,,an ,,index ,,f+]4 ,,an ,,index ,,f+] ,,by ,,tulis ,,abrojal 8,all ! ,sutras are b f+]s t po9t out ! %9+ moon40 8,man1 ?\ live/ =ev]40 ,has any "o suppos$ x is lucky to be born8 ,i ha/5 to in=m him1 or h]1 x is j z lucky to die1 & ,i "k x4 ,?is day be=e dawn ,i asc5d$ a hill & look'd at ! cr[d$ heav54 ,& ,i said to my _s3 ,:5 we become ! unfold]s ( ^? orbs1 & ! pleasure & k ( ev]y?+ 9 !m1 %all we be fill$ & satisfi$ !n8 ,& my _s said3 ,no1 we b level t lift to pass & cont9ue beyond4 --,,walt ,,:itman4 ,illu/ration ,r4 ,f4 ,,f5no ,,company1 #i & #aa ,,ea/ ,,sixte5? ,,/reet3 ,,new ,,york ,,city #ahih ,copyright1 #ahig ,,by ,,tulis ,,abrojal4 ,an ,index ,f+]4 ,,d$ication4 ,to ^? :o fai?fully foll[ _! ideals1 ev] do+ ! "w !y love to d1 always giv+ to ! _w ! be/ t is 9 !m--! tru? z !y see x--?\gh 9 ! face ( difficulties1 disa/]s & defeat2 endur+ p]secution1 pov]ty & want1 meet+ ! dread spectre ( />vation1 suff]+ dea? itself if ne$ be1 yet c\nt+ all n too great a price to pay = ! fre$om ( _! s\ls1 ?is book is sympa!tically d$icat$4 ,,cont5ts4 ,,*ap4 ,,page ,,preface #g ,i4 ,,! ,,*ild ,,& ,,h] ,,own ,,p #ac ,,ii4 ,,:]e ,,! ,,road ,,divides #dj ,,iii4 ,,confid5ces ,,& ,,que/ions #ef ,,iv4 ,,h] ,,/ory ,,& ,,fate #gd ,v4 ,,! ,,end ,,( ,,! ,,dream #ib ,,vi4 ,,! ,,butt]fly #aaj ,,vii4 ,,opportunity #aca ,,viii4 ,,dea?',s ,,n>r[ ,,sea #adh ,,ix4 ,,?+s ,,n ,,dream$ ,,( ,,9 ,,ev]yday ,,philosophy #aef ,x4 8,,ye ,,%all ,,n ,,und]/&0 #afh ,,xi4 ,a ,,little ,,bo>d ,,bridges ,,! ,,great ,,gulf #agi ,,xii4 ,,& ,,! ,,prophet ,,0 ,,/on$ #bjb ,,xiii4 ,,! ,,tongues ,,( ,,angels #bah ,,xiv4 ,,! ,,simple ,,way #bdj ,,xv4 ,,x ,,is ,,well ,,) ,,! ,,*ild #bdh ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,/ory ,,( ,,"o ,,return$ ,,f ,,! ,,dead #bed ,,xvii4 ,,uproot+ ,a ,,human ,,tree #bgg ,,xviii4 ,,bohemia',s ,,highways ,,& ,,byways #bic ,,xix4 ,,! ,,joys #caj ,,xx4 ,,p ,,( ,,! ,,pa/ #cag ,,xxi4 ,,! ,,butt]fly',s ,,flight #cca ,,xxii4 ,,! ,,prop ,,t ,,fail$ #cdj ,,xxiii4 ,,! ,,book ,,& ,,its ,,critics #cec ,,xxiv4 ,,:o ,,are ,,!y8 #ceh ,,xxv4 ,,la/ ,,words #cgi ,,preface4 ,! good old cu/om ( ! au?or tell+ 8 read]s 9 a preface :y he wrote 8 book1 happily has n yet gone out ( date4 ,?\gh no p>ticul> fri5d to guide-bo>d lit]ature 9 g5]al1 ,i confess to a weakness = ! preface4 ,x has its helpful uses4 ,!re ! au?or c talk directly to 8 read]s1 )\t filt]+ 8 ?\ghts ?r\gh ! bra9s ( 8 *>act]s2 & 9 consequ5ce ! read]s come into clos] sympa?y ) him & und]/& him bett]4 ,9 n a few cases ,i h wi%$ books 7 all preface4 ,i hope o!rs may n wi% s 9 ?is case4 ,9 ! preface we meet ! au?or face to face1 z x 71 & he becomes ours or we become 8 at once4 ,x is a little confid5tial glimpse into 8 s\l1 :i* he k9dly gives u be=e we ent] x by means ( ! book4 ,yes1 ,i am decid$ly 9 favor ( ! preface1 bo? z read] & au?or4 ,a "t-honor$ me?od ( prefatory writ+1 made ! au?or assume a mode/y t 0 self-depreciatory 9 ! extreme4 ,m (t5 ?an n he w>n$ read]s (f by ?r[+ out h9ts disp>ag+ 8 own ability4 ,to su* few read]s z he ?\ght might foll[ him ?r\gh ! book 9 spite ( 8 assurance t x w\ld be unpr(itable to d s1 he apologiz$ ) ! utmo/ humility = ! wa/e ( _! "t & dra9 ^u _! pati5ce = :i* he 0 ab\t to be responsible4 ,i %all d no su* ?+4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i believe t he :o reads ?is book w n f9d 8 "t ill sp5t4 ,its !me is ! mo/ important t c engage ! human race4 ,x is my answ] to ! mightie/ "q ev] prop\nd$4 ,my answ]4 ,its value ext5ds t f> & no f>!r4 8,x is only insight into ! gr\nd ( be+ t secures satisfaction & ?or\gh k40 ,my light may be only a ru%-light2 b su* z x is ,i obey ! behe/ to let x %9e4 ,says "o ( ! greate/ ( mod]n philosoph]s3 8,if any?+ 9 ! _w is wor? wi%+ =--s well wor? wi%+ = t ev5 ! ignorant & dull h]d 9 its m reflective mom5ts w\ld prize x m ?an silv] or gold--x is t a ray ( light %\ld fall on ! obscurity ( our be+1 & t we %\ld ga9 "s explanation ( our my/]i\s exi/5ce1 9 :i* no?+ is cle> b its mis]y & its vanity40 ,to ea* ( u ?+s are :at !y appe> f ea* p>ticul> po9t ( view4 ,our idea is our limitation4 ,he :o writes a book pres5ts to o!r m9ds a picture ( life z x appe>s to him1 f :atev] po9t ( view he has *os54 ,8 "w portrays bo? t :i* he sees outside himself & t :i* is )94 ,x is a comb9ation ( himself & ! _w z he sees x1 = ( subject & object are all ?+s made4 ,:5 we read a tale x is ! au?or we le>n to "k1 r ?an 8 p2 b we "k him ?r\gh 8 p4 ,!y are ! dwell]s )9 8 m9d1 & we _c "k !m )\t ent]+ t realm & kn[+ x1 be x en*ant$ or dis5*ant+4 ,sight & insight make up all lit]ature4 ,e book is a comb9ation ( ! au?or & :at he looks ^u & /udies objectively z well z subjectively4 ,x is tru? z he sees x4 ,i h read _m int]e/+ works ( fiction2 b = ! mo/ "p ,i laid !m d[n dissatisfi$4 ,!y lack$ some?+ = :i* ,i 0 always se>*+4 ,!y gave no answ] to ! que/ions t e>ly began to tr\ble me--que/ions t nobody c\ld answ] & few c>$ to be bo!r$ )4 ,(t5 !y 7 v attractive pictures ( t :i* ! _w is to s _m--a fool's p>adise4 ,!y dealt ) ! emotions ( ^? ^: lives !y portray$1 & !y appeal$ to ! emotions ( ^? :o read !m2 & all _h ev] ! "o1 "o !me--! pursuit ( happ9ess4 ,& all pursu]s saw ! allur+ phantom 9 ! same %ape1 & gave *ase to x by ! same road4 ,sometimes !y captur$ x1 & !n--! book end$4 ,!re 0 no?+ else = ! au?or to d :5 he rea*$ t po9t1 b to let ! curta9 drop & turn out ! lights1 le/ 8 audi5ce see t ! happ9ess s hotly pursu$ 0 n ! true ?+ aft] all2 b only an appe>ance1 an illusion1 a disappo9tm5t1 z v]itable a phantom z ev]--:i* left ! "o 9 possession ( x no bett] (f ?an he 0 be=e he captur$ x4 ,n[ ! =m ( ?is phantom1 0 ! love ( ! man & ! woman = ea* o!r1 & ! possession ( ea* by ! o!r4 ,romances h be5 mo/ly amplifi$ sex *ases4 ,!y wr\ght ^u ! read]'s emotions ?r\gh _m h>r[+ *apt]s1 ! end !re( be+ t a c]ta9 man m>ri$ ! p>ticul> woman he 0 pursu+4 ,an old man :om ,i knew 9 my y\? said he only read ! fir/ & la/ *apt]s ( a novel4 ,9 ! "o he became acqua9t$ ) ! h]o & h]o9e2 9 ! o!r he f\nd out 8:e!r he got h] or n40 ,by s do+ he escap$ mu* emotional we> & te> to :i* less discrim9at+ read]s subject$ !mselves4 ,z we all "k1 sometimes 8he didn't get h]40 ,:at !n8 ,well1 p]haps %e di$ or he di$1 & t end$ ! /ory4 ,ev]ybody accept$ t ev5t z f9al & inconte/able4 ,t 0 ! end1 & nobody v5tur$ to ask :at lay beh9d x4 ,x 0 ! end ( ! successful z well z ( ! disappo9t$--! end ( ev]ybody 9 ! _w1 yet nobody s\ght its mean+4 ,9 ?is respect ! p outside ( books 7 precisely l ! p 9 books4 ,!y _h ! same ideal ( happ9ess1 *as$ x ?r\gh ! same difficulties & disa/]s1 & w\ld n admit t x 0 a phantom2 w\ld n see t ,dea? /alk$ beh9d e joy1 sat at e fea/1 t\*$ elb[s "r & left ) ! victori\s z well z ) ! defeat$1 & wait$ = ev]ybody "u ! sun4 ,!y knew x1 ( c\rse1 b !y did n want to ?9k ab\t x or talk ab\t x4 ,& :at 0 ?is spectre to :i* all clos$ _! eyes because ( t]ror8 ,dea? 0 dea?4 ,t 0 all !y knew4 ,x 0 ! t]rible & f9al ?+ t c\ld happ54 ,m2 x 0 sure to happ52 b x mu/ be put (f z long z possible & ignor$ 9 ! meantime4 ,to me x ev] 0 incompreh5sible t s dreadful an issue 0 s hopelessly accept$ & s little inquir$ into4 ,i pond]$ mu* on ?is /range problem4 ,! dream haunt$ my m9d t some:]e !re 0 a solution4 ,i s\ght x ev]y:]e f m5 & books2 b long )\t success4 ,at la/ a ray ( light fell ^u my pa?4 ,fai?fully foll[+ x ?r\gh ye>s ( e>ne/ inquiry ,i le>n$ t ,dea? is n dea?4 ,) t k happ9ess took a new =m & beckon$ to me ov] a new road4 ,because ( ! new ideals x plac$ be=e me ,i wrote ?is book4 ,its p are my p2 its gospel my gospel4 ,f ! tru? z ,i 0 l$ to see x ,i f\nd a reason = my own be+ z well z = t ( ! book1 & ,i h tri$ to give x to ! read] z simply z x came to me4 ,! psy*ical ph5om5a describ$ are n exagg]at$4 ,mo/ ( x came )9 my own exp]i5ce1 & w\ld be accessible to any "o :o devot$ to ! /udy z mu* pati5ce1 "t & ef=t z ,i did4 ,!re w be ^? :o w give to ! book only ! sne] ( conceit$ ignorance4 ,= su* ,i h no message4 ,) !m1 ! fir/ condition ( all le>n+--receptively--is lack+4 ,i make no argum5t4 ,i try to conv9ce no "o4 ,i simply tell a /ory4 ,x w be> its own message to ^? ready to receive x4 ,none else c und]/&4 ,god ,himself _c give u :at we w n receive4 ,! book is b a f+] t aims to po9t out to o!rs a moon t made glori\s light = me4 ,& if y w pati5tly look 9 ! direction x po9ts1 y1 too1 w see ! %9+ moon4 ,,! ,,au?or4 ,,"p ,i4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,! ,,*ild ,,& ,,h] ,,own ,,p4 ,!re are "s ( u :o 9 aft] ye>s say to ,fate1 8,n[ deal u y\r h>de/ bl[2 give u :at y w2 b let u nev] aga9 suff] z we suff]$ :5 we 7 *ildr540 ,! b>b 9 ! arr[ ( *ildhood's suff]+ is ?is2 its int5se lonel9ess1 its int5se ignorance4 --,olive ,s*re9]4 ,"u a great tree a *ild 0 s++ s(tly to h]self3 ,beautiful1 de>1 & noble old tree ,b5d y\r gre5 bran*es c>ess+ o'er me4 ,= oh6 a day's com+1 & soon w be "h1 ,:5 ,i %all be f> f y\r pres5ce & *e]2 ,& my he>t w be lonely )\t y\r embrace1 ,& y--y w long = a sight ( my face4 ,y\r bran*es b5d l[ to ! gr\nd1 ,b5d l[ & c>ess+ly1 ,& !y sway ) a murmur\s s\nd-- ,a language ( nature pr(\nd-- ,sway s(tly & c>ess+ly1 ,z !y b5d1 ) a sigh1 to ! gr\nd4 ,!y *ant ! gr& *orus ( ages1 ,9 musical monotone2 ,& op5 ! pa/'s my/ic pages-- ,! wond]ful1 solemn1 seal$ pages-- ,s vaguely & dimly kn[n4 ,!y s+ me ! song ( ! ages4 ,:5 ,i li/5 ) _s & s\l ,to ea* sway+1 :isp'r+ b\gh1 ,! sil5t c5turies backw>d roll ,& op5 be=e me l a scroll4 ,& ,i view ! 8,!n z ,n[0-- ,:5 ,i li/5 ) _s & s\l4 ,%e 0 ly+ on ! grass1 ) h] face t[>d ! sky1 :i* %e c\ld only see 9 spots ?r\gh ! tree's ?ick bran*es1 :i* hung l[ & sway$ 9 ! slighte/ breeze1 ) a motion t 0 v l a c>ess to "o b5ea? !m4 ,a h\se /ood ne>1 b ! tree completely hid x on "o side4 ,"o com+ f ! s\? saw only a beautiful grassy hill surm\nt$ by a great gre5 umbrella4 ,"u ?is fri5dly %elt] ! woman-*ild lay1 s++ h] own words to h] own tunes4 ,oblivi\s to outw>d s\nds1 %e he>d no foot/eps until ! bran*es p>t$ & a /rang] ent]$ h] temple4 ,at ?is a dog t _h be5 enjoy+ ! pr(\nde/ ( slumb] ne> h]1 sprang to 8 feet ) a great %[ ( vigilance1 mak+ up = 8 t>d9ess by ! mo/ en]getic b>k+4 8,be quiet1 ,bliss10 said ! *ild1 ris+ to a sitt+ po/ure & look+ /eadily at ! /rang]1 ) ! utmo/ composure4 ,! dog at once became sil5t1 b he w5t close to h] & pos$ z on ! def5sive4 8,i beg p>don10 said ! intrud]1 politely rais+ 8 hat1 8,i saw no "o1 & ?\ght to re/ a bit 9 ! %ade1 & get a cool dr9k ( wat]1 too40 8,! well is on ! o!r side ( ! h\se10 %e said1 mak+ a motion 9 t direction ) a ?91 n]v\s1 un*ildlike h&4 ,h] words & mann] express$ ! utmo/ indiff]5ce--yet !re 0 a gleam ( int]e/ 9 h] big1 cle> eyes4 ,! /rang] mov$ on1 murmur+ ?anks4 ,%e look$ aft] him ) a sudd5 ye>n+ 9 h] he>t = 8 return4 ,he 0 n ( h] _w1 t 0 sure2 & yet someh[ x 0 q cle> to h] t he 0 ( h] _w--! _w ( h] dreams1 :]e %e long$ to be1 fanci$ %e _h be51 & f :5ce %e _h someh[ sadly /ray$4 ,yes1 9 t in/ant ( contact %e und]/ood t 9 spite ( all app>5t diff]5ce _! worlds 7 ! same4 ,9 ano!r mom5t he return$4 ,gracefully begg+ p]mission1 he seat$ himself on ! grass & lean$ aga9/ ! tree4 ,8 mann] captivat$ h]4 ,x 0 respectful & def]5tial z to a woman gr[n4 ,x en*ant$ h]1 = %e 0 "o ( ^? misund]/ood *ildr5 :o h ?\ghts & feel+s f> beyond _! ye>s & suff] great humiliation :5 treat$ patroniz+ly4 8,y are n at all afraid ( me al?\gh ,i came unann\nc$ & un9troduc$1 are y80 he ask$1 half laugh+4 8,afraid8 ,:y %\ld ,i be8 ,i am 9 my own door-y>d4 ,besides1 y don't look l a wild bea/1 & if y 7 "o1 "h is ,bliss to take c>e ( me40 8,?ank y4 ,x's a com=t to "k y h no d\bt t ,i am human4 ,b :at is ?is80 he ask$1 z a piece ( c>dbo>d blew t[>d him4 8,ah6 a draw+4 ,may ,i look at x80 ,%e nodd$ h] cons5t4 ,x 0 a p5cil draw+ ( a woman's head1 & int]e/$ him at fir/ glance1 because1 imp]fect ?\gh x 01 x _h t :i* makes art great :5 x is s--! human quality1 ! p[] to express its creator1 ! aim & object ( all art4 ,?is p5cil$ face gave an insight into ! arti/'s m9d1 %[+ t :i* %e _h tri$ to express & yet _h n made cle>4 ,x %[$ ! height to :i* %e rose 9 fancy1 & ! long & rugg$ road betwe5 pres5t p]=mance & ! p]fection ( :i* %e dream$4 ,all ?is ! /rang] saw1 because we see :at is )9 ourselves4 ,x takes g5ius to recognize g5ius4 ,he _h travel$ ! road on :i* %e 0 tak+ h] fir/ feeble /eps4 8,is x y\r "w80 he ask$4 8,yes10 %e nodd$1 color+ fa9tly4 ,x 0 pla9 t %e expect$ no praise1 yet long$ = a help+ ^w4 8,is x a copy80 he ask$1 = !re 0 ab\t x1 al?\gh b half express$1 t :i* he ?\ght mu/ h be5 sugge/$ by some?+ f a ma/] h&4 8,no40 8,!n :o is x80 ,!re 0 unaffect$ int]e/ 9 8 voice4 8,"o ( my p10 %e answ]$4 8,does %e live "h80 8,%e is "h sometimes1 n always40 8,well1 %e mu/ be a beautiful woman--ev5 m beautiful ?an y depict h]40 8,y und]/&10 said ! *ild4 8,i _c put h] on pap] z ,i see h]4 ,i "k b little ( draw+1 b ,i am always try+ to draw faces--! faces ( my own p--& trees1 = !y are my own p too2 b ,i am nev] satisfi$ ) my "w4 ,!y d n get on ! pap] z !y are 9 my m9d40 8,:y n h "s in/ruction80 ,%e %rugg$ h] %\ld]s4 ,! /rang] und]/ood1 b 9 ord] n to seem to1 he began to pick up "s scatt]$ leaves ( pap] ne> him4 ,see+ t !y conta9$ writ+ he 0 ab\t to lay !m d[n ) an apology :5 ! *ild said3 8,x is a lett] ,i h writt5 to ,hel51 ! woman ^: picture y h j be5 look+ at4 ,y may read x1 only n al\d4 ,i c\ldn't /& t40 8,b :y %\ld ,i read x at all80 he said4 8,x w\ld be imp]t95t on my "p4 ,besides1 ,i am n afflict$ ) ! despicable vice ( curiosity40 8,if y don't m9d1 ,i wi% y w\ld read x10 %e said4 8,x may help me4 ,y w und]/& :5 y h f9i%$40 ,b %e look$ ill at ease1 nev]!less4 ,! /rang] read3 ,,my ,,de>ly ,,belov$ ,,hel53--,s9ce y w5t away ,i am v lonely inde$4 ,none o!r is s ne> & de> to me z y4 ,i fill ! h\rs ) ?\ghts ( y--?\ghts s int5se & absorb+ t at times ,i actually see y by my side4 ,b1 alas6 y d n /ay :5 y come l t4 ,y fade out ( my sight2 y g back to y\r _w & ,i _c foll[ y only ) my ?\ghts1 my dreams1 my love & my lett]s4 ,b ,i %all g & f9d y "s day4 ,i %all be "o ( ! p ( y\r _w1 & %all be busy ) "w :i* %all fill my "t1 my bra9 & my he>t4 ,i %all meet all my p !re--my v own p1 & %all love !m & "w ) !m & "k lonel9ess no m4 ,i h a /ory to tell y1 ,de> ,he>t4 ,x is ?is3 ,9 a _w nameless to all mank9d1 liv$ a woman1 sweet & fair4 ,x 0 a beautiful _w4 ,!re ! m5 7 all true & ! wom5 all fai?ful4 ,mis]y 0 unkn[n & none s\ght happ9ess1 = all possess$ x4 ,b ?is "o woman dream$ dreams & saw visions4 ,%e he>d voices call+ to h] f ano!r _w--a _w ^: p s\ght cont9ually & va9ly to atta9 a condition !y knew only 9 "n1 & :i* !y call$ ,happ9ess4 ,all believ$ 9 ! exi/5ce ( ?is condition & gave *ase to x1 ea* 9 8 own way1 b none f\nd x4 ,(t5 he>+ ! voices ( ^! unhappy p & see+ !m 9 visions1 ?is woman long$ to g & help !m4 ,! long+ di/urb$ ! h>mony ( life 9 all h] _w1 until x 0 decre$ t %e mu/ leave x & g to t o!r ^: vibrations ( angui% _h %ak5 ! sph]es4 ,b !y did n tell h] ( h] de/9y4 8,%e w "k :5 %e is !re10 !y said4 ,s %e slept1 & ! sleep 0 long 9 ! eyes ( ! *ildr5 ( ,"t4 ,:5 %e awoke1 memory 0 gone1 & ev]y?+ _h to be le>n$ ov] aga94 ,at fir/ h] consci\sness 0 v dim1 & h] /r5g? feeble1 & hav+ slept s long %e c\ld sc>cely keep awake at all4 ,b aft] a "t a fa9t memory ( ! pa/ came to h]1 & %e saw t all 0 diff]5t f t o!r "t1 :i* n[ seem$ l a dream4 ,?is 0 n ! same _w1 nor 7 ^! ! same p %e _h kn[n1 = %e 0 9 ! sad _w %e _h se5 9 visions1 ^: p s p]si/5tly & (t5 frantically s\ght ,happ9ess & nev] f\nd x--& t sad _w 0 ?is 9 :i* we live4 ,%e 0 *ang$ 9 appe>ance1 too1 = :5 %e look$ 9 a mirror %e saw a face t 0 new to h] & a t9y figure4 ,%e 0 l a *ild1 & ev]ybody call$ h] a *ild1 ?\gh to h]self %e seem$ n to be a *ild1 because "p ( h] memory _h come back1 & x 0 ! memory ( a woman4 ,x 0 v h>d to feel l a full-gr[n p]son 9 m9d & be treat$ l a creature ) almo/ no m9d at all4 ,"o ( ! mo/ pa9ful ?+s %e saw 0 t sometimes ! mo/ ignorant & unfeel+ 7 9 positions ( p[] ov] s5sitive *ildr54 ,%e suff]$ mu* f ! v beg9n+ ( consci\sness4 ,to g back to ! _w %e c\ld s dimly rememb] 0 h] "o dream4 ,b :5 %e spoke ( x ^? ab\t h] laugh$ & said %e _h nev] be5 9 any o!r _w1 because !re 0 no o!r4 ,once 9 a dream %e w5t back1 or p]haps x 0 t "s ( h] old fri5ds came to h]4 ,!y told h] to be pati5t2 t %e _h be5 s5t to help ! unhappy ones :o _h s (t5 call$ to h]2 t scatt]$ all ov] ! planet 9 :i* %e dwelt n[ 7 o!rs l h]self1 :o _h come = ! same purpose2 t %e w\ld meet !m f "t to "t & t w\ld pay h] = mu* ( h] pa94 ,!y said1 too1 t %e _h a p>ticul> "w to d "h & c\ld n leave until x 0 done1 b %e mu/ f9d out :at x 0 h]self2 t ! road w\ld (t5 seem v h>d & v long1 b x _h an end1 & if %e did h] "w well-- ,!re ! dream end$2 b x com=t$ h]1 all unf9i%$ z x 04 ,by & by h] *ildhood 0 gone4 ,%e 0 a woman1 & w5t =? to f9d h] "w1 e>ne/1 en?usia/ic & eag]1 & !y said %e _h preci\s gifts4 8,i w pa9t pictures10 %e said1 8= always 9 my m9d are noble faces & figures1 l ! gods :5 !y walk$ among m51 & ^! %all %[ mank9d h[ glori\s x c itself become40 ,beautiful creations1 p]fect %apes ( beauty came =? f h] h&1 b ! _w1 = ! mo/ "p1 pass$ !m by4 ,x said1 8,we see no?+ 9 ^!10 & x spoke ! tru?1 = t 9 !m c\ld only be se5 by ^? l unto !m4 ,a few1 h[ev]1 /ood be=e !m fill$ ) delight4 ,!y 7 p ( ! planet f :i* ! arti/ came1 & !y recogniz$ _! k9dr$ 9 ! faces & =ms %e _h depict$2 b %e h]self 0 nev] satisfi$ ) :at %e _h done4 ,)9 h] m9d1 faces m glori\s1 & =ms m p]fect /ruggl$ = expression4 8,i h a tale to tell10 %e said1 8t _m w be glad to he>1 = x conta9s help = all40 ,b aga9 ! _w did n und]/&4 ,x said1 8,! p ( ?is book are impossible p1 & :at is ! au?or try+ to say8 ,we see no?+ 9 x40 ,a few only und]/ood2 b ^! 7 ( h] planet4 8,n[10 %e said1 8,i w write aga91 & ?is "t ! _w w read & be *>m$4 ,i w give x :at x wants1 n :at ,i want to give x40 ,%e spoke truly4 ,%e wrote & _m 7 pleas$2 b ! p ( h] planet clos$ h] book ) pa9 9 _! faces1 & %e h]self f\nd no joy 9 x4 ,to h] consci5ce %e made ?is excuse3 8,i want bread & ! easy1 com=table ?+s ( life1 & ! _w wants fooli%ness1 s we ex*ange products4 ,"s day ,i w write t :i* pleases myself4 ,!n ,i %all make no concessions1 no bids = favor4 ,i %all say :at ,i feel & ?9k40 ,"t w5t on1 & ! _w became int]e/$ 9 new names1 & almo/ =got h]s4 ,days ( disc\ragem5t & di/ress arriv$4 ,! ease :i* %e _h b\ght by pleas+ ! commonplace1 vani%$1 & lonel9ess1 ill-heal? & pov]ty came 9 its /ead4 ,we>y & sick unto dea? 9 _s & body1 %e long$ to end x all1 & s long+ fell asleep1 & sleep+ dream$4 ,%e saw aga9 ! faces ( ^? f h] o!r _w :o _h come to com=t h] :5 a *ild4 ,"o1 ! mo/ beautiful ( all1 & yet j n[ ! sadde/1 seem$ ne>] & de>] ?an ! o!rs4 ,x 0 a glori\s face1 radiant ) /r5g? & sweetness1 a type ( p]fect womanhood4 ,all h] life x _h visit$ h] 9 dreams & haunt$ h] imag9ation4 ,sometimes ! "n t belong$ to x hov]$ on h] lips1 yet 0 nev] spok51 = x always vani%$ be=e x took %ape 9 h] m9d4 8,did y f9d y\r "w80 !y ask$4 8,i tri$ h>d1 de> fri5ds10 %e said4 8,i h n be5 idle40 ,b _! faces %[$ no joy4 8,h ,i n done my "w well80 %e que/ion$1 beg9n+ to be afraid4 8,h y giv5 y\r be/80 !y ask$4 ,a flu% ( %ame cov]$ h] face4 8,no2 ! _w did n want x40 ,!y 7 sil5t1 & !re 0 t 9 _! eyes :i* made h] m & m a%am$4 8,i ne$$ bread10 %e said1 anxi\s to make excuse4 8,is bread all t is wor? /riv+ =1 t y paid = x s high a price80 !y ask$4 ,%e 0 sil5t4 8,did y come to please or help ! p ( ?is _w80 !y ask$4 8,y told me long ago t ,i came to help10 %e answ]$1 8b !y made x v h>d4 ,:5 ,i wrote t :i* burn$ )9 my s\l !y c>$ n to he> x1 b want$ some?+ t ent]ta9$ & div]t$ !m f :at !y call ! c>es ( life2 & ,i--well1 ,i 0 (t5 hungry--s ,i gave !m :at !y want$40 8,& did !y rew>d y80 8,y see ,i h no?+10 %e answ]$4 8,= a "t ,i _h "s ( ! possessions all value s mu*2 b !y are gone40 8,y tri$ to tell ^! p :at y ?\ght & felt1 b !y w\ld n li/51 y say2 s y told !m little fooli% tales1 l ^? t please *ildr51 b in/ruct n1 help n1 & ?us y pass$ y\r life neglect+ to unfold y\r own s\l by express+ x truly4 ,only ! weak & feeble ( w1 or ! indol5t & indiff]5t1 turn back at ! fir/ ob/acle4 ,:]e 0 y\r fai?80 8,i sold x1 z y see1 = a pitiful price10 %e answ]$1 weep+4 8,& 7 y satisfi$80 8,nev]4 ,my consci5ce always la%$ me4 ,i h be5 puni%$ already4 ,give me no fur!r p5ance40 8,x is n ours to puni% or p>don1 nor 9 all ! univ]se is !re ei!r puni%m5t or p>don4 ,!re is only un*angeable1 ev]-active law4 ,_h y done y\r "w well0-- 8,:at is x to d "o's "w well80 %e int]rupt$4 ,& n[ ! woman ( ! glori\s face came ne> & answ]$3 8,x is to give ! highe/ & be/ t is 9 y1 )\t c>+ :e!r x w please or (f5d2 to express tru?1 z y see x1 ?\gh ! _w be aga9/ y2 to pay :atev] price is ask$1 ?\gh x be />vation & disgrace = ! fre$om ( y\r s\l1 = ! s\l is only free :5 x fai?fully foll[s its ,,ideal40 8,!n ,i "k ,i h n done my "w well10 said ! woman1 sadly4 8,i seldom gave my be/4 ,i _h n ! c\rage4 ,i 0 afraid ! price ,i w\ld h to pay w\ld be too high4 ,b :at is ! fate ( ^? :o d n d _! "w well80 ,! faces ( ! company 7 full ( pity1 z !y answ]$1 8,!y mu/ d x ov] aga940 ,!n ! woman wept al\d4 8,b n j yet10 !y said4 8,y are v tir$2 y\r /r5g? is gone4 ,y %all re/ = a "t40 ,!n "o t\*$ h] eyes g5tly1 & !y clos$ to ! light ( ?is _w6 ,hel51 de>e/1 ,i dream$ t /ory1 & ,i 0 ! woman :o did n d h] be/4 ,x always seems to me t ,i liv$ long ago some:]e--_m lives p]haps4 ,at times ,i c almo/ rememb] sc5es & p ( t f>-(f "t4 ,x may be t x 0 "r "h 9 ?is _w1 & t ,i h be5 s5t back to d :at ,i left undone4 ,or x may be t "h 9 ?is life ,i %all n d :at ,i ought to d1 & mu/ come aga94 ,ev] ) me is ! ?\ght t !re is "s p>ticul> ?+ = me to d & t ,i mu/ make ha/e to f9d x & d x1 because ! "t is %ort4 ,"p ( my "w is to f9d my p--?y own p :om ,i knew 9 t f>-away life1 y are "o ( !m1 &-- ,! /rang] laid ! unf9i%$ lett] d[n & look$ curi\sly at ! au?or4 ,he _h n obs]v$ h] closely until !n4 ,he saw 9 h] face t :i* is high] ?an beauty1 b is only se5 & und]/ood by its spiritual k9dr$4 ,! m\?1 t unmi/akable key to "*1 because x is ! door ?r\gh :i* ! s\l expresses itself1 0 p]fect 9 %ape & exquisitely s5sitive1 ?\gh ! o!r features _h a da% ( boyi% rugg$ness 9 !m4 ,b ! eyes1 ! d>k grey eyes1 mottl$ ) tawn1 _h 9 !m a look1 indef9able1 ye>n+1 appeal+1--a look t might h ages ( suff]+ beh9d x--& p]haps be=e x--t w5t to ! /rang]'s he>t l a knife1 & fill$ 8 eyes ) a mi/4 ,9 aft] ye>s m ?an "o /rong _s lo/ its /r5g? & wept x knew n :y1 be=e t fla%-light ( a s\l4 ,9 ! same mom5t ! /rang] saw ano!r ?+4 ,x 0 t ! *ild 0 entirely )\t self-consci\sness & ! consequ5t coquetry :i* s (t5 spoils ! mann]s ( ev5 v little wom54 ,%e 0 n ?9k+ h[ %e appe>$ 9 8 eyes4 ,he c\ld see t4 ,x 0 no?+ to h] t h] feet 7 nak$1 h] hair twi/$ & h] clo?+ crumpl$4 ,x 0 pla9 t ^! unconv5tional facts did n ev5 pres5t !mselves to h] m9d4 ,h] %oes & /ock+s & big /raw hat lay ne> h] on ! grass1 & %e gave no sign ( emb>rassm5t because %e 0 n array$ 9 !m4 ,%e met him on ! gr\nd ( m9d to m9d4 ,9 h] %9+1 ye>n+ eyes 0 an eag] int]e/4 8,a free1 orig9al1 aspir+ _s10 he mus$4 8,life w be a r\gh pilgrimage = h]4 ,%e w f9d x h>d to %ape h]self to iron-clad /&>ds4 ,! va/ army ( ! commonplace1 unable to und]/& h]1 w claw at h] l birds ( prey4 ,x is a pity t %e mu/ be bruis$ & beat5 into ! usual %ape1 z %e surely w be4 ,b ! _w is a rel5tless pott]1 ) inflexible ideas ( h[ its human jugs & vases are to be model$2 & x %apes u all1 9 a measure1 9 spite ( ourselves40 8,if ! "q isn't imp]t95t1 h[ old are y80 he ask$1 ) a cad5ce ( melan*oly 9 8 voice4 8,elev52 b ,i feel v old sometimes4 ,old1 old1 old60 8,yet y are n old en\gh to be writ+ ( lonel9ess10 he said4 8,ah2 y ?9k s8 ,c y imag9e ! lonel9ess ( a *ild :o is n altoge!r a *ild & yet n a woman80 8,:]e are y\r dolls80 he ask$1 hop+ to div]t h] m9d f subjects too s]i\s4 ,h] h&some m\? curv$ into a sne]4 8,dolls80 %e e*o$4 8,dolls8 ,poor1 mis]able little images made by /upid p to deceive ^? !y believe to be /upid]4 ,well1 ,i h sev]al4 ,!y 7 giv5 to me by fooli% fri5ds :o meant to be k9d2 b !y live 9 boxes up/airs4 ,i nev] get any good f !m1 wret*$ imitations ( p t !y are1 ) expressionless faces & /uff$ bodies4 ,i pref] my own p40 8,! lady ( ! picture & lett] is "o ( !m1 y said4 ,b ( c\rse !y are n all gr[n up l h]40 8,yes1 !y are1 = ,i l gr[n-up p be/4 ,i don't l ^? ( my own age4 ,at lea/ ,i h se5 b few :om ,i lik$4 ,! reason ,i am s fond ( my own p1 is because ,i make !m myself1 & s1 ( c\rse1 ,i make !m to suit me4 ,!y are *>m+1 & v fond ( me4 ,y w\ld call !m unreal2 b to me !y are m real ?an ! fle% & blood p h]eab\ts1 & mu* m agreeable40 8,ah6 ,i und]/& n[10 said ! /rang]4 8,!y are y\r own p 9 ! s5se ( be+ cong5ial1 companionable1 ( y\r own way ( ?9k+4 ,y h gone direct to a great tru?1 little fri5d4 ,our own p are ^? ) :om we are 9 intellectual sympa?y1 no matt] :]e we f9d !m40 8,b y\r o!r p10 he w5t on1 aft] a %ort pause1 motion+ ) 8 h& t[>d ! h\se1 8y\r family1--y love !m1 too80 8,no2 we don't love ea* o!r10 %e answ]$1 frankly2 8we seem n to fit well toge!r--n to be ?9k+ ! same ?\ghts4 ,! mo/ ( me is completely %ut away f !m4 ,i _c talk to !m z ,i am talk+ to y4 ,!y w\ld laugh at me2 !y w\ld ridicule me1 & t enrages z well z hurts me4 ,& !y are go+ away "o by "o1 int]e/$ 9 _! own lives & kn[+ no?+ ( my dreams & long+s4 ,two ( my si/]s m>ri$ rec5tly & h gone f> away1 & la/ week my olde/ bro!r left4 ,i wat*$ him out ( sight z he w5t d[n ! road1 ) my he>t almo/ bur/+4 ,s x 0 :5 ! o!rs w5t4 ,ev]y?+ 0 desolate )\t !m1 & !y w nev] be back "h aga9 9 ! old way4 ,n t ! old way 0 s good1 = x wasn't1 b ,i c\ld n be> to see ! end4 ,i suff] if only an animal dies or is tak5 away4 ,& ,i always want$ to love !m2 b !y did n und]/&40 ,! /rang]'s eyes grew pitiful1 n s mu* = :at %e _h suff]$ z = :at %e 0 de/9$ to suff]4 ,he saw h] z %e 01 & z no o!r _h se5 h]1 none hav+ ! p[] to und]/&1--a s5sitive1 affectionate1 aspir+ s\l1 held = a "t 9 a place ali5 to h] _s1 among p mo/ truly n h] own4 8,ano!r10 he said1 m5tally1 8de/9$ to travel ! r\gh road t leads to ! heights4 ,ano!r ) a da% ( ! weightie/ gift ( ! gods4 ,i did n ?9k to f9d "o ( ! climb]s ( ,olympus "h4 ,yet :]e none dreams to f9d !m !re !y are4 ,poor little s\l t\*$ ) ! w& ( g5ius1 already liv+ 9 a _w ( h] own creation1 because ! o!r _w is ung5ial & intol]able1 & long+ = sympa?y1 :i* is recognition1 appreciation1 & enc\rages expression1 :i* is life itself4 ,! old1 old _s 9 ! new body1 n compreh5d$1 (t5 w\nd$1 yet /riv+1 /riv+1 always /riv+ aga9/ h>d conditions to tell :at x feels4 8,b y h "s fri5ds ( y\r own age among ! real p--^? we call real--h y n80 8,yes2 & ,i play ) !m sometimes 9 _! way2 b 9 a little :ile ,i am tir$ ( !m1 & am g5]ally glad :5 !y are gone1 s t ,i c be ) ! fri5ds ,i h be5 tell+ y ab\t4 ,b ,i h "o comrade ( my own age :om ,i love4 ,%e talks v little2 b %e und]/&s4 ,we (t5 sp5d :ole days toge!r away f ev]ybody4 ,%e doesn't fit into h] family mu* bett] ?an ,i d 9 m9e1 b %e is happi]1 because h] family are k9d] ?an m9e4 ,!y love ea* o!r bett]40 ,! /rang] 0 /ruck ) ! simple & =ceful analysis ( ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! two families4 8,:5 p love ea* o!r !y are k9d]1 z a matt] ( c\rse10 he said1 feel+ t he 0 guilty ( ! /upide/ ( platitudes1 b anxi\s to keep ! "y philosoph] talk+4 8,b y\r family love y1 surely80 8,no10 %e said1 decisively1 ! mottl$ eyes %[+ a fla% ( pa9 s int5se t he turn$ away4 8,:at makes y ?9k s80 8,!y f9d fault ) me all ! "t4 ,x is a t]rible ?+ to be blam$ always & nev] prais$4 ,:5 ,i am gr[n1 %\ld ,i h p[]1 %\ld ,i be able to get o!rs to li/5 to me1 ,i %all tell !m t if !y want to make p bett] !y mu/ praise !m4 ,fault-f9d+ helps nobody4 ,i am sure ( t4 ,x is ! wor/ possible ?+ = me1 = x fills my he>t ) rage & a s5se ( inju/ice1 & ( c\rse x has ! same effect on ev]ybody else4 ,i c see pla9ly en\gh :at w\ld make an angel ( me1 & angels ( all o!rs1 too4 ,love & praise are :at is ne$$4 ,:at c\ldn't ,i be & d if !y only lov$ me & saw good 9 me1 & told me s4 ,b to be nagg$1 & blam$1 scold$1 rebuk$ & humiliat$ incessantly is mak+ me wick$ 9 my m9d all ! "t4 ,i "k h[ devils are made4 ,!y j take a *ild1 nei!r bett] nor worse ?an o!rs1 & put x "s place :]e x he>s no?+ b blame all ! "t1 nev] a ^w ( love or praise1 & :5 x is gr[n up x is a devil1 ready to give back ! pa9 t _h be5 inflict$ on x4 ,if x 7 n = my own p1 my ?\ght p1 ,i c\ld n endure life at all40 8,a bad case10 said ! /rang] to himself1 ) a sigh1 8he>t & intellect bo? hungry4 ,i fe> ! road w be v r\gh4 8,:y did y let y\r fri5d ,hel5 g away8 ,s9ce %e is y\r own creation1 :y n keep h] "h at w1 :5 y are s fond ( h]80 8,%e is my own creation1 b ,i c\ld n keep h] "h4 ,%e has h] own life to live1 s %e w5t back to ! _w f :i* ,i drew h]1 = ,i d truly believe away d[n inside ( me1 t %e is :at y call real4 ,j n[ %e is 9 ,p>is1 & %e is a fam\s au?or1 b n too conceit$ to love me & f9d pleasure 9 talk+ & writ+ to me4 ,i 0 will+ %e %\ld g away1 z x gives me an opportunity ( writ+ to h]4 ,i enjoy writ+ ev5 m ?an talk+1 sometimes4 ,i get lett]s f h] (t54 ,i h a box full ( !m4 ,( c\rse ,i h to write !m myself1 b aft] !y are writt5 x really seems t %e1 n ,i1 is _! au?or1 & ,i enjoy read+ !m j z o!r folks enjoy sure-en\gh lett]s t come f ! po/ (fice40 8,h[ d y s5d lett]s to y\r p80 ,! ye>n+ eyes became grave4 8,well1 t is awkw>d4 ,i leave !m 9 que] little places :]e big1 bad1 real p are n apt to f9d !m--at ! root ( a fl[]1 9 ! crevice ( a wall1 or "u a /one--& p]suade myself t someh[ !y rea* _! de/9ation4 ,sometimes ,i c>ry !m cle> to ! woods & leave !m 9 holl[ trees1 or "u great1 cool rocks1 :]e1 p]haps1 !re are fairies or "s k9d ( invisible mess5g]s :o w transport !m = me4 8,b :5 x ra9s1 n[ & !n1 !y are wa%$ out ( _! places1 & ,i f9d !m all wet & blurr$4 ,!n a *illy feel+ comes ov] me1 & ,i am half afraid t1 aft] all1 my p h n se5 !m4 ,y see x hurts me if ,i ?9k nobody reads !m4 ,t's :y ,i want$ y to read my lett] to ,hel54 ,i felt sure y w\ld und]/&40 8,y h _m ( ^! unse5 fri5ds ( y\rs80 ask$ ! /rang]4 8,yes1 _m2 b ,hel5 is my only confidante4 ,( c\rse ,i am n a little girl :5 ,i am ) my p4 ,i am gr[n up1 & am important1 = ,i1 too1 am a fam\s writ]1 & ,i pa9t ! mo/ wond]ful pictures4 ,yes1 ,i h great fame & ! wise/ & mo/ di/+ui%$ p are pleas$ to be receiv$ by me1 & !y--well1--!y hang ^u my words40 8,( c\rse10 said ! /rang]4 8,x is beautiful10 cont9u$ ! *ild1 8to be treat$ ) consid]ation4 ,:5 w big folks le>n t little ones are human be+s l !mselves1 ) ! same feel+s exactly1 & t !y c't respect !mselves if !y are ord]$ ab\t rudely1 scold$1 snubb$ & g5]ally treat$ z inf]ior be+s80 ,%e 0 enjoy+ ! fir/ appreciation ! _w _h accord$ h]2 0 brea?+ ! air ( h] dreams1 ! cong5ial atmosph]e :i* is only f\nd :]e !re are sympa!tic s\ls to brea! x ) u4 ,! /rang]1 und]/&+1 ?\ght ( 8h[ widely yawns ! moat t girds a human s\l10 ^: 8real _w is always an invisible place1 remov$ f ! ru% & *att] ( cr[ds1 = ! mo/ important portion ( life is ! secret & solit>y portion40 8,are y\r p all wom51 or d y p]mit poor1 imp]fect1 e>?ly man to ent] y\r p>adise80 he ask$4 8,our _w is made up ( human be+s1 & ( c\rse t means m5 & wom510 %e repli$4 8,x w\ld be a /upid place if x conta9$ only wom5 or only m54 ,b our m5 are m51 n m]ely creatures :o pass z su*1 l s _m "o sees walk+ ab\t "h4 ,& yet1 ,i mu/ confess t ! m5 ( my ?\ght _w are n q s real to me z ! wom54 ,i want to make !m excell5t1 p]fect2 b ,i don't succe$4 ,:5 ,i get !m j s f> along1 ,i seem unable to complete !m1 & s !y are m or less dim & %ad[y to me40 8,ah1 ,i see10 said h] li/5]4 8,y\r ideal ( mank9d is too high = ev5 y\r imag9ation to give =m to4 ,:at are ^! m5 l :o /ill seem dim to y8 ,"s ( !m are knights & lords ( high degree1 or k+s1 p]haps80 8,no2 we don't c>e = t k9d4 ,!y w\ld be too conceit$ = our _w4 ,we don't l fight]s1 ei!r4 ,we h great m51 ( c\rse1 b !y h e>n$ _! laurels2 b ev5 !n !y don't talk ab\t !mselves1 till !y tire "o all out l liv+ m5 d4 ,b we w n h any :o are n tru?ful1 & !n !y are c\rage\s1 = li>s are always c[>ds1 y "k4 ,& !n1 !y are k9d1 v k9d to ev]ybody1 & !y don't ?9k !mselves bett] ?an wom54 ,we c\ldn't /& t1 especially z our wom5 are all s magnific5t4 ,i'm "o ( !m1 y "k40 ,x 0 beautiful to him to see h] s frankly reveal h]self z %e saw h]self4 8,y\r m5 d some?+1 ,i suppose1--some?+ m ?an to be m]ely agreeable80 he said4 8,we all "w1 b we dream too1 & ! dream]s are priz$ z highly z ! work]s if !y dream good dreams40 8,= a dream] lives =ev]1 ,& a toil] dies 9 a day10 humm$ ! /rang] s(tly4 ,!n 9 memory he turn$ to ! pa/1 murmur+1 8,bohemia1 ?y grapes are sweet40 ,he saw aga9 its hot & du/y highways1 its tangl$ byways & ! long procession travel+ !reon4 ,"o by "o !y pass$ him 9 review1 "s ) road-worn feet1 fad$ g>m5ts & we>y eyes2 "s /epp+ lightly1 ) joy 9 _! he>ts & fl[]s 9 _! h&s4 ,!re 7 ! hopeful1 ! mir?ful1 ! witty & ! m]ry4 ,!re1 too1 7 ! baffl$ & beat51 ! hopeless & ! joyless4 ,! successful w5t by ) pr\d mi51 & smil+ face1 & !y :o _h fail$ also bore !mselves erect & smil$1 t ! _w might n dream ( ! pa9 at _! he>ts4 8,_! heads 7 bloody b unb\nd40 ,grapes grew abundantly ov]head1 b a few1 only a v few ( ! _m travel]s ga!r$ !m4 ,he saw x all 9 memory z he _h se5 x all 9 reality4 ,n[1 z "o by "o ! /ruggl+1 /riv+ ?rong1 d[]$ ) ! fateful gift ( g5ius1 pass$ aga9 be=e him1 he saw 8,_! faces all %[$ suff]+1 ,?\gh no voice utt]$ pla9ts40 ,h[ c\rage\s !y _h be56 ,h[ fai?ful6 ,n a few _h met />vation face to face1 & ev5 t dread sight _h n p[] to turn !m f ! pursuit ( _! ideals4 ,aga9 & aga9 he _h se5 ! brave/ & brighte/ fall1 _! aim unatta9$1 _! h&s empty1 _! names unr5[n$1 _! he>ts brok54 ,b n[ he saw1 z by a revelation1 t ! defeat$ 7 victors too4 ,putt+ 8 h& ov] 8 eyes z if to %ut out ! sight ( ! /riv+1 suff]+ ?rong1 he groan$ m5tally1 = "h 9 ?is quiet spot1 f> f ! great c5tres ( life1 0 ano!r gett+ ready = a pilgrimage on ! same hot1 du/y road4 ,! *ild 0 ! fir/ to break ! sil5ce into :i* !y _h fall54 8,my own p are some:]e 9 ! real _w1 ,i am sure1 & ,i mu/ g & f9d !m10 %e said4 8,i 0 s++ ab\t x to ?is de> old tree :5 y came1 = :5 ,i g ! tree w miss me & be lonely4 ,we are great fri5ds4 ,i tell x _m ?+s1 & x answ]s by wav+ its bran*es ov] me--see1 l t1 & ,i und]/&40 8,y are elev5 ye>s old10 said ! /rang]1 8& are eag] to g & f9d y\r p4 ,i am _m1 _m ye>s old] & yet h f\nd v few ( m9e4 ,! se>* is long & sometimes he>t-break+1 b x has to be made4 ,b rememb] "o ?+1 & =get x n1 ,i pray y4 ,if y h "s dream 9 y\r m9d de>] ?an all o!rs--"s ?\ght t burns to spr+ =? into life--be fai?ful to x1 = x is y\r ideal4 ,foll[ x at any co/4 ,y\r /ory ( ! woman :o did n d h] be/ conta9s a great philosophical tru?4 ,some:]e1 sometime we are de/9$ to rea* a /ate :]e our dreams %all come true1 :]e we %all h ! desire ( our he>ts1 :]e we %all be 9 accord ) all beauty & all good4 ,b we c only rea* t /ate by do+ our be/ e day--9 little ?+s & great4 ,if we d less we %all h to d x ov] aga94 8,"o is ) y :o always kn[s4 ,x is y\r s\l--y\r real self4 ,:5 y want to f9d y\r "w1 :5 y are ready to tell :at y feel1 ask n ! _w :at x wants1 b say to y\r s\l1 #8,:at wilt ?\ h me to d8'0 ,%e look$ at him admir+ly1 gratefully1 & said1 8,i ?ank y4 ,i "k y are wise1 = y come f ! big1 busy _w t ,i long to ent]1 & %all ent]4 ,!re "o c see & le>n ev]y?+4 ,less ?an a mile away two railroads cross ea* o!r4 ,i he> ! locomotives :i/le e day z !y pass1 dragg+ p aft] !m4 ,i %all g1 too1 "s day1 & !n1 & !n0-- 8,& !n10 said ! /rang]1 sigh+2 b %e did n und]/&4 ,h[ c\ld %e8 8,& !n ,i %all be happy10 %e add$4 8,y mu/ f9d me :5 y come into my _w10 he cont9u$1 aft] a pause4 8,p]haps ,i am "o ( y\r own p4 ,at any rate1 ! great _w kn[s me a little4 ,n[ ,i mu/ leave y & g back to :]e ! two railroads cross4 ,my tra9 0 h\rs beh9d "t1 o!rwise ,i %\ld n h _h ! pleasure ( meet+ y4 ,i assure y ,i %all n =get y1 & :5 y come into my _w ,i %all "k y = "o ( u1 ev5 z ,i "k y n[40 ,!y _h ris5 z he spoke4 ,he took h] sl5d]1 sunburn$ h& 9 81 b5t d[n1 kiss$ x & 0 gone4 8,he is truly "o ( my v own p10 said ! *ild to h]self1 z %e wat*$ him out ( sight4 8,n[ ,i am sure !y live some:]e1 & ,i %all f9d !m & "k !m z soon z ,i see !m1 & %all be happy40 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,:]e ,,! ,,road ,,divides4 8,o ,urania6 ! e>? & ! air & ! sea ,& ! inf9ite spaces are vocal ) !e1 ,& ! sunset & moonrise s]aphic ) !e40 --,b5 ,s4 ,p>k]4 ,! tall "y man alone on ! por* walk$ sl[ly back & =?1 look+ (f into ! sweet spr+ sun%9e1 ) tr\bl$ eyes4 ,he /opp$ & 8 face flu%$ ) pleasure z a "y girl dress$ = ! /reet came out ( ! door4 8,y "h1 ,mr4 ,k5dall80 %e said1 int]rogatively4 8,y toil n nei!r d y sp9 to-day8 ,h['s t80 8,because ,i am we>y & fa9 w\ld re/10 he answ]$4 8,yes1 & ,i fa9 w\ld d sev]al o!r ?+s1 too2 b ,i d>e say ,i %all n4 ,b y h be5 idl+ lately1 too4 ,:y s80 ,%e %rugg$ h] %\ld]s4 8,l y\rself ,i am we>y & fa9 w\ld d--,i sc>cely "k :at1 & g ,i sc>cely "k :]e40 8,d y m9d my ask+ :i!r y are b\nd j n[80 8,n at all10 %e answ]$1 pleasantly1 8only ,i c't say def9itely1 because ,i don't "k4 ,i %all probably fet* up at ! ne>e/ op5 squ>e :]e !re is "s gre5 grass on :i* ,i c re/ my eyes a bit1 & ei!r lose myself or f9d myself = a little :ile40 8,may ,i g ) y80 ,he made ! reque/ a little timidly1 = %e _h a high-h&$ way ) him t made him a little afraid ( h]1 ?\gh %e attract$ him ) resi/less =ce4 8,i %all be pleas$40 ,h] voice _h a s9c]e r+ 9 x t flu%$ 8 face ) pleasure4 8,y are always a good companion1 because y don't tire me talk+ too mu*40 8,a dubi\s complim5t1 b ,i am grateful = x1 nev]!less4 ,?\gh if x be int5d$ z a h9t = me to keep sil5t ?is morn+ x w n be tak51 t's all40 ,!y walk$ away toge!r ) ! mann] ( p]sons accu/om$ to see+ mu* ( ea* o!r4 ,! wide old /reets _h birds twitt]+ 9 ! trees1 & sun%9e w>m ^u !m4 ,! air 0 s(t & mild1 & br\ght ) x ! g5tle melan*oly peculi> to spr+1 a melan*oly t creates or awakes a /range unre/1 & makes u long to g j\rney+ to f> c\ntries1 we "k n :y4 ,ea* ( ^! two 7 t\*$ by ! _s ( ?is unre/4 ,!y spoke ( ! beauty ( ! day1 ( ! joy ( idl+ n[ & !n1 s sweet to busy p1 b soon fell into sil5ce1 = _! ?\ghts 7 n ) _! words4 ,! "y man's eyes became mi/y f "t to "t1 ?\gh 8 companion saw x n1 = %e did n look at 8 face4 ,he 0 ?9k+ t 9 aft] ye>s he %\ld (t5 recall ?is walk4 ,on 8 m9d he 0 pa9t+ e object 8 eyes enc\nt]$1 t he might treasure x z a com=t+ picture 9 ! possible lonely future4 ,aft] w&]+ ab\t a:ile !y sat d[n 9 a t9y p>k ne> a f\nta91 & idly wat*$ ! wat] spray+ 9 ! sun%9e4 8,h[ long h y be5 "h1 ,miss ,hill80 ,k5dall ask$ abruptly4 8,f\r ye>s10 %e answ]$1 toss+ a pebble into ! f\nta9 & %[+ little int]e/ 9 any?+ b h] own ?\ghts4 8,& ,i five40 ,z %e said no?+1 pres5tly he w5t on3 8,n[1 ,i want y to d me a s]vice1 a real s]vice4 ,i want y to decide a "q1 an important "q = me1 & ,i h det]m9$ to abide by y\r decision1 :atev] x may be4 ,yes1 ,i w d exactly z y say40 ,expect+ a ^w or look ( int]e/ f h]1 he paus$2 b %e w5t on draw+ l9es on ! gravel walk ) h] p>asol1 9 sil5ce4 ,be+ ( ! l>ge1 fair type ( man1 8 face flu%$ ) e emotion4 ,j n[ he color$ deeply because ( h] app>5t unconc]n1 b cont9u$3 8,!re are times 9 ea* life :5 x is necess>y to d "o ( two ?+s4 ,until we rea* ?is po9t we get on v well1 & are untr\bl$ by d\bts4 ,b :5 we h to decide :e!r to keep ! "r h& road or take ! left1 !n we look ab\t = some?+ or somebody to ca/ ! die = u4 ,! do+ is always comp>atively easy2 x's ! decid+ t muddles & tr\bles u4 ,n[ ,i h come to ! place :]e ! road divides1 & ,i want "s help on ! decision40 ,%e look$ up at him n[ ) unaffect$ int]e/4 8,i am ?9k+ t ,i ought to /rike out & d some?+ bett] ?an ,i am do+1--be some?+ m ?an a cog 9 a great ma*9e4 ,i am tir$ ( t4 ,9 ! (fice ov] !re0--mak+ a motion ) 8 h& 9 ! direction ( ! comm]cial "p ( ! city--8are m5 :o w\ld fa9t1 ,i am sure1 or weep l *ildr51 if !y %\ld lose _! situations1 su* c[>ds h !y become by long dep5d5ce on ! weekly sal>y4 ,"s h be5 !re ye>s1 & h giv5 _! manhood z well z _! "t 9 ex*ange = ! money !y pocket e ,saturday4 ,!y act l slaves 9 ! pres5ce ( _! employ]4 ,if he _h b\ght !m at ! auction block !y c\ld n be m cr++ to him4 ,:5 he is 9 sight self-respect )]s & !y are m]e worms1 crawl+ 9 _s at 8 feet4 ,i don't want to become l t1 & yet ,i am sure to if ,i rema94 ,t sort ( ?+ is contagi\s4 ,no man c /& =ev] aga9/ x4 ,i "k j en\gh ( ! degrad+ feel+ to be will+ to make a sacrifice to avoid famili>ity ) x4 ,9 reality ! wage-e>n] & ! man :o hires him engage 9 a =m ( cop]ation1 ea* to be respect$ by ! o!r2 b ! relation is univ]sally misund]/ood4 ,! employ] develops into an autocrat & ! employee into a s]f1 & s bo? are injur$4 ,to be an employee too long is to become a dep5d5t1 helpless1 pitiable be+1 a deg5]ate man4 ,i am sure ( x4 ,believ+ t1 ,i feel ,i mu/ escape f su* direful consequ5ces4 8,yet x takes c\rage to volunt>ily give up :at !y call a good sal>y1 & g into ! wild]ness1 s to speak1 & take ! risks t all t implies4 ,a %ip sails f ,new ,york = ,san ,francisco day aft] to-morr[4 ,i h be5 ?9k+ ,i w\ld resign my situation & take passage on h]4 ,! t]ritories are big & full ( opportunities4 ,i ?\ght to g to "o ( !m & c>ve out life = myself on broad] l9es1 if possible4 ,i h a little money1 & ,i c /ill put =? ef=t4 ,z ,i h no family to consult--n a relative 9 ! _w--& be+ on ! f5ce1 z x 71 9 ! matt] ( decid+1 ,i h a fancy = leav+ x to y & w d :at y say4 ,tell me1 %all ,i g or /ay80 ,%e look$ at him ) some?+ l admiration %9+ 9 h] eyes4 8,g10 %e said1 unhesitat+ly4 8,g1 & be an individual1 a fully develop$ unit1 a man1 n a m]e cog 9 somebody else's :eel4 ,cogs h _! uses1 b !y h also _! limitations1 & !y are s pl5tiful4 ,y c be a :ole ma*9e1 if y try4 ,yes1 g & be a figure 9 ! _w1 on y\r own acc\nt1 n simply a ciph]1 useful only z auxili>y to ! figures40 8,good60 he said1 ) =c$ emphasis1 mak+ a brave ef=t to appe> delight$1 b 9 8 he>t wi%+ he c\ld hide some:]e & take x out 9 a he>ty s*oolboy blubb]4 8,day aft] to-morr[ at ?is "t ,i %all be abo>d my %ip40 ,he knew t h] decision 0 wise1 b x pa9$ him t %e 0 s ready to s5d him4 ,& !n1 !re 0 ! ordeal ( p>t+ f h]1 a tug ( w> he c\ld n calmly face4 8,y %\ld g = ! sake ( pres]v+ y\r self-respect10 %e cont9u$1 8le/ 9 "t y become l ! slavi% wret*es by :om y are surr\nd$1 & also to pres]ve y\r life if y c>e = x4 ,two ye>s m "h b5t ov] y\r desk 9 d+y1 close rooms1 & y w be hopelessly ill ( consumption40 8,i h ?\ght ( t10 he said1 8& x has some?+ to d ) my wi% to get away40 8,well1 :5 y g else:]e1 don't make ! mi/ake ( beg9n+ ! same k9d ( life ov] aga94 ,don't imprison y\rself1 & don't hire y\rself out to any man4 ,! air ( ! ,we/ w n save y unless y brea! x fre% & pure4 ,live outdoors z mu* z possible4 ,h[ hide\s is ?is habit ( h]d+ 9 cities--hide\s & hurtful6 ,h[ s5sible ( y to ?9k ( go+ :]e !re is bread?1 fre$om & outlook 9 all s5ses ( ! words2 b ,i am surpris$1 because ,i nev] he>d y express any discont5t40 8,to be hone/1 ,i _h v little--too little = my own good10 he said1 color+ deeply4 8,x has co/ me a /ruggle to =ce myself to ?9k ( go+4 ,don't =get t x is y :o are s5d+ me aft] all2 b = y ,i swe> ,i %\ld n g40 8,i am sure ,i am do+ y a s]vice10 %e answ]$1 8?\gh ,i %all miss y1 z a matt] ( c\rse40 8,& y1 :at ( y\r future8 ,y advise me to leave ?is plodd+ exi/5ce1 :]e !re is nei!r gr[? nor fre$om1 & g :]e ,i c be m ?an ,i ev] c be "h2 b y are pass+ y\r life 9 exactly ! same jog-along way40 8,i--oh6 ,i1 too1 %all be gone "s day40 ,z %e spoke %e smil$1 look+ af> (f4 8,if ,i make a place = y w y come80 he ask$4 ,!re 0 no?+ lov]-l 9 8 voice or attitude1 yet he lov$ ! girl beside him ) a fai?ful1 dog-l1 wor%ipful affection4 ,n lov+ him1 & n hav+ a gra9 ( coquetry or ev5 vanity 9 h]1 %e _h nev] be5 aw>e ( x4 ,ev5 n[1 :5 8 mean+ became pla9 to h]1 %e did n make a situation ( x1 or give x ! slighte/ %ad+ ( ! s5tim5tal4 ,entirely unmov$ h]self1 %e knew n :at ! av[al co/ him1 made 9 ! face ( defeat1 z he well knew be=eh&4 8,oh1 de>1 no10 %e said1 simply1 )\t a %ade m or less ( feel+ 9 face or voice4 8,if ,i 7 a man1 yes1 ,i w\ld g2 b z x is1 no4 ,be grateful t y are a man & h no hamp]+1 cramp+ sex limitations to "w aga9/ 9 ! public m9d if n 9 y\r own4 ,y are free to g :]e y w & to d :at y wi%1 & if x be b half-way well done1 bo? fools & wise w *irrup y\r praises4 ,"o ?+ ,i ask ( y4 ,?r\gh\t y\r life1 nev] lose an opportunity ( help+ womank9d to a fre]1 bett]1 broad] life4 ,d ?is 9 memory ( me1 & if ,i meet y 9 ! future1 ei!r "h or on ! o!r side ( life--%\ld !re be ano!r side--,i %all n fail to ?ank y40 8,i promise1 & d\btless %all d m ?an t1 9 memory ( y40 ,! la/ words _h a quav] ( agony 9 !m1 :i* %e did n s5se4 8,i h be5 gr[+ re/less ( late1 too4 ,"s day ,i %all be gone--p]haps be=e long40 ,%e look$ af> (f ) dreamy eyes z %e spoke1 & ,k5dall's he>t a*$ z he realiz$ at la/1 t 9 ! future ( h] dreams he _h no "p or place4 8,d n =get1 :]ev] y may be1 t ,i am always y\r loyal1 humble s]vant10 he said1 g5tly4 8,i am sure ( t1 & ,i ?ank y10 %e answ]$1 ) k9dness 9 h] voice4 ,x 0 l ! man t he did n try to relieve 8 almo/ bur/+ he>t by talk+ ( 8 love = h]1 ev5 ?\gh x 0 )\t hope1 b he und]/ood none ( ! arts ( ,eros1 & 0 discipl9$ 9 repression4 ,9 tru?1 x 0 prepo/]\s t he %\ld dream ( w9n+ ?is woman1 & 9 a vague way he always knew x2 yet he _h dream$4 ,f ! day he fir/ saw h] %e _h en?rall$ him1 an a*ievem5t ( :i* %e seem$ altoge!r unconsci\s1 ?\gh ev]ybody else read x cle>ly en\gh4 ,!y _h met daily 9 _! common home1 a bo>d+-h\se1 = f\r ye>s4 ,!y _h enjoy$ conc]ts1 plays & lectures toge!r2 _h walk$ & talk$ toge!r & be5 good comrades & yet _h nev] agre$4 ,no?+ "u ! sun did !y see f ! same po9t ( view1 & ! topic ^u :i* !y ?\ght alike _h nev] be5 f\nd4 ,9 spite ( ?is1 ,k5dall pati5tly wor%ipp$ at h] %r9e4 ,_h he n be5 ( ! /eady1 hopeful1 nev]-give-up br& ( lov]1 he w\ld h lo/ he>t long be=e4 ,b he _h ! confid5ce ( ! self-satisfi$ & %ortsight$1 & a he>t t held on to its fancies ) ! desp]ate clut* t w9s sometimes :5 f9] me?ods fail4 ,to 8 cr$it be x said t :ile 8 devotion 0 op5 & above-bo>d1 = all ! _w to see1 he 0 nev] obtrusive4 ,e>ly 9 8 acqua9tance ) 8 tortur] he _h le>n$ to take a ?ird or f\r? place ab\t h] c&le & make no fuss4 ,he 0 at h] s]vice :5ev] %e ne$$ him1 & always out ( ! way :5 %e didn't ne$ him4 ,_m a night he _h climb$ to 8 f\r?-/ory room1 humm+ a *e]y song1 :ile 8 he>t 0 be+ gnaw$ 9 holes by ! mon/] ,jeal\sy1 all because ,miss ,hill 0 *att+ & laugh+ 9 ! p>lor ) "s ( ! o!r mo?s :o circl$ ab\t h]4 ,:5 *aff$ ab\t 8 ill-requit$ devotion1 he laugh$ x (f1 & said he 0 happy to be tol]at$ at all4 ,to himself1 z a matt] ( gravey>d :i/l+1 he said3 8,x is a "q ( wait+4 ,%e c>es = none ( !m4 ,:5 %e tires ( !m %e may ?9k ( me4 ,mean:ile ,i ?9k ( h] because ,i c't help x40 ,he kept ?is up = f\r ye>s4 ,!n a re/lessness ( _s came ^u him2 ! unse5 =ces ( de/9y began to "w ^u 8 m9d & urge him to g =?1 he knew n :]e4 ,yet h[ c\ld he g out ( ! sight ( h]1 volunt>ily8 ,!re 0 b "o ?+ t w\ld give him ! requir$ c\rage1 & t 0 to make h] bid him g4 ,!n he c\ld feel t1 at lea/1 he 0 obey+ h]1 h5ce 8 little plan ( hav+ h] ca/ ! die4 ,x might com=t him 9 ! future4 ,! f\r ye>s ( _! life toge!r "u ! same ro( roll$ ?r\gh ,k5dall's m9d 9 panorama1 & fill$ 8 he>t to bur/+4 ,! daily sight ( ! girl beside him _h sweet5$ ! days--_h be5 life itself to him1 = %e radiat$ light & life1 l a sun4 ,t %e did n love him1 matt]$ little 9 t mom5t4 ,! ye>s 9 :i* he _h liv$ 9 h] pres5ce c\ld n be tak5 f him4 ,rememb]+ ?is 8 _s 0 lift$ up1 & ! poor1 common1 selfi% ambition to possess h] vani%$1 & ! joy ( hav+ kn[n & lov$ h] took its place4 ,he look$ at h] long1 e>ne/ly1 ador+ly1 photograph+ h] on ! fadeless walls ( memory t he might c>ry ! picture ) him ?r\gh all ! ye>s to come4 8,i want to make a confession to y1 ,miss ,hill10 said ,k5dall1 :5 he ?\ght ! m5tal photograph ( h] 0 complete4 8,y h conv]t$ me to broad] views1 n by words1 b by y\r daily life4 ,i see y fill+ a useful place1 unaid$1 9 a pr(ession t only m51 h]et(ore1 to my k1 h attempt$4 ,y n only succe$1 b y excel mo/ ( y\r male co-work]s4 ,y make z mu* money z any ( !m1 & y h m bra9s1 & y comm& ev]ybody's respect4 ,?9k+ ov] ^! ?+s1 ,i am a%am$ to rememb] t ,i ?\ght ,i ought to vote1 b wom5 mu/ be kept f x at all haz>ds4 ,y\r example has enlight5$ me by tak+ "s ( ! mascul9e conceit out ( me4 ,i feel small & mean t ,i 9 my insignificance %\ld h ?r[n a /raw 9 ! pa? ( wom5 l y40 8,i am glad y\r m5tal horizon has wid5$10 %e said4 8,x w be a pleasure to ?9k ( y z "o ( my conv]ts4 ,i may nev] make ano!r1 unless1 z 9 ?is case1 x be done by example & n argum5t4 ,i beg9 to believe t discussion availe? little4 ,:5 ,i he> poor1 undevelop$ be+s fight+ ! ideas t w\ld make !m free1 ,i d no?