,! ,v>ieties ( ,religi\s ,exp]i5ce ,a ,/udy 9 ,human ,nature ,be+ ! ,gif=d ,lectures on ,natural ,religion ,deliv]$ at ,ed9burgh 9 #aijaaijb ,by ,william ,james ,longmans1 ,gre51 ,& ,co1 ,new ,york1 ,london1 ,bombay1 ,calcutta1 & ,madras #aiag ,,cont5ts ,preface4 ,lecture ,i4 ,religion ,& ,neurology4 ,lecture ,,ii4 ,circumscription ( ! ,topic4 ,lecture ,,iii4 ,! ,reality ,( ,! ,unse54 ,lectures ,,iv & ,v4 ,! ,religion ,( ,heal?y,m9d$ness4 ,lectures ,,vi ,& ,,vii4 ,! ,sick ,s\l4 ,lecture ,,viii4 ,! ,divid$ ,self1 ,& ,! ,process ,( ,its ,unification4 ,lecture ,,ix4 ,conv]sion4 ,lecture ,x4 ,conv]sion--,conclud$4 ,lectures ,,xi1 ,,xii1 ,& ,,xiii4 ,sa9tl9ess4 ,lectures ,,xiv ,& ,,xv4 ,! ,value ,( ,sa9tl9ess4 ,lectures ,,xvi ,& ,,xvii4 ,my/icism4 ,lecture ,,xviii4 ,philosophy4 ,lecture ,,xix4 ,o!r ,*>act]i/ics4 ,lecture ,,xx4 ,conclusions4 ,po/script4 ,index4 ,footnotes ,title ,page ,to ,c4 ,p4 ,g4 ,,9 ,,filial ,,gratitude ,,& ,,love ,,preface4 ,?is book w\ld nev] h be5 writt5 _h ,i n be5 honor$ ) an appo9tm5t z ,gif=d ,lectur] on ,natural ,religion at ! ,univ]sity ( ,ed9burgh4 ,9 ca/+ ab\t me = subjects ( ! two c\rses ( t5 lectures ea* = :i* ,i ?us became responsible1 x seem$ to me t ! fir/ c\rse might well be a descriptive "o on 8,man's ,religi\s ,appetites10 & ! second a metaphysical "o on 8,_! ,satisfaction ?r\gh ,philosophy40 ,b ! unexpect$ gr[? ( ! psy*ological matt] z ,i came to write x out has result$ 9 ! second subject be+ po/pon$ entirely1 & ! description ( man's religi\s con/itution n[ fills ! tw5ty lectures4 ,9 ,lecture ,,xx ,i h sugge/$ r ?an /at$ my own philosophic conclusions1 & ! read] :o desires imm$iately to "k !m %\ld turn to pages #eaaeai1 & to ! 8,po/script0 ( ! book4 ,i hope to be able at "s lat] day to express !m 9 m explicit =m4 ,9 my belief t a l>ge acqua9tance ) p>ticul>s (t5 makes u wis] ?an ! possession ( ab/ract =mulas1 h[ev] deep1 ,i h load$ ! lectures ) concrete examples1 & ,i h *os5 ^! among ! extrem] expressions ( ! religi\s temp]am5t4 ,to "s read]s ,i may consequ5tly seem1 be=e !y get beyond ! middle ( ! book1 to (f] a c>icature ( ! subject4 ,su* convulsions ( piety1 !y w say1 are n sane4 ,if1 h[ev]1 !y w h ! pati5ce to read to ! end1 ,i believe t ?is unfavorable impression w disappe>2 = ,i !re comb9e ! religi\s impulses ) o!r pr9ciples ( common s5se :i* s]ve z correctives ( exagg]ation1 & all[ ! individual read] to draw z mod]ate conclusions z he w4 ,my ?anks = help 9 writ+ ^! lectures are due to ,edw9 ,d4 ,/>buck1 ( ,/an=d ,univ]sity1 :o made ov] to me 8 l>ge collection ( manuscript mat]ial2 to ,h5ry ,w4 ,rank91 ( ,ea/ ,nor?field1 a fri5d unse5 b prov$1 to :om ,i owe preci\s in=mation2 to ,!odore ,fl\rnoy1 ( ,g5eva1 to ,cann+ ,s*ill]1 ( ,ox=d1 & to my colleague ,b5jam9 ,r&1 = docum5ts2 to my colleague ,dick9son ,s4 ,mill]1 & to my fri5ds1 ,?omas ,wr5 ,w>d1 ( ,new ,york1 & ,w9c5ty ,lutoslawski1 late ( ,crac[1 = important sugge/ions & advice4 ,f9ally1 to conv]sations ) ! lam5t$ ,?omas ,davidson & to ! use ( 8 books1 at ,gl5more1 above ,ke5e ,valley1 ,i owe m obligations ?an ,i c well express4 ,,h>v>d ,,univ]sity1 ,m>*1 #aijb4 ,,lecture ,i4 ,,religion ,,& ,,neurology4 ,x is ) no small am\nt ( trepidation t ,i take my place beh9d ?is desk1 & face ?is le>n$ audi5ce4 ,to u ,am]icans1 ! exp]i5ce ( receiv+ in/ruction f ! liv+ voice1 z well z f ! books1 ( ,european s*ol>s1 is v famili>4 ,at my own ,univ]sity ( ,h>v>d1 n a w9t] passes )\t its h>ve/1 l>ge or small1 ( lectures f ,scotti%1 ,engli%1 ,fr5*1 or ,g]man repres5tatives ( ! sci5ce or lit]ature ( _! respective c\ntries :om we h ei!r induc$ to cross ! ocean to address u1 or captur$ on ! w+ z !y 7 visit+ our l&4 ,x seems ! natural ?+ = u to li/5 :il/ ! ,europeans talk4 ,! contr>y habit1 ( talk+ :il/ ! ,europeans li/51 we h n yet acquir$2 & 9 him :o fir/ makes ! adv5ture x begets a c]ta9 s5se ( apology be+ due = s presumptu\s an act4 ,p>ticul>ly mu/ ?is be ! case on a soil z sacr$ to ! ,am]ican imag9ation z t ( ,ed9burgh4 ,! glories ( ! philosophic *air ( ?is univ]sity 7 deeply impress$ on my imag9ation 9 boyhood4 ,pr(essor ,fras]'s ,essays 9 ,philosophy1 !n j publi%$1 0 ! fir/ philosophic book ,i ev] look$ into1 & ,i well rememb] ! awe /ruck feel+ ,i receiv$ f ! acc\nt ( ,sir ,william ,hamilton's classroom !re9 conta9$4 ,hamilton's own lectures 7 ! fir/ philosophic writ+s ,i ev] =c$ myself to /udy1 & aft] t ,i 0 imm]s$ 9 ,dugald ,/ew>t & ,?omas ,br[n4 ,su* juv5ile emotions ( rev]5ce nev] get outgr[n2 & ,i confess t to f9d my humble self promot$ f my native wild]ness to be actually = ! "t an (ficial "h1 & transmut$ into a colleague ( ^! illu/ri\s names1 c>ries ) x a s5se ( dreaml& q z mu* z ( reality4 ,b s9ce ,i h receiv$ ! honor ( ?is appo9tm5t ,i h felt t x w\ld nev] d to decl9e4 ,! academic c>e] also has its h]oic obligations1 s ,i /& "h )\t fur!r deprecatory words4 ,let me say only ?is1 t n[ t ! curr5t1 "h & at ,ab]de51 has begun to run f we/ to ea/1 ,i hope x may cont9ue to d s4 ,z ! ye>s g by1 ,i hope t _m ( my c\ntrym5 may be ask$ to lecture 9 ! ,scotti% univ]sities1 *ang+ places ) ,scotsm5 lectur+ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates2 ,i hope t our p may become 9 all ^! high] matt]s ev5 z "o p2 & t ! peculi> philosophic temp]am5t1 z well z ! peculi> political temp]am5t1 t goes ) our ,engli% spee* may m & m p]vade & influ5ce ! _w4 ,z reg>ds ! mann] 9 :i* ,i %all h to adm9i/] ?is lecture%ip1 ,i am nei!r a !ologian1 nor a s*ol> le>n$ 9 ! hi/ory ( religions1 nor an an?ropologi/4 ,psy*ology is ! only bran* ( le>n+ 9 :i* ,i am p>ticul>ly v]s$4 ,to ! psy*ologi/ ! religi\s prop5sities ( man mu/ be at lea/ z int]e/+ z any o!r ( ! facts p]ta9+ to 8 m5tal con/itution4 ,x w\ld seem1 !re=e1 t1 z a psy*ologi/1 ! natural ?+ = me w\ld be to invite y to a descriptive survey ( ^? religi\s prop5sities4 ,if ! inquiry be psy*ological1 n religi\s in/itutions1 b r religi\s feel+s & religi\s impulses mu/ be its subject1 & ,i mu/ conf9e myself to ^? m develop$ subjective ph5om5a record$ 9 lit]ature produc$ by articulate & fully selfconsci\s m51 9 works ( piety & autobiography4 ,int]e/+ z ! orig9s & e>ly /ages ( a subject always are1 yet :5 "o seeks e>ne/ly = its full significance1 "o mu/ always look to its m completely evolv$ & p]fect =ms4 ,x foll[s f ?is t ! docum5ts t w mo/ conc]n u w be ^? ( ! m5 :o 7 mo/ accompli%$ 9 ! religi\s life & be/ able to give an intelligible acc\nt ( _! ideas & motives4 ,^! m51 ( c\rse1 are ei!r comp>atively mod]n writ]s1 or else su* e>li] ones z h become religi\s classics4 ,! docum5ts huma9s :i* we %all f9d mo/ in/ructive ne$ n !n be s\ght = 9 ! haunts ( special erudition--!y lie along ! beat5 highway2 & ?is circum/ance1 :i* fl[s s naturally f ! "* ( our problem1 suits admirably also y\r lectur]'s lack ( special !ological le>n+4 ,i may take my citations1 my s5t5ces & p>agraphs ( p]sonal confession1 f books t mo/ ( y at "s "t w h _h already 9 y\r h&s1 & yet ?is w be no detrim5t to ! value ( my conclusions4 ,x is true t "s m adv5tur\s read] & inve/igator1 lectur+ "h 9 future1 may une>? f ! %elves ( libr>ies docum5ts t w make a m delectable & curi\s ent]ta9m5t to li/5 to ?an m9e4 ,yet ,i d\bt :e!r he w necess>ily1 by 8 control ( s mu* m out(!way mat]ial1 get mu* clos] to ! ess5ce ( ! matt] 9 h&4 ,! "q1 ,:at are ! religi\s prop5sities8 & ! "q1 ,:at is _! philosophic significance8 are two entirely diff]5t ord]s ( "q f ! logical po9t ( view2 &1 z a failure to recognize ?is fact di/9ctly may bre$ confusion1 ,i wi% to insi/ ^u ! po9t a little be=e we ent] into ! docum5ts & mat]ials to :i* ,i h ref]r$4 ,9 rec5t books on logic1 di/9ction is made betwe5 two ord]s ( inquiry conc]n+ any?+4 ,fir/1 :at is ! nature ( x8 h[ did x come ab\t8 :at is its con/itution1 orig91 & hi/ory8 ,& second1 ,:at is its importance1 mean+1 or significance1 n[ t x is once "h8 ,! answ] to ! "o "q is giv5 9 an exi/5tial judgm5t or proposition4 ,! answ] to ! o!r is a proposition ( value1 :at ! ,g]mans call a ,w]?ur!il1 or :at we may1 if we l1 d5om9ate a spiritual judgm5t4 ,nei!r judgm5t c be d$uc$ imm$iately f ! o!r4 ,!y proce$ f div]se intellectual preoccupations1 & ! m9d comb9es !m only by mak+ !m fir/ sep>ately1 & !n add+ !m toge!r4 ,9 ! matt] ( religions x is p>ticul>ly easy to di/+ui% ! two ord]s ( "q4 ,e religi\s ph5om5on has its hi/ory & its d]ivation f natural antec$5ts4 ,:at is n[adays call$ ! high] criticism ( ! ,bible is only a /udy ( ! ,bible f ?is exi/5tial po9t ( view1 neglect$ too mu* by ! e>li] *ur*4 ,"u j :at biographic conditions did ! sacr$ writ]s br+ =? _! v>i\s contributions to ! holy volume8 ,& :at _h !y exactly 9 _! sev]al individual m9ds1 :5 !y deliv]$ _! utt]ances8 ,^! are manife/ly que/ions ( hi/orical fact1 & "o does n see h[ ! answ] to !m c decide (fh& ! /ill fur!r "q3 ( :at use %\ld su* a volume1 ) its mann] ( com+ into exi/5ce s def9$1 be to u z a guide to life & a revelation8 ,to answ] ?is o!r "q we mu/ h already 9 our m9d "s sort ( a g5]al !ory z to :at ! peculi>ities 9 a ?+ %\ld be :i* give x value = purposes ( revelation2 & ?is !ory itself w\ld be :at ,i j call$ a spiritual judgm5t4 ,comb9+ x ) our exi/5tial judgm5t1 we might inde$ d$uce ano!r spiritual judgm5t z to ! ,bible's wor?4 ,?us if our !ory ( revelationvalue 7 to affirm t any book1 to possess x1 mu/ h be5 compos$ automatically or n by ! free caprice ( ! writ]1 or t x mu/ exhibit no sci5tific & hi/oric errors & express no local or p]sonal passions1 ! ,bible w\ld probably f>e ill at our h&s4 ,b if1 on ! o!r h&1 our !ory %\ld all[ t a book may well be a revelation 9 spite ( errors & passions & delib]ate human composition1 if only x be a true record ( ! inn] exp]i5ces ( greats\l$ p]sons wre/l+ ) ! crises ( _! fate1 !n ! v]dict w\ld be mu* m favorable4 ,y see t ! exi/5tial facts by !mselves are insuffici5t = det]m9+ ! value2 & ! be/ adepts ( ! high] criticism accord+ly nev] conf\nd ! exi/5tial ) ! spiritual problem4 ,) ! same conclusions ( fact be=e !m1 "s take "o view1 & "s ano!r1 ( ! ,bible's value z a revelation1 accord+ z _! spiritual judgm5t z to ! f\ndation ( values diff]s4 ,i make ^! g5]al rem>ks ab\t ! two sorts ( judgm5t1 because !re are _m religi\s p]sons--"s ( y n[ pres5t1 possibly1 are among !m--:o d n yet make a work+ use ( ! di/9ction1 & :o may !re=e feel at fir/ a little />tl$ at ! purely exi/5tial po9t ( view f :i* 9 ! foll[+ lectures ! ph5om5a ( religi\s exp]i5ce mu/ be consid]$4 ,:5 ,i h&le !m biologically & psy*ologically z if !y 7 m]e curi\s facts ( individual hi/ory1 "s ( y may ?9k x a degradation ( s sublime a subject1 & may ev5 suspect me1 until my purpose gets m fully express$1 ( delib]ately seek+ to discr$it ! religi\s side ( life4 ,su* a result is ( c\rse absolutely ali5 to my int5tion2 & s9ce su* a prejudice on y\r "p w\ld s]i\sly ob/ruct ! due effect ( mu* ( :at ,i h to relate1 ,i w devote a few m words to ! po9t4 ,!re c be no d\bt t z a matt] ( fact a religi\s life1 exclusively pursu$1 does t5d to make ! p]son exceptional & ecc5tric4 ,i speak n n[ ( y\r ord9>y religi\s believ]1 :o foll[s ! conv5tional obs]vances ( 8 c\ntry1 :e!r x be ,buddhi/1 ,*ri/ian1 or ,mohamm$an4 ,8 religion has be5 made = him by o!rs1 communicat$ to him by tradition1 det]m9$ to fix$ =ms by imitation1 & reta9$ by habit4 ,x w\ld pr(it u little to /udy ?is secondh& religi\s life4 ,we mu/ make se>* r = ! orig9al exp]i5ces :i* 7 ! patt]nsett]s to all ?is mass ( sugge/$ feel+ & imitat$ conduct4 ,^! exp]i5ces we c only f9d 9 individuals = :om religion exi/s n z a dull habit1 b z an acute fev] r4 ,b su* individuals are 8g5iuses0 9 ! religi\s l9e2 & l _m o!r g5iuses :o h br\ght =? fruits effective en\gh = commemoration 9 ! pages ( biography1 su* religi\s g5iuses h (t5 %[n symptoms ( n]v\s in/ability4 ,ev5 m p]haps ?an o!r k9ds ( g5ius1 religi\s lead]s h be5 subject to abnormal psy*ical visitations4 ,inv>iably !y h be5 creatures ( exalt$ emotional s5sibility4 ,(t5 !y h l$ a discordant inn] life1 & _h melan*oly dur+ a "p ( _! c>e]4 ,!y h kn[n no measure1 be5 liable to obsessions & fix$ ideas2 & frequ5tly !y h fall5 into trances1 he>d voices1 se5 visions1 & pres5t$ all sorts ( peculi>ities :i* are ord9>ily class$ z pa?ological4 ,(t51 moreov]1 ^! pa?ological features 9 _! c>e] h help$ to give !m _! religi\s au?ority & influ5ce4 ,if y ask = a concrete example1 !re c be no bett] "o ?an is furni%$ by ! p]son ( ,george ,fox4 ,! ,quak] religion :i* he f\nd$ is some?+ :i* x is impossible to ov]praise4 ,9 a day ( %ams1 x 0 a religion ( v]acity root$ 9 spiritual inw>dness1 & a return to some?+ m l ! orig9al gospel tru? ?an m5 _h ev] kn[n 9 ,engl&4 ,s f> z our ,*ri/ian sects today are evolv+ into lib]ality1 !y are simply rev]t+ 9 ess5ce to ! position :i* ,fox & ! e>ly ,quak]s s long ago assum$4 ,no "o c pret5d = a mom5t t 9 po9t ( spiritual sagacity & capacity1 ,fox's m9d 0 uns\nd4 ,e "o :o confront$ him p]sonally1 f ,oliv] ,cromwell d[n to c\nty magi/rates & jail]s1 seems to h ackn[l$g$ 8 sup]ior p[]4 ,yet f ! po9t ( view ( 8 n]v\s con/itution1 ,fox 0 a psy*opa? or dtraqu ( ! deepe/ dye4 ,8 ,j\rnal ab\nds 9 entries ( ?is sort3-- 8,z ,i 0 walk+ ) sev]al fri5ds1 ,i lift$ up my head1 & saw ?ree /eepleh\se spires1 & !y /ruck at my life4 ,i ask$ !m :at place t 08 ,!y said1 ,li*field4 ,imm$iately ! ^w ( ! ,"l came to me1 t ,i mu/ g ?i!r4 ,be+ come to ! h\se we 7 go+ to1 ,i wi%$ ! fri5ds to walk into ! h\se1 say+ no?+ to !m ( :i!r ,i 0 to g4 ,z soon z !y 7 gone ,i /ept away1 & w5t by my eye ov] h$ge & dit* till ,i came )9 a mile ( ,li*field2 :]e1 9 a great field1 %eph]ds 7 keep+ _! %eep4 ,!n 0 ,i comm&$ by ! ,"l to pull (f my %oes4 ,i /ood /ill1 = x 0 w9t]3 b ! ^w ( ! ,"l 0 l a fire 9 me4 ,s ,i put (f my %oes1 & left !m ) ! %eph]ds2 & ! poor %eph]ds trembl$1 & 7 a/oni%$4 ,!n ,i walk$ on ab\t a mile1 & z soon z ,i 0 got )9 ! city1 ! ^w ( ! ,"l came to me aga91 say+3 ,cry1 #8,wo to ! bloody city ( ,li*field6' ,s ,i w5t up & d[n ! /reets1 cry+ ) a l\d voice1 ,wo to ! bloody city ( ,li*field6 ,x be+ m>ket day1 ,i w5t into ! m>ketplace1 & to & fro 9 ! sev]al p>ts ( x1 & made /&s1 cry+ z be=e1 ,wo to ! bloody city ( ,li*field6 ,& no "o laid h&s on me4 ,z ,i w5t ?us cry+ ?r\gh ! /reets1 !re seem$ to me to be a *annel ( blood runn+ d[n ! /reets1 & ! m>ketplace appe>$ l a pool ( blood4 ,:5 ,i _h decl>$ :at 0 ^u me1 & felt myself cle>1 ,i w5t out ( ! t[n 9 peace2 & return+ to ! %eph]ds gave !m "s money1 & took my %oes ( !m aga94 ,b ! fire ( ! ,"l 0 s on my feet1 & all ov] me1 t ,i did n matt] to put on my %oes aga91 & 0 at a /& :e!r ,i %\ld or no1 till ,i felt fre$om f ! ,"l s to d3 !n1 aft] ,i _h wa%$ my feet1 ,i put on my %oes aga94 ,aft] ?is a deep consid]ation came ^u me1 = :at reason ,i %\ld be s5t to cry aga9/ t city1 & call x ,! bloody city6 ,= ?\gh ! p>liam5t _h ! m9i/] "o :ile1 & ! k+ ano!r1 & mu* blood _h be5 %$ 9 ! t[n dur+ ! w>s betwe5 !m1 yet !re 0 no m ?an _h befall5 _m o!r places4 ,b aft]w>ds ,i came to und]/&1 t 9 ! ,emp]or ,diocletian's "t a ?\s& ,*ri/ians 7 m>tyr'd 9 ,li*field4 ,s ,i 0 to g1 )\t my %oes1 ?r\gh ! *annel ( _! blood1 & into ! pool ( _! blood 9 ! m>ketplace1 t ,i might raise up ! memorial ( ! blood ( ^? m>tyrs1 :i* _h be5 %$ above a ?\s& ye>s be=e1 & lay cold 9 _! /reets4 ,s ! s5se ( ?is blood 0 ^u me1 & ,i obey$ ! ^w ( ! ,"l40 ,b5t z we are on /udy+ religion's exi/5tial conditions1 we _c possibly ignore ^! pa?ological aspects ( ! subject4 ,we mu/ describe & "n !m j z if !y occurr$ 9 nonreligi\s m54 ,x is true t we in/9ctively recoil f see+ an object to :i* our emotions & affections are committ$ h&l$ by ! intellect z any o!r object is h&l$4 ,! fir/ ?+ ! intellect does ) an object is to class x along ) some?+ else4 ,b any object t is inf9itely important to u & awak5s our devotion feels to u also z if x mu/ be sui g5]is & unique4 ,probably a crab w\ld be fill$ ) a s5se ( p]sonal outrage if x c\ld he> u class x )\t ado or apology z a cru/acean1 & ?us dispose ( x4 8,i am no su* ?+10 x w\ld say2 8,i am ,,myself1 ,,myself alone40 ,! next ?+ ! intellect does is to lay b>e ! causes 9 :i* ! ?+ orig9ates4 ,sp9oza says3 8,i w analyze ! actions & appetites ( m5 z if x 7 a "q ( l9es1 ( planes1 & ( solids40 ,& else:]e he rem>ks t he w consid] our passions & _! prop]ties ) ! same eye ) :i* he looks on all o!r natural ?+s1 s9ce ! consequ5ces ( our affections fl[ f _! nature ) ! same necessity z x results f ! nature ( a triangle t its ?ree angles %\ld be equal to two "r angles4 ,simil>ly ,m4 ,ta9e1 9 ! introduction to 8 hi/ory ( ,engli% lit]ature1 has writt53 8,:e!r facts be moral or physical1 x makes no matt]4 ,!y always h _! causes4 ,!re are causes = ambition1 c\rage1 v]acity1 j z !re are = dige/ion1 muscul> movem5t1 animal heat4 ,vice & virtue are products l vitriol & sug>40 ,:5 we read su* proclamations ( ! intellect b5t on %[+ ! exi/5tial conditions ( absolutely ev]y?+1 we feel--q ap>t f our legitimate impati5ce at ! some:at ridicul\s swagg] ( ! program1 9 view ( :at ! au?ors are actually able to p]=m--m5ac$ & negat$ 9 ! spr+s ( our inn]mo/ life4 ,su* coldblood$ assimilations ?reat51 we ?9k1 to undo our s\l's vital secrets1 z if ! same brea? :i* %\ld succe$ 9 expla9+ _! orig9 w\ld simultane\sly expla9 away _! significance1 & make !m appe> ( no m preci\sness1 ei!r1 ?an ! useful groc]ies ( :i* ,m4 ,ta9e speaks4 ,p]haps ! commone/ expression ( ?is assumption t spiritual value is undone if l[ly orig9 be ass]t$ is se5 9 ^? comm5ts :i* uns5tim5tal p s (t5 pass on _! m s5tim5tal acqua9tances4 ,alfr$ believes 9 immortality s /rongly because 8 temp]am5t is s emotional4 ,fanny's extraord9>y consci5ti\sness is m]ely a matt] ( ov]in/igat$ n]ves4 ,william's melan*oly ab\t ! univ]se is due to bad dige/ion--probably 8 liv] is torpid4 ,eliza's delight 9 h] *ur* is a symptom ( h] hy/]ical con/itution4 ,pet] w\ld be less tr\bl$ ab\t 8 s\l if he w\ld take m ex]cise 9 ! op5 air1 etc4 ,a m fully develop$ example ( ! same k9d ( reason+ is ! fa%ion1 q common n[adays among c]ta9 writ]s1 ( criticis+ ! religi\s emotions by %[+ a connection betwe5 !m & ! sexual life4 ,conv]sion is a crisis ( pub]ty & adolesc5ce4 ,! mac]ations ( sa9ts1 & ! devotion ( mission>ies1 are only in/ances ( ! p>5tal in/9ct ( selfsacrifice gone a/ray4 ,= ! hy/]ical nun1 />v+ = natural life1 ,*ri/ is b an imag9>y sub/itute = a m e>?ly object ( affection4 ,& ! l47#a7 ,we are surely all famili> 9 a g5]al way ) ?is me?od ( discr$it+ /ates ( m9d = :i* we h an antipa?y4 ,we all use x to "s degree 9 criticis+ p]sons ^: /ates ( m9d we reg>d z ov]/ra9$4 ,b :5 o!r p criticise our own m exalt$ s\l flights by call+ !m 8no?+ b0 expressions ( our organic disposition1 we feel outrag$ & hurt1 = we "k t1 :atev] be our organism's peculi>ities1 our m5tal /ates h _! sub/antive value z revelations ( ! liv+ tru?2 & we wi% t all ?is m$ical mat]ialism c\ld be made to hold its tongue4 ,m$ical mat]ialism seems inde$ a good appellation = ! too simple m9d$ sy/em ( ?\ght :i* we are consid]+4 ,m$ical mat]ialism f9i%es up ,sa9t ,paul by call+ 8 vision on ! road to ,damascus a dis*>g+ lesion ( ! occipital cortex1 he be+ an epileptic4 ,x snuffs out ,sa9t ,t]esa z an hy/]ic1 ,sa9t ,francis ( ,assisi z an h]$it>y deg5]ate4 ,george ,fox's discont5t ) ! %ams ( 8 age1 & 8 p9+ = spiritual v]acity1 x treats z a symptom ( a disord]$ colon4 ,c>lyle's organtones ( mis]y x acc\nts = by a ga/roduod5al cat>rh4 ,all su* m5tal ov]t5sions1 x says1 are1 :5 y come to ! bottom ( ! matt]1 m]e affairs ( dia!sis 7auto intoxications mo/ probably71 due to ! p]v]t$ action ( v>i\s gl&s :i* physiology w yet discov]4 ,& m$ical mat]ialism !n ?9ks t ! spiritual au?ority ( all su* p]sonages is successfully und]m9$47#b7 ,let u ourselves look at ! matt] 9 ! l>ge/ possible way4 ,mod]n psy*ology1 f9d+ def9ite psy*ophysical connections to hold good1 assumes z a conv5i5t hypo!sis t ! dep5d5ce ( m5tal /ates ^u bodily conditions mu/ be ?or\ghgo+ & complete4 ,if we adopt ! assumption1 !n ( c\rse :at m$ical mat]ialism insi/s on mu/ be true 9 a g5]al way1 if n 9 e detail3 ,sa9t ,paul c]ta9ly _h once an epileptoid1 if n an epileptic seizure2 ,george ,fox 0 an h]$it>y deg5]ate2 ,c>lyle 0 und\bt$ly autointoxicat$ by "s organ or o!r1 no matt] :i*1--& ! re/4 ,b n[1 ,i ask y1 h[ c su* an exi/5tial acc\nt ( facts ( m5tal hi/ory decide 9 "o way or ano!r ^u _! spiritual significance8 ,accord+ to ! g5]al po/ulate ( psy*ology j ref]r$ to1 !re is n a s+le "o ( our /ates ( m9d1 high or l[1 heal?y or morbid1 t has n "s organic process z its condition4 ,sci5tific !ories are organically condition$ j z mu* z religi\s emotions are2 & if we only knew ! facts intimately en\gh1 we %\ld d\btless see 8! liv]0 det]m9+ ! dicta ( ! /urdy a!i/ z decisively z x does ^? ( ! ,me?odi/ "u conviction anxi\s ab\t 8 s\l4 ,:5 x alt]s 9 "o way ! blood t p]colates x1 we get ! me?odi/1 :5 9 ano!r way1 we get ! a!i/ =m ( m9d4 ,s ( all our raptures & our drynesses1 our long+s & pant+s1 our que/ions & beliefs4 ,!y are equally organically f\nd$1 be !y ( religi\s or ( nonreligi\s cont5t4 ,to plead ! organic causation ( a religi\s /ate ( m9d1 !n1 9 refutation ( its claim to possess sup]ior spiritual value1 is q illogical & arbitr>y1 unless "o h already work$ out 9 advance "s psy*ophysical !ory connect+ spiritual values 9 g5]al ) det]m9ate sorts ( physiological *ange4 ,o!rwise none ( our ?\ghts & feel+s1 n ev5 our sci5tific doctr9es1 n ev5 our disbeliefs1 c\ld reta9 any value z revelations ( ! tru?1 = e "o ( !m )\t exception fl[s f ! /ate ( _! possessor's body at ! "t4 ,x is ne$less to say t m$ical mat]ialism draws 9 po9t ( fact no su* sweep+ skeptical conclusion4 ,x is sure1 j z e simple man is sure1 t "s /ates ( m9d are inw>dly sup]ior to o!rs1 & reveal to u m tru?1 & 9 ?is x simply makes use ( an ord9>y spiritual judgm5t4 ,x has no physiological !ory ( ! production ( ^! its favorite /ates1 by :i* x may accr$it !m2 & its attempt to discr$it ! /ates :i* x dislikes1 by vaguely associat+ !m ) n]ves & liv]1 & connect+ !m ) names connot+ bodily affliction1 is altoge!r illogical & inconsi/5t4 ,let u play fair 9 ?is :ole matt]1 & be q c&id ) ourselves & ) ! facts4 ,:5 we ?9k c]ta9 /ates ( m9d sup]ior to o!rs1 is x ev] because ( :at we "k conc]n+ _! organic antec$5ts8 ,no6 x is always = two entirely diff]5t reasons4 ,x is ei!r because we take an imm$iate delight 9 !m2 or else x is because we believe !m to br+ u good consequ5tial fruits = life4 ,:5 we speak disp>ag+ly ( 8fev]i% fancies10 surely ! fev]process z su* is n ! gr\nd ( our dise/eem--= aught we "k to ! contr>y1 #ajc or #ajd ,fahr5heit might be a mu* m favorable temp]ature = tru?s to g]m9ate & spr\t 91 ?an ! m ord9>y bloodheat ( #ig or #ih degrees4 ,x is ei!r ! disagreeabl5ess itself ( ! fancies1 or _! inability to be> ! criticisms ( ! convalesc5t h\r4 ,:5 we praise ! ?\ghts :i* heal? br+s1 heal?'s peculi> *emical metabolisms h no?+ to d ) det]m9+ our judgm5t4 ,we "k 9 fact almo/ no?+ ab\t ^! metabolisms4 ,x is ! "* ( inn] happ9ess 9 ! ?\ghts :i* /amps !m z good1 or else _! consi/5cy ) our o!r op9ions & _! s]viceability = our ne$s1 :i* make !m pass = true 9 our e/eem4 ,n[ ! m intr9sic & ! m remote ( ^! crit]ia d n always hang toge!r4 ,inn] happ9ess & s]viceability d n always agree4 ,:at imm$iately feels mo/ 8good0 is n always mo/ 8true10 :5 measur$ by ! v]dict ( ! re/ ( exp]i5ce4 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 ,philip drunk & ,philip sob] is ! classic in/ance 9 corroboration4 ,if m]ely 8feel+ good0 c\ld decide1 drunk5ness w\ld be ! supremely valid human exp]i5ce4 ,b its revelations1 h[ev] acutely satisfy+ at ! mom5t1 are ins]t$ into an environm5t :i* refuses to be> !m out = any l5g? ( "t4 ,! consequ5ce ( ?is discrepancy ( ! two crit]ia is ! unc]ta9ty :i* /ill prevails ov] s _m ( our spiritual judgm5ts4 ,!re are mom5ts ( s5tim5tal & my/ical exp]i5ce--we %all h]eaft] he> mu* ( !m--t c>ry an enorm\s s5se ( inn] au?ority & illum9ation ) !m :5 !y come4 ,b !y come seldom1 & !y d n come to e "o2 & ! re/ ( life makes ei!r no connection ) !m1 or t5ds to contradict !m m ?an x confirms !m4 ,"s p]sons foll[ m ! voice ( ! mom5t 9 ^! cases1 "s pref] to be guid$ by ! av]age results4 ,h5ce ! sad discordancy ( s _m ( ! spiritual judgm5ts ( human be+s2 a discordancy :i* w be br\ght home to u acutely en\gh be=e ^! lectures end4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 a discordancy t c nev] be resolv$ by any m]ely m$ical te/4 ,a good example ( ! impossibility ( hold+ /rictly to ! m$ical te/s is se5 9 ! !ory ( ! pa?ological causation ( g5ius promulgat$ by rec5t au?ors4 8,g5ius10 said ,dr4 ,moreau1 8is b "o ( ! _m bran*es ( ! neuropa?ic tree40 8,g5ius10 says ,dr4 ,lombroso1 8is a symptom ( h]$it>y deg5]ation ( ! epileptoid v>iety1 & is alli$ to moral insanity40 8,:5ev] a man's life10 writes ,mr4 ,nisbet1 8is at once suffici5tly illu/ri\s & record$ ) suffici5t fullness to be a subject ( pr(itable /udy1 he inevitably falls into ! morbid category4444 ,& x is wor?y ( rem>k t1 z a rule1 ! great] ! g5ius1 ! great] ! uns\ndness407#c7 ,n[ d ^! au?ors1 aft] hav+ succe$$ 9 e/abli%+ to _! own satisfaction t ! works ( g5ius are fruits ( disease1 consi/5tly proce$ !reupon to impugn ! value ( ! fruits8 ,d !y d$uce a new spiritual judgm5t f _! new doctr9e ( exi/5tial conditions8 ,d !y frankly =bid u to admire ! productions ( g5ius f n[ onw>ds8 & say outright t no neuropa? c ev] be a reveal] ( new tru?8 ,no6 _! imm$iate spiritual in/9cts are too /rong = !m "h1 & hold _! own aga9/ inf]5ces :i*1 9 m]e love ( logical consi/5cy1 m$ical mat]ialism ought to be only too glad to draw4 ,"o disciple ( ! s*ool1 inde$1 has /riv5 to impugn ! value ( works ( g5ius 9 a :olesale way 7su* works ( contempor>y art1 namely1 z he himself is unable to enjoy1 & !y are _m7 by us+ m$ical argum5ts47#d7 ,b = ! mo/ "p ! ma/]pieces are left un*all5g$2 & ! m$ical l9e ( attack ei!r conf9es itself to su* secul> productions z e "o admits to be intr9sically ecc5tric1 or else addresses itself exclusively to religi\s manife/ations4 ,& !n x is because ! religi\s manife/ations h be5 already condemn$ because ! critic dislikes !m on int]nal or spiritual gr\nds4 ,9 ! natural sci5ces & indu/rial arts x nev] occurs to any "o to try to refute op9ions by %[+ up _! au?or's neurotic con/itution4 ,op9ions "h are inv>iably te/$ by logic & by exp]im5t1 no matt] :at may be _! au?or's neurological type4 ,x %\ld be no o!rwise ) religi\s op9ions4 ,_! value c only be asc]ta9$ by spiritual judgm5ts directly pass$ ^u !m1 judgm5ts bas$ on our own imm$iate feel+ prim>ily2 & second>ily on :at we c asc]ta9 ( _! exp]i5tial relations to our moral ne$s & to ! re/ ( :at we hold z true4 ,imm$iate lum9\sness1 9 %ort1 philosophical reasonabl5ess1 & moral helpfulness are ! only available crit]ia4 ,sa9t ,t]esa might h _h ! n]v\s sy/em ( ! placide/ c[1 & x w\ld n n[ save h] !ology1 if ! trial ( ! !ology by ^! o!r te/s %\ld %[ x to be contemptible4 ,& conv]sely if h] !ology c /& ^! o!r te/s1 x w make no diff]5ce h[ hy/]ical or n]v\sly (f h] balance ,sa9t ,t]esa may h be5 :5 %e 0 ) u "h bel[4 ,y see t at bottom we are ?r[n back ^u ! g5]al pr9ciples by :i* ! empirical philosophy has always cont5d$ t we mu/ be guid$ 9 our se>* = tru?4 ,dogmatic philosophies h s\ght = te/s = tru? :i* might disp5se u f appeal+ to ! future4 ,"s direct m>k1 by not+ :i* we c be protect$ imm$iately & absolutely1 n[ & =ev]1 aga9/ all mi/ake--su* has be5 ! d>l+ dream ( philosophic dogmati/s4 ,x is cle> t ! orig9 ( ! tru? w\ld be an admirable crit]ion ( ?is sort1 if only ! v>i\s orig9s c\ld be discrim9at$ f "o ano!r f ?is po9t ( view1 & ! hi/ory ( dogmatic op9ion %[s t orig9 has always be5 a favorite te/4 ,orig9 9 imm$iate intuition2 orig9 9 pontifical au?ority2 orig9 9 sup]natural revelation1 z by vision1 he>+1 or unacc\ntable impression2 orig9 9 direct possession by a high] _s1 express+ itself 9 prophecy & w>n+2 orig9 9 automatic utt]ance g5]ally1--^! orig9s h be5 /ock w>rants = ! tru? ( "o op9ion aft] ano!r :i* we f9d repres5t$ 9 religi\s hi/ory4 ,! m$ical mat]iali/s are !re=e only s _m belat$ dogmati/s1 neatly turn+ ! tables on _! pr$ecessors by us+ ! crit]ion ( orig9 9 a de/ructive in/ead ( an accr$itive way4 ,!y are effective ) _! talk ( pa?ological orig9 only s long z sup]natural orig9 is plead$ by ! o!r side1 & no?+ b ! argum5t f orig9 is "u discussion4 ,b ! argum5t f orig9 has seldom be5 us$ alone1 = x is too obvi\sly insuffici5t4 ,dr4 ,maudsley is p]haps ! clev]e/ ( ! rebutt]s ( sup]natural religion on gr\nds ( orig94 ,yet he f9ds himself =c$ to write3-- 8,:at "r h we to believe ,nature "u any obligation to d h] "w by means ( complete m9ds only8 ,%e may f9d an incomplete m9d a m suitable in/rum5t = a p>ticul> purpose4 ,x is ! "w t is done1 & ! quality 9 ! work] by :i* x 0 done1 t is alone ( mom5t2 & x may be no great matt] f a cosmical /&po9t1 if 9 o!r qualities ( "* he 0 s+ul>ly defective--if inde$ he 7 hypocrite1 adult]]1 ecc5tric1 or lunatic4444 ,home we come aga91 !n1 to ! old & la/ resort ( c]titude1--namely ! common ass5t ( mank9d1 or ( ! compet5t by in/ruction & tra9+ among mank9d407#e7 ,9 o!r words1 n its orig91 b ! way 9 :i* x works on ! :ole1 is ,dr4 ,maudsley's f9al te/ ( a belief4 ,?is is our own empirici/ crit]ion2 & ?is crit]ion ! /\te/ insi/]s on sup]natural orig9 h also be5 =c$ to use 9 ! end4 ,among ! visions & messages "s h always be5 too pat5tly silly1 among ! trances & convulsive seizures "s h be5 too fruitless = conduct & "*1 to pass !mselves (f z significant1 /ill less z div9e4 ,9 ! hi/ory ( ,*ri/ian my/icism ! problem h[ to discrim9ate betwe5 su* messages & exp]i5ces z 7 really div9e miracles1 & su* o!rs z ! demon 9 8 malice 0 able to c\nt]feit1 ?us mak+ ! religi\s p]son tw(old m ! *ild ( hell he 0 be=e1 has always be5 a difficult "o to solve1 ne$+ all ! sagacity & exp]i5ce ( ! be/ directors ( consci5ce4 ,9 ! end x _h to come to our empirici/ crit]ion3 ,by _! fruits ye %all "k !m1 n by _! roots1 ,jona?an ,edw>ds's ,treatise on ,religi\s ,affections is an elaborate work+ out ( ?is !sis4 ,! roots ( a man's virtue are inaccessible to u4 ,no appe>ances :atev] are infallible pro(s ( grace4 ,our practice is ! only sure evid5ce1 ev5 to ourselves1 t we are g5u9ely ,*ri/ians4 8,9 =m+ a judgm5t ( ourselves n[10 ,edw>ds writes1 8we %\ld c]ta9ly adopt t evid5ce :i* our supreme ,judge w *iefly make use ( :5 we come to /& be=e him at ! la/ day4444 ,!re is n "o grace ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 ( ! exi/5ce ( :i*1 9 any pr(essor ( religion1 ,*ri/ian practice is n ! mo/ decisive evid5ce4444 ,! degree 9 :i* our exp]i5ce is productive ( practice %[s ! degree 9 :i* our exp]i5ce is spiritual & div9e40 ,ca?olic writ]s are equally emphatic4 ,! good dispositions :i* a vision1 or voice1 or o!r app>5t heav5ly favor leave beh9d !m are ! only m>ks by :i* we may be sure !y are n possible deceptions ( ! tempt]4 ,says ,sa9t ,t]esa3-- 8,l imp]fect sleep :i*1 in/ead ( giv+ m /r5g? to ! head1 do? b leave x ! m exhau/$1 ! result ( m]e op]ations ( ! imag9ation is b to weak5 ! s\l4 ,in/ead ( n\ri%m5t & en]gy %e reaps only lassitude & disgu/3 :]eas a g5u9e heav5ly vision yields to h] a h>ve/ ( ineffable spiritual ri*es1 & an admirable r5ewal ( bodily /r5g?4 ,i alleg$ ^! reasons to ^? :o s (t5 accus$ my visions ( be+ ! "w ( ! enemy ( mank9d & ! sport ( my imag9ation4444 ,i %[$ !m ! jewels :i* ! div9e h& _h left ) me3--!y 7 my actual dispositions4 ,all ^? :o knew me saw t ,i 0 *ang$2 my confessor bore witness to ! fact2 ?is improvem5t1 palpable 9 all respects1 f> f be+ hidd51 0 brilliantly evid5t to all m54 ,z = myself1 x 0 impossible to believe t if ! demon 7 its au?or1 he c\ld h us$1 9 ord] to lose me & lead me to hell1 an exp$i5t s contr>y to 8 own int]e/s z t ( uproot+ my vices1 & fill+ me ) mascul9e c\rage & o!r virtues in/ead1 = ,i saw cle>ly t a s+le "o ( ^! visions 0 en\gh to enri* me ) all t weal?407#f7 ,i fe> ,i may h made a long] excursus ?an 0 necess>y1 & t few] words w\ld h dispell$ ! uneas9ess :i* may h aris5 among "s ( y z ,i ann\nc$ my pa?ological programme4 ,at any rate y mu/ all be ready n[ to judge ! religi\s life by its results exclusively1 & ,i %all assume t ! bugaboo ( morbid orig9 w sc&alize y\r piety no m4 ,/ill1 y may ask me1 if its results are to be ! gr\nd ( our f9al spiritual e/imate ( a religi\s ph5om5on1 :y ?reat5 u at all ) s mu* exi/5tial /udy ( its conditions8 ,:y n simply leave pa?ological que/ions out8 ,to ?is ,i reply 9 two ways3 ,fir/1 ,i say1 irrepressible curiosity imp]i\sly leads "o on2 & ,i say1 secondly1 t x always leads to a bett] und]/&+ ( a ?+'s significance to consid] its exagg]ations & p]v]sions1 its equival5ts & sub/itutes & ne>e/ relatives else:]e4 ,n t we may !reby swamp ! ?+ 9 ! :olesale condemnation :i* we pass on its inf]ior cong5]s1 b r t we may by contra/ asc]ta9 ! m precisely 9 :at its m]its consi/1 by le>n+ at ! same "t to :at p>ticul> dang]s ( corruption x may also be expos$4 ,insane conditions h ?is advantage1 t !y isolate special factors ( ! m5tal life1 & enable u to inspect !m unmask$ by _! m usual surr\nd+s4 ,!y play ! "p 9 m5tal anatomy :i* ! scalpel & ! microscope play 9 ! anatomy ( ! body4 ,to und]/& a ?+ rightly we ne$ to see x bo? out ( its environm5t & 9 x1 & to h acqua9tance ) ! :ole range ( its v>iations4 ,! /udy ( halluc9ations has 9 ?is way be5 = psy*ologi/s ! key to _! compreh5sion ( normal s5sation1 t ( illusions has be5 ! key to ! "r compreh5sion ( p]ception4 ,morbid impulses & imp]ative conceptions1 8fix$ ideas10 s call$1 h ?r[n a flood ( light on ! psy*ology ( ! normal w2 & obsessions & delusions h p]=m$ ! same s]vice = t ( ! normal faculty ( belief4 ,simil>ly1 ! nature ( g5ius has be5 illum9at$ by ! attempts1 ( :i* ,i already made m5tion1 to class x ) psy*opa?ical ph5om5a4 ,bord]l& insanity1 crank9ess1 insane temp]am5t1 loss ( m5tal balance1 psy*opa?ic deg5]ation 7to use a few ( ! _m synonyms by :i* x has be5 call$71 has c]ta9 peculi>ities & liabilities :i*1 :5 comb9$ ) a sup]ior quality ( intellect 9 an individual1 make x m probable t he w make 8 m>k & affect 8 age1 ?an if 8 temp]am5t 7 less neurotic4 ,!re is ( c\rse no special aff9ity betwe5 crank9ess z su* & sup]ior intellect17#g7 = mo/ psy*opa?s h feeble intellects1 & sup]ior intellects m commonly h normal n]v\s sy/ems4 ,b ! psy*opa?ic temp]am5t1 :atev] be ! intellect ) :i* x f9ds itself pair$1 (t5 br+s ) x ardor & excitability ( "*4 ,! cranky p]son has extraord9>y emotional susceptibility4 ,he is liable to fix$ ideas & obsessions4 ,8 conceptions t5d to pass imm$iately into belief & action2 & :5 he gets a new idea1 he has no re/ till he proclaims x1 or 9 "s way 8works x (f40 8,:at %all ,i ?9k ( x80 a common p]son says to himself ab\t a vex$ "q2 b 9 a 8cranky0 m9d 8,:at mu/ ,i d ab\t x80 is ! =m ! "q t5ds to take4 ,9 ! autobiography ( t highs\l$ woman1 ,mrs4 ,annie ,besant1 ,i read ! foll[+ passage3 8,pl5ty ( p wi% well to any good cause1 b v few c>e to ex]t !mselves to help x1 & /ill few] w risk any?+ 9 its support4 #8,"s "o ought to d x1 b :y %\ld ,i8' is ! ev] re*o$ phrase ( weakkne$ amiability4 #8,"s "o ought to d x1 s :y n ,i8' is ! cry ( "s e>ne/ s]vant ( man1 eag]ly =w>d spr++ to face "s p]il\s duty4 ,betwe5 ^! two s5t5ces lie :ole c5turies ( moral evolution40 ,true en\gh6 & betwe5 ^! two s5t5ces lie also ! diff]5t de/9ies ( ! ord9>y slugg>d & ! psy*opa?ic man4 ,?us1 :5 a sup]ior intellect & a psy*opa?ic temp]am5t coalesce--z 9 ! endless p]mutations & comb9ations ( human faculty1 !y are b\nd to coalesce (t5 en\gh--9 ! same individual1 we h ! be/ possible condition = ! k9d ( effective g5ius t gets into ! biographical diction>ies4 ,su* m5 d n rema9 m]e critics & und]/&]s ) _! intellect4 ,_! ideas possess !m1 !y inflict !m1 = bett] or worse1 ^u _! companions or _! age4 ,x is !y :o get c\nt$ :5 ,messrs ,lombroso1 ,nisbet1 & o!rs invoke /ati/ics to def5d _! p>adox4 ,to pass n[ to religi\s ph5om5a1 take ! melan*oly :i*1 z we %all see1 con/itutes an ess5tial mom5t 9 e complete religi\s evolution4 ,take ! happ9ess :i* a*iev$ religi\s belief conf]s4 ,take ! trancel /ates ( insight into tru? :i* all religi\s my/ics report47#h7 ,^! are ea* & all ( !m special cases ( k9ds ( human exp]i5ce ( mu* wid] scope4 ,religi\s melan*oly1 :atev] peculi>ities x may h qu religi\s1 is at any rate melan*oly4 ,religi\s happ9ess is happ9ess4 ,religi\s trance is trance4 ,& ! mom5t we r5\nce ! absurd notion t a ?+ is explod$ away z soon z x is class$ ) o!rs1 or its orig9 is %[n2 ! mom5t we agree to /& by exp]im5tal results & inn] quality1 9 judg+ ( values1--:o does n see t we are likely to asc]ta9 ! di/9ctive significance ( religi\s melan*oly & happ9ess1 or ( religi\s trances1 f> bett] by comp>+ !m z consci5ti\sly z we c ) o!r v>ieties ( melan*oly1 happ9ess1 & trance1 ?an by refus+ to consid] _! place 9 any m g5]al s]ies1 & treat+ !m z if !y 7 outside ( nature's ord] altoge!r8 ,i hope t ! c\rse ( ^! lectures w confirm u 9 ?is supposition4 ,z reg>ds ! psy*opa?ic orig9 ( s _m religi\s ph5om5a1 t w\ld n be 9 ! lea/ surpris+ or disconc]t+1 ev5 7 su* ph5om5a c]tifi$ f on high to be ! mo/ preci\s ( human exp]i5ces4 ,no "o organism c possibly yield to its own] ! :ole body ( tru?4 ,few ( u are n 9 "s way infirm1 or ev5 diseas$2 & our v infirmities help u unexpect$ly4 ,9 ! psy*opa?ic temp]am5t we h ! emotionality :i* is ! s9e qu non ( moral p]ception2 we h ! int5sity & t5d5cy to emphasis :i* are ! ess5ce ( practical moral vigor2 & we h ! love ( metaphysics & my/icism :i* c>ry "o's int]e/s beyond ! surface ( ! s5sible _w4 ,:at1 !n1 is m natural ?an t ?is temp]am5t %\ld introduce "o to regions ( religi\s tru?1 to corn]s ( ! univ]se1 :i* y\r robu/ ,phili/9e type ( n]v\s sy/em1 =ev] (f]+ its biceps to be felt1 ?ump+ its brea/1 & ?ank+ ,heav5 t x hasn't a s+le morbid fibre 9 its composition1 w\ld be sure to hide =ev] f its selfsatisfi$ possessors8 ,if !re 7 su* a ?+ z inspiration f a high] realm1 x might well be t ! neurotic temp]am5t w\ld furni% ! *ief condition ( ! requisite receptivity4 ,& hav+ said ?us mu*1 ,i ?9k t ,i may let ! matt] ( religion & neuroticism drop4 ,! mass ( collat]al ph5om5a1 morbid or heal?y1 ) :i* ! v>i\s religi\s ph5om5a mu/ be comp>$ 9 ord] to und]/& !m bett]1 =ms :at 9 ! slang ( p$agogics is t]m$ 8! app]ceiv+ mass0 by :i* we compreh5d !m4 ,! only novelty t ,i c imag9e ?is c\rse ( lectures to possess lies 9 ! bread? ( ! app]ceiv+ mass4 ,i may succe$ 9 discuss+ religi\s exp]i5ces 9 a wid] context ?an has be5 usual 9 univ]sity c\rses4 ,,lecture ,,ii4 ,,circumscription ,,( ,,! ,,topic4 ,mo/ books on ! philosophy ( religion try to beg9 ) a precise def9ition ( :at its ess5ce consi/s (4 ,"s ( ^! w\ldbe def9itions may possibly come be=e u 9 lat] portions ( ?is c\rse1 & ,i %all n be p$antic en\gh to enum]ate any ( !m to y n[4 ,mean:ile ! v fact t !y are s _m & s diff]5t f "o ano!r is en\gh to prove t ! ^w 8religion0 _c /& = any s+le pr9ciple or ess5ce1 b is r a collective "n4 ,! !oriz+ m9d t5ds always to ! ov]simplification ( its mat]ials4 ,?is is ! root ( all t absolutism & "osid$ dogmatism by :i* bo? philosophy & religion h be5 infe/$4 ,let u n fall imm$iately into a "osid$ view ( our subject1 b let u r admit freely at ! outset t we may v likely f9d no "o ess5ce1 b _m *>act]s :i* may alt]nately be equally important 9 religion4 ,if we %\ld inquire = ! ess5ce ( 8gov]nm5t10 = example1 "o man might tell u x 0 au?ority1 ano!r submission1 ano!r police1 ano!r an army1 ano!r an assembly1 ano!r a sy/em ( laws2 yet all ! :ile x w\ld be true t no concrete gov]nm5t c exi/ )\t all ^! ?+s1 "o ( :i* is m important at "o mom5t & o!rs at ano!r4 ,! man :o kn[s gov]nm5ts mo/ completely is he :o tr\bles himself lea/ ab\t a def9ition :i* %all give _! ess5ce4 ,enjoy+ an intimate acqua9tance ) all _! p>ticul>ities 9 turn1 he w\ld naturally reg>d an ab/ract conception 9 :i* ^! 7 unifi$ z a ?+ m mislead+ ?an enlight5+4 ,& :y may n religion be a conception equally complex87#i7 ,consid] also ! 8religi\s s5tim5t0 :i* we see ref]r$ to 9 s _m books1 z if x 7 a s+le sort ( m5tal entity4 ,9 ! psy*ologies & 9 ! philosophies ( religion1 we f9d ! au?ors attempt+ to specify j :at entity x is4 ,"o man allies x to ! feel+ ( dep5d5ce2 "o makes x a d]ivative f fe>2 o!rs connect x ) ! sexual life2 o!rs /ill id5tify x ) ! feel+ ( ! inf9ite2 & s on4 ,su* diff]5t ways ( conceiv+ x ought ( !mselves to ar\se d\bt z to :e!r x possibly c be "o specific ?+2 & ! mom5t we are will+ to treat ! t]m 8religi\s s5tim5t0 z a collective "n = ! _m s5tim5ts :i* religi\s objects may ar\se 9 alt]nation1 we see t x probably conta9s no?+ :atev] ( a psy*ologically specific nature4 ,!re is religi\s fe>1 religi\s love1 religi\s awe1 religi\s joy1 & s =?4 ,b religi\s love is only man's natural emotion ( love direct$ to a religi\s object2 religi\s fe> is only ! ord9>y fe> ( comm]ce1 s to speak1 ! common quak+ ( ! human brea/1 9 s f> z ! notion ( div9e retribution may ar\se x2 religi\s awe is ! same organic ?rill :i* we feel 9 a =e/ at twilight1 or 9 a m\nta9 gorge2 only ?is "t x comes ov] u at ! ?\ght ( our sup]natural relations2 & simil>ly ( all ! v>i\s s5tim5ts :i* may be call$ into play 9 ! lives ( religi\s p]sons4 ,z concrete /ates ( m9d1 made up ( a feel+ plus a specific sort ( object1 religi\s emotions ( c\rse are psy*ic entities di/+ui%able f o!r concrete emotions2 b !re is no gr\nd = assum+ a simple ab/ract 8religi\s emotion0 to exi/ z a di/9ct elem5t>y m5tal affection by itself1 pres5t 9 e religi\s exp]i5ce )\t exception4 ,z !re ?us seems to be no "o elem5t>y religi\s emotion1 b only a common /oreh\se ( emotions ^u :i* religi\s objects may draw1 s !re might conceivably also prove to be no "o specific & ess5tial k9d ( religi\s object1 & no "o specific & ess5tial k9d ( religi\s act4 ,! field ( religion be+ z wide z ?is1 x is manife/ly impossible t ,i %\ld pret5d to cov] x4 ,my lectures mu/ be limit$ to a fraction ( ! subject4 ,&1 al?\gh x w\ld inde$ be fooli% to set up an ab/ract def9ition ( religion's ess5ce1 & !n proce$ to def5d t def9ition aga9/ all com]s1 yet ?is ne$ n prev5t me f tak+ my own n>r[ view ( :at religion %all consi/ 9 = ! purpose ( ^! lectures1 or1 out ( ! _m mean+s ( ! ^w1 f *oos+ ! "o mean+ 9 :i* ,i wi% to int]e/ y p>ticul>ly1 & proclaim+ arbitr>ily t :5 ,i say 8religion0 ,i mean t4 ,?is1 9 fact1 is :at ,i mu/ d1 & ,i w n[ prelim9>ily seek to m>k out ! field ,i *oose4 ,"o way to m>k x out easily is to say :at aspects ( ! subject we leave out4 ,at ! outset we are /ruck by "o great p>tition :i* divides ! religi\s field4 ,on ! "o side ( x lies in/itutional1 on ! o!r p]sonal religion4 ,z ,m4 ,p4 ,sabati] says1 "o bran* ( religion keeps ! div9ity1 ano!r keeps man mo/ 9 view4 ,wor%ip & sacrifice1 proc$ures = work+ on ! dispositions ( ! deity1 !ology & c]emony & ecclesia/ical organization1 are ! ess5tials ( religion 9 ! in/itutional bran*4 ,7 we to limit our view to x1 we %\ld h to def9e religion z an ext]nal art1 ! art ( w9n+ ! favor ( ! gods4 ,9 ! m p]sonal bran* ( religion x is on ! contr>y ! inn] dispositions ( man himself :i* =m ! c5tre ( int]e/1 8 consci5ce1 8 des]ts1 8 helplessness1 8 incomplet5ess4 ,& al?\gh ! favor ( ! ,god1 z =feit$ or ga9$1 is /ill an ess5tial feature ( ! /ory1 & !ology plays a vital "p !re91 yet ! acts to :i* ?is sort ( religion prompts are p]sonal n ritual acts1 ! individual transacts ! bus9ess by himself alone1 & ! ecclesia/ical organization1 ) its prie/s & sacram5ts & o!r gbetwe5s1 s9ks to an altoge!r second>y place4 ,! relation goes direct f he>t to he>t1 f s\l to s\l1 betwe5 man & 8 mak]4 ,n[ 9 ^! lectures ,i propose to ignore ! in/itutional bran* entirely1 to say no?+ ( ! ecclesia/ical organization1 to consid] z little z possible ! sy/ematic !ology & ! ideas ab\t ! gods !mselves1 & to conf9e myself z f> z ,i c to p]sonal religion pure & simple4 ,to "s ( y p]sonal religion1 ?us nak$ly consid]$1 w no d\bt seem too incomplete a ?+ to we> ! g5]al "n4 8,x is a "p ( religion10 y w say1 8b only its unorganiz$ rudim5t2 if we are to "n x by itself1 we _h bett] call x man's consci5ce or morality ?an 8 religion4 ,! "n #8religion' %\ld be res]v$ = ! fully organiz$ sy/em ( feel+1 ?\ght1 & in/itution1 = ! ,*ur*1 9 %ort1 ( :i* ?is p]sonal religion1 s call$1 is b a fractional elem5t40 ,b if y say ?is1 x w only %[ ! m pla9ly h[ mu* ! "q ( def9ition t5ds to become a dispute ab\t names4 ,r ?an prolong su* a dispute1 ,i am will+ to accept almo/ any "n = ! p]sonal religion ( :i* ,i propose to treat4 ,call x consci5ce or morality1 if y y\rselves pref]1 & n religion--"u ei!r "n x w be equally wor?y ( our /udy4 ,z = myself1 ,i ?9k x w prove to conta9 "s elem5ts :i* morality pure & simple does n conta91 & ^! elem5ts ,i %all soon seek to po9t out2 s ,i w myself cont9ue to apply ! ^w 8religion0 to x2 & 9 ! la/ lecture ( all1 ,i w br+ 9 ! !ologies & ! ecclesia/icisms1 & say some?+ ( its relation to !m4 ,9 "o s5se at lea/ ! p]sonal religion w prove itself m fundam5tal ?an ei!r !ology or ecclesia/icism4 ,*ur*es1 :5 once e/abli%$1 live at secondh& ^u tradition2 b ! f\nd]s ( e *ur* ow$ _! p[] orig9ally to ! fact ( _! direct p]sonal communion ) ! div9e4 ,n only ! sup]human f\nd]s1 ! ,*ri/1 ! ,buddha1 ,mahomet1 b all ! orig9ators ( ,*ri/ian sects h be5 9 ?is case2--s p]sonal religion %\ld /ill seem ! primordial ?+1 ev5 to ^? :o cont9ue to e/eem x incomplete4 ,!re are1 x is true1 o!r ?+s 9 religion *ronologically m primordial ?an p]sonal dev\tness 9 ! moral s5se4 ,feti%ism & magic seem to h prec$$ inw>d piety hi/orically--at lea/ our records ( inw>d piety d n rea* back s f>4 ,& if feti%ism & magic be reg>d$ z /ages ( religion1 "o may say t p]sonal religion 9 ! inw>d s5se & ! g5u9ely spiritual ecclesia/icisms :i* x f\nds are ph5om5a ( second>y or ev5 t]ti>y ord]4 ,b1 q ap>t f ! fact t _m an?ropologi/s--= in/ance1 ,jevons & ,fraz]--expressly oppose 8religion0 & 8magic0 to ea* o!r1 x is c]ta9 t ! :ole sy/em ( ?\ght :i* leads to magic1 feti%ism1 & ! l[] sup]/itions may j z well be call$ primitive sci5ce z call$ primitive religion4 ,! "q ?us becomes a v]bal "o aga92 & our k ( all ^! e>ly /ages ( ?\ght & feel+ is 9 any case s conjectural & imp]fect t f>!r discussion w\ld n be wor? :ile4 ,religion1 !re=e1 z ,i n[ ask y arbitr>ily to take x1 %all mean = u ! feel+s1 acts1 & exp]i5ces ( individual m5 9 _! solitude1 s f> z !y appreh5d !mselves to /& 9 relation to :atev] !y may consid] ! div9e4 ,s9ce ! relation may be ei!r moral1 physical1 or ritual1 x is evid5t t out ( religion 9 ! s5se 9 :i* we take x1 !ologies1 philosophies1 & ecclesia/ical organizations may second>ily gr[4 ,9 ^! lectures1 h[ev]1 z ,i h already said1 ! imm$iate p]sonal exp]i5ces w amply fill our "t1 & we %all h>dly consid] !ology or ecclesia/icism at all4 ,we escape mu* controv]sial matt] by ?is arbitr>y def9ition ( our field4 ,b1 /ill1 a *ance ( controv]sy comes up ov] ! ^w 8div9e0 if we take x 9 ! def9ition 9 too n>r[ a s5se4 ,!re are sy/ems ( ?\ght :i* ! _w usually calls religi\s1 & yet :i* d n positively assume a ,god4 ,buddhism is 9 ?is case4 ,popul>ly1 ( c\rse1 ! ,buddha himself /&s 9 place ( a ,god2 b 9 /rictness ! ,buddhi/ic sy/em is a!i/ic4 ,mod]n transc5d5tal idealism1 ,em]sonianism1 = in/ance1 also seems to let ,god evaporate into ab/ract ,ideality4 ,n a deity 9 concreto1 n a sup]human p]son1 b ! imman5t div9ity 9 ?+s1 ! ess5tially spiritual /ructure ( ! univ]se1 is ! object ( ! transc5d5tali/ cult4 ,9 t address to ! graduat+ class at ,div9ity ,college 9 #ahch :i* made ,em]son fam\s1 ! frank expression ( ?is wor%ip ( m]e ab/ract laws 0 :at made ! sc&al ( ! p]=mance4 8,^! laws10 said ! speak]1 8execute !mselves4 ,!y are out ( "t1 out ( space1 & n subject to circum/ance3 ,?us1 9 ! s\l ( man !re is a ju/ice ^: retributions are in/ant & entire4 ,he :o does a good de$ is in/antly ennobl$4 ,he :o does a mean de$ is by ! action itself contract$4 ,he :o puts (f impurity !reby puts on purity4 ,if a man is at he>t j1 !n 9 s f> is he ,god2 ! safety ( ,god1 ! immortality ( ,god1 ! maje/y ( ,god1 d ent] into t man ) ju/ice4 ,if a man dissemble1 deceive1 he deceives himself1 & goes out ( acqua9tance ) 8 own be+4 ,"* is always kn[n4 ,!fts nev] enri*2 alms nev] impov]i%2 murd] w speak out ( /one walls4 ,! lea/ admixture ( a lie--= example1 ! ta9t ( vanity1 any attempt to make a good impression1 a favorable appe>ance--w in/antly vitiate ! effect4 ,b speak ! tru?1 & all ?+s alive or brute are v\*]s1 & ! v roots ( ! grass und]gr\nd !re d seem to /ir & move to be> y\r witness4 ,= all ?+s proce$ out ( ! same _s1 :i* is diff]5tly nam$ love1 ju/ice1 temp]ance1 9 its diff]5t applications1 j z ! ocean receives diff]5t names on ! sev]al %ores :i* x wa%es4 ,9 s f> z he roves f ^! ends1 a man b]eaves himself ( p[]1 ( auxili>ies4 ,8 be+ %r9ks 444 he becomes less & less1 a mote1 a po9t1 until absolute badness is absolute dea?4 ,! p]ception ( ?is law awak5s 9 ! m9d a s5tim5t :i* we call ! religi\s s5tim5t1 & :i* makes our highe/ happ9ess4 ,wond]ful is its p[] to *>m & to comm&4 ,x is a m\nta9 air4 ,x is ! embalm] ( ! _w4 ,x makes ! sky & ! hills sublime1 & ! sil5t song ( ! />s is x4 ,x is ! beatitude ( man4 ,x makes him illimitable4 ,:5 he says #8,i ought'2 :5 love w>ns him2 :5 he *ooses1 w>n$ f on high1 ! good & great de$2 !n1 deep melodies w&] ?r\gh 8 s\l f supreme wisdom4 ,!n he c wor%ip1 & be enl>g$ by 8 wor%ip2 = he c nev] g beh9d ?is s5tim5t4 ,all ! expressions ( ?is s5tim5t are sacr$ & p]man5t 9 proportion to _! purity4 ,!y affect u m ?an all o!r compositions4 ,! s5t5ces ( ! old5 "t1 :i* ejaculate ?is piety1 are /ill fre% & fragrant4 ,& ! unique impression ( ,jesus ^u mank9d1 ^: "n is n s mu* writt5 z pl\gh$ into ! hi/ory ( ?is _w1 is pro( ( ! subtle virtue ( ?is infusion407#aj7 ,su* is ! ,em]sonian religion4 ,! univ]se has a div9e s\l ( ord]1 :i* s\l is moral1 be+ also ! s\l )9 ! s\l ( man4 ,b :e!r ?is s\l ( ! univ]se be a m]e quality l ! eye's brilliancy or ! sk9's s(tness1 or :e!r x be a selfconsci\s life l ! eye's see+ or ! sk9's feel+1 is a decision t nev] unmi/akably appe>s 9 ,em]son's pages4 ,x quiv]s on ! b\nd>y ( ^! ?+s1 sometimes lean+ "o way1 sometimes ! o!r1 to suit ! lit]>y r ?an ! philosophic ne$4 ,:atev] x is1 ?\gh1 x is active4 ,z mu* z if x 7 a ,god1 we c tru/ x to protect all ideal int]e/s & keep ! _w's balance /raight4 ,! s5t5ces 9 :i* ,em]son1 to ! v end1 gave utt]ance to ?is fai? are z f9e z any?+ 9 lit]ature3 8,if y love & s]ve m51 y _c by any hid+ or /ratagem escape ! remun]ation4 ,secret retributions are always re/or+ ! level1 :5 di/urb$1 ( ! div9e ju/ice4 ,x is impossible to tilt ! beam4 ,all ! tyrants & proprietors & monopoli/s ( ! _w 9 va9 set _! %\ld]s to heave ! b>4 ,settles =ev]more ! pond]\s equator to its l9e1 & man & mote1 & /> & sun1 mu/ range to x1 or be pulv]iz$ by ! recoil407#aa7 ,n[ x w\ld be too absurd to say t ! inn] exp]i5ces t und]lie su* expressions ( fai? z ?is & impel ! writ] to _! utt]ance are q unwor?y to be call$ religi\s exp]i5ces4 ,! sort ( appeal t ,em]sonian optimism1 on ! "o h&1 & ,buddhi/ic pessimism1 on ! o!r1 make to ! individual & ! sort ( response :i* he makes to !m 9 8 life are 9 fact indi/+ui%able f1 & 9 _m respects id5tical )1 ! be/ ,*ri/ian appeal & response4 ,we mu/ !re=e1 f ! exp]i5tial po9t ( view1 call ^! godless or quasigodless cre$s 8religions02 & accord+ly :5 9 our def9ition ( religion we speak ( ! individual's relation to 8:at he consid]s ! div9e10 we mu/ int]pret ! t]m 8div9e0 v broadly1 z d5ot+ any object t is godl1 :e!r x be a concrete deity or n4 ,b ! t]m 8godlike10 if ?us treat$ z a float+ g5]al quality1 becomes exce$+ly vague1 = _m gods h fl\ri%$ 9 religi\s hi/ory1 & _! attributes h be5 discrepant en\gh4 ,:at !n is t ess5tially godlike quality--be x embodi$ 9 a concrete deity or n--our relation to :i* det]m9es our "* z religi\s m58 ,x w repay u to seek "s answ] to ?is "q be=e we proce$ f>!r4 ,= "o ?+1 gods are conceiv$ to be fir/ ?+s 9 ! way ( be+ & p[]4 ,!y ov]>* & envelop1 & f !m !re is no escape4 ,:at relates to !m is ! fir/ & la/ ^w 9 ! way ( tru?4 ,:atev] !n 7 mo/ primal & envelop+ & deeply true might at ?is rate be treat$ z godlike1 & a man's religion might ?us be id5tifi$ ) 8 attitude1 :atev] x might be1 t[>ds :at he felt to be ! primal tru?4 ,su* a def9ition z ?is w\ld 9 a way be def5sible4 ,religion1 :atev] x is1 is a man's total reaction ^u life1 s :y n say t any total reaction ^u life is a religion8 ,total reactions are diff]5t f casual reactions1 & total attitudes are diff]5t f usual or pr(essional attitudes4 ,to get at !m y mu/ g beh9d ! =egr\nd ( exi/5ce & rea* d[n to t curi\s s5se ( ! :ole residual cosmos z an ev]la/+ pres5ce1 intimate or ali51 t]rible or amus+1 lovable or odi\s1 :i* 9 "s degree e "o possesses4 ,?is s5se ( ! _w's pres5ce1 appeal+ z x does to our peculi> individual temp]am5t1 makes u ei!r /r5u\s or c>eless1 dev\t or blasphem\s1 gloomy or exultant1 ab\t life at l>ge2 & our reaction1 involunt>y & in>ticulate & (t5 half unconsci\s z x is1 is ! complete/ ( all our answ]s to ! "q1 8,:at is ! "* ( ?is univ]se 9 :i* we dwell80 ,x expresses our individual s5se ( x 9 ! mo/ def9ite way4 ,:y !n n call ^! reactions our religion1 no matt] :at specific "* !y may h8 ,nonreligi\s z "s ( ^! reactions may be1 9 "o s5se ( ! ^w 8religi\s10 !y yet belong to ! g5]al sph]e ( ! religi\s life1 & s %\ld g5]ically be class$ z religi\s reactions4 8,he believes 9 ,no,god1 & he wor%ips him10 said a colleague ( m9e ( a /ud5t :o 0 manife/+ a f9e a!i/ic ardor2 & ! m f]v5t oppon5ts ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e h (t5 en\gh %[n a temp] :i*1 psy*ologically consid]$1 is indi/+ui%able f religi\s zeal4 ,b s v broad a use ( ! ^w 8religion0 w\ld be inconv5i5t1 h[ev] def5sible x might rema9 on logical gr\nds4 ,!re are trifl+1 sne]+ attitudes ev5 t[>ds ! :ole ( life2 & 9 "s m5 ^! attitudes are f9al & sy/ematic4 ,x w\ld /ra9 ! ord9>y use ( language too mu* to call su* attitudes religi\s1 ev5 ?\gh1 f ! po9t ( view ( an unbias$ critical philosophy1 !y might conceivably be p]fectly reasonable ways ( look+ ^u life4 ,voltaire1 = example1 writes ?us to a fri5d1 at ! age ( sev5ty?ree3 8,z = myself10 he says1 8weak z ,i am1 ,i c>ry on ! w> to ! la/ mom5t1 ,i get a hundr$ pike?ru/s1 ,i return two hundr$1 & ,i laugh4 ,i see ne> my door ,g5eva on fire ) qu>rels ov] no?+1 & ,i laugh aga92 &1 ?ank ,god1 ,i c look ^u ! _w z a f>ce ev5 :5 x becomes z tragic z x sometimes does4 ,all comes out ev5 at ! end ( ! day1 & all comes out /ill m ev5 :5 all ! days are ov]40 ,mu* z we may admire su* a robu/ old gamecock _s 9 a valetud9>ian1 to call x a religi\s _s w\ld be odd4 ,yet x is = ! mom5t ,voltaire's reaction on ! :ole ( life4 ,je m'en fi*e is ! vulg> ,fr5* equival5t = our ,engli% ejaculation 8,:o c>es80 ,& ! happy t]m je m'en fi*isme rec5tly has be5 inv5t$ to designate ! sy/ematic det]m9ation n to take any?+ 9 life too solemnly4 8,all is vanity0 is ! reliev+ ^w 9 all difficult crises = ?is mode ( ?\ght1 :i* t exquisite lit]>y g5ius ,r5an took pleasure1 9 8 lat] days ( sweet decay1 9 putt+ into coquetti%ly sacrilegi\s =ms :i* rema9 to u z excell5t expressions ( ! 8all is vanity0 /ate ( m9d4 ,take ! foll[+ passage1 = example1--we mu/ hold to duty1 ev5 aga9/ ! evid5ce1 ,r5an says1--b he !n goes on3-- 8,!re are _m *ances t ! _w may be no?+ b a fairy pantomime ( :i* no ,god has c>e4 ,we mu/ !re=e arrange ourselves s t on nei!r hypo!sis we %all be completely wrong4 ,we mu/ li/5 to ! sup]ior voices1 b 9 su* a way t if ! second hypo!sis 7 true we %\ld n h be5 too completely dup$4 ,if 9 effect ! _w be n a s]i\s ?+1 x is ! dogmatic p :o w be ! %all[ ones1 & ! worldly m9d$ :om ! !ologians n[ call frivol\s w be ^? :o are really wise4 8,9 utrumque p>atus1 !n4 ,be ready = any?+--t p]haps is wisdom4 ,give ourselves up1 accord+ to ! h\r1 to confid5ce1 to skepticism1 to optimism1 to irony1 & we may be sure t at c]ta9 mom5ts at lea/ we %all be ) ! tru?4444 ,goodhumor is a philosophic /ate ( m9d2 x seems to say to ,nature t we take h] no m s]i\sly ?an %e takes u4 ,i ma9ta9 t "o %\ld always talk ( philosophy ) a smile4 ,we owe x to ! ,et]nal to be virtu\s2 b we h ! "r to add to ?is tribute our irony z a sort ( p]sonal reprisal4 ,9 ?is way we return to ! "r qu>t] je/ = je/2 we play ! trick t has be5 play$ on u4 ,sa9t ,augu/9e's phrase3 ,"l1 if we are deceiv$1 x is by !e6 rema9s a f9e "o1 well suit$ to our mod]n feel+4 ,only we wi% ! ,et]nal to "k t if we accept ! fraud1 we accept x kn[+ly & will+ly4 ,we are resign$ 9 advance to los+ ! int]e/ on our inve/m5ts ( virtue1 b we wi% n to appe> ridicul\s by hav+ c\nt$ on !m too securely407#ab7 ,surely all ! usual associations ( ! ^w 8religion0 w\ld h to be /ripp$ away if su* a sy/ematic p>ti pris ( irony 7 also to be d5ot$ by ! "n4 ,= common m5 8religion10 :atev] m special mean+s x may h1 signifies always a s]i\s /ate ( m9d4 ,if any "o phrase c\ld ga!r its univ]sal message1 t phrase w\ld be1 8,all is n vanity 9 ?is ,univ]se1 :atev] ! appe>ances may sugge/40 ,if x c /op any?+1 religion z commonly appreh5d$ c /op j su* *aff+ talk z ,r5an's4 ,x favors gravity1 n p]tness2 x says 8hu%0 to all va9 *att] & sm>t wit4 ,b if ho/ile to light irony1 religion is equally ho/ile to heavy grumbl+ & compla9t4 ,! _w appe>s tragic en\gh 9 "s religions1 b ! trag$y is realiz$ z purg+1 & a way ( deliv]ance is held to exi/4 ,we %all see en\gh ( ! religi\s melan*oly 9 a future lecture2 b melan*oly1 accord+ to our ord9>y use ( language1 =feits all title to be call$ religi\s :51 9 ,m>cus ,aurelius's racy words1 ! suff]] simply lies kick+ & scream+ aft] ! fa%ion ( a sacrific$ pig4 ,! mood ( a ,s*op5hau] or a ,nietzs*e1--& 9 a less degree "o may sometimes say ! same ( our own sad ,c>lyle1--?\gh (t5 an ennobl+ sadness1 is almo/ z (t5 only peevi%ness runn+ away ) ! bit betwe5 its tee?4 ,! sallies ( ! two ,g]man au?ors rem9d "o1 half ! "t1 ( ! sick %riek+s ( two dy+ rats4 ,!y lack ! purgatorial note :i* religi\s sadness gives =?4 ,!re mu/ be some?+ solemn1 s]i\s1 & t5d] ab\t any attitude :i* we d5om9ate religi\s4 ,if glad1 x mu/ n gr9 or snick]2 if sad1 x mu/ n scream or curse4 ,x is precisely z be+ solemn exp]i5ces t ,i wi% to int]e/ y 9 religi\s exp]i5ces4 ,s ,i propose--arbitr>ily aga91 if y please--to n>r[ our def9ition once m by say+ t ! ^w 8div9e10 z employ$ !re91 %all mean = u n m]ely ! primal & envelop+ & real1 = t mean+ if tak5 )\t re/riction might well prove too broad4 ,! div9e %all mean = u only su* a primal reality z ! individual feels impell$ to respond to solemnly & gravely1 & nei!r by a curse nor a je/4 ,b solemnity1 & gravity1 & all su* emotional attributes1 admit ( v>i\s %ades2 &1 d :at we w ) our def9+1 ! tru? mu/ at la/ be confront$ t we are deal+ ) a field ( exp]i5ce :]e !re is n a s+le conception t c be %>ply drawn4 ,! pret5sion1 "u su* conditions1 to be rigor\sly 8sci5tific0 or 8exact0 9 our t]ms w\ld only /amp u z lack+ 9 und]/&+ ( our task4 ,?+s are m or less div9e1 /ates ( m9d are m or less religi\s1 reactions are m or less total1 b ! b\nd>ies are always mi/y1 & x is ev]y:]e a "q ( am\nt & degree4 ,nev]!less1 at _! extreme ( developm5t1 !re c nev] be any "q z to :at exp]i5ces are religi\s4 ,! div9ity ( ! object & ! solemnity ( ! reaction are too well m>k$ = d\bt4 ,hesitation z to :e!r a /ate ( m9d is 8religi\s10 or 8irreligi\s10 or 8moral10 or 8philosophical10 is only likely to arise :5 ! /ate ( m9d is weakly *>act]iz$1 b 9 t case x w be h>dly wor?y ( our /udy at all4 ,) /ates t c only by c\rtesy be call$ religi\s we ne$ h no?+ to d1 our only pr(itable bus9ess be+ ) :at nobody c possibly feel tempt$ to call any?+ else4 ,i said 9 my =m] lecture t we le>n mo/ ab\t a ?+ :5 we view x "u a microscope1 z x 71 or 9 its mo/ exagg]at$ =m4 ,?is is z true ( religi\s ph5om5a z ( any o!r k9d ( fact4 ,! only cases likely to be pr(itable en\gh to repay our att5tion w !re=e be cases :]e ! religi\s _s is unmi/akable & extreme4 ,its fa9t] manife/ations we may tranquilly pass by4 ,"h1 = example1 is ! total reaction ^u life ( ,fr$]ick ,lock] ,lampson1 ^: autobiography1 entitl$ 8,confid5ces10 proves him to h be5 a mo/ amiable man4 8,i am s f> resign$ to my lot t ,i feel small pa9 at ! ?\ght ( hav+ to "p f :at has be5 call$ ! pleasant habit ( exi/5ce1 ! sweet fable ( life4 ,i w\ld n c>e to live my wa/$ life ov] aga91 & s to prolong my span4 ,/range to say1 ,i h b little wi% to be y\ng]4 ,i submit ) a *ill at my he>t4 ,i humbly submit because x is ! ,div9e ,w1 & my appo9t$ de/9y4 ,i dread ! increase ( infirmities t w make me a burd5 to ^? ar\nd me1 ^? de> to me4 ,no6 let me slip away z quietly & com=tably z ,i c4 ,let ! end come1 if peace come ) x4 8,i d n "k t !re is a great deal to be said = ?is _w1 or our soj\rn "h ^u x2 b x has pleas$ ,god s to place u1 & x mu/ please me also4 ,i ask y1 :at is human life8 ,is n x a maim$ happ9ess--c>e & we>9ess1 we>9ess & c>e1 ) ! baseless expectation1 ! /range coz5age ( a bright] tomorr[8 ,at be/ x is b a fr[>d *ild1 t mu/ be play$ ) & humor$1 to keep x quiet till x falls asleep1 & !n ! c>e is ov]407#ac7 ,?is is a complex1 a t5d]1 a submissive1 & a graceful /ate ( m9d4 ,= myself1 ,i %\ld h no objection to call+ x on ! :ole a religi\s /ate ( m9d1 al?\gh ,i d>e say t to _m ( y x may seem too li/less & halfhe>t$ to m]it s good a "n4 ,b :at matt]s x 9 ! end :e!r we call su* a /ate ( m9d religi\s or n8 ,x is too insignificant = our in/ruction 9 any case2 & its v possessor wrote x d[n 9 t]ms :i* he w\ld n h us$ unless he _h be5 ?9k+ ( m en]getically religi\s moods 9 o!rs1 ) :i* he f\nd himself unable to compete4 ,x is ) ^! m en]getic /ates t our sole bus9ess lies1 & we c p]fectly well af=d to let ! m9or notes & ! unc]ta9 bord] g4 ,x 0 ! extrem] cases t ,i _h 9 m9d a little :ile ago :5 ,i said t p]sonal religion1 ev5 )\t !ology or ritual1 w\ld prove to embody "s elem5ts t morality pure & simple does n conta94 ,y may rememb] t ,i promis$ %ortly to po9t out :at ^? elem5ts 74 ,9 a g5]al way ,i c n[ say :at ,i _h 9 m9d4 8,i accept ! univ]se0 is report$ to h be5 a favorite utt]ance ( our ,new ,engl& transc5d5tali/1 ,m>g>et ,full]2 & :5 "s "o repeat$ ?is phrase to ,?omas ,c>lyle1 8 s>donic comm5t is said to h be53 8,gad6 %e'd bett]60 ,at bottom ! :ole conc]n ( bo? morality & religion is ) ! mann] ( our acceptance ( ! univ]se4 ,d we accept x only 9 "p & grudg+ly1 or he>tily & altoge!r8 ,%all our prote/s aga9/ c]ta9 ?+s 9 x be radical & un=giv+1 or %all we ?9k t1 ev5 ) evil1 !re are ways ( liv+ t mu/ lead to good8 ,if we accept ! :ole1 %all we d s z if /unn$ into submission1--z ,c>lyle w\ld h u--8,gad6 we'd bett]60--or %all we d s ) en?usia/ic ass5t8 ,morality pure & simple accepts ! law ( ! :ole :i* x f9ds reign+1 s f> z to ackn[l$ge & obey x1 b x may obey x ) ! heavie/ & colde/ he>t1 & nev] cease to feel x z a yoke4 ,b = religion1 9 its /rong & fully develop$ manife/ations1 ! s]vice ( ! highe/ nev] is felt z a yoke4 ,dull submission is left f> beh9d1 & a mood ( welcome1 :i* may fill any place on ! scale betwe5 *e]ful s]5ity & en?usia/ic gladness1 has tak5 its place4 ,x makes a trem5d\s emotional & practical diff]5ce to "o :e!r "o accept ! univ]se 9 ! drab discolor$ way ( /oic resignation to necessity1 or ) ! passionate happ9ess ( ,*ri/ian sa9ts4 ,! diff]5ce is z great z t betwe5 passivity & activity1 z t betwe5 ! def5sive & ! aggressive mood4 ,gradual z are ! /eps by :i* an individual may gr[ f "o /ate into ! o!r1 _m z are ! int]m$iate /ages :i* diff]5t individuals repres5t1 yet :5 y place ! typical extremes beside ea* o!r = comp>ison1 y feel t two discont9u\s psy*ological univ]ses confront y1 & t 9 pass+ f "o to ! o!r a 8critical po9t0 has be5 ov]come4 ,if we comp>e /oic ) ,*ri/ian ejaculations we see mu* m ?an a diff]5ce ( doctr9e2 r is x a diff]5ce ( emotional mood t p>ts !m4 ,:5 ,m>cus ,aurelius reflects on ! et]nal reason t has ord]$ ?+s1 !re is a fro/y *ill ab\t 8 words :i* y r>ely f9d 9 a ,jewi%1 & nev] 9 a ,*ri/ian piece ( religi\s writ+4 ,! univ]se is 8accept$0 by all ^! writ]s2 b h[ devoid ( passion or exultation ! _s ( ! ,roman ,emp]or is6 ,comp>e 8 f9e s5t5ce3 8,if gods c>e n = me or my *ildr51 "h is a reason = x10 ) ,job's cry3 8,?\gh he slay me1 yet w ,i tru/ 9 him60 & y imm$iately see ! diff]5ce ,i mean4 ,! anima mundi1 to ^: disposal ( 8 own p]sonal de/9y ! ,/oic cons5ts1 is !re to be respect$ & submitt$ to1 b ! ,*ri/ian ,god is !re to be lov$2 & ! diff]5ce ( emotional atmosph]e is l t betwe5 an arctic climate & ! tropics1 ?\gh ! outcome 9 ! way ( accept+ actual conditions uncompla9+ly may seem 9 ab/ract t]ms to be mu* ! same4 8,x is a man's duty10 says ,m>cus ,aurelius1 8to com=t himself & wait = ! natural dissolution1 & n to be vex$1 b to f9d refre%m5t solely 9 ^! ?\ghts--fir/ t no?+ w happ5 to me :i* is n con=mable to ! nature ( ! univ]se2 & secondly t ,i ne$ d no?+ contr>y to ! ,god & deity )9 me2 = !re is no man :o c compel me to transgress47#ad7 ,he is an abscess on ! univ]se :o )draws & sep>ates himself f ! reason ( our common nature1 ?r\gh be+ displeas$ ) ! ?+s :i* happ54 ,= ! same nature produces ^!1 & has produc$ !e too4 ,& s accept ev]y?+ :i* happ5s1 ev5 if x seem disagreeable1 because x leads to ?is1 ! heal? ( ! univ]se & to ! prosp]ity & felicity ( ,zeus4 ,= he w\ld n h br\ght on any man :at he has br\ght1 if x 7 n useful = ! :ole4 ,! integrity ( ! :ole is mutilat$ if ?\ cutte/ (f any?+4 ,& ?\ do/ cut (f1 z f> z x is 9 ?y p[]1 :5 ?\ art dissatisfi$1 & 9 a mann] trie/ to put any?+ out ( ! way407#ae7 ,comp>e n[ ?is mood ) t ( ! old ,*ri/ian au?or ( ! ,!ologia ,g]manica3-- 8,:]e m5 are enlight5$ ) ! true light1 !y r5\nce all desire & *oice1 & commit & comm5d !mselves & all ?+s to ! et]nal ,goodness1 s t e enlight5$ man c\ld say3 #8,i w\ld fa9 be to ! ,et]nal ,goodness :at 8 own h& is to a man4' ,su* m5 are 9 a /ate ( fre$om1 because !y h lo/ ! fe> ( pa9 or hell1 & ! hope ( rew>d or heav51 & are liv+ 9 pure submission to ! et]nal ,goodness1 9 ! p]fect fre$om ( f]v5t love4 ,:5 a man truly p]ceive? & consid]e? himself1 :o & :at he is1 & f9de? himself utt]ly vile & wick$ & unwor?y1 he falle? into su* a deep abasem5t t x seeme? to him reasonable t all creatures 9 heav5 & e>? %\ld rise up aga9/ him4 ,& !re=e he w n & d>e n desire any consolation & release2 b he is will+ to be unconsol$ & unreleas$2 & he do? n grieve ov] 8 suff]+s1 = !y are "r 9 8 eyes1 & he ha? no?+ to say aga9/ !m4 ,?is is :at is meant by true rep5tance = s92 & he :o 9 ?is pres5t "t ent]e? into ?is hell1 none may console him4 ,n[ ,god ha? n =sak5 a man 9 ?is hell1 b ,he is lay+ 8 h& ^u him1 t ! man may n desire nor reg>d any?+ b ! et]nal ,good only4 ,& !n1 :5 ! man nei!r c>e? = nor desire? any?+ b ! et]nal ,good alone1 & seeke? n himself nor 8 own ?+s1 b ! hon\r ( ,god only1 he is made a p>tak] ( all mann] ( joy1 bliss1 peace1 re/1 & consolation1 & s ! man is h5ce=? 9 ! k+dom ( heav54 ,?is hell & ?is heav5 are two good safe ways = a man1 & happy is he :o truly f9de? !m407#af7 ,h[ mu* m active & positive ! impulse ( ! ,*ri/ian writ] to accept 8 place 9 ! univ]se is6 ,m>cus ,aurelius agrees to ! s*eme--! ,g]man !ologian agrees ) x4 ,he lit]ally ab\nds 9 agreem5t1 he runs out to embrace ! div9e decrees4 ,occasionally1 x is true1 ! ,/oic rises to some?+ l a ,*ri/ian w>m? ( s5tim5t1 z 9 ! (t5 quot$ passage ( ,m>cus ,aurelius3-- 8,ev]y?+ h>monizes ) me :i* is h>moni\s to !e1 ,o ,univ]se4 ,no?+ = me is too e>ly nor too late1 :i* is 9 due "t = !e4 ,ev]y?+ is fruit to me :i* ?y seasons br+1 ,o ,nature3 f !e are all ?+s1 9 !e are all ?+s1 to !e all ?+s return4 ,! poet says1 ,de> ,city ( ,cecrops2 & wilt ?\ n say1 ,de> ,city ( ,zeus807#ag7 ,b comp>e ev5 z dev\t a passage z ?is ) a g5u9e ,*ri/ian outp\r+1 & x seems a little cold4 ,turn1 = in/ance1 to ! ,imitation ( ,*ri/3-- 8,"l1 ?\ kn[e/ :at is be/2 let ?is or t be accord+ z ?\ wilt4 ,give :at ?\ wilt1 s mu* z ?\ wilt1 :5 ?\ wilt4 ,d ) me z ?\ kn[e/ be/1 & z %all be mo/ to ?9e hon\r4 ,place me :]e ?\ wilt1 & freely "w ?y w ) me 9 all ?+s4444 ,:5 c\ld x be evil :5 ?\ w]t ne>8 ,i _h r be poor = ?y sake ?an ri* )\t !e4 ,i *oose r to be a pilgrim ^u ! e>? ) !e1 ?an )\t !e to possess heav54 ,:]e ?\ art1 !re is heav52 & :]e ?\ art n1 behold !re dea? & hell407#ah7 ,x is a good rule 9 physiology1 :5 we are /udy+ ! mean+ ( an organ1 to ask aft] its mo/ peculi> & *>act]i/ic sort ( p]=mance1 & to seek its (fice 9 t "o ( its functions :i* no o!r organ c possibly ex]t4 ,surely ! same maxim holds good 9 our pres5t que/4 ,! ess5ce ( religi\s exp]i5ces1 ! ?+ by :i* we f9ally mu/ judge !m1 mu/ be t elem5t or quality 9 !m :i* we c meet n[h]e else4 ,& su* a quality w be ( c\rse mo/ prom95t & easy to notice 9 ^? religi\s exp]i5ces :i* are mo/ "o sid$1 exagg]at$1 & int5se4 ,n[ :5 we comp>e ^! int5s] exp]i5ces ) ! exp]i5ces ( tam] m9ds1 s cool & reasonable t we are tempt$ to call !m philosophical r ?an religi\s1 we f9d a "* t is p]fectly di/9ct4 ,t "*1 x seems to me1 %\ld be reg>d$ z ! practically important diff]5tia ( religion = our purpose2 & j :at x is c easily be br\ght out by comp>+ ! m9d ( an ab/ractly conceiv$ ,*ri/ian ) t ( a morali/ simil>ly conceiv$4 ,a life is manly1 /oical1 moral1 or philosophical1 we say1 9 proportion z x is less sway$ by paltry p]sonal consid]ations & m by objective ends t call = en]gy1 ev5 ?\gh t en]gy br+ p]sonal loss & pa94 ,?is is ! good side ( w>1 9 s f> z x calls = 8volunte]s40 ,& = morality life is a w>1 & ! s]vice ( ! highe/ is a sort ( cosmic patriotism :i* also calls = volunte]s4 ,ev5 a sick man1 unable to be militant outw>dly1 c c>ry on ! moral w>f>e4 ,he c willfully turn 8 att5tion away f 8 own future1 :e!r 9 ?is _w or ! next4 ,he c tra9 himself to indiff]5ce to 8 pres5t drawbacks & imm]se himself 9 :atev] objective int]e/s /ill rema9 accessible4 ,he c foll[ public news1 & sympa?ize ) o!r p's affairs4 ,he c cultivate *e]ful mann]s1 & be sil5t ab\t 8 mis]ies4 ,he c contemplate :atev] ideal aspects ( exi/5ce 8 philosophy is able to pres5t to him1 & practice :atev] duties1 su* z pati5ce1 resignation1 tru/1 8 e?ical sy/em requires4 ,su* a man lives on 8 l(tie/1 l>ge/ plane4 ,he is a highhe>t$ freeman & no p9+ slave4 ,& yet he lacks some?+ :i* ! ,*ri/ian p> excell5ce1 ! my/ic & ascetic sa9t1 = example1 has 9 abundant measure1 & :i* makes ( him a human be+ ( an altoge!r diff]5t d5om9ation4 ,! ,*ri/ian also spurns ! p9*$ & mump+ sickroom attitude1 & ! lives ( sa9ts are full ( a k9d ( call\sness to diseas$ conditions ( body :i* probably no o!r human records %[4 ,b :]eas ! m]ely morali/ic spurn+ takes an ef=t ( volition1 ! ,*ri/ian spurn+ is ! result ( ! excitem5t ( a high] k9d ( emotion1 9 ! pres5ce ( :i* no ex]tion ( volition is requir$4 ,! morali/ mu/ hold 8 brea? & keep 8 muscles t5se2 & s long z ?is a?letic attitude is possible all goes well--morality suffices4 ,b ! a?letic attitude t5ds ev] to break d[n1 & x inevitably does break d[n ev5 9 ! mo/ /alw>t :5 ! organism beg9s to decay1 or :5 morbid fe>s invade ! m9d4 ,to sugge/ p]sonal w & ef=t to "o all sickli$ o'er ) ! s5se ( irrem$iable impot5ce is to sugge/ ! mo/ impossible ( ?+s4 ,:at he craves is to be consol$ 9 8 v p[]lessness1 to feel t ! _s ( ! univ]se recognizes & secures him1 all decay+ & fail+ z he is4 ,well1 we are all su* helpless failures 9 ! la/ resort4 ,! sane/ & be/ ( u are ( "o clay ) lunatics & prison inmates1 & dea? f9ally runs ! robu/e/ ( u d[n4 ,& :5ev] we feel ?is1 su* a s5se ( ! vanity & provisionality ( our volunt>y c>e] comes ov] u t all our morality appe>s b z a pla/] hid+ a sore x c nev] cure1 & all our welldo+ z ! holl[e/ sub/itute = t wellbe+ t our lives ought to be gr\nd$ 91 b1 alas6 are n4 ,& "h religion comes to our rescue & takes our fate into h] h&s4 ,!re is a /ate ( m9d1 kn[n to religi\s m51 b to no o!rs1 9 :i* ! w to ass]t ourselves & hold our own has be5 displac$ by a will+ness to close our m\?s & be z no?+ 9 ! floods & wat]sp\ts ( ,god4 ,9 ?is /ate ( m9d1 :at we mo/ dread$ has become ! habitation ( our safety1 & ! h\r ( our moral dea? has turn$ into our spiritual bir?day4 ,! "t = t5sion 9 our s\l is ov]1 & t ( happy relaxation1 ( calm deep brea?+1 ( an et]nal pres5t1 ) no discordant future to be anxi\s ab\t1 has arriv$4 ,fe> is n held 9 abeyance z x is by m]e morality1 x is positively expung$ & wa%$ away4 ,we %all see abundant examples ( ?is happy /ate ( m9d 9 lat] lectures ( ?is c\rse4 ,we %all see h[ inf9itely passionate a ?+ religion at its highe/ flights c be4 ,l love1 l wra?1 l hope1 ambition1 jeal\sy1 l e o!r in/9ctive eag]ness & impulse1 x adds to life an en*antm5t :i* is n rationally or logically d$ucible f any?+ else4 ,?is en*antm5t1 com+ z a gift :5 x does come1--a gift ( our organism1 ! physiologi/s w tell u1 a gift ( ,god's grace1 ! !ologians say1--is ei!r !re or n !re = u1 & !re are p]sons :o c no m become possess$ by x ?an !y c fall 9 love ) a giv5 woman by m]e ^w ( comm&4 ,religi\s feel+ is ?us an absolute addition to ! ,subject's range ( life4 ,x gives him a new sph]e ( p[]4 ,:5 ! outw>d battle is lo/1 & ! out] _w dis[ns him1 x r$eems & vivifies an int]ior _w :i* o!rwise w\ld be an empty wa/e4 ,if religion is to mean any?+ def9ite = u1 x seems to me t we ought to take x z mean+ ?is add$ dim5sion ( emotion1 ?is en?usia/ic temp] ( esp\sal1 9 regions :]e morality /rictly s call$ c at be/ b b[ its head & acquiesce4 ,x ought to mean no?+ %ort ( ?is new rea* ( fre$om = u1 ) ! /ruggle ov]1 ! keynote ( ! univ]se s\nd+ 9 our e>s1 & ev]la/+ possession spread be=e our eyes47#ai7 ,?is sort ( happ9ess 9 ! absolute & ev]la/+ is :at we f9d n[h]e b 9 religion4 ,x is p>t$ (f f all m]e animal happ9ess1 all m]e enjoym5t ( ! pres5t1 by t elem5t ( solemnity ( :i* ,i h already made s mu* acc\nt4 ,solemnity is a h>d ?+ to def9e ab/ractly1 b c]ta9 ( its m>ks are pat5t en\gh4 ,a solemn /ate ( m9d is nev] crude or simple--x seems to conta9 a c]ta9 measure ( its own opposite 9 solution4 ,a solemn joy pres]ves a sort ( bitt] 9 its sweetness2 a solemn sorr[ is "o to :i* we intimately cons5t4 ,b !re are writ]s :o1 realiz+ t happ9ess ( a supreme sort is ! pr]ogative ( religion1 =get ?is complication1 & call all happ9ess1 z su*1 religi\s4 ,mr4 ,havelock ,ellis1 = example1 id5tifies religion ) ! entire field ( ! s\l's lib]ation f oppressive moods4 8,! simple/ functions ( physiological life10 he writes1 8may be its m9i/]s4 ,e "o :o is at all acqua9t$ ) ! ,p]sian my/ics kn[s h[ w9e may be reg>d$ z an in/rum5t ( religion4 ,inde$1 9 all c\ntries & 9 all ages1 "s =m ( physical enl>gem5t--s++1 danc+1 dr9k+1 sexual excitem5t--has be5 intimately associat$ ) wor%ip4 ,ev5 ! mom5t>y expansion ( ! s\l 9 laught] is1 to h[ev] slight an ext5t1 a religi\s ex]cise4444 ,:5ev] an impulse f ! _w /rikes aga9/ ! organism1 & ! resultant is n discom=t or pa91 n ev5 ! muscul> contraction ( /r5u\s manhood1 b a joy\s expansion or aspiration ( ! :ole s\l--!re is religion4 ,x is ! inf9ite = :i* we hung]1 & we ride gladly on e little wave t promises to be> u t[>ds x407#bj7 ,b su* a /raight id5tification ( religion ) any & e =m ( happ9ess leaves ! ess5tial peculi>ity ( religi\s happ9ess out4 ,! m commonplace happ9esses :i* we get are 8reliefs10 occasion$ by our mom5t>y escapes f evils ei!r exp]i5c$ or ?reat5$4 ,b 9 its mo/ *>act]i/ic embodim5ts1 religi\s happ9ess is no m]e feel+ ( escape4 ,x c>es no long] to escape4 ,x cons5ts to ! evil outw>dly z a =m ( sacrifice--inw>dly x kn[s x to be p]man5tly ov]come4 ,if y ask h[ religion ?us falls on ! ?orns & faces dea?1 & 9 ! v act annuls annihilation1 ,i _c expla9 ! matt]1 = x is religion's secret1 & to und]/& x y mu/ y\rself h be5 a religi\s man ( ! extrem] type4 ,9 our future examples1 ev5 ( ! simple/ & heal?ie/m9d$ type ( religi\s consci\sness1 we %all f9d ?is complex sacrificial con/itution1 9 :i* a high] happ9ess holds a l[] unhapp9ess 9 *eck4 ,9 ! ,l\vre !re is a picture1 by ,guido ,r5i1 ( ,/4 ,mi*ael ) 8 foot on ,satan's neck4 ,! ri*ness ( ! picture is 9 l>ge "p due to ! fi5d's figure be+ !re4 ,! ri*ness ( its allegorical mean+ also is due to 8 be+ !re--t is1 ! _w is all ! ri*] = hav+ a devil 9 x1 s long z we keep our foot ^u 8 neck4 ,9 ! religi\s consci\sness1 t is j ! position 9 :i* ! fi5d1 ! negative or tragic pr9ciple1 is f\nd2 & = t v reason ! religi\s consci\sness is s ri* f ! emotional po9t ( view47#ba7 ,we %all see h[ 9 c]ta9 m5 & wom5 x takes on a mon/r\sly ascetic =m4 ,!re are sa9ts :o h lit]ally f$ on ! negative pr9ciple1 on humiliation & privation1 & ! ?\ght ( suff]+ & dea?1--_! s\ls gr[+ 9 happ9ess j 9 proportion z _! outw>d /ate grew m intol]able4 ,no o!r emotion ?an religi\s emotion c br+ a man to ?is peculi> pass4 ,& x is = t reason t :5 we ask our "q ab\t ! value ( religion = human life1 ,i ?9k we ought to look = ! answ] among ^! viol5t] examples r ?an among ^? ( a m mod]ate hue4 ,hav+ ! ph5om5on ( our /udy 9 its acute/ possible =m to />t )1 we c %ade d[n z mu* z we please lat]4 ,& if 9 ^! cases1 repulsive z !y are to our ord9>y worldly way ( judg+1 we f9d ourselves compell$ to ackn[l$ge religion's value & treat x ) respect1 x w h prov$ 9 "s way its value = life at l>ge4 ,by subtract+ & ton+ d[n extravagances we may !reupon proce$ to trace ! b\nd>ies ( its legitimate sway4 ,to be sure1 x makes our task difficult to h to deal s mu* ) ecc5tricities & extremes4 8,h[ c religion on ! :ole be ! mo/ important ( all human functions10 y may ask1 8if e sev]al manife/ation ( x 9 turn h to be correct$ & sob]$ d[n & prun$ away80 ,su* a !sis seems a p>adox impossible to su/a9 reasonably1--yet ,i believe t some?+ l x w h to be our f9al cont5tion4 ,t p]sonal attitude :i* ! individual f9ds himself impell$ to take up t[>ds :at he appreh5ds to be ! div9e--& y w rememb] t ?is 0 our def9ition--w prove to be bo? a helpless & a sacrificial attitude4 ,t is1 we %all h to confess to at lea/ "s am\nt ( dep5d5ce on %e] m]cy1 & to practice "s am\nt ( r5unciation1 great or small1 to save our s\ls alive4 ,! con/itution ( ! _w we live 9 requires x3-- 8,entbehr5 soll/ du6 soll/ entbehr56 ,das i/ d] ewige ,gesang ,d] j$em an die ,ohr5 kl+t1 ,d51 uns] ganzes ,leb5 lang ,uns heis] j$e ,/unde s+t40 ,= :5 all is said & done1 we are 9 ! end absolutely dep5d5t on ! univ]se2 & into sacrifices & surr5d]s ( "s sort1 delib]ately look$ at & accept$1 we are drawn & press$ z into our only p]man5t positions ( repose4 ,n[ 9 ^? /ates ( m9d :i* fall %ort ( religion1 ! surr5d] is submitt$ to z an imposition ( necessity1 & ! sacrifice is und]gone at ! v be/ )\t compla9t4 ,9 ! religi\s life1 on ! contr>y1 surr5d] & sacrifice are positively esp\s$3 ev5 unnecess>y giv+sup are add$ 9 ord] t ! happ9ess may increase4 ,religion ?us makes easy & felicit\s :at 9 any case is necess>y2 & if x be ! only ag5cy t c accompli% ?is result1 its vital importance z a human faculty /&s v9dicat$ beyond dispute4 ,x becomes an ess5tial organ ( our life1 p]=m+ a function :i* no o!r portion ( our nature c s successfully fulfill4 ,f ! m]ely biological po9t ( view1 s to call x1 ?is is a conclusion to :i*1 s f> z ,i c n[ see1 we %all inevitably be l$1 & l$ moreov] by foll[+ ! purely empirical me?od ( demon/ration :i* ,i sket*$ to y 9 ! fir/ lecture4 ,( ! f>!r (fice ( religion z a metaphysical revelation ,i w say no?+ n[4 ,b to =e%ad[ ! t]m9us ( "o's inve/igations is "o ?+1 & to arrive !re safely is ano!r4 ,9 ! next lecture1 ab&on+ ! extreme g5]alities :i* h engross$ u hi!rto1 ,i propose t we beg9 our actual j\rney by address+ ourselves directly to ! concrete facts4 ,,lecture ,,iii4 ,,! ,,reality ,,( ,,! ,,unse54 ,7 "o ask$ to *>act]ize ! life ( religion 9 ! broade/ & mo/ g5]al t]ms possible1 "o might say t x consi/s ( ! belief t !re is an unse5 ord]1 & t our supreme good lies 9 h>moni\sly adju/+ ourselves !reto4 ,?is belief & ?is adju/m5t are ! religi\s attitude 9 ! s\l4 ,i wi% dur+ ?is h\r to call y\r att5tion to "s ( ! psy*ological peculi>ities ( su* an attitude z ?is1 ( belief 9 an object :i* we _c see4 ,all our attitudes1 moral1 practical1 or emotional1 z well z religi\s1 are due to ! 8objects0 ( our consci\sness1 ! ?+s :i* we believe to exi/1 :e!r really or ideally1 along ) ourselves4 ,su* objects may be pres5t to our s5ses1 or !y may be pres5t only to our ?\ght4 ,9 ei!r case !y elicit f u a reaction2 & ! reaction due to ?+s ( ?\ght is notori\sly 9 _m cases z /rong z t due to s5sible pres5ces4 ,x may be ev5 /rong]4 ,! memory ( an insult may make u angri] ?an ! insult did :5 we receiv$ x4 ,we are frequ5tly m a%am$ ( our blund]s aft]w>ds ?an we 7 at ! mom5t ( mak+ !m2 & 9 g5]al our :ole high] prud5tial & moral life is bas$ on ! fact t mat]ial s5sations actually pres5t may h a weak] influ5ce on our action ?an ideas ( remot] facts4 ,! m concrete objects ( mo/ m5's religion1 ! deities :om !y wor%ip1 are kn[n to !m only 9 idea4 ,x has be5 v\*saf$1 = example1 to v few ,*ri/ian believ]s to h _h a s5sible vision ( _! ,savi\r2 ?\gh en\gh appe>ances ( ?is sort are on record1 by way ( miracul\s exception1 to m]it our att5tion lat]4 ,! :ole =ce ( ! ,*ri/ian religion1 !re=e1 s f> z belief 9 ! div9e p]sonages det]m9es ! preval5t attitude ( ! believ]1 is 9 g5]al ex]t$ by ! in/rum5tality ( pure ideas1 ( :i* no?+ 9 ! individual's pa/ exp]i5ce directly s]ves z a model4 ,b 9 addition to ^! ideas ( ! m concrete religi\s objects1 religion is full ( ab/ract objects :i* prove to h an equal p[]4 ,god's attributes z su*1 8 hol9ess1 8 ju/ice1 8 m]cy1 8 absolut5ess1 8 inf9ity1 8 omnisci5ce1 8 triunity1 ! v>i\s my/]ies ( ! r$emptive process1 ! op]ation ( ! sacram5ts1 etc41 h prov$ f]tile wells ( inspir+ m$itation = ,*ri/ian believ]s47#bb7 ,we %all see lat] t ! abs5ce ( def9ite s5sible images is positively insi/$ on by ! my/ical au?orities 9 all religions z ! s9e qua non ( a successful orison1 or contemplation ( ! high] div9e tru?s4 ,su* contemplations are expect$ 7& abundantly v]ify ! expectation1 z we %all also see7 to influ5ce ! believ]'s subsequ5t attitude v p[]fully = good4 ,immanuel ,kant held a curi\s doctr9e ab\t su* objects ( belief z ,god1 ! design ( creation1 ! s\l1 its fre$om1 & ! life h]eaft]4 ,^! ?+s1 he said1 are prop]ly n objects ( k at all4 ,our conceptions always require a s5secont5t to "w )1 & z ! words 8s\l10 8,god10 8immortality10 cov] no di/9ctive s5secont5t :atev]1 x foll[s t !oretically speak+ !y are words devoid ( any significance4 ,yet /rangely en\gh !y h a def9ite mean+ = our practice4 ,we c act z if !re 7 a ,god2 feel z if we 7 free2 consid] ,nature z if %e 7 full ( special designs2 lay plans z if we 7 to be immortal2 & we f9d !n t ^! words d make a g5u9e diff]5ce 9 our moral life4 ,our fai? t ^! un9telligible objects actually exi/ proves ?us to be a full equival5t 9 praktis*] ,h9si*t1 z ,kant calls x1 or f ! po9t ( view ( our action1 = a k ( :at !y might be1 9 case we 7 p]mitt$ positively to conceive !m4 ,s we h ! /range ph5om5on1 z ,kant assures u1 ( a m9d believ+ ) all its /r5g? 9 ! real pres5ce ( a set ( ?+s ( no "o ( :i* x c =m any notion :atsoev]4 ,my object 9 ?us recall+ ,kant's doctr9e to y\r m9d is n to express any op9ion z to ! accuracy ( ?is p>ticul>ly unc\? "p ( 8 philosophy1 b only to illu/rate ! *>act]i/ic ( human nature :i* we are consid]+1 by an example s classical 9 its exagg]ation4 ,! s5tim5t ( reality c inde$ atta* itself s /rongly to our object ( belief t our :ole life is pol>iz$ ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 s to speak1 by its s5se ( ! exi/5ce ( ! ?+ believ$ 91 & yet t ?+1 = purpose ( def9ite description1 c h>dly be said to be pres5t to our m9d at all4 ,x is z if a b> ( iron1 )\t t\* or sight1 ) no repres5tative faculty :atev]1 might nev]!less be /rongly end[$ ) an inn] capacity = magnetic feel+2 & z if1 ?r\gh ! v>i\s ar\sals ( its magnetism by magnets com+ & go+ 9 its neighborhood1 x might be consci\sly det]m9$ to diff]5t attitudes & t5d5cies4 ,su* a b> ( iron c\ld nev] give y an outw>d description ( ! ag5cies t _h ! p[] ( /irr+ x s /rongly2 yet ( _! pres5ce1 & ( _! significance = its life1 x w\ld be int5sely aw>e ?r\gh e fibre ( its be+4 ,x is n only ! ,ideas ( pure ,reason1 z ,kant /yl$ !m1 t h ?is p[] ( mak+ u vitally feel pres5ces t we are impot5t articulately to describe4 ,all sorts ( high] ab/ractions br+ ) !m ! same k9d ( impalpable appeal4 ,rememb] ^? passages f ,em]son :i* ,i read at my la/ lecture4 ,! :ole univ]se ( concrete objects1 z we "k !m1 swims1 n only = su* a transc5d5tali/ writ]1 b = all ( u1 9 a wid] & high] univ]se ( ab/ract ideas1 t l5d x its significance4 ,z "t1 space1 & ! e!r soak ?r\gh all ?+s1 s 7we feel7 d ab/ract & ess5tial goodness1 beauty1 /r5g?1 significance1 ju/ice1 soak ?r\gh all ?+s good1 /rong1 significant1 & j4 ,su* ideas1 & o!rs equally ab/ract1 =m ! backgr\nd = all our facts1 ! f\nta9head ( all ! possibilities we conceive (4 ,!y give its 8nature10 z we call x1 to e special ?+4 ,ev]y?+ we "k is 8:at0 x is by %>+ 9 ! nature ( "o ( ^! ab/ractions4 ,we c nev] look directly at !m1 = !y are bodiless & featureless & footless1 b we grasp all o!r ?+s by _! means1 & 9 h&l+ ! real _w we %\ld be /rick5 ) helplessness 9 j s f> =? z we might lose ^! m5tal objects1 ^! adjectives & adv]bs & pr$icates & heads ( classification & conception4 ,?is absolute det]m9ability ( our m9d by ab/ractions is "o ( ! c>d9al facts 9 our human con/itution4 ,pol>iz+ & magnetiz+ u z !y d1 we turn t[>ds !m & f !m1 we seek !m1 hold !m1 hate !m1 bless !m1 j z if !y 7 s _m concrete be+s4 ,& be+s !y are1 be+s z real 9 ! realm :i* !y inhabit z ! *ang+ ?+s ( s5se are 9 ! realm ( space4 ,plato gave s brilliant & impressive a def5se ( ?is common human feel+1 t ! doctr9e ( ! reality ( ab/ract objects has be5 kn[n z ! platonic !ory ( ideas ev] s9ce4 ,ab/ract ,beauty1 = example1 is = ,plato a p]fectly def9ite individual be+1 ( :i* ! intellect is aw>e z ( some?+ additional to all ! p]i%+ beauties ( ! e>?4 8,! true ord] ( go+10 he says1 9 ! (t5 quot$ passage 9 8 8,banquet10 8is to use ! beauties ( e>? z /eps along :i* "o m\nts upw>ds = ! sake ( t o!r ,beauty1 go+ f "o to two1 & f two to all fair =ms1 & f fair =ms to fair actions1 & f fair actions to fair notions1 until f fair notions he arrives at ! notion ( absolute ,beauty1 & at la/ kn[s :at ! ess5ce ( ,beauty is407#bc7 ,9 our la/ lecture we _h a glimpse ( ! way 9 :i* a platoniz+ writ] l ,em]son may treat ! ab/ract div95ess ( ?+s1 ! moral /ructure ( ! univ]se1 z a fact wor?y ( wor%ip4 ,9 ^? v>i\s *ur*es )\t a ,god :i* to day are spread+ ?r\gh ! _w "u ! "n ( e?ical societies1 we h a simil> wor%ip ( ! ab/ract div9e1 ! moral law believ$ 9 z an ultimate object4 8,sci5ce0 9 _m m9ds is g5u9ely tak+ ! place ( a religion4 ,:]e ?is is s1 ! sci5ti/ treats ! 8,laws ( ,nature0 z objective facts to be rev]$4 ,a brilliant s*ool ( int]pretation ( ,greek my?ology w\ld h x t 9 _! orig9 ! ,greek gods 7 only halfmetaphoric p]sonifications ( ^? great sph]es ( ab/ract law & ord] into :i* ! natural _w falls ap>t--! skysph]e1 ! oceansph]e1 ! e>?sph]e1 & ! l2 j z ev5 n[ we may speak ( ! smile ( ! morn+1 ! kiss ( ! breeze1 or ! bite ( ! cold1 )\t really mean+ t ^! ph5om5a ( nature actually we> a human face47#bd7 ,z reg>ds ! orig9 ( ! ,greek gods1 we ne$ n at pres5t seek an op9ion4 ,b ! :ole array ( our in/ances leads to a conclusion some?+ l ?is3 ,x is z if !re 7 9 ! human consci\sness a s5se ( reality1 a feel+ ( objective pres5ce1 a p]ception ( :at we may call 8some?+ !re10 m deep & m g5]al ?an any ( ! special & p>ticul> 8s5ses0 by :i* ! curr5t psy*ology supposes exi/5t realities to be orig9ally reveal$4 ,if ?is 7 s1 we might suppose ! s5ses to wak5 our attitudes & conduct z !y s habitually d1 by fir/ excit+ ?is s5se ( reality2 b any?+ else1 any idea1 = example1 t might simil>ly excite x1 w\ld h t same pr]ogative ( appe>+ real :i* objects ( s5se normally possess4 ,s f> z religi\s conceptions 7 able to t\* ?is reality feel+1 !y w\ld be believ$ 9 9 spite ( criticism1 ev5 ?\gh !y might be s vague & remote z to be almo/ unimag9able1 ev5 ?\gh !y might be su* nonentities 9 po9t ( :atness1 z ,kant makes ! objects ( 8 moral !ology to be4 ,! mo/ curi\s pro(s ( ! exi/5ce ( su* an undiff]5tiat$ s5se ( reality z ?is are f\nd 9 exp]i5ces ( halluc9ation4 ,x (t5 happ5s t an halluc9ation is imp]fectly develop$3 ! p]son affect$ w feel a 8pres5ce0 9 ! room1 def9itely localiz$1 fac+ 9 "o p>ticul> way1 real 9 ! mo/ emphatic s5se ( ! ^w1 (t5 com+ sudd5ly1 & z sudd5ly gone2 & yet nei!r se51 he>d1 t\*$1 nor cogniz$ 9 any ( ! usual 8s5sible0 ways4 ,let me give y an example ( ?is1 be=e ,i pass to ! objects ) ^: pres5ce religion is m peculi>ly conc]n$4 ,an intimate fri5d ( m9e1 "o ( ! ke5e/ intellects ,i "k1 has _h sev]al exp]i5ces ( ?is sort4 ,he writes z foll[s 9 response to my inquiries3-- 8,i h sev]al times )9 ! pa/ few ye>s felt ! scall$ #8consci\sness ( a pres5ce4' ,! exp]i5ces :i* ,i h 9 m9d are cle>ly di/+ui%able f ano!r k9d ( exp]i5ce :i* ,i h _h v frequ5tly1 & :i* ,i fancy _m p]sons w\ld also call ! #8consci\sness ( a pres5ce4' ,b ! diff]5ce = me betwe5 ! two sets ( exp]i5ce is z great z ! diff]5ce betwe5 feel+ a slight w>m? orig9at+ ,i "k n :]e1 & /&+ 9 ! mid/ ( a conflagration ) all ! ord9>y s5ses al]t4 8,x 0 ab\t ,septemb]1 #ahhd1 :5 ,i _h ! fir/ exp]i5ce4 ,on ! previ\s night ,i _h _h1 aft] gett+ into b$ at my rooms 9 ,college1 a vivid tactile halluc9ation ( be+ grasp$ by ! arm1 :i* made me get up & se>* ! room = an intrud]2 b ! s5se ( pres5ce prop]ly s call$ came on ! next night4 ,aft] ,i _h got into b$ & bl[n out ! c&le1 ,i lay awake a:ile ?9k+ on ! previ\s night's exp]i5ce1 :5 sudd5ly ,i felt some?+ come into ! room & /ay close to my b$4 ,x rema9$ only a m9ute or two4 ,i did n recognize x by any ord9>y s5se1 & yet !re 0 a horribly unpleasant #8s5sation' connect$ ) x4 ,x /irr$ some?+ m at ! roots ( my be+ ?an any ord9>y p]ception4 ,! feel+ _h some?+ ( ! quality ( a v l>ge te>+ vital pa9 spread+ *iefly ov] ! *e/1 b )9 ! organism--& yet ! feel+ 0 n pa9 s mu* z abhorr5ce4 ,at all ev5ts1 some?+ 0 pres5t ) me1 & ,i knew its pres5ce f> m surely ?an ,i h ev] kn[n ! pres5ce ( any fle%ly liv+ creature4 ,i 0 consci\s ( its dep>ture z ( its com+3 an almo/ in/antane\sly swift go+ ?r\gh ! door1 & ! #8horrible s5sation' disappe>$4 8,on ! ?ird night :5 ,i retir$ my m9d 0 absorb$ 9 "s lectures :i* ,i 0 prep>+1 & ,i 0 /ill absorb$ 9 ^! :5 ,i became aw>e ( ! actual pres5ce 7?\gh n ( ! com+7 ( ! ?+ t 0 !re ! night be=e1 & ( ! #8horrible s5sation4' ,i !n m5tally conc5trat$ all my ef=t to *>ge ?is #8?+1' if x 0 evil1 to dep>t1 if x 0 n evil1 to tell me :o or :at x 01 & if x c\ld n expla9 itself1 to g1 & t ,i w\ld compel x to g4 ,x w5t z on ! previ\s night1 & my body quickly recov]$ its normal /ate4 8,on two o!r occasions 9 my life ,i h _h precisely ! same #8horrible s5sation4' ,once x la/$ a full qu>t] ( an h\r4 ,9 all ?ree in/ances ! c]ta9ty t !re 9 outw>d space !re /ood some?+ 0 indescribably /rong] ?an ! ord9>y c]ta9ty ( companion%ip :5 we are 9 ! close pres5ce ( ord9>y liv+ p4 ,! some?+ seem$ close to me1 & int5sely m real ?an any ord9>y p]ception4 ,al?\gh ,i felt x to be l unto myself1 s to speak1 or f9ite1 small1 & di/ressful1 z x 71 ,i didn't recognize x z any individual be+ or p]son40 ,( c\rse su* an exp]i5ce z ?is does n connect itself ) ! religi\s sph]e4 ,yet x may ^u occasion d s2 & ! same correspond5t in=ms me t at m ?an "o o!r conjuncture he _h ! s5se ( pres5ce develop$ ) equal int5sity & abruptness1 only !n x 0 fill$ ) a quality ( joy4 8,!re 0 n a m]e consci\sness ( some?+ !re1 b fus$ 9 ! c5tral happ9ess ( x1 a />tl+ aw>5ess ( "s ineffable good4 ,n vague ei!r1 n l ! emotional effect ( "s poem1 or sc5e1 or blossom1 ( music1 b ! sure k ( ! close pres5ce ( a sort ( mighty p]son1 & aft] x w5t1 ! memory p]si/$ z ! "o p]ception ( reality4 ,ev]y?+ else might be a dream1 b n t40 ,my fri5d1 z x oddly happ5s1 does n int]pret ^! latt] exp]i5ces !i/ically1 z signify+ ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,b x w\ld cle>ly n h be5 unnatural to int]pret !m z a revelation ( ! deity's exi/5ce4 ,:5 we rea* ! subject ( my/icism1 we %all h mu* m to say ^u ?is head4 ,le/ ! oddity ( ^! ph5om5a %\ld disconc]t y1 ,i w v5ture to read y a c\ple ( simil> n>ratives1 mu* %ort]1 m]ely to %[ t we are deal+ ) a wellm>k$ natural k9d ( fact4 ,9 ! fir/ case1 :i* ,i take f ! ,j\rnal ( ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>*1 ! s5se ( pres5ce develop$ 9 a few mom5ts into a di/9ctly visualiz$ halluc9ation1--b ,i leave t "p ( ! /ory out4 8,i _h read10 ! n>rator says1 8"s tw5ty m9utes or s1 0 ?or\ghly absorb$ 9 ! book1 my m9d 0 p]fectly quiet1 & = ! "t be+ my fri5ds 7 q =gott51 :5 sudd5ly )\t a mom5t's w>n+ my :ole be+ seem$ r\s$ to ! highe/ /ate ( t5sion or aliv5ess1 & ,i 0 aw>e1 ) an int5s5ess n easily imag9$ by ^? :o _h nev] exp]i5c$ x1 t ano!r be+ or pres5ce 0 n only 9 ! room1 b q close to me4 ,i put my book d[n1 & al?\gh my excitem5t 0 great1 ,i felt q collect$1 & n consci\s ( any s5se ( fe>4 ,)\t *ang+ my position1 & look+ /raight at ! fire1 ,i knew someh[ t my fri5d ,a4 ,h4 0 /&+ at my left elb[1 b s f> beh9d me z to be hidd5 by ! arm*air 9 :i* ,i 0 lean+ back4 ,mov+ my eyes r\nd slightly )\t o!rwise *ang+ my position1 ! l[] portion ( "o leg became visible1 & ,i in/antly recogniz$ ! grayblue mat]ial ( tr\s]s he (t5 wore1 b ! /uff appe>$ semi transp>5t1 rem9d+ me ( tobacco smoke 9 consi/5cy107#be7--;& h]eupon ! visual halluc9ation came4 ,ano!r in=mant writes3-- 8,q e>ly 9 ! night ,i 0 awak5$4444 ,i felt z if ,i _h be5 ar\s$ int5tionally1 & at fir/ ?\ght "s "o 0 break+ into ! h\se4444 ,i !n turn$ on my side to g to sleep aga91 & imm$iately felt a consci\sness ( a pres5ce 9 ! room1 & s+ul> to /ate1 x 0 n ! consci\sness ( a live p]son1 b ( a spiritual pres5ce4 ,?is may provoke a smile1 b ,i c only tell y ! facts z !y occurr$ to me4 ,i d n "k h[ to bett] describe my s5sations ?an by simply /at+ t ,i felt a consci\sness ( a spiritual pres5ce4444 ,i felt also at ! same "t a /rong feel+ ( sup]/iti\s dread1 z if some?+ /range & fe>ful 7 ab\t to happ5407#bf7 ,pr(essor ,fl\rnoy ( ,g5eva gives me ! foll[+ te/imony ( a fri5d ( 81 a lady1 :o has ! gift ( automatic or involunt>y writ+3-- 8,:5ev] ,i practice automatic writ+1 :at makes me feel t x is n due to a subconsci\s self is ! feel+ ,i always h ( a =eign pres5ce1 ext]nal to my body4 ,x is sometimes s def9itely *>act]iz$ t ,i c\ld po9t to its exact position4 ,?is impression ( pres5ce is impossible to describe4 ,x v>ies 9 int5sity & cle>ness accord+ to ! p]sonality f :om ! writ+ pr(esses to come4 ,if x is "s "o :om ,i love1 ,i feel x imm$iately1 be=e any writ+ has come4 ,my he>t seems to recognize x40 ,9 an e>li] book ( m9e ,i h cit$ at full l5g? a curi\s case ( pres5ce felt by a bl9d man4 ,! pres5ce 0 t ( ! figure ( a graybe>d$ man dress$ 9 a pepp] & salt suit1 squeez+ himself "u ! crack ( ! door & mov+ across ! floor ( ! room t[>ds a s(a4 ,! bl9d subject ( ?is quasihalluc9ation is an exceptionally intellig5t report]4 ,he is entirely )\t int]nal visual imag]y & _c repres5t light or colors to himself1 & is positive t 8 o!r s5ses1 he>+1 etc41 7 n involv$ 9 ?is false p]ception4 ,x seems to h be5 an ab/ract conception r1 ) ! feel+s ( reality & spatial outw>dness directly atta*$ to x--9 o!r words1 a fully objectifi$ & ext]ioriz$ idea4 ,su* cases1 tak5 along ) o!rs :i* w\ld be too t$i\s = quotation1 seem suffici5tly to prove ! exi/5ce 9 our m5tal ma*9]y ( a s5se ( pres5t reality m diffus$ & g5]al ?an t :i* our special s5ses yield4 ,= ! psy*ologi/s ! trac+ ( ! organic seat ( su* a feel+ w\ld =m a pretty problem--no?+ c\ld be m natural ?an to connect x ) ! muscul> s5se1 ) ! feel+ t our muscles 7 inn]vat+ !mselves = action4 ,:atsoev] ?us inn]vat$ our activity1 or 8made our fle% creep10--our s5ses are :at d s (t5e/1--might !n appe> real & pres5t1 ev5 ?\gh x 7 b an ab/ract idea4 ,b ) su* vague conjectures we h no conc]n at pres5t1 = our int]e/ lies ) ! faculty r ?an ) its organic seat4 ,l all positive affections ( consci\sness1 ! s5se ( reality has its negative c\nt]p>t 9 ! %ape ( a feel+ ( unreality by :i* p]sons may be haunt$1 & ( :i* "o sometimes he>s compla9t3-- 8,:5 ,i reflect on ! fact t ,i h made my appe>ance by accid5t ^u a globe itself :irl$ ?r\gh space z ! sport ( ! cata/rophes ( ! heav5s10 says ,madame ,ack]mann2 8:5 ,i see myself surr\nd$ by be+s z ephem]al & incompreh5sible z ,i am myself1 & all excit$ly pursu+ pure *im]as1 ,i exp]i5ce a /range feel+ ( be+ 9 a dream4 ,x seems to me z if ,i h lov$ & suff]$ & t erelong ,i %all die1 9 a dream4 ,my la/ ^w w be1 #8,i h be5 dream+4' 07#bg7 ,9 ano!r lecture we %all see h[ 9 morbid melan*oly ?is s5se ( ! unreality ( ?+s may become a c>k+ pa91 & ev5 lead to suicide4 ,we may n[ lay x d[n z c]ta9 t 9 ! di/9ctively religi\s sph]e ( exp]i5ce1 _m p]sons 7h[ _m we _c tell7 possess ! objects ( _! belief1 n 9 ! =m ( m]e conceptions :i* _! intellect accepts z true1 b r 9 ! =m ( quasis5sible realities directly appreh5d$4 ,z 8 s5se ( ! real pres5ce ( ^! objects fluctuates1 s ! believ] alt]nates betwe5 w>m? & coldness 9 8 fai?4 ,o!r examples w br+ ?is home to "o bett] ?an ab/ract description1 s ,i proce$ imm$iately to cite "s4 ,! fir/ example is a negative "o1 deplor+ ! loss ( ! s5se 9 "q4 ,i h extract$ x f an acc\nt giv5 me by a sci5tific man ( my acqua9tance1 ( 8 religi\s life4 ,x seems to me to %[ cle>ly t ! feel+ ( reality may be some?+ m l a s5sation ?an an intellectual op]ation prop]ly scall$4 8,betwe5 tw5ty & ?irty ,i gradually became m & m agno/ic & irreligi\s1 yet ,i _c say t ,i ev] lo/ t #8indef9ite consci\sness' :i* ,h]b]t ,sp5c] describes s well1 ( an ,absolute ,reality beh9d ph5om5a4 ,= me ?is ,reality 0 n ! pure ,unkn[able ( ,sp5c]'s philosophy1 = al?\gh ,i _h ceas$ my *ildi% pray]s to ,god1 & nev] pray$ to ,x 9 a =mal mann]1 yet my m rec5t exp]i5ce %[s me to h be5 9 a relation to ,x :i* practically 0 ! same ?+ z pray]4 ,:5ev] ,i _h any tr\ble1 especially :5 ,i _h conflict ) o!r p1 ei!r dome/ically or 9 ! way ( bus9ess1 or :5 ,i 0 depress$ 9 spirits or anxi\s ab\t affairs1 ,i n[ recognize t ,i us$ to fall back = support ^u ?is curi\s relation ,i felt myself to be 9 to ?is fundam5tal cosmical ,x4 ,x 0 on my side1 or ,i 0 on ,its side1 h[ev] y please to t]m x1 9 ! p>ticul> tr\ble1 & x always /r5g!n$ me & seem$ to give me endless vitality to feel its und]ly+ & support+ pres5ce4 ,9 fact1 x 0 an unfail+ f\nta9 ( liv+ ju/ice1 tru?1 & /r5g?1 to :i* ,i in/9ctively turn$ at times ( weakness1 & x always br\ght me out4 ,i "k n[ t x 0 a p]sonal relation ,i 0 9 to x1 because ( late ye>s ! p[] ( communicat+ ) x has left me1 & ,i am consci\s ( a p]fectly def9ite loss4 ,i us$ nev] to fail to f9d x :5 ,i turn$ to x4 ,!n came a set ( ye>s :5 sometimes ,i f\nd x1 & !n aga9 ,i w\ld be :olly unable to make connection ) x4 ,i rememb] _m occasions on :i* at night 9 b$1 ,i w\ld be unable to get to sleep on acc\nt ( worry4 ,i turn$ ?is way & t 9 ! d>kness1 & grop$ m5tally = ! famili> s5se ( t high] m9d ( my m9d :i* _h always seem$ to be close at h& z x 71 clos+ ! passage1 & yield+ support1 b !re 0 no electric curr5t4 ,a blank 0 !re in/ead ( ,x3 ,i c\ldn't f9d any?+4 ,n[1 at ! age ( ne>ly fifty1 my p[] ( gett+ into connection ) x has entirely left me2 & ,i h to confess t a great help has gone out ( my life4 ,life has become curi\sly dead & indiff]5t2 & ,i c n[ see t my old exp]i5ce 0 probably exactly ! same ?+ z ! pray]s ( ! or?odox1 only ,i did n call !m by t "n4 ,:at ,i h spok5 ( z #8,x' 0 practically n ,sp5c]'s ,unkn[able1 b j my own in/9ctive & individual ,god1 :om ,i reli$ ^u = high] sympa?y1 b :om someh[ ,i h lo/40 ,no?+ is m common 9 ! pages ( religi\s biography ?an ! way 9 :i* seasons ( lively & ( difficult fai? are describ$ z alt]nat+4 ,probably e religi\s p]son has ! recollection ( p>ticul> crises 9 :i* a direct] vision ( ! tru?1 a direct p]ception1 p]haps1 ( a liv+ ,god's exi/5ce1 swept 9 & ov]:elm$ ! languor ( ! m ord9>y belief4 ,9 ,james ,russell ,l[ell's correspond5ce !re is a brief memor&um ( an exp]i5ce ( ?is k9d3-- 8,i _h a revelation la/ ,friday ev5+4 ,i 0 at ,m>y's1 & happ5+ to say some?+ ( ! pres5ce ( spirits 7( :om1 ,i said1 ,i 0 (t5 dimly aw>e71 ,mr4 ,putnam ent]$ into an argum5t ) me on spiritual matt]s4 ,z ,i 0 speak+1 ! :ole sy/em rose up be=e me l a vague de/9y loom+ f ! ,abyss4 ,i nev] be=e s cle>ly felt ! ,_s ( ,god 9 me & ar\nd me4 ,! :ole room seem$ to me full ( ,god4 ,! air seem$ to wav] to & fro ) ! pres5ce ( ,some?+ ,i knew n :at4 ,i spoke ) ! calmness & cle>ness ( a prophet4 ,i _c tell y :at ?is revelation 04 ,i h n yet /udi$ x en\gh4 ,b ,i %all p]fect x "o day1 & !n y %all he> x & ackn[l$ge its gr&eur407#bh7 ,"h is a long] & m develop$ exp]i5ce f a manuscript communication by a cl]gyman1--,i take x f ,/>buck's manuscript collection3-- 8,i rememb] ! night1 & almo/ ! v spot on ! hilltop1 :]e my s\l op5$ out1 z x 71 into ! ,inf9ite1 & !re 0 a ru%+ toge!r ( ! two worlds1 ! inn] & ! out]4 ,x 0 deep call+ unto deep1--! deep t my own /ruggle _h op5$ up )9 be+ answ]$ by ! unfa?omable deep )\t1 rea*+ beyond ! />s4 ,i /ood alone ) ,him :o _h made me1 & all ! beauty ( ! _w1 & love1 & sorr[1 & ev5 temptation4 ,i did n seek ,him1 b felt ! p]fect unison ( my _s ) ,84 ,! ord9>y s5se ( ?+s ar\nd me fad$4 ,= ! mom5t no?+ b an ineffable joy & exaltation rema9$4 ,x is impossible fully to describe ! exp]i5ce4 ,x 0 l ! effect ( "s great or*e/ra :5 all ! sep>ate notes h melt$ into "o swell+ h>mony t leaves ! li/5] consci\s ( no?+ save t 8 s\l is be+ waft$ upw>ds1 & almo/ bur/+ ) its own emotion4 ,! p]fect /illness ( ! night 0 ?rill$ by a m solemn sil5ce4 ,! d>kness held a pres5ce t 0 all ! m felt because x 0 n se54 ,i c\ld n any m h d\bt$ t ,he 0 !re ?an t ,i 04 ,inde$1 ,i felt myself to be1 if possible1 ! less real ( ! two4 8,my highe/ fai? 9 ,god & true/ idea ( him 7 !n born 9 me4 ,i h /ood ^u ! ,m\nt ( ,vision s9ce1 & felt ! ,et]nal r\nd ab\t me4 ,b nev] s9ce has !re come q ! same /irr+ ( ! he>t4 ,!n1 if ev]1 ,i believe1 ,i /ood face to face ) ,god1 & 0 born anew ( 8 _s4 ,!re 01 z ,i recall x1 no sudd5 *ange ( ?\ght or ( belief1 except t my e>ly crude conception _h1 z x 71 bur/ into fl[]4 ,!re 0 no de/ruction ( ! old1 b a rapid1 wond]ful unfold+4 ,s9ce t "t no discussion t ,i h he>d ( ! pro(s ( ,god's exi/5ce has be5 able to %ake my fai?4 ,hav+ once felt ! pres5ce ( ,god's _s1 ,i h nev] lo/ x aga9 = long4 ,my mo/ assur+ evid5ce ( 8 exi/5ce is deeply root$ 9 t h\r ( vision1 9 ! memory ( t supreme exp]i5ce1 & 9 ! conviction1 ga9$ f read+ & reflection1 t some?+ ! same has come to all :o h f\nd ,god4 ,i am aw>e t x may ju/ly be call$ my/ical4 ,i am n en\gh acqua9t$ ) philosophy to def5d x f t or any o!r *>ge4 ,i feel t 9 writ+ ( x ,i h ov]laid x ) words r ?an put x cle>ly to y\r ?\ght4 ,b1 su* z x is1 ,i h describ$ x z c>efully z ,i n[ am able to d40 ,"h is ano!r docum5t1 ev5 m def9ite 9 "*1 :i*1 ! writ] be+ a ,swiss1 ,i translate f ! ,fr5* orig9al47#bi7 8,i 0 9 p]fect heal?3 we 7 on our six? day ( tramp+1 & 9 good tra9+4 ,we _h come ! day be=e f ,sixt to ,tri5t by ,buet4 ,i felt nei!r fatigue1 hung]1 nor ?ir/1 & my /ate ( m9d 0 equally heal?y4 ,i _h _h at ,=laz good news f home2 ,i 0 subject to no anxiety1 ei!r ne> or remote1 = we _h a good guide1 & !re 0 n a %ad[ ( unc]ta9ty ab\t ! road we %\ld foll[4 ,i c be/ describe ! condition 9 :i* ,i 0 by call+ x a /ate ( equilibrium4 ,:5 all at once ,i exp]i5c$ a feel+ ( be+ rais$ above myself1 ,i felt ! pres5ce ( ,god--,i tell ( ! ?+ j z ,i 0 consci\s ( x--z if 8 goodness & 8 p[] 7 p5etrat+ me altoge!r4 ,! ?rob ( emotion 0 s viol5t t ,i c\ld b>ely tell ! boys to pass on & n wait = me4 ,i !n sat d[n on a /one1 unable to /& any long]1 & my eyes ov]fl[$ ) te>s4 ,i ?ank$ ,god t 9 ! c\rse ( my life he _h taught me to "k him1 t he su/a9$ my life & took pity bo? on ! insignificant creature & on ! s9n] t ,i 04 ,i begg$ him ard5tly t my life might be consecrat$ to ! do+ ( 8 w4 ,i felt 8 reply1 :i* 0 t ,i %\ld d 8 w f day to day1 9 humility & pov]ty1 leav+ him1 ! ,almighty ,god1 to be judge ( :e!r ,i %\ld "s "t be call$ to be> witness m conspicu\sly4 ,!n1 sl[ly1 ! ec/asy left my he>t2 t is1 ,i felt t ,god _h )drawn ! communion :i* he _h grant$1 & ,i 0 able to walk on1 b v sl[ly1 s /rongly 0 ,i /ill possess$ by ! int]ior emotion4 ,besides1 ,i _h wept un9t]rupt$ly = sev]al m9utes1 my eyes 7 swoll51 & ,i did n wi% my companions to see me4 ,! /ate ( ec/asy may h la/$ f\r or five m9utes1 al?\gh x seem$ at ! "t to la/ mu* long]4 ,my comrades wait$ = me t5 m9utes at ! cross ( ,b>9e1 b ,i took ab\t tw5tyfive or ?irty m9utes to jo9 !m1 = z well z ,i c rememb]1 !y said t ,i _h kept !m back = ab\t half an h\r4 ,! impression _h be5 s pr(\nd t 9 climb+ sl[ly ! slope ,i ask$ myself if x 7 possible t ,moses on ,s9ai c\ld h _h a m intimate communication ) ,god4 ,i ?9k x well to add t 9 ?is ec/asy ( m9e ,god _h nei!r =m1 color1 odor1 nor ta/e2 moreov]1 t ! feel+ ( 8 pres5ce 0 accompani$ ) no det]m9ate localization4 ,x 0 r z if my p]sonality _h be5 trans=m$ by ! pres5ce ( a spiritual _s4 ,b ! m ,i seek words to express ?is intimate int]c\rse1 ! m ,i feel ! impossibility ( describ+ ! ?+ by any ( our usual images4 ,at bottom ! expression mo/ apt to r5d] :at ,i felt is ?is3 ,god 0 pres5t1 ?\gh invisible2 he fell "u no "o ( my s5ses1 yet my consci\sness p]ceiv$ him40 ,! adjective 8my/ical0 is te*nically appli$1 mo/ (t51 to /ates t are ( brief duration4 ,( c\rse su* h\rs ( rapture z ! la/ two p]sons describe are my/ical exp]i5ces1 ( :i* 9 a lat] lecture ,i %all h mu* to say4 ,mean:ile "h is ! abridg$ record ( ano!r my/ical or semimy/ical exp]i5ce1 9 a m9d evid5tly fram$ by nature = ard5t piety4 ,i owe x to ,/>buck's collection4 ,! lady :o gives ! acc\nt is ! daught] ( a man well kn[n 9 8 "t z a writ] aga9/ ,*ri/ianity4 ,! sudd5ness ( h] conv]sion %[s well h[ native ! s5se ( ,god's pres5ce mu/ be to c]ta9 m9ds4 ,%e relates t %e 0 br\ght up 9 entire ignorance ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e1 b1 :5 9 ,g]many1 aft] be+ talk$ to by ,*ri/ian fri5ds1 %e read ! ,bible & pray$1 & f9ally ! plan ( salvation fla%$ ^u h] l a /ream ( light4 8,to ?is day10 %e writes1 8,i _c und]/& dally+ ) religion & ! comm&s ( ,god4 ,! v in/ant ,i he>d my ,fa!r's cry call+ unto me1 my he>t b\nd$ 9 recognition4 ,i ran1 ,i /ret*$ =? my arms1 ,i cri$ al\d1 #8,"h1 "h ,i am1 my ,fa!r4' ,oh1 happy *ild1 :at %\ld ,i d8 #8,love me1' answ]$ my ,god4 #8,i d1 ,i d1' ,i cri$ passionately4 #8,come unto me1' call$ my ,fa!r4 #8,i w1' my he>t pant$4 ,did ,i /op to ask a s+le "q8 ,n "o4 ,x nev] occurr$ to me to ask :e!r ,i 0 good en\gh1 or to hesitate ov] my unfitness1 or to f9d out :at ,i ?\ght ( 8 *ur*1 or 444 to wait until ,i %\ld be satisfi$4 ,satisfi$6 ,i 0 satisfi$4 ,_h ,i n f\nd my ,god & my ,fa!r8 ,did he n love me8 ,_h he n call$ me8 ,0 !re n a ,*ur* into :i* ,i might ent]8444 ,s9ce !n ,i h _h direct answ]s to pray]--s significant z to be almo/ l talk+ ) ,god & he>+ 8 answ]4 ,! idea ( ,god's reality has nev] left me = "o mom5t40 ,"h is /ill ano!r case1 ! writ] be+ a man ag$ tw5tysev51 9 :i* ! exp]i5ce1 probably almo/ z *>act]i/ic1 is less vividly describ$3-- 8,i h on a numb] ( occasions felt t ,i _h enjoy$ a p]iod ( intimate communion ) ! div9e4 ,^! meet+s came unask$ & unexpect$1 & seem$ to consi/ m]ely 9 ! tempor>y oblit]ation ( ! conv5tionalities :i* usually surr\nd & cov] my life4444 ,once x 0 :5 f ! summit ( a high m\nta9 ,i look$ ov] a ga%$ & corrugat$ l&scape ext5d+ to a long convex ( ocean t asc5d$ to ! horizon1 & aga9 f ! same po9t :5 ,i c\ld see no?+ b5ea? me b a b\ndless expanse ( :ite cl\d1 on ! bl[n surface ( :i* a few high peaks1 includ+ ! "o ,i 0 on1 seem$ plung+ ab\t z if !y 7 dragg+ _! an*ors4 ,:at ,i felt on ^! occasions 0 a tempor>y loss ( my own id5tity1 accompani$ by an illum9ation :i* reveal$ to me a deep] significance ?an ,i _h be5 wont to atta* to life4 ,x is 9 ?is t ,i f9d my ju/ification = say+ t ,i h enjoy$ communication ) ,god4 ,( c\rse ! abs5ce ( su* a be+ z ?is w\ld be *aos4 ,i _c conceive ( life )\t its pres5ce40 ,( ! m habitual & s to speak *ronic s5se ( ,god's pres5ce ! foll[+ sample f ,pr(essor ,/>buck's manuscript collection may s]ve to give an idea4 ,x is f a man ag$ =tyn9e1--probably ?\s&s ( unpret5d+ ,*ri/ians w\ld write an almo/ id5tical acc\nt4 8,god is m real to me ?an any ?\ght or ?+ or p]son4 ,i feel 8 pres5ce positively1 & ! m z ,i live 9 clos] h>mony ) 8 laws z writt5 9 my body & m9d4 ,i feel him 9 ! sun%9e or ra92 & awe m+l$ ) a delici\s re/fulness mo/ ne>ly describes my feel+s4 ,i talk to him z to a companion 9 pray] & praise1 & our communion is delightful4 ,he answ]s me aga9 & aga91 (t5 9 words s cle>ly spok5 t x seems my out] e> mu/ h c>ri$ ! tone1 b g5]ally 9 /rong m5tal impressions4 ,usually a text ( ,scripture1 unfold+ "s new view ( him & 8 love = me1 & c>e = my safety4 ,i c\ld give hundr$s ( in/ances1 9 s*ool matt]s1 social problems1 f9ancial difficulties1 etc4 ,t he is m9e & ,i am 8 nev] leaves me1 x is an abid+ joy4 ,)\t x life w\ld be a blank1 a des]t1 a %oreless1 trackless wa/e40 ,i subjo9 "s m examples f writ]s ( diff]5t ages & sexes4 ,!y are also f ,pr(essor ,/>buck's collection1 & _! numb] might be greatly multipli$4 ,! fir/ is f a man tw5tysev5 ye>s old3-- 8,god is q real to me4 ,i talk to him & (t5 get answ]s4 ,?\ghts sudd5 & di/9ct f any ,i h be5 ent]ta9+ come to my m9d aft] ask+ ,god = 8 direction4 ,some?+ ov] a ye> ago ,i 0 = "s weeks 9 ! dire/ p]plexity4 ,:5 ! tr\ble fir/ appe>$ be=e me ,i 0 daz$1 b be=e long 7two or ?ree h\rs7 ,i c\ld he> di/9ctly a passage ( ,scripture3 #8,my grace is suffici5t = !e4' ,e "t my ?\ghts turn$ to ! tr\ble ,i c\ld he> ?is quotation4 ,i don't ?9k ,i ev] d\bt$ ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 or _h him drop out ( my consci\sness4 ,god has frequ5tly /epp$ into my affairs v p]ceptibly1 & ,i feel t he directs _m little details all ! "t4 ,b on two or ?ree occasions he has ord]$ ways = me v contr>y to my ambitions & plans40 ,ano!r /atem5t 7none ! less valuable psy*ologically = be+ s decid$ly *ildi%7 is t ( a boy ( sev5te53-- 8,sometimes z ,i g to *ur*1 ,i sit d[n1 jo9 9 ! s]vice1 & be=e ,i g out ,i feel z if ,god 0 ) me1 "r side ( me1 s++ & read+ ! ,psalms ) me4444 ,& !n aga9 ,i feel z if ,i c\ld sit beside him1 & put my arms ar\nd him1 kiss him1 etc4 ,:5 ,i am tak+ ,holy ,communion at ! alt>1 ,i try to get ) him & g5]ally feel 8 pres5ce40 ,i let a few o!r cases foll[ at r&om3-- 8,god surr\nds me l ! physical atmosph]e4 ,he is clos] to me ?an my own brea?4 ,9 him lit]ally ,i live & move & h my be+40-- 8,!re are times :5 ,i seem to /&1 9 8 v pres5ce1 to talk ) him4 ,answ]s to pray] h come1 sometimes direct & ov]:elm+ 9 _! revelation ( 8 pres5ce & p[]s4 ,!re are times :5 ,god seems f> (f1 b ?is is always my own fault40-- 8,i h ! s5se ( a pres5ce1 /rong1 & at ! same "t soo?+1 :i* hov]s ov] me4 ,sometimes x seems to enwrap me ) su/a9+ arms40 ,su* is ! human ontological imag9ation1 & su* is ! conv9c+ness ( :at x br+s to bir?4 ,unpicturable be+s are realiz$1 & realiz$ ) an int5sity almo/ l t ( an halluc9ation4 ,!y det]m9e our vital attitude z decisively z ! vital attitude ( lov]s is det]m9$ by ! habitual s5se1 by :i* ea* is haunt$1 ( ! o!r be+ 9 ! _w4 ,a lov] has notori\sly ?is s5se ( ! cont9u\s be+ ( 8 idol1 ev5 :5 8 att5tion is address$ to o!r matt]s & he no long] repres5ts h] features4 ,he _c =get h]2 %e un9t]rupt$ly affects him ?r\gh & ?r\gh4 ,i spoke ( ! conv9c+ness ( ^! feel+s ( reality1 & ,i mu/ dwell a mom5t long] on t po9t4 ,!y are z conv9c+ to ^? :o h !m z any direct s5sible exp]i5ces c be1 & !y are1 z a rule1 mu* m conv9c+ ?an results e/abli%$ by m]e logic ev] are4 ,"o may inde$ be entirely )\t !m2 probably m ?an "o ( y "h pres5t is )\t !m 9 any m>k$ degree2 b if y d h !m1 & h !m at all /rongly1 ! probability is t y _c help reg>d+ !m z g5u9e p]ceptions ( tru?1 z revelations ( a k9d ( reality :i* no adv]se argum5t1 h[ev] unansw]able by y 9 words1 c expel f y\r belief4 ,! op9ion oppos$ to my/icism 9 philosophy is sometimes spok5 ( z rationalism4 ,rationalism insi/s t all our beliefs ought ultimately to f9d = !mselves articulate gr\nds4 ,su* gr\nds1 = rationalism1 mu/ consi/ ( f\r ?