file which includes the original illustrations4 ,see #fjjfd-;h4htm or #fjjfd-;h4zip3 7https3_/_/www4gutenberg4org_/cache_/epu b_/#fjjfd_/pg#fjjfd-;images4html7 or 7https3_/_/www4gutenberg4org_/files_/#fj jfd_/fjjfd-;h4zip7 ,images of the original pages are available through ,internet ,archive4 ,see https3_/_/archive4org_/details_/dorothea bealeofc#jjraikiala ,,dorothea ,,beale ,,of ,,cheltenham ,illustration3 ,photo4 ,j4 ,c4 ,hughes ,dorothea ,beale from the portrait by ,j4 ,j4 ,shannon4 ,,dorothea ,,beale ,,of ,,cheltenham by ,,elizabeth ,,raikes ,illustrated ,london ,archibald ,constable and ,company ,ltd4 #aijh ,edinburgh3 ,t4 and ,a4 ,constable1 ,printers to ,his ,majesty ,,to #8,,her ,,children' ,,preface ,miss ,beale left ample materials for the history of her work4 ,not only were all business documents1 such as minutes of council meetings1 nomination papers1 examination questions carefully preserved1 she kept also all letters which could be of any interest4 ,she went further than merely arranging materials for a future book4 ,in #aijj she compiled a very complete ,history of the ,ladies' ,college4 ,here she traced its origin1 growth1 and expansion2 here1 too1 she named most carefully all who by earnest work and self-denial1 by industry1 talent1 or generous gift1 had in any way contributed to its wellbeing and influence4 ,she was anxious that all faithful work should be known4 ,but ,miss ,beale recognised that after her death there would be a demand for something more4 ,she was earnestly desirous that in any account which might appear of herself1 the work for which she lived should have the first place4 ,with her innate sensitiveness1 she shrank from the thought of a ,life4 ,it would not indeed be possible to write a life of ,dorothea ,beale which was not also1 fully and intimately1 a ,life of the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham4 ,yet ,miss ,beale left some materials for the more personal side of the book--many letters1 diaries1 and autobiographical fragments4 ,one paper opens thus3 #8,in these days we all live in glass houses1 and it seems useless to say1 ,let nothing appear in print4 ,the life of the ,college1 for which ,i have lived forty years1 some reminiscences of the state of things as regards education1 and some traces of the way in which the ,potter has formed the vessel for the service of the household1 may perhaps be allowed4 ,it seems to me that the story of the inward life may be helpful4 ,i should relate only those things which1 on looking back over my long life1 seem to have exercised a formative influence upon my own character1 and tended under ,god's ,providence to fit me for the work which was given me to do4 ,the circumstances and ideals of my childhood1 the family influences1 sometimes what seems a chance acquaintance1 or even a passing remark2 these viewed from within might have had an influence little dreamed of at the time4' ,i have endeavoured in this book to follow ,miss ,beale's own suggestions1 but also to give some faint idea of what she was to the many she inspired and taught4 ,in her ,history of the ,ladies' ,college she left little historical fact unmentioned3 it is possible for another to show that she was the real founder1 the main builder4 ,many thanks are owing to those who kindly furnished me with letters from ,miss ,beale4 ,it was difficult to select from the very large number received1 and it was with much regret that many had to be excluded1 lest the book should become unwieldy4 ,it remains but to add one word on my gratitude for the unfailing kindness and generous help of those who have read this book in manuscript and proof2 to ,mrs4 ,reynolds and ,miss ,bertha ,synge2 to ,miss ,helen ,cunliffe who undertook the somewhat wearisome task of deciphering the diaries1 and1 lastly1 to ,miss ,alice ,andrews1 whose name ,miss ,beale associated with mine when she asked me to write a ,history of the ,college4 ,,elizabeth ,,raikes4 ,june #b1 #aijh4 ,,contents ,,chap4 ,,page ,i4 ,,childhood #a ,,ii4 ,,queen',s ,,college #ag ,,iii4 ,,casterton #cf ,,iv4 ,,an ,,interval #fj ,v4 ,,cheltenham #ha ,,vi4 ,,early ,,history ,,of ,,the ,,ladies' ,,college #ajh ,,vii4 ,a ,,royal ,,commission #acd ,,viii4 ,,organisation #aeh ,,ix4 ,,de ,,profundis #agi ,x4 ,,the ,,guild #bjc ,,xi4 ,,st4 ,,hilda',s ,,work #bbf ,,xii4 ,,teacher ,,and ,,principal #bed ,,xiii4 ,,parerga #bhf ,,xiv4 ,,honours #cab ,,xv4 ,,the ,,last ,,term #cdi ,,xvi4 ,,letters #cga ,,index #dbg ,,list ,,of ,,illustrations ,,dorothea ,,beale4 ,from the ,portrait by ,j4 ,j4 ,shannon1 ,a4,r4,a ,frontispiece ,,caroline ,,frances ,,cornwallis4 ,from a ,painting by ,herself to face page #d ,,cambray ,,house4 ,from an ,old ,engraving 0 #ij ,,miss ,,dorothea ,,beale1 #ahei 0 #ajh ,,mr4 ,t4 ,,houghton ,,brancker 0 #abj ,,the ,,lower ,,hall1 ,,ladies' ,,college1 ,,cheltenham4 ,a ,photograph by ,miss ,bertha ,synge 0 #baf ,s4 ,,hilda',s ,,hall1 ,,oxford 0 #bch ,,ladies' ,,college ,,and ,,garden1 #aijh 0 #bed ,,the ,,empress ,,frederick ,,at ,,cheltenham4 ,from a ,photograph by ,mr4 ,domenico ,barnett 0 #ccd ,,dorothea ,,beale1 ,,ll4,d4 0 #cdj ,,chapter ,i ,,childhood #8,wisdom goeth about seeking them that are worthy of her1 and in their paths she appeareth graciously1 and in every purpose she meeteth them4 #8,for her true beginning is desire of discipline2 and the care for discipline is love of her2 and love of her is observance of laws4' ,wisdom of ,solomon1 vi4 #af1 #ag1 #ah4 ,dorothea ,beale was born on ,march #ba1 #ahca4 ,the story of her childhood and youth forms a good illustration of the best education that girls of the early ,victorian time could obtain4 ,it gives also a glimpse of the fears and hopes1 the silent struggles1 the disappointments of many a girl who strove to wrest1 as from a grudging ,fate1 the opportunity to inform and use her mind4 ,as far as possible this story is told autobiographically4 ,miss ,beale belonged to a ,gloucestershire family4 ,one ancestor1 in the early days of the manufacturing settlement in the ,stroud ,valley1 married a ,miss ,hyde1 a relation of the ,chancellor4 ,she brought to her husband ,hyde ,court1 ,chalford1 where ,miss ,beale's brother1 ,mr4 ,henry ,beale1 now resides4 ,miss ,beale's own father1 however1 never lived there4 ,his parents1 who married young1 settled at ,brownshill in ,gloucestershire1 and here his father 7,dorothea's grandfather7 died1 leaving a widow aged only twenty-four with three children1 ,john1 ,miles1 and ,mary1 to be brought up on very slender means4 ,mrs4 ,john ,beale removed to ,bath1 where she remained till the boys left school for ,guy's ,hospital4 ,then she came to live with them in ,essex1 where for a time they practised in partnership4 ,in #ahbd ,miles married ,dorothea ,margaret ,complin1 a lady of ,huguenot extraction2 her grandfather had practised as a physician in ,spital ,square1 one of the original settlements of the ,french immigrants4 ,in #ahcj the young couple with three children came to live in ,st4 ,helen's parish1 ,bishopsgate1 where a year later ,dorothea1 their fourth child and third daughter1 was born4 ,she was baptized in the ancient church of ,st4 ,helen's on ,june #aj1 #ahca4 #8,awoke early4 ,baptism ,day4 ,read the service1' she wrote in her diary in #ahia4 ,the ,complins were a family of wide connections4 ,mrs4 ,beale's aunt1 ,mrs4 ,cornwallis1 wife of the ,rev4 ,william ,cornwallis1 rector of ,wittersham1 ,kent1 was an active1 benevolent woman with literary tastes and occupations4 ,she took a great interest in her two young nieces1 ,elizabeth and ,dorothea ,margaret ,complin1 who at an early age lost their own mother1 her sister4 ,the two little girls were sent to school at ,ealing1 where the elder1 ,elizabeth1 gained many prizes or #8,rewards of ,merit1' as school prizes were then called4 ,after her sister's marriage to ,mr4 ,miles ,beale1 ,elizabeth ,complin lived for some time with her clever aunt and cousin1 ,mrs4 ,cornwallis and her daughter ,caroline1 sharing their interests and studies4 ,on the death of her brother's wife she came to live in ,london4 ,there she was brought into immediate touch with her nieces1 ,dorothea ,beale and her sisters1 whom she delighted to help and advise in their reading1 and who by her means became familiar with the aims and ideals of the ,cornwallises4 ,these more distant relations1 whose intellectual aims and work ,miss ,beale always reckoned among the influences of her early life1 were themselves authors of no mean merit4 #8,mrs4 ,cornwallis wrote several devotional books1 and is said to have learned ,hebrew in the first instance to teach her grandson1 ,james ,trimmer4 ,she wrote also for him a series of papers on the canonical ,scriptures1 in four volumes4 ,this was published by subscription1 as was the custom with expensive works in those days4 ,the ,queen and a number of great people entered their names1 and with the profits ,mrs4 ,cornwallis was able to build schools in her husband's parish4'#a ,james ,trimmer died when only twelve4 ,his other grandmother was also literary--,mrs4 ,sarah ,trimmer1 famous in her own day as the author of nearly thirty volumes for the young4 ,her ,sacred ,history was the most important of these1 but perhaps the best known now is ,the ,history of the ,robins4 #8,one story of his childhood1' runs the autobiography1 #8was a great favourite with us as children4 ,his uncle had settled to sell a pony of which ,james was very fond1 and many were the tears he shed4 ,his grandmother 7,mrs4 ,cornwallis7 said1 8,i think1 ,james1 that this life is a journey upwards2 each time we do right1 or bear a sorrow patiently1 we get up one step of the ladder to ,heaven40 ,so he dried his eyes and was quite cheerful once more4 ,meanwhile1 his uncle1 seeing the boy's sorrow1 cancelled the sale1 and brought news to ,james that the pony was his once more4 ,again to his surprise1 ,james burst into tears1 and at length it was drawn from him that he feared now he would have to come down from that step of the ladder4 ,he was finally consoled by some such doctrine as ,browning has commended in the words1 8',tis not what man does that exalts him1 but what man would do40 ,all her pupils were not as responsive as ,james4 ,once1 after expending her eloquence on a plough-boy whom she was preparing for confirmation1 she said3 8,now1 are you not glad that you have a soul80 to which she could only get the reply1 8,i don't care very little about it44440 #8,mr4 ,cornwallis was a scholar2 he was a descendant of ,archbishop ,cornwallis4 ,i do not know any details of his ,college career2 but he taught his only unmarried daughter ,latin and ,greek classics1 and she gained such a rare facility in understanding that he used to read the classics aloud to her1 and expect her to follow4 ,he was a friend of ,sismondi1 from whom ,miss ,cornwallis received an offer of marriage1 which she declined on the ground of great disparity of age4 ,sismondi lent her afterwards his villa at ,pisa1 and my aunt1 her great friend1 accompanied her there4 ,a journey to ,italy for two ladies was a great undertaking1 and many interesting reminiscences used we to hear from my aunt4 ,she there acquired a good knowledge of ,italian1 by which we benefited later4'#b ,in after years ,miss ,caroline ,cornwallis moved to ,maidstone1 where she exercised her many talents and versatile mind in varied occupations4 ,miss ,cornwallis not only studied ,greek1 ,latin1 and ,hebrew1 but such questions of the day as criminal procedure2 she also read philosophy4 ,she wrote besides articles for the ,westminster ,review and ,fraser's ,magazine1 several books in a series entitled #8,small ,books on ,great ,subjects--edited by a few well-wishers to knowledge4' ,the first was ,philosophical ,theories and ,experience of a ,pariah4 ,she said women were regarded as pariahs1 and were it known that the book was written by a woman it would not be read4#c ,others of the series which she wrote were some volumes entitled ,a ,brief ,view of ,greek ,philosophy1 and some historical works1 ,the ,state of the ,world before the ,introduction of ,christianity4 ,she also wrote a classical novel called ,pericles and ,aspasia4 ,miss ,cornwallis rejoiced in the fact that as a woman1 though unknown1 she obtained for her writings the praise of #8big-wigs4' #88,i long10 she wrote to a friend after one of her works had received flattering notices in the ,british ,medical ,journal1 8to knock all the big-wigs together and say it was a woman that did all this--a woman that laughed at you all and despised your praise4 ,and if1 like ,caligula's wish1 ,i could put all mankind into one and leave you to say that in its ears when ,i am gone quietly to my grave1 ,i think it would be glorious4 ,it is as a woman1 and not as the individual ,c4,f4,c41 that ,i enjoy my triumph2 for1 as regards my own proper self1 ,i like to creep in a corner and be quiet2 but to raise my whole sex and with it the world is an object worth fagging for4 ,heart and hand to the work40' ,illustration3 ,caroline ,frances ,cornwallis ,from a painting by herself ,miss ,cornwallis reflects the thought of her day with regard to women's work4 ,it was one of the tasks of her cousin1 ,dorothea ,beale--whose #8fagging' in the next generation did so much for her own sex and the world--to show that the best work is done when the question of what will be said about it does not affect it one way or the other4#d ,the authorship of the ,small ,books was a well-kept secret4 #8,we did not know who wrote the books till after her death1 though my aunt1 who gave them to us1 often stayed with her as her amanuensis4 ,miss ,cornwallis was a skilled handworker1 too4 ,before the ,society for ,home ,arts existed she learned to bind books for her library4 ,she was no mean artist1 and her portrait of herself in her library is considered very successful4 ,i have heard how she fitted up a marionette theatre for the amusement of friends4 ,i did not know her personally2 she died when ,i was young2 but the talk of her ability and knowledge1 and the association with my aunt1 ,elizabeth ,complin1 who was her friend1 had much to do with calling out my literary ambition4'#e ,the ,beales were a very large family1 with more than twenty years between the eldest and youngest children2 and all those things which make home life at once precious in itself and valuable as a training for the world's work were theirs to a full extent3 mutual love and toil and suffering1 the elder serving the younger1 the little ones looking up to the wise elder sisters1 the constant practice of all those qualities which are the law of a well-ordered religious home4 ,both parents from the midst of their own absorbing personal occupations found time to lead out the mental abilities of their children1 by reading aloud to them1 giving verses of ,scripture and poetry to be learned by heart1 and finding time to hear them repeated4 ,the home atmosphere was serious and intellectual4 ,dorothea said she owed much to the literary tastes of her parents4 #8,i shall never forget1' she said1 #8how we learned to love ,shakspere1 through my father's reading to us1 when we were quite young1 selected portions4 ,i still remember the terror which1 as a very small child1 ,i felt as ,i heard ,portia pronounce the verdict4 ,i thought ,shylock had really gained the day4#f #8,history and general literature we would read with our mother1 and listen with delight to her stories of the eventful era she had lived through4' ,miles ,beale1 like his wife1 belonged to a family with cultivated tastes and interests4 ,among his relations he could reckon the eminent geologist and archologist1 ,william ,symonds1#g rector of ,pendock1 ,gloucestershire1 whose daughter married ,sir ,joseph ,hooker4 ,in connection with his friend the ,rev4 ,charles ,mackenzie1 vicar of ,st4 ,helen's1 and others1 ,mr4 ,beale joined a committee known as the ,literary ,society1 of which he became honorary secretary1 for the institution of lectures in ,crosby ,hall4 ,a library and evening classes were also formed1 and these became in time the basis of the present ,city of ,london ,college for young men4 ,he was much helped by ,miss ,maria ,hackett1 well known for her diligent efforts to rescue old endowments which1 granted for girls' education1 had been alienated to boys4 ,mr4 ,beale1 who was fond of music1 was also a prime mover in getting up concerts of sacred music4 #8,this made us acquainted with some musicians1 and amongst others with ,mrs4 ,bartholomew and her husband1 the friend of ,mendelssohn1 who translated many of the ,german songs4 ,he was a most interesting and cultivated man1 an artist and dramatist4'#h ,the growing children were often allowed to be present when their father's friends came1 and thus silently heard much thoughtful and intellectual conversation4 ,they looked up to him as to one who expected them to care for books and for matters of public moment1 and he strove to interest them in his own pursuits and reading1 and to give them a taste for what was really good4 #88,blessed are the pure in heart0--poor ,swift1' he said one day as he handled a volume of the great satirist4 #8,that1' said ,dorothea long after1 #8was the best literature lesson ,i ever received4' ,the daughter must have resembled her father both in literary taste and zeal4 ,this busy man1 who found time to pursue so many interests1 would accuse himself of being #8naturally idle4' ,it may come as a surprise to many who knew the strenuous life at ,cheltenham to find this was a fault of which the ,principal constantly accused herself4 ,one friend who was much with the ,beales1 often dining with them on ,sundays1 was ,charles ,mackenzie1 then headmaster of ,st4 ,olave's ,grammar ,school1 and successively vicar of ,st4 ,helen's1 ,bishopsgate1 and ,st4 ,benet's1 ,gracechurch ,street1 and prebendary of ,st4 ,paul's4 ,dorothea felt she owed much to his teaching2 he prepared her for confirmation in #ahdg4 ,as children she and her brothers and sisters attended ,st4 ,helen's4 ,again to quote her autobiography3 #8,to come to the nearer influences of my childhood4 ,there was the faith of my parents1 the morning and evening prayer4 ,there was the ,bible picture-book and the ,sunday lessons4 ,the church we went to was an old one1 ,st4 ,helen's1 and at the entrance were the words1 8,this is none other than the ,house of ,god1 and this is the ,gate of ,heaven40 ,there were high pews1 and the service was almost a duet between clergyman and clerk1 yet ,i realised1 even more than ,i ever have in the most beautiful cathedral and perfect services1 that the ,lord was in that place1 even as ,jacob realised in the desert what he had failed to find at home4 ,there was over the ,east window an oval coat of arms with strange scrolls which seemed to have eyes1 and reclining on each side two life-sized golden angels4 ,this thing seemed to speak strangely to my spiritual consciousness4 ,our clergyman must have read well4 ,i remember how1 as the story of the ,crucifixion was read1 the church would grow dark1 as it seemed4 ,there were no hymn-books1 only a few hymns pasted on a card1 and generally we sang from ,tate and ,brady4 ,i know nothing of the substance of the sermons now1 but ,i remember the emotion they often called forth1 and how ,i with difficulty restrained my tears4 ,there was a ,tuesday evening service1 at which ,i suppose there were never a dozen present1 but ,i found there great help1 and to be obliged to go elsewhere on that night was a great privation4 ,the hymns were a great power in my life4 ,i remember the joy with which ,i would sing1 in my own room1 ,ken's ,evening ,hymn1 and the awful joy of the ,trinity hymn1 8,holy1 holy1 holy40 #8,the books that we read most on ,sunday--for no secular book was allowed--were ,mant's ,bible with pictures1 which were explained by my mother1 and a book of ,martyrs with dreadful pictures2 ,bunyan's ,pilgrim's ,progress1 with the outline drawings1 and a number of tracts1 such as ,parley the ,porter1 and stories of good and bad children4 #8,an aunt1 my godmother1 lived with us1 and was often my friend in my childish troubles4 ,i shall not speak much of the governesses we had in succession1 because they left but little impression on my inner life1 nor need ,i speak of all my brothers and sisters1 except so far as they come into my inner life4 ,the strongest influence was that of my sister ,eliza4 ,we were constantly together4 ,she had a very lively imagination1 and on most nights would tell me stories that she had invented4 ,early in the mornings she would transform our bedroom into some wild magic scene1 and we would play at ,alexander the ,great1 and ride ,pegasus on the foot of our four-post bedstead4 ,i remember now how ,mangnall furnished her with mental pictures of heathen gods1 which were cut out in paper and painted4 ,london children had no outdoor games4'#i ,the elder daughters were at first educated by daily governesses4 ,dorothea said that among her earliest reminiscences about #ahdj were those relating to the choice of a governess4 #8,my mother advertised and hundreds of answers were sent4 ,she began by eliminating all those in which bad spelling occurred 7a proceeding which as a spelling reformer ,i must now condemn71 next the wording and composition were criticised1 and lastly a few of the writers were interviewed and a selection was made4 ,but alas6 an inspection of our exercise-books revealed so many uncorrected faults1 that a dismissal followed1 and another search resulted in the same way4 ,i can remember only one really clever and competent teacher2 she had been educated in a good ,french school and grounded us well in the language4'#aj ,memory preserves the name--,miss ,wright--of the lady who earned this word of praise4 ,when she left1 the girls were sent to school4 #8,it was a school1' again to quote ,miss ,beale's own account of her education1 #8considered much above the average for sound instruction2 our mistresses were women who had read and thought2 they had taken pains to arrange various schemes of knowledge2 yet what miserable teaching we had in many subjects2 history was learned by committing to memory little manuals2 rules of arithmetic were taught1 but the principles were never explained4 ,instead of reading and learning the masterpieces of literature1 we repeated week by week the ,lamentations of ,king ,hezekiah1 the pretty but somewhat weak 8,mother's ,picture0 of ,cowper1 and worse doggrel verses on the solar system4'#aa ,the arrangements were doubtless similar to those of the period in all schools of the same kind1 such as were described by ,miss ,beale in one of her early articles on the ,education of ,girls4 #8,i know one school1' she wrote1 #8existing to the end of the first half of the nineteenth century1 in which the terms were not less than #ajj a year4 ,the following was the arrangement of hours3 ,rise at seven o'clock 444 ,lessons till eight2 breakfast1 consisting of bread and butter1 with extremely weak coffee2 lessons till twelve1 luncheon1 consisting of bread and butter1 or bread and jam1 and 8turns0 till one o'clock4 ,these 8turns0 consisted in going thirty times post haste round and round the garden2 they could scarcely be accomplished unless the luncheon were carried round in the hand and eaten en route4 ,lessons from one o'clock until three forty-five4 ,dinner four o'clock1 and 8turns0 in fine weather immediately following1 as after luncheon4 ,lessons until eight1 then tea1 and bed at nine4'#ab ,the school was at ,stratford1 and it lent perhaps a personal reminiscence to a favourite line of ,chaucer's ,prologue1 on which1 in the literature lessons at ,cheltenham1 ,miss ,beale never failed to dwell4 #8,after the scole of ,stratford atte ,bowe1 ,for ,frensch of ,parys was to hire unknowe4' ,she always had a horror of schoolgirl ,french1 and the practice at one time so common of permitting no talk except in ,french4 #8,our thinking power was hindered from developing by intercourse with one another1 because we were required to speak in a tongue in which we could indeed talk1 but in which conversation was impossible2 and the language we spoke was one peculiar to ,english boarding schools4'#ac ,young as ,dorothea was when she went to school1 she was no doubt distinguished there for her industry and ability1 and certainly for her conscientiousness4 ,a little story of this remains4 ,on one occasion she fainted in church1 and when some kindly hand removed her bonnet1 she revived1 and clung to it desperately1 because she would not have her head uncovered in church4 ,the weary rounds in the garden lingered in the memory of those who performed them1 and there were those who would tell in after years how faithfully the little ,dorothea would perform her #8turns1' while some girls were not above cheating a little4 ,the school-days were not prolonged1 for #8fortunately1' she says1-- #8,ill-health compelled me to leave at thirteen1 and then began a valuable time of education under the direction of myself1 during which ,i expended a great deal of energy in useless directions1 but gained more than ,i should have probably done at any existing school2 dreaming much1 and seeking for a fuller realisation of the great spiritual realities1 which make one feel that all knowledge is sacred4 ,we had access to two large libraries2 one that of the ,london ,institution1 the other that of ,crosby ,hall2 besides which the ,medical ,book ,club circulated many books of general interest1 which were read by all and talked over at meal-times and in the evening1 when my father used often to read aloud to us4 ,novels rarely came our way1 but we found pasturage enough4 ,we read a great deal of history3 the works of ,froissart1 ,thierry1 ,thiers1 ,alison1 ,miller's ,philosophy of ,history1 ,sir ,james ,stephen's books1 ,prescott's1 ,creasy's stand out very distinctly to memory4'#ad ,the reading of a book named ,scientific ,dialogues she counted also as an era in her mental history4 ,all the good reviews of the time1 the ,edinburgh1 ,quarterly1 and ,blackwood's ,magazine1 came in her way1 with books of travel and biographies4 ,she made elaborate tables on all sorts of subjects1 some of which in neat handwriting may still be seen4 ,she had access to all ,whately's works1 and worked up alone his ,logic and ,rhetoric4 ,this unwearied study was no accumulation of knowledge for its own sake1 it was the outcome of a true if youthful admiration for what was noble and good4 #8,i worshipped for years ,isabella of ,castile4 ,sir ,james ,stephen's essay on ,george the ,third filled my imagination with magnificent visions2 his ,port ,royalists were my ideal characters2 especially was ,pascal a hero1 ,i read and re-read his ,life and ,provincial ,letters4'#ae ,pascal's life perhaps breathed for her a spirit of emulation4 #8,i borrowed a ,euclid1 and without any help read the first six books1 carefully working through the whole of the fifth1 as ,i did not know what was usually done4 ,it did not occur to me to ask my father for lessons in such subjects4'#af ,she also made some way with algebra1 and calculated for herself the distance to the moon4 ,much time1 she owned1 was wasted by working alone4 ,but the very difficulties proved a source of help1 showing her the value of knowledge acquired by effort and search1 as opposed to mere information received from another4 ,in all her reading she received both help and sympathy from her aunt1 ,elizabeth ,complin1 who herself understood ,latin1 ,greek1 and ,hebrew1 had considerable taste for mathematics1 and was fond of philosophy4 ,she was one of the first subscribers to ,mudie's4 ,the ,london ,library was also a mine of wealth to the young readers4 ,outside her home1 the chief educational influence for ,dorothea at this period must have been the lectures of the ,literary ,institution at ,crosby ,hall1 and more especially the ,gresham ,lectures4 ,she attended some of these in company with a younger sister1 who often grew weary and hungry when ,dorothea1 after a long morning's work1 would stay to talk abstrusely with a professor1 or linger over a bookstall on the way home to dinner4 ,the professor was probably ,mr4 ,pullen1 of whose lectures on astronomy she wrote that they #8inspired a passionate desire to know more of mathematics1 and to understand all the processes described4 ,i obtained books on mechanics and spelt them out as well as ,i was able1 but was often baffled4 ,the mysteries of the ,calculus ,i pored over in vain 444 not knowing that ,i lacked the knowledge which alone could make it intelligible4'#ag ,dorothea's educational fortune proved itself to be better than that of the ,prioress1 for in #ahdg she was sent with two elder sisters1 their characters #8ripe for observation1' to ,mrs4 ,bray's fashionable school for ,english girls in the ,champs ,elyses4 ,this school1 kept by ,english ladies1 was supposed to offer a good ,english education1 as well as ,french4 #8,imagine our disgust1' writes ,miss ,beale1 #8at being required to read ,english history in ,mrs4 ,trimmer1 to learn by heart all ,murray's grammar1 to learn even lists of prepositions by heart1 in order that we might parse without the trouble of thinking4 ,i learned them with such anger that the list was burnt into my brain1 and ,i can say it now4 ,the 8,use of the ,globes10 too1 we were taught1 and very impertinent was ,i thought for asking a reason for some of the tricks we were made to play with a globe under the direction of ,keith4 ,we used indeed to read collectively ,robertson's ,charles the ,fifth1 i4e4 it was read aloud on dancing evenings4 ,each class went out in succession for the dancing lesson2 thus no one read the whole book1 though the school in its corporate capacity did4 ,i felt oppressed with the routine life2 ,i1 who had been able to moon1 grub1 alone for hours1 to live in a world of dreams and thoughts of my own1 was now put into a cage and had to walk round and round like a squirrel4 ,i felt thought was killed4 ,still1 ,i know now that the time was well spent4 ,the mechanical order1 the system of the ,french school was worth seeing1 worth living in1 only not for long4'#ah ,one personal glimpse we have of the sisters at school in a letter of ,mr4 ,beale's to ,dorothea3 #8,i thought your last letter very nicely written2 tell ,eliza so1 though it did not apply to hers4 ,she does not write much1 though in the right spirit too3 but a genteel hand is of great importance4 ,i am aware it requires much practice4' ,the old-fashioned word exactly describes the neat1 fine1 pointed handwriting1 which is preserved for us in two or three ,french exercise-books of the time4 ,this writing soon after began to suffer from too much of the ,german character1 and later still more from unduly ambitious haste4 ,there is also in existence a thin book of dictes signed ,dorothe1 belonging to this period4 ,the teacher has written at the foot of one or two of these1 after the enumeration of a few omitted commas and accents1 a word surely inapt as bestowed on this pupil1 #8,etourdie4' ,the school was brought to an untimely end by the ,revolution of #ahdh1 when a mob surrounded the house demanding garden-tools as firearms4 ,these were not available1 but ,miss ,bray faced the men and persuaded them to leave quietly4 ,before this incident occurred ,dorothea ,beale and her sisters had been fetched home by a brother1 who did not1 however1 leave ,paris without taking them round the city to see as much as they could of the movements of the ,revolution4 ,this return from school may be considered the close of childhood2 for ,dorothea was now seventeen4 ,a grave and quiet girl1 so we learn from one or two friends of her youth1 with a sweet1 earnest expression1 and deliberate speech2 also with a sunshiny smile and a merry laugh on occasion4 ,she was remarkable even in a studious1 sedentary family for her love of reading and study4 ,for her the fields of literature had taken the place of those other fields and gardens now held to be a necessity for the best development of children's bodies and minds4 ,but her life in the less favourable surroundings of a great city was made bright by #8the light that never was on sea or land1 the consecration and the poet's dream4' ,the joys of imagination and fancy1 the delight of entering into the thoughts of the great1 were hers1 and lifted her above what was small and trivial4 ,she knew also1 and from babyhood seems to have known1 a stern side of life4 ,an innate sense of duty1 that guide she never failed to observe1 already hedged her steps1 protecting her strong1 eager spirit from flights of #8unchartered freedom1' leading it through restraint and self-denial towards a glorious liberty4 ,there was plenty to do at home2 younger sisters to be taught and schoolboys' lessons to be superintended4 ,the boys were at ,merchant ,taylors' ,school1 where the education was neither better nor worse than in other public schools of the day4 ,such as it was1 it gave ,dorothea a horror of the old-fashioned methods by which boys were taught ,latin and ,euclid1 without intelligence and without sympathy4 ,it was one of her tasks at this time to aid in the daily grind of this uninteresting work4 ,mrs4 ,frederick ,sewell1 an old friend of the family1 remembers the boys going off to their lessons under the supervision of the clever elder sister4 ,uncongenial as must have been to her the work of directing boys already wearied with a long day at school1 it was evidently done in a spirit of dutifulness and high endeavour4 ,in #ahgf1 a brother1 the ,reverend ,edward ,beale of the ,society of ,st4 ,john the ,evangelist1 ,cowley1 wrote to her after what proved to be a final parting3 #8,our lives seem wonderfully linked together1 and ,i am more conscious every year how much my life has been influenced by your early teaching4 ,if ,i had followed that way of ,duty ,i should have found the entrance less rugged to the more excellent way4' ,nor was the task a wasted one for ,dorothea herself4 ,she determined1 she tells us1 to follow her brothers' lessons on her own account as well as theirs1 and thus was enabled to gain a thorough knowledge of ,latin grammar4 ,the younger sisters remember the careful and regular teaching given them by the elder ones1 the quiet instructive games they were encouraged to play with little pictures from ,greek mythology1 and the rewards bestowed on industrious pupils4 ,it is on record that ,dorothea herself dressed a doll for a little sister's birthday4 ,for she was by no means unequal to feminine pursuits4 ,she could be what is called useful at home2 the inevitable sock-darning which falls to a girl's portion in a family of many boys was not neglected2 though carried on simultaneously with the mental exercise of learning ,german verbs4 ,an exquisitely fine piece of tatting remains to testify to skilfulness of fingers1 as well as to the perseverance she more gladly devoted to intellectual efforts4 ,such was the interleaved ,new ,testament1 a monument of patient toil1 into which she copied in very small writing whole passages of comment from the ,fathers and other writers4 ,so full of work was the home life that there can have been scarcely any leisure2 but a few so-called holidays were spent in rubbing brasses in the ancient city churches4 ,there was full occupation even for the strenuous spirit of ,dorothea ,beale1 in the interests and affairs of home1 but a wider field for her energies was to open with the gates of ,queen's ,college in #ahdh4 ,,chapter ,,ii ,,queen',s ,,college #8,long shall the ,college live and grow1 ,when we three sleep in peace1 ,and scholars better far than we ,its glory shall increase4' ,eliza ,beale on the ,jubilee of ,queen's ,college4 ,mr4 ,llewelyn ,davis rightly said that the establishment of ,queen's ,college was an epoch in women's education4 ,like that of all really great institutions1 its development and growth were an outcome of the needs of the time4 ,but the movement which led up to it was #8not from beneath but from above4 ,it was compassion in the hearts of a few good men which moved them to help a forlorn class of solitary and ill-paid workers1 that seemed the immediate cause4 ,a little band of men full of faith and good works came to the help of a man whose influence was quiet but strong4' ,the good man of whom ,miss ,beale thus spoke was ,david ,laing1 who was vicar of ,holy ,trinity ,church1 ,kentish ,town1 from #ahdg to #aheh4 ,good he was1 in many senses of the word3 a man of education1 wide culture1 and personal force4 ,he showed both large-hearted charity and wisdom in dealing with the needs of those for whom it was his duty to care1 and he was ready to make any self-sacrifice required in carrying out his schemes for them4 ,in #ahdc he became ,honorary ,secretary of the ,governesses' ,benevolent ,institution1 a position he occupied till his death in #ahfj1 and the lamentable state of women's education1 particularly that of professing teachers1 was brought forcibly before him4 ,the society1 which had had a kind of passive existence only for two or three years1 began at once under ,mr4 ,laing to develop manifold activities4 ,within a year the work of help for which it was primarily intended was in full swing1 and its scope of usefulness was enlarged by the establishment of a registry and a scheme for granting diplomas to governesses4 ,it was soon found to be a real difficulty to know the efficient teacher from the mere pretender4 ,for the lack of education is frequently seen in an assumption of knowledge4 ,in the days when women were required to teach everything1 a confession of ignorance on almost any subject was regarded as a disgrace4 ,the advance of true education is marked by the fact that it is no longer necessary for a governess to pretend to knowledge she does not possess4 ,it was soon seen that if the registry for teachers was to be of any value1 some test must be established for the women it undertook to recommend4 ,the first efforts at examination revealed such depths of ignorance1 that the further necessity of instructing those who wished to avail themselves of the society's diplomas was perceived4 ,this need happily coalesced with the generous plan of ,miss ,murray1 ,maid of ,honour to the ,queen4 ,she seems first to have thought of a college for women1 and had already received donations of money towards such an object4 ,these she transferred to ,mr4 ,laing1 when in #ahdd he entered into communication with the ,government respecting the establishment of a college4 ,in #ahdg ,queen ,victoria graciously gave her permission for the adoption of the title #8,queen's ,college1' and a house in ,harley ,street1 adjacent to that occupied by the ,governesses' ,benevolent ,institution was taken4 ,mr4 ,laing then called upon some of the ,professors of ,king's ,college to help him in the work by giving lectures to governesses and others1 and it was largely owing to their talent and unwearied kindness that the ,college became rapidly so successful4 ,it should not1 however1 be thought that ,queen's ,college was destined by its founders solely to help governesses1 though in this direction its usefulness was immediately seen4 ,miss ,murray and ,mr4 ,laing1 like ,alfred ,tennyson and others less immediately interested in the scheme1 looked beyond such direct results to the larger needs of women4 ,the time had come when it was recognised that marriage could not be the lot of all1--that there might be purpose and interest in a woman's life even when she could not be married1 and that to use marriage merely as an escape from an empty impoverished existence was an act unworthy of a good woman4 ,women were now willing to fit themselves for life independently of marriage1 and for this end were seeking intellectual development4 ,therefore the founders of ,queen's ,college planned that the education should be general1 and not merely an initiation into a craft which a governess might learn as if she were a member of a certain guild4 ,for the governess herself1 it was surely best that she should be educated as if she had interests in common with the rest of her sex1 and for all women it was needful that they should seek means to inform1 occupy1 and control their own active minds and #8wandering affections4' ,mr4 ,laing thought with compassionate horror of the wasted lives of many women1 of their capabilities and sympathies which were meant to enrich the lives of others1 degraded by misuse or disuse into positively harmful activities4 ,after ,queen's ,college had been opened for some months he wrote1 in words which some will recognise as a favourite quotation of ,miss ,beale's1 #8the fate of some victim of a conventional marriage1 or of a life of celibacy ending in deranged health1 is particularly sad and pitiful4 ,like the daughters of ,pandarus who1 after being nurtured by the goddesses and fed on honey and incense by the ,graces1 are snatched away by the ,harpies1 8,and doomed for all their loving eyes1 ,to serve the ,furies who hate constantly40' ,miles ,beale was among those who shared such thoughts for women4 ,it was his aim to give his daughters every opportunity to cultivate their minds and pursue any path of knowledge they should desire4 ,above all1 he wished that they should not regard marriage as a necessity4 ,the inaugural lecture on the opening of ,queen's ,college was delivered by the ,rev4 ,f4 ,d4 ,maurice1 the first ,head of the ,college1 on ,wednesday1 ,march #bi1 #ahdh4 ,as his inspiring but stern words fell upon the ears of ,dorothea ,beale1 we may well believe that the sense of vocation which must early have grown for her out of her natural dutifulness1 became to her more clearly shaped4 ,certainly1 in reading them now1 we feel we are tracing back to its source a stream of that thought with which she herself in due time awed and inspired many a young teacher4 #8,the vocation of a teacher is an awful one2 you cannot do her real good1 she will do others unspeakable harm if she is not aware of its usefulness4 ,merely to supply her with necessaries1 merely to assist her in procuring them for herself 444 is not fitting her for her work4 ,you may but confirm her in the notion that the training of an immortal spirit may be just as lawfully undertaken in a case of emergency as that of selling ribbands4 ,how can you give a woman self-respect1 how can you win for her the respect of others1 in whom such a notion or any modification of it dwells8 ,your business is by all means to dispossess her of it2 to make her feel the greatness of her work1 and yet to show her that it can be honestly performed4' ,the speaker went on to deal with the word #8,accomplishments1' a word which at that time was supposed to cover the whole of a woman's education2 and he pleaded that something more than finish1 something substantial and elementary was needed for those whose duty was #8to watch closely the first utterances of infancy1 the first dawnings of intelligence2--how thoughts spring into acts1 how acts pass into habits4 ,surely they ought1 above all others1 to feel that the truths which lie nearest to us are the most wonderful 444 that study is not worth much if it is not busy about the roots of things4' ,again1 with what responsive if silent joy must the girl who had toiled alone at ,euclid and ,algebra have heard his encouraging words on ,mathematics1 then held to be an unfeminine pursuit4 #8,to regard numbers with the kind of wonder with which a child regards them1 to feel that when we are learning the laws of number we are looking into the very laws of the universe1--this makes the study of exceeding worth to the mind and character2 yet it does not create the least impatience of ordinary occupations2 444 on the contrary 444 it helps us to know that nothing is mean but what is false4' ,the concluding thoughts of ,mr4 ,maurice's address must be familiar to ,cheltenham pupils3 #8,the teacher in every department1 if he does his duty1 will admonish his pupils that they are not to make fashion1 or public opinion1 their rule 444 that if these are their ends1 they will not be sincere in their work or do it well4444 ,colleges for men and women 444 exist to testify that opinion is not the ,god they ought to worship4' ,we can hardly realise1 after nearly sixty years of the liberal education won for us largely through this first concerted effort of earnest men and women1 the trembling joy and diffidence of those pupils1--some of them mere girls1 some already themselves engaged in the work of teaching1--who formed the first classes in ,harley ,street4 ,we have become so accustomed to the new order of things then inaugurated1 that their allusions to ,tennyson's ,princess1 their fear of being regarded as outr seem to us almost self-conscious and unnecessary4 ,professor ,maurice opened his address with an apology for the word #8,college'2 on another occasion he spoke of the project as #8equally extravagant if not equally imaginative with that lately set forth by our great poet4' ,miss ,wedgwood recalls dismay under the #8witless laughter roused by the mention of the ,college after ,i had been its pupil for more than a year4' ,nor was this all4 ,a more annoying opposition took shape in articles in the ,quarterly in which the theological opinions of the lecturers were attacked4 ,the writer found fault in the first place on such points as these3 the early age of admission was likely to lead to desultory education2 the absence of proper framework and machinery1 and the want of proper authority were to be deplored2 the low rate of payment might lead governesses availing themselves of the classes to get by their means a smattering of knowledge4 ,he then proceeded to attack the professors for a #8sort of modified ,pantheism and ,latitudinarianism prevailing in their so-called theology1' adding that the lecturer on ,english ,composition distinguished himself above the rest of his company by the #8,germanisms embroidered on his prose4' ,mr4 ,laing took up a vigorous pen to answer the ,quarterly1 and in defence of ,maurice1 ,kingsley1 and the rest1 exclaimed3 #8,these men are doing a righteous and godly work in the face of heaven and earth4' ,it is a wonderful history4 ,remarkable1 too1 were the women and girls who seized the advantages offered them1 who were waiting almost literally for the ,college doors to be opened4 ,mrs4 ,davenport1 then ,miss ,sarah ,woodman1 records with natural pride the fact that she was the first pupil4 ,she was quickly followed by ,miss ,king1 and we may be sure that the three ,miss ,beales were not far behind them4 ,among the earliest pupils beside those already named1 were ,miss ,buss1 ,miss ,frances ,martin1 ,miss ,jex-,blake1 ,miss ,elizabeth ,gilbert1 and ,miss ,adelaide ,anne ,procter1 whose simple holland dress without ornament1 bands of dark hair1 pale complexion1 and regular features are noted for us by a young fellow-student1 ,miss ,wardell4 ,and the teachers were worthy of the pupils4 ,among the lecturers and examiners were the ,rev4 ,f4 ,d4 ,maurice1 the ,rev4 ,e4 ,h4 ,plumptre1 afterwards ,dean of ,wells1 the translator of ,dante1 the ,rev4 ,charles ,kingsley1 the ,rev4 ,r4 ,c4 ,trench1 then ,dean of ,westminster1 afterwards ,archbishop of ,dublin1 ,john ,hullah1 ,w4 ,sterndale ,bennett1 ,dr4 ,brewer the historian1 ,professors ,bernays and ,brasseur4 ,these are well-known names1 but there were many others almost forgotten to-day1 who were interesting and inspiring teachers4 ,there were no lady-teachers at first1 but ,miss ,beale enumerates with grateful words a staff of lady-visitors1 #8who undertook1 of course gratuitously1 the often burdensome duty of chaperoning4 ,lady ,stanley of ,alderley1 stately and beautiful all her life1 but especially then2 ,mrs4 ,wedgwood1 the daughter of ,sir ,james ,mackintosh1 so clever and kind1 whom everybody liked2 ,miss ,elizabeth ,twining1 ,lady ,monteagle1 and ,lady ,page ,wood were often present2 and a ,mrs4 ,hayes1 of whom ,i have lost sight1 was one of the most diligent4 ,i never happened to meet ,lady ,canning1 she went to ,india almost immediately4' ,before tracing ,miss ,beale's own connection with ,queen's1 it is worth while to read the following letters written to her by ,miss ,buss in #ahhi1 in which the working of the ,college1 especially with regard to the evening classes1 is shown in a detailed and personal way3 ,january #ac1 #ahhi4 #8,queen's ,college was distinctly an outcome of the ,governesses' ,benevolent ,institution4 ,it was found that governesses living in the ,home in ,harley ,street were often very ignorant1 and ,mr4 ,laing1 a ,university man himself1 asked some of the ,king's ,college professors to give some lectures to the ladies living in the ,home1 so that they might be better informed when leaving to take a situation4 ,the professors responded1 some lectures were given1 but it soon became evident that outsiders must be admitted to help to pay expenses--so the ,college was opened in #ahdh4444 #8,mr4 ,laing kept his original idea before him1 and soon induced some of the professors to give1 free of charge1 courses of evening lectures to women actually engaged in teaching4 ,i was a member at the very outset1 being the youngest woman then attending the evening lectures4 ,a very able man1 ,mr4 ,clark1 ,principal of ,battersea1 gave a splendid course of ,geography lectures 7of ,england1 ,i think71 ,mr4 ,cock took ,arithmetic1 ,mr4 ,brewer1 ,latin translation--he was a first-rate teacher4 ,some one else took ,latin ,grammar1 ,mr4 ,laing gave ,scripture4 ,the first term ,i attended six nights a week1 the second1 four4 ,f4 ,d4 ,maurice took ,elizabethan ,literature somewhat later2 ,trench gave his lectures on ,english from his manuscript notes1 and how delightful they were6 ,english ,past and ,present1 etc4 ,i do not remember ,kingsley1 ,i was not introduced to him until many years after4 ,nicolay gave ,ancient ,history1 and was not popular4444 #8,queen's ,college began the ,women's ,education ,movement undoubtedly1 but it became conservative1 and did not grow4444 ,there was a ,rev4 ,a4 ,b4 ,strettel1 