+ to conv]t !m to my way ( ?9k+1 ,i j sil5tly say1 #8,may ,god enlight5 !m1' = t's all t c be done1 & ! enlight5+ process is usually sl[40 8,i rememb] n[10 he said1 8t ,i hav5't be5 able to draw y into a discussion 9 _m a day4 ,i suppose y saw x 0 a hopeless case & j simply pray$ = my enlight5m5t40 8,yes2 & x has come soon] ?an ,i expect$4 ,s n[ ,i am m ?an ev] p]suad$ t argum5t is useless4 ,none c be taught until ready to le>n4 #8,except ye become z little *ildr5'--receptive1 tea*able1 ready = light--applies to ent]+ all k+doms z well z ! heav5ly "o40 8,:ile ,i am confess+10 said ,k5dall1 8,i w tell y t ,i us$ sometimes to take sides aga9/ y = ! pleasure ( he>+ y express y\rself--y d x s well40 ,%e look$ at him & h] eyes made him a%am$1 z %e said3 8,t 0 n k9d4 ,i 0 always 9 e>ne/4 ,h[ev]1 ,i am le>n+ a little m ab\t human nature e day4 ,i %all soon cease to be a ,galatea1 ,i ?9k40 8,no2 x 0 n k9d nor hone/1 b ,i did n realize x until ?is mom5t1 & n[ ,i ask y\r p>don4 ,_m ( ! (f5ces ( u m5 are ! outcome ( ignorance r ?an meanness4 ,we "k no bett]4 ,our conceit has /ood 9 ! way ( our enlight5m5t4 ,=give all my %ortcom+s1 & rememb] my defects no m4 ,be a little k9d] /ill & d "o o!r s]vice = me4 ,read me my future40 8,i am no occulti/10 %e answ]$1 laugh+4 8,no matt]4 ,i h a fancy = believ+ y are = ! "t be+4 ,tell me :at lies ahead4 ,x may keep up my c\rage4 ,s9ce y are my confessor1 ,i don't m9d tell+ y t !re are mom5ts :5 ,i feel a *ildi% c[>dice ab\t :at ,i may h to meet1 & wi% ,i c\ld run away f x all & hide =ev]more40 8,t recalls a bit ( rhyme ,i read ye>s ago :i* has always /uck 9 my memory10 %e said3 8#8,:at is ,life1 ,fa!r8 ,a battle1 my *ild1 ,:]e ! /ronge/ arm may fail2 ,:]e ! w>ie/ eye may be beguil'd1 ,& ! /\te/ he>t may quail4' 8',tis no %ame to admit t "o's c\rage is n always high4 ,no "o lives always on ! heights4 ,i "k some?+ ab\t ^? mom5ts ( *ildi% c[>dice y speak (2 b !re1 ,i belong to ! sex t is suppos$ to h ! "r to be c[>dly--we are ev5 driv5 to x4 ,c\rage br+s reproa* ^u u1 :ile ! m we %r9k & c[] & quail & compla9 ! m #8womanly' we are said to be4 ,:at a f9e outlook = ! human race6 ,b z to y\r future4 ,n[ ,i am an a/rolog] & mu/ draw y\r horoscope40 7,?is 0 accompli%$ by scrat*+ sev]al circles on ! walk ) ! end ( h] p>asol47 8,!re1 ! r+s & dots & figures all mean trem5d\s ?+s4 ,i %all n we>y y1 h[ev]1 by tell+ y ! :y & :]e=e ( ev]y?+4 ,i %all /ick to facts4 ,"h goes3 ,i see a j\rney by wat] :i* ends :]e ! sun sets4 ,y w meet disappo9tm5ts & difficulties2 w "k privations & dang]s1 & also t mo/ dreadful =m ( homesickness--! homesickness ( "o :o has no home4 ,b y w ov]come all ob/acles & be :at is call$ successful2 y w f9d y\r place & hold x4 ,y w become bigg] & /rong] 9 body & 9 "*1 & y w nev] come back "h40 8,& ! indescribable ?+ call$ ,happ9ess2 has x no place 9 my horoscope80 he ask$1 aft] a pause4 8,is x n includ$ 9 ! ?+ call$ ,success80 %e answ]$4 8,c ! defeat$ be happy80 8,on ! :ole y\r read+ is n half bad1 z ! ,engli% say1 :5 !y want to complim5t a ?+1 & ,i believe 9 x40 ,yet he sigh$ z he spoke4 ,! promis$ success 0 n allur+1 mean+ z x did1 lifelong sep>ation f ! sun t w>m$ 8 life4 ,/ill he 0 9 dead e>ne/ :5 he said he believ$ 9 h] prophecies4 ,long ago he _h made up 8 m9d t ?is girl 0 8 fate--n 9 ! s5se t %e 0 likely to unite h] life to 84 ,he _h nev] be5 hone/ly hopeful ( t 9 spite ( 8 /eady p]sev]ance2 b x seem$ to him t 9 "s way %e 0 to direct 8 life1 to be ! /> ( 8 de/9y1 z x 74 ,& nev] 0 t belief /rong] ^u him ?an n[ :5 he knew t ! end ( _! daily association _h come4 ,ris+1 %e said1 8,let u ea* ca/ a pebble 9 ! pool ( ?is f\nta9 & see ^: circles w la/ long]40 ,z !y wat*$ ! r+s wid51 multiply & vani% until ^? made by h] pebble _h oblit]at$ 81 he said1 8,!re6 ,y\r _s w tr\ble ! wat]s ( life to great] purpose ?an m9e & long]4 ,x ne$s no div9ation to tell t40 ,:5 !y w5t back to ! h\se !y met ,we/field com+ out4 8,w %e ev5tually ?r[ h]self away on him80 0 ! qu]y ,k5dall put to himself4 ,at ! breakfa/ table next morn+ ,k5dall's *air 0 vacant1 & ! place 0 to "k him no m "u ! sun4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,confid5ces ,,& ,,que/ions4 8,too weak to *ange1 ?\gh a m5tal hell ,to me ! rle ( cl[n2 ,a c[>d b\nd by a self-wr\ght spell1 ,i wait ! s\nd ( ! prompt]'s bell ,:i* r+s ! curta9 d[n40 ,sunday's re/fulness 0 9 ! air4 ,miss ,hill & ,we/field sat 9 ! %ade ( ! great tree 9 ! y>d1 ) books & newspap]s ab\t !m4 ,no?+ 0 m delightful to ,we/field ?an to he> h] read al\d4 ,%e _h a voice ( great natural sweetness1 ) no artificial notes 9 x4 ,9 tru? !re 0 no artifice 9 h] "*4 ,! man beside h] to-day 0 "o ( :om poor ,k5dall _h (t5 be5 bitt]ly jeal\s1 a man ( f9] fibre ?an 8 rival1 great] *>m & grav] defects4 ,old]1 he 0 also wis]1 p>ticul>ly 9 melan*oly wisdom4 8,read me some?+10 he said1 8"s wild wail f a tortur$ poet4 ,!re are always pl5ty1 & ,i l 'en1 no matt] h[ w(ul !y are4 ,god bless ! poets e "o1 high & humble4 ,!y help u out 9 ! dre>y bus9ess ( life40 ,%e read3 8,:ite-foot$ ! sn[ comes1 ,o'er ! hills ( beauty1 ,tread+ l a p5it5t ,r\gh pa?s ( duty40 8,:at an exquisite figure10--he int]rupt$1--8! p]sonification ( ! sn[1 ) :ite feet1 l a p5it5t40 ,he _h once made a bright m>k 9 ! _w ( lett]s1 !n ceas$ to /rive & lat] ceas$ to c>e1 s x might be suppos$ t 8 comm5dation 0 ( "s value4 8,miss ,hill10 he said1 ) sudd5 animation1 8:at are y go+ to d ) y\r life80 8,live x1 if ,i am p]mitt$40 8,h[80 8,i h my dreams40 8,( :at80 ,%e smil$1 look+ f> away1 b kept sil5ce4 8,i c't make y out10 he said1 a little peevi%ly4 8,i believe y h g5ius = lit]ature1 yet y seem to be p]fectly indiff]5t ab\t cultivat+ x4 ,7 y l o!rs "o might suppose t love & m>riage made up y\r dreams2 b y are z indiff]5t to lov]s z to possible fame4 ,i don't und]/& y40 8,well1 x isn't wor? :ile to bo!r ab\t me10 %e said4 8,i %all be gone "s day40 8,i fe> y w10 he answ]$1 ) feel+2 8,i h ?\ght ( x a ?\s& times1 & dread$ to ent] ! h\se1 le/ ,i %\ld n f9d y !re4 ,a s5se ( y\r imp]man5ce is always ) me4 ,y don't belong "h 9 any s5se1 & ,i fe> t ,fate w n let y /ay mu* long]4 ,!re is an unreality ab\t y\r be+ "h at all t is l ! exp]i5ces we h :5 we sleep1 real en\gh :ile !y are occurr+1 b unreal to rememb]4 ,yes1 y w be gone "s day4 ,!re=e1 ,i %all take ,fate by ! =elock & g fir/1 t ,i may n be "h :5 y leave4 ,i c\ld n endure t4 ,! v sight ( ! old h\se & ?is tree w\ld !n be intol]able to me40 ,8 face & spee* 7 impassion$1 b ! girl saw x n4 ,t 0 :at made h] s exasp]at+ to ^? :om %e fasc9at$4 ,%e seem$ incapable ( see+ t %e c\ld fasc9ate4 ,! tru? 0 %e 0 self-absorb$4 8,y w\ld miss me1 ,i am sure10 %e said1 9 ! mo/ matt]-(-fact tone1 8& ,i %\ld miss y greatly1 if y 7 gone40 8,:]e w y g to :5 y leave "h80 he ask$4 8,to my own p1 ,i hope10 %e answ]$1 dreamily1 h] eyes w&]+ away to ! horizon4 8,tell me ab\t !m10 he begg$4 8,i h (t5 tri$ to lead y to talk ( !m1 b y nev] w\ld4 ,y are a tell-all1 tell-no?+ sort ( p]son4 ,o!rs d n notice t1 b ,i d1 & h wov5 "s !ories ab\t x40 8,i d>e say !y d me great honor1 b 9 all probability !y are f> f true40 8,well1 !n1 :y w y n tell me ab\t y\rself80 he ask$1 9 an injur$ tone4 8,y talk z ?\gh ,i h be5 mak+ hi/ory on ?is planet = ages4 ,i am "y2 :at c\ld ,i h to tell t w\ld satisfy y\r expectation ( ! extraord9>y4 ,y h kn[n me "h 9 ?is h\se = m ?an two ye>s4 ,z ! ,indians 9 ! old /ory-books say1 we h #8eat5 salt toge!r daily1' & we h walk$ & talk$ toge!r ) ! fre$om ( *ildr54 ,:at is !re ( me /ill unreveal$80 8,i don't "k10 he said1 8b ,i feel !re is some?+--a "p ( y & y\r exp]i5ces f :i* ,i & o!rs are %ut out1 & t "p is ! greate/ "p ( y4 ,i argue t1 because1 al?\gh y attract _m1 myself1 poor mo?1 among !m1 no "o gets ne> to y4 ,an invisible b =midable wall surr\nds y1 f :i* all our attempt$ gallantries reb\nd l arr[s :i* /rike rocks4 ,& !re y are beh9d x1 always smil+ & agreeable1 b entirely unmov$ & secure4 ,n[1 somebody or "s exp]i5ce built t wall1 = x is n 9 ! nature ( ?+s = x to be !re )\t cause40 8,g on10 %e said1 smil+1 z he wait$ = h] to speak4 8,y w end by be+ a great ar*itect yet4 ,h[ l magic y put up t wall40 8,y may *aff z mu* z y please10 he said1 a little savagely1 8b ,i am n to be put (f t way4 ,n[ t ,i h begun ,i am go+ to say "s ?+s s]i\sly & y mu/ he> !m s]i\sly40 8,i told y to g on10 %e said1 compos$ly4 8,& s ,i w10 he grumbl$1 8?\gh ,i "k p]fectly well t x w\ld be manli] if ,i kept sil5ce4 ,z y say1 we h eat5 & walk$ & talk$ toge!r z freely z *ildr5 = m ?an two ye>s4 ,9 t "t we h become well acqua9t$--n ! poor1 %all[ acqua9tance ( =mal society1 b ! ne>1 intimate association ( two human be+s :o hone/ly express !mselves to ea* o!r4 ,! result ( ?is comrade%ip is t ,i love y4 ,i w n say ,i h le>n$ to love y1 = some?+ ( ! fact 0 cle> to me ! v fir/ "t ,i saw y4 ,9 all probability y don't rememb] ! incid5ts ( t day at all1 b ,i d4 ,brooks1 our good ho/1 z y "k1 is my old fri5d4 ,i _h drift$ to ?is city 9 an aimless way1 z ,i _h be5 drift+ = ye>s4 ,he met me & br\ght me home to d9n] ) him4 ,i h always ador$ intellect 9 man or woman4 ,"o look into y\r eyes told me t y are ( uncommon end[m5ts4 ,!n1 along ) a beautiful b simple /atel9ess ( mann]1 y h c]ta9 *ildi% graces ( :i* y are unconsci\s4 ,y h nev] put y\r *ildhood entirely away f y4 ,i p>ticul>ly notic$ ! correct s*ool-girli% arrangem5t ( y\r knife & =k at ! end ( ! d9n]1 & 0 *>m$ by x4 ,aft] we left ! table ,i said to ,brooks t y _h wond]ful eyes4 ,he agre$ ) me1 b w>n$ me n to let !m undo me1 because he said y 7 con/ruct$ on a novel plan1 "o man be+ ! same z ano!r to y1 & all be+ z no?+4 8,i paid no att5tion to 8 w>n+1 z y see4 ,on ! contr>y1 :5 he w5t to ! ,times (fice & secur$ me a situation1 ,i accept$ x gratefully1 because ,i c\ld !n become a memb] ( 8 h\sehold & see y e day4 ,i h lov$ y ev] s9ce1 & h _h mu* quiet joy 9 x1 & x has bett]$ me 9 _m ways4 ,i "k p]fectly well--,i h always kn[n--t y d n love me1 & 9 my lea/ selfi% mom5ts ,i am glad ( x1 because ,i h no?+ to (f] y t is fit = y to accept4 ,i w\ld n tell y t ,i love y--nev] a ^w ( x--7 ,i n sure t x w n hurt y4 ,9 ! ye>s to come ! memory ( x may com=t y4 ,x is a great com=t to me n[1 hopeless z x is4 ,x helps me only to tell x4 ,o my *ild1 my he>t has long be5 sick & sore f bruises ! l ( :i* ,i pray y may nev] "k4 ,we m5 are set up to be s /rong & pret5d to be s self-satisfi$1 b we are only gr[n-up *ildr5 aft] all4 ,:5 we are sore 9 _s we long = "s lov+ woman s\l to take u to h] arms & pet & soo! u "m-l1 yet we (t5 live our lives )\t x4 8,i am fifte5 ye>s old] ?an y1 & "k ! _w well--bett] ?an ,i wi% ,i did--s well t ,i %\ld l to protect y f its ugly phases4 ,yet ,i am p[]less to d x4 ,nev] did ,i s deeply lam5t my aimless1 wa/$ life z n[1 :5 ,i see myself ) no?+ to (f] y & yet lov+ y ) all my he>t4 ,sometimes1 s9ce ,i h kn[n y1 ,i h dream$ t ) y\r help ,i c\ld pull myself toge!r & make some?+ ( my life yet2 b ! dream is only tempor>y--x flees1 ! reaction comes & ,i s9k back to ! rle ( a nobody :i* ,i h long be5 play+1 & d\btless %all play to ! end--an end t ,i may make = myself any day4 8,to say t ,i despise myself = be+ ! wret*$ failure ,i am is to express myself b lamely4 ,my love has 9 x an elem5t ( ! pat]nal4 ,i am n ?9k+ s mu* ( :at y might be to me1 b ( :at ,i e>ne/ly wi% ,i might be to y4 ,i long to %ield y f ! inf9ite horror ( ! exp]i5ce we call life1 z x is reveal$ to _m4 ,y are l a tall "y p9e-tree /&+ alone on a high rugg$ & rocky m\nta9 side1 enjoy+ ! sun%9e & sway+ g5tly 9 ! summ] breeze1 n kn[+ t ! w9t] ( ! future w br+ /orms t may te> its roots f ! e>?4 ,y "k n y\r own value1 t is ! dang]4 ,"s day y may give y\r love & h y\r he>t brok54 ,t's :at happ5s to /rong s\ls usually1 & y are "o ( !m4 ,i "k ! answ] to ! woman poet's "q3 8#8,is x s1 ,o ,*ri/ 9 heav51 t ! highe/ suff] mo/8 ,t ! /ronge/ w&] f>!/1 & mo/ hopelessly are lo/8 ,t ! m>k ( rank 9 nature is capacity = pa91 ,& ! angui% ( ! s+]1 makes ! sweetness ( ! /ra98 8#8,i h _m ?+s to tell y1 b ye _c be> !m n[4' 8,yes1 ,i "k ! answ] to t1 & x makes me anxi\s ab\t y\r future4 ,behold ! pitiful spectacle ( a man :o loves a woman1 tells h] ( x1 & yet confesses himself a hopeless failure40 8,b :y d y insi/ ^u consid]+ y\rself a failure80 ask$ ,miss ,hill4 8,y are n old1 y h good heal?1 education1 ability1 ! necess>y +r$i5ts = a*ievem5t40 8,*ild1 y d n und]/&4 ,h[ c\ld y8 ! ru9 is )91 n visible on ! out] walls40 8,no2 ,i d n und]/&10 %e said4 8,i w tell y10 he said1 8h[ ,i came to be a loit]] 9 ! race1 :at 8#8----wr\ght my woe1 ,9 ! diamond morn+ ( long ago1' z ! song says4 ,y see ,i began by ask+ y ab\t y\rself1 &1 ) ! artless art t di/+ui%es y1 ) sc>cely a ^w1 y h swit*$ me (f ! track ,i _h tak5 & set me talk+ ab\t myself in/ead4 ,i %all lose 9 y\r respect aft] ,i tell my /ory1 z a matt] ( c\rse1 b ,i w\ld r y knew x4 8,ye>s ago1 9 ! days :5 ! e>? 0 new & sweet to me--9 ! m\nta9-mov+ p]iod ( life1 ! trag$y began4 ,i lov$1 & l ! lov] ( ,annabel ,lee ,i may say t ! angels ( heav5 covet$ ! love ( h] & me4 ,i 0 "o ( ! editors ( ! mo/ prosp]\s daily newspap] 9 ! city t 0 my home1 my uncle be+ its proprietor4 ,he _h no *ildr5 ( 8 own1 & _h br\ght up my bro!r & me1 our p>5ts hav+ di$1 :5 we 7 v little4 8,a s5sational crim9al trial 0 be=e ! c\rts ( a di/ant city1 & x 0 arrang$ t ,i 0 to att5d x & s5d daily lett]s to my j\rnal4 ,z x promis$ to la/ sev]al weeks1 ! sep>ation f ,emma look$ un5durable4 ,i mu/ m>ry h] & take h] ) me4 ,b :5 ,i told my plan to h] %e said %e c\ldn't leave h] fa!r1 :o 0 old1 feeble & almo/ bl9d1 ) nobody else to c>e = him4 ,9 my selfi%ness ,i _h =gott5 him4 #8,i _c g ) y1' %e said1 #8b ,i am will+ to m>ry y be=e y g4 ,x w com=t me :ile y are gone j to "k t ,i am y\r wife4' 8,s we m>ri$1 tell+ no "o b ,emma's fa!r4 ,! secrecy 0 ne$less & fooli%1 b :5 "y we are all m or less enslav$ by ! ways ( o!rs1 & ?is 0 too viol5t a dep>ture f cu/om to be proclaim$ j !n4 8,ours 0 an unusual b n unhappy honey-moon4 ,we wrote e day1 long1 gl[+ lett]s1 & annihilat$ di/ance ) our ?\ght4 8,b "o day a telegram came ann\nc+ t my wife _h be5 murd]$--/ruck d[n 9 h] own home1 9 ! light ( day1 9 ! pres5ce ( h] helpless old fa!r4 8,beh9d ! dreadful de$ 0 ! usual crazy reject$ suitor4 ,i knew ! wret*$ boy well--he 0 b a boy--b nev] dream$ ( ! gha/ly possibilities )9 8 crook$ m9d4 ,b :at "k we ( any "o8 ,:o is safe f treat+ ! community to a hide\s s5sation8 8,he _h long be5 fond ( ,emma1 b lo/ hope :5 he saw t my attitude t[>d h] 0 an assur$ "o4 ,b aft] ,i w5t away he got x into 8 crazy head t we _h qu>rel$1 & took he>t aga94 ,:5 he implor$ h] to m>ry him1 & %e refus$ )\t tell+ him t %e 0 already m>ri$1 he %ot h] dead & !n %ot himself4 8,horror1 grief1 & remorse ov]:elm$ me4 ,i blam$ myself4 ,:y _h ,i n ann\nc$ ! m>riage at once8 ,_h ! wret*$ boy kn[n t ,emma 0 my wife1 he w\ld h let h] alone1 ,i am sure4 ,:at did x avail t ,i put a tablet at h] grave be>+ ! "n ( ,emma ,we/field8 ,humble z 0 ! "n x might h protect$ h] _h x be5 op5ly be/[$ ^u h]4 8,?is happ5$ t5 ye>s ago1 be=e my fri5d ,brooks1 our ho/1 ev] met me4 ,he kn[s no?+ ( x--doesn't dream t ,i ev] 0 m>ri$4 ,to speak ( x w\ld oblige me to ent] into explanations1 to uncov] my he>t to gratify curiosity1 :i*1 h[ev] k9dly meant1 is always pa9ful to a sore _s4 ,i tell y t y may und]/& ,i h at lea/ ! %ad[ ( an excuse = be+ :at ,i am1 a man )\t purpose1 a )]$1 useless bran* ( ! human tree1 wait+ = ! man ) ! prun+ knife to come & cut me d[n4 8,see ! irony ( fate4 ,a few days aft] my wife's dea?1 my uncle di$1 leav+ all 8 prop]ty to my bro!r & me4 ,we 7 n[ own]s ( ! newspap] on :i* we _h work$ z employees1 & ( o!r valuable int]e/ besides4 ,x only emphasiz$ my mis]y4 ,( all my possessions ,i c\ld give no?+ to ! woman ,i lov$--no?+ b a /one at ! end ( a little heap ( e>?4 8,x might h be5 bett] = me _h ,i n inh]it$ my uncle's prop]ty1 = x enabl$ me to idle away my "t & indulge my selfi% grief1 until my w became enfeebl$1 & t means ! crumbl+ ( ! :ole "*1 :i* goes to pieces l an old wall4 8,i w5t away1 w&]+ ov] ! e>? aimlessly1 n try+ to b5efit by travel1 only hop+ to make new sc5es blot out ! old1 unbe>able ones4 ,i sp5t ye>s 9 ! va9 ef=t to run away f myself4 ,i am /ill engag$ 9 t hopeless ef=t1 ?\gh ,i h le>n$ t x c't be done4 ,we take our _w ) u :]ev] we g--heav5 & hell br+ bo? )9 u4 8,i am b a morbid idl]1 :o has lo/ ! qualities t give a man a place among m54 ,?\gh ,i nev] tri$ to /ifle memory & mis]y 9 debau*]y1 my money melt$ away4 ,! co>se pleasures _m m5 pursue nev] _h *>ms = me1 b my de/ruction 0 none ! less sure4 ,x has come )\t degradation1 ,i am ?ankful to say1 save t :i* any man mu/ feel :o has let himself slide d[n hill s f> he nev] c climb up aga94 8,once only s9ce t dreadful ?+ happ5$ h ,i accompli%$ any?+4 ,i brac$ myself aga9/ my inn] foes long en\gh to write ! little book y "k4 ,x gave me fame en\gh = a f\ndation = future "w1 _h ,i foll[$ x up2 b ,i didn't4 ,i fell imm$iately back into ! clut*es ( ! mis]able devils :o possess$ me--made a complete & +lori\s surr5d] to !m = all "t1 c>+ naught :o w9s ! prizes 9 ! hateful race ( life4 8,my /ory proves me a contemptible weakl+4 ,i "k ,i am n a :it above ! *eap h]o ( ! old-"t1 pirate novel1 ! fell[ :o does ! gloomy1 manages to look z ?\gh ! h& ( ,fate 0 ev] ^u him1 & has a secret sorr[ z big z an omnibus1 :i* he wants all ! _w to "k4 ,i am n made ( ! "r k9d ( /uff or ,i %\ld n h giv5 up at ! fir/ bl[ ( ,de/9y4 #8,man yields himself n to ! angels nor ev5 unto ,dea? itself1 save ?r\gh ! weakness ( 8 own poor w4' 8,_h ,emma's fa!r liv$1 ! c>e ( him might h prov$ a prop to me1 b ! %ock kill$ him1 & he di$ a few weeks aft] %e did4 ,i _h my bro!r1 y\ng] ?an myself1 & we lov$ ea* o!r1 b ,i argu$ t he did n ne$ me1 & left him4 ,he loves me /ill & foll[s me ) ! k9de/1 de>e/ lett]s1 & is always begg+ me to come back to him2 b ,i w n be a cl\d ^u 8 happ9ess & prosp]ity4 ,yet 8 sympa?y & y\rs are all t is left 9 ! _w preci\s to me4 8,my love = y is diff]5t f my e>ly love4 ,9 t day ! ca/les ,i con/ruct$ 7 v worldly ones4 ,n[1 ,i h no worldly ambitions :atev]4 ,x seems to me t by "s k9d ( k9%ip ( s\l1 if !re is su* a ?+ z s\l1 y belong to me1 & nev] c be tak5 f me1 ?\gh our lives may be widely sep>at$4 ,if y 7 ! vile/ & mo/ degrad$ creature 9 ! _w & yet 7 y\rself1 ,i %\ld love y j ! same4 8,aft] ,emma w5t away ,i tri$ h>d to te> f ,dea? its well-gu>d$ secret4 ,i want$ to "k if ! d>k hole 9 ! gr\nd is ! end ( u all4 ,i p\nd$ fi]cely on ! v doors ( ! tomb1 begg+ pite\sly = an answ]4 ,none came4 ,no2 nev] a ^w came out ( ! sil5ce into :i* %e _h gone4 ,! p :o say !y believe 9 a h]eaft] quote at u ^? exasp]at+ scriptural que/ions3 #8,o ,dea?1 :]e is ?y /+8 ,o grave1 :]e is ?y victory8' ,i c answ] !m4 ,! /+ is "h1 9 my he>t4 ,! victory is ov] all my hopes1 dreams & ambitions4 ,p :o believe6 ,are !re any su*8 ,!y only say !y believe4 ,x is all m]e m\?+4 ,c any man believe t :i* he does n "k8 ,_! twaddle ab\t fai? & heav5 enrag$ me4 ,i want$ pro(1 pro(--?\gh b a :isp]$ ^w1 ! fa9te/ t\* ( a vani%$ h&1 or ! t9ie/ scrat* ( a famili> p54 ,pro(6 ,pro(6 ,oh = ! pro( t %e liv$ some:]e4 ,_h ,i _h t ,i c\ld h laugh$ long & l\d at ,dea?1 ! li> & ! *eat4 ,! m]e/ ?read ( a rope w\ld h s]v$ = me to hold to1 ,i 0 s eag] to believe4 ,b nobody let x d[n to me--n !n1 nor 9 all ! ye>s s9ce4 8,yet n[1 9 spite ( all t1 :5 ,i look at y1 ,i _c p]suade myself t y are to die--to cease f liv+4 ,y c>ry ) y a conviction ( immortality4 ,y\r int5se individuality seems l a dea?less ?+4 ,x rem9ds me ( ! words ( ! "y ,greek 9 ! drama ( ,ion4 ,:5 8 life 0 to be sacrific$1 8 belov$ asks if !y %all meet aga94 ,he says1 #8,i h ask$ t dreadful "q ( ! hills t look et]nal--( ! /reams t fl[ =ev]--( ! />s among ^: fields ( azure my rais$ _s has walk$ 9 glory4 ,all are dumb4 ,b z ,i gaze ^u ?y liv+ face1 ,i see some?+ 9 ! love t lights its beauty :i* _c :olly p]i%4 ,we %all meet aga91 ,cleman!8' 8,:at answ] h y = ! "q8 #8,if a man die %all he live aga98'0 8,ab\t t ,i ?9k mu*1 hope a little sometimes1 b "k no?+10 %e said4 8,no2 we "k no?+10 he e*o$1 ) a sigh2 8b x is some?+ to hope4 ,i h a fancy t ! road is n long ahead ( me "h1 & ,i may soon h a *ance to "k :at !re is or "k no?+4 ,if we h an exi/5ce beyond ?is objective "o1 ,i may be able to help y f !re4 ,x w\ld be help+ y c\ld ,i b come & tell y t ,i liv$1 w\ld x n80 8,:at great] s]vice c\ld y d me80 8,if ,i c\ld d t ,i might d m4 ,:o kn[s8 ,( c\rse x is absurd to speak ( help+ y )\t expla9+ :at ,i mean4 ,app>5tly y ne$ nobody's help4 ,y are /rong ( "*1 self-pois$1 capable1 successful & fe>less4 ,i see all t1 yet ,i _c rid myself ( ! fe> t y are de/9$ to suff] mu* & w ne$ ! s]vice & sympa?y ( all :o love y4 ,f life ,i h le>n$ a little4 ,:5 great /r5g? is giv5 ,i "k x w be ne$$4 ,& y are /rong] 9 "* ?an y "k4 ,i %\ld l to save y f suff]+1 b 7 ,i ev] s ri* & p[]ful1 ,i "k ,i c\ld n d x4 ,y mu/ meet y\r de/9y1 :atev] x may be4 ,z ! ,scot* say1 #8mu/ dree y\r weird4' ,nobody else c live y\r life = y1 =1 alas6 life admits ( no proxy4 ,i h wov5 _m fanciful !ories ab\t y & y\r pa/1 pres5t & future40 8,tell me "o10 %e said4 8,i w give y my favorite4 ,y are n :at y seem to be--n less b m ?an y pret5d to be4 ,y h be5 t5d]ly re>$ & mu* lov$4 ,y are n "h e>n+ y\r bread because ( necessity1 b = "s purpose n ?\ght ( by ^? ) :om y come 9 contact4 ,hav+ demon/rat$ y\r ability to /& alone1 y w g back home "s day & be done ) x4 ,y are support$ 9 :atev] o!rwise w\ld be h>d1 by ! k t y are free to turn y\r back ^u x :5ev] y wi%4 ,am ,i n a good clairvoyant80 8,p]mit me to ask :y y ?9k z y d ab\t me80 8,because y give me ! impression ( n belong+ :]e ,i f9d y4 ,y seem to be play+ a "p & do+ x ) exce$+ skill2 b y\r real self is n 9 x4 ,z y say1 y w be gone "s day to y\r own p4 ,& n[ t ,i h confess$ myself a failure & a fool1 ,i too1 %all g away40 8,:y80 %e ask$1 regretfully4 8,:y mu/ ! m5 & wom5 :o f9d ea* o!r companionable be lov]s or no?+ to ea* o!r8 ,i am fond ( y1 v1 n 9 ! s5tim5tal fa%ion1 b z good comrade & fri5d4 ,:y c't we g on j z we h be5 do+8 ,t talk ab\t lov+ me ne$ make no diff]5ce40 8,y are l a *ild ab\t ^! ?+s10 he said4 8,y "k n ! creature man 9 8 bondage to selfi%ness4 ,y cr$it u ) ! /r5g? ( gods1 & we are mo/ly su* poor1 ill-develop$ wret*es t if we want :at we _c h we mu/ run away to avoid %[+ h[ little we are ma/]s ( ourselves4 ,b tell me :at are y go+ to d ) y\r life80 8,i h my dreams40 8,( :at80 8,happ9ess40 8,w\ld x be (f5sive if ,i ask$ ^u :at p>ticul> br& ( ! article y h set y\r he>t80 8,! mo/ commonplace "o 9 ! _w1--! love & companion%ip ( him :o is de>e/40 ,we/field 0 too a/oni%$ to say any?+4 ,0 ! riddle s simple8 ,0 ?is self-conta9$1 indep5d5t girl foll[+ ! same ev]yday illusion t lur$ all o!r wom58 ,:ile app>5tly c>+ no?+ = lov]s 0 %e wor%ip+ ! "o %e c>ri$ ev] 9 h] he>t8 8,i w tell y all !re is to tell10 %e said1 aft] a mom5t1 8& !n y w und]/&40 ,he nodd$ ass5t1 b felt 8 he>t s9k+4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,h] ,,/ory ,,& ,,fate4 8,:o reads ! riddle "r8 ,& :o c answ] :y ,^! cl\ds sweep ov] our m5tal life8 ,n y1 brave prie/1 nor ,i40 8,in/ead ( be+ t5d]ly c>$ =1 z y imag9e10 said ,miss ,hill1 8,i _h a loveless *ildhood1 ?\gh above all ?+s ,i want$ to be lov$ & to be told t ,i 0 lov$4 ,i c\ld h be5 an angel ( goodness _h ,i _h ev5 a little love2 b next to none 0 giv5 me4 ,if p>5ts only knew t by %[+ love = _! *ildr5 !y made = !m a f\ndation ( happ9ess :i* no aft] exp]i5ces c\ld knock f "u _! feet1 p]haps !y w\ld be k9d] ?an "s ( !m are4 ,b :y speak ( ifs at all8 ,if we knew at ! beg9n+ ( life :at we "k at ! end ( x1 p]haps we %\ld nev] h to make ! j\rney4 ,i h ?\ght (t5 t ,i c\ld be> my tr\ble c\rage\sly if ,i _h sweet memories ( *ildhood2 b ,i h only bitt] ones4 ,sometimes ,i h be5 unhappy s9ce ,i h be5 e>n+ my own bread among p unkn[n to me be=e1 b nev]1 nev] = a mom5t s mis]able z ,i 0 always 9 ! home into :i* ,i 0 born4 8,i und]/& ! reason ( x all bett] n[ & blame nobody4 ,! law 0 simply work+ itself out into its natural results4 ,if ,i suff]$--well1 :o doesn't suff] z ! mills ( ! gods gr9d1 set 9 op]ation z !y usually are by ignorant h&s8 ,my fa!r & "m 7 natural enemies1 :o %\ld h liv$ z f> asund] z ! poles1 in/ead ( enact+ a hide\s1 lifelong trag$y 9 ! "n ( m>riage4 ,i am q sure !y hat$ ea* o!r en]getically mo/ ( ! "t & bitt]ly ! re/ ( x1 yet !y /uck toge!r & br\ght sev5 *ildr5 into ! _w to suff] 9 a ?\s& ways f _! incompatible union1 & consid]$ !mselves virtu\s 9 s do+4 ,yet1 t is ! k9d ( ?+ t passes = morality4 ,long ago ,i saw t x 0 a f\l lie1 & ! dire/ foe to morality4 ,:5 my elde/ si/] 0 m>ri$1 & ,i he>d ! words #8,:at ,god has jo9$ toge!r let no man put asund]1' cl9*+ ! curse1 z x 71 x set me to ?9k+ & ask+ que/ions4 ,somebody expla9$ to me t all husb&s & wives 7 jo9$ toge!r by ,god1 & c\ld n possibly be sep>at$ )\t go+ viol5tly aga9/ ,8 w1 except by dea?1 & t1 ( c\rse1 0 9 accordance ) ,8 w4 ,i pond]$ ov] ?is ) a heavy he>t4 ,!n ,god _h unit$ my fa!r & "m4 ,?is dreadful "w _h be5 done by ,8 h&1 & ,i 0 wro? aga9/ ,him1 = e day ,i felt & saw ! evil effects ( x4 8,is x /range t ours 0 a loveless family8 ,) no love betwe5 husb& & wife1 c\ld !y be expect$ to love _! *ildr58 ,c a "m be expect$ to love ! *ild :o comes unwelcome to h] arms8 ,c a fa!r love *ildr5 9 :om he sees ! features & traits ( ! woman to :om he is hopelessly b\nd & yet hates8 ,we 7 all victims ( violat$ law1 s :o 0 to blame8 ,ignorance6 ,ignorance1 :i* is responsible = all ! evil & all ! suff]+ "u ! sun4 ,9 fact ignorance is evil1 & evil is ignorance1 no?+ m nor less4 ,y "k ,%akspe>e says !re is no d>kness b ignorance4 8,we frequ5tly h well-mean+ p]sons say t ill-mat$ m>ri$ folk %\ld /ick toge!r #8= ! sake ( ! *ildr54' ,yet = t v reason !y %\ld sep>ate4 ,_! *ildr5 & *ildr5's *ildr5 pay ! p5alty ( _! violation ( ! laws ( h>mony1 & /ill f>!r d[n ! l9e ( ! future goes ! mis]y t _h its orig9 9 a hateful m>riage4 ,pray tell me h[ is morality s]v$ !reby8 8,9 addition to ! discord t made our lives wret*$ my p>5ts 7 victims ( ! desp]ate /ruggle = exi/5ce1 9 :i* ! f9] qualities 7 squeez$ out4 ,?is s absorb$ !m t ! true mean+ ( home & family escap$ !m1 & ! mat]ial side ( ! situation alone receiv$ att5tion4 ,we 7 all wret*$4 ,x 0 a horrible exp]i5ce4 ,!re we 71 n ( our own *oice1 w$g$ into an unwelcome place & unable to extricate ourselves4 ,we 7 pla9ly told t :atev] 0 done = u 0 to help make u able to take c>e ( ourselves4 ,we 7 urg$ to be indu/ri\s at s*ool1 because le>n+ w\ld enable u to be self-support+4 ,i nev] he>d any o!r reason put =? 9 def5ce ( education4 ,?is 0 d9n$ into our e>s until life _h b "o mean+1--t ( gett+ on 9 ! _w4 ,! problem end$ !re4 ,! result1 ,i ne$ h>dly say1 0 to make u selfi%4 ,in/ead ( lov+ "o ano!r & %>+ ea* o!rs' burd5s1 ea* ?\ght only ( 8 or h] individual success1 & ! *]i%$ dream ( all 0 to get away--to g =? :]e !re 0 opportunity4 8,i 0 next to ! y\nge/1 a si/]1 an extraord9>y little be+1 :o _h br\ght ) h] traces ( a wisdom n ( ! e>?1 & a recollection ( conditions & surr\nd+s m to h] ta/e ?an our j>r+ h\sehold4 ,%e talk$ mu* ( a home t %e _h _h some:]e1 & (t5 wept to g back to x1 nor c\ld %e ev] be p]suad$ to call ! place 9 :i* %e f\nd h]self home4 ,god kn[s h[ ali5 & com=tless x mu/ h seem$ to h] delicate _s4 ,:5 ?ree ye>s old %e left u1 su* 0 h] good =tune4 ,at lea/ x seem$ good to me ev5 !n1 & :5 !y told me ! usual fanciful tales ( w+s & a %9+ heav51 ,i envi$ h]4 8,"o by "o my si/]s & bro!rs made ha/e to leave4 ,s eag] 7 !y to get away t "s took ! fir/ matrimonial boat on :i* !y c\ld secure passage1 & !reby made sad %ipwreck ( _! lives4 ,h[ ,i long$ to be lov$4 ,:5 ,i saw o!r *ildr5 pett$ & c>ess$ my he>t swell$ almo/ to bur/+4 ,! result ( my unsatisfi$ long+ 0 t ,i took refuge 9 my imag9ation & !re liv$ a life z cong5ial & blissful z my outside life 0 di/a/eful & mis]able4 ,i surr\nd$ myself ) imag9>y fri5ds :om ,i lov$ & :o lov$ me--*>m+1 agreeable1 sup]ior p--m5 & wom51 n *ildr54 ,! mis]y t prevail$ 9 our home _h tak5 my *ildhood f me be=e ,i knew ,i possess$ x4 ,i e>ly le>n$ ! solemn tru? t #8ea* s\l 9 :at is mo/ itself1 9 :at is deepe/ & ne>e/1 lives alone1 & t !re is m lonel9ess 9 life ?an !re is communion4' ,i1 too1 l my little si/]1 suff]$ f a /range homesickness ( ! _s1 a long+ = sympa!tic association1 = companion%ip1 9 %ort4 ,i want$ cong5ial air1 #8t air :i* may be f\nd ev]y:]e1 if we c f9d sympa!tic s\ls to brea! x ) u1 & :i* is to be f\nd n[h]e )\t !m1--! air ( ! l& ( our dreams1 ( ! c\ntry ( ! ideal4' ,plot9us says #8,our true c\ntry is t f :5ce we came4' ,x has always seem$ to me t f> back 9 ! pa/ ,i liv$ some:]e & 0 happy4 ,n[ ,i am ev] se>*+ = ! s\ls :o are 9 sympa?y ) me1 z 9 t f>-(f "t4 ,!y are my own p1 r ?an ^? to :om ,i am relat$ by consangu9e ties4 ,!y or _! c\nt]p>ts exi/ some:]e on ! e>?1 ,i believe1 & ! real bus9ess ( my life is to f9d !m4 8,"o's own p6 ,?9k ( :at x w\ld be to dwell among !m1 :]e sympa?y met "o 9 e glance1 & love made itself felt 9 e tone ( ! voice4 8,i 0 fond ( /udy1 0 quick to le>n1 & :5 only sev5te5 0 s f> advanc$ t ,i felt ready to beg9 life on my own acc\nt4 ,l ! o!rs1 ,i 0 re/less to leave a home :i* _h nev] be5 m ?an a %elt] to me4 ,i _h no dreams ( m>ry+1 & walk+ 9 ! same treadmill 9 :i* s _m millions ( wom5 h worn out _! s\ls z well z _! bodies4 ,i c\ld nev] see :y all wom5 %\ld sp5d _! lives 9 cook+ & nurs+ *ildr5 any m ?an :y all m5 %\ld till ! soil1 :i* 0 civiliz$ man's primal occupation4 ,i saw1 too1 v cle>ly1 t wom5 c\ld nev] be m ?an half-fl$g$ m5tally1 or h any real influ5ce 9 ! _w ( affairs s long z !y 7 dep5d5ts f9ancially4 ,!y mu/ a*ieve pecuni>y indep5d5ce be=e !y c\ld hope = wid] orbits1 z x 74 ,to get an opportunity to c>ve my own way 9 life 0 my unceas+ wi%4 ,s unceas+ & e>ne/ 0 x t x creat$ its own fulfilm5t4 ,y may put x d[n z a great tru?1 t a desire held ) e>ne/ness1 fai? & p]si/5ce1 w br+ to ! "o :o holds x its object4 #8,ask & ye %all receive' is a law t is op]ative ev]y:]e4 8,i held myself ready to d :atev] ,i c\ld f9d t ne$$ do+1 b always 9 ! day-dreams ( my future ,i saw myself a successful pa9t] & au?or1 because hundr$s ( beautiful pictures danc$ be=e my m9d & begg$ to be put on canvas1 & ?\s&s ( ?\ghts & fancies flitt$ ?r\gh my bra9 t ,i long$ to %>e ) all :o w\ld he> me4 8,i _h a gift = draw+1 b _h advanc$ z f> z ,i c\ld g )\t bett] in/ructors ?an 7 atta9able :]e ,i liv$4 ,"o ?+1 h[ev]1 ,i _h1 :i* 0 a bless+ to my arti/ic s5se & a solace to my _s4 ,t 0 a beautiful l&scape to look ^u4 ,z ! m5tal atmosph]e ( home 0 always inh>moni\s ,i liv$ outdoors z mu* z possible1 & f ! f9e view ! location comm&$ ,i extract$ mu* pr(\nd pleasure4 8,"o day ,i saw an adv]tisem5t 9 a newspap] to ! effect t a li?ograph] 9 a little city fifty miles away want$ an assi/ant :om he c\ld tra9 to suit 8 ne$s4 ,! next day f\nd me face to face ) ! adv]tis]1 talk+ myself up unblu%+ly4 ,he 0 surpris$1 ( c\rse1 t a girl ^: frocks z yet came no l[] ?an h] ankles1 %\ld want to le>n an art presumably sacr$ to m52 b aft] "s hesitation he engag$ me1 & ,i f\nd myself laun*$ 9 life z an indep5d5t1 self-support+ factor4 ,x 0 a pr\d day = me1 ,i assure y4 ,to ! h>d%ips ( ! situation ,i nev] gave a ?\ght4 ,! *ance to "w 0 ! w$ge t 0 to split up ! tree ( my future1 s ,i set myself to hamm]+ ^u x ) might & ma94 ,my pecuni>y recomp5se 0 microscopical1 b ev5 t gave me no di/ress4 ,su* z x 0 ,i manag$ to live )9 x1 & look =w>d to some?+ bett]4 8,! li?ograph]'s e/abli%m5t prov$ to be v int]e/+ to me4 ,"s excell5t "w 0 done !re1 & "s odd jobs ( v>i\s k9ds--ev5 ! engrav+ ( spoons sometimes--all ( :i* ,i le>n$ to d4 ,9 fact ,i le>n$ to d any?+ & ev]y?+ !re z well z anybody1 & be=e long receiv$ a l>g] sal>y1 ?\gh nev] any?+ v impos+4 ,i consid]$ ! "t well sp5t1 h[ev]1 = ,i 0 p]fect+ myself 9 draw+1 & :5 out ( (fice /udi$ languages & read mu*4 ,i 0 happy--happi] ?an ,i _h ev] be5 9 my life1 = ,i 0 out ( ! wret*$ness t prevail$ at home1 & 0 treat$ ) polit5ess & respect by ev]ybody4 8,among ! patrons ( our e/abli%m5t ) :om ,i came 9 contact 0 ,mr4 ,dor+4 ,he made no p>ticul> impression on me1 until an epidemic came & 8 ?ree *ildr5 fell victims to x & di$4 ,!n z ,i he>d consid]able talk ab\t 8 sorr[ 9 ! (fice1 ,i tri$ to express my sympa?y :5 next ,i saw him4 8,ne>ly a ye> pass$ :5 ! community 0 />tl$ by ! ann\ncem5t t 8 wife _h di$ sudd5ly & suspici\sly1 & he _h be5 arre/$ z h] murd]]4 ,z 9 all su* cases1 "s consid]$ ! accusation prepo/]\s1 & o!rs believ$ 9 x ) v9dictive en]gy1 & clamor$ = 8 puni%m5t4 ,i 0 indignant at _! gross cruelty & express$ my op9ion freely--too freely1 ,i 0 told4 ,he 0 tri$ & acquitt$1 b 8 acquittal did n set him "r 9 ! eyes ( _m ( 8 t[nspeople4 ,!y talk$ ov] ! circum/ances1 magnify+ all ! suspici\s indications & inv5t+ new ones1 & !y treat$ him to cuts1 contemptu\s looks & o!r expressions ( malevol5ce1 until !y almo/ broke him d[n4 ,y "k !re are human be+s :o bitt]ly res5t x :5 a s5sation doesn't develop into ! la/ phase ( ! horrible1 & ( su* t t[n 0 l>gely compos$4 8,a few days aft] 8 acquittal ,dor+ came into our (fice & ?ank$ me w>mly = my k9d expressions ( fai? 9 8 innoc5ce1 ( :i* x seems he _h be5 told4 ,he look$ hagg>d & ill1 & at sight ( him ,i felt r5ew$ indignation at ! cruelty ( man to man1 & ,i said s z e>ne/ly z ,i c\ld4 8,ab\t t "t ,i began to notice some?+ que] 9 ! faces ( p :5 !y talk$ ab\t ,dor+ to me4 ,i c\ld n read x cle>ly1 b t x 0 inimical to me ,i soon discov]$4 ,x 0 some?+ !y pret5d$ to conceal1 yet really want$ to make conspicu\sly noticeable4 ,x 0 a suspicion ( a l[ ord]1 b :at8 ,! man 0 no?+ to me m ?an any o!r victim ( inju/ice4 ,:at _h ,i to d ) him & 8 sorr[ful affairs8 8,i am intuitive & s5sitive4 ,z soon z ,i began to notice ?is unspok5 suspicion1 ,i began to look guilty4 ,my face flam$ r$ at ! m5tion ( 8 "n or any allusion to ! case4 ,y c und]/& t1 b m9ds ( a l[] grade c\ld n4 ,!y con/ru$ x z a sign ( guilt1 yet x 0 b ! k ( _! (f5sive ?\ghts t emb>rass$ & unsettl$ me4 ,to "k t ,i 0 suspect$ made me look confus$ & guilty4 ,x 0 always s ev5 :5 ,i 0 a *ild at s*ool4 ,if a culprit 7 s\ght1 ,i look$ l "o4 ,y "k1 h[ev]1 t mo/ p are m]e surface read]s ( o!rs1 & no?+ 9 ! _w is s little und]/ood z a delicate1 s5sitive1 high _s4 ,i :o 0 f> remov$ 9 ?\ght f t ( :i* ,i 0 suspect$1 crimson$ ) horror :5 ,i enc\nt]$ ?is base suspicion 9 ! faces ( ^? :o h>bor$ x1 & x made me self-consci\s & %y :5 ,i spoke ) ,dor+ himself4 ,9 %ort1 x ate into me & de/roy$ my peace4 8,9 a little :ile ! air grew black ) x4 ,all pret5ce ( concealm5t 0 ab&on$1 & significant looks blossom$ into spee*4 ,!y said ,dor+ & ,i 7 infatuat$ ) ea* o!r1 & t he _h kill$ 8 wife 9 ord] to be able to m>ry me1 & t ,i _h put him up to x4 ,! vile/ & false/ tales 7 circulat$ ab\t u4 ,! mis]able local newspap]s pr9t$ ?9ly-veil$ ins9uations1 & fool fri5ds came & p\r$ abhorr5t /ories into my e>s4 8,! brutal malevol5ce ( _! lies amaz$ z well z horrifi$ me4 ,i c\ld n see :at ,i _h done to br+ su* an avalan*e ( malice ^u me4 ,y may imag9e :at ,i suff]$4 ,alone1 & ) a he>t t _h 9 x orig9ally no?+ b good w = ev]ybody1 ?is cruel exp]i5ce almo/ )]$ me = life4 8,i long$ to leave ! accurs$ place :i* n[ seem$ peopl$ ) devils4 ,driv5 almo/ to desp]ation1 at la/ ,i w5t =? to f9d a spot unta9t$ by ! hatr$ t !re _h de/roy$ my peace4 ,i came "h to ,g\gal's great engrav+ h\se1 & ) no?+ 9 ! way ( help or influ5ce f anybody1 ask$ = employm5t & got x4--#8,ask & ye %all receive' be+ a true law4 ,"h ,i h be5 ev] s9ce1 almo/ happy--at lea/ n mis]able4 8,b ?is is n all my /ory4 ,! difficult "p is to come4 ,a few days be=e ,i left ,mr4 ,dor+ came into ! (fice :]e ,i 0 at "w & told me t he lov$ me4 ,i 0 surpris$ & />tl$1 & yet ,i li/5$ gladly1 & ! /ory s\nd$ sweet to me4 ,x seem$ to me t ,i _h always lov$ him1 ?\gh ,i don't "k :y1 = ,i am sure ,i _h n ?\ght ( x be=e4 ,we 7 bo? victims ( unju/ & malici\s public op9ion1 s p]haps x 0 natural t we turn$ to ea* o!r = consolation1 ?\gh ,i h (t5 wond]$ s9ce :at x 0 t sudd5ly fill$ my m9d ) love = a man :o1 until t mom5t 0 no m to me ?an any o!r4 ,are ! words #8,i love y' s pot5t t !y c create responsive love8 ,9 no s5se is he my ideal1 b ! feel+ t came into life :5 he spoke ^? words to me has dom9at$ me f t h\r1 ?\gh ,i h nev] se5 him s9ce t day4 ,i h wond]$ if he lov$ me be=e t sc&al came ^u him1 & if1 9 "s my/]i\s way1 p f\nd x out & con/ruct$ _! tales accord+ to _! light on su* situations8 ,or :e!r _! /ories put x into 8 head1 & if s1 ?r\gh :at occult *annels 0 x communicat$ to me8 ,i am almo/ p]suad$ t x 0 br\ght ab\t someh[ by ! accusations ( ! community 9 :i* we liv$4 ,somebody put out ! sugge/ion1 x rea*$ 8 m9d & !re spr\t$1 took root & grew until x 0 /rong en\gh to transplant a c\nt]p>t ( itself to m9e1 = ideas are transmissible1 y "k4 ,ah6 if we b knew ! my/]y ( m9d we %\ld "k all !re is to "k1 p]haps4 8,aft] ,i came away1 ,dor+ left too4 ,he writes me con/antly1 & is n[ urg+ me /rongly to m>ry him4 ,i believe t ,i love him1 & ! k t he loves me su/a9s me4 ,m]ely ?9k+ ab\t x keeps me f be+ lonely4 ',tis said t love is life2 t ev5 ! love ( a bird or a dog w keep a human be+ alive4 ,y & o!rs h wond]$ :y ,i am app>5tly s cont5t$ & *e]ful & want no lov]s1 only good comrades4 ,x is because my he>t is an*or$4 8,& yet ,i %r9k f m>ry+ ,dor+4 ,x w\ld mean ! /irr+ up ( all ! n[ /agnant pools ( sc&als4 ,i am cont5t to g on z ,i am1 = a "t at lea/1 f9d+ my joy 9 ! ?\ghts ( be+ lov$2 b he is n will+4 ,he says he has wait$ long en\gh--t ! matt] mu/ be decid$ "o way or ! o!r v soon4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( giv+ him up1 ( putt+ x all out ( my life & plodd+ on ) no?+ to su/a9 me1 ,i feel t ,i c't d x4 ,unhappily1 ,i am "o ( ^? mis]able be+s :o are loyal by nature & _c help x if !y w\ld4 ,an affection becomes a "p ( me1 & c't be put (f )\t disa/] to ! :ole /ructure4 8,?is love has absorb$ me to ! ext5t ( de/roy+ my ambition to a*ieve some?+ excell5t ) p5 or p5cil4 ,:at dreams h ,i n wov5 ar\nd ?is c5tral idea--dreams impossible ( fulfilm5t1 yet ne>ly z blissful z reality4 8,9 a few days ,mr4 ,dor+ w be "h4 ,he has writt5 me t he int5ds to come to talk ov] our future4 ,s y %all see him40 99 99 99 99 99 ,"o ev5+ soon aft] z ,we/field 0 return+ to ! h\se he met ,miss ,hill accompani$ by a /rang]4 8,x is ,dor+10 he said1 & 8 he>t sank4 ,intuitive mom5ts come to all ( u1 :5 ! hidd5 is reveal$1 :5 s\ls /& nak$ be=e our eyes1 /ripp$ ( ! cloaks & )\t ! props :i* make !m fair & impos+ to ord9>y p]ception4 ,su* a mom5t came to ,we/field1 & he saw ,l\is ,dor+ ) an inn] sight to :i* ev]y?+ 0 made pla91 & z he look$ 8 face grew :ite to ! lips & 8 eyes became fix$ & glassy l ^? ( ! dead4 8,god help h]10 he groan$ inw>dly1 z he pass$ on4 8,! man is a fool--a /upid1 bra9less1 flabby "*--a dull dolt ) regul> features & a /raight figure made impos+ by ! tailor's skill1 & a selfi% he>t4 ,exactly ! k9d ( bea/ t c dazzle wom5 z bra9less z himself4 ,b h[ has he bewit*$ h]8 ,:y d ,i ask1 :5 ,i "k t ! de/9ies ( ! gr&e/ & sweete/ s\ls1 a grim & p]v]se fate (t5 rules8 ,! #8highe/ suff] mo/1' ! #8/ronge/ w&] f>!/ & mo/ hopelessly are lo/4' 8,h[ c ,i be> x8 ,x crucifies me to "k t t wax-fac$1 tailor-made bip$ has be5 c>ri$ 9 h] m9d z a h]o & wor%ipp$4 ,& n[ aft] ye>s ( deception he w de/roy h] :ole life4 8,i see h[ x came ab\t4 ,! sc&al inv5t$ by ! community sugge/$ x to him--s[$ ! se$s 9 bo? _! heads4 ,we live "u ! influ5ce ( sugge/ion ( "o k9d or ano!r all ! "t4 ,:at is ! =ce ( public op9ion b ?is on a gigantic scale8 ,! wret* has sigh$ & maund]$ & pos$ be=e h] ab\t 8 suff]+s until he awoke h] sympa?y1 & he w hang on to h] & w n give h] up because he is attract$ by ! magnetism ( h] /r5g? ( "*4 ,& %e1 delud$ s\l1 idealizes him1 end[s him ) spl5did qualities--9 %ort1 sees 9 him t :i* is 9 h]self4 ,%e w g /raight to h] de/ruction1 & ,i c't save h]4 ,until ,i saw him ,i believ$ ! be/ ( him2 b n[ ,i "k :at is be=e h] if %e %\ld m>ry him4 ,x w be l awak+ f a blissful trance--x w be j t4 ,o my he>t ( light6 ,o1 my tall "y p9e6 ,! trag$y ( y\r life is m ?an ,i c be>40 ,go+ ha/ily to 8 room he made ready & tore away to ! c\ntry = a few days4 8,i c\ld n endure to see ! creature aga910 he said1 z 8 tra9 pull$ out ( ! /ation4 ,:5 he return$ ev]y?+ 0 go+ on z usual at ! h\se1 yet no?+ 0 ! same to him1 nor c\ld x ev] be aga94 ,he did n speak ( ,dor+ to ,miss ,hill1 b %e h]self w5t back to ! subject1 *id+ him = go+ away4 8,i saw ,mr4 ,dor+10 he answ]$1 curtly1 8& didn't l him4 ,y may ?9k my op9ion ( him is color$ by jeal\sy1 b ,i am sure x is n4 ,i hope y w nev] m>ry him40 8,well1 ,i h n yet decid$ to m>ry him10 %e said4 8,if y h n giv5 him up entirely x w end t way at la/4 ,y are m]ely temporiz+ ) ! situation1 & x w ma/] y40 8,probably10 %e said1 we>ily1 & !n !y spoke ( x no m4 99 99 99 99 99 ,n long aft]1 ,we/field w5t away4 ,:5 he 0 gone %e felt a s5se ( desolation new 9 h] exp]i5ce4 ,he 0 s good a comrade4 ,:y _h he be5 s fooli% z to leave8 ,c\ld m5 & wom5 nev] be good comrades--only lov]s1 or no?+8 99 99 99 99 99 ,! days w5t on app>5tly z ?\gh !re _h nev] be5 a ,we/field1 ?\gh ! o!r memb]s ( ! h\sehold ?\ght ,miss ,hill 0 n q l h]self1 t p]haps %e 0 fond] ( ,we/field ?an %e _h believ$ h]self to be1 & regrett$ him4 ,brooks 0 /rongly incl9$ to ?is op9ion1 ?\gh :5 he talk$ ) 8 wife ab\t x he drubb$ ,we/field s\ndly4 8,bla/ ! fool10 he said1 8:at c\ld %e d b let him g1 ev5 if %e 7 fond ( him8 ,:at woman n an idiot w\ld ?9k ( m>ry+ ,we/field1 :o is simply a *>m+ failure1 a p5niless1 indiff]5t1 intellectual tramp80 ,9 tru? !y 7 half "r 9 _! surmises4 ,! old cont5t _h vani%$4 ,%e miss$ ! intellectual sympa?y ( ,we/field1 & ,dor+ kept h] re/less ) 8 importun+s4 ,%e read 8 lett]s by ! light ( h] own integrity1 & !re=e saw n ! rank selfi%ness ( ! writ]1 :o 0 va9 & dull1 b p]si/5t to a degree t made him =midable z a woo]4 ,he _h rec\rse to all ! selfi% argum5ts ( little s\ls4 ,he said he 0 s p]turb$ 9 m9d t he c\ld n get on 9 any?+1 consequ5tly 9 dang] ( f9ancial ru91 & h9t$ d>kly at suicide4 ,a crisis _h come to h]4 ,=ces )9 & )\t 7 wre/l+ ov] h] de/9y4 ,unse5 h&s 7 pu%+ h]4 ,at times %e det]m9$ to m>ry ,dor+ at all risks1 & ?us settle ! problem1 b ! decision did n br+ peace1 z decisions %\ld4 ,a sick5+ s5se ( imm95t disa/] foll[$1 & %e 0 at sea aga94 ,weeks roll$ into mon?s1 & ! *aotic mis]y ( h] m9d 0 mak+ h] look worn & ill4 ,a day came at la/ 9 :i* ! g5ius ( h] fate ca/ ! die4 8,! pursuit ( happ9ess is a con/itutional privilege1 ev5 = wom54 ,at lea/ "o has ! "r to *oose ! p>ticul> =m ( mis]y "o pref]s4 ,n[ ,fate10 %e said1 8,i am tir$4 ,take y ! re9s & guide4 ,:at ,i am to meet1 ,i mu/ meet1 & no %r9k+ or hesitat+ w avail aga9/ ! inevitable40 ,& s %e too1 w5t away1 nev] to return4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,! ,,end ,,( ,,! ,,dream4 8,o %av5 prie/ t prate/ ( s\ls1 ,kn[e/ ?\ n t m5 are moles ,t bl9dly grope & burr[8 ,! field t is grey %all be gre5 aga92 ,b :e!r ) grass or :e!r ) gra91 ,he kn[e? :o turns ! furr[40 ,miss ,c>tice ,hill _h be5 ,mrs4 ,l\is ,dor+ six mon?s1--a little portion ( "t1 yet long en\gh to de/roy all h] illusions1 & ar\se h] f h] trance4 ,! man %e _h idealiz$ & lov$ = f\r ye>s 0 a diff]5t p]son f him :o 0 n[ h] husb&4 ,day by day ! awak5+ _h be5 go+ on1 until 8 "* /ood reveal$ be=e h] 9 repell5t nudity1 ) all its pitiable defects unconceal$1 & ! wor/ ( x 0 t he 0 n a%am$4 ,a brilliant rascal usually has "s qualities t comm& respect1 h[ev] abom9able 8 knavi% ones1 b ,dor+'s defects 7 ! contemptible frailties ( a fool4 ,8 wife _h expect$ intellectual companion%ip1 b %e f\nd 8 ev5-featur$ face a mask ov] dull no?+ness1 a %ield = ! empt9ess ( 8 m9d4 ,:5 ! full =ce ( ?is discov]y came ^u h] x cov]$ h] ) humiliation & de/roy$ h] self-confid5ce & self-respect1 nor did ^! qualities ev] return to h] 9 _! =m] /r5g? 9 all ! future ye>s4 ,to h made s fatal a blund] %ook h] fai? 9 h] own wisdom =ev]4 ,h[ 0 x t %e _h be5 bl9d & n[ saw8 ,:o _h wov5 ! spell :i* _h glorifi$ its object f af>8 ,%e _h be5 h] own en*ant]1 ?\gh %e knew x n4 ,9 him %e _h se5 only t :i* 0 )9 h]self1 until =c$ to see him z he really 04 ,two days aft] _! m>riage h] husb& said to h]1 8,c>tice1 d y h any money80 8,yes10 %e answ]$1 pleasantly4 8,h[ mu*80 8,i don't "k4 ,see10 & %e h&$ him h] purse4 ,he took x & c\nt$ fifty doll>s4 8,is t all80 he ask$1 9 a disappo9t$ voice4 8,z y _h only y\rself to support y %\ld h sav$ money40 8,i did save "s10 %e said1 turn+ pale4 8,:]e is x80 ,%e told him4 8,i guess we %all h to use x "r n[10 he said4 8,"s bus9ess v5tures ( m9e h n begun to pay yet1 s x's a good ?+ we h ?is ready money40 ,f "t to "t %e *eck$ out ! little capital t repres5t$ ye>s ( self-d5ial1 until x 0 all gone4 ,9 ! meantime %e le>n$ t ! 8bus9ess v5tures0 7 airy no?+s1 hav+ no exi/5ce outside ( empty words4 ,:at he _h done 9 ! pa/ f\r ye>s %e nev] knew1 z he _h no?+ to %[ = ! "t1 n a foo?old any:]e4 ,!y float$ ab\t until h] money 0 gone1 )\t def9ite aim & )\t ef=t on 8 "p to *ange conditions4 ,to h] x seem$ a /eady j\rney to de/ruction4 ,_! m>riage _h reviv$ ! /ory ( 8 trial = murd]1 & o!r d>k /ories 7 add$ !reto & publi%$ 9 vile newspap]s ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry4 ,"s ( ^! came to ,c>tice's h&s by accid5t1 & "s by ! f\l designs ( wret*es :o f9d pleasure 9 giv+ pa94 ,9 ^! infam\s columns %e saw h]self describ$ z a bold & s*em+ adv5turess1 :o _h obta9$ an unholy influ5ce ov] a hi!rto blameless man1 incit+ him to murd] & ru9+ him f9ancially z well z morally4 8,i h he>d newspap]s call$ civiliz]s10 %e said1 8b su* z ^! %\ld be call$ he>t-break]s40 ,t exp]i5ce did break h] he>t1 s9ce we h no o!r "n = ! loss ( all joy 9 liv+4 ,x wr\ght a pitiful *ange 9 h]4 ,h] bright mobile face became set1 rigid & unreadable4 8,oh1 b to hide f ! eyes ( m50 is ev] ! cry ( ! pr\d _s :5 suff]+4 ,:5 ?is _c be done1 x makes = itself a mask beh9d :i* its w\nd$ pride & a*+ he>t take %elt]4 ,! mask :i* ,c>tice ,dor+ !n put on 0 s imp5etrable t x repell$ any m$dl+ ) or prob+ into :at lay b5ea?4 ,x 0 h] %ield aga9/ t mo/ m]ciless ( all weapons1 ! human eye1 & %e wore x = _m & _m a day & c\ld n ca/ x (f4 ,e he>t1 h[ev] self-suffici5t its outw>d be>+1 craves sympa?y1 t preci\s & pot5t p[] :i* holds ! univ]se toge!r1 yet s little fai? h we 9 ! compassion ( our fell[s t no?+ 9 h\rs ( angui% is s dread$ z _! gaze4 ,c>tice's family disc>d$ h]4 ,be+ loveless by nature & wor%ipp]s ( ! ,mon/] ,god1 ,self1 !y saw h] position only 9 ! light t affect$ !m1 by ! unpleasant notoriety %e _h atta9$1 & %[$ no consid]ation = ! poor victim ( malice4 ,) all ?is came ! humiliation ( dire pov]ty4 ,h] money 0 all sp5t1 & !y c\ld no long] pay = ! food & %elt] !y 7 receiv+ 9 a d+y little hotel 9 a second-class city4 ,= a "t %e 0 kept f s9k+ "u ! avalan*e ( mis]ies t fell ^u h] by an illusion to :i* %e held ) ! clut* ( desp]ation4 ,t 0 h] fai? 9 ,dor+'s love4 ,feeble ( intellect & contemptible ( "* z %e n[ knew him to be1 %e /ill lov$ him & believ$ t he lov$ h]1 n kn[+ t ! p[] to love is 9 proportion to intellectual capacity & moral developm5t1 t a weak nature is z wav]+ 9 its affections z 9 o!r ?+s1 an easy prey to e fulsome ^w & smile f new sir5s4 ,a woman 9 ! hotel made ! art ( flatt]+ m5 a bus9ess & _h _h _m ye>s practice 9 x4 ,by way ( recomp5se = :at ext]nal *>ms ,"t _h tak5 f h]1 x _h giv5 h] consid]able skill 9 h] art1 a skill %e seldom us$ )\t effect4 ,h] me?od ( erotic ar*]y 0 ( a co>se & common ord]1 b z h] victims dropp$ readily en\gh1 :5 %e twang$ h] b[1 !re 0 no ne$ to resort to subtl] ones4 ,x 0 h] op9ion t f9e "w 9 h] specialty 0 ?r[n away ^u m51 "o & all2 t no?+ 0 too gross = _! vanity to fe$ ^u1 & h] exp]i5ces bore out h] !ories4 ,dor+'s symmetrical face & figure caught h] fancy1 & %e level$ h] tru/y crossb[ at him1 & br\ght him d[n ) ! fir/ arr[1 an albatross to be pr\d (1 %e ?\ght4 ,h] "w w5t m]rily on1 & ! unsuspect+ ,c>tice saw none ( x4 ,m exp]i5c$ eyes did1 h[ev]4 ,all ! re/ ( ! wom5 9 ! h\se 7 aw>e ( x1 & "s ( ! bold] ones und]took ! delicate "w ( op5+ ,mrs4 ,dor+'s eyes4 ,:ile !y veil$ _! good int5tions 9 indirect phraseology %e w\ld n see x1 & :5 !y came d[n to pla9 spee* %e res5t$ x z a ?+ absurd & impossible4 ,!y w5t away ) ruffl$ fea!rs1 b pr$ict+ a day ( doom = h] 9 ! ne> future1 :5 some?+ w\ld happ5 t w\ld make h] see4 ,!y 7 true prophets1 = ! day 0 at h&4 ,z %e 0 pass+ ?r\gh ! hall 9 ! twilight %e came ^u two figures clasp$ 9 ea* o!r's arms "u ! broad /airway4 ,!y 7 h] husb& & ,mrs4 ,p>k]1 ! di/+ui%$ ar*]4 ,)\t a ^w ,c>tice walk$ away f !m4 ,9 a few m9utes ,dor+ ent]$ h] room ) ! titt]+1 airy mann] ( "o :o pret5ds to f9d himself 9 a highly humor\s situation4 8,well1 ,he>t's ,ease1 y caught me flirt+ a bit1 didn't y80 he gurgl$1 mak+ a /agy ef=t to be faceti\s4 8,is t flirt+80 %e ask$1 9 ! mo/ compos$ & polite voice4 8,:y1 yes1 ( c\rse4 ,:at else c\ld x be80 8,i ackn[l$ge t ,i am s untaught 9 matt]s ( t k9d t ,i d n "k ! correct names to apply to !m10 %e said4 8,:at w\ld y call x _h ,i be5 9 ,mrs4 ,p>k]'s place1 "s o!r man 9 y\rs1 & y 9 m9e80 8,nons5se1 *ild2 t is n to be ?\ght (40 8,yes1 x is10 %e said1 det]m9$ly4 8,my idea ( m>riage1 z ,i h repeat$ly told y1 is p]fect equality 9 all ?+s1 nei!r own+ nor dom9at+ ! o!r4 ,i give ! fidelity ( ! he>t & expect ! same f y4 ,! m]e outw>d appe>ance ( loyalty1 :i* "s wives en=ce ) a club w\ld be ( no value to me4 ,b ! conduct reveals ! /ate ( ! he>t4 ,7 ,i f\nd 9 ! arms ( a man1 receiv+ & answ]+ 8 kisses1 x w\ld be because ,i lov$ him int5sely1 devot$ly2 & ,i w n judge y by a l[] /&>d ?an ,i wi% to be judg$4 ,m>riage mu/ mean m>riage 9 ! highe/ & true/ s5se ( ! ^w1 or no?