+s3 7#a7 def9itely /atable ab/ract pr9ciples2 7#b7 def9ite facts ( s5sation2 7#c7 def9ite hypo!ses bas$ on su* facts2 & 7#d7 def9ite inf]5ces logically drawn4 ,vague impressions ( some?+ indef9able h no place 9 ! rationali/ic sy/em1 :i* on its positive side is surely a spl5did intellectual t5d5cy1 = n only are all our philosophies fruits ( x1 b physical sci5ce 7among/ o!r good ?+s7 is its result4 ,nev]!less1 if we look on man's :ole m5tal life z x exi/s1 on ! life ( m5 t lies 9 !m ap>t f _! le>n+ & sci5ce1 & t !y inw>dly & privately foll[1 we h to confess t ! "p ( x ( :i* rationalism c give an acc\nt is relatively sup]ficial4 ,x is ! "p t has ! pre/ige und\bt$ly1 = x has ! loquacity1 x c *all5ge y = pro(s1 & *op logic1 & put y d[n ) words4 ,b x w fail to conv9ce or conv]t y all ! same1 if y\r dumb intuitions are oppos$ to its conclusions4 ,if y h intuitions at all1 !y come f a deep] level ( y\r nature ?an ! loquaci\s level :i* rationalism inhabits4 ,y\r :ole subconsci\s life1 y\r impulses1 y\r fai?s1 y\r ne$s1 y\r div9ations1 h prep>$ ! premises1 ( :i* y\r consci\sness n[ feels ! weight ( ! result2 & some?+ 9 y absolutely kn[s t t result mu/ be tru] ?an any logic*opp+ rationali/ic talk1 h[ev] clev]1 t may contradict x4 ,?is inf]iority ( ! rationali/ic level 9 f\nd+ belief is j z manife/ :5 rationalism argues = religion z :5 x argues aga9/ x4 ,t va/ lit]ature ( pro(s ( ,god's exi/5ce drawn f ! ord] ( nature1 :i* a c5tury ago seem$ s ov]:elm+ly conv9c+1 today does little m ?an ga!r du/ 9 libr>ies1 = ! simple reason t our g5]ation has ceas$ to believe 9 ! k9d ( ,god x argu$ =4 ,:atev] sort ( a be+ ,god may be1 we "k today t he is nev]more t m]e ext]nal inv5tor ( 8contrivances0 int5d$ to make manife/ 8 8glory0 9 :i* our greatgr&fa!rs took su* satisfaction1 ?\gh j h[ we "k ?is we _c possibly make cle> by words ei!r to o!rs or to ourselves4 ,i defy any ( y "h fully to acc\nt = y\r p]suasion t if a ,god exi/ he mu/ be a m cosmic & tragic p]sonage ?an t ,be+4 ,! tru? is t 9 ! metaphysical & religi\s sph]e1 articulate reasons are cog5t = u only :5 our in>ticulate feel+s ( reality h already be5 impress$ 9 favor ( ! same conclusion4 ,!n1 inde$1 our intuitions & our reason "w toge!r1 & great _wrul+ sy/ems1 l t ( ! ,buddhi/ or ( ! ,ca?olic philosophy1 may gr[ up4 ,our impulsive belief is "h always :at sets up ! orig9al body ( tru?1 & our articulately v]baliz$ philosophy is b its %[y translation into =mulas4 ,! unreason$ & imm$iate assurance is ! deep ?+ 9 u1 ! reason$ argum5t is b a surface exhibition4 ,in/9ct leads1 intellig5ce does b foll[4 ,if a p]son feels ! pres5ce ( a liv+ ,god aft] ! fa%ion %[n by my quotations1 y\r critical argum5ts1 be !y nev] s sup]ior1 w va9ly set !mselves to *ange 8 fai?4 ,please obs]ve1 h[ev]1 t ,i d n yet say t x is bett] t ! subconsci\s & nonrational %\ld ?us hold primacy 9 ! religi\s realm4 ,i conf9e myself to simply po9t+ out t !y d s hold x z a matt] ( fact4 ,s mu* = our s5se ( ! reality ( ! religi\s objects4 ,let me n[ say a brief ^w m ab\t ! attitudes !y *>act]i/ically awak54 ,we h already agre$ t !y are solemn2 & we h se5 reason to ?9k t ! mo/ di/9ctive ( !m is ! sort ( joy :i* may result 9 extreme cases f absolute selfsurr5d]4 ,! s5se ( ! k9d ( object to :i* ! surr5d] is made has mu* to d ) det]m9+ ! precise complexion ( ! joy2 & ! :ole ph5om5on is m complex ?an any simple =mula all[s4 ,9 ! lit]ature ( ! subject1 sadness & gladness h ea* be5 emphasiz$ 9 turn4 ,! anci5t say+ t ! fir/ mak] ( ! ,gods 0 fe> receives volum9\s corroboration f e age ( religi\s hi/ory2 b none ! less does religi\s hi/ory %[ ! "p :i* joy has ev]more t5d$ to play4 ,sometimes ! joy has be5 prim>y2 sometimes second>y1 be+ ! gladness ( deliv]ance f ! fe>4 ,?is latt] /ate ( ?+s1 be+ ! m complex1 is also ! m complete2 & z we proce$1 ,i ?9k we %all h abundant reason = refus+ to leave out ei!r ! sadness or ! gladness1 if we look at religion ) ! bread? ( view :i* x dem&s4 ,/at$ 9 ! complete/ possible t]ms1 a man's religion involves bo? moods ( contraction & moods ( expansion ( 8 be+4 ,b ! quantitative mixture & ord] ( ^! moods v>y s mu* f "o age ( ! _w1 f "o sy/em ( ?\ght1 & f "o individual to ano!r1 t y may insi/ ei!r on ! dread & ! submission1 or on ! peace & ! fre$om z ! ess5ce ( ! matt]1 & /ill rema9 mat]ially )9 ! limits ( ! tru?4 ,! con/itutionally sombre & ! con/itutionally sangu9e onlook] are b\nd to emphasize opposite aspects ( :at lies be=e _! eyes4 ,! con/itutionally sombre religi\s p]son makes ev5 ( 8 religi\s peace a v sob] ?+4 ,dang] /ill hov]s 9 ! air ab\t x4 ,flexion & contraction are n :olly *eck$4 ,x 7 sp>r[like & *ildi% aft] our deliv]ance to explode into twitt]+ laught] & cap] cutt+1 & utt]ly to =get ! imm95t hawk on b\gh4 ,lie l[1 r1 lie l[2 = y are 9 ! h&s ( a liv+ ,god4 ,9 ! ,book ( ,job1 = example1 ! impot5ce ( man & ! omnipot5ce ( ,god is ! exclusive burd5 ( its au?or's m9d4 8,x is z high z heav52 :at can/ ?\ d8--deep] ?an hell2 :at can/ ?\ "k80 ,!re is an a/r+5t reli% ab\t ! tru? ( ?is conviction :i* "s m5 c feel1 & :i* = !m is z ne> an approa* z c be made to ! feel+ ( religi\s joy4 8,9 ,job10 says t coldly tru?ful writ]1 ! au?or ( ,m>k ,ru!r=d1 8,god rem9ds u t man is n ! measure ( 8 creation4 ,! _w is imm5se1 con/ruct$ on no plan or !ory :i* ! intellect ( man c grasp4 ,x is transc5d5t ev]y:]e4 ,?is is ! burd5 ( e v]se1 & is ! secret1 if !re be "o1 ( ! poem4 ,suffici5t or insuffici5t1 !re is no?+ m4444 ,god is great1 we "k n 8 ways4 ,he takes f u all we h1 b yet if we possess our s\ls 9 pati5ce1 we may pass ! valley ( ! %ad[1 & come out 9 sunlight aga94 ,we may or we may n6444 ,:at m h we to say n[ ?an ,god said f ! :irlw9d ov] two ?\s& five hundr$ ye>s ago807#cj7 ,if we turn to ! sangu9e onlook]1 on ! o!r h&1 we f9d t deliv]ance is felt z incomplete unless ! burd5 be altoge!r ov]come & ! dang] =gott54 ,su* onlook]s give u def9itions t seem to ! sombre m9ds ( :om we h j be5 speak+ to leave out all ! solemnity t makes religi\s peace s diff]5t f m]ely animal joys4 ,9 ! op9ion ( "s writ]s an attitude might be call$ religi\s1 ?\gh no t\* 7 left 9 x ( sacrifice or submission1 no t5d5cy to flexion1 no b[+ ( ! head4 ,any 8habitual & regulat$ admiration10 says ,pr(essor ,j4 ,r4 ,seeley17#ca7 8is wor?y to be call$ a religion02 & accord+ly he ?9ks t our ,music1 our ,sci5ce1 & our scall$ 8,civilization10 z ^! ?+s are n[ organiz$ & admir+ly believ$ 91 =m ! m g5u9e religions ( our "t4 ,c]ta9ly ! unhesitat+ & unreason+ way 9 :i* we feel t we mu/ inflict our civilization ^u 8l[]0 races1 by means ( ,hot*kiss guns1 etc41 rem9ds "o ( no?+ s mu* z ( ! e>ly _s ( ,islam spread+ its religion by ! sword4 ,9 my la/ lecture ,i quot$ to y ! ultraradical op9ion ( ,mr4 ,havelock ,ellis1 t laught] ( any sort may be consid]$ a religi\s ex]cise1 = x be>s witness to ! s\l's emancipation4 ,i quot$ ?is op9ion 9 ord] to d5y its adequacy4 ,b we mu/ n[ settle our scores m c>efully ) ?is :ole optimi/ic way ( ?9k+4 ,x is f> too complex to be decid$ (fh&4 ,i propose accord+ly t we make ( religi\s optimism ! !me ( ! next two lectures4 ,,lectures ,,iv ,,& ,v4 ,,! ,,religion ,,( ,,heal?y,,m9d$ness4 ,if we 7 to ask ! "q3 8,:at is human life's *ief conc]n80 "o ( ! answ]s we %\ld receive w\ld be3 8,x is happ9ess40 ,h[ to ga91 h[ to keep1 h[ to recov] happ9ess1 is 9 fact = mo/ m5 at all times ! secret motive ( all !y d1 & ( all !y are will+ to endure4 ,! h$oni/ic s*ool 9 e?ics d$uces ! moral life :olly f ! exp]i5ces ( happ9ess & unhapp9ess :i* diff]5t k9ds ( conduct br+2 &1 ev5 m 9 ! religi\s life ?an 9 ! moral life1 happ9ess & unhapp9ess seem to be ! poles r\nd :i* ! int]e/ revolves4 ,we ne$ n g s f> z to say ) ! au?or :om ,i lately quot$ t any p]si/5t en?usiasm is1 z su*1 religion1 nor ne$ we call m]e laught] a religi\s ex]cise2 b we mu/ admit t any p]si/5t enjoym5t may produce ! sort ( religion :i* consi/s 9 a grateful admiration ( ! gift ( s happy an exi/5ce2 & we mu/ also ackn[l$ge t ! m complex ways ( exp]i5c+ religion are new mann]s ( produc+ happ9ess1 wond]ful inn] pa?s to a sup]natural k9d ( happ9ess1 :5 ! fir/ gift ( natural exi/5ce is unhappy1 z x s (t5 proves itself to be4 ,) su* relations betwe5 religion & happ9ess1 x is p]haps n surpris+ t m5 come to reg>d ! happ9ess :i* a religi\s belief af=ds z a pro( ( its tru?4 ,if a cre$ makes a man feel happy1 he almo/ inevitably adopts x4 ,su* a belief ought to be true2 !re=e x is true--su*1 rightly or wrongly1 is "o ( ! 8imm$iate inf]5ces0 ( ! religi\s logic us$ by ord9>y m54 8,! ne> pres5ce ( ,god's _s10 says a ,g]man writ]17#cb7 8may be exp]i5c$ 9 its reality--inde$ only exp]i5c$4 ,& ! m>k by :i* ! _s's exi/5ce & ne>ness are made irrefutably cle> to ^? :o h ev] _h ! exp]i5ce is ! utt]ly incomp>able feel+ ( happ9ess :i* is connect$ ) ! ne>ness1 & :i* is !re=e n only a possible & altoge!r prop] feel+ = u to h "h bel[1 b is ! be/ & mo/ indisp5sable pro( ( ,god's reality4 ,no o!r pro( is equally conv9c+1 & !re=e happ9ess is ! po9t f :i* e efficaci\s new !ology %\ld />t40 ,9 ! h\r imm$iately be=e u1 ,i %all invite y to consid] ! simpl] k9ds ( religi\s happ9ess1 leav+ ! m complex sorts to be treat$ on a lat] day4 ,9 _m p]sons1 happ9ess is cong5ital & irreclaimable4 8,cosmic emotion0 inevitably takes 9 !m ! =m ( en?usiasm & fre$om4 ,i speak n only ( ^? :o are animally happy4 ,i mean ^? :o1 :5 unhapp9ess is (f]$ or propos$ to !m1 positively refuse to feel x1 z if x 7 some?+ mean & wrong4 ,we f9d su* p]sons 9 e age1 passionately fl++ !mselves ^u _! s5se ( ! goodness ( life1 9 spite ( ! h>d%ips ( _! own condition1 & 9 spite ( ! s9i/] !ologies into :i* !y may be born4 ,f ! outset _! religion is "o ( union ) ! div9e4 ,! h]etics :o w5t be=e ! re=mation are lavi%ly accus$ by ! *ur* writ]s ( ant9omian practices1 j z ! fir/ ,*ri/ians 7 accus$ ( indulg5ce 9 orgies by ! ,romans4 ,x is probable t !re nev] has be5 a c5tury 9 :i* ! delib]ate refusal to ?9k ill ( life has n be5 idealiz$ by a suffici5t numb] ( p]sons to =m sects1 op5 or secret1 :o claim$ all natural ?+s to be p]mitt$4 ,sa9t ,augu/9e's maxim1 ,dilige et quod vis fac1--if y b love ,god1 y may d z y incl9e1--is morally "o ( ! pr(\nde/ ( obs]vations1 yet x is pregnant1 = su* p]sons1 ) passports beyond ! b\nds ( conv5tional morality4 ,accord+ to _! *>act]s !y h be5 ref9$ or gross2 b _! belief has be5 at all times sy/ematic en\gh to con/itute a def9ite religi\s attitude4 ,god 0 = !m a giv] ( fre$om1 & ! /+ ( evil 0 ov]come4 ,sa9t ,francis & 8 imm$iate disciples 71 on ! :ole1 ( ?is company ( spirits1 ( :i* !re are ( c\rse inf9ite v>ieties4 ,r\sseau 9 ! e>li] ye>s ( 8 writ+1 ,did]ot1 ,b4 de ,sa9t ,pi]re1 & _m ( ! lead]s ( ! eighte5? c5tury anti*ri/ian movem5t 7 ( ?is optimi/ic type4 ,!y ow$ _! influ5ce to a c]ta9 au?oritativ5ess 9 _! feel+ t ,nature1 if y w only tru/ h] suffici5tly1 is absolutely good4 ,x is to be hop$ t we all h "s fri5d1 p]haps m (t5 fem99e ?an mascul9e1 & "y ?an old1 ^: s\l is ( ?is sky blue t9t1 ^: aff9ities are r ) fl[]s & birds & all en*ant+ innoc5cies ?an ) d>k human passions1 :o c ?9k no ill ( man or ,god1 & 9 :om religi\s gladness1 be+ 9 possession f ! outset1 ne$s no deliv]ance f any antec$5t burd54 8,god has two families ( *ildr5 on ?is e>?10 says ,francis ,w4 ,newman17#cc7 8! onceborn & ! twiceborn10 & ! once born he describes z foll[s3 8,!y see ,god1 n z a /rict ,judge1 n z a ,glori\s ,pot5tate2 b z ! animat+ ,_s ( a beautiful h>moni\s _w1 ,b5efic5t & ,k9d1 ,m]ciful z well z ,pure4 ,! same *>act]s g5]ally h no metaphysical t5d5cies3 !y d n look back into !mselves4 ,h5ce !y are n di/ress$ by _! own imp]fections3 yet x w\ld be absurd to call !m selfrighte\s2 = !y h>dly ?9k ( !mselves at all4 ,?is *ildlike quality ( _! nature makes ! op5+ ( religion v happy to !m3 = !y no m %r9k f ,god1 ?an a *ild f an emp]or1 be=e :om ! p>5t trembles3 9 fact1 !y h no vivid conception ( any ( ! qualities 9 :i* ! sev]] ,maje/y ( ,god consi/s47#cd7 ,he is to !m ! imp]sonation ( ,k9dness & ,beauty4 ,!y read 8 "*1 n 9 ! disord]$ _w ( man1 b 9 romantic & h>moni\s nature4 ,( human s9 !y "k p]haps little 9 _! own he>ts & n v mu* 9 ! _w2 & human suff]+ does b melt !m to t5d]ness4 ,?us1 :5 !y approa* ,god1 no inw>d di/urbance ensues2 & )\t be+ z yet spiritual1 !y h a c]ta9 complac5cy & p]haps romantic s5se ( excitem5t 9 _! simple wor%ip40 ,9 ! ,romi% ,*ur* su* *>act]s f9d a m cong5ial soil to gr[ 9 ?an 9 ,prote/antism1 ^: fa%ions ( feel+ h be5 set by m9ds ( a decid$ly pessimi/ic ord]4 ,b ev5 9 ,prote/antism !y h be5 abundant en\gh2 & 9 its rec5t 8lib]al0 developm5ts ( ,unit>ianism & latitud9>ianism g5]ally1 m9ds ( ?is ord] h play$ & /ill are play+ lead+ & con/ructive p>ts4 ,em]son himself is an admirable example4 ,!odore ,p>k] is ano!r1--"h are a c\ple ( *>act]i/ic passages f ,p>k]'s correspond5ce47#ce7 8,or?odox s*ol>s say3 #8,9 ! hea!n classics y f9d no consci\sness ( s94' ,x is v true--,god be ?ank$ = x4 ,!y 7 consci\s ( wra?1 ( cruelty1 av>ice1 drunk5ness1 lu/1 slo?1 c[>dice1 & o!r actual vices1 & /ruggl$ & got rid ( ! de=mities1 b !y 7 n consci\s ( #8enmity aga9/ ,god1' & didn't sit d[n & :9e & groan aga9/ non exi/5t evil4 ,i h done wrong ?+s en\gh 9 my life1 & d !m n[2 ,i miss ! m>k1 draw b[1 & try aga94 ,b ,i am n consci\s ( hat+ ,god1 or man1 or "r1 or love1 & ,i "k !re is mu* #8heal? 9 me'2 & 9 my body1 ev5 n[1 !re dwelle? _m a good ?+1 spite ( consumption & ,sa9t ,paul40 ,9 ano!r lett] ,p>k] writes3 8,i h swum 9 cle> sweet wat]s all my days2 & if sometimes !y 7 a little cold1 & ! /ream ran adv]se & some?+ r\gh1 x 0 nev] too /rong to be brea/$ & swum ?r\gh4 ,f ! days ( e>lie/ boyhood1 :5 ,i w5t /umbl+ ?r\gh ! grass1444 up to ! graybe>d$ manhood ( ?is "t1 !re is none b has left me honey 9 ! hive ( memory t ,i n[ fe$ on = pres5t delight4 ,:5 ,i recall ! ye>s 444 ,i am fill$ ) a s5se ( sweetness & wond] t su* little ?+s c make a mortal s exce$+ly ri*4 ,b ,i mu/ confess t ! *iefe/ ( all my delights is /ill ! religi\s40 ,ano!r good expression ( ! 8onceborn0 type ( consci\sness1 develop+ /raight & natural1 ) no elem5t ( morbid compunction or crisis1 is conta9$ 9 ! answ] ( ,dr4 ,edw>d ,ev]ett ,hale1 ! em95t ,unit>ian prea*] & writ]1 to "o ( ,dr4 ,/>buck's circul>s4 ,i quote a "p ( x3-- 8,i obs]ve1 ) pr(\nd regret1 ! religi\s /ruggles :i* come into _m biographies1 z if almo/ ess5tial to ! =mation ( ! h]o4 ,i ought to speak ( ^!1 to say t any man has an advantage1 n to be e/imat$1 :o is born1 z ,i 01 into a family :]e ! religion is simple & rational2 :o is tra9$ 9 ! !ory ( su* a religion1 s t he nev] kn[s1 = an h\r1 :at ^! religi\s or irreligi\s /ruggles are4 ,i always knew ,god lov$ me1 & ,i 0 always grateful to him = ! _w he plac$ me 94 ,i always lik$ to tell him s1 & 0 always glad to receive 8 sugge/ions to me4444 ,i c rememb] p]fectly t :5 ,i 0 com+ to manhood1 ! half philosophical novels ( ! "t _h a deal to say ab\t ! "y m5 & maid5s :o 7 fac+ ! #8problem ( life4' ,i _h no idea :atev] :at ! problem ( life 04 ,to live ) all my might seem$ to me easy2 to le>n :]e !re 0 s mu* to le>n seem$ pleasant & almo/ ( c\rse2 to l5d a h&1 if "o _h a *ance1 natural2 & if "o did ?is1 :y1 he enjoy$ life because he c\ld n help x1 & )\t prov+ to himself t he ought to enjoy x4444 ,a *ild :o is e>ly taught t he is ,god's *ild1 t he may live & move & h 8 be+ 9 ,god1 & t he has1 !re=e1 inf9ite /r5g? at h& = ! conqu]+ ( any difficulty1 w take life m easily1 & probably w make m ( x1 ?an "o :o is told t he is born ! *ild ( wra? & :olly incapable ( good407#cf7 ,"o c b recognize 9 su* writ]s z ^! ! pres5ce ( a temp]am5t organically weight$ on ! side ( *e] & fatally =bidd5 to l+]1 z ^? ( opposite temp]am5t l+]1 ov] ! d>k] aspects ( ! univ]se4 ,9 "s individuals optimism may become quasipa?ological4 ,! capacity = ev5 a transi5t sadness or a mom5t>y humility seems cut (f f !m z by a k9d ( cong5ital an/hesia47#cg7 ,! supreme contempor>y example ( su* an inability to feel evil is ( c\rse ,walt ,:itman4 8,8 favorite occupation10 writes 8 disciple1 ,dr4 ,bucke1 8seem$ to be /roll+ or saunt]+ ab\t outdoors by himself1 look+ at ! grass1 ! trees1 ! fl[]s1 ! vi/as ( light1 ! v>y+ aspects ( ! sky1 & li/5+ to ! birds1 ! crickets1 ! tree frogs1 & all ! hundr$s ( natural s\nds4 ,x 0 evid5t t ^! ?+s gave him a pleasure f> beyond :at !y give to ord9>y p4 ,until ,i knew ! man10 cont9ues ,dr4 ,bucke1 8x _h n occurr$ to me t any "o c\ld d]ive s mu* absolute happ9ess f ^! ?+s z he did4 ,he 0 v fond ( fl[]s1 ei!r wild or cultivat$2 lik$ all sorts4 ,i ?9k he admir$ lilacs & sunfl[]s j z mu* z roses4 ,p]haps1 inde$1 no man :o ev] liv$ lik$ s _m ?+s & dislik$ s few z ,walt ,:itman4 ,all natural objects seem$ to h a *>m = him4 ,all sights & s\nds seem$ to please him4 ,he appe>$ to l 7& ,i believe he did l7 all ! m51 wom51 & *ildr5 he saw 7?\gh ,i nev] knew him to say t he lik$ any "o71 b ea* :o knew him felt t he lik$ him or h]1 & t he lik$ o!rs also4 ,i nev] knew him to argue or dispute1 & he nev] spoke ab\t money4 ,he always ju/ifi$1 sometimes playfully1 sometimes q s]i\sly1 ^? :o spoke h>%ly ( himself or 8 writ+s1 & ,i (t5 ?\ght he ev5 took pleasure 9 ! opposition ( enemies4 ,:5 ,i fir/ knew him1 ,i us$ to ?9k t he wat*$ himself1 & w\ld n all[ 8 tongue to give expression to fretfulness1 antipa?y1 compla9t1 & remon/rance4 ,x did n occur to me z possible t ^! m5tal /ates c\ld be abs5t 9 him4 ,aft] long obs]vation1 h[ev]1 ,i satisfi$ myself t su* abs5ce or unconsci\sness 0 entirely real4 ,he nev] spoke deprecat+ly ( any nationality or class ( m51 or "t 9 ! _w's hi/ory1 or aga9/ any trades or occupations--n ev5 aga9/ any animals1 insects1 or inanimate ?+s1 nor any ( ! laws ( nature1 nor any ( ! results ( ^? laws1 su* z illness1 de=mity1 & dea?4 ,he nev] compla9$ or grumbl$ ei!r at ! wea!r1 pa91 illness1 or any?+ else4 ,he nev] swore4 ,he c\ld n v well1 s9ce he nev] spoke 9 ang] & app>5tly nev] 0 angry4 ,he nev] exhibit$ fe>1 & ,i d n believe he ev] felt x407#ch7 ,walt ,:itman owes 8 importance 9 lit]ature to ! sy/ematic expulsion f 8 writ+s ( all contractile elem5ts4 ,! only s5tim5ts he all[$ himself to express 7 ( ! expansive ord]2 & he express$ ^! 9 ! fir/ p]son1 n z y\r m]e mon/r\sly conceit$ individual might s express !m1 b vic>i\sly = all m51 s t a passionate & my/ic ontological emotion suffuses 8 words1 & ends by p]suad+ ! read] t m5 & wom51 life & dea?1 & all ?+s are div9ely good4 ,?us x has come ab\t t _m p]sons today reg>d ,walt ,:itman z ! re/or] ( ! et]nal natural religion4 ,he has infect$ !m ) 8 own love ( comrades1 ) 8 own gladness t he & !y exi/4 ,societies are actually =m$ = 8 cult2 a p]iodical organ exi/s = its propagation1 9 :i* ! l9es ( or?odoxy & het]odoxy are already beg9n+ to be drawn27#ci7 hymns are writt5 by o!rs 9 8 peculi> prosody2 & he is ev5 explicitly comp>$ ) ! f\nd] ( ! ,*ri/ian religion1 n altoge!r to ! advantage ( ! latt]4 ,:itman is (t5 spok5 ( z a 8pagan40 ,! ^w n[adays means sometimes ! m]e natural animal man )\t a s5se ( s92 sometimes x means a ,greek or ,roman ) 8 own peculi> religi\s consci\sness4 ,9 nei!r ( ^! s5ses does x fitly def9e ?is poet4 ,he is m ?an y\r m]e animal man :o has n ta/$ ( ! tree ( good & evil4 ,he is aw>e en\gh ( s9 = a swagg] to be pres5t 9 8 indiff]5ce t[>ds x1 a consci\s pride 9 8 fre$om f flexions & contractions1 :i* y\r g5u9e pagan 9 ! fir/ s5se ( ! ^w w\ld nev] %[4 8,i c\ld turn & live ) animals1 !y are s placid & self conta9$1 ,i /& & look at !m long & long2 ,!y d n sweat & :9e ab\t _! condition4 ,!y d n lie awake 9 ! d>k & weep = _! s9s4 ,n "o is dissatisfi$1 n "o is dem5t$ ) ! mania ( own+ ?+s1 ,n "o kneels to ano!r1 nor to 8 k9d t liv$ ?\s&s ( ye>s ago1 ,n "o is respectable or unhappy ov] ! :ole e>?407#dj7 ,no natural pagan c\ld h writt5 ^! wellkn[n l9es4 ,b on ! o!r h& ,:itman is less ?an a ,greek or ,roman2 = _! consci\sness1 ev5 9 ,hom]ic times1 0 full to ! brim ( ! sad mortality ( ?is sunlit _w1 & su* a consci\sness ,walt ,:itman resolutely refuses to adopt4 ,:51 = example1 ,a*illes1 ab\t to slay ,lycaon1 ,priam's "y son1 he>s him sue = m]cy1 he /ops to say3-- 8,ah1 fri5d1 ?\ too mu/ die3 :y ?us lam5te/ ?\8 ,patroclos too is dead1 :o 0 bett] f> ?an ?\4444 ,ov] me too hang dea? & =ceful fate4 ,!re come? morn or eve or "s noonday :5 my life too "s man %all take 9 battle1 :e!r ) spe> he smite1 or arr[ f ! /r+407#da7 ,!n ,a*illes savagely sev]s ! poor boy's neck ) 8 sword1 heaves him by ! foot into ! ,scam&]1 & calls to ! fi%es ( ! riv] to eat ! :ite fat ( ,lycaon4 ,j z "h ! cruelty & ! sympa?y ea* r+ true1 & d n mix or int]f]e ) "o ano!r1 s did ! ,greeks & ,romans keep all _! sadnesses & gladnesses unm+l$ & entire4 ,in/9ctive good !y did n reckon s92 nor _h !y any su* desire to save ! cr$it ( ! univ]se z to make !m insi/1 z s _m ( u insi/1 t :at imm$iately appe>s z evil mu/ be 8good 9 ! mak+10 or some?+ equally +5i\s4 ,good 0 good1 & bad j bad1 = ! e>li] ,greeks4 ,!y nei!r d5i$ ! ills ( nature1--,walt ,:itman's v]se1 8,:at is call$ good is p]fect & :at is call$ bad is j z p]fect10 w\ld h be5 m]e sill9ess to !m1--nor did !y1 9 ord] to escape f ^? ills1 inv5t 8ano!r & a bett] _w0 ( ! imag9ation1 9 :i*1 along ) ! ills1 ! innoc5t goods ( s5se w\ld also f9d no place4 ,?is integrity ( ! in/9ctive reactions1 ?is fre$om f all moral sophi/ry & /ra91 gives a pa!tic dignity to anci5t pagan feel+4 ,& ?is quality ,:itman's outp\r+s h n got4 ,8 optimism is too volunt>y & defiant2 8 gospel has a t\* ( bravado & an affect$ twi/17#db7 & ?is dim9i%es its effect on _m read]s :o yet are well dispos$ t[>ds optimism1 & on ! :ole q will+ to admit t 9 important respects ,:itman is ( ! g5u9e l9eage ( ! prophets4 ,if1 !n1 we give ! "n ( heal?ym9d$ness to ! t5d5cy :i* looks on all ?+s & sees t !y are good1 we f9d t we mu/ di/+ui% betwe5 a m involunt>y & a m volunt>y or sy/ematic way ( be+ heal?ym9d$4 ,9 its involunt>y v>iety1 heal?y m9d$ness is a way ( feel+ happy ab\t ?+s imm$iately4 ,9 its sy/ematical v>iety1 x is an ab/ract way ( conceiv+ ?+s z good4 ,e ab/ract way ( conceiv+ ?+s selects "s "o aspect ( !m z _! ess5ce = ! "t be+1 & disreg>ds ! o!r aspects4 ,sy/ematic heal?ym9d$ness1 conceiv+ good z ! ess5tial & univ]sal aspect ( be+1 delib]ately excludes evil f its field ( vision2 & al?\gh1 :5 ?us nak$ly /at$1 ?is might seem a difficult feat to p]=m = "o :o is intellectually s9c]e ) himself & hone/ ab\t facts1 a little reflection %[s t ! situation is too complex to lie op5 to s simple a criticism4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 happ9ess1 l e o!r emotional /ate1 has bl9dness & ins5sibility to oppos+ facts giv5 x z its in/9ctive weapon = selfprotection aga9/ di/urbance4 ,:5 happ9ess is actually 9 possession1 ! ?\ght ( evil c no m acquire ! feel+ ( reality ?an ! ?\ght ( good c ga9 reality :5 melan*oly rules4 ,to ! man actively happy1 f :atev] cause1 evil simply _c !n & !re be believ$ 94 ,he mu/ ignore x2 & to ! by/&] he may !n seem p]v]sely to %ut 8 eyes to x & hu% x up4 ,b m ?an ?is3 ! hu%+ ( x up may1 9 a p]fectly c&id & hone/ m9d1 gr[ into a delib]ate religi\s policy1 or p>ti pris4 ,mu* ( :at we call evil is due entirely to ! way m5 take ! ph5om5on4 ,x c s (t5 be conv]t$ into a brac+ & tonic good by a simple *ange ( ! suff]]'s inn] attitude f "o ( fe> to "o ( fight2 its /+ s (t5 dep>ts & turns into a reli% :51 aft] va9ly seek+ to %un x1 we agree to face ab\t & be> x *e]fully1 t a man is simply b\nd 9 honor1 ) ref]5ce to _m ( ! facts t seem at fir/ to disconc]t 8 peace1 to adopt ?is way ( escape4 ,refuse to admit _! badness2 despise _! p[]2 ignore _! pres5ce2 turn y\r att5tion ! o!r way2 & s f> z y y\rself are conc]n$ at any rate1 ?\gh ! facts may /ill exi/1 _! evil "* exi/s no long]4 ,s9ce y make !m evil or good by y\r own ?\ghts ab\t !m1 x is ! rul+ ( y\r ?\ghts :i* proves to be y\r pr9cipal conc]n4 ,! delib]ate adoption ( an optimi/ic turn ( m9d ?us makes its entrance into philosophy4 ,& once 91 x is h>d to trace its lawful b\nds4 ,n only does ! human in/9ct = happ9ess1 b5t on self protection by ignor+1 keep work+ 9 its favor1 b high] inn] ideals h weighty words to say4 ,! attitude ( unhapp9ess is n only pa9ful1 x is mean & ugly4 ,:at c be m base & unwor?y ?an ! p9+1 pul+1 mump+ mood1 no matt] by :at outw>d ills x may h be5 eng5d]$8 ,:at is m injuri\s to o!rs8 ,:at less helpful z a way out ( ! difficulty8 ,x b fa/5s & p]petuates ! tr\ble :i* occasion$ x1 & increases ! total evil ( ! situation4 ,at all co/s1 !n1 we ought to r$uce ! sway ( t mood2 we ought to sc\t x 9 ourselves & o!rs1 & nev] %[ x tol]ance4 ,b x is impossible to c>ry on ?is discipl9e 9 ! subjective sph]e )\t zeal\sly emphasiz+ ! bright] & m9imiz+ ! d>k] aspects ( ! objective sph]e ( ?+s at ! same "t4 ,& ?us our resolution n to indulge 9 mis]y1 beg9n+ at a comp>atively small po9t )9 ourselves1 may n /op until x has br\ght ! entire frame ( reality "u a sy/ematic conception optimi/ic en\gh to be cong5ial ) its ne$s4 ,9 all ?is ,i say no?+ ( any my/ical insight or p]suasion t ! total frame ( ?+s absolutely mu/ be good4 ,su* my/ical p]suasion plays an enorm\s "p 9 ! hi/ory ( ! religi\s consci\sness1 & we mu/ look at x lat] ) "s c>e4 ,b we ne$ n g s f> at pres5t4 ,m ord9>y nonmy/ical conditions ( rapture suffice = my imm$iate cont5tion4 ,all invasive moral /ates & passionate en?usiasms make "o feel+less to evil 9 "s direction4 ,! common p5alties cease to det] ! patriot1 ! usual prud5ces are flung by ! lov] to ! w9ds4 ,:5 ! passion is extreme1 suff]+ may actually be glori$ 91 provid$ x be = ! ideal cause1 dea? may lose its /+1 ! grave its victory4 ,9 ^! /ates1 ! ord9>y contra/ ( good & ill seems to be swall[$ up 9 a high] d5om9ation1 an omnipot5t excitem5t :i* engulfs ! evil1 & :i* ! human be+ welcomes z ! cr[n+ exp]i5ce ( 8 life4 ,?is1 he says1 is truly to live1 & ,i exult 9 ! h]oic opportunity & adv5ture4 ,! sy/ematic cultivation ( heal?ym9d$ness z a religi\s attitude is !re=e consonant ) important curr5ts 9 human nature1 & is any?+ b absurd4 ,9 fact1 we all d cultivate x m or less1 ev5 :5 our pr(ess$ !ology %\ld 9 consi/5cy =bid x4 ,we div]t our att5tion f disease & dea? z mu* z we c2 & ! slaught] h\ses & indec5cies )\t end on :i* our life is f\nd$ are huddl$ out ( sight & nev] m5tion$1 s t ! _w we recognize (ficially 9 lit]ature & 9 society is a poetic fiction f> h&som] & clean] & bett] ?an ! _w t really is47#dc7 ,! advance ( lib]alism1 scall$1 9 ,*ri/ianity1 dur+ ! pa/ fifty ye>s1 may fairly be call$ a victory ( heal?ym9d$ness )9 ! *ur* ov] ! morbidness ) :i* ! old hellfire !ology 0 m h>moni\sly relat$4 ,we h n[ :ole congregations ^: prea*]s1 f> f magnify+ our consci\sness ( s91 seem devot$ r to mak+ little ( x4 ,!y ignore1 or ev5 d5y1 et]nal puni%m5t1 & insi/ on ! dignity r ?an on ! depravity ( man4 ,!y look at ! cont9ual preoccupation ( ! oldfa%ion$ ,*ri/ian ) ! salvation ( 8 s\l z some?+ sickly & repreh5sible r ?an admirable2 & a sangu9e & 8muscul>0 attitude1 :i* to our =efa!rs w\ld h seem$ purely hea!n1 has become 9 _! eyes an ideal elem5t ( ,*ri/ian "*4 ,i am n ask+ :e!r or n !y are "r1 ,i am only po9t+ out ! *ange4 ,! p]sons to :om ,i ref] h /ill reta9$ = ! mo/ "p _! nom9al connection ) ,*ri/ianity1 9 spite ( _! disc>d+ ( its m pessimi/ic !ological elem5ts4 ,b 9 t 8!ory ( evolution0 :i*1 ga!r+ mom5tum = a c5tury1 has )9 ! pa/ tw5tyfive ye>s swept s rapidly ov] ,europe & ,am]ica1 we see ! gr\nd laid = a new sort ( religion ( ,nature1 :i* has entirely displac$ ,*ri/ianity f ! ?\ght ( a l>ge "p ( our g5]ation4 ,! idea ( a univ]sal evolution l5ds itself to a doctr9e ( g5]al meliorism & progress :i* fits ! religi\s ne$s ( ! heal?ym9d$ s well t x seems almo/ z if x might h be5 creat$ = _! use4 ,accord+ly we f9d 8evolutionism0 int]pret$ ?us optimi/ically & embrac$ z a sub/itute = ! religion !y 7 born 91 by a multitude ( our contempor>ies :o h ei!r be5 tra9$ sci5tifically1 or be5 fond ( read+ popul> sci5ce1 & :o _h already begun to be inw>dly dissatisfi$ ) :at seem$ to !m ! h>%ness & irrationality ( ! or?odox ,*ri/ian s*eme4 ,z examples are bett] ?an descriptions1 ,i w quote a docum5t receiv$ 9 answ] to ,pr(essor ,/>buck's circul> ( que/ions4 ,! writ]'s /ate ( m9d may by c\rtesy be call$ a religion1 = x is 8 reaction on ! :ole nature ( ?+s1 x is sy/ematic & reflective1 & x loyally b9ds him to c]ta9 inn] ideals4 ,i ?9k y w recognize 9 him1 co>se meat$ & incapable ( w\nd$ _s z he is1 a suffici5tly famili> contempor>y type4 ,q4 ,:at does ,religion mean to y8 ,a4 ,x means no?+2 & x seems1 s f> z ,i c obs]ve1 useless to o!rs4 ,i am sixtysev5 ye>s ( age & h resid$ 9 ,x4 fifty ye>s1 & h be5 9 bus9ess =tyfive1 consequ5tly ,i h "s little exp]i5ce ( life & m51 & "s wom5 too1 & ,i f9d t ! mo/ religi\s & pi\s p are z a rule ^? mo/ lack+ 9 uprightness & morality4 ,! m5 :o d n g to *ur* or h any religi\s convictions are ! be/4 ,pray+1 s++ ( hymns1 & s]moniz+ are p]nici\s--!y tea* u to rely on "s sup]natural p[]1 :5 we ought to rely on ourselves4 ,i teetotally disbelieve 9 a ,god4 ,! ,godidea 0 begott5 9 ignorance1 fe>1 & a g5]al lack ( any k ( ,nature4 ,if ,i 7 to die n[1 be+ 9 a heal?y condition = my age1 bo? m5tally & physically1 ,i w\ld j z lief1 yes1 r1 die ) a he>ty enjoym5t ( music1 sport1 or any o!r rational pa/ime4 ,z a timepiece /ops1 we die--!re be+ no immortality 9 ei!r case4 ,q4 ,:at comes be=e y\r m9d correspond+ to ! words ,god1 ,heav51 ,angels1 etc48 ,a4 ,no?+ :atev]4 ,i am a man )\t a religion4 ,^! words mean s mu* my?ic bo%4 ,q4 ,h y _h any exp]i5ces :i* appe>$ provid5tial8 ,a4 ,none :atev]4 ,!re is no ag5cy ( ! sup]9t5d+ k9d4 ,a little judici\s obs]vation z well z k ( sci5tific law w conv9ce any "o ( ?is fact4 ,q4 ,:at ?+s "w mo/ /rongly on y\r emotions8 ,a4 ,lively songs & music2 ,p9a=e in/ead ( an ,oratorio4 ,i l ,scott1 ,burns1 ,byron1 ,longfell[1 especially ,%akespe>e1 etc41 etc4 ,( songs1 ! ,/>spangl$ ,bann]1 ,am]ica1 ,m>seillaise1 & all moral & s\l/irr+ songs1 b wi%ywa%y hymns are my dete/ation4 ,i greatly enjoy nature1 especially f9e wea!r1 & until )9 a few ye>s us$ to walk ,sundays into ! c\ntry1 twelve miles (t51 ) no fatigue1 & bicycle =ty or fifty4 ,i h dropp$ ! bicycle4 ,i nev] g to *ur*1 b att5d lectures :5 !re are any good ones4 ,all ( my ?\ghts & cogitations h be5 ( a heal?y & *e]ful k9d1 = in/ead ( d\bts & fe>s ,i see ?+s z !y are1 = ,i endeavor to adju/ myself to my environm5t4 ,?is ,i reg>d z ! deepe/ law4 ,mank9d is a progressive animal4 ,i am satisfi$ he w h made a great advance ov] 8 pres5t /atus a ?\s& ye>s h5ce4 ,q4 ,:at is y\r notion ( s98 ,a4 ,x seems to me t s9 is a condition1 a disease1 incid5tal to man's developm5t n be+ yet advanc$ en\gh4 ,morbidness ov] x increases ! disease4 ,we %\ld ?9k t a million ( ye>s h5ce equity1 ju/ice1 & m5tal & physical good ord] w be s fix$ & organiz$ t no "o w h any idea ( evil or s94 ,q4 ,:at is y\r temp]am5t8 ,a4 ,n]v\s1 active1 wideawake1 m5tally & physically4 ,sorry t ,nature compels u to sleep at all4 ,if we are 9 se>* ( a brok5 & a contrite he>t1 cle>ly we ne$ n look to ?is bro!r4 ,8 cont5tm5t ) ! f9ite incases him l a lob/]%ell & %ields him f all morbid rep9+ at 8 di/ance f ! ,inf9ite4 ,we h 9 him an excell5t example ( ! optimism :i* may be enc\rag$ by popul> sci5ce4 ,to my m9d a curr5t f> m important & int]e/+ religi\sly ?an t :i* sets 9 f natural sci5ce t[>ds heal?ym9d$ness is t :i* has rec5tly p\r$ ov] ,am]ica & seems to be ga!r+ =ce e day1--,i am ignorant :at foo?old x may yet h acquir$ 9 ,great ,brita91--& to :i*1 = ! sake ( hav+ a brief designation1 ,i w give ! title ( ! 8,m9dcure movem5t40 ,!re are v>i\s sects ( ?is 8,new ,?\ght10 to use ano!r ( ! names by :i* x calls itself2 b _! agreem5ts are s pr(\nd t _! diff]5ces may be neglect$ = my pres5t purpose1 & ,i w treat ! movem5t1 )\t apology1 z if x 7 a simple ?+4 ,x is a delib]ately optimi/ic s*eme ( life1 ) bo? a speculative & a practical side4 ,9 its gradual developm5t dur+ ! la/ qu>t] ( a c5tury1 x has tak5 up into itself a numb] ( contributory elem5ts1 & x mu/ n[ be reckon$ ) z a g5u9e religi\s p[]4 ,x has rea*$ ! /age1 = example1 :5 ! dem& = its lit]ature is great en\gh = ins9c]e /uff1 me*anically produc$ = ! m>ket1 to be to a c]ta9 ext5t suppli$ by publi%]s1--a ph5om5on nev] obs]v$1 ,i imag9e1 until a religion has got well pa/ its e>lie/ insecure beg9n+s4 ,"o ( ! doctr9al s\rces ( ,m9dcure is ! f\r ,gospels2 ano!r is ,em]sonianism or ,new ,engl& transc5d5talism2 ano!r is ,b]keleyan idealism2 ano!r is spiritism1 ) its messages ( 8law0 & 8progress0 & 8developm5t02 ano!r ! optimi/ic popul> sci5ce evolutionism ( :i* ,i h rec5tly spok52 &1 f9ally1 ,h9duism has contribut$ a /ra94 ,b ! mo/ *>act]i/ic feature ( ! m9dcure movem5t is an inspiration mu* m direct4 ,! lead]s 9 ?is fai? h _h an intuitive belief 9 ! allsav+ p[] ( heal?ym9d$ attitudes z su*1 9 ! conqu]+ efficacy ( c\rage1 hope1 & tru/1 & a correlative contempt = d\bt1 fe>1 worry1 & all n]v\sly precaution>y /ates ( m9d47#dd7 ,_! belief has 9 a g5]al way be5 corroborat$ by ! practical exp]i5ce ( _! disciples2 & ?is exp]i5ce =ms today a mass impos+ 9 am\nt4 ,! bl9d h be5 made to see1 ! halt to walk2 lifelong invalids h _h _! heal? re/or$4 ,! moral fruits h be5 no less rem>kable4 ,! delib]ate adoption ( a heal?ym9d$ attitude has prov$ possible to _m :o nev] suppos$ !y _h x 9 !m2 reg5]ation ( "* has gone on on an ext5sive scale2 & *e]fulness has be5 re/or$ to c\ntless homes4 ,! indirect influ5ce ( ?is has be5 great4 ,! m9d cure pr9ciples are beg9n+ s to p]vade ! air t "o cat*es _! _s at secondh&4 ,"o he>s ( ! 8,gospel ( ,relaxation10 ( ! 8,don't ,worry ,movem5t10 ( p :o repeat to !mselves1 8,y\?1 heal?1 vigor60 :5 dress+ 9 ! morn+1 z _! motto = ! day4 ,compla9ts ( ! wea!r are gett+ to be =bidd5 9 _m h\seholds2 & m & m p are recogniz+ x to be bad =m to speak ( disagreeable s5sations1 or to make mu* ( ! ord9>y inconv5i5ces & ailm5ts ( life4 ,^! g5]al tonic effects on public op9ion w\ld be good ev5 if ! m /rik+ results 7 nonexi/5t4 ,b ! latt] ab\nd s t we c af=d to ov]look ! innum]able failures & selfdeceptions t are mix$ 9 ) !m 7= 9 ev]y?+ human failure is a matt] ( c\rse71 & we c also ov]look ! v]biage ( a good deal ( ! m9dcure lit]ature1 "s ( :i* is s moon/ruck ) optimism & s vaguely express$ t an academically tra9$ intellect f9ds x almo/ impossible to read x at all4 ,! pla9 fact rema9s t ! spread ( ! movem5t has be5 due to practical fruits1 & ! extremely practical turn ( "* ( ! ,am]ican p has nev] be5 bett] %[n ?an by ! fact t ?is1 _! only decid$ly orig9al contribution to ! sy/ematic philosophy ( life1 %\ld be s intimately knit up ) concrete !rapeutics4 ,to ! importance ( m9dcure ! m$ical & cl]ical pr(essions 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates are beg9n+1 ?\gh ) mu* recalcitrancy & prote/+1 to op5 _! eyes4 ,x is evid5tly b\nd to develop /ill f>!r1 bo? speculatively & practically1 & its late/ writ]s are f> & away ! able/ ( ! gr\p47#de7 ,x matt]s no?+ t1 j z !re are ho/s ( p]sons :o _c pray1 s !re are great] ho/s :o _c by any possibility be influ5c$ by ! m9dcur]s' ideas4 ,= our imm$iate purpose1 ! important po9t is t s l>ge a numb] %\ld exi/ :o c be s influ5c$4 ,!y =m a psy*ic type to be /udi$ ) respect47#df7 ,to come n[ to a little clos] qu>t]s ) _! cre$4 ,! fundam5tal pill> on :i* x re/s is no?+ m ?an ! g5]al basis ( all religi\s exp]i5ce1 ! fact t man has a dual nature1 & is connect$ ) two sph]es ( ?\ght1 a %all[] & a pr(\nd] sph]e1 9 ei!r ( :i* he may le>n to live m habitually4 ,! %all[] & l[] sph]e is t ( ! fle%ly s5sations1 in/9cts1 & desires1 ( egotism1 d\bt1 & ! l[] p]sonal int]e/s4 ,b :]eas ,*ri/ian !ology has always consid]$ fr[>dness to be ! ess5tial vice ( ?is "p ( human nature1 ! m9dcur]s say t ! m>k ( ! bea/ 9 x is fe>2 & ?is is :at gives su* an entirely new religi\s turn to _! p]suasion4 8,fe>10 to quote a writ] ( ! s*ool1 8has _h its uses 9 ! evolution>y process1 & seems to con/itute ! :ole ( =e?\ght 9 mo/ animals2 b t x %\ld rema9 any "p ( ! m5tal equipm5t ( human civiliz$ life is an absurdity4 ,i f9d t ! fe> elem5t ( =e?\ght is n /imulat+ to ^? m civiliz$ p]sons to :om duty & attraction are ! natural motives1 b is weak5+ & det]r5t4 ,z soon z x becomes unnecess>y1 fe> becomes a positive det]r5t1 & %\ld be entirely remov$1 z dead fle% is remov$ f liv+ tissue4 ,to assi/ 9 ! analysis ( fe>1 & 9 ! d5unciation ( its expressions1 ,i h co9$ ! ^w fe>?\ght to /& = ! unpr(itable elem5t ( =e?\ght1 & h def9$ ! ^w #8worry' z fe>?\ght 9 contradi/9ction to =e?\ght4 ,i h also def9$ fe>?\ght z ! selfimpos$ or self p]mitt$ sugge/ion ( inf]iority1 9 ord] to place x :]e x really belongs1 9 ! category ( h>mful1 unnecess>y1 & !re=e n respectable ?+s407#dg7 ,! 8mis]yhabit10 ! 8m>tyrhabit10 eng5d]$ by ! preval5t 8fe>?\ght10 get pung5t criticism f ! m9dcure writ]s3-- 8,consid] = a mom5t ! habits ( life into :i* we are born4 ,!re are c]ta9 social conv5tions or cu/oms & alleg$ requirem5ts1 !re is a !ological bias1 a g5]al view ( ! _w4 ,!re are cons]vative ideas 9 reg>d to our e>ly tra9+1 our education1 m>riage1 & occupation 9 life4 ,foll[+ close ^u ?is1 !re is a long s]ies ( anticipations1 namely1 t we %all suff] c]ta9 *ildr5's diseases1 diseases ( middle life1 & ( old age2 ! ?\ght t we %all gr[ old1 lose our faculties1 & aga9 become *ildlike2 :ile cr[n+ all is ! fe> ( dea?4 ,!n !re is a long l9e ( p>ticul> fe>s & tr\blebe>+ expectations1 su*1 = example1 z ideas associat$ ) c]ta9 articles ( food1 ! dread ( ! ea/ w9d1 ! t]rors ( hot wea!r1 ! a*es & pa9s associat$ ) cold wea!r1 ! fe> ( cat*+ cold if "o sits 9 a draught1 ! com+ ( hayfev] ^u ! #ad? ( ,augu/ 9 ! middle ( ! day1 & s on ?r\gh a long li/ ( fe>s1 dreads1 worrim5ts1 anxieties1 anticipations1 expectations1 pessimisms1 morbidities1 & ! :ole gho/ly tra9 ( fateful %apes :i* our fell[m51 & especially physicians1 are ready to help u conjure up1 an array wor?y to rank ) ,bradley's #8une>?ly ballet ( bloodless categories4' 8,yet ?is is n all4 ,?is va/ array is swell$ by innum]able volunte]s f daily life1--! fe> ( accid5t1 ! possibility ( calamity1 ! loss ( prop]ty1 ! *ance ( robb]y1 ( fire1 or ! outbreak ( w>4 ,& x is n deem$ suffici5t to fe> = ourselves4 ,:5 a fri5d is tak5 ill1 we mu/ =?) fe> ! wor/ & appreh5d dea?4 ,if "o meets ) sorr[ 444 sympa?y means to ent] into & increase ! suff]+407#dh7 8,man10 to quote ano!r writ]1 8(t5 has fe> /amp$ ^u him be=e 8 entrance into ! out] _w2 he is re>$ 9 fe>2 all 8 life is pass$ 9 bondage to fe> ( disease & dea?1 & ?us 8 :ole m5tality becomes cramp$1 limit$1 & depress$1 & 8 body foll[s its %runk5 patt]n & specification4444 ,?9k ( ! millions ( s5sitive & responsive s\ls among our ance/ors :o h be5 "u ! dom9ion ( su* a p]petual nightm>e6 ,is x n surpris+ t heal? exi/s at all8 ,no?+ b ! b\ndless div9e love1 exub]ance1 & vitality1 con/antly p\r$ 91 ev5 ?\gh unconsci\sly to u1 c\ld 9 "s degree neutralize su* an ocean ( morbidity407#di7 ,al?\gh ! disciples ( ! m9dcure (t5 use ,*ri/ian t]m9ology1 "o sees f su* quotations h[ widely _! notion ( ! fall ( man div]ges f t ( ord9>y ,*ri/ians47#ej7 ,_! notion ( man's high] nature is h>dly less div]g5t1 be+ decid$ly pan!i/ic4 ,! spiritual 9 man appe>s 9 ! m9dcure philosophy z p>tly consci\s1 b *iefly subconsci\s2 & ?r\gh ! subconsci\s "p ( x we are already "o ) ! ,div9e )\t any miracle ( grace1 or abrupt creation ( a new inn] man4 ,z ?is view is v>i\sly express$ by diff]5t writ]s1 we f9d 9 x traces ( ,*ri/ian my/icism1 ( transc5d5tal idealism1 ( v$antism1 & ( ! mod]n psy*ology ( ! sublim9al self4 ,a quotation or two w put u at ! c5tral po9t ( view3-- 8,! great c5tral fact ( ! univ]se is t _s ( inf9ite life & p[] t is back ( all1 t manife/s itself 9 & ?r\gh all4 ,?is _s ( inf9ite life & p[] t is back ( all is :at ,i call ,god4 ,i c>e n :at t]m y may use1 be x ,k9dly ,light1 ,provid5ce1 ! ,ov],s\l1 ,omnipot5ce1 or :atev] t]m may be mo/ conv5i5t1 s long z we are agre$ 9 reg>d to ! great c5tral fact itself4 ,god !n fills ! univ]se alone1 s t all is f ,him & 9 ,him1 & !re is no?+ t is outside4 ,he is ! life ( our life1 our v life itself4 ,we are p>tak]s ( ! life ( ,god2 & ?\gh we diff] f ,him 9 t we are individualiz$ spirits1 :ile ,he is ! ,inf9ite ,_s1 includ+ u1 z well z all else beside1 yet 9 ess5ce ! life ( ,god & ! life ( man are id5tically ! same1 & s are "o4 ,!y diff] n 9 ess5ce or quality2 !y diff] 9 degree4 8,! great c5tral fact 9 human life is ! com+ into a consci\s vital realization ( our on5ess ) ?is ,inf9ite ,life1 & ! op5+ ( ourselves fully to ?is div9e infl[4 ,9 j ! degree t we come into a consci\s realization ( our on5ess ) ! ,inf9ite ,life1 & op5 ourselves to ?is div9e infl[1 d we actualize 9 ourselves ! qualities & p[]s ( ! ,inf9ite ,life1 d we make ourselves *annels ?r\gh :i* ! ,inf9ite ,intellig5ce & ,p[] c "w4 ,9 j ! degree 9 :i* y realize y\r on5ess ) ! ,inf9ite ,_s1 y w ex*ange disease = ease1 inh>mony = h>mony1 suff]+ & pa9 = ab\nd+ heal? & /r5g?4 ,to recognize our own div9ity1 & our intimate relation to ! ,univ]sal1 is to atta* ! belts ( our ma*9]y to ! p[]h\se ( ! ,univ]se4 ,"o ne$ rema9 9 hell no long] ?an "o *ooses to2 we c rise to any heav5 we ourselves *oose2 & :5 we *oose s to rise1 all ! high] p[]s ( ! ,univ]se comb9e to help u heav5w>d407#ea7 ,let me n[ pass f ^! ab/ract] /atem5ts to "s m concrete acc\nts ( exp]i5ce ) ! m9dcure religion4 ,i h _m answ]s f correspond5ts--! only difficulty is to *oose4 ,! fir/ two :om ,i %all quote are my p]sonal fri5ds4 ,"o ( !m1 a woman1 writ+ z foll[s1 expresses well ! feel+ ( cont9uity ) ! ,inf9ite ,p[]1 by :i* all m9dcure disciples are inspir$4 8,! fir/ und]ly+ cause ( all sickness1 weakness1 or depression is ! human s5se ( sep>at5ess f t ,div9e ,en]gy :i* we call ,god4 ,! s\l :i* c feel & affirm 9 s]5e b jubilant confid5ce1 z did ! ,naz>5e3 #8,i & my ,fa!r are "o1' has no fur!r ne$ ( heal]1 or ( heal+4 ,?is is ! :ole tru? 9 a nut%ell1 & o!r f\ndation = :ol5ess c no man lay ?an ?is fact ( impregnable div9e union4 ,disease c no long] attack "o ^: feet are plant$ on ?is rock1 :o feels h\rly1 mom5tly1 ! influx ( ! ,deific ,brea?4 ,if "o ) ,omnipot5ce1 h[ c we>9ess ent] ! consci\sness1 h[ illness assail t indomitable sp>k8 8,?is possibility ( annull+ =ev] ! law ( fatigue has be5 abundantly prov5 9 my own case2 = my e>li] life be>s a record ( _m1 _m ye>s ( b$ridd5 invalidism1 ) sp9e & l[] limbs p>alyz$4 ,my ?\ghts 7 no m impure ?an !y are today1 al?\gh my belief 9 ! necessity ( illness 0 d5se & un5light5$2 b s9ce my resurrection 9 ! fle%1 ,i h work$ z a heal] unceas+ly = f\rte5 ye>s )\t a vacation1 & c tru?fully ass]t t ,i h nev] kn[n a mom5t ( fatigue or pa91 al?\gh com+ 9 t\* con/antly ) excessive weakness1 illness1 & disease ( all k9ds4 ,= h[ c a consci\s "p ( ,deity be sick8--s9ce #8,great] is he t is ) u ?an all t c /rive aga9/ u4' 0 ,my second correspond5t1 also a woman1 s5ds me ! foll[+ /atem5t3-- 8,life seem$ difficult to me at "o "t4 ,i 0 always break+ d[n1 & _h sev]al attacks ( :at is call$ n]v\s pro/ration1 ) t]rible insomnia1 be+ on ! v]ge ( insanity2 besides hav+ _m o!r tr\bles1 especially ( ! dige/ive organs4 ,i _h be5 s5t away f home 9 *>ge ( doctors1 _h tak5 all ! n>cotics1 /opp$ all "w1 be5 f$ up1 & 9 fact knew all ! doctors )9 rea*4 ,b ,i nev] recov]$ p]man5tly till ?is ,new ,?\ght took possession ( me4 8,i ?9k t ! "o ?+ :i* impress$ me mo/ 0 le>n+ ! fact t we mu/ be 9 absolutely con/ant relation or m5tal t\* 7?is ^w is to me v expressive7 ) t ess5ce ( life :i* p]meates all & :i* we call ,god4 ,?is is almo/ unrecognizable unless we live x into ourselves actually1 t is1 by a con/ant turn+ to ! v inn]mo/1 deepe/ consci\sness ( our real selves or ( ,god 9 u1 = illum9ation f )91 j z we turn to ! sun = light1 w>m?1 & invigoration )\t4 ,:5 y d ?is consci\sly1 realiz+ t to turn inw>d to ! light )9 y is to live 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god or y\r div9e self1 y soon discov] ! unreality ( ! objects to :i* y h hi!rto be5 turn+ & :i* h engross$ y )\t4 8,i h come to disreg>d ! mean+ ( ?is attitude = bodily heal? z su*1 because t comes ( itself1 z an incid5tal result1 & _c be f\nd by any special m5tal act or desire to h x1 beyond t g5]al attitude ( m9d ,i h ref]r$ to above4 ,t :i* we usually make ! object ( life1 ^? out] ?+s we are all s wildly seek+1 :i* we s (t5 live & die =1 b :i* !n d n give u peace & happ9ess1 !y %\ld all come ( !mselves z accessory1 & z ! m]e outcome or natural result ( a f> high] life sunk deep 9 ! bosom ( ! _s4 ,?is life is ! real seek+ ( ! k+dom ( ,god1 ! desire = 8 supremacy 9 our he>ts1 s t all else comes z t :i* %all be #8add$ unto y'--z q incid5tal & z a surprise to u1 p]haps2 & yet x is ! pro( ( ! reality ( ! p]fect poise 9 ! v c5tre ( our be+4 8,:5 ,i say t we commonly make ! object ( our life t :i* we %\ld n "w = prim>ily1 ,i mean _m ?+s :i* ! _w consid]s praisewor?y & excell5t1 su* z success 9 bus9ess1 fame z au?or or arti/1 physician or lawy]1 or r5[n 9 philan?ropic und]tak+s4 ,su* ?+s %\ld be results1 n objects4 ,i w\ld also include pleasures ( _m k9ds :i* seem h>mless & good at ! "t1 & are pursu$ because _m accept !m--,i mean conv5tionalities1 sociabilities1 & fa%ions 9 _! v>i\s developm5t1 ^! be+ mo/ly approv$ by ! masses1 al?\gh !y may be unreal1 & ev5 unheal?y sup]fluities40 ,"h is ano!r case1 m concrete1 also t ( a woman4 ,i read y ^! cases )\t comm5t1--!y express s _m v>ieties ( ! /ate ( m9d we are /udy+4 8,i _h be5 a suff]] f my *ildhood till my =tie? ye>4 ,details ( illheal? are giv5 :i* ,i omit4 ,i _h be5 9 ,v]mont sev]al mon?s hop+ = good f ! *ange ( air1 b /eadily gr[+ weak]1 :5 "o day dur+ ! latt] "p ( ,octob]1 :ile re/+ 9 ! aft]noon1 ,i sudd5ly he>d z x 7 ^! words3 #8,y w be heal$ & d a "w y nev] dream$ (4' ,^! words 7 impress$ ^u my m9d ) su* p[] ,i said at once t only ,god c\ld h put !m !re4 ,i believ$ !m 9 spite ( myself & ( my suff]+ & weakness1 :i* cont9u$ until ,*ri/mas1 :5 ,i return$ to ,bo/on4 ,)9 two days a "y fri5d (f]$ to take me to a m5tal heal] 7?is 0 ,janu>y #g1 #ahha74 ,! heal] said3 #8,!re is no?+ b ,m9d2 we are expressions ( ! ,"o ,m9d2 body is only a mortal belief2 z a man ?9ke? s is he4' ,i c\ld n accept all %e said1 b ,i translat$ all t 0 !re = me 9 ?is way3 #8,!re is no?+ b ,god2 ,i am creat$ by ,him1 & am absolutely dep5d5t ^u ,him2 m9d is giv5 me to use2 & by j s mu* ( x z ,i w put ^u ! ?\ght ( "r action 9 body ,i %all be lift$ out ( bondage to my ignorance & fe> & pa/ exp]i5ce4' ,t day ,i comm5c$ accord+ly to take a little ( e food provid$ = ! family1 con/antly say+ to myself3 #8,! ,p[] t creat$ ! /oma* mu/ take c>e ( :at ,i h eat54' ,by hold+ ^! sugge/ions ?r\gh ! ev5+ ,i w5t to b$ & fell asleep1 say+3 #8,i am s\l1 _s1 j "o ) ,god's ,?\ght ( me1' & slept all night )\t wak+1 = ! fir/ "t 9 sev]al ye>s ! di/ressturns _h usually recurr$ ab\t two o'clock 9 ! night4 ,i felt ! next day l an escap$ prison]1 & believ$ ,i _h f\nd ! secret t w\ld 9 "t give me p]fect heal?4 ,)9 t5 days ,i 0 able to eat any?+ provid$ = o!rs1 & aft] two weeks ,i began to h my own positive m5tal sugge/ions ( ,tru?1 :i* 7 to me l /epp+/ones4 ,i w note a few ( !m2 !y came ab\t two weeks ap>t4 8#a/4 ,i am ,s\l1 !re=e x is well ) me4 8#b;d4 ,i am ,s\l1 !re=e ,i am well4 8#c;d4 ,a sort ( inn] vision ( myself z a f\rfoot$ bea/ ) a protub]ance on e "p ( my body :]e ,i _h suff]+1 ) my own face1 begg+ me to ackn[l$ge x z myself4 ,i resolutely fix$ my att5tion on be+ well1 & refus$ to ev5 look at my old self 9 ?is =m4 8#d?4 ,aga9 ! vision ( ! bea/ f> 9 ! backgr\nd1 ) fa9t voice4 ,aga9 refusal to ackn[l$ge4 8#e?4 ,once m ! vision1 b only ( my eyes ) ! long+ look2 & aga9 ! refusal4 ,!n came ! conviction1 ! inn] consci\sness1 t ,i 0 p]fectly well & always _h be51 = ,i 0 ,s\l1 an expression ( ,god's ,p]fect ,?\ght4 ,t 0 to me ! p]fect & complet$ sep>ation betwe5 :at ,i 0 & :at ,i appe>$ to be4 ,i succe$$ 9 nev] los+ sight aft] ?is ( my real be+1 by con/antly affirm+ ?is tru?1 & by degrees 7?\gh x took me two ye>s ( h>d "w to get !re7 ,i express$ heal? cont9u\sly ?r\gh\t my :ole body4 8,9 my subsequ5t n9ete5 ye>s' exp]i5ce ,i h nev] kn[n ?is ,tru? to fail :5 ,i appli$ x1 ?\gh 9 my ignorance ,i h (t5 fail$ to apply x1 b ?r\gh my failures ,i h le>n$ ! simplicity & tru/fulness ( ! little *ild40 ,b ,i fe> t ,i risk tir+ y by s _m examples1 & ,i mu/ lead y back to philosophic g5]alities aga94 ,y see already by su* records ( exp]i5ce h[ impossible x is n to class m9dcure z prim>ily a religi\s movem5t4 ,its doctr9e ( ! on5ess ( our life ) ,god's life is 9 fact q indi/+ui%able f an int]pretation ( ,*ri/'s message :i* 9 ^! v ,gif=d lectures has be5 def5d$ by "s ( y\r v able/ ,scotti% religi\s philosoph]s47#eb7 ,b philosoph]s usually pr(ess to give a quasilogical explanation ( ! exi/5ce ( evil1 :]eas ( ! g5]al fact ( evil 9 ! _w1 ! exi/5ce ( ! selfi%1 suff]+1 timor\s f9ite consci\sness1 ! m9dcur]s1 s f> z ,i am acqua9t$ ) !m1 pr(ess to give no speculative explanation4 ,evil is empirically !re = !m z x is = ev]ybody1 b ! practical po9t ( view pr$om9ates1 & x w\ld ill agree ) ! _s ( _! sy/em to sp5d "t 9 worry+ ov] x z a 8my/]y0 or 8problem10 or 9 8lay+ to he>t0 ! lesson ( its exp]i5ce1 aft] ! mann] ( ! ,evangelicals4 ,don't reason ab\t x1 z ,dante says1 b give a glance & pass beyond6 ,x is ,avidhya1 ignorance6 some?+ m]ely to be outgr[n & left beh9d1 transc5d$ & =gott54 ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce scall$1 ! sect ( ,mrs4 ,eddy1 is ! mo/ radical bran* ( m9dcure 9 its deal+s ) evil4 ,= x evil is simply a lie1 & any "o :o m5tions x is a li>4 ,! optimi/ic ideal ( duty =bids u to pay x ! complim5t ev5 ( explicit att5tion4 ,( c\rse1 z our next lectures w %[ u1 ?is is a bad speculative omission1 b x is intimately l9k$ ) ! practical m]its ( ! sy/em we are exam9+4 ,:y regret a philosophy ( evil1 a m9dcur] w\ld ask u1 if ,i c put y 9 possession ( a life ( good8 ,aft] all1 x is ! life t tells2 & m9dcure has develop$ a liv+ sy/em ( m5tal hygi5e :i* may well claim to h ?r[n all previ\s lit]ature ( ! ,ditetik d] ,seele into ! %ade4 ,?is sy/em is :olly & exclusively compact$ ( optimism3 8,pessimism leads to weakness4 ,optimism leads to p[]40 8,?\ghts are ?+s10 z "o ( ! mo/ vigor\s m9dcure writ]s pr9ts 9 bold type at ! bottom ( ea* ( 8 pages2 & if y\r ?\ghts are ( heal?1 y\?1 vigor1 & success1 be=e y "k x ^! ?+s w also be y\r outw>d portion4 ,no "o c fail ( ! reg5]ative influ5ce ( optimi/ic ?9k+1 p]t9aci\sly pursu$4 ,e man owns indefeasibly ?is inlet to ! div9e4 ,fe>1 on ! contr>y1 & all ! contract$ & egoi/ic modes ( ?\ght1 are inlets to de/ruction4 ,mo/ m9dcur]s "h br+ 9 a doctr9e t ?\ghts are 8=ces10 & t1 by virtue ( a law t l attracts l1 "o man's ?\ghts draw to !mselves z allies all ! ?\ghts ( ! same "* t exi/ ! _w ov]4 ,?us "o gets1 by "o's ?9k+1 re9=cem5ts f else:]e = ! realization ( "o's desires2 & ! great po9t 9 ! conduct ( life is to get ! heav5ly =ces on "o's side by op5+ "o's own m9d to _! influx4 ,on ! :ole1 "o is /ruck by a psy*ological simil>ity betwe5 ! m9dcure movem5t & ! ,lu!ran & ,wesleyan movem5ts4 ,to ! believ] 9 moralism & works1 ) 8 anxi\s qu]y1 8,:at %all ,i d to be sav$80 ,lu!r & ,wesley repli$3 8,y are sav$ n[1 if y w\ld b believe x40 ,& ! m9dcur]s come ) precisely simil> words ( emancipation4 ,!y speak1 x is true1 to p]sons = :om ! conception ( salvation has lo/ its anci5t !ological mean+1 b :o labor nev]!less ) ! same et]nal human difficulty4 ,?+s are wrong ) !m2 & 8,:at %all ,i d to be cle>1 "r1 s\nd1 :ole1 well80 is ! =m ( _! "q4 ,& ! answ] is3 8,y are well1 s\nd1 & cle> already1 if y did b "k x40 8,! :ole matt] may be summ$ up 9 "o s5t5ce10 says "o ( ! au?ors :om ,i h already quot$1 8,god is well1 & s are y4 ,y mu/ awak5 to ! k ( y\r real be+40 ,! adequacy ( _! message to ! m5tal ne$s ( a l>ge fraction ( mank9d is :at gave =ce to ^? e>li] gospels4 ,exactly ! same adequacy holds 9 ! case ( ! m9dcure message1 fooli% z x may s\nd ^u its surface2 & see+ its rapid gr[? 9 influ5ce1 & its !rapeutic triumphs1 "o is tempt$ to ask :e!r x may n be de/9$ 7probably by v reason ( ! crudity & extravagance ( _m ( its manife/ations7#ec77 to play a "p almo/ z great 9 ! evolution ( ! popul> religion ( ! future z did ^? e>li] movem5ts 9 _! day4 ,b ,i "h fe> t ,i may beg9 to 8j> ^u ! n]ves0 ( "s ( ! memb]s ( ?is academic audi5ce4 ,su* contempor>y vag>ies1 y may ?9k1 %\ld h>dly take s l>ge a place 9 dignifi$ ,gif=d lectures4 ,i c only besee* y to h pati5ce4 ,! :ole outcome ( ^! lectures w1 ,i imag9e1 be ! emphasiz+ to y\r m9d ( ! enorm\s div]sities :i* ! spiritual lives ( diff]5t m5 exhibit4 ,_! wants1 _! susceptibilities1 & _! capacities all v>y & mu/ be class$ "u diff]5t heads4 ,! result is t we h really diff]5t types ( religi\s exp]i5ce2 &1 seek+ 9 ^! lectures clos] acqua9tance ) ! heal?ym9d$ type1 we mu/ take x :]e we f9d x 9 mo/ radical =m4 ,! psy*ology ( individual types ( "* has h>dly begun ev5 to be sket*$ z yet--our lectures may possibly s]ve z a crumbl contribution to ! /ructure4 ,! fir/ ?+ to be> 9 m9d 7especially if we ourselves belong to ! cl]icoacademic sci5tific type1 ! (ficially & conv5tionally 8correct0 type1 8! deadly respectable0 type1 = :i* to ignore o!rs is a besett+ temptation7 is t no?+ c be m /upid ?an to b> out ph5om5a f our notice1 m]ely because we are incapable ( tak+ "p 9 any?+ l !m ourselves4 ,n[ ! hi/ory ( ,lu!ran salvation by fai?1 ( me?odi/ic conv]sions1 & ( :at ,i call ! m9dcure movem5t seems to prove ! exi/5ce ( num]\s p]sons 9 :om--at any rate at a c]ta9 /age 9 _! developm5t--a *ange ( "* = ! bett]1 s f> f be+ facilitat$ by ! rules laid d[n by (ficial morali/s1 w take place all ! m successfully if ^? rules be exactly rev]s$4 ,(ficial morali/s advise u nev] to relax our /r5u\sness4 8,be vigilant1 day & night10 !y adjure u2 8hold y\r passive t5d5cies 9 *eck2 %r9k f no ef=t2 keep y\r w l a b[ always b5t40 ,b ! p]sons ,i speak ( f9d t all ?is consci\s ef=t leads to no?+ b failure & vexation 9 _! h&s1 & only makes !m twofold m ! *ildr5 ( hell !y 7 be=e4 ,! t5se & volunt>y attitude becomes 9 !m an impossible fev] & torm5t4 ,_! ma*9]y refuses to run at all :5 ! be>+s are made s hot & ! belts s tight4 ,"u ^! circum/ances ! way to success1 z v\*$ = by innum]able au!ntic p]sonal n>rations1 is by an antimorali/ic me?od1 by ! 8surr5d]0 ( :i* ,i spoke 9 my second lecture4 ,passivity1 n activity2 relaxation1 n int5tness1 %\ld be n[ ! rule4 ,give up ! feel+ ( responsibility1 let g y\r hold1 resign ! c>e ( y\r de/9y to high] p[]s1 be g5u9ely indiff]5t z to :at becomes ( x all1 & y w f9d n only t y ga9 a p]fect inw>d relief1 b (t5 also1 9 addition1 ! p>ticul> goods y s9c]ely ?\ght y 7 r5\nc+4 ,?is is ! salvation ?r\gh self despair1 ! dy+ to be truly born1 ( ,lu!ran !ology1 ! passage into no?+ ( :i* ,jacob ,behm5 writes4 ,to get to x1 a critical po9t mu/ usually be pass$1 a corn] turn$ )9 "o4 ,some?+ mu/ give way1 a native h>dness mu/ break d[n & liquefy2 & ?is ev5t 7z we %all abundantly see h]eaft]7 is frequ5tly sudd5 & automatic1 & leaves on ! ,subject an impression t he has be5 wr\ght on by an ext]nal p[]4 ,:atev] its ultimate significance may prove to be1 ?is is c]ta9ly "o fundam5tal =m ( human exp]i5ce4 ,"s say t ! capacity or incapacity = x is :at divides ! religi\s f ! m]ely morali/ic "*4 ,) ^? :o und]go x 9 its fullness1 no criticism avails to ca/ d\bt on its reality4 ,!y "k2 = !y h actually felt ! high] p[]s1 9 giv+ up ! t5sion ( _! p]sonal w4 ,a /ory :i* revivali/ prea*]s (t5 tell is t ( a man :o f\nd himself at night slipp+ d[n ! side ( a precipice4 ,at la/ he caught a bran* :i* /opp$ 8 fall1 & rema9$ cl++ to x 9 mis]y = h\rs4 ,b f9ally 8 f+]s _h to loose _! hold1 & ) a despair+ f>ewell to life1 he let himself drop4 ,he fell j six in*es4 ,if he _h giv5 up ! /ruggle e>li]1 8 agony w\ld h be5 sp>$4 ,z ! "m e>? receiv$ him1 s1 ! prea*]s tell u1 w ! ev]la/+ arms receive u if we confide absolutely 9 !m1 & give up ! h]$it>y habit ( rely+ on our p]sonal /r5g?1 ) its precautions t _c %elt] & safegu>ds t nev] save4 ,! m9dcur]s h giv5 ! wide/ scope to ?is sort ( exp]i5ce4 ,!y h demon/rat$ t a =m ( reg5]ation by relax+1 by lett+ g1 psy*ologically indi/+ui%able f ! ,lu!ran ju/ification by fai? & ! ,wesleyan acceptance ( free grace1 is )9 ! rea* ( p]sons :o h no conviction ( s9 & c>e no?+ = ! ,lu!ran !ology4 ,x is b giv+ y\r little private convulsive self a re/1 & f9d+ t a great] ,self is !re4 ,! results1 sl[ or sudd51 or great or small1 ( ! comb9$ optimism & expectancy1 ! reg5]ative ph5om5a :i* ensue on ! ab&onm5t ( ef=t1 rema9 firm facts ( human nature1 no matt] :e!r we adopt a !i/ic1 a pan!i/ic ideali/ic1 or a m$icalmat]iali/ic view ( _! ultimate causal explanation47#ed7 ,:5 we take up ! ph5om5a ( revivali/ic conv]sion1 we %all le>n some?+ m ab\t all ?is4 ,mean:ile ,i w say a brief ^w ab\t ! m9dcur]'s me?ods4 ,!y are ( c\rse l>gely sugge/ive4 ,! sugge/ive influ5ce ( environm5t plays an enorm\s "p 9 all spiritual education4 ,b ! ^w 8sugge/ion10 hav+ acquir$ (ficial /atus1 is un=tunately already beg9n+ to play 9 _m qu>t]s ! "p ( a wet blanket ^u inve/igation1 be+ us$ to f5d (f all inquiry into ! v>y+ susceptibilities ( individual cases4 8,sugge/ion0 is only ano!r "n = ! p[] ( ideas1 s f> z !y prove efficaci\s ov] belief & conduct4 ,ideas efficaci\s ov] "s p prove inefficaci\s ov] o!rs4 ,ideas efficaci\s at "s times & 9 "s human surr\nd+s are n s at o!r times & else:]e4 ,! ideas ( ,*ri/ian *ur*es are n efficaci\s 9 ! !rapeutic direction today1 :atev] !y may h be5 9 e>li] c5turies2 & :5 ! :ole "q is z to :y ! salt has lo/ its savor "h or ga9$ x !re1 ! m]e blank wav+ ( ! ^w 8sugge/ion0 z if x 7 a bann] gives no light4 ,dr4 ,godd>d1 ^: c&id psy*ological essay on ,fai? ,cures ascribes !m to no?+ b ord9>y sugge/ion1 concludes by say+ t 8,religion & by ?is he seems to mean our popul> ,*ri/ianity has 9 x all !re is 9 m5tal !rapeutics1 & has x 9 its be/ =m4 ,liv+ up to our religi\s ideas w d any?+ = u t c be done40 ,& ?is 9 spite ( ! actual fact t ! popul> ,*ri/ianity does absolutely no?+1 or did no?+ until m9dcure came to ! rescue47#ee7 ,an idea1 to be sugge/ive1 mu/ come to ! individual ) ! =ce ( a revelation4 ,! m9dcure ) its gospel ( heal?ym9d$ness has come z a revelation to _m ^: he>ts ! *ur* ,*ri/ianity _h left h>d5$4 ,x has let loose _! spr+s ( high] life4 ,9 :at c ! orig9ality ( any religi\s movem5t consi/1 save 9 f9d+ a *annel1 until !n seal$ up1 ?r\gh :i* ^? spr+s may be set free 9 "s gr\p ( human be+s8 ,! =ce ( p]sonal fai?1 en?usiasm1 & example1 & above all ! =ce ( novelty1 are always ! prime sugge/ive ag5cy 9 ?is k9d ( success4 ,if m9dcure %\ld ev] become (ficial1 respectable1 & intr5*$1 ^! elem5ts ( sugge/ive efficacy w be lo/4 ,9 its acut] /ages e religion mu/ be a homeless ,arab ( ! des]t4 ,! *ur* kn[s ?is well en\gh1 ) its ev]la/+ inn] /ruggle ( ! acute religion ( ! few aga9/ ! *ronic religion ( ! _m1 indurat$ into an ob/ructiv5ess worse ?an t :i* irreligion opposes to ! mov+s ( ! ,_s4 8,we may pray10 says ,jona?an ,edw>ds1 8conc]n+ all ^? sa9ts t are n lively ,*ri/ians1 t !y may ei!r be enliv5$1 or tak5 away2 if t be true t is (t5 said by "s at ?is day1 t ^! cold dead sa9ts d m hurt ?an natural m51 & lead m s\ls to hell1 & t x w\ld be well = mank9d if !y 7 all dead407#ef7 ,! next condition ( success is ! app>5t exi/5ce1 9 l>ge numb]s1 ( m9ds :o unite heal?ym9d$ness ) read9ess = reg5]ation by lett+ g4 ,prote/antism has be5 too pessimi/ic z reg>ds ! natural man1 ,ca?olicism has be5 too legali/ic & morali/ic1 = ei!r ! "o or ! o!r to appeal 9 any g5]\s way to ! type ( "* =m$ ( ?is peculi> m+l+ ( elem5ts4 ,h[ev] few ( u "h pres5t may belong to su* a type1 x is n[ evid5t t x =ms a specific moral comb9ation1 well repres5t$ 9 ! _w4 ,f9ally1 m9dcure has made :at 9 our prote/ant c\ntries is an unprec$5t$ly great use ( ! subconsci\s life4 ,to _! reason$ advice & dogmatic ass]tion1 its f\nd]s h add$ sy/ematic ex]cise 9 passive relaxation1 conc5tration1 & m$itation1 & h ev5 invok$ some?+ l hypnotic practice4 ,i quote "s passages at r&om3-- 8,! value1 ! pot5cy ( ideals is ! great practical tru? on :i* ! ,new ,?\ght mo/ /rongly insi/s1--! developm5t namely f )9 outw>d1 f small to great47#eg7 ,consequ5tly "o's ?\ght %\ld be c5tr$ on ! ideal outcome1 ev5 ?\gh ?is tru/ be lit]ally l a /ep 9 ! d>k47#eh7 ,to atta9 ! ability ?us effectively to direct ! m9d1 ! ,new ,?\ght advises ! practice ( conc5tration1 or 9 o!r words1 ! atta9m5t ( selfcontrol4 ,"o is to le>n to m>%al ! t5d5cies ( ! m9d1 s t !y may be held toge!r z a unit by ! *os5 ideal4 ,to ?is end1 "o %\ld set ap>t times = sil5t m$itation1 by "o's self1 pref]ably 9 a room :]e ! surr\nd+s are favorable to spiritual ?\ght4 ,9 ,new ,?\ght t]ms1 ?is is call$ #8ent]+ ! sil5ce4' 07#ei7 8,! "t w come :5 9 ! busy (fice or on ! noisy /reet y c ent] into ! sil5ce by simply draw+ ! mantle ( y\r own ?\ghts ab\t y & realiz+ t !re & ev]y:]e ! ,_s ( ,inf9ite ,life1 ,love1 ,wisdom1 ,peace1 ,p[]1 & ,pl5ty is guid+1 keep+1 protect+1 lead+ y4 ,?is is ! _s ( cont9ual pray]47#fj7 ,"o ( ! mo/ intuitive m5 we ev] met _h a desk at a city (fice :]e sev]al o!r g5tlem5 7 do+ bus9ess con/antly1 & (t5 talk+ l\dly4 ,entirely undi/urb$ by ! _m v>i\s s\nds ab\t him1 ?is selfc5tr$ fai?ful man w\ld1 9 any mom5t ( p]plexity1 draw ! curta9s ( privacy s completely ab\t him t he w\ld be z fully inclos$ 9 8 own psy*ic aura1 & !reby z effectually remov$ f all di/ractions1 z ?\gh he 7 alone 9 "s primeval wood4 ,tak+ 8 difficulty ) him into ! my/ic sil5ce 9 ! =m ( a direct "q1 to :i* he expect$ a c]ta9 answ]1 he w\ld rema9 utt]ly passive until ! reply came1 & nev] once ?r\gh _m ye>s' exp]i5ce did he f9d himself disappo9t$ or misl$407#fa7 ,:]e91 ,i %\ld l to "k1 does ?is intr9sically diff] f ! practice ( 8recollection0 :i* plays s great a "p 9 ,ca?olic discipl9e8 ,o!rwise call$ ! practice ( ! pres5ce ( ,god 7& s kn[n among ourselves1 z = in/ance 9 ,j]emy ,taylor71 x is ?us def9$ by ! em95t tea*] ,alv>ez de ,paz 9 8 "w on ,contemplation4 8,x is ! recollection ( ,god1 ! ?\ght ( ,god1 :i* 9 all places & circum/ances makes u see him pres5t1 lets u commune respectfully & lov+ly ) him1 & fills u ) desire & affection = him4444 ,w\ld y escape f e ill8 ,nev] lose ?is recollection ( ,god1 nei!r 9 prosp]ity nor 9 adv]sity1 nor on any occasion :i*soev] x be4 ,invoke n1 to excuse y\rself f ?is duty1 ei!r ! difficulty or ! importance ( y\r bus9ess1 = y c always rememb] t ,god sees y1 t y are "u 8 eye4 ,if a ?\s& times an h\r y =get him1 reanimate a ?\s& times ! recollection4 ,if y _c practice ?is ex]cise cont9u\sly1 at lea/ make y\rself z famili> ) x z possible2 &1 l unto ^? :o 9 a rigor\s w9t] draw ne> ! fire z (t5 z !y c1 g z (t5 z y c to t ard5t fire :i* w w>m y\r s\l407#fb7 ,all ! ext]nal associations ( ! ,ca?olic discipl9e are ( c\rse unlike any?+ 9 m9dcure ?\ght1 b ! purely spiritual "p ( ! ex]cise is id5tical 9 bo? communions1 & 9 bo? communions ^? :o urge x write ) au?ority1 = !y h evid5tly exp]i5c$ 9 _! own p]sons t :]e( !y tell4 ,comp>e aga9 "s m9dcure utt]ances3-- 8,high1 heal?ful1 pure ?9k+ c be enc\rag$1 promot$1 & /r5g!n$4 ,its curr5t c be turn$ ^u gr& ideals until x =ms a habit & we>s a *annel4 ,by means ( su* discipl9e ! m5tal horizon c be flood$ ) ! sun%9e ( beauty1 :ol5ess1 & h>mony4 ,to inaugurate pure & l(ty ?9k+ may at fir/ seem difficult1 ev5 almo/ me*anical1 b p]sev]ance w at l5g? r5d] x easy1 !n pleasant1 & f9ally delightful4 8,! s\l's real _w is t :i* x has built ( its ?\ghts1 m5tal /ates1 & imag9ations4 ,if we w1 we c turn our backs ^u ! l[] & s5su\s plane1 & lift ourselves into ! realm ( ! spiritual & ,real1 & !re ga9 a resid5ce4 ,! assumption ( /ates ( expectancy & receptivity w attract spiritual sun%9e1 & x w fl[ 9 z naturally z air incl9es to a vacuum4444 ,:5ev] ! ?\ght is n occupi$ ) "o's daily duty or pr(ession1 x %\ld be s5t al(t into ! spiritual atmosph]e4 ,!re are quiet leisure mom5ts by day1 & wakeful h\rs at night1 :5 ?is :olesome & delightful ex]cise may be engag$ 9 to great advantage4 ,if "o :o has nev] made any sy/ematic ef=t to lift & control ! ?\ght =ces w1 = a s+le mon?1 e>ne/ly pursue ! c\rse "h sugge/$1 he w be surpris$ & delight$ at ! result1 & no?+ w induce him to g back to c>eless1 aimless1 & sup]ficial ?9k+4 ,at su* favorable seasons ! outside _w1 ) all its curr5t ( daily ev5ts1 is b>r$ out1 & "o goes into ! sil5t sanctu>y ( ! inn] temple ( s\l to commune & aspire4 ,! spiritual he>+ becomes delicately s5sitive1 s t ! #8/ill1 small voice' is audible1 ! tumultu\s waves ( ext]nal s5se are hu%$1 & !re is a great calm4 ,! ego gradually becomes consci\s t x is face to face ) ! ,div9e ,pres5ce2 t mighty1 heal+1 lov+1 ,fa!rly life :i* is ne>] to u ?an we are to ourselves4 ,!re is s\lcontact ) ! ,p>5t,s\l1 & an influx ( life1 love1 virtue1 heal?1 & happ9ess f ! ,inexhau/ible ,f\nta9407#fc7 ,:5 we rea* ! subject ( my/icism1 y w und]go s deep an imm]sion into ^! exalt$ /ates ( consci\sness z to be wet all ov]1 if ,i may s express myself2 & ! cold %iv] ( d\bt ) :i* ?is little spr9kl+ may affect y w h long s9ce pass$ away--d\bt1 ,i mean1 z to :e!r all su* writ+ be n m]e ab/ract talk & rhetoric set d[n p\r enc\rag] les autres4 ,y w !n be conv9c$1 ,i tru/1 t ^! /ates ( consci\sness ( 8union0 =m a p]fectly def9ite class ( exp]i5ces1 ( :i* ! s\l may occasionally p>take1 & :i* c]ta9 p]sons may live by 9 a deep] s5se ?an !y live by any?+ else ) :i* !y h acqua9tance4 ,?is br+s me to a g5]al philosophical reflection ) :i* ,i %\ld l to pass f ! subject ( heal?ym9d$ness1 & close a topic :i* ,i fe> is already only too long drawn out4 ,x conc]ns ! relation ( all ?is sy/ematiz$ heal?ym9d$ness & m9dcure religion to sci5tific me?od & ! sci5tific life4 ,9 a lat] lecture ,i %all h to treat explicitly ( ! relation ( religion to sci5ce on ! "o h&1 & to primeval savage ?\ght on ! o!r4 ,!re are pl5ty ( p]sons today--8sci5ti/s0 or 8positivi/s10 !y are fond ( call+ !mselves--:o w tell y t religi\s ?\ght is a m]e survival1 an atavi/ic rev]sion to a type ( consci\sness :i* humanity 9 its m enlight5$ examples has long s9ce left beh9d & outgr[n4 ,if y ask !m to expla9 !mselves m fully1 !y w probably say t = primitive ?\ght ev]y?+ is conceiv$ ( "u ! =m ( p]sonality4 ,! savage ?9ks t ?+s op]ate by p]sonal =ces1 & = ! sake ( individual ends4 ,= him1 ev5 ext]nal nature obeys individual ne$s & claims1 j z if ^! 7 s _m elem5t>y p[]s4 ,n[ sci5ce1 on ! o!r h&1 ^! positivi/s say1 has prov$ t p]sonality1 s f> f be+ an elem5t>y =ce 9 nature1 is b a passive resultant ( ! really elem5t>y =ces1 physical1 *emical1 physiological1 & psy*ophysical1 :i* are all imp]sonal & g5]al 9 "*4 ,no?+ individual accompli%es any?+ 9 ! univ]se save 9 s f> z x obeys & exemplifies "s univ]sal law4 ,%\ld y !n inquire ( !m by :at means sci5ce has ?us supplant$ primitive ?\ght1 & discr$it$ its p]sonal way ( look+ at ?+s1 !y w\ld und\bt$ly say x has be5 by ! /rict use ( ! me?od ( exp]im5tal v]ification4 ,foll[ out sci5ce's conceptions practically1 !y w say1 ! conceptions t ignore p]sonality altoge!r1 & y w always be corroborat$4 ,! _w is s made t all y\r expectations w be exp]i5tially v]ifi$ s long1 & only s long1 z y keep ! t]ms f :i* y inf] !m imp]sonal & univ]sal4 ,b "h we h m9dcure1 ) h] diametrically opposite philosophy1 sett+ up an exactly id5tical claim4 ,live z if ,i 7 true1 %e says1 & e day w practically prove y "r4 ,t ! controll+ en]gies ( nature are p]sonal1 t y\r own p]sonal ?\ghts are =ces1 t ! p[]s ( ! univ]se w directly respond to y\r individual appeals & ne$s1 are propositions :i* y\r :ole bodily & m5tal exp]i5ce w v]ify4 ,& t exp]i5ce does l>gely v]ify ^! primeval religi\s ideas is prov$ by ! fact t ! m9dcure movem5t spreads z x does1 n by proclamation & ass]tion simply1 b by palpable exp]i5tial results4 ,"h1 9 ! v heyday ( sci5ce's au?ority1 x c>ries on an aggressive w>f>e aga9/ ! sci5tific philosophy1 & succe$s by us+ sci5ce's own peculi> me?ods & weapons4 ,believ+ t a high] p[] w take c>e ( u 9 c]ta9 ways bett] ?an we c take c>e ( ourselves1 if we only g5u9ely ?r[ ourselves ^u x & cons5t to use x1 x f9ds ! belief1 n only n impugn$1 b corroborat$ by its obs]vation4 ,h[ conv]sions are ?us made1 & conv]ts confirm$1 is evid5t en\gh f ! n>ratives :i* ,i h quot$4 ,i w quote yet ano!r c\ple ( %ort] ones to give ! matt] a p]fectly concrete turn4 ,"h is "o3-- 8,"o ( my fir/ exp]i5ces 9 apply+ my tea*+ 0 two mon?s aft] ,i fir/ saw ! heal]4 ,i fell1 spra9+ my "r ankle1 :i* ,i _h done once f\r ye>s be=e1 hav+ !n _h to use a crut* & ela/ic anklet = "s mon?s1 & c>efully gu>d+ x ev] s9ce4 ,z soon z ,i 0 on my feet ,i made ! positive sugge/ion 7& felt x ?r\gh all my be+73 #8,!re is no?+ b ,god1 all life comes f him p]fectly4 ,i _c be spra9$ or hurt1 ,i w let him take c>e ( x4' ,well1 ,i nev] _h a s5sation 9 x1 & ,i walk$ two miles t day40 ,! next case n only illu/rates exp]im5t & v]ification1 b also ! elem5t ( passivity & surr5d] ( :i* a:ile ago ,i made su* acc\nt4 8,i w5t into t[n to d "s %opp+ "o morn+1 & ,i _h n be5 gone long be=e ,i began to feel ill4 ,! ill feel+ increas$ rapidly1 until ,i _h pa9s 9 all my bones1 nausea & fa9tness1 heada*e1 all ! symptoms 9 %ort t prec$e an attack ( influ5za4 ,i ?\ght t ,i 0 go+ to h ! grippe1 epidemic !n 9 ,bo/on1 or some?+ worse4 ,! m9dcure tea*+s t ,i _h be5 li/5+ to all ! w9t] !reupon came into my m9d1 & ,i ?\ght t "h 0 an opportunity to te/ myself4 ,on my way home ,i met a fri5d1 & ,i refra9$ ) "s ef=t f tell+ h] h[ ,i felt4 ,t 0 ! fir/ /ep ga9$4 ,i w5t to b$ imm$iately1 & my husb& wi%$ to s5d = ! doctor4 ,b ,i told him t ,i w\ld r wait until morn+ & see h[ ,i felt4 ,!n foll[$ "o ( ! mo/ beautiful exp]i5ces ( my life4 8,i _c express x 9 any o!r way ?an to say t ,i did #8lie d[n 9 ! /ream ( life & let x fl[ ov] me4' ,i gave up all fe> ( any imp5d+ disease2 ,i 0 p]fectly will+ & ob$i5t4 ,!re 0 no intellectual ef=t1 or tra9 ( ?\ght4 ,my dom9ant idea 03 #8,behold ! h&maid ( ! ,"l3 be x unto me ev5 z ?\ wilt1' & a p]fect confid5ce t all w\ld be well1 t all 0 well4 ,! creative life 0 fl[+ into me e in/ant1 & ,i felt myself alli$ ) ! ,inf9ite1 9 h>mony1 & full ( ! peace t passe? und]/&+4 ,!re 0 no place 9 my m9d = a j>r+ body4 ,i _h no consci\sness ( "t or space or p]sons2 b only ( love & happ9ess & fai?4 8,i d n "k h[ long ?is /ate la/$1 nor :5 ,i fell asleep2 b :5 ,i woke up 9 ! morn+1 ,i 0 well40 ,^! are exce$+ly trivial in/ances17#fd7 b 9 !m1 if we h any?+ at all1 we h ! me?od ( exp]im5t & v]ification4 ,= ! po9t ,i am driv+ at n[1 x makes no diff]5ce :e!r y consid] ! pati5ts to be delud$ victims ( _! imag9ation or n4 ,t !y seem$ to !mselves to h be5 cur$ by ! exp]im5ts tri$ 0 en\gh to make !m conv]ts to ! sy/em4 ,& al?\gh x is evid5t t "o mu/ be ( a c]ta9 m5tal m\ld to get su* results 7= n e "o c get ?us cur$ to 8 own satisfaction any m ?an e "o c be cur$ by ! fir/ regul> practition] :om he calls 971 yet x w\ld surely be p$antic & ov]scrupul\s = ^? :o c get _! savage & primitive philosophy ( m5tal heal+ v]ifi$ 9 su* exp]im5tal ways z ?is1 to give !m up at ^w ( comm& = m sci5tific !rapeutics4 ,:at are we to ?9k ( all ?is8 ,has sci5ce made too wide a claim8 ,i believe t ! claims ( ! sect>ian sci5ti/ are1 to say ! lea/1 premature4 ,! exp]i5ces :i* we h be5 /udy+ dur+ ?is h\r 7& a great _m o!r k9ds ( religi\s exp]i5ces are l !m7 pla9ly %[ ! univ]se to be a m _msid$ affair ?an any sect1 ev5 ! sci5tific sect1 all[s =4 ,:at1 9 ! end1 are all our v]ifications b exp]i5ces t agree ) m or less isolat$ sy/ems ( ideas 7conceptual sy/ems7 t our m9ds h fram$8 ,b :y 9 ! "n ( common s5se ne$ we assume t only "o su* sy/em ( ideas c be true8 ,! obvi\s outcome ( our total exp]i5ce is t ! _w c be h&l$ accord+ to _m sy/ems ( ideas1 & is s h&l$ by diff]5t m51 & w ea* "t give "s *>act]i/ic k9d ( pr(it1 = :i* he c>es1 to ! h&l]1 :ile at ! same "t "s o!r k9d ( pr(it has to be omitt$ or po/pon$4 ,sci5ce gives to all ( u telegraphy1 electric light+1 & diagnosis1 & succe$s 9 prev5t+ & cur+ a c]ta9 am\nt ( disease4 ,religion 9 ! %ape ( m9dcure gives to "s ( u s]5ity1 moral poise1 & happ9ess1 & prev5ts c]ta9 =ms ( disease z well z sci5ce does1 or ev5 bett] 9 a c]ta9 class ( p]sons4 ,evid5tly1 !n1 ! sci5ce & ! religion are bo? ( !m g5u9e keys = unlock+ ! _w's treasure h\se to him :o c use ei!r ( !m practically4 ,j z evid5tly nei!r is exhau/ive or exclusive ( ! o!r's simultane\s use4 ,& :y1 aft] all1 may n ! _w be s complex z to consi/ ( _m int]p5etrat+ sph]es ( reality1 :i* we c ?us approa* 9 alt]nation by us+ diff]5t conceptions & assum+ diff]5t attitudes1 j z ma!maticians h&le ! same num]ical & spatial facts by geometry1 by analytical geometry1 by algebra1 by ! calculus1 or by quat]nions1 & ea* "t come out "r8 ,on ?is view religion & sci5ce1 ea* v]ifi$ 9 its own way f h\r to h\r & f life to life1 w\ld be coet]nal4 ,primitive ?\ght1 ) its belief 9 individualiz$ p]sonal =ces1 seems at any rate z f> z ev] f be+ driv5 by sci5ce f ! field today4 ,numb]s ( educat$ p /ill f9d x ! directe/ exp]im5tal *annel by :i* to c>ry on _! int]c\rse ) reality47#fe7 ,! case ( m9dcure lay s ready to my h& t ,i c\ld n resi/ ! temptation ( us+ x to br+ ^! la/ tru?s home to y\r att5tion1 b ,i mu/ cont5t myself today ) ?is v brief indication4 ,9 a lat] lecture ! relations ( religion bo? to sci5ce & to primitive ?\ght w h to receive mu* m explicit att5tion4 ,app5dix 7,see note to p4 #aba47 ,,case ,i4 8,my own exp]i5ce is ?is3 ,i _h long be5 ill1 & "o ( ! fir/ results ( my illness1 a doz5 ye>s be=e1 _h be5 a diplopia :i* depriv$ me ( ! use ( my eyes = read+ & writ+ almo/ entirely1 :ile a lat] "o _h be5 to %ut me out f ex]cise ( any k9d "u p5alty ( imm$iate & great exhau/ion4 ,i _h be5 "u ! c>e ( doctors ( ! highe/ /&+ bo? 9 ,europe & ,am]ica1 m5 9 ^: p[] to help me ,i _h _h great fai?1 ) no or ill result4 ,!n1 at a "t :5 ,i seem$ to be r rapidly los+ gr\nd1 ,i he>d "s ?+s t gave me int]e/ en\gh 9 m5tal heal+ to make me try x2 ,i _h no great hope ( gett+ any good f x--x 0 a *ance ,i tri$1 p>tly because my ?\ght 0 int]e/$ by ! new possibility x seem$ to op51 p>tly because x 0 ! only *ance ,i !n c\ld see4 ,i w5t to ,x4 9 ,bo/on1 f :om "s fri5ds ( m9e _h got1 or ?\ght t !y _h got1 great help2 ! treatm5t 0 a sil5t "o2 little 0 said1 & t little c>ri$ no conviction to my m9d2 :atev] influ5ce 0 ex]t$ 0 t ( ano!r p]son's ?\ght or feel+ sil5tly project$ on to my unconsci\s m9d1 into my n]v\s sy/em z x 71 z we sat /ill toge!r4 ,i believ$ f ! />t 9 ! possibility ( su* action1 = ,i knew ! p[] ( ! m9d to %ape1 help+ or h9d]+1 ! body's n]veactivities1 & ,i ?\ght telepa?y probable1 al?\gh unprov$1 b ,i _h no belief 9 x z m ?an a possibility1 & no /rong conviction nor any my/ic or religi\s fai? connect$ ) my ?\ght ( x t might h br\ght imag9ation /rongly into play4 8,i sat quietly ) ! heal] = half an h\r ea* day1 at fir/ ) no result2 !n1 aft] t5 days or s1 ,i became q sudd5ly & swiftly consci\s ( a tide ( new en]gy ris+ )9 me1 a s5se ( p[] to pass beyond old halt+places1 ( p[] to break ! b\nds t1 ?\gh (t5 tri$ be=e1 _h long be5 v]itable walls ab\t my life1 too high to climb4 ,i began to read & walk z ,i _h n done = ye>s1 & ! *ange 0 sudd51 m>k$1 & unmi/akable4 ,?is tide seem$ to m\nt = "s weeks1 ?ree or f\r p]haps1 :51 summ] hav+ come1 ,i came away1 tak+ ! treatm5t up aga9 a few mon?s lat]4 ,! lift ,i got prov$ p]man5t1 & left me sl[ly ga9+ gr\nd in/ead ( los+ x1 b ) ?is lift ! influ5ce seem$ 9 a way to h sp5t itself1 &1 ?\gh my confid5ce 9 ! reality ( ! p[] _h ga9$ imm5sely f ?is fir/ exp]i5ce1 & %\ld h help$ me to make fur!r ga9 9 heal? & /r5g? if my belief 9 x _h be5 ! pot5t factor !re1 ,i nev] aft] ?is got any result at all z /rik+ or z cle>ly m>k$ z ?is :i* came :5 ,i made trial ( x fir/1 ) little fai? & d\btful expectation4 ,x is difficult to put all ! evid5ce 9 su* a matt] into words1 to ga!r up into a di/9ct /atem5t all t "o bases "o's conclusions on1 b ,i h always felt t ,i _h abundant evid5ce to ju/ify 7to myself1 at lea/7 ! conclusion t ,i came to !n1 & s9ce h held to1 t ! physical *ange :i* came at t "t 01 fir/1 ! result ( a *ange wr\ght )9 me by a *ange ( m5tal /ate2 &1 secondly1 t t *ange ( m5tal /ate 0 n1 save 9 a v second>y way1 br\ght ab\t ?r\gh ! influ5ce ( an excit$ imag9ation1 or a consci\sly receiv$ sugge/ion ( an hypnotic sort4 ,la/ly1 ,i believe t ?is *ange 0 ! result ( my receiv+ telepa?ically1 & ^u a m5tal /ratum q bel[ ! level ( imm$iate consci\sness1 a heal?i] & m en]getic attitude1 receiv+ x f ano!r p]son ^: ?\ght 0 direct$ ^u me ) ! int5tion ( impress+ ! idea ( ?is attitude ^u me4 ,9 my case ! disease 0 di/9ctly :at w\ld be class$ z n]v\s1 n organic2 b f su* opportunities z ,i h _h ( obs]v+1 ,i h come to ! conclusion t ! divid+ l9e t has be5 drawn is an arbitr>y "o1 ! n]ves controll+ ! int]nal activities & ! nutrition ( ! body ?r\gh\t2 & ,i believe t ! c5tral n]v\s sy/em1 by />t+ & inhibit+ local c5tres1 c ex]cise a va/ influ5ce ^u disease ( any k9d1 if x c be br\ght to be>4 ,9 my judgm5t ! "q is simply h[ to br+ x to be>1 & ,i ?9k t ! unc]ta9ty & rem>kable diff]5ces 9 ! results obta9$ ?r\gh m5tal heal+ d b %[ h[ ignorant we are z yet ( ! =ces at "w & ( ! means we %\ld take to make !m effective4 ,t ^! results are n due to *ance co9cid5ces my obs]vation ( myself & o!rs makes me sure2 t ! consci\s m9d1 ! imag9ation1 ent]s into !m z a factor 9 _m cases is d\btless true1 b 9 _m o!rs1 & sometimes v extraord9>y ones1 x h>dly seems to ent] 9 at all4 ,on ! :ole ,i am incl9$ to ?9k t z ! heal+ action1 l ! morbid "o1 spr+s f ! plane ( ! normally unconsci\s m9d1 s ! /ronge/ & mo/ effective impressions are ^? :i* x receives1 9 "s z yet unkn[n1 subtle way1 directly f a heal?i] m9d ^: /ate1 ?r\gh a hidd5 law ( sympa?y1 x reproduces40 ,,case ,,ii4 8,at ! urg5t reque/ ( fri5ds1 & ) no fai? & h>dly any hope 7possibly ow+ to a previ\s unsuccessful exp]i5ce ) a ,*ri/ian ,sci5ti/71 our little daught] 0 plac$ "u ! c>e ( a heal]1 & cur$ ( a tr\ble ab\t :i* ! physician _h be5 v disc\rag+ 9 8 diagnosis4 ,?is int]e/$ me1 & ,i began /udy+ e>ne/ly ! me?od & philosophy ( ?is me?od ( heal+4 ,gradually an inn] peace & tranquillity came to me 9 s positive a way t my mann] *ang$ greatly4 ,my *ildr5 & fri5ds notic$ ! *ange & comm5t$ ^u x4 ,all feel+s ( irritability disappe>$4 ,ev5 ! expression ( my face *ang$ noticeably4 8,i _h be5 bigot$1 aggressive1 & intol]ant 9 discussion1 bo? 9 public & private4 ,i grew broadly tol]ant & receptive t[>d ! views ( o!rs4 ,i _h be5 n]v\s & irritable1 com+ home two or ?ree times a week ) a sick heada*e induc$1 z ,i !n suppos$1 by dyspepsia & cat>rh4 ,i grew s]5e & g5tle1 & ! physical tr\bles entirely disappe>$4 ,i _h be5 9 ! habit ( approa*+ e bus9ess int]view ) an almo/ morbid dread4 ,i n[ meet e "o ) confid5ce & inn] calm4 8,i may say t ! gr[? has all be5 t[>d ! elim9ation ( selfi%ness4 ,i d n mean simply ! gross]1 m s5sual =ms1 b ^? subtl] & g5]ally unrecogniz$ k9ds1 su* z express !mselves 9 sorr[1 grief1 regret1 envy1 etc4 ,x has be5 9 ! direction ( a practical1 work+ realization ( ! imman5ce ( ,god & ! ,div9ity ( man's true1 inn] self40 ,,lectures ,,vi ,,& ,,vii4 ,,! ,,sick ,,s\l4 ,at our la/ meet+1 we consid]$ ! heal?ym9d$ temp]am5t1 ! temp]am5t :i* has a con/itutional incapacity = prolong$ suff]+1 & 9 :i* ! t5d5cy to see ?+s optimi/ically is l a wat] ( cry/allization 9 :i* ! individual's "* is set4 ,we saw h[ ?is temp]am5t may become ! basis = a peculi> type ( religion1 a religion 9 :i* good1 ev5 ! good ( ?is _w's life1 is reg>d$ z ! ess5tial ?+ = a rational be+ to att5d to4 ,?is religion directs him to settle 8 scores ) ! m evil aspects ( ! univ]se by sy/ematically decl9+ to lay !m to he>t or make mu* ( !m1 by ignor+ !m 9 8 reflective calculations1 or ev51 on occasion1 by d5y+ outright t !y exi/4 ,evil is a disease2 & worry ov] disease is itself an additional =m ( disease1 :i* only adds to ! orig9al compla9t4 ,ev5 rep5tance & remorse1 affections :i* come 9 ! "* ( m9i/]s ( good1 may be b sickly & relax+ impulses4 ,! be/ rep5tance is to up & act = righte\sness1 & =get t y ev] _h relations ) s94 ,sp9oza's philosophy has ?is sort ( heal?ym9d$ness wov5 into ! he>t ( x1 & ?is has be5 "o secret ( its fasc9ation4 ,he :om ,reason leads1 accord+ to ,sp9oza1 is l$ altoge!r by ! influ5ce ov] 8 m9d ( good4 ,k ( evil is an 8inadequate0 k1 fit only = slavi% m9ds4 ,s ,sp9oza categorically condemns rep5tance4 ,:5 m5 make mi/akes1 he says1-- 8,"o might p]haps expect gnaw+s ( consci5ce & rep5tance to help to br+ !m on ! "r pa?1 & might !reupon conclude 7z e "o does conclude7 t ^! affections are good ?+s4 ,yet :5 we look at ! matt] closely1 we %all f9d t n only are !y n good1 b on ! contr>y delet]i\s & evil passions4 ,= x is manife/ t we c always get along bett] by reason & love ( tru? ?an by worry ( consci5ce & remorse4 ,h>mful are ^! & evil1 inasmu* z !y =m a p>ticul> k9d ( sadness2 & ! disadvantages ( sadness10 he cont9ues1 8,i h already prov$1 & %[n t we %\ld /rive to keep x f our life4 ,j s we %\ld endeavor1 s9ce uneas9ess ( consci5ce & remorse are ( ?is k9d ( complexion1 to flee & %un ^! /ates ( m9d407#ff7 ,)9 ! ,*ri/ian body1 = :i* rep5tance ( s9s has f ! beg9n+ be5 ! critical religi\s act1 heal?ym9d$ness has always come =w>d ) its mild] int]pretation4 ,rep5tance accord+ to su* heal?ym9d$ ,*ri/ians means gett+ away f ! s91 n groan+ & wri?+ ov] its commission4 ,! ,ca?olic practice ( confession & absolution is 9 "o ( its aspects little m ?an a sy/ematic me?od ( keep+ heal?ym9d$ness on top4 ,by x a man's acc\nts ) evil are p]iodically squ>$ & audit$1 s t he may />t ! clean page ) no old debts inscrib$4 ,any ,ca?olic w tell u h[ clean & fre% & free he feels aft] ! purg+ op]ation4 ,m>t9 ,lu!r by no means belong$ to ! heal?ym9d$ type 9 ! radical s5se 9 :i* we h discuss$ x1 & he repudiat$ prie/ly absolution = s94 ,yet 9 ?is matt] ( rep5tance he _h "s v heal?ym9d$ ideas1 due 9 ! ma9 to ! l>g5ess ( 8 conception ( ,god4 8,:5 ,i 0 a monk10 he says1 8,i ?\ght t ,i 0 utt]ly ca/ away1 if at any "t ,i felt ! lu/ ( ! fle%3 t is to say1 if ,i felt any evil motion1 fle%ly lu/1 wra?1 hatr$1 or envy aga9/ any bro!r4 ,i assay$ _m ways to help to quiet my consci5ce1 b x w\ld n be2 = ! concupisc5ce & lu/ ( my fle% did always return1 s t ,i c\ld n re/1 b 0 cont9ually vex$ ) ^! ?\ghts3 ,?is or t s9 ?\ ha/ committ$3 ?\ art infect$ ) envy1 ) impati5cy1 & su* o!r s9s3 !re=e ?\ art ent]$ into ?is holy ord] 9 va91 & all ?y good works are unpr(itable4 ,b if !n ,i _h rightly und]/ood ^! s5t5ces ( ,paul3 #8,! fle% lu/e? contr>y to ! ,_s1 & ! ,_s contr>y to ! fle%2 & ^! two are "o aga9/ ano!r1 s t ye _c d ! ?+s t ye w\ld d1' ,i %\ld n h s mis]ably torm5t$ myself1 b %\ld h ?\ght & said to myself1 z n[ commonly ,i d1 #8,m>t91 ?\ %alt n utt]ly be )\t s91 = ?\ ha/ fle%2 ?\ %alt !re=e feel ! battle !re(4' ,i rememb] t ,/aupitz 0 wont to say1 #8,i h v[$ unto ,god above a ?\s& times t ,i w\ld become a bett] man3 b ,i nev] p]=m$ t :i* ,i v[$4 ,h]eaft] ,i w make no su* v[3 = ,i h n[ le>n$ by exp]i5ce t ,i am n able to p]=m x4 ,unless1 !re=e1 ,god be favorable & m]ciful unto me = ,*ri/'s sake1 ,i %all n be able1 ) all my v[s & all my good de$s1 to /& be=e him4' ,?is 7( ,/aupitz's7 0 n only a true1 b also a godly & a holy desp]ation2 & ?is mu/ !y all confess1 bo? ) m\? & he>t1 :o w be sav$4 ,= ! godly tru/ n to _! own righte\sness4 ,!y look unto ,*ri/ _! reconcil]1 :o gave 8 life = _! s9s4 ,moreov]1 !y "k t ! remnant ( s9 :i* is 9 _! fle% is n laid to _! *>ge1 b freely p>don$4 ,not)/&+1 9 ! mean :ile !y fight 9 _s aga9/ ! fle%1 le/ !y %\ld fulfill ! lu/s !re(2 & al?\gh !y feel ! fle% to rage & rebel1 & !mselves also d fall sometimes into s9 ?r\gh infirmity1 yet are !y n disc\rag$1 nor ?9k !re=e t _! /ate & k9d ( life1 & ! works :i* are done accord+ to _! call+1 displease ,god2 b !y raise up !mselves by fai?407#fg7 ,"o ( ! h]esies = :i* ! ,jesuits got t spiritual g5ius1 ,mol9os1 ! f\nd] ( ,quietism1 s abom9ably condemn$ 0 8 heal?y m9d$ op9ion ( rep5tance3-- 8,:5 ?\ falle/ into a fault1 9 :at matt] soev] x be1 d n tr\ble nor afflict ?yself = x4 ,= !y are effects ( our frail ,nature1 /a9$ by ,orig9al ,s94 ,! common enemy w make !e believe1 z soon z ?\ falle/ into any fault1 t ?\ walke/ 9 error1 & !re=e art out ( ,god & 8 favor1 & h]e) w\ld he make !e di/ru/ ( ! div9e ,grace1 tell+ !e ( ?y mis]y1 & mak+ a giant ( x2 & putt+ x into ?y head t e day ?y s\l gr[s worse in/ead ( bett]1 :il/ x s (t5 repeats ^! fail+s4 ,o bless$ ,s\l1 op5 ?9e eyes2 & %ut ! gate aga9/ ^! diabolical sugge/ions1 kn[+ ?y mis]y1 & tru/+ 9 ! m]cy div9e4 ,w\ld n he be a m]e fool :o1 runn+ at t\rnam5t ) o!rs1 & fall+ 9 ! be/ ( ! c>e]1 %\ld lie weep+ on ! gr\nd & afflict+ himself ) disc\rses ^u 8 fall8 ,man 7!y w\ld tell him71 lose no "t1 get up & take ! c\rse aga91 = he t rises aga9 quickly & cont9ues 8 race is z if he _h nev] fall54 ,if ?\ see/ ?yself fall5 once & a ?\s& times1 ?\ oughte/ to make use ( ! rem$y :i* ,i h giv5 !e1 t is1 a lov+ confid5ce 9 ! div9e m]cy4 ,^! are ! weapons ) :i* ?\ mu/ fight & conqu] c[>dice & va9 ?\ghts4 ,?is is ! means ?\ oughte/ to use--n to lose "t1 n to di/urb ?yself1 & reap no good407#fh7 ,n[ 9 contra/ ) su* heal?ym9d$ views z ^!1 if we treat !m z a way ( delib]ately m9imiz+ evil1 /&s a radically opposite view1 a way ( maximiz+ evil1 if y please s to call x1 bas$ on ! p]suasion t ! evil aspects ( our life are ( its v ess5ce1 & t ! _w's mean+ mo/ comes home to u :5 we lay !m mo/ to he>t4 ,we h n[ to address ourselves to ?is m morbid way ( look+ at ! situation4 ,b z ,i clos$ our la/ h\r ) a g5]al philosophical reflection on ! heal?ym9d$ way ( tak+ life1 ,i %\ld l at ?is po9t to make ano!r philosophical reflection ^u x be=e turn+ to t heavi] task4 ,y w excuse ! brief delay4 ,if we admit t evil is an ess5tial "p ( our be+ & ! key to ! int]pretation ( our life1 we load ourselves d[n ) a difficulty t has always prov$ burd5some 9 philosophies ( religion4 ,!ism1 :5ev] x has erect$ itself into a sy/ematic philosophy ( ! univ]se1 has %[n a reluctance to let ,god be any?+ less ?an ,all9,all4 ,9 o!r words1 philosophic !ism has always %[n a t5d5cy to become pan!i/ic & moni/ic1 & to consid] ! _w z "o unit ( absolute fact2 & ?is has be5 at v>iance ) popul> or practical !ism1 :i* latt] has ev] be5 m or less frankly plurali/ic1 n to say poly!i/ic1 & %[n itself p]fectly well satisfi$ ) a univ]se compos$ ( _m orig9al pr9ciples1 provid$ we be only all[$ to believe t ! div9e pr9ciple rema9s supreme1 & t ! o!rs are subord9ate4 ,9 ?is latt] case ,god is n necess>ily responsible = ! exi/5ce ( evil2 he w\ld only be responsible if x 7 n f9ally ov]come4 ,b on ! moni/ic or pan!i/ic view1 evil1 l ev]y?+ else1 mu/ h its f\ndation 9 ,god2 & ! difficulty is to see h[ ?is c possibly be ! case if ,god be absolutely good4 ,?is difficulty faces u 9 e =m ( philosophy 9 :i* ! _w appe>s z "o flawless unit ( fact4 ,su* a unit is an ,individual1 & 9 x ! wor/ p>ts mu/ be z ess5tial z ! be/1 mu/ be z necess>y to make ! individual :at he is2 s9ce if any "p :atev] 9 an individual 7 to vani% or alt]1 x w\ld no long] be t individual at all4 ,! philosophy ( absolute idealism1 s vigor\sly repres5t$ bo? 9 ,scotl& & ,am]ica today1 has to /ruggle ) ?is difficulty q z mu* z s*ola/ic !ism /ruggl$ 9 its "t2 & al?\gh x w\ld be premature to say t !re is no speculative issue :atev] f ! puzzle1 x is p]fectly fair to say t !re is no cle> or easy issue1 & t ! only obvi\s escape f p>adox "h is to cut loose f ! moni/ic assumption altoge!r1 & to all[ ! _w to h exi/$ f its orig9 9 plurali/ic =m1 z an aggregate or collection ( high] & l[] ?+s & pr9ciples1 r ?an an absolutely unit>y fact4 ,= !n evil w\ld n ne$ to be ess5tial2 x might be1 & may always h be51 an indep5d5t portion t _h no rational or absolute "r to live ) ! re/1 & :i* we might conceivably hope to see got rid ( at la/4 ,n[ ! gospel ( heal?ym9d$ness1 z we h describ$ x1 ca/s its vote di/9ctly = ?is plurali/ic view4 ,:]eas ! moni/ic philosoph] f9ds himself m or less b\nd to say1 z ,hegel said1 t ev]y?+ actual is rational1 & t evil1 z an elem5t dialectically requir$1 mu/ be p9n$ 9 & kept & consecrat$ & h a function aw>d$ to x 9 ! f9al sy/em ( tru?1 heal?ym9d$ness refuses to say any?+ ( ! sort47#fi7 ,evil1 x says1 is emphatically irrational1 & n to be p9n$ 91 or pres]v$1 or consecrat$ 9 any f9al sy/em ( tru?4 ,x is a pure abom9ation to ! ,"l1 an ali5 unreality1 a wa/e elem5t1 to be sl\gh$ (f & negat$1 & ! v memory ( x1 if possible1 wip$ out & =gott54 ,! ideal1 s f> f be+ co ext5sive ) ! :ole actual1 is a m]e extract f ! actual1 m>k$ by its deliv]ance f all contact ) ?is diseas$1 inf]ior1 & excrem5titi\s /uff4 ,"h we h ! int]e/+ notion fairly & squ>ely pres5t$ to u1 ( !re be+ elem5ts ( ! univ]se :i* may make no rational :ole 9 conjunction ) ! o!r elem5ts1 & :i*1 f ! po9t ( view ( any sy/em :i* ^? o!r elem5ts make up1 c only be consid]$ s mu* irrelevance & accid5t--s mu* 8dirt10 z x 71 & matt] out ( place4 ,i ask y n[ n to =get ?is notion2 = al?\gh mo/ philosoph]s seem ei!r to =get x or to disda9 x too mu* ev] to m5tion x1 ,i believe t we %all h to admit x ourselves 9 ! end z conta9+ an elem5t ( tru?4 ,! m9dcure gospel ?us once m appe>s to u z hav+ dignity & importance4 ,we h se5 x to be a g5u9e religion1 & no m]e silly appeal to imag9ation to cure disease2 we h se5 its me?od ( exp]im5tal v]ification to be n unlike ! me?od ( all sci5ce2 & n[ "h we f9d m9dcure z ! *ampion ( a p]fectly def9ite conception ( ! metaphysical /ructure ( ! _w4 ,i hope t1 9 view ( all ?is1 y w n regret my hav+ press$ x ^u y\r att5tion at su* l5g?4 ,let u n[ say goodby = a :ile to all ?is way ( ?9k+1 & turn t[>ds ^? p]sons :o _c s swiftly ?r[ (f ! burd5 ( ! consci\sness ( evil1 b are cong5itally fat$ to suff] f its pres5ce4 ,j z we saw t 9 heal?ym9d$ness !re are %all[] & pr(\nd] levels1 happ9ess l t ( ! m]e animal1 & m reg5]ate sorts ( happ9ess1 s also are !re diff]5t levels ( ! morbid m9d1 & ! "o is mu* m =midable ?an ! o!r4 ,!re are p = :om evil means only a maladju/m5t ) ?+s1 a wrong correspond5ce ( "o's life ) ! environm5t4 ,su* evil z ?is is curable1 9 pr9ciple at lea/1 ^u ! natural plane1 = m]ely by modify+ ei!r ! self or ! ?+s1 or bo? at once1 ! two t]ms may be made to fit1 & all g m]ry z a m>riage bell aga94 ,b !re are o!rs = :om evil is no m]e relation ( ! subject to p>ticul> out] ?+s1 b some?+ m radical & g5]al1 a wrongness or vice 9 8 ess5tial nature1 :i* no alt]ation ( ! environm5t1 or any sup]ficial re>rangem5t ( ! inn] self1 c cure1 & :i* requires a sup]natural rem$y4 ,on ! :ole1 ! ,lat9 races h lean$ m t[>ds ! =m] way ( look+ ^u evil1 z made up ( ills & s9s 9 ! plural1 removable 9 detail2 :ile ! ,g]manic races h t5d$ r to ?9k ( ,s9 9 ! s+ul>1 & ) a capital ,s1 z ( some?+ in]adicably +ra9$ 9 our natural subjectivity1 & nev] to be remov$ by any sup]ficial piecemeal op]ations47#gj7 ,^! comp>isons ( races are always op5 to exception1 b und\bt$ly ! nor!rn tone 9 religion has incl9$ to ! m intimately pessimi/ic p]suasion1 & ?is way ( feel+1 be+ ! m extreme1 we %all f9d by f> ! m in/ructive = our /udy4 ,rec5t psy*ology has f\nd great use = ! ^w 8?re%old0 z a symbolic designation = ! po9t at :i* "o /ate ( m9d passes into ano!r4 ,?us we speak ( ! ?re%old ( a man's consci\sness 9 g5]al1 to indicate ! am\nt ( noise1 pressure1 or o!r out] /imulus :i* x takes to ar\se 8 att5tion at all4 ,"o ) a high ?re%old w doze ?r\gh an am\nt ( racket by :i* "o ) a l[ ?re%old w\ld be imm$iately wak$4 ,simil>ly1 :5 "o is s5sitive to small diff]5ces 9 any ord] ( s5sation1 we say he has a l[ 8diff]5ce?re%old0--8 m9d easily /eps ov] x into ! consci\sness ( ! diff]5ces 9 "q4 ,& j s we might speak ( a 8pa9?re%old10 a 8fe>?re%old10 a 8mis]y?re%old10 & f9d x quickly ov]pass$ by ! consci\sness ( "s individuals1 b ly+ too high 9 o!rs to be (t5 rea*$ by _! consci\sness4 ,! sangu9e & heal?ym9d$ live habitually on ! sunny side ( _! mis]yl9e1 ! depress$ & melan*oly live beyond x1 9 d>kness & appreh5sion4 ,!re are m5 :o seem to h />t$ 9 life ) a bottle or two ( *ampagne inscrib$ to _! cr$it2 :il/ o!rs seem to h be5 born close to ! pa9?re%old1 :i* ! slighte/ irritants fatally s5d !m ov]4 ,does x n appe> z if "o :o liv$ m habitually on "o side ( ! pa9?re%old might ne$ a diff]5t sort ( religion f "o :o habitually liv$ on ! o!r8 ,?is "q1 ( ! relativity ( diff]5t types ( religion to diff]5t types ( ne$1 arises naturally at ?is po9t1 & w become a s]i\s problem ere we h done4 ,b be=e we confront x 9 g5]al t]ms1 we mu/ address ourselves to ! unpleasant task ( he>+ :at ! sick s\ls1 z we may call !m 9 contra/ to ! heal?ym9d$1 h to say ( ! secrets ( _! prisonh\se1 _! own peculi> =m ( consci\sness4 ,let u !n resolutely turn our backs on ! onceborn & _! skyblue optimi/ic gospel2 let u n simply cry out1 9 spite ( all appe>ances1 8,hurrah = ! ,univ]se6--,god's 9 8 ,heav51 all's "r ) ! _w40 ,let u see r :e!r pity1 pa91 & fe>1 & ! s5tim5t ( human helplessness may n op5 a pr(\nd] view & put into our h&s a m complicat$ key to ! mean+ ( ! situation4 ,to beg9 )1 h[ c ?+s s insecure z ! successful exp]i5ces ( ?is _w af=d a /able an*orage8 ,a *a9 is no /rong] ?an its weake/ l9k1 & life is aft] all a *a94 ,9 ! heal?ie/ & mo/ prosp]\s exi/5ce1 h[ _m l9ks ( illness1 dang]1 & disa/] are always int]pos$8 ,unsuspect$ly f ! bottom ( e f\nta9 ( pleasure1 z ! old poet said1 some?+ bitt] rises up3 a t\* ( nausea1 a fall+ dead ( ! delight1 a :iff ( melan*oly1 ?+s t s\nd a knell1 = fugitive z !y may be1 !y br+ a feel+ ( com+ f a deep] region & (t5 h an appall+ conv9c+ness4 ,! buzz ( life ceases at _! t\* z a piano/r+ /ops s\nd+ :5 ! damp] falls ^u x4 ,( c\rse ! music c comm5ce aga92--& aga9 & aga91--at int]vals4 ,b ) ?is ! heal?ym9d$ consci\sness is left ) an irrem$iable s5se ( prec>i\sness4 ,x is a bell ) a crack2 x draws its brea? on suff]ance & by an accid5t4 ,ev5 if we suppose a man s pack$ ) heal?ym9d$ness z nev] to h exp]i5c$ 9 8 own p]son any ( ^! sob]+ int]vals1 /ill1 if he is a reflect+ be+1 he mu/ g5]alize & class 8 own lot ) t ( o!rs2 &1 do+ s1 he mu/ see t 8 escape is j a lucky *ance & no ess5tial diff]5ce4 ,he might j z well h be5 born to an entirely diff]5t =tune4 ,& !n inde$ ! holl[ security6 ,:at k9d ( a frame ( ?+s is x ( :i* ! be/ y c say is1 8,?ank ,god1 x has let me (f cle> ?is "t60 ,is n its bless$ness a fragile fiction8 ,is n y\r joy 9 x a v vulg> glee1 n mu* unlike ! snick] ( any rogue at 8 success8 ,if inde$ x 7 all success1 ev5 on su* t]ms z t6 ,b take ! happie/ man1 ! "o mo/ envi$ by ! _w1 & 9 n9e cases out ( t5 8 inmo/ consci\sness is "o ( failure4 ,ei!r 8 ideals 9 ! l9e ( 8 a*ievem5ts are pit*$ f> high] ?an ! a*ievem5ts !mselves1 or else he has secret ideals ( :i* ! _w kn[s no?+1 & 9 reg>d to :i* he inw>dly kn[s himself to be f\nd want+4 ,:5 su* a conqu]+ optimi/ z ,goe! c express himself 9 ?is wise1 h[ mu/ x be ) less successful m58 8,i w say no?+10 writes ,goe! 9 #ahbd1 8aga9/ ! c\rse ( my exi/5ce4 ,b at bottom x has be5 no?+ b pa9 & burd51 & ,i c affirm t dur+ ! :ole ( my #ge ye>s1 ,i h n _h f\r weeks ( g5u9e wellbe+4 ,x is b ! p]petual roll+ ( a rock t mu/ be rais$ up aga9 =ev]40 ,:at s+leh&$ man 0 ev] on ! :ole z successful z ,lu!r8 yet :5 he _h gr[n old1 he look$ back on 8 life z if x 7 an absolute failure4 8,i am utt]ly we>y ( life4 ,i pray ! ,"l w come =?) & c>ry me h5ce4 ,let him come1 above all1 ) 8 la/ ,judgm5t3 ,i w /ret* out my neck1 ! ?und] w bur/ =?1 & ,i %all be at re/40--,& hav+ a necklace ( :ite agates 9 8 h& at ! "t he add$3 8,o ,god1 grant t x may come )\t delay4 ,i w\ld readily eat up ?is necklace today1 = ! ,judgm5t to come tomorr[40--,! ,electress ,d[ag]1 "o day :5 ,lu!r 0 d9+ ) h]1 said to him3 8,doctor1 ,i wi% y may live =ty ye>s to come40 8,madam10 repli$ he1 8r ?an live =ty ye>s m1 ,i w\ld give up my *ance ( ,p>adise40 ,failure1 !n1 failure6 s ! _w /amps u at e turn4 ,we /rew x ) our blund]s1 our misde$s1 our lo/ opportunities1 ) all ! memorials ( our inadequacy to our vocation4 ,& ) :at a damn+ emphasis does x !n blot u out6 ,no easy f9e1 no m]e apology or =mal expiation1 w satisfy ! _w's dem&s1 b e p\nd ( fle% exact$ is soak$ ) all its blood4 ,! subtle/ =ms ( suff]+ kn[n to man are connect$ ) ! poison\s humiliations incid5tal to ^! results4 ,& !y are pivotal human exp]i5ces4 ,a process s ubiquit\s & ev]la/+ is evid5tly an integral "p ( life4 8,!re is inde$ "o elem5t 9 human de/9y10 ,rob]t ,l\is ,/ev5son writes1 8t n bl9dness itself c controv]t4 ,:atev] else we are int5d$ to d1 we are n int5d$ to succe$2 failure is ! fate allott$407#ga7 ,& our nature be+ ?us root$ 9 failure1 is x any wond] t !ologians %\ld h held x to be ess5tial1 & ?\ght t only ?r\gh ! p]sonal exp]i5ce ( humiliation :i* x eng5d]s ! deep] s5se ( life's significance is rea*$87#gb7 ,b ?is is only ! fir/ /age ( ! _wsickness4 ,make ! human be+'s s5sitiv5ess a little great]1 c>ry him a little f>!r ov] ! mis]y?re%old1 & ! good quality ( ! successful mom5ts !mselves :5 !y occur is spoil$ & vitiat$4 ,all natural goods p]i%4 ,ri*es take w+s2 fame is a brea?2 love is a *eat2 y\? & heal? & pleasure vani%4 ,c ?+s ^: end is always du/ & disappo9tm5t be ! real goods :i* our s\ls require8 ,back ( ev]y?+ is ! great spectre ( univ]sal dea?1 ! allencompass+ blackness3-- 8,:at pr(it ha? a man ( all 8 lab\r :i* he take? "u ! ,sun8 ,i look$ on all ! works t my h&s _h wr\ght1 & behold1 all 0 vanity & vexation ( _s4 ,= t :i* befalle? ! sons ( m5 befalle? bea/s2 z ! "o die?1 s die? ! o!r2 all are ( ! du/1 & all turn to du/ aga94444 ,! dead "k n any?+1 nei!r h !y any m a rew>d2 = ! memory ( !m is =gott54 ,also _! love & _! hatr$ & _! envy is n[ p]i%$2 nei!r h !y any m a portion = ev] 9 any?+ t is done "u ! ,sun4444 ,truly ! light is sweet1 & a pleasant ?+ x is = ! eyes to behold ! ,sun3 b if a man live _m ye>s & rejoice 9 !m all1 yet let him rememb] ! days ( d>kness2 = !y %all be _m40 ,9 %ort1 life & its negation are beat5 up inextricably toge!r4 ,b if ! life be good1 ! negation ( x mu/ be bad4 ,yet ! two are equally ess5tial facts ( exi/5ce2 & all natural happ9ess ?us seems infect$ ) a contradiction4 ,! brea? ( ! sepul*re surr\nds x4 ,to a m9d att5tive to ?is /ate ( ?+s & rightly subject to ! joyde/roy+ *ill :i* su* a contemplation eng5d]s1 ! only relief t heal?ym9d$ness c give is by say+3 8,/uff & nons5se1 get out into ! op5 air60 or 8,*e] up1 old fell[1 y'll be all "r erelong1 if y w only drop y\r morbidness60 ,b 9 all s]i\sness1 c su* bald animal talk z t be treat$ z a rational answ]8 ,to ascribe religi\s value to m]e happyglucky cont5tm5t ) "o's brief *ance at natural good is b ! v consecration ( =getfulness & sup]ficiality4 ,our tr\bles lie inde$ too deep = t cure4 ,! fact t we c die1 t we c be ill at all1 is :at p]plexes u2 ! fact t we n[ = a mom5t live & are well is irrelevant to t p]plexity4 ,we ne$ a life n correlat$ ) dea?1 a heal? n liable to illness1 a k9d ( good t w n p]i%1 a good 9 fact t flies beyond ! ,goods ( nature4 ,x all dep5ds on h[ s5sitive ! s\l may become to discords4 8,! tr\ble ) me is t ,i believe too mu* 9 common happ9ess & goodness10 said a fri5d ( m9e ^: consci\sness 0 ( ?is sort1 8& no?+ c console me = _! transi5cy4 ,i am appall$ & disconc]t$ at its be+ possible40 ,& s ) mo/ ( u3 a little cool+ d[n ( animal excitability & in/9ct1 a little loss ( animal t\ghness1 a little irritable weakness & desc5t ( ! pa9?re%old1 w br+ ! worm at ! core ( all our usual spr+s ( delight into full view1 & turn u into melan*oly metaphysicians4 ,! pride ( life & glory ( ! _w w %rivel4 ,x is aft] all b ! /&+ qu>rel ( hot y\? & ho>y eld4 ,old age has ! la/ ^w3 ! purely naturali/ic look at life1 h[ev] en?usia/ically x may beg91 is sure to end 9 sadness4 ,?is sadness lies at ! he>t ( e m]ely positivi/ic1 agno/ic1 or naturali/ic s*eme ( philosophy4 ,let sangu9e heal?ym9d$ness d its be/ ) its /range p[] ( liv+ 9 ! mom5t & ignor+ & =gett+1 /ill ! evil backgr\nd is really !re to be ?\ght (1 & ! skull w gr9 9 at ! banquet4 ,9 ! practical life ( ! individual1 we "k h[ 8 :ole gloom or glee ab\t any pres5t fact dep5ds on ! remot] s*emes & hopes ) :i* x /&s relat$4 ,its significance & fram+ give x ! *ief "p ( its value4 ,let x be kn[n to lead n[h]e1 & h[ev] agreeable x may be 9 its imm$iacy1 its gl[ & gild+ vani%4 ,! old man1 sick ) an insidi\s int]nal disease1 may laugh & quaff 8 w9e at fir/ z well z ev]1 b he kn[s 8 fate n[1 = ! doctors h reveal$ x2 & ! k knocks ! satisfaction out ( all ^! functions4 ,!y are p>tn]s ( dea? & ! worm is _! bro!r1 & !y turn to a m]e flatness4 ,! lu/re ( ! pres5t h\r is always borr[$ f ! backgr\nd ( possibilities x goes )4 ,let our common exp]i5ces be envelop$ 9 an et]nal moral ord]2 let our suff]+ h an immortal significance2 let ,heav5 smile ^u ! e>?1 & deities pay _! visits2 let fai? & hope be ! atmosph]e :i* man brea!s 92--& 8 days pass by ) ze/2 !y /ir ) prospects1 !y ?rill ) remot] values4 ,place r\nd !m on ! contr>y ! curdl+ cold & gloom & abs5ce ( all p]man5t mean+ :i* = pure naturalism & ! popul> sci5ce evolutionism ( our "t are all t is visible ultimately1 & ! ?rill /ops %ort1 or turns r to an anxi\s trembl+4 ,= naturalism1 f$ on rec5t cosmological speculations1 mank9d is 9 a position simil> to t ( a set ( p liv+ on a froz5 lake1 surr\nd$ by cliffs ov] :i* !re is no escape1 yet kn[+ t little by little ! ice is melt+1 & ! inevitable day draw+ ne> :5 ! la/ film ( x w disappe>1 & to be dr[n$ ignom9i\sly w be ! human creature's portion4 ,! m]ri] ! skat+1 ! w>m] & m sp>kl+ ! sun by day1 & ! ruddi] ! bonfires at night1 ! m poignant ! sadness ) :i* "o mu/ take 9 ! mean+ ( ! total situation4 ,! e>ly ,greeks are cont9ually held up to u 9 lit]>y works z models ( ! heal?ym9d$ joy\sness :i* ! religion ( nature may eng5d]4 ,!re 0 inde$ mu* joy\sness among ! ,greeks--,hom]'s fl[ ( en?usiasm = mo/ ?+s t ! sun %9es ^u is /eady4 ,b ev5 9 ,hom] ! reflective passages are *e]less17#gc7 & ! mom5t ! ,greeks grew sy/ematically p5sive & ?\ght ( ultimates1 !y became unmitigat$ pessimi/s47#gd7 ,! jeal\sy ( ! gods1 ! nemesis t foll[s too mu* happ9ess1 ! allencompass+ dea?1 fate's d>k opacity1 ! ultimate & un9telligible cruelty1 7 ! fix$ backgr\nd ( _! imag9ation4 ,! beautiful joy\sness ( _! poly!ism is only a poetic mod]n fiction4 ,!y knew no joys comp>able 9 quality ( preci\sness to ^? :i* we %all erelong see t ,brahmans1 ,buddhi/s1 ,*ri/ians1 ,mohamm$ans1 twiceborn p ^: religion is nonnaturali/ic1 get f _! sev]al cre$s ( my/icism & r5unciation4 ,/oic ins5sibility & ,epicurean resignation 7 ! f>!/ advance :i* ! ,greek m9d made 9 t direction4 ,! ,epicurean said3 8,seek n to be happy1 b r to escape unhapp9ess2 /rong happ9ess is always l9k$ ) pa92 !re=e hug ! safe %ore1 & d n tempt ! deep] raptures4 ,avoid disappo9tm5t by expect+ little1 & by aim+ l[2 & above all d n fret40 ,! ,/oic said3 8,! only g5u9e good t life c yield a man is ! free possession ( 8 own s\l2 all o!r goods are lies40 ,ea* ( ^! philosophies is 9 its degree a philosophy ( despair 9 nature's boons4 ,tru/ful selfab&onm5t to ! joys t freely (f] has entirely dep>t$ f bo? ,epicurean & ,/oic2 & :at ea* proposes is a way ( rescue f ! resultant du/ &a%es /ate ( m9d4 ,! ,epicurean /ill awaits results f economy ( indulg5ce & damp+ ( desire4 ,! ,/oic hopes = no results1 & gives up natural good altoge!r4 ,!re is dignity 9 bo? ^! =ms ( resignation4 ,!y repres5t di/9ct /ages 9 ! sob]+ process :i* man's primitive intoxication ) s5sehapp9ess is sure to und]go4 ,9 ! "o ! hot blood has gr[n cool1 9 ! o!r x has become q cold2 & al?\gh ,i h spok5 ( !m 9 ! pa/ t5se1 z if !y 7 m]ely hi/oric1 yet ,/oicism & ,epicureanism w probably be to all "t typical attitudes1 m>k+ a c]ta9 def9ite /age accompli%$ 9 ! evolution ( ! _wsick s\l47#ge7 ,!y m>k ! conclusion ( :at we call ! onceborn p]iod1 & repres5t ! highe/ flights ( :at twiceborn religion w\ld call ! purely natural man--,epicureanism1 :i* c only by great c\rtesy be call$ a religion1 %[+ 8 ref9em5t1 & ,/oicism exhibit+ 8 moral w4 ,!y leave ! _w 9 ! %ape ( an unreconcil$ contradiction1 & seek no high] unity4 ,comp>$ ) ! complex ec/asies :i* ! sup]naturally reg5]at$ ,*ri/ian may enjoy1 or ! ori5tal pan!i/ indulge 91 _! receipts = equanimity are exp$i5ts :i* seem almo/ crude 9 _! simplicity4 ,please obs]ve1 h[ev]1 t ,i am n yet pret5d+ f9ally to judge any ( ^! attitudes4 ,i am only describ+ _! v>iety4 ,! secure/ way to ! raptur\s sorts ( happ9ess ( :i* ! twice born make report has z an hi/oric matt] ( fact be5 ?r\gh a m radical pessimism ?an any?+ t we h yet consid]$4 ,we h se5 h[ ! lu/re & en*antm5t may be rubb$ (f f ! goods ( nature4 ,b !re is a pit* ( unhapp9ess s great t ! goods ( nature may be entirely =gott51 & all s5tim5t ( _! exi/5ce vani% f ! m5tal field4 ,= ?is extremity ( pessimism to be rea*$1 some?+ m is ne$$ ?an obs]vation ( life & reflection ^u dea?4 ,! individual mu/ 9 8 own p]son become ! prey ( a pa?ological melan*oly4 ,z ! heal?ym9d$ en?usia/ succe$s 9 ignor+ evil's v exi/5ce1 s ! subject ( melan*oly is =c$ 9 spite ( himself to ignore t ( all good :atev]3 = him x may no long] h ! lea/ reality4 ,su* s5sitiv5ess & susceptibility to m5tal pa9 is a r>e occurr5ce :]e ! n]v\s con/itution is entirely normal2 "o seldom f9ds x 9 a heal?y subject ev5 :]e he is ! victim ( ! mo/ atroci\s cruelties ( outw>d =tune4 ,s we note "h ! neurotic con/itution1 ( :i* ,i said s mu* 9 my fir/ lecture1 mak+ its active entrance on our sc5e1 & de/9$ to play a "p 9 mu* t foll[s4 ,s9ce ^! exp]i5ces ( melan*oly are 9 ! fir/ in/ance absolutely private & individual1 ,i c n[ help myself out ) p]sonal docum5ts4 ,pa9ful inde$ !y w be to li/5 to1 & !re is almo/ an indec5cy 9 h&l+ !m 9 public4 ,yet !y lie "r 9 ! middle ( our pa?2 & if we are to t\* ! psy*ology ( religion at all s]i\sly1 we mu/ be will+ to =get conv5tionalities1 & dive bel[ ! smoo? & ly+ (ficial conv]sational surface4 ,"o c di/+ui% _m k9ds ( pa?ological depression4 ,sometimes x is m]e passive joylessness & dre>9ess1 disc\ragem5t1 dejection1 lack ( ta/e & ze/ & spr+4 ,pr(essor ,ribot has propos$ ! "n anh$onia to designate ?is condition4 8,! /ate ( anh$onia1 if ,i may co9 a new ^w to pair (f ) analgesia10 he writes1 8has be5 v little /udi$1 b x exi/s4 ,a "y girl 0 smitt5 ) a liv] disease :i* = "s "t alt]$ h] con/itution4 ,%e felt no long] any affection = h] fa!r & "m4 ,%e w\ld h play$ ) h] doll1 b x 0 impossible to f9d ! lea/ pleasure 9 ! act4 ,! same ?+s :i* =m]ly convuls$ h] ) laught] entirely fail$ to int]e/ h] n[4 ,esquirol obs]v$ ! case ( a v intellig5t magi/rate :o 0 also a prey to hepatic disease4 ,e emotion appe>$ dead )9 him4 ,he manife/$ nei!r p]v]sion nor viol5ce1 b complete abs5ce ( emotional reaction4 ,if he w5t to ! !atre1 :i* he did out ( habit1 he c\ld f9d no pleasure !re4 ,! ?\ght ( 8 h\se1 ( 8 home1 ( 8 wife1 & ( 8 abs5t *ildr5 mov$ him z little1 he said1 z a !orem ( ,euclid407#gf7 ,prolong$ seasickness w 9 mo/ p]sons produce a tempor>y condition ( anh$onia4 ,e good1 t]re/rial or cele/ial1 is imag9$ only to be turn$ f ) disgu/4 ,a tempor>y condition ( ?is sort1 connect$ ) ! religi\s evolution ( a s+ul>ly l(ty "*1 bo? intellectual & moral1 is well describ$ by ! ,ca?olic philosoph]1 ,fa!r ,gratry1 9 8 autobiographical recollections4 ,9 consequ5ce ( m5tal isolation & excessive /udy at ! ,polyte*nic s*ool1 "y ,gratry fell into a /ate ( n]v\s exhau/ion ) symptoms :i* he ?us describes3-- 8,i _h su* a univ]sal t]ror t ,i woke at night ) a />t1 ?9k+ t ! ,pan!on 0 tumbl+ on ! ,polyte*nic s*ool1 or t ! s*ool 0 9 flames1 or t ! ,se9e 0 p\r+ into ! ,catacombs1 & t ,p>is 0 be+ swall[$ up4 ,& :5 ^! impressions 7 pa/1 all day long )\t respite ,i suff]$ an incurable & intol]able desolation1 v]g+ on despair4 ,i ?\ght myself1 9 fact1 reject$ by ,god1 lo/1 damn$6 ,i felt some?+ l ! suff]+ ( hell4 ,be=e t ,i _h nev] ev5 ?\ght ( hell4 ,my m9d _h nev] turn$ 9 t direction4 ,nei!r disc\rses nor reflections _h impress$ me 9 t way4 ,i took no acc\nt ( hell4 ,n[1 & all at once1 ,i suff]$ 9 a measure :at is suff]$ !re4 8,b :at 0 p]haps /ill m dreadful is t e idea ( heav5 0 tak5 away f me3 ,i c\ld no long] conceive ( any?+ ( ! sort4 ,heav5 did n seem to me wor? go+ to4 ,x 0 l a vacuum2 a my?ological elysium1 an abode ( %ad[s less real ?an ! e>?4 ,i c\ld conceive no joy1 no pleasure 9 inhabit+ x4 ,happ9ess1 joy1 light1 affection1 love--all ^! words 7 n[ devoid ( s5se4 ,)\t d\bt ,i c\ld /ill h talk$ ( all ^! ?+s1 b ,i _h become incapable ( feel+ any?+ 9 !m1 ( und]/&+ any?+ ab\t !m1 ( hop+ any?+ f !m1 or ( believ+ !m to exi/4 ,!re 0 my great & inconsolable grief6 ,i nei!r p]ceiv$ nor conceiv$ any long] ! exi/5ce ( happ9ess or p]fection4 ,an ab/ract heav5 ov] a nak$ rock4 ,su* 0 my pres5t abode = et]nity407#gg7 ,s mu* = melan*oly 9 ! s5se ( incapacity = joy\s feel+4 ,a mu* worse =m ( x is positive & active angui%1 a sort ( psy*ical neuralgia :olly unkn[n to heal?y life4 ,su* angui% may p>take ( v>i\s *>act]s1 hav+ sometimes m ! quality ( loa?+2 sometimes t ( irritation & exasp]ation2 or aga9 ( selfmi/ru/ & selfdespair2 or ( suspicion1 anxiety1 trepidation1 fe>4 ,! pati5t may rebel or submit2 may accuse himself1 or accuse outside p[]s2 & he may or he may n be torm5t$ by ! !oretical my/]y ( :y he %\ld s h to suff]4 ,mo/ cases are mix$ cases1 & we %\ld n treat our classifications ) too mu* respect4 ,moreov]1 x is only a relatively small proportion ( cases t connect !mselves ) ! religi\s sph]e ( exp]i5ce at all4 ,exasp]at$ cases1 = in/ance1 z a rule d n4 ,i quote n[ lit]ally f ! fir/ case ( melan*oly on :i* ,i lay my h&4 ,x is a lett] f a pati5t 9 a ,fr5* asylum4 8,i suff] too mu* 9 ?is hospital1 bo? physically & morally4 ,besides ! burn+s & ! sleeplessness 7= ,i no long] sleep s9ce ,i am %ut up "h1 & ! little re/ ,i get is brok5 by bad dreams1 & ,i am wak$ ) a jump by nightm>es1 dreadful visions1 lightn+1 ?und]1 & ! re/71 fe>1 atroci\s fe>1 presses me d[n1 holds me )\t respite1 nev] lets me g4 ,:]e is ! ju/ice 9 x all6 ,:at h ,i done to des]ve ?is excess ( sev]ity8 ,"u :at =m w ?is fe> cru% me8 ,:at w\ld ,i n owe to any "o :o w\ld rid me ( my life6 ,eat1 dr9k1 lie awake all night1 suff] )\t int]ruption--su* is ! f9e legacy ,i h receiv$ f my "m6 ,:at ,i fail to und]/& is ?is abuse ( p[]4 ,!re are limits to ev]y?+1 !re is a middle way4 ,b ,god kn[s nei!r middle way nor limits4 ,i say ,god1 b :y8 ,all ,i h kn[n s f> has be5 ! devil4 ,aft] all1 ,i am afraid ( ,god z mu* z ( ! devil1 s ,i drift along1 ?9k+ ( no?+ b suicide1 b ) nei!r c\rage nor means "h to execute ! act4 ,z y read ?is1 x w easily prove to y my insanity4 ,! /yle & ! ideas are incoh]5t en\gh--,i c see t myself4 ,b ,i _c keep myself f be+ ei!r crazy or an idiot2 &1 z ?+s are1 f :om %\ld ,i ask pity8 ,i am def5seless aga9/ ! invisible enemy :o is tight5+ 8 coils ar\nd me4 ,i %\ld be no bett] arm$ aga9/ him ev5 if ,i saw him1 or _h se5 him4 ,oh1 if he w\ld b kill me1 devil take him6 ,dea?1 dea?1 once = all6 ,b ,i /op4 ,i h rav$ to y long en\gh4 ,i say rav$1 = ,i c write no o!rwise1 hav+ nei!r bra9 nor ?\ghts left4 ,o ,god6 :at a mis=tune to be born6 ,born l a mu%room1 d\btless betwe5 an ev5+ & a morn+2 & h[ true & "r ,i 0 :5 9 our philosophyye> 9 college ,i *ew$ ! cud ( bitt]ness ) ! pessimi/s4 ,yes1 inde$1 !re is m pa9 9 life ?an gladness--x is "o long agony until ! grave4 ,?9k h[ gay x makes me to rememb] t ?is horrible mis]y ( m9e1 c\pl$ ) ?is unspeakable fe>1 may la/ fifty1 "o hundr$1 :o kn[s h[ _m m ye>s607#gh7 ,?is lett] %[s two ?