,transcrib]'s ,note3 /ruck-?r\gh text is indicat$ l ?is4 ,,! ,,sev5 ,,purposes ,! ,,sev5 ,,purposes ,an ,exp]i5ce 9 ,psy*ic ,ph5om5a ,,by ,,m>g>et ,,cam]on ,illu/ration ,h>p] ,bro!rs ,publi%]s ,new ,york & ,london ,,! ,,sev5 ,,purposes ,copyright1 #aiah1 by ,h>p] ,bro!rs ,pr9t$ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ( ,am]ica ,publi%$ ,octob]1 #aiah 8,t is :at we hope to e/abli% z a recogniz$ tru? 9 y\r life !re2 t a =ce z yet unkn[n to sci5ce is op]at+ betwe5 ! planes1 & c be develop$ & us$ 9 y\r life40 8,a =ce comp>$ to :i* electricity is spr+ wat]40 8,"s day y\r sci5ti/s w discov] & prove by exp]im5t c]ta9 laws n[ unrecogniz$40 8,if y w only believe & "k t ,i am n dead40 8,come1 all ye :o /ruggle & /rive6 ,p]ceive once & =ev] ! purpose ( life4 ,jo9 n[ ! =ces ( con/ruction1 & br+ to all m5 bro!rhood40 8,a great bro!rhood is only possible :5 its compon5t p>ts are great40 8,=get ! class & rememb] ! man4 ,=get ! price & rememb] ! pe>l4 ,=get ! labor & rememb] ! fruit4 ,=get ! temple & rememb] ,god40 ,,introduction ,tw5ty-five ye>s or m ago my att5tion 0 attract$ to ! ent]ta9+ possibilities ( a plan*ette1 &1 l o!r "y p]sons1 ,i play$ ) "o at int]vals = sev]al ye>s4 ,l o!rs1 also1 ,i speculat$ conc]n+ ! s\rce ( ! rem>kable /atem5ts sometimes obta9$ 9 ?is way1 b ! assumption t ^! /atem5ts 7 dictat$ by disembodi$ p]sonalities always seem$ to me r absurd4 ,at no "t has my int]e/ 9 ! matt] be5 suffici5t to lead me to read any?+ describ+ or discuss+ psy*ic ph5om5a1 ) ! exception ( an occasional magaz9e article4 ,nei!r h ,i read philosophies to any ext5t4 ,i h be5 always a busy p]son1 tak+ life at fir/ h&1 )\t mu* reg>d to :at /ud5ts h said ab\t x4 ,su* fai? z ,i h _h 9 any?+1 human or div9e1 has be5 bas$ ^u works1 &1 )\t conv9c+ demon/ration1 x has be5 impossible = me to be sure t individual life cont9u$4 ,aft] ! beg9n+ ( ! w>1 h[ev]1 :5 int]e/ 9 ! possible survival ( ! individual 0 s sudd5ly & pa!tically increas$1 & "o he>d on e h& ( attempts to e/abli% communication ) ^? gone be=e1 ,i resolv$ to exp]im5t aga9 ) plan*ette2 b x 0 n until our fri5d ,v---- express$ a desire to try x ) me1 sometime 9 #aiag1 t ,i really b\ght "o4 ,= almo/ a ye> x lay unt\*$ 9 its box1 & :5 f9ally we f\nd opportunity to te/ x we _h no success4 ,x did n move f ! spot :]e we plac$ x1 & ,i made no attempt to try x alone4 ,sev]al weeks lat]1 two fri5ds1 ,mrs4 ,wylie & ,miss ,gaylord1 told me t !y _h be5 mak+ ef=ts1 ?r\gh "s "o ne> _! home1 to get into t\* ) _! bro!r ,fr$]ick1 ) results !y ?\ght promis+4 ,a day or two lat] we tri$ plan*ette toge!r1 ) "s success4 ,x mov$ briskly1 wrote 8,fr$]ick 444 "m 444 love 444 happy 4440 & o!r deta*$ words4 ,x also p]si/$ 9 mak+ little circles1 p]haps two in*es 9 diamet]1 ! p5cil trac+ ! circumf]5ce aga9 & aga94 ,?is 0 s (t5 repeat$ t ,mrs4 ,wylie ?\ght x might be a symbol1 b c\ld obta9 no satisfactory reply to que/ions ab\t x4 ,my fri5ds w5t home )\t r5ew+ ! exp]im5t1 & my int]e/ 0 n greatly /imulat$4 ,x seem$ q probable t ! words writt5 _h reflect$ ! ?\ghts & desires ( ,fr$]ick's si/]s1 & t ! :ole episode c\ld be expla9$ by ! !ory ( unconsci\s response by ! muscles ( ! h& to ! prompt+ ( ! subconsci\s m9d4 ,i _h dismiss$ ! matt]1 z f> z my own p>ticipation 9 x 0 conc]n$1 :5 a lett] came f ,mrs4 ,gaylord1 say+ t h] daught]s _h told h] ,i _h 8m$iumi/ic p[]10 & sugge/+ t ,i might be able to help h]4 ,i knew t ! exce$+ bitt]ness ( h] grief lay1 n 9 ! sep>ation f h] only son1 b 9 h] inability to believe t 8 id5tity & developm5t cont9u$1 & t ! assurance t he _h n 8gone out1 l a snuff$ c&le10 z %e aft]w>d express$ x1 w\ld br+ h] ! greate/--inde$1 ! only possible com=t4 ,!re=e ,i repli$ at once t :ile ,i _h no reason to believe t ,i possess$ 8m$iumi/ic p[]0 to ! slighte/ degree1 ,i w\ld make fur!r exp]im5ts1 at ! same "t w>n+ h] t ! attempt w\ld probably prove fruitless4 ,! foll[+ pages conta9 a p>tial hi/ory ( ! result4 ,x 0 soon evid5t t c]ta9 ( ^! revelations 7 ( too great mom5t to be )held f public k4 ,9 addition1 :ile mu* ( ! m intimate p]sonal matt] has be5 omitt$1 mo/ ( ^? to :om ^! messages 7 giv5 h felt impell$ to %>e1 9 ?is tragic "t1 ! com=t & assurance ( _! conviction1 & h volunt>ily yield$ _! privacy1 hop+ !reby to br+ to ^? 9 sorr[ an add$ fai? 9 ! cont9uance ( p]sonality1 ) all t ?is implies4 ,to facilitate ref]5ce1 & to avoid break+ ! sequ5ce ( ! twelve imp]sonal communications =m+ ! basis ( ! :ole revelation1 ?is report has be5 arrang$ 9 ?ree p>ts4 ,fir/1 ! g5esis & rapid developm5t ( ! individual message1 brief at fir/1 & purely p]sonal1 b gr[+ bo? 9 volume & 9 import ) ea* day4 ,second1 ! ,lessons4 ,?ird1 additional individual messages1 no less p]sonal 9 _! orig9al application ?an ! fir/1 b m impressive 9 _! wid] human appeal & significance1 illum9at+ & emphasiz+ ! mean+ ( ! ,lessons4 ,= obvi\s reasons1 ! names & initials us$ h be5 sub/itut$ = ^? ( ! p]sons involv$1 ) ?ree or f\r exceptions4 ,"p ,i 8,t is ! et]nal battle1 betwe5 ! purposes ( progress & build+1 & ! purposes ( dis9tegration4 ,x goes on 9 y\r life1 & x goes on less bitt]ly 9 ours4 ,help me build z we began1 t[>d ! great unity40 8,?is is ! battle to :i* we call y & all :o are = progress40 ,i ,my fir/ s]i\s attempt to e/abli% communication ?r\gh plan*ette ) a p]son or p]sons 9 a life beyond ours 0 made ,sunday morn+1 ,m>* #c1 #aiah4 ,n s v s]i\s an attempt1 ei!r1 = ,i anticipat$ no success1 & 0 n )\t a humor\s appreciation ( my position1 sitt+ ) my h& on a toy1 invit+ communication ) cele/ial p[]s4 ,i rememb] laugh+ a little1 z ,i pictur$ ! s>donic glee ) :i* c]ta9 ( my fri5ds w\ld be likely to reg>d su* a proce$+4 ,p]haps ?is is z good a "t z any to say t ,i 0 seek+ a /rang]4 ,i nev] saw ,fr$]ick4 ,:5 our fri5d%ip ) 8 p>5ts began !y liv$ 9 "o city1 we 9 ano!r1 & he 9 a ?ird & m di/ant "o1 :]e he 0 fir/ a report] & lat] a political & editorial writ] on ! /aff ( a lead+ newspap]4 ,i knew t he 0 "y1 successful1 a ba*elor1 & s+ul>ly devot$ to 8 family1 z !y to him4 ,b 8 habits ( ?\ght & spee* _h nev] be5 describ$ to me1 at fir/ because x 0 expect$ t we w\ld meet1 & 9 ! mu* clos] intimacy ( our lat] acqua9tance1 because ! pa9 ( 8 loss 0 s poignant t no memb] ( ! family c\ld speak ( him ) composure4 ,i _h nev] se5 a photograph ( him1 ev54 ,aft] p]haps tw5ty m9utes1 dur+ :i* plan*ette did n move1 ,i left ! pap]--a roll ( blank wall-pap]1 call$ l9+-pap]1 :i* ,i f\nd ye>s ago to (f] ! mo/ cont9u\s & satisfactory surface = use ) plan*ette--spread ov] ! table1 & w5t into ano!r room1 int5d+ to return lat]4 ,b ,i =got x1 & only :5 ,i 0 putt+ ?+s 9 ord] = ! night did ,i re-ent] t room & rememb] my promise to ,mrs4 ,gaylord4 ,i decid$ to make "o m attempt1 t ,i might be able to tell h] positively t ,i _h be5 unsuccessful4 ,all o!r memb]s ( ! h\sehold 7 away--,cass at ,atlantic ,city1 recup]at+ f an illness--& ,i 0 entirely alone 9 ! ap>tm5t4 ,= "s m9utes plan*ette 0 motionless1 b almo/ imm$iately ,i felt ! curi\s s5se ( vitality1 v difficult to describe1 t prec$es movem5t4 ,x is l t\*+ some?+ alive & feel+ its lat5t p[]4 ,pres5tly x began to move4 ,un=tunately no exact record ( ^? fir/ messages 0 kept1 & ?is report ( !m is tak5 f my lett]s to ,cass1 writt5 imm$iately aft] ea* int]view1 & f ! typewritt5 record begun a week or t5 days aft]w>d1 9 :i* 0 includ$ :at ,i c\ld rememb] ( details n writt5 to him4 ,at fir/ !re 0 little capitalization1 b )9 a few days capitals 7 us$ freely4 ,! punctuation ?r\gh\t has be5 add$1 except 9 cases not$4 ,f a lett] dat$ ,monday morn+1 ,m>* #d?3 444 ,in/ead ( do+ ! usual loop sort ( ?+1 x made /raight runs across ! table4 ,i ask$1 8,are y ready to write80 8,yes40 ,!n1 z ne>ly z ,i c rememb]1 x w5t l ?is3 8,are y ,fr$]ick80 8,no40 8,are y ,m>y ,k5dal80 8,no40 8,are y ,anne ,l[e80#a 8,no40 8,did ,i "k y 9 life "h80 8,yes40 8,rec5tly80 8,no40 8,are y my fa!r80 ,at ?is x ran %>ply t[>d me1 po9t fir/1 b = "s "t did n reply1 p]haps because ,i s hop$ x w\ld write 8yes40 ,ev5tually1 h[ev]1 x wrote a v cle> & uncompromis+ 8,no40 8,c y tell me :o y are80 8,yes4 ,m>y40 8,m>y ,k5dal80 8,no40 8,:i* ,m>y8 ,:at ,m>y80 8,m>y 4440 foll[$ by a "* t might h be5 ei!r ,k or ,h1 b look$ m l ,k4 8,m>y ,k5dal80 8,no40 8,tell me aga940 8,m>y ,k40 8,m>y ,k480 8,yes40 ,plan*ette 0 d[n at ! l[] "r-h& corn] ( ! table :5 ,i ask$ ! la/ "q1 & x swung to ! c5t]1 writ+ t 8yes0 v quickly & firmly4 8,my ,m>y ,k480 8,yes 444 yes 444 yes40 ,h] "n 0 ,m>y ,ka!r9e ,m----1 b ,i always call$ h] ,m>y ,k4 ,%e has be5 dead sixte5 ye>s or m4 ,ov] & ov] %e insi/$ t %e 0 ,m>y ,k4 ,sometimes1 9 pauses1 ) ! ca/]s h>dly mov+ at all1 ! ?+ w\ld write 8,m>y10 9 t9y script1 b r\nd & cle>4 ,i ask$ if !re 7 any message1 & x wrote1 8,mon 44410 trail+ (f into a s]ies ( waves1 a good _m times4 ,i guess$ ,monday 444 money 444 ,mons 4441 b always ! answ] 01 8,no40 ,f9ally x wrote 8man0 v cle>ly4 ,i c\ld n get m = q a :ile4 ,f9ally came1 8,_m ?anks40 8,?anks = :at80 8,= kn[+40 ,i ask$ if ,fr$]ick or ,anne 7 !re4 8,no40 8,any message80 8,yes40 8,= :om80 8,bro? 44410 trail+ (f aga94 ,?is sev]al times4 8,bro!r80 8,yes40 8,:]e80 8,albany40 8,8 "n80 8,james40 8,james ,m----80 8,no40 ,?is 0 confus+4 8,:]e80 ,beg9n+ app>5tly ) ,u1 ! writ+ trail$ (f4 ,f9ally made out 8,unit$ 44410 b no m4 ,!n ,i rememb]$ t ,m>y ,k4's only bro!r 0 kill$ 9 an accid5t1 ye>s be=e %e w5t ov] h]self4 ,i said s1 & ! ?+ began mak+ loops4 ,t us$ to be plan*ette's way ( laugh+ at me4 8,:y did y say t80 8,joke40 ,?is 0 n at all l ,m>y ,k4 ,%e _h a f9e m9d & 0 n giv5 to buffoon]y4 ,i h s9ce ?\ght t %e might h be5 try+ to get ov] a message to "s o!r p]son's bro!r4#b 8444 ,c y get ^w f ,fr$]ick ,gaylord80 8,yes40#c 8,w y come aga980 8,yes40 8,h y be5 try+ all ^! ye>s to get into t\* ) me80 8,no40 8,w y help me make a bridge betwe5 ^? on y\r side & ^? "h80 8,no40 ,!n imm$iately x w5t back & wrote1 8,yes10 ov] ! 8,no40 ,v curi\s4 ,aft] a long pause1 ,i said ,i w\ld g to b$1 if !re 7 no?+ m1 & x wrote1 quickly1 8,g40 ,i said1 8,good night40 8,good night4 ,god bless y40 ,i ask$ aga9 if ?is 7 ,m>y ,k41 & got ! same quick 8,yes40 ,!n ,i put plan*ette away & came out to my room4 ,x 0 "o o'clock4 ,?ree be=e ,i w5t to sleep4 ,c y imag9e any?+ m weird ?an my sitt+ "h alone 9 ! middle ( ! night1 ) t ?+ fairly rac+ "u my f+]s "p ( ! "t1 insi/+ x 0 nobody ,i expect$8 ,claim+ to be a v de> old fri5d1 b ! la/ ,i %\ld expect "u ! circum/ances4 ,x 0 c]ta9ly que]1 b ,i am v sure some?+ outside ( myself 0 do+ x4 ,i %all try aga9 to-night4 ,f a lett] dat$ ,monday ev5+1 ,m>* #d?3 ,i h j _h ano!r amaz+ try at plan*ette4 ,?is "t x 0 ,m>y ,k5dal1 writ+ "o ^w at a "t4 8,let 444 ,manse#d 444 "k 444 ,i 444 am 444 "h44440 ,%e gave me sev]al intimate messages = him1 & :5 ,i f9ally said ,i w\ld write & ask him to come1 s %e c\ld tell him h]self1 %e wrote1 8,yes 444 yes 444 yes10 v quickly4 ,:at d y make ( ?is8 ,isn't x ! que]e/ ?+ y ev] he>d (8 ,9 ! mid/ ( h] talk1 ano!r h& took hold1 v brisk & en]getic4 8,n ,m>y80 8,no40 8,p]haps ,fr$]ick80 8,yes40 8,message80 8,yes4 ,"m40 8,any?+ m80 8,happy40 8,m yet80 8,only love40 ,!n he 0 gone1 & ,m>y came aga91 writ+ 8,miss ,a----1 mess5g]10 _m times4 ,lat]1 ,fr$]ick int]rupt$ to write "o ^w1 8family40#e ,!n ano!r h& began writ+ 8,annie ,mann+10 ov] & ov]1 &1 8tell ,mann+40 ,i said t ,i knew no ,mann+4 ,h[ f9d him8 ,answ]1 8,"q40 ,i did n "k :at t meant4444 ,!re 0 a lot m1 b ,i am too tir$ to write x to-night4 ,b---- ,gaylord telephon$ to-night4 ,%e is ei!r com+ to ,new ,york ,?ursday or go+ to ,atlantic ,city1 if ,i am !re4444 ,?is is ! mo/ amaz+ ?+ t ev] happ5$ to me6 ,to-night x 0 z if sev]al 7 try+ to talk at once4 ,i am almo/ afraid to h ,b4 ,g4 come1 yet x 0 = h] sake t ,i began ?is4 ,x seems too indef9ite & unsatisfactory4 ,b at lea/ %e c be sure ,i am n fak+ x4 ,some?+ outside ( me does x4 99 99 99 99 99 ,t same ev5+ ,i wrote to ,mansfield ,k5dal1 ?\gh :at 8 attitude t[>d ?is situation w\ld be ,i c\ld n ev5 guess4 ,we _h kn[n him well = sev]al ye>s1 b our num]\s discussions _h nev] t\*$ que/ions ( religi\s fai? & a future life4 ,a man ( ext5sive read+ & ( wide int]e/s1 supplem5t$ by long resid5ce abroad1 he has be5 engag$ = ye>s 9 ! executive conduct ( l>ge eng9e]+ & agricultural ent]prises4 ,i knew him to be intellectually op5-m9d$4 ,b ,i also knew him to be a devot$ adh]5t ( ! or?odox ,*ur*1 giv+ mu* "t & ?\ght to its support1 & ,i 0 afraid t an assumption on my "p ( ability to communicate ) ! dep>t$ might (f5d "s deep & rev]5t s5se 9 him4 ,!re=e1 :ile ,i wrote him fully ( my surpris+ exp]i5ce1 giv+ him ,m>y's messages1 ,i promis$ at ! same "t nev] to =ce ! subject 9 conv]sation1 %\ld he pref] n to discuss x4 ,subsequ5tly1 impell$ by ,m>y's cont9u$ insi/5ce1 ,i wrote sev]al o!r lett]s to him1 :i*1 l ! fir/1 7 s5t to 8 club 9 ,new ,york ,city1 z ,i knew him to be travel+ 9 ! ,middle ,we/ & ?\ght !y w\ld rea* him m quickly 9 ?is way ?an if s5t to 8 bus9ess headqu>t]s 9 ! ,s\?4 ,?us1 curi\sly1 ,i f\nd myself vic>i\sly engag$ 9 a d\ble se>* = a "m on ?is plane seek+ h] son on ! next1 & = a wife on ! next plane seek+ h] husb& "h1 & x is significant t1 ( ! two1 ,m>y ,k5dal 0 ! m insi/5t4 ,z %e said1 lat]1 8,we "k h[ mu* x means40 ,f a lett] to ,cass1 dat$ ,tuesday morn+1 ,m>* #e?3 ,ano!r ev5+ ) ,m>y6 ,h4 d9$ ) me4 ,i told h] some?+ ab\t plan*ette1 & %e want$ to see x "w4444 ,?is "t x wrote1 8,m>y ,k5dal10 at once1 &1 8,tell ,manse ,i love him4444 ,tell him ,miss ,a---- is mess5g] f "s "o he kn[s4444 ,m5tally beautiful p are fe>less4444 ,fai? is fe>lessness4444 ,mann]isms are ess5tial to recognition40 ,"s ( ^! took a long "t to "w out4 ,h4 ask$1 8,d y m9d my be+ "h80 8,excell5t port5t40 ,i ask$ :y4 8,intellectual int]e/40 ,h4 said1 8,y mean t y are glad to h intellig5t p int]e/$80 8,yes40 ,:5 we 7 talk+ ab\t ,h4's int]e/1 x wrote1 8,tell o!rs40 ,?is 0 repeat$ sev]al times4 8,i am a mission>y10 came z cle>ly z ,i h writt5 x "h4 ,we ask$ if %e meant a mission>y f t life to ?is4 8,yes40 ,at ! end %e aga9 urg$ ,h4 to tell o!rs4 ,i laugh$1 say+1 8,tell z _m o!rs z y l ab\t ! exp]i5ce1 b don't tell too _m t x came ?r\gh me40 8,sorry40 8,sorry t ,i am unwill+ to be ov]:elm$ by a flood ( curiosity & hy/]ia80 8,sorr[40 ,i said ,i w\ld be glad to help p 9 sorr[4 8,sorr[ful p suff]40 ,isn't t l ,m>y ,k5dal8 ,:5 ,h4 0 leav+1 x wrote3 8,good night4 ,tell o!rs40 ,aft] %e _h gone ,i w5t back1 & got ano!r movem5t entirely4 8,fr$]ick80 8,yes40 ,he seems to h m difficulty 9 writ+ ?an %e does4 ,is v cle> at fir/1 b becomes illegible soon]4 8,d y "k t y\r "m is com+80 8,yes4444 ,wi% to make h] at peace40 ,i said ,i wi%$ to make h] at peace1 too1 & w\ld d all ,i c\ld1 & he wrote1 8,?ank y40 99 99 99 99 99 ,z has be5 said1 ,cass _h be5 ill1 & 8 improvem5t aft] go+ to ,atlantic ,city _h n be5 z rapid z we _h hop$ x might be4 ,a lett] receiv$ f him on ,tuesday report$ a slight relapse1 & promis$ a telegram on ,w$nesday4 ,x _h be5 arrang$ t ,i %\ld jo9 him if he ne$$ me4 ,f a lett] dat$ ,w$nesday ev5+1 ,m>* #f?3 ,y\r lett] & wire bo? came aft] f\r1 ?\gh ! lett]s usually arrive ) ! fir/ mail 9 ! morn+4 ,i 0 gett+ a little anxi\s4 ,w5t to plan*ette & ask$ ,m>y ,k5dal :e!r %e knew any?+ ab\t y4 ,%e said y 7 bett] to-day & t a lett] 0 com+1 b t ,i mu/ g to ,atlantic ,city4#f ,fr$]ick also came1 seem+ v anxi\s le/ ! meet+ ) 8 "m fail4 ,wrote 8message0 sev]al times1 & by d9t ( "s que/ion+ ,i f\nd x 0 n a message he wi%$ to s5d1 b "o he wi%$ me to s5d to h] ab\t com+ at once4 ,wrote ( h] 8m5tal angui%10 an expression ,i nev] %\ld h us$ myself1 & want$ h] to jo9 me at ,atlantic ,city4 ,knew no?+ ab\t y1 b 0 ke5 to meet h]4 ,lat]1 he seem$ to g1 & ,m>y ,k5dal wrote a little4 ,!n came some?+ v h>d to get4 ,ov] & ov] we tri$4 8,com 444 come 444 comf 444 comp44440 ,i sugge/$ v>i\s words4 ,always ! answ] 0 8,no40 ,f9ally1 v cle>ly & sl[ly1 8,com=t de> ,"m40 ,aft] ! ,m ( ! la/ ^w ,i expect$ ,manse1 z ,i ?\ght ,m>y 0 /ill writ+4 ,:5 x prov$ to be 8,"m10 ,i said1 8,is ?is ,fr$]ick80 8,yes40 ,i promis$ aga9 to d all ,i c\ld4 ,he wrote1 8,?ank y10 & w5t4 ,x is an amaz+ exp]i5ce6444 ,to sit all alone "h & h t fooli% toy move firmly & def9itely "u my h&s1 write ?+s ,i h to puzzle out1 sign names ( p]sons :o are :at we call 8dead10 & beg me to s5d messages to ^? !y love--all ?is is />tl+ & deeply impressive4 ,deeply mov+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! next day ,i jo9$ ,cass at ,atlantic ,city4 ,he _h nev] se5 a plan*ette us$1 & 0 mu* int]e/$ 9 ! :ole matt]4 ,9 ! ev5+ we exp]im5t$1 & 8,m>y ,k5dal0 0 writt5 at once4 ,he exclaim$1 8,god bless y1 ,m>y ,k5dal60 8,god bless y1 too4 ,tell ,manse ,i love him4 ,don't fail to tell him t40 ,dur+ all ! prec$+ days ?is _h be5 h] con/ant plea4 ,repeat$ly ,i assur$ h] t ,i _h told him1 & z (t5 %e urg$1 8,tell him aga940 ,!n came a /rong1 brisk movem5t1 to & fro1 = a space ( ab\t five in*es4 ,i ask$ if ?is 7 ,fr$]ick1 & receiv$ an affirmative answ]1 aft] :i* plan*ette ran ab\t1 z if 9 uncontrollable excitem5t1 pres5tly paus+ to write3 8,y are a trump60 ,we laugh$1 & he add$1 8,y bet60 ,z we _h nev] kn[n ,fr$]ick1 & 7 unaw>e at t "t ( ! cont9uance ( :at "s "o famili> ) ?is exp]i5ce has def9$ z 8! subtleties ( p]sonality10 ?is en?usia/ic use ( slang 0 />tl+4 ,:5 ,i ask$ if he _h ?\ght ,i w\ld fail him1 he repli$1 8,no1 b ,i 0 afraid ,"m w\ld n come40 ,! next day ,mrs4 ,gaylord told me t :5 ,fr$]ick begg$ me1 on ,w$nesday1 to s5d h] a message ab\t com+ at once1 %e _h almo/ decid$ to po/pone h] visit until aft] our return to ,new ,york4 ,m runn+ ab\t foll[$1 dur+ :i* ,cass said t x 0 a pity to oblit]ate ! e>li] messages 9 t way4 ,plan*ette !n swung back to a cle> space & wrote cle>ly1 8,"m is com+60 ,b5ea? ?is1 ! b[-knot fl\ri% we h s9ce le>n$ to associate ) ,fr$]ick4 8,y are a brick60 0 a lat] comm5t4 ,:5 ,cass said he _h ?\ght ! la/ ^w w\ld be fri5d1 ,fr$]ick conclud$3 8,fri5d1 too4 ,?ank y a million times40 99 99 99 99 99 ,an int]e/+1 b r confus+1 feature ( ^! e>li] communications 0 ! con/ant int]ruption by ,annie ,mann+4 ,on all occasions1 frequ5tly ev5 break+ into messages f "s o!r p]son1 %e wrote h] "n & h] "o reque/18,tell ,mann+40 ,dur+ ?is p]iod1 also1 ,i repeat$ly ask$ ,fr$]ick to give me a message = 8 fa!r1 & 0 unable to acc\nt = 8 inv>iable refusal4 ,once1 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k5dal if %e _h no message = me1 p]sonally1 & %e return$1 8,yes1 believe10 :i* seem$1 at ! mom5t1 some:at cryptic1 ?\gh ! relation ( my fai? to ! full developm5t ( ?is int]c\rse 0 aft]w>d expla9$4 ,?ursday night1 at ! end ( ! fif? day1 ,i 0 fairly c]ta9 t ,i _h e/abli%$ communication ) ?ree def9ite & recognizable p]sonalities on ! next plane1 b ,i dread$ ,mrs4 ,gaylord's arrival ! foll[+ day1 le/ ^! fragm5t>y messages fail ei!r to conv9ce or to com=t h]4 ,,ii ,! next morn+1 ,friday1 ,m>* #h?1 be=e giv+ ,fr$]ick an opportunity to communicate ) 8 "m1 ,i read h] my lett]s to ,cass1 wi%+ h] to "k j :at _h occurr$ & my attitude t[>d x4 ,!n we turn$ to plan*ette4 ,f ?is po9t1 ! acc\nt is tak5 f ! orig9al manuscript4 ,at fir/ we did n realize ! importance ( writ+ 9 our que/ions1 "s ( :i* we 7 unable to rememb] lat]4 ,dur+ ^? fir/ days1 also1 ! messages 7 sometimes confus$ by o!r messages writt5 ov] !m1 or by l9es & circles done 9 app>5t excitem5t & joy1 & 7 impossible to deciph] aft]w>d4 ,fr$]ick's writ+1 f ! fir/ mom5t ) 8 "m1 0 quick & firm--at t "t ! mo/ rapid & consecutive ,i _h ev] se5 done ?r\gh plan*ette1 al?\gh 9 comp>ison ) lat] communications ^! 7 sl[ & fragm5t>y4 8,"m de>e/10 he began1 imm$iately1 )\t "q or comm5t f ei!r ( u4 ,%e told me t ?is _h be5 8 "n = h]1 :i* ,i _h n kn[n4 ,he w5t on1 writ+ eag]ly1 ) brief pauses betwe5 phrases4 8,i am "h1 de>e/4444 ,j believe4444 ,"m1 y d believe1 don't y8444 ,tell me y d40 ,aft] reply+ to "s que/ions1 he began mak+ ! small circles fir/ notic$ dur+ ! prelim9>y episode :5 8 si/]s 7 9 ,new ,york4 ,i ask$ :at !y meant4 8,joy4444 ,don't fail to make h] believe40 ,i rem9d$ him t ?is 0 8 responsibility1 & he add$1 8,y & ,i40 ,a "q ( :i* !re is no record drew ?is reply3 8,yes1 busy e m9ute4444 ,"w is s int]e/+4444 ,i love y j ! same4444 ,g home :5 ,i c4444 ,tell ,dad ,i am ) him 444 help+ all ,i c 444 ,i am s glad y came4444 ,i 0 afraid y w\ld n4444 ,g home 9 peace1 ,"m de>e/4 ,i am alive & happy & busy & well40 ,%e said x 0 l him to sum x all up t way4 8,( c\rse x is l me4 ,x is #8me4'0 ,"s p]sonal comm5t conc]n+ memb]s ( ! family foll[$1 9 ! mid/ ( :i* ,annie ,mann+ int]rupt$ ) h] inv>iable1 8,tell ,mann+40 ,ask$ if %e _h any connection ) ! ,gaylord family1 %e said1 8,no1 good-by10 & ,fr$]ick resum$ 8 s5t5ce :]e x _h be5 brok5 (f4 ,?r\gh\t ?is & subsequ5t int]views ,mrs4 ,gaylord & ,i kept up a runn+ conv]sation1 impossible to reproduce "h--my h& /ill re/+ on plan*ette--to :i* ,fr$]ick frequ5tly contribut$ a rem>k1 precisely z if he _h be5 pres5t 9 ! fle%4 ,aga91 he w\ld break a pause by address+ "s *>act]i/ic /atem5t or appeal to 8 "m1 sometimes1 %e told me aft]w>d1 answ]+ h] unspok5 ?\ght4 ,ov] & ov] he begg$ h] to say t %e 0 conv9c$ ( 8 pres5ce & id5tity1 & at la/ %e gave him ?is assurance4 8,oh1 ?ank ,god60 ,he made /rong circles1 be=e runn+ up to a cle> space "s in*es above1 to add1 8,tell ,dad40 ,= ! fir/ "t1 a possible explanation ( 8 inexorable refusal to give me a message = 8 fa!r occurr$ to me1 & :5 ,i ask$1 he said1 8,yes1 ,i want to rea* !m ?r\gh h]40 ,he told h] n to ?9k ( him z he _h be5 dur+ ! mon?s ( 8 la/ illness1 say+3 8,=get all t4 ,x is ov]1 & ,i am well & /rong1 & happi] ?an ev]--n[40 ,:5 we wond]$ :e!r x _h di/ress$ him to be unable to communicate ) 8 family1 he said1 8,yes1 ,i ne$$ t40 8,w y talk e day1 y & %e80 he ask$1 pres5tly4 8,?ank y40 8,mrs4 ,gaylord1 ,fr$]ick is a f9e =ce10 foll[$ imm$iately1 9 a m runn+ script1 & :5 ,i said ?is mu/ be ,m>y ,k5dal1 ! answ] 03 8,yes4 ,tell ,manse ,i love him4444 ,tell him aga940 8,he doesn't ne$ to be told t10 ,i assur$ h]1 z ,i _h s _m times be=e4 ,& aga9 %e return$3 8,yes1 he does4 ,!re are reasons4 ,tell him40 ,i promis$ to write to him once m1 & %e cont9u$3 8,mrs4 ,gaylord1 ,fr$]ick wants y to be sure t he is do+ m "h ?an he c\ld !re4 ,y %\ld n grieve = t1 %\ld y8 ,y h a fe>less m9d 9 o!r ?+s4 ,tru/ = t4 ,good-by40 8,"m de>e/1 t 0 ,mrs4 ,k5dal10 ,fr$]ick resum$1 ) 8 m vigor\s movem5t4 8,%e is a mission>y1 & a f9e =ce40 ,notic+ ! repetition ( ?is ^w1 ,i ask$1 8,y say =ce1 n _s80 8,no1 =ce is :at moves ?+s40 ,to 8 "m's inquiry ab\t a fri5d1 he repli$3 8,he is "h ) me1 work+4 ,bob's little girl is "h1 too40 ,%e told me t a m$ium visit$ by 8 si/]s _h describ$ him ) a little girl1 say+ t he want$ !m to 8tell ,bob40 ,i _h he>d ?is f !m1 also1 & ! subject recurr$ lat]4 8,yes10 he acquiesc$4 8,same *ild40 ,:5 %e express$ h] belief t he 0 /ill alive & gr[+1 promis+ t %e w\ld be happi] 9 future1 he said3 8,?ank y1 ,"m de>e/4 ,t is all ,i ne$4 ,tell ,dad to be happy1 too4 ,i am ) him4 ,he has n lo/ a son4 ,i am bett] & bigg] & m useful ?an ,i ev] c\ld h be5 !re1 b ,i h be5 sorry y suff]$ s mu*40 8,h y be5 try+ rec5tly to let u "k y 7 ) u80 %e inquir$4 8,yes1 = mon?s4 ,at fir/ ,i c\ld n40 ,he said t ,m>y ,k5dal _h f\nd him = u1 & :5 ,i m5tion$ t ,m>y ,k4 _h come fir/ to me1 he expla9$3 8,yes1 %e is m us$ to x4 ,%e f\nd ,mrs4 ,k5dal1 & %e told me40 8,y _h bett] get y\r lun*10 he sugge/$1 aft] a pause1 r\s+ u f our complete absorption to a consci\sness t x 0 late4 ,mrs4 ,gaylord d5i$ be+ hungry1 b he w>n$ h]--*>act]i/ically1 ,i le>n$ aft]w>d1 8,y w h a heada*e1 ,"m de>e/1 if y don't40 ,aft] lun*eon we w5t out = a walk1 & !n to our respective rooms to re/1 ! morn+ hav+ be5 fatigu+ 9 its emotional /ra94 ,plan*ette & pap] _h be5 left 9 ,mrs4 ,gaylord's room1 & 9 ! aft]noon1 :ile ,cass & ,i 7 /ill alone1 ,i pick$ up a lead-p5cil & plac$ its po9t on a %eet ( lett]-pap]1 expect+ no response4 ,to my great surprise1 ,i 0 consci\s almo/ in/antly ( its vitality4 ,! s5sation is comp>able to t ( hold+ a quiet1 live bird1 wrapp$ 9 a h&k]*ief1 its en]gy muffl$ b palpable4 ,sometimes ?is s5sation ( a curr5t f )\t is communicat$ to ! h& & arm1 sometimes only to ! f+]s4 ,9 a %ort "t ! p5cil mov$1 writ+1 8,m>y ,k5dal10 foll[$ by ! usual messages = ,manse4 ,cass ask$ :e!r x annoy$ !m to be que/ion$1 or int]f]$ ) ?+s !y might wi% to tell u4 8,no1 x does n int]f]e4 ,we are "h to tell y :at we c1 b we _c tell ev]y?+4444 ,y h ! "r to "k :at we c tell y4444 ,y are gett+ ne>] ! big ?+s e day40 ,?is made ,cass wond] :e!r 8! big ?+s0 w\ld come to u 9 ?is life or ! next1 & %e add$3 8,bo?4 ,y beg9 !re & keep on gr[+4 ,z soon z y are ready1 big tru?s are %[n to y40 ,address+ me1 he made "s allusion to :at 8%e0 _h said1 sugge/+ t x seem$ to support a !ory he _h once held1 t ?is _w is "o ( elim9ation4 8,no1 x is "o ( gr[?10 0 h] answ]4 8,& #8%e' is try+ to tell y t gr[? beg9s !re & does n /op4 ,x goes on & on1 z long z y are wor?y40 8,!n unwor?9ess kills80 8,x does n kill4 ,x def]s40 ,weeks aft]w>d1 x 0 int]e/+ to turn back to ^! e>ly pages ( ! record & f9d h[ mu* ( ! wide significance ( lat] revelations _h be5 =e%ad[$ f ! fir/4 8,are y z eag] = ?is communication z we are80 8,we are m eag]1 because we "k h[ mu* x means4 ,we "k t m tru? c be taught ?is way ?an any o!r40 ,cass turn$ to ,mrs4 ,gaylord1 :o _h rejo9$ u1 say+ t ?is seem$ to imply t !y 7 our sup]iors4 8,no1 we are y\r eld]s10 said ,m>y ,k5dal4 ,z has g5]ally be5 ! case dur+ ^! int]views1 we 7 talk+ among ourselves1 frequ5tly go+ on ) our conv]sation :ile ! p5cil wrote4 ,"s "o wond]$ h[ or :y !y _h "t or desire to leave _! presumably m important "w to talk to u4 8,because we are all humans1 aft] all10 ,m>y respond$1 8& x is our "w to help1 j z x is y\rs4 ,_m p d n want to help1 "h or !re4444 ,?is life is j a cont9uation ( y\rs "u happi] conditions40 8,are y happi] !re ?an y 7 "h1 ,m>y80 8,yes1 except = ,manse40 ,mrs4 ,gaylord ask$ :e!r a man :o _h lov$ books1 & _h always kept himself surr\nd$ by !m 9 ?is life1 w\ld f9d t int]e/ !re4 8,no10 ,m>y said1 8b we h its equival5t int]e/40 ,mrs4 ,gaylord !n expla9$ t ! m$ium already m5tion$ _h describ$ ,fr$]ick to 8 si/]s z surr\nd$ by books4 8,he told h] t to id5tify himself1 z *>act]i/ic40 ,9 ?is connection1 an incid5t occurr+ ?ree mon?s lat] is int]e/+4 ,"o night1 ab\t ! middle ( ,june1 a gr\p ( u _h be5 talk+ = "s "t1 ?r\gh my p5cil1 ) fri5ds on ! next plane1 :5 "o ( ! wom5 ann\nc$ t %e c\ld see di/9ctly a l>ge man's h& re/+ ^u ! h& ( a man pres5t4 ,! p]son 9 "q--a h>d-head$1 practical bus9ess man1 successfully conduct+ l>ge affairs--look$ />tl$1 say+ t he _h notic$ a peculi> s5sation 9 t h&1 & ask$ :e!r a fri5d1 :om he nam$1 0 actually pres5t4 8,yes10 0 ! reply ?r\gh ! p5cil4 8,r---- saw4 ,i manife/$ physical attributes = a m9ute4 ,i h no h&s1 b ,i c imag9e !m & project !m 9 y\r m9ds1 occasionally40 ,no "o else saw ! h&1 & at no o!r "t 9 my exp]i5ce has any?+ ( ?is k9d occurr$4 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k5dal :e!r !y pref]r$ plan*ette or p5cil1 & %e said1 8,x is easi] = u ?is way40 ,!re=e1 except on "o memorable occasion1 all lat] writ+ has be5 done ) a p5cil4 ,= ! in=mation ( p]sons int]e/$ 9 physical details1 x may be expla9$ t ,i g5]ally use a long p5cil1 :i* is held erect1 almo/ at "r angles to ! pap]1 ! f+]s clasp+ x lightly two or ?ree in*es f its po9t1 ! h& & arm entirely unsupport$4 ,9 ! v rapid writ+ t has sometimes be5 done1 & occasionally 9 mom5ts ( great eag]ness or emotion1 ! =ce propell+ ! p5cil--:i* seems to be appli$ sometimes above1 sometimes bel[ my h&--has =c$ x to a %>ply acute angle 9 relation to ! surface ( ! pap]4 ,f ! fir/1 ,i h us$ "r & left h&s alt]nately1 & ! writ+1 ) exceptions s few z to be negligible1 has be5 done 9 r l>ge script on wall-pap]1 _m rolls ( :i* h be5 cov]$4 ,"o ( ! exceptions to ! use ( wall-pap] 0 ?is fir/ exp]im5t ) a p5cil1 :5 loose %eets ( lett]-pap] 7 us$1 & z _m ( !m 7 miss+ :5 ,i tri$ to assemble !m ! next day1 mu* ( ?is int]view has be5 lo/4 8,fr$]ick1 %all we ev] h our holidays aga980 ,mrs4 ,gaylord ask$1 9 ! ev5+4 8,j z _m holidays z y w take10 he repli$4 8,i am always !re on high days & holidays4 ,:y leave me out80 ,?is 0 ! fir/ "t he made an int]rogation po9t4 ,x 0 trac$ sl[ly & ) great precision1 z if to emphasize 8 inquiry4 ,8 "m !n expla9$ to u t ! celebration ( c]ta9 fe/ivals1 :i* _h always be5 days ( family reunion1 notably ,*ri/mas & ,ea/]1 _h be5 impossible to !m s9ce 8 dea?4 ,%ortly aft]w>d he exp&$ ?is !me4 ,t night ,mrs4 ,gaylord telegraph$ to h] husb& t %e _h receiv$ messages = him & = ! family4 ,%e said1 z o!r memb]s ( ! family h said s9ce1 t !re 0 9 ev]y?+ ,fr$]ick _h writt5 a famili> & conv9c+ s5se ( 8 p]sonality1 a quality :i* we 7 unable to recognize1 nev] hav+ kn[n him4 ,! next day he ann\nc$1 buoyantly3 8,"m de>e/1 ,i am "h4 ,?ank y = wir+ ,dad4 ,made him happi]40 ,greatly com=t$ by ! conviction ( h] son's cont9u$ life & developm5t & devotion1 ,mrs4 ,gaylord's ?\ght 0 already turn+ to o!r b]eav$ & suff]+ mo!rs1 & m ?an once %e express$ h] desire to %>e ) !m h] new k1 urg+ me to make prep>ations = ! publication ( ! messages %e 0 sure ,fr$]ick w\ld give u1 to :i*1 = p]sonal reasons1 ,i demurr$4 ,we ask$ ,fr$]ick :e!r he ?\ght x %\ld be publi%$1 & he repli$ 9 ! affirmative4 ,aft] "s discussion1 leav+ me /ill unconv9c$1 he resum$ 8 appeal to 8 "m4 8,y w be happy n[1 won't y8 ,y c't be sorry ,i am s mu* bett] (f & m useful4 ,i get y\r ?\ghts & y get m9e1 only y don't recognize !m always z m9e4 ,y w n[40 8,is !re any way ,i c "k :5 y are ) me80 %e ask$4 8,y w le>n1 n[ y "k ,i am !re4 ,i c't tell y h[1 b y w le>n4 ,t is "p ( ?is big k1 de>e/4 ,y are bo? j beg9n+1 b1 l o!r k1 gr[? is rapid1 once begun4 ,y w meet skeptics1 :o w laugh1 b don't be di/urb$4 ,?is is ! next big revelation1 & y are ) ! fir/ ov] ! top40 8,are y /ill int]e/$ 9 ! w>80 %e ask$1 & ! reply came ) great vigor4 8,yes4 ,h[ c anybody help t8 ,x is great & hide\s & wond]ful1 & ! salvation ( ! civiliz$ _w4 ,some?+ _h to wake ! s\ls ( mo/ m54 ,!y h be5 quiet too long4 ,gr[? is always /ruggle4 ,x is h>d /ruggle !re1 because y don't see f> ahead4 ,we see f>!r--mu* f>!r--& x is easi] to climb40 8,0 ! w> ! fault ( ! ,g]mans1 or ! result ( _w conditions80 8,bo?4 ,! ,g]mans _h long be5 obsess$ by a lu/ ( p[]1 & ! re/ ( ! _w by a lu/ ( ease & money1 & individual int]e/s4 ,!re has be5 real unity ( purpose only 9 ,g]many40 ,:5 %e said t ?is ?\ght ( ,g]many's unity _h be5 mu* 9 h] m9d ( late1 he add$1 quickly1 8,t 0 ,i1 ,"m de>e/1 try+ to tell y :at ,i c\ld ( :at ,i "k40 ,a long talk on p]sonal topics foll[$1 dur+ :i* he ref]r$ to me z a 8mess5g]10 expla9+ ,m>y ,k5dal's previ\s use ( ! ^w4 ,by ?is "t1 _m ( ! messages 7 convey$ to my consci\sness be=e ! p5cil wrote !m4 ,sometimes ,i _h no previ\s impression ( !m2 sometimes only ! mean+ rea*$ me1 be+ express$ by ! p5cil 9 o!r phrases2 sometimes ,i knew :at ! words w\ld be4 ,i m5tion$ ?is1 ) "s misgiv+1 & ,fr$]ick dryly rem>k$3 8,y are v s5sitive = s ob/9ate a p]son40 ,ref]r+ to 8 e>li] /atem5t ab\t ,g]many1 ,cass ask$3 8,:at w\ld national unity ( purpose lead to8 ,hasn't x elem5ts ( great dang]80 8,_m m5 feel t unity ( purpose is dang]\s1 b x is up to m5 444 to guide ! purpose to sane & "r ends4 ,x mu/ come ?r\gh ! awak5+ ( ! s\ls ( ! p ev]y:]e4 ,we "w = t "h1 because ! gr[? ( ! "p is ! gr[? ( ! :ole4 ,y c help u & all life by work+ = t unity ) u40 ,?is 0 ! fir/ intimation1 app>5tly p]sonal & casual1 ( t gospel ( unity & co-op]ation s fully develop$ lat]4 8,"m de>e/1 y are normally a build]10 he w5t on1 aft] a little4 8,n[ cle> away ! dbris ( ?+s outliv$1 & beg9 ! new /ructure ) me40 ,%e repli$ t %e _h be5 feel+ = "s "t t %e mu/ free h] life ( _m small1 insi/5t dem&s1 & h "t to ?9k4 8,n only t1 de>e/4 ,y mu/ get out ( %ad[ into light4 ,out ( m\rn+ into build+4 ,out ( black into color & life4 ,out ( griev+ into joy ) me 9 our "w toge!r4 ,x is n t ,i object to black10 he cont9u$1 :5 %e express$ h] unwill+ness to lay aside h] black dress1 8b to a symbol ( m\rn+4 ,sorr[ is n con/ructive1 aft] x has done its fir/ big "w4 ,leave x beh9d & g on4 ,c't y d t8 ,won't y please try8444 ,z = me1 ?is is a great "t to be "h4 ,?9k :at ?is w> means "h4 ,we are busi] ?an y are4 ,!re1 ,i %\ld be 9 ! army1 ,i suppose4 ,i am do+ bigg] "w ?an t "h4 ,j n[1 ,i am on a sort ( furl\gh1 to visit ) y4 ,t is p]mitt$4 ,b :5 ,i g back to "w ,i c't be ) y all ! "t1 ?is way40 8,c y get into t\* ) my fa!r1 :o di$ ye>s ago80 ,cass ask$4 8,& d ! "y /ay "y1 & ! old1 old80 8,i w try to f9d y\r fa!r4 ,"s ( u g on into remot] places to "w1 b almo/ all ( u come back1 at int]vals4 ,we are trem5d\sly int]e/$ 9 life !re1 = x is ! root & beg9n+ ( all our "w4 ,:5 ?+s improve !re1 !y are j t mu* bett] "h4444 ,age is a matt] ( exp]i5ce "h1 n ( "t40 8,does y\r "w affect u 9 ?is _w1 or only ^? jo9+ y80 8,we try con/antly to help y ) our great] k1 b "s ( y are easi] to help ?an o!rs40 ,?is l$ to a "q z to :e!r all our k "h is giv5 to u f 8 plane1 & he w5t on3 8,n all4 ,we help develop :at y are will+ to "w =1 if y are really s9c]e 9 want+ x4 ,s9c]ity is ! cr[n+ virtue40 ,we talk$ ?is ov]1 & 9 ! mid/ ( our discussion he int]rupt$ ) a "q ( 8 own3 8,"m de>e/1 are y gett+ tir$80 ,%e d5i$ x1 b he said1 8,%e is tir$10 & we talk$ no m t aft]noon4 ,,iii ,%ortly be=e d9n] t night ,i pick$ up a p5cil aga91 & 8,m>y ,k5dal0 0 imm$iately writt54 ,x _h become cu/om>y = h] to write h] "n bo? at ! beg9n+ & at ! end ( h] communication1 probably to avoid confusion ) ,fr$]ick4 8,manse is 9 ,new ,york10 %e told u1 repeat+ x sev]al times4 ,= "s reason ,i que/ion$ ?is1 & %e said3 8,y mu/ n d\bt4 ,he is com+ to-night40 8,are y happy1 ,m>y80 ,cass ask$4 8,v1 especially n[1 s9ce ,i am ) y4 ,y c rea* ,manzie40 ,ke5ly sympa?iz+ ) h] eag]ness to rea* h] husb&1 f :om no ^w _h come1 he sugge/$ telephon+ to ,mansfield at 8 club1 b ,i demurr$1 feel+ t1 if he 7 !re1 he w\ld receive my lett]s & communicate ) u1 unless1 z ,i began to fe>1 he pref]r$ n to approa* ! subject 9 any way4 ,repeat$ly1 h[ev]1 ,m>y insi/$ 8,call him up10 & ,cass put 9 ! long-di/ance call accord+ly4 8,he is !re4444 ,he w answ]10 %e reit]at$ aga9 & aga91 :ile we wait$4 ,x is impossible to make a fully accurate report ( ?is int]view4 ,! messages 7 confus$ & brok51 & !re 7 _m monosyllabic replies to que/ions n record$4 ,at "o "t we ask$ ab\t ,anne ,l[e1 & ,m>y said3 8,anne is n "h4 ,%e is a lovely "*4 ,%e works = *ildr54444 ,manse is n !re4444 ,manse is out4444 ,he w answ]4444 ,he is n !re40 ,ev5tually ! long-di/ance op]ator report$ t ,mr4 ,k5dal 0 n at 8 club & 0 n expect$4 ,i ask$ ,m>y :y %e _h said t he 0 !re1 tell+ h] t ?is 0 mak+ me d\bt my p[]s ( correct transmission1 to :i* %e repli$ t ?is 0 bett] ?an too mu* cr$ulity1 add+3 8,manse is !re4444 ,he is out ( ! club4444 ,he mu/ be !re40 ,we call$ up ! ---- ,club a second "t & ,i talk$ to ! cl]k1 :o said ,mansfield ,k5dal 0 n regi/]$ !re1 nor _h !y be5 notifi$ t he 0 com+4 ,long aft]w>d we le>n$ t he _h expect$ to be !re at t "t1 b _h be5 deta9$ 9 ! ,nor?we/ by bus9ess4 ,mean:ile1 !re 0 mu* confus$ writ+ f ,m>y4 8,manse is 9 ! club4444 ,he is n !re4444 ,he mu/ be !re4444 ,he is out40 ,ef=t to write ! "n ( a city 0 foll[$ by1 8,m9neapolis rec5tly4444 ,manse w be !re soon40 ,x 0 ,mansfield ,k5dal himself :o ultimately arriv$ at a possible explanation ( "s ( ^! app>5t inaccuracies1 ,m>y hav+ expla9$ o!rs mean:ile4 ,b at ! "t x 0 all v contradictory & confus+1 & aft] d9n] ,cass dem&$ an explanation4 ,m>y ,k5dal came at once1 admitt+ t %e _h be5 wrong 9 say+ t ,mansfield 0 at ! club1 & ass]t+ t %e 8?\ght he w\ld be40 8,didn't y "k80 8,no40 ,aga9 ! messages are confus$ & fragm5t>y4 8,y mu/ n d\bt4444 ,he w be !re soon 4440 are among ^? n[ deciph]able1 ea* _m times repeat$4 ,%e seem$ pr(\ndly di/ress$4 ,to ease ! t5sion1 ,cass made a little joke1 elicit+ no response f h]1 :]eupon he ask$ :e!r !y reta9$ a s5se ( humor ov] !re4 8,yes1 b ?is is no "t = humor4444 ,i am s afraid ( miss+ ,manse40 ,aga9 %e urg$ me to write to him1 b ,i refus$1 rem9d+ h] t ,i _h made e possible advance until "s reply to my lett]s %\ld be receiv$4 8,yes1 ,i "k1 b x means s mu*6 ,y w help1 won't y80 ,kn[+ no?