appreciate !m1 ei!r7 give me a m        
exquisite ?rill (  sweetly-sadd5$       
pleasure ?an does ! t5d] p]fume ( a bun*
 (  violets4    ,z a *ild ,i us$ to     
fancy t ,i f\nd 9 a fl[] all my :ite/  &
 pure/ ?\ghts cry/alliz$ into a ?+2 &   
n[1 ?\gh ,i am  a man1 ! :ite-pure      
?\ghts ( my *ildhood /ill live = me 9  e
 fl[] t blossoms 9 ! mead[s2 = ! fl[]s  
br+ me  back n only my vani%$ *ildhood1 
b my *ildhood's innoc5ce  & peace4 ,ev5 
9 ^? remote *ild-days ,i 0 p]suad$ t !  
fl[]s 7 n ( e>?1 b ( heav51 nor :ile ,i 
_h !m c\ld  ,i believe heav5 to be s v  
f> (f1 aft] all4 ,else h[ c\ld !        
fl[]-se$s h be5 bl[n ov] its edge1 &    
fall5 d[n to !  e>?-l&8 ,i w\ld say to  

myself4 ,& ,i f9d myself fancy+ n[1 z   
,i fanci$ !n1 t ,god takes ! fl[]s home 
to ,8 heav5 9 !  w9t]1 & e spr+ :5 ,i   
welcome !m back1 ,i feel t !y  h come z 
direct f ,him & f heav5 z if ,he _h     
leant d[n  out ( ! skies to give !m to  
me2 & ,i feel t !y are n my  fl[]s1 b ,8
 fl[]s2 = ev5 z ,i ga!r !m to call !m   
m9e1  ,he puts =? ,8 h& & claims !m1 s t
 !y fade away aga9 to  ! heav5 :5ce !y  
came4    ,yes1 ,i love ?is _w1 & ! ?+s (
 x4 ,to me ! m]e  consci\sness ( life is
 a gladness1 ! puls+ ( my he>t a        
pleasure4 ,i p5cil ! latt] "p ( ?is     
*apt] :ile ly+ lazily  9 a sun-fill$    
mead[1 & z ,i write ,i seem to feel ! v 
draw+  ( my brea? a joy4 ,! sky spreads 
above me1 a %imm]+ sea (  blue--n !     
cool1 cry/all9e sapphire ( e>ly morn+1 b
 ! deep  d5se azure ( a midsumm] noon4  
,h[ hot ! bees mu/ feel 9 t  furry coat6
 ,z ,i lie "h1 bask+ 9 ! sunlight1 &    
wat*+ !  butt]cups danc+ & dipp+ above !
 grass1 l gold5 bann]s  amid an army (  
gre5-blad$ bayonets1 ,i d n wond] t !   

poor  bees keep up a dull dron+ hum (   
monoton\s murmur+4 ,i c see !  hot air  
simm]+ & quiv]+ above ! clov] fields1 b 
all else  is dr[sily1 dreamily /ill4 ,i 
"k t ! /reets ( ! f>-(f  city are reek+ 
& smok+ ) dry & du/y heat1 b "h ,i am 9 
ano!r _w1 & ! bees & ! birds are my     
bro!rs4 ,?is mead[  is my b\ndless      
prairie2 my head is bel[ ! level ( !    
grass tops1  & !y spread fea!ry1 filmy  
arms above1 l ! b\ghs ( a va/  =e/4     
,yes1 ly+ "h 9 ?is sun-fill$ mead[ on   
?is summ] morn+1 ,i am  consci\s t ,i   
love my life1 & t ,i %\ld be loa? to    
leave x4  ,i love to feel ! w9d ^u my   
*eek1 & to he> x z x :i/les  by me1 s++ 
9 my e>s1 z 9 ! holl[ convolutions ( a  
%ell4  ,i love to /& & look out ^u !    
sea1 or ^u op5 pla9s &  broad           
sky-spaces1 :i* give u eyesight room &  
room = our s\ls  to be4 ,i love to lie &
 li/5 to ! song ( ! w9d among !         
p9e-trees1--! sail+ p9e trees1--& to    
wat* !m sw+ &  sway l /orm-toss$ b>ks at
 sea4 ,i love to see ! rook beat up     

aga9/ ! w9d1 & poise & hov] & so>1 &    
slide d[n ^u !  edge ( ! bla/ ) rigid   
blade-l w+s t %e> ! air l a  knife4 ,&  
:5 ,i wat* him cut ! e!r 9 circles z    
full & fair  z ! curves ( a woman's     
bosom1 ,i ?9k ( him less z a bird ?an z 
"s w+$ arti/ ( ! heights1 :o delights 9 
fl[+ l9e1 &  grace ( =m & feature2 & ,i 
too feel buoyant & airy1 & to my  v     
limbs is l5t ! lightness ( 8 flight4    
,i love1 too1 ! companion%ip ( ^? :o    
love ! ?+s t  ,i love--my spiritual     
bre?r5 & fell[-wor%ipp]s2 =1 to my      
?9k+1 ! lov]s ( ,art1 ,music1 ,nature1  
,poetry1 or ( ,religion1  are all ( !m 9
 "o attitude ( m9d1 & are animat$ by "o 
& ! same _s--,i call x ! ,wor%ipp+ ,_s4 
,x may body  itself =? 9 ! homage-love (
 ! musician = h>mony1 9 !  arti/-wor%ip 
( s5su\s beauty1 or1 highe/ ( all1 9 !  
adoration  ( ,*ri/ & ( t :i* is         
spiritually p]fect2 & yet all ^!  loves 
are n _m loves1 b "o love1 = !y are b   
diff]5t  expressions ( "o & ! same _s4  
,h5ce to turn f a *apt]  ( ,/4 ,john to 

a sunset1 a sonnet f ,wordswor?1 or a   
picture by  ,botticelli1 is to me n     
unseemly1 b natural1 = ea* ( ^!  ar\ses1
 9 diff]5t degrees1 "o & ! same emotion1
 & t  emotion has its s\rce 9 "o & !    
same ,wor%ipp+ ,_s4    ,i love also     
travel1 *ange & adv5ture4 ,i love !     
,botticellis1 !  ,fra ,angelicos & !    
,leon>do ( our own pr9cely ,national    
,gall]y1  n ! less1 b ! bett] = an      
occasional ramble 9 ! ,l\vre1 or  among 
! gall]ies ( ,holl& or ,italy4 ,i love !
 life1 ! /ir &  bu/le ( our ,london     
/reets2 b ,i love1 too1 ! old-_w re/ &  
repose ( ,bruges or ( ,b]ne2 & _m a "t h
 ,i l+]$ ! long  day ?r\gh 9 ! antique  
/reets ( ,antw]p1 li/5+ to ! sweet      
upro> & silv]n wrangl+ t ripples1       
cl\d-borne & w9d-waft$1  f :]e ! /ately 
belfry so>s l>k-l above ! _w4 ,to  me to
 h be5 happy once is to e/abli% a claim 
^u happ9ess  !nce=w>d1 & x is = ?is     
reason1 ,i suppose1 t ,i love s  to     
re-live ! pa/1 & to dwell on ! memory ( 
=m] sights &  sc5es4 ,x is true1 z      

,fr$]ick ,rob]tson says1 t ! fir/ "t    
nev] returns1 & %all ,i ev] =get !      
exultation ( ! mom5t  :51 aft] repeat$  
failures1 ,i fir/ set foot on t         
inaccessible  m\nta9-height :i* ,i _h   
risk$ my life to scale8 ,ev5 n[1 ly+  "h
 9 ?is sunny ,engli% mead[1 ,i seem to  
re-live t mom5t1 &  to see t sc5e aga94 
,be=e me rises "o wild & wa/eful _w (   
:ite--a :ite on :i* ! fi]ce rays ( ! sun
 beat & burn )  bl9d+1 blaz+1 intol]able
 brilliance4 ,above1 swimm+ & so>+  away
 into unfa?omable azure1 spreads ! sil5t
 heav51 b ar\nd1  ab\t1 b5ea?1 all is   
:ite1 dea?ly-:ite1 save only :]e ! va/  
angles ( ice-crag or column deep5 into a
 lu/r\s turquoise1 or :]e  a blue mi/   
broods a?w>t ! m\? ( yawn+ crevasse or  
cav]n4  ,bel[ me & af>--s f> t x seems z
 if ,i 7 cut (f f x  = ev]1--lies !     
sunny village t ,i left s _m toilsome   
h\rs  ago1 j visible1 a wee :ite dot ^u 
! gre54 ,!re ! air is  sweet ) ! brea? (
 fl[]s & ( ! clov]-fields1 !re1 too1    
are ! bees1 & ! butt]flies1 & ! music ( 

ru%+ wat]4  ,b "h1 :]e ! wa/eful sn[s   
wri! & wrea! ar\nd 9 ar*  & cave &      
column1 va/ & wond]ful to behold--above1
 ! %9+  z5i?1 bel[1 ! %e] abyss & !     
trea*]\s desc5t--"h 9 !  solemn solitude
 & sil5ce ( ?is :it$ wild]ness1 ,i c    
sc>cely  believe t ,i am /ill on ! e>?1 
& ( x1 & t ! dazzl+  dome on :i* ,i am  
/&+ is b ! :ite & swell+ bosom ( !      
,great ,"m f :om we all sprang4    ,or1 
we>y ( ! sil5ce & ! sn[-solitudes1 ,i   
close my eyes1  & lo6 ,i am d[n 9 !     
valley aga91 & all ar\nd me spreads a   
bli! & beaute\s sc5e ( s]5e/ summ]4 ,on 
e breeze t  s+s f sunny slope or smil+  
pa/ure is borne ! w9dy *ime &  clam\r ( 
c\ntless cattle-bells f ! hillside1 b   
beyond t1  & ! unbrok5 buzz & burr1 :i* 
bespeak ! deep cont5t (  innum]able     
bees1 all is /ill1 dr[sily /ill4 ,"h1 if
 any:]e1 "o  c realize = a mom5t ! deep1
 dreamy peacefulness t p]vades  ! op5+  
l9es ( ,mr4 ,sw9burne's maje/ic ,g>d5 ( 
,pros]p9e1--      ,"h1 :]e ! _w is      
quiet1      ,"h1 :]e all tr\ble seems   

,dead w9ds' & sp5t waves' riot      ,9  
d\btful dream ( dreams2    ,i wat* !    
gre5 field gr[+1    ,= reap+ folk & s[+1
    ,= h>ve/ "t & m[+1      ,a sleepy _w
 ( /reams4    ,"h are ! bees1 ! birds1 &
 ! butt]flies2 "h1 too1 ne/l+  cosily on
 hillside or mead[1 are dott$ doz5s (   
umb]-br[n *lets1  ea* ( :i* seems to    
sugge/ t haunt+ s5se ( human hi/ory  (  
:i* ,george ,macdonald speaks1 :5 he    
says t _m a simple home  w move "o's    
he>t l a poem1 _m a cottage l a melody4 
,& n[ !re is a *ange 9 ! picture3 !     
dr[s9ess &  ! dream9ess are gone1 & !re 
is ! free1 fre% s5se (  motion1 & ( !   
op54 ,9 my e>s is ! j\rney+ music ( !   
dilig5ce--music :i* despite its j+le    
nev] becomes monoton\s1  = e n[ & !n !  
horses toss _! heads to %ake (f ! too   
p]si/5t flies1 & spr9kle ! air ) spray (
 silv]y s\nds4  ,! road w9ds along a    
m\nta9 pa? ov]look+ a lake1 & !  mirror+
 ( sunset fire ^u ! surface ( ! wat]1 ! 
cool cle>  cry/al ( ! blue dep?s t swim 
away bel[1 ! purple di/ance  ( ! f>!r   

hills1 fa/-%r\d+ 9 light-drawn mi/1 &   
la/ly1  ! solemn spl5d\r ( t sky-hung1  
so>+ summit1 brood+ l  a pres5ce a?w>t !
 skies1--all ^! make up a sc5e ^u :i* ,i
  am nev] we>y ( dwell+1 & :i* ,i de>ly 
love to recall2 a sc5e  ( su*           
indescribable lovel9ess z to leave me at
 la/ b[$ &  brea?less1 &      ,sad ) !  
:ole ( pleasure4    ,i ?\ght :5 ,i p5n$ 
! la/ p>agraph t ,i _h made an end  (   
tell+ y ( my love ( life & ( ! ?+s ( x1 
b t  half-l9e :i* ,i h quot$ f          
,rossetti's mo/ beautiful sonnet  sets  
me ?9k+ ( ano!r love ( :i* ,i h n yet   
spok54 ,ne$ ,i  say t ,i mean ! love (  
music8 n only ( ! music :i* is l  s(t   
h&s /eal+ into ours 9 ! d>k1 & hold+ u  
fa/ )\t  a spok5 ^w1 b also ( ^? sobb+  
so>+ /ra9s1 :i* s\nd  z sadly 9 our e>s 
z does ! w9try flitt]+ ( dead leaves ^u 
a )]$ b\gh8 ,to ^? :o feel t e ray (    
morn+ sunlight  :i* /rikes across _! pa?
 calls !m to a high] & holi]  liv+2 to  
^: he>ts ! pure petals ( a primrose are 
z a sil5t  reproa* aga9/ _! own         

impurity2 to :om a gl9t ( blue sky1     
gleam+ out betwe5 ra9-beat5 tree-tops is
 z an aspiration t[>ds  a l(ti]1 loveli]
 life2 to :om ! v w9d1 z x s+s f !      
gates ( morn+1 cries out ,unclean6      
unclean6--to su*1 ,i suppose1  music mu/
 ev] conta9 less ( joy ?an ( sadness1   
if1 inde$1 x  appeal n ) a pleasure :i* 
cuts to ! he>t l a pa94 ,x is  to !m z  
if an angel f heav5 _h ca/1 = "o pass+  
second1  ^u a cl\d-scre5 drawn across ! 
s\l1 a vision ( :at !y  might be1 ( :at 
!y 7 meant to be1 & ( :at 9 ,god's good 
"t !y may yet become2 & z if at ! v     
mom5t :5 ! _s  0 p\r+ itself =? 9 "o    
unutt]able cry ( long+ aft] !  ,div9e   
beauty ( t ideal1 !re rose be=e !m !    
%ad[-horror  ( :at !y really are4       
,,footnotes3    ,footnote #a3 ,!n :y    
pr9t x "h8 asks ! read]4 ,= ! reason1   
,i reply1 t ?is ,di>y is ! hi/ory1 n    
only ( a s91 b ( a  s\l2 & t to leave ! 
aspect ( my subject "h treat$ unnotic$  
w\ld be to give b a maim$ & "o-sid$     
repres5tation4 ,i d n  ?9k any read] :o 

/udies my sket*-outl9e z a :ole w       
consid]  ! introduction ( ?is *apt] z   
in>ti/ic4    ,illu/ration               
,illu/ration          ,,*apt] ,,iv4     
,i ,,die4      ,i pass on n[ to tell (  
my dea? mom5ts4 ,! room 9 :i* ,i di$ 0  
! room 9 :i* ,i _h be5 born4 ,"o half ( 
x 0 my b$room1 &  ! o!r half--t ne> !   
w9d[--0 my /udy4 ,!re ,i _h done  all my
 "w1 & !re 7 my books & pap]s4 ,!re1    
too1 gr\p$  ar\nd ! walls1 7 portraits (
 ! m5 & wom5 :o seem to me  sometimes to
 be m myself1 z ,em]son puts x1 ?an ev5 
,i am1 &  :o are ne>] to me & de>] to   
me1 _m ( !m1 ?an are "s (  ^? :o sit    
daily ) me 9 ! h\sehold--,i mean !      
portraits (  my fav\rite writ]s4    ,i d
 n "k :e!r ! lit]>y associations ( !    
room _h any  "p--probably !y _h--9      
det]m9+ ! curr5t ( my ?\ght1 b  ,i      
rememb] t1 dur+ ! fir/ few h\rs ( !     
morn+ prec$+ my  dea?1 ,i f\nd my m9d   
runn+ on poets & poetry4 ,i recollect t 
,i  0 ?9k+ *iefly ( ,rossetti1 & ( !    
fact t he 0 haunt$1  z he lay a-dy+1 by 

passages f 8 own poems4 ,n t ,i saw or  
see any cause 9 t fact = wond]1 = ,i c  
recall l9es ( 8  :i* ,i c believe w\ld  
haunt "o ev5 9 heav54    ,^? ( my read]s
 :o fail to appreciate 9 its fulness !  
say+  ( ,diana ( ! ,crossways t 9 poetry
 ^? t h s\ls  meet _! fell[s1 or t ( !  
,saturday ,review1 t !re  is an         
incommunicable magic 9 poetry :i* is    
fooli%ness to !  multitude1--may ?9k ?is
 an exagg]ation4 ,ah well1 !y are ( !   
multitude1--! m pity = !m6--& c nev]    
und]/& h[  ! s\l is /irr$ by a simple   
s5t5ce 9 ! god-l language (  ,%akespe>e1
 or is z irresi/ibly sway$ z are trees 9
 a :irlw9d  by a s+le /anza f ,sw9burne2
 h[ ! magic wit*]y ( a c\plet  by ,keats
 c br+ te>s to ! eyes2 or h[ ! t5d]     
grace ( a l9e  f ,h]rick c set ! s5ses  
vibrat+ ) an exquisite ?rill (  joy4    
,nay1 ,i c\ld indicate s5t5ces 9 !      
diamond-po9t$ prose (  ,george ,m]$i?1  
pellucid s5t5ces1 cry/al-cle> & lum9\s z
 !  sc9tillations ( ,sirius 7& = all _! 
judicial poise & calmness  emitt$ l !   

,sirius sc9tillations at a :ite         
heat71--:i* affect  me 9 a simil> way4  
,!re are few o!r writ]s ( :om ,i c\ld   
affirm ?is ) ! l confid5ce2 b ,m]$i?'s  
?\ghts h  cry/alliz$ into a             
bra9-/imulat+ prose--e s5t5ce ( :i* is  
a satisfy+ m\?ful to our intellectual   
hung]--:i* is sometimes  pure poetry4   
,poetry is to my di>y1 h[ev]1 & 9 fact  
to all ,i ?9k or say1  :at ,k+ ,*>les's 
head 0 to ,mr4 ,dick's memorial1 & x is 
"t ,i  return$ to my n>rative4    ,!    
possibility ( a fatal end+ to my illness
 _h nev] occurr$ to  myself or to my    
family1 until t end+ 0 nigh at h&1 & s x
  0 t dea? came ^u me 9 e way unaw>es4  
,i rememb] my fa!r  b5d+ ov] me1 & ask+ 
g5tly if ,i knew t ,i 0 dy+1 & ,i       
recollect look+ up to :isp] back1 ,no3  
is x s8 & receiv+  8 sorr[ful response4 
,x 0 too late !n = me to d m ?an        
recognise ! fact z a fact1 = my bra9 0 s
 /rangely affect$  t ,i 0 utt]ly        
incapable ( foll[+ out t fact to its    
result4  ,i knew t ,i 0 dy+--knew x mu* 

z ,i might h kn[n x ( "s  o!r p]son--b  
felt no individual pang ( t]ror or      
surprise4 ,?is  /ate ( indiff]5t        
acquiesc5ce 9 t :i* 0 ab\t to occur  0  
foll[$ by a s5se ( regret at hav+ to    
leave a volume :i* ,i  _h 9 h& unf9i%$1 
& !n1 ) ! rul+ passion /rong 9  dea?1 ,i
 f\nd myself endeav\r+ to f9d fitt+     
words to describe  my s5sations4 ,x is s
 ) me ev] & always4 ,art & ,poetry h    
become su* realities1 t ,i _c take !m up
 & lay !m aside  at pleasure1 b mu/ ne$s
 be> !m ) me :i!rsoev] ,i g4 ,i  c>ry my
 poetry ) me to b$ & to breakfa/2 & ,i c
 sit &  write1 or c>ry on a conv]sation1
 ) ! consci\sness ( ,mr4 ,lang's  late/ 
,ballade1 or ,mr4 ,!odore ,watts's la/  
sonnet1 runn+ l an  und]curr5t 9 my m9d4
 ,i am p]petually /riv+ to fix 9        
language  ! fleet+ col\rs ( sea & sky4  
,i c nev] li/5 to ! trickle  & purl ( a 
brooklet t9kl+ ov] its pebbly b$1 )\t   
mak+  dilig5t se>* 9 my vocabul>y = a   
^w--! gold5 ^w--:i*  seems mo/ to babble
 & to blab ( wat]4 ,z surely z ,i f9d 9 

,wordswor?'s poems a backgr\nd ( sky &  
m\nta91 j z surely d  ,i f9d 9 m\nta9 & 
sky an e*o ( ,wordswor?'s song4 ,to me1 
too1  ! sonnet :i* rises involunt>ily to
 my lips1 z ,i gaze out ^u  ! deep1 is z
 mu* a "p ( ! sc5e be=e me1 z is ! sun  
or  ! s& ^u ! %ore2 & ,i h come to feel 
) ,mr4 ,l[ell1 z  if a sunset 7 l a     
quotation f ,dante or ,milton1 & t if   
,%akespe>e be read 9 ! v pres5ce ( ! sea
 itself1 8 voice  %all b seem nobl] = ! 
sublime criticism ( ocean4    ,i 0 tell+
 y t z ,i lay a-dy+1 ,i f\nd myself     
endeav\r+  to f9d fitt+ words to        
describe my s5sations4 ,at ?is po9t1    
h[ev]1 ! tra9 ( my ?\ghts 0 di/urb$--&  
,i recollect  a slight reawak5+ ( my old
 *>act]i/ic irritability at !           
int]ruption--by ! entrance ( a si/] :o  
_h come f a di/ance  to see me4 ,i      
rememb] slightly lift+ my head to speak 
to h]1 &  !n glanc+ r\nd ! room to see  
if all 7 pres5t4 ,yes1 close  beside me1
 & ) 8 head b[$ ov] 8 h&s1 sat my fa!r1 
&  r\nd ab\t ! b$ 7 ga!r$ ! rema9d] ( ! 

family4 ,nor 7  ^! all1 = /&+ among !m 7
 ?ree o!r figures--t ( my  bro!r ,fr$1  
^: grave z yet 0 h>dly gre51 & ( my "m &
  my little si/] ,com=t1 bo? ( :om _h   
di$ :5 ,i 0 a *ild4 ,if  my conviction t
 ,i h inde$ be5 dead be a delusion1--z  
,i d\bt  n _m ( my read]s w ?9k1--is x n
 /range1 ,i w\ld ask1  t ^! faces %\ld h
 be5 ) me at ! end8 ,_h !re be5  any    
conjecture 9 my m9d z to ! probability (
 my meet+ ) my  lo/ ones1 ,i c\ld       
readily believe t :at ,i saw 0 !        
creation  ( my own bra94 ,b !re _h be5  
no su* conjecture1 = dea?  _h tak5 me1 z
 ,i h already expla9$1 entirely unaw>es1
 & no  ?\ght ( ! dead _h z mu* z occurr$
 to me4 ,_! pres5ce1  h[ev]1 s f> f     
caus+ me any surprise1 seem$ p]fectly   
natural1  = ! fact t !y 7 dead did n    
dawn ^u my consci\sness4    ,?is1 ,i am 
ready to all[1 /rongly supports ! !ory t
 ^!  exp]i5ces may be no?+ m ?an dreams1
 = 9 dreams x n  seldom happ5s t we     
re-live ! pa/1 & hold conv]se ) our     
dep>t$ ones1 all oblivi\s ( ! dea? :i*  

has come betwe5 u4  ,x may be s1 ,i     
admit1 b 9 my he>t ( he>ts ,i _c ?9k x2 
= if all t ,i h to tell be b a dream1 !n
 does x seem to me  ! /range/ dream ev] 
dream$ by man4 ,moreov]1 ) ^! ?ree      
figures 0 a f\r?--a figure :i* at fir/  
_h escap$ my notice2  & x is ! pres5ce (
 ?is figure 9 ! room :i* is to me mo/   
unacc\ntable4 ,my "m1 :5 ,i fir/ saw h]1
 0 /&+ at !  foot ( ! b$1 ) my dead     
bro!r & si/] look+ ov] h]  %\ld]1 b at !
 sight ( my fa!r's grief1 %e w5t g5tly  
r\nd  to :]e he 0 sitt+1 & ) a c>ess (  
inf9ite pity /oop$  d[n z if to :isp] 9 
8 e>4 ,x 0 !n t ,i saw = ! fir/  "t t %e
 held by ! h& a little *ild--a little   
*ild :om ,i  _h nev] se5 be=e1 b across 
^: face1 z he look$ up at me1  !re      
flitt$ ! phantom ( a resemblance ,i c\ld
 n cat*4    ,i rememb] t ev5 !n1        
bra9-b5umb$ & dy+ z ,i 01 ,i  wond]$ :o 
t little *ild c\ld be2 b !re dawn$ ^u me
 no  %ad[y suspicion ( ! tru?1 & ,i     
pass$ away ) t wond]  unremov$4    ,i   
?9k n[--nay1 ,i am sure--t ,i "k :o t   

