8,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir60 8,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir60 ,,by ,,frank ,t4 ,,bull5 ,,au?or ,,( 8,,cruise ,,( ,,! ,,ca*alot0 ,illu/ration ,,new ,,york ,,?omas ,y4 ,,cr[ell ,,co4 ,,publi%]s ,copyright1 #aija1 ,by ,,?omas ,y4 ,,cr[ell ,,company4 ,,cont5ts ,,page ,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir6 #g ,,my ,,night ,,wat* ,,is ,,ov] #ba 8,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir60 ,^? p :o are always /riv+ to trace back to a man's e>ly tra9+ or surr\nd+s ! real reason = any />tl+ *ange 9 8 life aft] he has long gr[n up1 & d n believe 9 :at ! ,bible calls ! ,new ,bir?1 mu/ (t5 be sorely puzzl$4 ,!y seek = t :i* !y wi% to f9d1 & (t5 ignore any evid5ce :i* militates aga9/ _! preconceiv$ !ories4 ,yet ! majority ( !m w\ld be horrifi$ 7 !y told t ?is me?od ( rese>* is di%one/ & mislead+4 ,b 9 spite ( :at p may feel ab\t ! matt]1 x is ( no use bl9k+ ! fact t v mu* ( ! s-call$ sci5tific inve/igation 7:i* is n comm]cial7 t is pursu$ to-day is ta9t$ ) ?is radical defect4 ,especially is ?is s 9 matt]s ( inquiry into religi\s exp]i5ce4 ,!re are _m exce$+ly clev] & well-educat$ p]sons :o w\ld h _! read]s believe t 9 all cases :]e a man or woman has become a ,*ri/ian1 & f s]v+ ! devil has turn$ & consi/5tly s]v$ ,god1 ! *ange has be5 due to e>ly impressions1 :i*1 accid5tally encru/$ ov] = a t]m1 h be5 sudd5ly reviv$ 9 all _! pri/9e =ce1 & h compell$ ! m9d back into ! *annels 9 :i* x 0 orig9ally taught to move4 ,n[1 if ?is 7 all t ^! reason]s said1 "o might rem9d !m1 or in=m !m g5tly1 t !y 7 only p>tially "r--t :ile x is und\bt$ly bless$ly true t e>ly influ5ces = good d ex]t !mselves mo/ =cefully & unexpect$ly 9 aft] ye>s 9 a l>ge numb] ( cases1 yet x is mo/ untrue & ,god-di%onor+ to sugge/ t ,*ri/ianity is purely a matt] ( education1 ( environm5t1 ( a long acqua9tance ) religi\s p]sons & matt]s4 ,s f> f ?is be+ ! case1 x is a truism ) ,*ri/ian work]s t v frequ5tly _! mo/ hopeful conv]ts h be5 ^? :o nev] he>d ! ,gospel be=e1 or at lea/ _h nev] li/5$ to x ) ! slighte/ att5tion1 ev5 ?\gh !y may h actually caught ! tones ( ! prea*]'s voice4 ,to su* simple ones ! ,wat] ( ! ,^w ( ,grace comes l ! monsoon ra9s ^u ! burnt-up bread?s ( ,india1 caus+ ! app>5tly dead soil to put on at once a glori\s g>m5t ( liv+ gre51 life-giv+1 life-su/a9+1 beautify+ & bless+ all ar\nd x4 ,"o ( ! mo/ /rik+ in/ances ( ?is wond]ful "w ( ,god 9 ! s\l t has ev] come "u my notice is t ( a sailor :o1 /range z x may seem to-day1 _h nev]1 until ! "t ( :i* ,i speak1 receiv$ ! remote/ idea ( ! relations ( ,god to man1 & _h n ! fa9te/ conception ( religion ( any k9d4 ,born 9 ! squalid slums ( a ,lanca%ire t[n ne>ly sixty ye>s ago1 he became at a v e>ly age a waif ( ! /reets1 los+ all recollection ( :o 7 8 p>5ts1 z !y _h =gott5 all ab\t him4 ,x is h>dly possible to conceive ( a m9d m p]fectly des]t ?an 0 ,john ,wilson's4 ,read+ & writ+ 7 ( c\rse out ( ! "q1 & x is probable t any m5tal op]ations t w5t on 9 8 d>k m9d 7 m ne>ly relat$ to brute in/9cts ?an to any ( ! ord9>y processes ( human reason+4 ,n[ x is no "p ( my pres5t plan1 ev5 if ,i _h ! necess>y mat]ial1 to trace ,johnny's c>e] f ! gutt]s ( ---- until he f\nd himself 9 ! position ( boy on bo>d a ,nor? ,c\ntry colli] brig1 be+ !n1 z he suppos$1 ab\t ?irte5 ye>s ( age4 ,by "s inh]it$ t5acity ( con/itution he _h surviv$ ^? ye>s ( />vation1 cold1 & brutality1 & 01 ^u go+ to sea1 l a well-season$ rattan1 )\t an ounce ( sup]flu\s fle% ^u him1 & ) a capacity = /olid endurance almo/ equall+ a ,sem9ole ,indian4 ,( k9dness he knew no?+1 & _h any "o %[n him any dis9t]e/$ att5tion1 he w\ld h be5 z al>m$ z are ! birds 9 a ,london g>d5 :5 a lov] ( !m goes out to scatt] crumbs4 ,he w\ld h suspect$ designs ^u 8 lib]ty1 or some?+ worse4 ,( ! treatm5t he endur$ on bo>d ^? ,ea/ ,coa/ colli]s ,i d n d>e to speak at pres5t4 ,! recital w\ld1 ,i "k1 ar\se an almo/ frantic feel+ ( res5tm5t t su* ?+s %\ld h be5 possible su* a h&ful ( ye>s ago1 & read]s w\ld =get t1 by ! bless+ ( ,god1 m5's he>ts to-day1 ev5 9 ! l[e/ /rata ( our society1 h be5 m>vell\sly s(t5$ t[>ds *ildr54 ,he le>n$ _m ?+s on bo>d ^? %ips1 he told me1 b1 s f> z he knew1 n "o t 0 good4 ,blasphemy1 drunk5ness1 cruelty1 debau*]y--all ^! he became an adept 9 z he grew up1 & besides he knew e conceivable trick by means ( :i* he c\ld %irk duty & %ift x on to ! %\ld]s ( o!rs4 ,at la/ he rea*$ ! dignity ( able seaman1 b ,i c be> witness t a less useful able seaman ?an he nev] d>k5$ ! door ( a %ipp+ (fice4 ,& :y8 ,because he _h devot$ all 8 l[ animal cunn+ to ! avoidance ( le>n+ any?+1 le/ he %\ld be compell$ to put x into practice1 at ! co/ ( "s tr\ble to himself2 & :at he 0 compell$ to "k he purposely practis$ z badly z possible1 s t he %\ld seldom be call$ ^u to d x4 ,briefly1 & 9 ord] to put ! f9i%+ t\*es to ?is unattractive picture1 he 0 almo/ z p]fect a specim5 ( unmoral animal z any c\rse ( tra9+ = ! purpose ( produc+ su* an undesirable human be+ c\ld h result$ 94 ,9 ?is mann] he pass$ ! ye>s ( 8 life up to ! age ( ?irty1 drift+1 l a d]elict log1 f %ip to %ip1 & f %ore to %ore1 all r\nd ! _w4 ,he 0 conv]sant ) ! int]iors ( mo/ ( ! seaport jails 9 ! _w1 = :5 "u ! influ5ce ( dr9k he 0 a madman1 only to be re/ra9$ f do+ de$s ( viol5ce by =ce1 & utt]ly c>eless ( ! consequ5ces ( any ( 8 actions4 ,at la/1 9 ! c\rse ( 8 w&]+s1 he came to ,calcutta1 & 0 entic$ by a %ipmate up to ! ,sailors' ,re/ 9 ! ,radha ,baza> "o ,sunday ev5+1 :5 he _h nei!r money nor cr$it :]e) to get dr9k4 ,8 %ipmate 0 a ,*ri/ian ( v brief exp]i5ce1 b he _h ! root ( ! matt] 9 him1 & knew t ! next be/ ?+ to prea*+ ! ,gospel "o's self 0 to br+ "o's fri5ds 9 contact ) "s "o :o c\ld4 ,s x came ab\t t ,h>ry ,c>t]1 f9d+ ,johnny w&]+ ab\t ! baza>s aimlessly & hungrily1 propos$ a fe$ to him1 & by t means got him into ! ,re/1 :]e1 aft] 8 hung] 0 appeas$1 ,h>ry succe$$ 9 keep+ him until ! ev5+ meet+4 ,at t "t ! meet+s 7 conduct$ by two ,am]ican mission>ies to :om x 0 a p]fect delight to li/51 z !y told 9 qua9t language1 lov$ & compreh5d$ by sailors1 ! wond]ful /ory ( ! com+ ( ,jesus to save poor fall5 man4 ,!irs 0 n prea*+ 9 a g5]al way--e man 9 _! pres5ce felt t he 0 be+ individually conv]s$ )1 felt t ! /ory ( ! ,cross 0 a simple n>ration ( absolute fact1 no m]e !ory ( my/]i\s import1 :i* only m5 & wom5 :o 7 specially select$ & educat$ = ! purpose c\ld ev] hope to und]/&4 ,!y told ! wond]ful tale 9 manly fa%ion1 lett+ ! ,god-giv5 message j fl[ ?r\gh !m on its way f _! ,fa!r to _! bre?r54 ,& ,johnny sat ) eyes a/>e & m\? agape1 z ! /raight1 brave1 c]ta9 words sank into 8 awak5+ m9d4 ,wond]1 incr$ulity1 %ame--all /ruggl$ )9 him1 all newly born1 = x c\ld h>dly be said ) tru? t he _h ev] realiz$ any ( ^! emotions be=e4 ,at la/ ! speak] said3 8,oh1 my de> boys1 "s ( y "h h nev] kn[n :at x is to h a fri5d1 yet !re has be5 a ,fri5d by y\r side always1 only begg+ y to be a fri5d ( ,84 ,"s ( y h nev] _h a home1 yet ?is ,fri5d has be5 = ne>ly two ?\s& ye>s prep>+ a home = y t is beyond all y\r hopes1 beyond ev]y?+ t y c imag9e4 ,"s ( y h nev] 9 y\r lives _h any real joy2 ?is ,fri5d has 9 ,8 "r h& = y pleasures = ev]more1 & 9 ,8 pres5ce !re is fulness ( joy4 ,he c & w d = y exce$+ abundantly above all t y ask or ?9k4 ,all ^! wond]ful privileges may be y\rs = ! tak+2 y hav5't ev5 to ask = !m--only say t y w accept !m40 ,o!r sweet words foll[$1 b ,johnny h>dly he>d !m4 ,9 8 d>k s\l !re 0 su* a turmoil z he _h nev] be=e kn[n4 ,new ne$s1 new desires 7 /ruggl+ = expression1 & :5 ! prea*] dismiss$ 8 congregation ) ! e>ne/ invitation = any to rema9 beh9d :o felt !y w\ld l to "k m ab\t ?is wond]ful gift1 ,johnny sat /ill 9 8 place ) wide1 />t+ eyes foll[+ e movem5t ( ! prea*]4 ,at la/ t good man1 pass+ f b5* to b5*1 