who taught grammar well1 but only to the day-students1 ,i think4 ,recalling the old days in this way takes one back to one's youth4 ,queen's ,college opened a new life to me1 ,i mean intellectually4 ,to come in contact with the minds of such men was indeed delightful1 and it was a new experience to me and to most of the women who were fortunate enough to become students4444 ,believe me1 as always1 yours affectionately and admiringly1 ,,frances ,m4 ,,buss4' ,in reply to some questions from ,miss ,beale in answer to the above1 ,miss ,buss wrote again on ,january #ag1 #ahhi3-- #8,the day classes were of course attended by girls and women from outside4 ,i attended the evening classes in #ahdi4 ,our school was opened in #ahej1 and then as we began with sixty girls1 and ended the first quarter with eighty1 ,i had not time to attend and work as ,i had done before4 ,mr4 ,laing always wanted to help women teachers1 and he was strong enough to get the ,king's ,college men to teach governesses gratuitously in the evening1 each professor only attending one night in the week4 ,the men had plenty of work and pay for their day lectures4 ,the evening classes went on for some time1 and were very well attended by women1 all of whom were teaching4 ,some of these women 7,i among them7 presented themselves for the irregularly conducted examinations1 for which certificates were offered4 ,each professor did as he liked1 he saw the candidate alone--at any rate in my case it was so--told her to write answers to questions set by him1 asked a few viv voce questions1 and then gave a certificate4 ,no papers were printed1 therefore no one could know what line the examiner would take4 ,i have three of these certificates4 ,later1 the examination became more formal and more valuable2 a sort of standard was created4' ,dorothea ,beale was1 as a matter of fact1 strictly a pupil of ,queen's ,college for an even shorter time than her great contemporary4 ,but there for the first time she obtained the object of her ambition--mathematical training1 given by ,mr4 ,astley ,cock4 ,of this she characteristically remarked1 #8as the class was small ,i could go at my own pace4 ,the work was however elementary1 and as ,i had read a good deal alone1 ,i found private lessons necessary4444 ,i read with him privately ,trigonometry1 ,conics1 and the ,differential ,calculus4' ,after a time ,miss ,beale was asked to help in teaching mathematics1 and in #ahdi was appointed the first lady mathematical tutor4 #8,i had the entre of any class ,i liked1 being tutor1 and attended at various times--,latin1 ,greek1 ,german1 and ,mental ,science4' ,she speaks also of the delight she had #8at the opening of a ,greek class by ,professor ,plumptre4 ,the class1 it is true1 languished and died in less than two years4 ,for nearly a year it consisted of myself and a friend1 and most thoroughly did we enjoy reading ,plato and ,sophocles under such a teacher4' ,miss ,beale also much enjoyed an interesting ,german literature class held by ,dr4 ,bernays4#ai ,the formal reports of progress made1 of attendance1 and even of good conduct at the classes may still be seen4 ,the attendance1 it goes without saying1 was always regular1 the conduct very good1 and the progress most satisfactory4 ,in #ahed ,mr4 ,plumptre required help with the ,latin tuition1 and asked ,miss ,beale to take a junior class4 ,in the same year she was offered the post of head teacher in the school under ,miss ,parry1 from whom she says she received #8much kindness1 and learned from her many valuable lessons2 we travelled abroad together during one long vacation4' ,queen's ,college1 both by the tuition it afforded1 and the experience it gave in teaching and managing classes1 was an important factor in ,dorothea ,beale's training for her life's work4 ,there was a yet further advantage in its certificates4 ,miss ,beale and her sisters1 like ,miss ,buss and others engaged in the work of education1 desired and obtained from the ,college diplomas certifying their ability to teach4 ,these were obtained by examinations1 which in the earliest days were conducted in the manner described in ,miss ,buss's letter already quoted4 ,miss ,dorothea ,beale herself spoke with unmitigated pleasure of her first examination conducted by ,professor ,maurice4 #8,the viv voce was a delightful conversation2 he led us on by his sympathetic manner and kindly appreciation1 so that we hardly remembered he was an examiner'2 and she says later1 #8,i remember to this day what a pleasant hour we had of viv voce2 his wonderful power of intellectual sympathy came out1 and made us forget that we were being examined2 he seemed to take pleasure in following up our thoughts on the bearings of the history we had read1 so that it appeared we were holding a delightful conversation on the subject4 ,again1 in speaking of language1 he wanted not merely formal and conventional grammar1 and showed such pleasure when a grammatical definition was enlarged beyond the scope of ordinary school-books4' ,it should be remembered that the examination which proved to be so #8delightful' was on the result of her own private reading encouraged by home sympathy1 and a few public lectures4 ,the questions asked were of wide scope2 some were quite simple1 almost superficial2 others were framed so as to draw upon intelligence or a reserve of knowledge4 ,the educational certificates of sixty years ago1 the first ever given1 have a great and touching interest for those who love to follow the development of intellectual advance4 ,the simple way in which the advantages offered by the examinations held by the ,committee of ,queen's ,college are set forth speaks of effort and hope1 unconnected with the school routine and studied preparation made necessary by the large and complicated system of the present day4 ,below the lists of ,patrons1 ,committee1 and ,lady ,visitors1 it is stated that the ,committee is prepared to give certificates in any of the following subjects3 ,the knowledge of ,scripture2 ,english ,grammar and ,literature2 ,history1 ,ancient or ,modern2 ,french1 ,german1 ,italian1 ,latin1 ,greek1 ,hebrew1 etc42 ,music1 ,vocal or ,instrumental2 ,arithmetic1 ,algebra1 ,geometry2 ,geography1 ,geology1 ,natural ,philosophy1 ,botany1 etc42 ,drawing1 ,painting in any style2 ,principles and ,methods of ,teaching4 ,to this truly magnificent offer1--infinite indeed if any value is to be attributed to #8etc4'--is attached the note3 #8,as it would be absurd to suppose that any governess could combine all these varied subjects1 the ,list is offered1 that ,parents may select those to which they attach most importance2 and may observe how the certificates meet their wishes4' ,miss ,dorothea ,beale obtained six of these certificates1 and four of the later ones1 granted under slightly different conditions4 ,the first1 dated ,june #ab1 #ahdh1 for ,english ,literature and ,english ,grammar1 states that the examiner1 ,professor ,maurice1 is of opinion that ,miss ,dorothea ,beale #8has shown much intelligence1 and a very satisfactory acquaintance with these subjects4' ,the diploma bears also1 as do the other certificates1 the signature of ,mr4 ,laing1 the ,honorary ,secretary1 and of the ,rev4 ,c4 ,f4 ,nicolay1 ,deputy ,chairman1 and afterwards called ,dean of ,queen's ,college4 ,mr4 ,nicolay was also ,librarian of ,king's ,college4 ,the next certificate1 for ,french1 is only three days later in date1 ,june #ae1 #ahdh4 ,on this1 ,professor ,isidore ,brasseur states that he considers ,miss ,dorothea ,beale #8well qualified to teach that language 7which she speaks fluently1 having acquired it in ,france7 theoretically and by practice4' ,the two diplomas gained in ,december of the same year are of even greater interest for her pupils at ,cheltenham4 ,the first of these1 dated ,december #aa1 #ahdh1 and signed by the ,rev4 ,thomas ,jackson1 ,principal of the ,battersea ,training ,college1 who had examined her in the ,principles and ,method of ,teaching1 states that #8she has paid praiseworthy attention to the subject1 and is likely to become an accomplished teacher4' ,we note the office of the examiner4 ,already then1 in #ahdh1 itself a mere infant1 elementary education was giving the lead in this important subject2 for when at last1 after a long day of desultory and often unfruitful toil1 those who were the professed teachers of the rich sought to learn the meaning and methods of their work1 they found that they could only do so in ,england from the teachers of the poor4 ,the date of the next certificate1 ,december #bf1 shows how much these diplomas were dependent on voluntary and individual attention1 and opportunity on the part of the examiners4 ,this1 signed by ,professor ,plumptre1 states that in her knowledge of ,holy ,scripture1 ,miss ,dorothea ,beale exhibits #8a very intimate knowledge of its history and ,scripture4' ,on ,january #af1 of the following year1 a certificate for ,geography was signed by ,mr4 ,nicolay1 who is of opinion that #8she has studied the subject carefully in its details1 and that her knowledge in its various branches is satisfactory4' ,in ,november #ahej ,miss ,beale received from her mathematical tutor1 the ,rev4 ,t4 ,cock1 a certificate of efficiency in ,arithmetic1 ,geometry1 ,algebra1 and ,trigonometry4 ,he is of opinion that #8she has acquired a sound knowledge of the first principles of these four subjects1 showing considerable ingenuity in the application of them to examples and problems2 that she possesses the power of defining and distinguishing with clearness and brevity1 and that appreciation of mathematical reasoning which1 if further cultivated1 will enable her to study with success those treatises on ,natural ,philosophy which require a knowledge of the exact sciences4' ,in #ahee1 after the certificates had become classified1 this diploma was exchanged for a first-class certificate4 ,and in the course of these later years she received two other first-class certificates1 one for ,latin1 and one for ,german2 and1 for pianoforte playing1 a second-class certificate1 signed by ,w4 ,sterndale ,bennett4 ,for this was required the performance of the more important sonatas of ,mozart 7without accompaniments71 the early sonatas of ,beethoven1 the #8,lieder ohne ,worte' of ,mendelssohn1 and ,cramer's ,studies4 ,this must have been for ,dorothea ,beale a period of happy and fruitful life and work1 during which her interests enlarged in many directions4 ,the connection with ,queen's ,college brought much congenial acquaintance1 while at home she was working vigorously at ,german and still following the classical work of her brothers4 ,in #ahea ,miss ,beale's family removed to #ca ,finsbury ,square1 then a great medical centre2 thirty-one houses were occupied by medical men4 ,there were friends to share her aims and interests4 ,among these we specially note ,mrs4 ,blenkarne and ,miss ,elizabeth ,alston4 ,to the first of these ,dorothea confided her hopes and aims1 and gained from her sympathy and help1 a boon she never forgot4 ,the links of the friendship so begun ran on throughout her life4 ,mrs4 ,blenkarne's daughters and great nieces were educated at ,cheltenham4 ,in ,elizabeth ,alston ,dorothea had a friend of her own age--a friend who survives to tell of the many happy hours the young girls spent together1 of the books they read and discussed1 their philanthropic works1 and dreams of good4 ,dorothea1 always fond of teaching1 gladly instructed her friends4 ,miss ,alston learned from her to read ,st4 ,mark in ,greek1 and in return taught her to sing4 #8,we would linger long at the piano1 as ,i sought to make her convey by her singing the depth of meaning in the words1 8,but the ,lord is mindful of his own40 ,she told me it was a revelation to her4' ,as late as #aijb ,miss ,beale wrote to that friend of her youth3 #8,i think with gratitude of those lessons you gave me in singing2 this1 ,i believe1 has helped much to make me able to teach without fatigue4 8,in questa tomba oscura0 was fine for a chest voice4 ,i suppose you are as much interested in music as ever4' ,and in #aijc1 with an allusion to those designs on all knowledge which the friends had shared1 she wrote3 #8,sanscrit is very fascinating2 my ,sanscrit studies were cut short by my coming here4' ,the vacations of this period were spent sometimes at watering-places like ,brighton1 or ,blackheath1 where she would be in charge of the younger members of the family4 ,to this day is remembered her conscientious way of taking them for a walk with her watch in her hand4 ,sometimes she went to ,germany or ,switzerland1 where she took every opportunity of studying schools and methods of education4 ,she was most happy in her work4 ,the actual teaching1 apart from the subject1 was in itself a delight4 ,that power of inspiration which she held should be one of the gifts a teacher should earnestly covet1 was already hers4 ,this was felt not only by the elder pupils1 whose minds under her guidance opened to the interests of ,latin and mathematics4 ,the children in the school knew it also4 ,an unexpected tribute from one of these once reached ,miss ,beale1 when the parent of a pupil wrote3 #8,i have just learned from my little girl that the ,lady ,principal of the ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college was my dear and valued teacher of olden days1 at ,queen's ,college4444 ,i assure you ,i have never ceased to cherish a warm affection for you1 and ,i have never forgotten your great kindness to me in ,harley ,street4' ,in #aije1 at the time of the ,college jubilee1 one who had been a child pupil of ,miss ,beale's wrote to her3 #8,the few months during which ,i was under your tuition more than fifty years ago were an epoch to me4 ,young as ,i was1 ,i ever afterwards judged teaching by the standard set by yours1 and very seldom indeed1 ,i may truly say1 has it been subsequently reached4 ,the fifty years that have since passed1 full as they have been1 have never effaced the impression then received1 both of your teaching and of something more comprehensive than teaching1 which contact with you engendered1 and which impels me to take this opportunity--late in the day as it is--to express and to thank you for4444 ,i had a most keen desire to visit ,cheltenham and the buildings and institutions which embody in so grand a manner the impress which my childish mind received4' ,there is also ample evidence that the professors and lady-visitors of the ,college highly esteemed ,miss ,beale's work there4 #8,the flattering regard in which you are held at ,queen's1' wrote her father to her just after she had left the ,college1 are words fully justified by other letters which exist4 ,it is clear that this spring of work was full of hope and delight1 as well as of scrupulous effort4 ,dorothea ,beale possessed at this time a growing confidence in her own powers1 educational ideals which were slowly shaping themselves1 and a consciousness of her fitness for the work on which she was engaged4 ,then1 at the end of #ahef1 the connection with ,queen's ,college came rather abruptly to an end by ,miss ,beale's own wish4 ,she appears to have been some time feeling that there was a tendency for the whole administration of the ,college to get too much into the hands of one person2 and that there was consequently not enough scope for that womanly influence which she felt to be so important where the education of young girls is concerned4 ,she returned to her work after the summer holiday of #ahef--;a holiday spent in visiting ,swiss and ,german schools--to find the power of the lady-visitors more restricted than ever4 ,in fact1 she said1 #8the time had come when it could be truly said1 8the lady-visitors have no power40' ,as she was not in a position to effect the changes she desired1 she sent in her resignation1 and her friend and fellow-teacher1 ,miss ,rowley1 did the same4 ,the actual moment for doing this in ,november seems to have been decided for ,miss ,beale by hearing she could obtain the post of head-teacher at ,casterton4 ,miss ,beale's connection with ,queen's ,college had been long and close1 and her gratitude to it was so great that she hoped to be allowed to resign without explanation4 ,this was during the headship of ,dr4 ,plumptre4 ,when ,miss ,beale's resignation reached him1 he urged her to make the reasons for it known1 and his letter on the subject shows something of the consideration in which she was held4 #8,if there is an evil which cannot be remedied1 are you right in leaving those to whom the welfare of the ,college is very dear to all the discomfort of feeling or imagining that there is something amiss without giving them any clue to that which1 whatever it be1 has been at all important enough to lead you to resign8 ,are you right in exposing the ,college itself to the consequence of the construction which will inevitably be put upon your conduct--whether that construction be true or false8 ,i may form three or four conjectures as to the motives that have led you to this decision--but it is all guess work--,i think the decision itself to be deplored4 ,we shall lose an able and earnest fellow-worker4 ,you will lose a position of great usefulness--you give up a work to which you have been called and opportunities of doing good4 ,i believe that these lamentable results might have been avoided1 but it is too late for this2 there is at any rate time for the openness which1 ,i think1 we have a right to look for4 #8,i will not end without thanking you for your consideration in calling to tell me what you had done1 and for all the assistance you have given me in my ,college work4--,i am1 yours most sincerely1 ,e4 ,h4 ,,plumptre4' ,miss ,beale finally gave the desired explanation with full detail and this preface3-- #8,before consenting to answer any questions1 ,i think it right that we should state that when we sent in our resignation1 we naturally supposed we should be allowed to do so without being required to give any reasons4 #8,it was only after several weeks of resistance that1 at the earnest appeal of ,mr4 ,plumptre1 who placed it before us as a moral duty1 that we at last reluctantly consented to speak to him and to the ,lady ,visitors4 ,from the course we adopted1 ,i think you will see we are prompted solely 444 by a desire for the good of a ,college in which we feel the warmest interest4' ,the defects she deplored--pioneer mistakes she called them later--were then enumerated in detail1 and she dwelt especially on the hindrance to education caused by so much authority being left to one individual1 who could not possibly be in a position to know the abilities and standard of work of every pupil4 ,much harm1 she pleaded1 had been done #8by withdrawing pupils from the school1 compelling them without my consent and contrary to the wishes of their parents to attend ,college classes1 although they are unable to spell correctly and are ignorant of the first principles of grammar2 classes in which you know it is impossible to give that individual attention required by children of twelve1 who1 owing to the rank from which so many of our pupils are now derived1 are singularly deficient in mental training1 and require to be obliged in extra time to do work given them2 to be trained1 watched1 educated by ladies 7who alone can understand1 and therefore truly educate7 girls4 ,my pupils in the school are not removed by competent professors who understand the subjects there taught4 ,the instruction which is in itself good1 and if given four or five years later would be beneficial1 has been rendered useless4' ,on learning ,miss ,beale's reasons for leaving1 and that her decision was irrevocable1 ,mr4 ,plumptre wrote3 #8,i wish to state at once that ,i believe most thoroughly that what you have done has been done conscientiously because it seemed to you--painful as it was--to be in the line of duty4' ,but before this letter reached her1 ,dorothea had accepted another post1 that of head-teacher in the ,clergy ,daughters' ,school at ,casterton4 ,,chapter ,,iii ,,casterton #8,o lift your natures up3 ,embrace our aims4' ,,tennyson1 ,the ,princess1 ii4 #8,it was a year full of great suffering mingled with a peace which the world cannot give4444 ,i look on this as one of the most profitable years of my life1 but ,i could not long have borne the strain of work and anxiety4' ,thus1 long after1 when in the distance of years the events of earlier life could be seen in their relation to each other and to the future1 ,miss ,beale wrote of the year at ,casterton4 ,but she did not often speak of it4 ,to the end it gave her pain to go in thought over that time of loneliness and strain4 ,even late in life1 if she entered into conversation about it1 she would turn from the subject saying it distressed her too much2 #8some other time she would try' to speak of it4 ,but1 none the less1 she knew she had gained much at ,casterton4 ,she1 who was ever ready to learn from mistakes1 from pain1 from adverse circumstances1 gratefully acknowledged her debt to all that had shown her the real difficulties of her vocation1 and her own weakness1 and which had deepened her consciousness of the only source of strength4 ,some lives are led so much at haphazard1 that it really hardly appears to matter whether at any given period they have taken one direction or another4 ,in the lives of those who1 like ,dorothea ,beale1 are always conscious of an over-ruling and ordering ,power1 every year is not only known1 but seen to have its place4 ,the very errors1 nay failures1 are sunk deep into the foundations to become supports to the ,house of ,life which1 under the direction of the ,master ,builder1 is rendered more stately with each added touch of ,time4 ,hence1 this year--not a successful one1 as success is generally reckoned--has its special interest4 ,it was a year in which she learned much1 not only about herself individually1 but of feminine human nature in general4 ,those matters which she longed--and longed ineffectually at the time--to re-arrange in the system and time-tables she found existing at ,casterton1 prepared her for the organisation of the great school to which she was shortly afterwards to be called4 ,daily contact with many1 who were more or less out of sympathy with her1 must have been useful for one whose work was largely to be in the direction of influence on women and girls of varying natures and opinions4 ,doubtless the very loneliness of the position was bracing to her sensitive nature4 #8,above all1' she had written to ,mr4 ,plumptre when she accepted it1 #8it involves leaving home4' ,she had seen from the first how hard a trial this would be to her1 but strength and insight were won out of the suffering it cost4 ,the manuscript account from which the opening words of this chapter are taken1 and which has been quoted before1 was written many years ago4 ,as late as #aije ,miss ,beale wrote to ,canon ,burton1 the present vicar of ,casterton and chaplain to the school1 that she felt she owed much to it1 and #8in grateful remembrance of her connection with it' founded a scholarship from the school to ,cheltenham4 ,the first ,casterton-,beale scholar is now at the ,ladies' ,college4 ,there were many reasons why ,dorothea ,beale could neither be happy nor rightly appreciated at ,casterton in #aheg4 ,she went at a difficult moment when the school had not recovered from the relaxed discipline consequent on the troubles of the year before4 ,there had been a serious outbreak of scarlet fever1 the ,lady ,superintendent herself being one of the victims4 ,the head-teacher had left in ,september1 and it was not convenient to supply her place before the end of the half-year4 ,the #8,school for ,clergymen's ,daughters' is one1 like many others1 of which it is the reverse of disparagement to say that its present is far above its past4 ,and it is permissible to think that if ,miss ,beale had found herself in any other large boarding-school of the period1 she would have encountered many of the same difficulties and disappointments as those which beset her life at ,casterton4 ,of this school she wrote much later1 describing it as she felt it to be when she was there1 that it was #8in an unhealthy state4 ,there was a spirit of open irreligion and a spirit of defiance very sad to witness2 but the constant restraints1 the monotonous life1 the want of healthy amusements were in a great measure answerable for this4'#bj ,a strange tale this to us1 who know of the walks and rambles1 the games and matches enjoyed by the girls of ,casterton to-day4 ,but the causes of her dissatisfaction were by no means due entirely to the school1 for the engagement seems to have been entered upon on ,miss ,beale's part without a real understanding of all that it involved4 ,her father hints this when he writes1 #8perhaps we were to blame in not learning more4' ,she was engaged1 not by the ,lady ,superintendent1 but by a member of the ,committee1 who probably did not explain matters so fully as a woman might have done4 ,the work was taken up in a moment of impulse1 as if she were glad of the opportunity it suggested of sending in her resignation to ,queen's ,college1 instead of waiting till ,christmas1 as she had at first intended4 ,those who knew her best did not expect her to be happy in it4 ,mr4 ,plumptre wrote3 #8,i am glad to hear you have found so important a work before you as that at ,casterton4 ,it may have altered within the last few years1 as otherwise ,i should not have thought its tone1 religious as well as social1 likely to be congenial to you4' ,she had never lived away from home for any length of time4 ,the short periods of school life had been shared with sisters4 ,the north was an unknown land with which the ,beale family had no connection4 ,she knew nothing of country life4 ,she would be entirely among strangers1 and that alone1 for a shy and sensitive nature1 is often a great trial1 while boarding-school life1 such as existed at ,casterton1 was practically unknown to her4 ,the salary was smaller than what she had received at ,queen's ,college4 ,but in leaving ,queen's ,college she lost far more than salary4 ,there she had been a beloved teacher1 a valued tutor whose resignation was deplored2 at ,casterton she was simply a new governess4 ,her judgment was surely at fault in thus hastily and almost impulsively accepting such a post4 ,though she may have greeted the offer as guidance in her difficulty about leaving ,queen's1 she must have known that at ,casterton it would be impossible for her to work in accord with religious opinions which were alien to her2 also that in going so far she was cutting off much that was congenial and delightful from her life--such as home1 friends1 libraries1 lectures4 ,though ,mr4 ,beale obviously doubted if his daughter could be happy in the atmosphere of ,casterton1 he did not fail to perceive the ideal side of the work there4 ,appreciating the aims and generosity of the founders of the school1 he held that from the great advantages it offered1 it ought to become a national institution4 ,she too went to her post there in something of a missionary spirit4 ,her success with her classes1 and with pupils of different ages1 justified her in feeling that she would be able to introduce fresh and better methods1 while the very fact that a teacher of her individual experience had been chosen pointed to the belief that the authorities were anxious to bring the school into line with the advance of women's education4 ,casterton is a small village1 near ,kirby ,lonsdale1 in ,westmoreland1 where that county touches ,lancashire and ,yorkshire4 ,even to-day railway communication is defective1 and the country thinly populated1 so that the school in its isolated position is constrained to be as self-sufficing as possible4 ,the beauty of its surroundings may surely be reckoned among its advantages1 for it is placed amid lovely country within sight of ,ingleborough4 ,members of the school speak with delight of rambles over the surrounding fells4 ,perhaps ,miss ,beale's habit of thinking over her lessons out of doors began here1 for she afterwards told ,miss ,alston of the long lonely walks she used to take at ,casterton4 ,this well-known school was founded in #ahbc by ,mr4 ,carus ,wilson in order to help the clergy of the ,church of ,england1 principally those of the northern dioceses4 ,many of the clergy of the north were known to be absolutely unable to provide any education for their children1 who at home led the simplest life with bare necessaries only4 ,several of these were received1 boarded1 educated1 and partially clothed free1 and the terms for all were ludicrously small4 ,these facts should be remembered when comment is made upon the rgime at ,casterton1 or at ,cowan ,bridge1 where the school was originally placed1 a position far less favourable and healthy than its present one4 ,it should also be remembered that ,dorothea ,beale had never herself known what it was to be poor2 she could hardly realise1 for instance1 the comfort that might exist in the uniform school dress for children whose parents were actually too poor to provide them with proper clothing4 ,as an institution the school was destined not only to assist the poor clergy1 but1 springing as it did from devoted religious effort1 to save souls and promote the highest kind of education4 ,it was from the first definitely associated with those #8,calvinistic opinions' on account of which the ,bishop of ,chester had rejected its founder for ordination in #ahad4ba ,the dark horror of ,calvinism1 permitted doubtless as a scourge after much open irreligion and careless living1 was in mercy overruled in countless instances for the conviction of sin1 and generally to prepare the way for a wider and more comprehending acceptance of the grace which is in ,christ ,jesus4 ,but its direct results on the education of the young were disastrous indeed4 ,hearts1 by its agency1 were turned to stone1 or depressed into hopeless terror2 worst of all1 religious forms1 phraseology1 even emotions were assumed by those who were prone to self-deception1 or over anxious to please4 ,about #ahde ,mr4 ,carus ,wilson's health broke down as a consequence of his unsparing and strenuous labours1 and the management of his schools passed into the hands of others4 ,in #aheg the ,clergy ,daughters' ,school was governed by a ,committee of six clergymen1 all personal friends of the founder1 men of good standing in the neighbourhood4 ,archdeacon ,evans was ,chairman4 ,this ,committee sought to obtain the best teachers possible for what was then--even more than now--an out-of-the-way place1 as far as the centres of education were concerned4 ,they also aimed at fitting the girls in the school to earn their own living4 ,high testimonials were given to ,miss ,beale by the professors and lady-visitors of ,queen's ,college1 on her appointment as head-teacher at ,casterton4 ,one from ,prebendary ,mackenzie is of special interest1 as it shows that in accepting the work she had not in any way identified herself with the particular religious views then prevailing in the institution4 #8,,westbourne ,,college1 ,,bayswater ,,road1 ,november #ahef4 #8,i am happy to be able to give very satisfactory replies to your enquiries respecting ,miss ,d4 ,beale4 ,she is a young lady of high moral and religious character1 sober-minded and discreet4 ,her parents have been careful to avoid party views1 and ,i have no doubt ,miss ,dorothea ,beale is free from them4 ,she certainly is a most conscientious person1 with a deep sense of her religious responsibilities4 ,i feel certain that her influence will always be for good4' ,mr4 ,plumptre wrote to the ,lady ,superintendent3-- #8,i am unwilling that 7,miss ,beale7 should enter on her work at ,casterton without your hearing from me 444 the high opinion which ,i entertained both as to her attainments and her conscientiousness in discharging any duties that may be assigned her4444 ,i am convinced that in receiving her at ,casterton you will gain a fellow-worker in whose zeal and ,christian principle you may place entire confidence4' ,and ,mr4 ,denton3-- #8,i should esteem any institution fortunate that had her services4 ,she is a person of quiet1 sincere piety1 and an intelligent ,churchwoman4' ,dorothea ,beale went to ,casterton on the ,epiphany1 ,january #f1 #aheg4 ,her diary of #ahia records the memory of this and of the ,holy ,eucharist at ,st4 ,bartholomew's at six o'clock1 before her long day's journey1 a journey which ended almost in terror1 so alarming to this daughter of the ,city were the #8high1 wild hills and rough1 uneven ways' which had to be crossed between the railway station and the school4 ,at first1 as was natural1 she seems to have thought she would like her work4 ,mrs4 ,wedgwood1 writing to her in ,february1 says3 #8,i felt so much our loss in you that ,i could hardly join in the wishes of the lady-visitors of ,queen's that you might find your new work pleasant4 ,however1 ,i am truly glad now that you find your new home more agreeable than you had been led to expect1 and that you think the children are happy1 and times are unlike ,jane ,eyre4' ,very soon the strain of teaching the large number of subjects required to be taught began to be felt4 ,a less conscientious worker might have entered lightly upon these at a period when only the most superficial textbook knowledge was required2 but to ,dorothea ,beale1 to whom each lesson meant much preparation and thought1 they soon became a burden4 ,she said afterwards that the work left her no time for exercise or recreation1 and not enough for sleep4 ,she found herself expected to teach ,scripture1 arithmetic1 mathematics1 ancient1 modern1 and ,church history1 physical and political geography1 ,english literature1 grammar and composition1 ,french1 ,german1 ,latin1 and ,italian4 ,of the last she had written when she accepted the post3 #8,i do not know much of ,italian1 ,i will1 however1 take lessons till ,christmas4' ,it was obviously impossible for one person to teach all these subjects properly1 and it is not surprising that ,miss ,beale soon wrote home that she found the work hard2 she does not seem to have complained of anything else4 ,she said1 among other things1 that she took eight ,bible-classes every week1 two of which consisted of about fifty girls at a time4 ,her father replied with the evident intention of bracing and cheering3-- #8,employment is a blessed state1 it is to the body what sleep is to the mind4444 ,i cannot be sorry when ,i hear you are fully employed4 ,i am sure it will be usefully1 and then by and bye when the body and the mind alike have perished1 and work and sleep are no longer needed1 but the soul shall burst into existence1 how shall we wonder at the willing slaves we have been during our probation1 for the meat which perishes4 ,you see ,i am thoughtful1--it is fit4444 ,i feel ,i can bear your being so far and so entirely away1 with some philosophy1 and ,i am delighted that your letters bear the tone of contentment1 and that you have been taken notice of by people who seem disposed to be kind to you4444 ,you will see ,i have not a thing to tell you1 and ,i cannot now write any more about thick coming fancies1 but give an old man's love to all your pupils1 and may they make their ,fathers as happy as you do4 ,god bless you1 my dear ,dorothea4' ,this letter was written in ,march #aheg4 ,shortly after came another for her birthday on the #bast1 showing how much her absence from home was felt1 and that the parents were doubtful if she were in the right place4 #8,god bless you and give you many happy birthdays4 ,i fear the present is not one of the most agreeable2 it is spent at least in the path of what you considered duty1 and so will never be looked back upon but with pleasure4444 ,do not1 however1 my dear girl1 think of remaining long in a position which may be irksome to you1 for thus ,i think it will hardly be profitable to others1 and indeed ,i question whether you would maintain your health where the employment was so great and duty the only stimulus to action4 ,you have heard me often quote3 8,the hand's best sinew ever is the heart40' ,in ,may another letter is evidently called forth by some expression of a longing to be at home1 and perhaps by hints of difficulties from ,dorothea4 #8,may #aheg4 #8,i think ,i feel the weeks go more slowly than you do4 ,i long to see you again very much4 ,i cannot get reconciled to your position and feel satisfied that it is your place4444 ,god bless you1 my dear girl1 and blunt your feelings for the rubs of the world1 and quicken your vision for the beautiful and unseen of the world above us4' ,the last words show how well her father knew the sensitive nature hurt even by trifles1 and prone to take small matters too seriously4 ,so the long half wore on1 and we know1 from some of the few who remain to tell1 that ,miss ,beale was making her mark at ,casterton4 ,there were many there who could appreciate her careful work and inspiring lessons4 ,some found especially valuable her accurate teaching of ,latin and mathematics1 and the enormous pains she took to make her lessons intelligible to the dullest2 never content to let them merely accept a given fact or explanation1 but leading them on step by step to see and comprehend4 ,her literature classes1 again1 led some into a new world of ideas and thoughts1 and they responded to the thrill of some noble and beautiful line which would cause their teacher's eyes to fill with tears as she read4 ,one1 who was ,miss ,beale's pupil in the first class at ,casterton at this time1 speaks of it with extreme gratitude3-- #8,i was seventeen1 and had only had home teaching before4 ,great was the delight to be taught by one whom you felt to be complete mistress of any subject she undertook4 ,i was a dunce at ,arithmetic and ,euclid4 ,she cut slips of paper to illustrate the ,pons ,asinorum1 etc41 and with her aid ,i mastered the first book of ,euclid1 which has always been useful to me4 ,latin grammar we also learned from ,miss ,beale4 ,she instilled strict accuracy by making us write verbs and declensions from memory4 ,out of class she showed us much friendliness1 inviting us to her room in the evening1 when sometimes she would read aloud to us1 sometimes tell us about the students at ,queen's4 ,it interested us to hear of those not very young ones who wore caps4 ,her appearance1 as ,i remember it then1 was charming4 ,her figure was of medium height4 ,the rather pale oval face1 high1 broad forehead1 large1 expressive grey eyes1 all showed intellectual character4 ,her dress was remarkable in its neatness4 ,she wore black cashmere in the week1 and a pretty1 mouse-coloured grey dress on ,sundays4' ,a little notebook remains to show how she prepared her lessons2 how little she was content with repetition acquired by rote4 ,there are also one or two little books of ,scripture notes belonging to this time1 interesting as the first of an immense series1 marking the beginning of the work which was to be her great means of influence4 ,one of these is on the ,book of ,proverbs1 a book she never read again with a class2 it was probably not her own choice at this time4 ,the lessons she drew from it were of the most practical nature for daily life1 and contain much teaching on true and false unworldliness4 ,she had even then the satisfaction of knowing that her ,bible teaching was acceptable to many4 ,she wrote home3 #8,several of the first class make a practice of taking notes and afterwards copy them out into a book4 ,this ,i never tell them to do1 nor do ,i so far encourage it as to look at the notes after they are written4 ,in the lower part of the school ,i do not allow them to take notes without special permission4' ,some notes on the ,church services show traces of the pain she felt over instances of irreverence which she had seen in the school4 ,those who remember the almost awful silence in which ,miss ,beale's ,scripture lessons at ,cheltenham were given1 how she wished it to signify the humility and reverence of spirit necessary for those who would study ,god's ,word1 can understand how she must have suffered when she saw flippant and careless behaviour at prayers and ,bible classes4 ,amongst the numbers of children1 many who had been comparatively untaught before they were brought into this continual round of religious exercise1 it is not surprising to find that there were some who disliked the appeal made to heart and conscience1 and who found this strict sense of reverence irksome4 ,there was even one naughty girl who in these first days refused to attend ,miss ,beale's classes4 ,it is clear that ,miss ,beale conveyed to her classes and to her fellow-workers1 that she had come to ,casterton in a missionary spirit4 ,though there were many who could appreciate her sacrifice in doing this1 it placed her at a disadvantage with others4 ,she knew herself to be in the forefront of women's education1 she knew that this school1 for all the excellent intention of the authorities1 could not be abreast of the movement2 but she failed to realise1 until she personally experienced it1 that a self-appointed guide is not always welcomed4 ,in the summer holidays1 which ,miss ,beale spent at home1 it was noticed that she was much depressed4 ,the second half-year's work began in ,august4 ,doubtless she had talked over her difficulties1 and her parents knew that she might soon give up her work4 ,soon after her return she seems to have written very strongly about things she would have liked to alter4 ,especially was she troubled by the low tone prevailing1 the want of respect for authority1 the mischief making and unhealthy friendships4 ,she found this important school through which pious intention and effort strove to help the very poorest by protecting them from all dangerous influences1 by instilling definite religious opinions of a certain type1 by giving such an education as should be an effective means of livelihood1 very far from being the ideal college of her dreams4 ,she began to specify her dissatisfaction and to form ideas for radical improvement4 ,she thought its isolation against it1 and that it was a drawback to have only one class of girls2 she felt there should have been more communication with home1--some of the children did not even go home for the holidays2--that the life was too monotonous and uniform4 ,above all she deprecated a repressive system which had punishments but no prizes2 a system in which all the virtues were negative1 the highest obtainable being obedience to the ever-repeated #8,thou shalt not4' ,it was not possible for ,dorothea ,beale to see anything wrong1 and to act as if in any way consenting to it1 by going on quietly with her own share like one not called upon to take a leading part4 ,she felt that steps might be taken to improve some of the matters which distressed her1 and after efforts which seemed to her ineffectual1 she sought an interview with the ,committee4 ,her father was kept fully informed of what she was thinking and striving to do1 as may be seen by the following extracts from his letters to her3-- #8#aheg4 #8,i think we must be content to wait1 at any rate for the present1 and see if any good comes from your interview with the ,committee4 ,you notice two points chiefly1--the low moral tone of the school1 and the absence of prizes4 ,the want of sympathy and love 7the great source of woman's influence in every condition of life7 was the prominent feature of the establishment in my mind1 after talking it over with you4 ,but nothing can flourish if love be not the ruling incentive1 and this must be awakened by the teacher and ,principal showing that for it they sacrifice any consideration of self4 ,this ,i know my dear girl1 you entirely do1 and you do it ineffectually1 nay1 perhaps worse than uselessly1 if you are not supported4 ,but1 as you have gone so far1 be not easily discouraged4 ,weigh the matter well before this ,christmas1 and if you find no changes are made1 the same cold management continued1 with the negation of confidence in the pupils as instanced in the matter of letters1 etc41 send in your resignation1 and above all1 state your reasons as they bear upon the school1 and upon yourself and the class you represent4 #8,i cannot contemplate your not coming up at ,christmas4 ,as we grow older1 each year makes us more desirous of the company of those we love2 perhaps because we feel how soon we shall part with it altogether1 perhaps because we are become more selfish1 but such is the fact4' ,and again on the same subject3-- #8,september #b1 #aheg4 #8,i cannot think you would be right to say you sought to be put into communication with the ,committee because you heard that they were not satisfied4 ,surely your application to see them came first4 ,i wrote because ,i thought the position and designation of head-teacher to you implied responsibilities in connection with the authorities2 because you thought the general moral tone of the school lower than it should be1 and the discipline to correct it defective2 because your counsel was not sought1 or1 if given1 not much heeded4 ,perhaps we were to blame in not learning more1 that the head-teacher was only an ordinary teacher at ,casterton4 ,but the world would think it more2 and your own experience of classes ought to enable you to be a judge of what was reasonable to expect in the bearing of pupils1 both educational and general4 ,i know your feelings1 not to quit hastily what you have chosen1 and considered a post of duty1 and in writing upon the subject ,i try to put out of the question my own feelings and those of your mother to have you at home1 or at least nearer home1 and really to view the matter from the same point of view as yourself4 ,your remaining at ,casterton is1 ,i think1 only to be entertained if such changes in the management are made as are likely in your view to raise the character of the establishment4 ,i feel your own education and standing are worthy of better things than the position of an ordinary teacher at ,casterton1 and of a better salary4 ,but ,i cannot doubt if you fairly and without hesitation state your objections and views1 you will convince some at least that you are acting independently and without any personal feelings 444 ,i am much as ,i was1 anxious about you all1 conscious how little ,i can do1 and praying that we may all see clearly that the game of life1 whoever may be the players1 is not one of chance or destiny2 444 ,write to me when you can--,ever your affectionate father1 ,,miles ,,beale4' ,it was unusual though not unknown for a teacher at ,casterton to appeal to the ,committee1 and the six gentlemen who composed it1 were not very eager to hear ,miss ,beale4 ,they may have suspected personal motives1 and some of them1 no doubt1 mistrusted her religious principles4 ,miss ,beale has left notes of her interview1 so interesting to us1 as the first occasion on which she tried to gain her own ends--always the best--from a body of persons who were in the position of directors of education4 ,it suggests a contrast with the ,cheltenham ,council meetings of her last years1 when her lightest wish had weight4 ,the way had been prepared for her by letters which had passed between the chairman 7,archdeacon ,evans7 and her father4 ,in her first interview1 which was of a preliminary nature1 she began by saying3 #8,i wished before saying anything1 to know whether it was their wish to hear what ,i had to say1 or whether they would rather ,i did not speak4 ,there was a hesitation4 ,then ,mr4 ,morewood1 in rather a doubtful way said they were always willing4 ,i said ,i understood from the ,committee last time1 and the ,chairman's letters to my father1 that they wished it2 then the others joined in with 8,oh yes1 certainly40' ,after making her statements on the need for reform1 ,miss ,beale concluded by saying she should be happy to resign if the ,committee were dissatisfied4 ,the reply was3 #8,oh no1 certainly not4' ,at a second interview1 the ,committee allowed her to put before them her own suggestions for alterations4 ,on this occasion ,miss ,beale began with a testimony to what the ,lady ,superintendent had effected in the school2 then mentioned the prevailing faults which so much distressed her1 especially irreverence and unsuitable language2 then boldly went on to point out the details of the system which might easily be improved1 notably1 that some prizes might be given1 and that letters to and from parents should not be supervised4 ,she said3-- #8,i think an institution in which the government is entirely by punishments not likely to produce the best moral effects4 ,i think that reports should be sent home more frequently than twice a year4' ,on being asked to give instances of disregard of religion1 she mentioned one or two in general terms1 saying she should not think it right to give individual examples4 ,mr4 ,rose replied by saying1 #8,unfortunately1 such things will occur in large schools2 perhaps you came expecting to find clergymen's daughters better than others4' ,some discussion took place on the subject of prizes1 during which #8occurred the very sapient remark that we do hear of angels being punished1 but not of their going up higher1 etc4444 ,i afterwards explained what ,i meant by rewards1 viz41 distinctions1 privileges1 and the opportunity of doing good 444 and ,i concluded by saying that unless ,i felt that the institution were doing moral good ,i should not care to stay4' ,the interview had been less disagreeable than she had anticipated2 she thought her complaint had had a fair hearing1 and in spite of the strain of work and the anxiety connected with it1 she felt her efforts were not wasted4 #8,so many1' she wrote home1 #8ask if they may come and speak to me2 more of them listen when ,i talk of religion1 and come privately to ask advice which ,i know they try to follow4 ,i do feel that ,i am of use4444 ,i believe ,i ought to wait here until either ,i feel it wrong to stay1 or ,god calls me