8,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir60 8,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir60 ,,by ,,frank ,t4 ,,bullen ,,author ,,of 8,,cruise ,,of ,,the ,,cachalot0 ,illustration ,,new ,,york ,,thomas ,y4 ,,crowell ,,co4 ,,publishers ,copyright1 #aija1 ,by ,,thomas ,y4 ,,crowell ,,company4 ,,contents ,,page ,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir6 #g ,,my ,,night ,,watch ,,is ,,over #ba 8,,light ,,ho1 ,,sir60 ,those people who are always striving to trace back to a man's early training or surroundings the real reason for any startling change in his life after he has long grown up1 and do not believe in what the ,bible calls the ,new ,birth1 must often be sorely puzzled4 ,they seek for that which they wish to find1 and often ignore any evidence which militates against their preconceived theories4 ,yet the majority of them would be horrified were they told that this method of research is dishonest and misleading4 ,but in spite of what people may feel about the matter1 it is of no use blinking the fact that very much of the so-called scientific investigation 7which is not commercial7 that is pursued to-day is tainted with this radical defect4 ,especially is this so in matters of inquiry into religious experience4 ,there are many exceedingly clever and well-educated persons who would have their readers believe that in all cases where a man or woman has become a ,christian1 and from serving the devil has turned and consistently served ,god1 the change has been due to early impressions1 which1 accidentally encrusted over for a term1 have been suddenly revived in all their pristine force1 and have compelled the mind back into the channels in which it was originally taught to move4 ,now1 if this were all that these reasoners said1 one might remind them1 or inform them gently1 that they were only partially right--that while it is undoubtedly blessedly true that early influences for good do exert themselves most forcefully and unexpectedly in after years in a large number of cases1 yet it is most untrue and ,god-dishonoring to suggest that ,christianity is purely a matter of education1 of environment1 of a long acquaintance with religious persons and matters4 ,so far from this being the case1 it is a truism with ,christian workers that very frequently their most hopeful converts have been those who never heard the ,gospel before1 or at least had never listened to it with the slightest attention1 even though they may have actually caught the tones of the preacher's voice4 ,to such simple ones the ,water of the ,word of ,grace comes like the monsoon rains upon the burnt-up breadths of ,india1 causing the apparently dead soil to put on at once a glorious garment of living green1 life-giving1 life-sustaining1 beautifying and blessing all around it4 ,one of the most striking instances of this wonderful work of ,god in the soul that has ever come under my notice is that of a sailor who1 strange as it may seem to-day1 had never1 until the time of which ,i speak1 received the remotest idea of the relations of ,god to man1 and had not the faintest conception of religion of any kind4 ,born in the squalid slums of a ,lancashire town nearly sixty years ago1 he became at a very early age a waif of the streets1 losing all recollection of who were his parents1 as they had forgotten all about him4 ,it is hardly possible to conceive of a mind more perfectly desert than was ,john ,wilson's4 ,reading and writing were of course out of the question1 and it is probable that any mental operations that went on in his dark mind were more nearly related to brute instincts than to any of the ordinary processes of human reasoning4 ,now it is no part of my present plan1 even if ,i had the necessary material1 to trace ,johnny's career from the gutters of ---- until he found himself in the position of boy on board a ,north ,country collier brig1 being then1 as he supposed1 about thirteen years of age4 ,by some inherited tenacity of constitution he had survived those years of starvation1 cold1 and brutality1 and was1 upon going to sea1 like a well-seasoned rattan1 without an ounce of superfluous flesh upon him1 and with a capacity for stolid endurance almost equalling a ,seminole ,indian4 ,of kindness he knew nothing1 and had any one shown him any disinterested attention1 he would have been as alarmed as are the birds in a ,london garden when a lover of them goes out to scatter crumbs4 ,he would have suspected designs upon his liberty1 or something worse4 ,of the treatment he endured on board those ,east ,coast colliers ,i do not dare to speak at present4 ,the recital would1 ,i know1 arouse an almost frantic feeling of resentment that such things should have been possible such a handful of years ago1 and readers would forget that1 by the blessing of ,god1 men's hearts to-day1 even in the lowest strata of our society1 have been marvellously softened towards children4 ,he learned many things on board those ships1 he told me1 but1 so far