+4 ,n[ t ,i "k y d n love me1 ,i %all n blame y1 = love is n a matt] ( ! w4 ,y %all g free40 8,hang x all1 ,c>tice10 said ,dor+1 n[ ?or\ghly fright5$1 8y are n go+ to be melodramatic ab\t a bit ( fool+ l t1 are y80 8,a bit ( fool+80 %e e*o$1 unable to und]/& him4 8,yes4 ,:at else d y suppose x c\ld be80 8,i c only suppose t y love ,mrs4 ,p>k]4 ,o!rwise h[ c\ld y h _h h] 9 y\r arms kiss+ h]80 8,love h]8 ,:at rubbi%4 ,z if a man dream$ ( lov+ e woman he--he f\nd x exp$i5t to kiss40 ,%e look$ at him too amaz$ to speak4 ,?is 0 a revelation ( man nature t 0 ov]:elm+4 ,%e 0 unaw>e until !n ( ! light value _m m5 set ^u con/ancy & ev5 dec5cy 9 !mselves1 ?\gh all prate l\d ab\t !m z jewels necess>y to ! adornm5t ( woman's "*4 ,%e 0 a g5u9e ,galatea1 9 "s respects1 expect+ to meet gods & %ock$ to f9d ! _w peopl$ ) m5 & wom5 ( v crude m9ds4 ,%e 0 engag$ 9 ! difficult & pa!tic task ( try+ to idealize ! actual4 8,:y %\ld a man kiss a woman he does n love80 %e ask$ at la/4 8,:y80 e*o$ ,dor+1 beg9n+ to ?9k he c\ld fl\nd] out ( 8 dilemma by a little bold blu/]4 8,x's a habit mo/ ( u h got into1 ,i guess4 ,9 ?is case ,i made up to ! old flirt because %e s manife/ly want$ me to4 ,t 0 all4 ,i meant no?+ by x b to gratify h] vanity1 :i* is on %ort rations j n[1 ,i fancy40 ,?is co>se spee* made 8 wife %iv] ) %ame4 ,! man 0 surely leav+ h] no?+ to respect 9 himself4 ,z %e 0 sil5t he ?\ght he 0 ga9+ gr\nd & w5t on3 8,! idea ( y\r be+ jeal\s ( h]6 ,:y1 %e is old en\gh to be y\r "m40 ,meantime ,c>tice _h rung = a hall boy1 :o pres5tly tapp$ at ! door4 ,/epp+ outside %e s5t him to ask ,mrs4 ,p>k] to h ! k9dness to come & make h] a visit4 ,! ar*] promptly flutt]$ 91 all smiles1 believ+ !re 0 only pla9 sail+ ahead4 8,d y love my husb&1 ,mrs4 ,p>k]80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,:y1 :at d y mean80 snapp$ ! enrag$ sir54 8,i mu/ suppose y love him1 because ,i saw y & him kiss+ ea* o!r4 ,i c\ld n kiss a man ,i did n love1 & ,i suppose x mu/ be ! same ) y & all o!r self-respect+ wom54 ,i h be5 tell+ him t if y & he love ea* o!r1 ,i w n /& 9 y\r way4 ,i want to tell y ! same40 ,mrs4 ,p>k] 0 unaccu/om$ to ?is k9d ( a situation4 ,%e 0 only skill$ 9 slyness1 n 9 op5 combat4 ,emb>rass$1 %e turn$ to ,dor+1 :o /ood convict$ & %r9k+1 unable to def5d himself or h]4 8,mr4 ,dor+10 %e said--h] voice 0 dry & n]v\s--8y %\ld h expla9$ to y\r wife t we saw h] com+ & made a fooli% attempt to tease h]40 8,he expla9s x diff]5tly10 said ,c>tice1 quietly4 8,he says y seem$ to expect "s demon/ration ( affection f him1 & he #8made up to y1' z he calls x1 because n to d s w\ld be to disappo9t & mortify y40 ,!n ,p>k] turn$ to ,dor+ swell+ ) rage & *agr91 fire & flame d>t+ f h] eyes1 & !n1 )\t a ^w fl\nc$ out ( ! room1 & e>ly ! next day left ! hotel4 ,dor+1 a victim ( ! c[>dice = :i* 8 sex is not$ :5 entrapp$1 began to brea! fre]4 ,he s5t a snort ( d]ision aft] ! retreat+ *>m]4 8,!re1 ! s5tim5tal old lady w n tr\ble u aga91 ,i fancy10 he said1 ) ! air ( "o :o sees ! end ( a disagreeable affair4 8,t may be10 said 8 wife1 sadly1 8b x _c put u back 9 our old places40 8,:at d y mean80 8,is x necess>y to expla9 :at is s cle>8 ,?is affair has *ang$ my attitude t[>d y entirely4 ,x has kill$ my confid5ce 9 y\r hone/y1 & reveal$ y\r "* to me 9 a new light4 ,i c nev] be ! same to y z be=e40 ,?or\ghly fright5$ he began to ca/ ab\t = bigg] /raws to cat* at4 ,8 wife took on new value 9 8 eyes4 ,an h\r or s be=e he _h commis]at$ himself = be+ ti$ to h]1 & _h wond]$ :y a be+ s sup]ior z he _h ev] be5 attract$ to "o s ord9>y z %e4 ,n[ he want$ to keep h] at all co/s4 ,he 0 "o to :om bless+s bright5$ a/oni%+ly z !y took _! flight4 8,y don't mean to say y w\ld leave me = a trifle l t1 ,c>tice8 ,x w\ld be ridicul\s4 ,ev]ybody w\ld laugh at y4 ,:y1 t little episode is no?+4 ,y %\ld "k "s ( ! really repreh5sible ?+s m>ri$ m5 d & ?9k no?+ ( x4 ,m5 don't bo!r mu* ab\t loyalty & ! f9] moralities1 ,i assure y4 ,!y're good en\gh = wom51 b m5 c't walk t k9d ( a l9e1 y "k4 ,y\r ideas are too depress+ly antique = ! age y live 940 8,:at m5 d & :at o!r wom5 accept _c *ange my idea ( :at con/itutes m>riage4 ,i w n be a p>ty to a contract kept only by "o ( ! two int]e/$4 ,i h se5 wom5 ^: husb&s violat$ e canon ( dec5cy go+ on pati5tly1 "u ! delusion t !y 7 do+ a virtu\s ?+4 ,to my m9d !y 7 enc\rag+ vice4 ,kisses repres5t feel+s4 ,"o kisses because "o loves4 ,i c\ld n kiss a man ,i did n love because x w\ld be repulsive4 ,"o is loyal1 n because ( a s5se ( duty1 b because "o loves2 or disloyal because "o has ceas$ to love40 8,anyway1 ,c>tice1 don't leave me or talk ab\t leav+ me4 ,y are all ,i h 9 ! _w4 ,=give me1 & love me if y c4 ,i feel mean en\gh )\t y\r contempt40 ,z he said ?is1 ,dor+ flung himself on ! floor clasp+ h] 9 8 arms & began to weep4 8,he does n und]/&2 he nev] w und]/&--he _c4 ,he ?9ks x is some?+ to be =giv5 & !n to g on z be=e10 %e said1 m5tally4 ,anyh[ %e w5t on1 b n z be=e4 ,9 t h\r h] love = h] husb& _h *ang$ its =m & face4 ,x _h become mat]nal4 ,all hope t !y c\ld make ! j\rney ( life z companions on an equal foot+ 0 dead4 ,no m pa9ful exp]i5ce c come to a pr\d woman ?an t ( see+ t ! man %e has idealiz$ mu/ be propp$ up in/ead ( lean$ aga9/4 ,! days w5t rel5tlessly on = ,c>tice ,dor+1 z days h a way ( do+ = ev]ybody4 ,"o tr\ble _h gr[n to proportions s huge t 8 hateful %ape blott$ out all ! re/1 & 8 "n 0 ,pov]ty4 ,! bread ( dep5d5ce is bitt]4 ,e bite to h] 0 heavy z lead4 ,civilization has _m tortures2 b x is d\btful if x has any m cruel ?an ?is4 ,e wak+ mom5t ,c>tice rack$ h] bra9 9 ! ef=t to ?9k ( "s means ( e>n+ money1 & at night :5 %e slept h] dreams 7 full ( horrors4 ,?\ghts ( ! riv] obtrud$ !mselves & 7 driv5 away only to come back m det]m9$ 9 aspect ?an be=e4 ,some:]e %e _h read t if e suicide w\ld b wait tw5ty-f\r h\rs aft] det]m9+ to end life1 deliv]ance w\ld come4 ,s %e wait$1 & ! wor/ depression w\ld pass1 & h] c\rage come sl[ly back4 ,meantime h] husb& walk$ ! /reet 9 8 helpless way seek+ employm5t1 return+ at night ) ! /ory ( failure writt5 on 8 face4 ,c>tice _h be5 us$ to a busy life1 & ! en=c$ idl5ess ( ^? depress+ days 0 m ( a we>9ess to bo? fle% & _s ?an ! h>de/ labor w\ld h be54 ,9 try+ to escape f h] own ?\ghts %e sometimes walk$ long di/ances4 ,"o cold day %e 0 acco/$ by a woman :o ask$ h] to buy "s trifle %e 0 sell+4 8,i wi% ,i c\ld1 b ,i _c1 = ,i h no money10 said ,c>tice4 8,ah1 don't say t10 said ! o!r1 ) incr$ulity & disgu/ 9 h] voice4 8,s _m say x :5 x isn't true4 ,x is impossible t any "o s com=tably dress$ z y1 is )\t money4 ,comp>e y\r w>m & beautiful wrap ) my ?9 %awl40 8,x is true ,i h a good cloak10 ,c>tice answ]$1 8b ,i am probably poor] ?an y1 = ,i _c pay = ei!r my %elt] or my food4 ,y\r position is sup]ior to m9e1 = y are try+ to e>n a livelihood1 :ile ,i am long+ to d s & "k n :]e to beg94 ,& besides pov]ty ,i h o!r woes f :i* ,i hope y are exempt4 ,i tell y ?is t h]eaft] y may n judge f appe>ances4 ,_m :om y envy are1 p]haps1 m mis]able ?an y\rself40 ,h] old *ildi% fancies came back to h] sometimes1 & %e w\ld half believe t "s good fairy w\ld sudd5ly com=t h] & m]cifully *ange ev]y?+4 ,& h] p--! de>1 k9d1 fond1 ev]-c\rte\s p ( h] v own _w1 unse5 by all :o _h n sympa!tic eyes1 came to com=t h]4 ,! inn] _w 9 :i* !y dwelt af=d$ h] a refuge :5 ! mis]ies ( ! out] "o became too heavy4 ,p]haps x 0 because ( mu* "t sp5t !re t %e sc>cely took on ! ways & spee* ( ?is _w4 ,!re 0 ev] some?+ unusual & n easy to und]/& 9 h] pres5ce1 some?+ t sugge/$ ano!r & a diff]5t _w4 8,o my own p1 my de> p ( my dreams6 ,h[ f> ,i h w&]$ 9 my se>* = o!rs l y clo!d 9 ! fle%60 %e said1 on return+ f a long walk "o ev5+1 z %e look$ at ! d+y hotel :]e %e 0 oblig$ to take unwelcome refuge4 ,)9 0 no s\l ak9 to h]s1 n "o ^: words or pres5ce1 9 any s5se mitigat$ ! deep solitude & lonel9ess ( _s 9 :i* %e liv$4 ,) x all %e 0 physically wret*$4 ,a climate t 0 ung5ial1 a sunless room & a daily diet ( anxiety comb9$ _h made deep inroads on a physique ela/ic b nev] rugg$4 ,ov]/ra9$ nature 0 giv+ way4 ,= weeks h] body _h be5 rack$ ) pa94 ,fev]s came1 t>ri$ a:ile & w5t away to come aga91 & languor _h tak5 entire possession ( h]4 ,"o day ! culm9ation came4 ,a neighbor pass+ h] op5 door saw ,c>tice ly+ helpless on ! floor :]e %e _h fall54 ,assi/ance 0 call$ & %e 0 lift$ to ! b$1 rigid z 9 dea?4 8,a conge/ive *ill10 said ! doctor4 ,!n sci5ce & humanity unit$ _! ef=ts to save h] f dea? & succe$$4 ,:5 h] husb& came back 9 ! ev5+1 %e 0 ly+ p[]less to speak & only fa9tly consci\s ( be+ alive4 ,! doctor--may x be a /> ( great radiance on 8 brea/ 9 ! unse5 _w 9 :i* he n[ dwells--0 att5tive & k9d to a po9t f> beyond ! ord9>y4 ,he _h se5 mu* ( life & its inevitable suff]+4 ,exp]i5ce & a he>t ( exceptional goodness enabl$ him to read ! signs ( ! sick s\l z well z ! sick body at a glance4 ,a few days lat] z he sat by h] b$side1 ,c>tice edg$ h]self ne>]1 & lay+ "o ( h] sl5d] h&s on 81 said1 8,i am grateful to y1 doctor1 v grateful = help+ me s mu*40 ,! words 7 commonplace en\gh1 b !re 7 ! eyes1 ! wond]ful eyes1 ) _! /range p[] to melt ! he>t1 gaz+ into 84 ,! doctor's s\l 0 %ak51 he knew n :y4 8,i don't und]/& x10 he mus$ z he left ! h\se4 8,:at 0 x t came out ( h] eyes & unn]v$ me 9 a fla%1 mak+ me want to cry l a baby40 ,at ! memory ( t look1 9 :i* ! mask ( pride fell (f & ! suff]+ _s reveal$ its angui%1 ! te>s ru%$ anew to 8 eyes4 8,no1 ,i don't und]/& x10 he repeat$1 8b if ,i _h be5 p]=m+ a surgical op]ation ( ! mo/ delicate & dang]\s k9d1 & %e _h look$ at me t way1 ,i am afraid ,i %\ld h dropp$ ! knife4 ,:at 0 t indef9able ?+ ,i saw 9 h] eyes8 ,:at 0 x8 ,if angui% c accumulate = ages & ages & !n look out ?r\gh a pair ( eyes1 x 0 t40 ,days ( convalesc5ce came1 br++ ! despond5cy1 gloom & sometimes despair t attack ^? :o h retreat$ f ! edge ( ! grave be=e !y are q out ( sight ( x4 ,c>tice sat by h] w9d[ ) ! breeze bl[+ ov] h]1 & x seem$ t a ?\s& ye>s _h pass$ s9ce la/ %e saw ! spr+4 ,wat*+ ! p on ! /reet1 hurry+ hi!r & yon1 %e envi$ !m _! /r5g?1 _! activity1 aims & int]e/s4 ,idle & purposeless1 we>y & hopeless1 %e sat wond]+ :at %e 0 to d ) ! re/ ( h] life4 ,by nature %e 0 an outdoor *ild1 :o lov$ field & =e/ & brook & hill4 ,! hateful brick walls t />$ at h] n[ fatigu$ h] eyes & depress$ h] _s4 ,:5 fun]al processions w5t by %e wond]$ :at my/]y ! n>r[ black box repres5t$4 ,sable & solemn & dreadful z x all 0 %e envi$ ^? :o rode 9 ! long black wagon ( dea?4 8,at lea/ !y are out ( ?is horror10 %e said4 8,if !re be ano!r life its conditions _c be worse ?an !y are "h4 ,if !re be no?+ on ! o!r side ( dea?'s sil5ce1 !n ! problem is v simple40 ,?is great problem at ! end ( life always int]e/$ h] m ?an all ^? to be solv$ on ! j\rney4 ,if dea? be an op5 door to l>g] activities & happi] conditions1 !n we %\ld be> ) c\rage :atev] comes ^u u "h1 & g smil+ on1 indiff]5t to pa9 & disappo9tm5t2 b if all our /riv+ & long+1 sorr[+ & suff]+ & lov+ rea* a f9ality 9 ! grave1 !n--no words are /rong en\gh & bitt] en\gh to tell ! tragic /ory ( ! *eat4 ,c>tice _h always m>vel$ t _m c\ld see _! ne>e/ & de>e/ pass into t dread sil5ce1 & yet put ! ?\ght ( :at x is out ( _! m9ds1 & g on pursu+ _! fooli% little pleasures exactly z ?\gh ! riddle 0 n = !m also to solve4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,! ,,butt]fly4 ,well1 may !re n be butt]flies ,t lift ) we>y w+s ! air2 ,t loa! ! =eign sun1 :i* lies ,on all _! colors l despair2 ,t glitt]1 homesick = ! =m ,& lo/ sleep ( ! worm8 --,s4 ,m4 ,b4 ,piatt4 ,9 ^! try+ days ! neighbor :o came close/ 9 fri5d%ip & lov+ s]vice1 oddly en\gh1 0 ! ,butt]fly ( ! h\se1 ,mrs4 ,layton4 ,%e & h] husb& _h a ri*ly furni%$ suite ( rooms ne> t ( ! ,dor+s4 ,!y receiv$ _m calls1 w5t out frequ5tly1 & appe>$ to f9d life well wor? liv+4 ,mrs4 ,layton 0 pretty1 0 always array$ z ! lilies ( ! field1 & all male humanity b5t ! knee be=e h]4 ,c>tice's illness _h reveal$ ! unsuspect$ fact t ! ,butt]fly _h a he>t z well z a pair ( gorge\s w+s4 ,%e _h be5 a/oni%+ly fai?ful & k9d 9 h] att5tions1 & a/oni%+ly effici5t too1 s t n[1 9 ! dull days ( convalesc5ce ! two _h become close fri5ds1 ! =mal wall betwe5 !m hav+ fall5 "u ! pressure ( suff]+ & sympa?y4 ,x 0 ! ,butt]fly :o _h s5t = ! doctor :5 ,c>tice 0 f\nd unconsci\s on ! floor1 help$ him :5 he came1 & kept a wat*ful eye on 8 pati5t aft]w>d4 ,no?+ makes su* close fri5ds z to help & be help$ 9 suff]+4 ,we le>n to love ^? to :om we d good4 ,c>tice _h always f\nd a /range enjoym5t 9 look+ at ! ,butt]fly s9ce %e fir/ saw h]1 %e knew n :y4 ,0 %e beautiful8 ,yes1 %e _h beauty wor?y ( a high] ord] ( be+ ?an a butt]fly4 ,t 0 ! m>vel ( x1 t %e c\ld be a butt]fly ) a classic pr(ile & ! eyes ( a my/ic--eyes t c\ld see ?r\gh all masks4 ,n[ t ,c>tice knew h] s well ! /range attraction increas$1 ?\gh %e c\ld n det]m9e :]e9 lay h] rem>kable p[] to *>m4 ,?is p[]1 h[ev]1 0 ackn[l$g$ on all sides1 & _m fell "u its influ5ce4 ,ev5 on ! /reet1 wom5 z well z m5 turn$ to look aft] h]1 ?\gh if ask$ ! reason c\ld n h told x4 ,! inexplicable quality we call magnetism belong$ to h] to an extraord9>y degree2 b :o c expla9 :at t is8 ,x attracts2 x compels planets z well z p]sons to foll[ aft] x2 b t is all we "k ab\t x4 8,mrs4 ,dor+10 said ! ,butt]fly1 "o day1 8y mu/ *e] up or y w die4 ,worse ?an t1 y w make y\rself old long be=e y\r "t4 ,i "k x isn't a polite ?+ to say1 b y look five ye>s old] ?an :5 y came to ?is h\se40 ,! a*+ he>t ( ! o!r swell$ almo/ to bur/+4 ,! faculty ( unburd5+ h]self by fri5dly confid5ces _h nev] be5 h]s4 ,some?+ )9 h] /ood l a grim s5t9el =bidd+ all outlet1 & ?\gh %e ye>n$ = sympa?y1 c\ld n seek x nor meet x ) loos5$ tongue :5 x came4 ,! in/9ct ( repression _h be5 fo/]$ by a loveless1 lonely *ildhood & lifelong habit4 ,n a ^w c\ld %e utt] n[1 b ! eyes1 ) _! pitiful1 wordless appeal1 _! unbe>able burd51 turn$ to ! ,butt]fly1 & 9 "o nev]-to-be-=gott5 glance laid b>e _! own]'s brok5 he>t4 ,!n ) a moan %e fell =w>d1 & ! long repress$ agony bur/ =? 9 sobs4 ,! ,butt]fly's arms clasp$ h] closely1 h] te>s fell ov] h]1 & ! words %e spoke 7 wis] ?an a butt]fly ev] utt]$ be=e4 ,! greate/ m9d c\ld n h devis$ a bett] me?od ( cure = ! sick s\l ?an ! sympa!tic in/9cts ( ?is airy creature sugge/$4 ,f t h\r betwe5 ^? two no f5ce or wall1 or b>ri] ( any k9d exi/$4 ,!y knew ea* o!r z we %all all be kn[n :5 ! armors & masks our hypocritical social usages h =c$ ^u u %all be laid aside ) our clay g>m5ts4 8,de> ,mrs4 ,dor+10 said ,mrs4 ,layton1 pres5tly1 8x is n necess>y to tell me :at tr\bles y4 ,i "k x ?r\gh sympa?y4 ,y are greatly di/ress$ = lack ( money4 ,y _c pay y\r bo>d1 & y & y\r husb& are /rang]s "h4 ,i d>e say y nev] imag9$ x1 b my husb& & ,i are almo/ )\t a c5t 9 ! _w1 too4 ,we owe ?is h\se an imm5se bill = bo>d1 & ,i am afraid x w nev] be paid1 = e day ! situation gr[s gloomi]4 ,x half kills me to g to ! table1 :5 ,i "k t we are n pay+ = ! v food we eat1 & ,i suspect y suff] ! same way = ! same reason4 ,our outlook is z bad z y\rs1 only we are n /rang]s "h & y are4 ,yet be+ kn[n has its disadvantages z well z its advantages4 ,x is h>d to be humiliat$ 9 ! eyes ( "o's fri5ds4 ,s f> our difficulties are n g5]ally kn[n1 b ?+s too bad to ?9k ( are ahead ( u1 ,i fe>4 ,y see ,i pret5d to be sunny & happy4 ,i s+ & dance & affect to be m]ry all ! "t--= t is ! be/ way1 ?\gh ,i assure y my he>t (t5 weighs a ton40 8,i am a/oni%$10 said ,c>tice4 8,i ?\ght y a butt]fly out & out1 ) no tr\bles at all40 8,naturally1 ,i believe ,i am4 ,i love ! beauties & pleasures ( life2 b nobody kn[s :at butt]flies are ?9k+ ab\t :ile !y are flutt]+ ar\nd look+ s c>e-free & joy\s4 ,i d ! butt]fly act n[ ) a fell purpose--two fell purposes 9 fact4 ,i keep o!rs f suspect+ t ?+s are go+ wrong1 & ,i keep myself f dwell+ on my tr\bles4 ,y mu/ le>n butt]fly philosophy too4 ,y mu/ g out & meet p & make fri5ds1 let y\rself out a little & %[ :at is 9 y40 8,i c't1 de>1 = _m reasons10 & ,c>tice glanc$ at h] well-worn g[n1 & ?\ght ( ! hopeless condition ( h] w>drobe4 8,clo!s1 eh80 said ! o!r1 go+ /raight to ! po9t4 8,don't worry on t score1 ,i am h&y ) a ne$le & c help y t9k] up "s ( y\r ?+s to look q f9e4 ,i c toss up a delici\s little bonnet1 too40 8,b ,i h no he>t 9 any?+10 said ,c>tice4 8,y don't "k all--no2 y don't "k all40 8,i "k m ?an y ?9k ,i d4 ,i "k precisely :at x is to be pitifully disappo9t$ 9 "o's husb&1 to f9d t he is ! opposite ( :at "o ?\ght him1 to lose confid5ce 9 8 ability1 8 manl9ess1 8 loyalty & 8 love40 8,yes1 yes1 t is ! h>de/ ( all10 wail$ ,c>tice1 %ak5 to ! s\l to le>n t :at %e believ$ hidd5 0 writt5 9 big lett]s on ! out] walls ( h] life1 z x 74 8,t1 too1 y mu/ ?r[ (f10 said ! philosophic ,butt]fly4 8,!re are few wives :o hav5't _h "s ( t k9d ( exp]i5ce4 ,= ! mo/ "p m5 are abom9able wret*es1 _! :ole lives made up ( deceit & lies4 ,x hurt me cruelly1 cruelly :5 ,i f\nd x out & j _h to believe x 9 ! face ( n want+ to2 b n[1 well--,i h taught myself n to c>e v mu*40 8,x seems to me t a wife only ceases to c>e :5 %e ceases to love1 & !n %e ought to give h] husb& up entirely10 said ,mrs4 ,dor+4 8,yes1 x is true2 :5 "o doesn't c>e x is because "o doesn't love "o's husb& any m4 ,( c\rse1 x w\ld be hone/]1 m moral & self-respect+ to leave him1 b we wom5 are mo/ly ti$ up by diff]5t k9ds ( *a9s1 s t no matt] h[ wide our eyes are op5$ we usually g "r on pret5d+ we don't see1 & s become hypocrites1 too4 ,! :ole fabric seems to be pretty mu* a w>p & wo( ( lies4 ,b ,i don't puzzle mu* ov] problems z big & h>d z t4 ,i hav5't ! head = x4 ,i j edge along ! easie/ way ,i c1 & leave ! ?+s ,i don't und]/&1 & c\ldn't set "r if ,i did1 = o!rs to puzzle ov] & fix up if !y c40 ,c>tice 0 a/oni%$ at ! ,butt]fly's h>d trials & airy me?od ( ignor+ !m4 ,we are always a/oni%$ to le>n t ano!r has _h ! same k9d ( a load to c>ry t we h borne1 all ! m if t o!r has c>ri$ x gaily4 ,x is common to believe our own exp]i5ces unique4 8,y are ev] s mu* clev]] ?an ,i :5 x comes to ?+s le>n$ out ( books10 ,mrs4 ,layton w5t on1 8,i h v little ( :at !y call le>n+--too little entirely2 b any "o c see t y are well in/ruct$4 ,b :5 x comes to kn[+ ab\t p z !y are & n z !y ought to be1 ,i am f> ahead ( y1 ?\gh ,i am only a mon? or two old]4 ,y are a m]e baby 9 all t1 absolutely bl9d to :at ,i c see across ! /reet2 & y are su* an e>ne/1 hone/1 cr$ul\s s\l t y are b\nd to h y\r he>t brok5 doz5s ( times :ile y are le>n+ :at y ought to "k already40 8,h[ did y le>n x all s soon80 8,by exp]i5ce1 ! only s*ool ^: lessons we rememb]4 ,i 0 m>ri$ at sev5te5 & am tw5ty-f\r n[4 ,"o c le>n a heap ( ?+s 9 sev5 ye>s1 ) s good a *ance z ,i h _h40 7,"h ! ,butt]fly's m\? took on a h>d & bitt] curve1 :i* told m ?an h] ^w ( :at h] sad wisdom _h co/47 8,t ,i 0 romantic goes )\t say+4 ,i believ$ 9 ! fooli% love-/ories ,i read & expect$ life to be l !m4 ,7 ,i clev] l y1 ,i w\ld write books & tell ab\t life z x is & n z novel writ]s g5]ally pret5d x is1 delud+ ! ignorant & inexp]i5c$4 ,i actually believ$ !re 0 su* a ?+ z happ9ess1 & t ,i c\ld secure x 9 ! usual way1 by m>ry+ ! man ,i 0 9 love )--o!rwise ! man :o _h succe$$ 9 ca/+ a spell ov] me t caus$ me to see him ?r\gh a mi/ ( en*antm5t1 = t is :at x means4 ,b my fool's p>adise didn't la/ long4 ,i soon le>n$ to my sorr[ t a man out ( a book is n at all l a man 9 a book4 ,"o %ock aft] ano!r came1 until at la/ no?+ c\ld surprise me4 ,aft] a "t my husb& began to dr9k heavily & does yet1 & t is :at has br\ght u to pov]ty4 ,:5 he is bad drunk he is ugly & dang]\s4 ,9 %ort1 my life is h>d & hateful 'way d[n out ( sight40 8,o my fri5d10 cri$ ,c>tice1 ) gli/5+ eyes1 8x is a trag$y1 & ,i ?\ght nobody suff]$ z ,i d40 ,mrs4 ,layton cont9u$3 8,:5 ,i m>ri$ ,i lov$ him1 0 pr\d ( him1 believ$ 9 him4 ,n[ ,i only pity him1 & c>e = him only z a "m c>es = a *ild4 ,c\ld he read my ?\ghts 8 vanity1 %\ld he h any left1 mu/ suff]4 ,su* m5 lose f> m ?an we d1 aft] all1 b !y are s /eep$ 9 selfi%ness1 s besott$ 9 ignorance1 !y c't see x4 ,& he has wret*$ heal?1 z any "o may see4 ,i don't "k :at ! end w be1 & d>e n ?9k ( x40 8,i wi% we c\ld "k :at su* exp]i5ces mean10 said ,c>tice4 8,:at is suff]+ =8 ,:y mu/ x be8 ,we try h>d to f9d ! "r road2 we d ! be/ we c2 ! way looks fair & smoo?1 & !n f no fault ( our own t we c see we are plung$ into d>k dep?s4 ,i wi% we knew ! reason ( x1 ! purpose ( x4 ,i wi% we knew40 8,x is r /range1 ,mrs4 ,dor+1 t ,i tell y ev]y?+ s frankly4 ,i h nev] be5 s confid5tial ) any "o be=e4 ,*att]] z ,i appe> to be ,i am z pr\d z ,cl>a ,v]e de ,v]e1 & keep my own affairs to myself2 b 9 talk+ ) y ev]y?+ bubbles "r out1 yet y nev] ask any que/ions4 ,i %\ldn't m9d tell+ y any?+1 ev5 if x wasn't to my cr$it1 ,i feel s mu* confid5ce 9 y1 & someh[ x helps me to tell y4 ,i 0 attract$ to y f ! fir/1 b y 7 s res]v$ & unapproa*able t if x _h n be5 = ?is illness ( y\rs1 ,i d\bt if we ev] %\ld h become s well acqua9t$4 ,y h a curi\s effect on me4 ,i c\ldn't tell a fib to y nor to any "o 9 y\r pres5ce if ,i want$ to1 & yet x has always be5 easy to me to tell little bits ( lies ab\t ?+s t c\ldn't hurt any "o4 ,i nev] ?\ght !re 0 any h>m 9 x4 ,b someh[ ,i c't d x :5 y are ne>1 nor ev5 :5 ,i ?9k ( y1 & ,i %\ldn't wond] if ,i gave up ! habit altoge!r4 ,d y rememb] "o day be=e y got sick1 :5 sev]al ( u 7 9 ! p>lor & ,i _h a new fan & ! re/ 7 admir+ x80 8,yes40 8,well1 ,mrs4 ,orton ask$ me h[ mu* x co/4 ,( c\rse x's ! wor/ ( mann]s to ask ! price ( ?+s1 b "o meets pl5ty ( imp]t95t1 ill-br$ p z "o goes along1 & mu/ be civil to !m4 ,i 0 ab\t to tell h] t x co/ five doll>s1 ?\gh x only co/ two1 :5 ,i saw y look+ at me1 & quick z a fla% out came ! tru?4 ,y didn't "k ! price ( x1 s ,i wasn't afraid y w\ld cat* me 9 a fib2 b ,i 0 a%am$ n to speak ! tru? 9 y\r pres5ce4 ,y\r eyes look into "o1 deep d[n inside1 & expect to see ev]y?+ !re sweet & clean & hone/1 & ,i c\ld n disappo9t !m40 8,y c't be half s wick$ z y repres5t y\rself1 = y h "o ( ! sweete/ faces ,i ev] saw1 & "o ( ! mo/ beautiful10 said ,mrs4 ,dor+1 ) f]v5t admiration4 ,! ,butt]fly lilt$ out a significant little laugh4 8,yes1 ,i h be5 told t ,i h an innoc5t face2 b t is a freak ( nature1 = ,i am n innoc5t4 ,i am tol]ably--yes1 tol]ably well in=m$ on "s subjects1 & ,i d "o ?+ t y w consid] abom9able1 ,i flirt40 8,de> fri5d1 d tell me exactly :at x is to flirt10 ,c>tice ask$1 entreat+ly4 ,%e rememb]$ t h] husb& _h tak5 refuge 9 t ^w on ! occasion ( ! affair ) ,mrs4 ,p>k]4 ,! ,butt]fly look$ at h] pity+ly4 8,if any o!r woman ask$ me t "q10 %e said1 8,i %\ld be sure %e 0 a villa9 ( ! deepe/ dye1 & 0 affect+ ignorance 9 ord] to pull ! wool ov] my eyes2 b y are su* a muff ab\t su* ?+s t ,i c readily believe y don't "k4 ,x isn't v easy to expla94 ,words c't describe x v well4 ,n m9c+ matt]s 9 my case x's mak+ a bid = ! att5tion ( m5 & gett+ x40 8,polit5ess dem&s t ladies receive att5tion f g5tlem510 said ! unsophi/icat$ ,mrs4 ,dor+1 innoc5tly4 8,my b5ight$ fri5d1 y\r "n %\ld be ,galatea4 ,i don't mean m]e polite att5tion1 b p>ticul> att5tion1 s5tim5tal1 lov]-l att5tion1 ) a /rong flavor ( dang] 9 x40 ,c>tice began to und]/&4 8,:at comes ( x80 %e ask$4 ,a %rug ( ,mrs4 ,layton's graceful %\ld]s4 8,no?+1 (t54 ,sometimes--well1 !re are extraord9>y cases1 & at ! beg9n+ x's be/ n to ?9k ( ! end40 8,:at d y get out ( x80 ,ano!r %rug4 8,come to ?9k ( x1 no?+ p>ticul>1 unless x be di/raction40 8,& ^? :o flirt ) y1--h[ d !y come out80 8,"s ( !m h ! bad ta/e to become s]i\s1 :i* makes x r awkw>d4 ,!n !y h to be s5t (f = good1 & p]haps !y wail ab\t bruis$ he>ts & su* l1 :i* ,i don't m9d4 ,!y nev] get a :ack amiss4 ,:at ,i don't owe !m "s o!r woman does4 ,i only help to ev5 up = wom5 9 g5]al40 8,b y might gr[ s]i\s1 too1 "s "t40 8,i am n afraid1 because ,i h no he>t any m4 ,x is z dead z ! traditional door-nail4 ,i c dance ne>] ! edge ( a precipice ?an anybody else & keep my head40 8,"s d g ov]1 don't !y80 8,yes2 poor fools ) he>ts :o ought n to play 9 t k9d ( a game40 8,x is some?+ ,i "k no?+ :atev] ab\t1 b x appe>s to be bo? p]il\s & unpr(itable10 said ,c>tice4 8,y are q "r 9 y\r conclusion4 ,! liquor habit is also p]il\s & unpr(itable1 yet ! man addict$ to x keeps "r on 9 x4 ,"o mu/ d some?+ to keep f rememb]+ c]ta9 o!r ?+s4 ,) me x's a case ( keep+ my m9d (f mis]y4 ,i got into x because 9 ! fir/ ye> ( my m>ri$ life my husb& neglect$ me %amefully1 sp5d+ mo/ ( 8 "t ) a m9c+ little woman :o pos$ = goodness itself4 ,= a "t ,i broke my he>t ov] x2 all wom5 d4 ,!n ,i brac$ up & began to adm9i/] 8 own m$ic9e to him1 only n 9 su* repugnantly l>ge doses4 ,we all d ?+s x w\ld be bett] n to d1 because somebody else does u an injury4 ,we get into "o tr\ble 9 try+ to escape f ano!r4 ,x's m]ely a matt] ( *oice betwe5 ! fry+ pan & ! fire1--a puzzle f> too deep = my light head to "w on40 99 99 99 99 99 ,no?+ is accid5tal4 ,we meet ! p we are de/9$ to meet1 & ) _! help or h9drance "w out our problem1 be x h>d or easy4 ,! mo/ fea!r-weight ( mortals may prove our greate/ tea*]4 ,9 ^: keep+ we %all f9d ! mo/ preci\s treasures we "k n4 ,b x 0 writt5 9 ! great unop5$ book t ! ,butt]fly 0 to be help & heal+ to ! bruis$ he>t ( ,c>tice ,dor+1 & to be> a tor* :i* %\ld light = h] ! v d>ke/ page ( life4 ,:5 affairs are at _! wor/ a *ange has to come4 ,mis]y itself does n /& /ill4 ,x moves sl[ly1 nev]!less x moves4 ,! f9ances ( ! ,laytons & ,dor+s _h rea*$ ! /age ( desp]ation4 ,colonel ,layton f\nd ! situation too grave to face )\t frequ5t liquefactions4 ,! result 0 t he escap$ fac+ x altoge!r1 = he =got x completely dur+ ! day1 & at night w5t into a /upor too pr(\nd = l&lords or o!r mon/]s to invade4 ,! ,butt]fly & ,c>tice ?\ght ( a means ( extricat+ !mselves at la/4 ,!y decid$ to leave ! hotel1 take lodg+s & eat1 ,bohemian fa%ion1 :5 !y c\ld pay = x1 & fa/ :5 !y _h no money4 ,!y f\nd furni%$ rooms1 side by side1 :i* !y provid$ ) "s t9y traps = cook+1 by sell+ "s ( ! ,butt]fly's p]sonal treasures4 ,to ! surprise ( ! o!rs1 ,colonel ,layton volunte]$ to g daily to m>ket & br+ 9 supplies = bo? families1 a task he p]=m$ = "s "t ) a fai?fulness n natural to 8 "*1 :i* 0 unc]ta9 & ease-lov+ to ! la/ degree4 ,he w5t e>ly & return$ load$ l a port]4 ,among 8 pur*ases1 cream *eese 9 lib]al quantities 0 always a c]ta9ty4 ,?is 0 ! bait t lur$ him to ! m>ket4 ,he _h a boyi% fondness = x1 & l a boy 0 will+ to g out ( 8 way to get x4 ,c>tice & ! ,butt]fly rejoic$ 9 ea* o!r m & m e day4 ,!y %>$ _! money & :atev] else !y possess$ freely1 & ! unqualifi$ frankness ( _! confid5ces 0 salvation = !m4 ,to tell a tr\ble to sympa!tic e>s is1 9 a measure1 to ?r[ x (f4 ,repression kills1 b expression is life4 ,! se$ t s5ds a plant upw>d f ! e>? expresses itself4 ,7 conditions su* t x c\ld n d s1 x w\ld die & rot away 9 ! d>kness4 ,! bless$ ,butt]fly1 ^: extraord9>y baptismal "n ( ,*rissalyn1 fitt$ h] s exquisitely1 _h a f> nobl] mission 9 ! _w ?an %e h]self dream$4 ,mrs4 ,dor+ cont9u$ to se>* = ! mean+ ( ?+s4 ,%e _h s\ght happ9ess & f\nd wret*$ness1 & 9 ! fir/ angui% ( disappo9tm5t fail$ to see t %e 0 n ! only "o :o _h _h a fruitless que/4 ,!re 0 ! ,butt]fly ^: exp]i5ce 0 ! same1 & _m o!rs1 n[ t %e ?\ght ( x4 ,p]haps all _h m or less disappo9tm5t 7 _! inn] lives kn[n4 ,dimly %e began to see t ! pursuit ( happ9ess c\ld n be ! true purpose ( life1 ?\gh all ! _w assum$ t x 04 ,h] dream ( conjugal companion%ip _h vani%$ altoge!r4 ,!re 7 times :5 %e hat$ h] husb&1 times :5 %e piti$ him1 times :5 %e despis$ him1 & times :5 %e tri$ to believe t %e lov$ him1--mu/ love him or die4 ,_h any s\l 9 ! univ]se s ye>n$ = love z %e & be5 f bir? s /9t$ ( x8 ,beh9d ! immobile mask t hid h] pr\d1 suff]+ he>t f o!r eyes1 h] s\l cri$ = x4 ,:at c\ld n %e h endur$1 ) a laugh on h] face & a song on h] lips1 _h love walk$ by h] side8 ,c\ld pov]ty or any o!r t]ror :i* civilization has nurs$ daunt h] !n8 ,no1 a ?\s& times no1 %e said4 ,h] own tr\bles dim9i%$1 h[ev]1 9 ! pres5ce ( ! heavi] ones "u :i* ,*rissalyn n[ /agg]$4 ,colonel ,layton 0 go+ d[n hill di/ress+ly fa/1 & no?+ c\ld be done to save him4 ,8 heal? 0 brok51 8 wits muddl$ & w&]+ mo/ ( ! "t1 & ! end ( 8 res\rces at h&4 ,he _h let g 8 an*orage & 0 drift+ to 8 de/ruction1 c>eless ( w9d or tide4 ,meantime ! brave ,butt]fly smil$ be=e ! _w & *att$ *e]ily :5 h] fri5ds call$1 ?\gh ) h] he>t 9 h] m\?1 & h] e> ev] al]t = h] husb&'s wav]+ foot/eps4 ,:5 %e he>d ! unwelcome s\nd1 %e made excuse & w5t outside to int]cept 8 entrance4 ,usually at su* times he 0 pa!tically ob$i5t1 & sat :]e %e plac$ him1 9 "s vacant room or d>k corn] ( ! hall1 till h] visitors left & %e came = him4 ,to be sure he compla9$ & :9$ & swore 9 a rambl+ way )\t rage1 yet :5 ,*rissalyn came he w5t ) h] l a worn out *ild4 ,h[ev]1 he 0 n always s tractable4 ,!re 7 times :5 he blu/]$ & ?reat5$1 & 8 eyes _h a light danc+ 9 !m t made "o's blood run cold4 ,"o night ,mrs4 ,dor+ c\ld n sleep1 a s5se ( imp5d+ dang] oppress$ h]4 ,gett+ up & putt+ on a wrapp]1 %e w5t to a w9d[ & look$ into ! /reet4 ,all 0 /ill1 & yet some:]e %e fanci$ %e he>d mutt]+s4 ,on go+ into ! hall %e saw ! ,laytons' door op51 ! lights at full fl>e1 &1 to h] surprise1 ! colonel1 fully dress$1 sitt+ 9 ! doorway :ett+ a razor1 ) a sl[1 sibilant /roke1 :i* seem$ to give him extraord9>y pleasure1 = he smil$ 9 a gratifi$ way & 8 eyes tw9kl$ l />s4 ,!re 0 no fury 9 8 face1 b some?+ f> m dreadful--! look ( a lunatic :o m$itates a de$ he consid]s delightful4 ,sitt+ by ! w9d[1 opposite ! door1 0 ,*rissalyn1 clad only 9 h] sleep+ g[n1 ) a face :ite & rigid1 & a pi/ol held firmly 9 h] h&4 ,at sight ( ! sc5e ,c>tice grew cold ) fright2 b %e w5t close to ,colonel ,layton & 0 ab\t to speak1 :51 )\t paus+ 9 8 razor :ett+1 he said1 g5tly1 8,g away1 n[1 ,mrs4 ,dor+1 & come back a little lat] if y want to40 ,9 spite ( ! app>5tly innoc5t words1 %e felt t beh9d !m lurk$ "s t]rible int5tion4 ,if %e call$ help ! arrival ( o!rs might precipitate :atev] horror lurk$ 9 8 mad m9d4 ,*rissalyn he>d ev]y?+ b said no?+1 & h] sil5ce 0 eloqu5tly om9\s4 8,:y %\ld ,i come aga9 if ,i g away80 %e ask$1 ?9k+ to lead 8 m9d f ! "w 9 h&4 ,%rugg+ 8 %\ld]s significantly1 he said1 8,m]ely to see sights10 & !n laugh$ ! l[ satisfi$ laugh ( "o :o kn[s & enjoys ?+s 8 li/5] dreams n (4 8,:at sights80 ,ano!r %rug4 ,8 vanity1 ev] /rong1 ov]came 8 secretiv5ess1 & he c\ld n refra9 f boa/+ ( 8 int5d$ exploits4 8,! la/ ( ,*rissalyn & me10 he said1 pres5tly1 ) a *uckle4 8,i'm tir$ ( ! :ole damn$ bus9ess ( liv+1 & %all give x up1 b ,i %an't leave h] beh9d me4 ,oh1 no6 ,%e goes fir/40 ,?\gh *ill$ to ! m>r[ at ?is cool /atem5t1 ^: tru? ! sc5e & ! h\r confirm$1 ,c>tice pret5d$ to put no /ress ^u x4 ,hurri$ly rack+ h] bra9s = "s pret5ce = h] call & pretext = 8 s]vices1 %e said1 8,i'm sorry to tr\ble y j n[1 ,colonel1 b ,l\is is v sick1 & ,i want y to g & r+ up ,b>ton's night cl]k & get "s :iskey = him z soon z y c4 ,y are always s k9d & oblig+2 ,i'm sure y won't m9d my bo!r+ y40 ,he 0 ev] ! mo/ easily flatt]$ creature4 ,!n1 too1 !re 0 magic = him 9 ! ^w :iskey4 8,y'll g1 won't y80 %e ask$1 entreat+ly1 z he made no answ]4 8,yes1 yes1 ( c\rse10 he repli$1 abs5tly hold+ ! razor close to 8 eyes & look+ critically at its edge1 b mak+ no move4 8,y w excuse me if ,i beg y to make ha/e1 please10 %e cont9u$4 8,poor ,l\is is 9 a wret*$ /ate40 ,he got up sl[ly1 took 8 hat & began to wav] ab\t ! room1 /ill hold+ ! op5 razor 9 8 h&4 ,z he mov$ t[>d ,*rissalyn %e rais$ ! h& t clut*$ ! pi/ol1 & h] eyes _h a /eady1 det]m9$ look t said %e w\ld def5d h]self to ! dea?4 8,come1 ,colonel10 cri$ ,c>tice1 app>5tly 9 good-natur$ ha/e1 8,i he> ,l\is groan+4 ,please g z quickly z y c40 ,he laid ! razor d[n & w5t out & d[n ! /airs z docile z a dog4 ,*rissalyn fell =w>d 9 a dead fa9t4 ,:5 %e return$ to consci\sness1 limp & pale1 & ,c>tice sugge/$ tak+ h] into h] ap>tm5t1 le/ ! ,colonel return1 %e smil$ feebly1 say+1 8,!re is no dang]4 ,he w n be back 9 t5 or twelve h\rs4 ,y probably ?9k ?is sc5e unusual1 b its l has occurr$ sev]al times be=e4 ,once ,i _h to %oot1 & ! ball w5t ?r\gh 8 hat4 ,! %ock ( x 0 almo/ too mu* = me1 = ,i ?\ght ,i _h kill$ him40 8,my poor ,*riss1 y mu/ leave him1 & n run su* risks any m4 ,"o su* exp]i5ce is en\gh to make y grey-head$40 8,i /ay on because ,i c d no o!r ?+1 & if ,i c\ld ,i %\ld /ay to take c>e ( him1 poor1 helpless1 w&]+ s\l t he is4 ,he w come home to-morr[ weak z a baby1 g to b$ & lie !re helpless = weeks40 ,%e 0 a true prophet4 ,at midnight ( ! next day he crept we>ily up ! /airs1 a feeble1 di%evel$1 mis]able figure1 ) a pale1 peak$ face1 & fad$1 wat]y eyes4 ,tak+ refuge 9 b$1 he arose no m = ov] a mon?4 ,^! days ( t]ror & anxiety 7 tell+ s]i\sly on ! ,butt]fly1 ev] a fragile be+1 :o hung to e>? seem+ly by ! mo/ delicate ?read4 ,! pity ( x 0 t %e lov$ life s4 ,ev5 z x _h disclos$ itself to h]1 full ( disappo9tm5t1 ( trag$y1 he>ta*e & humiliation1 ) want m5ac+ h] daily & tr\ble elb[+ h] at e /ep1 /ill %e lov$ x4 ,h] ideal 0 n p>ticul>ly exalt$4 ,giv5 pretty clo!s & surr\nd+s1 a few pleasant fri5ds1 a mode/ ret9ue ( mo?s to circle r\nd h] & a few gold pieces to j+le 9 h] purse1 & %e c\ld squeeze joy out ( life /ill4 ,b rememb] %e 0 a butt]fly4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,,opportunity4 8,a new fri5d is a new =tune40 ,y h sometimes kn[n happ9ess1 eh8 ,yes1 ! happ9ess ( o!rs4 --,ares5e ,h\ssaye4 ,"o ,sunday morn+ ,mrs4 ,dor+ sat at a w9d[1 mak+ a sket* ( a figure %e saw on ! opposite side ( ! /reet1 :5 ,*rissalyn1 :o _h ent]$ by ! op5 door1 w5t ne> & look$ ov] h] %\ld] ) ! famili>ity ( close fri5d%ip4 8,:y1 h[ wond]ful60 %e exclaim$1 ! mo/ flatt]+ admiration 9 h] voice & face4 8,t's ,gabriel ,norris1 ! /reet prea*]1 a local celebrity4 ,y've done him to p]fection--ev5 bett] ?an he looks himself--t is1 ,i see some?+ 9 8 expression "h t ,i nev] saw 9 him1 & yet ,i believe he has x aft] all4 ,! picture br+s x out /rong4 ,i c't tell j :at x is1 b x makes me want to cry40 ,! eyes ( ! sket*] gl[$ ) an indescribable light--! light :i* ! intangible1 pot5t1 holy ?+ we call appreciation calls f ! dep?s ( human s\ls4 ,to portray nature s t ! mo/ he$less & untaught see ! s\l ( ! subject & are able = ! mom5t to roam ab\t 9 t awesome c\ntry1--) ! arti/1 & feel 8 he>t-?robs--is ev] ! dream ( art4 ,by ! effect ( h] "w on ! ,butt]fly1 ,c>tice realiz$ t 9 ?is mode/ draw+ %e _h accompli%$ ?is4 8,!re1 he is mov+ on & ! boys he has be5 talk+ to are go+ ) him10 said ,*rissalyn1 lean+ out ( ! w9d[4 8,he prea*es e ,sunday morn+ at ! ,s\? ,m>ket1 & is probably on 8 way !re n[4 ,he is a que] fell[1 ?\gh he belongs to a ri* & respectable family :o are greatly mortifi$ at 8 peculi> do+s4 ,b he hasn't liv$ ) !m = t5 ye>s1 nor tak5 a c5t f !m4 ,he has a little cobbl]'s %op away d[n t[n 9 ! v uglie/ "p ( ! city1 & supports himself mak+ & m5d+ %oes1 & does excell5t "w1 !y say4 ,on ,sundays1 & o!r odd times he prea*es to p :o are too poor to g to *ur*1 & does lots ( o!r ?+s = !m besides4 ,y see he is *eaply dress$1 ?\gh z clean z a p94 ,he c\ld h bett] clo!s1 b doesn't want !m--has views ab\t su* ?+s--says he does n want to be sep>at$ f ! p he tries to help by be+ bett] dress$ ?an !y are4 ,( c\rse he is an out-&-out crank1 b wasn't always s4 ,a doz5 ye>s ago nobody 0 fond] ( ! good ?+s ( ! _w4 ,he 0 ! lead] ( ! v swelle/ social do+s4 ,all at once he took a turn 9 ! opposite direction--said he _h be5 wa/+ 8 life1 & 0 go+ to put :at rema9$ ( x to "s use4 ,"s say an unlucky love affair set him (f2 o!rs t he _h a dream or vision t *ang$ him4 ,at ?is v mom5t ,i d>e say 8 fa!r & family are roll+ to *ur*--! swelle/ *ur* "h--9 _! f9e c>riage4 ,b ,gabriel prea*es aga9/ ! ri*--or at lea/ aga9/ ! selfi% use !y make ( _! money1 & prophesies no end ( difficulty = !m "h & h]eaft] if !y keep on z !y are go+4 ,i h always laugh$ at him1 b ,i nev] %all aga91 because y\r picture ( him gives me a que] ?rill & lets me see into him z ,i nev] did be=e4 ,b h[ did y get ! features1 ! expression1--ev]y?+ s p]fect1 see+ him only f ! w9d[80 8,i saw him a few days ago1 ) 8 head b>e1 j z ,i h him "h1 prea*+ to a little gr\p on a /reet corn]10 said ,c>tice4 8,i /opp$ a mom5t to li/51 & 8 face has be5 (t5 9 my m9d s9ce4 ,s :5 ,i saw him f ! w9d[1 ?is morn+1 talk+ to ! boys1 ,i hurri$ to make a sket* ( him40 ,!n look+ up1 ) an eag] light 9 h] mottl$ eyes1 %e said1 8,*rissalyn1 let u g & he> him4 ,y say he speaks to ! poor4 ,we are ( !m4 ,:o ne$s help m8 ,let u g40 ,! ,butt]fly gave b a grudg+ cons5t4 ,%e 0 ! natural enemy ( all s]i\s in/ruction4 ,z !y w5t %e babbl$ on ab\t ,gabriel ,norris3 8,z he 0 b5t on prea*+1 8 fa!r want$ him to g to a !ological college & be %ap$ up into a fir/-class regulation prea*]1 we> ! correct ?+ 9 clo!s1 h a fa%ionable *ur*1 gilt-edg$ ,bible1 velvet pulpit cu%ions1 fat sal>y & ev]y?+ t goes to make prea*+ respectable2 b ,gabriel w\ldn't h x t way4 ,he said !re 0 m ?an en\gh ( t k9d ( ?+2 t :at he want$ to say to p _h no?+ 9 common ) !ological factories1 & z = pulpit cu%ions & ! l !y 7 abom9ations 9 ! sight ( ! ,"l2 t ,jesus _h none ( !m1 nor w\ld he h40 ,! sc5e at ! m>ket-h\se 0 "o to take hold ^u ! he>t4 ,! p :o sat !re on rude b5*es 7 all f ! bitt] l& ( indig5ce4 ,its h>d conditions 7 writt5 9 _! faces1 _! poor g>m5ts1 /oop+ %\ld]s1 we>y & awkw>d attitudes4 ,_m wom5 7 !re1 = wom5 are ev] f\nd :]e a ^w ( promise & hope is to be spok51 & t fact is eloqu5t ( :at !y suff]1 ( ! bitt]ness ( _! disappo9tm5ts1 ( ! weight ( _! sorr[s1 ( ! hung] ( _! he>ts & ! ye>n+ ( _! spirits4 ,be=e ! prea*] _h spok5 t5 m9utes ,c>tice 0 "u ! spell ( 8 oratory1 :i* 0 simple1 /rong & sympa!tic4 ,x wasn't prea*+4 ,x 0 ! life-giv+1 hope-inspir+ talk ( a lov+ fri5d1 & x w5t to ! he>ts ( 8 he>]s & !re awoke nobl] aspirations4 ,he said no?+ ( see+ evil 9 !m4 ,in/ead1 he told !m h[ good !y 7--mu* bett] & high] ?an !y !mselves _h dream$2 t possibilities ( wond]ful & beautiful gr[? 7 9 e "o ( !m2 t !y _h an et]nity 9 :i* to gr[1 & on !mselves dep5d$ _! well-be+ n[ & =ev]4 ,x 0 good to see ! light ( self-respect come into _! dull eyes "u ! pot5t spell ( ! "y prea*]'s e>ne/ words4 ,"s ( !m _h %runk int]nally to almo/ no?+1 "u ! blight ( ! self-depreciation :i* close intimacy ) gr9d+ pov]ty begets4 ,n[ _! s\ls began to ga!r confid5ce & /& erect1 consci\s ( _! own value4 8,my de> ones10 he said1 8don't make ! blund] ( ?9k+ t ! aim ( life is to be happy4 ,d n sp5d y\r "t hunt+ happ9ess1 seek+ x :]e x nev] 0 & nev] w be--9 ! ext]nal ?+s ( life1 9 possessions t pass ev5 :ile y use !m1 9 pleasures t leave a bitt] ta/e 9 ! m\? & a regret 9 ! he>t4 ,i d\bt n t our ,div9e ,fa!r int5d$ u to be happy1 b n 9 ! way we imag9e4 ,8 way is s v cle> & simple1 & yet we are s bl9d we see x n1 & w&] 9 su* h>d pa?s1 & lose ourselves (t54 ,x is to love ea* o!r4 ,ev] s brief a trial ( ?is way proves x ! true "o4 ,b to love ea* o!r does n mean to love only y\r own families1 y\r fri5ds & ^? :o treat y well4 ,x means to love ev]ybody1 ev5 y\r enemy4 ,:5 y love y\r enemy1 a miracle happ5s4 ,he ceases to be y\r enemy4 ,love always & to ! end4 8,:5 we love z we %\ld we d n "q :e!r we are happy or n4 ,!n ano!r miracle happ5s4 ,we are happy1 = we ta/e ! highe/ ord] ( happ9ess1 t ( =giv+ & lov+ our enemies1 ( giv+ out good w & k9dness to all1 ( mak+ o!rs happy4 ,! less we ?9k ( our own happ9ess ! happi] we %all be4 8,did any man or woman ^: life has help$ ! _w g ab\t compla9+ because he or %e 0 n happy8 ,s]ve o!rs1 ?9k+ n ( y\rselves &1 )\t kn[+ ! h\r ( ! great trans=mation1 y w f9d y are already a dwell] )9 ! k+dom ( heav54 8,love1 & judge n--t is1 don't f9d fault4 ,:5 y le>n to love1 y w n wi% to judge2 y w n see ! faults2 y w see only ! good 9 ev]ybody40 ,! ,butt]fly w\ld h f\nd ! exp]i5ce dull1 b t on ! edge ( ! assemblage %e spi$ a h&some male acqua9tance4 ,?is enabl$ h] to await ! end ( ! lecture ) h]oic pati5ce4 ,h] face wore an expression indicative ( complete indiff]5ce to 8 pres5ce1 = t 0 "p ( h] me?od ( attract+ mo?s1 ?\gh 9 fact %e saw no?+ & ?\ght ( no?+ b him4 ,x goes )\t say+ t z soon z ,gabriel ,norris _h dismiss$ 8 p1 ?is impos+ mo? 0 by h] side4 ,%e greet$ him ) demure civility1 z ?\gh he 0 ! mo/ ord9>y app>ition t c\ld loom up--= t1 too1 0 9 h] tactics--!n pres5t$ him to ,c>tice z ,mr4 ,prescott4 ,he _h a rev]5t way ) wom51 un/udi$ & natural1 :i* usually won _! good w & sometimes m at ! fir/ meet+4 ,he took h] h& ) old-fa%ion$ fri5dl9ess1 & z he look$ into h] face1 & h] eyes met 81 ! mask ( self-repression %e _h be5 we>+ slipp$ aside = a mom5t1 & h] sore & suff]+ _s /ood 9 mute appeal be=e him1 & he saw & und]/ood4 8,%[ ,mr4 ,prescott y\r sket*1 ,mrs4 ,dor+1 please10 said ! ,butt]fly4 ,)\t demur ,c>tice op5$ h] sket* book :i* %e _h br\ght to give ! f9i%+ t\*es to ,gabriel's picture4 ,prescott />t$ 9 surprise :5 he saw x4 ,aft] a mom5t or s ( sil5ce1 he said1 8,x is admirable40 ,mrs4 ,dor+'s face gl[$4 ,a ^w ( praise ) ! g5u9e r+ 9 x w>m$ h] he>t to ! core4 8,y draw well1 too1 ,mrs4 ,layton10 he said1 ) a significant smile2 8b n 9 ! same way40 ,! ,butt]fly disda9$ to reply4 ,turn+ to ,c>tice1 ) ! mo/ w9n+ def]5ce1 he said1 8,i %\ld l to pur*ase y\r sket*1 :5 complet$1 ,mrs4 ,dor+4 ,i want to publi% x4 ,write me a description ( ! s]vices "h ?is morn+1 to g ) x1 w y n8 ,y c write1 ,i "k )\t ask+40 7,m5tally--,if %e w\ld write :at h] eyes tell x w\ld move ! _w47 8,mr4 ,prescott is ! editor ( ! ,regi/]10 said ! ,butt]fly1 by way ( explanation4 8,i %all be delight$ to d s10 ,c>tice answ]$1 ) swell+ he>t4 8,& d "s m ( ! same k9d ( "w aft]w>d4 ,i want ?+s l t--pl5ty ( !m10 he said4 ,z !y talk$ toge!r ,gabriel ,norris jo9$ !m1 = he & ! newspap] man 7 old fri5ds4 ,c>tice ?ank$ him e>ne/ly = 8 helpful words1 say+ frankly t %e ne$$ !m z mu* z any ( 8 he>]s4 ,accu/om$ to ! indiff]5ce & contempt ( t "p ( ! public :i* %\ld h und]/ood him1 & to ! /upidity ( t :i* c\ld n1 he _h long us$ himself to live )\t praise2 b he 0 human1 & 8 he>t 0 light] & w>m] = a ^w ( appreciation4 ,c>tice walk$ home on air4 ,! long lane ( h] mis]y 0 turn+4 ,a *ance to "w _h come to h]1 & t meant a means ( climb+ out ( ! sl\gh ( despond4 ,idl5ess is ! prelude to decay1 an invitation to de/ruction4 ,en=c$ idl5ess1 :5 ! _s longs = activity1 & yet f9ds itself h$g$ 91 helpless1 cut (f f opportunity1 is ! dea? ( hope1 ! v day ( doom = ! s\l4 ,n[ t 0 all ov]4 ,! ladd] t leads out ( despond5cy & on to ! be/ ! _w has to give 0 be=e h]1 h] feet already on its fir/ r\nd4 ,%e c\ld h>dly wait to get home & write ! description t 0 to accompany ! draw+4 ,x took %ape z %e w5t1 "o s5t5ce *as+ ano!r 9 h] m9d1 all eag] = expression1 :i* is b ano!r ^w = life4 ,! ,butt]fly _h a new !me to *att] ab\t--,prescott & 8 do+s1 ?\gh h] companion sc>cely he>d h]1 s deep 0 %e 9 h] new dreaml& ( action4 8,prescott is a g5ius1 !y all say1 ?\gh a capital fell[1 nev]!less4 ,nobody c back him d[n1 = he fe>s nei!r man nor devil1 & ,i l t4 ,he is divorc$ f 8 wife :o 0 consid]able ( a fi5d1 ,i guess1 & no d\bt he is too1 on occasions4 ,%e m>ri$ aga94 ,x 0 lucky we w5t to he> ,gabriel4 ,"o nev] kn[s :]e "o may enc\nt] a /reak ( good =tune1--ev5 at s unexpect$ a place z *ur* sometimes40 ,?\gh b few words _h be5 ex*ang$ ! fami%$ _s ( ,c>tice ,dor+ _h be5 refre%$ by meet+ ,prescott & ,gabriel ,norris4 ,words are b a cumbr\s means ( communion anyway4 ,:5 we bett] und]/& ! laws ( our be+ we %all ne$ !m less4 ,our ?\ght goes =? & becomes a "p ( o!rs1 by a subtl] me?od ?an articulate spee*2 & ?is is :y no man c live unto himself1 & :y if "o be lift$ up he lifts up o!rs also4 ,! turn+ po9t 9 ill =tune _h come1 sure en\gh4 ,! v next day ,dor+ ann\nc$ t he _h 8dropp$ into some?+40 ,x 0 n a *ance to make a =tune1 b x 0--well1 j :at he said--some?+4 ,is x n true t !re are p]sons :o br+ u good luck f ! v mom5t !y cross our pa?s1 & o!rs :o d[] u ) ill-=tune z long z we are associat$ ) !m8 ,mascots & ,jonahs are realities1 n my?s4 ,meet+ ,gordon ,prescott & ,gabriel ,norris _h turn$ ! tide = ,mrs4 ,dor+4 ,"o _h op5$ ! gate ( opportunity1 & ! o!r _h giv5 h] a k9d ( help n easy to label4 ,x might be describ$ by say+ t %e felt bett] = hav+ met him4 ,h] sket* ( him1 ) an accompany+ ^w picture ( ! sc5e at ! m>ket-h\se w5t promptly to ! ,regi/]1 & 0 respond$ to 9 p]son by ,prescott1 :o br\ght h] a crisp five doll> note1 said an appreciative ^w or two 9 8 curt1 laconic way1 & repeat$ ! ord] = m4 ,! joy ( expression took hold ( h]1 & to h] great amazem5t h] p5 c\ld m ?an keep pace ) h] p5cil4 ,its creations 7 di/+ui%$ by an orig9ality1 a /r5g? & grace t at once attract$ att5tion4 ,to h] ! pleasure %e f\nd 9 writ+ 0 n 9 ! admiration x excit$1 b 9 ! do+ ( x1--9 ! nev]-ceas+ surprise t %e c\ld d x s well4 ,sometimes :5 %e read h] own productions aft] ! fire t creat$ !m _h di$ out1 !y seem$ new & /range to h]1 l ! "w ( ano!r4 ,an app>5tly inexhau/ible well )9 h]self _h be5 op5$1 into :i* %e c\ld rea* at w & draw =? sp>kl+ draughts4 ,9 ?is way %e became aw>e ( ! complexity1 tem]ity & unfa?omabl5ess ( t wondr\s1 unse51 indescribable ?+ we call m9d1 :i* has ev]la/+ly )9 x all t is1 0 or %all be4 ,x a/oni%$ h] to see ! facility ) :i* h] p5 danc$ humor\s jigs1 flung (f diamonds ( wit1 & set 9 motion rippl+ waves ( laught]4 ,x 0 /range t %e :o 0 b em]g+ f ! valley ( despair1 & ^: life s f> _h _h 9 x b little ( ! glitt] ( pleasure1 c\ld write z "o :o knew ! light1 ! joy\s1 ! mir?ful1 ! happy side ( exi/5ce4 ,yet ev5 9 h] mo/ jaunty & jubilant products1 "h & !re w\ld be a bold1 /rong /roke ( ano!r k9d1 :i* made ! read] "k t he 0 foll[+ no light s\l4 ,9 all %e wrote1 :e!r grave or gay1 7 ! 8fre% eyes10 to :i* we give ! "n ( orig9ality1 & ano!r quality1 = :i* we h no "n1 :i* moves u1 we "k n :y4 ,:5 x began to be rumor$ t ! ,regi/]'s new writ] 0 a woman1 ! sm>t p1 :o knew ev]y?+1 %ook _! heads & sniff$ incr$ul\sly1 say+ t !re 0 too mu* =ce 9 ! "w2 t ! /yle 0 n womani%--x 0 ,prescott 9 disguise4 ,!y expect$ ! apron-/r+s to flutt] conspicu\sly f e page prep>$ by a fem99e h&4 ,= !m g5ius has sex & t sex is always male4 ,x mu/ n be und]/ood t ^! e>ly ef=ts ( my h]o9e 7 wor?y a place among ! works ( g5ius4 ,!y 7 only fre%1 spirit$1 /rik+ sket*es ( life z _! au?or saw x1 & !y w5t into ! great ocean ( newspap] lit]ature "h1 !re & all ab\t1 t lives b = a day4 ,"s ( !m1 x is true1 f\nd a pa!tic scrap-book immortality4 ,o!rs 7 pick$ up by mighti] p]iodicals ?an ! ,regi/]1 & giv5 a flatt]+ly wide circulation1 & a few met ! dre>y fate ( gett+ into impos+ly b\nd collections ( 8,lit]>y ,gems10 !re to re/ 9 undi/urb$ security on village p>lor tables = _m a ye> to come4 ,9 a few weeks ,mrs4 ,dor+ _h ! felicity to be in/all$ z associate editor ( ! ,regi/]4 ,h] sal>y 0 n munific5t1 z sal>ies usually are 9 fiction4 ,let no "o imag9e t all aspirants get an opportunity to d newspap] "w & asc5d ! ladd] z easily4 ,h] good luck 9 ?is p>ticul> c\ld be trac$ to h] fitness = ! position4 ,prescott soon discov]$ t besides hav+ extraord9>y ability & orig9ality z a writ]1 %e _h :at he call$ ! 8editorial in/9ct10 :i*1 be+ int]pret$1 meant t %e knew in/9ctively :at an attractive newspap] %\ld conta94 ,9 novels x is always easy to get to ! top4 ,9 t respect ! p :o live 9 books h a mu* bett] "t ?an !y :o live outside ( !m4 ,!re "y h]oes make dazzl+ flights up ! j\rnali/ic m\nta9s4 ,a "y man comes out ( college1 writes some?+ = a p[]ful daily newspap]1 ^: editor at once begs him to accept a lucrative situation !reon4 ,he all[s himself to be p]suad$1 aft] "s hesitation1 & takes advantage ( ! opportunity = di/9ction ?ru/ ^u him1 aft] :i* he goes up )\t delay or h9drance1 till he becomes editor-9-*ief1 owns ! pap] & is a recogniz$ p[] 9 ! l&4 ,b 9 real life1 alas6 ! get-!re road is a h>d] "o to travel4 ,ano!r ?+ 9 real life is manag$ less excell5tly ?an 9 fiction4 ,! wom5 :o d newspap] "w1 too frequ5tly h a little place f5c$ (f to op]ate 94 ,?is is call$ 8,woman's ,corn]10 or 8,woman's ,"w10 or 8,woman's ,_w10 & !re9 ! entire female "p ( ! population is suppos$ to f9d satisfactory news alim5t4 ,!re ! :ole mass ( read+ wom5 are expect$ to pa/ure 9 peace & pl5ty4 ,& :y n8 ,!re !y c f9d out j h[ long a sponge cake %\ld be left 9 ! ov51 :at is ! be/ lotion = ! complexion1 h[ to poli% _! f+] nails1 ! late/ ?+ 9 embroid]y /it*es1 ! newe/ /yle 9 visit+ c>ds1 ! mo/ approv$ me?od ( conduct+ an aft]noon tea1 & no end ( valuable & ennobl+ in=mation 9 reg>d to :at 8!y0 are we>+4 ,beside all ?is indisp5sable in/ruction ! corn] is sure to conta9 _m pr\d allusions to t t]rible sc\rge1 ! 8true woman10 :o is always f\nd sitt+ s]5ely )9 h] 8sph]e10 h] feet on a hassock1 h] embroid]y 9 h&1 ignorance 9 h] head1 selfi%ness 9 h] he>t1 vanity & jeal\sy writt5 all ov] h] feeble face1 say+ t %e 8has rights en\gh10 j z %e w\ld say %e has bread en\gh4 ,b evolution1 t 8sl[ p]=mance ( miracles10 w ev5tually ou/ ev5 ?is /umbl+-block 9 ! pa? ( human progress4 ,c>tice ,dor+ 0 n a 8true woman10 nor 0 h] "w on ! ,regi/] to be f\nd 9 a 8corn]10 nei!r _h x a f5ce ( any k9d ab\t x1 se5 or unse51 nor 0 x address$ to wom5 m ?an to m54 ,z %e saw x1 newspap]s 7 = all & dealt ) matt]s ( int]e/ to all humank9d4 ,happily ,prescott ?