came to ,johnny1 & at once saw t "h 0 no ord9>y seek] aft] peace4 ,lay+ "o arm t5d]ly across ,johnny's b[$ %\ld]s1 & ) ! o!r h& tak+ "o ( ! seaman's gn>l$ & knott$ h&s1 ! mission>y said1 8,bro!r1 let ,him h y4 ,he wants y to be happy1 ,he does want y\r love4 ,jesus1 g5tle ,jesus1 di$ = y t y might be happy ) ,him = all et]nity40 ,) a vehem5ce t 0 />tl+ ,johnny turn$ & said1 8,does ,he "k me80 8,yes1 bett] ?an y d10 said ! prea*]4 8,& ,he's got all ^! ?+s = me8 ,i'll "w all ! re/ o' ?' voy'ge b :at ,i'll h ?is--,i don't c>e :at x co/s me1 ,i'll h x4 ,y see if ,i don't4 ,i "k n[ x's :at ,i be5 want9' all my life40 8,g5tly1 my de> bro!r10 said ! prea*]1 8y c't buy x4 ,he b\ght x ) ,8 blood to give x to y1 & y c't pay any?+ = x40 8,:y1 ,i nev] _h any?9k give me 9 my life10 said ,johnny4 8',t a9't "r4 ,ev]y?9k's got t] be paid =1 & ,i'm go+ t] pay = ?is4 ,i'm no begg>1 if ,i am a bit ( a ?ief :5 ,i gets ! *ance40 ,n[1 /range z x may seem1 ! h>de/ task t man ( ,god _h on t occasion 0 to conv9ce ?is poor :ite savage t ! gift ( ,god 0 a gift4 ,gladly1 joyfully1 w\ld he h sold himself into a long slav]y to h pur*as$ :at he felt he mu/ h1 yet = a long "t he w\ld n1 c\ld n1 believe t x 0 8)\t money & )\t price40 ,at la/ despair+ly he said3 8,oh6 won't ,he take a %ill9' = x8 ,i got "o 9 my *e/1 a lucky %ill9' ) a hole 9 x ,i've _h = ye>s4 ,let me g abo>d an' get x40 ,at la/1 ) great difficulty1 he 0 conv9c$ t buy+ salvation 0 impossible1 b impress$ ) ! fact t he himself 0 f h5ce=? b\ght ) a price1 ev5 ! preci\s blood ( ! ,son ( ,god4 ,& :ile ! we>y evangeli/ 0 /ill toil+ to expla91 ! ,"l took ! matt] 9 ,8 own h&s4 ,& pres5tly a joyful %\t bur/ f ,johnny's lips3 8,light ho1 sir6 ,i sees x all4 ,he's got me1 an' ,he'll nev] let me g4 ,oh6 :y didn't ,i "k ( ?is a=e80 ,he 0 a sav$ man4 ,let ^? argue :o w1 dispute :o c1 ,johnny ,wilson 0 a /&+ pro( ( ! p[] ( ,god to save ! mo/ ignorant1 ! mo/ call\s ( ! sons ( m54 ,f t day =w>d1 )\t any m tea*+1 save :at he c\ld get f any "o :o w\ld read ! ,gospels to him1 he grew 9 grace4 ,he 0 no m tr\ble abo>d4 ,8 "w 0 always done to ! be/ ( 8 ability1 & y c\ld safely tru/ him to "w by himself1 =1 z he said3 8,my ,jesus is along] me alwus40 ,oh1 b he 0 a real sa9t6 ,no?+ c\ld move him4 ,he us$ to be hat$ by ev]ybody--n[ he became ! spoil$ *ild ( ! fo'c'/le1 at lea/ 9 int5t1 = really he 0 unspoilable2 b all h&s1 no matt] :at !y ?