elsewhere4 ,he has given me much more strength than ,i had any reason to expect4 ,i shall look forward with greater longing for ,christmas2 but do get me the papers ,i want as soon as you can4 ,i want to do as much as possible before ,i leave4 #8,i wrote this last night2 take care of it as well as the ,committee paper2 ,i may want them4 ,i have a headache to-day1 and ,i am afraid ,i show the effect4 ,do not tell ,papa anything1 if you think it will worry him1 but let me have some advice and hear as often as you can4' ,but discomfort almost inevitably succeeds complaint4 ,there were fresh interviews with the ,committee2 some of the matters which most tried her in the school rgime were naturally more acutely felt1 as she herself grew strained with both anxiety and work4 ,the tone of her letters home grew more sad as she began to see that after all she must give up her post4 ,she could not bear to relinquish work that she felt had been given her to do2 but she wrote3-- #8,i do not see how it is possible to do much good4 ,i may work upon a few individuals1 but the whole tone of the school is unhealthy1 and ,i never felt anything like the depression arising from the constant jar upon one's feelings caused by seeing great girls constantly professing not to care about religion4444 ,it is next to impossible to bear rudeness and hear so much evil-speaking about all set over them1 and keep up one's spirits so as to be able to teach energetically2 ,i would not want to run away if ,i thought ,i could do much good by staying1 but ,i have come to the conclusion that it is time to send in my resignation4 ,i have gained valuable experience1 and do not think ,i have been useless2 but under present circumstances it does not seem possible to get on4 #8,i was very glad of your nice long letter before1 and if you think ,i am right1 should send in perhaps a slight summary of the causes for it with my resignation as soon as ,i can4 ,i am glad to hear ,mama is better4' ,miss ,beale's difficulties were no doubt aggravated by religious questions4 ,her chief friend on the ,committee1 one who appreciated her sense of duty and intellectual power1 did not wish her to remain at the school4 ,he disliked her theological opinions4 ,she seems hardly to have realised this at the time1 though her father may have done so1 as can be seen from the following letter3-- #8,november #h1 #aheg4 #8,say1 if you have an opportunity1 as much of what you have written to the ,committee as will show them you sought the situation at ,casterton for the sake of the school4 ,for this ,i accepted for you--for this alone4 ,do not retain it without sufficient authority to carry forward the minds and morals of the pupils4 ,you went there in a missionary spirit1 ,i know1 as to a post of usefulness2 and you have hitherto retained it in the same spirit4 ,maintain this feeling1 but assert it with meekness4 ,we shall all be rejoiced to find you are coming home2 but ,i dare not urge you beyond this4 ,i was a party to the compact by which your remuneration was arranged1 and ,i felt no difficulty in making any concession between what ,i felt was due to the order of educated governesses which you represented1 and what the institution could afford to pay2 but ,i would not recommend you to compromise one iota of authority which may be fit to carry forward the minds of your pupils1 or of discipline to enforce obedience4 ,your pupils are no longer children1 and1 as the daughters of clergymen and intended to teach others1 are lights upon a hill1 and in point of education1 manners1 and morals1 great charges indeed4 ,i am witness1 too1 how roundly and unequivocally you stated your religious principle4444 ,i mention this much because ,i think you have been treated unfairly on this subject4 ,if the denial of the doctrine of regeneration by baptism were a sine qu non by the governess1 it ought to have been so stated4 ,mr4 ,mariner represented their religious basis as far more broad4 ,doubtless the ,committee have a right to limit the assent of their teachers to such points2 and doing so1 ,i cannot object to ,mr4 ,shepheard's voting for your exclusion1 neither do ,i see how they can accept money from those who think differently from the ,committee4 ,it is a question which has divided larger societies than at ,casterton 444 and ,i can remember when it convulsed the ,choral ,society4444 ,you and ,i are both labouring to raise the status and influence of the governess1 and you will do it1 first by your attainments and education1 and rectitude of conduct under all circumstances1 and ,i by bringing before those public bodies interested in the matter1 the influence and importance of legislating for their protection and recognition4 ,we may neither of us live to see the changes which shall come1 but even in our limited spheres we are breaking ground1 and you are gaining whilst yet young most valuable experience4 #8 444 ,above all things take care of your health4444 ,i am quite sure that you have a long course of usefulness before you4 ,the flattering regard in which you are held at ,queen's ,college1 and the constant means you always have in ,london of constantly improving yourself1 must teach you somewhat of your own value2 though ,i would not indeed presume upon it farther than to give you confidence to act rightly4 ,but good governesses are very scarce1 and are far better treated than they used to be1 though not as well as they deserve4 #8,casterton ought to be from the great advantages it offers1 a national institution2 but it will not be so if its principles are narrowed by anything like sectarian jealousy1 or if its standard of education be not high4 ,but ,casterton has not yet been as fortunate as the good intentions of its founder would seem to deserve4 ,the time will come1 ,i hope1 when this and kindred establishments will seek the visit and inspection of examiners from the ,board of ,government1 ,inspectors of ,schools1 and governesses4444 ,i write to you when ,i begin currente calamo1 and could do so much longer upon a theme in which we are both interested1 and ,i fear ,i have given you no direction4 ,fear nothing2 be firm1 but very gentle4' ,the matter of the resignation seems to have been hanging on all through the month of ,november4 ,miss ,beale evidently wrote home again for advice1 for on the #bfth she received another letter from her father3-- #8,november #bf1 #aheg4 #8,far from dissuading you from sending in your resignation1 ,i think it will be expected4 ,we did not appeal to the ,committee that their attention should end in talk1 but in giving you support moral and professional4 ,with less than this1 it is inconsistent with self-respect1 or the duty you owe to the children1 to remain4444 ,now ,christmas is approaching1 and1 as matters remain as they were1 certainly not improved1--,i would seek at once to be relieved4 ,do not suppose for a moment ,i shall consider you are forsaking an appointment to which you have been called1 or in which time would afford you redress4444 ,leave it then1 and if nothing more congenial presents itself1 we can afford to wait our time1 and let us try together if we cannot carry forward1 or at least make more widely known1 our views of what might be effected if your half of the human family more extensively used that influence of which they are all the dispensers1 as men are of their power4 ,this is indeed1 as ,christ said to the woman of ,samaria1 8living water10 if derived from ,him1 satisfying all thirst from its welling up from within2 and by its purity testing the value of everything it is brought in contact with4 ,you say you have learned much at ,casterton4 ,what matters it if you have to wait for the ,harvest that we are sure 8we shall reap if we faint not10 and gather 8fruit unto life eternal40 ,it is often in this world1 indeed1 that 8one soweth and another reapeth10 but though delayed the seed is not lost4' ,before ,miss ,beale could formally send in her threatened resignation to the ,committee1 she received the following letter from the ,chairman3-- #8,on your last interview with the ,committee you implied an intention of resigning in case certain alterations should not be made by the ,committee4444 #8,the ,committee are of opinion that under the circumstances it would be better that your connection with the school should cease after ,christmas next1 they paying you a quarter's salary in advance4 ,it will readily be imagined that this summary step on the part of the ,committee caused great distress to one of ,miss ,beale's sensitive nature4 ,nor was it easy for her to see why the difficult part she had taken upon herself for the good of the school should be misunderstood4 ,at that moment it must have seemed like a sentence of failure1-- #8,for who can so forecast the years1 ,to find in loss a gain to match4' ,among the crowning successes of later life she recognised that the blow had had its place in fashioning her life's work4 ,her letter home on the subject is not preserved1 but the following is evidently an answer to it3-- #8,december #aheg4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,girl1--,be sure ,i have been with you in heart every day and all day4444 ,we shall all be delighted to have you at home4 ,i would not have you commit yourself to writing statements on any account4 ,you have given proof of the truth of your assertion by offering and sending in your resignation1 and thus relinquishing your salary and the occupation of teaching to which you had felt yourself called1 because you could not retain the one or follow the other conscientiously4 ,though you have not accomplished all you sought1 you have sowed seed which will bear fruit2 it may be for others' benefit altogether2 but to doubt the ultimate result were a want of faith4 ,whilst ,i object to writing1 ,i think you owe it to yourself to seek rather than shun an interview with ,mr4 ,wilson4 ,his countenance of you ,i should consider very valuable4444 ,is not this again an instance of the influence of women1 444 the dispensers of influence for good or evil8 ,how important1 then1 to cultivate that principle of rightly discerning4 ,do you remember the apologue of ,esdras8 8,the first wrote3 ,wine is the strongest4 ,the second wrote3 ,the king is the strongest4 ,the third wrote3 ,women are strongest4 ,but above all things ,truth beareth away the victory40 ,how irresistible1 then1 is truth1 if urged by the self-denial and patient perseverance of an enlightened and ,christian woman6 ,it is very possible1 my dear ,dorothea1 that you have never been fairly represented or appreciated at ,casterton1 and now you are called to rest content with the consciousness of acting from right motives1 secure that you possess too the regard and love of all those who can value such sacrifices as you have made of home1 and ease1 and peace for others' good4 ,i write in great haste1 but ,i will write as often as you like until we see you4' ,thus was ,dorothea cheered and supported from home4 ,encouragement came from others also4 ,on ,december #g1 ,mr4 ,plumptre wrote3-- #8,i have been informed to-day that you are going to leave ,casterton at ,christmas4 ,i fear from this that you have not found your work there so pleasant as you hoped4 ,if there are any particulars connected with your change of plan which you would like to tell me1 or anything as to your prospects for the future1 ,i need not say that ,i shall be glad to hear them4 ,should you feel disposed to resume any part of your work at ,queen's ,college8 ,the place of ,assistant is of course being worthily occupied1 and so far as ,i know not likely to be vacant2 but tutorships in ,mathematics and other subjects might probably be open4' ,mr4 ,shepheard1 curate-in-charge of ,casterton1 and chaplain to the school1 wrote thus to ,miss ,beale on her leaving3-- #8,it is natural that you should wish to have my testimony1 and right that ,i should give it you regarding the line of conduct you have persevered in1 and the difficult position in which you have been placed1 as well as regarding your general principles4 #8,it is no more than your due that ,i should say to others what ,i have said to yourself1 that ,i think your conduct throughout the painful circumstances of your connection with the ,clergy ,daughters' ,school has been such as to reflect the highest honour upon yourself4 ,you have only done your duty in boldly expressing what you thought required correction in the school4 ,and if your faithful discharge of that duty has brought discomfiture on yourself1 you have the comfort of knowing that it is no dishonour to suffer for well-doing4 #8,i have the greatest pleasure in offering you my cordial esteem and regard4 ,and though there are points of religious doctrine1 and those not small nor secondary1 on which we must agree to differ1 this cannot affect my opinion of the high principle and conscientious conduct which you have manifested throughout your stay at ,casterton4 #8,of your abilities and acquirements ,i need not speak4 ,they are well known here1 and can better be described by those who have had the opportunity of witnessing and benefiting by them personally1 than by myself2 and of such witnesses there are no lack4 #8,we shall always be glad to hear of your happiness1 and hope to retain your friendship when removed to a distance from us4--,i am1 dear ,miss ,beale1 very sincerely yours1 ,h4 ,,shepheard 7,incumbent74' ,the letter shows1 what was indeed true1 that difficulties and differences both in the ,committee and the school were aggravated by bitterness on the subject of religious opinions4 ,this comes out still more clearly in a correspondence ,miss ,beale kept up for a little time with ,mrs4 ,shepheard1 who was a daughter of ,mr4 ,carus ,wilson1 the aged founder of the school1 and at this time infirm and worn by the immense labours of his younger days4 ,the ,bishop and ,dean of ,carlisle1 being called upon to advise the ,committee1 patiently heard evidence for eight hours4 ,mr4 ,carus ,wilson also decided to visit the school himself2 but before he went north1 ,mrs4 ,shepheard arranged an interview between him and ,miss ,beale1 writing to her3 #8,do not be afraid of my beloved father--tall1 grey-headed1 and anxious1 but clear and open as you please4' ,a memorable meeting surely this1 of two who with widely differing methods were alike in high1 earnest aim and self-devotion4 ,it took place in ,february1 and in the same month ,mr4 ,wilson made one of his last visits to his old home and flock4 ,mrs4 ,shepheard notes that #8it is supposed that nine hundred were in this little church last ,sunday to hear my father6' ,in the course of the year #aheh many changes were made in the management of the ,clergy ,daughters' ,school1 and this chapter on ,casterton may fitly close with an extract from a letter written to ,miss ,beale by her friend1 ,mrs4 ,greene1 of ,whittington ,hall3-- #8 444 ,there was a little music yesterday evening at the ,clergy ,school1 and ,miss ,vincent asked me to be present4 ,i know your kind heart will give interest to what goes on there1 and so ,i waited till it was over to tell you how it went off1 etc4444 ,i assure you the performance was extremely good1 and the girls' manners and appearance were those of young ,english ,gentlewomen2 this ,i consider good praise4 ,miss ,vincent appears to me the very person to fill so important a post4444 ,we spoke much of you1 she evidently appreciates you2 and when the music was over1 ,i went to one or two of the ladies near1 and asked1 8,were you acquainted with ,miss ,beale80 ,one came forward with a beaming face and replied1 8,oh1 ,i know her well1 and have heard from her40 ,i replied1 8,so have ,i2 and ,i shall write to her to-morrow40 ,i do not know who my friend was1 but perhaps you will4 #8,and now let me tell you how delighted ,i am you are so comfortable2 that you are doing much good ,i am equally sure4444 ,i hope we may sometimes meet4 ,would you even spare us a little time here8 ,if so1 ,i would offer you a hearty welcome4' ,,chapter ,,iv ,,an ,,interval #8,o dignitosa coscienza e netto ,come t'e picciol fallo amaro morso4' ,,dante1 ,purgatorio1 iii4 ,the early part of the year #aheh is the one period in the life of ,dorothea ,beale when she could have been called really free4 ,it was a time when it became her part to choose what she would do2 to wait for what was suitable1 to decide between conflicting claims4 ,she came home depressed1 defeated1 disappointed2 but she had discovered her own weakness and real strength2 she had increased her knowledge of human nature through some experience of a boarding-school and its ,committee4 ,she had learned for one thing1 that it would be best for herself and for the world that she should be head of a school1 and she submitted to wait for one4 ,but in the meantime other calls and needs besides that of education were heard and considered4 ,the fact of apparent failure in her recent position at ,casterton might have been taken as an indication that her energies should perhaps be directed to a fresh field of action4 ,she was not under the necessity of earning her bread2 she loved her home and had a circle of friends and interests about her4 ,various kinds of good work for others appealed to her1 and her ability and gifts made it clear that she might have succeeded in other walks of life than the one in which her steps were finally directed4 ,though ,dorothea had inherited1 in a strong degree1 her father's antipathy to a mariage de convenance1 though she was far from regarding marriage as the necessary completion of a woman's life1 she had not--at this time at least--made any definite refusal of it4 ,this is a subject to which it will not be necessary to return in ,miss ,beale's life1 devoted as it became to one great cause4 ,but here1 before her vocation had distinctly declared itself1 it is right to say that in the course of events she was not only not without opportunities of marriage1 she also gave it her full consideration4 ,flippant scholars might echo the words of ,punch1 #8,how different from us1 ,miss ,beale and ,miss ,buss6' ,but in the sense in which the words were intended1 this was not true in either case4 ,suffice it to say1 that ,dorothea ,beale knew what it was to be admired1 loved1 even for a short time engaged to be married4 ,she knew also1 among other experiences1 what it was to sacrifice a girlish romance because it was right to put away vain regret2 to forget the things that are behind1 and in this matter as in others1 to use any sense of personal loss in such a way that it strengthened her character4 ,to pass from this subject1 which1 as it happens1 does not appear to have had any place in the short period which elapsed between ,casterton and ,cheltenham1 it is interesting to note what kinds of work ,miss ,beale considered with a view to taking them up4 ,philanthropic occupations in the ordinary sense of the term she had had but few4 ,her duties as a tutor at ,queen's ,college were first undertaken when she was still eighteen1 and up to then her time had been filled with interests arising from her own education and that of her brothers4 ,yet1 while at ,queen's1 busy as she was1 she had made time to aid one less fortunate than herself4 ,in #ahec her friend ,miss ,alston consulted her how best to help a clever boy brought up in a charity school4 ,miss ,beale volunteered to teach him ,euclid and algebra1 and for four months gave him a lesson a week in each of these subjects4 ,in that time he went through the first four books of ,euclid and part of the sixth4 ,miss ,beale enjoyed these lessons1 for her pupil was keen and intelligent and took a delight in working out things for himself4 ,doubtless he too responded to the teaching of one whose method was ever to lead a pupil on to perceive a truth before accepting it4 ,when1 after a time1 he came under the instruction of the headmaster of a public school1 the latter remarked to ,miss ,alston propos of ,miss ,beale's teaching3 #8,what a well-balanced head your friend must have6' ,she had never1 however1 been engaged in the ,sunday ,school teaching and visiting of the poor1 such as was not infrequently undertaken by thoughtful girls of her day4 ,her strong intellectual bent1 her well-defined sense of purpose possibly kept her from even good occupations which might have seemed desultory4 ,but one kind of work for others seems actually to have been considered4 ,this was in connection with ,mrs4 ,lancaster whom for some years ,miss ,beale had helped by collecting money for the ,church ,penitentiary ,association1 and for a ,diocesan ,home at ,highgate4 ,mrs4 ,lancaster became in #ahfa the founder of ,st4 ,peter's ,sisterhood4 ,she died in #ahgd4 #8,she was1' says one who knew her1 #8a very remarkable woman1 of great charm and cleverness1 and wholly devoted to the service of ,god4' ,her letters to ,miss ,beale at this time show that she was at once drawn to her young helper1 so active in inspiring others to share in the good work1 so punctual in her payments4 ,it was work in which ,miss ,beale was interested all her life1 to which she gave largely1 and which she ever promoted as far as her much filled time and thought permitted4 ,mrs4 ,lancaster greeted her first sign of interest with a warm welcome to the new worker4 #8,indeed1 it was a great joy to me to see another drawn in by the ,good ,shepherd to help in seeking ,his lost sheep4 ,may ,he bless and strengthen your will and power for the work4' ,dorothea appears to have been an assistant secretary1 and to have collected money from her sisters and friends for this object4 ,it is unnecessary1 perhaps1 to say that this money was always paid on the same date of each year4 ,after a time1 when it seemed likely that ,miss ,beale would not remain at ,casterton1 ,mrs4 ,lancaster obviously hoped to find in her one who would give up her life and talents to this cause4 #8,i wish1' she wrote1 #8for the sake of poor ,penitents that you were more free1 for ,i fancy you are a real1 steady1 orderly doer1 and that is worth much in such a cause4 ,still1 you do what you can1 and may well be grateful to help in any way4 ,thank your sister too very much2 it is very delightful to get young interest4' ,then1 when an occasion arrived on which it was absolutely necessary to find a worker for the ,highgate ,home1 she wrote3 #8,are you sure that you don't know of a really good young lady not over accomplished1 and she need know neither ,greek nor ,hindostanee1 who would come and live at the ,home1 with a salary of #cj only1 and poor people's diet8' ,this was followed by a still more practical suggestion3 #8,is there any chance 7,i don't like the word7 of your liking to take the ,headship of a large ,penitentiary to be worked by ,sisters1 but the whole under strict1 honest1 ,english principles--more like ,kaiserwerth than anything we have now8' ,dorothea's answer seems to have emboldened ,mrs4 ,lancaster to make a definite suggestion to her to come herself1 either as a ,sister or a lay worker1 and the following note from ,mrs4 ,lancaster1 written during the summer holidays of the ,casterton year1 shows that the idea was to some extent entertained4 ,it is interesting also in the history of the work and institution established by that lady4 #8,as your mind does not altogether say 8,no0 to my proposal at once1 ,i write a line to beg you not to decide against the thought of what ,i wrote to you about1 without weighing very seriously these considerations3 #8,what is the highest work8 #8,what constitutes a call to ,god's service8 #8,is it lawful to give up a higher for a lower work8 #8,if1 when you have considered it well1 you feel at all drawn towards it1 then will you write either to me or to the ,rev4 ,john ,oliver of ,st4 ,mary's ,house of ,mercy1 ,highgate1 appointing with him to see you 7for the appointment is in his hands71 and he will not make it unless he is fully convinced that the lady would work it on strictly ,english principles1 and that her heart was given to ,god first4 ,he is very earnest and very honest1 and all there seems most hopeful if regarded as a beginning and a foundation1 for at present there are only two ,sisters and one other lady at work4 ,the house and grounds are delightful1 the ,penitents in a good healthy state1 and if but a wise lady is given to the work ,i should be very hopeful of seeing there1 such a ,sisterhood as we have talked about but have not been privileged to see growing up in ,english soil4 ,pray do consult your sister1 or your parents1 but please confidentially1 as ,i think we ought to do these preliminaries as quietly as possible4 ,i have mentioned your name quite in confidence to ,mr4 ,oliver1 and ,i do hope you will see him and talk it out to the bottom with him before you decide4 ,i know you will do what is better than all1 ask for guidance that cannot fail4 #8,i do not think your parents would object1 after allowing you to go to ,casterton and ,queen's ,college1 because in point of position1 this is now felt to be all that a lady need care about4 ,i am so very anxious about ,highgate because it seems so hopeful as regards soundness of principle now1 but ,i will say no more excepting to beg you to remember that the appointment does not rest with me even if you felt you could and would take it4--,ever yours affectionately and sincerely1 ,,rosa3 ,,lancaster4' ,it is probable that ,mrs4 ,lancaster's friendship and the glimpse of ,sisterhood life which she obtained by means of it deepened the sense of vocation with which ,miss ,beale was prepared to take up the new work for which she was waiting in #aheh4 ,it may also have had its influence on outside matters such as dress1 which we know1 when engaged on her work of teaching1 was in early days especially very plain and simple4 ,mrs4 ,lancaster was obviously a friend whom she revered1 one to whom she could speak of religious matters1 and with whose devoted work among poor women she fully sympathised2 but the conventual side of it never really appealed to her4 ,through ,miss ,twining1 who began her work in #ahej1 ,miss ,beale became much interested in the reform of workhouses1 and the idea even passed through her mind of seeking a position as matron in order to help to promote a better state of affairs4 ,we can only wonder what would have been wrought had that great personality and unwearied diligence1 that refusal to accept anything but the best1 been brought to bear on the ,poor ,law1 on ,vestries1 or ,boards of ,guardians4 ,the education of girls of her own class was of far deeper interest to her than any other work for women4 ,she was trained for it1 was conscious of her own power and knowledge of what a school should be1 and she decided to wait till she could find a headship and carry out her own ideas4 ,it was not quite easy to find the post she wanted4 ,as she put it herself1 #8,they might say1 8,she could not get on at ,queen's1 she could not get on at ,casterton0'2 and it is obvious from her diary1 that though she was actually told as early as ,january #aheh of the possible vacancy at ,cheltenham1 she tried for more than one school before she was elected there in ,june4 ,while she waited1 she worked4 ,there was plenty of home interest1 a pleasant circle of friends about her3 she took her share in the life of others1 and yet led her own and accomplished a large amount in those few months4 ,during a part of this time she gave weekly lessons in mathematics and ,latin at ,miss ,elwall's school at ,barnes1 a school which afterwards became well known under ,miss ,eliza ,beale1 already in #aheh an assistant teacher there4 ,but the great occupation of these months was ,the ,student's ,textbook of ,english and ,general ,history4 ,in point of time this important work was the third book produced by ,miss ,beale1 and a word on its first predecessor will not be out of place here4 ,the little volume on the ,deaconesses' ,institution at ,kaiserwerth was the outcome of a visit there during one of two summers passed in ,germany for the sake of studying schools and foreign methods of education4 ,miss ,beale stayed for a few days with the founder1 ,pastor ,fliedner1 and his wife1 and studied each department of work4 ,she was specially pleased with the ,hospital and ,sunday-school1 of which she wrote with much appreciation3 #8,i never was present at a lesson which seemed to give so much pleasure to children and listeners1 as well as to the teacher1 who certainly understood the art of drawing out children by means of questions4' ,germany1 its schools and similar institutions1 its literature and language1 even its handwriting1 had a great attraction for ,miss ,beale4 ,she had a few ,german lessons at the ,paris school and afterwards worked at it alone1 finally perfecting herself in the language by two long visits to the country1 when she stayed principally at ,brunswick and ,dresden4 ,on one occasion she resided for some time in a ,german family4 ,in after years she would talk of this time to the girls at ,cheltenham1 telling them how she would make a point of conversing with the person she understood least easily at any gathering1 inquiring the meaning of any word she did not know1 to make use of it herself at the first opportunity4 #8,and of course ,i did not mind being laughed at a little1' she would add with a smile4 ,hence the praise that ,german ladies teaching at ,cheltenham would accord her knowledge of the language1 saying that she never made a mistake either in speaking or writing4 ,she frequently made use of the ,german character in writing her diary4 ,the book on ,kaiserwerth1 written as it was for a special cause1 has naturally long since had its day1 though on its appearance it was accepted widely enough to justify the thought of a second edition4 ,mrs4 ,lancaster was greatly interested by it1 and showed it to the ,bishop of ,london1#bb who had just signed the ,rule of the newly-founded ,sisterhood4 ,both ,bishop ,jackson and ,dean ,trench declined1 in friendly letters1 dedications to themselves of a second edition1 and none appears to have been issued2 possibly on account of difficulties suggested by ,mrs4 ,lancaster1 who wished the scope of the book enlarged to embrace work of a similar nature in ,england4 ,in the event of this being done1 she begged ,miss ,beale to add a notice of the infant ,community of ,st4 ,peter's1 then in ,broughton ,square4 ,to-day the book can scarcely be called extant1 but there is certainly one copy in ,england and one in ,kaiserwerth4 ,it is interesting because it shows1 like other writing of this time1 the continuity of ,miss ,beale's ideas and thoughts4 ,her sowing had been betimes and abundant1 and she could already gather as she needed4 ,she did not give till she had the wherewithal1 and though in her long years she frequently sowed afresh--was ever disciple as well as teacher--she was an early husbandman1 a wise householder1 able continuously and opportunely to bring out things new and old4 ,the simile of ,jairus's daughter1 occurring for the first time in the passage quoted below1 was one she often quoted in connection with that awakening of women's energies it had been her lot to share2 and one she finally enshrined for her children in the window placed in the ,college to the memory of ,miss ,buckoll in #ahij4 ,and like much of her later work1 the little book shows also how much her religion went hand in hand with all her work for others4 ,there was no thought of the emancipation of women1 no word of rights2 she spoke only of duties1 of scope to do good2 but even these were quite secondary to the desire1 the will to make the effort1 the ear to hear the bidding voice4 ,here is a passage to illustrate this3 #8,it has occurred to me that a more detailed description than that given six years ago by ,miss ,nightingale of an institution in which she was herself trained1 and which has since that time many new features1 might assist those who are considering the best way of turning to account the wasted energy of our country-women1 of those whose highest happiness it would be to be like ,mary1 ,joanna1 and ,susannah1 to follow ,christ4444 ,there are many who1 when they pray to ,god 8to comfort and succour all them who 444 are in trouble1 sorrow1 need1 sickness1 or any other adversity10 cannot be satisfied without giving a small portion of their money1 who tremble at the thought of being numbered with the women who are at ease1 with the careless daughters4 ,o that ,christ would take us by the hand4 ,he has but to speak the word3 8,daughter1 ,i say unto thee1 ,arise02 and we shall arise and minister to ,him3 then will the scorners acknowledge we were only sleeping1 and our souls will magnify the ,lord4'#bc ,two other short extracts must be permitted3 #8,i could not but contrast the aimless existence of many of my own country-women1 the dreary regions of the fashionable world1 with the wide field under cultivation by this band of ,sisters1 who1 by ,god's blessing1 penetrate year by year farther into the wilderness1 and rescue so many of their fellow-creatures from evils more to be dreaded than famine1 pestilence1 and the sword4'#bd ,finally1 the following passage tells how the strengthening thought of the ,communion of ,saints1 of which she spoke to ,miss ,gore on the last ,sunday of her life1 was already beginning to be hers3 #8,the happiness of a ,deaconess does not arise from external circumstances2 it is a peace which the world cannot give4 ,she must be prepared to live away from the world1 without any society but that of a few sick persons and children1 without beautiful services2 to believe1 in the midst of unbelief and sin1 in the ,holy ,catholic ,church and the ,communion of ,saints4 ,she must always be watching for her ,lord's coming1 for in the midst of the pestilence and near the field of battle is her post4'#be ,a second visit to ,kaiserwerth1 ten years later1 gave ,miss ,beale great pleasure4 ,she was delighted with the work being done and the extension of the small beginnings she had seen in #ahef4 ,in #aije1 at ,oeynhausen1 she met accidentally a ,deaconess of ,kaiserwerth1 was much attracted by her1 and invited her to come and see her and talk to her of the institution1 and after her return to ,england exchanged letters with her4 ,the ,textbook of ,history entailed a great deal of labour and study1 which must have been a boon to its writer at a time of depression and uncertainty4 ,though the scheme of it was no doubt in her mind before she left ,casterton1 and the book was probably begun in the summer holidays of #aheg1 it was not till after ,christmas that she was free to devote herself to it4 ,then she threw into the work every hour she could justly secure1 striving at the same time not to neglect family claims4 ,the conditions under which it was done were little short of heroic4 ,in order to secure freedom from interruption both for herself and her books of reference1 she chose for her study a large empty room1 where she worked in the midst of open volumes spread round her on the floor4 ,it was winter1 but she was glad to avail herself of the difficulty of keeping up a daily fire at the top of the old ,city house1 in order to give less attraction to any other members of the household to sit with her and take up time in conversation4 ,the empty grate by which she wrote lends significance to an entry in the diary of ,march #aheh3 #8,self-indulgence because of cold4' ,the self-denial and concentration of the writer bore early fruit1 for this book1 a digest of world-wide histories1 was published in ,august #aheh1 just after its author had come to ,cheltenham4 ,the production of this textbook is an instance of the way in which ,miss ,beale would see and seize an opportunity4 ,there was a real need for such a work4 ,in her introduction she alludes to objections which could be raised to similar books then in use1 and which were stated in articles which appeared in the ,times of ,january #aheg4 ,miss ,beale's reference is doubtless to two letters headed #8,the ,corruption of ,popular ,school ,books4' ,the first of these1 by the noted ,dr4 ,cumming1 appeared on ,january #ag1 and dealt with certain changes which had been made1 in a ,romish direction1 in a widely used textbook of ,english history by ,henry ,ince4 ,a new edition had lately appeared1 professing itself to be much extended and improved1 in wide circulation1 and sanctioned by her ,majesty's ,committee of the ,council of ,education4 ,this edition1 pleaded the writer of the ,times letter1 contained statements which made it #8unsuitable for use in ,protestant schools4' ,those quoted1 e4g4 that #8,queen ,elizabeth was a mistress in the art of dissembling1' do not seem very reprehensible1 but enough savour of ,papistry had been introduced into the book to cause the ,committee above-mentioned and the ,society of ,arts to strike the book off their lists4 ,dorothea ,beale was quick to see and seize the opportunity thus afforded for a new textbook4 ,the very large scope of the work1 embracing as it does the whole history of the world since the beginning of the ,christian era1 with the history of ,england given in rather fuller detail than the rest1 makes it imperative that its hundred and seventy closely printed pages should be rather dry4 ,the ,textbook is intended for the teacher rather than the pupil2 highly useful in its arrangement of facts1 and names1 and suggestions of ideas1 but not in itself a complete lesson-book4 ,its clearness and fulness are not more characteristic of the writer than the dramatic instinct which led her to give such names1 titles1 and short quotations as tend at once to fix a fact in the memory1 and to conjure up visions of the conditions under which such and such events took place4 ,miss ,beale had a remarkable quickness in seizing on the important matter and stating it in a few telling words4 ,it is interesting to take at haphazard her history of any century1 and mark what a wealth of interest rather than of information is brought together in a few short pages to stimulate the reader's thirst for knowledge4 ,but it is sufficient to point out the titles chosen for the centuries1 as showing what seemed to her of greatest importance to the progress of mankind4#bf ,the book is completed with an account of the ,english ,constitution and some genealogical tables4 ,it reached a seventh edition1 but ,miss ,beale was disinclined to bring it up to quite modern times1 doubtless because she felt there are now other books to cover the ground as well or better than her own4 ,consequently the nineteenth century is left uncompleted4 ,the book1 however1 played a useful part at a time when the teaching of history was very imperfect1 and was well received by those who knew its author4 #8,the plan of the book1' wrote ,mr4 ,plumptre1 #8seems to me very good1 and ,i cannot doubt that you have carried into the details the same painstaking accuracy with which we used to be familiar in your work with us4' ,mr4 ,mackenzie1 at the writer's request1 made an elaborate criticism1 from which it is enough to quote his #8chief complaint'3 #8,your unfairness to your own sex1 and your willingness to believe and repeat the calumnies uttered against them by male writers1 a fault to which the old monks were especially prone2 but they were not quite silent1 as you are1 upon the virtues of the royal and noble ,anglo-,saxon ladies1 who did so much1 even in the darkest ages1 towards educating and refining the barbarous people by whom they were surrounded4' ,mr4 ,beale mentioned it more than once in his letters to the daughter in whose talent he had such pride3 #8,the success of your little book is very encouraging4 ,e4 says they call it 8,beale's ,ince40 444 ,i dined at the ,adams' last week1 a doctor's party4 ,dr4 ,daldy was loud in praise of the ,textbook4' ,and again1 #8,underneath ,d4 ,beale in my own copy ,i have written 8sed summa sequar festigia rerum40' ,and to the end it was a source of satisfaction to the writer herself4 #8,you could not have done so well without my ,textbook1 could you8' she said to an old pupil whose ,histories for ,schools have been widely accepted4 ,the third work of this period was a little book entitled ,self-,examination4 ,this was chiefly designed for schools1 and was edited by ,mr4 ,denton1 the vicar of ,st4 ,bartholomew's1 ,moor ,lane4 ,this book1 too1 written when books of devotion were far less common than they are now1 and in order to supply a real need of schoolgirls1 has been long superseded by others1 but in many cases the works for which it has been put on one side are less thoughtful and penetrating4 ,the questions and meditations are arranged round the subjects of #8,my ,duty towards ,god1 and my ,duty towards my ,neighbour1' and with the comment of verses from the ,bible are presented in that tabular form which ,miss ,beale loved4#bg ,the actual questions for self-examination are throughout slight and few in proportion to what is suggested by the ,scripture texts and the meditations2 the reason doubtless being to make the reader think for herself4 ,this little work brings us face to face with that religion which all her life long was the motive power of ,dorothea's life4 ,deep religious feeling was no phase nor change of thought which came to her with years or experience4 ,it was not wrought for her in the furnace of sorrow1 though many times there renewed and purified4 ,it was so much the dominating force of her mind and life1 that1 by which every day as every year she was controlled and inspired1 that it may be reverently regarded as a special gift to one called to a great service4 #8,i cannot1' she wrote1 #8look back upon the time when ,god was not a present ,friend4 ,i would throw myself on my knees in trouble1 and ,he gave of ,his compassion4 ,how 7as a child7 ,i used to follow the service and wish it were possible to think of what ,god was2--to think of ,him as mere ,light was the nearest approach4' ,and as an old woman--despite the love of friends1 and her well-deserved honours1 often alone and sick and weary--she wrote1 #8,the ,lord is my ,light4' ,but the religion of ,dorothea ,beale was far indeed from being a mere succession of beautiful and comforting thoughts4 ,it meant authority4 ,it involved all the difficulties of daily obedience1 it meant the fatigue of watching1 the pains of battle1 sometimes the humiliation of defeat4 ,intense as was her feeling on religious subjects1 it was never permitted to go off in steam1 as she would term it1 but became at once a practical matter for everyday life4 ,sorrow and regret for sin and mistakes passed into fresh effort against them2 the perception of a beautiful thought or idea became a new motive for definite acts of charity and diligence4 ,with regard to such a religious life as hers1 the mind dwelling habitually in a region which is beyond controversy1 it seems like a descent to a lower plane to speak of religious opinions4 ,yet no approximately true history of her can be related without reference to these4 ,even if there were no record of it as there is1 it is obvious that one at once so large-minded and clear-headed1 whose life displayed so much organisation and arrangement1 must have definitely faced the great problems of eternity1 must have listened to every appeal of ,christianity1 and with her own eyes have looked up each avenue of thought which promised an approach to ,truth4 ,and this she undoubtedly did4 ,but in the knowledge of ,divine things1 as in that which she would scarcely permit to be called secular1 her faithfulness and simple obedience to early teaching directed her mind to certain religious duties and opinions from which she never parted3 #8,if any man will do ,his will he shall know of the doctrine1' is a text she was fond of quoting to her ,scripture classes4 ,she lived to realise it4 ,very early and continuously she ruled her life by the commandments of the ,lord1 and when storms arose1 when winds and floods of doubt threatened ruin1 when she was herself ready to cry1 #8,all is gone1' the foundations of the house of faith were yet secure1 and thereon love rebuilt4 ,and so it may be truly said that the framework of her personal religion was in age what it had been in youth4 ,she had her own distinctly outlined path to which she had been guided early by such friends as her father and ,mr4 ,mackenzie4 ,this has been sometimes lost sight of1 possibly owing to her deep sympathy and interest in matters of doubt and difficulty4 ,when any of her children turned to her in distress of this nature1 she felt1 more than at any other time1 the yearning of a mother's heart1 and was fearful of saying any word or even of showing any opinion of her own which might alarm or seal up confidence4 ,hence people of widely different views wished to claim her as of their own way of thinking when often she was not4 ,she did not think it of paramount importance when speaking to the unorthodox1 or even to the agnostic1 to state her own beliefs precisely4 ,she did not seek to proselytise but to help1 to remove1 as far as power was given her1 all hindrances to the light1 to persuade those who were in darkness still to obey4 ,but she knew that she could not make any see2 she recognised faith as the gift of ,god4 ,miles ,beale was a ,churchman of the type known best by its nickname #8,high and ,dry4' ,his daughters were still quite young when they found this was a school to which not all the world belonged1 and they began to appreciate religious differences4 ,they heard1 between ,st4 ,helen's and ,st4 ,bartholomew's1 preachers of varying shades of thought4 ,mr4 ,mackenzie was succeeded at ,st4 ,helen's by an incumbent of evangelical views4 ,some of ,mr4 ,denton's curates at ,st4 ,bartholomew's went over to ,rome2 one became ,father ,ignatius4 ,dorothea was only sixteen when her father wrote to her on the subject of the ,hampden-,gorham dispute1 as of a matter she well understood and found interesting4 ,and this recalls the fact that religious controversy of that day raged specially round the question of ,baptismal ,regeneration4 ,a letter written to the ,council of the ,ladies' ,college after her appointment#bh shows how clearly and concisely1 and without reference to books1 ,miss ,beale could state her opinions4 ,it deals with her views of the ,sacraments1 marking her religious position at the time and indeed to the end2--it was for her ,prayer-book that she asked in the one clear moment of the last unconsciousness4 ,this letter contains a bare1 unemotional statement of belief1 to which may well be added this3 that while she held firmly the doctrine of #8,two only1 as generally necessary to salvation1' the life of grace through the ,sacraments was the power by which she lived4 ,she recognised herself as fortunate in her special heritage of ,christian thought1 writing of it thus3-- #8,it was a time of great religious revival3 the bald services of my childhood were beginning to develop into the musical services of our own time4444 ,the beautiful music of to-day is not more dear to me than those plain services with often grotesque accompaniments where ,i learned to see ,heaven opened4 ,miss ,sewell's writings1 especially ,the ,experience of ,life1 helped me in early youth to work out the problems of my daily life4 ,religion quickened the intellectual life1 for ,sacramental teaching was to the leaders of that movement no narrow dogmatism1 but the discovery of the river of the water of life flowing through the whole desert of human existence1 and making it rejoice and blossom as the rose1 revealing a unity in creation1 a continuity in history1 a glory in art1 a purpose in life1 making life infinitely worth living4'#bi ,when quite young she began the practice of ,sunday ,communion1 and many a week day found her at the #f ,a4,m4 celebration at ,st4 ,bartholomew's ,church4 ,from first to last her scanty diary records this service among the leading facts of ordinary life4 ,in the power thus gained she had ever before her the thought of co-operation1 of working out salvation1 of putting on ,christ by daily dying to self by minute watchfulness1 and in every sense of the word painstaking diligence4 ,at a time when the pulpits of ,cheltenham were ringing with statements which seemed to her to misrepresent the great doctrine of the ,atonement1 she was speaking to her children of the true nature of the ,redeemer's ,blood1 of the living stream flowing from the ,heart through all the members2 she was seeking for herself and for them the righteousness of ,christ1 not as a mere substitution1 but as a real attainment won by the union of a soul wholly surrendered to the workings of the grace of ,god4 ,this chapter may fitly close with a passage from the diary1 which she appears to have begun to keep for the first time this year1 when she was to some extent forced back upon herself1 when she was making her own scheme of daily work4 ,begun on ,ash ,wednesday1 ,february #ag1 #aheh1 it was continued intermittently at least to #aija1 when the increasing infirmities of age made all reading and writing difficult4 ,sometimes dropped for many months1 it was taken up again as if with the suggestion of a sense of culpability for neglect4 ,it was never full2 never1 so far as outward events are concerned1 of any great interest4 ,some of these1 indeed1 as the writing of certain letters1 the visits of certain friends1 or business engagements1 are just mentioned and no more2 doubtless for the sake of reference only4 ,it remains for us as a revelation of the keen self-scrutiny with which she1 who had to guide and warn others1 was daily searching her own soul4 ,very often for weeks there is no mention of anything done1 or seen1 or thought as far as the matters of this world are concerned2 but she never failed to note what she regarded as the real life1 spiritual growth or the reverse1 right or wrong conduct1 faithful or unfaithful performance of religious duties4 ,this diary cannot be ignored if a true presentment of ,dorothea ,beale is to be given4 ,hence1 intimate as it is1 enough extracts as may display the persistent