+s4 ,fir/1 y see h[ ! entire consci\sness ( ! poor man is s *ok$ ) ! feel+ ( evil t ! s5se ( !re be+ any good 9 ! _w is lo/ = him altoge!r4 ,8 att5tion excludes x1 _c admit x3 ! sun has left 8 heav54 ,& secondly y see h[ ! qu]ul\s temp] ( 8 mis]y keeps 8 m9d f tak+ a religi\s direction4 ,qu]ul\sness ( m9d t5ds 9 fact r t[>ds irreligion2 & x has play$1 s f> z ,i "k1 no "p :atev] 9 ! con/ruction ( religi\s sy/ems4 ,religi\s melan*oly mu/ be ca/ 9 a m melt+ mood4 ,tol/oy has left u1 9 8 book call$ ,my ,confession1 a wond]ful acc\nt ( ! attack ( melan*oly :i* l$ him to 8 own religi\s conclusions4 ,! latt] 9 "s respects are peculi>2 b ! melan*oly pres5ts two *>act]s :i* make x a typical docum5t = our pres5t purpose4 ,fir/ x is a wellm>k$ case ( anh$onia1 ( passive loss ( appetite = all life's values2 & second1 x %[s h[ ! alt]$ & e/rang$ aspect :i* ! _w assum$ 9 consequ5ce ( ?is /imulat$ ,tol/oy's intellect to a gnaw+1 c>k+ que/ion+ & ef=t = philosophic relief4 ,i mean to quote ,tol/oy at "s l5g?2 b be=e do+ s1 ,i w make a g5]al rem>k on ea* ( ^! two po9ts4 ,fir/ on our spiritual judgm5ts & ! s5se ( value 9 g5]al4 ,x is notori\s t facts are compatible ) opposite emotional comm5ts1 s9ce ! same fact w inspire entirely diff]5t feel+s 9 diff]5t p]sons1 & at diff]5t times 9 ! same p]son2 & !re is no rationally d$ucible connection betwe5 any out] fact & ! s5tim5ts x may happ5 to provoke4 ,^! h _! s\rce 9 ano!r sph]e ( exi/5ce altoge!r1 9 ! animal & spiritual region ( ! subject's be+4 ,conceive y\rself1 if possible1 sudd5ly /ripp$ ( all ! emotion ) :i* y\r _w n[ inspires y1 & try to imag9e x z x exi/s1 purely by itself1 )\t y\r favorable or unfavorable1 hopeful or appreh5sive comm5t4 ,x w be almo/ impossible = y to realize su* a condition ( negativity & deadness4 ,no "o portion ( ! univ]se w\ld !n h importance beyond ano!r2 & ! :ole collection ( its ?+s & s]ies ( its ev5ts w\ld be )\t significance1 "*1 expression1 or p]spective4 ,:atev] ( value1 int]e/1 or mean+ our respective worlds may appe> endu$ ) are ?us pure gifts ( ! spectator's m9d4 ,! passion ( love is ! mo/ famili> & extreme example ( ?is fact4 ,if x comes1 x comes2 if x does n come1 no process ( reason+ c =ce x4 ,yet x trans=ms ! value ( ! creature lov$ z utt]ly z ! sunrise trans=ms ,mont ,blanc f a corpsel gray to a rosy en*antm5t2 & x sets ! :ole _w to a new tune = ! lov] & gives a new issue to 8 life4 ,s ) fe>1 ) indignation1 jeal\sy1 ambition1 wor%ip4 ,if !y are !re1 life *anges4 ,& :e!r !y %all be !re or n dep5ds almo/ always ^u nonlogical1 (t5 on organic conditions4 ,& z ! excit$ int]e/ :i* ^! passions put into ! _w is our gift to ! _w1 j s are ! passions !mselves gifts1--gifts to u1 f s\rces sometimes l[ & sometimes high2 b almo/ always nonlogical & beyond our control4 ,h[ c ! moribund old man reason back to himself ! romance1 ! my/]y1 ! imm95ce ( great ?+s ) :i* our old e>? t+l$ = him 9 ! days :5 he 0 "y & well8 ,gifts1 ei!r ( ! fle% or ( ! _s2 & ! _s bl[e? :]e x li/e?2 & ! _w's mat]ials l5d _! surface passively to all ! gifts alike1 z ! /agesett+ receives indiff]5tly :atev] alt]nat+ color$ lights may be %$ ^u x f ! optical app>atus 9 ! gall]y4 ,mean:ile ! practically real _w = ea* "o ( u1 ! effective _w ( ! individual1 is ! comp\nd _w1 ! physical facts & emotional values 9 indi/+ui%able comb9ation4 ,)draw or p]v]t ei!r factor ( ?is complex resultant1 & ! k9d ( exp]i5ce we call pa?ological ensues4 ,9 ,tol/oy's case ! s5se t life _h any mean+ :atev] 0 = a "t :olly )drawn4 ,! result 0 a trans=mation 9 ! :ole expression ( reality4 ,:5 we come to /udy ! ph5om5on ( conv]sion or religi\s reg5]ation1 we %all see t a n infrequ5t consequ5ce ( ! *ange op]at$ 9 ! subject is a transfiguration ( ! face ( nature 9 8 eyes4 ,a new heav5 seems to %9e ^u a new e>?4 ,9 melan*oliacs !re is usually a simil> *ange1 only x is 9 ! rev]se direction4 ,! _w n[ looks remote1 /range1 s9i/]1 uncanny4 ,its color is gone1 its brea? is cold1 !re is no speculation 9 ! eyes x gl>es )4 8,x is z if ,i liv$ 9 ano!r c5tury10 says "o asylum pati5t4--8,i see ev]y?+ ?r\gh a cl\d10 says ano!r1 8?+s are n z !y 71 & ,i am *ang$40--8,i see10 says a ?ird1 8,i t\*1 b ! ?+s d n come ne> me1 a ?ick veil alt]s ! hue & look ( ev]y?+40--8,p]sons move l %ad[s1 & s\nds seem to come f a di/ant _w40--8,!re is no long] any pa/ = me2 p appe> s /range2 x is z if ,i c\ld n see any reality1 z if ,i 7 9 a !atre2 z if p 7 actors1 & ev]y?+ 7 sc5]y2 ,i c no long] f9d myself2 ,i walk1 b :y8 ,ev]y?+ floats be=e my eyes1 b leaves no impression40--8,i weep false te>s1 ,i h unreal h&s3 ! ?+s ,i see are n real ?+s40--,su* are expressions t naturally rise to ! lips ( melan*oly subjects describ+ _! *ang$ /ate47#gi7 ,n[ !re are "s subjects :om all ?is leaves a prey to ! pr(\nde/ a/oni%m5t4 ,! /rang5ess is wrong4 ,! unreality _c be4 ,a my/]y is conceal$1 & a metaphysical solution mu/ exi/4 ,if ! natural _w is s d\blefac$ & unhomelike1 :at _w1 :at ?+ is real8 ,an urg5t wond]+ & que/ion+ is set up1 a por+ !oretic activity1 & 9 ! desp]ate ef=t to get into "r relations ) ! matt]1 ! suff]] is (t5 l$ to :at becomes = him a satisfy+ religi\s solution4 ,at ab\t ! age ( fifty1 ,tol/oy relates t he began to h mom5ts ( p]plexity1 ( :at he calls arre/1 z if he knew n 8h[ to live10 or :at to d4 ,x is obvi\s t ^! 7 mom5ts 9 :i* ! excitem5t & int]e/ :i* our functions naturally br+ _h ceas$4 ,life _h be5 en*ant+1 x 0 n[ flat sob]1 m ?an sob]1 dead4 ,?+s 7 mean+less ^: mean+ _h always be5 selfevid5t4 ,! que/ions 8,:y80 & 8,:at next80 began to beset him m & m frequ5tly4 ,at fir/ x seem$ z if su* que/ions mu/ be answ]able1 & z if he c\ld easily f9d ! answ]s if he w\ld take ! "t2 b z !y ev] became m urg5t1 he p]ceiv$ t x 0 l ^? fir/ discom=ts ( a sick man1 to :i* he pays b little att5tion till !y run into "o cont9u\s suff]+1 & !n he realizes t :at he took = a pass+ disord] means ! mo/ mom5t\s ?+ 9 ! _w = him1 means 8 dea?4 ,^! que/ions 8,:y80 8,:]e=e80 8,:at =80 f\nd no response4 8,i felt10 says ,tol/oy1 8t some?+ _h brok5 )9 me on :i* my life _h always re/$1 t ,i _h no?+ left to hold on to1 & t morally my life _h /opp$4 ,an inv9cible =ce impell$ me to get rid ( my exi/5ce1 9 "o way or ano!r4 ,x _c be said exactly t ,i wi%$ to kill myself1 = ! =ce :i* drew me away f life 0 full]1 m p[]ful1 m g5]al ?an any m]e desire4 ,x 0 a =ce l my old aspiration to live1 only x impell$ me 9 ! opposite direction4 ,x 0 an aspiration ( my :ole be+ to get out ( life4 8,behold me !n1 a man happy & 9 good heal?1 hid+ ! rope 9 ord] n to hang myself to ! raft]s ( ! room :]e e night ,i w5t to sleep alone2 behold me no long] go+ %oot+1 le/ ,i %\ld yield to ! too easy temptation ( putt+ an end to myself ) my gun4 8,i did n "k :at ,i want$4 ,i 0 afraid ( life2 ,i 0 driv5 to leave x2 & 9 spite ( t ,i /ill hop$ some?+ f x4 8,all ?is took place at a "t :5 s f> z all my out] circum/ances w5t1 ,i ought to h be5 completely happy4 ,i _h a good wife :o lov$ me & :om ,i lov$2 good *ildr5 & a l>ge prop]ty :i* 0 increas+ ) no pa9s tak5 on my "p4 ,i 0 m respect$ by my k9sfolk & acqua9tance ?an ,i _h ev] be52 ,i 0 load$ ) praise by /rang]s2 & )\t exagg]ation ,i c\ld believe my "n already fam\s4 ,moreov] ,i 0 nei!r insane nor ill4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i possess$ a physical & m5tal /r5g? :i* ,i h r>ely met 9 p]sons ( my age4 ,i c\ld m[ z well z ! peasants1 ,i c\ld "w ) my bra9 eight h\rs un9t]rupt$ly & feel no bad effects4 8,& yet ,i c\ld give no reasonable mean+ to any actions ( my life4 ,& ,i 0 surpris$ t ,i _h n und]/ood ?is f ! v beg9n+4 ,my /ate ( m9d 0 z if "s wick$ & /upid je/ 0 be+ play$ ^u me by "s "o4 ,"o c live only s long z "o is intoxicat$1 drunk ) life2 b :5 "o gr[s sob] "o _c fail to see t x is all a /upid *eat4 ,:at is true/ ab\t x is t !re is no?+ ev5 funny or silly 9 x2 x is cruel & /upid1 purely & simply4 8,! ori5tal fable ( ! travel] surpris$ 9 ! des]t by a wild bea/ is v old4 8,seek+ to save himself f ! fi]ce animal1 ! travel] jumps into a well ) no wat] 9 x2 b at ! bottom ( ?is well he sees a dragon wait+ ) op5 m\? to dev\r him4 ,& ! unhappy man1 n d>+ to g out le/ he %\ld be ! prey ( ! bea/1 n d>+ to jump to ! bottom le/ he %\ld be dev\r$ by ! dragon1 cl+s to ! bran*es ( a wild bu% :i* gr[s out ( "o ( ! cracks ( ! well4 ,8 h&s weak51 & he feels t he mu/ soon give way to c]ta9 fate2 b /ill he cl+s1 & sees two mice1 "o :ite1 ! o!r black1 ev5ly mov+ r\nd ! bu% to :i* he hangs1 & gnaw+ (f its roots4 8,! travel] sees ?is & kn[s t he mu/ inevitably p]i%2 b :ile ?us hang+ he looks ab\t him & f9ds on ! leaves ( ! bu% "s drops ( honey4 ,^! he rea*es ) 8 tongue & licks !m (f ) rapture4 8,?us ,i hang ^u ! b\ghs ( life1 kn[+ t ! inevitable dragon ( dea? is wait+ ready to te> me1 & ,i _c compreh5d :y ,i am ?us made a m>tyr4 ,i try to suck ! honey :i* =m]ly consol$ me2 b ! honey pleases me no long]1 & day & night ! :ite m\se & ! black m\se gnaw ! bran* to :i* ,i cl+4 ,i c see b "o ?+3 ! inevitable dragon & ! mice--,i _c turn my gaze away f !m4 8,?is is no fable1 b ! lit]al inconte/able tru? :i* e "o may und]/&4 ,:at w be ! outcome ( :at ,i d today8 ,( :at ,i %all d tomorr[8 ,:at w be ! outcome ( all my life8 ,:y %\ld ,i live8 ,:y %\ld ,i d any?+8 ,is !re 9 life any purpose :i* ! inevitable dea? :i* awaits me does n undo & de/roy8 8,^! que/ions are ! simple/ 9 ! _w4 ,f ! /upid *ild to ! wise/ old man1 !y are 9 ! s\l ( e human be+4 ,)\t an answ] to !m1 x is impossible1 z ,i exp]i5c$1 = life to g on4 8 #8,b p]haps1' ,i (t5 said to myself1 #8!re may be some?+ ,i h fail$ to notice or to compreh5d4 ,x is n possible t ?is condition ( despair %\ld be natural to mank9d4' ,& ,i s\ght = an explanation 9 all ! bran*es ( k acquir$ by m54 ,i que/ion$ pa9fully & protract$ly & ) no idle curiosity4 ,i s\ght1 n ) indol5ce1 b labori\sly & ob/9ately = days & nights toge!r4 ,i s\ght l a man :o is lo/ & seeks to save himself1--& ,i f\nd no?+4 ,i became conv9c$1 moreov]1 t all ^? :o be=e me _h s\ght = an answ] 9 ! sci5ces h also f\nd no?+4 ,& n only ?is1 b t !y h recogniz$ t ! v ?+ :i* 0 lead+ me to despair--! mean+less absurdity ( life--is ! only inconte/able k accessible to man40 ,to prove ?is po9t1 ,tol/oy quotes ! ,buddha1 ,solomon1 & ,s*op5hau]4 ,& he f9ds only f\r ways 9 :i* m5 ( 8 own class & society are accu/om$ to meet ! situation4 ,ei!r m]e animal bl9dness1 suck+ ! honey )\t see+ ! dragon or ! mice1--8& f su* a way10 he says1 8,i c le>n no?+1 aft] :at ,i n[ "k20 or reflective epicureanism1 snat*+ :at x c :ile ! day la/s1--:i* is only a m delib]ate sort ( /upefaction ?an ! fir/2 or manly suicide2 or see+ ! mice & dragon & yet weakly & pla9tively cl++ to ! bu% ( life4 ,suicide 0 naturally ! consi/5t c\rse dictat$ by ! logical intellect4 8,yet10 says ,tol/oy1 8:il/ my intellect 0 work+1 some?+ else 9 me 0 work+ too1 & kept me f ! de$--a consci\sness ( life1 z ,i may call x1 :i* 0 l a =ce t oblig$ my m9d to fix itself 9 ano!r direction & draw me out ( my situation ( despair4444 ,dur+ ! :ole c\rse ( ?is ye>1 :5 ,i almo/ unceas+ly kept ask+ myself h[ to end ! bus9ess1 :e!r by ! rope or by ! bullet1 dur+ all t "t1 alongside ( all ^? movem5ts ( my ideas & obs]vations1 my he>t kept langui%+ ) ano!r p9+ emotion4 ,i c call ?is by no o!r "n ?an t ( a ?ir/ = ,god4 ,?is crav+ = ,god _h no?+ to d ) ! movem5t ( my ideas1--9 fact1 x 0 ! direct contr>y ( t movem5t1--b x came f my he>t4 ,x 0 l a feel+ ( dread t made me seem l an orphan & isolat$ 9 ! mid/ ( all ^! ?+s t 7 s =eign4 ,& ?is feel+ ( dread 0 mitigat$ by ! hope ( f9d+ ! assi/ance ( "s "o407#hj7 ,( ! process1 intellectual z well z emotional1 :i*1 />t+ f ?is idea ( ,god1 l$ to ,tol/oy's recov]y1 ,i w say no?+ 9 ?is lecture1 res]v+ x = a lat] h\r4 ,! only ?+ t ne$ int]e/ u n[ is ! ph5om5on ( 8 absolute dis5*antm5t ) ord9>y life1 & ! fact t ! :ole range ( habitual values may1 to a man z p[]ful & full ( faculty z he 01 come to appe> s gha/ly a mock]y4 ,:5 disillusionm5t has gone z f> z ?is1 !re is seldom a re/itutio ad integrum4 ,"o has ta/$ ( ! fruit ( ! tree1 & ! happ9ess ( ,ed5 nev] comes aga94 ,! happ9ess t comes1 :5 any does come1--& (t5 en\gh x fails to return 9 an acute =m1 ?\gh its =m is sometimes v acute1--is n ! simple ignorance ( ill1 b some?+ va/ly m complex1 includ+ natural evil z "o ( its elem5ts1 b f9d+ natural evil no su* /umbl+block & t]ror because x n[ sees x swall[$ up 9 sup]natural good4 ,! process is "o ( r$emption1 n ( m]e rev]sion to natural heal?1 & ! suff]]1 :5 sav$1 is sav$ by :at seems to him a second bir?1 a deep] k9d ( consci\s be+ ?an he c\ld enjoy be=e4 ,we f9d a some:at diff]5t type ( religi\s melan*oly en%r9$ 9 lit]ature 9 ,john ,bunyan's autobiography4 ,tol/oy's preoccupations 7 l>gely objective1 = ! purpose & mean+ ( life 9 g5]al 0 :at s tr\bl$ him2 b poor ,bunyan's tr\bles 7 ov] ! condition ( 8 own p]sonal self4 ,he 0 a typical case ( ! psy*opa?ic temp]am5t1 s5sitive ( consci5ce to a diseas$ degree1 beset by d\bts1 fe>s1 & insi/5t ideas1 & a victim ( v]bal automatisms1 bo? motor & s5sory4 ,^! 7 usually texts ( ,scripture :i*1 sometimes damnatory & sometimes favorable1 w\ld come 9 a halfhalluc9atory =m z if !y 7 voices1 & fa/5 on 8 m9d & buffet x betwe5 !m l a %uttlecock4 ,add$ to ?is 7 a fe>ful melan*oly selfcontempt & despair4 8,nay1 ?\ght ,i1 n[ ,i gr[ worse & worse2 n[ ,i am f>!r f conv]sion ?an ev] ,i 0 be=e4 ,if n[ ,i %\ld h burn$ at ! /ake1 ,i c\ld n believe t ,*ri/ _h love = me2 alas1 ,i c\ld nei!r he> him1 nor see him1 nor feel him1 nor savor any ( 8 ?+s4 ,sometimes ,i w\ld tell my condition to ! p ( ,god1 :i*1 :5 !y he>d1 !y w\ld pity me1 & w\ld tell ( ! ,promises4 ,b !y _h z good h told me t ,i mu/ rea* ! ,sun ) my f+] z h bidd5 me receive or rely ^u ! ,promise4 ,yet all ?is :ile z to ! act ( s9n+1 ,i nev] 0 m t5d] ?an n[2 ,i dur/ n take a p9 or /ick1 ?\gh b s big z a /raw1 = my consci5ce n[ 0 sore1 & w\ld sm>t at e t\*2 ,i c\ld n tell h[ to speak my words1 = fe> ,i %\ld misplace !m4 ,oh1 h[ g+]ly did ,i !n g1 9 all ,i did or said6 ,i f\nd myself z on a miry bog t %ook if ,i did b /ir2 & 0 z !re left bo? by ,god & ,*ri/1 & ! _s1 & all good ?+s4 8,b my orig9al & inw>d pollution1 t 0 my plague & my affliction4 ,by reason ( t1 ,i 0 m loa?some 9 my own eyes ?an 0 a toad2 & ,i ?\ght ,i 0 s 9 ,god's eyes too4 ,s9 & corruption1 ,i said1 w\ld z naturally bubble out ( my he>t z wat] w\ld bubble out ( a f\nta94 ,i c\ld h *ang$ he>t ) anybody4 ,i ?\ght none b ! ,devil himself c\ld equal me = inw>d wick$ness & pollution ( m9d4 ,sure1 ?\ght ,i1 ,i am =sak5 ( ,god2 & ?us ,i cont9u$ a long :ile1 ev5 = "s ye>s toge!r4 8,& n[ ,i 0 sorry t ,god _h made me a man4 ,! bea/s1 birds1 fi%es1 etc41 ,i bless$ _! condition1 = !y _h n a s9ful nature2 !y 7 n obnoxi\s to ! wra? ( ,god2 !y 7 n to g to hellfire aft] dea?4 ,i c\ld !re=e h rejoic$1 _h my condition be5 z any ( !irs4 ,n[ ,i bless$ ! condition ( ! dog & toad1 yea1 gladly w\ld ,i h be5 9 ! condition ( ! dog or horse1 = ,i knew !y _h no s\l to p]i% "u ! ev]la/+ weight ( ,hell or ,s91 z m9e 0 l to d4 ,nay1 & ?\gh ,i saw ?is1 felt ?is1 & 0 brok5 to pieces ) x1 yet t :i* add$ to my sorr[ 01 t ,i c\ld n f9d ) all my s\l t ,i did desire deliv]ance4 ,my he>t 0 at times exce$+ly h>d4 ,if ,i w\ld h giv5 a ?\s& p\nds = a te>1 ,i c\ld n %$ "o2 no1 nor sometimes sc>ce desire to %$ "o4 8,i 0 bo? a bur!n & a t]ror to myself2 nor did ,i ev] s "k1 z n[1 :at x 0 to be we>y ( my life1 & yet afraid to die4 ,h[ gladly w\ld ,i h be5 any?+ b myself6 ,any?+ b a man6 & 9 any condition b my own407#ha7 ,poor pati5t ,bunyan1 l ,tol/oy1 saw ! light aga91 b we mu/ also po/pone t "p ( 8 /ory to ano!r h\r4 ,9 a lat] lecture ,i w also give ! end ( ! exp]i5ce ( ,h5ry ,all9e1 a devot$ evangeli/ :o work$ 9 ,nova ,scotia a hundr$ ye>s ago1 & :o ?us vividly describes ! highwat] m>k ( ! religi\s melan*oly :i* =m$ its beg9n+4 ,! type 0 n unlike ,bunyan's4 8,ev]y?+ ,i saw seem$ to be a burd5 to me2 ! e>? seem$ accurs$ = my sake3 all trees1 plants1 rocks1 hills1 & vales seem$ to be dress$ 9 m\rn+ & groan+1 "u ! weight ( ! curse1 & ev]y?+ ar\nd me seem$ to be conspir+ my ru94 ,my s9s seem$ to be laid op52 s t ,i ?\ght t e "o ,i saw knew !m1 & sometimes ,i 0 almo/ ready to ackn[l$ge _m ?+s1 :i* ,i ?\ght !y knew3 yea sometimes x seem$ to me z if e "o 0 po9t+ me out z ! mo/ guilty wret* ^u e>?4 ,i _h n[ s great a s5se ( ! vanity & empt9ess ( all ?+s "h bel[1 t ,i knew ! :ole _w c\ld n possibly make me happy1 no1 nor ! :ole sy/em ( creation4 ,:5 ,i wak$ 9 ! morn+1 ! fir/ ?\ght w\ld be1 ,oh1 my wret*$ s\l1 :at %all ,i d1 :]e %all ,i g8 ,& :5 ,i laid d[n1 w\ld say1 ,i %all be p]haps 9 hell be=e morn+4 ,i w\ld _m times look on ! bea/s ) envy1 wi%+ ) all my he>t ,i 0 9 _! place1 t ,i might h no s\l to lose2 & :5 ,i h se5 birds fly+ ov] my head1 h (t5 ?\ght )9 myself1 ,oh1 t ,i c\ld fly away f my dang] & di/ress6 ,oh1 h[ happy %\ld ,i be1 if ,i 7 9 _! place607#hb7 ,envy ( ! placid bea/s seems to be a v widespread affection 9 ?is type ( sadness4 ,! wor/ k9d ( melan*oly is t :i* takes ! =m ( panic fe>4 ,"h is an excell5t example1 = p]mission to pr9t :i* ,i h to ?ank ! suff]]4 ,! orig9al is 9 ,fr5*1 & ?\gh ! subject 0 evid5tly 9 a bad n]v\s condition at ! "t ( :i* he writes1 8 case has o!rwise ! m]it ( extreme simplicity4 ,i translate freely4 8,:il/ 9 ?is /ate ( philosophic pessimism & g5]al depression ( spirits ab\t my prospects1 ,i w5t "o ev5+ into a dress+room 9 ! twilight to procure "s article t 0 !re2 :5 sudd5ly !re fell ^u me )\t any w>n+1 j z if x came out ( ! d>kness1 a horrible fe> ( my own exi/5ce4 ,simultane\sly !re arose 9 my m9d ! image ( an epileptic pati5t :om ,i _h se5 9 ! asylum1 a blackhair$ y\? ) gre5i% sk91 entirely idiotic1 :o us$ to sit all day on "o ( ! b5*es1 or r %elves aga9/ ! wall1 ) 8 knees drawn up aga9/ 8 *91 & ! co>se gray und]%irt1 :i* 0 8 only g>m5t1 drawn ov] !m inclos+ 8 entire figure4 ,he sat !re l a sort ( sculptur$ ,egyptian cat or ,p]uvian mummy1 mov+ no?+ b 8 black eyes & look+ absolutely nonhuman4 ,?is image & my fe> ent]$ into a species ( comb9ation ) ea* o!r4 ,t %ape am ,i1 ,i felt1 pot5tially4 ,no?+ t ,i possess c def5d me aga9/ t fate1 if ! h\r = x %\ld /rike = me z x /ruck = him4 ,!re 0 su* a horror ( him1 & su* a p]ception ( my own m]ely mom5t>y discrepancy f him1 t x 0 z if some?+ hi!rto solid )9 my brea/ gave way entirely1 & ,i became a mass ( quiv]+ fe>4 ,aft] ?is ! univ]se 0 *ang$ = me altoge!r4 ,i awoke morn+ aft] morn+ ) a horrible dread at ! pit ( my /oma*1 & ) a s5se ( ! insecurity ( life t ,i nev] knew be=e1 & t ,i h nev] felt s9ce47#hc7 ,x 0 l a revelation2 & al?\gh ! imm$iate feel+s pass$ away1 ! exp]i5ce has made me sympa!tic ) ! morbid feel+s ( o!rs ev] s9ce4 ,x gradually fad$1 b = mon?s ,i 0 unable to g out into ! d>k alone4 8,9 g5]al ,i dread$ to be left alone4 ,i rememb] wond]+ h[ o!r p c\ld live1 h[ ,i myself _h ev] liv$1 s unconsci\s ( t pit ( insecurity b5ea? ! surface ( life4 ,my "m 9 p>ticul>1 a v *e]ful p]son1 seem$ to me a p]fect p>adox 9 h] unconsci\sness ( dang]1 :i* y may well believe ,i 0 v c>eful n to di/urb by revelations ( my own /ate ( m9d4 ,i h always ?\ght t ?is exp]i5ce ( melan*olia ( m9e _h a religi\s be>+40 ,on ask+ ?is correspond5t to expla9 m fully :at he meant by ^! la/ words1 ! answ] he wrote 0 ?is3-- 8,i mean t ! fe> 0 s invasive & p[]ful t if ,i _h n clung to scripturetexts l #8,! et]nal ,god is my refuge1' etc41 #8,come unto me1 all ye t labor & are heavylad51' etc41 #8,i am ! resurrection & ! life1' etc41 ,i ?9k ,i %\ld h gr[n really insane407#hd7 ,!re is no ne$ ( m examples4 ,! cases we h look$ at are en\gh4 ,"o ( !m gives u ! vanity ( mortal ?+s2 ano!r ! s5se ( s92 & ! rema9+ "o describes ! fe> ( ! univ]se2--& 9 "o or o!r ( ^! ?ree ways x always is t man's orig9al optimism & selfsatisfaction get level$ ) ! du/4 ,9 none ( ^! cases 0 !re any intellectual insanity or delusion ab\t matt]s ( fact2 b 7 we dispos$ to op5 ! *apt] ( really insane melan*olia1 ) its halluc9ations & delusions1 x w\ld be a worse /ory /ill--desp]ation absolute & complete1 ! :ole univ]se coagulat+ ab\t ! suff]] into a mat]ial ( ov]:elm+ horror1 surr\nd+ him )\t op5+ or end4 ,n ! conception or intellectual p]ception ( evil1 b ! grisly bloodfreez+ he>tpalsy+ s5sation ( x close ^u "o1 & no o!r conception or s5sation able to live = a mom5t 9 its pres5ce4 ,h[ irrelevantly remote seem all our usual ref9$ optimisms & intellectual & moral consolations 9 pres5ce ( a ne$ ( help l ?is6 ,"h is ! real core ( ! religi\s problem3 ,help6 help6 ,no prophet c claim to br+ a f9al message unless he says ?+s t w h a s\nd ( reality 9 ! e>s ( victims su* z ^!4 ,b ! deliv]ance mu/ come 9 z /rong a =m z ! compla9t1 if x is to take effect2 & t seems a reason :y ! co>s] religions1 revivali/ic1 orgia/ic1 ) blood & miracles & sup]natural op]ations1 may possibly nev] be displac$4 ,"s con/itutions ne$ !m too mu*4 ,arriv$ at ?is po9t1 we c see h[ great an antagonism may naturally arise betwe5 ! heal?ym9d$ way ( view+ life & ! way t takes all ?is exp]i5ce ( evil z some?+ ess5tial4 ,to ?is latt] way1 ! morbidm9d$ way1 z we might call x1 heal?ym9d$ness pure & simple seems unspeakably bl9d & %all[4 ,to ! heal?ym9d$ way1 on ! o!r h&1 ! way ( ! sick s\l seems unmanly & diseas$4 ,) _! grubb+ 9 ratholes in/ead ( liv+ 9 ! light2 ) _! manufacture ( fe>s1 & preoccupation ) e un:olesome k9d ( mis]y1 !re is some?+ almo/ obsc5e ab\t ^! *ildr5 ( wra? & crav]s ( a second bir?4 ,if religi\s intol]ance & hang+ & burn+ c\ld aga9 become ! ord] ( ! day1 !re is little d\bt t1 h[ev] x may h be5 9 ! pa/1 ! heal?ym9d$ w\ld at pres5t %[ !mselves ! less indulg5t p>ty ( ! two4 ,9 our own attitude1 n yet ab&on$1 ( imp>tial onlook]s1 :at are we to say ( ?is qu>rel8 ,x seems to me t we are b\nd to say t morbidm9d$ness ranges ov] ! wid] scale ( exp]i5ce1 & t its survey is ! "o t ov]laps4 ,! me?od ( av]t+ "o's att5tion f evil1 & liv+ simply 9 ! light ( good is spl5did z long z x w "w4 ,x w "w ) _m p]sons2 x w "w f> m g5]ally ?an mo/ ( u are ready to suppose2 & )9 ! sph]e ( its successful op]ation !re is no?+ to be said aga9/ x z a religi\s solution4 ,b x breaks d[n impot5tly z soon z melan*oly comes2 & ev5 ?\gh "o be q free f melan*oly "o's self1 !re is no d\bt t heal?ym9d$ness is inadequate z a philosophical doctr9e1 because ! evil facts :i* x refuses positively to acc\nt = are a g5u9e portion ( reality2 & !y may aft] all be ! be/ key to life's significance1 & possibly ! only op5]s ( our eyes to ! deepe/ levels ( tru?4 ,! normal process ( life conta9s mom5ts z bad z any ( ^? :i* insane melan*oly is fill$ )1 mom5ts 9 :i* radical evil gets its inn+s & takes its solid turn4 ,! lunatic's visions ( horror are all drawn f ! mat]ial ( daily fact4 ,our civilization is f\nd$ on ! %ambles1 & e individual exi/5ce goes out 9 a lonely spasm ( helpless agony4 ,if y prote/1 my fri5d1 wait till y arrive !re y\rself6 ,to believe 9 ! c>nivor\s reptiles ( geologic times is h>d = our imag9ation--!y seem too mu* l m]e museum specim5s4 ,yet !re is no too? 9 any "o ( ^? museumskulls t did n daily ?r\gh long ye>s ( ! =etime hold fa/ to ! body /ruggl+ 9 despair ( "s fat$ liv+ victim4 ,=ms ( horror j z dreadful to _! victims1 if on a small] spatial scale1 fill ! _w ab\t u to day4 ,"h on our v he>?s & 9 our g>d5s ! inf]nal cat plays ) ! pant+ m\se1 or holds ! hot bird flutt]+ 9 h] jaws4 ,crocodiles & rattlesnakes & py?ons are at ?is mom5t vessels ( life z real z we are2 _! loa?some exi/5ce fills e m9ute ( e day t drags its l5g? along2 & :5ev] !y or o!r wild bea/s clut* _! liv+ prey1 ! deadly horror :i* an agitat$ melan*oliac feels is ! lit]ally "r reaction on ! situation47#he7 ,x may inde$ be t no religi\s reconciliation ) ! absolute totality ( ?+s is possible4 ,"s evils1 inde$1 are m9i/]ial to high] =ms ( good2 b x may be t !re are =ms ( evil s extreme z to ent] into no good sy/em :atsoev]1 & t1 9 respect ( su* evil1 dumb submission or neglect to notice is ! only practical res\rce4 ,?is "q mu/ confront u on a lat] day4 ,b provisionally1 & z a m]e matt] ( program & me?od1 s9ce ! evil facts are z g5u9e p>ts ( nature z ! good ones1 ! philosophic presumption %\ld be t !y h "s rational significance1 & t sy/ematic heal?ym9d$ness1 fail+ z x does to accord to sorr[1 pa91 & dea? any positive & active att5tion :atev]1 is =mally less complete ?an sy/ems t try at lea/ to include ^! elem5ts 9 _! scope4 ,! complete/ religions w\ld !re=e seem to be ^? 9 :i* ! pessimi/ic elem5ts are be/ develop$4 ,buddhism1 ( c\rse1 & ,*ri/ianity are ! be/ kn[n to u ( ^!4 ,!y are ess5tially religions ( deliv]ance3 ! man mu/ die to an unreal life be=e he c be born into ! real life4 ,9 my next lecture1 ,i w try to discuss "s ( ! psy*ological conditions ( ?is second bir?4 ,=tunately f n[ onw>d we %all h to deal ) m *e]ful subjects ?an ^? :i* we h rec5tly be5 dwell+ on4 ,,lecture ,,viii4 ,,! ,,divid$ ,,self1 ,,& ,,! ,,process ,,( ,,its ,,unification4 ,! la/ lecture 0 a pa9ful "o1 deal+ z x did ) evil z a p]vasive elem5t ( ! _w we live 94 ,at ! close ( x we 7 br\ght into full view ( ! contra/ betwe5 ! two ways ( look+ at life :i* are *>act]i/ic respectively ( :at we call$ ! heal?y m9d$1 :o ne$ to be born only once1 & ( ! sick s\ls1 :o mu/ be twiceborn 9 ord] to be happy4 ,! result is two diff]5t conceptions ( ! univ]se ( our exp]i5ce4 ,9 ! religion ( ! onceborn ! _w is a sort ( rectil9e> or "o/ori$ affair1 ^: acc\nts are kept 9 "o d5om9ation1 ^: p>ts h j ! values :i* naturally !y appe> to h1 & ( :i* a simple algebraic sum ( pluses & m9uses w give ! total wor?4 ,happ9ess & religi\s peace consi/ 9 liv+ on ! plus side ( ! acc\nt4 ,9 ! religion ( ! twice born1 on ! o!r h&1 ! _w is a d\ble/ori$ my/]y4 ,peace _c be rea*$ by ! simple addition ( pluses & elim9ation ( m9uses f life4 ,natural good is n simply insuffici5t 9 am\nt & transi5t1 !re lurks a falsity 9 its v be+4 ,cancell$ z x all is by dea? if n by e>li] enemies1 x gives no f9al balance1 & c nev] be ! ?+ int5d$ = our la/+ wor%ip4 ,x keeps u f our real good1 r2 & r5unciation & despair ( x are our fir/ /ep 9 ! direction ( ! tru?4 ,!re are two lives1 ! natural & ! spiritual1 & we mu/ lose ! "o be=e we c p>ticipate 9 ! o!r4 ,9 _! extreme =ms1 ( pure naturalism & pure salvationism1 ! two types are viol5tly contra/$2 ?\gh "h z 9 mo/ o!r curr5t classifications1 ! radical extremes are some:at ideal ab/ractions1 & ! concrete human be+s :om we (t5e/ meet are int]m$iate v>ieties & mixtures4 ,practically1 h[ev]1 y all recognize ! diff]5ce3 y und]/&1 = example1 ! disda9 ( ! me?odi/ conv]t = ! m]e skyblue heal?ym9d$ morali/2 & y likewise ent] into ! av]sion ( ! latt] to :at seems to him ! diseas$ subjectivism ( ! ,me?odi/1 dy+ to live1 z he calls x1 & mak+ ( p>adox & ! inv]sion ( natural appe>ances ! ess5ce ( ,god's tru?47#hf7 ,! psy*ological basis ( ! twiceborn "* seems to be a c]ta9 discordancy or het]og5eity 9 ! native temp]am5t ( ! subject1 an incompletely unifi$ moral & intellectual con/itution4 8,homo duplex1 homo duplex60 writes ,alphonse ,daudet4 8,! fir/ "t t ,i p]ceiv$ t ,i 0 two 0 at ! dea? ( my bro!r ,h5ri1 :5 my fa!r cri$ out s dramatically1 #8,he is dead1 he is dead6' ,:ile my fir/ self wept1 my second self ?\ght1 #8,h[ truly giv5 0 t cry1 h[ f9e x w\ld be at ! !atre4' ,i 0 !n f\rte5 ye>s old4 8,?is horrible duality has (t5 giv5 me matt] = reflection4 ,oh1 ?is t]rible second me1 always seat$ :il/ ! o!r is on foot1 act+1 liv+1 suff]+1 be/irr+ itself4 ,?is second me t ,i h nev] be5 able to intoxicate1 to make %$ te>s1 or put to sleep4 ,& h[ x sees into ?+s1 & h[ x mocks607#hg7 ,rec5t works on ! psy*ology ( "* h _h mu* to say ^u ?is po9t47#hh7 ,"s p]sons are born ) an inn] con/itution :i* is h>moni\s & well balanc$ f ! outset4 ,_! impulses are consi/5t ) "o ano!r1 _! w foll[s )\t tr\ble ! guidance ( _! intellect1 _! passions are n excessive1 & _! lives are little haunt$ by regrets4 ,o!rs are oppositely con/itut$2 & are s 9 degrees :i* may v>y f some?+ s slight z to result 9 a m]ely odd or :imsical inconsi/5cy1 to a discordancy ( :i* ! consequ5ces may be inconv5i5t 9 ! extreme4 ,( ! m innoc5t k9ds ( het]og5eity ,i f9d a good example 9 ,mrs4 ,annie ,besant's autobiography4 8,i h ev] be5 ! que]e/ mixture ( weakness & /r5g?1 & h paid heavily = ! weakness4 ,z a *ild ,i us$ to suff] tortures ( %yness1 & if my %oelace 0 unti$ w\ld feel %amefac$ly t e eye 0 fix$ on ! unlucky /r+2 z a girl ,i w\ld %r9k away f /rang]s & ?9k myself unwant$ & unlik$1 s t ,i 0 full ( eag] gratitude to any "o :o notic$ me k9dly2 z ! "y mi/ress ( a h\se ,i 0 afraid ( my s]vants1 & w\ld let c>eless "w pass r ?an be> ! pa9 ( reprov+ ! illdo]2 :5 ,i h be5 lectur+ & debat+ ) no lack ( _s on ! plat=m1 ,i h pref]r$ to g )\t :at ,i want$ at ! hotel r ?an to r+ & make ! wait] fet* x4 ,combative on ! plat=m 9 def5se ( any cause ,i c>$ =1 ,i %r9k f qu>rel or disapproval 9 ! h\se1 & am a c[>d at he>t 9 private :ile a good fight] 9 public4 ,h[ (t5 h ,i pass$ unhappy qu>t]s ( an h\r screw+ up my c\rage to f9d fault ) "s subord9ate :om my duty compell$ me to reprove1 & h[ (t5 h ,i je]$ at myself = a fraud z ! d\ghty plat=m combatant1 :5 %r9k+ f blam+ "s lad or lass = do+ _! "w badly4 ,an unk9d look or ^w has avail$ to make me %r9k into myself z a snail into its %ell1 :ile1 on ! plat=m1 opposition makes me speak my be/407#hi7 ,?is am\nt ( inconsi/5cy w only c\nt z amiable weakness2 b a /rong] degree ( het]og5eity may make havoc ( ! subject's life4 ,!re are p]sons ^: exi/5ce is little m ?an a s]ies ( zigzags1 z n[ "o t5d5cy & n[ ano!r gets ! upp] h&4 ,_! _s w>s ) _! fle%1 !y wi% = incompatibles1 wayw>d impulses int]rupt _! mo/ delib]ate plans1 & _! lives are "o long drama ( rep5tance & ( ef=t to repair misdemeanors & mi/akes4 ,het]og5e\s p]sonality has be5 expla9$ z ! result ( inh]itance--! traits ( "* ( incompatible & antagoni/ic ance/ors are suppos$ to be pres]v$ alongside ( ea* o!r47#ij7 ,?is explanation may pass = :at x is wor?--x c]ta9ly ne$s corroboration4 ,b :atev] ! cause ( het]og5e\s p]sonality may be1 we f9d ! extreme examples ( x 9 ! psy*opa?ic temp]am5t1 ( :i* ,i spoke 9 my fir/ lecture4 ,all writ]s ab\t t temp]am5t make ! inn] het]og5eity prom95t 9 _! descriptions4 ,frequ5tly1 inde$1 x is only ?is trait t leads u to ascribe t temp]am5t to a man at all4 ,a 8dgnr suprieur0 is simply a man ( s5sibility 9 _m directions1 :o f9ds m difficulty ?an is common 9 keep+ 8 spiritual h\se 9 ord] & runn+ 8 furr[ /raight1 because 8 feel+s & impulses are too ke5 & too discrepant mutually4 ,9 ! haunt+ & insi/5t ideas1 9 ! irrational impulses1 ! morbid scruples1 dreads1 & inhibitions :i* beset ! psy*opa?ic temp]am5t :5 x is ?or\ghly pron\nc$1 we h exquisite examples ( het]og5e\s p]sonality4 ,bunyan _h an obsession ( ! words1 8,sell ,*ri/ = ?is1 sell him = t1 sell him1 sell him60 :i* w\ld run ?r\gh 8 m9d a hundr$ times toge!r1 until "o day out ( brea? ) retort+1 8,i w n1 ,i w n10 he impulsively said1 8,let him g if he w10 & ?is loss ( ! battle kept him 9 despair = ov] a ye>4 ,! lives ( ! sa9ts are full ( su* blasphem\s obsessions1 ascrib$ inv>iably to ! direct ag5cy ( ,satan4 ,! ph5om5on connects itself ) ! life ( ! subconsci\s self1 scall$1 ( :i* we mu/ erelong speak m directly4 ,n[ 9 all ( u1 h[ev] con/itut$1 b to a degree ! great] 9 proportion z we are int5se & s5sitive & subject to div]sifi$ temptations1 & to ! greate/ possible degree if we are decid$ly psy*opa?ic1 does ! normal evolution ( "* *iefly consi/ 9 ! /raight5+ out & unify+ ( ! inn] self4 ,! high] & ! l[] feel+s1 ! useful & ! err+ impulses1 beg9 by be+ a comp>ative *aos )9 u--!y mu/ end by =m+ a /able sy/em ( functions 9 "r subord9ation4 ,unhapp9ess is apt to *>act]ize ! p]iod ( ord]mak+ & /ruggle4 ,if ! individual be ( t5d] consci5ce & religi\sly quick5$1 ! unhapp9ess w take ! =m ( moral remorse & compunction1 ( feel+ inw>dly vile & wrong1 & ( /&+ 9 false relations to ! au?or ( "o's be+ & appo9t] ( "o's spiritual fate4 ,?is is ! religi\s melan*oly & 8conviction ( s90 t h play$ s l>ge a "p 9 ! hi/ory ( ,prote/ant ,*ri/ianity4 ,! man's int]ior is a battlegr\nd = :at he feels to be two deadly ho/ile selves1 "o actual1 ! o!r ideal4 ,z ,victor ,hugo makes 8 ,mahomet say3-- 8,je suis le *amp vil des sublimes combats3 ,tantt l'homme d'en haut1 et tantt l'homme d'en bas2 ,et le mal dans ma b\*e avec le bi5 alt]ne1 ,comme dans le ds]t le sable et la cit]ne40 ,wrong liv+1 impot5t aspirations2 8,:at ,i w\ld1 t d ,i n2 b :at ,i hate1 t d ,i10 z ,sa9t ,paul says2 selfloa?+1 selfdespair2 an un9telligible & intol]able burd5 to :i* "o is my/]i\sly ! heir4 ,let me quote f "s typical cases ( discordant p]sonality1 ) melan*oly 9 ! =m ( selfcondemnation & s5se ( s94 ,sa9t ,augu/9e's case is a classic example4 ,y all rememb] 8 halfpagan1 half,*ri/ian br++ up at ,c>?age1 8 emigration to ,rome & ,milan1 8 adoption ( ,mani*eism & subsequ5t skepticism1 & 8 re/less se>* = tru? & purity ( life2 & f9ally h[1 di/ract$ by ! /ruggle betwe5 ! two s\ls 9 8 brea/1 & a%am$ ( 8 own weakness ( w1 :5 s _m o!rs :om he knew & knew ( _h ?r[n (f ! %ackles ( s5suality & d$icat$ !mselves to *a/ity & ! high] life1 he he>d a voice 9 ! g>d5 say1 8,sume1 lege0 7take & read71 & op5+ ! ,bible at r&om1 saw ! text1 8n 9 *amb]+ & wantonness10 etc41 :i* seem$ directly s5t to 8 address1 & laid ! inn] /orm to re/ =ev]47#ia7 ,augu/9e's psy*ological g5ius has giv5 an acc\nt ( ! tr\ble ( hav+ a divid$ self :i* has nev] be5 surpass$4 8,! new w :i* ,i began to h 0 n yet /rong en\gh to ov]come t o!r w1 /r5g!n$ by long indulg5ce4 ,s ^! two wills1 "o old1 "o new1 "o c>nal1 ! o!r spiritual1 cont5d$ ) ea* o!r & di/urb$ my s\l4 ,i und]/ood by my own exp]i5ce :at ,i _h read1 #8fle% lu/e? aga9/ _s1 & _s aga9/ fle%4' ,x 0 myself inde$ 9 bo? ! wills1 yet m myself 9 t :i* ,i approv$ 9 myself ?an 9 t :i* ,i disapprov$ 9 myself4 ,yet x 0 ?r\gh myself t habit _h atta9$ s fi]ce a ma/]y ov] me1 because ,i _h will+ly come :i!r ,i will$ n4 ,/ill b\nd to e>?1 ,i refus$1 ,o ,god1 to fight on ?y side1 z mu* afraid to be fre$ f all bonds1 z ,i ought to h fe>$ be+ trammel$ by !m4 8,?us ! ?\ghts by :i* ,i m$itat$ ^u !e 7 l ! ef=ts ( "o :o w\ld awake1 b be+ ov]p[]$ ) sleep9ess is soon asleep aga94 ,(t5 does a man :5 heavy sleep9ess is on 8 limbs def] to %ake x (f1 & ?\gh n approv+ x1 enc\rage x2 ev5 s ,i 0 sure x 0 bett] to surr5d] to ?y love ?an to yield to my own lu/s1 yet1 ?\gh ! =m] c\rse conv9c$ me1 ! latt] pleas$ & held me b\nd4 ,!re 0 naught 9 me to answ] ?y call1 #8,awake1 ?\ sleep]1' b only drawl+1 dr[sy words1 #8,pres5tly2 yes1 pres5tly2 wait a little :ile4' ,b ! #8pres5tly' _h no #8pres5t1' & ! #8little :ile' grew long4444 ,= ,i 0 afraid ?\ w\ld/ he> me too soon1 & heal me at once ( my disease ( lu/1 :i* ,i wi%$ to satiate r ?an to see ext+ui%$4 ,) :at la%es ( words did ,i n sc\rge my own s\l4 ,yet x %rank back2 x refus$1 ?\gh x _h no excuse to (f]4444 ,i said )9 myself3 #8,come1 let x be done n[1' & z ,i said x1 ,i 0 on ! po9t ( ! resolve4 ,i all b did x1 yet ,i did n d x4 ,& ,i made ano!r ef=t1 & almo/ succe$$1 yet ,i did n rea* x1 & did n grasp x1 hesitat+ to die to dea?1 & live to life2 & ! evil to :i* ,i 0 s wont$ held me m ?an ! bett] life ,i _h n tri$407#ib7 ,!re c\ld be no m p]fect description ( ! divid$ w1 :5 ! high] wi%es lack j t la/ acut5ess1 t t\* ( explosive int5sity1 ( dynamog5ic quality 7to use ! slang ( ! psy*ologi/s71 t enables !m to bur/ _! %ell1 & make irruption efficaci\sly into life & quell ! l[] t5d5cies =ev]4 ,9 a lat] lecture we %all h mu* to say ab\t ?is high] excitability4 ,i f9d ano!r good description ( ! divid$ w 9 ! autobiography ( ,h5ry ,all9e1 ! ,nova ,scotian evangeli/1 ( ^: melan*oly ,i read a brief acc\nt 9 my la/ lecture4 ,! poor y\?'s s9s 71 z y w see1 ( ! mo/ h>mless ord]1 yet !y int]f]$ ) :at prov$ to be 8 true/ vocation1 s !y gave him great di/ress4 8,i 0 n[ v moral 9 my life1 b f\nd no re/ ( consci5ce4 ,i n[ began to be e/eem$ 9 "y company1 :o knew no?+ ( my m9d all ?is :ile1 & _! e/eem began to be a sn>e to my s\l1 = ,i soon began to be fond ( c>nal mir?1 ?\gh ,i /ill flatt]$ myself t if ,i did n get drunk1 nor curse1 nor swe>1 !re w\ld be no s9 9 frolick+ & c>nal mir?1 & ,i ?\ght ,god w\ld indulge "y p ) "s 7:at ,i call$ simple or civil7 recreation4 ,i /ill kept a r\nd ( duties1 & w\ld n suff] myself to run into any op5 vices1 & s got along v well 9 "t ( heal? & prosp]ity1 b :5 ,i 0 di/ress$ or ?reat5$ by sickness1 dea?1 or heavy /orms ( ?und]1 my religion w\ld n d1 & ,i f\nd !re 0 some?+ want+1 & w\ld beg9 to rep5t my go+ s mu* to frolics1 b :5 ! di/ress 0 ov]1 ! devil & my own wick$ he>t1 ) ! solicitations ( my associates1 & my fondness = "y company1 7 su* /rong allurem5ts1 ,i w\ld aga9 give way1 & ?us ,i got to be v wild & rude1 at ! same "t kept up my r\nds ( secret pray] & read+2 b ,god1 n will+ ,i %\ld de/roy myself1 /ill foll[$ me ) 8 calls1 & mov$ ) su* p[] ^u my consci5ce1 t ,i c\ld n satisfy myself ) my div]sions1 & 9 ! mid/ ( my mir? sometimes w\ld h su* a s5se ( my lo/ & undone condition1 t ,i w\ld wi% myself f ! company1 & aft] x 0 ov]1 :5 ,i w5t home1 w\ld make _m promises t ,i w\ld att5d no m on ^! frolics1 & w\ld beg =giv5ess = h\rs & h\rs2 b :5 ,i came to h ! temptation aga91 ,i w\ld give way3 no soon] w\ld ,i he> ! music & dr9k a glass ( w9e1 b ,i w\ld f9d my m9d elevat$ & soon proce$ to any sort ( m]rim5t or div]sion1 t ,i ?\ght 0 n debau*$ or op5ly vici\s2 b :5 ,i return$ f my c>nal mir? ,i felt z guilty z ev]1 & c\ld sometimes n close my eyes = "s h\rs aft] ,i _h gone to my b$4 ,i 0 "o ( ! mo/ unhappy creatures on e>?4 8,sometimes ,i w\ld leave ! company 7(t5 speak+ to ! fiddl] to cease f play+1 z if ,i 0 tir$71 & g out & walk ab\t cry+ & pray+1 z if my v he>t w\ld break1 & besee*+ ,god t he w\ld n cut me (f1 nor give me up to h>dness ( he>t4 ,oh1 :at unhappy h\rs & nights ,i ?us wore away6 ,:5 ,i met sometimes ) m]ry companions1 & my he>t 0 ready to s9k1 ,i w\ld labor to put on z *e]ful a c\nt5ance z possible1 t !y might n di/ru/ any?+1 & sometimes w\ld beg9 "s disc\rse ) "y m5 or "y wom5 on purpose1 or propose a m]ry song1 le/ ! di/ress ( my s\l w\ld be discov]$1 or mi/ru/$1 :5 at ! same "t ,i w\ld !n r h be5 9 a wild]ness 9 exile1 ?an ) !m or any ( _! pleasures or enjoym5ts4 ,?us = _m mon?s :5 ,i 0 9 company1 ,i w\ld act ! hypocrite & feign a m]ry he>t1 b at ! same "t w\ld endeavor z mu* z ,i c\ld to %un _! company1 oh wret*$ & unhappy mortal t ,i 06 ,ev]y?+ ,i did1 & :]ev] ,i w5t1 ,i 0 /ill 9 a /orm1 & yet ,i cont9u$ to be ! *ief contriv] & r+lead] ( ! frolics = _m mon?s aft]2 ?\gh x 0 a toil & torm5t to att5d !m2 b ! devil & my own wick$ he>t drove me ab\t l a slave1 tell+ me t ,i mu/ d ?is & d t1 & be> ?is & be> t1 & turn "h & turn !re1 to keep my cr$it up1 & reta9 ! e/eem ( my associates3 & all ?is :ile ,i cont9u$ z /rict z possible 9 my duties1 & left no /one unturn$ to pacify my consci5ce1 wat*+ ev5 aga9/ my ?\ghts1 & pray+ cont9ually :]ev] ,i w5t3 = ,i did n ?9k !re 0 any s9 9 my conduct1 :5 ,i 0 among c>nal company1 because ,i did n take any satisfaction !re1 b only foll[$ x1 ,i ?\ght1 = suffici5t reasons4 8,b /ill1 all t ,i did or c\ld d1 consci5ce w\ld ro> night & day40 ,sa9t ,augu/9e & ,all9e bo? em]g$ into ! smoo? wat]s ( inn] unity & peace1 & ,i %all next ask y to consid] m closely "s ( ! peculi>ities ( ! process ( unification1 :5 x occurs4 ,x may come gradually1 or x may occur abruptly2 x may come ?r\gh alt]$ feel+s1 or ?r\gh alt]$ p[]s ( action2 or x may come ?r\gh new intellectual insights1 or ?r\gh exp]i5ces :i* we %all lat] h to designate z 8my/ical40 ,h[ev] x come1 x br+s a *>act]i/ic sort ( relief2 & nev] su* extreme relief z :5 x is ca/ into ! religi\s m\ld4 ,happ9ess6 happ9ess6 religion is only "o ( ! ways 9 :i* m5 ga9 t gift4 ,easily1 p]man5tly1 & successfully1 x (t5 trans=ms ! mo/ intol]able mis]y into ! pr(\nde/ & mo/ endur+ happ9ess4 ,b to f9d religion is only "o out ( _m ways ( rea*+ unity2 & ! process ( rem$y+ inn] incomplet5ess & r$uc+ inn] discord is a g5]al psy*ological process1 :i* may take place ) any sort ( m5tal mat]ial1 & ne$ n necess>ily assume ! religi\s =m4 ,9 judg+ ( ! religi\s types ( reg5]ation :i* we are ab\t to /udy1 x is important to recognize t !y are only "o species ( a g5us t conta9s o!r types z well4 ,= example1 ! new bir? may be away f religion into incr$ulity2 or x may be f moral scrupulosity into fre$om & lic5se2 or x may be produc$ by ! irruption into ! individual's life ( "s new /imulus or passion1 su* z love1 ambition1 cupidity1 rev5ge1 or patriotic devotion4 ,9 all ^! in/ances we h precisely ! same psy*ological =m ( ev5t1--a firmness1 /ability1 & equilibrium succe$+ a p]iod ( /orm & /ress & inconsi/5cy4 ,9 ^! nonreligi\s cases ! new man may also be born ei!r gradually or sudd5ly4 ,! ,fr5* philosoph] ,j\ffroy has left an eloqu5t memorial ( 8 own 8c\nt]conv]sion10 z ! transition f or?odoxy to infidelity has be5 well /yl$ by ,mr4 ,/>buck4 ,j\ffroy's d\bts _h long h>ass$ him2 b he dates 8 f9al crisis f a c]ta9 night :5 8 disbelief grew fix$ & /able1 & :]e ! imm$iate result 0 sadness at ! illusions he _h lo/4 8,i %all nev] =get t night ( ,decemb]10 writes ,j\ffroy1 89 :i* ! veil t conceal$ f me my own incr$ulity 0 torn4 ,i he> aga9 my /eps 9 t n>r[ nak$ *amb] :]e long aft] ! h\r ( sleep _h come ,i _h ! habit ( walk+ up & d[n4 ,i see aga9 t moon1 halfveil$ by cl\ds1 :i* n[ & aga9 illum9at$ ! frigid w9d[panes4 ,! h\rs ( ! night fl[$ on & ,i did n note _! passage4 ,anxi\sly ,i foll[$ my ?\ghts1 z f lay] to lay] !y desc5d$ t[>ds ! f\ndation ( my consci\sness1 &1 scatt]+ "o by "o all ! illusions :i* until !n _h scre5$ its w9d+s f my view1 made !m e mom5t m cle>ly visible4 8,va9ly ,i clung to ^! la/ beliefs z a %ipwreck$ sailor cl+s to ! fragm5ts ( 8 vessel2 va9ly1 fright5$ at ! unkn[n void 9 :i* ,i 0 ab\t to float1 ,i turn$ ) !m t[>ds my *ildhood1 my family1 my c\ntry1 all t 0 de> & sacr$ to me3 ! inflexible curr5t ( my ?\ght 0 too /rong1--p>5ts1 family1 memory1 beliefs1 x =c$ me to let g ( ev]y?+4 ,! inve/igation w5t on m ob/9ate & m sev]e z x drew ne> its t]m1 & did n /op until ! end 0 rea*$4 ,i knew !n t 9 ! dep? ( my m9d no?+ 0 left t /ood erect4 8,?is mom5t 0 a frightful "o2 & :5 t[>ds morn+ ,i ?rew myself exhau/$ on my b$1 ,i seem$ to feel my e>li] life1 s smil+ & s full1 g out l a fire1 & be=e me ano!r life op5$1 sombre & unpeopl$1 :]e 9 future ,i mu/ live alone1 alone ) my fatal ?\ght :i* _h exil$ me ?i!r1 & :i* ,i 0 tempt$ to curse4 ,! days :i* foll[$ ?is discov]y 7 ! sadde/ ( my life407#ic7 ,9 ,john ,fo/]'s ,essay on ,decision ( ,"*1 !re is an acc\nt ( a case ( sudd5 conv]sion to av>ice1 :i* is illu/rative en\gh to quote3-- ,a "y man1 x appe>s1 8wa/$1 9 two or ?ree ye>s1 a l>ge patrimony 9 pr(ligate revels ) a numb] ( wor?less associates :o call$ !mselves 8 fri5ds1 & :o1 :5 8 la/ means 7 exhau/$1 treat$ him ( c\rse ) neglect or contempt4 ,r$uc$ to absolute want1 he "o day w5t out ( ! h\se ) an int5tion to put an end to 8 life2 b w&]+ a:ile almo/ unconsci\sly1 he came to ! br[ ( an em95ce :i* ov]look$ :at 7 lately 8 e/ates4 ,"h he sat d[n1 & rema9$ fix$ 9 ?\ght a numb] ( h\rs1 at ! end ( :i* he sprang f ! gr\nd ) a vehem5t1 exult+ emotion4 ,he _h =m$ 8 resolution1 :i* 01 t all ^! e/ates %\ld be 8 aga92 he _h =m$ 8 plan1 too1 :i* he in/antly began to execute4 ,he walk$ ha/ily =w>d1 det]m9$ to seize ! fir/ opportunity1 ( h[ev] humble a k9d1 to ga9 any money1 ?\gh x 7 ev] s despicable a trifle1 & resolv$ absolutely n to sp5d1 if he c\ld help x1 a f>?+ ( :atev] he might obta94 ,! fir/ ?+ t drew 8 att5tion 0 a heap ( coals %ot out ( c>ts on ! pavem5t be=e a h\se4 ,he (f]$ himself to %ovel or :eel !m into ! place :]e !y 7 to be laid1 & 0 employ$4 ,he receiv$ a few p5ce = ! labor2 & !n1 9 pursuance ( ! sav+ "p ( 8 plan1 reque/$ "s small gratuity ( meat & dr9k1 :i* 0 giv5 him4 ,he !n look$ out = ! next ?+ t might *ance2 & w5t1 ) indefatigable indu/ry1 ?r\gh a succession ( s]vile employm5ts 9 diff]5t places1 ( long] & %ort] duration1 /ill scrupul\s 9 avoid+1 z f> z possible1 ! exp5se ( a p5ny4 ,he promptly seiz$ e opportunity :i* c\ld advance 8 design1 )\t reg>d+ ! meanness ( occupation or appe>ance4 ,by ?is me?od he _h ga9$1 aft] a consid]able "t1 money en\gh to pur*ase 9 ord] to sell aga9 a few cattle1 ( :i* he _h tak5 pa9s to und]/& ! value4 ,he spe$ily b cauti\sly turn$ 8 fir/ ga9s into second advantages2 reta9$ )\t a s+le deviation 8 extreme p>simony2 & ?us advanc$ by degrees into l>g] transactions & incipi5t weal?4 ,i did n he>1 or h =gott51 ! cont9u$ c\rse ( 8 life1 b ! f9al result 01 t he m ?an recov]$ 8 lo/ possessions1 & di$ an invet]ate mis]1 wor? #fj1jjj407id7 ,let me turn n[ to ! k9d ( case1 ! religi\s case1 namely1 t imm$iately conc]ns u4 ,"h is "o ( ! simple/ possible type1 an acc\nt ( ! conv]sion to ! sy/ematic religion ( heal?ym9d$ness ( a man :o mu/ already h be5 naturally ( ! heal?ym9d$ type4 ,x %[s h[1 :5 ! fruit is ripe1 a t\* w make x fall4 ,mr4 ,horace ,flet*]1 9 8 little book call$ ,m5ticulture1 relates t a fri5d ) :om he 0 talk+ ( ! selfcontrol atta9$ by ! ,japanese ?r\gh _! practice ( ! ,buddhi/ discipl9e said3-- 8 #8,y mu/ fir/ get rid ( ang] & worry4' #8,b1' said ,i1 #8is t possible8' #8,yes1' repli$ he2 #8x is possible to ! ,japanese1 & ought to be possible to u4' 8,on my way back ,i c\ld ?9k ( no?+ else b ! words #8get rid1 get rid'2 & ! idea mu/ h cont9u$ to possess me dur+ my sleep+ h\rs1 = ! fir/ consci\sness 9 ! morn+ br\ght back ! same ?\ght1 ) ! revelation ( a discov]y1 :i* fram$ itself into ! reason+1 #8,if x is possible to get rid ( ang] & worry1 :y is x necess>y to h !m at all8' ,i felt ! /r5g? ( ! argum5t1 & at once accept$ ! reason+4 ,! baby _h discov]$ t x c\ld walk4 ,x w\ld scorn to creep any long]4 8,f ! in/ant ,i realiz$ t ^! canc] spots ( worry & ang] 7 removable1 !y left me4 ,) ! discov]y ( _! weakness !y 7 exorcis$4 ,f t "t life has _h an entirely diff]5t aspect4 8,al?\gh f t mom5t ! possibility & desirability ( fre$om f ! depress+ passions has be5 a reality to me1 x took me "s mon?s to feel absolute security 9 my new position2 b1 z ! usual occasions = worry & ang] h pres5t$ !mselves ov] & ov] aga91 & ,i h be5 unable to feel !m 9 ! slighte/ degree1 ,i no long] dread or gu>d aga9/ !m1 & ,i am amaz$ at my increas$ en]gy & vigor ( m9d2 at my /r5g? to meet situations ( all k9ds1 & at my disposition to love & appreciate ev]y?+4 8,i h _h occasion to travel m ?an t5 ?\s& miles by rail s9ce t morn+4 ,! same ,pullman port]1 conductor1 hotelwait]1 p$dl]1 bookag5t1 cabman1 & o!rs :o 7 =m]ly a s\rce ( annoyance & irritation h be5 met1 b ,i am n consci\s ( a s+le incivility4 ,all at once ! :ole _w has turn$ good to me4 ,i h become1 z x 71 s5sitive only to ! rays ( good4 8,i c\ld rec\nt _m exp]i5ces :i* prove a br&new condition ( m9d1 b "o w be suffici5t4 ,)\t ! slighte/ feel+ ( annoyance or impati5ce1 ,i h se5 a tra9 t ,i _h plann$ to take ) a good deal ( int]e/$ & pleasurable anticipation move out ( ! /ation )\t me1 because my baggage did n arrive4 ,! port] f ! hotel came runn+ & pant+ into ! /ation j z ! tra9 pull$ out ( sight4 ,:5 he saw me1 he look$ z if he fe>$ a scold+1 & began to tell ( be+ block$ 9 a cr[d$ /reet & unable to get out4 ,:5 he _h f9i%$1 ,i said to him3 #8,x doesn't matt] at all1 y c\ldn't help x1 s we w try aga9 to morr[4 ,"h is y\r fee1 ,i am sorry y _h all ?is tr\ble 9 e>n+ x4' ,! look ( surprise t came ov] 8 face 0 s fill$ ) pleasure t ,i 0 repaid on ! spot = ! delay 9 my dep>ture4 ,next day he w\ld n accept a c5t = ! s]vice1 & he & ,i are fri5ds = life4 8,dur+ ! fir/ weeks ( my exp]i5ce ,i 0 on gu>d only aga9/ worry & ang]2 b1 9 ! mean "t1 hav+ notic$ ! abs5ce ( ! o!r depress+ & dw>f+ passions1 ,i began to trace a relation%ip1 until ,i 0 conv9c$ t !y are all gr[?s f ! two roots ,i h specifi$4 ,i h felt ! fre$om n[ = s long a "t t ,i am sure ( my relation t[>d x2 & ,i c\ld no m h>bor any ( ! ?iev+ & depress+ influ5ces t once ,i nurs$ z a h]itage ( humanity ?an a fop w\ld volunt>ily wall[ 9 a fil?y gutt]4 8,!re is no d\bt 9 my m9d t pure ,*ri/ianity & pure ,buddhism1 & ! ,m5tal ,sci5ces & all ,religions1 fundam5tally tea* :at has be5 a discov]y to me2 b none ( !m h pres5t$ x 9 ! light ( a simple & easy process ( elim9ation4 ,at "o "t ,i wond]$ if ! elim9ation w\ld n yield to indiff]5ce & slo?4 ,9 my exp]i5ce1 ! contr>y is ! result4 ,i feel su* an increas$ desire to d some?+ useful t x seems z if ,i 7 a boy aga9 & ! en]gy = play _h return$4 ,i c\ld fight z readily z 7& bett] ?an7 ev]1 if !re 7 occasion = x4 ,x does n make "o a c[>d4 ,x c't1 s9ce fe> is "o ( ! ?+s elim9at$4 ,i notice ! abs5ce ( timidity 9 ! pres5ce ( any audi5ce4 ,:5 a boy1 ,i 0 /&+ "u a tree :i* 0 /ruck by lightn+1 & receiv$ a %ock f ! effects ( :i* ,i nev] knew exemption until ,i _h dissolv$ p>tn]%ip ) worry4 ,s9ce !n1 lightn+ & ?und] h be5 enc\nt]$ "u conditions :i* w\ld =m]ly h caus$ great depression & discom=t1 )\t my exp]i5c+ a trace ( ei!r4 ,surprise is also greatly modifi$1 & "o is less liable to become />tl$ by unexpect$ sights or noises4 8,z f> z ,i am individually conc]n$1 ,i am n bo!r+ myself at pres5t z to :at ! results ( ?is emancipat$ condition may be4 ,i h no d\bt t ! p]fect heal? aim$ at by ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce may be "o ( ! possibilities1 = ,i note a m>k$ improvem5t 9 ! way my /oma* does its duty 9 assimilat+ ! food ,i give x to h&le1 & ,i am sure x works bett] to ! s\nd ( a song ?an "u ! friction ( a fr[n4 ,nei!r am ,i wa/+ any ( ?is preci\s "t =mulat+ an idea ( a future exi/5ce or a future ,heav54 ,! ,heav5 t ,i h )9 myself is z attractive z any t has be5 promis$ or t ,i c imag9e2 & ,i am will+ to let ! gr[? lead :]e x w1 z long z ! ang] & _! brood h no "p 9 misguid+ x407#ie7 ,! old] m$ic9e us$ to speak ( two ways1 lysis & crisis1 "o gradual1 ! o!r abrupt1 9 :i* "o might recov] f a bodily disease4 ,9 ! spiritual realm !re are also two ways1 "o gradual1 ! o!r sudd51 9 :i* inn] unification may occur4 ,tol/oy & ,bunyan may aga9 s]ve u z examples1 examples1 z x happ5s1 ( ! gradual way1 ?\gh x mu/ be confess$ at ! outset t x is h>d to foll[ ^! w9d+s ( ! he>ts ( o!rs1 & "o feels t _! words d n reveal _! total secret4 ,h[e'er ?is be1 ,tol/oy1 pursu+ 8 un5d+ que/ion+1 seem$ to come to "o insight aft] ano!r4 ,fir/ he p]ceiv$ t 8 conviction t life 0 mean+less took only ?is f9ite life into acc\nt4 ,he 0 look+ = ! value ( "o f9ite t]m 9 t ( ano!r1 & ! :ole result c\ld only be "o ( ^? indet]m9ate equations 9 ma!matics :i* end ) #jj4 ,yet ?is is z f> z ! reason+ intellect by itself c g1 unless irrational s5tim5t or fai? br+s 9 ! inf9ite4 ,believe 9 ! inf9ite z common p d1 & life gr[s possible aga94 8,s9ce mank9d has exi/$1 :]ev] life has be51 !re also has be5 ! fai? t gave ! possibility ( liv+4 ,fai? is ! s5se ( life1 t s5se by virtue ( :i* man does n de/roy himself1 b cont9ues to live on4 ,x is ! =ce :]eby we live4 ,if ,man did n believe t he mu/ live = some?+1 he w\ld n live at all4 ,! idea ( an inf9ite ,god1 ( ! div9ity ( ! s\l1 ( ! union ( m5's actions ) ,god--^! are ideas elaborat$ 9 ! inf9ite secret dep?s ( human ?\ght4 ,!y are ideas )\t :i* !re w\ld be no life1 )\t :i* ,i myself10 said ,tol/oy1 8w\ld n exi/4 ,i began to see t ,i _h no "r to rely on my individual reason+ & neglect ^! answ]s giv5 by fai?1 = !y are ! only answ]s to ! "q40 ,yet h[ believe z ! common p believe1 /eep$ z !y are 9 grosse/ sup]/ition8 ,x is impossible1--b yet _! life6 _! life6 ,x is normal4 ,x is happy6 ,x is an answ] to ! "q6 ,little by little1 ,tol/oy came to ! settl$ conviction--he says x took him two ye>s to arrive !re--t 8 tr\ble _h n be5 ) life 9 g5]al1 n ) ! common life ( common m51 b ) ! life ( ! upp]1 intellectual1 arti/ic classes1 ! life :i* he _h p]sonally always l$1 ! c]ebral life1 ! life ( conv5tionality1 artificiality1 & p]sonal ambition4 ,he _h be5 liv+ wrongly & mu/ *ange4 ,to "w = animal ne$s1 to abjure lies & vanities1 to relieve common wants1 to be simple1 to believe 9 ,god1 !re9 lay happ9ess aga94 8,i rememb]10 he says1 8"o day 9 e>ly spr+1 ,i 0 alone 9 ! =e/1 l5d+ my e> to its my/]i\s noises4 ,i li/5$1 & my ?\ght w5t back to :at = ^! ?ree ye>s x always 0 busy )--! que/ ( ,god4 ,b ! idea ( him1 ,i said1 h[ did ,i ev] come by ! idea8 8,& aga9 !re arose 9 me1 ) ?is ?\ght1 glad aspirations t[>ds life4 ,ev]y?+ 9 me awoke & receiv$ a mean+4444 ,:y d ,i look f>!r8 a voice )9 me ask$4 ,he is !re3 he1 )\t :om "o _c live4 ,to ackn[l$ge ,god & to live are "o & ! same ?+4 ,god is :at life is4 ,well1 !n6 live1 seek ,god1 & !re w be no life )\t him4444 8,aft] ?is1 ?+s cle>$ up )9 me & ab\t me bett] ?an ev]1 & ! light has nev] :olly di$ away4 ,i 0 sav$ f suicide4 ,j h[ or :5 ! *ange took place ,i _c tell4 ,b z ins5sibly & gradually z ! =ce ( life _h be5 annull$ )9 me1 & ,i _h rea*$ my moral dea?b$1 j z gradually & imp]ceptibly did ! en]gy ( life come back4 ,& :at 0 /range 0 t ?is en]gy t came back 0 no?+ new4 ,x 0 my anci5t juv5ile =ce ( fai?1 ! belief t ! sole purpose ( my life 0 to be bett]4 ,i gave up ! life ( ! conv5tional _w1 recogniz+ x to be no life1 b a p>ody on life1 :i* its sup]fluities simply keep u f compreh5d+10--& ,tol/oy !reupon embrac$ ! life ( ! peasants1 & has felt "r & happy1 or at lea/ relatively s1 ev] s9ce47#if7 ,z ,i int]pret 8 melan*oly1 !n1 x 0 n m]ely an accid5tal vitiation ( 8 humors1 ?\gh x 0 d\btless also t4 ,x 0 logically call$ = by ! cla% betwe5 8 inn] "* & 8 out] activities & aims4 ,al?\gh a lit]>y arti/1 ,tol/oy 0 "o ( ^? primitive oaks ( m5 to :om ! sup]fluities & ins9c]ities1 ! cupidities1 complications1 & cruelties ( our polite civilization are pr(\ndly unsatisfy+1 & = :om ! et]nal v]acities lie ) m natural & animal ?+s4 ,8 crisis 0 ! gett+ ( 8 s\l 9 ord]1 ! discov]y ( its g5u9e habitat & vocation1 ! escape f falsehoods into :at = him 7 ways ( tru?4 ,x 0 a case ( het]og5e\s p]sonality t>dily & sl[ly f9d+ its unity & level4 ,& ?\gh n _m ( u c imitate ,tol/oy1 n hav+ en\gh1 p]haps1 ( ! aborig9al human m>r[ 9 our bones1 mo/ ( u may at lea/ feel z if x might be bett] = u if we c\ld4 ,bunyan's recov]y seems to h be5 ev5 sl[]4 ,= ye>s toge!r he 0 alt]nately haunt$ ) texts ( ,scripture1 n[ up & n[ d[n1 b at la/ ) an ev] gr[+ relief 9 8 salvation ?r\gh ! blood ( ,*ri/4 8,my peace w\ld be 9 & out tw5ty times a day2 com=t n[ & tr\ble pres5tly2 peace n[ & be=e ,i c\ld g a furlong z full ( guilt & fe> z ev] he>t c\ld hold40 ,:5 a good text comes home to him1 8,?is10 he writes1 8gave me good enc\ragem5t = ! space ( two or ?ree h\rs02 or 8,?is 0 a good day to me1 ,i hope ,i %all n =get x02 or 8,! glory ( ^! words 0 !n s weighty on me t ,i 0 ready to swoon z ,i sat2 yet n ) grief & tr\ble1 b ) solid joy & peace02 or 8,?is made a /range seizure on my _s2 x br\ght light ) x1 & comm&$ a sil5ce 9 my he>t ( all ^? tumultu\s ?\ghts t be=e did use1 l ma/]less hellh\nds1 to ro> & bell[ & make a hide\s noise )9 me4 ,x %[$ me t ,jesus ,*ri/ _h n q =sak5 & ca/ (f my ,s\l40 ,su* p]iods accumulate until he c write3 8,& n[ rema9$ only ! h9d] "p ( ! tempe/1 = ! ?und] 0 gone beyond me1 only "s drops w\ld /ill rema91 t n[ & !n w\ld fall ^u me02--& at la/3 8,n[ did my *a9s fall (f my legs inde$2 ,i 0 loos$ f my afflictions & irons2 my temptations also fl$ away2 s t f t "t1 ^? dreadful ,scriptures ( ,god left (f to tr\ble me2 n[ w5t ,i also home rejoic+1 = ! grace & love ( ,god4444 ,n[ c\ld ,i see myself 9 ,heav5 & ,e>? at once2 9 ,heav5 by my ,*ri/1 by my ,head1 by my ,righte\sness & ,life1 ?\gh on ,e>? by my body or p]son4444 ,*ri/ 0 a preci\s ,*ri/ to my s\l t night2 ,i c\ld sc>ce lie 9 my b$ = joy & peace & triumph ?r\gh ,*ri/40 ,bunyan became a m9i/] ( ! gospel1 & 9 spite ( 8 neurotic con/itution1 & ( ! twelve ye>s he lay 9 prison = 8 non con=mity1 8 life 0 turn$ to active use4 ,he 0 a peacemak] & do] ( good1 & ! immortal ,allegory :i* he wrote has br\ght ! v _s ( religi\s pati5ce home to ,engli% he>ts4 ,b nei!r ,bunyan nor ,tol/oy c\ld become :at we h call$ heal?y m9d$4 ,!y _h drunk too deeply ( ! cup ( bitt]ness ev] to =get its ta/e1 & _! r$emption is into a univ]se two /ories deep4 ,ea* ( !m realiz$ a good :i* broke ! effective edge ( 8 sadness2 yet ! sadness 0 pres]v$ z a m9or +r$i5t 9 ! he>t ( ! fai? by :i* x 0 ov]come4 ,! fact ( int]e/ = u is t z a matt] ( fact !y c\ld & did f9d some?+ well+ up 9 ! inn] rea*es ( _! consci\sness1 by :i* su* extreme sadness c\ld be ov]come4 ,tol/oy does well to talk ( x z t by :i* m5 live2 = t is exactly :at x is1 a /imulus1 an excitem5t1 a fai?1 a =ce t reinfuses ! positive will+ness to live1 ev5 9 full pres5ce ( ! evil p]ceptions t ere:ile made life seem unbe>able4 ,= ,tol/oy's p]ceptions ( evil appe> )9 _! sph]e to h rema9$ unmodifi$4 ,8 lat] works %[ him implacable to ! :ole sy/em ( (ficial values3 ! ignobility ( fa%ionable life2 ! infamies ( empire2 ! spuri\sness ( ! *ur*1 ! va9 conceit ( ! pr(essions2 ! meannesses & cruelties t g ) great success2 & e o!r pomp\s crime & ly+ in/itution ( ?is _w4 ,to all pati5ce ) su* ?+s 8 exp]i5ce has be5 = him a p]man5t m9i/ry ( dea?4 ,bunyan also leaves ?is _w to ! enemy4 8,i mu/ fir/ pass a s5t5ce ( dea?10 he says1 8^u ev]y?+ t c prop]ly be call$ a ?+ ( ?is life1 ev5 to reckon myself1 my wife1 my *ildr51 my heal?1 my enjoym5ts1 & all1 z dead to me1 & myself z dead to !m2 to tru/ 9 ,god ?r\gh ,*ri/1 z t\*+ ! _w to come2 & z t\*+ ?is _w1 to c\nt ! grave my h\se1 to make my b$ 9 d>kness1 & to say to corruption1 ,?\ art my fa!r1 & to ! worm1 ,?\ art my "m & si/]4444 ,! p>t+ ) my wife & my poor *ildr5 ha? (t5 be5 to me z ! pull+ ( my fle% f my bones1 especially my poor bl9d *ild :o lay ne>] my he>t ?an all ,i _h besides4 ,poor *ild1 ?\ght ,i1 :at sorr[ art ?\ l to h = ?y portion 9 ?is _w6 ,?\ mu/ be beat51 mu/ beg1 suff] hung]1 cold1 nak$ness1 & a ?\s& calamities1 ?\gh ,i _c n[ endure t ! w9d %\ld bl[ ^u !e4 ,b yet ,i mu/ v5ture y all ) ,god1 ?\gh x goe? to ! quick to leave y407#ig7 ,! 8hue ( resolution0 is !re1 b ! full flood ( ec/atic lib]ation seems nev] to h p\r$ ov] poor ,john ,bunyan's s\l4 ,^! examples may suffice to acqua9t u 9 a g5]al way ) ! ph5om5on te*nically call$ 8,conv]sion40 ,9 ! next lecture ,i %all invite y to /udy its peculi>ities & concomitants 9 "s detail4 ,,lecture ,,ix4 ,,conv]sion4 ,to be conv]t$1 to be reg5]at$1 to receive grace1 to exp]i5ce religion1 to ga9 an assurance1 are s _m phrases :i* d5ote ! process1 gradual or sudd51 by :i* a self hi!rto divid$1 & consci\sly wrong inf]ior & unhappy1 becomes unifi$ & consci\sly "r sup]ior & happy1 9 consequ5ce ( its firm] hold ^u religi\s realities4 ,?is at lea/ is :at conv]sion signifies 9 g5]al t]ms1 :e!r or n we believe t a direct div9e op]ation is ne$$ to br+ su* a moral *ange ab\t4 ,be=e ent]+ ^u a m9ut] /udy ( ! process1 let me enliv5 our und]/&+ ( ! def9ition by a concrete example4 ,i *oose ! qua9t case ( an unlett]$ man1 ,/eph5 ,h4 ,bradley1 ^: exp]i5ce is relat$ 9 a sc>ce ,am]ican pamphlet47#ih7 ,i select ?is case because x %[s h[ 9 ^! inn] alt]ations "o may f9d "o unsuspect$ dep? bel[ ano!r1 z if ! possibilities ( "* lay dispos$ 9 a s]ies ( lay]s or %ells1 ( ^: exi/5ce we h no premonitory k4 ,bradley ?\ght t he _h be5 already fully conv]t$ at ! age ( f\rte54 8,i ?\ght ,i saw ! ,savi\r1 by fai?1 9 human %ape1 = ab\t "o second 9 ! room1 ) arms ext5d$1 appe>+ to say to me1 ,come4 ,! next day ,i rejoic$ ) trembl+2 soon aft]1 my happ9ess 0 s great t ,i said t ,i want$ to die2 ?is _w _h no place 9 my affections1 z ,i knew (1 & e day appe>$ z solemn to me z ! ,sabba?4 ,i _h an ard5t desire t all mank9d might feel z ,i did2 ,i want$ to h !m all love ,god supremely4 ,previ\s to ?is "t ,i 0 v selfi% & selfrighte\s2 b n[ ,i desir$ ! welf>e ( all mank9d1 & c\ld ) a feel+ he>t =give my wor/ enemies1 & ,i felt z if ,i %\ld be will+ to be> ! sc(fs & sne]s ( any p]son1 & suff] any?+ = ,8 sake1 if ,i c\ld be ! means 9 ! h&s ( ,god1 ( ! conv]sion ( "o s\l40 ,n9e ye>s lat]1 9 #ahbi1 ,mr4 ,bradley he>d ( a revival ( religion t _h begun 9 8 neighborhood4 8,_m ( ! "y conv]ts10 he says1 8w\ld come to me :5 9 meet+ & ask me if ,i _h religion1 & my reply g5]ally 01 ,i hope ,i h4 ,?is did n appe> to satisfy !m2 !y said !y knew !y _h x4 ,i reque/$ !m to pray = me1 ?9k+ ) myself1 t if ,i _h n got religion n[1 aft] s long a "t pr(ess+ to be a ,*ri/ian1 t x 0 "t ,i _h1 & hop$ _! pray]s w\ld be answ]$ 9 my behalf4 8,"o ,sabba?1 ,i w5t to he> ! ,me?odi/ at ! ,academy4 ,he spoke ( ! u%]+ 9 ( ! day ( g5]al judgm5t2 & he set x =? 9 su* a solemn & t]rible mann] z ,i nev] he>d be=e4 ,! sc5e ( t day appe>$ to be tak+ place1 & s awak5$ 7 all ! p[]s ( my m9d t1 l ,felix1 ,i trembl$ involunt>ily on ! b5* :]e ,i 0 sitt+1 ?\gh ,i felt no?+ at he>t4 ,! next day ev5+ ,i w5t to he> him aga94 ,he took 8 text f ,revelation3 #8,& ,i saw ! dead1 small & great1 /& be=e ,god4' ,& he repres5t$ ! t]rors ( t day 9 su* a mann] t x appe>$ z if x w\ld melt ! he>t ( /one4 ,:5 he f9i%$ 8 disc\rse1 an old g5tleman turn$ to me & said1 #8,?is is :at ,i call prea*+4' ,i ?\ght ! same2 b my feel+s 7 /ill unmov$ by :at he said1 & ,i did n enjoy religion1 b ,i believe he did4 8,i w n[ relate my exp]i5ce ( ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s :i* took place on ! same night4 ,_h any p]son told me previ\s to ?is t ,i c\ld h exp]i5c$ ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! mann] :i* ,i did1 ,i c\ld n h believ$ x1 & %\ld h ?\ght ! p]son delud$ t told me s4 ,i w5t directly home aft] ! meet+1 & :5 ,i got home ,i wond]$ :at made me feel s /upid4 ,i retir$ to re/ soon aft] ,i got home1 & felt indiff]5t to ! ?+s ( religion until ,i began to be ex]cis$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 :i* began 9 ab\t five m9utes aft]1 9 ! foll[+ mann]3-- 8,at fir/1 ,i began to feel my he>t beat v quick all on a sudd51 :i* made me at fir/ ?9k t p]haps some?+ is go+ to ail me1 ?\gh ,i 0 n al>m$1 = ,i felt no pa94 ,my he>t increas$ 9 its beat+1 :i* soon conv9c$ me t x 0 ! ,holy ,_s f ! effect x _h on me4 ,i began to feel exce$+ly happy & humble1 & su* a s5se ( unwor?9ess z ,i nev] felt be=e4 ,i c\ld n v well help speak+ out1 :i* ,i did1 & said1 ,"l1 ,i d n des]ve ?is happ9ess1 or words to t effect1 :ile !re 0 a /ream 7resembl+ air 9 feel+7 came into my m\? & he>t 9 a m s5sible mann] ?an t ( dr9k+ any?+1 :i* cont9u$1 z ne> z ,i c\ld judge1 five m9utes or m1 :i* appe>$ to be ! cause ( su* a palpitation ( my he>t4 ,x took complete possession ( my s\l1 & ,i am c]ta9 t ,i desir$ ! ,"l1 :ile 9 ! mid/ ( x1 n to give me any m happ9ess1 = x seem$ z if ,i c\ld n conta9 :at ,i _h got4 ,my he>t seem$ z if x w\ld bur/1 b x did n /op until ,i felt z if ,i 0 unutt]ably full ( ! love & grace ( ,god4 ,9 ! mean "t :ile ?us ex]cis$1 a ?\ght arose 9 my m9d1 :at c x mean8 & all at once1 z if to answ] x1 my memory became exce$+ly cle>1 & x appe>$ to me j z if ! ,new ,te/am5t 0 plac$ op5 be=e me1 eigh? *apt] ( ,romans1 & z light z if "s c&le light$ 0 held = me to read ! #bf? & #bg? v]ses ( t *apt]1 & ,i read ^! words3 #8,! ,_s helpe? our infirmities ) groan+s :i* _c be utt]$4' ,& all ! "t t my he>t 0 abeat+1 x made me groan l a p]son 9 di/ress1 :i* 0 n v easy to /op1 ?\gh ,i 0 9 no pa9 at all1 & my bro!r be+ 9 b$ 9 ano!r room came & op5$ ! door1 & ask$ me if ,i _h got ! too?a*e4 ,i told him no1 & t he might get to sleep4 ,i tri$ to /op4 ,i felt unwill+ to g to sleep myself1 ,i 0 s happy1 fe>+ ,i %\ld lose x--?9k+ )9 myself #8,my will+ s\l w\ld /ay ,9 su* a frame z ?is4' ,& :ile ,i lay reflect+1 aft] my he>t /opp$ beat+1 feel+ z if my s\l 0 full ( ! ,holy ,_s1 ,i ?\ght t p]haps !re might be angels hov]+ r\nd my b$4 ,i felt j z if ,i want$ to conv]se ) !m1 & f9ally ,i spoke1 say+1 #8,o ye affectionate angels6 h[ is x t ye c take s mu* int]e/ 9 our welf>e1 & we take s little int]e/ 9 our own4' ,aft] ?is1 ) difficulty ,i got to sleep2 & :5 ,i awoke 9 ! morn+ my fir/ ?\ghts 73 ,:at has become ( my happ9ess8 &1 feel+ a degree ( x 9 my he>t1 ,i ask$ = m1 :i* 0 giv5 to me z quick z ?\ght4 ,i !n got up to dress myself1 & f\nd to my surprise t ,i c\ld b j /&4 ,x appe>$ to me z if x 0 a little heav5 ^u e>?4 ,my s\l felt z completely rais$ above ! fe>s ( dea? z ( go+ to sleep2 & l a bird 9 a cage1 ,i _h a desire1 if x 0 ! w ( ,god1 to get releas$ f my body & to dwell ) ,*ri/1 ?\gh will+ to live to d good to o!rs1 & to w>n s9n]s to rep5t4 ,i w5t d[n/airs feel+ z solemn z if ,i _h lo/ all my fri5ds1 & ?9k+ ) myself1 t ,i w\ld n let my p>5ts "k x until ,i _h fir/ look$ into ! ,te/am5t4 ,i w5t directly to ! %elf & look$ into x1 at ! eigh? *apt] ( ,romans1 & e v]se seem$ to almo/ speak & to confirm x to be truly ! ,^w ( ,god1 & z if my feel+s correspond$ ) ! mean+ ( ! ^w4 ,i !n told my p>5ts ( x1 & told !m t ,i ?\ght t !y mu/ see t :5 ,i spoke1 t x 0 n my own voice1 = x appe>$ s to me4 ,my spee* seem$ entirely "u ! control ( ! ,_s )9 me2 ,i d n mean t ! words :i* ,i spoke 7 n my own1 = !y 74 ,i ?\ght t ,i 0 influ5c$ simil> to ! ,apo/les on ! day ( ,p5teco/ 7) ! exception ( hav+ p[] to give x to o!rs1 & do+ :at !y did74 ,aft] breakfa/ ,i w5t r\nd to conv]se ) my neighbors on religion1 :i* ,i c\ld n h be5 hir$ to h done be=e ?is1 & at _! reque/ ,i pray$ ) !m1 ?\gh ,i _h nev] pray$ 9 public be=e4 8,i n[ feel z if ,i _h dis*>g$ my duty by tell+ ! tru?1 & hope by ! bless+ ( ,god1 x may d "s good to all :o %all read x4 ,he has fulfill$ 8 promise 9 s5d+ ! ,holy ,_s d[n into our he>ts1 or m9e at lea/1 & ,i n[ defy all ! ,dei/s & ,a!i/s 9 ! _w to %ake my fai? 9 ,*ri/40 ,s mu* = ,mr4 ,bradley & 8 conv]sion1 ( ! effect ( :i* ^u 8 lat] life we ga9 no in=mation4 ,n[ = a m9ut] survey ( ! con/itu5t elem5ts ( ! conv]sion process4 ,if y op5 ! *apt] on ,association1 ( any treatise on ,psy*ology1 y w read t a man's ideas1 aims1 & objects =m div]se int]nal gr\ps & sy/ems1 relatively indep5d5t ( "o ano!r4 ,ea* 8aim0 :i* he foll[s awak5s a c]ta9 specific k9d ( int]e/$ excitem5t1 & ga!rs a c]ta9 gr\p ( ideas toge!r 9 subord9ation to x z its associates2 & if ! aims & excitem5ts are di/9ct 9 k9d1 _! gr\ps ( ideas may h little 9 common4 ,:5 "o gr\p is pres5t & engrosses ! int]e/1 all ! ideas connect$ ) o!r gr\ps may be exclud$ f ! m5tal field4 ,! ,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates :51 ) paddle1 gun1 & fi%+rod1 he goes camp+ 9 ! wild]ness = a vacation1 *anges 8 sy/em ( ideas f top to bottom4 ,! presid5tial anxieties h laps$ into ! backgr\nd entirely2 ! (ficial habits are replac$ by ! habits ( a son ( nature1 & ^? :o knew ! man only z ! /r5u\s magi/rate w\ld n 8"k him = ! same p]son0 if !y saw him z ! camp]4 ,if n[ he %\ld nev] g back1 & nev] aga9 suff] political int]e/s to ga9 dom9ion ov] him1 he w\ld be = practical int5ts & purposes a p]man5tly trans=m$ be+4 ,our ord9>y alt]ations ( "*1 z we pass f "o ( our aims to ano!r1 are n commonly call$ trans=mations1 because ea* ( !m is s rapidly succe$$ by ano!r 9 ! rev]se direction2 b :5ev] "o aim gr[s s /able z to expel def9itively its previ\s rivals f ! individual's life1 we t5d to speak ( ! ph5om5on1 & p]haps to wond] at x1 z a 8trans=mation40 ,^! alt]nations are ! complete/ ( ! ways 9 :i* a self may be divid$4 ,a less complete way is ! simultane\s coexi/5ce ( two or m diff]5t gr\ps ( aims1 ( :i* "o practically holds ! "r ( way & in/igates activity1 :il/ ! o!rs are only pi\s wi%es1 & nev] practically come to any?+4 ,sa9t ,augu/9e's aspirations to a pur] life1 9 our la/ lecture1 7 = a :ile an example4 ,ano!r w\ld be ! ,presid5t 9 8 full pride ( (fice1 wond]+ :e!r x 7 n all vanity1 & :e!r ! life ( a wood*opp] 7 n ! :olesom] de/9y4 ,su* fleet+ aspirations are m]e velleitates1 :imsies4 ,!y exi/ on ! remot] outskirts ( ! m9d1 & ! real self ( ! man1 ! c5tre ( 8 en]gies1 is occupi$ ) an entirely diff]5t sy/em4 ,z life goes on1 !re is a con/ant *ange ( our int]e/s1 & a consequ5t *ange ( place 9 our sy/ems ( ideas1 f m c5tral to m p]iph]al1 & f m p]iph]al to m c5tral p>ts ( consci\sness4 ,i rememb]1 = in/ance1 t "o ev5+ :5 ,i 0 a y\?1 my fa!r read al\d f a ,bo/on newspap] t "p ( ,"l ,gif=d's w :i* f\nd$ ^! f\r lecture%ips4 ,at t "t ,i did n ?9k ( be+ a tea*] ( philosophy3 & :at ,i li/5$ to 0 z remote f my own life z if x relat$ to ! planet ,m>s4 ,yet "h ,i am1 ) ! ,gif=d sy/em "p & p>cel ( my v self1 & all my en]gies1 = ! "t be+1 devot$ to successfully id5tify+ myself ) x4 ,my s\l /&s n[ plant$ 9 :at once 0 = x a practically unreal object1 & speaks f x z f its prop] habitat & c5tre4 ,:5 ,i say 8,s\l10 y ne$ n take me 9 ! ontological s5se unless y pref] to2 = al?\gh ontological language is in/9ctive 9 su* matt]s1 yet ,buddhi/s or ,humians c p]fectly well describe ! facts 9 ! ph5om5al t]ms :i* are _! favorites4 ,= !m ! s\l is only a succession ( fields ( consci\sness3 yet !re is f\nd 9 ea* field a "p1 or subfield1 :i* figures z focal & conta9s ! excitem5t1 & f :i*1 z f a c5tre1 ! aim seems to be tak54 ,talk+ ( ?is "p1 we involunt>ily apply words ( p]spective to di/+ui% x f ! re/1 words l 8"h10 8?is10 8n[10 8m9e10 or 8me02 & we ascribe to ! o!r p>ts ! positions 8!re10 8!n10 8t10 880 or 8?9e10 8x10 8n me40 ,b a 8"h0 c *ange to a 8!re10 & a 8!re0 become a 8"h10 & :at 0 8m9e0 & :at 0 8n m9e0 *ange _! places4 ,:at br+s su* *anges ab\t is ! way 9 :i* emotional excitem5t alt]s4 ,?+s hot & vital to u today are cold tomorr[4 ,x is z if se5 f ! hot p>ts ( ! field t ! o!r p>ts appe> to u1 & f ^! hot p>ts p]sonal desire & volition make _! sallies4 ,!y are 9 %ort ! c5tres ( our dynamic en]gy1 :]eas ! cold p>ts leave u indiff]5t & passive 9 proportion to _! coldness4 ,:e!r su* language be rigor\sly exact is = ! pres5t ( no importance4 ,x is exact en\gh1 if y recognize f y\r own exp]i5ce ! facts :i* ,i seek to designate by x4 ,n[ !re may be great oscillation 9 ! emotional int]e/1 & ! hot places may %ift be=e "o almo/ z rapidly z ! sp>ks t run ?r\gh burntup pap]4 ,!n we h ! wav]+ & divid$ self we he>d s mu* ( 9 ! previ\s lecture4 ,or ! focus ( excitem5t & heat1 ! po9t ( view f :i* ! aim is tak51 may come to lie p]man5tly )9 a c]ta9 sy/em2 & !n1 if ! *ange be a religi\s "o1 we call x a conv]sion1 especially if x be by crisis1 or sudd54 ,let u h]eaft]1 9 speak+ ( ! hot place 9 a man's consci\sness1 ! gr\p ( ideas to :i* he devotes himself1 & f :i* he works1 call x ! habitual c5tre ( 8 p]sonal en]gy4 ,x makes a great diff]5ce to a man :e!r "o set ( 8 ideas1 or ano!r1 be ! c5tre ( 8 en]gy2 & x makes a great diff]5ce1 z reg>ds any set ( ideas :i* he may possess1 :e!r !y become c5tral or rema9 p]iph]al 9 him4 ,to say t a man is 8conv]t$0 means1 9 ^! t]ms1 t religi\s ideas1 previ\sly p]iph]al 9 8 consci\sness1 n[ take a c5tral place1 & t religi\s aims =m ! habitual c5tre ( 8 en]gy4 ,n[ if y ask ( psy*ology j h[ ! excitem5t %ifts 9 a man's m5tal sy/em1 & :y aims t 7 p]iph]al become at a c]ta9 mom5t c5tral1 psy*ology has to reply t al?\gh %e c give a g5]al description ( :at happ5s1 %e is unable 9 a giv5 case to acc\nt accurately = all ! s+le =ces at "w4 ,nei!r an outside obs]v] nor ! ,subject :o und]goes ! process c expla9 fully h[ p>ticul> exp]i5ces are able to *ange "o's c5tre ( en]gy s decisively1 or :y !y s (t5 h to bide _! h\r to d s4 ,we h a ?\ght1 or we p]=m an act1 repeat$ly1 b on a c]ta9 day ! real mean+ ( ! ?\ght peals ?r\gh u = ! fir/ "t1 or ! act has sudd5ly turn$ into a moral impossibility4 ,all we "k is t !re are dead feel+s1 dead ideas1 & cold beliefs1 & !re are hot & live ones2 & :5 "o gr[s hot & alive )9 u1 ev]y?+ has to re cry/allize ab\t x4 ,we may say t ! heat & livel9ess mean only ! 8motor efficacy10 long def]r$ b n[ op]ative1 ( ! idea2 b su* talk itself is only circumlocution1 = :5ce ! sudd5 motor efficacy8 ,& our explanations !n get s vague & g5]al t "o realizes all ! m ! int5se individuality ( ! :ole ph5om5on4 ,9 ! end we fall back on ! hackney$ symbolism ( a me*anical equilibrium4 ,a m9d is a sy/em ( ideas1 ea* ) ! excitem5t x ar\ses1 & ) t5d5cies impulsive & inhibitive1 :i* mutually *eck or re9=ce "o ano!r4 ,! collection ( ideas alt]s by subtraction or by addition 9 ! c\rse ( exp]i5ce1 & ! t5d5cies alt] z ! organism gets m ag$4 ,a m5tal sy/em may be und]m9$ or weak5$ by ?is int]/itial alt]ation j z a build+ is1 & yet = a "t keep upright by dead habit4 ,b a new p]ception1 a sudd5 emotional %ock1 or an occasion :i* lays b>e ! organic alt]ation1 w make ! :ole fabric fall toge!r2 & !n ! c5tre ( gravity s9ks into an attitude m /able1 = ! new ideas t rea* ! c5tre 9 ! re>rangem5t seem n[ to be lock$ !re1 & ! new /ructure rema9s p]man5t4 ,=m$ associations ( ideas & habits are usually factors ( ret>dation 9 su* *anges ( equilibrium4 ,new in=mation1 h[ev] acquir$1 plays an accel]at+ "p 9 ! *anges2 & ! sl[ mutation ( our in/9cts & prop5sities1 "u ! 8unimag9able t\* ( "t0 has an enorm\s influ5ce4 ,moreov]1 all ^! influ5ces may "w subconsci\sly or half unconsci\sly47#ii7 ,& :5 y get a ,subject 9 :om ! subconsci\s life--( :i* ,i mu/ speak m fully soon--is l>gely develop$1 & 9 :om motives habitually rip5 9 sil5ce1 y get a case ( :i* y c nev] give a full acc\nt1 & 9 :i*1 bo? to ! ,subject & ! onlook]s1 !re may appe> an elem5t ( m>vel4 ,emotional occasions1 especially viol5t ones1 are extremely pot5t 9 precipitat+ m5tal re>rangem5ts4 ,! sudd5 & explosive ways 9 :i* love1 jeal\sy1 guilt1 fe>1 remorse1 or ang] c seize ^u "o are kn[n to ev]ybody47#ajj7 ,hope1 happ9ess1 security1 resolve1 emotions *>act]i/ic ( conv]sion1 c be equally explosive4 ,& emotions t come 9 ?is explosive way seldom leave ?+s z !y f\nd !m4 ,9 8 rec5t "w on ! ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 ,pr(essor ,/>buck ( ,cali=nia has %[n by a /ati/ical inquiry h[ closely p>allel 9 its manife/ations ! ord9>y 8conv]sion0 :i* occurs 9 "y p br\ght up 9 evangelical circles is to t gr[? into a l>g] spiritual life :i* is a normal phase ( adolesc5ce 9 e class ( human be+s4 ,! age is ! same1 fall+ usually betwe5 f\rte5 & sev5te54 ,! symptoms are ! same1--s5se ( incomplet5ess & imp]fection2 brood+1 depression1 morbid introspection1 & s5se ( s92 anxiety ab\t ! h]eaft]2 di/ress ov] d\bts1 & ! l4 ,& ! result is ! same1--a happy relief & objectivity1 z ! confid5ce 9 self gets great] ?r\gh ! adju/m5t ( ! faculties to ! wid] outlook4 ,9 spontane\s religi\s awak5+1 ap>t f revivali/ic examples1 & 9 ! ord9>y /orm & /ress & m\lt+"t ( adolesc5ce1 we also may meet ) my/ical exp]i5ces1 a/oni%+ ! subjects by _! sudd5ness1 j z 9 revivali/ic conv]sion4 ,! analogy1 9 fact1 is complete2 & ,/>buck's conclusion z to ^! ord9>y y\?ful conv]sions w\ld seem to be ! only s\nd "o3 ,conv]sion is 9 its ess5ce a normal adolesc5t ph5om5on1 incid5tal to ! passage f ! *ild's small univ]se to ! wid] intellectual & spiritual life ( maturity4 8,!ology10 says ,dr4 ,/>buck1 8takes ! adolesc5t t5d5cies & builds ^u !m2 x sees t ! ess5tial ?+ 9 adolesc5t gr[? is br++ ! p]son out ( *ildhood into ! new life ( maturity & p]sonal insight4 ,x accord+ly br+s ^? means to be> :i* w int5sify ! normal t5d5cies4 ,x %ort5s up ! p]iod ( duration ( /orm & /ress40 ,! conv]sion ph5om5a ( 8conviction ( s90 la/1 by ?is inve/igator's /ati/ics1 ab\t "o fif? z long z ! p]iods ( adolesc5t /orm & /ress ph5om5a ( :i* he also got /ati/ics1 b !y are v mu* m int5se4 ,bodily accompanim5ts1 loss ( sleep & appetite1 = example1 are mu* m frequ5t 9 !m4 8,! ess5tial di/9ction appe>s to be t conv]sion int5sifies b %ort5s ! p]iod by br++ ! p]son to a def9ite crisis407#aja7 ,! conv]sions :i* ,dr4 ,/>buck "h has 9 m9d are ( c\rse ma9ly ^? ( v commonplace p]sons1 kept true to a preappo9t$ type by in/ruction1 appeal1 & example4 ,! p>ticul> =m :i* !y affect is ! result ( sugge/ion & imitation47#ajb7 ,if !y w5t ?r\gh _! gr[?crisis 9 o!r fai?s & o!r c\ntries1 al?\gh ! ess5ce ( ! *ange w\ld be ! same 7s9ce x is "o 9 ! ma9 s inevitable71 its accid5ts w\ld be diff]5t4 ,9 ,ca?olic l&s1 = example1 & 9 our own ,episcopalian sects1 no su* anxiety & conviction ( s9 is usual z 9 sects t enc\rage revivals4 ,! sacram5ts be+ m reli$ on 9 ^! m /rictly ecclesia/ical bodies1 ! individual's p]sonal acceptance ( salvation ne$s less to be acc5tuat$ & l$ up to4 ,b e imitative ph5om5on mu/ once h _h its orig9al1 & ,i propose t = ! future we keep z close z may be to ! m fir/ h& & orig9al =ms ( exp]i5ce4 ,^! are m likely to be f\nd 9 sporadic adult cases4 ,pr(essor ,leuba1 9 a valuable article on ! psy*ology ( conv]sion17#ajc7 subord9ates ! !ological aspect ( ! religi\s life almo/ entirely to its moral aspect4 ,! religi\s s5se he def9es z 8! feel+ ( un:ol5ess1 ( moral imp]fection1 ( s91 to use ! te*nical ^w1 accompani$ by ! ye>n+ aft] ! peace ( unity40 8,! ^w #8religion1' 0 he says1 8is gett+ m & m to signify ! conglom]ate ( desires & emotions spr++ f ! s5se ( s9 & its release02 & he gives a l>ge numb] ( examples1 9 :i* ! s9 ranges f drunk5ness to spiritual pride1 to %[ t ! s5se ( x may beset "o & crave relief z urg5tly z does ! angui% ( ! sick5$ fle% or any =m ( physical mis]y4 ,und\bt$ly ?is conception cov]s an imm5se numb] ( cases4 ,a good "o to use z an example is t ( ,mr4 ,s4 ,h4 ,hadley1 :o aft] 8 conv]sion became an active & useful rescu] ( drunk>ds 9 ,new ,york4 ,8 exp]i5ce runs z foll[s3-- 8,"o ,tuesday ev5+ ,i sat 9 a saloon 9 ,h>lem1 a homeless1 fri5dless1 dy+ drunk>d4 ,i _h pawn$ or sold ev]y?+ t w\ld br+ a dr9k4 ,i c\ld n sleep unless ,i 0 dead drunk4 ,i _h n eat5 = days1 & = f\r nights prec$+ ,i _h suff]$ ) delirium trem5s1 or ! horrors1 f midnight till morn+4 ,i _h (t5 said1 #8,i w nev] be a tramp4 ,i w nev] be corn]$1 = :5 t "t comes1 if ev] x comes1 ,i w f9d a home 9 ! bottom ( ! riv]4' ,b ! ,"l s ord]$ x t :5 t "t did come ,i 0 n able to walk "o qu>t] ( ! way to ! riv]4 ,z ,i sat !re ?9k+1 ,i seem$ to feel "s great & mighty pres5ce4 ,i did n "k !n :at x 04 ,i did le>n aft]w>ds t x 0 ,jesus1 ! s9n]'s fri5d4 ,i walk$ up to ! b> & p\nd$ x ) my fi/ till ,i made ! glasses rattle4 ,^? :o /ood by dr9k+ look$ on ) scornful curiosity4 ,i said ,i w\ld nev] take ano!r dr9k1 if ,i di$ on ! /reet1 & really ,i felt z ?\gh t w\ld happ5 be=e morn+4 ,some?+ said1 #8,if y want to keep ?is promise1 g & h y\rself lock$ up4' ,i w5t to ! ne>e/ /ation h\se & _h myself lock$ up4 8,i 0 plac$ 9 a n>r[ cell1 & x seem$ z ?\gh all ! demons t c\ld f9d room came 9 t place ) me4 ,?is 0 n all ! company ,i _h1 ei!r4 ,no1 praise ! ,"l2 t de> ,_s t came to me 9 ! saloon 0 pres5t1 & said1 ,pray4 ,i did pray1 & ?\gh ,i did n feel any great help1 ,i kept on pray+4 ,z soon z ,i 0 able to leave my cell ,i 0 tak5 to ! police c\rt & rem&$ back to ! cell4 ,i 0 f9ally releas$1 & f\nd my way to my bro!r's h\se1 :]e e c>e 0 giv5 me4 ,:ile ly+ 9 b$ ! admoni%+ ,_s nev] left me1 & :5 ,i arose ! foll[+ ,sabba? morn+ ,i felt t day w\ld decide my fate1 & t[>d ev5+ x came into my head to g to ,j]ry ,m',auley's ,mission4 ,i w5t4 ,! h\se 0 pack$1 & ) great difficulty ,i made my way to ! space ne> ! plat=m4 ,!re ,i saw ! apo/le to ! drunk>d & ! outca/--t man ( ,god1 ,j]ry ,m',auley4 ,he rose1 & amid deep sil5ce told 8 exp]i5ce4 ,!re 0 a s9c]ity ab\t ?is man t c>ri$ conviction ) x1 & ,i f\nd myself say+1 #8,i wond] if ,god c save me8' ,i li/5$ to ! te/imony ( tw5tyfive or ?irty p]sons1 e "o ( :om _h be5 sav$ f rum1 & ,i made up my m9d t ,i w\ld be sav$ or die "r !re4 ,:5 ! invitation 0 giv51 ,i knelt d[n ) a cr[d ( drunk>ds4 ,j]ry made ! fir/ pray]4 ,!n ,mrs4 ,m',auley pray$ f]v5tly = u4 ,oh1 :at a conflict 0 go+ on = my poor s\l6 ,a bless$ :isp] said1 #8,come'2 ! devil said1 #8,be c>eful4' ,i halt$ b a mom5t1 & !n1 ) a break+ he>t1 ,i said1 #8,de> ,jesus1 c y help me8' ,nev] ) mortal tongue c ,i describe t mom5t4 ,al?\gh up to t mom5t my s\l _h be5 fill$ ) indescribable gloom1 ,i felt ! glori\s brightness ( ! noonday sun %9e into my he>t4 ,i felt ,i 0 a free man4 ,oh1 ! preci\s feel+ ( safety1 ( fre$om1 ( re/+ on ,jesus6 ,i felt t ,*ri/ ) all 8 brightness & p[] _h come into my life2 t1 inde$1 old ?+s _h pass$ away & all ?+s _h become new4 8,f t mom5t till n[ ,i h nev] want$ a dr9k ( :iskey1 & ,i h nev] se5 money en\gh to make me take "o4 ,i promis$ ,god t night t if he w\ld take away ! appetite = /rong dr9k1 ,i w\ld "w = him all my life4 ,he has done 8 "p1 & ,i h be5 try+ to d m9e407#ajd7 ,dr4 ,leuba rightly rem>ks t !re is little doctr9al !ology 9 su* an exp]i5ce1 :i* />ts ) ! absolute ne$ ( a high] help]1 & ends ) ! s5se t he has help$ u4 ,he gives o!r cases ( drunk>ds' conv]sions :i* are purely e?ical1 conta9+1 z record$1 no !ological beliefs :atev]4 ,john ,b4 ,g\gh's case1 = in/ance1 is practically1 says ,dr4 ,leuba1 ! conv]sion ( an a!i/--nei!r ,god nor ,jesus be+ m5tion$47#aje7 ,b 9 spite ( ! importance ( ?is type ( reg5]ation1 ) little or no intellectual readju/m5t1 ?is writ] surely makes x too exclusive4 ,x corresponds to ! subjectively c5tr$ =m ( morbid melan*oly1 ( :i* ,bunyan & ,all9e 7 examples4 ,b we saw 9 our sev5? lecture t !re are objective =ms ( melan*oly also1 9 :i* ! lack ( rational mean+ ( ! univ]se1 & ( life anyh[1 is ! burd5 t weighs ^u "o--y rememb] ,tol/oy's case47#ajf7 ,s !re are di/9ct elem5ts 9 conv]sion1 & _! relations to individual lives des]ve to be discrim9at$47#ajg7 ,"s p]sons1 = in/ance1 nev] are1 & possibly nev] "u any circum/ances c\ld be1 conv]t$4 ,religi\s ideas _c become ! c5tre ( _! spiritual en]gy4 ,!y may be excell5t p]sons1 s]vants ( ,god 9 practical ways1 b !y are n *ildr5 ( 8 k+dom4 ,!y are ei!r incapable ( imag9+ ! invisible2 or else1 9 ! language ( devotion1 !y are lifelong subjects ( 8b>r5ness0 & 8dryness40 ,su* inaptitude = religi\s fai? may 9 "s cases be intellectual 9 its orig94 ,_! religi\s faculties may be *eck$ 9 _! natural t5d5cy to exp&1 by beliefs ab\t ! _w t are inhibitive1 ! pessimi/ic & mat]iali/ic beliefs1 = example1 )9 :i* s _m good s\ls1 :o 9 =m] times w\ld h freely indulg$ _! religi\s prop5sities1 f9d !mselves n[adays1 z x 71 froz52 or ! agno/ic vetoes ^u fai? z some?+ weak & %ameful1 "u :i* s _m ( u today lie c[]+1 afraid to use our in/9cts4 ,9 _m p]sons su* inhibitions are nev] ov]come4 ,to ! end ( _! days !y refuse to believe1 _! p]sonal en]gy nev] gets to its religi\s c5tre1 & ! latt] rema9s inactive 9 p]petuity4 ,9 o!r p]sons ! tr\ble is pr(\nd]4 ,!re are m5 an/hetic on ! religi\s side1 defici5t 9 t category ( s5sibility4 ,j z a bloodless organism c nev]1 9 spite ( all its goodwill1 atta9 to ! reckless 8animal spirits0 enjoy$ by ^? ( sangu9e temp]am5t2 s ! nature :i* is spiritually b>r5 may admire & envy fai? 9 o!rs1 b c nev] compass ! en?usiasm & peace :i* ^? :o are temp]am5tally qualifi$ = fai? enjoy4 ,all ?is may1 h[ev]1 turn out ev5tually to h be5 a matt] ( tempor>y inhibition4 ,ev5 late 9 life "s ?aw1 "s release may take place1 "s bolt be %ot back 9 ! b>r5e/ brea/1 & ! man's h>d he>t may s(t5 & break into religi\s feel+4 ,su* cases m ?an any o!rs sugge/ ! idea t sudd5 conv]sion is by miracle4 ,s long z !y exi/1 we mu/ n imag9e ourselves to deal ) irretrievably fix$ classes4 ,n[ !re are two =ms ( m5tal occurr5ce 9 human be+s1 :i* lead to a /rik+ diff]5ce 9 ! conv]sion process1 a diff]5ce to :i* ,pr(essor ,/>buck has call$ att5tion4 ,y "k h[ x is :5 y try to recollect a =gott5 "n4 ,usually y help ! recall by work+ = x1 by m5tally runn+ ov] ! places1 p]sons1 & ?+s ) :i* ! ^w 0 connect$4 ,b sometimes ?is ef=t fails3 y feel !n z if ! h>d] y tri$ ! less hope !re w\ld be1 z ?\gh ! "n 7 jamm$1 & pressure 9 its direction only kept x all ! m f ris+4 ,& !n ! opposite exp$i5t (t5 succe$s4 ,give up ! ef=t entirely2 ?9k ( some?+ altoge!r diff]5t1 & 9 half an h\r ! lo/ "n comes saunt]+ into y\r m9d1 z ,em]son says1 z c>elessly z if x _h nev] be5 invit$4 ,"s hidd5 process 0 />t$ 9 y by ! ef=t1 :i* w5t on aft] ! ef=t ceas$1 & made ! result come z if x came spontane\sly4 ,a c]ta9 music tea*]1 says ,dr4 ,/>buck1 says to h] pupils aft] ! ?+ to be done has be5 cle>ly po9t$ out1 & unsuccessfully attempt$3 8,/op try+ & x w d itself607#ajh7 ,!re is ?us a consci\s & volunt>y way & an involunt>y & unconsci\s way 9 :i* m5tal results may get accompli%$2 & we f9d bo? ways exemplifi$ 9 ! hi/ory ( conv]sion1 giv+ u two types1 :i* ,/>buck calls ! volitional type & ! type by self surr5d] respectively4 ,9 ! volitional type ! reg5]ative *ange is usually gradual1 & consi/s 9 ! build+ up1 piece by piece1 ( a new set ( moral & spiritual habits4 ,b !re are always critical po9ts "h at :i* ! movem5t =w>d seems mu* m rapid4 ,?is psy*ological fact is abundantly illu/rat$ by ,dr4 ,/>buck4 ,our education 9 any practical accompli%m5t proce$s app>5tly by j]ks & />ts1 j z ! gr[? ( our physical bodies does4 8,an a?lete 444 sometimes awak5s sudd5ly to an und]/&+ ( ! f9e po9ts ( ! game & to a real enjoym5t ( x1 j z ! conv]t awak5s to an appreciation ( religion4 ,if he keeps on engag+ 9 ! sport1 !re may come a day :5 all at once ! game plays itself ?r\gh him--:5 he loses himself 9 "s great conte/4 ,9 ! same way1 a musician may sudd5ly rea* a po9t at :i* pleasure 9 ! te*nique ( ! art entirely falls away1 & 9 "s mom5t ( inspiration he becomes ! in/rum5t ?r\gh :i* music fl[s4 ,! writ] has *anc$ to he> two diff]5t m>ri$ p]sons1 bo? ( ^: w$d$ lives _h be5 beautiful f ! beg9n+1 relate t n until a ye> or m aft] m>riage did !y awake to ! full bless$ness ( m>ri$ life4 ,s x is ) ! religi\s exp]i5ce ( ^! p]sons we are /udy+407#aji7 ,we %all erelong he> /ill m rem>kable illu/rations ( subconsci\sly matur+ processes ev5tuat+ 9 results ( :i* we sudd5ly gr[ consci\s4 ,sir ,william ,hamilton & ,pr(essor ,laycock ( ,ed9burgh 7 among ! fir/ to call att5tion to ?is class ( effects2 b ,dr4 ,c>p5t] fir/1 unless ,i am mi/ak51 introduc$ ! t]m 8unconsci\s c]ebration10 :i* has s9ce !n be5 a popul> phrase ( explanation4 ,! facts are n[ kn[n to u f> m ext5sively ?an he c\ld "k !m1 & ! adjective 8unconsci\s10 be+ = _m ( !m almo/ c]ta9ly a misnom]1 is bett] replac$ by ! vagu] t]m 8subconsci\s0 or 8sublim9al40 ,( ! volitional type ( conv]sion x w\ld be easy to give examples17#aaj7 b !y are z a rule less int]e/+ ?an ^? ( ! selfsurr5d] type1 9 :i* ! subconsci\s effects are m abundant & (t5 />tl+4 ,i w !re=e hurry to ! latt]1 ! m s because ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! two types is aft] all n radical4 ,ev5 9 ! mo/ volunt>ily builtup sort ( reg5]ation !re are passages ( p>tial selfsurr5d] int]pos$2 & 9 ! great majority ( all cases1 :5 ! w has done its utt]mo/ t[>ds br++ "o close to ! complete unification aspir$ aft]1 x seems t ! v la/ /ep mu/ be left to o!r =ces & p]=m$ )\t ! help ( its activity4 ,9 o!r words1 selfsurr5d] becomes !n indisp5sable4 8,! p]sonal w10 says ,dr4 ,/>buck1 8mu/ be giv5 up4 ,9 _m cases relief p]si/5tly refuses to come until ! p]son ceases to resi/1 or to make an ef=t 9 ! direction he desires to g40 8,i _h said ,i w\ld n give up2 b :5 my w 0 brok51 x 0 all ov]10 writes "o ( ,/>buck's correspond5ts4--,ano!r says3 8,i simply said3 #8,"l1 ,i h done all ,i c2 ,i leave ! :ole matt] ) ,!e2' & imm$iately !re came to me a great peace40--,ano!r3 8,all at once x occurr$ to me t ,i might be sav$1 too1 if ,i w\ld /op try+ to d x all myself1 & foll[ ,jesus3 someh[ ,i lo/ my load40--,ano!r3 8,i f9ally ceas$ to resi/1 & gave myself up1 ?\gh x 0 a h>d /ruggle4 ,gradually ! feel+ came ov] me t ,i _h done my "p1 & ,god 0 will+ to d 8407#aaa7--8,"l1 ,?y w be done2 damn or save60 cries ,john ,nelson17#aab7 exhau/$ ) ! anxi\s /ruggle to escape damnation2 & at t mom5t 8 s\l 0 fill$ ) peace4 ,dr4 ,/>buck gives an int]e/+1 & x seems to me a true1 acc\nt--s f> z conceptions s s*ematic c claim tru? at all--( ! reasons :y selfsurr5d] at ! la/ mom5t %\ld be s indisp5sable4 ,to beg9 )1 !re are two ?+s 9 ! m9d ( ! c&idate = conv]sion3 fir/1 ! pres5t incomplet5ess or wrongness1 ! 8s90 :i* he is eag] to escape f2 &1 second1 ! positive ideal :i* he longs to compass4 ,n[ ) mo/ ( u ! s5se ( our pres5t wrongness is a f> m di/9ct piece ( our consci\sness ?an is ! imag9ation ( any positive ideal we c aim at4 ,9 a majority ( cases1 inde$1 ! 8s90 almo/ exclusively engrosses ! att5tion1 s t conv]sion is 8a process ( /ruggl+ away f s9 r ?an ( /riv+ t[>ds righte\sness407#aac7 ,a man's consci\s wit & w1 s f> z !y /ra9 t[>ds ! ideal1 are aim+ at some?+ only dimly & inaccurately imag9$4 ,yet all ! :ile ! =ces ( m]e organic rip5+ )9 him are go+ on t[>ds _! own prefigur$ result1 & 8 consci\s /ra9+s are lett+ loose subconsci\s allies beh9d ! sc5es1 :i* 9 _! way "w t[>ds re>rangem5t2 & ! re>rangem5t t[>ds :i* all ^! deep] =ces t5d is pretty surely def9ite1 & def9itely diff]5t f :at he consci\sly conceives & det]m9es4 ,x may consequ5tly be actually int]f]$ ) 7jamm$1 z x 71 l ! lo/ ^w :5 we seek too en]getically to recall x71 by 8 volunt>y ef=ts slant+ f ! true direction4 ,/>buck seems to put 8 f+] on ! root ( ! matt] :5 he says t to ex]cise ! p]sonal w is /ill to live 9 ! region :]e ! imp]fect self is ! ?+ mo/ emphasiz$4 ,:]e1 on ! contr>y1 ! subconsci\s =ces take ! lead1 x is m probably ! bett] self 9 posse :i* directs ! op]ation4 ,in/ead ( be+ clumsily & vaguely aim$ at f )\t1 x is !n itself ! organiz+ c5tre4 ,:at !n mu/ ! p]son d8 8,he mu/ relax10 says ,dr4 ,/>buck1--8t is1 he mu/ fall back on ! l>g] ,p[] t makes = righte\sness1 :i* has be5 well+ up 9 8 own be+1 & let x f9i% 9 its own way ! "w x has begun4444 ,! act ( yield+1 9 ?is po9t ( view1 is giv+ "o's self ov] to ! new life1 mak+ x ! c5tre ( a new p]sonality1 & liv+1 f )91 ! tru? ( x :i* _h be=e be5 view$ objectively407#aad7 8,man's extremity is ,god's opportunity0 is ! !ological way ( putt+ ?is fact ( ! ne$ ( selfsurr5d]2 :il/ ! physiological way ( /at+ x w\ld be1 8,let "o d all 9 "o's p[]1 & "o's n]v\s sy/em w d ! re/40 ,bo? /atem5ts ackn[l$ge ! same fact47#aae7 ,to /ate x 9 t]ms ( our own symbolism3 ,:5 ! new c5tre ( p]sonal en]gy has be5 subconsci\sly incubat$ s long z to be j ready to op5 into fl[]1 8h&s (f0 is ! only ^w = u1 x mu/ bur/ =? unaid$6 ,we h us$ ! vague & ab/ract language ( psy*ology4 ,b s9ce1 9 any t]ms1 ! crisis describ$ is ! ?r[+ ( our consci\s selves ^u ! m]cy ( p[]s :i*1 :atev] !y may be1 are m ideal ?an we are actually1 & make = our r$emption1 y see :y selfsurr5d] has be5 & always mu/ be reg>d$ z ! vital turn+po9t ( ! religi\s life1 s f> z ! religi\s life is spiritual & no affair ( out] works & ritual & sacram5ts4 ,"o may say t ! :ole developm5t ( ,*ri/ianity 9 inw>dness has consi/$ 9 little m ?an ! great] & great] emphasis atta*$ to ?is crisis ( self surr5d]4 ,f ,ca?olicism to ,lu!ranism1 & !n to ,calv9ism2 f t to ,wesleyanism2 & f ?is1 outside ( te*nical ,*ri/ianity altoge!r1 to pure 8lib]alism0 or transc5d5tal idealism1 :e!r or n ( ! m9dcure type1 tak+ 9 ! m$ival my/ics1 ! quieti/s1 ! pieti/s1 & quak]s by ! way1 we c trace ! /ages ( progress t[>ds ! idea ( an imm$iate spiritual help1 exp]i5c$ by ! individual 9 8 =lornness & /&+ 9 no ess5tial ne$ ( doctr9al app>atus or propitiatory ma*9]y4 ,psy*ology & religion are ?us 9 p]fect h>mony up to ?is po9t1 s9ce bo? admit t !re are =ces seem+ly outside ( ! consci\s individual t br+ r$emption to 8 life4 ,nev]!less psy*ology1 def9+ ^! =ces z 8subconsci\s10 & speak+ ( _! effects z due to 8incubation10 or 8c]ebration10 implies t !y d n transc5d ! individual's p]sonality2 & h]e9 %e div]ges f ,*ri/ian !ology1 :i* insi/s t !y are direct sup]natural op]ations ( ! ,deity4 ,i propose to y t we d n yet consid] ?is div]g5ce f9al1 b leave ! "q = a :ile 9 abeyance--cont9u$ inquiry may enable u to get rid ( "s ( ! app>5t discord4 ,rev]t1 !n1 = a mom5t m to ! psy*ology ( selfsurr5d]4 ,:5 y f9d a man liv+ on ! ragg$ edge ( 8 consci\sness1 p5t 9 to 8 s9 & want & incomplet5ess1 & consequ5tly inconsolable1 & !n simply tell him t all is well ) him1 t he mu/ /op 8 worry1 break ) 8 discont5t1 & give up 8 anxiety1 y seem to him to come ) pure absurdities4 ,! only positive consci\sness he has tells him t all is n well1 & ! bett] way y (f] s\nds simply z if y propos$ to him to ass]t coldblood$ falsehoods4 8,! w to believe0 _c be /ret*$ z f> z t4 ,we c make ourselves m fai?ful to a belief ( :i* we h ! rudim5ts1 b we _c create a belief out ( :ole clo? :5 our p]ception actively assures u ( its opposite4 ,! bett] m9d propos$ to u comes 9 t case 9 ! =m ( a pure negation ( ! only m9d we h1 & we _c actively w a pure negation4 ,!re are only two ways 9 :i* x is possible to get rid ( ang]1 worry1 fe>1 despair1 or o!r undesirable affections4 ,"o is t an opposite affection %\ld ov]p[]+ly break ov] u1 & ! o!r is by gett+ s exhau/$ ) ! /ruggle t we h to /op1--s we drop d[n1 give up1 & don't c>e any long]4 ,our emotional bra9c5tres /rike "w1 & we lapse into a tempor>y apa?y4 ,n[ !re is docum5t>y pro( t ?is /ate ( tempor>y exhau/ion n infrequ5tly =ms "p ( ! conv]sion crisis4 ,s long z ! egoi/ic worry ( ! sick s\l gu>ds ! door1 ! expansive confid5ce ( ! s\l ( fai? ga9s no pres5ce4 ,b let ! =m] fa9t away1 ev5 b = a mom5t1 & ! latt] c pr(it by ! opportunity1 &1 hav+ once acquir$ possession1 may reta9 x4 ,c>lyle's ,teufelsdrckh passes f ! ev]la/+ ,no to ! ev]la/+ ,yes ?r\gh a 8,c5tre ( ,indiff]5ce40 ,let me give y a good illu/ration ( ?is feature 9 ! conv]sion process4 ,t g5u9e sa9t1 ,david ,bra9]d1 describes 8 own crisis 9 ! foll[+ words3-- 8,"o morn+1 :ile ,i 0 walk+ 9 a solit>y place z usual1 ,i at once saw t all my contrivances & projects to effect or procure deliv]ance & salvation = myself 7 utt]ly 9 va92 ,i 0 br\ght q to a /&1 z f9d+ myself totally lo/4 ,i saw t x 0 =ev] impossible = me to d any?+ t[>ds help+ or deliv]+ myself1 t ,i _h made all ! pleas ,i ev] c\ld h made to all et]nity2 & t all my pleas 7 va91 = ,i saw t selfint]e/ _h l$ me to pray1 & t ,i _h nev] once pray$ f any respect to ! glory ( ,god4 ,i saw t !re 0 no necess>y connection betwe5 my pray]s & ! be/[m5t ( div9e m]cy2 t !y laid n ! lea/ obligation ^u ,god to be/[ 8 grace ^u me2 & t !re 0 no m virtue or goodness 9 !m ?an !re w\ld be 9 my paddl+ ) my h& 9 ! wat]4 ,i saw t ,i _h be5 heap+ up my devotions be=e ,god1 fa/+1 pray+1 etc41 pret5d+1 & inde$ really ?9k+ sometimes t ,i 0 aim+ at ! glory ( ,god2 :]eas ,i nev] once truly int5d$ x1 b only my own happ9ess4 ,i saw t z ,i _h nev] done any?+ = ,god1 ,i _h no claim on any?+ f him b p]dition1 on acc\nt ( my hypocrisy & mock]y4 ,:5 ,i saw evid5tly t ,i _h reg>d to no?+ b selfint]e/1 !n my duties appe>$ a vile mock]y & a cont9ual c\rse ( lies1 = ! :ole 0 no?+ b selfwor%ip1 & an horrid abuse ( ,god4 8,i cont9u$1 z ,i rememb]1 9 ?is /ate ( m9d1 f ,friday morn+ till ! ,sabba? ev5+ foll[+ 7,july #ab1 #agci71 :5 ,i 0 walk+ aga9 9 ! same solit>y place4 ,"h1 9 a m\rnful melan*oly /ate ,i 0 attempt+ to pray2 b f\nd no he>t to engage 9 t or any o!r duty2 my =m] conc]n1 ex]cise1 & religi\s affections 7 n[ gone4 ,i ?\ght t ! ,_s ( ,god _h q left me2 b /ill 0 n di/ress$2 yet disconsolate1 z if !re 0 no?+ 9 heav5 or e>? c\ld make me happy4 ,hav+ be5 ?us endeavor+ to pray--?\gh1 z ,i ?\ght1 v /upid & s5seless--= ne> half an h\r2 !n1 z ,i 0 walk+ 9 a ?ick grove1 unspeakable glory seem$ to op5 to ! appreh5sion ( my s\l4 ,i d n mean any ext]nal brightness1 nor any imag9ation ( a body ( light1 b x 0 a new inw>d appreh5sion or view t ,i _h ( ,god1 su* z ,i nev] _h be=e1 nor any?+ :i* _h ! lea/ resemblance to x4 ,i _h no p>ticul> appreh5sion ( any "o p]son 9 ! ,tr9ity1 ei!r ! ,fa!r1 ! ,son1 or ! ,holy ,gho/2 b x appe>$ to be ,div9e glory4 ,my s\l rejoic$ ) joy unspeakable1 to see su* a ,god1 su* a glori\s ,div9e ,be+2 & ,i 0 inw>dly pleas$ & satisfi$ t he %\ld be ,god ov] all = ev] & ev]4 ,my s\l 0 s captivat$ & delight$ ) ! excell5cy ( ,god t ,i 0 ev5 swall[$ up 9 him2 at lea/ to t degree t ,i _h no ?\ght ab\t my own salvation1 & sc>ce reflect$ t !re 0 su* a creature z myself4 ,i cont9u$ 9 ?is /ate ( inw>d joy1 peace1 & a/oni%+1 till ne> d>k )\t any s5sible abatem5t2 & !n began to ?9k & exam9e :at ,i _h se52 & felt sweetly compos$ 9 my m9d all ! ev5+ foll[+4 ,i felt myself 9 a new _w1 & ev]y?+ ab\t me appe>$ ) a diff]5t aspect f :at x 0 wont to d4 ,at ?is "t1 ! way ( salvation op5$ to me ) su* inf9ite wisdom1 suitabl5ess1 & excell5cy1 t ,i wond]$ ,i %\ld ev] ?9k ( any o!r way ( salvation2 0 amaz$ t ,i _h n dropp$ my own contrivances1 & compli$ ) ?is lovely1 bless$1 & excell5t way be=e4 ,if ,i c\ld h be5 sav$ by my own duties or any o!r way t ,i _h =m]ly contriv$1 my :ole s\l w\ld n[ h refus$ x4 ,i wond]$ t all ! _w did n see & comply ) ?is way ( salvation1 entirely by ! righte\sness ( ,*ri/407#aaf7 ,i h italiciz$ ! passage :i* records ! exhau/ion ( ! anxi\s emotion hi!rto habitual4 ,9 a l>ge proportion1 p]haps ! majority1 ( reports1 ! writ]s speak z if ! exhau/ion ( ! l[] & ! entrance ( ! high] emotion 7 simultane\s17#aag7 yet (t5 aga9 !y speak z if ! high] actively drove ! l[] out4 ,?is is und\bt$ly true 9 a great _m in/ances1 z we %all pres5tly see4 ,b (t5 !re seems little d\bt t bo? conditions--subconsci\s rip5+ ( ! "o affection & exhau/ion ( ! o!r--mu/ simultane\sly h conspir$1 9 ord] to produce ! result4 ,t4 ,w4 ,b41 a conv]t ( ,nettleton's1 be+ br\ght to an acute p>oxysm ( conviction ( s91 ate no?+ all day1 lock$ himself 9 8 room 9 ! ev5+ 9 complete despair1 cry+ al\d1 8,h[ long1 ,o ,"l1 h[ long80 8,aft] repeat+ ?is & simil> language10 he says1 8sev]al times1 ,i seem$ to s9k away into a /ate ( ins5sibility4 ,:5 ,i came to myself aga9 ,i 0 on my knees1 pray+ n = myself b = o!rs4 ,i felt submission to ! w ( ,god1 will+ t he %\ld d ) me z %\ld seem good 9 8 sight4 ,my conc]n seem$ all lo/ 9 conc]n = o!rs407#aah7 ,our great ,am]ican revivali/ ,f9ney writes3 8,i said to myself3 #8,:at is ?is8 ,i mu/ h griev$ ! ,holy ,gho/ entirely away4 ,i h lo/ all my conviction4 ,i h n a p>ticle ( conc]n ab\t my s\l2 & x mu/ be t ! ,_s has left me4' #8,:y6' ?\ght ,i1 #8,i nev] 0 s f> f be+ conc]n$ ab\t my own salvation 9 my life4'444 ,i tri$ to recall my convictions1 to get back aga9 ! load ( s9 "u :i* ,i _h be5 labor+4 ,i tri$ 9 va9 to make myself anxi\s4 ,i 0 s quiet & peaceful t ,i tri$ to feel conc]n$ ab\t t1 le/ x %\ld be ! result ( my hav+ griev$ ! ,_s away407#aai7 ,b beyond all "q !re are p]sons 9 :om1 q indep5d5tly ( any exhau/ion 9 ! ,subject's capacity = feel+1 or ev5 9 ! abs5ce ( any acute previ\s feel+1 ! high] condition1 hav+ rea*$ ! due degree ( en]gy1 bur/s ?r\gh all b>ri]s & sweeps 9 l a sudd5 flood4 ,^! are ! mo/ /rik+ & memorable cases1 ! cases ( in/antane\s conv]sion to :i* ! conception ( div9e grace has be5 mo/ peculi>ly atta*$4 ,i h giv5 "o ( !m at l5g?--! case ( ,mr4 ,bradley4 ,b ,i _h bett] res]ve ! o!r cases & my comm5ts on ! re/ ( ! subject = ! foll[+ lecture4 ,,lecture ,x4 ,,conv]sion--,,conclud$4 ,9 ?is lecture we h to f9i% ! subject ( ,conv]sion1 consid]+ at fir/ ^? /rik+ in/antane\s in/ances ( :i* ,sa9t ,paul's is ! mo/ em95t1 & 9 :i*1 (t5 amid trem5d\s emotional excitem5t or p]turbation ( ! s5ses1 a complete division is e/abli%$ 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye betwe5 ! old life & ! new4 ,conv]sion ( ?is type is an important phase ( religi\s exp]i5ce1 ow+ to ! "p :i* x has play$ 9 ,prote/ant !ology1 & x behooves u to /udy x consci5ti\sly on t acc\nt4 ,i ?9k ,i _h bett] cite two or ?ree ( ^! cases be=e proce$+ to a m g5]aliz$ acc\nt4 ,"o mu/ "k concrete in/ances fir/2 =1 z ,pr(essor ,agassiz us$ to say1 "o c see no f>!r into a g5]alization ?an j s f> z "o's previ\s acqua9tance ) p>ticul>s enables "o to take x 94 ,i w g back1 !n1 to ! case ( our fri5d ,h5ry ,all9e1 & quote 8 report ( ! #bf? ( ,m>*1 #agge1 on :i* 8 poor divid$ m9d became unifi$ = good4 8,z ,i 0 ab\t sunset w&]+ 9 ! fields lam5t+ my mis]able lo/ & undone condition1 & almo/ ready to s9k "u my burd51 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 9 su* a mis]able case z nev] any man 0 be=e4 ,i return$ to ! h\se1 & :5 ,i got to ! door1 j z ,i 0 /epp+ (f ! ?re%old1 ! foll[+ impressions came into my m9d l a p[]ful b small /ill voice4 ,y h be5 seek+1 pray+1 re=m+1 labor+1 read+1 he>+1 & m$itat+1 & :at h y done by x t[>ds y\r salvation8 ,are y any ne>] to conv]sion n[ ?an :5 y fir/ began8 ,are y any m prep>$ = heav51 or fitt] to appe> be=e ! imp>tial b> ( ,god1 ?an :5 y fir/ began to seek8 8,x br\ght su* conviction on me t ,i 0 oblig$ to say t ,i did n ?9k ,i 0 "o /ep ne>] ?an at fir/1 b z mu* condemn$1 z mu* expos$1 & z mis]able z be=e4 ,i cri$ out )9 myself1 ,o ,"l ,god1 ,i am lo/1 & if ?\1 ,o ,"l1 do/ n f9d out "s new way1 ,i "k no?+ (1 ,i %all nev] be sav$1 = ! ways & me?ods ,i h prescrib$ to myself h all fail$ me1 & ,i am will+ !y %\ld fail4 ,o ,"l1 h m]cy6 ,o ,"l1 h m]cy6 8,^! discov]ies cont9u$ until ,i w5t into ! h\se & sat d[n4 ,aft] ,i sat d[n1 be+ all 9 confusion1 l a dr[n+ man t 0 j giv+ up to s9k1 & almo/ 9 an agony1 ,i turn$ v sudd5ly r\nd 9 my *air1 & see+ "p ( an old ,bible ly+ 9 "o ( ! *airs1 ,i caught hold ( x 9 great ha/e2 & op5+ x )\t any prem$itation1 ca/ my eyes on ! #ch? ,psalm1 :i* 0 ! fir/ "t ,i ev] saw ! ^w ( ,god3 x took hold ( me ) su* p[] t x seem$ to g ?r\gh my :ole s\l1 s t x seem$ z if ,god 0 pray+ 91 )1 & = me4 ,ab\t ?is "t my fa!r call$ ! family to att5d pray]s2 ,i att5d$1 b paid no reg>d to :at he said 9 8 pray]1 b cont9u$ pray+ 9 ^? words ( ! ,psalm4 ,oh1 help me1 help me6 cri$ ,i1 ?\ ,r$eem] ( s\ls1 & save me1 or ,i am gone =ev]2 ?\ can/ ?is night1 if ?\ please/1 ) "o drop ( ?y blood atone = my s9s1 & appease ! wra? ( an angry ,god4 ,at t in/ant ( "t :5 ,i gave all up to him to d ) me z he pleas$1 & 0 will+ t ,god %\ld rule ov] me at 8 pleasure1 r$eem+ love broke into my s\l ) repeat$ scriptures1 ) su* p[] t my :ole s\l seem$ to be melt$ d[n ) love2 ! burd5 ( guilt & condemnation 0 gone1 d>kness 0 expell$1 my he>t humbl$ & fill$ ) gratitude1 & my :ole s\l1 t 0 a few m9utes ago groan+ "u m\nta9s ( dea?1 & cry+ to an unkn[n ,god = help1 0 n[ fill$ ) immortal love1 so>+ on ! w+s ( fai?1 fre$ f ! *a9s ( dea? & d>kness1 & cry+ out1 ,my ,"l & my ,god2 ?\ art my rock & my =tress1 my %ield & my high t[]1 my life1 my joy1 my pres5t & my ev]la/+ portion4 ,look+ up1 ,i ?\ght ,i saw t same light he _h on m ?an "o previ\s occasion se5 subjectively a bright blaze ( light1 ?\gh x appe>$ diff]5t2 & z soon z ,i saw x1 ! design 0 op5$ to me1 accord+ to 8 promise1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to cry out3 ,en\gh1 en\gh1 ,o bless$ ,god6 ,! "w ( conv]sion1 ! *ange1 & ! manife/ations ( x are no m disputable ?an t light :i* ,i see1 or any?+ t ev] ,i saw4 8,9 ! mid/ ( all my joys1 9 less ?an half an h\r aft] my s\l 0 set at lib]ty1 ! ,"l discov]$ to me my labor 9 ! m9i/ry & call to prea* ! gospel4 ,i cri$ out1 ,am51 ,"l1 ,i'll g2 s5d me1 s5d me4 ,i sp5t ! greate/ "p ( ! night 9 ec/asies ( joy1 prais+ & ador+ ! ,anci5t ( ,days = 8 free & unb\nd$ grace4 ,aft] ,i _h be5 s long 9 ?is transport & heav5ly frame t my nature seem$ to require sleep1 ,i ?\ght to close my eyes = a few mom5ts2 !n ! devil /epp$ 91 & told me t if ,i w5t to sleep1 ,i %\ld lose x all1 & :5 ,i %\ld awake 9 ! morn+ ,i w\ld f9d x to be no?+ b a fancy & delusion4 ,i imm$iately cri$ out1 ,o ,"l ,god1 if ,i am deceiv$1 undeceive me4 8,i !n clos$ my eyes = a few m9utes1 & seem$ to be refre%$ ) sleep2 & :5 ,i awoke1 ! fir/ inquiry 01 ,:]e is my ,god8 ,& 9 an in/ant ( "t1 my s\l seem$ awake 9 & ) ,god1 & surr\nd$ by ! arms ( ev]la/+ love4 ,ab\t sunrise ,i arose ) joy to relate to my p>5ts :at ,god _h done = my s\l1 & decl>$ to !m ! miracle ( ,god's unb\nd$ grace4 ,i took a ,bible to %[ !m ! words t 7 impress$ by ,god on my s\l ! ev5+ be=e2 b :5 ,i came to op5 ! ,bible1 x appe>$ all new to me4 8,i s long$ to be useful 9 ! cause ( ,*ri/1 9 prea*+ ! gospel1 t x seem$ z if ,i c\ld n re/ any long]1 b g ,i mu/ & tell ! wond]s ( r$eem+ love4 ,i lo/ all ta/e = c>nal pleasures1 & c>nal company1 & 0 enabl$ to =sake !m407#abj7 ,"y ,mr4 ,all9e1 aft] ! briefe/ ( delays1 & ) no bookle>n+ b 8 ,bible1 & no tea*+ save t ( 8 own exp]i5ce1 became a ,*ri/ian m9i/]1 & !nce=w>d 8 life 0 fit to rank1 = its au/]ity & s+lem9d$ness1 ) t ( ! mo/ devot$ sa9ts4 ,b happy z he became 9 8 /r5u\s way1 he nev] got 8 ta/e = ev5 ! mo/ innoc5t c>nal pleasures back4 ,we mu/ class him1 l ,bunyan & ,tol/oy1 among/ ^? ^u ^: s\l ! iron ( melan*oly left a p]man5t impr9t4 ,8 r$emption 0 into ano!r univ]se ?an ?is m]e natural _w1 & life rema9$ = him a sad & pati5t trial4 ,ye>s lat] we c f9d him mak+ su* an entry z ?is 9 8 di>y3 8,on ,w$nesday ! #ab? ,i prea*$ at a w$d+1 & _h ! happ9ess !reby to be ! means ( exclud+ c>nal mir?40 ,! next case ,i w give is t ( a correspond5t ( ,pr(essor ,leuba1 pr9t$ 9 ! latt]'s article1 already cit$1 9 vol4 vi4 ( ! ,am]ican ,j\rnal ( ,psy*ology4 ,?is subject 0 an ,ox=d graduate1 ! son ( a cl]gyman1 & ! /ory resembles 9 _m po9ts ! classic case ( ,colonel ,g>d9]1 :i* ev]ybody may be suppos$ to "k4 ,"h x is1 some:at abridg$3-- 8,betwe5 ! p]iod ( leav+ ,ox=d & my conv]sion ,i nev] d>k5$ ! door ( my fa!r's *ur*1 al?\gh ,i liv$ ) him = eight ye>s1 mak+ :at money ,i want$ by j\rnalism1 & sp5d+ x 9 high c>\sal ) any "o :o w\ld sit ) me & dr9k x away4 ,s ,i liv$1 sometimes drunk = a week toge!r1 & !n a t]rible rep5tance1 & w\ld n t\* a drop = a :ole mon?4 8,9 all ?is p]iod1 t is1 up to ?irty?ree ye>s ( age1 ,i nev] _h a desire to re=m on religi\s gr\nds4 ,b all my pangs 7 due to "s t]rible remorse ,i us$ to feel aft] a heavy c>\sal1 ! remorse tak+ ! %ape ( regret aft] my folly 9 wa/+ my life 9 su* a way--a man ( sup]ior tal5ts & education4 ,?is t]rible remorse turn$ me gray 9 "o night1 & :5ev] x came ^u me ,i 0 p]ceptibly gray] ! next morn+4 ,:at ,i suff]$ 9 ?is way is beyond ! expression ( words4 ,x 0 hellfire 9 all its mo/ dreadful tortures4 ,(t5 did ,i v[ t if ,i got ov] #8?is "t' ,i w\ld re=m4 ,alas1 9 ab\t ?ree days ,i fully recov]$1 & 0 z happy z ev]4 ,s x w5t on = ye>s1 b1 ) a physique l a rh9oc]os1 ,i always recov]$1 & z long z ,i let dr9k alone1 no man 0 z capable ( enjoy+ life z ,i 04 8,i 0 conv]t$ 9 my own b$room 9 my fa!r's rectory h\se at precisely ?ree o'clock 9 ! aft]noon ( a hot ,july day 7,july #ac1 #ahhf74 ,i 0 9 p]fect heal?1 hav+ be5 (f f ! dr9k = ne>ly a mon?4 ,i 0 9 no way tr\bl$ ab\t my s\l4 ,9 fact1 ,god 0 n 9 my ?\ghts t day4 ,a "y lady fri5d s5t me a copy ( ,pr(essor ,drummond's ,natural ,law 9 ! ,spiritual ,_w1 ask+ me my op9ion ( x z a lit]>y "w only4 ,be+ pr\d ( my critical tal5ts & wi%+ to enhance myself 9 my new fri5d's e/eem1 ,i took ! book to my b$room = quiet1 int5d+ to give x a ?or\gh /udy1 & !n write h] :at ,i ?\ght ( x4 ,x 0 "h t ,god met me face to face1 & ,i %all nev] =get ! meet+4 #8,he t ha? ! ,son ha? life et]nal1 he t ha? n ! ,son ha? n life4' ,i _h read ?is scores ( times be=e1 b ?is made all ! diff]5ce4 ,i 0 n[ 9 ,god's pres5ce & my att5tion 0 absolutely #8sold]$' on to ?is v]se1 & ,i 0 n all[$ to proce$ ) ! book till ,i _h fairly consid]$ :at ^! words really involv$4 ,only !n 0 ,i all[$ to proce$1 feel+ all ! :ile t !re 0 ano!r be+ 9 my b$room1 ?\gh n se5 by me4 ,! /illness 0 v m>vel\s1 & ,i felt supremely happy4 ,x 0 mo/ unque/ionably %[n me1 9 "o second ( "t1 t ,i _h nev] t\*$ ! ,et]nal3 & t if ,i di$ !n1 ,i mu/ inevitably be lo/4 ,i 0 undone4 ,i knew x z well z ,i n[ "k ,i am sav$4 ,! ,_s ( ,god %[$ x me 9 ineffable love2 !re 0 no t]ror 9 x2 ,i felt ,god's love s p[]fully ^u me t only a mighty sorr[ crept ov] me t ,i _h lo/ all ?r\gh my own folly2 & :at 0 ,i to d8 ,:at c\ld ,i d8 ,i did n rep5t ev52 ,god nev] ask$ me to rep5t4 ,all ,i felt 0 #8,i am undone1' & ,god _c help x1 al?\gh he loves me4 ,no fault on ! "p ( ! ,almighty4 ,all ! "t ,i 0 supremely happy3 ,i felt l a little *ild be=e 8 fa!r4 ,i _h done wrong1 b my ,fa!r did n scold me1 b lov$ me mo/ wondr\sly4 ,/ill my doom 0 seal$4 ,i 0 lo/ to a c]ta9ty1 & be+ naturally ( a brave disposition ,i did n quail "u x1 b deep sorr[ = ! pa/1 mix$ ) regret = :at ,i _h lo/1 took hold ^u me1 & my s\l ?rill$ )9 me to ?9k x 0 all ov]4 ,!n !re crept 9 ^u me s g5tly1 s lov+ly1 s unmi/akably1 a way ( escape1 & :at 0 x aft] all8 ,! old1 old /ory ov] aga91 told 9 ! simple/ way3 #8,!re is no "n "u heav5 :]eby ye c be sav$ except t ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4' ,no words 7 spok5 to me2 my s\l seem$ to see my ,savi\r 9 ! _s1 & f t h\r to ?is1 ne>ly n9e ye>s n[1 !re has nev] be5 9 my life "o d\bt t ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ & ,god ! ,fa!r bo? work$ ^u me t aft]noon 9 ,july1 bo? diff]5tly1 & bo? 9 ! mo/ p]fect love conceivable1 & ,i rejoic$ !re & !n 9 a conv]sion s a/\nd+ t ! :ole village he>d ( x 9 less ?an tw5tyf\r h\rs4 8,b a "t ( tr\ble 0 yet to come4 ,! day aft] my conv]sion ,i w5t into ! hayfield to l5d a h& ) ! h>ve/1 & n hav+ made any promise to ,god to ab/a9 or dr9k 9 mod]ation only1 ,i took too mu* & came home drunk4 ,my poor si/] 0 he>tbrok52 & ,i felt a%am$ ( myself & got to my b$room at once1 :]e %e foll[$ me1 weep+ copi\sly4 ,%e said ,i _h be5 conv]t$ & fall5 away in/antly4 ,b al?\gh ,i 0 q full ( dr9k 7n muddl$1 h[ev]71 ,i knew t ,god's "w begun 9 me 0 n go+ to be wa/$4 ,ab\t midday ,i made on my knees ! fir/ pray] be=e ,god = tw5ty ye>s4 ,i did n ask to be =giv52 ,i felt t 0 no good1 = ,i w\ld be sure to fall aga94 ,well1 :at did ,i d8 ,i committ$ myself to him 9 ! pr(\nde/ belief t my individuality 0 go+ to be de/roy$1 t he w\ld take all f me1 & ,i 0 will+4 ,9 su* a surr5d] lies ! secret ( a holy life4 ,f t h\r dr9k has _h no t]rors = me3 ,i nev] t\* x1 nev] want x4 ,! same ?+ occurr$ ) my pipe3 aft] be+ a regul> smok] f my twelf? ye> ! desire = x w5t at once1 & has nev] return$4 ,s ) e kn[n s91 ! deliv]ance 9 ea* case be+ p]man5t & complete4 ,i h _h no temptation s9ce conv]sion1 ,god seem+ly hav+ %ut out ,satan f t c\rse ) me4 ,he gets a free h& 9 o!r ways1 b nev] on s9s ( ! fle%4 ,s9ce ,i gave up to ,god all own]%ip 9 my own life1 he has guid$ me 9 a ?\s& ways1 & has op5$ my pa? 9 a way almo/ incr$ible to ^? :o d n enjoy ! bless+ ( a truly surr5d]$ life40 ,s mu* = our graduate ( ,ox=d1 9 :om y notice ! complete abolition ( an anci5t appetite z "o ( ! conv]sion's fruits4 ,! mo/ curi\s record ( sudd5 conv]sion ) :i* ,i am acqua9t$ is t ( ,m4 ,alphonse ,ratisbonne1 a free?9k+ ,fr5* ,jew1 to ,ca?olicism1 at ,rome 9 #ahdb4 ,9 a lett] to a cl]ical fri5d1 writt5 a few mon?s lat]1 ! conv]t gives a palpitat+ acc\nt ( ! circum/ances47#aba7 ,! pr$ispos+ conditions appe> to h be5 slight4 ,he _h an eld] bro!r :o _h be5 conv]t$ & 0 a ,ca?olic prie/4 ,he 0 himself irreligi\s1 & n\ri%$ an antipa?y to ! apo/ate bro!r & g5]ally to 8 8clo?40 ,f9d+ himself at ,rome 9 8 tw5tyn9? ye>1 he fell 9 ) a ,fr5* g5tleman :o tri$ to make a proselyte ( him1 b :o succe$$ no f>!r aft] two or ?ree conv]sations ?an to get him to hang 7half jocosely7 a religi\s m$al r\nd 8 neck1 & to accept & read a copy ( a %ort pray] to ! ,virg94 ,m4 ,ratisbonne repres5ts 8 own "p 9 ! conv]sations z hav+ be5 ( a light & *aff+ ord]2 b he notes ! fact t = "s days he 0 unable to bani% ! words ( ! pray] f 8 m9d1 & t ! night be=e ! crisis he _h a sort ( nightm>e1 9 ! imag]y ( :i* a black cross ) no ,*ri/ ^u x figur$4 ,nev]!less1 until noon ( ! next day he 0 free 9 m9d & sp5t ! "t 9 trivial conv]sations4 ,i n[ give 8 own words4 8,if at ?is "t any "o _h acco/$ me1 say+3 #8,alphonse1 9 a qu>t] ( an h\r y %all be ador+ ,jesus ,*ri/ z y\r ,god & ,savi\r2 y %all lie pro/rate ) y\r face ^u ! gr\nd 9 a humble *ur*2 y %all be smit+ y\r brea/ at ! foot ( a prie/2 y %all pass ! c>nival 9 a college ( ,jesuits to prep>e y\rself to receive baptism1 ready to give y\r life = ! ,ca?olic fai?2 y %all r5\nce ! _w & its pomps & pleasures2 r5\nce y\r =tune1 y\r hopes1 & if ne$ be1 y\r betro!d2 ! affections ( y\r family1 ! e/eem ( y\r fri5ds1 & y\r atta*m5t to ! ,jewi% p2 y %all h no o!r aspiration ?an to foll[ ,*ri/ & be> 8 cross till dea?2'--if1 ,i say1 a prophet _h come to me ) su* a pr$iction1 ,i %\ld h judg$ t only "o p]son c\ld be m mad ?an he1--:osoev]1 namely1 might believe 9 ! possibility ( su* s5seless folly becom+ true4 ,& yet t folly is at pres5t my only wisdom1 my sole happ9ess4 8,com+ out ( ! caf ,i met ! c>riage ( ,monsieur ,b4 ! proselyt+ fri5d4 ,he /opp$ & invit$ me 9 = a drive1 b fir/ ask$ me to wait = a few m9utes :il/ he att5d$ to "s duty at ! *ur* ( ,san ,&rea delle ,fratte4 ,in/ead ( wait+ 9 ! c>riage1 ,i ent]$ ! *ur* myself to look at x4 ,! *ur* ( ,san ,&rea 0 poor1 small1 & empty2 ,i believe t ,i f\nd myself !re almo/ alone4 ,no "w ( art attract$ my att5tion2 & ,i pass$ my eyes me*anically ov] its int]ior )\t be+ arre/$ by any p>ticul> ?\ght4 ,i c only rememb] an entirely black dog :i* w5t trott+ & turn+ be=e me z ,i mus$4 ,9 an in/ant ! dog _h disappe>$1 ! :ole *ur* _h vani%$1 ,i no long] saw any?+1 444 or m truly ,i saw1 ,o my ,god1 "o ?