as he knew1 not one that was good4 ,blasphemy1 drunkenness1 cruelty1 debauchery--all these he became an adept in as he grew up1 and besides he knew every conceivable trick by means of which he could shirk duty and shift it on to the shoulders of others4 ,at last he reached the dignity of able seaman1 but ,i can bear witness that a less useful able seaman than he never darkened the door of a shipping office4 ,and why8 ,because he had devoted all his low animal cunning to the avoidance of learning anything1 lest he should be compelled to put it into practice1 at the cost of some trouble to himself2 and what he was compelled to know he purposely practised as badly as possible1 so that he should seldom be called upon to do it4 ,briefly1 and in order to put the finishing touches to this unattractive picture1 he was almost as perfect a specimen of unmoral animal as any course of training for the purpose of producing such an undesirable human being could have resulted in4 ,in this manner he passed the years of his life up to the age of thirty1 drifting1 like a derelict log1 from ship to ship1 and from shore to shore1 all round the world4 ,he was conversant with the interiors of most of the seaport jails in the world1 for when under the influence of drink he was a madman1 only to be restrained from doing deeds of violence by force1 and utterly careless of the consequences of any of his actions4 ,at last1 in the course of his wanderings1 he came to ,calcutta1 and was enticed by a shipmate up to the ,sailors' ,rest in the ,radha ,bazaar one ,sunday evening1 when he had neither money nor credit wherewith to get drink4 ,his shipmate was a ,christian of very brief experience1 but he had the root of the matter in him1 and knew that the next best thing to preaching the ,gospel one's self was to bring one's friends in contact with some one who could4 ,so it came about that ,harry ,carter1 finding ,johnny wandering about the bazaars aimlessly and hungrily1 proposed a feed to him1 and by that means got him into the ,rest1 where1 after his hunger was appeased1 ,harry succeeded in keeping him until the evening meeting4 ,at that time the meetings were conducted by two ,american missionaries to whom it was a perfect delight to listen1 as they told in quaint language1 loved and comprehended by sailors1 the wonderful story of the coming of ,jesus to save poor fallen man4 ,theirs was not preaching in a general way--every man in their presence felt that he was being individually conversed with1 felt that the story of the ,cross was a simple narration of absolute fact1 no mere theory of mysterious import1 which only men and women who were specially selected and educated for the purpose could ever hope to understand4 ,they told the wonderful tale in manly fashion1 letting the ,god-given message just flow through them on its way from their ,father to their brethren4 ,and ,johnny sat with eyes astare and mouth agape1 as the straight1 brave1 certain words sank into his awakening mind4 ,wonder1 incredulity1 shame--all struggled within him1 all newly born1 for it could hardly be said with truth that he had ever realized any of these emotions before4 ,at last the speaker said3 8,oh1 my dear boys1 some of you here have never known what it is to have a friend1 yet there has been a ,friend by your side always1 only begging you to be a friend of ,his4 ,some of you have never had a home1 yet this ,friend has been for nearly two thousand years preparing a home for you that is beyond all your hopes1 beyond everything that you can imagine4 ,some of you have never in your lives had any real joy2 this ,friend has in ,his right hand for you pleasures for evermore1 and in ,his presence there is fulness of joy4 ,he can and will do for you exceeding abundantly above all that you ask or think4 ,all these wonderful privileges may be yours for the taking2 you haven't even to ask for them--only say that you will accept them40 ,other sweet words followed1 but ,johnny hardly heard them4 ,in his dark soul there was such a turmoil as he had never before known4 ,new needs1 new desires were struggling for expression1 and when the preacher dismissed his congregation with the earnest invitation for any to remain behind who felt they would like to know more about this wonderful gift1 ,johnny sat still in his place with wide1 starting eyes following every movement of the preacher4 ,at last that good man1 passing from bench to bench1 came to ,johnny1 and at once saw that here was no ordinary seeker after peace4 ,laying one arm tenderly across ,johnny's bowed shoulders1 and with the other hand taking one of the seaman's gnarled and knotted hands1 the missionary said1 8,brother1 let ,him have you4 ,he wants you to be happy1 ,he does want your love4 ,jesus1 gentle ,jesus1 died for you that you might be happy with ,him for all eternity40 ,with a vehemence that was startling ,johnny turned and said1 8,does ,he know me80 8,yes1 better than you do10 said the preacher4 8,and ,he's got all these things for me8 ,i'll work all the rest o' th' voy'ge but what ,i'll have this--,i don't care what it costs me1 ,i'll have it4 ,you see if ,i don't4 ,i know now it's what ,i been wantin' all my life40 8,gently1 my dear brother10 said the preacher1 8you can't buy it4 ,he bought it with ,his blood to give it to you1 and you can't pay anything for it40 8,why1 ,i never had anythink give me in my life10 said ,johnny4 8',t ain't right4 ,everythink's got ter be paid for1 and ,i'm going ter pay for this4 ,i'm no beggar1 if ,i am a bit of a thief when ,i gets the chance40 ,now1 strange as it may seem1 the hardest task that man of ,god had on that occasion was to convince this poor white savage that the gift of ,god was a gift4 ,gladly1 joyfully1 would he have sold himself into a long slavery to have purchased what he felt he must have1 yet for a long time he would not1 could not1 believe that it was 8without money and without price40 ,at last despairingly he said3 8,oh6 won't ,he take a shillin' for it8 ,i got one in my chest1 a lucky shillin' with a hole in it ,i've had for years4 ,let me go aboard an' get it40 ,at last1 with great difficulty1 he was convinced that buying salvation was impossible1 but impressed with the fact that he himself was from henceforth bought with a price1 even the precious blood of the ,son of ,god4 ,and while the weary evangelist was still toiling to explain1 the ,lord took the matter in ,his own hands4 ,and presently a joyful shout burst from ,johnny's lips3 8,light ho1 sir6 ,i sees it all4 ,he's got me1 an' ,he'll never let me go4 ,oh6 why didn't ,i know of this afore80 ,he was a saved man4 ,let those argue who will1 dispute who can1 ,johnny ,wilson was a standing proof of the power of ,god to save the most ignorant1 the most callous of the sons of men4 ,from that day forward1 without any more teaching1 save what he could get from any one who would read the ,gospels to him1 he grew in grace4 ,he was no more trouble aboard4 ,his work was always done to the best of his ability1 and you could safely trust him to work by himself1 for1 as he said3 8,my ,jesus is alonger me alwus40 ,oh1 but he was a real saint6 ,nothing could move him4 ,he used to be hated by everybody--now he became the spoiled child of the fo'c'stle1 at least in intent1 for really he was unspoilable2 but all hands1 no matter what they thought1 conspired to love ,johnny4 ,and when on the subsequent voyage he died of a blow received in falling from aloft1 all hands gathered round his bunk1 to hear from him the story that had transformed his life4 ,he gushed it out with his latest breath3 8,jesus ,christ1 ,god's ,son1 come down from heaven to look for me an' make me happy4 ,i wasn't worth a rope-yarn to anybody1 but ,he come and found me1 an' made me so glad4 ,an' now ,i'm a-goin' ter see ,him4 ,dear ,jesus ,christ1 the friend of pore devils like me40 8,,my ,,night ,,watch ,,is ,,over0 8,,my ,,night ,,watch ,,is ,,over40 ,a ,,sailor',s ,,conversion4 ,sitting upon the capstan in the centre of the fo'c's'le-head of a huge four-masted ship rushing swiftly along the wide1 wild stretch of the ,southern ,ocean1 bound to ,england round ,cape ,horn1 a young able seaman in the prime of life was engaged in the unusual mental exercise for seamen of meditating upon ,god4 ,his name does not matter2 it must be sufficient to say that he was brought up in a respectable middle-class home in the north of ,england1 one of a family of seven1--four boys and three girls4 ,he had been christened at the parish church1 attended ,sunday-school and family prayers with the utmost regularity1 and had been confirmed at an early age4 ,in spite of occasional outbreaks of wildness1 he had won prizes for exemplary conduct at ,sunday-school1 and had felt1 with the mistaken idea of so many1 when he received them1 as if somebody were trying to bribe him to give up all the fun in life and become a strait-laced1 long-visaged humbug4 ,but he also felt1 thank ,god6 that in his life there were two solid facts that could never be explained away1 standing up like bastions of native rock in his life1--the love of his mother and the kindness of his father4 ,all that he heard in church and ,sunday-school was readily relegated by him to the category of things that ought to be done1 even if you couldn't see the use of them2 but as to trying to understand them1 well1 that was the merest nonsense4 ,not that he ever put these thoughts and feelings into words1 but they were none the less real to him4 ,then1 suddenly1 without any previous preparation discernible by him1 a foreign element came into his life4 ,coming home from the village school one afternoon 7he was then thirteen years old71 he met a bronzed1 weather-beaten man who inquired of him the way to a neighboring town2 and as that way for some little distance happened to be his own1 they walked together4 ,within ten minutes the boy had imbibed from the wayfarer an intense desire to go a-roving4 ,for the weather-beaten stranger was a sailor returning home after an absence