effort of her life are inserted here4 ,they are not consecutive1 but chosen as characteristic and interesting1 and showing to some extent the occupations of the period4 ,scanty traces indeed of what she was doing and thinking1 they are yet enough to show a little of the anxiety and conflict of which she wrote in #aija to ,miss ,margaret ,richardson1 in these words3 #8,once ,i had an interval of work1 and ,i thought perhaps ,god would not give it me again--but after that interval ,he called me here4 ,i think now ,i can see better how ,i needed that time of comparative quiet and solitude1 and a time to think over my failures1 and a time to be more helpful to my family4' ,,extracts ,,from ,,diary ,,of #aheh #8,february #agth4--,ash ,wednesday4 ,to ,s4 ,m's4 ,applied for school at ,holloway4 ,lip-service4 ,snappish4 ,resolution4 to strive for more humility1 patience1 charity4 #8,february #bfth4--,miss ,alston came4 ,idle meditation on peace4 ,to be less anxious4 #8,february #bgth4--,history for seven hours4 ,church4 ,some idleness4 #8,march #eth4--,went to see ,mr4 ,sankey about boy's evening school4 ,to church4 ,history4 ,many impatient answers to ,mama4 #8,march #fth4--,history4 ,aunt ,e4 came4 ,cross at not getting my own way4 ,some idleness4 ,impatient manner4 #8,march #gth1 ,sunday4--,went to ,h4 ,e4 without prayer4 ,not a devoted service4 ,morning prayer nothing but vain thoughts4 ,at evening ,church4 ,very cross4 #8,april #adth4--,history4 ,elizabeth4 ,called on ,mrs4 ,blenkarne4 ,dined at ,chapter ,house4 ,idle4 ,indulgence in reading story at my time for evening prayer4 ,unpunctual in morning4 ,thoughtless about ,mama4 #8,april #bjth4--,history1 #afth ,century4 ,felt terribly cross4 ,o grant me calmness4 #8,april #bbnd4--,went about servants till #aa4cj4 ,wrote to ,miss ,hyde4 ,still some tempest within4 #8,june #bnd4--,copying4 ,dinner party4 ,eliza at home4 ,worldly4 #8,june #crd4--,headache4 ,to ,mrs4 ,northcote's4 ,wrote preface4 #8,june #dth4--,saw ,mrs4 ,barrett4 ,copied4 ,neglected prayer greatly4 ,very worldly4 #8,june #gth4--,wrote letters4 ,a terrible blank of worldliness4 ,idle4 #8,june #ith4--,wrote to ,miss ,elwall4 ,letter from ,cheltenham4 ,m4 copied certificates4 ,worldly4 ,spoke angrily to ,a4 #8,june #ajth4--,wrote to ,cheltenham4 ,saxon ,exhibition4 ,selfish and worldly4 #8,june #acth4--,s4 ,bartholomew's twice4 ,h4 ,e4 ,inattentive twice4 ,unkind thoughts and words4 #8,june #adth4--,letter to go to ,cheltenham4 #8,june #afth4--,elected4' ,,chapter ,v ,,cheltenham #8,he builded better than he knew4'--,,emerson4 ,dorothea ,beale in age remembered that in youth she had planned #8an air-castle school1 with a central quadrangle1 cloisters and rooms over4' ,to few is it given1 as it was given to her1 to realise so nearly the dreams of youth1 for few possess the sense of purpose and the indomitable will which fell to her portion4 ,but the college of her vision did not come into being without a process of development so slow that for some years progress could hardly be recorded1 nor without infinite disappointment even in matters which seemed at the time vital2 not without ceaseless effort1 seen and unseen1 on the part of the ,lady ,principal4 ,we have reached1 in the twentieth century1 a period in the history of education in which schools may be said to be founded ready-made4 ,a great and fine #8plant1' opening ceremonies1 royal patronage1 appear necessities from the beginning4 ,the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham1 was twenty years old before it had a building of its own1 its first stone was laid by an unknown hand1 its opening rite consisted of school prayers in the ordinary way on a ,monday morning1 at #i ,a4,m41 with the addition of a few words rather nervously read by the ,lady ,principal4 ,the college has never had a patron1 nor did it even have any specially distinguished visitor1 till the ,empress ,frederick came in #ahig4 ,the ,ladies' ,college did not originate with ,miss ,beale4 ,she brought to it1 when it was but a weakling and like to perish1 all her dreams and all her energies4 ,she made it emphatically her own2 but its first inception was with a small number of ,cheltenham residents1 notably with the ,reverend ,h4 ,walford ,bellairs1 then ,h4,m4 ,inspector of ,schools for ,gloucestershire1#cj and the ,reverend ,c4 ,a4 ,bromby1#ca ,principal of the ,training ,colleges4 ,its foundation was a continuation of work already begun in the town with the opening of ,cheltenham ,college1 in #ahdc4 ,this was one of the earliest of the great nineteenth century public schools1 and one of the very few which has no ancient origin4 ,a very slight glance at the history of the town1 which has produced two great colleges1 will serve to show that their work in its midst has been almost that of a quiet and beneficent revolution4 ,the mild air and fertile soil of the great plain below the ,cotswold ,hills were recognised as early as the days of ,edward the ,confessor1 when ,cheltenham was called upon to furnish a large amount of bread for the royal kennels4 ,for centuries only a little market town with a beautiful ,early ,gothic church on the banks of an insignificant stream1 it crept out of obscurity in the pages of ,ogilby who1 in #aghe1 described it as inhabited by people #8much given to plant tobacco1 though they are suppressed by authority4' ,forty years after this the discovery of the medicinal properties of its waters made the place attractive to those who could afford to take the remedy1 and in the later years of ,george the ,third1 it came to be the #8,queen of watering places4' ,details of the long royal visit of #aghh may be read in the pages of ,fanny ,burney and others4 ,the ,king would afterwards speak of ,cheltenham and the ,vale of ,gloucester as #8the finest part of my kingdom that ,i have beheld4' ,other distinguished visitors followed3 the ,prince ,regent1 who gave a ball2 ,charles ,james ,fox2 ,wellington1 within a year of ,waterloo2 ,louis ,philippe and ,marie ,amlie in their exile2 and many others1 among whom1 as a boy1 came ,byron1 to wander1 according to a continental biographer1 #8on the seashore at ,cheltenham6' ,as late as #ahgj there was in ,cheltenham scarcely a house which did not testify by its grandiose1 pseudo-classic#cb architecture to the past magnificence of a town which had striven to be worthy of a court4 ,even to-day there are but few which do not follow the lines laid down by the builders of the early years of the nineteenth century1 a time at which the town grew with mushroom speed4 ,it was a period when population was rapidly increasing all over the country2 but in few places were the leaps and bounds so marked as in ,cheltenham1 where in #ahdj1 a census return was tenfold larger than it had been in #ahjd4 ,this rapid growth was due1 less to the famous wells and pump-rooms than to the reputation of its climate1 and the absence of any great winter severity1 attractive to those who had lived in tropical countries4 ,hence ,cheltenham became a favourite residence for ,anglo-,indians1 military and civil4 ,the town grew perhaps a little less distinguished1 but not less gay and popular4 ,the fashion in ,cheltenham waters passed2 kings and dukes sought their #8cure' abroad2 but it was possible to have balls and other amusements without a ,prince ,regent1 while the hunting season especially became a time of festivity4 ,and side by side with the lovers of pleasure1 who formed so large and sparkling a part of ,cheltenham society1 existed those who took all life with deep1 almost forbidding seriousness4 ,to meet the needs of the rapidly growing population during the first forty years of the nineteenth century1 several churches were built under the auspices of different persons4 ,church-building in the days of proprietary sittings was a not unprofitable investment2 there were also liberal benefactors to support ,mr4 ,close1 who was incumbent of ,cheltenham for nearly thirty years1 in his schemes for the welfare of his flock4 ,francis ,close1 a disciple of ,charles ,simeon1 came to ,cheltenham in #ahbd1 as curate-in-charge of ,holy ,trinity1 a newly erected chapel-of-ease to the parish church4 ,the living of ,cheltenham was already at that time in the hands of ,simeon1 who had purchased it from its various patrons1 and presented it to the ,reverend ,c4 ,jervis4 ,on the death of ,mr4 ,jervis1 ,simeon appointed young ,close to this important charge4 ,from the first ,mr4 ,close was a very popular preacher4 #8,it was1' says an admirer1 #8a new and interesting sight to see so singularly handsome a young man filled with such religious zeal4' ,a man of pronounced and narrow views1 immense activity and determination1 combined with geniality and cheerfulness1 he sought to regulate the ways of society1 and to some extent succeeded4 ,he ruled the town from the pulpit of the parish church as from a throne1 and earned1 among those who loved him least1 the name of the #8,pope of ,cheltenham4'#cc ,he preached against racing1 acting1 dancing4 ,but if1 as has been said1 he established dinner-parties and destroyed the theatre1 he acted only with others of his school of thought4 ,those were the days of eating and drinking1 since some form of recreation was necessary1 and1 moreover1 abstinence had a suspiciously ,roman look4 ,they were days when all forms of art1 not that of the theatre alone1 were regarded with distrust4 ,it is true that ,mr4 ,close gave a lecture on #8,literature and the ,fine ,arts considered as ,legitimate ,pursuits of a ,religious ,man'2 he also preached a sermon entitled #8,the ,restoration of ,churches is the ,restoration of ,popery1' and he said to the head-mistress of a fashionable boarding-school where dancing was included in the curriculum3 #8,when ,mrs4 ,close wished my daughters taught dancing1 ,i reminded her of her marriage vow4' ,mr4 ,close's energies took visible and permanent shape in the buildings which arose during his long incumbency4 ,eight churches grew up around the parish church1 but that1 alas6 was not their model4 ,most of the new ones displayed all the worst features of a debased style of church architecture3 a diminutive chancel1 three-decker arrangements for parson and clerk1 high pews1 with safe doors for the congregation4 ,national schools were built1 and training colleges founded1 also under the direction of ,mr4 ,close1 and he took his share in the institution of the ,proprietary ,college for ,boys1 in #ahdc4 ,with the new churches came new clergy1 among whom1 the most popular name at the time1 was that of ,archibald ,boyd1 vicar of ,christchurch1 a very eloquent preacher who brought the little schoolroom in the hamlet of ,alstone1 where he lectured on ,sunday evenings1 into rivalry with the parish church4 ,to-day1 he is famous for having had as his curate1 for five years1 the young ,frederick ,robertson1 whose afternoon sermons at ,christchurch1 in spite of the suspicion of unorthodoxy which early began to attach itself to his name1 drew many thoughtful hearers1 such as the ,principal of ,cheltenham ,college4 ,the most leading mind at the time among the younger clergy was that of ,charles ,henry ,bromby1 who became vicar of ,st4 ,paul's in #ahdc4 ,he was a man of large mental gifts1 and had special perception of the intellectual needs of his day4 ,the ,working ,men's ,club1 which he established in his parish1 was among the very first in the country4 ,all the great educational institutions of ,cheltenham are indebted to his outlook and zeal4 ,joint-founder of ,cheltenham ,college1 and later1 though he took no public part and earned no name in the matter1 of that for #8,young ,ladies and ,children1' his most active interest and work was for the teaching of the poor4 ,he became first ,principal of the ,training ,colleges#cd for headmasters and mistresses of national schools1 starting the work on wise and secure lines1 and rapidly bringing it to the front among that of kindred institutions4 ,mr4 ,bellairs was actively as well as zealously associated with ,mr4 ,bromby in all the great schemes1 by which ,cheltenham1 rich and poor1 was to be enlightened1 and in the case of the ,proprietary ,college for ,ladies1 it is his name which comes to the front1 and it was in his house that the first meeting to draw up its constitution was held4 ,there was every reason to hope that a high-class day-school for girls1 then almost unknown1 might succeed in ,cheltenham1 where parents had had a successful experience of such a school for their boys4 ,everywhere1 people1 who cared about a good education for girls1 found it difficult to obtain even at great cost4 ,many liked to keep their children with them2 those who were indifferent would be glad to avail themselves of the cheaper method of the day-school1 provided it could be run on exclusive lines4 ,there had been for some years in the town1 select boarding schools1 where a few day-scholars were received4 ,the advantage over these of a large public school1 necessarily of a more permanent character than a small private institution could be1 was obvious4 ,at the meeting in the house of ,mr4 ,bellairs1 on ,september #cj1 #ahec1 a date which ,miss ,beale has noted as the birthday of the ,ladies' ,college1 there were present but three others4 ,these were the ,reverend ,w4 ,dobson1 ,principal of ,cheltenham ,college1 the ,reverend ,h4 ,a4 ,holden1 ,vice-,principal1 and ,dr4 ,s4 ,e4 ,comyn4 ,one other gentleman should be named among these early builders1 namely1 ,mr4 ,nathaniel ,hartland4 ,colonel ,fitzmaurice was also a member of the first council4 ,the founders of this college and day-school for girls were anxious to make it clear that their aim was to develop in the pupils character and fitness for the duties of later life4 ,hence the first report states that it was intended #8to afford1 on reasonable terms1 an education based upon religious principles which1 preserving the modesty and gentleness of the female character1 should so far cultivate a girl's intellectual powers as to fit her for the discharge of those responsible duties which devolve upon her as a wife1 mother1 mistress and friend1 the natural companion and helpmeet for man4' ,in framing the constitutions ,mr4 ,bellairs and his colleagues had before their minds the successful ,college for ,boys1 and adopted its rules with regard to religious instruction1 and the social rank of the pupils4 ,the draft of the resolutions1 made at the first meeting1 may still be read4 ,hardly less remarkable than the development of later days is the permanent nature of the impress given to the ,college at its first start4 ,some of the resolutions were3-- #8,that an ,institution for the daughters and young children of ,noblemen and ,gentlemen be established in ,cheltenham1 and be entitled the ,cheltenham ,college for the education of young ,ladies and ,children4 #8,the ,college to be established by means of one hundred shares of #aj each2 the possessor of each share to have the power of nominating a ,pupil1 and a vote at annual and special meetings4 444 #8,that the management of the ,college for the ensuing year shall be vested in the ,founders1 viz4444 who for this purpose shall be constituted the ,committee of ,management after the expiration of the first year1 exclusive of the ,treasurer and ,honorary ,secretary1 who will be ex officio members of the ,board1 they being shareholders and members of the ,church of ,england4444 #8,that the ,college be under the direction of a ,principal1 a ,lady from whom the pupils will receive religious instruction at appointed times in accordance with the doctrine and the teaching of the ,church of ,england4444 #8,that at the end of each year the pupils be examined by competent persons appointed by the ,committee4 #8,that the ,college shall consist of two departments1 the ,junior for children of both sexes1 admissible after five years of age1 the boys to be removed when they have attained their eighth year4 #8,the appointment of the ,lady ,principal and all subordinate teachers and officers to be vested in the ,committee4' ,with few alterations these resolutions passed into the prospectus issued to the public in ,november #ahec1 an exact copy of which will be found in the appendix4#ce ,experimental prospectuses1 which never left the hands of the ,committee1 exist to show how the founders formed and modified their views for the ,college4 ,it was proposed at one time to have a noble patron and a visitor1 besides the working ,committee2 but as ,miss ,beale somewhat whimsically relates1 this was found to be impracticable4 #8,it was thought that it would add to the prestige of the ,college1 and diminish the prejudice which then existed1 to have a distinguished patron1 and so ,lord de ,saumerez1 then resident in ,cheltenham1 was applied to1 but in vain4 ,so there was no ,patron4'#cf ,there was also no visitor until #ahge1 when ,dr4 ,ellicott1 then ,bishop of ,gloucester1 kindly undertook the charge4 ,the difficulty of securing patronage was probably what caused the ,council1 in virtue of one of their own rules1 to invite ,mr4 ,close to accept the office of ,president1 with a seat at the ,board4 ,at the same time ,mr4 ,bellairs was appointed ,vice-,president4 ,in the first instance it was intended that the ,college should be confined to day-scholars2 then1 in case this restriction should limit the scope of the work and perhaps injure it financially1 a sort of half-measure was planned1 and it was proposed to state that3 #8the ,committee will not interfere with any arrangements made by the ,parents and ,friends of pupils for ,boarding their ,children1 provided the numbers in any given ,boarding-,house do not exceed six4 ,should ,boarding-,houses ever be opened offering accommodation to a greater number of pupils than six1 the ,committee reserve to themselves the power of insisting upon and conferring a ,license1 before ,children in such ,boarding-,houses be allowed the privilege of becoming ,students in the ,college4' ,as early as the #ast of ,november three ladies had been found to undertake boarding-houses1 and they were not restricted as to numbers4 ,the low terms of the boarding-houses 7#dj a year including all expenses1 of course without the tuition fees7 suggest that the ideas of the liberal-minded ,committee may have forestalled those of the future ,lady ,principal1 ever eager to help on those who deserved but could not afford education4 ,the tuition fees were on the same low scale2 from six guineas to twenty guineas1 and including pianoforte lessons1 class singing1 elementary drawing and needlework1 besides ,english subjects and ,french4 ,shares had been taken up to the number of one hundred and fifty-seven1 so the ,council had enough money at their disposal to justify the necessary initial outlay4 ,after an unsuccessful effort to obtain ,lake ,house1 which its owner declined to let for the purposes of a school1 ,cambray ,house1 a fine old ,georgian building with a beautiful garden1 was taken at a rent of #bjj a year4 ,some hundreds of pounds were spent in making this house suitable for its purpose1 arranging a schoolroom 7#dj by #cj feet71 a system of heating1 and so on1 while a part of it was set aside as a residence for the ,lady ,principal4 ,the ,committee appointed in this capacity ,mrs4 ,procter1 widow of ,colonel ,procter1 #8a highly educated officer1' but her daughter ,annie ,procter1 who was called ,vice-,principal1 was the actual head of the ,college4 #8,the former1' ran the first report1 #8is possessed of that age and experience which are necessary for the training of the young2 the latter of that youth and vigour which are necessary for teaching4' ,a younger sister had the post of assistant secretary1 and several regular teachers and professors were also appointed4 ,illustration3 ,cambray ,house4 ,from an old engraving4 ,the ,college was actually opened on ,february #ac1 #ahed1 the pupils1 eighty-two in number1 having been examined a week before that date4 ,thus the inauguration ceremony was the actual beginning of work4 ,when writing her ,jubilee history of the ,college1 ,miss ,beale collected reminiscences from some who were present on the opening day4 ,nothing more impressive was forthcoming than a scrimmage of dogs in the cloak-room1 the calling over of names1 followed by immediate sorting into classes already arranged as a result of the examination1 and that #8various old gentlemen promenaded about the first few days1 and held conclaves in a ,board-,room on the right hand of the front door4' ,the age of the pupils varied considerably from that of tiny mites to that of grown-up girls4 ,they were arranged in different departments1 the lowest being a kind of infant school on raised benches4 ,at first the numbers increased rapidly1 and by the end of the year there were one hundred and twenty pupils4 ,but the fees were too low1 and the ,committee soon had cause for anxiety over expenses4 ,in the first year1 #ahed1 more than #acjj was expended in regular salaries and in payments to visiting teachers2 the accounts in ,december showed a deficit of #djj4 ,matters improved but slowly in #ahee1 and in order to lessen expenses1 various changes were suggested1 such as the substitution of ,german1 which the ,vice-,principal could teach1 for ,latin1 and an arrangement by which the pianoforte should be taught on a class system4 ,in the general meeting of that year1 it was resolved no longer to admit boys to the ,college1 and with them disappeared the whole of the infant department1 not to reappear till the ,kindergarten was opened in #ahhb4 ,this change led to a slight diminution of numbers1 and the report of the year #ahef 7published in and dated ,february #aheg71 while it embodied many words of praise from the examiners and showed a balance of receipts above expenditure in the current expenses1 yet breathed a consciousness of many difficulties and obstacles to be overcome4 ,it was acknowledged that had it been desirable to purchase furniture for the ,lady ,principal instead of paying her #be a year for the use of her own1 it could not have been done from the funds in hand4 #8,in conclusion1' said the ,chairman1 #8your ,council beg to express their thanks to those parents who1 during the past year1 have continued to place confidence in the ,college and its system4 ,on their own part and on that of the ,lady ,principal and the ,vice-,principal1 they desire to assure the public that no efforts shall be wanting on their part to amend what may appear1 on mature consideration1 to be defective4444 ,they cannot depart from their fundamental principle1 which1 as they stated1 is soundness rather than show2 magna est veritas et prvalebit4' ,next year1 #aheg1 the numbers crept down1 first to ninety-three1 then to eighty-nine1 and the capital account1 which had never gone up1 was little above #djj4 ,shares which should have been #aj1 were offered for half that sum4 ,the want of success was partly due to want of harmony between ,miss ,procter and the ,council on points of educational method4 ,in ,may #aheh1 when the numbers were again reduced1 and the prospect of improvement very small1 the ,procters resigned2 also the ladies who took boarders one by one gave up4 ,so poor was the outlook for the ,college at this time that the ,council might have felt justified in abandoning the whole scheme4 ,fortunately1 however1 those who possessed the foresight and courage1 which could still carry it on1 were supported by the circumstance that the lease of ,cambray ,house had a couple more years to run4 ,so it came to pass that in ,may #aheh1 within a fortnight of ,miss ,procter's resignation1 the ,council advertised for a ,lady ,principal thus3-- ,,cheltenham ,,ladies' ,,college #8,a ,vacancy having occurred in the ,office of ,lady ,principal1 ,candidates for the ,appointment are requested to apply by letter 7with references7 before the #ast of ,june1 to ,j4 ,p4 ,bell1 ,esq41 ,hon4 ,sec41 ,cheltenham4 #8,a well-educated and experienced ,lady 7between the ages of #ce and #de7 is desired1 capable of conducting an ,institution with not less than #ajj day-pupils4 #8,a competent knowledge of ,german and ,french1 and a good acquaintance with general ,english ,literature1 ,arithmetic1 and the common branches of female education1 are expected4 #8,salary1 upwards of #bjj a year1 with furnished apartments1 and other advantages4 #8,no ,testimonials to be sent until applied for1 and no answers will be returned except to ,candidates apparently eligible4' ,the shareholders requested a general meeting in order to receive an explanation of the cause which led to the resignation of ,miss ,procter1 and this was convened for ,june #b4 ,the ,committee was occupied during the fortnight which succeeded this in selecting and interviewing some of the fifty candidates for the ,headship1 and ,miss ,beale was elected on ,june #ac4 ,in ,july ,miss ,procter took her final leave in the following letter to ,mr4 ,hartland3-- ,,glendale ,,house1 ,july #bh1 #aheh4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,sir1--,i thank you much for your kind letter enclosing your cheque for #da1 #ajs4 #f;d4 #8,i take this opportunity of sending you the keys of the ,college4 ,the house has been cleaned throughout4 ,the ,chimneys have all been swept4 #8,some few stores1--nearly a cwt4 of soap1 some dip candles1 and two new scrubbing brushes1--are in a closet in the pantry4 #8,the new zinc ventilator is in the press used for the drawing materials4 #8,two cast-iron fenders1 of mine1 have been removed from two of the class-rooms4--,i remain1 my dear ,sir1 yours very sincerely1 ,s4 ,,anne ,,procter4' ,miss ,beale heard of a vacancy on the staff of the ,ladies' ,college in ,january #aheh1 when a ,queen's ,college friend1 ,miss ,mulcaster1 wrote her a letter interesting for the glimpses it gives both of ,casterton and ,cheltenham4 #8,i am anxious1' the letter ran1 #8that you should as soon as possible receive this letter1 which is the very earliest reply in my power to make to yours4444 ,i cannot feel very sorry on your own account for your leaving ,casterton1 although ,i do so at the manner of it4444 ,i am very glad that you feel the discipline and teaching have been useful to you4 ,i do not know that anything better could be desired for you than a return to ,queen's1 but ,i have something1 or rather a shadow of something ,i wish you to know in case you are disappointed there4 ,i believe a place in the ,ladies' ,college at ,cheltenham is vacant1 and if so it might suit you4 ,miss ,procter the ,superintendent and many of the ,committee are considered ,high ,church4 ,miss ,brewer1 ,i am sure1 would be very much pleased to hear from you1 and ,i think would be disposed to facilitate your appointment1 if there is still a vacancy4 ,she1 being one of the teachers1 could answer any inquiries better than ,i4 ,there is no home provided for the teachers by the ,committee1 but they have hitherto made private arrangements to live together4 #8,cheltenham1 to my mind1 presents unusual advantages as a place of residence2 combining those of town and country1 and last but not least those to be derived from ,canon ,boyd's ministry and dear ,mr4 ,bromby's4 ,i could give you some introductions1 but it is too soon to talk of those things yet4444' ,miss ,beale must have answered this1 and probably wrote at the same time to ,miss ,brewer1 whom she had known at ,queen's2 but there are no further letters existing on the subject4 ,but she herself told in later life that she declined to apply for the post as she had resolved to seek a ,headship4 ,there is no mention of ,cheltenham in the diary until ,may1 but it appears that other schools were either applied for or considered4 ,on ,february #ag we have #8,for school at ,holloway4' ,on ,february #ah1 #8,a letter from a ,greenwich school4' ,this was perhaps visited on the #bbnd1 when the diary mentions a journey to ,greenwich2 but it is not named again4 ,on ,march #b we find #8,mamma wrote to ,mrs4 ,birch about school at ,reigate4' ,on ,march #bd1 #8,talked to ,mr4 ,hyde about ,college at ,camberwell4' ,this possibly appears again in the record of ,april #ag3 #8,mary decides against ,camberwell scheme4' ,a letter mentioned in ,miss ,beale's diary as received from ,cheltenham on ,may #ah was doubtless in answer to her application1 after the advertisement had appeared1 to inform her that she was accepted as a candidate for the vacant ,headship4 ,the record of the next few weeks1 brief as it is1 bears marks of the zeal and activity with which everything possible was done to procure testimonials and the recommendations of friends2 while1 at the same time1 the work went on at ,barnes1 and the sheets of the ,textbook were passing through the press4 ,the writer was obviously full of anxiety and hope1 having perceived in ,cheltenham a promising sphere of work2 but she did not relax the daily spiritual combat to which we owe the existence of the diary4 ,on receipt of a favourable answer she went at once to see ,mr4 ,plumptre1 and wrote to ,dr4 ,trench4 ,after the ,casterton experience it was necessary to have further recommendations than those which she had taken there from ,queen's ,college4 ,among the friends to whom she wrote was ,mrs4 ,lancaster1 who replied by return3-- #8,,englemere1 ,whit4 ,tues41 #aheh4 #8,i am very sorry that you did not tell me about ,cheltenham before3 ,i am one of the ,proprietors6 or ,committee or something6 and my brother is ,vice-,principal--indeed he almost established it4 ,i have now written to him telling him my thoughts as to the maturity of your mind and judgment1 and ,i hope it may be successful4 ,if you are not quite determined against ,penitentiary work there is a very nice thing for a ,lady ,superintendent 444 about which the ,hon4 and ,rev4 ,c4 ,harris 444 would give you full particulars4444 ,it is worked by a ,committee1 but the ,lady ,superintendent would be allowed to do as she liked4444' ,in the course of the next fortnight many more letters were received4 ,among them one from ,miss ,elwall of the ,barnes ,school4 ,she wrote3-- #8 444 ,you have succeeded in making subjects usually styled dry1 positively attractive1 whilst your plan has been successful in forming not merely superficial scholars even whilst producing results in a remarkably short period4 #8,your gentleness of manner1 patience1 and lady-like deportment are all that could be desired1 and should you leave me ,i shall feel the greatest regret at the termination of an engagement which has been equally agreeable to myself and to my pupils4--,i am1 dear ,miss ,beale1 with much esteem1 yours most sincerely1 ,m4 ,j4 ,,elwall4' ,one from ,mrs4 ,curling1 the wife of ,dr4 ,curling1 an eminent physician and her father's friend1 runs3-- #8#ci ,,grosvenor ,,street1 ,june #ab1 #aheh4 #8 444 ,i shall be truly happy if any recommendation of mine can promote your success4 ,i have had the pleasure of knowing you many years1 and in your journeys with me abroad ,i have had frequent opportunities of witnessing your tact and common sense1 as well as good temper1 and believe you to possess in addition the power of management essential for such an appointment4 ,i am sure that the ,college would be fortunate in obtaining your assistance4' ,some friends wrote direct to the ,cheltenham ,council4 ,the testimony borne to ,miss ,beale's high character is genuine and strong1 if quaintly expressed according to present-day notions in some of these4 ,mr4 ,shepheard wrote3-- #8,,silverdale1 ,june #aheh4 #8,i have the greatest pleasure in expressing my high opinion of ,miss ,beale's character and attainments generally4 ,though she holds opinions on the subject of sacramental grace entirely opposed to my own1 it is no more than her due that ,i should say that her high sense of duty1 and inflexible integrity of principle1 and conscientious following of the path of duty without regard to consequences1 have won my highest respect and esteem4 #8,the circumstances under which she left the ,clergy ,daughters' ,school in this place1 were such1 that ,i cannot speak of them in detail1 out of unwillingness to reflect on the conduct of the authorities there1 but ,i consider her dismissal by them to have been highly honourable to herself4 #8,as a ,teacher1 ,i have reason to believe that she is very highly accomplished and has been very successful--though ,i say this from general impressions only4 ,h4 ,,shepheard1 ,m4,a4 ,incumbent of ,casterton1 late ,fellow of ,oriel ,college1 ,oxford1 and late ,head ,master of ,cheam ,school1 ,surrey4' and ,miss ,reynolds privately approached ,mr4 ,bellairs3-- #8,,trinity ,,terrace1 ,,cheltenham4 #8,a friend has asked me whether ,i can do anything to advance the interests of ,miss ,beale4444 #8,miss ,beale is not personally known to me1 but from all ,i have heard she is a very conscientious and hard-working person1 as well as one whose attainments are very high in most and ,i believe all of the departments necessary for the successful discharge of so important an office4 ,whether her talents for government correspond with her educational skill1 and her very high religious and moral character1 ,i know not2 but ,i have been anxious to fulfil her wish in drawing your attention to her application1 which she feared might be overlooked as one among many4 ,the most interesting of this series of letters is one from ,miss ,alston to ,mrs4 ,lancaster4 ,this1 through ,mr4 ,bellairs1 undoubtedly helped to influence the ,council1 whose members were wise enough to seek for character as much as attainment in the new ,head4 ,others had dwelt on ,miss ,beale's talent and power and single-hearted devotion to her calling2 ,miss ,alston could also speak of her life and value at home4 #8,,donnington ,,rectory1 ,june #ab1 #aheh4 #8 444 ,i heard from ,miss ,beale this morning that the ,cheltenham ,college had written for her testimonials4 ,i hope she may obtain the appointment she desires1 it seems one for which she is so well qualified4 ,of her power of teaching others1 and making them delight in their studies1 there is no doubt4 ,but you do not know her as ,i do1 in her home and daily life2 there all look up to her and seek her counsel4 ,our friendship commenced when we were eighteen2 since that time ,i have not only profited1 ,i trust1 by the instruction she has given me in the pursuit of various studies1 but ,i have always consulted her on all my plans1 where the welfare of others has been concerned1 and have found her counsel full of common sense and kind consideration for the feelings of those we desired to help or instruct4 ,she is good-tempered and has plenty of tact1 but shows instantly her dislike to anything untrue in word or act4 ,forgive this long letter1 but ,i thought you might have some influence1 and ,i am much interested for my friend1 and at the same time feel that ,i should rather place any one ,i loved under her than with any one else ,i have met4 ,with kind regards1--,believe me yours very sincerely1 ,,eliza ,,ann ,,alston4' ,on ,june #ad came a letter summoning ,miss ,beale to ,cheltenham4 ,her diary does not tell us where she stayed1 or give any particulars of the interviews she had with the ,council as a body1 or with individuals4 ,it records her election on the #afth1 and the fact that ,mr4 ,bellairs came to breakfast on the #agth4 ,on the same day she saw ,mr4 ,hartland and ,dr4 ,comyn4 ,by the single word #8dress1' which concludes her meagre entries of what were such momentous events for her1 hangs a little tale of personal need supplied by the kind thought of a sister who willingly lent a blue silk gown for the would-be ,lady ,principal to wear at her first interview with her ,council4 ,absorption in the ,textbook and kindred subjects had precluded care of the writer's wardrobe1 and when this important moment came1 it was felt that neither the simple black nor the mouse-coloured grey was equal to the occasion4 ,the conscientious care of the borrowed plumes is still remembered4 ,on ,june #ah she returned from ,cheltenham1 full of hope1 to write innumerable letters--stamps1 under their ancient name of #8heads1' became almost a daily entrance in the diary1 which sometimes served as account-book2--to finish the lessons at ,barnes1 for the school year had not yet ended2 and to correct the proofs of the ,textbook1 with the satisfaction of feeling that she had in it something that would help in the formation of her teachers-to-be4 ,she received many congratulations4 ,some letters were kept2 ,mr4 ,shepheard's is given1 as it bears upon a subject which was about to cause fresh trouble4 #8,,silverdale1 ,june #bd1 #aheh4 #8 444 ,i must tell you how pleased ,i am on your account personally1 at your success--and the triumph of justice in your case over unfairness and tyranny4 ,my pleasure would be indeed great1 if ,i had any hope that you might be led to reconsider those opinions on sacramental grace which have formed the only subject of division in opinion between us4 ,the longer ,i live the more ,i am convinced of their danger as containing in fact the germ of all popery2 and subverting the very nature and essence of vital godliness1 by substituting the form for the reality1 the outward act for the inward spiritual power and operation4 #8,i wish you would read ,mr4 ,litton's book1 ,the ,church of ,christ1 on that subject2 it is unanswerable4 #8,what is exactly the name and nature of your ,college8--,very sincerely yours with all kindest regards1 ,h4 ,,shepheard4' ,there were also through these weeks a good many interchanged visits on matters both of business and pleasure4 ,the name of ,miss ,vincent occurs twice among others mentioned in the diary4 ,this is the lady who in ,august of #aheh became ,lady ,superintendent at ,casterton1 and remained there till #ahhh1 when she died there in harness at the age of seventy-five4 ,dorothea ,beale was not1 however1 destined to take possession of her kingdom without a conflict4 ,the old religious dispute was handed on from ,casterton1 for ,mr4 ,shepheard1 with one other whose name does not appear1 felt he could not but mention the points he held to be #8dangerous' in her religious beliefs4 ,and there was certainly still another letter to discourage the ,council1 from ,m4 ,mariette to ,mr4 ,penrice ,bell1 questioning ,miss ,beale's suitability for the post of ,head ,mistress on the ground that she was not sympathetic in manner4 ,this appears to have been disregarded1 but the partisans of ,dean ,close felt bound to consider the accusation of ,high ,church opinions4 ,miss ,beale first learned of the opposition which had arisen to her appointment on ,july #ab1 in the following letter from ,mr4 ,bell3-- #8,july #aj1 #aheh4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,letters have been put into my hand to-day which cause me much anxiety1 and before consulting the ,council upon the subject1 ,i think it best to communicate with you1 begging an immediate reply in the same spirit of unreserve and candour and frankness as that in which ,i now write4 #8,when here ,i took pains to impress upon your mind the fact that the ,council could not in justice to those whom they represent accept a ,lady ,principal who holds ,high ,church views or sympathises with them2 and that they had rejected most satisfactory testimonials from one of the candidates solely on the ground of her professing doctrinal views of that character4 ,i was thus explicit with you in order to prevent any misunderstanding upon this most important question1 but nothing fell from your lips to lead me to suppose you were open to an objection of that nature4 ,i forbore from motives of delicacy 7and probably the other members of the ,council did the same71 to press this subject upon you in the shape of direct enquiry1 feeling sure you would not conceal your real views if they were indeed such as ,i plainly stated to be opposed to those entertained by the founders of the institution4 ,the letters are marked 8,private10 so ,i am not at liberty to name the writers1 but ,i will quote the material portions2 and ,i may remark that both gentlemen speak in the highest terms of your qualifications in general4 #88,she1 ,miss ,beale1 is very ,high ,church to say the least1 and holds ultra views of ,baptismal ,regeneration40 444 8,she has also a serious and deep religious feeling1 and a self-denying character4 ,but she is decidedly ,high ,church4 ,her opinions on the vital and critical question of sacramental grace are altogether those of the ,high ,church or ,tractarian ,school--assuming the opus operatum of the ,sacraments to convey1 of necessity and in all cases1 the inward grace of which that ,sacrament is the sign40 #88,it is right to add that ,miss ,beale avows her belief in the ,bible as the rule of faith40 #8,now you have undoubtedly full right to entertain such opinions as in your conscience you believe to be true1 but at the same time you are 7and were7 bound in honour of good faith1 on such occasion as the offering of yourself for the important position to which you have been recently appointed1 to avow your opinions openly and distinctly2 especially when made acquainted with the views of those responsible for your selection4 #8,if it be the fact that you do hold opinions such as are attributed to you1 it is clear that you will not only inflict serious injury on the ,institution1 but also on yourself1 by assuming the office--for if you hold us to the appointment the ,council would and must1 ,i imagine1 at once give you the three months' notice 7or salary equivalent71 and cancel it at the earliest period1 publishing their reasons for so extraordinary a step4 ,if1 however1 you are misrepresented1 ,i shall heartily rejoice on every account1 but ,i beg of you1 by return of post1 to favour me with a definite reply to the two questions ,i feel it now my duty to put to you3-- #8#ast4 ,do you or do you not hold the doctrine of the opus operatum in the ,sacrament of ,baptism8 #8#bnd4 ,do you or not sympathise with and are attached to the principles of the ,high ,church party8--,believe me to remain1 yours very truly1 ,j4 ,,penrice ,,bell1 ,hon4 ,sec4 #8,,ps4--,i think it better not to print the ,prospectus until the present difficulty is settled in some way4' ,this letter1 which must have come as a bolt from the blue1 was a blow1 but not of a crushing nature to one whose energies were ever braced by conflict4 ,miss ,beale wrote at once to ,mr4 ,bellairs to tell him what had happened1 and to ,mr4 ,bell in answer to his attack4 ,both letters are given1 as they clearly state her religious position4 ,to ,mr4 ,bellairs she wrote3-- #8#ca ,,finsbury ,,square1 ,july #ab4 #8 444 ,although our acquaintance has been very short1 owing to the kindness with which you received me1 ,i cannot help considering you in some measure as a friend1 and feeling that you will understand me3 perhaps1 also1 your office both as ,clergyman and ,vice-,president of the ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college gives me some right to trouble you upon this occasion4 #8,i received this morning a note from ,mr4 ,bell1 accusing me of want of candour in not speaking of my religious views1 although they were in no way alluded to by the ,council1 and telling me he has been informed that my opinions are those of the ,tractarian ,school4 ,now1 as ,i have never seen more than a few pages of the 8,tracts10 ,i cannot positively contradict such a statement4 ,i have explained somewhat at large to him what are my opinions2 ,i will not repeat them to you1 as you will no doubt see the letter4 ,that my views differ considerably from those of the ultra-evangelical party1 of which ,mr4 ,carus ,wilson is one of the leaders1 and the ,record the accredited organ1 ,i freely acknowledge2 but ,i think them those of a moderate member of the ,english ,church1 and on seeing your name as ,vice-,president1 ,i concluded the ,ladies' ,college was not identified with any exclusive party4 ,i have endeavoured to be perfectly candid1 for ,i could not undertake so great a work without the hope of ,god's blessing4 ,should my own letter not be considered decisive evidence against me1 perhaps you would think it worth while to write to ,mrs4 ,lancaster or ,mrs4 ,greene 7with whom ,i think you said you were acquainted74 ,with both of them ,i have spoken freely on religious subjects1 and they would tell you whether they believed my opinions to be extreme4 ,as nothing is farther from my wishes than to deceive the ,council1 ,i forward to you by this post two books1 which ,i have published without my name--not because ,i was ashamed of expressing what ,i thought right1 but because one naturally shrinks from exposing without necessity one's inner religious life4 ,i feel this more especially with regard to the smaller book1 which ,i must therefore ask you not to mention to others4 ,i send them to you1 because they may assist you in coming to a right conclusion1 whether for or against my retaining the post to which ,i have been appointed1 and ,i think the ,council will be in a great measure guided by your decision4' ,to ,mr4 ,penrice ,bell3-- #8#ca ,,finsbury ,,square1 ,july #ab1 #aheh4 #8,on looking at the ,prospectus of the ,casterton ,school1 ,i saw on the ,committee the names of those who professed ultra-evangelical views2 ,i therefore felt it my duty distinctly to explain1 before accepting the appointment1 wherein my opinions differed from those which ,i knew them to hold4 ,it was after ,i had made that statement that ,i was appointed4 ,on looking at the papers of the ,cheltenham ,college1 ,i found the name of ,mr4 ,close in conjunction with that of ,mr4 ,bellairs and others4 ,from this and what ,i had heard privately ,i was led to conclude that you were not identified with any particular party in the ,church2 that your views were not more exclusive than those of the ,educational ,committee of ,queen's ,college1 who had expressed themselves satisfied with my teaching4 ,i also placed in your hands a testimonial from the ,professor of ,theology there2 my opinion was still further strengthened by your accepting the recommendation of the ,dean of ,westminster and including the ,liturgy of the ,church of ,england amongst the subjects taught4 #8,believing myself to hold moderate1 certainly not ultra1 views ,i did not feel myself open to the charge brought against me after my appointment4 ,i think you will remember the subject of religion was in no way alluded to before4 #8,having thus1 ,i hope1 justified myself from any accusation of want of candour1 ,i proceed to answer your questions as briefly as ,i can4 #8,if you understand by the opus operatum 8efficacy0 of ,baptism1--that all who are baptized are therefore saved 7a doctrine which ,mr4 ,shepheard assured me was held by some71 ,i explicitly state that ,i do not hold that doctrine4 ,i believe ,baptism to be 8an outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace given unto us0 7,catechism72 to be the appointed means for admitting members into the ,church of ,christ1 according to ,st4 ,paul's teaching that 8,christ gave ,himself for the ,church that ,he might save it and cleanse it by the washing of water by the word0 7,eph4 v4 #bf72 that 8according to ,his mercy we are saved by the washing of regeneration and renewing of the ,holy ,ghost0 7,tit4 iii4 #e72 that we are therein made 8members of ,christ0 and adopted 8children of ,god02 but when ,i use the word 8regeneration0 ,i do not understand that spoken of by ,st4 ,john when he says1 8he that is born of ,god cannot sin10 but that gift of life without which we are unable even to think any good thing2 a gift which the ,bishop solemnly declares to have been already received by those who come to be confirmed 7,confirmation ,service71 but which requires daily renewal1 a gift which we may lose by grieving ,god's ,holy ,spirit by neglecting the means of grace1 by hiding our ,lord's treasure4 ,and this teaching ,i hold because ,i find it in the ,bible1 which ,i acknowledge with the sixth article to be our only rule of faith--because it seems to me the basis of ,st4 ,paul's teaching 7#a ,cor4 iii42 #b ,cor4 vi4 #aj7--;and it makes our responsibilities higher and deeper if we acknowledge with the ,apostle in the language which he used to the whole of the ,corinthian ,church1 that we are 8the temples of the ,holy ,ghost40 ,i feel that any partial views which tell us of ,god's grace being given to some and not to others are contrary to the whole tenor of ,scripture4 ,your second question again cannot be categorically answered1 since it has never been defined what are the opinions of the ,high ,church party2 ,i would say that ,i differ from some who assume that title4444#cg ,i think no one could entertain a greater dread than ,i of those ,romish opinions entertained by some 8who went out from us1 but were not of us02 indeed during the last six months ,i have been engaged in preparing an ,english ,history for the use of schools1 because ,ince's ,outlines 7a book used in your ,college7 inculcates ,romish doctrines4 #8,in conclusion1 ,i must apologize for the unmethodical way in which ,i have expressed myself1 as ,i am writing in great haste to catch the next post1 and ,i have thought it right to reply to you without consulting any person or book1 except the ,bible and ,prayer ,book4 ,i have endeavoured to be perfectly candid2--should the ,council decide that my views are so unsound that ,i am unfit to occupy the position to which ,i have been appointed1 ,i shall trust that they will allow me to make as public a statement of my opinions as they are obliged to make of my dismissal1 for ,i shall feel that after this no person of moderate views will trust me1 and my own conscience would not allow me to work with the extreme party in either high or low church4' ,the diary of these two days gives a hint of the anxiety ,miss ,beale underwent when the attack was made upon her1 and before she could receive answers to her own letters3-- #8,july #ab4--,mr4 ,b7ell7's letter about ,h7igh7 ,church from ,cheltenham1 and my answer4 ,some vanity4 7,prayer7 for resignation4 #8,july #ac4--,sent proofs to ,cheltenham4 ,dined at the ,curlings4 ,dr4 ,clarke very agreeable4 ,felt angry with ,mr4 ,shepheard4' ,mr4 ,bell's reply to ,miss ,beale's letter suggests that the difficulty before the ,council was less directly one of religious principle than that of working a school where certain precise opinions were not professed4 #8,july #ac1 #aheh4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,i have to-day laid your reply before ,mr4 ,hartland and ,dr4 ,comyn1 the only two of my colleagues now here1 and we have no fault to find with its tenor1 which is explicit enough4 ,whether or not the fact of your holding the opinions thus avowed will lead to difficulties hereafter1 we cannot say4 ,if you feel conscientiously bound in and out of class to make known and inculcate your distinctive views of doctrine according to your interpretation of scripture and of our ,liturgy and ,articles1 then it is easy to foresee the result4 ,if1 however 7as ,i hope71 you regard it of primary importance in the instruction of the children to inculcate love to ,god and ,his ,son1 and charity 7in its manifold phases and with its relative duties71 towards our fellows--treating as of far minor importance the doctrinal points about which good men differ so widely1--then ,i should not anticipate any active opposition from those to whom your peculiar opinions may be known4 #8,the gentleman 7a resident clergyman of some influence7 to whom the two quoted letters were addressed1 is now absent for a few days2 and it remains to be seen whether his scruples and objections are1 if not removed1 at least rendered quiescent by your reply4 ,if he should withdraw his children1 and make known the grounds of doing so1 the effect would undoubtedly be prejudicial to the ,college1 and the experiment of conducting it under your auspices might be futile4 ,much may depend on what answer you can conscientiously make to this question3-- ,holding the opinions you have expressed1 should you consider it a duty and feel it incumbent on you to inculcate them in your ,divinity instruction to the pupils8 ,if you could favour me by a few lines by return of post 7as ,i leave before post hour on ,friday morning7 on this point1 which ,i can annex to your letter of to-day1 ,i could see my colleagues on the subject once more1 and arrange what shall be done in my absence4--,yours truly1 ,j4 ,,penrice ,,bell1 ,hon4 ,sec4' ,among ,miss ,beale's papers exists an undated and much erased note1 which appears to be her answer to the above4 ,it begins with the remark3 #8,i am glad to find the ,council has not decided that ,i am so great a heretic as from your first letter ,i feared they would'2 and it closes with the statement3 #8,i quite feel it to be a ,christian duty1 if it be possible to live peaceably with all men1 not giving heed to those things which minister questions rather than godly edifying1 but ,i am sure you will feel ,i should be unworthy of your confidence could ,i through any fear of consequences resort to the least untruthfulness4' ,meanwhile ,mr4 ,bellairs also wrote3-- #8 444 ,mr4 ,bell's letter was1 ,i imagine1 of a private character1 as ,i had heard nothing of the subject of it before the arrival of your note of to-day4 #8,so far as ,i am concerned1 my impression is that we of the ,council have nothing to do now with your private ,theological opinions1 whatever they are1 unless they are so extreme as would damage the ,college 7and within tolerably wide limits1 ,i individually am very indifferent on the matter74 ,i trust you have good sense and propriety sufficient to induce you to avoid all teaching which would in any degree disturb the character which the ,college ought1 in my opinion1 to maintain3 viz4 a place of learning in which all members of the ,church of ,england may receive religious instruction in an honest and straightforward way1 according to the teaching of the ,bible and the formularies of the ,church1 without extreme interpretation one way or the other4 ,i shall probably hear more of this matter when ,i see ,mr4 ,bell4' ,the storm was over4 ,though individuals of quite opposing views would1 later on1 occasionally cavil at points in ,miss ,beale's method of teaching ,scripture1 she never really experienced further trouble on this ground4 ,there are many1 like the unknown lady to whose #8,high ,church' opinions the ,council took objection1 who would have felt they could not work in the spirit of compromise implied in the letters of ,mr4 ,bell and ,mr4 ,bellairs4 ,there are some who might have agreed to do so1 and in terror of offending1 would have shirked the difficult task of religious instruction to the point of making it a lifeless thing4 ,miss ,beale undertook it with her eyes open1 and in spite1 or possibly because of the hindrances in the way1 her ,scripture lessons became the very pivot of her teaching4 ,the diary again is very characteristic at this point4 ,the anxiety of mind caused by her trouble was not permitted to excuse ill-temper4 #8,july #d4 ,letter from ,cheltenham4 ,neglect of prayer4 ,several times rude4' ,this was the day which practically settled the fate of the ,ladies' ,college1 and was the greatest visible landmark in ,miss ,beale's life4 ,in the ensuing fortnight1 the last she spent at home1 though there is an entry for every day1 the name of ,cheltenham does not occur4 ,two visits from ,miss ,brewer1 who had been re-appointed to the ,cheltenham staff with the title of ,vice-,principal1 #8shopping1' and #8turning out1' suggest preparations4 ,there is no entry of the day on which she went1 but from deduction it was ,august #d1 and in the company of her mother4 ,,chapter ,,vi ,,early ,,history ,,of ,,the ,,ladies' ,,college #8,old fables are not all a lie ,which tell of wondrous birth2 ,of ,titan children1 ,father ,sky1 ,and wondrous ,mother ,earth4 ,earth-born1 my sister1 thou art still ,a daughter of the sky2 ,oh1 climb for ever up the hill ,of thy divinity4 444 ,for cause and end of all thy strife1 ,and unrest as thou art-- ,still stings thee to a higher life ,the ,father at thy heart4' ,,george ,,macdonald1 ,to my ,sister1 on her ,twenty-first ,birthday4 ,cambray ,house1 which was ,miss ,beale's home for fifteen years1 is one of the finest buildings erected in the period when ,cheltenham was being laid out with a view to royal visits4 ,the ,duke of ,wellington himself stayed there in #ahbc4 ,illustration3 ,miss ,dorothea ,beale #ahei4 ,the garden1 mentioned in the early ,college reports as the #8pleasure grounds1' was a special delight to ,miss ,beale4 ,in #aheh it was still untouched1 and had many beautiful trees2 one1 a standard apricot tree1 was--happy omen6 covered with golden fruit in that first autumn of her life at ,cheltenham4 ,the house itself was beginning to change its character of family residence to that of a building adapted for school purposes1 and before very long even the rooms given up for the use of the ,principal and the ,vice-,principal were encroached upon4 ,nor were those rooms furnished in character with the stately outside of the house4 #8,the second-hand furniture procured would not have delighted people of sthetic taste4 ,curtains were dispensed with as far as possible1 and it was questioned whether a carving-knife was required by the ,principal in her furnished apartments4'#ch ,to such domestic details ,miss ,beale was indifferent1 but it must have been less easy to practise an economy which limited the extension of her work4 #8,the teaching staff was reduced as low as possible1 and the ,principal and ,vice-,principal gave up their half-holiday to chaperone those who took lessons from masters4 ,the ,principal taught all the ,english subjects to ,classes ,i4 and ,,ii41 besides giving weekly lessons in ,holy ,scripture throughout the ,college4' ,so long as the chief task of the ,lady ,principal was to prevent the ,college losing further ground1 so long as her time and thought outside school hours were absorbed by anxiety over every pupil who came and went1 still more over those who failed to come1 there could be no rapid process of development4 ,but it would have been impossible for ,miss ,beale to take up an existing educational work without at once making her individual mark upon it1 and from the first the school felt the grasp of her able hand4 ,at ,casterton she had longed at once to change1 to reform4 ,at ,cheltenham remodelling rather than revolution was her aim--fulfilment and wise development4 ,to understand the way in which she gave fresh life1 and gradually refashioned the methods she found1 it is necessary to go back to the prehistoric days before her arrival in #aheh4 ,there is little record of the educational system and teaching of that period1 but it is certain that both were liberal and thorough1 free from narrowness and petty tyranny1 in advance of those existing in the ordinary boarding-school of the day4 ,the curriculum1 it is noteworthy1 was arranged with a view to developing the mind and character4 ,latin was taught at first #8very thoroughly1' and the change by which after the first year it was replaced by ,german1 which the ,lady ,principal could teach1 was a question of economy1 not of conciliation of parents who might think dead languages useless subjects of study4 ,in making the substitution it was hoped1 so runs the report of #ahef1 that instruction in ,german #8might be made equally instrumental with that in the ,latin language for conveying an accurate1 exact1 and logical knowledge of the principles of general ,grammar4 ,in this impression 7your ,council7 find 444 that they have not been mistaken4' ,this attitude with regard to ,german was no new idea to ,miss ,beale1 and she pursued the aims of the founders when she made the language a necessary subject of study for all pupils above the lower classes4 ,latin she discouraged1 except in the case of those who were near the top of the ,college1 maintaining that girls of seventeen and eighteen could learn in a few months as much ,latin as would absorb the greater part of a boy's whole time at school4 ,on the question of music the founders had shown themselves out of sympathy with the fashionable practice of a day when every #8young lady' was expected to perform on the piano1 every governess to teach it4 ,they conceded so far as to include music in the regular curriculum1 but the expense of providing the requisite number of teachers and pianos for so many pupils was heavy4 ,to meet this a system of class instruction was devised1 by which the teacher gave a lesson to four pupils at once1 the same piece being performed simultaneously on the treble and bass of two pianos4 ,whether such an arrangement was conducive to the production of good music or the formation of taste may be doubted4 ,it suggests1 indeed1 a certain irony in those who hit upon a scheme that might just satisfy a foolish popular demand1 assured that any who really cared for music would not grudge payment to the good teachers provided for the extra classes4 ,the music difficulty occupies some space in the early reports which1 in somewhat stilted and solemn fashion1 set forth new ideals for the education of the #8fairer sex4' ,the following is quoted from the report of ,february #ahef3-- #8,your ,council cannot refrain from stating their belief that as long as the singular and extraordinary notion continues to prevail in the minds of those forming the upper classes of ,english ,society1 that dexterity of fingering on a single instrument is the most important part of female education1 against1 it might have been thought1 not only the suggestions of common sense1 but the practical lessons of later life1 so long will the time required to be given for attaining even a low amount of proficiency in this sleight of hand1 most seriously interfere with progress in all education and mental cultivation worthy of the name4 #8,how far the acknowledged deficiency of many of the fairer sex in logical qualities and reasoning powers is due to this strange delusion1 it is not for your ,council to discuss2 but they are not without hopes that the time may not be far distant when they will be supported in an arrangement which will place instrumental music altogether among the extra subjects1 and leave them and the teachers free to elevate and improve1 morally and intellectually1 the condition of the female mind1 unembarrassed by so unessential an accomplishment4' ,these remarks were followed in #aheg by others3-- #8,your ,council have nothing to add to or retract from what was said upon this subject in that ,report3 but1 while they believe that the instruction in this so-called accomplishment is as efficient within these walls as it is capable1 under all circumstances1 of being made1 they must repeat their regret that so vast a portion of valuable time should be sacrificed1 in the earlier years of almost every ,englishwoman who hopes to become a wife and mother1 to that which is confessedly of no value in an intellectual point of view2 and can1 by no possibility1 be of service to her in either of these two most important1 and generally much coveted capacities4' ,the ,college had opened with a goodly array of teachers of #8accomplishments1' as it was hoped thus to attract bye-students4 ,these were gradually dismissed1 and it cannot have added to the reputation of the school that some of the best-known masters1 such as ,m4 ,thodore ,colson1 were considered too expensive4 ,when the new ,principal came there were only two teachers of music1 one of whom was ,mrs4 ,lloyd1 mother of the great singer4 ,of this lady's skill and loyalty ,miss ,beale always spoke with affectionate remembrance4 ,the ,lady ,principal gained her support in a reform instituted very early in her reign1 when separate piano lessons were again introduced1 and the class system1 disliked by ,miss ,beale on other than musical grounds1 was swept away4 ,she could not permit an arrangement which withdrew four pupils at once from the ordinary work of the school2 through which important lessons were lost1 and #8collisions between class and music teachers made frequent4' ,that the ,council allowed such a change to be made is a testimony to their confidence in the new ,principal4 ,the immediate result was disastrous to the funds1 and continued to be so until ,mr4 ,brancker introduced his new financial scheme in #ahfj4 ,the founders of the ,college were not men to be content with knowledge obtained from epitomes2 ,miss ,procter1 also1 was earnest and devoted in her work1 and took trouble to teach by means of lectures2 but only dictated notes were given1 and these were not corrected4 ,her lessons were evidently interesting3-- #8,we worked hard1 and the teaching was very thorough4 ,i have no doubt many of the pupils beside myself would willingly own the great debt of gratitude they owe to ,miss ,procter2 not so much1 perhaps1 for what she taught1 as for the way in which she educated us by developing and enlarging our minds4 ,she possessed a good library1 and we were often sent for books of reference1 and shown the bearings of the subject we were studying4 ,physical geography was taught by ,miss ,brewer1 who always carefully prepared her lessons4 ,m4 ,tiesset made our ,french lessons delightful1 even the grammar was a pleasure1 and he seemed to enjoy teaching us as much as we did being taught by him4' ,so wrote ,mrs4 ,coulson 7ne ,hartland7 for ,miss ,beale's ,history of the ,ladies' ,college1 and another old pupil added3-- #8,we had interesting lectures on ,ancient ,history in general1 and ,greek ,history and ,literature1 from ,miss ,procter4444 ,m4 ,tiesset and his sister taught ,french very well indeed1 and ,i especially remember a chart of irregular verbs1 ,m4 ,tiesset's own arrangement1 which1 ,i believe1 was a valuable help4' ,greek history was a favourite subject with ,miss ,procter1 who neglected for it the teaching of any other4 ,miss ,beale1 fresh from her ,textbook1 at once began ,english and general history with her young first class4 ,regardless of the additional labour it brought her1 she also taught the children to take notes1 which she corrected for them4 ,she gave weekly examinations on the subjects studied1 thus affording opportunity for ,english composition4 ,no science nor mathematics were taught in the early days4 ,miss ,beale would have liked to introduce ,euclid at once1 but says1 #8,had ,i done so1 ,i might have been the death of the ,college1 so ,i had to wait for the tide4 ,i began my innovations with the introduction of scientific teaching1 and under the name of physical geography ,i was able to teach a good deal4 ,this subject was unobjectionable1 as few boys learned geography4' ,in one particular ,miss ,beale found the authorities of her new school striving to be abreast with the times4 ,it was a rule of the constitution that the pupils should be examined annually1 and each year a graduate of ,oxford or ,cambridge had undertaken the task4 ,the first examiner 7in #ahec7 was ,mr4 ,nicolay1 then ,dean of ,queen's ,college1 ,harley ,street4 ,in the succeeding years a ,college master or some other local scholar conducted the examination and sent in a report to the ,council4 ,the few specimens left of those early examination questions1 even without the answers1 mark a tide-line now interesting to trace4 ,at first the review of all knowledge was comprehended in twelve very simple questions1 the most difficult mathematical calculation set before the first class being1 #8,the ,price of #c ozs4 of tea at #ds4 #d;d4 per lb4' ,the paper concluded thus3-- #8#aa4 ,write out that part of your duty towards your neighbour which explains the fifth commandment1 and prove each assertion from ,scripture4 #8#ab4 ,write out the following sentence in large text1 and small hand1 as specimens of your handwriting3 #8,integrity of understanding1 and nicety of discernment1 were not allotted4 #87,attach to this paper specimens of your needlework and of your drawing74' ,to the true teacher the interest of her work lies1 beyond and above all subjects and methods1 in the child4 ,no tale1 alas6 nor letter remains to show what ,miss ,beale thought of her children when she first came among them4 ,in one respect there must have been disappointment4 ,miss ,procter had opened a rival school1 which had drawn off the elder pupils2 consequently the first class consisted of girls of thirteen and fourteen4 ,but fortunately there are some of those same children who can recall the first impression made upon themselves by the new ,principal1 as she appeared on ,august #ai1 #aheh4 ,mrs4 ,mace1 a daughter of the late ,bishop ,bromby1 was among these4 ,she writes3-- #8,i well remember ,miss ,beale's first appearance at ,college1 and how ,i and three or four special friends1 who were already there 444 felt fiercely loyal to the former rule1 and told each other we knew exactly what the new ,principal would be like1 8thin1 tall1 spectacled1 and old-maidy40 ,i can see her now as she appeared in reality1--the slight1 young figure1 the very gentle1 gliding movements1 the quiet face with its look of intense thoughtfulness and utter absence of all poor and common stress and turmoil1 the intellectual brow1 the wonderful eyes with their calm outlook and their expression of inner vision4 ,you may be sure it was not long before the captious thirteen-year-olds were changed into warm admirers4 #8,i do not think her quiet dignity1 her strength and personality1 her power of influence1 could at any time of her strenuous and successful life have been greater or more impressive4 ,we were few in number then1 and1 of course1 saw more of her than was possible for later pupils4 #8,i never remember her raising her voice1 scolding us1 being satirical or impatient with dulness or inattention4 ,she was not satirical even when a small girl1 on being asked what criticism might be passed on ,milton's treatment of ,paradise ,lost1 ventured the audacious suggestion that the poet was 8verbose40' ,small instances of the new ,principal's own powers of observation and use of outside facts stand out through the mists of time2 for instance1 #8an afternoon when she visited the needlework room and found me being most justly blamed for inefficiency4 ,in kindly tones she said to the shy and clumsy culprit1 8,you ought to sew well1 for your mother has such beautiful long fingers10 and somehow ,i felt comforted and encouraged4 ,then there was a day when ,i summoned up courage to go and tell her that ,i had been guilty of some small disobedience1 as well as others who had been detected and punished4 ,she seized the opportunity of impressing upon me that as ,i was 7though only fourteen7 a teacher in my father's ,sunday-school1--a fact of which ,i did not know she was aware1--,i must surely see that obedience to rule was necessary4 ,i can still hear the low1 earnest tones in which she made her appeal to my sense of justice and right4' ,the incident suggests a laxer state of discipline than was ever known after4 ,assuredly on this point ,miss ,beale found a good deal to do4 ,some of the #8young ladies' treated the good-natured ,french master as their brothers at ,cheltenham ,college might have done4 ,there is a story1 too1 of a convenient cupboard at the end of the schoolroom1 large enough for a quiet game or gossip1 and of the consternation produced on a little knot of girls who thought they had assembled unobserved1 when the door was quietly opened upon them by the ,lady ,principal herself4 ,in the matter of discipline1 as of tuition1 ,miss ,beale appears to have worked on lines already laid down4 ,perhaps she kept before her mind counsel which she later gave to a pupil who left ,cheltenham to be head of a ,foundation ,school3 #8,remember the school belongs to the governors1 not to you4' ,but we are equally certain that she would not have worked on any lines which she did not approve4 ,she found no system of rules and penalties4 ,she did not wish to introduce one2 but she made real and abiding1 in a manner hardly credited by those outside1 the rule introduced by ,miss ,procter1 by which no pupil might speak to another without leave4 ,with regard to this rule1 which at once taught self-control and produced order1 the #8quietness which minimises irritability1' it may be further remarked that in a place and time of #8exclusive' views1 the ,college could hardly have existed without it4 ,the rule1 kept1 in itself prevented any pupil from making friends for the first time in ,college2 at any rate1 it enabled her not to do so4 ,there was1 however1 when ,miss ,beale first came1 a good deal of speaking without leave4 ,this disobedience with other irregularities she gradually overcame1 not by an overawing personality alone1 but with the #8quiet' ways and the word in season of which more than one old pupil speaks4 ,tracing in sequence the history of ,miss ,beale's first two years1 when the ,college1 though in the eyes of the world slowly perishing1 was really sinking strong foundations1 the ,report of #ahei stands out with its commendation of the new ,lady ,principal4 #8,of ,miss ,beale herself it may suffice to remark1 that to varied and extensive knowledge in all branches of ,education1 and skill in imparting it1 she unites a manner and disposition which at once command the respect and win the affection of her ,pupils1 and renders it pleasant to your ,council to maintain that frequent personal communication with her which is greatly conducive to the wellbeing of the ,institution4' ,beyond this there is little definite to record1 save the steady half-yearly diminution in the number of pupils and of the balance at the bank1 and the consequent retrenchments1 implying fresh burden and effort for the small teaching staff4 ,in her ,history of the ,college1 ,miss ,beale dismissed as with a smile the tale of her early struggles1 when each quarter it seemed less likely that the school could live1 till in the last half-year of #ahei there were only sixty-five pupils and but a few pounds in the bank4 ,but she admitted that perhaps only a barrister sitting in his chambers1 and waiting in vain for briefs1 could sympathise with the anxiety of that time1 when upon one or two pupils more or less depended the very existence of the ,college4 ,the story she tells of recalling pupils1 sent from the door by a servant who said she was at dinner1 shows her unwearying zeal3 #8,i sent her to fetch them back1 saying1 ,i am never at dinner4' ,no pupil was lost for want of watchfulness4 ,none could give notice without her knowing the reason1 and in many cases getting the notice recalled4 ,the problem was to live on1 working in a way the public had not learned to appreciate4 ,those were days when nervous strain was little known and scarcely feared4 ,school hours were long2 the time-table of the ,college then involved morning and afternoon school for most days in the week4 ,to one who sought ever to instruct with freshness and zeal1 and to take trouble to make her pupils think for themselves1 the work of teaching twice a day through the long half-years would now be counted an undue effort and strain4 ,in addition to this1 ,dorothea ,beale took upon herself1 as if it were her own personal need 7and she made it so71 the daily fretting anxiety of making the ,college pay4 ,this she never really threw off1 though in the last years of established success it became somewhat modified4 ,the economic strain was relaxed when ,mr4 ,brancker's able hand was laid upon the finances2 the labour of teaching was lightened when the hours were changed1 and when with gradually improving fortunes more and better teachers were engaged4 ,doubtless she might have taken advantage of these improvements to give herself more ease of body and mind4 ,but she cared for no reward1 save the #8wages of going on4' ,her eager1 nobly ambitious nature responded but too quickly to the claims of the ,college1 so with each step made certain1 there was ever immediately before her another to be fought for and won4 ,it were hardly possible to say too much in praise of the enthusiastic self-sacrifice which made the ,college what it is2 but some of the results of the early strife with fortune were to be deplored4 ,it left her too conscious of the place of the institution in the public eye2 it made it hard for her to justify a more generous expenditure than was possible at first4 ,the improved discipline1 the invigorating teaching1 even the efforts of the new ,principal herself1 failed to attract pupils1 and when in #ahfj the lease of ,cambray ,house expired1 no one was willing to take the responsibility of renewing it4 ,forty years later1 when looking back on that time of gloom1 ,miss ,beale wrote3 #8,how often ,i was full of discouragement4 ,it was not so much the want of money as the want of ideals which depressed me4 ,if ,i went into society ,i heard it said1 8,what is the good of education for our girls8 ,they have not to earn their living40 ,those who spoke did not see that for women as for men it is a sin to bury the talents ,god has given2 they seemed not to know that the baptismal right was the same for girls as for boys1 alike enrolled in the army of light1 soldiers of ,jesus ,christ4 #8,but helpers were sent with a faith and courage greater than mine4' ,first among these was ,mr4 ,j4 ,houghton ,brancker1 who1 already a member of the ,council1 became at the moment of deepest need1 auditor of the accounts1 and brought to the service of the ,college his great knowledge of business and enthusiastic interest in education4 ,mr4 ,brancker had come to live in ,cheltenham for the sake of his daughters1 in the year that ,miss ,beale became ,principal4 ,he was churchwarden to ,mr4 ,bromby1 whose liberal views he shared4 ,mr4 ,brancker had more than zeal and interest2 he could think out a plan and pursue it4 ,he spared no effort or trouble where a good end was to be obtained4 ,when he became financier of the ,college he gave it #8a large share of his time1 and as a paid secretary could not be afforded1 he undertook all duties gratuitously4' ,he made out a new scheme by which the ordinary fees were lowered1 but music and drawing became extras4 ,it was too great a venture to renew the lease of ,cambray ,house2 but the owner of the house consented to take the ,college on as a yearly tenant4 ,the new scheme of payment helped at once to bring improvement1 the number of pupils went up1 and ,mr4 ,brancker went so far as to order #8seven new benches1 three of them with backs4' ,illustration3 ,mr4 ,t4 ,houghton ,brancker ,this act of extravagance was followed almost immediately by an enlargement of the schoolroom1 making it seventy feet long4 ,mr4 ,brancker proved that this additional space was really a financial economy2 for with it all the pupils could be contained in one room1 and the necessity of increasing the staff was deferred4 ,as an alternative to the extension he breathed the suggestion1 for the first time probably in the history of the ,college1 of a new building1 a building of its own1 should a suitable site be obtained4 ,in his letter on this subject to ,mr4 ,hartland1 the #8young ladies' for the first time appear as #8children4' ,mr4 ,brancker's dream was destined to be deferred for ten years2 but was borne in mind by those whom it most concerned4 ,it may be thought he was premature even in the enlargement1 in spending at once the small profit made out of the increasing number of pupils4 ,but he did not aim at making a fortune for the ,college4 ,from the first it was proposed that the shareholders should reap no financial profit1 and ,mr4 ,brancker wished it to be evident that every penny was needed for the improvement of the work3 hence1 it was no part of his plan to have a balance in hand4 ,his effort was to keep up the prestige of the ,college in every way1 and in order to do this he limited the number of shares issued to the actual number of pupils1 in order that they might not be advertised for sale at a lower price than that at which they were purchased4 ,in three years from the time at which ,mr4 ,brancker became auditor1 he was able to write3 #8,february #ahfc4 ,we promised assets over #ajjj1 they are #ajgf4 ,we promised a money balance of over #bjj1 and it is #cef4 ,so ,i think the shareholders may have confidence in their ,chancellor of the ,exchequer4 ,we may well be proud of the result1 but we are deeply indebted to ,miss ,beale's exertions for it1 and ,i am glad her remuneration 7by capitation fees7 is so much increased4' ,by #ahfd all pressing anxiety for the existence of the ,college was over4 ,with its one hundred and thirty pupils it was practically full4 ,a regularly constituted boarding-house was opened4 ,here the day-pupils1 whose parents were leaving ,cheltenham1 could be taken1 and thus another cause of diminution in the number of pupils was put an end to4 ,undivided attention and care could now be given to the work4 ,in ,february a change which greatly told on this was made1 a change which now seems to have been only wise and reasonable1 but which was at the time regarded as extraordinary and revolutionary4 ,longer morning hours were substituted for morning and afternoon school each day1 ,thursday afternoons being set apart for dancing and needlework4 ,possibly ,miss ,beale anticipated the outcry that would be raised2 for she asked the mother of one of the pupils1 one likely to be opposed to the change1 to be with her at the ,council meeting at which it was determined1 ostensibly because she herself dreaded the meeting1 but doubtless in order that a representative of the parents might hear the subject fully discussed4 ,no notice of the change was sent to the shareholders1 parents and guardians received an intimation scarcely a week before it took place4 ,before that week was over1 stormy articles appeared in the local papers1 notices of removal were sent in1 and a memorial from the shareholders and others caused ,mr4 ,brancker hastily to summon another ,council meeting1 and to write to ,mr4 ,hartland1 #8,may ,i specially beg that you will attend 444 as ,i consider the vital interests and the future prospects of the ,college are at stake4' ,mr4 ,brancker and ,miss ,beale recognised that now or never the battle must be won4 ,either the ,college authorities must rule1 or the local papers and popular clamour4 ,the objections of the memorialists were that the change was a coup d'tat2 that four hours' continuous study was too much for the children2 that the governesses were idle in wanting a half-holiday every afternoon4 ,but the real ground of dislike was doubtless that parents shirked the responsibility of looking after their children in the afternoons1 and preferred schoolroom arrangements which would provide them with occupation during the whole day4 ,the ,council replied in a circular to the parents that they would limit the experiment to a period of two months1 after which they would act upon the opinion of the parents2 and should the new plan be adopted1 the quarter's fees should be returned to those who wished to remove their children4 ,the advantages of the change were then set forth4 ,it had been made to meet the objections raised to physical and mental effort following immediately upon a hurried meal2 to the young ladies passing constantly through the streets1 to the trouble of sending servants1 the exertion of so much walking1 the time wasted in dressing and undressing1 and to many others4 ,medical men1 among whom were ,dr4 ,barlow and ,dr4 ,gull1#ci were asked for their opinions2 these were uniformly favourable to the change4 ,the long morning hours were lightened by the introduction of calisthenics1 drawing1 and needlework1 and it was arranged that certain teachers should attend the ,college every afternoon to supervise the preparation of lessons when the parents desired it4 ,when a general meeting on the subject took place at the end of the specified two months1 only eight voted for the old system4 #8,it was found1' says ,miss ,beale1 #8that more work was done in less time1 for attention was closer 444 teachers and children had been able to get some afternoon exercise4' ,what was then thought so extraordinary has since become the order of the day for girls' schools4 ,in this matter ,cheltenham led the way1 a similar change was made by ,miss ,buss in #ahfe1 and when the hours of the ,girls' ,public ,day ,school ,company were arranged in #ahgc1 it was on the plan of putting all regular studies into the morning hours4 ,at the end of ,miss ,beale's first six years the ,college was in a much improved condition4 ,there were ten classes1 where she had found six4 ,the notable changes on the staff1 which was now larger1 were that ,miss ,brewer had left to open a school for little boys in ,brighton1 and ,miss ,anna ,beale and the ,miss ,eatons had joined4 ,increased prosperity1 and above all an older first class1 enabled ,miss ,beale to introduce some of the subjects which at first were thought to be too unacceptable to be safe4 ,there was1 of course1 opposition from those who were constantly repeating that #8girls would be turned into boys by studying the same subjects4' ,what1 it was asked by some parents1 do girls want with ,euclid or advanced arithmetic8 ,there were1 however1 a few who understood ,miss ,beale's aims1 and she was ever grateful for the support they gave her4 ,the method of annual examinations was gradually improved4 ,when there was so little money available1 local examiners1 some of whom had no claim to the position1 were chosen4 ,miss ,beale records her conviction that a ,german examiner1 who was at the time teaching in a local school1 was a waiter from some hotel who had come to ,england out of the season4 ,one ,english examiner recommended that history should be taught backwards4 ,this was then regarded as an astounding proposition4 ,mr4 ,brancker fully sympathised with ,miss ,beale's wish to improve the standard by obtaining examiners from one of the universities1 and obtained permission from the ,council to seek them himself in ,oxford4 ,the result was that for two or three years ,mr4 ,sidney ,owen undertook the principal part of the annual examination4 ,his name was the first of a long list of men notable for scholarly achievement or educational progress1 who in later years conducted these examinations at ,cheltenham4 ,in his first report ,mr4 ,owen said much for the moral characteristics revealed by the intellectual work it was his business to survey4 ,he concludes a very favourable judgment by saying he must not omit to mention that there were particular instances of remarkable excellence of which the ,college may justly be proud4 ,some of the papers he said1 #8would do credit to any ,institution and gain high marks in any public examination4444 ,may the ,college long give the lie to the miserable and pernicious fancy that accomplishments ought to be the staple of a lady's education1 and that her reason is not designed by the ,almighty to be highly cultivated4' ,but he thought the papers too long4 ,mr4 ,owen was indeed the very first adventurer into that flood of response which examination questions cause to flow from uncontrolled feminine pens4 ,mr4 ,dodgson 7,lewis ,carroll7 was in #ahfc the first university examiner in arithmetic and mathematics4 ,this year was a fruitful one to ,miss ,beale for yet another reason4 ,it was the year of the completion of her ,chart4 ,always interested in history1 ideally and practically1 she had as early as the ,queen's ,college days adopted a ,french scheme by which the learning of dates was to be simple and easy1 and the connections of history1 the bearing of facts and events upon each other1 were to be seen at a glance4 ,she now perfected and brought it into use4 ,the plan was based on the assumption that a fact is more readily grasped through the eye1 than by the ear4 ,by means of large squares1 which were to represent centuries1 enclosing smaller ones1 which should denote years1 the whole coloured in different shades according to the different ruling dominions and dynasties1 a complete outline of the history of a country was to appear on one page4 ,the reckoning was made by which ninety-nine was counted as the last year of a century1 with the result that in the year #aijj the chart found itself somewhat discredited4 ,but this method of counting1 of course1 in no way interfered with the system4 ,in learning dates at the ,college1 great stress was laid upon having a chart open before the student1 so that she might grow familiar with its look1 and become able to call up the knowledge of any special event by remembering the position of a dot in a certain square4 ,there were those to say with ,canon ,francis ,holland1 founder of the ,church of ,england ,high ,schools in ,london1 #8,why was ,i born before such aids were given to the understanding8' ,whether this system was indeed the royal road ,miss ,beale had planned for her pupils may well be questioned2 but the ,chart had at any rate the value of a simple vade mecum of chronology1 introducing every girl at ,college to the minimum of facts she should know in the history of the world4 ,the ,chart drew for its author a last kind word of recognition from an old friend1 when ,mr4 ,mackenzie wrote3-- #8,,westbourne ,,college1 #ahfc4 #8 444 ,i am proud to think that ,i had any part1 however humble1 in directing your mind to the ,tabular style of teaching2 and ,i am gratified to find that one of whom ,i had so early formed a favourable opinion1 has proved to be so able a worker in the great cause of ,education4 #8,i hope that you and your sisters1 as well as my ,godson1 quite understand that ,i entertain for you all the feelings of an old friend1 who values you on your own account as well as for the sake of both your ,parents4--,believe me to be always your sincere ,friend1 ,c4 ,,mackenzie4' ,so1 in the best sense the ,college grew4 ,not in outward prosperity alone1 in teaching power1 in class rooms2 but within4 ,the invisible fabric of mind1 and will1 and heart1 co-ordinated by one great idea1 was slowly being raised4 ,the #8aborigines1' as those who were girls of the ,cambray ,house time call themselves1 even insist that at no time of her career was ,miss ,beale's personal influence so direct as then1 when teaching so many subjects herself1 and in small classes1 she came personally in contact with nearly all the older pupils4 ,all classes had their place and desks in the long hall2 but the lowest division had a separate schoolroom as soon as funds justified it1 and the rooms of the house1 even on occasion those appointed to the ,principal1 were used as classrooms4 ,miss ,beale did not often teach in the large hall4 ,the young ones were cleared out of their division room when she gave a big lecture2 a small class1 such as one for ,german translation1 would be taken in her drawing-room4 ,there came a moment when even her bedroom was invaded4 ,those small classes of mathematics or ,german were more especially the ones which endeared teacher and pupils to each other4 ,there was always enough personal awe and inspiration about the ,lady ,principal to ensure a well-prepared lesson from really interested pupils1 and often beyond the lesson there would be delightful talk4 ,iphigenie in ,tauris recalls many thoughts beyond ,german translation1 and the verbal exercise itself was deprived of every vestige of dulness by her great interest in the growth and development of words4 ,no noble thought1 no fine simile was allowed to pass unnoticed2 other poems were compared1 or perhaps a passage would be given to be translated into ,english verse4 ,in the mere suggestion of this1 what hope and encouragement lay for many who hardly liked to own their pleasure in such an attempt1 or who had found earlier efforts of the kind thwarted by criticism too bracing for beginners6 ,it may indeed be thought that ,miss ,beale had always an unwarranted admiration for the verse-making of her pupils4 ,if in this she sometimes offended the cause of pure literature1 her attitude towards it was yet surely the right one for a teacher4 ,this must indeed have been one of the happiest periods of her work1 when she first came into near touch with the children she had seen grow up about her1 and felt herself able to give impetus and training to growing aspirations and developing thought1 when her sympathy was constantly appealed to in the way in which she could best give it4 #8,it is my peculiar privilege to have spent all my ,college career in her class1 to go through years of her special personal teaching4 ,in later days1 when the ,college assumed larger dimensions1 such an experience must have been rare2 to those who could claim it1 it meant a potent influence for life4 ,how vividly can ,i recall her sitting on her little dais1 scanning the long school-room and discovering anything amiss at the far end of it2 or making a tour of inspection to the various classes with a smiling countenance that banished terror4' ,so writes one old pupil of that time4 ,another speaks of that deep tenderness which she ever felt1 but often concealed1 and was not afraid of showing in a case of special need4 #8,when ,i was almost a child at ,college ,i lost my mother1 and shall never forget ,miss ,beale's tender sympathy and help4 ,she took such interest in my preparation for ,confirmation1 and brought me herself to my first ,communion1--just she and ,i alone2 a day ,i shall always remember4 ,all through my girlhood she was a kind and ready adviser1 and continued her interest throughout my married life4 ,one always felt whatever happened to one1 ,now ,i must tell ,miss ,beale4' ,it is sad to know that ,miss ,beale was often depressed in that hopeful spring-time of the ,college by the tongues of gossip and slander4 ,she had so profound a horror of petty talk about other people's business1 that she possibly exaggerated the importance of carelessly repeated and untrue reports4 ,she mentions the local gossip from which the ,college had to suffer4 #8,tales were handed about that it was impossible to trace4 ,it was said that accomplishments were neglected1 that the pupils played on dumb pianos4 ,persons who did not exist1 and others who would never have been admitted1 were said to attend the ,college4 ,news was sent out to ,canada that the cattle plague was prevailing1 and the report was half believed4 ,the mere circulation of absurd falsehoods is1 however1 often enough to decide a mother to place her daughter elsewhere2 sometimes no falsehood at all1 a contemptuous tone is enough4 ,such things can only be met by silence and steady and unobtrusive work4 ,perhaps one is better off without the children of those who accept their rule of life from ,mrs4 ,grundy4 ,certainly such opposition and persecution prove an excellent tonic1 and ,i personally feel grateful for it1 though it was a bitter draught4 ,we had to remember that the interests of some were injured by the establishment of the ,college2 the wish being father to the thought1 people would sometimes believe what they said4' ,matters reached a climax when an absolutely untrue statement concerning cruelty to animals was set on foot about ,mrs4 ,fraser1 who had opened a boarding-house in connection with the ,college4 ,the real gravity of the report lay in the circumstance that some in the ,college had listened to it1 and it was necessary to address the teachers on the subject4 ,it was a painful task1 but bravely faced by the ,lady ,principal1 who said3 #8,now ,i have nothing to do to judge them that are without4 ,we must cheerfully bear evil-speaking4 ,but if it come from within1 the matter is for that reason a serious one2 for this reason ,i feel it must be traced up to its source4444 ,i feel ,i can appeal to you as lovers of truth1 as those who feel that no advantages of education1 of health1 or any other1 can compensate for the disadvantage which would arise to any children who lived in an atmosphere of evil-speaking1 lying1 and slandering4' ,thus grasped1 the nettle ceased to sting4 ,it was perhaps a small incident scarcely worth noting4 ,but ,miss ,beale remembered it as one which caused great discomfort at the time1 and it had far-reaching consequences4 ,her power then was more limited than in after years4 ,she learned through this difficulty the need for more liberty to act independently of the ,council in the internal management of the ,college4 ,in her efforts to get the evil rooted out from their midst1 she nearly exceeded her powers4 ,this1 doubtless1 taught her to prosecute her reforms more warily4 ,above all1 it may be believed that she gained a fresh access of that self-control so necessary to all governors4 ,for it is only in fiction that difficulty can be overcome by a sudden word or action2 in real life work has to be carried on despite the obstacle2--growth takes place under pressure4 ,outside the work of the ,college there is not a great deal to relate about ,miss ,beale's life at this period4 ,her holidays were sometimes spent in visits to her family4 ,after the deaths of ,mr4 and ,mrs4 ,john ,beale1 ,hyde ,court1 the old family house came into the possession of ,miss ,beale's mother1 who had been left a widow in #ahfb4 ,in #ahfh ,mrs4 ,beale came with two daughters to reside at ,hyde ,court until her death in #ahha4 ,there the ,lady ,principal often went in the holidays1 finding pleasure in the beautiful surroundings4 ,an old pupil tells of the delights of a visit to her there1--of ,mrs4 ,beale1 whom her daughter ,dorothea greatly resembled1 calm and majestic looking1 of the glorious view from the windows of the room appropriated to ,miss ,beale and her large correspondence4 ,a good part of the holidays even then was spent in ,cheltenham1 but there were some visits abroad4 ,one year ,miss ,beale accompanied her brother ,edward1 then recovering from illness1 to the ,black ,forest4 ,on another occasion she went with her sister to ,chamounix1 and enjoyed the mountain walks4 ,in #ahfd she spent some time at ,zrich4 ,more than once she went to ,paris4 ,this continental travel was by no means for recreation and refreshment only4 ,it nearly always implied visits to schools1 where fresh and foreign methods were studied4 ,no opportunity of gaining new ideas was ever neglected1 for ,miss ,beale could not understand ever living apart from her work4 ,in the holidays1 as in school-time1 she was still working1 though in a different way4 ,in ,cheltenham itself there was little time or opportunity for recreation4 ,society1 as the word is generally understood1 had little to say to the new head-mistress1 whose insignificant figure and plain dress did not provoke much interest4 ,her absence of small talk1 her quiet intellectual face1 her reputation as a clever woman1 her connection with ,queen's ,college1 all represented something unwonted and new4 ,she had received no welcome from the religious world of ,cheltenham1 whose leaders1 ,mr4 ,close and ,mr4 ,boyd1 though one of them had accepted a seat on the ,council1 remained aloof from the interests of the ,ladies' ,college1 perhaps sharing the prejudice still prevalent against any departure from the beaten track of women's education4 ,it was of little moment to ,miss ,beale to find herself unsought by society1 for she seldom cared to spend an evening from her work4 ,she could not understand the position1 which some have thought it wise to take up1 that it is good for a school to have its head seen in society4 ,she held it to be best for a school that its head should give herself unremittingly to her work1--disastrous to the welfare of any pupils for their teacher to sacrifice to social engagements the time she ought to give to the preparation of lessons4 ,the friends of that early time were a few thoughtful people who were interested like herself in education4 ,on first coming to ,cheltenham ,miss ,beale1 to please ,miss ,brewer1 she said1 attended ,christchurch1 but she soon left this for ,st4 ,philip's and ,st4 ,james' at ,leckhampton1 and for ,st4 ,paul's4 ,both these churches were less obviously in the possession of wealthy seat-holders than the churches in the town4 ,to ,st4 ,philip's she