+ alone4 8,heav5s1 h[ c ,i speak ( x8 ,oh no6 human words _c atta9 to express+ ! inexpressible4 ,any description1 h[ev] sublime x might be1 c\ld be b a pr(anation ( ! unspeakable tru?4 8,i 0 !re pro/rate on ! gr\nd1 ba!d 9 my te>s1 ) my he>t beside itself1 :5 ,m4 ,b4 call$ me back to life4 ,i c\ld n reply to ! que/ions :i* foll[$ f him "o ^u ! o!r4 ,b f9ally ,i took ! m$al :i* ,i _h on my brea/1 & ) all ! effusion ( my s\l ,i kiss$ ! image ( ! ,virg91 radiant ) grace1 :i* x bore4 ,oh1 inde$1 x 0 ,%e6 ,x 0 inde$ ,%e6 ,:at he _h se5 _h be5 a vision ( ! ,virg94 8,i did n "k :]e ,i 03 ,i did n "k :e!r ,i 0 ,alphonse or ano!r4 ,i only felt myself *ang$ & believ$ myself ano!r me2 ,i look$ = myself 9 myself & did n f9d myself4 ,9 ! bottom ( my s\l ,i felt an explosion ( ! mo/ ard5t joy2 ,i c\ld n speak2 ,i _h no wi% to reveal :at _h happ5$4 ,b ,i felt some?+ solemn & sacr$ )9 me :i* made me ask = a prie/4 ,i 0 l$ to "o2 & !re1 alone1 aft] he _h giv5 me ! positive ord]1 ,i spoke z be/ ,i c\ld1 kneel+1 & ) my he>t /ill trembl+4 ,i c\ld give no acc\nt to myself ( ! tru? ( :i* ,i _h acquir$ a k & a fai?4 ,all t ,i c say is t 9 an in/ant ! b&age _h fall5 f my eyes2 & n "o b&age only1 b ! :ole manifold ( b&ages 9 :i* ,i _h be5 br\ght up4 ,"o aft] ano!r !y rapidly disappe>$1 ev5 z ! mud & ice disappe> "u ! rays ( ! burn+ sun4 8,i came out z f a sepul*re1 f an abyss ( d>kness2 & ,i 0 liv+1 p]fectly liv+4 ,b ,i wept1 = at ! bottom ( t gulf ,i saw ! extreme ( mis]y f :i* ,i _h be5 sav$ by an inf9ite m]cy2 & ,i %udd]$ at ! sight ( my iniquities1 /upefi$1 melt$1 ov]:elm$ ) wond] & ) gratitude4 ,y may ask me h[ ,i came to ?is new insight1 = truly ,i _h nev] op5$ a book ( religion nor ev5 read a s+le page ( ! ,bible1 & ! dogma ( orig9al s9 is ei!r entirely d5i$ or =gott5 by ! ,hebrews ( today1 s t ,i _h ?\ght s little ab\t x t ,i d\bt :e!r ,i ev] knew its "n4 ,b h[ came ,i1 !n1 to ?is p]ception ( x8 ,i c answ] no?+ save ?is1 t on ent]+ t *ur* ,i 0 9 d>kness altoge!r1 & on com+ out ( x ,i saw ! fullness ( ! light4 ,i c expla9 ! *ange no bett] ?an by ! simile ( a pr(\nd sleep or ! analogy ( "o born bl9d :o %\ld sudd5ly op5 8 eyes to ! day4 ,he sees1 b _c def9e ! light :i* ba!s him & by means ( :i* he sees ! objects :i* excite 8 wond]4 ,if we _c expla9 physical light1 h[ c we expla9 ! light :i* is ! tru? itself8 ,& ,i ?9k ,i rema9 )9 ! limits ( v]acity :5 ,i say t )\t hav+ any k ( ! lett] ( religi\s doctr9e1 ,i n[ intuitively p]ceiv$ its s5se & _s4 ,bett] ?an if ,i saw !m1 ,i felt ^? hidd5 ?+s2 ,i felt !m by ! inexplicable effects !y produc$ 9 me4 ,x all happ5$ 9 my int]ior m9d2 & ^? impressions1 m rapid ?an ?\ght1 %ook my s\l1 revolv$ & turn$ x1 z x 71 9 ano!r direction1 t[>ds o!r aims1 by o!r pa?s4 ,i express myself badly4 ,b d y wi%1 ,"l1 t ,i %\ld inclose 9 poor & b>r5 words s5tim5ts :i* ! he>t alone c und]/&80 ,i might multiply cases almo/ indef9itely1 b ^! w suffice to %[ y h[ real1 def9ite1 & memorable an ev5t a sudd5 conv]sion may be to him :o has ! exp]i5ce4 ,?r\gh\t ! height ( x he und\bt$ly seems to himself a passive spectator or und]go] ( an a/\nd+ process p]=m$ ^u him f above4 ,!re is too mu* evid5ce ( ?is = any d\bt ( x to be possible4 ,!ology1 comb9+ ?is fact ) ! doctr9es ( election & grace1 has conclud$ t ! _s ( ,god is ) u at ^! dramatic mom5ts 9 a peculi>ly miracul\s way1 unlike :at happ5s at any o!r juncture ( our lives4 ,at t mom5t1 x believes1 an absolutely new nature is brea!d into u1 & we become p>tak]s ( ! v sub/ance ( ! ,deity4 ,t ! conv]sion %\ld be in/antane\s seems call$ = on ?is view1 & ! ,moravian ,prote/ants appe> to h be5 ! fir/ to see ?is logical consequ5ce4 ,! ,me?odi/s soon foll[$ suit1 practically if n dogmatically1 & a %ort "t ere 8 dea?1 ,john ,wesley wrote3-- 8,9 ,london alone ,i f\nd #feb memb]s ( our ,society :o 7 exce$+ cle> 9 _! exp]i5ce1 & ^: te/imony ,i c\ld see no reason to d\bt4 ,& e "o ( ^! 7)\t a s+le exception7 has decl>$ t 8 deliv]ance f s9 0 in/antane\s2 t ! *ange 0 wr\ght 9 a mom5t4 ,_h half ( ^!1 or "o ?ird1 or "o 9 tw5ty1 decl>$ x 0 gradually wr\ght 9 !m1 ,i %\ld h believ$ ?is1 ) reg>d to !m1 & ?\ght t "s 7 gradually sanctifi$ & "s in/antane\sly4 ,b z ,i h n f\nd1 9 s long a space ( "t1 a s+le p]son speak+ ?us1 ,i _c b believe t sanctification is commonly1 if n always1 an in/antane\s "w40 ,ty]man's ,life ( ,wesley1 i4 #dfc4 ,all ?is :ile ! m usual sects ( ,prote/antism h set no su* /ore by in/antane\s conv]sion4 ,= !m z = ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ,*ri/'s blood1 ! sacram5ts1 & ! individual's ord9>y religi\s duties are practically suppos$ to suffice to 8 salvation1 ev5 ?\gh no acute crisis ( selfdespair & surr5d] foll[$ by relief %\ld be exp]i5c$4 ,= ,me?odism1 on ! contr>y1 unless !re h be5 a crisis ( ?is sort1 salvation is only (f]$1 n effectively receiv$1 & ,*ri/'s sacrifice 9 s f> =? is incomplete4 ,me?odism surely "h foll[s1 if n ! heal?i]m9d$1 yet on ! :ole ! pr(\nd] spiritual in/9ct4 ,! individual models :i* x has set up z typical & wor?y ( imitation are n only ! m int]e/+ dramatically1 b psy*ologically !y h be5 ! m complete4 ,9 ! fully evolv$ ,revivalism ( ,great ,brita9 & ,am]ica we h1 s to speak1 ! codifi$ & /]eotyp$ proc$ure to :i* ?is way ( ?9k+ has l$4 ,9 spite ( ! unque/ionable fact t sa9ts ( ! onceborn type exi/1 t !re may be a gradual gr[? 9 hol9ess )\t a cataclysm2 9 spite ( ! obvi\s leakage 7z "o may say7 ( mu* m]e natural goodness into ! s*eme ( salvation2 revivalism has always assum$ t only its own type ( religi\s exp]i5ce c be p]fect2 y mu/ fir/ be nail$ on ! cross ( natural despair & agony1 & !n 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye be miracul\sly releas$4 ,x is natural t ^? :o p]sonally h trav]s$ su* an exp]i5ce %\ld c>ry away a feel+ ( its be+ a miracle r ?an a natural process4 ,voices are (t5 he>d1 lights se51 or visions witness$2 automatic motor ph5om5a occur2 & x always seems1 aft] ! surr5d] ( ! p]sonal w1 z if an extrane\s high] p[] _h flood$ 9 & tak5 possession4 ,moreov] ! s5se ( r5ovation1 safety1 cleanness1 rightness1 c be s m>vel\s & jubilant z well to w>rant "o's belief 9 a radically new sub/antial nature4 8,conv]sion10 writes ! ,new ,engl& ,puritan1 ,joseph ,alle9e1 8is n ! putt+ 9 a pat* ( hol9ess2 b ) ! true conv]t hol9ess is wov5 into all 8 p[]s1 pr9ciples1 & practice4 ,! s9c]e ,*ri/ian is q a new fabric1 f ! f\ndation to ! top/one4 ,he is a new man1 a new creature40 ,& ,jona?an ,edw>ds says 9 ! same /ra93 8,^? graci\s influ5ces :i* are ! effects ( ! ,_s ( ,god are altoge!r sup]natural--are q diff]5t f any?+ t unreg5]ate m5 exp]i5ce4 ,!y are :at no improvem5t1 or composition ( natural qualifications or pr9ciples w ev] produce2 because !y n only diff] f :at is natural1 & f ev]y?+ t natural m5 exp]i5ce 9 degree & circum/ances1 b also 9 k9d1 & are ( a nature f> m excell5t4 ,f h5ce x foll[s t 9 graci\s affections !re are also new p]ceptions & s5sations entirely diff]5t 9 _! nature & k9d f any?+ exp]i5c$ by ! same sa9ts be=e !y 7 sanctifi$4444 ,! conceptions :i* ! sa9ts h ( ! lovel9ess ( ,god1 & t k9d ( delight :i* !y exp]i5ce 9 x1 are q peculi>1 & entirely diff]5t f any?+ :i* a natural man c possess1 or ( :i* he c =m any prop] notion40 ,& t su* a glori\s trans=mation z ?is ought ( necessity to be prec$$ by despair is %[n by ,edw>ds 9 ano!r passage4 8,surely x _c be unreasonable10 he says1 8t be=e ,god deliv]s u f a /ate ( s9 & liability to ev]la/+ woe1 he %\ld give u "s consid]able s5se ( ! evil f :i* he deliv]s u1 9 ord] t we may "k & feel ! importance ( salvation1 & be enabl$ to appreciate ! value ( :at ,god is pleas$ to d = u4 ,z ^? :o are sav$ are successively 9 two extremely diff]5t /ates--fir/ 9 a /ate ( condemnation & !n 9 a /ate ( ju/ification & bless$ness--& z ,god1 9 ! salvation ( m51 deals ) !m z rational & intellig5t creatures1 x appe>s agreeable to ?is wisdom1 t ^? :o are sav$ %\ld be made s5sible ( _! ,be+1 9 ^? two diff]5t /ates4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 t !y %\ld be made s5sible ( _! /ate ( condemnation2 & aft]w>ds1 ( _! /ate ( deliv]ance & happ9ess40 ,su* quotations express suffici5tly well = our purpose ! doctr9al int]pretation ( ^! *anges4 ,:atev] "p sugge/ion & imitation may h play$ 9 produc+ !m 9 m5 & wom5 9 excit$ assemblies1 !y h at any rate be5 9 c\ntless individual in/ances an orig9al & unborr[$ exp]i5ce4 ,7 we writ+ ! /ory ( ! m9d f ! purely naturalhi/ory po9t ( view1 ) no religi\s int]e/ :atev]1 we %\ld /ill h to write d[n man's liability to sudd5 & complete conv]sion z "o ( 8 mo/ curi\s peculi>ities4 ,:at1 n[1 mu/ we ourselves ?9k ( ?is "q8 ,is an in/antane\s conv]sion a miracle 9 :i* ,god is pres5t z he is pres5t 9 no *ange ( he>t less /rik+ly abrupt8 ,are !re two classes ( human be+s1 ev5 among ! app>5tly reg5]ate1 ( :i* ! "o class really p>takes ( ,*ri/'s nature :ile ! o!r m]ely seems to d s8 ,or1 on ! contr>y1 may ! :ole ph5om5on ( reg5]ation1 ev5 9 ^! />tl+ in/antane\s examples1 possibly be a /rictly natural process1 div9e 9 its fruits1 ( c\rse1 b 9 "o case m & 9 ano!r less s1 & nei!r m nor less div9e 9 its m]e causation & me*anism ?an any o!r process1 high or l[1 ( man's int]ior life8 ,be=e proce$+ to answ] ?is "q1 ,i mu/ ask y to li/5 to "s m psy*ological rem>ks4 ,at our la/ lecture1 ,i expla9$ ! %ift+ ( m5's c5tres ( p]sonal en]gy )9 !m & ! light+ up ( new crises ( emotion4 ,i expla9$ ! ph5om5a z p>tly due to explicitly consci\s processes ( ?\ght & w1 b z due l>gely also to ! subconsci\s incubation & matur+ ( motives deposit$ by ! exp]i5ces ( life4 ,:5 ripe1 ! results hat* out1 or bur/ into fl[]4 ,i h n[ to speak ( ! subconsci\s region1 9 :i* su* processes ( fl[]+ may occur1 9 a some:at less vague way4 ,i only regret t my limits ( "t "h =ce me to be s %ort4 ,! expression 8field ( consci\sness0 has b rec5tly come into vogue 9 ! psy*ology books4 ,until q lately ! unit ( m5tal life :i* figur$ mo/ 0 ! s+le 8idea0 suppos$ to be a def9itely outl9$ ?+4 ,b at pres5t psy*ologi/s are t5d+1 fir/1 to admit t ! actual unit is m probably ! total m5tal /ate1 ! entire wave ( consci\sness or field ( objects pres5t to ! ?\ght at any "t2 &1 second1 to see t x is impossible to outl9e ?is wave1 ?is field1 ) any def9it5ess4 ,z our m5tal fields succe$ "o ano!r1 ea* has its c5tre ( int]e/1 ar\nd :i* ! objects ( :i* we are less & less att5tively consci\s fade to a m>g9 s fa9t t its limits are unassignable4 ,"s fields are n>r[ fields & "s are wide fields4 ,usually :5 we h a wide field we rejoice1 = we !n see masses ( tru? toge!r1 & (t5 get glimpses ( relations :i* we div9e r ?an see1 = !y %oot beyond ! field into /ill remot] regions ( objectivity1 regions :i* we seem r to be ab\t to p]ceive ?an to p]ceive actually4 ,at o!r times1 ( dr[s9ess1 illness1 or fatigue1 our fields may n>r[ almo/ to a po9t1 & we f9d ourselves correspond+ly oppress$ & contract$4 ,diff]5t individuals pres5t con/itutional diff]5ces 9 ?is matt] ( wid? ( field4 ,y\r great organiz+ g5iuses are m5 ) habitually va/ fields ( m5tal vision1 9 :i* a :ole programme ( future op]ations w appe> dott$ out at once1 ! rays %oot+ f> ahead into def9ite directions ( advance4 ,9 common p !re is nev] ?is magnific5t inclusive view ( a topic4 ,!y /umble along1 feel+ _! way1 z x 71 f po9t to po9t1 & (t5 /op entirely4 ,9 c]ta9 diseas$ conditions consci\sness is a m]e sp>k1 )\t memory ( ! pa/ or ?\ght ( ! future1 & ) ! pres5t n>r[$ d[n to "s "o simple emotion or s5sation ( ! body4 ,! important fact :i* ?is 8field0 =mula commemorates is ! indet]m9ation ( ! m>g94 ,inatt5tively realiz$ z is ! matt] :i* ! m>g9 conta9s1 x is nev]!less !re1 & helps bo? to guide our behavior & to det]m9e ! next movem5t ( our att5tion4 ,x lies ar\nd u l a 8magnetic field10 inside ( :i* our c5tre ( en]gy turns l a compassne$le1 z ! pres5t phase ( consci\sness alt]s into its successor4 ,our :ole pa/ /ore ( memories floats beyond ?is m>g91 ready at a t\* to come 92 & ! entire mass ( residual p[]s1 impulses1 & kn[l$ges t con/itute our empirical self /ret*es cont9u\sly beyond x4 ,s vaguely drawn are ! outl9es betwe5 :at is actual & :at is only pot5tial at any mom5t ( our consci\s life1 t x is always h>d to say ( c]ta9 m5tal elem5ts :e!r we are consci\s ( !m or n4 ,! ord9>y psy*ology1 admitt+ fully ! difficulty ( trac+ ! m>g9al outl9e1 has nev]!less tak5 = grant$1 fir/1 t all ! consci\sness ! p]son n[ has1 be ! same focal or m>g9al1 inatt5tive or att5tive1 is !re 9 ! 8field0 ( ! mom5t1 all dim & impossible to assign z ! latt]'s outl9e may be2 &1 second1 t :at is absolutely extram>g9al is absolutely nonexi/5t1 & _c be a fact ( consci\sness at all4 ,& hav+ rea*$ ?is po9t1 ,i mu/ n[ ask y to recall :at ,i said 9 my la/ lecture ab\t ! subconsci\s life4 ,i said1 z y may recollect1 t ^? :o fir/ laid /ress ^u ^! ph5om5a c\ld n "k ! facts z we n[ "k !m4 ,my fir/ duty n[ is to tell y :at ,i meant by su* a /atem5t4 ,i _c b ?9k t ! mo/ important /ep =w>d t has occurr$ 9 psy*ology s9ce ,i h be5 a /ud5t ( t sci5ce is ! discov]y1 fir/ made 9 #ahhf1 t1 9 c]ta9 subjects at lea/1 !re is n only ! consci\sness ( ! ord9>y field1 ) its usual c5tre & m>g91 b an addition !reto 9 ! %ape ( a set ( memories1 ?\ghts1 & feel+s :i* are extram>g9al & outside ( ! prim>y consci\sness altoge!r1 b yet mu/ be class$ z consci\s facts ( "s sort1 able to reveal _! pres5ce by unmi/akable signs4 ,i call ?is ! mo/ important /ep =w>d because1 unlike ! o!r advances :i* psy*ology has made1 ?is discov]y has reveal$ to u an entirely unsuspect$ peculi>ity 9 ! con/itution ( human nature4 ,no o!r /ep =w>d :i* psy*ology has made c pr(f] any su* claim z ?is4 ,9 p>ticul> ?is discov]y ( a consci\sness exi/+ beyond ! field1 or sublim9ally z ,mr4 ,my]s t]ms x1 ca/s light on _m ph5om5a ( religi\s biography4 ,t is :y ,i h to adv]t to x n[1 al?\gh x is naturally impossible = me 9 ?is place to give y any acc\nt ( ! evid5ce on :i* ! admission ( su* a consci\sness is bas$4 ,y w f9d x set =? 9 _m rec5t books1 ,b9et's ,alt]ations ( ,p]sonality7#abb7 be+ p]haps z good a "o z any to recomm5d4 ,! human mat]ial on :i* ! demon/ration has be5 made has s f> be5 r limit$ &1 9 "p at lea/1 ecc5tric1 consi/+ ( unusually sugge/ible hypnotic subjects1 & ( hy/]ic pati5ts4 ,yet ! elem5t>y me*anisms ( our life are presumably s uni=m t :at is %[n to be true 9 a m>k$ degree ( "s p]sons is probably true 9 "s degree ( all1 & may 9 a few be true 9 an extraord9>ily high degree4 ,! mo/ important consequ5ce ( hav+ a /rongly develop$ ultra m>g9al life ( ?is sort is t "o's ord9>y fields ( consci\sness are liable to incursions f x ( :i* ! subject does n guess ! s\rce1 & :i*1 !re=e1 take = him ! =m ( unacc\ntable impulses to act1 or inhibitions ( action1 ( obsessive ideas1 or ev5 ( halluc9ations ( sight or he>+4 ,! impulses may take ! direction ( automatic spee* or writ+1 ! mean+ ( :i* ! subject himself may n und]/& ev5 :ile he utt]s x2 & g5]aliz+ ?is ph5om5on1 ,mr4 ,my]s has giv5 ! "n ( automatism1 s5sory or motor1 emotional or intellectual1 to ?is :ole sph]e ( effects1 due to 8upru%es0 into ! ord9>y consci\sness ( en]gies orig9at+ 9 ! sublim9al p>ts ( ! m9d4 ,! simple/ in/ance ( an automatism is ! ph5om5on ( po/hypnotic sugge/ion1 scall$4 ,y give to a hypnotiz$ subject1 adequately susceptible1 an ord] to p]=m "s designat$ act--usual or ecc5tric1 x makes no diff]5ce--aft] he wakes f 8 hypnotic sleep4 ,punctually1 :5 ! signal comes or ! "t elapses ^u :i* y h told him t ! act mu/ ensue1 he p]=ms x2--b 9 s do+ he has no recollection ( y\r sugge/ion1 & he always trumps up an improvis$ pretext = 8 behavior if ! act be ( an ecc5tric k9d4 ,x may ev5 be sugge/$ to a subject to h a vision or to he> a voice at a c]ta9 int]val aft] wak+1 & :5 ! "t comes ! vision is se5 or ! voice he>d1 ) no inkl+ on ! subject's "p ( its s\rce4 ,9 ! wond]ful explorations by ,b9et1 ,janet1 ,breu]1 ,freud1 ,mason1 ,pr9ce1 & o!rs1 ( ! sublim9al consci\sness ( pati5ts ) hy/]ia1 we h reveal$ to u :ole sy/ems ( und]gr\nd life1 9 ! %ape ( memories ( a pa9ful sort :i* lead a p>asitic exi/5ce1 buri$ outside ( ! prim>y fields ( consci\sness1 & mak+ irruptions !re9to ) halluc9ations1 pa9s1 convulsions1 p>alyses ( feel+ & ( motion1 & ! :ole procession ( symptoms ( hy/]ic disease ( body & ( m9d4 ,alt] or aboli% by sugge/ion ^! subconsci\s memories1 & ! pati5t imm$iately gets well4 ,8 symptoms 7 automatisms1 9 ,mr4 ,my]s's s5se ( ! ^w4 ,^! cl9ical records s\nd l fairytales :5 "o fir/ reads !m1 yet x is impossible to d\bt _! accuracy2 &1 ! pa? hav+ be5 once op5$ by ^! fir/ obs]v]s1 simil> obs]vations h be5 made else:]e4 ,!y ?r[1 z ,i said1 a :olly new light ^u our natural con/itution4 ,& x seems to me t !y make a f>!r /ep inevitable4 ,int]pret+ ! unkn[n aft] ! analogy ( ! kn[n1 x seems to me t h]eaft]1 :]ev] we meet ) a ph5om5on ( automatism1 be x motor impulses1 or obsessive idea1 or unacc\ntable caprice1 or delusion1 or halluc9ation1 we are b\nd fir/ ( all to make se>* :e!r x be n an explosion1 into ! fields ( ord9>y consci\sness1 ( ideas elaborat$ outside ( ^? fields 9 sublim9al regions ( ! m9d4 ,we %\ld look1 !re=e1 = its s\rce 9 ! ,subject's subconsci\s life4 ,9 ! hypnotic cases1 we ourselves create ! s\rce by our sugge/ion1 s we "k x directly4 ,9 ! hy/]ic cases1 ! lo/ memories :i* are ! s\rce h to be extract$ f ! pati5t's ,sublim9al by a numb] ( +5i\s me?ods1 = an acc\nt ( :i* y mu/ consult ! books4 ,9 o!r pa?ological cases1 insane delusions1 = example1 or psy*opa?ic obsessions1 ! s\rce is yet to seek1 b by analogy x also %\ld be 9 sublim9al regions :i* improvem5ts 9 our me?ods may yet conceivably put on tap4 ,!re lies ! me*anism logically to be assum$1--b ! assumption involves a va/ program ( "w to be done 9 ! way ( v]ification1 9 :i* ! religi\s exp]i5ces ( man mu/ play _! "p47#abc7 ,& ?us ,i return to our own specific subject ( in/antane\s conv]sions4 ,y rememb] ! cases ( ,all9e1 ,bradley1 ,bra9]d1 & ! graduate ( ,ox=d conv]t$ at ?ree 9 ! aft]noon4 ,simil> occurr5ces ab\nd1 "s ) & "s )\t lum9\s visions1 all ) a s5se ( a/oni%$ happ9ess1 & ( be+ wr\ght on by a high] control4 ,if1 ab/ract+ altoge!r f ! "q ( _! value = ! future spiritual life ( ! individual1 we take !m on _! psy*ological side exclusively1 s _m peculi>ities 9 !m rem9d u ( :at we f9d outside ( conv]sion t we are tempt$ to class !m along ) o!r automatisms1 & to suspect t :at makes ! diff]5ce betwe5 a sudd5 & a gradual conv]t is n necess>ily ! pres5ce ( div9e miracle 9 ! case ( "o & ( some?+ less div9e 9 t ( ! o!r1 b r a simple psy*ological peculi>ity1 ! fact1 namely1 t 9 ! recipi5t ( ! m in/antane\s grace we h "o ( ^? ,subjects :o are 9 possession ( a l>ge region 9 :i* m5tal "w c g on sublim9ally1 & f :i* invasive exp]i5ces1 abruptly upsett+ ! equilibrium ( ! prim>y consci\sness1 may come4 ,i d n see :y ,me?odi/s ne$ object to su* a view4 ,pray g back & recollect "o ( ! conclusions to :i* ,i s\ght to lead y 9 my v fir/ lecture4 ,y may rememb] h[ ,i !re argu$ aga9/ ! notion t ! wor? ( a ?+ c be decid$ by its orig94 ,our spiritual judgm5t1 ,i said1 our op9ion ( ! significance & value ( a human ev5t or condition1 mu/ be decid$ on empirical gr\nds exclusively4 ,if ! fruits = life ( ! /ate ( conv]sion are good1 we ought to idealize & v5]ate x1 ev5 ?\gh x be a piece ( natural psy*ology2 if n1 we ought to make %ort "w ) x1 no matt] :at sup]natural be+ may h infus$ x4 ,well1 h[ is x ) ^! fruits8 ,if we except ! class ( prem95t sa9ts ( :om ! names illum9e hi/ory1 & consid] only ! usual run ( 8sa9ts10 ! %opkeep+ *ur*memb]s & ord9>y y\?ful or middleag$ recipi5ts ( in/antane\s conv]sion1 :e!r at revivals or 9 ! spontane\s c\rse ( me?odi/ic gr[?1 y w probably agree t no spl5dor wor?y ( a :olly sup]natural creature fulgurates f !m1 or sets !m ap>t f ! mortals :o h nev] exp]i5c$ t favor4 ,7 x true t a sudd5ly conv]t$ man z su* is1 z ,edw>ds says17#abd7 ( an entirely diff]5t k9d f a natural man1 p>tak+ z he does directly ( ,*ri/'s sub/ance1 !re surely ought to be "s exquisite classm>k1 "s di/9ctive radiance atta*+ ev5 to ! l[lie/ specim5 ( ?is g5us1 to :i* no "o ( u c\ld rema9 ins5sible1 & :i*1 s f> z x w5t1 w\ld prove him m excell5t ?an ev] ! mo/ highly gift$ among m]e natural m54 ,b notori\sly !re is no su* radiance4 ,conv]t$ m5 z a class are indi/+ui%able f natural m52 "s natural m5 ev5 excel "s conv]t$ m5 9 _! fruits2 & no "o ignorant ( doctr9al !ology c\ld guess by m]e eday inspection ( ! 8accid5ts0 ( ! two gr\ps ( p]sons be=e him1 t _! sub/ance diff]$ z mu* z div9e diff]s f human sub/ance4 ,! believ]s 9 ! nonnatural "* ( sudd5 conv]sion h _h practically to admit t !re is no unmi/akable classm>k di/9ctive ( all true conv]ts4 ,! sup]normal incid5ts1 su* z voices & visions & ov]p[]+ impressions ( ! mean+ ( sudd5ly pres5t$ scripture texts1 ! melt+ emotions & tumultu\s affections connect$ ) ! crisis ( *ange1 may all come by way ( nature1 or worse /ill1 be c\nt]feit$ by ,satan4 ,! real witness ( ! _s to ! second bir? is to be f\nd only 9 ! disposition ( ! g5u9e *ild ( ,god1 ! p]man5tly pati5t he>t1 ! love ( self eradicat$4 ,& ?is1 x has to be admitt$1 is also f\nd 9 ^? :o pass no crisis1 & may ev5 be f\nd outside ( ,*ri/ianity altoge!r4 ,?r\gh\t ,jona?an ,edw>ds's admirably ri* & delicate description ( ! sup]naturally infus$ condition1 9 8 ,treatise on ,religi\s ,affections1 !re is n "o decisive trait1 n "o m>k1 t unmi/akably p>ts x (f f :at may possibly be only an exceptionally high degree ( natural goodness4 ,9 fact1 "o c\ld h>dly read a cle>] argum5t ?an ?is book unwitt+ly (f]s 9 favor ( ! !sis t no *asm exi/s betwe5 ! ord]s ( human excell5ce1 b t "h z else:]e1 nature %[s cont9u\s diff]5ces1 & g5]ation & reg5]ation are matt]s ( degree4 ,all :i* d5ial ( two objective classes ( human be+s sep>at$ by a *asm mu/ n leave u bl9d to ! extraord9>y mom5t\sness ( ! fact ( 8 conv]sion to ! individual himself :o gets conv]t$4 ,!re are high] & l[] limits ( possibility set to ea* p]sonal life4 ,if a flood b goes above "o's head1 its absolute elevation becomes a matt] ( small importance2 & :5 we t\* our own upp] limit & live 9 our own highe/ c5tre ( en]gy1 we may call ourselves sav$1 no matt] h[ mu* high] "s "o else's c5tre may be4 ,a small man's salvation w always be a great salvation & ! greate/ ( all facts = him1 & we %\ld rememb] ?is :5 ! fruits ( our ord9>y evangelicism look disc\rag+4 ,:o kn[s h[ mu* less ideal /ill ! lives ( ^! spiritual grubs & e>?worms1 ^! ,crumps & ,/igg9ses1 might h be51 if su* poor grace z !y h receiv$ _h nev] t\*$ !m at all87#abe7 ,if we r\ghly arrange human be+s 9 classes1 ea* class /&+ = a grade ( spiritual excell5ce1 ,i believe we %all f9d natural m5 & conv]ts bo? sudd5 & gradual 9 all ! classes4 ,! =ms :i* reg5]ative *ange effects h1 !n1 no g5]al spiritual significance1 b only a psy*ological significance4 ,we h se5 h[ ,/>buck's labori\s /ati/ical /udies t5d to assimilate conv]sion to ord9>y spiritual gr[?4 ,ano!r ,am]ican psy*ologi/1 ,pr(4 ,george ,a4 ,coe17#abf7 has analyz$ ! cases ( sev5tysev5 conv]ts or exc&idates = conv]sion1 kn[n to him1 & ! results /rik+ly confirm ! view t sudd5 conv]sion is connect$ ) ! possession ( an active sublim9al self4 ,exam9+ 8 subjects ) ref]5ce to _! hypnotic s5sibility & to su* automatisms z hypnagogic halluc9ations1 odd impulses1 religi\s dreams ab\t ! "t ( _! conv]sion1 etc41 he f\nd ^! relatively mu* m frequ5t 9 ! gr\p ( conv]ts ^: trans=mation _h be5 8/rik+10 8/rik+0 trans=mation be+ def9$ z a *ange :i*1 ?\gh n necess>ily in/antane\s1 seems to ! subject ( x to be di/9ctly diff]5t f a process ( gr[?1 h[ev] rapid47#abg7 ,c&idates = conv]sion at revivals are1 z y "k1 (t5 disappo9t$3 !y exp]i5ce no?+ /rik+4 ,pr(essor ,coe _h a numb] ( p]sons ( ?is class among 8 sev5tysev5 subjects1 & !y almo/ all1 :5 te/$ by hypnotism1 prov$ to belong to a subclass :i* he calls 8spontane\s10 t is1 f]tile 9 self sugge/ions1 z di/+ui%$ f a 8passive0 subclass1 to :i* mo/ ( ! subjects ( /rik+ trans=mation belong$4 ,8 inf]5ce is t selfsugge/ion ( impossibility _h prev5t$ ! influ5ce ^u ^! p]sons ( an environm5t :i*1 on ! m 8passive0 subjects1 _h easily br\ght =? ! effects !y look$ =4 ,%>p di/9ctions are difficult 9 ^! regions1 & ,pr(essor ,coe's numb]s are small4 ,b 8 me?ods 7 c>eful1 & ! results tally ) :at "o might expect2 & !y seem1 on ! :ole1 to ju/ify 8 practical conclusion1 :i* is t if y %\ld expose to a conv]t+ influ5ce a subject 9 :om ?ree factors unite3 fir/1 pron\nc$ emotional s5sibility2 second1 t5d5cy to automatisms2 & ?ird1 sugge/ibility ( ! passive type2 y might !n safely pr$ict ! result3 !re w\ld be a sudd5 conv]sion1 a trans=mation ( ! /rik+ k9d4 ,does ?is temp]am5tal orig9 dim9i% ! significance ( ! sudd5 conv]sion :5 x has occurr$8 ,n 9 ! lea/1 z ,pr(essor ,coe well says2 = 8! ultimate te/ ( religi\s values is no?+ psy*ological1 no?+ def9able 9 t]ms ( h[ x happ5s1 b some?+ e?ical1 def9able only 9 t]ms ( :at is atta9$407#abh7 ,z we proce$ f>!r 9 our inquiry we %all see t :at is atta9$ is (t5 an altoge!r new level ( spiritual vitality1 a relatively h]oic level1 9 :i* impossible ?+s h become possible1 & new en]gies & endurances are %[n4 ,! p]sonality is *ang$1 ! man is born anew1 :e!r or n 8 psy*ological idiosyncrasies are :at give ! p>ticul> %ape to 8 metamorphosis4 8,sanctification0 is ! te*nical "n ( ?is result2 & erelong examples ( x %all be br\ght be=e y4 ,9 ?is lecture ,i h /ill only to add a few rem>ks on ! assurance & peace :i* fill ! h\r ( *ange itself4 ,"o ^w m1 ?\gh1 be=e proce$+ to t po9t1 le/ ! f9al purpose ( my explanation ( sudd5ness by sublim9al activity be misund]/ood4 ,i d inde$ believe t if ! ,subject h no liability to su* subconsci\s activity1 or if 8 consci\s fields h a h>d r9d ( a m>g9 t resi/s incursions f beyond x1 8 conv]sion mu/ be gradual if x occur1 & mu/ resemble any simple gr[? into new habits4 ,8 possession ( a develop$ sublim9al self1 & ( a leaky or p]vi\s m>g91 is ?us a conditio s9e qua non ( ! ,subject's becom+ conv]t$ 9 ! in/antane\s way4 ,b if y1 be+ or?odox ,*ri/ians1 ask me z a psy*ologi/ :e!r ! ref]5ce ( a ph5om5on to a sublim9al self does n exclude ! notion ( ! direct pres5ce ( ! ,deity altoge!r1 ,i h to say frankly t z a psy*ologi/ ,i d n see :y x necess>ily %\ld4 ,! l[] manife/ations ( ! ,sublim9al1 inde$1 fall )9 ! res\rces ( ! p]sonal subject3 8 ord9>y s5semat]ial1 inatt5tively tak5 9 & subconsci\sly rememb]$ & comb9$1 w acc\nt = all 8 usual automatisms4 ,b j z our prim>y wideawake consci\sness ?r[s op5 our s5ses to ! t\* ( ?+s mat]ial1 s x is logically conceivable t if !re be high] spiritual ag5cies t c directly t\* u1 ! psy*ological condition ( _! do+ s might be our possession ( a subconsci\s region :i* alone %\ld yield access to !m4 ,! hubbub ( ! wak+ life might close a door :i* 9 ! dreamy ,sublim9al might rema9 aj> or op54 ,?us t p]ception ( ext]nal control :i* is s ess5tial a feature 9 conv]sion might1 9 "s cases at any rate1 be int]pret$ z ! or?odox int]pret x3 =ces transc5d+ ! f9ite individual might impress him1 on condition ( 8 be+ :at we may call a sublim9al human specim54 ,b 9 any case ! value ( ^! =ces w\ld h to be det]m9$ by _! effects1 & ! m]e fact ( _! transc5d5cy w\ld ( itself e/abli% no presumption t !y 7 m div9e ?an diabolical4 ,i confess t ?is is ! way 9 :i* ,i %\ld r see ! topic left ly+ 9 y\r m9ds until ,i come to a mu* lat] lecture1 :5 ,i hope once m to ga!r ^! dropp$ ?reads toge!r into m def9itive conclusions4 ,! notion ( a subconsci\s self c]ta9ly ought n at ?is po9t ( our inquiry to be held to exclude all notion ( a high] p5etration4 ,if !re be high] p[]s able to impress u1 !y may get access to u only ?r\gh ! sublim9al door4 7,see bel[1 p4 #eae ff47 ,let u turn n[ to ! feel+s :i* imm$iately fill ! h\r ( ! conv]sion exp]i5ce4 ,! fir/ "o to be not$ is j ?is s5se ( high] control4 ,x is n always1 b x is v (t5 pres5t4 ,we saw examples ( x 9 ,all9e1 ,bradley1 ,bra9]d1 & else:]e4 ,! ne$ ( su* a high] controll+ ag5cy is well express$ 9 ! %ort ref]5ce :i* ! em95t ,fr5* ,prote/ant ,adolphe ,monod makes to ! crisis ( 8 own conv]sion4 ,x 0 at ,naples 9 8 e>ly manhood1 9 ! summ] ( #ahbg4 8,my sadness10 he says1 80 )\t limit1 & hav+ got entire possession ( me1 x fill$ my life f ! mo/ indiff]5t ext]nal acts to ! mo/ secret ?\ghts1 & corrupt$ at _! s\rce my feel+s1 my judgm5t1 & my happ9ess4 ,x 0 !n t ,i saw t to expect to put a /op to ?is disord] by my reason & my w1 :i* 7 !mselves diseas$1 w\ld be to act l a bl9d man :o %\ld pret5d to correct "o ( 8 eyes by ! aid ( ! o!r equally bl9d "o4 ,i _h !n no res\rce save 9 "s influ5ce f )\t4 ,i rememb]$ ! promise ( ! ,holy ,gho/2 & :at ! positive decl>ations ( ! ,gospel _h nev] succe$$ 9 br++ home to me1 ,i le>n$ at la/ f necessity1 & believ$1 = ! fir/ "t 9 my life1 9 ?is promise1 9 ! only s5se 9 :i* x answ]$ ! ne$s ( my s\l1 9 t1 namely1 ( a real ext]nal sup]natural action1 capable ( giv+ me ?\ghts1 & tak+ !m away f me1 & ex]t$ on me by a ,god z truly ma/] ( my he>t z he is ( ! re/ ( nature4 ,r5\nc+ !n all m]it1 all /r5g?1 ab&on+ all my p]sonal res\rces1 & ackn[l$g+ no o!r title to 8 m]cy ?an my own utt] mis]y1 ,i w5t home & ?rew myself on my knees1 & pray$ z ,i nev] yet pray$ 9 my life4 ,f ?is day onw>ds a new int]ior life began = me3 n t my melan*oly _h disappe>$1 b x _h lo/ its /+4 ,hope _h ent]$ into my he>t1 & once ent]$ on ! pa?1 ! ,god ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 to :om ,i !n _h le>n$ to give myself up1 little by little did ! re/407#abi7 ,x is ne$less to rem9d y once m ( ! admirable congruity ( ,prote/ant !ology ) ! /ructure ( ! m9d z %[n 9 su* exp]i5ces4 ,9 ! extreme ( melan*oly ! self t consci\sly is c d absolutely no?+4 ,x is completely bankrupt & )\t res\rce1 & no works x c accompli% w avail4 ,r$emption f su* subjective conditions mu/ be a free gift or no?+1 & grace ?r\gh ,*ri/'s accompli%$ sacrifice is su* a gift4 8,god10 says ,lu!r1 8is ! ,god ( ! humble1 ! mis]able1 ! oppress$1 & ! desp]ate1 & ( ^? t are br\ght ev5 to no?+2 & 8 nature is to give sight to ! bl9d1 to com=t ! brok5he>t$1 to ju/ify s9n]s1 to save ! v desp]ate & damn$4 ,n[ t p]nici\s & pe/il5t op9ion ( man's own righte\sness1 :i* w n be a s9n]1 unclean1 mis]able1 & damnable1 b righte\s & holy1 suff]e? n ,god to come to 8 own natural & prop] "w4 ,!re=e ,god mu/ take ?is maul 9 h& 7! law1 ,i mean7 to beat 9 pieces & br+ to no?+ ?is bea/ ) h] va9 confid5ce1 t %e may s le>n at l5g? by h] own mis]y t %e is utt]ly =lorn & damn$4 ,b "h lie? ! difficulty1 t :5 a man is t]rifi$ & ca/ d[n1 he is s little able to raise himself up aga9 & say1 #8,n[ ,i am bruis$ & afflict$ en\gh2 n[ is ! "t ( grace2 n[ is ! "t to he> ,*ri/4' ,! fooli%ness ( man's he>t is s great t !n he r seeke? to himself m laws to satisfy 8 consci5ce4 #8,if ,i live1' sai? he1 #8,i w am5d my life3 ,i w d ?is1 ,i w d t4' ,b "h1 except ?\ d ! q contr>y1 except ?\ s5d ,moses away ) 8 law1 & 9 ^! t]rors & ?is angui% lay hold ^u ,*ri/ :o di$ = ?y s9s1 look = no salvation4 ,?y c[l1 ?y %av5 cr[n1 ?y *a/ity1 ?y ob$i5ce1 ?y pov]ty1 ?y works1 ?y m]its8 :at %all all ^! d8 :at %all ! law ( ,moses avail8 ,if ,i1 wret*$ & damnable s9n]1 ?r\gh works or m]its c\ld h lov$ ! ,son ( ,god1 & s come to him1 :at ne$$ he to deliv] himself = me8 ,if ,i1 be+ a wret* & damn$ s9n]1 c\ld be r$eem$ by any o!r price1 :at ne$$ ! ,son ( ,god to be giv58 ,b because !re 0 no o!r price1 !re=e he deliv]$ nei!r %eep1 ox1 gold1 nor silv]1 b ev5 ,god himself1 entirely & :olly #8= me1' ev5 #8= me1' ,i say1 a mis]able1 wret*$ s9n]4 ,n[1 !re=e1 ,i take com=t & apply ?is to myself4 ,& ?is mann] ( apply+ is ! v true =ce & p[] ( fai?4 ,= he di$ n to ju/ify ! righte\s1 b ! unrighte\s1 & to make !m ! *ildr5 ( ,god407#acj7 ,t is1 ! m lit]ally lo/ y are1 ! m lit]ally y are ! v be+ :om ,*ri/'s sacrifice has already sav$4 ,no?+ 9 ,ca?olic !ology1 ,i imag9e1 has ev] spok5 to sick s\ls z /raight z ?is message f ,lu!r's p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,z ,prote/ants are n all sick s\ls1 ( c\rse reliance on :at ,lu!r exults 9 call+ ! dung ( "o's m]its1 ! fil?y puddle ( "o's own righte\sness1 has come to ! front aga9 9 _! religion2 b ! adequacy ( 8 view ( ,*ri/ianity to ! deep] p>ts ( our human m5tal /ructure is %[n by its wildfire contagi\sness :5 x 0 a new & quick5+ ?+4 ,fai? t ,*ri/ has g5u9ely done 8 "w 0 "p ( :at ,lu!r meant by fai?1 :i* s f> is fai? 9 a fact intellectually conceiv$ (4 ,b ?is is only "o "p ( ,lu!r's fai?1 ! o!r "p be+ f> m vital4 ,?is o!r "p is some?+ n intellectual b imm$iate & intuitive1 ! assurance1 namely1 t ,i1 ?is individual ,i1 j z ,i /&1 )\t "o plea1 etc41 am sav$ n[ & =ev]47#aca7 ,pr(essor ,leuba is und\bt$ly "r 9 cont5d+ t ! conceptual belief ab\t ,*ri/'s "w1 al?\gh s (t5 efficaci\s & antec$5t1 is really accessory & noness5tial1 & t ! 8joy\s conviction0 c also come by f> o!r *annels ?an ?is conception4 ,x is to ! joy\s conviction itself1 ! assurance t all is well ) "o1 t he w\ld give ! "n ( fai? p> excell5ce4 8,:5 ! s5se ( e/rangem5t10 he writes1 8f5c+ man ab\t 9 a n>r[ly limit$ ego1 breaks d[n1 ! individual f9ds himself #8at "o ) all creation4' ,he lives 9 ! univ]sal life2 he & man1 he & nature1 he & ,god1 are "o4 ,t /ate ( confid5ce1 tru/1 union ) all ?+s1 foll[+ ^u ! a*ievem5t ( moral unity1 is ! ,fai?/ate4 ,v>i\s dogmatic beliefs sudd5ly1 on ! adv5t ( ! fai?/ate1 acquire a "* ( c]ta9ty1 assume a new reality1 become an object ( fai?4 ,z ! gr\nd ( assurance "h is n rational1 argum5tation is irrelevant4 ,b su* conviction be+ a m]e casual (f%oot ( ! fai?/ate1 x is a gross error to imag9e t ! *ief practical value ( ! fai?/ate is its p[] to /amp ) ! seal ( reality c]ta9 p>ticul> !ological conceptions47#acb7 ,on ! contr>y1 its value lies solely 9 ! fact t x is ! psy*ic correlate ( a biological gr[? r$uc+ cont5d+ desires to "o direction2 a gr[? :i* expresses itself 9 new affective /ates & new reactions2 9 l>g]1 nobl]1 m ,*ri/l activities4 ,! gr\nd ( ! specific assurance 9 religi\s dogmas is !n an affective exp]i5ce4 ,! objects ( fai? may ev5 be prepo/]\s2 ! affective /ream w float !m along1 & inve/ !m ) un%akable c]titude4 ,! m />tl+ ! affective exp]i5ce1 ! less explicable x seems1 ! easi] x is to make x ! c>ri] ( unsub/antiat$ notions407#acc7 ,! *>act]i/ics ( ! affective exp]i5ce :i*1 to avoid ambiguity1 %\ld1 ,i ?9k1 be call$ ! /ate ( assurance r ?an ! fai? /ate1 c be easily enum]at$1 ?\gh x is probably difficult to realize _! int5sity1 unless "o h be5 ?r\gh ! exp]i5ce "o's self4 ,! c5tral "o is ! loss ( all ! worry1 ! s5se t all is ultimately well ) "o1 ! peace1 ! h>mony1 ! will+ness to be1 ev5 ?\gh ! out] conditions %\ld rema9 ! same4 ,! c]ta9ty ( ,god's 8grace10 ( 8ju/ification10 8salvation10 is an objective belief t usually accompanies ! *ange 9 ,*ri/ians2 b ?is may be entirely lack+ & yet ! affective peace rema9 ! same--y w recollect ! case ( ! ,ox=d graduate3 & _m might be giv5 :]e ! assurance ( p]sonal salvation 0 only a lat] result4 ,a passion ( will+ness1 ( acquiesc5ce1 ( admiration1 is ! gl[+ c5tre ( ?is /ate ( m9d4 ,! second feature is ! s5se ( p]ceiv+ tru?s n kn[n be=e4 ,! my/]ies ( life become lucid1 z ,pr(essor ,leuba says2 & (t51 nay usually1 ! solution is m or less unutt]able 9 words4 ,b ^! m intellectual ph5om5a may be po/pon$ until we treat ( my/icism4 ,a ?ird peculi>ity ( ! assurance /ate is ! objective *ange :i* ! _w (t5 appe>s to und]go4 8,an appe>ance ( newness beautifies e object10 ! precise opposite ( t o!r sort ( newness1 t dreadful unreality & /rang5ess 9 ! appe>ance ( ! _w1 :i* is exp]i5c$ by melan*oly pati5ts1 & ( :i* y may recall my relat+ "s examples47#acd7 ,?is s5se ( clean & beautiful newness )9 & )\t is "o ( ! commone/ entries 9 conv]sion records4 ,jona?an ,edw>ds ?us describes x 9 himself3-- 8,aft] ?is my s5se ( div9e ?+s gradually increas$1 & became m & m lively1 & _h m ( t inw>d sweetness4 ,! appe>ance ( ev]y?+ 0 alt]$2 !re seem$ to be1 z x 71 a calm1 sweet ca/1 or appe>ance ( div9e glory1 9 almo/ ev]y?+4 ,god's excell5cy1 8 wisdom1 8 purity & love1 seem$ to appe> 9 ev]y?+2 9 ! sun1 moon1 & />s2 9 ! cl\ds & blue sky2 9 ! grass1 fl[]s1 & trees2 9 ! wat] & all nature2 :i* us$ greatly to fix my m9d4 ,& sc>ce any?+1 among all ! works ( nature1 0 s sweet to me z ?und] & lightn+2 =m]ly no?+ _h be5 s t]rible to me4 ,be=e1 ,i us$ to be uncommonly t]rifi$ ) ?und]1 & to be /ruck ) t]ror :5 ,i saw a ?und]/orm ris+2 b n[1 on ! contr>y1 x rejoices me407#ace7 ,billy ,bray1 an excell5t little illit]ate ,engli% evangeli/1 records 8 s5se ( newness ?us3-- 8,i said to ! ,"l3 #8,?\ ha/ said1 !y t ask %all receive1 !y t seek %all f9d1 & to !m t knock ! door %all be op5$1 & ,i h fai? to believe x4' ,9 an in/ant ! ,"l made me s happy t ,i _c express :at ,i felt4 ,i %\t$ = joy4 ,i prais$ ,god ) my :ole he>t4444 ,i ?9k ?is 0 9 ,novemb]1 #ahbc1 b :at day ( ! mon? ,i d n "k4 ,i rememb] ?is1 t ev]y?+ look$ new to me1 ! p1 ! fields1 ! cattle1 ! trees4 ,i 0 l a new man 9 a new _w4 ,i sp5t ! great] "p ( my "t 9 prais+ ! ,"l407#acf7 ,/>buck & ,leuba bo? illu/rate ?is s5se ( newness by quotations4 ,i take ! two foll[+ f ,/>buck's manuscript collection4 ,"o1 a woman1 says3-- 8,i 0 tak5 to a campmeet+1 "m & religi\s fri5ds seek+ & pray+ = my conv]sion4 ,my emotional nature 0 /irr$ to its dep?s2 confessions ( depravity & plead+ ) ,god = salvation f s9 made me oblivi\s ( all surr\nd+s4 ,i plead = m]cy1 & _h a vivid realization ( =giv5ess & r5ewal ( my nature4 ,:5 ris+ f my knees ,i exclaim$1 #8,old ?+s h pass$ away1 all ?+s h become new4' ,x 0 l ent]+ ano!r _w1 a new /ate ( exi/5ce4 ,natural objects 7 glorifi$1 my spiritual vision 0 s cl>ifi$ t ,i saw beauty 9 e mat]ial object 9 ! univ]se1 ! woods 7 vocal ) heav5ly music2 my s\l exult$ 9 ! love ( ,god1 & ,i want$ ev]ybody to %>e 9 my joy40 ,! next case is t ( a man3-- 8,i "k n h[ ,i got back into ! encampm5t1 b f\nd myself /agg]+ up to ,rev4 ----'s ,hol9ess t5t--& z x 0 full ( seek]s & a t]rible noise inside1 "s groan+1 "s laugh+1 & "s %\t+1 & by a l>ge oak1 t5 feet f ! t5t1 ,i fell on my face by a b5*1 & tri$ to pray1 & e "t ,i w\ld call on ,god1 some?+ l a man's h& w\ld /rangle me by *ok+4 ,i don't "k :e!r !re 7 any "o ar\nd or ne> me or n4 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld surely die if ,i did n get help1 b j z (t5 z ,i w\ld pray1 t unse5 h& 0 felt on my ?roat & my brea? squeez$ (f4 ,f9ally some?+ said3 #8,v5ture on ! atonem5t1 = y w die anyway if y don't4' ,s ,i made "o f9al /ruggle to call on ,god = m]cy1 ) ! same *ok+ & /rangl+1 det]m9$ to f9i% ! s5t5ce ( pray] = ,m]cy1 if ,i did /rangle & die1 & ! la/ ,i rememb] t "t 0 fall+ back on ! gr\nd ) ! same unse5 h& on my ?roat4 ,i don't "k h[ long ,i lay !re or :at 0 go+ on4 ,none ( my folks 7 pres5t4 ,:5 ,i came to myself1 !re 7 a cr[d ar\nd me prais+ ,god4 ,! v heav5s seem$ to op5 & p\r d[n rays ( light & glory4 ,n = a mom5t only1 b all day & night1 floods ( light & glory seem$ to p\r ?r\gh my s\l1 & oh1 h[ ,i 0 *ang$1 & ev]y?+ became new4 ,my horses & hogs & ev5 ev]ybody seem$ *ang$40 ,?is man's case introduces ! feature ( automatisms1 :i* 9 sugge/ible subjects h be5 s />tl+ a feature at revivals s9ce1 9 ,edw>ds's1 ,wesley's1 & ,:itfield's "t1 ^! became a regul> means ( gospel propagation4 ,!y 7 at fir/ suppos$ to be semimiracul\s pro(s ( 8p[]0 on ! "p ( ! ,holy ,gho/2 b great div]g5ce ( op9ion quickly arose conc]n+ !m4 ,edw>ds1 9 8 ,?\ghts on ! ,revival ( ,religion 9 ,new ,engl&1 has to def5d !m aga9/ _! critics2 & _! value has long be5 matt] ( debate ev5 )9 ! revivali/ic d5om9ations47#acg7 ,!y und\bt$ly h no ess5tial spiritual significance1 & al?\gh _! pres5ce makes 8 conv]sion m memorable to ! conv]t1 x has nev] be5 prov$ t conv]ts :o %[ !m are m p]sev]+ or f]tile 9 good fruits ?an ^? ^: *ange ( he>t has _h less viol5t accompanim5ts4 ,on ! :ole1 unconsci\sness1 convulsions1 visions1 involunt>y vocal utt]ances1 & suffocation1 mu/ be simply ascrib$ to ! subject's hav+ a l>ge sublim9al region1 involv+ n]v\s in/ability4 ,?is is (t5 ! subject's own view ( ! matt] aft]w>ds4 ,"o ( ,/>buck's correspond5ts writes1 = in/ance3-- 8,i h be5 ?r\gh ! exp]i5ce :i* is kn[n z conv]sion4 ,my explanation ( x is ?is3 ! subject works 8 emotions up to ! break+ po9t1 at ! same "t resi/+ _! physical manife/ations1 su* z quick5$ pulse1 etc41 & !n sudd5ly lets !m h _! full sway ov] 8 body4 ,! relief is some?+ wond]ful1 & ! pleasurable effects ( ! emotions are exp]i5c$ to ! highe/ degree40 ,!re is "o =m ( s5sory automatism :i* possibly des]ves special notice on acc\nt ( its frequ5cy4 ,i ref] to halluc9atory or pseudo halluc9atory lum9\s ph5om5a1 photisms1 to use ! t]m ( ! psy*ologi/s4 ,sa9t ,paul's bl9d+ heav5ly vision seems to h be5 a ph5om5on ( ?is sort2 s does ,con/ant9e's cross 9 ! sky4 ,! la/ case b "o :i* ,i quot$ m5tions floods ( light & glory4 ,h5ry ,all9e m5tions a light1 ab\t ^: ext]nality he seems unc]ta94 ,colonel ,g>d9] sees a blaz+ light4 ,presid5t ,f9ney writes3-- 8,all at once ! glory ( ,god %one ^u & r\nd ab\t me 9 a mann] almo/ m>vel\s4444 ,a light p]fectly ineffable %one 9 my s\l1 t almo/ pro/rat$ me on ! gr\nd4444 ,?is light seem$ l ! brightness ( ! sun 9 e direction4 ,x 0 too int5se = ! eyes4444 ,i ?9k ,i knew some?+ !n1 by actual exp]i5ce1 ( t light t pro/rat$ ,paul on ! way to ,damascus4 ,x 0 surely a light su* z ,i c\ld n h endur$ long407#ach7 ,su* reports ( photisms are inde$ f> f uncommon4 ,"h is ano!r f ,/>buck's collection1 :]e ! light appe>$ evid5tly ext]nal3-- 8,i _h att5d$ a s]ies ( revival s]vices = ab\t two weeks (f & on4 ,_h be5 invit$ to ! alt> sev]al times1 all ! "t becom+ m deeply impress$1 :5 f9ally ,i decid$ ,i mu/ d ?is1 or ,i %\ld be lo/4 ,realization ( conv]sion 0 v vivid1 l a ton's weight be+ lift$ f my he>t2 a /range light :i* seem$ to light up ! :ole room 7= x 0 d>k72 a consci\s supreme bliss :i* caus$ me to repeat #8,glory to ,god' = a long "t4 ,decid$ to be ,god's *ild = life1 & to give up my pet ambition1 weal? & social position4 ,my =m] habits ( life h9d]$ my gr[? some:at1 b ,i set ab\t ov]com+ ^! sy/ematically1 & 9 "o ye> my :ole nature 0 *ang$1 i4e41 my ambitions 7 ( a diff]5t ord]40 ,"h is ano!r "o ( ,/>buck's cases1 involv+ a lum9\s elem5t3-- 8,i _h be5 cle>ly conv]t$ tw5ty?ree ye>s be=e1 or r reclaim$4 ,my exp]i5ce 9 reg5]ation 0 !n cle> & spiritual1 & ,i _h n backslidd54 ,b ,i exp]i5c$ entire sanctification on ! #ae? day ( ,m>*1 #ahic1 ab\t elev5 o'clock 9 ! morn+4 ,! p>ticul> accompanim5ts ( ! exp]i5ce 7 entirely unexpect$4 ,i 0 quietly sitt+ at home s++ selections out ( ,p5teco/al ,hymns4 ,sudd5ly !re seem$ to be a some?+ sweep+ into me & inflat+ my entire be+--su* a s5sation z ,i _h nev] exp]i5c$ be=e4 ,:5 ?is exp]i5ce came1 ,i seem$ to be conduct$ ar\nd a l>ge1 capaci\s1 welllight$ room4 ,z ,i walk$ ) my invisible conductor & look$ ar\nd1 a cle> ?\ght 0 co9$ 9 my m9d1 #8,!y are n "h1 !y are gone4' ,z soon z ! ?\ght 0 def9itely =m$ 9 my m9d1 ?\gh no ^w 0 spok51 ! ,holy ,_s impress$ me t ,i 0 survey+ my own s\l4 ,!n1 = ! fir/ "t 9 all my life1 did ,i "k t ,i 0 cleans$ f all s91 & fill$ ) ! fullness ( ,god40 ,leuba quotes ! case ( a ,mr4 ,peek1 :]e ! lum9\s affection rem9ds "o ( ! *romatic halluc9ations produc$ by ! intoxicant cactus buds call$ mescal by ! ,mexicans3-- 8,:5 ,i w5t 9 ! morn+ into ! fields to "w1 ! glory ( ,god appe>$ 9 all 8 visible creation4 ,i well rememb] we reap$ oats1 & h[ e /raw & head ( ! oats seem$1 z x 71 array$ 9 a k9d ( ra9b[ glory1 or to gl[1 if ,i may s express x1 9 ! glory ( ,god407#aci7 ,! mo/ *>act]i/ic ( all ! elem5ts ( ! conv]sion crisis1 & ! la/ "o ( :i* ,i %all speak1 is ! ec/asy ( happ9ess produc$4 ,we h already he>d sev]al acc\nts ( x1 b ,i w add a c\ple m4 ,presid5t ,f9ney's is s vivid t ,i give x at l5g?3-- 8,all my feel+s seem$ to rise & fl[ out2 & ! utt]ance ( my he>t 01 #8,i want to p\r my :ole s\l out to ,god4' ,! ris+ ( my s\l 0 s great t ,i ru%$ into ! back room ( ! front (fice1 to pray4 ,!re 0 no fire & no light 9 ! room2 nev]!less x appe>$ to me z if x 7 p]fectly light4 ,z ,i w5t 9 & %ut ! door aft] me1 x seem$ z if ,i met ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ face to face4 ,x did n occur to me !n1 nor did x = "s "t aft]w>ds1 t x 0 :olly a m5tal /ate4 ,on ! contr>y1 x seem$ to me t ,i saw him z ,i w\ld see any o!r man4 ,he said no?+1 b look$ at me 9 su* a mann] z to break me "r d[n at 8 feet4 ,i h always s9ce reg>d$ ?is z a mo/ rem>kable /ate ( m9d2 = x seem$ to me a reality t he /ood be=e me1 & ,i fell d[n at 8 feet & p\r$ out my s\l to him4 ,i wept al\d l a *ild1 & made su* confessions z ,i c\ld ) my *ok$ utt]ance4 ,x seem$ to me t ,i ba!d 8 feet ) my te>s2 & yet ,i _h no di/9ct impression t ,i t\*$ him1 t ,i recollect4 ,i mu/ h cont9u$ 9 ?is /ate = a good :ile2 b my m9d 0 too mu* absorb$ ) ! int]view to recollect any?+ t ,i said4 ,b ,i "k1 z soon z my m9d became calm en\gh to break (f f ! int]view1 ,i return$ to ! front (fice1 & f\nd t ! fire t ,i _h made ( l>ge wood 0 ne>ly burn$ out4 ,b z ,i turn$ & 0 ab\t to take a seat by ! fire1 ,i receiv$ a mighty baptism ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,)\t any expectation ( x1 )\t ev] hav+ ! ?\ght 9 my m9d t !re 0 any su* ?+ = me1 )\t any recollection t ,i _h ev] he>d ! ?+ m5tion$ by any p]son 9 ! _w1 ! ,holy ,_s desc5d$ ^u me 9 a mann] t seem$ to g ?r\gh me1 body & s\l4 ,i c\ld feel ! impression1 l a wave ( electricity1 go+ ?r\gh & ?r\gh me4 ,inde$1 x seem$ to come 9 waves & waves ( liquid love2 = ,i c\ld n express x 9 any o!r way4 ,x seem$ l ! v brea? ( ,god4 ,i c recollect di/9ctly t x seem$ to fan me1 l imm5se w+s4 8,no words c express ! wond]ful love t 0 %$ abroad 9 my he>t4 ,i wept al\d ) joy & love2 & ,i d n "k b ,i %\ld say ,i lit]ally bell[$ out ! unutt]able gu%+s ( my he>t4 ,^! waves came ov] me1 & ov] me1 & ov] me1 "o aft] ! o!r1 until ,i recollect ,i cri$ out1 #8,i %all die if ^! waves cont9ue to pass ov] me4' ,i said1 #8,"l1 ,i _c be> any m2' yet ,i _h no fe> ( dea?4 8,h[ long ,i cont9u$ 9 ?is /ate1 ) ?is baptism cont9u+ to roll ov] me & g ?r\gh me1 ,i d n "k4 ,b ,i "k x 0 late 9 ! ev5+ :5 a memb] ( my *oir--= ,i 0 ! lead] ( ! *oir--came into ! (fice to see me4 ,he 0 a memb] ( ! *ur*4 ,he f\nd me 9 ?is /ate ( l\d weep+1 & said to me1 #8,mr4 ,f9ney1 :at ails y8' ,i c\ld make him no answ] = "s "t4 ,he !n said1 #8,are y 9 pa98' ,i ga!r$ myself up z be/ ,i c\ld1 & repli$1 #8,no1 b s happy t ,i _c live4' 0 ,i j n[ quot$ ,billy ,bray2 ,i _c d bett] ?an give 8 own brief acc\nt ( 8 po/conv]sion feel+s3-- 8,i c't help prais+ ! ,"l4 ,z ,i g along ! /reet1 ,i lift up "o foot1 & x seems to say #8,glory'2 & ,i lift up ! o!r1 & x seems to say #8,am5'2 & s !y keep up l t all ! "t ,i am walk+407#adj7 ,"o ^w1 be=e ,i close ?is lecture1 on ! "q ( ! transi5cy or p]man5ce ( ^! abrupt conv]sions4 ,"s ( y1 ,i feel sure1 kn[+ t num]\s backslid+s & relapses take place1 make ( ^! _! app]ceiv+ mass = int]pret+ ! :ole subject1 & dismiss x ) a pity+ smile at s mu* 8hy/]ics40 ,psy*ologically1 z well z religi\sly1 h[ev]1 ?is is %all[4 ,x misses ! po9t ( s]i\s int]e/1 :i* is n s mu* ! duration z ! nature & quality ( ^! %ift+s ( "* to high] levels4 ,m5 lapse f e level--we ne$ no /ati/ics to tell u t4 ,love is1 = in/ance1 well kn[n n to be irrevocable1 yet1 con/ant or incon/ant1 x reveals new flights & rea*es ( ideality :ile x la/s4 ,^! revelations =m its significance to m5 & wom51 :atev] be its duration4 ,s ) ! conv]sion exp]i5ce3 t x %\ld = ev5 a %ort "t %[ a human be+ :at ! highwat] m>k ( 8 spiritual capacity is1 ?is is :at con/itutes its importance1--an importance :i* backslid+ _c dim9i%1 al?\gh p]si/5ce might increase x4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 all ! m /rik+ in/ances ( conv]sion1 all ^?1 = in/ance1 :i* ,i h quot$1 h be5 p]man5t4 ,! case ( :i* !re might be mo/ d\bt1 on acc\nt ( its sugge/+ s /rongly an epileptoid seizure1 0 ! case ( ,m4 ,ratisbonne4 ,yet ,i am in=m$ t ,ratisbonne's :ole future 0 %ap$ by ^? few m9utes4 ,he gave up 8 project ( m>riage1 became a prie/1 f\nd$ at ,j]usalem1 :]e he w5t to dwell1 a mission ( nuns = ! conv]sion ( ! ,jews1 %[$ no t5d5cy to use = egoti/ic purposes ! notoriety giv5 him by ! peculi> circum/ances ( 8 conv]sion1--:i*1 = ! re/1 he c\ld seldom ref] to )\t te>s1--& 9 %ort rema9$ an exempl>y son ( ! ,*ur* until he di$1 late 9 ! #hj's1 if ,i rememb] rightly4 ,! only /ati/ics ,i "k (1 on ! subject ( ! duration ( conv]sions1 are ^? collect$ = ,pr(essor ,/>buck by ,miss ,john/on4 ,!y embrace only a hundr$ p]sons1 evangelical *ur*memb]s1 m ?an half be+ ,me?odi/s4 ,accord+ to ! /atem5t ( ! subjects !mselves1 !re _h be5 backslid+ ( "s sort 9 ne>ly all ! cases1 #ic p] c5t4 ( ! wom51 #gg p] c5t4 ( ! m54 ,discuss+ ! returns m m9utely1 ,/>buck f9ds t only #f p] c5t4 are relapses f ! religi\s fai? :i* ! conv]sion confirm$1 & t ! backslid+ compla9$ ( is 9 mo/ only a fluctuation 9 ! ardor ( s5tim5t4 ,only six ( ! hundr$ cases report a *ange ( fai?4 ,/>buck's conclusion is t ! effect ( conv]sion is to br+ ) x 8a *ang$ attitude t[>ds life1 :i* is fairly con/ant & p]man5t1 al?\gh ! feel+s fluctuate4444 ,9 o!r words1 ! p]sons :o h pass$ ?r\gh conv]sion1 hav+ once tak5 a /& = ! religi\s life1 t5d to feel !mselves id5tifi$ ) x1 no matt] h[ mu* _! religi\s en?usiasm decl9es407#ada7 ,,lectures ,,xi1 ,,xii1 ,,& ,,xiii4 ,,sa9tl9ess4 ,! la/ lecture left u 9 a /ate ( expectancy4 ,:at may ! practical fruits = life h be51 ( su* mov+ly happy conv]sions z ^? we he>d (8 ,) ?is "q ! really important "p ( our task op5s1 = y rememb] t we began all ?is empirical inquiry n m]ely to op5 a curi\s *apt] 9 ! natural hi/ory ( human consci\sness1 b r to atta9 a spiritual judgm5t z to ! total value & positive mean+ ( all ! religi\s tr\ble & happ9ess :i* we h se54 ,we mu/1 !re=e1 fir/ describe ! fruits ( ! religi\s life1 & !n we mu/ judge !m4 ,?is divides our inquiry into two di/9ct p>ts4 ,let u )\t fur!r preamble proce$ to ! descriptive task4 ,x ought to be ! pleasante/ portion ( our bus9ess 9 ^! lectures4 ,"s small pieces ( x1 x is true1 may be pa9ful1 or may %[ human nature 9 a pa!tic light1 b x w be ma9ly pleasant1 because ! be/ fruits ( religi\s exp]i5ce are ! be/ ?+s t hi/ory has to %[4 ,!y h always be5 e/eem$ s2 "h if any:]e is ! g5u9ely /r5u\s life2 & to call to m9d a succession ( su* examples z ,i h lately _h to w&] ?r\gh1 ?\gh x has be5 only 9 ! read+ ( !m1 is to feel enc\rag$ & uplift$ & wa%$ 9 bett] moral air4 ,! highe/ flights ( *>ity1 devotion1 tru/1 pati5ce1 brav]y to :i* ! w+s ( human nature h spread !mselves h be5 fl[n = religi\s ideals4 ,i c d no bett] ?an quote1 z to ?is1 "s rem>ks :i* ,sa9te,beuve 9 8 ,hi/ory ( ,port,royal makes on ! results ( conv]sion or ! /ate ( grace4 8,ev5 f ! purely human po9t ( view10 ,sa9te,beuve says1 8! ph5om5on ( grace mu/ /ill appe> suffici5tly extraord9>y1 em95t1 & r>e1 bo? 9 its nature & 9 its effects1 to des]ve a clos] /udy4 ,= ! s\l arrives !reby at a c]ta9 fix$ & inv9cible /ate1 a /ate :i* is g5u9ely h]oic1 & f out ( :i* ! greate/ de$s :i* x ev] p]=ms are execut$4 ,?r\gh all ! diff]5t =ms ( communion1 & all ! div]sity ( ! means :i* help to produce ?is /ate1 :e!r x be rea*$ by a jubilee1 by a g5]al confession1 by a solit>y pray] & effusion1 :atev] 9 %ort be ! place & ! occasion1 x is easy to recognize t x is fundam5tally "o /ate 9 _s & 9 fruits4 ,p5etrate a little b5ea? ! div]sity ( circum/ances1 & x becomes evid5t t 9 ,*ri/ians ( diff]5t epo*s x is always "o & ! same modification by :i* !y are affect$3 !re is v]itably a s+le fundam5tal & id5tical _s ( piety & *>ity1 common to ^? :o h receiv$ grace2 an inn] /ate :i* be=e all ?+s is "o ( love & humility1 ( inf9ite confid5ce 9 ,god1 & ( sev]ity = "o's self1 accompani$ ) t5d]ness = o!rs4 ,! fruits peculi> to ?is condition ( ! s\l h ! same savor 9 all1 "u di/ant suns & 9 diff]5t surr\nd+s1 9 ,sa9t ,t]esa ( ,avila j z 9 any ,moravian bro!r ( ,h]rnhut407#adb7 ,sa9te,beuve has "h only ! m em95t in/ances ( reg5]ation 9 m9d1 & ^! are ( c\rse ! in/ructive ones = u also to consid]4 ,^! devotees h (t5 laid _! c\rse s diff]5tly f o!r m5 t1 judg+ !m by worldly law1 we might be tempt$ to call !m mon/r\s ab]rations f ! pa? ( nature4 ,i beg91 !re=e1 by ask+ a g5]al psy*ological "q z to :at ! inn] conditions are :i* may make "o human "* diff] s extremely f ano!r4 ,i reply at once t :]e ! "*1 z some?+ di/+ui%$ f ! intellect1 is conc]n$1 ! causes ( human div]sity lie *iefly 9 our diff]+ susceptibilities ( emotional excitem5t1 & 9 ! diff]5t impulses & inhibitions :i* ^! br+ 9 _! tra94 ,let me make ?is m cle>4 ,speak+ g5]ally1 our moral & practical attitude1 at any giv5 "t1 is always a resultant ( two sets ( =ces )9 u1 impulses pu%+ u "o way & ob/ructions & inhibitions hold+ u back4 8,yes6 yes60 say ! impulses2 8,no6 no60 say ! inhibitions4 ,few p :o h n expressly reflect$ on ! matt] realize h[ con/antly ?is factor ( inhibition is ^u u1 h[ x conta9s & m\lds u by its re/rictive pressure almo/ z if we 7 fluids p5t )9 ! cavity ( a j>4 ,! influ5ce is s incessant t x becomes subconsci\s4 ,all ( y1 = example1 sit "h ) a c]ta9 con/ra9t at ?is mom5t1 & entirely )\t express consci\sness ( ! fact1 because ( ! influ5ce ( ! occasion4 ,if left alone 9 ! room1 ea* ( y w\ld probably involunt>ily re>range himself1 & make 8 attitude m 8free & easy40 ,b proprieties & _! inhibitions snap l cobwebs if any great emotional excitem5t sup]v5es4 ,i h se5 a d&y appe> 9 ! /reet ) 8 face cov]$ ) %av+la!r because a h\se across ! way 0 on fire2 & a woman w run among /rang]s 9 h] nightg[n if x be a "q ( sav+ h] baby's life or h] own4 ,take a self indulg5t woman's life 9 g5]al4 ,%e w yield to e inhibition set by h] disagreeable s5sations1 lie late 9 b$1 live ^u tea or bromides1 keep indoors f ! cold4 ,e difficulty f9ds h] ob$i5t to its 8no40 ,b make a "m ( h]1 & :at h y8 ,possess$ by mat]nal excitem5t1 %e n[ confronts wakefulness1 we>9ess1 & toil )\t an in/ant ( hesitation or a ^w ( compla9t4 ,! inhibitive p[] ( pa9 ov] h] is ext+ui%$ :]ev] ! baby's int]e/s are at /ake4 ,! inconv5i5ces :i* ?is creature occasions h become1 z ,james ,h9ton says1 ! gl[+ he>t ( a great joy1 & inde$ are n[ ! v conditions :]eby ! joy becomes mo/ deep4 ,?is is an example ( :at y h already he>d ( z ! 8expulsive p[] ( a high] affection40 ,b be ! affection high or l[1 x makes no diff]5ce1 s long z ! excitem5t x br+s be /rong en\gh4 ,9 "o ( ,h5ry ,drummond's disc\rses he tells ( an inundation 9 ,india :]e an em95ce ) a bungal[ ^u x rema9$ unsubm]g$1 & became ! refuge ( a numb] ( wild animals & reptiles 9 addition to ! human be+s :o 7 !re4 ,at a c]ta9 mom5t a royal ,b5gal tig] appe>$ swimm+ t[>ds x1 rea*$ x1 & lay pant+ l a dog ^u ! gr\nd 9 ! mid/ ( ! p1 /ill possess$ by su* an agony ( t]ror t "o ( ! ,engli%m5 c\ld calmly /ep up ) a rifle & bl[ out its bra9s4 ,! tig]'s habitual f]ocity 0 tempor>ily quell$ by ! emotion ( fe>1 :i* became sov]eign1 & =m$ a new c5tre = 8 "*4 ,sometimes no emotional /ate is sov]eign1 b _m contr>y ones are mix$ toge!r4 ,9 t case "o he>s bo? 8yeses0 & 8noes10 & ! 8w0 is call$ on !n to solve ! conflict4 ,take a soldi]1 = example1 ) 8 dread ( c[>dice impell+ him to advance1 8 fe>s impell+ him to run1 & 8 prop5sities to imitation pu%+ him t[>ds v>i\s c\rses if 8 comrades (f] v>i\s examples4 ,8 p]son becomes ! seat ( a mass ( int]f]5ces2 & he may = a "t simply wav]1 because no "o emotion prevails4 ,!re is a pit* ( int5sity1 ?\gh1 :i*1 if any emotion rea* x1 en?rones t "o z alone effective & sweeps its antagoni/s & all _! inhibitions away4 ,! fury ( 8 comrades' *>ge1 once ent]$ on1 w give ?is pit* ( c\rage to ! soldi]2 ! panic ( _! r\t w give ?is pit* ( fe>4 ,9 ^! sov]eign excitem5ts1 ?+s ord9>ily impossible gr[ natural because ! inhibitions are annull$4 ,_! 8no6 no60 n only is n he>d1 x does n exi/4 ,ob/acles are !n l tissuepap] hoops to ! circus rid]--no imp$im5t2 ! flood is high] ?an ! dam !y make4 8,lass sie betteln gehn w5n sie hungrig s9d60 cries ! gr5adi]1 frantic ov] 8 ,emp]or's capture1 :5 8 wife & babes are sugge/$2 & m5 p5t into a burn+ !atre h be5 kn[n to cut _! way ?r\gh ! cr[d ) knives47#adc7 ,"o mode ( emotional excitability is exce$+ly important 9 ! composition ( ! en]getic "*1 f its peculi>ly de/ructive p[] ov] inhibitions4 ,i mean :at 9 its l[] =m is m]e irascibility1 susceptibility to wra?1 ! fight+ temp]2 & :at 9 subtl] ways manife/s itself z impati5ce1 grimness1 e>ne/ness1 sev]ity ( "*4 ,e>ne/ness means will+ness to live ) en]gy1 ?\gh en]gy br+ pa94 ,! pa9 may be pa9 to o!r p or pa9 to "o's self--x makes little diff]5ce2 = :5 ! /r5u\s mood is on "o1 ! aim is to break some?+1 no matt] ^: or :at4 ,no?+ annihilates an inhibition z irresi/ibly z ang] does x2 =1 z ,moltke says ( w>1 de/ruction pure & simple is its ess5ce4 ,?is is :at makes x s invaluable an ally ( e o!r passion4 ,! sweete/ delights are trampl$ on ) a f]oci\s pleasure ! mom5t !y (f] !mselves z *ecks to a cause by :i* our high] indignations are elicit$4 ,x co/s !n no?+ to drop fri5d%ips1 to r5\nce long root$ privileges & possessions1 to break ) social ties4 ,r d we take a /]n joy 9 ! a/r+5cy & desolation2 & :at is call$ weakness ( "* seems 9 mo/ cases to consi/ 9 ! inaptitude = ^! sacrificial moods1 ( :i* "o's own inf]ior self & its pet s(tnesses mu/ (t5 be ! t>gets & ! victims47#add7 ,s f> ,i h spok5 ( tempor>y alt]ations produc$ by %ift+ excitem5ts 9 ! same p]son4 ,b ! relatively fix$ diff]5ces ( "* ( diff]5t p]sons are expla9$ 9 a precisely simil> way4 ,9 a man ) a liability to a special sort ( emotion1 :ole ranges ( inhibition habitually vani%1 :i* 9 o!r m5 rema9 effective1 & o!r sorts ( inhibition take _! place4 ,:5 a p]son has an inborn g5ius = c]ta9 emotions1 8 life diff]s /rangely f t ( ord9>y p1 = none ( _! usual det]r5ts *eck him4 ,y\r m]e aspirant to a type ( "*1 on ! contr>y1 only %[s1 :5 y\r natural lov]1 fight]1 or re=m]1 ) :om ! passion is a gift ( nature1 comes along1 ! hopeless inf]iority ( volunt>y to in/9ctive action4 ,he has delib]ately to ov]come 8 inhibitions2 ! g5ius ) ! inborn passion seems n to feel !m at all2 he is free ( all t inn] friction & n]v\s wa/e4 ,to a ,fox1 a ,g>ibaldi1 a ,g5]al ,boo?1 a ,john ,br[n1 a ,l\ise ,mi*el1 a ,bradlaugh1 ! ob/acles omnipot5t ov] ^? ar\nd !m are z if nonexi/5t4 ,c\ld ! re/ ( u s disreg>d !m1 !re might be _m su* h]oes1 = _m h ! wi% to live = simil> ideals1 & only ! adequate degree ( inhibition qu5*+ fury is lack+47#ade7 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 will+ & m]ely wi%+1 betwe5 hav+ ideals t are creative & ideals t are b p9+s & regrets1 ?us dep5ds solely ei!r on ! am\nt ( /eampressure *ronically driv+ ! "* 9 ! ideal direction1 or on ! am\nt ( ideal excitem5t transi5tly acquir$4 ,giv5 a c]ta9 am\nt ( love1 indignation1 g5]osity1 magnanimity1 admiration1 loyalty1 or en?usiasm ( self surr5d]1 ! result is always ! same4 ,t :ole raft ( c[>dly ob/ructions1 :i* 9 tame p]sons & dull moods are sov]eign imp$im5ts to action1 s9ks away at once4 ,our conv5tionality17#adf7 our %yness1 laz9ess1 & /+9ess1 our dem&s = prec$5t & p]mission1 = gu>antee & surety1 our small suspicions1 timidities1 despairs1 :]e are !y n[8 ,sev]$ l cobwebs1 brok5 l bubbles 9 ! sun-- 8,wo s9d die ,sorge nun und ,no? ,die mi* no* ge/]n wollt' ers*laff58 ,i* s*m' mi* dess' im ,morg5ro?40 ,! flood we are borne on rolls !m s lightly "u t _! v contact is unfelt4 ,set free ( !m1 we float & so> & s+4 ,?is auroral op5ness & uplift gives to all creative ideal levels a bright & c>ol+ quality1 :i* is n[h]e m m>k$ ?an :]e ! controll+ emotion is religi\s4 8,! true monk10 writes an ,italian my/ic1 8takes no?+ ) him b 8 lyre40 ,we may n[ turn f ^! psy*ological g5]alities to ^? fruits ( ! religi\s /ate :i* =m ! special subject ( our pres5t lecture4 ,! man :o lives 9 8 religi\s c5tre ( p]sonal en]gy1 & is actuat$ by spiritual en?usiasms1 diff]s f 8 previ\s c>nal self 9 p]fectly def9ite ways4 ,! new ardor :i* burns 9 8 brea/ consumes 9 its gl[ ! l[] 8noes0 :i* =m]ly beset him1 & keeps him immune aga9/ infection f ! entire grovel+ portion ( 8 nature4 ,magnanimities once impossible are n[ easy2 paltry conv5tionalities & mean inc5tives once tyrannical hold no sway4 ,! /one wall inside ( him has fall51 ! h>dness 9 8 he>t has brok5 d[n4 ,! re/ ( u c1 ,i ?9k1 imag9e ?is by recall+ our /ate ( feel+ 9 ^? tempor>y 8melt+ moods0 into :i* ei!r ! trials ( real life1 or ! !atre1 or a novel sometimes ?r[ u4 ,especially if we weep6 ,= x is !n z if our te>s broke ?r\gh an invet]ate inn] dam1 & let all sorts ( anci5t peccancies & moral /agnancies dra9 away1 leav+ u n[ wa%$ & s(t ( he>t & op5 to e nobl] lead+4 ,) mo/ ( u ! cu/om>y h>dness quickly returns1 b n s ) sa9tly p]sons4 ,_m sa9ts1 ev5 z en]getic ones z ,t]esa & ,loyola1 h possess$ :at ! *ur* traditionally rev]es z a special grace1 ! scall$ gift ( te>s4 ,9 ^! p]sons ! melt+ mood seems to h held almo/ un9t]rupt$ control4 ,& z x is ) te>s & melt+ moods1 s x is ) o!r exalt$ affections4 ,_! reign may come by gradual gr[? or by a crisis2 b 9 ei!r case x may h 8come to /ay40 ,at ! end ( ! la/ lecture we saw ?is p]man5ce to be true ( ! g5]al p>am\ntcy ( ! high] insight1 ev5 ?\gh 9 ! ebbs ( emotional excitem5t mean] motives might tempor>ily prevail & backslid+ might occur4 ,b t l[] temptations may rema9 completely annull$1 ap>t f transi5t emotion & z if by alt]ation ( ! man's habitual nature1 is also prov$ by docum5t>y evid5ce 9 c]ta9 cases4 ,be=e emb>k+ on ! g5]al natural hi/ory ( ! reg5]ate "*1 let me conv9ce y ( ?is curi\s fact by "o or two examples4 ,! mo/ num]\s are ^? ( re=m$ drunk>ds4 ,y recollect ! case ( ,mr4 ,hadley 9 ! la/ lecture2 ! ,j]ry ,mc,auley ,wat] ,/reet ,mission ab\nds 9 simil> in/ances47#adg7 ,y also rememb] ! graduate ( ,ox=d1 conv]t$ at ?ree 9 ! aft]noon1 & gett+ drunk 9 ! hayfield ! next day1 b aft] t p]man5tly cur$ ( 8 appetite4 8,f t h\r dr9k has _h no t]rors = me3 ,i nev] t\* x1 nev] want x4 ,! same ?+ occurr$ ) my pipe1 444 ! desire = x w5t at once & has nev] return$4 ,s ) e kn[n s91 ! deliv]ance 9 ea* case be+ p]man5t & complete4 ,i h _h no temptations s9ce conv]sion40 ,"h is an analog\s case f ,/>buck's manuscript collection3-- 8,i w5t into ! old ,adelphi ,!atre1 :]e !re 0 a ,hol9ess meet+1 444 & ,i began say+1 #8,"l1 ,"l1 ,i mu/ h ?is bless+4' ,!n :at 0 to me an audible voice said3 #8,are y will+ to give up ev]y?+ to ! ,"l8' & "q aft] "q kept com+ up1 to all ( :i* ,i said3 #8,yes1 ,"l2 yes1 ,"l6' until ?is came3 #8,:y d y n accept x n[8' & ,i said3 #8,i d1 ,"l4'--,i felt no p>ticul> joy1 only a tru/4 ,j !n ! meet+ clos$1 &1 z ,i w5t out on ! /reet1 ,i met a g5tleman smok+ a f9e cig>1 & a cl\d ( smoke came into my face1 & ,i took a long1 deep brea? ( x1 & praise ! ,"l1 all my appetite = x 0 gone4 ,!n z ,i walk$ along ! /reet1 pass+ saloons :]e ! fumes ( liquor came out1 ,i f\nd t all my ta/e & long+ = t accurs$ /uff 0 gone4 ,glory to ,god6 444 ,b = t5 or elev5 long ye>s aft] t ,i 0 9 ! wild]ness ) its ups & d[ns4 ,my appetite = liquor nev] came back40 ,! classic case ( ,colonel ,g>d9] is t ( a man cur$ ( sexual temptation 9 a s+le h\r4 ,to ,mr4 ,spe>s ! colonel said1 8,i 0 effectually cur$ ( all incl9ation to t s9 ,i 0 s /rongly addict$ to t ,i ?\ght no?+ b %oot+ me ?r\gh ! head c\ld h cur$ me ( x2 & all desire & incl9ation to x 0 remov$1 z entirely z if ,i _h be5 a suck+ *ild2 nor did ! temptation return to ?is day40 ,mr4 ,web/]'s words on ! same subject are ^!3 8,"o ?+ ,i h he>d ! colonel frequ5tly say1 t he 0 mu* addict$ to impurity be=e 8 acqua9tance ) religion2 b t1 s soon z he 0 enlight5$ f above1 he felt ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/ *ang+ 8 nature s wond]fully t 8 sanctification 9 ?is respect seem$ m rem>kable ?an 9 any o!r407#adh7 ,su* rapid abolition ( anci5t impulses & prop5sities rem9ds u s /rongly ( :at has be5 obs]v$ z ! result ( hypnotic sugge/ion t x is difficult n to believe t sublim9al influ5ces play ! decisive "p 9 ^! abrupt *anges ( he>t1 j z !y d 9 hypnotism47#adi7 ,sugge/ive !rapeutics ab\nd 9 records ( cure1 aft] a few sitt+s1 ( invet]ate bad habits ) :i* ! pati5t1 left to ord9>y moral & physical influ5ces1 _h /ruggl$ 9 va94 ,bo? drunk5ness & sexual vice h be5 cur$ 9 ?is way1 action ?r\gh ! sublim9al seem+ ?us 9 _m individuals to h ! pr]ogative ( induc+ relatively /able *ange4 ,if ! grace ( ,god miracul\sly op]ates1 x probably op]ates ?r\gh ! sublim9al door1 !n4 ,b j h[ any?+ op]ates 9 ?is region is /ill unexpla9$1 & we %all d well n[ to say goodby to ! process ( trans=mation altoge!r1--leav+ x1 if y l1 a good deal ( a psy*ological or !ological my/]y1--& to turn our att5tion to ! fruits ( ! religi\s condition1 no matt] 9 :at way !y may h be5 produc$47#aej7 ,! collective "n = ! ripe fruits ( religion 9 a "* is ,sa9tl9ess47#aea7 ,! sa9tly "* is ! "* = :i* spiritual emotions are ! habitual c5tre ( ! p]sonal en]gy2 & !re is a c]ta9 composite photograph ( univ]sal sa9tl9ess1 ! same 9 all religions1 ( :i* ! features c easily be trac$47#aeb7 ,!y are ^!3-- #a4 ,a feel+ ( be+ 9 a wid] life ?an t ( ?is _w's selfi% little int]e/s2 & a conviction1 n m]ely intellectual1 b z x 7 s5sible1 ( ! exi/5ce ( an ,ideal ,p[]4 ,9 ,*ri/ian sa9tl9ess ?is p[] is always p]sonifi$ z ,god2 b ab/ract moral ideals1 civic or patriotic utopias1 or inn] visions ( hol9ess or "r may also be felt z ! true lords & enl>g]s ( our life1 9 ways :i* ,i describ$ 9 ! lecture on ! ,reality ( ! ,unse547#aec7 #b4 ,a s5se ( ! fri5dly cont9uity ( ! ideal p[] ) our own life1 & a will+ selfsurr5d] to its control4 #c4 ,an imm5se elation & fre$om1 z ! outl9es ( ! conf9+ selfhood melt d[n4 #d4 ,a %ift+ ( ! emotional c5tre t[>ds lov+ & h>moni\s affections1 t[>ds 8yes1 yes0 & away f 8no10 :]e ! claims ( ! nonego are conc]n$4 ,^! fundam5tal inn] conditions h *>act]i/ic practical consequ5ces1 z foll[s3-- a4 ,asceticism4--,! selfsurr5d] may become s passionate z to turn into selfimmolation4 ,x may !n s ov]rule ! ord9>y inhibitions ( ! fle% t ! sa9t f9ds positive pleasure 9 sacrifice & asceticism1 measur+ & express+ z !y d ! degree ( 8 loyalty to ! high] p[]4 b4 ,/r5g? ( ,s\l4--,! s5se ( enl>gem5t ( life may be s uplift+ t p]sonal motives & inhibitions1 commonly omnipot5t1 become too insignificant = notice1 & new rea*es ( pati5ce & =titude op5 out4 ,fe>s & anxieties g1 & blissful equanimity takes _! place4 ,come heav51 come hell1 x makes no diff]5ce n[6 8,we =bid ourselves all seek+ aft] popul>ity1 all ambition to appe> important4 ,we pl$ge ourselves to ab/a9 f falsehood1 9 all its degrees4 ,we promise n to create or enc\rage illusions z to :at is possible1 by :at we say or write4 ,we promise to "o ano!r active s9c]ity1 :i* /rives to see tru? cle>ly1 & :i* nev] fe>s to decl>e :at x sees4 8,we promise delib]ate resi/ance to ! tidal waves ( fa%ion1 to ! #8booms' & panics ( ! public m9d1 to all ! =ms ( weakness & ( fe>4 8,we =bid ourselves ! use ( s>casm4 ,( s]i\s ?+s we w speak s]i\sly & unsmil+ly1 )\t bant] & )\t ! appe>ance ( bant]2--& ev5 s ( all ?+s1 = !re are s]i\s ways ( be+ light ( he>t4 8,we w put ourselves =w>d always = :at we are1 simply & )\t false humility1 z well z )\t p$antry1 affectation1 or pride40 c4 ,purity4--,! %ift+ ( ! emotional c5tre br+s ) x1 fir/1 increase ( purity4 ,! s5sitiv5ess to spiritual discords is enhanc$1 & ! cleans+ ( exi/5ce f brutal & s5sual elem5ts becomes imp]ative4 ,occasions ( contact ) su* elem5ts are avoid$3 ! sa9tly life mu/ deep5 its spiritual consi/5cy & keep unspott$ f ! _w4 ,9 "s temp]am5ts ?is ne$ ( purity ( _s takes an ascetic turn1 & weaknesses ( ! fle% are treat$ ) rel5tless sev]ity4 d4 ,*>ity4--,! %ift+ ( ! emotional c5tre br+s1 secondly1 increase ( *>ity1 t5d]ness = fell[creatures4 ,! ord9>y motives to antipa?y1 :i* usually set su* close b\nds to t5d]ness among human be+s1 are inhibit$4 ,! sa9t loves 8 enemies1 & treats loa?some begg>s z 8 bro!rs4 ,i n[ h to give "s concrete illu/rations ( ^! fruits ( ! spiritual tree4 ,! only difficulty is to *oose1 = !y are s abundant4 ,s9ce ! s5se ( ,pres5ce ( a high] & fri5dly ,p[] seems to be ! fundam5tal feature 9 ! spiritual life1 ,i w beg9 ) t4 ,9 our n>ratives ( conv]sion we saw h[ ! _w might look %9+ & transfigur$ to ! conv]t17#aed7 &1 ap>t f any?+ acutely religi\s1 we all h mom5ts :5 ! univ]sal life seems to wrap u r\nd ) fri5dl9ess4 ,9 y\? & heal?1 9 summ]1 9 ! woods or on ! m\nta9s1 !re come days :5 ! wea!r seems all :isp]+ ) peace1 h\rs :5 ! goodness & beauty ( exi/5ce enfold u l a dry w>m climate1 or *ime ?r\gh u z if our inn] e>s 7 subtly r++ ) ! _w's security4 ,?oreau writes3-- 8,once1 a few weeks aft] ,i came to ! woods1 = an h\r ,i d\bt$ :e!r ! ne> neighborhood ( man 0 n ess5tial to a s]5e & heal?y life4 ,to be alone 0 some:at unpleasant4 ,b1 9 ! mid/ ( a g5tle ra91 :ile ^! ?\ghts prevail$1 ,i 0 sudd5ly s5sible ( su* sweet & b5efic5t society 9 ,nature1 9 ! v patt]+ ( ! drops1 & 9 e sight & s\nd ar\nd my h\se1 an inf9ite & unacc\ntable fri5dl9ess all at once1 l an atmosph]e1 su/a9+ me1 z made ! fanci$ advantages ( human neighborhood insignificant1 & ,i h nev] ?\ght ( !m s9ce4 ,e little p9ene$le exp&$ & swell$ ) sympa?y & befri5d$ me4 ,i 0 s di/9ctly made aw>e ( ! pres5ce ( some?+ k9dr$ to me1 t ,i ?\ght no place c\ld ev] be /range to me aga9407#aee7 ,9 ! ,*ri/ian consci\sness ?is s5se ( ! envelop+ fri5dl9ess becomes mo/ p]sonal & def9ite4 8,! comp5sation10 writes a ,g]man au?or1 8= ! loss ( t s5se ( p]sonal indep5d5ce :i* man s unwill+ly gives up1 is ! disappe>ance ( all fe> f "o's life1 ! q indescribable & inexplicable feel+ ( an inn] security1 :i* "o c only exp]i5ce1 b :i*1 once x has be5 exp]i5c$1 "o c nev] =get407#aef7 ,i f9d an excell5t description ( ?is /ate ( m9d 9 a s]mon by ,mr4 ,voysey3-- 8,x is ! exp]i5ce ( myriads ( tru/ful s\ls1 t ?is s5se ( ,god's unfail+ pres5ce ) !m 9 _! go+ out & 9 _! com+ 91 & by night & day1 is a s\rce ( absolute repose & confid5t calmness4 ,x drives away all fe> ( :at may befall !m4 ,t ne>ness ( ,god is a con/ant security aga9/ t]ror & anxiety4 ,x is n t !y are at all assur$ ( physical safety1 or deem !mselves protect$ by a love :i* is d5i$ to o!rs1 b t !y are 9 a /ate ( m9d equally ready to be safe or to meet ) injury4 ,if injury befall !m1 !y w be cont5t to be> x because ! ,"l is _! keep]1 & no?+ c befall !m )\t 8 w4 ,if x be 8 w1 !n injury is = !m a bless+ & no calamity at all4 ,?us & ?us only is ! tru/ful man protect$ & %ield$ f h>m4 ,& ,i = "o--by no means a ?icksk9n$ or h>dn]v$ man--am absolutely satisfi$ ) ?is arrangem5t1 & d n wi% = any o!r k9d ( immunity f dang] & cata/rophe4 ,q z s5sitive to pa9 z ! mo/ highly /rung organism1 ,i yet feel t ! wor/ ( x is conqu]$1 & ! /+ tak5 out ( x altoge!r1 by ! ?\ght t ,god is our lov+ & sleepless keep]1 & t no?+ c hurt u )\t 8 w407#aeg7 ,m excit$ expressions ( ?is condition are abundant 9 religi\s lit]ature4 ,i c\ld easily we>y y ) _! monotony4 ,"h is an acc\nt f ,mrs4 ,jona?an ,edw>ds3-- 8,la/ night10 ,mrs4 ,edw>ds writes1 80 ! sweete/ night ,i ev] _h 9 my life4 ,i nev] be=e1 = s long a "t toge!r1 enjoy$ s mu* ( ! light & re/ & sweetness ( heav5 9 my s\l1 b )\t ! lea/ agitation ( body dur+ ! :ole "t4 ,"p ( ! night ,i lay awake1 sometimes asleep1 & sometimes betwe5 sleep+ & wak+4 ,b all night ,i cont9u$ 9 a con/ant1 cle>1 & lively s5se ( ! heav5ly sweetness ( ,*ri/'s excell5t love1 ( 8 ne>ness to me1 & ( my de>ness to him2 ) an inexpressibly sweet calmness ( s\l 9 an entire re/ 9 him4 ,i seem$ to myself to p]ceive a gl[ ( div9e love come d[n f ! he>t ( ,*ri/ 9 heav5 into my he>t 9 a con/ant /ream1 l a /ream or p5cil ( sweet light4 ,at ! same "t my he>t & s\l all fl[$ out 9 love to ,*ri/1 s t !re seem$ to be a con/ant fl[+ & refl[+ ( heav5ly love1 & ,i appe>$ to myself to float or swim1 9 ^! bright1 sweet beams1 l ! motes swimm+ 9 ! beams ( ! sun1 or ! /reams ( 8 light :i* come 9 at ! w9d[4 ,i ?9k t :at ,i felt ea* m9ute 0 wor? m ?an all ! outw>d com=t & pleasure :i* ,i _h enjoy$ 9 my :ole life put toge!r4 ,x 0 pleasure1 )\t ! lea/ /+1 or any int]ruption4 ,x 0 a sweetness1 :i* my s\l 0 lo/ 92 x seem$ to be all t my feeble frame c\ld su/a94 ,!re 0 b little diff]5ce1 :e!r ,i 0 asleep or awake1 b if !re 0 any diff]5ce1 ! sweetness 0 greate/ :ile ,i 0 asleep47#aeh7 ,z ,i awoke e>ly ! next morn+1 x seem$ to me t ,i _h entirely done ) myself4 ,i felt t ! op9ions ( ! _w conc]n+ me 7 no?+1 & t ,i _h no m to d ) any outw>d int]e/ ( my own ?an ) t ( a p]son :om ,i nev] saw4 ,! glory ( ,god seem$ to swall[ up e wi% & desire ( my he>t4444 ,aft] retir+ to re/ & sleep+ a little :ile1 ,i awoke1 & 0 l$ to reflect on ,god's m]cy to me1 9 giv+ me1 = _m ye>s1 a will+ness to die2 & aft] t1 9 mak+ me will+ to live1 t ,i might d & suff] :atev] he call$ me to "h4 ,i also ?\ght h[ ,god _h graci\sly giv5 me an entire resignation to 8 w1 ) respect to ! k9d & mann] ( dea? t ,i %\ld die2 hav+ be5 made will+ to die on ! rack1 or at ! /ake1 & if x 7 ,god's w1 to die 9 d>kness4 ,b n[ x occurr$ to me1 ,i us$ to ?9k ( liv+ no long] ?an to ! ord9>y age ( man4 ,^u ?is ,i 0 l$ to ask myself1 :e!r ,i 0 n will+ to be kept out ( heav5 ev5 long]2 & my :ole he>t seem$ imm$iately to reply3 ,yes1 a ?\s& ye>s1 & a ?\s& 9 horror1 if x be mo/ = ! honor ( ,god1 ! torm5t ( my body be+ s great1 awful1 & ov]:elm+ t none c\ld be> to live 9 ! c\ntry :]e ! spectacle 0 se51 & ! torm5t ( my m9d be+ va/ly great]4 ,& x seem$ to me t ,i f\nd a p]fect will+ness1 quietness1 & alacrity ( s\l 9 cons5t+ t x %\ld be s1 if x 7 mo/ = ! glory ( ,god1 s t !re 0 no hesitation1 d\bt1 or d>kness 9 my m9d4 ,! glory ( ,god seem$ to ov]come me & swall[ me up1 & e conceivable suff]+1 & ev]y?+ t 0 t]rible to my nature1 seem$ to %r9k to no?+ be=e x4 ,?is resignation cont9u$ 9 its cle>ness & brightness ! re/ ( ! night1 & all ! next day1 & ! night foll[+1 & on ,monday 9 ! =5oon1 )\t int]ruption or abatem5t407#aei7 ,! annals ( ,ca?olic sa9t%ip ab\nd 9 records z ec/atic or m ec/atic ?an ?is4 8,(t5 ! assaults ( ! div9e love10 x is said ( ! ,si/] ,sraphique de la ,m>t9ire1 8r$uc$ h] almo/ to ! po9t ( dea?4 ,%e us$ t5d]ly to compla9 ( ?is to ,god4 #8,i _c support x1' %e us$ to say4 #8,be> g5tly ) my weakness1 or ,i %all expire "u ! viol5ce ( y\r love4' 07#afj7 ,let me pass next to ! ,*>ity & ,bro!rly ,love :i* are a usual fruit ( sa9tl9ess1 & h always be5 reckon$ ess5tial !ological virtues1 h[ev] limit$ may h be5 ! k9ds ( s]vice :i* ! p>ticul> !ology enjo9$4 ,bro!rly love w\ld foll[ logically f ! assurance ( ,god's fri5dly pres5ce1 ! notion ( our bro!rhood z m5 be+ an imm$iate inf]5ce f t ( ,god's fa!rhood ( u all4 ,:5 ,*ri/ utt]s ! precepts3 8,love y\r enemies1 bless !m t curse y1 d good to !m t hate y1 & pray = !m :i* despitefully use y1 & p]secute y10 he gives = a reason3 8,t ye may be ! *ildr5 ( y\r ,fa!r :i* is 9 heav53 = he make? 8 sun to rise on ! evil & on ! good1 & s5de? ra9 on ! j & on ! unju/40 ,"o might !re=e be tempt$ to expla9 bo? ! humility z to "o's self & ! *>ity t[>ds o!rs :i* *>act]ize spiritual excitem5t1 z results ( ! alllevel+ "* ( !i/ic belief4 ,b ^! affections are c]ta9ly n m]e d]ivatives ( !ism4 ,we f9d !m 9 ,/oicism1 9 ,h9duism1 & 9 ,buddhism 9 ! highe/ possible degree4 ,!y h>monize ) pat]nal !ism beautifully2 b !y h>monize ) all reflection :atev] ^u ! dep5d5ce ( mank9d on g5]al causes2 & we mu/1 ,i ?9k1 consid] !m n subord9ate b cord9ate p>ts ( t great complex excitem5t 9 ! /udy ( :i* we are engag$4 ,religi\s rapture1 moral en?usiasm1 ontological wond]1 cosmic emotion1 are all unify+ /ates ( m9d1 9 :i* ! s& & grit ( ! selfhood incl9e to disappe>1 & t5d]ness to rule4 ,! be/ ?+ is to describe ! condition integrally z a *>act]i/ic affection to :i* our nature is liable1 a region 9 :i* we f9d ourselves at home1 a sea 9 :i* we swim2 b n to pret5d to expla9 its p>ts by d]iv+ !m too clev]ly f "o ano!r4 ,l love or fe>1 ! fai?/ate is a natural psy*ic complex1 & c>ries *>ity ) x by organic consequ5ce4 ,jubilation is an expansive affection1 & all expansive affections are self=getful & k9dly s long z !y endure4 ,we f9d ?is ! case ev5 :5 !y are pa?ological 9 orig94 ,9 8 in/ructive "w1 la ,tri/esse et la ,joie17#afa7 ,m4 ,georges ,dumas comp>es toge!r ! melan*oly & ! joy\s phase ( circul> insanity1 & %[s t1 :ile selfi%ness *>act]izes ! "o1 ! o!r is m>k$ by altrui/ic impulses4 ,no human be+ s /+y & useless z 0 ,m>ie 9 h] melan*oly p]iod6 ,b ! mom5t ! happy p]iod beg9s1 8sympa?y & k9dness become h] *>act]i/ic s5tim5ts4 ,%e displays a univ]sal goodwill1 n only ( int5tion1 b 9 act4444 ,%e becomes solicit\s ( ! heal? ( o!r pati5ts1 int]e/$ 9 gett+ !m out1 desir\s to procure wool to knit socks = "s ( !m4 ,nev] s9ce %e has be5 "u my obs]vation h ,i he>d h] 9 h] joy\s p]iod utt] any b *>itable op9ions407#afb7 ,& lat]1 ,dr4 ,dumas says ( all su* joy\s conditions t 8unselfi% s5tim5ts & t5d] emotions are ! only affective /ates to be f\nd 9 !m4 ,! subject's m9d is clos$ aga9/ envy1 hatr$1 & v9dictiv5ess1 & :olly trans=m$ into b5evol5ce1 indulg5ce1 & m]cy407#afc7 ,!re is ?us an organic aff9ity betwe5 joy\sness & t5d]ness1 & _! companion%ip 9 ! sa9tly life ne$ 9 no way occasion surprise4 ,along ) ! happ9ess1 ?is increase ( t5d]ness is (t5 not$ 9 n>ratives ( conv]sion4 8,i began to "w = o!rs02--8,i _h m t5d] feel+ = my family & fri5ds02--8,i spoke at once to a p]son ) :om ,i _h be5 angry02--8,i felt = e "o1 & lov$ my fri5ds bett]02--8,i felt e "o to be my fri5d02--^! are s _m expressions f ! records collect$ by ,pr(essor ,/>buck47#afd7 8,:510 says ,mrs4 ,edw>ds1 cont9u+ ! n>rative f :i* ,i made quotation a mom5t ago1 8,i arose on ! morn+ ( ! ,sabba?1 ,i felt a love to all mank9d1 :olly peculi> 9 its /r5g? & sweetness1 f> beyond all t ,i _h ev] felt be=e4 ,! p[] ( t love seem$ inexpressible4 ,i ?\ght1 if ,i 7 surr\nd$ by enemies1 :o 7 v5t+ _! malice & cruelty ^u me1 9 torm5t+ me1 x w\ld /ill be impossible t ,i %\ld *]i% any feel+s t[>ds !m b ^? ( love1 & pity1 & ard5t desires = _! happ9ess4 ,i nev] be=e felt s f> f a disposition to judge & c5sure o!rs1 z ,i did t morn+4 ,i realiz$ also1 9 an unusual & v lively mann]1 h[ great a "p ( ,*ri/ianity lies 9 ! p]=mance ( our social & relative duties to "o ano!r4 ,! same joyful s5se cont9u$ ?r\gh\t ! day--a sweet love to ,god & all mank9d40 ,:atev] be ! explanation ( ! *>ity1 x may efface all usual human b>ri]s47#afe7 ,"h1 = in/ance1 is an example ( ,*ri/ian nonresi/ance f ,ri*>d ,weav]'s autobiography4 ,weav] 0 a colli]1 a semipr(essional pugili/ 9 8 y\ng] days1 :o became a mu* belov$ evangeli/4 ,fight+1 aft] dr9k+1 seems to h be5 ! s9 to :i* he orig9ally felt 8 fle% mo/ p]v]sely incl9$4 ,aft] 8 fir/ conv]sion he _h a backslid+1 :i* consi/$ 9 p\nd+ a man :o _h insult$ a girl4 ,feel+ t1 hav+ once fall51 he might z well be hang$ = a %eep z = a lamb1 he got drunk & w5t & broke ! jaw ( ano!r man :o _h lately *all5g$ him to fight & taunt$ him ) c[>dice = refus+ z a ,*ri/ian man2--,i m5tion ^! incid5ts to %[ h[ g5u9e a *ange ( he>t is impli$ 9 ! lat] conduct :i* he describes z foll[s3-- 8,i w5t d[n ! drift & f\nd ! boy cry+ because a fell[ workman 0 try+ to take ! wagon f him by =ce4 ,i said to him3-- 8 #8,tom1 y mu/n't take t wagon4' 8,he swore at me1 & call$ me a ,me?odi/ devil4 ,i told him t ,god did n tell me to let him rob me4 ,he curs$ aga91 & said he w\ld pu% ! wagon ov] me4 8 #8,well1' ,i said1 #8let u see :e!r ! devil & !e are /rong] ?an ! ,"l & me4' 8,& ! ,"l & ,i prov+ /rong] ?an ! devil & he1 he _h to get out ( ! way1 or ! wagon w\ld h gone ov] him4 ,s ,i gave ! wagon to ! boy4 ,!n said ,tom3-- 8 #8,i've a good m9d to smack !e on ! face4' 8 #8,well1' ,i said1 #8if t w d !e any good1 ?\ can/ d x4' ,s he /ruck me on ! face4 8,i turn$ ! o!r *eek to him1 & said1 #8,/rike aga94' 8,he /ruck aga9 & aga91 till he _h /ruck me five times4 ,i turn$ my *eek = ! six? /roke2 b he turn$ away curs+4 ,i %\t$ aft] him3 #8,! ,"l =give !e1 = ,i d1 & ! ,"l save !e4' 8,?is 0 on a ,saturday2 & :5 ,i w5t home f ! coalpit my wife saw my face 0 swoll51 & ask$ :at 0 ! matt] ) x4 ,i said3 #8,i've be5 fight+1 & ,i've giv5 a man a good ?ra%+4' 8,%e bur/ out weep+1 & said1 #8,o ,ri*>d1 :at made y fight8' ,!n ,i told h] all ab\t x2 & %e ?ank$ ! ,"l ,i _h n /ruck back4 8,b ! ,"l _h /ruck1 & 8 bl[s h m effect ?an man's4 ,monday came4 ,! devil began to tempt me1 say+3 #8,! o!r m5 w laugh at !e = all[+ ,tom to treat !e z he did on ,saturday4' ,i cri$1 #8,get !e beh9d me1 ,satan2'--& w5t on my way to ! coalpit4 8,tom 0 ! fir/ man ,i saw4 ,i said #8,goodmorn+1' b got no reply4 8,he w5t d[n fir/4 ,:5 ,i got d[n1 ,i 0 surpris$ to see him sitt+ on ! wagonroad wait+ = me4 ,:5 ,i came to him he bur/ into te>s & said3 #8,ri*>d1 w y =give me = /rik+ y8' 8 #8,i h =giv5 !e1' said ,i2 #8ask ,god to =give !e4 ,! ,"l bless !e4' ,i gave him my h&1 & we w5t ea* to 8 "w407#aff7 8,love y\r enemies60 ,m>k y1 n simply ^? :o happ5 n to be y\r fri5ds1 b y\r enemies1 y\r positive & active enemies4 ,ei!r ?is is a m]e ,ori5tal hyp]bole1 a bit ( v]bal extravagance1 mean+ only t we %\ld1 z f> z we c1 abate our animosities1 or else x is s9c]e & lit]al4 ,outside ( c]ta9 cases ( intimate individual relation1 x seldom has be5 tak5 lit]ally4 ,yet x makes "o ask ! "q3 ,c !re 9 g5]al be a level ( emotion s unify+1 s oblit]ative ( diff]5ces betwe5 man & man1 t ev5 enmity may come to be an irrelevant circum/ance & fail to inhibit ! fri5dli] int]e/s ar\s$8 ,if positive wellwi%+ c\ld atta9 s supreme a degree ( excitem5t1 ^? :o 7 sway$ by x might well seem sup]human be+s4 ,_! life w\ld be morally discrete f ! life ( o!r m51 & !re is no say+1 9 ! abs5ce ( positive exp]i5ce ( an au!ntic k9d1--= !re are few active examples 9 our scriptures1 & ! ,buddhi/ic examples are leg5d>y17#afg7--:at ! effects might be3 !y might conceivably trans=m ! _w4 ,psy*ologically & 9 pr9ciple1 ! precept 8,love y\r enemies0 is n selfcontradictory4 ,x is m]ely ! extreme limit ( a k9d ( magnanimity ) :i*1 9 ! %ape ( pity+ tol]ance ( our oppressors1 we are fairly famili>4 ,yet if radically foll[$1 x w\ld involve su* a brea* ) our in/9ctive spr+s ( action z a :ole1 & ) ! pres5t _w's arrangem5ts1 t a critical po9t w\ld practically be pass$1 & we %\ld be born into ano!r k+dom ( be+4 ,religi\s emotion makes u feel t o!r k+dom to be close at h&1 )9 our rea*4 ,! inhibition ( in/9ctive repugnance is prov$ n only by ! %[+ ( love to enemies1 b by ! %[+ ( x to any "o :o is p]sonally loa?some4 ,9 ! annals ( sa9tl9ess we f9d a curi\s mixture ( motives impell+ 9 ?is direction4 ,asceticism plays its "p2 & along ) *>ity pure & simple1 we f9d humility or ! desire to disclaim di/9ction & to grovel on ! common level be=e ,god4 ,c]ta9ly all ?ree pr9ciples 7 at "w :5 ,francis ( ,assisi & ,ignatius ,loyola ex*ang$ _! g>m5ts ) ^? ( fil?y begg>s4 ,all ?ree are at "w :5 religi\s p]sons consecrate _! lives to ! c>e ( leprosy or o!r peculi>ly unpleasant diseases4 ,! nurs+ ( ! sick is a function to :i* ! religi\s seem /rongly drawn1 ev5 ap>t f ! fact t *ur* traditions set t way4 ,b 9 ! annals ( ?is sort ( *>ity we f9d fanta/ic excesses ( devotion record$ :i* are only explicable by ! fr5zy ( selfimmolation simultane\sly ar\s$4 ,francis ( ,assisi kisses 8 lep]s2 ,m>g>et ,m>y ,alacoque1 ,francis ,xavi]1 ,/4 ,john ( ,god1 & o!rs are said to h cleans$ ! sores & ulc]s ( _! pati5ts ) _! respective tongues2 & ! lives ( su* sa9ts z ,elizabe? ( ,hung>y & ,madame de ,*antal are full ( a sort ( revel+ 9 hospital purul5ce1 disagreeable to read (1 & :i* makes u admire & %udd] at ! same "t4 ,s mu* = ! human love ar\s$ by ! fai?/ate4 ,let me next speak ( ! ,equanimity1 ,resignation1 ,=titude1 & ,pati5ce :i* x br+s4 8,a p>adise ( inw>d tranquillity0 seems to be fai?'s usual result2 & x is easy1 ev5 )\t be+ religi\s "o's self1 to und]/& ?is4 ,a mom5t back1 9 treat+ ( ! s5se ( ,god's pres5ce1 ,i spoke ( ! unacc\ntable feel+ ( safety :i* "o may !n h4 ,&1 inde$1 h[ c x possibly fail to /eady ! n]ves1 to cool ! fev]1 & appease ! fret1 if "o be s5sibly consci\s t1 no matt] :at "o's difficulties = ! mom5t may appe> to be1 "o's life z a :ole is 9 ! keep+ ( a p[] :om "o c absolutely tru/8 ,9 deeply religi\s m5 ! ab&onm5t ( self to ?is p[] is passionate4 ,:oev] n only says1 b feels1 8,god's w be done10 is mail$ aga9/ e weakness2 & ! :ole hi/oric array ( m>tyrs1 mission>ies1 & religi\s re=m]s is !re to prove ! tranquilm9d$ness1 "u naturally agitat+ or di/ress+ circum/ances1 :i* selfsurr5d] br+s4 ,! temp] ( ! tranquilm9d$ness diff]s1 ( c\rse1 accord+ z ! p]son is ( a con/itutionally sombre or ( a con/itutionally *e]ful ca/ ( m9d4 ,9 ! sombre x p>takes m ( resignation & submission2 9 ! *e]ful x is a joy\s cons5t4 ,z an example ( ! =m] temp]1 ,i quote "p ( a lett] f ,pr(essor ,lagneau1 a v5]at$ tea*] ( philosophy :o lately di$1 a great invalid1 at ,p>is3-- 8,my life1 = ! success ( :i* y s5d good wi%es1 w be :at x is able to be4 ,i ask no?+ f x1 ,i expect no?+ f x4 ,= long ye>s n[ ,i exi/1 ?9k1 & act1 & am wor? :at ,i am wor?1 only ?r\gh ! despair :i* is my sole /r5g? & my sole f\ndation4 ,may x pres]ve = me1 ev5 9 ^! la/ trials to :i* ,i am com+1 ! c\rage to d )\t ! desire ( deliv]ance4 ,i ask no?+ m f ! ,s\rce :5ce all /r5g? come?1 & if t is grant$1 y\r wi%es w h be5 accompli%$407#afh7 ,!re is some?+ pa!tic & fatali/ic ab\t ?is1 b ! p[] ( su* a tone z a protection aga9/ outw>d %ocks is manife/4 ,pascal is ano!r ,fr5*man ( pessimi/ic natural temp]am5t4 ,he expresses /ill m amply ! temp] ( selfsurr5d]+ submissiv5ess3-- 8,deliv] me1 ,"l10 he writes 9 8 pray]s1 8f ! sadness at my prop] suff]+ :i* selflove might give1 b put into me a sadness l y\r own4 ,let my suff]+s appease y\r *ol]4 ,make !m an occasion = my conv]sion & salvation4 ,i ask y nei!r = heal? nor = sickness1 = life nor = dea?2 b t y may dispose ( my heal? & my sickness1 my life & my dea?1 = y\r glory1 = my salvation1 & = ! use ( ! ,*ur* & ( y\r sa9ts1 ( :om ,i w\ld by y\r grace be "o4 ,y alone "k :at is exp$i5t = me2 y are ! sov]eign ma/]2 d ) me accord+ to y\r w4 ,give to me1 or take away f me1 only con=m my w to y\rs4 ,i "k b "o ?+1 ,"l1 t x is good to foll[ y1 & bad to (f5d y4 ,ap>t f t1 ,i "k n :at is good or bad 9 any?+4 ,i "k n :i* is mo/ pr(itable to me1 heal? or sickness1 weal? or pov]ty1 nor any?+ else 9 ! _w4 ,t disc]nm5t is beyond ! p[] ( m5 or angels1 & is hidd5 among ! secrets ( y\r ,provid5ce1 :i* ,i adore1 b d n seek to fa?om407#afi7 ,:5 we rea* m optimi/ic temp]am5ts1 ! resignation gr[s less passive4 ,examples are s[n s broadca/ ?r\gh\t hi/ory t ,i might well pass on )\t citation4 ,z x is1 ,i snat* at ! fir/ t occurs to my m9d4 ,madame ,guyon1 a frail creature physically1 0 yet ( a happy native disposition4 ,%e w5t ?r\gh _m p]ils ) admirable s]5ity ( s\l4 ,aft] be+ s5t to prison = h]esy1-- 8,"s ( my fri5ds10 %e writes1 8wept bitt]ly at ! he>+ ( x1 b su* 0 my /ate ( acquiesc5ce & resignation t x fail$ to draw any te>s f me4444 ,!re appe>$ to be 9 me !n1 z ,i f9d x to be 9 me n[1 su* an entire loss ( :at reg>ds myself1 t any ( my own int]e/s gave me little pa9 or pleasure2 ev] want+ to w or wi% = myself only ! v ?+ :i* ,god does40 ,9 ano!r place %e writes3 8,we all ( u came ne> p]i%+ 9 a riv] :i* we f\nd x necess>y to pass4 ,! c>riage sank 9 ! quicks&4 ,o!rs :o 7 ) u ?rew !mselves out 9 excessive fright4 ,b ,i f\nd my ?\ghts s mu* tak5 up ) ,god t ,i _h no di/9ct s5se ( dang]4 ,x is true t ! ?\ght ( be+ dr[n$ pass$ across my m9d1 b x co/ no o!r s5sation or reflection 9 me ?an ?is--t ,i felt q cont5t$ & will+ x 7 s1 if x 7 my heav5ly ,fa!r's *oice40 ,sail+ f ,nice to ,g5oa1 a /orm keeps h] elev5 days at sea4 8,z ! irritat$ waves da%$ r\nd u10 %e writes1 8,i c\ld n help exp]i5c+ a c]ta9 degree ( satisfaction 9 my m9d4 ,i pleas$ myself ) ?9k+ t ^? mut9\s bill[s1 "u ! comm& ( ,him :o does all ?+s rightly1 might probably furni% me ) a wat]y grave4 ,p]haps ,i c>ri$ ! po9t too f>1 9 ! pleasure :i* ,i took 9 ?us see+ myself beat5 & b&i$ by ! swell+ wat]s4 ,^? :o 7 ) me took notice ( my intrepidity407#agj7 ,! contempt ( dang] :i* religi\s en?usiasm produces may be ev5 m buoyant /ill4 ,i take an example f t *>m+ rec5t autobiography1 8,) ,*ri/ at ,sea10 by ,frank ,bull54 ,a c\ple ( days aft] he w5t ?r\gh ! conv]sion on %ipbo>d ( :i* he !re gives an acc\nt1-- 8,x 0 bl[+ /iffly10 he writes1 8& we 7 c>ry+ a press ( canvas to get nor? out ( ! bad wea!r4 ,%ortly aft] f\r bells we haul$ d[n ! fly+jib1 & ,i sprang out a/ride ! boom to furl x4 ,i 0 sitt+ a/ride ! boom :5 sudd5ly x gave way ) me4 ,! sail slipp$ ?r\gh my f+]s1 & ,i fell backw>ds1 hang+ head d[nw>ds ov] ! see?+ tumult ( %9+ foam "u ! %ip's b[s1 susp5d$ by "o foot4 ,b ,i felt only high exultation 9 my c]ta9ty ( et]nal life4 ,al?\gh dea? 0 divid$ f me by a hair's bread?1 & ,i 0 acutely consci\s ( ! fact1 x gave me no s5sation b joy4 ,i suppose ,i c\ld h hung !re no long] ?an five seconds1 b 9 t "t ,i liv$ a :ole age ( delight4 ,b my body ass]t$ itself1 & ) a desp]ate gymna/ic ef=t ,i rega9$ ! boom4 ,h[ ,i furl$ ! sail ,i don't "k1 b ,i sang at ! utmo/ pit* ( my voice praises to ,god t w5t peal+ out ov] ! d>k wa/e ( wat]s407#aga7 ,! annals ( m>tyrdom are ( c\rse ! signal field ( triumph = religi\s imp]turbability4 ,let me cite z an example ! /atem5t ( a humble suff]]1 p]secut$ z a ,hugu5ot "u ,l\is ,,xiv43-- 8,!y %ut all ! doors10 ,blan*e ,gamond writes1 8& ,i saw six wom51 ea* ) a bun* ( will[ rods z ?ick z ! h& c\ld hold1 & a y>d long4 ,he gave me ! ord]1 #8,undress y\rself1' :i* ,i did4 ,he said1 #8,y are leav+ on y\r %ift2 y mu/ take x (f4' ,!y _h s little pati5ce t !y took x (f !mselves1 & ,i 0 nak$ f ! wai/ up4 ,!y br\ght a cord ) :i* !y ti$ me to a beam 9 ! kit*54 ,!y drew ! cord tight ) all _! /r5g? & ask$ me1 #8,does x hurt y8' & !n !y dis*>g$ _! fury ^u me1 exclaim+ z !y /ruck me1 #8,pray n[ to y\r ,god4' ,x 0 ! ,r\lette woman :o held ?is language4 ,b at ?is mom5t ,i receiv$ ! greate/ consolation t ,i c ev] receive 9 my life1 s9ce ,i _h ! honor ( be+ :ipp$ = ! "n ( ,*ri/1 & 9 addition ( be+ cr[n$ ) 8 m]cy & 8 consolations4 ,:y c ,i n write d[n ! inconceivable influ5ces1 consolations1 & peace :i* ,i felt int]iorly8 ,to und]/& !m "o mu/ h pass$ by ! same trial2 !y 7 s great t ,i 0 ravi%$1 = !re :]e afflictions ab\nd grace is giv5 sup]abundantly4 ,9 va9 ! wom5 cri$1 #8,we mu/ d\ble our bl[s2 %e does n feel !m1 = %e nei!r speaks nor cries4' ,& h[ %\ld ,i h cri$1 s9ce ,i 0 swoon+ ) happ9ess )9807#agb7 ,! transition f t5s5ess1 selfresponsibility1 & worry1 to equanimity1 receptivity1 & peace1 is ! mo/ wond]ful ( all ^? %ift+s ( inn] equilibrium1 ^? *anges ( ! p]sonal c5tre ( en]gy1 :i* ,i h analyz$ s (t52 & ! *ief wond] ( x is t x s (t5 comes ab\t1 n by do+1 b by simply relax+ & ?r[+ ! burd5 d[n4 ,?is ab&onm5t ( selfresponsibility seems to be ! fundam5tal act 9 specifically religi\s1 z di/+ui%$ f moral practice4 ,x ant$ates !ologies & is indep5d5t ( philosophies4 ,m9dcure1 !osophy1 /oicism1 ord9>y neurological hygi5e1 insi/ on x z emphatically z ,*ri/ianity does1 & x is capable ( ent]+ into close/ m>riage ) e speculative cre$47#agc7 ,*ri/ians :o h x /rongly live 9 :at is call$ 8recollection10 & are nev] anxi\s ab\t ! future1 nor worry ov] ! outcome ( ! day4 ,( ,sa9t ,ca?>9e ( ,g5oa x is said t 8%e took cognizance ( ?+s1 only z !y 7 pres5t$ to h] 9 succession1 mom5t by mom5t40 ,to h] holy s\l1 8! div9e mom5t 0 ! pres5t mom5t1444 & :5 ! pres5t mom5t 0 e/imat$ 9 itself & 9 its relations1 & :5 ! duty t 0 involv$ 9 x 0 accompli%$1 x 0 p]mitt$ to pass away z if x _h nev] be51 & to give way to ! facts & duties ( ! mom5t :i* came aft]407#agd7 ,h9duism1 m9dcure1 & !osophy all lay great emphasis ^u ?is conc5tration ( ! consci\sness ^u ! mom5t at h&4 ,! next religi\s symptom :i* ,i w note is :at ,i h call$ ,purity ( ,life4 ,! sa9tly p]son becomes exce$+ly s5sitive to inn] inconsi/5cy or discord1 & mixture & confusion gr[ intol]able4 ,all ! m9d's objects & occupations mu/ be ord]$ ) ref]5ce to ! special spiritual excitem5t :i* is n[ its keynote4 ,:atev] is unspiritual ta9ts ! pure wat] ( ! s\l & is repugnant4 ,mix$ ) ?is exaltation ( ! moral s5sibilities !re is also an ardor ( sacrifice1 = ! belov$ deity's sake1 ( ev]y?+ unwor?y ( him4 ,sometimes ! spiritual ardor is s sov]eign t purity is a*iev$ at a /roke--we h se5 examples4 ,usually x is a m gradual conque/4 ,billy ,bray's acc\nt ( 8 ab&onm5t ( tobacco is a good example ( ! latt] =m ( a*ievem5t4 8,i _h be5 a smok] z well z a drunk>d1 & ,i us$ to love my tobacco z mu* z ,i lov$ my meat1 & ,i w\ld r g d[n into ! m9e )\t my d9n] ?an )\t my pipe4 ,9 ! days ( old1 ! ,"l spoke by ! m\?s ( 8 s]vants1 ! prophets2 n[ he speaks to u by ! _s ( 8 ,son4 ,i _h n only ! feel+ "p ( religion1 b ,i c\ld he> ! small1 /ill voice )9 speak+ to me4 ,:5 ,i took ! pipe to smoke1 x w\ld be appli$ )91 #8,x is an idol1 a lu/2 wor%ip ! ,"l ) clean lips4' ,s1 ,i felt x 0 n "r to smoke4 ,! ,"l also s5t a woman to conv9ce me4 ,i 0 "o day 9 a h\se1 & ,i took out my pipe to light x at ! fire1 & ,m>y ,hawke--= t 0 ! woman's "n--said1 #8,d y n feel x is wrong to smoke8' ,i said t ,i felt some?+ inside tell+ me t x 0 an idol1 a lu/1 & %e said t 0 ! ,"l4 ,!n ,i said1 #8,n[1 ,i mu/ give x up1 = ! ,"l is tell+ me ( x inside1 & ! woman outside1 s ! tobacco mu/ g1 love x z ,i may4' ,!re & !n ,i took ! tobacco out ( my pocket1 & ?rew x into ! fire1 & put ! pipe "u my foot1 #8a%es to a%es1 du/ to du/4' ,& ,i h n smok$ s9ce4 ,i f\nd x h>d to break (f old habits1 b ,i cri$ to ! ,"l = help1 & he gave me /r5g?1 = he has said1 #8,call ^u me 9 ! day ( tr\ble1 & ,i w deliv] !e4' ,! day aft] ,i gave up smok+ ,i _h ! too?a*e s bad t ,i did n "k :at to d4 ,i ?\ght ?is 0 ow+ to giv+ up ! pipe1 b ,i said ,i w\ld nev] smoke aga91 if ,i lo/ e too? 9 my head4 ,i said1 #8,"l1 ?\ ha/ told u ,my yoke is easy & my burd5 is light1' & :5 ,i said t1 all ! pa9 left me4 ,sometimes ! ?\ght ( ! pipe w\ld come back to me v /rong2 b ! ,"l /r5g!n$ me aga9/ ! habit1 &1 bless 8 "n1 ,i h n smok$ s9ce40 ,bray's biograph] writes t aft] he _h giv5 up smok+1 he ?\ght t he w\ld *ew a little1 b he conqu]$ ?is dirty habit1 too4 8,on "o occasion10 ,bray said1 8:5 at a pray] meet+ at ,hicks ,mill1 ,i he>d ! ,"l say to me1 #8,wor%ip me ) clean lips4' ,s1 :5 we got up f our knees1 ,i took ! quid out ( my m\? & #8:ipp$ 'en' ?rew x "u ! =m4 ,b1 :5 we got on our knees aga91 ,i put ano!r quid into my m\?4 ,!n ! ,"l said to me aga91 #8,wor%ip me ) clean lips4' ,s ,i took ! quid out ( my m\?1 & :ipp$ 'en "u ! =m aga91 & said1 #8,yes1 ,"l1 ,i w4' ,f t "t ,i gave up *ew+ z well z smok+1 & h be5 a free man40 ,! ascetic =ms :i* ! impulse = v]acity & purity ( life may take are (t5 pa!tic en\gh4 ,! e>ly ,quak]s1 = example1 _h h>d battles to wage aga9/ ! worldl9ess & ins9c]ity ( ! ecclesia/ical ,*ri/ianity ( _! "t4 ,yet ! battle t co/ !m mo/ w\nds 0 probably t :i* !y f\ght 9 def5se ( _! own "r to social v]acity & s9c]ity 9 _! !e+ & ?\+1 9 n d(f+ ! hat or giv+ titles ( respect4 ,x 0 laid on ,george ,fox t ^! conv5tional cu/oms 7 a lie & a %am1 & ! :ole body ( 8 foll[]s !reupon r5\nc$ !m1 z a sacrifice to tru?1 & s t _! acts & ! _s !y pr(ess$ might be m 9 accord4 8,:5 ! ,"l s5t me into ! _w10 says ,fox 9 8 ,j\rnal1 8he =bade me to put (f my hat to any1 high or l[3 & ,i 0 requir$ to #8!e' & #8?\' all m5 & wom51 )\t any respect to ri* or poor1 great or small4 ,& z ,i travel$ up & d[n1 ,i 0 n to bid p ,goodmorn+1 or ,goodev5+1 nei!r might ,i b[ or scrape ) my leg to any "o4 ,?is made ! sects & pr(essions rage4 ,oh6 ! rage t 0 9 ! prie/s1 magi/rates1 pr(essors1 & p ( all sorts3 & especially 9 prie/s & pr(essors3 = ?\gh #8?\' to a s+le p]son 0 accord+ to _! accid5ce & gramm> rules1 & accord+ to ! ,bible1 yet !y c\ld n be> to he> x3 & because ,i c\ld n put (f my hat to !m1 x set !m all into a rage4444 ,oh6 ! scorn1 heat1 & fury t arose6 ,oh6 ! bl[s1 pun*+s1 beat+s1 & imprisonm5ts t we und]w5t = n putt+ (f our hats to m56 ,"s _h _! hats viol5tly pluck$ (f & ?r[n away1 s t !y q lo/ !m4 ,! bad language & evil usage we receiv$ on ?is acc\nt is h>d to be express$1 besides ! dang] we 7 sometimes 9 ( los+ our lives = ?is matt]1 & t by ! great pr(essors ( ,*ri/ianity1 :o !reby discov]$ !y 7 n true believ]s4 ,& ?\gh x 0 b a small ?+ 9 ! eye ( man1 yet a wond]ful confusion x br\ght among all pr(essors & prie/s3 b1 bless$ be ! ,"l1 _m came to see ! vanity ( t cu/om ( putt+ (f hats to m51 & felt ! weight ( ,tru?'s te/imony aga9/ x40 ,9 ! autobiography ( ,?omas ,elwood1 an e>ly ,quak]1 :o at "o "t 0 secret>y to ,john ,milton1 we f9d an exquisitely qua9t & c&id acc\nt ( ! trials he und]w5t bo? at home & abroad1 9 foll[+ ,fox's canons ( s9c]ity4 ,! anecdotes are too l5g?y = citation2 b ,elwood sets d[n 8 mann] ( feel+ ab\t ^! ?+s 9 a %ort] passage1 :i* ,i w quote z a *>act]i/ic utt]ance ( spiritual s5sibility3-- 8,by ?is div9e light1 !n10 says ,elwood1 8,i saw t ?\gh ,i _h n ! evil ( ! common uncleanl9ess1 debau*]y1 pr(an5ess1 & pollutions ( ! _w to put away1 because ,i _h1 ?r\gh ! great goodness ( ,god & a civil education1 be5 pres]v$ out ( ^? gross] evils1 yet ,i _h _m o!r evils to put away & to cease f2 "s ( :i* 7 n by ! _w1 :i* lies 9 wick$ness 7#a ,john v4 #ai71 acc\nt$ evils1 b by ! light ( ,*ri/ 7 made manife/ to me to be evils1 & z su* condemn$ 9 me4 8,z p>ticul>ly ^? fruits & effects ( pride t discov] !mselves 9 ! vanity & sup]fluity ( app>el2 :i* ,i took too mu* delight 94 ,?is evil ( my do+s ,i 0 requir$ to put away & cease f2 & judgm5t lay ^u me till ,i did s4 8,i took (f f my app>el ^? unnecess>y trimm+s ( lace1 ribbons1 & useless buttons1 :i* _h no real s]vice1 b 7 set on only = t :i* 0 by mi/ake call$ ornam5t2 & ,i ceas$ to we> r+s4 8,aga91 ! giv+ ( flatt]+ titles to m5 betwe5 :om & me !re 0 n any relation to :i* su* titles c\ld be pret5d$ to belong4 ,?is 0 an evil ,i _h be5 mu* addict$ to1 & 0 acc\nt$ a ready arti/ 92 !re=e ?is evil also 0 ,i requir$ to put away & cease f4 ,s t !nce=w>d ,i dur/ n say1 ,sir1 ,ma/]1 ,my ,"l1 ,madam 7or ,my ,dame72 or say ,y\r ,s]vant to any "o to :om ,i did n /& 9 ! real relation ( a s]vant1 :i* ,i _h nev] done to any4 8,aga91 respect ( p]sons1 9 uncov]+ ! head & b[+ ! knee or body 9 salutation1 0 a practice ,i _h be5 mu* 9 ! use (2 & ?is1 be+ "o ( ! va9 cu/oms ( ! _w1 introduc$ by ! _s ( ! _w1 in/ead ( ! true honor :i* ?is is a false repres5tation (1 & us$ 9 deceit z a tok5 ( respect by p]sons "o to ano!r1 :o be> no real respect "o to ano!r2 & besides ?is1 be+ a type & a prop] emblem ( t div9e honor :i* all ought to pay to ,almighty ,god1 & :i* all ( all sorts1 :o take ^u !m ! ,*ri/ian "n1 appe> 9 :5 !y (f] _! pray]s to him1 & !re=e %\ld n be giv5 to m52--,i f\nd ?is to be "o ( ^? evils :i* ,i _h be5 too long do+2 !re=e ,i 0 n[ requir$ to put x away & cease f x4 8,aga91 ! corrupt & uns\nd =m ( speak+ 9 ! plural numb] to a s+le p]son1 y to "o1 in/ead ( ?\1 contr>y to ! pure1 pla91 & s+le language ( tru?1 ?\ to "o1 & y to m ?an "o1 :i* _h always be5 us$ by ,god to m51 & m5 to ,god1 z well z "o to ano!r1 f ! olde/ record ( "t till corrupt m51 = corrupt ends1 9 lat] & corrupt times1 to flatt]1 fawn1 & "w ^u ! corrupt nature 9 m51 br\ght 9 t false & s5seless way ( speak+ y to "o1 :i* has s9ce corrupt$ ! mod]n languages1 & ha? greatly debas$ ! spirits & deprav$ ! mann]s ( m52--?is evil cu/om ,i _h be5 z =w>d 9 z o!rs1 & ?is ,i 0 n[ call$ out ( & requir$ to cease f4 8,^! & _m m evil cu/oms :i* _h sprung up 9 ! night ( d>kness & g5]al apo/asy f ! tru? & true religion 7 n[1 by ! in%9+ ( ?is pure ray ( div9e light 9 my consci5ce1 gradually discov]$ to me to be :at ,i ought to cease f1 %un1 & /& a witness aga9/407#age7 ,^! e>ly ,quak]s 7 ,puritans inde$4 ,! slighte/ inconsi/5cy betwe5 pr(ession & de$ j>r$ "s ( !m to active prote/4 ,john ,woolman writes 9 8 di>y3-- 8,9 ^! j\rneys ,i h be5 :]e mu* clo? ha? be5 dy$2 & h at sundry times walk$ ov] gr\nd :]e mu* ( _! dye/uffs has dra9$ away4 ,?is ha? produc$ a long+ 9 my m9d t p might come into cleanness ( _s1 cleanness ( p]son1 & cleanness ab\t _! h\ses & g>m5ts4 ,dyes be+ inv5t$ p>tly to please ! eye1 & p>tly to hide dirt1 ,i h felt 9 ?is weak /ate1 :5 travel+ 9 dirt9ess1 & affect$ ) un:olesome sc5ts1 a /rong desire t ! nature ( dye+ clo? to hide dirt may be m fully consid]$4 8,wa%+ our g>m5ts to keep !m sweet is cleanly1 b x is ! opposite to real cleanl9ess to hide dirt 9 !m4 ,?r\gh giv+ way to hid+ dirt 9 our g>m5ts a _s :i* w\ld conceal t :i* is disagreeable is /r5g!n$4 ,real cleanl9ess become? a holy p2 b hid+ t :i* is n clean by color+ our g>m5ts seems contr>y to ! sweetness ( s9c]ity4 ,?r\gh "s sorts ( dyes clo? is r5d]$ less useful4 ,& if ! value ( dye/uffs1 & exp5se ( dye+1 & ! damage done to clo?1 7 all add$ toge!r1 & t co/ appli$ to keep+ all sweet & clean1 h[ mu* m w\ld real cleanl9ess prevail4 8,?9k+ (t5 on ^! ?+s1 ! use ( hats & g>m5ts dy$ ) a dye hurtful to !m1 & we>+ m clo!s 9 summ] ?an are useful1 grew m uneasy to me2 believ+ !m to be cu/oms :i* h n _! f\ndation 9 pure wisdom4 ,! appreh5sion ( be+ s+ul> f my belov$ fri5ds 0 a /rait ^u me2 & ?us ,i cont9u$ 9 ! use ( "s ?+s1 contr>y to my judgm5t1 ab\t n9e mon?s4 ,!n ,i ?\ght ( gett+ a hat ! natural color ( ! fur1 b ! appreh5sion ( be+ look$ ^u z "o affect+ s+ul>ity felt uneasy to me4 ,on ?is acc\nt ,i 0 "u close ex]cise ( m9d 9 ! "t ( our g5]al spr+ meet+ 9 #agfb1 greatly desir+ to be rightly direct$2 :51 be+ deeply b[$ 9 _s be=e ! ,"l1 ,i 0 made will+ to submit to :at ,i appreh5d$ 0 requir$ ( me2 & :5 ,i return$ home1 got a hat ( ! natural color ( ! fur4 8,9 att5d+ meet+s1 ?is s+ul>ity 0 a trial to me1 & m especially at ?is "t1 z :ite hats 7 us$ by "s :o 7 fond ( foll[+ ! *angeable modes ( dress1 & z "s fri5ds1 :o knew n f :at motives ,i wore x1 grew %y ( me1 ,i felt my way = a "t %ut up 9 ! ex]cise ( ! m9i/ry4 ,"s fri5ds 7 appreh5sive t my we>+ su* a hat savor$ ( an affect$ s+ul>ity3 ^? :o spoke ) me 9 a fri5dly way1 ,i g5]ally in=m$ 9 a few words1 t ,i believ$ my we>+ x 0 n 9 my own w40 ,:5 ! crav+ = moral consi/5cy & purity is develop$ to ?is degree1 ! subject may well f9d ! out] _w too full ( %ocks to dwell 91 & c unify 8 life & keep 8 s\l unspott$ only by )draw+ f x4 ,t law :i* impels ! arti/ to a*ieve h>mony 9 8 composition by simply dropp+ out :atev] j>s1 or sugge/s a discord1 rules also 9 ! spiritual life4 ,to omit1 says ,/ev5son1 is ! "o art 9 lit]ature3 8,if ,i knew h[ to omit1 ,i %\ld ask no o!r k40 ,& life1 :5 full ( disord] & slackness & vague sup]fluity1 c no m h :at we call "* ?an lit]ature c h x "u simil> conditions4 ,s mona/]ies & communities ( sympa!tic devotees op5 _! doors1 & 9 _! *angeless ord]1 *>act]iz$ by omissions q z mu* z con/itut$ ( actions1 ! holym9d$ p]son f9ds t inn] smoo?ness & cleanness :i* x is torture to him to feel violat$ at e turn by ! discordancy & brutality ( secul> exi/5ce4 ,t ! scrupulosity ( purity may be c>ri$ to a fanta/ic extreme mu/ be admitt$4 ,9 ?is x resembles ,asceticism1 to :i* fur!r symptom ( sa9tl9ess we _h bett] turn next4 ,! adjective 8ascetic0 is appli$ to conduct orig9at+ on div]se psy*ological levels1 :i* ,i might z well beg9 by di/+ui%+ f "o ano!r4 #a4 ,asceticism may be a m]e expression ( organic h>dihood1 disgu/$ ) too mu* ease4 #b4 ,temp]ance 9 meat & dr9k1 simplicity ( app>el1 *a/ity1 & nonpamp]+ ( ! body g5]ally1 may be fruits ( ! love ( purity1 %ock$ by :atev] savors ( ! s5sual4 #c4 ,!y may also be fruits ( love1 t is1 !y may appeal to ! subject 9 ! light ( sacrifices :i* he is happy 9 mak+ to ! ,deity :om he ackn[l$ges4 #d4 ,aga91 ascetic mortifications & torm5ts may be due to pessimi/ic feel+s ab\t ! self1 comb9$ ) !ological beliefs conc]n+ expiation4 ,! devotee may feel t he is buy+ himself free1 or escap+ worse suff]+s h]eaft]1 by do+ p5ance n[4 #e4 ,9 psy*opa?ic p]sons1 mortifications may be ent]$ on irrationally1 by a sort ( obsession or fix$ idea :i* comes z a *all5ge & mu/ be work$ (f1 because only ?us does ! subject get 8 int]ior consci\sness feel+ "r aga94 #f4 ,f9ally1 ascetic ex]cises may 9 r>] in/ances be prompt$ by g5u9e p]v]sions ( ! bodily s5sibility1 9 consequ5ce ( :i* normally pa9giv+ /imuli are actually felt z pleasures4 ,i w try to give an in/ance "u ea* ( ^! heads 9 turn2 b x is n easy to get !m pure1 = 9 cases pron\nc$ en\gh to be imm$iately class$ z ascetic1 sev]al ( ! assign$ motives usually "w toge!r4 ,moreov]1 be=e cit+ any examples at all1 ,i mu/ invite y to "s g5]al psy*ological consid]ations :i* apply to all ( !m alike4 ,a /range moral trans=mation has )9 ! pa/ c5tury swept ov] our ,we/]n _w4 ,we no long] ?9k t we are call$ on to face physical pa9 ) equanimity4 ,x is n expect$ ( a man t he %\ld ei!r endure x or inflict mu* ( x1 & to li/5 to ! recital ( cases ( x makes our fle% creep morally z well z physically4 ,! way 9 :i* our ance/ors look$ ^u pa9 z an et]nal +r$i5t ( ! _w's ord]1 & bo? caus$ & suff]$ x z a matt](c\rse portion ( _! day's "w1 fills u ) amazem5t4 ,we wond] t any human be+s c\ld h be5 s call\s4 ,! result ( ?is hi/oric alt]ation is t ev5 9 ! ,"m ,*ur* h]self1 :]e ascetic discipl9e has su* a fix$ traditional pre/ige z a factor ( m]it1 x has l>gely come into desuetude1 if n discr$it4 ,a believ] :o flagellates or 8mac]ates0 himself today ar\ses m wond] & fe> ?an emulation4 ,_m ,ca?olic writ]s :o admit t ! times h *ang$ 9 ?is respect d s resign$ly2 & ev5 add t p]haps x is z well n to wa/e feel+s 9 regrett+ ! matt]1 = to return to ! h]oic corporeal discipl9e ( anci5t days might be an extravagance4 ,:]e to seek ! easy & ! pleasant seems in/9ctive--& in/9ctive x appe>s to be 9 man2 any delib]ate t5d5cy to pursue ! h>d & pa9ful z su* & = _! own sakes might well /rike "o z purely abnormal4 ,nev]!less1 9 mod]ate degrees x is natural & ev5 usual to human nature to c\rt ! ardu\s4 ,x is only ! extreme manife/ations ( ! t5d5cy t c be reg>d$ z a p>adox4 ,! psy*ological reasons = ?is lie ne> ! surface4 ,:5 we drop ab/ractions & take :at we call our w 9 ! act1 we see t x is a v complex function4 ,x involves bo? /imulations & inhibitions2 x foll[s g5]aliz$ habits2 x is escort$ by reflective criticisms2 & x leaves a good or a bad ta/e ( itself beh9d1 accord+ to ! mann] ( ! p]=mance4 ,! result is t1 q ap>t f ! imm$iate pleasure :i* any s5sible exp]i5ce may give u1 our own g5]al moral attitude 9 procur+ or und]go+ ! exp]i5ce br+s ) x a second>y satisfaction or di/a/e4 ,"s m5 & wom51 inde$1 !re are :o c live on smiles & ! ^w 8yes0 =ev]4 ,b = o!rs 7inde$ = mo/71 ?is is too tepid & relax$ a moral climate4 ,passive happ9ess is slack & insipid1 & soon gr[s mawki% & intol]able4 ,"s au/]ity & w9try negativity1 "s r\ghness1 dang]1 /r+5cy1 & ef=t1 "s 8no6 no60 mu/ be mix$ 91 to produce ! s5se ( an exi/5ce ) "* & texture & p[]4 ,! range ( individual diff]5ces 9 ?is respect is enorm\s2 b :atev] ! mixture ( yeses & noes may be1 ! p]son is infallibly aw>e :5 he has /ruck x 9 ! "r proportion = him4 ,?is1 he feels1 is my prop] vocation1 ?is is ! optimum1 ! law1 ! life = me to live4 ,"h ,i f9d ! degree ( equilibrium1 safety1 calm1 & leisure :i* ,i ne$1 or "h ,i f9d ! *all5ge1 passion1 fight1 & h>d%ip )\t :i* my s\l's en]gy expires4 ,e individual s\l1 9 %ort1 l e individual ma*9e or organism1 has its own be/ conditions ( effici5cy4 ,a giv5 ma*9e w run be/ "u a c]ta9 /eampressure1 a c]ta9 amp]age2 an organism "u a c]ta9 diet1 weight1 or ex]cise4 ,y seem to d be/1 ,i he>d a doctor say to a pati5t1 at ab\t #adj millimet]s ( art]ial t5sion4 ,& x is j s ) our sundry s\ls3 "s are happie/ 9 calm wea!r2 "s ne$ ! s5se ( t5sion1 ( /rong volition1 to make !m feel alive & well4 ,= ^! latt] s\ls1 :atev] is ga9$ f day to day mu/ be paid = by sacrifice & inhibition1 or else x comes too *eap & has no ze/4 ,n[ :5 *>act]s ( ?is latt] sort become religi\s1 !y are apt to turn ! edge ( _! ne$ ( ef=t & negativity aga9/ _! natural self2 & ! ascetic life gets evolv$ z a consequ5ce4 ,:5 ,pr(essor ,tyndall 9 "o ( 8 lectures tells u t ,?omas ,c>lyle put him into 8 ba?tub e morn+ ( a freez+ ,b]l9 w9t]1 he proclaim$ "o ( ! l[e/ grades ( asceticism4 ,ev5 )\t ,c>lyle1 mo/ ( u f9d x necess>y to our s\l's heal? to />t ! day ) a r cool imm]sion4 ,a little f>!r along ! scale we get su* /atem5ts z ?is1 f "o ( my correspond5ts1 an agno/ic3-- 8,(t5 at night 9 my w>m b$ ,i w\ld feel a%am$ to dep5d s on ! w>m?1 & :5ev] ! ?\ght w\ld come ov] me ,i w\ld h to get up1 no matt] :at "t ( night x 01 & /& = a m9ute 9 ! cold1 j s z to prove my manhood40 ,su* cases z ^! belong simply to our head #a4 ,9 ! next case we probably h a mixture ( heads #b & #c--! asceticism becomes f> m sy/ematic & pron\nc$4 ,! writ] is a ,prote/ant1 ^: s5se ( moral en]gy c\ld d\btless be gratifi$ on no l[] t]ms1 & ,i take 8 case f ,/>buck's manuscript collection4 8,i practic$ fa/+ & mortification ( ! fle%4 ,i secretly made burlap %irts1 & put ! burrs next ! sk91 & wore pebbles 9 my %oes4 ,i w\ld sp5d nights flat on my back on ! floor )\t any cov]+40 ,! ,roman ,*ur* has organiz$ & codifi$ all ?is sort ( ?+1 & giv5 x a m>ketvalue 9 ! %ape ( 8m]it40 ,b we see ! cultivation ( h>d%ip cropp+ out "u e sky & 9 e fai?1 z a spontane\s ne$ ( "*4 ,?us we read ( ,*ann+1 :5 fir/ settl$ z a ,unit>ian m9i/]1 t-- 8,he 0 n[ m simple ?an ev]1 & seem$ to h become incapable ( any =m ( selfindulg5ce4 ,he took ! smalle/ room 9 ! h\se = 8 /udy1 ?\gh he might easily h comm&$ "o m light1 airy1 & 9 e way m suitable2 & *ose = 8 sleep+ *amb] an attic :i* he %>$ ) a y\ng] bro!r4 ,! furniture ( ! latt] might h answ]$ = ! cell ( an an*orite1 & consi/$ ( a h>d mattress on a cotb$/ead1 pla9 wood5 *airs & table1 ) matt+ on ! floor4 ,x 0 )\t fire1 & to cold he 0 ?r\gh\t life extremely s5sitive2 b he nev] compla9$ or appe>$ 9 any way to be consci\s ( inconv5i5ce4 #8,i recollect1' says 8 bro!r1 #8aft] "o mo/ sev]e night1 t 9 ! morn+ he sportively ?us allud$ to 8 suff]+3 8,if my b$ 7 my c\ntry1 ,i %\ld be some:at l ,bonap>te3 ,i h no control except ov] ! "p :i* ,i occupy2 ! in/ant ,i move1 fro/ takes possession40 ' ,9 sickness only w\ld he *ange = ! "t 8 ap>tm5t & accept a few com=ts4 ,! dress too t he habitually adopt$ 0 ( mo/ inf]ior quality2 & g>m5ts 7 con/antly worn :i* ! _w w\ld call mean1 ?\gh an almo/ fem99e neatness pres]v$ him f ! lea/ appe>ance ( neglect407#agf7 ,*ann+'s asceticism1 su* z x 01 0 evid5tly a comp\nd ( h>dihood & love ( purity4 ,! democracy :i* is an (f%oot ( ! en?usiasm ( humanity1 & ( :i* ,i w speak lat] "u ! head ( ! cult ( pov]ty1 d\btless bore also a %>e4 ,c]ta9ly !re 0 no pessimi/ic elem5t 9 8 case4 ,9 ! next case we h a /rongly pessimi/ic elem5t1 s t x belongs "u head #d4 ,john ,c5nick 0 ,me?odism's fir/ lay prea*]4 ,9 #agce he 0 convict$ ( s91 :ile walk+ 9 ,*eapside1-- 8,& at once left (f songs++1 c>dplay+1 & att5d+ !atres4 ,sometimes he wi%$ to g to a popi% mona/]y1 to sp5d 8 life 9 dev\t retirem5t4 ,at o!r times he long$ to live 9 a cave1 sleep+ on fall5 leaves1 & fe$+ on =e/ fruits4 ,he fa/$ long & (t51 & pray$ n9e times a day4444 ,fancy+ dry bread too great an indulg5ce = s great a s9n] z himself1 he began to fe$ on potatoes1 acorns1 crabs1 & grass2 & (t5 wi%$ t he c\ld live on roots & h]bs4 ,at l5g?1 9 #agcg1 he f\nd peace ) ,god1 & w5t on 8 way rejoic+407#agg7 ,9 ?is poor man we h morbid melan*oly & fe>1 & ! sacrifices made are to purge out s91 & to buy safety4 ,! hopelessness ( ,*ri/ian !ology 9 respect ( ! fle% & ! natural man g5]ally has1 9 sy/ematiz+ fe>1 made ( x "o trem5d\s inc5tive to self mortification4 ,x w\ld be q unfair1 h[ev]1 9 spite ( ! fact t ?is inc5tive has (t5 be5 work$ 9 a m]c5>y way = hortatory purposes1 to call x a m]c5>y inc5tive4 ,! impulse to expiate & d p5ance is1 9 its fir/ int5tion1 f> too imm$iate & spontane\s an expression ( selfdespair & anxiety to be obnoxi\s to any su* reproa*4 ,9 ! =m ( lov+ sacrifice1 ( sp5d+ all we h to %[ our devotion1 ascetic discipl9e ( ! sev]e/ sort may be ! fruit ( highly optimi/ic religi\s feel+4 ,m4 ,vianney1 ! cur ( ,ars1 0 a ,fr5* c\ntry prie/1 ^: hol9ess 0 exempl>y4 ,we read 9 8 life ! foll[+ acc\nt ( 8 inn] ne$ ( sacrifice3-- 8 #8,on ?is pa?1' ,m4 ,vianney said1 #8x is only ! fir/ /ep t co/s4 ,!re is 9 mortification a balm & a savor )\t :i* "o _c live :5 once "o has made _! acqua9tance4 ,!re is b "o way 9 :i* to give "o's self to ,god1--t is1 to give "o's self entirely1 & to keep no?+ = "o's self4 ,! little t "o keeps is only good to d\ble "o & make "o suff]4' ,accord+ly he impos$ x on himself t he %\ld nev] smell a fl[]1 nev] dr9k :5 p>*$ ) ?ir/1 nev] drive away a fly1 nev] %[ disgu/ be=e a repugnant object1 nev] compla9 ( any?