\ght1 conspir$ to love ,johnny4 ,& :5 on ! subsequ5t voyage he di$ ( a bl[ receiv$ 9 fall+ f al(t1 all h&s ga!r$ r\nd 8 bunk1 to he> f him ! /ory t _h trans=m$ 8 life4 ,he gu%$ x out ) 8 late/ brea?3 8,jesus ,*ri/1 ,god's ,son1 come d[n f heav5 to look = me an' make me happy4 ,i wasn't wor? a rope-y>n to anybody1 b ,he come & f\nd me1 an' made me s glad4 ,an' n[ ,i'm a-go9' t] see ,him4 ,de> ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! fri5d ( pore devils l me40 8,,my ,,night ,,wat* ,,is ,,ov]0 8,,my ,,night ,,wat* ,,is ,,ov]40 ,a ,,sailor',s ,,conv]sion4 ,sitt+ ^u ! cap/an 9 ! c5tre ( ! fo'c's'le-head ( a huge f\r-ma/$ %ip ru%+ swiftly along ! wide1 wild /ret* ( ! ,s\!rn ,ocean1 b\nd to ,engl& r\nd ,cape ,horn1 a "y able seaman 9 ! prime ( life 0 engag$ 9 ! unusual m5tal ex]cise = seam5 ( m$itat+ ^u ,god4 ,8 "n does n matt]2 x mu/ be suffici5t to say t he 0 br\ght up 9 a respectable middle-class home 9 ! nor? ( ,engl&1 "o ( a family ( sev51--f\r boys & ?ree girls4 ,he _h be5 *ri/5$ at ! p>i% *ur*1 att5d$ ,sunday-s*ool & family pray]s ) ! utmo/ regul>ity1 & _h be5 confirm$ at an e>ly age4 ,9 spite ( occasional outbreaks ( wildness1 he _h won prizes = exempl>y conduct at ,sunday-s*ool1 & _h felt1 ) ! mi/ak5 idea ( s _m1 :5 he receiv$ !m1 z if somebody 7 try+ to bribe him to give up all ! fun 9 life & become a /rait-lac$1 long-visag$ humbug4 ,b he also felt1 ?ank ,god6 t 9 8 life !re 7 two solid facts t c\ld nev] be expla9$ away1 /&+ up l ba/ions ( native rock 9 8 life1--! love ( 8 "m & ! k9dness ( 8 fa!r4 ,all t he he>d 9 *ur* & ,sunday-s*ool 0 readily relegat$ by him to ! category ( ?+s t ought to be done1 ev5 if y c\ldn't see ! use ( !m2 b z to try+ to und]/& !m1 well1 t 0 ! m]e/ nons5se4 ,n t he ev] put ^! ?\ghts & feel+s into words1 b !y 7 none ! less real to him4 ,!n1 sudd5ly1 )\t any previ\s prep>ation disc]nible by him1 a =eign elem5t came into 8 life4 ,com+ home f ! village s*ool "o aft]noon 7he 0 !n ?irte5 ye>s old71 he met a bronz$1 wea!r-beat5 man :o inquir$ ( him ! way to a neighbor+ t[n2 & z t way = "s little di/ance happ5$ to be 8 own1 !y walk$ toge!r4 ,)9 t5 m9utes ! boy _h imbib$ f ! wayf>] an int5se desire to g a-rov+4 ,= ! wea!r-beat5 /rang] 0 a sailor return+ home aft] an abs5ce ( _m ye>s2 & ! pla9 recital ( 8 adv5tures1 )\t any attempt to enhance _! int]e/1 fir$ ! c\ntry boy's blood to su* an ext5t t 8 brea? came 9 %ort gasps1 & he gaz$ at ! seam$ & sunburnt face beside him z if he c\ld see 9 x "s reflection ( ! wondr\s sc5es ?r\gh :i* x _h pass$ app>5tly unhe$+4 ,!y p>t$2 b ! boy1 8 bra9 all 9 a f]m5t ) wond] & desire1 return$ to 8 home z "o t treads ! cl\ds4 ,& t night he waylaid 8 fa!r1 say+ /amm]+ly3 8,dad1 ,i want to g to sea40 ,n[ ! fa!r1 al?