+ !n ( ! trem5d\s =ces ( attraction & repulsion unconsci\sly put into op]ation by p]sons ignorant ( _! exi/5ce1 & assum+--n unnaturally--t %e mu/ be able to le>n at lea/ z mu* ab\t ,mansfield's :]eab\ts & condition z bo? %e & ,fr$]ick evid5tly knew ab\t ours1 ,i 0 unable to und]/&1 ev5 dimly1 ! contradictions ( ! pres5t situation1 & ! cl\d ( x hung ov] me all t ev5+ & ! next day4 ,i 0 oppress$ by a s5se ( my responsibility 9 convey+ messages f s\rces seem+ sudd5ly s unc]ta94 ,foll[+ ,m>y1 ,fr$]ick came aga91 8 buoyancy undim9i%$4 8,"m de>e/10 he began1 )\t "q1 8,mrs4 ,k5dal is true4 ,%e is a f9e =ce40 ,i r held back on ?is1 & ! writ+ 0 angul> & unyield+4 8,!re are ?+s we _c expla940 8,y h too little fai?4 ,m>y ,k5dal40 ,?is /atem5t 0 made )\t prelim9>y comm5t1 & until %e sign$ h] "n ,i ?\ght ,fr$]ick 0 writ+4 ,i rem9d$ h] t %e _h made x impossible = me to tru/ h] :olly4 8,i am sorry ,i %ook y\r fai?10 %e said4 8,i welcome y to ?is relation1 & want y to believe40 8,"m de>e/1 y "k ,i am "h1 don't y80 ,aga9 ,fr$]ick made 8 own int]rogation po9t4 8,because ,i am1 & y w feel my pres5ce m & m cle>ly z "t goes on40 8,d y "k all t we want to "k80 ,cass inquir$4 8,n all y want to "k4 ,we "k m ?an y d1 & w tell y all we c1 z soon z y are ready = x40 ,we 7 unc]ta9 :e!r ?is meant m5tally & spiritually ready1 or t we mu/ le>n ! conditions ?r\gh :i* !y c be/ rea* u1 & he expla9$4 8,we c tell y any?+ y are prep>$ to und]/&1 & ! m y le>n !re ! bett] y w d y\r "w "h40 8,are y /ill int]e/$ 9 politics "h80 he 0 ask$1 a little lat]4 8,oh yes4 ,b !y are 9 a /ate ( transition t is fe>fully difficult to und]/& or to influ5ce n[4 ,! se$ has be5 s[n1 b ! h>ve/ is n yet g>n]$4 ,nobody kn[s :at w come ( x 9 ?is c\ntry40 8,are y consci\s !re ( :at p "h call ,god80 8 "m ask$4 8,we are consci\s ( a great purpose4 ,"s ( u call x ,god4 ,i see x z light 9 d>k places4 ,o!rs see x z p[]4 ,o!rs z love4 ,b we all recognize x z a purpose40 ,at lun*eon t day we _h spok5 ( ,pr(4 ,william ,james & ,sir ,fr$]ick ,my]s1 & lat] 9 ! ev5+ ,mrs4 ,gaylord ask$ ,fr$]ick :e!r he knew ,pr(essor ,james4 8,i "k him1 b ,i am n sure he kn[s me4 ,he is a great =ce1 & _m ( u g to him = help & in/ruction4 ,only "o o!r man has ! same sort ( p[]4 ,t is ,sir ,fr$]ick40 8,are y ) p f ?is _w only80 "s "o ask$4 8,& does ev]ybody g !re1 or only a c]ta9 elem5t80 8,!re are p f ?is _w only1 b x is z ) y1 n all p are equally prep>$4 ,gr[? is easi] "h if "o has e>n$ x !re4 ,b n all h e>n$ x1 & ! p5alty = laz9ess is long /ruggle4444 ,purgatory is n a bad def9ition ( x4 ,! "r to d big "w mu/ be e>n$4 ,"s p h a t]rible /ruggle ( x4 ,_!8 ,moral muscles are flabby40 8,d y agree ) ,m>y ,k5dal t !re is humor !re1 b t ?is is no "t = x80 8,oh1 %e didn't mean t6 ,%e meant t ?is p>ticul> crisis is n humor\s to h]4 ,%e is deeply conc]n$ to get into t\* ) him4444 ,good night1 ,"m de>e/4 ,i'll be ) y all night40 8,good night10 said ,m>y ,k5dal4 8,i'm sorry ,i upset y40 ,,iv ,! m ,i ?\ght ab\t ! ,k5dal affair ! m p]plex+ x seem$1 & s9ce ,i c\ld nei!r "q t ,m>y ,k5dal & ,fr$]ick _h actually communicat$ ?r\gh me nor believe t %e w\ld wilfully deceive me1 !re seem$ no possible explanation ( ! episode ,saturday night1 except "s unconsci\s influ5ce ( my own m9d4 ,by ! next aft]noon ,i _h almo/ p]suad$ myself t ! repeat$ errone\s /atem5ts ab\t ,mr4 ,k5dal _h be5 induc$1 9 "s way n traceable1 by my increas+ anxiety conc]n+ 8 reception ( ! lett]s ,i _h s5t to 8 club4 ,aft] lun*eon1 we took up ! communication aga91 & imm$iately1 )\t int]rogation1 ! p5cil wrote1 8,y are a good mess5g]40 8,:o is writ+80 ,i ask$4 8,fr$]ick40 8,h[ mu* ( ?is d ,i d1 & h[ mu* is y\rs80 8,y d v little4 ,mo/ly1 y l5d a h&40 ,?is is s lit]ally :at ,i d t we laugh$4 8,y are by nature skeptical10 he cont9u$4 8,"m de>e/1 y mu/ n let h] make y d\bt t ,i h said all ^! ?+s40 8,x unsettles me :5 ,i "k :at ! message is to be be=e x is writt510 ,i p]si/$4 8,d y sugge/ x to me1 or ,i to y80 8,sometimes y sugge/ ?+s to me & ,i say !m10 he return$4 8,sometimes ,i don't40 ,?is reassur$ me some:at1 = ,i _h frequ5tly notic$ t a ?\ght /rongly 9 my m9d seem$ to delay ! p5cil1 yet 0 n writt54 ,return+ = a mom5t to ! discussion ( politics1 ,cass ask$3 8,by reason ( our diff]5t environm5t1 am ,i n m int]e/$ 9 l>ge details1 & y 9 l>ge movem5ts80 8,!re c be no real movem5t )\t a mass ( detail4 ,"h we are int]e/$ equally 9 bo?4 ,!y are insep>able40 8,y said ye/]day t ! se$ _h be5 s[n & ! h>ve/ n yet g>n]$4 ,has ! se$ g5]ally be5 good se$80 8,!re is no tell+ h[ mu* ( x w come up4 ,!re has be5 se$1 good1 bad1 & indiff]5t1 s[n 9 all sorts ( soil4 ,! crop is n =eorda9$4 ,we "w & hope40 8,is !re any?+ 9 ?is life to any degree a c\nt]p>t ( :at y h !re80 8 "m inquir$4 8,or is x some?+ s :olly new t we c't ev5 imag9e x80 8,x is s mu* m expansive1 s mu* m beautiful & free1 t we c give y no conception ( x40 8,p]haps x's bett] t we %\ldn't "k10 x 0 sugge/$2 & ,fr$]ick's reply seems to hold a h9t ( humor4 8,x might make y envi\s40 ,:5 ,i wond]$ :at became ( suicides1 ,cass said1 8,!y probably get ! purgatory he m5tion$ ye/]day40 8,t's :at !y get2 & x's a long1 h>d road back to m5tal44440 ,! p5cil hesitat$4 ,aft] "s ef=ts to write a ^w beg9n+ ) p or f--we 7 unc]ta9 :i*--,mrs4 ,gaylord sugge/$1 8,poise80 8444 poise4 ,yes40 8,is !re unconsci\sness at fir/1 :5 y g ov]80 %e ask$4 8,x dep5ds on circum/ances & p]sons4 ,sometimes !re is a p]iod ( unconsci\sness4 ,i 0 consci\s f ! fir/ mom5t1 & s happy to be "h40 ,:5 ,cass int]pret$ ?is to mean t he greatly pref]r$ be+ !re1 he correct$3 8,no1 to be free4 ,b = ! fir/ weeks ,i 0 daz$ by ! bigness ( x40 ,lat] 9 ! aft]noon ,fr$]ick discuss$ ) 8 "m v>i\s p]sonal matt]s1 ) a good deal ( humor4 ,aft]w>d1 m s]i\sly1 he cont9u$3 8,y'll d bett] "w1 & be m op5 to sugge/ion f me1 if y don't dull y\rself by too con/ant h>p+ on "o *ord4 ,play a little1 y & ,dad40 ,%e told him !y _h n be5 happy en\gh to play4 8,y w be happi] n[4 ,tell ,dad few m5 are z ne> _! sons z he is to me4 ,he & all ( y h only to le>n to recognize me1 :5 ,i am try+ to tell y ,i am !re40 ,we spoke ( h] desire to receive 8 communications ?r\gh h] own p5cil & he said t if %e w\ld 8keep on try+ & believ+10 he c\ld talk directly to h] be=e long1 z he has s9ce demon/rat$4 8,x is difficult = u to ov]come d\bt 9 a mess5g]10 he said4 8,fai? is a positive =ce4 ,x helps u rea* y4 ,d\bt1 be+ negative1 hamp]s u40 ,?is rem9d$ me ( ,m>y ,k5dal's fir/ p]sonal message to me1 8,believe40 8,are y hamp]$ by my d\bt to-day80 ,i ask$4 8,no4 ,t is n d\bt ( u1 b ( y\rself4 ,x is a safegu>d40 ,at ?is po9t we w5t to d9n]4 ,lat] 9 ! ev5+1 :5 we _h return$ to ! p5cil1 ,cass said3 8,y 7 faceti\s la/ night1 ,fr$]ick1 s p]haps ,i may ask if y h d9$80 8,i've _h a fea/ ( reason1 ?ank y10 0 ! in/ant retort4 ,ask$ :e!r ! diff]5t races 7 repres5t$ :]e he 01 he repli$3 8,we h gr\ps4 ,p naturally divide !mselves4 ,b n actual race di/9ction40 ,:5 ,cass expla9$ t he _h wond]$ :e!r peoples ( widely diff]+ religi\s beliefs1 ,*ri/ians1 ,confucians1 ,mohamm$ans1 & s on1 w\ld be toge!r !re1 ,fr$]ick cont9u$3 8,c]ta9ly4 ,ea* gr\p does its "w m or less 9 its own way1 b all to ! same purpose40 ,"h aga9 is a cle> ref]5ce to conditions & =ces ( :i* we _h !n no k & conc]n+ :i*1 app>5tly1 he _h at t "t no au?ority to speak 9 detail4 ,mrs4 ,gaylord 0 sitt+ 9 sil5ce1 at a little di/ance f ! table4 ,aft] a pause1 ,fr$]ick began aga91 z if 9 answ] to "s unspok5 ?\ght3 8,"m de>e/1 y w get :at y are ask+ f me :5 we are all m accu/om$4 ,m>g>et is afraid to let me h&le h]40 ,i said t ! ,k5dal episode ! night be=e _h di/urb$ me1 & t ,i _h be5 c>eful all day n to yield to any impulse 9 ! p5cil unless x 7 v def9ite1 to :i* he return$3 8,t's all "r4 ,y be z c>eful z y l1 z long z y don't d5y u40 ,cass ask$ :e!r he c\ld put u 9 t\* ) a fri5d on 8 plane1 "o ,david ,bruce4 8,m>y ,k5dal c4 ,t is "p ( h] "w4 ,"m de>e/1 y won't backslide80 ,mrs4 ,gaylord turn$ a/oni%$ eyes on me1 ask+3 8,is #8backslide' a "p ( y\r ord9>y vocabul>y80 ,:5 ,i assur$ h] t x 0 n1 %e laugh$1 say+ t x 0 8a ,gaylord ^w40 8,i'm n sure t ,i won't backslide :5 ,i get home aga91 away f ^! daily messages10 %e said4 8,!n y come to u--,m>g>et & me4 ,we'll fix y60 ,he drew a circle ar\nd ?is1 z if to emphasize x4 ,:5 %e wond]$ :e!r %e might n f9d a mess5g] ne>] home to give h] occasional help1 he add$3 8,y c get help1 b y c't tru/ ev]ybody40 ,! p5cil 0 mov+ sl[ly1 ) _m false />ts & delays4 ,i ask$ :e!r he w\ld pref] plan*ette1 & he said he w\ld1 s 8 "m w5t to h] room to get x1 :ile ,m>y ,k5dal talk$ to u ab\t ,manse4 ,z soon z plan*ette 0 plac$ on ! table1 h[ev]1 ,fr$]ick took possession aga91 mov+ x briskly back & =?1 9 a space ( ab\t six in*es1 z if w>m+ x up4 ,mrs4 ,gaylord 0 !n sitt+ opposite me1 & ,cass to ! "r1 "s di/ance away4 ,sudd5ly plan*ette swung %>ply d[n to ! l[] "r-h& corn] ( ! table1 f my position1 & address+ ,mrs4 ,gaylord directly--t is1 writ+ f "r to left & upside d[n f my viewpo9t1 s t 8 "m sitt+ opposite me read x z x came--,fr$]ick wrote rapidly & /rongly3 8,"m de>e/1 ?is is y\r boy1 come back to /ay40 ,we 7 a/\nd$4 ,giv5 a fre% surface1 plan*ette rac$ all ov] ! %eet1 9 en]getic circles & fl\ri%es4 ,x ran t[>d me1 po9t fir/1 z if x w\ld leap (f ! table1 paus$1 :eel$1 cross$ t[>d ,mrs4 ,gaylord1 retreat$1 d>t$ to :]e h] h& lay on ! pap]s1 foll[$ z %e mov$ x1 & !n resum$ its app>5tly mean+less trac+ ( angles & circles4 ,:5 ,i said t ,i did n und]/& ?is p]=mance1 ! reply came ) a :irl1 foll[$ by "o ( 8 big fl\ri%es4 8,i am try+ to %[ y t ,i am runn+ ?is myself60 ,!n1 v rapidly1 upside d[n aga9 to me3 8,y c't d\bt ?is4 ,ev5 ,m>g>et c't d\bt ?is40 8,i hav5't d\bt$ t y 7 "h1 ,fr$]ick10 ,i said4 8,no1 b y've got to believe 9 me40 ,aga9 ,i plac$ ! in/rum5t at my left1 9 read9ess to write1 z usual1 across ! %eet1 b he _h n f9i%$4 ,sw++ d[n to ! "r1 & mov+ t[>d ! left1 once m rev]s$ f my po9t ( view1 he wrote3 8,"m de>e/40 ,!n he ran to ! upp] "r-h& corn] & wrote along t edge ( ! table3 8,n[ ,i'll d x ?is way1 ,mr4 ,l----40 ,9 circles & fl\ri%es he cross$1 to write along ! left edge3 8,n[ ,i'll d x ?is way40 ,up !n1 to ! edge opposite me4 8,n[ ,i'll d x ?is way40 ,by ?is "t ! pap] 0 completely cov]$ ) int]lac+ l9es & words1 except a n>r[ m>g9 along ! "r edge4 ,slid+ ov] to ?is1 he wrote1 sl[ly1 8,n[ are y conv9c$80 ,we 7 amaz$1 brea?less1 & all some:at mov$ by 8 det]m9ation to demon/rate 8 pres5ce4 ,circl+ aga9 to ! c5t]1 already s cov]$ ) l9es t we _h to wat* ! p5cil-po9t to make out ! message1 he said3 8,n[ get ! p5cil40 8,did ,i %[ y !n :o is runn+ ?is80 he dem&$1 :5 ,i _h compli$ ) 8 reque/4 8,"m de>e/1 :5 y are incl9$ to backslide1 rememb] t little exhibition1 & ask y\rself h[ y c d\bt any manife/ation ( me t y p]ceive40 ,mrs4 ,gaylord said t x 0 peculi>ly *>act]i/ic ( ,fr$]ick to insi/ ^u mak+ 8 po9t1 & 9 "o way or ano!r to succe$4 8,dad won't ne$ to see t10 ,fr$]ick /at$1 :5 ,cass wi%$ t 8 fa!r might h witness$ ?is extraord9>y p]=mance1 8b if he does1 ,i'll d x = him ) trimm+s4444 ,he has n lo/ a son 9 any b ! mo/ sup]ficial s5se4 ,tell ,sis ,i'll d /unts = h]1 too1 if %e'll come :]e ,m>g>et is1 & ,babe c h h] own %[1 too40 ,aga9 ,mrs4 ,gaylord gasp$1 = he _h us$ 8 own intimate names = 8 si/]s1 nei!r ( :i* ,i _h ev] he>d be=e4 8,n[ 7 really gett+ d[n to bus9ess10 he rem>k$1 pres5tly4 8,i _h to conv9ce ,m>g>et be=e %e w\ld loos5 up40 ,cass began to expla9 t x _h n be5 necess>y to conv9ce me1 b be=e he 0 fairly />t$ ! p5cil ran on3 8,yes1 x 04 ,%e didn't q believe ,i 0 runn+ ?is %[4 ,n[ %e's nice & am5able40 ,v]ily1 all resi/ance _h be5 tak5 out ( me6 ,!reaft] he _h 8 own way ) ! p5cil4 ,cass began ano!r "q1 b broke (f1 say+ t x 0 n fair to keep ,fr$]ick answ]+ imp]sonal inquiries :5 he want$ to talk to 8 "m4 8,t's :at x's all =10 0 ! c&id admission4 8,! ,l----s are all "r1 b x's = ,"m de>e/ & ! ,family t ,i'm "h4444 ,?is isn't exactly :at religi\s p call heav51 b x is life et]nal 9 ! bigge/ s5se4 ,b ,i c't be q happy 9 x unless y :om ,i love s mu* are happy1 too4 ,don't y backslide6 ,only let me h a *ance1 & ,i'll keep y conv9c$2 b d\bt is ! h>de/ ?+ to combat because x de/roys ! v pro( we are try+ to br+ aga9/ x4 ,believe e sugge/ion ( me until x is prov$ false40 ,"o ( u ask$ :e!r _! greate/ difficulties 9 communicat+ ) u 7 caus$ by d\bt or by di%one/ mess5g]s4 8,bo?4 ,x is h>d to f9d a good mess5g]1 b1 hav+ f\nd "o1 d\bt is apt to de/roy all 8 "w40 8,all f\r po9ts ( ! compass1 ,"m de>e/40 ,?is we took to be an allusion to 8 writ+ along ! f\r edges ( ! table1 e>li] 9 ! ev5+4 8,y see1 we h n mu* "t left1 & y mu/ g home =tifi$ & happy1 & glad = y\rself & me4444 ,x w mean a lot to ,dad4 ,he has ?\ght ,i 0 9 "s remote & f>-(f heav51 & he w l to "k t we are work+ m ne>ly %\ld] to %\ld] ?an ev] be=e1 z we are 9 "s ways4444 ,i want to talk to him /raight40 ,long aft]w>d "o ( 8 si/]s told me t 8%\ld] to %\ld]0 0 a *>act]i/ic phrase ( ,fr$]ick's4 ,aga9 slid+ ov] to ! l[] "r-h& corn]1 he wrote quickly1 9 big sw++ script1 upside d[n to me3 8,"m de>e/1 don't =get ! f\r po9ts ( ! compass4 ,i want y to rememb] t ,i am y\r boy come back4 ,n lo/ at all4 ,please rememb] t40 ,:5 a fre% surface (f]$ & ! p5cil 0 plac$ at my left1 z usual1 he said1 8,no10 & swung once m d[n to ! "r1 writ+ quickly & firmly t[>d ! left & upside d[n to me4 8,i am go+ to write a little lett] to ,dad & ! girls4 ,i love !m j z well z ev]1 & x hurts me to h !m ?9k ,i am n alive & lov+ !m1 because ,i "k !y /ill love me4 8,,fr$]ick40 ,al?\gh ! movem5t 9 ?is rev]s$ writ+ is rapid & def9ite1 z if great en]gy 7 ex]t$ to accompli% x1 x is extremely difficult to foll[1 p]haps because ! muscles ( ! h& are accu/om$ to move f left to "r 9 writ+1 or because ! m9d in/9ctively resi/s a movem5t x _c readily und]/&4 ,v ,! next day 7,monday1 ,m>* #aa?7 we all return$ to ,new ,york toge!r1 ,mrs4 ,gaylord rejo9+ u 9 ! ev5+1 aft] d9+ ) o!r fri5ds4 ,be=e h] arrival1 we talk$ a little to ,m>y ,k5dal1 :o 0 /ill uneasy ab\t ! failure to rea* h] husb&1 f :om no ^w _h come4 ,we ask$ if %e knew ,david ,bruce1 & %e repli$3 8,no1 b he is "h1 & mo/ ( u "k :at he does4 ,he is a sweet =ce40 ,:5 ,mrs4 ,gaylord came1 we told h] ( ?is *>act]ization1 aft] "s p]sonal talk ) ,fr$]ick1 & at once he took up ! sugge/ion4 8,"m de>e/1 y are a sweet =ce1 too4 ,help me build a /ructure ( /r5g?1 :i* is ,dad1 sweetness1 :i* is y1 & illum9ation1 :i* is my "p40 ,we rememb]$ !n 8 ask+ h] to 8cle> away ! dbris ( ?+s outliv$ & beg9 ! new /ructure ) me10 b n until great] revelations foll[$ did we und]/& fully :at he meant4 ,a little lat] he said ( 8 fa!r3 8,he w discov] t ,i am m a =ce ?an ev]1 & !n he w be z pr\d z m5 :o h sons #8ov] !re4' 444 ,%\ld y pref] a son 9 ! tr5*es or 9 ! place ( accompli%$ peace8444 ,i am ne>] y n[ ?an ,i h ev] be5 be=e1 b ! price ( t is app>5t sep>ation4 ,y\r life kn[s no su* companion%ip z ours c be n[1 b t is possible only at ! co/ ( app>5t & visible contact4 ,?is is ga91 n loss4 ,y are que/ion+ t1 b tru/ me4 ,i "k4 ,y c't ev5 guess :at ?is means to all ( u1 ,sis & ,babe & ,dad & y & 8,,fr$]ick40 ,8 "n 0 dropp$ a l9e1 l a signature4 ,x 0 com+ sl[ly1 ) hesitations & false />ts1 & ,i ask$3 8,are y tir$1 ,fr$]ick8 ,or am ,i80 8,bo?10 he said4 8,?is is n ! simple/ ?+ ,i ev] did4444 ,i am n tir$1 z y und]/& we>9ess1 b x is easi] sometimes to get ?+s ?r\gh ?an o!rs40 ,! next ev5+--! la/ we _h ) ,fr$]ick at t "t--8 fir/ messages 7 p]sonal1 express+ 8 desire to 8talk /raight0 to o!r memb]s ( ! family4 8,b !re's no hurry10 he w5t on4 8,we've all et]nity toge!r n[4444 ,only "o ?+ c sep>ate u4 ,if y d\bt my exi/5ce1 ,i %all /ill exi/1 b y\r d\bt w de/roy ! ?read t l9ks u l a telegraph-wire1 only m closely & w>mly4 ,s y mu/ n backslide1 = my sake z well z y\r own40 8,:y don't y /ay on80 he ask$ pres5tly4 8,i c rea* y1 b n s def9itely = a :ile to y\r s5se1 & actual spee* ) y is ke5 joy4 ,tell ,dad 4440--! erasure is 8 own--8444 ! family ,i want to talk to !m1 too4 ,let's h a reunion4 ,"o t won't leave me out4 ,i want to be 940 ,rapidly & /rongly1 he und]l9$ ! la/ words ?ree times4 ,8 "m promis$ t ! family fe/ivals %\ld be held aga91 9 ! full consci\sness t he 0 !re ) !m4 8,?ank y1 ,"m de>e/4 ,y don't "k h[ we hate be+ left out40 ,:5 %e expla9$ t !y 7 8left out0 ignorantly1 r ?an int5tionally1 he cont9u$3 8,no1 we "k y don't mean to leave u out4 ,b y--& we1 too--w\ld be s mu* happi] if y knew we 7 !re & we c\ld "k y 7 n griev+4 ,y see1 we are really ne>] to y ?an y are to ea* o!r1 & only memory tells u :y y grieve4 ,!re is no reason = grief 9 :at y call dea? & we call k40 8,:y hasn't all ?is be5 told to u be=e80 %e dem&$4 8,x 0 cruel n to let u "k x60 8,z ,i wrote y ! o!r day1 n ev]ybody has be5 prep>$ = ! k4 ,x is kn[n only to ! few--^? fir/ ov] ! top ,i spoke (4 ,b x w be ! next great revelation4 ,z well say x 0 cruel n to h kn[n *lor(orm 9 ! ,middle ,ages1 :5 x 0 sorely ne$$1 or wireless telegraphy 9 ! ,napoleonic w>s4 ,!re is an evolution ( s\l1 z well z ( biology & *emi/ry4 ,_m f9e s\ls h /ill lack$ ?is peculi> prep>ation40 ,?is />t$ a little discussion betwe5 u4 ,"o said t _m p]sons _h lo/ fai? 9 ! or?odox religions1 ?us mak+ ! ne$ ( a new revelation great4 ,ano!r spoke disp>ag+ly ( ! mod]n !ory ( a p]vasive & imp]sonal en]gy1 f :i* we come & to :i* we return1 los+ individuality4 ,at ?is po9t ,fr$]ick took ! lead aga94 8,don't y let !m fool y6 ,!re is no su* ?+ z ,b]gson's /ream ( en]gy1 unless e individual ( u is a well-def9$ drop 9 ! /ream4 ,t is all a philosoph]'s dream1 coat$ ) poetry & t9ctur$ ) sci5ce40 ,mrs4 ,gaylord said %e _h nev] he>d ( ,fr$]ick's read+ ,b]gson1 & ,i m5tion$ t ,i _h read no?+ ( 81 except "o article 9 a review4 8,i nev] read ,b]gson1 ei!r1 b y c\ld n live 9 ! _w1 or pick up a ,sunday supplem5t1 "s ye>s ago1 )\t enc\nt]+ t /ream ( en]gy40 8,!re speaks ! newspap] man60 8 "m said1 laugh+4 ,dur+ all ^! talks ) ,fr$]ick he _h frequ5tly made ! little retrac$ circle1 :i* we _h be5 told meant joy4 ,he made x aga9 n[1 ) vigor1 & "s "o sugge/$ t he seem$ excit$4 8,w\ldn't x excite y to get into actual t\* ) y\r family1 aft] long d\bt & pa98 ,i am no angel1 y "k1 & ?ank ,god ,i am n above be+ excit$4 ,:5 ,i am ,i w be dead60 ,aga9 he und]scor$ a ^w4 ,mrs4 ,gaylord spoke ( h] feel+ ( 8 pres5ce1 ( 8 *>act]i/ic p]sonality1 say+ t he seem$ 8j ! same40 8,plus1 ,"m de>4 ,y'd l me bett] n[4 ,i don't mean t ,i am p]fect1 y "k4 ,i've got m to le>n ?an ,i ev] knew exi/$1 b ,i c see ahead n[4 ,& y w\ld l me bett]4444 ,i didn't say love me bett]10 he add$4 ,we talk$ ab\t ! =ce mov+ ! p5cil1 :i* on ?is occasion 0 v /rongly appli$1 ?\gh ,i 0 greatly fatigu$ by ! ef=ts ( ! pa/ few days1 & ,i ask$ ,fr$]ick :e!r he c\ld move x )\t my co-op]ation4 ,b he said1 8,only z y hold x40 ,to a sugge/ion t he express$ himself n ?r\gh ! p5cil1 b ?r\gh me1 he repli$1 8,%e is l ! batt]y40 ,f ! fir/ ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h be5 exp]im5t+ ) plan*ette & p5cil1 hop+ to e/abli% direct communication ) ,fr$]ick4 ,:ile plac+ m emphasis on a possible communion ( ?\ght1 )\t mat]ial aid1 he _h enc\rag$ ^! ef=ts4 8,"m1 y c d x1 ,i am sure10 he said once1 8b don't expect mu* flu5cy = "s "t4 ,i h n writt5 except ?r\gh ,m>g>et yet1 b !y tell me %e is exceptionally s5sitive z a mess5g]40 ,ref]r+ to ?is1 he 0 ask$ :e!r o!rs1 n kn[n to me p]sonally1 _h desir$ to communicate ?r\gh me1 & repli$3 8,no1 b !y h wat*$ h]1 ?is la/ week40 ,t5 days lat]1 :5 ! mo/ amaz+ ( all ! communications began to come1 we rememb]$ ?is4 ,aft] enum]at+ "s ( ! qualifications ( a good mess5g]1 he said3 8,:5 t comb9ation is f\nd we are all int]e/$1 if we want to rea* our own p40 8,are y ov] !re especially int]e/$ 9 rea*+ y\r own families & fri5ds1 or 9 rea*+ p]sons :o might be int]e/$ 9 ! possibility ( ^! communications80 8,bo?4 ,b if y h ev] be5 unable to communicate ) ^? y love1 = mon?s & ye>s1 & h kn[n !y 7 suff]+1 !n y "k :i* int]e/ is ke5e/4 ,! "o is imm$iate & urg5t1 ! o!r m or less a matt] ( evolution40 8,%all ,i try to talk to "s ( y occasionally80 ,i ask$4 8,or %all ,i wait = a call80 8,y are ov] ! top4 ,we %all be glad to come40 8,c y let me "k1 if y h some?+ to say ?r\gh me80 8,n always4 ,sometimes we c sugge/ ! ?\ght to y40 ,s9ce t "t1 h[ev]1 a m p]fect connection has be5 e/abli%$ & ,i am (t5 consci\s ( a def9ite summons4 ,on ^! occasions ! p5cil />ts at once1 g5]ally ) great vigor1 & almo/ always writes "s message n convey$ to my consci\sness except z ,i spell x out aft] ! p5cil4 ,t[>d ! end ( ! ev5+1 :5 ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h sugge/$ go+ back to h] hotel1 ! p5cil made a little circle & "s app>5tly aimless m>ks inside x4 8,is ?is ,fr$]ick80 ,i ask$1 wond]+ at indecision f him4 8,yes4 ,i want to d some?+ ,"m c't =get4444 ,y don't ne$ any m fancy /unts1 d y80 ,%e said %e did n1 b t %e 0 v tir$ & c\ld /ay no long]4 8,oh1 don't g60 he begg$4 8,i'll g ) y1 b ,i l gass+ ?is way40 ,ano!r *>act]i/ic phrase1 %e said4 ,aft] "s fur!r assurances ( 8 frequ5t pres5ce & con/ant wat*fulness1 %e said %e really mu/ g4 ,fr$]ick !n mov$ ! p5cil d[n to ! "r corn] aga91 & wrote1 v cle>ly & c>efully1 "o m 8upside-d[n0 message--a t\*+ little message ( love to 8de> ,dad & ! girls10 :i* he sign$1 8,y\r boy1 ,fr$]ick40 ,! next day ,mrs4 ,gaylord w5t home1 :]e %e imm$iately de/roy$ all h] black-bord]$ c>ds & /ation]y & simil> symbols ( m\rn+4 ,%e wrote me t %e felt x 0 false & wick$ to m\rn = a son z vitally alive & happy z %e n[ knew ,fr$]ick to be4 ,,vi ,"o ( my lett]s to ,mr4 ,k5dal _h be5 m>k$ 8,urg5t40 ,on ! day ( ,mrs4 ,gaylord's dep>ture a telegram came f him1 ask+ t a duplicate ( ?is lett] be s5t to him at ,*icago4 ,x develop$ lat] t all my missives1 aft] "s delay1 _h be5 =w>d$ f 8 club to 8 bus9ess address 9 ! ,s\?1 :]e1 ow+ to ! unc]ta9ty ( 8 plans1 8 secret>y _h held !m1 notify+ him by wire ( ! "o evid5tly dem&+ imm$iate att5tion4 ,aft] "s hesitation--reluctant to %ock him by a bald & />tl+ ann\ncem5t unaccompani$ by any explanation ( a situation conc]n+ :i* ,i 0 conv9c$ he w\ld be skeptical1 if n :olly unsympa!tic1 & yet impell$ by 8 wife's di/ress$ insi/5ce to rea* him be=e he %\ld g ,s\? aga9--,i telegraph$ him t ,i _h reason to believe ,i _h be5 9 direct communication = sev]al days ) ,m>y & o!rs1 & ask$ him to return via ,new ,york1 if possible4 ,e>ly t ev5+ ,i took up a p5cil1 :i* mov$ at once4 8,manzie has y\r message40 ,?is c\ld be no "o b ,m>y ,k5dal4 ,to my inquiry conc]n+ 8 reception ( my telegram %e repli$3 8,he is />tl$4 ,he is wir+ y40 ,an expression ( h] happ9ess foll[$1 conclud+1 8,he is ?9k+ ( me 444 & ,i c help him40 8,c't y help him unless he is ?9k+ ( y80 ,app>5tly ?is pres5t$ difficulties1 b aft] long ef=t & _m false />ts %e a*iev$ :at ,i felt to be only a "p ( ! answ] %e _h int5d$4 8,on p[] ,i c40 8,y mean t y c influ5ce 8 "w8 ,8 /r5g?1 or accompli%m5t80 8,yes1 b n 8 he>t & s\l40 ,aft] assurances t he w\ld come soon1 %e ?ank$ me t\*+ly4 ,lat] 9 ! ev5+ %e said1 8,manzie is s amaz$60 ,:5 ,i ask$ :e!r he believ$ x1 %e return$3 8,he does n[4 ,he has ?\ght44440 ,details p]sonal to him foll[$4 ,/ill lat] ,i ask$ :e!r ,mr4 ,k5dal _h telegraph$ me1 & %e said t he _h n1 ?\gh he _h int5d$ to d s4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 he _h n at t "t receiv$ my telegram1 b he aft]w>d told me t :5 x rea*$ him1 twelve h\rs lat]1 8 reactions 7 exactly z %e _h describ$ !m4 ,also1 8 int5tion ( telegraph+ me imm$iately 0 delay$ sev]al h\rs by bus9ess necessities4 ,?is is "o ( sev]al in/ances :5 a diff]5ce ( plane has seem$ to enable !m to look ahead = a limit$ space & =etell ev5ts4 ,! next morn+1 = ! fir/ "t 9 t5 days1 ! p5cil 0 m]ely a piece ( dead wood betwe5 my f+]s1 )\t impulse4 ,aft] long delay x mov$ sl[ly1 mak+ light circles1 b no words came4 ,i knew t ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h int5d$ to make an ef=t t day to get into t\* ) ,fr$]ick ?r\gh a semi-pr(essional m$ium 9 h] vic9ity1 & 9 ! ev5+ ,i took up a p5cil1 wond]+ :e!r we c\ld le>n :at success _h att5d$ ! attempt4 8,m>y40 ,suppos+ ?is to be ,m>y ,k5dal1 ,i made "s allusion to ,mansfield1 & 0 imm$iately correct$4 8,no4 ,m>y ,k40 ,?is 0 surpris+1 z x 0 ! fir/ "t %e _h respond$ s9ce my initial ef=t to e/abli% ?is int]c\rse4 ,%e said t ,m>y ,k5dal 0 n pres5t1 & t ,fr$]ick _h met 8 "m at ,mrs4 ,z----'s1 ) results only p>tially satisfactory--:i* lett]s f ! ,gaylord family aft]w>d v]ifi$4 ,we sugge/$ t ?is might h be5 disc\rag+1 & %e repli$3 8,disc\ragem5t is n = ,fr$]ick40 8,h[ d y "k s mu* ab\t ,fr$]ick n[80 ,i ask$4 8,t5 days ago y said y did n "k him40 8,mrs4 ,k5dal int]e/$ me 9 him4 ,he is = ju/ice1 light1 & progress4 ,my "w1 too40 ,to my express$ hope t %e f\nd life happi] !re ?an x _h be5 = h] "h %e return$1 8,yes1 ,i 0 glad to come10 foll[+ ! /atem5t ) ! little circle s (t5 us$ by ! o!rs4 ,%e1 too1 said t x meant joy4 ,we h s9ce le>n$ t x means mu* m1 b app>5tly !y 7 educat+ u by degrees4 ,9 ?is case ! joy 0 n h]s alone1 = ! r5ew$ communion ) h] br\ght me great gladness4 ,our fri5d%ip began long ago1 9 a ,we/]n city1 :i!r %e _h come 9 se>* ( heal?4 ,bo? 7 "y1 %e a few ye>s ! eld]4 ,%e 0 alone4 ,i nev] saw any memb] ( h] family1 & we _h few fri5ds 9 common1 b betwe5 u1 f ! day we met1 !re 0 a /rong bond ( sympa?y1 :i* grew to deep affection1 not)/&+ _m diff]5ces betwe5 u4 ,%e 0 m widely read ?an ,i2 ,i m actively 9 t\* ) life ?an %e4 ,%e 0 a *ur* woman2 ,i 0 n4 ,h] po9t ( view 0 ,ea/]n1 m9e at t "t entirely ,we/]n4 ,our _m disagreem5ts 7 argu$ w>mly & at l5g?1 b at bottom ea* knew t %e c\ld draw at w ^u :atev] /r5g? or res\rce ! o!r possess$1 & ! debt 9 ! end 0 m9e1 :5 h] dea? left a blank to :i* ,i c\ld nev] be q reconcil$4 ,h] brief c>e] seem$ to contradict ! law ( comp5sation1 ^u :i*1 until rec5tly1 my philosophy ( life has be5 bas$4 ,meticul\sly tru?ful1 scrupul\s 9 all ?+s1 /rong ( purpose1 giv+ ( h] be/ to life1 life pass$ h] by ) a %rug4 ,ke5ly s5sitive to beauty1 :e!r spiritual1 intellectual1 or mat]ial1 %e 0 hamp]$ 9 its pursuit by limit$ heal? & limit$ means4 ,= ye>s %e /ruggl$ ) uncong5ial employm5t ( "o sort or ano!r1 d5y+ h]self ! loaf %e ne$$ to procure ! hyac9? %e ne$$ m4 ,long+ = life at its fulle/ & ri*e/1 %e sc>cely t\*$ its m>g94 ,ye>n+ = high peaks & wide outlook1 %e liv$ always on ! pla94 ,:51 f9ally1 ! pa? seem$ to be op5+ be=e h] & %e 0 pleasantly e/abli%$1 do+ a heal+ & con/ructive "w = :i* %e 0 fitt$1 %e di$ sudd5ly1 /ill baffl$1 hav+ giv5 ! la/ pro( ( h] love = humanity by yield+ h] life = x1 worn out by h>d "w1 combat+ an epidemic 9 a college t[n4 ,rejoic$ to le>n t at la/ %e 0 happy1 ,i ask$ :e!r %e c\ld tell u ( h] "w1 & %e began1 easily3 8,yes1 on ! 444 on 444 on !44440 ,aft] long difficulty %e accompli%$ x4 8,on ! p]petual t\r40 ,:5 %e _h v]ifi$ ?is a/oni%+ /atem5t z correct1 ,i sugge/$1 8#8,(f ag'91 on ag'91 gone ag'9'80 8,t's x40 ,= an eag] _s l ,m>y ,k4's no happi] heav5 c\ld be imag9$4 ,reply+ to fur!r que/ions1 %e said t x 0 n j luck t ,i _h caught h] t fir/ night4 ,no1 nei!r _h %e come to me f ! o!r side ( ! _w4 8,i've be5 work+ on y = a mon?10 %e said4 8,ev] s9ce ,v---- 0 "h40 ,x 0 consid]ably m ?an a mon?1 b "t & place seem to h little significance to ^? on h] plane4 ,%ortly aft] ?is ,annie ,mann+ int]rupt$ aga94 ,x 0 said t ,m>y ,k4 knew ,annie ,mann+ & wi%$ me to f9d h] bro!r4 ,inquiry develop$ ! fact t he 0 ! bro!r m5tion$ ! fir/ night ,i us$ plan*ette4 ,8 "n 0 giv5 z ,james ,mann+1 & 8 address1 ,albany1 ,new ,york4 8,unit$ ,/ates ,ho44440 ,we c\ld n get beyond t4 ,at "o "t ! ^w seem$ to be 8,hotel40 ,unable to f9d any ,unit$ ,/ates ,hotel li/$ 9 ,albany1 ,i sugge/$ ,s>atoga1 b ?is 0 n accept$4 ,repeat$ly ask$ to write to him1 ,i c\ld obta9 no address4 ,aft]w>d ! address 0 giv5 z ,albany1 b n ,new ,york4 ,long ef=ts to write ! "n ( ! /ate result$ 9 8,i 44410 end+ 9 wavy l9es4 ,sugge/ions ( ,ill9ois & ,i[a br\ght negatives1 b ! m5tion ( ,indiana 0 greet$ ) a quick1 8,yes40 ,va9 & fatigu+ ef=ts to get ! re/ ( ! address result$ 9 ! indef9ite 8,unit$ ,/ates ,ho 4440 & at la/ ,i gave x up1 disappo9t$4 ,an h\r lat] ,annie ,mann+ came aga91 b ,i ask$ h] to let me talk to ,m>y ,k4 8,"h6 ,m>y ,k410 0 ! prompt response4 8,d y rememb] all ! good times80 ,i told h] ,i did1 & ?\ght ( !m (t54 8,all ! _m ae 444 an44440 ,!re ,i lo/ x4 ,%e began x _m times1 9 _m ways1 app>5tly try+ to get a mom5tum t w\ld c>ry h] ?r\gh4 8,all ! _m am 444 ,i mean ae 444 ,i meant to say anm44440 ,too tir$ to cont9ue1 aga9 ,i ab&on$ ! attempt4 ,annie ,mann+ came once m1 mak+ futile ef=ts to give me h] bro!r's address4 ,%e f9ally said x 0 8j ,unit$ ,/ates ,home40 ,once %e wrote1 8j ,home40 ,& once1 8,hone/1 t's all40 ,i h nev] le>n$ ! :ole tru? ab\t ,annie ,mann+1 :o ceas$1 aft] ! fir/ =tnight1 to manife/ h]self2 :e!r because %e lack$ p]sev]ance or because o!r influ5ces 7 already at "w1 ,i d n "k4 ,! next day ,i took up ! p5cil1 expect+ ,m>y ,k5dal1 ) news ( h] husb&1 b ,m>y ,k4's /rong1 und]l9$ signature greet$ me in/ead4 ,%e said t ,mr4 ,k5dal 0 com+1 add+3 8,on c5 444 c5t44440 8,c5tury80 ,i sugge/$4 8,tw5tie? ,c5tury ,limit$80 8,no 444 c5 444 ce 444 c5t44440 ,f9ally1 %e agre$ to ,c5tury--compromis$ on x1 ,i le>n$ lat]4 ,)9 five m9utes a telegram came f ,mr4 ,k5dall--! fir/ ^w ,i _h receiv$ f him--say+ t he w\ld arrive 9 ,new ,york ,sunday or ,monday4 ,:5 ,i told him ( ?is exp]i5ce he exclaim$3 8,c5tral6 ,new ,york ,c5tral60 ,:i*1 = "s reason1 _h n occurr$ to me4 ,at ! h\r :5 ,m>y ,k4 gave me ?is in=mation he _h ord]$1 at 8 club 9 ,*icago1 a ticket = ! ,lake ,%ore ,limit$--l ! ,tw5tie? ,c5tury1 a ,new ,york ,c5tral tra94 ,lat]1 hav+ ! ticket actually 9 8 possession1 he telegraph$ me t he w\ld come by t tra91 rea*+ ,new ,york ,sunday ev5+1 b aft]w>d *ang$ to ano!r road4 ,?is second message arriv$ ,saturday aft]noon1 & ,i at once inquir$ ( ,m>y ,k4 :y %e _h said 8,c5tury40 ,in/ead ( h] famili> signature1 h[ev]1 8,fr$]ick0 0 writt54 ,hav+ asc]ta9$ t ?is 0 ,fr$]ick himself1 & n a message ab\t him1 ,i ask$ him to g on4 8,! ,family are happy40 ,at no "t dur+ ?is brief int]view _h ,i ! slighte/ inkl+ ( :at 0 com+4 ,z he _h be5 always s c\rte\s 9 ackn[l$gm5t1 ! fir/ lett]s l$ me to ?9k he 0 beg9n+ 8 cu/om>y 8,?ank y40 ,say+ t _! happ9ess add$ greatly to my own1 ,i ask$ if he _h any?+ else to say4 8,yes4 ,at y\r s]vice4444 ,at ! next l>ge family reunion y bo? w be pres5t1 won't y80 ,i said we w\ld try to be1 & aga9 he wrote 8 "n1 indicat+ t he _h no?+ m to say1 :]eupon ,i call$ ,m>y ,k41 reproa*$ h] = inaccuracy1 & ask$ :y %e _h said ,mansfield ,k5dal w\ld come by ! ,c5tury4 ,app>5tly despair+ ( p5etrat+ su* d5sity1 %e repli$1 m]ely3 8,he want$ to leave to-day40 ,lat] 9 ! aft]noon %e said1 8,he w be p]fectly ready to believe10 :i* seem$ to me highly improbable4 ,"s ?+s writt5 t aft]noon came to my m9d be=e !y did to my f+]s1 & ,i ask$ :e!r %e c\ld n write ! messages )\t fir/ tell+ me :at !y 7 to be4 8,yes10 %e return$1 8b x is h>d] = u & m exhau/+ = y40 ,weeks aft]w>d1 :5 ?is sep>ate control ( m9d & p5cil _h be5 m fully demon/rat$1 x 0 m fully expla9$4 ,rememb]+ h] /atem5t t h] "w took h] 8on p]petual t\r10 ,i ask$ h[ long %e w\ld be "h4 8,i %all be ne> y = mon?s10 %e said1 & !n began aga9 h] nev] :olly rel9qui%$ ef=t to write ! message fir/ attempt$ two days be=e4 8,ao 444 an 444 aon 444 aem 444 aeons ago 4440--"h %e made a frantic little joy circle--8444 we 7 lov]s40 ,?is surpris$ me1 = x seem$ unlike h] & 0 absolutely =eign to my ?\ght1 b :5 %e _h v]ifi$ x1 ,i ask$3 8,is re9c>nation true1 !n80 8,no4 ,aeons ago 444 ,i 0 a fri5d ( y\rs 9 ----40 ,%e m5tion$ a p]son :om ,i h kn[n all my life4 ,aga9 ?is seem$ utt] nons5se1 b aga9 %e v]ifi$ x4 8,we 7 conc]n$ 9 be+ m & m curi\sly limit$ 444 m & m animal40 ,"s ( ?is came readily1 "s ) halt+ & false />ts1 :i*--l ,fr$]ick--%e cross$ out h]self4 ,at fir/ ?is1 too1 seem$ devoid ( mean+1 b aft] a little ?\ght ,i ask$ :e!r %e meant t we _h be5 associat$ 9 "s way z pure _s4 8,ev]ybody 0 pure _s once1 & w be aga910 0 ! rapid reply4 8,is ?is life a puni%m5t1 !n80 8,no1 a beg9n+ ( individuality40 8,does ! individual cont9ue to exi/ =ev]80 8,yes40 8,z pure _s80 8,yes40 8,!n h[ 7 we associat$ z pure _s80 8,we 7 ! same purpose40 ,completely puzzl$1 ,i ask$1 8,:y d y say we 7 fri5ds 9 ----80 8,he 0 ! l>g] purpose1 ( :i* we 7 a "p40 8,! orig9al purpose is n all ! same1 !n80 8,no1 !re are _m purposes 9 ! beg9n+1 b only "o 9 ! end40 8,does ,fr$]ick "k all ?is80 8,all ( x40 ,:5 %e said good night1 %e add$1 8,god bless y10 & ,i ask$3 8,m>y ,k41 h[ d y see ,god8 ,fr$]ick sees ,him z light 9 d>k places40 8,ju/ice1 light1 progress40 8,is t ,god1 or ,god's "w80 8,te/$40 8,y mean t y h te/$ x80 8,yes40 ,! next day1 ,sunday--two weeks f ! day %e _h fir/ talk$ to me ?r\gh plan*ette--%e return$ to ?is !me1 :i* /ill seem$ some:at fanta/ic to my practical & pragmatical m9d1 ) fur!r allusions to our long association4 ,dur+ ! days ( confusion & unc]ta9ty be=e ,mr4 ,k5dal repli$ to my telegram1 :5 8 wife con/antly implor$ me to write to him aga91 & ,i z con/antly refus$1 insi/+ t %e fir/ %[ cause :y %e _h misl$ me ab\t 8 movem5ts & :]eab\ts1 ,i wrung f h] an admission t 9 "s way he _h put h] s f> f him t %e nei!r knew nor c\ld le>n any?+ ab\t him1 except t he suff]$ & ne$$ h]1 :i* bo? ,m>y ,k4 & ,fr$]ick v]ifi$4 ,i said once to ,m>y ,k4 t x 0 incr$ible t ?is c\ld be1 to :i* %e laconically return$1 8,x c40 ,aft] 8 actual receipt ( my telegram1 ,m>y ,k5dal nev] return$ to me until %e came ) him1 & ! "* ( h] e>li] bani%m5t1 & consequ5t inability to p]ceive 8 movem5ts1 0 /ill unexpla9$4 ,z ! h\r ( 8 arrival approa*$ ,i grew uneasy1 & ask$ ,m>y ,k4 :e!r he came happily or 9 dread4 8,c]ta9ly ) o0--! joy circle1 & z we h s9ce le>n$1 ! circle ( completion4 ,:5 ,i ask$ h] to write x out 9 full to reassure me1 ! p5cil ran back1 und]scor+ 8c]ta9ly40 ,%e said fur!r t ,m>y ,k5dal 0 ) him1 & v happy4 8,has ,m>y ,k5dal be5 v unhappy80 ,i ask$4 8,no4 ,aeons ago !y 7 "o purpose40 8,:at has t to d ) x80 8,%e knew t he mu/ answ] if %e c\ld rea* him40 8,does t hold good ( evil purpose1 too80 8,yes40 ,,vii ,x seem$ to me t if ,mr4 ,k5dal _h n receiv$ my lett]s1 & 0 9 possession only ( ! meag] in=mation conta9$ 9 my telegram1 x 0 be/ t he %\ld read ! record ( ! e>li] int]views ) 8 wife be=e com+ to communicate ) h]1 & to t end ! book conta9+ ! :ole /ory 0 to be s5t to 8 club be=e 8 arrival4 ,hav+ decid$ ?is1 x occurr$ to me to consult ,m>y ,k41 :o emphatically negativ$ ! plan4 8,no4 ,m>y ,k5dal is mo/ anxi\s to tell him h]self n[40 ,%e told u to make brief explanations1 add+3 8,all he ne$s n[ is ,m>y ,k5dal40 ,%ortly aft]w>d ,m>y ,k4's n[ famili> summons--an indescribable s5sation 9 ! arm or h&--recall$ me to ! p5cil1 & %e wrote1 quickly & firmly3 8,m>y ,k5dal wants y to *ange y\r record40 ,surpris$1 ,i ask$ :at *ange %e wi%$1 & 0 told to take out ev]y?+ relat+ to h] bani%m5t f ,mansfield's life1 because %e pref]r$ to tell him t 9 h] own way4 8,%all ,i %[ him ! record at all80 ,i ask$4 8,yes1 b take t out fir/40 ,=tunately1 ! record is kept 9 a loose-leaf1 typewritt5 book1 s ?is 0 n difficult4 ,z ! day wore on ,i grew m & m n]v\s4 ,suppose he %\ld be m hurt ?an help$8 ,suppose we %\ld fail8 ,r>ely 9 my life h ,i dread$ any?+ s mu*1 or felt s little confid5ce 9 any?+ ,i _h delib]ately und]tak5 to d4 ,by n9e o'clock ,i 0 9 a n]v\s *ill4 ,mean:ile ,mr4 ,k5dal telephon$ t he _h f\nd my lett]s1 :i* _h be5 return$ to 8 club1 & t he w\ld jo9 u pres5tly4 ,^u 8 arrival he told u t he _h be5 "o ( ! e>ly memb]s ( ! ,society = ,psy*ical ,rese>* 9 ?is c\ntry1 & _h sp5t sev]al ye>s inve/igat+ ph5om5a ( ?is nature1 toge!r ) v>i\s o!r "y m51 "u ! g5]al sup]vision ( ,pr(4 ,william ,james1 ,dr4 ,m9ot ,savage1 & o!rs ( t gr\p4 ,he m5tion$ "s ( ! frauds & self-deceptions uncov]$ at t "t1 b said he believ$ ! ultimate conclusion to h be5 t !re 7 c]ta9 well-au!nticat$ ph5om5a = :i* no logical or sci5tific explanation _h be5 f\nd4 ,no?+ t he said1 h[ev]1 indicat$ to ! slighte/ degree 8 attitude t[>d ! "q 9 h&1 & ,i receiv$ an impression t 8 mood 0 critical1 :i* /eadi$ me4 ,! disappo9tm5t1 %\ld we fail1 w\ld be less hide\s4 ,9 ! end1 he sugge/$ a trial1 & aft] prep>+ ! table1 ,cass left u alone4 ,! p5cil />t$ almo/ imm$iately1 ) a /range1 j]kily rhy?mical movem5t--due possibly to ,m>y's agitation1 possibly to m9e1 b wrote v di/9ctly1 )\t pause or falt]+4 ,x 0 evid5t at once t ! message convey$ m to him ?an its words sugge/$4 ,mu* lat] 9 ! ev5+ he told me t = "s "t aft] ,m>y left him he _h believ$ t if %e /ill exi/$ any:]e 9 ! univ]se %e w\ld contrive someh[ to let him "k2 b z mon?s _h pass$ into ye>s1 ) no sign f h]1 :ile nev] entirely los+ fai? 9 ! cont9u$ integrity ( ! individual aft] dea?1 8 despair _h deep5$ ) 8 gr[+ conviction t 8! drop t 0 ,m>y0 _h be5 swept on 9 ! /ream & =ev] lo/ to him4 ,widely read 9 philosophies & unable to =get !m1 /eep$--despite 8 practical occupation--9 sci5tific & intellectual !ory1 he _h fe>$ to rely ^u a reunion 9 a future ( :i* no pro( _h be5 giv5 him1 le/ he be gr\nd+ 8 fai? 9 ! s&s ( 8 own hope4 ,x 0 to ?is unhappy conviction--a conviction s /rong 9 its negation t = a "t %e _h be5 unable to p5etrate 9 any way ! psy*ic atmosph]e x creat$--t %e address$ h]self 9 ^? fir/ writt5 l9es4 ,%e us$1 also1 h] intimate "n = him1 :i* ,i _h nev] he>d1 & 8 = h]1 :i* ,i knew1 al?