+ t _h to d ) 8 p]sonal com=t1 nev] sit d[n1 nev] lean ^u 8 elb[s :5 he 0 kneel+4 ,! ,cur ( ,ars 0 v s5sitive to cold1 b he w\ld nev] take means to protect himself aga9/ x4 ,dur+ a v sev]e w9t]1 "o ( 8 mission>ies contriv$ a false floor to 8 confessional & plac$ a metal case ( hot wat] b5ea?4 ,! trick succe$$1 & ! ,sa9t 0 deceiv$3 #8,god is v good1' he said ) emotion4 #8,?is ye>1 ?r\gh all ! cold1 my feet h always be5 w>m4' 07#agh7 ,9 ?is case ! spontane\s impulse to make sacrifices = ! pure love ( ,god 0 probably ! upp]mo/ consci\s motive4 ,we may class x1 !n1 "u our head #c4 ,"s au?ors ?9k t ! impulse to sacrifice is ! ma9 religi\s ph5om5on4 ,x is a prom95t1 a univ]sal ph5om5on c]ta9ly1 & lies deep] ?an any special cre$4 ,"h1 = in/ance1 is :at seems to be a spontane\s example ( x1 simply express+ :at seem$ "r at ! "t betwe5 ! individual & 8 ,mak]4 ,cotton ,ma!r1 ! ,new ,engl& ,puritan div9e1 is g5]ally reput$ a r grotesque p$ant2 yet :at is m t\*+ly simple ?an 8 relation ( :at happ5$ :5 8 wife came to die8 8,:5 ,i saw to :at a po9t ( resignation ,i 0 n[ call$ ( ! ,"l10 he says1 8,i resolv$1 ) 8 help1 !re9 to glorify him4 ,s1 two h\rs be=e my lovely consort expir$1 ,i kneel$ by h] b$side1 & ,i took into my two h&s a de> h&1 ! de>e/ 9 ! _w4 ,) h] ?us 9 my h&s1 ,i solemnly & s9c]ely gave h] up unto ! ,"l3 & 9 tok5 ( my real ,resignation1 ,i g5tly put h] out ( my h&s1 & laid away a mo/ lovely h&1 resolv+ t ,i w\ld nev] t\* x m4 ,?is 0 ! h>de/1 & p]haps ! brave/ action t ev] ,i did4 ,%e 444 told me t %e sign$ & seal$ my act ( resignation4 ,& ?\gh be=e t %e call$ = me cont9ually1 %e aft] ?is nev] ask$ = me any m407#agi7 ,fa!r ,vianney's asceticism tak5 9 its totality 0 simply ! result ( a p]man5t flood ( high spiritual en?usiasm1 long+ to make pro( ( itself4 ,! ,roman ,*ur* has1 9 its incomp>able fa%ion1 collect$ all ! motives t[>ds asceticism toge!r1 & s codifi$ !m t any "o wi%+ to pursue ,*ri/ian p]fection may f9d a practical sy/em mapp$ out = him 9 any "o ( a numb] ( readymade manuals47#ahj7 ,! dom9ant ,*ur* notion ( p]fection is ( c\rse ! negative "o ( avoidance ( s94 ,s9 proce$s f concupisc5ce1 & concupisc5ce f our c>nal passions & temptations1 *ief ( :i* are pride1 s5suality 9 all its =ms1 & ! loves ( worldly excitem5t & possession4 ,all ^! s\rces ( s9 mu/ be resi/$2 & discipl9e & au/]ities are a mo/ efficaci\s mode ( meet+ !m4 ,h5ce !re are always 9 ^! books *apt]s on selfmortification4 ,b :5ev] a proc$ure is codifi$1 ! m delicate _s ( x evaporates1 & if we wi% ! undilut$ ascetic _s1--! passion ( selfcontempt wreak+ itself on ! poor fle%1 ! div9e irrationality ( devotion mak+ a sacrificial gift ( all x has 7its s5sibilities1 namely7 to ! object ( its adoration1--we mu/ g to autobiographies1 or o!r individual docum5ts4 ,sa9t ,john ( ! ,cross1 a ,spani% my/ic :o fl\ri%$--or r :o exi/$1 = !re 0 little t sugge/$ fl\ri%+ ab\t him--9 ! sixte5? c5tury1 w supply a passage suitable = our purpose4 8,fir/ ( all1 c>efully excite 9 y\rself an habitual affectionate w 9 all ?+s to imitate ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,if any?+ agreeable (f]s itself to y\r s5ses1 yet does n at ! same "t t5d purely to ! honor & glory ( ,god1 r5\nce x & sep>ate y\rself f x = ! love ( ,*ri/1 :o all 8 life long _h no o!r ta/e or wi% ?an to d ! w ( 8 ,fa!r :om he call$ 8 meat & n\ri%m5t4 ,= example1 y take satisfaction 9 he>+ ( ?+s 9 :i* ! glory ( ,god be>s no "p4 ,d5y y\rself ?is satisfaction1 mortify y\r wi% to li/54 ,y take pleasure 9 see+ objects :i* d n raise y\r m9d to ,god3 refuse y\rself ?is pleasure1 & turn away y\r eyes4 ,! same ) conv]sations & all o!r ?+s4 ,act simil>ly1 s f> z y are able1 ) all ! op]ations ( ! s5ses1 /riv+ to make y\rself free f _! yokes4 8,! radical rem$y lies 9 ! mortification ( ! f\r great natural passions1 joy1 hope1 fe>1 & grief4 ,y mu/ seek to deprive ^! ( e satisfaction & leave !m z x 7 9 d>kness & ! void4 ,let y\r s\l !re=e turn always3 8,n to :at is mo/ easy1 b to :at is h>de/2 8,n to :at ta/es be/1 b to :at is mo/ di/a/eful2 8,n to :at mo/ pleases1 b to :at disgu/s2 8,n to matt] ( consolation1 b to matt] = desolation r2 8,n to re/1 b to labor2 8,n to desire ! m1 b ! less2 8,n to aspire to :at is highe/ & mo/ preci\s1 b to :at is l[e/ & mo/ contemptible2 8,n to w any?+1 b to w no?+2 8,n to seek ! be/ 9 ev]y?+1 b to seek ! wor/1 s t y may ent] = ! love ( ,*ri/ into a complete de/itution1 a p]fect pov]ty ( _s1 & an absolute r5unciation ( ev]y?+ 9 ?is _w4 8,embrace ^! practices ) all ! en]gy ( y\r s\l & y w f9d 9 a %ort "t great delights & unspeakable consolations4 8,despise y\rself1 & wi% t o!rs %\ld despise y4 8,speak to y\r own disadvantage1 & desire o!rs to d ! same2 8,conceive a l[ op9ion ( y\rself1 & f9d x good :5 o!rs hold ! same2 8,to enjoy ! ta/e ( all ?+s1 h no ta/e = any?+4 8,to "k all ?+s1 le>n to "k no?+4 8,to possess all ?+s1 resolve to possess no?+4 8,to be all ?+s1 be will+ to be no?+4 8,to get to :]e y h no ta/e = any?+1 g ?r\gh :atev] exp]i5ces y h no ta/e =4 8,to le>n to "k no?+1 g :i!r y are ignorant4 8,to rea* :at y possess n1 g :i!rsoev] y own no?+4 8,to be :at y are n1 exp]i5ce :at y are n40 ,^! lat] v]ses play ) t v]tigo ( selfcontradiction :i* is s de> to my/icism4 ,^? t come next are completely my/ical1 = 9 !m ,sa9t ,john passes f ,god to ! m metaphysical notion ( ! ,all4 8,:5 y /op at "o ?+1 y cease to op5 y\rself to ! ,all4 8,= to come to ! ,all y mu/ give up ! ,all4 8,& if y %\ld atta9 to own+ ! ,all1 y mu/ own x1 desir+ ,no?+4 8,9 ?is spoliation1 ! s\l f9ds its tranquillity & re/4 ,pr(\ndly e/abli%$ 9 ! c5tre ( its own no?+ness1 x c be assail$ by naught t comes f bel[2 & s9ce x no long] desires any?+1 :at comes f above _c depress x2 = its desires alone are ! causes ( its woes407#aha7 ,& n[1 z a m concrete example ( heads #d & #e1 9 fact ( all our heads toge!r1 & ( ! irrational extreme to :i* a psy*opa?ic individual may g 9 ! l9e ( bodily au/]ity1 ,i w quote ! s9c]e ,suso's acc\nt ( 8 own selftortures4 ,suso1 y w rememb]1 0 "o ( ! f\rte5? c5tury ,g]man my/ics2 8 autobiography1 writt5 9 ! ?ird p]son1 is a classic religi\s docum5t4 8,he 0 9 8 y\? ( a temp]am5t full ( fire & life2 & :5 ?is began to make itself felt1 x 0 v griev\s to him2 & he s\ght by _m devices h[ he might br+ 8 body into subjection4 ,he wore = a long "t a hair %irt & an iron *a91 until ! blood ran f him1 s t he 0 oblig$ to leave !m (f4 ,he secretly caus$ an und]g>m5t to be made = him2 & 9 ! und]g>m5t he _h /rips ( lea!r fix$1 into :i* a hundr$ & fifty brass nails1 po9t$ & fil$ %>p1 7 driv51 & ! po9ts ( ! nails 7 always turn$ t[>ds ! fle%4 ,he _h ?is g>m5t made v tight1 & s arrang$ z to g r\nd him & fa/5 9 front1 9 ord] t x might fit ! clos] to 8 body1 & ! po9t$ nails might be driv5 into 8 fle%2 & x 0 high en\gh to rea* upw>ds to 8 navel4 ,9 ?is he us$ to sleep at night4 ,n[ 9 summ]1 :5 x 0 hot1 & he 0 v tir$ & ill f 8 j\rney+s1 or :5 he held ! (fice ( lectur]1 he w\ld sometimes1 z he lay ?us 9 bonds1 & oppress$ ) toil1 & torm5t$ also by noxi\s insects1 cry al\d & give way to fretfulness1 & twi/ r\nd & r\nd 9 agony1 z a worm does :5 run ?r\gh ) a po9t$ ne$le4 ,x (t5 seem$ to him z if he 7 ly+ ^u an anthill1 f ! torture caus$ by ! insects2 = if he wi%$ to sleep1 or :5 he _h fall5 asleep1 !y vi$ ) "o ano!r47#ahb7 ,sometimes he cri$ to ,almighty ,god 9 ! fullness ( 8 he>t3 ,alas6 ,g5tle ,god1 :at a dy+ is ?is6 ,:5 a man is kill$ by murd]]s or /rong bea/s ( prey x is soon ov]2 b ,i lie dy+ "h "u ! cruel insects1 & yet _c die4 ,! nights 9 w9t] 7 nev] s long1 nor 0 ! summ] s hot1 z to make him leave (f ?is ex]cise4 ,on ! contr>y1 he devis$ some?+ f>!r--two lea!rn loops into :i* he put 8 h&s1 & fa/5$ "o on ea* side 8 ?roat1 & made ! fa/5+s s secure t ev5 if 8 cell _h be5 on fire ab\t him1 he c\ld n h help$ himself4 ,?is he cont9u$ until 8 h&s & arms _h become almo/ tremul\s ) ! /ra91 & !n he devis$ some?+ else3 two lea!r gloves2 & he caus$ a brazi] to fit !m all ov] ) %>ppo9t$ brass tacks1 & he us$ to put !m on at night1 9 ord] t if he %\ld try :ile asleep to ?r[ (f ! hair und]g>m5t1 or relieve himself f ! gnaw+s ( ! vile insects1 ! tacks might !n /ick into 8 body4 ,& s x came to pass4 ,if ev] he s\ght to help himself ) 8 h&s 9 8 sleep1 he drove ! %>p tacks into 8 brea/1 & tore himself1 s t 8 fle% fe/]$4 ,:5 aft] _m weeks ! w\nds _h heal$1 he tore himself aga9 & made fre% w\nds4 8,he cont9u$ ?is torm5t+ ex]cise = ab\t sixte5 ye>s4 ,at ! end ( ?is "t1 :5 8 blood 0 n[ *ill$1 & ! fire ( 8 temp]am5t de/roy$1 !re appe>$ to him 9 a vision on ,:itsunday1 a mess5g] f heav51 :o told him t ,god requir$ ?is ( him no long]4 ,:]eupon he discont9u$ x1 & ?rew all ^! ?+s away into a runn+ /ream40 ,suso !n tells h[1 to emulate ! sorr[s ( 8 crucifi$ ,"l1 he made himself a cross ) ?irty protrud+ iron ne$les & nails4 ,?is he bore on 8 b>e back betwe5 8 %\ld]s day & night4 8,! fir/ "t t he /ret*$ out ?is cross ^u 8 back 8 t5d] frame 0 /ruck ) t]ror at x1 & blunt$ ! %>p nails slightly aga9/ a /one4 ,b soon1 rep5t+ ( ?is womanly c[>dice1 he po9t$ !m all aga9 ) a file1 & plac$ once m ! cross ^u him4 ,x made 8 back1 :]e ! bones are1 bloody & se>$4 ,:5ev] he sat d[n or /ood up1 x 0 z if a h$gehogsk9 7 on him4 ,if any "o t\*$ him unaw>es1 or pu%$ aga9/ 8 clo!s1 x tore him40 ,suso next tells ( 8 p5it5ces by means ( /rik+ ?is cross & =c+ ! nails deep] into ! fle%1 & likewise ( 8 selfsc\rg+s1--a dreadful /ory1--& !n goes on z foll[s3 8,at ?is same p]iod ! ,s]vitor procur$ an old ca/away door1 & he us$ to lie ^u x at night )\t any b$clo!s to make him com=table1 except t he took (f 8 %oes & wrapp$ a ?ick cloak r\nd him4 ,he ?us secur$ = himself a mo/ mis]able b$2 = h>d pea/alks lay 9 humps "u 8 head1 ! cross ) ! %>p nails /uck into 8 back1 8 arms 7 lock$ fa/ 9 bonds1 ! horsehair und]g>m5t 0 r\nd 8 lo9s1 & ! cloak too 0 heavy & ! door h>d4 ,?us he lay 9 wret*$ness1 afraid to /ir1 j l a log1 & he w\ld s5d up _m a sigh to ,god4 8,9 w9t] he suff]$ v mu* f ! fro/4 ,if he /ret*$ out 8 feet !y lay b>e on ! floor & froze1 if he ga!r$ !m up ! blood became all on fire 9 8 legs1 & ?is 0 great pa94 ,8 feet 7 full ( sores1 8 legs dropsical1 8 knees bloody & se>$1 8 lo9s cov]$ ) sc>s f ! horsehair1 8 body wa/$1 8 m\? p>*$ ) int5se ?ir/1 & 8 h&s tremul\s f weakness4 ,amid ^! torm5ts he sp5t 8 nights & days2 & he endur$ !m all out ( ! greatness ( ! love :i* he bore 9 8 he>t to ! ,div9e & ,et]nal ,wisdom1 our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 ^: agoniz+ suff]+s he s\ght to imitate4 ,aft] a "t he gave up ?is p5it5tial ex]cise ( ! door1 & in/ead ( x he took up 8 abode 9 a v small cell1 & us$ ! b5*1 :i* 0 s n>r[ & %ort t he c\ld n /ret* himself ^u x1 z 8 b$4 ,9 ?is hole1 or ^u ! door1 he lay at night 9 8 usual bonds1 = ab\t eight ye>s4 ,x 0 also 8 cu/om1 dur+ ! space ( tw5tyfive ye>s1 provid$ he 0 /ay+ 9 ! conv5t1 nev] to g aft] compl9e 9 w9t] into any w>m room1 or to ! conv5t /ove to w>m himself1 no matt] h[ cold x might be1 unless he 0 oblig$ to d s = o!r reasons4 ,?r\gh\t all ^! ye>s he nev] took a ba?1 ei!r a wat] or a sweat+ ba?2 & ?is he did 9 ord] to mortify 8 com=tseek+ body4 ,he practic$ dur+ a long "t su* rigid pov]ty t he w\ld nei!r receive nor t\* a p5ny1 ei!r ) leave or )\t x4 ,= a consid]able "t he /rove to atta9 su* a high degree ( purity t he w\ld nei!r scrat* nor t\* any "p ( 8 body1 save only 8 h&s & feet407#ahc7 ,i sp>e y ! recital ( poor ,suso's selfinflict$ tortures f ?ir/4 ,x is pleasant to "k t aft] 8 =tie? ye>1 ,god %[$ him by a s]ies ( visions t he _h suffici5tly brok5 d[n ! natural man1 & t he might leave ^! ex]cises (f4 ,8 case is di/9ctly pa?ological1 b he does n seem to h _h ! alleviation1 :i* "s ascetics h enjoy$1 ( an alt]ation ( s5sibility capable ( actually turn+ torm5t into a p]v]se k9d ( pleasure4 ,( ! f\nd] ( ! ,sacr$ ,he>t ord]1 = example1 we read t 8,h] love ( pa9 & suff]+ 0 insatiable4444 ,%e said t %e c\ld *e]fully live till ! day ( judgm5t1 provid$ %e might always h matt] = suff]+ = ,god2 b t to live a s+le day )\t suff]+ w\ld be intol]able4 ,%e said aga9 t %e 0 dev\r$ ) two unassuageable fev]s1 "o = ! holy communion1 ! o!r = suff]+1 humiliation1 & annihilation4 #8,no?+ b pa91' %e cont9ually said 9 h] lett]s1 #8makes my life supportable4' 07#ahd7 ,s mu* = ! ph5om5a to :i* ! ascetic impulse w 9 c]ta9 p]sons give rise4 ,9 ! ecclesia/ically consecrat$ "* ?ree m9or bran*es ( selfmortification h be5 recogniz$ z indisp5sable pa?ways to p]fection4 ,i ref] to ! *a/ity1 ob$i5ce1 & pov]ty :i* ! monk v[s to obs]ve2 & ^u ! heads ( ob$i5ce & pov]ty ,i w make a few rem>ks4 ,fir/1 ( ,ob$i5ce4 ,! secul> life ( our tw5tie? c5tury op5s ) ?is virtue held 9 no high e/eem4 ,! duty ( ! individual to det]m9e 8 own conduct & pr(it or suff] by ! consequ5ces seems1 on ! contr>y1 to be "o ( our be/ root$ contempor>y ,prote/ant social ideals4 ,s mu* s t x is difficult ev5 imag9atively to compreh5d h[ m5 possess$ ( an inn] life ( _! own c\ld ev] h come to ?9k ! subjection ( its w to t ( o!r f9ite creatures recomm5dable4 ,i confess t to myself x seems some?+ ( a my/]y4 ,yet x evid5tly corresponds to a pr(\nd int]ior ne$ ( _m p]sons1 & we mu/ d our be/ to und]/& x4 ,on ! l[e/ possible plane1 "o sees h[ ! exp$i5cy ( ob$i5ce 9 a firm ecclesia/ical organization mu/ h l$ to its be+ view$ z m]itori\s4 ,next1 exp]i5ce %[s t !re are times 9 e "o's life :5 "o c be bett] c\nsel$ by o!rs ?an by "o's self4 ,inability to decide is "o ( ! commone/ symptoms ( fatigu$ n]ves2 fri5ds :o see our tr\bles m broadly1 (t5 see !m m wisely ?an we d2 s x is frequ5tly an act ( excell5t virtue to consult & obey a doctor1 a p>tn]1 or a wife4 ,b1 leav+ ^! l[] prud5tial regions1 we f9d1 9 ! nature ( "s ( ! spiritual excitem5ts :i* we h be5 /udy+1 good reasons = idealiz+ ob$i5ce4 ,ob$i5ce may spr+ f ! g5]al religi\s ph5om5on ( inn] s(t5+ & selfsurr5d] & ?r[+ "o's self on high] p[]s4 ,s sav+ are ^! attitudes felt to be t 9 !mselves1 ap>t f utility1 !y become ideally consecrat$2 & 9 obey+ a man ^: fallibility we see ?r\gh ?or\ghly1 we1 nev]!less1 may feel mu* z we d :5 we resign our w to t ( inf9ite wisdom4 ,add selfdespair & ! passion ( selfcrucifixion to ?is1 & ob$i5ce becomes an ascetic sacrifice1 agreeable q irrespective ( :atev] prud5tial uses x might h4 ,x is z a sacrifice1 a mode ( 8mortification10 t ob$i5ce is prim>ily conceiv$ by ,ca?olic writ]s1 a 8sacrifice :i* man (f]s to ,god1 & ( :i* he is himself bo? ! prie/ & ! victim4 ,by pov]ty he immolates 8 ext]ior possessions2 by *a/ity he immolates 8 body2 by ob$i5ce he completes ! sacrifice1 & gives to ,god all t he yet holds z 8 own1 8 two mo/ preci\s goods1 8 intellect & 8 w4 ,! sacrifice is !n complete & unres]v$1 a g5u9e holocau/1 = ! entire victim is n[ consum$ = ! honor ( ,god407#ahe7 ,accord+ly1 9 ,ca?olic discipl9e1 we obey our sup]ior n z m]e man1 b z ! repres5tative ( ,*ri/4 ,obey+ ,god 9 him by our int5tion1 ob$i5ce is easy4 ,b :5 ! textbook !ologians m>%al collectively all _! reasons = recomm5d+ x1 ! mixture s\nds to our e>s r odd4 8,"o ( ! great consolations ( ! mona/ic life10 says a ,jesuit au?ority1 8is ! assurance we h t 9 obey+ we c commit no fault4 ,! ,sup]ior may commit a fault 9 comm&+ y to d ?is ?+ or t1 b y are c]ta9 t y commit no fault s long z y obey1 because ,god w only ask y if y h duly p]=m$ :at ord]s y receiv$1 & if y c furni% a cle> acc\nt 9 t respect1 y are absolv$ entirely4 ,:e!r ! ?+s y did 7 opportune1 or :e!r !re 7 n some?+ bett] t might h be5 done1 ^! are que/ions n ask$ ( y1 b r ( y\r ,sup]ior4 ,! mom5t :at y did 0 done ob$i5tly1 ,god wipes x out ( y\r acc\nt1 & *>ges x to ! ,sup]ior4 ,s t ,sa9t ,j]ome well exclaim$1 9 celebrat+ ! advantages ( ob$i5ce1 #8,oh1 sov]eign lib]ty6 ,oh1 holy & bless$ security by :i* "o becomes almo/ impeccable6' 8,sa9t ,john ,clima*us is ( ! same s5tim5t :5 he calls ob$i5ce an excuse be=e ,god4 ,9 fact1 :5 ,god asks :y y h done ?is or t1 & y reply1 x is because ,i 0 s ord]$ by my ,sup]iors1 ,god w ask = no o!r excuse4 ,z a pass5g] 9 a good vessel ) a good pilot ne$ give himself no f>!r conc]n1 b may g to sleep 9 peace1 because ! pilot has *>ge ov] all1 & #8wat*es = him'2 s a religi\s p]son :o lives "u ! yoke ( ob$i5ce goes to heav5 z if :ile sleep+1 t is1 :ile lean+ entirely on ! conduct ( 8 ,sup]iors1 :o are ! pilots ( 8 vessel1 & keep wat* = him cont9ually4 ,x is no small ?+1 ( a tru?1 to be able to cross ! /ormy sea ( life on ! %\ld]s & 9 ! arms ( ano!r1 yet t is j ! grace :i* ,god accords to ^? :o live "u ! yoke ( ob$i5ce4 ,_! ,sup]ior be>s all _! burd5s4444 ,a c]ta9 grave doctor said t he w\ld r sp5d 8 life 9 pick+ up /raws by ob$i5ce1 ?an by 8 own responsible *oice busy himself ) ! l(tie/ works ( *>ity1 because "o is c]ta9 ( foll[+ ! w ( ,god 9 :atev] "o may d f ob$i5ce1 b nev] c]ta9 9 ! same degree ( any?+ :i* we may d ( our own prop] movem5t407#ahf7 ,"o %\ld read ! lett]s 9 :i* ,ignatius ,loyola recomm5ds ob$i5ce z ! backbone ( 8 ord]1 if "o w\ld ga9 insight into ! full _s ( its cult47#ahg7 ,!y are too long to quote2 b ,ignatius's belief is s vividly express$ 9 a c\ple ( say+s report$ by companions t1 ?\gh !y h be5 s (t5 cit$1 ,i w ask y\r p]mission to copy !m once m3-- 8,i ought10 an e>ly biograph] reports him z say+1 8on ent]+ religion1 & !reaft]1 to place myself entirely 9 ! h&s ( ,god1 & ( him :o takes ,8 place by ,8 au?ority4 ,i ought to desire t my ,sup]ior %\ld oblige me to give up my own judgm5t1 & conqu] my own m9d4 ,i ought to set up no diff]5ce betwe5 "o ,sup]ior & ano!r1 444 b recognize !m all z equal be=e ,god1 ^: place !y fill4 ,= if ,i di/+ui% p]sons1 ,i weak5 ! _s ( ob$i5ce4 ,9 ! h&s ( my ,sup]ior1 ,i mu/ be a s(t wax1 a ?+1 f :i* he is to require :atev] pleases him1 be x to write or receive lett]s1 to speak or n to speak to su* a p]son1 or ! l2 & ,i mu/ put all my f]vor 9 execut+ zeal\sly & exactly :at ,i am ord]$4 ,i mu/ consid] myself z a corpse :i* has nei!r intellig5ce nor w2 be l a mass ( matt] :i* )\t resi/ance lets itself be plac$ :]ev] x may please any "o2 l a /ick 9 ! h& ( an old man1 :o uses x accord+ to 8 ne$s & places x :]e x suits him4 ,s mu/ ,i be "u ! h&s ( ! ,ord]1 to s]ve x 9 ! way x judges mo/ useful4 8,i mu/ nev] ask ( ! ,sup]ior to be s5t to a p>ticul> place1 to be employ$ 9 a p>ticul> duty4444 ,i mu/ consid] no?+ z belong+ to me p]sonally1 & z reg>ds ! ?+s ,i use1 be l a /atue :i* lets itself be /ripp$ & nev] opposes resi/ance407#ahh7 ,! o!r say+ is report$ by ,rodriguez 9 ! *apt] f :i* ,i a mom5t ago made quotations4 ,:5 speak+ ( ! ,pope's au?ority1 ,rodriguez writes3-- 8,sa9t ,ignatius said1 :5 g5]al ( 8 company1 t if ! ,holy ,fa!r 7 to ord] him to set sail 9 ! fir/ b>k :i* he might f9d 9 ! port ( ,o/ia1 ne> ,rome1 & to ab&on himself to ! sea1 )\t a ma/1 )\t sails1 )\t o>s or rudd] or any ( ! ?+s t are ne$ful = navigation or subsi/5ce1 he w\ld obey n only ) alacrity1 b )\t anxiety or repugnance1 & ev5 ) a great int]nal satisfaction407#ahi7 ,) a solit>y concrete example ( ! extravagance to :i* ! virtue we are consid]+ has be5 c>ri$1 ,i w pass to ! topic next 9 ord]4 8,si/] ,m>ie ,claire ( ,port ,royal _h be5 greatly imbu$ ) ! hol9ess & excell5ce ( ,m4 de ,langres4 ,?is prelate1 soon aft] he came to ,port ,royal1 said to h] "o day1 see+ h] s t5d]ly atta*$ to ,"m ,anglique1 t x w\ld p]haps be bett] n to speak to h] aga94 ,m>ie ,claire1 gre$y ( ob$i5ce1 took ?is inconsid]ate ^w = an oracle ( ,god1 & f t day =w>d rema9$ = sev]al ye>s )\t once speak+ to h] si/]407#aij7 ,our next topic %all be ,pov]ty1 felt at all times & "u all cre$s z "o adornm5t ( a sa9tly life4 ,s9ce ! in/9ct ( own]%ip is fundam5tal 9 man's nature1 ?is is "o m example ( ! ascetic p>adox4 ,yet x appe>s no p>adox at all1 b p]fectly reasonable1 ! mom5t "o recollects h[ easily high] excitem5ts hold l[] cupidities 9 *eck4 ,hav+ j quot$ ! ,jesuit ,rodriguez on ! subject ( ob$i5ce1 ,i w1 to give imm$iately a concrete turn to our discussion ( pov]ty1 also read y a page f 8 *apt] on ?is latt] virtue4 ,y mu/ rememb] t he is writ+ in/ructions = monks ( 8 own ord]1 & bases !m all on ! text1 8,bless$ are ! poor 9 _s40 8,if any "o ( y10 he says1 8w "k :e!r or n he is really poor 9 _s1 let him consid] :e!r he loves ! ord9>y consequ5ces & effects ( pov]ty1 :i* are hung]1 ?ir/1 cold1 fatigue1 & ! d5udation ( all conv5i5ces4 ,see if y are glad to we> a wornout habit full ( pat*es4 ,see if y are glad :5 some?+ is lack+ to y\r meal1 :5 y are pass$ by 9 s]v+ x1 :5 :at y receive is di/a/eful to y1 :5 y\r cell is out ( repair4 ,if y are n glad ( ^! ?+s1 if in/ead ( lov+ !m y avoid !m1 !n !re is pro( t y h n atta9$ ! p]fection ( pov]ty ( _s40 ,rodriguez !n goes on to describe ! practice ( pov]ty 9 m detail4 8,! fir/ po9t is t :i* ,sa9t ,ignatius proposes 9 8 con/itutions1 :5 he says1 #8,let no "o use any?+ z if x 7 8 private possession4' #8,a religi\s p]son1' he says1 #8ought 9 respect to all ! ?+s t he uses1 to be l a /atue :i* "o may drape ) clo?+1 b :i* feels no grief & makes no resi/ance :5 "o /rips x aga94 ,x is 9 ?is way t y %\ld feel t[>ds y\r clo!s1 y\r books1 y\r cell1 & ev]y?+ else t y make use (2 if ord]$ to quit !m1 or to ex*ange !m = o!rs1 h no m sorr[ ?an if y 7 a /atue be+ uncov]$4 ,9 ?is way y w avoid us+ !m z if !y 7 y\r private possession4 ,b if1 :5 y give up y\r cell1 or yield possession ( ?is or t object or ex*ange x = ano!r1 y feel repugnance & are n l a /atue1 t %[s t y view ^! ?+s z if !y 7 y\r private prop]ty4' 8,& ?is is :y our holy f\nd] wi%$ ! sup]iors to te/ _! monks some:at z ,god te/$ ,abraham1 & to put _! pov]ty & _! ob$i5ce to trial1 t by ?is means !y may become acqua9t$ ) ! degree ( _! virtue1 & ga9 a *ance to make ev] f>!r progress 9 p]fection1 444 mak+ ! "o move out ( 8 room :5 he f9ds x com=table & is atta*$ to x2 tak+ away f ano!r a book ( :i* he is fond2 or oblig+ a ?ird to ex*ange 8 g>m5t = a worse "o4 ,o!rwise we %\ld end by acquir+ a species ( prop]ty 9 all ^! sev]al objects1 & little by little ! wall ( pov]ty t surr\nds u & con/itutes our pr9cipal def5se w\ld be ?r[n d[n4 ,! anci5t fa!rs ( ! des]t us$ (t5 ?us to treat _! companions4444 ,sa9t ,dosi!us1 be+ sicknurse1 desir$ a c]ta9 knife1 & ask$ ,sa9t ,doro!us = x1 n = 8 private use1 b = employm5t 9 ! infirm>y ( :i* he _h *>ge4 ,:]eupon ,sa9t ,doro!us answ]$ him3 #8,ha6 ,dosi!us1 s t knife pleases y s mu*6 ,w y be ! slave ( a knife or ! slave ( ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,d y n blu% ) %ame at wi%+ t a knife %\ld be y\r ma/]8 ,i w n let y t\* x4' ,:i* reproa* & refusal _h su* an effect ^u ! holy disciple t s9ce t "t he nev] t\*$ ! knife aga940 444 8,!re=e1 9 our rooms10 ,fa!r ,rodriguez cont9ues1 8!re mu/ be no o!r furniture ?an a b$1 a table1 a b5*1 & a c&le/ick1 ?+s purely necess>y1 & no?+ m4 ,x is n all[$ among u t our cells %\ld be ornam5t$ ) pictures or aught else1 nei!r arm*airs1 c>pets1 curta9s1 nor any sort ( cab9et or bureau ( any elegance4 ,nei!r is x all[$ u to keep any?+ to eat1 ei!r = ourselves or = ^? :o may come to visit u4 ,we mu/ ask p]mission to g to ! refectory ev5 = a glass ( wat]2 & f9ally we may n keep a book 9 :i* we c write a l9e1 or :i* we may take away ) u4 ,"o _c d5y t ?us we are 9 great pov]ty4 ,b ?is pov]ty is at ! same "t a great repose & a great p]fection4 ,= x w\ld be inevitable1 9 case a religi\s p]son 7 all[$ to own sup]flu\s possessions1 t ^! ?+s w\ld greatly occupy 8 m9d1 be x to acquire !m1 to pres]ve !m1 or to increase !m2 s t 9 n p]mitt+ u at all to own !m1 all ^! inconv5i5ces are rem$i$4 ,among ! v>i\s good reasons :y ! company =bids secul> p]sons to ent] our cells1 ! pr9cipal "o is t ?us we may ! easi] be kept 9 pov]ty4 ,aft] all1 we are all m51 & if we 7 to receive p ( ! _w into our rooms1 we %\ld n h ! /r5g? to rema9 )9 ! b\nds prescrib$1 b %\ld at lea/ wi% to adorn !m ) "s books to give ! visitors a bett] op9ion ( our s*ol>%ip407#aia7 ,s9ce ,h9du fakirs1 ,buddhi/ monks1 & ,mohamm$an d]vi%es unite ) ,jesuits & ,franciscans 9 idealiz+ pov]ty z ! l(tie/ individual /ate1 x is wor? :ile to exam9e into ! spiritual gr\nds = su* a seem+ly unnatural op9ion4 ,& fir/1 ( ^? :i* lie close/ to common human nature4 ,! opposition betwe5 ! m5 :o h & ! m5 :o are is immemorial4 ,?\gh ! g5tleman1 9 ! oldfa%ion$ s5se ( ! man :o is well born1 has usually 9 po9t ( fact be5 pr$ace\s & revel$ 9 l&s & goods1 yet he has nev] id5tifi$ 8 ess5ce ) ^! possessions1 b r ) ! p]sonal sup]iorities1 ! c\rage1 g5]osity1 & pride suppos$ to be 8 bir?right4 ,to c]ta9 huck/]+ k9ds ( consid]ation he ?ank$ ,god he 0 =ev] inaccessible1 & if 9 life's vicissitudes he %\ld become de/itute ?r\gh _! lack1 he 0 glad to ?9k t ) 8 %e] valor he 0 all ! fre] to "w out 8 salvation4 8,w] nur selb/ 0 htte10 says ,less+'s ,tempelh]r1 9 ,na?an ! ,wise1 8me9 ,gott1 me9 ,gott1 i* habe ni*ts60 ,?is ideal ( ! wellborn man )\t possessions 0 embodi$ 9 knighterrantry & templ>dom2 &1 hide\sly corrupt$ z x has always be51 x /ill dom9ates s5tim5tally1 if n practically1 ! milit>y & ari/ocratic view ( life4 ,we glorify ! soldi] z ! man absolutely un5cumb]$4 ,own+ no?+ b 8 b>e life1 & will+ to toss t up at any mom5t :5 ! cause comm&s him1 he is ! repres5tative ( unhamp]$ fre$om 9 ideal directions4 ,! labor] :o pays ) 8 p]son day by day1 & has no rights inve/$ 9 ! future1 (f]s also mu* ( ?is ideal deta*m5t4 ,l ! savage1 he may make 8 b$ :]ev] 8 "r arm c support him1 & f 8 simple & a?letic attitude ( obs]vation1 ! prop]tyown] seems buri$ & smo!r$ 9 ignoble ext]nalities & trammels1 8wad+ 9 /raw & rubbi% to 8 knees40 ,! claims :i* ?+s make are corrupt]s ( manhood1 mortgages on ! s\l1 & a drag an*or on our progress t[>ds ! empyrean4 8,ev]y?+ ,i meet )10 writes ,:itefield1 8seems to c>ry ?is voice ) x1--#8,g ?\ & prea* ! ,gospel2 be a pilgrim on e>?2 h no p>ty or c]ta9 dwell+ place4' ,my he>t e*oes back1 #8,"l ,jesus1 help me to d or suff] ?y w4 ,:5 ?\ see/ me 9 dang] ( ne/l+1--9 pity--9 t5d] pity1--put a ?orn 9 my ne/ to prev5t me f x4' 07#aib7 ,! loa?+ ( 8capital0 ) :i* our labor+ classes today are gr[+ m & m infect$ seems l>gely compos$ ( ?is s\nd s5tim5t ( antipa?y = lives bas$ on m]e hav+4 ,z an an>*i/ poet writes3-- 8,n by accumulat+ ri*es1 b by giv+ away t :i* y h1 8,%all y become beautiful2 8,y mu/ undo ! wrapp+s1 n case y\rself 9 fre% ones2 8,n by multiply+ clo!s %all y make y\r body s\nd & heal?y1 b r by disc>d+ !m 444 8,= a soldi] :o is go+ on a campaign does n seek :at fre% furniture he c c>ry on 8 back1 b r :at he c leave beh9d2 8,kn[+ well t e additional ?+ :i* he _c freely use & h&le is an imp$im5t407#aic7 ,9 %ort1 lives bas$ on hav+ are less free ?an lives bas$ ei!r on do+ or on be+1 & 9 ! int]e/ ( action p subject to spiritual excitem5t ?r[ away possessions z s _m clogs4 ,only ^? :o h no private int]e/s c foll[ an ideal /raight away4 ,slo? & c[>dice creep 9 ) e doll> or gu9ea we h to gu>d4 ,:5 a bro!r novice came to ,sa9t ,francis1 say+3 8,fa!r1 x w\ld be a great consolation to me to own a psalt]1 b ev5 suppos+ t our g5]al %\ld conc$e to me ?is indulg5ce1 /ill ,i %\ld l also to h y\r cons5t10 ,francis put him (f ) ! examples ( ,*>lemagne1 ,rol&1 & ,oliv]1 pursu+ ! infidels 9 sweat & labor1 & f9ally dy+ on ! field ( battle4 8,s c>e n10 he said1 8= own+ books & k1 b c>e r = works ( goodness40 ,& :5 "s weeks lat] ! novice came aga9 to talk ( 8 crav+ = ! psalt]1 ,francis said3 8,aft] y h got y\r psalt] y w crave a brevi>y2 & aft] y h got y\r brevi>y y w sit 9 y\r /all l a gr& prelate1 & w say to y\r bro!r3 #8,h& me my brevi>y4' 444 ,& !nce=w>d he d5i$ all su* reque/s1 say+3 #8,a man possesses ( le>n+ only s mu* z comes out ( him 9 action1 & a monk is a good prea*] only s f> z 8 de$s proclaim him su*1 = e tree is kn[n by its fruits4' 07#aid7 ,b beyond ?is m wor?ily a?letic attitude involv$ 9 do+ & be+1 !re is1 9 ! desire ( n hav+1 some?+ pr(\nd] /ill1 some?+ relat$ to t fundam5tal my/]y ( religi\s exp]i5ce1 ! satisfaction f\nd 9 absolute surr5d] to ! l>g] p[]4 ,s long z any secul> safegu>d is reta9$1 s long z any residual prud5tial gu>antee is clung to1 s long ! surr5d] is incomplete1 ! vital crisis is n pass$1 fe> /ill /&s s5t9el1 & mi/ru/ ( ! div9e obta9s3 we hold by two an*ors1 look+ to ,god1 x is true1 aft] a fa%ion1 b also hold+ by our prop] ma*9ations4 ,9 c]ta9 m$ical exp]i5ces we h ! same critical po9t to ov]come4 ,a drunk>d1 or a morph9e or coca9e maniac1 (f]s himself to be cur$4 ,he appeals to ! doctor to wean him f 8 enemy1 b he d>es n face blank ab/95ce4 ,! tyrannical drug is /ill an an*or to w9dw>d3 he hides supplies ( x among 8 clo?+2 arranges secretly to h x smuggl$ 9 9 case ( ne$4 ,ev5 s an incompletely reg5]ate man /ill tru/s 9 8 own exp$i5ts4 ,8 money is l ! sleep+ potion :i* ! *ronically wakeful pati5t keeps beside 8 b$2 he ?r[s himself on ,god1 b if he %\ld ne$ ! o!r help1 !re x w be also4 ,e "o kn[s cases ( ?is incomplete & ineffective desire = re=m1--drunk>ds :om1 ) all _! selfreproa*es & resolves1 "o p]ceives to be q unwill+ s]i\sly to contemplate nev] be+ drunk aga96 ,really to give up any?+ on :i* we h reli$1 to give x up def9itively1 8= good & all0 & =ev]1 signifies "o ( ^? radical alt]ations ( "* :i* came "u our notice 9 ! lectures on conv]sion4 ,9 x ! inn] man rolls ov] into an entirely diff]5t position ( equilibrium1 lives 9 a new c5tre ( en]gy f ?is "t on1 & ! turn+po9t & h+e ( all su* op]ations seems usually to involve ! s9c]e acceptance ( c]ta9 nak$nesses & de/itutions4 ,accord+ly1 ?r\gh\t ! annals ( ! sa9tly life1 we f9d ?is ev] recurr+ note3 ,fl+ y\rself ^u ,god's provid5ce )\t mak+ any res]ve :atev]1--take no ?\ght = ! morr[1--sell all y h & give x to ! poor1--only :5 ! sacrifice is ru?less & reckless w ! high] safety really arrive4 ,z a concrete example let me read a page f ! biography ( ,anto9ette ,b\rignon1 a good woman1 mu* p]secut$ 9 h] day by bo? ,prote/ants & ,ca?olics1 because %e w\ld n take h] religion at second h&4 ,:5 a "y girl1 9 h] fa!r's h\se1-- 8,%e sp5t :ole nights 9 pray]1 (t repeat+3 ,"l1 :at wilt ?\ h me to d8 ,& be+ "o night 9 a mo/ pr(\nd p5it5ce1 %e said f ! bottom ( h] he>t3 #8,o my ,"l6 ,:at mu/ ,i d to please !e8 ,= ,i h nobody to tea* me4 ,speak to my s\l & x w he> !e4' ,at t in/ant %e he>d1 z if ano!r _h spoke )9 h]3 ,=sake all e>?ly ?+s4 ,sep>ate ?yself f ! love ( ! creatures4 ,d5y ?yself4 ,%e 0 q a/oni%$1 n und]/&+ ?is language1 & mus$ long on ^! ?ree po9ts1 ?9k+ h[ %e c\ld fulfill !m4 ,%e ?\ght %e c\ld n live )\t e>?ly ?+s1 nor )\t lov+ ! creatures1 nor )\t lov+ h]self4 ,yet %e said1 #8,by ?y ,grace ,i w d x1 ,"l6' ,b :5 %e w\ld p]=m h] promise1 %e knew n :]e to beg94 ,hav+ ?\ght on ! religi\s 9 mona/]ies1 t !y =sook all e>?ly ?+s by be+ %ut up 9 a cloi/]1 & ! love ( !mselves by subject+ ( _! wills1 %e ask$ leave ( h] fa!r to ent] into a cloi/] ( ! b>efoot ,c>melites1 b he w\ld n p]mit x1 say+ he w\ld r see h] laid 9 h] grave4 ,?is seem$ to h] a great cruelty1 = %e ?\ght to f9d 9 ! cloi/] ! true ,*ri/ians %e _h be5 seek+1 b %e f\nd aft]w>ds t he knew ! cloi/]s bett] ?an %e2 = aft] he _h =bidd5 h]1 & told h] he w\ld nev] p]mit h] to be a religi\s1 nor give h] any money to ent] !re1 yet %e w5t to ,fa!r ,laur5s1 ! ,director1 & (f]$ to s]ve 9 ! mona/]y & "w h>d = h] bread1 & be cont5t ) little1 if he w\ld receive h]4 ,at :i* he smil$ & said3 ,t _c be4 ,we mu/ h money to build2 we take no maids )\t money2 y mu/ f9d ! way to get x1 else !re is no entry "h4 8,?is a/oni%$ h] greatly1 & %e 0 !reby undeceiv$ z to ! cloi/]s1 resolv+ to =sake all company & live alone till x %\ld please ,god to %[ h] :at %e ought to d & :i!r to g4 ,%e ask$ always e>ne/ly1 #8,:5 %all ,i be p]fectly ?9e1 ,o my ,god8' ,& %e ?\ght he /ill answ]$ h]1 ,:5 ?\ %alt no long] possess any?+1 & %alt die to ?yself4 #8,& :]e %all ,i d t1 ,"l8' ,he answ]$ h]1 ,9 ! des]t4 ,?is made s /rong an impression on h] s\l t %e aspir$ aft] ?is2 b be+ a maid ( eighte5 ye>s only1 %e 0 afraid ( unlucky *ances1 & 0 nev] us$ to travel1 & knew no way4 ,%e laid aside all ^! d\bts & said1 #8,"l1 ?\ wilt guide me h[ & :]e x %all please !e4 ,x is = !e t ,i d x4 ,i w lay aside my habit ( a maid1 & w take t ( a h]mit t ,i may pass unkn[n4' ,hav+ !n secretly made ready ?is habit1 :ile h] p>5ts ?\ght to h m>ri$ h]1 h] fa!r hav+ promis$ h] to a ri* ,fr5* m]*ant1 %e prev5t$ ! "t1 & on ,ea/] ev5+1 hav+ cut h] hair1 put on ! habit1 & slept a little1 %e w5t out ( h] *amb] ab\t f\r 9 ! morn+1 tak+ no?+ b "o p5ny to buy bread = t day4 ,& x be+ said to h] 9 ! go+ out1 ,:]e is ?y fai?8 9 a p5ny8 %e ?rew x away1 begg+ p>don ( ,god = h] fault1 & say+1 #8,no1 ,"l1 my fai? is n 9 a p5ny1 b 9 !e alone4' ,?us %e w5t away :olly deliv]$ f ! heavy bur!n ( ! c>es & good ?+s ( ?is _w1 & f\nd h] s\l s satisfi$ t %e no long] wi%$ = any?+ ^u e>?1 re/+ entirely ^u ,god1 ) ?is only fe> le/ %e %\ld be discov]$ & be oblig$ to return home2 = %e felt already m cont5t 9 ?is pov]ty ?an %e _h done = all h] life 9 all ! delights ( ! _w407#aie7 ,! p5ny 0 a small f9ancial safegu>d1 b an effective spiritual ob/acle4 ,n till x 0 ?r[n away c\ld ! "* settle into ! new equilibrium completely4 ,ov] & above ! my/]y ( selfsurr5d]1 !re are 9 ! cult ( pov]ty o!r religi\s my/]ies4 ,!re is ! my/]y ( v]acity3 8,nak$ came ,i into ! _w10 etc41--:oev] fir/ said t1 possess$ ?is my/]y4 ,my own b>e entity mu/ fight ! battle--%ams _c save me4 ,!re is also ! my/]y ( democracy1 or s5tim5t ( ! equality be=e ,god ( all 8 creatures4 ,?is s5tim5t 7:i* seems 9 g5]al to h be5 m widespread 9 ,mohamm$an ?an 9 ,*ri/ian l&s7 t5ds to nullify man's usual acquisitiv5ess4 ,^? :o h x spurn dignities & honors1 privileges & advantages1 pref]r+1 z ,i said 9 a =m] lecture1 to grovel on ! common level be=e ! face ( ,god4 ,x is n exactly ! s5tim5t ( humility1 ?\gh x comes s close to x 9 practice4 ,x is humanity1 r1 refus+ to enjoy any?+ t o!rs d n %>e4 ,a pr(\nd morali/1 writ+ ( ,*ri/'s say+1 8,sell all ?\ ha/ & foll[ me10 proce$s z foll[s3-- 8,*ri/ may h meant3 ,if y love mank9d absolutely y w z a result n c>e = any possessions :atev]1 & ?is seems a v likely proposition4 ,b x is "o ?+ to believe t a proposition is probably true2 x is ano!r ?+ to see x z a fact4 ,if y lov$ mank9d z ,*ri/ lov$ !m1 y w\ld see 8 conclusion z a fact4 ,x w\ld be obvi\s4 ,y w\ld sell y\r goods1 & !y w\ld be no loss to y4 ,^! tru?s1 :ile lit]al to ,*ri/1 & to any m9d t has ,*ri/'s love = mank9d1 become p>ables to less] natures4 ,!re are 9 e g5]ation p :o1 beg9n+ innoc5tly1 ) no pr$et]m9$ int5tion ( becom+ sa9ts1 f9d !mselves drawn into ! vortex by _! int]e/ 9 help+ mank9d1 & by ! und]/&+ t comes f actually do+ x4 ,! ab&onm5t ( _! old mode ( life is l du/ 9 ! balance4 ,x is done gradually1 incid5tally1 imp]ceptibly4 ,?us ! :ole "q ( ! ab&onm5t ( luxury is no "q at all1 b a m]e incid5t to ano!r "q1 namely1 ! degree to :i* we ab&on ourselves to ! remorseless logic ( our love = o!rs407#aif7 ,b 9 all ^! matt]s ( s5tim5t "o mu/ h 8be5 !re0 "o's self 9 ord] to und]/& !m4 ,no ,am]ican c ev] atta9 to und]/&+ ! loyalty ( a ,briton t[>ds 8 k+1 ( a ,g]man t[>ds 8 emp]or2 nor c a ,briton or ,g]man ev] und]/& ! peace ( he>t ( an ,am]ican 9 hav+ no k+1 no ,kais]1 no spuri\s nons5se1 betwe5 him & ! common ,god ( all4 ,if s5tim5ts z simple z ^! are my/]ies :i* "o mu/ receive z gifts ( bir?1 h[ mu* m is ?is ! case ) ^? subtl] religi\s s5tim5ts :i* we h be5 consid]+6 ,"o c nev] fa?om an emotion or div9e its dictates by /&+ outside ( x4 ,9 ! gl[+ h\r ( excitem5t1 h[ev]1 all incompreh5sibilities are solv$1 & :at 0 s enigmatical f )\t becomes transp>5tly obvi\s4 ,ea* emotion obeys a logic ( its own1 & makes d$uctions :i* no o!r logic c draw4 ,piety & *>ity live 9 a diff]5t univ]se f worldly lu/s & fe>s1 & =m ano!r c5tre ( en]gy altoge!r4 ,z 9 a supreme sorr[ less] vexations may become a consolation2 z a supreme love may turn m9or sacrifices into ga92 s a supreme tru/ may r5d] common safegu>ds odi\s1 & 9 c]ta9 gl[s ( g5]\s excitem5t x may appe> unspeakably mean to reta9 "o's hold ( p]sonal possessions4 ,! only s\nd plan1 if we are ourselves outside ! pale ( su* emotions1 is to obs]ve z well z we are able ^? :o feel !m1 & to record fai?fully :at we obs]ve2 & ?is1 ,i ne$ h>dly say1 is :at ,i h /riv5 to d 9 ^! la/ two descriptive lectures1 :i* ,i n[ hope w h cov]$ ! gr\nd suffici5tly = our pres5t ne$s4 ,,lectures ,,xiv ,,& ,,xv4 ,,! ,,value ,,( ,,sa9tl9ess4 ,we h n[ pass$ 9 review ! m important ( ! ph5om5a :i* are reg>d$ z fruits ( g5u9e religion & *>act]i/ics ( m5 :o are dev\t4 ,today we h to *ange our attitude f t ( description to t ( appreciation2 we h to ask :e!r ! fruits 9 "q c help u to judge ! absolute value ( :at religion adds to human life4 ,7 ,i to p>ody ,kant1 ,i %\ld say t a 8,critique ( pure ,sa9tl9ess0 mu/ be our !me4 ,if1 9 turn+ to ?is !me1 we c\ld desc5d ^u our subject f above l ,ca?olic !ologians1 ) our fix$ def9itions ( man & man's p]fection & our positive dogmas ab\t ,god1 we %\ld h an easy "t ( x4 ,man's p]fection w\ld be ! fulfillm5t ( 8 end2 & 8 end w\ld be union ) 8 ,mak]4 ,t union c\ld be pursu$ by him along ?ree pa?s1 active1 purgative1 & contemplative1 respectively2 & progress along ei!r pa? w\ld be a simple matt] to measure by ! application ( a limit$ numb] ( !ological & moral conceptions & def9itions4 ,! absolute significance & value ( any bit ( religi\s exp]i5ce we might he> ( w\ld ?us be giv5 almo/ ma!matically into our h&s4 ,if conv5i5ce 7 ev]y?+1 we ought n[ to grieve at f9d+ ourselves cut (f f s admirably conv5i5t a me?od z ?is4 ,b we did cut ourselves (f f x delib]ately 9 ^? rem>ks :i* y rememb] we made1 9 our fir/ lecture1 ab\t ! empirical me?od2 & x mu/ be confess$ t aft] t act ( r5unciation we c nev] hope = cleancut & s*ola/ic results4 ,we _c divide man %>ply into an animal & a rational "p4 ,we _c di/+ui% natural f sup]natural effects2 nor among ! latt] "k :i* are favors ( ,god1 & :i* are c\nt]feit op]ations ( ! demon4 ,we h m]ely to collect ?+s toge!r )\t any special a priori !ological sy/em1 & out ( an aggregate ( piecemeal judgm5ts z to ! value ( ?is & t exp]i5ce--judgm5ts 9 :i* our g5]al philosophic prejudices1 our in/9cts1 & our common s5se are our only guides--decide t on ! :ole "o type ( religion is approv$ by its fruits1 & ano!r type condemn$4 8,on ! :ole10--,i fe> we %all nev] escape complicity ) t qualification1 s de> to y\r practical man1 s repugnant to y\r sy/ematiz]6 ,i also fe> t z ,i make ?is frank confession1 ,i may seem to "s ( y to ?r[ our compass ov]bo>d1 & to adopt caprice z our pilot4 ,skepticism or wayw>d *oice1 y may ?9k1 c be ! only results ( su* a =mless me?od z ,i h tak5 up4 ,a few rem>ks 9 deprecation ( su* an op9ion1 & 9 f>!r explanation ( ! empirici/ pr9ciples :i* ,i pr(ess1 may !re=e appe> at ?is po9t to be 9 place4 ,ab/ractly1 x w\ld seem illogical to try to measure ! wor? ( a religion's fruits 9 m]ely human t]ms ( value4 ,h[ c y measure _! wor? )\t consid]+ :e!r ! ,god really exi/s :o is suppos$ to inspire !m8 ,if he really exi/s1 !n all ! conduct in/itut$ by m5 to meet 8 wants mu/ necess>ily be a reasonable fruit ( 8 religion1--x w\ld be unreasonable only 9 case he did n exi/4 ,if1 = in/ance1 y 7 to condemn a religion ( human or animal sacrifices by virtue ( y\r subjective s5tim5ts1 & if all ! :ile a deity 7 really !re dem&+ su* sacrifices1 y w\ld be mak+ a !oretical mi/ake by tacitly assum+ t ! deity mu/ be non exi/5t2 y w\ld be sett+ up a !ology ( y\r own z mu* z if y 7 a s*ola/ic philosoph]4 ,to ?is ext5t1 to ! ext5t ( disbeliev+ p]emptorily 9 c]ta9 types ( deity1 ,i frankly confess t we mu/ be !ologians4 ,if disbeliefs c be said to con/itute a !ology1 !n ! prejudices1 in/9cts1 & common s5se :i* ,i *ose z our guides make !ological p>tisans ( u :5ev] !y make c]ta9 beliefs abhorr5t4 ,b su* commons5se prejudices & in/9cts are !mselves ! fruit ( an empirical evolution4 ,no?+ is m /rik+ ?an ! secul> alt]ation t goes on 9 ! moral & religi\s tone ( m51 z _! insight into nature & _! social arrangem5ts progressively develop4 ,aft] an int]val ( a few g5]ations ! m5tal climate proves unfavorable to notions ( ! deity :i* at an e>li] date 7 p]fectly satisfactory3 ! old] gods h fall5 bel[ ! common secul> level1 & c no long] be believ$ 94 ,today a deity :o %\ld require ble$+ sacrifices to placate him w\ld be too sangu9>y to be tak5 s]i\sly4 ,ev5 if p[]ful hi/orical cr$5tials 7 put =w>d 9 8 favor1 we w\ld n look at !m4 ,once1 on ! contr>y1 8 cruel appetites 7 ( !mselves cr$5tials4 ,!y positively recomm5d$ him to m5's imag9ations 9 ages :5 su* co>se signs ( p[] 7 respect$ & no o!rs c\ld be und]/ood4 ,su* deities !n 7 wor%ip$ because su* fruits 7 reli%$4 ,d\btless hi/oric accid5ts always play$ "s lat] "p1 b ! orig9al factor 9 fix+ ! figure ( ! gods mu/ always h be5 psy*ological4 ,! deity to :om ! prophets1 se]s1 & devotees :o f\nd$ ! p>ticul> cult bore witness 0 wor? some?+ to !m p]sonally4 ,!y c\ld use him4 ,he guid$ _! imag9ation1 w>rant$ _! hopes1 & controll$ _! w1--or else !y requir$ him z a safegu>d aga9/ ! demon & a curb] ( o!r p's crimes4 ,9 any case1 !y *ose him = ! value ( ! fruits he seem$ to !m to yield4 ,s soon z ! fruits began to seem q wor?less2 s soon z !y conflict$ ) indisp5sable human ideals1 or ?w>t$ too ext5sively o!r values2 s soon z !y appe>$ *ildi%1 contemptible1 or immoral :5 reflect$ on1 ! deity grew discr$it$1 & 0 erelong neglect$ & =gott54 ,x 0 9 ?is way t ! ,greek & ,roman gods ceas$ to be believ$ 9 by educat$ pagans2 x is ?us t we ourselves judge ( ! ,h9du1 ,buddhi/1 & ,mohamm$an !ologies2 ,prote/ants h s dealt ) ! ,ca?olic notions ( deity1 & lib]al ,prote/ants ) old] ,prote/ant notions2 x is ?us t ,*9am5 judge ( u1 & t all ( u n[ liv+ w be judg$ by our desc5dants4 ,:5 we cease to admire or approve :at ! def9ition ( a deity implies1 we end by deem+ t deity incr$ible4 ,few hi/oric *anges are m curi\s ?an ^! mutations ( !ological op9ion4 ,! mon>*ical type ( sov]eignty 01 = example1 s in]adicably plant$ 9 ! m9d ( our own =efa!rs t a dose ( cruelty & arbitr>9ess 9 _! deity seems positively to h be5 requir$ by _! imag9ation4 ,!y call$ ! cruelty 8retributive ju/ice10 & a ,god )\t x w\ld c]ta9ly h /ruck !m z n 8sov]eign0 en\gh4 ,b today we abhor ! v notion ( et]nal suff]+ inflict$2 & t arbitr>y deal+out ( salvation & damnation to select$ individuals1 ( :i* ,jona?an ,edw>ds c\ld p]suade himself t he _h n only a conviction1 b a 8delightful conviction10 z ( a doctr9e 8exce$+ pleasant1 bright1 & sweet10 appe>s to u1 if sov]eignly any?+1 sov]eignly irrational & mean4 ,n only ! cruelty1 b ! paltr9ess ( "* ( ! gods believ$ 9 by e>li] c5turies also /rikes lat] c5turies ) surprise4 ,we %all see examples ( x f ! annals ( ,ca?olic sa9t%ip :i* make u rub our ,prote/ant eyes4 ,ritual wor%ip 9 g5]al appe>s to ! mod]n transc5d5tali/1 z well z to ! ultrapuritanic type ( m9d1 z if address$ to a deity ( an almo/ absurdly *ildi% "*1 tak+ delight 9 toy%op furniture1 tap]s & t9sel1 co/ume & mumbl+ & mumm]y1 & f9d+ 8 8glory0 incompreh5sibly enhanc$ !reby2--j z on ! o!r h& ! =mless spaci\sness ( pan!ism appe>s q empty to rituali/ic natures1 & ! gaunt !ism ( evangelical sects seems intol]ably bald & *alky & bleak4 ,lu!r1 says ,em]son1 w\ld h cut (f 8 "r h& r ?an nail 8 !ses to ! door at ,witt5b]g1 if he _h suppos$ t !y 7 de/9$ to lead to ! pale negations ( ,bo/on ,unit>ianism4 ,s f>1 !n1 al?\gh we are compell$1 :atev] may be our pret5sions to empiricism1 to employ "s sort ( a /&>d ( !ological probability ( our own :5ev] we assume to e/imate ! fruits ( o!r m5's religion1 yet ?is v /&>d has be5 begott5 out ( ! drift ( common life4 ,x is ! voice ( human exp]i5ce )9 u1 judg+ & condemn+ all gods t /& a?w>t ! pa?way along :i* x feels itself to be advanc+4 ,exp]i5ce1 if we take x 9 ! l>ge/ s5se1 is ?us ! p>5t ( ^? disbeliefs :i*1 x 0 *>g$1 7 inconsi/5t ) ! exp]i5tial me?od4 ,! inconsi/5cy1 y see1 is immat]ial1 & ! *>ge may be neglect$4 ,if we pass f disbeliefs to positive beliefs1 x seems to me t !re is n ev5 a =mal inconsi/5cy to be laid aga9/ our me?od4 ,! gods we /& by are ! gods we ne$ & c use1 ! gods ^: dem&s on u are re9=cem5ts ( our dem&s on ourselves & on "o ano!r4 ,:at ,i !n propose to d is1 briefly /at$1 to te/ sa9tl9ess by common s5se1 to use human /&>ds to help u decide h[ f> ! religi\s life comm5ds itself z an ideal k9d ( human activity4 ,if x comm5ds itself1 !n any !ological beliefs t may inspire x1 9 s f> =? w /& accr$it$4 ,if n1 !n !y w be discr$it$1 & all )\t ref]5ce to any?+ b human work+ pr9ciples4 ,x is b ! elim9ation ( ! humanly unfit1 & ! survival ( ! humanly fitte/1 appli$ to religi\s beliefs2 & if we look at hi/ory c&idly & )\t prejudice1 we h to admit t no religion has ev] 9 ! long run e/abli%$ or prov$ itself 9 any o!r way4 ,religions h approv$ !mselves2 !y h m9i/]$ to sundry vital ne$s :i* !y f\nd reign+4 ,:5 !y violat$ o!r ne$s too /rongly1 or :5 o!r fai?s came :i* s]v$ ! same ne$s bett]1 ! fir/ religions 7 supplant$4 ,! ne$s 7 always _m1 & ! te/s 7 nev] %>p4 ,s ! reproa* ( vagu5ess & subjectivity & 8on ! :ole0ness1 :i* c ) p]fect legitimacy be address$ to ! empirical me?od z we are =c$ to use x1 is aft] all a reproa* to :i* ! entire life ( man 9 deal+ ) ^! matt]s is obnoxi\s4 ,no religion has ev] yet ow$ its preval5ce to 8apodictic c]ta9ty40 ,9 a lat] lecture ,i w ask :e!r objective c]ta9ty c ev] be add$ by !ological reason+ to a religion t already empirically prevails4 ,"o ^w1 also1 ab\t ! reproa* t 9 foll[+ ?is sort ( an empirical me?od we are h&+ ourselves ov] to sy/ematic skepticism4 ,s9ce x is impossible to d5y secul> alt]ations 9 our s5tim5ts & ne$s1 x w\ld be absurd to affirm t "o's own age ( ! _w c be beyond correction by ! next age4 ,skepticism _c1 !re=e1 be rul$ out by any set ( ?9k]s z a possibility aga9/ :i* _! conclusions are secure2 & no empirici/ ought to claim exemption f ?is univ]sal liability4 ,b to admit "o's liability to correction is "o ?+1 & to emb>k ^u a sea ( wanton d\bt is ano!r4 ,( willfully play+ into ! h&s ( skepticism we _c be accus$4 ,he :o ackn[l$ges ! imp]fectness ( 8 in/rum5t1 & makes all[ance = x 9 discuss+ 8 obs]vations1 is 9 a mu* bett] position = ga9+ tru? ?an if he claim$ 8 in/rum5t to be infallible4 ,or is dogmatic or s*ola/ic !ology less d\bt$ 9 po9t ( fact = claim+1 z x does1 to be 9 po9t ( "r und\btable8 ,& if n1 :at comm& ov] tru? w\ld ?is k9d ( !ology really lose if1 in/ead ( absolute c]ta9ty1 %e only claim$ reasonable probability = h] conclusions8 ,if we claim only reasonable probability1 x w be z mu* z m5 :o love ! tru? c ev] at any giv5 mom5t hope to h )9 _! grasp4 ,pretty surely x w be m ?an we c\ld h _h1 if we 7 unconsci\s ( our liability to err4 ,nev]!less1 dogmatism w d\btless cont9ue to condemn u = ?is confession4 ,! m]e outw>d =m ( inalt]able c]ta9ty is s preci\s to "s m9ds t to r5\nce x explicitly is = !m out ( ! "q4 ,!y w claim x ev5 :]e ! facts mo/ pat5tly pron\nce its folly4 ,b ! safe ?+ is surely to recognize t all ! insights ( creatures ( a day l ourselves mu/ be provisional4 ,! wise/ ( critics is an alt]+ be+1 subject to ! bett] insight ( ! morr[1 & "r at any mom5t1 only 8up to date0 & 8on ! :ole40 ,:5 l>g] ranges ( tru? op51 x is surely be/ to be able to op5 ourselves to _! reception1 unfett]$ by our previ\s pret5sions4 8,he>tily "k1 :5 halfgods g1 ! gods arrive40 ,! fact ( div]se judgm5ts ab\t religi\s ph5om5a is !re=e entirely unescapable1 :atev] may be "o's own desire to atta9 ! irrev]sible4 ,b ap>t f t fact1 a m fundam5tal "q awaits u1 ! "q :e!r m5's op9ions ought to be expect$ to be absolutely uni=m 9 ?is field4 ,ought all m5 to h ! same religion8 ,ought !y to approve ! same fruits & foll[ ! same lead+s8 ,are !y s l 9 _! inn] ne$s t1 = h>d & s(t1 = pr\d & humble1 = /r5u\s & lazy1 = heal?ym9d$ & despair+1 exactly ! same religi\s inc5tives are requir$8 ,or are diff]5t functions 9 ! organism ( humanity allott$ to diff]5t types ( man1 s t "s may really be ! bett] = a religion ( consolation & reassurance1 :il/ o!rs are bett] = "o ( t]ror & repro(8 ,x might conceivably be s2 & we %all1 ,i ?9k1 m & m suspect x to be s z we g on4 ,& if x be s1 h[ c any possible judge or critic help be+ bias$ 9 favor ( ! religion by :i* 8 own ne$s are be/ met8 ,he aspires to imp>tiality2 b he is too close to ! /ruggle n to be to "s degree a p>ticipant1 & he is sure to approve mo/ w>mly ^? fruits ( piety 9 o!rs :i* ta/e mo/ good & prove mo/ n\ri%+ to him4 ,i am well aw>e ( h[ an>*ic mu* ( :at ,i say may s\nd4 ,express+ myself ?us ab/ractly & briefly1 ,i may seem to despair ( ! v notion ( tru?4 ,b ,i besee* y to res]ve y\r judgm5t until we see x appli$ to ! details :i* lie be=e u4 ,i d inde$ disbelieve t we or any o!r mortal m5 c atta9 on a giv5 day to absolutely incorrigible & unimprovable tru? ab\t su* matt]s ( fact z ^? ) :i* religions deal4 ,b ,i reject ?is dogmatic ideal n out ( a p]v]se delight 9 intellectual in/ability4 ,i am no lov] ( disord] & d\bt z su*4 ,r d ,i fe> to lose tru? by ?is pret5sion to possess x already :olly4 ,t we c ga9 m & m ( x by mov+ always 9 ! "r direction1 ,i believe z mu* z any "o1 & ,i hope to br+ y all to my way ( ?9k+ be=e ! t]m9ation ( ^! lectures4 ,till !n1 d n1 ,i pray y1 h>d5 y\r m9ds irrevocably aga9/ ! empiricism :i* ,i pr(ess4 ,i w wa/e no m words1 !n1 9 ab/ract ju/ification ( my me?od1 b seek imm$iately to use x ^u ! facts4 ,9 critically judg+ ( ! value ( religi\s ph5om5a1 x is v important to insi/ on ! di/9ction betwe5 religion z an individual p]sonal function1 & religion z an in/itutional1 corporate1 or tribal product4 ,i drew ?is di/9ction1 y may rememb]1 9 my second lecture4 ,! ^w 8religion10 z ord9>ily us$1 is equivocal4 ,a survey ( hi/ory %[s u t1 z a rule1 religi\s g5iuses attract disciples1 & produce gr\ps ( sympa?iz]s4 ,:5 ^! gr\ps get /rong en\gh to 8organize0 !mselves1 !y become ecclesia/ical in/itutions ) corporate ambitions ( _! own4 ,! _s ( politics & ! lu/ ( dogmatic rule are !n apt to ent] & to contam9ate ! orig9ally innoc5t ?+2 s t :5 we he> ! ^w 8religion0 n[adays1 we ?9k inevitably ( "s 8*ur*0 or o!r2 & to "s p]sons ! ^w 8*ur*0 sugge/s s mu* hypocrisy & tyranny & meanness & t5acity ( sup]/ition t 9 a :olesale undisc]n+ way !y glory 9 say+ t !y are 8d[n0 on religion altoge!r4 ,ev5 we :o belong to *ur*es d n exempt o!r *ur*es ?an our own f ! g5]al condemnation4 ,b 9 ?is c\rse ( lectures ecclesia/ical in/itutions h>dly conc]n u at all4 ,! religi\s exp]i5ce :i* we are /udy+ is t :i* lives itself out )9 ! private brea/4 ,fir/h& individual exp]i5ce ( ?is k9d has always appe>$ z a h]etical sort ( innovation to ^? :o witness$ its bir?4 ,nak$ comes x into ! _w & lonely2 & x has always1 = a "t at lea/1 driv5 him :o _h x into ! wild]ness1 (t5 into ! lit]al wild]ness out ( doors1 :]e ! ,buddha1 ,jesus1 ,mohamm$1 ,/4 ,francis1 ,george ,fox1 & s _m o!rs _h to g4 ,george ,fox expresses well ?is isolation2 & ,i c d no bett] at ?is po9t ?an read to y a page f 8 ,j\rnal1 ref]r+ to ! p]iod ( 8 y\? :5 religion began to f]m5t )9 him s]i\sly4 8,i fa/$ mu*10 ,fox says1 8walk$ abroad 9 solit>y places _m days1 & (t5 took my ,bible1 & sat 9 holl[ trees & lonesome places until night came on2 & frequ5tly 9 ! night walk$ m\rnfully ab\t by myself2 = ,i 0 a man ( sorr[s 9 ! "t ( ! fir/ work+s ( ! ,"l 9 me4 8,dur+ all ?is "t ,i 0 nev] jo9$ 9 pr(ession ( religion ) any1 b gave up myself to ! ,"l1 hav+ =sak5 all evil company1 tak+ leave ( fa!r & "m1 & all o!r relations1 & travel$ up & d[n z a /rang] on ! e>?1 :i* way ! ,"l incl9$ my he>t2 tak+ a *amb] to myself 9 ! t[n :]e ,i came1 & t>ry+ sometimes m1 sometimes less 9 a place3 = ,i dur/ n /ay long 9 a place1 be+ afraid bo? ( pr(essor & pr(ane1 le/1 be+ a t5d] "y man1 ,i %\ld be hurt by conv]s+ mu* ) ei!r4 ,= :i* reason ,i kept mu* z a /rang]1 seek+ heav5ly wisdom & gett+ k f ! ,"l2 & 0 br\ght (f f outw>d ?+s1 to rely on ! ,"l alone4 ,z ,i _h =sak5 ! prie/s1 s ,i left ! sep>ate prea*]s also1 & ^? call$ ! mo/ exp]i5c$ p2 = ,i saw !re 0 none among !m all t c\ld speak to my condition4 ,& :5 all my hopes 9 !m & 9 all m5 7 gone s t ,i _h no?+ outw>dly to help me1 nor c\ld tell :at to d2 !n1 oh !n1 ,i he>d a voice :i* said1 #8,!re is "o1 ev5 ,jesus ,*ri/1 t c speak to ?y condition4' ,:5 ,i he>d x1 my he>t did leap = joy4 ,!n ! ,"l let me see :y !re 0 none ^u ! e>? t c\ld speak to my condition4 ,i _h n fell[%ip ) any p1 prie/s1 nor pr(essors1 nor any sort ( sep>at$ p4 ,i 0 afraid ( all c>nal talk & talk]s1 = ,i c\ld see no?+ b corruptions4 ,:5 ,i 0 9 ! deep1 "u all %ut up1 ,i c\ld n believe t ,i %\ld ev] ov]come2 my tr\bles1 my sorr[s1 & my temptations 7 s great t ,i (t5 ?\ght ,i %\ld h despair$1 ,i 0 s tempt$4 ,b :5 ,*ri/ op5$ to me h[ he 0 tempt$ by ! same devil1 & _h ov]come him1 & _h bruis$ 8 head2 & t ?r\gh him & 8 p[]1 life1 grace1 & _s1 ,i %\ld ov]come also1 ,i _h confid5ce 9 him4 ,if ,i _h _h a k+'s diet1 palace1 & att5dance1 all w\ld h be5 z no?+2 = no?+ gave me com=t b ! ,"l by 8 p[]4 ,i saw pr(essors1 prie/s1 & p 7 :ole & at ease 9 t condition :i* 0 my mis]y1 & !y lov$ t :i* ,i w\ld h be5 rid (4 ,b ! ,"l did /ay my desires ^u himself1 & my c>e 0 ca/ ^u him alone407#aig7 ,a g5u9e fir/h& religi\s exp]i5ce l ?is is b\nd to be a het]odoxy to its witnesses1 ! prophet appe>+ z a m]e lonely madman4 ,if 8 doctr9e prove contagi\s en\gh to spread to any o!rs1 x becomes a def9ite & label$ h]esy4 ,b if x !n /ill prove contagi\s en\gh to triumph ov] p]secution1 x becomes itself an or?odoxy2 & :5 a religion has become an or?odoxy1 its day ( inw>dness is ov]3 ! spr+ is dry2 ! fai?ful live at second h& exclusively & /one ! prophets 9 _! turn4 ,! new *ur*1 9 spite ( :atev] human goodness x may fo/]1 c be h5ce=? c\nt$ on z a /aun* ally 9 e attempt to /ifle ! spontane\s religi\s _s1 & to /op all lat] bubbl+s ( ! f\nta9 f :i* 9 pur] days x drew its own supply ( inspiration4 ,unless1 inde$1 by adopt+ new movem5ts ( ! _s x c make capital out ( !m & use !m = its selfi% corporate designs6 ,( protective action ( ?is politic sort1 promptly or t>dily decid$ on1 ! deal+s ( ! ,roman ecclesia/icism ) _m individual sa9ts & prophets yield examples en\gh = our in/ruction4 ,! pla9 fact is t m5's m9ds are built1 z has be5 (t5 said1 9 wat]tight comp>tm5ts4 ,religi\s aft] a fa%ion1 !y yet h _m o!r ?+s 9 !m beside _! religion1 & unholy entanglem5ts & associations inevitably obta94 ,! bas5esses s commonly *>g$ to religion's acc\nt are ?us1 almo/ all ( !m1 n *>geable at all to religion prop]1 b r to religion's wick$ practical p>tn]1 ! _s ( corporate dom9ion4 ,& ! bigotries are mo/ ( !m 9 _! turn *>geable to religion's wick$ intellectual p>tn]1 ! _s ( dogmatic dom9ion1 ! passion = lay+ d[n ! law 9 ! =m ( an absolutely clos$9 !oretic sy/em4 ,! ecclesia/ical _s 9 g5]al is ! sum ( ^! two spirits ( dom9ion2 & ,i besee* y nev] to conf\nd ! ph5om5a ( m]e tribal or corporate psy*ology :i* x pres5ts ) ^? manife/ations ( ! purely int]ior life :i* are ! exclusive object ( our /udy4 ,! bait+ ( ,jews1 ! hunt+ ( ,albig5ses & ,wald5ses1 ! /on+ ( ,quak]s & duck+ ( ,me?odi/s1 ! murd]+ ( ,mormons & ! massacr+ ( ,arm5ians1 express mu* r t aborig9al human neophobia1 t pugnacity ( :i* we all %>e ! ve/iges1 & t inborn hatr$ ( ! ali5 & ( ecc5tric & noncon=m+ m5 z ali5s1 ?an !y express ! positive piety ( ! v>i\s p]petrators4 ,piety is ! mask1 ! inn] =ce is tribal in/9ct4 ,y believe z little z ,i d1 9 spite ( ! ,*ri/ian unction ) :i* ! ,g]man emp]or address$ 8 troops ^u _! way to ,*9a1 t ! conduct :i* he sugge/$1 & 9 :i* o!r ,*ri/ian armies w5t beyond !m1 _h any?+ :atev] to d ) ! int]ior religi\s life ( ^? conc]n$ 9 ! p]=mance4 ,well1 no m = pa/ atrocities ?an = ?is atrocity %\ld we make piety responsible4 ,at mo/ we may blame piety = n avail+ to *eck our natural passions1 & sometimes = supply+ !m ) hypocritical pretexts4 ,b hypocrisy also imposes obligations1 & ) ! pretext usually c\ples "s re/riction2 & :5 ! passion gu/ is ov]1 ! piety may br+ a reaction ( rep5tance :i* ! irreligi\s natural man w\ld n h %[n4 ,= _m ( ! hi/oric ab]rations :i* h be5 laid to h] *>ge1 religion z su*1 !n1 is n to blame4 ,yet ( ! *>ge t ov] zeal\sness or fanaticism is "o ( h] liabilities we _c :olly acquit h]1 s ,i w next make a rem>k ^u t po9t4 ,b ,i w preface x by a prelim9>y rem>k :i* connects itself ) mu* t foll[s4 ,our survey ( ! ph5om5a ( sa9tl9ess has unque/ionably produc$ 9 y\r m9ds an impression ( extravagance4 ,is x necess>y1 "s ( y h ask$1 z "o example aft] ano!r came be=e u1 to be q s fanta/ically good z t8 ,we :o h no vocation = ! extrem] ranges ( sanctity w surely be let (f at ! la/ day if our humility1 asceticism1 & dev\tness prove ( a less convulsive sort4 ,?is practically am\nts to say+ t mu* t x is legitimate to admire 9 ?is field ne$ nev]!less n be imitat$1 & t religi\s ph5om5a1 l all o!r human ph5om5a1 are subject to ! law ( ! gold5 mean4 ,political re=m]s accompli% _! successive tasks 9 ! hi/ory ( nations by be+ bl9d = ! "t to o!r causes4 ,great s*ools ( art "w out ! effects :i* x is _! mission to reveal1 at ! co/ ( a "osid$ness = :i* o!r s*ools mu/ make am5ds4 ,we accept a ,john ,h[>d1 a ,mazz9i1 a ,botticelli1 a ,mi*ael ,angelo1 ) a k9d ( indulg5ce4 ,we are glad !y exi/$ to %[ u t way1 b we are glad !re are also o!r ways ( see+ & tak+ life4 ,s ( _m ( ! sa9ts :om we h look$ at4 ,we are pr\d ( a human nature t c\ld be s passionately extreme1 b we %r9k f advis+ o!rs to foll[ ! example4 ,! conduct we blame ourselves = n foll[+ lies ne>] to ! middle l9e ( human ef=t4 ,x is less dep5d5t on p>ticul> beliefs & doctr9es4 ,x is su* z we>s well 9 diff]5t ages1 su* z "u diff]5t skies all judges are able to comm5d4 ,! fruits ( religion1 9 o!r words1 are1 l all human products1 liable to corruption by excess4 ,common s5se mu/ judge !m4 ,x ne$ n blame ! vot>y2 b x may be able to praise him only conditionally1 z "o :o acts fai?fully accord+ to 8 lights4 ,he %[s u h]oism 9 "o way1 b ! unconditionally good way is t = :i* no indulg5ce ne$ be ask$4 ,we f9d t error by excess is exemplifi$ by e sa9tly virtue4 ,excess1 9 human faculties1 means usually "osid$ness or want ( balance2 = x is h>d to imag9e an ess5tial faculty too /rong1 if only o!r faculties equally /rong be !re to cop]ate ) x 9 action4 ,/rong affections ne$ a /rong w2 /rong active p[]s ne$ a /rong intellect2 /rong intellect ne$s /rong sympa?ies1 to keep life /eady4 ,if ! balance exi/1 no "o faculty c possibly be too /rong--we only get ! /rong] allr\nd "*4 ,9 ! life ( sa9ts1 te*nically s call$1 ! spiritual faculties are /rong1 b :at gives ! impression ( extravagance proves usually on exam9ation to be a relative defici5cy ( intellect4 ,spiritual excitem5t takes pa?ological =ms :5ev] o!r int]e/s are too few & ! intellect too n>r[4 ,we f9d ?is exemplifi$ by all ! sa9tly attributes 9 turn--dev\t love ( ,god1 purity1 *>ity1 asceticism1 all may lead a/ray4 ,i w run ov] ^! virtues 9 succession4 ,fir/ ( all let u take ,dev\tness4 ,:5 unbalanc$1 "o ( its vices is call$ ,fanaticism4 ,fanaticism 7:5 n a m]e expression ( ecclesia/ical ambition7 is only loyalty c>ri$ to a convulsive extreme4 ,:5 an int5sely loyal & n>r[ m9d is once grasp$ by ! feel+ t a c]ta9 sup]human p]son is wor?y ( its exclusive devotion1 "o ( ! fir/ ?+s t happ5s is t x idealizes ! devotion itself4 ,to adequately realize ! m]its ( ! idol gets to be consid]$ ! "o great m]it ( ! wor%ip]2 & ! sacrifices & s]vilities by :i* savage tribesm5 h f "t immemorial exhibit$ _! fai?fulness to *iefta9s are n[ outbid 9 favor ( ! deity4 ,vocabul>ies are exhau/$ & languages alt]$ 9 ! attempt to praise him en\gh2 dea? is look$ on z ga9 if x attract 8 grateful notice2 & ! p]sonal attitude ( be+ 8 devotee becomes :at "o might almo/ call a new & exalt$ k9d ( pr(essional specialty )9 ! tribe47#aih7 ,! leg5ds t ga!r r\nd ! lives ( holy p]sons are fruits ( ?is impulse to celebrate & glorify4 ,! ,buddha7#aii7 & ,mohamm$7#bjj7 & _! companions & _m ,*ri/ian sa9ts are incru/$ ) a heavy jewelry ( anecdotes :i* are meant to be honorific1 b are simply abges*mackt & silly1 & =m a t\*+ expression ( man's misguid$ prop5sity to praise4 ,an imm$iate consequ5ce ( ?is condition ( m9d is jeal\sy = ! deity's honor4 ,h[ c ! devotee %[ 8 loyalty bett] ?an by s5sitiv5ess 9 ?is reg>d8 ,! slighte/ affront or neglect mu/ be res5t$1 ! deity's enemies mu/ be put to %ame4 ,9 exce$+ly n>r[ m9ds & active wills1 su* a c>e may become an engross+ preoccupation2 & crusades h be5 prea*$ & massacres in/igat$ = no o!r reason ?an to remove a fanci$ slight ^u ! ,god4 ,!ologies repres5t+ ! gods z m9dful ( _! glory1 & *ur*es ) imp]iali/ic policies1 h conspir$ to fan ?is temp] to a gl[1 s t intol]ance & p]secution h come to be vices associat$ by "s ( u insep>ably ) ! sa9tly m9d4 ,!y are unque/ionably its besett+ s9s4 ,! sa9tly temp] is a moral temp]1 & a moral temp] has (t5 to be cruel4 ,x is a p>tisan temp]1 & t is cruel4 ,betwe5 8 own & ,jehovah's enemies a ,david kn[s no diff]5ce2 a ,ca!r9e ( ,si5a1 pant+ to /op ! w>f>e among ,*ri/ians :i* 0 ! sc&al ( h] epo*1 c ?9k ( no bett] me?od ( union among !m ?an a crusade to massacre ! ,turks2 ,lu!r f9ds no ^w ( prote/ or regret ov] ! atroci\s tortures ) :i* ! ,anabapti/ lead]s 7 put to dea?2 & a ,cromwell praises ! ,"l = deliv]+ 8 enemies into 8 h&s = 8execution40 ,politics come 9 9 all su* cases2 b piety f9ds ! p>tn]%ip n q unnatural4 ,s1 :5 8free?9k]s0 tell u t religion & fanaticism are tw9s1 we _c make an unqualifi$ d5ial ( ! *>ge4 ,fanaticism mu/ !n be inscrib$ on ! wrong side ( religion's acc\nt1 s long z ! religi\s p]son's intellect is on ! /age :i* ! despotic k9d ( ,god satisfies4 ,b z soon z ! ,god is repres5t$ z less int5t on 8 own honor & glory1 x ceases to be a dang]4 ,fanaticism is f\nd only :]e ! "* is ma/]ful & aggressive4 ,9 g5tle *>act]s1 :]e dev\tness is int5se & ! intellect feeble1 we h an imag9ative absorption 9 ! love ( ,god to ! exclusion ( all practical human int]e/s1 :i*1 ?\gh innoc5t en\gh1 is too "osid$ to be admirable4 ,a m9d too n>r[ has room b = "o k9d ( affection4 ,:5 ! love ( ,god takes possession ( su* a m9d1 x expels all human loves & human uses4 ,!re is no ,engli% "n = su* a sweet excess ( devotion1 s ,i w ref] to x z a !opa?ic condition4 ,! bless$ ,m>g>et ,m>y ,alacoque may s]ve z an example4 8,to be lov$ "h ^u ! e>?10 h] rec5t biograph] exclaims3 8to be lov$ by a noble1 elevat$1 di/+ui%$ be+2 to be lov$ ) fidelity1 ) devotion1--:at en*antm5t6 ,b to be lov$ by ,god6 & lov$ by him to di/raction aim jusq' la folie6--,m>g>et melt$ away ) love at ! ?\ght ( su* a ?+4 ,l ,sa9t ,philip ( ,n]i 9 =m] times1 or l ,sa9t ,francis ,xavi]1 %e said to ,god3 #8,hold back1 ,o my ,god1 ^! torr5ts :i* ov]:elm me1 or else enl>ge my capacity = _! reception4' 07#bja7 ,! mo/ signal pro(s ( ,god's love :i* ,m>g>et ,m>y receiv$ 7 h] halluc9ations ( sight1 t\*1 & he>+1 & ! mo/ signal 9 turn ( ^! 7 ! revelations ( ,*ri/'s sacr$ he>t1 8surr\nd$ ) rays m brilliant ?an ! ,sun1 & transp>5t l a cry/al4 ,! w\nd :i* he receiv$ on ! cross visibly appe>$ ^u x4 ,!re 0 a cr[n ( ?orns r\nd ab\t ?is div9e ,he>t1 & a cross above x40 ,at ! same "t ,*ri/'s voice told h] t1 unable long] to conta9 ! flames ( 8 love = mank9d1 he _h *os5 h] by a miracle to spread ! k ( !m4 ,he !reupon took out h] mortal he>t1 plac$ x inside ( 8 own & inflam$ x1 & !n replac$ x 9 h] brea/1 add+3 8,hi!rto ?\ ha/ tak5 ! "n ( my slave1 h]eaft] ?\ %alt be call$ ! wellbelov$ disciple ( my ,sacr$ ,he>t40 ,9 a lat] vision ! ,savi\r reveal$ to h] 9 detail ! 8great design0 :i* he wi%$ to e/abli% ?r\gh h] in/rum5tality4 8,i ask ( !e to br+ x ab\t t e fir/ ,friday aft] ! week ( holy ,sacram5t %all be made into a special holy day = honor+ my ,he>t by a g5]al communion & by s]vices int5d$ to make honorable am5ds = ! indignities :i* x has receiv$4 ,& ,i promise !e t my ,he>t w dilate to %$ ) abundance ! influ5ces ( its love ^u all ^? :o pay to x ^! honors1 or :o br+ x ab\t t o!rs d ! same40 8,?is revelation10 says ,mgr4 ,b\gaud1 8is unque/ionably ! mo/ important ( all ! revelations :i* h illum9$ ! ,*ur* s9ce t ( ! ,inc>nation & ( ! ,"l's ,supp]4444 ,aft] ! ,eu*>i/1 ! supreme ef=t ( ! ,sacr$ ,he>t407#bjb7 ,well1 :at 7 its good fruits = ,m>g>et ,m>y's life8 ,app>5tly little else b suff]+s & pray]s & abs5ces ( m9d & swoons & ec/asies4 ,%e became increas+ly useless ab\t ! conv5t1 h] absorption 9 ,*ri/'s love1-- 8:i* grew ^u h] daily1 r5d]+ h] m & m incapable ( att5d+ to ext]nal duties4 ,!y tri$ h] 9 ! infirm>y1 b )\t mu* success1 al?\gh h] k9dness1 zeal1 & devotion 7 )\t b\nds1 & h] *>ity rose to acts ( su* a h]oism t our read]s w\ld n be> ! recital ( !m4 ,!y tri$ h] 9 ! kit*51 b 7 =c$ to give x up z hopeless--ev]y?+ dropp$ out ( h] h&s4 ,! admirable humility ) :i* %e made am5ds = h] clums9ess c\ld n prev5t ?is f be+ prejudicial to ! ord] & regul>ity :i* mu/ always reign 9 a community4 ,!y put h] 9 ! s*ool1 :]e ! little girls *]i%$ h]1 & cut pieces out ( h] clo!s = relics z if %e 7 already a sa9t1 b :]e %e 0 too absorb$ inw>dly to pay ! necess>y att5tion4 ,poor de> si/]1 ev5 less aft] h] visions ?an be=e !m 0 %e a d5iz5 ( e>?1 & !y _h to leave h] 9 h] heav5407#bjc7 ,poor de> si/]1 inde$6 ,amiable & good1 b s feeble ( intellectual outlook t x w\ld be too mu* to ask ( u1 ) our ,prote/ant & mod]n education1 to feel any?+ b indulg5t pity = ! k9d ( sa9t%ip :i* %e embodies4 ,a l[] example /ill ( !opa?ic sa9tl9ess is t ( ,sa9t ,g]trude1 a ,b5$ict9e nun ( ! ?irte5? c5tury1 ^: 8,revelations10 a wellkn[n my/ical au?ority1 consi/ ma9ly ( pro(s ( ,*ri/'s p>tiality = h] undes]v+ p]son4 ,assurances ( 8 love1 intimacies & c>esses & complim5ts ( ! mo/ absurd & pu]ile sort1 address$ by ,*ri/ to ,g]trude z an individual1 =m ! tissue ( ?is paltrym9d$ recital47#bjd7 ,9 read+ su* a n>rative1 we realize ! gap betwe5 ! ?irte5? & ! tw5tie? c5tury1 & we feel t sa9tl9ess ( "* may yield almo/ absolutely wor?less fruits if x be associat$ ) su* inf]ior intellectual sympa?ies4 ,:at ) sci5ce1 idealism1 & democracy1 our own imag9ation has gr[n to ne$ a ,god ( an entirely diff]5t temp]am5t f t ,be+ int]e/$ exclusively 9 deal+ out p]sonal favors1 ) :om our ance/ors 7 s cont5t$4 ,smitt5 z we are ) ! vision ( social righte\sness1 a ,god indiff]5t to ev]y?+ b adulation1 & full ( p>tiality = 8 individual favorites1 lacks an ess5tial elem5t ( l>g5ess2 & ev5 ! be/ pr(essional sa9?ood ( =m] c5turies1 p5t 9 z x is to su* a conception1 seems to u curi\sly %all[ & un$ify+4 ,take ,sa9t ,t]esa1 = example1 "o ( ! able/ wom51 9 _m respects1 ( ^: life we h ! record4 ,%e _h a p[]ful intellect ( ! practical ord]4 ,%e wrote admirable descriptive psy*ology1 possess$ a w equal to any em]g5cy1 great tal5t = politics & bus9ess1 a buoyant disposition1 & a fir/rate lit]>y /yle4 ,%e 0 t5aci\sly aspir+1 & put h] :ole life at ! s]vice ( h] religi\s ideals4 ,yet s paltry 7 ^!1 accord+ to our pres5t way ( ?9k+1 t 7al?\gh ,i "k t o!rs h be5 mov$ diff]5tly7 ,i confess t my only feel+ 9 read+ h] has be5 pity t s mu* vitality ( s\l %\ld h f\nd su* poor employm5t4 ,9 spite ( ! suff]+s :i* %e endur$1 !re is a curi\s flavor ( sup]ficiality ab\t h] g5ius4 ,a ,birm+ham an?ropologi/1 ,dr4 ,jordan1 has divid$ ! human race into two types1 :om he calls 8%rews0 & 8non%rews0 respectively47#bje7 ,! %rewtype is def9$ z possess+ an 8active unimpassion$ temp]am5t40 ,9 o!r words1 %rews are ! 8motors10 r ?an ! 8s5sories107#bjf7 & _! expressions are z a rule m en]getic ?an ! feel+s :i* appe> to prompt !m4 ,sa9t ,t]esa1 p>adoxical z su* a judgm5t may s\nd1 0 a typical %rew1 9 ?is s5se ( ! t]m4 ,! bu/le ( h] /yle1 z well z ( h] life1 proves x4 ,n only mu/ %e receive unhe>d( p]sonal favors & spiritual graces f h] ,savi\r1 b %e mu/ imm$iately write ab\t !m & exploit] !m pr(essionally1 & use h] exp]tness to give in/ruction to ^? less privileg$4 ,h] voluble egotism2 h] s5se1 n ( radical bad be+1 z ! really contrite h x1 b ( h] 8faults0 & 8imp]fections0 9 ! plural2 h] /]eotyp$ humility & return ^u h]self1 z cov]$ ) 8confusion0 at ea* new manife/ation ( ,god's s+ul> p>tiality = a p]son s unwor?y1 are typical ( %rewdom3 a p>am\ntly feel+ nature w\ld be objectively lo/ 9 gratitude1 & sil5t4 ,%e _h "s public in/9cts1 x is true2 %e hat$ ! ,lu!rans1 & long$ = ! *ur*'s triumph ov] !m2 b 9 ! ma9 h] idea ( religion seems to h be5 t ( an endless amatory flirtation--if "o may say s )\t irrev]5ce--betwe5 ! devotee & ! deity2 & ap>t f help+ y\ng] nuns to g 9 ?is direction by ! inspiration ( h] example & in/ruction1 !re is absolutely no human use 9 h]1 or sign ( any g5]al human int]e/4 ,yet ! _s ( h] age1 f> f rebuk+ h]1 exalt$ h] z sup]human4 ,we h to pass a simil> judgm5t on ! :ole notion ( sa9t%ip bas$ on m]its4 ,any ,god :o1 on ! "o h&1 c c>e to keep a p$antically m9ute acc\nt ( individual %ortcom+s1 & on ! o!r c feel su* p>tialities1 & load p>ticul> creatures ) su* insipid m>ks ( favor1 is too smallm9d$ a ,god = our cr$5ce4 ,:5 ,lu!r1 9 8 imm5se manly way1 swept (f by a /roke ( 8 h& ! v notion ( a debit & cr$it acc\nt kept ) individuals by ! ,almighty1 he /ret*$ ! s\l's imag9ation & sav$ !ology f pu]ility4 ,s mu* = m]e devotion1 divorc$ f ! intellectual conceptions :i* might guide x t[>ds be>+ useful human fruit4 ,! next sa9tly virtue 9 :i* we f9d excess is ,purity4 ,9 !opa?ic *>act]s1 l ^? :om we h j consid]$1 ! love ( ,god mu/ n be mix$ ) any o!r love4 ,fa!r & "m1 si/]s1 bro!rs1 & fri5ds are felt z int]f]+ di/ractions2 = s5sitiv5ess & n>r[ness1 :5 !y occur toge!r1 z !y (t5 d1 require above all ?+s a simplifi$ _w to dwell 94 ,v>iety & confusion are too mu* = _! p[]s ( com=table adaptation4 ,b :]eas y\r aggressive pieti/ rea*es 8 unity objectively1 by =cibly /amp+ disord] & div]g5ce out1 y\r retir+ pieti/ rea*es 8 subjectively1 leav+ disord] 9 ! _w at l>ge1 b mak+ a small] _w 9 :i* he dwells himself & f :i* he elim9ates x altoge!r4 ,?us1 alongside ( ! *ur* militant ) its prisons1 dragonnades1 & inquisition me?ods1 we h ! *ur* fugi5t1 z "o might call x1 ) its h]mitages1 mona/]ies1 & sect>ian organizations1 bo? *ur*es pursu+ ! same object--to unify ! life17#bjg7 & simplify ! spectacle pres5t$ to ! s\l4 ,a m9d extremely s5sitive to inn] discords w drop "o ext]nal relation aft] ano!r1 z int]f]+ ) ! absorption ( consci\sness 9 spiritual ?+s4 ,amusem5ts mu/ g fir/1 !n conv5tional 8society10 !n bus9ess1 !n family duties1 until at la/ seclusion1 ) a subdivision ( ! day into h\rs = /at$ religi\s acts1 is ! only ?+ t c be borne4 ,! lives ( sa9ts are a hi/ory ( successive r5unciations ( complication1 "o =m ( contact ) ! out] life be+ dropp$ aft] ano!r1 to save ! purity ( inn] tone47#bjh7 8,is x n bett]10 a "y si/] asks h] ,sup]ior1 8t ,i %\ld n speak at all dur+ ! h\r ( recreation1 s z n to run ! risk1 by speak+1 ( fall+ into "s s9 ( :i* ,i might n be consci\s807#bji7 ,if ! life rema9s a social "o at all1 ^? :o take "p 9 x mu/ foll[ "o id5tical rule4 ,embosom$ 9 ?is monotony1 ! zealot = purity feels clean & free once m4 ,! m9ut5ess ( uni=mity ma9ta9$ 9 c]ta9 sect>ian communities1 :e!r mona/ic or n1 is some?+ almo/ inconceivable to a man ( ! _w4 ,co/ume1 phraseology1 h\rs1 & habits are absolutely /]eotyp$1 & !re is no d\bt t "s p]sons are s made z to f9d 9 ?is /ability an incomp>able k9d ( m5tal re/4 ,we h no "t to multiply examples1 s ,i w let ! case ( ,sa9t ,l\is ( ,gonzaga s]ve z a type ( excess 9 purification4 ,i ?9k y w agree t ?is y\? c>ri$ ! elim9ation ( ! ext]nal & discordant to a po9t :i* we _c unres]v$ly admire4 ,at ! age ( t51 8 biograph] says3-- 8,! inspiration came to him to consecrate to ! ,"m ( ,god 8 own virg9ity--t be+ to h] ! mo/ agreeable ( possible pres5ts4 ,)\t delay1 !n1 & ) all ! f]vor !re 0 9 him1 joy\s ( he>t1 & burn+ ) love1 he made 8 v[ ( p]petual *a/ity4 ,m>y accept$ ! (f]+ ( 8 innoc5t he>t1 & obta9$ = him f ,god1 z a recomp5se1 ! extraord9>y grace ( nev] feel+ dur+ 8 entire life ! slighte/ t\* ( temptation aga9/ ! virtue ( purity4 ,?is 0 an altoge!r exceptional favor1 r>ely accord$ ev5 to ,sa9ts !mselves1 & all ! m m>vel\s 9 t ,l\is dwelt always 9 c\rts & among great folks1 :]e dang] & opportunity are s unusually frequ5t4 ,x is true t ,l\is f 8 e>lie/ *ildhood _h %[n a natural repugnance = :atev] might be impure or unvirg9al1 & ev5 = relations ( any sort :atev] betwe5 p]sons ( opposite sex4 ,b ?is made x all ! m surpris+ t he %\ld1 especially s9ce ?is v[1 feel x necess>y to h rec\rse to su* a numb] ( exp$i5ts = protect+ aga9/ ev5 ! %ad[ ( dang] ! virg9ity :i* he _h ?us consecrat$4 ,"o might suppose t if any "o c\ld h cont5t$ himself ) ! ord9>y precautions1 prescrib$ = all ,*ri/ians1 x w\ld assur$ly h be5 he4 ,b no6 ,9 ! use ( pres]vatives & means ( def5se1 9 flight f ! mo/ insignificant occasions1 f e possibility ( p]il1 j z 9 ! mortification ( 8 fle%1 he w5t f>!r ?an ! majority ( sa9ts4 ,he1 :o by an extraord9>y protection ( ,god's grace 0 nev] tempt$1 measur$ all 8 /eps z if he 7 ?reat5$ on e side by p>ticul> dang]s4 ,!nce=w>d he nev] rais$ 8 eyes1 ei!r :5 walk+ 9 ! /reets1 or :5 9 society4 ,n only did he avoid all bus9ess ) females ev5 m scrupul\sly ?an be=e1 b he r5\nc$ all conv]sation & e k9d ( social recreation ) !m1 al?\gh 8 fa!r tri$ to make him take "p2 & he comm5c$ only too e>ly to deliv] 8 innoc5t body to au/]ities ( e k9d407#baj7 ,at ! age ( twelve1 we read ( ?is "y man t 8if by *ance 8 "m s5t "o ( h] maids ( honor to him ) a message1 he nev] all[$ h] to come 91 b li/5$ to h] ?r\gh ! b>ely op5$ door1 & dismiss$ h] imm$iately4 ,he did n l to be alone ) 8 own "m1 :e!r at table or 9 conv]sation2 & :5 ! re/ ( ! company )drew1 he s\ght also a pretext = retir+4444 ,sev]al great ladies1 relatives ( 81 he avoid$ le>n+ to "k ev5 by sight2 & he made a sort ( treaty ) 8 fa!r1 engag+ promptly & readily to acc$e to all 8 wi%es1 if he might only be excus$ f all visits to ladies40 7,ibid41 p4 #ga47 ,:5 he 0 sev5te5 ye>s old ,l\is jo9$ ! ,jesuit ord]7#baa7 aga9/ 8 fa!r's passionate entreaties1 = he 0 heir ( a pr9cely h\se2 & :5 a ye> lat] ! fa!r di$1 he took ! loss z a 8p>ticul> att5tion0 to himself on ,god's "p1 & wrote lett]s ( /ilt$ good advice1 z f a spiritual sup]ior1 to 8 griev+ "m4 ,he soon became s good a monk t if any "o ask$ him ! numb] ( 8 bro!rs & si/]s1 he _h to reflect & c\nt !m ov] be=e reply+4 ,a ,fa!r ask$ him "o day if he 7 nev] tr\bl$ by ! ?\ght ( 8 family1 to :i*1 8,i nev] ?9k ( !m except :5 pray+ = !m10 0 8 only answ]4 ,nev] 0 he se5 to hold 9 8 h& a fl[] or any?+ p]fum$1 t he might take pleasure 9 x4 ,on ! contr>y1 9 ! hospital1 he us$ to seek = :atev] 0 mo/ disgu/+1 & eag]ly snat* ! b&ages ( ulc]s1 etc41 f ! h&s ( 8 companions4 ,he avoid$ worldly talk1 & imm$iately tri$ to turn e conv]sation on to pi\s subjects1 or else he rema9$ sil5t4 ,he sy/ematically refus$ to notice 8 surr\nd+s4 ,be+ ord]$ "o day to br+ a book f ! rector's seat 9 ! refectory1 he _h to ask :]e ! rector sat1 = 9 ! ?ree mon?s he _h eat5 bread !re1 s c>efully did he gu>d 8 eyes t he _h n notic$ ! place4 ,"o day1 dur+ recess1 hav+ look$ by *ance on "o ( 8 companions1 he reproa*$ himself z = a grave s9 aga9/ mode/y4 ,he cultivat$ sil5ce1 z pres]v+ f s9s ( ! tongue2 & 8 greate/ p5ance 0 ! limit :i* 8 sup]iors set to 8 bodily p5ances4 ,he s\ght aft] false accusations & unju/ reprim&s z opportunities ( humility2 & su* 0 8 ob$i5ce t1 :5 a roommate1 hav+ no m pap]1 ask$ him = a %eet1 he did n feel free to give x to him )\t fir/ obta9+ ! p]mission ( ! sup]ior1 :o1 z su*1 /ood 9 ! place ( ,god1 & transmitt$ 8 ord]s4 ,i c f9d no o!r sorts ( fruit ?an ^! ( ,l\is's sa9t%ip4 ,he di$ 9 #aeia1 9 8 tw5tyn9? ye>1 & is kn[n 9 ! ,*ur* z ! patron ( all "y p4 ,on 8 fe/ival1 ! alt> 9 ! *apel devot$ to him 9 a c]ta9 *ur* 9 ,rome 8is embosom$ 9 fl[]s1 arrang$ ) exquisite ta/e2 & a pile ( lett]s may be se5 at its foot1 writt5 to ! ,sa9t by "y m5 & wom51 & direct$ to #8,p>adiso4' ,!y are suppos$ to be burnt unread except by ,san ,luigi1 :o mu/ f9d s+ul> petitions 9 ^! pretty little missives1 ti$ up n[ ) a gre5 ribbon1 expressive ( hope1 n[ ) a r$ "o1 emblematic ( love10 etc47#bab7 ,our f9al judgm5t ( ! wor? ( su* a life z ?is w dep5d l>gely on our conception ( ,god1 & ( ! sort ( conduct he is be/ pleas$ ) 9 8 creatures4 ,! ,ca?olicism ( ! sixte5? c5tury paid little he$ to social righte\sness2 & to leave ! _w to ! devil :il/ sav+ "o's own s\l 0 !n acc\nt$ no discr$itable s*eme4 ,today1 rightly or wrongly1 helpfulness 9 g5]al human affairs is1 9 consequ5ce ( "o ( ^? secul> mutations 9 moral s5tim5t ( :i* ,i spoke1 deem$ an ess5tial elem5t ( wor? 9 "*2 & to be ( "s public or private use is also reckon$ z a species ( div9e s]vice4 ,o!r e>ly ,jesuits1 especially ! mission>ies among !m1 ! ,xavi]s1 ,brbeufs1 ,jogues1 7 objective m9ds1 & f\ght 9 _! way = ! _w's welf>e2 s _! lives today inspire u4 ,b :5 ! intellect1 z 9 ?is ,l\is1 is orig9ally no l>g] ?an a p9's head1 & *]i%es ideas ( ,god ( correspond+ smallness1 ! result1 not)/&+ ! h]oism put =?1 is on ! :ole repulsive4 ,purity1 we see 9 ! objectlesson1 is n ! "o ?+ ne$ful2 & x is bett] t a life %\ld contract _m a dirtm>k1 ?an =feit usefulness 9 its ef=ts to rema9 unspott$4 ,proce$+ onw>ds 9 our se>* ( religi\s extravagance1 we next come ^u excesses ( ,t5d]ness & ,*>ity4 ,"h sa9tl9ess has to face ! *>ge ( pres]v+ ! unfit1 & bre$+ p>asites & begg>s4 8,resi/ n evil10 8,love y\r enemies10 ^! are sa9tly maxims ( :i* m5 ( ?is _w f9d x h>d to speak )\t impati5ce4 ,are ! m5 ( ?is _w "r1 or are ! sa9ts 9 possession ( ! deep] range ( tru?8 ,no simple answ] is possible4 ,"h1 if any:]e1 "o feels ! complexity ( ! moral life1 & ! my/]i\sness ( ! way 9 :i* facts & ideals are int]wov54 ,p]fect conduct is a relation betwe5 ?ree t]ms3 ! actor1 ! objects = :i* he acts1 & ! recipi5ts ( ! action4 ,9 ord] t conduct %\ld be ab/ractly p]fect1 all ?ree t]ms1 int5tion1 execution1 & reception1 %\ld be suit$ to "o ano!r4 ,! be/ int5tion w fail if x ei!r "w by false means or address itself to ! wrong recipi5t4 ,?us no critic or e/imator ( ! value ( conduct c conf9e himself to ! actor's animus alone1 ap>t f ! o!r elem5ts ( ! p]=mance4 ,z !re is no worse lie ?an a tru? misund]/ood by ^? :o he> x1 s reasonable argum5ts1 *all5ges to magnanimity1 & appeals to sympa?y or ju/ice1 are folly :5 we are deal+ ) human crocodiles & boacon/rictors4 ,! sa9t may simply give ! univ]se into ! h&s ( ! enemy by 8 tru/fulness4 ,he may by nonresi/ance cut (f 8 own survival4 ,h]b]t ,sp5c] tells u t ! p]fect man's conduct w appe> p]fect only :5 ! environm5t is p]fect3 to no inf]ior environm5t is x suitably adapt$4 ,we may p>aphrase ?is by cordially admitt+ t sa9tly conduct w\ld be ! mo/ p]fect conduct conceivable 9 an environm5t :]e all 7 sa9ts already2 b by add+ t 9 an environm5t :]e few are sa9ts1 & _m ! exact rev]se ( sa9ts1 x mu/ be ill adapt$4 ,we mu/ frankly confess1 !n1 us+ our empirical common s5se & ord9>y practical prejudices1 t 9 ! _w t actually is1 ! virtues ( sympa?y1 *>ity1 & nonresi/ance may be1 & (t5 h be51 manife/$ 9 excess4 ,! p[]s ( d>kness h sy/ematically tak5 advantage ( !m4 ,! :ole mod]n sci5tific organization ( *>ity is a consequ5ce ( ! failure ( simply giv+ alms4 ,! :ole hi/ory ( con/itutional gov]nm5t is a comm5t>y on ! excell5ce ( resi/+ evil1 & :5 "o *eek is smitt51 ( smit+ back & n turn+ ! o!r *eek also4 ,y w agree to ?is 9 g5]al1 = 9 spite ( ! ,gospel1 9 spite ( ,quak]ism1 9 spite ( ,tol/oi1 y believe 9 fight+ fire ) fire1 9 %oot+ d[n usurp]s1 lock+ up ?ieves1 & freez+ out vagabonds & sw9dl]s4 ,& yet y are sure1 z ,i am sure1 t 7 ! _w conf9$ to ^! h>dhead$1 h>dhe>t$1 & h>dfi/$ me?ods exclusively1 7 !re no "o prompt to help a bro!r fir/1 & f9d out aft]w>ds :e!r he 7 wor?y2 no "o will+ to dr[n 8 private wrongs 9 pity = ! wrong]'s p]son2 no "o ready to be dup$ _m a "t r ?an live always on suspicion2 no "o glad to treat individuals passionately & impulsively r ?an by g5]al rules ( prud5ce2 ! _w w\ld be an inf9itely worse place ?an x is n[ to live 94 ,! t5d] grace1 n ( a day t is dead1 b ( a day yet to be born someh[1 ) ! gold5 rule gr[n natural1 w\ld be cut out f ! p]spective ( our imag9ations4 ,! sa9ts1 exi/+ 9 ?is way1 may1 ) _! extravagances ( human t5d]ness1 be prophetic4 ,nay1 innum]able times !y h prov$ !mselves prophetic4 ,treat+ ^? :om !y met1 9 spite ( ! pa/1 9 spite ( all appe>ances1 z wor?y1 !y h /imulat$ !m to be wor?y1 miracul\sly trans=m$ !m by _! radiant example & by ! *all5ge ( _! expectation4 ,f ?is po9t ( view we may admit ! human *>ity :i* we f9d 9 all sa9ts1 & ! great excess ( x :i* we f9d 9 "s sa9ts1 to be a g5u9ely creative social =ce1 t5d+ to make real a degree ( virtue :i* x alone is ready to assume z possible4 ,! sa9ts are au?ors1 auctores1 increas]s1 ( goodness4 ,! pot5tialities ( developm5t 9 human s\ls are unfa?omable4 ,s _m :o seem$ irretrievably h>d5$ h 9 po9t ( fact be5 s(t5$1 conv]t$1 reg5]at$1 9 ways t amaz$ ! subjects ev5 m ?an !y surpris$ ! spectators1 t we nev] c be sure 9 advance ( any man t 8 salvation by ! way ( love is hopeless4 ,we h no "r to speak ( human crocodiles & boa con/rictors z ( fix$ly incurable be+s4 ,we "k n ! complexities ( p]sonality1 ! sm\ld]+ emotional fires1 ! o!r facets ( ! "*polyh$ron1 ! res\rces ( ! sublim9al region4 ,/4 ,paul long ago made our ance/ors famili> ) ! idea t e s\l is virtually sacr$4 ,s9ce ,*ri/ di$ = u all )\t exception1 ,/4 ,paul said1 we mu/ despair ( no "o4 ,?is belief 9 ! ess5tial sacr$ness ( e "o expresses itself today 9 all sorts ( humane cu/oms & re=matory in/itutions1 & 9 a gr[+ av]sion to ! dea? p5alty & to brutality 9 puni%m5t4 ,! sa9ts1 ) _! extravagance ( human t5d]ness1 are ! great tor*be>]s ( ?is belief1 ! tip ( ! w$ge1 ! cle>]s ( ! d>kness4 ,l ! s+le drops :i* sp>kle 9 ! sun z !y are flung f> ahead ( ! advanc+ edge ( a wavecre/ or ( a flood1 !y %[ ! way & are =]unn]s4 ,! _w is n yet ) !m1 s !y (t5 seem 9 ! mid/ ( ! _w's affairs to be prepo/]\s4 ,yet !y are impregnators ( ! _w1 vivifi]s & animat]s ( pot5tialities ( goodness :i* b = !m w\ld lie =ev] dormant4 ,x is n possible to be q z mean z we naturally are1 :5 !y h pass$ be=e u4 ,"o fire k9dles ano!r2 & )\t t ov]tru/ 9 human wor? :i* !y %[1 ! re/ ( u w\ld lie 9 spiritual /agnancy4 ,mom5t>ily consid]$1 !n1 ! sa9t may wa/e 8 t5d]ness & be ! dupe & victim ( 8 *>itable fev]1 b ! g5]al function ( 8 *>ity 9 social evolution is vital & ess5tial4 ,if ?+s are ev] to move upw>d1 "s "o mu/ be ready to take ! fir/ /ep1 & assume ! risk ( x4 ,no "o :o is n will+ to try *>ity1 to try non resi/ance z ! sa9t is always will+1 c tell :e!r ^! me?ods w or w n succe$4 ,:5 !y d succe$1 !y are f> m p[]fully successful ?an =ce or worldly prud5ce4 ,=ce de/roys enemies2 & ! be/ t c be said ( prud5ce is t x keeps :at we already h 9 safety4 ,b nonresi/ance1 :5 successful1 turns enemies into fri5ds2 & *>ity reg5]ates its objects4 ,^! sa9tly me?ods are1 z ,i said1 creative en]gies2 & g5u9e sa9ts f9d 9 ! elevat$ excitem5t ) :i* _! fai? end[s !m an au?ority & impressiv5ess :i* makes !m irresi/ible 9 situations :]e m5 ( %all[] nature _c get on at all )\t ! use ( worldly prud5ce4 ,?is practical pro( t worldly wisdom may be safely transc5d$ is ! sa9t's magic gift to mank9d47#bac7 ,n only does 8 vision ( a bett] _w console u = ! g5]ally prevail+ prose & b>r5ness2 b ev5 :5 on ! :ole we h to confess him ill adapt$1 he makes "s conv]ts1 & ! environm5t gets bett] = 8 m9i/ry4 ,he is an effective f]m5t ( goodness1 a sl[ transmut] ( ! e>?ly into a m heav5ly ord]4 ,9 ?is respect ! ,utopian dreams ( social ju/ice 9 :i* _m contempor>y sociali/s & an>*i/s indulge are1 9 spite ( _! impracticability & nonadaptation to pres5t environm5tal conditions1 analog\s to ! sa9t's belief 9 an exi/5t k+dom ( heav54 ,!y help to break ! edge ( ! g5]al reign ( h>dness1 & are sl[ leav5s ( a bett] ord]4 ,! next topic 9 ord] is ,asceticism1 :i* ,i fancy y are all ready to consid] )\t argum5t a virtue liable to extravagance & excess4 ,! optimism & ref9em5t ( ! mod]n imag9ation has1 z ,i h already said else:]e1 *ang$ ! attitude ( ! *ur* t[>ds corporeal mortification1 & a ,suso or a ,sa9t ,pet] ( ,alcant>a7#bad7 appe> to u today r 9 ! light ( tragic m\ntebanks ?an ( sane m5 inspir+ u ) respect4 ,if ! inn] dispositions are "r1 we ask1 :at ne$ ( all ?is torm5t1 ?is violation ( ! out] nature8 ,x keeps ! out] nature too important4 ,any "o :o is g5u9ely emancipat$ f ! fle% w look on pleasures & pa9s1 abundance & privation1 z alike irrelevant & indiff]5t4 ,he c engage 9 actions & exp]i5ce enjoym5ts )\t fe> ( corruption or enslavem5t4 ,z ! ,bhagavad,gita says1 only ^? ne$ r5\nce worldly actions :o are /ill inw>dly atta*$ !reto4 ,if "o be really unatta*$ to ! fruits ( action1 "o may mix 9 ! _w ) equanimity4 ,i quot$ 9 a =m] lecture ,sa9t ,augu/9e's ant9omian say+3 ,if y only love ,god en\gh1 y may safely foll[ all y\r incl9ations4 8,he ne$s no devotional practices10 is "o ( ,ramakri%na's maxims1 8^: he>t is mov$ to te>s at ! m]e m5tion ( ! "n ( ,h>i407#bae7 ,& ! ,buddha1 9 po9t+ out :at he call$ 8! middle way0 to 8 disciples1 told !m to ab/a9 f bo? extremes1 excessive mortification be+ z unreal & unwor?y z m]e desire & pleasure4 ,! only p]fect life1 he said1 is t ( inn] wisdom1 :i* makes "o ?+ z indiff]5t to u z ano!r1 & ?us leads to re/1 to peace1 & to ,nirvna47#baf7 ,we f9d accord+ly t z ascetic sa9ts h gr[n old]1 & directors ( consci5ce m exp]i5c$1 !y usually h %[n a t5d5cy to lay less /ress on special bodily mortifications4 ,ca?olic tea*]s h always pr(ess$ ! rule t1 s9ce heal? is ne$$ = effici5cy 9 ,god's s]vice1 heal? mu/ n be sacrific$ to mortification4 ,! g5]al optimism & heal?ym9d$ness ( lib]al ,prote/ant circles today makes mortification = mortification's sake repugnant to u4 ,we c no long] sympa?ize ) cruel deities1 & ! notion t ,god c take delight 9 ! spectacle ( suff]+s selfinflict$ 9 8 honor is abhorr5t4 ,9 consequ5ce ( all ^! motives y probably are dispos$1 unless "s special utility c be %[n 9 "s individual's discipl9e1 to treat ! g5]al t5d5cy to asceticism z pa?ological4 ,yet ,i believe t a m c>eful consid]ation ( ! :ole matt]1 di/+ui%+ betwe5 ! g5]al good int5tion ( asceticism & ! uselessness ( "s ( ! p>ticul> acts ( :i* x may be guilty1 ought to rehabilitate x 9 our e/eem4 ,= 9 its spiritual mean+ asceticism /&s = no?+ less ?an = ! ess5ce ( ! twiceborn philosophy4 ,x symbolizes1 lamely en\gh no d\bt1 b s9c]ely1 ! belief t !re is an elem5t ( real wrongness 9 ?is _w1 :i* is nei!r to be ignor$ nor evad$1 b :i* mu/ be squ>ely met & ov]come by an appeal to ! s\l's h]oic res\rces1 & neutraliz$ & cleans$ away by suff]+4 ,z aga9/ ?is view1 ! ultraoptimi/ic =m ( ! onceborn philosophy ?9ks we may treat evil by ! me?od ( ignor+4 ,let a man :o1 by =tunate heal? & circum/ances1 escapes ! suff]+ ( any great am\nt ( evil 9 8 own p]son1 also close 8 eyes to x z x exi/s 9 ! wid] univ]se outside 8 private exp]i5ce1 & he w be quit ( x altoge!r1 & c sail ?r\gh life happily on a heal?ym9d$ basis4 ,b we saw 9 our lectures on melan*oly h[ prec>i\s ?is attempt necess>ily is4 ,moreov] x is b = ! individual2 & leaves ! evil outside ( him1 unr$eem$ & unprovid$ = 9 8 philosophy4 ,no su* attempt c be a g5]al solution ( ! problem2 & to m9ds ( sombre t+e1 :o naturally feel life z a tragic my/]y1 su* optimism is a %all[ dodge or mean evasion4 ,x accepts1 9 lieu ( a real deliv]ance1 :at is a lucky p]sonal accid5t m]ely1 a cranny to escape by4 ,x leaves ! g5]al _w unhelp$ & /ill 9 ! clut* ( ,satan4 ,! real deliv]ance1 ! twiceborn folk insi/1 mu/ be ( univ]sal application4 ,pa9 & wrong & dea? mu/ be fairly met & ov]come 9 high] excitem5t1 or else _! /+ rema9s ess5tially unbrok54 ,if "o has ev] tak5 ! fact ( ! preval5ce ( tragic dea? 9 ?is _w's hi/ory fairly into 8 m9d1--freez+1 dr[n+1 entombm5t alive1 wild bea/s1 worse m51 & hide\s diseases1--he c ) difficulty1 x seems to me1 cont9ue 8 own c>e] ( worldly prosp]ity )\t suspect+ t he may all ! :ile n be really inside ! game1 t he may lack ! great initiation4 ,well1 ?is is exactly :at asceticism ?9ks2 & x volunt>ily takes ! initiation4 ,life is nei!r f>ce nor g5teel com$y1 x says1 b some?+ we mu/ sit at 9 m\rn+ g>m5ts1 hop+ its bitt] ta/e w purge u ( our folly4 ,! wild & ! h]oic are inde$ su* root$ p>ts ( x t heal?ym9d$ness pure & simple1 ) its s5tim5tal optimism1 c h>dly be reg>d$ by any ?9k+ man z a s]i\s solution4 ,phrases ( neatness1 cos9ess1 & com=t c nev] be an answ] to ! sph9x's riddle4 ,9 ^! rem>ks ,i am lean+ only ^u mank9d's common in/9ct = reality1 :i* 9 po9t ( fact has always held ! _w to be ess5tially a !atre = h]oism4 ,9 h]oism1 we feel1 life's supreme my/]y is hidd54 ,we tol]ate no "o :o has no capacity :atev] = x 9 any direction4 ,on ! o!r h&1 no matt] :at a man's frailties o!rwise may be1 if he be will+ to risk dea?1 & /ill m if he suff] x h]oically1 9 ! s]vice he has *os51 ! fact consecrates him =ev]4 ,inf]ior to ourselves 9 ?is or t way1 if yet we cl+ to life1 & he is able 8to fl+ x away l a fl[]0 z c>+ no?+ = x1 we acc\nt him 9 ! deepe/ way our born sup]ior4 ,ea* ( u 9 8 own p]son feels t a highhe>t$ indiff]5ce to life w\ld expiate all 8 %ortcom+s4 ,! metaphysical my/]y1 ?us recogniz$ by common s5se1 t he :o fe$s on dea? t fe$s on m5 possesses life sup]em95tly & excell5tly1 & meets be/ ! secret dem&s ( ! univ]se1 is ! tru? ( :i* asceticism has be5 ! fai?ful *ampion4 ,! folly ( ! cross1 s inexplicable by ! intellect1 has yet its inde/ructible vital mean+4 ,repres5tatively1 !n1 & symbolically1 & ap>t f ! vag>ies into :i* ! un5light5$ intellect ( =m] times may h let x w&]1 asceticism mu/1 ,i believe1 be ackn[l$g$ to g ) ! pr(\nd] way ( h&l+ ! gift ( exi/5ce4 ,naturali/ic optimism is m]e syllabub & flatt]y & spongecake 9 comp>ison4 ,! practical c\rse ( action = u1 z religi\s m51 w\ld !re=e1 x seems to me1 n be simply to turn our backs ^u ! ascetic impulse1 z mo/ ( u today turn !m1 b r to discov] "s outlet = x ( :i* ! fruits 9 ! way ( privation & h>d%ip might be objectively useful4 ,! old] mona/ic asceticism occupi$ itself ) pa!tic futilities1 or t]m9at$ 9 ! m]e egotism ( ! individual1 increas+ 8 own p]fection47#bag7 ,b is x n possible = u to disc>d mo/ ( ^! old] =ms ( mortification1 & yet f9d san] *annels = ! h]oism :i* inspir$ !m8 ,does n1 = example1 ! wor%ip ( mat]ial luxury & weal?1 :i* con/itutes s l>ge a portion ( ! 8_s0 ( our age1 make some:at = effem9acy & unmanl9ess8 ,is n ! exclusively sympa!tic & faceti\s way 9 :i* mo/ *ildr5 are br\ght up today--s diff]5t f ! education ( a hundr$ ye>s ago1 especially 9 evangelical circles--9 dang]1 9 spite ( its _m advantages1 ( develop+ a c]ta9 tra%9ess ( fibre8 ,are !re n h]eab\ts "s po9ts ( application = a r5ovat$ & revis$ ascetic discipl9e8 ,_m ( y w\ld recognize su* dang]s1 b w\ld po9t to a?letics1 milit>ism1 & individual & national ent]prise & adv5ture z ! rem$ies4 ,^! contempor>y ideals are q z rem>kable = ! en]gy ) :i* !y make = h]oic /&>ds ( life1 z contempor>y religion is rem>kable = ! way 9 :i* x neglects !m47#bah7 ,w> & adv5ture assur$ly keep all :o engage 9 !m f treat+ !mselves too t5d]ly4 ,!y dem& su* incr$ible ef=ts1 dep? beyond dep? ( ex]tion1 bo? 9 degree & 9 duration1 t ! :ole scale ( motivation alt]s4 ,discom=t & annoyance1 hung] & wet1 pa9 & cold1 squalor & fil?1 cease to h any det]r5t op]ation :atev]4 ,dea? turns into a commonplace matt]1 & its usual p[] to *eck our action vani%es4 ,) ! annull+ ( ^! cu/om>y inhibitions1 ranges ( new en]gy are set free1 & life seems ca/ ^u a high] plane ( p[]4 ,! beauty ( w> 9 ?is respect is t x is s congru\s ) ord9>y human nature4 ,ance/ral evolution has made u all pot5tial w>riors2 s ! mo/ insignificant individual1 :5 ?r[n into an army 9 ! field1 is wean$ f :atev] excess ( t5d]ness t[>ds 8 preci\s p]son he may br+ ) him1 & may easily develop into a mon/] ( ins5sibility4 ,b :5 we comp>e ! milit>y type ( selfsev]ity ) t ( ! ascetic sa9t1 we f9d a _wwide diff]5ce 9 all _! spiritual concomitants4 8 #8,live & let live1' 0 writes a cle>head$ ,au/rian (fic]1 8is no device = an army4 ,contempt = "o's own comrades1 = ! troops ( ! enemy1 &1 above all1 fi]ce contempt = "o's own p]son1 are :at w> dem&s ( e "o4 ,f> bett] is x = an army to be too savage1 too cruel1 too b>b>\s1 ?an to possess too mu* s5tim5tality & human reasonabl5ess4 ,if ! soldi] is to be good = any?+ z a soldi]1 he mu/ be exactly ! opposite ( a reason+ & ?9k+ man4 ,! measure ( goodness 9 him is 8 possible use 9 w>4 ,w>1 & ev5 peace1 require ( ! soldi] absolutely peculi> /&>ds ( morality4 ,! recruit br+s ) him common moral notions1 ( :i* he mu/ seek imm$iately to get rid4 ,= him victory1 success1 mu/ be ev]y?+4 ,! mo/ b>b>ic t5d5cies 9 m5 come to life aga9 9 w>1 & = w>'s uses !y are incomm5surably good407#bai7 ,^! words are ( c\rse lit]ally true4 ,! imm$iate aim ( ! soldi]'s life is1 z ,moltke said1 de/ruction1 & no?+ b de/ruction2 & :atev] con/ructions w>s result 9 are remote & non milit>y4 ,consequ5tly ! soldi] _c tra9 himself to be too feel+less to all ^? usual sympa?ies & respects1 :e!r = p]sons or = ?+s1 t make = cons]vation4 ,yet ! fact rema9s t w> is a s*ool ( /r5u\s life & h]oism2 &1 be+ 9 ! l9e ( aborig9al in/9ct1 is ! only s*ool t z yet is univ]sally available4 ,b :5 we gravely ask ourselves :e!r ?is :olesale organization ( irrationality & crime be our only bulw>k aga9/ effem9acy1 we /& agha/ at ! ?\ght1 & ?9k m k9dly ( ascetic religion4 ,"o he>s ( ! me*anical equival5t ( heat4 ,:at we n[ ne$ to discov] 9 ! social realm is ! moral equival5t ( w>3 some?+ h]oic t w speak to m5 z univ]sally z w> does1 & yet w be z compatible ) _! spiritual selves z w> has prov$ itself to be incompatible4 ,i h (t5 ?\ght t 9 ! old monki% pov]tywor%ip1 9 spite ( ! p$antry :i* infe/$ x1 !re might be some?+ l t moral equival5t ( w> :i* we are seek+4 ,may n volunt>ily accept$ pov]ty be 8! /r5u\s life10 )\t ! ne$ ( cru%+ weak] peoples8 ,pov]ty inde$ is ! /r5u\s life1--)\t brass b&s or uni=ms or hy/]ic popul> applause or lies or circumlocutions2 & :5 "o sees ! way 9 :i* weal?gett+ ent]s z an ideal into ! v bone & m>r[ ( our g5]ation1 "o wond]s :e!r a revival ( ! belief t pov]ty is a wor?y religi\s vocation may n be 8! trans=mation ( milit>y c\rage10 & ! spiritual re=m :i* our "t /&s mo/ 9 ne$ (4 ,among u ,engli%speak+ peoples especially d ! praises ( pov]ty ne$ once m to be boldly sung4 ,we h gr[n lit]ally afraid to be poor4 ,we despise any "o :o elects to be poor 9 ord] to simplify & save 8 inn] life4 ,if he does n jo9 ! g5]al scramble & pant ) ! moneymak+ /reet1 we deem him spiritless & lack+ 9 ambition4 ,we h lo/ ! p[] ev5 ( imag9+ :at ! anci5t idealization ( pov]ty c\ld h meant3 ! lib]ation f mat]ial atta*m5ts1 ! unbrib$ s\l1 ! manli] indiff]5ce1 ! pay+ our way by :at we are or d & n by :at we h1 ! "r to fl+ away our life at any mom5t irresponsibly1--! m a?letic trim1 9 %ort1 ! moral fight+ %ape4 ,:5 we ( ! scall$ bett] classes are sc>$ z m5 7 nev] sc>$ 9 hi/ory at mat]ial ugl9ess & h>d%ip2 :5 we put (f m>riage until our h\se c be arti/ic1 & quake at ! ?\ght ( hav+ a *ild )\t a bankacc\nt & doom$ to manual labor1 x is "t = ?9k+ m5 to prote/ aga9/ s unmanly & irreligi\s a /ate ( op9ion4 ,x is true t s f> z weal? gives "t = ideal ends & ex]cise to ideal en]gies1 weal? is bett] ?an pov]ty & ought to be *os54 ,b weal? does ?is 9 only a portion ( ! actual cases4 ,else:]e ! desire to ga9 weal? & ! fe> to lose x are our *ief bre$]s ( c[>dice & propagators ( corruption4 ,!re are ?\s&s ( conjunctures 9 :i* a weal?b\nd man mu/ be a slave1 :il/ a man = :om pov]ty has no t]rors becomes a freeman4 ,?9k ( ! /r5g? :i* p]sonal indiff]5ce to pov]ty w\ld give u if we 7 devot$ to unpopul> causes4 ,we ne$ no long] hold our tongues or fe> to vote ! revolution>y or re=matory ticket4 ,our /ocks might fall1 our hopes ( promotion vani%1 our sal>ies /op1 our club doors close 9 our faces2 yet1 :ile we liv$1 we w\ld imp]turbably be> witness to ! _s1 & our example w\ld help to set free our g5]ation4 ,! cause w\ld ne$ its funds1 b we its s]vants w\ld be pot5t 9 proportion z we p]sonally 7 cont5t$ ) our pov]ty4 ,i recomm5d ?is matt] to y\r s]i\s pond]+1 = x is c]ta9 t ! preval5t fe> ( pov]ty among ! educat$ classes is ! wor/ moral disease f :i* our civilization suff]s4 ,i h n[ said all t ,i c usefully say ab\t ! sev]al fruits ( religion z !y are manife/$ 9 sa9tly lives1 s ,i w make a brief review & pass to my m g5]al conclusions4 ,our "q1 y w rememb]1 is z to :e!r religion /&s approv$ by its fruits1 z ^! are exhibit$ 9 ! sa9tly type ( "*4 ,s+le attributes ( sa9tl9ess may1 x is true1 be temp]am5tal end[m5ts1 f\nd 9 nonreligi\s individuals4 ,b ! :ole gr\p ( !m =ms a comb9ation :i*1 z su*1 is religi\s1 = x seems to fl[ f ! s5se ( ! div9e z f its psy*ological c5tre4 ,:oev] possesses /rongly ?is s5se comes naturally to ?9k t ! smalle/ details ( ?is _w d]ive inf9ite significance f _! relation to an unse5 div9e ord]4 ,! ?\ght ( ?is ord] yields him a sup]ior d5om9ation ( happ9ess1 & a /eadfa/ness ( s\l ) :i* no o!r c comp>e4 ,9 social relations 8 s]viceability is exempl>y2 he ab\nds 9 impulses to help4 ,8 help is inw>d z well z outw>d1 = 8 sympa?y rea*es s\ls z well z bodies1 & k9dles unsuspect$ faculties !re94 ,in/ead ( plac+ happ9ess :]e common m5 place x1 9 com=t1 he places x 9 a high] k9d ( inn] excitem5t1 :i* conv]ts discom=ts into s\rces ( *e] & annuls unhapp9ess4 ,s he turns 8 back ^u no duty1 h[ev] ?ankless2 & :5 we are 9 ne$ ( assi/ance1 we c c\nt ^u ! sa9t l5d+ 8 h& ) m c]ta9ty ?an we c c\nt ^u any o!r p]son4 ,f9ally1 8 humble m9d$ness & 8 ascetic t5d5cies save him f ! petty p]sonal pret5sions :i* s ob/ruct our ord9>y social int]c\rse1 & 8 purity gives u 9 him a clean man = a companion4 ,felicity1 purity1 *>ity1 pati5ce1 selfsev]ity1--^! are spl5did excell5cies1 & ! sa9t ( all m5 %[s !m 9 ! complete/ possible measure4 ,b1 z we saw1 all ^! ?+s toge!r d n make sa9ts infallible4 ,:5 _! intellectual outlook is n>r[1 !y fall into all sorts ( holy excesses1 fanaticism or !opa?ic absorption1 selftorm5t1 prud]y1 scrupulosity1 gullibility1 & morbid inability to meet ! _w4 ,by ! v int5sity ( 8 fidelity to ! paltry ideals ) :i* an inf]ior intellect may inspire him1 a sa9t c be ev5 m objectionable & damnable ?an a sup]ficial c>nal man w\ld be 9 ! same situation4 ,we mu/ judge him n s5tim5tally only1 & n 9 isolation1 b us+ our own intellectual /&>ds1 plac+ him 9 8 environm5t1 & e/imat+ 8 total function4 ,n[ 9 ! matt] ( intellectual /&>ds1 we mu/ be> 9 m9d t x is unfair1 :]e we f9d n>r[ness ( m9d1 always to impute x z a vice to ! individual1 = 9 religi\s & !ological matt]s he probably absorbs 8 n>r[ness f 8 g5]ation4 ,moreov]1 we mu/ n conf\nd ! ess5tials ( sa9tl9ess1 :i* are ^? g5]al passions ( :i* ,i h spok51 ) its accid5ts1 :i* are ! special det]m9ations ( ^! passions at any hi/orical mom5t4 ,9 ^! det]m9ations ! sa9ts w usually be loyal to ! tempor>y idols ( _! tribe4 ,tak+ refuge 9 mona/]ies 0 z mu* an idol ( ! tribe 9 ! middle ages1 z be>+ a h& 9 ! _w's "w is today4 ,sa9t ,francis or ,sa9t ,b]n>d1 7 !y liv+ today1 w\ld und\bt$ly be lead+ consecrat$ lives ( "s sort1 b q z und\bt$ly !y w\ld n lead !m 9 retirem5t4 ,our animosity to special hi/oric manife/ations mu/ n lead u to give away ! sa9tly impulses 9 _! ess5tial nature to ! t5d] m]cies ( inimical critics4 ,! mo/ inimical critic ( ! sa9tly impulses :om ,i "k is ,nietzs*e4 ,he contra/s !m ) ! worldly passions z we f9d ^! embodi$ 9 ! pr$ace\s milit>y "*1 altoge!r to ! advantage ( ! latt]4 ,y\r born sa9t1 x mu/ be confess$1 has some?+ ab\t him :i* (t5 makes ! gorge ( a c>nal man rise1 s x w be wor? :ile to consid] ! contra/ 9 "q m fully4 ,dislike ( ! sa9tly nature seems to be a negative result ( ! biologically useful in/9ct ( welcom+ lead]%ip1 & glorify+ ! *ief ( ! tribe4 ,! *ief is ! pot5tial1 if n ! actual tyrant1 ! ma/]ful1 ov]p[]+ man ( prey4 ,we confess our inf]iority & grovel be=e him4 ,we quail "u 8 glance1 & are at ! same "t pr\d ( own+ s dang]\s a "l4 ,su* in/9ctive & submissive h]o wor%ip mu/ h be5 indisp5sable 9 primeval tribal life4 ,9 ! endless w>s ( ^? times1 lead]s 7 absolutely ne$$ = ! tribe's survival4 ,if !re 7 any tribes :o own$ no lead]s1 !y c h left no issue to n>rate _! doom4 ,! lead]s always _h good consci5ces1 = consci5ce 9 !m coalesc$ ) w1 & ^? :o look$ on _! face 7 z mu* smitt5 ) wond] at _! fre$om f inn] re/ra9t z ) awe at ! en]gy ( _! outw>d p]=mances4 ,comp>$ ) ^! beak$ & talon$ grasp]s ( ! _w1 sa9ts are h]bivor\s animals1 tame & h>mless b>ny>d p\ltry4 ,!re are sa9ts ^: be>d y may1 if y ev] c>e to1 pull ) impunity4 ,su* a man excites no ?rills ( wond] veil$ 9 t]ror2 8 consci5ce is full ( scruples & returns2 he /uns u nei!r by 8 inw>d fre$om nor 8 outw>d p[]2 & unless he f\nd )9 u an altoge!r diff]5t faculty ( admiration to appeal to1 we %\ld pass him by ) contempt4 ,9 po9t ( fact1 he does appeal to a diff]5t faculty4 ,renact$ 9 human nature is ! fable ( ! w9d1 ! sun1 & ! travel]4 ,! sexes embody ! discrepancy4 ,! woman loves ! man ! m admir+ly ! /ormi] he %[s himself1 & ! _w deifies its rul]s ! m = be+ willful & unacc\ntable4 ,b ! woman 9 turn subjugates ! man by ! my/]y ( g5tl5ess 9 beauty1 & ! sa9t has always *>m$ ! _w by some?+ simil>4 ,mank9d is susceptible & sugge/ible 9 opposite directions1 & ! rivalry ( influ5ces is unsleep+4 ,! sa9tly & ! worldly ideal pursue _! feud 9 lit]ature z mu* z 9 real life4 ,= ,nietzs*e ! sa9t repres5ts little b sneak+ness & slavi%ness4 ,he is ! sophi/icat$ invalid1 ! deg5]ate p> excell5ce1 ! man ( insuffici5t vitality4 ,8 preval5ce w\ld put ! human type 9 dang]4 8,! sick are ! greate/ dang] = ! well4 ,! weak]1 n ! /rong]1 are ! /rong's undo+4 ,x is n fe> ( our fell[man1 :i* we %\ld wi% to see dim9i%$2 = fe> r\ses ^? :o are /rong to become t]rible 9 turn !mselves1 & pres]ves ! h>de>n$ & successful type ( humanity4 ,:at is to be dread$ by u m ?an any o!r doom is n fe>1 b r ! great disgu/1 n fe>1 b r ! great pity--disgu/ & pity = our human fell[s4444 ,! morbid are our greate/ p]il--n ! #8bad' m51 n ! pr$atory be+s4 ,^? born wrong1 ! misc>ri$1 ! brok5--!y x is1 ! weake/1 :o are und]m9+ ! vitality ( ! race1 poison+ our tru/ 9 life1 & putt+ humanity 9 "q4 ,e look ( !m is a sigh1--#8,w\ld ,i 7 some?+ o!r6 ,i am sick & tir$ ( :at ,i am4' ,9 ?is swampsoil ( selfcontempt1 e poison\s we$ fl\ri%es1 & all s small1 s secret1 s di%one/1 & s sweetly rott54 ,"h sw>m ! worms ( s5sitiv5ess & res5tm5t2 "h ! air smells odi\s ) secrecy1 ) :at is n to be ackn[l$g$2 "h is wov5 endlessly ! net ( ! meane/ ( conspiracies1 ! conspiracy ( ^? :o suff] aga9/ ^? :o succe$ & are victori\s2 "h ! v aspect ( ! victori\s is hat$--z if heal?1 success1 /r5g?1 pride1 & ! s5se ( p[] 7 9 !mselves ?+s vici\s1 = :i* "o ought ev5tually to make bitt] expiation4 ,oh1 h[ ^! p w\ld !mselves l to inflict ! expiation1 h[ !y ?ir/ to be ! hangm56 ,& all ! :ile _! duplicity nev] confesses _! hatr$ to be hatr$407#bbj7 ,poor ,nietzs*e's antipa?y is itself sickly en\gh1 b we all "k :at he means1 & he expresses well ! cla% betwe5 ! two ideals4 ,! c>nivor\sm9d$ 8/rong man10 ! adult male & cannibal1 c see no?+ b m\ld9ess & morbidness 9 ! sa9t's g5tl5ess & self sev]ity1 & reg>ds him ) pure loa?+4 ,! :ole feud revolves ess5tially ^u two pivots3 ,%all ! se5 _w or ! unse5 _w be our *ief sph]e ( adaptation8 & mu/ our means ( adaptation 9 ?is se5 _w be aggressiv5ess or nonresi/ance8 ,! debate is s]i\s4 ,9 "s s5se & to "s degree bo? worlds mu/ be ackn[l$g$ & tak5 acc\nt (2 & 9 ! se5 _w bo? aggressiv5ess & nonresi/ance are ne$ful4 ,x is a "q ( emphasis1 ( m or less4 ,is ! sa9t's type or ! /rongman's type ! m ideal8 ,x has (t5 be5 suppos$1 & ev5 n[1 ,i ?9k1 x is suppos$ by mo/ p]sons1 t !re c be "o intr9sically ideal type ( human "*4 ,a c]ta9 k9d ( man1 x is imag9$1 mu/ be ! be/ man absolutely & ap>t f ! utility ( 8 function1 ap>t f economical consid]ations4 ,! sa9t's type1 & ! knight's or g5tleman's type1 h always be5 rival claimants ( ?is absolute ideality2 & 9 ! ideal ( milit>y religi\s ord]s bo? types 7 9 a mann] bl5d$4 ,accord+ to ! empirical philosophy1 h[ev]1 all ideals are matt]s ( relation4 ,x w\ld be absurd1 = example1 to ask = a def9ition ( 8! ideal horse10 s long z dragg+ drays & runn+ races1 be>+ *ildr51 & jogg+ ab\t ) tradesm5's packages all rema9 z indisp5sable diff]5tiations ( equ9e function4 ,y may take :at y call a g5]al allr\nd animal z a compromise1 b he w be inf]ior to any horse ( a m specializ$ type1 9 "s "o p>ticul> direction4 ,we mu/ n =get ?is n[ :51 9 discuss+ sa9tl9ess1 we ask if x be an ideal type ( manhood4 ,we mu/ te/ x by its economical relations4 ,i ?9k t ! me?od :i* ,mr4 ,sp5c] uses 9 8 ,data ( ,e?ics w help to fix our op9ion4 ,ideality 9 conduct is altoge!r a matt] ( adaptation4 ,a society :]e all 7 inv>iably aggressive w\ld de/roy itself by inn] friction1 & 9 a society :]e "s are aggressive1 o!rs mu/ be nonresi/ant1 if !re is to be any k9d ( ord]4 ,?is is ! pres5t con/itution ( society1 & to ! mixture we owe _m ( our bless+s4 ,b ! aggressive memb]s ( society are always t5d+ to become bullies1 robb]s1 & sw9dl]s2 & no "o believes t su* a /ate ( ?+s z we n[ live 9 is ! mill5nium4 ,x is mean:ile q possible to conceive an imag9>y society 9 :i* !re %\ld be no aggressiv5ess1 b only sympa?y & fairness1--any small community ( true fri5ds n[ realizes su* a society4 ,ab/ractly consid]$1 su* a society on a l>ge scale w\ld be ! mill5nium1 = e good ?+ might be realiz$ !re ) no exp5se ( friction4 ,to su* a mill5nial society ! sa9t w\ld be entirely adapt$4 ,8 peaceful modes ( appeal w\ld be efficaci\s ov] 8 companions1 & !re w\ld be no "o extant to take advantage ( 8 nonresi/ance4 ,! sa9t is !re=e ab/ractly a high] type ( man ?an ! 8/rong man10 because he is adapt$ to ! highe/ society conceivable1 :e!r t society ev] be concretely possible or n4 ,! /rong man w\ld imm$iately t5d by 8 pres5ce to make t society det]iorate4 ,x w\ld become inf]ior 9 ev]y?+ save 9 a c]ta9 k9d ( bellicose excitem5t1 de> to m5 z !y n[ are4 ,b if we turn f ! ab/ract "q to ! actual situation1 we f9d t ! individual sa9t may be well or ill adapt$1 accord+ to p>ticul> circum/ances4 ,!re is1 9 %ort1 no absolut5ess 9 ! excell5ce ( sa9?ood4 ,x mu/ be confess$ t z f> z ?is _w goes1 any "o :o makes an out&out sa9t ( himself does s at 8 p]il4 ,if he is n a l>ge en\gh man1 he may appe> m insignificant & contemptible1 = all 8 sa9t%ip1 ?an if he _h rema9$ a worldl+47#bba7 ,accord+ly religion has seldom be5 s radically tak5 9 our ,we/]n _w t ! devotee c\ld n mix x ) "s worldly temp]4 ,x has always f\nd good m5 :o c\ld foll[ mo/ ( its impulses1 b :o /opp$ %ort :5 x came to nonresi/ance4 ,*ri/ himself 0 fi]ce ^u occasion4 ,cromwells1 ,/onewall ,jacksons1 ,gordons1 %[ t ,*ri/ians c be /rong m5 also4 ,h[ is success to be absolutely measur$ :5 !re are s _m environm5ts & s _m ways ( look+ at ! adaptation8 ,x _c be measur$ absolutely2 ! v]dict w v>y accord+ to ! po9t ( view adopt$4 ,f ! biological po9t ( view ,sa9t ,paul 0 a failure1 because he 0 behead$4 ,yet he 0 magnific5tly adapt$ to ! l>g] environm5t ( hi/ory2 & s f> z any sa9t's example is a leav5 ( righte\sness 9 ! _w1 & draws x 9 ! direction ( m preval5t habits ( sa9tl9ess1 he is a success1 no matt] :at 8 imm$iate bad =tune may be4 ,! greate/ sa9ts1 ! spiritual h]oes :om e "o ackn[l$ges1 ! ,francises1 ,b]n>ds1 ,lu!rs1 ,loyolas1 ,wesleys1 ,*ann+s1 ,moodys1 ,gratrys1 ! ,phillips ,brookses1 ! ,agnes ,joneses1 ,m>g>et ,hallahans1 & ,dora ,pattisons1 are successes f ! outset4 ,!y %[ !mselves1 & !re is no "q2 e "o p]ceives _! /r5g? & /ature4 ,_! s5se ( my/]y 9 ?+s1 _! passion1 _! goodness1 irradiate ab\t !m & enl>ge _! outl9es :ile !y s(t5 !m4 ,!y are l pictures ) an atmosph]e & backgr\nd2 &1 plac$ alongside ( !m1 ! /rong m5 ( ?is _w & no o!r seem z dry z /icks1 z h>d & crude z blocks ( /one or brickbats4 ,9 a g5]al way1 !n1 & 8on ! :ole107#bbb7 our ab&onm5t ( !ological crit]ia1 & our te/+ ( religion by practical common s5se & ! empirical me?od1 leave x 9 possession ( its t[]+ place 9 hi/ory4 ,economically1 ! sa9tly gr\p ( qualities is indisp5sable to ! _w's welf>e4 ,! great sa9ts are imm$iate successes2 ! small] ones are at lea/ h]alds & h>b+]s1 & !y may be leav5s also1 ( a bett] mundane ord]4 ,let u be sa9ts1 !n1 if we c1 :e!r or n we succe$ visibly & temporally4 ,b 9 our ,fa!r's h\se are _m mansions1 & ea* ( u mu/ discov] = himself ! k9d ( religion & ! am\nt ( sa9t%ip :i* be/ comports ) :at he believes to be 8 p[]s & feels to be 8 true/ mission & vocation4 ,!re are no successes to be gu>ante$ & no set ord]s to be giv5 to individuals1 s long z we foll[ ! me?ods ( empirical philosophy4 ,?is is my conclusion s f>4 ,i "k t on "s ( y\r m9ds x leaves a feel+ ( wond] t su* a me?od %\ld h be5 appli$ to su* a subject1 & ?is 9 spite ( all ^? rem>ks ab\t empiricism :i* ,i made at ! beg9n+ ( ,lecture ,,xiii47#bbc7 ,h[1 y say1 c religion1 :i* believes 9 two worlds & an invisible ord]1 be e/imat$ by ! adaptation ( its fruits to ?is _w's ord] alone8 ,x is its tru?1 n its utility1 y insi/1 ^u :i* our v]dict ought to dep5d4 ,if religion is true1 its fruits are good fruits1 ev5 ?\gh 9 ?is _w !y %\ld prove uni=mly ill adapt$ & full ( naught b pa?os4 ,x goes back1 !n1 aft] all1 to ! "q ( ! tru? ( !ology4 ,! plot inevitably ?ick5s ^u u2 we _c escape !oretical consid]ations4 ,i propose1 !n1 t to "s degree we face ! responsibility4 ,religi\s p]sons h (t51 ?\gh n uni=mly1 pr(ess$ to see tru? 9 a special mann]4 ,t mann] is kn[n z my/icism4 ,i w consequ5tly n[ proce$ to treat at "s l5g? ( my/ical ph5om5a1 & aft] t1 ?\gh m briefly1 ,i w consid] religi\s philosophy4 ,,lectures ,,xvi ,,& ,,xvii4 ,,my/icism4 ,ov] & ov] aga9 9 ^! lectures ,i h rais$ po9ts & left !m op5 & unf9i%$ until we %\ld h come to ! subject ( ,my/icism4 ,"s ( y1 ,i fe>1 may h smil$ z y not$ my reit]at$ po/ponem5ts4 ,b n[ ! h\r has come :5 my/icism mu/ be fac$ 9 good e>ne/1 & ^? brok5 ?reads w\nd up toge!r4 ,"o may say truly1 ,i ?9k1 t p]sonal religi\s exp]i5ce has its root & c5tre 9 my/ical /ates ( consci\sness2 s = u1 :o 9 ^! lectures are treat+ p]sonal exp]i5ce z ! exclusive subject ( our /udy1 su* /ates ( consci\sness ought to =m ! vital *apt] f :i* ! o!r *apt]s get _! light4 ,:e!r my treatm5t ( my/ical /ates w %$ m light or d>kness1 ,i d n "k1 = my own con/itution %uts me out f _! enjoym5t almo/ entirely1 & ,i c speak ( !m only at second h&4 ,b ?\gh =c$ to look ^u ! subject s ext]nally1 ,i w be z objective & receptive z ,i c2 & ,i ?9k ,i %all at lea/ succe$ 9 conv9c+ y ( ! reality ( ! /ates 9 "q1 & ( ! p>am\nt importance ( _! function4 ,fir/ ( all1 !n1 ,i ask1 ,:at does ! expression 8my/ical /ates ( consci\sness0 mean8 ,h[ d we "p (f my/ical /ates f o!r /ates8 ,! words 8my/icism0 & 8my/ical0 are (t5 us$ z t]ms ( m]e reproa*1 to ?r[ at any op9ion :i* we reg>d z vague & va/ & s5tim5tal1 & )\t a base 9 ei!r facts or logic4 ,= "s writ]s a 8my/ic0 is any p]son :o believes 9 ?\ghttransf]5ce1 or _s return4 ,employ$ 9 ?is way ! ^w has little value3 !re are too _m less ambigu\s synonyms4 ,s1 to keep x useful by re/rict+ x1 ,i w d :at ,i did 9 ! case ( ! ^w 8religion10 & simply propose to y f\r m>ks :i*1 :5 an exp]i5ce has !m1 may ju/ify u 9 call+ x my/ical = ! purpose ( ! pres5t lectures4 ,9 ?is way we %all save v]bal disputation1 & ! recrim9ations t g5]ally g !re)4 #a4 ,ineffability4--,! h&ie/ ( ! m>ks by :i* ,i classify a /ate ( m9d z my/ical is negative4 ,! subject ( x imm$iately says t x defies expression1 t no adequate report ( its cont5ts c be giv5 9 words4 ,x foll[s f ?is t its quality mu/ be directly exp]i5c$2 x _c be imp>t$ or transf]r$ to o!rs4 ,9 ?is peculi>ity my/ical /ates are m l /ates ( feel+ ?an l /ates ( intellect4 ,no "o c make cle> to ano!r :o has nev] _h a c]ta9 feel+1 9 :at ! quality or wor? ( x consi/s4 ,"o mu/ h musical e>s to "k ! value ( a symphony2 "o mu/ h be5 9 love "o's self to und]/& a lov]'s /ate ( m9d4 ,lack+ ! he>t or e>1 we _c int]pret ! musician or ! lov] ju/ly1 & are ev5 likely to consid] him weakm9d$ or absurd4 ,! my/ic f9ds t mo/ ( u accord to 8 exp]i5ces an equally incompet5t treatm5t4 #b4 ,noetic quality4--,al?\gh s simil> to /ates ( feel+1 my/ical /ates seem to ^? :o exp]i5ce !m to be also /ates ( k4 ,!y are /ates ( insight into dep?s ( tru? unplumb$ by ! discursive intellect4 ,!y are illum9ations1 revelations1 full ( significance & importance1 all in>ticulate ?