\ght ! same4 ,he held almo/ no op9ions de> to ! av]age m9d1 & sc>cely ev] put p5 to pap] )\t te>+ up ! gr\nd "u ! feet ( ^? :o insi/$ ^u ?9k+ 8! same ?\ghts _! fa!rs did ?9k40 ,he _h f\nd$ ! ,regi/] & made x ! vehicle ( 8 op9ions r ?an a m]e news j\rnal4 ,^! op9ions 7 inv>iably s new & d>+1 & s ent]ta9+ly express$ t 8 wor/ enemies c\ld n d5y !mselves ! pleasure ( read+ !m4 ,h5ce x 0 t ! ,regi/] 0 a fly+ success4 ,z x 0 well kn[n t ,prescott 0 z ready & able ) 8 revolv] z ) 8 p51 8 views on curr5t ev5ts 7 respect$1 & seldom op5ly disput$4 ,he 0 ! mortal enemy ( fools & fogies1 & f\nd 8 *ief joy 9 outrag+ t *aos ( ignorance & prejudice we call public op9ion4 ,9 %ort he 0 brilliant1 bold1 witty1 k9d & cruel--a trem5d\s eng9e ) s& 9 ! jo9ts4 ,mrs4 ,dor+ f\nd h] new field ( activity /imulat+ & delightful4 ,x _h be5 h] belief t happ9ess c\ld be made ( b two +r$i5ts--companion%ip & cong5ial employm5t4 ,n[ t %e _h ! latt]1 ! want ( ! =m] tr\bl$ h] less4 ,besides1 %e met _m p1 & ! contact ( sympa!tic m9ds is to ano!r :at moi/ure is to vegetation--keep+ x alive & invigorat+ x4 ,9 a day1 z x 71 ! _w _h exp&$1 & %e 0 9 t\* ) its he>t1 vibrat+ 9 sympa?y ) its deep pulsations4 ,%e le>n$ mu* ( human nature1 p>ticul>ly gift$ human nature1 = ! ,regi/] _h lit]>y lean+s1 & _m ( its fri5ds1 m5 & wom51 :o came to *at a va/ half-h\r 9 ! in=mal editorial d51 7 toil+ up ! n>r[ way t leads to em95ce & fame4 ,"s h a*iev$ ! fulfilm5t ( _! dreams & are n[ enjoy+ _! little day ( r5[n4 ,o!rs _h b a ta/e ( ! deliri\s cup ( r5[n :5 !y 7 call$ into ! sil5ce4 ,"s grew we>y & ceas$ to /rive1 & "s are /ill plodd+ on 9 ! old road1 hav+ nei!r lo/ nor ga9$ gr\nd4 ,z a matt] ( c\rse1 enemies arose4 ,! spiteful1 ! envi\s1 ! jeal\s1 ! bitt]-he>t$1 ! undevelop$ mu/ ne$s h _! little fl+ at ! woman ^: p5 0 a p[]4 ,b ,c>tice 0 too busy to he$ !m4 ,sc>cely _h %e "t to ask h]self if %e 7 happy4 8,almo/10 %e said1 :5 %e ?\ght ( x1 ?\gh x 0 a diff]5t k9d ( happ9ess f t ( h] e>li] dreams4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,,dea?',s ,,n>r[ ,,sea4 ,! *ild t ent]s life comes n ) k or int5t2 ,s ^? :o ent] dea? mu/ g z little *ildr5 s5t4 ,no?+ is kn[n1 b ,i believe t ,god is ov]head2 ,& z life is to ! liv+1 s dea? is to ! dead4 --,m>y ,mapes ,dodge4 ,"o morn+ ,c>tice met ,colonel ,layton 9 ! hall1 z he 0 ab\t to g out = ! day4 ,8 unusual appe>ance /ruck h] at once4 ,he 0 clean %av5 & c>efully dress$2 8 face 0 pale & no signs or fumes ( liquor 7 ^u or ab\t him4 ,?is1 ( itself1 0 en\gh to attract p>ticul> att5tion2 b !re 0 m4 ,an indef9able some?+ 9 8 mann] ask$ = sympa?y 9 a sil5t way1 l an animal2 & 9 8 eyes :i* ( late 7 unusually glassy & vacant1 0 an expression ( rem9isc5t sadness1 su* z comes to ! eyes ( ^? :o 9 a quiet1 self-que/ion+ h\r1 look back ^u _! lives & see sc5es t br+ regret4 ,c>tice felt h] he>t /irr$ by a wi% to com=t him4 ,p]haps he 0 consci\s ( t vibration ( sympa?y1 = he smil$ & ! smile 0 s+ul>ly sweet & w9n+1 reveal+ a glimpse ( 8 old-"t h&some self1 :5 he _h won ! ,butt]fly's he>t4 ,9 conv]sation ! ,colonel 0 ev] a failure4 ,8 ability 9 t art did n g mu* beyond a few /ock expletives1 ek$ out ) significant %rugs & emphatic grunts4 ,b n[ he tri$ to make talk1 & l+]$ z ?\gh he _h some?+ to say & knew n h[ to beg94 8,hang x all10 he gr[l$ at la/1 8:at is !re 9 ?is life anyh[8 ,:at are we "h =1 ,i %\ld l to "k8 ,:at's ! object ( ! :ole1 mis]able procession8 ,x's a devil ( a gr9d = ev]ybody1 & we h to give x up at la/1 & g out ( x1 ,god only kn[s :]e4 ,:at d y ?9k is at ! end ( x1 ,mrs4 ,dor+80 8,o ,colonel1 ,i ?9k & ?9k1 b ,i "k no?+40 8,yes1 t's ! dick5s ( x1 nobody kn[s10 he sigh$4 8,b if !re is a hell mo/ ( u w be well season$ = x by t\gh times "h4 ,i feel ab\t ripe myself4 ,at lea/ ,i am c]ta9 !y c't get up any?+ worse ?an ?is _w any:]e4 ,mighty little happ9ess "h40 ,!re 0 some?+ inexpressibly pa!tic 9 ?is ru9$ man's m5tion ( happ9ess4 ,l all o!rs he _h be5 9 pursuit ( x1 yet 8 seek+ _h b l$ him f>!r a/ray4 8,%\ld y l to live y\r life ov] aga980 he ask$ ) sudd5 animation4 8,i h n ! c\rage10 %e answ]$4 8,i don't "k t ,i h ei!r10 he said1 ) a we>y air4 8,i don't "k t ,i want to2 yet all ! morn+ ,i h se5 myself z ,i 0 :5 a *ild 9 my fa!r's h\se1 & my gr[n-up life seems b a dream4 ,if x 7 s1 & ,i rememb]$ ! dream1 ,i w\ld n aga9 travel ! same road1 ,i assure y4 ,i recall "o spr+ morn+1 p>ticul>ly--a ,sunday morn+--:5 ,i sat ) my "m on ! %ady old por* ) v9es runn+ up ! sides1 & %e sang ?is3 8#8,!re is a l& ( pure delight1 ,:]e sa9ts immortal reign4 ,inf9ite day excludes ! night1 ,& pleasures bani% pa94 8#8,!re ev]la/+ spr+ abides ,& nev]-)]+ fl[]s4 ,dea? l a n>r[ sea divides ,t heav5ly l& f ours4'0 ,a good t5or voice _h once be5 81 b ! be/ ( x _h gone ! irrevocable road1 l _m ( 8 o!r end[m5ts & possessions4 ,en\gh rema9$1 h[ev]1 to give a t\*+ sweetness to ! gr& old words1 & z he sang 8 face became s(t5$1 beautifi$1 transfigur$1 all t 0 err+ & evil dropp+ out ( x4 ,! ye>s1 too1 fell away1 & he 0 a little *ild aga9--nor _h he ev] be5 any?+ else--j a *ild1 weak1 w&]+1 blund]+1 /umbl+ (t5--j a *ild1 bro!r to u all4 8,d y ?9k !re is any?+ = u on ! o!r side ( dea?80 he ask$1 ! *ildlike look /ill ^u 8 face4 8,i hope s40 8,well1 ,i believe !re is10 he said1 ) unwont$ decision4 8,i h always believ$ s1 9 spite ( my bad practice1 ?\gh ,i don't "k :at x is2 b ,i am n afraid ?\gh ,i'm no sa9t4 ,x seems all "r40 8,yes1 :atev] x is1 x mu/ be all "r10 ,c>tice answ]$4 8,x c\ld n be any?+ else4 ,b ,i wi% we knew some?+ ab\t x4 ,i wi% we knew40 8,x may n be long be=e ,i "k4 ,y see :at ,i am--a %ad[ ( :at ,i us$ to be1 a wreck 9 ev]y?+ & nobody to blame b myself4 ,i guess ! end ( ! road c't be v f> ahead4 ,aft] ,i make ! lonely j\rney1 ,i'll come back & tell y some?+ ab\t x if ,i c40 8,ah1 ,colonel ,layton1 ?\s&s1 millions h />t$ on t j\rney ) ! same promise ^u _! lips1 b :o has kept x80 8,yes1 x is a /ump]10 he said1 reflectively1 8b 9 spite ( x ,i h fai? t p]haps ,i c4 ,"m & fa!r are on ! o!r side some:]e4 ,?is morn+ !y seem v ne> to me--ne>] ?an ev] be=e s9ce !y w5t away4 ,i feel t ,i might meet !m at any turn40 ,) a sigh & a smile he lift$ 8 hat 9 graceful adieu & w5t sl[ly d[n ! /airs1 s(tly s++1 8,dea? l a n>r[ divides ,t heav5ly l& f ours40 ,two h\rs lat] ,c>tice 0 sitt+ at h] desk 9 ! editorial (fice ( ! ,regi/]1 :5 a /rang] ent]$4 ,speak+ l[1 z ev5 ! rude/ d :5 !y br+ dread news1 he said3 8,colonel ,layton fell dead on ! /reet a few m9utes ago4 ,he has be5 c>ri$ into ,dr4 ,olcott's (fice1 & ! doctor wants y to come at once4 ,he kn[s y are a close fri5d ( ,mrs4 ,layton1 & ,i guess he wants y to tell h] & help make arrangem5ts40 ,daz$ & trembl+1 ,mrs4 ,dor+ 0 ab\t to />t :5 ,prescott ent]$1 & he volunte]$ to accompany h]4 ,!y f\nd ev]y?+ calm & ord]ly4 ,! doctor 0 not$ = keep+ an ev5 m9d "u all circum/ances1 & _h p]mitt$ no intrusion ( ! curi\s & idle4 ,he op5$ ! door to an inn] room1 & l$ !m to a s(a on :i* ! dead man lay await+ ! coron]4 ,) pr(essional coolness ! doctor turn$ d[n ! %eet1 say+1 8,he 0 already gone :5 !y br\ght him 940 ,9 v tru? he _h become a *ild aga94 ,! fair weak face wore a look ( y\? & innoc5ce4 ,! light1 %9y hair1 sc>cely ruffl$ f its c>eful arrangem5t ( ! morn+1 _h on x baby t9ts ( sun%9e1 & "u ! blonde m\/a*e lurk$ ! remnant ( ! *ildi%ly sweet smile t light$ 8 face :5 ,mrs4 ,dor+ saw him g s++ d[n ! /airs two h\rs be=e4 ,! placid =m be=e h] 0 8 semblance1 inde$1 b x 0 n he4 ,t my/]i\s fact ,c>tice realiz$ 9 an in/ant4 ,!re 7 8 clay g>m5ts1 b all t 0 he 0 gone4 ,! fun]al took place two days lat]4 ,mrs4 ,dor+ c\ld n be pres5t1 = %e 0 unable to raise h] head f ! pill[4 ,?\ghts ( ! great my/]y :i* _h j t\*$ elb[s ) h] haunt$ h] all ! "t4 ,! 8n>r[ sea t divides ! heav5ly l& f ours10 :at 0 x l8 ,:at %ore t\*$ x on ! o!r side8 ,0 !re a heav5ly l& or any l& beyond t d>k ocean8 ,& :]e 0 ,colonel ,layton n[8 ,no answ] to ^! p]plex+ qu]ies came4 ,& yet1 p]haps an answ] always comes c\ld we b read x4 ,p]haps x came to ,mrs4 ,dor+1 = z %e lay !re wond]+ ab\t x1 a calm came ^u h]1 & 9 imag9ation %e saw ,colonel ,layton z he /ood at ! top ( ! /airs on ! day !y talk$ toge!r ab\t ?is greate/ ( all problems1 & he>d him say1 8,i am n afraid4 ,x seems all "r40 ,f> d[n )9 h]self %e he>d ! e*o1 8all "r6 all "r60 & !n %e saw aga9 ! ,colonel's *ildi% smile1 & he repeat$ assur+ly1 8,yes1 x's all "r40 99 99 99 99 99 ,*rissalyn w5t to live ) a fri5d & det]m9$ to f9d a way to e>n h] bread4 ,! end ( "o pa? ?r\gh :i* %e _h s\ght happ9ess 0 rea*$ & only sadness & disappo9tm5t 7 !re4 ,n[ %e mu/ look = o!rs1 = ! endless que/ goes on1 cle> to ! grave itself & possibly beyond4 ,:5 %e ) ! la/ scrap ( h] possessions 0 gone & h] ap>tm5ts left solit>y1 ,c>tice felt a s5se ( desolation great] ?an %e _h kn[n s9ce %e & ! ,butt]fly _h be5 fri5ds4 ,life is z inexorable z dea?2 its sep>ations are (t5 m cruel4 ,9 ! (fice ( ! ,regi/] ! f9al fate ( man 0 a subject (t5 "u discussion4 ,prescott snort$ 9 d]ision at any m5tion ( a cont9uance ( life 9 a sph]e invisible to u n[4 8,we die & turn to du/1 l ! worm10 he said4 ,c>tice held to ! hope ( some?+ m ?an we h "h--a sequel to ?is life1 or a cont9uation ( x1 b %e c\ld advance no basis = ! hope :i* he consid]$ t5able4 ,well-kn[n figures 9 ! /ate & community pass$ out ( sight into ! sil5ce ( ! grave e n[ & !n1 & x 0 ! ,regi/]'s cu/om to speak ) unv>ni%$ frankness ab\t _! lives4 ,)\t d\bt ?is1 9 _m in/ances1 add$ to ! t]rors ( dea?1 = ,prescott 0 capable ( v r\gh surg]y 9 8 po/-mortem analysis4 ,he fl\t$ ! old injunction1 8speak no ill ( ! dead10 say+ t m]e dy+ did n excuse a man's misde$s1 nor make an angel ( him1 & t !y %\ld reap an obitu>y h>ve/ ( :atev] crop !y _h s[n4 ,n ev5 ! "t-honor$ 8regul> subscrib]0 or 8con/ant read]10 _h immunity f ?is h>% rul+4 ,he 0 will+ to take ! same m$ic9e himself :5 8 "t came1 & x %\ld nev] be said ( him t he 0 9 ! habit ( pla/]+ p all ov] ) laudatory lies j because !y _h di$4 8,o yes10 he w\ld sn>l1 8lots ( m5 s]ve ! devil all _! lives1 & !n expect newspap]s to put pl5ty ( heav5 9 ! truck !y pr9t ab\t !m :5 !y die4 ,b ! ,regi/] isn't conduct$ t way4 ,!y %all get 9 x :at !y h e>n$1 no m1 no less40 ,truly1 _m f\nd1 ev5 )\t dy+1 t x 0 a t]rible ?+ to fall into ! too tru?ful h&s ( ! ,regi/]'s editor4 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,?+s ,,n ,,dream$ ,,( ,,9 ,,ev]yday ,,philosophy4 8,communication betwe5 ! _s _w & ! corporeal _w is 9 ! nature ( ?+s1 & has 9 x no?+ sup]natural40 ,! body1 aft] all1 is only a portable1 two-legg$ telephone ?r\gh :i* ! s\l1 or "p ( x1 communicates ) o!r s\ls :i* = purposes ( education & evolution are tempor>ily imprison$ 9 ^! cumbr\s & +5i\s1 b v inconv5i5t physical ma*9es4 --,william ,t4 ,/ead4 ,*rissalyn _h ! usual difficulty ( ! untra9$ 9 f9d+ employm5t4 ,! se>* 0 long & di%e>t5+ & might nev] h _h a happy end+ b = a curi\s accid5t1 :i* 0 no d\bt d[n 9 ! books ( de/9y4 ,%e 0 go+ up a public /airway "o day1 :5 a man desc5d+ at a break-neck gait ran aga9/ h]1 ?r[+ h] d[n4 ,di/ress$ at :at he fe>$ might h a s]i\s end+1 he pick$ h] up1 bewail+ 8 awkw>dness1 & (f]+ to d any?+ 9 8 p[] to atone = x4 ,%e op5$ h] eyes to consci\sness j z he 0 say+1 8,:at c ,i d = h]8 ,:at c ,i d = h]80 8,get me a *ance to e>n my bread10 %e gasp$1 ) almo/ h] fir/ brea?4 8,i'll d x at once10 he said4 8,i'll take y "r up ! /airs into my (fice & in/all y1 out ( gratitude t ,i didn't kill y40 ,s x c\ld be said 9 all tru? t %e 8fell into a good situation10 = t x prov$ to be4 ,h] ignorance ( ! duties %e 0 to p]=m 0 pati5tly borne ) until x 0 ov]come4 ,nev] 0 butt]fly m pa9/ak+ & indu/ri\s ?an %e1 & "w prov$ a bless+ to h]1 z x does to ev]ybody ^: he>t is 9 x4 ,occupation gave h] a /rong] hold on life1 = self-dep5d5ce is a wond]ful invigorator4 ,x gave h] add$ dignity1 too1 leav+ j en\gh ( ! butt]fly in/9ct to give h] exce$+ grace4 ,seldom did %e speak ( h] husb&1 save to ,c>tice1 f :om %e conceal$ no?+1 = ,mrs4 ,dor+ 0 always tol]ant1 helpful1 receptive1 k9d & sympa!tic1 nev] critical & condemnatory4 ,o!rs beside ! ,butt]fly und]/ood ?is1 & w5t to h] ) :at !y ne$$ to tell4 ,! m9d t is receptive1 nev] meet+ any hone/ communication ) h$gehog defiance or fool's sne]1 becomes a magnet :i* draws k f ! v f\nta9 ( light & life4 ,into x fl[ ! secrets ( ! univ]se z well z ( individuals4 ,speak+ ( h] husb& "o day to ,c>tice1 ! ,butt]fly said1 8,i nev] %$ any te>s because he di$4 ,x 0 ! only road out ( mis]y = him & = me2 b ,i did weep = ! happ9ess we nev] _h toge!r1 yet might h _h40 ,"o ,sunday %e came1 b 0 sil5t & reflective1 unlike h] usual self1 = a "t4 ,at la/ %e said3 8,c>tice1 de>1 ,i want to tell y some?+ t w c]ta9ly seem que] to y4 ,i d>e n speak ( x to any "o else1 le/ ,i be lock$ up z a lunatic4 ,b y are always s k9d & s s5sible1 y may be able to und]/& x4 ,i don't4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( x ,i feel afraid t ,i am a little (f my base40 8,y c tell me any?+1 ,*riss1 y "k t40 ,! ,butt]fly look$ n]v\s & pal$ a little1 b began3 8,to-day ,i h be5 to ! fun]al ( ,jess ,hanley1 a s*oolmate ( m9e4 ,we 7 always ! be/ ( fri5ds1 ?\gh = "s ye>s we h se5 comp>atively little ( ea* o!r1 because %e has be5 ti$ d[n at home s closely on acc\nt ( sickness4 ,h] husb& di$ ( consumption two ye>s ago4 ,a ye> lat] _! little boy w5t4 ,!n ,jess became ill1 & = mon?s %e has be5 expect+ to g any day almo/4 ,la/ week %e s5t = me & ,i w5t4 ,%e told me %e knew h] "t 0 ne>ly up4 ,%e 0 q *e]ful ov] x1 z %e believ$ %e w\ld be ) h] husb& & *ild aga9 aft] %e _h #8pass$ ov]1' z %e call$ x4 ,%e 0 a spirituali/1 & ?\ght t dy+ isn't dy+ at all4 ,"o ?+ %e made me promise--a m]e sick fancy ,i suppose--& t 0 t ,i %\ld n fail to g to h] fun]al4 8,well1 ,i w5t ( c\rse4 ,x 0 l mo/ o!r respectable fun]als4 ,p look$ solemn1 !re 7 fl[]s1 & a prea*] made ! usual h>r[+ rem>ks1 :i* set ev]ybody weep+--ev]ybody b me4 ,i didn't %$ a te>1 yet ,i lov$ ,jess z well z any "o !re except h] "m1 ,i am sure4 8,i didn't cry because ,i 0 s daz$ ,i c\ldn't4 ,t 0 ! que] "p ( x4 ,i 0 daz$1 because all ! "t ! m9i/] 0 speak+ ,i saw ,jess1 h] husb& & little boy runn+ ar\nd ! c(f91 laugh+1 kiss+ ea* o!r & ?r[+ fl[]s 9 all directions4 ,!y took ! fl[]s f ! mass on top ( ! c(f91 yet !re 7 nev] any few] !re1 ?\gh !y ?rew !m ar\nd by h&fuls4 8,once :5 ! prea*] said1 #8,we %all see our si/] no m until t great & dreadful day ( ! ,"l1 :5 all %all /& at ! b> ( judgm5t1' ,jess look$ at me1 laugh$ 9 a kn[+ way & ?rew a rose into my lap2 b :5 ,i tri$ to pick x up x wasn't !re4 ,n[ :at d y ?9k ( all t8 ,am ,i crazy1 or :at 0 x80 8,:at d y ?9k x 01 ,*rissalyn80 8,i don't "k1 & don't d>e to ?9k too mu* ab\t x le/ ,i get upset ov] x40 8,did o!rs see !m1 d y ?9k80 8,no2 ,i am sure !y did n1 & t fright5s me4 ,if !y 7 really !re :y didn't ! o!rs see !m8 ,if !y 7 n !re :y %\ld ,i see !m1 unless some?+ has gone wrong 9 my head8 ,i am sure ! o!rs saw no?+1 = ,i ?\ght ( t & wat*$ !m closely & c\ld detect no a/oni%m5t 9 _! faces40 8,h[ did ! dead p :om y saw look1 ,*rissalyn80 8,j l liv+ p1 clo!s & all4 ,only ,i knew !y 7 n liv+ & _h no bus9ess to be !re1 & c\ldn't be !re1 & yet !y 7 !re40 8,h y ev] se5 any?+ ( ! k9d be=e80 8,yes1 sev]al times2 b ,i always drove ! recollection ( x out ( my m9d z soon z possible1 because x seem$ uncanny & creepy--& ,i end$ by p]suad+ myself t ,i _h imag9$ x all40 8,did y\r fri5d ,jess "k y _h se5 su* ?+s80 8,come to ?9k ( x1 %e did4 ,once a good :ile ago %e told me ab\t "s que] ?+s ( t k9d %e _h se54 ,t's ! reason %e 0 a spirituali/4 ,!n ,i told h] :at ,i _h se540 7,"h ! ,butt]fly's face light$ up74 8,n[ t may be ! reason %e made me promise to be sure & g to h] fun]al4 ,p]haps %e int5d$ to make h]self visible to me if %e c\ld4 ,at lea/ t view ( x makes me feel easi]4 ,i pref] to believe ,i saw gho/s r ?an to ?9k my bra9 is go+ bad4 ,x has be5 a long "t s9ce ,i saw any?+ ( ! k9d4 ,ea* "t ,i hope w be ! la/4 ,b :at d y ?9k ( x1 ,c>tice8 ,y believe ,i saw ^? dead p1 don't y80 8,i ?9k y saw j :at y say y did2 b ,i c't expla9 x40 ,mrs4 ,dor+ _h always clung to ! belief t ! univ]se held _m my/]ies beyond h] k52 t m>vel\s ?+s1 hidd5 f common vision1 7 de/9$ to "s day /& reveal$1 & no man knew ! mann] 9 :i* !y might make !mselves kn[n4 ,%e _h _h "s exp]i5ce ) pr(essional clairvoyants :i* _h be5 dis5*ant+4 ,= ! mo/ "p !y _h be5 clammy1 illit]ate1 unscrupul\s1 pitiful types ( humanity1 ready to violate tru? & ! ,engli% language )\t hesitation or remorse4 ,n[ %e look$ at ! ,butt]fly ) an int]e/ t almo/ am\nt$ to awe4 ,c\ld x be t ! gift ( see+ ! hidd5 & unkn[n belong$ to ?is bright1 w+$ be+1 :o lov$ ! _w & ! ?+s ( ! _w only8 ,at la/ %e said3 8,*rissalyn1 y h he>d ( ! faculty ( clairvoyance1 h y n80 8,yes1 ( c\rse40 8,may x n be t y are a clairvoyant1 & saw y\r dead fri5ds clairvoyantly80 ,! ,butt]fly lift$ h] h&s 9 horror4 8,o ,c>tice1 h[ c y sugge/ su* a ?+8 ,i a clairvoyant8 ,x w\ld be too dreadful4 ,i w\ldn't h a h9t ( su* a horrid ?+ get out on me = ! _w4 ,:y1 clairvoyants are hide\s creatures1 ugly1 old1 fr[sy1 untru?ful1 & adv]tise to tell y all sorts ( ?+s = a doll>40 8,b1 my own ,butt]fly1 y are n old & ugly & all ! re/ ( x1 nei!r are all clairvoyants4 ,hi/ory conta9s ! names ( "s v em95t ones4 ,:at a wond]ful & enviable gift clairvoyance mu/ be4 ,h[ ,i wi% ,i _h x4 ,& if x be true t y are possess$ ( x1 ?9k :at x br+s to y--light1 light f heav5 itself--! mo/ glori\s light 9 ! univ]se--pro( t ! dead h nev] di$40 ,h] fri5d's en?usiasm ensn>$ ! ,butt]fly's vanity at once1 s t %e prick$ up h] e>s & gave he$4 ,:atev] ,c>tice said _h weight ) h]4 ,x gratifi$ h]1 9 spite ( h] prejudices1 to h a faculty unatta9able to ord9>y p]sons4 ,all ?is d>t$ ?r\gh h] head & settl$ d[n into acceptance4 8,well1 ,i don't m9d if x is clairvoyance1 only don't tell anybody40 8,x's n a ?+ to be talk$ ab\t ) ^? :o don't und]/& or respect x4 ,x's too preci\s4 ,w\ld ,i c\ld see su* sights4 ,!n ,i c\ld s+ light-he>t$ tunes & walk on bravely1 be my pack nev] s heavy4 ,don't fail to tell me if y see any?+ m40 ,*rissalyn did see some?+ m ( ! same "* v soon1 & made ha/e to describe x to h] fri5d4 ,%e _h gone to a bank to att5d to "s bus9ess :i* requir$ m explanation ?an 0 conv5i5t to make ?r\gh ! ca%i]'s w9d[1 s %e 0 invit$ to take a seat 9 ! (fice ( ! presid5t1 ) :om %e _h "s acqua9tance4 ,:ile %e sat !re 8 son ent]$1 be>+ /rong evid5ce ( hav+ t>ri$ too long at ! w9e4 ,8 reputation z altoge!r too jolly a dog 0 well kn[n4 ,8 fa!r s5t him (f z spe$ily z possible1 & !n said to ,*rissalyn 9 a bur/ ( di/ract$ confid5ce1 su* z we all give to somebody at times :5 ! load gr[s too heavy1 8,my boy is go+ to ru9 9 spite ( all ,i c d4 ,i h borne ) him till ,i am out ( pati5ce1 yet my =be>ance is wa/$4 ,i am tempt$ to ca/ him (f entirely1 to ?r[ him on 8 own res\rces & see h[ t w "w4 ,maybe x w br+ him to reason1 s9ce no am\nt ( k9d treatm5t does him any good40 ,on ! in/ant ,mrs4 ,layton saw a woman /& beh9d ! bank]4 ,:5ce %e came or h[ %e knew n1 b !re %e 01 & %e spoke--spoke 9 an e>ne/1 anxi\s voice1 ) an entreat+ ge/ure3 8,tell him n to d t4 ,beg him n to d x4 ,say t ,i implore him n to d x40 ,"u ! impulse ( ! reque/1 be=e %e _h "t to ?9k :at %e 0 do+1 ! ,butt]fly told ! bank] :at %e _h j se5 & he>d4 ,he 0 a big1 commonplace1 worldly man1 ^: head 0 nev] heat$ ) sup]-mundane problems1 yet he :it5$ z he he>d ?is /range /ory4 8,:at 0 ! woman l80 he ask$4 8,%e 0 "y & pla9ly dress$ 9 a calico g[n ( an old-"t mode1 & %e look$ a/oni%+ly l y\r son40 ,! face ( ! bank] :it5$ m & m & 8 eyes became glassy & fe>-/ruck4 8,t describes my fir/ wife1 ,rob's "m10 he said1 8yet y did n "k--no "o "h does--t he is n ! *ild ( my pres5t wife4 ,i 0 poor :ile %e liv$1 s poor t %e nev] _h any?+ bett] ?an calico to we>40 ,by t "t ,*rissalyn began to h a %eepi% feel+ ab\t :at %e _h done1 & wi%$ %e 7 well out ( x4 ,a =ce t 0 resi/less _h impell$ h] to speak1 b n[ t ! tale 0 told1 ! impulsion gone & %e became ma/] ( h]self aga91 h] fir/ ?\ght 0 t %e _h let out ! secret ( h] ability to see ?+s n )9 ! range ( common vision4 ,s %e attempt$ to make light ( x1 le/ ! bank] g ab\t tell+ x z a que] ?+1 & !n ! dete/$ "n ( clairvoyant w\ld be fa/5$ on h] 9 spite ( ev]y?+4 8,i d>e say x's all nons5se1 & ,i hope y won't ?9k ( x aga910 :i* 0 z ne> z %e c\ld delicately come to say+1 8,i hope y w n speak ( x40 ,! /\t bank] mopp$ a cold p]spiration f 8 face1 ) a good deal ( n]v\sness4 ,he 0 tol]ably %ak5 up1 & 0 mak+ a wild ef=t to rega9 8 equilibrium4 ,?\gh n a man to g v deep into any?+ outside ( f9ances1 he 0 nei!r dogmatic nor untea*able4 ,he knew :at he didn't "k1 :i* is a r>e bit ( wisdom1 & 9 t t]ritory 7 all ?+s beyond ! commonplace4 8,anyh[1 :atev] x 01 ,mrs4 ,layton1 ,i'm oblig$ to y = tell+ me--m oblig$ ?an ,i c express10 he said1 ) unaffect$ e>ne/ness--8& ,i w d z %e wants me to4 ,i w n turn ,rob out40 8,i'm glad ( t10 said 8 visitor1 ^: in/9cts 7 always k9d4 8,x c\ld h>dly d him any good40 ,! spr+s ( ! bank]'s emotions _h be5 t\*$1 & = a mom5t he look$ l a big boy ab\t to cry l a little boy4 ,t's :at he saw he mu/ d1 or p\r himself out 9 un9vit$ & prodigal confid5ce1 & t's :at he did4 ,?us x 0 t ! bank]'s skeletons held high c>nival t aft]noon 9 _! own]'s bus9ess (fice4 ,! rem9d] ( ! wife ( 8 y\?1 ! companion ( 8 pov]ty1 press$ ! closet door unc]emoni\sly op54 ,! unhappy own] ( ! unique outfit took a full brea? & unres]v$ly told h[ mis]able he 01 & t ! only happ9ess he ev] _h 0 dur+ ! life ( 8 fir/ wife1 8,:5 !re 0 sc>ce bread to eat ,& ! wolf 0 at ! door40 ,n[1 he _h money1 & ) x a wife :o wore purple & f9e l951 & lov$ nobody b h]self4 ,he spoke ( 8 lonel9ess1 & told :at a poor1 mean1 paltry %am 8 life 01 & h[ at times he _h wond]$ if 8 dead wife c\ld see & und]/&4 ,he kept on till ! closet ( skeletons _h be5 pretty well swept & air$1 & !y _h /ret*$ _! legs 9 a f9e dance aft] long suppression--kept on until ! ,butt]fly held him & 8 wret*$ness1 s to speak1 9 ! holl[ ( h] h&4 ,:5 %e w5t =? x 0 ) a sure conviction t he w\ld say no?+ ab\t h] clairvoyant exp]i5ces4 ,he w\ld h en\gh rep5t+ to d ab\t ! break-out ( ! skeletons to keep him busy4 ,,*apt] ,x4 8,,ye ,,%all ,,n ,,und]/&40 ,:atev] happ5s to anybody x w be turn$ to beautiful results1 ,& no?+ c happ5 m beautiful ?an dea?4 --,walt ,:itman4 ,two ye>s _h pass$ s9ce ,colonel ,layton di$4 ,r5ew$ heal? & beauty _h come to ! ,butt]fly1 :o /ill cont5t$ly e>n$ & ate h] own bread4 ,self-dep5d5ce has _m rew>ds = its fai?ful disciples1 n lea/ among !m be+ ! consci\s dignity t belongs to usefulness1 & expresses itself 9 ! great] ease & calm] assurance ( be>+4 ,be+ a factor in/ead ( a ciph] gives a woman new value 9 h] own eyes1 z well z 9 ! eyes ( o!rs4 ,if ,*rissalyn c\ld see into ! _w to foll[ ?is1 ,c>tice wond]$ :y %e _h _h no glimpse ( h] husb&4 ,%e _h n1 %e said1 & didn't want to4 ,%e hop$ %e nev] w\ld see any "o :o _h be5 ne> to h]--x w\ld be too t]rible4 ,%e insi/$ on keep+ all k ( h] que] exp]i5ces f ,prescott4 ,8 sniffs & sne]s ( ridicule w\ld be too mu* = h]1 nor did ,c>tice feel equal to !m ei!r4 ,accord+ to ,phillips ,brooks !re are two k9ds ( c[>dice1 t ( ! cons]vative1 & t ( ! radical1 bo? ( !m fatal to fre$om ( ?\ght4 ,! =m] is afraid ( be+ call$ an innovator1 ! latt] fe>s to be ?\ght cons]vative4 ,"o pliantly con=ms to e/abli%$ me?ods2 ! o!r /rikes defiance ( !m4 ,nei!r ( !m are free4 ,p]haps ,prescott 0 ( ! second4 ,p]haps he f\ght :at he call$ sup]/ition le/ he be =c$ to believe 9 spite ( himself4 ,at any rate 8 two fri5ds1 p]haps ! loyale/ he _h1 7 n bold en\gh to take him into _! confid5ce4 ,! intol]ant always pay ?is p5alty4 ,!y %ut out confid5ce2 !y make p afraid ( !m2 !y keep light & good away f !m1 & drive angels !mselves f _! gates4 ,c>tice _h a notion t ! ,butt]fly & ,prescott lov$ ea* o!r4 ,be+ some?+ ( :i* ! gods !mselves mu/ approve1 %e c\ld n und]/& ! ,butt]fly's retic5ce on ! subject1 = ! w+$ creature said n a ^w 9 reg>d to x4 ,9 spite ( 8 aggressive "* & "s o!r deplorable defects1 ,prescott 0 a man to be pr\d (4 ,! ?ree 7 mu* toge!r4 ,prescott 0 ! ,butt]fly's tireless escort ev]y:]e1 & !y 7 usually anxi\s to h ,c>tice ) !m1 & (t5 !y came toge!r to pass a few h\rs ) h] 9 ! ev5+1 z %e 0 inv>iably alone1 ,dor+ f9d+ places m to 8 ta/e ?an ! "o he call$ home4 ,"s ( ,prescott's fri5ds said m ?an once t he 0 gr[+ g5tl] & k9d]1 bo? on pap] & (f4 ,"o ev5+ ! ?ree fri5ds 7 toge!r 9 ,c>tice's ap>tm5t4 ,prescott's face 0 radiant1 ) a light nev] se5 !re be=e4 ,x ref9$ & s(t5$ 8 rugg$ features1 mak+ 8 c\nt5ance sweet & sunny4 8,he has spok510 ?\ght ,c>tice1 8& ?is is ! light ( love t has naught to fe>40 8,*ildr510 he said1 aft] a "t1 ) an unusual sweetness & confid5ce t became him well1 8de> *ildr51 ,i am go+ to h happ9ess40 ,bo? look$ at him 9 affectionate inquiry4 8,:at k9d ( happ9ess80 ask$ ! ,butt]fly1 9 a l[ voice1 = !re 0 t 9 8 face :i* made !m feel !y 7 ^u holy gr\nd4 8,i don't "k6 ,i don't "k6 ,t's ! inexplicable "p ( x4 ,yet x seems s ne> ,i c almo/ rea* out my h&s & grasp x4 ,?is feel+ has be5 ^u me all day1 & gr[s /rong] e mom5t4 ,i nev] exp]i5c$ any?+ l x be=e4 ,i don't "k :y or :5ce x comes1 nor c ,i expla9 x well2 b ,i feel x4 ,yes1 ,i am v ne> to some?+ good--ne> to happ9ess at la/40 ,8 voice sank l[1 & its tones _h a ?rill+ sweetness1 a holy joy4 ,8 companions li/5$ 9 sil5ce1 "u a spell1 _! a/oni%m5t too va/ = words4 ,?is 0 /range talk to come f him4 ,z 9 rev]ie he w5t on1 aft] a pause1 8,all my life ,i h wond]$ h[ x w\ld seem to be happy--really happy--if only = "o h\r4 ,mis]y ,i "k well2 b happ9ess & ,i h nev] met4 ,n[1 x is s ne> t ,i am already 9 its sun%9e40 ,& he smil$1 ) ! wond]ful light on 8 face1 & ! smile 0 /rangely sweet & beautiful4 ,! ,butt]fly %ook h]self out ( ! s]i\sness t 0 ^u h]1 & said3 8,y are go+ to h money--pl5ty ( money--all unexpect$ z x comes 9 /ories1 & !n--!n y mu/ give a big supp] & ,c>tice & ,i w we> our prettie/ g[ns & be que5s ( ! fea/40 ,he look$ at h] & smil$ aga91 b did n ev5 he> h] *att]1 = 8 s\l 0 revell+ 9 s\ndless melody4 ,! exaltation 0 /ill on 8 face :5 he & ,*riss bade ,c>tice good-night4 ,x 0 t5 o'clock next day :5 ,mrs4 ,dor+ rea*$ ! ,regi/] (fice4 ,! entrance 0 full ( m51 ) fright5$ faces1 "o ( :om motion$ to h] to /op4 ,obey+1 %e /ood 9 h] tracks1 *ill$ ) a s5se ( disa/]1 until he rea*$ h]4 8,y mu/ n come 910 he said4 8,!re has be5 an accid5t at ! elevator1 &--,prescott is dead40 ,9 sil5ce %e turn$ away4 8,& ?is 0 ! happ9ess he felt s ne> to him--?is80 %e gasp$4 8,yes2 x 0 s ne>1 yet he did n und]/&1 & we did n und]/&4 ,& x 0 ?is6 ,x 0 ?is60 ,prescott & dea? 7 irreconcilable4 ,he 0 typical ( life1 =ce & action4 ,:o c\ld ?9k ( him z out ( ! conflict1 z voiceless & sil5t8 ,h[ c\ld !y ev] le>n to speak ( him z "o :o 0 b is n8 8,saw y no?+1 ,*rissalyn--no?+ t port5d$ ?is80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,no?+40 8,yet we _h a sign1 & 7 too bl9d to see x4 ,8 glorifi$ face la/ night1 & 8 /range feel+ t happ9ess 0 ne> to him--^! 7 signs1 ?\gh we und]/ood !m n40 ,f ! fir/ a s5se ( ! unreality ( :at _h occurr$ came to ,mrs4 ,dor+ & nev] left h]4 ,%e foll[$ ! sable c>riage ( ! dead to ! cemet]y1 & return$ to f9d 8 *air vacant1 8 p5 idle1 8 pres5ce gone =ev]1 yet x 0 n l reality1--none ( x4 ,%e %$ no te>s1 nor 0 %e sad4 ,aft] ! fir/ />tl$ mom5t %e 0 at peace1 ?\gh %e knew n :y4 ,lat] %e und]/ood1 z w all ( u aft] a little "t4 ,n[ we weep & moan ov] sorr[1 que/ion+ x all1 res5t+ x all2 b a day is com+ :5 we %all see & "k & und]/&1 & 9 t day we %all re-"n _m ?+s1 hav+ until !n miscall$ !m4 99 99 99 99 99 ,n[ ano!r s]i\s ev5t confront$ ,mrs4 ,dor+4 ,%e _h done h] be/ to save h] husb& f himself b c\ld n4 ,n[ %e saw cle>ly at la/1 aft] mu* /riv+ to br+ compatibility out ( incompatibility1 t _! union 0 a %am1 a pret5ce1 a lie1 :i* if p]si/$ 9 c\ld only br+ de/ruction to bo? ( !m4 ,! conviction came to h] t x mu/ end4 ,few exp]i5ces are bitt]] or sadd] = a s5sitive1 pr\d1 high-spirit$ woman1 ?an to face a dome/ic calamity l ?is4 ,to see ! love ^u :i* %e _h f\nd$ h] de>e/ hopes turn to a%es2 to h :at %e once ?\ght happ9ess become a burd5 s intol]able t x mu/ be ca/ d[n1 ackn[l$g+ disappo9tm5t1 defeat & humiliation be=e ! _w1 is1 inde$1 a bitt] cup4 ,! co>se1 ! malici\s1 ! undevelop$ h sne]s1 je]s & taunts = ?is ord] ( suff]]2 b ! enlight5$1 ! truly moral b[ be=e h] rev]5tly1 n only because %e has suff]$1 b because %e /&s = a great pr9ciple4 ,t ! sep>ation mu/ be legal z well z actual1 %e saw w\ld be be/ = bo?4 ,?\gh ! laws ( _! /ate 7 z humane z mo/ o!rs1 /ill !y _h n evolv$ beyond ! po9t1 :]e 9 ord] to secure fre$om f irksome m>ital bonds "o ( ! p>ties mu/ make a damag+ *>ge aga9/ ! o!r4 ,9 talk+ x ov] ) h] husb& %e said1 8,we c arrange t z dec5tly z ! law w p]mit4 ,if ,i make ! application1 ,i %all put x on ! mo/ in(f5sive gr\nd possible4 ,if t is n agreeable to y1 ,i w leave y & y c *>ge me ) des]tion40 ,dor+ det]m9$ to d at once :at he _h long be5 arrang+ to d slyly1 :i* 0 to g away himself1 & z a ,p>?ian arr[ ann\nc$ t he _h int5d$ to d s = sometime1 b n alone4 ,x 0 a curi\s end+ ( ! mo/ delicate & important relation 9 life4 ,c>tice ga!r$ 8 effects toge!r1 pack+ ev]y?+ ) c>eful h&s4 ,:5 he w5t %e wat*$ him out ( sight1 & out ( h] life4 ,late into ! night %e /ill sat at ! w9d[1 ) a :ite face & eyes t />$ into ! d>kness yet saw only ! sc5es ( ! pa/4 ,:5 ,l\is ,dor+ bo>d$ ! tra9 t ev5+ he knew t )9 await$ him ! %>] ( 8 future =tunes4 ,8 /ory c soon be told4 ,x 0 ! natural outcome ( 8 weak1 selfi%1 /ubborn & va9 "*4 ,a few mon?s lat]1 des]t$ by ! companion he _h tak5 ) him1 p5niless & alone 9 a s\!rn city1 he fell a victim to a malignant fev] & pass$ out ( life4 ,c>tice saw a brief m5tion ( 8 dea? 9 a daily newspap] ( ! city 9 :i* x occurr$4 ,accompani$ by ! fai?ful ,butt]fly %e w5t at once1 arriv+ !re 9 "t to put 8 mortal "p out ( sight ) ! dec5cy cu/om requires4 ,^! two lov+ he>ts1 bo? bruis$ f sad exp]i5ces1 sat toge!r late t night1 talk+ ( ! curi\s ev5ts we call life & dea?4 ,:at !y knew ( "o made x almo/ z t]rible z ! o!r4 8,ah1 ,butt]fly1 de>10 said ,c>tice1 8,i envy ! wom5 :o h lo/ husb&s wor? lam5t+4 ,su* te>s w\ld be sweet1 n bitt]40 8,y call me a se]ess1 sometimes10 said ,*rissalyn1 8& p]haps ,i am1 = ,i h be5 look+ (f into ! future--a future t is v f> away1 inde$--& ,i see y1 & y are happy4 ,at lea/ ,i read x s1 = !re is light all ab\t y1 & y\r face is l a picture ( joy1 x is s bright4 ,& y are m beautiful ?an ! sun1 ( ^: radiance y\r clo!s are made4 ,b ,i am n ) y1 & x is1 oh6 s f> away--s f> t x looks to be ev5 on ! o!r side ( dea? ?\gh t is a que] way to put x4 ,yes1 y w be great & r5[n$ "s day z well z happy2 b ! road !re is s long--,i don't und]/& x--z long z sev]al lives put toge!r1 ,i %\ld say40 8,& y1 *ild ( ! f>-away eyes1 see y naught = y\rself80 8,no2 ,i nev] d2 b ,i h a firm belief t ,i am yet to h sat9 c\*es & pl5ty ( "t to re/ on !m40 ,spl5dor be x obs]v$1 0 h] deal ( bliss1 :i* 0 natural1 %e be+ a butt]fly4 ,t night :ile h] fri5d slept1 ,mrs4 ,dor+ sat by ! op5 w9d[ ?9k+ ( ! cold1 /ill =m %e _h se5 put out ( sight t day1 & wond]+ ) a *ill s5se ( awe :]e n[ 0 ! s\l t _h be5 repres5t$ by x4 ,! moonlight :it5$ ev]y?+1 & add$ its electric beauty & pale sadness to ! lonel9ess ( ! night4 ,%e recall$ o!r nights :5 t =m _h pulsat$ ne> h]1 & yet h] _s _h be5 z lonely z n[4 ,:at did x all mean1 ! lov+ & ! suff]+1 ! dream+ & ! awak5+1 ! meet+ & ! p>t+8 ,! road toge!r _h be5 long & h>d1 yet "h 0 ! end--! same end to :i* all roads lead--b :at 0 ! purpose ( x all8 ,! problem ( life2 :at c x be b ! developm5t ( ! individual1 ! unfold+ ( ! s\l1 t m>vel\s1 p]si/5t1 god-l ?+ ( ^: unlimit$ possibilities we are b beg9n+ to dream8 ,& all t we d & h done to u1 enjoy & suff]1 ?9k & dream1 hope & aspire1 make to t end1 & are necess>y & !re=e good4 ,memories came to h] f a remote pa/1 t ant$at$ h] bir?--or s x seem$1 = _! orig9 0 n )9 h] e>?ly exp]i5ces4 ,yet surely !y 7 memories1 = "o & all met ) recognition4 ,faces %e _h lov$ came & smil$ _! sympa?y & fondness4 ,famili> voices spoke to h]--voices ^: heav5ly sweetness mortal e> ha? n he>d4 ,snat*es ( songs1 cele/ial 9 _! ?rill+ melody1 float$ by4 ,sc5es re/ful & beautiful unroll$ !mselves = a mom5t & 7 gone4 ,b x 0 ! inn] eyes :i* saw & ! inn] e>s t he>d4 ,yes1 %e knew !m all1 = !y 7 h] p1 h] v own p1 ( :om %e 0 always dream+1 & = :om %e 0 always se>*+4 ,!y _h come to com=t h]4 ,see1 all smil$1 n "o wept1 & _! words & songs 7 joy\s4 8,my own p6 ,my de> p1 ,i %all yet f9d y1--,i am f9d+ y10 %e said1 glanc+ at ! ,butt]fly's pretty face1 ) its cr[n ( sun%9y hair on ! pill[1 & ?9k+ ( ,prescott1 ) 8 head l c>v5 granite & eyes ( fire2 & o!rs1 ) "s ( :om %e _h clasp$ h&s b once1 yet knew !m z h] own4 ,b :at ( ! new-made n>r[ m\nd 9 ! cemet]y8 ,x pres5t$ itself at ! end ( e life1 mutely ask+ an explanation ( its exi/5ce4 ,?is 0 ! wall aga9/ :i* ! race ( man has ev] beat5 ! w+s ( inquiry4 ,!re x always /&s1 unresponsive & =bidd+1 ! grim sil5ce1 l ! %ores t %ut 9 ! sea1 say+1 8,?us f> %alt ?\ come & no f>!r40 ,yet above & beyond ! awe & wond] t fill$ h] s\l1 0 t curi\s s5se ( ! unreality ( dea? :i* _h come :5 ,prescott w5t away & /ill rema9$4 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,a ,,little ,,bo>d ,,bridges ,,! ,,great ,,gulf4 ,ev5 "h ! s\l ( man is a memb] ( ! immat]ial _w2 pres5t & future1 life & dea?1 make "o cont9u\s :ole 9 ! ord] ( spiritual nature4 --,kant4 ,c>tice ,dor+ 0 "o ( ^? bless$ be+s :o int]m$dle n ) ! affairs ( ano!r4 ,%e ask$ no que/ions & 0 free f ! vulg> vice ( curiosity4 ,%e li/5$ ) sympa!tic int]e/ to all confid5ces t came to h]1 b solicit$ none4 ,?is made h] a *>m+ & lovable fri5d4 ,speak+ once ( ! p]nici\s habit "s well-mean+ b ill-taught p]sons h ( ask+ :]e y 7 born1 if y\r p>5ts are liv+1 :at religion y adh]e to & ! ?\s& o!r cate*etical %ots :i* compose _! li/ ( topics ( conv]sation1 %e said3 8,!re may be a reason :y ! simple/ & app>5tly mo/ in(f5sive "q may give pa91 s ,i nev] ask any4 ,i h no wi% to1 = ,i h no curiosity4 ,:5 ,i make a new acqua9tance ,i am n conc]n$ ) ! locality ( 8 bir?1 ! resid5ce ( 8 p>5ts1 or any "p ( 8 p]sonal hi/ory4 ,:at he is individually1 n ! accid5ts ( 8 life1 int]e/s me1 & t reveals itself z ,i become acqua9t$ ) him1 )\t any prob+ on my "p4 ,nei!r d ,i wi% to bore into ! sacr$ recesses ( a fri5d's he>t4 ,:at %e tells me ,i %all li/5 to lov+ly2 :at %e does n tell me ,i d n ev5 wi% to "k40 ,h5ce x 0 t :5 ! ,butt]fly fell into a m$itative mood "o ev5+ :5 !y 7 toge!r1 ,c>tice did n di/urb h]4 ,by & by ,*rissalyn said3 8,i dream$ ( ,prescott la/ night4 ,at lea/ ,i suppose x 0 a dream1 ?\gh x seem$ extremely real4 ,i 0 walk+ on ! /reet & met him1 & he held 9 8 h& t que] little he>t-%ap$ toy somebody s5t y once--a ?+ ) a ,fr5* "n t ,i don't recall n[1 b y said x meant #8little bo>d4'--,x has ?ree legs1 & "o ( !m is a p5cil40 8,a plan*ette10 sugge/$ ,mrs4 ,dor+4 8,yes2 t's x4 ,well1 ,prescott held t up be=e me & said1 #8,try x1 ,butt]fly6 ,try x6'0 ,c>tice's eyes wid5$ ) int]e/4 8,y rememb] we did try to write ) x once long ago10 said ! ,butt]fly1 8b x only wrote fooli%ness1 s we flung x aside & nev] tri$ aga94 ,i h be5 ?9k+ ab\t x all day1 & %\ld l to try x aga91 = ,i c't get ,prescott's face1 z ,i saw x la/ night1 out ( my m9d40 ,! plan*ette 0 br\ght =?1 & its hi/ory retold4 ,! donor 0 a man f :om ,dea? _h tak5 e memb] ( 8 family4 ,= ye>s ! desire ( 8 he>t _h be5 to "k if ! dead are dead1 or if !y /ill live ?\gh unse5 ( m54 ,aft] he w5t to ano!r city1 he wrote ,mrs4 ,dor+ t he _h receiv$ "s />tl+ revelations ?r\gh ,plan*ette1 & s5t h] "o1 t %e might exp]im5t = h]self4 ,hav+ "s ability ) ! bru% & palette1 he _h pa9t$ an allegory on ! "u side ( ! t9y walnut bo>d4 ,psy*e 9 ! cele/ial robes 0 pass+ upw>d out ( sight4 ,cupid 9 fa%ionable mod]n attire1 _h ?r[n aside 8 b[ & arr[s1 & held 8 "r h& on a ,plan*ette1 ^u :i* he conc5trat$ all 8 att5tion1 say+ to x3 8,tell me hopeful messages ,to beguile e>?'s sorr[2 ,b ( evil ?+s1 ,oh6 keep ,sil5ce till to-morr[4 ,!n1 p]*ance1 ,i'll be asleep40 8,a pretty ?\ght10 said ,c>tice1 display+ ! picture1 & read+ ! text al\d4 8,love is always anxi\s to "k ! fate ( ! s\l4 ,he hopes1 b seeks = some?+ to keep hope alive4 ,b5son wrote me extraord9>y ?+s ab\t ,plan*ette1 b ,i tri$ x sev]al times & got no?+40 8,b ,i got some?+ :5 ,i tri$10 said ,mrs4 ,layton1 ) an air ( int]e/4 8,to be sure x 0 rank nons5se1 b x 0 some?+1 & ,i didn't d x myself1 :atev] x 040 8,no2 y said x 0 ! "w ( ! devil1 & flung ! plan*ette aside 9 disgu/4 ,:at a conv5i5ce ! devil is1 anyway6 ,h[ c\ld ! _w get on )\t him8 ,ev]y?+ ! v]ie/ dunce doesn't und]/& is laid at 8 door4 ,if he _h nev] be5 inv5t$1 :o w\ld %\ld] all ! my/]ies8 ,poor devil6 ,)\t be+ to blame he has be5 a t]rific /umbl+-block to ! enlight5m5t ( mank9d4 ,:]ev] a p]sev]+ & h]oic m9d clipp$ out a crevice 9 ! wall ( ignorance1 "s d5se-m9d$ be+ 0 on h& to seize ! devil & put him into x1 to obscure :atev] light might filt] ?r\gh4 ,& s1 ?\gh innoc5t himself1 he has kept mank9d 9 d>kness ?r\gh ! c5turies40 ,h[ev]1 devil or no devil1 !y cov]$ a table ) a big %eet ( :ite pap]1 ( ! k9d us$ by ! ,regi/]1 & put ,plan*ette ^u x4 ,! ,butt]fly put h] t9y h& !reon1 & !y await$ its pleasure4 ,z !y 7 ignorant ( ! p>ticul> me?ods ( its op]ation1 !y c\ld b grope t5tatively till !y f\nd ! true way1 j z ! human race has grop$ upw>d ?r\gh c\ntless va9 exp]im5ts & innum]able griev\s blund]s into su* light z x n[ enjoys4 ,! occasion 0 9 no way t+$ ) solemnity4 ,!y built no hopes on its outcome1 nor gave x s]i\s ?\ght4 ,x 0 ! ,butt]fly's inspiration1 born ( h] dream4 ,s little importance did !y atta* to x1 t !y fell to *att+ ( o!r ?+s at once1 leav+ ,plan*ette to its own devices1 ,mrs4 ,layton's h& /ill re/+ on x1 h[ev]4 ,sudd5ly _! *att] ceas$4 ,plan*ette began to move across ! pap]1 n aimlessly1 z !y expect$1 b delib]ately & precisely1 ) intellig5ce & =ce4 ,z sudd5ly z x _h begun x /opp$4 ,!y lift$ x up & look$ at its trail1 & !re 0 a ^w pla9ly & ev5ly writt5--! ^w 8,gaily40 8,m ( its nons5se1 j z ,i fe>$10 sigh$ ! ,butt]fly1 9 disgu/4 8,well1 try x aga91 de>10 plead$ h] fri5d4 8,x's wor? /udy+1 ev5 if x does write nons5se4 ,x's extraord9>y t x writes at all40 ,) polite alacrity x wrote aga9 ) m ease & spe$ ?an be=e3 8,d y n rememb] ,gaily--,gaily1 ! ,tr\bad\r80 ,?is _h no mean+ = ! ,butt]fly1 & %e 0 ab\t to express h] displeasure1 :5 %e glanc$ at h] fri5d4 ,c>tice 0 lean+ f> back 9 ! *air1 h] face :ite & drawn1 h] m\? slightly op51 h] eyes />tl$ & />+1 & h] brea? com+ 9 gasps4 8,o ,c>tice1 de>e/6 ,don't look l t6 ,don't60 ,*rissalyn cri$ 9 a t]rifi$ voice1 jump+ up & seiz+ h] fri5d 9 h] arms1 alt]nately %ak+ & embrac+ h]4 8,:at is x8 ,:at d y see8 ,:at has happ5$80 ,mrs4 ,dor+ tri$ to speak1 b h] m\? 0 p>*$ & dry1 h] tongue lead54 ,%e c\ld only po9t ) h] f+] at ! writ+4 8,yes1 yes2 b x's only fooli%ness--a l9e out ( "o ( ,moore's old songs4 ,don't be fright5$ at ! silly ?+4 ,x mu/ h come f my m9d someh[1 ?\gh ,i wasn't ?9k+ ( x40 8,x means ev]y?+ to me10 ,c>tice gasp$ at la/4 8,i und]/& x4 ,try aga91 de>4 ,try aga94 ,i w expla9 pres5tly40 ,r rebelli\sly ,*rissalyn /raight5$ ,plan*ette & put h] t9y h& aga9 ^u x1 gr[l+2 8,i feel m l sma%+ ! mis*iev\s ?+ ?an humor+ x1 s9ce x gave y su* a fright40 8,x 0 n fright1 de>4 ,x 0 a/oni%m5t1 awe1 wond]--_m emotions bl5d$1 b fe> 0 n among !m40 ,sev]al m9utes pass$ b ,plan*ette mov$ n4 ,! op]ator's pati5ce w\ld h be5 exhau/$1 _h n h] fri5d kept h] fai?ful to ! "w ) *e]+ spee*es4 ,pres5tly ! weird little in/rum5t began to walk (f aga91 leav+ ?is l9e 9 big1 bold lett]s3 8,gaily1 ! ,tr\bad\r1 (f]s 8 love once m to ! tall1 "y p9e40 ,c>tice read x al\d1 !n ?rew up h] h&s & bur/ into weep+--a weep+ t 0 half-laugh+1 an ebullition ( p5t-up emotion l t :i* comes at ! =tunate end+ ( a long /ra9 ( anxiety4 8,he lives6 ,he lives60 %e cri$1 9 passionate joy4 8,all live--all1 all :o h gone out ( our sight into ! sil5ce4 ,n "o is dead4 ,n "o has ev] di$4 ,! greate/ ( que/ions is answ]$40 ,pick+ up ,plan*ette %e t\*$ h] lips to x rev]5tly4 ,!n putt+ h] arms ar\nd h] daz$ fri5d1 %e kiss$ h] aga9 & aga91 say+3 8,*rissalyn1 de> ,*rissalyn1 y h always be5 a bless+ & a com=t to me2 b n[ y h op5$ ! :ole univ]se to me2 y h giv5 me light--! brighte/ light t c come to any "o4 ,t scrawl+ l9e tells me m ?an any volume ev] pr9t$ c\ld4 ,x is f an old-"t fri5d1 :o di$ soon aft] ,i la/ saw him1 "o :o lov$ me well4 ,8 "n 0 ,we/field1 b because ( 8 fondness = quot+ f ,moore 9 political spee*es1 & :at ! slang ( newspap] (fices calls #8f9e writ+1' 8 *ums dubb$ him1 #8,gaily1 ! ,tr\bad\r1' & by ?is affectionate nickname "o ( 8 old comrades frequ5tly address$ him 9 my pres5ce4 ,& he nam$ me a tall "y p9e4 ,y knew none ( ?is1 = ,i am sure ,i nev] told y ab\t him4 ,!re=e x _c h be5 tak5 f y\r m9d1 nei!r c x h be5 drawn f m9e1 = ,i nev] ?\ght ( him4 ,if ,i _h any "o 9 m9d1 x 0 ,prescott1 because y _h dream$ ( ,prescott 9 connection ) ,plan*ette1 & because ,i h wond]$ s mu* ab\t him s9ce he w5t away--wond]$ 9 :at "p ( ! univ]se 8 dauntless _s has f\nd action1 or if he is at all4 ,yet ,i sc>cely d>$ hope ev5 = him1 = !re 0 ! possibility t dea? 0 ! end ( ev]y?+4 ,i _h no pro( to ! contr>y40 ,! ,butt]fly 0 a trifle daz$ by ! emotion ( h] fri5d1 :o 0 usually s self-possess$4 ,ev5 by ! light ( h] explanation %e c\ld sc>cely take x 94 ,! subject ( dea?1 no matt] h[ treat$1 0 repugnant to h]4 ,ev5 pro( t dea? 0 n dea? _h b little int]e/ = h]4 ,( c\rse !re 0 some?+ aft]w>d4 ,ev]ybody knew t4 ,wasn't x all set d[n 9 ! books some:]e1 /raight en\gh8 ,b :at 0 ! use ( dwell+ on a subject t _h s _m unpleasant features 9 x8 ,or :y delve aft] ! facts 9 reg>d to x8 ,t 0 h] mann] ( deal+ ) ?is mighty "q4 ,:at attract$ h] 0 life--yes1 life1 poor1 cramp$1 h>d & ugly z "s ( x _h be5 = h]1 /ill %e lov$ x1 f\nd joy 9 x1 crav$ x & its mat]ial pleasures & nev] want$ to be rem9d$ t x _h an end4 ,a new g[n c\ld ar\se h] en?usiasm1 & a fla%+ jewel give h] supreme pleasure2 b dea?1 ugh6 :o want$ to talk ( s gruesome an ev5t8 ,dead p liv$ some:]e1 z a matt] ( c\rse1 b wasn't x be/ to let !m alone 9 _! own place :]ev] x is1 & h no?+ to d ) !m8 ,?is is a curi\s attitude ( m9d t[>d a subject ( m importance to u ?an any o!r1 yet ?\s&s ( presumably intellig5t p ?9k ! same4 ,!y want ! dead treat$ l dang]\s crim9als1 al?\gh _! ne>e/ & de>e/ may be ( !m4 ,!y %ut !m away ) rel5tless cruelty1 do+ _! be/ to put !m out ( _! v ?\ghts4 ,9 ?is way !y slay !m m effectually ?an ,dea? himself has sla9 !m4 ,resi/lessly !y move on to ! same end !mselves1 yet zeal\sly refuse to le>n aught ( :at t end may be4 ,a/oni%+ m5tal d>kness & indol5ce1 b alas6 n uncommon4 ,x 0 "s "t be=e ,c>tice recov]$ self-possession & induc$ h] fri5d to g on ) ! exp]im5t4 ,b ! *a9 0 brok51 ,plan*ette refus$ to move aga94 ,/ill1 ,mrs4 ,dor+ _h en\gh to dwell ^u4 ,late into ! night %e lay awake1 ?9k+ ( x1 m>vel+ at x & rejoic+ 9 ! new light t _h come to h]4 ,true1 x 0 a little ?+1 p]haps1 or might appe> s to ^? :o are ev] ready to make havoc ( :atev] diff]s f ! usual & accept$1 b its possibilities might be limitless1 & already x _h exp&$ h] _w into inf9ity4 ,:atev] ! intellig5ce t act$ ?r\gh ,plan*ette might be1 x 0 subject to a law 9 its manife/ations1 ( :i* z yet %e knew next to no?+4 ,= m light !reon %e mu/ /udy by exp]im5t4 ,simple z ?is law appe>$ to be 9 its op]ations1 x 0 mighty 9 its results1 s9ce x annihilat$ space & de/roy$ dea?1 ! la/ & greate/ enemy ^: de/ruction has long be5 =etold4 ,b are n all nature's laws a/oni%+ly simple1 :5 und]/ood8 ,s simple t ! se>*] aft] k1 fill$ ) delusion t x 0 af> (f on inaccessible heights1 = ages pass$ !m by1 trod !m "u foot1 t\*$ !m at e turn1 yet f\nd !m n4 ,a few ev5+s lat] ! two fri5ds 7 ready to beg9 ! fasc9at+ "w ( exp]im5t+ ) ,plan*ette1 ! ,butt]fly's t9y h& re/+ on its he>t-%ap$ back1 invit+ x to action4 ,0 ev] prie/ess ( ! occult s emphatically a creature ( worldly attributes z %e8 ,h] pretty face1 s(t1 fair hair1 slight1 graceful figure modi%ly attir$1 & g5tle be>+ convey$ no sugge/ion ( p[] to reveal hidd5 my/]ies4 ,9 sil5ce !y wait$ a little :ile1 ,plan*ette z /ill z c\ld be4 ,!n1 unexpect$ly x :irl$ away at a />tl+ pace1 ) a =ce well-nigh resi/less4 ,:5 x rea*$ ! end ( ! pap]1 :i* completely cov]$ ! table1 !y pick$ x up & c>ri$ x back to ! place ( beg9n+1 ! h& ( ! pretty prie/ess 0 replac$1 & x w5t on at te>+ spe$1 until its message 0 f9i%$4 ,!n !y look$ & saw ?is 9 big1 firm *irography3 8,love laughs at ,dea? z well z at locksmi?s--,pagan40 ,c>tice read x al\d ) a :it5+ face & />+ eyes4 8,prescott60 %e :isp]$1 ) a husky voice1 motion+ to ,*rissalyn to put h] h& aga9 on ,plan*ette4 ,pagan 0 a "n %e _h giv5 him & :i* he delight$ 91 ?\gh unkn[n to any b h]4 ,! little bo>d :irl$ away aga9 ) ! same det]m9$ sw+4 ,its v movem5ts 7 *>act]i/ic ( him1 :o _h ev] a trace ( savag5ess & fi]c5ess 9 all he did & mu* t he said4 ,^! 7 its words3 8,butt]fly1 tell h] :at ,i told y z we w5t home t la/ night40 ,n[ ,*rissalyn began to tremble & te>s gu%$ f h] %9+ eyes4 ,! conviction t x 0 ,prescott :o ?us sil5tly spoke to !m came to h] ) ov]:elm+ =ce4 8,c>tice1 x is ,prescott1 ,i am sure4 ,he lov$ y ) all 8 he>t1 & y "k h[ int5se t he>t 0 9 ev]y?+4 ,i saw x f ! v day ,i introduc$ him to y at ! m>ket h\se1 :5 we w5t to he> ,gabriel ,norris prea*4 ,he ador$ y1 b nev] spoke ( x1 & y 7 too bl9d & _h too little vanity to see x4 ,b t la/ night be=e 8 dea?1 :5 he & ,i 7 walk+ home toge!r aft] we _h sp5t ! ev5+ ) y1 he told me ab\t x4 ,y rememb] he spoke ( hav+ a pres5tim5t t happ9ess 0 ne> him1 & he look$ almo/ transfigur$ t night4 ,he said he believ$ t someh[ y w\ld soon be free f y\r husb&1 & !n he w\ld take y :e!r or no4 ,he swore to t4 ,b ! next morn+ he 0 dead4 ,t's :at he wants me to tell--t's :at he means :5 he says #8,love laughs at dea? z well z at locksmi?s4' ,he is ! same--j ! same k9d1 fi]ce old savage4 ,he loves y /ill40 8,:y1 ,butt]fly1 ?is is a/oni%+10 said ,c>tice1 9 amazem5t4 8,i ?\ght y & he lov$ ea* o!r1 & t y 7 made = ea* o!r40 8,i lov$ him2 b he lov$ y1 n me40 ,?is t\*$ ,mrs4 ,dor+ beyond h] p[] to express4 ,%e tri$ to speak1 b c\ld say no?+1 = a great lump1 l a live coal1 _h clos$ h] ?roat4 8,i 0 nev] jeal\s10 cont9u$ ,*rissalyn1 8no1 nev]2 b a trifle melan*oly at times1 wi%+ he lov$ me in/ead ( y1 because ,i saw t y didn't love him1 only z a good comrade1 & didn't "k t he lov$ y4 ,if y _h lov$ him ,i don't ?9k ,i %\ld h be5 jeal\s1 because ,i love y s mu*40 ,bo? pairs ( eyes 7 moi/ n[4 ,c>tice re>rang$ ,plan*ette1 & aft] kiss+ h] fri5d's da9ty h& plac$ x !reon aga94 8,yes2 x is true1 ,i love y1 ,c>tice1 & did f ! beg9n+10 wrote ! little bo>d1 ) ! same impetu\s da%4 8,i ?ank y = tell+ me10 said ,c>tice1 humbly4 8,b h[ are we to be sure t y are ,prescott4 ,give u a pro( if y c1 ?\gh x be only to write y\r "n 9 ! old way40 8,gordon ,prescott10 0 in/antly & rapidly writt5 9 ! firm1 %>p-po9t$ h&writ+ *>act]i/ic ( ! man--a good fac-simile ( ! orig9al signature1 ev5 )\t mak+ all[ance = ! clums9ess ( ! implem5t4 ,!n came 8,good-night0 9 ! same h&1 & no?+ c\ld induce ,plan*ette to fur!r movem5t4 ,!y talk$ x ov]4 ,ev5 ,*rissalyn 0 int]e/$4 ,prescott writ+ ?r\gh ,plan*ette did n seem l dead p com+ back 9 ! gruesome way %e dread$4 ,r 0 x z ?\gh he _h nev] di$1 b only become invisible4 ,!re 0 no?+ ab\t ?is to inspire t]ror4 ,aft] ! fir/ surprise ( x1 x ev5 seem$ natural2 & x 0 a pleasure to h a ^w f him1 ?\gh x 7 ( 8 love = ano!r4 ,:at matt]8 ,%e lov$ him1--t 0 en\gh4 ,& x 0 a com=t to "k t he 0 sometimes ne>1 9 spite ( ! fact t %e _h believ$ dead p ought to keep to !mselves4 ,h[ev]1 ) ,prescott x 0 diff]5t4 ,someh[ he 0 n dead p4 ,!n1 too1 ! prie/ess _h h] vanity--a /reak ( ! k9d t wants appreciation = h] ability z well z h] beauty4 ,c>tice's gifts ( p5 & p5cil %e _h crav$1 if n envi$4 ,n[ t %e knew %e _h a p[] h] fri5d _h n--"o :i* ,c>tice ?\ght ( ine/imable value--%e saw t ?is gave h] additional importance 9 ,mrs4 ,dor+'s eyes1 h5ce %e secretly plum$ h]self a little4 ,%e cons5t$ to cont9u+ _! exp]im5ts ) ,plan*ette on condition t no "o else %\ld ev] be told4 ,7 x kn[n1 %e w\ld be call$ a 8_s m$ium10 & t w\ld be disgraceful1 un5durable4 ,!y might say almo/ any?+ else ( h] & %e w\ldn't m9d2 b to h t "n fa/5$ ^u h] w\ld be a calamity4 ,a 8m$ium60 ,to h] ! ^w 0 beyond words 9 its despicable significance4 ,7 n m$iums a disreputable ord] ( human buzz>ds1 :o prey$ ^u ! cr$ulity & holie/ emotions ( hone/ folk8 ,7 !y n despis$1 abhorr$1 %unn$ & fe>$ by ! bett] class ( society8 ,7 !y n ignorant1 fr[sy1 ugly & g5]ally dirty8 ,did !y n inv>iably say 8sect0 :5 !y meant 8sex10 & talk m9d-weak5+ twaddle ab\t 8controls10 8influ5ces10 8impressions0 & s on1 9 ,engli% t 0 9 op5 w>f>e ) all grammatical rules8 ,& 7 !y n frequ5tly *ummy ) invisible ,indians1--go+ ab\t boa/+ t !y 7 con/antly att5d$ by "s 8,blackhawk10 8,fire-eye10 8,?und]-,tongue10 8,yell[ ,fea!r10 or 8,cr[-on-!