went at that time when she #8wanted to be quiet1' taking up a position near the door4 ,all the middle of that church was then occupied by charity children and the poor1 but there were in the rich part of the congregation many whose names have interest from one cause or another4 ,the incumbent of ,st4 ,philip's1 the ,rev4 ,a4 ,e4 ,riddle1 was a man of much learning4 ,he had been ,bampton ,lecturer in #ahcb1 and was the author of a well-known ,latin ,dictionary and other books4 ,miss ,beale felt at home in his great library1 and visits to ,mrs4 ,riddle at ,tudor ,lodge were among the few recreations4 ,mr4 ,riddle died in #ahei1 and for the next few years she seems to have regularly attended ,st4 ,paul's or ,holy ,trinity churches4 ,she found real friends in the parsonage-house at ,st4 ,paul's1 but the immediate tie was soon broken1 for in #ahfd ,mr4 ,bromby was made ,bishop of ,tasmania4 ,the claims of relationship and early friendship were not forgotten1 but there was little time for letter-writing beyond the ever-growing correspondence connected with work4 ,mr4 ,beale wrote playfully of his daughter's growing absorption3-- #8,you always write as if you were at the top of your speed1 and this is not good4 ,i doubt not you have a great deal to occupy your time and your attention1 but pray do not be always in a hurry1 you will inevitably break down if you are so--you will lose in power what you gain in speed1 as certainly as in mechanics2 and with greater danger to the regularity of the machine4444 ,i am really fearful to take up your time4444 ,i daresay now you are scrambling through my note without that respect to which the writer and the subject are entitled4 ,but pray remember that to neglect 7the care of your health7 is the worst economy in the world4444 #8,i will now release you1 but ,i was unwilling quite to lose your correspondence1 though do not write to me until you have a little patient leisure4' ,thus1 in difficulty and obscurity1 the life-work of ,dorothea ,beale was begun4 ,but hers was a light which could not long be hid4 ,each year it burned more surely and shone further afield4 ,by #ahfd1 when the ,endowed ,schools' ,inquiry ,commission was instituted1 she was known as a successful head-mistress whose views and methods were worth hearing4 ,with ,miss ,buss and others she was asked to give evidence4 ,,chapter ,,vii ,a ,,royal ,,commission #8,i learnt the royal genealogies ,of ,oviedo1 the internal laws ,of the ,burmese ,empire1--by how many feet ,mount ,chimborazo outsoars ,teneriffe1 ,what navigable river joins itself ,to ,lara1 and what census of the year five ,was taken at ,klagenfurt4444 ,i learnt much music1 444 fine sleights of hand ,and unimagined fingering4' ,e4 ,b4 ,,browning1 ,aurora ,leigh4 ,this volume1 which memorialises one great name in one field of women's work1 is not the place in which to dwell upon the details of that work in other departments4 ,but it may be remarked in passing that the educational movement itself was but a part--an essential part--of a larger one4 ,it seemed1 ,miss ,beale often said in speaking of this time1 that women1 like the damsel of old1 heard the ,voice of the ,master penetrating the slumber of death1 bidding them ,arise4 ,and they obeyed4 ,they arose in many and various ways to minister to ,him4 ,the first sign of this awakening was publicly seen in #ahdd1 when ,dr4 ,pusey engaged several leading laymen1 among whom was ,mr4 ,gladstone1 to help him in the foundation of an ,anglican ,sisterhood4 ,two or three ,orders date from before the opening of ,queen's ,college in #ahdh2 those at ,clewer and ,wantage followed soon after4 ,the devotion of ,florence ,nightingale and her little band in #ahed led many to follow her example1 and the reform of nursing steadily if slowly followed4 ,in #ahff1 before the reports of the ,schools' ,inquiry were published1 ,dr4 ,elizabeth ,blackwell took an ,m4,d4 degree in ,switzerland1 and ,miss ,garrett began to study for one in ,london4 ,the desire for better teaching and training was widespread4 ,the establishment of the ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college was a part of a larger movement which was affecting the whole country4 ,sixteen years had passed since the opening of ,queen's ,college had unsealed the fountain of knowledge for women4 ,immediately after1 in #ahdi1 a college had been established on undenominational lines4 ,this was ,bedford ,college1 which found a liberal donor in ,mr4 ,reid1 and among its first teachers counted ,francis ,newman1 ,de ,morgan1 and ,dr4 ,carpenter4 ,these led the way4 ,then in #ahej the great school which will for ever be associated with the name of ,frances ,mary ,buss was opened in ,camden ,road1 its enterprising head-mistress having there removed the private school she had carried on successfully for some years1 to develop it on the lines of a public school1 under the enlightened supervision of ,mr4 ,laing4 ,cheltenham followed four years later1 and these two1 for many years the only public schools for girls in the country1 may be considered the direct offspring of ,queen's ,college4 ,the general condition of girls' education remained unimproved some years longer4 ,yet amid the thousands of private schools where worthless or poor teaching prevailed1 there were a few which had come into the hands of capable women who had been inspired by the noble ideals of those who led the religious and intellectual thought of the day4 ,the name of ,elizabeth ,sewell is representative of these2 but for the most part they lived and died unknown1 because their work was of less public moment than that of the great leaders4 ,yet1 in an account of women's education it seems ungracious to name only the well known1 however great1 and to pass unnoticed the wise virgins1 less prominent but not less faithful1 whose lamps shone and were replenished through the night4 ,in her death1 as in her work on earth1 ,dorothea ,beale was not alone4 ,miss ,sewell1 aged ninety1 passed but a few weeks before her1 and very shortly after two other unknown fellow-workers1 who had not laboured in vain4 ,the ,times of ,january #aijg told of ,miss ,piper1 the founder and head of ,laleham4 ,of ,miss ,piper it could be said1 that at a time when the instruction given to girls was of a formal character1 #8she set herself to make her pupils think1 to stimulate interest1 to enforce thoroughness4' ,these were the very points on which the ,schools' ,commission found girls' education defective4 ,a fortnight later died ,emily ,milner1 who was for fifty years head of ,st4 ,mary's ,school at ,brighton1 to which she devoted all her small income4 ,she taught with marvellous energy and freshness1 inspiring her pupils themselves to be zealous and persevering1 and keeping them in touch with all that was best in the rapid advance and change of modern education4 ,but such head-mistresses were rare4 ,the ,commissioners seldom found either thoroughness or freshness in the schools they inspected4 ,the ,schools' ,inquiry ,commission was instituted in #ahfd1 a year in which ,john ,ruskin1 in a lecture at ,manchester1 made a passionate appeal to rich women to claim their right to serve--and reign4 ,his cry did not reach a larger public until1 eight years later1 the lecture was published under the title #8,of ,queens' ,gardens' in ,sesame and ,lilies4 ,like the simultaneous discovery of some great star1 by watchers strange to one another and half a continent apart1 the movement for enlarging the scope of women's work was furthered by men of divers ways and methods1 heralded by visionaries like ,tennyson and ,ruskin1 marshalled into deliberate order by high-hearted officials like the ,secretary of the ,governesses' ,benevolent ,society and the ,school ,inspector ,joshua ,fitch4 ,possibly no ,assistant ,commissioner1 as he drew up his report1 recalled the ringing words of ,ruskin4 ,but though the medium varies to the stretch of difference between the inspiration of a great poem and the deliberate statements of a blue-book1 we recognise the same force behind both1 and see both alike to be channels for one great stream of tendency4 ,the conclusions drawn from the report1 the resulting effects seen in new schools and organised public examinations1 miss nothing of their special value if regarded in connection with such words as these3-- #8,let a girl's education be as serious as a boy's4 ,you bring up your girls as if they were meant for side-board ornaments1 and then complain of their frivolity4 ,give them the same advantages that you give their brothers 444 teach them1 also1 that courage and truth are the pillars of their being4444 ,there is hardly a girl's school in this ,christian ,kingdom where the children's courage and sincerity would be thought of half so much importance as their way of coming in at a door4444 ,and give them1 lastly1 not only noble teachings1 but noble teachers4'#dj ,the ,schools' ,inquiry ,commission was instituted to examine into the existing state of education above the elementary grade1 and to report on measures needed for its improvement1 having special regard to all endowments applicable1 or which could rightly be made applicable1 thereto4 ,by the instance of ,miss ,emily ,davies1 girls' schools were included in the inquiry4 ,among the ,commissioners was ,lord ,lyttelton1 who was regarded by those who wished to improve women's education as a friend to girls4 ,he had manfully asserted their right to a share of the endowments1 and of women to a share in the management of girls' schools4 ,sir ,stafford ,northcote1 ,dr4 ,temple1 and ,mr4 ,forster were also members of the ,commission4 ,among the ,assistant ,commissioners1 whose business it was to visit and report upon schools1 were such well-known names as those of ,t4 ,h4 ,green1 ,j4 ,g4 ,fitch1 and ,j4 ,bryce4 ,no schools outside the eight selected districts were visited1 but the ,principals of some beyond their limit were requested to give evidence before the ,commissioners in ,london4 ,in the year #ahfh-i reports and evidence were gradually issued in a series of twenty large blue-books4 ,of these volumes about nineteen-twentieths related to the education of boys and general questions1 and about one-twentieth to the education of girls alone4 ,miss ,beale hailed the ,commission as a means of bringing the thousand inefficiencies of girls' education to the light4 ,she took advantage of it in an address she gave in #ahfe at ,bristol1 at a meeting of that now extinct body1 the ,social ,science ,congress1 when she pleaded that1 for boys and girls alike1 education should be planned with the view of developing character4 ,her argument was none the less weighty because so carefully guarded3-- #8,let me say at once that ,i desire to institute no comparison between the mental abilities of boys and girls1 but simply to say what seems to be the right means of training girls1 so that they may best perform that subordinate part in the world to which1 ,i believe1 they have been called4 #8,first1 then1 ,i think that the education of girls has too often been made showy1 rather than real and useful2 that accomplishments have been made the main thing1 because these would1 it was thought1 enable a girl to shine and attract1 while those branches of study especially calculated to form the judgment1 to cultivate the understanding1 and to discipline the character 7which would fit her to perform the duties of life7 have been neglected2 and thus1 while temporary pleasure and profit have been sought1 the great moral ends of education have been too often lost sight of4 #8,to the poorer classes the toil and struggle of their daily life do1 to some extent1 afford an education which gives earnestness1 and strength1 and reality2 and if we would not have the daughters of the higher classes idle and frivolous1 they too must be taught to appreciate the value of work4 ,we must endeavour to give them1 while young1 such habits1 studies1 and occupations as will brace the mind1 improve the taste1 and develop the moral character4 ,they must learn1 not for the sake of display1 but from motives of duty4 ,they must not choose the easy and agreeable1 and neglect what is dull and uninviting4 ,they must not expect to speak languages without mastering the rudiments2 nor require to be finished in a year or two1 but impatiently refuse to labour at a foundation4' ,these words were pioneers of the ,commissioners' reports1 in which they find a literal echo4 ,the reports1 with her own evidence and that of other ladies interested in education1 were by ,miss ,beale preserved for posterity4 ,she perceived instinctively that if they were not brought into general circulation all would soon be forgotten1 much never known at all4 ,with that stern sense of economy which caused her never to waste an opportunity or a scrap of material1 she took the task upon herself4 ,she obtained permission to republish the matter relating to girls' schools in a single volume1 for which she wrote a preface4 ,in this she dealt with the evidence of the ,commissioners1 discussing at some length the questions of examinations and overwork4 ,but she sought chiefly1 as she had already done a few years before in an article in ,fraser's ,magazine1#da to show the need of real study for women1 the advantage to be gained for character and mind from such subjects as history and literature4 ,the general report of the ,commissioners on ,girls' ,education forms the first chapter of ,miss ,beale's blue-book4 ,it opened with a quotation to the effect that an educated mother is of even more importance than an educated father4 ,miss ,beale may have thought this an exaggerated statement2 but she must have welcomed and republished it with some satisfaction4 ,she was for ever having it dinned into her ears1 by those who opposed all serious study for their daughters1 that girls should be educated to be wives and mothers4 ,mrs4 ,grey showed the real fallacy of the statement1 in a paper which was the direct result of the republished reports1 when she pointed out that girls were not being educated to be wives1 but to get husbands4 ,a happy marriage ,mrs4 ,grey held to be #8the summum bonum of a woman's life 444 not an object to be striven for1 but to be received as the supreme grace of fate when the right time and the right person come4'#db ,with ,miss ,beale and ,miss ,emily ,davies she deprecated the education which is designed from the first to fit and prepare for a special position in life4 ,she would have women and men alike1 working men1 tradesmen1 men of fortune educated as human beings1 not technically instructed for some special walk in life4 ,in eloquent words she pictured the ideal for which she and others like-minded were striving1 and were seeking to attain by the practical method of enlightening public opinion1 founding schools1 asking for public examinations4 ,she wrote3-- #8,the true meaning of the word education is not instruction4444 ,it is intellectual1 moral1 and physical development1 the development of a sound mind in a sound body1 the training of reason to form just judgments1 the disciplining of the will and affections to obey the supreme law of duty1 the kindling and strengthening of the love of knowledge1 of beauty1 of goodness1 till they become governing motives of action4' ,mrs4 ,grey's conclusions were the same as those of the ,commissioners1 who complained that there was no demand for the education of girls1 the cause of the indifference being that low idea which regards only the money value of education1 and estimates it solely as a means of getting on4 ,girls were taught with a view to increasing their attractiveness before marriage1 rather than with that of increasing their happiness and usefulness after4 ,this was the general cause of dissatisfaction1 but there were many details4 ,one and all complained that1 with the exception of quite a few schools1 the education of girls in the middle classes was much worse than that existing in the elementary schools of the day4 ,this was of course specially the case in subjects like arithmetic1 and arose greatly from the mistaken notion that they were of no use to girls4 ,the ,commissioners were unanimous in condemning the prevailing method of instruction by means of such books as ,mangnall's ,questions and the like1 termed by ,mr4 ,bryce #8the noxious brood of catechisms4' ,of this1 be it said1 ,miss ,mangnall's famous work1 which bears witness to its author's well-stored mind1 and which reached nearly a hundred editions1 was the best4 ,the #8,questions' demanded indeed the knowledge of such useless facts as the number of houses burned in the ,great ,fire of ,london2 but there were in use1 in the numerous small private schools of the period1 cheaper and more stupid books1 in which the information was not merely useless1 but even defied common sense4 ,a small catechism on #8,science1' entitled #8,why and ,because1' concluded a long list of inept questions with3 #8,why do pensioners and aged cottagers put their teapots on the hob to draw8' ,in some books1 facts of varying nature--of history1 geography1 grammar1 etc4--were all jumbled together4 ,it is not surprising that girls instructed by the parrot-like1 inconsequent methods of such lesson-books1 passed from school with no love of reading4 ,the ,commissioners complained further1 that though ,french and music were held to be the most important subjects to which a girl should devote herself1 they were nearly always very badly taught4 ,they spoke of time wasted at the piano2 they calculated the thousands of hours given to music which was not worth hearing at the last4 ,they gave instances of ludicrous mistakes in ,french1 which no effort of visiting masters could improve into anything like a real knowledge of the language1 because rudimentary grammar had never been mastered4 ,they spoke of drawing taught with an equal disregard of thoroughness1 and with still more disastrous result4 #8,the common practice of masters touching up their pupils' performances for exhibition at home fosters a habit of dishonesty1 and that too prevalent tendency running through the whole of female education1 the tendency to care more for appearance than reality1 to seem rather than to be4'#dc ,some spoke of the absence of healthy interests1 of the need for games1 a need which appealed but little to ,miss ,beale1 in whose own youth play was marked by its absence only4 ,many urged the necessity for founding in every town public schools similar to boys' grammar schools1 where girls could obtain a sound education1 without accomplishments1 at a low cost4 ,these reports embody a number of facts concerning a state of things now happily passed away4 ,hundreds of small private schools might have read their doom in them1 for the establishment of many public schools1 endowed and otherwise1 soon followed the inquiry4 ,we see the poor sham education1 with its wrong notions of the beautiful and the best1 vanish without a regret4 ,yet1 since all human effort has its worth and place1 is it possible and fair to say one word above its grave8 ,was there no genuine wish to give pleasure pleading in the miserable pieces of the boarding-school young lady1 and even in the painful drawings which the master's touch failed to make tolerable8 ,they testify at least to something out of the work-a-day sphere1 to the desire for the #8something afar1' often the first step to a truer vision4 ,precious years of girlhood spent on the vain effort to attain accomplishments speak of some dim perception of the refinement and uplifting which men look for in women4 ,ill-devised1 badly attempted1 poorly carried out1 the thought of giving delight was not only mercenary in aim2 behind it was some consciousness of a real human need4 ,the educators of women to-day should know better than to despise its pleading1 however imperfectly expressed4 #8,may ,i not have one ornamental one8' said a brother when a third sister was about to devote herself to obtaining certificates for mathematics4 ,nine ladies1 including ,miss ,emily ,davies1 ,miss ,buss1 and ,miss ,beale1 were asked to give evidence before the ,commission4 ,miss ,beale's1 which was taken in #ahfe1 is of double interest1 at once touching the state of girls' education in general1 and the advance being made in the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham4 ,she took with her a hundred entrance examination papers arranged in order for inspection4 ,actuated perhaps by the marvellous carefulness which lost nothing1 and seeing a use even in what would often be considered waste papers1 as well as by the definite aim of preserving a record of progress1 she had kept all the answers written by her pupils to entrance examination questions4 ,with the ,college papers1 she showed also some written by children in one of the national schools at ,cheltenham1 in order that the ,commissioners might make a comparison for themselves4 ,on being questioned1 ,miss ,beale explained in detail the whole system of the ,college1 interesting the ,commissioners in the method of teaching ,euclid1 one which at some points antedated by many years the present teaching of geometry in the public schools1 and which has lately been adopted by the universities4 ,at a time when schoolboys were learning ,euclid by heart1 ,miss ,beale was teaching it to girls by a method of explanation which they had to follow and finally reproduce without any learning by rote4 ,with regard to the teaching of ,holy ,scripture she said1 #8,each class teacher takes her own class1 and that1 ,i think1 very important'2 but on this subject little was said4 ,on the question of discipline and moral difficulties she explained that the government of the ,college was chiefly by personal influence1 and that her plan was to make use of very simple means1 such as changing the seat of a child who was suspected of being dishonest in her work4 #8,it is a small thing1 but it indicates want of trust1 and it is by small things we govern4' ,such discipline obviously appeared slight to ,dr4 ,storrar1 who asked on hearing it1 #8,perhaps girls are more sensitive than boys in such matters8' #8,i will not attempt to decide1' replied ,miss ,beale1 #8but my opinion is that they are not4' ,asked her opinion on a system of examination1 ,miss ,beale recommended a general ,board for the examination of teachers1 to be founded with national sanction1 and an inspection of the schools under the management of those who had passed the examination4 #8,there is one other point1' she added3 #8the cause might be helped on by the establishment of a model school for the training of teachers2 ,i hardly know how such would work4' ,the evidence of the ,commission1 published in #ahfh1 produced a great impression on ,mrs4 ,william ,grey and her sister1 ,miss ,shireff4 ,under their able leadership there was formed1 in #ahga1 #8,the ,national ,union for ,improving the ,education of ,women1' for the purpose of organising effort and helping to create a sounder public opinion with regard to education itself4 ,the work of this society led two years later to the foundation of the ,girls' ,public ,day-,school ,company4 ,by this agency1 which was commercial as well as educational1 ,high ,schools were established in most of the important towns of ,england4 ,there followed the numerous independent efforts and companies which have covered the country with a network of secondary schools for girls4 ,in #ahgb1 ,miss ,buss giving up her private property in her very successful school1 by an act of self-sacrifice and generosity made it a public school by placing it in trust4 ,a lower school was also established in ,camden ,town under the same management4 ,miss ,emily ,davies also found her work aided by the ,commission4 ,she was largely instrumental in the opening of ,local ,examinations to girls4 ,the foundation of the first women's college at a university was laid by her when1 in #ahgc1 the college she had opened at ,hitchin four years earlier was removed to ,cambridge1 where it became known as ,girton4 ,this step was perhaps even less of a venture1 though more startling to the public mind1 than the first beginning at ,hitchin4 ,of this ,miss ,maria ,hackett had written to ,miss ,beale3-- #8,the proposed ,foundation of a ,college for the ,superior ,education of ,women is another most important measure in the same direction4 ,i had much correspondence about twenty years ago1 with your dear father1 ,mr4 ,mackenzie1 and ,mr4 ,storrs1 on the subject1 but ,i did not venture upon so extensive a scheme4' ,public examinations for girls necessarily followed the work of the ,commission1 the opening of women's colleges1 and the establishment of public schools for girls4 ,head-mistresses were called upon to face all the difficulties and drawbacks of these1 as well as to accept their advantages1 and in some cases also to incur odium1 as they worked with measures which they knew to be not in themselves the best1 but only the best attainable4 ,miss ,beale had her own vision of what a public examination for girls should be4 ,she had said at ,bristol in #ahfe that parents #8are afraid of popular outcry1 afraid that their children should take a low place1 forgetting that 7if the examination be conducted without any of the improper excitement of publicity71 it is also a test and means of moral training1 since those who work from the right motives simply do their best and are not overanxious about results4 ,i do not desire that there should be a system of competitive examinations1 but a general testing of the work done1 and if this cannot be responded to in a quiet1 lady-like manner1 it does not speak well for the moral training of the school4' ,she had also said3-- #8,i do not think the plan for admitting girls to the same examination with boys in the ,university local examinations a wise one2 the subjects seem to me in many respects unsuited for girls1 and such an examination as the one proposed is likely to further a spirit of rivalry most undesirable4 ,i should much regret that the desire of distinction should be made in any degree a prime motive1 for we should ever remember that moral training is the end1 education the means4 ,the habits of obedience to duty1 of self-restraint1 which the process of acquiring knowledge induces1 the humility which a thoughtful and comprehensive study of the great works in literature and science tends to produce1 these we would specially cultivate in a woman1 that she may wear the true woman's ornament of a meek and quiet spirit4 ,as for the pretentiousness and conceit which are associated with the name of 8blue-stocking10 and which some people fancy to be the result of education1 they are only an evidence of shallowness and vulgarity2 we meet with the same thing in the dogmatic conceit of the so-called 8self-educated man10 who has picked up learning1 but has not had the benefit of a systematic training and a liberal education4' ,the formal admission of girls to the ,cambridge ,local ,examinations took place in #ahfe1 though they had been informally accepted as candidates as early as #ahfc4 ,miss ,beale did not accept the examination at ,cheltenham1 mainly because its arrangements did not fall in with those of the ,college year2 but she closely observed its working1 noted each set of questions and reports1 recognising that with these examinations new impetus had been given to the progress of education4 ,she wrote and spoke on the subject1 holding it to be the duty of the teacher to seek to guide this movement1 which must increasingly affect girls' schools4 ,the following extract from one of her papers is chosen because of its bearing on the larger and still unanswered question of university degrees3-- #8,examiners must be prepared not to domineer but to learn that the art is yet in its infancy1 and their knowledge of what girls can or ought to do is at present very slight4 ,they must be ready to admit the possibility of a teacher knowing better than his judges4 ,the latter are sometimes tempted to exclaim1 ,quis custodiat ipsos custodes8 ,if the school curriculum and the examinations are so far out of harmony that a large amount of special preparation is required1 either the curriculum is at fault or the examination an evil4444 ,i know that some make a great point of having the actual ,university examinations opened1 because a mere 8women's examination0 is spoken of contemptuously4 ,i believe that in trying to avoid this1 we should encounter greater evils1 and that the wish is connected with a misplaced reverence which many women entertain for the learning of a 8pass man40' ,after some years of consideration a decision was practically forced upon ,miss ,beale4 ,she must choose for her clever girls either to pass a public examination which she thought more suited for men1 or to fall behind in a path which was surely leading in the right direction4 ,she did not hesitate1 but saw that on this1 as on many occasions1 it must be her part to labour to remove obstructions1 to overcome obstacles4 ,in her interview with the ,commissioners1 on being asked if she would approve of the establishment of a special examination for ladies up to the standard of attainment of the ,london matriculation1 she had replied1 #8,certainly1' but advocated that it should be made possible for women to take ,german instead of ,greek4 ,this examination1 she agreed1 might be taken as a measure1 though the measure might not be filled with the same subjects as for men4 ,she was soon called upon to act in this matter1 for in #ahfi it was opened to women1 and the ,university of ,cambridge also instituted an examination for women over eighteen years of age4 ,miss ,beale accepted both for the ,college1 but for some years there was no regular organisation of work for those who were taking the ,cambridge examination4 ,this was partly due to the higher limit of age4 ,it was then thought extraordinary that girls should stay at school after they were eighteen4 ,it was difficult to persuade many to do so4 ,some were #8wanted at home1' some wished to #8come out'2 those who were intending to be teachers thought they should be already earning4 ,then the absorbing work for the ,london examination made it difficult to arrange for much of a wholly different character4 ,consequently1 at first1 the older pupils and the young teachers who sought to pass the ,cambridge examination had to look after themselves a good deal4 ,miss ,beale would certainly not consider this a drawback4 ,they had the additional advantage of lectures from herself on literature and history4 ,the #8,london' must have seemed better worth while for many reasons4 ,it might prove a first step to a definite degree4 ,the degree examinations were not opened till ten years later1 and might not have followed at all had zeal and courage not been shown by women over the matriculation4 ,again1 the matriculation certificate enabled men to offer themselves as candidates for further examination with a view to certain careers1 such as the medical profession4 ,this would hold good for women4 ,for it had the real advantage of being a recognised standard1 while a certificate for an examination arranged specially for women would be like #8foreign coin4' ,one cannot too much admire the qualities which bore teacher and pupils up that steep initial step of the ,london examination2 for steep it was4 ,at that time it demanded a certain knowledge of subjects which were generally regarded as the prerogative of men4 ,hardly any of the girls who hoped to pass in them had1 when they began their special preparation six terms before the examination1 learned any ,latin1 chemistry1 geometry1 algebra1 or natural philosophy--this last being a term which embraced some acquaintance with optics1 statics1 dynamics1 and hydrostatics4 ,little more than the rudiments of these new subjects had to be mastered1 for the examination at that time required #8a collection of minima1 a smattering of everything1 enforced with ,procrustean rigour on ,philistine lines4' ,primarily designed for boys with a grammar-school education1 the ,latin paper included some knowledge of ,horace4 ,it is scarcely necessary to say that disappointment as well as hope was woven into the strand of these brave beginnings4 ,many failed4 ,some who were not really equal to the work were persuaded to enter4 ,some who passed1 complained that they could not retain knowledge which had been acquired too rapidly and not assimilated4 ,not avowedly1 not ever consciously to herself--her sense of responsibility for the individual was too great for that1 and she reckoned the training of value even if there were no success at the end--but in actual fact1 the failures were accepted by ,dorothea ,beale as a necessary complement of victory to be4 #8,let the victors when they come1 ,when the forts of folly fall1 ,find thy body by the wall6' ,all the weakness of the position was known to her4 ,and she showed not only courage and daring1 but patience and humility still harder to practise4 ,on one occasion1 after a specially difficult ,latin paper1 which had proved too much for many examinees1 she wrote to another head-mistress whose disappointment was as keen as her own3-- #8,the more ,i reflect1 the more ,i think any protest unadvisable4 ,no doubt some have passed 7even in ,class ,i47 in former years1 who were worse in ,latin than one at least who has failed this time4 ,but then there are many things that may be urged4 ,perhaps the good have not done themselves justice1 and the bad more than justice4 ,besides1 ,i cannot myself1 even in looking over one set of papers1 unless ,i correct all at a sitting1 mark them fairly even to my own mind2 how much more difficult it must be when the examiners change1 and the papers come in after a year's interval4 ,we1 by submitting ourselves to examination1 pledge ourselves in some sort to be content4 ,it will never do1 in my opinion1 to impugn the justice of a ,university1 and ,i really think they will do justice4 ,any expression of discontent would tend to throw back the granting of degrees4 ,i believe the unification is more likely to take place soon1 if we are patient4 ,remember1 too1 the decision has not been that of one individual examiner1 but has been in some sort confirmed by the ,senate4 #8,my impression is that the papers will be very carefully set next year1 and that we must bear our disappointment this year as well as we can4 ,i am very sorry you feel it so much4 ,your candidates have done so well in other subjects1 that if they should try again next year1 you might be certain of a large measure of success1 and then a protest1 or any remarks from us would tell so much more4 ,i certainly do not mean to send in a large number1 but ,i am pledged to a few1 and to those who failed1 if they like to go in again4' ,this conclusion showed special insight1 willingness to bear1 and readiness to learn2 for the ,latin paper was a far more real test of knowledge than any of the others4 ,to have complained of it might have been to acknowledge inferiority which did not seek improvement4 ,and looking back1 it may be seen that the failures and mistakes were not of much moment4 ,the real importance and the real triumph lay with the aim and effort4 ,miss ,beale early foresaw what has been literally fulfilled4 #8,it is clear1' she said1 #8that it will before long be impossible in ,england1 as it is now on the ,continent1 for any one to obtain employment as a teacher without some such attestation1' i4e4 as a certificate4 ,if she could help it1 ,miss ,beale would not let girls who were intending to teach1 pass from her without one2 she persuaded the pupil1 she reasoned with the parent1 she frequently mastered both2 she silently bore contradiction and misconception4 ,she refused to be thwarted by any obstacle1 much as she might wish to change it--such as the time of year at which it was held1 the difficulty of sending candidates to ,london1 or by any hesitation on her own part4 ,she might write to a newspaper1 #8it is to some extent an open question what education is most suitable for girls1' but she inspired her class to prepare for #8the ,london' with zealous drudgery and in the power of self-denial1 as the best they could do to fit themselves for work4 ,yet the ,college list of successes was from the first good4 ,in #ahfi1 the first year of examination1 eight in all ,england went in for the matriculation examination1 and six failed4 ,the only candidate from ,cheltenham passed4 ,this was ,miss ,susan ,wood4 ,in the next year1 of the three who passed from ,cheltenham one was the famous ,greek scholar1 ,miss ,jane ,harrison1 another bore the name--so dear to its generation--of ,marian ,belcher4 ,there was plenty of criticism4 ,there were many to repeat the old complaint that women were being unfitted for their proper duties4 ,it was ,miss ,beale's delight to show that those who did well in examinations could also excel in domestic duties4 ,she would tell how one successful candidate of the ,london examination proved first a helpful sister1 then a devoted wife and mother4 ,she would show with pride a letter she received from one of whose ability and success she had great reason to be proud1 signed #8,yours in flour and dripping4' ,it may be mentioned here that there is a home distinction connected with the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham4 ,in #ahfh it was resolved at an annual general meeting that pupils who reached a certain specified standard in the ,college examinations1 and whose general conduct was approved1 should be entitled to receive certificates4 ,the first certificates under this resolution were awarded in #ahfi to four pupils4 ,in #ahge it was resolved at a ,council meeting that those who obtained the ,college certificate should be entitled ,associates of the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham4 ,these associates are1 with the consent of the ,lady ,principal1 allowed to attend any ordinary classes of the ,college without the payment of fees4 ,following hard upon the introduction of public examinations for girls came the cry of overwork4 ,there was some reason in it2 but it was much1 very much due to timidity and want of knowledge1 as well as to exaggeration4 ,it is not necessary to repeat here the evidence which ,miss ,beale began to collect even before she was a teacher herself1 and to which she was ever adding1 to the effect that idleness and ennui have more and sadder victims than even misdirected energy and overwork4 ,a healthy prejudice against an empty1 self-centred life is steadily growing4 ,the movement which its followers have named ,christian ,science--also that which is preferably called ,faith ,healing--daily bring to light instances of self-destruction caused by the slothful mind and unruled will4 ,none the less1 the cry of overwork was not an empty one4 ,when first girls began to work for examinations1 it was not known how much or how little they could do4 ,miss ,beale's own opinions upon this1 as put before the ,commission1 were quite tentative4 ,clever teachers did not always allow for slower-moving brains than their own4 ,nor was the difference of temperament sufficiently observed and considered4 ,the eager and artistic mind would feel strain and fatigue where one less delicately balanced might toil unwearied4 ,it was not recognised how willing girls are to be pressed1 how eager they are to please1 how unreasonable they often are in their own arrangements for work1 or how easy it is for them to fall into the insincerity of making protracted hours of reading take the place of concentrated mental effort4 ,head-mistresses and others who had mastered difficulties alone1 and who still carefully prepared every lesson they gave1 in spite of the pressure of daily affairs1 had to learn to reckon with these drawbacks4 ,examinations when first introduced must from their very novelty have been a great anxiety to both teachers and pupils4 ,the best way of working for them and of resting before them had to be discovered by experience4 ,the pressure was less obvious with those actually first in the field1 as they would naturally be all of good ability4 ,the danger began when girls of smaller brain-power and equal ambition1 but ignorant of their limitations1 dared to follow4 ,complaints of overwork came often from homes where there was little cultivation or regard for the things of the mind4 ,girls who could produce1 in what they called their #8notes of lectures1' statements concerning #8heroic cutlets'#dd and #8,lincoln's hotel'#de had not1 it may be well understood1 much intellectual background4 ,yet the wholly unfounded complaints of the parents of such pupils would receive public attention that was little deserved4 ,there were others1 whose parents would have had them play a pretty part in home life in the afternoon and evening1 but who naturally did not find enough time for lessons unless they sat up late or slurred them over4 ,as it was never ,miss ,beale's intention that day-pupils should consider themselves to be anything but #8in the schoolroom1' the home work was not arranged to allow time for more than the necessary walk or recreation4 ,the question of overwork is one that still agitates the scholastic world4 ,the real difficulty1 at ,cheltenham as elsewhere1 is not with the schoolgirl whose life is under supervision1 but with the young teachers and the elder pupils who have the management of their own time and health1 and have not yet learned their own limitations1 or acquired a due measure of self-control4 ,during the early period of the history of the ,college1 ,miss ,beale came in contact with minds and ideas outside her own school1 chiefly by means of the ,schools' ,inquiry ,commission1 and the matter of public examinations4 ,those who wished had the opportunity of learning her views through her magazine articles and the pamphlets which she began at this time to publish4 ,the most notable of these was #8,the ,address to ,parents4' ,much of this valuable little paper--one which in her early years as head-mistress made ,miss ,beale's ideas widely known among those who cared for real education--had been anticipated in her address to the ,social ,science ,congress in #ahfe4 ,then she pleaded the cause of day-schools1 urging for them that they offered a training which did not separate children from the influence of home4 #8,of course when children are educated at home1 and an anxious mother daily sees and suffers from her children's faults of temper and disposition1 she will be tempted to think that she had better give up the training into other hands1 and send them away4 ,doubtless this is sometimes wise1 often unavoidable2 but how frequently without necessity is the burden of parental responsibility temporarily cast aside1 only to press with tenfold weight in later years4 ,how many parents have learned bitterly to regret that they removed a daughter from the divinely appointed influences of home1 and severed by long separation those bonds of affection which might have checked the young in the hour of temptation1 and been the support and comfort of their own declining years4' ,in #ahfi1 in another address to the same ,society1 ,miss ,beale unfolded for the first time her ideas of the help which should be given to girls who were in need of education they could not afford1 more especially to those who wished to prepare for a life of teaching4 #8,i propose1' she said1 #8the foundation of a new ,benevolent ,society1 which shall be distinguished from other societies by its rigid adherence to the principle of giving nothing away4' ,instead of gifts1 she suggested yearly loans of money1 for the use of which an exact account and report of work done should be rendered4 ,this ,society has never been founded1 but the work ,dorothea ,beale wished it should do was carried on by herself1 quietly and thriftily1 but with ever-widening operations1 to the day of her death4 ,at one other point did ,miss ,beale at this period touch opinion outside her own sphere4 ,this was by writing for the ,kensington ,society1--a little semi-educational association which during its short life included many names of women who were in their day leaders in philanthropic work and thought4 ,the topics on which its members wrote or deliberated were such as these3-- #ag ,,cunningham ,,place1 ,,london1 ,n4,w41 ,november #ae1 #ahfe4 ,the ,kensington ,society4 #a4 ,what are the limitations within which it is desirable to exercise personal influence8 #b4 ,what are the evils attendant upon philanthropic efforts among the poor1 and how may they be avoided8 #c4 ,how does the cultivation of artistic taste affect the wellbeing of society8 ,meanwhile the general work of the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham1 was going on quietly and steadily1 developing in every best way4 ,the valuable time of the ,principal was no longer taken up with the superintendence of lessons and chaperoning music pupils4 ,a larger and gradually improving staff enabled her to arrange her own work so that it might be of the greatest service to the ,college4 ,but her increasing interest in education at large1 her ever-growing sense of having a special place in a large movement1 were never allowed to distract her mind from the work of the hour4 ,rather1 she used them as an inspiration for daily drudgery4 ,the preparation of lessons1 the minute and careful correction of notes of lectures1--monotonous work which demands a continuous strain of attention1 went on week by week4 ,by means of this quiet1 diligent toil she and her fellow-workers were building the real ,college1 of which the fine structure whose first edition was opened in #ahgc is but a sign and a symbol4 ,,chapter ,,viii ,,organisation #8,shepherds of the people had need know the ,calendar of ,tempests in the ,state2 which are commonly greatest when things grow to equality1 as natural tempests about the equinoctia4'--,,bacon4 #8,with no feeling of exultation should we meet to-day1 my children4 ,those of us who have long laboured at the work are indeed grateful that we have been permitted to see its accomplishment1 but we are also deeply sensible that every increase of influence means an increase of responsibility2--that he who had five talents was required to bring other five4 ,with larger numbers there is a stronger sense that we are a collective power for good or evil4 ,and shall we doubt which is stronger8 ,we dare not be so faithless4 ,there is such a mighty prevailing power in the spirit of earnest devotion1 that when only two or three are gathered together in ,his ,name1 for work as well as for prayer1 ,his power is felt4 ,what a power might we be for good if we were ,his disciples indeed4 #8,some say our school is ,church-like4 ,i am glad1 for ,churches are built to remind us that ,god is not far away1 but very near to us1 and this is the thought which should keep us from evil and fill us with gladness4 ,may ,his ,presence be seen in this house1 seen in the lives and hearts of ,his children3 ,may they remember that they1 too1 form one spiritual building4 ,as each stone stands here in its appointed place1 resting on one stone1 supporting others2 so are we a little community1 a spiritual building2 each is placed in her own niche1 each has her appointed place1 appointed by the ,spiritual ,architect2 each is needful for the perfection of ,his design4 #8,may we ever form part of that spiritual building1 whose foundations are laid in faith and obedience4 8,whoso heareth these sayings of mine and doeth them1 he is like a man who laid the foundation and digged deep1 and built his house upon a rock40 ,st4 ,john wished for one of his converts that he might 8prosper even as his soul prospered40 ,let us desire only such prosperity4 ,let us ask for true wisdom1 for lowliness of heart1 that we may esteem others better than ourselves4 ,let us ask1 above all1 for that most excellent gift of charity1 without which all else is as sounding brass1 or a tinkling cymbal4 ,something of this spirit of love for one another does live among us1 as we see by those who have come to join their prayers with ours to-day4 ,i would ask them not to forget us afterwards1 but to remember us when they return to their homes2 and ,i would fain hope that this bond will last through coming years1 and that the ,college1 though transplanted to a new place1 will always be to you 8the old ,college40' ,in these words the ,lady ,principal addressed her staff1 pupils1 and a small sprinkling of friends on the first morning of assembling in the new building which1 begun in ,january of previous year1 was thus opened on ,march #ag1 #ahgc4 ,as the school hours ended on ,saturday the #aeth1 a simple order had been given to take home all the books1 and to bring them to the new ,college at the usual time on ,monday4 ,in the course of the afternoon all desks and portable fittings were moved and arranged in order for work4 ,the appointment of places in the new hall was1 so far as can be remembered1 a matter of a few minutes only1 so quiet and free from fuss was all ,college organisation4 ,there was certainly not half an hour of the ordinary lesson time lost4 ,yet it was a change which made an undying impression4 ,the quietness with which it came was wholly in accordance with the spirit of the school4 ,the regular work1 undisturbed even for an hour by the totally new surroundings1 spoke emphatically of the response of duty to every fresh inspiration and larger freedom4 ,and how beautiful those new surroundings seemed to the hundred and fifty girls who were privileged to experience the change from the square1 unadorned rooms of ,cambray ,house4 ,two churches at that time1 one with its high1 fine spire1 another with its lavish decoration1 were all that the town could show of the ,gothic ,renaissance which followed the teachings of ,ruskin and ,morris4 ,the ,ladies' ,college was early among non-ecclesiastical buildings of this type4 ,to some it may have seemed florid1 but not to the eyes of youth and hope1 which took delight in the pierced and patterned stone1 the flowers in the