*ild 04 ,x 0 my  bro!r ,james ,john1 !  
elde/ ( ! family1 :o _h di$ be=e ,i 0   
born1 & :om1 9 ?is _w1 !re=e1 ,i _h nev]
 se54    ,i h little left to tell ( my  
dea?1 = no?+ else occurr$ (  any mom5t1 
& ,i am resolv$ to conf9e myself /rictly
 to facts4 ,i  rememb] t imm$iately aft]
 ,i _h se5 my "m1 & :ile ,i 0  wond]+ :o
 ! *ild %e held by ! h& c\ld be1 !re    
came ov]  me a /range & sudd5 s5se (    
loss--( physical loss1 ,i ?9k x  01 z   
?\gh "s life-elem5t _h gone out f me4 ,(
 pa9 !re  0 none1 nor 0 ,i di/urb$ by   
any m5tal anxiety4 ,i recollect only  an
 e!real lightness ( limb1 & a s5se (    
s\l-emancipation &  peace--a s5se (     
s\l-emancipation su* z "o might feel 7  
he to  awak5 on a sunny morn+ to f9d t  
all sorr[ & s9 7 gone  f ! _w = ev]2 a  
peace ample & re/ful z ! hall[$  hu% &  
awe ( summ] twilight1 )\t ! twilight's  
t5d] pa94    ,!n ,i seem$ to be s9k+    
sl[ly & /eadily ?r\gh /ill dep?s  (     
sun-/eep$1 light-fill$ wat]s t sang 9 my
 e>s ) a s\nd  l a sweet-sad sobb+ &    

so>+ ( music1 & ?r\gh :i* !re  swam up  
to me1 9 wat]$ vi/as ( light1 sc5es (   
sunny seas &  %9+ %ores :]e smil+ isles 
/ret*$ league beyond league af>4  ,& s  
life ebb$ & ebb$ away1 until at la/ !re 
came a "t--!  mom5t ( dea?1 ,i          
believe--:5 ! outw>d & dea?w>d sett+    
tide  seem$ to rea* its climax1 & :5 ,i 
felt myself swept %orew>d &  lifew>d    
aga9 on ! inw>d-sett+ tide ( t l>g] life
 into  :i* ,i _h di$4    ,illu/ration   
,illu/ration          ,,*apt] ,v4       
,,is ,,( ,,an ,,explanatory ,,nature    
,,only4      ,:5 ! fir/ r\gh draft ( ?is
 di>y 0 ly+ on my /udy table1  !re call$
 to see me1 at a "t :5 ,i *anc$ to be   
out1 a c]ta9  noveli/ :o is an old &    
intimate fri5d ( m9e4 ,he 0 %[n into  ! 
/udy to await my com+1 &1 on my return1 
,i f\nd him amus+  himself ) ^! pap]s4  
,( ! reality ( my dea?-exp]i5ces  7:i*  
he p]si/5tly refus$ to reg>d z o!r ?an  
dreams7 ,i _h  nev] be5 able to conv9ce 
him1 & ,i 0 n surpris$ !re=e  :51 aft] !
 conv]sation turn$ ^u ! "w ea* ( u _h 9 

h&1 he ref]r$ to my booklet 9 8 usual   
sceptical tone4    ,my de> fell[1 he    
said1 lay+ "o h& ^u ! (f5d+  manuscript1
 ,i hav5't ! slighte/ int5tion ( disput+
 ! tru?  ( y\r /atem5ts1 or ( d5y+ t y\r
 di>y has a c]ta9  un:olesome int]e/ (  
its own1 b s]i\sly1 ,i don't ?9k fiction
  is altoge!r 9 y\r l9e4    ,nor satire 
9 y\rs1 ,i repli$2 b :at h y to say     
aga9/ !  ?+ n[8    ,?is1 he answ]$1 m   
evid5tly 9 e>ne/1 t y hav5't  scor$ z y 
might h done1 b h let slip :at          
opportunities y  _h = turn+ out some?+  
orig9al4 ',lett]s f ,hell' 7:i*1 by  !  
bye1 y mu/ expect to be *>g$ ) imitat+1 
?\gh t  ne$n't tr\ble y mu*7 0          
confess$ly a "w ( pure imag9ation1  & ,i
 %\ldn't be surpris$ if ! fact help$    
some:at to less5  ! int]e/ ( ! volume4  
,n[ y\r book has j en\gh %ad[ (         
probability or possibility to su/a9 !   
delusion1 & all t  w tell 9 its fav\r4  
,! public likes--j z ,dick ,swivell]'s  
,m>*ioness did--to 'make believe' 9 !   
reality ( t :i* is  meant to int]e/ x2 &

 books or plays c't be too life-l or    
reali/ic n[adays4 ,y h 'made believe'   
until y h br\ght  y\rself to believe 9 !
 reality ( some?+ :i* ,i c't ?9k  ev]   
happ5$2 b t isn't my bus9ess4 ,:at ,i   
compla9 ( is  ?is3--t al?\gh y h a /ory 
to tell ) suffici5t %ad[  ( probability 
or possibility1 z ,i h said1 to make x  
int]e/+1  & to keep up ! delusion1 y h  
fail$ mo/ lam5tably to turn  y\r        
opportunities to acc\nt4 ,take y\r dea? 
sc5e1 = in/ance4 ,any  practical writ] (
 ord9>y ability c\ld imag9e ! s5sations 
( dy+1 & c\ld draw a f> m p[]ful picture
 ( !m ?an y  h done1 :o pr(ess to h     
actually exp]i5c$ ^? s5sations          
p]sonally4 ,!n :at y h to say ab\t      
,heav5 & ,hell1 & all  ! re/ ( x1 is    
curi\s1 & "s may ?9k x n un9t]e/+1  b y 
hav5't giv5 u any idea ( :at ! places   
are l1 aft]  all4 ,:y didn't y draw on  
y\r imag9ation1 man8 ,:y didn't y g  9 =
 ! grim1 & grey1 & gha/ly8 ,:y didn't y 
revel 9 !  weird 7nev] m9d ,mr4 ,lang's 
abuse ( ! ^w71 or conjure up blissful   

dreams ( ! ble/ & ( ,p>adise8 ,i "k a   
doz5 m5 :o c\ld h  made twice z mu*     
capital1 & f> m saleable copy1 out ( t  
idea ( y\rs ab\t a man dy+1 or ne>ly s1 
& !n com+ back to  relate :at he has    
se51 z x appe>s f ! /&po9t ( frail      
mortality2 & ,i tell y frankly t ,i     
don't ?9k y h scor$ z  y ought to h     
done4    ,b :at has all ?is1 says !     
read]1 to d ) y\r di>y8 ,we  are will+  
to he> :at y h to tell ab\t y\r         
exp]i5ces1  b we didn't b>ga9 = an      
article sett+ =? ! op9ion (  y\r fri5ds 
on ! subject1 & we c't help ?9k+ t !    
introduction ( ?is *apt] is some:at     
uncall$ =4    ,well1 p]haps x is s1 b x 
is because ! conv]sation giv5  above    
t\*es ^u "s po9ts conc]n+ :i* ,i am     
anxi\s t !  read] %\ld come to a "r     
und]/&+ be=e he ent]s ^u my  aft]-dea?  
exp]i5ce1 t ,i h ins]t$ x "h1 & if a v  
few m9utes' indulg5ce be grant$ me1 ,i w
 say :at ,i h to say  z briefly z       
possible4 ,i c\ld1 ,i am sure1 by draw+ 
a little on  my imag9ation1 h writt5 a  

f> m /rik+ description ( !  s5sations ( 
dea?1 ?an t :i* ,i h giv5 9 ! prec$+    
*apt]1 = ( su* description1 9 ! s5se (  
work+-up a  situation !re is absolutely 
none4 ,all t ,i h tri$ to d is  to      
relate my /ory ) a resolute avoidance ( 
any?+ ak9 to !  s5sational4 ,if aught ( 
! s5sational !re be 9 ! n>rative1 x  is 
because ! ?+ is s5sational 9 itself1 & n
 because ,i h  attempt$ to make x s4 ,z 
,george ,eliot says1 x is f> easi] to   
draw  a griff91 ) w+s & claws fill$ 9   
accord+ to our own fancy1  ?an to       
correctly limn ! outl9es ( a lion2 & to 
keep to !  tru? has be5 ! h>de/ "p ( my 
task4    ,:5 ! m5tal picture or         
impression left on my m9d is b an       
imp]fect "o1 ,i h n attempt$1 z ,i might
 easily & p]haps  p>donably h done1 to  
fill 9 ! miss+ outl9e f my  imag9ation1 
b h giv5 ! picture or impression = :at x
  is wor?1 & h left x s4 ,my memory is1 
g5]ally speak+1  excell5t1 & dur+ ! fir/
 few h\rs ( consci\sness aft] !  return 
( vitality1 ! recollection ( t :i* ,i _h

 se5 0  z fre% z are ! ev5ts ( ye/]day4 
,)9 a week1 h[ev]1 ,i  f\nd t ! great]  
"p ( x _h gone f me1 & t all my  ef=ts  
to recall ! m5tal pictures 7 unavail+4  
,i h sometimes  wond]$ if x c be        
possible t :5 my pres5ce 0 miss$  f !   
realms into :i* ,i _h s untimely w&]$1  
"s angelic  mess5g] 0 despat*$ )        
in/ructions to wipe out f ! tablets  (  
my memory ! records ( my exp]i5ces4     
,:e!r x be s1 or n1  ,i _c say1 b ?is ,i
 d "k1 t _h ,i comm5c$ my di>y )9  a    
week ( my return to life1 ! booklet w\ld
 h be5 "o su* z  x is n (t5 giv5 to man 
to write4 ,! subject1 h[ev]1 seem$  !n1 
& = a long "t aft]1 too solemn to be    
turn$ to acc\nt  = copy1 & ea* ( !      
sev]al ye>s :i* h elaps$ s9ce ,i  di$1  
has tak5 ) x "s "p ( ! recollections t  
rema9$  to me2 & n[ t ,i h all too      
t>dily set ab\t my task1 ,i h  b blurr$ 
& brok5 rem9isc5ces to (f] 9 place ( a  
life-l  picture4    ,^! rem9isc5ces1    
vague1 disconnect$1 & fragm5t>y z !y    
are1 ,i h giv5 = :at !y are wor?4 ,if   

any read] ?9k t ,i  h ov]rat$ ! value ( 
my exp]i5ces1 & t ,i h fail$ to  v]ify !
 promise ) :i* ,i />t$1 ,i c only assure
 him t  ! failure is due1 n to !        
insuffici5cy ( :at is /range &  /rik+ 9 
my exp]i5ces1 b to my inability to      
recall :at ,i h  se51 & to my           
incompet5cy to d fitt+ ju/ice to my     
s+ul>  subject4    ,illu/ration         
,illu/ration          ,,*apt] ,,vi4     
,,tells ,,( ,,my ,,fir/ ,,awful ,,awak5+
 ,,9 ,,hell1 ,,& ,,( ,,! ,,%ameful ,,s9 
,,:i* ,,br\ght ,,me ,,?i!r4      ,!     
exp5se ( _s 9 a wa/e ( %ame      ,is lu/
 9 action2 & till action1 lu/    ,is    
p]jur$1 murd]\s1 bloody1 full ( blame1  
,savage1 extreme1 rude1 cruel1 n to     
tru/1    ,enjoy$ no soon] b despisd     
/raight1      ,pa/ reason hunt$1 & no   
soon] _h    ,pa/ reason hat$1 z a       
swall[$ bait1      ,on purpose laid to  
make ! tak] mad2    ,mad 9 pursuit1 & 9 
possession s2      ,_h1 hav+1 & 9 que/  
to h1 extreme2    ,a bliss 9 pro(1 &1   
prov$1 a v woe2      ,be=e1 a joy       

propos$2 beh9d1 a dream4    ,all ?is !  
_w well kn[s2 yet none kn[s well    ,to 
%un ! heav5 t leads m5 to ?is hell4     
,%akespe>e's #abi? ,sonnet4      ,"t1   
:i* is ! "n we give to our petty portion
 ( ,et]nity1 has  no exi/5ce 9 t        
,et]nity :i* has be5 def9$ z ! lifetime 
( ! ,almighty2 & s x 0 t ?\gh ,i rema9$ 
9 ! _s  realm b two days1 x seem$ to me 
z if weeks1 mon?s1 ye>s1 _h  elaps$     
betwe5 my dea? & ! h\r :5 ,i fir/ became
 consci\s (  t dea?4    ,i h told y t z 
,i lay a-dy+1 ,i felt my life sl[ly  b  
/eadily ebb+ away1 until at la/ !re came
 a "t--!  mom5t ( dea?1 ,i believe x to 
h be5--:5 ! outw>d &  dea?w>d-sett+ tide
 seem$ to rea* its climax1 & :5 ,i felt 
myself swept %orew>d & lifew>d aga94 ,i 
"k !re are "s :o  w say t ! turn+-po9t  
:i* ,i h call$ ! mom5t ( dea?  0 no?+ m 
or less ?an ! mom5t :i* m>k$ ! decl9e ( 
! disease1 & ! return ( vitality1 b ?is 
!ory1 plausible &  ev5 probable z x     
seems1 leaves ! /range/ "p ( my exp]i5ce
  unexpla9$1 & ,i _c ent]ta9 x2 nei!r1  

,i ?9k1 w !  read]1 :5 he has he>d me   
out4    ,:e!r my dea? 0 succe$$ by a    
season ( slumb]1 9 :i* c]ta9  div9ely   
ord]$ dreams 7 caus$ to be dream$ by me1
 or :e!r  ,god caus$ ! h&s on ! dial (  
,"t to be put back = a space 9  ord] t  
,i might see ! pa/ z ,he sees x1 ,i     
nei!r knew nor "k2  b ,i di/9ctly       
rememb] t ! fir/ ?+ ( :i* ,i 0 consci\s 
aft] my dissolution 0 t ! ev5ts ( my pa/
 life 7 ris+  be=e me4 ,yes1 x 0 my pa/ 
life1 :i* ,i saw 9 t awful mom5t1  my   
pa/ life /&+ out 9 its own nak$ &       
intol]able horror1 an  abom9ation 9 !   
sight ( ,god1 & ( my own consci5ce4     
,! h&s on ! dial ( ,"t w5t back half a  
score1 a score1 &  f9ally a score & a   
half ( ye>s1 & once m ,i 0 a "y man (   
tw5ty-"o4 ,! *amb]s 9 :i* ,i 0 !n liv+ 7
 situat$ 9  "o ( ! well-kn[n ,inns (f   
,holborn1 & ! h\sekeep] ( ! w+  :]e ,i 0
 qu>t]$ 0 a wid[1 :o1 ) h] daught]      
,doro?y1 a  girl ( sev5te51 resid$ on ! 
premises4    ,z x 0 ,doro?y's "p to wait
 ^u ! occupants ( ! *amb]s1  %e _h      

occasion to come to my room sev]al times
 9 ! day1 & ,i  c\ld n help notic+ h]   
lovel9ess1 :i*1 inde$1 rem9d$ me n  a   
little ( my fav\rite ,greuze picture4   
,:5 ,i fir/ knew h] %e  seem$ maid5ly & 
mode/1 b 0 va9 beyond a "q1 & h]  mann] 
to ! opposite sex 0 %y & self-consci\s1 
) occasional  da%es ( an artless & ev5  
*ildi% coquetry :i* 0 mo/  bewit*+4 ,by 
?is girl ,i 0 irresi/ibly & fatally     
fasc9at$4 ,i  0 "y1 susceptible1 &      
s+ul>ly impressionable to female beauty1
  :il/ ! lonel9ess & ! monotony ( ! life
 ,i 0 lead+ 7  9 !mselves elem5ts (     
consid]able dang]2 & to make matt]s     
worse1 x 0 only too evid5t t ,doro?y 0 n
 indiff]5t to  my admiration4 ,z ,i knew
 t x 0 b ! fasc9ation ( =m &  feature   
:i* attract$ me1 & t no?+ b mis*ief 0   
likely  to come ( su* a passion1 ,i     
/rove my h>de/ to /eel myself aga9/  h]2
 b ,fate seem$ adv]se1 = "o summ] ev5+  
:ile ,i 0  sitt+ 9 my /udy1 wait+ = a   
fri5d1 !re bur/ ov] ,london !  mo/      
fe>ful ?und]/orm :i* ,i h ev] witness$4 

,! lightn+  0 s vivid & ! ?und] s       
t]rific1 t ev5 ,i1 :o am by no  means   
n]v\s ab\t su* ?+s1 felt /rangely mov$ &
 unsettl$2  & ,i 0 n a little glad1     
!re=e1 to he> :at ,i took to be my      
fri5d's knock4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ! door1    
h[ev]1 ,i f\nd t x 0  n he1 b ,doro?y1 &
 t %e 0 :ite ) fe>1 & trembl+  f head to
 foot4 ,oh1 sir1 %e sobb$1 "m's out1 &  
!re's no  "o else 9 b y1 & ,i'm s       
fright5$ t ,i c't /ay by myself4  ,if   
y'll only let me be "h till %e comes    
back1 ,i'll be v quiet  & n di/urb y 9  
any way4    ,kn[+ my weakness & h] great
 beauty1 ,i _h up to t mom5t  /udi\sly  
refra9$ f all[+ s mu* z a w&]+ glance to
  re/ on h]2 b ,i c\ld n avoid look+ at 
h] n[1 & ,i rememb]  t h] eyes1 bright &
 pitiful & besee*+1 h] bosom's g5tle    
neighb\rhood1 & ! v consci\sness ( h]   
pres5ce z %e /ood  be=e me1 set my he>t 
beat+ s wildly1 t x 0 all ,i c\ld d  to 
refra9 f tak+ h] 9 my arms !n & !re1 &  
tell+ h]  7=give ! pr(anation ( a holy  
^w7 t ,i lov$ h]4    ,! virtu\s         

det]m9ation to be on our gu>d aga9/ "s  
besett+  s9 or con/itutional fail+ comes
 to u g5]ally1 n dur+  ! mom5t (        
temptation1 :5 we are mo/ 9 ne$ ( su* a 
moral  rem9d]1 b aft] ! ev5t1 & :5 !    
det]m9ation is too  late2 b on ?is      
occasion ,i he>d ! inw>d monitor speak  
out a  timely w>n+1 & t ) no unc]ta9    
tongue4 ,by a great ef=t  ,i n]v$ myself
 to my accu/om$ control1 & ?\gh ,i knew 
,doro?y  w\ld ?9k me *urli% & cruel1 ,i 
told h] coldly t %e _h  bett] g d[n/airs
 & wait ! return ( h] "m4 ,! words _h   
sc>cely "t to pass my lips 7,i d\bt1    
inde$1 if %e c\ld h he>d  !m71 be=e !y 7
 lo/ 9 a t]rific ?und]-peal1 foll[+     
almo/ in/antane\sly ^u a bl9d+ fla% (   
lightn+4 ,x _h be5  bett] = bo? ( u1 z  
,i h (t5 s9ce ?\ght1 if t fla%  _h /ruck
 u dead z we /ood !re2 =1 ) "o cry (    
passion &  fe>1 & call+ me by my "n--my 
,*ri/ian "n--9 a tone t none  c\ld      
mis9t]pret1 ,doro?y flung h] arms ar\nd 
me1 & ! next  mom5t ,i f\nd myself      
press+ h] to my he>t ) a fi]ce & almo/  

savage exultation1 & tell+ h]1 amid a   
score ( burn+ kisses1  t ,i lov$ h]4    
,almo/ imm$iately aft]w>ds we he>d !    
op5+ ( doors1 :i*  indicat$ h] "m's     
home-com+1 b n be=e ,doro?y _h "t to    
tell me 9 return t %e too lov$ me1 & _h 
always done s4 ,&  !n %e slipp$ f my    
arms1 & tripp$ away ) tumbl$ hair &     
flam+ *eeks to jo9 h] "m1 turn+ z %e    
rea*$ ! door to  look back ) a %y smile 
& to say--innoc5tly & unsuspect+ly      
en\gh z ,i knew well--t ! room directly 
ov] m9e 0 h] own1  & t %e (t5 lay awake 
at night li/5+ to my re/less pac+  to & 
fro1 & wond]+ :at c\ld keep me up s     
late4    ,( ! helli% ?\ght :i* rose 9 my
 he>t z ,i li/5$--!  ?\ght t %e w\ld n  
refuse me admittance to h] room %\ld ,i 
seek h] !re t night--%e c\ld h _h no    
suspicion1 = x 0  a ?\ght ( :i*1 at any 
o!r "t1 ,i %\ld h deem$ myself          
incapable4 ,i rememb] t ,i did n fl+ !  
hateful sugge/ion f  me1 z ,i %\ld h    
done an h\r e>li]1 al?\gh1              
passion-madd5$  z ,i 01 ,i recoil$ f x1 