-head10 :o made !m ! m\?pieces ( idiotic gibb]+8 ,d !y n come out ( cab9ets1 we>+ trail+ robes & t9 cr[ns1 try+ to palm !mselves (f z dead & gone k+s & que5s8 ,h !y n an uncanny aff9ity = tables8 ,& d !y n talk ?r\gh trumpets1 r+ bells & play o!r /upid pranks & lay ! blame ( x all on ! def5celess dead8 ,_h !y n ?r[n discr$it ^u ,noah ,web/] himself1 accus+ him ( a writt5 message :i* said1 8,x is tite times08 ,truly _! s9s 7 z sc>let4 ,c>tice admitt$ _! iniquities )\t argum5t1 & promis$ h] fri5d t nev]1 nev]1 ev5 9 h] mo/ secret ?\ghts w\ld %e call h] a m$ium1 mu* less brea! ! opprobri\s epi!t to o!rs4 ,!y w5t pati5tly on ) _! inve/igation1 devot+ two ev5+s a week to ,plan*ette & tell+ no "o4 ,x 0 by no means all fair wea!r "w ei!r4 ,!y soon f\nd t ! only ?+ !y c\ld be sure ( 0 t !y c\ld dep5d on no?+2 t ) ! intellig5ce :i* manipulat$ ,plan*ette no contract c\ld be made4 ,!y came1 or !y came n1 j z x suit$ _! good pleasure1 & 7 ob$i5t to no m&ate or appeal4 ,!y 7 arbitr>y always1 &1 z 9 mo/ affairs ( life1 x 0 ! unexpect$ t happ5$4 ,f :at ! inve/igators c\ld le>n1 x w\ld seem1 z ,mr4 ,w4 ,t4 ,/ead says1 t al?\gh ?is _w is que] ! next appe>s to be que]]4 ,z !y w5t on1 !y held m & m to ! belief t !y 7 actually communicat+ ) p]sons :o _h liv$ 9 fle%-&-blood bodies l our own1 & :o /ill liv$1 reta9+ ! same *>act]i/ics t di/+ui%$ !m "h1 b invisible to our eyes--inhabitants p]haps ( ! mu* discuss$ ,f\r? ,dim5sion ( ,space4 ,at lea/1 "o & all repres5t$ !mselves z ! p]sons :om we call dead1 b :o live--live 9 a fre]1 l>g] life4 ,occasionally !y gave pro(s ( _! id5tity s conv9c+ t all d\bt vani%$4 ,!y made x cle> t ! sp>k ( div9ity we call individuality is a p]si/5t1 inde/ructible1 dea?less ?+4 ,aga91 messages 7 writt5 :i* 7 n only trifl+ & valueless1 b also unsettl+4 ,h[ev]1 ,c>tice & ! pretty prie/ess w5t on1 feel+ _! way ?r\gh laws z yet sc>cely disc]nible1 b /up5d\s4 ,x 0 soon evid5t t ea* _s c\ld manife/ its individuality ?r\gh ,plan*ette z =cibly & unmi/akably z is done "h by means ( epi/ol>y correspond5ce--m cle>ly1 p]haps1 s9ce :5 ! little bo>d writes1 its movem5ts & g5]al behavior betray ! mann]isms ( ! unse5 writ]4 ,:5 a woman spoke ?r\gh x ! fem99e t\* 0 unmi/akable1 & ! writ+ itself %[$ ! f9] elem5t ( fem99ity4 ,x mu/ be rememb]$ t ! ,butt]fly1 z ! visible op]ator1 0 simply "p ( ! implem5t4 ,! real writ]s 7 inhabitants ( ! unse5 _w4 ,^! ! two inve/igators sometimes spoke ( z spirits1 ?\gh !y realiz$ t assur$ly !y 7 p l ourselves1 ?\gh exi/+ "u diff]5t conditions4 ,!y 7 spirits1 )\t d\bt2 yet s are we1 ?\gh mo/ ( u are unaw>e ( our true be+4 ,b few wom5 came4 ,c>tice 0 surpris$ at ?is1 & ask$ "o ! reason :y4 ,%e said ! m5 7 /rong]1 & 7 s eag] to write t !y cr[d$ wom5 out & took possession ( ! opportunity4 ,h5ce x may be suppos$ t mascul9e selfi%ness is n elim9at$ f ! "* by dropp+ ! body1 & t :at we call brute /r5g?1 7:i* is 9 reality1 /r5g? ( ! _s7 is /ill =midable :]e bodies1 z we "k !m1 are n4 ,x 0 noticeable t ^! invisible folk seldom spoke ( !mselves z dead4 ,!y _h almo/ no use = ! ^w4 ,!y spoke ( ^? we call liv+ z 8p /ill ) y10 & ( ^? :om we call dead z 8) u40 ,:5 ask$ if !y knew su* & su* a p]son1 !y sometimes met ! "q ) ! inquiry1 8,is he ) y or ) u80 ,at times !y readily wrote dur+ a :ole ev5+1 fir/ "o1 !n ano!r1 & s on1 ea* writ] %[+ a diff]5t p]sonality by means ( mann]1 *irography1 /yle ( spee* & "* ( ?\ght4 ,at su* times page aft] page z l>ge z ! table top w\ld be cov]$4 ,aga91 ev5+s w\ld pass ) b trifl+ results1 & n[ & !n no communication :atev] w\ld be receiv$4 ,nor c\ld ! inve/igators le>n ! reason ( ?is4 ,simply1 s x 01 & ! fact _h to be accept$ )\t explanation4 ,! revelations 7 n always s]i\s4 ,occasionally !y 7 ( cl[n-l jollity1 evid5tly proce$+ f cl[ni% intellects4 ,frequ5tly ! writ]s refus$ to give any clue to _! id5tity1 & z = names !re 0 a palpable avoidance ( !m t 0 puzzl+4 ,occasionally a "n w\ld be giv5 z readily z :5 its own] 0 "h1 b usually fri5ds & acqua9tances reveal$ !mselves by _! peculi> *>act]i/ics & ref]5ces to pa/ ev5ts1 & ?is1 ( c\rse1 0 ! bett] me?od1 z any mis*iev\s _s c\ld pret5d to be somebody else1 if names 7 ! sole reliance4 ,prescott came (t51 & 0 always unmi/akably ,prescott4 ,transition _h n *ang$ him4 ,8 individuality1 s orig9al1 di/9ct & /rong1 0 z conspicu\s & recognizable1 reveal$ ?r\gh ! little bo>d1 z :5 he _h m+l$ ) m51 utt]+ himself boldly1 )\t fe> or favor4 ,sometimes he bur/ ^u 8 two fai?ful fri5ds l a tornado1 mak+ ,plan*ette fly fi]cely4 ,!y c\ld almo/ see him sweep o!rs aside & take possession4 ,8 spee* 0 crisp1 ke5 & sp>kl+1 z 9 ! old days1 b1 if possible1 he 0 less communicative ab\t himself ?an ev]4 ,:5 !y que/ion$ him on t po9t1 he made neat evasions2 b !y ga!r$ ! impression t he 0 n entirely satisfi$4 ,?\gh he did n say s1 !y c\ld n help feel+ t ! activities ( life "h /ill attract$ him1 & t he 0 n cont5t at be+ unable to take "p 9 !m4 ,rememb]+ 8 sne]s & je]s at all belief 9 ! ext5sion ( life beyond dea?1 9 :atev] =m1 ,c>tice rem9d$ him ( !m1 & ask$ :at he ?\ght n[ ( 8 previ\s errors4 ,) 8 cu/om>y frankness he answ]$3 8,i 0 a fool !n2 b ,i confess n[ t ,i always believ$ f> m ?an ,i w\ld h ackn[l$g$4 ,i 0 afraid y w\ld ?9k me weak if ,i admitt$ all ,i ?\ght possible4 ,i 0 a c[>d1 y see1 ?\gh ,i %[$ preci\s little m]cy to o!r c[>ds40 ,!n %e ask$ ab\t 8 pres5tim5t ( happ9ess on 8 la/ ev5+ on e>?1 & he answ]$3 8,i suppose x 0 giv5 me s ,i might "k t ! end ( tr\ble & turmoil 0 at h&2 b ,i 0 bl9d1 z y all are1 & did n und]/&40 ,%e begg$ him to relate 8 exp]i5ces 9 ! new life f 8 fir/ mom5t ( consci\sness4 ,to ?is entreaty he repli$3 8,i w try to d s sometime :5 ,i am bett] in/ruct$ ?an n[4 ,z yet ,i am too new "h to tell y :at y wi% to "k4 ,i h mu* to le>n be=e ,i c be a safe tea*] = anybody40 ,to _m que/ions he made nei!r answ] nor apology = 8 failure to answ]4 ,x 0 pla9 t he c\ld n1 w\ld n or d>e n tell mu* ab\t ! life he 0 n[ liv+4 ,once 9 response to a p>ticul>ly direct "q be>+ on t1 he said1 ) a %ade ( sadness 9 ! words3 8,wait 9 pati5ce1 & be z happy z y c till y\r "t comes40 ,& aga93 8,c\ld y b see h[ ?+s are c>ri$ on "h y w\ld "k h[ fooli% "s ( y\r que/ions are40 ,f ?is !y ga!r$ t conditions 9 ! unse5 _w are va/ly diff]5t f ^? we are famili> ) "h1 b 9 :at respect !y c\ld =m no idea4 ,he _h be5 a /rong advocate ( cremation4 ,:5 ask$ if he /ill held to 8 =m] op9ions on t subject1 he said3 8,to u x makes no diff]5ce :at is done ) ! c>cass4 ,to y x is important t x does n endang] ! public heal?40 ,once :5 ,c>tice rem>k$ to h] fri5d1 z !y sat toge!r await+ ,plan*ette's pleasure1 t p]haps ! disembodi$ p suff] because ( ! de/ruction ( _! bodies1 ,prescott sprang ^u !m 9 a k9d ( fury1 writ+ ) savage ha/e3 8,d y suff] :5 y cut y\r f+]-nails & ?r[ away ! cutt+s8 ,or :5 y clip y\r hair & burn ! clipp+s8 ,! body is ( ! same "*1 m]e wa/e mat]ial--ca/-(f clo!s40 ,:5 ask$ :y he did n always come :5 !y call$ him & await$ him1 he said3 8,i wi% y und]/ood4 ,i come :5 possible1 b ,i _c always control ! matt]40 ,sometimes ,c>tice & ,*rissalyn devot$ an aft]noon to ,plan*ette1 b g5]ally ) less satisfactory results ?an :5 !y exp]im5t$ 9 ! ev5+4 ,! reason ( ?is !y c\ld n fix ^u until ,prescott gave !m a clue4 ,on "o su* occasion1 he said ) petulance3 8,:y d y call u 9 ! broad day1 :5 we c give y m satisfaction at night8 ,day is y\r "t = action1 b night is ours4 ,life "h is ! anti!sis ( life ) y4 ,conditions are rev]s$40 8,may we inquire :y y _c d s well = u 9 ! daytime :5 y d come80 ,mrs4 ,dor+ ask$1 humbly4 8,because ! vibrations ( light are de/ructive to ! p[] we make use ( = purposes ( communication ) y40 ,?is1 !n1 is a rational explanation ( ! d>k sances s mu* condemn$ by p]sons unacqua9t$ ) psy*ic law1 & :i*1 unhappily af=d su* f9e opportunities = knavi% deception4 8,y speak ( our call+ y4 ,does x really call y :5 we sit ) ! ,plan*ette & ask = y80 8,yes2 ?r\gh a law x w\ld be difficult = y to und]/&1 h[ev] c>efully ,i might try to expla9 x4 ,ev5 ,i z yet compreh5d x b dimly4 ,y\r ?\ght rea*es u1 = ?\ght is omnipot5t 9 all ! univ]se1 & is ! f9e/ =m ( electricity :i* travels ) incr$ible spe$4 ,y\r desire is a great =ce go+ =? to draw to y :at y desire4 ,! law ( dem& is met by ! law ( supply ?r\gh\t all worlds1 :5 x is prop]ly set 9 motion4 ,y\r sitt+ expectantly1 ) ,plan*ette z ! in/rum5t ( communication1 makes a magnetic c5tre1 a v]itable telegraph (fice to :i* we c come & ?r\gh :i* we c transmit messages4 ,x is all done "u law1 & s is ev]y?+ 9 ! univ]se4 ,f9d out ! laws t gov]n y\r own be+ & !re is no limit to y\r p[]s40 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,& ,,! ,,prophet ,,0 ,,/on$4 ,^? :o believe1 z ,i d1 t spiritual be+s c & d1 subject to g5]al laws & = c]ta9 purposes1 communicate ) u1 & ev5 produce mat]ial effects 9 ! _w ar\nd u1 mu/ see 9 ! /eady advance ( inquiry & ( int]e/ 9 ^! que/ions ! assurance t1 s f> z _! beliefs are logical d$uctions f ! ph5om5a !y h witness$1 ^? beliefs w at no di/ant date be accept$ by all tru?-seek+ inquir]s4--,alfr$ ,russell ,wallace4 ,"o ,sunday aft]noon :5 ! two fri5ds sat toge!r1 ) ,plan*ette z telephone to ! invisible _w1 ! responses 7 unusually prompt & full1 = a daytime ef=t4 ,prescott came & 0 9 a mo/ oblig+ mood1 z *>m+ z ( old4 ,)\t w>n+1 :5 9 ! middle ( a long s5t5ce t he 0 writ+ at 8 usual furi\s pace1 "s invisible =ce drew ! ,butt]fly's arm f ,plan*ette & s5t ! little bo>d fly+ across ! room4 ,at ! same in/ant %e rose1 rais$ h] "r h& & po9t$ directly be=e h]1 h] face a%y & an une>?ly look 9 h] dilat$ eyes4 ,/ra9+ h] faculty ( sight ,c>tice look$ 9 ! direction ( h] fri5d's out/ret*$ f+]1 b saw no?+4 ,9 a few seconds ! beautiful se]ess sank to h] *air exhau/$1 ) dry m\? & /iff5$ tongue1 l "o :o returns to consci\sness aft] a deep fa9t4 ,mrs4 ,dor+ ru%$ = wat] = h] to dr9k1 & cologne ) :i* to lave h] face1 embrac$ h]1 & soo!d h] ) reassur+ words until %e 0 h]self aga91 ?\gh m subdu$ & humble ?an ev] be=e4 8,:at 0 x1 de>80 ask$ ,c>tice at la/4 8,prescott10 %e gasp$4 8,he 0 z real 9 appe>ance z ev] ,i saw him 9 life4 ,! sc> on 8 left *eek 0 pla91 & ! too? 9 front t _h be5 built up ) gold 0 j z x us$ to be1 = he smil$ & ,i saw x di/9ctly4 ,he spoke1 b ,i c\ld n und]/& :at he said4 ,he came s sudd51 & ,i 0 s fright5$4 ,i hope he w nev] d t aga94 ,x gives me a horrible feel+ to see any ( !m40 ,aft] a little coax+ %e t\*$ ,plan*ette aga91 to ask an explanation ( ! s+ul> occurr5ce4 8,i did n mean to fright5 y1 poor *ild10 wrote ,prescott1 8b ,i want$ to see if ,i c\ld make myself visible to y = an in/ant4 ,! exhau/ion y exp]i5c$ aft]w>d 0 n all ow+ to fright4 ,9 ord] to appe> to y ,i took a c]ta9 sub/ance f y\r body ) :i* to make myself visible4 ,i made my body1 = ! mom5t1 out ( y\rs4 ,t leaves y weak]1 b :at ,i took w be re/or$ to y4 ,?is vital sub/ance is ev]y:]e1 & y\r body1 be+ a magnet1 attracts x to y1 p>ticul>ly :5 y are out doors 9 ! sunlight4 ,oh1 if y b knew ! valve ( sun%9e1 & air--pure1 fre% air40 8,:y c\ldn't ,i see y1 too80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,i %\ld n be fright5$2 b ev5 s1 ,i am will+ to be40 8,i h tri$ to lift ! veil f y\r eyes1 b _c40 8,b ! sc> & ! too? ( gold8 ,7 !y n ( ! ca/-(f body only1 or d y h !m /ill80 %e ask$4 8,! human eye mu/ h t ) :i* to id5tify ^? f ?is side1 s !y are simulat$ z !y la/ appe>$ 9 ! fle%40 ,"o ev5+1 :5 ano!r 0 writ+1 ,plan*ette 0 unexpect$ly & viol5tly flung to ! floor1 by a bl[ on ! ,butt]fly's delicate arm1 f an unse5 h&4 ,:5 ord] _h be5 re/or$1 ,prescott took possession1 & x 0 pla9 to be se5 t he 0 agitat$4 ,he wrote3 8,i tri$ to prev5t t1 b c\ld n4 ,*rissalyn mu/ be prep>$ to expect almo/ any?+4 ,! situation "h is incompreh5sible to y40 8,:at is x t makes ! ,butt]fly a m$ium1 if %e w p>don ! ^w80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,some?+ = :i* !re is yet no prop] ^w4 ,y w\ld call x1 magnetism4 ,%e is wond]ful1--p[]ful1 magnetic to ! dead1 z y call u1 z well z to ! liv+--y _c imag9e h[ mu*40 ,c>tice _h ev] be5 s5sible ( a p[]ful & unacc\ntable attraction 9 h] fri5d4 ,%e _h always lov$ to wat* ,*rissalyn1 %e knew n :y1 lov$ to be ne> h] & nev] we>i$ ( h]4 ,= o!rs1 bo? m5 & wom51 ! ,butt]fly possess$ ! same attraction4 ,if %e want$ to ensn>e ! mo/ w>y mascul9e mortal1 %e _h only to ca/ h] eyes ^u him & he 0 h]s4 ,if %e wi%$ = ! good-w or fri5d%ip ( a woman1 a smile & a pleasant ^w or two 7 all %e ne$ give 9 ord] to ga9 x4 8,tell me1 :at is magnetism80 0 ! next "q4 8,a p[] we _c see b c feel--! p[] t attracts ?r\gh all nature1 b ,i _c def9e x1 = z yet ,i "k v little ab\t x myself40 ,:5 ask$ to expla9 8 mann] ( us+ ,plan*ette1 ,prescott said3 8,:5 ! ,butt]fly's h& re/s ^u x we /& beh9d h]1 ) our h&s above h]s--a few in*es above--& we move h] h& & ,plan*ette by ! p[] ( magnetism40 8,:y c't y use my h& z well z h]s80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,because y are a positive4 ,y\r magnetism is ( ! controll+ & n ! controllable k9d40 ,e>ly 9 h] inve/igations ,mrs4 ,dor+ le>n$ t ! p on ! unse5 side ( life are l unto ^? se51 9 t !re are good & bad1 wise & fooli%1 busy & idle1 tru?-tell]s & li>s1 sane & insane4 ,"* !re is exactly :at x 0 "h1 gr[+ bett] if x aspire & worse if x be indiff]5t to gr[?1 = evolution app>5tly goes on =ev] & =ev]4 ,%e le>n$1 too1 t a message 0 n necess>ily infallible1 because x came f t we call a _s4 ,frequ5tly x 0 w(ully fallible4 ,li>s w lie & ! mis*iev\s make mis*ief :]ev] !y are4 ,9 %ort1 undevelop$ s\ls1 no matt] :]e !y dwell1 give v direct evid5ce ( _! imp]fection4 ,yet1 all ?+s consid]$1 ,c>tice met comp>atively few ob/acles 9 h] /udy ( psy*ic life & law4 ,mu*1 to be sure1 0 inexplicable & p]plex+2 b t :i* 0 satisfy+ outweigh$ all t 0 di%e>t5+4 ,to ! h>mony exi/+ betwe5 ,*rissalyn & h]self %e attribut$ ! rem>kable success ( _! ef=ts1 h>mony be+ ! key to all ! secrets & =ces ( nature4 ,!n too !y sat ) bus9ess-l regul>ity4 ,n[ %e und]/ood :y ! 8conditions0 = :i* pr(essional m$iums are su* not$ /ickl]s1 are necess>y4 ,:5 we /op to ?9k ( x1 we see t we mu/ comply ) prescrib$ conditions to d any?+4 ,if we s5d a lett] ?r\gh ! po/ (fice1 ! conditions impos$ oblige u to /amp x prop]ly & po/ x4 ,if we m]ely write ! lett] & fl+ x out ( ! w9d[1 ignor+ ! ne$ful conditions1 mo/ assur$ly x w nev] rea* its de/9ation4 ,if we wi% to make a j\rney ! conditions oblige u to g abo>d :atev] railroad c>riage or %ip w take u :]e we want to g4 ,! k ga9$ ?r\gh ,plan*ette 0 preci\s beyond price to ,mrs4 ,dor+4 8,is x n ! answ] to ! riddle ( ! ages80 %e ask$ h]self4 8,does x n *ange ! face ( ev]y?+1 by giv+ u n only ! key to dea?1 b to ! great my/]y ( life8 ,9 ! light ( ?is k life takes on an importance1 a sacr$ness & responsibility =m]ly inconceivable4 ,h]et(ore we h hop$ t x goes on beyond ! de/ruction ( ! body1 n[ we "k x does1 & t we are %ap+ our de/9y by e ?\ght & act--build+ inde$ = et]nity4 8,( :at mom5t are ! ills ( life "h1 ) ?is glori\s vi/a be=e u8 ,:o1 hav+ se5 ?is light1 ne$ be ca/ d[n by any e>?ly tr\ble8 ,9 ! face ( x are n all ! exp]i5ces :i* wr+ our he>ts & dra9 u ( our te>s m]e fictions or illusions8 8,s9ce ,dea? is dead1 :at is !re to affright or di/ress u8 ,?\gh to-day be lo/1 to-morr[ is ours4 ,?\gh our de> ones pass out ( sight !re is nei!r sep>ation nor b]eavem5t4 ,sci5tific k makes x pla9 t immortality is n dep5d5t ^u belief2 b is a fact 9 nature4 ,?\gh we may w&] 9 any "p ( ! univ]se !re is no?+ to fe>1 = we are inde/ructible4 ,disease1 w>1 accid5t1 e t]ror kn[n to man1 is swept out ( exi/5ce by ?is indisputable demon/ration ( our dea?lessness4 8,h[ poor & pitiful is ! pursuit ( happ9ess 9 :i* all engage "h1 :5 se5 by ! light ( ?is revelation6 ,is x n cle> z sun%9e t ! purpose ( life is n happ9ess1 z we mis9t]pret ! ^w1 b gr[?8 ,& h[ %all we gr[8 ,by gett+ k ( law & liv+ accord+ to t k4 ,!n we ne$ seek no m = happ9ess = x w be "o ( our inde/ructible possessions--! happ9ess = :i* nature de/9$ u1 b :i* consi/s n 9 ext]nal conditions1 b int]nal developm5t40 ,"u ! influ5ce ( ?is k ,mrs4 ,dor+ became trans=m$ into a new be+4 ,h] previ\s life n[ seem$ to h be5 simply a bl9d grop+ aft] ! mo/ un/able & fooli% ideals1--a m intellectual *ildhood4 ,s uplift$ & fill$ to ov]fl[+ 0 %e ) joy & gratitude t h] face took on a new beauty t impress$ ev5 ! lea/ obs]v+ ( h] fri5ds4 ,b "o flavor ( bitt]ness t+$ h] cup1 & t 0 t %e 0 =bidd5 to %>e ! glad tid+s ) o!rs4 ,*rissalyn _h be5 insi/5t t no?+ be told1 & ,c>tice 0 oblig$ to yield to h] rul+ on ?is po9t1 & also saw ! necessity = x1 b long$ f]v5tly to ga!r 9 _m dwell+ 9 d>kness & %>e h] light ) !m4 ,:y hide x "u ! bu%el ( timidity8 ,0 n all ! _w se>*+ = t :i* _h come 9 beautiful simplicity & g5]\s fulness to h]8 ,h[ grateful o!rs w\ld be to "k :at %e knew8 ,%e 0 humbly1 pr(\ndly grateful1 & ( c\rse !y1 too1 w\ld be4 ,aft] a "t ?is p5t-up f\nta9 began to ov]run its bord]s & trickle its way to o!r e>s4 ,:5 %e he>d p bewail+ ! difficult & cruel conditions "u :i* !y suff]$1 %e c\ld n help giv+ ( h] inexhau/ible /ore ( com=t4 ,%e mu/ say to !m1 8,^! ?+s are unreal & ( no mom5t4 ,y\r true life is above & beyond !m always1 & is ( unlimit$ possibilities "h & h]eaft]40 ,& :5 !y wept because ( "s sla9 lamb1 %e said1 8,he is n dead2 he nev] di$ & nev] %all die4 ,?is is an appe>ance only1 an illusion4 ,!re is no dea?4 ,life goes on1 on1 )\t end1 ,i "k x40 ,9 ord] t !y might believe & be com=t$1 %e relat$ ! exp]i5ces on :i* h] assurances 7 bas$1 leav+ out ,*rissalyn's "n1 ( c\rse4 ,%e met ! fate ( all :o h lov+ly tri$ to set poor1 ignorant humanity free f its self-impos$ *a9s4 ,%e 0 /on$4 ,"s he>d h] ) tol]ant pity1 z we humor weak-m9d$ p by pret5d+ to accept _! /atem5ts & vag>ies1 b turn$ f ! subject z quickly z !y c\ld4 ,n a few sne]$ op5ly1 & ) ! brutal frankness ( small & self-satisfi$ m9ds co>sely express$ _! contempt = h] cr$ulity4 ,o!rs patroniz+ly said !y believ$ 9 h] hone/y1 b 7 positive %e 0 be+ deceiv$4 ,/ill o!rs %rugg$ _! %\ld]s 9 disgu/1 say+ t !y loa!d ! 8sup]natural10 & w\ld none ( x4 ,?is b5ight$ class labels _! dead ) t obnoxi\s ^w & %oves !m out ( m9d z quickly z possible4 ,"s ( ! contemptible creatures :o adv]tise _! lack ( intellig5ce & bre$+ by putt+ _! h&s ov] _! m\? :5 !y talk to hide _! impolite & ignorant gr9n+1 c\ld n li/5 to ,c>tice ) nak$ lips at all4 ,b p]haps %e 0 mo/ a/oni%$ at ! 8conv5tional believ]s :o disbelieve10 ^? :o accept all ! _s manife/ations describ$ 9 ! book ( _! fai?1 yet reject ev]y?+ mod]n t helps to prove ! tru? ( !m4 ,"s li/5$ to h] /ory & !n ask$ ! surpris+1 ! a/\nd+ "q3 8,:at good c come ( x all1 ev5 if x be true80 ,if ! dead did n come to tell !m h[ to make =tunate f9ancial speculations1 or :om !y are de/9$ to m>ry1 !y saw no use 9 _! com+ at all4 ,"h & !re ,mrs4 ,dor+ enc\nt]$ "s :o took int]e/ 9 h] revelations z a matt] ( curiosity1 & want$ to gratify _! love ( wond]-mong]+1 by see+ ,plan*ette at "w4 ,a few1 a sacr$ few1 gave rev]5t e>1 & 7 eag] to le>n all !y c\ld ( ! m>vel\s & my/]i\s ?+ call$ life2 b ^! _h become z little *ildr5--receptive1 & !re=e 7 prep>$ to ent] ! k+dom ( k1 :i* is heav54 ,b1 alas6 = ! un=tunate _m :o _c be enlight5$1 because !y are already wise 9 _! own conceit4 ,hav+ liv$ "h a score or two ( ye>s !y fancy !y "k all ! ,creator's plans & purposes & c le>n no m4 ,at ! door ( _! m9d !y po/ a s5t9el arm$ ) a club1 ^: duty x is to beat & drive away any /ray angel 9 ! guise ( a ?\ght or idea t may w&] ne>4 ,"s :o did n want to be di/urb$ 9 _! enjoym5t ( ?+s ext]nal1 petti%ly said3 8,all y tell may be true1 b "o _w at a "t is my motto40 ,yet any "o :o said t a *ild %\ld be left un9/ruct$ & unprep>$ = ! gr[n-up life ahead ( him w\ld1 v appropriately1 be call$ a fool4 ,c>tice le>n$ :at all prophets & tea*]s h le>n$ to _! co/--t ! _w is 9 bondage to its own ignorance1 because x refuses to be lib]at$4 ,! m9ds ( m5 are 9 ?rall to a law we h b rec5tly nam$--! law ( hypnotism1 :i* is at once bo? ! ag5t ( d>kness & ( light4 ,ev]ybody lives cont9ually "u hypnotic influ5ce1 o!rwise ! p[] ( sugge/ion4 ,:at we call public op9ion is ?\ght t has mass$ itself into a b>ri] s =midable t only spirits ! mo/ h]oic & dauntless d>e assail x4 ,! _m are fus$ toge!r z "o & become a gigantic hypnotiz] ( m54 ,x has be5 demon/rat$ a million times t if !re is any?+ a man _c d x is to /& out aga9/ ! unit$ ?\ght ( 8 fell[ m54 ,human be+s1 = ! mo/ "p1 are 9 slav]y to :atev] ?\ght has =m$ _! environm5t1 8z neat prison]s z ev] slept 9 jails40 ,9 o!r words !y are hypnotiz$ & refuse to be ar\s$ f _! hypnotic sleep4 ,all :o all[ o!rs to d _! ?9k+ live & die 9 a hypnotic trance4 ,! ?\ght t is /eadily ?r[n ^u ! m9ds ( *ildr5 ye> aft] ye> usually hypnotizes !m = life4 ,?is is prov5 9 _! religi\s lean+s4 ,! majority foll[ ! lead ( _! p>5ts & x is ! same 9 politics4 ,! boy is a democrat or republican1 because 8 fa!r 04 ,we call x ! =ce ( e>ly education1 b we might z well say e>ly hypnotism4 ,! press is ! greate/ ( hypnotic op]ators4 ,x makes public op9ion ?r\gh ! hypnotic pr9ciple4 ,its daily reit]ation puts ! m9ds ( impressionable read]s into z pr(\nd a hypnotic trance z any pr(essional op]ator ev] a*ieves4 ,e orator :o sways 8 audi5ce does s by means ( ! hypnotic law1 & e writ] :o ?rills 8 read]s sets ! same law 9 motion4 ,9 x lies ! p[] ( all gov]nm5t1 f ! primitive pat]nal to ! broade/ ,republic ! e>? has yet produc$--! w ( ! passably intellig5t few is impos$ ^u ! less intellig5t _m4 ,ev5 ! mo/ pot5t =ce kn[n--! attraction t draws ! sexes toge!r1 op]ates l>gely ?r\gh hypnotism1 or sugge/ion4 ,d we n become l t we he> & see & live among8 ,are we n ! product ( :atev] ?\ght we h absorb$ dur+ our life8 ,9 %ort1 we are t ?\ght embodi$1 nei!r m nor less4 ,/eady sugge/ion makes public op9ion1 t t]rible1 =midable1 irresi/ible wall aga9/ :i* new ?\ght mu/ beat & hack & /orm = c5turies sometimes be=e an incision c be made 9 x4 ,we are all m or less 9 an hypnotic sleep4 ,c]ta9 intellectual hair-splitt]s deprecate ! use ( ! ^w1 hypnotism1 :5 employ$ to describe a condition ( m9d t is n sleep1 z we commonly use t t]m4 ,yet we may be awake to c]ta9 facts & asleep to o!rs4 ,:5 "o _c see a tru? = a "t & !n recognizes x1 we say he awak5s to x4 ,0 he n asleep z f> z x 0 conc]n$ be=e8 ,! hypnotic pr9ciple is z old z ! human race4 ,yea1 ! hills are "y beside x4 ,by means ( x we h become :at we are1 & because ( x our progress has be5 sl[1 = ! hypnotiz$ subject holds to 8 illusions ) a t5acity t ?r[s b>nacles into ! %ade4 ,we 7 hypnotiz$ into ! old ?\ght t enslaves u1 & mu/ be hypnotiz$ out ( x into t :i* %all set u free4 ,?is law is op]ative f> beyond our range ( k4 ,x l9ks ?is _w or ?is /ate ( be+1 r1 to ! "o t foll[s x4 ,:at is ! _s m$ium b a p]son "u ! hypnotic influ5ce ( a resid5t ( ! invisible _w8 ,& _m :o d n dream ( x are hypnotiz$ to an a/oni%+ ext5t by sugge/ions f ! same s\rce4 ,!re=e1 x is n rem>kable t ,c>tice ,dor+ f\nd ne>ly ev]ybody hold+ aggressively to ! ?\ght t _h =m$ !m1 no matt] h[ limit$ & errone\s x might be1 & ready to fight1 too? & nail1 any?+ contr>y to x4 ,!y groan$ 9 pa91 yet at a sugge/ion ( relief f mis]y !y b hugg$ x clos]1 le/ x be tak5 f !m by =ce4 ,%e did n expect any "o to believe s trem5d\s a tale z %e _h to tell on he>say evid5ce alone2 b %e hop$ to f9d "s int]e/ & desire to se>* & le>n4 ,:5 _m turn$ away & %e grew he>tsick because !y w\ld n let h] help !m ) t :i* _h help$ h]1 %e ?\ght %e und]/ood ,jesus weep+ ov] ,j]usalem4 8,ye w\ld n6 no2 ye w\ld n60 is ev] ! cry ( all :o ye>n to make ! yoke easy & ! burd5 light = humanity4 ,& yet no e>ne/ ef=t made by any s\l is entirely va94 ,mrs4 ,dor+ f\nd two :o w\ld among ! _m :o w\ld n--two :o 7 eag] to le>n1 :o begg$ = ! *ance4 ,!y 7 ! ,joys1 ! la/ p]sons "o w\ld expect to turn _! att5tion to any?+ n kn[n by ! "n ( pleasure4 ,z a matt] ( fact !y 7 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,hanley1 b ev]ybody call$ !m ! ,joys1 because _! days 7 an unbrok5 ripple ( delight1 & !y 7 cont9ually mak+ a joyful noise ov] some?+4 ,!y joy$ 9 ea* o!r1 9 _! *ildr51 9 _! fri5ds1 9 _! home1 9 ! _w at l>ge1 9 life1 9 ev]y?+4 ,all days ( ! ye> 7 = !m days ( jubilee4 ,ev]ybody welcom$ !m because !y c>ri$ ) !m a joyful atmosph]e1 a little ( :i* g5]ally rubb$ (f & /uck to ^? :om !y visit$1 = a "t at lea/4 ,a gay1 guiltless pair 7 !y1 ) no ne$ ( pray]1 & no s9s to be =giv51 s f> z any "o c\ld see4 ,x may be wond]$ :y !y c>$ to le>n any?+ ab\t life's ext5sion s9ce !y f\nd ?is _w s pleasant4 ,yet c>e !y did1 & gladly turn$ f ! imp]man5t ?+s ( ! _w t _h delight$ !m to /udy rev]5tly ! great "q ( our de/9ation4 ,*rissalyn lik$ !m & 0 f9ally p]suad$ to let !m ent] ,plan*ette's *>m$ ar5a1 on condition t !y tell x n 9 ,go? nor :isp] x 9 ,askalon4 ,_! v fir/ exp]i5ce 0 conv9c+ beyond d\bt or "q4 ,all !y _h joy$ 9 be=e 0 z no?+ to ! joy !y f\nd 9 ! k t came to !m ?r\gh ! little bo>d4 ,9 spite ( _! pleasure-lov+ natures & ph5om5al optimism1 !y belong$ to ! ?9k+ frat]nity2 & n[ t _! outlook 0 ext5d$ beyond ! b\nd>ies t s f> _h h$g$ !m 91 !y saw ahead an endless life ( ,joy1 & t int5sifi$ & ennobl$ ! joys ( ! pres5t4 ,!y _h be5 happy always1 b n[ !y 7 secure 9 _! happ9ess--no?+ c\ld take x f !m4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,,! ,,tongues ,,( ,,angels4 8,:5 by suff]+ ?\ ha/ le>n$ n to suff]--by passion le>n$ calmness2 ,!n %alt ?\ "k :at ,i am to !e--!n %alt ?\ be ,a clean mirror :]e ,i am reflect$--a face ) a spl5dor :i* burns n6 ,pa/ all pa91 see+ ,me ?\ %alt "k ,me--! ,/r5g? & ! ,tru? ( ,?yself40 --,voltair9e ,de,cleyre4 ,be+ may be call$ ! poore/1 b x is at ! same "t ! mo/ m>vel\s concept ( our :ole m9d4 ,x is ! s9e qua non ( all we are1 we see1 we he>1 we appreh5d & compreh5d4 ,x is n our body1 nor our brea?1 nor our life1 nor our he>t1 nor :at is mo/ difficult to give up--our m9d & intellect4 ,x is simply t 9 :i* all ^! reside--t1 9 fact1 9 :i* we move & h our be+4 --,f4 ,max ,mll]4 ,! tru? ( be+ & ! tru? ( kn[+ are "o4 --,bacon4 ,c>tice & ,*rissalyn p]mitt$ ! ,joys to jo9 !m 9 _! inve/igations at c]ta9 times1 b = ! mo/ "p !y pursu$ _! /udy ( psy*ic life alone4 ,z !y w5t on1 _! exp]i5ces became m int]e/+ & conv9c+4 ,9 ! new _w op5$ to !m !y made new fri5ds4 ,to be sure !y c\ld n see ^! fri5ds1 b !y le>n$ to "k !m well1 to love !m1 & to di/+ui% "o f ano!r z readily & c]ta9ly z ?\gh !y 7 ( ! visible "p ( creation4 ,"o ( ^! new fri5ds call$ himself ,moreau & won _! he>ts completely ) 8 c\rte\s spee*1 k9d in/9cts & g5tle mann]s4 ,inde$1 aft] mak+ 8 acqua9tance !y und]/ood h[ little ! p]sonality dep5ds ^u t :i* we call ! p]son1 :i* is b a mask1 z ! ^w orig9ally meant4 ,he came (t5 & sometimes rema9$ a :ole ev5+1 k9dly writ+ = ^? :o _h n yet le>n$ to manipulate ,plan*ette1 & answ]+ que/ions ) well-br$ pati5ce & nev]-fail+ polit5ess4 ,:5 ask$ :y he came to !m & rema9$ s fai?ful1 :5 he _h n kn[n !m "h1 he expla9$ t he 0 attract$ to bo? ( !m1 because !y 7 magnetic to him2 b t beside1 x 0 8 especial mission to make lonely wom5 happi]4 ,!y le>n$ to rely implicitly ^u ev]y?+ he said1 j z !y did on ! ^w ( ,prescott1 ^: /rict tru?fulness _h be5 8 "o vanity4 8,h[ long is ! act ( dy+80 ,moreau 0 ask$4 8,x is long] = "s ?an = o!rs2 b y are sleep+ at ! "t & "k x n40 ,?is /atem5t 0 corroborat$ by ! o!rs4 ,!y said ! dea?-sleep 9 "s cases 0 ( sev]al days' duration1--days z we reckon !m "h1 b !re ,"t's m>k+s are unkn[n1 = ,"t is n4 ,:5 ,moreau 0 ask$ :e!r he knew ev]y?+ ab\t 8 fri5ds "h1 pres5t & to come1 he said3 8,n ev]y?+4 ,!re are "s ?+s we are n p]mitt$ to "k any m ?an y are40 8,d y pass on into o!r /ages ( exi/5ce--exp]i5ce a *ange analog\s to our dy+ "h80 8,i ?9k s2 b ,i am no m c]ta9 ( t ?an y are ab\t y\r future /ate40 8,h[ d y travel80 8,l lightn+1 or ev5 m swiftly4 ,we ?9k ( a place & 9 ! same in/ant we are !re4 ,?is is a ?\ght _w4 ,s is y\rs1 b y are bl9d to ! p[] ( ?\ght on y\r plane40 8,are y affect$ by ! sorr[s & pa9s ( ^? y love1 :o are /ill on e>?80 8,we _c help feel+ ! tr\bles ( e>? :5 !y t\* :at y w\ld call our he>t-/r+s4 ,b1 z x 71 we see ) l>g] eyes--we und]/& bett] ! purpose ( suff]+ & ! good t comes out ( x40 ,a fri5d to ,c>tice :o _h a*iev$ consid]able em95ce z an analytical au?or1 came occasionally4 ,9 ! noonday ( success %e w5t away1 aft] mon?s ( great physical suff]+4 ,:5 ask$ :e!r %e 0 happy1 %e repli$3 8,x is happ9ess to me to h no a*+ he>t1 no pa91 no burn+ br[40 8,c y come to u :5 y please80 8,sometimes only1 n always4 ,i feel a re/ra9t1 ?\gh no re/ra9t seems put ^u me40 8,h[ d y occupy y\rself1 ,edi?80 8,we d n h to occupy ourselves4 ,we are occupi$ by o!rs only4 ,i _c tell y bett]40 ,:5 que/ion$ z to ! k9d ( clo?+ us$ !re1 %e said3 8,! mi/ ( e>? is n a sub/ance to be measur$1 weigh$ or worn by y4 ,! mat]ial ( our raim5t is a ?+ ( almo/ mi/y texture40 8,:at is dea?80 8,to t "q ,i w give y an explanation giv5 me by "o f> wis] ?an ,i & mu* old] 9 ?is realm ( life3 #8,dea? simply d5otes a ris+ f inactivity to action1 f obscurity to em95ce1 awak+ f sleep1 or promotion f an inf]ior condition4'0 8,is !re a resurrection80 8,e dea? is a resurrection40 8,edi?1 d y ev] wi% to be back "h 9 ! body80 8,nev]4 ,!re w\ld be no?+ to ga9 & mu* to lose40 8,:y is x t al?\gh y & o!rs come & talk ) u cle>ly & freely at times1 !re is yet s mu* ( y\r new life ( :i* y tell u no?+80 8,!re are _m reasons1 :i* ,i am n p]mitt$ to give1 nor c\ld y und]/& !m4 ,i myself compreh5d !m b dimly4 ,i simply obey ! law40 8,:at is ! judgm5t1 if !re is a judgm5t80 8,= me x is ! behold+ ( my mi/akes40 8,:at is ! mo/ wond]ful phase ( y\r pres5t life1 if ,i may be p>don$ = s bold a "q80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,! k t love is all !re is--t x fills all univ]ses2 lights all worlds2 encompasses e s\l1 & is ! life ( e s\l4 ,?is is z true ( y\r _w z ( ours2 b ne>ly all !re refuse to believe x4 ,"h we _c d\bt x--t is1 ^? :o h love 9 _! own he>ts _c d\bt x4 ,^? :o love n d n "k x1 = all is d>kness to !m2 b t d>kness disappe>s :5 !y beg9 to love40 8,:at is love80 8,! liv+ pr9ciple ( good1 :i* by a law t includes & gov]ns all t is1 con/antly fl[s out f ! inf9ite c5tre4 ,! m y h ( x ! m ( good 9 its highe/ & be/ =m w y receive1 because x is ! greate/ ( all magnets1 irresi/ibly attract+ its l4 ,love is ,god4 ,god is love4 8,y are de/9$ to realize ?is fully "s day2 b y might realize x ev5 n[ if y w\ld1 & !n ! :ole face ( ! e>? w\ld *ange & become new & beautiful4 ,heav51 inde$1 w\ld be op5$4 ,b ! love ,i speak ( is n ! s5tim5t t usually goes by t "n on e>?1 :i* too (t5 is b an exagg]ation ( self1 a k9d ( sublimat$ selfi%ness1 go+ out to special p]sons ) :om y\r lives are int]tw9$ & ^: well-be+ p>ticul>ly conduces to y\r own4 ,no1 no2 ! love t is ,god is univ]sal 9 its application1 enfold+ ! humble/ & mo/ wayw>d z well z ! highe/ & mo/ p]fect4 ,cultivate ?is love & y w f9d heav5 ev5 on ! e>?4 ,all good w come to y4 ,x is ! k+dom ( righte\sness spok5 ( 9 y\r scriptures1 to :i*1 if y fir/ seek & atta91 all o!r ?+s %all be add$4 ,love1 ev5 9 its crude/1 mo/ selfi% expression & n>r[e/ int]pretation yet has 9 x a sp>k ( ! div9e pr9ciple f ! great s\rce or c5tre :i* lights & gives life to all worlds & all consci\sness40 8,if y c\ld give u b "o precept to live by1 :at w\ld x be80 8,t :i* 0 giv5 y by ! belov$ disciple3 ,love "o ano!r1 = love is1 inde$1 ! fulfill+ ( ! law4 ,b rememb] t #8"o ano!r' includes all t live4 ,! law is n fulfill$ :5 y only love ^? ( y\r own h\sehold1 or su* z m9i/] to y\r enjoym5t40 8,:at are we "h =8 ,:at is ! purpose ( life80 8,:at is ! purpose ( any s*ool8 ,is x n to fit its pupils = t :i* is to foll[80 8,h[ c we be/ d t80 8,by ! unfoldm5t ( y\r s\ls or selves--! be/ possible developm5t ( e unit4 ,y\r e?ics h taught y to aim at ! highe/ good to ! greate/ possible numb]2 b ! true e?ics ( love are only cont5t ) ! highe/ possible good to ea* individual40 8,h[ d ! ?+s ( e>? appe> to y n[--! ?+s we value & /rive = s h>d1 weal?1 fame1 p[]1 pleasure80 8,z veils1 or illusions :i* keep y f see+ ! great & glori\s light ( tru?--soap-bubbles1 gli/5+ & beautiful to ! eye1 b absolutely empty40 8,d y n suff] at sep>ation f fri5ds "h80 8,!re is no sep>ation4 ,we are all "o--all closely & indissolubly unit$--& t "o includes :at is 9 y\r _w z well z worlds ^u worlds1 f>1 f>1 beyond my p[] ( imag9ation--all t is1 or 01 or ev] %all be4 ,sometimes dea? unites u m closely ?an ev] to ^? /ill ^u e>?40 8,does n ! _s sometimes fa9t ) fe>1 :5 x fir/ becomes aw>e t x has left ! body =ev]80 8,x 0 n s ) me4 ,i 0 prep>$4 ,dur+ my long illness ,i ?\ght mu* ( ! future1 kn[+ t ! end ( :at y call life 0 ne>4 ,9 my m9d ,i dropp$ ! robe ( fle% )\t regret1 feel+ t annihilation or any?+ t set me free f pa9 w\ld be welcome4 ,:5 at la/ ,i f\nd t ! silv]--7o!rwise ! electrical7 cord--0 loos5$ & ! body left beh9d1 ! exp]i5ce seem$ natural4 ,true1 x 0 n )\t awe1 b t feel+ ( awe arose f ! light & beauty1 ! newness & yet ! famili>ity ( t on :i* ,i _h ent]$4 ,yet x is n all new1 = we /ill h ! old1 b und]/& x bett]--we see x ) m compreh5sive eyes--f a l>g] & high] outlook40 8,is !re any?+ !re to depress or sadd5 y80 8,to depress me1 no2 yet some?+ ak9 to oppression ,i sometimes feel1 because ( ! va/ness1 ! imm5sity1 ! endlessness ( ev]y?+4 ,d\btless y exp]i5ce ! same feel+ (t51 :5 y look up at ! />s & ! m9d is /agg]$ & %r9ks back ^u itself at ! maje/y & gr&eur ( creation4 ,b d n =get t ! exp]i5ces ( no two s\ls are exactly alike "h1 any m ?an on e>?4 ,t :i* ?is /ate ( consci\sness means to u1 or holds = u1 dep5ds ^u ! degree ( enlight5m5t we h atta9$ be=e ent]+ x--^u our m5tal1 moral & spiritual attitude1 our aspirations & desires--or "*1 or 9 %ort on :at we h become40 8,c y make ?+s !re1 z "h--%ape ?+s out ( crude mat]ial1 ,i mean80 8,we h no crude mat]ial4 ,we h to d only ) ! f9] =ces4 ,) u ! idea creates4 ,we =m ! idea1 & lo6 x imm$iately is4 ,we ?9k1 & ! ?\ght takes visible =m4 ,wond]ful z ?is may seem to y1 x is nev]!less z true ( y\r _w z ( ?is1 only ! me?od is sl[]4 ,! idea is always ! true creation1 b to make x objective y mu/ give x =m ) ! h&s1 out ( mat]ial sub/ance4 ,! imag9ation is ! creative realm40 8,h we ea* a gu>dian angel80 8,yes2 e s\l has a guide or help]1 :o ev] works to incl9e "o to good1 & away f evil1 yet leaves ! w free4 ,y1 y\rself1 n he1 mu/ make ! decisions4 ,he sugge/s1 b does n lead40 8,:o is my gu>dian angel80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,:o c\ld he be if n "o :o loves y80 ,once only ,l\is ,dor+ came4 ,he 0 ! same z :5 "h1 full ( self & empty ( all else4 ,c>tice did n enc\rage him to come aga91 feel+ ! di/ance betwe5 !m to be great] ?an ev]1--a di/ance measur$ by an abs5ce ( sympa?y1 :i* is ! only di/ance kn[n to ! s\l4 ,aft] utt]+ "s ( ! flavorless no?+s :i* ev] *>act]iz$ 8 conv]sation1 he w5t & came no m4 ,*rissalyn's great dread1 frequ5tly express$1 0 t h] husb& or "s ( h] ne> k9dr$ might come4 ,z long z none ( h] own h\sehold came1 ,plan*ette did n seem uncanny2 b aga9 & aga9 %e decl>$ t if any "o ( !m came %e w\ld be wret*$ = ! re/ ( h] life4 ,colonel ,layton did n respect h] wi%1 h[ev]4 ,"o night he took h] unaw>es1 z x 74 ,giv+ ,plan*ette a peculi> sp91 he wrote 8 "n z *>act]i/ically z he _h ev] done 9 life4 ,:5 ,*rissalyn saw ! signature1 %e bur/ into uncontrollable sobb+1 & begg$ him to g away4 ,c>tice consol$ h]1 & implor$ h] to let him rema91 :ile %e talk$ a few mom5ts ) him1 & ?is at la/ ,mrs4 ,layton cons5t$ to d4 8,don't cry1 ,*riss10 he wrote4 8,i knew y didn't want me to come2 b ,i wi% to tell y t ,i am bett] "h ?an !re1 j z y are f> bett] )\t me4 ,s x is well z x is4 ,i 0 a poor devil !re = a fact2 b ,i'm on ! up-grade "h40 ,*rissalyn wept afre%1 b h]oically w5t on1 & ! ,colonel wrote3 8,mrs4 ,dor+1 :y didn't y att5d my fun]al80 ,c>tice look$ agha/1 ! "q1 at fir/ blu%1 be+ s extraord9>y4 ,at "s l5g? %e expla9$ t %e 0 too ill to g4 ,evid5tly read+ h] unspok5 ?\ght1 he wrote3 8,yes1 ,i 0 pres5t--! real ,i z well z ! sil5t image ( me 9 ! box4 ,i look$ ar\nd at my leisure1 & saw ev]ybody !re4 ,i wond]$ at y\r abs5ce1 y & ,*riss be+ su* close fri5ds4 ,besides1 y 7 always nice to me1 too1 ,god bless y60 ,at ?is tribute to h] k9dness f beyond ! grave ,c>tice dropp$ a grateful te>4 ,! ,colonel's nature _h some?+ *ildlike & sweet 9 x1 9 spite ( its _m defects4 ,mo/ ( 8 faults _h be5 ( a peevi% & *ildi% ord]4 8,?ank y1 ,colonel ,layton10 ,c>tice answ]$4 8,i am glad to he> f y40 8,mrs4 ,dor+1 d y rememb] ! conv]sation ,i _h ) y an h\r or s be=e ,i made ! f9al j\rney80 8,p]fectly40 8,i sang ab\t dea? be+ a n>r[ sea t divides y\r _w f ! l& ( pure delight4 ,well1 x's a v n>r[ sea--s n>r[ we c /ep across4 ,9 fact x isn't a sea at all1 = ! two worlds are n really divid$4 ,!y only seem to be40 ,sev]al times ,mrs4 ,layton's fri5d1 ,jessie1 came4 ,:5 ask$ :e!r %e ?rew fl[]s at h] own fun]al1 %e said %e did2 t %e knew be=eh& t ,*riss _h ! faculty ( see+ c]ta9 ?+s o!rs c\ld n1 & _h x 9 m9d be=e %e w5t away t %e w\ld d some?+ to prove t dea? 0 only an illusion4 ,c>tice's great gr&fa!r1 :o di$ be=e %e 0 born1 came & wrote 8 "n 9 full1 :i* %e did n h]self "k4 ,he told ?+s p]ta9+ to ! family1 :i* %e aft]w>d v]ifi$1 among !m be+ ! "n ( ! political p>ty to :i* he belong$1 & :i* _h long be5 ext9ct4 ,8 h&writ+ 0 ( an old] /yle1 & he wrote ) a delib]ation uncommon 9 ! pres5t day4 ,"s communications purport$ to come f ,nor? ,am]ican ,indians1 mighty *iefs & /alw>t braves ) great dignity ( mann] & impos+ names4 ,aft] a "t1 h[ev]1 ,c>tice incl9$ to ! op9ion t bo? ! mann] & ! names 7 masks us$ to conceal id5tities t did n wi% to be kn[n4 ,!y spoke 9 ! figurative /yle attribut$ to gift$ r$ m51 & = ! mo/ "p _! messages 7 int]e/+ & in/ructive4 ,once :5 ,mrs4 ,dor+ 0 v tir$ & disc\rag$ "o ( !m wrote3 8,is x n a pleasure to ! squaw to conv9ce ! braves & old m5 t %e tea*es _m tru?s8 ,%e mu/ n let ! ink dry 9 h] horn1 = %e c c>ry _m braves ) h] 9 ! c\ncils40 ,aga91 app>5tly ov]he>+ ! two inve/igators ( psy*ic law talk ( "s poor1 pitiful1 hide-b\nd p]sons :o f\nd fault ) ev]ybody t did n revolve )9 _! p9t-measure orbit1 ?is same ,r$ ,fea!r1 z he call$ himself1 wrote ) emphatic =ce3 8,be n ti$ by ! ways ( o!rs4 ,! eagle _c fly ) ! w+s ( a *ick540 ,"o ev5+ ,prescott wrote a few m9utes & !n excus$ himself f fur!r "w1 say+ t some?+ _h j occurr$ :i* made him too n]v\s to write4 ,8 two fri5ds look$ at ea* o!r 9 spee*less a/oni%m5t4 ,"h 0 a my/]y beyond o!r my/]ies4 ,too n]v\s8 ,7 n n]ves b p>ts ( ! body1 de/9$ to du/ ) ! re/ ( x8 ,evid5tly und]/&+ _! amazem5t1 he add$ ?is l9e aft] a mom5t's pause3 8,incr$ible z x may seem to y1 ,i /ill h n]ves40 ,once :5 ,*rissalyn 0 peevi% & dissatisfi$1 %e said %e _h a m9d to give up fool+ ) ,plan*ette2 t x 0 sc>y & risky1 & !re 0 no tell+ :at 0 at ! bottom ( its que] do+s4 ,prescott came l a fla% to ! rescue1 fe>ful t %e w\ld put h] ?reat into execution1 & s cut (f communication entirely4 8,o ,butt]fly1 de>1 don't d t6 ,please don't1 = my sake10 he plead$1 ) an e>ne/ness t t\*$ _! he>ts4 8,y d n appreciate ?is gr&1 beautiful privilege1 :i* to me is s preci\s4 ,:o1 besides y c d ?is--conv]se freely ) fri5ds s f> away t ! railroad has nev] be5 made t c rea* !m80 ,some:at mollifi$ by 8 pa!tic tribute to h] extraord9>y psy*ic gifts1 %e grumbl$ t = 8 sake %e w\ldn't give up ,plan*ette4 ,he cont9u$3 8,_h ,i kn[n z mu* ab\t ! unkn[n future1 :5 on e>?1 z y d1 ,i %\ld h ?\ght myself wise1 inde$4 8,x a/oni%es me n[ to rememb] t ,i ev] d\bt$ ! p]si/5ce ( ! individual1 ! cont9u\sness ( life4 ,fools :o ?9k !mselves savants w tell y to h no?+ to d ) spirits1 n to enc\rage !m to come back1 z t int]f]es ) _! progression1 & o!r rubbi% ( ! same sort4 ,su* p]sons "k no?+ ( ! laws ( progress "h4 ,! two worlds--9 fact all worlds--are "o & ! same4 ,y\r be/ int]e/s & ours are id5tical4 ,!re is no diff]5tiation4 ,frequ5tly our "w lies entirely ) y4 ,:at high] mission c\ld "o h ?an to *e] & /r5g!n ! di%e>t5$ & fa9t+ ones ( e>?8 ,we help y1 & y 9 turn (t5 help u4 ,:at w\ld y ?9k ( a fri5d :o told y nev] to come & visit him1 b to g on & progress by y\rself8 ,well1 spirits are simply human be+s liv+ "u conditions z yet n und]/ood by y4 ,_m ( !m are y\r fri5ds1 :om y w\ld n dream ( treat+ disc\rte\sly :ile !y 7 ) y visibly4 ,! pupils ( y\r s*ools g f grade to grade4 ,^? ( ! highe/ grade are n prohibit$ f contact ) ^? ( ! prim>y1 if !y wi% x1 & (t5 !y return !re z tea*]s4 ,! division betwe5 y\r _w & ours only exi/s = ^? n yet f> en\gh develop$ to und]/& its non-exi/5ce4 ,x is n real1 b only an appe>ance4 ,x exi/s only 9 ! consci\sness ( ^? ignorant ( ! great law ( on5ess :i* is op]ative ev]y:]e4 ,& ?is is true ( _m ?+s t seem v real to y4 ,!y only exi/ 9 y\r consci\sness4 ,also t :i* is n )9 y\r consci\sness has no exi/5ce = y :atev]4 ,we are "o--all ! peoples ( all univ]ses1 & all are mov+ upw>d into light by means ( ! process call$ evolution1 :i* is ! unfold+ & p]fect+ ( man1 :o is _s1 n clay40 8,are we ev] reborn into ?is _w80 8,i am told t rebir? is "o ( ! _m me?ods op5 to ! s\l = progression40 8,c y see our future 9 ?is _w80 8,"s h ?is faculty4 ,i h n4 ,!y only see ! ma9 incid5ts1 z a travel]1 look+ f a high hill1 sees a guide-po/ ahead 9 ! valley40 8,are we ev] entirely alone80 8,nev]4 ,!re is always ! cl\d ( witnesses ( :i* ,paul spoke40 ,a /rang] came sometimes ^: "* 0 ( an antique m\ld4 ,he gave no "n1 b o!rs1 :5 que/ion$ ab\t him1 said he _h be5 "o ( ! great ( e>?1 & also "o ( ! good--none great] s9ce ,jesus4 8,:at is ! s\l ( man80 ,c>tice ask$ him4 8,c any "o compreh5d ,god80 0 8 reply4 8,i d n und]/&10 %e p]si/$4 8,et]nal be+ mirrors itself 9 e exi/5ce--is e exi/5ce4 ,:5 y "k t indef9able1 illimitable1 dea?less & div9e manife/ation call$ ! s\l1 y w "k ,god1 = 9 ! "o is imag$ or reflect$ ! o!r4 ,rememb]1 et]nal be+ is ! backgr\nd ( e exi/5ce40 ,look+ at ^! words fre% f an intellig5ce ^: habitation e>?ly eye ha? n se51 ,c>tice ,dor+ ?rill$ ) a /range joy1 9 sympa!tic vibration ) ! wave ( tru? t t\*$ h] _s4 ,= "o hall[$ mom5t ! great gates op5$ & %e saw a light m beautiful ?an ! light ( ! morn+1 m glori\s ?an ! light ( _m suns1 s(t]1 bright]1 m beatific ?an 0 ev] on sea or l&1 = lo6 %e saw ! reflection ( ! s\l itself1 & und]/ood its inf9ite s\rce & dea?less de/9y4 ,9 t ineffable mom5t %e knew t x nev] _h bir? & nev] %\ld "k dea?1 & t sep>at5ess 0 n ( x1 nor 0 x divisible f aught !re is1 & diff]5ce !re 0 none4 ,on ! bosom ( et]nal be+ x re/$ secure ?r\gh a ?\s& illusions4 ,! key t unlock$ all my/]ies 0 reveal$ by a fla% ( ! s\l's own light4 ,pale & trembl+ %e b5t h] head till x lay on ! writt5 words ( ! nameless /rang]1 & clos$ h] eyes t %e & ! great :ite light might be alone toge!r4 99 99 99 99 99 ,?\s&s ( ye>s ago an ,indian sage1 :5 p>t+ f 8 wife1 said3 8,we d n love ! husb& 9 ! husb&1 nor ! wife 9 ! wife1 nor ! *ildr5 9 ! *ildr54 ,:at we love 9 !m1 :at we truly love 9 ev]y?+ is ! div9e _s1 7! et]nal atman1 ! immortal & absolute self70--& z we %\ld add1 says ,max ,mll]1 ! immortal ,god1 = ! immortal self & ! immortal ,god mu/ be "o4 ,life's b\ndless ext5sion & endless progression 0 ev] ! upp]mo/ ?\ght 9 ,mrs4 ,dor+'s m9d4 ,9 x %e f\nd consolation = all ills1 z well z explanation ( !m4 ,%e piti$ ^? /ill bl9d to ?is trem5d\s fact4 ,:at _h !y to uphold !m 9 ! t]rible conflict we make ( life8 ,:at ( ! lit]ature t only rea*es ! grave & !re halts1 unable to g fur!r8 ,is x n ! lit]ature ( *ildr51 useful only to amuse & ent]ta9 !m 9 idle h\rs8 ,%e _h ador$ ! art ( lett]s1 _h made a feti* ( x1 pay+ homage to its great names & walk+ 9 its fair g>d5s ) rev]5t /eps4 ,n[ %e ask$ h]self :at lit]ature _h done = ! voiceless army ( ! dead4 ,:at repres5tation _h !y 9 its pages8 ,! dead1 ! sacr$ dead1 ! belov$ dead1 :at _h lett]s done to bridge ! /ream t sep>ates !m f ! liv+8 ,poets _h s5t !m to a f>-(f heav5 or plung$ !m into a flam+ hell to suit _! moods & met]s4 ,romanc]s _h us$ !m z spectres to come ^u ! sc5e at inopportune mom5ts & treat _! read]s to ?rills4 ,!y 7 flippantly spok5 ( z 8spooks10 8gho/s10 8app>itions10 & 8sup]natural appe>ances40 ,!y 7 good /ock 9 c]ta9 br&s ( /ories :i* nobody believ$ 91 & occasionally !y 7 all[$ to h a bit ( bus9ess on ! /age4 ,witless witl+s _h sne]$ at _! claims to recognition1 & writ]s ( _m m9ds1 h[ev] !y diff]$ on o!r po9ts1 7 g5]ally unit$ 9 ! ef=t to keep ! dead1 "o & all1 f ris+4 ,au?ors ( romances f\nd dea? a conv5i5ce 9 dispos+ ( inconv5i5t *>act]s ( _! own creation4 ,:5 !y c\ld n manage !m effectively any o!r way1 !y slaught]$ !m remorsely1 & t 0 ! end ( !m2 t put !m out ( bo? writ]s' & read]s' way = all "t4 ,n ev5 ! good always escap$ ?is doom4 ,if read]s c\ld be ent]ta9+ly h>r[$ & wr\ght ^u by ! demise ( ! mo/ angelic h]o9e1 %e _h to die1 & t f9i%$ h] = fri5ds & foes4 ,at ! grave ev]y?+ end$4 ,!re love laid its treasures & turn$ hopelessly away2 & !re hate %ea!d its poni>d 9 satisfaction1 hav+ rea*$ its extreme limit4 ,n[ ,c>tice ,dor+ saw cle>ly t !re are no f9alities "h2 t ! grave is n ! end2 t x nev] imprison$ a human s\l4 ,%e saw t a new lit]ature mu/ come =? to satisfy m9ds ( l>g] gr[?1 :i* look ^u dea?1 n z a f9ality1 b a *ange ( co/ume & ! op5+ ( a new act4 ,& ?is lit]ature mu/ g to ! po9t1 /raight & cle>2 x mu/ seek ! solution ( life's problem & n m]ely amuse & beguile travel]s on ! j\rney4 ,_m a night1 :ile %e walk$ home aft] an ev5+'s talk ) h] unse5 fri5ds1 %e felt 9 t\* ) all ! univ]se4 ,no?+ 0 f> (f1 n ev5 ! />s1 :i* look$ d[n ^u e>? ) t5d] human sympa?y 9 _! bright faces4 ,%e fe>$ no?+1 & knew no lonel9ess1 feel+ h]self att5d$ by an innum]able company4 ,already %e believ$ t :at ,kant said w yet be prov$1 8t ! human s\l1 ev5 9 ?is life1 is by an indissoluble communion connect$ ) all ! immat]ial natures ( ! _s _w1 act+ ^u !m1 & receiv+ impressions f !m40 ,n[ %e und]/ood m cle>ly ! mean+ ( ?is /atem5t by our greate/ philosoph]1 ,em]son3 8e man is an inlet to ! ,div9e m9d & to all ( t m9d40 ,yes1 & an outlet1 also4 ,n[1 n[ %e began to see t 8! _s ( man is a p]sonal limitation ( ! supreme _s10 z ano!r philosoph] says2 t 8,god is ! all ( man's life1 ! p[] ( man at bottom be+ ! p[] ( ,god40 ,n[ %e c\ld und]/& t 8:at we call ! mat]ial univ]se is b ! manife/ation ( inf9ite ,deity to our f9ite m9ds02 & t 8our individual self is f\nd10 z ! anci5t wisdom ( ! ,ea/1 & likewise ,jesus & ,paul1 affirms1 8includ$ 9 ! cont5ts ( ! ,absolute ,be+ or ,self40 8,et]nal ,be+ mirrors itself 9 e exi/5ce10 %e murmur$ rev]5tly2 8,et]nal ,be+1 & we are x40 ,! puls+1 eag]1 fev]i% life ( ! city 0 /ill$4 ,its p slept1 at lea/ !y 7 asleep to ! tru?1 & refus$ to be awak5$4 ,?\s&s ( ,ephraims1 jo9$ to _! idols1 dwelt cont5t$ly 9 _! fools' p>adise1 ask+ to be let alone4 ,& :at 7 ^? idols8 ,mi/s ( _! own creation1 p]i%able & unreal--= no?+ endures1 no?+ is real b be+1 ,et]nal ,be+4 ,l ! wayw>d sons & daught]s ( old ,j]usalem1 !y w n be ga!r$ "u ! w+ ( ev5 div9e wisdom4 ,! old dreams ( *ildhood came back1 ) _! p]plex+ rem9isc5ce ( life 9 a l& remote 9 ! pa/1 ^: p knew n mis]y4 ,_h %e liv$ be=e8 ,yes1 always4 ,h[ c\ld x be o!rwise ) ,et]nal ,be+ z ! backgr\nd1 ! s\rce & c5tre ( h] exi/5ce8 ,= ?is !re 0 nei!r beg9n+ nor end4 ,0 %e n an inde/ructible "p ( all t is1 0 & ev] %all be8 ,beh9d h] 0 no bir?2 be=e h] no dea?4 ,^! 7 b 8_w-fictions40 ,& :at 0 %e8 ,"o ( ! millions ( consci\s atoms t make up ! great :ole--a woman walk+ ! pa? alone1 ) a da% ( g5ius1 orig9al1 creative1 comm&+1 x 0 said1 & a =ce ( w & "* t made h] respect$ & conspicu\s among o!r atoms4 ,:5ce came ! g5ius & ! =ce ( "*8 ,f ! inf9ite ocean ( intellig5ce & creative en]gy--f ! "o s\rce & ! "o =ce4 ,:y _h %e gifts & qualities o!rs _h n8 ,because %e _h rea*$ upw>d t[>d ! light2 %e _h aspir$1 & z a consequ5ce _h exp&$ & gr[n4 ,%e _h mirror$ m ( ! supreme intellig5ce ?an _m o!rs1 because %e _h desir$ x & _h held h] m9d receptive to x4 ,all h] life at times %e _h be5 a prey to a deep dissatisfaction4 ,an unspok5 unre/1 a pr(\nd melan*oly lay b5ea? h] sunnie/ h\rs1 & %e _h exp]i5c$ a ye>n+ ( ! s\l = t :i* p]haps no mortal ev] atta9s4 ,b n[ 9 ^! nights :5 %e walk$ alone "u ! />s1 illum9$ )9 by ! light ( tru?1 !re 7 mom5ts :5 h] _s vibrat$ 9 unison ) ! great _s or self ( ! univ]se1 & %e 0 satisfi$4 ,%e saw humanity1 l a mighty riv] roll+ sl[ly to ! sea1 ea* drop bl5d+ ) o!rs1 & all impell$ by a resi/less =ce t bore !m onw>d1 !y knew n :5ce nor :i!r4 ,?is riv] 0 roll+ t[>d ! ocean ( tru?1 !re to enjoy ! fre$om :i* 0 its div9e de/9y1 & :i* ea* atom or drop c\ld only rea* by recogniz+1 liv+ & becom+ ! tru?4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,,! ,,simple ,,way4 8,life1 ) all x yields ( joy & woe & hope & fe>1 ,is j our *ance o' ! prize ( le>n+ love1 ,h[ love might be1 ha? be51 inde$1 & is40 --,rob]t ,br[n+4 ,talk+ ) ,gabriel ,norris "o day1 ,mrs4 ,dor+ c\ld n refra9 f tell+ him "s ( h] a/oni%+ psy*ic exp]i5ces4 8,i h long kn[n10 he said1 8t !y :om we call dead are m alive ?an we are4 ,i1 too1 h talk$ ) !m4 ,l ,/4 ,paul ,i am a spirituali/1 a ^w :i* g5]ally excites fe> & horror 9 un5light5$ m9ds4 ,i prea* spiritualism1 pla9 & pure1 b ,i don't "n x4 ,sometimes x is be/ n to label "o's k4 ,x only prejudices ! ignorant aga9/ x1 & builds a f5ce ar\nd "o's own m9d z well z ar\nd "o's neighbor's4 ,a "n is a limitation4 ,t's "o reason :y ,i _c "w 9 any organization4 ,i keep my _s free1 ev] ready to absorb m tru?1 & ,i prea* a free gospel1 :i*1 l all ?