\gh ,i suppos$ ! peculi> spell+ us$ on ?is occasion to be an error1 until he told me o!rwise4 ,he ask$ "o or two que/ions ab\t p]sonal matt]s1 :i* ,i assum$ to be 9 ! nature ( te/s1 :i* %e answ]$ briefly1 ?\gh n v specifically1 conclud+3 8,i _c tell y any?+ to-night1 except t ,i am s happy4 ,i _h lo/ y1 & y are f\nd aga94 ,let me talk to y to-morr[40 ,"s "t lat] he want$ to "k :y he c\ld n read h] m9d direct1 & %e repli$3 8,y c1 9 "t1 if y w let me 91 & le>n4 ,we c h su* communion z we nev] _h be=e1 because "o veil is n[ remov$4 ,b t w take "t to le>n4 ,x is true4 ,x c be4444 ,take me into y\r he>t & s\l joyfully1 )\t res5tm5t or grief1 & y w soon le>n to read my ?\ghts z ,i h read y\rs s9ce ,i seem$ to leave y4 8,!n ,i c tell y ?+s t ,i _c say ?r\gh any mess5g]4444 ,y c le>n4444 ,all ,i want n[ is to conv9ce y t ,i am alive & long+ to be ) y & to h communication directly ) y4 ,x is impossible = me to d t alone4 ,b ,i _h to rea* y someh[1 & ,m>g>et 0 ! fir/ way ,i f\nd40 ,we talk$ a little ( ! possibility ( 8 e/abli%+ direct communication ) h]4 ,i ask$ :e!r he c\ld use a p5cil 9 ?is way1 & %e return$3 8,yes1 if he w try e day1 he c\ld 9 "t1 ,i ?9k4 ,!re is always a way = u to rea* our de>e/ ones1 if !y only p]sev]e40 ,dur+ a pause1 ) ! p5cil-po9t /ill re/+ on ! pap]1 ,i told him ( ,m>y ,k4's ass]tion t eons ago "s ( u _h be5 "o & t we /ill cont9ue "o 9 purpose4 ,m>y ,k5dal took x up imm$iately4 8,manzie1 y & ,i are ! same purpose4 ,t is ! reason t1 once reunit$1 we _c be sep>at$1 except by our delib]ate yield+ to a diff]5t & dis9tegrat+ purpose4 ,t is ! et]nal battle--betwe5 ! purposes ( progress & build+ & ! purposes ( dis9tegration4 ,x goes on 9 y\r life1 & x goes on less bitt]ly 9 ours4 ,help me build1 z we began1 t[>d ! great unity4444 ,all ( u "h are work+ aga9/ ^? =ces ( dis9tegration s rife 9 y\r life n[1 & e bit ( ret5tion ( unity t is = upbuild+ helps u & helps ! great purpose = :i* we "w4444 ,y & ,i began work+ = t long ago1 & ea* ( u w always cont9ue to "w = x4 ,b we %all be happi] if we d x consci\sly toge!r4444 ,don't ?9k ( me z f> away4444 ,we w welcome to our unity any?+ or anybody :o /r5g!ns ! purpose1 b let u always hold fa/ to ea* o!r40 ,"h 0 ! fir/ actual /atem5t1 h[ev] brief & incomplete1 ( t !ory ( life :i* seems--to u :o receiv$ x fir/1 at lea/--s rational1 & s full ( inspiration & hope4 ,ref]r+ to h] phrase1 8all ( u "h10 he ask$3 8,is #8"h' a place1 or a /ate1 or bo?80 8,bo?10 %e answ]$1 quickly4 8,x is ! beg9n+ ( et]nal life40 ,aft] a mom5t1 %e add$3 8,! /ate is fluid2 ! place is ephem]al40 8,i believe x60 he exclaim$4 8,t's m ne>ly an explanation ?an any?+ ,i ev] he>d be=e40 8,?is is m ne>ly ! tru? ?an any?+ y ev] he>d be=e4 ,t's :y4444 ,tru? 9 y\r life is comp>ative4 ,"h x is absolute1 b n dogmatic40 ,he said t %e _h n be5 giv5 to ! use ( a philosophic vocabul>y 9 ?is life1 & mu/ h acquir$ x !re1 to :i*1 at ! mom5t1 %e made no response4 ,"s "t aft] ,cass rejo9$ u ,mr4 ,k5dal ask$ h[ mu* f>!r1 or h[ mu* m cle>ly1 !y c\ld see ab\t purely bus9ess or political matt]s ?an we4 8,we c see mu* f>!r1 b we are n p]mitt$ to tell y1 except by e?ical sugge/ion4 ,"p ( y\r developm5t comes ?r\gh y\r /ruggle to decide1 & :ile we see y\r /ruggle1 we c help only by giv+ y z mu* ( our /r5g? & light z y c take4 ,x is a moral univ]se1 ,manzie40 ,! und]scor+ is h]s4 ,out ( 8 wide exp]i5ce ) psy*ic ph5om5a1 he gave me mu* com=t reg>d+ ! inaccuracies & mislead+ /atem5ts t _h s greatly disquiet$ me4 ,he argu$ t ^! discrepancies might easily be caus$ by "s factor or factors unkn[n to u1 op]at+ on ano!r plane1 & 0 entirely untr\bl$ by !m4 ,9 ?is connection1 ,m>y ,k4 said to me ! next day3 8,we reg>d ?+s successfully />t$ z accompli%$40 ,"s weeks lat] ,mr4 ,k5dal sugge/$ ano!r possible reason = ^! app>5t inaccuracies1 us+ z a comp>ison a famili> exp]im5t 9 physics4 ,he rem9d$ u t if a rod be project$ 9 a /raight l9e betwe5 ! eye & a co9 at ! bottom ( a b[l ( wat]1 its tip w miss ! co9 by a di/ance v>y+ ) ! angle ( vision & ! dep? ( ! wat]4 ,assum+ t ! diff]5ce betwe5 ?is plane & ! next mu/ be va/ly great] ?an t betwe5 air & wat]1 he argu$ t !re might be a factor comp>able to ?is deflection ( ray influ5c+ _! p]ception ( mat]ial1 specific details ( ?is plane--a simile :i* ,m>y ,k4 subsequ5tly *>act]iz$ z 8almo/ p]fect40 ,x 0 ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ :5 ,mr4 ,k5dal left u to return to 8 club--b he w5t conv9c$4 ,l ,mrs4 ,gaylord1 8 confid5ce 0 inspir$ n only by ! temp] & t5or ( ! messages he _h receiv$1 b by ! accompany+ consci\sness ( a famili> p]sonality1 ak9 to ! c]ta9ty ( id5tity "o feels 9 talk+ to a fri5d by telephone or 9 read+ a *>act]i/ic lett]4 ,l h]1 too1 he said t 9 sev]al in/ances 8 unspok5 ?\ght _h be5 directly answ]$4 ,! next day we resum$ our conv]sation--= x am\nt$ to t--) ,m>y4 8,!re w be h\rs1 & sometimes days1 :5 y _c feel me1 j at fir/10 %e w>n$ him4 8,b ,i beg ( y1 d n let ! d\bts prevail4 ,i %all be !re1 unless t dis9tegrat+ =ce drives me away4 ,t's a p[] we "h _c fight alone4 ,fai? is n ! desire to believe1 z "s m5 h said4 ,x is ! ?read t connects y\r life & ours1 & :5 x is brok5 we are p[]less to rea* y40 ,we spoke aga9 ( inaccuracies conc]n+ mundane activities1 & he elaborat$ some:at 8 !ory t x is unwise to ask & unsafe to rely ^u answ]s ab\t concrete1 specific ?+s1 because 9 translat+ !m into t]ms ( our plane we are apt to ov]look "s trans=m+1 unkn[n factor1 & s g wrong4 8,besides t10 ,m>y took up ! discussion1 8y mu/ "w out y\r problem y\rself4 ,we c only help y def9itely & directly 9 ! l>g] ?+s t p]ta9 to ! life ( our purpose4 ,y\r pres5t problem may be solv$ 9 any ( sev]al ways1 & w p]haps affect ! ephem]al "p ( y\r life4 ,y\r great] conc]n1 & my only conc]n1 is ) ! fluid "p1 :i* we %all %>e toge!r always1 n[40 ,he ask$1 aft] "s fur!r talk1 :e!r !re 0 dang] ( my be+ exploit$ or employ$ by malign influ5ces--a sugge/ion entirely new to me--to :i* %e repli$ 9 ! negative1 add+3 8,tru/ u = t4 ,h] own purpose is def9ite1 & ) t f\ndation1 we c protect h] fully40 ,app>5tly %e und]e/imat$ ! /r5g? ( ! enemy1 or p]haps %e m]ely disreg>d$ ! tempor>y confusion creat$ by occasional sorties4 ,?9k+ t he might "k some?+ ab\t ,new ,albany1 ,indiana1 ,i told him ( ! ,annie ,mann+ episode & my failure to asc]ta9 h] bro!r's address4 ,our conv]sation 0 int]rupt$ by an unsign$ /atem5t t ! bro!r 0 n 9 ,new ,albany1 ,indiana1 b 9 ,albany1 ,new ,hamp%ire1 flatly contradict+ a previ\s /atem5t4 ,my impati5t comm5t 0 answ]$ by an assurance t ,annie ,mann+ _h rec5tly pass$ to ! next plane & 0 confus$4 ,a sugge/ion t possibly ,annie ,mann+ 0 "o ( ! malign =ces m5tion$ br\ght no response1 unless ,m>y ,k5dal's next words con/itut$ an indirect reply4 8,manzie de>1 444 y w h entirely diff]5t =ces work+ aga9/ y1 f ^? try+ to control ,m>g>et1 b we w truly & surely protect y bo?40 ,aga91 foll[+ a p]iod ( sil5ce1 %e wrote a brisk reply to 8 unspok5 ?\ght1 add+1 :5 he comm5t$ ^u x3 8,y see1 ,i d "k :at is 9 y\r m9d1 & ! "t may n be f> away :5 y c read m9e z cle>ly4 ,i don't always answ] y\r ?\ght1 because ,m>g>et has /ill "s fe> ( be+ deceiv$ 9 h] reception ( my message1 & x is h>d1 b z %e works ) u %e w le>n unconsci\sly to yield1 j z y w le>n to detect my pres5ce40 8,is !re any?+ ,i c d to help y or y\r "w80 he ask$4 8,or mu/ x be all take & no give ) u80 ,i h no record ( h] reply4 ,%e began by say+ t any actively con/ructive ef=t "h help$ !m !re1 because x help$ ! great purpose4 ,?is 0 foll[$ by a message s intimately & exquisitely 8 t ,i felt x almo/ a desecration to be ! mess5g] ?r\gh :om x necess>ily came4 ,he took t "p ( ! roll away ) him1 & ,i am glad to say t tw5ty-f\r h\rs lat] no ^w ( x rema9$ 9 my memory4 ,x 0 truly 84 ,! next night he came aga91 v happily4 ,%e1 too1 0 9 a lightsome mood1 & :ile !re 0 "s s]i\s talk1 mo/ ( x 0 pure eff]vesc5ce1 frequ5tly witty1 sometimes brilliant4 ,un=tunately1 little ( ?is may be quot$1 ei!r because ( its too p]sonal "* or because1 l mu* amus+ conv]sation1 x 0 too ess5tially ( ! mood & ! mom5t to be> translation into type4 ,con/antly he exclaim$ at ! *>act]i/ic quality ( h] rep>tee1 to my great surprise4 ,i said t ,i _h nev] se5 ?is m]ry side ( h]1 & _h n dream$ t x exi/$1 to :i* %e repli$3 8,y nev] saw u :5 we 7 n 9 tr\ble--be=e40 8,let me 9 & don't *afe10 %e told him1 9 "o ( h] m s]i\s mom5ts1 8& ,i c tell y mu* ( :at ,i see ahead4 ,grief1 res5tm5t1 bitt]ness & d\bt are our highe/ b>ri]s4 ,!re is no cause = grief 9 a relation clos] ?an y\r life !re kn[s4 ,!re is no gr\nd = res5tm5t 9 ! price we pay4 ,!re c be no bitt]ness 9 gr[? & developm5t toge!r--quick] gr[?1 full] developm5t1 ?an c\ld be possible if "o ( u 7 n "h4 ,x is l>gely 9 ! po9t ( view1 ?is ?+ t is call$ grief40 ,9 ! c\rse ( _! drift+ talk he ask$ h] h[ to g ab\t />t+ p]sons :o h no />t+-po9t--8no peg to hang ?+s on40 8,sometimes a bomb is effective4 ,b ! fragm5ts are n always effici5t40 ,we laugh$1 & %e add$3 8,!y j h to wait & gr[ up1 ,manzie de>4 ,we le>n "h t our frantic ha/e !re has be5 fooli%4 ,gr[? mu/ take its own "t4444 ,no1 ,i didn't60 ,i _h call$ att5tion to h] failure to cross a t1 & %e return$ to x ) a fl\ri%4 ,sev]al times !reaft] %e made a little joke by conspicu\sly dott+ h] i's4 ,9 ! mid/ ( "o ec/atic :irl %e paus$ to inquire3 8,:o ev] />t$ ! fooli% notion t !re 0 no life beyond t "o8 ,0 he a philosoph]1 or a dyspeptic1 or bo?80 ,& aga91 foll[+ "s amus+ nons5se1 8,y don't ?9k ?is w\ld s\nd trivial to a sci5tific inve/igator1 d y80 8,:at's ! matt] ) ! sci5tific type ( m9d80 he ask$4 8,mo/ly x's pure intellect--& life isn't40 ,dur+ ano!r mom5t ( je/+ he said3 8,i don't ?9k ,i'll bo!r to walk home4 ,i'll j float40 8,come on6 ,we'll float toge!r10 %e retort$4 8,d y raise t1 or call80 ,laugh+1 he return$3 8,i'll pass ! buck to ,sa9t ,pet]10 :]eupon %e intimat$ t ,sa9t ,pet] 0 n imm$iately available4 8,:o hold ! keys80 8,y hold y\r own--n transf]able40 8,y are mo/ly pure ideali/10 0 ano!r comm5t1 a little lat]1 reply+ to some?+ he said ab\t 8 own attitude t[>d life1 8& got lo/ = a :ile 9 ! d>k40 ,he began to say t he %\ld h>dly h call$ himself an ideali/1 b already %e 0 answ]+4 8,a true ideali/ is n a man :o limits life to ideas1 b a man :o puts 8 ideals into life40 ,"o o!rwise s]i\s /atem5t1 conc]n+ ! influ5ce ( 8h>d-head$1 intellig5t m5 :o are n afraid to te/ify to _! fai?0 9 ^! revelations1 0 giv5 a humor\s t\* by ! signature1 8,mission>y ,m>y40 8,d y want me to g =? & te/ify1 also80 ,i ask$4 8,no1 y d x1 & t involves too mu*10 %e repli$4 8,let y\r conv]ts te/ify4 ,y g on play+ h]mit40 8,h y se5 ,william ,james80 he ask$4 8,he is in/ruct+ _m ( u4 ,"s ( my newly acquir$ vocabul>y he taught me4 ,he is m c]ta9 & less philosophical ?an he 04 ,! w to believe has giv5 way to ! duty ( fai?4 ,he has le>n$ m quickly ?an mo/ d1 because he is truly s9c]e & _h cultivat$ 8 gr\nd well4 ,n[ he is /ill a lead] ( ?\ght & accompli%m5t1 b 8 in/ruction is dynamic4444 ,he is a v f9e =ce1 ,manzie1 & is do+ magnific5t "w "h1 b he no long] smo!rs x 9 language40 ,mu* ( ?is p>t+ int]view mu/ be omitt$4 ,at n9e o'clock ,sunday night ,mr4 ,k5dal _h approa*$ ?is exp]i5ce 9 a /ate ( high n]v\s t5sion4 ,at midnight on ,tuesday1 fifty-"o h\rs lat]1 he left u to return home1 imbu$1 l ,mrs4 ,gaylord1 ) ! vitaliz+ quality ( ?is t\* ) ! unse5 & c>ry+ ) him ! happy conviction t he did n g alone4 ,,viii ,up to ?is "t ! messages1 :ile frequ5tly imp]sonal 9 t5or1 _h seem$ entirely p]sonal 9 direction4 ,x happ5$1 =tunately1 t bo? ,mrs4 ,gaylord & ,mr4 ,k5dal 7 m int]e/$ 9 ! wide mean+ & purpose ( life ?an 9 ! n>r[1 individual details ( its conduct1 & to t int]e/ *iefly ^? ne>e/ !m on ! next plane _h address$ !mselves4 ,! rapidity ) :i* ^! communications came1 & _! surpris+ volume1 0 attribut$ to ! fact t 9 bo? cases ! "t 9 :i* !y c\ld be giv5 ?r\gh me 0 limit$4 ,aside f ! att5dant n]v\s /ra9--:i* has be5 less1 on ! :ole1 ?an "o w\ld expect1 probably because ^! ef=ts h be5 foll[$ by su* s\nd & refre%+ sleep z ,i _h n kn[n be=e 9 ye>s--! manual labor involv$ 9 tak+ ^! long messages1 & 9 typewrit+ !m aft]w>d1 has be5 excessive4 ,assum+1 h[ev]1 t ?is flood ( disclosure w\ld be dim9i%$ :5 ! necessity = imm$iate expression pass$1 ,i look$ =w>d to leisure & opportunity = "s long talks ) ,m>y ,k41 :i* %\ld be m detail$ & p]sonal ?an our some:at fragm5t>y int]c\rse ?us f> _h be54 ,?is 0 briefly delay$ by reque/s to e/abli% int]plane communication = "o or two o!r fri5ds1 ^: ne$ 0 m imp]ative ?an my own1 :5 significant & beautiful messages--n to be quot$ "h--7 obta9$4 ,"o ( ^! slightly elaborat$ ! n[ famili> idea ( ! close & intimate relation ( c]ta9 p]sons to "o ano!r1 because ( _! union 9 a common & et]nal purpose4 ,9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,k5dal ,i m5tion$ ?is1 add+3 8,x beg9s to look l a gospel1 doesn't x80 ,f9ally1 h[ev]1 my own opportunity came1 on ,?ursday1 ,m>* #ba/1 b in/ead ( p]mitt+ me to prop\nd any ( ! _m que/ions ,i _h 9 m9d1 ,m>y ,k4 deliv]$ a detail$ message ( in/ruction t left me a/\nd$ & incr$ul\s4 ,mo/ ( ?is is too p]sonal to repeat1 b "s ( x mu/ be quot$1 9 view ( :at foll[$4 8444,we h mu* to tell1 & few ?r\gh :om to tell x4 ,y h ! s5sitiv5ess to receive & ! p[] to conv9ce4 ,:5 y h fully grasp$ ! mean+ ( :at we h to tell1 y mu/ make x kn[n1 b n be=e we give y ! :ole ( x4 ,y w get ! tru? sl[ly1 ?r\gh help+ _m p1 b keep ! full k frankly back until x is all told4444 ,let !m "k y are )hold+ x1 b d n let !m h x 9 fragm5ts40 8,y mean !y are n to be told ( ! division ( orig9al purpose into individual life80 8,no1 !y mu/ h t to build on4 ,b !re w be m giv5 to y 9 fragm5ts4 ,piece x toge!r = y\rself1 b d n give x to any "o z long z y are /ill receiv+ x4444 ,! light is break+1 & y are ! aces 444 accu/om$ 4440--lat] %e return$1 to write 8accr$it$0 ov] ?is ^w4 ,i ?9k nei!r 0 :at %e tri$ =4 ,p]haps accessible8--8444 =ce to make ! mean+ cle>4444 ,x is :at we h long s\ght & j f\nd4 ,t is ! reason we are giv+ y ?+s nev] told be=e4 ,y are to pass !m on :5 ! "t comes4444 ,?is is y\r "w1 y\r contribution to ! great purpose1 :i* w be reveal$ to y little by little4 ,keep cle> ( di/urb+ contacts1 z y h done1 & keep y\r purpose true4 ,y h already recogniz$ ?is z a gospel4 ,x is m4 ,x is a fai?4 ,be true to x & x w save _m f suff]+4 ,t is ! reason ,i am "h n[ & %all rema94 ,i am ! =ce us$ by great] =ces to rea* ! _w ?r\gh y4 ,we h always be5 ! same purpose1 & ,i c rea* y freely40 ,aft] an allusion to m5tal purpose1 %e def9$ x ?us3 8,m5tal purpose is ! =ce t conv9ces m54 ,moral purpose is t :i* p]suades !m4 ,we pref] conviction4 ,x la/s1 :]e p]suasion fades4 ,no?+ m n[1 b ?is is only ! beg9n+4 ,m>y ,k40 ,aft] ! fir/ phrase1 save = "o or two brief pauses1 ?is long communication 0 s rapidly writt5 t ,i c\ld n foll[ x ) my left h&1 ?\gh ,i made sev]al attempts1 z my "r arm became greatly fatigu$4 ,at no "t _h ,i ! slighte/ impression ( :at 0 to be said1 & dur+ mo/ ( x ,i 0 too bewild]$ to ?9k cle>ly1 my m9d be+ fill$ ) blank wond] & vague que/ion+1 sc>cely =mulat$1 yet imm$iately answ]$4 ,! next day %e resum$ h] exhortation4 8444 ,?is is w> "w4 ,x is go+ to make ! w> seem :at x is1 a reawak5+ ( ! s\ls ( m54 ,!re is no high] duty ?an to make a man "k 8 own s\l & ! s\ls ( 8 fell[s4 ,! w> w be ju/ifi$ only if ?is result is obta9$4 ,we "w = t "h1 & we ask y to help u4 ,!re c be no victory unless ?is is accompli%$4444 ,be true to y\r purpose & ours1 & help u build = light & progress1 aga9/ ! =ces ( d\bt & dis9tegration40 ,to an inquiry ab\t ,g]many1 apropos ( h] m5tion ( ! w>1 %e repli$3 8,g]many is ! unit$ purpose ( fe>4 ,x is h] weapon & h] weakness1 & x is to defeat ! =ce %e symbolizes t we all "w4444 ,!re y h ! real w>1 ! battle t has gone on f ! beg9n+4 ,?is is "o ( ! crises ( et]nity40 ,"h ,i ?\ght ( c]ta9 pa/ w>s1 :5 ! victori\s b>b>ians set civilization back4 8,sometimes ! =ces ( dis9tegration h won1 sometimes we4 ,b _! victory is nev] p]man5t1 because !y are negative & we are positive4 ,!y delay u1 b we live & "w4 ,we %all w9 9 ! end1 b t is f> away4 ,we call y to fight ) ! =ces ( life & light4 ,y c d m ) u ?an y c alone40 ,! foll[+ day f\nd me /ill incr$ul\s1 & %e said3 8444 ,tell !m t y are do+ ! p's "w1 "u secret ord]s1 & t !y w p]haps "k pres5tly :at x is4 ,!y w all recognize x :5 x is giv5 to !m1 except ^? s\ls n m5tally free f fe>40 ,f ?is %e pass$ imm$iately into ! fir/ ( t rem>kable s]ies ( communications :i* %e has call$ ,lessons4 ,aga9 ! writ+ 0 s rapid t my arm a*$ to ! %\ld]1 long be=e %e _h f9i%$1 f ! incessant movem5t to & fro across ! table1 & aga9 my m9d 0 fill$ ) blank amazem5t4 ,p]haps x %\ld be /at$ t1 al?\gh ,i h writt5 m or less light fiction dur+ ! pa/ fifte5 ye>s1 lit]>y composition is to me a sl[ & labori\s ex]cise4 ,especially is ?is true ( op5+ p>agraphs1 :i* g5]ally require _m h\rs ( "w4 ,un=tunately1 ! "t consum$ 9 writ+ "o ( ^! ,lessons 0 nev] not$1 b ) "o or two exceptions1 :5 ,i 0 too tir$ to receive readily1 !y 7 done )\t hesitation & ) extraord9>y rapidity4 ,also1 :ile 9 p]sonal messages ! m5tal impression is sometimes giv5 to me a little be=e ! physical movem5t occurs1 nev] dur+ ! writ+ ( ! ,lessons _h ,i ! slighte/ inkl+ ( :at 0 to foll[4 ,"o by "o ! words 7 reveal$ by ! mov+ p5cil1 my pr9cipal s5sations be+ wond] & incr$ulity4 ,until frequ5t repetition _h accu/om$ me to ?is exp]i5ce1 ,i felt z if ,i mu/ be dream+4 ,"p ,,ii ,,! ,,lessons 8,! lessons came f great =ces comb9$4 ,!y repres5t unity ( all purposes1 & 7 fram$ by ! co-op]ation & agreem5t ( ! greate/ =ces ( ea* con/ructive purpose1 to rea* ! consci\sness ( m5 9 g5]al t]ms ( y\r plane40 ,i ,m>* #bc;d4 8,all pure purpose is fe>less1 :e!r = good or evil1 b few humans are pure purpose1 & ! fir/ fight is 9 !mselves4 ,all ?is has be5 said be=e 9 effect1 b bas$ on o!r premises4 ,?is is ! fir/ "t ! orig9al purpose has be5 def9$ & expla9$4 ,= c5turies m5 h s\ght ! s\rce ( life4 ,?is is ! fir/ "t !y h be5 ready to accept ! :ole tru? ab\t t1 or to be prep>$ = ! next /ep4 8,once conv9c$ t *aos grew f purposes born ( ! ,=ce ,beyond ,p]fection1 purposes p]fect f ! beg9n+1 b at w> because !y conta9$ )9 !mselves all ! elem5ts ( life & ( conflict--once conv9c$ ( ?is1 m5 w gradually f9d _! own cle> purposes def9$1 & ! w> )9 !mselves w cease4 ,!y w *oose def9itely to build or to de/roy1 to be hone/ or di%one/4 ,self-deception w be less easy or possible1 & ! fight w !n be ) y1 z x is n[ ) u1 betwe5 =ces cle>ly indicat$4 ,n[ y are all confus$ by a w> )9 a w>1 inf9itely cont9u$4 ,conflict multipli$ by ! numb] ( purposes 9 ea* purpose4 ,?is has be5 recogniz$1 b ! rem$y has nev] be5 cle>ly f\nd4 ,x lies 9 ! conviction t =ce ( e nature is purpose1 :i* has exi/$ f ! beg9n+1 & t ! =ce :i* builds is b5efic5t & may be cle>ly segregat$ & unit$4 8,! ,=ce ,beyond ,p]fection is compos$ ( all ?+s1 & !re=e und]/&s all ?+s4 ,! orig9al purposes 7 all good1 & w be aga91 if !y c all become intellig5t4 ,!y became evil ?r\gh attraction ( l = l1 ak9 to y\r atomic attraction1 & *aos result$4 ,?is /ruggle creat$ a desire & det]m9ation to exi/ 9 concrete =m1 to add a new =ce to ! =ces ( *aos4 ,t 0 a great conflict1 result+ 9 a tie4 ,purposes became fus$ 9 ! same individual1 & ! battle inf9itely multipli$1 b yet n lo/4 ,n[ ! ef=t ( bo? p>ticipants is = unit$ purpose aga91 & ! fusion ( purposes 9 ea* individual makes ! confusion great] & ! fight m bitt]4 ,m5 are sway$ fir/ by "o purpose & !n by ano!r1 & are !mselves unable to di/+ui% betwe5 good & evil4 8,?is precipitat$ ! ,great ,w> ) y1 ! purposes 9 ! ,c5tral ,empires be+ m ne>ly unit$ ?an else:]e4 ,_! purposes are fundam5tally de/ructive1 because fundam5tally autocratic1 bas$ on fe>1 & w\ld ultimately r$uce civilization to infancy aga94 ,! reason ,g]many has be5 able to fight s long is because h] purpose is consci\s1 :ile ! ,allies fight bl9dly b det]m9$ly1 mov$ by purposes !y d n recognize & yet mu/ obey4 ,!y talk ( unity1 b d n p]ceive its nature4 ,!y are misl$ by phrases holl[1 b plausible1 & d n p]ceive !m to be ! enemy 9 disguise--n ! mortal enemy1 b ! anci5t purpose1 divid$ into _m4 8,! light is beg9n+ to break n[1 & ! h\r has almo/ come = ! =ces ( con/ruction to unite & smite p[]fully4 ,b x mu/ be consci\sly1 z ! purpose ( con/ruction1 if ! victory is to be p]man5t or truly = progress4 ,m5 mu/ le>n to *oose _! purposes consci\sly & intellig5tly1 to be def9itely & actually build+ = a def9ite & actual future4 ,!re is too mu* qu>rel+ ab\t ways & means1 & too little recognition ( ! goal4 ,too mu* self1 & too little sympa?y4 ,?is is equally true ( all classes ( society4 ,mat]ialism has be5 rank 9 ! t5em5t & 9 ! cottage1 z 9 palace & c\nt+-room4 8,x is a common purpose we s]ve1 = build+ or = te>+ d[n4 ,x is impossible to be consi/5tly = bo? cont9u\sly4 ,t has made ! ,great ,w>1 & t is ! /ruggle t mu/ be settl$ 9 ! m9ds ( m5 be=e !re c be peace on e>? or la/+ & progressive bro!rhood4 8,?is is ! fir/ lesson40 ,,ii ,m>* #bf?4 8,?is is ! second lesson4 8,! =ces ( dis9tegration are ga!r+ = a titanic /ruggle1 ( :i* y\r ,great ,w> is only ! beg9n+4 ,_h ,g]many won !re1 !y w\ld h a foo?old ) y t we w\ld f9d x difficult1 if n impossible1 to combat effectively = _m ye>s4 ,! spirits ( free m5 w\ld h be5 soil$ ) fe> & despair1 & ! =ces ( d\bt & dis9tegration w\ld h held civilization captive4 8,g]many has felt h] =ces weak5 & fail "u ! onslaught ( fre$om1 light1 & progress1 & ! =ces ( dis9tegration are des]t+ h]4 ,%e is left alone1 to "w h] way1 ?r\gh mazes ( despair1 back to a place 9 ! sun4 ,%e mu/ f9d h] own way4 ,%e *ose to foll[ ! =ces ( de/ruction1 & !y w surely de/roy h]4 8,b ! =ces %e foll[$ are unit+ = a fi]c] fight1 m subtle1 m deadly1 m furi\s4 ,hidd5 b5ea? ! g>m5ts ( peace & good w1 !y make ready to poison ! m9ds ( m5 be=e de/roy+ _! =ces & delay+ _! purposes4 8,?is is ! battle to :i* we call y & all :o are = progress4 ,?is is ! message y are to give ! _w1 to w>n !m ( ! dang] at h&4 ,! "t has come :5 m5 mu/ *oose consci\sly to fight = or aga9/ ! =ces ( con/ruction4 ,!y are confus$ f ! conflict )9 !mselves1 runn+ hi!r & ?i!r1 call+ = help f ! gods !y h made unto !mselves1 b look+ only to ! pres5t good1 p]ceiv+ only ! pres5t purpose1 fe>+ only ! pres5t defeat4 ,!y w f9d no help f ^! gods1 = !y h impot5t feet ( clay4 8,! =ces ( dis9tegration h made fri5ds ) ! poor & ! ne$y1 & h f$ !m husks ( bro!rhood4 ,!y h made fri5ds ) ! p[]ful & ri*1 & h tempt$ !m ) e>? & its k+doms4 ,!y h f$ ! arti/ falsehoods1 & ! writ] fe> ( fe>4 ,!y h t\*$ ! prie/ ) ta9t$ h&s1 & rul]s ) fe> ( ! p4 ,!y h ent]$ ! home & r5t x asund]1 & ! temple is a m>ket-place4 ,^! are ! works ( ! purposes we fight1 & ?us d !y disguise !mselves4 ,unless ?is c be br\ght home to ! s\ls ( m51 ! fight w be long & bitt]4 8,=get ! class & rememb] ! man4 ,=get ! price & rememb] ! pe>l4 ,=get ! labor & rememb] ! fruit4 ,=get ! temple & rememb] ,god4 8,m5 fight toge!r = "o end alone--! purpose = :i* !y live4 ,x is h>d to f9d !re1 9 ! confusion ( p]sonal conflict1 b ! "t is at h& :5 x mu/ be f\nd4 8,! =ces ( light are positive4 ,%un negation4 ,! =ces ( fre$om are individual4 ,%un dep5d5ce4 ,! =ces ( progress are fe>less4 ,%un fe>ful comb9ations4 ,"w toge!r z individuals1 consci\sly coop]at+1 n z %eep4 ,y w le>n to ?9k4 ,y w le>n to feel4 ,y w le>n to see4 ,!n we may move on to ! next phase ( developm5t t[>d ! great purpose4 8,! =ces ( dis9tegration are wily1 b fe>ful4 ,bullies & c[>ds4 ,b :5 !y are unit$ 9 suffici5tly /rong numb]s1 fe>less & unscrupul\s4 ,!y fe> ! reawak5+ ( ! =ces ( progress 9 y\r life4 ,?is is ! reason !y ga!r n[1 to smite :ile ! _w is we>y4 ,disguis$ z purposes ( light1 !y hope = welcome4 8,?is is our call to arms4 ,ar\se ye6 ,come =? = fre$om1 light1 ju/ice1 & progress--consci\sly1 freely1 /rongly4 8,?is is ! second lesson40 ,,iii ,m>* #ca/4 8,?is is ! ?ird lesson4 8,:5 m5 le>n t ! ,=ce ,beyond ,p]fection is purpose1 :i* has p]sonifi$ itself 9 !m1 !y w gr[ to feel ! possibilities to :i* !y h h]et(ore be5 ins5sible4 8,life is purpose4 ,purpose is =ce4 ,=ce is p]sonality1 f highe/ to l[e/1 f sa9t to /ick & /one4 ,m5 h call$ x _m ?+s1 b :at x is none h p]ceiv$ cle>ly4 8,et]nal purpose is p]fect ju/ice1 p]fect fe>lessness1 p]fect und]/&+1 p]fect hone/y1 p]fect sympa?y1 p]fect unity1 & et]nal gr[?1 :i* is progress p]fectly express$4 ,?is is ! end = :i* we "w4 ,n ,nirvana4 ,n oblivion4 ,n p[] /agnant & p[]less4 ,b a p]fect balance1 progress+ to purposes & p[]s z yet undream$4 ,?is is ! ,et]nal ,purpose1 t[>d :i* all purpose moves4 ,purposes ( con/ruction consci\sly & det]m9$ly1 purposes ( de/ruction unwill+ly & inevitably4 ,!y fe> u1 !y fight u1 !y seek to de/roy u1 n p]ceiv+ t !y mu/ 9 ! end rejo9 u1 hav+ left u 9 ! beg9n+4 8,to br+ ?is home to ! s\ls ( m5 is our fir/ duty1 & = t reason ^? ( u ne>e/ to y\r life "w fir/ among m54 ,purpose frees =ces y b dimly appreh5d1 & free =ces con/ruct a f\ndation 9 y\r life = ! p]fect unity ( ,et]nal ,purpose4 8,any =ce n free de/roys itself4 ,any good n animat$ & active de/roys itself4 ,=ce imprison$ becomes de/ruction4 ,good imprison$ becomes evil4 ,all are fundam5tally good1 fundam5tally b5efic5t1 b h become p[]s = de/ruction ?r\gh lack ( progressive developm5t & ex]cise4 8,all m5 are fusions ( _m purposes1 mov$ by _m =ces1 answ]+ to _m calls4 ,ea* responds to ! call ( 8 dom9ant purpose1 :i* fl[s & fluctuates ) 8 life's /ruggle4 ,"o day he de/roys1 & c>es n4 ,"o day he builds1 & m>vels at 8 p[]4 ,"o day he sleeps & =gets4 ,"o day he fights to ! dea? = a purpose he _h n ye/]day1 & loses to-morr[4 ,?is is ! life ( man1 & ?is our field ( battle4 ,!re are o!r lives1 o!r /ruggles1 o!r lessons to le>n1 b ?is is ! fir/4 8,purpose manife/s itself 9 man inevitably 9 action4 ,8 purpose is n :at he believes1 n :at he desires1 b :at he is & does4 ,if he de/roys1 & builds n on ! ru9s1 he is aga9/ u4 ,if he falls & fails n1 he is ) u1 ?\gh he /umble an hundr$ times4 ,he fights )9 himself ! anci5t fight1 & if he w9 t1 8 et]nal battle is won4 ,!reaft]1 he is "p & p>cel ( ! =ces ( con/ruction4 8,purpose answ]s freely only to its k9d1 freely & fe>lessly x responds to ! call ( self4 ,if a man be captive to de/ructive =ces1 he responds to ! cry1 ,de/roy6 ,b if he be giv5 to p[]s ( progress1 he builds1 ?\gh 8 eyes be bl9d$ & 8 h&s cut (f4 8,9 e man captive to =ces ( dis9tegration ! build] lies dormant4 ,to rea* t fa9t gl[ ( ,et]nal ,purpose is ! fir/ duty ( e con/ructive =ce4 ,call to x1 r\se x1 free x1 & x w ev5tually respond4 ,b d n smo!r x ) false *>ity1 d>k5 x by conflict+ precepts1 weak5 x by fictiti\s aid4 ,e individual mu/ s]ve 8 own purpose4 ,only ?us is ! integrity ( ! :ole cons]v$4 ,?\gh he be only a doorkeep] 9 ! h\se ( ! ,"l1 yet does he s]ve 8 et]nal purpose z truly z ! prie/4 ,let ea* man le>n 8 purpose & s]ve =cefully :]e 8 developm5t has plac$ him4 ,only ?us c he progress4 8,purposes are divid$4 ,?us d !y %[ !mselves to m54 ,! purpose ( ,progress is fir/ & greate/1 because x moves all ! o!rs t[>d ! ,great ,purpose4 ,! o!r con/ructive purposes are ^!1 divid$ & subdivid$3 ,light1 ,ju/ice1 ,tru?1 ,production1 ,heal+1 ,build+4 ,ea* divid$ & divisible by any ( ! o!rs1 yet pure & p]fect 9 itself4 ,light may dwell ) ,heal+ or ,production1 b only ,light calls unto ,light1 only ,ju/ice unto ,ju/ice4 8,all =ces ( con/ruction "w toge!r1 yet ea* purpose sep>ate unto itself4 ,*oose ye1 !re=e4 ,build or te> d[n1 produce or de/roy1 illum9e or obscure1 free m51 or hold !m captive to !mselves4 ,*oose daily & h\rly ! purpose ye s]ve4 8,?is is ! ?ird lesson40 ,,iv ,april #a/4 8,?is is ! f\r? lesson4 8,! _w fe>s purpose t is free & fe>less4 ,all ! =ces ( humanity are turn$ aga9/ fre$om4 ,! *ur* imposes its cre$1 ! class imposes its ca/e1 ! pr(ession imposes its etiquette1 ! morali/ imposes 8 fe>1 ! lib]t9e imposes 8 folly4 ,all m5 are b\nd by ! conv5tions ( *ur*1 ca/e1 pr(ession1 or moral /atus4 ,?us d !y ?r[ wide ! door to =ces ( dis9tegration4 ,ea* man assumes a purpose n 8 own2 a =ce t is 8 own des]ts him4 8,free developm5t dem&s free purpose & conc5trat$ =ce4 ,:]ev] two or ?ree are ga!r$ toge!r to foll[ ! same purpose 9 free & consci\s co-op]ation1 !re =ce is multipli$4 ,:]ev] an hundr$ are assembl$ to be l$ l %eep by ! bell-we!r1 !re =ce is debau*$ & dis9tegrat$4 8,because m5 h huddl$ toge!r 9 fe>1 de/ruction ?reat5s !m4 ,because free spee* has be5 debau*$ to fell purpose1 free m5 di/ru/ x4 ,m51 =ces ( dis9tegration1 b possess$ ( glib tongues1 h play$ bell-we!r to ! multitude4 ,prie/s ( purpose1 ^: c\nsel 0 inspir$ by ! ,et]nal1 h be5 ?ru/ aside & /on$4 ,bett] 7 x = ! immortal man to foll[ 8 purpose to dea? & mortal oblivion1 ?an to lose 8 =ce to ! bell-we!r4 ,_m purposes make great purpose4 ,_m =ces unite = fre$om4 ,b bett] = immortal man to de/roy greatly & greatly /rive ?an to s9k 8 purpose 9 ! m$ley disguis$ z bro!rhood4 8,a great bro!rhood is possible only :5 its compon5t p>ts are great4 ,/r5g? lies n 9 numb]s1 b 9 purpose4 ,! fit may n lie d[n ) ! unfit1 & _! prog5y survive4 ,! /rong may n yield _! purpose to ! weak1 & _! =ce rema94 8,a light breaks 9 ! ,ea/--,russia1 giv5 z a sacrifice to ! bro!rhood ( m54 ,a light n ( /> or dawn1 b ( sacrificial fire4 ,he$ x1 gu>d x1 ye y\?s & virg9s1 = by its flam+ sacrifice are ye sav$4 8,bro!rhood is purpose ( progress1 n purpose ( pr(it4 ,bro!rhood is made beautiful by unity1 n by s*ism4 ,bro!rhood suff]e? long1 & is k9d4 ,bro!rhood reg>de? e bro!r1 great & small4 ,bro!rhood waite? ^u bro!r & grumble? n4 ,all build toge!r ! common home ( all4 8,seek ye ^? ( y\r own purpose4 ,unite toge!r all :o fa9 w\ld build4 ,ma/] & man1 ar*itect & mason1 f9anci] & f>m labor]1 all "w to ! same end1 & ?is is ,bro!rhood4 8,to "w = ! same purpose1 9 :atev] capacity may be necess>y1 ?is is ! only true ,bro!rhood4 8,?is is ! f\r? lesson40 ,v ,april #c;d4 8,?is is ! fif? lesson4 8,m5 h long *]i%$ ! ideal ( ,bro!rhood1 b !y h clung to ! lett] ( ! anci5t law & lo/ its _s4 ,be=e ! days ( lib]ty1 :5 m5 7 langui%+ 9 slav]y or b\nd z vassals1 sell all ?\ ha/ & give to ! poor _h a significance lo/ 9 a day ( free labor & indu/rial progress4 ,! _s ( ! law is un*ang$ & un*angeable1 b ! lett] progresses ) civilization's advance4 8,to-day1 ! fir/ ess5tial ( bro!rhood is fre$om4 ,fre$om to ?9k1 fre$om to believe1 fre$om to /rive1 fre$om to develop1 f highe/ to l[e/4 ,& ! employ] :o refuses ?is opportunity to ! m5 :o "w "u him is no m truly a =ce = dis9tegration ?an ! labor] :o refuses to co-op]ate ) 8 employ] & ?us proves himself unwor?y ( a place 9 ! procession ( progress4 8,!re c be no h\se t w /& aga9/ /orm t has n f\ndation1 walls1 & ro(4 ,!re c be no society t w )/& dis9tegration t has n labor1 capital1 & m>ket4 ,:5 capital oppresses labor1 =ces ( dis9tegration are fre$4 ,:5 labor dom9ates capital1 =ces ( dis9tegration are fre$4 ,:5 ! p =get ju/ice1 =ces ( dis9tegration are fre$4 ,& ! de/ruction ( "o is ! de/ruction ( all4 ,! ri* man :o d5ies 8 bro!r fre$om is a de/roy]4 ,! poor man :o d5ies 8 bro!r fre$om is a de/roy] 9 no less degree4 ,ea* is a "p ( ! o!r1 & ea* foll[s et]nal purpose to "o end--con/ruction & progress4 8,! man :o has fre$om ( ?\ght1 fre$om ( purpose1 fre$om ( action1 is free1 ?\gh he be a paup]1 & is free to *oose :e!r he w build or de/roy4 ,! man :o is b\nd by any tie t dictates 8 ?\ght1 belief1 or action is a =ce ( dis9tegration1 because he may n foll[ 8 purpose freely & ) all 8 =ce4 ,! man :o has fre$om & weal?1 &1 =gets 8 bro!r1 is a =ce ( dis9tegration4 ,! man :o has /r5g? & pov]ty1 & =gets 8 bro!r1 is a =ce ( dis9tegration4 ,equality ( opportunity does n dem& or imply equality ( developm5t4 ,_m m5 are ri* :o use _! weal? to =w>d ! purposes ( con/ruction4 ,_m !re are :o wa/e x & invite dis9tegration4 ,_m m5 are poor1 :o use _! /r5g? to help along con/ruction4 ,!y are =ces ( progress1 & w f9d _! places "h4 ,_m !re are :o delay ! m>*1 & invite dis9tegration4 ,:at %all x pr(it a man1 ?\gh he ga9 ! e>?1 if he lose 8 own s\l8 8,!re are sev5 purposes4 ,progress1 ,light1 ,tru?1 ,heal+1 ,build+1 ,production1 & ,ju/ice4 ,equally great1 save ,progress1 :i* moves !m all4 ,"o ( ^! mu/ ea* man s]ve1 if he proce$s t[>d ! ,great ,purpose4 ,:e!r great or small1 high or l[1 wise or fooli%1 le>n$ or ignorant1 ri* or poor1 p[]ful or app>5tly impot5t1 ea* human individual is a =ce = con/ruction or = dis9tegration1 & foll[s 8 purpose to its inevitable end3 con/ructive =ces to con/ruction ( great purposes1 dis9tegrat+ =ces to ! long /ruggle t c h b "o end1 h[ev] di/ant--con/ruction4 8,!re are _m phases ( developm5t1 ea* look+ onw>d to ! next4 ,if a man climb )\t envy1 =gett+ himself 9 8 purpose1 he %all climb f>4 ,if he look ) envy at 8 high] bro!r & ) scorn at ^? bel[ him1 he %all climb on slipp+ s&s & f9d himself aga9 at ! foot4 8,be> ye "o ano!r's burd5s is a comm& un*ang$ & un*angeable4 ,give unto ea* 8 opportunity to gr[1 & to build = progress4 ,fre$om to /rive is ! "o "r inh]5t 9 exi/5ce1 ! /rong & ! weak ea* foll[+ 8 own purpose1 ) all 8 =ce1 to ! "o great end4 ,& he :o b9ds or limits 8 bro!r's purpose b9ds himself n[ & h]eaft]4 ,b he :o ext5ds 8 bro!r's opportunity builds = et]nity4 8,*oose ye4 8,?is is ! fif? lesson40 ,,vi ,april #c;d4 8,?is is ! six? lesson4 8,m5 are afraid ( fe>4 ,!y fe> to fe>1 & fall into folly4 ,fe> ( dis9tegrat+ purposes makes = wisdom1 & wisdom makes = con/ruction4 ,fe> is a dis9tegrat+ =ce made con/ructive1 :5 direct$ aga9/ dis9tegration4 8,wisdom 9 high places has be5 de?ron$1 & intellectual curiosity usurps ! scept]4 ,m5 :o %\ld lay f\ndations ( wisdom exp]im5t ) fantasies ( ! intellectual dream]4 8,bro!rhood1 to "o class1 is a def5sive organization1 = protection4 ,bro!rhood1 to ano!r class1 is an (f5sive organization1 = pillage4 ,bro!rhood1 to ano!r class1 is an organiz$ attempt to pres]ve ! unfit4 ,bro!rhood1 to ano!r class1 is a dream ( unorganiz$ foll[+ ( untri$ !ories4 ,none ( ^! "k t all m5 are bro!rs4 8,evolution ( matt] foll[s evolution ( purpose1 b :5 mat]ial ?+s are left beh9d1 purpose cont9ues to progress4 ,:y1 !n1 lose y\r purpose 9 pursuit ( mat]ial ga98 8,*ur* & /ate alike urge morality = p]sonal ends1 & recomm5d p]sonal puni%m5ts4 ,!re is no morality4 ,!re is only purpose1 con/ructive or de/ructive4 ,!re is no puni%m5t4 ,!re is only consequ5ce4 8,p]sonal motives are det]r5t =ces1 nei!r actively con/ructive nor actively de/ructive1 except z !y may be appli$4 ,^! =ces cr[d 9 betwe5 ! cont5d+ purposes1 h9d]+ bo? & help+ nei!r1 except :5 compell$ by %e] =ce ( numb]s to sweep on ) "o or ! o!r4 8,=ces ( dis9tegration are frequ5tly mi/ak5 = p]sonal motives4 ,!y are always de/ructive4 ,p]sonal motives are always det]r5t4 ,self-int]e/ excludes sympa?y4 ,purpose dem&s sympa?y4 ,self-int]e/ excludes true unity4 ,unity is ! ,great ,purpose4 ,any morality bas$ on p]sonal int]e/ is1 !re=e1 a det]r5t =ce4 8,! "t has n yet come :5 m5 9 ! mass h vision4 ,! great ,purpose to ! small m9d is vague & ( no significance4 ,p]sonal motives are m easily recogniz$ ?an purpose1 & ,*ur* & /ate emphasize & enc\rage !m4 ,b ! "t is at h& :5 great conflict+ purposes w meet 9 combat = control ( m54 ,wake ! sleep]s4 ,ca/ (f little ?+s4 ,s9k p]sonal motives4 ,r\se ,*ur* & /ate to p]ception ( =ce & purpose1 & unite toge!r1 reg>dless ( class1 cre$1 or p>ty1 to w9 ! _w to purposes ( con/ruction4 8,*ur* & /ate urge unity1 & yield none4 ,tol]ance1 fre$om1 fe>lessness1 light--^! are almo/ /rang]s to temple or c\rt4 ,little by little ! l9es are s(t5+4 ,little by little we ga9 on fe>4 ,"h a tol]ant & noble cl]gyman1 !re a /atesman :o s]ves ! /ate4 ,b = "o ( ^!1 a ?