& v[$ t ,i w\ld nev] ent]ta9  x4 ,b ,i  
brood$ ov] ! horrible idea1 & sket*$ out
 h[ easily  x might be act$ ^u1 7 ,i !  
f\l ?+ to d x1 :i* ,i /ill  decl>$ to   
myself ,i 0 n4 ,_h ,i aris5 9 trembl+   
horror1 &  ?ru/ ! vile conception f me1 
%e & ,i might ev5 !n h be5  sav$1 b ,i  
let x ent] & take up its abode 9 my     
he>t1 & f  !nce=w>d ,i /rove to drive x 
=? 9 va94    ,oh6 9 ,god's "n1 9 ! "n ( 
,love & ,tru? & ,purity1 :5  any su*    
evil or impure ?\ght s mu* z ca/s ! %ad[
 ( its  approa*+ pres5ce on y\r s\l1 !n1
 9 all ! /r5g? ( y\r  manhood1 arise &  
?ru/ x out1 ere x be too late6 ,argue n1
 delay  n1 li/5 n1 b hurl ! loa?some    
:isp] f y z ?\gh x  7 "s poison\s       
reptile1 & bid x be gone = ev]6    ,f ! 
mom5t t ,i gave audi5ce to t mess5g] (  
,satan1 hell  & its furies laid hold on 
me4 ,sometimes ,i seem$ to be ga9+      
gr\nd1 sometimes ,i seem$ to be recov]+ 
my balance ( m9d4 ,i  w d ! "r6 ,i cri$1
 ,i w n be guilty ( ?is accurs$  ?+6 b  
ev5 z ,i /rove to fix my feeble purpose 

to ! /ick+  po9t1 "s moral screw seem$  
to give way )9 me1 & ,i felt t  purpose 
ebb+ away l life-blood f a fatal w\nd4  
,at la/ ! /ruggle seem$ to cease1 & !re 
0 borne 9 ^u me a  s5se ( peace1 deep1 &
 sweet1 & re/ful4 ,i "k n[ t x 0  b     
exhau/ion consequ5t ^u ! /ra9 ,i _h     
endur$1 t x 0  no?+ m ?an ! inevitable  
reaction f ! high s\l-t5sion to  :i* ,i 
_h be5 subject$4 ,to me1 h[ev]1 x seem$ 
z ! v peace  ( ,god & z a sign f heav51 
& lull$ into a false security1 ,i  let  
my ?\ghts w&] back to dwell aga9 ^u !   
temptation4 ,ne$  ,i tell ! rema9d] ( my
 /ory8 ,ne$ ,i say t my passion _h b    
simulat$ defeat1 z passion (t5 does1 9  
ord] t x might turn 9  an ungu>d$ mom5t1
 & r5d me ) r$\bl$ fury8 ,! next mom5t  
,i  saw my la/ gasp+ ef=t to w ! "r s9k 
amid ! tempe/u\s  sea ( s9ful wi%es1 z a
 dr[n+ man s9ks aft] he has ris5 =  !   
?ird "t2 & delib]ately ?ru/+ away1 9 ! v
 dogg$ness  ( despair1 ! invisible h&   
:i* yet /rove to /ay me1 ,i arose &     
s\ght ! room t ,i _h pray$ ,i might nev]

 ent]4           99       99       99   
99       99    ,y may wond]1 p]haps1 h[ 
x is t ,i am able to recall s vividly  !
 circum/ances ( an ev5t :i* happ5$ _m   
ye>s ago4 ,y w\ld  cease s to wond]1 _h 
y se51 z ,i h se51 ! gho/ ( y\r  dead   
self rise up to cry = v5geance aga9/ y1 
& to condemn  y be=e ! judgm5t seat (   
,god1 & ( y\r own consci5ce4 ,=  ?is 0  
my fir/ glimpse ( ,hell2 ?is 0 my ,day (
 ,judgm5t4 ,!  record+ angel ( my own   
inde/ructible & n[ ,god-awak5$ memory   
%[$ me my pa/ life z ,god saw x1 & z x  
appe>$ :5 robb$ (  ! loa?some disguises 
) :i* ,i _h s long contriv$ to hide my  
own moral nak$ness4 ,s9 looks mu* m     
t]rible to ^? :o look  at x1 ?an to ^?  
:o d x1 says ! au?or ( ! ,/ory ( an     
,african ,f>m4 ,a convict1 or a man :o  
dr9ks1 seems some?+ s f>  (f & horrible 
:5 we see him1 b to himself he seems q  
ne>  to u1 & l u4 ,we wond] :at k9d ( a 
creature he is1 b he is  j we ourselves4
 ,x 0 s inde$ t ,i _h ?\ght & wond]$4   
,i _h read (t5 ( adult]]s & murd]]s 9 ! 

newspap]s1  & _h ?\ght ( !m z ,i ?\ght (
 lep]s or ( cannibals1  9 no way imag9+ 
t my y\?ful escapade c\ld r5d] su*      
words applicable to me4 ,i _h accu/om$  
myself to call+ my crime  gallantry 9 my
 own ?\ghts1 & ,i %\ld h reg>d$ "o :o   
us$  h>%] language z want+ 9 delicacy & 
9 bre$+2 & n[ ,i  f\nd myself br&$ z    
,murd]] & ,s$uc] to all ,et]nity6       
,murd]]6 y say4 ,yes1 murd]]1 = s$uction
 is moral murd]2  & ! man :o has ?us    
s9n$ aga9/ a woman is fit only to /&    
side by side ) him :o has tak5 a life4  
,ay1 & 8 is n seldom  ! m awful         
puni%m5t1 = ,god w z surely require !   
spiritual  life at ! h&s ( ! s$uc]1 z   
,he w ! bodily life at !  h& ( ! murd]]4
    ,! "o ?+ ( all o!rs :i* add$ to !   
unutt]able horror (  t mom5t1 0 ! memory
 ( ! false & ly+ excuses ) :i* ,i  _h   
/riv5 to palliate my s9 to myself4 ,i   
rememb] t su* excuses  took =m & %ape1 &
 haunt$ & tortur$ me l devils--z inde$  
!y 7--( my own begett+4 ,! relation ( ! 
sexes1 ,i _h  (t5 said :5 /riv+ to      

sil5ce an uneasy consci5ce1 ,bah6 x is  
b a yoke ( man's impos+4 ,i take ! woman
 ,i love to live )  me1 & %e & ,i are   
%unn$ z lep]s4 ,yond] is a man :o foll[s
  ! same prec$5t & f ! same motive2 &   
because a prie/ has  murmur$ a few words
 ( sanction ov] ! contract1 he & 8 p>tn]
  are ft$ & flatt]$4 ,h[ c ! indulg5ce (
 a natural passion  :i* 9 "o set (      
circum/ances is fair & hon\rable1 9     
ano!r be  s9ful & f\l8 ,fair is fair1 & 
f\l is f\l1 & no mutt]+ ( a  man c      
trans=m ! "o into ! o!r4    ,?is is !   
way 9 :i* ,i _h repeat$ly /riv5 to      
sil5ce my  consci5ce1 & x is b "o       
in/ance ( ! way 9 :i* _m o!rs  on ?is   
e>? are n[ /riv+ to sil5ce !irs4 ,=     
,god's sake1 ,i  w\ld say to !m1 bew>e6 
,su* h>d5+ ( ! he>t aga9/ !  ,holy ,_s1 
su* ,god-murd]+ 7= x is ! wi% to kill   
,god1 &  to sil5ce ,8 voice = ev]7 is ! 
"o unp>donable s9 :i* is a  ?\s&-fold m 
awful 9 its consequ5ces ?an is ! crime  
:i* x  seeks to conceal4 ,x 0 ! f\le/   
/a9 on ! s\l ( him :o hung  by ! dy+    

,savi\r1 & x is1 ,i believe at ?is      
mom5t1 ! "o &  only ?+ :i* /ill keeps   
,hell ,hell1 & ,satan ,satan4    ,mu/ ,i
 write fur!r ( ! torture-?roes ( t awful
 mom5t1 :5  ,i fir/ saw my s9 9 its true
 light8 ,god only kn[s h[ ev5 n[ ,i     
%udd] & %r9k at ! m]e ?\ght ( x2 b ,i h 
told y (  my crime1 & x is "r t ,i %\ld 
speak also ( my puni%m5t4  ,i rememb] t 
:5 ! realization ( :at ,i 01 & :at ,i _h
  done1 0 fir/ borne 9 ^u me1 ,i fell to
 ! gr\nd & wri!d &  %riek$ 9 agony4 ,!  
tortures ( a mat]ial hell1--( a ?\s&    
mat]ial hells1--,i w\ld h endur$ )      
joyfulness c\ld su*  torture h dr[n$ =  
"o mom5t ! ?\ght-angui% t tore me4      
,nay1 m]e physical suff]+--physical     
suff]+ met$ out to me z  puni%m5t1 & 9  
:i*1 ?\gh x 7 p[]less to expiate1 ,i    
c\ld  at lea/ p>ticipate by endur+--,i  
w\ld h welcom$ ) deliri\s  gladness1 b (
 su* relief or div]sion ( ?\ght !re 0   
none4  ,f ! m]e m5tion ( annihilation--!
 p]sonal annihilation (  s\l & body1 (  
?\ght & s5sation--,i _h ev] %runk )     

abject  loa?+ & dread2 b to             
annihilation1 _h x be5 !n )9 my  rea*1  
,i w\ld h f\ght my way ?r\gh a ?\s&     
devils4 ,b 9  hell !re is no escape     
?r\gh annihilation2 suicide1 ! la/      
refuge  ( tyrann\s & c[>dly despair1 is 
( none avail1      ,& dea? once dead    
!re's no m dy+ !n4    ,:at _h to be     
endur$ ,i f\nd mu/ be endur$1 & t unto !
  utt]mo/1 = 9 all horrid hell !re 0 no 
nook or cranny into  :i* ,i c\ld creep  
to hide myself f ! hide\s spectres ( !  
pa/4 ,i rememb] t ,i rose up 9 my       
despair1 & /ret*+ va9  h&s to ! impot5t 
heav5s1 %riek$ out z only "o c %riek :o 
is torn by hell-torture & despair4 ,i   
fell to ! gr\nd & wri!d  & foam$ 9      
convulsive & bloody agony4 ,i dug my    
cruel nails deep  into my burn+         
eyeballs1 & te>+ ^? eyeballs f _! t5d]  
sockets1 flung !m ble$+ f me2 b n ?us   
c\ld ,i bl9d myself  to ! sights ( hell1
 nor c\ld m]e physical pa9 wipe out f my
  bra9 ! picture ( ! ru9 ,i _h wr\ght4  
,& !n--b no1 ,i am sick1 ,i am ill1 ,i  

am fa9t+2 ,i _c1 ,i  _c write m4        
,illu/ration          ,illu/ration      
,,*apt] ,,vii4    ,,%[s ,,! ,,fitness   
,,( ,,my ,,puni%m5t4     ,b !re w come  
ano!r era1 :5 x %all be light1 & :5 man 
%all awak5 f 8 l(ty dreams & f9d 8      
dreams /ill !re1   & t no?+ is gone save
 8 sleep4--,jean ,paul4--,preface to    
,hesp]us4      ,! foll[+ p>agraph is    
tak5 f a di>y :i* ,i kept be=e my       
decease4 ,i w expla9 lat] on my reason =
 giv+ ! extract  "h3--    ,x has be5    
said t no man c realize to ! full !     
c]ta9ty (  8 own dissolution2 t ea*     
ackn[l$ges ! inevitability ( dea?  9    
reg>d to o!rs & to ! race1 b *]i%es a   
secret conviction  t he himself w1 ?r\gh
 "s /range & un=ese5 circum/ance1  prove
 ! solit>y exception4    ,( ! tru? ( ?is
 ass]tion z a g5]al rule1 ,i _c (  c\rse
 speak1 b ,i "k t ,i at lea/ h nev] s   
?\ght4 ,on  ! contr>y1 !re are mom5ts :5
 dea? 7by :i* ,i d n mean  annihilation1
 b ! dy+ into life7 seems ! only c]ta9ty
 !re  is be=e me1 all else be+ %ad[y &  

unreal4 ,i am a *ild (  et]nity dream+ !
 dream ( "t1 & ev5 :ile ,i dream ,i am  
half  awake & "k t ,i am b dream+4 ,life
 is to me--n poetically  only1 b        
positively--a dream & unsub/antial4 ,!  
_w is a dream1  ?+s & p]sons are b      
dreams1 & exi/ = me only 9 my ?\ghts  ( 
!m4 ,my self-consci\sness becomes awake1
 & ,i look 9 & d[n  ^u myself ) a wond] 
z fre% & novel z if ! my/]y ( my  own   
exi/5ce _h nev] caus$ me wond] or       
surprise be=e4 ,i /ret*  out my h&1 z an
 infant does1 & op5 & %ut ! f+]s1 & ask 
myself :o ,i am & :at ,i am do+ "h4 ,i  
tell myself my "n1 & ,i  see t ! h&1 !  
body1 & ! clo!s t ,i look d[n ^u h  a   
/rangely famili> aspect1 b ! "n conveys 
no mean+ to me1 !  famili>ity is b !    
famili>ity ( an (t-dream$ dream1 & is1  
,i  "k1 b ! sign t ,i am /ill dream+4   
,i look out ea* day ^u ! face ( ! e>? ) 
z mu* wond] &  surprise z if ,i 7 "s    
new-com] !reon1 & 7 op5+ my eyes  ^u x =
 ! fir/ & only "t4 ,^u ,london & ! life 
( x1  ?\gh ,i pass$ half my days )9 !   

s\nd ( ,/4 ,paul's1 ,i gaze &  wond] z  
^u "s dream-pageant1 ) ev]-increas+ awe4
 ,i look  up ^u t ample dome1           
l>ge-loom+1 & brood+ l a ,pres5ce  a?w>t
 ! skies1 until its surr\nd+s & itself &
 ^? :o come  & g 9 ! /reets are to me z 
unsub/antial z 'a city vision$ 9  a     
dream4'    ,s supremely consci\s am ,i  
at su* times t                          
',we are su* /uff    ,z dreams are made 
(1 & our little life    ,is r\nd$ ) a   
sleep1'    t 7 ,i1 :ile ?is mood is on  
me1 to op5 my eyes "o morn+ &  f9d t all
 ?is pres5t _w & its dream-creations _h 
pass$  away = ev]1 !re w\ld h>dly /ir 9 
my he>t "o mom5t>y  ?rill ( surprise1 = 
,i %\ld b sigh & say1 ',ah1 !n1 at la/  
x has come1 & n[ ,i am asleep no long]6'
    ,:at ! awak5$ life = :i* ,i am wait+
 w be l1 ,i "k n  consci\sly1 b some?+  
!re is )9 me t does "k1 & t  has a dumb 
in>ticulate k ( x1 l ! memory ( a dream 
:i* we h n all =gott51 yet _c all       
recall4 ,t x w  be ,life1 ,i am sure--a 
life :i* ?\gh orb+ 9 ampl] cycle &  va/]

 sweep ?an ?is life1 is yet on "o & !   
same plane ) x1  & 9 no way sep>ate &   
di/9ct4 ,nay1 ev5 n[ ?is dream-_w  w\ld 
seem to be surr\nd$ & insph]$ by ! wak+ 
"o1 ev5 z  '"t is b a p>5!sis 9         
et]nity2' = !re are realities 9  ?is    
unreal exi/5ce1 fl[]s & faces1 love &   
poetry1 & !  morn+ & ev5+ skies1 :i* h  
to me no "p 9 ?is p]i%able  _w1 b :i*   
'torm5t me ev] ) invitations to _! own  
inaccessible home4'    ,i h transcrib$  
?is extract f my e>li] di>y1 n because  
,i  ?9k !re is any?+ 9 x wor?           
pres]vation1 b because ,i believe  x v  
aptly illu/rates ! suitability ( !      
puni%m5t met$ out  to me 9 hell to my   
own peculi> temp]am5t4 ,i 0 "o ( ^? :o  
liv$ only 9 ?\ght4 ,! _w is a dream1 ,i 
said1 ?+s &  p]sons are b dreams1 & exi/
 = me only 9 my ?\ght ( !m4  ,h5ce to   
make my puni%m5t a ?\ght1 to confront me
 ) ! memory  ( my crime & ( its         
consequ5ces1 & to leave me ?us          
hell-haunt$  by ! cry ( an awak5$       
consci5ce1 0 to inflict a torm5t ^u me  

a ?\s&-fold m t]rible ?an mat]ial pa94  
,to ^?1 h[ev]1 :o ?9k ) ,he9e1 t m5tal  
torture is m  easily to be endur$ ?an   
physical pa91 ,i h a ^w to say4 ,:5 ,i  
0 9 hell1 ,i saw !re ! s\ls ( m5 & wom5 
:om ,i _h kn[n 9  life1 & ,i le>nt      
some?+ ( ! nature ( _! suff]+s4 ,unlike 
my own1 t puni%m5t 01 9 _m cases1 n     
m5tal b physical2  & to ^? :o are       
incapable ( realiz+ :at agony a ?\ght  c
 br+1 let me say t hell has too its     
bodily puni%m5t1 &  puni%m5t f :i* !re  
is no escape4          ,illu/ration     
,,*apt] ,,viii4    ,,make ,,an          
,,unexpect$ ,,discov]y ,,9 ,,hell1 ,,&  
,,meet ,,) ,,an ,,old  ,,acqua9tance4   
,! s]vants said unto ,him1 ,wilt ,?\ !n 
t we g & ga!r   !m up8 ,b ,he said1     
,nay2 le/ :ile ye ga!r up ! t>es1 ye    
root up also ! :eat ) !m4 ,let bo? gr[  
toge!r until !   h>ve/4--,matt4 xiii4   
#bh1 #bi1 #cj4      ,i come n[ to :at ,i
 ?9k is ! /range/ "p ( my /ory4 ,:5  any
 "o dies1 ,i _h be5 told 9 *ildhood1 he 
goes to "o or !  o!r ( two places--ei!r 

to hell or to heav5--accord+ to :e!r  he
 has be5 a good or bad man1 & ,i        
recollect be+ n a little  tr\bl$ 9 my   
*ildi% m9d z to :at became ( ! p ^:     
virtues 7 ab\t equally mat*$ ) _! vices 
7z ,i _h ev5 !n  discov]$ 0 n seldom !  
case71 & ^: *ances betwe5 hell &  heav5 
7 :at we us$ to call 9 my s*oolboy days 
7,i d n say x  irrev]5tly7 a toss-up4   
,ev5 ,god mu/ be puzzl$ sometimes1 ,i   
us$ to ?9k to myself1 to  "k :at to d ) 
! folk :o are n wick$ en\gh = hell1 b  a
 little too bad = heav54 ,once aft] ,i  
_h be5 tak5 to he> a  long evangelical  
s]mon1 ,i ?\ght ,i saw a way out ( !    
difficulty by  assum+ t :5 ,god weigh$ a
 man 7,i use ! phraseology ( !  s]mon   
ref]r$ to1 & ,i rememb] t n be+ cle> z  
to h[ mu*  ( ! language 0 figurative or 
o!rwise ,i _h an idea t s\ls  really 7  
weigh$ 9 "s sort ( cele/ial balance7 &  
f\nd him  want+1 ,he turn$ ! scale 9 !  
s9n]'s fav\r by p\r+ 9  "s ( ! blood (  
,*ri/4 ,i c recall1 too1 t = a day or   
two  ,i w5t ab\t fancy+ myself q a      

juv5ile !ologian1 until !  conviction t 
ev5 ,god mu/ draw ! l9e some:]e1 set me 
?9k+  t a good _m folk w\ld ?us be      
consign$ to ! bad place =  do+ t :i* 0  
only a v little m wick$ ?an 0 done by   
^? :o 7 admitt$ to ! good "o4    ,my    
ideas ab\t hell & heav51 ev5 at ! "t (  
my dea?1 7  n v cle> & n v _m1 al?\gh ,i
 d n ?9k !y 7  m cl\dy & less practical 
?an are ! ideas ent]ta9$ ^u !  subject  
by o!r folk4 ,i _h be5 br\ght up 9 all !
 old-fa%ion$  or?odox & scriptural      
notions1 & go+ to heav5 0 z  insep>able 
9 my m9d f upw>d motion ( "s sort z go+ 
to  hell 0 ) d[nw>d motion4 ,ea* ( !    
places 0 a sep>ate  & di/9ct "o--! =m]  
be+ situat$1 accord+ to my belief1      
some:]e 9 ! direction ( ! z5i?1 :ile !  
latt] ,i localiz$  9 ! b[els ( ! e>?1 & 
connect$ 9 my ?\ghts ) fire &  d>kness4 
,n[ let me give ! results ( my          
exp]i5ces1 premis+  only t 9 reg>d to   
:at ,i h to say ab\t ! aft] life1 x  mu/
 be und]/ood t ,i am speak+ only ( t    
ante-*amb] ( !  _s-_w--t 9 "s s5se      

purgatory1 z ,i am half incl9$ to  hold 
x--into :i* ,i h _h admittance4    ,my  
exp]i5ces1 !n1 are briefly ^!4 ,! good &
 ! bad are n  p>t$1 b exi/ toge!r z !y  
exi/ "h1 & heav5 & hell z  sep>ate      
places h no exi/5ce4    ,i w tell y h[  
,i fir/ came to discov] ?is4 ,i h said t
  aft] my *ange 79 ! _s-_w t :i* we call
 dea? is  spok5 ( z ! *ange7 ,i awoke to
 f9d myself 9 hell1 & ,i  ought p]haps  
to add t ,i us$ ! ^w z indicat+ a /ate (
  m5tal or physical suff]+--9 my case ! 
=m]--& n ) any  local significance4     
,ev5 9 hell1 h[ev]1 !re are mom5ts :5 ! 
int5sity ( !  suff]+ is1 = a n>r[ space 
( "t at lea/1 relax$1 & :5  !           
angui%-/rick5 _s is m]cifully all[$ a   
tempor>y reprieve4  ,su* a mom5t occurr$
 aft] ! fir/ awful p>oxysm ( self-loa?+ 
& torture :i* ,i exp]i5c$ :5 my pa/ life
 0 made kn[n to  me 9 its true col\rs1 &
 x 0 9 ?is san]1 & comp>atively  pa9less
 int]val1 t ,i met 9 ! _s realm "o :om  
,i _h kn[n  & hon\r$ on e>? z a woman ( 
! pure/ life & "*4  ,be+ /ill "u !      

impression t ,i 0 9 hell 9 ! s5se 9  :i*
 ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to ?9k ( t place1 ,i
 />t$ back ^u  see+ h]1 & h>dly notic+  
h] words ( greet+1 cri$ out 9           
a/oni%m5t1 ,y "h6 ,y6 & 9 ,hades6       
,:]e else %\ld ,i be except :]e he is8  
%e answ]$ quietly1  add+1 z %e obs]v$ my
 look ( evid5t p]plexity1 ,x is ,ar?ur1 
( c\rse1 ( :om ,i speak4    ,i rememb]$ 
!n t :5 ,i _h kn[n h] fir/1 h] only liv+
  relative 0 a wor?less bro!r ( t "n1 to
 :om %e 0  passionately atta*$1 b :o _h 
be5 dead s long t ,i _h h>dly  any      
recollection ( him4 ,be=e ,i c\ld "q h] 
fur!r1 ,i suppose  %e saw some?+ 9 my   
face :i* told h] all t 0 necess>y  to be
 kn[n ( my own /ory1 = %e sudd5ly bur/  
into te>s1 &  tak+ bo? my h&s 9 h] own )
 a ge/ure ( compassionate grief1        
exclaim$1 ,=give me my fooli% & selfi%  
=getfulness6 ,oh1 ,i am  s1 s sorry6    
,x 0 f h] t ,i fir/ ga!r$ t ev5 = me !re
 0 yet  hope1 & x 0 f h] lips t ,i le>n$
 mu* ( t :i* ,i h  to tell ( ! _s-_w4   
,d y ?9k1 said %e to me1 :5 ,i _h aga9  

express$ my wond]  at f9d+ t heav5 &    
hell 7 n z ,i _h suppos$1 sep>ate       
places1 ,d y ?9k t ,i c\ld be happy     
any:]e sep>at$ f my  bro!r8 ,:y1 ev5    
,dives 9 ! p>able 0 unable to =get !    
five  bre?r5 he _h left beh9d him1 &    
cri$ out amid ! flames1 ask+  t ,laz>us 
might be s5t to w>n !m1 le/ !y too %\ld 
come to  t place ( torm5t4 ,is x likely1
 !n1 t any wife1 "m1 or  si/]1 wor?y !  
"n1 w\ld be cont5t to settle d[n        
idle-h&$ 9  heav5 kn[+ t a lov$ "o 0 9  
hell & 9 agony8 ,i "k !re  are folk on  
e>? :o try to smoo? out ! creases t crop
 up 9 !  cre$-roll ( _! convictions1 by 
ass]t+ t ! truly reg5]ate  s\l w        
unconditionally surr5d] ev]y?+ to ! w ( 
,god1  & t !y1 = _! "p1 are q prep>$ to 
leave ! fate  ( _! err+ fell[-creatures 
9 ! h&s ( ! ,creator4 ,i don't  say t !y
 are n "r 9 s speak+1 al?\gh1 z f> z ,i 
am  conc]n$1 ,i h m sympa?y ) old ,dives
 & 8 wi% to w>n 8  s9n+ bre?r54 ,b h[   
are we to "k :at is ! f9al w ( ,god  9  
reg>d to "o's fell[s8 ,:5 we are        

satisfi$ t a man :o has  fall5 into !   
wat] is dead1 we may n unnaturally      
conclude t  ! w ( ,god1 z f> z ?is _w is
 conc]n$1 is t he %\ld  come to an end  
by dr[n+1 & we mu/ b[ to t w2 b z long  
z we c see a 'kick' left 9 him1 we feel 
t we mu/ d all we c  to br+ him r\nd    
aga94 ,isn't t natural8    ,i suppose ,i
 mu/ h manife/$ "s surprise at !        
pla9ness ( h]  speak+1 = aft] glanc+ at 
me = a mom5t ) an amus$ smile1  & ) a   
tw9kle ( h] old hum\r 7,i mean t k9dly  
eye-tw9kl+  ( hum\r :i* is n f> remov$ f
 ! trickle ( a te>-drop1  & :i*1 = all  
h] piety1 _h be5 a noticeable elem5t 9  
h]  p]sonality71 %e said1 z if 9 reply  
to :at 0 9 my m9d1 ,no1 ,i  don't speak 
l a sanctifi$ _s1 d ,i8    ,i 0 a little
 tak5 aback by h] "q1 b answ]$ t ,i 0   
some:at surpris$ at ! homel9ess ( h]    
spee*1 b 0 glad to  f9d t dea? _h left  
h] old p]sonality unalt]$4    ,( c\rse x
 has1 %e answ]$1 my p]sonality is j !   
old  p]sonality ( my e>?-life1 & ,i %\ld
 n wi% x to be o!rwise4  ,to awak5 aft] 