\gh a home-keep+ man1 _h long fac$ ! probability ( los+ 8 ne/l+s z soon z !y felt _! w+s gr[+1 ! m s9ce he knew well t opportunities = _! atta9+ any position wor? consid]+ 9 ! small t[n ( _! bir? w\ld almo/ c]ta9ly be want+4 ,moreov]1 he _h a sev]e /ruggle to keep !m 9 com=t on 8 v small ?\gh con/ant e>n+s1 & any light5+ ( 8 burd51 ev5 ?\gh 9 ! process 8 he>t-/r+s 7 /ra9$1 0 to be welcom$4 ,b z ea* *ild _h be5 born to him he _h comm5d$ x unres]v$ly to ! c>e ( 8 ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 ^: love to him _h be5 ! pivot ( 8 own life ev] s9ce he 0 sixte5 ye>s old4 ,& s x came ab\t t1 aft] a t\*+ sc5e ) 8 "m1 ! boy 0 help$ to 8 desire1 & by ! mo/ h]oic ef=ts on ! "p ( 8 fa!r he f\nd himself1 six mon?s aft] giv+ utt]ance to 8 wi%1 a memb] ( ! appr5tice portion ( ! crew ( a huge f\r-ma/$ %ip1 b\nd f ,liv]pool to ,san ,francisco4 ,8 fir/ mon? at sea 0 a revelation to ! c\ntry-br$ lad4 ,9 place ( ! home h$g$ 9 by love1 into :i* ! f\lnesses s preval5t 9 great cities nev] p5etrat$1 he f\nd himself met at e po9t by pr(anity & worse4 ,9 place ( hav+ all 8 bodily ne$s c>$ =1 all ! dec5cies ( life made easy = him1 he 0 left to 8 own ignorant devices1 & all ! dreadful consequ5ces ( be+ 8 own ma/] 9 8 own "t desc5d$ ^u him )\t w>n+4 ,! capta9 0 a c>eless1 call\s man1 :o only look$ ^u ! appr5tices z an ineffici5t supplem5t to a scanty crew4 ,& :ile he work$ !m m]cilessly 9 consequ5ce1 he f\nd x no "p ( 8 duty to look aft] ! welf>e ( ei!r _! bodies or _! s\ls4 ,"u ?is treatm5t ! boy soon became a f9i%$ "y blackgu>d 9 ?\ght1 & s soon z ! opportunity arriv$ to put ! evil !ories he _h s readily absorb$ into practice1 he flung himself into all =ms ( evil )9 8 rea* ) a recklessness & ze/ t 7 horrible to contemplate4 ,f9ally1 he ran away f 8 %ip 9 company ) an old] appr5tice1 break+ 8 ind5tures1 & cutt+ (f def9itely ! la/ hold 8 home _h ^u him4 ,a wild "t ( s91 suff]+1 & sorr[ foll[$4 ,yes1 sorr[2 al?\gh1 9 ! same ,sp>tan fa%ion practis$ by s _m ?\s&s ( w&]]s l himself1 he conceal$ x "u an assumption ( utt] indiff]5ce1 utt] godlessness4 ,at la/1 :5 9 ! ?roes ( a prolong$ debau* he 0 /agg]+ along "o ( ! l[e/ /reets 9 ,callao1 he 0 seiz$ by a gang ( pr$atory ruffians1 beat5 out ( :at little s5se he _h left1 & convey$ on bo>d an ,am]ican %ip b\nd !nce to ,engl&4 ,?is is ! process call$ by seam5 8,%anghai-+40 ,x w\ld be impossible to convey to p liv+ %elt]$ lives on %ore h[ t]rible 7 ! physical suff]+s ( ! poor lad n[1 bruis$ f head to heel1 %ak+ f illness br\ght on by 8 excesses1 yet compell$ to toil 9 sup]human fa%ion "u pa9 ( be+ savagely beat5 aga94 ,b he felt no rep5tance1 he only curs$ 8 8luck10 & dumbly endur$1 z seam5 d4 ,!n "o night1 dur+ ! keep+ ( 8 look\t1 "o ( 8 wat*mates :om he _h hi!rto despis$ z a mild1 say-no?