of many years2 and the plain recital of his adventures1 without any attempt to enhance their interest1 fired the country boy's blood to such an extent that his breath came in short gasps1 and he gazed at the seamed and sunburnt face beside him as if he could see in it some reflection of the wondrous scenes through which it had passed apparently unheeding4 ,they parted2 but the boy1 his brain all in a ferment with wonder and desire1 returned to his home as one that treads the clouds4 ,and that night he waylaid his father1 saying stammeringly3 8,dad1 ,i want to go to sea40 ,now the father1 although a home-keeping man1 had long faced the probability of losing his nestlings as soon as they felt their wings growing1 the more since he knew well that opportunities for their attaining any position worth considering in the small town of their birth would almost certainly be wanting4 ,moreover1 he had a severe struggle to keep them in comfort on his very small though constant earnings1 and any lightening of his burden1 even though in the process his heart-strings were strained1 was to be welcomed4 ,but as each child had been born to him he had commended it unreservedly to the care of his ,heavenly ,father1 whose love to him had been the pivot of his own life ever since he was sixteen years old4 ,and so it came about that1 after a touching scene with his mother1 the boy was helped to his desire1 and by the most heroic efforts on the part of his father he found himself1 six months after giving utterance to his wish1 a member of the apprentice portion of the crew of a huge four-masted ship1 bound from ,liverpool to ,san ,francisco4 ,his first month at sea was a revelation to the country-bred lad4 ,in place of the home hedged in by love1 into which the foulnesses so prevalent in great cities never penetrated1 he found himself met at every point by profanity and worse4 ,in place of having all his bodily needs cared for1 all the decencies of life made easy for him1 he was left to his own ignorant devices1 and all the dreadful consequences of being his own master in his own time descended upon him without warning4 ,the captain was a careless1 callous man1 who only looked upon the apprentices as an inefficient supplement to a scanty crew4 ,and while he worked them mercilessly in consequence1 he found it no part of his duty to look after the welfare of either their bodies or their souls4 ,under this treatment the boy soon became a finished young blackguard in thought1 and so soon as the opportunity arrived to put the evil theories he had so readily absorbed into practice1 he flung himself into all forms of evil within his reach with a recklessness and zest that were horrible to contemplate4 ,finally1 he ran away from his ship in company with an older apprentice1 breaking his indentures1 and cutting off definitely the last hold his home had upon him4 ,a wild time of sin1 suffering1 and sorrow followed4 ,yes1 sorrow2 although1 in the same ,spartan fashion practised by so many thousands of wanderers like himself1 he concealed it under an assumption of utter indifference1 utter godlessness4 ,at last1 when in the throes of a prolonged debauch he was staggering along one of the lowest streets in ,callao1 he was seized by a gang of predatory ruffians1 beaten out of what little sense he had left1 and conveyed on board an ,american ship bound thence to ,england4 ,this is the process called by seamen 8,shanghai-ing40 ,it would be impossible to convey to people living sheltered lives on shore how terrible were the physical sufferings of the poor lad now1 bruised from head to heel1 shaking from illness brought on by his excesses1 yet compelled to toil in superhuman fashion under pain of being savagely beaten again4 ,but he felt no repentance1 he only cursed his 8luck10 and dumbly endured1 as seamen do4 ,then one night1 during the keeping of his lookout1 one of his watchmates whom he had hitherto despised as a mild1 say-nothing-to-nobody sort of a duffer1 came quietly up on to the forecastle head1 and1 standing near him1 gazed steadfastly out upon the loneliness of the midnight ocean1 for some time saying not a word4 ,the full moon had just emerged from a dense black cloud1 driving before her1 apparently1 the darkness that had so recently reigned1 and paling the lustrous stars with her glorious radiance1 while every tiny wavelet rippling the peaceful sea became instantly edged with molten silver4 ,and the influence of the hour1 amid all the eternal immensity of the environment1 made for breathless awe1 silent involuntary worship of the unseen yet palpably present ,god4 ,suddenly the new-comer spoke quietly1 yet with a certain force1 as if unable to hold his peace any longer4 8,jemmy1 lad1 don't ye feel as if we was a-sailing inter the very presence of ,almighty ,god--as if ,he wanted t' show men 'at won't think1 how glorious ,he is1 an' how great is ,his peace80 ,there was no reply1 but as the speaker paused to look for the effect of his words1 he saw glittering in the