! *ange1 :i* y call dea?1 only to f9d t 
"o's p]sonality _h be5 trans=m$ into t (
 ano!r p]son--no  matt] h[ excell5t t   
o!r p]son might be--w\ld n be           
immortality b transmutation4 ,b y 7 ab\t
 to ask me a "q  conc]n+ my bro!r be=e  
we got ^u ! subject ( p]sonality1  %e   
cont9u$2 y didn't put y\r "q into words1
 b y\r looks  express$ x1 & ?\ghts _c be
 conceal$ 9 ! _s-_w4    ,yes1 ,i said1  
,i _h a "q to ask y1 & x is ?is3 ,y  "k 
h[ surpris$ ,i 0 to f9d t heav5 & hell  
are n1 z ,i  suppos$1 sep>ate places4   
,n[ :at is ,god's reason = all[+ !  good
 & ! bad to exi/ toge!r "h1 z !y d on   
e>?8 ,is x  because ,he %r9ks f break+  
up ! old family-life 7z x mu/ be  brok51
 if "r-do]s & wrong-do]s be set ap>t71 &
 because ,he  w\ld /ill use ! influ5ce (
 ! good to reclaim ! evil8    ,ev5 t1 %e
 said1 ,i _c tell y1 = ,i am a m]e *ild 
9 ,8  k+dom4 ,i d "k t _m ( heav5's     
noble/ are engag$1 z ,i am1  9 /riv+ to 
/ir up s\ls to rep5tance2 b :e!r our    
ef=ts to  save ! s9n] f 8 s9 aft] dea?  

are ( any avail1 ,i _c  say positively1 
= x has n be5 giv5 me to "k4 ,we are    
told t  aft] ,8 dea? our crucifi$ ,"l   
prea*$ to ! spirits 9 prison2  & al?\gh 
! !ologians w expla9 x all away = y if y
  w let !m1 ,i believe t ,he came "h to 
hell 9 se>* ( !  s-call$ lo/1 & ,i don't
 ?9k ,i c be do+ any?+ oppos$ to  ,8 w1 
9 try+ all ,i c to save my bro!r4    ,:5
 y & ,i 7 on e>? toge!r1 %e cont9u$1    
aft] a pause1  y once s5t me a copy ( ! 
,contempor>y ,review1 conta9+  an       
article writt5 by ,dr4 ,knighton4 ,! "n 
( ! article 0  ',conv]sations )         
,c>lyle1' & ! writ] relat$ "o           
conv]sation  9 :i* ,i 0 v mu* int]e/$1 &
 :i* ,i h (t5 ?\ght (  s9ce4 ,i read x s
 _m times1 t ,i ?9k ,i c rememb] x ^w = 
^w4    ',i 0 go+ to tell y ab\t an      
,indian poem :i* "s "o s5t me           
translat$1' said ,c>lyle4 ',i ?9k x 0   
call$ ! ,mahab>at4 ,x  describes sev5   
sons z go+ (f to seek _! =tunes4 ,!y all
 g  diff]5t ways1 & six ( !m l& 9 hell  
aft] _m adv5tures4  ,! sev5? is ( nobl] 

se$2 he p]sev]es1 fights 8 way manfully 
?r\gh great trials4 ,8 fai?ful dog1 an  
ugly little mon/]1 b  v fai?ful1 dies at
 la/4 ,he1 himself1 fa9t+1 & well-nigh  
despair+1 meets an old man1 ,indra      
disguis$1 :o (f]s to op5 =  him ! gates 
( heav54 ,b :]e are my bro!rs8 he asks2 
are  !y !re8 ,no1 !y are all 9 hell4 ,!n
 ,i w g to hell too1  & /op ) !m1 unless
 y get !m out4 ,s say+1 he turns  (f &  
trudges away4 ,indra pities him1 & gets 
8 bro!rs out (  hell4 ,! six ent] heav5 
fir/1 ! sev5? /ops4 ,my poor fai?ful    
dog1 says he2 ,i w n leave him4 ,indra  
remon/rates1 b x is  useless4 ,! fai?ful
 dog1 ugly z he 01 is too well rememb]$1
  & he w n h p>adise )\t x4 ,he succe$s 
f9ally1 ,indra  rel5ts1 & lets ev5 ! dog
 94 ,b1 sir1' add$ ,c>lyle1 '!re is  m  
pa?os ab\t t dog ?an 9 a ?\s& ( our     
mod]n novels1  pa?os en\gh to make a man
 sit d[n & cry almo/4'    ,yes1 ,i said1
 ,i rememb] ! /ory well4 ,i wond] :at   
old ,c>lyle  w\ld say ab\t x n[8 ,h y   
ev] se5 him "h8 or ,em]son8 or  ,ri*t]8 

or ,rob]tson ( ,brighton8    ,rob]tson6 
%e answ]$2 z yet ,i "k only "o ( ! _m   
circles  into :i* ! _s-_w seems         
naturally to resolve x2 b ,i  suspect t 
if y & ,i c\ld see :]e ,rob]tson is1 we 
%\ld f9d  him inf9itely ne>] to !       
,fa!r-he>t ( ! univ]se ?an ,i at  lea/ c
 = c\ntless ages ev] hope to atta96     
,:at d y mean by 'circles'8 ,i said4 ,am
 ,i to und]/& t !re  is a k9d ( sift+ & 
sort+ process go+ on1 by :i* ea* human  
s\l is1 on its arrival "h1 assign$ a    
fitt+ place & level among  8 or h]      
spiritual fell[s8    ,i don't "k t ,i   
%\ld express x q 9 ^? words1 %e  answ]$1
 al?\gh ,i _c ?9k j n[ ( a less clumsy  
way (  putt+ x1 b !re is "s su* ga!r+ ( 
l to l z t (  :i* y speak4 ,! majority  
beg91 z we did1 9 ?is l[] circle1  &    
rema9 "h until !y are fitt$ to move     
onw>d to a high]  sph]e4 ,o!rs take a   
place 9 t high] sph]e imm$iately1 & "s  
few are l$ into ! ,holy ,pres5ce        
/raightway4 ,to die is n to close  !    
eyes on e>? m]ely to op5 !m ! next m9ute

 9 heav52 x  is n a sudd5 transition f  
d>kness to light1 or f light to         
d>kness4 ,no1 x is a sl[ & gradual      
awak5+1 = no human s\l  c\ld be> s sudd5
 a %ock4 ,y\r own transition 01         
comp>atively  speak+1 an exceptionally  
rapid "o1 b ,i "k ( "s :o h  be5 '*ang$'
 = a qu>t] ( a c5tury1 & are only n[    
becom+  consci\s ( ! fact4 ,( "o ?+ y   
may be c]ta91 & t is  t ,god is nev] 9 a
 hurry 9 ! education ( a human s\l4 ,he 
works  9 ?is _w z 9 ! natural "o1 n by  
fits & />ts & sudd5  convulsions1 b by  
sl[ & imp]ceptible developm5ts1 & none b
  ,himself kn[s :at ,he is go+ to make (
 u be=e ,he has done--if  inde$ ,he ev] 
w h done1 :i* ,i "q4 ,:atev] sph]e (  "w
 ,he may assign to u "h is ! "o = :i*   
,he has all along  be5 prep>+ u4 ,our   
,savi\r told ! disciples t 9 ,8 ,fa!r's 
h\se 7 _m mansions1 n "o big "o :]e !y 7
 all to dwell  toge!r1 b '_m mansions1' 
& t ,he w5t to prep>e a place =  !m2 & y
 may be positive t ,he w\ld n s h spok5 
7 n  "s individual prep>ation necess>y4 

,i d n "k 9 :i* ( ^! 'mansions ( ! ble/'
 ,fr$]ick  ,rob]tson1 ( :om y ask1 is n[
 dwell+1 b y mu/ n  ?9k because 8       
spiritual circle is f> remov$ f m9e t   
all communication & companion%ip are cut
 (f betwe5 u4 ,on !  contr>y1 he is (t51
 v (t51 "h1 & ,i h n seldom held        
s\l-communion ) him & felt 8 _s ne> to  
me4 ,?is circle1  h[ev]1 is b ! out]    
edge ( ! _s-_w--only "o /ep1  inde$1    
remov$ f ! life ( ! e>? & ( ! body--& ,i
 don't  ?9k we are capable yet ( und]/&+
 ! f9] di/9ctions (  spiritual          
companion%ip4 ,& !n h] voice seem$ to   
s\nd to me l  ! voice ( "o 9 ! f>       
di/ance1 ,i felt ! d>kness clos+ 9  ^u  
me on e side1 & knew t my h\r ( puni%m5t
 0 aga9 at  h&4    ,^u ! details ( t    
puni%m5t x w\ld s]ve no good purpose    
aga9 to dwell1 & if 9 ! next two or ?ree
 *apt]s ,i make only  a pass+ allusion  
to my subsequ5t suff]+s 9 ,hades1 !     
read]  mu/ und]/& t x is n because ^?   
suff]+s _h 9 any way  ceas$ to be1 b    
because ,i wi% to put m prom95tly =w>d !

  s+ul> facts 9 reg>d to ! condition (  
o!rs1 :i* came to my  k dur+ ! "t ( my  
soj\rn+ 9 ! _s-_w4 ,t  ^! facts 7 n )\t 
_! own influ5ce 9 br++ ab\t  ! *ange 9  
myself1 h]eaft] to be describ$1 w1 ,i   
?9k1 be  app>5t to all1 b t *ange ,i    
%all n attempt to trace out1 /ep  by    
/ep1 to its ultimate developm5t4 ,x is (
 :at ,i saw & he>d1  r ?an ( :at ,i     
endur$1 t ,i n[ come to speak1 & al?\gh 
my recollections are all too disconnect$
 & fragm5t>y ,i give ^?  recollections j
 z !y /ill l+] 9 my memory1 & )\t       
attempt+ to foll[ too closely ! n>rative
 ( my own p]sonal  do+s 9 ,hades4       
,illu/ration          ,illu/ration      
,,*apt] ,,ix4    ,i ,,see ,,"s ,,/range 
,,sights ,,9 ,,hell1 ,,& ,,am ,,fav\r$  
,,) ,,some?+ ,,9  ,,! ,,nature ,,( ,a   
,,s]mon4      ,!y eat1 & dr9k1 & s*eme1 
& plod1      ,!y g to *ur* on ,sunday2  
,& _m are afraid ( ,god1      ,& m (    
,mrs4 ,grundy4      ,x is a long "t ago 
s9ce ,religion fir/ took to prea*+ at ! 
,_w1 & n[ at la/ ! ,_w has gr[n we>i$ ( 

x1 & has  tak5 9 h] turn to prea*+ at   
,religion2 & 9 ?is v]se by ,mr4         
,lock]-,lampson %e has a text :i* is    
/]nly1 tr5*antly1 grimly  true 9 its    
satire4 ,i "k !re are folk :o affect to 
be sc&aliz$  at :at !y consid] an       
irrev]5ce1 b ,i = "o c recall no  s]mon 
9 :i* ! worldl9ess & ! wor?lessness ( _m
 s-call$  ,*ri/ians h receiv$ z t]rible 
a rebuke z !y h 9 ^!  l9es by a writ] ( 
v]s de socit4    ,i w tell y :y ,i h    
introduc$ ?is topic into my di>y4 ,:5   
,i 0 9 hell1 ,i saw "o !re :om1 save = 8
 av]t$ looks &  pitiable endeav\rs to   
escape my obs]vation1 ,i %\ld probably h
  pass$ unnotic$4 ,he 0 "o ( ^? at :om !
 v]se ,i h quot$  is direct$4 ,8 pitfall
 9 life _h be5 no?+ m vici\s ?an        
vanity4 ,he 0 a c[>d :o 0 s bl9d 9 8    
c[>dice t he  fe>$ ,god less ?an he fe>$
 ,mrs4 ,grundy1 & :o1 9 ord] to  secure 
! approval ( man1 _h n scrupl$ to d t   
:i* he knew  0 hateful to 8 ,mak]4 ,8   
life _h be5 a liv+ lie4 ,love (         
approbation 0 s /rong 9 him t he 0 nev] 

happy except 9  p]petually pos+ & 9     
endeav\r+ to pass himself (f = t  :i* he
 knew he 0 n4 ,& ) :at result8 ,t he _h 
sp5t 8  days 9 prep>+ = himself 8       
puni%m5t4 ,! "o & only aim (  8 exi/5ce 
_h be5 to w9 ! approval ( o!rs1 &1 lo6  
"o  morn+ he awoke 9 ,hades to f9d      
himself ! despis$ ( ! despis$  & !      
laugh+ /ock ( ! v ,devil4 ,he _h s p&]$ 
to 8  love ( approbation t x _h gr[n at 
la/ into a disease1 & ,i saw  few m     
pitiable sights 9 my w&]+s ?an t ( ?is  
wret*$  creature1 sl9k+ %amefac$ly ?r\gh
 hell1 & w9c+1 z f a  bl[1 at ! glance (
 e pass]4    ,( all vices none is s     
v9dictive to its wret*$ victim z vanity4
  ,x is cont9ually crav+ = ! :]e)al to  
gratify its insatiate  appetite1 :il/   
gr[+ b ! hungri] = a meal4 ,! v         
clamor\sness ( its dem&s n seldom       
defeats its own purpose1 =  soon] or    
lat] x is sure to be discov]$1 & none ( 
u hon\r  ! man :om we suspect ( jump+ to
 ga9 our good op9ion4 ,( !  p[] :i*     
vanity may acquire ov] a human s\l ,i   

read lately an awful  in/ance4 ,we are  
told t ! la/ emotion visible on ! face (
  ,pranz9i1 ! ,fr5* murd]]1 z he /ood   
wait+ to be despat*$  into et]nity1 0 a 
simp] ( gratifi$ vanity 7& :at %>e      
vanity  _h 9 br++ him to t scaffold only
 ,he :o reads all he>ts  c tell7 at be+ 
! prom95t object ( int]e/ to s l>ge &   
di/+ui%$ an assembly4 ,& t z he 0 ab\t  
to /ep ) blood  ^u 8 s\l into ! pres5ce 
( ! ,great ,av5g]6           99       99
       99       99       99    ,m5      
create _! ,god aft] _! own image1 says  
,mr4 ,/ig& 9 8  ,life ( ,he9e2 & x is a 
fact t ! conception ( ,god *anges  ) !  
mann]s & morals ( a p4 ,to our ,puritan 
=efa!rs  ,he 0 a j b awful ,judge1 :o1 f
 ,8 home 9 ! va/ abysses  ( space1 kept 
an unw9k+ wat* ^u u1 ,8 creatures1 &1 ) 
eyes ( telescopic m9ut5ess1 not$ e brea*
 ( ,8 comm&m5ts1  9 ord] t ,he might    
visit x ) a fi]y & fe>ful v5geance4  ,t 
man-creat$ ,god is no m3 ,he is dead1 & 
ano!r ,god reigns  9 ,8 /ead2 b 9 our   
natural reaction f ! conception ( !     

v9dictive ,god ( pa/ g5]ations1 we h    
come1 9 ^! days1 to  lose sight ( ! fact
 t our ,god is a *a/5+ "o4 ,n only h  we
 turn$ a deaf e> to ! ?und]s & ! ?reats 
( old-fa%ion$  or?odoxy1 ) its talk (   
ev]la/+ puni%m5t & lakes (  brim/one1 b 
_m ( u pooh-pooh ! ?\ght ( a hell at    
all1  & speak ( ,god z ?\gh ,he 7 a     
good-natur$ & weakly-indulg5t  p>5t1 on 
^: l5i5cy we might lightly presume1     
=gett+ t  s9--unrep5t$ s9--nev] c & nev]
 mu/ g unpuni%$4    ,x 0 9 ?is          
contemptu\sly indiff]5t way t "o :om ,i 
knew  well on e>? 0 accu/om$ to speak4  
,he 0 a man ( free & op5  disposition1 )
 a p]fect g5ius = fri5d%ip1 b 8 life    
w\ld  n be> too close an inquiry4 ,i    
rememb] 8 be+ w>n$ 9 my  pres5ce ( !    
puni%m5t :i* mu/ await ! c\rse he 0     
pursu+1  & 8 answ]+1 z ,i _h (t5 he>d   
him answ] be=e1 t ev5  if he 7 on ! road
 to hell 7if1 inde$1 su* a place exi/$1 
:i* he 0 incl9$ to d\bt71 he _h at lea/ 
! consolation (  kn[+ t pl5ty ( o!r good
 fell[s 7 b\nd = ! same  de/9ation1 & t 

he 0 q sure t he %\ld feel m at  home   
among ! s9n]s 9 hell ?an he %\ld among !
 sa9ts 9  heav54    ,well1 :5 ,i 0 9    
hell1 ,i saw a sight !re :i* is wor?    
record+  z an example ( ! +5uity ( !    
,devil 9 apportion+ to ea*  p]son !     
puni%m5t be/ fitt$ to 8 individual case4
 ,i say (  ! ,devil1 because ,i le>n$ t 
he has a "p 7"u c]ta9  re/rictions & by 
,div9e p]mission7 9 ! imposition (      
necess>y  *a/isem5t1 & he is !re=e an   
unwitt+ work] 9 ! k+dom (  heav54 ,he   
has inde$ be5 su* a work] f ! beg9n+1 = 
9  spite ( 8 s]p5t-l cunn+ & subtlety1  
he 0 ! fir/ fool1  & w be ! la/4 ,!     
ackn[l$g$ & anci5t enemy ( ,god1 he is  
& has be5 play+ into ! h&s ( ! ,almighty
 = ages1 & among  all fools none is s   
simple a fool z he4    ,! sight1 !n1 to 
:i* ,i h ref]r$ 0 t ( a desolate pla91  
l[-ly+ & unlight$1 & 9 ! c5tre ( x !re  
roam$ "o :o  call$ out ev] & anon1 z if 
9 se>* ( a companion1 b to :om  !re came
 no answ] save ! di/ant e*o ( 8 own cry4
 ,a m  lonely & lifeless spot ,i h nev] 

se54 ,! sil5ce :i* brood$  ov] ! place  
seem$ sometimes to oppress ! =sak5 w&]] 
l a  pres5ce1 =1 ) a half-affright$ &   
despair+ cry1 he set (f at  a           
panic-/rick5 run1 z if seek+ to escape  
?is sil5ce by flight2  b1 not)/&+ 8     
ha/e1 he made1 ,i obs]v$1 no progress1 =
  he 0 b mov+ r\nd & r\nd 9 "o cont9u\s 
r+4 ,( ?is1  h[ev]1 he seem$ unaw>e2 =  
once1 :5 he pass$ ne> me1 ,i he>d  him  
cry out z if 9 despair1 ,is !re no liv+ 
s\l 9 all ?is void  & voiceless des]t8  
,&1 z he hurri$ by1 & ,i caught a sight 
(  8 face1 ,i saw t x 0 ! face ( ! man  
:o _h said t hell  w\ld n be hell to him
 s long z he & 8 boon companions 7      
toge!r4           99       99       99  
99       99    ,ano!r =m] acqua9tance t 
,i met !re int]e/$ me ev5 m4  ,he 0 a   
man :om ,i _h always reg>d$ z deeply    
religi\s1 & 8  pres5ce 9 hell 7by :i* ,i
 mean z "o :o 0 und]go+ puni%m5t7  0 to 
me ! great] cause = surprise4    ,:at is
 x1 ,i said to him1 t br+s y "h8 n      
impurity1  surely8 & ,i _c ?9k ( any o!r

 reason4    ,no1 he answ]$1 x is n      
impurity1 = t 0 nev] "o ( my  fail+s4   
,to ?is day1 ,i am unable to und]/& !   
reli% ) :i*  mo/ "y m5 7& occasionally1 
be x said ) %ame1 ^? :o  are n "y7 li/5 
to ! k9d ( conv]sation :i* is curr5t    
sometimes 9 ! smok+-room4 ,we hold our  
h&k]*iefs to our noses  :5 we pass a    
place :]e !re is an unpleasant od\r1 &  
turn  ha/ily away if we come ^u a       
repulsive sight2 & impure talk affects  
me always z does a disgu/+ object or a  
nause\s smell4    ,y are surpris$ at    
f9d+ me "h 9 hell1 because y h always   
believ$ me to be "o :o ?\ght mu* & felt 
deeply on religi\s  subjects4 ,b y =get 
t to h religi\s feel+1 & to act  ^u     
religi\s pr9ciple1 are 9 _m ways di/9ct4
 ,!re are m5 :o1  ?\gh !y are naturally 
incapable ( l(ty ?\ght1 w\ld scorn to  d
 any?+ immoral or mean2 &1 on ! o!r h&1 
!re are m5 :o  feel int5sely on all     
religi\s subjects1 :o pray f]v5tly &    
(t51  s+ hymns ) eyes /ream+ ) te>s (   
he>tfelt e>ne/ness1  & yet _! actions   

are n seldom unwor?y1 & _! lives w  n   
be> too close an inquiry4 ',!re is no   
self-delusion m fatal1'  z ,mr4 ,l[ell  
has said1 '?an t :i* makes ! consci5ce  
dreamy  ) ! anodyne ( l(ty s5tim5t1 :ile
 ! life is grovell+ &  s5sual4' ,x is a 
delusion :i* bids a man close 8 eyes le/
 he see  :]e he is go+2 x comes to him )
 its h>lot-beauties da9tily  drap$ 9 !  
robes ( an angel ( light1 & s+s hymns   
be=e !  v gates ( hell4 ,x is because ,i
 am "o :o s delud$1 or :o  tri$ s to    
delude himself1 t y & ,i meet "h to-day4
 ,we set  out toge!r ) ! broad pa? & !  
n>r[ pa? be=e u4 ,y1  by "o fatal &     
irrevocable /ep1 sw]v$ to ! broad pa? f 
! n>r[1 & t s+le /ep plung$ y headlong &
 hopeless  into ?is abyss4 ,& ,i1 well1 
,i appe>$ to myself & to o!rs to  be    
walk+ 9 ! n>r[ way2 & yet1 by ! mak+ (  
cont9ual  div]g5ces1 s trifl+ z to seem 
( b little or no acc\nt1 ,i  f9d myself 
ev5tually 9 ! same awful abyss t y are  
91 &  on a level fully z loa?some z y\r 
own4 ,?\gh ,i h committ$ no  su* crime z