+-to-nobody sort ( a duff]1 came quietly up on to ! =eca/le head1 &1 /&+ ne> him1 gaz$ /eadfa/ly out ^u ! lonel9ess ( ! midnight ocean1 = "s "t say+ n a ^w4 ,! full moon _h j em]g$ f a d5se black cl\d1 driv+ be=e h]1 app>5tly1 ! d>kness t _h s rec5tly reign$1 & pal+ ! lu/r\s />s ) h] glori\s radiance1 :ile e t9y wavelet rippl+ ! peaceful sea became in/antly edg$ ) molt5 silv]4 ,& ! influ5ce ( ! h\r1 amid all ! et]nal imm5sity ( ! environm5t1 made = brea?less awe1 sil5t involunt>y wor%ip ( ! unse5 yet palpably pres5t ,god4 ,sudd5ly ! new-com] spoke quietly1 yet ) a c]ta9 =ce1 z if unable to hold 8 peace any long]4 8,jemmy1 lad1 don't ye feel z if we 0 a-sail+ int] ! v pres5ce ( ,almighty ,god--z if ,he want$ t' %[ m5 'at won't ?9k1 h[ glori\s ,he is1 an' h[ great is ,8 peace80 ,!re 0 no reply1 b z ! speak] paus$ to look = ! effect ( 8 words1 he saw glitt]+ 9 ! moon-ray two big drops /eal+ d[n ,jemmy's sorr[-seam$ "y face4 ,imm$iately ! ,*ri/ian1 foll[+ 8 ,ma/]'s example1 took a quick /ride to ! y\?1 & lay+ 8 h& ^u ! trembl+ %\ld]1 said s(tly3 8,de> boy1 let 'em run4 ,!y're a sign t y\r he>t a9't got too h>d yet to feel ! sweet influ5ce t ,god puts out to w9 ,8 w&]+ ones back4 ,b if !re's any?+ ,i c d to help y1 d let me1 won't y80 ,he came ne>] z he spoke1 until 8 arm 0 r\nd ,jemmy's neck4 ,& !n he wait$ pati5tly until ! brok5 words came3 8,i--,i--feel s mis]able4 ,i've =gott5 my "m & fa!r1 my home & my ,god4 ,b p'raps ,i nev] knew ,him40 8,no1 de> boy1 ,i don't suppose y ev] did2 b n[ is y\r "t to "k ,him4 ,he's be5 wait+ = y\r pr\d he>t to b5d d[n & own t x wants ,him--c't d )\t ,him4 ,oh1 ,jemmy1 h[ ,he loves y6 ,y\r "m & fa!r love y1 & are he>tbrok5 ov] y1 no d\bt1 b ,he1 y\r ,fa!r ,god1 loves y f ev]la/+ to ev]la/+1 & sp>$ n ,8 own ,son1 t y might be made welcome to ,8 peace1 t y might "k h[ happy a *ild ( ,god c be :o has f\nd out f ,god ,himself h[ mu* ,he is long$ & wait$ =40 ,! speak] paus$ = brea?1 = 8 en]getic outbur/ _h s c>ri$ him away t he 0 l a man :o _h be5 runn+ a race1 & z he did s ,jemmy said %yly1 & 9 a l[ voice3 8,h[ did y "k t ,i 0 wi%+ ) all my he>t t 9 "s way1 someh[1 ,i might get my s\l put "r1 t ,i 0 long9' = a message f ,god1 )\t any idea h[ x 0 to come80 ,!re 0 a happy r+ 9 ! ,*ri/ian's voice z he answ]$3 8,me "k8 ,i don't "k any?