\gh !y rema92 & z a rule !y c>ry ) !m a curi\s s5se ( au?ority = aft]"t4 ,^! two *>act]s w entitle any /ate to be call$ my/ical1 9 ! s5se 9 :i* ,i use ! ^w4 ,two o!r qualities are less %>ply m>k$1 b are usually f\nd4 ,^! are3-- #c4 ,transi5cy4--,my/ical /ates _c be su/a9$ = long4 ,except 9 r>e in/ances1 half an h\r1 or at mo/ an h\r or two1 seems to be ! limit beyond :i* !y fade into ! light ( common day4 ,(t51 :5 fad$1 _! quality c b imp]fectly be reproduc$ 9 memory2 b :5 !y recur x is recogniz$2 & f "o recurr5ce to ano!r x is susceptible ( cont9u\s developm5t 9 :at is felt z inn] ri*ness & importance4 #d4 ,passivity4--,al?\gh ! oncom+ ( my/ical /ates may be facilitat$ by prelim9>y volunt>y op]ations1 z by fix+ ! att5tion1 or go+ ?r\gh c]ta9 bodily p]=mances1 or 9 o!r ways :i* manuals ( my/icism prescribe2 yet :5 ! *>act]i/ic sort ( consci\sness once has set 91 ! my/ic feels z if 8 own w 7 9 abeyance1 & inde$ sometimes z if he 7 grasp$ & held by a sup]ior p[]4 ,?is latt] peculi>ity connects my/ical /ates ) c]ta9 def9ite ph5om5a ( second>y or alt]native p]sonality1 su* z prophetic spee*1 automatic writ+1 or ! m$iumi/ic trance4 ,:5 ^! latt] conditions are well pron\nc$1 h[ev]1 !re may be no recollection :atev] ( ! ph5om5on1 & x may h no significance = ! subject's usual inn] life1 to :i*1 z x 71 x makes a m]e int]ruption4 ,my/ical /ates1 /rictly s call$1 are nev] m]ely int]ruptive4 ,"s memory ( _! cont5t always rema9s1 & a pr(\nd s5se ( _! importance4 ,!y modify ! inn] life ( ! subject betwe5 ! times ( _! recurr5ce4 ,%>p divisions 9 ?is region are1 h[ev]1 difficult to make1 & we f9d all sorts ( gradations & mixtures4 ,^! f\r *>act]i/ics are suffici5t to m>k out a gr\p ( /ates ( consci\sness peculi> en\gh to des]ve a special "n & to call = c>eful /udy4 ,let x !n be call$ ! my/ical gr\p4 ,our next /ep %\ld be to ga9 acqua9tance ) "s typical examples4 ,pr(essional my/ics at ! height ( _! developm5t h (t5 elaborately organiz$ exp]i5ces & a philosophy bas$ !reupon4 ,b y rememb] :at ,i said 9 my fir/ lecture3 ph5om5a are be/ und]/ood :5 plac$ )9 _! s]ies1 /udi$ 9 _! g]m & 9 _! ov]ripe decay1 & comp>$ ) _! exagg]at$ & deg5]at$ k9dr$4 ,! range ( my/ical exp]i5ce is v wide1 mu* too wide = u to cov] 9 ! "t at our disposal4 ,yet ! me?od ( s]ial /udy is s ess5tial = int]pretation t if we really wi% to rea* conclusions we mu/ use x4 ,i w beg91 !re=e1 ) ph5om5a :i* claim no special religi\s significance1 & end ) ^? ( :i* ! religi\s pret5sions are extreme4 ,! simple/ rudim5t ( my/ical exp]i5ce w\ld seem to be t deep5$ s5se ( ! significance ( a maxim or =mula :i* occasionally sweeps ov] "o4 8,i've he>d t said all my life10 we exclaim1 8b ,i nev] realiz$ its full mean+ until n[40 8,:5 a fell[monk10 said ,lu!r1 8"o day repeat$ ! words ( ! ,cre$3 #8,i believe 9 ! =giv5ess ( s9s1' ,i saw ! ,scripture 9 an entirely new light2 & /raightway ,i felt z if ,i 7 born anew4 ,x 0 z if ,i _h f\nd ! door ( p>adise ?r[n wide op5407#bbd7 ,?is s5se ( deep] significance is n conf9$ to rational propositions4 ,s+le words17#bbe7 & conjunctions ( words1 effects ( light on l& & sea1 odors & musical s\nds1 all br+ x :5 ! m9d is tun$ aright4 ,mo/ ( u c rememb] ! /rangely mov+ p[] ( passages 9 c]ta9 poems read :5 we 7 "y1 irrational doorways z !y 7 ?r\gh :i* ! my/]y ( fact1 ! wildness & ! pang ( life1 /ole into our he>ts & ?rill$ !m4 ,! words h n[ p]haps become m]e poli%$ surfaces = u2 b lyric poetry & music are alive & significant only 9 proportion z !y fet* ^! vague vi/as ( a life cont9u\s ) our own1 beckon+ & invit+1 yet ev] elud+ our pursuit4 ,we are alive or dead to ! et]nal inn] message ( ! arts accord+ z we h kept or lo/ ?is my/ical susceptibility4 ,a m pron\nc$ /ep =w>d on ! my/ical ladd] is f\nd 9 an extremely frequ5t ph5om5on1 t sudd5 feel+1 namely1 :i* sometimes sweeps ov] u1 ( hav+ 8be5 "h be=e10 z if at "s indef9ite pa/ "t1 9 j ?is place1 ) j ^! p1 we 7 already say+ j ^! ?+s4 ,z ,t5nyson writes3 8,moreov]1 some?+ is or seems1 ,t t\*es me ) my/ic gleams1 ,l glimpses ( =gott5 dreams-- 8,( some?+ felt1 l some?+ "h2 ,( some?+ done1 ,i "k n :]e2 ,su* z no language may decl>e407#bbf7 ,sir ,james ,cri*ton,br[ne has giv5 ! te*nical "n ( 8dreamy /ates0 to ^! sudd5 invasions ( vaguely rem9isc5t consci\sness47#bbg7 ,!y br+ a s5se ( my/]y & ( ! metaphysical duality ( ?+s1 & ! feel+ ( an enl>gem5t ( p]ception :i* seems imm95t b :i* nev] completes itself4 ,9 ,dr4 ,cri*ton,br[ne's op9ion !y connect !mselves ) ! p]plex$ & sc>$ di/urbances ( self consci\sness :i* occasionally prec$e epileptic attacks4 ,i ?9k t ?is le>n$ ali5i/ takes a r absurdly al>mi/ view ( an intr9sically insignificant ph5om5on4 ,he foll[s x along ! d[nw>d ladd]1 to insanity2 our pa? pursues ! upw>d ladd] *iefly4 ,! div]g5ce %[s h[ important x is to neglect no "p ( a ph5om5on's connections1 = we make x appe> admirable or dreadful accord+ to ! context by :i* we set x (f4 ,some:at deep] plunges into my/ical consci\sness are met ) 9 yet o!r dreamy /ates4 ,su* feel+s z ^! :i* ,*>les ,k+sley describes are surely f> f be+ uncommon1 especially 9 y\?3-- 8,:5 ,i walk ! fields1 ,i am oppress$ n[ & !n ) an innate feel+ t ev]y?+ ,i see has a mean+1 if ,i c\ld b und]/& x4 ,& ?is feel+ ( be+ surr\nd$ ) tru?s :i* ,i _c grasp am\nts to indescribable awe sometimes4444 ,h y n felt t y\r real s\l 0 imp]ceptible to y\r m5tal vision1 except 9 a few hall[$ mom5ts807#bbh7 ,a mu* m extreme /ate ( my/ical consci\sness is describ$ by ,j4 ,a4 ,symonds2 & probably m p]sons ?an we suspect c\ld give p>allels to x f _! own exp]i5ce4 8,sudd5ly10 writes ,symonds1 8at *ur*1 or 9 company1 or :5 ,i 0 read+1 & always1 ,i ?9k1 :5 my muscles 7 at re/1 ,i felt ! approa* ( ! mood4 ,irresi/ibly x took possession ( my m9d & w1 la/$ :at seem$ an et]nity1 & disappe>$ 9 a s]ies ( rapid s5sations :i* resembl$ ! awak5+ f an/hetic influ5ce4 ,"o reason :y ,i dislik$ ?is k9d ( trance 0 t ,i c\ld n describe x to myself4 ,i _c ev5 n[ f9d words to r5d] x intelligible4 ,x consi/$ 9 a gradual b swiftly progressive oblit]ation ( space1 "t1 s5sation1 & ! multitud9\s factors ( exp]i5ce :i* seem to qualify :at we are pleas$ to call our ,self4 ,9 proportion z ^! conditions ( ord9>y consci\sness 7 subtract$1 ! s5se ( an und]ly+ or ess5tial consci\sness acquir$ int5sity4 ,at la/ no?+ rema9$ b a pure1 absolute1 ab/ract ,self4 ,! univ]se became )\t =m & void ( cont5t4 ,b ,self p]si/$1 =midable 9 its vivid ke5ness1 feel+ ! mo/ poignant d\bt ab\t reality1 ready1 z x seem$1 to f9d exi/5ce break z breaks a bubble r\nd ab\t x4 ,& :at !n8 ,! appreh5sion ( a com+ dissolution1 ! grim conviction t ?is /ate 0 ! la/ /ate ( ! consci\s ,self1 ! s5se t ,i _h foll[$ ! la/ ?read ( be+ to ! v]ge ( ! abyss1 & _h arriv$ at demon/ration ( et]nal ,maya or illusion1 /irr$ or seem$ to /ir me up aga94 ,! return to ord9>y conditions ( s5ti5t exi/5ce began by my fir/ recov]+ ! p[] ( t\*1 & !n by ! gradual ?\gh rapid influx ( famili> impressions & diurnal int]e/s4 ,at la/ ,i felt myself once m a human be+2 & ?\gh ! riddle ( :at is meant by life rema9$ unsolv$1 ,i 0 ?ankful = ?is return f ! abyss--?is deliv]ance f s awful an initiation into ! my/]ies ( skepticism4 8,?is trance recurr$ ) dim9i%+ frequ5cy until ,i rea*$ ! age ( tw5tyeight4 ,x s]v$ to impress ^u my gr[+ nature ! phantasmal unreality ( all ! circum/ances :i* contribute to a m]ely ph5om5al consci\sness4 ,(t5 h ,i ask$ myself ) angui%1 on wak+ f t =mless /ate ( d5ud$1 ke5ly s5ti5t be+1 ,:i* is ! unreality8--! trance ( fi]y1 vacant1 appreh5sive1 skeptical ,self f :i* ,i issue1 or ^! surr\nd+ ph5om5a & habits :i* veil t inn] ,self & build a self ( fle%&blood conv5tionality8 ,aga91 are m5 ! factors ( "s dream1 ! dreaml unsub/antiality ( :i* !y compreh5d at su* ev5tful mom5ts8 ,:at w\ld happ5 if ! f9al /age ( ! trance 7 rea*$807#bbi7 ,9 a recital l ?is !re is c]ta9ly some?+ sugge/ive ( pa?ology47#bcj7 ,! next /ep into my/ical /ates c>ries u into a realm t public op9ion & e?ical philosophy h long s9ce br&$ z pa?ological1 ?\gh private practice & c]ta9 lyric /ra9s ( poetry seem /ill to be> witness to its ideality4 ,i ref] to ! consci\sness produc$ by intoxicants & an/hetics1 especially by alcohol4 ,! sway ( alcohol ov] mank9d is unque/ionably due to its p[] to /imulate ! my/ical faculties ( human nature1 usually cru%$ to e>? by ! cold facts & dry criticisms ( ! sob] h\r4 ,sobriety dim9i%es1 discrim9ates1 & says no2 drunk5ness exp&s1 unites1 & says yes4 ,x is 9 fact ! great excit] ( ! ,yes function 9 man4 ,x br+s its vot>y f ! *ill p]iph]y ( ?+s to ! radiant core4 ,x makes him = ! mom5t "o ) tru?4 ,n ?r\gh m]e p]v]sity d m5 run aft] x4 ,to ! poor & ! unlett]$ x /&s 9 ! place ( symphony conc]ts & ( lit]ature2 & x is "p ( ! deep] my/]y & trag$y ( life t :iffs & gleams ( some?+ t we imm$iately recognize z excell5t %\ld be v\*saf$ to s _m ( u only 9 ! fleet+ e>li] phases ( :at 9 its totality is s degrad+ a poison+4 ,! drunk5 consci\sness is "o bit ( ! my/ic consci\sness1 & our total op9ion ( x mu/ f9d its place 9 our op9ion ( t l>g] :ole4 ,nitr\s oxide & e!r1 especially nitr\s oxide1 :5 suffici5tly dilut$ ) air1 /imulate ! my/ical consci\sness 9 an extraord9>y degree4 ,dep? beyond dep? ( tru? seems reveal$ to ! inhal]4 ,?is tru? fades out1 h[ev]1 or escapes1 at ! mom5t ( com+ to2 & if any words rema9 ov] 9 :i* x seem$ to clo! itself1 !y prove to be ! v]ie/ nons5se4 ,nev]!less1 ! s5se ( a pr(\nd mean+ hav+ be5 !re p]si/s2 & ,i "k m ?an "o p]son :o is p]suad$ t 9 ! nitr\s oxide trance we h a g5u9e metaphysical revelation4 ,"s ye>s ago ,i myself made "s obs]vations on ?is aspect ( nitr\s oxide intoxication1 & report$ !m 9 pr9t4 ,"o conclusion 0 =c$ ^u my m9d at t "t1 & my impression ( its tru? has ev] s9ce rema9$ un%ak54 ,x is t our normal wak+ consci\sness1 rational consci\sness z we call x1 is b "o special type ( consci\sness1 :il/ all ab\t x1 p>t$ f x by ! filmie/ ( scre5s1 !re lie pot5tial =ms ( consci\sness entirely diff]5t4 ,we may g ?r\gh life )\t suspect+ _! exi/5ce2 b apply ! requisite /imulus1 & at a t\* !y are !re 9 all _! complet5ess1 def9ite types ( m5tality :i* probably some:]e h _! field ( application & adaptation4 ,no acc\nt ( ! univ]se 9 its totality c be f9al :i* leaves ^! o!r =ms ( consci\sness q disreg>d$4 ,h[ to reg>d !m is ! "q1--= !y are s discont9u\s ) ord9>y consci\sness4 ,yet !y may det]m9e attitudes ?\gh !y _c furni% =mulas1 & op5 a region ?\gh !y fail to give a map4 ,at any rate1 !y =bid a premature clos+ ( our acc\nts ) reality4 ,look+ back on my own exp]i5ces1 !y all conv]ge t[>ds a k9d ( insight to :i* ,i _c help ascrib+ "s metaphysical significance4 ,! keynote ( x is inv>iably a reconciliation4 ,x is z if ! opposites ( ! _w1 ^: contradictor9ess & conflict make all our difficulties & tr\bles1 7 melt$ into unity4 ,n only d !y1 z contra/$ species1 belong to "o & ! same g5us1 b "o ( ! species1 ! nobl] & bett] "o1 is itself ! g5us1 & s soaks up & absorbs its opposite into itself4 ,?is is a d>k say+1 ,i "k1 :5 ?us express$ 9 t]ms ( common logic1 b ,i _c :olly escape f its au?ority4 ,i feel z if x mu/ mean some?+1 some?+ l :at ! ,hegelian philosophy means1 if "o c\ld only lay hold ( x m cle>ly4 ,^? :o h e>s to he>1 let !m he>2 to me ! liv+ s5se ( its reality only comes 9 ! artificial my/ic /ate ( m9d47#bca7 ,i j n[ spoke ( fri5ds :o believe 9 ! an/hetic revelation4 ,= !m too x is a moni/ic insight1 9 :i* ! o!r 9 its v>i\s =ms appe>s absorb$ into ! ,"o4 8,into ?is p]vad+ g5ius10 writes "o ( !m1 8we pass1 =gett+ & =gott51 & !nce=? ea* is all1 9 ,god4 ,!re is no high]1 no deep]1 no o!r1 ?an ! life 9 :i* we are f\nd$4 #8,! ,"o rema9s1 ! _m *ange & pass2' & ea* & e "o ( u is ! ,"o t rema9s4444 ,?is is ! ultimatum4444 ,z sure z be+--:5ce is all our c>e--s sure is cont5t1 beyond duplexity1 anti!sis1 or tr\ble1 :]e ,i h triumph$ 9 a solitude t ,god is n above407#bcb7 ,?is has ! g5u9e religi\s my/ic r+6 ,i j n[ quot$ ,j4 ,a4 ,symonds4 ,he also records a my/ical exp]i5ce ) *lor(orm1 z foll[s3-- 8,aft] ! *ok+ & /ifl+ _h pass$ away1 ,i seem$ at fir/ 9 a /ate ( utt] blankness2 !n came fla%es ( int5se light1 alt]nat+ ) blackness1 & ) a ke5 vision ( :at 0 go+ on 9 ! room ar\nd me1 b no s5sation ( t\*4 ,i ?\ght t ,i 0 ne> dea?2 :51 sudd5ly1 my s\l became aw>e ( ,god1 :o 0 manife/ly deal+ ) me1 h&l+ me1 s to speak1 9 an int5se p]sonal pres5t reality4 ,i felt him /ream+ 9 l light ^u me4444 ,i _c describe ! ec/asy ,i felt4 ,!n1 z ,i gradually awoke f ! influ5ce ( ! an/hetics1 ! old s5se ( my relation to ! _w began to return1 ! new s5se ( my relation to ,god began to fade4 ,i sudd5ly leapt to my feet on ! *air :]e ,i 0 sitt+1 & %riek$ out1 #8,x is too horrible1 x is too horrible1 x is too horrible1' mean+ t ,i c\ld n be> ?is disillusionm5t4 ,!n ,i flung myself on ! gr\nd1 & at la/ awoke cov]$ ) blood1 call+ to ! two surgeons 7:o 7 fright5$71 #8,:y did y n kill me8 ,:y w\ld y n let me die8' ,only ?9k ( x4 ,to h felt = t long dateless ec/asy ( vision ! v ,god1 9 all purity & t5d]ness & tru? & absolute love1 & !n to f9d t ,i _h aft] all _h no revelation1 b t ,i _h be5 trick$ by ! abnormal excitem5t ( my bra94 8,yet1 ?is "q rema9s1 ,is x possible t ! inn] s5se ( reality :i* succe$$1 :5 my fle% 0 dead to impressions f )\t1 to ! ord9>y s5se ( physical relations1 0 n a delusion b an actual exp]i5ce8 ,is x possible t ,i1 9 t mom5t1 felt :at "s ( ! sa9ts h said !y always felt1 ! undemon/rable b irrefragable c]ta9ty ( ,god807#bcc7 ,) ?is we make connection ) religi\s my/icism pure & simple4 ,symonds's "q takes u back to ^? examples :i* y w rememb] my quot+ 9 ! lecture on ! ,reality ( ! ,unse51 ( sudd5 realization ( ! imm$iate pres5ce ( ,god4 ,! ph5om5on 9 "o %ape or ano!r is n uncommon4 8,i "k10 writes ,mr4 ,tr9e1 8an (fic] on our police =ce :o has told me t _m times :5 (f duty1 & on 8 way home 9 ! ev5+1 !re comes to him su* a vivid & vital realization ( 8 on5ess ) ?is ,inf9ite ,p[]1 & ?is ,_s ( ,inf9ite ,peace s takes hold ( & s fills him1 t x seems z if 8 feet c\ld h>dly keep to ! pavem5t1 s buoyant & s exhil>at$ does he become by reason ( ?is infl[+ tide407#bcd7 ,c]ta9 aspects ( nature seem to h a peculi> p[] ( awak5+ su* my/ical moods47#bce7 ,mo/ ( ! /rik+ cases :i* ,i h collect$ h occurr$ out ( doors4 ,lit]ature has commemorat$ ?is fact 9 _m passages ( great beauty--?is extract1 = example1 f ,amiel's ,j\rnal ,intime3-- 8,%all ,i ev] aga9 h any ( ^? prodigi\s rev]ies :i* sometimes came to me 9 =m] days8 ,"o day1 9 y\?1 at sunrise1 sitt+ 9 ! ru9s ( ! ca/le ( ,faucigny2 & aga9 9 ! m\nta9s1 "u ! noonday sun1 above ,lavey1 ly+ at ! foot ( a tree & visit$ by ?ree butt]flies2 once m at night ^u ! %+ly %ore ( ! ,nor!rn ,ocean1 my back ^u ! s& & my vision rang+ ?r\gh ! milky way2--su* gr& & spaci\s1 immortal1 cosmogonic rev]ies1 :5 "o rea*es to ! />s1 :5 "o owns ! inf9ite6 ,mom5ts div9e1 ec/atic h\rs2 9 :i* our ?\ght flies f _w to _w1 pi]ces ! great enigma1 brea!s ) a respiration broad1 tranquil1 & deep z ! respiration ( ! ocean1 s]5e & limitless z ! blue firmam5t2 444 in/ants ( irresi/ible intuition 9 :i* "o feels "o's self great z ! univ]se1 & calm z a god4444 ,:at h\rs1 :at memories6 ,! ve/iges !y leave beh9d are en\gh to fill u ) belief & en?usiasm1 z if !y 7 visits ( ! ,holy ,gho/407#bcf7 ,"h is a simil> record f ! memoirs ( t int]e/+ ,g]man ideali/1 ,malwida von ,meys5bug3-- 8,i 0 alone ^u ! sea%ore z all ^! ?\ghts fl[$ ov] me1 lib]at+ & reconcil+2 & n[ aga91 z once be=e 9 di/ant days 9 ! ,alps ( ,dauph91 ,i 0 impell$ to kneel d[n1 ?is "t be=e ! illimitable ocean1 symbol ( ! ,inf9ite4 ,i felt t ,i pray$ z ,i _h nev] pray$ be=e1 & knew n[ :at pray] really is3 to return f ! solitude ( individuation into ! consci\sness ( unity ) all t is1 to kneel d[n z "o t passes away1 & to rise up z "o imp]i%able4 ,e>?1 heav51 & sea res\nd$ z 9 "o va/ _wencircl+ h>mony4 ,x 0 z if ! *orus ( all ! great :o _h ev] liv$ 7 ab\t me4 ,i felt myself "o ) !m1 & x appe>$ z if ,i he>d _! greet+3 #8,?\ too belonge/ to ! company ( ^? :o ov]come4' 07#bcg7 ,! wellkn[n passage f ,walt ,:itman is a classical expression ( ?is sporadic type ( my/ical exp]i5ce4 8,i believe 9 y1 my ,s\l 444 ,loaf ) me on ! grass1 loose ! /op f y\r ?roat2444 ,only ! lull ,i l1 ! hum ( y\r valv$ voice4 ,i m9d h[ once we lay1 su* a transp>5t summ] morn+4 ,swiftly arose & spread ar\nd me ! peace & k t pass all ! argum5t ( ! e>?1 ,& ,i "k t ! h& ( ,god is ! promise ( my own1 ,& ,i "k t ! _s ( ,god is ! bro!r ( my own1 ,& t all ! m5 ev] born are also my bro!rs & ! wom5 my si/]s & lov]s1 ,& t a kelson ( ! creation is love407#bch7 ,i c\ld easily give m in/ances1 b "o w suffice4 ,i take x f ! ,autobiography ( ,j4 ,trevor47#bci7 8,"o brilliant ,sunday morn+1 my wife & boys w5t to ! ,unit>ian ,*apel 9 ,macclesfield4 ,i felt x impossible to accompany !m--z ?\gh to leave ! sun%9e on ! hills1 & g d[n !re to ! *apel1 w\ld be = ! "t an act ( spiritual suicide4 ,& ,i felt su* ne$ = new inspiration & expansion 9 my life4 ,s1 v reluctantly & sadly1 ,i left my wife & boys to g d[n into ! t[n1 :ile ,i w5t fur!r up into ! hills ) my /ick & my dog4 ,9 ! lovel9ess ( ! morn+1 & ! beauty ( ! hills & valleys1 ,i soon lo/ my s5se ( sadness & regret4 ,= ne>ly an h\r ,i walk$ along ! road to ! #8,cat & ,fiddle1' & !n return$4 ,on ! way back1 sudd5ly1 )\t w>n+1 ,i felt t ,i 0 9 ,heav5--an inw>d /ate ( peace & joy & assurance indescribably int5se1 accompani$ ) a s5se ( be+ ba!d 9 a w>m gl[ ( light1 z ?\gh ! ext]nal condition _h br\ght ab\t ! int]nal effect--a feel+ ( hav+ pass$ beyond ! body1 ?\gh ! sc5e ar\nd me /ood out m cle>ly & z if ne>] to me ?an be=e1 by reason ( ! illum9ation 9 ! mid/ ( :i* ,i seem$ to be plac$4 ,?is deep emotion la/$1 ?\gh ) decreas+ /r5g?1 until ,i rea*$ home1 & = "s "t aft]1 only gradually pass+ away40 ,! writ] adds t hav+ _h fur!r exp]i5ces ( a simil> sort1 he n[ kn[s !m well4 8,! spiritual life10 he writes1 8ju/ifies itself to ^? :o live x2 b :at c we say to ^? :o d n und]/&8 ,?is1 at lea/1 we c say1 t x is a life ^: exp]i5ces are prov$ real to _! possessor1 because !y rema9 ) him :5 br\ght close/ into contact ) ! objective realities ( life4 ,dreams _c /& ?is te/4 ,we wake f !m to f9d t !y are b dreams4 ,w&]+s ( an ov]wr\ght bra9 d n /& ?is te/4 ,^! highe/ exp]i5ces t ,i h _h ( ,god's pres5ce h be5 r>e & brief--fla%es ( consci\sness :i* h compell$ me to exclaim ) surprise--,god is "h6--or conditions ( exaltation & insight1 less int5se1 & only gradually pass+ away4 ,i h sev]ely que/ion$ ! wor? ( ^! mom5ts4 ,to no s\l h ,i nam$ !m1 le/ ,i %\ld be build+ my life & "w on m]e phantasies ( ! bra94 ,b ,i f9d t1 aft] e que/ion+ & te/1 !y /& out today z ! mo/ real exp]i5ces ( my life1 & exp]i5ces :i* h expla9$ & ju/ifi$ & unifi$ all pa/ exp]i5ces & all pa/ gr[?4 ,inde$1 _! reality & _! f>rea*+ significance are ev] becom+ m cle> & evid5t4 ,:5 !y came1 ,i 0 liv+ ! fulle/1 /ronge/1 sane/1 deepe/ life4 ,i 0 n seek+ !m4 ,:at ,i 0 seek+1 ) resolute det]m9ation1 0 to live m int5sely my own life1 z aga9/ :at ,i knew w\ld be ! adv]se judgm5t ( ! _w4 ,x 0 9 ! mo/ real seasons t ! ,real ,pres5ce came1 & ,i 0 aw>e t ,i 0 imm]s$ 9 ! inf9ite ocean ( ,god407#bdj7 ,ev5 ! lea/ my/ical ( y mu/ by ?is "t be conv9c$ ( ! exi/5ce ( my/ical mom5ts z /ates ( consci\sness ( an entirely specific quality1 & ( ! deep impression :i* !y make on ^? :o h !m4 ,a ,canadian psy*iatri/1 ,dr4 ,r4 ,m4 ,bucke1 gives to ! m di/9ctly *>act]iz$ ( ^! ph5om5a ! "n ( cosmic consci\sness4 8,cosmic consci\sness 9 its m /rik+ in/ances is n10 ,dr4 ,bucke says1 8simply an expansion or ext5sion ( ! self consci\s m9d ) :i* we are all famili>1 b ! sup]addition ( a function z di/9ct f any possess$ by ! av]age man z selfconsci\sness is di/9ct f any function possess$ by "o ( ! high] animals40 8,! prime *>act]i/ic ( cosmic consci\sness is a consci\sness ( ! cosmos1 t is1 ( ! life & ord] ( ! univ]se4 ,along ) ! consci\sness ( ! cosmos !re occurs an intellectual enlight5m5t :i* alone w\ld place ! individual on a new plane ( exi/5ce--w\ld make him almo/ a memb] ( a new species4 ,to ?is is add$ a /ate ( moral exaltation1 an indescribable feel+ ( elevation1 elation1 & joy\sness1 & a quick5+ ( ! moral s5se1 :i* is fully z /rik+1 & m important ?an is ! enhanc$ intellectual p[]4 ,) ^! come :at may be call$ a s5se ( immortality1 a consci\sness ( et]nal life1 n a conviction t he %all h ?is1 b ! consci\sness t he has x already407#bda7 ,x 0 ,dr4 ,bucke's own exp]i5ce ( a typical onset ( cosmic consci\sness 9 8 own p]son :i* l$ him to inve/igate x 9 o!rs4 ,he has pr9t$ 8 conclusions 9 a highly int]e/+ volume1 f :i* ,i take ! foll[+ acc\nt ( :at occurr$ to him3-- 8,i _h sp5t ! ev5+ 9 a great city1 ) two fri5ds1 read+ & discuss+ poetry & philosophy4 ,we p>t$ at midnight4 ,i _h a long drive 9 a hansom to my lodg+4 ,my m9d1 deeply "u ! influ5ce ( ! ideas1 images1 & emotions call$ up by ! read+ & talk1 0 calm & peaceful4 ,i 0 9 a /ate ( quiet1 almo/ passive enjoym5t1 n actually ?9k+1 b lett+ ideas1 images1 & emotions fl[ ( !mselves1 z x 71 ?r\gh my m9d4 ,all at once1 )\t w>n+ ( any k9d1 ,i f\nd myself wrapp$ 9 a flamecolor$ cl\d4 ,= an in/ant ,i ?\ght ( fire1 an imm5se conflagration some:]e close by 9 t great city2 ! next1 ,i knew t ! fire 0 )9 myself4 ,directly aft]w>d !re came ^u me a s5se ( exultation1 ( imm5se joy\sness accompani$ or imm$iately foll[$ by an intellectual illum9ation impossible to describe4 ,among o!r ?+s1 ,i did n m]ely come to believe1 b ,i saw t ! univ]se is n compos$ ( dead matt]1 b is1 on ! contr>y1 a liv+ ,pres5ce2 ,i became consci\s 9 myself ( et]nal life4 ,x 0 n a conviction t ,i w\ld h et]nal life1 b a consci\sness t ,i possess$ et]nal life !n2 ,i saw t all m5 are immortal2 t ! cosmic ord] is su* t )\t any p]adv5ture all ?+s "w toge!r = ! good ( ea* & all2 t ! f\ndation pr9ciple ( ! _w1 ( all ! worlds1 is :at we call love1 & t ! happ9ess ( ea* & all is 9 ! long run absolutely c]ta94 ,! vision la/$ a few seconds & 0 gone2 b ! memory ( x & ! s5se ( ! reality ( :at x taught has rema9$ dur+ ! qu>t] ( a c5tury :i* has s9ce elaps$4 ,i knew t :at ! vision %[$ 0 true4 ,i _h atta9$ to a po9t ( view f :i* ,i saw t x mu/ be true4 ,t view1 t conviction1 ,i may say t consci\sness1 has nev]1 ev5 dur+ p]iods ( ! deepe/ depression1 be5 lo/407#bdb7 ,we h n[ se5 en\gh ( ?is cosmic or my/ic consci\sness1 z x comes sporadically4 ,we mu/ next pass to its me?odical cultivation z an elem5t ( ! religi\s life4 ,h9dus1 ,buddhi/s1 ,mohamm$ans1 & ,*ri/ians all h cultivat$ x me?odically4 ,9 ,india1 tra9+ 9 my/ical insight has be5 kn[n f "t immemorial "u ! "n ( yoga4 ,yoga means ! exp]im5tal union ( ! individual ) ! div9e4 ,x is bas$ on p]sev]+ ex]cise2 & ! diet1 po/ure1 brea?+1 intellectual conc5tration1 & moral discipl9e v>y slightly 9 ! diff]5t sy/ems :i* tea* x4 ,! yogi1 or disciple1 :o has by ^! means ov]come ! obscurations ( 8 l[] nature suffici5tly1 ent]s into ! condition t]m$ samdhi1 8& comes face to face ) facts :i* no in/9ct or reason c ev] "k40 ,he le>ns-- 8,t ! m9d itself has a high] /ate ( exi/5ce1 beyond reason1 a sup]consci\s /ate1 & t :5 ! m9d gets to t high] /ate1 !n ?is k beyond reason+ comes4444 ,all ! diff]5t /eps 9 yoga are int5d$ to br+ u sci5tifically to ! sup]consci\s /ate or samdhi4444 ,j z unconsci\s "w is b5ea? consci\sness1 s !re is ano!r "w :i* is above consci\sness1 & :i*1 also1 is n accompani$ ) ! feel+ ( egoism4444 ,!re is no feel+ ( ,i1 & yet ! m9d works1 desireless1 free f re/lessness1 objectless1 bodiless4 ,!n ! ,tru? %9es 9 its full effulg5ce1 & we "k ourselves--= ,samdhi lies pot5tial 9 u all--= :at we truly are1 free1 immortal1 omnipot5t1 loos$ f ! f9ite1 & its contra/s ( good & evil altoge!r1 & id5tical ) ! ,atman or ,univ]sal ,s\l407#bdc7 ,! ,v$anti/s say t "o may /umble into sup]consci\sness sporadically1 )\t ! previ\s discipl9e1 b x is !n impure4 ,_! te/ ( its purity1 l our te/ ( religion's value1 is empirical3 its fruits mu/ be good = life4 ,:5 a man comes out ( ,samdhi1 !y assure u t he rema9s 8enlight5$1 a sage1 a prophet1 a sa9t1 8 :ole "* *ang$1 8 life *ang$1 illum9$407#bdd7 ,! ,buddhi/s use ! ^w 8samdhi0 z well z ! ,h9dus2 b 8dhyna0 is _! special ^w = high] /ates ( contemplation4 ,!re seem to be f\r /ages recogniz$ 9 dhyna4 ,! fir/ /age comes ?r\gh conc5tration ( ! m9d ^u "o po9t4 ,x excludes desire1 b n disc]nm5t or judgm5t3 x is /ill intellectual4 ,9 ! second /age ! intellectual functions drop (f1 & ! satisfi$ s5se ( unity rema9s4 ,9 ! ?ird /age ! satisfaction dep>ts1 & indiff]5ce beg9s1 along ) memory & selfconsci\sness4 ,9 ! f\r? /age ! indiff]5ce1 memory1 & selfconsci\sness are p]fect$4 ,j :at 8memory0 & 8selfconsci\sness0 mean 9 ?is connection is d\btful4 ,!y _c be ! faculties famili> to u 9 ! l[] life4 ,high] /ages /ill ( contemplation are m5tion$--a region :]e !re exi/s no?+1 & :]e ! m$itator says3 8,!re exi/s absolutely no?+10 & /ops4 ,!n he rea*es ano!r region :]e he says3 8,!re are nei!r ideas nor abs5ce ( ideas10 & /ops aga94 ,!n ano!r region :]e1 8hav+ rea*$ ! end ( bo? idea & p]ception1 he /ops f9ally40 ,?is w\ld seem to be1 n yet ,nirvna1 b z close an approa* to x z ?is life af=ds47#bde7 ,9 ! ,mohamm$an _w ! ,sufi sect & v>i\s d]vi% bodies are ! possessors ( ! my/ical tradition4 ,! ,sufis h exi/$ 9 ,p]sia f ! e>lie/ times1 & z _! pan!ism is s at v>iance ) ! hot & rigid mono!ism ( ! ,arab m9d1 x has be5 sugge/$ t ,sufism mu/ h be5 inoculat$ into ,islam by ,h9du influ5ces4 ,we ,*ri/ians "k little ( ,sufism1 = its secrets are disclos$ only to ^? initiat$4 ,to give its exi/5ce a c]ta9 livel9ess 9 y\r m9ds1 ,i w quote a ,moslem docum5t1 & pass away f ! subject4 ,al,ghazzali1 a ,p]sian philosoph] & !ologian1 :o fl\ri%$ 9 ! elev5? c5tury1 & ranks z "o ( ! greate/ doctors ( ! ,moslem *ur*1 has left u "o ( ! few autobiographies to be f\nd outside ( ,*ri/ian lit]ature4 ,/range t a species ( book s abundant among ourselves %\ld be s little repres5t$ else:]e--! abs5ce ( /rictly p]sonal confessions is ! *ief difficulty to ! purely lit]>y /ud5t :o w\ld l to become acqua9t$ ) ! inw>dness ( religions o!r ?an ! ,*ri/ian4 ,m4 ,s*mld]s has translat$ a "p ( ,al,ghazzali's autobiography into ,fr5*37#bdf7-- 8,! ,sci5ce ( ! ,sufis10 says ! ,moslem au?or1 8aims at deta*+ ! he>t f all t is n ,god1 & at giv+ to x = sole occupation ! m$itation ( ! div9e be+4 ,!ory be+ m easy = me ?an practice1 ,i read c]ta9 books until ,i und]/ood all t c be le>n$ by /udy & he>say4 ,!n ,i recogniz$ t :at p]ta9s mo/ exclusively to _! me?od is j :at no /udy c grasp1 b only transport1 ec/asy1 & ! trans=mation ( ! s\l4 ,h[ great1 = example1 is ! diff]5ce betwe5 kn[+ ! def9itions ( heal?1 ( satiety1 ) _! causes & conditions1 & be+ really heal?y or fill$4 ,h[ diff]5t to "k 9 :at drunk5ness consi/s1--z be+ a /ate occasion$ by a vapor t rises f ! /oma*1--& be+ drunk effectively4 ,)\t d\bt1 ! drunk5 man kn[s nei!r ! def9ition ( drunk5ness nor :at makes x int]e/+ = sci5ce4 ,be+ drunk1 he kn[s no?+2 :il/ ! physician1 al?\gh n drunk1 kn[s well 9 :at drunk5ness consi/s1 & :at are its pr$ispos+ conditions4 ,simil>ly !re is a diff]5ce betwe5 kn[+ ! nature ( ab/95ce1 & be+ ab/95t or hav+ "o's s\l deta*$ f ! _w4--,?us ,i _h le>n$ :at words c\ld tea* ( ,sufism1 b :at 0 left c\ld be le>n$ nei!r by /udy nor ?r\gh ! e>s1 b solely by giv+ "o's self up to ec/asy & lead+ a pi\s life4 8,reflect+ on my situation1 ,i f\nd myself ti$ d[n by a multitude ( bonds--temptations on e side4 ,consid]+ my tea*+1 ,i f\nd x 0 impure be=e ,god4 ,i saw myself /ruggl+ ) all my might to a*ieve glory & to spread my "n4 ,"h foll[s an acc\nt ( 8 six mon?s' hesitation to break away f ! conditions ( 8 life at ,bagdad1 at ! end ( :i* he fell ill ) a p>alysis ( ! tongue4 ,!n1 feel+ my own weakness1 & hav+ entirely giv5 up my own w1 ,i repair$ to ,god l a man 9 di/ress :o has no m res\rces4 ,he answ]$1 z he answ]s ! wret* :o invokes him4 ,my he>t no long] felt any difficulty 9 r5\nc+ glory1 weal?1 & my *ildr54 ,s ,i quitt$ ,bagdad1 & res]v+ f my =tune only :at 0 indisp5sable = my subsi/5ce1 ,i di/ribut$ ! re/4 ,i w5t to ,syria1 :]e ,i rema9$ ab\t two ye>s1 ) no o!r occupation ?an liv+ 9 retreat & solitude1 conqu]+ my desires1 combat+ my passions1 tra9+ myself to purify my s\l1 to make my "* p]fect1 to prep>e my he>t = m$itat+ on ,god--all accord+ to ! me?ods ( ! ,sufis1 z ,i _h read ( !m4 8,?is retreat only increas$ my desire to live 9 solitude1 & to complete ! purification ( my he>t & fit x = m$itation4 ,b ! vicissitudes ( ! times1 ! affairs ( ! family1 ! ne$ ( subsi/5ce1 *ang$ 9 "s respects my primitive resolve1 & int]f]$ ) my plans = a purely solit>y life4 ,i _h nev] yet f\nd myself completely 9 ec/asy1 save 9 a few s+le h\rs2 nev]!less1 ,i kept ! hope ( atta9+ ?is /ate4 ,e "t t ! accid5ts l$ me a/ray1 ,i s\ght to return2 & 9 ?is situation ,i sp5t t5 ye>s4 ,dur+ ?is solit>y /ate ?+s 7 reveal$ to me :i* x is impossible ei!r to describe or to po9t out4 ,i recogniz$ = c]ta9 t ! ,sufis are assur$ly walk+ 9 ! pa? ( ,god4 ,bo? 9 _! acts & 9 _! inaction1 :e!r int]nal or ext]nal1 !y are illum9$ by ! light :i* proce$s f ! prophetic s\rce4 ,! fir/ condition = a ,sufi is to purge 8 he>t entirely ( all t is n ,god4 ,! next key ( ! contemplative life consi/s 9 ! humble pray]s :i* escape f ! f]v5t s\l1 & 9 ! m$itations on ,god 9 :i* ! he>t is swall[$ up entirely4 ,b 9 reality ?is is only ! beg9n+ ( ! ,sufi life1 ! end ( ,sufism be+ total absorption 9 ,god4 ,! intuitions & all t prec$e are1 s to speak1 only ! ?re%old = ^? :o ent]4 ,f ! beg9n+1 revelations take place 9 s flagrant a %ape t ! ,sufis see be=e !m1 :il/ wide awake1 ! angels & ! s\ls ( ! prophets4 ,!y he> _! voices & obta9 _! favors4 ,!n ! transport rises f ! p]ception ( =ms & figures to a degree :i* escapes all expression1 & :i* no man may seek to give an acc\nt ( )\t 8 words involv+ s94 8,:oev] has _h no exp]i5ce ( ! transport kn[s ( ! true nature ( prophetism no?+ b ! "n4 ,he may mean:ile be sure ( its exi/5ce1 bo? by exp]i5ce & by :at he he>s ! ,sufis say4 ,z !re are m5 end[$ only ) ! s5sitive faculty :o reject :at is (f]$ !m 9 ! way ( objects ( ! pure und]/&+1 s !re are intellectual m5 :o reject & avoid ! ?+s p]ceiv$ by ! prophetic faculty4 ,a bl9d man c und]/& no?+ ( colors save :at he has le>n$ by n>ration & he>say4 ,yet ,god has br\ght prophetism ne> to m5 9 giv+ !m all a /ate analog\s to x 9 its pr9cipal *>act]s4 ,?is /ate is sleep4 ,if y 7 to tell a man :o 0 himself )\t exp]i5ce ( su* a ph5om5on t !re are p :o at times swoon away s z to resemble dead m51 & :o 9 dreams yet p]ceive ?+s t are hidd51 he w\ld d5y x & give 8 reasons4 ,nev]!less1 8 argum5ts w\ld be refut$ by actual exp]i5ce4 ,:]e=e1 j z ! und]/&+ is a /age ( human life 9 :i* an eye op5s to disc]n v>i\s intellectual objects uncompreh5d$ by s5sation2 j s 9 ! prophetic ! sight is illum9$ by a light :i* uncov]s hidd5 ?+s & objects :i* ! intellect fails to rea*4 ,! *ief prop]ties ( prophetism are p]ceptible only dur+ ! transport1 by ^? :o embrace ! ,sufi life4 ,! prophet is end[$ ) qualities to :i* y possess no?+ analog\s1 & :i* consequ5tly y _c possibly und]/&4 ,h[ %\ld y "k _! true nature1 s9ce "o kn[s only :at "o c compreh5d8 ,b ! transport :i* "o atta9s by ! me?od ( ! ,sufis is l an imm$iate p]ception1 z if "o t\*$ ! objects ) "o's h&407#bdg7 ,?is incommunicabl5ess ( ! transport is ! keynote ( all my/icism4 ,my/ical tru? exi/s = ! individual :o has ! transport1 b = no "o else4 ,9 ?is1 z ,i h said1 x resembles ! k giv5 to u 9 s5sations m ?an t giv5 by conceptual ?\ght4 ,?\ght1 ) its remot5ess & ab/ractness1 has (t5 en\gh 9 ! hi/ory ( philosophy be5 contra/$ unfavorably ) s5sation4 ,x is a commonplace ( metaphysics t ,god's k _c be discursive b mu/ be intuitive1 t is1 mu/ be con/ruct$ m aft] ! patt]n ( :at 9 ourselves is call$ imm$iate feel+1 ?an aft] t ( proposition & judgm5t4 ,b our imm$iate feel+s h no cont5t b :at ! five s5ses supply2 & we h se5 & %all see aga9 t my/ics may emphatically d5y t ! s5ses play any "p 9 ! v highe/ type ( k :i* _! transports yield4 ,9 ! ,*ri/ian *ur* !re h always be5 my/ics4 ,al?\gh _m ( !m h be5 view$ ) suspicion1 "s h ga9$ favor 9 ! eyes ( ! au?orities4 ,! exp]i5ces ( ^! h be5 treat$ z prec$5ts1 & a codifi$ sy/em ( my/ical !ology has be5 bas$ ^u !m1 9 :i* ev]y?+ legitimate f9ds its place47#bdh7 ,! basis ( ! sy/em is 8orison0 or m$itation1 ! me?odical elevation ( ! s\l t[>ds ,god4 ,?r\gh ! practice ( orison ! high] levels ( my/ical exp]i5ce may be atta9$4 ,x is odd t ,prote/antism1 especially evangelical ,prote/antism1 %\ld seem+ly h ab&on$ ev]y?+ me?odical 9 ?is l9e4 ,ap>t f :at pray] may lead to1 ,prote/ant my/ical exp]i5ce appe>s to h be5 almo/ exclusively sporadic4 ,x has be5 left to our m9dcur]s to re9troduce me?odical m$itation into our religi\s life4 ,! fir/ ?+ to be aim$ at 9 orison is ! m9d's deta*m5t f out] s5sations1 = ^! int]f]e ) its conc5tration ^u ideal ?+s4 ,su* manuals z ,sa9t ,ignatius's ,spiritual ,ex]cises recomm5d ! disciple to expel s5sation by a graduat$ s]ies ( ef=ts to imag9e holy sc5es4 ,! acme ( ?is k9d ( discipl9e w\ld be a semi halluc9atory monoideism--an imag9>y figure ( ,*ri/1 = example1 com+ fully to occupy ! m9d4 ,s5sorial images ( ?is sort1 :e!r lit]al or symbolic1 play an enorm\s "p 9 my/icism47#bdi7 ,b 9 c]ta9 cases imag]y may fall away entirely1 & 9 ! v highe/ raptures x t5ds to d s4 ,! /ate ( consci\sness becomes !n insusceptible ( any v]bal description4 ,my/ical tea*]s are unanim\s z to ?is4 ,sa9t ,john ( ! ,cross1 = in/ance1 "o ( ! be/ ( !m1 ?us describes ! condition call$ ! 8union ( love10 :i*1 he says1 is rea*$ by 8d>k contemplation40 ,9 ?is ! ,deity comp5etrates ! s\l1 b 9 su* a hidd5 way t ! s\l-- 8f9ds no t]ms1 no means1 no comp>ison :]eby to r5d] ! sublimity ( ! wisdom & ! delicacy ( ! spiritual feel+ ) :i* %e is fill$4444 ,we receive ?is my/ical k ( ,god clo!d 9 none ( ! k9ds ( images1 9 none ( ! s5sible repres5tations1 :i* our m9d makes use ( 9 o!r circum/ances4 ,accord+ly 9 ?is k1 s9ce ! s5ses & ! imag9ation are n employ$1 we get nei!r =m nor impression1 nor c we give any acc\nt or furni% any lik5ess1 al?\gh ! my/]i\s & sweetta/+ wisdom comes home s cle>ly to ! inmo/ p>ts ( our s\l4 ,fancy a man see+ a c]ta9 k9d ( ?+ = ! fir/ "t 9 8 life4 ,he c und]/& x1 use & enjoy x1 b he _c apply a "n to x1 nor communicate any idea ( x1 ev5 ?\gh all ! :ile x be a m]e ?+ ( s5se4 ,h[ mu* great] w be 8 p[]lessness :5 x goes beyond ! s5ses6 ,?is is ! peculi>ity ( ! div9e language4 ,! m infus$1 intimate1 spiritual1 & sup]s5sible x is1 ! m does x exce$ ! s5ses1 bo? inn] & out]1 & impose sil5ce ^u !m4444 ,! s\l !n feels z if plac$ 9 a va/ & pr(\nd solitude1 to :i* no creat$ ?+ has access1 9 an imm5se & b\ndless des]t1 des]t ! m delici\s ! m solit>y x is4 ,!re1 9 ?is abyss ( wisdom1 ! s\l gr[s by :at x dr9ks 9 f ! wellspr+s ( ! compreh5sion ( love1 444 & recognizes1 h[ev] sublime & le>n$ may be ! t]ms we employ1 h[ utt]ly vile1 insignificant1 & improp] !y are1 :5 we seek to disc\rse ( div9e ?+s by _! means407#bej7 ,i _c pret5d to detail to y ! sundry /ages ( ! ,*ri/ian my/ical life47#bea7 ,our "t w\ld n suffice1 = "o ?+2 & moreov]1 ,i confess t ! subdivisions & names :i* we f9d 9 ! ,ca?olic books seem to me to repres5t no?+ objectively di/9ct4 ,s _m m51 s _m m9ds3 ,i imag9e t ^! exp]i5ces c be z inf9itely v>i$ z are ! idiosyncrasies ( individuals4 ,! cognitive aspects ( !m1 _! value 9 ! way ( revelation1 is :at we are directly conc]n$ )1 & x is easy to %[ by citation h[ /rong an impression !y leave ( be+ revelations ( new dep?s ( tru?4 ,sa9t ,t]esa is ! exp]t ( exp]ts 9 describ+ su* conditions1 s ,i w turn imm$iately to :at %e says ( "o ( ! highe/ ( !m1 ! 8orison ( union40 8,9 ! orison ( union10 says ,sa9t ,t]esa1 8! s\l is fully awake z reg>ds ,god1 b :olly asleep z reg>ds ?+s ( ?is _w & 9 respect ( h]self4 ,dur+ ! %ort "t ! union la/s1 %e is z x 7 depriv$ ( e feel+1 & ev5 if %e w\ld1 %e c\ld n ?9k ( any s+le ?+4 ,?us %e ne$s to employ no artifice 9 ord] to arre/ ! use ( h] und]/&+3 x rema9s s /rick5 ) inactivity t %e nei!r kn[s :at %e loves1 nor 9 :at mann] %e loves1 nor :at %e wills4 ,9 %ort1 %e is utt]ly dead to ! ?+s ( ! _w & lives solely 9 ,god4444 ,i d n ev5 "k :e!r 9 ?is /ate %e has en\gh life left to brea!4 ,x seems to me %e has n2 or at lea/ t if %e does brea!1 %e is unaw>e ( x4 ,h] intellect w\ld fa9 und]/& some?+ ( :at is go+ on )9 h]1 b x has s little =ce n[ t x c act 9 no way :atsoev]4 ,s a p]son :o falls into a deep fa9t appe>s z if dead4444 8,?us does ,god1 :5 he raises a s\l to union ) himself1 susp5d ! natural action ( all h] faculties4 ,%e nei!r sees1 he>s1 nor und]/&s1 s long z %e is unit$ ) ,god4 ,b ?is "t is always %ort1 & x seems ev5 %ort] ?an x is4 ,god e/abli%es himself 9 ! int]ior ( ?is s\l 9 su* a way1 t :5 %e returns to h]self1 x is :olly impossible = h] to d\bt t %e has be5 9 ,god1 & ,god 9 h]4 ,?is tru? rema9s s /rongly impress$ on h] t1 ev5 ?\gh _m ye>s %\ld pass )\t ! condition return+1 %e c nei!r =get ! favor %e receiv$1 nor d\bt ( its reality4 ,if y1 nev]!less1 ask h[ x is possible t ! s\l c see & und]/& t %e has be5 9 ,god1 s9ce dur+ ! union %e has nei!r sight nor und]/&+1 ,i reply t %e does n see x !n1 b t %e sees x cle>ly lat]1 aft] %e has return$ to h]self1 n by any vision1 b by a c]titude :i* abides ) h] & :i* ,god alone c give h]4 ,i knew a p]son :o 0 ignorant ( ! tru? t ,god's mode ( be+ 9 ev]y?+ mu/ be ei!r by pres5ce1 by p[]1 or by ess5ce1 b :o1 aft] hav+ receiv$ ! grace ( :i* ,i am speak+1 believ$ ?is tru? 9 ! mo/ un%akable mann]4 ,s mu* s t1 hav+ consult$ a halfle>n$ man :o 0 z ignorant on ?is po9t z %e _h be5 be=e %e 0 enlight5$1 :5 he repli$ t ,god is 9 u only by #8grace1' %e disbeliev$ 8 reply1 s sure %e 0 ( ! true answ]2 & :5 %e came to ask wis] doctors1 !y confirm$ h] 9 h] belief1 :i* mu* consol$ h]4444 8,b h[1 y w repeat1 c "o h su* c]ta9ty 9 respect to :at "o does n see8 ,?is "q1 ,i am p[]less to answ]4 ,^! are secrets ( ,god's omnipot5ce :i* x does n app]ta9 to me to p5etrate4 ,all t ,i "k is t ,i tell ! tru?2 & ,i %all nev] believe t any s\l :o does n possess ?is c]ta9ty has ev] be5 really unit$ to ,god407#beb7 ,! k9ds ( tru? communicable 9 my/ical ways1 :e!r ^! be s5sible or sup]s5sible1 are v>i\s4 ,"s ( !m relate to ?is _w1--visions ( ! future1 ! read+ ( he>ts1 ! sudd5 und]/&+ ( texts1 ! k ( di/ant ev5ts1 = example2 b ! mo/ important revelations are !ological or metaphysical4 8,sa9t ,ignatius confess$ "o day to ,fa!r ,laynez t a s+le h\r ( m$itation at ,manresa _h taught him m tru?s ab\t heav5ly ?+s ?an all ! tea*+s ( all ! doctors put toge!r c\ld h taught him4444 ,"o day 9 orison1 on ! /eps ( ! *oir ( ! ,dom9ican *ur*1 he saw 9 a di/9ct mann] ! plan ( div9e wisdom 9 ! creation ( ! _w4 ,on ano!r occasion1 dur+ a procession1 8 _s 0 ravi%$ 9 ,god1 & x 0 giv5 him to contemplate1 9 a =m & images fitt$ to ! weak und]/&+ ( a dwell] on ! e>?1 ! deep my/]y ( ! holy ,tr9ity4 ,?is la/ vision flood$ 8 he>t ) su* sweetness1 t ! m]e memory ( x 9 aft] times made him %$ abundant te>s407#bec7 ,simil>ly ) ,sa9t ,t]esa4 8,"o day1 be+ 9 orison10 %e writes1 8x 0 grant$ me to p]ceive 9 "o in/ant h[ all ?+s are se5 & conta9$ 9 ,god4 ,i did n p]ceive !m 9 _! prop] =m1 & nev]!less ! view ,i _h ( !m 0 ( a sov]eign cle>ness1 & has rema9$ vividly impress$ ^u my s\l4 ,x is "o ( ! mo/ signal ( all ! graces :i* ! ,"l has grant$ me4444 ,! view 0 s subtile & delicate t ! und]/&+ _c grasp x407#bed7 ,%e goes on to tell h[ x 0 z if ! ,deity 7 an enorm\s & sov]eignly limpid diamond1 9 :i* all our actions 7 conta9$ 9 su* a way t _! full s9fulness appe>$ evid5t z nev] be=e4 ,on ano!r day1 %e relates1 :ile %e 0 recit+ ! ,a?anasian ,cre$1-- 8,our ,"l made me compreh5d 9 :at way x is t "o ,god c be 9 ?ree ,p]sons4 ,he made me see x s cle>ly t ,i rema9$ z extremely surpris$ z ,i 0 com=t$1 444 & n[1 :5 ,i ?9k ( ! holy ,tr9ity1 or he> ,x spok5 (1 ,i und]/& h[ ! ?ree adorable ,p]sons =m only "o ,god & ,i exp]i5ce an unspeakable happ9ess40 ,on /ill ano!r occasion1 x 0 giv5 to ,sa9t ,t]esa to see & und]/& 9 :at wise ! ,"m ( ,god _h be5 assum$ into h] place 9 ,heav547#bee7 ,! delici\sness ( "s ( ^! /ates seems to be beyond any?+ kn[n 9 ord9>y consci\sness4 ,x evid5tly involves organic s5sibilities1 = x is spok5 ( z some?+ too extreme to be borne1 & z v]g+ on bodily pa947#bef7 ,b x is too subtle & pi]c+ a delight = ord9>y words to d5ote4 ,god's t\*es1 ! w\nds ( 8 spe>1 ref]5ces to ebriety & to nuptial union h to figure 9 ! phraseology by :i* x is %ad[$ =?4 ,intellect & s5ses bo? swoon away 9 ^! highe/ /ates ( ec/asy4 8,if our und]/&+ compreh5ds10 says ,sa9t ,t]esa1 8x is 9 a mode :i* rema9s unkn[n to x1 & x c und]/& no?+ ( :at x compreh5ds4 ,= my own "p1 ,i d n believe t x does compreh5d1 because1 z ,i said1 x does n und]/& itself to d s4 ,i confess t x is all a my/]y 9 :i* ,i am lo/407#beg7 ,9 ! condition call$ raptus or ravi%m5t by !ologians1 brea?+ & circulation are s depress$ t x is a "q among ! doctors :e!r ! s\l be or be n tempor>ily dissev]$ f ! body4 ,"o mu/ read ,sa9t ,t]esa's descriptions & ! v exact di/9ctions :i* %e makes1 to p]suade "o's self t "o is deal+1 n ) imag9>y exp]i5ces1 b ) ph5om5a :i*1 h[ev] r>e1 foll[ p]fectly def9ite psy*ological types4 ,to ! m$ical m9d ^! ec/asies signify no?+ b sugge/$ & imitat$ hypnoid /ates1 on an intellectual basis ( sup]/ition1 & a corporeal "o ( deg5]ation & hy/]ia4 ,und\bt$ly ^! pa?ological conditions h exi/$ 9 _m & possibly 9 all ! cases1 b t fact tells u no?+ ab\t ! value = k ( ! consci\sness :i* !y induce4 ,to pass a spiritual judgm5t ^u ^! /ates1 we mu/ n cont5t ourselves ) sup]ficial m$ical talk1 b inquire into _! fruits = life4 ,_! fruits appe> to h be5 v>i\s4 ,/upefaction1 = "o ?+1 seems n to h be5 altoge!r abs5t z a result4 ,y may rememb] ! helplessness 9 ! kit*5 & s*oolroom ( poor ,m>g>et ,m>y ,alacoque4 ,_m o!r ec/atics w\ld h p]i%$ b = ! c>e tak5 ( !m by admir+ foll[]s4 ,! 8o!rworldl9ess0 enc\rag$ by ! my/ical consci\sness makes ?is ov]ab/raction f practical life peculi>ly liable to befall my/ics 9 :om ! "* is naturally passive & ! intellect feeble2 b 9 natively /rong m9ds & *>act]s we f9d q opposite results4 ,! great ,spani% my/ics1 :o c>ri$ ! habit ( ec/asy z f> z x has (t5 be5 c>ri$1 appe> = ! mo/ "p to h %[n indomitable _s & en]gy1 & all ! m s = ! trances 9 :i* !y indulg$4 ,sa9t ,ignatius 0 a my/ic1 b 8 my/icism made him assur$ly "o ( ! mo/ p[]fully practical human eng9es t ev] liv$4 ,sa9t ,john ( ! ,cross1 writ+ ( ! intuitions & 8t\*es0 by :i* ,god rea*es ! sub/ance ( ! s\l1 tells u t-- 8,!y enri* x m>vel\sly4 ,a s+le "o ( !m may be suffici5t to aboli% at a /roke c]ta9 imp]fections ( :i* ! s\l dur+ its :ole life _h va9ly tri$ to rid itself1 & to leave x adorn$ ) virtues & load$ ) sup]natural gifts4 ,a s+le "o ( ^! intoxicat+ consolations may rew>d x = all ! labors und]gone 9 its life--ev5 7 !y numb]less4 ,inve/$ ) an inv9cible c\rage1 fill$ ) an impassion$ desire to suff] = its ,god1 ! s\l !n is seiz$ ) a /range torm5t--t ( n be+ all[$ to suff] en\gh407#beh7 ,sa9t ,t]esa is z emphatic1 & mu* m detail$4 ,y may p]haps rememb] a passage ,i quot$ f h] 9 my fir/ lecture47#bei7 ,!re are _m simil> pages 9 h] autobiography4 ,:]e 9 lit]ature is a m evid5tly v]aci\s acc\nt ( ! =mation ( a new c5tre ( spiritual en]gy1 ?an is giv5 9 h] description ( ! effects ( c]ta9 ec/asies :i* 9 dep>t+ leave ! s\l ^u a high] level ( emotional excitem5t8 8,(t51 infirm & wr\ght ^u ) dreadful pa9s be=e ! ec/asy1 ! s\l em]ges f x full ( heal? & admirably dispos$ = action 444 z if ,god _h will$ t ! body itself1 already ob$i5t to ! s\l's desires1 %\ld %>e 9 ! s\l's happ9ess4444 ,! s\l aft] su* a favor is animat$ ) a degree ( c\rage s great t if at t mom5t its body %\ld be torn to pieces = ! cause ( ,god1 x w\ld feel no?+ b ! livelie/ com=t4 ,!n x is t promises & h]oic resolutions spr+ up 9 pr(usion 9 u1 so>+ desires1 horror ( ! _w1 & ! cle> p]ception ( our prop] no?+ness4444 ,:at empire is comp>able to t ( a s\l :o1 f ?is sublime summit to :i* ,god has rais$ h]1 sees all ! ?+s ( e>? b5ea? h] feet1 & is captivat$ by no "o ( !m8 ,h[ a%am$ %e is ( h] =m] atta*m5ts6 ,h[ amaz$ at h] bl9dness6 ,:at lively pity %e feels = ^? :om %e recognizes /ill %r\d$ 9 ! d>kness6444 ,%e groans at hav+ ev] be5 s5sitive to po9ts ( honor1 at ! illusion t made h] ev] see z honor :at ! _w calls by t "n4 ,n[ %e sees 9 ?is "n no?+ m ?an an imm5se lie ( :i* ! _w rema9s a victim4 ,%e discov]s1 9 ! new light f above1 t 9 g5u9e honor !re is no?+ spuri\s1 t to be fai?ful to ?is honor is to give our respect to :at des]ves to be respect$ really1 & to consid] z no?+1 or z less ?an no?+1 :atsoev] p]i%es & is n agreeable to ,god4444 ,%e laughs :5 %e sees grave p]sons1 p]sons ( orison1 c>+ = po9ts ( honor = :i* %e n[ feels pr(\nde/ contempt4 ,x is suitable to ! dignity ( _! rank to act ?us1 !y pret5d1 & x makes !m m useful to o!rs4 ,b %e kn[s t 9 despis+ ! dignity ( _! rank = ! pure love ( ,god !y w\ld d m good 9 a s+le day ?an !y w\ld effect 9 t5 ye>s by pres]v+ x4444 ,%e laughs at h]self t !re %\ld ev] h be5 a "t 9 h] life :5 %e made any case ( money1 :5 %e ev] desir$ x4444 ,oh6 if human be+s might only agree toge!r to reg>d x z s mu* useless mud1 :at h>mony w\ld !n reign 9 ! _w6 ,) :at fri5d%ip we w\ld all treat ea* o!r if our int]e/ 9 honor & 9 money c\ld b disappe> f e>?6 ,= my own "p1 ,i feel z if x w\ld be a rem$y = all our ills407#bfj7 ,my/ical conditions may1 !re=e1 r5d] ! s\l m en]getic 9 ! l9es :i* _! inspiration favors4 ,b ?is c\ld be reckon$ an advantage only 9 case ! inspiration 7 a true "o4 ,if ! inspiration 7 errone\s1 ! en]gy w\ld be all ! m mi/ak5 & misbegott54 ,s we /& once m be=e t problem ( tru? :i* confront$ u at ! end ( ! lectures on sa9tl9ess4 ,y w rememb] t we turn$ to my/icism precisely to get "s light on tru?4 ,d my/ical /ates e/abli% ! tru? ( ^? !ological affections 9 :i* ! sa9tly life has its root8 ,9 spite ( _! repudiation ( articulate selfdescription1 my/ical /ates 9 g5]al ass]t a pretty di/9ct !oretic drift4 ,x is possible to give ! outcome ( ! majority ( !m 9 t]ms t po9t 9 def9ite philosophical directions4 ,"o ( ^! directions is optimism1 & ! o!r is monism4 ,we pass into my/ical /ates f out ( ord9>y consci\sness z f a less into a m1 z f a smallness into a va/ness1 & at ! same "t z f an unre/ to a re/4 ,we feel !m z reconcil+1 unify+ /ates4 ,!y appeal to ! yesfunction m ?an to ! nofunction 9 u4 ,9 !m ! unlimit$ absorbs ! limits & peacefully closes ! acc\nt4 ,_! v d5ial ( e adjective y may propose z applicable to ! ultimate tru?1--,he1 ! ,self1 ! ,atman1 is to be describ$ by 8,no6 no60 only1 say ! ,upani%ads17#bfa7--?\gh x seems on ! surface to be a nofunction1 is a d5ial made on behalf ( a deep] yes4 ,:oso calls ! ,absolute any?+ 9 p>ticul>1 or says t x is ?is1 seems implicitly to %ut x (f f be+ t--x is z if he less5$ x4 ,s we d5y ! 8?is10 negat+ ! negation :i* x seems to u to imply1 9 ! int]e/s ( ! high] affirmative attitude by :i* we are possess$4 ,! f\nta9head ( ,*ri/ian my/icism is ,dionysius ! ,areopagite4 ,he describes ! absolute tru? by negatives exclusively4 8,! cause ( all ?+s is nei!r s\l nor intellect2 nor has x imag9ation1 op9ion1 or reason1 or intellig5ce2 nor is x reason or intellig5ce2 nor is x spok5 or ?\ght4 ,x is nei!r numb]1 nor ord]1 nor magnitude1 nor littl5ess1 nor equality1 nor inequality1 nor simil>ity1 nor dissimil>ity4 ,x nei!r /&s1 nor moves1 nor re/s4444 ,x is nei!r ess5ce1 nor et]nity1 nor "t4 ,ev5 intellectual contact does n belong to x4 ,x is nei!r sci5ce nor tru?4 ,x is n ev5 royalty or wisdom2 n "o2 n unity2 n div9ity or goodness2 nor ev5 _s z we "k x10 etc41 ad libitum47#bfb7 ,b ^! qualifications are d5i$ by ,dionysius1 n because ! tru? falls %ort ( !m1 b because x s inf9itely excels !m4 ,x is above !m4 ,x is sup]luc5t1 sup]spl5d5t1 sup]ess5tial1 sup]sublime1 sup] ev]y?+ t c be nam$4 ,l ,hegel 9 8 logic1 my/ics j\rney t[>ds ! positive pole ( tru? only by ! 8,me?ode d] ,absolut5 ,negativitt407#bfc7 ,?us come ! p>adoxical expressions t s ab\nd 9 my/ical writ+s4 ,z :5 ,eckh>t tells ( ! /ill des]t ( ! ,godhead1 8:]e nev] 0 se5 diff]5ce1 nei!r ,fa!r1 ,son1 nor ,holy ,gho/1 :]e !re is no "o at home1 yet :]e ! sp>k ( ! s\l is m at peace ?an 9 itself407#bfd7 ,z :5 ,boehme writes ( ! ,primal ,love1 t 8x may fitly be comp>$ to ,no?+1 = x is deep] ?an any ,?+1 & is z no?+ ) respect to all ?+s1 =asmu* z x is n compreh5sible by any ( !m4 ,& because x is no?+ respectively1 x is !re=e free f all ?+s1 & is t only good1 :i* a man _c express or utt] :at x is1 !re be+ no?+ to :i* x may be comp>$1 to express x by407#bfe7 ,or z :5 ,angelus ,silesius s+s3-- 8,gott i/ e9 laut] ,ni*ts1 ihn rhrt ke9 ,nun no* ,hi]2 ,je mehr du na* ihm greiff/1 je mehr entw9d er dir407#bff7 ,to ?is dialectical use1 by ! intellect1 ( negation z a mode ( passage t[>ds a high] k9d ( affirmation1 !re is correlat$ ! subtle/ ( moral c\nt]p>ts 9 ! sph]e ( ! p]sonal w4 ,s9ce d5ial ( ! f9ite self & its wants1 s9ce asceticism ( "s sort1 is f\nd 9 religi\s exp]i5ce to be ! only doorway to ! l>g] & m bless$ life1 ?is moral my/]y int]tw9es & comb9es ) ! intellectual my/]y 9 all my/ical writ+s4 8,love10 cont9ues ,behm51 is ,no?+1 = 8:5 ?\ art gone =? :olly f ! ,creature & f t :i* is visible1 & art become ,no?+ to all t is ,nature & ,creature1 !n ?\ art 9 t et]nal ,"o1 :i* is ,god himself1 & !n ?\ %alt feel )9 !e ! highe/ virtue ( ,love4444 ,! treasure ( treasures = ! s\l is :]e %e goe? out ( ! ,some:at into t ,no?+ out ( :i* all ?+s may be made4 ,! s\l "h sai?1 ,i h no?+1 = ,i am utt]ly /ripp$ & nak$2 ,i c d no?+1 = ,i h no mann] ( p[]1 b am z wat] p\r$ out2 ,i am no?+1 = all t ,i am is no m ?an an image ( ,be+1 & only ,god is to me ,i ,,am2 & s1 sitt+ d[n 9 my own ,no?+ness1 ,i give glory to ! et]nal ,be+1 & w no?+ ( myself1 t s ,god may w all 9 me1 be+ unto me my ,god & all ?+s407#bfg7 ,9 ,paul's language1 ,i live1 yet n ,i1 b ,*ri/ live? 9 me4 ,only :5 ,i become z no?+ c ,god ent] 9 & no diff]5ce betwe5 8 life & m9e rema9 out/&+47#bfh7 ,?is ov]com+ ( all ! usual b>ri]s betwe5 ! individual & ! ,absolute is ! great my/ic a*ievem5t4 ,9 my/ic /ates we bo? become "o ) ! ,absolute & we become aw>e ( our on5ess4 ,?is is ! ev]la/+ & triumphant my/ical tradition1 h>dly alt]$ by diff]5ces ( clime or cre$4 ,9 ,h9duism1 9 ,neoplatonism1 9 ,sufism1 9 ,*ri/ian my/icism1 9 ,:itmanism1 we f9d ! same recurr+ note1 s t !re is ab\t my/ical utt]ances an et]nal unanimity :i* ought to make a critic /op & ?9k1 & :i* br+s x ab\t t ! my/ical classics h1 z has be5 said1 nei!r bir?day nor native l&4 ,p]petually tell+ ( ! unity ( man ) ,god1 _! spee* ant$ates languages1 & !y d n gr[ old47#bfi7 8,t art ,?\60 say ! ,upani%ads1 & ! ,v$anti/s add3 8,n a "p1 n a mode ( ,t1 b id5tically ,t1 t absolute ,_s ( ! ,_w40 8,z pure wat] p\r$ into pure wat] rema9s ! same1 ?us1 ,o ,gautama1 is ! ,self ( a ?9k] :o kn[s4 ,wat] 9 wat]1 fire 9 fire1 e!r 9 e!r1 no "o c di/+ui% !m2 likewise a man ^: m9d has ent]$ into ! ,self407#bgj7 8 #8,e man1' says ! ,sufi ,gul%an,rz1 #8^: he>t is no long] %ak5 by any d\bt1 kn[s ) c]ta9ty t !re is no be+ save only ,"o4444 ,9 8 div9e maje/y ! me1 ! we1 ! ?\1 are n f\nd1 = 9 ! ,"o !re c be no di/9ction4 ,e be+ :o is annull$ & entirely sep>at$ f himself1 he>s res\nd outside ( him ?is voice & ?is e*o3 ,i am ,god3 he has an et]nal way ( exi/+1 & is no long] subject to dea?4' 07#bga7 ,9 ! vision ( ,god1 says ,plot9us1 8:at sees is n our reason1 b some?+ prior & sup]ior to our reason4444 ,he :o ?us sees does n prop]ly see1 does n di/+ui% or imag9e two ?+s4 ,he *anges1 he ceases to be himself1 pres]ves no?+ ( himself4 ,absorb$ 9 ,god1 he makes b "o ) him1 l a c5tre ( a circle co9cid+ ) ano!r c5tre407#bgb7 8,"h10 writes ,suso1 8! _s dies1 & yet is all alive 9 ! m>vels ( ! ,godhead 444 & is lo/ 9 ! /illness ( ! glori\s dazzl+ obscurity & ( ! nak$ simple unity4 ,x is 9 ?is modeless :]e t ! highe/ bliss is to be f\nd407#bgc7 8,i* b9 s gross als ,gott10 s+s ,angelus ,silesius aga91 8,er i/ als i* s kle92 ,er kann ni*t b] mi*1 i* unt] ihm ni*t se9407#bgd7 ,9 my/ical lit]ature su* selfcontradictory phrases z 8dazzl+ obscurity10 8:isp]+ sil5ce10 8teem+ des]t10 are cont9ually met )4 ,!y prove t n conceptual spee*1 b music r1 is ! elem5t ?r\gh :i* we are be/ spok5 to by my/ical tru?4 ,_m my/ical scriptures are inde$ little m ?an musical compositions4 8,he :o w\ld he> ! voice ( ,nada1 #8! ,s\ndless ,s\nd1' & compreh5d x1 he has to le>n ! nature ( ,dhran4444 ,:5 to himself 8 =m appe>s unreal1 z d on wak+ all ! =ms he sees 9 dreams2 :5 he has ceas$ to he> ! _m1 he may disc]n ! ,,"o--! inn] s\nd :i* kills ! out]4444 ,= !n ! s\l w he>1 & w rememb]4 ,& !n to ! inn] e> w speak ,,! ,,voice ,,( ,,! ,,sil5ce4444 ,& n[ ?y ,self is lo/ 9 ,,self1 ?yself unto ,,?yself1 m]g$ 9 t ,,self f :i* ?\ fir/ did/ radiate4444 ,behold6 ?\ ha/ become ! ,light1 ?\ ha/ become ! ,s\nd1 ?\ art ?y ,ma/] & ?y ,god4 ,?\ art ,,?yself ! object ( ?y se>*3 ! ,,voice unbrok51 t res\nds ?r\gh\t et]nities1 exempt f *ange1 f s9 exempt1 ! sev5 s\nds 9 "o1 ! ,,voice ,,( ,,! ,,sil5ce4 ,om tat ,sat407#bge7 ,^! words1 if !y d n awak5 laught] z y receive !m1 probably /ir *ords )9 y :i* music & language t\* 9 common4 ,music gives u ontological messages :i* nonmusical criticism is unable to contradict1 ?\gh x may laugh at our fooli%ness 9 m9d+ !m4 ,!re is a v]ge ( ! m9d :i* ^! ?+s haunt2 & :isp]s !refrom m+le ) ! op]ations ( our und]/&+1 ev5 z ! wat]s ( ! inf9ite ocean s5d _! waves to break among ! pebbles t lie ^u our %ores4 8,"h beg9s ! sea t ends n till ! _w's end4 ,:]e we /&1 ,c\ld we "k ! next high seam>k set beyond ^! waves t gleam1 ,we %\ld "k :at nev] man ha? kn[n1 nor eye ( man ha? scann$4444 ,ah1 b "h man's he>t leaps1 ye>n+ t[>ds ! gloom ) v5tur\s glee1 ,f ! %ore t ha? no %ore beyond x1 set 9 all ! sea407#bgf7 ,t doctr9e1 = example1 t et]nity is timeless1 t our 8immortality10 if we live 9 ! et]nal1 is n s mu* future z already n[ & "h1 :i* we f9d s (t5 express$ today 9 c]ta9 philosophic circles1 f9ds its support 9 a 8he>1 he>60 or an 8am510 :i* floats up f t my/]i\sly deep] level47#bgg7 ,we recognize ! passwords to ! my/ical region z we he> !m1 b we _c use !m ourselves2 x alone has ! keep+ ( 8! password primeval407#bgh7 ,i h n[ sket*$ ) extreme brevity & insuffici5cy1 b z fairly z ,i am able 9 ! "t all[$1 ! g5]al traits ( ! my/ic range ( consci\sness4 ,x is on ! :ole pan!i/ic & optimi/ic1 or at lea/ ! opposite ( pessimi/ic4 ,x is antinaturali/ic1 & h>monizes be/ ) twicebornness & scall$ o!rworldly /ates ( m9d4 ,my next task is to inquire :e!r we c invoke x z au?oritative4 ,does x furni% any w>rant = ! tru? ( ! twicebornness & sup]naturality & pan!ism :i* x favors8 ,i mu/ give my answ] to ?is "q z concisely z ,i c4 ,9 brief my answ] is ?is1--& ,i w divide x into ?ree p>ts3-- 7#a7 ,my/ical /ates1 :5 well develop$1 usually are1 & h ! "r to be1 absolutely au?oritative ov] ! individuals to :om !y come4 7#b7 ,no au?ority emanates f !m :i* %\ld make x a duty = ^? :o /& outside ( !m to accept _! revelations uncritically4 7#c7 ,!y break d[n ! au?ority ( ! nonmy/ical or rationali/ic consci\sness1 bas$ ^u ! und]/&+ & ! s5ses alone4 ,!y %[ x to be only "o k9d ( consci\sness4 ,!y op5 out ! possibility ( o!r ord]s ( tru?1 9 :i*1 s f> z any?+ 9 u vitally responds to !m1 we may freely cont9ue to h fai?4 ,i w take up ^! po9ts "o by "o4 #a4 ,z a matt] ( psy*ological fact1 my/ical /ates ( a wellpron\nc$ & emphatic sort are usually au?oritative ov] ^? :o h !m47#bgi7 ,!y h be5 8!re10 & "k4 ,x is va9 = rationalism to grumble ab\t ?is4 ,if ! my/ical tru? t comes to a man proves to be a =ce t he c live by1 :at m&ate h we ( ! majority to ord] him to live 9 ano!r way8 ,we c ?r[ him into a prison or a madh\se1 b we _c *ange 8 m9d--we commonly atta* x only ! m /ubbornly to its beliefs47#bhj7 ,x mocks our utmo/ ef=ts1 z a matt] ( fact1 & 9 po9t ( logic x absolutely escapes our jurisdiction4 ,our own m 8rational0 beliefs are bas$ on evid5ce exactly simil> 9 nature to t :i* my/ics quote = !irs4 ,our s5ses1 namely1 h assur$ u ( c]ta9 /ates ( fact2 b my/ical exp]i5ces are z direct p]ceptions ( fact = ^? :o h !m z any s5sations ev] 7 = u4 ,! records %[ t ev5 ?\gh ! five s5ses be 9 abeyance 9 !m1 !y are absolutely s5sational 9 _! epi/emological quality1 if ,i may be p>don$ ! b>b>\s expression1--t is1 !y are face to face pres5tations ( :at seems imm$iately to exi/4 ,! my/ic is1 9 %ort1 invuln]able1 & mu/ be left1 :e!r we reli% x or n1 9 undi/urb$ enjoym5t ( 8 cre$4 ,fai?1 says ,tol/oy1 is t by :i* m5 live4 ,& fai?/ate & my/ic /ate are practically conv]tible t]ms4 #b4 ,b ,i n[ proce$ to add t my/ics h no "r to claim t we ought to accept ! deliv]ance ( _! peculi> exp]i5ces1 if we are ourselves outsid]s & feel no private call !reto4 ,! utmo/ !y c ev] ask ( u 9 ?is life is to admit t !y e/abli% a presumption4 ,!y =m a cons5sus & h an unequivocal outcome2 & x w\ld be odd1 my/ics might say1 if su* a unanim\s type ( exp]i5ce %\ld prove to be altoge!r wrong4 ,at bottom1 h[ev]1 ?is w\ld only be an appeal to numb]s1 l ! appeal ( rationalism ! o!r way2 & ! appeal to numb]s has no logical =ce4 ,if we ackn[l$ge x1 x is = 8sugge/ive10 n = logical reasons3 we foll[ ! majority because to d s suits our life4 ,b ev5 ?is presumption f ! unanimity ( my/ics is f> f be+ /rong4 ,9 *>act]iz+ my/ic /ates z pan!i/ic1 optimi/ic1 etc41 ,i am afraid ,i ov]simplifi$ ! tru?4 ,i did s = expository reasons1 & to keep ! clos] to ! classic my/ical tradition4 ,! classic religi\s my/icism1 x n[ mu/ be confess$1 is only a 8privileg$ case40 ,x is an extract1 kept true to type by ! selection ( ! fitte/ specim5s & _! pres]vation 9 8s*ools40 ,x is c>v$ out f a mu* l>g] mass2 & if we take ! l>g] mass z s]i\sly z religi\s my/icism has hi/orically tak5 itself1 we f9d t ! suppos$ unanimity l>gely disappe>s4 ,to beg9 )1 ev5 religi\s my/icism itself1 ! k9d t accumulates traditions & makes s*ools1 is mu* less unanim\s ?an ,i h all[$4 ,x has be5 bo? ascetic & ant9omianly selfindulg5t )9 ! ,*ri/ian *ur*47#bha7 ,x is duali/ic 9 ,sankhya1 & moni/ic 9 ,v$anta philosophy4 ,i call$ x pan!i/ic2 b ! great ,spani% my/ics are any?+ b pan!i/s4 ,!y are ) few exceptions nonmetaphysical m9ds1 = :om 8! category ( p]sonality0 is absolute4 ,! 8union0 ( man ) ,god is = !m mu* m l an occasional miracle ?an l an orig9al id5tity47#bhb7 ,h[ diff]5t aga91 ap>t f ! happ9ess common to all1 is ! my/icism ( ,walt ,:itman1 ,edw>d ,c>p5t]1 ,ri*>d ,jeff]ies1 & o!r naturali/ic pan!i/s1 f ! m di/9ctively ,*ri/ian sort47#bhc7 ,! fact is t ! my/ical feel+ ( enl>gem5t1 union1 & emancipation has no specific intellectual cont5t :atev] ( its own4 ,x is capable ( =m+ matrimonial alliances ) mat]ial furni%$ by ! mo/ div]se philosophies & !ologies1 provid$ only !y c f9d a place 9 _! framework = its peculi> emotional mood4 ,we h no "r1 !re=e1 to invoke its pre/ige z di/9ctively 9 favor ( any special belief1 su* z t 9 absolute idealism1 or 9 ! absolute moni/ic id5tity1 or 9 ! absolute goodness1 ( ! _w4 ,x is only relatively 9 favor ( all ^! ?+s--x passes out ( common human consci\sness 9 ! direction 9 :i* !y lie4 ,s mu* = religi\s my/icism prop]4 ,b m rema9s to be told1 = religi\s my/icism is only "o half ( my/icism4 ,! o!r half has no accumulat$ traditions except ^? :i* ! textbooks on insanity supply4 ,op5 any "o ( ^!1 & y w f9d abundant cases 9 :i* 8my/ical ideas0 are cit$ z *>act]i/ic symptoms ( enfeebl$ or delud$ /ates ( m9d4 ,9 delusional insanity1 p>anoia1 z !y sometimes call x1 we may h a diabolical my/icism1 a sort ( religi\s my/icism turn$ upside d[n4 ,! same s5se ( ineffable importance 9 ! smalle/ ev5ts1 ! same texts & words com+ ) new mean+s1 ! same voices & visions & lead+s & missions1 ! same controll+ by extrane\s p[]s2 only ?is "t ! emotion is pessimi/ic3 in/ead ( consolations we h desolations2 ! mean+s are dreadful2 & ! p[]s are enemies to life4 ,x is evid5t t f ! po9t ( view ( _! psy*ological me*anism1 ! classic my/icism & ^! l[] my/icisms spr+ f ! same m5tal level1 f t great sublim9al or transm>g9al region ( :i* sci5ce is beg9n+ to admit ! exi/5ce1 b ( :i* s little is really kn[n4 ,t region conta9s e k9d ( matt]3 8s]aph & snake0 abide !re side by side4 ,to come f !nce is no infallible cr$5tial4 ,:at comes mu/ be sift$ & te/$1 & run ! gauntlet ( confrontation ) ! total context ( exp]i5ce1 j l :at comes f ! out] _w ( s5se4 ,its value mu/ be asc]ta9$ by empirical me?ods1 s long z we are n my/ics ourselves4 ,once m1 !n1 ,i repeat t nonmy/ics are "u no obligation to ackn[l$ge 9 my/ical /ates a sup]ior au?ority conf]r$ on !m by _! intr9sic nature47#bhd7 #c4 ,yet1 ,i repeat once m1 ! exi/5ce ( my/ical /ates absolutely ov]?r[s ! pret5sion ( nonmy/ical /ates to be ! sole & ultimate dictators ( :at we may believe4 ,z a rule1 my/ical /ates m]ely add a sup]s5su\s mean+ to ! ord9>y outw>d data ( consci\sness4 ,!y are excitem5ts l ! emotions ( love or ambition1 gifts to our _s by means ( :i* facts already objectively be=e u fall into a new expressiv5ess & make a new connection ) our active life4 ,!y d n contradict ^! facts z su*1 or d5y any?+ t our s5ses h imm$iately seiz$47#bhe7 ,x is ! rationali/ic critic r :o plays ! "p ( d5i] 9 ! controv]sy1 & 8 d5ials h no /r5g?1 = !re nev] c be a /ate ( facts to :i* new mean+ may n tru?fully be add$1 provid$ ! m9d asc5d to a m envelop+ po9t ( view4 ,x mu/ always rema9 an op5 "q :e!r my/ical /ates may n possibly be su* sup]ior po9ts ( view1 w9d[s ?r\gh :i* ! m9d looks out ^u a m ext5sive & inclusive _w4 ,! diff]5ce ( ! views se5 f ! diff]5t my/ical w9d[s ne$ n prev5t u f ent]ta9+ ?is supposition4 ,! wid] _w w\ld 9 t case prove to h a mix$ con/itution l t ( ?is _w1 t is all4 ,x w\ld h its cele/ial & its inf]nal regions1 its tempt+ & its sav+ mom5ts1 its valid exp]i5ces & its c\nt]feit ones1 j z our _w has !m2 b x w\ld be a wid] _w all ! same4 ,we %\ld h to use its exp]i5ces by select+ & subord9at+ & sub/itut+ j z is our cu/om 9 ?is ord9>y naturali/ic _w2 we %\ld be liable to error j z we are n[2 yet ! c\nt+ 9 ( t wid] _w ( mean+s1 & ! s]i\s deal+ ) x1 might1 9 spite ( all ! p]plexity1 be indisp5sable /ages 9 our approa* to ! f9al fullness ( ! tru?4 ,9 ?is %ape1 ,i ?9k1 we h to leave ! subject4 ,my/ical /ates inde$ wield no au?ority due simply to _! be+ my/ical /ates4 ,b ! high] ones among !m po9t 9 directions to :i* ! religi\s s5tim5ts ev5 ( nonmy/ical m5 incl9e4 ,!y tell ( ! supremacy ( ! ideal1 ( va/ness1 ( union1 ( safety1 & ( re/4 ,!y (f] u hypo!ses1 hypo!ses :i* we may volunt>ily ignore1 b :i* z ?9k]s we _c possibly upset4 ,! sup]naturalism & optimism to :i* !y w\ld p]suade u may1 int]pret$ 9 "o way or ano!r1 be aft] all ! true/ ( insights into ! mean+ ( ?is life4 8,oh1 ! little m1 & h[ mu* x is2 & ! little less1 & :at worlds away60 ,x may be t possibility & p]mission ( ?is sort are all t ! religi\s consci\sness requires to live on4 ,9 my la/ lecture ,i %all h to try to p]suade y t ?is is ! case4 ,mean:ile1 h[ev]1 ,i am sure t = _m ( my read]s ?is diet is too sl5d]4 ,if sup]naturalism & inn] union ) ! div9e are true1 y ?9k1 !n n s mu* p]mission1 z compulsion to believe1 ought to be f\nd4 ,philosophy has always pr(ess$ to prove religi\s tru? by co]cive argum5t2 & ! con/ruction ( philosophies ( ?is k9d has always be5 "o favorite function ( ! religi\s life1 if we use ?is t]m 9 ! l>ge hi/oric s5se4 ,b religi\s philosophy is an enorm\s subject1 & 9 my next lecture ,i c only give t brief glance at x :i* my limits w all[4 ,,lecture ,,xviii4 ,,philosophy4 ,! subject ( ,sa9tl9ess left u face to face ) ! "q1 ,is ! s5se ( div9e pres5ce a s5se ( any?+ objectively true8 ,we turn$ fir/ to my/icism = an answ]1 & f\nd t al?\gh my/icism is entirely will+ to corroborate religion1 x is too private 7& also too v>i\s7 9 its utt]ances to be able to claim a univ]sal au?ority4 ,b philosophy publi%es results :i* claim to be univ]sally valid if !y are valid at all1 s we n[ turn ) our "q to philosophy4 ,c philosophy /amp a w>rant ( v]acity ^u ! religi\s man's s5se ( ! div9e8 ,i imag9e t _m ( y at ?is po9t beg9 to indulge 9 guesses at ! goal to :i* ,i am t5d+4 ,i h und]m9$ ! au?ority ( my/icism1 y say1 & ! next ?+ ,i %all probably d is to seek to discr$it t ( philosophy4 ,religion1 y expect to he> me conclude1 is no?+ b an affair ( fai?1 bas$ ei!r on vague s5tim5t1 or on t vivid s5se ( ! reality ( ?+s unse5 ( :i* 9 my second lecture & 9 ! lecture on ,my/icism ,i gave s _m examples4 ,x is ess5tially private & individuali/ic2 x always exce$s our p[]s ( =mulation2 & al?\gh attempts to p\r its cont5ts into a philosophic m\ld w probably always g on1 m5 be+ :at !y are1 yet ^! attempts are always second>y processes :i* 9 no way add to ! au?ority1 or w>rant ! v]acity1 ( ! s5tim5ts f :i* !y d]ive _! own /imulus & borr[ :atev] gl[ ( conviction !y may !mselves possess4 ,9 %ort1 y suspect t ,i am plann+ to def5d feel+ at ! exp5se ( reason1 to rehabilitate ! primitive & unreflective1 & to dissuade y f ! hope ( any ,!ology wor?y ( ! "n4 ,to a c]ta9 ext5t ,i h to admit t y guess rightly4 ,i d believe t feel+ is ! deep] s\rce ( religion1 & t philosophic & !ological =mulas are second>y products1 l translations ( a text into ano!r tongue4 ,b all su* /atem5ts are mislead+ f _! brevity1 & x w take ! :ole h\r = me to expla9 to y exactly :at ,i mean4 ,:5 ,i call !ological =mulas second>y products1 ,i mean t 9 a _w 9 :i* no religi\s feel+ _h ev] exi/$1 ,i d\bt :e!r any philosophic !ology c\ld ev] h be5 fram$4 ,i d\bt if dispassionate intellectual contemplation ( ! univ]se1 ap>t f inn] unhapp9ess & ne$ ( deliv]ance on ! "o h& & my/ical emotion on ! o!r1 w\ld ev] h result$ 9 religi\s philosophies su* z we n[ possess4 ,m5 w\ld h begun ) animi/ic explanations ( natural fact1 & criticis$ ^! away into sci5tific ones1 z !y actually h done4 ,9 ! sci5ce !y w\ld h left a c]ta9 am\nt ( 8psy*ical rese>*10 ev5 z !y n[ w probably h to readmit a c]ta9 am\nt4 ,b highfly+ speculations l ^? ( ei!r dogmatic or ideali/ic !ology1 ^! !y w\ld h _h no motive to v5ture on1 feel+ no ne$ ( comm]ce ) su* deities4 ,^! speculations mu/1 x seems to me1 be class$ z ov]beliefs1 build+sout p]=m$ by ! intellect into directions ( :i* feel+ orig9ally suppli$ ! h9t4 ,b ev5 if religi\s philosophy _h to h its fir/ h9t suppli$ by feel+1 may x n h dealt 9 a sup]ior way ) ! matt] :i* feel+ sugge/$8 ,feel+ is private & dumb1 & unable to give an acc\nt ( itself4 ,x all[s t its results are my/]ies & enigmas1 decl9es to ju/ify !m rationally1 & on occasion is will+ t !y %\ld ev5 pass = p>adoxical & absurd4 ,philosophy takes j ! opposite attitude4 ,h] aspiration is to reclaim f my/]y & p>adox :atev] t]ritory %e t\*es4 ,to f9d an escape f obscure & wayw>d p]sonal p]suasion to tru? objectively valid = all ?9k+ m5 has ev] be5 ! intellect's mo/ *]i%$ ideal4 ,to r$eem religion f un:olesome privacy1 & to give public /atus & univ]sal "r ( way to its deliv]ances1 has be5 reason's task4 ,i believe t philosophy w always h opportunity to labor at ?is task47#bhf7 ,we are ?9k+ be+s1 & we _c exclude ! intellect f p>ticipat+ 9 any ( our functions4 ,ev5 9 soliloquiz+ ) ourselves1 we con/rue our feel+s intellectually4 ,bo? our p]sonal ideals & our religi\s & my/ical exp]i5ces mu/ be int]pret$ congru\sly ) ! k9d ( sc5]y :i* our ?9k+ m9d inhabits4 ,! philosophic climate ( our "t inevitably =ces its own clo?+ on u4 ,moreov]1 we mu/ ex*ange our feel+s ) "o ano!r1 & 9 do+ s we h to speak1 & to use g5]al & ab/ract v]bal =mulas4 ,conceptions & con/ructions are ?us a necess>y "p ( our religion2 & z mod]ator amid ! cla% ( hypo!ses1 & m$iator among ! criticisms ( "o man's con/ructions by ano!r1 philosophy w always h mu* to d4 ,x w\ld be /range if ,i disput$ ?is1 :5 ^! v lectures :i* ,i am giv+ are 7z y w see m cle>ly f n[ onw>ds7 a labori\s attempt to extract f ! privacies ( religi\s exp]i5ce "s g5]al facts :i* c be def9$ 9 =mulas ^u :i* ev]ybody may agree4 ,religi\s exp]i5ce1 9 o!r words1 spontane\sly & inevitably eng5d]s my?s1 sup]/itions1 dogmas1 cre$s1 & metaphysical !ologies1 & criticisms ( "o set ( ^! by ! adh]5ts ( ano!r4 ,( late1 imp>tial classifications & comp>isons h become possible1 alongside ( ! d5unciations & ana!mas by :i* ! comm]ce betwe5 cre$s us$ exclusively to be c>ri$ on4 ,we h ! beg9n+s ( a 8,sci5ce ( ,religions10 scall$2 & if ^! lectures c\ld ev] be acc\nt$ a crumbl contribution to su* a sci5ce1 ,i %\ld be made v happy4 ,b all ^! intellectual op]ations1 :e!r !y be con/ructive or comp>ative & critical1 presuppose imm$iate exp]i5ces z _! subjectmatt]4 ,!y are int]pretative & inductive op]ations1 op]ations aft] ! fact1 consequ5t ^u religi\s feel+1 n cord9ate ) x1 n indep5d5t ( :at x asc]ta9s4 ,! intellectualism 9 religion :i* ,i wi% to discr$it pret5ds to be some?+ altoge!r diff]5t f ?is4 ,x assumes to con/ruct religi\s objects out ( ! res\rces ( logical reason alone1 or ( logical reason draw+ rigor\s inf]5ce f nonsubjective facts4 ,x calls its conclusions dogmatic !ology1 or philosophy ( ! absolute1 z ! case may be2 x does n call !m sci5ce ( religions4 ,x rea*es !m 9 an a priori way1 & w>rants _! v]acity4 ,w>rant$ sy/ems h ev] be5 ! idols ( aspir+ s\ls4 ,all inclusive1 yet simple2 noble1 clean1 lum9\s1 /able1 rigor\s1 true2--:at m ideal refuge c\ld !re be ?an su* a sy/em w\ld (f] to spirits vex$ by ! mudd9ess & accid5tality ( ! _w ( s5sible ?+s8 ,accord+ly1 we f9d inculcat$ 9 ! !ological s*ools ( today1 almo/ z mu* z 9 ^? ( ! =e"t1 a disda9 = m]ely possible or probable tru?1 & ( results t only private assurance c grasp4 ,s*ola/ics & ideali/s bo? express ?is disda94 ,pr9cipal ,john ,caird1 = example1 writes z foll[s 9 8 ,introduction to ! ,philosophy ( ,religion3-- 8,religion mu/ inde$ be a ?+ ( ! he>t2 b 9 ord] to elevate x f ! region ( subjective caprice & wayw>dness1 & to di/+ui% betwe5 t :i* is true & false 9 religion1 we mu/ appeal to an objective /&>d4 ,t :i* ent]s ! he>t mu/ fir/ be disc]n$ by ! intellig5ce to be true4 ,x mu/ be se5 z hav+ 9 its own nature a "r to dom9ate feel+1 & z con/itut+ ! pr9ciple by :i* feel+ mu/ be judg$47#bhg7 ,9 e/imat+ ! religi\s "* ( individuals1 nations1 or races1 ! fir/ "q is1 n h[ !y feel1 b :at !y ?9k & believe--n :e!r _! religion is "o :i* manife/s itself 9 emotions1 m or less vehem5t & en?usia/ic1 b :at are ! conceptions ( ,god & div9e ?+s by :i* ^! emotions are call$ =?4 ,feel+ is necess>y 9 religion1 b x is by ! cont5t or intellig5t basis ( a religion1 & n by feel+1 t its "* & wor? are to be det]m9$407#bhh7 ,c>d9al ,newman1 9 8 "w1 ,! ,idea ( a ,univ]sity1 gives m emphatic expression /ill to ?is disda9 = s5tim5t47#bhi7 ,!ology1 he says1 is a sci5ce 9 ! /ricte/ s5se ( ! ^w4 ,i w tell y1 he says1 :at x is n--n 8physical evid5ces0 = ,god1 n 8natural religion10 = ^! are b vague subjective int]pretations3-- 8,if10 he cont9ues1 8! ,supreme ,be+ is p[]ful or skillful1 j s f> z ! telescope %[s p[]1 or ! microscope %[s skill1 if 8 moral law is to be asc]ta9$ simply by ! physical processes ( ! animal frame1 or 8 w ga!r$ f ! imm$iate issues ( human affairs1 if 8 ,ess5ce is j z high & deep & broad z ! univ]se & no m2 if ?is be ! fact1 !n w ,i confess t !re is no specific sci5ce ab\t ,god1 t !ology is b a "n1 & a prote/ 9 its behalf an hypocrisy4 ,!n1 pi\s z x is to ?9k ( ,him1 :ile ! pageant ( exp]im5t or ab/ract reason+ passes by1 /ill su* piety is no?+ m ?an a poetry ( ?\ght1 or an ornam5t ( language1 a c]ta9 view tak5 ( ,nature :i* "o man has & ano!r has n1 :i* gift$ m9ds /rike out1 :i* o!rs see to be admirable & +5i\s1 & :i* all w\ld be ! bett] = adopt+4 ,x is b ! !ology ( ,nature1 j z we talk ( ! philosophy or ! romance ( hi/ory1 or ! poetry ( *ildhood1 or ! picturesque or ! s5tim5tal or ! humor\s1 or any o!r ab/ract quality :i* ! g5ius or ! caprice ( ! individual1 or ! fa%ion ( ! day1 or ! cons5t ( ! _w1 recognizes 9 any set ( objects :i* are subject$ to its contemplation4 ,i d n see mu* diff]5ce betwe5 av[+ t !re is no ,god1 & imply+ t no?+ def9ite c be kn[n = c]ta9 ab\t ,him40 ,:at ,i mean by ,!ology1 cont9ues ,newman1 is none ( ^! ?+s3 8,i simply mean ! ,sci5ce ( ,god1 or ! tru?s we "k ab\t ,god1 put into a sy/em1 j z we h a sci5ce ( ! />s & call x a/ronomy1 or ( ! cru/ ( ! e>? & call x geology40 ,9 bo? ^! extracts we h ! issue cle>ly set be=e u3 ,feel+ valid only = ! individual is pitt$ aga9/ reason valid univ]sally4 ,! te/ is a p]fectly pla9 "o ( fact4 ,!ology bas$ on pure reason mu/ 9 po9t ( fact conv9ce m5 univ]sally4 ,if x did n1 :]e9 w\ld its sup]iority consi/8 ,if x only =m$ sects & s*ools1 ev5 z s5tim5t & my/icism =m !m1 h[ w\ld x fulfill its programme ( free+ u f p]sonal caprice & wayw>dness8 ,?is p]fectly def9ite practical te/ ( ! pret5sions ( philosophy to f\nd religion on univ]sal reason simplifies my proc$ure today4 ,i ne$ n discr$it philosophy by labori\s criticism ( its argum5ts4 ,x w suffice if ,i %[ t z a matt] ( hi/ory x fails to prove its pret5sion to be 8objectively0 conv9c+4 ,9 fact1 philosophy does s fail4 ,x does n bani% diff]5ces2 x f\nds s*ools & sects j z feel+ does4 ,i believe1 9 fact1 t ! logical reason ( man op]ates 9 ?is field ( div9ity exactly z x has always op]at$ 9 love1 or 9 patriotism1 or 9 politics1 or 9 any o!r ( ! wid] affairs ( life1 9 :i* our passions or our my/ical intuitions fix our beliefs be=eh&4 ,x f9ds argum5ts = our conviction1 = inde$ x has to f9d !m4 ,x amplifies & def9es our fai?1 & dignifies x & l5ds x words & plausibility4 ,x h>dly ev] eng5d]s x2 x _c n[ secure x47#bij7 ,l5d me y\r att5tion :ile ,i run ?r\gh "s ( ! po9ts ( ! old] sy/ematic !ology4 ,y f9d !m 9 bo? ,prote/ant & ,ca?olic manuals1 be/ ( all 9 ! innum]able textbooks publi%$ s9ce ,pope ,leo's ,encyclical recomm5d+ ! /udy ( ,sa9t ,?omas4 ,i glance fir/ at ! argum5ts by :i* dogmatic !ology e/abli%es ,god's exi/5ce1 aft] t at ^? by :i* x e/abli%es 8 nature47#bia7 ,! argum5ts = ,god's exi/5ce h /ood = hundr$s ( ye>s ) ! waves ( unbeliev+ criticism break+ aga9/ !m1 nev] totally discr$it+ !m 9 ! e>s ( ! fai?ful1 b on ! :ole sl[ly & surely wa%+ out ! mort> f betwe5 _! jo9ts4 ,if y h a ,god already :om y believe 91 ^! argum5ts confirm y4 ,if y are a!i/ic1 !y fail to set y "r4 ,! pro(s are v>i\s4 ,! 8cosmological0 "o1 scall$1 reasons f ! cont+5ce ( ! _w to a ,fir/ ,cause :i* mu/ conta9 :atev] p]fections ! _w itself conta9s4 ,! 8argum5t f design0 reasons1 f ! fact t ,nature's laws are ma!matical1 & h] p>ts b5evol5tly adapt$ to ea* o!r1 t ?is cause is bo? intellectual & b5evol5t4 ,! 8moral argum5t0 is t ! moral law presupposes a lawgiv]4 ,! 8argum5t ex cons5su g5tium0 is t ! belief 9 ,god is s widespread z to be gr\nd$ 9 ! rational nature ( man1 & %\ld !re=e c>ry au?ority ) x4 ,z ,i j said1 ,i w n discuss ^! argum5ts te*nically4 ,! b>e fact t all ideali/s s9ce ,kant h felt entitl$ ei!r to sc\t or to neglect !m %[s t !y are n solid en\gh to s]ve z religion's allsuffici5t f\ndation4 ,absolutely imp]sonal reasons w\ld be 9 duty b\nd to %[ m g5]al conv9c+ness4 ,causation is inde$ too obscure a pr9ciple to be> ! weight ( ! :ole /ructure ( !ology4 ,z = ! argum5t f design1 see h[ ,d>w9ian ideas h revolutioniz$ x4 ,conceiv$ z we n[ conceive !m1 z s _m =tunate escapes f almo/ limitless processes ( de/ruction1 ! b5evol5t adaptations :i* we f9d 9 ,nature sugge/ a deity v diff]5t f ! "o :o figur$ 9 ! e>li] v]sions ( ! argum5t47#bib7 ,! fact is t ^! argum5ts d b foll[ ! comb9$ sugge/ions ( ! facts & ( our feel+4 ,!y prove no?+ rigor\sly4 ,!y only corroborate our preexi/5t p>tialities4 ,if philosophy c d s little to e/abli% ,god's exi/5ce1 h[ /&s x ) h] ef=ts to def9e 8 attributes8 ,x is wor? :ile to look at ! attempts ( sy/ematic !ology 9 ?is direction4 ,s9ce ,god is ,fir/ ,cause1 ?is sci5ce ( sci5ces says1 he diff]s f all 8 creatures 9 possess+ exi/5ce a se4 ,f ?is 8aseity0 on ,god's "p1 !ology d$uces by m]e logic mo/ ( 8 o!r p]fections4 ,= in/ance1 he mu/ be bo? necess>y & absolute1 _c n be1 & _c 9 any way be det]m9$ by any?+ else4 ,?is makes ,him absolutely unlimit$ f )\t1 & unlimit$ also f )92 = limitation is nonbe+2 & ,god is be+ itself4 ,?is unlimit$ness makes ,god inf9itely p]fect4 ,moreov]1 ,god is ,"o1 & ,only1 = ! inf9itely p]fect c admit no pe]4 ,he is ,spiritual1 = 7 ,he compos$ ( physical p>ts1 "s o!r p[] w\ld h to comb9e !m into ! total1 & 8 aseity w\ld ?us be contradict$4 ,he is !re=e bo? simple & nonphysical 9 nature4 ,he is simple metaphysically also1 t is to say1 8 nature & 8 exi/5ce _c be di/9ct1 z !y are 9 f9ite sub/ances :i* %>e _! =mal natures ) "o ano!r1 & are individual only 9 _! mat]ial aspect4 ,s9ce ,god is "o & only1 8 ess5tia & 8 esse mu/ be giv5 at "o /roke4 ,?is excludes f 8 be+ all ^? di/9ctions1 s famili> 9 ! _w ( f9ite ?+s1 betwe5 pot5tiality & actuality1 sub/ance & accid5ts1 be+ & activity1 exi/5ce & attributes4 ,we c talk1 x is true1 ( ,god's p[]s1 acts1 & attributes1 b ^! discrim9ations are only 8virtual10 & made f ! human po9t ( view4 ,9 ,god all ^! po9ts ( view fall into an absolute id5tity ( be+4 ,?is abs5ce ( all pot5tiality 9 ,god obliges ,him to be immutable4 ,he is actuality1 ?r\gh & ?r\gh4 ,7 !re any?+ pot5tial ab\t ,him1 ,he w\ld ei!r lose or ga9 by its actualization1 & ei!r loss or ga9 w\ld contradict 8 p]fection4 ,he _c1 !re=e1 *ange4 ,fur!rmore1 ,he is imm5se1 b\ndless2 = c\ld ,he be outl9$ 9 space1 ,he w\ld be composite1 & ?is w\ld contradict 8 indivisibility4 ,he is !re=e omnipres5t1 indivisibly !re1 at e po9t ( space4 ,he is simil>ly :olly pres5t at e po9t ( "t1--9 o!r words et]nal4 ,= if ,he began 9 "t1 ,he w\ld ne$ a prior cause1 & t w\ld contradict 8 aseity4 ,if ,he end$1 x w\ld contradict 8 necessity4 ,if ,he w5t ?r\gh any succession1 x w\ld contradict 8 immutability4 ,he has intellig5ce & w & e o!r creature p]fection1 = we h !m1 & effectus nequit sup]>e causam4 ,9 ,him1 h[ev]1 !y are absolutely & et]nally 9 act1 & _! object1 s9ce ,god c be b\nd$ by naught t is ext]nal1 c prim>ily be no?+ else ?an ,god himself4 ,he kn[s himself1 !n1 9 "o et]nal indivisible act1 & wills himself ) an inf9ite selfpleasure47#bic7 ,s9ce ,he mu/ ( logical necessity ?us love & w himself1 ,he _c be call$ 8free0 ad intra1 ) ! fre$om ( contr>ieties t *>act]izes f9ite creatures4 ,ad extra1 h[ev]1 or ) respect to 8 creation1 ,god is free4 ,he _c ne$ to create1 be+ p]fect 9 be+ & 9 happ9ess already4 ,he wills to create1 !n1 by an absolute fre$om4 ,be+ ?us a sub/ance end[$ ) intellect & w & fre$om1 ,god is a p]son2 & a liv+ p]son also1 = ,he is bo? object & subject ( 8 own activity1 & to be ?is di/+ui%es ! liv+ f ! lifeless4 ,he is ?us absolutely selfsuffici5t3 8 selfk & selflove are bo? ( !m inf9ite & adequate1 & ne$ no extrane\s conditions to p]fect !m4 ,he is omnisci5t1 = 9 kn[+ himself z ,cause ,he kn[s all creature ?+s & ev5ts by implication4 ,8 k is previsive1 = ,he is pres5t to all "t4 ,ev5 our free acts are kn[n be=eh& to ,him1 = o!rwise 8 wisdom w\ld admit ( successive mom5ts ( enri*m5t1 & ?is w\ld contradict 8 immutability4 ,he is omnipot5t = ev]y?+ t does n involve logical contradiction4 ,he c make be+--9 o!r words 8 p[] includes creation4 ,if :at ,he creates 7 made ( 8 own sub/ance1 x w\ld h to be inf9ite 9 ess5ce1 z t sub/ance is2 b x is f9ite2 s x mu/ be nondiv9e 9 sub/ance4 ,if x 7 made ( a sub/ance1 an et]nally exi/+ matt]1 = example1 :i* ,god f\nd !re to 8 h&1 & to :i* ,he simply gave its =m1 t w\ld contradict ,god's def9ition z ,fir/ ,cause1 & make ,him a m]e mov] ( some?+ caus$ already4 ,! ?+s he creates1 !n1 ,he creates ex nihilo1 & gives !m absolute be+ z s _m f9ite sub/ances additional to himself4 ,! =ms :i* he impr9ts ^u !m h _! prototypes 9 8 ideas4 ,b z 9 ,god !re is no su* ?+ z multiplicity1 & z ^! ideas = u are manifold1 we mu/ di/+ui% ! ideas z !y are 9 ,god & ! way 9 :i* our m9ds ext]nally imitate !m4 ,we mu/ attribute !m to ,him only 9 a t]m9ative s5se1 z diff]+ aspects1 f ! f9ite po9t ( view1 ( 8 unique ess5ce4 ,god ( c\rse is holy1 good1 & j4 ,he c d no evil1 = ,he is positive be+'s fullness1 & evil is negation4 ,x is true t ,he has creat$ physical evil 9 places1 b only z a means ( wid] good1 = bonum totius prem9et bonum p>tis4 ,moral evil ,he _c w1 ei!r z end or means1 = t w\ld contradict 8 hol9ess4 ,by creat+ free be+s ,he p]mits x only1 nei!r 8 ju/ice nor 8 goodness oblig+ ,him to prev5t ! recipi5ts ( fre$om f misus+ ! gift4 ,z reg>ds ,god's purpose 9 creat+1 prim>ily x c only h be5 to ex]cise 8 absolute fre$om by ! manife/ation to o!rs ( 8 glory4 ,f ?is x foll[s t ! o!rs mu/ be rational be+s1 capable 9 ! fir/ place ( k1 love1 & honor1 & 9 ! second place ( happ9ess1 = ! k & love ( ,god is ! ma9spr+ ( felicity4 ,9 s f> =? "o may say t ,god's second>y purpose 9 creat+ is love4 ,i w n we>y y by pursu+ ^! metaphysical det]m9ations f>!r1 into ! my/]ies ( ,god's ,tr9ity1 = example4 ,:at ,i h giv5 w s]ve z a specim5 ( ! or?odox philosophical !ology ( bo? ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants4 ,newman1 fill$ ) en?usiasm at ,god's li/ ( p]fections1 cont9ues ! passage :i* ,i began to quote to y by a c\ple ( pages ( a rhetoric s magnific5t t ,i c h>dly refra9 f add+ !m1 9 spite ( ! inroad !y w\ld make ^u our "t47#bid7 ,he fir/ enum]ates ,god's attributes sonor\sly1 !n celebrates 8 own]%ip ( ev]y?+ 9 e>? & ,heav51 & ! dep5d5ce ( all t happ5s ^u 8 p]missive w4 ,he gives u s*ola/ic philosophy 8t\*$ ) emotion10 & e philosophy %\ld be t\*$ ) emotion to be rightly und]/ood4 ,emotionally1 !n1 dogmatic !ology is wor? some?+ to m9ds ( ! type ( ,newman's4 ,x w aid u to e/imate :at x is wor? intellectually1 if at ?is po9t ,i make a %ort digression4 ,:at ,god ha? jo9$ toge!r1 let no man put asund]4 ,! ,cont95tal s*ools ( philosophy h too (t5 ov]look$ ! fact t man's ?9k+ is organically connect$ ) 8 conduct4 ,x seems to me to be ! *ief glory ( ,engli% & ,scotti% ?9k]s to h kept ! organic connection 9 view4 ,! guid+ pr9ciple ( ,briti% philosophy has 9 fact be5 t e diff]5ce mu/ make a diff]5ce1 e !oretical diff]5ce some:]e issue 9 a practical diff]5ce1 & t ! be/ me?od ( discuss+ po9ts ( !ory is to beg9 by asc]ta9+ :at practical diff]5ce w\ld result f "o alt]native or ! o!r be+ true4 ,:at is ! p>ticul> tru? 9 "q kn[n z8 ,9 :at facts does x result8 ,:at is its ca%value 9 t]ms ( p>ticul> exp]i5ce8 ,?is is ! *>act]i/ic ,engli% way ( tak+ up a "q4 ,9 ?is way1 y rememb]1 ,locke takes up ! "q ( p]sonal id5tity4 ,:at y mean by x is j y\r *a9 ( p>ticul> memories1 says he4 ,t is ! only concretely v]ifiable "p ( its significance4 ,all fur!r ideas ab\t x1 su* z ! on5ess or manyness ( ! spiritual sub/ance on :i* x is bas$1 are !re=e void ( intelligible mean+2 & propositions t\*+ su* ideas may be indiff]5tly affirm$ or d5i$4 ,s ,b]keley ) 8 8matt]40 ,! ca% value ( matt] is our physical s5sations4 ,t is :at x is kn[n z1 all t we concretely v]ify ( its conception4 ,t1 !re=e1 is ! :ole mean+ ( ! t]m 8matt]0--any o!r pret5d$ mean+ is m]e w9d ( words4 ,hume does ! same ?+ ) causation4 ,x is kn[n z habitual antec$5ce1 & z t5d5cy on our "p to look = some?+ def9ite to come4 ,ap>t f ?is practical mean+ x has no significance :atev]1 & books ab\t x may be committ$ to ! flames1 says ,hume4 ,dugald ,/ew>t & ,?omas ,br[n1 ,james ,mill1 ,john ,mill1 & ,pr(essor ,ba91 h foll[$ m or less consi/5tly ! same me?od2 & ,%adwor? ,hodgson has us$ ! pr9ciple ) full explicitness4 ,:5 all is said & done1 x 0 ,engli% & ,scot* writ]s1 & n ,kant1 :o introduc$ 8! critical me?od0 into philosophy1 ! "o me?od fitt$ to make philosophy a /udy wor?y ( s]i\s m54 ,= :at s]i\sness c possibly rema9 9 debat+ philosophic propositions t w nev] make an appreciable diff]5ce to u 9 action8 ,& :at c\ld x matt]1 if all propositions 7 practically indiff]5t1 :i* ( !m we %\ld agree to call true or :i* false8 ,an ,am]ican philosoph] ( em95t orig9ality1 ,mr4 ,*>les ,s&]s ,peirce1 has r5d]$ ?\ght a s]vice by dis5tangl+ f ! p>ticul>s ( its application ! pr9ciple by :i* ^! m5 7 in/9ctively guid$1 & by s+l+ x out z fundam5tal & giv+ to x a ,greek "n4 ,he calls x ! pr9ciple ( pragmatism1 & he def5ds x some:at z foll[s37#bie7-- ,?\ght 9 movem5t has = its only conceivable motive ! atta9m5t ( belief1 or ?\ght at re/4 ,only :5 our ?\ght ab\t a subject has f\nd its re/ 9 belief c our action on ! subject firmly & safely beg94 ,beliefs1 9 %ort1 are rules = action2 & ! :ole function ( ?9k+ is b "o /ep 9 ! production ( active habits4 ,if !re 7 any "p ( a ?\ght t made no diff]5ce 9 ! ?\ght's practical consequ5ces1 !n t "p w\ld be no prop] elem5t ( ! ?\ght's significance4 ,to develop a ?\ght's mean+ we ne$ !re=e only det]m9e :at conduct x is fitt$ to produce2 t conduct is = u its sole significance2 & ! tangible fact at ! root ( all our ?\ght di/9ctions is t !re is no "o ( !m s f9e z to consi/ 9 any?+ b a possible diff]5ce ( practice4 ,to atta9 p]fect cle>ness 9 our ?\ghts ( an object1 we ne$ !n only consid] :at s5sations1 imm$iate or remote1 we are conceivably to expect f x1 & :at conduct we mu/ prep>e 9 case ! object %\ld be true4 ,our conception ( ^! practical consequ5ces is = u ! :ole ( our conception ( ! object1 s f> z t conception has positive significance at all4 ,?is is ! pr9ciple ( ,peirce1 ! pr9ciple ( pragmatism4 ,su* a pr9ciple w help u on ?is occasion to decide1 among ! v>i\s attributes set d[n 9 ! s*ola/ic inv5tory ( ,god's p]fections1 :e!r "s be n f> less significant ?an o!rs4 ,if1 namely1 we apply ! pr9ciple ( pragmatism to ,god's metaphysical attributes1 /rictly s call$1 z di/+ui%$ f 8 moral attributes1 ,i ?9k t1 ev5 7 we =c$ by a co]cive logic to believe !m1 we /ill %\ld h to confess !m to be de/itute ( all intelligible significance4 ,take ,god's aseity1 = example2 or 8 necess>9ess2 8 immat]iality2 8 8simplicity0 or sup]iority to ! k9d ( inn] v>iety & succession :i* we f9d 9 f9ite be+s1 8 indivisibility1 & lack ( ! inn] di/9ctions ( be+ & activity1 sub/ance & accid5t1 pot5tiality & actuality1 & ! re/2 8 repudiation ( inclusion 9 a g5us2 8 actualiz$ inf9ity2 8 8p]sonality10 ap>t f ! moral qualities :i* x may comport2 8 relations to evil be+ p]missive & n positive2 8 selfsuffici5cy1 selflove1 & absolute felicity 9 himself3--c&idly speak+1 h[ d su* qualities z ^! make any def9ite connection ) our life8 ,& if !y sev]ally call = no di/9ctive adaptations ( our conduct1 :at vital diff]5ce c x possibly make to a man's religion :e!r !y be true or false8 ,= my own "p1 al?\gh ,i dislike to say aught t may grate ^u t5d] associations1 ,i mu/ frankly confess t ev5 ?\gh ^! attributes 7 faultlessly d$uc$1 ,i _c conceive ( its be+ ( ! smalle/ consequ5ce to u religi\sly t any "o ( !m %\ld be true4 ,pray1 :at specific act c ,i p]=m 9 ord] to adapt myself ! bett] to ,god's simplicity8 ,or h[ does x assi/ me to plan my behavior1 to "k t 8 happ9ess is anyh[ absolutely complete8 ,9 ! middle ( ! c5tury j pa/1 ,mayne ,reid 0 ! great writ] ( books ( out( door adv5ture4 ,he 0 =ev] extoll+ ! hunt]s & fieldobs]v]s ( liv+ animals' habits1 & keep+ up a fire ( invective aga9/ ! 8closetnaturali/s10 z he call$ !m1 ! collectors & classifi]s1 & h&l]s ( skeletons & sk9s4 ,:5 ,i 0 a boy1 ,i us$ to ?9k t a closetnaturali/ mu/ be ! vile/ type ( wret* "u ! sun4 ,b surely ! sy/ematic !ologians are ! closetnaturali/s ( ! deity1 ev5 9 ,capta9 ,mayne ,reid's s5se4 ,:at is _! d$uction ( metaphysical attributes b a %uffl+ & mat*+ ( p$antic diction>yadjectives1 alo( f morals1 alo( f human ne$s1 some?+ t might be work$ out f ! m]e ^w 8,god0 by "o ( ^? logical ma*9es ( wood & brass :i* rec5t +5uity has contriv$ z well z by a man ( fle% & blood4 ,!y h ! trail ( ! s]p5t ov] !m4 ,"o feels t 9 ! !ologians' h&s1 !y are only a set ( titles obta9$ by a me*anical manipulation ( synonyms2 v]bality has /epp$ into ! place ( vision1 pr(essionalism into t ( life4 ,in/ead ( bread we h a /one2 in/ead ( a fi%1 a s]p5t4 ,did su* a conglom]ation ( ab/ract t]ms give really ! gi/ ( our k ( ! deity1 s*ools ( !ology might inde$ cont9ue to fl\ri%1 b religion1 vital religion1 w\ld h tak5 its flight f ?is _w4 ,:at keeps religion go+ is some?+ else ?an ab/ract def9itions & sy/ems ( concat5at$ adjectives1 & some?+ diff]5t f faculties ( !ology & _! pr(essors4 ,all ^! ?+s are aft]effects1 second>y accretions ^u ^? ph5om5a ( vital conv]sation ) ! unse5 div9e1 ( :i* ,i h %[n y s _m in/ances1 r5ew+ !mselves 9 scula sculorum 9 ! lives ( humble private m54 ,s mu* = ! metaphysical attributes ( ,god6 ,f ! po9t ( view ( practical religion1 ! metaphysical mon/] :i* !y (f] to our wor%ip is an absolutely wor?less inv5tion ( ! s*ol>ly m9d4 ,:at %all we n[ say ( ! attributes call$ moral8 ,pragmatically1 !y /& on an entirely diff]5t foot+4 ,!y positively det]m9e fe> & hope & expectation1 & are f\ndations = ! sa9tly life4 ,x ne$s b a glance at !m to %[ h[ great is _! significance4 ,god's hol9ess1 = example3 be+ holy1 ,god c w no?+ b ! good4 ,be+ omnipot5t1 he c secure its triumph4 ,be+ omnisci5t1 he c see u 9 ! d>k4 ,be+ j1 he c puni% u = :at he sees4 ,be+ lov+1 he c p>don too4 ,be+ unalt]able1 we c c\nt on him securely4 ,^! qualities ent] into connection ) our life1 x is highly important t we %\ld be in=m$ conc]n+ !m4 ,t ,god's purpose 9 creation %\ld be ! manife/ation ( 8 glory is also an attribute :i* has def9ite relations to our practical life4 ,among o!r ?+s x has giv5 a def9ite "* to wor%ip 9 all ,*ri/ian c\ntries4 ,if dogmatic !ology really does prove beyond dispute t a ,god ) *>act]s l ^! exi/s1 %e may well claim to give a solid basis to religi\s s5tim5t4 ,b v]ily1 h[ /&s x ) h] argum5ts8 ,x /&s ) !m z ill z ) ! argum5ts = 8 exi/5ce4 ,n only d po/,kantian ideali/s reject !m root & bran*1 b x is a pla9 hi/oric fact t !y nev] h conv]t$ any "o :o has f\nd 9 ! moral complexion ( ! _w1 z he exp]i5c$ x1 reasons = d\bt+ t a good ,god c h fram$ x4 ,to prove ,god's goodness by ! s*ola/ic argum5t t !re is no nonbe+ 9 8 ess5ce w\ld s\nd to su* a witness simply silly4 ,no6 ! book ( ,job w5t ov] ?is :ole matt] once = all & def9itively4 ,ratioc9ation is a relatively sup]ficial & unreal pa? to ! deity3 8,i w lay m9e h& ^u my m\?2 ,i h he>d ( ,!e by ! he>+ ( ! e>1 b n[ m9e eye see? ,!e40 ,an intellect p]plex$ & baffl$1 yet a tru/ful s5se ( pres5ce--su* is ! situation ( ! man :o is s9c]e ) himself & ) ! facts1 b :o rema9s religi\s /ill47#bif7 ,we mu/ !re=e1 ,i ?9k1 bid a def9itive goodby to dogmatic !ology4 ,9 all s9c]ity our fai? mu/ d )\t t w>rant4 ,mod]n idealism1 ,i repeat1 has said goodby to ?is !ology =ev]4 ,c mod]n idealism give fai? a bett] w>rant1 or mu/ %e /ill rely on h] poor self = witness8 ,! basis ( mod]n idealism is ,kant's doctr9e ( ! ,transc5d5tal ,ego ( ,app]ception4 ,by ?is =midable t]m ,kant m]ely meant ! fact t ! consci\sness 8,i ?9k !m0 mu/ 7pot5tially or actually7 accompany all our objects4 ,=m] skeptics _h said z mu*1 b ! 8,i0 9 "q _h rema9$ = !m id5tifi$ ) ! p]sonal individual4 ,kant ab/ract$ & dep]sonaliz$ x1 & made x ! mo/ univ]sal ( all 8 categories1 al?\gh = ,kant himself ! ,transc5d5tal ,ego _h no !ological implications4 ,x 0 res]v$ = 8 successors to conv]t ,kant's notion ( ,bewus/se9 b]haupt1 or ab/ract consci\sness1 into an inf9ite concrete selfconsci\sness :i* is ! s\l ( ! _w1 & 9 :i* our sundry p]sonal selfconsci\snesses h _! be+4 ,x w\ld lead me into te*nicalities to %[ y ev5 briefly h[ ?is trans=mation 0 9 po9t ( fact effect$4 ,suffice x to say t 9 ! ,hegelian s*ool1 :i* today s deeply influ5ces bo? ,briti% & ,am]ican ?9k+1 two pr9ciples h borne ! brunt ( ! op]ation4 ,! fir/ ( ^! pr9ciples is t ! old logic ( id5tity nev] gives u m ?an a po/mortem dissection ( disjecta membra1 & t ! fullness ( life c be con/ru$ to ?\ght only by recogniz+ t e object :i* our ?\ght may propose to itself involves ! notion ( "s o!r object :i* seems at fir/ to negate ! fir/ "o4 ,! second pr9ciple is t to be consci\s ( a negation is already virtually to be beyond x4 ,! m]e ask+ ( a "q or expression ( a dissatisfaction proves t ! answ] or ! satisfaction is already imm95t2 ! f9ite1 realiz$ z su*1 is already ! inf9ite 9 posse4 ,apply+ ^! pr9ciples1 we seem to get a propulsive =ce into our logic :i* ! ord9>y logic ( a b>e1 />k selfid5tity 9 ea* ?+ nev] atta9s to4 ,! objects ( our ?\ght n[ act )9 our ?\ght1 act z objects act :5 giv5 9 exp]i5ce4 ,!y *ange & develop4 ,!y introduce some?+ o!r ?an !mselves along ) !m2 & ?is o!r1 at fir/ only ideal or pot5tial1 pres5tly proves itself also to be actual4 ,x sup]s$es ! ?+ at fir/ suppos$1 & bo? v]ifies & corrects x1 9 develop+ ! fullness ( its mean+4 ,! program is excell5t2 ! univ]se is a place :]e ?+s are foll[$ by o!r ?+s t bo? correct & fulfill !m2 & a logic :i* gave u some?+ l ?is movem5t ( fact w\ld express tru? f> bett] ?an ! traditional s*oollogic1 :i* nev] gets ( its own accord f any?+ to any?+ else1 & regi/]s only pr$ictions & subsumptions1 or /atic resemblances & diff]5ces4 ,no?+ c\ld be m unlike ! me?ods ( dogmatic !ology ?an ^? ( ?is new logic4 ,let me quote 9 illu/ration "s passages f ! ,scotti% transc5d5tali/ :om ,i h already nam$4 8,h[ are we to conceive10 ,pr9cipal ,caird writes1 8( ! reality 9 :i* all intellig5ce re/s80 ,he replies3 8,two ?+s may )\t difficulty be prov$1 viz41 t ?is reality is an absolute ,_s1 & conv]sely t x is only 9 communion ) ?is absolute ,_s or ,intellig5ce t ! f9ite ,_s c realize itself4 ,x is absolute2 = ! fa9te/ movem5t ( human intellig5ce w\ld be arre/$1 if x did n presuppose ! absolute reality ( intellig5ce1 ( ?\ght itself4 ,d\bt or d5ial !mselves presuppose & indirectly affirm x4 ,:5 ,i pron\nce any?+ to be true1 ,i pron\nce x1 inde$1 to be relative to ?\ght1 b n to be relative to my ?\ght1 or to ! ?\ght ( any o!r individual m9d4 ,f ! exi/5ce ( all individual m9ds z su* ,i c ab/ract2 ,i c ?9k !m away4 ,b t :i* ,i _c ?9k away is ?\ght or self consci\sness itself1 9 its indep5d5ce & absolut5ess1 or1 9 o!r words1 an ,absolute ,?\ght or ,self,consci\sness40 ,"h1 y see1 ,pr9cipal ,caird makes ! transition :i* ,kant did n make3 he conv]ts ! omnipres5ce ( consci\sness 9 g5]al z a condition ( 8tru?0 be+ any:]e possible1 into an omnipres5t univ]sal consci\sness1 :i* he id5tifies ) ,god 9 8 concret5ess4 ,he next proce$s to use ! pr9ciple t to ackn[l$ge y\r limits is 9 ess5ce to be beyond !m2 & makes ! transition to ! religi\s exp]i5ce ( individuals 9 ! foll[+ words3-- 8,if ,man 7 only a creature ( transi5t s5sations & impulses1 ( an ev] com+ & go+ succession ( intuitions1 fancies1 feel+s1 !n no?+ c\ld ev] h = him ! "* ( objective tru? or reality4 ,b x is ! pr]ogative ( man's spiritual nature t he c yield himself up to a ?\ght & w t are inf9itely l>g] ?an 8 own4 ,z a ?9k+1 selfconsci\s be+1 inde$1 he may be said1 by 8 v nature1 to live 9 ! atmosph]e ( ! ,univ]sal ,life4 ,z a ?9k+ be+1 x is possible = me to suppress & quell 9 my consci\sness e movem5t ( selfass]tion1 e notion & op9ion t is m]ely m9e1 e desire t belongs to me z ?is p>ticul> ,self1 & to become ! pure m$ium ( a ?\ght t is univ]sal--9 "o ^w1 to live no m my own life1 b let my consci\sness be possess$ & suffus$ by ! ,inf9ite & ,et]nal life ( _s4 ,& yet x is j 9 ?is r5unciation ( self t ,i truly ga9 myself1 or realize ! highe/ possibilities ( my own nature4 ,= :il/ 9 "o s5se we give up self to live ! univ]sal & absolute life ( reason1 yet t to :i* we ?us surr5d] ourselves is 9 reality our tru] self4 ,! life ( absolute reason is n a life t is =eign to u40 ,nev]!less1 ,pr9cipal ,caird goes on to say1 s f> z we are able outw>dly to realize ?is doctr9e1 ! balm x (f]s rema9s incomplete4 ,:atev] we may be 9 posse1 ! v be/ ( u 9 actu falls v %ort ( be+ absolutely div9e4 ,social morality1 love1 & self sacrifice ev51 m]ge our ,self only 9 "s o!r f9ite self or selves4 ,!y d n q id5tify x ) ! ,inf9ite4 ,man's ideal de/9y1 inf9ite 9 ab/ract logic1 might ?us seem 9 practice =ev] unrealizable4 8,is !re1 !n10 our au?or cont9ues1 8no solution ( ! contradiction betwe5 ! ideal & ! actual8 ,we answ]1 ,!re is su* a solution1 b 9 ord] to rea* x we are c>ri$ beyond ! sph]e ( morality into t ( religion4 ,x may be said to be ! ess5tial *>act]i/ic ( religion z contra/$ ) morality1 t x *anges aspiration into fruition1 anticipation into realization2 t in/ead ( leav+ man 9 ! int]m9able pursuit ( a vani%+ ideal1 x makes him ! actual p>tak] ( a div9e or inf9ite life4 ,:e!r we view religion f ! human side or ! div9e--z ! surr5d] ( ! s\l to ,god1 or z ! life ( ,god 9 ! s\l--9 ei!r aspect x is ( its v ess5ce t ! ,inf9ite has ceas$ to be a f>(f vision1 & has become a pres5t reality4 ,! v fir/ pulsation ( ! spiritual life1 :5 we rightly appreh5d its significance1 is ! indication t ! division betwe5 ! ,_s & its object has vani%$1 t ! ideal has become real1 t ! f9ite has rea*$ its goal & become suffus$ ) ! pres5ce & life ( ! ,inf9ite4 8,on5ess ( m9d & w ) ! div9e m9d & w is n ! future hope & aim ( religion1 b its v beg9n+ & bir? 9 ! s\l4 ,to ent] on ! religi\s life is to t]m9ate ! /ruggle4 ,9 t act :i* con/itutes ! beg9n+ ( ! religi\s life--call x fai?1 or tru/1 or selfsurr5d]1 or by :atev] "n y w--!re is involv$ ! id5tification ( ! f9ite ) a life :i* is et]nally realiz$4 ,x is true inde$ t ! religi\s life is progressive2 b und]/ood 9 ! light ( ! =ego+ idea1 religi\s progress is n progress t[>ds1 b )9 ! sph]e ( ! ,inf9ite4 ,x is n ! va9 attempt by endless f9ite additions or increm5ts to become possess$ ( inf9ite weal?1 b x is ! endeavor1 by ! con/ant ex]cise ( spiritual activity1 to appropriate t inf9ite inh]itance ( :i* we are already 9 possession4 ,! :ole future ( ! religi\s life is giv5 9 its beg9n+1 b x is giv5 implicitly4 ,! position ( ! man :o has ent]$ on ! religi\s life is t evil1 error1 imp]fection1 d n really belong to him3 !y are excresc5ces :i* h no organic relation to 8 true nature3 !y are already virtually1 z !y w be actually1 suppress$ & annull$1 & 9 ! v process ( be+ annull$ !y become ! means ( spiritual progress4 ,?\gh he is n exempt f temptation & conflict1 yet 9 t inn] sph]e 9 :i* 8 true life lies1 ! /ruggle is ov]1 ! victory already a*iev$4 ,x is n a f9ite b an inf9ite life :i* ! _s lives4 ,e pulsebeat ( its exi/5ce is ! expression & realization ( ! life ( ,god407#big7 ,y w readily admit t no description ( ! ph5om5a ( ! religi\s consci\sness c\ld be bett] ?an ^! words ( y\r lam5t$ prea*] & philosoph]4 ,!y reproduce ! v rapture ( ^? crises ( conv]sion ( :i* we h be5 he>+2 !y utt] :at ! my/ic felt b 0 unable to communicate2 & ! sa9t1 9 he>+ !m1 recognizes 8 own exp]i5ce4 ,x is inde$ gratify+ to f9d ! cont5t ( religion report$ s unanim\sly4 ,b :5 all is said & done1 has ,pr9cipal ,caird--& ,i only use him z an example ( t :ole mode ( ?9k+--transc5d$ ! sph]e ( feel+ & ( ! direct exp]i5ce ( ! individual1 & laid ! f\ndations ( religion 9 imp>tial reason8 ,has he made religion univ]sal by co]cive reason+1 trans=m$ x f a private fai? into a public c]ta9ty8 ,has he rescu$ its affirmations f obscurity & my/]y8 ,i believe t he has done no?+ ( ! k9d1 b t he has simply reaffirm$ ! individual's exp]i5ces 9 a m g5]aliz$ vocabul>y4 ,& aga91 ,i c be excus$ f prov+ te*nically t ! transc5d5tali/ reason+s fail to make religion univ]sal1 = ,i c po9t to ! pla9 fact t a majority ( s*ol>s1 ev5 religi\sly dispos$ ones1 /ubbornly refuse to treat !m z conv9c+4 ,! :ole ( ,g]many1 "o may say1 has positively reject$ ! ,hegelian argum5tation4 ,z = ,scotl&1 ,i ne$ only m5tion ,pr(essor ,fras]'s & ,pr(essor ,pr+le,pattison's memorable criticisms1 ) :i* s _m ( y are famili>47#bih7 ,once m1 ,i ask1 if transc5d5tal idealism 7 z objectively & absolutely rational z x pret5ds to be1 c\ld x possibly fail s egregi\sly to be p]suasive8 ,:at religion reports1 y mu/ rememb]1 always purports to be a fact ( exp]i5ce3 ! div9e is actually pres5t1 religion says1 & betwe5 x & ourselves relations ( give & take are actual4 ,if def9ite p]ceptions ( fact l ?is _c /& ^u _! own feet1 surely ab/ract reason+ _c give !m ! support !y are 9 ne$ (4 ,conceptual processes c class facts1 def9e !m1 int]pret !m2 b !y d n produce !m1 nor c !y reproduce _! individuality4 ,!re is always a plus1 a ?isness1 :i* feel+ alone c answ] =4 ,philosophy 9 ?is sph]e is ?us a second>y function1 unable to w>rant fai?'s v]acity1 & s ,i rev]t to ! !sis :i* ,i ann\nc$ at ! beg9n+ ( ?is lecture4 ,9 all sad s9c]ity ,i ?9k we mu/ conclude t ! attempt to demon/rate by purely intellectual processes ! tru? ( ! deliv]ances ( direct religi\s exp]i5ce is absolutely hopeless4 ,x w\ld be unfair to philosophy1 h[ev]1 to leave h] "u ?is negative s5t5ce4 ,let me close1 !n1 by briefly enum]at+ :at %e c d = religion4 ,if %e w ab&on metaphysics & d$uction = criticism & induction1 & frankly trans=m h]self f !ology into sci5ce ( religions1 %e c make h]self enorm\sly useful4 ,! spontane\s intellect ( man always def9es ! div9e :i* x feels 9 ways t h>monize ) its tempor>y intellectual prepossessions4 ,philosophy c by comp>ison elim9ate ! local & ! accid5tal f ^! def9itions4 ,bo? f dogma & f wor%ip %e c remove hi/oric incru/ations4 ,by confront+ ! spontane\s religi\s con/ructions ) ! results ( natural sci5ce1 philosophy c also elim9ate doctr9es t are n[ kn[n to be sci5tifically absurd or incongru\s4 ,sift+ out 9 ?is way unwor?y =mulations1 %e c leave a residuum ( conceptions t at lea/ are possible4 ,) ^! %e c deal z hypo!ses1 te/+ !m 9 all ! mann]s1 :e!r negative or positive1 by :i* hypo!ses are ev] te/$4 ,%e c r$uce _! numb]1 z "s are f\nd m op5 to objection4 ,%e c p]haps become ! *ampion ( "o :i* %e picks out z be+ ! mo/ closely v]ifi$ or v]ifiable4 ,%e c ref9e ^u ! def9ition ( ?is hypo!sis1 di/+ui%+ betwe5 :at is innoc5t ov]belief & symbolism 9 ! expression ( x1 & :at is to be lit]ally tak54 ,z a result1 %e c (f] m$iation betwe5 diff]5t believ]s1 & help to br+ ab\t cons5sus ( op9ion4 ,%e c d ?is ! m successfully1 ! bett] %e discrim9ates ! common & ess5tial f ! individual & local elem5ts ( ! religi\s beliefs :i* %e comp>es4 ,i d n see :y a critical ,sci5ce ( ,religions ( ?is sort might n ev5tually comm& z g5]al a public adhesion z is comm&$ by a physical sci5ce4 ,ev5 ! p]sonally nonreligi\s might accept its conclusions on tru/1 mu* z bl9d p]sons n[ accept ! facts ( optics--x might appe> z fooli% to refuse !m4 ,yet z ! sci5ce ( optics has to be f$ 9 ! fir/ in/ance1 & cont9ually v]ifi$ lat]1 by facts exp]i5c$ by see+ p]sons2 s ! sci5ce ( religions w\ld dep5d = its orig9al mat]ial on facts ( p]sonal exp]i5ce1 & w\ld h to squ>e itself ) p]sonal exp]i5ce ?r\gh all its critical recon/ructions4 ,x c\ld nev] get away f concrete life1 or "w 9 a conceptual vacuum4 ,x w\ld =ev] h to confess1 z e sci5ce confesses1 t ! subtlety ( nature flies beyond x1 & t its =mulas are b approximations4 ,philosophy lives 9 words1 b tru? & fact well up into our lives 9 ways t exce$ v]bal =mulation4 ,!re is 9 ! liv+ act ( p]ception always some?+ t glimm]s & tw9kles & w n be caught1 & = :i* reflection comes too late4 ,no "o kn[s ?is z well z ! philosoph]4 ,he mu/ fire 8 volley ( new vocables out ( 8 conceptual %otgun1 = 8 pr(ession condemns him to ?is indu/ry1 b he secretly kn[s ! holl[ness & irrelevancy4 ,8 =mulas are l /]eoscopic or k9etoscopic photographs se5 outside ! in/rum5t2 !y lack ! dep?1 ! motion1 ! vitality4 ,9 ! religi\s sph]e1 9 p>ticul>1 belief t =mulas are true c nev] :olly take ! place ( p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,9 my next lecture ,i w try to complete my r\gh description ( religi\s exp]i5ce2 & 9 ! lecture aft] t1 :i* is ! la/ "o1 ,i w try my own h& at =mulat+ conceptually ! tru? to :i* x is a witness4 ,,lecture ,,xix4 ,,o!r ,,*>act]i/ics4 ,we h w\nd our way back1 aft] our excursion ?r\gh my/icism & philosophy1 to :]e we 7 be=e3 ! uses ( religion1 its uses to ! individual :o has x1 & ! uses ( ! individual himself to ! _w1 are ! be/ argum5ts t tru? is 9 x4 ,we return to ! empirical philosophy3 ! true is :at works well1 ev5 ?\gh ! qualification 8on ! :ole0 may always h to be add$4 ,9 ?is lecture we mu/ rev]t to description aga91 & f9i% our picture ( ! religi\s consci\sness by a ^w ab\t "s ( its o!r *>act]i/ic elem5ts4 ,!n1 9 a f9al lecture1 we %all be free to make a g5]al review & draw our indep5d5t conclusions4 ,! fir/ po9t ,i w speak ( is ! "p :i* ! /hetic life plays 9 det]m9+ "o's *oice ( a religion4 ,m51 ,i said a:ile ago1 involunt>ily intellectualize _! religi\s exp]i5ce4 ,!y ne$ =mulas1 j z !y ne$ fell[%ip 9 wor%ip4 ,i spoke1 !re=e1 too contemptu\sly ( ! pragmatic uselessness ( ! fam\s s*ola/ic li/ ( attributes ( ! deity1 = !y h "o use :i* ,i neglect$ to consid]4 ,! eloqu5t passage 9 :i* ,newman enum]ates !m7#bii7 puts u on ! track ( x4 ,inton+ !m z he w\ld intone a ca!dral s]vice1 he %[s h[ high is _! /hetic value4 ,x enri*es our b>e piety to c>ry ^! exalt$ & my/]i\s v]bal additions j z x enri*es a *ur* to h an organ & old brasses1 m>bles & frescoes & /a9$ w9d[s4 ,epi!ts l5d an atmosph]e & ov]tones to our devotion4 ,!y are l a hymn ( praise & s]vice ( glory1 & may s\nd ! m sublime = be+ incompreh5sible4 ,m9ds l ,newman's7#cjj7 gr[ z jeal\s ( _! cr$it z hea!n prie/s are ( t ( ! jewelry & ornam5ts t blaze ^u _! idols4 ,among ! build+sout ( religion :i* ! m9d spontane\sly indulges 91 ! /hetic motive mu/ nev] be =gott54 ,i promis$ to say no?+ ( ecclesia/ical sy/ems 9 ^! lectures4 ,i may be all[$1 h[ev]1 to put 9 a ^w at ?is po9t on ! way 9 :i* _! satisfaction ( c]ta9 /hetic ne$s contributes to _! hold on human nature4 ,al?\gh "s p]sons aim mo/ at intellectual purity & simplification1 = o!rs ri*ness is ! supreme imag9ative requirem5t47#cja7 ,:5 "o's m9d is /rongly ( ?is type1 an individual religion w h>dly s]ve ! purpose4 ,! inn] ne$ is r ( some?+ in/itutional & complex1 maje/ic 9 ! hi]>*ic int]relat$ness ( its p>ts1 ) au?ority desc5d+ f /age to /age1 & at e /age objects = adjectives ( my/]y & spl5dor1 d]iv$ 9 ! la/ resort f ! ,godhead :o is ! f\nta9 & culm9ation ( ! sy/em4 ,"o feels !n z if 9 pres5ce ( "s va/ incru/$ "w ( jewelry or ar*itecture2 "o he>s ! multitud9\s liturgical appeal2 "o gets ! honorific vibration com+ f e qu>t]4 ,comp>$ ) su* a noble complexity1 9 :i* asc5d+ & desc5d+ movem5ts seem 9 no way to j> ^u /ability1 9 :i* no s+le item1 h[ev] humble1 is insignificant1 because s _m augu/ in/itutions hold x 9 its place1 h[ flat does evangelical ,prote/antism appe>1 h[ b>e ! atmosph]e ( ^? isolat$ religi\s lives ^: boa/ x is t 8man 9 ! bu% ) ,god may meet407#cjb7 ,:at a pulv]ization & level+ ( :at a glori\sly pil$up /ructure6 ,to an imag9ation us$ to ! p]spectives ( dignity & glory1 ! nak$ gospel s*eme seems to (f] an alm%\se = a palace4 ,x is mu* l ! patriotic s5tim5t ( ^? br\ght up 9 anci5t empires4 ,h[ _m emotions mu/ be fru/rat$ ( _! object1 :5 "o gives up ! titles ( dignity1 ! crimson lights & bl>e ( brass1 ! gold embroid]y1 ! plum$ troops1 ! fe> & trembl+1 & puts up ) a presid5t 9 a black coat :o %akes h&s ) y1 & comes1 x may be1 f a 8home0 ^u a veldt or prairie ) "o sitt+room & a ,bible on its c5tretable4 ,x paup]izes ! mon>*ical imag9ation6 ,! /r5g? ( ^! /hetic s5tim5ts makes x rigor\sly impossible1 x seems to me1 t ,prote/antism1 h[ev] sup]ior 9 spiritual pr(undity x may be to ,ca?olicism1 %\ld at ! pres5t day succe$ 9 mak+ _m conv]ts f ! m v5]able ecclesia/icism4 ,! latt] (f]s a s mu* ri*] pa/urage & %ade to ! fancy1 has s _m cells ) s _m diff]5t k9ds ( honey1 is s indulg5t 9 its multi=m appeals to human nature1 t ,prote/antism w always %[ to ,ca?olic eyes ! alm%\se physiognomy4 ,! bitt] negativity ( x is to ! ,ca?olic m9d incompreh5sible4 ,to intellectual ,ca?olics _m ( ! antiquat$ beliefs & practices to :i* ! ,*ur* gives c\nt5ance are1 if tak5 lit]ally1 z *ildi% z !y are to ,prote/ants4 ,b !y are *ildi% 9 ! pleas+ s5se ( 8*ildlike0--innoc5t & amiable1 & wor?y to be smil$ on 9 consid]ation ( ! undevelop$ condition ( ! de> p's intellects4 ,to ! ,prote/ant1 on ! contr>y1 !y are *ildi% 9 ! s5se ( be+ idiotic falsehoods4 ,he mu/ /amp out _! delicate & lovable r$undancy1 leav+ ! ,ca?olic to %udd] at 8 lit]alness4 ,he appe>s to ! latt] z morose z if he 7 "s h>dey$1 numb1 monoton\s k9d ( reptile4 ,! two w nev] und]/& ea* o!r--_! c5tres ( emotional en]gy are too diff]5t4 ,rigor\s tru? & human nature's intricacies are always 9 ne$ ( a mutual int]pret]47#cjc7 ,s mu* = ! /hetic div]sities 9 ! religi\s consci\sness4 ,9 mo/ books on religion1 ?ree ?+s are repres5t$ z its mo/ ess5tial elem5ts4 ,^! are ,sacrifice1 ,confession1 & ,pray]4 ,i mu/ say a ^w 9 turn ( ea* ( ^! elem5ts1 ?\gh briefly4 ,fir/ ( ,sacrifice4 ,sacrifices to gods are omnipres5t 9 primeval wor%ip2 b1 z cults h gr[n ref9$1 burnt (f]+s & ! blood ( hegoats h be5 sup]s$$ by sacrifices m spiritual 9 _! nature4 ,judaism1 ,islam1 & ,buddhism get along )\t ritual sacrifice2 s does ,*ri/ianity1 save 9 s f> z ! notion is pres]v$ 9 transfigur$ =m 9 ! my/]y ( ,*ri/'s atonem5t4 ,^! religions sub/itute (f]+s ( ! he>t1 r5unciations ( ! inn] self1 = all ^? va9 oblations4 ,9 ! ascetic practices :i* ,islam1 ,buddhism1 & ! old] ,*ri/ianity enc\rage we see h[ inde/ructible is ! idea t sacrifice ( "s sort is a religi\s ex]cise4 ,9 lectur+ on asceticism ,i spoke ( its significance z symbolic ( ! sacrifices :i* life1 :5ev] x is tak5 /r5u\sly1 calls =47#cjd7 ,b1 z ,i said my say ab\t ^?1 & z ^! lectures expressly avoid e>li] religi\s usages & que/ions ( d]ivation1 ,i w pass f ! subject ( ,sacrifice altoge!r & turn to t ( ,confession4 ,9 reg>d to ,confession ,i w also be mo/ brief1 say+ my ^w ab\t x psy*ologically1 n hi/orically4 ,n ne>ly z widespread z sacrifice1 x corresponds to a m inw>d & moral /age ( s5tim5t4 ,x is "p ( ! g5]al sy/em ( purgation & cleans+ :i* "o feels "o's self 9 ne$ (1 9 ord] to be 9 "r relations to "o's deity4 ,= him :o confesses1 %ams are ov] & realities h begun2 he has ext]ioriz$ 8 rott5ness4 ,if he has n actually got rid ( x1 he at lea/ no long] sme>s x ov] ) a hypocritical %[ ( virtue--he lives at lea/ ^u a basis ( v]acity4 ,! complete decay ( ! practice ( confession 9 ,anglo,saxon communities is a little h>d to acc\nt =4 ,reaction aga9/ pop]y is ( c\rse ! hi/oric explanation1 = 9 pop]y confession w5t ) p5ances & absolution1 & o!r inadmissible practices4 ,b on ! side ( ! s9n] himself x seems z if ! ne$ ought to h be5 too great to accept s summ>y a refusal ( its satisfaction4 ,"o w\ld ?9k t 9 m m5 ! %ell ( secrecy w\ld h _h to op51 ! p5t9 abscess to bur/ & ga9 relief1 ev5 ?\gh ! e> t he>d ! confession 7 unwor?y4 ,! ,ca?olic *ur*1 = obvi\s utilit>ian reasons1 has sub/itut$ auricul> confession to "o prie/ = ! m radical act ( public confession4 ,we ,engli%speak+ ,prote/ants1 9 ! g5]al selfreliance & unsociability ( our nature1 seem to f9d x en\gh if we take ,god alone into our confid5ce47#cje7 ,! next topic on :i* ,i mu/ comm5t is ,pray]1--& ?is "t x mu/ be less briefly4 ,we h he>d mu* talk ( late aga9/ pray]1 especially aga9/ pray]s = bett] wea!r & = ! recov]y ( sick p4 ,z reg>ds pray]s = ! sick1 if any m$ical fact c be consid]$ to /& firm1 x is t 9 c]ta9 environm5ts pray] may contribute to recov]y1 & %\ld be enc\rag$ z a !rapeutic measure4 ,be+ a normal factor ( moral heal? 9 ! p]son1 its omission w\ld be delet]i\s4 ,! case ( ! wea!r is diff]5t4 ,not)/&+ ! rec5cy ( ! opposite belief17#cjf7 e "o n[ kn[s t dr\ghts & /orms foll[ f physical antec$5ts1 & t moral appeals _c av]t !m4 ,b petitional pray] is only "o dep>tm5t ( pray]2 & if we take ! ^w 9 ! wid] s5se z mean+ e k9d ( inw>d communion or conv]sation ) ! p[] recogniz$ z div9e1 we c easily see t sci5tific criticism leaves x unt\*$4 ,pray] 9 ?is wide s5se is ! v s\l & ess5ce ( religion4 8,religion10 says a lib]al ,fr5* !ologian1 8is an int]c\rse1 a consci\s & volunt>y relation1 ent]$ into by a s\l 9 di/ress ) ! my/]i\s p[] ^u :i* x feels itself to dep5d1 & ^u :i* its fate is cont+5t4 ,?is int]c\rse ) ,god is realiz$ by pray]4 ,pray] is religion 9 act2 t is1 pray] is real religion4 ,x is pray] t di/+ui%es ! religi\s ph5om5on f su* simil> or neighbor+ ph5om5a z purely moral or /hetic s5tim5t4 ,religion is no?