+s else is susceptible to ! influ5ce ( new light4 ,tru? is n all reveal$ to any man4 ,little by little "o le>ns to "k a great] degree ( x1 & s gr[s m & m free f error4 ,:at is evolution b a gradual gr[+ out ( d>kness into light8 ,! pro( t we live aga9 is ( trem5d\s importance1 because ) x comes ! k t e ?\ght z well z e de$ helps 9 ! build+ ( our s\ls & our et]nal de/9y4 ,t we %all live always is a fact 9 nature1 b 9 :at e/ate dep5ds ^u ourselves1 ^u our ?\ghts1 aspirations & ef=ts1 = man is ! expression1 or sum1 ( 8 desires4 ,"h or else:]e !y %all be realiz$40 ,gabriel wi%$ he might h ! great pleasure ( a ^w ) ,prescott1 :om he lov$4 ,*rissalyn grant$ p]mission1 & he w5t "o ev5+ to see ! wond]s ( ,plan*ette4 ,prescott oblig+ly came1 & :5 ,gabriel1 ) te>s %9+ 9 8 eyes ask$ if he _h any p>ticul> message = him1 answ]$3 8,only to ?ank y = y\r good words ab\t me 9 ! *ur*1 :5 ,i c\ld n speak = myself40 ,gabriel _h be5 "o ( sev]al fri5ds1 or?odox & unor?odox1 :o made brief addresses at ,prescott's fun]al1 :i*1 by ! grace ( a lib]al-m9d$ & great-he>t$ m9i/]1 0 held 9 a *ur*1 9 spite ( ! fact t ! dead editor 0 a bold unbeliev]4 ,at ^! grateful words ! eyes ( ! g5tle prea*] gli/5$ & 8 voice wav]$ ) feel+1 z he said3 8,y des]v$ all ! praise ,i gave y4 ,y did y\r be/4 ,y spoke tru? & liv$ tru? z y saw x4 ,none c d m40 ,9 say+ ?is ,gabriel unconsci\sly rais$ 8 voice high] & high] till he end$ 9 a %\t1 s natural 0 x to ?9k ( ,prescott z f> (f because he 0 out ( sight4 8,?ank y aga91 ,gabriel10 he wrote2 8b let me tell y1 t al?\gh ,i us$ to be a little deaf1 ,i he> p]fectly well n[40 ,gabriel laugh$ he>tily z x dawn$ ^u him t he _h be5 %\t+ at 8 invisible fri5d1 & ?\ght ,prescott mu/ be laugh+ too4 8,are all cur$ ( _! physical defects ov] !re80 ,gabriel ask$4 8,n imm$iately1 = illness or :ol5ess is a matt] ( ! consci\sness1 & t _c be completely *ang$ at once4 ,x is all progression1 gr[?1 expansion1 b x takes :at y call "t to effect x4 ,!re is pl5ty ( "w = y1 ,gabriel1 "h z well z !re40 8,i am glad ( t10 said ! unorda9$ prea*]4 8,an idle heav5 w\ld be hell = me4 ,man's desire = action & 8 pleasure 9 x are /rong evid5ce ( 8 immortality4 ,7 dea?--ext9ction--8 de/9y1 someh[ he w\ld h kn[n x1 & w\ld h be5 indol5t in/ead ( busy4 ,x is true t mu* ( 8 "w is imp]man5t & useless or worse ?an useless2 b x is ! ef=t he puts =?1 ! ex]cise ( w1 t is ! valuable "p ( x4 ,t :i* he is really build+ ?r\gh all 8 blund]+ & ! only "p ( 8 "w t endures1 is "*40 8,tru?1 ,gabriel6 ,y speak immortal tru?10 ,prescott wrote4 8,n[1 good-night40 8,d y really believe y h be5 talk+ ) ,gordon ,prescott80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,yes10 said ,gabriel1 simply4 8,i c\ld n prove x to o!rs2 nei!r c ,i prove t a lett] is f ! p]son ^: "n is sign$ to x1 )\t 8 p]sonal affirmation1 & ev5 t is only valuable 9 proportion to 8 reputation = tru?-tell+4 ,mo/ ( :at we call pro(s ( any?+ is flimsy & fallible40 8,i want to tell y1 ,mr4 ,norris10 said ,c>tice1 speak+ ) feel+1 8t ,i owe y f> m ?an y are aw>e (4 ,y fir/ gave me light1 & y 7 a mascot = me1 besides1 9 worldly success4 ,?r\gh meet+ y ! tide ( my =tune1 ! day ,i met y1 turn$ f ebb to fl[4 ,! draw+ ,i made ( y op5$ ! door ( opportunity = me4 ,b giv+ me light 0 ! greate/ s]vice4 ,t day1 9 y\r lecture at ! m>ket h\se y told u we 7 n "h simply to be happy2 t happ9ess z we pictur$ x1 0 n ! purpose ( exi/5ce2 t we 7 "h to le>n & to gr[ to ! p]fection nature int5d$1 z a plant or a tree gr[s4 ,9 o!r words1 we are to unfold f ! se$ & express our true be+4 ,up to t "t1 l ev]ybody else1 ,i _h made ! hunt = happ9ess my *ief aim4 ,:51 9 consequ5ce ( t1 ,i f\nd myself swamp$ 9 mis]y1 ,i consid]$ myself injur$1 & felt sure somebody 0 to blame4 ,i c\ld n see t ,i1 myself1 0 ! culprit2 t ! selfi% se>* = happ9ess mu/ lead directly away f t condition4 ,ah1 ,i suff]$ mu*1 mu* up to t "t2 b ,i see ! uses ( x n[4 ,i 0 be+ educat$ by ! only means possible4 ,_h ,i secur$ ! k9d ( happ9ess ,i 0 look+ =1 ,i %\ld /ill be 9 d>kness4 ,x 0 ! ideal ( an undevelop$ m9d4 ,n[ ,i see pla9ly t ! spiritual side ( suff]+ is good4 ,x means bir?--! bir? ( k1 ( light1 ( tru?4 ,i don't ?9k suff]+ is #8s5t ^u u1' z _m good p ass]t4 ,we pursue false ideals & !y br+ u to grief2 b ?r\gh t suff]+ we f9d ! true ideals4 ,suff]+ becomes our tea*]4 ,tru?1 :i* is good1 is ev] /ruggl+ to express itself ?r\gh u2 b 9 our ignorance we oppose & ob/ruct x1 & t makes pa9 = u4 ,all suff]+ comes f our ob/9ate opposition to good1 ?\gh we are usually unconsci\s ( x till our eyes are op5$4 ,i ?ank y aga9 = help+ me4 ,s9ce t day suff]+ has fall5 away f me to a great ext5t4 ,z soon z ,i became will+ to suff] 9 ord] to get on ! "r road1 ,i ceas$ to suff]4 ,/range law1 b true4 ,& s ,i argue t :5 we cease to pursue happ9ess or ?9k ab\t x we %all possess x40 8,yes1 x has long be5 cle> to me t we are n "h to hunt happ9ess2 ?\gh ,i d\bt n t e human s\l is de/9$ to be happy2 b x w be an ord] ( happ9ess mo/ unlike ! common dream4 ,ev5 "h x c\ld be f\nd1 if we s\ght x :]e ! ma/] told u to look4 ,did he n say t ! k+dom ( heav5 is )9 u8 ,x is a /ate ( consci\sness4 ,he told u h[ to atta9 x1 too4 ,h[ simple ! way6 ,only to love "o ano!r4 ,?is1 inde$ w\ld make heav5 = u all4 ,t is :at we are "h to le>n--t is ! *ief end ( man1 =1 :5 we le>n t1 we %all "k all ! law--all !re is to le>n1 & %all h rea*$ ! full developm5t :i* is ! purpose ( our exi/5ce4 ,h[ simple ! way6 ,we h no call to g =? & re=m our err+ bro!r2 to devise s*emes to save 8 s\l2 to build b>ri]s to put temptation out ( 8 way2 to weave nets to ensn>e him to our fai?4 ,we h only to love him4 ,?us %all we fulfill all ! law2 ?us %all we d all we h to d4 ,nei!r are we "h to d good4 ,ev5 ?is is n our "w 9 life4 ,_m well-mean+ p busy !mselves1 & blu/] ab\t do+ good1 f _! po9t ( view4 ,(t5] ?an n !y put _! ,fa!r's h\se 9 disord]4 ,we are to be good4 ,!n ! do+ ( good comes )\t ef=t4 ,we are "h b = "o purpose1 & t is to le>n & !re=e gr[4 ,to le>n t we are ! sons & daught]s ( ,god--o!rwise supreme wisdom1 love1 life1 light & intellig5ce4 ,! m we recognize ?is inf9ite s\rce ( our be+ ! m ( x we reflect & become1 ! m p]fect our developm5t4 ,& h[ %all we d ?is8 ,9 ! simple way we 7 told--only by lov+ "o ano!r4 ,?is is ! purpose ( our creation4 ,?is includes all !re is to "k1 & to become4 ,?is is ! p]fection at :i* we 7 told to aim4 ,?is sets our feet on ! road to happ9ess40 8,:at is ! body80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,p]haps x is ! objective side ( our exi/5ce on ?is plane--! self z x appe>s to o!rs1 b n z x really is40 ,aft] ,gabriel 0 gone ,*rissalyn said ) a yawn3 8,c>tice1 y & ,gabriel tire "o all out bo!r+ ab\t ! #8purpose ( life1' ! s\l & ! body & s on4 ,:at's ! good ( heat+ y\r heads ab\t su* ?+s8 ,j to slip ?r\gh easy1 is all ,i'm ask+ n[40 8,yes1 de>2 b y are a ,butt]fly & h a butt]fly's /&>d4 ,gabriel & ,i aim to be g>d5]s1 :o make x possible = butt]flies to circle ab\t & enjoy !mselves )\t bad boys cat*+ !m & pull+ _! w+s (f4 ,b y h gr[n a/oni%+ly1 s9ce ,i fir/ knew y1 9 spite ( y\rself4 ,y us$ to f9d no?+ bett] to d ?an kill "t ) a procession ( admir]s4 ,n[ y h outgr[n t4 ,& y 7 dep5d5t on y\r husb& = y\r v bread4 ,n[ y are able to /& on y\r own feet1 & are a self-support+1 useful memb] ( society4 ,don't y see1 de>1 t ! lesson e s\l mu/ le>n soon] or lat]1 "h or else:]e1 is to be able to /& alone8 ,ea* ( u1 woman or man1 mu/ fulfill ! purpose ( creation1 :i* is to gr[ t[>d p]fection1 & we c't d t by lean+ on somebody else4 ,woman is a human be+ z is man1 & is responsible = h] own de/9y4 ,! responsibility c't be put ^u ano!r40 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,x ,,is ,,well ,,) ,,! ,,*ild4 ,fair are ! fl[]s & ! *ildr51 b _! subtle sugge/ion is fair]2 ,r>e is ! rosebur/ ( dawn1 b ! secret t clasps x is r>]4 --,ri*>d ,realf4 ,mrs4 ,dor+ _h a fri5d1 a g5tle1 pati5t1 heavily-burd5$ woman :o liv$ h] difficult life ) ! high h]oism ( a daught] ( ! gods4 ,?\gh fragile z a fl[] %e kept ! wolf at bay = h] little family1 & nobody ev] saw a cl\d on h] face or he>d a compla9t f h] lips4 ,born & br$ to ! ref9em5ts ( life %e met adv]sity z only ! g5tly br$ d meet x--by tak+ hold ( :atev] "w 0 at h&1 )\t que/ion+ :e!r x 0 :at is miscall$ m5ial or n4 ,:5 h] baby girl 0 born %e begg$ ,c>tice to "n h]1 :i* %e did1 giv+ h] ! "n ( ! little si/] :o _h di$ :5 %e h]self 0 a *ild--,isabel4 ,to h] "m's great delight %e grew to resemble ,mrs4 ,dor+ z ?\gh ( h] fle% & blood1 & lov$ h] 9 ! same degree4 ,n[ %e 0 ne>ly ?ree ye>s old1 bright & w9some1 ) nev] a day's illness 9 h] record4 ,b a fev] came1 & beh9d t /ood ! la/ enemy1 :o1 h[ev] (t5 r\t$1 is sure to return sometime & w9 ! battle4 ,?is 0 ! "t ( 8 victory4 ,9 ! night1 :5 all 0 sil5t )\t1 & solemn )91 he came4 ,c>tice _h ! baby 9 h] arms 9 ! la/ preci\s1 awesome mom5ts4 ,! wa/$ little h& rea*$ up & sil5tly /rok$ h] face1 & ! s(t1 d>k eyes1 une>?ly l>ge & e>ne/1 look$ at h] ) unutt]able love4 ,some?+ else1 too1 0 9 _! spee*less dep?s--a message n easy to translate1 b x br\ght com=t4 ,!n1 t my/]i\s ?+1 ! brea?1 :i* connects u ) ! univ]sal life pr9ciple1 ceas$2 ! cold :ite veil dropp$ d[n1 & little ,isabel 0 dead4 ,aft] hold+ ! sil5t =m close to h] he>t a mom5t1 ,c>tice laid x g5tly on ! b$1 & ! two "m he>ts s sorely b]eft /ood sil5t b te>less beside x4 99 99 99 99 99 ,lat]1 :5 x 0 ready = its b$ 9 ! bosom ( ! e>?1 & aga9 toge!r !y look$ d[n at its :ite sil5ce1 ,c>tice said3 8,%e %all "k no evil ?\ght2 %e %all d no evil de$2 %e %all tread no evil pa?4 ,x is well ) ! *ild40 8,yes1 9 spite ( my sore he>t1 x is well10 said ! "m4 8,i surr5d] h] n to dea?1 b to a l>g] life1 & %all n m\rn4 ,no matt] :at comes1 %e is safe4 ,my d>l+'s safe--safe & dead4 ,s9ce h] fa!r's dea? ,i h be5 tr\bl$ at times ) fe>s = h] future4 ,i face ! inevitable--a few mon?s m "h1 & !n--! end4 ,= ! two boys ,i h arrang$4 ,!y w h homes & c>e1 b x w\ld h tri$ my c\rage to leave ?is "o ewe lamb40 8,i w\ld h be5 a "m to ,isabel _h y gone fir/10 said ,mrs4 ,dor+4 8,i am sure ( t2 b y1 too1 may n t>ry "h long4 ,:y %\ld we ev] worry ab\t ! future8 ,9 spite ( all our plann+ & tr\bl+ all is manag$ by a high] h&4 ,we h only to d ! "w ( ! h\r1 leav+ :at ! next may br+ to be met :5 x comes1 & n 9 anticipation4 ,! pres5t alone conc]ns u4 ,by liv+ x aright ! future takes c>e ( itself4 ,x is ! ?\ght = to-morr[ t s (t5 makes to-day gloomy4 ,i di/ress$ myself ab\t my *ild's future1 yet1 see1 all is well ) h]40 8,i ?ank ,god = :at ,i h le>n$ ( ! my/]i\s ev5t call$ dea?10 said ,mrs4 ,dor+4 8,yet !re are p :o ask :at good c come ( kn[+ su* ?+s4 ,:at good8 ,is x no?+ to "k t ! little image ly+ "h is n our ,isabel b h] e>?ly inve/iture2 t %e is n dead nor sep>at$ f u2 t h] life is to g on f grace to grace1 f /r5g? to /r5g?8 ,is x no?+ to "k t ,socrates1 ,plato1 ,sw$5borg1 ,%akespe>e1 ,em]son1 ,hugo1 ,morse1 ,fulton1 all :o h giv5 ! _w ! light ( g5ius1 h nev] di$1 & t ?is baby is equal heir ) !m to a life ( va/] opportunities & great] bless+s80 8,o!rs10 said ,mrs4 ,b5ton1 8wond] :at good !re is 9 ! com+ & go+ ( s t9y a s\l1 :o 0 "h b = a day z x 74 ,yet h] little life is z important 9 ! div9e plan z t ( ! greate/ sage4 ,%e br\ght ! gospel ( pure love ) h]1 & we are ! bett] because ( h] brief visit to u--= x 0 b a pause on ! great j\rney40 99 99 99 99 99 ,on ! ev5+ aft] ! disc>d$ visible "p ( ! *ild _h be5 put out ( sight1 z ,mrs4 ,dor+ 0 return+ home f h] fri5d's h\se1 two eld]ly m5 on ! horse-c> 7 talk+ ( life1 & _! v]dict 0 t !y 7 tir$ ( x4 ,"o said x 0 an empty exp]i5ce :i* he w\ld n g ?r\gh aga9 = any consid]ation4 ,! o!r said he _h _h a good "t1 _h got z mu* pleasure out ( life z any "o1 b t 0 all ov] n[2 he 0 gett+ old & full ( a*es & pa9s1 & f\nd no fun 9 liv+ any m4 ,! jump+ (f place _h to be rea*$ "s day1 & t w\ld put an end to x4 ,8 fri5d said t 0 ! rub--! leap 9 ! d>k4 ,= 8 "p he 0 disgu/$ ) life1 b abhorr$ dea?4 ,he saw no good 9 ei!r "o or ! o!r1 & 0 incl9$ to believe t we are all victims ( a trem5d\s *eat4 ,if he c\ld see any?+ to look =w>d to beyond a damp b$ 9 ! gr\nd he c\ld g on all "r1 b nobody knew any?+ ab\t x--n ev5 ^? :o e>n$ _! bread talk+ ab\t x 9 pulpits4 ,!y said !y believ$ c]ta9 ?+s1 b !y didn't "k any m ?an o!r folks4 ,he want$ solid in=mation4 ,! o!r toss$ 8 head to %[ 8 indiff]5ce to ! subject4 ,he said x 0 some?+ he _h nev] ?\ght ab\t at all 9 8 good times1 & n[ he guess$ he w\ldn't bo!r ) x = 8 few rema9+ days4 ,?us 0 ! mo/ important "q t faces man dispos$ ( by "o ^: op9ion on any topic p]ta9+ to comm]cial or political int]e/s w\ld be receiv$ ) respect by 8 fell[ t[nsm5 & h weight ) !m4 ,b bo? he & 8 fri5d _h liv$ to v5]able ye>s )\t ev] le>n+ :at !y !mselves 74 ,( t k1 :i* includes all o!r k1 !y 7 z ignorant z e>? worms4 ,!y _h acquir$ :at is miscall$ education2 _h be5 factors 9 public affairs1 & figures 9 social life1 & yet nev] le>n$ t !y 7 n bodies to g to pieces "s day l a brok5 ma*9e1 b spirits1 ) a life ^: issues are spiritual & et]nal1 n mat]ial & p]i%able4 ,to "o1 life _h meant a *ance to h a good "t2 to ! o!r empt9ess1 because he _h _h no good "t4 ,nei!r dream$ t its mean+ is 9 ! unse51 n 9 ! se51--9 :at !y _h become1 n :at !y possess$ or enjoy$4 ,!y liv$ 9 d5se spiritual d>kness1 yet knew x n1 & !y 7 b two out ( millions 9 ! same condition4 ,he>+ _! pa!tic ?\gh unconsci\s confession ( ignorance1 ,mrs4 ,dor+ wond]$ if little ,isabel's %ort1 lov+1 tru/+ life 0 n m complete ?an !irs ( long ye>s full ( imp]man5t & illusory importance4 ,%e wi%$ %e c\ld tell !m :at %e _h le>n$ ( life & its mean+ & future1 b1 alas6 %e _h already be5 /on$ & knew ! dang] ( lett+ h] light %9e be=e ^? :o _h n become z little *ildr5--receptive1 will+ to le>n4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,/ory ,,( ,,"o ,,return$ ,,f ,,! ,,dead4 8,is x wond]ful t ,i %\ld be immortal1 z e "o is immortal8 ,i "k x is wond]ful1 b my eye-sight is equally wond]ful1 & h[ ,i 0 conceiv$ 9 my "m's womb is equally wond]ful40--,walt ,:itman4 ,?\ght 9 ! m9d ha? made u4 ,:at we are ,by ?\ght 0 wr\ght & built4 ,if a man's m9d ,ha? evil ?\ghts1 pa9 comes on him z comes ,! :eel ! ox beh9d4 ,all t we are is :at we ?\ght & will$2 ,our ?\ghts %ape u & frame4 ,if "o endure ,9 purity ( ?\ght joy foll[s him ,z 8 own %ad[ sure4--,sir ,edw9 ,arnold4 ,mrs4 ,dor+ _h read t ! p ( ! unse5 _w1 or o!r invisible intellig5t be+s1 sometimes condesc5d$ to write on slates "u c]ta9 conditions4 ,z %e n[ believ$ t ,*rissalyn possess$ all ! psy*ic gifts1 %e b\ght a slate & us$ h] mo/ artful eloqu5ce to p]suade h] fri5d to exp]im5t4 ,! caprici\s creature cons5t$ aft] fi%+ up objections en\gh to make h] acquiesc5ce receiv$ ) great gratitude4 ,?is 0 h] innoc5t way ( mak+ h] s]vices valuable & h]self important4 ,b = love ( h] fri5d1 & also no d\bt = love ( ,prescott1 :o 0 ! only p]son on ! o!r side ( sil5ce t %e c>$ to he> f1 app>5tly1 or at lea/ 0 n afraid (1 %e f9ally cons5t$4 ,n kn[+ ! correct mann] ( proc$ure !y c\ld d no m ?an exp]im5t bl9dly1 till !y le>n$ some?+ ab\t x4 ,!y held ! slate "u ! table till _! arms 7 all tir$ out & got no?+4 ,!n !y laid x on ! table1 & becom+ int]e/$ 9 talk+1 =got all ab\t x & _! exp]im5t1 till !y he>d a s(t1 rapid scrat*+4 ,look+ d[n simultane\sly1 !y saw an incr$ible ?+4 ,! t9y p5cil1 no bigg] ?an a gra9 ( rice1 0 writ+1 ?\gh no visible h& guid$ x1 & ?is 0 its message3 8,ea* s\l is its own r$eem]1 "h1 h]eaft] & =ev]40 ,! two spectators look$ at ea* o!r 9 awe-/ruck sil5ce4 ,f :om ?is came !y knew n1 = ! "o t wrote x wrote no?+ m4 ,b = _! famili>ity ) communications f ! sil5t majority !y w\ld h be5 sore afraid4 ,z x 0 !y 7 aw$ by ?is extraord9>y evid5ce ( ! ne>ness ( unse5 be+s presumably l !mselves4 ,talk+ ab\t x !y sat !re till ! ev5+ 0 ne>ly sp5t4 ,at la/1 ,*rissalyn idly laid h] h& on ! slate1 & almo/ imm$iately x began to ?rob or vibrate curi\sly1 l a liv+ ?+4 ,/>tl$1 %e remov$ h] h&1 & in/antly ! ?robb+ ceas$4 ,turn+ ! slate ov] !y f\nd ! "u side writt5 full 9 a fem99e h& ( exquisite da9t9ess1 & sign$ ) ! "n ( "o ( our mo/ em95t wom51 "o :o has be5 dead ne>ly a c5tury4 ,! message _h n be5 writt5 aft] ! mann] ( ! previ\s "o1 = !re 0 no scrat*+ or s\nd ( ! movem5t ( ! p5cil4 ,9 fact1 z !y soon discov]$1 ! p5cil 0 n !re at all4 ,! me?od1 :atev] x may h be51 0 in/antane\s1 l telegraphy4 ,a few seconds ( vibration 9 ! slate & lo6 x 0 !re4 ,if ?\ght c\ld be photograph$ ! process might be l ?is4 ,x 0 z ?\gh "s "o _h ?\ght ! message1 & ! m]e act ( ?9k+ _h made x visible on ! slate4 8,*riss1 y are ! mo/ wond]ful be+ 9 ! _w10 said ,c>tice1 rev]5tly1 8& y don't "k x4 ,y h all ! occult gifts1 yet value none ( !m40 ,! ,butt]fly flu%$ ) gratification at ! g5]\s praise ( h] fri5d :o usually prais$ or blam$ ) mis]ly c>e4 ,beyond ! fact t !y made h] important 9 ,c>tice's eyes %e c>$ no?+ = ! my/]ies reveal$ ?r\gh h]4 ,be+ a butt]fly1 %e 0 n afflict$ ) any p>ticul> crav+ = k4 ,! _w & ! ?+s ( ! _w satisfi$ h]4 ,?is 0 :at ! slate conta9$3 8,to y1 ,c>tice ,hill ,dor+1 ,i br+ ?is message4 ,rememb] x well1 = ,i may nev] come aga93 ,till ! soil1 & y w be prosp]\s4 ,till :at y h4 ,make m ( y\r tal5ts4 ,conc5trate all y\r ?\ghts & devote m "t to y\r special "o4 ,if y are really anxi\s to make a success ( y\rself1 y mu/ use e mom5t4 ,y n only owe x to y\rself1 b to ! :ole _w1 & ,god1 :o has end[$ y ) ?is wond]ful gift4 ,y are a woman among a million4 ,x is c]ta9ly a wond]ful gift y possess1 & x is sad t y h n already made m ( x4 ,s try n[4 ,wait n = "s "o to op5 ! way4 ,make y\r own way4 ,y c d x bett] ?an any "o else4 ,"w 9 ord] to be great2 !n y c re/1 & x w be s delightful to re/ ) sweet laurels40 ,mrs4 ,dor+ read ?is al\d1 a/oni%$ at its flatt]+ import & amaz$ t s _m words1 all z legible z ! cle>e/ typography1 c\ld be put ^u ! t9y slate4 ,! writ+ 0 a "w ( ! mo/ exquisite art4 8,:at does %e mean by y\r special tal5t80 ask$ ,*rissalyn4 8,a bit ( my bra9 g>d5 :i* ,i h sc>cely cultivat$ at all1 & w\ld r n "n1 = ,i nev] h be5 sure ( my title to x4 ,9 my e>ly dreams x figur$ conspicu\sly2 b ( late ye>s ,i h almo/ dropp$ x f my ?\ghts4 ,! bus9ess ( bread-w9n+ pu%es _m a fair dream out ( its sacr$ ni*e4 ,9 spite ( ! enc\rag+ words ( ?is message ,i d\bt if ,i %all ev] till t soil4 ,i beg9 to feel too tir$ to make new dep>tures4 ,! torpor ( indiff]5ce & we>9ess is creep+ ov] me4 ,! old _s ( action walks ) a halt+ /ep1 & turns its eyes long+ly to ! mead[s ( ease & indol5ce4 ,i ?9k ,i und]/& h[ c>-horses feel4 ,!y "k p]fectly well t1 :atev] may happ5 to ! re/ ( ! _w1 = !m !re is only a /eady1 day-aft]-day pull till ! end comes4 ,prescott us$ to say ,i want$ to eat my cake & h x too2 b he didn't "k h[ feeble & we>y ,i (t5 040 ,"o ev5+ :5 !y call$ _! unse5 fri5ds new wond]s 7 %[n !m--wond]s :i* took place "u laws beyond _! p5etration4 ,! ,butt]fly wore a fre% :ite rose on h] brea/4 ,:5 ,prescott ann\nc$ himself1 8 fir/ words 7 ( its beauty & fragrance4 8,c y see x80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,c]ta9ly40 8,& smell x80 8,( c\rse4 ,give x to me1 ,butt]fly6 ,give x to me10 he wrote1 ) eag] en]gy4 8,well1 take x10 said ,*rissalyn1 smil+ at ! impossible reque/4 8,i am 9 e>ne/4 ,i really want x4 ,hold x 9 y\r h& directly 9 front ( y1 & see me take x40 ,laugh+ at :at %e believ$ to be a bit ( pleasantry1 %e took ! rose f h] brea/1 & held x betwe5 h] ?umb & f+]1 say+1 9 mimicry ( ! old-"t h]o9e ( novels1 8,please accept ?is tok5 ( my e/eem40 ,in/antly1 quick] ?an a fla%1 ) a sudd5ness indescribable1 x disappe>$1 vani%$ completely1 9 ! sight ( bo? pairs ( eyes4 ,:i!r8 ,c\ld vacant space swall[ a tangible object8 ,impossible4 ,yet ?is impossibility 0 accompli%$4 ,! fact /unn$ !m4 ,ea* look$ 9 ! face ( ! o!r1 & clasp$ ! o!r's h& to make sure !y 7 n dream+4 8,i %\ld be fright5$ spee*less if any "o else ?an ,prescott _h done t10 said ! ,butt]fly1 pallid & trembl+4 8,let u ask him ab\t x10 said ,c>tice1 :o 0 %ak51 too4 ,) "s reluctance1 ,*rissalyn ask$ ,prescott h[ he _h tak5 ! rose4 8,by means ( :at "s ( y\r sci5tific p call ! ,f\r? ,dim5sion ( ,space10 he repli$4 8,c y expla9 x m cle>ly80 8,no2 ,i h no t]ms 9 :i* to make x pla9 to y4 ,x is all natural en\gh1 h[ev]1 & comes "u a law z yet n kn[n to y\r _w4 ,n[ wait a mom5t & ,i w br+ y a fl[] by means ( ! same law40 ,sil5t & expectant !y sat = ?ree or f\r m9utes4 ,!n1 app>5tly out ( ! air above _! heads1 two l>ge fre%1 r$ roses fell on ! table be=e !m4 ,exam9ation prov$ t !y 7 real & n illusory4 8,:]e did y get !m80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,i w5t :at y w\ld call a long di/ance = !m1--ab\t two hundr$ miles2 b x is no?+ to me1 = ,i "k no di/ance outside ( my own ?\ght40 ,unsolicit$1 "o ev5+ ,prescott volunte]$ to tell 8 two fai?ful fri5ds "s ( 8 exp]i5ces s9ce pass+ out ( _! sight4 ,he wrote ) a rapidity & en]gy ev5 great] ?an 9 life1 ?\gh he _h ev] a n]v\s1 ha/y mann] ( writ+1 :i* 0 8 true =m ( expression4 ,9 conv]sation he _h little ability4 ,he consum$ ?ree ev5+s 9 ! task he _h set himself1 & ?is 0 8 /ory1 :i* 0 address$ to ,c>tice3 99 99 99 99 99 8,!re 0 ! accid5t at ! elevator4 ,x occurr$ 9 a few seconds ( "t1 b ,i did n realize :at 0 tak+ place4 ,a ?\ght t some?+ 0 go+ wrong fla%$ ?r\gh my m9d1 b x convey$ no s5se ( dang]4 ,i 0 l a spectator :o sees disa/] ov]take ano!r1 yet has no cle> idea :at t disa/] is4 ,f ?is & :at ,i h le>n$ "h1 ,i am incl9$ to ! belief t victims ( accid5ts :i* result 9 sudd5 dea? h no pa9ful exp]i5ces--d n ev5 suff] f fe>4 8,z y "k1 ,i 0 kill$ in/antly--t is pu%$ out ( life z y und]/& life1 )\t w>n+4 ,:5 ,i awoke1 or rega9$ consci\sness1 on ?is side ( dea?--:i* ,i believe 0 soon aft] ! accid5t1 ?\gh ,i am n sure on ?is po9t--,i f\nd myself grop+ bl9dly1 /agg]+ weakly 9 ! d>k & rea*+ ab\t me ) my h&s to f9d some?+ t w\ld help me to a k ( my :]eab\ts4 8,i 0 nev] di/+ui%$ = pati5ce4 ,n[ ,i began to feel impati5t & cross at f9d+ myself 9 su* an unacc\ntable situation4 ,!n ! d>kness got ?ick]1 m depress+1 & at la/ t]rible1 until my _s quail$ be=e x1 & ! ?\ght came to me t ,i 0 inde$1 9 a place & condition /range & fe>ful4 8,!n ,i ?\ght ( y1 ,c>tice1 & ( h[ devot$ly ,i lov$ y4 ,) t ?\ght came light1 su* radiant1 ph5om5al1 ov]p[]+ light t x dazzl$ me4 ,i %udd]$ be=e its awful effulg5ce1 & put my h&s ov] my eyes t x might n bl9d me4 ,my love = y seem$ to fill all space & include all ?+s4 ,:ile enjoy+ x1 dr9k+ x 91 float+ 9 x1 ,i mov$ on1 = ,i 0 walk+1--or s x seem$--until ,i met my de> old fri5d ,william ,bissell4 8,t a/oni%$ me1 = ,i in/antly rememb]$ t he _h di$ five ye>s be=e1 & ,i _h be5 "o ( ^? select$ = ! solemn honor ( c>ry+ 8 body to ! grave4 ,0 ,i dream+8 8,he came t[>d me smil+4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h nev] se5 him look s well1 s h&some1 s "y or s b5ignant4 ,he 0 ev] ! s\l ( k9dness1 n only ready b always anxi\s to s]ve o!rs2 & he _h a p>ticul> fondness = meet+ fri5ds at ! railroad /ation :5 !y came back to ! city aft] an abs5ce--especially ^? :o _h no ne> k9dr$ to welcome !m4 8#8,i'm glad to see y1 ,gordon1' he said2 b ,i ?\ght ,i saw some?+ 9 8 face m ?an ! words impli$1 & a =ebod+ ( unwelcome news came to me4 8#8,h[ is ?is1 ,william8' ,i ask$4 #8,am ,i dream+8 ,i ?\ght ,i help$ to bury y five ye>s ago4' 8,he smil$ significantly & said1 #8,has x n occurr$ to y t somebody may be arrang+ to d ! same s]vice = y8' 8#8,:at d y mean1 ,william8' ,i ask$1 call+ ^u my s\l to su/a9 me aga9/ ! %ock ( ! reply4 8#8,well1 ,gordon1' he said1 g5tly1 k9dness mak+ 8 face %9e l a lamp1 #8tell me if a dead man's arm has any bones 9 x8' 8,in/9ctively ,i grasp$ my left arm ) my "r h&4 ,lo6 ! h& pass$ ?r\gh x4 ,no bones 7 !re4 8,c y imag9e "o already dead fa9t+ f fe>8 ,! s5sation ,i exp]i5c$ 0 m />tl+1 m fe>ful ?an any?+ ,i _h conceiv$ ( be=e4 ,i sank d[n1 d[n into immeasurable dep?s4 8,a feel+ ( %ame at my c[>dice took possession ( me4 ,:y 0 ,i afraid8 ,i _h di$1 to be sure2 my condition 0 *ang$2 b ! exp]i5ce 0 some?+ millions & millions ( o!r s\ls _h und]gone4 ,g5tle1 timid1 delicate wom5 _h trodd5 t solemn pa? be=e me4 ,little *ildr51 too1 _h travel$ x4 ,:y %\ld ,i1 a man1 va9 ( my /r5g? & c\rage1 be affright$8 ,a va/ compassion = all humank9d 9 ?is try+ mom5t well$ up 9 my he>t1 & in/antly ,i 0 lift$ into light1 & beheld ab\t me lov+ & famili> faces1 beautiful vi/as1 & he>d melodi\s s\nds4 ,! lov+ ?\ght ,i held _h borne me upw>d2 b ,i did n !n "k x4 8,_m times ,i sank into a d>k1 bottomless void1 & z (t5 by "s my/]i\s p[] rose into ineffable light4 ,i enc\nt]$ massive walls f "t to "t1 be=e :i* my feet 7 /ay$4 ,impassable & impregnable1 !y seem$ to b> my way1 ,i knew n :y4 ,ev5tually ,i le>n$ t ! s9k+ & ! ris+1 & ! b>ri]s ,i met1 7 n ext]nal exp]i5ces1 b all took place )9 my own consci\sness1 & 7 b ! pictur+ or appe>ances ( my inn] condition4 ,!y 7 my own ?\ghts ext]naliz$1 = ?\ght is ! only ?+ 9 ! ,univ]se4 ,we ?9k1 !re=e we are4 ,exi/5ce is ?\ght4 ,man is ?\ght made objective4 ,?\ght is ! creative pr9ciple3 x is creation4 8#8,z a man ?9ke? 9 8 he>t1 s is he1' describes life bo? "h & 9 ! visible =m1 if y b und]/& its true significance4 ,"h e s5sation is int5sifi$ a ?\s& times4 ,i ?rill ) joy & ! univ]se vibrates 9 h>moni\s response4 ,i suff]1 & x trembles 9 reciprocal angui%4 ,& ?is is true ( e s\l 9 :atev] "p ( ! univ]se x may dwell2 b "h our capacity to feel is ke5] & great] ?an ) y1 & "h we le>n to und]/&4 ,e s5sation is int5sifi$1 because we ent] into clos] relations ) ! ,"o ,life1 ! ,"o ,_s t fills all space4 ,ev]y?+ is )9 our consci\sness1 & outside ( t !re is no?+4 ,)9 u is all t ev] 0 or %all be4 8,= a "t ,i 0 (t5 wret*$4 ,! int]e/s ( e>? attract$ me1 ,i ?\ght ( !m wi/fully1 & wi%$ ,i 7 9 my old place do+ ! "w 9 :i* ,i _h f\nd some?+ ak9 to pleasure4 ,! wi% held me !re1 & ,i 0 mis]able1 because ! old me?ods ( action 7 lo/ to me4 ,(t5 :5 y sat at y\r desk 9 ! ,regi/] (fice ,i 0 ne>1 suff]+ ke5 torm5t1 because ,i c\ld n make my pres5ce kn[n4 ,x took me a long "t to see t we 7 n really sep>at$4 ,x 0 only ! veil ( y\r ignorance t %ut me away f y4 ,i 0 ne> y1 b y did n "k x1 t 0 all4 ,! veil t hides our _w f y\rs is ignorance--a veil x is possible to lift4 8,/ill1 ,i suff]$ until ,i f\nd a means ( enlight5+ y4 ,i saw ! peculi> p[] ! ,butt]fly possesses1 & endeavor$ to ar\se 9 h] a wi% to inve/igate :i* w\ld enable me to bridge ! gulf betwe5 u--a gulf t exi/$ only 9 y\r ?\ght4 8,i caus$ h] to see me 9 :at %e believ$ a dream1 & ,i held a plan*ette t %e might try to op]ate ) x4 ,to my unb\nd$ delight ,i 0 successful4 ,i assure y t1 al?\gh y 7 grateful = ! k ! little tripod br\ght y1 ,i 0 a ?\s& times m s1 s9ce to me x meant deliv]ance f d>kness & mis]y4 8,i c\ld n rise into high] conditions--conditions be+ int]nal--until ,i _h e/abli%$ communication ) y4 ,! mom5t y recogniz$ me & believ$ 9 me1 d>kness & discont5t began to fall away f me4 ,y made heav5 = me on e>?1 inasmu* z ,i lov$ y1 & t love has made heav5 = me "h--bo? heav5 & hell be+ /ates ( consci\sness1 ?\gh none ! less real = all t4 8,my burd5 0 lift$1 :5 y fully und]/ood t ,i /ill liv$4 ,n till !n 0 ,i will+ to accept my *ang$ condition & seek k 9 new pa?s4 8,h[ delightful x 0 to discov] t ,i _h p[] )9 myself to create conditions6 ,?\ghts ( love envelop$ me 9 light1 a light t _h 9 x all beauty & all h>mony4 ,! "* ( my love = y *ang$4 ,desire = possession w5t out ( x1 & ! wi% to b5efit & help y 9 e way1 )\t reg>d to myself1 took its place4 ,i !n le>n$ t ! m unselfi% & univ]sal our love1 ! deep] & full] & sweet] our own be+ becomes4 ,love is ! supreme p[]4 ,love is life4 ,love is light4 ,love is all !re is1 = love is ,god4 8,?is is a sci5tific tru? & n m]ely a figure & phrase ( religi\s philosophy4 8,god is _s & _s is sub/ance1 ! only sub/ance 9 ! univ]se4 ,m5 ( sci5ce tell y t light is a mode ( motion1 & !y speak truly1 = x is ! physical expression ( pure _s :i* is pure love4 ,_s1 :i* includes all worlds & all be+ is 9 p]petual motion2 all t y see is b its diff]5t =ms ( manife/ation4 8,y\r sun is n y\r s\rce ( light2 x is b a reflector or transmitt] ( ! "o supreme light to ! worlds ( its sy/em4 8,! m we love ! m ( ,god d we become & express4 ,oh6 if ,i c\ld b tell y ! joy t love br+s4 ,x c ov]come all ?+s4 ,:]e x dwells no evil c come2 & x ent]s :]ev] ! door is left op5 to receive x4 ,x is ev]y:]e1 b1 if y\r consci\sness is unaw>e ( x1 = y x has no exi/5ce4 ,only recognize x & x is y\rs4 8,i pass$ my life 9 combat4 ,i attack$ evil1 f\ght x ru?lessly1 & believ$ ,i 0 do+ good4 ,yet ,i 0 only mak+ evil important4 ,y w\ld laugh at ! tea*] :o f\ght *ildr5 9 ord] to make !m wise1 w\ldn't y8 ,evil is only ignorance--o!rwise spiritual d>kness1 & m5 & wom5 are b *ildr5 9 k4 ,!re is b "o way to eradicate evil or ignorance1 & t is to make m light4 ,op5 ! und]/&+ & let 9 ! light4 ,! d>kness w flee be=e x4 ,y rememb] ,victor ,hugo said3 #8,pay s*oolma/]s & n soldi]s4' ,i see n[ t ! only way to make m5 bett] is to awak5 ! ,god or good 9 !m2 to put high] ideals be=e !m1 & n f9d fault ) !m because !y don't "k all !re is to "k4 8,until ,i met y ,i liv$ a loveless life1 !re=e a pessimi/ic "o4 ,my sympa?y ) humank9d _h a n>r[ limit4 ,a wrong ar\s$ my wra? aga9/ ! p]petrator ( x1 :5 x %\ld h awak5$ my pity = ! d>k condition ( 8 m9d4 8,i 0 conceit$1 intol]ant1 impati5t1 bellig]5t & (t5 cruel4 ,i w5t ab\t ) a la% 9 my h&1 ready to adm9i/] ^u all :o did n live up to my /&>d4 ,n[ ,i see ! simpl] way ( :i* we 7 long s9ce told4 ,x is to love our wayw>d bro!rs4 ,:5 m5 le>n t an injury done ano!r injures !mselves f> m ?an ! o!r1 !y w cease to be unk9d4 8,z a matt] ( c\rse ,i c\ld n give up my old ways ( ?9k+ at once4 ,i /ill f\nd myself quick to ang] & ready to hate at ! k ( (f5ce or injury4 ,^! feel+s in/antly plung$ me into d>kness & ! companion%ip ( demons hide\s to behold4 8,x is s 9 y\r _w also4 ,rage & hate d>k5 y\r m9d1 & br+ into x hide\s demons ( ?\ght2 b love fills y ) light & beauty4 ,?\gh y\r conception ( love be crude & n>r[1 /ill ! g]m ( div9ity is 9 x1 & x w bright5 y\r way z f> z its light ext5ds4 ,if y are fai?ful to tru? z y see x1 broad] conceptions w come to y4 8,i am n capable ( in/ruct+ y on life "h1 only s f> z x has reveal$ itself to me4 ,ano!r may h diff]5t exp]i5ces & see a diff]5t outlook4 ,ea* s\l is b\nd$ by its own limitations1 :i* exp& z x advances4 ,i am b a /ud5t1 at ! feet ( wis] ma/]s2 b ,i mu/ give y :at ,i see1 n :at !y see4 8,i believe ! univ]se is electric2 t _s op]ates ?r\gh all nature by means ( :at y call electricity1 9 its diff]5t manife/ations4 ,! inf9ite m9d1 or :at is call$ ,god1 is ! highe/ & mo/ e!realiz$ sub/ance1 includ+ all else4 ,x possesses ! attributes ( inh]5t motion & liv+ p[]1 & x has a c5tre l a great c5tral sun1 ^: rays ext5d ev]y:]e ?r\gh a sy/em ( transmitt]s4 ,we live & move & h our be+ 9 x1 j z all physical life owes its exi/5ce to ! sun ( its sy/em4 ,electricity is ! s]vant ( ?is c5tral & all-inclusive m9d1 ^: e ?\ght is transmitt$ ?r\gh creation by means ( electrical & e!ric vibration4 ,e ?\ght ( y\rs creates a fla% ( electricity 9 y\r bra91 :i* becomes a transmitt]1 = ?\ght is electric4 ,d n =get1 h[ev]1 t ,i give ?is only z :at appe>s to me4 8,life is an endless *a94 ,to me n[ ! m]e fact ( liv+ aft] dea? seems a v small ?+--b "o little l9k 9 ! endless *a94 ,dazzl+ heights rise be=e u z ! s\l goes on up ! /eps ( k1 :]e inexhau/ible joys are laid up = u4 ,no?+ c\nts b k--k ( ! law4 ,n[ ,i und]/& t et]nal life is to "k ,god4 ,x takes et]nal life to "k him4 8,:5 y act f ! outlook ( love1 y w nev] g wrong2 = tru? is born ( love4 8,weave well ! fabric ( y\r ?\ght1 = ev]y?+ is made f x4 ,! law ( causation is inflexible4 ,:at y give y w get4 ,y\r ?\ghts w come back to y1 br++ :atev] freight ( evil or good ) :i* y s5t !m =?4 ,e "t y ?9k ( a p]son y affect him = good or ill4 8,if y s91 y w be ! s]vant ( s94 ,if y love good1 y w be ! in/rum5t ( good4 8#8,god is _s1 & !y t wor%ip ,him mu/ wor%ip ,him 9 _s & 9 tru?4' 8,! :ole law is !re4 ,if y live ! life ( ! _s1 y wor%ip ,god because y express tru?4 ,ea* man on e>?1 z to 8 real self1 is z true a _s z he ev] %all be4 ,only 9 mo/ cases he is ignorant ( t trem5d\s fact4 ,und]/& ?is & live x1 & y wor%ip ,god 9 _s & 9 tru?4 8,"h imag9ation is reality4 ,x is also ! creative realm 9 y\r _w4 ,i ?9k & w1 & my ?\ght takes =m4 ,i ?9k ( "o ,i love1 & in/antly ,i am ) t "o1 no matt] 9 h[ remote a "p ( ! univ]se he or %e may be4 8,i say remote1 because y ?9k ( di/ance z real4 ,to ! s\l x does n exi/ & nev] has exi/$4 ,x is b ! cont9uity ( ! m9d--a mode ( ?\ght4 ,i speak ( m9utes1 yet = u !re is no "t4 ,t too is b a mode ( ?\ght4 ,i mu/1 h[ev]1 use t]ms compreh5sible to y4 8,d ,i h ! same =m z 9 life8 ,yes4 8,d ,i we> clo!s8 ,i am clo!d by my own ?\ght1 & s are y1 b 9 a crud] way & by a sl[] process4 8,h ,i sight8 ,yes1 b x is n ! same z physical sight4 ,t 0 = ! objective life2 ?is is = all t is relat$ to my inn] or true be+ & ! true be+ ( o!rs4 8,h ,i ! o!r s5ses z 9 ! natural life8 ,yes2 9 a fulness & p]fection undream$ ( be=e4 ,i h !m & o!rs unkn[n to y all bl5d$ 9 "o va/ consci\sness :i* puts me 9 t\* ) all t relates to me 9 a mann] impossible to describe4 8,! s5ses are b av5ues ?r\gh :i* y\r _s takes cognizance ( its environm5t4 ,"h ! _s le>ns t x is its own environm5t4 8,is communion betwe5 ?is _w & y\rs b5eficial to ei!r "o8 7,rememb] !re is b "o _w4 ,! division is all 9 y\r ?\ght47 ,is n association ) high-m9d$1 well-in/ruct$ p]sons always b5eficial to y2 & association ) ! evil-m9d$ & untaught always hurtful8 8,h[ are human be+s to "k !y are dea?less2 if ! fact be n prov$ to !m by ways )9 _! compreh5sion8 ,c !re be any?+ b good 9 le>n+ ! law ( y\r own be+1 by :atev] means are op5 to y8 ,n only is x b5eficial1 b x is ! mo/ important bran* ( k y c /udy4 8,ev5 _s ph5om5a ( ! mo/ rudim5t>y ord] are useful & necess>y to ! awak5+ ( m9ds incapable ( und]/&+ high] me?ods ( in/ruction4 ,!re is a prim] /age 9 all le>n+4 8,! same law ( attraction gov]ns int]c\rse betwe5 u & y t reigns ?r\gh\t nature4 ,l attracts l4 ,y call to y ! same ord] ( m9d f "h t y attract !re f among ! liv+4 7,9 reality !re is nei!r a "h nor a !re1 save 9 y\r m9d4 ,all is ! same47 ,y\r habitual quality ( ?\ght w attract its l4 ,y w get :at y give4 ,?us x happ5s t ! fooli% get fooli% messages1 & ! e>ne/ & intellig5t g5]ally receive s5sible & in/ructive ones4 8,z ,i div9e ! purposes ( high] ord]s ( be+s "h1 !y c>e relatively little = ph5om5a1 & (t5 lam5t mu* connect$ ) ph5om5a2 b !y d c>e a great deal = :atev] ag5cy c rea* human m9ds & cause !m to ?9k1 ev5 = ev] s few m9utes1 ( :at is g5tle1 humane1 k9d1 consid]ate1 unselfi% & affectional4 ,^! are ! doors by :i* high]1 g5tl] spirits rea* human und]/&+s1 & by ^! means !y ex]t a p[] f> great] ?an is g5]ally suspect$4 8,= ! production ( ord9>y ph5om5a a high grade ( intellig5ce is n necess>y4 ,y d n ne$ a pr(essor to tea* a *ild its alphabet4 ,! bett] develop$ spirits f9d m subtle ways ( imp>t+ k1 & select m advanc$ m9ds to receive x ?an ^? t are satisfi$ ) rudim5t>y ph5om5a4 ,b t is necess>y to beg9 )4 8,"h z on e>?--rememb] ,i use a t]m imply+ locality = y\r bett] und]/&+1 ?\gh ! _s kn[s no locality--all :o enjoy a l>g] light ?an ! multitude are anxi\s to %>e x ) ^? less favor$4 ,by help+ o!rs into x !y receive m ( x !mselves4 ,?is is a law4 ,selfi%1 inde$1 w\ld be ! s\l :o _h a fai? t support$ him ?r\gh e trial1 & yet did n want o!rs to h x4 ,! he>t's desire ( e prophet1 g5ius & savior1 is to make o!rs see z he sees t :i* illum9es 8 own s\l4 ,= ?is cause ! noble/ & be/ h (t5 p]i%$--t is1 giv5 up _! physical life--to p]i% 9 reality be+ impossible4 ,!re=e1 communion betwe5 spirits /ill 9 ! body & ^? out ( x is "o ( ! mo/ important means ( education kn[n--! *ief occupation ( "s :o are "h4 8,toy+ ) ph5om5a = ! sole purpose ( gratify+ curiosity--m]e wond]-mong]+--is always to be deprecat$4 8,(t51 z 9 my case1 ! opportunity ( communicat+ ) fri5ds left beh9d sets a _s free f 8 own unhappy ?\ght-limitations4 ,x lifts a burd5 f him4 ,my desire to prove to y t ,i 0 n dead held me 9 bondage until ,i bridg$ ! gulf4 ,int5se love = "o is always a k9d ( bondage4 ,! p]fect love we %all "k1 :5 ! tru? has fre$ u1 is all-embrac+1 univ]sal1 l unto ! love ( ,god--x is ! love ( ,god4 8,:5 ,i read ^! words ( ,condillac ,i laugh$ at !m3 #8,?\gh we %\ld so> into ! heav5s1 ?\gh we %\ld s9k into ! abyss1 we nev] g out ( ourselves2 x is always our ?\ght t we p]ceive4' 8,n[ ,i c affirm _! tru?4 ,we c nev] run away f ourselves4 ,we take our own _w ) u :]ev] we g1 = x is made ( our ?\ght--#8x is always our own ?\ght t we p]ceive4' ,we are our own ?\ght--& ! smalle/ insect or /ronge/ & fi]ce/ bea/ or greate/ g5ius is no less & no m4 8,9 ! life ( ! _w ,i nev] knew happ9ess4 ,beh9d a cynical & res]v$ ext]ior ,i mask$ a re/less1 suff]+ _s4 ,creation appe>$ a grim trag$y4 ,?is 0 because my inn] eyes 7 clos$1 & ,i took ! di/ort$ %ad[ = ! reality4 ,i 0 look+ at a fanta/ic mirror & saw only its exagg]at$ reflections4 ,i ridicul$ ! idea ( any "o's be+ happy 9 su* a _w4 ,n[ ,i "k t man is de/9$ to be happy1 b 8 happ9ess is ( ! _s1 & c only come ) spiritual developm5t1 :5 he kn[s t he is _s1 lives ! life ( ! _s1 & s becomes free f ! bonds ( ignorance4 ,?is is :at is meant by ! tru? mak+ u free4 ,ignorance is ! only evil !re is--m]e bl9dness to ! light1 ?\gh ! light is always %9+4 ,:5 y "k ! tru?1 y become ! tru?1 & are out ( ! d>kness ( ignorance1 !re=e free4 ,?is is1 ,i am told1 ! ultimate de/9y ( ! :ole human race4 8,rememb] t ,god nev] puni%es any "o4 ,he only tea*es4 ,?is1 ! *ildr5 ( ! _w h to le>n4 ,!y1 too1 mu/ elim9ate puni%m5t f _! me?ods ( deal+ ) ! wrongdo]s1 o!rwise ! ignorant4 8,a wise fri5d told me to cease my self-que/ion+ & /riv+1 & let k f9d me4 ,he said we h only to let good come to u & x w fill u4 ,to d ?is we mu/ make ourselves receptive--negative--& ! _s1 ! "o _s1 :i* includes all wisdom1 all love1 all life1 be+ positive1 w fl[ into u4 ,he said our cont9ual /riv+ & /ruggl+ made u positive1 & !re=e unreceptive4 ,?is enabl$ me to see a new mean+ 9 ! "q1 #8,:o1 by se>*+ c f9d out ,god8' 8,! law is to be /ill--ready to receive--& let him ent]4 8,:5 ,i did ?is ,i em]g$ f suff]+ & d>kness1 & = ! fir/ "t 9 ! memory ( my consci\s exi/5ce felt my _s at re/40 ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,,uproot+ ,a ,,human ,,tree4 ,a man said unto 8 angel3 8,my spirits are fall5 ?r\gh1 ,& ,i _c c>ry ?is battle3 ,o ,bro!r1 :at %all ,i d80 99 99 99 99 99 ,!n said to ! man 8 angel3 8,?\ wav]+1 fooli% s\l1 ,back to ! ranks6 ,:at matt] ,to w9 or lose ! :ole40 --,l\ise ,imog5 ,gu9ey4 ,! ,joys1 o!rwise ! ,hanleys1 fell into f9ancial tr\ble4 ,burton ,hanley 0 =c$ to make an assignm5t = ! b5efit ( 8 cr$itors4 ,he _h en\gh to pay e doll> he ow$1 & he turn$ x all ov] ) an out-(-date hone/y t sc&aliz$ ! community4 ,! envi\s f\nd a c]ta9 sweetness 9 ?is news4 ,nodd+ _! heads kn[+ly1 !y said !y guess$ ! ,joys 7 ab\t done ) ,joy4 ,b ?is did n seem to be ! case4 ,on ! ev5+ foll[+ ! assignm5t !y 7 at an ent]ta9m5t 9 ! h\se ( a fri5d & 7 ! bli!/ gue/s1 z !y g5]ally 74 ,! kn[+ ones said ?is light-he>t$ness 0 put on--a m]e bluff to make o!rs ?9k !y did n value money4 ,z a matt] ( fact x 0 n4 ,!y _h simply =gott5 all ab\t _! f9ancial tr\bles 9 ! engross+ pleasures ( ! h\r4 ,?is enviable faculty = enjoy+ ! pres5t mom5t1 uncl\d$ by pa/ or future %ad[s 0 l>gely responsible = _! joy\s lives4 ,= !m !re 0 only ! n[4 ,!y nev] reason$ or philosophiz$ ab\t x1 b j liv$ t way by nature4 8,wait till !y h a h&-to-h& fight ) ,pov]ty10 said ! kn[+ ones1 :o are (t5 ! cruel ones4 8,wait till he writes 8 "n on _! clo!s1 _! faces & _! ?\ghts4 ,wait till he walks ) !m1 sits ) !m1 eats ) !m & nev] leaves !m = an in/ant6 ,wait60 ,!y said ?is 9 a way t made _! he>]s und]/& ! wait+ w\ld n require pati5ce4 ,k9d] ones sigh$ & said ! ,joys1 poor s\ls1 laugh$ at pov]ty1 because !y didn't "k its horrors4 ,b !y 7 de/9$ to bett] acqua9tance ) ! dread$ spectre4 ,meantime !y w5t _! way rejoic+ t affairs 7 no worse4 ,lilla 0 s full ( :at %e _h le>n$ ?r\gh ,*rissalyn ( ! dea?lessness ( h]self & fell[ be+s1 t %e bubbl$ ov] l a kettle fill$ to ! brim & boil+4 ,:at 0 loss ( money & a conte/ ) pov]ty to "o :o knew t ,dea? 0 dead8 ,?is k 0 ( a "* too f]m5tative to rema9 bottl$ up )9 h]4 ,%e w5t ar\nd talk+ ( x1 unm9dful ( ! injunction n to ca/ pe>ls be=e sw9e4 ,an en?usia/ by nature1 & end[$ ) p[] to c>ry conviction to an extraord9>y degree1 x is /range %e did n succe$ 9 ! propag&a2 b %e did n4 ,on ! contr>y ! sw9e turn$ ^u h] & %e 0 r5d$1 l o!r prophets :o h be5 guilty ( simil> indiscretion4 ,to ea* o!r "s ( ! sw9e said3 8,poor ,lilla ,joy4 ,burton's failure has upset h] aft] all4 ,talks ab\t no?+ b s\ls4 ,?9ks %e has _h pro( ( dead folks be+ alive4 ,x's too bad40 ,b ,lilla refus$ to be ca/ d[n4 ,aft] a "t %e gave up ! hopeless "w ( lett+ h] light %9e too f>1 x is true1 b %e kept h] /rangely happy face & joy\s ways--kept !m ?r\gh _m a d>k day1 on _m a /ony road--kept !m to ! end4 ,%e met all ?+s1 tr\bl\s or pleasant1 z ,socrates said he wi%$ to meet ! gods--) a bright face4 ,?is nev]-*ang+ brightness made an impression on ev]ybody :o beheld x4 ,"o might feebly describe x by say+ t h] s\l seem$ too l>ge & too happy = its mortal measure1 & 0 always runn+ ov]4 ,p]haps ! (fice boy ( ! ,regi/] hit x mo/ felicit\sly1 :5 he ?us describ$ h] to ,c>tice1 :o _h be5 out1 :5 %e call$ "o day3 8,x 0 t lady :o comes (t5 & always looks z if %e _h j he>d good news40 ,mrs4 ,dor+ recogniz$ ! ^w photograph ( ,lilla ,joy at once4 99 99 99 99 99 ,!re are times 9 ! lives ( all :5 new dep>tures are imm95t1 :5 a *ange is imp5d+ & obligatory1 yet is sl[ to def9e itself4 ,!re is ! feel+ t o!r pa?s mu/ be ent]$1 b to ! out] eye !y are unblaz$4 ,su* a "t _h come to ,c>tice ,dor+4 ,%e _h long felt its approa*1 b knew n ! end to :i* x po9t$4 ,some?+ m ?an impulse /irr$ )9 h]4 ,! ,_s ( ,de/9y itself spoke ! inexorable comm& to move on4 ,:i!r8 8,move on40 ,?is 0 ! only answ]1 = ,de/9y has a way ( mak+ u *oose our roads1 ?\gh = ! mo/ "p ! v>i\s :ips )9 & )\t :i* play ^u u seem to make ! matt] ( *oice l>gely a ?+ ( "n only4 ,we d :at we c r ?an :at we wi%4 ,?is %\ld give u a gra9 ( com=t on d>k days by reliev+ u ( regrets1 & settl+ u 9 ! conviction t we are no m & no less ?an t :i* we mu/ be4 ,ev5 ?\gh our own nature be ! compell+ & direct+ =ce1 we are none ! less s]vants to its dicta4 ,call t :i* rules u by :atev] "n we *oose1 h[ supreme is ! sway6 ,look+ ov] ! situation ,mrs4 ,dor+ summ$ up ! reasons = mak+ a *ange4 ,fir/1 %e 0 n do+ h] be/2 %e 0 lett+ d[n a little all ! "t1 & t cle>ly 0 deg5]ation4 ,pleasure 9 h] "w _h gone & p]functory p]=mance tak5 its place4 ,%e 0 we>y ( ! mis]able bus9ess ( writ+ to please ! _m-head$ multitude1 :i* ! late ,dr4 ,*>les ,mackay 0 fond ( describ+ z 8fool ( a public2 pig ( a public10 :ile h] hone/ convictions _h to be kept lock$ up 9 h] s\l & label$1 8,dang]\s10 l a c ( dynamite4 ,9 ,prescott's day %e 0 free to say :at %e ?\ght ought to be said4 ,n[1 %e 0 frequ5tly br\ght to book = utt]ances f> too bold1 9 ! op9ion ( ! proprietors ( ! pap]1 :o insi/$ on a close connection betwe5 ! c\nt+ room & editorial desk4 ,z a result ( con/antly trimm+ to suit ! fitful breezes ( public ta/e1 ! ,regi/] 0 los+ gr\nd4 ,/range law t gov]ns ! m9ds ( m56 ,k[t[ to !m & !y despise & neglect y4 ,defy !m & !y respect & c\rt y4 ,no2 %e mu/ n /ay ) ! ,regi/]4 ,int]nal wrangl+s 7 %ak+ x4 ,an eruption might take place any day1 *ang+ ! :ole face ( its affairs4 ,= h] salvation1 intellectual & physical1 %e mu/ g4 ,yet habit1 fri5d%ip & a horrible dread ( fac+ new difficulties put up a plea = h] to /ay4 ,no2 %e mu/ g1 no matt] :at %e _h to meet1 lonel9ess1 humiliation1 disappo9tm5t1 defeat1 want1 dea? itself4 ,,mu/4 ,some?+ told h] t 9 a way t brook$ no contradiction4 ,b %e 0 s tir$--m tir$ ?an any "o dream$1 9 spite ( h] almo/ jaunty *e]fulness4 ,& :at _h %e z f9ancial armor = ! new battle ab\t to beg98 ,grimly %e smil$ z %e ca/ h] m9d's eye 9 t direction4 ,a few doll>s only4 8,v]ily indu/ry & tal5t comb9$ are ri*ly rew>d$10 %e said4 ,yet %e _h made reputation2 %e 0 consid]$ successful4 ,h[ev]1 _m a slave to ! p5 kn[s t reputation & money d n always g h& 9 h&4 ,besides ?is impos+ capital %e _h h] exp]i5ce & ! k ( h] own p[]s :i* x _h br\ght4 ,valuable capital1 to be sure4 ,yet exp]i5ce br+s u ano!r gift :i* helps to weak5 u by c\nt]act+ our fai? 9 ourselves1 & t is a k ( ! difficulties1 a bold outl9+ ( ! greatness ( ! task4 ,:at else _h %e :]e) to gird h]self = t trip into ! unexplor$1 s sure to involve risks ( _m k9ds8 ,9 ! tee? ( a wi% to f9d a quiet place & !re lie d[n1 clos+ h] eyes to ! _w =ev]1--9 ! face ( a we>9ess untellable1 %e knew t )9 ! hidd5 dep?s ( h]self1 "u all ! sc>s1 disappo9tm5ts & fatigues 0 c\rage4 ,:at o!r prop _h %e8 ,a /rong1 an inv9cible "o--! k t et]nal be+ & h] be+ 7 "o & ! same1 & t %e 0 nev] alone or dep5d5t on h]self1 h[ev] mu* ?is seem$ to be ! case2 t liv+1 lov+ s\ls1 angels1 if y *oose1 _h *>ge conc]n+ h] & t ! ev]la/+ arms ( univ]sal love 7 ev] ab\t h]4 ,%e w\ld g to ,new ,york1 a field ( _m glean]s1 truly1 b big1 & !re=e ( promise4 ,! ne$le ( h] de/9y po9t$ 9 t direction4 ,!re 0 its magnet4 ,) ! decision came peace4 ,yet day aft] day %e l+]$1 tell+ no "o ( h] decision1 & feel+ t %e belong$ nei!r to ! place %e 0 9 nor to t = :i* %e 0 b\nd--a curi\s1 deta*$ sort ( exi/5ce su* z _h ev] be5 h]s1 :5 %e mu/ te> h]self f an accu/om$ place & seek an unaccu/om$ "o4 ,! "w ( uproot+ h]self involv$ pa9s & groans l ^? ( a great tree1 :5 torn up by a /orm4 ,9 love ( locality ,c>tice 0 a tree1 & frequ5tly said s4 ,h] pleasure w\ld h be5 to live always 9 "o place1 tak+ deep] root e day1 & lov+ ! soil t su/a9$ h]4 ,d\btless because ?is 0 h] nature1 fate decre$ t %e %\ld h no *ance to take deep root any:]e1 = h] own good4 ,^? days ( inw>d groan+ & tree-l cl++ to a spot ( :i* %e _h long be5 we>y1 rem9d$ h] ( o!r days1 n[ ye>s 9 ! pa/1 :5 %e _h uproot$ h]self f ! only peaceful bit ( life %e _h kn[n1 to g =? & m>ry ,l\is ,dor+ & become si/] to mis]y4 ,!n %e _h sway$ & clung & groan$ day aft] day1 only to yield at la/ to ! =ce t rul$ h] de/9y1 & %e knew %e mu/ d ! same n[4 ,a "t came1 h[ev]1 :5 ! human tree lay prone1 its uproot+ an accompli%$ fact4 ,its roots1 b>$ to ! sun & w9d1 trembl$ a little1 b ! groan+ 0 ov]4 ,n[ !re 0 no?+ to d b tell ,*rissalyn & g4 ,! ,butt]fly pal$ z %e he>d ! decision4 8,i h kn[n ?is = a long "t10 %e said1 8long be=e y knew x y\rself1 b ,i w\ld n speak ( x1 le/ y might be guid$ by :at ,i said4 ,i le>n$ x by ! inside way t ?+s are told me s (t54 ,x's h>d = me to h y g2 b ,i und]/&1 & believe x's = ! be/4 ,does any "o else "k80 8,n yet4 ,i don't tell o!rs1 ev5 good fri5ds1 because !y w ask que/ions ab\t my plans & dig my v he>t out ( my body to f9d out all ab\t :at ,i am go+ to d4 ,9 ! fir/ place ,i don't "k4 ,9 ! second ,i %\ld n c>e to tell if ,i did4 ,tell+ spoils ev]y?+ = me4 ,:y d p make inquisitions ( !mselves & torture o!rs m]ely to gratify an idle curiosity80 8,c>tice0--,*rissalyn spoke a little cauti\sly--89 ! face ( :at y h be5 say+1 & kn[+ t y\r temp] is n s]aphic1 ,i w say ,i wi% ,i knew = sure t y w\ld h some?+ to hold on to1 :5 y get to ,new ,york40 8,*riss1 de>1 ,i mu/ f9d some?+1 t's all !re is to x4 ,,mu/4 ,t ^w is a magnet draw+ :atev] x dem&s4 ,:5ev] we ,,mu/ h some?+1 we get x40 ,contact ) ! indu/rial problem _h let a few practical ideas into ! ,butt]fly's once airy head4 ,!re=e %e 0 conc]n$ ab\t ! f9ancial future ( h] fri5d4 ,/ill1 %e did n compreh5d ! situation 9 its tragic entirety4 ,a prop ( "s k9d _h ev] be5 ne> = h] to lean on 9 dire extremity4 ,fate provides props = ^? :o are n /rong en\gh to /& alone2 b ! great s\ls are plac$ :]e !re is no?+ to lean aga9/1 t !y may bo? keep & %[ _! /r5g?4 ,!y suff]2 _! he>ts (t5 ble$2 b !y /&4 ,!n1 too1 ,*rissalyn look$ ^u h] fri5d z a p]son ( su* incomp>able ability1 t %e c\ld ov]come any ob/acle1 h[ev] =midable4 8,h[ ,i %all miss y1 ,c>tice10 %e said1 huskily4 8,h[ lonely & b]eft ,i %all be40 8,y h y\r admir]s1 y\r mo?s40 8,my mo?s8 ,yes1 my mis]able mo?s10 said ,*rissalyn1 contemptu\sly4 8,!y are ab\t z mu* com=t to me1 z s _m ( ! g5u9e insects4 ,i am a pro( ( evolution4 ,i h evolv$ too f> to f9d !m int]e/+4 ,b :]e are ! m58 ,d !y n exi/ outside ( novels any m8 ,= a long "t ,i *]i%$ dreams ( meet+ "o :om ,i c\ld love )\t be+ a%am$ ( myself1 b ,i am giv+ !m up4 ,sometimes1 :]e ,i he> ( fri5ds m>ry+1 x all s\nds s f9e t ,i am q envi\s until ,i see _! husb&s1 & !n ,i am bett] cont5t$40 ,= ,c>tice ! pa9 ( p>t+ f h] fri5d 0 int5sifi$ by ! k t x meant loss ( opportunity to talk ) h] belov$ unse5 p4 ,! ,butt]fly 0 a telephone to ! o!r _w ^: l might nev] be met aga94 ,!y sp5t ! la/ ev5+ toge!r4 ,_! invisible fri5ds und]/ood :at 0 det]m9$ ^u1 )\t any tell+4 ,prescott 0 ask$ if he _h any sugge/ions to make 9 reg>d to ,c>tice's plans4 8,x is n = u to direct y10 he said4 8,y mu/ /e] y\r own b>k4 ,t is ! bus9ess ( life4 ,! field is wide1 & y h y\r place !re9 & w f9d x4 ,don't be disc\rag$4 ,we %all be (t5 ) y1 & %all keep an eye on y40 ,! ev5+ 0 "o long to be rememb]$ by ! two :o 7 s soon to be sep>at$1 t+$ z x 0 ) ! melan*oly t colors all la/ occasions4 ,! f9al glimpse ,c>tice _h ( ! place t _h be5 to h] a city ( sorr[ z well z ( light1 %[$ h] ! ,butt]fly wav+ a lov+ & te>ful adieu4 ,de> ,butt]fly6 ,0 !re ev] s *>m+ a comb9ation ( vanity1 love ( pleasure1 e>?ly prett9ess & goddess-l ability to d wondr\s ?