coloured glass1 the arch of the windows1 the unusual design of the lecture-rooms4 ,these caused teachers and pupils to ignore for the most part the undoubted chilliness of the new rooms1 and the #8currents of air1' about which some parents wrote complaining letters1 for at that time people were even more afraid of draughts than they are to-day4 ,it is worth mentioning1 as characteristic of ,miss ,beale's mind1 that she forgot very soon the exact date of entrance into the new ,college2 though when reminded of it each year by her own birthday1 or by the approach of spring and ,lady ,day1 she would on some suitable ,march morning say a few words at prayers3 #8,it is ---- years to-day since we entered1' etc4 ,in #ahgc the building was but begun4 ,it is a question if ,miss ,beale herself dreamed of all that was to follow4 ,there was as yet no house for the ,lady ,principal1 and for a year1 while it was being built1 she lived with ,mrs4 ,fraser1 who had one of the three boarding-houses then existing4 ,the house completed in #ahgd1 there followed in #ahge the first enlargement of the ,college1 the two hundred and twenty pupils for whom it was first designed having rapidly become three hundred4 ,at this time a second large hall and more classrooms were added4 ,in seven years the ,college had doubled its numbers2 hence in #ahhb were built the art and music wings and the kindergarten rooms1 to be followed almost immediately by science rooms and laboratories4 ,after this the sound of the hammer was not heard for nearly four years2 but it is one which has a resounding echo in the memories of ,college life4 ,there were a few peaceful half-hours when it was stopped for ,scripture lessons1 at all other times it was but a too persistent reminder of prosperity and growth4 ,a memory also abides of crowded doorways and passages1 overfull lecture-rooms1 and a continual looking forward to the increased accommodation which each new enlargement would give4 ,this constant expansion as funds permitted was entirely after ,miss ,beale's heart4 ,in #ahia she wrote to ,miss ,arnold3-- #8,yes1 ,i do hope you will build1 a good building is the best investment for money1 if you have it4 ,let it be done gradually1 as ours was4 ,plan for more than you can do at first1 and build only what you can afford at the time4 ,don't beg3 it is much better to earn one's living4' ,strange as it may appear1 the building of a fit home for the ,college had not taken place without opposition4 ,miss ,beale relates in her ,history that after the site for it had been purchased1 the annual general meeting of proprietors in #ahga voted by a majority interested in the ,cambray property that it should be re-sold4 ,dr4 ,jex-,blake1 the ,principal of the ,cheltenham ,college1 and a member of the ,ladies' ,college ,council1 came to the rescue1 and in a special meeting of the same year spoke earnestly in support of the plan for building4 #8,teachers so able and energetic and successful have a right to the greatest consideration1 and the very best arrangements for teaching4 ,a ,ladies' ,college so distinguished1 second to none in ,england1 has a right to every advantage that can be secured for it1 a right to be lodged in a building of its own1 a building perfect in its internal arrangements1 and outwardly of some architectural attractiveness2 one that should be a ,college1 and should look like a ,college4 ,it is quite right to say1 8,let well alone10 but that does not involve letting ill alone4 ,the ,college has achieved brilliant success1 but that was not due to its having been cramped for room2 and when no longer cramped1 its success will be greater4' ,the resolution of the earlier meeting was rescinded by fifty-nine votes to nine1 and two months later a contract was accepted for building from ,mr4 ,john ,middleton's design4 ,the site1 for which #hjj was given1 was a part of the old ,well ,walk where1 between their glasses1 ,george the ,third and other famous water-drinkers had once taken their daily constitutional4 ,in the matter of the building1 ,miss ,beale had a struggle to get her bold and comprehensive ideas carried out1 but eventually she won the day4 ,it was hard for her1 at the very moment when she seemed about to realise her dreams for the expansion of the work of the ,college1 to receive orders which she felt to be new limitations4 ,she had constantly to explain her reasons and requirements to those who had a deep interest in the welfare of the school1 but who had not also the knowledge needed for arrangements which ,miss ,beale felt and intended should be in the hands of the ,principal alone4 ,the following letter which she wrote to a member of the ,council suggests some of her difficulties1 and also her method of skilfully and apparently accidentally stating the inconvenience or disaster which would ensue if another arrangement than her own were adopted3-- #8,i have drawn up a ground-plan and tables1 by the help of which ,i hope ,i may succeed in making clear to you the impossibility of conducting the ,college without the use of four class-rooms4 ,i have never in the slightest degree departed from my original intention4 ,time-tables1 classes1 teachers1 furniture1 and building were all arranged to harmonise4 ,it never occurred to me that any one would wish to interfere in the internal management1 as it had never been done during the fifteen years ,i have been here4 ,great1 therefore1 was my surprise to receive a letter saying1--8,i have had strict injunctions not to have desks put back into room #b40 ,if it is thought well to reduce the number of pupils1 it can be done after ,midsummer but not now1 and to give up two class-rooms we must reduce our numbers not by twenty1 but by fifty1 i4e4 by two whole classes4 ,our ,hall is only ten feet longer than that in ,cambray1 and we then had the use of four class-rooms and one supplementary room1 besides that assigned to ,drawing and ,callisthenics4 ,with fifty additional pupils we cannot do with less1 even though the class-rooms are larger4 ,it is not impossible to teach a class sitting on chairs1 ,i should not1 therefore1 insist on having desks1 but they will certainly be much more convenient1 and much more sightly2 chairs will always look untidy4 ,the desks ,i have match the furniture1 the room was built to fit them1 for examinations4 ,i am therefore unwilling to have them sold for nothing4 ,it is certainly necessary for the well-being of the ,college that the internal arrangements should be in the hands of one person2 if this is not done1 ,i can only foresee the occurrence of such disasters as we are familiar with1 when the ,head ,master of a public school is interfered with by those who cannot see the daily working1 and know all the complications4' ,the new building was not the only cause of difference4 ,the ,lady ,principal1 with her advanced ideas on women's examinations1 her desire to help teachers1 to increase the number of the pupils1 seemed to some members of the ,council to be pushing the work into other fields than those for which it was intended when first the ,proprietary ,college for ,ladies was founded4 #8,local interest1' a term not ominous of good in the ears of great educators1 demanded a good day-school for the daughters of gentlemen1 and nothing more4 ,some felt that1 in the pursuit of mathematical and scientific attainments for which special teachers and classrooms were required1 accomplishments such as drawing and painting would be neglected4 ,some1 who had watched the growth of the infant ,college1 and looked upon it almost as their own1 interfered in small ways1 as in the arrangements of seats and rooms4 ,the gossip mentioned already was at its height during the first year in the new ,college1 and ,miss ,beale thought that it might have been prevented or much minimised had all connected followed her counsel of perfection by being superior to town talk4 ,more than all she felt the need of a larger outlook4 ,the ,council should in her view include some members whose personal acquaintance with the ,college and the needs of the town would give them a special interest in it2 but she desired to unite with these men and women of intellectual power and large views whose experience would rank them among educationists4 ,and for the management of the boarding-houses1 which were now becoming each year a more important element in the ,college life1 opinion which could be untouched by local prejudices was needed4 ,some of the anxieties of this time were expressed by ,miss ,beale in a paper which she may have thought of reading to the ,council4 ,it began thus3-- #8,until we moved into the new ,college a year ago1 ,i had been singularly free from interference4 ,the lesson learned when ,miss ,procter resigned and our ,college was nearly wrecked1 had not been forgotten4 ,besides1 we were poor1 so there was little to quarrel about4 ,with the removal to ,bays ,hill our real difficulties began4 ,i had drawn the ground-plan with the greatest regard to economy of space4 ,i was told the porch must not be used for entrance1 and ,i was obliged to show we could not do without it4444 ,then ,i was asked to do with two instead of four or five lecture-rooms1 and so on4 ,i was obliged to prepare elaborate documents with ground-plans1 etc41 ere ,i could get leave to use the space provided1 and without which the ,college could not be carried on4' ,there were perhaps others who cared for the ,college1 who realised no less strongly than ,miss ,beale the advantage it would be to bring on to the ,council those who were less interested in it as a local institution than as one of educational value for the country at large1 but it was she who undoubtedly took the lead in the steps made to this end4 ,in this she showed courage1 for even those members of the ,council who best understood her views hesitated to support them1 fearing an abrupt change which would do more harm than good4 ,they wrote to caution her3-- #8,you must not expect men of ,mr4 ,lowe's mark to work on the ,c4,l4,c4 ,council2 and you must not expect to see all go as you would wish at the meeting4 ,you will find no member of ,council but myself anxious to increase the powers of the ,lady ,principal1 and probably they will not be much increased4 ,and if you secure the majority of ,council being non-local1 which will be hard to secure1 you will not secure their attendance at meetings held out of ,london4 #8,and to get a satisfactory ,list to propose to ,shareholders will be hard1 for the best-known men in ,england will not join2 and those who will join will not command votes largely2 and so ,i advise moderation4 ,i did my best at this last ,council meeting to prepare the way for a 8bloodless revolution0 or quiet transition 444 and ,i have seen ,mr4 ,verrall4 ,he is very friendly to you and to the ,college1 and is a man of very good judgment as well as energy1 and you are safe in talking or writing to him4 ,for myself ,i feel less and less inclined to advise strong measures2 and ,i do not see my way to getting the ,college on as broad a basis as ,i think it should stand on4444 ,i advise you to think well and long before you get into an inextricable difficulty2 and ,i think you will find your best friend and best support in one who for fifteen years 7or nearly7 has given much time and thought to the ,college1 ,mr4 ,brancker4 #8,at the last ,council meeting you showed great wisdom in accepting the adverse ,resolution with equanimity4' ,differences of this kind pointed to a change of administration4 ,as early as #ahfe1 in her address at ,bristol1 ,miss ,beale had pointed out the difficulties besetting a school organised on the lines of ,cheltenham3-- #8,the machinery of proprietary colleges is somewhat complicated1 and it is liable to get out of order4 ,thus1 for example1 if the shareholders agitate when a measure does not at once commend itself to their judgment1 they may interfere with the efficiency1 and endanger the existence of the institution4 ,secondly1 none must attempt to carry out reforms in education1 unless they have faith enough in their own system to work on quietly for a time1 in the face of popular opposition1 and unless they have a capital to fall back upon4' ,union for the general good--a single purpose in ,principal1 ,council1 shareholders alike--this alone could prevent all serious and hindering differences of opinion among them4 ,it was for this union ,miss ,beale was specially striving now4 ,her paper to the ,council went on thus3-- #8 444 ,i should like this and other matters fixed1 not in reference to my personal wishes1 but according to what the most experienced persons think best4 ,i shall see the ,heads of all the principal ,girls' ,schools probably when ,i am in ,london1 and probably also an ,endowed ,schools' ,committee1 and ,i shall learn from ,mrs4 ,william ,grey what has been done at the ,board of the ,girls' ,day ,school ,company2 perhaps this may modify my views4 ,meanwhile ,i enclose a few suggestions ,i sent to ,mr4 ,verrall4444 ,i feel very strongly with you that if the ,college is at all to go on doing good work1 it must not be governed by local members1 and that it is a matter of the greatest importance that we should have upon our ,board men of experience and judgment in educational matters4 ,i would not keep more than two or three members of the present ,council4 ,it should be made a rule that no person who derives pecuniary profit1 either directly or indirectly1 should be a member of it4 ,the point on which ,i feel most strongly just now is that the ,principal must be able to select her fellow-workers1 to appoint and dismiss4' ,there is also an interesting letter to ,mr4 ,verrall on the subject of her authority3-- #8,of course1 you are more likely than ,i am to know what is best in matters of government1 still ,i think it may be well to express1 as clearly as ,i can1 what ,i feel in reference to the subject of my authority4 #8,it does not seem to me as if things would be likely to go on long without revolutions in an institution governed by two irresponsible powers4 ,the authority of an irresponsible ,principal must of course be checked in some way1 if not by constitutional means1 then by a ,russian system4 ,it may be that the ,czarina has been trying to carry out some good reforms1 but if her plans differ from those of the ,councillors1 there is an end of them4 ,our present ,councillors are now afraid of being in their turn made an end of by a shareholders' meeting1 but if the constitution1 as ,i understood it1 were carried1 the shareholders would be powerless1 and the ,council might1 for mere personal dislike1 get rid of a ,principal who opposed what was wrong4 ,of course1 it will not do for a ,committee to interfere with the ,principal's choice of teachers1 and there will be anarchy unless she has the power of dismissal2 but virtually there will always be a power of appeal to the ,committee inasmuch as they would1 if partisans of any official1 dismiss the ,principal to reinstate her4' ,many members of the ,college ,council desired change and enlargement4 ,one wrote3 #8,i cannot think it right to leave ,miss ,beale or any other ,lady ,principal to the mercies of a purely local ,council 444 for ,i think with such a ,council no good ,lady ,principal could long agree4' ,among those whom ,miss ,beale consulted at this crisis1 and from whom she received sympathy1 were ,dr4 ,jex-,blake1 then head-master of ,rugby1 and ,sir ,joshua ,fitch1 who later on became a member of the ,council4 ,the desired reform was brought about in #ahge1 when at a general meeting in ,march the relative powers of the proprietors1 ,council1 and ,principal were more clearly defined and the number of the governing body increased4 ,the ,council then elected consisted of the following3-- ,,life ,,members ,the ,right ,hon4 ,earl ,granville1 ,k4,g41 ,d4,c4,l41 ,f4,r4,s41 ,chancellor of the ,university of ,london4 ,the ,right ,hon4 ,lord ,lyttelton4 ,the ,right ,hon4 ,sir ,edward ,ryan1 ,m4,a41 ,f4,r4,s4 ,j4 ,storrar1 ,esq41 ,m4,d41 ,chairman of ,convocation of the ,university of ,london4 ,the ,rev4 ,h4 ,walford ,bellairs1 ,rector of ,nuneaton4 ,the ,rev4 ,canon ,barry1 ,principal of ,king's ,college1 ,london4 ,miss ,buss1 ,principal of the ,north ,london ,collegiate ,school for ,girls4 ,w4 ,dunn1 ,esq41 ,cheltenham4 ,h4 ,verrall1 ,esq41 ,brighton4 ,t4 ,marriott1 ,esq41 ,victoria ,street1 ,westminster4 ,s4 ,s4 ,johnson1 ,esq41 ,nottingham4 ,,ordinary ,,members ,the ,rev4 ,herbert ,kynaston1 ,principal of the ,cheltenham ,college4 ,the ,rev4 ,w4 ,wilberforce ,gedge1 ,malvern ,wells4 ,the ,rev4 ,dr4 ,morton ,brown1 ,cheltenham4 ,e4 ,t4 ,wilson1 ,esq41 ,m4,b4 7,oxon471 ,cheltenham4 ,general ,m',causland1 ,cheltenham4 ,f4 ,d4 ,longe1 ,esq41 ,cheltenham4 ,john ,middleton1 ,esq41 ,cheltenham4 ,t4 ,morley ,rooke1 ,esq41 ,m4,d4 7,london71 ,cheltenham4 ,miss ,mary ,gurney1 ,london4 ,miss ,lucy ,march ,phillipps1 ,cheltenham4 ,mrs4 ,james ,owen1 ,cheltenham4 ,miss ,catherine ,winkworth1 ,clifton4 ,much was gained by this remodelling1 but the period of uneasy development was not yet over4 ,one annual meeting which discussed the constitution of the ,college appears in private notes made by the ,principal for her ,history as #8,bear ,garden4' ,reorganisation was seen to be essential4 ,the ,college1 founded in #ahec as a voluntary association1 had by #ahhj grown far beyond the calculations of its founders4 ,besides the school buildings and the ,lady ,principal's house1 it possessed ,fauconberg ,house and the sanatorium at ,leckhampton4 ,to give it a safe legal foundation it was therefore registered #8with limited liability' under the ,companies' ,acts of #ahfb and #ahfg1 without the addition of the word #8limited' to its name4 ,new regulations concerning the holding of shares and property--the appointment of officers--were also made4 #8,the ,shareholders formally renounced all interest on their shares1 and on ,january #ca1 #ahhj1 the ,college was duly incorporated4 ,on ,may #a of the same year1 the ,lady ,principal and other officials were formally re-elected4 #8,the new ,constitution provided for a ,governing ,body of twenty-four ,members1 of whom eighteen1 namely twelve men and six women1 were to be ,members elected by the ,shareholders1 and the remaining six ,representative ,members1 each holding office for six years4 ,the six ,representative ,members were to be appointed by3 7#a7 ,the ,bishop of ,gloucester and ,bristol2 7#b7 ,the ,hebdomadal ,council of the ,university of ,oxford2 7#c7 ,the ,council of the ,senate of the ,university of ,cambridge2 7#d7 ,the ,senate of the ,university of ,london2 7#e7 ,the ,lady ,principal2 and 7#f7 ,the ,teachers4 ,miss ,beale did not often speak of the difficulties which necessarily she had to meet1 as one called upon to direct the development of a great institution4 ,but she had counsel and sympathy for those who were similarly placed4 ,miss ,buss wrote thus to ,miss ,ridley of help she obtained from her3-- #8,i had a long and grave talk to ,miss ,beale1 who counsels fight1 but not on any personal ground4 ,she says1 8,resign1 if there is interference with the mistress' liberty of action4 ,that is a public question1 and one of public interest40 ,she was so good and loving2 she was so tender2 and she is so wise and calm4 ,she told me some of her own worries1 and said that sometimes she quivered in every nerve at her own ,council meetings4 ,people came in and asked for information1 involving hours of work for no result2 ignored all that had been done1 and talked as if they alone had done everything and knew everything4 ,she urged me to try and be impersonal1 so to speak2 to remember that these and similar difficulties would always occur where there are several people4 ,she said that women were always accused of being too personal1 and harm was done by giving a handle to such an assertion4'#df ,the first efforts of the new ,council to grapple with their task revealed that one source of difficulty lay in the government of the boarding-houses4 ,the early founders had foreseen this when1 in their first prospectus1 they announced that they would not be responsible for any houses4 ,experience1 however1 soon showed that by this policy1 grave dangers were at the same time incurred4 ,into ,miss ,beale's early struggle for pupils the question of boarding-houses scarcely entered1 though for the want of them she often had sadly to witness the loss of good pupils to the ,college4 ,there were among the day-pupils many children of ,anglo-,indians in ,england for a time4 ,on the return of these parents to ,india1 they were forced to make boarding arrangements for the children left behind4 ,it was not till #ahfd that the first regularly constituted boarding-house was opened under ,miss ,caines4 ,this was at #bd ,lansdown ,place1 now joined to ,no4 #be1 and known as ,st4 ,helen's4 ,in #ahgj ,miss ,caines removed to ,fauconberg ,house1 the first property purchased by the ,college4 ,it was only through actual experience that the position of the boarding-house and its head could be defined4 ,in point of fact1 this situation had to grow and develop according to the requirements of the ,college1 which as formerly had to constitute precedents and make experiments4 ,it is but seldom that the details of any great scheme can be arranged beforehand with deliberate judgment1 that all difficulties can be foreseen1 and occasions of conflict avoided4 ,they are more often worked out by single-minded intention which can endure through small errors and trifling disputes4 ,the ,lady ,principal's position was rendered more difficult by the tacit opposition of #8local interest' to the extension of boarding-house accommodation4 ,the very existence of the ,college had been for many years precarious4 ,few people in ,cheltenham wished it to become anything more than a suitable day-school for the sisters of boys at the ,college4 ,consequently a lady who took boarders was regarded with no special favour1 and her actions were very often severely criticised4 ,in the difficult work of forming and increasing boarding-houses1 mistakes were made by many4 ,miss ,beale's own belief in others1 her habit of accepting people at their own estimate1 of believing they were what she wished them to be1 of judging character from her wide experience of books rather than from that of life1 sometimes led her astray in her choice of fellow-workers4 ,she who in her lonely position often felt the need of sympathy1 to which she was ever responsive1 was anxious to give it1 even where she could not understand4 ,this made her slow to bring about a change1 lest sufficient opportunity for amendment had not been given4 ,on the other hand1 sometimes she could see that a change should be made promptly1 but as she could not act alone a dangerous delay would ensue4 ,at first the position of a head of a boarding-house was little defined1 and it was hard sometimes for a clever1 well-intentioned woman1 anxious to do the best for the children in her care1 not to regard the work of the house as primary1 that of the ,college as secondary only4 ,one lady1 who was extremely capable and interested in her work1 was ambitious to make her boarding-house a complete institution in itself1 rather than an integral part of the ,college4 ,many of the girls in her charge came as her own relations or friends2 she chose to adopt the position that it was right for her to decide whether they should be taught at her house or sent to ,college1 and she denied the right of any one to interfere in her management4 ,she also claimed the right to take another house for herself and her own children1 where she could receive and entertain her friends4 ,as soon as ,miss ,beale's eyes were opened to the danger of such independent action1 she did not hesitate a moment on the right course to be pursued with regard to the boarding-house management4 ,she perceived that in this matter1 as in the work of the school1 there was no standing ground between obedience and independence4 #8,i am so sorry for ,miss ,beale1' wrote ,mrs4 ,william ,grey to ,miss ,buss1 #8and so glad our ,council determined to have nothing to do with ,boarding-,houses4 ,i cannot help thinking that the wisest course for the ,cheltenham ,council would be to wash their hands of them1 only reserving to themselves1 as we have1 the right to refuse pupils from a house they disapprove of4 ,there seems to me no tolerable alternative between this and the hostelry system4' ,it may be safely said that never1 even in moments of worst annoyance1 did ,miss ,beale ever propose to #8wash her hands' of the boarding-houses4 ,she felt they should be #8organically related' to the ,college life1 a part of it which she could not do without1 one which had in it great possibilities for extending and strengthening the influence of the ,college teaching1 one which1 neglected1 must be an infinite source of difficulty1 by which the standard of the corporate life might be lowered1 and its best work hindered4 ,so she persisted1 lending her whole mind and strength to help in the evolution of a system which should be fair to individuals and the best for the ,college as a body4 ,in #ahij1 after she had won her point1 she wrote to ,miss ,arnold1 then head-mistress of the ,truro ,high ,school1 who had consulted her on the subject3-- #8,i think ,i told you that after many years1 ,i have prevailed on our ,council to take the whole risk of the boarding-houses1--the pecuniary risk is of course very great1 and in case of war or sudden depression1 ,i don't exactly see how we should meet it1 but one must have risks1 and we find the moral risks of not taking pecuniary ones so great that we decided for the latter--and indeed we had to pay pretty considerable sums in law expenses and to get rid of unjust claims too4 ,we could not prove that these ladies had not lost money1 if they said they had--and if they were bad managers they did perhaps lose--and an outcry was raised that we ruined poor ladies6' ,but the difficulties to be encountered on the way to this consummation were by no means slight1 and involved great personal anxiety and pain4 ,it was especially hard to her that she should be known by her own pupils to be in opposition to any who had been set over them4 ,it was hard to feel that many with their partial knowledge of facts must misunderstand her1 or childishly attribute her actions to commonplace motives of jealousy and love of power4 ,some part of these difficulties became fully public in #ahhb1 when the ,college was involved in a libel case1 and a lawsuit which was settled by arbitration4 ,exoneration from all blame followed in both instances4 ,in the arbitration case the judgment was delivered by ,mr4 ,justice ,charles1 and placed in a sealed envelope with the injunction that either party might open it on payment of #cej4 ,the ,council did not think it necessary to pay this money4 ,eventually those who had brought the action against the ,college did so1 to find that the judgment had been pronounced against them on every count4 ,it was a victory for the ,college and the ,principal1 but it had not been achieved without great toil and suffering on ,miss ,beale's part4 ,she dreaded the cross-examination with all the nervousness of a sensitive nature4 ,speaking of it afterwards1 and of all it had cost her1 she ever associated with the pain the remembrance of the immense help and sympathy she had received from her friend ,mrs4 ,james ,owen1 then a member of the ,council1 and would say1 #8,mrs4 ,owen said ,i should not be scorched in the fire4' ,she was also upborne by the loyalty of her fellow-workers1 both teachers and boarding-house mistresses1 who signed a joint expression of their sympathy with her in her time of anxiety4 ,miss ,buss gave more than words of sympathy1 she was present herself in the arbitration-room when the case was tried4 ,when it was over she wrote to her friend to this effect3 #8,yesterday ,i made the personal acquaintance of ,miss ----4 ,i fell in love with her because she is so intensely loyal to ,cheltenham and to 8dear ,miss ,beale40 ,i think if you could have heard her talk1 unknown to her1 you would have felt that the severe trial you have had to go through was more than compensated for by the love and loyalty it has called out to you and the ,college4' ,the increase in the number of the boarding-houses1 with their slightly different characteristics1 brought an obvious advantage to the ,college4 ,it led the way to still cheaper houses1 and to the promotion of that work so dear always to ,miss ,beale1 helping poor students and training teachers4 ,never heartily sympathetic with what is generally called charitable work1 afraid of seeing money given without a really equivalent return in usefulness and good work1 there was one appeal to which she never turned a deaf ear4 ,probably she never knew any case of a girl honestly trying to improve herself1 and failing in the effort for want of means1 without trying to help her4 ,her usual plan was to advance money1 which she found was almost invariably returned to her in the course of time4 ,she would1 wherever it seemed right1 ask for its return on the ground that it might be of use to others1 and because she was ever careful to make those she helped recognise that the possession of money is a stewardship only4 ,but it was offered and lent and sometimes given in such a way that there should be no personal feeling of obligation and debt4 #8,there is a loan fund1' she would say when there occurred a question of the removal of a promising pupil from the ,college on the score of expense4 ,and hardly any one ever heard her say more than this of the large system of help which she initiated and to a very great extent sustained alone4 ,some of the boarding-house mistresses generously took one girl free1 or for very low terms1 but the work was quietly done1 known only to few4 ,the establishment of scholarships did not fit into ,miss ,beale's educational schemes4 ,she was not wholly opposed to them4 ,one1 in #ahgj1 was accepted for the ,college1 when ,colonel ,pearce bestowed a gift of #ajjj to found the ,pearce ,scholarship for the daughter of an army officer1 and ,miss ,beale in the last year of her life established one for ,casterton4 ,but she had a great horror of a system by which one school or college could buy promising pupils from others1 and she held that it was hard on earnest students who were not naturally quick to see assistance given only to ability4 #8,i have refused1' she said at a later period1 #8all scholarships except one1 the chief condition of which is poverty4 ,three scholarships have been offered unasked1 and an endowment for two prizes1 which would have formed a good advertisement1 every year1 but ,i have refused all4' ,as the ,college grew1 ,miss ,beale felt more and more the need of a house where those who were trying to train themselves to be teachers could board inexpensively1 and in #ahgf was made that beginning which1 as she said1 was #8full of blessing to the ,college1 and of much use beyond its bounds4' ,this was before the ,maria ,grey ,training ,college was opened1 and when there was no institution at all in which women could receive definite preparation for becoming teachers in secondary schools4 ,miss ,mary ,margaretta ,newman1 member of a family which had shown itself sympathetic and interested in ,miss ,beale's work from the first1 offered to take a furnished house for a small number of students1 to give her services1 and contribute besides #ge a year towards expenses4 ,miss ,newman had seen1 whilst helping ,miss ,selwyn in her school at ,sandwell1 how much some such assistance was needed2 how many girls of good social standing were struggling to obtain the training necessary to fit them to earn their living as teachers4 ,she therefore provided a home for a few1 and by her quiet1 gentle influence supplemented the ,college work1 and won the affections of her household4 #8,what we felt most was the simplicity with which she gave so much4 ,she seemed unconscious that she was doing anything remarkable in going to live in a small house1 with one servant1 and undertaking all the labour such an economy implied4'#dg ,miss ,newman's work went on for scarcely a year1 for at the end of #ahgg1 after a very short illness1 aggravated by the burden she had willingly laid upon herself1 she died1 leaving the work but just begun indeed1 yet full of promise1 and rendered by her sacrifice and death a sacred charge to the ,college and the ,lady ,principal4 ,so indeed ,miss ,beale felt it to be1 and in after years she would remember the life given in the cause she herself had so much at heart1 and would write in her diary on ,december #ca3 #8,i think of ,miss ,newman's death4 ,shall ,i not follow her example8' ,then for the first time ,miss ,beale1 who had always maintained and acted on the principle that the ,college should earn its own living1 asked for money to buy and furnish a suitable house for girls who could not afford the terms of the boarding-houses4 ,she could not bear to refuse the many applications she received from those who were too poor to help themselves4 ,about #abjj was immediately collected1 one half being contributed by the ,college staff4 ,the work thus begun extended so rapidly that in little more than five years it was seen to be necessary that it should have a building of its own1 and the trustees who had the management of the funds decided to build a residential ,college4 ,this was opened under the name of ,st4 ,hilda's in #ahhe4 ,the first ten years in the new buildings were a time of larger development for the ,college than any other in its history4 ,miss ,beale's own active life was also more full1 and not less anxious1 than it had ever been4 ,there was never again a time of depression such as the year #ahga had been1 when the ,college seemed to be almost losing ground1 when in the whole course of the year only three fresh pupils entered4 ,but the rapid increase on every hand of new1 good1 cheap schools naturally fed her anxiety at a period when she had to justify to the ,council her constant demand for more classrooms1 music-rooms1 halls1 laboratories4 ,she saw the immense importance of keeping ahead in these things4 ,other schools had endowments or guaranteed capital1 the ,college could only increase and improve its plant out of the fees paid by the pupils4 ,the ,lady ,principal did not wish it otherwise2 but the constant remembrance of this made her very careful in expenditure1 and ever desirous that all individual interest should be lost to sight in regard for the common welfare4 ,there was something sharper than anxiety to bear over the boarding-house difficulties and the reconstitution of the ,council4 ,so much patience was needed1 so much judgment in decisions1 in avoiding mistakes1 in retrieving them when made1 that time and thought might well have been occupied with the care of actualities alone4 ,yet it will not be surprising to some to know that it was just in these years that her inner life also became more full and more active1 and that she was called upon to go through mental crises of great moment4 ,the habit of prayer1 difficult to maintain in a busy life1 was strengthened by attendance at ,retreats2 a practice begun in #ahgg to be continued yearly4 ,reading of every kind1 with the exception of fiction1 was diligently kept up1 and thought was never more active4 ,the intellectual and spiritual struggles of this time permanently affected ,miss ,beale's work and teaching4 ,they cannot be passed over4 ,,chapter ,,ix ,,de ,,profundis #8,es sind die1 so viel erlitten ,trbsal1 ,schmerzen1 ,angst1 und ,noth1 ,im ,gebet auch oft gestritten ,mit dem hochgelobten ,gott4' ,,theodor ,,schenk4 ,dorothea ,beale--largely owing to her sensitive nature and high ideals--had had her full share of the sufferings and disappointments of youth4 ,and when she had gained the experience and habits of more mature years1 when she had schooled herself to bear1 when her position was assured1 when she was free to associate largely with those most sympathetic to her1 her zeal for the best ever caused a pressing sense of effort and strain4 ,certain commonplace troubles she had not known1 as1 for example1 the want of money--a need which in fact she never experienced1 and never really understood in others4 ,and on the whole her health had been good4 ,she regarded it as one of her first duties to consider this1 and except for the fact that she had an inherent indifference to the character of the food she ate1 the duty was not neglected4 ,but in #ahgh she was called upon to go through a period of weakness and anxiety which limited her powers for the time4 ,in spite of her great self-control she was obliged to relax a little1 to take more rest1 while the effort to preserve that self-control made her seem1 to some who knew nothing of it1 hard and unsympathetic4 ,very little indeed did she say of what she went through at this time1 because she thought it best for others that she should be reserved and silent on the subject4 ,the ,college and ,miss ,beale seemed to have a stability which could not be touched or changed1 and she knew the value of this characteristic to her work4 ,probably no one in the ,college1 and hardly any one outside it1 perhaps none except her sisters and ,miss ,clarke1 knew how near she was at this time to an absolute breakdown4 ,the diary1 still persistently kept1 continued to be little more than a record of struggle against particular faults2 yet here1 from an occasional word and expression1 the weariness and anxiety of the time may be gauged4 ,the year opened for ,miss ,beale with a special renewal of effort4 ,canon ,body's addresses at a ,retreat she attended in ,warrington ,crescent in the first days of ,january were full of inspiration to her4 ,this meant actively fresh effort1 keener self-scrutiny1 more watchfulness4 #8,i remember1' she wrote on ,january #bd1 the opening day of ,college1 #8,i remember with grief the many neglects of the past4 ,forsake me not1 neither reward me after my deserts4' ,the next few weeks show a pathetic struggle against a growing sense of weakness4 ,at first she blamed herself if duty was neglected1 then as she knew herself to be ill1 still felt that more might have been done1 refusing to take sickness as an excuse4 ,there are many living who were at ,college at this period1 and to them the picture of this effort and suffering going on in the background of all that then seemed unfailingly vital and positive must have a double interest1--increasing tenderness for the memory of her who for their sakes was bearing a daily burden of pain1 encouraging to fresh zeal by showing what a brave spirit may do even in weakness and depression4 ,a few extracts to show this follow3-- #8,jan4 #bf4 ,nothing of real work done since school1 and but little in the morning4 0 #ca4 ,inattentive4 ,spoke unkindly without cause4 ,irritable4 ,feb4 #c4 ,did not do best for literature class4 ,felt feeble and did not try as ,i ought4 0 #i4 ,there ought to be more industry in writing for ,saturday lectures4 ,the night cometh4 0 #aa4 ,i grieve for the stupid lesson ,i gave ,division ,,iii41 because not well prepared4 0 #ad4 ,still great waste of time4 ,how much have ,i to learn in this little time of life left to me4 0 #ae4 ,too much depressed1 feeling ,i can't4 ,perhaps more variety and exercise wanted4 ,certainly more trust and energy4 0 #af4 ,more than one hour wasted in idle thoughts1 #e-f ,a4,m41 and yet ,i have work for others which ,i ought to have thought of1 and lessons4 ,i deserve to be left without help4 ,evening4 ,not much matter or order in lessons4 ,tired and discontented with self4 ,neglect of books4 ,more trust and energy wanted4 0 #bf4 ,i have idled away precious time1 neglected individual work4 ,because my own will is weak1 ,i could not strengthen another4 0 #bg4 ,in bed all day4 ,there are duties still undone1 though ,i see death near4 0 #bh4 ,not in ,college4 ,much time wasted and ,i was disobedient to the voice of duty4 ,march #a4 ,still great waste of energy in idle thoughts4 ,talk of zeal but no religious work done to-day1 though there are so many individuals ,i am ever putting off4 0 #b4 ,omitted teachers' class1 which with less of idle thoughts ,i might have done4 0 #e4 ,too exhausted to do much4 ,give me true contrition for the past4 0 #f4 ,time not well used in afternoon4 ,letter to ,miss ,clarke4 0 #ad4 ,was ill last night4 ,almost no individual work4 0 #ae4 ,a little more work for my children to-day4 ,i thank ,thee for some help4 ,may ,i consecrate time and energies to ,thee4 0 #ag4 ,have not prayed well for to-morrow--was tired1 but did waste some time4 ,not attentive enough at ,church4444 ,surely to-day's negligence might humble me6 0 #ah4 ,rose thirty-five minutes late through carelessness4 0 #ai4 ,back to ,college4 ,shall ,i patiently resign my work as soon as ,he bids8 0 #bj4 ,evening examination shortened because delayed4 ,it was not necessary1 though ,i am idle4 ,ordered away4 ,thy will be done4 0 #ba4 ,sent to ,hyde4 ,forty-seven4 7,this was her birthday47 ,for the grievous neglect of past time enter not into judgment4 ,sanctify the future6 0 #bb4 ,make me ever more constant to resign to ,thee my will4 0 #bc4 ,more ill1 so tried to be idle1 but did what thought ,i could4 ,vain thoughts of self-pity4 0 #bd4 ,no ,church4 ,have wasted time4 ,great inattention at prayer4 0 #be4 ,talking1 and therefore late1 at least half an hour4 ,miss ,belcher came4 0 #bg4 ,george came4 ,was ill most of afternoon4 ,did nothing4 0 #bh4 ,i thank ,thee for hopes of more work4 ,make me more restful and faithful4 ,power of prayer fails4 ,grant me the spirit of holy fear4 ,april #b4 ,back at ,cheltenham4 0 #c4 ,i ought to have specially husbanded strength4 0 #e4 ,tried1 but not successfully1 with my ,confirmation children4 ,feeling too ill to do well4 ,thy will be done4 0 #g4 ,holy ,eucharist4 ,ill at night4 ,the ,lord thy refuge1 and underneath the everlasting arms4 0 #h4 ,better class4 ,was helped4 0 #ac4 ,not punctual because sleepless4 ,read ,mr4 ,hinton's ,life and was helped by it4 ,confirmation at ,christchurch4 ,summary of the term4 ,time wasted1 idle prayer1 boasting4 ,intercessions neglected because too selfish4 0 #af4 ,came to ,hyde for the holidays4' ,so ended a term of great anxiety4 ,one medical opinion1 doubtless referred to in her diary of ,march #bj1 was of such a nature1 that ,miss ,beale thought she must resign her work at once4 ,at ,hyde her sisters persuaded her to rest and to see another doctor1 who took a more hopeful view1 which was wholly justified by her gradual return to health4 ,among the few who knew of this sorrow was the old pupil and friend1 ,miss ,margaret ,clarke4 ,to her ,miss ,beale wrote from ,hyde before she had received the second medical opinion1 and the reply shows1 far more than the diary can tell us1 how deep was the gloom which hung over her way at this time4 ,it might well have been written three years later1 when ,miss ,beale was called upon to undergo greater suffering than any bodily pain alone can give1 and suggests to those who read it now1 that the darkness of that later time was shadowing her spirit even as early as this4 ,the interest of it is the greater because it shows another who like ,dorothea ,beale1 while faithful to her work1 unsparing in care and thought for her children1 had been called upon personally to know spiritual anguish4 ,such suffering1 such loss1 such deeper realisation of ,divine love as are read in this letter are surely the portion of those who1 having given much and helped many1 are called to some further work of sympathy1 needing perhaps #8heart's blood4' #8,,my ,,very ,,dear ,,friend1--,your letter touches me so nearly1 and calls out such true sympathy1 that ,i cannot help yielding myself to the impulse to answer you1 as one who1 by her own experience1 knows the pain and suffering you are now passing through4 ,last year at this time ,i was in it1 and possibly just where you are now1 where my complete faith in all that was most dear to me was tested2 yes1 tested and sifted1 till all human longings and cravings1 even those the most lawful1 were laid low2 ,god ,himself seemed to draw near1 and strip the soul of all it prized1 and was proud of1 asking one thing after another of it1 and last of all the heart1 whole and unshared1 until1 when ,good ,friday came1 it could sympathise with the ,crucified1 as it had never done before4 ,not that all that had not been done before as ,i believed1 but this was in a way deeper1 more searching than the soul had yet realised4 ,i do not know if ,i am making myself clear to you1 for it is difficult to put it into words4 ,it was the unlearning human wisdom1 and the getting ready to be 8a little child10 to learn ,divine ,wisdom1 in the school of the ,kingdom of the ,incarnate ,word4 #8,and then1 when all was yielded1 at least in will1 then came a desolation time1 which none but those who have passed through it can know--a living death1 as it were2 the soul having just power to cling to the ,invisible ,cross1 and say the ,creed1 as a witness perhaps more to itself1 that faith was alive1 than to ,god as an act of faith in ,him4 ,i never slept1 7,i was for7 whole nights awake1 7the7 brain always at work trying to solve the difficult problems of ,god's wisdom1 and circumstances in my own life1 and to find out what was right1 what was ,his ,will4 ,at last ,i was given a simple faith blindly to give myself to ,god for whatever ,he wished for me4 ,to let go reasonings and what ,i thought1 etc41 and say just as a little child 8,our ,father0 with intention for what ,he willed4 ,i did not know what it might be1 but ,he knew1 and ,i would trust ,him1 and then ,i went on to 7think of7 that seventeenth chapter of ,st4 ,john1 and claimed my share in the benefits of that prayer1 in the answer that is ever coming to each separate member of ,christ's ,body all along the years since it was prayed4 #8,and so1 gradually1 the passage was made into a nearer region1 a nearer relationship to ,god1 if ,i may so express myself4 ,but ,i must not go on writing in this way4 ,i can only tell you that what was then only a trembling venture of ,faith has become a substantial reality in the life of the soul2 the whole being1 body1 soul and spirit being penetrated by it1 and the whole of life transformed by the 8sunshine0 which makes itself felt1 even through stray clouds1 which must come sometimes1 and there is rest and peace in the soul--divine peace4 #8,forgive me1 dear ,miss ,beale1 for writing in a way ,i scarcely ever do to any one4 #8,i know how impossible it will be for you to rest1 but do try to do so1 as long as you can4' ,after the ,easter holidays ,miss ,beale was much better in health1 and though her work through the summer was carried on with a good deal of strain and weariness1 she was able to do it as fully as usual4 ,the summer holidays were spent partly at ,hyde ,court with her mother1 and partly at ,cheltenham1 and by the end of them she was much rested and again able to take the walks she enjoyed4 ,the opening day of the autumn term was ,september #ag4 #8,help me not to disgrace my profession6' she exclaimed in her diary of that day4 ,two years after this date ,hyde ,court ceased to be the regular holiday home1 for in ,november #ahha ,mrs4 ,beale died4 ,in one of her later letters to her #8,principal' daughter she had written3 #8,i hunger to see you1 my darling4 ,you have been so good to me always1 your reward will come4' ,such words of praise are dear indeed when the lips that spoke them are cold4 ,they were treasured by ,miss ,beale4 ,but in this bereavement1 as in all times when made conscious of the shadow of death1 specially of her own1 she tried to face the mystery with clear-sighted gaze1 to realise sincerely the impression it was meant to produce4 ,she would not let expressions of comfort and hope1 which she welcomed and accepted to the full1 or any brightness brought by the kindness of the living1 hide for her the penitential aspect of death4 ,the following fragmentary thoughts seem to come from the very chamber of death1 and were written on the day of the month which was to be the date of her own death1 twenty-five years later3-- #8,november #i1 #ahha4 #8,at first death seemed1 as ,i looked at that pale face1 simply terrible--how could ,i die8 ,this morning ,i went again and touched the cold hand1 and gazed into the face1 so calm and wax-like4 ,she who had rejoiced over my birth fifty years ago was now perhaps watching me4 ,does the spirit linger round its earthly tabernacle for a while8 ,the memory of old times came back--not only the love and unselfishness1 but the harshness too1 the faults1 the sins1 ,i find in myself--surely she feels it now as the light shines on her4 ,does she not see herself more as ,god sees her8 ,for every sinful word we shall give account4 ,surely this sorrow is a purifying fire1 and the words are true1 if we would judge ourselves here we shall not be judged4 #8,here1 where we have partaken together of ,his ,body and ,blood1 ,i kneel near that empty tabernacle--but a spiritual ,presence is with us--purifying us both and drawing us nearer to ,him in ,whom living and dead are one4 #8,bless and purify our spirits1 ,o ,lord1 with the dew of ,thy grace1 make us gentler and holier4 ,through the veil we seem to see ,thee nearer4 ,longing1 praying that we may not1 as the rich man1 have to feel the burning shame for our unloving spirit1 now that we see ,his love1 ,his tender1 searching eye4 #8,it becomes to me a sacred chapel1 ,i can scarcely bear to part4 ,the room is fragrant with the gifts of tender flowers from loving friends1 and there is a peace here abiding in the sense of ,god's continued1 loving1 healing discipline4 8,i change not60' ,during these years outside interests multiplied4 ,new friendships were formed2 some old ones were strengthened4 ,the ,college ,magazine1 the first definite link forged with old pupils1 was begun in #ahhj4 ,miss ,beale made more acquaintances outside