 y h committ$1 ,i 01 9 ! petty details (
 my  daily life1 habitually untrue2 & s 
! "t came at la/1 9 :i*1  ) e desire to 
s]ve ,god fai?fully & to foll[ !        
dictates  ( consci5ce1 ,i f\nd t ! p[]  
to make my w subs]vi5t to  my wi%es _h  
slipp$ unnotic$ f me4 ,habit has ! /r5g?
 ( a  giant1 = good z well z = evil1 & !
 w to d "r on e  occasion is z mu* a    
matt] ( tra9+ z is m]e physical /r5g?4  
,! man :o is habitually untrue 9 small  
?+s1 _c1 ev5 ?\gh  he wi% x1 d "r 9     
great ones1 any m ?an ! man ( untra9$   
muscle c1 by a m]e ex]cise ( volition1  
lift weights :i* w\ld  try ! practis$   
a?lete4 ,! only way 9 :i* to become     
,*ri/like  is n to endeav\r to feel s1 n
 to seek to ar\se s5tim5t or  emotion 7z
 drunk>ds fly = /r5g? to /imulants71 b  
to make  ,*ri/l9ess ! p]si/5t &         
unconditional habit ( our lives4 ,we    
mu/ le>n day by day to resi/ ! fir/ ris+
 ( a desire to d1  or to say1 or to ?9k1
 t :i* we "k div]ges by ! hundr$?  "p ( 
an in* f ! pa? :i* consci5ce w\ld h u to

 walk2  & we mu/ s s*ool ourselves t we 
c1 by %e] =ce ( w1  rise above ! mood ( 
! mom5t1 s t we act n by impulse or by  
incl9ation1 b by consci5ce4    ,he      
/opp$1 &1 read+ my ?\ghts1 said1 9 reply
 to !m3 ,yes1  !re is1 inde$1 some?+    
grimly humor\s 9 my sett+ up to  prea*  
to o!rs2 b x co/ me my hope ( heav51 & a
 lifetime1  to le>n ! lesson1 & ,god    
kn[s ,i h x by he>t at la/6 ,"o  m      
illu/ration & ,i h done4 ,let u suppose 
t y & ,i are  /&+ on ! deck ( a %ip :i* 
is /e]+ /raight = a c]ta9  hav51 & t y  
put y\r h& on ! helm & %ift h] a        
fraction  ( an in* f ! l9e on :i* %e is 
runn+4 ,! angle at :i*  y h sw]v$ f t   
l9e may be s utt]ly inf9itesimal t x    
might be measur$ by a hair's bread?1 b  
let t angle be c>ri$  out to its        
ultimate de/9ation1 & y w be borne miles
 & miles  away f ! h>b\r = :i* y are    
b\nd4    ,rememb]1 !n1 :5 next y are    
call$ ^u to make *oice1 be  x 9 nev] s  
trifl+ a matt]1 betwe5 good & evil1     
betwe5  obey+ consci5ce or disobey+ h]1 

t y are *oos+ 9 t  mom5t betwe5 hell &  
betwe5 heav51 n = to-day1 ?is week1 or  
to-morr[1 b = et]nity6    ,illu/ration  
,illu/ration          ,,*apt] ,x4    ,a 
,,love ,,/ory ,,9 ,,hell4      ,& %all  
my s5se pi]ce love1--! la/ relay    ,&  
ultimate outpo/ ( et]nity8--,d4,g4      
,rossetti4      ,"s ye>s ago1 a ne>     
relative ( m9e1 ! editor ( a c]ta9 pap]1
  0 tak5 s]i\sly ill1 & 0 told by !     
doctors t complete  re/ 0 absolutely    
necess>y = 8 recov]y4 ,z ,i _h frequ5tly
  assi/$ him 9 ! prep>ation ( copy1 & 0 
acqua9t$ ) !  r\t9e ( 8 (fice1 x 0      
arrang$ t ,i %\ld att5d on c]ta9  days 9
 ea* week1 & be answ]able = ! "w dur+ 8 
abs5ce4  ,! j\rnal 0 "o :i* 0 made up   
l>gely ( extracts f o!r  pap]s1 & my    
duties consi/$ less 9 ! selection (     
orig9al  matt]1 ?an 9 ! m prosaic ply+ (
 pa/e-bru% & scissors2  b ! numb] (     
manuscripts receiv$ 0 l>ge1 & = a week  
or two  at lea/ ,i tri$ consci5ti\sly to
 give ea* sep>ate packet some?+  l a    
fair consid]ation4 ,i rememb] t ! v fir/

 manuscript on  :i* ,i 0 call$ to       
pron\nce judgm5t 0 "o entitl$1 ,!       
,/range  ,confessions ( a ,ba*elor4 ,x  
is too l5g?y to be pr9t$ "h 9  full1 b z
 ! love-/ory f :i* my *apt] takes its   
head+  0 l>gely attributable to !       
publication ( ?is manuscript1 ,i h      
transcrib$ "s p>agraphs f x1 :i* ,i ?9k 
w s]ve to give  ! read] a g5]al idea (  
its tone4      ,! ,/range ,confessions (
 a ,ba*elor4    ,yes1 ,i am 9 love1     
al?\gh z yet ,i c\ld n tell :at ! "n (  
my love is or w be4 ,b 9 e inspir$ poem 
or p]fect picture1  9 ! so>+ & sobb+ (  
music1 9 sunrise & sunset1 or 9 !  sigh+
 ( ! w9d ^u my *eek1 !re is some?+ :i*  
speaks to  me ( h]1 & :i* beckons my _s 
=? 9 se>* ( h]1 z if by  ! lead+ ( an   
unse5 h&4 ,& sometimes1 b only 9 my     
dream+1  mus+ mom5ts1 my ?\ghts1 z !y   
w&] =? into ! blue expanse  ar\nd me1   
take col\r & %ape1 & ,i see h] /&+ by a 
t9y cot  9 a cosy room :]e ! w>m        
firelight flick]s on walls gay )        
pictures4 ,i see h] b5d ) eyes t brim ) 

te>s ( bless+ to  fold two dimpl$ h&s   
toge!r1 & to li/5 to a baby voice :i*   
:isp]s aft] h]s ! hall[$ words to ',our 
,fa!r 9 ,heav54' ,&  z ! little voice   
dies away into ! holy hu% ( ! la/ ,am51 
&  ! little lids droop l ! petals ( a   
primrose ov] ! tir$  eyes1 my           
dream-picture *anges aga91 & ,i am      
rambl+ among ! walks  ,i love s well1 b 
no long] alone1 no long] wrapt 9        
melan*oly  mus+ =--n[ trudg+ *e]ily     
along ) h& clasp$ fa/ 9 m9e  & face     
upturn$ to li/51 n[ d>t+ bird-l aside 9 
se>* (  fly or fl[]--!re j\rneys ev] )  
me my little son & h]s4 ,we  w&] m]rily 
?r\gh t sunny /ret* ( mead[--! *ildr5's 
mead[1 z we call x--:]e ! grass gr[s lu%
 & long1 & :]e  ! bli! day ?r\gh !      
skyl>k ev] s+s & so>s2 we cross !  /ile 
& ent] ! %ady %elt] ( ! ',lov]'s ,lane1'
 d>k1 z x  always is1 ) ! d5se gre5 (   
ov]>*+ a% & hazel1 & !n  we rea* t      
sunny1 w9d-swept & slop+ hillside1 :]e  
he & ,i  love to l+]1 wat*+ ! sl[ sail+ 
( /ately cl\ds above1 or  li/5+ to !    

t9kle & purl ( ! brooklet :i* ripples   
ov]  ! pebbles 9 ! valley f> bel[4 ,9 ! 
joy\s wond] ( ! *ild  he>t beside me at 
all t is beautiful 9 ?is beautiful _w1  
,i  =get ! books & ! mak+ ( books ) :i* 
my bra9 is busi$2  & :5 ! fir/ flu% (   
rapture is ov] & ! little bra9 has      
sob]$ into calm1 ,i tell my boy ( !     
,bro!r-,"l :o loves him1 &  :o 0 once   
su* a little *ild z he1 & ( ! de>       
,"l-,fa!r by  :om all t is beautiful 0  
made4    ,! writ] ( ! ,confessions !n   
goes on to speak ( love1 & (  ! woman he
 loves2 b z 8 conclud+ p>agraph w       
suffici5tly  s]ve to give an idea ( 8   
?\ghts on ! subject1 x is h>dly         
necess>y to quote ! passage 9 full4     
,yes1 ,i love h]1 ,i love h]  truly1 &  
%e too loves me1 or w4 ,x is n bl9d     
love1 or fooli%  idolatry4 ,%e kn[s all 
my faults--! pitiful paltr9ess ( my     
life1  ! selfi% acts & fooli% words1 !  
vanity & ! vice--%e kn[s  !m all1 & yet 
%e loves me1 me1 n !m1 b ! true me :i*  
^! faults _c altoge!r conceal f h]1 = %e

 kn[s t  !y are n my life1 b ! tr\ble ( 
x4 ,s also is my love =  h]4 ,i love h] 
n only = h] pres5t self1 b = ! sake ( ! 
self %e is seek+ to be--! self :i* 9 "s 
measure inde$ %e  n[ is2 = t :i* 9 our  
tru] mom5ts we h /riv5 to be2 !  ,ideal 
^u :i* our eyes are ev] fix$1 to :i* 7no
 matt] h[  sorely we may h s9n$ aga9/ x 
9 ! /ruggle ( ! day7 our  ?\ghts return 
at night ) b ! m unutt]able if despair+ 
long+ & love--t 9 "s mann] we are1 &    
%all be1  not)/&+ our ev]-recurr5t      
failure & s94    ,i d n ask or expect t 
%e %all be always true to h] high       
ideal1 = ,i "k t to none ( u is x giv5  
to walk )  unfalt]+ feet4 ,i rememb]1   
too1 t %e is no angel1 b a woman  )     
womanly weakness & human faults1 = all (
 :i* ,i am t\*$  ) true & t5d] sympa?y1 
to love h] n ! less1 b ! m4  ,b t %e    
%\ld h su* an ideal1 & be capable ( su* 
an  aim--= t reason1 if = no o!r1 ,i mu/
 love & hon\r h] )  ! deepe/ love &     
hon\r ( my s\l4 ,i am n s bl9d z to     
suppose  x w be all summ] & sun%9e 9 !  

life :i* %e & ,i w1 ,i  hope1 "o day    
lead toge!r4 ,i "k my own evil nature   
too well n to  be aw>e t !re w be times 
:5 %e w f9d x h>d to prev5t  love be+   
turn$ into loa?+ & confid5ce into       
contempt2 & ,i  ?9k1 ) s9k+ ( _s1 ( !   
sore disappo9tm5t %e w feel  :5 %e f9ds 
:at a %abby-s\l$ common-place creature  
h] husb&  is1 comp>$ ) ! be+ into :om h]
 love _h idealiz$ him4 ,at  su* times ( 
despond5cy1 h[ev]1 ,i try to rememb] :at
 ,miss ,mulo*  has said ab\t w$d$       
life--& :o has writt5 m helpful words   
?an  %e8 ',i w\ld h e woman m>ry1' %e   
says1 'n m]ely lik+ a  man well en\gh to
 accept him z a husb&1 b lov+ him s     
:olly  t1 w$d$ or n1 %e feels %e is at  
he>t 8 wife1 & none  o!r's1 to ! end (  
h] life4 ,s fai?ful t %e c see all 8    
little faults 7?\gh %e takes c>e no "o  
else %all see !m71 yet  w\ld z soon ?9k 
( lov+ him ! less = ^!1 z ( ceas+ to    
look up to heav5 because !re are a few  
cl\ds 9 ! sky4 ,s true  & s fond t %e   
ne$s nei!r to vex him ) h] con/ancy nor 

burd5 him ) h] love1 s9ce bo? are       
self-exi/5t & entirely  indep5d5t (     
any?+ he gives or takes away4 ,?us %e w 
m>ry  nei!r f lik+ nor e/eem1 nor       
gratitude = 8 love1 b f  ! fulness ( h] 
own4 ,if !y nev] m>ry1 z sometimes      
happ5s 444  ,god w cause !m to meet 9 ! 
next exi/5ce4 ,!y _c be  p>t$2 !y belong
 to "o ano!r4'    ,^! are helpful words1
 & true2 b !re is a passage by poor     
,george ,eliot 7alas = t adjective671   
:i* to me is /ill m  beautiful1 & ) :i* 
,i _c d bett] ?an conclude4 ',:at       
great] ?+ is !re1' %e says1 '= two human
 s\ls1 ?an to feel  t !y are jo9$ =     
life1 to /r5g!n ea* o!r 9 all lab\r1  to
 re/ on ea* o!r 9 all sorr[1 to m9i/] to
 ea* o!r 9 all  pa91' &1 'to be "o ) ea*
 o!r 9 sil5t1 unspeakable memories  at !
 mom5t ( ! la/ p>t+8'           99      
99       99       99       99    ,i 0   
int]e/$ 9 ?is article z well z 9 !      
writ]1 & ask$  him = fur!r              
contributions4 ,he respond$ by s5d+ a   
c\ple (  sonnets1 & al?\gh ! sw+ ( 8 arm

 01 to quote ,rossetti1  fre] 9 prose   
?an 9 v]se1 ,i accept$1 & pr9t$ !m 9 !  
j\rnal ( :i* ,i _h *>ge4 ,:5 ,i came to 
"k him aft]w>ds1 ,i  f\nd t he 0 "y1 & (
 t highly-/rung n]v\s & poetic          
temp]am5t :i* (t5 proves little less ?an
 a calamity to its  possessor4 ,a m     
morbidly s5sitive be+ ,i nev] met4 ,!   
emotional  "p ( 8 nature seem$ 9 excess1
 & he felt all--! small z  well z !     
great1 ! pleasant z well z !            
pa9ful--int5sely4 ,8  n]v\s vitality 0  
too ne> ! surface4 ,he 0 easily         
work$-up1  & took life1 or r its        
incid5ts1 too s]i\sly4 ,! "o            
intellectual ?+ :i* m5 ( su* a temp]am5t
 w\ld be wise to  refra9 f do+1 is n    
seldom ! v ?+ !y d--ab&on  !mselves     
passionately to ! pursuit ( poetry4     
,aft] t !re is  little hope = !m4 ,! _w 
may be ! ri*] by _m a "w (  art1 b f    
!nce=? & = ev] ,sorr[ w h !m = h]  own4 
,poetry /rikes z no?+ else does1 deep   
into ! roots (  ?+s1 says ,elizabe?     
,/u>t ,phelps1 & "o f9ds ev]y:]e "s     

/ra9 at ! roots ( "o's he>t4 ,moreov]1 !
 pursuit ( poetry  is a practice :i* z  
surely gr[s ^u "o z does ! use ( drug   
or opiate1 & my advice to ! m5 & wom5 ( 
a highly-/rung &  sup]s5sitive          
temp]am5t--if !y wi% to make com=t _!   
fir/  consid]ation--is1 ,avoid poetry z 
y w\ld poison1 mak+ in/ead  a /udy ( t  
:i* is animal & co>se4 ,music & all o!r 
's(t5+' influ5ces y w1 9 accordance ) ! 
cont5tion  ( ,plato 9 ',! ,republic1'   
delib]ately es*ew1 /riv+ r  to acquire t
 delightful pa*yd]mat\s condition (     
feel+ &  enviable indiff]5ce to !       
susceptibilities ( o!rs1 :i* add s      
immeasurably to ! com=t ( life4         
,h[ev]1 to return to ! writ] ( ,!       
,/range ,confessions4 ,!  numb] ( !     
j\rnal conta9+ 8 article _h n be5       
publi%$  m ?an a c\ple ( days1 be=e ,i  
receiv$ a lett] sign$ by a  lady :o 0   
unkn[n to me1 ask+ t ,i w\ld fav\r h] ) 
!  address ( ! contributor4 ,i repli$1 (
 c\rse1 t ,i c\ld n  d s )\t 8          
p]mission1 b t if %e wi%$ to be put into

  communication ) him1 & w\ld s5d a     
lett] address$ to ! (fice  ( ! pap]1 x  
%\ld be duly =w>d$4 ,%e did s1 & :51 z  
0 natural en\gh1 he wrote a cordial     
reply1 %e f\nd some?+  else 9 8 lett]   
ab\t :i* to "q him1 & a correspond5ce   
consequ5tly ensu$4 ,:e!r %e 0 or 0 n a  
he>tless &  accompli%$ flirt ,i nev]    
knew2 b if ev] a woman delib]ately  set 
h]self to w91 &--z subsequ5t ev5ts      
%[$--to break a  man's he>t1 x 0 ?is    
lady4 ,i le>n$ aft]w>ds t %e 0 v        
beautiful1 & z %e h]self wrote          
occasional tales & v]ses =  ! magaz9es1 
x 0 n to be wond]$ at t my contributor  
%\ld  be greatly int]e/$ 9 h] epi/les4  
,%e succe$$ be=e long 9  mak+ 8         
acqua9tance1 & set h]self to c>ry on 9  
e>ne/ !  "w :i* h] ins9uat+ lett]s _h   
begun4 ,%e did n1 h[ev]1  f9d him q !   
easy prey :i* %e _h p]haps expect$2 =   
?\gh  x is c]ta9 t he lov$ h] f ! mom5t 
( meet+1 he 0 %y  & self-depreciatory1 &
 s\ght p]si/5tly to avoid h]4 ,b %e     
paus$ at no?+ to effect h] purpose4 ,%e 

_h set h] he>t ^u a  scalp1 & by looks1 
words1 & de$s1 %e /rove to conv9ce him t
  %e lov$ him1 & /rove at la/           
successfully4 ,i rememb] meet+ him  "o  
morn+1 & ?9k+1 z ,i wat*$ ! light :i*   
came into 8  face :5 he spoke ( h]1 ( ! 
graceful l9es 9 ,mr4 ,au/9 ,dobson's    
,/ory ( ,ros9a4 ,9 ! poem1 h[ev]1 x is !
 woman1 & n !  man1 :o is he>t-brok53-- 
,z = ! girl1 %e turn$ to h] new be+1    
,came1 z a bird t he>s its fell[ call2  
,bless$ z ! bl9d t blesses ,god = see+2 
,grew z a fl[] on :i* ! sun-rays fall1  
,lov$ if y w2 %e nev] nam$ x s2         
,love comes unse51 we only see x g4     
,:5 ,i saw him aga9 all 0 ov]4 ,i _h    
s\ght him out 9 8  *amb]s1 n hav+ he>d f
 him = a mon?1 & he did n he>  me ent]4 
,h] portrait 7! "o %e _h giv5 him7 0    
be=e him1 &  he _h fall5 by ! table1    
half-kneel+1 half-ly+1 ) 8 head  on 8   
arm4 ,x is a fe>ful ?+ to he> a /rong   
man sob z he 0  sobb+ !n6 ,god grant t  
,i may nev] he> ano!r1 or see a face (  
su* hopeless hagg>d mis]y z 0 8 :5 he   

rais$ x6    ,x is n ( him1 h[ev]1 t ,i  
wi% n[ to speak1 b ( h]4 ,(  all ! faces
 :i* ,i saw 9 hell1 !re 0 "o :i* _h = me
 a  fasc9ation beyond any o!r4 ,x 0 !   
face ( a beautiful woman1  que5ly (     
mann] & fair ( figure z a full-bl[n     
lily1 & )  ^? deep d>k eyes t seem to   
%9e out f s\l-dep?s1 deep z  ! di/ant   
heav51 & yet may mean no m ?an does !   
%all[  fac+ ( quicksilv] beh9d a        
mill9]'s mirror4 ,i recognis$ h]        
in/antly by ! portrait1 & nev] out (    
hell h ,i se5 su*  mis]y on any woman's 
face z ,i saw on h]s4 ,! s5t5ce 9       
puni%m5t  ( h] s9 0 a /range "o4 ,x 0 t 
%e %\ld n[ love him  ^: he>t %e _h      
brok51 ) ! same passionately int5se b   
hopeless love ) :i* he _h lov$ h]4 ,x 0 
a j b awful  retribution4 ,z "s         
dea?-/rick5 & hunt$ creature presses    
frantically on z if to escape ! arr[ t x
 c>ries 9 its brea/1  s1 he$less ( all t
 0 pass+ ar\nd h]1 he$less ( %ad[ or    
%9e1 %e press$ on & on ?r\gh ! realms ( 
hell1 h] eyes fix$  & wide-di/5d$ 9     

agony1 & h] h&s clut*+ ceaselessly at   
h] bosom1 z if ! he>t ( h] 7 be+ riv5 9 
twa94 ,o ,god6  ,i he>d h] cry1 z %e    
pass$ me1 my he>t is brok56 my he>t is  
brok56 &1 alas1 "o _c die ( a brok5 he>t
 9 hell4    ,i saw h] once aga94 ,%e _h 
fall5 to ! gr\nd1 & ) hopeless  h&s     
press$ aga9/ burn+ br[s 0 wri?+ z if 9  
physical  pa91 & ) h] v s\l consum$ (   
passion4 ,"o :om ,i knew--x  0 8 si/]--0
 kneel+ beside h]1 & ) g5tle words      
bes\ght h] to calm h]self1 b %e pu%$ !  
m9i/]+ h& away  despair+ly1 cry+ out3 ,a
 he>t _c break z m9e is break+  )\t a   
%riek4 ,if ,i _h lov$ him1 & he me1 & he
 _h di$1 %e  said1 ,i c\ld h borne x1   
kn[+ t ,i %\ld meet him h]eaft]1  b to  
live loveless ?r\gh a loveless ,et]nity1
 t is ! ?\ght  :i* kills me2 & !n ) a   
great cry (1 ,oh6 :y %\ld a  m]ciful    
,god let any ( ,8 creatures suff] z ,i  
am suff]+ n[8  %e rose up1 & fl$ away   
be=e me4    ,i nev] saw h] aga91 nor d  
,i "k :e!r or n x 0 giv5 h]  to w9 back 
! love %e _h lo/2 b1 aft] %e _h gone1 ,i

 turn$  to 8 si/]--! woman :o _h /riv5  
to com=t h] bro!r's  betray]--say+ t ,i 
?\ght ! puni%m5t great] ?an ! s94       
,great] ?an ! s96 0 ! reply4 ,x may be  
t1 be+ 8  si/]1 ,i judge h] h>%ly2 b if 
y\rs is ! mo/ awful crime :i*  y\r sex c
 commit aga9/ womanhood1 !n x seems to  
me t h]s--a  l brea* ( tru/--is !       
blacke/ s9 :i* a woman c commit  aga9/ a
 man4 ,nor c x be said ( h]s t x 0 ! de$
 ( a  mom5t--a mom5t ( ov]-ma/]+        
passion1 = x 0 delib]ate &  cruel4 ,i   
say t t woman kill$ my bro!r6 %e cri$   
fi]cely2  kill$ him body & s\l1 & s5t   
him away he>t-brok51 & b]eft  ( fai? 9  
womanhood & 9 ,god4 ,& to gratify :at8  
h] vanity--a  passion z selfi% &        
hateful1 if less brutal1 ?an y\r own4 ,y
  h recognis$ ! loa?som5ess ( y\r act2 b
 %e1 ,god help h]6  ?9ks ( no?+ b       
h]self1 & :ile %e s ?9ks1 heav5 itself  
w\ld be b hell to h]1 & 9 all hell !re  
is z yet = h] no  hope ( heav54         
,illu/ration          ,illu/ration      
,,*apt] ,,xi4    ,,! ,,my/]y ,,( ,,!    