+1 except t ,god ! ,fa!r is my ,fa!r1 t ,god ! ,son is my ,savi\r1 :o di$ t ,i might live1 & t ,god ! ,holy ,gho/1 ^: "w x is to impress ^! wond]ful matt]s on m5's he>ts1 is always at h& arrang+ ! "t1 ! mess5g]1 & ! message4 ,he f\nd me z ,he f9ds y--hopeless1 he>t-sick1 hungry = peace & love2 & z soon z ,he made me feel my ne$ ( ,him ,he _h "s "o !re to tell me ! glad /ory40 ,!n & !re ,jemmy slid d[n to 8 knees1 & lift+ 8 /ream+ face to heav5 he murmur$1 8,o ,god my ,fa!r1 =give me my s9s1 & make me :at ,i ought to be4 ,de> ,jesus1 put y\r own preci\s life into me & drive ! unclean life out4 ,i d believe 9 y1 my ,savi\r1 because y compel me to by y\r love4 ,tea* me y\r way--,i'll make x m9e4 ,bless my poor fa!r & "m at home1 & let me get back & com=t !m2 & bless ?is de> bro!r "h :o y've made use ( to tell me1 = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,am540 ,deep & solemn 0 ! response f 8 new-f\nd fri5d kneel+ beside him4 ,z !y rose f _! knees ,jemmy rea*$ = 8 h&1 & clasp+ x 9 bo? ( 8 own1 said brok5ly1 8,h[ real & true all comes back to me n[1 :at ,i he>d :5 ,i 0 a little *ap at home & at ,sunday-s*ool6 ,h[ c ,i ev] ?ank ,god en\gh = s5d+ y to me8 ,b h[ silly ,i mu/ h be5 n to see x be=e6 ,oh1 ?ank ,god1 ?ank ,god ,i see x n[6 ,god my ,fa!r wait+ = me1 ,*ri/ my ,savi\r knock+ at my he>t1 & ! ,com=t] s5d+ y into ?is place1 on to ?is fo'c's'le-head at ! "r m9ute to give me ! "r ^w40 8,eight bells0 rang out cle>ly f ! t9y bell aft1 & z ,jemmy ha/5$ to /rike ! big bell responsively he murmur$3 8,?ank ,god my night wat* is ov]--! morn+ has come40 ,!nce=w>d he & 8 bro!r 9 ! ,"l 7 insep>able1 :5ev] x 0 possible = !m to enjoy ! communion !y bo? ne$$4 ,_! heavy tasks on bo>d rema9$ really ! same1 b !y did n feel !m4 ,!y work$ *e]fully z unto ,god1 upheld by ,8 wond]ful su/a9+ p[]1 & ev]y?+ ar\nd & ab\t !m seem$ *ang$ = ! bett]4 ,s x is :51 aft] long buffet+ ! gale t is bl[+ fair = home1 because ! capta9 is unc]ta9 ( 8 position & d>es n run be=e x1 ! pilot comes on bo>d1 ord]s ! helm to be put up1 & ! good %ip flee+ homew>d ) a fair w9d seems to h sudd5ly sprung into f9e wea!r4 ,jesus1 ! ,heav5ly ,pilot1 comes on bo>d ( a man & takes *>ge1 br++ light = d>kness1 joy = mis]y1 &1 embrac+ all ^!1 ! peace ( ,god :i* passe? all und]/&+4 ,night aft] night f\nd ,jemmy z we f\nd him at ! beg9n+ ( ?is /ory1 day aft] day saw him /urdily & m deeply digg+ into ! treasure ( ! ,^w1 until t bless$ day :5 ) 8 belov$ *um at 8 side he bur/ into ! old home1 to receive t welcome t only a lov+ "m & fa!r c give to a son re/or$ to !m by ,god's m]cy 9 answ] to _m pray]s4 ,,transcrib]',s ,,notes3 ,italiciz$ text is surr\nd$ by und]scores3 italics4 ,inconsi/5cies 9 hyph5ation h be5 /&>diz$4