+s8 ,c>tice settl$ h]self = h] j\rney1 feel+ some:at z a s\l might :o _h j issu$ f "o v difficult & wret*$ inc>nation & knew t 9 a few h\rs x mu/ beg9 ano!r1 :i* 9 all probability w\ld prove m difficult & m wret*$4 ,x takes c\rage to face ! m\?s ( cannon2 yet t1 ?\gh horrible1 la/s n long4 ,b ! woman :o1 alone & unkn[n1 goes into ! mix$ & frightful mass ( humank9d repres5t$ by a great city1 to seek a *ance to e>n hone/ bread1 displays a c\rage besides :i* t ( ! brave/ soldi] mu/ lose a little ( its lu/]4 ,& any "o :o makes h] h>d road h>d]1 builds = himself a wall :i* w n be easy to scale2 he is b l5g!n+ ! p]iod ( 8 own spiritual evolution4 ,! tra9 roll$ on1 its :eels beat+ a /eady rhy?m l ! feet ( fly+ horses1 _! vibrations /rik+ ! sick he>t ( ! we>y woman inside1 & mak+ x quake ) t]ror4 ,%e _h kept a smil+ face be=e ! ,butt]fly cle> to ! la/2 b n[ t %e 0 alone--at lea/ unkn[n to h] fell[ travel]s1 h5ce secure f intrusion1 h] c\rage evaporat$1 & %e curl$ up on h] s(a1 a m]e lump ( suff]+4 ,z ! telegraph po/s flew by %e pictur$ h]self tak5 out1 ti$ to "o & %ot dead by balls f _m rifles1 & e>ne/ly wi%$ %e c\ld ex*ange h] pres5t situation = su* brief pa94 ,is ?is _w hell8 ,! qu]y _h come to h] be=e1 & n[ x *all5g$ h] boldly4 ,^: happ9ess or safety 0 secure = ! morr[8 ,( :at 0 ahead ( h] %e sc>cely d>$ to ?9k4 ,glimpses ( its grim possibilities fla%$ across h] m9d1 mak+ h] mobile face set & /]n4 ,a fright5$ light came into h] eyes & a /range expression flutt]$ ar\nd h] m\?4 ,9 imag9ation %e 0 see+ ! two riv]s t fl[ on ei!r side ( ,new ,york1 & 0 ?9k+ ( :at !y _h done & 7 yet to d = ^? :o f\nd ! burd5 ( life great] ?an !y c\ld be>4 ,9 t mom5t %e felt a cool1 s(t breeze ab\t h]1 & ) x came ! ?\ght t %e c\ld nev] seek solace !re--%e :o knew t life rea*$ out an unbrok5 l9e1 beyond ! sight & ev5 ! dreams ( m54 ,n = h] ran riv]s1 ^: fl[+ wat]s lapp$ & swirl$ & woo$ _w-we>y he>ts4 ,did %e believe t sil5ce1 no?+ness1 ins5sate du/ alone 7 at ! end ( our j\rney "h1 !re2 bless$ be ! riv]s6 ,b %e knew--knew beyond d\bt t no riv] c ext+ui% ! sp>k ( div9ity we call consci\sness4 ,aft] all1 :y %\ld %e fe>8 ,no "o /&s absolutely alone4 ,!re is no sep>at5ess1 no diff]5tiation4 ,back ( ea*1 et]nal ,be+ mirrors itself =ev]2 & t :i* we see is z no?+ comp>$ to t :i* we see n4 ,! cl\d ( witnesses m ?an witnesses4 ,influ5ces invisible1 b p[]ful1 are ev] work+ = u4 ,?reads hidd5 f bodily eyes connect u ) all life beheld & unbeheld4 ,h] own p 7 9 t\* ) h]1 lov$ & inspir$ h]1 no matt] 9 :at "p ( ! univ]se !y dwelt1 & no?+ c\ld divide h] f !m4 ,rememb]+ ?is1 ! %ad[ ( fe> pass$1 & %e prep>$ to meet h] de/9y ) c\rage4 ,new k _h br\ght new responsibility4 ,life 0 n to be haggl$ ?r\gh z a hateful b>ga92 x mu/ be liv$ 9 ! highe/ s5se2 its lessons fai?fully le>n$ & "* con/ruct$ by ! ma/] ar*itect1 exp]i5ce4 ,"o mu/ d "o's be/1 9 ! tee? ( ! /orm1 9 ! front ( ! battle4 ,we mu/ always be able to look our s\ls 9 ! face )\t %ame4 ,suppose h] ef=ts & ev5 h] life end$ 9 failure at la/6 ,:at matt]8 ,to succe$ 9 ! _w's op9ion is (t5 to fail 9 ! exact+ eye ( consci5ce4 ,p]haps ! only p]man5t success is failure4 ,! joy1 ! glory & ! rew>d are 9 ! do+1 n 9 ! result4 ,! fateful "q = all ( u w be1 n1 8,ha/ ?\ won80 b 8,ha/ ?\ /riv580 ,! ?+s we call pa9 & pleasure %e knew to be illusions1 m]e ?\ght pictures pa9t$ on ! canvas ( our consci\sness1 by ignorance--ignorance ( our true be+ & ! true purpose ( exi/5ce4 ,s %e said1 8,no matt] :at comes1 s9ce ,i "k t out ( all ! pa9 & humiliation ! _w c put ^u me1 out ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i %all rise & pass on to my et]nal unfold+4 8,= me !re is no want4 ,h ,i n bread to eat t ?\s&s ( o!rs z yet h n1 because !y w n receive x8 8,= me & = ! :ole human race !re is b "o ?+ ne$ful1 & t is ! k t et]nal be+ is )91 ar\nd1 ab\t u & we are x40 ,spiritualism8 ,! ignorant w say ) a sne]4 ,yes1 9 ! highe/1 broade/ & deepe/ s5se4 ,x su/a9$ ?is lonely woman on h] j\rney to a great city to "w out h] life's problem1 & aft] %e 0 !re x gave h] pati5ce & confid5ce4 ,x made x impossible = h] to seek ! riv]1 & enabl$ h] to we> a *e]ful face & c>ry a hopeful he>t1 :ile h] little /ore ( money dribbl$ d[n to a few lonesome doll>s4 ,)\t ?is rock ( fai? ^? long1 lonely days ( seek+ & wait+ w\ld h be5 unbe>able4 ,sometimes %e sat 9 ! public squ>es look+ compassionately ^u ! pitiful p ab\t h]4 ,! homeless1 ! hopeless1 ! hungry1 ! despair+1 ! we>y1 ! ail+1 ! suff]+1 ! brok5-he>t$ 7 !re1 "s 9 rags & "s 9 f9e g>m5ts4 ,)9 ea* "o a*$ & ate ! cank] ( a wret*$ness !y tri$ to hide f happi] s\ls :o pass$ !m by4 ,c>tice read _! mis]y by ! light ( pa/ suff]+1 & ye>n$ to say to !m3 8,awake6 ,y are 9 a d>k dream4 ,! conditions t tr\ble y are unreal--m]e illusions1 & t\* n y\r true life at all4 ,y are gods e "o1 b unaw>e ( y\r div9ity4 ,"o day ! dream %all pass & y %all "k ?is40 ,b ! etiquette ( civilization =bade x4 ,we see our fell[ be+s suff] & p]i% f "s w\nd 9 ! s\l1 yet approa* !m n4 ,all %e c\ld d 0 to s5d out to !m1 ?r\gh ! sil5t waves ( ?\ght1 messages ( hope & good *e]4 ,9 ^? days ( /riv+ & wait+ & /udy+ ! sw>m+ life ab\t h] ,mrs4 ,dor+ turn$ ov] ! economic problem 9 h] m9d _m times4 ,curi\s indu/rial sy/em1 t condemns idl5ess & yet makes ! se>* = employm5t bitt] & h>d6 ,! two arts :i* held h] *ance 7 h$g$ ab\t 9 su* a way t ! mo/ %e c\ld d 0 to %oot an arr[ f af> & tru/ t x might /ick4 ,nor 0 %e unaw>e t _m o!r arr[s 7 fly+ f o!r ar*]s1 ea* "o dim9i%+ ! *ances ( ! re/4 ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,,bohemia',s ,,highways ,,& ,,byways4 8,"w ?\ = pleasure2 pa9t or s+ or c>ve ,! ?+ ?\ love/1 ?\gh ! body />ve4 ,:o works = glory misses (t ! goal2 ,:o works = money co9s 8 v s\l4 ,"w = ! "w's sake1 !n1 & x may be ,t ^! ?+s %all be add$ unto !e40 --,k5yon ,cox4 ,"o day a miracle happ5$1--at lea/ ,c>tice ,dor+ consid]$ x a miracle4 ,%e 0 sw++ to a /rap 9 "o ( ! always dirty & frequ5tly cr[d$ c>s ( ! elevat$ railroad--:51 z ! tra9 w5t ricket+ r\nd a curve %e 0 flung aga9/ a man beh9d h] ) su* =ce t bo? well-nigh fell to ! floor4 ,be=e %e c\ld apologize1 a famili> voice said3 8,mrs4 ,dor+6 ,i'm delight$ to h be5 knock$ d[n1 s9ce x proves to be ! means ( meet+ y40 ,he 0 a newspap] man ^: occasional visits to ! ,regi/] %e _h greatly enjoy$2 & 8 0 ! fir/ famili> face t %e _h enc\nt]$ s9ce %e _h turn$ h] back on =m] sc5es4 8,:y1 ,mr4 ,f>nswor?1 ,i'm glad en\gh to cry10 %e blurt$ out1 & came ne> prov+ ! tru? ( h] ass]tion4 ,:5 he le>n$ t %e _h come to ,new ,york to seek h] =tune1 he said3 8,i c put a spoke 9 y\r :eel1 = ,i came "h ) t int5tion myself1 & h my t5t p]man5tly pit*$4 ,a p5 & p5cil l y\rs ne$ nev] be idle4 ,come to our publi%+ h\se to-morr[ at two o'clock--"h's a c>d--& we w lay ! corn]-/one ( y\r future greatness40 ,c>tice 0 wakeful f> into ! night nurs+ h] gratitude1 & ?9k+ ov] ! miracle4 ,f>nswor? _h be5 a lifelong fri5d to ,prescott4 ,p]haps ,prescott br\ght ab\t _! meet+1 & put x into ,f>nswor?'s head to employ h]4 ,:o kn[s :at ! p we call dead may n be able to d8 ,p]haps !y give u _m ( our ?\ghts1 purposes & plans4 ,does n e ev5t 9 our lives1 h[ev] trivial & insignificant1 hang ^u ?\s&s ( prec$+ ev5ts1 great & small8 ,& :5 x comes to a "q ( :at a s\l c or _c d1 embodi$ or disembodi$1 :o c answ]8 ,:at is ! s\l ( man8 ,be=e assign+ x limitations x 7 well to "k its composition4 ,x is assum$ to be ! 8immortal unit :i* repres5ts p]sonality02 b "h & !re h be5 m5 & wom5 :o demon/rat$ a m>vel\s complexity ( ego1 _! visible body seem+ a m]e t5em5t = a v>iety ( di/9ct p]sonalities1 all l9k$ toge!r by "s my/]i\s *a9 ( k9%ip1 ?\gh n all resembl+ ea* o!r1 & n always dwell+ 9 h>mony4 ,/ev5son makes ,dr4 ,jekyll say1 8,i haz>d a guess t man w be ultimately kn[n = a m]e polity ( multif>i\s1 incongru\s & indep5d5t d5iz5s40 ,are we n all consci\s ( a ,mr4 ,hyde )9 u :o breaks out at times & sadly /a9s ! good record ( ,dr4 ,jekyll8 ,may we n be h>bor+ _m ,jekylls & ,hydes1 ea* diff]+ 9 degrees ( goodness & badness8 ,?9k+ on ?is1 ,c>tice rememb]$ ! answ] ( ! nameless wise "o to ! "q1 8,:at is ! s\l80--an answ] t />tl$ h]1 = x op5$ a vi/a s va/1 s9ce x meant t ! s\l is ,god1 or absolute be+ reveal+ himself or itself4 ,?is be+ grant$1 its p]sonalities are beyond computation4 ,its ,jekylls & ,hydes & its millions :i* are nei!r ,jekylls nor ,hydes are pa/ numb]4 ,9 a sea ( wond] l ?is is x wor? :ile to pond] ! causes ( any miracle great or t9y8 ,! next day ,c>tice f\nd h]self in/all$ at a desk 9 ,f>nswor?'s publi%+ h\se1 p5 & p5cil bo? fly+4 ,! wi%$-= foo?old 0 f\nd1 & %e /ood ^u x1 busy & grateful4 ,aft] becom+ acqua9t$ ) a numb] ( ! metropolitan p ( ! p51 %e 0 oblig$ to give up _m ( h] illusions reg>d+ !m4 ,"s ( :om %e _h =m$ a flatt]+ op9ion1 on acqua9tance fell f> bel[ ! m>k4 ,o!rs :o flew high on pap]1 kept %ock+ly ne> ! gr\nd (f pap]4 ,"s :o _h be5 successful 7 /ruggl+ frantically aga9/ a turn ( ! tide4 ,b t :i* a/oni%$ & pa9$ h] mo/ 0 _! lack ( ennobl+ ideals4 ,_! p5s 7 ev] po9t$ t[>d ! m>ket1 _! talk 0 ( prices1 n ideas1 & ! %r9e at :i* !y wor%ipp$ 0 ! n9? lett] ( ! alphabet4 ,= ! mo/ "p !y 7 s busy writ+ & talk+ ( :at !y _h writt5 & int5d$ to write1 t none read ano!r's production4 ,l swimm]s 9 a turbul5t sea1 _! en]gies 7 :olly giv5 to ! bus9ess ( keep+ afloat4 ,9 slav]y to ! bak] & meat-sell]1 !y express$ only su* s5tim5ts z !y believ$ acceptable to ! commonplace majority1--o!rwise m>ketable products4 ,!y trimm$1 temp]$1 prun$1 :ittl$ & cut _! lit]>y w>es1 to make !m suit :at !y suppos$ to be ! public's wants1 )\t reg>d to consci5ce or convictions4 ,did all angle 9 ^! %all[ wat]s8 ,no6 ,"h & !re a wor?y few _h boldly refus$ to write d[n to ! l[ level ( av]age intellig5ce4 ,!y _h p5n$ _! hone/ ?\ght1 & by s do+ _h br\ght a respectable portion ( ! public up to _! plane1 fame & money sometimes com+ ) x4 ,consci\sly or unconsci\sly !y _h op]at$ a great law ( ! univ]se1 t ( giv+ "o's be/ to get ! be/4 ,9 o!r words !y _h fai?fully foll[$ _! highe/ ideals1 9 ! face ( possible ru91 "u ! pressure ( pov]ty & ! fr[ns ( public ta/e & op9ion4 ,to d ?is is to live a great pr9ciple1 to set ! s\l free4 ,:oev] does ?is %all reap ! rew>d ( pr9ciple2 he %all f9d 8 measure full4 ,! multitude ^: slavi% bonds ( ignorance he defies w cr+e & fawn at 8 feet & p\r its gold into 8 c(f]s4 ,! ideal is ! real4 ,if x be high its fai?ful foll[]s are lift$ up4 ,work]s :o sp5d _! lives 9 ?r[+ sops to ! mass ( m$iocre m9ds pay ! inevitable p5alty at la/4 ,!y fall into ! contempt ( ! v mon/] ^: favor !y h c\rt$1 :o at he>t respects only its ma/]s1 n its slaves4 99 99 99 99 99 ,"o day ,b>dell1 a /raggl] ^: weapon 0 ! p5cil & ^: field 0 ! dreadful "o ( ! commone/ newspap] art1 /opp$ at ,mrs4 ,dor+'s desk1 z he (t5 did1 = a ^w or two4 ,%e reg>d$ him z an almo/ hopeless bungl]1 b lik$ 8 unass]tive1 dreamy p]sonality4 ,"s ( 8 draw+s 7 altoge!r abom9able1 & 9 none ( !m did he seem to h ! slighte/ pride4 ,he 0 und]siz$ & que]-look+1 ) a big squ>e head1 a ?9 /oop+ body1 l>ge holl[ eyes1 & a face t sugge/$ a worn-out _s4 ,ord9>ily he _h almo/ no words ab\t any?+1 yet seem$ to d]ive a sil5t pleasure f hang+ ne> ,c>tice's desk a few mom5ts1 :5 he br\ght 8 draw+s to ! 8art man0 ( ! h\se4 ,8 self-effacem5t 0 s refre%+ to ,c>tice aft] mu* contact ) pu%+ n9?-lett] p1 t %e %[$ him m>k$ civility4 ,to-day he seat$ himself & ask$ h] op9ion ( ! draw+ he c>ri$4 ,z usual1 8 mann] 0 )\t animation1 yet %e in/antly felt t he expect$ a ^w ( praise4 ,?is 0 extraord9>y on 8 "p1 z he inv>iably gave out ! wordless impression t he cont9u$ to live m f habit ?an any?+ else1 b f\nd life :olly )\t int]e/4 ,! picture1 :i* 0 de/9$ to illu/rate a j+l+ little rhyme & visualize x = su* read]s z h no imag9ation1 repres5t$ a %ort-skirt$ maid /&+ by a ru/ic f\nta91 pit*] 9 h&4 ,c>tice gave a little cry ( delight1 z h] eyes fell ^u x1 ?\gh a second glance %[$ h] t some?+ 0 wrong ) x1 b :at1 %e c\ld n = a mom5t say4 ,pres5tly ! blund] /ood reveal$1 & 0 gross en\gh to mortify ,b>dell = all "t1 if %e po9t$ x out4 ,yet x w\ld be 8 ru9 to let him g to ! 8art man10 ) ! draw+ z x 04 ,s %e said1 8,x is *>m+ly done2 b !re is a trifl+ error 9 x4 ,! girl's feet are put on wrong4 ,left & "r h *ang$ places40 ,! pale1 holl[ face ( ! arti/ flu%$ r$ ) %ame4 8,i'm mo/ grateful to y1 ,mrs4 ,dor+10 he said1 z 8 a/oni%$ eyes saw ! hi!rto unnotic$ blund]4 8,_h ,i gone to ,buskirk ) t x w\ld h be5 ! end ( me 9 ?is %op4 ,z x is he almo/ )]s me ) 8 contempt4 ,x doesn't /op at my "w1 ei!r1 b includes all !re is ( me1 physically1 m5tally1 arti/ically1 & f9ancially4 ,i su/a9 myself "u x ) ! reflection t1 h[ev] pr(\nd 8 contempt = me1 x is outdone aga9 & aga9 by my contempt = myself40 ,c>tice und]/ood well ! awful w\nds to self-respect m5 & wom5 are daily =c$ to endure = ! sake ( a *ance to e>n a livelihood4 ,%e look$ at ,b>dell ) a va/1 wordless sympa?y %9+ 9 h] eyes1 ?9k+ ( ! c\rage necess>y 9 ! trag$y ( life1 z display$ by ! man be=e h] & t5s ( ?\s&s ( o!rs4 ,he und]/ood & w5t on3 8,i don't endure x = ! m]e sake ( liv+1 ,i assure y4 ,! exp]i5ce call$ life1 z ,i "k x1 isn't wor? x4 ,b :5 ,i 0 y\ng] & consid]ably m ( a fool ?an ,i am n[1 ,i m>ri$1 z a k9d ( bus9ess or because o!rs did1 or ,i don't really "k :y4 ,anyh[1 ,i h a little family n[1 & ,i h to put up ) ev]y?+1 no matt] :at1 9 ord] to support !m4 ,besides1 ,i h o!r ties t hold me to life1 & ^? are my ideals40 ,mrs4 ,dor+ look$ up ) a />t4 8,tell me ab\t !m10 %e said4 8,ev] s9ce ,i c rememb] !y h be5 ) me1 & are my true life10 he said4 8,!y exi/ 9 ! %ape ( simple ru/ic sc5es1 old-"t well-sweeps1 tumble-d[n /one-h\ses & walls & ?+s ( t sort1 ) p 9 !m :o are a "p ( _! hi/ory4 ,!y come into my m9d & insi/ ^u be+ pa9t$4 ,!y are n satisfi$ to be put 9 black & :ite4 ,t is crucifixion = !m & = me1 too4 ,!y beg1 entreat & comm& me to put !m 9 color4 8,?is girl at ! old-"t f\nta9 9 ?is draw+ is "o ( !m4 ,t's ! reason ! picture isn't h>d & lifeless l mo/ ( ! truck ,i br+ 9 "h4 ,! blund] ( putt+ h] feet on wrong occurr$1 because ,i drew ! feet la/1 & ab\t t "t %e f\nd out t %e wasn't be+ pa9t$1 b 0 to be a sacrifice to ! t]rible mon/] ( newspap] illu/ration1 :i* is an easy way to please *ildr5 & un$ucat$ p1 & an (f5ce to ^? ( a high] ord] ( intellig5ce4 ,9 rage at ! use ,i 0 go+ to make ( h] %e jump$ up & d[n s fa/ t h] feet got tangl$ 9 my m9d4 ,i saw h]1 y und]/&4 ,%e 0 real--,i saw h]--n 9 fle% & blood1 b imag9ation1 :i* to me is a k9d ( high] reality40 ,a/oni%$ & delight$ to f9d "o work] ) ideals above m]e keep+ afloat1 ,c>tice ask$ him if he work$ on 8 ideals or m]ely dream$ ( !m4 8,i rea* aft] !m all ,i c10 he said1 8h&icapp$ z ,i am4 ,i give my he>t to !m1 ?\gh ,i hav5't be5 able to give !m mu* ( my "t4 ,b ,i h n kick$ !m out ( my way1 or murd]$ !m to sell _! fle% at ! ne>e/ m>ket1 z _m ( my associates h done4 ,nor h ,i giv5 up ! belief t1 if we "w on our ideals1 devote ourselves to !m1 9 ! face ( e ob/acle1 we %all be lift$ out ( ! dreadful mire ( ! commonplace1 :]e ! feet ( mo/ ( u /ick fa/ all our lives4 ,b !y w h no half-he>t$ devotion4 ,!y want :ole-s\l$ s]vice only1 & !y are "r4 ,will+ to give u all ( !mselves x is only fair !y %\ld ask all f u4 8,i h work$ b little 9 oil1 & am almo/ entirely un9/ruct$1 yet ^! pictures =m1 :5ev] ,i take up a bru%2 & x isn't putt+ x too /rong to say t !y beg to be pa9t$4 ,!y come 9 color exactly z !y want to be put on canvas1--n simply 9 my m9d1 b be=e my eyes1 ?\gh ?9 & %ad[y4 8,"o ,sunday :5 rambl+ 9 ! c\ntry ,i pass$ an old well1 & said to myself1 #8,i'll pa9t t4' ,in/antly ,i saw a man ly+ by ! well1 ?\gh no man 0 !re4 ,i pa9t$ x t way & put x up 9 ! d5 ,i call my /udio4 8,"o day a /rang] :o came !re ) "o ( my fri5ds saw x & took a great fancy to x4 ,he said x 0 a sc5e f 8 memory4 ,! old well 0 ! "o at 8 *ildhood's home1 & ! man 0 8 fa!r1 z he _h se5 him ly+ 9 ! %ade _m a "t1 long ago4 ,! up%ot ( x 01 t he (f]$ me two hundr$ & fifty doll>s = x--x 0 a little ?+--:i* x is ne$less to say ,i accept$4 ,:5 he w5t away ,i ?\ght ,i ought to fa9t or d some?+ extraord9>y to "w (f my a/oni%m5t40 8,b y didn't re/ on t80 8,no2 ,i w5t on ) o!r ideals1 9 little spots ( "t squeez$ out ( ! odd-jobb]y ( my daily gr9d 9 black & :ite4 ,i believe t1 :5 we "w on our ideals1 ! v %ape ( our heads *ange4 ,my "m says m9e is *ang+1 = :i* ,i am mo/ grateful1 its orig9al %ape be+ l unto an old-fa%ion$ c\ntry horse-block40 8,h y _h sympa?y 9 ! pursuit ( y\r ideals80 ,c>tice ask$4 8,n always4 ,t 0 a want ,i felt = t5 ye>s4 ,all t "t ,i hunt$ = a companion1 an arti/1 :o1 l myself1 lov$ ! c\ntry & rural subjects1 to pa9t ) me4 ,at la/ ,i f\nd "o & h him yet4 ,we inspire ea* o!r4 ,toge!r we g to ! c\ntry on ,sundays & make /udies4 ,! o!r arti/s ,i enc\nt] 9 my humble pa? are s wood5y1 s co>se1 s worldly t ,i ne$ pati5ce to suff] !m at all1 & ,i nev] f9d !m companionable4 ,!y *aff me & call me a s5tim5tali/4 ,i don't c>e4 ,i believe 9 s5tim5t4 ,if ,i didn't idealize life & "w1 ,i %\ld h to give bo? up4 ,i w\ld will+ly g & live 9 ! humble/ little old place 9 ! c\ntry & nev] see a city aga91 if ,i c\ld b "w on my ideals40 ,c>tice 0 see+ ! squ>e-head$ little plodd] f a new po9t ( view--an inn] & spiritual "o1 & 9 its beautify+ light ! squ>e head became symmetrical1 ! /oop+ %\ld]s erect1 ! pale face attractive1 ! eyes aflame ) vital =ce1 & ! be>+ t ( "o consci\s ( be+ ( value4 ,x 0 !n t %e recogniz$ him z "o ( h] own p1 f h] own planet1 & blam$ h]self = n soon] see+ ?r\gh ! transp>5t mask t h>d environm5t _h made4 ,%e ask$ him :at he ?\ght is to be ! fate ( ^?1 :o1 hav+ an ideal1 /ifle1 ignore or slaught] x ev51 & give _! "t & en]gy to ! p]=mance ( "s poor pitiful1 paltry "w :i* dem&s b a ti! ( _! ability1 = ! sake ( a little money ) :i* to keep out ! unwelcome h[ls ( ! wolf4 8,look ab\t y & see10 he said1 ) a contemptu\s ge/ure4 8,look at me1 a creature sl9k+ 9 & out ( ri* publi%+ h\ses1 hunt+ crumbs1 l ! dogs t hung r\nd ! ri* man's table1 ) fe> writt5 9 e movem5t1 dejection 9 my _s1 indig5ce 9 my g>m5ts & we>9ess 9 my he>t40 ,he got up & walk$ to & fro n]v\sly1 & z he mov$ & talk$ he became trans=m$4 ,! timid1 %r9k+ little figure vani%$ & 9 its place /rode "o ^: /ep 0 firm & eye fe>less4 8,!re are hundr$s l me4 ,! woods--! city's accurs$ woods are full ( !m4 ,!y run ov] ea* o!r 9 _! eag]ness to d ! bidd+ ( "s ma/] :o c drop a co9 or s into _! flabby purses4 ,fau/ sold 8 s\l to ! devil = a good price2 b we1 mis]able wret*es1 sell x daily = a song4 ,:y8 ,because we are su* pitiful c[>ds t we c't face ! sc>ecr[ t goes by ! "n ( />vation4 ,we live s f> bel[ our true selves t we don't "k ! law t w\ld c>ry u ?r\gh1 :i* is1 give ! be/ to get ! be/4 ,:y n tru/ ! s\l8 ,! ideal is ! real2 x is ! voice ( ! s\l1 o!rwise ! voice ( ,god1 & x mu/ h expression4 ,if n "h & n[1 !n sometime1 some:]e4 ,its acc\nt is b\nd to be pres5t$ & mu/ be paid4 ,dea? itself c't prev5t ! f9al settlem5t4 8,:at d !y d at s*ool ) ! lazy boy :o slights 8 lessons8 ,aft] a :ile !y turn him back 9 8 books & he has 8 road to retrace4 ,we %all h ! same exp]i5ce1 if we h he>d ! voice ( ! ideal & he$$ x n4 ,we %all be s5t back to d x all ov] aga9--yes1 f beyond ! grave1 = :at c !re be on ! o!r side = him :o has betray$ 8 tru/1 b contempt & a comm& to g back & try aga980 ,he /opp$ be=e ,c>tice1 & ) blaz+ eyes & uplift$ f+] said1 8,9 ?is mom5t ,i det]m9e to outrage my ideals no m1 come :at may4 ,i h new light4 ,we all h be5 act+ on ! assumption t we knew :at w\ld happ5 if we didn't d ?us & s4 ,9 po9t ( fact nobody kn[s4 ,) results we h no?+ to d4 ,we h only to foll[ our highe/ lead+ & leave ! re/ to ,god4 ,to ignore or debase a noble gift t has be5 entru/$ to u is a s9 aga9/ our s\ls1 :i* _m ( u h /upidly committ$ day aft] day1 & we are daily pay+ ! p5alty4 ,y %all see me "h no m1 b>t]+ "w 9 :i* ,i h no he>t = a few mis]able doll>s4 ,nev] aga92 no1 nev] aga940 8,y are "r1 ,mr4 ,b>dell1 a ?\s& times "r10 said ,mrs4 ,dor+1 ) ?robb+ he>t & gli/5+ eyes4 8,i h long kn[n t "o %\ld nev] give less ?an ! be/1 & t an outrag$ ideal w be av5g$4 ,yet ,i daily commit t s94 ,i us$ to feel t ,i _h some?+ m ?an common to d 9 ! _w4 ,i _h ideals2 b ,i put !m (f1 always wait+ = a "t :5 ,i c\ld see my way cle> to devote myself entirely to !m4 ,i wait$ too long4 ,n[ !y come less frequ5tly & are less urg5t1 & ,i h gr[n we>y & indiff]5t4 ,i wa/$ my "t hunt+ happ9ess40 8,happ9ess belongs to ! ideal10 said ,b>dell4 8,x is a matt] ( subjective appreciation1 s is its opposite1 mis]y4 ,p]haps x w\ld be cle>] to say t happ9ess exi/s 9 ! idea "o =ms ( x1 h5ce x is purely ideal4 ,we are happy1 :5 we believe ourselves happy4 ,b = ! mo/ "p all ! _w ?9ks happ9ess is to be f\nd 9 ext]nals2 t x c be secur$ 9 ?ick slices :i* we c eat l bread1 :ile com=tably seat$ 9 good h\ses4 ,money & m>riage are suppos$ to h a monopoly ( x4 ,:at idiocy60 8,yes1 idiocy10 ,c>tice e*o$4 8,?ack]ay says1 #8,= my own "p ,i "k ( no?+ m contemptible1 unmanly or unwomanly & crav5 ?an ! ev]la/+ sigh+ = happ9ess4' ,:5 a *ild1 ,i _h a consci\sness or memory ( a _w 9 :i* ,i _h once liv$ :]e !re 0 no su* ^w z happ9ess1 & yet none 7 unhappy4 ,i und]/& t n[4 ,x means t happ9ess only exi/s :]e x is n ?\ght (1 talk$ ab\t or pursu$4 ,i believe x is int5d$ t we %all be happy2 b n 9 our own fooli% way4 ,fre$om is ! de/9y ( ! human race1 & t fre$om holds = u a happ9ess inf9itely great] & high] ?an we n[ c imag9e1 because x conta9s our full developm5t1 our p]fect$ intellectual & spiritual gr[?4 ,x is ! fre$om ( tru?1 long s9ce prophesi$4 ,:5 we "k ! tru?1 we are free1 & happ9ess comes ) fre$om4 ,heav5 is )9 "o2 x consi/s 9 ! s\l's unfold+ or com+ into a k ( itself4 ,we rea* t ?r\gh expression4 ,9 ?is way we gr[1 z e plant /ruggles to d4 ,s y see1 if we /rangle our ideals1 we /unt our gr[?1 & %all be cut d[n l ! b5t1 & imp]fect tree1--cut d[n1 to come aga9 p]haps1 = ano!r trial1 & /ill ano!r & ano!r until our de/9y is accompli%$4 ,!re=e x is t do+ our be/ %\ld be our religion1 z x is nature's religion4 ,x is ! only road we c take :i* leads to ! goal at :i* we mu/ arrive1 soon] or lat]4 ,x is ! price ea* s\l mu/ pay :o w\ld be sav$4 ,in/ead ( t1 mo/ ( u h gone ab\t hunt+ happ9ess on a *ildi% plane1 & mak+ a great pla9t1 :5 we didn't f9d x4 ',tw\ld be laughable1 7 x n s pitiful40 8,isn't x pla9 en\gh10 said ,b>dell1 8t if a :olesome civic & social _s prevail$1 we %\ld be suffici5tly enlight5$ to f9d our rew>d 9 do+ our be/1 :e!r x 7 to raise potatoes1 poli% door knobs or pa9t pictures4 ,all great m5 & wom5 :o h help$ humank9d h done s4 ,!y gave _! be/ & no?+ less1 ev5 :5 ! _w did n want x1 & /on$ !m = x4 ,!y _h a f> great] rew>d ?an human appreciation4 ,!y grew to h]oic1 m5tal & spiritual /ature4 ,if ,jesus ( ,naz>e? _h n giv5 ! be/ t 0 9 ,him1 ev5 at ! co/ ( crucifixion1 ,he c\ld n h be5 ! light ( ! _w4 8,h[ w\ld x be ) ! _w to-day1 if all ! great spirits t make up ! enlight5$ m9ority1 _h m]ely jogg$ on do+ some?+ t secur$ ! necessities ( ! body1 r ?an run any risk ( be+ %ort ( bread by po9t+ to a new road8 ,! s\l mu/ foll[ its be/ light1 tak+ no ?\ght = ! result4 ,i %all d t h5ce=?40 8,i rejoice 9 y\r emancipation10 ,c>tice said1 look+ at him ) gl[+ eyes4 8,i beg9 to see :at x means to be born aga94 ,may x n be to awak5 a k ( our own be+1 value & "w80 ,b>dell bade h] good-bye ) ! s]i\sness ( "o go+ on a long j\rney4 ,:5 he 0 gone a new s5se ( lonel9ess came ov] h]4 ,x 0 because he already _h />t$ up ! m\nta91 leav+ h] /ill 9 ! vale4 ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,,! ,,joys4 8,:y w5t t "y life out ,on honor's p]il\s road8 ,! c>p+ tongue & ! jeal\s m9d ,/ay "h to w\nd & goad4 8,a picture once ,i saw-- ,?ree crosses aga9/ ! sky6 ,& ! heavie/ cross 0 ! highe/ "o2 ,p]haps t answ]s :y40 ,mrs4 ,dor+ 0 surpris$ & delight$ at receiv+ a visit f ! ,joys "o ev5+4 ,hav+ p>t$ ) ev]y?+ t goes by ! "n ( prop]ty1 !y _h come to ,new ,york to seek =tune on ! dramatic /age1 bo? hav+ tal5t & ta/e = mimic art4 ,z joyful z ev]1 !y met _! *ang$ =tunes ) _! old-"t m]ry laugh4 ,_! two *ildr5 7 9 an excell5t s*ool1 & ! bus9ess n[ 9 h& 0 seek+ a *ance to e>n ! money necess>y to keep ! ma*9]y ( life mov+ = !m all4 8,our "t = look+ ab\t is some:at limit$10 said ,burton1 ) *e]y humor1 8z ! ca% box is n ov]fl[+40 8,we %all f9d some?+10 said ,lilla1 ) calm assurance4 8,,mu/10 said ,mrs4 ,dor+4 8,mu/ is a magnet4 ,:at we mu/ h1 we always get40 ,! difficult se>* began at once 9 dead e>ne/4 ,?\s&s _h walk$ ! r\gh road be=e !m1 "s ( :om _h f\nd foo?old1 b o!rs by scores & hundr$s _h gone d[n 9 ! city's remorseless mael/rom4 ,x 0 l be+ wreck$ 9 mid-ocean4 ,"s manag$ to seize a plank & keep afloat4 ,"s sp5t _! /r5g? & sank e>ly4 ,o!rs buffet$ ! waves long & bravely1 only to g d[n at la/1 a pitiful1 a w(ul1 a he>t-break+ spectacle4 ,! animal kn[n z ! dramatic ag5t 0 an unkn[n quantity to ! ,joys1 h5ce !y 7 n prep>$ = 8 peculi> antics4 ,snubs1 insults & sne]s ra9$ d[n ^u !m4 ,/ill !y kept on & /ill !y wore *e]ful faces1 /ill ! sun%9e ( _! he>ts 0 uncl\d$--! heav5ly sun%9e t 0 rat$ z m]e empty-head$ness by dull]1 co>s] s\ls4 ,days & weeks roll$ on1 = 8"t c>ries no an*or10 until ! money t con/itut$ _! plank on ! city's r\gh ocean 0 gone4 ,:5 talk+ ) ,c>tice "o ev5+1 ,lilla ,joy said3 8,if we did n "k t we outla/ dea? & h endless life be=e u1 ,burton & ,i w\ld end our tr\bles & our *ildr5's too1 p]haps4 ,x w\ld require less c\rage ?an we ne$ = "o day ( life n[4 ,b we "k t we c't kill ourselves1 h[ev] mu* we might try because !re is no dea?4 ,9 spite ( bullets1 knives1 poisons & riv]s1 we %\ld /ill be alive1 wond]+1 no d\bt1 :y we 7 s bl9d z to ?9k we c\ld de/roy t :i* is inde/ructible4 ,no2 our salvation mu/ be work$ out cle> to ! end1 uncompla9+ly4 ,we are "h to le>n1 & mu/ /ay until we are ready to g high]4 ,at ! longe/1 our probation is %ort1 & x means s mu* to u4 ,we are build+ ! edifice ( "*1 :i* is to la/ = all "t4 ,?is little *apt] ( exi/5ce is b a day 9 ! great cycle4 ,no2 ,i %all n give up2 ,i %all nev] despair1 let come :at may40 ,day succe$$ day1 b no bright] outlook op5$1 yet nev] 7 !y se5 ) a cl\d on _! faces4 ,?\gh _! purses 7 empty1 fri5d%ip & compassion kept away bitt] ne$1 & _! spirits 7 sweet en\gh to accept ! goods ! gods s5t )\t lett+ _! pride be w\nd$4 ,x ne$s a sweet] _s to receive ?an to give4 ,at la/ a foo?old on ! /age 0 ga9$ = bo?--an opportunity m likely to increase humility ?an fo/] vanity1 b !y accept$ x ?ankfully1 & x l$ on to bett] ?+s4 ,all w5t well = a "t2 b "o day a telegram came ann\nc+ ! dang]\s illness ( _! *ildr51 :o _h fall5 victims to an epidemic4 ,!y w5t at once4 ,! *ildr5 di$1 & a few days lat] _! fa!r also clos$ 8 eyes to ?is _w4 ,lilla return$ to ,new ,york to g on ) ! grim bus9ess ( life4 ,0 ! joy gone f h] face8 ,no2 x 0 /ill !re1 s(t5$1 height5$ & illum9$ by a new & holy light4 8,de> fri5d10 %e said1 z %e & ,c>tice talk$ toge!r on ! ev5+ ( h] return1 8!re are ?ree new graves 9 ! old cemet]y at home1 b !y d n hold my husb& & *ildr54 ,t :i* ea* conta9s is an unreality1 a ?+ nev] de/9$ to endure1--a g>m5t :i* ! real be+ wore to make itself se5 by our dim eyes4 ,alice ,c>ey has describ$ x well3 ,?\gh y wore some?+ e>?ly ab\t y ,:i* once we call$ y-- ,a robe all transp>5t & bright5$ ,) ! s\l %9+ ?r\gh4 ,b :5 y _h dropp$ x 9 go+-- ',twas b y\rs = a day-- ,safe back 9 ! bosom ( ,nature1 ,we laid x away4 ,/rew+ ov] x odor\s blossoms1 ,_! p]fume to %$3 ,b y nev] 7 buri$ b5ea? !m1 ,& nev] 7 dead4 8,fri5ds say t ,i am left alone2 b x is n true4 ,i am nev] alone4 ,!re is no sep>ation = ^? :om love unites4 ,we are "o 9 ! univ]sal _s ( love--,god4 ,did n "o fri5d beyond ! grave tell u t e dea? is a resurrection8 ,is n ! /one already roll$ away f e sepul*re8 ,w\ld ,i call my de> ones back to face ! cruel conditions ( life "h8 ,no1 a ?\s& times no4 ,:5 ,i look$ at ! dead face ( my husb&1 s calm1 & pr(\ndly at peace ) ev]y?+1 ,i said #8,my love1 my de> love1 he>t ( my he>t & s\l ( my s\l1 love ( my y\? & companion ( my _s =ev]more1 ,i ?ank ,god t ! h>d ?+s ( ! _w c hurt y no m4' ,! cruele/ pang pov]ty has giv5 me 0 see+ him be> humiliation & insult 9 sil5ce1 ) heav5ly pati5ce4 ,pov]ty = oneself is bad en\gh1 b :5 we see ^? we love suff] because ( x1 we "k exquisite angui%4 ,i c make ! fight alone1 & x is bett] s4 ,he is safe4 ,t w su/a9 me4 8,& my *ildr52 !y1 too1 are safe4 ,x is well ) !m4 ,!y are n lo/4 ,all ?+s we call lo/ are 9 ! angels' keep+4 8,i %all g on ) my "w1 ?ankful = ! *ance1 disagreeable z mu* ( x is1 because ( unavoidable contact ) %all[1 inf]ior p4 ,b my true life is away f x all1 sacr$ & safe4 ,!re is a reason beyond my fa?om+ = my be+ :at & :]e ,i am4 ,x is all "r--all wisely direct$1 & ,i %all g on1 n sull5ly1 b 9 pati5ce & hope4 ,my fai? is t all is well4 ,i mu/ live x & n simply talk x40 ,look+ at ,lilla's beautiful face1 bright5$ ) ! radiance ( belief1 ,c>tice ,dor+ knew t "o by "o %e 0 f9d+ h] p--! p :om %e dimly rememb]$ z hav+ be5 a "p ( h] life 9 ! remote pa/1 & :o 7 l9k$ by ! ties ( sympa?y & love to ! pres5t & all ! endless future4 ,h] own p1--! fai?ful1 ! h]oic1 ! aspir+1 ! wide-m9d$1 ! lov+1 ! true4 ,lilla 0 "o ( !m--,lilla ( ! light he>t & rippl+ laugh 9 days gone by2 & ( ! /urdy s\l & dauntless fai? 9 sorr[ & mis=tune4 ,n[ ,c>tice saw t h] own p all became acqua9t$ ) suff]+1 soon] or lat]1 & t ?is 0 ! greate/ ( tea*]s to ! human race4 ,)\t suff]+ no?+ is born1 no?+ gr[s4 8,:o are ^! 9 :ite g>m5ts80 ask$ ! sa9t ( ! heav5ly visions4 8,!y are ^? :o h pass$ ?r\gh great tribulation10 0 ! answ]4 ,9 fancy %e saw aga9 ! long procession1 made up ( h] p4 ,out ( ! dim & f> di/ant pa/ !y came1 fil+ /eadily on into ! unse51 endless future4 ,9 ea* _s burn$ ! qu5*less fire we "n g5ius2 on ea* face 7 signs ( suff]+2 8b no voice utt]$ pla9ts40 ,n all 7 victors4 ,_m 7 ( ! baffl$ & beat51 ! disappo9t$ & defeat$1 b !y w5t to ! wall ) unb5t head & sil5t1 smil+ lips4 8,my p1 my de> p10 %e said1 8) y ,i brea! ! air native to my s\l4 ,y s\ght ! tru?1 y f\nd x1 y liv$ x1 & x made y free40 ,:at is tru?8 ,:o c answ] ! ,roman gov]nor's "q8 ,9 ! ,syriac tongue x is describ$ z 8! arr[ :i* flies to ! m>k40 ,no?+ else rea*es ! m>k4 ,no?+ else has a m>k4 ,life has no o!r aim & end ?an to free oneself f error1 ?r\gh a k ( tru?4 ,?is is ! only p[] t c set u free1 & only 9 fre$om is happ9ess4 ,b ) mo/ p ! se>* is n = tru? b success--success on ! commonplace1 ext]nal plane--:i* is ! v negation ( moral gr[? & spiritual progress4 ,high m9ds1 d$icat$ to noble ideals are few1 b m$iocres are num]\s4 8,:5 we h escap$ f ! region ( m$iocrity we revel 9 a pur] atmosph]e1 :]e we may jo9 h&s ) ! elect & dance a r\nd10 said ,m>ie ,ba%kirtseff1 "o ( ! y\nge/1 brave/ & brighte/ ( ! elect4 ,! m$iocre mass is an aggregation ( self-enslav$ m9ds1 aga9/ ^: self-satisfi$ /upidity ! gods !mselves are p[]less4 ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,,p ,,( ,,! ,,pa/4 8,"h sits he1 %ap+ w+s to fly3 ,8 he>t =ebodes a my/]y2 ,he names ! "n et]nity40--,t5nyson4 8,:at bir? is1 t also is dea?2 x is ! same l9e drawn 9 two directions40--,s*op5hau]4 ,"o ev5+ at ! h\se ( a fam\s orator ,mrs4 ,dor+ saw a face ) :i* %e _h be5 famili> s9ce *ildhood1 yet nev] be=e _h %e se5 x outside ( ! en*ant$ realm ( imag9ation4 ,x 0 a woman's face1 /rong1 noble1 beautiful1 & ! eyes1 ! br[n eyes ( x1 _h 9 !m a compassion t embrac$ ! :ole human race4 ,c>tice look$ ^u x ) an all-compell+ fasc9ation1 = x 0 ! face ( "o ( h] own p--! v de>e/ "o--! ,hel5 ( h] "y dreams1 to :om %e us$ to tell h] hopes & ye>n+s1 & :o always und]/ood1 & gave sympa?y & *e]4 ,h[ (t5 _h %e pictur$ t face on pap]1 try+ to make objective :at %e saw cle>ly ) h] subjective sight1 b h[ impossible x _h ev] be5 to give ! eyes ! direct1 compreh5sive1 compassionate gl[ t di/+ui%$ !m1--! light ( ! s\l itself1 :i* w5t /raight to o!r s\ls6 ,%e w\ld n ask ! "n le/ x prove to be "o bel[ h] ideal4 ,%e h>dly d>$ look away le/ ! preci\s vision vani%1 :ile h] eyes 7 turn$ aside4 ,no2 x 7 bett] to hold ! glad fancy z long z possible4 8,d y "k ,hel5 ,g>d5]80 ask$ a voice at h] side4 ,%e turn$ to ! speak]1 daz$ & sc>cely und]/&+4 8,:om80 8,hel5 ,g>d5]1 ! au?or1--t lady y 7 look+ at j n[4 ,l ,huxley & "s ( ! m humble ( u %e believes t ! ma9 ?+ is to h done ) ly+40 8,!n %e is my ,hel510 ?\ght ,c>tice4 8,h[ rem>kable1 too1 t %e has ! v same "n ,i gave h]40 8,come1 ,mrs4 ,dor+10 said h] fri5d1 8,i want to h y meet h]4 ,i fancy y two w be pleas$ ) ea* o!r40 ,:5 ,c>tice f\nd h]self talk+ ) ! inc>nation ( "o ( h] ideal p ( long ago1 %e _h a fla% ( k ( ! on5ess1 insep>abl5ess & un*angeabl5ess ( all ?+s pa/1 pres5t & future4 ,did h] new-f\nd1 old-"t fri5d recognize h]8 ,x w\ld seem s1 = %e 0 /rongly attract$ to ,c>tice f ! fir/ mom5t4 ,! "q "u discussion 9 ! little gr\p ( :om %e 0 "o1 0 :e!r art1 especially ! art ( fiction1 %\ld exi/ = art's sake only--t is to give pleasure--or %\ld x also aim to in/ruct4 8,i believe10 said ,hel5 ,g>d5]1 8& h liv$ up to my belief1 t fiction :i* m]ely ent]ta9s1 & c>efully /e]s cle> ( ! deep & (t5 d>k problems t face all ?\ghtful m9ds is p]nici\s 9 its effect4 ,! lit]ature ( ! optimi/ is ! lit]ature ( %all[ness & selfi%ness1 a bid = surface appreciation1 an appeal to a light & sup]ficial ta/e4 ,life is tragic4 ,if x be repres5t$ 9 fiction1 let ! picture be true to nature4 ,! novel %\ld be a tonic1 n an opiate4 ,:at ?9k y1 ,mrs4 ,dor+80 8,l ,goe! & ,s*ill] ,i ?9k art #8no luxury ( leisure1 no m]e amusem5t to *>m ! idle nor relax ! c>e-worn2 b a mighty influ5ce1 s]i\s 9 its aims1 al?\gh pleasurable 9 its means4' ,! advocates ( art = art's sake1 say t its object is ! creation ( ! beautiful4 ,:at is ! beautiful8 ,is x t :i* pleases ! eye only1 or has x p[] to ?rill ! s\l8 ,! great novels h all c>ri$ great messages4 ,!y h %ak5 ! he>ts ( m5 & ar\s$ !m to new k2 !y h brok5 ! bonds ( prejudice1 & set ! bondsm5 free4 ,!y h effect$ a movem5t ( ! ?\ght-_w 9 ! direction ( #8t f>-(f1 div9e ev5t t[>d :i* ! :ole creation moves4' ,!y h spok5 ! tru? z _! au?ors beheld x40 ,hel5 ,g>d5]'s br[n eyes gl[$ & %e smil$ affectionately1 say+3 8,y & ,i belong to ! same e?ical family1 ,mrs4 ,dor+40 99 99 99 99 99 ,t night z %e lay d[n to sleep1 ,c>tice half p]suad$ h]self t %e 0 aga9 a *ild1 day-dream+ "u ! elm tree1 ! _w unkn[n & /ill idealiz$1 & ! ye>s t lay betwe5 t "t & ! pres5t oblit]at$4 8,d ,i wi% x 7 s80 %e ask$ h]self4 8,no4 ,i am glad s mu* ( ! j\rney has be5 accompli%$4 ,! future is always bett] ?an ! pa/4 ,x has 9 x t :i* we are to become1 = life is endless becom+40 ,c>tice & ! new-f\nd ,hel5 became w>m fri5ds2 b n till _! fri5d%ip _h /ood ! te/ ( "t did ,c>tice tell h] h[ ! creative p[] we call imag9ation _h f\nd h] ye>s be=e4 ,q z unexpect$ly did ,mrs4 ,dor+ "o day meet ! /rang] to :om %e _h confid$ h] ambitions & dreams "u ! elm tree long ago4 ,%e recogniz$ him in/antly1 ?\gh ( c\rse he did n "k h]4 ,! great _w knew him well4 ,! bauble fame1 & ! jewel ( success 7 84 ,x 0 he :o _h sung3 8,i'd r fail 9 ,bohemia1 ?an w9 9 ano!r l&4 99 99 99 99 99 ,its honors n g>n]$ by ?rift or trade1 ,b = beauty & tru? m5's s\ls h made40 ,:5 %e made h]self kn[n to him1 8 fir/ "q 01 8,h y f\nd y\r own p80 8,a few10 %e answ]$1 8a fai?ful few2 b ! se>* goes on =ev]40 ,9 a little :ile he w5t away--w5t into ! sil5ce4 ,/ill ano!r picture ( ! pa/ came & bl5d$ ) ! pres5t4 ,9 ! p>lors ( a fri5d "o ev5+1 ,mrs4 ,dor+ met a numb] ( ! mo/ em95t wom5 f all p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 :o "w = ! political lib]ty ( _! sex4 ,!re _h be5 a conv5tion 9 ,wa%+ton1 & _m ( ! delegates 7 8do+0 ,new ,york be=e return+ home4 ,a lady f :at !n 0 a t]ritory1 b is n[ a /ate1 *>m+ly told "s ( h] exp]i5ces 9 labor+ ) memb]s ( h] legislature4 ,%e m5tion$ "n aft] "n1 relat+ v>i\s incid5ts1 "s humor\s1 & "s excit+ compassion on acc\nt ( _! revelation ( ! dep?s ( ignorance 9 c]ta9 legislative m9ds4 8,aft] sev]al enc\nt]s ) d>k5$ m9ds ( ! class ,i h j m5tion$10 said ! speak]1 8x 0 a pleasure to h a *at ) ,repres5tative ,k5dall4 ,we knew well :]e he /ood1 = ?r\gh\t 8 c>e]1 z editor & lawmak]1 he has di/+ui%$ himself z ! /aun* fri5d ( e movem5t t promis$ to help wom5 w9 a great] fre$om & !re=e ga9 a great] usefulness4 8,once ,i ask$ him h[ x 0 t he :o _h appreciat$ wom5 p]sonally s little z nev] to h m>ri$ "o1 0 yet s loyal a support] ( !m 9 ! aggregate t he *e]fully put 8 %\ld] to ! :eel ( e c>t :i* c>ri$ _! burd5s4 8#8,n[ t1' said he1 ) a boyi% laugh & sunny smile1 #8has its root 9 a bit ( s5tim5t2 b ,i don't d5y t x has gr[n into a pr9ciple4 ,! only woman ,i f\nd indisp5sable to me f\nd me v disp5sable to h]4 ,?r\gh t exp]i5ce ,i le>n$ t love1 if x be g5u9e1 c rise high] ?an possession4 ,%e 0 ( y\r emancipat$2 t is1 %e made a place = h]self 9 ! _w1 & lean$ on no "o4 ,h] life %[$ me t woman c\ld gr[ to h]oic m5tal /ature1 if %e w\ld ?9k1 "w & act = h]self4 ,! "o ( :om ,i speak reque/$ me to d :at ,i c\ld all my life to make x easi] = wom5 to get out ( _! dep5d5t condition4 ,i h done s & h f\nd pleasure 9 x4 ,%e is 9 ! _w some:]e1 /ill1 & ,i feel t ev]y?+ ,i d = wom5 helps h]4 ,t's my /ory4 ,take x & use x1 if y wi%1 z an example ( h[ ! mon/] man c be humaniz$ & reg5]at$ by a woman :o nei!r lov$ him nor m>ri$ him4' 8#8,:atev] good ,i may h done1 :atev] ,i h a*iev$ 9 any praisewor?y direction1 ,i owe to t woman4 ,b = h] :olesome enc\ragem5t1 if liv+ at all1 ,i %\ld be /ill a cl]k at "s m prosp]\s man's desk1 )]$ 9 _s & wa/$ 9 body1 & ) no bra9s at all4 ,x us$ to be q ! correct ?+1 9 /ories1 = good wom5 to m>ry raki% fell[s1 & #8make m5 ( !m1' z ! phrase _h x4 ,i am n[ conv9c$ !y a*ieve t result f> quick]1 :5 !y don't m>ry !m1 :e!r raki% or o!rwise1 b make !m /& on _! own feet entirely4'0 ,mrs4 ,dor+ li/5$ to ?is /ory1 feel+ v mu* z might a gho/ :o comes w&]+ back to its old haunts & he>s "s "o talk+ ( its life :5 on e>?1 = ?is ,k5dall 0 h] old lov] :om %e lov$ n & %e 0 ! woman ( :om he spoke4 ,turn+ to ! writ+ desk ( h] ho/ess1 %e wrote3 8,c>tice ,hill ,dor+ s5ds reg>ds to ! ,honorable ,*>les ,k5dall4 ,x is ) grateful pleasure %e le>ns t he has be5 fai?ful to ! promise made to h] long ago1 to d :at he c\ld to make life broad] & fre] = womank9d40 ,! response 0 prompt & full4 ,he told ! /ory ( 8 life f ! day ( _! p>t+ to ! day ( writ+4 ,!n came ^! p>agraphs3 8,i am m ?an glad to h f\nd y aga94 ,n t ,i ev] really lo/ y1 = y h an et]nal abid+-place 9 my m9d & he>t4 ,?\gh ,i h =gott5 mu* & wi% ,i c\ld =get /ill m ( ! rubbi% ( memory1 nei!r y nor aught p]ta9+ to y c be =gott54 ,y are n =gettable4 ,b ,i am glad to be able to talk ) y once m1 al?\gh x be only on pap] & across a cont95t4 ,= me ! end ( ! drama is ne>4 ,i am 9 ! la/ act1 :i* has b few sc5es4 ,life & dea?6 :at are !y8 ,we "k z mu* ( "o z ( ! o!r1 = we und]/& nei!r4 ,we drop ! "q ( :5ce because ! imm95t :i!r faces u & mu/ be met1 & d>k en\gh x looms be=e u z we confront x at %ort range4 ,:o c answ] ?is cry ( p]plex$ humanity8 8,i turn to y z ,i did 9 ! pa/1 & bade y decide :e!r ,i %\ld g or /ay4 ,n[ ,i h no *oice b to g2 yet tell me1 %all ,i g ) peace & tru/ into light1 or mu/ ,i lie d[n to be wrapp$ 9 d>kness & sil5ce =ev]8 ,x is a "t :5 my own /r5g? is insuffici5t1 & ,i rea* out = ! clasp ( an assur+ h&4 8,is x /range t ,i turn to y = ! help ,i ne$ on ?is j\rney1 :i*1 ?\gh lonesome1 is brief8 ,x seems a natural ?+ to d4 ,9 all ! ye>s s9ce ,i saw y1 & h kn[n no?+ ( y1 :5 ! way 0 unc]ta91 ,i always turn$ to y = guidance4 ,i said to myself3 #8,w\ld ,c>tice ,hill wi% me to d ?is8' ,& ,i did t :i* ,i ?\ght y w\ld sanction4 ,s y see y h be5 ) me all ! "t4 ,we h nev] be5 sep>at$4 8,to me y are always "y--"y & full ( c\rage & hope4 ,i see y z ,i saw y la/1 a preci\s picture 9 my memory4 ,! ye>s t h pass$ s9ce !n are bl[n l a brea? away4 ,i am sitt+ beside y 9 ! p>k aga94 ,i c almo/ t\* y\r blue dress1 & ,i he> ! scrat*+ ( y\r p>asol z y wrote ) its tip on ! gr\nd4 8,! disease t 0 incipi5t 9 me 9 y\? has be5 bravely baffl$ by ?is climate4 ,i sometimes ?9k x is ! insidi\s ag5t t w ultimately de/roy ! human race4 ,! end mu/ come1 h[ev]1 ev5 "h1 & ,i see t x is com+4 8,s tell me :at life has taught y ab\t dea?1 if any?+4 ,no matt] h[ h>d & grim & fe>some ! k may be1 ,i want to "k x4 ,/range t al?\gh we devote our lives to le>n+1 & _m become va9 ( _! acquirem5ts1 ( ?is1 ! mo/ important ( all subjects1 nobody kn[s any?+1 & nobody c>es to le>n till ab\t to op5 ! dread door40 ,?is appeal ,c>tice answ]$ by tell+ ! /ory ( h] communion ) fri5ds call$ dead1 & %e told ?is ) a directness & simplicity t w5t /raight to ! m>k4 ,to h] x 0 cle> en\gh t1 if a man die1 he %all live aga91--& %all gr[1 8 gr[? dep5d+ ^u 8 aspirations4 ,g5ius itself has be5 describ$ z a 8faculty = gr[?40 ,be+ a citiz5 ( ! univ]se1 man is de/9$ to "k ! univ]se z 8 native village4 ,! =m only *anges4 ,dea? is n4 ,to ?is ,k5dall wrote3 8,y h de/roy$ ! la/ enemy = me4 #8,only ! =m *anges4' ,ne$ we dread t8 ,we may ev5 be said to be us$ to x4 ,we hav5't ! same bodies we began life )4 ,!y h *ang$ 9 e p>ticul>1 aga9 & aga94 8,h[ extraord9>y h be5 y\r privileges ( le>n+ ^? ?+s to :i* mo/ ( u h be5 s bl9d4 ,:y n write ! /ory out m fully & publi% x8 ,s9ce x has help$ me1 might x n help o!rs8 ,b don't put x into a newspap]4 ,!re x w\ld take no high] rank ?an ! traditional1 blood-curdl+ gho/-/ory4 ,make a book ( x4 ,t w place x on its own feet1 to /& or fall by its m]its4 8,yes1 tell y\r exp]i5ces ) ^? :o dwell 9 :at we call ano!r _w2 9 fact1 h[ev]1 ano!r condition4 8,i h _h an in/9ctive1 ?\gh n unwav]+ belief t ?is life 0 n ! end ( u--p]haps n ! beg9n+2 b ,i _h my h\rs ( gloomy d\bt4 ,! old twaddle ( an et]nity ( happ9ess made up ( h>ps & gold5 /reets did n appeal to ei!r my intellig5ce or ta/e4 ,p]haps1 x 0 a %ade less attractive ?an annihilation4 8,le>n+ to gr[ & to d1 t is :at makes an immortality wor? hav+4 8,i h liv$ on good t]ms ) my consci5ce1 :i* is ( an old-fa%ion$ cut1 n f fe> ( hell or hope ( heav51 b because ,i am t sort ( man4 ,i c\ld n d o!rwise4 ,yet ,i wi% ,i might h le>n$ :at y tell me1 e>li]4 ,i ?9k x w\ld h made ! ills ( life "h ( less mom5t & might h enhanc$ its joys & beauties4 8,:o1 und]/&+ ! philosophy ( cont9u$ life z x has be5 reveal$ to y1 c\ld fail to try & acquire "s ( ! capital1 ?ieves _c /eal1 ) :i* to beg9 ! l>g] life t op5s to u1 :5 we pass ! gates ( dea?8 ,x is help+ me to make my rema9+ "t ( m value4 8,y h influ5c$ me z no o!r p]son has done ev] s9ce ,i knew y4 ,n[ y light ! road out ( ! _w = me4 ,i beg9 to see t !re are no accid5ts4 8,let :o w write ! %all[ tales t rea* no f>!r ?an ! w$d+-day4 ,write y ! wond]ful /ory ( ! love ( ,god1 z 'twas told y by ^? :o h ta/$ dea? & f\nd x n bitt]--tell h[ ?is love encompasses & p]vades ev]y?+ 9 ! univ]se1 cons]v+ all & de/roy+ no?+4 ,tell ( ! happ9ess de/9$ = ! s\l ( man1 :i* consi/s 9 endless unfold+4 ,tell all ?is z simply & directly z y h told x to me1 & y w inspire ! d\bt+ & *e] ! despair+40 ,to :i* ,c>tice repli$3 8,9 an old book x is writt51 #8,?\gh "o return$ f ! dead1 !y w\ld n believe4'0 ,k5dall wrote3 8,9 ! same book x is writt51 #8,let y\r light %9e4'0 ,t night %e sat d[n to write ! fir/ *apt] ( ! book1 b in/ead wrote ?is3 ,,8 ,,message4 ,he came1 my dead love1 at ! close ( ! day1 ,?\gh ! e>? _h long cov]$ 8 g>m5ts ( clay4 ,8 face gl[$ ) light & ) love z he smil'd ,& spoke 9 ! voice t my he>t _h beguil'd-- ,! beautiful voice t my he>t _h beguil'd4 8,y h wond]$1 my d>l+1 :at s\l 0 ! "o ,to fir/ greet me ) love :5 my dy+ 0 done-- ,:5 ,i woke f ! slumb] t /ret*es betwe5 ,! fle%-&-blood _w & ! k+dom unse5-- ,! _w t y see & ! k+dom unse54 8,"k !n t ! _s1 e>?'s veil ca/ away1 ,sees only ! true 9 t radiant day4 ,he :o fir/ o'er my _s1 newborn1 b5t & smil$1 ,0 ! foe :o _h gone f me unreconcil$-- ,my foe :o _h gone f me unreconcil$40 ,s spake my dead love & !n vani%$ away1 ,l ! mi/ ( ! valley :5 rise? ! day4 ,b ,i "k1 s9ce t mom5t1 t hate is a dream ,f :i* ! s\l wakes :5 x crosses ,dea?'s /ream-- ,awakes to love only1 across t d>k /ream4 ,i "k1 too1 t ,dea? _c *ange1 _c kill ,e'en ! p]son4 ,my lov]1 ?\gh dead1 loves me /ill2 ,= he came1 z ( old1 & ^u me he smil'd1 ,& spoke 9 ! voice t my he>t _h beguil'd-- ,! beautiful voice t my he>t _h beguil'd4 ,! book 0 begun4 ,! writ+ ( x 0 n an easy task 9 spite ( ! writ]'s w>m int]e/ 9 h] !me4 ,little snat*es ( "t1 aft] ! daily gr9d at h] editorial desk 0 ov]1 7 all %e c\ld devote to x4 ,(t5 %e 0 too tir$ to write a l9e until %e _h re/$ h\rs4 ,!n1 p]haps1 to make up = su* indulg5ce1 %e wrote f> into ! night--wrote z ?\gh bayonets 7 press+ h]--wrote ) no ?\ght ( publi%] or public 9 m9d4 ,! tru?1 to write ! tru?1 z x 0 reveal$ to h]1 ?is 0 h] inspiration1 h] /r5g?1 h] rew>d4 ,,*apt] ,,xxi4 ,,! ,,butt]fly',s ,,flight4 8,! ,knight ( ! ,pale ,horse1 he laid ,8 %ad[y lance aga9/ ! spell1 ,t hid h] ,self3 ,z if afraid1 ,! cruel blackness %rank & fell4 ,!n1 lift+ sl[ h] pleasant sleep1 ,he took h] ) him ?r\gh ! night1 ,& swam a riv] cold & deep ,& vani%$ up an awful height40 --,s4 ,m4 ,b4 ,piatt4 ,"s "t1 x may be1 be=e ! _w is v mu* old]1 we %all "k well :at n[ we b dimly disc]n1 t ?\ght is ! sub/ance & w ! op]at+ =ce ( ! univ]se1 & t bo? are electric4 ,!n %all we und]/& ! irresi/ible p[]s ( attraction :i* ?\ght has = k9dr$ ?\ght2 & we %all "k :y we seek et]nally our own k9d ( p1 consci\sly or unconsci\sly1 & nev] "k re/ = ! _s until we f9d !m1 = only ) !m is to be _h ! life-giv+1 s\l-su/a9+ quality ( sympa?y1 ?r\gh ^: vibrations ! univ]se 0 =m$ & is ma9ta9$4 ,9 ob$i5ce to ?is law ( attraction ,c>tice ,dor+ cont9u$ to se>* = p]sons awake to ! joyful fact t !re is no dea?1 s %e might le>n m ( ! laws :i* gov]n communion betwe5 life "h & beyond4 ,%e f\nd believ]s1 b because ( ! v>i\s fads & div]sifi$ fooli%ness ) :i* !y frequ5tly g>ni%$ _! belief !y 7 ( slight help to h]4 ,ea* gave 8 fai? a "n t reveal$ ! f5ce he _h built ar\nd 8 m9d1 ?\gh he condemn$ all o!r f5ces4 ,"s prea*$ aga9/ ! ph5om5a ( ! spiritual philosophy & secretly revel$ 9 x4 ,& !re 7 ! !osophi/s1 :o1 z ,mr4 ,/ead says1 c always expla9 ev]y?+4 ,f ! pr\d em95ce ( _! omnisci5ce _m ( !m look$ d[n on pla9 spirituali/s1 & advis$ aga9/ %[+ any civility to spirits4 ,yet !y patroniz$ m$iums & a/rolog]s on ! sly1 & frequ5tly produc$ a little ( ! ph5om5a !mselves1 m]ely to %[ _! occult p[]4 ,among ^! & sometimes outside ! sacr$ pale1 7 re9c>nationi/s :o make ! plausible & beautiful !ory ( progression ?r\gh an et]nity ( exi/5ces di/a/eful & tiresome by _! 8memories0 ( pa/ human exp]i5ces4 ,!y _h be5 pr9ces ( high degree1 inv>iably1 nev] paup]s or crim9als4 ,napoleons1 ,cs>s1 ,mahomets1 ,cleopatras & ,sapphos 7 we>isomely pl5tiful2 b humbl] types 7 r>e4 ,_m 7 s busy fe$+ _! vanity ) ^! romantic halluc9ations !y _h no "t to le>n any?+ useful4 ,hypnoti/s 7 num]\s1 _m ( !m claim+ t _! p>ticul> sci5ce acc\nt$ = ev]y?+ "u ! sun4 ,!n !re 7 _m :o decl>$ t 9 all ! univ]se !re is b good2 b !y fell into factions repres5t$ by diff]5t lead]s1 & f\ght _m & _m a bitt] b\t to prove x4 ,x 0 en\gh to make "o cry out 9 angui%1 8,:]e c wisdom be f\nd8 ,& :]e is ! place ( und]/&+80 ,yet x _h its hopeful side4 ,x %[$ t _m 7 ?9k+1 &1 ?\gh ?\ght took diff]5t tr5ds1 all roads ev5tually lead to ! tru?4 ,lett]s came (t5 f ,*rissalyn1 b !y conta9$ no messages f fri5ds invisible1 = %e nev] gave !m an opportunity to say any?+1 aft] ,c>tice w5t away4 ,%e 0 afraid4 ,sometimes a picture or vision fla%$ be=e h]1 9 spite ( h] avoidance ( ev]y?+ ( ! k9d4 ,if x p]ta9$ to h] fri5d %e told h]2 b t 0 all4 ,six ye>s _h pass$ ) nev] a sight ( ! ,butt]fly's belov$ face1 & nev] a ^w f ! de> p ( ! unse5 _w4 ,c>tice _h felt _! pres5ce (t51 & knew t !y 7 fai?ful2 b %e 0 hungry = a ^w f !m4 ,n[ came a lett] f ,*rissalyn begg+ h] to sp5d "s weeks ) h]4 ,x 0 a p>ticul>ly girli% & extravagant lett]1 almo/ a photograph ( ! m9d ( ! unreg5]ate ,butt]fly ( old4 ,%e knew a delightful little summ] resort :]e !y c\ld g & be out ( ! sight & s\nd ( "w & c>e ( e hue4 ,%e _h set h] he>t ^u x4 99 99 99 99 99 ,arrang+ = a leave ( abs5ce ,mrs4 ,dor+ soon 0 on h] way4 ,%e f\nd h] fri5d 9 extraord9>ily good spirits1 & _! reunion 0 ( a s*ool-girli% ord] ( delight4 ,aft] a few h\rs ! ye>s ( _! sep>ation seem$ nev] to h be54 ,we h all _h ?is exp]i5ce & wond]$ at x4 ,aft] long abs5ce we come back to a famili> spot1 & 9 a little :ile f9d x difficult to p]suade ourselves t we h ev] be5 away4 ,p]haps ?is is a pro( t to ! true self !re is nei!r sep>ation nor di/ance1 nor pa/ nor future4 ,all is ne> & all is n[4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! ,butt]fly _h a new assortm5t ( radiant w+s--o!rwise g>m5ts--ready to spread gaily at ! spr+s4 ,"o by "o %e display$ !m ) *ildi% pleasure1 = p]sonal adornm5t _h ev] be5 h] feti*4 8,z we get on a little 9 ye>s10 %e said1 8all we c d to head (f ! enemy1 ,age1 is to make believe we ignore him4 ,extra pa9t & fea!rs are necess>y4 ,i've _h x flung 9 my face t ,i'm n s "y z ,i 01 b ,i won't admit x4 ,anyh[ ,i'm /ill "y en\gh to excite envy & jeal\sy40 ,"h %e laugh$ ) diabolical pleasure4 8,i int5d to make ! be/ ( ?is _w & /ay 9 x z long z ,i c1 not)/&+ x's no p>adise4 ,b ,i h lo/ "s illusions 9 reg>d to x4 ,= in/ance1 t ( my own irresi/ible attractiv5ess4 ,i c draw mo?s yet1 b =m]ly ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld attract m51 provid+ ,i ev] enc\nt]$ su* be+s40 ,aga91 night aft] night1 ,*rissalyn sat z ( old1 call+ up = h] fri5d's delight ! unse5 p :o 7 always ready to respond4 ,:5 ,c>tice spoke ( ! long "t t _h pass$ ) nev] a ^w f "o ( !m1 ,moreau said3 8,no "t has pass$4 ,!re is no "t4 ,to ! _s a ?