,,dead ,,:o ,,die4     ,( all ^! my/]ies
 !re is none :i* fills me ) su* abject  
horror & dread z ! my/]y ( '! dead :o   
die4'          ,?r\gh _m days !y toil2  
!n comes a day      ,!y die n1--nev]    
hav+ liv$1--b cease2    ,& r\nd _! n>r[ 
lips ! m\ld falls close4                
,rossetti--,! ,*oice4      ,x may occur 
to ^? ( my read]s :o h neglect$ to be> 9
 m9d  ! conclud+ words ( ,*apt] ,,viii41
 t not)/&+ ! remorse  :i* ,i h pictur$  
myself z suff]+ 9 ,hades1 ,i d n appe>  
to h be5 altoge!r indiff]5t to !        
consolations ( social  int]c\rse1 & t   
exi/5ce 9 ! ,unse51 z repres5t$ 9 !     
pages ( ?is di>y1 w\ld seem to consi/   
l>gely ( conv]sation  betwe5 ! spirits 9
 prison4 ,b because ,i h conf9$ myself 9
  my la/ ?ree *apt]s to ! relation ( su*
 facts 9 reg>d to !  condition ( o!rs1  
z1 ei!r ?r\gh obs]vation or conv]sation1
  came to my k 9 ! c\rse ( my s+ul>     
exp]i5ces1 x mu/  n be suppos$ t my own 
suff]+s _h 9 any way ceas$4 ,:at  ^?    
suff]+s 7 z describ$ by me 9 my six?    

*apt]1 !y  cont9u$ to be dur+ ! :ole ( !
 "t 9 :i* x 0 orda9$  t ,i %\ld rema9 9 
,hades1 & ea* ( ! conv]sations "h       
record$ took place dur+ t comp>atively  
pa9less int]val (  :i* ,i h else:]e     
spok51 & 0 sep>at$ f ! conv]sation      
prec$+ or foll[+ x by a space ( t]rible 
pa94 ,) :i*  necess>y rem9d] ,i pass on 
to tell ( ! dead :o die4    ,dur+ ! "t (
 my w&]+s 9 ! _s _w1 x happ5$ t  ,i _h  
occasion to speak to "o to :om ,i 0     
p]sonally unkn[n1 b  :o _h liv$ = _m    
ye>s 9 a c\ntry t[n 9 :i* ,i _h myself  
once resid$4 ,?\gh comp>atively         
guiltless1 z ,i le>n$ he 01 (  any      
crim9al (f5ce1 he seem$ to be           
incessantly consum$ by a _s  ( /range   
unre/1 & ,i notic$ t1 ev5 9 8 mom5ts (  
reprieve1  he appe>$ unable to free     
himself f "s s+ul>ly di/urb+  ?\ght4 ,i 
0 aw>e t he _h at "o "t be5 intimate ) a
  =m] neighb\r ( m9e1 & some?+ 9 our    
conv]sation recall+  ?is man's "n to my 
memory ,i ask$ my companion if he knew  
:at _h  become ( ,h5ry ,m>%all8    ,!   

words _h sc>cely fall5 f my lips be=e   
!re pass$ ov] 8  features a spasm (     
uncontrollable fe>1 & ) a quick gasp+   
cry1  & cov]+ 8 face ) 8 h&1 z if to %ut
 out "s gha/ly  vision1 he exclaim$3 ,he
 is dead2 he is dead--b :y d y speak (  
him8 ,"k y n t he is ( ! dead :o die8   
,( ! dead :o die8 ,i repeat$ wond]+ly2  
,i d n und]/&  y4 ,surely all :o are    
dead mu/ die8    ,to ?is he made no     
answ]1 & see+ t he 0 /rangely mov$1 ,i  
=bore to "q him fur!r1 b by-&-by he     
became calm] & (  8 own accord cont9u$ !
 conv]sation4    ,y ask$ me ab\t ,h5ry  
,m>%all1 he said1 & ,i w tell y  all ,i 
"k ab\t him2 b fir/ let me expla9 t1    
next to ! love  ( money :i* has be5 my  
ru91 my sore/ h9drance on e>? 0 my      
unbelief & fai?lessness2 & t "h 9 hell !
 puni%m5t (  ! unbeliev] is t he %all be
 consum$ by ! angui% ( 8 own  unbelief4 
,once :5 ,i might h believ$1 ,i w\ld n1 
& n[1  ?\gh ,i w\ld believe1 ,i _c1 b am
 = ev] torn by hide\s  appreh5sions &   
d\bts z to my own future & ! future ( ^?

  de> to me4 ,moreov]1 !re are _m ?+s   
:i*1 cle> & pla9  z !y may be to !      
fai?ful ( he>t & to ! believ+1 are to   
my d\bt+ eyes wrapt ar\nd 9 my/]y & 9   
gloom4 ,into ^!  my/]ies x has be5      
orda9$ z "p ( my puni%m5t t ,i %all  ev]
 desire to look1 & ( all ^! my/]ies !re 
is n "o :i*  fills me ) su* abject      
horror & dread z ! my/]y ( ! dead  :o   
die4    ,( ! dead :o die8 ,i said aga92 
:at d y mean by ^? /range  words8    ,!y
 are my words1 he cri$ excit$ly1 & ) a  
hy/]ical laugh1  m9e1 m9e2 ! words ,i   
use to myself :5 ,i ?9k ( ! my/]y  :i*  
!y /rove s c>efully to conceal f me1 b  
:i* = all  _! cunn+ ,i h discov]$4      
,li/51 & ,i w tell y ab\t x4  ,:5 ,i    
fir/ came "h1 ,i saw1 ei!r 9 hell or 9  
heav51 ! faces  ( mo/ ( ! dead :om ,i _h
 kn[n on e>?1 b "s faces !re  7 7,h5ry  
,m>%all's 0 "o ( !m7 :i* ,i miss$1 & :i*
 f  t "t to ?is ,i h nev] se54 ',:]e1   
!n1 are !y8' ,i ask$  myself1 's9ce     
nei!r e>?1 hell1 nor heav5 kn[s !m m8   
,has  ,god "s fe>ful fate 9 /ore = !    

s9n]1 :i* may "o day fall  ^u me & m9e1 
z x has already fall5 ^u !m8' ,z ,i felt
 !  %ad[ ( t d>k misgiv+ re/+ on my     
he>t1 ,i knew t = me  ano!r horror _h   
aris5 9 hell1 & t re/ !nce=? !re  c\ld  
be none until ,i _h solv$ ! my/]y4    ,&
 s x came ab\t t all ! mom5ts ( my      
release f suff]+  7 sp5t 9 ! se>* = ^?  
miss+ faces4 ,sometimes ,i took  c\nsel 
) ^? :o 7 9 hell z ,i 01 b !y c\ld tea* 
me only t :i* ,i already knew2 sometimes
 ,i ask$ ! help ( !  s\ls 9 ,p>adise1 b 
!y told me no?+ save t ,i mu/ be no m   
fai?less b believ+4 ,& !n ,i s\ght to "k
 ( ! angels :]e  7 ^? lo/ ones1 b ) a   
look ( sad & pitiful mean+1 !y  pass$ on
 & left me unansw]$4 ,ah6 b !y c\ld n   
hide _!  secrets f me6 ,no1 no1 ,i 0 n  
"o ( ! cr$ul\s1 nor 0 ,i to  be put (f )
 a fr[n1 & ,i h f\nd out _! my/]y1 & y  
%all %>e x4    ,:5 y & ,i 7 *ildr51 we 7
 taught t e human be+ is  made 9 ! image
 ( ,god1 & is born ) an immortal s\l4 ,b
 !y  did n tell u t j z neglect$        
diseases c kill ! body1 s  un*eck$ s9 c 

kill ! s\l1 & t we h x 9 our p[] to s   
deface ! ,div9e ,image t we become l    
unto1 if n l[]1 ?an  ! bea/s :i* p]i%1 &
 die out at our dea?s z !y4 ,b x is  s1 
& t is :at ,i meant :5 ,i said t he (   
:om y ask$ 0  '( ! dead :o die4'    ,y  
%ake y\r head1 & mutt] t ,i am mad1 & t 
y _c  cr$it su* a /atem5t4 ,well1 p]haps
 ,i am mad--mad ) ! horror  ( my        
unbelief2 b :y %\ld x n be z ,i say1 ,i 
ask y8 ,i h  brood$ ov] x all a ?\s&    
times1 & am conv9c$ t ,i h  solv$ !     
riddle1 & ,i w tell y :y ,i ?9k s4      
,god is answ]able to ,himself = ,8      
actions1 & :5 ,he made man1  ,he made a 
man1 & n a puppet--a be+ ( inf9ite      
possibilities  = good z well z = evil1 &
 to :om x 0 giv5 to *oose =  himself    
betwe5 ! do+ ( ! "r or ! wrong4 ,b ,god 
knew t  _m ( ^? :om ,he s made w\ld s9  
away all memory ( _! ,div9e  orig94 ,god
 did n w x s1 = ,he made u m51 n ma*9es1
  & ! evil we d is ( our own *oos+1 b   
,god =eknew x2 &1  =e-kn[+ t1 ,god ow$ x
 to ,himself n to call a creature into  

be+1 ! result ( ^: creation w\ld be t   
creature's inf9ite  & et]nal mis]y4 ,no1
 ev5 ! ,omnipot5t d>$ n p]petrate s     
wanton & wick$ a de$ z t1 = ,god is !   
inexorable ,judge :o  sits 9 judgm5t ^u 
,god2 & h5ce x 0 t ,he decre$ t ^?  =   
:om !re c\ld be no hope ( heav5 %\ld die
 out at _!  dea?s l ! brutes4 ,doesn't t
 seem to y a probable solution8  & isn't
 x rational & feasible ^u ! face ( x8   
,our life--su*  z x is--is f ,god1 & may
 n ,god take ,8 own aga91 & )draw  t    
life if ,he wi% x8 & c\ld any?+ bett]   
happ5 to _m  p :om y & ,i "k1 ?an t !y  
%\ld be all[$ to die  out1 & ! v memory 
( !m pass away = ev]8    ,i 0 conv9c$ t 
he 0 mad--mad1 z he _h himself h9t$1 )  
! horror ( 8 unbelief2 b ,i 0 int]e/$ 9 
:at he _h to say1  & 9 8 s+ul> fancies4 
,tell me m ( ^! miss+ faces1 & ( ! 'dead
 :o die1' ,i  answ]$4 ,:o are !y1 = !   
mo/ "p8--murd]]s & crim9als (  ! mo/    
be/ial nature8    ,n always1 he repli$  
excit$ly1 n always2 & t is ! reason  :y 
,i am s fe>ful ab\t my own future4 ,mo/ 

( !m are ^? :o 9  _! lifetime 7 reg>d$ z
 belong+ to ! respectable classes1  &   
:o1 s f> f hav+ come at any "t )9 rea* (
 ! law1  7 look$ ^u z good citiz5s &    
e/imable memb]s ( society4  ,%all ,i    
tell y :at kill$ ! immortal s\l 9 !m1 & 
9 me1 &  turn$ u into m]e animat$ clay1 
fit only to die out l ! bea/s  :i* p]i%8
 ,x 0 money--money1 ! love ( :i* is (t5 
m  dead5+ to ! spiritual nature ?an     
actual vice or s94    ,i set out 9 life 
) "o /eadfa/ purpose be=e me--! purpose 
(  devot+ myself body & s\l to bus9ess &
 to ! mak+ ( money4  ,x 0 n t ,i 0      
indiff]5t to ! attractions ( a          
pr(ession1  & /ill less t ,i 0 want+ 9  
appreciation ( high] ?+s1  = ,i lik$    
books & pictures & music4 ,sometimes1   
too1 :5 ,i 0  li/5+ to my si/]'s s++ (  
,h]rick's l9es1 ',to ,an!a1' or to  ,b5 
,jonson's ',dr9k to me only ) ?9e eyes1'
 ,i felt bitt]ly !  littl5ess ( my aims1
 & seem$ to "k1 z ,i nev] knew at any   
o!r  "t1 :at x 0 to love a woman ) t    
high1 :ole-he>t$1 &  dea?less devotion  

:i* br+s r$emption & ennoblem5t to ! s\l
  ( ! man to :om x comes4 ,b ,i said to 
myself3 ',pati5ce2 fir/ (  all let me   
gr[ ri*2 let me make all ! money ,i c   
get toge!r1 &  !n1 :5 ,i h suffici5t =  
all my requirem5ts1 ,i w =sake  !       
money-mak+1 & turn my ?\ghts to love &  
poetry & pictures2  & ?r\gh !m1 p]haps  
on to religion1 = ,i knew ev5 !n t  ?\gh
 love & poetry are n religion1 t !y yet 
s]ve1 be=e a  high] fai? has be5 call$  
into be+1 to keep ! life ( ! s\l  alive1
 & to op5 up ! way = holi] ?+s4    ,& s 
,i became :at is call$ a good bus9ess   
man4 ,i made bus9ess  ! motive ( my     
life4 ,i ?\ght ( no?+ else1 & read no?+ 
b ! pap]s1 & ^! ,i only scann$ = !      
purpose ( obs]v+  ! influ5ce ( political
 or o!r pass+ ev5ts ^u ! m>kets4  ,at   
la/ ,i became ri*4 ,& ) :at result8 ,t  
:5 ,i no long]  ne$$ bus9ess1 ,i f\nd ,i
 c\ld live no long] )\t x2 t x _h       
become my life1 & ,i its slave1 & t ,i  
c\ld awak5 no la/+  int]e/ 9 any?+ :i*  
did n p]ta9 to ! mak+ ( money4 ,x  is   

true t ,i _h at t "t a wife & *ildr5 7! 
=m] (  :om ,i _h m>ri$ *iefly = h]      
=tune71 & 0 n )\t a  c]ta9 half-selfi%  
love = !m z "p & p>cel ( myself2 t ,i   
possess$ a h&some h\se & g>d5s 9 :i* ,i 
took pride z be+  ( my own acquirem5t2 &
 t ,i w5t into society ) enjoym5t2  &   
f\nd a c]ta9 pomp\s pleasure 9 ext5d+ my
 patronage to  ,sunday-s*ools1 baza>s & 
,"y ,m5's ,*ri/ian ,associations4 ,b    
:]e my treasure 01 !re my he>t 0 also1 &
 at he>t ,i 0  a bus9ess man1 & no?+ m4 
,i did n "k myself !n z ,i  d n[1 & s f>
 f be+ 9 any way dissatisfi$1 ,i _h no m
  suspicion t ,i 0 o!r ?an "o ( ! mo/   
enviable ( m51 ?an  has ! gr9n+ savage )
 8 h&ful ( beads4 ,b ,i "k n[ !  ?+ ,i  
am1 & :at ,i h miss$1 & ,i tell y t !   
mo/ sorely  sw9dl$ simpleton 9 exi/5ce  
is ! man ^: bus9ess capability  is s    
ke51 t ?\gh he has nev] be5 be/$ 9 a    
b>ga91 he has  b>t]$ away 8 own happ9ess
 = a bauble1 & 7s skilful a s*em]  to   
defraud u is old ,satan7 has become     
bankrupt ( all t makes life  wor? !     

liv+1 9 ord] t he may boa/ a heavy      
balance at 8  bank]'s6    ,yes1 ,i 0 a  
good bus9ess man--a sm>t & %rewd bus9ess
 man1 z  bus9ess m5 g--& ,i "k mu* ( su*
 m5 & ( _! transactions2  & ,i tell y t1
 s9ce ! days ( ,judas ,isc>iot1 !       
money-lov]  & grubb] :o sold 8 ,god =   
?irty pieces ( silv]1 z ?\s&s  are sell+
 _! inf9ite s\ls ?is day1 !re h be5 no m
  s\lless & selfi% creatures ^u ,god's  
e>?1 ?an ! m5 :o h  made :at %\ld be a  
means to an end an end 9 itself1 & :o   
live  = bus9ess1 in/ead ( by x4    ,!y g
 to *ur*1 _m ( !m1 on ,sundays1 &       
subscribe lib]ally  to coal clubs & s\p 
kit*5s1 ?9k+1 poor fools6 to (f] su*    
acts z ^? z a set-(f to ,god = ! sordid 
self-seek+ :i*  has be5 ! secret ( _!   
success 9 _! comm]cial call+2  nev]     
suspect+ t 9 _! respectable selfi%ness &
 sordidness  ( _s1 !y are l[] 9 ! scale 
( be+ & f>!r f !  k+dom ( heav5 ?an is !
 lurk+ pro/itute %iv]+ at !  /reet      
corn]1 or ! drunk5 sot reel+ home aft] a
 night's debau*4    ,t !y mu/ die out at

 _! dea?s1 z d ! bea/s1 ,i am  conv9c$1 
= :at c ,god f9d = su* m5 to d 9        
heav58--m5 to  :om ! e>?1 its prototype1
 is no?+ b a gigantic %op1 & to  :om    
,music1 ,art1 & ,song are b z dead      
lett]s & fooli%ness2 m5  :o are         
susceptible to no emotion save ! gre$ = 
ga92 & :o h  let ! inf9ite s\l )9 !m p9e
 away & p]i% = ! want (  ! :]e)al to    
keep t s\l alive4    ,& ,i1 ,i am "o (  
!m1 & am ( ! dead :o die6 ,i h b>t]$    
away love & life & happ9ess = su* ,dead 
,sea fruit z ?is2 ,i :o  once 0 "y1 & n 
altoge!r1 z ,i n[ am1 a s\lless creature
  ( clay6 ,= ,i c rememb] ! "t :5 fl[]s1
 pictures1 beautiful  faces & music set 
/irr+ always "s /rong emotion )9 me1 9  
:i* x seem$ t ,i saw hidd5 away 9 a     
cry/al cell 9 ! dep?s  ( my own /range  
he>t1 ! %9+ =m ( a :ite-rob$ ,s\l-maid51
  :o cri$ out to me1 ',ah6 _c y make y\r
 life z pure &  beautiful z ! fl[]s & ! 
music1 t s y may set me free8'    ,b ,i 
*ose ! ignoble "p1 & gave myself up body
 & s\l to !  gre$ = ga94 ,& (t5 9 ! h\r 

:51 tempt$ by an evil ?\ght1  ,i turn$  
to d "s %ameful or selfi% action1 ,i    
seem$ to see !  :ite arms ( ! ,s\l-maid5
 uplift$ 9 pite\s entreaty to heav51    
until at la/ ! "t came :5 h] voice 0    
sil5t1 & :5 ,i knew  t ,i _h ?ru/ h] d[n
 & d[n into a d>kness :5ce %e w\ld  nev]
 aga9 come =?6    ,& n[ nor picture1 nor
 poem1 nor music moves me m1 = ! s\l  ( 
me is dead6--is dead6 & ,i h become l   
unto ! bea/s t  p]i%1 & "k n t at any   
mom5t ,i may flick] out l a sp5t  tap]1 
& become z ! dead :o die6    ,s say+1 he
 bur/ into a %riek ( insane & une>?ly   
laught]1 &  foam+ at ! m\? l a madman1  
turn$ f me1 & fl$ gibb]+  into ! night4 
,illu/ration          ,illu/ration      
,,*apt] ,,xii4    ,i ,,see ,,! ,,bro!r  
,,:om ,,we ,,h ,,all ,,lo/4      ,y     
believe probably 9 ,god1 9 ,*ri/1 & 9   
,immortality1 & y  look ) joy & gladness
 to ! life beyond ! grave4 ,probably1   
too1 y h suff]$1 z we all h at "s "t1 f 
bodily pa91  m5tal affliction or        
b]eavem5t1 until y\r he>t has be5 brok5 

&  cru%$1 & y h felt t y c\ld be> y\r   
burd5 no long]  7 x n = ! consolation t 
sorr[ c la/ no long] ?an  life1 & t !   
next _w w set ?is _w "r4 ,b h y  nev]   
ask$ y\rself1 ',h[ if x %\ld n be s aft]
 all8 ,h[  if ,i %\ld op5 my eyes 9 !   
next _w to f9d aga9 all ! old  sorr[s1 !
 old he>t-burn+s1 & ! ?\s& & "o         
trivialities  :i* h made ?is _w s we>y1 
/ale1 flat1 & unpr(itable8'  ,h y nev]  
consid]$ t ! m]e fact ( ! exi/5ce ( ^!  
sorr[s 9 ?is _w--! only "o ( :i* y "k   
any?+--is 9  itself a reason :y x is    
likely t su* sorr[s1 or simil> ones1    
%\ld exi/ 9 ! _w ( :i* y "k no?+8 ,& h y
  nev] recognis$ t y\r failures h be5 ! 
life-elem5t ( y\r  successes1 & t1 s9ce 
failure is ! law ( progress1 an exi/5ce 
9 :i* all y\r endeav\rs 7 successful    
w\ld probably become  monoton\s & tame8 
,! above is an extract f a lett] 7x lies
 on ! desk be=e me7  f "o :om ,i _h kn[n
 9 my e>ly boyhood1 & :o _h be5 =  _m   
ye>s my con/ant companion & fri5d4 ,_h  
%e cont9u$ to be my  companion x is     

possible t my /ory might h be5 a diff]5t
 "o1  b %e w5t to live 9 ,am]ica "s     
mon?s be=e ,i 0 tw5ty1 & ,i  nev] saw h]
 aga9 until ! day t %e & ,i /ood face to
 face 9  ! _s-_w--,i 9 hell & %e 9      
heav54    ,aft] we _h ex*ang$ greet+s1 &
 ea* _h told ! o!r :at 0  necess>y to be
 kn[n ( ! pa/1 ! conv]sation turn$ ^u ! 
subjects :i* we _h s (t5 discuss$ 9 our 
lett]s4 ,tell me1 ,i  said1 n[ t y      
really f9d y\rself 9 heav51 if y are 9 e
  way peacefully & p]fectly happy4      
,"o mom5t1 be=e ,i give y an answ]1 %e  
repli$4 ,y are n  altoge!r wrong 9 call+
 ?is heav51 al?\gh x is little m  ?an ! 
ante-*amb] betwe5 e>? & heav54 ,x is my 
heav5 at  pres5t1 b x w n be my heav5   
always1 any m ?an x w be  always y\r    
hell1 & al?\gh x is heav51 x is n !     
heav54  ,( t nei!r y nor ,i c =m any    
%ad[y conception4 ,n[ =  y\r "q4 ,!re is
 only "o ?+ :i* tr\bles me1 & t is      
ignorance4 ,i _h always ?\ght t 9 !     
_s-_w "o w\ld "k  ev]y?+4 ,i don't mean 
t ,i expect$ to f9d myself omnisci5t1  b