moon-ray two big drops stealing down ,jemmy's sorrow-seamed young face4 ,immediately the ,christian1 following his ,master's example1 took a quick stride to the youth1 and laying his hand upon the trembling shoulder1 said softly3 8,dear boy1 let 'em run4 ,they're a sign that your heart ain't got too hard yet to feel the sweet influence that ,god puts out to win ,his wandering ones back4 ,but if there's anything ,i can do to help you1 do let me1 won't you80 ,he came nearer as he spoke1 until his arm was round ,jemmy's neck4 ,and then he waited patiently until the broken words came3 8,i--,i--feel so miserable4 ,i've forgotten my mother and father1 my home and my ,god4 ,but p'raps ,i never knew ,him40 8,no1 dear boy1 ,i don't suppose you ever did2 but now is your time to know ,him4 ,he's been waiting for your proud heart to bend down and own that it wants ,him--can't do without ,him4 ,oh1 ,jemmy1 how ,he loves you6 ,your mother and father love you1 and are heartbroken over you1 no doubt1 but ,he1 your ,father ,god1 loves you from everlasting to everlasting1 and spared not ,his own ,son1 that you might be made welcome to ,his peace1 that you might know how happy a child of ,god can be who has found out from ,god ,himself how much ,he is longed and waited for40 ,the speaker paused for breath1 for his energetic outburst had so carried him away that he was like a man who had been running a race1 and as he did so ,jemmy said shyly1 and in a low voice3 8,how did you know that ,i was wishing with all my heart that in some way1 somehow1 ,i might get my soul put right1 that ,i was longin' for a message from ,god1 without any idea how it was to come80 ,there was a happy ring in the ,christian's voice as he answered3 8,me know8 ,i don't know anything1 except that ,god the ,father is my ,father1 that ,god the ,son is my ,saviour1 who died that ,i might live1 and that ,god the ,holy ,ghost1 whose work it is to impress these wonderful matters on men's hearts1 is always at hand arranging the time1 the messenger1 and the message4 ,he found me as ,he finds you--hopeless1 heart-sick1 hungry for peace and love2 and as soon as ,he made me feel my need of ,him ,he had some one there to tell me the glad story40 ,then and there ,jemmy slid down to his knees1 and lifting his streaming face to heaven he murmured1 8,o ,god my ,father1 forgive me my sins1 and make me what ,i ought to be4 ,dear ,jesus1 put your own precious life into me and drive the unclean life out4 ,i do believe in you1 my ,saviour1 because you compel me to by your love4 ,teach me your way--,i'll make it mine4 ,bless my poor father and mother at home1 and let me get back and comfort them2 and bless this dear brother here who you've made use of to tell me1 for ,christ's sake4 ,amen40 ,deep and solemn was the response from his new-found friend kneeling beside him4 ,as they rose from their knees ,jemmy reached for his hand1 and clasping it in both of his own1 said brokenly1 8,how real and true all comes back to me now1 what ,i heard when ,i was a little chap at home and at ,sunday-school6 ,how can ,i ever thank ,god enough for sending you to me8 ,but how silly ,i must have been not to see it before6 ,oh1 thank ,god1 thank ,god ,i see it now6 ,god my ,father waiting for me1 ,christ my ,saviour knocking at my heart1 and the ,comforter sending you into this place1 on to this fo'c's'le-head at the right minute to give me the right word40 8,eight bells0 rang out clearly from the tiny bell aft1 and as ,jemmy hastened to strike the big bell responsively he murmured3 8,thank ,god my night watch is over--the morning has come40 ,thenceforward he and his brother in the ,lord were inseparable1 whenever it was possible for them to enjoy the communion they both needed4 ,their heavy tasks on board remained really the same1 but they did not feel them4 ,they worked cheerfully as unto ,god1 upheld by ,his wonderful sustaining power1 and everything around and about them seemed changed for the better4 ,so it is when1 after long buffeting the gale that is blowing fair for home1 because the captain is uncertain of his position and dares not run before it1 the pilot comes on board1 orders the helm to be put up1 and the good ship fleeing homeward with a fair wind seems to have suddenly sprung into fine weather4 ,jesus1 the ,heavenly ,pilot1 comes on board of a man and takes charge1 bringing light for darkness1 joy for misery1 and1 embracing all these1 the peace of ,god which passeth all understanding4 ,night after night found ,jemmy as we found him at the beginning of this story1 day after day saw him sturdily and more deeply digging into the treasure of the ,word1 until that blessed day when with his beloved chum at his side he burst into the old home1 to receive that welcome that only a loving mother and father can give to a son restored to them by ,god's mercy in answer to many prayers4 ,,transcriber',s ,,notes3 ,italicized text is surrounded by underscores3 italics4 ,inconsistencies in hyphenation have been standardized4