\s& ye>s are z "o day40 ,! la/ ev5+ 9 ! city came4 ,!y 7 to />t = ! spr+s e>ly next day4 ,! luggage 0 c>efully pack$ & s _! m9ds 7 easy on t score4 ,:5 !y w5t up/airs ! h\se 0 p]fectly /ill1 all save !mselves be+ asleep4 ,!y sat d[n 9 ,*rissalyn's room to *at4 ,c>tice ?\ght %e nev] _h se5 ! ,butt]fly look s "y1 s beautiful1 s hopeful1 s happy4 ,prep>+ ! table = ,plan*ette !y eag]ly await$ ! messages t w\ld surely come ov] t inexplicable telephone4 ,n[ some?+ pass+ /range occurr$4 ,f ! empty air beside !m music bur/ =?--music ! l ( :i* !y _h nev] he>d--music made by in/rum5ts unkn[n to !m1 b ( une>?ly sweetness1 ) p[] to ?rill to ! dep?s ( _! be+4 ,aw$ & amaz$ ! two fri5ds look$ at ea* o!r1 9 sil5ce4 ,!n1 z its heav5ly sweet vibrations %ook _! s\ls1 ! te>s ran f _! eyes1 !y knew n :y4 ,aga9 & aga9 ! unse5 musicians made m>vel\s melody = ! two en*ant$ li/5]s4 ,sometimes ! *ords 7 pla9tively sad1 sometimes joy\s1 b always p5etrat+ ! deepe/ recesses ( be+1 ! inn] sanctu>y :]e poetry & dreams h _! high & heav5ly dwell+-place4 ,! two entranc$ li/5]s sat fac+ ea* o!r1 lo/ 9 ! delici\s spell ( ! melody4 ,sudd5ly an electric breeze envelop$ ,c>tice1 s5d+ ov] h] t creepy ?rill we are all famili> )1 :i* resembles fe>1 b is n fe>4 ,!re1 be=e h] eyes1 j back ( ,*rissalyn1 /ood ,prescott1 look+ exactly ! same z :5 ) !m 9 mat]ial =m4 ,someh[ %e 0 made to und]/& t %e mu/ n cry out--nor tell ,*riss t he 0 !re4 ,spellb\nd & sil5t %e wat*$ him4 ,he laid 8 h& on ! ,butt]fly's %9+ head1 smil$ & spoke4 ,%e saw 8 lips move1 & ! glitt] ( 8 tee?1 b he>d no s\nd1 und]/ood no ^w4 ,!n1 :ile h] eyes 7 /ill ^u him1 he vani%$4 8,y look v pale1 ,c>tice4 ,are y fright5$80 ,*rissalyn ask$1 z ! music ceas$4 ,mrs4 ,dor+ %ook h] head1 = h] tongue1 dry & p[]less1 0 no long] a will+ s]vant4 ,! music came back no m4 ,aft] talk+ ( ! wond]ful ph5om5on a:ile1 !y bade ea* o!r good-night & p>t$4 ,c>tice c\ld n sleep4 ,! /range ev5ts ( ! ev5+ drove away repose4 ,aga9 & aga9 %e recall$ ! expression on ,prescott's face1 try+ to translate x into words1 b 9 va94 ,only "o ?+ 0 pla94 ,x 0 some?+ p]ta9+ to ! ,butt]fly1 & he didn't want h] to "k x4 ,aft] h\rs ( wakefulness %e slept & dream$4 ,%e & ,*rissalyn 7 danc+ 9 a great & fanta/ic company4 ,ev]ybody else wore masks1 b _! faces 7 uncov]$4 ,*rissalyn 0 ! p>tn] ( a graceful knight 9 black velvet :o :irl$ h] on & on1 endlessly4 ,at la/ !y rose into ! air toge!r1 & ,*riss became a v]itable butt]fly1 ) beautiful silv]y w+s4 ,! knight also develop$ w+s1 b !y 7 black1 l 8 g>m5ts4 ,c>tice call$ to h] fri5d to come d[n1 b %e only laugh$ & rose high]1 & f9ally flew out ( sight4 ,) a wildly beat+ he>t ,c>tice awoke4 ,ris+1 %e dress$ = ! j\rney4 ,knock+ on ,*rissalyn's door1 %e receiv$ no answ]4 ,!n %e call$ h]1 & ) light & je/+ words bade h] make ha/e4 ,/ill no answ]4 ,op5+ ! door %e ent]$1 b />t$ back ) a cry ^: ?rill ( horror w5t to ! he>t l a knife4 ,! ,butt]fly _h1 inde$1 spread silv]y w+s & fl[n1 = !re lay h] *rysalis1 cold1 :ite & pulseless4 ,! black knight ( dea? _h tak5 h] out ( sight4 ,! delicate1 long-ail+ lungs _h giv5 way1 & ! inevitable end _h come4 ,%e :o lov$ ! _w & its fooli%1 fleet+ pleasures _h gone sudd5ly out ( x4 ,:i!r8 ,x 0 a sad he>t t ,mrs4 ,dor+ c>ri$ back to ,new ,york1 9 spite ( h] k t ! ,butt]fly _h b spread h] w+s4 ,sometimes 9 ! d>kness & sil5ce ( night %e talk$ al\d to h] vani%$1 yet ev]-pres5t1 fri5d4 8,:]e are y1 ,butt]fly8 ,c y he> me & see me8 ,d y "k h[ heavy is my he>t sometimes8 ,& are y happy 9 y\r new _w8 ,is life m beautiful1 m p]fect !re8 ,& d y love me /ill80 ,no voice repli$1 b ! light1 c>ess+1 electric t\*es came sometimes1 & ! /rick5 he>t 0 com=t$4 ,,*apt] ,,xxii4 ,,! ,,prop ,,t ,,fail$4 8,ye h read1 ye h he>d1 ye h ?\ght10 he said1 & ! tale is /ill to run4 8,by ! wor? ( ! body t once ye _h1 give answ]--:at h ye done80 --,rudy>d ,kipl+4 ,two ye>s pass$1 & ,mrs4 ,dor+ /ill sat at h] editorial desk4 ,f>nswor? _h be5 ! k9de/ & mo/ consid]ate ( employ]s4 ,! envi\s said no woman ev] _h an easi] situation4 ,!y rais$ _! eyebr[s1 :5 !y said ?is1 imply+ ! usual s5tim5tal ins9uations2 b !y 7 mi/ak54 ,f>nswor?'s reg>d = ,c>tice _h no s5tim5tal color+ :atev]4 ,he admir$ h] ability & delight$ 9 giv+ h] a *ance1 & mak+ t *ance z pleasant z possible1 hav+ views on ! unfair1 indu/rial1 political & social rul+s f :i* wom5 suff]4 ,he _h come to ,new ,york1 a tal5t$ /ruggl]4 ,n[ he 0 a millionaire1 *ief proprietor ( a great publi%+ h\se1 :i* _h become great "u 8 managem5t1 & he lov$ to make ! road a little smoo!r = ^? less able & less =tunate4 ,c>tice lov$ him1 x is true2 b n z ! common m9d und]/&s ! t]m4 ,sometimes h] eyes grew moi/1 :ile %e look$ at him & wi%$ %e might h a *ance to prove h] gratitude4 ,he 0 to h] l ! %ad[ ( a great rock 9 a we>y l&4 ,9 ! weakness ( _s ages h br$ 9 h] sex1 %e reg>d$ him z a wall t /ood betwe5 h] & possible calamity4 8,i ne$ fe> no f9ancial disa/]1 :ile he lives10 %e ?\ght4 8,8 h& w be ev] fri5dly2 8 he>t ev] k9d40 ,f>nswor? 0 f> above ! av]age ( m51 b he _h a s]i\s weakness ( "* t made curi\s comrade%ip ) 8 bett] attributes4 ,anybody1 ! lea/ tru/wor?y1 ! mo/ malici\s1 c\ld s[ 9 him se$s ( suspicion aga9/ 8 be/ fri5d1 & 9 t5 h\rs !y w\ld be full-gr[n trees1 load$ ) bitt] & baneful fruit4 ,:5 ?is happ5$ 8 k9dness vani%$ & he c\ld be z cruel z hate4 ,8 consci5ce fl$ ! field1 :5ev] 8 vanity 0 ruffl$4 ,kn[+ ?is a woman poison$ 8 m9d aga9/ ,c>tice ,dor+1 by a few ly+ words--a woman :o believ$ x w\ld be to h] int]e/ to get ,c>tice out ( h] way4 ,! se$ s[n spr\t$1 grew1 blossom$ & bore fruit )9 tw5ty-f\r h\rs4 ,! next day ,c>tice f\nd a note ( dismissal on h] desk1 ! curtness ( :i* 0 incompatible ) ! pret5sions ( a g5tleman1 if address$ to "o m]ely 9 ! capacity ( employee4 ,b :5 ! employee 0 a social equal1 a fai?ful fri5d ( ye>s & a lady1 x %[$ a lack ( self-control on ! "p ( ! writ] seldom surpass$4 ,! t5or ( x 0 t1 z %e 0 8n do+ ju/ice0 to ! "w entru/$ to h] c>e1 h] s]vices 7 disp5s$ )4 ,a *eck = ! :ole ( ! unf9i%$ week 0 enclos$4 ,c>tice read ! lett] & sat l "o froz51 & ! he>t-break+1 unbe>able look ( long ago came aga9 into h] eyes4 ,e "o :o has receiv$ an unexpect$1 fell+ bl[ f ! h& ( a fri5d c und]/& ! bl5d$ a/oni%m5t & angui% ( t mom5t4 ,%e knew :o _h turn$ ,f>nswor? aga9/ h] & :y x _h be5 done1 b t c\ld n help ! irrem$iabl5ess ( ! situation4 ,%e c\ld n g to ,f>nswor? & mortify him by tell+ him ?is2 & %e knew 8 implacable _s too well to hope t he w\ld s mu* z all[ h] an audi5ce4 ,s]i\s z 0 ! bl[ to h] f9ances1 its wor/ effect 0 on h] he>t4 ,black & deep are ! bruises made by ! h&s we love4 8,i mu/ n =get :at ,i owe him = pa/ k9dness10 %e said1--8mu/ n let ?is cruelty put hatr$ into my he>t4 ,i mu/ =give him1 = he kn[s n :at he does4 ,be+ a man1 he _c "k h[ difficult is life = a woman1 "u ! exi/+ ord] ( ?+s4 ,nei!r does he "k h[ (t5 h]et(ore my he>t has bl$ f cruelty2 nor h[ ,i h lov$ him2 nor h[ we>y & feeble ,i am mu* ( ! "t4 8,no2 he doesn't "k4 ,w\ld any ( u ev] hurt ano!r if we knew all t o!r has to be>8 ,besides1 x is bett] to be ! victim ( inju/ice ?an ! p]petrator ( x4 ,ugly z is pov]ty1 x is bett] to endure x ?an to h ! p[] :i* ! possession ( millions conf]s & misuse x4 8,poor ,f>nswor?10 %e said4 8,success has spoil$ y\r naturally beautiful s\l4 8,! great de/roy] ( human consci5ce t goes by ! "n ( bus9ess p]mits y to put me out ( y\r s]vice 9 a summ>y & humiliat+ mann]1 :i* puts me out ( y\r life & fri5d%ip at ! same "t1 ?\gh moral "r to treat ano!r human be+ 9 ?is way y h none4 ,b ! law ( causality is ev] op]ative1 & y _c escape ! consequ5ces ( y\r de$s4 ,y w get back y\r me$ z y measure4 8,i accept y\r dismissal z "p & p>cel ( ! de/9y ,i am work+ out4 ,soon] or lat] e e>?ly prop on :i* ,i lean is tak5 f me4 ,ev]y?+ has a mean+ & purpose4 ,! lesson ,i h be5 sl[ to le>n is n[ pla9 to me4 ,x is t ,i mu/ /& alone1 & s mu/ e s\l1 some:]e1 "s "t4 ,props are de/roy]s ( /r5g? & "*4 ,9 all ! univ]se !re is b "o on :i* we may lean )\t invit+ weakness1 & t is ,et]nal ,be+1 ! backgr\nd ( all life40 ,ga!r+ up h] little possessions f ! place t _h be5 h] (ficial home = eight ye>s1 ,mrs4 ,dor+ walk$ out ( x heavy-he>t$ & solit>y4 ,! rock f :i* %e _h expect$ %elt] _h vani%$ f h] horizon =ev]4 ,m6 ,x _h nev] be5 !re1 save 9 h] imag9ation4 ,x 0 an illusion f :i* n[ %e 0 free4 ,curi\sly en\gh we regret ! loss ( our illusions1 yet we ought to ?ank ,god f]v5tly e "t we get rid ( "o1 = x means t we are em]g+ f ignorance & d>kness into light & k1--approa*+ ne>] to ! tru? t %all make u free4 ,on rea*+ home ,mrs4 ,dor+ sat d[n to take a practical view ( ! situation4 ,= ne>ly tw5ty ye>s _h %e work$ fai?fully1 hav+ begun at sev5te54 ,%e _h liv$ 9 mode/ com=t1 & by d9t ( self-d5ial _h sav$ "o ?\s& doll>s4 ,:at man above m$iocrity w\ld ?9k t a fair recomp5se = half a lifetime's "w8 ,a sudd5 cutt+ (f l t is :at any "o may expect :o has giv5 8 or h] "t & tal5ts to ! build+ up ( ano!r's bus9ess4 ,x is ! s\l's v5geance = n tru/+ x entirely1 & confid5tly foll[+ :i!rsoev] x may lead4 ,b !re is some?+ %amefully immoral 9 our bus9ess me?ods1 :5 an employee aft] ye>s ( fai?ful s]vice c be flung out )\t a *ance = a ^w ( def5ce4 ,x is z ?\gh our fa!r %\ld unexpect$ly op5 ! door ( 8 home & bid u begone =ev]4 ,& is n our employ] our bus9ess fa!r1 f :om we h a "r to expect consid]ation8 ,does he owe u no?+ m ?an our weekly wage8 ,mu/ 8 relation to u be always measur$ only by doll>s & c5ts8 ,among ! lett]s ,mrs4 ,dor+ took ) h] f ! (fice unop5$ 0 "o f ,b>dell1 n[ 9 ,p>is1 fam\s & prosp]\s beyond 8 dreams4 ,/range irony ( fate t br\ght to h] 8 glad /ory ( fre% successes on ! day t c>ri$ defeat to h]4 ,) ! sup]/ition common to ,bohemia ,b>dell consid]$ ,c>tice 8 mascot4 ,8 lett]s 7 always frank1 fri5dly & *>m+4 ,8 la/ words 73 8,foll[ y\r ideals4 ,!y w lead y into fre$om40 ,?is rem9d$ h] ( h] book4 ,x 0 f9i%$ long s9ce2 b ! writ+ 0 sc>cely half ! battle4 ,x langui%$ = want ( a publi%]4 ,^? to :om x _h be5 submitt$1 _h return$ x1 "o & all1 ) ! contempt1 b ?9ly veil$ ) regrets1 x _h excit$ 9 _! infallible m9ds4 ,"o pla9] spok5 & less heavily v5e]$ ) ! _w's poli% ?an ! re/1 said to h] face3 8,come n[1 ,mrs4 ,dor+1 y mu/n't expect anybody to publi% /uff ( t k9d--digg+ into ! mean+ ( life1 high] me?ods ( evolution1 #8%all we live aft] we die81' #8ultimate de/9y ( ! human race1' & all su* heavy timb]4 ,p take no int]e/ 9 ^! que/ions4 ,:at we want is a rattl+ good love-/ory1 ) pl5ty ( hugg+ & kiss+ 9 x4 ,i l t 9 or out ( a novel myself4 ,!re mu/ be "s iron-clad ob/ructioni/s 9 x1 too1 cruel p>5ts or o!r able m>plots1 & ! h]o mu/ get h] 9 ! la/ *apt] or soon]4 ,any?+ b a /ory t doesn't end all "r4 ,! public abhors x4 ,n[1 y\r book is load$ ) high-up1 m\nta9-peak ?\ght1 & w\ldn't sell at all40 ,ano!r1 ) :om also1 %e _h a p]sonal int]view1 a "y man ) extraord9>y fai? 9 8 own wisdom1 smil$ z he return$ h] manuscript1 & made 8 smile s vocative x ne$$ few accompany+ words4 8,x is1 ah--y "k1 ,mrs4 ,dor+1 s wide a dep>ture f ! /&>d ( art 9 fiction1 t x might make ev5 a publi%] ridicul\s1 to say no?+ ( ! au?or4 ,"o mu/ keep some:]e )9 sight ( ! exi/+ canons4 ,?is1 if y w p>don me1 flies 9 ! face ( e "o ( !m40 8,i d>e say10 answ]$ ,c>tice4 8,i nev] tr\bl$ myself ab\t ! exi/+ canons4 ,x is life z ,i "k x t ,i h tri$ to portray2 n life z somebody else says x %\ld be pa9t$ 9 books40 ,aft] a numb] ( equally di%e>t5+ exp]i5ces1 ! book 0 c>efully laid aside to await ! judgm5t day4 ,meantime ^! same publi%+ h\ses 7 exud+ c>t-loads ( m>ketable abom9ations1 :i* 7 scatt]$ 9 all directions1 do+ _! %>e 9 weak5+ ! m9ds ( _! un=tunate read]s4 ,life1 z depict$ by !m1 0 a m]e sex-*ase1 m or less int]rupt$ by ! usual difficulties1 all ( :i* 0 q 9 accordance ) ! 8exi/+ canons10 s mu* respect$ by ! "y man ) ! smile4 99 99 99 99 99 ,p]haps no?+ gives u a loneli] feel+ ?an to be cut (f f our field ( daily activity1 :atev] x may h be54 ,c>tice f\nd h]self set back to ! dreadful days ( h] beg9n+ 9 ,new ,york4 ,x 0 z ?\gh %e _h gone /eadily up a /eep slope1 to a respectable height1 only to be knock$ viol5tly to ! bottom by ! h& t 0 help+ h] upw>d4 8,_h ,i develop$ ! be/ t 0 9 me--foll[$ my ideals0--%e said1 8?is c\ld n h happ5$4 ,9 t case ,i %\ld h /ood alone long s9ce1 lean+ on no prop1 dep5d+ on no p]son's caprice4 ,set-backs & knock-d[ns are our s*oolma/]s1 & !y are ev] busy ) u until we le>n our lessons40 ,a lonel9ess assail$ h] he>t1 poignant1 %>p1 deep4 ,all h] life its resi/less waves _h at times roll$ ov] h] _s1--a flood t w\ld n be /ay$4 ,x 0 t k9d ( lonel9ess t creates a solitude :i* is n plac$ 9 a d5sely peopl$ univ]se4 ,!n came ! com=t+ reflection t we are nev] alone1 nev] solit>y1 h[ev] mu* we may seem to be1 & nev] absolutely on our own h&s1 9 spite ( appe>ances4 ,ab\t u are ev] ! spiritual ho/s1 & back ( u1 )9 u & ab\t u1 ! ,supreme ,self1 to :i* ea* is bo? inlet & outlet4 99 99 99 99 99 ,on ! ev5+ ( ,mrs4 ,dor+'s fir/ day ( idl5ess1 ,gabriel ,norris call$ to see h]4 ,= sev]al ye>s he _h be5 a resid5t ( ,new ,york4 ,9 ! wor/ ( ! ?ick mass ( ! mis]ables he _h set up 8 cobbl]'s b5*1 & op5$ an adjo9+ read+-room2 & !re he fi%$ = ! s\ls ( m51 9 ! great ocean ( wret*$ness ^: huge waves beat ab\t 8 door4 ,c>tice told him ! /ory ( h] summ>y ejectm5t f ! place t %e _h s long occupi$1 & ! v>i\s %ifts t %e _h be5 mak+ 9 h] m9d = ! future4 8,x's a good ?+10 he said1 8:5 y don't "k j :at to d1 n to d any?+--to wait1--wait )\t worry or anxiety--wait & tru/4 ,unse5 influ5ces are ev] at "w on our de/9y4 ,we c hurry no?+1 *ange no?+4 ,re/ = a "t4 ,y h be5 s busy mo/ ( y\r life t y h _h b little *ance to get acqua9t$ ) y\rself4 ,y h a little capital ahead2 re/ on t4 ,new ideas come 9 seasons ( repose1 = !n ! m9d is receptive40 8,t is :at ,i _h half-decid$ to d10 %e answ]$1 8?\gh ,i am /ill s mu* a slave to ! old1 errone\s belief t ,i c>ry myself on my own %\ld]s1 ,i sc>cely c\ld get my cons5t to x40 8,& :5 y feel s dispos$10 cont9u$ ,gabriel1 8come to my read+-room & read a /ory or a poem to my %eep--#8my po' los %eep o' de %eepfol1' :om ,i try s h>d to ga!r 94 ,y may n "k x--y "k y\rself s little--b y h ! mo/ beautiful voice ,i ev] he>d4 ,y\r read+1 z well z y\r spee*1 is exquisite music4 #8,! s\l ( man is audible1 n visible1' says ,longfell[4 #8,x reveals itself 9 ! voice4 ,a s\nd alone betrays ! fl[+ ( ! et]nal f\nta94'0 ,anxiety & worry fell away f ,c>tice ,dor+ soon z %e det]m9$ to re/ & tru/4 ,a pr(\nd philosophic tru? is "h reveal$4 ,:5 we tru/1 ,god ,himself c>ries our burd5s1 & we are set free f c>e4 ,tru/ is ! ess5ce1 ! vital pr9ciple ( religion1 :i* is at he>t a recognition ( ! div9e intellig5ce )9 u1 ab\t u1 & is reflect$ by u1--! reality we call ,god4 ,x 0 a joy to be ! mi/ress ( h] own "t1 to "k :5 %e began ! day t %e c\ld d ) x :at %e pleas$4 ,x 0 luxury to sit at an op5 w9d[ & feel ! air bl[ ov] h]1 & n be goad$ by any ?\ght ( duty undone4 ,%e w5t ab\t ! city & enjoy$ its treasures ( art & beauty4 ,%e =m$ new fri5d%ips & cultivat$ old ones4 ,%e read &1 ?r\gh sympa?y1 ent]$ into1 ! lives & feel+s ( au?ors & ! p ( _! creation1 z nev] be=e4 ,%e became bett] acqua9t$ ) h]self1 & by t means ) all o!rs4 ,%e w5t to ,gabriel ,norris's unsect>ian temple & help$ him fe$ 8 %eep4 ,!re ! music ( h] beautiful voice call$ 9 _m a lo/ "o4 ,! bitt] lonel9ess t %ad[$ h] at times fl$ away & tr\bl$ h] no m4 ,h] _s came 9 sympa!tic & lov+ t\* ) o!rs1 ) all t is1 ) ! univ]sal m9d itself1 = ?is is ! purpose ( life1 ! union ( ! entire be+ ) its orig9al4 ,?is is ! true fre$om :i* is ! de/9y ( ! human race4 ,! individual self becomes "o ) ! univ]sal1 & is h5ce=? free f limitations1 f re/rictions1 f bondage ( e k9d4 ,x ex*anges its little circle ( p]sonal desires = ! great _w-consci\sness4 ,:osoev] does ?is ev5 9 ! mo/ limit$ degree puts c>e & tr\ble beh9d him4 ,?us x 0 t ?is tru? :i* ,c>tice ,dor+ _h long !oretically accept$1 became a "p ( h] be+4 ,%e began to live x & be x1 = we only really accept tru? :5 we are x4 ,h] eyes lo/ ! look ( suff]+ t light$ !m at times ) a mov+ & resi/less fire1 & became tru/ful1 hopeful1 peaceful1 l ^? ( a happy *ild4 ,difficulties & disappo9tm5ts vani%$ & fe> vex$ h] no m4 ,%e 0 l ^? :o h won all battles1 put all tr\bles beh9d !m4 ,%e _h ! k t )9 h]self 0 p[] ov] all temporal dragons2 t h] welf>e dep5d$ on no man's :im2 t !re are no accid5ts2 t ,he :o slumb]s n nor sleeps1 is 8guid+ ea* ( ,8 creatures 9 ! curr5t ( an et]nal purpose02 t %e 0 z inde/ructible z ! univ]se1 & z old1 z "y & z dea?less z its build]4 ,%e ?\ght no m ( happ9ess1 because bless$ness _h come into h] life1--! bless$ness :i* 8consi/s 9 progress t[>d p]fection40 ,9 an undef9$ way %e felt h]self approa*+ high summits1 und]/&+ t !re is nei!r high nor l[1 ne> nor f> 9 ! univ]se save 9 ?\ght4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii4 ,,! ,,book ,,& ,,its ,,critics4 ,! tale is z old z ! ,ed5 ,tree--& new z ! new-cut too?-- ,= ea* man kn[s ere 8 lip-?at* gr[s he is ma/] ( ,art & ,tru?2 ,& ea* man he>s z ! twilight ne>s1 to ! beat ( 8 dy+ he>t1 ,! ,devil drum on ! d>k5$ pane3 8,y did x1 b 0 x ,art80 --,rudy>d ,kipl+4 ,"o day ,mrs4 ,dor+ receiv$ a lett] f a lawy] ann\nc+ ,k5dall's dea?1 & advis+ h] t by 8 w %e 0 sole heir to 8 prop]ty1 :i* 0 valu$ at ab\t tw5ty-five ?\s& doll>s--a =tune 9 ,bohemia4 ,a few l9es f ! te/ator 7 enclos$1 ! la/ 8 h& p5n$4 ,he _h b "o reque/ to make 9 reg>d to ! disposition ( x1 & t 0 t %e use "p ( x 9 br++ out h] book4 8,see10 %e said to ,lilla ,joy1 :o _h long liv$ ) h] 9 ! little flat1 8h[ my tru/ is rew>d$4 ,influ5ces unse5 7 work+ = me :ile ,i re/$4 ,_h ,i be5 a little wis]1 ,i might h sav$ myself mu* torm5t all my life4 ,worry h9d]s in/ead ( helps1 ,i believe x is "o ( ! =ty deadly s9s ! ,egyptians tri$ to avoid40 ,) money to "w ) x 0 n difficult to f9d a publi%] = ! book4 ,x 0 a true tale1 told 9 a simple1 /raight=w>d mann]1 ( life & its mean+1 z its au?or und]/ood !m4 ,! !me ( x 0 t life goes on aft] ! *ange we call dea?1 & is inconceivably enl>g$ & ennobl$ = all :o aspire4 ,su* ( ! critics z wor%ip plots & believe t ! *ief aim ( life 9 /ories & out is to m>ry & be giv5 9 m>riage1 made x ! subject ( v r\gh surg]y4 8,x is a mo/ un:olesome book10 said "o4 8,love & m>riage are sc>cely m5tion$ 9 x4 ,"s twaddle t pret5ds to come f across ! riv] ( dea? is ! only bait x has ) :i* to angle = ! read]'s int]e/1 a !me 9 :i* heal?y m9ds w f9d no attraction40 ,dea? waits = e "o t brea!s1 yet any light !reon is 8un:olesome & n attractive to heal?y m9ds10 accord+ to ^? :o tell u :at we ought to read4 ,/range doctr9e1 b preval5t6 ,ano!r said3 8,"o m ( ^? deplorable books t deal 9 ! sup]natural & aim to make read]s take a morbid int]e/ 9 dea?4 ,its au?or has no eyes = ! ?\s& fre% !mes ( life1 b mu/ ne$s delve into ! d>ksome h]eaft] = mat]ial ) :i* to burd5 h] absurd pages4 ,:y %\ld any "o turn f ! sweet !me ( love to w&] 9 pa?s s remote f ta/e & :olesome imag]y z ?is80 ,"s sne]$ at x1 "s ignor$ x & _m abus$ x4 ,few _h s mu* z a tol]ant ^w = x4 ,yet v]ily a my/]y guide? ! fate ( a book z well z ! gr[+ ( a daisy1 = 8,! ,la/ ,enemy0 sold a/oni%+ly fa/1 & 0 read & talk$ ab\t f> & wide4 ,9 a few mon?s x 0 ! be/ kn[n book ( ! ye>1 9 spite ( ! critics1 & br\ght fame & money to its au?or1 ?\gh too late1 h] fri5ds said4 ,is any?+ too late8 ,come n all ?+s at _! appo9t$ "t1 nei!r soon] nor lat] ?an !y are due8 ,9 ! div9e drama ( ! univ]se ! curta9 nev] falls until ! play is f9i%$4 ,9 our %ort-sight$ness we say our fri5d di$ too soon1 or 8 good =tune came too late2 b we are 9 error4 ,ev]y?+ is "p ( ! et]nal plan1 & to be out ( "t or place an impossibility4 ,nev] to ,c>tice ,dor+ _h life appe>$ s well wor? liv+1 nor "w s well wor? do+4 ,to ,lilla ,joy %e said3 8,i am j beg9n+ to live4 ,i am le>n+ :at life means1 :at we c make ( x1 & :at ,i am4 ,we are love4 8,we love because we _c help x4 ,x is our expression1 & ! great]1 wid] & m all-inclusive our love1 ! full]1 l>g]1 m p]fect & m abundant is our life4 ,h[ beautiful x all is6 ,h[ ord]ly & h>moni\s6 ,h[ glori\s6 8,mo/ ( my life ,i h writt5 d[n to ! majority ( read]s4 ,n[ ,i %all br+ !m up to me4 ,i %all foll[ my ideals1 z ,i did 9 #8,! ,la/ ,enemy4' ,our ideals6 ,:at are !y b our s\ls1 try+ to reveal !mselves to o!r s\ls4 ,"h 9 ?is noble poem by ,ka!r9e ,lee ,bates1 ! ideal speaks3 8,at ! inn]mo/ core ( ?y be+1 ,i am a burn+ fire ,f ?9e own alt>-flame k9dl$1 9 ! h\r :5 s\ls aspire3 ,= "k t m5's pray]s %all be answ]$1 & gu>d ?y _s's desire4 8,t :i* ?\ w\ld/ be1 ?\ mu/ be2 t :i* ?\ %alt be ?\ art2 ,z ! oak1 a/ir 9 ! acorn1 ! dull e>? r5de? ap>t1 ,lo1 ?\1 ! se$ ( ?y long+1 t breake?1 & wake?1 ! he>t4 99 99 99 99 99 8,call me ?y foe 9 ?y passion2 claim me 9 peace = ?y fri5d3 ,yet be?9k !e by l[l& or upl&1 :]ev] ?\ wille/ to w5d1 ,i am ?9e ,angel ( ,judgm5t1 m9e eyes ?\ mu/ meet 9 ! end40 8,i "k t well1 ,lilla4 ,woe be to ^? :o h outrag$ _! ideal on t day1 :5 _! s\ls %all meet x face to face4 ,i h s9n$ aga9/ m9e1 & h met its accus+ eyes already4 ,b n[ ,i h begun my atonem5t1 & am eag] to g on ) x4 ,!re is joy 9 creat+ :at we wi% to create--t means giv+ =m to our ideals40 ,b ,lilla 0 sil5t1 wond]+ :at ideals h] fri5d w\ld foll[ 9 t c\ntry into :i* fle% & blood c nev] ent]4 ,9 h] eyes ,lilla saw ! /range light t flames up only :5 ! end ( ! j\rney is ne>2 & on h] face1 & 9 all t %e said & did 0 a h9t ( imm95t *ange1 pla9 to o!rs1 unse5 by h]self4 ,9 ! ,sanscrit is a /ory ( "o :o ask$ :at is ! mo/ wond]ful ?+ 9 ! _w4 ,! answ] is t e man %\ld believe t all %all die b himself4 ,! reason ( ?is is t he %all n die1 & 8 s\l kn[s x4 ,rememb] ?is1 y :o see y\r belov$ go+ d[n into :at we call ,dea?'s ,valley1 s]5e1 hopeful1 unconsci\s ( _! doom4 ,!y are wis] ?an y4 ,!y "k !y %all n die4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv4 ,,:o ,,are ,,!y8 8,:o are !y t are compell$ to recomm5ce ! same exi/5ce80 8,!y :o fail 9 ! fulfilm5t ( _! mission1 or 9 ! endurance ( ! trial appo9t$ to !m40 --,allan ,k>dec4 ,if ! r$ slay] ?9k he slays1 ,or if ! sla9 ?9k he is sla92 ,!y little "k ! subtle ways ,i keep & pass & turn aga94 --,ralph ,waldo ,em]son4 ,p]sonally ,i mu/ confess to "o small weakness4 ,i _c help ?9k+ t ! s\ls t[>d :om we feel drawn 9 ?is life are ! v s\ls :om we knew & lov$ 9 a =m] life1 & t ! s\ls :o repel u "h1 we d n "k :y1 are ! s\ls t e>n$ our disapproval1 ! s\ls f :om we kept alo( 9 a =m] life4--,f4 ,max ,mll]4 ,mon?s on swift w+ slipp$ away4 ,c>tice's p5 0 busy e day1 & e day %e delight$ m & m 9 h] "w1 because %e 0 say+ :at %e wi%$ to say1 0 express+ h]self fe>lessly & freely4 ,new plans ( action fairly riot$ 9 h] bra94 ,plans6 ,:5 _h !y ev] work$ = h]8 ,!re are p]sons :o m>k out ev]y?+ ahead1 & ,fate lets !m live _! arrangem5ts to ! lett]1 b ,c>tice 0 n "o ( !m4 ,! lamp ( ! _s1 :i* tells unutt]able ?+s1 n[ burn$ 9 h] eyes1 ) an une>?ly brightness1 ?r[+ its t\*+ radiance ov] all h] words & de$s2 b %e did n und]/&4 ,%e alone saw n ! heav5ly illum9ation4 ,b "o day ! imm95t *ange 0 made pla9 to h]1 ?\gh h[ %e nev] told4 ,com+ to ,lilla1 ) :it5$ face1 & ! old-"t1 all-compell+ appeal 9 h] eyes1 :i* nei!r man nor woman c\ld see )\t a bur/+ he>t1 %e said3 8,i mu/ soon leave y4 ,x has be5 %[n me & ,i und]/&40 ,"u ! spell ( ! wordless pa9 9 ! glori\s eyes1 h] h]oic fri5d flung h] arms ab\t h]1 cry+1 8,c>tice6 ,c>tice6 ,my de> "o6 ,i _c be> x6 ,i _c be> x60 ,& toge!r !y wept te>s ( su* angui% z only ! /rong ev] weep4 ,= a few days ! he>t-break+ look cont9u$ 9 ,c>tice's eyes2 b 9 ! sil5ce ( ! night help came f ! great s\rce1 & %e got up "o morn+ ) peace %9+ 9 h] face4 8,(t5 9 ! pa/10 %e said to ,lilla1 8,i h wi%$ ,i c\ld die & be out ( tr\ble4 ,b n[ ,i want to live3 n[ ,i "k t dy+ doesn't put u out ( tr\ble4 ,we mu/ gr[ out ( x by evolv+ above x1 le>n+ to ma/] x4 8,mo/ ( my life1 z ,i look back ^u x1 seems to h be5 m]e bl9d grop+4 ,n[1 :5 ,i ?9k ,i h le>n$ h[ to live1 ! bus9ess ( life is done4 ,& ,i h le>n$ h[ to "w 9 a way t nev] w\ld meet failure2 b t1 too1 is done4 8,& yet1 9 spite ( ! my/]y & ! grimness ( x1 some?+ tells me all is well2 t no?+ c be lo/2 t :at ,i h le>n$ w be useful some:]e4 ,p]haps we are "h = ! purpose ( le>n+ h[ to live & "w4 ,:5 t is accompli%$1 we mu/ g on & le>n o!r ?+s1 & we c take no o!r road ?an ! "o we h nam$ ,dea?1 & pa9t$ black4 ,b y & ,i "k t x leads into light1 &1 ?\gh we die1 we %all cont9ue to live1 & %all evolve1 unfold & exp&1 ev5 #8x do? n yet appe> :at we %all be4' 8,yet kn[+ ?is--= we h k1 n simply belief--!re are mom5ts :5 a *ildi% t]ror seizes me4 ,b :y %\ld ,i fe>8 ,millions h travel$ ! same road1 ! timid & fa9t-he>t$ z well z ! bold & brave1 & all w5t =? alone4 ,we say alone1 because we see no visible companions g ) !m2 yet we "k t no "o is ev] alone1 ei!r "h or on t inscrutable j\rney1 or at its end4 8,b not)/&+ all ,i h le>n$ ( ! life to foll[ ?is1 ,i _c picture x--_c =m any cle> idea ( x4 ,nor c ,i realize t life z ,i "k x n[ mu/ end4 ,i try to ?9k ( ! days to come :5 ,i %all n be "h1 nor be any:]e z ,i am n[1 & :5 ! =m ?r\gh :i* ,i act w h vani%$ utt]ly f ! face ( ! e>?1 b ,i _c6 ,i _c6 8,i am always ,i 9 consci\sness1 always exi/+1 nev] dead1 nev] diff]5t4 ,is x n ! my/]y ( my/]ies8 8,i try to imag9e a "t :5 ,i may come "h to our little home & be unse5 by y1 unable to lift a book1 flutt] a curta9 or speak "o ^w t y c he>2 b ,i _c4 ,h[ inconceivable x is t 9 a %ort "t ,i %all be 9 a condition s diff]5t f ?is t imag9ation itself _c pa9t x60 ,c>tice awoke f sleep "o day ) a l\d cry1 a wail ( t]ror t w5t to ! he>t4 8,:at is x1 de>80 ask$ ,lilla1 b5d+ ov] h]4 ,h] eyes w&]$ wildly ar\nd ! room1 & at la/1 reassur$ by a sight ( famili> objects1 lo/ _! look ( affright4 8,x mu/ h be5 a dream10 %e said1 8b s v real4 ,i 0 ly+ "u ! elm tree at home1 z ,i s (t5 did :5 a *ild2 yet ,i 0 z ,i am n[4 ,close ab\t me came a little company ( p %9+ l ! sun4 ,:5 !y 7 v ne>1 ,i knew !m to be p f my planet--my own p1 :om ,i rememb] well1 & :om ,i saw 9 a dream ye>s ago4 ,"o1 a woman1 ! mo/ beautiful ( all1 _h a face s famili> ,i almo/ spoke h] "n2 b ,i c\ld n q grasp x1 ?\gh %e seem$ v ne> & de> to me4 8#8,y\r "w is done1' %e said2 & !re 0 sadness 9 h] voice1 & pity 9 h] eyes4 8#8,well done8' ,i que/ion$1 ?\gh ) a s9k+ ( ! he>t1 = ,i began to be afraid1 ,i knew n :y4 8#8,did y always d y\r be/8' %e ask$4 8#8,no2' ,i answ]$1 consci5ce-smitt54 8#8,!n'-- 8,i int]rupt$1 = ,i c\ld n be> to he> :at ,i fe>$ %e w\ld say4 8#8,:o art ?\1 :o look s pitiful & seem s de>1 & :om ,i yet fe>8' ,i ask$4 8#8,i am ?9e ,ideal--?9e ,angel ( ,judgm5t--:o ha? s (t5 come to !e & f :om ?\ ha/ almo/ z (t5 turn$ away4' 8#8,b ,i s]ve y n[1' ,i cri$4 #8,i d my be/4 ,i h le>n$ my lesson4' 8#8,yes1 y h le>n$ ! lesson1 & w d bett] next "t1' %e said1 compassionately4 8#8,next "t8' ,i e*o$1 trembl+ ) fe>4 8#8,yes2 next "t1 = y mu/ come aga9 & d x ov] & d x "r1' %e said1 /]nly4 8,!n ,i %riek$ & awoke4 ,o ,lilla1 n[ ,i see1 ,i "k1 ,i und]/&4 ,i mu/ live my life aga9 & live x bett]--mu/ d my be/ all ! way ?r\gh4 ,i don't want to--no2 ,i don't want to2 b ,i mu/1 & s mu/ all :o fail to give _! be/--n z p5alty1 b because x is ! only way to le>n1 & to gr[4 8,we h liv$ always2 we %all live always4 ,?is is ! f\ndation rock ^u :i* we build ! inde/ructible temple1 "*4 ,victor ,hugo spoke ( life z a fairy tale a ?\s& times writt51 & said !re 0 n an age 9 :i* he c\ld n f9d 8 _s4 ,he believ$ he w\ld exi/ =ev]1 inasmu* z he felt 9 8 s\l ?\s&s ( songs1 & dramas t nev] _h f\nd expression3 ,he 0 sure he %\ld come aga9 & give !m life4 ,i1 too1 feel )9 me numb]less tales untold :i* mu/ be born some:]e4 ,a great s\l1 l ,hugo1 may volunt>ily come aga9 & aga9 to help o!rs2 b a recreant dream] l me ,,mu/ come4 8,ye>s ago ,i _h a dream t n[ ,i und]/&4 ,x is my belief1 z y "k1 t e mortal has a s\l-gu>dian--a be+ high] ?an a _s1 a dwell] 9 ! l& ( s\ls1 beyond ! middle k+dom1 f> away f ! e>? & its ties4 ,?is gu>dian gives u all ! exp]i5ces we h1 because he sees _! uses 9 our developm5t4 ,! bitt] cups we w\ld fa9 h pass f u he resolutely holds to our lips1 because he kn[s x is good = u to dr9k ( !m4 ,bless+s disguis$ z calamities & sorr[s come f 8 h&1 & all ! fires ( angui% t scor* u are fann$ by 8 brea?4 8,i dream$ ( ?is gu>dian angel4 ,he 0 go+ ) me ?r\gh life1 or r ?r\gh a s]ies ( sc5es or situations repres5t+ diff]5t lives4 ,i c\ld talk to him1 & he> him1 b c\ld n see him4 ,( ! _m pictures t 7 %[n to me ,i rememb]$ only two :5 morn+ came4 8,9 ! "o :i* repres5t$ a life be=e ?is ,i 0 re/+ on a rude c\*1 outdoors1 ne> a blaz+ fire1 9 ! mid/ ( a nauseat+ swamp4 ,x 0 aft] night1 & ! light f ! fire play$ fanta/ically on dank little pools1 rank tufts ( grass1 curi\s plants1 wat]y mosses & slimy roots4 8,look+ (f into ! swamp ,i saw a great mottl$ snake curl$ up 9 a holl[1 look+ directly at me1 malignity d>t+ f 8 eyes4 ,i po9t$ him out to ! p :o 7 ab\t me1 & told !m ,i w\ld kill him4 ,b "o & all urg$ me to let him alone1 & pr$ict$ s]i\s tr\ble1 if ,i di/urb$ him4 8,i answ]$ t x 0 tr\ble to h him !re1 ?r[+ hate ^u me ) 8 eyes1 & t1 at lea/1 ,i w\ld give him a h9t t 8 pres5ce 0 n desirable4 ,s ,i got up & ?rew a /one at him4 ,x /ruck him /raight on 8 back1 b reb\nd$ z ?\gh x _h met a wall1 )\t s mu* z bruis+ him1 save 9 _s4 ,x enrag$ him fe>fully4 ,he rais$ himself 9 ! air p]p5dicul>ly till he /ood on 8 tail1 & hatr$ fla%$ f 8 eyes 9 bright electric rays4 8,he did n /op at ?is1 b hurl$ invective aft] invective at me 9 pla9 ,engli%1 & ?reat5$ me z a snake nev] ?reat5$ be=e4 ,he hiss$1 rav$1 curs$ & gl>$ at me1 & swore t he w\ld take x out ( me 9 slices scatt]$ along a ?\s& ye>s4 ,9 %ort1 he made me und]/& cle>ly en\gh t 8 pr9cipal bus9ess =ev] aft] w\ld be to make me wret*$4 ,s direful 7 8 ?reats t ,i lay d[n on my small b$ quak+ ) t]ror1 fe>+ ei!r to sleep or /ay awake1 & #8none _h p[] to protect me f m9e enemy4' 8,to make x worse1 ! p ab\t me said1 #8,i told y s1' & s]moniz$ on ! matt]4 ,!y said1 #8,y c't de/roy hate ) hate4 ,t increases x4 ,t mottl$ fell[ 9 ! swamp is n ! enemy y h to dread4 ,! cruelty y put out1 :5 y ?rew a /one at him1 is y\r real enemy4 ,x w come back to y ?r\gh him1 because x is ! law4 ,he w tr\ble y f> d[n ! l9e4 ,y\r he>t %all ble$ aga9 & aga91 because ( bl[s f h&s y nev] injur$2 b x w be b y\r own de$ return+ to y1 & some?+ ( y\r mottl$ foe %all m>k y1 = _m & _m a day4'0 7,lilla look$ at ! mottl$ eyes ( h] fri5d ) a new int]e/1 wond]+ if ! curi\s spla%es ( tawn _h be5 flung !re by h] anci5t enemy47 8,n[ ,i und]/& :y ,i h be5 treat$ cruelly (t5 by ! v p]sons ,i lov$ & believ$ 94 ,some:]e ,i h e>n$ x4 ,some:]e ,i gave x =?1 & x has come back a hundr$fold1 = good & bad bo? multiply !mselves on _! return trips4 ,ev5 ,f>nswor?'s cruelty to me1 :i* hurt me s mu*1 0 no d\bt 9 accord ) ! law ( causality ,i _h set 9 motion4 ,b he1 too1 %all reap z he has s[n4 8,! o!r picture repres5t$ ?is life1 ,i ?9k4 ,i 0 climb+ a hillside1 accompani$ by a little p>ty ( fri5ds & att5d$ by ! gu>dian ( my s\l1 :o beguil$ ! way by pleasant spee* & *e]y good-w4 ,at la/ we rea*$ ! top & f\nd !re an old-fa%ion$ inn1 clean & com=table1 ) b>e :ite floors1 big rooms1 & broad wood5 s(as1 t look$ invit+ to our tir$ bodies4 ,be=e ,i ent]$1 ,i look$ to ! we/1 & saw a sc5e ( beauty nev] to be =gott54 ,sunlight1 s(t z moonlight1 fell on fields ( sway+ gra91 on trees gay ) blossoms & heavy ) fruit at ! same "t1 on fl[]s ^: p]fume sweet5$ all ! air1 on birds ^: bright plumage dazzl$ ! eye4 ,i gaz$ spellb\nd4 ,! v sky above 0 new & /rangely beautiful4 ,look+ d[n1 ,i saw :at be=e ,i _h n notic$1 t ! hill 0 cut (f close by my feet1 & betwe5 me & ?is lovely l&scape yawn$ a bottomless rav9e4 ,/ret*+ =? 8 h& & po9t+ to x1 my gu>dian said1 #8,behold ! promis$ l&6 ,b y %all n ent] 9--n yet6 ,no2 y %all n ent] 9 until y come ) ! great seal 9 y\r h&4' ,) "o long+1 hungry glance at ! p>adise ,i 0 n yet ready to "k1 ,i turn$ & w5t into ! inn1 long+ = re/4 8,i h almo/ rea*$ ! inn4 ,i h se5 ! promis$ l& b h n yet ! great seal4 ,aft] a re/ 9 ! inn--:o kn[s1--p]haps ,i c bridge ! rav9e40 ,^? la/ days--^? preci\s la/ days1 h[ beautiful !y 76 ,nor!rn =e/s put on a glory ( gold & r$ aft] ! fro/ has t\*$ !m ) its de/roy+ h&1 & ! w9t] is ne>4 ,dy+ suns diffuse a /range brightness1 & ! _s ( man1 :5 pass+ out ( sight1 (t5 radiates a heav5ly spl5dor4 ,s x 0 t ! s\l ( ,c>tice ,dor+ nev] gave =? s mu* ( sweetness z 9 ! la/ days ( h] /ay "h4 8,x is mu* to h le>n$ "o's lesson10 %e said4 8,next "t ,i c beg9 9 a high] class4 ,s y see1 aft] all1 ?is life wasn't wa/$4 ,yes1 ,i h le>n$ a little1 & %all n f9d ! road s r\gh next "t4 8,w\ld ,i c\ld give o!rs :at ,i h le>n$4 8,i smile at my e>ly idea ( happ9ess1 ?\gh x wasn't unique at all1 b q common--! ideal ( all ! undevelop$4 8,n[ ,i "k t happ9ess is a spiritual condition--spiritual heal?fulness--spiritual unfold+ ! heav5 )9 "o :i* comes :5 self is =gott5 & we see our on5ess ) all t is4 ,x is our unfold+1 our gr[? or evolution into k1 tru? & light4 8,x comes :5 we le>n h[ to love1--:5 we see ourselves 9 e o!r self1 & ! supreme self 9 ev]ybody & ev]y?+4 8,:at matt] :e!r we call ! great ocean 9 :i* we move & live & h our be+1 ,god1 s\l1 en]gy1 =ce or ?\ght1 we are its (fspr+ or manife/ation1 & c nev] = "o in/ant be sep>at$ f x4 ,we are because x is4 ,& see h[ ?is div9e pr9ciple ev] /rives = our highe/ heal? & happ9ess4 ,if ,i b cut my f+]1 x miracul\sly heals ! w\nd4 ,out ( its b\ndless res\rces x =ms a new cuticle to cov] ! abrasion4 ,if my _s becomes sore ! same p[] br+s to me f e side1 ! sympa?y & love1 ! spiritual sun%9e & air :i* heal t too4 8,! hunt = happ9ess is a true in/9ct ( ! s\l1 a prophecy ( its div9e de/9y4 ,we 7 int5d$ = happ9ess1 b a happ9ess f> beyond our usual ideals4 8,a great se] has said t #8love is life1 & love 9 u is ! life ( ,god 9 ! s\l ( man4' 8,my s\l has always be5 homesick = its native l& & its own p--:i* are b o!r names = love & sympa?y--inf9ite love1 *angeless sympa?y4 ,o!rs1 too1 are famili> ) ?is k9d ( hung]4 ,all feel x & give expression to x 9 ! *ase ( "o phantom aft] ano!r1 & to ea* phantom !y give ! "n ( ,happ9ess4 8,does x n prove t all s\ls are irresi/ibly drawn t[>d ! great s\rce ( love f :i* !y sprang1 b "k n ! way ?i!r8 ,! bosom ( inf9ite love is ! happ9ess !y long =1 b 9 _! ignorance ( _! true be+ & de/9y1 !y pursue e w o' ! wisp t dances be=e _! eyes4 8,x is ! s\l's que/ = its home1 :i* is n place1 b /ate4 ,we ne$ n wait = dea? to let u 91 = x is no m beyond ! grave ?an "h4 ,! pure 9 he>t h rea*$ x4 8,we c exp]i5ce resurrection be=e dea?1 if we w4 ,:5 our spiritual nature is awak5$1 & we are set free f ?raldom to mat]ial gods1 we h be5 rais$ f ! dead4 ,we c take hold on et]nal life n[1 = x1 too1 is a /ate ( ! s\l4 ,x is to "k & live & be ! good4 8,! long1 long sleep ( ignorance mu/ end4 ,! s\l %all awak5 to a k ( itself & be consci\sly "o ) ,et]nal ,be+ f :i* x 0 project$1 & be free1 full-gr[n & happy4 8,h[ %all ?is union be br\ght ab\t8 ,by our gr[?1 our unfold+4 ,we are our own r$eem]s4 ,! individual is ! reflection or manife/ation ( ,god4 ,! high] man gr[s intellectually & spiritually1 ! m ( ,god does he reflect4 ,:5 he becomes pure 9 he>t1 high 9 m9d1 noble & unselfi% 9 all 8 in/9cts & desires1 he is 9 union ) ,god1 work+ ,8 ,w4 8,a mod]n philosoph] expresses x ?us3 #8,an individual is a subject :i* unfolds itself z an object4' 8#8,man1 ! progressively unfold+ ?9k]1 has desc5d$ f ! et]nally p]fect creative ,?9k]4' 8#8,et]nity = e man is b ! unceas+ly cle> consci\sness ( 8 own id5tity 9 nature ) ! primal ,?9k]1 ( ^: ?\ght ! :ole univ]se is b ! out]1 organic =m6' 8#8,an individual is an indivisible1 immortal1 self-complet+1 ideal totality4' 8,n[ ,i ?9k ,i "k :y at any co/ we %\ld give expression to our ideals4 ,!y are /reams f ! c5tral f\nta9 ( ?\ght4 ,to ignore !m is to put ourselves out ( h>mony ) ! tru? & ess5ce ( ! univ]se4 ,to give !m expression is to vibrate 9 h>mony ) ! great he>t ( all t is4 ,:at is a g5ius b "o :o is 9 t\* ) ! c5tral s\rce ( tru? & transmits x to o!rs8 8,n[ we beg9 to und]/& :at ! love ( ,god is--a great ocean 9 :i* we p]petually swim1 ! #8inf9ite & et]nal en]gy f :i* all ?+s proce$1' an en]gy t sci5ce admits b _c expla94 8,x is writt51 #8,ye %all "k ! tru?1 & ! tru? %all make ye free6' ,we %all "k6 ,,we ,,%all ,,"k4 8,already y & ,i1 ,lilla1 "k a "p ( ! tru?4 ,we "k t dea? is n ! ext9ction ( memory1 consci5ce1 love & all _! att5dant emotions4 ,^! are manife/ations ( ! s\l & _c be de/roy$4 ,! body1 a clay image project$ by ! s\l to make itself visible1 %all pass1 b #8! s\l lives on1 & all space1 all "t1 all beatitude are its h]itage & its doma94' 8,! great secret ( :at1 :5ce & :i!r %all yet be kn[n4 ,! dream ( man's p]fection %all come true4 ,y & ,i h read a few pages 9 ! seal$ book4 ,= u ! la/ enemy has be5 de/roy$1 ! d>k riv] bridg$4 ,we "k !re is no sep>ation2 t ! dead are nei!r dead nor gone4 ,?is is ! great secret ( ! univ]se4 8,i ?9k ,i und]/& :at x means to see ,god4 ,! m we see ( ,him1 or ,x--! great pr9ciple ( intellig5ce & love--9 ! atom1 ! insect1 ! human be+ or ! angel1 ! nobl] & sweet] w be our lives4 ,all possible =ms & modes ( exi/5ce are expressions ( himself4 ,z ,:itman says1 #8,a m\se is miracle en\gh to /agg] sextillions ( infidels4' 8,my lifelong dream ( f9d+ my own p %all be realiz$4 8,my p1 my own p--!y :o aspir$1 /ruggl$ & suff]$--:o came to _! own1 & :om _! own s (t5 refus$ to receive4 ,!y :o fir/ ann\nc$ ! tru? 9 all ages1 & 7 /on$ & crucifi$4 ,!y :o br\ght _! div9e gifts ( poesy & prophecy1 ( art & sci5ce1 ( light 9 its ?\s& =ms & laid !m on ! _w's ungrateful alt>4 ,my de> p1 ,i see y 9 ! f> dim aisles ( ! pa/1 & ,i see y toil+ up ! %9+ heights ( ! future1 & "k y = my own1 my spiritual k9dr$1 ) :om ,i dwelt 9 pleasant & also difficult places #8huge times ago1' & ) :om ,i %all yet m\nt & m\nt great /eeps n[ unse54 8,are n all1 all our own p1 ea* a manife/ation ( ! great s\l or self t is imag$ 9 all o!r selves8 ,b !y :o "k h[ to love are m truly our own4 ,!y are f>!r on _! upw>d j\rney4 #8,= z _m z are l$ by ! _s ( love1 ^! are ! sons ( ,god4' 8,all philosophies1 all religions1 all lit]ature t fail to lead u back to love1 our c5tral s\rce--love1 ! ess5ce & sub/ance ( life1 ! en]gy ( ! _w1 ! pot5tial1 mov+ =ce ( all t is or ev] %all be1 are va9 & fooli%4 8,only to love "o ano!r4 ,?is is ! :ole law4 ,?is is :at we are always long+ & hunt+ =1 ?\gh we give x _m names & see x ?r\gh _m veils & 9 _m %apes4 ,b x is love1 only love1 ! greate/ & simple/ ?+ 9 ! _w4 8,once ,i read a /ory ( an ,ori5tal magician :o p]=m$ miracul\s cures4 ,:5 "o :om he _h heal$ ask$ 8 "n t he might m5tion x 9 8 pray]s1 he answ]$3 #8,i h _m names1 b !y all mean ! same--,love4' 8,love is all !re is4 ,ev]y?+ else is only an appe>ance or phantom4 ,my se>* = my own p 0 b ! se>* = love1 yet h[ _m mirages ,i saw1 into h[ _m pits ,i /umbl$ be=e ,i came 9 sight ( its temple6 8,b ! love t op5s ! k+dom ( ,heav51 l ! love ( ,god1 is #8broad] ?an ! measure ( man's m9d4' ,x is ! love ( ,god--= x is ! love ( all t is4 ,we "k n love until we see ourselves "o ) ! :ole1 )\t division & )\t diff]5ce1 until we see e man z our bro!r & e woman z our si/] & e *ild z our own1 or bett]1 z ourselves4 8,s9ce ,i "k t ! law ( s[+ & reap+ is inevitable 9 its op]ation1 ,i beg9 to believe ,i h n f\nd love 9 satisfy+ measure1 because ,i h n giv5 x out4 ,my conception ( x 0 ! usual n>r[ "o1 & t fills "o ) self & selfi%ness4 ,love kn[s no self4 8,am ,i ab\t to leave ?is _w8 ,no2 because ! _w is "p ( ! great ,ev]y:]e1 :i* is ! s\l's home4 ,yet x is a solemn "t ) me4 ,b ,i %all float out on tru/4 ,i "k t all is well1 & nev] c be any?+ else4 8,! ,h]eaft]1 s mu* wond]$ ab\t4--,:at is x8 ,j a cont9uation ( be+--an et]nal n[1 an endless is1 an ev]la/+ pres5t mom5t4 8,%all our dead be z !y 7 "h1 :5 we f9d !m aga98 ,?is is ! cry ( ! b]eft4 ,!y =get t no?+ is ! same f day to day4 ,! *ild becomes a man4 ,z a *ild ! "m loses x :e!r x live or die4 ,*ange1 incessant *ange1 is ! law ( ext]nal nature4 ,b ! s\l ( ! man is ! s\l ( ! *ild awak5$ & enlight5$4 ,%all x be less1 :5 x puts (f its et]nal =m & becomes clo!d 9 f9] matt]8 8#8,give u our dead1 z !y 71 :5 !y left u1' wail ! m\rn]s at ! tomb4 ,does any "o "h g away = a ye> or ye>s & come back ! same8 ,nev]4 8,is ! future beyond dea? a my/]y8 ,yes2 b n m s ?an ! future "h4 ,does any man "k :at ! next h\r w br+ ^u him8 ,e mom5t ahead ( u is z completely wrapp$ 9 my/]y z is all t lies on ! o!r side ( ! grave4 ,9 bo? cases we c only d our be/1 tru/+ 9 ! love t creat$ u1 & t %apes our c\rse4 8,b ! lonel9ess ( life6 ,:o c fa?om x or expla9 x8 & :at c mitigate x8 ,m$iocrity feels x n1 = its sympa?iz]s sw>m4 ,b 9 ! he>ts ( ! highe/ x is d5se/ & deepe/4 ,z ! s\l gr[s upw>d1 x feels itself isolat$1 & ! isolation has 9 x a poignant angui%4 8,h\rs come ^u u1 :5 we feel t we t\* no o!r s\l4 ,ev5 ! companions we take to our he>ts nev] ent] ! mo/ solemn recesses ( our nature4 ,!re ! s\l sits alone--always alone4 ,& ?is invisible place1 ?is awful solitude is ! s\l's real _w1 its mo/ fateful portion ( exi/5ce4 ,yet into ?is secret place1 ?is hidd5 & lonely life1 we take ! ideas & feel+s we *]i% 9 relation to our fell[-be+s1 s t ?\gh we seem to live alone 9 ! dep?s ( ourselves1 yet we are nev] sev]$ f our k9d1 nev] really solit>y4 ,! on5ess ( humanity ass]ts itself & its claims ^u u1 & 9 spite ( ! s\l's solitude we und]/& t no man live? to himself4 8,b ! a*e t no?+ cures is always ) u4 ,we turn to ! arms ( human affection1 x is !re4 ,we sit d[n to ! fea/ ( ! intellect2 x is !re1 likewise4 ,we w&] 9 se>* ( new sc5es2 b1 9 ! face ( all t c delight ! eye1 x cries out f )9 = ! satisfaction x nev] f9ds4 8,satisfi$6 ,satisfi$6 ,%all ! ye>n+ s\l ev] be satisfi$8 ,9 ! hope t x w\ld1 mank9d con/ruct$ its f>-(f heav51 & said to ! we>y & ! disappo9t$3 #8,!re ye %all be satisfi$4' 8,b x is n true4 ,nev]1 nev] %all we be satisfi$4 ,?\gh we explore all ! my/]ies ( all worlds & ta/e all ! joys & pleasures !re91 we %all n be satisfi$4 #8,we b level t lift to pass & cont9ue beyond4' 8,:5 ,i walk 9 gravey>ds & see ! *ildi% twaddle ab\t #8,re/1' #8,heav5ly ,mansions1' & #8,new ,j]usalems1' !re c>v$ ^u ! /ones1 ,i am pa9$ at ! m5tal infancy !y d5ote4 ,dy+ does n mean re/1 nor does x op5 heav5ly mansions or gold5 cities to u4 ,! /riv+ & ! climb+ g on & nev] end4 8,x is ! a*e 9 ! he>t1 ! void 9 ! s\l t cries out to be fill$ :i* lift u upw>d4 ,7 we cont5t1 we %\ld rise no high]4 ,7 we satisfi$1 we %\ld be 9 a condition :i* w\ld insure our de/ruction4 ,b ! s\l's hung] = f9] & bett] food is ! pr9ciple ( et]nal life :i* makes u inde/ructible & et]nally expansive4 ,by means ( x we gr[4 ,?ank ,god t nei!r "h nor else:]e c we atta9 cont5t6 8,& z we g high] we c reveal to l[] s\ls _! sorr[s1 & %[ !m h[ to ov]come !m--h[ to gr[4 ,?is is ! greate/ s]vice "o s\l c r5d] ano!r4 8,b we mu/ n be cont5t ) m\?+ !ories--we mu/ live our love1 mu/ give f ! he>t & look only to ! he>t1 = #8out ( ! he>t are ! issues ( life4' #8,! sign ( ! ma/]y ( ! div9e life 9 u is ! read9ess to s]ve4' 8,& we mu/ n dream ( re/4 ,!re is none any:]e1 nei!r "h nor on all ! endless road t /ret*es be=e u4 ,life is action1 ceaseless action4 8,nor is !re any heav5ly %ore :]e we c w&] free f p]plexities & ob/acles4 ,always1 always w !re be some?+ to ov]come4 ,we are build+1 build+1 ev] build+1 we "k n cle>ly :at4 ,e unfold+ ( ! div9e life )9 u op5s ! way to /ill m unfold+4 ,! heav51 ! happ9ess1 ! joy we dream ( & se>* =1 is 9 ! unfold+1 n 9 any fix$ /ate at :i* we %all arrive1 = we pause n[h]e4 8#8,?is is n ,dea?'s _w3 x is ,life's4 ,dea? has no empire any:]e4' ,9 "t to come its v signs %all pass away4 ,!re %all be no m graves1 nor m>ks to graves to say t ! du/ ( any lie !re4 ,all du/ is ! same & all places ! same2 & life ev]la/+ is ! et]nal h]itage ( all s\ls40 ,a few days lat] ,c>tice said %e saw ! ,butt]fly ne> h]1 & t %e n[ _h mo/ beautiful w+s4 ,o!rs ?\ght h] m9d w&]$1 b ,lilla und]/ood4 ,clasp+ ! h& ( h] fri5d1 %e smil$ & slept2 b h] wak+ 0 on ! o!r side ( dea?1 ) h] own p4 ,,*apt] ,,xxv4 ,,la/ ,,words4 ,come1 lovely & soo?+ dea?1 ,undulate r\nd ! _w1 s]5ely arriv+1 arriv+1 ,9 ! day1 9 ! night1 to all1 to ea*1 ,soon] or lat]1 delicate dea?4 ,prais'd be ! fa?omless univ]se1 ,= life & joy1 & = objects & k curi\s1 ,& = love1 sweet love--b praise6 praise6 praise6 ,= ! sure enw9d+ arms ( cool-enfold+ dea?4 --,walt ,:itman4 ,gabriel ,norris utt]$ ! few rev]5t words t consign$ ! du/ ( ,c>tice ,dor+ to ! purify+ flames4 ,?is 0 8 conclusion3 8#8,no man live? to himself1 & no man die? to himself4' ,we all und]/& t bett]1 :5 9 ! pres5ce ( ! voiceless dead1 ?an at any o!r "t4 ,!n x is t we feel our on5ess mo/2 !n d we come into m solemn t\* ) ! great he>t ( all2 !n1 ev5 :5 our he>ts are break+1 we bett] und]/& ! inf9ite love t manife/s 9 e ev5t ( our lives1 ev5 ! la/ my/]i\s "o :i* takes u out ( ! sight ( our fell[-m54 8,!n x is t ! problem ( life confronts u ) importunate appeal1 & dem&s f our ble$+ he>ts an answ]4 8,%e ^: /ill :ite =m lies "h1 liv$1 aspir$1 suff]$1 joy$ a little p]haps1 & le>n$ a "p ( ! great lesson ^: book has no end1 work$ side by side ) u1 & !n pass$ out ( our sight1 leav+ only ?is p]i%able temple to return to its elem5ts4 8,has %e b pass$ ?r\gh a door to array h]self 9 new g>m5ts on ! o!r side1 9 a l>g] *amb]1 or has ! unit ( h] individuality melt$ back into ! ,univ]sal ocean1 z a drop ( wat] falls aga9 into ! sea f :i* x has be5 dipp$8 8,does ! he>t t has groan$ 9 angui% & ?robb$ ) love f9d ! end ( ev]y?+ 9 dreamless oblivion8 ,or does x /ill ?rob on some:]e out ( our sight1 b n out ( ! c>e ( ! div9e love t ?\ght x into be+8 8,= h] ?is great "q 0 answ]$ long be=e ! illusion we call dea? transf]r$ h] to a l>g] *amb]4 ,%e knew t %e %\ld nev] die2 t1 z a unit1 an individual1 a s\l1 %e 0 inde/ructible1 ! heir ( all ! ages ?r\gh all ! ages4 8,communion ( _s8 ,d y sne] at x z an unsatisfactory1 ev5 if a possible ?+8 ,:at else h we "h8 ,we are _s n[ z mu* z we %all ev] be1 & all our communion ) ea* o!r is spiritual1 = e act ( our lives has a spiritual quality1 & is b ! expression ( _s4 8,! ?+s we see are b fractions ( t :i* we see n4 ,we nev] saw ! s\l to ^: visible =m we bid f>ewell = a "t to-day4 ,we saw b its mask1 its clay image4 ,t :i* made its impress ^u u 0 ! _s4 ,by means ( :at x said & did1 by ! fla% ( k9dness 9 ! eye1 by ! pressure ( ! h& 9 sympa?y1 by all ! means great & small by :i* x express$ its good w & love to o!rs1 x reveal$ itself4 ,^! are :at we %all rememb] & *]i%4 8,life is n all #8a /riv+ & a /riv+ & an end+ 9 no?+4' ,x is an endless becom+4 8,let u "w by e means 9 our p[] to educate ! individual1 to develop ! unit1 ! imp]i%able1 nev]-dy+ unit1 = ?is is ! secret ( all improvem5t1 all gr[?1 all happ9ess4 ,only by gr[? out ( ignorance into k c we come into our inh]itance ( et]nal good4 8,no?+ is great 9 ?is _w & no?+ is small4 ,i _c say ( ! s\l ^: transition we celebrate to-day t x 0 ei!r1 = !re is no di/9ction4 ,x aspir$1 & t means mu*4 ,x /rove to g up high]2 & t /riv+ w lift x into ! fulness ( light4 8,t liv+1 lov+1 tru?ful1 beautiful _s1 has n gone back to ! sea ( univ]sal ,be+ to lose its id5tity4 ,!re is no go+ back4 ,9 t sea we live & move & h our be+ n[1 z well z 9 ! future1 yet we rema9 individuals4 ,! union ) ! "o m9d t[>d :i* we are all mov+ is an h>moni\s ev]-upw>d-t5d+ life1 n an ext9ction ( ! individual4 ,! s*ool1 ! club1 ! /ate are its prototypes "h1--a bl5d+ ( ! _m units 9 "o body1 b ! ext9ction ( none4 8,we sorr[1 b n )\t hope4 ,our fri5d /ill lives4 ,we %all f9d h] aga940 8,i lov$ h]10 said ,gabriel ,norris1 z he sat ) ,lilla 9 ! little flat aft] all 0 ov]4 8,to be ne> h] ,i came to ,new ,york4 ,%e nev] knew2 b n[ %e kn[s4 ,my love did n crave possession4 ,i 0 happy 9 lov+4 ,i am /ill happy 9 x4 ,%e lives & ,i love h]4 ,x is en\gh40 ,,! ,,end4 ,transcrib]'s ,notes ,errors 9 punctuation & spac+ h be5 fix$4 ,page #ach3 8z mu* z z any0 *ang$ to 8z mu* z any0 ,page #agc3 8defeat & humilation0 *ang$ to 8defeat & humiliation0 ,page #aid3 8w\ld is que]0 *ang$ to 8_w is que]0 ,page #cjb3 8by ! wall0 *ang$ to 8by ! well0 ,page #cjf3 8h a monoply ( x4 ,:at idocy60 *ang$ to 8h a monopoly ( x4 ,:at idiocy60 ,page #caa3 8,! animal kn[s0 *ang$ to 8,! animal kn[n0