 ,i did ?9k t ,i %\ld "k all "o w\ld wi%
 to "k4 ,i ne$  h>dly tell y ,i 0 wrong4
 ,) :atev] k we h acquir$  & ) :atev]   
intellectual ability we h develop$ up to
 !  po9t ( our leav+ ! e>?-_w1 ) t1 & ) 
no m1 d  we make our fir/ />t 9 ! _s    
realm4 ,i d ?9k our capability  (       
intuitionally appreh5d+ tru? is 9 "s way
 int5sifi$ by  ! transition :i* y speak 
( z dea?3 b ( intellectual  *ange !re is
 absolutely none2 & !re are ?+s relat+  
to !  aft]-life1 z well z to ! e>?ly "o1
 conc]n+ :i* 7nev]  hav+ /udi$ !m :il/  
,i 0 9 ! body7 ,i am f> m ignorant  ?an 
are _m dwell]s "u ! sun4    ,t ,i c well
 believe1 ,i repli$2 b putt+ aside !    
fact t  y are tr\bl$ sometimes by a     
consci\sness ( ignorance1 tell me if  9 
o!r respects y are happy4    ,no good c 
come to "o ( be+ 9 a place :]e ev]y?+ is
  too easy1 %e answ]$1 & if heav5 7 !   
abode ( p]fect  happ9ess--?is heav51 ,i 
mean--,i ?9k we %\ld f9d x some:at      
we>isome4 ,:5 ,i 0 on e>? ,i long$ =    
heav51 n t ,i might  be deliv]$ f sorr[1

 b f s9fulness2 & ,i ?9k ,i may say  t  
,i am z happy "h z my failures w let me 
be4    ,y\r failures6 ,i exclaim$1      
wond]+ly1 y\r failures6    ,yes1 %e     
said1 my failures4 ,on e>? failure is1 z
 y "k1 !  law ( progress1 & ev5 "h      
progress is only a*iev$ ?r\gh t  :i* is1
 aft] all1 9 "s degree a non-success4 ,i
 don't q  "k h[ to make my mean+ cle> to
 y1 b p]haps we c't d  bett] ?an look   
back to ! old e>?-life = an illu/ration4
 ,t  e>?-life--! life :i* we lead on    
e>?1 ,i mean--is1 z y "k1  poor1        
pitiable & paltry2 we feel x s1 we _c b 
feel x s1  :5 x is view$ 9 ! l(ty light 
( our possibilities4 ,ea* morn+  f9ds u 
beg9n+ ! _w afre%1 & ) ! high hope t at 
la/ ! "t has come :5 we %all be true to 
ourselves & to our  aspirations1 t at   
la/ we %all v]itably & inde$ d "s la/+  
"w = ,god & = our fell[-creatures4 ,&   
ea* ev5+6 ah6 ea*  ev5+6 is x n ev] !   
same sad /ory1 ev] ! same old bitt]     
exp]i5ce8 ,y h spok5 ( x y\rself 9 ^?   
v]ses y s5t me  s _m ye>s ago3          

',ea* morn+ hails a new ,endeav\r's     
bir?1    ,ea* ev5+ weeps its pitiful    
corpse be=e4'    ,h>dly has ! fre%ness  
fad$ out ( ! morn+ air be=e ! _w  _s is 
at our side aga92 %e is :isp]+ 9 our e>2
 h] :ite  woo+ arms are ar\nd u2 h] w>m 
brea? is on our *eek2 !re is  a         
brief1--h[ brief & feeble6--attempt at  
resi/ance1 & !n1 ah6  !n1 we are brok5 &
 undone4 ,& (t5 z1 ) lips hot & dry1  ) 
*eeks fev]$ & flu%$1 we look back to t  
s]5e-s\l$  self1 :i* b a few %ort h\rs  
ago /ood 9 rapt adoration "u !  sil5ce (
 a midnight sky1 & held high communion )
 its ,creator1 we  c h>dly br+ ourselves
 to believe t we & x are "o & !  same   
be+4 ,yet1 9 spite ( ! paltr9ess ( !    
e>?-life1 9 spite  ( ! vice1 & ! %ame1  
!re is "o elem5t 9 ! /rife :i*  l5ds    
dignity ev5 to our v failures1 = 9 our  
battl+ aga9/  ! ev]-pres5t evil1 & 9 our
 /ruggle t[>ds ! ev]-unatta9$  good1 we 
come )9 sight ( a possibility1 high]1   
p]haps1 ?an  t ( :i* ev5 angels c       
conceive4 ,! s9 & ! %ame are  aft] all b

 human2 ! ef=t & det]m9ation to ov]come 
!m are  ,div9e4    ,well1 )\t "s s5se ( 
difficulty to be ov]come1 "s s5se ev5  (
 comp>ative failure1 ?is ef=t & ?is     
det]m9ation c\ld nev]  be2 & 9 heav51 ! 
place ( inf9ite progress &              
possibilities1  !re is a c]ta9 ,div9e   
discont5t :i* ,i "k n h[ to expla9      
bett] to y ?an by call+ x ! heav5ly     
c\nt]p>t ( ?is  e>?ly ef=t4    ,b n[    
tell me ab\t y\rself1 %e said1 aft] a   
mom5t's pause1  = ,i c see t y h be5    
?r\gh sore suff]+ s9ce y came  "h4      
,?r\gh sore suff]+ ,i _h inde$ be51 & _h
 already gr[n old 9  hell1 b ! l9es :i* 
%e _h quot$ f my boyi% v]ses1 &  ! words
 %e _h said ab\t ! div9e discont5t (    
heav51 _h set  /irr+ "s hidd5 spr+ 9 my 
memory1 & at ! "t %e spoke ,i  0 ?9k+ ( 
:at ,rob]t ,l\is ,/ev5son has said ab\t 
t little  beautiful bro!r :om we once   
all _h1 & :om we h all lo/ &  m\rn$--!  
man we ought to h be51 ! man we hop$ to 
be4 ,%e  mu/ h kn[n :at 0 9 my ?\ghts1  
=1 tak+ my h& 9 h]  own1 %e repeat$ "s  

v]ses :i* %e _h writt5 & s5t to me on  t
 ,ea/] morn+ 7a morn+ :i* mu/ ev] %9e   
out :ite & fair  9 my memory7 :5 %e & ,i
 _h knelt side by side aft] confirmation
  to take our fir/ communion4 ,i rememb]
 t %e call$ !m ,?is  ,only1 & _h head$  
!m ) ! words1 ,:y call ye ,me ,"l1 ,"l1 
& d n ! ?+s :i* ,i say8      ,o feeble  
lips t lapse f f]v5t pray]1      ,to    
smile at s91 & lightly laugh at %ame1   
,t 9 ! *amb] l\d y\r love decl>e1       
,& 9 ! _w sc>ce d>e to brea! ,8 "n1     
,:5ce w\ld ye call ,him ,"l8      ,o    
*angeful s\l6 n[ m\nt+ l ?9 fire1       
,skyw>d & ,godw>d2 n[ l ?+ ( night1     
,l[-grovell+1 smir*$1 & mid f\l mud &   
mire      ,trail+ :ite p9ions giv5 =    
/>ry flight1            ,d>e/ ?\ call   
,him ,"l8      ,o morn+'s hope6 ,o      
ev5+'s dull despair6      ,o l(ty       
purpose6 puny1 paltry de$6    ,o high   
resolve6 he>t big ) long+s fair6      ,o
 loveless life t be>s nor fl[] nor se$6 
,d>e ye to call ,him ,"l8      ,yea1 ,i 
w\ld call ,him ,"l1 & all ! m      ,=   

?is my s91 else 7 ,i sore undone2       
,say1 :o %\ld seek ,him1 if n ,i8 ,he   
wore      ,?is fle%y g>b1 yet 9 ,him s9 
0 none1            ,s may ,i call ,him  
,"l4      ,no heav5 ,i ask1 no          
cry/al-%9+ %ore1      ,nor realm (      
fl[]s--?is only w\ld ,i pray1    ,t mid 
all s9n+s1 /umbl+s sad & sore1      ,i  
/ill may cl+ to ,!e1 de> ,"l1 alway1    
,& /ill may call ,!e ,"l4    ,%e end$1 &
 z h] voice di$ away into a :isp] sweet 
& l[ z  ! re/ful ripple ( ! ra91 ,i hid 
my head betwe5 my h&s &  sobb$ al\d1 =  
some?+ !re 0 9 ! words & 9 h] way (     
repeat+ !m1 :i* c>ri$ me back 9 ?\ght to
 t vani%$  season ( ,y\? & ,hope :5     
pictures & poetry1 fl[]s & music1  z    
well z sunrise1 sunset1 & ! play ( ev5+ 
light ^u ! sea1  _h seem$ b z ! visible 
embodim5t ( my own ?\ghts1 & 7  inde$ to
 me z a "p ( my aspiration t[>ds a      
l(ti]1 loveli]  life4    ,& !n ,i       
rememb]$ :at mann] ( man ,i 01 & z !    
%ad[-horror ( my s9 arose spectre-l     
betwe5 myself & my  di/ant *ildhood1 ,i 

saw t little bro!r1 ! *ild t ,i once  _h
 be51 %r9k back & back ) sad reproa*ful 
eyes1 until ) a  sudd5 cry ( angui% &   
despair he turn$ f me1 & fl$ into !     
night4    ,illu/ration                  
,illu/ration          ,,*apt] ,,xiii4   
,a ,,dream ,,( ,,et]nal ,,re/4      ,d y
 see t "y man ) ! d>k1 delicate         
features8 %e  cont9u$1 giv+ an unexpect$
 turn to ! conv]sation4 ,i mean !  "o ) 
! br[n eyes t h s /range a look 9 !m4   
,he is a  poet1 & :5 he 0 on e>? he 0   
bl9d1 b 8 songs 7 sad z  ! sigh+ ( ! w9d
 9 ! p9e trees1 & sweet ) s\nd1 &       
p]fume1 & ! love ( woman4 ,he & ,i 7 !n1
 z n[1 ! mo/  devot$ ( fri5ds1 & x 0 our
 cu/om to sp5d "o ev5+ at lea/  9 ea*   
week toge!r4 ,sometimes we talk$ (      
places or ( pictures  79 bo? ( :i*1     
not)/&+ 8 bl9dness1 he took a s+ul>     
int]e/71 sometimes ( poetry or fl[]s4 ,n
 seldom he w\ld sket*  out = me ! plot (
 "s /ory he 0 writ+1 & (t5 ,i w\ld  read
 al\d :ile he sat li/5+ ) tranquil face 
& clos$ eyes 9  8 accu/om$ place by !   

fireside4 ,i rememb] t on "o occasion  !
 piece :i* we ?us read toge!r 0 ,jean   
,paul's ,dream ( ! ,dead  ,*ri/ say+ !re
 is no ,god1 & t :5 next ,i saw my      
poet-fri5d1  he told me t aft] ,i _h    
left him1 he _h fall5 asleep1 & dream$  
a dream :i* he spoke ( z '! mo/ impud5t 
piece ( plagi>i/ic  imitation :i* ev] 0 
p]petrat$1' & :i* he call$ 8 ',dream  ( 
,et]nal ,re/4'    ',z ,i sat "h 9 !     
d>kness :i* has n[ become to me l a h\se
  ( :i* ,i am ! only t5ant1' he said1   
',i fell asleep & dream$  t ,i saw my   
life ly+ beh9d me l ! l9e (             
phosphoresc5t  light :i* m>ks ! track ( 
a fall5 />--a l9e trac$ 9  d>kness1 &   
:i* aris+ 9 d>kness dies away into      
d>kness aga92  & 9 my dream an angel    
appe>$ unto me1 &1 lay+ 8 h& ^u my      
%\ld]1 said1 ,?\ :o probe/ ! my/]ies (  
life1 & pe]e/  into ! "t :i* is to be1  
arise1 come ) me1 & ,i w %[ !e  some?+ (
 t :i* ?\ seeke/4 ,s say+1 he /ret*$ =? 
8 h&1 :i* ,i clasp$1 & we set =? on our 
inf9ite j\rney4    ',:at abysmal realms 

( space we pass$ ,i "k n1 = ,i 0 z "o   
bewild]$ by ! swiftness ( our flight &  
by ! ru%+ beat (  ! angel's p9ions4 ,i  
rememb] t ev] & anon !re swam up  9 !   
d>kness a gleam ( light t 0 at fir/ no  
bigg] ?an a  s+le />1 b :i*1 z ,i look$1
 loom$ out ev] l>g] & l>g]1  & ea* mom5t
 seem$ to d\ble 9 magnitude1 until ,i   
trembl$ le/  x %\ld break ! b\nds ( !   
heav5s2 b ev5 z ,i trembl$1  x swept    
:irl+ by ) a s\nd l t ( inf9ite ?und]s1 
&1 rec$+ aga91 less5$ be=e my eyes z    
visibly z x _h  increas$1 & f9ally      
dw9dl+ to a m]e po9t ( light1 di$ away  
into d>kness4 ,ere long1 h[ev]1 !re     
appe>$ a flu% 9 ! di/ant  ea/1 & z we   
drew ne>] ,i saw t1 bel[ me & af>1 !re  
lay  a l& 9 :i* ! sun %one ) su* exce$+ 
spl5d\r1 t !  atmosph]e1 light-fill$ &  
lum9\s unto sp>kl+1 0 9 col\r  l unto ! 
col\r ( a ra9b[4 ,& ,i saw also t ! rays
 nei!r  dazzl$ nor scor*$1 z d ! rays ( 
! e>?ly sun4 ,& f> z  ! eye c\ld rea*   
/ret*$ %9+ hills1 se5 ?r\gh s(t vi/as  (
 purple & gold1 & sunny mead[s :]e9     

bloom$ fl[]s beautiful  z ! blu% ( a    
maid51 & pure z an angel's ?\ght4 ,&    
w9d+  9 & out among ! mead[s ran _m a   
rippl+ riv]2 & f\nta9s  also ,i saw1 !  
wat]s ( :i*1 z !y rose & fell sc9tillat+
  l a %[] ( />beams or spray ( diamonds1
 disc\rs$ music  sweet] ?an ! sigh+ (   
olian h>ps4 ,!n z ,i look$ yet clos]1   
,i saw1 w&]+ h& 9 h& among ! mead[s1 _m 
:ite-clad  figures1 :]eat my s\l wept = 
gladness2 & ,i turn$ to ! angel  say+1  
,surely ?is is t ,heav5 :]e( we read &  
:]e9 ,i w\ld  re/ = ev]8 = ,i am sore   
we>i$ ) ! toil & ! lab\r  ( e>?4 ,b he  
answ]$ me1 ,mortal1 ?\ kn[e/ n :at ?\   
aske/4 ,lift up ?9e eyes1 & see if ?\   
beholde/ aught else4    ',& ,i look$ to 
! "r h& & to ! left1 yet saw ,i only !  
sunny mead[s & riv]s ( ! l& ( fl[]s1 & !
 blue di/ance  ( ! bord]+ hills4 ,!n ,i 
turn$ me r\nd & gaz$ :5ce we  came1 b   
c\ld no?+ disc]n save remote pla9s (    
d>kness1 a?w>t  ! gloom ( :i* ,i saw    
fla% ev] & anon 7z "o sees fla% !  eyes 
( a bea/ at midnight7 ! glimm] ( a mov+ 

_w4 ,!n !  angel /ret*$ =? 8 h&1 po9t+  
me yet aga9 to ! di/ant  ea/1 & f> away 
beyond ! beaute\s realm ,i beheld a va/ 
pla9 (  desolation1 & beyond t a l& :]e(
 ,i c\ld no?+ see1 save  t a d>kness1 z 
( a twilight 9 :i* !re is no moon1      
brood$  above x l a cl\d4    ',:]eat a  
%udd]+ horror seiz$ me1 s t ,i c\ld look
 no m1  & turn+ to ! angel1 ,i said1    
,alas6 lie? ! region ( endless  night s 
nigh unto ! realm ( et]nal day8 ,b he   
answ]$ me  /]nly1 ,mortal1 ?\ speake/ t 
( :i* ?\ art ignorant4 ,come1  let u g  
?i!r1 t ?\ maye/ see1 & see+1 le>n4 ,&  
,i ca/  a long+ look ^u ! beaute\s l&1  
&1 lo6 on ! faces ( ^?  :o walk$ !re91  
,i saw a %ad[ z ( some?+ incomplete--n  
discont5t1 nei!r sorr[ nor c>e1 b ! look
 z ( an unfulfill$  aspiration2 b1 ev5 z
 ,i gaz$1 ! angel smote ! air ) eagle   
p9ion1 & ,i beheld no m until we came   
nigh unto our j\rney's end4  ,!n1 e     
/roke ( 8 w+ br++ u ne>]1 he turn$ to   
me1  once aga9 bidd+ me ,see1 & see+1   
le>n1 b at my he>t lay  su* a nameless  

t]ror t ,i 0 z "o spell-b\nd1 & dur/ n  
look ^u 8 face4 ,& ) trembl+ voice ,i   
made answ]1 ,suff] me  r to dep>t1 ,i   
pray !e6 = ,i w\ld n t m9e eyes %\ld    
behold ! horrors :]e( ,i h he>d1 & my   
s\l longe? to return  to ! l& ( fl[]s   
:]e9 !y toil n1 nei!r sorr[1 & :]e  ,i  
%all cease f lab\r & be at re/4    ',b =
 ! ?ird "t he bade me ,see1 & see+1     
le>n2 & z ,i  look$ ^u ! l& :i* lay bel[
 me1 ,i saw--in/ead ( ! realm  ( endless
 night--a %9+ city ( su* unimag9able    
beauty1 t my  he>t sank )9 me 9         
brea?less awe4 ,!n ! angel spread =? 8  
w+s /ill & motionless1 & we repos$ on ! 
azure air z a planet  floats ^u ! purple
 bosom ( night2 & ?\gh nei!r sun nor    
moon  0 set 9 ! peaceful heav51 ,i saw t
 !re re/$ ov] !  city ! s(t spl5d\r z ( 
a _w ( f>-(f />s4 ,!re 0 b  "o gate1 &  
ov] t 0 writt5 9 lett]s ( light1 ,my    
,fa!r  worke? hi!rto1 & ,i "w1 at :i* ,i
 m>vell$ exce$+ly2 &  inside ! gate     
walk$ be+s ( su* div9e dignity & s\l    
beauty  t ,i c\ld h knelt wor%ipp+ be=e 

!m1 7 x n t !y  too 7 ( human =m &      
feature2 & ,i saw t all 7 e>ne/ly  b    
unha/ily engag$ 9 "s mann] ( "w1 at :i* 
!y toil$  s]5ely4 ,& on e =ehead 0 set !
 seal ( a high purpose1  & ov] ! city   
!re re/$ ! calm ( an immeasurable peace4
 ,!n  sil5tly up/ole 9 ! sky ! dawn+s ( 
a great light1 deep &  wide z ! inf9ite 
( ,heav51 & a?w>t ! glory !re( !re      
spread ! =e-spl5d\rs z ( ! approa* ( an 
,awful ,pres5ce4    ',& ar\nd me fell a 
d>kness l unto midnight1 &1 turn+ to me 
yet aga9 ! angel said1 ,mortal1 ?\ maye/
 behold no m4 ,return  to ?y home & to  
?y lab\r1 nev] m to murmur or compla91 &
  :5 ?\ longe/ aft] ! repose ( ! _w to  
come1 "k = a  surety t !re is no re/    
ei!r 9 e>? or 9 heav51 save 9 !         
fulfilm5t ( ! "w :i* ,god w\ld h !e to  
d2 & s say+1  he too pass$ away into !  
d>kness1 &--,i awoke4'    ,t is a s+ul> 
dream1 ,i said1 al?\gh x 0 sc>cely      
necess>y  to h m5tion$ t y\r fri5d _h   
be5 mak+ a /udy ( ,jean  ,paul4 ,b ,i   
suppose !re really is "w to d 9 ,heav58 

,x is v mu* z x is on e>? 9 t respect1  
%e answ]$1  except+ t "h "o loves "o's  
"w1 &1 al?\gh "h  too1 !re are alt]nate 
p]iods ( lab\r & repose1 x w\ld be      
difficult = "s ( u to say :i* is !      
sweet]4 ,i c\ld tell  y :i* ,i love ! m1
 b !n all our "w is ( our ,fa!r's       
ord]+1 & ,he kn[s j :at is be/ = ea* (  
u4 ,"s :o  come "h 7nev] m9d my smile6  
,i 0 ?9k+ ( ! 'tir$ woman'  :o 0 'go+ to
 d no?+ = ev] & ev]'7 h to take a v     
long holiday be=e !y are all[$ to put h&
 to any?+2 &  o!rs !re are ^: fir/ task 
x is to le>n ^? lessons :i*1  ?r\gh     
unfav\rable circum/ances or ! accid5ts (
 _! bir?1  x 0 h>dly to be expect$ !y   
c\ld h le>n$ on e>?4 ,!re  are "s ( !   
poore/ ( ! poor 9 ,ea/ ,london1 among   
:om by our  ,fa!r's direction ,i am n[  
work+1 :o ,i believe h _h sc>cely  m    
opportunity ( kn[+ :at ,*ri/ianity means
 to !m ?an h  ! v hea!n4 ,"s1 :5 !y come
 "h1 h to />t f !  beg9n+1 s y c believe
 t = y :o c write1 z well z  = ^? :o c  
prea*1 !re is e opportunity = ! ex]cise 

( ,god's gifts--only rememb]6 %e add$   
sadly1 b ) a smile1  t ! popul> prea*] (
 e>?1 be he poet or p>son1 is n  always 
! man :o c d mo/ good 9 heav51 = "h "o  
is expect$  to practise z well z to     
prea*4    ,s y are entru/$ ) ! task (   
m9i/]+ to c]ta9 ( !  poor 9 ,ea/        
,london8 ,i said2 ,i _h no idea t our   
,fa!r p]mitt$  ^? :o _h once left ! _w  
to return to x aga94    ,half ( our "w1 
& m1 is on e>?1 %e made answ]4 ,x 0 to  
tell y ( t t ,i po9t$ out my poet-fri5d1
 ! dream] (  dreams1 to y4 ,himself a   
poet1 he 0 ! son ( a poet1 :o _h liv$   
to see all else he lov$ on e>? pass away
 be=e him2 & :5 ?is  boy1 8 d>l+ hope & 
only companion1 0 also tak51 ! old man  
0 left lonely1 desolate & infirm4 ,b n s
 lonely z "o might  imag9e1 = 8 boy     
seldom leaves him1 & ! "w :i* ,god has  
set  ap>t = ! poet-son1 & :i* is to him 
! re/+-"w ( heav51  is to be ) 8 fa!r 9 
all sorr[1 to m9i/] to him 9 all  pa91 &
 to be ) him 9 e wakeful or we>y mom5t1 
8 unse5  com=t] & fri5d4    ,i 0 int]e/$