\s& huddle "u cre$ or slogan1 & fe> ( fre$om impels !m all4 ,?is is because !y h n recogniz$ purpose1 & !y imp$e progress :o might be its p[]4 8,come =?1 !n1 prie/s1 tea*]s1 & lead]s6 ,call ^u ! p1 n to foll[1 n to huddle1 n to hesitate1 b1 to *oose4 ,set ye ! sev5 purposes cle>ly be=e !m1 cle>ly p]ceiv+ !m1 ye t call1 & bid !m *oose1 = ! life ( all1 ! purpose !y w s]ve4 8,?us may det]r5t =ces become con/ructive1 & ! ,great ,purpose kn[n ( all m54 8,?is is ! six? lesson40 ,,vii ,april #e?4 8,?is is ! sev5? lesson4 8,be=e ! light ( fre$om dawn$ on ! _w1 a puissant *aos ( purposes & =ces f\ght = control ( ! lib]ties ( m54 ,a %ort space ( "t br\ght lib]ty ( body1 aft] ! p]ception ( ! p _h be5 cl>ifi$ by ! gradual developm5t ( ! ideal ( lib]ty4 ,!y mov$ rapidly t[>d x1 :5 !y began to und]/& x1 ) halts & hesitations & blund]s1 b =cefully & inevitably /ill4 ,!y ov]?rew k+s & b>ons1 & took into _! own h&s ! physical & mat]ial gov]nm5t ( _! k9d4 ,b _! m9ds & =ces are /ill enslav$ & %ackl$ by outworn tradition4 #8,onw>d ,*ri/ian soldi]s'1 is a plea = progress2 b x has become a recessional1 n a m>*+ song4 ,m5 h made _! ju/ice vassal to tradition1 & _! bro!rhood fief to ga94 8,m5 h le>n$ ! value ( free bodies1 b free =ce1 m5tal or spiritual1 t]rifies & puzzles !m /ill4 ,!y h le>n$ to discipl9e _! bodies1 to keep !m /rong & clean4 ,b !y fe> to tru/ ! purposes & =ces1 )\t *a9s & prison b>s to hold !m1 le/ !y make *aos ( civilization4 ,*ur*1 /ate1 pr(ession1 trade1 guild1 or society comm&s3 ,?\ %alt n ?9k4 ,foll[1 yield1 accept1 & endure1 b let n ?\ght be f\nd among ye1 le/ ! b>s be brok5 & de/ruction loos$4 8,_m m5 foll[2 a few m5 ?9k4 ,^! are ! ov]lords1 ! k+s & b>ons ( =ces t might be free4 ,b fre$om dem&s free purpose1 & free purpose dem&s ju/ice4 8,no man is free :o comm&s n himself4 ,no man is free :o =gets 8 bro!r4 ,no man is free :o fe>s to foll[ 8 own purpose ) all 8 =ce4 ,no man is free :o fails to c>ry 8 %>e ( common load4 ,he may h weal? & luxury2 yet is he slave4 ,he may be tempt$ by beauty2 yet is he slave4 ,he may be fright5$ by calamity2 yet is he slave4 ,he may be beat5 by /rang]s2 yet is he slave4 ,no man is free :o comm&s n himself 9 any em]g5cy4 ,he may lose weal? & luxury1 & /ill be free4 ,he may dwell ) squalor1 :o loves beauty1 & /ill be free4 ,he may be defraud$ by 8 bro!r1 & /ill be free4 ,he may be %ackl$ by /rang]s1 beat5 & imprison$1 & /ill be free4 8,fre$om lie? n 9 a man's e/ate1 b 9 ! man himself4 8,?is is ! sev5? lesson40 ,,viii ,april #h?4 8,?is is ! eigh? lesson4 8,_m m5 try to p]ceive ! purpose ( ,god 9 tru? & beauty & ju/ice1 & fail to recognize t ! ,et]nal ,purpose is unlimit$ by ! deta*$ conceptions ( m54 ,tru? is "o ( ! fundam5tal purposes4 ,beauty is a subdivision ( ,build+4 ,ju/ice is fundam5tal4 ,all are "p ( ! ,et]nal ,purpose4 ,b ! ,great ,purpose is unity4 8,! fundam5tal purposes are common to all m51 ( :atev] race1 color1 belief1 or prejudice4 ,!y are ! f\ndation f :i* ! =ces ( ,et]nal ,purpose />t1 & by _! divisions only are m5 ultimately gr\p$4 ,z a comm&] divides 8 army into infantry1 artill]y1 cavalry1 air =ces1 qu>t]ma/]1 eng9e]1 & m$ical corps1 s are ! et]nal =ces divid$ into ! sev5 purposes = ! et]nal conflict4 8,! purposes ( dis9tegration are m ?an sev54 ,!y divide into myriad motives z !y fight ! aspirations ( immortal man4 ,free m5 *oose freely h[ !y w array !mselves1 b slaves are driv5 by _! ma/]s1 visible or invisible1 to fight = purposes n _! own4 ,only :5 !y h le>n$ to discipl9e & develop _! m9ds1 z !y n[ discipl9e & develop _! bodies1 may !y *oose freely ! =ce ) :i* !y w be array$4 8,ri* man aga9/ poor man4 ,capital aga9/ labor4 ,/ate aga9/ (f5d]4 ,poor man aga9/ weal?4 ,labor aga9/ developm5t4 ,crim9al aga9/ law4 ,all are false di/9ctions4 8,seek ye ! man ( y\r own purpose1 & cleave to him4 ,if ye w\ld build1 seek a build]4 ,if ye w\ld heal1 seek a heal]4 ,if ju/ice absorb ye1 seek a man fur!r+ ju/ice4 ,b be n misl$ by ! slave-driv]1 )\t or )94 ,bew>e ( ! bell-we!r1 & ( p]sonal or mat]ial motives4 ,gov]n y\rselves fir/1 & !n *oose ye :e!r to fight = progress or = dis9tegration1 = unity or = de/ruction4 ,!n *oose ye ! purpose ye w s]ve =cefully ?r\gh et]nity4 8,?is is ! eigh? lesson40 ,,ix ,april #h?4 8,?is is ! n9? lesson4 8,m5 h liv$ 9 fe> ( =ces f )\t1 & h n p]ceiv$ t )9 !mselves all =ces are made pot5t4 ,m5 h fe>$ purposes f )\t1 & h n p]ceiv$ t _! own purpose is et]nal4 ,m5 h talk$ ( p[]1 & fail$ to p]ceive its s\rce4 ,m5 h dream$ ( possession1 & fail$ to f9d fre$om4 ,possession is tempor>y & ephem]al4 ,fre$om is et]nal4 ,%\ld a man yield ! fre$om ( 8 et]nal purpose = any possession :atsoev]8 8,build ye ) all possessions1 t purpose may be free4 ,= bro!rhood comm&e? s]vice1 & = ?is are possessions hall[$4 ,he :o ha?1 & d5ie? 8 bro!r opportunity1 de/roys 8 own purpose4 ,he :o ha? possessions1 & give? 8 bro!r opportunity1 builds = et]nity4 ,he :o ha? p[] & pl5itude1 & give? 8 bro!r help1 has giv5 all m5 m ?an ! "o c take4 ,he has built = et]nity4 8,! man :o has ?is p[] to build ) possessions = et]nal progress has a =ce beside 8 own1 ! =ce ( mat]ial purpose to aid 8 bro!r's =ce4 ,_m !re be :o build = et]nity ) mat]ial possessions4 ,!y are ! keep]s ( ! keys = all :o labor1 /ew>ds ( opportunity4 8,he :o has opportunity to /rive1 & /rive? n1 de/roys 8 own purpose4 ,he :o has ! key to opportunity = build+ (f]$ him1 & fails to free ! =ce1 de/roys bo? 8 own purpose & t ( 8 bro!r4 8,"o purpose are all to s]ve--,progress4 ,& :e!r x be ) purpose & possessions1 or ) purpose & pov]ty1 all s]ve equally :o put _! :ole =ce into s]vice4 8,s may all m5 "k !y are bro!rs4 8,?is is ! n9? lesson40 ,x ,april #i?4 8,?is is ! t5? lesson4 8,! purposes ( dis9tegration are ^!4 ,malice1 ,envy1 ,d\bt1 ,falsehood1 ,ignorance1 ,lu/1 ,cupidity1 ,fe>4 ,all ^! make = ,de/ruction1 :i* is ! /rong purpose t moves !m all4 ,ea* ( ^! is divid$ & subdivid$ into myriad motives ( dis9tegration1 _m ( :i* disguise !mselves be=e d>+ to ent] ! consci\sness ( man4 8,malice & ,envy pres5t !mselves mo/ (t5 z ,light or ,ju/ice4 ,d\bt z ,light1 ,lu/ z ,ju/ice or ,production1 ,cupidity z ,build+1 ,fe> & ,ignorance z ,tru?1 & ,de/ruction z ,progress4 ,b ! disguises v>y ) ! individual & ) ! mom5t1 & ! motives spr++ f ^! purposes are legion4 8,ea* individual 9 y\r life is a battlegr\nd ( purposes t h f\ght f ! mom5t ! purposes ( dis9tegration ga!r$ "o to ano!r4 ,ea* man /ruggles to ally himself p]man5tly ) "o or ano!r ( ! purposes )9 him4 ,?us is x t a man ^: desire is = light falls victim to malice1 envy1 & de/ruction2 & he ^: desire is production1 to lu/4 ,weakness ( purpose is a subdivision ( fe>1 & folly a m9ion ( ignorance4 8,all m5 aspire4 ,"s ) reluctance & halt+1 b all feel ! purpose ( progress work+ )9 !m4 ,!y may mi/ake its nature or d5y its p[]1 b no man lives :o has n felt its prompt+4 ,?is is ! purpose beyond all o!rs1 ! ,et]nal ,purpose ( ,unit$ ,con/ruction4 ,no man c ?w>t x1 no man c evade x1 no =ce c defeat x4 ,:y1 !n1 oppose & delay x8 8,come1 all ye :o /ruggle & /rive6 ,p]ceive once & =ev] ! purpose ( life1 jo9 n[ ! =ces ( con/ruction1 & br+ to all m5 ,bro!rhood4 8,?is is ! t5? lesson40 ,,xi ,april #ab?4 8,?is is ! elev5? lesson4 8,!re is no man :o has n =ce4 ,he may be frail ( body1 weak ( purpose1 light ( m9d1 falt]+ ( /ep4 ,yet to "s degree has he =ce1 = )\t =ce p]sonality _c exi/4 ,!re is no man s frail ( body1 s weak ( purpose1 s falt]+ ( /ep1 t he has n p]sonality4 ,!re is no p]sonality t is n a =ce = con/ruction or = de/ruction4 ,none t may n s]ve to build4 8,!re is no man s b\nd up 9 himself1 s p]sonal ( motive1 s n>r[ ( vision1 t he may n be turn$ f a det]r5t =ce into a =ce = con/ruction1 save only ^? already giv5 to purposes ( dis9tegration4 8,b no man is s vigor\s ( body1 s firm ( purpose1 s pr(\nd ( m9d1 s sure ( /ep1 t he may p]fect 8 bro!r's life4 #8,am ,i my bro!r's keep]8' has be5 trans=m$ f a "q utt]$ 9 def5se ( iniquity to an ass]tion utt]$ 9 def5se ( arrogance4 #8,am ,i n my bro!r's keep]8' 8,no man is 8 bro!r's keep]4 ,! utmo/ t he may d = 8 bro!r is to ar\se 8 bro!r's purpose1 :e!r = con/ruction or = de/ruction4 ,call to ! purpose ( ,progress4 ,call to ! sev5 purposes ( con/ruction4 ,help ye ea* bro!r to f9d ! onw>d way4 ,b if he w n answ]1 if call+ fail to move him1 !n bid him de/roy aft] 8 own purpose1 t ! fight may be op5 & 8 allegiance kn[n ( all m54 8,fre$om to *oose is ! inali5able "r ( e human s\l4 ,:o h9d]s 8 bro!r's purpose delays ! end ( battle4 ,w9 him to progress1 if he c be won by call+4 ,bid him decl>e himself1 if he answ] n ! call4 ,b he :o co]ces 8 bro!r1 ?\gh x be t[>d con/ruction1 prolongs ! /ruggle & delays ! ,great ,purpose4 8,no man is 8 bro!r's keep]4 8,?is is ! elev5? lesson40 ,,xii ,april #ab?4 8,?is is ! twelf? lesson4 8,_m m5 !re be :o fight = lib]ty & co]ce _! bro!rs4 8,9 w>1 all m5 mu/ fight4 ,b !re is no man :o may *oose = ano!r h[ 8 allegiance may be giv54 8,he :o is n = progress is aga9/ x4 ,he :o has no allegiance t he w decl>e1 is traitor to himself & to ! purpose he foll[s4 ,ca/ him out & he w f9d 8 purpose kn[n4 8,s %all ! oppos+ =ces be cle>ly indicat$4 ,s %all ea* man f9d 8 own purpose cle>ly def9$4 ,s %all ! w>s )9 w>s cease among m51 & ! fight be ) y1 z x is ) u1 betwe5 purposes & =ces kn[n & unit$1 "o aga9/ ! o!r1 until all purposes ( de/ruction h be5 conqu]$ & trans=m$1 & ! ,great ,purpose r5d]$ free to progress to great] glories )\t end4 8,?is is ! twelf? lesson40 ,,notes ,ask$ to expla9 "o phrase 9 ! fir/ ,lesson1 8! orig9al purposes 7 all good10 ,m>y ,k4 said3 8,all 7 balanc$4 ,!re is no evil t may n be good 9 prop] comb9ation4 ,evil is ! ga!r$ =ce ( undirect$ & n fully animat$ good1 comb9$ 9 a de/ructive purpose by ! attraction ,i m5tion$40 99 99 99 99 99 ,an app>5t contradiction ( a /atem5t 9 ! fir/ ,lesson--8,all pure purpose is fe>less1 :e!r = good or evil0--by "o 9 ! second ,lesson--8,! =ces ( dis9tegration are wily1 b fe>ful4 ,bullies & c[>ds0--seem$ to imply t =ces ( dis9tegration are n pure purpose4 ,m>y ,k4 expla9$3 8,!y are pure purpose1 fe>less 9 pursuance ( de/ruction1 wily 9 br++ x ab\t1 brutal 9 consummat+ x1 b c[>ds individually4 ,fe>less ( consequ5ces :5 !y pursue1 b fe>ful :5 !y fail4 ,l ,g]mans40 99 99 99 99 99 ,e>ly 9 ,june1 ,i discov]$ a relation betwe5 ! def9ition ( ,et]nal ,purpose 9 ! second p>agraph ( ! ?ird ,lesson1 & ! divisions ( ! purpose ( ,progress ne> ! end4 8,et]nal purpose is p]fect ju/ice 7,ju/ice71 p]fect fe>lessness 7,production71 p]fect und]/&+ 7,light71 p]fect hone/y 7,tru?71 p]fect sympa?y 7,heal+71 p]fect unity 7,build+71 & et]nal gr[? 7,progress71 :i* is progress p]fectly express$40 99 99 99 99 99 ,! end ( ! sev5? ,lesson seem$ obscure1 until ! relation betwe5 its clauses 0 discov]$4 ,writt5 ?us1 its mean+ is cle>3 87#a7 ,no man is free :o comm&s n himself4 7#b7 ,no man is free :o =gets 8 bro!r4 7#c7 ,no man is free :o fe>s to foll[ 8 purpose ) all 8 =ce4 7#d7 ,no man is free :o fails to c>ry 8 %>e ( ! common load4 ,he may h weal? & luxury1 yet is he slave 7#a7 if he comm&s n himself4 ,he may be tempt$ by beauty 7#b7 to =get 8 bro!r1 yet is he slave1 if he comm&s n himself4 ,he may be fright5$ by calamity 7#c7 9 foll[+ 8 purpose1 yet is he slave1 if he comm&s n himself4 ,he may be beat5 by /rang]s 7#d7 :ile c>ry+ 8 %>e ( ! common load1 yet is he slave if he comm&s n himself40 99 99 99 99 99 #i? ,lesson4 ,a curi\s inconsi/5cy 9 ! use ( v]bs w be notic$ "h1 ar*aic & mod]n =ms appe>+ 9 ! same s5t5ce repeat$ly4 ,?is may h be5 due to my great fatigue :5 ?is lesson 0 tak51 to ! pres5ce 9 ! room ( o!r p]sons1 or to "s condition or int5tion z yet unexpla9$4 ,"p ,,iii 8,sci5ce is ! ladd] by :i* life may quickly asc5d1 b until sci5ce recognizes a spiritual =ce z ! "o ess5tial =ce1 ( :i* all o!r =ces are incid5tal ph5om5a1 progress mu/ be limit$40 8,we h purpose to progress beyond ! vision ( man1 b ev5 mat]ial progress1 to be con/ructive & p]man5t1 mu/ be gov]n$ by a vision beyond ! day4 ,we are try+ to ext5d t vision40 ,i ,imm$iately aft] ! fir/ ,lesson _h be5 giv51 ,cass telephon$ t ! news f ,france 0 al>m+4 ,x 0 ,saturday1 ,m>* #bc;d4 ,! great ,g]man (f5sive ( #aiah _h begun two days e>li]1 & ! ,alli$ =ces 7 fall+ back1 ) appall+ losses4 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 :e!r %e c\ld tell u any?+ ab\t x4 8,yes4 ,x is a =ce ( de/ruction1 mom5t>ily victori\s1 b ,g]many _c w94 ,%e moves /eadily t[>d h] de/ruction40 ,rememb]+ our diff]+ conceptions ( "t1 ,i ask$3 8,d y speak 9 t]ms f9ite or inf9ite80 8,y w see h] defeat soon1 b ! fight et]nal w n be ov] ) ! end ( ! ,great ,w>4 ,t w be only a tempor>y lull1 & we %all h x all to d ov] & ov]1 until consci\s purpose ends x4 ,d n fe>40 ,! emphasis is h]s4 ,to be sure ,i _h made no mi/ake1 ,i press$ ! inquiry aga94 8,y ne$ n fe> ! end ( ! w>4 ,x is c]ta9 & inevitable4 ,g]many is doom$1 & mu/ "w h] way back to light4 ,?is is n =eorda9$1 b "h we already see ! end1 & are look+ t[>d ! battles t w /ill be rag+ :5 ! c\ntries ( ! _w seem peaceful40 ,"s weeks lat]1 ?is confid5t prophecy 0 slightly modifi$ 9 its lett]1 ?\gh n 9 its _s1 :5 %e said3 8,unless ! ,alli$ purpose is und]m9$ by =ces ( spiritual dis9tegration1 ,g]many is doom$1 b ! fight mu/ be kept up ) confid5ce & consci\sly unit$ =ce & purpose40 ,?is1 h[ev]1 m]ely emphasizes ! tea*+ ( all ! lessons1 t con/ructive purpose _c f9d expression 9 passivity1 t he :o w\ld live mu/ fight1 & t he :o is n actively /riv+ = progress is array$ aga9/ x4 ,z has be5 said1 my k ( philosophies is ( ! slighte/1 & !re is sc>cely a sugge/ion conta9$ 9 ! fir/ ,lesson t 0 n new to me & entirely =eign to my habit ( ?\ght4 ,!re=e1 ,i s5t a copy ( x to ,mr4 ,k5dal1 ask+ him to tell me :e!r ! cosmic !ory !re outl9$ 0 famili> to him4 ,consci\s ( ,m>y ,k4's summons1 ,i took up a p5cil4 8,tell ,mr4 ,k5dal ! philosoph]s h p]ceiv$ ! tru? 9 fragm5ts4 ,?is is to be ! :ole tru?1 z f> z x c be und]/ood on y\r plane4 ,x may s\nd1 at mom5ts1 l a pat*work ( philosophies1 because all--or mo/--( !m h "s tru?4 ,he w help y 9 ?is4 ,he f\nd ! tru? 9 spite ( philosophies1 & x is "p ( 8 "w to help o!rs f9d x because ( "o--a philosophy n dream$1 b liv$ & prov$ & kn[n4 ,!re=e1 n a philosophy1 b a fai?40 ,! next day1 we d9$ ) fri5ds ( t ,anne ,l[e = :om ,i _h ask$ ! fir/ night ,m>y ,k4 came to me1 & f h] long messages to !m1 a few may be quot$4 8444 ,x has always be5 easy = me to rea* y1 because y nev] d\bt$ t ,i 0 !re4 ,d\bt is "o ( ! ?+s we _c rea* ?r\gh4 ,d\bt1 bitt]ness1 grief--all ^! are de/ructive =ces40 ,to a /atem5t t !y _h felt deep grief1 %e return$3 8,y h n _h ! k9d ( grief t w\ld %ut me out4 ,y h %ut out "s helpful =ces1 b y w d t no long]4 ,x is because ! =ce may rea* y ?r\gh me t ,i c come4 ,we are ! same purpose1 & ,i c rea* y freely4 ,we c always rea* ^? :o are v ne> & de>4 ,sometimes p are de> to u !re :o are n really ne> u "h4 ,!y d n ne$ u1 nor we !m4 ,x is an ephem]al relation4 ,love la/s et]nally4 ,please don't ev] =get t4444 ,li/5 to me4 ,i _c always rea* y z directly z ?is1 b j z soon z y le>n to read my ?\ghts1 z ,i n[ read y\rs1 a mess5g] w n be necess>y40 ,briefly %e expla9$ to !m ! et]nal significance ( ! ,great ,w>1 ! unit$ purpose ( ,g]many1 & ! failure ( ! ,allies1 ?us f>1 to compreh5d ! ess5ce ( unity4 ,elizabe?1 "o ( h] fri5ds1 m5tion$ t x 0 l h] to drop p]sonalities = great issues1 & %e repli$3 8,! reason t ,i told y ! ?+ ,i did ab\t ! great purposes & ! et]nal conflict is t ,i want y to realize a little ( :at x is all =1 & to help y recognize ! great ends t[>d :i* y\r problems lead4 ,build1 build1 nev] cease to build4 ,unite y\rself to anybody :o is ( y\r purpose4 ,keep z cle> z y c f entangl+ y\rselves ) =ces ( dis9tegration40 ,miss ,s----1 a tea*]1 & a /rang] to me1 0 pres5t1 & aft] a little h] bro!r took control ( ! p5cil4 8,y _c realize h[ intimately we "w toge!r /ill10 0 "o ( 8 ass]tions to h]4 8,y are a f9e =ce = progress4 ,y are be+ & tea*+ ! ?+s we all "w = "h4 ,tea*1 above all1 unity ( purpose4 ,nev] m9d ! me?od4 ,look to ! goal4 ,build+1 light1 fre$om1 fai?--^! are :at ! =ces ( con/ruction /& =1 ! way to ! great purpose4 ,! =ces ( dis9tegration are ga!r+ = a trem5d\s fight4 ,! ,great ,w> is "o ( ! crises ( civilization1 b ! battle to come /ill is "o ( ! crises ( et]nity4 ,x is = t we are prep>+ n[4 ,?is is :at we mu/ say to all de> to u &1 ?r\gh !m1 to z wide a public z we c rea*4444 ,x is a great message t is to be giv54 ,to-day ,i only want y to be sure t ,i "k all y feel & all y h suff]$1 & t ! m confid5tly & freely y rea* out to me1 kn[+ ,i am !re1 ! m easily & surely ,i c rea* y40 ,l ! o!rs1 ?is man us$ ! circle1 :i* we 7 beg9n+ to p]ceive mu/ signify m ?an joy1 z we und]/& ! ^w4 ,= example1 on ?is occasion x 0 us$ ?us3 8,y w look = me n[1 li/5 = me1 feel me ne> y1 & ! 7,o7 w be z ne> y\r life z x ev] c be !re40 ,aft] tell+ h] ( ! frequ5t use ( ?is symbol1 ,i ask$ him :e!r x _h n a deep] significance--p]haps completion1 p]fection1 consummate unity1 some?+ joy\s ( ?is l>g] sort1 to :i* he repli$ 9 ! affirmative4 ,a night or two aft] ?is1 ,cass sugge/$ t we mu/ make an ef=t to get into t\* ) ,david ,bruce1 b ,i said t we _h ask$ ab\t him sev]al times1 & t if he wi%$ or ne$$ to communicate ) 8 family he w\ld und\bt$ly let me "k4 ,aw>e ( ,mrs4 ,bruce's int]e/ 9 psy*ic ph5om5a1 ,i ?\ght !y might h e/abli%$ communication 9 "s way4 ,)9 a few m9utes ,i 0 consci\s ( a summons to ! p5cil4 ,fir/ came ,m>y ,k4's /rong signature4 ,!n1 v quickly3 8,david ,bruce is "h1 & wa44440 ,!re x ran (f into n]v\s1 illegible waves4 ,:5 ,i said ,i c\ld n foll[1 & ask$ t ! message be m sl[ly giv51 x 0 resum$ :]e x _h be5 dropp$4 8444 wants to talk to ,e 444 ,bess40 ,8 wife's "n is ,elizabe?1 & naturally 0 9 my m9d1 b hav+ writt5 ,e1 ! p5cil balk$1 delay$1 cross$ out ! ,e1 & f9ally wrote 8,bess10 firmly4 8,?ank y10 0 ! response to my promise to arrange ! int]view4 ,= ! fir/ "t x occurr$ to me t possibly ,m>y ,k4 _h giv5 ov] ! p5cil1 & ,i ask$ :o 0 writ+1 to be told quickly3 8,d4 ,b40 ,mrs4 ,bruce came ! next day to talk to him1 & ,m>y ,k4 told me1 be=e h] arrival1 to give h] no details ab\t ! previ\s messages1 add+3 8,he w tell h]40 ,& :ile 8 op5+ message to h] m]ely summ>izes simil> ass]tions previ\sly receiv$1 x is int]e/+ z ! fir/ consecutive p]sonal /atem5t ( ! survival ( individuality 9 ! et]nal pursuance ( con/ructive purpose4 8,i am "h ) y1 d>l+ ,bess1 z ,i h be5 ) y f ! />t10 he began at once4 8,y h kn[n x all ! "t1 & ,i h be5 able to rea* y 9 a way t ,i c only describe to y z spiritual40 ,"h 0 ! fir/ veil$ allusion1 at fir/ r puzzl+1 to t unkn[n =ce aft]w>d m5tion$ by ,william ,james & o!rs4 8,we s long to tell y :om we love n to grieve4 ,we are ( y1 z y are ( u4 ,ev5 m closely ?an we 7 :5 ,i 0 visibly ) y4 ,p]fect union is only possible to pure _s4 ,t w come4 ,mean:ile1 "o ( u is pure _s1 & bo? ( u s mu* ! ri*] !reby4 ,once1 9 ! beg9n+ ( ?+s1 y & ,i 7 ! same purpose4 ,purposes are et]nal4 ,!y may be tempor>ily divid$1 tempor>ily ov]come by ! =ces ( dis9tegration1 :i* are =ev] seek+ to de/roy1 b =ev] ea* divid$ purpose answ]s to ! call ( its own4 ,y & ,i 7 "o purpose 9 ! fir/1 & we %all be p]fectly reunit$ :5 y h jo9$ me "h4 ,b :ile we 7 "o 9 ! beg9n+1 "o ) _m o!rs ( our great purpose1 we are n[ et]nally def9ite & sep>ate individuals1 b unit$ z p]fectly1 aft] ! fir/ life !re1 z if we _h return$ to "o unit4444 ,! fir/ message any ( u s5d mu/ be ?is "o4 ,t is ! reason we c come s freely n[ & tell s mu*40 ,a little lat]1 speak+ ( _! *ildr51 he said3 8,all "y p h battles to fight & problems to solve4 ,don't try to sp>e !m t4 ,x is ?us !y le>n life's lessons1 & ! m !y le>n !re ! readi] !y w be to d ! f9e & glori\s "w "h40 ,he _h spok5 be=e ( be+ v busy1 & n[ %e comm5t$3 8,he seems s int]e/$ 9 ! "w60 8,int]e/$ is n ! ^w4 ,x's m l inspiration40 8,0 ! pass+ difficult80 %e ask$4 8,n difficult at all4 ,! pa9 end$ ) unconsci\sness40 8,b y _h no pa960 8,yes1 ,i _h "s--n express$1 nor q def9ite4 ,difficult to expla9 until exp]i5c$4 ,words d n convey ! s5sation4 ,n q fe>1 n q pa91 b a /range mom5t ( suff]+4 ,!n consci\sness aga91 beauty1 =ce1 p]fectly cle> p]ceptions1 b a p]iod ( some?+ approa*+ incr$ulity40 ,i m5tion$ ,fr$]ick's /atem5t t he _h be5 8daz$ by ! bigness ( x10 & ,mr4 ,bruce w5t on4 8,t's x4 ,! bigness ( x is indescribable1 & s extraord9>ily lovely & high t x is n readily realiz$ or grasp$40 ,%e said %e _h dread$ to h him g alone1 & ask$ :e!r "s "o met him4 8,yes1 we are v t5d]ly receiv$4 ,!re is always a "p ( "o's own purpose wait+40 8,h y se5 ,jack80 8,yes2 he is /ill a little bewild]$1 b w soon be 9 fight+ trim aga940 ,?is "y man _h be5 kill$ 9 an accid5t4 8#8,9 fight+ trim'60 %e repeat$4 8,h[ funny60 8,no1 x isn't funny4 ,we fight p]petually1 & love x4 ,x is a wond]ful ?+ to fight ) ! great =ces1 & to "k :y4 ,mo/ ( ^? 9 y\r life fight 9 confusion & d\bt1 & suff]4 ,b "h we unite ourselves to a def9ite & con/ructive purpose1 & ! fight is glori\s40 8,d y see ,granny80 8,no4 ,%e has gone on to a life beyond ours4 ,%e w come back1 "s day1 & ,i w see h]40 8,y h help$ me v mu* by believ+ t ,i liv$10 he told h]1 at ano!r po9t4 8,x is v h>d = u to be put aside4444 ,we "k "h h[ intimately our life & y\rs are liv$ toge!r1 & ! "o almo/ intol]able ?+ is to h our de> ones live & believe t we d n4 ,x def]s ?+s s4444 ,x hurts u :5 ! app>5t sep>ation is made real40 8,i hope y won't get s f> beyond t ,i c't cat* up10 %e said4 8,nev]6 ,y w beg9 f>!r along ?an ,i did4 ,we %all g on toge!r n[1 = et]nity4 ,s9ce y "k t ,i am ) y1 & especially z we live & "w consci\sly toge!r1 we %all gr[ toge!r40 8,did ,i d all ,i c\ld = y1 at ! la/8 ,did y feel my fe>80 8,no1 ,i did n feel y\r fe>4 ,b :5 "o kn[s t ! /ep is com+1 !re is "o bl9d+ mom5t ( dread4444 ,y kept me a little :ile10 he cont9u$1 :5 %e said t %e _h tri$ to hold him "h1 8b ! ?+ _h gone too f>40 8,0 !re any?+ we c\ld h done t 0 n done80 8,no?+4 ,x _h to be40 ,b :5 %e inf]r$ t ! "t _h come = him to take up "w 9 ! next plane1 he prote/$4 8,no4 ,no?+ l t is #8int5d$4' ,!re is no =eord9ation4 ,x is all a matt] ( =ces1 con/ructive & de/ructive4 ,my mat]ial en]gy 0 too little to )/& ! mat]ial =ces ( de/ruction4 ,my fle% yield$4 ,t has no real relation to et]nal =ce4444 ,"o s]ves "o's purpose1 "h or !re4 ,i am do+ bett] "w "h ?an ,i c\ld h done !re1 b t has no relation or "p 9 dea?4 ,x is entirely a physical ?+40 8,did ---- make y n]v\s80 8,no m]e man c\ld make me fail to respond to y\r call to c\rage4 ,i knew & y knew1 t x might be ! end ( life !re2 b !re 0 no possible ?+ t y c\ld h done1 m5tally1 physically1 or spiritually1 t y did n d4 ,x 0 y\r c\rage t kept me calm1 ev5 ?r\gh t dread mom5t2 y\r _s t met me :5 ,i woke "h2 y\r t5d]ness t soo!d my fir/ bewild]m5t2 y\r purpose t r\s$ me to bett]1 broad]1 f9] "w ?an ,i _h ev] dream$ be=e4 ,x has be5 y--y & ,i1 "o always--t h help$ & upheld me1 z y\r fai? has enabl$ me to rea* & uphold y40 ,?is int]view took place 9 ! aft]noon1 & ) a good deal ( incid5tal conv]sation1 cov]$ sev]al h\rs1 leav+ me v tir$4 ,b aft] d9n] ! famili> summons w>n$ me t my s]vices 7 aga9 9 dem&4 ,i took up a p5cil1 & ,m>y ,k4 ann\nc$ ! second ,lesson1 :i* foll[$ rapidly1 ) ! same unhesitat+ fl[ t _h *>act]iz$ ! fir/ "o4 ,,ii ,mean:ile1 happy lett]s 7 com+ almo/ daily f ! ,gaylord family1 & less frequ5tly1 b ) expressions ( equal conviction1 f ,mr4 ,k5dal4 ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h promis$ to sp5d ,ea/] week ) relatives1 9 a ,middle ,we/]n t[n1 :i* %e _h n visit$--inde$1 _h sc>cely d>$ to ?9k (--s9ce tak+ ,fr$]ick's body !re = burial2 & ! day aft] ! second ,lesson 0 giv5 %e arriv$ 9 ,new ,york1 :]e %e paus$ briefly en r\te1 h] eld] daught] & son-9-law jo9+ h] ! next morn+4 ,al?\gh h] tra9 arriv$ late 9 ! ev5+1 we talk$ a little to ,fr$]ick be=e sep>at+ = ! night4 ,we _h be5 comm5t+ on h] *ang$ appe>ance4 8,"m de>e/1 y are n mu* diff]5t] ?an ,i am10 he began1 aft] ! usual signature4 8,:y1 ,fr$]ick60 %e exclaim$4 8,are y bett]1 too80 ,he made ! en?usia/ic little circle s (t5 us$4 87,o7 ,s mu* bett]6 ,y c't guess h[ mu* bett] ,i am4 ,x helps me z mu* z x does y40 8,7 y at ,mrs4 ,z----'s ! o!r day80 %e ask$1 ref]r+ to a visit to a 8m$ium10 ( :i* ,i _h n be5 in=m$4 8,i 0 t1 b %e fell d[n on :at ,i 0 try+ to get ov]10 0 ! reply4 ,:5 8 "m said %e _h n receiv$ :at %e expect$ on t occasion1 he return$3 8,nor :at we expect$4444 ,%e's all "r1 z f> z %e goes40 ,he told h]1 also1 t ! woman accompany+ him1 describ$ by ,mrs4 ,z----1 _h be5 8 fa!r's "m4 8,?is is a nice1 peaceful p[w[ we're hav+ to-night10 he comm5t$1 :5 !y _h ex*ang$ views conc]n+ v>i\s p]sonal matt]s4 8,i _h to "w la/ "t1 b ?is "t ,i'm "h =44440 ,! p5cil paus$1 & ,i ask$3 8,= :at80 8,j = a good "t1 ,mrs4 ,l----4 ,sis is com+ to ! p>ty to-morr[4 ,hooray60 ,a little lat]1 :5 %e express$ "s unc]ta9ty ab\t h] ability to g ?r\gh an ,ea/] 9 ,k----1 ) all its sad associations1 un%ak51 he w>n$ h]3 8,don't y g backslid+60 ,cont9u+1 %e told u t 8 la/ illness _h develop$ j be=e ,ea/]1 & t 9 8 desire to give ! family an uncl\d$ day he _h p]suad$ a fri5d to s5d !m a typewritt5 lett]1 :i* he sign$1 conta9+ no intimation ( 8 illness4 8,i'll write y a lett] ?is ,ea/] ) a lot m pep 9 x10 he promis$4 8,y g on & h y\r ,ea/] pres5ts1 & fl[]s1 & eggs1 & all1 & :5 y beg9 backslid+1 /op 444 look 444 li/5#g 444 & ,i'll be on ! cross+1 r++ ! bell40 ,) an ejaculation ( surprise1 8 "m told u t %e _h be5 rec5tly 9 ! home ( a traffic exp]t1 ^: l>ge hall 0 /rik+ly decorat$ ) signs = ! regulation ( traffic4 8,i believe t's :at he's ?9k+ (60 %e exclaim$4 8,sure1 y've got x6 ,i'll ask ,sis to buy y a bell = me1 to rem9d y40 ,?is div]sion _h completely bani%$ ! ga!r+ sadness ( h] rem9isc5ces1 & %e began talk+ ( ,wa%+ton1 :5ce %e _h come1 say+ t !re seem$ to be a good deal ( pessimism 9 (ficial circles conc]n+ w> conditions4 ,x w be rememb]$ t ! bomb>dm5t ( ,p>is1 by a long-di/ance gun1 began ,m>* #bc;d4 8,!re are lots ( ?+s ,wa%+ton doesn't "k10 ,fr$]ick assur$ h]4 8,! end ( ! w> mu/ come soon40 ,we wond]$1 z ,i _h be=e1 h[ mu* diff]5ce !re 0 betwe5 8 conception ( "t1 z indicat$ by ! ^w 8soon10 & ours4 8,none ( u c "n ! day & h\r1 b we see ! inevitable end com+ soon4 ,g]many kn[s %e is weak5$1 b doesn't "k :y4 ,we d1 & we h told y4 ,no nation on e>? c fight ?is fight alone1 des]t$ by all purposes1 bo? = good & evil1 & ) only "o =ce left--,fe>40 ,long aft]w>d1 ,m>y ,k4 said to me1 9 ?is connection3 8,we see ! awak5+ purpose ( =ces = progress 9 y\r life1 & are able to help !m 9 proportion to ! vigor ) :i* t purpose is put into action4 ,g]many1 on ! o!r h&1 fights n[ ) only physical p[]4 ,et]nal =ces are implacably aga9/ h]1 & ! =ces ( de/ruction h ab&on$ h]4 ,%e has no ally "h n[4 ,h] unity is de/roy$1 :ile ours is /r5g!n+4 ,! only dang]1 z f> z ! w> is conc]n$1 lies 9 a weak5+ ( actual purpose1 =cefully express$ 9 action4 ,we are y\r allies1 answ]+ y\r call & incit+ y to endeavor4 ,:5 ,g]many began ?is w> %e _h sup]human /r5g?1 :i* ! _w 0 unprep>$ to meet1 b = e vibration ( pure con/ructive purpose among ! ,alli$ =ces we h add$ two1 & only a weak5+ ( y\r purpose c defeat u n[4 ,e individual among y :o fails to /rive = victory ) all 8 /r5g? invites disa/]40 ,fr$]ick's talk ) 8 "m 0 brief t night1 & :5 %e arose1 to return to h] hotel1 he said3 8,good night4 ,i am go+ home ) y1 if ,i may40 ,?is seem$ to ,cass & me a curi\s phrase1 "u ! circum/ances1 & we also comm5t$ ^u 8 g5]\s use ( slang1 especially 9 ! late/ int]view1 wond]+ :e!r x 7 *>act]i/ic ( him4 ,! next morn+ 8 si/]1 ,mrs4 ,wylie1 arriv$ ) h] husb&1 to sp5d a day ) ,mrs4 ,gaylord 9 ,new ,york4 ,x *anc$ t !y _h be5 away f home = sev]al weeks & _h se5 none ( ,fr$]ick's manuscript1 nor any copy ( x4 ,z %e read--f ! orig9al roll--8 messages ( ! prec$+ ev5+1 %e con/antly exclaim$3 8,h[ *>act]i/ic60 & 8 clos+ phrase br\ght te>s to h] eyes4 ,%e told me1 !n1 t along ) a copi\s use ( slang1 ,fr$]ick _h pres]v$ an odd little =mality ( phrase1 ev5 9 8 close/ p]sonal relations--a trait n common to o!r memb]s ( ! family4 ,lat]1 9 glanc+ = ! fir/ "t ?r\gh ! typewritt5 record ( e>li] int]views1 aga9 & aga9 %e express$ a/oni%m5t at ! *>act]i/ic quality ( 8 phraseology1 :i* _h n be5 m5tion$ to me be=e4 ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h spok5 ( h] vivid consci\sness ( 8 p]sonality1 imbu+ all he said to h]1 & _h told me1 dur+ ! e>li] days ( ?is int]c\rse1 m or less ab\t 8 habit ( ?\ght1 b x is *>act]i/ic ( h] to ignore m9or details1 & only :5 ,mrs4 ,wylie arriv$ did ,i le>n any?+ ab\t 8 habit ( spee*4 8,fr$]ick10 he ann\nc$1 :5 we invit$ communication1 8 bold signature /ret*+ across ! :ole wid? ( ! pap]4 8,hello1 ,sis6 ,?is is too good n to be true6 ,hello1 ,dick60 ,?is to ,mr4 ,wylie1 ^: m>riage to 8 si/] _h tak5 place dur+ ! la/ weeks ( 8 illness4 8,welcome home to ! family6 ,we're all 9 x n[1 = good & all4 ,?is is ! ?+ we've all ne$$1 ,i almo/ z mu* z ! re/ ( y1 b ,i did "k t soon] or lat] x mu/ come1 s ,i c\ld be> x bett] ?an y c\ld40 ,x mu/ n be und]/ood t all ^! communications came z consecutively z !y are pres5t$ "h4 ,!re 7 frequ5t pauses2 sometimes because ( our preoccupation 9 conv]sation2 sometimes1 app>5tly1 because ( difficulties ( transmission n expla9$4 ,occasionally ,i /opp$ to v]ify a ^w or a phrase1 ask+ if x _h be5 correctly tak51 & ) increas+ frequ5cy ! p5cil return$ )\t sugge/ion f me1 to cross out false />ts4 ,"s ( ! latt]1 :i* seem$ significant1 w be indicat$ f "t to "t4 ,! foll[+ message1 h[ev]1 came rapidly1 )\t pause4 8,we are all ( k9dr$ purposes4 ,t's ! reason we cl+ to ea* o!r s4 ,family hasn't a ?+ to d ) x4 ,x 0 our good =tune to h no =ces ( dis9tegration 9 our imm$iate gr\p4 ,we are all build]s1 9 "o way or ano!r4 ,n all 9 ! same way1 b all = ! great purpose4 ,?is is "o ( ! ?+s ,i h want$ to say to y4 ,don't be misl$ by transi5t relation%ips ( t life4 ,respect !m1 b don't be et]nally influ5c$ by !m1 because :5 y get ov] "h y'll f9d t "s ( ! p y've ?\ght y 7 mo/ fond ( h simply dropp$ out4 ,y don't ne$ !m1 nor !y y4 ,f9d y\r purposes cle>ly1 & /ick to !m4 ,we all h purpose1 b n all ( y !re h f\nd out j :at y\rs is4 ,f9d x1 & foll[ x fe>lessly4 ,!re1 t's (f my *e/60 ,mr4 ,wylie spoke ( ! 8upside-d[n /unt10 ( :i* "s "o _h writt5 him1 & ,i said x _h be5 done *iefly to conv9ce me--to %[ me1 9 ,fr$]ick's phrase1 8:o 0 runn+ x40 8,y "k n[ :o is runn+ x10 he contribut$1 8b y're c]ta9ly =mal ) /rang]s60 ,9 ! mid/ ( "s talk ( ours1 ! p5cil swung (f ) vigor1 writ+1 8,sis60 9 huge script1 l a joy\s exclamation1 end+ 9 /rong circles4 8,j wait till ,i cat* ,dad60 he w5t on4 8,& ,babe1 too6 ,all ( u toge!r6 ,m>g>et w h to =get h] =mality !n1 ,i tell y60 ,mrs4 ,wylie m5tion$ ! common impression t p]sonality mu/ be transmut$ by dea? into some?+ remote & /range--t only ! s\l surviv$4 8,( c\rse1 we love ! s\l ( any "o de> to u10 %e said4 8,b1 aft] all1 ! ?+ we "k be/1 & !re=e love be/1 is ! habit ( ?\ght--! *>act]i/ic m5tal attitude1 & x is s wond]ful to f9d ,fr$]ick un*ang$--j l himself40 8,sure6 ,:y n80 he return$4 8,y p mu/ le>n t ?is isn't #8l himself4' ,x is himself4 ,"r "h on ! job40 8,^? words60 ,8 "m & si/] ex*ang$ />tl$ glances4 ,!n !y told me t j be=e 8 long /ruggle = life on ?is plane end$1 :5 dur+ six mon?s 8 p[]s ( recup]ation _h repeat$ly a/oni%$ surgeons & nurses1 he op5$ 8 eyes1 to f9d 8 fa!r b5d+ ov] him1 & :isp]$ = ! la/ "t3 8,on ! job40 8,i've always be5 on x s9ce1 too10 he rapidly assur$ !m1 8& long+ to tell y s4 ,y nev] c "k1 until y try x1 h[ we hate to be left out4 ,we're on ! job z y c't ev5 imag9e1 & x makes u sort o' sick t we c't get x ov] to y ( our own love & purpose40 ,he int]rupt$ ! talk foll[+ ?is )3 8,trot along to lun*6 ,i want to />t go+ & n /op4 ,get x ov]1 d60 ,s we trott$1 & got x ov] z soon z possible1 ?\gh ?r\gh\t ! meal he insi/$ ^u hav+ a voice 9 ! conv]sation1 writ+ messages on all ! blank pap] we _h ab\t u1 & ov] ! backs ( ! available m5u c>ds4 8,y c't lose me1 & ne$n't try10 he told me1 & :5 ,i prote/$ t he 0 mak+ x impossible = me to f9i% my lun*eon1 he retort$3 8,y h a p]fectly good left h&4 ,eat ) t40 ,sev]al times ,mr4 ,wylie express$ 8 int]e/ 9 :at he call$ 8! upside-d[n /unt10 & :5 we 7 aga9 seat$ ab\t a writ+-table1 ,fr$]ick 8demon/rat$40 8,incid5tally1 ,dick10 he m5tion$1 />t+ at my "r & writ+ t[>d my left1 8y want$ to see ?is "w4 ,well1 "h y are4 ,?is is ! way x is done40 ,z ?is began1 ,mrs4 ,gaylord smil$1 pull+ h] *air ne>] to ! table1 :]e %e c\ld wat* e movem5t ( ! p5cil4 8,sit up clos]1 ,"m de>e/10 ,fr$]ick cont9u$1 8& ev]ybody hold h&s40 ,look+ slightly bewild]$1 %e held out h] h&s to ! o!rs4 ,i said t he _h us$ a figure ( spee*1 b %e ?\ght he _h meant x lit]ally1 & we ref]r$ ! "q to him4 8,yes1 all b y\r writ+-h&10 he said2 s we all jo9$ h&s1 & ,i ask$ :y4 8,j to make u "k m surely t we are all "o & indivisible1 f n[ on ?r\gh et]nity4 ,ea/] resurrection = e "o ( u4 ,we are all born aga91 to "s ext5t1 by our communion 9 ?is way2 ,i m ?an y1 because ,i h left ! fle% beh9d4 ,b to y has come new life1 new =ce1 new purpose1 new fai?1 ?r\gh y\r t\* ) ?is life ( pure _s4 ,x is truly y\r resurrection4 ,?is is y\r ,ea/] message4 ,hail6 ,& be happy ev] aft]60 ,i anticipat$ none ( ?is message1 & its t5or surpris$ me greatly4 ,be=e ,i _h recov]$ f my a/oni%m5t ,mrs4 ,gaylord exclaim$3 8,t mu/ be ! ,ea/] lett] he promis$ me60 ,imm$iately he sign$ x4 8,fr$]ick1 to ,"m & all ( y40 ,we spoke ( ! relation ( ?is :ole revelation to or?odox religion1 & "s "o said t x 0 n 9 accordance ) ! ,bible4 8,yes1 x is10 he contradict$4 8,y h nev] le>n$ to read ! ,bible 9 ?is light4 ,! great prophecies h always be5 phras$ 9 ! language1 & m or less 9 ! _s1 ( ! "t 9 :i* !y 7 utt]$4 ,?is is ! fir/ "t 9 ! hi/ory ( ! _w :5 physical sci5ce has be5 suffici5tly advanc$ to enable u to tell ! p ! tru? 9 t]ms !y w\ld truly und]/&4 ,prophecies h be5 veil$1 app>5tly1 n because ! tru? 0 vague1 b because m5 7 n prep>$ to und]/& x 9 all its details4 ,nor are !y n[4 ,b ?is is to be ! :ole tru?1 z f> z x c be und]/ood n[ by y\r prophets & p4 ,& = ! fir/ "t x is possible to give x to y directly 9 ?is way1 )\t pret5se or my/]y1 book or bell1 a natural law op]at+ naturally & freely1 ?r\gh an accr$it$ mess5g] :o makes no claim to inspiration40 ,9 ! c\rse ( our drift+ talk 8 "m rememb]$ t ,mrs4 ,z---- _h tri$ to convey a w>n+ ?r\gh h] f ,fr$]ick to ,mr4 ,wylie1 b _h be5 unable to tell h] :at x conc]n$4 ,aft] "s ef=t to discov] its connection1 sugge/+ possible j\rneys or bus9ess v5tures1 ,mrs4 ,z---- _h f9ally said t ,dick 0 ab\t to d some?+1 %e did n "k :at2 b :atev] x 01 ,fr$]ick said he mu/ n d x4 ,mrs4 ,gaylord n[ ask$ ,fr$]ick :at he _h int5d$ to say4 8,%e didn't get my message4 ,i 0 try+ to tell him n to be fe>ful ab\t any?+40 ,mr4 ,wylie is sometimes prey to n]v\s appreh5sion & worry4 8,x keeps u back & we c't help him z we're try+ to d4 ,op5 up1 ,dick6 ,let u 9 & we'll all pull toge!r40 ,?is app>5tly t\*$ "s situation unkn[n to me1 = ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,wylie ex*ang$ glances1 & in/antly ,fr$]ick made 8 quick circles4 87,o7 ,t's x6 ,n[ we're (f6 ,no1 x isn't incr$ible10 he add$1 reply+ to "s comm5t ( !irs4 8,x's ! true/ ?+ y ev] he>d4 ,b ,mrs4 ,z---- c't get beyond ext]nals40 ,?is seems to be a v good example ( ! way c]ta9 messages are confus$ by ! p]sons ?r\gh :om !y come4 ,9 ?is case1 :ile ! int5d$ w>n+ 0 convey$1 a purely subjective & spiritual message 0 s di/ort$1 h[ev] unconsci\sly & un9t5tionally1 t x 0 giv5 an objective & mat]ial significance4 ,ask$ :e!r an acqua9tance ( !irs w\ld be help$ by a k ( _! int]c\rse ) him1 he said3 8,%e is n ready = ?is yet4 ,few p1 comp>atively1 are free en\gh to accept x4 ,x has be5 =bidd5 by ! *ur*1 ridicul$ by ! laity1 & labell$ #8poison1 don't t\*' by neurologi/s & ! sci5tific1 half-bak$ intellectuals40 8,fake m$iums h done a lot to br+ x into disrepute10 ,mr4 ,wylie sugge/$4 8,t's ! reason = "s ( x4 ,ano!r reason1 less obvi\s to y1 b equally pot5t1 is t p :o _h ! s5sitiv5ess to be mess5g]s frequ5tly lack$ ! purpose ( tru? fundam5tally1 & ?