+ if x be n ! vital act by :i* ! entire m9d seeks to save itself by cl++ to ! pr9ciple f :i* x draws its life4 ,?is act is pray]1 by :i* t]m ,i und]/& no va9 ex]cise ( words1 no m]e repetition ( c]ta9 sacr$ =mul1 b ! v movem5t itself ( ! s\l1 putt+ itself 9 a p]sonal relation ( contact ) ! my/]i\s p[] ( :i* x feels ! pres5ce1--x may be ev5 be=e x has a "n by :i* to call x4 ,:]ev] ?is int]ior pray] is lack+1 !re is no religion2 :]ev]1 on ! o!r h&1 ?is pray] rises & /irs ! s\l1 ev5 9 ! abs5ce ( =ms or ( doctr9es1 we h liv+ religion4 ,"o sees f ?is :y #8natural religion1' scall$1 is n prop]ly a religion4 ,x cuts man (f f pray]4 ,x leaves him & ,god 9 mutual remot5ess1 ) no intimate comm]ce1 no int]ior dialogue1 no int]*ange1 no action ( ,god 9 man1 no return ( man to ,god4 ,at bottom ?is pret5d$ religion is only a philosophy4 ,born at epo*s ( rationalism1 ( critical inve/igations1 x nev] 0 any?+ b an ab/raction4 ,an artificial & dead creation1 x reveals to its exam9] h>dly "o ( ! *>act]s prop] to religion407#cjg7 ,x seems to me t ! entire s]ies ( our lectures proves ! tru? ( ,m4 ,sabati]'s cont5tion4 ,! religi\s ph5om5on1 /udi$ z an inn] fact1 & ap>t f ecclesia/ical or !ological complications1 has %[n itself to consi/ ev]y:]e1 & at all its /ages1 9 ! consci\sness :i* individuals h ( an int]c\rse betwe5 !mselves & high] p[]s ) :i* !y feel !mselves to be relat$4 ,?is int]c\rse is realiz$ at ! "t z be+ bo? active & mutual4 ,if x be n effective2 if x be n a give & take relation2 if no?+ be really transact$ :ile x la/s2 if ! _w is 9 no :it diff]5t = its hav+ tak5 place2 !n pray]1 tak5 9 ?is wide mean+ ( a s5se t some?+ is transact+1 is ( c\rse a feel+ ( :at is illusory1 & religion mu/ on ! :ole be class$1 n simply z conta9+ elem5ts ( delusion1--^! und\bt$ly ev]y:]e exi/1--b z be+ root$ 9 delusion altoge!r1 j z mat]iali/s & a!i/s h always said x 04 ,at mo/ !re might rema91 :5 ! direct exp]i5ces ( pray] 7 rul$ out z false witnesses1 "s inf]5tial belief t ! :ole ord] ( exi/5ce mu/ h a div9e cause4 ,b ?is way ( contemplat+ nature1 pleas+ z x w\ld d\btless be to p]sons ( a pi\s ta/e1 w\ld leave to !m b ! spectators' "p at a play1 :]eas 9 exp]im5tal religion & ! pray]ful life1 we seem ourselves to be actors1 & n 9 a play1 b 9 a v s]i\s reality4 ,! g5u95ess ( religion is ?us indissolubly b\nd up ) ! "q :e!r ! pray]ful consci\sness be or be n deceitful4 ,! conviction t some?+ is g5u9ely transact$ 9 ?is consci\sness is ! v core ( liv+ religion4 ,z to :at is transact$1 great diff]5ces ( op9ion h prevail$4 ,! unse5 p[]s h be5 suppos$1 & are yet suppos$1 to d ?+s :i* no enlight5$ man c n[adays believe 94 ,x may well prove t ! sph]e ( influ5ce 9 pray] is subjective exclusively1 & t :at is imm$iately *ang$ is only ! m9d ( ! pray+ p]son4 ,b h[ev] our op9ion ( pray]'s effects may come to be limit$ by criticism1 religion1 9 ! vital s5se 9 :i* ^! lectures /udy x1 mu/ /& or fall by ! p]suasion t effects ( "s sort g5u9ely d occur4 ,?r\gh pray]1 religion insi/s1 ?+s :i* _c be realiz$ 9 any o!r mann] come ab\t3 en]gy :i* b = pray] w\ld be b\nd is by pray] set free & op]ates 9 "s "p1 be x objective or subjective1 ( ! _w ( facts4 ,?is po/ulate is /rik+ly express$ 9 a lett] writt5 by ! late ,fr$]ic ,w4 ,h4 ,my]s to a fri5d1 :o all[s me to quote f x4 ,x %[s h[ indep5d5t ! pray]in/9ct is ( usual doctr9al complications4 ,mr4 ,my]s writes3-- 8,i am glad t y h ask$ me ab\t pray]1 because ,i h r /rong ideas on ! subject4 ,fir/ consid] :at are ! facts4 ,!re exi/s ar\nd u a spiritual univ]se1 & t univ]se is 9 actual relation ) ! mat]ial4 ,f ! spiritual univ]se comes ! en]gy :i* ma9ta9s ! mat]ial2 ! en]gy :i* makes ! life ( ea* individual _s4 ,our spirits are support$ by a p]petual indrawal ( ?is en]gy1 & ! vigor ( t indrawal is p]petually *ang+1 mu* z ! vigor ( our absorption ( mat]ial nutrim5t *anges f h\r to h\r4 8,i call ^! #8facts' because ,i ?9k t "s s*eme ( ?is k9d is ! only "o consi/5t ) our actual evid5ce2 too complex to summ>ize "h4 ,h[1 !n1 %\ld we act on ^! facts8 ,pla9ly we mu/ endeavor to draw 9 z mu* spiritual life z possible1 & we mu/ place our m9ds 9 any attitude :i* exp]i5ce %[s to be favorable to su* indrawal4 ,pray] is ! g5]al "n = t attitude ( op5 & e>ne/ expectancy4 ,if we !n ask to :om to pray1 ! answ] 7/rangely en\gh7 mu/ be t t does n mu* matt]4 ,! pray] is n inde$ a purely subjective ?+2--x means a real increase 9 int5sity ( absorption ( spiritual p[] or grace2--b we d n "k en\gh ( :at takes place 9 ! spiritual _w to "k h[ ! pray] op]ates2--:o is cognizant ( x1 or ?r\gh :at *annel ! grace is giv54 ,bett] let *ildr5 pray to ,*ri/1 :o is at any rate ! highe/ individual _s ( :om we h any k4 ,b x w\ld be ra% to say t ,*ri/ himself he>s u2 :ile to say t ,god he>s u is m]ely to re/ate ! fir/ pr9ciple1--t grace fl[s 9 f ! inf9ite spiritual _w40 ,let u res]ve ! "q ( ! tru? or falsehood ( ! belief t p[] is absorb$ until ! next lecture1 :5 our dogmatic conclusions1 if we h any1 mu/ be rea*$4 ,let ?is lecture /ill conf9e itself to ! description ( ph5om5a2 & z a concrete example ( an extreme sort1 ( ! way 9 :i* ! pray]ful life may /ill be l$1 let me take a case ) :i* mo/ ( y mu/ be acqua9t$1 t ( ,george ,mll] ( ,bri/ol1 :o di$ 9 #ahih4 ,mll]'s pray]s 7 ( ! crasse/ petitional ord]4 ,e>ly 9 life he resolv$ on tak+ c]ta9 ,bible promises 9 lit]al s9c]ity1 & on lett+ himself be f$1 n by 8 own worldly =esight1 b by ! ,"l's h&4 ,he _h an extraord9>ily active & successful c>e]1 among ! fruits ( :i* 7 ! di/ribution ( ov] two million copies ( ! ,scripture text1 9 diff]5t languages2 ! equipm5t ( sev]al hundr$ mission>ies2 ! circulation ( m ?an a hundr$ & elev5 million ( scriptural books1 pamphlets1 & tracts2 ! build+ ( five l>ge orphanages1 & ! keep+ & educat+ ( ?\s&s ( orphans2 f9ally1 ! e/abli%m5t ( s*ools 9 :i* ov] a hundr$ & tw5ty"o ?\s& y\?ful & adult pupils 7 taught4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ?is "w ,mr4 ,mll] receiv$ & adm9i/]$ ne>ly a million & a half ( p\nds /]l+1 & travel$ ov] two hundr$ ?\s& miles ( sea & l&47#cjh7 ,dur+ ! sixtyeight ye>s ( 8 m9i/ry1 he nev] own$ any prop]ty except 8 clo!s & furniture1 & ca% 9 h&2 & he left1 at ! age ( eightysix1 an e/ate wor? only a hundr$ & sixty p\nds4 ,8 me?od 0 to let 8 g5]al wants be publicly kn[n1 b n to acqua9t o!r p ) ! details ( 8 tempor>y necessities4 ,= ! relief ( ! latt]1 he pray$ directly to ! ,"l1 believ+ t soon] or lat] pray]s are always answ]$ if "o h tru/ en\gh4 8,:5 ,i lose su* a ?+ z a key10 he writes1 8,i ask ! ,"l to direct me to x1 & ,i look = an answ] to my pray]2 :5 a p]son ) :om ,i h made an appo9tm5t does n come1 accord+ to ! fix$ "t1 & ,i beg9 to be inconv5i5c$ by x1 ,i ask ! ,"l to be pleas$ to ha/5 him to me1 & ,i look = an answ]2 :5 ,i d n und]/& a passage ( ! ^w ( ,god1 ,i lift up my he>t to ! ,"l t he w\ld be pleas$ by 8 ,holy ,_s to in/ruct me1 & ,i expect to be taught1 ?\gh ,i d n fix ! "t :51 & ! mann] h[ x %\ld be2 :5 ,i am go+ to m9i/] 9 ! ,^w1 ,i seek help f ! ,"l1 & 444 am n ca/ d[n1 b ( good *e] because ,i look = 8 assi/ance40 ,mll]'s cu/om 0 to nev] run up bills1 n ev5 = a week4 8,z ! ,"l deals out to u by ! day1 444 ! week's paym5t might become due & we h no money to meet x2 & ?us ^? ) :om we deal might be inconv5i5c$ by u1 & we be f\nd act+ aga9/ ! comm&m5t ( ! ,"l3 #8,owe no man any?+4' ,f ?is day & h5ce=w>d :il/ ! ,"l gives to u our supplies by ! day1 we purpose to pay at once = e article z x is pur*as$1 & nev] to buy any?+ except we c pay = x at once1 h[ev] mu* x may seem to be ne$$1 & h[ev] mu* ^? ) :om we deal may wi% to be paid only by ! week40 ,! articles ne$$ ( :i* ,mll] speaks 7 ! food1 fuel1 etc41 ( 8 orphanages4 ,someh[1 ne> z !y (t5 come to go+ )\t a meal1 !y h>dly ev] seem actually to h done s4 8,great] & m manife/ ne>ness ( ! ,"l's pres5ce ,i h nev] _h ?an :5 aft] breakfa/ !re 7 no means = d9n] = m ?an a hundr$ p]sons2 or :5 aft] d9n] !re 7 no means = ! tea1 & yet ! ,"l provid$ ! tea2 & all ?is )\t "o s+le human be+ hav+ be5 in=m$ ab\t our ne$4444 ,?r\gh ,grace my m9d is s fully assur$ ( ! fai?fulness ( ! ,"l1 t 9 ! mid/ ( ! greate/ ne$1 ,i am enabl$ 9 peace to g ab\t my o!r "w4 ,inde$1 did n ! ,"l give me ?is1 :i* is ! result ( tru/+ 9 him1 ,i %\ld sc>cely be able to "w at all2 = x is n[ comp>atively a r>e ?+ t a day comes :5 ,i am n 9 ne$ = "o or ano!r "p ( ! "w407#cji7 ,9 build+ 8 orphanages simply by pray] & fai?1 ,mll] affirms t 8 prime motive 0 8to h some?+ to po9t to z a visible pro( t our ,god & ,fa!r is ! same fai?ful ,god t he ev] 01--z will+ z ev] to prove himself ! liv+ ,god1 9 our day z =m]ly1 to all t put _! tru/ 9 him407#caj7 ,= ?is reason he refus$ to borr[ money = any ( 8 ent]prises4 8,h[ does x "w :5 we ?us anticipate ,god by go+ our own way8 ,we c]ta9ly weak5 fai? in/ead ( increas+ x2 & ea* "t we "w ?us a deliv]ance ( our own we f9d x m & m difficult to tru/ 9 ,god1 till at la/ we give way entirely to our natural fall5 reason & unbelief prevails4 ,h[ diff]5t if "o is enabl$ to wait ,god's own "t1 & to look alone to him = help & deliv]ance6 ,:5 at la/ help comes1 aft] _m seasons ( pray] x may be1 h[ sweet x is1 & :at a pres5t recomp5se6 ,de> ,*ri/ian read]1 if y h nev] walk$ 9 ?is pa? ( ob$i5ce be=e1 d s n[1 & y w !n "k exp]im5tally ! sweetness ( ! joy :i* results f x407#caa7 ,:5 ! supplies came 9 b sl[ly1 ,mll] always consid]$ t ?is 0 = ! trial ( 8 fai? & pati5ce4 ,:5 8 fai? & pati5ce _h be5 suffici5tly tri$1 ! ,"l w\ld s5d m means4 8,& ?us x has prov$10--,i quote f 8 di>y1--8= today 0 giv5 me ! sum ( #bjej p\nds1 ( :i* #bjjj are = ! build+ fund ( a c]ta9 h\se1 & #ej = pres5t necessities4 ,x is impossible to describe my joy 9 ,god :5 ,i receiv$ ?is donation4 ,i 0 nei!r excit$ nor surpris$2 = ,i look out = answ]s to my pray]s4 ,i believe t ,god he>s me4 ,yet my he>t 0 s full ( joy t ,i c\ld only sit be=e ,god1 & admire him1 l ,david 9 #b ,samuel vii4 ,at la/ ,i ca/ myself flat d[n ^u my face & bur/ =? 9 ?anksgiv+ to ,god & 9 surr5d]+ my he>t afre% to him = 8 bless$ s]vice407#cab7 ,george ,mll]'s is a case extreme 9 e respect1 & 9 no respect m s ?an 9 ! extraord9>y n>r[ness ( ! man's intellectual horizon4 ,8 ,god 01 z he (t5 said1 8 bus9ess p>tn]4 ,he seems to h be5 = ,mll] little m ?an a sort ( sup]natural cl]gyman int]e/$ 9 ! congregation ( tradesm5 & o!rs 9 ,bri/ol :o 7 8 sa9ts1 & 9 ! orphanages & o!r ent]prises1 b unpossess$ ( any ( ^? va/] & wild] & m ideal attributes ) :i* ! human imag9ation else:]e has inve/$ him4 ,mll]1 9 %ort1 0 absolutely unphilosophical4 ,8 int5sely private & practical conception ( 8 relations ) ! ,deity cont9u$ ! traditions ( ! mo/ primitive human ?\ght47#cac7 ,:5 we comp>e a m9d l 8 ) su* a m9d z1 = example1 ,em]son's or ,phillips ,brooks's1 we see ! range :i* ! religions consci\sness cov]s4 ,!re is an imm5se lit]ature relat+ to answ]s to petitional pray]4 ,! evangelical j\rnals are fill$ ) su* answ]s1 & books are devot$ to ! subject17#cad7 b = u ,mll]'s case w suffice4 ,a less /urdy begg>l fa%ion ( lead+ ! pray]ful life is foll[$ by innum]able o!r ,*ri/ians4 ,p]si/5ce 9 lean+ on ! ,almighty = support & guidance w1 su* p]sons say1 br+ ) x pro(s1 palpable b mu* m subtle1 ( 8 pres5ce & active influ5ce4 ,! foll[+ description ( a 8l$0 life1 by a ,g]man writ] :om ,i h already quot$1 w\ld no d\bt appe> to c\ntless ,*ri/ians 9 e c\ntry z if transcrib$ f _! own p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,"o f9ds 9 ?is guid$ sort ( life1 says ,dr4 ,hilty1-- 8,t books & words 7& sometimes p7 come to "o's cognizance j at ! v mom5t 9 :i* "o ne$s !m2 t "o glides ov] great dang]s z if ) %ut eyes1 rema9+ ignorant ( :at w\ld h t]rifi$ "o or l$ "o a/ray1 until ! p]il is pa/--?is be+ especially ! case ) temptations to vanity & s5suality2 t pa?s on :i* "o ought n to w&] are1 z x 71 h$g$ (f ) ?orns2 b t on ! o!r side great ob/acles are sudd5ly remov$2 t :5 ! "t has come = some?+1 "o sudd5ly receives a c\rage t =m]ly fail$1 or p]ceives ! root ( a matt] t until !n 0 conceal$1 or discov]s ?\ghts1 tal5ts1 yea1 ev5 pieces ( k & insight1 9 "o's self1 ( :i* x is impossible to say :5ce !y come2 f9ally1 t p]sons help u or decl9e to help u1 favor u or refuse u1 z if !y _h to d s aga9/ _! w1 s t (t5 ^? indiff]5t or ev5 unfri5dly to u yield u ! greate/ s]vice & fur!rance4 7,god takes (t5 _! worldly goods1 f ^? :om he leads1 at j ! "r mom5t1 :5 !y ?reat5 to imp$e ! ef=t aft] high] int]e/s47 8,besides all ?is1 o!r notewor?y ?+s come to pass1 ( :i* x is n easy to give acc\nt4 ,!re is no d\bt :atev] t n[ "o walks cont9ually ?r\gh #8op5 doors' & on ! easie/ roads1 ) z little c>e & tr\ble z x is possible to imag9e4 8,fur!rmore "o f9ds "o's self settl+ "o's affairs nei!r too e>ly nor too late1 :]eas !y 7 wont to be spoil$ by untimel9ess1 ev5 :5 ! prep>ations _h be5 well laid4 ,9 addition to ?is1 "o does !m ) p]fect tranquillity ( m9d1 almo/ z if !y 7 matt]s ( no consequ5ce1 l err&s done by u = ano!r p]son1 9 :i* case we usually act m calmly ?an :5 we act 9 our own conc]ns4 ,aga91 "o f9ds t "o c wait = ev]y?+ pati5tly1 & t is "o ( life's great arts4 ,"o f9ds also t ea* ?+ comes duly1 "o ?+ aft] ! o!r1 s t "o ga9s "t to make "o's foot+ sure be=e advanc+ f>!r4 ,& !n ev]y?+ occurs to u at ! "r mom5t1 j :at we ought to d1 etc41 & (t5 9 a v /rik+ way1 j z if a ?ird p]son 7 keep+ wat* ov] ^? ?+s :i* we are 9 easy dang] ( =gett+4 8,(t51 too1 p]sons are s5t to u at ! "r "t1 to (f] or ask = :at is ne$$1 & :at we %\ld nev] h _h ! c\rage or resolution to und]take ( our own accord4 8,?r\gh all ^! exp]i5ces "o f9ds t "o is k9dly & tol]ant ( o!r p1 ev5 ( su* z are repulsive1 neglig5t1 or illwill$1 = !y also are in/rum5ts ( good 9 ,god's h&1 & (t5 mo/ effici5t ones4 ,)\t ^! ?\ghts x w\ld be h>d = ev5 ! be/ ( u always to keep our equanimity4 ,b ) ! consci\sness ( div9e guidance1 "o sees _m a ?+ 9 life q diff]5tly f :at w\ld o!rwise be possible4 8,all ^! are ?+s t e human be+ kn[s1 :o has _h exp]i5ce ( !m2 & ( :i* ! mo/ speak+ examples c\ld be br\ght =w>d4 ,! highe/ res\rces ( worldly wisdom are unable to atta9 t :i*1 "u div9e lead+1 comes to u ( its own accord407#cae7 ,su* acc\nts z ?is %ade away into o!rs :]e ! belief is1 n t p>ticul> ev5ts are temp]$ m t[>dly to u by a sup]9t5d+ provid5ce1 z a rew>d = our reliance1 b t by cultivat+ ! cont9u\s s5se ( our connection ) ! p[] t made ?+s z !y are1 we are temp]$ m t[>dly = _! reception4 ,! outw>d face ( nature ne$ n alt]1 b ! expressions ( mean+ 9 x alt]4 ,x 0 dead & is alive aga94 ,x is l ! diff]5ce betwe5 look+ on a p]son )\t love1 or ^u ! same p]son ) love4 ,9 ! latt] case int]c\rse spr+s into new vitality4 ,s :5 "o's affections keep 9 t\* ) ! div9ity ( ! _w's au?or%ip1 fe> & egotism fall away2 & 9 ! equanimity t foll[s1 "o f9ds 9 ! h\rs1 z !y succe$ ea* o!r1 a s]ies ( purely b5ignant opportunities4 ,x is z if all doors 7 op5$1 & all pa?s fre%ly smoo!d4 ,we meet a new _w :5 we meet ! old _w 9 ! _s :i* ?is k9d ( pray] infuses4 ,su* a _s 0 t ( ,m>cus ,aurelius & ,epictetus47#caf7 ,x is t ( m9dcur]s1 ( ! transc5d5tali/s1 & ( ! scall$ 8lib]al0 ,*ri/ians4 ,z an expression ( x1 ,i w quote a page f "o ( ,m>t9eau's s]mons3-- 8,! univ]se1 op5 to ! eye today1 looks z x did a ?\s& ye>s ago3 & ! morn+ hymn ( ,milton does b tell ! beauty ) :i* our own famili> sun dress$ ! e>lie/ fields & g>d5s ( ! _w4 ,we see :at all our fa!rs saw4 ,& if we _c f9d ,god 9 y\r h\se or 9 m9e1 ^u ! roadside or ! m>g9 ( ! sea2 9 ! bur/+ se$ or op5+ fl[]2 9 ! day duty or ! night mus+2 9 ! g5]al laugh & ! secret grief2 9 ! procession ( life1 ev] ent]+ afre%1 & solemnly pass+ by & dropp+ (f2 ,i d n ?9k we %\ld disc]n him any m on ! grass ( ,ed51 or b5ea? ! moonlight ( ,ge?semane4 ,dep5d ^u x1 x is n ! want ( great] miracles1 b ( ! s\l to p]ceive su* z are all[$ u /ill1 t makes u pu% all ! sanctities into ! f> spaces we _c rea*4 ,! dev\t feel t :]ev] ,god's h& is1 !re is miracle3 & x is simply an indev\tness :i* imag9es t only :]e miracle is1 c !re be ! real h& ( ,god4 ,! cu/oms ( ,heav5 ought surely to be m sacr$ 9 our eyes ?an its anomalies2 ! de> old ways1 ( :i* ! ,mo/ ,high is nev] tir$1 ?an ! /range ?+s :i* he does n love well en\gh ev] to repeat4 ,& he :o w b disc]n b5ea? ! sun1 z he rises any morn+1 ! support+ f+] ( ! ,almighty1 may recov] ! sweet & rev]5t surprise ) :i* ,adam gaz$ on ! fir/ dawn 9 ,p>adise4 ,x is no outw>d *ange1 no %ift+ 9 "t or place2 b only ! lov+ m$itation ( ! pure 9 he>t1 t c reawak5 ! ,et]nal f ! sleep )9 our s\ls3 t c r5d] him a reality aga91 & reass]t = him once m 8 anci5t "n ( #8! ,liv+ ,god4' 07#cag7 ,:5 we see all ?+s 9 ,god1 & ref] all ?+s to him1 we read 9 common matt]s sup]ior expressions ( mean+4 ,! deadness ) :i* cu/om inve/s ! famili> vani%es1 & exi/5ce z a :ole appe>s transfigur$4 ,! /ate ( a m9d ?us awak5$ f torpor is well express$ 9 ^! words1 :i* ,i take f a fri5d's lett]3-- 8,if we occupy ourselves 9 summ+ up all ! m]cies & b\nties we are privileg$ to h1 we are ov]:elm$ by _! numb] 7s great t we c imag9e ourselves unable to give ourselves "t ev5 to beg9 to review ! ?+s we may imag9e we h n74 ,we sum !m & realize t we are actually kill$ ) ,god's k9dness2 t we are surr\nd$ by b\nties ^u b\nties1 )\t :i* all w\ld fall4 ,%\ld we n love x2 %\ld we n feel buoy$ up by ! ,et]nal ,arms80 ,sometimes ?is realization t facts are ( div9e s5d+1 in/ead ( be+ habitual1 is casual1 l a my/ical exp]i5ce4 ,fa!r ,gratry gives ?is in/ance f 8 y\?ful melan*oly p]iod3-- 8,"o day ,i _h a mom5t ( consolation1 because ,i met ) some?+ :i* seem$ to me ideally p]fect4 ,x 0 a poor drumm] beat+ ! tattoo 9 ! /reets ( ,p>is4 ,i walk$ beh9d him 9 return+ to ! s*ool on ! ev5+ ( a holiday4 ,8 drum gave out ! tattoo 9 su* a way t1 at t mom5t at lea/1 h[ev] peevi% ,i 71 ,i c\ld f9d no pretext = fault f9d+4 ,x 0 impossible to conceive m n]ve or _s1 bett] "t or measure1 m cle>ness or ri*ness1 ?an 7 9 ?is drumm+4 ,ideal desire c\ld g no f>!r 9 t direction4 ,i 0 en*ant$ & consol$2 ! p]fection ( ?is wret*$ act did me good4 ,good is at lea/ possible1 ,i said1 s9ce ! ideal c ?us sometimes get embodi$407#cah7 ,9 ,snanc\r's novel ( ,ob]mann a simil> transi5t lift+ ( ! veil is record$4 ,9 ,p>is /reets1 on a ,m>* day1 he comes across a fl[] 9 bloom1 a jonquil3 8,x 0 ! /ronge/ expression ( desire3 x 0 ! fir/ p]fume ( ! ye>4 ,i felt all ! happ9ess de/9$ = man4 ,?is unutt]able h>mony ( s\ls1 ! phantom ( ! ideal _w1 arose 9 me complete4 ,i nev] felt any?+ s great or s in/antane\s4 ,i "k n :at %ape1 :at analogy1 :at secret ( relation x 0 t made me see 9 ?is fl[] a limitless beauty4444 ,i %all nev] inclose 9 a conception ?is p[]1 ?is imm5sity t no?+ w express2 ?is =m t no?+ w conta92 ?is ideal ( a bett] _w :i* "o feels1 b :i*1 x seems1 nature has n made actual407#cai7 ,we he>d 9 previ\s lectures ( ! vivifi$ face ( ! _w z x may appe> to conv]ts aft] _! awak5+47#cbj7 ,z a rule1 religi\s p]sons g5]ally assume t :atev] natural facts connect !mselves 9 any way ) _! de/9y are significant ( ! div9e purposes ) !m4 ,?r\gh pray] ! purpose1 (t5 f> f obvi\s1 comes home to !m1 & if x be 8trial10 /r5g? to endure ! trial is giv54 ,?us at all /ages ( ! pray]ful life we f9d ! p]suasion t 9 ! process ( communion en]gy f on high fl[s 9 to meet dem&1 & becomes op]ative )9 ! ph5om5al _w4 ,s long z ?is op]ativ5ess is admitt$ to be real1 x makes no ess5tial diff]5ce :e!r its imm$iate effects be subjective or objective4 ,! fundam5tal religi\s po9t is t 9 pray]1 spiritual en]gy1 :i* o!rwise w\ld slumb]1 does become active1 & spiritual "w ( "s k9d is effect$ really4 ,s mu* = ,pray]1 tak5 9 ! wide s5se ( any k9d ( communion4 ,z ! core ( religion1 we mu/ return to x 9 ! next lecture4 ,! la/ aspect ( ! religi\s life :i* rema9s = me to t\* ^u is ! fact t its manife/ations s frequ5tly connect !mselves ) ! subconsci\s "p ( our exi/5ce4 ,y may rememb] :at ,i said 9 my op5+ lecture7#cba7 ab\t ! preval5ce ( ! psy*opa?ic temp]am5t 9 religi\s biography4 ,y w 9 po9t ( fact h>dly f9d a religi\s lead] ( any k9d 9 ^: life !re is no record ( automatisms4 ,i speak n m]ely ( savage prie/s & prophets1 ^: foll[]s reg>d automatic utt]ance & action z by itself tantam\nt to inspiration1 ,i speak ( lead]s ( ?\ght & subjects ( intellectualiz$ exp]i5ce4 ,sa9t ,paul _h 8 visions1 8 ec/asies1 8 gift ( tongues1 small z 0 ! importance he atta*$ to ! latt]4 ,! :ole array ( ,*ri/ian sa9ts & h]esi>*s1 includ+ ! greate/1 ! ,b]n>ds1 ! ,loyolas1 ! ,lu!rs1 ! ,foxes1 ! ,wesleys1 _h _! visions1 voices1 rapt conditions1 guid+ impressions1 & 8op5+s40 ,!y _h ^! ?+s1 because !y _h exalt$ s5sibility1 & to su* ?+s p]sons ( exalt$ s5sibility are liable4 ,9 su* liability !re lie1 h[ev]1 consequ5ces = !ology4 ,beliefs are /r5g!n$ :]ev] automatisms corroborate !m4 ,incursions f beyond ! transm>g9al region h a peculi> p[] to increase conviction4 ,! in*oate s5se ( pres5ce is inf9itely /rong] ?an conception1 b /rong z x may be1 x is seldom equal to ! evid5ce ( halluc9ation4 ,sa9ts :o actually see or he> _! ,savi\r rea* ! acme ( assurance4 ,motor automatisms1 ?\gh r>]1 are1 if possible1 ev5 m conv9c+ ?an s5sations4 ,! subjects "h actually feel !mselves play$ ^u by p[]s beyond _! w4 ,! evid5ce is dynamic2 ! ,god or _s moves ! v organs ( _! body47#cbb7 ,! great field = ?is s5se ( be+ ! in/rum5t ( a high] p[] is ( c\rse 8inspiration40 ,x is easy to discrim9ate betwe5 ! religi\s lead]s :o h be5 habitually subject to inspiration & ^? :o h n4 ,9 ! tea*+s ( ! ,buddha1 ( ,jesus1 ( ,sa9t ,paul 7ap>t f 8 gift ( tongues71 ( ,sa9t ,augu/9e1 ( ,huss1 ( ,lu!r1 ( ,wesley1 automatic or semiautomatic composition appe>s to h be5 only occasional4 ,9 ! ,hebrew prophets1 on ! contr>y1 9 ,mohamm$1 9 "s ( ! ,alex&rians1 9 _m m9or ,ca?olic sa9ts1 9 ,fox1 9 ,joseph ,smi?1 some?+ l x appe>s to h be5 frequ5t1 sometimes habitual4 ,we h di/9ct pr(essions ( be+ "u ! direction ( a =eign p[]1 & s]v+ z its m\?piece4 ,z reg>ds ! ,hebrew prophets1 x is extraord9>y1 writes an au?or :o has made a c>eful /udy ( !m1 to see-- 8,h[1 "o aft] ano!r1 ! same features are reproduc$ 9 ! prophetic books4 ,! process is always extremely diff]5t f :at x w\ld be if ! prophet arriv$ at 8 insight into spiritual ?+s by ! t5tative ef=ts ( 8 own g5ius4 ,!re is some?+ %>p & sudd5 ab\t x4 ,he c lay 8 f+]1 s to speak1 on ! mom5t :5 x came4 ,& x always comes 9 ! =m ( an ov]p[]+ =ce f )\t1 aga9/ :i* he /ruggles1 b 9 va94 ,li/51 = in/ance1 to ! op5+ ( ! book ( ,j]emiah4 ,read ?r\gh 9 l mann] ! fir/ two *apt]s ( ! prophecy ( ,ezekiel4 8,x is n1 h[ev]1 only at ! beg9n+ ( 8 c>e] t ! prophet passes ?r\gh a crisis :i* is cle>ly n selfcaus$4 ,scatt]$ all ?r\gh ! prophetic writ+s are expressions :i* speak ( "s /rong & irresi/ible impulse com+ d[n ^u ! prophet1 det]m9+ 8 attitude to ! ev5ts ( 8 "t1 con/ra9+ 8 utt]ance1 mak+ 8 words ! vehicle ( a high] mean+ ?an _! own4 ,= in/ance1 ?is ( ,isaiah's3 #8,! ,"l spake ?us to me ) a /rong h&1'--an emphatic phrase :i* d5otes ! ov]ma/]+ nature ( ! impulse1--#8& in/ruct$ me t ,i %\ld n walk 9 ! way ( ?is p4' 444 ,or passages l ?is f ,ezekiel3 #8,! h& ( ! ,"l ,god fell ^u me1' #8,! h& ( ! ,"l 0 /rong ^u me4' ,! "o /&+ *>act]i/ic ( ! prophet is t he speaks ) ! au?ority ( ,jehovah himself4 ,h5ce x is t ! prophets "o & all preface _! addresses s confid5tly1 #8,! ,^w ( ! ,"l1' or #8,?us sai? ! ,"l4' ,!y h ev5 ! audacity to speak 9 ! fir/ p]son1 z if ,jehovah himself 7 speak+4 ,z 9 ,isaiah3 #8,he>k5 unto me1 ,o ,jacob1 & ,israel my call$2 ,i am ,he1 ,i am ! ,fir/1 ,i also am ! la/1'--& s on4 ,! p]sonality ( ! prophet s9ks entirely into ! backgr\nd2 he feels himself = ! "t be+ ! m\?piece ( ! ,almighty407#cbc7 8,we ne$ to rememb] t prophecy 0 a pr(ession1 & t ! prophets =m$ a pr(essional class4 ,!re 7 s*ools ( ! prophets1 9 :i* ! gift 0 regul>ly cultivat$4 ,a gr\p ( "y m5 w\ld ga!r r\nd "s comm&+ figure--a ,samuel or an ,eli%a--& w\ld n only record or spread ! k ( 8 say+s & do+s1 b seek to cat* !mselves some?+ ( 8 inspiration4 ,x seems t music play$ its "p 9 _! ex]cises4444 ,x is p]fectly cle> t by no means all ( ^! ,sons ( ! prophets ev] succe$$ 9 acquir+ m ?an a v small %>e 9 ! gift :i* !y s\ght4 ,x 0 cle>ly possible to #8c\nt]feit' prophecy4 ,sometimes ?is 0 done delib]ately4444 ,b x by no means foll[s t 9 all cases :]e a false message 0 giv51 ! giv] ( x 0 altoge!r consci\s ( :at he 0 do+407#cbd7 ,"h1 to take ano!r ,jewi% case1 is ! way 9 :i* ,philo ( ,alex&ria describes 8 inspiration3-- 8,sometimes1 :5 ,i h come to my "w empty1 ,i h sudd5ly become full2 ideas be+ 9 an invisible mann] %[]$ ^u me1 & implant$ 9 me f on high2 s t ?r\gh ! influ5ce ( div9e inspiration1 ,i h become greatly excit$1 & h kn[n nei!r ! place 9 :i* ,i 01 nor ^? :o 7 pres5t1 nor myself1 nor :at ,i 0 say+1 nor :at ,i 0 writ+2 = !n ,i h be5 consci\s ( a ri*ness ( int]pretation1 an enjoym5t ( light1 a mo/ p5etrat+ insight1 a mo/ manife/ en]gy 9 all t 0 to be done2 hav+ su* effect on my m9d z ! cle>e/ ocul> demon/ration w\ld h on ! eyes407#cbe7 ,if we turn to ,islam1 we f9d t ,mohamm$'s revelations all came f ! subconsci\s sph]e4 ,to ! "q 9 :at way he got !m1-- 8,mohamm$ is said to h answ]$ t sometimes he he>d a knell z f a bell1 & t ?is _h ! /ronge/ effect on him2 & :5 ! angel w5t away1 he _h receiv$ ! revelation4 ,sometimes aga9 he held conv]se ) ! angel z ) a man1 s z easily to und]/& 8 words4 ,! lat] au?orities1 h[ev]1 444 di/+ui% /ill o!r k9ds4 ,9 ! ,itgn 7#ajc7 ! foll[+ are enum]at$3 #a1 revelations ) s\nd ( bell1 #b1 by inspiration ( ! holy _s 9 ,m4's he>t1 #c1 by ,gabriel 9 human =m1 #d1 by ,god imm$iately1 ei!r :5 awake 7z 9 8 j\rney to heav57 or 9 dream4444 ,9 ,almawhib alladunya ! k9ds are ?us giv53 #a1 ,dream1 #b1 ,inspiration ( ,gabriel 9 ! ,prophet's he>t1 #c1 ,gabriel tak+ ,dahya's =m1 #d1 ) ! bell s\nd1 etc41 #e1 ,gabriel 9 propri p]son 7only twice71 #f1 revelation 9 heav51 #g1 ,god appe>+ 9 p]son1 b veil$1 #h1 ,god reveal+ himself imm$iately )\t veil4 ,o!rs add two o!r /ages1 namely3 #a1 ,gabriel 9 ! =m ( /ill ano!r man1 #b1 ,god %[+ himself p]sonally 9 dream407#cbf7 ,9 none ( ^! cases is ! revelation di/9ctly motor4 ,9 ! case ( ,joseph ,smi? 7:o _h prophetic revelations innum]able 9 addition to ! reveal$ translation ( ! gold plates :i* result$ 9 ! ,book ( ,mormon71 al?\gh !re may h be5 a motor elem5t1 ! inspiration seems to h be5 pr$om9antly s5sorial4 ,he began 8 translation by ! aid ( ! 8peep/ones0 :i* he f\nd1 or ?\ght or said t he f\nd1 ) ! gold plates1--app>5tly a case ( 8cry/al gaz+40 ,= "s ( ! o!r revelations he us$ ! peep/ones1 b seems g5]ally to h ask$ ! ,"l = m direct in/ruction47#cbg7 ,o!r revelations are describ$ z 8op5+s0--,fox's1 = example1 7 evid5tly ( ! k9d kn[n 9 spiriti/ic circles ( today z 8impressions40 ,z all effective initiators ( *ange mu/ ne$s live to "s degree ^u ?is psy*opa?ic level ( sudd5 p]ception or conviction ( new tru?1 or ( impulse to action s obsessive t x mu/ be work$ (f1 ,i w say no?+ m ab\t s v common a ph5om5on4 ,:51 9 addition to ^! ph5om5a ( inspiration1 we take religi\s my/icism into ! acc\nt1 :5 we recall ! /rik+ & sudd5 unifications ( a discordant self :i* we saw 9 conv]sion1 & :5 we review ! extravagant obsessions ( t5d]ness1 purity1 & selfsev]ity met ) 9 sa9tl9ess1 we _c1 ,i ?9k1 avoid ! conclusion t 9 religion we h a dep>tm5t ( human nature ) unusually close relations to ! transm>g9al or sublim9al region4 ,if ! ^w 8sublim9al0 is (f5sive to any ( y1 z smell+ too mu* ( psy*ical rese>* or o!r ab]rations1 call x by any o!r "n y please1 to di/+ui% x f ! level ( full sunlit consci\sness4 ,call ?is latt] ! ,aregion ( p]sonality1 if y c>e to1 & call ! o!r ! ,bregion4 ,! ,bregion1 !n1 is obvi\sly ! l>g] "p ( ea* ( u1 = x is ! abode ( ev]y?+ t is lat5t & ! res]voir ( ev]y?+ t passes unrecord$ or unobs]v$4 ,x conta9s1 = example1 su* ?+s z all our mom5t>ily inactive memories1 & x h>bors ! spr+s ( all our obscurely motiv$ passions1 impulses1 likes1 dislikes1 & prejudices4 ,our intuitions1 hypo!ses1 fancies1 sup]/itions1 p]suasions1 convictions1 & 9 g5]al all our nonrational op]ations1 come f x4 ,x is ! s\rce ( our dreams1 & app>5tly !y may return to x4 ,9 x arise :atev] my/ical exp]i5ces we may h1 & our automatisms1 s5sory or motor2 our life 9 hypnotic & 8hypnoid0 conditions1 if we are subjects to su* conditions2 our delusions1 fix$ ideas1 & hy/]ical accid5ts1 if we are hy/]ic subjects2 our supra normal cognitions1 if su* !re be1 & if we are telepa?ic subjects4 ,x is also ! f\nta9head ( mu* t fe$s our religion4 ,9 p]sons deep 9 ! religi\s life1 z we h n[ abundantly se51--& ?is is my conclusion1--! door into ?is region seems unusually wide op52 at any rate1 exp]i5ces mak+ _! entrance ?r\gh t door h _h emphatic influ5ce 9 %ap+ religi\s hi/ory4 ,) ?is conclusion ,i turn back & close ! circle :i* ,i op5$ 9 my fir/ lecture1 t]m9at+ ?us ! review :i* ,i !n ann\nc$ ( inn] religi\s ph5om5a z we f9d !m 9 develop$ & articulate human individuals4 ,i might easily1 if ! "t all[$1 multiply bo? my docum5ts & my discrim9ations1 b a broad treatm5t is1 ,i believe1 9 itself bett]1 & ! mo/ important *>act]i/ics ( ! subject lie1 ,i ?9k1 be=e u already4 ,9 ! next lecture1 :i* is also ! la/ "o1 we mu/ try to draw ! critical conclusions :i* s mu* mat]ial may sugge/4 ,,lecture ,,xx4 ,,conclusions4 ,! mat]ial ( our /udy ( human nature is n[ spread be=e u2 & 9 ?is p>t+ h\r1 set free f ! duty ( description1 we c draw our !oretical & practical conclusions4 ,9 my fir/ lecture1 def5d+ ! empirical me?od1 ,i =etold t :atev] conclusions we might come to c\ld be rea*$ by spiritual judgm5ts only1 appreciations ( ! significance = life ( religion1 tak5 8on ! :ole40 ,our conclusions _c be z %>p z dogmatic conclusions w\ld be1 b ,i w =mulate !m1 :5 ! "t comes1 z %>ply z ,i c4 ,summ+ up 9 ! broade/ possible way ! *>act]i/ics ( ! religi\s life1 z we h f\nd !m1 x includes ! foll[+ beliefs3-- #a4 ,t ! visible _w is "p ( a m spiritual univ]se f :i* x draws its *ief significance2 #b4 ,t union or h>moni\s relation ) t high] univ]se is our true end2 #c4 ,t pray] or inn] communion ) ! _s !re(--be t _s 8,god0 or 8law0--is a process :]e9 "w is really done1 & spiritual en]gy fl[s 9 & produces effects1 psy*ological or mat]ial1 )9 ! ph5om5al _w4 ,religion includes also ! foll[+ psy*ological *>act]i/ics3-- #d4 ,a new ze/ :i* adds itself l a gift to life1 & takes ! =m ei!r ( lyrical en*antm5t or ( appeal to e>ne/ness & h]oism4 #e4 ,an assurance ( safety & a temp] ( peace1 &1 9 relation to o!rs1 a prepond]ance ( lov+ affections4 ,9 illu/rat+ ^! *>act]i/ics by docum5ts1 we h be5 lit]ally ba!d 9 s5tim5t4 ,9 reread+ my manuscript1 ,i am almo/ appall$ at ! am\nt ( emotionality :i* ,i f9d 9 x4 ,aft] s mu* ( ?is1 we c af=d to be dry] & less sympa!tic 9 ! re/ ( ! "w t lies be=e u4 ,! s5tim5tality ( _m ( my docum5ts is a consequ5ce ( ! fact t ,i s\ght !m among ! extravagances ( ! subject4 ,if any ( y are enemies ( :at our ance/ors us$ to br& z en?usiasm1 & are1 nev]!less1 /ill li/5+ to me n[1 y h probably felt my selection to h be5 sometimes almo/ p]v]se1 & h wi%$ ,i might h /uck to sob]] examples4 ,i reply t ,i took ^! extrem] examples z yield+ ! pr(\nd] in=mation4 ,to le>n ! secrets ( any sci5ce1 we g to exp]t speciali/s1 ev5 ?\gh !y may be ecc5tric p]sons1 & n to commonplace pupils4 ,we comb9e :at !y tell u ) ! re/ ( our wisdom1 & =m our f9al judgm5t indep5d5tly4 ,ev5 s ) religion4 ,we :o h pursu$ su* radical expressions ( x may n[ be sure t we "k its secrets z au!ntically z any "o c "k !m :o le>ns !m f ano!r2 & we h next to answ]1 ea* ( u = himself1 ! practical "q3 :at are ! dang]s 9 ?is elem5t ( life8 & 9 :at proportion may x ne$ to be re/ra9$ by o!r elem5ts1 to give ! prop] balance8 ,b ?is "q sugge/s ano!r "o :i* ,i w answ] imm$iately & get x out ( ! way1 = x has m ?an once already vex$ u47#cbh7 ,ought x to be assum$ t 9 all m5 ! mixture ( religion ) o!r elem5ts %\ld be id5tical8 ,ought x1 inde$1 to be assum$ t ! lives ( all m5 %\ld %[ id5tical religi\s elem5ts8 ,9 o!r words1 is ! exi/5ce ( s _m religi\s types & sects & cre$s regrettable8 ,to ^! que/ions ,i answ] 8,no0 emphatically4 ,& my reason is t ,i d n see h[ x is possible t creatures 9 su* diff]5t positions & ) su* diff]5t p[]s z human individuals are1 %\ld h exactly ! same functions & ! same duties4 ,no two ( u h id5tical difficulties1 nor %\ld we be expect$ to "w out id5tical solutions4 ,ea*1 f 8 peculi> angle ( obs]vation1 takes 9 a c]ta9 sph]e ( fact & tr\ble1 :i* ea* mu/ deal ) 9 a unique mann]4 ,"o ( u mu/ s(t5 himself1 ano!r mu/ h>d5 himself2 "o mu/ yield a po9t1 ano!r mu/ /& firm1--9 ord] ! bett] to def5d ! position assign$ him4 ,if an ,em]son 7 =c$ to be a ,wesley1 or a ,moody =c$ to be a ,:itman1 ! total human consci\sness ( ! div9e w\ld suff]4 ,! div9e c mean no s+le quality1 x mu/ mean a gr\p ( qualities1 by be+ *ampions ( :i* 9 alt]nation1 diff]5t m5 may all f9d wor?y missions4 ,ea* attitude be+ a syllable 9 human nature's total message1 x takes ! :ole ( u to spell ! mean+ out completely4 ,s a 8god ( battles0 mu/ be all[$ to be ! god = "o k9d ( p]son1 a god ( peace & heav5 & home1 ! god = ano!r4 ,we mu/ frankly recognize ! fact t we live 9 p>tial sy/ems1 & t p>ts are n int]*angeable 9 ! spiritual life4 ,if we are peevi% & jeal\s1 de/ruction ( ! self mu/ be an elem5t ( our religion2 :y ne$ x be "o if we are good & sympa!tic f ! outset8 ,if we are sick s\ls1 we require a religion ( deliv]ance2 b :y ?9k s mu* ( deliv]ance1 if we are heal?ym9d$87#cbi7 ,unque/ionably1 "s m5 h ! complet] exp]i5ce & ! high] vocation1 "h j z 9 ! social _w2 b = ea* man to /ay 9 8 own exp]i5ce1 :ate'er x be1 & = o!rs to tol]ate him !re1 is surely be/4 ,b1 y may n[ ask1 w\ld n ?is "osid$ness be cur$ if we %\ld all esp\se ! sci5ce ( religions z our own religion8 ,9 answ]+ ?is "q ,i mu/ op5 aga9 ! g5]al relations ( ! !oretic to ! active life4 ,k ab\t a ?+ is n ! ?+ itself4 ,y rememb] :at ,al ,ghazzali told u 9 ! ,lecture on ,my/icism1--t to und]/& ! causes ( drunk5ness1 z a physician und]/&s !m1 is n to be drunk4 ,a sci5ce might come to und]/& ev]y?+ ab\t ! causes & elem5ts ( religion1 & might ev5 decide :i* elem5ts 7 qualifi$1 by _! g5]al h>mony ) o!r bran*es ( k1 to be consid]$ true2 & yet ! be/ man at ?is sci5ce might be ! man :o f\nd x h>de/ to be p]sonally dev\t4 ,t\t savoir c'e/ t\t p>donn]4 ,! "n ( ,r5an w\ld d\btless occur to _m p]sons z an example ( ! way 9 :i* bread? ( k may make "o only a dilettante 9 possibilities1 & blunt ! acut5ess ( "o's liv+ fai?47#ccj7 ,if religion be a function by :i* ei!r ,god's cause or man's cause is to be really advanc$1 !n he :o lives ! life ( x1 h[ev] n>r[ly1 is a bett] s]vant ?an he :o m]ely kn[s ab\t x1 h[ev] mu*4 ,k ab\t life is "o ?+2 effective occupation ( a place 9 life1 ) its dynamic curr5ts pass+ ?r\gh y\r be+1 is ano!r4 ,= ?is reason1 ! sci5ce ( religions may n be an equival5t = liv+ religion2 & if we turn to ! inn] difficulties ( su* a sci5ce1 we see t a po9t comes :5 %e mu/ drop ! purely !oretic attitude1 & ei!r let h] knots rema9 uncut1 or h !m cut by active fai?4 ,to see ?is1 suppose t we h our sci5ce ( religions con/itut$ z a matt] ( fact4 ,suppose t %e has assimilat$ all ! necess>y hi/orical mat]ial & di/ill$ out ( x z its ess5ce ! same conclusions :i* ,i myself a few mom5ts ago pron\nc$4 ,suppose t %e agrees t religion1 :]ev] x is an active ?+1 involves a belief 9 ideal pres5ces1 & a belief t 9 our pray]ful communion ) !m17#cca7 "w is done1 & some?+ real comes to pass4 ,%e has n[ to ex]t h] critical activity1 & to decide h[ f>1 9 ! light ( o!r sci5ces & 9 t ( g5]al philosophy1 su* beliefs c be consid]$ true4 ,dogmatically to decide ?is is an impossible task4 ,n only are ! o!r sci5ces & ! philosophy /ill f> f be+ complet$1 b 9 _! pres5t /ate we f9d !m full ( conflicts4 ,! sci5ces ( nature "k no?+ ( spiritual pres5ces1 & on ! :ole hold no practical comm]ce :atev] ) ! ideali/ic conceptions t[>ds :i* g5]al philosophy incl9es4 ,! sci5ti/1 scall$1 is1 dur+ 8 sci5tific h\rs at lea/1 s mat]iali/ic t "o may well say t on ! :ole ! influ5ce ( sci5ce goes aga9/ ! notion t religion %\ld be recogniz$ at all4 ,& ?is antipa?y to religion f9ds an e*o )9 ! v sci5ce ( religions itself4 ,! cultivator ( ?is sci5ce has to become acqua9t$ ) s _m grovel+ & horrible sup]/itions t a presumption easily arises 9 8 m9d t any belief t is religi\s probably is false4 ,9 ! 8pray]ful communion0 ( savages ) su* mumbojumbos ( deities z !y ackn[l$ge1 x is h>d = u to see :at g5u9e spiritual "w--ev5 ?\gh x 7 "w relative only to _! d>k savage obligations--c possibly be done4 ,! consequ5ce is t ! conclusions ( ! sci5ce ( religions are z likely to be adv]se z !y are to be favorable to ! claim t ! ess5ce ( religion is true4 ,!re is a notion 9 ! air ab\t u t religion is probably only an ana*ronism1 a case ( 8survival10 an atavi/ic relapse into a mode ( ?\ght :i* humanity 9 its m enlight5$ examples has outgr[n2 & ?is notion our religi\s an?ropologi/s at pres5t d little to c\nt]act4 ,?is view is s widespread at ! pres5t day t ,i mu/ consid] x ) "s explicitness be=e ,i pass to my own conclusions4 ,let me call x ! 8,survival !ory10 = brevity's sake4 ,! pivot r\nd :i* ! religi\s life1 z we h trac$ x1 revolves1 is ! int]e/ ( ! individual 9 8 private p]sonal de/9y4 ,religion1 9 %ort1 is a monum5tal *apt] 9 ! hi/ory ( human egotism4 ,! gods believ$ 9--:e!r by crude savages or by m5 discipl9$ intellectually--agree ) ea* o!r 9 recogniz+ p]sonal calls4 ,religi\s ?\ght is c>ri$ on 9 t]ms ( p]sonality1 ?is be+1 9 ! _w ( religion1 ! "o fundam5tal fact4 ,today1 q z mu* z at any previ\s age1 ! religi\s individual tells y t ! div9e meets him on ! basis ( 8 p]sonal conc]ns4 ,sci5ce1 on ! o!r h&1 has end$ by utt]ly repudiat+ ! p]sonal po9t ( view4 ,%e catalogues h] elem5ts & records h] laws indiff]5t z to :at purpose may be %[n =? by !m1 & con/ructs h] !ories q c>eless ( _! be>+ on human anxieties & fates4 ,?\gh ! sci5ti/ may individually n\ri% a religion1 & be a !i/ 9 8 irresponsible h\rs1 ! days are ov] :5 x c\ld be said t = ,sci5ce h]self ! heav5s decl>e ! glory ( ,god & ! firmam5t %[e? 8 h&iwork4 ,our sol> sy/em1 ) its h>monies1 is se5 n[ z b "o pass+ case ( a c]ta9 sort ( mov+ equilibrium 9 ! heav5s1 realiz$ by a local accid5t 9 an appall+ wild]ness ( worlds :]e no life c exi/4 ,9 a span ( "t :i* z a cosmic int]val w c\nt b z an h\r1 x w h ceas$ to be4 ,! ,d>w9ian notion ( *ance production1 & subsequ5t de/ruction1 spe$y or def]r$1 applies to ! l>ge/ z well z to ! smalle/ facts4 ,x is impossible1 9 ! pres5t temp] ( ! sci5tific imag9ation1 to f9d 9 ! drift+s ( ! cosmic atoms1 :e!r !y "w on ! univ]sal or on ! p>ticul> scale1 any?+ b a k9d ( aimless wea!r1 do+ & undo+1 a*iev+ no prop] hi/ory1 & leav+ no result4 ,nature has no "o di/+ui%able ultimate t5d5cy ) :i* x is possible to feel a sympa?y4 ,9 ! va/ rhy?m ( h] processes1 z ! sci5tific m9d n[ foll[s !m1 %e appe>s to cancel h]self4 ,! books ( natural !ology :i* satisfi$ ! intellects ( our gr&fa!rs seem to u q grotesque17#ccb7 repres5t+1 z !y did1 a ,god :o con=m$ ! l>ge/ ?+s ( nature to ! paltrie/ ( our private wants4 ,! ,god :om sci5ce recognizes mu/ be a ,god ( univ]sal laws exclusively1 a ,god :o does a :olesale1 n a retail bus9ess4 ,he _c accommodate 8 processes to ! conv5i5ce ( individuals4 ,! bubbles on ! foam :i* coats a /ormy sea are float+ episodes1 made & unmade by ! =ces ( ! w9d & wat]4 ,our private selves are l ^? bubbles1--epiph5om5a1 z ,clif=d1 ,i believe1 +5i\sly call$ !m2 _! de/9ies weigh no?+ & det]m9e no?+ 9 ! _w's irrem$iable curr5ts ( ev5ts4 ,y see h[ natural x is1 f ?is po9t ( view1 to treat religion z a m]e survival1 = religion does 9 fact p]petuate ! traditions ( ! mo/ primeval ?\ght4 ,to co]ce ! spiritual p[]s1 or to squ>e !m & get !m on our side1 01 dur+ enorm\s tracts ( "t1 ! "o great object 9 our deal+s ) ! natural _w4 ,= our ance/ors1 dreams1 halluc9ations1 revelations1 & cock&bull /ories 7 inextricably mix$ ) facts4 ,up to a comp>atively rec5t date su* di/9ctions z ^? betwe5 :at has be5 v]ifi$ & :at is only conjectur$1 betwe5 ! imp]sonal & ! p]sonal aspects ( exi/5ce1 7 h>dly suspect$ or conceiv$4 ,:atev] y imag9$ 9 a lively mann]1 :atev] y ?\ght fit to be true1 y affirm$ confid5tly2 & :atev] y affirm$1 y\r comrades believ$4 ,tru? 0 :at _h n yet be5 contradict$1 mo/ ?+s 7 tak5 into ! m9d f ! po9t ( view ( _! human sugge/iv5ess1 & ! att5tion conf9$ itself exclusively to ! /hetic & dramatic aspects ( ev5ts47#ccc7 ,h[ inde$ c\ld x be o!rwise8 ,! extraord9>y value1 = explanation & prevision1 ( ^? ma!matical & me*anical modes ( conception :i* sci5ce uses1 0 a result t c\ld n possibly h be5 expect$ 9 advance4 ,weight1 movem5t1 velocity1 direction1 position1 :at ?91 pallid1 un9t]e/+ ideas6 ,h[ c\ld ! ri*] animi/ic aspects ( ,nature1 ! peculi>ities & oddities t make ph5om5a picturesquely /rik+ or expressive1 fail to h be5 fir/ s+l$ out & foll[$ by philosophy z ! m promis+ av5ue to ! k ( ,nature's life8 ,well1 x is /ill 9 ^! ri*] animi/ic & dramatic aspects t religion delights to dwell4 ,x is ! t]ror & beauty ( ph5om5a1 ! 8promise0 ( ! dawn & ( ! ra9b[1 ! 8voice0 ( ! ?und]1 ! 8g5tl5ess0 ( ! summ] ra91 ! 8sublimity0 ( ! />s1 & n ! physical laws :i* ^! ?+s foll[1 by :i* ! religi\s m9d /ill cont9ues to be mo/ impress$2 & j z ( yore1 ! dev\t man tells y t 9 ! solitude ( 8 room or ( ! fields he /ill feels ! div9e pres5ce1 t infl[+s ( help come 9 reply to 8 pray]s1 & t sacrifices to ?is unse5 reality fill him ) security & peace4 ,pure ana*ronism6 says ! survival!ory2--ana*ronism = :i* dean?ropomorphization ( ! imag9ation is ! rem$y requir$4 ,! less we mix ! private ) ! cosmic1 ! m we dwell 9 univ]sal & imp]sonal t]ms1 ! tru] heirs ( ,sci5ce we become4 ,9 spite ( ! appeal :i* ?is imp]sonality ( ! sci5tific attitude makes to a c]ta9 magnanimity ( temp]1 ,i believe x to be %all[1 & ,i c n[ /ate my reason 9 comp>atively few words4 ,t reason is t1 s long z we deal ) ! cosmic & ! g5]al1 we deal only ) ! symbols ( reality1 b z soon z we deal ) private & p]sonal ph5om5a z su*1 we deal ) realities 9 ! complete/ s5se ( ! t]m4 ,i ?9k ,i c easily make cle> :at ,i mean by ^! words4 ,! _w ( our exp]i5ce consi/s at all times ( two p>ts1 an objective & a subjective "p1 ( :i* ! =m] may be incalculably m ext5sive ?an ! latt]1 & yet ! latt] c nev] be omitt$ or suppress$4 ,! objective "p is ! sum total ( :atsoev] at any giv5 "t we may be ?9k+ (1 ! subjective "p is ! inn] 8/ate0 9 :i* ! ?9k+ comes to pass4 ,:at we ?9k ( may be enorm\s1--! cosmic times & spaces1 = example1--:]eas ! inn] /ate may be ! mo/ fugitive & paltry activity ( m9d4 ,yet ! cosmic objects1 s f> z ! exp]i5ce yields !m1 are b ideal pictures ( some?+ ^: exi/5ce we d n inw>dly possess b only po9t at outw>dly1 :ile ! inn] /ate is our v exp]i5ce itself2 its reality & t ( our exp]i5ce are "o4 ,a consci\s field plus its object z felt or ?\ght ( plus an attitude t[>ds ! object plus ! s5se ( a self to :om ! attitude belongs--su* a concrete bit ( p]sonal exp]i5ce may be a small bit1 b x is a solid bit z long z x la/s2 n holl[1 n a m]e ab/ract elem5t ( exp]i5ce1 su* z ! 8object0 is :5 tak5 all alone4 ,x is a full fact1 ev5 ?\gh x be an insignificant fact2 x is ( ! k9d to :i* all realities :atsoev] mu/ belong2 ! motor curr5ts ( ! _w run ?r\gh ! l ( x2 x is on ! l9e connect+ real ev5ts ) real ev5ts4 ,t un%>able feel+ :i* ea* "o ( u has ( ! p9* ( 8 individual de/9y z he privately feels x roll+ out on =tune's :eel may be disp>ag$ = its egotism1 may be sne]$ at z unsci5tific1 b x is ! "o ?+ t fills up ! measure ( our concrete actuality1 & any w\ldbe exi/5t t %\ld lack su* a feel+1 or its analogue1 w\ld be a piece ( reality only half made up47#ccd7 ,if ?is be true1 x is absurd = sci5ce to say t ! egoti/ic elem5ts ( exp]i5ce %\ld be suppress$4 ,! axis ( reality runs solely ?r\gh ! egoti/ic places1--!y are /rung ^u x l s _m beads4 ,to describe ! _w ) all ! v>i\s feel+s ( ! individual p9* ( de/9y1 all ! v>i\s spiritual attitudes1 left out f ! description--!y be+ z describable z any?+ else--w\ld be some?+ l (f]+ a pr9t$ bill ( f>e z ! equival5t = a solid meal4 ,religion makes no su* blund]4 ,! individual's religion may be egoti/ic1 & ^? private realities :i* x keeps 9 t\* ) may be n>r[ en\gh2 b at any rate x always rema9s inf9itely less holl[ & ab/ract1 z f> z x goes1 ?an a sci5ce :i* prides itself on tak+ no acc\nt ( any?+ private at all4 ,a bill ( f>e ) "o real rais9 on x in/ead ( ! ^w 8rais910 ) "o real egg in/ead ( ! ^w 8egg10 might be an inadequate meal1 b x w\ld at lea/ be a comm5cem5t ( reality4 ,! cont5tion ( ! survival!ory t we ought to /ick to nonp]sonal elem5ts exclusively seems l say+ t we ought to be satisfi$ =ev] ) read+ ! nak$ bill ( f>e4 ,i ?9k1 !re=e1 t h[ev] p>ticul> que/ions connect$ ) our individual de/9ies may be answ]$1 x is only by ackn[l$g+ !m z g5u9e que/ions1 & liv+ 9 ! sph]e ( ?\ght :i* !y op5 up1 t we become pr(\nd4 ,b to live ?us is to be religi\s2 s ,i unhesitat+ly repudiate ! survival!ory ( religion1 z be+ f\nd$ on an egregi\s mi/ake4 ,x does n foll[1 because our ance/ors made s _m errors ( fact & mix$ !m ) _! religion1 t we %\ld !re=e leave (f be+ religi\s at all47#cce7 ,by be+ religi\s we e/abli% ourselves 9 possession ( ultimate reality at ! only po9ts at :i* reality is giv5 u to gu>d4 ,our responsible conc]n is ) our private de/9y1 aft] all4 ,y see n[ :y ,i h be5 s individuali/ic ?r\gh\t ^! lectures1 & :y ,i h seem$ s b5t on rehabilitat+ ! elem5t ( feel+ 9 religion & subord9at+ its intellectual "p4 ,individuality is f\nd$ 9 feel+2 & ! recesses ( feel+1 ! d>k]1 bl9d] /rata ( "*1 are ! only places 9 ! _w 9 :i* we cat* real fact 9 ! mak+1 & directly p]ceive h[ ev5ts happ51 & h[ "w is actually done47#ccf7 ,comp>$ ) ?is _w ( liv+ individualiz$ feel+s1 ! _w ( g5]aliz$ objects :i* ! intellect contemplates is )\t solidity or life4 ,z 9 /]eoscopic or k9etoscopic pictures se5 outside ! in/rum5t1 ! ?ird dim5sion1 ! movem5t1 ! vital elem5t1 are n !re4 ,we get a beautiful picture ( an express tra9 suppos$ to be mov+1 b :]e 9 ! picture1 z ,i h he>d a fri5d say1 is ! en]gy or ! fifty miles an h\r87#ccg7 ,let u agree1 !n1 t ,religion1 occupy+ h]self ) p]sonal de/9ies & keep+ ?us 9 contact ) ! only absolute realities :i* we "k1 mu/ necess>ily play an et]nal "p 9 human hi/ory4 ,! next ?+ to decide is :at %e reveals ab\t ^? de/9ies1 or :e!r inde$ %e reveals any?+ di/9ct en\gh to be consid]$ a g5]al message to mank9d4 ,we h done z y see1 ) our prelim9>ies1 & our f9al summ+ up c n[ beg94 ,i am well aw>e t aft] all ! palpitat+ docum5ts :i* ,i h quot$1 & all ! p]spectives ( emotioninspir+ in/itution & belief t my previ\s lectures h op5$1 ! dry analysis to :i* ,i n[ advance may appe> to _m ( y l an anticlimax1 a tap]+(f & flatt5+ out ( ! subject1 in/ead ( a cresc5do ( int]e/ & result4 ,i said a:ile ago t ! religi\s attitude ( ,prote/ants appe>s pov]ty/rick5 to ! ,ca?olic imag9ation4 ,/ill m pov]ty /rick51 ,i fe>1 may my f9al summ+ up ( ! subject appe> at fir/ to "s ( y4 ,on :i* acc\nt ,i pray y n[ to be> ?is po9t 9 m9d1 t 9 ! pres5t "p ( x ,i am expressly try+ to r$uce religion to its l[e/ admissible t]ms1 to t m9imum1 free f individuali/ic excresc5ces1 :i* all religions conta9 z _! nucleus1 & on :i* x may be hop$ t all religi\s p]sons may agree4 ,t e/abli%$1 we %\ld h a result :i* might be small1 b w\ld at lea/ be solid2 & on x & r\nd x ! ruddi] additional beliefs on :i* ! diff]5t individuals make _! v5ture might be graft$1 & fl\ri% z ri*ly z y please4 ,i %all add my own ov] belief 7:i* w be1 ,i confess1 ( a some:at pallid k9d1 z befits a critical philosoph]71 & y w1 ,i hope1 also add y\r ov]beliefs1 & we %all soon be 9 ! v>i$ _w ( concrete religi\s con/ructions once m4 ,= ! mom5t1 let me dryly pursue ! analytic "p ( ! task4 ,bo? ?\ght & feel+ are det]m9ants ( conduct1 & ! same conduct may be det]m9$ ei!r by feel+ or by ?\ght4 ,:5 we survey ! :ole field ( religion1 we f9d a great v>iety 9 ! ?\ghts t h prevail$ !re2 b ! feel+s on ! "o h& & ! conduct on ! o!r are almo/ always ! same1 = ,/oic1 ,*ri/ian1 & ,buddhi/ sa9ts are practically indi/+ui%able 9 _! lives4 ,! !ories :i* ,religion g5]ates1 be+ ?us v>iable1 are second>y2 & if y wi% to grasp h] ess5ce1 y mu/ look to ! feel+s & ! conduct z be+ ! m con/ant elem5ts4 ,x is betwe5 ^! two elem5ts t ! %ort circuit exi/s on :i* %e c>ries on h] pr9cipal bus9ess1 :ile ! ideas & symbols & o!r in/itutions =m loopl9es :i* may be p]fections & improvem5ts1 & may ev5 "s day all be unit$ into "o h>moni\s sy/em1 b :i* are n to be reg>d$ z organs ) an indisp5sable function1 necess>y at all times = religi\s life to g on4 ,?is seems to me ! fir/ conclusion :i* we are entitl$ to draw f ! ph5om5a we h pass$ 9 review4 ,! next /ep is to *>act]ize ! feel+s4 ,to :at psy*ological ord] d !y belong8 ,! resultant outcome ( !m is 9 any case :at ,kant calls a 8/h5ic0 affection1 an excitem5t ( ! *e]ful1 expansive1 8dynamog5ic0 ord] :i*1 l any tonic1 fre%5s our vital p[]s4 ,9 almo/ e lecture1 b especially 9 ! lectures on ,conv]sion & on ,sa9tl9ess1 we h se5 h[ ?is emotion ov]comes temp]am5tal melan*oly & imp>ts endurance to ! ,subject1 or a ze/1 or a mean+1 or an en*antm5t & glory to ! common objects ( life47#cch7 ,! "n ( 8fai?/ate10 by :i* ,pr(essor ,leuba designates x1 is a good "o47#cci7 ,x is a biological z well z a psy*ological condition1 & ,tol/oy is absolutely accurate 9 class+ fai? among ! =ces by :i* m5 live47#cdj7 ,! total abs5ce ( x1 anh$onia17#cda7 means collapse4 ,! fai?/ate may hold a v m9imum ( intellectual cont5t4 ,we saw examples ( ?is 9 ^? sudd5 raptures ( ! div9e pres5ce1 or 9 su* my/ical seizures z ,dr4 ,bucke describ$47#cdb7 ,x may be a m]e vague en?usiasm1 half spiritual1 half vital1 a c\rage1 & a feel+ t great & wondr\s ?+s are 9 ! air47#cdc7 ,:51 h[ev]1 a positive intellectual cont5t is associat$ ) a fai? /ate1 x gets inv9cibly /amp$ 9 ^u belief17#cdd7 & ?is expla9s ! passionate loyalty ( religi\s p]sons ev]y:]e to ! m9ute/ details ( _! s widely diff]+ cre$s4 ,tak+ cre$s & fai?/ate toge!r1 z =m+ 8religions10 & treat+ ^! z purely subjective ph5om5a1 )\t reg>d to ! "q ( _! 8tru?10 we are oblig$1 on acc\nt ( _! extraord9>y influ5ce ^u action & endurance1 to class !m among/ ! mo/ important biological functions ( mank9d4 ,_! /imulant & an/hetic effect is s great t ,pr(essor ,leuba1 9 a rec5t article17#cde7 goes s f> z to say t s long z m5 c use _! ,god1 !y c>e v little :o he is1 or ev5 :e!r he is at all4 8,! tru? ( ! matt] c be put10 says ,leuba1 89 ?is way3 ,god is n kn[n1 he is n und]/ood2 he is us$--sometimes z meatpurveyor1 sometimes z moral support1 sometimes z fri5d1 sometimes z an object ( love4 ,if he proves himself useful1 ! religi\s consci\sness asks = no m ?an t4 ,does ,god really exi/8 ,h[ does he exi/8 ,:at is he8 are s _m irrelevant que/ions4 ,n ,god1 b life1 m life1 a l>g]1 ri*]1 m satisfy+ life1 is1 9 ! la/ analysis1 ! end ( religion4 ,! love ( life1 at any & e level ( developm5t1 is ! religi\s impulse407#cdf7 ,at ?is purely subjective rat+1 !re=e1 ,religion mu/ be consid]$ v9dicat$ 9 a c]ta9 way f ! attacks ( h] critics4 ,x w\ld seem t %e _c be a m]e ana*ronism & survival1 b mu/ ex]t a p]man5t function1 :e!r %e be ) or )\t intellectual cont5t1 & :e!r1 if %e h any1 x be true or false4 ,we mu/ next pass beyond ! po9t ( view ( m]ely subjective utility1 & make inquiry into ! intellectual cont5t itself4 ,fir/1 is !re1 "u all ! discrepancies ( ! cre$s1 a common nucleus to :i* !y be> _! te/imony unanim\sly8 ,& second1 ought we to consid] ! te/imony true8 ,i w take up ! fir/ "q fir/1 & answ] x imm$iately 9 ! affirmative4 ,! w>r+ gods & =mulas ( ! v>i\s religions d inde$ cancel ea* o!r1 b !re is a c]ta9 uni=m deliv]ance 9 :i* religions all appe> to meet4 ,x consi/s ( two p>ts3-- #a4 ,an uneas9ess2 & #b4 ,its solution4 #a4 ,! uneas9ess1 r$uc$ to its simple/ t]ms1 is a s5se t !re is some?+ wrong ab\t u z we naturally /&4 #b4 ,! solution is a s5se t we are sav$ f ! wrongness by mak+ prop] connection ) ! high] p[]s4 ,9 ^? m develop$ m9ds :i* alone we are /udy+1 ! wrongness takes a moral "*1 & ! salvation takes a my/ical t+e4 ,i ?9k we %all keep well )9 ! limits ( :at is common to all su* m9ds if we =mulate ! ess5ce ( _! religi\s exp]i5ce 9 t]ms l ^!3-- ,! individual1 s f> z he suff]s f 8 wrongness & criticises x1 is to t ext5t consci\sly beyond x1 & 9 at lea/ possible t\* ) some?+ high]1 if any?+ high] exi/4 ,along ) ! wrong "p !re is ?us a bett] "p ( him1 ev5 ?\gh x may be b a mo/ helpless g]m4 ,) :i* "p he %\ld id5tify 8 real be+ is by no means obvi\s at ?is /age2 b :5 /age #b 7! /age ( solution or salvation7 arrives17#cdg7 ! man id5tifies 8 real be+ ) ! g]m9al high] "p ( himself2 & does s 9 ! foll[+ way4 ,he becomes consci\s t ?is high] "p is cont]m9\s & cont9u\s ) a ,,m ( ! same quality1 :i* is op]ative 9 ! univ]se outside ( him1 & :i* he c keep 9 work+ t\* )1 & 9 a fa%ion get on bo>d ( & save himself :5 all 8 l[] be+ has gone to pieces 9 ! wreck4 ,x seems to me t all ! ph5om5a are accurately describable 9 ^! v simple g5]al t]ms47#cdh7 ,!y all[ = ! divid$ self & ! /ruggle2 !y involve ! *ange ( p]sonal c5tre & ! surr5d] ( ! l[] self2 !y express ! appe>ance ( ext]iority ( ! help+ p[] & yet acc\nt = our s5se ( union ) x27#cdi7 & !y fully ju/ify our feel+s ( security & joy4 ,!re is probably no autobiographic docum5t1 among all ^? :i* ,i h quot$1 to :i* ! description w n well apply4 ,"o ne$ only add su* specific details z w adapt x to v>i\s !ologies & v>i\s p]sonal temp]am5ts1 & "o w !n h ! v>i\s exp]i5ces recon/ruct$ 9 _! individual =ms4 ,s f>1 h[ev]1 z ?is analysis goes1 ! exp]i5ces are only psy*ological ph5om5a4 ,!y possess1 x is true1 enorm\s biological wor?4 ,spiritual /r5g? really increases 9 ! subject :5 he has !m1 a new life op5s = him1 & !y seem to him a place ( conflux :]e ! =ces ( two univ]ses meet2 & yet ?is may be no?+ b 8 subjective way ( feel+ ?+s1 a mood ( 8 own fancy1 9 spite ( ! effects produc$4 ,i n[ turn to my second "q3 ,:at is ! objective 8tru?0 ( _! cont5t87#cej7 ,! "p ( ! cont5t conc]n+ :i* ! "q ( tru? mo/ p]t95tly arises is t 8,,m ( ! same quality0 ) :i* our own high] self appe>s 9 ! exp]i5ce to come into h>moni\s work+ relation4 ,is su* a 8m0 m]ely our own notion1 or does x really exi/8 ,if s1 9 :at %ape does x exi/8 ,does x act1 z well z exi/8 ,& 9 :at =m %\ld we conceive ( t 8union0 ) x ( :i* religi\s g5iuses are s conv9c$8 ,x is 9 answ]+ ^! que/ions t ! v>i\s !ologies p]=m _! !oretic "w1 & t _! div]g5cies mo/ come to light4 ,!y all agree t ! 8m0 really exi/s2 ?\gh "s ( !m hold x to exi/ 9 ! %ape ( a p]sonal god or gods1 :ile o!rs are satisfi$ to conceive x z a /ream ( ideal t5d5cy emb$d$ 9 ! et]nal /ructure ( ! _w4 ,!y all agree1 moreov]1 t x acts z well z exi/s1 & t some?+ really is effect$ = ! bett] :5 y ?r[ y\r life into its h&s4 ,x is :5 !y treat ( ! exp]i5ce ( 8union0 ) x t _! speculative diff]5ces appe> mo/ cle>ly4 ,ov] ?is po9t pan!ism & !ism1 nature & second bir?1 works & grace & k>ma1 immortality & re9c>nation1 rationalism & my/icism1 c>ry on invet]ate disputes4 ,at ! end ( my lecture on ,philosophy7#cea7 ,i held out ! notion t an imp>tial sci5ce ( religions might sift out f ! mid/ ( _! discrepancies a common body ( doctr9e :i* %e might also =mulate 9 t]ms to :i* physical sci5ce ne$ n object4 ,?is1 ,i said1 %e might adopt z h] own reconcil+ hypo!sis1 & recomm5d x = g5]al belief4 ,i also said t 9 my la/ lecture ,i %\ld h to try my own h& at fram+ su* an hypo!sis4 ,! "t has n[ come = ?is attempt4 ,:o says 8hypo!sis0 r5\nces ! ambition to be co]cive 9 8 argum5ts4 ,! mo/ ,i c d is1 accord+ly1 to (f] some?+ t may fit ! facts s easily t y\r sci5tific logic w f9d no plausible pretext = veto+ y\r impulse to welcome x z true4 ,! 8m10 z we call$ x1 & ! mean+ ( our 8union0 ) x1 =m ! nucleus ( our inquiry4 ,into :at def9ite description c ^! words be translat$1 & = :at def9ite facts d !y /&8 ,x w\ld nev] d = u to place ourselves (fh& at ! position ( a p>ticul> !ology1 ! ,*ri/ian !ology1 = example1 & proce$ imm$iately to def9e ! 8m0 z ,jehovah1 & ! 8union0 z 8 imputation to u ( ! righte\sness ( ,*ri/4 ,t w\ld be unfair to o!r religions1 &1 f our pres5t /&po9t at lea/1 w\ld be an ov]belief4 ,we mu/ beg9 by us+ less p>ticul>iz$ t]ms2 &1 s9ce "o ( ! duties ( ! sci5ce ( religions is to keep religion 9 connection ) ! re/ ( sci5ce1 we %all d well to seek fir/ ( all a way ( describ+ ! 8m10 :i* psy*ologi/s may also recognize z real4 ,! subconsci\s self is n[adays a wellaccr$it$ psy*ological entity2 & ,i believe t 9 x we h exactly ! m$iat+ t]m requir$4 ,ap>t f all religi\s consid]ations1 !re is actually & lit]ally m life 9 our total s\l ?an we are at any "t aw>e (4 ,! exploration ( ! transm>g9al field has h>dly yet be5 s]i\sly und]tak51 b :at ,mr4 ,my]s said 9 #ahib 9 8 essay on ! ,sublim9al ,consci\sness7#ceb7 is z true z :5 x 0 fir/ writt53 8,ea* ( u is 9 reality an abid+ psy*ical entity f> m ext5sive ?an he kn[s--an individuality :i* c nev] express itself completely ?r\gh any corporeal manife/ation4 ,! ,self manife/s ?r\gh ! organism2 b !re is always "s "p ( ! ,self unmanife/$2 & always1 z x seems1 "s p[] ( organic expression 9 abeyance or res]ve407#cec7 ,mu* ( ! cont5t ( ?is l>g] backgr\nd aga9/ :i* our consci\s be+ /&s out 9 relief is insignificant4 ,imp]fect memories1 silly j+les1 inhibitive timidities1 8dissolutive0 ph5om5a ( v>i\s sorts1 z ,my]s calls !m1 ent] into x = a l>ge "p4 ,b 9 x _m ( ! p]=mances ( g5ius seem also to h _! orig92 & 9 our /udy ( conv]sion1 ( my/ical exp]i5ces1 & ( pray]1 we h se5 h[ /rik+ a "p invasions f ?is region play 9 ! religi\s life4 ,let me !n propose1 z an hypo!sis1 t :atev] x may be on its f>!r side1 ! 8m0 ) :i* 9 religi\s exp]i5ce we feel ourselves connect$ is on its hi!r side ! subconsci\s cont9uation ( our consci\s life4 ,/>t+ ?us ) a recogniz$ psy*ological fact z our basis1 we seem to pres]ve a contact ) 8sci5ce0 :i* ! ord9>y !ologian lacks4 ,at ! same "t ! !ologian's cont5tion t ! religi\s man is mov$ by an ext]nal p[] is v9dicat$1 = x is "o ( ! peculi>ities ( invasions f ! subconsci\s region to take on objective appe>ances1 & to sugge/ to ! ,subject an ext]nal control4 ,9 ! religi\s life ! control is felt z 8high]02 b s9ce on our hypo!sis x is prim>ily ! high] faculties ( our own hidd5 m9d :i* are controll+1 ! s5se ( union ) ! p[] beyond u is a s5se ( some?+1 n m]ely app>5tly1 b lit]ally true4 ,?is doorway into ! subject seems to me ! be/ "o = a sci5ce ( religions1 = x m$iates betwe5 a numb] ( diff]5t po9ts ( view4 ,yet x is only a doorway1 & difficulties pres5t !mselves z soon z we /ep ?r\gh x1 & ask h[ f> our transm>g9al consci\sness c>ries u if we foll[ x on its remot] side4 ,"h ! ov]beliefs beg93 "h my/icism & ! conv]sionrapture & ,v$antism & transc5d5tal idealism br+ 9 _! moni/ic int]pretations7#ced7 & tell u t ! f9ite self rejo9s ! absolute self1 = x 0 always "o ) ,god & id5tical ) ! s\l ( ! _w47#cee7 ,"h ! prophets ( all ! diff]5t religions come ) _! visions1 voices1 raptures1 & o!r op5+s1 suppos$ by ea* to au!nticate 8 own peculi> fai?4 ,^? ( u :o are n p]sonally favor$ ) su* specific revelations mu/ /& outside ( !m altoge!r &1 = ! pres5t at lea/1 decide t1 s9ce !y corroborate incompatible !ological doctr9es1 !y neutralize "o ano!r & leave no fix$ result4 ,if we foll[ any "o ( !m1 or if we foll[ philosophical !ory & embrace moni/ic pan!ism on nonmy/ical gr\nds1 we d s 9 ! ex]cise ( our individual fre$om1 & build out our religion 9 ! way mo/ congru\s ) our p]sonal susceptibilities4 ,among ^! susceptibilities intellectual ones play a decisive "p4 ,al?\gh ! religi\s "q is prim>ily a "q ( life1 ( liv+ or n liv+ 9 ! high] union :i* op5s itself to u z a gift1 yet ! spiritual excitem5t 9 :i* ! gift appe>s a real "o w (t5 fail to be ar\s$ 9 an individual until c]ta9 p>ticul> intellectual beliefs or ideas :i*1 z we say1 come home to him1 are t\*$47#cef7 ,^! ideas w ?us be ess5tial to t individual's religion2--:i* is z mu* z to say t ov]beliefs 9 v>i\s directions are absolutely indisp5sable1 & t we %\ld treat !m ) t5d]ness & tol]ance s long z !y are n intol]ant !mselves4 ,z ,i h else:]e writt51 ! mo/ int]e/+ & valuable ?+s ab\t a man are usually 8 ov]beliefs4 ,disreg>d+ ! ov]beliefs1 & conf9+ ourselves to :at is common & g5]ic1 we h 9 ! fact t ! consci\s p]son is cont9u\s ) a wid] self ?r\gh :i* sav+ exp]i5ces come17#ceg7 a positive cont5t ( religi\s exp]i5ce :i*1 x seems to me1 is lit]ally & objectively true z f> z x goes4 ,if ,i n[ proce$ to /ate my own hypo!sis ab\t ! f>!r limits ( ?is ext5sion ( our p]sonality1 ,i %all be (f]+ my own ov]belief--?\gh ,i "k x w appe> a sorry "ubelief to "s ( y--= :i* ,i c only bespeak ! same indulg5ce :i* 9 a conv]se case ,i %\ld accord to y\rs4 ,! fur!r limits ( our be+ plunge1 x seems to me1 into an altoge!r o!r dim5sion ( exi/5ce f ! s5sible & m]ely 8und]/&able0 _w4 ,"n x ! my/ical region1 or ! sup]natural region1 :i*ev] y *oose4 ,s f> z our ideal impulses orig9ate 9 ?is region 7& mo/ ( !m d orig9ate 9 x1 = we f9d !m possess+ u 9 a way = :i* we _c articulately acc\nt71 we belong to x 9 a m intimate s5se ?an t 9 :i* we belong to ! visible _w1 = we belong 9 ! mo/ intimate s5se :]ev] our ideals belong4 ,yet ! unse5 region 9 "q is n m]ely ideal1 = x produces effects 9 ?is _w4 ,:5 we commune ) x1 "w is actually done ^u our f9ite p]sonality1 = we are turn$ into new m51 & consequ5ces 9 ! way ( conduct foll[ 9 ! natural _w ^u our reg5]ative *ange47#ceh7 ,b t :i* produces effects )9 ano!r reality mu/ be t]m$ a reality itself1 s ,i feel z if we _h no philosophic excuse = call+ ! unse5 or my/ical _w unreal4 ,god is ! natural appellation1 = u ,*ri/ians at lea/1 = ! supreme reality1 s ,i w call ?is high] "p ( ! univ]se by ! "n ( ,god47#cei7 ,we & ,god h bus9ess ) ea* o!r2 & 9 op5+ ourselves to 8 influ5ce our deepe/ de/9y is fulfill$4 ,! univ]se1 at ^? p>ts ( x :i* our p]sonal be+ con/itutes1 takes a turn g5u9ely = ! worse or = ! bett] 9 proportion z ea* "o ( u fulfills or evades ,god's dem&s4 ,z f> z ?is goes ,i probably h y ) me1 = ,i only translate into s*ematic language :at ,i may call ! in/9ctive belief ( mank9d3 ,god is real s9ce he produces real effects4 ,! real effects 9 "q1 s f> z ,i h z yet admitt$ !m1 are ex]t$ on ! p]sonal c5tres ( en]gy ( ! v>i\s subjects1 b ! spontane\s fai? ( mo/ ( ! subjects is t !y embrace a wid] sph]e ?an ?is4 ,mo/ religi\s m5 believe 7or 8"k10 if !y be my/ical7 t n only !y !mselves1 b ! :ole univ]se ( be+s to :om ! ,god is pres5t1 are secure 9 8 p>5tal h&s4 ,!re is a s5se1 a dim5sion1 !y are sure1 9 :i* we are all sav$1 9 spite ( ! gates ( hell & all adv]se t]re/rial appe>ances4 ,god's exi/5ce is ! gu>antee ( an ideal ord] t %all be p]man5tly pres]v$4 ,?is _w may inde$1 z sci5ce assures u1 "s day burn up or freeze2 b if x is "p ( 8 ord]1 ! old ideals are sure to be br\ght else:]e to fruition1 s t :]e ,god is1 trag$y is only provisional & p>tial1 & %ipwreck & dissolution are n ! absolutely f9al ?+s4 ,only :5 ?is f>!r /ep ( fai? conc]n+ ,god is tak51 & remote objective consequ5ces are pr$ict$1 does religion1 z x seems to me1 get :olly free f ! fir/ imm$iate subjective exp]i5ce1 & br+ a real hypo!sis into play4 ,a good hypo!sis 9 sci5ce mu/ h o!r prop]ties ?an ^? ( ! ph5om5on x is imm$iately invok$ to expla91 o!rwise x is n prolific en\gh4 ,god1 mean+ only :at ent]s into ! religi\s man's exp]i5ce ( union1 falls %ort ( be+ an hypo!sis ( ?is m useful ord]4 ,he ne$s to ent] into wid] cosmic relations 9 ord] to ju/ify ! subject's absolute confid5ce & peace4 ,t ! ,god ) :om1 />t+ f ! hi!r side ( our own extra m>g9al self1 we come at its remot] m>g9 into comm]ce %\ld be ! absolute _wrul]1 is ( c\rse a v consid]able ov]belief4 ,ov] belief z x is1 ?\gh1 x is an article ( almo/ e "o's religion4 ,mo/ ( u pret5d 9 "s way to prop x ^u our philosophy1 b ! philosophy itself is really propp$ ^u ?is fai?4 ,:at is ?is b to say t ,religion1 9 h] fulle/ ex]cise ( function1 is n a m]e illum9ation ( facts already else:]e giv51 n a m]e passion1 l love1 :i* views ?+s 9 a rosi] light4 ,x is inde$ t1 z we h se5 abundantly4 ,b x is some?+ m1 namely1 a po/ulator ( new facts z well4 ,! _w int]pret$ religi\sly is n ! mat]iali/ic _w ov] aga91 ) an alt]$ expression2 x mu/ h1 ov] & above ! alt]$ expression1 a natural con/itution diff]5t at "s po9t f t :i* a mat]iali/ic _w w\ld h4 ,x mu/ be su* t diff]5t ev5ts c be expect$ 9 x1 diff]5t conduct mu/ be requir$4 ,?is ?or\ghly 8pragmatic0 view ( religion has usually be5 tak5 z a matt] ( c\rse by common m54 ,!y h int]polat$ div9e miracles into ! field ( nature1 !y h built a heav5 out beyond ! grave4 ,x is only transc5d5tali/ metaphysicians :o ?9k t1 )\t add+ any concrete details to ,nature1 or subtract+ any1 b by simply call+ x ! expression ( absolute _s1 y make x m div9e j z x /&s4 ,i believe ! pragmatic way ( tak+ religion to be ! deep] way4 ,x gives x body z well z s\l1 x makes x claim1 z ev]y?+ real mu/ claim1 "s *>act]i/ic realm ( fact z its v own4 ,:at ! m *>act]i/ically div9e facts are1 ap>t f ! actual infl[ ( en]gy 9 ! fai?/ate & ! pray]/ate1 ,i "k n4 ,b ! ov] belief on :i* ,i am ready to make my p]sonal v5ture is t !y exi/4 ,! :ole drift ( my education goes to p]suade me t ! _w ( our pres5t consci\sness is only "o out ( _m worlds ( consci\sness t exi/1 & t ^? o!r worlds mu/ conta9 exp]i5ces :i* h a mean+ = our life also2 & t al?\gh 9 ! ma9 _! exp]i5ces & ^? ( ?is _w keep discrete1 yet ! two become cont9u\s at c]ta9 po9ts1 & high] en]gies filt] 94 ,by be+ fai?ful 9 my poor measure to ?is ov]belief1 ,i seem to myself to keep m sane & true4 ,i c1 ( c\rse1 put myself into ! sect>ian sci5ti/'s attitude1 & imag9e vividly t ! _w ( s5sations & ( sci5tific laws & objects may be all4 ,b :5ev] ,i d ?is1 ,i he> t inw>d monitor ( :i* ,w4 ,k4 ,clif=d once wrote1 :isp]+ ! ^w 8bo%60 ,humbug is humbug1 ev5 ?\gh x be> ! sci5tific "n1 & ! total expression ( human exp]i5ce1 z ,i view x objectively1 inv9cibly urges me beyond ! n>r[ 8sci5tific0 b\nds4 ,assur$ly1 ! real _w is ( a diff]5t temp]am5t1--m intricately built ?an physical sci5ce all[s4 ,s my objective & my subjective consci5ce bo? hold me to ! ov]belief :i* ,i express4 ,:o kn[s :e!r ! fai?fulness ( individuals "h bel[ to _! own poor ov]beliefs may n actually help ,god 9 turn to be m effectively fai?ful to 8 own great] tasks8 ,,po/script4 ,9 writ+ my conclud+ lecture ,i _h to aim s mu* at simplification t ,i fe> t my g5]al philosophic position receiv$ s scant a /atem5t z h>dly to be intelligible to "s ( my read]s4 ,i !re=e add ?is epilogue1 :i* mu/ also be s brief z possibly to rem$y b little ! defect4 ,9 a lat] "w ,i may be enabl$ to /ate my position m amply & consequ5tly m cle>ly4 ,orig9ality _c be expect$ 9 a field l ?is1 :]e all ! attitudes & temp]s t are possible h be5 exhibit$ 9 lit]ature long ago1 & :]e any new writ] c imm$iately be class$ "u a famili> head4 ,if "o %\ld make a division ( all ?9k]s into naturali/s & sup]naturali/s1 ,i %\ld und\bt$ly h to g1 along ) mo/ philosoph]s1 into ! sup]naturali/ bran*4 ,b !re is a crass] & a m ref9$ sup]naturalism1 & x is to ! ref9$ division t mo/ philosoph]s at ! pres5t day belong4 ,if n regul> transc5d5tal ideali/s1 !y at lea/ obey ! ,kantian direction en\gh to b> out ideal entities f int]f]+ causally 9 ! c\rse ( ph5om5al ev5ts4 ,ref9$ sup]naturalism is univ]sali/ic sup]naturalism2 = ! 8crass]0 v>iety 8piecemeal0 sup]naturalism w\ld p]haps be ! bett] "n4 ,x w5t ) t old] !ology :i* today is suppos$ to reign only among un$ucat$ p1 or to be f\nd among ! few belat$ pr(essors ( ! dualisms :i* ,kant is ?\ght to h displac$4 ,x admits miracles & provid5tial lead+s1 & f9ds no intellectual difficulty 9 mix+ ! ideal & ! real worlds toge!r by int]polat+ influ5ces f ! ideal region among ! =ces t causally det]m9e ! real _w's details4 ,9 ?is ! ref9$ sup]naturali/s ?9k t x muddles disp>ate dim5sions ( exi/5ce4 ,= !m ! _w ( ! ideal has no effici5t causality1 & nev] bur/s into ! _w ( ph5om5a at p>ticul> po9ts4 ,! ideal _w1 = !m1 is n a _w ( facts1 b only ( ! mean+ ( facts2 x is a po9t ( view = judg+ facts4 ,x app]ta9s to a diff]5t 8ology10 & inhabits a diff]5t dim5sion ( be+ altoge!r f t 9 :i* exi/5tial propositions obta94 ,x _c get d[n ^u ! flat level ( exp]i5ce & int]polate itself piecemeal betwe5 di/9ct portions ( nature1 z ^? :o believe1 = example1 9 div9e aid com+ 9 response to pray]1 are b\nd to ?9k x mu/4 ,not)/&+ my own inability to accept ei!r popul> ,*ri/ianity or s*ola/ic !ism1 ,i suppose t my belief t 9 communion ) ! ,ideal new =ce comes into ! _w1 & new dep>tures are made "h bel[1 subjects me to be+ class$ among ! sup]naturali/s ( ! piecemeal or crass] type4 ,univ]sali/ic sup]naturalism surr5d]s1 x seems to me1 too easily to naturalism4 ,x takes ! facts ( physical sci5ce at _! facevalue1 & leaves ! laws ( life j z naturalism f9ds !m1 ) no hope ( rem$y1 9 case _! fruits are bad4 ,x conf9es itself to s5tim5ts ab\t life z a :ole1 s5tim5ts :i* may be admir+ & ador+1 b :i* ne$ n be s1 z ! exi/5ce ( sy/ematic pessimism proves4 ,9 ?is univ]sali/ic way ( tak+ ! ideal _w1 ! ess5ce ( practical religion seems to me to evaporate4 ,bo? in/9ctively & = logical reasons1 ,i f9d x h>d to believe t pr9ciples c exi/ :i* make no diff]5ce 9 facts47#cfj7 ,b all facts are p>ticul> facts1 & ! :ole int]e/ ( ! "q ( ,god's exi/5ce seems to me to lie 9 ! consequ5ces = p>ticul>s :i* t exi/5ce may be expect$ to entail4 ,t no concrete p>ticul> ( exp]i5ce %\ld alt] its complexion 9 consequ5ce ( a ,god be+ !re seems to me an incr$ible proposition1 & yet x is ! !sis to :i* 7implicitly at any rate7 ref9$ sup]naturalism seems to cl+4 ,x is only ) exp]i5ce en bloc1 x says1 t ! ,absolute ma9ta9s relations4 ,x condesc5ds to no transactions ( detail4 ,i am ignorant ( ,buddhism & speak "u correction1 & m]ely 9 ord] ! bett] to describe my g5]al po9t ( view2 b z ,i appreh5d ! ,buddhi/ic doctr9e ( ,k>ma1 ,i agree 9 pr9ciple ) t4 ,all sup]naturali/s admit t facts are "u ! judgm5t ( high] law2 b = ,buddhism z ,i int]pret x1 & = religion g5]ally s f> z x rema9s unweak5$ by transc5d5tali/ic metaphysics1 ! ^w 8judgm5t0 "h means no su* b>e academic v]dict or platonic appreciation z x means 9 ,v$antic or mod]n absoluti/ sy/ems2 x c>ries1 on ! contr>y1 execution ) x1 is 9 rebus z well z po/ rem1 & op]ates 8causally0 z p>tial factor 9 ! total fact4 ,! univ]se becomes a gno/icism7#cfa7 pure & simple on any o!r t]ms4 ,b ?is view t judgm5t & execution g toge!r is t ( ! crass] sup]naturali/ way ( ?9k+1 s ! pres5t volume mu/ on ! :ole be class$ ) ! o!r expressions ( t cre$4 ,i /ate ! matt] ?us bluntly1 because ! curr5t ( ?\ght 9 academic circles runs aga9/ me1 & ,i feel l a man :o mu/ set 8 back aga9/ an op5 door quickly if he does n wi% to see x clos$ & lock$4 ,9 spite ( its be+ s %ock+ to ! reign+ intellectual ta/es1 ,i believe t a c&id consid]ation ( piecemeal sup]naturalism & a complete discussion ( all its metaphysical be>+s w %[ x to be ! hypo!sis by :i* ! l>ge/ numb] ( legitimate requirem5ts are met4 ,t ( c\rse w\ld be a program = o!r books ?an ?is2 :at ,i n[ say suffici5tly indicates to ! philosophic read] ! place :]e ,i belong4 ,if ask$ j :]e ! diff]5ces 9 fact :i* are due to ,god's exi/5ce come 91 ,i %\ld h to say t 9 g5]al ,i h no hypo!sis to (f] beyond :at ! ph5om5on ( 8pray]ful communion10 especially :5 c]ta9 k9ds ( incursion f ! subconsci\s region take "p 9 x1 imm$iately sugge/s4 ,! appe>ance is t 9 ?is ph5om5on some?+ ideal1 :i* 9 "o s5se is "p ( ourselves & 9 ano!r s5se is n ourselves1 actually ex]ts an influ5ce1 raises our c5tre ( p]sonal en]gy1 & produces reg5]ative effects unatta9able 9 o!r ways4 ,if1 !n1 !re be a wid] _w ( be+ ?an t ( our eday consci\sness1 if 9 x !re be =ces ^: effects on u are int]mitt5t1 if "o facilitat+ condition ( ! effects be ! op5ness ( ! 8sublim9al0 door1 we h ! elem5ts ( a !ory to :i* ! ph5om5a ( religi\s life l5d plausibility4 ,i am s impress$ by ! importance ( ^! ph5om5a t ,i adopt ! hypo!sis :i* !y s naturally sugge/4 ,at ^! places at lea/1 ,i say1 x w\ld seem z ?\gh transmundane en]gies1 ,god1 if y w1 produc$ imm$iate effects )9 ! natural _w to :i* ! re/ ( our exp]i5ce belongs4 ,! diff]5ce 9 natural 8fact0 :i* mo/ ( u w\ld assign z ! fir/ diff]5ce :i* ! exi/5ce ( a ,god ought to make w\ld1 ,i imag9e1 be p]sonal immortality4 ,religion1 9 fact1 = ! great majority ( our own race means immortality1 & no?+ else4 ,god is ! produc] ( immortality2 & :oev] has d\bts ( immortality is writt5 d[n z an a!i/ )\t f>!r trial4 ,i h said no?+ 9 my lectures ab\t immortality or ! belief !re91 = to me x seems a second>y po9t4 ,if our ideals are only c>$ = 9 8et]nity10 ,i d n see :y we might n be will+ to resign _! c>e to o!r h&s ?an ours4 ,yet ,i sympa?ize ) ! urg5t impulse to be pres5t ourselves1 & 9 ! conflict ( impulses1 bo? ( !m s vague yet bo? ( !m noble1 ,i "k n h[ to decide4 ,x seems to me t x is em95tly a case = facts to te/ify4 ,facts1 ,i ?9k1 are yet lack+ to prove 8_sreturn10 ?\gh ,i h ! highe/ respect = ! pati5t labors ( ,messrs4 ,my]s1 ,hodgson1 & ,hyslop1 & am some:at impress$ by _! favorable conclusions4 ,i consequ5tly leave ! matt] op51 ) ?is brief ^w to save ! read] f a possible p]plexity z to :y immortality got no m5tion 9 ! body ( ?is book4 ,! ideal p[] ) :i* we feel ourselves 9 connection1 ! 8,god0 ( ord9>y m51 is1 bo? by ord9>y m5 & by philosoph]s1 end[$ ) c]ta9 ( ^? metaphysical attributes :i* 9 ! lecture on philosophy ,i treat$ ) su* disrespect4 ,he is assum$ z a matt] ( c\rse to be 8"o & only0 & to be 8inf9ite02 & ! notion ( _m f9ite gods is "o :i* h>dly any "o ?9ks x wor? :ile to consid]1 & /ill less to uphold4 ,nev]!less1 9 ! int]e/s ( intellectual cle>ness1 ,i feel b\nd to say t religi\s exp]i5ce1 z we h /udi$ x1 _c be cit$ z unequivocally support+ ! inf9iti/ belief4 ,! only ?+ t x unequivocally te/ifies to is t we c exp]i5ce union ) some?+ l>g] ?an ourselves & 9 t union f9d our greate/ peace4 ,philosophy1 ) its passion = unity1 & my/icism ) its monoidei/ic b5t1 bo? 8pass to ! limit0 & id5tify ! some?+ ) a unique ,god :o is ! allinclusive s\l ( ! _w4 ,popul> op9ion1 respectful to _! au?ority1 foll[s ! example :i* !y set4 ,mean:ile ! practical ne$s & exp]i5ces ( religion seem to me suffici5tly met by ! belief t beyond ea* man & 9 a fa%ion cont9u\s ) him !re exi/s a l>g] p[] :i* is fri5dly to him & to 8 ideals4 ,all t ! facts require is t ! p[] %\ld be bo? o!r & l>g] ?an our consci\s selves4 ,any?+ l>g] w d1 if only x be l>ge en\gh to tru/ = ! next /ep4 ,x ne$ n be inf9ite1 x ne$ n be solit>y4 ,x might conceivably ev5 be only a l>g] & m godlike self1 ( :i* ! pres5t self w\ld !n be b ! mutilat$ expression1 & ! univ]se might conceivably be a collection ( su* selves1 ( diff]5t degrees ( inclusiv5ess1 ) no absolute unity realiz$ 9 x at all47#cfb7 ,?us w\ld a sort ( poly!ism return ^u u--a poly!ism :i* ,i d n on ?is occasion def5d1 = my only aim at pres5t is to keep ! te/imony ( religi\s exp]i5ce cle>ly )9 its prop] b\nds4 ,comp>e p4 #acb above4 ,uphold]s ( ! moni/ic view w say to su* a poly!ism 7:i*1 by ! way1 has always be5 ! real religion ( common p1 & is s /ill today7 t unless !re be "o allinclusive ,god1 our gu>antee ( security is left imp]fect4 ,9 ! ,absolute1 & 9 ! ,absolute only1 all is sav$4 ,if !re be diff]5t gods1 ea* c>+ = 8 "p1 "s portion ( "s ( u might n be cov]$ ) div9e protection1 & our religi\s consolation w\ld ?us fail to be complete4 ,x goes back to :at 0 said on pages #acaacc1 ab\t ! possibility ( !re be+ portions ( ! univ]se t may irretrievably be lo/4 ,common s5se is less sweep+ 9 its dem&s ?an philosophy or my/icism h be5 wont to be1 & c suff] ! notion ( ?is _w be+ p>tly sav$ & p>tly lo/4 ,! ord9>y morali/ic /ate ( m9d makes ! salvation ( ! _w conditional ^u ! success ) :i* ea* unit does its "p4 ,p>tial & conditional salvation is 9 fact a mo/ famili> notion :5 tak5 9 ! ab/ract1 ! only difficulty be+ to det]m9e ! details4 ,"s m5 are ev5 dis9t]e/$ en\gh to be will+ to be 9 ! unsav$ remnant z f> z _! p]sons g1 if only !y c be p]suad$ t _! cause w prevail--all ( u are will+1 :5ev] our activity excitem5t rises suffici5tly high4 ,i ?9k1 9 fact1 t a f9al philosophy ( religion w h to consid] ! 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( religion1 h[ to be te/$1 #cgg2 :at x is1 #eji2 my/ical p]ception (1 #chj1 #daj4 8,twiceborn10 type1 #aff1 #cfc1 #dhh4 ,,tyndall1 #bii4 8,unconsci\s c]ebration10 #bjg4 ,unification ( ,self1 #ahc1 #cdi4 8,,union ,,morale10 #bgb4 ,union ) ,god1 #djh1 #dah1 #dbe1 #dea1 #eji ff4 ,see lectures on ,conv]sion1 passim4 ,unity ( univ]se1 #aca4 ,unreality1 s5se (1 #fc4 ,unse5 realities1 ,lecture ,,iii1 passim4 ,upani%ads1 #dai4 ,,upham1 #bhi4 ,utopias1 #cfj4 ,,va*]ot1 #ejb4 ,value ( spiritual affections1 h[ te/$1 #ah4 ,,vamb,,ry1 #cda4 ,v$antism1 #djj1 #dai1 #eac1 #ebb4 ,v]acity1 #g1 #bia ff4 ,,vivekan&a1 #eac4 ,,voltaire1 #ch4 ,,voysey1 #bge4 ,w>1 #cfecfg4 ,weal?wor%ip1 #cfe4 ,,weav]1 #bha4 ,,wesley1 #bbg4 ,wesleyan selfdespair1 #ajh1 #baa4 ,,:itefield1 #cah4 ,,:itman1 #hd1 #cie1 #cif1 #ejf4 ,,wolff1 #dib1 #dic4 ,,wood1 ,,h5ry1 #if1 #ii1 #aag4 ,_w1 s\l ( !1 #ddi4 ,worry1 #ih1 #aha4 ,yesfunction1 #bfabfc1 #bii1 #chg4 ,yoga1 #djj4 ,,"y1 #bef4 ,,footnotes #a ,z ) _m ideas t float 9 ! air ( "o's "t1 ?is notion %r9ks f dogmatic g5]al /atem5t & expresses itself only p>tially & by innu5do4 ,x seems to me t few conceptions are less in/ructive ?an ?is reint]pretation ( religion z p]v]t$ sexuality4 ,x rem9ds "o1 s crudely is x (t5 employ$1 ( ! fam\s ,ca?olic taunt1 t ! ,re=mation may be be/ und]/ood by rememb]+ t its fons et origo 0 ,lu!r's wi% to m>ry a nun3--! effects are inf9itely wid] ?an ! alleg$ causes1 & = ! mo/ "p opposite 9 nature4 ,x is true t 9 ! va/ collection ( religi\s ph5om5a1 "s are undisguis$ly amatory--e4g41 sexdeities & obsc5e rites 9 poly!ism1 & ec/atic feel+s ( union ) ! ,savi\r 9 a few ,*ri/ian my/ics4 ,b !n :y n equally call religion an ab]ration ( ! dige/ive function1 & prove "o's po9t by ! wor%ip ( ,bac*us & ,c]es1 or by ! ec/atic feel+s ( "s o!r sa9ts ab\t ! ,eu*>i/8 ,religi\s language clo!s itself 9 su* poor symbols z our life af=ds1 & ! :ole organism gives ov]tones ( comm5t :5ev] ! m9d is /rongly /irr$ to expression4 ,language drawn f eat+ & dr9k+ is probably z common 9 religi\s lit]ature z is language drawn f ! sexual life4 ,we 8hung] & ?ir/0 aft] righte\sness2 we 8f9d ! ,"l a sweet savor20 we 8ta/e & see t he is good40 8,spiritual milk = ,am]ican babes1 drawn f ! brea/s ( bo? te/am5ts10 is a subtitle ( ! once fam\s ,new ,engl& ,prim]1 & ,*ri/ian devotional lit]ature inde$ q floats 9 milk1 ?\ght ( f ! po9t ( view1 n ( ! "m1 b ( ! gre$y babe4 ,sa9t ,franois de ,sales1 = in/ance1 ?us describes ! 8orison ( quietude03 8,9 ?is /ate ! s\l is l a little *ild /ill at ! brea/1 ^: "m1 to c>ess him :il/ he is /ill 9 h] arms1 makes h] milk di/ill into 8 m\? )\t 8 ev5 mov+ 8 lips4 ,s x is "h4444 ,our ,"l desires t our w %\ld be satisfi$ ) suck+ ! milk :i* ,8 ,maje/y p\rs into our m\?1 & t we %\ld reli% ! sweetness )\t ev5 kn[+ t x come? f ! ,"l40 ,& aga93 8,consid] ! little infants1 unit$ & jo9$ to ! brea/s ( _! nurs+ mo!rs1 y w see t f "t to "t !y press !mselves clos] by little />ts to :i* ! pleasure ( suck+ prompts !m4 ,ev5 s1 dur+ its orison1 ! he>t unit$ to its ,god (t5times makes attempts at clos] union by movem5ts dur+ :i* x presses clos] ^u ! div9e sweetness40 ,*em9 de la ,p]fection1 *4 xxxi42 ,am\r de ,dieu1 vii4 *4 i4 ,9 fact1 "o might almo/ z well int]pret religion z a p]v]sion ( ! respiratory function4 ,! ,bible is full ( ! language ( respiratory oppression3 8,hide n ?9e e> at my brea?+2 my groan+ is n hid f !e2 my he>t pante?1 my /r5g? faile? me2 my bones are hot ) my ro>+ all ! night long2 z ! h>t pante? aft] ! wat]brooks1 s my s\l pante? aft] !e1 ,o my ,god40 ,god's ,brea? 9 ,man is ! title ( ! *ief "w ( our be/ kn[n ,am]ican my/ic 7,?omas ,lake ,h>ris72 & 9 c]ta9 non ,*ri/ian c\ntries ! f\ndation ( all religi\s discipl9e consi/s 9 regulation ( ! inspiration & expiration4 ,^! argum5ts are z good z mu* ( ! reason+ "o he>s 9 favor ( ! sexual !ory4 ,b ! *ampions ( ! latt] w !n say t _! *ief argum5t has no analogue else:]e4 ,! two ma9 ph5om5a ( religion1 namely1 melan*oly & conv]sion1 !y w say1 are ess5tially ph5om5a ( adolesc5ce1 & !re=e syn*ron\s ) ! developm5t ( sexual life4 ,to :i* ! retort aga9 is easy4 ,ev5 7 ! ass]t$ syn*rony unre/rict$ly true z a fact 7:i* x is n71 x is n only ! sexual life1 b ! entire high] m5tal life :i* awak5s dur+ adolesc5ce4 ,"o might !n z well set up ! !sis t ! int]e/ 9 me*anics1 physics1 *emi/ry1 logic1 philosophy1 & sociology1 :i* spr+s up dur+ adolesc5t ye>s along ) t 9 poetry & religion1 is also a p]v]sion ( ! sexual in/9ct3--b t w\ld be too absurd4 ,moreov]1 if ! argum5t f syn*rony is to decide1 :at is to be done ) ! fact t ! religi\s age p> excell5ce w\ld seem to be old age1 :5 ! upro> ( ! sexual life is pa/8 ,! pla9 tru? is t to int]pret religion "o mu/ 9 ! end look at ! imm$iate cont5t ( ! religi\s consci\sness4 ,! mom5t "o does ?is1 "o sees h[ :olly disconnect$ x is 9 ! ma9 f ! cont5t ( ! sexual consci\sness4 ,ev]y?+ ab\t ! two ?+s diff]s1 objects1 moods1 faculties conc]n$1 & acts impell$ to4 ,any g5]al assimilation is simply impossible3 :at we f9d mo/ (t5 is complete ho/ility & contra/4 ,if n[ ! def5d]s ( ! sex!ory say t ?is makes no diff]5ce to _! !sis2 t )\t ! *emical contributions :i* ! sex organs make to ! blood1 ! bra9 w\ld n be n\ri%$ s z to c>ry on religi\s activities1 ?is f9al proposition may be true or n true2 b at any rate x has become pr(\ndly un9/ructive3 we c d$uce no consequ5ces f x :i* help u to int]pret religion's mean+ or value4 ,9 ?is s5se ! religi\s life dep5ds j z mu* ^u ! sple51 ! pancreas1 & ! kidneys z on ! sexual app>atus1 & ! :ole !ory has lo/ its po9t 9 evaporat+ into a vague g5]al ass]tion ( ! dep5d5ce1 someh[1 ( ! m9d ^u ! body4 #b ,= a fir/rate example ( m$icalmat]iali/ reason+1 see an article on 8les ,v>its du ,type dvot10 by ,dr4 ,b9et,sangl1 9 ! ,revue de l',hypnotisme1 xiv4 #afa4 #c ,j4 ,f4 ,,nisbet3 ,! ,insanity ( ,g5ius1 #c;d ed41 ,london1 #ahic1 pp4 xvi1 xxiv4 #d ,,max ,,nordau1 9 8 bulky book entitl$ ,deg5]ation4 #e ,h4 ,,maudsley3 ,natural ,causes & ,sup]natural ,seem+s1 #ahhf1 pp4 #beg1 #bef4 #f ,autobiography1 *4 xxviii4 #g ,sup]ior intellect1 z ,pr(essor ,ba9 has admirably %[n1 seems to consi/ 9 no?+ s mu* z 9 a l>ge developm5t ( ! faculty ( association by simil>ity4 #h ,i may ref] to a criticism ( ! insanity !ory ( g5ius 9 ! ,psy*ological ,review1 ii4 #bhg 7#ahie74 #i ,i c d no bett] "h ?an ref] my read]s to ! ext5d$ & admirable rem>ks on ! futility ( all ^! def9itions ( religion1 9 an article by ,pr(essor ,leuba1 publi%$ 9 ! ,moni/ = ,janu>y1 #aija1 aft] my own text 0 writt54 #aj ,miscellanies1 #ahfh1 p4 #abj 7abridg$74 #aa ,lectures & ,biographical ,sket*es1 #ahfh1 p4 #ahf4 #ab ,feuilles dta*es1 pp4 #cidcih 7abridg$74 #ac ,op4 cit41 pp4 #cad1 #cac4 #ad ,book ,v41 *4 x4 7abridg$74 #ae ,book ,v41 *4 ix4 7abridg$74 #af ,*aps4 x41 xi4 7abridg$73 ,w9kwor?'s translation4 #ag ,book ,,iv41 #bc4 #ah ,b5ham's translation3 ,book ,,iii41 *aps4 xv41 lix4 ,comp>e ,m>y ,moody ,em]son3 8,let me be a blot on ?is fair _w1 ! obscure/1 ! lonelie/ suff]]1 ) "o proviso1--t ,i "k x is ,8 ag5cy4 ,i w love ,him ?\gh ,he %$ fro/ & d>kness on e way ( m9e40 ,r4 ,w4 ,,em]son3 ,lectures & ,biographical ,sket*es1 p4 #ahh4 #ai ,once m1 !re are pl5ty ( m51 con/itutionally sombre m51 9 ^: religi\s life ?is raptur\sness is lack+4 ,!y are religi\s 9 ! wid] s5se2 yet 9 ?is acute/ ( all s5ses !y are n s1 & x is religion 9 ! acute/ s5se t ,i wi%1 )\t disput+ ab\t words1 to /udy fir/1 s z to get at its typical diff]5tia4 #bj ,! ,new ,_s1 p4 #bcb4 #ba ,i owe ?is allegorical illu/ration to my lam5t$ colleague & fri5d1 ,*>les ,c>roll ,ev]ett4 #bb ,example3 8,i h _h mu* com=t lately 9 m$itat+ on ! passages :i* %[ ! p]sonality ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 & 8 di/9ctness f ! ,fa!r & ! ,son4 ,x is a subject t requires se>*+ into to f9d out1 b1 :5 realiz$1 gives "o s mu* m true & lively a s5se ( ! fullness ( ! ,godhead1 & its "w 9 u & to u1 ?an :5 only ?9k+ ( ! ,_s 9 its effect on u40 ,,augu/us ,,h>e3 ,memorials1 i4 #bdd1 ,m>ia ,h>e to ,lucy ,h4 ,h>e4 #bc ,symposium1 ,j[ett1 #ahga1 i4 #ebg4 #bd ,example3 8,nature is always s int]e/+1 "u :atev] aspect %e %[s h]self1 t :5 x ra9s1 ,i seem to see a beautiful woman weep+4 ,%e appe>s ! m beautiful1 ! m afflict$ %e is40 ,b4 de ,/4 ,pi]re4 #be ,j\rnal ( ! ,s4 ,p4 ,r41 ,febru>y1 #ahie1 p4 #bf4 #bf ,e4 ,,gurney3 ,phantasms ( ! ,liv+1 i4 #chd4 #bg ,p5ses d'un ,solitaire1 p4 #ff4 #bh ,lett]s ( ,l[ell1 i4 #ge4 #bi ,i borr[ x1 ) ,pr(essor ,fl\rnoy's p]mission1 f 8 ri* collection ( psy*ological docum5ts4 #cj ,m>k ,ru!r=d's ,deliv]ance1 ,london1 #ahhe1 pp4 #aif1 #aih4 #ca ,9 8 book 7too little read1 ,i fe>71 ,natural ,religion1 #c;d edition1 ,bo/on1 #ahhf1 pp4 #ia1 #abb4 #cb ,c4 ,,hilty3 ,glck1 dritt] ,!il1 #aijj1 p4 #ah4 #cc ,! ,s\l2 its ,sorr[s & its ,aspirations1 #c;d edition1 #aheb1 pp4 #hi1 #ia4 #cd ,i once he>d a lady describe ! pleasure x gave h] to ?9k t %e 8c\ld always cuddle up to ,god40 #ce ,,john ,,weiss3 ,life ( ,!odore ,p>k]1 i4 #aeb1 #cb4 #cf ,,/>buck3 ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 pp4 #cje1 #cjf4 #cg 8,i "k n to :at physical laws philosoph]s w "s day ref] ! feel+s ( melan*oly4 ,= myself1 ,i f9d t !y are ! mo/ voluptu\s ( all s5sations10 writes ,sa9t ,pi]re1 & accord+ly he devotes a s]ies ( sections ( 8 "w on ,nature to ! ,plaisirs de la ,ru9e1 ,plaisirs des ,tombeaux1 ,ru9es de la ,nature1 ,plaisirs de la ,solitude--ea* ( !m m optimi/ic ?an ! la/4 ,?is f9d+ ( a luxury 9 woe is v common dur+ adolesc5ce4 ,! tru?tell+ ,m>ie ,ba%kirtseff expresses x well3-- 8,9 ?is depression & dreadful un9t]rupt$ suff]+1 ,i don't condemn life4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i l x & f9d x good4 ,c y believe x8 ,i f9d ev]y?+ good & pleasant1 ev5 my te>s1 my grief4 ,i enjoy weep+1 ,i enjoy my despair4 ,i enjoy be+ exasp]at$ & sad4 ,i feel z if ^! 7 s _m div]sions1 & ,i love life 9 spite ( !m all4 ,i want to live on4 ,x w\ld be cruel to h me die :5 ,i am s accommodat+4 ,i cry1 ,i grieve1 & at ! same "t ,i am pleas$--no1 n exactly t--,i "k n h[ to express x4 ,b ev]y?+ 9 life pleases me4 ,i f9d ev]y?+ agreeable1 & 9 ! v mid/ ( my pray]s = happ9ess1 ,i f9d myself happy at be+ mis]able4 ,x is n ,i :o und]go all ?is--my body weeps & cries2 b some?+ inside ( me :i* is above me is glad ( x all40 ,j\rnal de ,m>ie ,ba%kirtseff1 i4 #fg4 #ch ,r4 ,m4 ,,bucke3 ,cosmic ,consci\sness1 pp4 #ahbahf1 abridg$4 #ci ,i ref] to ,! ,cons]vator1 edit$ by ,horace ,traubel1 & publi%$ mon?ly at ,philadelphia4 #dj ,song ( ,myself1 #cb4 #da ,iliad1 ,,xxi41 ,e4 ,my]s's translation4 #db 8,god is afraid ( me60 rem>k$ su* a titanicoptimi/ic fri5d 9 my pres5ce "o morn+ :5 he 0 feel+ p>ticul>ly he>ty & cannibali/ic4 ,! defiance ( ! phrase %[$ t a ,*ri/ian education 9 humility /ill rankl$ 9 8 brea/4 #dc 8,z ,i g on 9 ?is life1 day by day1 ,i become m ( a bewild]$ *ild2 ,i _c get us$ to ?is _w1 to procreation1 to h]$ity1 to sight1 to he>+2 ! commone/ ?+s are a bur!n4 ,! prim1 oblit]at$1 polite surface ( life1 & ! broad1 bawdy1 & orgia/ic--or mnadic--f\ndations1 =m a spectacle to :i* no habit reconciles me40 ,r4 ,l4 ,,/ev5son3 ,lett]s1 ii4 #cee4 #dd 8,caution>y ,v]ses = ,*ildr503 ?is title ( a mu* us$ "w1 publi%$ e>ly 9 ! n9ete5? c5tury1 %[s h[ f> ! muse ( evangelical prote/antism 9 ,engl&1 ) h] m9d fix$ on ! idea ( dang]1 _h at la/ drift$ away f ! orig9al gospel fre$om4 ,m9dcure might be briefly call$ a reaction aga9/ all t religion ( *ronic anxiety :i* m>k$ ! e>li] "p ( our c5tury 9 ! evangelical circles ( ,engl& & ,am]ica4 #de ,i ref] to ,mr4 ,horatio ,w4 ,dress] & ,mr4 ,h5ry ,wood1 especially ! =m]4 ,mr4 ,dress]'s works are publi%$ by ,g4 ,p4 ,putnam's ,sons1 ,new ,york & ,london2 ,mr4 ,wood's by ,lee ,%ep>d1 ,bo/on4 #df ,le/ my own te/imony be suspect$1 ,i w quote ano!r report]1 ,dr4 ,h4 ,h4 ,godd>d1 ( ,cl>k ,univ]sity1 ^: !sis on 8! ,effects ( ,m9d on ,body z evid5c$ by ,fai? ,cures0 is publi%$ 9 ! ,am]ican ,j\rnal ( ,psy*ology = #ahii 7vol4 x474 ,?is critic1 aft] a wide /udy ( ! facts1 concludes t ! cures by m9d cure exi/1 b are 9 no respect diff]5t f ^? n[ (ficially recogniz$ 9 m$ic9e z cures by sugge/ion2 & ! end ( 8 essay conta9s an int]e/+ physiological speculation z to ! way 9 :i* ! sugge/ive ideas may "w 7p4 #fg ( ! repr9t74 ,z reg>ds ! g5]al ph5om5on ( m5tal cure itself1 ,dr4 ,godd>d writes3 8,9 spite ( ! sev]e criticism we h made ( reports ( cure1 !re /ill rema9s a va/ am\nt ( mat]ial1 %[+ a p[]ful influ5ce ( ! m9d 9 disease4 ,_m cases are ( diseases t h be5 diagnos$ & treat$ by ! be/ physicians ( ! c\ntry1 or :i* prom95t hospitals h tri$ _! h& at cur+1 b )\t success4 ,p ( culture & education h be5 treat$ by ?is me?od ) satisfactory results4 ,diseases ( long /&+ h be5 ameliorat$1 & ev5 cur$4444 ,we h trac$ ! m5tal elem5t ?r\gh primitive m$ic9e & folkm$ic9e ( today1 pat5t m$ic9e1 & wit*craft4 ,we are conv9c$ t x is impossible to acc\nt = ! exi/5ce ( ^! practices1 if !y did n cure disease1 & t if !y cur$ disease1 x mu/ h be5 ! m5tal elem5t t 0 effective4 ,! same argum5t applies to ^? mod]n s*ools ( m5tal !rapeutics--,div9e ,heal+ & ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce4 ,x is h>dly conceivable t ! l>ge body ( intellig5t p :o comprise ! body kn[n di/9ctively z ,m5tal ,sci5ti/s %\ld cont9ue to exi/ if ! :ole ?+ 7 a delusion4 ,x is n a ?+ ( a day2 x is n conf9$ to a few2 x is n local4 ,x is true t _m failures are record$1 b t only adds to ! argum5t4 ,!re mu/ be _m & /rik+ successes to c\nt]balance ! failures1 o!rwise ! failures w\ld h end$ ! delusion4444 ,*ri/ian ,sci5ce1 ,div9e ,heal+1 or ,m5tal ,sci5ce d n1 & nev] c 9 ! v nature ( ?+s1 cure all diseases2 nev]!less1 ! practical applications ( ! g5]al pr9ciples ( ! broade/ m5tal sci5ce w t5d to prev5t disease4444 ,we d f9d suffici5t evid5ce to conv9ce u t ! prop] re=m 9 m5tal attitude w\ld relieve _m a suff]] ( ills t ! ord9>y physician _c t\*2 w\ld ev5 delay ! approa* ( dea? to _m a victim beyond ! p[] ( absolute cure1 & ! fai?ful adh]5ce to a tru] philosophy ( life w keep _m a man well1 & give ! doctor "t to devote to alleviat+ ills t are unprev5table0 7pp4 #cc1 #cd ( repr9t74 #dg ,,horace ,,flet*]3 ,happ9ess z f\nd 9 ,=e?\ght m9us ,fe>?\ght1 ,m5ticulture ,s]ies1 ii4 ,*icago & ,new ,york1 ,/one1 #ahig1 pp4 #babe1 abridg$4 #dh ,h4 ,w4 ,,dress]3 ,voices ( ,fre$om1 ,new ,york1 #ahii1 p4 #ch4 #di ,,h5ry ,,wood3 ,ideal ,sugge/ion ?r\gh ,m5tal ,photography1 ,bo/on1 #ahii1 p4 #ed4 #ej ,:e!r x diff]s s mu* f ,*ri/'s own notion is = ! exegeti/s to decide4 ,accord+ to ,h>nack1 ,jesus felt ab\t evil & disease mu* z our m9dcur]s d4 8,:at is ! answ] :i* ,jesus s5ds to ,john ! ,bapti/80 asks ,h>nack1 & says x is ?is3 8 #8,! bl9d see1 & ! lame walk1 ! lep]s are cleans$1 & ! deaf he>1 ! dead rise up1 & ! gospel is prea*$ to ! poor4' ,t is ! #8com+ ( ! k+dom1' or r 9 ^! sav+ works ! k+dom is already !re4 ,by ! ov]com+ & removal ( mis]y1 ( ne$1 ( sickness1 by ^! actual effects ,john is to see t ! new "t has arriv$4 ,! ca/+ out ( devils is only a "p ( ?is "w ( r$emption1 b ,jesus po9ts to t z ! s5se & seal ( 8 mission4 ,?us to ! wret*$1 sick1 & poor did he address himself1 b n z a morali/1 & )\t a trace ( s5tim5talism4 ,he nev] makes gr\ps & dep>tm5ts ( ! ills2 he nev] sp5ds "t 9 ask+ :e!r ! sick "o #8des]ves' to be cur$2 & x nev] occurs to him to sympa?ize ) ! pa9 or ! dea?4 ,he n[h]e says t sickness is a b5efic5t infliction1 & t evil has a heal?y use4 ,no1 he calls sickness sickness & heal? heal?4 ,all evil1 all wret*$ness1 is = him some?+ dreadful2 x is ( ! great k+dom ( ,satan2 b he feels ! p[] ( ! ,savi\r )9 him4 ,he kn[s t advance is possible only :5 weakness is ov]come1 :5 sickness is made well40 ,das ,wes5 des ,*ri/5?ums1 #aijj1 p4 #ci4 #ea ,r4 ,w4 ,,tr9e3 ,9 ,tune ) ! ,inf9ite1 #bf? ?\s&1 ,n4 ,y41 #ahii4 ,i h /rung scatt]$ passages toge!r4 #eb ,! ,cairds1 = example4 ,9 ,,edw>d ,,caird',s ,glasg[ ,lectures ( #ahijib passages l ?is ab\nd3-- 8,! decl>ation made 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! m9i/ry ( ,jesus t #8! "t is fulfill$1 & ! k+dom ( heav5 is at h&1' passes ) sc>ce a break into ! ann\ncem5t t #8! k+dom ( ,god is among y'2 & ! importance ( ?is ann\ncem5t is ass]t$ to be su* t x makes1 s to speak1 a diff]5ce 9 k9d betwe5 ! greate/ sa9ts & prophets :o liv$ "u ! previ\s reign ( division1 & #8! lea/ 9 ! k+dom ( heav54' ,! highe/ ideal is br\ght close to m5 & decl>$ to be )9 _! rea*1 !y are call$ on to be #8p]fect z _! ,fa!r 9 heav5 is p]fect4' ,! s5se ( ali5ation & di/ance f ,god :i* _h gr[n ^u ! pi\s 9 ,israel j 9 proportion z !y _h le>n$ to look ^u ,him z no m]e national div9ity1 b z a ,god ( ju/ice :o w\ld puni% ,israel = its s9 z c]ta9ly z ,edom or ,moab1 is decl>$ to be no long] 9 place2 & ! typical =m ( ,*ri/ian pray] po9ts to ! abolition ( ! contra/ betwe5 ?is _w & ! next :i* ?r\gh all ! hi/ory ( ! ,jews _h cont9ually be5 gr[+ wid]3 #8,z 9 heav51 s on e>?4' ,! s5se ( ! division ( man f ,god1 z a f9ite be+ f ! ,inf9ite1 z weak & s9ful f ! ,omnipot5t ,goodness1 is n inde$ lo/2 b x c no long] ov]p[] ! consci\sness ( on5ess4 ,! t]ms #8,son' & #8,fa!r' at once /ate ! opposition & m>k its limit4 ,!y %[ t x is n an absolute opposition1 b "o :i* presupposes an inde/ructible pr9ciple ( unity1 t c & mu/ become a pr9ciple ( reconciliation40 ,! ,evolution ( ,religion1 ii4 pp4 #adf1 #adg4 #ec ,x rema9s to be se5 :e!r ! s*ool ( ,mr4 ,dress]1 :i* assumes m & m ! =m ( m9dcure exp]i5ce & academic philosophy mutually impregnat+ ea* o!r1 w score ! practical triumphs ( ! less critical & rational sects4 #ed ,! !i/ic explanation is by div9e grace1 :i* creates a new nature )9 "o ! mom5t ! old nature is s9c]ely giv5 up4 ,! pan!i/ic explanation 7:i* is t ( mo/ m9dcur]s7 is by ! m]g+ ( ! n>r[] private self into ! wid] or great] self1 ! _s ( ! univ]se 7:i* is y\r own 8subconsci\s0 self71 ! mom5t ! isolat+ b>ri]s ( mi/ru/ & anxiety are remov$4 ,! m$icomat]iali/ic explanation is t simpl] c]ebral processes act m freely :]e !y are left to act automatically by ! %unt+out ( physiologically 7?\gh 9 ?is in/ance n spiritually7 8high]0 ones :i*1 seek+ to regulate1 only succe$ 9 inhibit+ results4--,:e!r ?is ?ird explanation might1 9 a psy*ophysical acc\nt ( ! univ]se1 be comb9$ ) ei!r ( ! o!rs may be left an op5 "q "h4 #ee ,)9 ! *ur*es a disposition has always prevail$ to reg>d sickness z a visitation2 some?+ s5t by ,god = our good1 ei!r z *a/isem5t1 z w>n+1 or z opportunity = ex]cis+ virtue1 &1 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ( e>n+ 8m]it40 8,illness10 says a good ,ca?olic writ] 7,p4 ,,lejeune3 ,introd4 la ,vie ,my/ique1 #ahii1 p4 #bah71 8is ! mo/ excell5t ( corporeal mortifications1 ! mortification :i* "o has n "o's self *os51 :i* is impos$ directly by ,god1 & is ! direct expression ( 8 w4 #8,if o!r mortifications are ( silv]1' ,mgr4 ,gay says1 #8?is "o is ( gold2 s9ce al?\gh x comes ( ourselves1 com+ z x does ( orig9al s91 /ill on its great] side1 z com+ 7l all t happ5s7 f ! provid5ce ( ,god1 x is ( div9e manufacture4 ,& h[ j are its bl[s6 ,& h[ efficaci\s x is6444 ,i d n hesitate to say t pati5ce 9 a long illness is mortification's v ma/]piece1 & consequ5tly ! triumph ( mortifi$ s\ls4' 0 ,accord+ to ?is view1 disease %\ld 9 any case be submissively accept$1 & x might "u c]ta9 circum/ances ev5 be blasphem\s to wi% x away4 ,( c\rse !re h be5 exceptions to ?is1 & cures by special miracle h at all times be5 recogniz$ )9 ! *ur*'s pale1 almo/ all ! great sa9ts hav+ m or less p]=m$ !m4 ,x 0 "o ( ! h]esies ( ,edw>d ,irv+1 to ma9ta9 !m /ill to be possible4 ,an extremely pure faculty ( heal+ aft] confession & conv]sion on ! pati5t's "p1 & pray] on ! prie/'s1 0 q spontane\sly develop$ 9 ! ,g]man pa/or1 ,joh4 ,*ri/oph ,blumh>dt1 9 ! e>ly =ties & ex]t$ dur+ ne>ly ?irty ye>s4 ,blumh>dt's ,life by ,zndel 7#e? edition1 ,zuri*1 #ahhg7 gives 9 *apt]s ix41 x41 xi41 & xvii4 a pretty full acc\nt ( 8 heal+ activity1 :i* he inv>iably ascrib$ to direct div9e int]position4 ,blumh>dt 0 a s+ul>ly pure1 simple1 & non fanatical "*1 & 9 ?is "p ( 8 "w foll[$ no previ\s model4 ,9 ,*icago today we h ! case ( ,dr4 ,j4 ,a4 ,d[ie1 a ,scotti% ,bapti/ prea*]1 ^: weekly 8,leaves ( ,heal+0 7 9 ! ye> ( grace #aijj 9 _! six? volume1 & :o1 al?\gh he d5\nces ! cures wr\ght 9 o!r sects z 8diabolical c\nt]feits0 ( 8 own exclusively 8,div9e ,heal+10 mu/ on ! :ole be c\nt$ into ! m9dcure movem5t4 ,9 m9d cure circles ! fundam5tal article ( fai? is t disease %\ld nev] be accept$4 ,x is :olly ( ! pit4 ,god wants u to be absolutely heal?y1 & we %\ld n tol]ate ourselves on any l[] t]ms4 #ef ,edw>ds1 f ^: book on ! ,revival 9 ,new ,engl& ,i quote ^! words1 dissuades f su* a use ( pray]1 b x is easy to see t he enjoys mak+ 8 ?ru/ at ! cold dead *ur* memb]s4 #eg ,h4 ,w4 ,,dress]3 ,voices ( ,fre$om1 #df4 #eh ,,dress]3 ,liv+ by ! ,_s1 #eh4 #ei ,,dress]3 ,voices ( ,fre$om1 #cc4 #fj ,,tr9e3 ,9 ,tune ) ! ,inf9ite1 p4 #bad4 #fa ,,tr9e3 p4 #aag4 #fb ,quot$ by ,,lejeune3 ,introd4 la ,vie ,my/ique1 #ahii1 p4 #ff4 #fc ,,h5ry ,,wood3 ,ideal ,sugge/ion ?r\gh ,m5tal ,photography1 pp4 #ea1 #gj 7abridg$74 #fd ,see ,app5dix to ?is lecture = two o!r cases furni%$ me by fri5ds4 #fe ,:e!r ! v>i\s sph]es or sy/ems are ev] to fuse integrally into "o absolute conception1 z mo/ philosoph]s assume t !y mu/1 & h[1 if s1 t conception may be/ be rea*$1 are que/ions t only ! future c answ]4 ,:at is c]ta9 n[ is ! fact ( l9es ( disp>ate conception1 ea* correspond+ to "s "p ( ! _w's tru?1 ea* v]ifi$ 9 "s degree1 ea* leav+ out "s "p ( real exp]i5ce4 #ff ,tract on ,god1 ,man1 & ,happ9ess1 ,book ii4 *4 x4 #fg ,comm5t>y on ,galatians1 ,philadelphia1 #ahia1 pp4 #eajead 7abridg$74 #fh ,,mol9os3 ,spiritual ,guide1 ,book ,,ii41 *aps4 xvii41 xviii4 7abridg$74 #fi ,i say ?is 9 spite ( ! moni/ic utt]ances ( _m m9dcure writ]s2 = ^! utt]ances are really inconsi/5t ) _! attitude t[>ds disease1 & c easily be %[n n to be logically involv$ 9 ! exp]i5ces ( union ) a high] ,pres5ce ) :i* !y connect !mselves4 ,! high] ,pres5ce1 namely1 ne$ n be ! absolute :ole ( ?+s1 x is q suffici5t = ! life ( religi\s exp]i5ce to reg>d x z a "p1 if only x be ! mo/ ideal "p4 #gj ,cf4 ,j4 ,,mils&3 ,lu!r et le ,s]f,arbitre1 #ahhd1 passim4 #ga ,he adds ) *>act]i/ic heal?ym9d$ness3 8,our bus9ess is to cont9ue to fail 9 good spirits40 #gb ,! ,god ( _m m5 is little m ?an _! c\rt ( appeal aga9/ ! damnatory judgm5t pass$ on _! failures by ! op9ion ( ?is _w4 ,to our own consci\sness !re is usually a residuum ( wor? left ov] aft] our s9s & errors h be5 told (f--our capacity ( ackn[l$g+ & regrett+ !m is ! g]m ( a bett] self 9 posse at lea/4 ,b ! _w deals ) u 9 actu & n 9 posse3 & ( ?is hidd5 g]m1 n to be guess$ at f )\t1 x nev] takes acc\nt4 ,!n we turn to ! ,all kn[]1 :o kn[s our bad1 b kn[s ?is good 9 u also1 & :o is j4 ,we ca/ ourselves ) our rep5tance on 8 m]cy3 only by an ,allkn[] c we f9ally be judg$4 ,s ! ne$ ( a ,god v def9itely em]ges f ?is sort ( exp]i5ce ( life4 #gc ,e4g41 ,iliad1 ,,xvii4 #ddf3 8,no?+ !n is m wret*$ any:]e ?an man ( all t brea!s & creeps ^u ?is e>?40 #gd ,e4g41 ,!ognis1 #dbedbh3 8,be/ ( all = all ?+s ^u e>? is x n to be born nor to behold ! spl5dors ( ! ,sun2 next be/ to trav]se z soon z possible ! gates ( ,hades40 ,see also ! almo/ id5tical passage 9 dipus 9 ,colonus1 #abbe4--,! ,an?ology is full ( pessimi/ic utt]ances3 8,nak$ came ,i ^u ! e>?1 nak$ ,i g bel[ ! gr\nd--:y !n d ,i va9ly toil :5 ,i see ! end nak$ be=e me80--8,h[ did ,i come to be8 ,:5ce am ,i8 ,:]e=e did ,i come8 ,to pass away4 ,h[ c ,i le>n aught :5 naught ,i "k8 ,be+ naught ,i came to life3 once m %all ,i be :at ,i 04 ,no?+ & no?+ness is ! :ole race ( mortals40--8,= dea? we are all *]i%$ & fatt5$ l a h]d ( hogs t is wantonly but*]$40 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 ,greek pessimism & ! ori5tal & mod]n v>iety is t ! ,greeks _h n made ! discov]y t ! pa!tic mood may be idealiz$1 & figure z a high] =m ( s5sibility4 ,_! _s 0 /ill too ess5tially mascul9e = pessimism to be elaborat$ or l5g?ily dwelt on 9 _! classic lit]ature4 ,!y w\ld h despis$ a life set :olly 9 a m9or key1 & summon$ x to keep )9 ! prop] b\nds ( la*rymosity4 ,! discov]y t ! endur+ emphasis1 s f> z ?is _w goes1 may be laid on its pa9 & failure1 0 res]v$ = races m complex1 & 7s to speak7 m fem99e ?an ! ,hell5es _h atta9$ to be+ 9 ! classic p]iod4 ,b all ! same 0 ! outlook ( ^? ,hell5es blackly pessimi/ic4 #ge ,= in/ance1 on ! v day on :i* ,i write ?is page1 ! po/ br+s me "s aphorisms f a worldlywise old fri5d 9 ,heidelb]g :i* may s]ve z a good contemporane\s expression ( ,epicureanism3 8,by ! ^w #8happ9ess' e human be+ und]/&s some?+ diff]5t4 ,x is a phantom pursu$ only by weak] m9ds4 ,! wise man is satisfi$ ) ! m mode/ b mu* m def9ite t]m cont5tm5t4 ,:at education %\ld *iefly aim at is to save u f a discont5t$ life4 ,heal? is "o favor+ condition1 b by no means an indisp5sable "o1 ( cont5tm5t4 ,woman's he>t & love are a %rewd device ( ,nature1 a trap :i* %e sets = ! av]age man1 to =ce him into work+4 ,b ! wise man w always pref] "w *os5 by himself40 #gf ,,ribot3 ,psy*ologie des s5tim5ts1 p4 #ed4 #gg ,a4 ,,gratry3 ,s\v5irs de ma jeunesse1 #ahhj1 pp4 #aaiaba1 abridg$4 ,"s p]sons are affect$ ) anh$onia p]man5tly1 or at any rate ) a loss ( ! usual appetite = life4 ,! annals ( suicide supply su* examples z ! foll[+3-- ,an un$ucat$ dome/ic s]vant1 ag$ n9ete51 poisons h]self1 & leaves two lett]s express+ h] motive = ! act4 ,to h] p>5ts %e writes3-- 8,life is sweet p]haps to "s1 b ,i pref] :at is sweet] ?an life1 & t is dea?4 ,s goodby =ev]1 my de> p>5ts4 ,x is nobody's fault1 b a /rong desire ( my own :i* ,i h long$ to fulfill = ?ree or f\r ye>s4 ,i h always _h a hope t "s day ,i might h an opportunity ( fulfill+ x1 & n[ x has come4444 ,x is a wond] ,i h put ?is (f s long1 b ,i ?\ght p]haps ,i %\ld *e] up a bit & put all ?\ght out ( my head40 ,to h] bro!r %e writes3 8,goodby =ev]1 my own de>e/ bro!r4 ,by ! "t y get ?is ,i %all be gone =ev]4 ,i "k1 de> love1 !re is no =giv5ess = :at ,i am go+ to d4444 ,i am tir$ ( liv+1 s am will+ to die4444 ,life may be sweet to "s1 b dea? to me is sweet]40 ,s4 ,a4 ,k4 ,,/rahan3 ,suicide & ,insanity1 #b;d edition1 ,london1 #ahid1 p4 #aca4 #gh ,,r\b9ovit* ,,et ,,t\l\se3 ,la ,mlancolie1 #ahig1 p4 #agj1 abridg$4 #gi ,i cull ^! examples f ! "w ( ,g4 ,,dumas3 ,la ,tri/esse et la ,joie1 #aijj4 #hj ,my extracts are f ! ,fr5* translation by 8,,zonia40 ,9 abridg+ ,i h tak5 ! lib]ty ( transpos+ "o passage4 #ha ,grace ab\nd+ to ! ,*ief ( ,s9n]s3 ,i h pr9t$ a numb] ( deta*$ passages cont9u\sly4 #hb ,! ,life & ,j\rnal ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,h5ry ,all9e1 ,bo/on1 #ahjf1 pp4 #be1 #bf4 ,i owe my acqua9tance ) ?is book to my colleague1 ,dr4 ,b5jam9 ,r&4 #hc ,comp>e ,bunyan3 8,!re 0 ,i /ruck into a v great trembl+1 insomu* t at "s times ,i c\ld1 = days toge!r1 feel my v body1 z well z my m9d1 to %ake & tott] "u ! s5se ( ! dreadful judgm5t ( ,god1 t %\ld fall on ^? t h s9n$ t mo/ fe>ful & unp>donable s94 ,i felt also su* clogg+ & heat at my /oma*1 by reason ( ?is my t]ror1 t ,i 01 especially at "s times1 z if my brea/bone w\ld h split asund]4444 ,?us did ,i w9d1 & tw9e1 & %r9k1 "u ! burd5 t 0 ^u me2 :i* burd5 also did s oppress me t ,i c\ld nei!r /&1 nor g1 nor lie1 ei!r at re/ or quiet40 #hd ,= ano!r case ( fe> equally sudd51 see ,,h5ry ,,james3 ,society ! ,r$eem$ ,=m ( ,man1 ,bo/on1 #ahgi1 pp4 #dc ff4 #he ,example3 8,x 0 ab\t elev5 o'clock at night 444 b ,i /roll$ on /ill ) ! p4444 ,sudd5ly ^u ! left side ( our road1 a crackl+ 0 he>d among ! bu%es2 all ( u 7 al>m$1 & 9 an in/ant a tig]1 ru%+ out ( ! jungle1 p\nc$ ^u ! "o ( ! p>ty t 0 =emo/1 & c>ri$ him (f 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye4 ,! ru% ( ! animal1 & ! cru% ( ! poor victim's bones 9 8 m\?1 & 8 la/ cry ( di/ress1 #8,ho hai6' involunt>ily re*o$ by all ( u1 0 ov] 9 ?ree seconds2 & !n ,i "k n :at happ5$ till ,i return$ to my s5ses1 :5 ,i f\nd myself & companions ly+ d[n on ! gr\nd z if prep>$ to be dev\r$ by our enemy1 ! sov]eign ( ! =e/4 ,i f9d my p5 incapable ( describ+ ! t]ror ( t dreadful mom5t4 ,our limbs /iff5$1 our p[] ( spee* ceas$1 & our he>ts beat viol5tly1 & only a :isp] ( ! same #8,ho hai6' 0 he>d f u4 ,9 ?is /ate we crept on all f\rs = "s di/ance back1 & !n ran = life ) ! spe$ ( an ,arab horse = ab\t half an h\r1 & =tunately happ5$ to come to a small village4444 ,aft] ?is e "o ( u 0 attack$ ) fev]1 att5d$ ) %iv]+1 9 :i* deplorable /ate we rema9$ till morn+40--,autobiography ( ,lutfullah1 a ,mohamm$an ,g5tleman1 ,leipzig1 #aheg1 p4 #aab4 #hf ,e4g41 8,our "y p are diseas$ ) ! !ological problems ( orig9al s91 orig9 ( evil1 pr$e/9ation1 & ! l4 ,^! nev] pres5t$ a practical difficulty to any man--nev] d>k5$ across any man's road1 :o did n g out ( 8 way to seek !m4 ,^! are ! s\l's mumps1 & measles1 & :oop+c\ghs10 etc4 ,,em]son3 8,spiritual ,laws40 #hg ,notes sur la ,vie1 p4 #a4 #hh ,see1 = example1 ,f4 ,paulhan1 9 8 book ,les ,c>actres1 #ahid1 :o contra/s les ,equilibrs1 les ,unifis1 ) les ,inquiets1 les ,contr>iants1 les ,incohr5ts1 les ,emietts1 z s _m div]se psy*ic types4 #hi ,,annie ,,besant3 an ,autobiography1 p4 #hb4 #ij ,,smi? ,,bak]1 9 ,j\rnal ( ,n]v\s & ,m5tal ,diseases1 ,septemb]1 #ahic4 #ia ,,l\is ,,g\rdon 7,essai sur la ,conv]sion de ,sa9t ,augu/9e1 ,p>is1 ,fis*ba*]1 #aijj7 has %[n by an analysis ( ,augu/9e's writ+s imm$iately aft] ! date ( 8 conv]sion 7,a4 ,d4 #chf7 t ! acc\nt he gives 9 ! ,confessions is premature4 ,! crisis 9 ! g>d5 m>k$ a def9itive conv]sion f 8 =m] life1 b x 0 to ! neoplatonic spiritualism & only a halfway /age t[>d ,*ri/ianity4 ,! latt] he appe>s n fully & radically to h embrac$ until f\r ye>s m _h pass$4 #ib ,confessions1 ,book ,,viii41 *aps4 v41 vii41 xi41 abridg$4 #ic ,,?4 ,,j\ffroy3 ,n\veaux ,mlanges philosophiques1 #bme dition1 p4 #hc4 ,i add two o!r cases ( c\nt]conv]sion dat+ f a c]ta9 mom5t4 ,! fir/ is f ,pr(essor ,/>buck's manuscript collection1 & ! n>rator is a woman4 8,away d[n 9 ! bottom ( my he>t1 ,i believe ,i 0 always m or less skeptical ab\t #8,god2' skepticism grew z an und]curr5t1 all ?r\gh my e>ly y\?1 b x 0 controll$ & cov]$ by ! emotional elem5ts 9 my religi\s gr[?4 ,:5 ,i 0 sixte5 ,i jo9$ ! *ur* & 0 ask$ if ,i lov$ ,god4 ,i repli$ #8,yes1' z 0 cu/om>y & expect$4 ,b in/antly ) a fla% some?+ spoke )9 me1 #8,no1 y d n4' ,i 0 haunt$ = a long "t ) %ame & remorse = my falsehood & = my wick$ness 9 n lov+ ,god1 m+l$ ) fe> t !re might be an av5g+ ,god :o w\ld puni% me 9 "s t]rible way4444 ,at n9ete51 ,i _h an attack ( tonsilitis4 ,be=e ,i _h q recov]$1 ,i he>d told a /ory ( a brute :o _h kick$ 8 wife d[n/airs1 & !n cont9u$ ! op]ation until %e became ins5sible4 ,i felt ! horror ( ! ?+ ke5ly4 ,in/antly ?is ?\ght fla%$ ?r\gh my m9d3 #8,i h no use = a ,god :o p]mits su* ?+s4' ,?is exp]i5ce 0 foll[$ by mon?s ( /oical indiff]5ce to ! ,god ( my previ\s life1 m+l$ ) feel+s ( positive dislike & a some:at pr\d defiance ( him4 ,i /ill ?\ght !re might be a ,god4 ,if s he w\ld probably damn me1 b ,i %\ld h to /& x4 ,i felt v little fe> & no desire to propitiate him4 ,i h nev] _h any p]sonal relations ) him s9ce ?is pa9ful exp]i5ce40 ,! second case exemplifies h[ small an additional /imulus w ov]?r[ ! m9d into a new /ate ( equilibrium :5 ! process ( prep>ation & incubation has proce$$ f> en\gh4 ,x is l ! prov]bial la/ /raw add$ to ! camel's burd51 or t t\* ( a ne$le :i* makes ! salt 9 a sup]saturat$ fluid sudd5ly beg9 to cry/allize out4 ,tol/oy writes3 8,s41 a frank & intellig5t man1 told me z foll[s h[ he ceas$ to believe3-- 8,he 0 tw5tysix ye>s old :5 "o day on a hunt+ exp$ition1 ! "t = sleep hav+ come1 he set himself to pray accord+ to ! cu/om he _h held f *ildhood4 8,8 bro!r1 :o 0 hunt+ ) him1 lay ^u ! hay & look$ at him4 ,:5 ,s4 _h f9i%$ 8 pray] & 0 turn+ to sleep1 ! bro!r said1 #8,d y /ill keep up t ?+8' ,no?+ m 0 said4 ,b s9ce t day1 n[ m ?an ?irty ye>s ago1 ,s4 has nev] pray$ aga92 he nev] takes communion1 & does n g to *ur*4 ,all ?is1 n because he became acqua9t$ ) convictions ( 8 bro!r :i* he !n & !re adopt$2 n because he made any new resolution 9 8 s\l1 b m]ely because ! words spok5 by 8 bro!r 7 l ! light pu% ( a f+] aga9/ a lean+ wall already ab\t to tumble by its own weight4 ,^! words b %[$ him t ! place :]e9 he suppos$ religion dwelt 9 him _h long be5 empty1 & t ! s5t5ces he utt]$1 ! crosses & b[s :i* he made dur+ 8 pray]1 7 actions ) no inn] s5se4 ,hav+ once seiz$ _! absurdity1 he c\ld no long] keep !m up40 ,my ,confession1 p4 #h4 #id ,op4 cit41 ,lett] ,,iii41 abridg$4 ,i subjo9 an additional docum5t :i* has come into my possession1 & :i* repres5ts 9 a vivid way :at is probably a v frequ5t sort ( conv]sion1 if ! opposite ( 8fall+ 9 love10 fall+ out ( love1 may be s t]m$4 ,fall+ 9 love also con=ms frequ5tly to ?is type1 a lat5t process ( unconsci\s prep>ation (t5 prec$+ a sudd5 awak5+ to ! fact t ! mis*ief is irretrievably done4 ,! free & easy tone 9 ?is n>rative gives x a s9c]ity t speaks = itself4 8,= two ye>s ( ?is "t ,i w5t ?r\gh a v bad exp]i5ce1 :i* almo/ drove me mad4 ,i _h fall5 viol5tly 9 love ) a girl :o1 "y z %e 01 _h a _s ( coquetry l a cat4 ,z ,i look back on h] n[1 ,i hate h]1 & wond] h[ ,i c\ld ev] h fall5 s l[ z to be work$ ^u to su* an ext5t by h] attractions4 ,nev]!less1 ,i fell into a regul> fev]1 c\ld ?9k ( no?+ else2 :5ev] ,i 0 alone1 ,i pictur$ h] attractions1 & sp5t mo/ ( ! "t :5 ,i %\ld h be5 work+1 9 recall+ our previ\s int]views1 & imag9+ future conv]sations4 ,%e 0 v pretty1 good humor$1 & jolly to ! la/ degree1 & int5sely pleas$ ) my admiration4 ,w\ld give me no decid$ answ] yes or no1 & ! que] ?+ ab\t x 0 t :il/ pursu+ h] = h] h&1 ,i secretly knew all along t %e 0 unfit to be a wife = me1 & t %e nev] w\ld say yes4 ,al?\gh = a ye> we took our meals at ! same bo>d+h\se1 s t ,i saw h] cont9ually & famili>ly1 our clos] relations _h to be l>gely on ! sly1 & ?is fact1 toge!r ) my jeal\sy ( ano!r "o ( h] male admir]s1 & my own consci5ce despis+ me = my uncontrollable weakness1 made me s n]v\s & sleepless t ,i really ?\ght ,i %\ld become insane4 ,i und]/& well ^? "y m5 murd]+ _! swee!>ts1 :i* appe> s (t5 9 ! pap]s4 ,nev]!less ,i did love h] passionately1 & 9 "s ways %e did des]ve x4 8,! que] ?+ 0 ! sudd5 & unexpect$ way 9 :i* x all /opp$4 ,i 0 go+ to my "w aft] breakfa/ "o morn+1 ?9k+ z usual ( h] & ( my mis]y1 :51 j z if "s outside p[] laid hold ( me1 ,i f\nd myself turn+ r\nd & almo/ runn+ to my room1 :]e ,i imm$iately got out all ! relics ( h] :i* ,i possess$1 includ+ "s hair1 all h] notes & lett]s1 & ambrotypes on glass4 ,! =m] ,i made a fire (1 ! latt] ,i actually cru%$ b5ea? my heel1 9 a sort ( fi]ce joy ( rev5ge & puni%m5t4 ,i n[ loa!d & despis$ h] altoge!r1 & z = myself ,i felt z if a load ( disease _h sudd5ly be5 remov$ f me4 ,t 0 ! end4 ,i nev] spoke to h] or wrote to h] aga9 9 all ! subsequ5t ye>s1 & ,i h nev] _h a s+le mom5t ( lov+ ?\ght t[>ds "o :o = s _m mon?s entirely fill$ my he>t4 ,9 fact1 ,i h always r hat$ h] memory1 ?\gh n[ ,i c see t ,i _h gone unnecess>ily f> 9 t direction4 ,at any rate1 f t happy morn+ onw>d ,i rega9$ possession ( my own prop] s\l1 & h nev] s9ce fall5 into any simil> trap40 ,?is seems to me an unusually cle> example ( two diff]5t levels ( p]sonality1 inconsi/5t 9 _! dictates1 yet s well balanc$ aga9/ ea* o!r z = a long "t to fill ! life ) discord & dissatisfaction4 ,at la/1 n gradually1 b 9 a sudd5 crisis1 ! un/able equilibrium is resolv$1 & ?is happ5s s unexpect$ly t x is z if1 to use ! writ]'s words1 8"s outside p[] laid hold40 ,pr(essor ,/>buck gives an analog\s case1 & a conv]se case ( hatr$ sudd5ly turn+ into love1 9 8 ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 p4 #ada4 ,comp>e ! o!r highly curi\s in/ances :i* he gives on pp4 #acgadd1 ( sudd5 nonreligi\s alt]ations ( habit or "*4 ,he seems "r 9 conceiv+ all su* sudd5 *anges z results ( special c]ebral functions unconsci\sly develop+ until !y are ready to play a controll+ "p1 :5 !y make irruption into ! consci\s life4 ,:5 we treat ( sudd5 8conv]sion10 ,i %all make z mu* use z ,i c ( ?is hypo!sis ( subconsci\s incubation4 #ie ,h4 ,,flet*]3 ,m5ticulture1 or ! ,a,b,c ( ,true ,liv+1 ,new ,york & ,*icago1 #ahii1 pp4 #bfcf1 abridg$4 #if ,i h consid]ably abridg$ ,tol/oy's words 9 my translation4 #ig ,9 my quotations f ,bunyan ,i h omitt$ c]ta9 int]v5+ portions ( ! text4 #ih ,a sket* ( ! life ( ,/eph5 ,h4 ,bradley1 f ! age ( five to tw5tyf\r ye>s1 includ+ 8 rem>kable exp]i5ce ( ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s on ! second ev5+ ( ,novemb]1 #ahbi4 ,madison1 ,connecticut1 #ahcj4 #ii ,j\ffroy is an example3 8,d[n ?is slope x 0 t my intellig5ce _h glid$1 & little by little x _h got f> f its fir/ fai?4 ,b ?is melan*oly revolution _h n tak5 place 9 ! broad daylight ( my consci\sness2 too _m scruples1 too _m guides & sacr$ affections _h made x dreadful to me1 s t ,i 0 f> f av[+ to myself ! progress x _h made4 ,x _h gone on 9 sil5ce1 by an involunt>y elaboration ( :i* ,i 0 n ! accomplice2 & al?