 9 :at %e relat$1 = ,i rememb]$ t :5 ,i 
0  sitt+ "o ev5+ ) ! poet-fa!r1 he _h   
told me t1 =  all 8 lonel9ess1 he 0 nev]
 alone4 ,no1 ,i am nev] lonely1 he      
said1 al?\gh y w p]haps ?9k :at ,i am   
go+ to tell y is  b an old mans' fancy4 
,a night or two aft] my de> boy di$1 ,i 
0  ?9k+ ( my dead y\?1 & ( my dead wife1
 ( my dead fri5ds &  my dead *ildr51    
until x seem$ to me z if ,i1 too1 ought 
long s9ce  to h be5 buri$1 = ,i 0 l+]+  
on 7l a spectral moon :5  ! sun is high7
 ! liv+ gho/ ( a vani%$ pa/4 ,! g5]ation
  _h dep>t$ :i* ,i knew1 & ! "o :i* 0   
gr[+ up ar\nd me  0 too busy li/5+ to ! 
songs ( its own s+]s to give e> to  m9e4
 ,z ! ?\ght ( my lonel9ess1 my loveless 
life1 & my boy's  newly-made grave1 away
 out 9 ! dre>y cemet]y1 came ov] me1 ,i 
did  t :i* 0 c[>dly & fai?less1 & dropp$
 my head ^u my  h&s & wept4 ,!n x 0 t   
!re came a t\* ^u my arm1 & a  voice 9  
my e>1 & ?\gh ,i knew none else 0 9 !   
room1 ,i 0 n  afraid1 b answ]$ )\t look+
 up3 ',:o is x8'    ',x is only ,i1 de> 

fa!r1' ! voice repli$1 'only y\r boy4 ,y
  mu/ n be unhappy ab\t me1 = ?\gh ,i h 
greatly s9n$1 yet ,i  h be5 greatly     
=giv51 & am p]fectly1 peacefully happy4'
    ,my son !n w5t on to tell me1 ! old 
man cont9u$1 t = me  !re 0 to be no m   
lonel9ess1 = t 9 all my sleepless nights
  & sorr[ful days1 he w\ld be ) me ev] &
 always1 my con/ant  companion & com=t]1
 until = me too ! "t %all come :51      
',midnight wak+1 twilight weep+1 heavy  
noontide--all are done4'           99   
99       99       99       99    ,t is a
 v t\*+ incid5t1 said my fri5d1 :5 ,i _h
  relat$ ?is conv]sation to h]4 ,if all 
e>?-dwell]s 7 z  spiritually-m9d$ z     
yond] poet's poet-fa!r1 & 7 z capable  (
 appreh5d+ h[ real a ?+ spiritual       
companion%ip may be1 our  dead w\ld soon
 cease to be call$ our 'lo/ ones1' &    
dea? w\ld no  long] be spok5 ( z !      
'great p>t+4' ,dea? gives u m fri5ds    
?an he takes f u1 & (t5 br+s u ne>] to  
^? :o h  gone be=e1 ?an we 7 dur+ _!    
lifetime4 ,?\gh x is n9ete5  hundr$ ye>s

 s9ce our ,ma/]1 ,*ri/1 trod ! e>? a    
visible  ,pres5ce1 yet ,he is m to ! _w 
to-day1 & ne>] to ea*  sep>ate s\l 9 x1 
?an ev] ,he 0 to ! m5 & wom5 :o t\*$    
g>m5ts ) ,him :5 ,he walk$ ! fields (   
,pale/9e4 ,!n su*  z s\ght ,8 aid _h (t5
 to wait ,8 com+ 9 we>9ess &  weakness (
 s\l1 :il/ n seldom x happ5$ t !y c\ld n
  obta9 access to him 'because ( !      
?rong1' & we read ev5 ( "o  :o 0 fa9 to 
climb a tree to cat* a glimpse ( ,him 9 
pass+4  ,n[ ,he /&s by ea* ( u1 wait+ & 
will+ to he>4 ,!n !y  _h to g to ,him2  
n[ ,he comes to u1 & is ) u always & 9  
e place4 ,i tell y t ,jesus ,*ri/ is z  
real a ,pres5ce to-day  9 ! /reets (    
,london or ,bo/on1 z ,he 0 9 ! homes (  
,naz>e?  or ,j]usalem4 ,he is z ne> to u
 n[ z ,he 0 to ,m>?a & to ,m>y1  & is z 
will+ to help & he> y or me1 z ,he 0 to 
heal !  sick1 or to p>don ! dy+ ?ief2 & 
!n 9 a l[1 sweet voice %e  repeat$ !    
foll[+ l9es f ,:itti]'s poem1 ,our      
,ma/]3--      ,b w>m1 sweet1 t5d]1 ev5  
yet      ,a pres5t help is ,he2    ,&   

fai? has /ill its ,olivet1      ,& love 
its ,galilee4      ,! heal+ ( ,8        
seamless dress      ,is by our b$s (    
pa92    ,we t\* ,him 9 life's ?rong &   
press1      ,& we are :ole aga94        
,?r\gh ,him ! fir/ fond pray]s are said1
      ,our lips ( *ildhood frame1    ,! 
la/ l[ :isp]s ( our dead      ,are      
burd5$ ) ,8 "n4    ,! ?\ght t ! 'la/ l[ 
:isp]s' ( ! lov$ ones :o h  left u 7    
'burd5$' ) ! ,"n :i* we fir/ le>n$ to   
lisp  at our "m's knee is a v t5d] &    
beautiful "o1 %e said  rev]5tly1 aft] a 
mom5t's sil5ce4 ,we seem to see our own 
fa!rs  & mo!rs1 & _! fa!rs & mo!rs1 l9k$
 to ourselves1 &  ?r\gh u to our *ildr5 
& our *ildr5's *ildr51 until all !      
g5]ations ( ! _w--pa/1 pres5t1 &        
future--become z "o  family 9 a great   
bond ( fell[%ip1 ev5 z all ! joy & sorr[
 (  humanity f9d "o common home 9 ! he>t
 ( ! ,"l ,*ri/ :o loves  u4    ,i am n  
sure t ,i realize ?is love ( ,8 ( :i* y 
speak1 ,i  said sadly4 ,x is s vague &  
va/ t ,i become lo/1 & feel t  ,i h no  

p]sonal hold ^u x4 ,h[ c ,he love ! :ole
 _w1 &  yet love ea* sep>ate individual 
9 x ) an affection z di/9ct  z t :i* ,i 
feel = my wife & *ildr58    ,y _c       
realize x z exi/+ 9 y\rself1 %e made    
answ]1  al?\gh ev5 y love all y\r       
*ildr51 & yet love ea* "o (  !m ) a     
di/9ct & p]sonal love2 b !n y _c ord] ! 
succession ( ! seasons1 or /ay a planet 
^u its c\rse1 & y  might j z well try to
 measure ,god's p[] by y\r p[]1 z try to
  appreh5d ! love :i* passe? und]/&+ by 
lik5+ x to y\r  own4 ,b y w "k :at ,*ri/
 is to u "o day4    ,tell me m ( ,him1  
,i :isp]$ eag]ly2 tell me m ( ,him4 ,did
  y love ,him z e>ne/ly & believe 9 ,him
 z tru/fully :5 y  7 on e>? z y d n[8   
,n always1 %e answ]$ sadly1 n always 7&1
 oh6 x 0 su*  'cold com=t'--! talk ( !  
,pan!i/s & ! ,dei/s to :om  ,i _h gone71
 b ,i came at la/ to see t ! ,cross (   
,*ri/ is  humanity's only hope4 ,i came1
 too1 to ?9k t ,i c\ld bett] be>  to    
disbelieve 9 a ,god at all ?an to       
disbelieve 9 ! ,savi\r4 ',by  ,a!ism1'  

,i said to myself1 ',i lose only a      
,deity ( :om 7except+  = !              
gospel-revelation7 ,i "k practically    
no?+1 b 9 los+  ,*ri/ ,i lose all--?is  
_w's hope z well z ! next's4' ,!re is  n
 a cre$ :i* has be5 (f]$ u dur+ ! la/   
eighte5 hundr$  ye>s z a sub/itute =    
fai? 9 ! ,savi\r :i* does n take !  v   
basis ( its be+ f ,*ri/ianity4    ,yes1 
,i said2 b _m p w tell y t ,*ri/ianity  
is  no?+ m ?an a skilfully-fram$ fable1 
cunn+ly devis$ to adapt  itself to our  
human ne$s4    ,*ri/ 01 & ,*ri/ianity 0 
be=e humanity or its ne$s came  into    
be+1 %e made answ]2 & ! sacrifice ( !   
,cross 0 no  aft]?\ght giv5 z a         
concession to our human requirem5ts4 ,on
 !  contr>y1 our human requirem5ts 7    
giv5 u t we1 ?r\gh !m1  might come by   
way ( ,calv>y to ! feet ( ,*ri/2 & x is 
because  x has be5 ,god's purpose f all 
et]nity to save ! s9n] by !  sacrifice (
 ,himself t y & ,i feel our ne$ ( a     
,savi\r4    ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i d inde$   
feel t :atev] help comes to me mu/ be   

some?+ outside myself1 & t no sorr[+ (  
m9e c atone =  ! pa/2 b ,i feel also t  
,i1 & ,i only1 am responsible = :at ,i  
h done1 & t to lay t responsibility ^u  
ano!r is utt]ly  inadequate to satisfy  
ev5 my limit$ s5se ( ju/ice--besides :i*
  ,i nev] c & nev] w believe 9 !        
possibility ( ! innoc5t  be+ all[$ to   
suff] = ! guilty4    ,b ! innoc5t d     
suff] = ! guilty1 %e said1 ev5 9 !  v   
e>?-_w1 by ! laws ( :i* y wi% to judge !
 heav5ly  "o4 ,y pr(ess y\rself will+ to
 abide by ! evid5ce ( y\r  s5ses1 & if y
 w only look back ^u ! e>?-life :i* y  h
 left1 y w see t ! s9s ( ! fa!rs are    
visit$ ^u  ! *ildr51 & t ! innoc5t are  
suff]+ = ! guilty e  day1 & t ,god1 = "s
 good reason ( ,8 own1 all[s x to be s4 
,z = :at y say ab\t y\r s5se ( ju/ice1  
,i agree ) y t  if a man run into y\r   
debt--run into y\r debt by wilful &     
wick$  c\rses--he mu/ be held answ]able 
= ! repaym5t ( ! money4  ,b suppos+ "o  
comes =w>d :o loves him1 & :o has wat*$ 
8  s9n+s ) sorr[1 & says1 ',i w pay = my

 fri5d t :i* he  _c pay = himself1' w\ld
 n y\r s5se ( ju/ice be satisfi$8       
,ev5 !n ! moral obligation rema9s1 ,i   
object$4    ,yes1 b t obligation has be5
 transf]r$1 %e said1 al?\gh  z a matt] (
 fact1 x is aga9/ ,god r ?an aga9/ man1 
t  our blacke/ s9s are committ$4 ,b1    
indep5d5tly ( t side (  ! "q1 ,*ri/ has 
tak5 ! consequ5ces ( y\r s91 & (  !     
wrong y did ,doro?y--! consequ5ces to   
h]1 z well z to  y\rself--^u ,himself1 &
 has suff]$ = y & = h] 9 ,8 own  p]son1 
& if ,he be will+ to =give1 !n are y    
=giv5 inde$6    ,t reconciliation by !  
,savi\r %\ld at any "t h be5 to  me an  
intellectual /umbl+-block is n[ beyond  
my compreh5sion1  %e cont9u$ e>ne/ly4 ,9
 its v adaptability to our human ne$s1  
,*ri/ianity be>s ! /amp ( its div9e     
orig94 ,left to himself1 !  v be/ ( u   
mu/ feel 8 inability ei!r to atone = !  
evil  he has already done1 or to )/& !  
temptations :i* yet await  him 9 !      
future1 & ?\gh he /ruggle "r manfully to
 clamb]  out ( ! gulf into :i* he has   

fall51 ! dead-weight ( 8 s9s1  :i* he   
c>ries & mu/ c>ry *a9$ log-l ab\t him1  
is ev] !  heavie/ clog to drag him back4
 ,b ,*ri/ianity does m = a man  ?an     
m]ely =give him 8 debts4 ,x sets !      
bankrupt ^u 8 legs  aga91 a solv5t man &
 sane1 ) a clean bill ( heal?1 & )  a   
fre% />t 9 life4 ,x is ! religion (     
,hope1 = none is too  s9ful = ! ,savi\r 
to save1 & to ! man :o br+s 8 s9s1  z   
well z 8 inability to resi/ 8 s9s1 to ! 
feet ( ,*ri/1  !re is inde$ a pres5t    
,help & ,hope 9 all 8 tr\bles6 ,!re is  
mu*--v mu*--9 ,*ri/ianity t ,i _c & d n 
pret5d to  und]/&1 b ,i c und]/& en\gh  
to make me v lov+ &  v tru/ful4 ,! only 
my/]y :i* /ill sometimes tr\bles me is  
t mo/ t]rible ( all my/]ies--! my/]y (  
human suff]+4  ,b ev5 t ,i am cont5t to 
leave1 = is n our ,god ,himself a       
suff]+ ,god8 & :o t witness$ ! suff]+s (
 ,jesus ,*ri/  7& :at suff]+s 7 ev] l to
 ,887 c\ld h =ese5 t  ! cruel ,cross    
:]eon ,he hung %\ld h]eaft] be ! f+]-po/
  to po9t ! way to heav58 or t b5ea? ,8 

cry ( agony 9 !  g>d51 ,god he>d !      
triumph-song ( a ransom$ _w8            
,illu/ration          ,illu/ration      
,,*apt] ,,xiv4    ,,hope4      ,at la/  
!re came a "t1 ev5 9 hell1 :5 ! burd5 ( 
my s9 lay  s heavily ^u me1 t ,i felt ,i
 c\ld be> x no long]1 & t if  succ\r !re
 came none1 ! v s\l ( me mu/ )] away &  
die4  ,x 0 n t ,i want$ to evade !      
puni%m5t ( my crime1 = ,i  0 will+ &    
wi%$ to und]go x to ! utt]mo/4 ,no1 t   
:i*  0 s t]rible to me 0 ! ?\ght t n all
 ! suff]+s (  et]nity c\ld avail to wipe
 away ! awful /a9 ^u my _s1 or  to undo 
! evil :i* ,i _h br\ght ^u ! woman ,i _h
 ru9$4 ,(  myself & ( my future1 save = 
! cont9ual cry+-out ( my s\l  aft] its  
lo/ purity1 ,i sc>cely c>$ n[ to ?9k4 ,x
 0 ( ,doro?y  t my he>t 0 full2 x 0 =   
,doro?y t ,i nev] ceas$ to  sorr[1 to   
lam5t1 &--s9n]1 ?\gh ,i 0--to pray4 ,i  
saw !n !  inevitable consequ5ces ( !    
wrong ,i _h done h] pictur$ =? 9  all _!
 horror4 ,i saw h]1 ) ! s5se ( h] s9 z  
yet b fre%  ^u h]1 %r9k+ f e glance1 &  

fancy+ t %e read !  k ( h] guilt 9 e    
eye4 ,i saw h]1 n kn[+ :]e to  turn =   
refuge f swiftly-advanc+ %ame1 & und]/&+
 no m  ( ?is life ( ours ?an a fooli%   
lo/ lamb w&]+ f>!r &  f>!r 9 !          
nightfall1 /eal+ /eal?ily =? at dusk to 
hide  h]self f h] fell[-creatures4    ,i
 saw h]1 :5 ! secret ( h] %ame c\ld no  
long] be conceal$1  recoil+ 9 mute t]ror
 f ! glance ( co>se admiration on !     
faces ( s5sual m51 or %r9k+ 9 quiv]+    
agony f ! look  ( curi\s scorn 9 ! eyes 
( maids & mo!rs1 :o drew aside  _!      
skirts z %e pass$ !m1 z if fe>ful ( be+ 
contam9at$  by h] t\*4 ,& !n--driv5 out 
f _! mid/ by ! v  ,*ri/ian wom5 :o %\ld 
h be5 ! fir/ to h held out a h&  to save
 h]--,i saw h] turn away ) a he>t h>d5$ 
into braz5  indiff]5ce1 & plunge        
headlong into a bottomless gulf (       
ignom9y  & s94    ,nor did ! vision pass
 f me until1 out ( t see?+ vortex  ( lu/
 & infamy1 ,i saw arise ! black phantom 
( an immortal  s\l :i* 0 lo/ = ev]1 cry+
 out unto ,god & ,8 ,*ri/ =  judgm5t ^u 

! s$uc]6           99       99       99 
99       99    ,z ^! hide\s spectres ( !
 pa/ arose aga9 be=e me1 ,i fell to  !  
gr\nd1 & %riek$ out "u ! burd5 ( my s91 
z only he c  %riek :o is torn by        
hell-torture & despair4 ,b ev5 z ,i     
%riek$1  ,i felt t burd5 lift$ & borne  
away f me1 & !n ,i saw1 z 9  a vision1  
,"o kneel+ 9 pray]4 ,& ,i1 :o _h cri$   
out t ,i c\ld  be> ! burd5 ( my s9 no   
long]1 saw t ^u ,him 0 laid1 n  only my 
s91 b ! s9s ( ! :ole _w1 & t ,he /oop$ (
  ,8 own accord to receive !m4 ,& z ,i  
look$ ^u ! ,div9e dignity  ( t agoniz$  
=m--=sak5 ( ,8 ,fa!r t we might nev] be 
=sak51 & b[$ d[n "u a burd51 comp>$ to  
:i*1 all !  horrors ( hell 7 b z ! pass+
 phantom ( a pa9--,i saw great  beads ( 
blood break out l sweat ^u ,8 br[1 & ,i 
he>d wrung  f ,him a cry ( su*          
unutt]able angui% z nev] be=e rose f    
human lips4 ,& at t cry ! vision pass$1 
& ,i awoke to f9d  myself 9 hell once m1
 b 9 my he>t !re 0 a /irr+ z (  ! w+s ( 
hope--! hope :i* ,i _h deem$ dead to me 

= ev]4    ,c\ld x be--,o ,god ( m]cy6 0 
x possible t ev5 n[ x might  n be too   
late8--t !re 0 inde$ ,"o :o c\ld make my
 s9 z  ?\gh x _h nev] be58--:o ( ,8     
great love = ,doro?y & =  me1 w\ld be> x
 & its consequ5ces z ,8 own burd58 & :o 
by  ! cleans+ p[] ( ! blood :i* ,he _h  
%$ ^u ! cross1  c\ld wa% h] s\l & m9e   
:it] ?an ! :it5ess ( sn[8    ,b to ?is  
hope !re succe$$ a mom5t :5 ! agoniz$   
?\ght3  ,h[ if !re be no ,*ri/8 leapt   
out at me1 l ! d>kness :i*  looms b !   
black] = ! lightn+-fla%2 a mom5t :5 hell
 gat  hold on me aga91 & a ?\s& gibb]+  
devils arose to %riek 9 my  e>3 ,& ?\gh 
!re be a ,*ri/1 is x n n[ too late8     
,i reel$ at t cry1 & ! d>kness seem$    
once m to close 9  ar\nd4 ,a horde (    
hide\s ?\ghts1 ! v spawn ( hell1 sw>m$  
l v]m9 9 my m9d2 !re 0 ! brea? z ( a ho/
 ( cont5d+  fi5ds ^u my face2 a hundr$  
hungry h&s laid hold on me1 & /rove  to 
drag me d[n & d[n z to a bottomless pit2
 b ) a great cry  to ,god1 ,i flung !   
f\l ?+s f me2 & battl+1 beat+1 l a      

dr[n+ man = brea?1 ,i fell at ! feet ( a
 woman1 :ite-veil$1  & clad 9 robes l ! 
morn+1 ^: h& x 0 t _h pluck$  me f !    
abyss 9 :i* ,i lay4    ,illu/ration     
,illu/ration          ,,*apt] ,,xv4     
,,heav54      ,x seem$ to me !n t ,i    
fell into a sleep1 deep1 & sweet1 &     
re/ful1 9 :i* ,i dreamt t ,i 0 a *ild   
ly+ ^u ! bosom (  ,god4 ,i rememb] t1 z 
,i lay1 ,i /irr$ 9 my slumb]1 &1 rais+  
myself1 *anc$ 9 op5+ my eyes to look    
bel[1 b t ) a  cry ( t]ror ,i turn$ &   
clung l a fright$ babe to my ,fa!r's    
brea/1--= b5ea? me & af>1 !re yet yawn$ 
! m\? ( hell1  f :i*1 ev] & anon1 roll$ 
d5se cl\ds ( hot & hiss+  smoke1 t seem$
 to twi/ & wri! l s\ls 9 agony1 & :i*  9
 col\r 7 l unto ! col\r ( blood4    ,&  
,i ?\ght t1 see+ my fe>1 my ,fa!r /oop$ 
to me z a "m  /oops to com=t h] fright5$
 babe1 & t z ,he /oop$ ,i beheld  ,8    
face1 & knew x = ! face ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 
& t ,he bade  me be ( good *e]1 =       
und]nea? !e are ! ev]la/+ arms4    ,z   
,he s spake ,i awoke1 & saw t %e ^: h&  

_h pluck$ me out  ( ! abyss ( horror    
into :i* ,i _h fall51 yet knelt beside  
me 9  t5d] m9i/ry & pray]1 & t %e 0 s++ 
a hymn s(tly to  h]self :]e( ,i he>d    
only a v]se3--      ,i "k n :]e ,8 isl&s
 lift      ,_! frond$ palms 9 air2    ,i
 only "k ,i _c drift      ,beyond ,8    
love & c>e4    ,%e ceas$1 & ,i arose1 b 
ere ,i _h "t to "q h]1 ,i  0 consci\s ( 
a sudd5 /illness1 l ! hu% :i* foll[s    
b5$iction aft] pray]4 ,don't y he> x8 %e
 :isp]$ eag]ly1  z ) uprais$ h& enjo9+  
sil5ce1 %e turn$ h] head z if to  cat*  
"s f>-(f murmur1 ,don't y he> x8 ,!y are
 pray+ = y  at home3 kneel d[n6 ,& z h] 
words di$ away1 !re seem$ to float      
t[>ds me ! s\nd ( air-borne music t /ay$
 = "o mom5t  to fold me r\nd ) ! sweet  
consolations ( lov+ companion%ip  & (   
peace1 & 9 ! next /ole swiftly & s(tly  
away z if  j\rney+ onw>d & upw>d to !   
?rone ( ,god4    ,& ) a great cry (     
angui% ,i fell to my knees & pray$3 ,o  
,"l  ,*ri/6 ,i am f\l & selfi% & s9ful6 
,i d n "k t ,i love  ,!e6 ,i d n "k t ,i

 h rep5t$ ( my s9s ev56 ,i only "k  t ,i
 _c d ! ?+s ,i w\ld d1 & t ,i c nev]    
undo !  evil ,i h done4 ,b ,i come to   
,!e1 ,"l ,jesus1 ,i come to ,!e z  ,?\  
bidde/ me4 ,s5d me n away1 ,o ,savi\r ( 
s9n]s4 ,am54    ,z ,i end$1 x seem$ t my
 companion turn$ to leave me1 & ,i fell 
to sobb+ & sorr[+1 until at la/ = v     
angui% ,i c\ld sob  no m4 ,b soon ,i    
he>d aga9 h] return+ foot/eps1 &1 look+ 
up1 ,i saw ,"o :o /ood beside h]1       
?orn-cr[n$1 & clad 9 robes (  :ite4 ,8  
features 7 ! features ( a man1 b ,8 face
 0 !  face ( ,god6    ,& z ,i look$ ^u t
 face1 ,i %rank back daz$ & brea?less  &
 bl9d$2--%rank back ) a cry l ! cry ( "o
 smitt5 (  ! lightn+2 = b5ea? ! wide    
:ite br[ !re %one out eyes1  be=e !     
awful purity ( :i* my s9-/a9$ s\l seem$ 
to scor*  & %rivel l a scroll 9 a       
furnace4 ,b z ,i lay1 lo6 !re came a    
t5d] t\* ^u my head1 & a voice 9 my e> t
 :isp]$1 ,son4    ,& z ! ^w di$ away    
into a sil5ce l ! hall[$ hu%  ( li/5+   
angels1 & ,i /ret*$ =? my arms ) a cry (

  unutt]able long+ & love1 ,i saw t ,he 
held "o by ! h&--ev5  %e :o _h pluck$ me
 out ( ! abyss into :i* ,i _h fall5--&  
,i  saw t %e 0 no long] veil$4 ,x 0     
,doro?y--,doro?y :om ,he _h  ( ,8       
inf9ite love s\ght out & sav$ f ! %ame  
to :i* my  s9 _h consign$ h]1 & :om ,he 
_h s5t to succ\r me1 t s ,he  might set 
^u my s\l ! seal ( ,8 p>don & ( ,8      
peace4 ,& to  ,him be ! praise4 ,am54   
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,,dean ,,/anley',s ,,life ,,( ,,dr4     
,,arnold4 ,! ,life & ,correspond5ce (   
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half-calf1 #gs4   #f;d4 ,libr>y         
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,pa9t+ 9 ,engl&4 ,by ,horace ,walpole4  
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,locke's ,essays3 ,on ,tol]ation1       
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#ai ,essays on ,beauty & ,ta/e3 ,on     
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,ta/e1 by ,ar*ibald ,alison1 ,,ll4,d4   
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#bc ,sydney ,smi?'s ,essays1 ,social &  
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