\gh ?9k+ !y 7 hone/1 ent]ta9$ devils unaw>e4444 ,t is ! reason s _m p h gone to pieces1 m5tally & physically4 ,! purposes ( dis9tegration caught !m & de/roy$ !m4 ,b ?is "t1 we beat !m to x40 8,all philosophies h _h "s f\ndation ( tru?10 he told u1 a little lat]1 8or !y w\ld n h be5 p]mitt$ to live4 ,?is new fai? w be attack$ by ! dis9tegrat+ =ces1 9 an attempt to discr$it x z a pat*work ( philosophies4 ,! new tru?s !y w ignore1 or flatly d5y4 ,b ?is is ! :ole tru?1 z f> z x c be told n[4 ,believe x1 foll[ x1 prea* x1 live x1 & we %all truly build t /ructure ,i told y (1 ,"m de>e/1 ( =ce1 light1 & sweetness--:i* is y4 ,i seem to be do+ a d>n$ lot ( prea*+60 8,x isn't l y1 ei!r10 8 "m rem>k$4 8,y see1 we've got to get ?is ov]4 ,x's imp]ative40 ,at t1 %e said x 0 l him1 aft] all1 because he _h always talk$ eag]ly to ! family ab\t 8 8job10 :atev] x might be1 add+3 8,is x #8imp]ative' because ( ! w> & ! sorr[8 ,or because ! "t is ripe80 8,x's because !re's ! v devil ( a fight com+1 & we've got to ga!r e =ce we h1 & unite x40 8,is beat+ ! ,g]mans help+ ! con/ructive =ce8 ,or is ! w> m]ely ! awak5+ ?r\gh suff]+80 8,g]many has be5 unit$ 9 purpose z a de/ructive =ce = _m ye>s4 ,!y gave !mselves delib]ately1 n z individuals1 b z a p1 to :at p>sons call ! p[]s ( d>kness4 ,we "k !m to be =ces ( dis9tegration1 :i* f\nd 9 ,g]many _! /ronge/ ally 9 ! civiliz$ _w4 ,we've be5 fight+ ,g]many & h] purposes "h = ye>s1 ,i f9d4 ,suff]+ makes p readi] to li/5 to tru?1 b beat+ ,g]many 0 z necess>y to ! _w's heal? z sanitation to a hospital40 8,t's a cle> & explicit /atem5t10 "s "o said4 8,we are p]fectly def9ite & explicit ab\t que/ions ( et]nal purpose4 ,! difficulty ) mo/ p is t !y want to "k h[ mu* ,u4 ,s4 ,/eel w g up next ,tuesday1 or :e!r to give ! baby soo?+-syrup40 ,aft] "s int]*ange conc]n+ 8 fa!r & y\ng] si/]1 he said1 8,i want to write !m an ,ea/] greet+40 ,s we got a fre% roll ( pap]1 & he wrote a brief b t5d] lett]1 :i* 0 s5t to !m t night4 8,:i* "o ( u w be be/ able to d ?is80 ,mrs4 ,wylie ask$4 8444 ,! "t w come :5 ?is sort ( ?+ is unnecess>y4 ,we c talk )\t mat]ial aid4444 ,we nev] "k :5 ! p[] is go+ to develop4 ,x's mu* l an electric curr5t4 ,y nev] "k x's !re until y feel x--until y\r signal comes ov] ! wire4444 ,try x out1 all ( y4 ,we "k no m ab\t :o c d x ?an y d1 except 9 cases ( extraord9>y p[]40 ,"s "t aft]w>d1 h[ev]1 he w>n$ !m ( ! dang]s ( attempt+ to h&le ?is =ce1 intimat+ t great cons]vation ( en]gy 9 o!r directions %\ld accompany ! endeavor4 ,8 "m spoke ( 8 be+ happy1 & he return$3 8,p]fectly happy n[1 ?ank y4 ,x's ! et]nal ?+1 really />t$4 ,i hate to h ?is p>ty break up1 b anyh[ x isn't = long4 ,i've be5 away long]1 :5 ,i liv$ !re1 ?an ,i %all be n[1 & we are all ( u z sure ( ! next meet+1 & ! next good "t1 z we 7 !n40 8,he kn[s x is end+1 & we mu/ g to our tra9s10 ,mrs4 ,gaylord said4 8,n end+ at all4 ,beg9n+6 ,hooray60 ,on t triumphant note !y took _! dep>ture1 ,mrs4 ,gaylord we/w>d b\nd1 ! ,wylies to ,new ,engl&2 b1 ow+ to a defective timepiece1 bo? miss$ _! tra9s4 ,)9 an h\r1 ,mrs4 ,wylie telephon$ me t h] "m _h caught--by ! n>r[e/ m>g9--a lat] tra91 hop+ to secure sleep+-accommodation aft] leav+1 a dubi\s v5ture 9 ^! days ( dim9i%$ s]vice & cr[d$ tra9s4 ,we arrang$ to d9e & sp5d ! ev5+ toge!r4 ,aft]w>d1 x occurr$ to me t ,fr$]ick might pref] to be ) 8 "m t night1 & ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 ab\t x4 8,fr$]ick has engag$ 8 "m 9 7,o7 4440 8,:at does t mean n[80 ,i int]rupt$4 8,bliss80 8,yes 444 & w come "h to-night to see ! o!rs40 ,,iii ,l ! re/ ( ! family1 ,mrs4 ,wylie fe>$ ! effect ( ! ,we/]n visit ^u h] "m's new-f\nd tranquillity ( _s1 & %e 0 also uneasy le/ ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h be5 unable to secure ,pullman accommodations4 8,"m is all "r & happy10 ,fr$]ick told u1 9 ! ev5+4 8,%e is /ill read+ h] preci\s book0--a copy ( 8 e>li] int]views1 :i* %e c>ri$ ) h]4 ,"s "o ask$ :e!r he meant t h] g5]al condition 0 8all "r10 or t %e 0 8all "r0 on ! tra94 8,on ! tra94 ,%e's blissful60 ,?is 0 v]ifi$ a day or two lat] by a lett] f ,mrs4 ,gaylord1 9 :i* %e said3 8,i came away fill$ ) /r5g? & calm & joy40 ,%e also m5tion$ casually t %e _h f\nd a vacant section on ! tra91 & travel$ com=tably4 8,h[ does purpose combat =ces ( evil80 ,mr4 ,wylie ask$4 8,x is done by ov]p[]+ !m1 z ! sun dispels mi/1 sep>at+ !m into small] p>ticles or units4 ,& :5 t is impossible1 by driv+ !m l cl\ds be=e a high w9d4 ,!y "w = evil1 b c be sep>at$ sometimes f ! mass & unit$ ) con/ructive =ces4 ,only small fragm5ts ( ! ma9 =ces c be s conv]t$1 at pres5t4 ,mo/ly we r\t !m40 8,does an evil s\l lose p]sonality80 8 si/] que/ion$4 8,is x absorb$1 or brok5 into fragm5ts80 8,! individuality t f9ds its fir/ expression 9 y\r life is nev] absorb$ or brok5 up4 ,i speak ( ! =ces ( dis9tegration1 compos$ ( m individuals ?an ! greate/ army1 z be+ r\t$4 ,we mass ourselves & our purposes aga9/ !m & !irs1 :5 we fight 9 ! op5 "h4 ,b z has be5 expla9$ 9 ! ,lessons1 ! v mat]ial =m y h 0 orig9ally an ef=t to evolve a =ce n conqu]able by purpose alone4 ,bo? good & evil =ces1 9 y\r phrase--con/ructive & de/ructive1 9 ours--took possession ( ^! concrete =ms1 & n[ ! bitt]ness ( ! fight is greate/ :]e bo? =ces are repres5t$ 9 "o individual4 ,! only way we c fight t effectively is to sit on ! job1 & try to call to ! purpose t is ours m cle>ly & appeal+ly1 or m comm&+ly1 ?an ! o!r fell[ does4 ,t's ! reason we are begg+ y n[ to "w ) u4 ,a great crisis is at h&1 & we want y to meet x consci\sly 9 y\r life !re1 kn[+ its nature1 s t we c h y\r help1 n only 9 )/&+ mat]ial onslaughts1 l ,g]many's invasions & brutality1 b 9 ?+s ( ! _s--! real ?+s1 ! et]nal ?+s--s t toge!r we may w9 a real victory4 ,! individual ^: purposes are fundam5tally de/ructive is n damn$ nor lo/4 ,he is j delay$4 ,soon] or lat] he mu/ "w 8 way up1 & x is entirely up to him :e!r he does x soon] or lat]--aft] he rea*es ?is life1 especially4 ,9 y\r life1 he is sometimes confus$ or misl$4 ,he pays = t1 too--n pays1 b makes good = x1 by work+ "h = ! developm5t he _h n s5se en\gh to take !re4 ,b 8 delay is brief1 beside t ( ! ess5tially de/ructive =ce40 ,a little lat]1 ,mrs4 ,wylie spoke aga9 ( h] uneas9ess ab\t h] "m's visit to ,k----1 & "s "o sugge/$ telegraph+ h] t ,fr$]ick _h be5 ) u t ev5+4 8,give h] my love :5 y wire10 he direct$1 8& tell h] ,i'm on ! cross+1 /ill r++ t bell4 ,don't y worry1 ,sis4 ,i'll g & /ay ) h] mo/ ( ! "t %e's !re1 & %e'll "k x4 ,i'll come to y1 ,ea/]1 too1 = a little :ile4444 ,tell ,dad ,i'll be tak+ c>e ( ,"m4 ,he ne$n't fret ab\t x40 8,d y want me to look up #8,bob' & tell him ab\t 8 little girl80 %e ask$4 ,he repli$1 8,yes1 d40 ,& :5 %e ask$ if he c\ld give h] some?+ m def9ite ?an a ,*ri/ian "n by :i* to trace ?is unkn[n man among 8 l>ge & scatt]$ acqua9tance1 he wrote ! "n ( a ,middle ,we/]n city1 add+3 8,y c f9d out f ! fell[s4 ,all ( !m "k ,bob40 ,?is seems to be a case ( m>k$ deflection ( ray1 to use ,mr4 ,k5dal's simile1 = up to ! day :5 ?is manuscript goes to ! pr9t] ! ,gaylord family h be5 unable to id5tify 8,bob10 al?\gh !re 0 a confus$ intimation1 late 9 ,april1 t ,mrs4 ,z---- _h made a mi/ake 9 ! "n1 & a sugge/ion t ! surname 0 ,rob]ts4 ,x is n impossible t ?is 0 "o ( ^? wily incursions ( dis9tegrat+ =ce1 ) int5t to confuse1 to :i* we aft]w>d grew accu/om$4 ,on ,friday & ,saturday ( t week 7,m>* #bi? & #cj?71 !re 7 int]views ( great int]e/1 b ( too p]sonal a "* to be ext5sively quot$4 ,reply+ to ! inquiry ( a man = 8 fa!r1 ,m>y ,k4 said3 8,he 0 a great =ce "h1 b has pass$ on into ! life beyond ours4 ,he c & w return to talk to y1 b n imm$iately40 8,tell ,g---- ! con/ructive =ces are work+ = him1 z he = !m10 0 ! answ] to que/ions ab\t a man 9 ?is life4 8,tempor>y disappo9tm5ts are unimportant4 ,d n fe>4 ,we build toge!r1 & surely4 ,! result is c]ta9 & = 8 purpose--progress1 light1 & ju/ice4 ,8 individual conc]n is to h fai?1 foll[ 8 purpose1 & tru/ u4 ,! only failure possible comes f admitt+ d\bt1 dis9tegration1 & fe>40 ,an expression ( anxiety conc]n+ ano!r man on ?is plane 0 met ?us3 8,n---- has felt 8 own purpose /irr+ a little4444 ,a p]fectly good purpose :5 he f9ds x4 ,he has _h _m =ces fight+1 )9 & )\t4 ,he w wake :5 ?is message is giv5 to ! _w4 ,he is too intellig5t n to recognize tru? z obvi\s z ?is w be40 ,"s "o ask$ :5 ?is w\ld occur4 8,:5 ,m>g>et completes ! book %e w publi% soon40 ,?is 0 ! fir/ intimation ( ! way 9 :i* ,i 0 expect$ to c>ry out ,m>y ,k4's in/ructions to make ?is exp]i5ce kn[n1 conc]n+ :i* we _h wond]$ n a little4 ,x 0 sugge/$ t a memb] ( ?is p]son's family might help him1 f ! next plane1 b ?is 0 said to be impossible1 z !y 7 n ( ! same purpose4 8,! family connection is no?+ "h4 ,8 own purposes "k him1 bo? good & bad1 & !y are fight+ x out4 ,he has answ]$ fir/ "o1 !n ano!r4 ,b fundam5tally he is = ju/ice4 ,he w answ] to t 9 ! end4444 ,sometimes he w %ut x all out & yield to ! =ces seek+ to de/roy him1 b he w fight 9 ! end = fre$om & ju/ice40 8,%e is n ( our =ces10 0 ! reply to an inquiry ab\t an arti/ :o left ?is life tw5ty ye>s ago4 ,?is 0 cross$ out1 h[ev]1 & 8n m5tally free0 sub/itut$4 ,:5 ,i 0 alone1 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 ab\t ?is woman1 & %e return$3 8,%e is n a de/ructive =ce1 b is det]r5t4 ,%e is work+ out problems n met :5 %e %\ld h met !m1 & is fight+ = gr[?1 j z %e soon or late w fight = progress4 ,%e fights = h]self1 h] own gr[?1 & n = progress 9 ! l>g] s5se40 ,aft]w>d1 ,i le>n$1 f "s "o :o knew h] well1 ( ?is woman's dev\r+ & unqu5*able ambition = supremacy 9 h] pr(ession4 ,:imsical ,anne ,l[e1 writ+ to ?ree fri5ds ( h] cont9u$ association ) !m1 said3 8,believe--"k--t we are a positive =ce1 & unit$ we /&1 hurrah6 ,our fai? helps all b5efic5t purpose4 ,its =ce is fre$ & multipli$ by ! sum ( y\r p>ticipation40 8,i wond] if %e c\ld tell u :at our purposes are80 ,elizabe? said4 8,y\rs is ,progress1 ,ru?'s is ,light1 ,ka?>9e's is ,heal+ & ,light4 ,y are bl5d$4 ,elizabe? to pu%1 ,ru? to illum9e & int]pret1 ,ka?>9e to und]/& & soo!40 ,ru? said1 wi/fully3 8,!n all ,i c d is to %9e80 8,int]pret]s are really prophets10 %e 0 told4 8,t is all ! greate/ prophets ev] 74 ,y are ( _! purpose1 s *e] up60 ,int]rupt+ a little discussion z to :e!r dom9ant purpose is born 9 u or develop$1 %e said3 8,we are born ) _m purposes1 lat5t & /riv+1 b z we live we make daily *oice40 ,t ev5+1 our old fri5d ,mayn>d ,holt came = a long talk4 ,aft] "s entirely p]sonal ex*ange1 ,cass spoke ( ,mayn>d z hav+ be51 9 ?is life1 a believ] 9 individualism4 ,beg9n+ ) "s allusion to =m] discussions betwe5 !m1 conc]n+ :at he call$ 8! tempor>y manife/ations ( ,socialism10 ,mayn>d repli$3 8,n[ ,i c tell y def9itely t ! salvation ( ! civiliz$ _w is dep5d5t on ! indep5d5ce ( ! individual4444 ,x's a big & glori\s p]iod 9 et]nal hi/ory4 ,! "t has almo/ come = ! op5 fight4 ,prep>e y\r gr\nd c>efully1 & gird up y\r lo9s = combat4 ,x's com+40 ,a little lat]1 9 a simil> connection1 he said3 8,! consci\s co-op]ation ( purpose is ! only s\nd pr9ciple ( ,socialism4 ,t is et]nally s\nd4 ,& n[ t we are consci\sly & =cefully work+ 9 h>mony ) ! great & et]nal purpose1 !y c't /op u40 8,has ?is new opportunity ( communication ) ?is plane made y ov] !re happi]80 he 0 ask$4 8,x has op5$ an entirely new *annel to u "h 9 ?is "p ( ! _w4 ,9 ! ,f> ,ea/1 we h ! *annel1 b no h>d-pan to support ! /ream4 ,"h sci5ce gives u a f\ndation f :i* to "w1 b we h _h no *annel ?r\gh :i* to rea* x4444 ,ev]y:]e 9 ! civiliz$ _w ! m9ds ( intellig5t p h turn$ to ?is4 ,!re is rea*+ & que/ion+ & long+1 & a dawn+ fai?40 ,at ?is "t ,i did n "k h[ frequ5tly belief 9 ! possibility ( communication ) ^? 9 a life beyond is accompani$ by an incl9ation t[>d ! ,ori5tal philosophies1 b ,mayn>d's allusion to ! ,f> ,ea/ 0 giv5 great] significance by ! replies to lat] que/ions4 ,to an inquiry conc]n+ ! possible influ5ce ( ^! tea*+s 9 ,g]many1 he return$3 8,!y are a philosophical & ab/ract-m9d$ p1 & !y'll be hunt+ a plausible & satisfactory explanation ( !mselves be=e long4 ,& ?is is less uncomplim5t>y ?an ! o!rs w be1 besides hav+ ! und5iable advantage ( be+ true1 :i* !y w h le>n$1 by t "t1 to appreciate40 8,c't ^? ) eyes1 e>s1 & und]/&+ le>n wisely to control1 lead1 & uplift ! mass80 ,cass ask$4 8,9 ,russia1 = example80 8,don't be 9 su* a hurry4 ,!re's all et]nity1 & evolution is sl[4 ,b ! mills ( ! gods gr9d on1 & ! gri/ is sure4 ,! ,russians1 l ! ,g]mans1 mu/ climb _! own hills4 ,am]ica has a few to climb1 too4 ,?is w help _m1 uplift a few1 escape ! mass1 b leav5 ! :ole4 ,!re is no mill5nium at h&4 ,?is is j a light by :i* ! pa? is made m cle>4 ,x w influ5ce _m ?\s&s1 9 _m c\ntries1 b ! in]t mass mu/ "w its way on1 ?r\gh ! old *annels ( evolution1 made easi] by k & by exp]i5ce ( ^? ahead1 b n to be evad$ or avoid$ by any miracle40 8,b x w br+ consci\s purpose & ef=t to be> 9 help+ ?is evolution80 8,surely4 ,x is a message eag]ly await$ & desir$40 ,lat] t ev5+1 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 :e!r %e c\ld tell me any?+ ab\t ! book ,anne ,l[e _h said ,i 0 to publi%4 8,yes4 ,x mu/ be ready = publication by ,fall40 8,evid5tly sordid1 mat]ial details ( book manufacture escape y\r att5tion10 ,i said1 laugh+4 8,?is is ! ?irtie? ( ,m>*1 & y h n yet giv5 me all ! mat]ial = y\r book4 ,:5 y h done t1 x /ill mu/ be edit$1 assembl$ = publication1 copi$1 accept$ by publi%]s1 pr9t$1 & sold4 ,p]haps y don't "k t salesm5 = publi%+-h\ses beg9 tak+ ord]s = ,fall publications 9 ,june1 & g5]ally c>ry sample copies ( ! books ) !m80 ,%e said ,i w\ld h ! necess>y mat]ial 9 a mon? or six weeks1 & t edit+ w\ld 8take ano!r mon?10 f :i* x is evid5t t no eight-h\r law is op]ative on h] plane4 ,%e also advis$ me to see publi%]s at once1 tell !m :at 0 happ5+1 read !m p>ts ( communications already receiv$1 & arrange = ,fall publication1 conditional ^u _! satisfaction ) ! complet$ manuscript--:i*1 n )\t misgiv+s conc]n+ su* proc$ure1 ,i imm$iately prep>$ to act ^u4 ,a night or s lat]1 ,mayn>d ,holt came aga91 ) 8 "m1 :o said3 8,mayn>d br\ght me to call40 ,:5 we ask$ if %e work$ ) ^? on ?is plane1 %e repli$3 8,yes1 b also ) undevelop$ purposes1 "h be=e _! "t40 ,return+ to ! subject ( ,russian upheaval1 ,mayn>d said3 8,!y are gon]s = "s "t1 n[4 ,x w take !m long to assemble _! purposes aga9 con/ructively40 8,if y _h be5 "h10 ,cass ask$1 8w\ld y h view$ ! ,russian situation & its effect on ! _w z y d n[80 8,n q1 ,i ?9k4 ,we see f>!r ahead1 & h s\nd] premises f :i* to argue ?an y've ev] _h !re40 8,?is plan1 ( c\rse1 includes all ! p ( ! _w10 ,cass cont9u$4 8,are ^? :o leave "h undevelop$1 /ill undevelop$ !re80 8,!re is a l>ge & gr[+ population "h ( ! undevelop$10 0 ,mayn>d's reply1 8:i* is "o ( ! less] reasons = our ke5 desire to purposize ! _w40 ,,iv 8,:at place h ! unfit on y\r plane80 we ask$ ,m>y ,k41 at ! conclusion ( ! six? ,lesson4 8,no place4 ,!y are errors ( developm5t1 & h a long /ruggle ahead be=e !y c rea* ! degree ( developm5t t %\ld h be5 !irs 9 y\r life4 ,!y are fusions ( weak purposes1 & %\ld n be p]mitt$ to hold back ! /rong & ! fit4 ,developm5t w come to !m sl[ly1 at be/1 b m quickly "h ?an !re40 8,9 ! pres5t /age ( our developm5t1 is !re a suffici5t inc5tive to progress1 )\t hope ( mat]ial ga9 or p]sonal improvem5t80 8,any mat]ial ga9 t is = ! con/ructive purpose is a =ce = light & progress 9 ! l>g] s5se4 ,mat]ial ga9 is det]r5t only :5 purpose is its price4 ,p]sonal ambition is an inc5tive always4 ,:5 x is = p]sonal ga91 at any price1 x is det]r5t4 ,:5 x is ambition to s]ve a great purpose wor?ily1 x becomes a con/ructive =ce1 to :i* mat]ial ga9 adds only m con/ructive =ce40 8,h y all hi/ory spread out be=e y8 ,or are y taught aft] y get !re80 8,we h a grasp ( results1 n easily und]/ood 9 y\r life4 ,x is l see+ a l&scape f a high & di/ant hill4 ,! sali5t features are easily di/+ui%$40 8,are ^! messages = all p8 ,or only = civiliz$ p8 ,d !y come f ,*ri/ians on y\r plane80 8,?is is a message to ! civiliz$ _w4444 ,jew or ,g5tile1 ,*ri/ian or agno/ic1 all m5 are bro!rs 9 ! l>g] s5se4 ,unciviliz$ little bro!rs w gr[1 or come to ?is fre] plane to jo9 _! l>g] purposes40 8,!n f :om d ^! ,lessons come80 8,f great con/ructive purposes4 ,!re is no sect or cre$1 color or prejudice1 "h40 ,saturday1 ,april #f?1 ,mrs4 ,bruce came aga9 to talk to h] husb&1 & he ?ank$ h] = a public gift :i* %e _h j made 9 8 "n1 promis+ su* co-op]ation 9 ! "w x promot$ z c\ld be giv5 f 8 plane4 ,%e said t %e _h felt sudd5ly impell$ to make ?is contribution1 & _h act$ at once ^u ! impulse4 8,y all feel impell$ to "w ) u z soon z y realize we are "h ne> y10 he told h]1 8& ! ?+s we c d toge!r are z yet undream$ 9 y\r life40 ,%e spoke ( 8 =m] int]e/ 9 ! arts1 :i* he said he _h left beh9d z 8mat]ial manife/ations40 ,discuss+ ! relation ( arti/ic expression to con/ructive purpose1 he said3 8,art1 :5 x is a real int]pretation ( life1 is a high & noble ?+1 b ! art t is m]ely self-expression is a dis9tegrat+ =ce4 ,too mu* ( x is t n[40 ,at t "t1 %e _h read none ( ! ,lessons1 & he told h] ( ! sev5 purposes ( con/ruction1 cont9u+3 8,to purpose ( any nature only simil> purpose calls1 & :5 ! call is he>d !re is no *oice b to answ]4 ,no *oice aft] ! call has be5 admitt$ to consci\sness4 ,x may be %ut out & d5i$1 b once li/5$ to1 :e!r = con/ruction or = de/ruction1 ! answ] is b\nd to come4 ,t is :y we s insi/5tly urge ! discov]y ( purpose & ! beauty ( con/ruction4 ,"*1 z y und]/& x1 results f ! purposes admitt$ to consci\sness4 ,n always recogniz$1 b always let 940 ,he _h "s difficulty 9 gett+ "o ^w writt51 & %e spoke ( 8 erasures ( wrong />ts z extraord9>y & unusual4 8,n a bit unusual1 if y ?9k h[ (t5 ! words ( y\r languages fail z conv9c+ & accurate symbols4 ,y (t5 correct !m y\rselves4 ,a translation may be made 9 any ( sev]al ways1 dep5d+ on ! reactions ( ! translator to c]ta9 symbols4 ,s1 :5 ,m>g>et reacts freely1 we let x /&4 ,:5 %e fails1 :olly or 9 "p1 we correct x40 ,9 view ( lat] /atem5ts conc]n+ ! =ce us$ 9 ^! manife/ations1 ,i assume ?is to mean1 n t ,i make ! translation m5tion$1 b t c]ta9 symbols us$ 9 translation are sometimes difficult to convey ?r\gh me4 ,frequ5tly o!r words h be5 sub/itut$ = ^? orig9ally begun1 :5 !re 0 tr\ble 9 writ+ !m4 ,ano!r explanation ( ^! occasional difficulties ( transmission 0 sugge/$ aft]w>d1 fir/ by ,fr$]ick & lat] m explicitly by ,m>y ,k5dal4 8,d y see u visibly80 ,mrs4 ,bruce ask$4 8,yes1 ( c\rse4 ,we see all y d1 & m4 ,we see motives1 :]e y see appe>ance40 ,long aft]w>d 7,may #bf?71 ,mr4 ,k5dal ask$ ,anne ,l[e :e!r %e c\ld see sunsets1 & %e repli$3 8,no1 b we see _! equival5t 9 dawn ( purpose40 ,%e _h previ\sly express$ approval ( a room1 :i* _h be5 arrang$ ) great c>e = "o de> to h]1 & he ask$ :e!r %e saw its physical details1 or only its effects ^u ! m9ds ( p]sons ent]+ x1 to :i* h] answ] 03 8,we nev] see mat]ial ?+s4 ,we see _! significance40 ,simil>ly1 ,m>y ,k4 said 7,may #ca/71 8,we read y\r ?\ght frequ5tly1 & always p]ceive motive1 int5tion1 & ! m5tal & spiritual significance ( y\r reactions to mat]ial ?+s1 9 !mselves unimportant4 ,s we say we see ! ?+ itself1 because we p]ceive its ess5tial significance40 ,mrs4 ,bruce said h] daught] want$ to "k :e!r dogs cont9ue to exi/ aft] life "h1 feel+ t !y mu/4 8,!y d n come z animals1 exactly4 ,b !re is no manife/ation ( =ce t is n purpose1 & purposes are unit$ & ga!r "h1 9 ways n possible = y to und]/&1 9 ! progress t[>d ! great purpose40 ,t5 days lat]1 ,fr$]ick /at$ ?is m explicitly4 ,aft] a pause1 ,mr4 ,bruce said3 8,we are s full ( our f9e b trem5d\s task "h1 at ?is great mom5t ( crisis1 t ,i'm afraid ,i'm n v ent]ta9+4 ,we talk %op to y1 because t is ! reason we c come s freely n[40 8,y ref] to ! great crisis80 %e ask$4 8,n to our pres5t crisis "h80 8,g]many is b]eft ( all purpose4 ,purposes ( de/ruction h left h]4 ,%e has "o sole1 frantic =ce rema9+--fe>4 ,aft] t1 de/ruction1 long foll[$1 w turn & r5d h]1 & fe> w be lo/ 9 despair40 8,ar5't !re "s good ,g]mans80 %e sugge/$1 add+ t _! daught] ?\ght x unfair to condemn a :ole p = ! s9s ( "s ( !m4 8,_m good ,g]mans h admitt$ to consci\sness ! call ( de/ructive purposes1 & h = ! mom5t jo9$ =ces aga9/ u4 ,= _m ye>s ?is prep>ation has be5 go+ on4 ,no ,g]man :o has ev] admitt$ ! =ces ( dis9tegration is q free f !m n[4 ,!re 7 "s (fic]s :o took _! own lives & fac$ ! consequ5ces1 r ?an jo9 =ces ) ! dom9ant purpose ( _! p4 ,no p]son c live 9 ,g]many n[ :o is n p>ty to dis9tegration4 ,no ,g]man lives 9 ! _w1 :o /ill calls himself ,g]man1 :o is n p>ty to dis9tegration40 8,y say !y h #8jo9$ =ces aga9/ u = ! mom5t1'0 ,i m5tion$4 8,"s ( !m w see light1 & build =cefully = true progress4 ,"s ( !m w de/roy :ile !y live4 ,"s w be = ye>s det]r5t1 & ! end is impossible to =esee40 ,a day or two aft] ?is1 :5 ,i 0 alone1 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 :at ,mr4 ,bruce meant by say+ t once ! call ( purpose is admitt$ to consci\sness1 !re is no *oice b to answ]4 8,he meant t y\r p]sonal /ruggle is only ) ! purposes admitt$ to consci\sness4 ,all =ces are con/antly try+ to rea* y1 to enli/ y = ! great /ruggle4 ,once admitt$ to y\r consci\sness1 y h no *oice b to answ]1 & ! /ruggle betwe5 oppos+ =ces is f\ght ) y\r help4 ,_m wav] betwe5 ! two1 n[ l5d+ aid to ?is "o1 n[ to t4 ,a few *oose in/antly2 "s to progress1 "s to delay1 "s to build1 "s to de/roy4 ,?is is :at m5 call "*40 8,he said also t no ,g]man :o has ev] admitt$ to consci\sness ! =ces ( dis9tegration is q free f !m n[4 ,:y80 8,because !re is 9 y\r life1 z "h1 a gr\p loyalty4 ,b :]eas "h we are gr\p$ by purpose1 !re y are gr\p$ l>gely by geographical location4 ,& any ,g]man :o ju/ifi$ ?is w> 9 ! beg9n+ is p>ty to dis9tegration to "s ext5t /ill4 ,8 gr\p loyalty holds him1 ?\gh 8 purpose prote/4 ,t w be ! f9al te/4 ,purpose1 or f9ite loyalty to f9ite gr\p40 ,"o or two int]e/+ /atem5ts 7 made1 ab\t ?is "t1 dur+ an int]view ) ! wid[ ( a well-kn[n ,new ,york surgeon4 8,y\r husb&'s "w is heal+ /ill10 ,m>y ,k4 told h]4 ,aft] enum]at+ ! con/ructive purposes1 %e cont9u$3 8,heal+ 0 always 8 purpose1 & he foll[s x /ill1 ) all 8 great =ce4 ,he has a fre] field "h1 & fulfils 8 purpose fully4 ,t is ! reason he is unable to be "h to-day4 ,! ,g]mans are lib]at+ _m bewild]$ & fe>-/rick5 s\ls1 & all our great heal]s are held by _! ne$40 ,:5 we spoke ( ways ( f9d+ happ9ess %e said3 8,:o fe>s ! purpose he %\ld s]ve ) =ce de/roys x4 ,fe> n4 ,f9d x1 s]ve x1 & happ9ess ( a positive k9d w f9d y4444 ,y\r =ce is scatt]$ among _m lat5t purposes4 ,f9d ! dom9ant call ( ,progress to y\r s\l1 & foll[ t1 leav+ ! re/ beh9d40 ,aga91 a day or two lat]1 ! pres5t preoccupation ( heal]s on ! next plane 0 m5tion$1 :5 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 :e!r a c]ta9 woman w\ld come at a giv5 "t to meet fri5ds :o _h ask$ = h]4 8,%e may4 ,i %all try to h h] "h10 %e said4 8,h] "w is heal+1 & all our heal]s are work+ con/antly4444 ,%e 0 an arti/ ) y1 & some:at det]r5t4 ,%e has f\nd a new purpose40 ,! day be=e ! la/ ,lessons 7 giv51 ,mayn>d ,holt1 expla9+ to a fri5d ! sev5 purposes1 said3 8,e ,human be+ :o is = progress & con/ruction s]ves "o or m ( ^! purposes4 ,x is by !m t :at y "k z human =ce is ultimately gr\p$ = et]nal advance4 ,our ef=t n[ is to unite all =ces = ,progress 9 consci\s co-op]ation40 ,aft] speak+ ( ,g]many's unity ( purpose1 he w5t on3 8,%e is1 & has be5 = ye>s1 ! c5t] ( =ces & purposes ( dis9tegration 9 y\r life4 ,%e is1 9 !ological p>lance1 ! ally ( 8 ,satanic ,maje/y4 ,we h le>n$ "h t !re is no evil1 p] se4 ,!re is only purpose1 con/ructive or de/ructive4444 ,b ! =ces ( dis9tegration are ga!r+ = a battle ( wits & morals1 & we are emulat+ ,g]many 9 j "o ?+4444 ,we are prep>+4 ,we want y to wake up & realize :at is go+ on4 ,we want e "o ( y to f9d & recognize n only y\r own purpose1 b ! o!r fell['s4 ,f9d out :o is = progress1 & :o m]ely cam\flages dis9tegration4 ,consci\s co-op]ation ( con/ructive purpose is w>rant$ to beat ! devil4 ,he c't defeat x1 nor yet delay x4 7,o7 ,t is :at x means to all ( u4444 ,come on 94 ,! wat]'s f9e60 ,v ,z has be5 said1 our invisible fri5ds h seem$ some:at hazy 9 _! p]ceptions ( "t & place & ( mundane details g5]ally1 & !y h %[n no incl9ation to conc]n !mselves ) our trivial p]sonal affairs4 ,:5 press$ = specific /atem5ts ab\t small details1 _! replies h be5 sometimes 9 exact accordance ) ! fact z we h p]ceiv$ x1 sometimes n1 b !y h r>ely div]g$ widely f ! tru?4 ,9 ! l>g] matt]s directly relat$ to spiritual unity & gr[? !y h be5 correct1 z :5 ,m>y ,k4 explicitly /at$1 ,m>* #bc;d 7already quot$71 t ! ,g]man (f5sive !n 9 progress & up to t "t successful w\ld ultimately fail4 ,on "o occasion1 apropos ( c]ta9 que/ions h] husb& _h ask$1 ,m>y ,k5dal said3 8,we are n "h to satisfy intellectual or any o!r k9d ( curiosity4 ,if we 7 n sure y w\ld use ?is in=mation = con/ruction1 we w\ldn't fuss ab\t x--except y & ,i1 ,manzie40 ,sev]al times dur+ ,m>* & ,april1 h[ev]1 ,m>y ,k4 gave me correct & specific in=mation ab\t v>i\s m9or affairs1 & ^! incid5ts are m5tion$ "h because ,i h be5 ask$ repeat$ly :e!r su* /atem5ts _h be5 made & v]ifi$1 r ?an because undue importance is atta*$ to !m4 ,= example1 ha/5+ to an appo9tm5t "o morn+ 7,m>* #bi?71 ,i c>elessly left my muff 9 a taxicab4 ,discov]+ ! loss an h\r lat]1 ,i telephon$ to ! cab company1 to be told t no report _h be5 receiv$ f ! cabman1 b t !y w\ld try to locate him at "o ( _! v>i\s /&s4 ,x 0 arrang$ t ,i %\ld call at _! (fice = x late 9 ! aft]noon1 _h x be5 f\nd4 ,dur+ lun*eon1 :i* ,i took at a re/aurant1 ,m>y ,k4 indicat$ t %e _h some?+ to say1 & on ! back ( an envelop wrote3 8,y\r muff is f\nd = y40 ,two h\rs lat]1 :5 ,i rea*$ home1 ! muff _h be5 return$ by ! cabman4 ,ano!r incid5t1 less accurate 9 detail1 b sub/antially correct1 conc]n$ ,mr4 ,k5dal & my record-book4 ,hav+ _h1 dur+ 8 brief /ay 9 ,new ,york1 no leisure 9 :i* to read ! record--:i* !n conta9$ only ! g5esis ( ?is exp]i5ce1 ,fr$]ick's fir/ int]views ) 8 "m1 & "s messages f ,m>y ,k5dal n includ$ 9 my lett]s to h] husb&--he _h tak5 ! book away ) him 7,m>* #bj?71 & ?ree or f\r days lat] ,i began look+ = its return4 ,:51 on ! #bi? or #cj? 7exact date n not$71 x _h n arriv$1 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 :e!r %e knew any?+ ab\t x1 & %e repli$ t x _h be5 s5t & w\ld probably rea* me t day4 ,at t "t ! record1 wrapp$ & address$1 lay on 8 desk1 :]e he _h left x ) in/ructions t x be mail$ :5 he left home = ! ,ea/] week-end4 ,x _h be5 ov]look$1 & he f\nd x !re :5 he return$ on ! foll[+ ,monday4 ,app>5tly ,m>y ,k4 p]ceiv$ only 8 int5tion & belief t x 0 on its way to me4 ,on ! #a/ ( ,april %e told me t a lett] conc]n+ ^! communications1 !n sev]al days ov]due1 = :i* ,i wait$ ) great anxiety1 _h at la/ be5 writt54 8,really writt580 ,i ask$4 8,or is ?is "o ( ^? successfully />t$ ?+s y reg>d z accompli%$80 8,really writt540 ,at ! same "t %e promis$ me o!r lett]s1 f p]sons specifically nam$1 & gave me c]ta9 in=mation conc]n+ a memb] ( ! ,gaylord family4 ,two days lat]1 :5 none ( ^! lett]s _h appe>$1 ,i said1 8,:]e are ^? lett]s y promis$ me80 8,! lett]s are com+1 fe>ful & wond]ful mess5g]10 %e humor\sly assur$ me4 8,y h n made a m 444 fr 444 fri5d 444 free 444 fantom 7,o7 fri5d 9 va940 ,laugh+1 ,i ask$3 8,is #8fantom fri5d' "r80 ,%e said x 04 ,half an h\r lat] ! long-delay$ lett] arriv$1 & z %e _h told me1 x 0 dat$ ,april #a/4 ,! o!r lett]s came lat] ! same day1 ! "o f ,mrs4 ,wylie v]ify+ ! in=mation already giv5 by ,m>y ,k4 ab\t a memb] ( h] family4 ,on ,monday1 ,april #a/1 ,i s5t a copy ( ,fr$]ick's rec5t int]views ) 8 "m & si/] to ,mrs4 ,gaylord at ,k----1 hop+ t x might rea* h] by ,w$nesday morn+4 ,w$nesday night ,m>y ,k4 told me t an expect$ lett] f ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h n be5 writt51 add+3 8,%e waits = ! record40 ,a week lat]1 aft] a happy visit 9 ,k----1 ,mrs4 ,gaylord return$ to h] home & notifi$ me t %e _h n receiv$ ! manuscript f me4 ,fe>+ t x _h be5 lo/ 9 ! mails1 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 ab\t x1 & 0 told t x w\ld be receiv$4 ,?is 0 repeat$ at int]vals cov]+ sev]al days4 ,:51 on ,monday1 ,april #ae?1 two weeks f ! day x _h be5 s5t1 x 0 miss+ /ill1 ,i told ,m>y ,k4 t x mu/ h be5 lo/4 8,!y %all h x soon10 %e said4 8,x is n lo/1 b delay$40 8,%all ,i make a duplicate = !m80 8,y mu/ tru/ u40 8,y are positive t x w arrive80 8,yes1 x w40 ,x 0 deliv]$ to ,mrs4 ,gaylord ! foll[+ day1 ,april #af?4 ,on "o occasion ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 ab\t a woman = :om ,i _h be5 reque/$ to arrange an int]view ) a p]son on ! next plane1 b ab\t :om ,i knew no?+ :atev]4 8,%e is det]r5t10 0 ! reply1 & dur+ ! subsequ5t int]view1 = ! fir/ "t s9ce ! beg9n+ ( ?is exp]i5ce1 ,i enc\nt]$ an individual ^: outlook & desire 0 limit$ to ! n>r[ly p]sonal4 ,"o ( ! mo/ /rik+ ( ^! examples ( specific in=mation occurr$ on ! night ( ,tuesday1 ,april #b;d1 ! day ( ! ,s5atorial elections4 ,cass said3 8,ask ,m>y ,k4 :e!r %e w answ] a specific1 mundane "q = me40 ,:5 %e _h writt5 h] "n & indicat$ h] will+ness1 he inquir$3 8,:o 0 elect$ 9 ,wiscons9 to-day1 ,l5root or ,davies80 8,are y !re80 ,i que/ion$1 :5 no reply came4 8,yes40 ,aft] ano!r delay1 :5 ! p5cil w&]$ lightly & aimlessly1 %e wrote3 8,l5root40 ,suppos+ t %e _h f9i%$1 ,i put ! p5cil aside1 b %e summon$ me aga91 to add3 8,l5root elect$ by late/ c\nt4 ,close 9 "s places4 ,we consid] him elect$40 ,cass look$ at 8 wat*4 ,x 0 five m9utes pa/ twelve4 ,! next morn+ our pap]s ann\nc$ ,mr4 ,l5root 9 ! lead1 ) f9al returns n yet receiv$1 & n until ,cass rea*$ 8 (fice did we discov] h[ truly 8exclusive0 our in=mation _h be54 ,he le>n$ !n t ! suburban editions ( sev]al ,new ,york ,city pap]s1 :i* probably w5t to press ab\t ! "t we talk$ to ,m>y ,k41 practically conc$$ ! election to ,mr4 ,davies1 report+ him ahead by returns !n available4 ,( _m o!r specific /atem5ts t 7 ei!r absolutely correct1 or s ne>ly correct t ,mr4 ,k5dal's !ory ( a diff]5ce ( p]ceptive me?od might easily acc\nt = ! error1 "o is notable4 ,on ,sunday1 ,may #ai?1 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 :e!r %e c\ld tell me any?+ ab\t ! project$ ,g]man drive4 8,yes4 ,x w be fi]ce1 b futile4 ,all =ces "h see h] doom1 & ! w> w la/ only z long z unsupport$ human endeavor c endure aga9/ et]nal purpose4 ,g]many has no ally "h4 ,! =ces t h impell$ h] = ^! _m ye>s are ov]p[]$ by _w-purpose1 & h left ,g]many to h] de/ruction1 :ile !y prep>e to de/roy ! f9e/ spiritual fruits ( victory40 ,simil>ly1 :ile writ+ to fri5ds at ! front ( our entire confid5ce 9 ! outcome ( ! ,pic>dy drive !n 9 progress1 ,may #cj?1 ,i paus$ to ask ,m>y ,k4 :e!r %e _h any?+ m to say ab\t ! w>4 8,only t we are ! victors4 ,g]many does n w9 ?is drive1 ei!r4 ,our =ces rally1 & ! end is ne>4 ,defeat ?is "t w leave !m despair+ & afraid40 ,to ?is ,mayn>d ,holt add$1 8,all ! =ces h )/ood ! bl[ & ga!r = ! f9al & decisive defeat ( ,g]many40 ,,vi ,! actual exi/5ce ( intellig5t1 invisible =ces1 con/antly do+ battle = & aga9/ spiritual progress1 ?r\gh possession ( :at we are wont to call our s\ls1 0 at fir/ difficult = me to accept lit]ally1 ! idea be+ 9 direct opposition to my :ole m5tal t5d5cy4 ,:ile ! !ory 0 int]e/+1 x seem$ h>dly cr$ible 9 its specific1 individual application4 ,h[ev]1 ,i 0 soon giv5 a manife/ation ( ! /r5g? & p]t9acity ( ! dis9tegrat+ =ces1 :i*--al?\gh x ultimately /r5g!n$ my conviction1 prov+ highly corroborative--?reat5$ = a "t to end ?is ef=t1 z f> z ,i 0 conc]n$4 ,! la/ two ,lessons 7 giv5 to me on ! #ab? ( ,april1 & x _h be5 arrang$ t ,mr4 ,t----1 ! repres5tative ( a publi%+-h\se1 %\ld come on ! ev5+ ( ! ?irte5? = a demon/ration ( ! communication ) ! next plane4 ,f ! day ?is arrangem5t 0 contemplat$1 frequ5t ass]tions 7 made "u ,m>y ,k4's signature1 conc]n+ ,mr4 ,t---- & 8 attitude t[>d ?is exp]i5ce1 _m ( :i* 7 aft]w>d prov$ untrue1 & all ( :i* ,i d\bt$1 not)/&+ repeat$ pro(s1 already quot$1 ( h] g5]al correctness ( /atem5t4 ,day by day ^! messages grew m confus+1 & ,i less able to acc\nt = !m by any !ory !n =m$4 ,t a delib]ate 8drive0 by malign p[]s 0 9 progress nev] occurr$ to me1 & w\ld h seem$ too absurd to cr$it1 ev5 _h ,i ?\ght ( x4 ,z !re seem$ to be no close tie betwe5 ,mr4 ,t---- & any ( ^? f :om he _h express$ a desire to he>1 no great eag]ness on ei!r side to complete a circle ( :i* ea* 0 a "p1 ,i felt t ! int]view might pres5t difficulties n enc\nt]$ be=e1 & resolv$ to d no writ+ dur+ ! day1 res]v+ my /r5g? = ! ev5+'s "w4 ,9 ! morn+1 h[ev]1 ,i _h occasion to ask ,m>y ,k4 = "s brief in=mation4 ,beg9n+1 z usual1 ) h] signature--some:at halt+ly done--! p5cil wrote quickly1 b erratically3 8,mr4 ,f>r[ is dead40 ,?is man is a bus9ess associate ( ,cass's1 liv+ abroad4 ,/>tl$1 ,i ?\ght ,i mu/ h tak5 ! message incorrectly1 b x 0 repeat$4 8,mr4 ,f>r[ is dead4 ,cass w he> lat]40 ,:5 ,i insi/$ t ?is c\ld n be true1 x 0 reit]at$4 8,yes1 he is "h1 & b 444 blon 444 latt] 444 bewild]$4 ,m>y ,k40 ,our p]sonal relations ) ,mr4 ,f>r[1 :ile pleasant1 h nev] be5 close1 be+ bas$ entirely ^u a bus9ess connection1 & my affections 7 9 no way responsible = my resi/ance to ?is ann\ncem5t1 nor w\ld our p]sonal affairs h be5 9 any way influ5c$ by 8 dea?4 ,b ,i did n believe x4 8,f>r[ is "h ) u4 ,may 444 ,m>y ,k40 ,?is signature 0 sl[ & irresolute1 beg9n+ z ,mayn>d & end+ z ,m>y ,k41 b lack+ ! firmness ( ei!r--an indecision & inconsequ5ce *>act]i/ic1 ,i h s9ce le>n$1 ( dis9tegrat+ =ce 9 ^! invasions4 8,0 he kill$ 9 an accid5t80 8,no4 ,pneumonia4 ,mayn>d4 ,tell ,cass40 8,%all ,i telephone to ,cass n[80 8,no4 ,i am wat*+ ov] him4 ,mayn>d40 ,! use ( ! ^w 8dead0 9 ?is connection 0 surpris+1 s9ce ! :ole tr5d ( =m] communications _h be5 t[>d elim9ation ( ! idea ( dea?4 ,once m ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 if !y 7 sure !re _h be5 no mi/ake4 8,yes4 ,he is dead to y\r life40 8,y mean ,f>r[ ( ,p----8 ,n 8 bro!r8 ,or 8 son80 8,yes1 ,p----4 ,x is true4 ,y w he> soon4 ,cass mu/ g !re40 ,i telephon$ to ,cass1 say+ no?+ ( ?is exp]i5ce1 & f\nd him 9 good spirits1 prov+ t he _h n he>d ( ,mr4 ,f>r['s dea?4 ,return+ to ! p5cil1 ,i told ,m>y ,k4 ,i did n believe ! in=mation 0 correct4 8,yes1 he is dead4 ,a telegram on ! way to ,cass4 ,he w receive x soon4 ,be=e "o o'clock40 ,"s "t lat]1 hav+ he>d no?+ f ,cass1 ,i told ,m>y ,k4 aga9 t !re _h be5 a mi/ake4 8,no1 x is true4 ,mr4 ,f>r[ ( ,p---- is "h ) u4 ,cass w "k 9 a few m9utes4 ,he w telephone40 ,i w>n$ h] !n t my fai? 9 h] v]acity 0 at /ake1 & t :ile ,i c\ld n d\bt t ,fr$]ick1 ,m>y ,k5dal1 ,mayn>d ,holt1 & o!rs1 _h communicat$ ?r\gh me1 ,i c\ld n take ! responsibility ( publi%+ any?+ %e _h told me unless ,i c\ld tru/ h] 9 all ?+s1 add+3 8,if ?is is n true h[ c ,i be sure t any ( x is80 8,m>y ,k4 ,x is true4 ,don't d\bt40 ,i said ,i _h no wi% to d\bt1 b t unless ?is message came f "s o!r ?an ,m>y ,k41 ,i c\ld n believe h] aga91 if x prov$1 z ,i 0 sure x w\ld1 to be untrue4 ,i began to suspect t dis9tegrat+ =ces 7 at "w4 8,x comes f ! con/ructive =ce4 ,be confid5t4 ,x p]plexes y40 ,lat] exp]i5ce has taught me t :ile ei!r =ce may be 9 complete comm& at mom5ts1 dur+ ^! /ruggles = control1 n infrequ5tly a message begun by "o is f9i%$ by ! o!r4 ,dur+ ! ?ree days ( ?is fir/ p]si/5t attack1 h[ev]1 ,i held no key to ! my/]y1 & ! occasional cle>ly con/ructive & *>act]i/ic messages f ,m>y ,k4 & ,mayn>d ,holt m]ely add$ to my bewild]m5t & dismay4 ,yet nev] = "o in/ant dur+ ^? ?ree days did ,i accept ! repeat$ /atem5ts ( ,mr4 ,f>r['s dea? z true4 ,weeks aft]w>d1 ,m>y ,k4 told me :y ,i 0 n deceiv$4 ,s9ce t "t1 too1 ,i h le>n$ m cle>ly to di/+ui% p]sonality by ! degree & quality ( =ce appli$ to ! p5cil1 :i* v>ies greatly ) individuals1 ?\gh x sometimes v>ies 9 ! same individual at diff]5t times4 ,b 9 ! fir/ exp]i5ce x did n occur to me to apply t te/ ( id5tification4 ,all t ,saturday aft]noon ! argum5t w5t on at int]vals1 ,i insi/+ t ,mr4 ,f>r[ 0 n dead1 ! p5cil reit]at+ t he 04 ,at two o'clock ,mayn>d said3 8,believe 9 u1 ,m>g>et4 ,we c help y bett]40 ,x is evid5t n[ t ?is ref]r$ to ! conflict ) ! dis9tegrat+ =ce1 b at ! mom5t ,i misund]/ood x & rem9d$ him ( ! _m specific & inaccurate /atem5ts made1 dur+ ! pa/ few days1 reg>d+ ! man :o 0 com+ t ev5+ by appo9tm5t1 ask+ if ?is 7 m mis9=mation ( ! same sort1 to :i* ! reply 03 8,no1 ,f>r[ is "h4 ,he is daz$1 b w be tak5 c>e (40 ,an h\r lat]1 ,i return$ to ! p5cil1 begg+ !m to tell me1 be=e def9ite in=mation rea*$ me f o!r s\rces1 t !re _h be5 a mi/ake4 8,m>y ,k4 ,y mu/ n d\bt4 ,we %all lose control ( y if y d40 ,:5 ,i said t :at ,i s\ght 0 tru?1 %e said3 8,i "k1 b y d\bt our control1 & weak5 x40 8,i also d\bt my own correctness40 8,y are correct40 ,z1 inde$1 ,i 04 ,h] message rea*$ my consci\sness4 ,at ?ree o'clock ! insi/5ce t ,mr4 ,f>r[ 0 dead cont9u$1 & attempts 7 made to expla9 =m] inaccuracies1 on ! plea ( a diff]5ce 9 plane1 creat+ 8errors 9 t]ms ( f9ite space40 ,%ortly be=e five1 x 0 said t ,cass _h receiv$ news ( ,mr4 ,f>r['s dea?1 & 0 on 8 way home4 ,a few m9utes lat] ,m>y ,k4 w>n$ me aga94 8,y mu/ n d\bt4444 ,y c't be a mess5g] )\t fai?40 8,h[ am ,i to "k :5 y are tell+ ! tru? & :5 x is error80 8,! tru? is ! tru?1 & y mu/ le>n to diff]5tiate betwe5 ! planes40 ,i suspect t %e int5d$ ! la/ ^w to be 8=ces10 & t control 0 wre/$ f h] be=e x 0 writt54 ,res5t+ ! :ole confus$ situation1 & entirely unable to acc\nt = my conviction t ?is message 0 false1 ,i said3 8,if ,cass tells me1 :5 he comes home1 t ,mr4 ,f>r[ is dead1 ,i w believe any?