\gh ,i _h 9 reality long ceas$ to be a ,*ri/ian1 yet1 9 ! innoc5ce ( my int5tion1 ,i %\ld h %udd]$ to suspect x1 & ?\ght x calumny _h ,i be5 accus$ ( su* a fall+ away40 ,!n foll[s ,j\ffroy's acc\nt ( 8 c\nt]conv]sion1 quot$ above on p4 #agf4 #ajj ,"o h>dly ne$s examples2 b = love1 see p4 #agi1 note2 = fe>1 p4 #afb2 = remorse1 see ,o!llo aft] ! murd]2 = ang]1 see ,le> aft] ,cordelia's fir/ spee* to him2 = resolve1 see p4 #agh 7,j4 ,fo/] case74 ,"h is a pa?ological case 9 :i* guilt 0 ! feel+ t sudd5ly explod$3 8,"o night ,i 0 seiz$ on ent]+ b$ ) a rigor1 su* z ,sw$5borg describes z com+ ov] him ) a s5se ( hol9ess1 b ov] me ) a s5se ( guilt4 ,dur+ t :ole night ,i lay "u ! influ5ce ( ! rigor1 & f its inception ,i felt t ,i 0 "u ! curse ( ,god4 ,i h nev] done "o act ( duty 9 my life--s9s aga9/ ,god & man1 beg9n+ z f> z my memory goes back--a wildcat 9 human %ape40 #aja ,e4 ,d4 ,,/>buck3 ,! ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 pp4 #bbd1 #bfb4 #ajb ,no "o und]/&s ?is bett] ?an ,jona?an ,edw>ds und]/ood x already4 ,conv]sion n>ratives ( ! m commonplace sort mu/ always be tak5 ) ! all[ances :i* he sugge/s3 8,a rule receiv$ & e/abli%$ by common cons5t has a v great1 ?\gh to _m p]sons an ins5sible influ5ce 9 =m+ _! notions ( ! process ( _! own exp]i5ce4 ,i "k v well h[ !y proce$ z to ?is matt]1 = ,i h _h frequ5t opportunities ( obs]v+ _! conduct4 ,v (t5 _! exp]i5ce at fir/ appe>s l a confus$ *aos1 b !n ^? p>ts are select$ :i* be> ! ne>e/ resemblance to su* p>ticul> /eps z are insi/$ on2 & ^! are dwelt ^u 9 _! ?\ghts1 & spok5 ( f "t to "t1 till !y gr[ m & m conspicu\s 9 _! view1 & o!r p>ts :i* are neglect$ gr[ m & m obscure4 ,?us :at !y h exp]i5c$ is ins5sibly /ra9$1 s z to br+ x to an exact con=mity to ! s*eme already e/abli%$ 9 _! m9ds4 ,& x becomes natural also = m9i/]s1 :o h to deal ) ^? :o insi/ ^u di/9ctness & cle>ness ( me?od1 to d s too40 ,treatise on ,religi\s ,affections4 #ajc ,/udies 9 ! ,psy*ology ( ,religi\s ,ph5om5a1 ,am]ican ,j\rnal ( ,psy*ology1 vii4 #cji 7#ahif74 #ajd ,i h abridg$ ,mr4 ,hadley's acc\nt4 ,= o!r conv]sions ( drunk>ds1 see 8 pamphlet1 ,rescue ,mission ,"w1 publi%$ at ! ,old ,j]ry ,m',auley ,wat] ,/reet ,mission1 ,new ,york city4 ,a /rik+ collection ( cases also appe>s 9 ! app5dix to ,pr(essor ,leuba's article4 #aje ,a re/aurant wait] s]v$ provisionally z ,g\gh's 8,savi\r40 ,g5]al ,boo?1 ! f\nd] ( ! ,salvation ,army1 consid]s t ! fir/ vital /ep 9 sav+ outca/s consi/s 9 mak+ !m feel t "s dec5t human be+ c>es en\gh = !m to take an int]e/ 9 ! "q :e!r !y are to rise or s9k4 #ajf ,! crisis ( apa!tic melan*oly--no use 9 life--into :i* ,j4 ,s4 ,mill records t he fell1 & f :i* he em]g$ by ! read+ ( ,m>montel's ,memoirs 7,heav5 save ! m>k67 & ,wordswor?'s poetry1 is ano!r intellectual & g5]al metaphysical case4 ,see ,mill's ,autobiography1 ,new ,york1 #ahgc1 pp4 #ada1 #adh4 #ajg ,/>buck1 9 addition to 8escape f s910 discrim9ates 8spiritual illum9ation0 z a di/9ct type ( conv]sion exp]i5ce4 ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 p4 #he4 #ajh ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 p4 #aag4 #aji ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 p4 #che4 ,comp>e1 also1 pp4 #acgadd & #bfb4 #aaj ,= in/ance1 ,c4 ,g4 ,f9ney italicizes ! volitional elem5t3 8,j at ?is po9t ! :ole "q ( ,gospel salvation op5$ to my m9d 9 a mann] mo/ m>vel\s to me at ! "t4 ,i ?9k ,i !n saw1 z cle>ly z ,i ev] h 9 my life1 ! reality & fullness ( ! atonem5t ( ,*ri/4 ,gospel salvation seem$ to me to be an (f] ( some?+ to be accept$1 & all t 0 necess>y on my "p 0 to get my own cons5t to give up my s9s & accept ,*ri/4 ,aft] ?is di/9ct revelation _h /ood = "s little "t be=e my m9d1 ! "q seem$ to be put1 #8,w y accept x n[1 to day8' ,i repli$1 #8,yes2 ,i w accept x today1 or ,i w die 9 ! attempt6' 0 ,he !n w5t into ! woods1 :]e he describes 8 /ruggles4 ,he c\ld n pray1 8 he>t 0 h>d5$ 9 its pride4 8,i !n reproa*$ myself = hav+ promis$ to give my he>t to ,god be=e ,i left ! woods4 ,:5 ,i came to try1 ,i f\nd ,i c\ld n4444 ,my inw>d s\l hung back1 & !re 0 no go+ out ( my he>t to ,god4 ,! ?\ght 0 press+ me1 ( ! ra%ness ( my promise t ,i w\ld give my he>t to ,god t day1 or die 9 ! attempt4 ,x seem$ to me z if t 0 b9d+ on my s\l2 & yet ,i 0 go+ to break my v[4 ,a great s9k+ & disc\ragem5t came ov] me1 & ,i felt almo/ too weak to /& ^u my knees4 ,j at ?is mom5t ,i aga9 ?\ght ,i he>d "s "o approa* me1 & ,i op5$ my eyes to see :e!r x 7 s4 ,b "r !re ! revelation ( my pride ( he>t1 z ! great difficulty t /ood 9 ! way1 0 di/9ctly %[n to me4 ,an ov]:elm+ s5se ( my wick$ness 9 be+ a%am$ to h a human be+ see me on my knees be=e ,god took su* p[]ful possession ( me1 t ,i cri$ at ! top ( my voice1 & exclaim$ t ,i w\ld n leave t place if all ! m5 on e>? & all ! devils 9 hell surr\nd$ me4 #8,:at6' ,i said1 #8su* a degrad$ s9n] z ,i am1 on my knees confess+ my s9s to ! great & holy ,god2 & a%am$ to h any human be+1 & a s9n] l myself1 f9d me on my knees endeavor+ to make my peace ) my (f5d$ ,god6' ,! s9 appe>$ awful1 inf9ite4 ,x broke me d[n be=e ! ,"l40 ,memoirs1 pp4 #adaf1 abridg$4 #aaa ,,/>buck3 ,op4 cit41 pp4 #ia1 #aad4 #aab ,extracts f ! ,j\rnal ( ,mr4 ,john ,nelson1 ,london1 no date1 p4 #bd4 #aac ,,/>buck1 p4 #fd4 #aad ,,/>buck1 p4 #aae4 #aae ,,/>buck1 p4 #aac4 #aaf ,,edw>d',s & ,,dwight',s ,life ( ,bra9]d1 ,new ,hav51 #ahbb1 pp4 #dedg1 abridg$4 #aag ,describ+ ! :ole ph5om5on z a *ange ( equilibrium1 we might say t ! movem5t ( new psy*ic en]gies t[>ds ! p]sonal c5tre & ! recession ( old ones t[>ds ! m>g9 7or ! ris+ ( "s objects above1 & ! s9k+ ( o!rs bel[ ! consci\s ?re%old7 7 only two ways ( describ+ an indivisible ev5t4 ,d\btless ?is is (t5 absolutely true1 & ,/>buck is "r :5 he says t 8selfsurr5d]0 & 8new det]m9ation10 ?\gh seem+ at fir/ sight to be su* diff]5t exp]i5ces1 are 8really ! same ?+4 ,selfsurr5d] sees ! *ange 9 t]ms ( ! old self2 det]m9ation sees x 9 t]ms ( ! new40 ,op4 cit41 p4 #afj4 #aah ,a4 ,a4 ,,bon>3 ,nettleton & 8 ,labors1 ,ed9burgh1 #ahed1 p4 #bfa4 #aai ,,*>les ,g4 ,,f9ney3 ,memoirs writt5 by ,himself1 #ahgf1 pp4 #ag1 #ah4 #abj ,life & ,j\rnals1 ,bo/on1 #ahjf1 pp4 #cadj1 abridg$4 #aba ,my quotations are made f an ,italian translation ( ?is lett] 9 ! ,biografia del ,sig4 ,m4 ,a4 ,ratisbonne1 ,f]r>a1 #ahdc1 :i* ,i h to ?ank ,monsignore ,d4 ,o',connell ( ,rome = br++ to my notice4 ,i abridge ! orig9al4 #abb ,publi%$ 9 ! ,int]national ,sci5tific ,s]ies4 #abc ,! read] w "h please notice t 9 my exclusive reliance 9 ! la/ lecture on ! subconsci\s 8incubation0 ( motives deposit$ by a gr[+ exp]i5ce1 ,i foll[$ ! me?od ( employ+ accept$ pr9ciples ( explanation z f> z "o c4 ,! sublim9al region1 :atev] else x may be1 is at any rate a place n[ admitt$ by psy*ologi/s to exi/ = ! accumulation ( ve/iges ( s5sible exp]i5ce 7:e!r inatt5tively or att5tively regi/]$71 & = _! elaboration accord+ to ord9>y psy*ological or logical laws into results t end by atta9+ su* a 8t5sion0 t !y may at times ent] consci\sness ) some?+ l a bur/4 ,x ?us is 8sci5tific0 to int]pret all o!rwise unacc\ntable invasive alt]ations ( consci\sness z results ( ! t5sion ( sublim9al memories rea*+ ! bur/+po9t4 ,b c&or obliges me to confess t !re are occasional bur/s into consci\sness ( results ( :i* x is n easy to demon/rate any prolong$ subconsci\s incubation4 ,"s ( ! cases ,i us$ to illu/rate ! s5se ( pres5ce ( ! unse5 9 ,lecture ,,iii 7 ( ?is ord] 7comp>e pages #ei1 #fa1 #fb1 #fg72 & we %all see o!r exp]i5ces ( ! k9d :5 we come to ! subject ( my/icism4 ,! case ( ,mr4 ,bradley1 t ( ,m4 ,ratisbonne1 possibly t ( ,colonel ,g>d9]1 possibly t ( ,sa9t ,paul1 might n be s easily expla9$ 9 ?is simple way4 ,! result1 !n1 w\ld h to be ascrib$ ei!r to a m]ely physiological n]ve /orm1 a 8dis*>g+ lesion0 l t ( epilepsy2 or1 9 case x 7 useful & rational1 z 9 ! two latt] cases nam$1 to "s m my/ical or !ological hypo!sis4 ,i make ?is rem>k 9 ord] t ! read] may realize t ! subject is really complex4 ,b ,i %all keep myself z f> z possible at pres5t to ! m 8sci5tific0 view2 & only z ! plot ?ick5s 9 subsequ5t lectures %all ,i consid] ! "q ( its absolute suffici5cy z an explanation ( all ! facts4 ,t subconsci\s incubation expla9s a great numb] ( !m1 !re c be no d\bt4 #abd ,edw>ds says else:]e3 8,i am bold to say t ! "w ( ,god 9 ! conv]sion ( "o s\l1 consid]$ toge!r ) ! s\rce1 f\ndation1 & pur*ase ( x1 & also ! b5efit1 end1 & et]nal issue ( x1 is a m glori\s "w ( ,god ?an ! creation ( ! :ole mat]ial univ]se40 #abe ,em]son writes3 8,:5 we see a s\l ^: acts are regal1 graceful1 & pleasant z roses1 we mu/ ?ank ,god t su* ?+s c be & are1 & n turn s\rly on ! angel & say3 ,crump is a bett] man1 ) 8 grunt+ resi/ance to all 8 native devils40 ,true en\gh4 ,yet ,crump may really be ! bett] ,crump1 = 8 inn] discords & second bir?2 & y\r onceborn 8regal0 "*1 ?\gh inde$ always bett] ?an poor ,crump1 may fall f> %ort ( :at he individually might be _h he only "s ,crumpl capacity = compunction ov] 8 own peculi> diabolisms1 graceful & pleasant & inv>iably g5tlemanly z ^! may be4 #abf ,9 8 book1 ,! ,spiritual ,life1 ,new ,york1 #aijj4 #abg ,op4 cit41 p4 #aab4 #abh ,op4 cit41 p4 #add4 #abi ,i piece toge!r a quotation made by ,w4 ,monod1 9 8 book ,la ,vie1 & a lett] pr9t$ 9 ! "w3 ,adolphe ,monod3 ,i41 ,s\v5irs de sa ,vie1 #ahhe1 p4 #dcc4 #acj ,comm5t>y on ,galatians1 *4 iii4 v]se #ai1 & *4 ii4 v]se #bj1 abridg$4 #aca ,9 "s conv]sions1 bo? /eps are di/9ct2 9 ?is "o1 = example3-- 8,:il/ ,i 0 read+ ! evangelical treatise1 ,i 0 soon /ruck by an expression3 #8! f9i%$ "w ( ,*ri/4' #8,:y1' ,i ask$ ( myself1 #8does ! au?or use ^! t]ms8 ,:y does he n say 8! aton+ "w08' ,!n ^! words1 #8,x is f9i%$1' pres5t$ !mselves to my m9d4 #8,:at is x t is f9i%$8' ,i ask$1 & 9 an in/ant my m9d repli$3 #8,a p]fect expiation = s92 entire satisfaction has be5 giv52 ! debt has be5 paid by ! ,sub/itute4 ,*ri/ has di$ = our s9s2 n = ours only1 b = ^? ( all m54 ,if1 !n1 ! entire "w is f9i%$1 all ! debt paid1 :at rema9s = me to d8' ,9 ano!r in/ant ! light 0 %$ ?r\gh my m9d by ! ,holy ,gho/1 & ! joy\s conviction 0 giv5 me t no?+ m 0 to be done1 save to fall on my knees1 to accept ?is ,savi\r & 8 love1 to praise ,god =ev]40 ,autobiography ( ,hudson ,taylor4 ,i translate back into ,engli% f ! ,fr5* translation ( ,*all& 7,g5eva1 no date71 ! orig9al n be+ accessible4 #acb ,tol/oy's case 0 a good comm5t on ^? words4 ,!re 0 almo/ no !ology 9 8 conv]sion4 ,8 fai?/ate 0 ! s5se come back t life 0 inf9ite 9 its moral significance4 #acc ,am]ican ,j\rnal ( ,psy*ology1 vii4 #cdecdg1 abridg$4 #acd ,above1 p4 #aeb4 #ace ,,dwight3 ,life ( ,edw>ds1 ,new ,york1 #ahcj1 p4 #fa1 abridg$4 #acf ,w4 ,f4 ,,b\rne3 ,! ,k+'s ,son1 a ,memoir ( ,billy ,bray1 ,london1 ,hamilton1 ,adams ,co41 #ahhg1 p4 #i4 #acg ,consult ,,william ,b4 ,,sprague3 ,lectures on ,revivals ( ,religion1 ,new ,york1 #ahcb1 9 ! long ,app5dix to :i* ! op9ions ( a l>ge numb] ( m9i/]s are giv54 #ach ,memoirs1 p4 #cd4 #aci ,^! reports ( s5sorial photism %ade (f into :at are evid5tly only metaphorical acc\nts ( ! s5se ( new spiritual illum9ation1 z1 = in/ance1 9 ,bra9]d's /atem5t3 8,z ,i 0 walk+ 9 a ?ick grove1 unspeakable glory seem$ to op5 to ! appreh5sion ( my s\l4 ,i d n mean any ext]nal brightness1 = ,i saw no su* ?+1 nor any imag9ation ( a body ( light 9 ! ?ird heav5s1 or any?+ ( t nature1 b x 0 a new inw>d appreh5sion or view t ,i _h ( ,god40 ,9 a case l ?is next "o f ,/>buck's manuscript collection1 ! light+ up ( ! d>kness is probably also metaphorical3-- 8,"o ,sunday night1 ,i resolv$ t :5 ,i got home to ! ran* :]e ,i 0 work+1 ,i w\ld (f] myself ) my faculties & all to ,god to be us$ only by & = him4444 ,x 0 ra9+ & ! roads 7 muddy2 b ?is desire grew s /rong t ,i kneel$ d[n by ! side ( ! road & told ,god all ab\t x1 int5d+ !n to get up & g on4 ,su* a ?+ z any special answ] to my pray] nev] ent]$ my m9d1 hav+ be5 conv]t$ by fai?1 b /ill be+ mo/ und\bt$ly sav$4 ,well1 :ile ,i 0 pray+1 ,i rememb] hold+ out my h&s to ,god & tell+ him !y %\ld "w = him1 my feet walk = him1 my tongue speak = him1 etc41 etc41 if he w\ld only use me z 8 in/rum5t & give me a satisfy+ exp]i5ce--:5 sudd5ly ! d>kness ( ! night seem$ lit up--,i felt1 realiz$1 knew1 t ,god he>d & answ]$ my pray]4 ,deep happ9ess came ov] me2 ,i felt ,i 0 accept$ into ! inn] circle ( ,god's lov$ ones40 ,9 ! foll[+ case also ! fla% ( light is metaphorical3-- 8,a pray] meet+ _h be5 call$ = at close ( ev5+ s]vice4 ,! m9i/] suppos$ me impress$ by 8 disc\rse 7a mi/ake--he 0 dull74 ,he came &1 plac+ 8 h& ^u my %\ld]1 said3 #8,d y n want to give y\r he>t to ,god8' ,i repli$ 9 ! affirmative4 ,!n said he1 #8,come to ! front seat4' ,!y sang & pray$ & talk$ ) me4 ,i exp]i5c$ no?+ b unacc\ntable wret*$ness4 ,!y decl>$ t ! reason :y ,i did n #8obta9 peace' 0 because ,i 0 n will+ to give up all to ,god4 ,aft] ab\t two h\rs ! m9i/] said we w\ld g home4 ,z usual1 on retir+1 ,i pray$4 ,9 great di/ress1 ,i at ?is "t simply said1 #8,"l1 ,i h done all ,i c1 ,i leave ! :ole matt] ) !e4' ,imm$iately1 l a fla% ( light1 !re came to me a great peace1 & ,i arose & w5t into my p>5ts' b$room & said1 #8,i d feel s wond]fully happy4' ,?is ,i reg>d z ! h\r ( conv]sion4 ,x 0 ! h\r 9 :i* ,i became assur$ ( div9e acceptance & favor4 ,s f> z my life 0 conc]n$1 x made little imm$iate *ange40 #adj ,i add 9 a note a few m records3-- 8,"o morn+1 be+ 9 deep di/ress1 fe>+ e mom5t ,i %\ld drop into hell1 ,i 0 con/ra9$ to cry 9 e>ne/ = m]cy1 & ! ,"l came to my relief1 & deliv]$ my s\l f ! burd5 & guilt ( s94 ,my :ole frame 0 9 a tremor f head to foot1 & my s\l enjoy$ sweet peace4 ,! pleasure ,i !n felt 0 indescribable4 ,! happ9ess la/$ ab\t ?ree days1 dur+ :i* "t ,i nev] spoke to any p]son ab\t my feel+s40 ,autobiography ( ,,dan ,,"y1 edit$ by ,w4 ,p4 ,,/rickl&1 ,new ,york1 #ahfj4 8,9 an in/ant !re rose up 9 me su* a s5se ( ,god's tak+ c>e ( ^? :o put _! tru/ 9 him t = an h\r all ! _w 0 cry/all9e1 ! heav5s 7 lucid1 & ,i sprang to my feet & began to cry & laugh40 ,h4 ,w4 ,,bee*]1 quot$ by ,,leuba4 8,my te>s ( sorr[ *ang$ to joy1 & ,i lay !re prais+ ,god 9 su* ec/asy ( joy z only ! s\l :o exp]i5ces x c realize40--8,i _c express h[ ,i felt4 ,x 0 z if ,i _h be5 9 a d>k dungeon & lift$ into ! light ( ! sun4 ,i %\t$ & ,i sang praise unto him :o lov$ me & wa%$ me f my s9s4 ,i 0 =c$ to retire into a secret place1 = ! te>s did fl[1 & ,i did n wi% my %opmates to see me1 & yet ,i c\ld n keep x a secret40--8,i exp]i5c$ joy almo/ to weep+40--8,i felt my face mu/ h %one l t ( ,moses4 ,i _h a g5]al feel+ ( buoyancy4 ,x 0 ! greate/ joy x 0 ev] my lot to exp]i5ce40--8,i wept & laugh$ alt]nately4 ,i 0 z light z if walk+ on air4 ,i felt z if ,i _h ga9$ great] peace & happ9ess ?an ,i _h ev] expect$ to exp]i5ce40 ,,/>buck',s correspond5ts4 #ada ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 pp4 #cfj1 #ceg4 #adb ,,sa9te,,beuve3 ,port,royal1 vol4 i4 pp4 #ie & #ajf1 abridg$4 #adc 8 #8,love w\ld n be love1' says ,b\rget1 #8unless x c\ld c>ry "o to crime4' ,& s "o may say t no passion w\ld be a v]itable passion unless x c\ld c>ry "o to crime40 7,,sighele3 ,psy*ologie des ,sectes1 p4 #acf47 ,9 o!r words1 great passions annul ! ord9>y inhibitions set by 8consci5ce40 ,& conv]sely1 ( all ! crim9al human be+s1 ! false1 c[>dly1 s5sual1 or cruel p]sons :o actually live1 !re is p]haps n "o ^: crim9al impulse may n be at "s mom5t ov]p[]$ by ! pres5ce ( "s o!r emotion to :i* 8 "* is also pot5tially liable1 provid$ t o!r emotion be only made int5se en\gh4 ,fe> is usually ! mo/ available emotion = ?is result 9 ?is p>ticul> class ( p]sons4 ,x /&s = consci5ce1 & may "h be class$ appropriately z a 8high] affection40 ,if we are soon to die1 or if we believe a day ( judgm5t to be ne> at h&1 h[ quickly d we put our moral h\se 9 ord]--we d n see h[ s9 c ev]more ex]t temptation ov] u6 ,oldfa%ion$ hellfire ,*ri/ianity well knew h[ to extract f fe> its full equival5t 9 ! way ( fruits = rep5tance1 & its full conv]sion value4 #add ,example3 ,b5jam9 ,con/ant 0 (t5 m>vel$ at z an extraord9>y in/ance ( sup]ior intellig5ce ) inf]ior "*4 ,he writes 7,j\rnal1 ,p>is1 #ahie1 p4 #ef71 8,i am toss$ & dragg$ ab\t by my mis]able weakness4 ,nev] 0 any?+ s ridicul\s z my indecision4 ,n[ m>riage1 n[ solitude2 n[ ,g]many1 n[ ,france1 hesitation ^u hesitation1 & all because at bottom ,i am unable to give up any?+40 ,he c't 8get mad0 at any ( 8 alt]natives2 & ! c>e] ( a man beset by su* an allr\nd amiability is hopeless4 #ade ,! great ?+ :i* ! high] excitabilities give is c\rage2 & ! addition or subtraction ( a c]ta9 am\nt ( ?is quality makes a diff]5t man1 a diff]5t life4 ,v>i\s excitem5ts let ! c\rage loose4 ,tru/ful hope w d x2 inspir+ example w d x2 love w d x2 wra? w d x4 ,9 "s p x is natively s high t ! m]e t\* ( dang] does x1 ?\gh dang] is = mo/ m5 ! great inhibitor ( action4 8,love ( adv5ture0 becomes 9 su* p]sons a rul+ passion4 8,i believe10 says ,g5]al ,skobeleff1 8t my brav]y is simply ! passion & at ! same "t ! contempt ( dang]4 ,! risk ( life fills me ) an exagg]at$ rapture4 ,! few] !re are to %>e x1 ! m ,i l x4 ,! p>ticipation ( my body 9 ! ev5t is requir$ to furni% me an adequate excitem5t4 ,ev]y?+ intellectual appe>s to me to be reflex2 b a meet+ ( man to man1 a duel1 a dang] into :i* ,i c ?r[ myself head=emo/1 attracts me1 moves me1 intoxicates me4 ,i am crazy = x1 ,i love x1 ,i adore x4 ,i run aft] dang] z "o runs aft] wom52 ,i wi% x nev] to /op4 ,7 x always ! same1 x w\ld always br+ me a new pleasure4 ,:5 ,i ?r[ myself into an adv5ture 9 :i* ,i hope to f9d x1 my he>t palpitates ) ! unc]ta9ty2 ,i c\ld wi% at once to h x appe> & yet to delay4 ,a sort ( pa9ful & delici\s %iv] %akes me2 my entire nature runs to meet ! p]il ) an impetus t my w w\ld 9 va9 try to resi/40 7,,juliette ,,adam3 ,le ,gnral ,skobeleff1 ,n\velle ,revue1 #ahhf1 abridg$47 ,skobeleff seems to h be5 a cruel egoi/2 b ! dis9t]e/$ ,g>ibaldi1 if "o may judge by 8 8,memorie10 liv$ 9 an unflagg+ emotion ( simil> dang]seek+ excitem5t4 #adf ,see ! case on p4 #gj1 above1 :]e ! writ] describes 8 exp]i5ces ( communion ) ! ,div9e z consi/+ 8m]ely 9 ! tempor>y oblit]ation ( ! conv5tionalities :i* usually cov] my life40 #adg ,above1 p4 #bja4 8,! only radical rem$y ,i "k = dipsomania is religiomania10 is a say+ ,i h he>d quot$ f "s m$ical man4 #adh ,doddridge's ,life ( ,colonel ,james ,g>d9]1 ,london ,religi\s ,tract ,society1 pp4 #bccb4 #adi ,"h1 = example1 is a case1 f ,/>buck's book1 9 :i* a 8s5sory automatism0 br\ght ab\t quickly :at pray]s & resolves _h be5 unable to effect4 ,! subject is a woman4 ,%e writes3-- 8,:5 ,i 0 ab\t =ty ,i tri$ to quit smok+1 b ! desire 0 on me1 & _h me 9 its p[]4 ,i cri$ & pray$ & promis$ ,god to quit1 b c\ld n4 ,i _h smok$ = fifte5 ye>s4 ,:5 ,i 0 fifty?ree1 z ,i sat by ! fire "o day smok+1 a voice came to me4 ,i did n he> x ) my e>s1 b m z a dream or sort ( d\ble ?9k4 ,x said1 #8,l\isa1 lay d[n smok+4' ,at once ,i repli$1 #8,w y take ! desire away8' ,b x only kept say+3 #8,l\isa1 lay d[n smok+4' ,!n ,i got up1 laid my pipe on ! mantel%elf1 & nev] smok$ aga9 or _h any desire to4 ,! desire 0 gone z ?\gh ,i _h nev] kn[n x or t\*$ tobacco4 ,! sight ( o!rs smok+ & ! smell ( smoke nev] gave me ! lea/ wi% to t\* x aga940 ,! ,psy*ology ( ,religion1 p4 #adb4 #aej ,pr(essor ,/>buck expresses ! radical de/ruction ( old influ5ces physiologically1 z a cutt+ (f ( ! connection betwe5 high] & l[] c]ebral c5tres4 8,?is condition10 he says1 89 :i* ! associationc5tres connect$ ) ! spiritual life are cut (f f ! l[]1 is (t5 reflect$ 9 ! way correspond5ts describe _! exp]i5ces4444 ,= example3 #8,temptations f )\t /ill assail me1 b !re is no?+ )9 to respond to !m4' ,! ego "h is :olly id5tifi$ ) ! high] c5tres1 ^: quality ( feel+ is t ( )9ness4 ,ano!r ( ! respond5ts says3 #8,s9ce !n1 al?\gh ,satan tempts me1 !re is z x 7 a wall ( brass ar\nd me1 s t 8 d>ts _c t\* me4' 0--,unque/ionably1 functional exclusions ( ?is sort mu/ occur 9 ! c]ebral organ4 ,b on ! side accessible to introspection1 _! causal condition is no?+ b ! degree ( spiritual excitem5t1 gett+ at la/ s high & /rong z to be sov]eign2 & x mu/ be frankly confess$ t we d n "k j :y or h[ su* sov]eignty comes ab\t 9 "o p]son & n 9 ano!r4 ,we c only give our imag9ation a c]ta9 delusive help by me*anical analogies4 ,if we %\ld conceive1 = example1 t ! human m9d1 ) its diff]5t possibilities ( equilibrium1 might be l a _msid$ solid ) diff]5t surfaces on :i* x c\ld lie flat1 we might lik5 m5tal revolutions to ! spatial revolutions ( su* a body4 ,z x is pri$ up1 say by a lev]1 f a position 9 :i* x lies on surface ,a1 = in/ance1 x w l+] = a "t un/ably halfway up1 & if ! lev] cease to urge x1 x w tumble back or 8relapse0 "u ! cont9u$ pull ( gravity4 ,b if at la/ x rotate f> en\gh = its c5tre ( gravity to pass beyond surface ,a altoge!r1 ! body w fall ov]1 on surface ,b1 say1 & abide !re p]man5tly4 ,! pulls ( gravity t[>ds ,a h vani%$1 & may n[ be disreg>d$4 ,! polyh$ron has become immune aga9/ f>!r attraction f _! direction4 ,9 ?is figure ( spee* ! lev] may correspond to ! emotional influ5ces mak+ = a new life1 & ! initial pull ( gravity to ! anci5t drawbacks & inhibitions4 ,s long z ! emotional influ5ce fails to rea* a c]ta9 pit* ( efficacy1 ! *anges x produces are un/able1 & ! man relapses into 8 orig9al attitude4 ,b :5 a c]ta9 int5sity is atta9$ by ! new emotion1 a critical po9t is pass$1 & !re !n ensues an irrev]sible revolution1 equival5t to ! production ( a new nature4 #aea ,i use ?is ^w 9 spite ( a c]ta9 flavor ( 8sanctimoni\sness0 :i* sometimes cl+s to x1 because no o!r ^w sugge/s z well ! exact comb9ation ( affections :i* ! text goes on to describe4 #aeb 8,x w be f\nd10 says ,dr4 ,w4 ,r4 ,,+e 79 8 lectures on ,*ri/ian ,my/icism1 ,london1 #ahii1 p4 #cbf71 8t m5 ( prem95t sa9tl9ess agree v closely 9 :at !y tell u4 ,!y tell u t !y h arriv$ at an un%akable conviction1 n bas$ on inf]5ce b on imm$iate exp]i5ce1 t ,god is a _s ) :om ! human _s c hold int]c\rse2 t 9 him meet all t !y c imag9e ( goodness1 tru?1 & beauty2 t !y c see 8 footpr9ts ev]y:]e 9 nature1 & feel 8 pres5ce )9 !m z ! v life ( _! life1 s t 9 proportion z !y come to !mselves !y come to him4 ,!y tell u :at sep>ates u f him & f happ9ess is1 fir/1 selfseek+ 9 all its =ms2 &1 secondly1 s5suality 9 all its =ms2 t ^! are ! ways ( d>kness & dea?1 :i* hide f u ! face ( ,god2 :ile ! pa? ( ! j is l a %9+ light1 :i* %9e? m & m unto ! p]fect day40 #aec ,! 8en?usiasm ( humanity0 may lead to a life :i* coalesces 9 _m respects ) t ( ,*ri/ian sa9tl9ess4 ,take ! foll[+ rules propos$ to memb]s ( ! ,union p\r l',action morale1 9 ! ,bullet9 de l',union1 ,april #aae1 #ahid4 ,see1 also1 ,revue ,bleue1 ,augu/ #ac1 #ahib4 8,we w\ld make kn[n 9 our own p]sons ! usefulness ( rule1 ( discipl9e1 ( resignation & r5unciation2 we w\ld tea* ! necess>y p]petuity ( suff]+1 & expla9 ! creative "p :i* x plays4 ,we w\ld wage w> ^u false optimism2 on ! base hope ( happ9ess com+ to u ready made2 on ! notion ( a salvation by k alone1 or by mat]ial civilization alone1 va9 symbol z ?is is ( civilization1 prec>i\s ext]nal arrangem5t1 illfitt$ to replace ! intimate union & cons5t ( s\ls4 ,we w\ld wage w> also on bad morals1 :e!r 9 public or 9 private life2 on luxury1 fa/idi\sness1 & ov]ref9em5t2 on all t t5ds to increase ! pa9ful1 immoral1 & antisocial multiplication ( our wants2 on all t excites envy & dislike 9 ! s\l ( ! common p1 & confirms ! notion t ! *ief end ( life is fre$om to enjoy4 ,we w\ld prea* by our example ! respect ( sup]iors & equals1 ! respect ( all m52 affectionate simplicity 9 our relations ) inf]iors & insignificant p]sons2 indulg5ce :]e our own claims only are conc]n$1 b firmness 9 our dem&s :]e !y relate to duties t[>ds o!rs or t[>ds ! public4 8,= ! common p are :at we help !m to become2 _! vices are our vices1 gaz$ ^u1 envi$1 & imitat$2 & if !y come back ) all _! weight ^u u1 x is b j40 #aed ,above1 pp4 #bdh ff4 #aee ,h4 ,,?oreau3 ,wald51 ,riv]side edition1 p4 #bjf1 abridg$4 #aef ,c4 ,h4 ,,hilty3 ,glck1 vol4 i4 p4 #he4 #aeg ,! ,my/]y ( ,pa9 & ,dea?1 ,london1 #ahib1 p4 #beh4 #aeh ,comp>e ,madame ,guyon3 8,x 0 my practice to arise at midnight = purposes ( devotion4444 ,x seem$ to me t ,god came at ! precise "t & woke me f sleep 9 ord] t ,i might enjoy him4 ,:5 ,i 0 out ( heal? or greatly fatigu$1 he did n awake me1 b at su* times ,i felt1 ev5 9 my sleep1 a s+ul> possession ( ,god4 ,he lov$ me s mu* t he seem$ to p]vade my be+1 at a "t :5 ,i c\ld be only imp]fectly consci\s ( 8 pres5ce4 ,my sleep is sometimes brok51--a sort ( half sleep2 b my s\l seems to be awake en\gh to "k ,god1 :5 x is h>dly capable ( kn[+ any?+ else40 ,t4 ,c4 ,,upham3 ,! ,life & ,religi\s ,exp]i5ces ( ,madame de la ,mo! ,guyon1 ,new ,york1 #ahgg1 vol4 i4 p4 #bfj4 #aei ,i h consid]ably abridg$ ! words ( ! orig9al1 :i* is giv5 9 ,,edw>ds',s ,n>rative ( ! ,revival 9 ,new ,engl&4 #afj ,,b\gaud3 ,hi/4 de la ,bi5heureuse ,m>gu]ite ,m>ie1 #ahid1 p4 #abe4 #afa ,p>is1 #aijj4 #afb ,page #acj4 #afc ,page #afg4 #afd ,op4 cit41 p4 #abg4 #afe ,! b>ri] betwe5 m5 & animals also4 ,we read ( ,t[ianski1 an em95t ,poli% patriot & my/ic1 t 8"o day "o ( 8 fri5ds met him 9 ! ra91 c>ess+ a big dog :i* 0 jump+ ^u him & cov]+ him horribly ) mud4 ,on be+ ask$ :y he p]mitt$ ! animal ?us to dirty 8 clo!s1 ,t[ianski repli$3 #8,?is dog1 :om ,i am n[ meet+ = ! fir/ "t1 has %[n a great fell[ feel+ = me1 & a great joy 9 my recognition & acceptance ( 8 greet+s4 ,7 ,i to drive him (f1 ,i %\ld w\nd 8 feel+s & d him a moral injury4 ,x w\ld be an (f5se n only to him1 b to all ! spirits ( ! o!r _w :o are on ! same level ) him4 ,! damage :i* he does to my coat is z no?+ 9 comp>ison ) ! wrong :i* ,i %\ld inflict ^u him1 9 case ,i 7 to rema9 indiff]5t to ! manife/ations ( 8 fri5d%ip4 ,we ought1' he add$1 #8bo? to light5 ! condition ( animals1 :5ev] we c1 & at ! same "t to facilitate 9 ourselves t union ( ! _w ( all spirits1 :i* ! sacrifice ( ,*ri/ has made possible4' 0 ,&r ,t[ianski1 ,traduction de l',itali51 ,tur91 #ahig 7privately pr9t$74 ,i owe my k ( ?is book & ( ,t[ianski to my fri5d ,pr(essor ,w4 ,lutoslawski1 au?or ( 8,plato's ,logic40 #aff ,j4 ,,patt]son',s ,life ( ,ri*>d ,weav]1 pp4 #fffh1 abridg$4 #afg ,z :]e ! future ,buddha1 inc>nat$ z a h>e1 jumps into ! fire to cook himself = a meal = a begg>--hav+ previ\sly %ak5 himself ?ree times1 s t none ( ! insects 9 8 fur %\ld p]i% ) him4 #afh ,bullet9 de l',union p\r l',action ,morale1 ,septemb]1 #ahid4 #afi ,b4 ,,pascal3 ,prires p\r les ,maladies1 xiii41 xiv41 abridg$4 #agj ,f ,,?omas ,c4 ,,upham',s ,life & ,religi\s ,op9ions & ,exp]i5ces ( ,madame de la ,mo! ,guyon1 ,new ,york1 #ahgg1 ii4 #dh1 i4 #ada1 #dac1 abridg$4 #aga ,op4 cit41 ,london1 #aija1 p4 #acj4 #agb ,,clap>,,de et ,,goty3 ,deux ,hro9es de la ,foi1 ,p>is1 #ahhj1 p4 #aab4 #agc ,comp>e ^! ?ree diff]5t /atem5ts ( x3 ,a4 ,p4 ,,call3 ,z a ,matt] ( ,c\rse1 ,bo/on1 #ahid2 ,h4 ,w4 ,,dress]3 ,liv+ by ! ,_s1 ,new ,york & ,london1 #aijj2 ,h4 ,w4 ,,smi?3 ,! ,*ri/ian's ,secret ( a ,happy ,life1 publi%$ by ! ,will>d ,tract ,repository1 & n[ 9 ?\s&s ( h&s4 #agd ,t4 ,c4 ,,upham3 ,life ( ,madame ,ca?>9e ,adorna1 #c;d ed41 ,new ,york1 #ahfd1 pp4 #aeh1 #agbagd4 #age ,! ,hi/ory ( ,,?omas ,,elwood1 writt5 by ,himself1 ,london1 #ahhe1 pp4 #cbcd4 #agf ,memoirs ( ,w4,e4 ,*ann+1 ,bo/on1 #ahdj1 i4 #aif4 #agg ,l4 ,,ty]man3 ,! ,life & ,times ( ! ,rev4 ,john ,wesley1 i4 #bgd4 #agh ,a4 ,,m\n93 ,le ,cur d',ars1 ,vie de ,m4 ,j4 ,b4 ,m4 ,vianney1 #ahfd1 p4 #ede1 abridg$4 #agi ,b4 ,,w5dell3 ,cotton ,ma!r1 ,new ,york1 no date1 p4 #aih4 #ahj ,t ( ! e>li] ,jesuit1 ,,rodriguez1 :i* has be5 translat$ into all languages1 is "o ( ! be/ kn[n4 ,a conv5i5t mod]n manual1 v well put toge!r1 is ,l',asctique ,*rti5ne1 by ,m4 ,j4 ,,ribet1 ,p>is1 ,p\ssielgue1 n\velle dition1 #ahih4 #aha ,,sa9t ,,jean ,,de ,,la ,,croix1 ,vie et uvres1 ,p>is1 #ahic1 ii4 #id1 #ii1 abridg$4 #ahb 8,insects10 i4e4 lice1 7 an unfail+ tok5 ( m$ival sa9?ood4 ,we read ( ,francis ( ,assisi's %eepsk9 t 8(t5 a companion ( ! sa9t w\ld take x to ! fire to clean & disp$iculate x1 do+ s1 z he said1 because ! s]aphic fa!r himself 0 no enemy ( p$oc*i1 b on ! contr>y kept !m on him 7le portava adosso71 & held x = an honor & a glory to we> ^! cele/ial pe>ls 9 8 habit40 ,quot$ by ,p4 ,,sabati]3 ,speculum ,p]fectionis1 etc41 ,p>is1 #ahih1 p4 #bca1 note4 #ahc ,! ,life ( ! ,bless$ ,,h5ry ,,suso1 by ,himself1 translat$ by ,t4 ,f4 ,,knox1 ,london1 #ahfe1 pp4 #efhj1 abridg$4 #ahd ,,b\gaud3 ,hi/4 de la bi5heureuse ,m>gu]ite ,m>ie1 ,p>is1 #ahid1 pp4 #bfe1 #aga4 ,comp>e1 also1 pp4 #chf1 #chg4 #ahe ,,lejeune3 ,introduction la ,vie ,my/ique1 #ahii1 p4 #bgg4 ,! holocau/ simile goes back at lea/ z f> z ,ignatius ,loyola4 #ahf ,,alfonso ,,rodriguez1 ,s4 ,j43 ,pratique de la ,p]fection ,*rti5ne1 ,"p iii41 ,treatise v41 *4 x4 #ahg ,lett]s li4 & cxx4 ( ! collection translat$ into ,fr5* by ,,b\ix1 ,p>is1 #ahgj4 #ahh ,,b>toli,,mi*el1 ii4 #ac4 #ahi ,,rodriguez3 ,op4 cit41 ,"p iii41 ,treatise v41 *4 vi4 #aij ,,sa9te,,beuve3 ,hi/oire de ,port ,royal1 i4 #cdf4 #aia ,,rodriguez3 ,op4 cit41 ,"p iii41 ,treatise iii41 *aps4 vi41 vii4 #aib ,r4 ,,philip3 ,! ,life & ,times ( ,george ,:itefield1 ,london1 #ahdb1 p4 #cff4 #aic ,,edw>d ,,c>p5t]3 ,t[>ds ,democracy1 p4 #cfb1 abridg$4 #aid ,speculum ,p]fectionis1 ed4 ,p4 ,,sabati]1 ,p>is1 #ahih1 pp4 #aj1 #ac4 #aie ,an ,apology = ,m4 ,antonia ,b\rignon1 ,london1 #afii1 pp4 #bfi1 #bgj1 abridg$4 ,ano!r example f ,/>buck's ,,ms4 collection3-- 8,at a meet+ held at six ! next morn+1 ,i he>d a man relate 8 exp]i5ce4 ,he said3 ,! ,"l ask$ him if he w\ld confess ,*ri/ among ! qu>rym5 ) :om he work$1 & he said he w\ld4 ,!n he ask$ him if he w\ld give up to be us$ ( ! ,"l ! f\r hundr$ doll>s he _h laid up1 & he said he w\ld1 & ?us ! ,"l sav$ him4 ,! ?\ght came to me at once t ,i _h nev] made a real consecration ei!r ( myself or ( my prop]ty to ! ,"l1 b _h always tri$ to s]ve ! ,"l 9 my way4 ,n[ ! ,"l ask$ me if ,i w\ld s]ve him 9 8 way1 & g out alone & p5niless if he s ord]$4 ,! "q 0 press$ home1 & ,i mu/ decide3 ,to =sake all & h him1 or h all & lose him6 ,i soon decid$ to take him2 & ! bless$ assurance came1 t he _h tak5 me = 8 own1 & my joy 0 full4 ,i return$ home f ! meet+ ) feel+s z simple z a *ild4 ,i ?\ght all w\ld be glad to he> ( ! joy ( ! ,"l t possess$ me1 & s ,i began to tell ! simple /ory4 ,b to my great surprise1 ! pa/ors 7= ,i att5d$ meet+s 9 ?ree *ur*es7 oppos$ ! exp]i5ce & said x 0 fanaticism1 & "o told ! memb]s ( 8 *ur* to %un ^? t pr(ess$ x1 & ,i soon f\nd t my foes 7 ^? ( my own h\sehold40 #aif ,j4 ,j4 ,,*apman1 9 ! ,political ,nurs]y1 vol4 iv4 p4 #d1 ,april1 #aijj1 abridg$4 #aig ,,george ,,fox3 ,j\rnal1 ,philadelphia1 #ahjj1 pp4 #eifa1 abridg$4 #aih ,*ri/ian sa9ts h _h _! specialties ( devotion1 ,sa9t ,francis to ,*ri/'s w\nds2 ,sa9t ,an?ony ( ,padua to ,*ri/'s *ildhood2 ,sa9t ,b]n>d to 8 humanity2 ,sa9t ,t]esa to ,sa9t ,joseph1 etc4 ,! ,%iite ,mohamm$ans v5]ate ,ali1 ! ,prophet's son9law1 in/ead ( ,abubekr1 8 bro!r9law4 ,vambry describes a d]vi% :om he met 9 ,p]sia1 8:o _h solemnly v[$1 ?irty ye>s be=e1 t he w\ld nev] employ 8 organs ( spee* o!rwise b 9 utt]+1 ev]la/+ly1 ! "n ( 8 favorite1 ,ali1 ,ali4 ,he ?us wi%$ to signify to ! _w t he 0 ! mo/ devot$ p>tisan ( t ,ali :o _h be5 dead a ?\s& ye>s4 ,9 8 own home1 speak+ ) 8 wife1 *ildr51 & fri5ds1 no o!r ^w b #8,ali6' ev] pass$ 8 lips4 ,if he want$ food or dr9k or any?+ else1 he express$ 8 wants /ill by repeat+ #8,ali6' ,begg+ or buy+ at ! baza>1 x 0 always #8,ali6' ,treat$ ill or g5]\sly1 he w\ld /ill h>p on 8 monoton\s #8,ali6' ,latt]ly 8 zeal assum$ su* trem5d\s proportions t1 l a madman1 he w\ld race1 ! :ole day1 up & d[n ! /reets ( ! t[n1 ?r[+ 8 /ick high up into ! air1 & %riek out1 all ! :ile1 at ! top ( 8 voice1 #8,ali6' ,?is d]vi% 0 v5]at$ by ev]ybody z a sa9t1 & receiv$ ev]y:]e ) ! greate/ di/9ction40 ,,arm9ius ,,vamb,,ry1 8 ,life & ,adv5tures1 writt5 by ,himself1 ,london1 #ahhi1 p4 #fi4 ,on ! anniv]s>y ( ! dea? ( ,husse91 ,ali's son1 ! ,%iite ,moslems /ill make ! air res\nd ) cries ( 8 "n & ,ali's4 #aii ,comp>e ,h4 ,c4 ,,w>r53 ,buddhism 9 ,translation1 ,cambridge1 ,u4 ,s41 #ahih1 passim4 #bjj ,comp>e ,j4 ,l4 ,,m]rick3 ,! ,life & ,religion ( ,mohamm$1 z conta9$ 9 ! ,%eeah traditions ( ! ,hyatul,kuloob1 ,bo/on1 #ahej1 passim4 #bja ,,b\gaud3 ,hi/4 de la bi5heureuse ,m>gu]ite ,m>ie1 ,p>is1 #ahid1 p4 #ade4 #bjb ,,b\gaud3 ,hi/4 de la bi5heureuse ,m>gu]ite ,m>ie1 ,p>is1 #ahid1 pp4 #cfe1 #bda4 #bjc ,,b\gaud3 ,op4 cit41 p4 #bfg4 #bjd ,examples3 8,suff]+ f a heada*e1 %e s\ght1 = ! glory ( ,god1 to relieve h]self by hold+ c]ta9 odorif]\s sub/ances 9 h] m\?1 :5 ! ,"l appe>$ to h] to lean ov] t[>ds h] lov+ly1 & to f9d com=t ,himself 9 ^! odors4 ,aft] hav+ g5tly brea!d !m 91 ,he arose1 & said ) a gratifi$ air to ! ,sa9ts1 z if cont5t$ ) :at ,he _h done3 #8,see ! new pres5t :i* my betro!d has giv5 ,me6' 8,"o day1 at *apel1 %e he>d sup]naturally sung ! words1 #8,sanctus1 ,sanctus1 ,sanctus4' ,! ,son ( ,god lean+ t[>ds h] l a sweet lov]1 & giv+ to h] s\l ! s(te/ kiss1 said to h] at ! second ,sanctus3 #8,9 ?is ,sanctus address$ to my p]son1 receive ) ?is kiss all ! sanctity ( my div9ity & ( my humanity1 & let x be to !e a suffici5t prep>ation = approa*+ ! communion table4' ,& ! next foll[+ ,sunday1 :ile %e 0 ?ank+ ,god = ?is favor1 behold ! ,son ( ,god1 m beaute\s ?an ?\s&s ( angels1 takes h] 9 ,8 arms z if ,he 7 pr\d ( h]1 & pres5ts h] to ,god ! ,fa!r1 9 t p]fection ( sanctity ) :i* ,he _h d[]$ h]4 ,& ! ,fa!r took su* delight 9 ?is s\l ?us pres5t$ by ,8 only ,son1 t1 z if unable long] to re/ra9 ,himself1 ,he gave h]1 & ! ,holy ,gho/ gave h] also1 ! ,sanctity attribut$ to ea* by ,8 own ,sanctus--& ?us %e rema9$ end[$ ) ! pl5>y fullness ( ! bless+ ( ,sanctity1 be/[$ on h] by ,omnipot5ce1 by ,wisdom1 & by ,love40 ,rvlations de ,sa9te ,g]trude1 ,p>is1 #ahih1 i4 #dd1 #ahf4 #bje ,,furneaux ,,jordan3 ,"* 9 ,bir? & ,p>5tage1 fir/ edition4 ,lat] editions *ange ! nom5clature4 #bjf ,z to ?is di/9ction1 see ! admirably practical acc\nt 9 ,j4 ,m4 ,,baldw9',s little book1 ,! ,/ory ( ! ,m9d1 #ahih4 #bjg ,on ?is subject ,i ref] to ! "w ( ,m4 ,,murisi] 7,les ,maladies du ,s5tim5t ,religieux1 ,p>is1 #aija71 :o makes inn] unification ! ma9spr+ ( ! :ole religi\s life4 ,b all /rongly ideal int]e/s1 religi\s or irreligi\s1 unify ! m9d & t5d to subord9ate ev]y?+ to !mselves4 ,"o w\ld inf] f ,m4 ,murisi]'s pages t ?is =mal condition 0 peculi>ly *>act]i/ic ( religion1 & t "o might 9 comp>ison almo/ neglect mat]ial cont5t1 9 /udy+ ! latt]4 ,i tru/ t ! pres5t "w w conv9ce ! read] t religion has pl5ty ( mat]ial cont5t :i* is *>act]i/ic1 & :i* is m important by f> ?an any g5]al psy*ological =m4 ,9 spite ( ?is criticism1 ,i f9d ,m4 ,murisi]'s book highly in/ructive4 #bjh ,example3 8,at ! fir/ beg9n+ ( ! ,s]vitor's ,suso's int]ior life1 aft] he _h purifi$ 8 s\l prop]ly by confession1 he m>k$ out = himself1 9 ?\ght1 ?ree circles1 )9 :i* he %ut himself up1 z 9 a spiritual intr5*m5t4 ,! fir/ circle 0 8 cell1 8 *apel1 & ! *oir4 ,:5 he 0 )9 ?is circle1 he seem$ to himself 9 complete security4 ,! second circle 0 ! :ole mona/]y z f> z ! out] gate4 ,! ?ird & out]mo/ circle 0 ! gate itself1 & "h x 0 necess>y = him to /& well ^u 8 gu>d4 ,:5 he w5t outside ^! circles1 x seem$ to him t he 0 9 ! plight ( "s wild animal :i* is outside its hole1 & surr\nd$ by ! hunt1 & !re=e 9 ne$ ( all its cunn+ & wat*fulness40 ,! ,life ( ! ,bless$ ,h5ry ,suso1 by ,himself1 translat$ by ,,knox1 ,london1 #ahfe1 p4 #afh4 #bji ,vie des premires ,religieuses ,dom9ica9es de la ,congrgation de ,/4 ,dom9ique1 ,nancy2 ,nancy1 #ahif1 p4 #abi4 #baj ,,mes*l]',s ,life ( ,sa9t ,l\is ( ,gonzaga1 ,fr5* translation by ,,lebr,,qui]1 #ahia2 p4 #dj4 #baa ,9 8 boyi% notebook he praises ! mona/ic life = its fre$om f s91 & = ! imp]i%able treasures1 :i* x enables u to /ore up1 8( m]it 9 ,god's eyes :i* makes ( ,him our debtor = all ,et]nity40 ,loc4 cit41 p4 #fb4 #bab ,mademoiselle ,mori1 a novel quot$ 9 ,,h>e',s ,walks 9 ,rome1 #aijj1 i4 #ee4 ,i _c resi/ ! temptation to quote f ,/>buck's book1 p4 #chh1 ano!r case ( purification by elim9ation4 ,x runs z foll[s3-- 8,! signs ( abnormality :i* sanctifi$ p]sons %[ are ( frequ5t occurr5ce4 ,!y get out ( tune ) o!r p2 (t5 !y w h no?+ to d ) *ur*es1 :i* !y reg>d z worldly2 !y become hyp]critical t[>ds o!rs2 !y gr[ c>eless ( _! social1 political1 & f9ancial obligations4 ,z an in/ance ( ?is type may be m5tion$ a woman ( sixtyeight ( :om ! writ] made a special /udy4 ,%e _h be5 a memb] ( "o ( ! mo/ active & progressive *ur*es 9 a busy "p ( a l>ge city4 ,h] pa/or describ$ h] z hav+ rea*$ ! c5sori\s /age4 ,%e _h gr[n m & m out ( sympa?y ) ! *ur*2 h] connection ) x f9ally consi/$ simply 9 att5dance at pray]meet+1 at :i* h] only message 0 t ( repro( & condemnation ( ! o!rs = liv+ on a l[ plane4 ,at la/ %e )drew f fell[%ip ) any *ur*4 ,! writ] f\nd h] liv+ alone 9 a little room on ! top /ory ( a *eap bo>d+h\se1 q out ( t\* ) all human relations1 b app>5tly happy 9 ! enjoym5t ( h] own spiritual bless+s4 ,h] "t 0 occupi$ 9 writ+ booklets on sanctification--page aft] page ( dreamy rhapsody4 ,%e prov$ to be "o ( a small gr\p ( p]sons :o claim t entire salvation involves ?ree /eps in/ead ( two2 n only mu/ !re be conv]sion & sanctification1 b a ?ird1 :i* !y call #8crucifixion' or #8p]fect r$emption1' & :i* seems to be> ! same relation to sanctification t ?is be>s to conv]sion4 ,%e relat$ h[ ! ,_s _h said to h]1 #8,/op go+ to *ur*4 ,/op go+ to hol9ess meet+s4 ,g to y\r own room & ,i w tea* y4' ,%e pr(esses to c>e no?+ = colleges1 or prea*]s1 or *ur*es1 b only c>es to li/5 to :at ,god says to h]4 ,h] description ( h] exp]i5ce seem$ entirely consi/5t2 %e is happy & cont5t$1 & h] life is entirely satisfactory to h]self4 ,:ile li/5+ to h] own /ory1 "o 0 tempt$ to =get t x 0 f ! life ( a p]son :o c\ld n live by x 9 conjunction ) h] fell[s40 #bac ,! be/ mission>y lives ab\nd 9 ! victori\s comb9ation ( nonresi/ance ) p]sonal au?ority4 ,john ,g4 ,paton1 = example1 9 ! ,new ,hebrides1 among bruti% ,melanesian cannibals1 pres]ves a *>m$ life by d9t ( x4 ,:5 x comes to ! po9t1 no "o ev] d>es actually to /rike him4 ,native conv]ts1 inspir$ by him1 %[$ analog\s virtue4 8,"o ( our *iefs1 full ( ! ,*ri/ k9dl$ desire to seek & to save1 s5t a message to an inl& *ief1 t he & f\r att5dants w\ld come on ,sabba? & tell !m ! gospel ( ,jehovah ,god4 ,! reply came back /]nly =bidd+ _! visit1 & ?reat5+ ) dea? any ,*ri/ian t approa*$ _! village4 ,our *ief s5t 9 response a lov+ message1 tell+ !m t ,jehovah _h taught ! ,*ri/ians to return good = evil1 & t !y w\ld come un>m$ to tell !m ! /ory ( h[ ! ,son ( ,god came into ! _w & di$ 9 ord] to bless & save 8 enemies4 ,! hea!n *ief s5t back a /]n & prompt reply once m3 #8,if y come1 y w be kill$4' ,on ,sabba? morn ! ,*ri/ian *ief & 8 f\r companions 7 met outside ! village by ! hea!n *ief1 :o implor$ & ?reat5$ !m once m4 ,b ! =m] said3-- 8 #8,we come to y )\t weapons ( w>6 ,we come only to tell y ab\t ,jesus4 ,we believe t ,he w protect u today4' 8,z !y press$ /eadily =w>d t[>ds ! village1 spe>s began to be ?r[n at !m4 ,"s !y evad$1 be+ all except "o dext]\s w>riors2 & o!rs !y lit]ally receiv$ ) _! b>e h&s1 & turn$ !m aside 9 an incr$ible mann]4 ,! hea!n1 app>5tly ?und]/ruck at ^! m5 ?us approa*+ !m )\t weapons ( w>1 & n ev5 fl++ back _! own spe>s :i* !y _h caught1 aft] hav+ ?r[n :at ! old *ief call$ #8a %[] ( spe>s1' desi/$ f m]e surprise4 ,our ,*ri/ian *ief call$ out1 z he & 8 companions drew up 9 ! mid/ ( !m on ! village public gr\nd3-- 8 #8,jehovah ?us protects u4 ,he has giv5 u all y\r spe>s6 ,once we w\ld h ?r[n !m back at y & kill$ y4 ,b n[ we come1 n to fight b to tell y ab\t ,jesus4 ,he has *ang$ our d>k he>ts4 ,he asks y n[ to lay d[n all ^! y\r o!r weapons ( w>1 & to he> :at we c tell y ab\t ! love ( ,god1 our great ,fa!r1 ! only liv+ ,god4' 8,! hea!n 7 p]fectly ov]aw$4 ,!y manife/ly look$ on ^! ,*ri/ians z protect$ by "s ,invisible ,"o4 ,!y li/5$ = ! fir/ "t to ! /ory ( ! ,gospel & ( ! ,cross4 ,we liv$ to see t *ief & all 8 tribe sitt+ 9 ! s*ool ( ,*ri/4 ,& !re is p]haps n an isl& 9 ^! s\!rn seas1 among/ all ^? won = ,*ri/1 :]e simil> acts ( h]oism on ! "p ( conv]ts _c be recit$40 ,,john ,g4 ,,paton1 ,mission>y to ! ,new ,hebrides1 ,an ,autobiography1 second "p1 ,london1 #ahij1 p4 #bdc4 #bad ,sa9t ,pet]1 ,sa9t ,t]esa tells u 9 h] autobiography 7,fr5* translation1 p4 #ccc71 8_h pass$ =ty ye>s )\t ev] sleep+ m ?an an h\r & a half a day4 ,( all 8 mortifications1 ?is 0 ! "o t _h co/ him ! mo/4 ,to compass x1 he kept always on 8 knees or on 8 feet4 ,! little sleep he all[$ nature to take 0 snat*$ 9 a sitt+ po/ure1 8 head lean+ aga9/ a piece ( wood fix$ 9 ! wall4 ,ev5 _h he wi%$ to lie d[n1 x w\ld h be5 impossible1 because 8 cell 0 only f\r feet & a half long4 ,9 ! c\rse ( all ^! ye>s he nev] rais$ 8 hood1 no matt] :at ! ardor ( ! sun or ! ra9's /r5g?4 ,he nev] put on a %oe4 ,he wore a g>m5t ( co>se sackclo?1 ) no?+ else ^u 8 sk94 ,?is g>m5t 0 z scant z possible1 & ov] x a little cloak ( ! same /uff4 ,:5 ! cold 0 great he took (f ! cloak & op5$ = a :ile ! door & little w9d[ ( 8 cell4 ,!n he clos$ !m & resum$ ! mantle1--8 way1 z he told u1 ( w>m+ himself1 & mak+ 8 body feel a bett] temp]ature4 ,x 0 a frequ5t ?+ ) him to eat once only 9 ?ree days2 & :5 ,i express$ my surprise1 he said t x 0 v easy if "o once _h acquir$ ! habit4 ,"o ( 8 companions has assur$ me t he has gone sometimes eight days )\t food4444 ,8 pov]ty 0 extreme2 & 8 mortification1 ev5 9 8 y\?1 0 su* t he told me he _h pass$ ?ree ye>s 9 a h\se ( 8 ord] )\t kn[+ any ( ! monks o!rwise ?an by ! s\nd ( _! voice1 = he nev] rais$ 8 eyes1 & only f\nd 8 way ab\t by foll[+ ! o!rs4 ,he %[$ ?is same mode/y on public highways4 ,he sp5t _m ye>s )\t ev] lay+ eyes ^u a woman2 b he confess$ to me t at ! age he _h rea*$ x 0 indiff]5t to him :e!r he laid eyes on !m or n4 ,he 0 v old :5 ,i fir/ came to "k him1 & 8 body s att5uat$ t x seem$ =m$ ( no?+ s mu* z ( s _m roots ( trees4 ,) all ?is sanctity he 0 v affable4 ,he nev] spoke unless he 0 que/ion$1 b 8 intellectual "rm9d$ness & grace gave to all 8 words an irresi/ible *>m40 #bae ,f4 ,,max ,m,,ll]3 ,ramakri%na1 8 ,life & ,say+s1 #ahii1 p4 #ahj4 #baf ,,old5b]g3 ,buddha2 translat$ by ,w4 ,,hoey1 ,london1 #ahhb1 p4 #abg4 #bag 8,! vanities ( all o!rs may die out1 b ! vanity ( a sa9t z reg>ds 8 sa9?ood is h>d inde$ to we> away40 ,ramakri%na1 8 ,life & ,say+s1 #ahii1 p4 #agb4 #bah 8,:5 a *ur* has to be run by oy/]s1 icecream1 & fun10 ,i read 9 an ,am]ican religi\s pap]1 8y may be sure t x is runn+ away f ,*ri/40 ,su*1 if "o may judge by appe>ances1 is ! pres5t plight ( _m ( our *ur*es4 #bai ,c4 ,v4 ,b4 ,k43 ,fri$5s und ,kriegsmoral d] ,he]e4 ,quot$ by ,,hamon3 ,psy*ologie du ,militaire pr(essional1 #ahie1 p4 xli4 #bbj ,zur ,g5ealogie d] ,moral1 ,dritte ,abh&lung1 #ad4 ,i h abridg$1 & 9 "o place transpos$1 a s5t5ce4 #bba ,we all "k daft sa9ts1 & !y inspire a que] k9d ( av]sion4 ,b 9 comp>+ sa9ts ) /rong m5 we mu/ *oose individuals on ! same intellectual level4 ,! "uwitt$ /rong man1 homolog\s 9 8 sph]e ) ! "uwitt$ sa9t1 is ! bully ( ! slums1 ! hooligan or r[dy4 ,surely on ?is level also ! sa9t pres]ves a c]ta9 sup]iority4 #bbb ,see above1 p4 #cbg4 #bbc ,above1 pp4 #cbgccd4 #bbd ,newman's ,securus judicat orbis t]r>um is ano!r in/ance4 #bbe 8,mesopotamia0 is ! /ock comic in/ance4--,an excell5t old ,g]man lady1 :o _h done "s travel+ 9 h] day1 us$ to describe to me h] ,sehnsu*t t %e might yet visit 8,philadelphi10 ^: wondr\s "n _h always haunt$ h] imag9ation4 ,( ,john ,fo/] x is said t 8s+le words 7z *alc$ony71 or ! names ( anci5t h]oes1 _h a mighty fasc9ation ov] him4 #8,at any "t ! ^w h]mit 0 en\gh to transport him4' ,! words woods & =e/s w\ld produce ! mo/ p[]ful emotion40 ,fo/]'s ,life1 by ,,ryl&1 ,new ,york1 #ahdf1 p4 #c4 #bbf ,! ,two ,voices4 ,9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,b4 ,p4 ,blood1 ,t5nyson reports ( himself z foll[s3-- 8,i h nev] _h any revelations ?r\gh an/hetics1 b a k9d ( wak+ trance--?is = lack ( a bett] ^w--,i h frequ5tly _h1 q up f boyhood1 :5 ,i h be5 all alone4 ,?is has come ^u me ?r\gh repeat+ my own "n to myself sil5tly1 till all at once1 z x 7 out ( ! int5sity ( ! consci\sness ( individuality1 individuality itself seem$ to dissolve & fade away into b\ndless be+1 & ?is n a confus$ /ate b ! cle>e/1 ! sure/ ( ! sure/1 utt]ly beyond words--:]e dea? 0 an almo/ laughable impossibility--! loss ( p]sonality 7if s x 77 seem+ no ext9ction1 b ! only true life4 ,i am a%am$ ( my feeble description4 ,h ,i n said ! /ate is utt]ly beyond words80 ,pr(essor ,tyndall1 9 a lett]1 recalls ,t5nyson say+ ( ?is condition3 8,by ,god ,almighty6 !re is no delusion 9 ! matt]6 ,x is no nebul\s ec/asy1 b a /ate ( transc5d5t wond]1 associat$ ) absolute cle>ness ( m9d40 ,memoirs ( ,alfr$ ,t5nyson1 ii4 #dgc4 #bbg ,! ,lancet1 ,july #f & #ac1 #ahie1 repr9t$ z ! ,cav5di% ,lecture1 on ,dreamy ,m5tal ,/ates1 ,london1 ,baillire1 #ahie4 ,!y h be5 a good deal discuss$ ( late by psy*ologi/s4 ,see1 = example1 ,,b]n>d,,l]oy3 ,l',illusion de ,fausse ,reconnaissance1 ,p>is1 #ahih4 #bbh ,*>les ,k+sley's ,life1 i4 #ee1 quot$ by ,,+e3 ,*ri/ian ,my/icism1 ,london1 #ahii1 p4 #cda4 #bbi ,h4 ,f4 ,,br[n3 ,j4 ,a4 ,symonds1 a ,biography1 ,london1 #ahie1 pp4 #bica1 abridg$4 #bcj ,cri*ton,br[ne expressly says t ,symonds's 8highe/ n]ve c5tres 7 9 "s degree enfeebl$ or damag$ by ^! dreamy m5tal /ates :i* afflict$ him s griev\sly40 ,symonds 01 h[ev]1 a p]fect mon/] ( _msid$ c]ebral effici5cy1 & 8 critic gives no objective gr\nds :atev] = 8 /range op9ion1 save t ,symonds compla9$ occasionally1 z all susceptible & ambiti\s m5 compla91 ( lassitude & unc]ta9ty z to 8 life's mission4 #bca ,:at read] ( ,hegel c d\bt t t s5se ( a p]fect$ ,be+ ) all its o!rness soak$ up into itself1 :i* dom9ates 8 :ole philosophy1 mu/ h come f ! prom95ce 9 8 consci\sness ( my/ical moods l ?is1 9 mo/ p]sons kept sublim9al8 ,! notion is ?or\ghly *>act]i/ic ( ! my/ical level1 & ! ,aufgabe ( mak+ x articulate 0 surely set to ,hegel's intellect by my/ical feel+4 #bcb ,,b5jam9 ,,paul ,,blood3 ,! ,an/hetic ,revelation & ! ,gi/ ( ,philosophy1 ,am/]dam1 ,n4 ,y41 #ahgd1 pp4 #ce1 #cf4 ,mr4 ,blood has made sev]al attempts to adumbrate ! an/hetic revelation1 9 pamphlets ( r>e lit]>y di/9ction1 privately pr9t$ & di/ribut$ by himself at ,am/]dam4 ,x5os ,cl>k1 a philosoph]1 :o di$ "y at ,amh]/ 9 ! '#hj's1 mu* lam5t$ by ^? :o knew him1 0 also impress$ by ! revelation4 8,9 ! fir/ place10 he once wrote to me1 8,mr4 ,blood & ,i agree t ! revelation is1 if any?+1 nonemotional4 ,x is utt]ly flat4 ,x is1 z ,mr4 ,blood says1 #8! "o sole & suffici5t insight :y1 or n :y1 b h[1 ! pres5t is pu%$ on by ! pa/1 & suck$ =w>d by ! vacuity ( ! future4 ,its inevitabl5ess defeats all attempts at /opp+ or acc\nt+ = x4 ,x is all prec$5ce & presupposition1 & que/ion+ is 9 reg>d to x =ev] too late4 ,x is an initiation ( ! pa/4' ,! real secret w\ld be ! =mula by :i* ! #8n[' keeps exfoliat+ out ( itself1 yet nev] escapes4 ,:at is x1 inde$1 t keeps exi/5ce exfoliat+8 ,! =mal be+ ( any?+1 ! logical def9ition ( x1 is /atic4 ,= m]e logic e "q conta9s its own answ]--we simply fill ! hole ) ! dirt we dug out4 ,:y are twice two f\r8 ,because1 9 fact1 f\r is twice two4 ,?us logic f9ds 9 life no propulsion1 only a mom5tum4 ,x goes because x is ago+4 ,b ! revelation adds3 x goes because x is & 0 ago+4 ,y walk1 z x 71 r\nd y\rself 9 ! revelation4 ,ord9>y philosophy is l a h\nd hunt+ 8 own trail4 ,! m he hunts ! f>!r he has to g1 & 8 nose nev] cat*es up ) 8 heels1 because x is =ev] ahead ( !m4 ,s ! pres5t is already a =egone conclusion1 & ,i am ev] too late to und]/& x4 ,b at ! mom5t ( recov]y f an/hesis1 j !n1 be=e />t+ on life1 ,i cat*1 s to speak1 a glimpse ( my heels1 a glimpse ( ! et]nal process j 9 ! act ( />t+4 ,! tru? is t we travel on a j\rney t 0 accompli%$ be=e we set out2 & ! real end ( philosophy is accompli%$1 n :5 we arrive at1 b :5 we rema9 91 our de/9ation 7be+ already !re71--:i* may occur vic>i\sly 9 ?is life :5 we cease our intellectual que/ion+4 ,t is :y !re is a smile ^u ! face ( ! revelation1 z we view x4 ,x tells u t we are =ev] half a second too late--t's all4 #8,y c\ld kiss y\r own lips1 & h all ! fun to y\rself1' x says1 if y only knew ! trick4 ,x w\ld be p]fectly easy if !y w\ld j /ay !re till y got r\nd to !m4 ,:y don't y manage x someh[80 ,dialectically m9d$ read]s ( ?is f>rago w at lea/ recognize ! region ( ?\ght ( :i* ,mr4 ,cl>k writes1 z famili>4 ,9 8 late/ pamphlet1 8,t5nyson's ,trances & ! ,an/hetic ,revelation10 ,mr4 ,blood describes its value = life z foll[s3-- 8,! ,an/hetic ,revelation is ! ,initiation ( ,man into ! ,immemorial ,my/]y ( ! ,op5 ,secret ( ,be+1 reveal$ z ! ,inevitable ,vortex ( ,cont9uity4 ,inevitable is ! ^w4 ,its motive is inh]5t--x is :at has to be4 ,x is n = any love or hate1 nor = joy nor sorr[1 nor good nor ill4 ,end1 beg9n+1 or purpose1 x kn[s n (4 8,x af=ds no p>ticul> ( ! multiplicity & v>iety ( ?+s2 b x fills appreciation ( ! hi/orical & ! sacr$ ) a secul> & intimately p]sonal illum9ation ( ! nature & motive ( exi/5ce1 :i* !n seems rem9isc5t--z if x %\ld h appe>$1 or %all yet appe>1 to e p>ticipant !re(4 8,al?\gh x is at fir/ />tl+ 9 its solemnity1 x becomes directly su* a matt] ( c\rse--s oldfa%ion$1 & s ak9 to prov]bs1 t x inspires exultation r ?an fe>1 & a s5se ( safety1 z id5tifi$ ) ! aborig9al & ! univ]sal4 ,b no words may express ! impos+ c]ta9ty ( ! pati5t t he is realiz+ ! primordial1 ,adamic surprise ( ,life4 8,repetition ( ! exp]i5ce f9ds x ev] ! same1 & z if x c\ld n possibly be o!rwise4 ,! subject resumes 8 normal consci\sness only to p>tially & fitfully rememb] its occurr5ce1 & to try to =mulate its baffl+ import1--) only ?is consolatory aft]?\ght3 t he has kn[n ! olde/ tru?1 & t he has done ) human !ories z to ! orig91 mean+1 or de/9y ( ! race4 ,he is beyond in/ruction 9 #8spiritual ?+s4' 8,! lesson is "o ( c5tral safety3 ! ,k+dom is )94 ,all days are judgm5t days3 b !re c be no climact]ic purpose ( et]nity1 nor any s*eme ( ! :ole4 ,! a/ronom] abridges ! r[ ( bewild]+ figures by increas+ 8 unit ( measurem5t3 s may we r$uce ! di/ract+ multiplicity ( ?+s to ! unity = :i* ea* ( u /&s4 8,?is has be5 my moral su/5ance s9ce ,i h kn[n ( x4 ,9 my fir/ pr9t$ m5tion ( x ,i decl>$3 #8,! _w is no m ! ali5 t]ror t 0 taught me4 ,spurn+ ! cl\dgrim$ & /ill sultry battlem5ts :5ce s lately ,jehovan ?und]s boom$1 my gray gull lifts h] w+ aga9/ ! nightfall1 & takes ! dim leagues ) a fe>less eye4' ,& n[1 aft] tw5tysev5 ye>s ( ?is exp]i5ce1 ! w+ is gray]1 b ! eye is fe>less /ill1 :ile ,i r5ew & d\bly emphasize t decl>ation4 ,i "k--z hav+ kn[n--! mean+ ( ,exi/5ce3 ! sane c5tre ( ! univ]se--at once ! wond] & ! assurance ( ! s\l--= :i* ! spee* ( reason has z yet no "n b ! ,an/hetic ,revelation40--,i h consid]ably abridg$ ! quotation4 #bcc ,op4 cit41 pp4 #ghhj1 abridg$4 ,i subjo91 also abridg+ x1 ano!r int]e/+ an/hetic revelation communicat$ to me 9 manuscript by a fri5d 9 ,engl&4 ,! subject1 a gift$ woman1 0 tak+ e!r = a surgical op]ation4 8,i wond]$ if ,i 0 9 a prison be+ tortur$1 & :y ,i rememb]$ hav+ he>d x said t p #8le>n ?r\gh suff]+1' & 9 view ( :at ,i 0 see+1 ! inadequacy ( ?is say+ /ruck me s mu* t ,i said1 al\d1 #8to suff] is to le>n4' 8,) t ,i became unconsci\s aga91 & my la/ dream imm$iately prec$$ my real com+ to4 ,x only la/$ a few seconds1 & 0 mo/ vivid & real to me1 ?\gh x may n be cle> 9 words4 8,a great ,be+ or ,p[] 0 travel+ ?r\gh ! sky1 8 foot 0 on a k9d ( lightn+ z a :eel is on a rail1 x 0 8 pa?way4 ,! lightn+ 0 made entirely ( ! spirits ( innum]able p close to "o ano!r1 & ,i 0 "o ( !m4 ,he mov$ 9 a /raight l9e1 & ea* "p ( ! /reak or fla% came into its %ort consci\s exi/5ce only t he might travel4 ,i seem$ to be directly "u ! foot ( ,god1 & ,i ?\ght he 0 gr9d+ 8 own life up out ( my pa94 ,!n ,i saw t :at he _h be5 try+ ) all 8 might to d 0 to *ange 8 c\rse1 to b5d ! l9e ( lightn+ to :i* he 0 ti$1 9 ! direction 9 :i* he want$ to g4 ,i felt my flexibility & helplessness1 & knew t he w\ld succe$4 ,he b5d$ me1 turn+ 8 corn] by means ( my hurt1 hurt+ me m ?an ,i _h ev] be5 hurt 9 my life1 & at ! acute/ po9t ( ?is1 z he pass$1 ,i saw4 ,i und]/ood = a mom5t ?+s t ,i h n[ =gott51 ?+s t no "o c\ld rememb] :ile reta9+ sanity4 ,! angle 0 an obtuse angle1 & ,i rememb] ?9k+ z ,i woke t _h he made x a "r or acute angle1 ,i %\ld h bo? suff]$ & #8se5' /ill m1 & %\ld probably h di$4 8,he w5t on & ,i came to4 ,9 t mom5t ! :ole ( my life pass$ be=e me1 includ+ ea* little mean+less piece ( di/ress1 & ,i und]/ood !m4 ,?is 0 :at x _h all meant1 ?is 0 ! piece ( "w x _h all be5 contribut+ to d4 ,i did n see ,god's purpose1 ,i only saw 8 int5tness & 8 entire rel5tlessness t[>ds 8 means4 ,he ?\ght no m ( me ?an a man ?9ks ( hurt+ a cork :5 he is op5+ w9e1 or hurt+ a c>tridge :5 he is fir+4 ,& yet1 on wak+1 my fir/ feel+ 01 & x came ) te>s1 #8,dom9e non sum digna1' = ,i _h be5 lift$ into a position = :i* ,i 0 too small4 ,i realiz$ t 9 t half h\r "u e!r ,i _h s]v$ ,god m di/9ctly & purely ?an ,i _h ev] done 9 my life be=e1 or t ,i am capable ( desir+ to d4 ,i 0 ! means ( 8 a*iev+ & reveal+ some?+1 ,i "k n :at or to :om1 & t1 to ! exact ext5t ( my capacity = suff]+4 8,:ile rega9+ consci\sness1 ,i wond]$ :y1 s9ce ,i _h gone s deep1 ,i _h se5 no?+ ( :at ! sa9ts call ! love ( ,god1 no?+ b 8 rel5tlessness4 ,& !n ,i he>d an answ]1 :i* ,i c\ld only j cat*1 say+1 #8,k & ,love are ,"o1 & ! measure is suff]+'--,i give ! words z !y came to me4 ,) t ,i came f9ally to 7into :at seem$ a dream _w comp>$ ) ! reality ( :at ,i 0 leav+71 & ,i saw t :at w\ld be call$ ! #8cause' ( my exp]i5ce 0 a slight op]ation "u insuffici5t e!r1 9 a b$ pu%$ up aga9/ a w9d[1 a common city w9d[ 9 a common city /reet4 ,if ,i _h to =mulate a few ( ! ?+s ,i !n caught a glimpse (1 !y w\ld run some:at z foll[s3-- 8,! et]nal necessity ( suff]+ & its et]nal vic>i\sness4 ,! veil$ & incommunicable nature ( ! wor/ suff]+s2--! passivity ( g5ius1 h[ x is ess5tially in/rum5tal & def5seless1 mov$1 n mov+1 x mu/ d :at x does2--! impossibility ( discov]y )\t its price2--f9ally1 ! excess ( :at ! suff]+ #8se]' or g5ius pays ov] :at 8 g5]ation ga9s4 7,he seems l "o :o sweats 8 life out to e>n en\gh to save a di/rict f fam9e1 & j z he /agg]s back1 dy+ & satisfi$1 br++ a lac ( rupees to buy gra9 )1 ,god lifts ! lac away1 dropp+ "o rupee1 & says1 #8,t y may give !m4 ,t y h e>n$ = !m4 ,! re/ is = ,,me4'7 ,i p]ceiv$ also 9 a way nev] to be =gott51 ! excess ( :at we see ov] :at we c demon/rate4 8,& s on6--^! ?+s may seem to y delusions1 or truisms2 b = me !y are d>k tru?s1 & ! p[] to put !m into ev5 su* words z ^! has be5 giv5 me by an e!r dream40 #bcd ,9 ,tune ) ! ,inf9ite1 p4 #acg4 #bce ,! l>g] ,god may !n swall[ up ! small] "o4 ,i take ?is f ,/>buck's manuscript collection3-- 8,i nev] lo/ ! consci\sness ( ! pres5ce ( ,god until ,i /ood at ! foot ( ! ,horse%oe ,falls1 ,niag>a4 ,!n ,i lo/ him 9 ! imm5sity ( :at ,i saw4 ,i also lo/ myself1 feel+ t ,i 0 an atom too small = ! notice ( ,almighty ,god40 ,i subjo9 ano!r simil> case f ,/>buck's collection3-- 8,9 t "t ! consci\sness ( ,god's ne>ness came to me sometimes4 ,i say ,god1 to describe :at is indescribable4 ,a pres5ce1 ,i might say1 yet t is too sugge/ive ( p]sonality1 & ! mom5ts ( :i* ,i speak did n hold ! consci\sness ( a p]sonality1 b some?+ 9 myself made me feel myself a "p ( some?+ bigg] ?an ,i1 t 0 controll+4 ,i felt myself "o ) ! grass1 ! trees1 birds1 insects1 ev]y?+ 9 ,nature4 ,i exult$ 9 ! m]e fact ( exi/5ce1 ( be+ a "p ( x all--! drizzl+ ra91 ! %ad[s ( ! cl\ds1 ! treetrunks1 & s on4 ,9 ! ye>s foll[+1 su* mom5ts cont9u$ to come1 b ,i want$ !m con/antly4 ,i knew s well ! satisfaction ( los+ self 9 a p]ception ( supreme p[] & love1 t ,i 0 unhappy because t p]ception 0 n con/ant40 ,! cases quot$ 9 my ?ird lecture1 pp4 #ff1 #fg1 #gj1 are /ill bett] ones ( ?is type4 ,9 h] essay1 ,! ,loss ( ,p]sonality1 9 ,! ,atlantic ,mon?ly 7vol4 lxxxv4 p4 #aie71 ,miss ,e!l ,d4 ,puff] expla9s t ! vani%+ ( ! s5se ( self1 & ! feel+ ( imm$iate unity ) ! object1 is due to ! disappe>ance1 9 ^! raptur\s exp]i5ces1 ( ! motor adju/m5ts :i* habitually int]m$iate betwe5 ! con/ant backgr\nd ( consci\sness 7:i* is ! ,self7 & ! object 9 ! =egr\nd1 :atev] x may be4 ,i mu/ ref] ! read] to ! highly in/ructive article1 :i* seems to me to ?r[ light ^u ! psy*ological conditions1 ?\gh x fails to acc\nt = ! rapture or ! revelationvalue ( ! exp]i5ce 9 ! ,subject's eyes4 #bcf ,op4 cit41 i4 #dcdd4 #bcg ,memoir5 e9] ,ideali/91 #ete ,auflage1 #aijj1 iii4 #aff4 ,= ye>s %e _h be5 unable to pray1 ow+ to mat]iali/ic belief4 #bch ,:itman 9 ano!r place expresses 9 a quiet] way :at 0 probably ) him a *ronic my/ical p]ception3 8,!re is10 he writes1 8ap>t f m]e intellect1 9 ! makeup ( e sup]ior human id5tity1 a wondr\s some?+ t realizes )\t argum5t1 frequ5tly )\t :at is call$ education 7?\gh ,i ?9k x ! goal & apex ( all education des]v+ ! "n71 an intuition ( ! absolute balance1 9 "t & space1 ( ! :ole ( ?is multif>i\sness1 ?is revel ( fools1 & incr$ible makebelieve & g5]al unsettl$ness1 we call ! _w2 a s\lsight ( t div9e clue & unse5 ?read :i* holds ! :ole cong]ies ( ?+s1 all hi/ory & "t1 & all ev5ts1 h[ev] trivial1 h[ev] mom5t\s1 l a lea%$ dog 9 ! h& ( ! hunt]4 ,( su* s\lsight & rootc5tre = ! m9d m]e optimism expla9s only ! surface40 ,:itman *>ges x aga9/ ,c>lyle t he lack$ ?is p]ception4 ,specim5 ,days & ,collect1 ,philadelphia1 #ahhb1 p4 #agd4 #bci ,my ,que/ = ,god1 ,london1 #ahig1 pp4 #bfh1 #bfi1 abridg$4 #bdj ,op4 cit41 pp4 #bef1 #beg1 abridg$4 #bda ,cosmic ,consci\sness3 a /udy 9 ! evolution ( ! human ,m9d1 ,philadelphia1 #aija1 p4 #b4 #bdb ,loc4 cit41 pp4 #g1 #h4 ,my quotation foll[s ! privately pr9t$ pamphlet :i* prec$$ ,dr4 ,bucke's l>g] "w1 & diff]s v]bally a little f ! text ( ! latt]4 #bdc ,my quotations are f ,,vivekan&a1 ,raja ,yoga1 ,london1 #ahif4 ,! complete/ s\rce ( in=mation on ,yoga is ! "w translat$ by ,,vih>i ,,lala ,,mitra3 ,yoga ,vasi%ta ,maha ,ramayana1 #d vols41 ,calcutta1 #ahiaii4 #bdd ,a ,european witness1 aft] c>efully comp>+ ! results ( ,yoga ) ^? ( ! hypnotic or dreamy /ates artificially producible by u1 says3 8,x makes ( its true disciples good1 heal?y1 & happy m54444 ,?r\gh ! ma/]y :i* ! yogi atta9s ov] 8 ?\ghts & 8 body1 he gr[s into a #8"*4' ,by ! subjection ( 8 impulses & prop5sities to 8 w1 & ! fix+ ( ! latt] ^u ! ideal ( goodness1 he becomes a #8p]sonality' h>d to influ5ce by o!rs1 & ?us almo/ ! opposite ( :at we usually imag9e a #8m$ium' scall$1 or #8psy*ic subject' to be40 ,,k>l ,,kelln]3 ,yoga3 ,e9e ,skizze1 ,mn*51 #ahif1 p4 #ba4 #bde ,i foll[ ! acc\nt 9 ,c4 ,f4 ,,koepp53 ,die ,religion des ,buddha1 ,b]l91 #aheg1 i4 #ehe ff4 #bdf ,= a full acc\nt ( him1 see ,d4 ,b4 ,,macdonald3 ,! ,life ( ,al ,ghazzali1 9 ! ,j\rnal ( ! ,am]ican ,ori5tal ,society1 #ahii1 vol4 xx4 p4 #ga4 #bdg ,a4 ,,s*m,,ld]s3 ,essai sur les coles philosophiques *ez les ,arabes1 ,p>is1 #ahdb1 pp4 #edfh1 abridg$4 #bdh ,g,,rres',s ,*ri/li*e ,my/ik gives a full acc\nt ( ! facts4 ,s does ,,ribet',s ,my/ique ,div9e1 #b vols41 ,p>is1 #ahij4 ,a /ill m me?odical mod]n "w is ! ,my/ica ,!ologia ( ,,vallgorn]a1 #b vols41 ,tur91 #ahij4 #bdi ,m4 ,r,c,,jac1 9 a rec5t volume1 makes !m ess5tial4 ,my/icism he def9es z 8! t5d5cy to draw ne> to ! ,absolute morally1 & by ! aid ( ,symbols40 ,see 8 ,fondem5ts de la ,connaissance my/ique1 ,p>is1 #ahig1 p4 #ff4 ,b !re are unque/ionably my/ical conditions 9 :i* s5sible symbols play no "p4 #bej ,sa9t ,john ( ! ,cross3 ,! ,d>k ,night ( ! ,s\l1 book ii4 *4 xvii41 9 ,vie et uvres1 #cme dition1 ,p>is1 #ahic1 iii4 #dbhdcb4 ,*apt] xi4 ( book ii4 ( ,sa9t ,john's ,asc5t ( ,c>mel is devot$ to %[+ ! h>mfulness = ! my/ical life ( ! use ( s5sible imag]y4 #bea ,9 p>ticul> ,i omit m5tion ( visual & auditory halluc9ations1 v]bal & graphic automatisms1 & su* m>vels z 8levitation10 /igmatization1 & ! heal+ ( disease4 ,^! ph5om5a1 :i* my/ics h (t5 pres5t$ 7or are believ$ to h pres5t$71 h no ess5tial my/ical significance1 = !y occur ) no consci\sness ( illum9ation :atev]1 :5 !y occur1 z !y (t5 d1 9 p]sons ( nonmy/ical m9d4 ,consci\sness ( illum9ation is = u ! ess5tial m>k ( 8my/ical0 /ates4 #beb ,! ,int]ior ,ca/le1 ,fif? ,abode1 *4 i41 9 uvres1 translat$ by ,b\ix1 iii4 #dbadbd4 #bec ,,b>toli,,mi*el3 ,vie de ,sa9t ,ignace de ,loyola1 i4 #cdcf4 ,o!rs h _h illum9ations ab\t ! creat$ _w1 ,jacob ,boehme1 = in/ance4 ,at ! age ( tw5tyfive he 0 8surr\nd$ by ! div9e light1 & repl5i%$ ) ! heav5ly k2 insomu* z go+ abroad into ! fields to a gre51 at ,grlitz1 he !re sat d[n1 & view+ ! h]bs & grass ( ! field1 9 8 inw>d light he saw into _! ess5ces1 use1 & prop]ties1 :i* 0 discov]$ to him by _! l9eam5ts1 figures1 & signatures40 ,( a lat] p]iod ( exp]i5ce he writes3 8,9 "o qu>t] ( an h\r ,i saw & knew m ?an if ,i _h be5 _m ye>s toge!r at an univ]sity4 ,= ,i saw & knew ! be+ ( all ?+s1 ! ,byss & ! ,abyss1 & ! et]nal g5]ation ( ! holy ,tr9ity1 ! desc5t & orig9al ( ! _w & ( all creatures ?r\gh ! div9e wisdom4 ,i knew & saw 9 myself all ! ?ree worlds1 ! ext]nal & visible _w be+ ( a procreation or ext]n bir? f bo? ! int]nal & spiritual worlds2 & ,i saw & knew ! :ole work+ ess5ce1 9 ! evil & 9 ! good1 & ! mutual orig9al & exi/5ce2 & likewise h[ ! fruitful be>+ womb ( et]nity br\ght =?4 ,s t ,i did n only greatly wond] at x1 b did also exce$+ly rejoice1 albeit ,i c\ld v h>dly appreh5d ! same 9 my ext]nal man & set x d[n ) ! p54 ,= ,i _h a ?or\gh view ( ! univ]se z 9 a *aos1 :]e9 all ?+s are c\*$ & wrapt up1 b x 0 impossible = me to explicate ! same40 ,jacob ,behm5's ,!osophic ,philosophy1 etc41 by ,,edw>d ,,taylor1 ,london1 #afia1 pp4 #dbe1 #dbg1 abridg$4 ,s ,george ,fox3 8,i 0 come up to ! /ate ( ,adam 9 :i* he 0 be=e he fell4 ,! creation 0 op5$ to me2 & x 0 %[$ me1 h[ all ?+s _h _! names giv5 to !m1 accord+ to _! nature & virtue4 ,i 0 at a /& 9 my m9d1 :e!r ,i %\ld practice physic = ! good ( mank9d1 see+ ! nature & virtues ( ! creatures 7 s op5$ to me by ! ,"l40 ,j\rnal1 ,philadelphia1 no date1 p4 #fi4 ,contempor>y 8,clairvoyance0 ab\nds 9 simil> revelations4 ,&rew ,jackson ,davis's cosmogonies1 = example1 or c]ta9 exp]i5ces relat$ 9 ! delectable 8,rem9isc5ces & ,memories ( ,h5ry ,?omas ,butt]wor?10 ,lebanon1 ,ohio1 #ahhf4 #bed ,vie1 pp4 #eha1 #ehb4 #bee ,loc4 cit41 p4 #egd4 #bef ,sa9t ,t]esa discrim9ates betwe5 pa9 9 :i* ! body has a "p & pure spiritual pa9 7,int]ior ,ca/le1 #f? ,abode1 *4 xi474 ,z = ! bodily "p 9 ^! cele/ial joys1 %e speaks ( x z 8p5etrat+ to ! m>r[ ( ! bones1 :il/ e>?ly pleasures affect only ! surface ( ! s5ses4 ,i ?9k10 %e adds1 8t ?is is a j description1 & ,i _c make x bett]40 ,ibid41 #e? ,abode1 *4 i4 #beg ,vie1 p4 #aih4 #beh uvres1 ii4 #cbj4 #bei ,above1 p4 #ba4 #bfj ,vie1 pp4 #bbi1 #bjj1 #bcabcc1 #bdc4 #bfa ,m,,ll]',s translation1 "p ii4 p4 #ahj4 #bfb ,t4 ,,davidson',s translation1 9 ,j\rnal ( ,speculative ,philosophy1 #ahic1 vol4 xxii4 p4 #cii4 #bfc 8,deus propt] excell5tiam non imm]ito ,nihil vocatur40 ,scotus ,erig5a1 quot$ by ,,&rew ,,se?3 ,two ,lectures on ,!ism1 ,new ,york1 #ahig1 p4 #ee4 #bfd ,j4 ,,royce3 ,/udies 9 ,good & ,evil1 p4 #bhb4 #bfe ,jacob ,behm5's ,dialogues on ! ,sup]s5sual ,life1 translat$ by ,,b]n>d ,,holl&1 ,london1 #aija1 p4 #dh4 #bff ,*]ub9is*] ,w&]smann1 ,/rophe #be4 #bfg ,op4 cit41 pp4 #db1 #gd1 abridg$4 #bfh ,f a ,fr5* book ,i take ?is my/ical expression ( happ9ess 9 ,god's indwell+ pres5ce3-- 8,jesus has come to take up 8 abode 9 my he>t4 ,x is n s mu* a habitation1 an association1 z a sort ( fusion4 ,oh1 new & bless$ life6 life :i* becomes ea* day m lum9\s4444 ,! wall be=e me1 d>k a few mom5ts s9ce1 is spl5did at ?is h\r because ! sun %9es on x4 ,:]ev] its rays fall !y light up a conflagration ( glory2 ! smalle/ speck ( glass sp>kles1 ea* gra9 ( s& emits fire2 ev5 s !re is a royal song ( triumph 9 my he>t because ! ,"l is !re4 ,my days succe$ ea* o!r2 ye/]day a blue sky2 today a cl\d$ sun2 a night fill$ ) /range dreams2 b z soon z ! eyes op51 & ,i rega9 consci\sness & seem to beg9 life aga91 x is always ! same figure be=e me1 always ! same pres5ce fill+ my he>t4444 ,=m]ly ! day 0 dull$ by ! abs5ce ( ! ,"l4 ,i us$ to wake invad$ by all sorts ( sad impressions1 & ,i did n f9d him on my pa?4 ,today he is ) me2 & ! light cl\d9ess :i* cov]s ?+s is n an ob/acle to my communion ) him4 ,i feel ! pressure ( 8 h&1 ,i feel some?+ else :i* fills me ) a s]5e joy2 %all ,i d>e to speak x out8 ,yes1 = x is ! true expression ( :at ,i exp]i5ce4 ,! ,holy ,_s is n m]ely mak+ me a visit2 x is no m]e dazzl+ app>ition :i* may f "o mom5t to ano!r spread its w+s & leave me 9 my night1 x is a p]man5t habitation4 ,he c dep>t only if he takes me ) him4 ,m ?an t2 he is n o!r ?an myself3 he is "o ) me4 ,x is n a juxtaposition1 x is a p5etration1 a pr(\nd modification ( my nature1 a new mann] ( my be+40 ,quot$ f ! ,,ms4 8( an old man0 by ,,wilfr$ ,,monod3 ,il ,vit3 six mditations sur le my/re *rti51 pp4 #bhjbhc4 #bfi ,comp>e ,m4 ,,maet]l9ck3 ,l',ornem5t des ,noces spirituelles de ,ruysbroeck1 ,bruxelles1 #ahia1 ,introduction1 p4 xix4 #bgj ,upani%ads1 ,m4 ,m,,ll]',s translation1 ii4 #ag1 #ccd4 #bga ,,s*m,,ld]s3 ,op4 cit41 p4 #baj4 #bgb ,enneads1 ,,b\illi]',s translation1 ,p>is1 #ahfa1 iii4 #efa4 ,comp>e pp4 #dgcdgg1 & vol4 i4 p4 #bg4 #bgc ,autobiography1 pp4 #cji1 #caj4 #bgd ,op4 cit41 ,/rophe #aj4 #bge ,h4 ,p4 ,,blavatsky3 ,! ,voice ( ! ,sil5ce4 #bgf ,,sw9burne3 ,on ! ,v]ge1 9 8,a ,midsumm] ,vacation40 #bgg ,comp>e ! extracts f ,dr4 ,bucke1 quot$ on pp4 #cih1 #cii4 #bgh ,z s]i\s an attempt z ,i "k to m$iate betwe5 ! my/ical region & ! discursive life is conta9$ 9 an article on ,ari/otle's ,unmov$ ,mov]1 by ,f4 ,c4 ,s4 ,,s*ill]1 9 ,m9d1 vol4 ix41 #aijj4 #bgi ,i ab/ract f weak] /ates1 & f ^? cases ( :i* ! books are full1 :]e ! director 7b usually n ! subject7 rema9s 9 d\bt :e!r ! exp]i5ce may n h proce$$ f ! demon4 #bhj ,example3 ,mr4 ,john ,nelson writes ( 8 imprisonm5t = prea*+ ,me?odism3 8,my s\l 0 z a wat]$ g>d51 & ,i c\ld s+ praises to ,god all day long2 = he turn$ my captivity into joy1 & gave me to re/ z well on ! bo>ds1 z if ,i _h be5 on a b$ ( d[n4 ,n[ c\ld ,i say1 #8,god's s]vice is p]fect fre$om1' & ,i 0 c>ri$ out mu* 9 pray] t my enemies might dr9k ( ! same riv] ( peace :i* my ,god gave s l>gely to me40 ,j\rnal1 ,london1 no date1 p4 #agb4 #bha ,,ruysbroeck1 9 ! "w :i* ,maet]l9ck has translat$1 has a *apt] aga9/ ! ant9omianism ( disciples4 ,h4 ,,delacroix',s book 7,essai sur le my/icisme spculatif en ,allemagne au ,x,i,vme ,sicle1 ,p>is1 #aijj7 is full ( ant9omian mat]ial4 ,comp>e also ,a4 ,,jundt3 ,les ,amis de ,dieu au ,x,i,vme ,sicle1 ,?se de ,/rasb\rg1 #ahgi4 #bhb ,comp>e ,,paul ,,r\sselot3 ,les ,my/iques ,espagnols1 ,p>is1 #ahfi1 *4 xii4 #bhc ,see ,,c>p5t]',s ,t[>ds ,democracy1 especially ! latt] p>ts1 & ,,jeff]ies',s wond]ful & spl5did my/ic rhapsody1 ,! ,/ory ( my ,he>t4 #bhd ,9 *apt] i4 ( book ii4 ( 8 "w ,deg5]ation1 8,,max ,,nordau0 seeks to und]m9e all my/icism by expos+ ! weakness ( ! l[] k9ds4 ,my/icism = him means any sudd5 p]ception ( hidd5 significance 9 ?+s4 ,he expla9s su* p]ception by ! abundant uncomplet$ associations :i* exp]i5ces may ar\se 9 a deg5]ate bra94 ,^! give to him :o has ! exp]i5ce a vague & va/ s5se ( its lead+ fur!r1 yet !y awak5 no def9ite or useful consequ5t 9 8 ?\ght4 ,! explanation is a plausible "o = c]ta9 sorts ( feel+ ( significance2 & o!r ali5i/s 7,,w]nicke1 = example1 9 8 ,grundriss d] ,psy*iatrie1 ,!il ii41 ,leipzig1 #ahif7 h expla9$ 8p>anoiac0 conditions by a lam+ ( ! associationorgan4 ,b ! high] my/ical flights1 ) _! positiv5ess & abruptness1 are surely products ( no su* m]ely negative condition4 ,x seems f> m reasonable to ascribe !m to inroads f ! subconsci\s life1 ( ! c]ebral activity correlative to :i* we z yet "k no?+4 #bhe ,!y sometimes add subjective audita et visa to ! facts1 b z ^! are usually int]pret$ z transmundane1 !y oblige no alt]ation 9 ! facts ( s5se4 #bhf ,comp>e ,pr(essor ,w4 ,,wallace',s ,gif=d ,lectures1 9 ,lectures & ,essays1 ,ox=d1 #ahih1 pp4 #ag ff4 #bhg ,op4 cit41 p4 #agd1 abridg$4 #bhh ,ibid41 p4 #ahf1 abridg$ & italiciz$4 #bhi ,disc\rse ,,ii4 #g4 #bij ,z reg>ds ! second>y "* ( intellectual con/ructions1 & ! primacy ( feel+ & in/9ct 9 f\nd+ religi\s beliefs1 see ! /rik+ "w ( ,h4 ,,field+1 ,! ,he>ts ( ,m51 ,london1 #aijb1 :i* came into my h&s aft] my text 0 writt54 8,cre$s10 says ! au?or1 8are ! gramm> ( religion1 !y are to religion :at gramm> is to spee*4 ,words are ! expression ( our wants2 gramm> is ! !ory =m$ aft]w>ds4 ,spee* nev] proce$$ f gramm>1 b ! rev]se4 ,z spee* progresses & *anges f unkn[n causes1 gramm> mu/ foll[0 7p4 #cac74 ,! :ole book1 :i* keeps unusually close to concrete facts1 is little m ?an an amplification ( ?is text4 #bia ,= conv5i5ce' sake1 ,i foll[ ! ord] ( ,a4 ,,/,,ckl',s ,lehrbu* d] ,philosophie1 #ete ,auflage1 ,ma9z1 #ahha1 ,b& ii4 ,b4 ,,bo$d]',s ,natural ,!ology1 ,london1 #ahia1 is a h&y ,engli% ,ca?olic ,manual2 b an almo/ id5tical doctr9e is giv5 by su* ,prote/ant !ologians z ,c4 ,,hodge3 ,sy/ematic ,!ology1 ,new ,york1 #ahgc1 or ,a4 ,h4 ,,/rong3 ,sy/ematic ,!ology1 #e? edition1 ,new ,york1 #ahif4 #bib ,x mu/ n be =gott5 t any =m ( disord] 9 ! _w might1 by ! design argum5t1 sugge/ a ,god = j t k9d ( disord]4 ,! tru? is t any /ate ( ?+s :atev] t c be nam$ is logically susceptible ( teleological int]pretation4 ,! ru9s ( ! e>?quake at ,lisbon1 = example3 ! :ole ( pa/ hi/ory _h to be plann$ exactly z x 0 to br+ ab\t 9 ! fullness ( "t j t p>ticul> arrangem5t ( dbris ( masonry1 furniture1 & once liv+ bodies4 ,no o!r tra9 ( causes w\ld h be5 suffici5t4 ,& s ( any o!r arrangem5t1 bad or good1 :i* might z a matt] ( fact be f\nd result+ any:]e f previ\s conditions4 ,to avoid su* pessimi/ic consequ5ces & save its b5efic5t design]1 ! design argum5t accord+ly invokes two o!r pr9ciples1 re/rictive 9 _! op]ation4 ,! fir/ is physical3 ,nature's =ces t5d ( _! own accord only to disord] & de/ruction1 to heaps ( ru9s1 n to ar*itecture4 ,?is pr9ciple1 ?\gh plausible at fir/ sight1 seems1 9 ! light ( rec5t biology1 to be m & m improbable4 ,! second pr9ciple is "o ( an?ropomorphic int]pretation4 ,no arrangem5t t = u is 8disord]ly0 c possibly h be5 an object ( design at all4 ,?is pr9ciple is ( c\rse a m]e assumption 9 ! int]e/s ( an?ropomorphic ,!ism4 ,:5 "o views ! _w ) no def9ite !ological bias "o way or ! o!r1 "o sees t ord] & disord]1 z we n[ recognize !m1 are purely human inv5tions4 ,we are int]e/$ 9 c]ta9 types ( arrangem5t1 useful1 /hetic1 or moral1--s int]e/$ t :5ev] we f9d !m realiz$1 ! fact emphatically rivets our att5tion4 ,! result is t we "w ov] ! cont5ts ( ! _w selectively4 ,x is ov]fl[+ ) disord]ly arrangem5ts f our po9t ( view1 b ord] is ! only ?+ we c>e = & look at1 & by *oos+1 "o c always f9d "s sort ( ord]ly arrangem5t 9 ! mid/ ( any *aos4 ,if ,i %\ld ?r[ d[n a ?\s& beans at r&om ^u a table1 ,i c\ld d\btless1 by elim9at+ a suffici5t numb] ( !m1 leave ! re/ 9 almo/ any geometrical patt]n y might propose to me1 & y might !n say t t patt]n 0 ! ?+ prefigur$ be=eh&1 & t ! o!r beans 7 m]e irrelevance & pack+ mat]ial4 ,our deal+s ) ,nature are j l ?is4 ,%e is a va/ pl5um 9 :i* our att5tion draws caprici\s l9es 9 innum]able directions4 ,we c\nt & "n :atev] lies ^u ! special l9es we trace1 :il/ ! o!r ?+s & ! untrac$ l9es are nei!r nam$ nor c\nt$4 ,!re are 9 reality inf9itely m ?+s 'unadapt$' to ea* o!r 9 ?is _w ?an !re are ?+s 'adapt$'2 inf9itely m ?+s ) irregul> relations ?an ) regul> relations betwe5 !m4 ,b we look = ! regul> k9d ( ?+ exclusively1 & +5i\sly discov] & pres]ve x 9 our memory4 ,x accumulates ) o!r regul> k9ds1 until ! collection ( !m fills our encyclopdias4 ,yet all ! :ile betwe5 & ar\nd !m lies an inf9ite anonym\s *aos ( objects t no "o ev] ?\ght ( toge!r1 ( relations t nev] yet attract$ our att5tion4 ,! facts ( ord] f :i* ! physico!ological argum5t />ts are ?us easily susceptible ( int]pretation z arbitr>y human products4 ,s long z ?is is ! case1 al?\gh ( c\rse no argum5t aga9/ ,god foll[s1 x foll[s t ! argum5t = him w fail to con/itute a knockd[n pro( ( 8 exi/5ce4 ,x w be conv9c+ only to ^? :o on o!r gr\nds believe 9 him already4 #bic ,= ! s*ola/ics ! facultas appet5di embraces feel+1 desire1 & w4 #bid ,op4 cit41 ,disc\rse ,,iii4 #g4 #bie ,9 an article1 ,h[ to make our ,ideas ,cle>1 9 ! ,popul> ,sci5ce ,mon?ly = ,janu>y1 #ahgh1 vol4 xii4 p4 #bhf4 #bif ,pragmatically1 ! mo/ important attribute ( ,god is 8 punitive ju/ice4 ,b :o1 9 ! pres5t /ate ( !ological op9ion on t po9t1 w d>e ma9ta9 t hell fire or its equival5t 9 "s %ape is r5d]$ c]ta9 by pure logic8 ,!ology h]self has l>gely bas$ ?is doctr9e ^u revelation2 &1 9 discuss+ x1 has t5d$ m & m to sub/itute conv5tional ideas ( crim9al law = a priori pr9ciples ( reason4 ,b ! v notion t ?is glori\s univ]se1 ) planets & w9ds1 & laugh+ sky & ocean1 %\ld h be5 conceiv$ & _h its beams & raft]s laid 9 te*nicalities ( crim9ality1 is incr$ible to our mod]n imag9ation4 ,x weak5s a religion to he> x argu$ ^u su* a basis4 #big ,john ,caird3 ,an ,introduction to ! ,philosophy ( ,religion1 ,london & ,new ,york1 #ahhj1 pp4 #bdcbej1 & #biabii1 mu* abridg$4 #bih ,a4 ,c4 ,,fras]3 ,philosophy ( ,!ism1 second edition1 ,ed9burgh & ,london1 #ahii1 especially "p ii4 *aps4 vii4 & viii42 ,a4 ,,se? ,,pr+le,,pattison3 ,hegelianism & ,p]sonality1 ,ibid41 #ahij1 passim4 ,! mo/ p]suasive argum5ts 9 favor ( a concrete individual ,s\l ( ! _w1 ) :i* ,i am acqua9t$1 are ^? ( my colleague1 ,josiah ,royce1 9 8 ,religi\s ,aspect ( ,philosophy1 ,bo/on1 #ahhe2 9 8 ,conception ( ,god1 ,new ,york & ,london1 #ahig2 & lately 9 8 ,ab]de5 ,gif=d ,lectures1 ,! ,_w & ! ,individual1 #b vols41 ,new ,york & ,london1 #aijajb4 ,i d\btless seem to "s ( my read]s to evade ! philosophic duty :i* my !sis 9 ?is lecture imposes on me1 by n ev5 attempt+ to meet ,pr(essor ,royce's argum5ts articulately4 ,i admit ! mom5t>y evasion4 ,9 ! pres5t lectures1 :i* are ca/ ?r\gh\t 9 a popul> m\ld1 !re seem$ no room = subtle metaphysical discussion1 & = tactical purposes x 0 suffici5t1 ! cont5tion ( philosophy be+ :at x is 7namely1 t religion c be trans=m$ into a univ]sally conv9c+ sci5ce71 to po9t to ! fact t no religi\s philosophy has actually conv9c$ ! mass ( ?9k]s4 ,mean:ile let me say t ,i hope t ! pres5t volume may be foll[$ by ano!r1 if ,i am sp>$ to write x1 9 :i* n only ,pr(essor ,royce's argum5ts1 b o!rs = moni/ic absolutism %all be consid]$ ) all ! te*nical fullness :i* _! great importance calls =4 ,at pres5t ,i resign myself to ly+ passive "u ! reproa* ( sup]ficiality4 #bii ,idea ( a ,univ]sity1 ,disc\rse ,,iii4 #g4 #cjj ,newman's imag9ation s innately crav$ an ecclesia/ical sy/em t he c write3 8,f ! age ( fifte51 dogma has be5 ! fundam5tal pr9ciple ( my religion3 ,i "k no o!r religion2 ,i _c ent] into ! idea ( any o!r sort ( religion40 ,& aga91 speak+ ( himself ab\t ! age ( ?irty1 he writes3 8,i lov$ to act z feel+ myself 9 my ,bi%op's sight1 z if x 7 ! sight ( ,god40 ,apologia1 #ahig1 pp4 #dh1 #ej4 #cja ,! intellectual diff]5ce is q on a p> 9 practical importance ) ! analog\s diff]5ce 9 "*4 ,we saw1 "u ! head ( ,sa9tl9ess1 h[ "s *>act]s res5t confusion & mu/ live 9 purity1 consi/5cy1 simplicity 7above1 p4 #bhj ff474 ,= o!rs1 on ! contr>y1 sup]abundance1 ov]pressure1 /imulation1 lots ( sup]ficial relations1 are indisp5sable4 ,!re are m5 :o w\ld suff] a v syncope if y %\ld pay all _! debts1 br+ x ab\t t _! engagem5ts _h be5 kept1 _! lett]s answ]$1 _! p]plexities reliev$1 & _! duties fulfill$1 d[n to "o :i* lay on a clean table "u _! eyes ) no?+ to int]f]e ) its imm$iate p]=mance4 ,a day /ripp$ s />+ly b>e w\ld be = !m appall+4 ,s ) ease1 elegance1 tributes ( affection1 social recognitions--"s ( u require am\nts ( ^! ?+s :i* to o!rs w\ld appe> a mass ( ly+ & sophi/ication4 #cjb ,9 ,newman's ,lectures on ,ju/ification1 ,lecture ,,viii4 #f1 !re is a spl5did passage expressive ( ?is /hetic way ( feel+ ! ,*ri/ian s*eme4 ,x is un=tunately too long to quote4 #cjc ,comp>e ! in=mality ( ,prote/antism1 :]e ! 8meek lov] ( ! good10 alone ) 8 ,god1 visits ! sick1 etc41 = _! own sakes1 ) ! elaborate 8bus9ess0 t goes on 9 ,ca?olic devotion1 & c>ries ) x ! social excitem5t ( all m complex bus9esses4 ,an ess5tially worldlym9d$ ,ca?olic woman c become a visitor ( ! sick on purely coquetti% pr9ciples1 ) h] confessor & director1 h] 8m]it0 /or+ up1 h] patron sa9ts1 h] privileg$ relation to ! ,almighty1 draw+ 8 att5tion z a pr(essional dvote1 h] def9ite 8ex]cises10 & h] def9itely recogniz$ social pose 9 ! organization4 #cjd ,above1 p4 #cfb ff4 #cje ,a full] discussion ( confession is conta9$ 9 ! excell5t "w by ,,frank ,,grang]3 ,! ,s\l ( a ,*ri/ian1 ,london1 #aijj1 *4 xii4 #cjf ,example3 8,! m9i/] at ,sudbury1 be+ at ! ,?ursday lecture 9 ,bo/on1 he>d ! (ficiat+ cl]gyman pray+ = ra94 ,z soon z ! s]vice 0 ov]1 he w5t to ! petition] & said1 #8,y ,bo/on m9i/]s1 z soon z a tulip wilts "u y\r w9d[s1 g to *ur* & pray = ra91 until all ,concord & ,sudbury are "u wat]4' 0 ,r4 ,w4 ,,em]son3 ,lectures & ,biographical ,sket*es1 p4 #cfc4 #cjg ,,augu/e ,,sabati]3 ,esquisse d'une ,philosophie de la ,religion1 #bme d41 #ahig1 pp4 #bdbf1 abridg$4 #cjh ,my au?ority = ^! /ati/ics is ! little "w on ,mll]1 by ,,fr$]ic ,g4 ,,w>ne1 ,new ,york1 #ahih4 #cji ,! ,life ( ,tru/2 ,be+ a ,n>rative ( ! ,"l's ,deal+s ) ,george ,mll]1 ,new ,am]ican edition1 ,n4 ,y41 ,cr[ell1 pp4 #bbh1 #aid1 #bai4 #caj ,ibid41 p4 #abf4 #caa ,op4 cit41 p4 #chc1 abridg$4 #cab ,ibid41 p4 #cbc4 #cac ,i _c resi/ ! temptation ( quot+ an expression ( an ev5 m primitive /yle ( religi\s ?\ght1 :i* ,i f9d 9 ,arb]'s ,engli% ,g>l&1 vol4 vii4 p4 #ddj4 ,rob]t ,lyde1 an ,engli% sailor1 along ) an ,engli% boy1 be+ prison]s on a ,fr5* %ip 9 #afhi1 set ^u ! crew1 ( sev5 ,fr5*m51 kill$ two1 made ! o!r five prison]s1 & br\ght home ! %ip4 ,lyde ?us describes h[ 9 ?is feat he f\nd 8 ,god a v pres5t help 9 "t ( tr\ble3-- 8,) ! assi/ance ( ,god ,i kept my feet :5 !y ?ree & "o m did /rive to ?r[ me d[n4 ,feel+ ! ,fr5*man :i* hung ab\t my middle hang v heavy1 ,i said to ! boy1 #8,g r\nd ! b9nacle1 & knock d[n t man t hange? on my back4' ,s ! boy did /rike him "o bl[ on ! head :i* made him fall4444 ,!n ,i look$ ab\t = a m>l9 spike or any?+ else to /rike !m )al4 ,b see+ no?+1 ,i said1 #8,,"l6 :at %all ,i d8' ,!n ca/+ up my eye ^u my left side1 & see+ a m>l9 spike hang+1 ,i j]k$ my "r arm & took hold1 & /ruck ! po9t f\r times ab\t a qu>t] ( an in* deep into ! skull ( t man t _h hold ( my left arm4 ,"o ( ! ,fr5*m5 !n haul$ ! m>l9 spike away f him4 ,b ?r\gh ,,god',s wond]ful provid5ce6 x ei!r fell out ( 8 h&1 or else he ?rew x d[n1 & at ?is "t ! ,almighty ,,god gave me /r5g? en\gh to take "o man 9 "o h&1 & ?r[ at ! o!r's head3 & look+ ab\t aga9 to see any?+ to /rike !m )al1 b see+ no?+1 ,i said1 #8,,"l6 :at %all ,i d n[8' ,& !n x pleas$ ,,god to put me 9 m9d ( my knife 9 my pocket4 ,& al?\gh two ( ! m5 _h hold ( my "r arm1 yet ,,god ,almighty /r5g!n$ me s t ,i put my "r h& into my "r pocket1 drew out ! knife & %ea?1 444 put x betwe5 my legs & drew x out1 & !n cut ! man's ?roat ) x t _h 8 back to my brea/3 & he imm$iately dropt d[n1 & sc>ce ev] /irr$ aft]40--,i h slightly abridg$ ,lyde's n>rative4 #cad ,z1 = in/ance1 ,9 ,answ] to ,pray]1 by ! ,,bi%op ,,( ,,ripon & o!rs1 ,london1 #ahih2 ,t\*+ ,incid5ts & ,rem>kable ,answ]s to ,pray]1 ,h>risburg1 ,pa41 #ahih 7872 ,h4 ,l4 ,,ha/+s3 ,! ,guid+ ,h&1 or ,provid5tial ,direction1 illu/rat$ by ,au!ntic ,in/ances1 ,bo/on1 #ahih 7874 #cae ,c4 ,,hilty3 ,glck1 ,dritt] ,!il1 #aijj1 pp4 #ib ff4 #caf 8,good ,heav560 says ,epictetus1 8any "o ?+ 9 ! creation is suffici5t to demon/rate a ,provid5ce1 to a humble & grateful m9d4 ,! m]e possibility ( produc+ milk f grass1 *eese f milk1 & wool f sk9s2 :o =m$ & plann$ x8 ,ought we n1 :e!r we dig or pl\gh or eat1 to s+ ?is hymn to ,god8 ,great is ,god1 :o has suppli$ u ) ^! in/rum5ts to till ! gr\nd2 great is ,god1 :o has giv5 u h&s & in/rum5ts ( dige/ion2 :o has giv5 u to gr[ ins5sibly & to brea! 9 sleep4 ,^! ?+s we ought =ev] to celebrate4444 ,b because ! mo/ ( y are bl9d & ins5sible1 !re mu/ be "s "o to fill ?is /ation1 & lead1 9 behalf ( all m51 ! hymn to ,god2 = :at else c ,i d1 a lame old man1 b s+ hymns to ,god8 ,7 ,i a night+ale1 ,i w\ld act ! "p ( a night+ale2 7 ,i a swan1 ! "p ( a swan4 ,b s9ce ,i am a reasonable creature1 x is my duty to praise ,god 444 & ,i call on y to jo9 ! same song40 ,works1 book i4 *4 xvi41 ,,c>t],,higg9son translation1 abridg$4 #cag ,,james ,,m>t9eau3 end ( ! s]mon 8,help ,?\ ,m9e ,unbelief10 9 ,endeav\rs aft] a ,*ri/ian ,life1 #b;d s]ies4 ,comp>e ) ?is page ! extract f ,voysey on p4 #bge1 above1 & ^? f ,pascal & ,madame ,guyon on p4 #bhf4 #cah ,s\v5irs de ma ,jeunesse1 #ahig1 p4 #abb4 #cai ,op4 cit41 ,lett] ,,xxx4 #cbj ,above1 p4 #bdh ff4 ,comp>e ! )drawal ( expression f ! _w1 9 ,melan*oliacs1 p4 #aea4 #cba ,above1 pp4 #bd1 #be4 #cbb ,a fri5d ( m9e1 a fir/rate psy*ologi/1 :o is a subject ( graphic automatism1 tells me t ! appe>ance ( indep5d5t actuation 9 ! movem5ts ( 8 arm1 :5 he writes automatically1 is s di/9ct t x obliges him to ab&on a psy*ophysical !ory :i* he _h previ\sly believ$ 91 ! !ory1 namely1 t we h no feel+ ( ! dis*>ge d[nw>ds ( our volunt>y motorc5tres4 ,we mu/ normally h su* a feel+1 he ?9ks1 or ! s5se ( an abs5ce w\ld n be s /rik+ z x is 9 ^! exp]i5ces4 ,graphic automatism ( a fully develop$ k9d is r>e 9 religi\s hi/ory1 s f> z my k goes4 ,su* /atem5ts z ,antonia ,b\rignon's1 t 8,i d no?+ b l5d my h& & _s to ano!r p[] ?an m9e10 is %[n by ! context to indicate inspiration r ?an directly automatic writ+4 ,9 "s ecc5tric sects ?is latt] occurs4 ,! mo/ /rik+ in/ance ( x is probably ! bulky volume call$1 ',oahspe1 a new ,bible 9 ! ,words ( ,jehovah & 8 angel ambassadors1' ,bo/on & ,london1 #ahia1 writt5 & illu/rat$ automatically by ,,dr4 ,,newbr\gh ( ,new ,york1 :om ,i und]/& to be n[1 or to h be5 lately1 at ! head ( ! spiriti/ic community ( ,%alam 9 ,new ,mexico4 ,! late/ automatically writt5 book :i* has come "u my notice is 8,z]t\lem's ,wisdom ( ! ,ages10 by ,,george ,a4 ,,full]1 ,bo/on1 #aija4 #cbc ,w4 ,,s&ay3 ,! ,oracles ( ,god1 ,london1 #ahib1 pp4 #dief1 abridg$4 #cbd ,op4 cit41 p4 #ia4 ,?is au?or also cites ,moses's & ,isaiah's commissions1 z giv5 9 ,exodus1 *aps4 iii4 & iv41 & ,isaiah1 *ap4 vi4 #cbe ,quot$ by ,,augu/us ,,clissold3 ,! ,prophetic ,_s 9 ,g5ius & ,madness1 #ahgj1 p4 #fg4 ,mr4 ,clissold is a ,sw$5borgian4 ,sw$5borg's case is ( c\rse ! palm>y "o ( audita et visa1 s]v+ z a basis ( religi\s revelation4 #cbf ,n,,ldeke1 ,ges*i*te des ,qorns1 #ahfj1 p4 #af4 ,comp>e ! full] acc\nt 9 ,sir ,,william ,,muir',s ,life ( ,mahomet1 #c;d ed41 #ahid1 *4 iii4 #cbg ,! ,mormon !ocracy has always be5 gov]n$ by direct revelations accord$ to ! ,presid5t ( ! ,*ur* & its ,apo/les4 ,f an oblig+ lett] writt5 to me 9 #ahii by an em95t ,mormon1 ,i quote ! foll[+ extract3-- 8,x may be v int]e/+ = y to "k t ! ,presid5t ,mr4 ,sn[ ( ! ,mormon ,*ur* claims to h _h a numb] ( revelations v rec5tly f heav54 ,to expla9 fully :at ^! revelations are1 x is necess>y to "k t we1 z a p1 believe t ! ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/ has aga9 be5 e/abli%$ ?r\gh mess5g]s s5t f heav54 ,?is ,*ur* has at its head a prophet1 se]1 & revelator1 :o gives to man ,god's holy w4 ,revelation is ! means ?r\gh :i* ! w ( ,god is decl>$ directly & 9 fullness to man4 ,^! revelations are got ?r\gh dreams ( sleep or 9 wak+ visions ( ! m9d1 by voices )\t visional appe>ance1 or by actual manife/ations ( ! ,holy ,pres5ce be=e ! eye4 ,we believe t ,god has come 9 p]son & spok5 to our prophet & revelator40 #cbh ,= example1 on pages #ace1 #afc1 #ccc1 above4 #cbi ,f ?is po9t ( view1 ! contra/s betwe5 ! heal?y & ! morbid m9d1 & betwe5 ! onceborn & ! twiceborn types1 ( :i* ,i spoke 9 e>li] lectures 7see pp4 #afbafg71 cease to be ! radical antagonisms :i* _m ?9k !m4 ,! twiceborn look d[n ^u ! rectil9e> consci\sness ( life ( ! onceborn z be+ 8m]e morality10 & n prop]ly religion4 8,dr4 ,*ann+10 an or?odox m9i/] is report$ to h said1 8is exclud$ f ! highe/ =m ( religi\s life by ! extraord9>y rectitude ( 8 "*40 ,x is inde$ true t ! outlook ^u life ( ! twiceborn--hold+ z x does m ( ! elem5t ( evil 9 solution--is ! wid] & complet]4 ,! 8h]oic0 or 8solemn0 way 9 :i* life comes to !m is a 8high] syn!sis0 into :i* heal?y m9d$ness & morbidness bo? ent] & comb9e4 ,evil is n evad$1 b sublat$ 9 ! high] religi\s *e] ( ^! p]sons 7see pp4 #dgeb1 #cfbcfe74 ,b ! f9al consci\sness :i* ea* type rea*es ( union ) ! div9e has ! same practical significance = ! individual2 & individuals may well be all[$ to get to x by ! *annels :i* lie mo/ op5 to _! sev]al temp]am5ts4 ,9 ! cases :i* 7 quot$ 9 ,lecture ,,iv1 ( ! m9dcure =m ( heal?ym9d$ness1 we f\nd abundant examples ( reg5]ative process4 ,! sev]ity ( ! crisis 9 ?is process is a matt] ( degree4 ,h[ long "o %all cont9ue to dr9k ! consci\sness ( evil1 & :5 "o %all beg9 to %ortcircuit & get rid ( x1 are also matt]s ( am\nt & degree1 s t 9 _m in/ances x is q arbitr>y :e!r we class ! individual z a onceborn or a twiceborn subject4 #ccj ,comp>e1 e4g41 ! quotation f ,r5an on p4 #cg1 above4 #cca 8,pray]ful0 tak5 9 ! broad] s5se expla9$ above on pp4 #dfc ff4 #ccb ,h[ 0 x ev] conceivable1 we ask1 t a man l ,*ri/ian ,wolff1 9 ^: dryzdu/ head all ! le>n+ ( ! e>ly eighte5? c5tury 0 conc5trat$1 %\ld h pres]v$ su* a babyl fai? 9 ! p]sonal & human "* ( ,nature z to exp\nd h] op]ations z he did 9 8 "w on ! uses ( natural ?+s8 ,?is1 = example1 is ! acc\nt he gives ( ! sun & its utility3-- 8,we see t ,god has creat$ ! sun to keep ! *angeable conditions on ! e>? 9 su* an ord] t liv+ creatures1 m5 & bea/s1 may inhabit its surface4 ,s9ce m5 are ! mo/ reasonable ( creatures1 & able to inf] ,god's invisible be+ f ! contemplation ( ! _w1 ! sun 9 s f> =? contributes to ! prim>y purpose ( creation3 )\t x ! race ( man c\ld n be pres]v$ or cont9u$4444 ,! sun makes daylight1 n only on our e>?1 b also on ! o!r planets2 & daylight is ( ! utmo/ utility to u2 = by its means we c commodi\sly c>ry on ^? occupations :i* 9 ! night"t w\ld ei!r be q impossible1 or at any rate impossible )\t our go+ to ! exp5se ( artificial light4 ,! bea/s ( ! field c f9d food by day :i* !y w\ld n be able to f9d at night4 ,moreov] we owe x to ! sunlight t we are able to see ev]y?+ t is on ! e>?'s surface1 n only ne> by1 b also at a di/ance1 & to recognize bo? ne> & f> ?+s accord+ to _! species1 :i* aga9 is ( manifold use to u n only 9 ! bus9ess necess>y to human life1 & :5 we are travel+1 b also = ! sci5tific k ( ,nature1 :i* k = ! mo/ "p dep5ds on obs]vations made ) ! help ( sight1 &1 )\t ! sun%9e1 w\ld h be5 impossible4 ,if any "o w\ld rightly impress on 8 m9d ! great advantages :i* he d]ives f ! sun1 let him imag9e himself liv+ ?r\gh only "o mon?1 & see h[ x w\ld be ) all 8 und]tak+s1 if x 7 n day b night4 ,he w\ld !n be suffici5tly conv9c$ out ( 8 own exp]i5ce1 especially if he _h mu* "w to c>ry on 9 ! /reet or 9 ! fields4444 ,f ! sun we le>n to recognize :5 x is midday1 & by kn[+ ?is po9t ( "t exactly1 we c set our clocks "r1 on :i* acc\nt a/ronomy owes mu* to ! sun4444 ,by help ( ! sun "o c f9d ! m]idian4444 ,b ! m]idian is ! basis ( our sundials1 & g5]ally speak+1 we %\ld h no sundials if we _h no sun40 ,v]nnftige ,g$ank5 von d5 ,absi*t5 d] natrli*5 ,d+e1 #aghb1 pp4 #gdhd4 ,or read ! acc\nt ( ,god's b5efic5ce 9 ! in/itution ( 8! great v>iety ?r\gh\t ! _w ( m5's faces1 voices1 & h&writ+10 giv5 9 ,d]ham's ,physico!ology1 a book t _h mu* vogue 9 ! eighte5? c5tury4 8,_h ,man's body10 says ,dr4 ,d]ham1 8be5 made accord+ to any ( ! ,a!i/ical ,s*emes1 or any o!r ,me?od ?an t ( ! inf9ite ,"l ( ! ,_w1 ?is wise ,v>iety w\ld nev] h be53 b ,m5's ,faces w\ld h be5 ca/ 9 ! same1 or n a v diff]5t ,m\ld1 _! ,organs ( ,spee* w\ld h s\nd$ ! same or n s great a ,v>iety ( ,notes2 & ! same ,/ructure ( ,muscles & ,n]ves w\ld h giv5 ! ,h& ! same ,direction 9 ,writ+4 ,& 9 ?is ,case1 :at ,confusion1 :at ,di/urbance1 :at ,mis*iefs w\ld ! _w et]nally h la9 "u6 ,no ,security c\ld h be5 to our p]sons2 no ,c]ta9ty1 no ,enjoym5t ( our ,possessions2 no ,ju/ice betwe5 ,man & ,man2 no ,di/9ction betwe5 ,good & ,bad1 betwe5 ,fri5ds & ,foes1 betwe5 ,fa!r & ,*ild1 ,husb& & ,wife1 ,male or ,female2 b all w\ld h be5 turn$ topsyturvy1 by be+ expos$ to ! ,malice ( ! ,envi\s & ill,natur$1 to ! ,fraud & ,viol5ce ( ,knaves & ,robb]s1 to ! ,=g]ies ( ! crafty ,*eat1 to ! ,lu/s ( ! ,effem9ate & ,debau*$1 & :at n6 ,our ,c\rts ( ,ju/ice c abundantly te/ify ! dire ,effects ( ,mi/ak+ ,m5's ,faces1 ( c\nt]feit+ _! ,h&s1 & =g+ ,writ+s4 ,b n[ z ! inf9itely wise ,creator & ,rul] ha? ord]$ ! ,matt]1 e man's ,face c di/+ui% him 9 ! ,light1 & 8 ,voice 9 ! ,d>k2 8 ,h&writ+ c speak = him ?\gh abs5t1 & be 8 ,witness1 & secure 8 ,contracts 9 future ,g5]ations4 ,a manife/ z well z admirable ,indication ( ! div9e ,sup]9t5d5ce & ,managem5t40 ,a ,god s c>eful z to make provision ev5 = ! unmi/akable sign+ ( bank *ecks & de$s 0 a deity truly aft] ! he>t ( eighte5? c5tury ,anglicanism4 ,i subjo91 omitt+ ! capitals1 ,d]ham's 8,v9dication ( ,god by ! ,in/itution ( ,hills & ,valleys10 & ,wolff's altoge!r cul9>y acc\nt ( ! in/itution ( ,wat]3-- 8,! uses10 says ,wolff1 8:i* wat] s]ves 9 human life are pla9 to see & ne$ n be describ$ at l5g?4 ,wat] is a univ]sal dr9k ( man & bea/s4 ,ev5 ?\gh m5 h made !mselves dr9ks t are artificial1 !y c\ld n d ?is )\t wat]4 ,be] is brew$ ( wat] & malt1 & x is ! wat] 9 x :i* qu5*es ?ir/4 ,w9e is prep>$ f grapes1 :i* c\ld nev] h gr[n )\t ! help ( wat]2 & ! same is true ( ^? dr9ks :i* 9 ,engl& & o!r places !y produce f fruit4444 ,!re=e s9ce ,god s plann$ ! _w t m5 & bea/s %\ld live ^u x & f9d !re ev]y?+ requir$ = _! necessity & conv5i5ce1 he also made wat] z "o means :]eby to make ! e>? into s excell5t a dwell+4 ,& ?is is all ! m manife/ :5 we consid] ! advantages :i* we obta9 f ?is same wat] = ! clean+ ( our h\sehold ut5sils1 ( our clo?+1 & ( o!r matt]s4444 ,:5 "o goes into a gr9d+ mill "o sees t ! gr9d/one mu/ always be kept wet & !n "o w get a /ill great] idea ( ! use ( wat]40 ,( ! hills & valleys1 ,d]ham1 aft] prais+ _! beauty1 disc\rses z foll[s3 8,"s con/itutions are inde$ ( s happy a /r5g?1 & s confirm$ an heal?1 z to be indiff]5t to almo/ any place or temp]ature ( ! air4 ,b !n o!rs are s weakly & feeble1 z n to be able to be> "o1 b c live com=tably 9 ano!r place4 ,) "s ! m subtle & f9] air ( ! hills do? be/ agree1 :o are langui%+ & dy+ 9 ! fecul5t & gross] air ( great t[ns1 or ev5 ! w>m] & vapor\s air ( ! valleys & wat]s4 ,b contr>iwise1 o!rs langui% on ! hills1 & gr[ lu/y & /rong 9 ! w>m] air ( ! valleys4 8,s t ?is opportunity ( %ift+ our abode f ! hills to ! vales1 is an admirable easem5t1 refre%m5t1 & great b5efit to ! valetud9>ian1 feeble "p ( mank9d2 af=d+ ^? an easy & com=table life1 :o w\ld o!rwise live mis]ably1 langui%1 & p9e away4 8,to ?is salut>y con=mation ( ! e>? we may add ano!r great conv5i5ce ( ! hills1 & t is af=d+ commodi\s places = habitation1 s]v+ 7z an em95t au?or worde? x7 z scre5s to keep (f ! cold & nipp+ bla/s ( ! nor!rn & ea/]ly w9ds1 & reflect+ ! b5ign & *]i%+ sunbeams1 & s r5d]+ our habitations bo? m com=table & m *e]ly 9 w9t]4 8,la/ly1 x is to ! hills t ! f\nta9s owe _! rise & ! riv]s _! conveyance1 & consequ5tly ^? va/ masses & l(ty piles are n1 z !y are *>g$1 su* rude & useless excresc5ces ( our ill=m$ globe2 b ! admirable tools ( nature1 contriv$ & ord]$ by ! inf9ite ,creator1 to d "o ( its mo/ useful works4 ,=1 0 ! surface ( ! e>? ev5 & level1 & ! middle p>ts ( its isl&s & cont95ts n m\nta9\s & high z n[ x is1 x is mo/ c]ta9 !re c\ld be no desc5t = ! riv]s1 no conveyance = ! wat]s2 b1 in/ead ( glid+ along ^? g5tle declivities :i* ! high] l&s n[ af=d !m q d[n to ! sea1 !y w\ld /agnate & p]haps /9k1 & also dr[n l>ge tracts ( l&4 8,?us ! hills & vales1 ?\gh to a peevi% & we>y travel] !y may seem incommodi\s & tr\blesome1 yet are a noble "w ( ! great ,creator1 & wisely appo9t$ by him = ! good ( our sublun>y _w40 #ccc ,until ! sev5te5? c5tury ?is mode ( ?\ght prevail$4 ,"o ne$ only recall ! dramatic treatm5t ev5 ( me*anical que/ions by ,ari/otle1 z1 = example1 8 explanation ( ! p[] ( ! lev] to make a small weight raise a l>g] "o4 ,?is is due1 accord+ to ,ari/otle1 to ! g5]ally miracul\s "* ( ! circle & ( all circul> movem5t4 ,! circle is bo? convex & concave2 x is made by a fix$ po9t & a mov+ l9e1 :i* contradict ea* o!r2 & :atev] moves 9 a circle moves 9 opposite directions4 ,nev]!less1 movem5t 9 a circle is ! mo/ 8natural0 movem5t2 & ! long arm ( ! lev]1 mov+1 z x does1 9 ! l>g] circle1 has ! great] am\nt ( ?is natural motion1 & consequ5tly requires ! less] =ce4 ,or recall ! explanation by ,h]odotus ( ! position ( ! sun 9 w9t]3 ,x moves to ! s\? because ( ! cold :i* drives x into ! w>m p>ts ( ! heav5s ov] ,libya4 ,or li/5 to ,sa9t ,augu/9e's speculations3 8,:o gave to *aff su* p[] to freeze t x pres]ves sn[ buri$ "u x1 & su* p[] to w>m t x rip5s gre5 fruit8 ,:o c expla9 ! /range prop]ties ( fire itself1 :i* black5s all t x burns1 ?\gh itself bright1 & :i*1 ?\gh ( ! mo/ beautiful colors1 discolors almo/ all t x t\*es & fe$s ^u1 & turns blaz+ fuel into grimy c9d]s8444 ,!n :at wond]ful prop]ties d we f9d 9 *>coal1 :i* is s brittle t a light tap breaks x1 & a slight pressure pulv]izes x1 & yet is s /rong t no moi/ure rots x1 nor any "t causes x to decay40 ,city ( ,god1 book xxi4 *4 iv4 ,su* aspects ( ?+s z ^!1 _! naturalness & unnaturalness1 ! sympa?ies & antipa?ies ( _! sup]ficial qualities1 _! ecc5tricities1 _! brightness & /r5g? & de/ructiv5ess1 7 inevitably ! ways 9 :i* !y orig9ally fa/5$ our att5tion4 ,if y op5 e>ly m$ical books1 y w f9d sympa!tic magic invok$ on e page4 ,take1 = example1 ! fam\s vuln]>y o9tm5t attribut$ to ,p>acelsus4 ,= ?is !re 7 a v>iety ( receipts1 includ+ usually human fat1 ! fat ( ei!r a bull1 a wild bo>1 or a be>2 p[d]$ e>?worms1 ! usnia1 or mossy gr[? on ! wea!r$ skull ( a hang$ crim9al1 & o!r mat]ials equally unpleasant--! :ole prep>$ "u ! planet ,v5us if possible1 b nev] "u ,m>s or ,saturn4 ,!n1 if a spl9t] ( wood1 dipp$ 9 ! pati5t's blood1 or ! blood/a9$ weapon t w\nd$ him1 be imm]s$ 9 ?is o9tm5t1 ! w\nd itself be+ tightly b\nd up1 ! latt] infallibly gets well1--,i quote n[ ,van ,helmont's acc\nt1--= ! blood on ! weapon or spl9t]1 conta9+ 9 x ! _s ( ! w\nd$ man1 is r\s$ to active excitem5t by ! contact ( ! o9tm5t1 :5ce !re results to x a full commission or p[] to cure its c\s9g]man1 ! blood 9 ! pati5t's body4 ,?is x does by suck+ out ! dolor\s & exotic impression f ! w\nd$ "p4 ,b to d ?is x has to implore ! aid ( ! bull's fat1 & o!r portions ( ! ungu5t4 ,! reason :y bull's fat is s p[]ful is t ! bull at ! "t ( slaught] is full ( secret reluctancy & v9dictive murmurs1 & !re=e dies ) a high] flame ( rev5ge ab\t him ?an any o!r animal4 ,& ?us we h made x out1 says ?is au?or1 t ! admirable efficacy ( ! o9tm5t ought to be imput$1 n to any auxili>y concurr5ce ( ,satan1 b simply to ! en]gy ( ! po/hum\s "* ( ,rev5ge rema9+ firmly impress$ ^u ! blood & concret$ fat 9 ! ungu5t4 ,j4 ,b4 ,,van ,,helmont3 ,a ,t]n>y ( ,p>adoxes1 translat$ by ,,walt] ,,*>leton1 ,london1 #afej4--;,i mu* abridge ! orig9al 9 my citations4 ,! au?or goes on to prove by ! analogy ( _m o!r natural facts t ?is sympa!tic action betwe5 ?+s at a di/ance is ! true rationale ( ! case4 8,if10 he says1 8! he>t ( a horse1 sla9 by a wit*1 tak5 out ( ! yet reek+ c>case1 be impal$ ^u an arr[ & roa/$1 imm$iately ! :ole wit* becomes torm5t$ ) ! insuff]able pa9s & cruelty ( ! fire1 :i* c\ld by no means happ5 unless !re prec$$ a conjunction ( ! _s ( ! wit* ) ! _s ( ! horse4 ,9 ! reek+ & yet pant+ he>t1 ! _s ( ! wit* is kept captive1 & ! retreat ( x prev5t$ by ! arr[ transfix$4 ,simil>ly ha? n _m a murd]$ c>case at ! coron]'s inque/ suff]$ a fre% hmorrhage or cru5tation at ! pres5ce ( ! assass98--! blood be+1 z 9 a furi\s fit ( ang]1 enrag$ & agitat$ by ! impress ( rev5ge conceiv$ aga9/ ! murd]]1 at ! in/ant ( ! s\l's compulsive exile f ! body4 ,s1 if y h dropsy1 g\t1 or jaundice1 by includ+ "s ( y\r w>m blood 9 ! %ell & :ite ( an egg1 :i*1 expos$ to a g5tle heat1 & mix$ ) a bait ( fle%1 y %all give to a hungry dog or hog1 ! disease %all in/antly pass f y into ! animal1 & leave y entirely4 ,& simil>ly aga91 if y burn "s ( ! milk ei!r ( a c[ or ( a woman1 ! gl& f :i* x issu$ w dry up4 ,a g5tleman at ,brussels _h 8 nose m[$ (f 9 a combat1 b ! celebrat$ surgeon ,tagliacozzus digg$ a new nose = him out ( ! sk9 ( ! arm ( a port] at ,bologna4 ,ab\t ?irte5 mon?s aft] 8 return to 8 own c\ntry1 ! engraft$ nose grew cold1 putrefi$1 & 9 a few days dropp$ (f1 & x 0 !n discov]$ t ! port] _h expir$1 ne> ab\t ! same punctilio ( "t4 ,!re are /ill at ,brussels eyewitnesses ( ?is occurr5ce10 says ,van ,helmont2 & adds1 8,i pray :at is !re 9 ?is ( sup]/ition or ( exalt$ imag9ation80 ,mod]n m9dcure lit]ature--! works ( ,pr5tice ,mul=d1 = example--is full ( sympa!tic magic4 #ccd ,comp>e ,lotze's doctr9e t ! only mean+ we c atta* to ! notion ( a ?+ z x is 89 itself0 is by conceiv+ x z x is = itself2 i4e41 z a piece ( full exp]i5ce ) a private s5se ( 8p9*0 or inn] activity ( "s sort go+ ) x4 #cce ,ev5 ! errors ( fact may possibly turn out n to be z :olesale z ! sci5ti/ assumes4 ,we saw 9 ,lecture ,,iv h[ ! religi\s conception ( ! univ]se seems to _m m9dcur]s 'v]ifi$' f day to day by _! exp]i5ce ( fact4 8,exp]i5ce ( fact0 is a field ) s _m ?+s 9 x t ! sect>ian sci5ti/1 me?odically decl9+1 z he does1 to recognize su* 8facts0 z m9dcur]s & o!rs l !m exp]i5ce1 o!rwise ?an by su* rude heads ( classification z 8bo%10 8rot10 8folly10 c]ta9ly leaves out a mass ( raw fact :i*1 save = ! indu/ri\s int]e/ ( ! religi\s 9 ! m p]sonal aspects ( reality1 w\ld nev] h succe$$ 9 gett+ itself record$ at all4 ,we "k ?is to be true already 9 c]ta9 cases2 x may1 !re=e1 be true 9 o!rs z well4 ,miracul\s heal+s h always be5 "p ( ! sup]naturali/ /ock 9 trade1 & h always be5 dismiss$ by ! sci5ti/ z figm5ts ( ! imag9ation4 ,b ! sci5ti/'s t>dy education 9 ! facts ( hypnotism has rec5tly giv5 him an app]ceiv+ mass = ph5om5a ( ?is ord]1 & he consequ5tly n[ all[s t ! heal+s may exi/1 provid$ y expressly call !m effects ( 8sugge/ion40 ,ev5 ! /igmata ( ! cross on ,sa9t ,francis's h&s & feet may on ^! t]ms n be a fable4 ,simil>ly1 ! "thonor$ ph5om5on ( diabolical possession is on ! po9t ( be+ admitt$ by ! sci5ti/ z a fact1 n[ t he has ! "n ( 8hy/]odemonopa?y0 by :i* to app]ceive x4 ,no "o c =esee j h[ f> ?is legitimation ( occulti/ ph5om5a "u newly f\nd sci5ti/ titles may proce$--ev5 8prophecy10 ev5 8levitation10 might creep into ! pale4 ,?us ! divorce betwe5 sci5ti/ facts & religi\s facts may n necess>ily be z et]nal z x at fir/ sight seems1 nor ! p]sonalism & romanticism ( ! _w1 z !y appe>$ to primitive ?9k+1 be matt]s s irrevocably outgr[n4 ,! f9al human op9ion may1 9 %ort1 9 "s mann] n[ impossible to =esee1 rev]t to ! m p]sonal /yle1 j z any pa? ( progress may foll[ a spiral r ?an a /raight l9e4 ,if ?is 7 s1 ! rigor\sly imp]sonal view ( sci5ce might "o day appe> z hav+ be5 a tempor>ily useful ecc5tricity r ?an ! def9itively triumphant position :i* ! sect>ian sci5ti/ at pres5t s confid5tly ann\nces x to be4 #ccf ,hume's criticism has bani%$ causation f ! _w ( physical objects1 & 8,sci5ce0 is absolutely satisfi$ to def9e cause 9 t]ms ( concomitant *ange--read ,ma*1 ,pe>son1 ,o/wald4 ,! 8orig9al0 ( ! notion ( causation is 9 our inn] p]sonal exp]i5ce1 & only !re c causes 9 ! oldfa%ion$ s5se be directly obs]v$ & describ$4 #ccg ,:5 ,i read 9 a religi\s pap] words l ^!3 8,p]haps ! be/ ?+ we c say ( ,god is t he is ! ,inevitable ,inf]5ce10 ,i recognize ! t5d5cy to let religion evaporate 9 intellectual t]ms4 ,w\ld m>tyrs h sung 9 ! flames = a m]e inf]5ce1 h[ev] inevitable x might be8 ,orig9al religi\s m51 l ,sa9t ,francis1 ,lu!r1 ,behm51 h usually be5 enemies ( ! intellect's pret5sion to m$dle ) religi\s ?+s4 ,yet ! intellect1 ev]y:]e invasive1 %[s ev]y:]e its %all[+ effect4 ,see h[ ! anci5t _s ( ,me?odism evaporates "u ^? wond]fully able rationali/ic booklets 7:i* e "o %\ld read7 ( a philosoph] l ,pr(essor ,b[ne 7,! ,*ri/ian ,revelation1 ,! ,*ri/ian ,life1 ,! ,atonem5t3 ,c9c9nati & ,new ,york1 #ahih1 #ahii1 #aijj74 ,see ! positively expulsive purpose ( philosophy prop]ly s call$3-- 8,religion10 writes ,m4 ,va*]ot 7,la ,religion1 ,p>is1 #ahfi1 pp4 #cac1 #dcf1 et passim71 8answ]s to a transi5t /ate or condition1 n to a p]man5t det]m9ation ( human nature1 be+ m]ely an expression ( t /age ( ! human m9d :i* is dom9at$ by ! imag9ation4444 ,*ri/ianity has b a s+le possible f9al heir to its e/ate1 & t is sci5tific philosophy40 ,9 a /ill m radical ve91 ,pr(essor ,ribot 7,psy*ologie des ,s5tim5ts1 p4 #caj7 describes ! evaporation ( religion4 ,he sums x up 9 a s+le =mula--! ev]gr[+ pr$om9ance ( ! rational intellectual elem5t1 ) ! gradual fad+ out ( ! emotional elem5t1 ?is latt] t5d+ to ent] into ! gr\p ( purely intellectual s5tim5ts4 8,( religi\s s5tim5t prop]ly s call$1 no?+ survives at la/ save a vague respect = ! unkn[able x :i* is a la/ relic ( ! fe>1 & a c]ta9 attraction t[>ds ! ideal1 :i* is a relic ( ! love1 t *>act]iz$ ! e>li] p]iods ( religi\s gr[?4 ,to /ate ?is m simply1 religion t5ds to turn into religi\s philosophy4--,^! are psy*ologically entirely diff]5t ?+s1 ! "o be+ a !oretic con/ruction ( ratioc9ation1 :]eas ! o!r is ! liv+ "w ( a gr\p ( p]sons1 or ( a great inspir$ lead]1 call+ into play ! entire ?9k+ & feel+ organism ( man40 ,i f9d ! same failure to recognize t ! /ronghold ( religion lies 9 individuality 9 attempts l ^? ( ,pr(essor ,baldw9 7,m5tal ,developm5t1 ,social & ,e?ical ,int]pretations1 *4 x47 & ,mr4 ,h4 ,r4 ,m>%all 7,in/9ct & ,reason1 *aps1 viii4 to xii47 to make x a purely 8cons]vative social =ce40 #cch ,comp>e1 = in/ance1 pages #bjc1 #bai1 #bbc1 #bbf1 #bdi to #bef1 #bge to #bgh4 #cci ,am]ican ,j\rnal ( ,psy*ology1 vii4 #cde4 #cdj ,above1 p4 #ahd4 #cda ,above1 p4 #ade4 #cdb ,above1 p4 #djj4 #cdc ,example3 ,h5ri ,p]reyve writes to ,gratry3 8,i d n "k h[ to deal ) ! happ9ess :i* y ar\s$ 9 me ?is morn+4 ,x ov]:elms me2 ,i want to d some?+1 yet ,i c d no?+ & am fit = no?+4444 ,i w\ld fa9 d great ?+s40 ,aga91 aft] an inspir+ int]view1 he writes3 8,i w5t homew>ds1 intoxicat$ ) joy1 hope1 & /r5g?4 ,i want$ to fe$ ^u my happ9ess 9 solitude1 f> f all m54 ,x 0 late2 b1 unhe$+ t1 ,i took a m\nta9 pa? & w5t on l a madman1 look+ at ! heav5s1 reg>dless ( e>?4 ,sudd5ly an in/9ct made me draw ha/ily back--,i 0 on ! v edge ( a precipice1 "o /ep m & ,i mu/ h fall54 ,i took fright & gave up my nocturnal prom5ade40 ,a4 ,,gratry3 ,h5ri ,p]reyve1 ,london1 #ahgb1 pp4 #ib1 #hi4 ,?is primacy1 9 ! fai?/ate1 ( vague expansive impulse ov] direction is well express$ 9 ,walt ,:itman's l9es 7,leaves ( ,grass1 #ahgb1 p4 #aij73-- 8,o to confront night1 /orms1 hung]1 ridicule1 accid5ts1 rebuffs1 z ! trees & animals d4444 ,de> ,cam]ado6 ,i confess ,i h urg$ y onw>d ) me1 & /ill urge y1 )\t ! lea/ idea :at is our de/9ation1 ,or :e!r we %all be victori\s1 or utt]ly quell'd & defeat$40 ,?is read9ess = great ?+s1 & ?is s5se t ! _w by its importance1 wond]fulness1 etc41 is apt = _! production1 w\ld seem to be ! undiff]5tiat$ g]m ( all ! high] fai?s4 ,tru/ 9 our own dreams ( ambition1 or 9 our c\ntry's expansive de/9ies1 & fai? 9 ! provid5ce ( ,god1 all h _! s\rce 9 t onru% ( our sangu9e impulses1 & 9 t s5se ( ! exce$+ness ( ! possible ov] ! real4 #cdd ,comp>e ,,leuba3 ,loc4 cit41 pp4 #cdfcdi4 #cde ,! ,cont5ts ( ,religi\s ,consci\sness1 9 ,! ,moni/1 xi4 #ecf1 ,july1 #aija4 #cdf ,loc4 cit41 pp4 #ega1 #egb1 abridg$4 ,see1 also1 ?is writ]'s extraord9>ily true criticism ( ! notion t religion prim>ily seeks to solve ! intellectual my/]y ( ! _w4 ,comp>e :at ,w4 ,,b5d] says 79 8 ,wes5 d] ,religion1 ,bonn1 #ahhh1 pp4 #he1 #ch73 8,n ! "q ab\t ,god1 & n ! inquiry into ! orig9 & purpose ( ! _w is religion1 b ! "q ab\t ,man4 ,all religi\s views ( life are an?ropoc5tric40 8,religion is t activity ( ! human impulse t[>ds selfpres]vation by means ( :i* ,man seeks to c>ry 8 ess5tial vital purposes ?r\gh aga9/ ! adv]se pressure ( ! _w by rais+ himself freely t[>ds ! _w's ord]+ & gov]n+ p[]s :5 ! limits ( 8 own /r5g? are rea*$40 ,! :ole book is little m ?an a developm5t ( ^! words4 #cdg ,rememb] t = "s m5 x arrives sudd5ly1 = o!rs gradually1 :il/ o!rs aga9 practically enjoy x all _! life4 #cdh ,! practical difficulties are3 #a1 to 8realize ! reality0 ( "o's high] "p2 #b1 to id5tify "o's self ) x exclusively2 & #c1 to id5tify x ) all ! re/ ( ideal be+4 #cdi 8,:5 my/ical activity is at its height1 we f9d consci\sness possess$ by ! s5se ( a be+ at once excessive & id5tical ) ! self3 great en\gh to be ,god2 int]ior en\gh to be me4 ,! #8objectivity' ( x ought 9 t case to be call$ excessivity1 r1 or exce$+ness40 ,r,c,,jac3 ,essai sur les fondem5ts de la consci5ce my/ique1 #ahig1 p4 #df4 #cej ,! ^w 8tru?0 is "h tak5 to mean some?+ additional to b>e value = life1 al?\gh ! natural prop5sity ( man is to believe t :atev] has great value = life is !reby c]tifi$ z true4 #cea ,above1 p4 #dee4 #ceb ,proce$+s ( ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>*1 vol4 vii4 p4 #cje4 ,= a full /atem5t ( ,mr4 ,my]s's views1 ,i may ref] to 8 po/hum\s "w1 8,human ,p]sonality 9 ! ,light ( ,rec5t ,rese>*10 :i* is already ann\nc$ by ,messrs4 ,longmans1 ,gre5 ,co4 z be+ 9 press4 ,mr4 ,my]s = ! fir/ "t propos$ z a g5]al psy*ological problem ! exploration ( ! sublim9al region ( consci\sness ?r\gh\t its :ole ext5t1 & made ! fir/ me?odical /eps 9 its topography by treat+ z a natural s]ies a mass ( sublim9al facts hi!rto consid]$ only z curi\s isolat$ facts1 & subject+ !m to a sy/ematiz$ nom5clature4 ,h[ important ?is exploration w prove1 future "w ^u ! pa? :i* ,my]s has op5$ c alone %[4 ,comp>e my pap]3 8,fr$]ic ,my]s's ,s]vices to ,psy*ology10 9 ! said ,proce$+s1 "p xlii41 ,may1 #aija4 #cec ,comp>e ! inv5tory giv5 above on pp4 #dhcd1 & also :at is said ( ! subconsci\s self on pp4 #bccbcf1 #bdjbdb4 #ced ,comp>e above1 pp4 #dai ff4 #cee ,"o m expression ( ?is belief1 to increase ! read]'s famili>ity ) ! notion ( x3-- 8,if ?is room is full ( d>kness = ?\s&s ( ye>s1 & y come 9 & beg9 to weep & wail1 #8,oh1 ! d>kness1' w ! d>kness vani%8 ,br+ ! light 91 /rike a mat*1 & light comes 9 a mom5t4 ,s :at good w x d y to ?9k all y\r lives1 #8,oh1 ,i h done evil1 ,i h made _m mi/akes'8 ,x requires no gho/ to tell u t4 ,br+ 9 ! light1 & ! evil goes 9 a mom5t4 ,/r5g!n ! real nature1 build up y\rselves1 ! effulg5t1 ! respl5d5t1 ! ev] pure1 call t up 9 e "o :om y see4 ,i wi% t e "o ( u _h come to su* a /ate t ev5 :5 we see ! vile/ ( human be+s we c see ! ,god )91 & in/ead ( condemn+1 say1 #8,rise1 ?\ effulg5t ,"o1 rise ?\ :o art always pure1 rise ?\ bir?less & dea?less1 rise almighty1 & manife/ y\r nature4' 444 ,?is is ! highe/ pray] t ! ,advaita tea*es4 ,?is is ! "o pray]3 rememb]+ our nature40 444 8,:y does man g out to look = a ,god8444 ,x is y\r own he>t beat+1 & y did n "k1 y 7 mi/ak+ x = some?+ ext]nal4 ,he1 ne>e/ ( ! ne>1 my own self1 ! reality ( my own life1 my body & my s\l4--,i am ,!e & ,?\ art ,me4 ,t is y\r own nature4 ,ass]t x1 manife/ x4 ,n to become pure1 y are pure already4 ,y are n to be p]fect1 y are t already4 ,e good ?\ght :i* y ?9k or act ^u is simply te>+ ! veil1 z x 71 & ! purity1 ! ,inf9ity1 ! ,god beh9d1 manife/s itself--! et]nal ,subject ( ev]y?+1 ! et]nal ,witness 9 ?is univ]se1 y\r own ,self4 ,k is1 z x 71 a l[] /ep1 a degradation4 ,we are ,x already2 h[ to "k ,x80 ,,swami ,,vivekan&a3 ,addresses1 ,no4 ,,xii41 ,practical ,v$anta1 "p iv4 pp4 #agb1 #agd1 ,london1 #ahig2 & ,lectures1 ,! ,real & ! ,app>5t ,man1 p4 #bd1 abridg$4 #cef ,= in/ance1 "h is a case :]e a p]son expos$ f h] bir? to ,*ri/ian ideas _h to wait till !y came to h] clad 9 spiriti/ic =mulas be=e ! sav+ exp]i5ce set 93-- 8,= myself ,i c say t spiritualism has sav$ me4 ,x 0 reveal$ to me at a critical mom5t ( my life1 & )\t x ,i don't "k :at ,i %\ld h done4 ,x has taught me to deta* myself f worldly ?+s & to place my hope 9 ?+s to come4 ,?r\gh x ,i h le>n$ to see 9 all m51 ev5 9 ^? mo/ crim9al1 ev5 9 ^? f :om ,i h mo/ suff]$1 undevelop$ bro!rs to :om ,i ow$ assi/ance1 love1 & =giv5ess4 ,i h le>n$ t ,i mu/ lose my temp] ov] no?+1 despise no "o1 & pray = all4 ,mo/ ( all ,i h le>n$ to pray6 ,& al?\gh ,i h /ill mu* to le>n 9 ?is doma91 pray] ev] br+s me m /r5g?1 consolation1 & com=t4 ,i feel m ?an ev] t ,i h only made a few /eps on ! long road ( progress2 b ,i look at its l5g? )\t dismay1 = ,i h confid5ce t ! day w come :5 all my ef=ts %all be rew>d$4 ,s ,spiritualism has a great place 9 my life1 inde$ x holds ! fir/ place !re40 ,fl\rnoy ,collection4 #ceg 8,! influ5ce ( ! ,holy ,_s1 exquisitely call$ ! ,com=t]1 is a matt] ( actual exp]i5ce1 z solid a reality z t ( electromagnetism40 ,w4 ,c4 ,,br[nell1 ,scribn]'s ,magaz9e1 vol4 xxx4 p4 #aab4 #ceh ,t ! transaction ( op5+ ourselves1 o!rwise call$ pray]1 is a p]fectly def9ite "o = c]ta9 p]sons1 appe>s abundantly 9 ! prec$+ lectures4 ,i app5d ano!r concrete example to re9=ce ! impression on ! read]'s m9d3-- 8,man c le>n to transc5d ^! limitations ( f9ite ?\ght & draw p[] & wisdom at w4444 ,! div9e pres5ce is kn[n ?r\gh exp]i5ce4 ,! turn+ to a high] plane is a di/9ct act ( consci\sness4 ,x is n a vague1 twilight or semiconsci\s exp]i5ce4 ,x is n an ec/asy2 x is n a trance4 ,x is n sup]consci\sness 9 ! ,v$antic s5se4 ,x is n due to self hypnotization4 ,x is a p]fectly calm1 sane1 s\nd1 rational1 commons5se %ift+ ( consci\sness f ! ph5om5a ( s5se p]ception to ! ph5om5a ( se]%ip1 f ! ?\ght ( self to a di/9ctively high] realm4444 ,= example1 if ! l[] self be n]v\s1 anxi\s1 t5se1 "o c 9 a few mom5ts compel x to be calm4 ,?is is n done by a ^w simply4 ,aga9 ,i say1 x is n hypnotism4 ,x is by ! ex]cise ( p[]4 ,"o feels ! _s ( peace z def9itely z heat is p]ceiv$ on a hot summ] day4 ,! p[] c be z surely us$ z ! sun's rays c be focus$ & made to d "w1 to set fire to wood40 ,! ,high] ,law1 vol4 iv4 pp4 #d1 #f1 ,bo/on1 ,augu/1 #aija4 #cei ,transc5d5tali/s are fond ( ! t]m 8,ov]s\l10 b z a rule !y use x 9 an intellectuali/ s5se1 z mean+ only a m$ium ( communion4 8,god0 is a causal ag5t z well z a m$ium ( communion1 & t is ! aspect :i* ,i wi% to emphasize4 #cfj ,transc5d5tal idealism1 ( c\rse1 insi/s t its ideal _w makes ?is diff]5ce1 t facts exi/4 ,we owe x to ! ,absolute t we h a _w ( fact at all4 8,a _w0 ( fact6--t exactly is ! tr\ble4 ,an entire _w is ! smalle/ unit ) :i* ! ,absolute c "w1 :]eas to our f9ite m9ds "w = ! bett] ought to be done )9 ?is _w1 sett+ 9 at s+le po9ts4 ,our difficulties & our ideals are all piecemeal affairs1 b ! ,absolute c d no piecework = u2 s t all ! int]e/s :i* our poor s\ls compass raise _! heads too late4 ,we %\ld h spok5 e>li]1 pray$ = ano!r _w absolutely1 be=e ?is _w 0 born4 ,x is /range1 ,i h he>d a fri5d say1 to see ?is bl9d corn] into :i* ,*ri/ian ?\ght has work$ itself at la/1 ) its ,god :o c raise no p>ticul> weight :atev]1 :o c help u ) no private burd51 & :o is on ! side ( our enemies z mu* z he is on our own4 ,odd evolution f ! ,god ( ,david's psalms6 #cfa ,see my ,w to ,believe & o!r ,essays 9 ,popul> ,philosophy1 #ahig1 p4 #afe4 #cfb ,su* a notion is sugge/$ 9 my ,+]soll ,lecture ,on ,human ,immortality1 ,bo/on & ,london1 #ahii4 #cfc ,t]tium ,quid1 #ahhg1 p4 #ii4 ,see also pp4 #adh1 #adi4