+ y tell me 9 future4 ,if he is n dead1 ,i'll h no?+ fur!r to d ) y or y\r book40 8,m>y ,k4 ,y w g on ) our "w4 ,he is dead40 ,at ?is po9t1 ,cass arriv$4 ,he said t he _h receiv$ nei!r lett] nor cablegram f ,mr4 ,f>r[ = t5 days1 al?\gh an expect$ & important lett] f him 0 "s "t ov]due4 ,?is seem$ to l5d color to ! report ( 8 dea?1 b my conviction 0 un%ak54 ,f ! beg9n+ ( ^! communications ) ! next plane1 al?\gh at times excessively fatigu$1 ,i _h enjoy$ an increas+ m5tal s]5ity1 b ) ! fir/ ann\ncem5t ( ,mr4 ,f>r['s dea?1 ?is _h giv5 way to ! peculi> n]v\s in/ability & appreh5sion inv>iably accompany+ ^! mis*iev\s invasions4 ,by night my m9d 0 9 a turmoil & my n]ves on edge1 my confid5ce %ak51 my fai? 9 ! balance--:i* did n less5 ! difficulties ( an int]view prompt$ *iefly by intellectual int]e/4 ,e/abli%+ connection ) an unfamili> p]sonality is n easy1 at be/1 & frequ5tly "s "t is requir$ to obta9 free communication4 ,on ?is occasion1 in/ead ( devot+ ! ev5+ to p]fect+ "o connection1 sev]al p]sons 7 call$1 all b "o respond+1 & ! messages1 ) "o or two exceptions1 7 unsatisfactory4 ,!re 7 va9 & fatigu+ ef=ts to write a "n unkn[n to any ( u1 & mo/ ( ! ef=ts to obta9 specific evid5tial data 7 unsuccessful4 ,:e!r ?is 0 due to my own lack ( confid5ce1 to int]f]5ce by ! enemy1 or to ! fact t at no "t h ! individuals communicat+ ?r\gh me conc]n$ !mselves ) p]sonal & specific details--except occasionally1 = my own great] conviction--,i d n "k4 ,at midnight1 :5 ?is int]view 0 ov] & we 7 alone1 al?\gh we>i$ to ! po9t ( exhau/ion1 ,i ask$ aga9 ab\t ,mr4 ,f>r[1 receiv+ ! same reply1 ) a v>iation to ! effect t ! cablegram ann\nc+ 8 dea? _h be5 delay$ by ! c5sor1 & ) occasional phrases ( appeal & enc\ragem5t--m]ely int5sify+ my bewild]m5t--f ,m>y ,k4 & ,mayn>d4 8,are y sure y hav5't be5 away & let 9 dis9tegrat+ =ces80 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 8,no1 we h be5 "h4 ,!y c't t\* y\r purpose4 ,don't fe>4 ,y w be p]fectly reassur$ soon10 0 h] reply1 :i*1 _h we b recogniz$ x1 0 an intimation t dis9tegrat+ =ces _h be5 9 p>tial control 9 spite ( all ef=t to ov]come !m4 ,aga9 ,i ask$ :y ! ^w 8dead0 _h be5 us$1 & 0 told3 8,t is :at ! cable to ,cass says40 ,:i* manife/ly did n expla94 ,sunday morn+1 ,mayn>d ,holt's famili> signature came at once1 foll[$ by a long1 p]sonal message to a fri5d :o 0 pres5t1 /eadily writt51 & po9t$ by an occasional *>act]i/ic turn ( phrase1 indicat+ a cle> & un9t]rupt$ connection4 ,:5 ?is _h be5 f9i%$1 ,cass ask$1 8,%all ,i g to ! (fice = t cable80 8,x is n !re40 8,x's all a mi/ake80 ,i urg$4 8,f>r[ is "h40 ,b ,i knew he 0 n !re4 ,_h he be5 pres5t 9 ! fle%1 ,i c\ld n h be5 m c]ta9 t he _h n left ?is plane4 ,all day we discuss$ ! be>+ ( ^! p]si/5t mis/atem5ts--provid$ !y 7 mis/atem5ts--^u ! exp]i5ce z a :ole1 & ,i 0 oppress$1 9 addition to my p]sonal disappo9tm5t1 by a s5se ( my responsibility to ^? o!rs to :om ?is new fai? _h br\ght active happ9ess & hope4 ,i _h arrang$ to g to ,l---- on ! foll[+ ,tuesday1 to sp5d a few days ) ! ,gaylord family2 ,mr4 ,k5dal expect$ to arrive 9 ,new ,york a week or t5 days lat]1 anticipat+ fur!r communication ) 8 wife2 & v>i\s o!r appo9tm5ts 7 p5d+4 ,b ?\gh ,i c\ld nei!r "q ! au!nticity ( =m] p]sonal communications1 nor d5y ! con/ructive quality ( ! ,lessons1 ,i felt t ,i c\ld n cont9ue to act z int]m$i>y if x 7 possible = p]sons l ,m>y ,k4 & ,mayn>d to l5d !mselves to ?is sort ( ?+1 nor c\ld ,i enc\rage o!rs to hold a belief aft] x _h become impossible to me4 ,9 ! aft]noon1 ,m>y ,k4 told me to g to ,l---- z soon z possible4 ,:5 we ask$ ab\t ,mr4 ,f>r[1 ,mayn>d's signature prec$$ ! message4 8,he is "h4 ,:y don't y accept x80 8,i don't "k :y ,i c't10 0 my reply4 8,:y don't y conv9ce my m9d1 z y h at o!r times8 ,:y don't y make me feel x8 ,i c't believe x's true40 8,y h ! /atem5t ( two fri5ds40 8,y've be5 mi/ak5 be=e 9 specific /atem5ts40 8,only 9 ^? relat+ to dim5sions ( f9ite space1 :i* we are unable to gauge accurately40 ,t ev5+1 ,m>y ,k4's signature came fir/4 8,y mu/ see h[ fooli% x 0 to mi/ru/ u10 ! p5cil wrote4 8,mr4 ,f>r[ is "h1 & ,cass w le>n ( x soon40 8,unless y take refuge aga9 9 t diff]5ce ( plane10 ,i comm5t$1 r bitt]ly4 8,:y don't y rememb] x be=e1 in/ead ( aft]1 ! error x creates80 8,because y %\ld n di/ru/ u40 8,b :y n enc\rage me to tru/ y by rememb]+ t diff]5ce ( plane 9 ! fir/ place80 ,i insi/$4 8,:y be s explicit ab\t ?+s y "k may be inaccurately /at$80 8,i d n deceive y int5tionally4 ,we feel t a ?+ c]ta9 ( accompli%m5t is done1 & are frequ5tly misl$ into premature /atem5ts by ! /r5g? ( int5tion1 or purpose1 or movem5t 9 a giv5 direction4 ,we are accurate f our po9t ( view1 & n always able to gauge y\rs40 ,admitt+ ?is to be conceivable1 ,i said3 8,n[ tell me ab\t ,mr4 ,f>r[40 8,mr4 ,f>r[ is "h ) u4 ,:5 ,cass gets to ! (fice 9 ! morn+ he w f9d ! tru?40 ,aga9 ! signature 0 hesitat+ & indef9ite1 fir/ ,mayn>d1 !n ,m>y ,k4 ,i felt t nei!r ( !m wrote x1 b c\ld n reconcile ! frequ5t con/ructive /atem5ts1 urg+ fai? & cont9uance ( ?is "w1 to de/ructive purpose1 nor c\ld ,i und]/& :y1 if ,m>y ,k4 & ,mayn>d 7 pres5t1 !y did n w>n me ( false /atem5ts by malign =ces1 provid$ su* 7 ! case4 ,monday morn+1 ! situation 0 un*ang$1 save t ! /atem5ts 7 slightly elaborat$4 ,repeat$ly ,i ask$ :e!r !y 7 n confus+ ,mr4 ,f>r[ ) "s o!r memb] ( 8 family1 or :e!r !y _h accept$ s]i\s illness z dea?4 ,a curi\s /atem5t foll[$ ?is sugge/ion1 "u ,mayn>d's signature4 8,f>r[ is bo? "h & !re4 ,he is "h 9 ess5ce1 !re 9 body4444 ,he is bo? "h & !re = "s "t aft] dea?40 ,imm$iately aft]w>d1 h[ev]1 :5 ,i said t ?is s\nd$ prepo/]\s1 ,m>y ,k4's "n 0 writt51 )3 8,mr4 ,f>r[ is "h4 ,he is dead to y4 ,actually n[ dead4 ,g to ,l---- at once40 8,i c't g to ,l----1 ) affairs 9 ?is /ate10 ,i told h]4 8,y w "k soon4 ,wait40 ,mayn>d foll[$1 ) an appeal to 8h fai?10 add+3 8,x w be cle> soon40 ,?is w5t on1 at int]vals1 until aft] two o'clock1 :5 ,i _h promis$ an int]view to a woman :o _h n visit$ me be=e4 ,fully resolv$ to tell h] t ,i c\ld take no messages = h]1 ,i made "o la/ attempt to obta9 ! tru? be=e h] arrival--?is "t ) p>tial success4 8,mayn>d4 ,x is a mi/ake 4440 ,at t mom5t1 my gue/ arriv$4 ,i told h] t ,i might be unable to get any satisfactory communications = h]1 b h] daught]1 :o left ?is plane ye>s ago1 came at once1 writ+ /eadily & cle>ly1 ) ! exception ( "o brief int]ruption4 ,%e told h] "m ( ! sev5 purposes & _! mean+1 urg+ h]1 z _h all ! o!rs1 to put h]self consci\sly 9 t\* ) con/ructive purpose1 & to op5 h] m9d & _s to ^? on ! next plane :o 7 eag] to "w ) h]4 ,:5 ,i 0 aga9 alone1 ,i return$ to ! p5cil1 :i* wrote quickly & /rongly3 8,mayn>d4 ,x is a mi/ake ab\t ,f>r[4 ,! 4440 ,"h aga9 ! oppos+ =ces evid5tly ga9$ control4 8,f>r[ "h1 b n y\r ,f>r[40 8,!n :y h y insi/$ t he 0 our ,f>r[80 8,he l$ u to ?9k s40 ,i said ) "s emphasis t ,i want$ a bett] explanation ?an t4 8,mayn>d4 ,y are mess5g] = u only if y tru/ u40 ,a =tnight lat]1 aft] a second1 simil> exp]i5ce1 ,m>y ,k4 told me1 :5 ,i ask$ ab\t ?is fir/ confus$ p]iod3 8,we _h a t]rific /ruggle = y !n4 ,we told y ! tru?1 b ! o!r =ces controll$ ! p5cil4444 ,! =ces ( dis9tegration compell$ u = ! mom5t4 ,we 7 n !irs1 b !y ov]p[]$ & us$ u40 ,e>ly 9 ,june1 :ile prep>+ ?is manuscript1 ,i ask$ h]3 8,0 x y :o wrote1 #8,y mu/ n d\bt4 ,we %all lose control ( y if y d'80 8,yes4 ,we 7 fight+ = y\r fai?40 8,c y tell me :y y did n expla9 !n--:y y h nev] expla9$--t ! enemy _h control80 8,we h c]ta9 limitations 9 conflicts ( ?is nature4444 ,9 actual conflict we c only affirm4 ,rememb] t4444 ,:5 attack$ by dis9tegrat+ =ce1 ! only way we c help y is to call to y\r purpose & to affirm our own4 ,9 y\r individual /ruggle we may n int]f]e1 ev5 :5 x conc]ns our "w4 ,y mu/ believe or d\bt1 accord+ to y\r own *oice4444 ,we _c tell y t dis9tegrat+ =ces ?reat5 y1 until y h recogniz$ !m4 ,!n we c help y repel !m4 ,always we call to y & try to enc\rage y4444 ,y mu/ make y\r own *oice & y\r own d$uctions1 & le>n 9 t way to discrim9ate betwe5 ! =ces appeal+ to y4 ,details ( y\r p]sonal /ruggles may n be expla9$4 ,!y are y\r developm5t40 ,kn[+ no?+ ( all ?is 9 ,april1 h[ev]1 ,i insi/$ ^u a detail$ explanation ( ! ,f>r[ my/]y1 & aga9 ! dis9tegrat+ =ces play$ ^u my d\bt & bewild]m5t1 elaborat+ excuses = ! mi/ake1 9 ,mayn>d's "n4 ,refus+ to accept any ( ^! +5i\s b illogical ass]tions1 ,i cont5d$ t !y 7 unfair to me1 hav+ fir/ specifically volunte]$ ?is errone\s in=mation1 :i* !y n[ attempt$ to acc\nt = by obvi\sly speci\s explanations4 8,we volunte] in=mation p]ta9+ to ! message we h = ! _w ?r\gh y40 ,?is1 x w be p]ceiv$1 0 an affirmation indirectly disclaim+ ! ,f>r[ messages1 b ,i did n s recognize x1 & rem9d$ !m t !y _h reproa*$ me = n tru/+ !m 9 ?is matt]4 8,y are logical )9 y\r limits10 0 ,mayn>d's only reply to t4 8,& y /ill expect me to g on ) y\r "w80 8,y h _h _m manife/ations ( our =ce10 ,m>y ,k4 return$4 8,mr4 ,k5dal w %[ y h[ ?is occurr$40 ,:5 ,i m5tion$1 ) "s heat1 t "s "o w\ld h to %[ me1 z !y _h ask$ me to %\ld] a heavy responsibility 9 ?is matt]1 %e said3 8,y are puzzl$ & fright5$1 b k ( our con/ructive "w ?r\gh y %\ld decide y\r action40 ,rememb]+ h[ fe> & grief & despair1 9 c]ta9 cases1 & cynical indiff]5ce 9 o!rs1 _h be5 bani%$ f ! lives ( ! m5 & wom5 to :om ^! messages _h come1 ,i conc$$ ! con/ructive "w4 8,!n come along & build4444 ,y are unable to di/+ui% ! difficulties "u :i* we "w4 ,_m mess5g]s h fail$ to convey ! message we h tri$ to give4444 ,_m mi/akes happ5 ) ! be/ mess5g]s40 8,0 ?is my mi/ake80 ,i ask$4 8,no4 ,y make only "o mi/ake1 s f>4 ,y %ut u out by d\bt4 ,don't d\bt4 ,we are all work+ = ! same great end40 ,ev5tually1 al?\gh f> f satisfi$ ab\t ! ,f>r[ affair1 ,i decid$ to g to ,l----1 feel+ t if disillusionm5t mu/ come to ! ,gaylord family1 x w\ld bett] come n[ ?an lat]1 b /ill hop+ t "s explanation w\ld be giv5 :ile ,i 0 ) !m4 ,9 ?is ,i 0 disappo9t$4 ,n until a =tnight lat] did ,i ev5 beg9 to und]/& x4 ,b aft] ! fir/ int]view ) ,fr$]ick at ,l----1 ,i wrote ,cass 7,april #ag?73 8,if ev] ,i _h any d\bts ab\t ! tru? ( ?is1 !y are gone6 ,somebody did some?+ ,i don't und]/&1 b ?is is real40 ,i h giv5 ?is exp]i5ce 9 "s detail1 n only because x corroborates ! /atem5ts t malevol5t & crafty =ces are ab\t u1 /riv+ to ?w>t progressive ef=t1 b because x seems also to (f] at lea/ a p>tial explanation ( ! inconsi/5cies & contradictions t long h baffl$ & disc\rag$ inve/igators ( psy*ic ph5om5a4 ,obvi\sly1 until ! id5tity & "* ( ! invisible communicat+ p]sonality h be5 e/abli%$ & cle>ly recogniz$1 & ! purpose prompt+ ! communication manife/$ ?r\gh a s]ies ( exp]im5ts1 x is unsafe to rely ^u in=mation receiv$ 9 ?is way4 ,& x is equally obvi\s t =ces ( dis9tegration c\ld sc>cely f9d a m fruitful me?od ( implant+ 9 ! human m9d d\bt & cynicism conc]n+ ! possibility ( obta9+ au!ntic & enlight5+ revelations f planes beyond1 ?an by contradict+ & confus+ su* messages1 or by delib]ately mislead+ ! applicant = in=mation4 ,lat] exp]i5ce br\ght fur!r demon/ration ( ! dilig5ce ( ! s9i/] purposes1 toge!r ) great] k ( ways to defeat !m4 ,,vii ,be=e beg9n+ ! ,gaylord int]views at ,l---- 7,april #ag?71 ,m>y ,k4 ask$ me n to tell ! family ! details ( ! ,f>r[ episode4 8,are y ev] go+ to expla9 t cle>ly80 ,i ask$4 8,n until y "k m ab\t ^! conditions40 ,t night1 = ! fir/ "t1 ,i saw a photograph ( ,fr$]ick4 ,dur+ ! ye> ( h] grief & despair ,mrs4 ,gaylord _h be5 unable to be> ! add$ poignancy ( a portrait's sugge/ion1 & only :5 ,i arriv$1 to manife/ 8 actual pres5ce 9 ! family circle1 0 ! hidd5 photograph--a s+ul>ly lifelike & virile reproduction--br\ght to light4 8,hooray60 he began1 aft] ! cu/om>y signature4 8,"h we are aga91 all ( u toge!r at la/6 ,dad6 7,o70 ,x w be rememb]$ t ?is 0 ! fir/ "t t ei!r 8 fa!r or 8 y\ng] si/]1 ,lois1 _h witness$ ^! manife/ations4 8,y h be5 ! "o ,i want$ mo/1 aft] ,"m4 ,! girls ,i knew ,i c\ld get sometime1 = ?is is ! future = ev]ybody ) purpose1 & ,i knew !y'd come to "k me aga9 soon4 ,b y & ,"m de>e/ ,i _h to h 7,o7 "r n[4 ,y bo? ne$ ?is k & int]c\rse z mu* z ,i d4 ,! full] developm5t t comes !re ) age & exp]i5ce1 & "h--:]e !re is no age except exp]i5ce1 makes me ne>] to y & ,"m 9 feel+ & outlook ?an ,i am to ! girls & ,dick4 ,n t ,i am n "o ) all ( y4 ,b be+ "h has %[$ me ! reasons = ! ?+s--protective1 ov]see+1 f>-see+ ?+s--t y /& =1 & h le>n$ !re ?r\gh y\r exp]i5ce 9 t prelim9>y life4 ,s we are a lot ne>] ( an age ?an we us$ to be4 ,n[ we are (f toge!r aga91 & !re is no reason1 unless somebody backslides1 :y we c't keep /ep ?r\gh ! c\ntless aeons ( et]nity4444 ,"m de>e/1 ?is "t ,i sure am 94 ,?ank y = putt+ me on ! mantel4 ,i l x4 ,com+ home is lots happi] bus9ess n[4 ,x us$ to make me sorry to see y all s sad4 ,b ?is is bully6444 ,dad1 look happy = ! boy6 ,he's "h = keeps n[40 ,mr4 ,gaylord _h g5]ally spok5 ( ,fr$]ick1 dur+ 8 life "h1 z 8! ,boy40 ,i _h nev] he>d him use any o!r "n4 8,c y give y\r fa!r ! pro( ( y\r pres5ce t y give me80 8 "m ask$4 8,n only by writ+1 b by ! feel+ 9 8 he>t80 8,i w 9 "t4 ,rememb]1 he hasn't yet gr[n us$ to ?is communion4 ,x hits ev]ybody h>d1 at fir/1 & ?is flu5cy is inconceivable to any "o :o has n se5 & felt x at fir/ h&4 ,give u "t to get us$ to x1 & ,dad w be z fully 9 t\* ) me & my life z he ev] 0 :5 ,i liv$ !re4 ,! %ock & grief ( my suppos$ dep>ture are tak+ =ce f him /ill1 b he'll see1 j z y h1 t ,i am ! bett] & bigg] = ?is "o great exp]i5ce1 & t ,i nev] 0 s deeply & truly a "p ( 8 life4444 ,come on1 n[ ev]ybody talk6 ,i sure d prea*1 b y call$ ! turn ! o!r day1 ,"m de>e/4 ,x's my job to get ?is across1 fir/ to y :o are my own1 & ?r\gh y to e "o y c rea*4 ,x's all our jobs40 ,bo? ,mrs4 ,gaylord & ,lois _h _h "s success 9 e/abli%+ communication ) ! next plane1 ?r\gh ! p5cil--obta9+ deta*$ words1 & "s names4 ,& ! =m] n[ ask$3 8,:]e 7 y ,sunday8 ,i tri$ to get y40 8,i _h a big job1 attack+ a pro-,g]man newspap] editor 9 ,s\? ,africa4 ,he didn't give 91 ei!r1 b we'll get him yet4 ,he doesn't fight op5ly4 ,he poses z a ,ph>isee1 b he's really pro-,g]man1 & ?anks ,god he is l o!r ,g]mans40 ,lois ask$ :e!r !re are any pro-,g]mans :]e he is1 & he repli$ t dis9tegrat+ =ce is 8pro-any?+ t de/roys40 ,dur+ 8 la/ illness1 "o ( 8 div]sions _h be5 to plan ) 8 fa!r a long j\rney !y 7 to take toge!r :5 he %\ld be convalesc5t4 ,n[1 aft] a pause1 he wrote sl[ly & di/9ctly1 z if to emphasize ! delib]ation ( 8 int5tion3 8,dad1 d y rememb] t trip we 7 go+ to take8 ,y take x ) ,"m "s day1 & ,i'll g ) y1 & we'll d all ! ?+s we plann$4 ,& ,i c tell y1 if y w j let me 9 & li/51 all ! ?+s y want to he>4 ,we don't ne$ a mess5g]1 y & ,i1 b z long z ,i c't get to y any o!r way1 ,i'll use "o4 ,i c help y actually--physically1 m5tally1 spiritually1 mat]ially--z = s _m ye>s y help$ me4 ,x 0 due to y & ,"m t ,i got su* a good />t "h4 ,n[ ,i am "h1 x is = all ( u /ill1 z x always 04 ,b x's my turn to lift a little4 ,y c>ri$ me = ye>s4 ,let me come 9 aga9 n[1 z a real1 exi/+1 active1 gr[+ =ce--y\r son1 sir1 want+ to be ne>] & m intimately y\rs ?an ev]4 ,y g on & take our trip1 & ,i promise ,i'll g ) y4 ,fr$]ick40 ,a little lat]1 he said3 8,i wi% !re c\ld be any way ( %[+ y visibly ! radiant =ce ,i am1 n[ t we are all unit$4 ,y h to be translat$ to ?is plane be=e y c und]/& :at x means to be br\ght back into ! family circle4 ,n all families1 b ours4 ,we are all ( k9dr$ purposes1 & !re's no sep>at+ u40 8,i wi% y'd d "s ( y\r #8/unts' = ,fa!r10 ,lois sugge/$4 8,all "r4 ,if y want /unts1 "h is my be/ "o40 ,?is 0 writt5 briskly1 upside d[n & backw>d f my position4 8,dad1 ?is is ! way ,i wrote ! lett] to y & ! girls4 ,"h's ano!r1 ) my love & greet+4 ,i said ,i'd d ?is ) trimm+s4 ,?is is ! beg9n+40 ,we gave him fre% pap]1 & he wrote rapidly1 9 w9d+ circles1 />t+ at ! edge ( ! table & f9i%+ at ! c5t]3 8,n[ ,i'll d x ?is way1 all ar\nd ! family circle4 ,all ( y 91 & ,i am n left out40 ,diagonally across ! :ole 9 bold script1 8,fr$]ick40 ,9 mov+ ! pap] aga91 x 0 torn a little4 ,mr4 ,gaylord made "s sugge/ion z to ! way x %\ld be h&l$1 & ,lois humor\sly compla9$ t he 0 8always int]f]+ ) o!r p's purposes40 ,beg9n+ at ! upp] "r-h& corn] ( ! table1 ,fr$]ick wrote along ! edges1 & !n 9 circles t[>d ! c5t]1 z indicat$ 9 ! diagram3 ,illu/ration 8,don't y m9d1 ,dad4 ,let !m laugh4 ,y & ,i w be laugh+ at !m pres5tly1 f all f\r po9ts ( ! compass40 ,aga9 8 "n 0 sign$ diagonally across ! :ole4 8,i always did l circuses1 & ,i c be a f\r-r+$ "o n[1 all by myself1 if ,i h a sympa!tic audi5ce10 0 8 next a*ievem5t1 done once m 9 circles f edges to c5t]1 b ?is "t 8 "n 0 sign$ 9 ! c5t]1 9 small script1 surr\nd$ by a fl\ri%4 ,:5 aga9 a cle> surface (f]$1 he drew a l>ge circle ar\nd ! edge ( ! table--! symbolism ( :i*1 curi\sly1 occurr$ to none ( u until ! next day--& !n ran to ! c5t]1 to circle t[>d ! edge3 8,all ( u toge!r aga91 & all be+ happy 9 ! consci\sness t ?is is real & et]nal union1 & t f n[ on we are go+ to keep our family circle intact40 ,"s "o sugge/$ t unque/ionably he 0 keep+ 8 promise to 8d x ) trimm+s10 & 9 an intricate patt]n1 impossible to describe cle>ly1 he repli$3 8,sure6 ,i'm do+ all ! trimm+s ,i c ?9k (1 & aft] a m9ute or two ,i'll ?9k ( m40 ,by ?is "t ! a/oni%m5t & curiosity ar\s$ by ^! p]=mances _h p]ceptibly l[]$ ! emotional pressure1 & ! int]view aga9 proce$$ m normally4 ,n unnaturally1 9 ?is fir/ family reunion ,fr$]ick's messages 7 *iefly p]sonal4 ,frequ5tly1 9 pauses1 he made en?usia/ic little circles1 z has be5 8 cu/om f ! fir/1 & ,i ask$ him :e!r x 0 ! circle ( inf9ity1 all-inclusive4 8,yes1 p>tly4 ,put out all di/urb+ factors & all =ces ( dis9tegration1 add m to et]nity & inf9ity--& t is ! circle40 8,good night10 he said1 a little lat]4 8,i'll /ay "h to-night & z long z ,m>g>et /ays4 ,y'll talk (t51 won't y80 ,! next night1 he began ) a sugge/ion t ! re/ d ! talk+1 add+3 8,i'll li/5 & answ] que/ions40 ,aft] "s discussion ( purpose1 9 its p]sonal application1 & inquiries conc]n+ o!r memb]s ( ! family on 8 plane1 ,mr4 ,wylie ask$ :e!r 8 gr&fa!r c\ld talk to him 9 ?is way4 8,i c get him1 ,i ?9k1 by to-morr[10 ,fr$]ick repli$4 8,he's %elt]+ a lot ( poor1 undevelop$ wret*es :o h come out ( conditions n mak+ = fitness or gr[?4 ,he tea*es1 & urges1 & (f]s !m opportunity1 & is too busy & helpful to come away (t540 ,aft] ?is _h be5 writt51 ,i 0 told t ?is man1 dur+ 8 e>?ly life1 _h devot$ "t & money to provid+ opportunity = o!rs2 nev] (f]+ *>ity1 b build+ roads t ! unemploy$ might h "w1 ex*ang+ "s commodity ne$$ by a poor man = "s o!r ( :i* he _h en\gh & to sp>e1 & always enc\rag+ 8 less =tunate fell[s to reta9 & develop _! self-respect4 ,( ano!r on 8 plane1 n[ a heal]1 ,fr$]ick said3 8,i hav5't se5 him4 ,e heal+ =ce "h1 z ) y1 is occupi$ ) w>-/rick5 =ces4 ,!y come s daz$1 & sometimes t]rifi$--& almo/ always />tl$1 if !y come f battle4 ,& all our heal+ =ces are requir$ e m9ute40 ,?is rem9d$ ,mrs4 ,gaylord ( an exp]i5ce ( h] own1 a few days be=e1 :5 h] p5cil _h writt5 deta*$ words1 sugge/ive ( battle4 8,lo/ 444 _m lo/ 444 ano!r dead 444 %ot 4440 etc4 ,%e ask$ :e!r ?is came f a fri5d1 & 0 answ]$ 9 ! negative4 ,to h] inquiry1 8,did y live "h80 ! reply 03 8,ne>40 ,%e ask$ = ! "n1 & x 0 writt5 cle>ly1 8,k----40 ,a few days lat] ! "n ( ,lieut5ant ,k----1 ( a neighbor+ city1 head$ ! ,am]ican casualty li/4 8,k---- caught 8 "o *ance be=e 8 consci\sness dimm$10 ,fr$]ick comm5t$4 8,he is n[ too bewild]$ to talk4 ,j aft] :at p :o don't "k call dea?1 !re is a mom5t ( s+ul> cl>ity & vision4 ,he happ5$ to cat* y 9 t mom5t40 ,we fell to wond]+1 !n1 :e!r ^! messages c\ld be fla%$ to u f a di/ance1 or :e!r ! p]son communicat+ mu/ be pres5t1 & ,i ask$ ,fr$]ick :e!r he c\ld s5d me a message f a di/ance4 8,no1 b we travel 9 a fla%40 ,we :o _h _h "s exp]i5ce 9 receiv+ ^! communications spoke ( ! fe> we all _h le/ we might unconsci\sly influ5ce ! p5cil1 at times1 to write our own imag9+s4 8,y p h su* a fe> ( imag9+ ?+s t y %ut out a lot we try to tell y10 ,fr$]ick int]polat$4 8,we c't get ?r\gh d\bt1 bitt]ness1 res5tm5t1 or selfi% grief4 ,fe> c be conqu]$1 b d\bt %uts ! door 9 our faces4 ,please relax a little ( ?is too rigid vigilance1 & at lea/ ent]ta9 ! idea we are try+ to put ov]40 8,d ,i %ut ?+s out by too mu* vigilance80 ,i ask$4 8,y bet y d6 ,b y d x = ! be/ ( reasons4 ,y c't take *ances ( giv+ ! wrong message40 ,to a "q ab\t ! desire ( o!rs on 8 plane to communicate ) ^? "h1 he repli$3 8,!y are all eag] to get 9 t\*1 j n[4 ,e "o ( u "h is pull+ e ?read ( connection he c !re1 because ?is is a critical "t & because nev] be=e 9 ! _w's hi/ory h s _m p be5 rea*+ out = ! ?+ t means co-op]ation & progress1 9 ! bigge/ & broade/ s5se1 if we c only rea* !m & conv9ce !m t we are all work+ toge!r1 & t we "h c help if !y w let u40 ,mr4 ,wylie spoke ( "s "o ^: 8make-up10 he ?\ght1 might enable him to receive ^! communications4 8,make-up has a lot to d ) x10 ,fr$]ick return$1 8b ! peculi> quality ( foll[+ accurately a ?\ght put =? by a =ce s subtle t sci5ce has fail$ to detect x is a ?+ t none ( y recognize until x has demon/rat$ itself40 ,"s "o ask$ ab\t a prom95t politician1 :om ,fr$]ick _h kn[n well 9 ?is life1 & he repli$3 8---- is work+ 8 way back to a place 9 ! =ces ( ,production4 ,he _h a great opportunity1 & us$ x = p]sonal ends1 & n[ he is le>n+ h[ to use x = ,progress4 ,he is n de/ructive1 nor ev5 det]r5t4 ,he is a f9e =ce1 delay$ a little40 8,h y ev] se5 my "m & fa!r80 ,mr4 ,gaylord ask$1 !reby elicit+ ! mo/ rapidly writt5 communication--) ! possible exception ( "o com+ ! next night--t ,i h ev] tak51 ! =ce mov+ ! p5cil be+ s /rongly appli$1 at mom5ts1 t ! in/rum5t 0 almo/ pull$ out ( my f+]s4 ,x %\ld be expla9$ t 9 ?is appeal to 8 fa!r ,fr$]ick 0 address+ nei!r reluctance nor d\bt1 b a c]ta9 m5tal t5sity1 result+ f deep emotion1 deeply repress$4 8,yes1 ,i _h ,gr&mo!r at ,mrs4 ,z----'s "o day10 he began4 8,%e is v anxi\s to talk to y1 b %e has gone on to a life1 or a plane1 beyond ! "o ,i am on1 & ,i c't always rea* h]4 ,i hope to get h] "s "t be=e ,m>g>et goes home4444 ,%e nev] :olly left y1 any m ?an ,i h4 ,%e tri$ = ye>s to tell y %e 0 !re1 & %e wants to come back z soon z possible & tell y h]self t !re is no dea?1 no sep>ation1 no cause = pa91 or grief1 or fe>1 or sadness ( p>t+1 except z x is made 9 ! he>ts ( ^? :o d n "k ! tru?4 8,we are ne>] to y ?an y are to ea* o!r1 ,dad1 & we c prove x1 if y w let g ( y\rselves & take hold ( u4 ,we want to come to y4 ,we d come to y4 ,we try & try to tell y t !re is no?+ to grieve ab\t1 no?+ to dread4 ,only love1 & hope1 & gr[?1 & beauty ( complet] union4 ,b we c't d x alone4 ,we mu/ h a free he>t1 a free m9d1 a free hope to come into4 ,give u t1 & we w %[ y t we are m truly y\r own--n y\r own fle% & blood1 b y\r own purpose & =ce1 :i* 0 "o 9 ! beg9n+1 & w inevitably be "o 9 ! end4 ,we want to make x "o n[4 ,don't y1 ,dad8 ,won't y try to let ! b>s d[n & take u 98 ,we'll come1 & we'll all be happi] ?an y've ev] be5 9 all y\r life yet1 because ! ,et]nal ,purpose is ,unity1 & we c beg9 x "r "h & n[1 if y !re w jo9 u & be "p ) u1 z we ) y1 ( ! glori\s & happy & 7,o7 irresi/ible movem5t t[>d ! great end--:i*1 aft] all1 is n an end1 b an et]nal & inf9ite gr[? t[>d bigg] ?+s4 8,x is a big gospel we are giv+ y1 sir2 a man's gospel2 a gospel ( hope & beauty & con/ruction4 ,& ,i am ask+ y to let me come 9 aga9 to y\r e-day life1 to let ! dread & misgiv+ & unhapp9ess g1 to ?9k ( u "h--all ( u :o are y\rs--z /ill y\rs1 /ill ) y1 /ill lov+ & work+ & hop+ ) y & = y2 & if y c d t1 ,i promise y we %all all be happi] ?an any ( u h ev] be5 be=e4 8,y see1 sir1 we are all ( ! =ces ( ,progress4 ,we are all = ,light1 & ,build+1 & ,ju/ice1 & ,tru?1 & :5 "o ( u holds back we are all held back4 ,?is is ! fir/ "t x has be5 possible to tell y all ?is4 ,?is is ! fir/ "t we h be5 able to rea* y freely1 9 a way y c\ld n mi/ake4 ,b ! p :o h prea*$ ! gospel ( happ9ess z a curative =ce h n be5 entirely wrong4 ,!y h n be5 :olly "r4 ,b ! =ces "h _c possibly affect a t5se & resi/+ m9d z !y c a relax$ & receptive "o4 ,& ! =ces "h are pot5t & eag] & ready4 ,y "k t mu/ be true1 because ,i am "o ( !m1 & ! only *ange 9 me--absolutely ! only "o1 ,dad--is t ,i h left ! limitations ( ! fle% beh9d & gr[n 9 p]ception & k4 ,i am ! same ,boy1#h plus ! bett] ?+s1 & m9us ! limitations4 8,gr&mo!r is ! same1 too--plus4 ,%e is sweet]1 f9]1 broad]1 m lov+1 ?an :5 y knew h]4 ,j z %e 01 b exp&$1 irradiat$1 deep5$4 ,t's all t dea? means1 s y see x isn't dea? at all1 nor sep>ation1 nor any?+ b beauty1 & great] love1 & wid] opportunity1 & high] ideals to live to4 8,?is is :at we want to %>e ) y4 ,we c1 n[4 ,y c h a little ( our k1 :ile /ill 9 t prelim9>y life4 ,y c help u & y\rselves by realiz+ & liv+ ! purpose t is ours4 ,y h always liv$ x1 b y hav5't always recogniz$ x4 ,d t1 recognize x1 recognize u1 let u 9 z recogniz$ & ess5tial p>ts ( y\r life & hope & happ9ess1 & ,i %all n ne$ to tell y t ?is is a true gospel4 ,y w h prov$ x = y\rself4 8,y\r son always1 8,,fr$]ick40 ,we 7 all deeply mov$4 ,aft] a little1 ,mr4 ,gaylord ask$3 8,is !re any?+ m80 ,fr$]ick began mak+ circles1 & 8 "m said3 8,he's s happy60 8,happy isn't ! ^w = x6 ,i'm p]sonifi$ radiance & bliss6 ,!re isn't any?+ m to-night1 except my love to all ( y1 always--& to-morr[1 & ! next day1 & all ! days to come1 we are reunit$ & indivisible4 ,t's en\gh1 isn't x1 sir8 ,good night4 ,,fr$]ick40 ,,viii ,! next day1 t gr&fa!r = :om ,mr4 ,wylie _h ask$ came briefly1 discuss+ purpose1 l ! re/4 8,i didn't half und]/& my own impulses !re10 he said1 8b ,i "k n[ t ! be/ ?+ a man c d = o!r m5--& = himself1 too--is to give !m a *ance to develop :atev] is 9 !m4 ,sometimes x isn't mu*1 f ! po9t ( view ( ! intellig5t man1 b ! fact rema9s t x is =ce1 & ! m quickly x is develop$ ! m quickly ! sum ( ! :ole w be rais$40 ,he clos$ m p]sonal assurances by say+3 8,!re may be no way to put x into words1 b y may be sure ,i am wat*+1 & help+1 & be+ help$1 too1 by y\r rea*+ t[>d our common purpose40 ,:5 ,fr$]ick _h tak5 ov] ! p5cil aga91 ,mrs4 ,gaylord spoke ( ! long message to 8 fa!r ! night be=e1 to :i* he repli$3 8,x 0 only a beg9n+4 ,?is ?+ we h to tell y c't be giv51 nor yet accept$1 9 a day or a mon?4 ,t lett] la/ night 0 a sort ( =eword1 j to get u all />t$ ev54 ,! pro( ( ! pudd+ is com+ lat]40 ,"s m or less p]sonal discussion foll[$1 dur+ :i* ,mr4 ,gaylord ask$ :e!r c]ta9 arrangem5ts he contemplat$ mak+ 7 wise4 ,fr$]ick repli$ t !y 71 z f> z he c\ld see1 add+3 8,?is is h>dly a "t = mak+ p]man5t arrangem5ts1 = :ile ! end ( ! w> is c]ta91 ! economic conditions ) y1 foll[+ ! w>1 are impossible n[ to =esee4 ,we h no way ( kn[+ h[ t /ruggle betwe5 labor & capital1 p[] ( f\ndation & p[] ( developm5t1 w end4 ,t is "o ( ! reasons we are s eag] to get all =ces = true progress unit$ n[4 ,!re are ?\s&s ( labor+ m5 misl$4 ,get !m 9 = our "w4 ,!re are hundr$s ( employ]s ignorant or indiff]5t4 ,turn !m out40 ,mr4 ,gaylord1 :o _h n at t "t read ! ,lessons c>efully1 int]pret$ ?is z *ampion%ip ( ! cause ( labor z oppos$ to capital4 ,"s "o else sugge/$ t e "o1 employ] or labor]1 :o 0 n = unit$ progress1 %\ld be 8turn$ out40 8,sure10 ,fr$]ick answ]$4 8,turn out ! unions1 z !y "w n[4 ,get 9 unity1 reg>dless ( class40 ,:5 ,mrs4 ,gaylord inquir$ ab\t a memb] ( h] own family1 he repli$3 8,he has gone on1 & ,i hav5't se5 him4 ,to "s ( u "h !re comes a less5+ ( int]e/ 9 y\r life1 & an int5sifi$ feel+ ( ! importance ( "w beyond y\r plane4 ,he has ?is int]e/1 ,i he>1 & v r>ely comes back n[4 ,!re is a lot ,i want to tell y "s "t ab\t ! diff]5ces & conditions ( ! _m planes1 b ,i c't d x n[4 ,! fir/ "w ( ^? ( u :o h /ill close ties !re is to give y all we c ( ! possibilities & mean+ ( ! life y live4 ,"s day ,i'll tell y :at ,i c ( ! life ahead1 :i* z yet ,i only aspire to40 8,i suppose !re's no use ask+ :e!r y inhabit space1 or planes1 or />s80 ,lois inquir$4 8,!re are ?+s t ,i c tell y lat] ab\t ^? matt]s ( plane & future progress10 he said1 8b !re is s mu* t is m imp]ative n[ t ,i am told n to tell m1 at pres5t1 ?an ! imm$iate ne$s ( y\r life require40 8,d y feel any depression1 :5 y realize ! imm5sity ( ! univ]se & ! smallness ( ea* individual80 0 ! next "q4 8,t's a ?+ y've got to le>n4 ,!re is no =ce t is n true =ce1 & no atom s small t its weight doesn't c\nt4 ,if "o atom is = de/ruction1 t means two atoms lo/ to con/ruction1 ! "o t is aga9/ u & ! "o t balances x "h1 )\t any =w>d movem5t40 8,h y se5 my fa!r80 ,mr4 ,gaylord ask$4 8,no4 ,he is a heal] n[1 & has come back f ! plane beyond to help ! newly arriv$ f9d _! balance4 ,i h tri$ to get 9 t\* ) him1 b he is busy & ,i hav5't yet met him1 b /ill hope to4 ,few come back = any "w "h1 & _! great] k makes !m v mu* 9 dem&1 j z a great surgeon is ) y 9 times l ^!40 ,aga9 ! talk turn$ into m p]sonal *annels1 & ,mr4 ,gaylord ask$ a specific "q1 affect+ future arrangem5ts4 8444 ,y\r *oice w be influ5c$1 probably1 by _m consid]ations1 z *oice mu/ always be 9 y\r life4444 ,i c influ5ce y 9 ways ,i c't def9e 9 words1 b ,i c't prop]ly tell y h[ to *oose--z y "k bett] ?an ,i4 ,y taught me t1 & x's true4 ,e fell[ on 8 own feet4444 ,n t ,i'm n eag] to help1 sir4 ,y und]/& t1 don't y8 ,b ! way ,i c help mo/ is by a close & con/ant association & sugge/ion1 t /ill /ops %ort ( def9ite expression ( *oice = y4 ,t is y\r privilege4 ,m9e is to help y see ! way m cle>ly40 8,d y "k :at we are ?9k+1 at all times80 8,n always4 ,we read mo/ ( ! ?\ght ( ! sympa!tic =ces1 & "s ( ev]ybody's4 ,i c't always answ] ! ?\ght ,i read1 ?\gh ,i c sometimes4 ,b ,m>g>et keeps up su* a /iff gu>d1 ,i c't always get ov] a ?+ %e doesn't "k is ask$40 ,i said ,i 0 sorry = t1 & did n und]/& x1 z ,i ?\ght ,i _h l[]$ all gu>ds z f> z he 0 conc]n$4 8,y c't und]/& all ! b>ricades--& ! limitations1 too--( consci\sness4 ,sometimes ,i sneak "o ?r\gh on y1 b y are f ,miss\ri1 all "r6 ,y want to see ! works be=e y admit ! applicant40 ,aft] d9n]1 we talk$ a little ab\t ! publication ( ^! communications1 & ( ! ext5t to :i* p]sonal messages %\ld be quot$4 ,z soon z we gave him opportunity1 ,fr$]ick said3 8,y p c't guess :at x means to he> y talk+ ab\t me1 9 ! old1 happy way4 ,i've miss$ myself t]ribly1 y "k4444 ,y've be5 talk+ ab\t ! book4 ,if y'll p]mit a sugge/ion f me1 ! plan ( copi\s quotation f all ! int]views t h be>+ on ! big message1 z well z "s *>act]i/ic extracts f ! m p]sonal messages1 "u initials frankly sub/itut$ = real ones1 is to my notion ! way to d x4444 ,a good deal ( :at we h be5 all[$ to say 0 because ?is message 0 giv5 ?r\gh ,m>g>et1 & ! re/ ( u h told ?+s t illum9e & c>ry on ! message = ! _w4 ,we h all want$ y ( our own to "k ^! ?+s1 b ! *annels ?r\gh :i* ?is has come to h] h be5 *os5 = h] full] conviction1 & to enable h] to deliv] ?is ) great] =ce40 ,9 ?is connection1 x is int]e/+ to note t 9 e in/ance :5 messages ( importance h come1 x has be5 dur+ int]c\rse prim>ily reque/$ by ^? gone be=e1 :o h ask$ me to s5d = ! p]son "h ?r\gh ^: co-op]ation ! free/ communication c\ld be e/abli%$--,fr$]ick writ+ m flu5tly to "s memb] ( 8 family ?an to me alone1 ,m>y ,k5dal to ,mansfield1 ,david ,bruce to 8 wife1 & s on4 ,conv]sely1 int]views arrang$ at ! in/igation ( p]sons on our own plane h be5 g5]ally )\t satisfactory result4 8,we :o c tell x cle>ly1 & :om %e c absolutely id5tify10 ,fr$]ick w5t on1 8h _h extraord9>y flu5cy1 & almo/ unlimit$ au?ority to speak4 ,we h spok5 to our own1 & ?r\gh !m to all :o w li/54 ,keep ! p]sonal "p ( all we h said z sacr$ly to y\rselves z y l1 b my own desire is t ! p>ts ( my messages t w c>ry conviction or com=t to p suff]+ 9 ignorance ( all ?is may be giv5 to !m ?r\gh y--z y\r fai? & conviction w lead y to d1 ,i "k--n 9 y\r "n or m9e1 b 9 ! _s ( light1 heal+1 & progress we all s]ve40 ,:5 ?is 0 con/ru$ z an intimation t he did n want 8 "n us$1 he return$3 8,i h no slighte/ objection4 ,i h only a feel+ t ?is p]sonal revelation belongs to y4 ,use x z y *oose4 ,i d n ask any?+1 except t y %>e its ess5ce ) ^? :o suff] z y h suff]$4 ,give !m :at w relieve !m1 & d x z y ?9k be/40 ,at ?is po9t1 ! "q ( publication 0 dropp$1 ?\gh he return$ to x ! next day4 ,a %ort pause foll[$4 ,!n ! t\* on ! p5cil *ang$1 ,fr$]ick's bold] writ+ be+ succe$$ by a smoo!r1 m fl[+1 & exce$+ly rapid script1 9 a message to ,mr4 ,gaylord f 8 "m1 = ^: e>ly dea? he _h nev] ceas$ to grieve4 8---- de>1 ?is is ,"m4 8,fr$]ick told me ,i c\ld rea* y at la/4 ,i h _h always ! greate/ desire to t\* y1 to tell y t y\r "m c\ld n leave y1 c\ld n cease to love y1 c\ld n leave (f wat*+ ov] y1 hop+ = y1 gu>d+ y\r highe/ hopes & ideals4 ,to h kn[n ! d>kness t fell ^u y1 & to be unable to light5 x1 or to soo! y\r angui%1 made me z sad z "o c be 9 ?is f9e & ev]la/+ly exp&+ life4 ,i knew t y mu/ "s day come back to me1 & into full k ( all t et]nal life means1 s ,i c\ld be> x4 8,y h be5 always a joy & a s\rce ( great happ9ess to me1 9 y\r spl5did adh]5ce to ! ?+s we "k n[ to be ! fir/ & fundam5tal pr9ciples ( life4 ,we did n "k1 :5 ,i 0 ) y1 all ! wond]s & beauties ( ! et]nal life we talk$ ab\t4 ,we ?\ght heav5 0 q diff]5t f ?is4 ,b x is heav51 9 a mu* high] & f9] way ?an any?+ we dream$ ( !n1 & to be able to come back to y n[--to my boy1 ?r\gh 8 boy--& tell y all ?is1 is almo/ z wond]ful & bless$ to me z x is to y4 8,i h gone on to a life & a "w ,i _c easily expla9 to y n[4 ,i h lo/ t\* ) ! mat]ial ?+s ( y\r life4 ,b y1 y\r purpose1 y\r a*ievem5t ( =ce1 ! love y h nev] ceas$ to give me1 ! love ) :i* y bless & are bless$ by y\r family--all ^! ?+s ,i "k1 de>1 & h always kn[n4 8,= s long1 ,i tri$ to tell y n to grieve4 ,we h be5 s close toge!r1 9 ! ways t are real & inf9ite4 ,nev] grieve aga91 de> son1 = any lov$ "o com+ to ?is happy life4 ,we d n leave y4 ,we d n "p 9 any way1 except ! way ( fle%4 ,we are happy1 b c be s mu* happi] if y "k u ) y & ( y1 & if y c come to u 9 confid5ce & love & conviction ( our life1 z we nev] cease to g to y4 8,y\r fa!r want$ me to tell y ?is is f him z well z f me4 ,he is do+ a great "w & _c come to y n[1 b he knew t ,i %\ld soon come to say ?is1 & he wants y to "k t he1 too1 is happi] 9 y\r gr[+ k ( our unceas+ life1 & unceas+ love1 & unceas+ upw>d gr[?4 8,y\r family are all de> to u z "p ( y1 & !re=e "p ( u4 ,x is a light increas+ ! light 9 :i* we dwell1 to be at la/ 9 ?is close communion ) y4 ,i w come aga9 "s "t--_m times--& ,i want y always to ?9k ( me z lov+ y1 keep+ wat* ov] y1 & liv+ 9 y & y\rs4 8,fr$]ick is spl5did4 ,y "k t4 ,please be z sure t ,i am--& y\r fa!r1 too--always s full ( happ9ess 9 ! ?\ght & k ( y & y\r love4 8,y\r lov+ ,,"m40 ,,ix 8,i am ) all ( y z ,i nev] c\ld be be=e10 ,fr$]ick said1 ! next day1 8because until we are realiz$ & recogniz$ ! communion c't be complete4 ,n[ ,i c tell all ( y lots ( ?+s y c get )\t words or mess5g]4 ,sometimes y w "k !y are my sugge/ions1 sometimes y won't4 ,b ! fact t ,i am closely & intimately 9 t\* ) y is ! important ?+ = all ( u4 ,! recognition ( my def9ite sugge/ion w come lat]1 :5 y are m accu/om$ to all ?is & h le>n$ ! little signals by :i* ,i id5tify myself to y40 8,c y tell u :at ^? signals are80 "s "o ask$4 8,!y are l ! =ce ,i am1 too subtle = sci5tific analysis or description1 b y'll "k !m1 all ( y4 ,?is ?+ c't be develop$ 9 a m9ute1 y "k4 ,wait1 & wat*1 & let ! b>s d[n1 & y'll "k me :5 ,i come1 9 a comp>atively %ort "t40 8,c y tip tables ) u80 ,lois inquir$4 8,yes1 probably2 b t's a clumsy way ( do+ x4 ,"s ( y c run a plan*ette4 ,none ( y are likely to get any?+ l ?is4444 ,?is flu5cy ( reception is h>dly to be expect$4 ,we c talk1 h[ev]4444 ,y c always get me1 = ! ess5tial int]c\rse1 & someh[ we'll get x across40 8,i want y to give y\r fa!r some?+ l ! #8/op--look--li/5' rem9d] to me10 8 "m said4 8,all "r2 b ,i c't d x 9 cold blood4 ,let me cogitate1 & ,i'll try to ?9k up a password t c't fail to accompli% ! desir$ effect4 ,y & ,dad are ! same purpose 9 ess5tials1 b y\r =ce is diff]5tly appli$ & c't be approa*$ 9 ! same way40 8,h[ f> d[n 9 ! scale does ! possession ( a s\l g80 ,mr4 ,wylie ask$1 pres5tly4 8,h[ ab\t animals80 8,!re is no su* ?+ z s\l1 9 t s5se4 ,all purpose is =ce4 ,all =ce p]sonifi$ is individuality4 ,all individuality is et]nal4 ,! developm5t is unequal4 ,! undevelop$ =ce f9ds quick] developm5t "h4 ,b ! =ce t has be5 develop$ to a po9t ( intellig5ce 9 y\r life1 & is n actively put to "w1 goes d[n 9 ! scale1 is det]r5t1 & has to "w j z h>d to get back z ! =ce t nev] has develop$ at all40 8,:]e does ! =ce animat+ babies come f80 ,i ask$4 8,:at 0 little ,dick be=e he 0 little ,dick80 8,t's :at ,i want to expla91 if ,i c4 ,! =ce t manife/s itself 9 animals is a grade high] 9 =ce ?an ! vegetable manife/ation1 & t high] ?an inanimate /one & metal4 ,! =ce ( an animal comes "h1 to swell ! =ces t become individual & human ?r\gh bir?1 b individuality beg9s ) human consci\sness4 ,all =ce t is n human may ev5tually become human1 b !re is no p]si/5ce ( individuality until bir? z a human & m or less productive =ce beg9s x4 ,animals d n produce any?+ b _! k9d4 ,only man creates1 & t is ! et]nal attribute40 8,is !re a /ruggle betwe5 purposes to ent] a new-born human80 8,_m purposes are lat5t 9 e human be+ f bir?4 ,none is 9 absolute possession4 ,life on y\r plane is "o p]petual /ruggle betwe5 ! et]nal w>r+ purposes4 ,no newly born *ild has *os54 ,! tra9+ ( a *ild %\ld1 f ! fir/1 be a prep>ation = battle1 = daily--almo/ h\rly--*oice4 ,dilig5ce1 vigilance1 purpose to "w unceas+ly & aga9/ all dis9tegrat+ influ5ces1 det]m9ation to con/ruct & to progress 9 spite ( any?+1 m5tal1 moral1 physical1 or mat]ial--^! are ! ess5tial ?+s 9 tra9+ a *ild to live =cefully & et]nally40 8,:at becomes ( babies :o die at bir?80 8,!y h undevelop$ p]sonalities & are develop$ "h4 ,we h /rong =ces ( ,light & ,tru? devot$ to _! tea*+40 8,:5 a man is consci\sly det]m9$ to con/ruct1 is he ev] ov]come by dis9tegrat+ =ces80 8,sure ?+ he is1 if he doesn't fight4 ,sometimes he sways & recov]s4 ,read ! ,lessons4 ,!y'll tell y m e "t y read !m4 ,!y come f ,g5]al ,headqu>t]s4444 ,! ar\s+ =ce ( ?is message is to be measur$ by conviction manife/$ 9 action4 ,aga9 y are respectfully ref]r$ to ! ,lessons40 8,x doesn't seem fair t physical & n]v\s conditions %\ld affect "o's ability to resi/ or receive ! =ces10 ,lois m5tion$4 8,x doesn't4 ,y j ?9k x does4 ,! =ces ( con/ruction are always eag] to come 94 ,! ?+ y call n]v\s exhau/ion g5]ally comes f yield+ to =ces ( dis9tegration4 ,a p]son yields to "o or m ( !m1 & !n is sorry = himself because "s doctor doesn't r\t !m4 ,:at he ne$s is to buck up & kick !m out himself40 ,evid5tly he ref]r$ "h to ! n]v\s disord]s aris+ f m5tal di/urbances1 = ! next day he emphasiz$ ! gov]nm5t ( physical =ces by physical laws4 ,x 0 sugge/$ t :ile _m n]v\s disord]s might be controll$ 9 _! incipi5cy by ! p]son suff]+ f !m1 !y ev5tually get beyond 8 control1 & ,fr$]ick repli$3 8,y ?9k s2 b !re's always =ce :]e !re's p]sonality1 & if x c j be put up to y1 by y\rself or ano!r1 t ! *oice 9 ! end is y\rs & nobody's else1 y c help y\rself4 ,9 ! end1 y help y\rself1 anyh[1 unless y slide back to protoplasm ( purpose4 ,get busy & buck up1 or backslide & slump4 ,x's up to e fell[ = himself1 & e "o :o slips back imp$es ! way = somebody else40 ,9 ! talk foll[+ ?is1 "s "o spoke ( ! con/ant tea*+ ( bro!rhood & reg>d = "o's neighbor z a vic>i\s gospel4 8,n vic>i\s10 ,fr$]ick correct$4 8,x is n vic>i\s to give ! o!r fell[ a *ance4 ,no man is 8 bro!r's keep]4 ,no man has a "r to imp$e con/ruction1 unless he's de/ructive4 ,b x's e p]sonality develop$ to its highe/ t makes ! /rong con/ructive army4 ,! weak %\ld h a *ance to develop1 b no /rong =ce %\ld yield its purpose4 ,no?+ vic>i\s ab\t t4 ,j common s5se & good organization40 ,mr4 ,gaylord--! successful head ( a l>ge manufactur+ conc]n--ask$1 ) a tw9kle3 8,c y successfully run a bus9ess 9 accordance ) ! pr9ciples laid d[n 9 ^! ,lessons8 ,be=e y answ]1 ,i want to say t ,i believe x c be done40 8,y're "r1 ,dad4 ,x c't be done easily1 nor q consi/5tly1 at pres5t1 because ( ! complexity ( mod]n bus9ess conditions4 ,y are all b\nd to "s ext5t by association ) "s "o else1 :e!r by a man1 a directors' bo>d1 an association1 or a contribut+ conc]n4 ,^! all limit1 to a c]ta9 ext5t1 y\r fre$om ( action2 b fundam5tally ! pr9ciple is practicable1 & c gradually be put into consi/5t practice by unit+ ) ^? ( y\r own purpose1 in/ead ( ) ^? :o seem exp$i5t40 ,t ev5+1 ,mrs4 ,wylie said t ! repeat$ ass]tions ( invisible =ces ( con/ruction & ( de/ruction1 al]tly /riv+ to influ5ce u1 rem9d$ h] ( ! old !ories ( gu>dian angels & possess+ devils4 ,i ?9k x 0 t night1 too1 ?\gh ,i made no record ( x at ! "t1 t ,mr4 ,gaylord said1 :5 ,fr$]ick's good night _h be5 foll[$ by 8 cu/om>y signature3 8,i wi% he'd sign ! "n ,i us$ to call him by40 ,ef=ts to obta9 x !n1 h[ev]1 7 unsuccessful4 ,! next day--! la/ ( my visit--,fr$]ick said ( a man ( :om we _h be5 talk+3 8,he hasn't j f\nd himself yet1 b he w4 ,he likes to produce "s ?+s1 & he w respond to ! high] call to build = ! high] end4 ,y c all help him1 & y\rselves1 & our :ole purpose1 by call+ to ! lat5t build] 9 him4 ,he wants to come 91 b doesn't "k j :]e to />t4444 ,m ef=t1 m conc5tration1 m =ce appli$ = purpose1 is ! ?+ to /rive = fir/4 ,i c't tell him h[ to build4 ,t's = him to *oose4444 ,y c build toge!r4 ,ea* ( y help+ ! o!r1 ea* ( y br++ ef=t1 will+ness1 p]ception1 =ce ( v>i\s k9ds4 ,b fir/ & =emo/1 devotion to ! purpose ( progress1 reg>dless ( int]v5+ difficulties & disc\ragem5ts4 ,habit is /rong 9 e human =ce4 ,rememb] t1 & wat*--wat* = ! little masqu]ad+ devils ( de/ruction4 ,!y are clev] & subtle1 & come 9 plausible guise4 ,kick !m out & "w4444 ,y said ?is s\nd$ l ! old /ories ( possession by devils1 ,sis4 ,x's n t4 ,! devils ( old possess$ a man 9 spite ( himself4 ,! =ces ( de/ruction gov]n him only :5 he p]mits !m to4 ,he c always be con/ructive1 if he w4 ,he may d no m ?an c>ry bricks to ! mason1 b /ill he builds4 ,! man :o has great opportunity mu/ use x greatly4 ,! little *ap c use only ! =ce he has4 ,?us ende? ?is prea*m5t40 ,lois ask$ :e!r he _h be5 pres5t at a mom5t :5 sev]al memb]s ( ! family _h be5 9 great physical dang]1 & he repli$ t he _h come at once1 f a great di/ance1 9 response to a summons f a =ce 8t is always ) y :5 ,i am n40 8,!re is always a connect+ =ce betwe5 y & ! free =ces "h10 he expla9$4 8,we are always 9 t\* t way4 ,t is equally true ( ! =ces = de/ruction4 ,! great] =ces = good or evil c be in/antly summon$ to re9=ce y\r *oice40 ,?is l$ to a discussion ( pray]1 9 :i* c]ta9 memb]s ( our gr\p _h lo/ fai?4 8,y c always summon help1 if y call ! 7,o7 et]nal con/ructive =ces to build ) y10 he told u4 8,b mo/ p pray = physical or mat]ial aid4 ,physical =ces foll[ physical laws4 ,=ces ( et]nity affect !m to "s ext5t1 b d n gov]n !m4 ,pray] ) o!r p is a sort ( ly+ d[n on ! ,inf9ite & giv+ up p]sonal ef=t4 ,! pray] t is mo/ truly & promptly answ]$ is ! "o t beg9s & ends ) a det]m9ation n to yield to weakness1 or fe>1 or ! o!r dis9tegrat+ p[]s4 ,pray] implies an op5 m9d1 & is too (t5 made ) a clos$ "o4 ,n wilfully clos$1 b fe>fully1 & !re=e n truly op540 8,physical =ces1 ,"m1 7 too mu* = my physical resi/ance10 he said1 :5 %e spoke ( h] ef=t to hold him "h4 8,no am\nt ( pray]1 or influ5ce ( ! =ces ( et]nal progress1 c\ld affect t1 beyond ! ext5t to :i* x 0 affect$4 ,t is ! reason x 0 a long fight4 ,! =ces help$ all !y c\ld4 ,b ! physical ?+ is a m9or ?+1 aft] all4 ,! et]nal ?+ is all t really c\nts4 ,& to be able to put y1 :om ,i love s mu*1 9 t\* ) ! et]nal :ile /ill 9 t prelim9>y life1 is wor? all t ,i--& y--w5t ?r\gh to make x possible4 ,to be able to pass on ?is k to t life ( y\rs is wor? any?+40 8,isn't ! "t com+ :5 we %all be able to control our physical condition bett] ?an we d n[80 ,mrs4 ,wylie ask$4 8,yes1 ! m9d--& :at we call =ce 9 ! et]nal s5se--has great influ5ce ov] p]sonal physical =ce4 ,x p]=ms no miracles1 b prev5ts mu* yield+ to :at is really ! =ces ( de/ruction1 try+ to hamp] & delay accompli%m5t ( any con/ructive k9d4444 ,! =ces ( dis9tegration are ! busy boys1 & x takes =ce & purpose & /ruggle to keep !m out40 8,is our decision to use y\r fir/ "n 9 ! book "r80 8 fa!r ask$4 8,yes1 sir4 ,i am v happy ab\t t4 ,x w id5tify me1 & !re=e ! message1 to _m p ,i %\ld l to rea* p]sonally1 & w n id5tify y to ! public at l>ge4 ,i %\ld n l to h ,"m & ! girls annoy$ by publicity1 b t 0 = y to *oose4 ,! message1 z y "k1 is important & g5]al4 ,b to a lot ( fell[s ,i want to rea*1 ,fr$]ick w c>ry :]e ,z4 ,x4 w\ld fail to conv9ce4444 ,y\r attitude ab\t ! book pleases me1 too4444 ,y & ,i bo? "k ! =ce ( ! primitive mascul9e feel+ t a man's family is 8 own1 & its affairs private & p]sonal4 ,?is "t1 ! p]sonal affair is also ! et]nal affair1 vital & illum9at+4 ,& ! fact t ,i h be5 "o ( ! *annels ?r\gh :i* ?is came1 t x 0 ! se>* = me t made ,m>g>et beg9 ?is "w1 mu/ n be confus$ 9 anybody's m9d ) ! fact t ! message is m ?an a message--x is a revelation4 ,= t reason1 y & ,i bo? w gladly s9k ! p]sonal reluctance & rememb] ! purpose we s]ve40 ,a long pause ensu$1 :ile we sat sob]ly ab\t ! table1 wait+4 ,!n "s "o sugge/$ t p]haps he wi%$ u to ask que/ions4 8,all ,i want is to talk l folks to ! family10 he ann\nc$1 ) a =ce & rapidity am\nt+ to emphasis4 8,= ! love ( ,mike1 /op ?9k+ ( me z diff]5t1 & translat$1 & s]i\s1 & solemn6 ,i d prea* a lot1 ,i admit4 ,t's = reasons y "k4 ,b ,i'm j z fond ( a joke z ,i ev] 01 & ,i refuse to be set aside z a sup]ior be+6 ,come on1 n[1 c\nt me 9 z ! ,boy1 & out z a ?+ to be treat$ ) solemn rev]5ce6 ,i'm myself1 & ,i want x recogniz$60 ,aft] ?is1 ! talk drift$1 mu* z x might h done _h he return$ visibly aft] a long abs5ce1 t\*+ "h & !re4 ,pres5tly ,lois ask$1 ref]r+ to a fri5d 9 ,europe3 8,did y "k ,h---- 0 m>ri$8 ,& to an ,am]ican woman80 8,no1 ,i didn't "k t4 ,he %\ld m>ry a free =ce1 l an ,am]ican girl4 ,he 0 too blam$ m$ieval 9 8 feel+ ab\t females4 ,we are all a bit incl9$ t way1 we m51 b ,am]ican wom5 are do+ a lot to free =ce1 ! _w ov]4 ,!y are m ne>ly free 9 purpose ?an any o!r wom5 9 ! _w1 m truly individuals--:5 !y don't abuse x1 & turn into dolls4 ,am]ican girls help wom5 ev]y:]e4 ,!y don't /& = any h>em /unts4 ,h---- w le>n a lot ( ?+s he ne$s to "k1 if %e's ! real ?+40 ,conclud+ a long reply to a p]sonal "q ( 8 fa!r's1 he said3 8,"k t ,i am enjoy+ e pleasure y take1 d\bly1 once = y & twice = myself4 ,!re's y\r wat*word1 ,dad6 ,"o = myself1 & two = ! ,boy4 ,rememb] t e "t y are worri$1 e "t y are tempt$ to ov]work1 e "t y put (f physical repairs1 e "t y feel depress$1 e "t y ne$ re/ & relaxation & pleasure1 e "t y play ) ,"m & ! girls1 e "t y r5ew y\r fell[%ip ) o!r m5--always rememb]3 ,"o = myself1 & two = ! ,boy40 ,t ev5+1 ,mrs4 ,gaylord said t %e _h receiv$ a message ab\t a relative 9 ! ,we/1 purport+ to come f h] bro!r on ! next plane1 :i* %e ?\ght 0 n true1 b "o ( h] daught]s told h] t a lett] receiv$ ! night be=e _h v]ifi$ x4 8,"m de>e/1 all mess5g]s h t tr\ble10 ,fr$]ick w>n$ h]4 8,!re are c]ta9 ?+s conc]n+ details ( y\r plane1 t w come to y ?r\gh =ces ar\nd y1 t get confus$ 9 transmission4 ,t's z ne> z ,i c come n[ to expla9+ :at happ5s4 ,"s day1 ,i c p]haps tell y m ab\t x4 ,b don't let t di/urb or disc\rage y4 ,! explanation is z natural z a deflect$ ray ( light1 or an electric curr5t gr\nd$4#i ,x is a "p ( ! conditions "u :i* we "w ) y\r plane1 & is nev] enc\nt]$ regul>ly or cont9u\sly4 ,c]ta9 deta*$ exp]i5ces ( t sort come to e mess5g]4 ,?is "o y m5tion 0 n "o ( !m1 b ,i tell y ?is n[1 because ! exp]i5ce may come to any ( y1 includ+ ,m>g>et1 any day4 ,! curr5t gets mix$4 ,t's ! be/ way ,i c express x4 ,b x doesn't p]si/ = any l5g? ( "t40 ,we talk$ ab\t ! =ce mov+ ! p5cil4 ,mr4 ,gaylord ask$ :e!r ,i wrote ! words1 aft] receiv+ ! message ?r\gh my m9d1 & ,i repli$ t ! =ce1 on ! contr>y1 seem$ to be appli$ to ! p5cil f )\t--sometimes above my f+]s1 sometimes bel[ !m--my only p>ticipation be+ to hold ! p5cil upright & to foll[ its movem5t4 ,mrs4 ,wylie m5tion$ ! !ory t ! message comes ?r\gh ! subconsci\s m9d1 ! muscles ( ! h& supply+ ! motive p[]4 ,we ask$ ,fr$]ick :e!r he c\ld tell u any?+ ab\t x4 8,! subconsci\s m9d is l ! batt]y10 he said1 sl[ly1 8b ! connection is made ?r\gh ! h&4 ,! motive p[] = ! p5cil does n come1 z sci5ti/s claim1 f ! subconsci\s m9d1 b f ! subtle =ce ,i m5tion$1 put into connection ) ! h& by c]ta9 sympa!tic & s5sitive conditions ( ! subconsci\s m9d4 ,! comp>ison is n exact4 ,! =ce is n electric1 & has c]ta9 def9itely di/9ctive qualities n to be express$ 9 any t]ms n[ famili> to y\r plane2 b 9 "t words w be f\nd--or co9$--to express ?is connection40 ,"s weeks aft]w>d1 ,mr4 ,k5dal obta9$ a little additional in=mation ab\t ?is unkn[n =ce f 8 wife4 ,9 endeavor+ to e/abli% communication ) ,fr$]ick1 ?r\gh a p5cil1 "o ( 8 si/]s _h be5 ov]:elm$ by insi/5t1 & frequ5tly unkn[n1 p]sonalities seek+ expression1 & _h _h "s r viol5t & annoy+ manife/ations ( ! =ce !y employ4 8,y mu/n't d too mu* ( ?is writ+ /unt10 ,fr$]ick n[ advis$ h]1 8unless y give up a lot ( o!r ?+s4 ,y c't burn y\r c&le ( =ce at bo? ends4 ,m>g>et gave up a lot ( outside activities long ago4 ,y are s5sitive1 & c\ld d ?is 9 "t v freely1 b ! receptivity is decid$ly a /ra9 ^u ! mess5g] at be/1 & if any am\nt ( writ+ is to be done1 y c't d o!r ?+s1 too40 ,aft] m5tion+ t %e w\ld probably be beset by 8any numb] ( ye>n+ =ces10 he add$3 8,s ei!r say #8n at home' to anybody b ,uncle ,j---- & ,bud 4440 ,i halt$ ! p5cil1 suppos+ t he _h int5d$ to write ei!r ,boy or ,bro!r1 & t !re _h be5 a mi/ake 9 transmission4 ,lois glanc$ at ! %eet1 & ejaculat$3 8,buddie60 8,t's ! "n ,i've be5 wait+ =60 h] fa!r exclaim$4 ,! p5cil !n w5t on1 complet+ ! "n z if no int]ruption _h occurr$3 8444 die1 or give up o!r ?+s1 or quit40 ,aft]w>d1 :5 x _h be5 expla9$ t c]ta9 memb]s ( ! family _h call$ ,fr$]ick ,buddie1 ,bud1 or ,buzz1 v>iations ( ,lois's baby attempts at ,bro!r1 he add$3 8,i've be5 try+ to get t ?r\gh1 b ! ,miss\rian held me to kn[n names40 ,at fir/1 names came to me ) little difficulty1 b latt]ly--possibly beg9n+ ) ! ,annie ,mann+ episode--,i h be5 g5]ally unable to transmit !m4 ,"s "o ask$ ,fr$]ick ! reason = ?is4 8,because names are specific10 he said4 8,%e kn[s my "n4 ,%e knew ,i _h a special "n1 besides4 ,b :ile an idea express$ 9 famili> words c be transmitt$1 h[ev] unfamili> ! idea1 ! def9ite & specific spell+ ( an unfamili> "n is v difficult to get ?r\gh1 especially if ! mess5g] is a little n]v\s ab\t x1 or con/antly al]t = possible mi/akes4 ,we c sometimes get x ?r\gh1 z ,i did ?is1 9 a ru% ( o!r /uff40 ,a few days lat]1 :5 ,i 0 v tir$1 receiv+ ) difficulty1 & !re=e que/ion+ e /atem5t made ?r\gh ! p5cil1 ,m>y ,k4 said3 8,y are ! mo/ m5tally 444 el 444 elas 444 el 444 ela/ic is n ! ^w4 ,means ela/ic & ma/]ful 444 impregnable mess5g] ,i ev] tri$ to "w ?r\gh4444 ,t is ! reason names are almo/ impossible to s5d ?r\gh y4 ,y try to get !m1 b ! almo/ inv9cible "* ( y\r m5tal resi/ance to deception makes x difficult = u to p5etrate :]e a d\bt exi/s 9 y\r m9d4 ,a "n is specific to ! highe/ degree1 & resi/ance1 h[ev] unconsci\s & unrecogniz$1 prev5ts its free transmission40 8,y w come aga91 won't y80 ,fr$]ick ask$1 z ! h\r ( my dep>ture approa*$4 8,i h _h a bully "t talk+ to ! family1 & ,i c d bett] "w n[1 because !y are all happi]1 & all ) me 9 consci\s purpose4 ,x's true t e bit ( consci\s co-op]ation ) u helps u1 z well z y4 ,s t #8,"o = myself & two = ! ,boy' is n bunk1 ,dad4 ,x's ! real ?+1 = bo? ( u40 ,) a f9al brief message to e memb] ( ! gr\p1 ! la/ ( ^! ,l---- int]views clos$4#aj ,x ,! exp]i5ce at ,l----1 :ile /imulat+1 0 also fatigu+1 & = sev]al days !reaft] ,i 0 tir$ & dull1 receiv+ ) difficulty ! few communications t 7 attempt$4 ,tuesday ev5+1 ,april #bc;d1 two ( ,anne ,l[e's fri5ds wi%$ to talk to h]1 b 7 told t %e 0 busy & c\ld n come4 ,m>y ,k4 answ]$ "s ( _! que/ions1 conclud+3 8,anne s5ds love to y bo?1 & says please come aga9 soon4 ,%e is sorry %e c't come n[40 ,aft] giv+ me ! twelf? ,lesson1 ,m>y ,k4 _h said3 8,t is ! la/ =mal lesson4 ,! re/ w be giv5 9 o!r ways40 8,y mean ?r\gh int]views & p]sonal messages80 8,n entirely4 ,y w be giv5 sign$ lett]s1 by great =ces40 ,aft]w>d1 %e m5tion$ ^! prospective communications sometimes z 8lett]s10 sometimes z 8talks10 b ,m>y ,k5dal told u1 ,may #ac?1 t ?is int5tion _h be5 tempor>ily ab&on$1 z suffici5t mat]ial = ! book _h already be5 giv54 ,evid5tly ?is decision _h be5 rea*$ only rec5tly1 h[ev]1 = an attempt to give me ! fir/ lett] 0 fru/rat$ on ! #be? ( ,april1 & a second p]iod ( confusion & p>tial control by invad+ =ces ensu$4 ,dur+ ! morn+1 ,m>y ,k4 prep>$ me = ?is lett]1 9 a communication writt5 quickly & easily1 z foll[s3 8,m5 w ask ! !ory ( ! lett]s t are com+ to !m ?r\gh y4 ,?is mu/ be expla9$4 8,z ! ,lessons h be5 giv5 to me to deliv] to ! _w ?r\gh y1 s ! lett]s t are to come w be giv5 to me by ! =ces f :om !y come4 ,! reason t !y come ?r\gh me is t ,i rea* y m freely1 :5 y are alone1 ?an any o!r =ce kn[n to y & !re=e comm&+ y\r confid5ce4444 8,! ,lessons came f great =ces comb9$4 ,!y repres5t unity ( all purposes1 & 7 fram$ by ! co-op]ation & agreem5t ( ! greate/ =ces ( ea* con/ructive purpose1 to rea* ! consci\sness ( m5 9 g5]al t]ms ( y\r plane4 8,! reason t ^! =ces d n come to y p]sonally is t n all ( !m c rea* y z freely z ,i d4 ,y\r simile ( wireless telegraphy is a good "o4 ,x does n fully expla9 ! connection betwe5 y & me1 b is z good an explanation z ! progress ( physical sci5ce enables y on t plane to foll[4 ,! full explanation w inevitably be possible1 z physical sci5ti/s are already beg9n+ to "w t[>d x4 8,y & ,i may be reg>d$ z ! receiv+ & s5d+ in/rum5ts ?r\gh :i* =ces "h transmit _! messages4 ,y receive f _m o!r in/rum5ts1 ,i s5d ?r\gh o!rs4 ,b = imp]sonal messages y & ,i are mo/ completely 9 accord1 & ?us x is t ^! great] =ces use u z a means ( communication4 ,! fir/ lett] is ready n[40 ,x *anc$1 un=tunately1 t ,i 0 call$ away1 & :5 ,i 0 prep>$ to take ! lett]1 lat] 9 ! day1 almo/ two h\rs 7 consum$ 9 an attempt to write ! "n ( its au?or1 :o 0 describ$ z 8a lead+ educator40 ,ev5tually ,i 0 assur$ t 8,mat!w ,ald50 0 correct1 b1 :ile ! "n 0 repeat$ly writt51 ,i _h a /rong impression t x 0 n :at ,m>y ,k4 _h int5d$ to write4 ,rem9d+ myself ( previ\s difficulties 9 obta9+ names1 ,i tri$ to believe t ! delay & fatigue incid5t to ?is ef=t _h contribut$ to my d\bt ( its au!nticity4 ,b ! d\bt rema9$4 ,! long lett] :i* foll[$ 0 also receiv$ ) great difficulty & _m delays1 & prov$1 :5 complet$1 to be a v]bose jumble ( platitudes conc]n+ educational me?ods1 ) "h & !re a /rik+ phrase4 ,x 0 sign$1 8,mat!w ,al44440 ,by ?is "t1 ,i 0 excessively tir$ & c\ld obta9 b "o /atem5t f ,m>y ,k4 8,y h n ! "n "r40 ,lat] 9 ! ev5+1 ,i took up a p5cil1 & x wrote3 8,m> 444 ,mat!w ,ald44440 ,! "n 0 n f9i%$4 8,isn't ,m>y ,k4 "h80 8,no4 ,no1 %e w return40 8,%e said %e w\ld be ) me ?r\gh ?is "w40 8,%e w aga94 ,m>y ,k44440 ,illegible l9es foll[$4 8,is ?is ,m>y ,k4 n[80 8,no4 ,m>y ,k4 has gone4 ,?is is ,m>44440 ,aga9 ! reply trail$ (f indet]m9ately4 8,m>y ,k5dal80 8,no4 ,m>y ,k4 has gone4 ,mat!w40 ,ev5tually1 fail+ to elicit any response f ,m>y ,k41 ,i ask$ :e!r ,mat!w _h any?+ to say to me1 & he repli$ ) vague phrases1 s rem9isc5t ( ! 8lett]0 t ,i impati5tly gave up ! attempt = ! day4 ,! next day1 ,friday1 ,mat!w's signature 0 ! only "o obta9able1 b ,i h no record ( any messages4 ,i ?9k ,i refus$ to take !m f him4 ,saturday morn+1 ,i tri$ aga94 8,mat!w ald44440 8,i want ,m>y ,k4 ,:y isn't %e "h80 8,m>y ,k4 w be ret 444 et]nally ) y40 8,!n isn't %e "h n[80 8,no1 %e 0 call$ away4 ,%e w come back soon40 8,0 t lett] f ! #8educator' y\rs80 8,no1 ,i am n a =ce = light4 ,i am = tru? & heal+40 8,did y deliv] x to me80 8,no40 8,!n :y 0 y\r "n giv5 be=e x80 8,m>y ,k4 to 444 tak5 444 told 444 took 444 tri$ to tell y ,i 0 "h & w\ld gu>d y4 ,%e w return soon40 8,d y "k ab\t ! lett]8 ,did %e give x to me80 8,n all ( x4 ,%e w expla94 ,i am j ,m>y ,k4's tatl 444 to 444 tr 444 tri$ 444 tra9$ sub/itute40 ,ask$ h[ he c\ld be h] sub/itute1 :5 admitt$ly n ( h] purpose1 he said3 8,heal+ is h] purpose & m9e1 & tru? ! be/ gu>d40 ,at ?is "t1 ! ,f>r[ my/]y 0 /ill unsolv$4 ,n until aft] ?is second prolong$ exp]i5ce 0 ,i giv5 any explanation ( ^! attacks by oppos+ =ces1 or ( ! conditions gov]n+ su* /ruggles1 & :ile ,i 0 less disquiet$ ?an ^u ! fir/ occasion1 ,i 0 /ill puzzl$ & uneasy1 /rongly suspect+ int]f]5ce ( "s k9d4 ,t aft]noon1 ,mrs4 ,gaylord & "o ( h] daught]s1 pass+ ?r\gh ! city1 came 9 = a brief talk ) ,fr$]ick1 & :ile !re 0 at fir/ "s int]f]5ce1 he 0 soon writ+ ) 8 cu/om>y cl>ity & vigor4 ,:5 8 si/] ask$ ab\t a p]sonality aggressively dem&+ utt]ance ?r\gh h] p5cil1 he said3 8,n mu*6 ,don't give 9 to him4444 ,don't y let anybody y don't "k tell y any?+4 ,x may be true & x may n1 & x's n a game to play any m bl9dfold$ ?an y h to be4 ,y h to take a good deal on fai?1 at be/4 ,id5tify anybody :o comes1 z f> z possible40 8,c y tell me f :om t #8lett]' came80 ,i ask$4 8,t lett] got det]iorat$ 9 transmission4 ,x %ort-circuit$1 s to speak1 & 0 some:at damag$4 ,! next1 we hope1 w be bett]40 ,aft] my fri5ds' dep>ture1 ,i caught ,m>y ,k4 briefly1 :5 %e told me ! s\rce ( ! lett] %e _h tri$ to deliv]1 add+ t x _h be5 too mu* int]rupt$4 8,o!r =ces tri$ to int]v5e & dom9at$ y tempor>ily10 %e said1 aft] :i* ! p5cil wrote only 8,ma 444 ,ma 444 ,ma44440 sometimes surr\nd+ ! lett]s ) two rev]s$ circles4 ,i sugge/$ ,mayn>d1 b ! answ] 01 8,no 444 ,ma 444 ,ma 444 ,matt44440 8,i am n a dis9tegrat+ =ce10 0 ! reply to my accusation4 8,i am ,m>y ,k44440 8,m>y ,k4 back80 8444 no 444 h] sub/itute4 ,m>y ,k4 w return soon40 8,are y sure ( t80 8,yes4 ,m>y ,k4 is "h40 ,?is 0 foll[$ by ,m>y ,k4's *>act]i/ic & vigor\s signature4 8,y %\ld "k me40 8,x seems easy = ! o!rs to masqu]ade10 ,i m5tion$4 8,n to y\r t\*10 %e return$1 indicat+ a means ( id5tification t ,i _h hesitat$ to tru/4 8,:y d y leave me80 ,i dem&$4 8,y "k ,i h foll[$ light1 heal+1 & ju/ice all my life10 0 h] retort4 8,:y d\bt me n[8 ,i leave y t 444 ,ma 444 ,ma 444 ,ma 4440 ,by a curi\s co9cid5ce1 ! names ( sev]al p]sons connect$ ) ^! communications beg9 ) ^? two lett]s--,m>y ,k41 ,m>y ,k5dal1 ,mansfield1 ,mayn>d1 ,m>g>et--& ,i sugge/$ ea* ( !m 9 turn1 be=e x occurr$ to me t 8,m4 ,a40 signifi$ ,mat!w ,ald51 ! usurp]4 ,t ev5+ 0 sp5t ) ,anne ,l[e & h] fri5ds--,anne 9 "o ( h] :imsical moods1 je/+ mo/ ( ! "t1 ) occasional m s]i\s mom5ts4 ,speak+ ( a dog = ^: dea? !y _h griev$1 %e said3 8,he came1 & grew into a bett] =ce1 & "s day he'll make an adorable baby4 ,"p ( him1 anyway4 ,he 0 almo/ human4 ,e =ce goes on to a high] "o--unless x slides back4 ,9 ! end x's got to g on1 s :y fret & fume ab\t a /ep ei!r way8 ,:i*ev] way x is1 x's "o /ep ne>] ! end1 & ! end is inevitable & f9e4 ,if p mu/ h coa/+1 let !m coa/4 ,!y'll beg9 climb+ t mu* soon]40 8,matt 4440 0 writt5 once1 b ) "o voice we refus$ to talk to him4 ,m>y ,k4 foll[$1 ) a ref]5ce to a promise %e _h made to ,ru?1 sev]al weeks be=e4 ,!n ,anne aga91 ) an app>5tly cle> connection4 ,sunday1 ,i 0 unable to get any?+ f ,m>y ,k4 ,i 0 told %e 0 away1 do+ my "w4 ,monday morn+1 ,m4 ,a4 told me t ,m>y ,k4 w\ld be 8?r\gh ) ! task soon10 & wrote v>i\s phrases int5d$ to be mislead+4 ,9 my note-book1 at ?is po9t1 ,i f9d ! foll[+ entry3 8,i am beg9n+ to get ,m4 ,a4's messages a little m freely1 b !y are /ill sl[ & difficult40 ,^u ! dep>ture ( a visitor1 late 9 ! aft]noon1 ,i 0 consci\s ( a /rong summons1 & ( a /range s5se ( turmoil & commotion4 ,:5 ,i took up ! p5cil1 ! appli$ =ce 0 v /rong at mom5ts1 !n ceas$ utt]ly--sometimes %>ply1 9 ! middle ( a ^w1 or ) a lett] only half =m$4 ,occasionally1 ! p5cil 0 dragg$ d[n until x almo/ lay flat on ! pap]1 & cancelations 7 frequ5t4 8,mat!w ,ald5 is de/ructive 444 ,ma 444 ,m4 ,a4444 ,mat!w is de/r4444 des 444 de 444 di/urb$ ab\t ,m>y ,k4 ,%e means to be ! =ce de 444 to h 444 han 444 h&le y1 b %e de/r 444 has n done 444 be5 "h 444 held to h] purpose1 & has dep>t$ to ! o!r side ( ! _w4 ,%e mu/ be held firmly to h] purpose40 ,kn[+ ,m>y ,k4's /eadfa/ness 9 all ?+s1 ,i said t ?is 0 absurd4 8,%e w be pursu$ 444 bett 444 =c$ to /rong plead+ to be all[$ to d ! re/ ( ! lett]s4 ,%e %\ld be hav+ a foll[+ ( our =ces4 ,%e has be5 deta9$ = a long "t4 ,mat!w ,ald5 444 is hav+ a battle4444 ,mat!w has be5 defeat$ & 444 ,m4 ,a4444 ,mat!w is de 444 det 4440 ,bewild]$ & irritat$1 ,i dem&$3 8,:at does ?is mean80 8,means t ! p[]s 444 =ces ( de 444 con/ruction are defeat$4 ,we h be5 beat540 8,i don't believe t = a m9ute10 ,i said4 8,or d y mean ! milit>y =ces8 ,is ,g]many w9n+ a battle to-day80 8,no1 t is ! lea/ ( x40 8,are y try+ to tell me t ,g]many w w980 8,yes1 we are defeat$4 ,h] =ces h reassembl$1 & h help$ h] slaught] ours40 ,aga9 ,i said ,i did n believe x4 8,m4 ,a4444 ,mat!w is do+ 8 be/40 8,y said he 0 defeat$40 8,he lo/ a fight40 8,if y are ,m>y ,k4's sub/itute1 :y doesn't %e come to ! rescue80 ,i ask$4 8,%e didn't4 ,%e believes ,mat!w held out4444 ,message f ,m>y ,k4 ,m>g>et1 ,i d4444 ,i d fight = y40 ,i ask$ if ,m>y ,k4 7 writ+4 8,no4 ,g to high =ces = help4 ,only be =ceful = u fir/4 ,m>y ,k4 w d h] be/ = =ces ( light & progress4 ,mat!w is bett] & dang] is pass+4 ,m4 ,a40 ,i dem&$ ,m>y ,k4 8,n ?is "t4 ,all ! =ces h ga!r$4444 ,%e %\ld 444 said be =ceful40 ,say+ t ! :ole ?+ seem$ absurd1 ,i ask$ :e!r x _h to d ) ,g]many & ! w>1 or ) ! book & me--provid$ x _h to d ) any?+1 :i* ,i began to "q4 8,x is ! fl&] 444 x is ! battle 444 book1 n ! godse 444 god s5t w>40 ,amaz$1 ,i que/ion$3 8,is ,god-s5t w> "r80 ,aft] "s delay--:5 "o ( ! num]\s blanks occurr$1 all =ce be+ )drawn f ! p5cil--! impression ( tumult in/antly ceas$1 leav+ a s5se ( sudd5 quiet & peace4 ,!n--8,m>y ,k4 ,m>y ,k4 ,m>y ,k40 8,t feels l ,m>y ,k410 ,i said4 8,x means ,m>y ,k41 too40 8,:at did all t mean80 8,meant t ! =ces ( dis9tegration h _h control ( y = days1 at mom5ts4 ,mat!w 0 a =ce = fe>40 ,:5 ,i ask$ :e!r %e _h be5 away %e wrote quickly3 8,no1 n = "o in/ant4 ,he held me back1 & call$ to y\r fe> 9 acc5ts ( tru?4444 ,we h ! =ces all ab\t u1 & sometimes we are ov]p[]$ & compell$ to let !m ?r\gh tempor>ily1 b !y c always be f\ght away 9 "t40 ,brisk circles ( affirmation foll[$ my sugge/ion t possibly ?is expla9$ ! ,f>r[ episode1 & %e made ! /atem5t previ\sly quot$3 8,we _h a t]rific /ruggle = y !n4 ,we told y ! tru?1 b ! o!r =ces controll$ ! p5cil40 ,weeks aft]w>d1 ,i ask$ h] to expla9 m fully ?is dual control1 & h] reply seems to me s+ul>ly illum9at+4 8,! connection ) ! p5cil has no influ5ce on y\r consci\sness4 ,we may control ! consci\sness1 ?r\gh purpose & its unity1 ev5 ?\gh o!r =ces control ! mat]ial in/rum5t40 ,?is seems n only to %[ :y ^! messages are writt5 sometimes ) & sometimes )\t ! mess5g]'s previ\s k ( _! cont5t1 b also to (f] a possible explanation ( ph5om5a ( a mu* wid] range4 ,to my great surprise1 ,m>y ,k5dal ann\nc$ h]self a day or two aft] ?is1 hav+ prec$$ ,mansfield1 %e said1 because ,i 0 8fairly beleagu]$ by ! enemy0 9 an attempt to prev5t ! publication ( ! message4 ,9 spite ( ?is re9=cem5t1 h[ev]1 ,m4 ,a4 p]si/$ 9 attempts to engage my att5tion4 ,on "o occasion1 he invit$ me to 8try a little *ange0 & talk to him4 ,on ano!r1 he ask$ me to let him write1 z he _h 8a long /ory to tell0 ab\t my husb&1 :o 0 out ( t[n4 ,aga91 he assur$ me t ,i _h disappo9t$ 8!m10 t 8!y0 felt t ,i _h fail$ z a mess5g]1 & t ,m>y ,k4 _h dep>t$ p]man5tly4 ,/ill aga91 :5 confusion seem$ to h ov]tak5 ! book project1 he decl>$1 q frankly3 8,we h /opp$ y n[4 ,m4 ,a40 ,no long] tr\bl$ by ^! intrusions1 h[ev]1 ,i nev] p]mitt$ him to use ! p5cil aft] 8 id5tity _h be5 discov]$4 ,occasionally ,i 0 deceiv$ = a mom5t1 & n infrequ5tly x 0 8 failure to complete a s5t5ce or a ^w t betray$ him4 8,he defeats himself by 8 fe>1 l all c[>ds10 ,m>y ,k4 said1 "o day1 & :5 ,i m5tion$ t 8 messages lack$ cont9uity1 %e return$3 8,no c[>d is consecutive4 ,h[ c\ld he be80 ,^! 7 by no means ! la/ ( ! enc\nt]s ) ,mat!w4 ,mr4 ,k5dal arriv$ on ! #g? ( ,may1 & a night or two lat]1 :5 sev]al ( ^? int]e/$ 9 ^! communications 7 toge!r1 ,m4 ,a4 made 8 appe>ance aga94 ,= "s "t 8 initials foll[$ e attempt to e/abli% communication ) our invisible fri5ds1 b ev5tually we obta9$ ,m>y ,k5dal's cle> signature1 & a message1 sl[ly writt51 ) frequ5t pauses1 dur+ :i* ! p]sonality /riv+ to oppose h] 0 gradually ov]come4 ,m4 ,a4's erratic t\* 0 occasionally evid5t1 less5+ 9 /r5g? z ,m>y's /eady1 g5tle control increas$4 8,come on10 %e said1 f9ally4 8,we are ready = a little fun n[1 & we w leave ! m s]i\s matt]s until we h m truly a cle> field40 ,accord+ly1 we ab&on$ our int5d$ inquiry1 = ! mom5t1 resort+ to p]siflage1 9 :i* %e took an active "p1 writ+ ) increas$ flu5cy4 8,laught] is a con/ructive =ce1 *ildr510 %e told u1 :5 ?+s 7 go+ smoo?ly aga94 8,rememb] t :5 y fight fi5ds4444 ,if we keep our t\* close1 & laugh l t1 ) real mir?1 !y c't get 940 ,lat] t ev5+1 ,anne ,l[e came = a mom5t1 j to tell u1 %e said1 t we _h made a /ep 9 le>n+ :at laught] t is f ! he>t w d4 8,x is protective1 con/ructive1 curative1 & ! devil = devils4 ,!y c't get ov]1 or ar\nd1 or ?r\gh x4 ,t's y\r be/ weapon & y\r be/ protection1 aside f fundam5tal purposes4 ,use x1 & m p[] to y\r--:at is x y laugh )8 ,diaphragm1 or :at80 ,! next night1 :5 conditions 7 normal f ! fir/1 we ask$ ,m>y ,k5dal ab\t ?is incid5t1 & %e said3 8,x 0 j a mass$ attack1 :i* w occur f "t to "t4 ,!y w fight z long z !y exi/1 b ! virul5ce & viol5ce ( _! pres5t ef=ts is due to our unit$ attack on !m40 ,an int]e/+ & illum9at+ v>iation ( ^! occasional sorties occurr$ dur+ an int]view betwe5 a man ( ^: p]sonal relations & int]e/s ,i h only ! mo/ casual k1 & a p]sonality on ! next plane :om ,i knew n at all4 ,! fir/ messages to him1 z to mo/ ( ! o!rs1 conc]n$ purpose & its unity4 ,app>5tly n conv9c$ ( ! au!nticity ( _! s\rce1 he repeat$ly ask$ = an intimate1 *>act]i/ic1 p]sonal message4 ,n receiv+ x1 he ask$ a "q relat+ to an entirely imag9>y situation--8j to see10 z he aft]w>d expla9$4 ,! "q 0 answ]$ 9 detail1 imm$iately foll[$ by ! /atem5t1 8,phil fe>s too mu*40 ,suspect+ int]f]5ce1 f ! peculi> movem5t ( ! p5cil1 ,i ask$ him :o ,phil 01 & :5 he repli$ t he knew no su* p]son1 ,i dem&$ to "k :o 0 writ+4 8,m4 ,a40 ,?is signature 0 n complete1 b ! reply to a "q 9 ?is connection1 purport+ to come f ,m>y ,k41 0 foll[$ by a vigor\s repetition ( ,m4 ,a4's initials1 inclos$ 9 two rev]s$ circles--8 *>act]i/ic signature :5 9 full control ( ! p5cil4 ,my visitor !n admitt$ t he _h ask$ a fictiti\s "q1 b attempts to le>n :o _h answ]$ x result$ 9 contradictory ass]tions f v>i\s s\rces1 & kn[+ ! difficulty ( re-e/abli%+ a connection once effectually brok51 ,i refus$ to cont9ue ! int]view4 8,! integrity ( ! seek]10 ,m>y ,k4 said1 ! next day1 8is ! mess5g]'s only protection f dis9tegrat+ =ce dur+ an int]view4 ,^! =ces %\ld be p]si/5tly repell$1 n invit$4 ,ignorance ( _! pres5ce & p[] frequ5tly op5s a way = !m1 z 9 ?is in/ance4 ,absolute s9c]ity & c&or are ess5tial to ! ma9t5ance ( a connection ) con/ructive =ces1 9 ^! int]views40 8,=ces ( dis9tegration d n wait to be invit$10 %e ass]t$1 on ano!r occasion4 8,!y con/antly attack1 & seize ! fir/ opportunity to take possession4 ,we1 also1 wat* & call1 & ent] :]e we c4 ,b ! idea ( orig9al s9 is s /rongly implant$ 9 ! m9ds ( mo/ m51 t an assumption t dis9tegrat+ =ce c only ent] :]e x is invit$ is inevitable4 ,x mu/ be cle>ly und]/ood t attack by =ces ( dis9tegration does n imply weakness1 or fe>1 or s9ful desire4 ,x implies only a desire on ! "p ( ! attack+ =ce to de/roy4 ,t !re are individuals giv5 to dis9tegration is ano!r matt]4 ,^? mo/ desir\s ( con/ruction & progress are m (t5 attack$ by p]si/5t1 mass$ =ces ( de/ructive purpose4 ,to be consci\s ( ?is is to be protect$1 to "s degree4 ,= t reason1 we urge ! publication ( ^! tru?s1 t ! /ruggle may no long] be wag$ 9 ignorance & d\bt & confusion40 8,does #8mass$ =ces ( de/ructive purpose' imply "s comb9ation1 or co-op]ation1 or co-ord9ation1 among dis9tegrat+ =ces80 ,m>y ,k4 0 ask$1 at ano!r "t4 8,yes1 !y comb9e e appeal+ =ce1 z we d4 ,"o man may answ] to d\bt1 fe>1 cupidity1 & envy4 ,ano!r to malice1 d\bt1 & lu/4 ,any =ces t c rea* him mass !mselves 9 attack & call on _! purposes 9 him to respond40 8,!n !re mu/ be a consid]able degree ( intellig5ce among !m4 ,y said !y w\ld become con/ructive :5 intellig5t40 8,:5 intellig5t en\gh4 ,i nev] meant to imply t ! purposes & =ces ( de/ruction are un9tellig5t4 ,!y are n fully intellig5t4 ,!y are n balanc$1 n fully animat$4 ,all =ces ( con/ruction compreh5d de/ruction4 ,no =ces ( de/ruction compreh5d con/ruction4 ,!y are intellig5t & wily 9 de/ruction1 b fail to appreh5d its futility40 8,are !y :at we on ?is plane call un$ucat$1 unle>n$1 ignorant 9 t s5se80 8,!y are sometimes f\nd on y\r plane among ! highly educat$1 le>n$1 & p[]ful4 ,"h we reg>d !m z undevelop$ =ces1 to be f\ght unceas+ly until !y cons5t to become con/ructive40 8,y don't call t co]c+ y\r bro!r1 d y80 ,i ask$4 8,no1 we d n compel !m to con/ruct1 if !y w\ld de/roy by pref]5ce4 ,we oppose !m until !y p]ceive t !y mu/ fail1 & seek light4 ,!n we accept !m1 in/ruct !m1 & are /rong]4444 ,! =ces oppos+ u h no fai?1 h5ce no k ( a future4 ,!y dread de/ruction1 fe> ! end ( exi/5ce1 d5y a future1 & con/antly seek to de/roy ! inevitable40 ,9 ?is connection1 ,mr4 ,k5dal once ask$ ,m>y3 8,:at d ! evil =ces ?9k !y're try+ to d8 ,h !y lo/ ! great prim>y idea8 ,0 !re a great prim>y idea8 ,or are !y j b&>-logg+ x ar\nd 9 a *aotic =e/ ( spiritual upas-trees1 scream+ at any?+ !y happ5 to see80 8,!re 0 no great prim>y idea ( de/ruction10 %e return$4 8,a lot ( idle =ce ga!r$ toge!r1 & f9d+ itself beh9d ! procession 9 /r5g?1 radiance1 & beauty1 began envy+ & covet+ & backbit+1 & f t to de/ruction is a logical & inevitable progression4 ,:y is anybody among y envi\s1 or malici\s1 or c[>dly1 or de/ructive8 ,!re is no great idea beh9d x4 ,!y see !y are beh9d somebody else 9 some?+1 & in/ead ( develop+ :at con/ructive p[] !y h ( _! own1 !y1 hate ! p]son :o has m & try to de/roy him1 or 8 reputation1 or 8 prop]ty4 ,!re y h concrete examples ( all ! idea !re is 9 de/ructive purpose4 ,x's spiritual un9tellig5ce40 8,:y did !y quit ,g]many80 he ask$1 !n4 8,isn't ! apo!osis ( su* p]sonal & det]r5t & s\l-driv+ & dom9at+ purposes j _! calib]80 8,!y see ! =ces ( progress ga!r+ among y1 & "k t !y _c w9 ?r\gh ,g]many4 ,%e /ill foll[s _! me?ods1 b )\t _! help1 :ile e vibration ( progressive & co-op]ative purpose among y enables u to help y m4 ,s !y h left h] to ! fruits ( _! union1 ! consequ5ce inevitable1 & hat* fre% mis*ief !mselves40 ,,xi ,on ! ev5+ ( 8 arrival1 ,may #g?1 ,mr4 ,k5dal ask$ 8 wife :e!r %e c\ld /ay ) u dur+ 8 visit to ,new ,york1 & %e repli$ t %e w\ld out/ay him1 unless ! =ces attack+ me 7 defeat$ be=e 8 dep>ture4 8,x really helps1 !n1 = u to get toge!r "h10 he inf]r$4 8,yes1 inde$1 x helps4 ,all comb9ation ( =ce adds by ! sum ( its p>ticipation to ! orig9al am\nt ( =ce comb9$40 ,tak5 9 conjunction ) o!r1 simil> ass]tions 9 ?is connection--8,its =ce is fre$ & multipli$ by ! sum ( y\r p>ticipation02 8,= e vibration ( pure con/ructive purpose among ! ,alli$ =ces1 we h add$ two02 8,=ce unit$ is m p[]ful by half ?an simil> =ces sep>ately /riv+02 etc4--x seems probable t ^! expressions 7 int5d$ z figures ( spee*1 emphasiz+ ! increas$ pot5cy ( unit$ purpose on our plane & ! ability ( ! free =ces to re9=ce x 9 proportion to its actual vitality1 r ?an z ma!matical /atem5ts ( ! exact degree to :i* ?is re9=cem5t & co-op]ation may be c>ri$4 ,m5tion+ t sometimes !y seem$ to make a di/9ction betwe5 purpose & =ce1 & aga9 to use ! t]ms int]*angeably1 ,mr4 ,k5dal said he w\ld l to "k ! "* ( ea*4 8,is purpose l ! direction ( an electric curr5t1 & =ce l amp]age & voltage80 he ask$4 8,or is purpose ! road1 & =ce ! velocity 9 foll[+ x8 ,is purpose qualitative1 & =ce quantitative8 ,is ! di/9ction betwe5 !m along "s ( ^! l9es80 8,x is along all ^? l9es10 0 ! reply4 8,purpose is ! =ce t draws4 ,=ce is ! purpose t pu%es40 ,l v>i\s o!rs to :om ^! messages fir/ came ?r\gh me1 ,mr4 ,k5dal _h be5 try+1 ) "s success1 to obta9 direct communication4 ,m>y faceti\sly describ$ 8 p5cil z 8a good burro10 & m9e z 8a real hawse40 ,i _h ?\ght ?is dialecticism diff]5tly spell$1 b he rem9d$ me t 8hoss0 belong$ to ,new ,engl&1 & 8hawse0 to ,m>y's native /ate1 ,k5tucky4 ,:ile ! p5cil-po9t re/$ idly on ! pap]1 we talk$ ab\t ! s5sations accompany+ its movem5t1 & ab\t ! probable direction ( ! =ce propell+ x4 ,to him1 ! impulse seem$ to come fir/ & *iefly ?r\gh ! consci\sness2 to me1 x seem$ a physical =ce ext]nally appli$ to ! p5cil1 not)/&+ occasional consci\sness ( :at ! message w\ld be2 b we 7 agre$ t x 0 difficult1 at fir/1 to be sure t ! impulse 0 n 9 "s unrecogniz$ way our own4 8,x has be5 amus+ to u to see y two /ruggle aga9/ our psy*ical intrusions10 ,m>y rem>k$1 at ?is po9t4 8,we d pu% ! p5cil4 ,we also rea* ! m9d4 ,sometimes ! "o1 sometimes ! o!r1 is :at does ! trick4 ,x is easi] = u to impress ! m9d1 b h>d] = y to recognize t sugge/ion z ours4 ,y ?9k x's y\r own1 & fight4 ,m>g>et is ev5 m resi/ant ?an ,manzie--p]haps because %e has m responsibility to o!r p40 8,are pres5t conditions--! ga!r+ ( ! clans = ! com+ /ruggle--go+ to enable _m p to d ?is1 :o h nev] done x be=e & o!rwise w\ld h be5 unable to d x80 he ask$4 8,yes2 b ! dang] ( t is t ! o!r =ces w f9d _! own *annels1 & /eal & defile "s ( ours4 ,s we c't advise p to exp]im5t1 unless !y c absolutely id5tify ! =ce "h1 & only a few1 comp>atively1 c d t40 ,he said t he _h hesitat$ to ask que/ions ( 8 own p5cil1 be+ unwill+ to g too f> 9 ?is until he _h *eck$ x up ?r\gh me4 8,he's scairt10 %e teas$1 be=e he _h fairly />t$ to speak4 8,y don't tru/ y\rself or me40 ,laugh+1 he retort$3 8,t's ano!r60 8,y are "r to be c>eful10 %e w5t on1 s]i\s aga94 8,x's a dang]\s adv5ture1 unless y keep y\r balance1 foll[ y\r own purpose1 keep close tab on ! =ce h&l+ ! p5cil1 & lean on x only spiritually4 ,! m9ute advice 9 mat]ial ?+s is s\ght1 t m9ute !re is dang]40 8,!re's no dang] t anybody c imp]sonate y & fool me10 he decl>$4 8,nev]6 ,! dang] is t somebody might lie to y ab\t me2 or if y cease to /& on y\r own feet & make y\r own *oice 9 matt]s ( y\r plane1 only !n somebody might imp]sonate me = a mom5t4 ,sometimes ,i c tell y ^? ?+s1 b ! habit ( dep5d+ on !m is bad = y40 ,a night or two lat]1 beg9n+ ) a reply to a "q conc]n+ ano!r subject1 %e return$ to ! discussion ( ! =ce us$ 9 convey+ ^! communications--8a =ce comp>$ to :i* electricity is l spr+ wat]10 %e said--decl>+1 l ,fr$]ick1 t its explanation is /ill impossible 9 t]ms ( our plane4 8,!re is a vital & pot5t =ce1 n yet isolat$--& h>dly discov]$--by y\r mo/ advanc$ sci5ti/s10 %e told u4 8,x has *>act]i/ics & attractions n expla9able until its discov]y & analysis give rise to a new set ( words4 ,!re is no adequate comp>ison t may be us$ to indicate its =ce1 or ! conditions & degrees ( its v>iations4 ,x has "s resemblance to electricity1 yet ! comp>ison 9 c]ta9 cases w\ld be mislead+40 8,i am talk+ ab\t ! =ce we use 9 mov+ ?is p5cil1 & to "s ext5t 9 affect+ y\r ?\ght10 %e cont9u$1 :5 ,mr4 ,k5dal _h m5tion$ c]ta9 rec5t sci5tific exp]im5ts ( :i* he _h read4 8,! sci5ti/s h long associat$ ! p[] ( ?\ght ) ! bra91 & h s]i\sly argu$ t1 z we c\ld n be se51 measur$1 weigh$1 or cond5s$1 we did n exi/4 ,we d4 ,& we h a =ce at our comm& t _c be expla9$1 z yet4 ,x c only occasionally be demon/rat$ z cle>ly z ?is4 ,electricity is ! mo/ likely to impress ! man 9 ! /reet z a comp>ison1 b to argue f t z a premise w\ld lead to misconception4 ,at pres5t1 x mu/ be accept$ z a recogniz$ b n und]/ood =ce1 only dimly p]ceiv$1 z = ye>s electricity 040 8,does x help1 if we emphasize :at we "k ( /atic electricity1 z well z ?9k+ ( ! comp>ison 9 t]ms ( electric curr5t8 ,a /atic =ce 9 y\r plane1 p]haps80 8,yes1 t helps2 b ! /atic =ce is 9 y\r plane1 q z mu* z "h4 ,we h m k ( ! curr5t1 to cont9ue ! simile1 b enc\nt] /atic conditions bo? "h & !re1 z well z c\nt] curr5ts "h40 ,?is w\ld seem to (f] reasons--9 addition to ,david ,bruce's explanation ( ! difficulties ( translation :5 ! mess5g]'s reaction to c]ta9 ^w-symbols fails--= occasional delays 9 ! transmission ( ^! communications4 8,m>g>et hasn't tri$ u yet ) an antagoni/ic =ce on y\r plane10 %e said1 on ano!r occasion4 8,we don't d x ?is way :5 ! =ces !re are n h>moni\s40 8,is y\r =w>d sight mu* great] ?an ours80 h] husb& ask$4 8,or is x1 9 relation to o!r planes1 ab\t :at ours is 9 reg>d to y\rs80 8,we c see ! end z y h n ev5 dream$ x yet1 b our detail$ k is limit$ to two or ?ree planes beyond ours4 ,ev5 "h1 developm5t is unev51 & "s ( u see f>!r ?an o!rs4 ,we are f> f omnisci5t or omnipot5t4 ,we h advanc$ beyond y1 our individual purposes are cle> :]e y\rs are confus$1 we "k :]e we are b\nd & :y1 we see mu* f>!r ahead ?an y c1 & we "w 9 ?ree planes--y\rs z tea*]s1 ours z labor]s1 & ! next z /ud5ts40 ,ref]r+ to ! /atem5ts ab\t ,russia1 ( :i* we _h told him1 he ask$ :e!r !re 7 ! same relative diff]5ces ( op9ion & judgm5t among !m z among u1 z to psy*ological policies to be pursu$ = ! ,great ,purpose1 & z to ! applications ( ^? policies on ?is plane4 8,!re are "s diff]5ces ( p]ception4 ,light1 = example1 sees %ad[ & desires to dispel x4 ,tru? sees error & wi%es to correct x4 ,b1 broadly speak+1 ! op9ions are ! same4 ,! imp$im5ts 9 ! pa? ( progress are _m4 ,ea* purpose deals ) its own2 ,light ) d>kness1 ,tru? ) error1 & s on4 ,ea* may "w 9 ! same field1 ev5 9 ! same individual1 b "h we "w = ! same ultimate purpose4 ,we d n disagree4 ,ea* foll[s 8 own "w1 & recognizes ! o!r's field40 8,we h a unit$ policy10 %e said1 at ano!r "t1 8b ea* our individual application ( x 9 p]sonal relations & messages l ^!4 ,x is all int5d$ to enlight5 & inspire y1 b only 9 c]ta9 fundam5tal & specific matt]s are we in/ruct$ :at to say40 8,c y det]m9e "t !re1 by o!r ?an ! memory ( x "h & by close inspection80 0 ano!r "q4 8,we h no "t "h1 9 y\r s5se4 ,we wat* y1 & rememb]1 b we lose track ( y1 sometimes40 ,mr4 ,k5dal !n said--expla9+ 8 phrase1 8close inspection0--t he ?\ght !y saw "t dimly1 z we see ?r\gh wat] or ?r\gh fog4 8,is memory ) y z acute z answ]s to "s ( ^! que/ions seem to indicate80 "o ( u inquir$4 8,n ( mat]ial ?+s1 g5]ally4 ,we don't pay mu* att5tion to !m1 unless !y int]f]e ) purpose4 ,j n[ !y are int]f]+ a good deal--or 71 be=e ! w>1 :i* is itself a mat]ial manife/ation ( purpose40 ,we said t we %\ld h ?\ght ?is int]f]5ce 9 full =ce /ill1 & %e cont9u$3 8,! real int]f]5ce1 f our po9t ( view1 came be=e ! w>1 :5 ! _w outside ( ,g]many 0 too mu* occupi$ 9 pursuit ( mat]ial ?+s to see :at 0 happ5+4 ,!y fail$ ev5 to see ,g]many's int5tion4 ,mu* less did !y discov] _! own dang]1 ( :i* ,g]many's purpose1 mat]ially1 0 ! lea/4 ,! w> woke !m up by degrees1 =tunately1 or !re w\ld be no use tell+ !m ?is40 ,a "q conc]n+ ! possibility ( communicat+ ) a p]son rec5tly dep>t$ f ?is plane1 0 met ) ! /atem5t t he _h 8free communion0 /ill to le>n4 ,?is expression _h be5 us$ sev]al times by o!rs1 & n[ ,i ask$3 8,m>y1 :at is free communion80 8,y don't ?9k we vocalize our talk1 d y80 ,mansfield sugge/$ t :5 a man f\nd himself sudd5ly )\t 8 mat]ial veil1 he mu/ be at a loss h[ to proce$1 & ask$ :e!r t 0 :at %e meant4 8,n entirely4 ,! veil isn't miss$ p>ticul>ly1 b !re is a 444 a44440 8,diff]5ce ( m$ium80 he ask$4 8,l a wat]-color arti/ :o c't pa9t 9 oil80 8,t's x40 8,ref]r+ to y\r ass]tion 9 ,m>* t tru? is absolute10 he said1 8is n tru? itself relative on ?is plane8 ,tru? z a /atem5t ( et]nal law is absolute1 b :5 appli$ to concrete facts & ideas1 x *anges f "t to "t8 ,t is1 a concrete /atem5t :i* express$ ! relations ( c]ta9 mundane conditions to ! et]nal v]ities 9 ,b4,c4 #ajjj1 w\ld n necess>ily be a correct /atem5t ( ! relations ( correspond+ conditions to ^? v]ities 9 ! ye> #aijj ,a4,d40 8,t is ! idea on :i* ?is :ole revelation is bas$10 %e return$4 8,^! ?+s h always be5 true4 ,!y w\ld n h s\nd$ true 9 ! ye> "o1 any m ?an a lot ( ! #8tru?s' ( t day are true n[40 ,a night or two aft] ?is1 he said he w\ld l m light on ! practical application ( ^! pr9ciples1 especially ^? 9 relation to fre$om4 8,h[1 = in/ance1 w\ld y g ab\t help+ a s*ool80 he ask$4 8,take1 z concrete examples1 a ,univ]sity l ----1 its ,faculty held 9 subjection by hideb\nd tru/ees1 & ! propos$ ,p's ,univ]sity1 to be gov]n$ f day to day by plebiscite or ref]5dum1 ) no def9$ policy = proc$ure beyond a g5]al idea ( fre$om4 #8,y may lead a horse to wat]1 b y c't make him dr9k4' ,%\ld ! con/ruction ( ! tr\gh be left to *ance1 or %\ld x be plann$ c>efully8 ,9 o!r words1 %\ld mundane provision & prevision be employ$ 9 build+ x80 8,x has be5 said already t m5 mu/ fir/ le>n to ?9k1 & to gov]n !mselves1 be=e !y c be free40 ,x 0 ,m>y ,k4 :o answ]$4 8,if exp]i5ce 7 n tak5 into consid]ation1 progress w\ld be impossible4 ,mundane prevision & provision is ess5tial to all con/ructive activity on y\r plane4 ,op9ions w diff] z to ways & means ( apply+ pr9ciples ( progress4 ,! fir/ way to help a s*ool is to e/abli% unity among ! tea*]s4 ,n only unity ( purpose1 b a c]ta9 l>ge unity ( me?od1 t "o may n te> d[n :at 8 bro!r builds4 ,ideals ( fre$om h be5 confus$ by m5 res5t+ ! fir/ law ( fre$om--discipl9e4 ,lack ( discipl9e1 c>ri$ to its logical conclusion1 w\ld return ! _w to *aos4 ,! s*ool t is free 9 its tea*+ mu/ be c>ri$ on by discipl9$ tea*]s1 unit$ 9 a purpose ( progress cle>ly recogniz$ & agre$ ^u1 to tea* discipl9e t ! m9ds ( m5 may d>e to be free40 8,! idea und]ly+ t1 ,i take x1 is t z ! a?lete ^: body is ?or\ghly tra9$ & co-ord9at$ d>es to jump an abyss1 )\t fe> ( fall+1 s ! man ^: m9d & _s are discipl9$ c jump an intellectual abyss1 )\t los+ balance or sanity40 8,yes4 ,& z a man tra9$ to c>ry great weights on 8 %\ld]s mu/ be tra9$ to x f y\?1 s ! man :o w\ld c>ry gov]nm5t & fre$om ( ?\ght mu/ tra9 8 m9d to c>ry its weight--n alone to hold x briefly1 b to c>ry x on40 8,is x true1 !n10 he ask$1 8t safe fre$om & con/ructive fre$om are only possible aft] prior discipl9e & self-control80 8,h[ c undiscipl9$ fre$om be safe or con/ructive8 ,x makes ! wild]ness4 ,x makes ! jungle4 ,x makes ! un*>t$ & dev\r+ sea40 ,,xii ,"o day1 ab\t ! middle ( ,may1 discuss+ ^! manife/ations ov] a lun*eon table1 a man :o describ$ himself z 8a sympa!tic agno/ic0 m5tion$ t :ile all ^? on ! next plane report$ t !y 7 busy1 none to 8 k _h told j :at !y 7 do+4 ,at t "t1 we _h receiv$ sev]al /atem5ts conc]n+ _! activities4 ,fr$]ick _h spok5 ( 8 ef=ts 9 connection ) 8a pro-,g]man newspap] editor40 ,mayn>d ,holt's "m _h told u t %e work$ 8) undevelop$ purposes1 "h be=e _! "t40 ,x _h be5 said ( a fam\s editor3 8,he is = ,ju/ice4444 ,he is "o ( ! =ces det]m9+ ! gr\p+ ( ! newly arriv$40 ,anne ,l[e _h said3 8,i h&le *ildr54 ,"s ( !m ?\ght !y 7 gr[n up :5 !y left y40 ,& ! "w ( ! heal]s1 9 receiv+ & soo?+ 8w>-/rick5 =ces10 _h be5 repeat$ly m5tion$4 ,h[ev]1 ) ! comm5t ( ! 8sympa!tic agno/ic0 9 m9d1 we ask$ ,m>y ,k5dal1 apropos ( "s allusion to ! heal]s on h] plane1 :e!r %e c\ld tell u ( _! "w 9 detail4 8,y h already se5 t our ability to be specific1 ev5 ab\t ?+s "h1 is dep5d5t on y\r ability to und]/& conditions ( our plane10 %e rem9d$ u4 8,z fa/ z we c1 we give x to y4 ,b z well expla9 ! op]ation ( wireless telegraphy to an illit]ate #8crack]1' z to try to expla9 heal+1 z we und]/& & practise x1 to ! p]son unprep>$ by ?\ght & /udy ( ^! tru?s40 ,! next day1 9 ano!r city1 ,fr$]ick1 writ+ ?r\gh a memb] ( 8 family1 said t he _h be5 do+ "s "w 9 develop+ "s spirits :o _h 8let _! l[e/ t5d5cies be _! guid+ =ce40 8,!y 7 m5 :o 7 v unhappy1 because !y _h left ! _w be=e !y 7 ready1 & did n "k :at ?is life meant10 he said4 8,_h !y rec5tly gone ov]80 he 0 ask$4 8,yes1 n v long on ?is side4 ,!y 7 s bewild]$ t !y ?\ght !y 7 9 "s k9d ( dream t !y c\ld n wake f4 ,!y _h be5 sick1 b n long en\gh to let !m get any idea ( dea?1 or light aft] dea?1 s !y 7 sorry to come ov]40 8,d !y call y tea*]80 8,no1 j a fri5d40 ,reply+ to a "q ab\t a specific activity on ?is plane1 he said3 8,i c tell y t a lot ( ^? ?+s t seem bewild]+ are n important en\gh to be do+ :at we call "w "h40 8,:at d y call "w80 8,consci\s developm5t ( spiritual =ces40 ,a mon? lat]1 a "q ab\t a woman kn[n "h z a sculptor br\ght ! foll[+ reply f ,david ,bruce4 8,%e is work+ ) a developm5t ( ! purpose ( production1 :i* is ! f\ndation t und]lay h] "w !re4 ,%e is produc+ =ce by develop+ ! undevelop$ produc]s40 ,probably ! mo/ specific in=mation yet receiv$ by any ( our small gr\p conc]n+ ! practical application ( ^! pr9ciples to ! affairs ( our plane1 came ?r\gh ,mayn>d ,holt4 8,my "w lies pr9cipally ) bus9ess m5 on y\r plane10 he said1 "o day1 to a family connection4 8,we are mu* conc]n$ ab\t ! lack ( co-op]ation among p]sons ( con/ructive t5d5cies1 & my own job is to apply ?is =ce we _c fully expla9 to y1 9 any way t w influ5ce m5 or wom5 t[>d co-op]ation4 ,sometimes we use x to sugge/ a new idea4 ,sometimes we use x to s direct app>5tly consequ5tial circum/ances & ev5ts t ! p]son we wi% to influ5ce gets an object lesson40 ,9 support ( ?is is a /atem5t ( 8 made 9 ,april4 ,:ile writ+ a long message1 mo/ ( :i* 0 intimately p]sonal1 he indicat$ 8 int]e/ 9 bus9ess conditions1 & urg$ a great] & m f>-see+ co-op]ation among bus9ess m54 ,9 ! mid/ ( a s5t5ce ! p5cil /opp$1 creat+ a long delay4 ,fail+1 aft] repeat$ ef=ts1 to transmit ! ^w he _h attempt$1 he drew a s]ies ( s+ul>ly uni=m ar*es across ! :ole wid? ( ! pap]4 ,aft] puzzl+ ov] x a mom5t1 ,i drew a l9e above ! ar*es1 & said1 p]ceiv+ no significance 9 ! symbol3 8,t looks l a viaduct40 8,t's :at ,i mean10 he resum$1 vigor\sly1 & proce$$ ) an elaboration ( 8 !me1 comp>+ co-op]ation to a viaduct4 8,9 ! end1 ! =ces = progress w cross to all l&s by t viaduct10 he cont9u$1 8& ^? :o balk & refuse x w be div]t$ & delay$ by foll[+ old pa?s ?r\gh ! tortu\s *asm ( competitive de/ruction4 ,n t we disc\rage competition4 ,! individual organization1 l ! individual man1 mu/ foll[ its purpose & develop its =ce1 b 444 competition at its be/ is entirely fri5dly & con/ructive4 ,boys h x taught !m 9 ! simple/ =m 9 college sports4 ,!re x is p]sonal1 b co-op]ative 9 ! developm5t ( college _s4 ,ea* man does 8 be/ = himself & 8 own record1 b loyally & *e]fully supports aga9/ oppos+ =ces ! m successful man :o is ( 8 own gr\p4 ,) increas+ responsibilities1 temptations & difficulties increase1 b exp]i5ce %\ld br+ ability to meet !m4 ,! code ( s*ool & college =ces may be develop$ & appli$ to bus9ess & productive =ces4 ,?is is ! fir/ application ( college tra9+ to competitive bus9ess40 ,aft]w>d1 :5 ,mr4 ,k5dal _h express$ 8 cordial sympa?y ) ! !ory ( co-op]ation1 widely appli$1 ,mayn>d said3 8,t's :]e ! college team has won & ! union has fail$4 ,! union 0 good 9 conception1 b has made = ! suppression ( individual developm5t1 :]e ! college team enc\rages x40 ,lat] /ill1 foll[+ a conv]sation conc]n+ national economics & int]national comm]ce aft] ! w>1 he said3 8,co-op]ation is moral4 ,comm]cial supremacy is mat]ial4 ,mat]ial success is con/ructive only if p]man5t1 & p]man5t only if con/ructive4 ,until co-op]ation = p]man5t progress becomes a pr9ciple ( int]national z well z national purpose1 !re w be little actual progress t[>d p]man5t peace1 or la/+ prosp]ity4 8,z ! college boy works fir/ = 8 own p[]1 b mo/ = 8 team1 & fir/1 la/ & all ! "t = clean a?letics1 s ! bus9ess man %\ld "w fir/ = 8 unit1 def9itely = 8 c\ntry's welf>e1 b fir/1 la/ & always = clean co-op]ation ) all :o make = ! _w's progress4 8,! expon5ts ( national supremacy at ! exp5se ( _w progress are exactly 9 ! position ( ! expon5ts ( p]sonal prosp]ity at ! exp5se ( national welf>e4 ,! situations are analog\s to a degree z yet compreh5d$ by few m54 8,x took _m ye>s to conv9ce ! manufactur] t increas$ production w\ld foll[ %ort] h\rs & improv$ work+ conditions4 ,x took _m ye>s to conv9ce m]*ants t decreas$ co/ & increas$ pr(it foll[$ comb9ation ( =ces4 ,x took "s "t to conv9ce f9anci]s & manufactur]s t success1 n failure1 w\ld foll[ ! co-op]ation ( compet+ conc]ns 9 ! =eign field4 ,yet x is n[ recogniz$ t all ^! ?+s are true & practicable4 ,no less--ev5 m--is x practicable to unite _w =ces ( progress 9 comm]ce z !y are unit$ n[ 9 w>1 ! fight at all times be+ = con/ruction & developm5t1 aga9/ de/ruction & regression4 8,?is _c be done 9 a day or a ye>1 b ?is is ! goal t[>d :i* enlight5$ =ces %\ld move4 ,x may s\nd ,utopian n[4 ,s did model factories & t5em5ts1 a few ye>s ago4 ,_! advocates 7 sc(f$ at & discr$it$4 ,n[1 ! manufactur] :o fails to provide heal?ful work+ conditions = 8 op]atives is call$ %ort-sight$ & pig-head$1 & *eats himself twice1 :ile *eat+ 8 employees once4 8,co-op]ation is ! basic pr9ciple ( all progress1 & ! po9t at :i* x /ops is ! measure ( /r5g? ( man or nation4 ,! nation t refuses to co-op]ate = progress is a nation confess+ itself det]r5t40 ,aga91 9 ,june1 ,mayn>d return$ to ?is subject1 say+ t m5 mu/ become 8/rong en\gh to let ! o!r fell[ live & prosp]1 )\t fe>+ him40 ,aft] m5tion+ 8fe> ( :at may come1 or lu/ = :at may be seiz$10 z motives mak+ = de/ruction1 he add$3 8,nei!r is con/ructive or progressive1 & nei!r c w9 9 ! end40 8,we h purpose to progress beyond ! vision ( man10 he w5t on1 8b ev5 mat]ial progress1 to be con/ructive & p]man5t1 mu/ be gov]n$ by a vision beyond ! day4 ,we are try+ to ext5d t vision4 8,co-op]ation 9 individual ent]prise has succe$$4 ,co-op]ation 9 national ent]prise w\ld succe$ no less4 ,m & m1 m5 are recogniz+ ! value ( unit$ ef=t 9 comm]cial ent]prise1 h[ev] long x took ! tru? to dawn4 ,mu/ o!r c5turies pass1 o!r w>s be f\ght1 o!r dyna/ies rise & fall1 be=e ! l>g] tru? u%]s 9 a new day8 ,w co-op]ation 9 bus9ess1 co-op]ation 9 w>1 tea* !m to /udy & practise co-op]ation 9 _w welf>e & progress8 ,w !y le>n t x is n only 9 w> t a weak5$ ,belgium means an endang]$ ,engl&1 t a hungry ,france means %ort rations 9 ,am]ica1 t a l9k weak5$ means ! *a9 weak8 8,h[ _m times mu/ ?is premise be demon/rat$ be=e ! argum5t is c>ri$ to its logical conclusion1 & national co-op]ation1 free & volunt>y1 provide = ! good ( "o by protect+ & develop+ all8 8,?is is n a ,utopian fantasy4 ,x is common s5se40 ,,xiii ,talk+ ab\t ! ,lessons "o day1 ,mr4 ,k5dal m5tion$ 8 impression t ,zoroa/] _h said some?+ approa*+ ! fir/ "o 9 !ory1 & !n ask$1 a :imsical gleam 9 8 eye3 8,m>y1 has ,pr(essor ,james said any?+ ab\t ,zoroa/] 9 ?is connection80 8,manzie1 ,mr4 ,james has no philosophical libr>y "h to ref] to10 0 ! prompt retort4 ,%e told u1 h[ev]1 t he w\ld soon come himself to talk to ?is =m] pupil ( 81 add+ a *>act]i/ic gl9t ( humor 9 ! assurance t he w\ld !n give 8a demon/ration ( a philosoph] simplifi$ to a =ce40 ,a night or two aft]w>d 7,may #ac?71 %e ann\nc$3 8,manzie1 "h is ,mr4 ,james40 ,!re 0 a brief delay1 & :5 ! p5cil mov$ aga91 x 0 ) a *ang$ application ( =ce & a new movem5t1 ! fir/ words be+ p]sonal4 ,ref]r+ to an e>ly p]iod 9 8 own inve/igation ( psy*ic ph5om5a1 he said3 8,y\?1 9 its ne>ness to inspiration1 sometimes sees m cle>ly ?an age1 ) its academic dep5d5ce ^u !ory & prec$5t & :at m5 call ! wisdom ( exp]i5ce4 ,:5 ?is wisdom is bas$ on p]ception1 consci\s or o!rwise1 ( et]nal purpose1 x transc5ds ! vision ( y\?4 ,b :5 x is bas$ on p]ception ( physical ph5om5a & ! accumulat$ !ories ( o!r m51 y\? has an inspiration & a fai? t leads x1 all unkn[+1 to ! br9k ( great my/]ies40 ,?is 0 foll[$ by an allusion to ^? 8befogg$ 9 prec$5t1 physical ph5om5a1 & intellectual !ory10 :o 7 8unable to foll[ :]e !y %\ld h l$40 8,!re has seem$ to be a good deal ( g5u9e feel+ und]ly+ ! humor\s p]siflage ?r\gh ! p5cil ab\t ! sci5tific /ate ( m9d10 ,mr4 ,k5dal sugge/$4 8,hasn't ! "t come :5 we c rea* ! sci5tific type ( m9d8 ,& isn't x wor? :ile to d s8 ,& if s1 :at is ! be/ psy*ological l9e ( attack80 8,! sci5ti/ is n by any means hopeless1 b l _m m5 9 y\r plane1 he is ov]balanc$ & !re=e unbalanc$ by physical consid]ations4 ,physical ph5om5a are ( vital importance 9 y\r life1 & _! /udy & analysis has l$ to a degree ( mat]ial progress :i* w\ld h be5 incr$ible to ! ?ird--& all b incr$ible to ! second--g5]ation back4 ,x is only because sci5ti/s h p]si/$ 9 ! /udy ( physical ph5om5a t y are enabl$ to und]/& 9 "s "p :at is n[ be+ giv5 y4 ,! misappreh5sion has be5 t physical ph5om5a alone c\ld be recogniz$4 ,^? :o h believ$ t h d5i$ ! exi/5ce ( ! greate/ & mo/ p]si/5t ( all =ces4 ,attempts to expla9 spiritual ph5om5a by physical =mul h be5 f\nd unsuccessful by e "o save ^? :o took refuge 9 d5ial ( ! ?+ t mov$ !m to d5y1 ! et]nal & inde/ructible purpose4 8,:5 to _! laboratories sci5ti/s br+ p]ception ( spiritual ph5om5a exce$+ any mat]ial manife/ation kn[n to man 9 /r5g? & significance1 !n !y may hope to discov] & develop a =ce beside :i* all kn[n =ces are insignificant4 ,sci5ce is ! ladd] by :i* life may quickly asc5d1 b until sci5ce recognizes a spiritual =ce z ! "o ess5tial =ce1 ( :i* all o!r =ces are incid5tal ph5om5a1 progress mu/ be limit$40 8,!n1 g5]ally speak+10 ,mr4 ,k5dal said1 8p]haps ! mo/ effective appeal to sci5ti/s w\ld be ! appeal to sci5tific ambition40 8,always ! mo/ effective means to w9 any man to any?+ is to appeal to 8 purpose4 ,if x be p]sonal1 appeal to 8 vanity4 ,if x be progressive1 appeal to 8 eag]ness4 ,if x be intellectual1 pique 8 curiosity4 ,sci5ti/s1 l o!rs1 are divid$ 9 purpose40 8,we h be5 mu* int]e/$ 9 ! decisive def9it5ess ) :i* our fri5ds on t plane h be5 able to classify ! purposes ( p]sons "h10 ,mr4 ,k5dal m5tion$4 8,is ?is z cle> to y z physical *>act]i/ics are to u1 & z quickly det]m9$80 8,yes1 & 9 mu* ! same way4 ,we see motive & int5tion & _! v>iations z y see physical appe>ance1 vitality & its v>iations4 ,we see dis9tegrat+ moral factors m cle>ly ?an y see physical ills4 ,we judge ( purpose by its vitality & p]si/5ce "u /ra91 precisely z y judge ( physical heal? by its vitality "u /ra9 & by its p]si/5ce 9 spite ( occasional disease40 8,!n y see dis9tegrat+ =ce z ! sci5ti/ sees g]ms80 ,cass inquir$4 8,z disease80 8,no1 we see !m z foes4 ,i speak "h only ( ! way we judge purpose4 ,!re is no diseas$ purpose4 ,!re may be /ruggle betwe5 m or less intellig5t =ces1 b 9 us+ ! simile ( physical heal?1 ,i did x 9 a limit$ s5se40 8,is !re an inh]5t reason = ! diff]5t types ( philosophies80 ,mr4 ,k5dal n[ que/ion$4 8,t is1 ! ,nirvana-oblivion type 9 ! ,ori5t1 z contra/$ ) ! hell-fire-&-brim/one type 9 ! ,occid5t4 ,if inh]5t1 is its cause geographical1 intellectual1 biological1 or :at80 8,a little ( all ( !m4 ,philosophies are ! outgr[? ( conditions1 physical1 moral & geographical--& !re=e to "s ext5t biological--to a mu* great] degree ?an is g5]ally recogniz$4 ,x has be5 said t food makes ! man4 ,to a great] degree1 environm5t makes ! philosoph]40 8,may we publi% ?is z com+ f y80 8,c]ta9ly4 ,i am "h = t purpose4444 ,light & ,progress are my purposes1 & tea*+ /ill my "w40 ,aft] a few l9es ( purely p]sonal significance1 ?is 0 sign$3 8,william ,james40 ,,xiv ,( ! messages t may be quot$1 !re rema9 only a few deta*$ /atem5ts1 remov$ f _! p]sonal context1 b reproduc$ because ( _! g5]al int]e/ or significance4 8,don't worry ab\t ,c----0 0 "o bit ( specific advice1 giv5 9 ,m>*1 be=e any ( ! ,lessons _h be5 receiv$4 8,%e w h h] tr\bles1 b %e mu/ dree h] own weird4 ,y might save h] "s pa91 b life's purpose may n be taught4 ,x mu/ be f\ght =1 ) blood & sweat4 ,let ,c---- get h] w\nds 9 h] own way4 ,y may !n soo! ! pa94 ,b don't try to sp>e h] ! fight4 ,t has to d ) ! l>g] que/ions ( life & et]nity40 8#8,life's purpose may n be taught1' b ! laws und]ly+ ! se>* = x may be80 8,( c\rse4 ,we are try+ n[ to wake ! _w to consci\sness t ^! laws exi/4 ,mo/ p1 broadly speak+1 h =gott5 !m1 9 ! g5]al contempt = laws :]e !y are n en=c$1 & 9 ! g5]al hatr$ ( !m :]e !y are en=c$ 9 oppression & fe>40 ,a few days lat]1 ano!r p]son1 writ+ ( ano!r & mu* y\ng] girl1 said3 8,%e may h a h>d "t ov] ! conflict+ purposes4 ,ev]ybody does4 ,b ) y to give h] a f\ndation1 ,i d n fe> = h]4444 ,h] /ruggles w only make h] /rong]4 ,d n try to save h] f pa94 ,rememb] t x is h] "m :o says ?is4 ,let h] meet life fully & "w h] way upw>d4 ,%e w always yield 9 ! end to ! sublime purpose40 ,on a lat] occasion1 ?is same p]son said3 8,we help all we c1 b ev5 :5 y want u to1 we are unwill+ to hold back ! l>g] & vital developm5t 9 ord] to ha/5 "s small] conclusion4 ,ev5 :5 ! small conclusion is important to y1 x mu/ be y\r own *oice t helps y2 & if ! *oice is wrong at ! mom5t1 x /ill helps 9 ! end40 8,%e's too sympa!tic = h] own good10 0 said ( ano!r "y woman4 8,%e'd d ! vic>i\s atonem5t act = all creation1 if %e c\ld4 ,:at %e ne$s is to h ?is purpose bus9ess driv5 into h]4 ,e fell[ has to d 8 own fight+1 & 8 own atonem5t1 & 8 own climb+1 & take :at's com+ to him :ile he does x4 ,%e's always try+ to s(t5 ! pa? & take ! swipes h]self1 & x c't be done4 ,%e gets ! bl[ & ! /ra9 & ! /ruggle1 all "r1 b x imp$es h] & gets ! o!r fell[ n[h]e4 ,x helps nobody to save !m ! consequ5ces ( _! own *oice4 ,! way to help is to call to _! con/ructive purpose & give !m a *ance4 ,if !y *oose n to take x1 !n let !m take all ! consequ5ce t's com+4 ,if t doesn't tea* !m1 !re's no?+ m to d1 except to turn !m ov] to somebody :o c ar\se _! purpose1 if !y h any4 ,anyh[1 mak+ a buff] ( y\rself j batt]s up good mat]ial = no ga9 9 =ce or purpose40 ,aga91 ano!r p]son to ano!r gr\p4 8,let any fight+ =ce d 8 own fight+4 ,sugge/1 enlight51 enc\rage1 b don't try to c>ry ! burd5 ( ano!r's life4 ,y c't hurry _! developm5t1 & y imp$e y\r own & t ( o!rs ( y\r own purpose4444 ,y are l ! fell[ 9 ! fable1 :o f9i%$ by c>ry+ n only ! pack1 b ! donkey1 too4 ,x's a v sweet & unselfi% disposition1 b d y ?9k x improves ! donkey = 8 /ation 9 life8 ,n t ,i'm call+ ,s---- a donkey1 b l all mank9d1 he c>ries a pack4 ,y c't c>ry bo?1 & he won't le>n to apply 8 =ce ev5ly "h if y d x = him !re4 ,lots ( p develop unev5ly & h to ev5 up some:]e4 ,:y delay ! process by vic>i\s labor1 especially :5 x only exhau/s y & doesn't develop 8 muscles any8 ,selah60 8,y c tra9 ,o---- to c>ry physical temptations1 if y beg9 e>ly10 a man said1 writ+ ( 8 nephew4 8,don't let him yield to impulse or desire :5 x is de/ructive4 ,make him build 8 body fir/1 z a boy4 ,make him respect x & its promise4 ,t's a bully ?+ = a boy to "k at ! beg9n+4 ,he reasons f t to o!r ?+s4 ,a boy is a brute fir/1 b a ?9k+ brute4 ,if he respects ! fle%1 he respects all ?+s 9 "t40 8,:at is my purpose80 a "y man ask$1 "o day4 8,build+4 ,y are go+ to be #8him t ha?4' ,build ) y\r possessions4 ,beg9 ! f\ndation n[4 ,build4444 ,build z a produc]1 or z a heal]1 or 9 any way t makes = progress1 keeps y gr[+1 develops =ces = con/ruction1 & gives ! o!r fell[s a *ance to d _! be/ also4444 ,n = y\rself alone1 b = all :o may climb by y\r ladd] ( opportunity40 ,mayn>d ,holt1 writ+ to a fri5d "h1 spoke ( him z a good fight]1 & :5 ?is p]son said t he w\ld n h be5 able to fight at all1 b = ! little h& ( a lady on ! next plane1 ,mayn>d return$3 8,i "k y f\ght h>d1 ?\gh 9 d>kness1 be=e y f\nd t h&4 ,t's "o reason we c\nt on y n[4 ,a man :o w fight cont9u\sly 9 d>kness is a 444 a 4440 ,! p5cil paus$1 & aft] futile ef=ts to proce$1 retrac$ its pa?1 app>5tly to cross out aga9 & aga9 ! la/ lett]4 ,we 7 talk+ & paid no att5tion to its movem5t1 b :5 x ceas$ aga91 we discov]$ t ,mayn>d _h drawn a five-po9t$ />4 ,!n he proce$$3 8444 lum9>y ( =ce himself1 :5 light breaks40 ,!re 7 _m int]e/+ *>act]izations1 bo? ( p]sons on ?is plane & ( ^? on ! next4 8,e---- is a f9e =ce1 b ,a---- is a =ce multipli$ & ref9$ to p[]10 0 said ( "o c\ple4 ,a /rik+ example ( ! det]m9ation ( our 8fantom fri5ds0 to convey _! mean+ despite ob/acles1 0 indicat$ :5 "s "o _h told me1 dur+ an int]view1 ( a boy's objection to 8 "m's activity 9 "o ( ! rec5t 8drives0 connect$ ) w> "w1 on ! gr\nd t x 8made h] conspicu\s40 8,m---- is an entirely tra 444 trem 444 tr 444 normal & tra 444 tremul\s y\?1 :]e 8 "m & si/] are conc]n$10 0 8 fa!r's humor\s comm5t4 ,app>5tly1 9 ?is case1 ! connection 0 imp]fect1 no intimation ( 8 mean+ rea*+ me1 & only by alt]+ ! =m ( 8 s5t5ce 0 he able to get x writt54 8,miss ,t---- has mu* to le>n & mu* to suff] be=e a tea*+ bas$ on unity ( =ce or purpose w rea* h] =cefully10 we 7 told1 on ano!r occasion4 8,%e mu/ le>n ! %all[s ( self be=e %e c s\nd ! dep?s ( individuality1 9 ! l>g] & et]nal int]pretation ( ! ^w40 ,foll[+ "o ( ! num]\s discussions ( ,g]many & h] purposes1 a "q ab\t a man ( ,g]man p>5tage br\ght ?is reply3 8,b---- is ,am]ican4 ,! national ta9t ( docility is n 9 him40 ,! mean+ ( purpose & its application 0 /at$ _m times 9 _m ways4 ,"o ( ! mo/ *>act]i/ic ( ^! expressions came f a fam\s humori/4 8,!re are ?+s brew+ "h & among y !re10 he said1 8t are go+ to make ! w>s ( ! tribes ( ,hoh5zoll]n1 ,hapsburg & ,mephi/o look l a village pray] meet+4 ,! c>nage ( ,v]dun & ,mons & ! :ole %[ s9ce 8 little nibs 0 assass9at$ is a picayune proposition comp>$ to ! losses ( "t1 purpose1 =ce & sav+ grace t we're all go+ to feel1 if we c't wake y p up to pull toge!r aga9/ ! devil's crew40 ,"s "o ask$ :e!r a husb& & wife1 n too cong5ial 9 ?is life1 7 toge!r !re1 & 0 told t he 0 8flock+ ) birds ( 8 own fea!r10 & t %e _h 8peacefully & tranquilly f\nd h] own40 ,ano!r memb] ( ?is family gr\p 0 ) nei!r ( ! o!rs1 x 0 said1 8because %e f\nd h] v own1 = :i* !y 7 only a sub/itute40 8,h y se5 ,jim8 ,is !re any feel+ ab\t 8 wife's m>ry+ aga980 0 a "q :i* w int]e/ _m p]sons4 8,jim is "h & v happy4 ,he has no res5tm5t1 & wi%es ,alice to be happy4 ,!y are bo? ( ! =ces ( progress1 b n ( j ! same purpose4 ,!y h>monize1 b d n t\*40 ,aga91 "s "o ask$ :e!r "o p>ty to an uncong5ial m>riage regrett$ ! o!r's rejo9+ him s soon4 8,%e didn't10 0 ! reply4 8,he hasn't se5 h] yet1 & won't4 ,he is will+ to "w ) h] purpose1 b n eag] to t\* h] =ce40 8,:at ab\t ,laura80 a woman ask$4 8,%e is com+ to u soon1 b d n be afraid1 de>4 ,%e w be t5d]ly met & guid$1 & w be mu* ne>] y all1 mu* happi] & m helpful1 ?an %e is n[4 ,nev] grieve aga9 = dea?4 ,x is bir?1 & s happy40 ,)9 a few weeks1 ?is came to pass4 ,:5 ,i ask$ ,m>y ,k4 = a message = a "m b]eav$ by w>1 %e said3 8,tell h] we w s5d = h] :5 he has gr[n accu/om$ en\gh to talk to h]4 ,tell h] t he is c>$ = t5d]ly & guid$1 & t %e mu/ n grieve4 ,%e hurts him & h]self4 ,make h] und]/& t %e c help him by kn[+ t he lives & loves h] & is ne> h]1 & t x is "p ( h] "w z a "m to help him 9 ?is 444 to f9d 8 purpose m quickly ?r\gh h] love40 ,we 7 aft]w>d told t he _h n yet le>n$ ! 8free communion10 b t f ! mom5t 8 "m began to 8lift h] _s to meet 810 ?is "y man's developm5t 0 ha/5$4 ,frequ5tly1 :5 tell+ ab\t ^! revelations1 ,i h be5 ask$3 8,:at d !y say ab\t re9c>nation80 8,!re is no possible re9c>nation10 ,m>y ,k4 said1 :5 ,i ref]r$ ! "q to h]4 8,t is a dream ( ! ,ori5t4 ,! idea ( re9c>nation is regressive4 ,n de/ructive1 b det]r5t4 ,n progressive4 ,x is born ( bodily desire40 8,is x l ! desire ( old m5 = y\?80 8,m4 ,x is a mask1 cov]+ mat]ial desire ) spiritual semblance4 ,x is taught f ?is plane by det]r5t or p>tly det]r5t =ces1 lack+ free vision40 ,9 ano!r connection1 b ) simil> mean+1 ,david ,bruce said3 8,"s p]sons hide _! love ( ! fle% by an exagg]at$ expression ( spirituality1 & !n ?9k ( ways ( insi/+ on ! fle%40 ,simil>ly1 writ+ ?r\gh h] husb&'s p5cil1 ,m>y ,k5dal said1 :5 he ask$ h] :at _h become ( p]sons l ,cs>1 ,lu!r1 ,cobd51 ,ar*im$es1 & o!rs 9 g5]al3 8,!re is a great diff]5ce 9 ! l5g? ( "t p /ay 9 ?is plane ne>e/ to t ( ! e>?1 :i* dep5ds n only on ! /age ( developm5t :i* !y h atta9$ :5 !y come "h1 b also on ! "* ( "w !y are be/ fitt$ to d4 ,if !y c be ( m use 9 direct or indirect contact ) y\r plane1 !y /ay "h sometimes _m ye>s1 z y measure "t2 b if !y are ret>d$ 9 _! developm5t :5 !y arrive "h1 !y h a long road to travel be=e !y c g on to any o!r plane4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z transmigration ( s\ls z y und]/& x1 b t idea is ak9 to :at actually does happ51 9 ! s5se t su* individualities h to pass ?r\gh /ages ( developm5t :i* are relatively inf]ior 9 /atus to ^? t !y might ent] into1 com+ f y\r plane1 if !y _h made great] progress !re1 or _h f\ght a bett] fight on t plane40 ,:5 he said t 8 idea 9 ask+ ab\t specific individuals 0 to get concrete in/ances by :i* to *eck up ! g5]al law1 %e return$3 8,! dang] 9 t is t y\r idea ( :at ^? individuals really 7 is v apt to be wrong1 & />t+ f wrong premises y c\ld h>dly avoid rea*+ wrong conclusions4444 ,m>t9 ,lu!r 0 a mixture ( purposes4 ,he did great "w = progress 9 fight+ ! conv5tions & b9d+ t5d5cy ( ecclesia/icism 9 8 times1 b he _h p]sonal motives :i* 7 det]r5t1 & :i* he sp5t a long "t 9 work+ out :5 he left t plane40 ,( ,napoleon %e said3 8,!re h be5 few in/ances ( great] pro/itution ( great tal5ts & great opportunity 9 hi/ory1 & he paid--& is pay+--! p5alty1 or ! consequ5ce40 ,to ! _m inquiries z to h[ direct communication may be e/abli%$ betwe5 p]sons "h & ! de> ones gone be=e1 ?is message ( ,david ,bruce's to 8 wife conta9s ! briefe/ & mo/ compreh5sive answ]4 ,%e said3 8,i wond] :at he's go+ to tell me80 8,i'm go+ to tell y to be calm & s]5e ( _s1 no matt] :at seems to be happ5+ to di/urb y4 ,mo/ ( ! di/urb+ factors ( individual life on y\r plane are ephem]al--?+s ( ! mom5t & ( ! place4 ,o!rs are m important ?an !y seem4 ,i am n always able to tell y ab\t !m4 ,x delays y1 in/ead ( help+ y1 :5 ! decision is n y\r own4 ,"o way t ,i c truly help :5 y are tr\bl$ is by :at we c be/ describe z ! free communion4 ,:5 y are p]turb$ 9 _s & full ( d\bt1 x is difficult = u to rea* y4444 ,op5 ! door ( spiritual =ce to =ces "h1 & we c always help4 ,t is :at we hope to e/abli% z a recogniz$ tru? 9 y\r life !re4 ,t a =ce z yet unkn[n to sci5ce is op]at+ betwe5 ! planes1 & c be develop$ & us$ 9 y\r life !re--to a less degree ?an 9 ours1 b /ill ) great effect4 ,x is = ?is t we "w 9 ?is communion1 :i* is m def9ite to y n[ & less s to u4 ,we "k ! limits to :i* mat]ial manife/ation l ?is is conf9$1 & are eag] to tea* y gradually ! fre] & full] way40 ,,xv 8,a ?\ght t w occur to _m p]sons is t ! tru?s we endeavor to tea* are n entirely new4 8,tru? is fundam5tal & et]nal4 ,!re is no new tru?2 !re is only new und]/&+ & application ( tru? t has always exi/$4 ,no great tea*] has ev] told new tru?4 ,no great tea*] has ev] told tru? 9 a new way1 until ! old] tea*+s _h begun to lose _! hold on ! m9ds ( m54 ,no great tea*] has ev] f\nd an audi5ce = 8 new int]pretation ( tru?1 until ! m9ds ( m5 _h grop$ ?r\gh d>kness t[>d a light dimly p]ceiv$1 if at all4 8,! "t is ripe n[ = ! cry/allization ( new application ( et]nal tru?4 ,m5 hung] = bread ( ! _s1 & ?ir/ = ! wat]s ( et]nity4 ,?is is ! answ] ( et]nal =ces to _! se>*1 & x comes1 = ! fir/ "t1 n ?r\gh a tea*] or a prophet1 b ?r\gh a human in/rum5t s5sitive to a high degree to ! influ5ce ( ! =ce t is life's motive p[]4 8,!re are _m conditions affect+ ! application ( t =ce 9 ^! communications1 t _c n[ be expla9$2 _m conditions influ5c+ its direction1 t y d n und]/&4 ,"s day y\r sci5ti/s w discov] & prove by exp]im5t c]ta9 laws n[ unrecogniz$1 & ^! days ( d\bt & sc(f+ w disappe> 9 a pa/ fill$ ) d5ial & disc\ragem5t ( almo/ e discov]y n[ call$ mod]n & progressive4 8,two ?+s only we h /riv5 = ?r\gh y3 to prove to a gr\p ( intellig5t p]sons t ?is =ce exi/s & may be practically appli$ betwe5 y\r plane & ours1 & to w>n mank9d ( ! nature & et]nal import ( imp5d+ /ruggles4 ,we h m to tell :5 !y are ready to li/51 & ^u ! *oice ( !m :o he> ?is tru? ! imm$iate progress ( ! _w dep5ds4 ,x is a w>n+ to unite & prep>e = combat4 8,?is is ! tru?4 ,he$ x4 8,,m>y ,k40 ,june #ac1 #aiah4 ,,! ,,end ,,footnotes #a ,^! names occurr$ to me1 because ^! ?ree p]sons left u )9 a twelvemon?1 ab\t ?ree ye>s ago1 & all 7 ei!r fri5ds or closely id5tifi$ ) fri5ds ( ours4 #b ,i n[ believe t ?is 0 ,annie ,mann+'s fir/ int]ruption4 #c ,i _h ask$ :e!r %e knew any ( ! ?ree p]sons previ\sly m5tion$1 & ea* "t %e _h repli$ 9 ! negative4 #d ,h] husb&1 ,mansfield ,k5dal4 #e ,i h s9ce le>n$ t ?is 0 *>act]i/ic ( him4 ,8 lett]s home frequ5tly began3 8,de> ,family40 #f ,sev]al h\rs lat] ,i read ,cass's lett] & telegram to 8 physician1 :o advis$ me to g at once to ,atlantic ,city4 #g ,ea* ( ^! words 0 writt5 9 l>g] script ?an ! prec$+ "o4 #h ,lat] developm5ts make x seem probable t ?is 0 an attempt to write ! famili> dim9utive = :i* 8 fa!r aft]w>d ask$1 & t my 8too rigid vigilance0 %ut out ! sugge/ion4 #i ,%ort-circuit$8 #aj ,9 describ+ ,fr$]ick's pyrote*nical 8upside-d[n /unts0 & ! lat] 8trimm+s10 ! great facility ) :i* !y 7 execut$ %\ld h be5 m /rongly emphasiz$4 ,!y 7 all writt5 ) extraord9>y rapidity & firmness4