the ,college4 ,in ,london she met many who shared her educational interests4 ,in ,cheltenham she attended1 and often read and spoke at1 a small literary gathering called the ,society of ,friends1 which met from time to time at different houses4 ,the diary becomes full of reference to ,mrs4 ,middleton and ,mrs4 ,owen4 ,through ,mrs4 ,middleton she came to know ,mr4 ,wilkinson's#dh great evangelistic work in his fashionable ,london parish4 ,she often went to hear him preach1 read his books1 and showed them to others4 ,mrs4 ,owen introduced her to the ,life and philosophy of ,james ,hinton1 which made a very deep impression4 ,at ,mr4 ,owen's house she met many earnest social workers and thinkers4 ,among these was ,miss ,ellice ,hopkins1 whose devoted work revived in tenfold force her early pity for those who need to be #8found4' ,the increasing vigour of the ,college life and work was ever bringing in new ideas4 ,men who were making their mark as thinkers and teachers of their own special subjects often came to lecture4 ,among the most enthralled listeners to the eloquence of ,professor ,william ,knight1 to the marvellous fairy-tales of science told by ,professor ,barrett1 was the ,lady ,principal herself4 ,teachers and educationists of widely different views came to see the work of the school1 often to find that the successful head-mistress who was able to show them so much was willing and eager to learn from them1 and to see matters from their standpoint4 ,meanwhile she was reading as widely and eagerly as ever4 ,it was a time when long-accepted opinions were unsettled for many1 by new scientific theories1 or by a greater sensitiveness to the mystery of pain and the apparent indifference of a part of the so-called religious world in presence of the deepest wrongs and suffering4 ,dorothea ,beale had to take her part in the special difficulties of her own day4 ,the battle has been shifted to another ground for this generation1 which scarcely knows what resistance was made1 what suffering was endured by some heroic souls in the last1 and at what a price a larger spiritual consciousness was bought4 ,the contact with so many minds1 the widening circle of acquaintance with workers of different views and methods1 and especially the appeal for aid in religious perplexity constantly made by those who came under her influence1 doubtless helped to precipitate that sorrow1 which1 though in its acutest phase of short duration1 was the sharpest trial ,miss ,beale was ever called upon to experience2 one on which she never ceased to look back with horror4 ,she who had said that she #8could truly take to herself the words of ,faber1'#di who had been from earliest childhood conscious of a protecting ,presence1 and had even then #8found prayer a joy1' now in late middle life felt herself1 as it were1 cast out4 ,at an age when the inexperienced questionings of youth were over1 when she hoped to find faith and hope strengthened by knowledge1 it seemed for a moment as if they had died down altogether4 #8,nel mezzo cammin di nostra vita ,mi ritrovai per una selva oscura ,che la diritta via era smarrita4' ,to write of it is to turn a page of soul-history so intimate1 and for a moment so painful1 that it may well be thought it should be passed over in silence4 ,but to omit it would not be wholly faithful to the memory of one who wished certainly that this story of her inner life should be known to all who could be helped by it4 ,to tell it1 moreover1 is to use her own words1 for she wrote of it herself1 more than once or twice4 ,she felt1 when she looked back on it afterwards1 that she was obliged to go through this time of suffering in order that she might be better fitted to do the work given her1 in order that others who had lost faith and hope might be helped to regain them1 by knowing how she herself had passed from destruction and despair to hope and rebuilding4 ,the diary of this whole period is more than ever indicative of inward strife and unrest from which she would not by her own will escape to any comfort other than the highest4 ,among the entries1 which are for the most part self-analytical and depressed1 it is curious to find this3 #8,letter from ---- ,some vanity perhaps in the refusal4' ,it was an offer of marriage from an old friend4 ,once or twice there is a hint of coming sorrow before she was conscious what its nature would be4 ,once1 when marking the anniversary of a friend's death1 she noted herself as #8perplexed with the ,incomprehensible4' ,on ,june #bg1 #ahha1 a year before the darkness closed in1 she wrote3 #8,a great dread of coming sorrow1 as of a calvary before me4 ,if some bitter cup is to be poured out1 ,thy will be done4 ,only forsake me not6 ,salvator ,mundi6' ,the new year 7of #ahhb7 opened as usual with renewed self-dedication2 but she mentions that she came back to ,cheltenham on ,january #ad1 after the annual ,retreat1 #8very broken4' ,though a persistent effort to keep up her religious rule was maintained1 the clear shining of faith was much clouded4 ,one who went to her for help at that time writes of it thus3-- #8,i went to her in sore trouble at the beginning of #ahhb1 in one of the overwhelming griefs of extreme youth1 when the whole aspect of life has suddenly changed from a lovely rose-garden 444 to a hideous waste4 ,the very things which made it lovely seemed to be shining and horrible shams1 with undreamed-of treachery and horror lurking behind everything4 ,it was the culminating disillusionment to turn to her who had been such a tower of patient strength all through school-life1 and find nothing1 no help1 no comfort1 no explanation1 no hope to give6 ,yet while there were many at that time whom ,i could not endure to see1 or do with because of the feeling of betrayal all round1 there was never that with her4 ,it never dawned on my mind for a moment that she was herself in the horrible mire1 but ,i understood1 ,i suppose1 in my heart4 ,i felt sorry for her and loved her better than ever before1 and ,i never understood till now the reason of the tender intimacy of that time1 which lay under the apparent disappointment of finding no help or comfort where ,i had made sure of it4' ,this powerlessness to help those who turned to her in their spiritual need made more poignant the sense of loss to one who loved to give freely as a mother to her children4 #8,then others came1' she wrote afterwards of this time1 #8and one felt like the starving mother who saw the babe at her empty breast4 ,i had no simple truths1 no milk of the word to give them that they might grow thereby4' ,a letter to a friend mentions books which had a destructive effect as read at this time4 ,it was not ,miss ,beale's habit deliberately to read a book which was likely to disturb or weaken faith4 ,to an old pupil who once wrote to her of ,strauss's book1 ,the ,old ,faith and the ,new1 she had replied3-- #8,september #ahgc4 #8,i feel sorry you have read ,strauss1 but1 of course1 if you felt it your duty to do so1 you were right4 ,still1 ,i do not think one is bound to read everything1 any more than one is to listen to all that can be said against all one's friends4 ,i mean a person might be ever so good1 yet if we were constantly to listen to insinuations against them1 if we were frequently with those who disbelieved in their goodness1 and looked contemptuous when we trusted1 a most well-founded confidence might result in doubt and distrust4 ,i think we should act in religious matters as we ought in a case of friendship--refuse to hear insinuations1 but ask for the grounds1 arguments--not let our mind be biassed against our will and better judgment4 ,i believe with many that these doubts are 8spectres of the cave10 that if we have courage to face them1 we shall see them fade away4 ,but then we must be very much in earnest1 spend time and labour and much thought upon this1 as upon other subjects1 and pray for the spirit of truth4 ,i have not read ,strauss1 ,i know the general line of his arguments1 but as you say he gives none here1 ,i need not get the book to meet them4' ,now1 in this period of doubt and anxiety1 books by any whom ,miss ,beale thought to be earnest seekers for truth1 whether they were orthodox or not1 were freely read4 ,the sense of loss and discomfort seems to have grown gradually all the year4 #8,poor lesson because depressed1' she notes on a day in ,february4 ,a fortnight later in church she was #8wrestling like ,jacob2 ,tell me ,thy ,name4' ,palm ,sunday1 however1 brought some peace4 #8,i think ,i touched ,his garment's hem4' ,each day in that ,holy ,week she was at an early service before school hours began1 and on ,easter ,day wrote3 #8,this ,lent has been blessed4' ,in ,easter week she notes that she finished reading ,jukes's ,new ,man1 #8a beautiful book4' ,but before the holidays were over there was #8a dread of coming sorrow1' a renewed feeling of deadness and want of devotion1 only #8passive following the inward guide4' #8,much troubled this morning1' she wrote on ,whit-,sunday1 and the need for a #8new life-pulse' grew larger as the summer term wore on4 ,yet she persisted in striving to keep her devotional rules1 and for her apparent want of zeal blamed only herself4 ,at the end of that busy term1 so full of work and interests and anxieties1 she wrote3 #8,be with me in the holidays4 ,i fear them4' ,of the suffering of that time she afterwards wrote fully1 tracing the steps by which she was gradually led to think that the historical evidence on which she thought her faith rested was of no value4 ,an extract from one account is given3-- #8,even if historical evidence were there1 it could not be for all4 ,and was it there8 #8,no1 only fragments by nobodies1 inconsistent versions4 ,if ,god gave a perfect ,man1 ,he could not be for an age1 but for all time1 and how if ,his life passed1 and we have no writing1 only untrustworthy accounts8 ,surely1 then1 the life was worthless which ,god did not care to save for us4 ,he stored up coal and light1 our physical life1 but ,he cared not to preserve ,jesus1 the spiritual life1 ,he who had been called the ,light of the world4 ,then it must be a delusion that ,he was1 and ,god has deceived us1 and we were deceived4 ,the ,pharisees were right in testing ,his claims4 ,they watched ,him on the ,cross and there bade ,him cry to the ,god ,whom ,he had claimed as ,father1--and ,he cried as the fabled prophet of old1 ,eli6 ,eli6 and ,god disowned ,him1 and the words followed which proved that ,he was forsaken1 that the thirst of soul was unappeased and ,his life was indeed over4 ,and so the darkness gathered round the ,cross1 ever darkening as ,i listened to the cry4 ,was ,god indeed mocking our hopes8 ,the old pagan vision rose before me4 ,the symbols of the ,christ were confounded with grotesque forms4 ,i could not utter the ,creeds of the ,church4 ,yet strange to say ,i yet clung to a consciousness of a ,father of the visible4 ,in my troubled dreams1 which haunted me day and night1 ,i still seemed to feel there was a ,god1 though no voice was heard for me among the trees of the garden4#ej #8,i said ,i will not give up my trust in ,god1 ,i must reconstruct4 ,i will not1 as some who have lost faith in ,christ and the eternal1 give away the trust in a ,father4 ,this ,i thought would survive without1 but with that 7my faith in ,christ7 went all belief in the existence of any other4 ,as ,i listened to the voice of creation unharmonised by the interpretation of generous love proceeding from the soul1 it seemed simply horrible3 the martyr slowly consuming in the fire1 ,god looking on1 refusing to interfere with natural causes4 ,i had seen this before1 but1 as in that beautiful parable of the ,septuagint1 ,i had seen ,god was with him1 and the joy overpowered the pain1 and the true life was purified1 and they thanked ,god in the fires4 ,now ,i saw no immortal hope1 no resurrection2 all was dark horror and amazement4 ,no2 could ,i keep belief in a ,god who had deceived mankind8 ,should ,i trust ,him1 pray 8to ,him08#ea #8,for months ,i read and thought of nothing else2 whenever the pressing claims of work left me for a moment1 ,i felt the light was gone from my life4 ,sometimes a deeper sympathy filled me1--as ,i seemed like a gladiator standing with my fellows4 ,morituri te salutant4 ,but generally ,i felt myself growing hardened by the want of power to find sympathy in my sorrow1 nor could ,i pray4 ,i did not often1 and when ,i did1 it was one cry--8,why1 why hast ,thou left us1 ,o ,god--without answer to our cries8 ,why hast ,thou uttered no word of consolation to all the groans of earth8 ,if ,thou hast not heard ,jesus1 none of us need pray40 ,he trusted in ,god that ,he would deliver ,him1 and was forsaken1 and men have waited through the ages1 as a little child would wait1 shut up in prison by some cruel father1 and would not at first believe that he was to be starved to death4 ,and at last they realised that ,god for them was not1--only the prison-house ,he had built1 in which they passed away their lives1 in which1 like a starving man1 they dreamed of palaces and feasts1 the delusions of their fevered brain4 #8,how that old passage came home to one's fevered soul1--8the desert shall blossom as the rose0--as the thought of one's old ,christian faith came back4 ,what would one not give1 ,i thought1 to believe it true once more6 ,for that lighted up the whole world1 then there were living waters1 consolation in every sorrow1 a well-spring of divine sympathy1 inexhaustible1--wells from which one could drink for ever1 and pour out of one's abundance4 #8,sometimes one did look up to the parched heavens1 and though no rain fell1 each time there was a little refreshing dew1 as if ,god were answering when one let ,him speak1 instead of running into desert places1 crying with ,io1 forsaken and maddened by a cruel ,god4 ,sometimes the words came then1 8,i will see you again40 #8,but the vision of green pasture1 of waters that would quench the parching thirst of the desert1 it seemed a mirage1--and no good ,shepherd waded out to me in my desert4 ,sometimes ,i found other wanderers1 who asked of me the waters1 and this seemed to fill my heart with deeper anguish2 like ,hagar1 ,i could die in the wilderness1 but ,i could not see my child die4 ,so ,i tried to escape1 but ,i could not1 and ,i was obliged to lift my eyes to ,heaven for their sakes4 ,i did not tell them that what ,i took for mirage was real1--,i did not try to turn stones into bread1 ,i could only tell them of what ,i felt must be the creed of ,goethe1 that creation is the garment of ,god1 and these shores of earth could not be all2 there must be something true and substantial behind the phenomenal4 ,the philosophy of ,st4 ,john interpreted by ,browning1 the consciousness of love in my own nature1 bore witness to the greater love of ,god4 ,the ,spirit within bore witness that there was a ,father of spiritual life1 and therefore that a divine sonship was possible for us4 ,and as in our desolation we looked up together1 it seemed as if the old truth was coming back to us1 but in a new way4 ,jesus had taught it1 only we had not seen it before4444 ,if we felt the witness of the ,spirit prompting us to cry1 ,abba ,father1 and if there was a ,father1 this prompting must come from ,him4 ,and so ,i listened once more for this ,voice4 ,and ,i was not left alone in the desert1 as ,i waited in my first grief4 ,god sent to me messengers when ,i had lain down there in the stupefaction of spiritual sleep4 ,they offered me angels' food4 ,i watered it with tears1 but ,i took it1--,i ate it1 whilst praying that ,god would take away my life1--take it1 lest ,i should tempt others into the stony desert4 ,yes1 ,i1 who had refused to take others to the ,lord's ,table1 because they were faint and hungry1 and in the highways of the world1--,i1 who had thought it profane1 thought now that my mere hunger gave me a right to come4 ,if ,he was indeed there1 ,he might fill the empty cruse with oil4 ,he might hear me as ,i said1 8,we have no wine40 ,and ,i remembered as ,i dared to come in my unbelief1 the words ,i had been taught1 of the hungry being filled4 ,i thought ,i had once been of the mighty and rich1 now ,i knew ,i was weak and hungry1 so ,i came4 ,but ,i saw not the ,master1 only a stranger whom ,i knew not1 for my eyes were holden1 and ,i did not recognise ,him4 #8,oh how often did ,i pine for death1 not but that ,i could have taken the suffering4 ,i thought that was possible1 if ,i could have borne it alone4 ,the grief was to feel that ,i should lead others away1 whether ,i spoke or was silent4 ,this only was right1 never to say an untrue word1 to teach what truth ,i had4 ,but ,i was pledged like a clergyman4 ,still ,i did not yet know what ,i thought4 ,i might read a little1 for if ,i must find ,christ was dead1 ,i hoped1 begged1 ,god would take my life1 that others might not die through me4 ,with what joy did ,i see sickness come1 and what disappointment there was when it was not unto death4 #8,sometimes ,i thought ,i would take some spiritual opiate1--think no more1 but try to kill self into a state in which probability should content me4 ,but ,i could not work nor pray by such means4 ,and if ,i could content myself by a sedative1 could ,i my children8 ,no2 ,i must go on till ,i could feel the truth of those words ever recurring to me1 8,and dying rise1 and rising with ,him1 raise ,his brethren1 ransomed by ,his own dear life40 #8,in darkness1 ,i thought1 8,he descended into hell10 and ,i felt ,i would not rise unless ,i could bring my children too with me4 #8,what was the state of thought at that time8 ,one could only look and read and see amongst the most intellectual the loss of hold on ,christianity1 and with those who believed1 one felt it had been as with oneself1 the belief would not bear the strain that would come2 the tints were put on1 were not our life through assimilation4'#eb ,probably those to whom ,miss ,beale turned at first realised little of the distress that prompted her questions4 #8,i said1 8,surely there must be some one who can help where ,i am too weak and ignorant10 so ,i went to a distinguished teacher whom ,i thought so able and strong1 and his concluding words sounded like a knell4 8,nothing can be done40'#ec ,the darkest hour came during the early days of ,august when staying with friends1 from whom she vainly hoped to conceal her sorrow4 #8,at first ,i was silent1 but as ,i could only weep day and night1 ,i was obliged to tell them4444 ,they kept me when ,i could not pay other visits4 ,whilst wondering at my misery they tried to help me by getting books4'#ed ,it was perhaps some relief--as of one who faces the worst--to note in her diary each fresh incoming wave of sorrowful thought4 #8#ahhb1 ,august #f1 ,sunday4 ,at church4 ,a nice sermon on the parable of the ,unjust ,steward4 ,talk of ,newman's books4 ,j4 said ,a4 had some4 ,i1 thinking of ,j4 ,h4 ,n41 asked to borrow4 ,the book proved to be by the brother1 ,f4 ,newman4 #8,monday1 ,august #g4 ,read some of ,f4 ,newman's book4 ,pitied him much4 #8,tuesday1 ,august #h4 #f ,a4,m4-#h1 read more4 ,miserable4 ,after breakfast walked alone4 ,no letter4 ,could not go to dinner4 ,terrible neuralgia4 ,wept nearly all day4 #8,wednesday1 ,august #i4 ,awake at #d ,a4,m4 ,not up to breakfast4 ,decided must write my resignation4 ,all is dark4 8,such clouds of nameless sorrow cross1 ,all night before my darkened eyes40 ,the light has gone out of the heavens4 ,why does ,god leave us without one word1 ,his children orphans8 ,can ,he have left us to delusions8 ,tears are my meat day and night4 ,i cannot live an untrue life4 ,if ,jesus be what ,i once believed ,him1 ,he would not wish it4 8,every one that is of the truth heareth ,my ,voice40 ,tried to pray harder4 ,woke as in a dreary pine forest with beautiful ferns4 ,felt there must be a presence behind them4 ,then the trouble revived once more4 #8,thursday1 ,august #aj4 ,wrote my resignation4 ,may my children never know this sorrow4 ,christian teaching spiritualised1 as ,i have seen it1 is the holiest and purest4 ,their souls need not be orphaned as mine4 ,i cannot stay with them4 ,i could not play the hypocrite1 ,i should hate myself4 ,without ,christ1 ,i should not be what ,i was4 ,if ,i could attempt to go on1 which ,i could not for a moment contemplate since it is untrue1 think if ,i were found out1 the moral blow for my children4 ,they would think ,i had been false when teaching them my deepest faith1--the joy of my life1--that which made all the suffering bearable1 and all gladness double1 the love of ,christ ,jesus my ,lord1 for whom ,i would suffer the loss of all things if ,i might win ,christ and be found in ,him4 #8,o ,lord1 ,thou hast deceived me1 and ,i was deceived4' ,the immediate sequel to the story of these few days was told in a letter to a friend3-- #8,august #ahhb4 #8,i was engaged to attend a religious conference at the end of a week4 ,i did not quite like to give it up1 for there might possibly be some hope of help1 though ,i felt there was none4 ,my friends begged me to go1--there was just a chance4 ,i went1--but almost turned back after ,i had started1 for ,i was so broken down ,i could not restrain my tears1 and ,i was ashamed to be seen4 ,well1 ,i met there some men of powerful mind1 leaders of thought in their different departments1 who had gone through periods of darkness1 but had waited for the dawn1 and now they believed4444 ,after two days ,i told my grief to a sympathising friend1 who was surprised at my wretchedness1 and her calm faith gave me a little calmness too4 ,so the day before we were to leave ,i ventured to tell all my trouble to the clergyman who had invited me4 ,i think ,i may dare to say that my faith has come back--not as it was before1 but more spiritual2 once more ,i can say the ,creed1 and ,i think ,i shall be able to teach again4444' ,the #8religious conference' was at ,stoke1 a little village in ,shropshire1 where the rector1 the ,rev4 ,rowland ,corbet1 was in the habit of gathering some who were earnestly studying the difficult questions of the day4 ,miss ,beale wrote of these gatherings in the letter already quoted3-- #8,there are only about twelve staying in the house4 ,no one is put out of the synagogue for not seeing the truth1 and they are not afraid to ask questions1 but none are invited who are not supposed to be seeking for the light4' ,that a door to the light was at this conference quickly opened for ,miss ,beale may be seen in the letters she wrote1 on her return to ,cheltenham after it was over1 to the friends who had helped her so much3-- #8,august #ai1 #ahhb4 #8,,dear ,,mr4 ,,corbet1--,i could not say one word of thanks this morning3 ,i think you understood4 #8,it is good for us tempest-tossed people to see the restful faith of the veterans who come to help us4 ,certainly the old ship in which ,i have somehow sailed upon the waves for so many years is a wreck4 ,i must try to believe ,he will set my feet upon a rock4 #8,yesterday things began to get clearer3 your kind and patient explanations of the alphabet of the spiritual made me follow the discussion better afterwards1 and ,i felt ,i could begin again to join in the ,church's ,creed with a deeper meaning than before4 ,i suppose one can't expect to come out of the grave at once1--but how different is this ,saturday from last1 it seems as if some on had gone by4 ,i don't know yet what ,i think1 except that ,i believe ,i shall see the light and rise and always remain1 yours very gratefully1 ,d4 ,,beale4' ,to ,mrs4 ,russell ,gurney3-- #8,august #bg1 #ahhb4 #8,,dear ,,mrs4 ,,russell ,,gurney1--,i have had such a happy ,sunday1--,i can hardly believe it is the same earth that seemed to me so dead the week before1 when ,i could not go to ,church1 but wandered about quite desolate4 #8,three weeks ago1 if any one had spoken1 as ,i am doing now1 ,i should have thought it superstitious1 and ,i don't think it will be well either for myself or others to speak much of it now1 only to one who1 like you1 understands--and who helped to take off the 8grave-clothes40 #8,i want to use my limbs first1 to get back to my old work now1 and see if there is really a new life2 ,i want to see if ,i can help some for whom ,i could do nothing before4 #8,i am with delightful people4 ,mr4 ,webb is just a living picture of ,chaucer's ,good ,parson and well known in the scientific world3 his special field is astronomy4 ,he showed us a wonderful gas-nebula on ,saturday night4 ,he quite believes in spiritual manifestations1 and seems to think with ,professor ,barrett about the ether4 #8,i have to thank you much1 dear ,mrs4 ,gurney1 for your sympathy4 ,it was such a help to me to be able to speak to you4 ,i meant to say nothing to any one1 but ,i could not help it4 ,the story of your own vision helped me1 as it was something like my own3 it is so much what ,browning describes at the end of 8,saul10 when ,david has realised the ,divine love1 and feels the living pulse beating in all nature4 ,everybody helped me in some way1 but especially ,mr4 ,corbet's teaching1 which seems wonderfully beautiful4 #8,i dare say it was the same last year2 but different to me1 because ,i was comparatively satisfied then1 not poor and needy 7as ,i came this time71 and therefore ready to understand4 #88,i will see you again1 and your heart shall rejoice03 my text for to-day4' ,she felt like one set free from prison1 but the newly recovered liberty was used with caution4 #8,you will like to know1' she wrote to a friend in the following year1 #8that the fitful gleams of sunlight1 which used to come after the dark night1 have become now something like a steady shining4 ,i was able to get a few quiet days at ,christmas1 and then first ,i began to feel that ,i should be able to give thanks for this terrible experience1 and the thankfulness has grown ever since4' ,as she said1 the thankfulness grew4 ,but in the very heart of the fire she had felt no regret1 known no complaining4 ,she was willing to suffer1 if by that means she might help the more4 ,on ,august #ae1 just a week after the day she always remembered as #8,tuesday the #hth1' she wrote of one whose calling in life was to teach others3 #8,you say he has been reading sceptical books2 ,i want him to go on doing so4 ,he must know how deep the questions go1 or he will be fighting windmills1 as ,i have done4' ,it will be asked by what steps the ascent was made1 and what the height from which the new spiritual horizons were discerned2 what was the train of thought which brought back the possibility of saying the ,church's ,creed8 ,the mental process1 if it can be disentangled from an exercise which engaged all the faculties of soul and spirit1 was probably that suggested in the words of ,amiel3 #8,chacun ne comprend que ce qu'il retrouve en soi4' ,but the research and the retrieval were not simply individual and within1 they involved the scrutiny of widespread religious instincts1 cravings and needs4 ,they were aided above all by the contemplation of martyr deaths and martyr lives1 which in their continuous and abiding witness to the faith are seen to constitute a claim to authority4 ,miss ,beale herself strove to show how the doubting spirit was silenced by an answer of faith1 in a little paper called #8,building1' which is dated ,september #h4 ,here she wrote3-- #8,sweep away external proofs1 we must believe in a ,god and in ,his love4 #8,we see ,he speaks to ,his children through the wondrous language of ,nature1 drawing them to ,his ,heart and teaching ever new trust through it4 #8,he shows ,his ,father ,heart in the love of the human1 ignorant1--for the child4 #8,in all ages ,he has made man feel ,his ,presence in the heart and yearn after ,him4 #8,there is a long witness down the ages that to those who long for ,his ,presence and follow holiness1 ,he gives the great reward of ,his conscious sympathy1 speaking in their hearts1 so that they know it is ,his ,voice4 ,in different ages1 in different ways1 as men need the language they understand4 #8,to ,abraham and the prophets1 to ,socrates1 to ,buddha teaching the ,karma1 to ,moses the divine writing1--to saints who sought ,him in later times4 #8,why impeach the testimony of ,christendom as to the ,resurrection1 if it is what we must believe in1 if it is just the good news for which the world was then dying8 ,we know ,paul and ,john believed it1 and men believed them then2 and the miracle of the ,christian ,church which is before our eyes1 and the teaching of the ,christ is found to be the food of the soul1 and in prayer as men drink it in1 they hand on ,sacramental life1 which is its own witness4 ,we want that6 #8,we can believe that for some inscrutable reason the ,eternal educates ,his children in time4 #8,perhaps we have to go through these depths of blankness that we may not bottle up the spiritual to one time or church or country1 but believe ,god is really eternal1 omnipresent2 that ,he does dwell with him who is of a contrite and humble spirit1 and who trembles at ,his ,presence felt in the darkness4 ,we have to learn to see the ,spirit of ,christ dwelling in each man1 regenerating him to the true and higher life4 #8,we have to see it is ,god's method to work through the man1--therefore the treasure is in earthen vessels1--the light is dimmed by the medium4 ,but if it were given whole and complete by angels1 the moral nature could no more be drawn out than the intellect could have been1 had ,god revealed the kalendars and ,kepler's ,laws4 #8,so through the ,man ,christ ,jesus1 ,who emptied ,himself ere ,he could speak to man1 ,who1 as ,his wondrous teaching1 life and resurrection testify1 stood in some different relation to ,god than other men1 ,god has spoken to the whole world4' ,another paper of this period1 entitled #8,of my ,religious ,opinions1' concludes thus3-- #8,yes1 it was this4 ,the consciousness of a universal life of ,god in man which lifted me up once more to see ,god in ,christ1 to see the ,new ,man coming to the birth in all for whom ,christ lived1 and the whole world existed that this might be1 that the whole being of the creature might be lifted into responsive sympathy with a sympathetic ,father1 and those followers of ,christ ,who was ever preaching the religion of ,humanity were to lift the imperfect yet real ,church of ,christ to a higher life4 ,upon a world which seemed dead1 which no prophet staff could restore1 they were to stretch themselves1 heart to heart1 their own warm palpitating life was to rouse1 and the power of love could raise the dead4 ,we must learn that old lesson that no creature is common or unclean4 ,we must enter as never before into the full meaning of the ,name by which ,god was known to ,abraham--,i ,,am1--the ,eternal4 ,ours has been a ,god of time1 ,he is the ,living ,god1 lighting every man that cometh into the world4 ,but here1 light is struggling with darkness4 ,there shall be no night there in that day dawn beyond the tomb4 #8,have you not been taught that the written word is imperfect without the heavenly interpretation1 and does not your own experience confirm this1 and the history of the records of the ,christ bear it out8 ,enough we have as a foundation1 but we must build thereon1 or there will be no home for our soul4 ,this is the method of ,god1 revealing to us that we can only help one another4 ,god must teach us all4 ,they shall be all taught of ,god1 here and hereafter4 #8,here the phenomenal and the imperfect is the only possible revelation to man1 but through these he is being educated for the real1 the actual4 ,he will one day know ,god4' ,the writer of these words might indeed have sung1 #8,thou hast set my feet in a large room4' ,but the daily journal shows no trace of exultation1 far less of relaxing watchfulness4 ,it is surely impossible to exaggerate the importance of the jealous care with which devotional rules were guarded4 ,more than all the high thoughts and noble imaginings with which she was so wonderfully gifted1 this lifelong obedience came to her aid in the great crisis4 ,habits of prayer1 daily acts of self-sacrifice and self-consecration1 had been maintained even when their meaning seemed to be clouded4 ,when sight was restored1 when a greater sense of spaciousness came into her life1 they were there to protect her in the newly found liberty4 ,the tale of them remains to show that the doubts of this dark year were akin to that thirst for ,god which in all ages has been the portion of the saints4 ,may it not be said that they were the outcome of a passionate desire to help2 that this descent into darkness as of the grave was necessary to one who yearned to give herself utterly to aid others to find the way to the light8 #8,can ye drink indeed8' was asked of those who willed to share the divine work and joy1 and in all times it has been given to a few to be brought through suffering into that region of consciousness in which they are made #8able4' ,,chapter ,x ,,the ,,guild #8,we have a picture which gives the ideal of a ,college--the ,golden ,staircase--whence each should go forth into the great world carrying some beautiful instrument with which to utter the music which is in her heart4'--,d4 ,,beale1 ,guild ,address1 #ahid4 ,miss ,beale's circle of influence definitely widened beyond the ,college itself in #ahhj when the first number of the ,magazine appeared4 ,it opened with a characteristic introduction from the ,lady ,principal1 who up to her death remained the editor4 ,the ,magazine was started1 said ,miss ,beale1 in order that past and present members of the ,college might enrich each other by interchange of thoughts4 ,mere information concerning the temporary doings of one's friends was a secondary consideration1 the value of which was1 however1 fortunately seen by sub-editors and others4 ,a column of births1 deaths1 and marriages became established in the ,magazine as early as the second number4 ,this naturally in time developed in interest4 ,the obituary column came to include all who had the slightest connection with the ,college2 newspaper accounts of those who were in any way distinguished were also added4 ,in #ahhg the first ,chronicle of passing events belonging to the ,college and its old members was inserted1 though the space for it was grudgingly afforded by the editor1 who could not bear to limit her space for the budding ideas she loved to foster4 ,soon1 however1 she came to value what was practically a contemporary history of the ,college1 and as her pride in her old pupils increased with years1 it became a great pleasure to notice all their doings in varied walks of life4 ,engaged in philanthropic work1 in literature1 in art or society1 they were all of interest to her1 and not among the least dear were those whose homes lay in foreign parts1 those closely connected with the diplomatic service and the growth of the ,british ,empire4#ee ,the ,chronicle was a portion of the ,magazine sure of finding readers1 but there was no page more welcome to all than the brief but pithy preface in which the editor named the chief contents1 touched on some matter of note to the readers1 or urged forward the lagging subscriber4 ,as the ,college interest widened with the ever-increasing number of old pupils1 the ,chronicle became too limited a record to stand alone4 ,when the ,magazine was about seventeen years old #8,parerga' appeared for the first time1 telling of activities which lay outside the immediate scope of ,college work1 yet were due in part to the influence of the ,alma ,mater1 to #8the spiritual force1 the higher volition and action4' ,miss ,beale1 who found in the ,magazine a strong link with her large scattered family1 also in later years freely printed letters she received from various members abroad4 ,she did not care much for articles on travel1 writing on one occasion that she received too many descriptions1 and would like in their place to have more records of observation in the fields of natural history and other sciences4 ,but she treasured letters1 and showed them widely4 ,indeed1 it was sometimes startling for the writer of a private letter to ,miss ,beale to find whole extracts published in the ,magazine for all the world to see4 ,almost from the beginning there were reviews of books4 ,these were generally written by the editor4 ,there were also notices of books by old pupils4 ,of these ,miss ,beale was proud1 and she never failed to mention them1 often reprinting portions of reviews by the press2 but she would not review them herself1 saying1 #8,books by old pupils claim our notice2 we must leave criticism to those less interested in the writers4' ,fortunately ,miss ,beale was not content with merely reviewing and editing4 ,many a number of the ,magazine contained a long contribution from herself1 such as an article reprinted from another periodical1 an address given at a gathering of old pupils1 or at some more general meeting4 ,the first two editions of the ,history of the ,college were also printed here4 ,of her articles which were not of special ,college interest1 the most notable were those upon ,browning4 ,one of these1 written in spring #ahij1 shortly after the poet's death1 contains a brief clear statement of the value of his philosophy4 ,the other writers of the ,magazine have been chiefly old pupils1 some of whose names1 as1 for example1 those of ,jane ,harrison1 ,beatrice ,harraden1 ,bertha ,synge1 ,may ,sinclair1 are known in wider fields of literature4 ,but any who made a sincere effort were welcomed1 encouraged1 and--edited4 ,present pupils have rarely written1 but of late an attempt has been made to secure more contributions from these4 ,members of the ,council1 and others connected with the ,college by the ties of friendship or work1 frequently helped the ,magazine with papers or verses4 ,for years every number was enriched with a poem or article from the pen of ,mrs4 ,james ,owen1 that friend whose keen intellectual interests and strong sympathy were put so largely at ,miss ,beale's service when this literary venture was first made4 ,to find contributors ,miss ,beale went even beyond the outer circle of the ,college4 #8,we always hope to have some good writing in our ,magazine1 thus to maintain a high standard1' she had said at the beginning4 ,she liked to gain the notice of those who were eminent in literature or science for this dearly loved literary child1 and as occasion brought her in contact with any who were distinguished for the things she appreciated she would send them the ,magazine1 often asking for a paper4 ,letters from people of widely differing thought and position1 acknowledging the receipt of the ,magazine1 are now in the ,college archives4 ,they vary in warmth and interest4 ,the late ,bishop of ,gloucester and ,bristol wrote in #ahhi3 #8,however busy ,i may be1 ,i always find time to read portions of the ,magazine1 and ,i am always thankful to recognise not merely the cultivated1 but the wise and--what we men specially value--the womanly tone that characterises it4 ,i read with much interest your article on the ,sorbonne gathering4' ,bishop ,westcott in #ahij wrote1 on receiving the number containing ,miss ,beale's #8,in ,memoriam' article on ,browning3 #8,may ,i confess that when the copy of the ,ladies' ,college ,magazine came this morning with the letters1 my correspondence was at once interrupted8 ,i felt constrained to read your words on ,browning1 just and wise and helpful and suggestive4' ,some notes are little more than the acknowledgment of a polite friend who had #8already cut the pages4' ,the request for contributions was not always granted2 sometimes it was won by a little importunity4 ,it brought about rather an amusing incident with ,mr4 ,ruskin1 whose letters on the subject and on some of ,miss ,beale's own ,magazine articles are too characteristic to be omitted4 ,miss ,beale sent him the number containing her paper on #8,britomart4' ,he replied at once3-- #8,march #ab1 #ahhg4 #8,have you not yet to add to your ,britomart1 at p4 #bai1 due justification of ,feminine--may we not rather call it ,disguise--than ,lie8 ,and1 for myself1 may ,i say that ,i think ,britomart should have sung to the ,red ,knight1 not he to ,britomart4--,ever faithfully yours1 ,j4 ,,ruskin4' ,five days later he wrote3-- #8,but ,i much more than like your essay on ,britomart4 #8,i am most thankful to have found the head of a ,girls' ,college able to do such a piece of work1 and having such convictions and aspirations1 and can only assure you how glad ,i shall be to find myself capable of aiding you in anything4444 ,i trespass no further on you to-day1 but have something to say concerning ball-play as a ,britomartian exercise1 before saying which1 however1 ,i will inquire of the ,librarian what ground spaces the ,college commands1 being so limited in its bookshelves4--,and believe me1 ever your faithful servt41 ,,john ,,ruskin4' ,miss ,beale replied to this by sending her paper on #8,lear1' to which came this response3-- #8,march #bb1 #ahhg4 #8,i am entirely glad to hear of the ,oxford plan1 which seems faultless1 and am most happy to get the ,king ,lear1 though ,i hope you have never learned as much of human life as to be able to read him as you can ,britomart4 ,what ,i want to know is whether ,cordelia was ever so little in love--with any body1 except her ,father4' ,two days later came the following3-- #8,march #bd1 #ahhg4 #8,i have been reading your ,lear with very great interest4 ,it is one of the subtlest and truest pieces of ,shakespeare criticism ,i ever saw1 but just as ,i guessed--misses the key note4 ,you never enter on the question what it is that drives ,lear mad6 ,and throughout you fall into the fault which women nearly always commit if they don't err on the other side1--of always talking of love as if it had nothing to do with sex4444 ,i am extremely glad to note your interest in and knowledge of music4--,ever faithfully and respectfully yours1 ,j4 ,,ruskin4' ,after this letter there was a pause in a correspondence which had been kept up pretty briskly on various subjects4 ,in ,june1 however1 ,miss ,beale wrote again1--the purport of her letter may be gathered from the answer4 #8,june #h1 #ahhg4 #8,i never have been ill this year2 the reports you heard or saw in papers were variously malicious or interested4 ,but ,i have been busy1 in very painful or sorrowful business--at ,oxford or at home--nor even in the usual tenor of spring occupation could ,i have answered rightly the different questions you sent me4 ,especially1 ,i could not tell you anything of your paper on ,lear1 because ,i think women should never write on ,shakespeare1 or ,homer1 or schylus1 or ,dante1 or any of the greater powers in literature4 ,spenser1 or ,chaucer1 or ,molire1 or any of the second and third order of classics--but not the leaders4 ,and you really had missed much more in ,lear than ,i should like to tell you4 #8,i really thought ,i had given the ,college my books--but if ,i haven't1 ,i won't--not even if you set the ,librarian to ask me2 for it does seem to me such a shame that a girl can always give her dentist a guinea for an hour's work1 and her physician for an opinion2 and she can't give me one for what has cost me half my life to learn1 and will help her till the end of hers to know4 #8,please go on with your book exactly as you like to have it4 ,i have neither mind nor time for reading just now4--,ever most truly yrs41 ,j4 ,,ruskin4' ,mr4 ,ruskin permitted the reprint of a few extracts from his own writings in the ,magazine1 on which his criticism as a whole was not very encouraging4 ,one of his letters1 indeed1 called forth a protest from ,miss ,beale1 to which he replied thus3-- #8,june #ae1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,i am grieved very deeply to have written what ,i did of your dear friend's verses4 ,if you knew how full my own life has been of sorrow1 how every day of it begins with a death-knell1 you would bear with me in what ,i will yet venture to say to you as the head of a noble school of woman's thought1 that no personal feelings should ever be allowed to influence you in what you permit your scholars either to read or to publish4' ,and again a few days later3-- #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,june #ai1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,so many thanks1 and again and again ,i ask your pardon for the pain ,i gave you4 ,i had no idea of the kind of person you were1 ,i thought you were merely clever and proud4 #8,these substituted verses are lovely4--,ever gratefully 7#a7 yrs41 #8,j4 ,r4 #87#a7 ,i mean1 for the way you have borne with my letters4 ,you will not think it was because ,i did not like my own work to have the other with it that ,i spoke as ,i did4' ,mr4 ,shorthouse also once contributed to the ,magazine1 sending a little story called #8,an ,apologue4' ,the work entailed by the ,magazine was1 on the whole1 pleasant and interesting to its editor4 ,but she was grieved sometimes if she thought old pupils did not appreciate it1 or if contributions fell short4 ,it was not always easy to get enough articles of the kind she desired1 and the difficulty was increased by the severe censorship she exercised4 #8,about one hour wasted in fretting over ,magazine1' runs the diary of ,april #b1 #ahia4 ,the ,magazine was not without its faults4 #8,how bad the best of us6' says ,punch1 according to ,ruskin4 ,but it had the conspicuous merit of offering encouragement to young writers1 of promoting a spirit of unity1 and fostering sympathetic interest among those whose lives were necessarily far apart4 #8,we hope1' ,miss ,beale had said in her first preface1 #8that the papers on work may be helpful in suggesting ways of usefulness4'#ef ,this hope was practically realised4 ,how far the young writers profited by each other's thoughts can be less easily gauged2 but doubtless some learned at least one lesson the ,magazine was meant to teach1 that if they intended to work1 they #8must not shrink from the hardest and most fruitful work1 i4e4 thinking4'#eg ,miss ,beale's influence was again extended in manifold and ever-developing ways when1 in #ahhc1 the first meeting of former pupils was held in the ,college4 ,at this date the number of regular pupils was five hundred4 ,only six years before a proposal had been made to limit the numbers to three hundred1 but each year saw an increase1 and a consequent addition to the ranks of those who carried the influence of the ,college into the larger world outside4 ,it had been felt for some time by the ,principal and others to whom the ,college was dear1 that an association of old pupils should be formed1 but of what nature and name could not be determined without a representative meeting4 ,a suitable occasion for this presented itself in #ahhc1 which was a sort of ,jubilee year for the ,college1 ,miss ,beale having then been its ,principal for twenty-five years4 ,many old pupils expressed a wish to mark the great occasion by a personal gift to ,miss ,beale2 she1 as was to be expected1 asked that it might be given to her #8husband1' the ,college4 ,it was a moment of almost unsullied prosperity1 as could be seen by the buildings which were constantly growing more stately and suitable4 ,in the previous year they had been much enlarged1 and the whole ,college life benefited by the addition of the ,music and ,art wing4 ,the old music-rooms were little better than cupboards1 the new ones contained light1 air1 and space1 as well as the necessary pianoforte4 ,the first drawing-room was but an insufficient classroom1 in which a cast of any size could not be placed4 ,the new studio was spacious and properly lighted4 ,both additions at this period spoke of ,miss ,beale's method in educational development1 also of the order in which her own full mental life unfolded4 ,first she would have the exact1 the severe1 the discipline of grammar and rule1 then the expansion of beauty in thought and symbol4 ,and the gift of the old pupils could not have been better chosen4 ,it took the form of an organ for what was then the largest hall1 the ,first ,division ,room4 ,here the daily prayers of the three divisions took place4 ,sir ,walter ,parratt settled the specifications for the organ1 which was placed above the ,lady ,principal's dais4 ,the choir1 which up to this time had been dependent on the aid of a harmonium1 was augmented and improved1 and the daily music at the school prayers became a feature of ,college life in which ,miss ,beale took delight4 ,occasionally her directions to the choir were embarrassing4 ,she liked music to be very piano1 and required a great deal of expression to bring out the full meaning of the words sung4 ,mr4 ,ruskin was also momentarily interested by it4 ,he was as suggestive and dogmatic on the subject as on any other that he touched4 ,once he wrote to ,miss ,beale1 #8,all music properly so called is of the ,celestial ,spheres4 ,it aids and gives law to ,joy1 or it ennobles and comforts ,sorrow4' ,on hearing of the organ and #8girl-organist1' he hoped #8to be able to work out some old plans with her1' and unfolded them thus3-- #8,i think you may be willing to help me in the plan chiefly for the last four or five years in my mind1 of getting a girls' choral service well organised in a college chapel4 ,the most beautiful service ,i have ever heard in any church of any country is that of the ,convent of the ,trinit at ,rome1 entirely sung by the sisters1 unseen2 and quite my primary idea in girl education--peasant or princess1 is to get the voice perfectly trained in the simplest music of noblest schools4 ,finding your organist is a girl1 and that she is interested in the book on ,plain ,chant ,i sent her1 it seems to me my time has come1 and ,i am going to write to ,miss ,lefevre at ,somerville1 ,miss ,gladstone at ,newnham1 and ,miss ,welch at ,girton1 to beg them to consider with you what steps they could take to this end4 ,if you could begin by giving enough time for the training of the younger girls1 ,i think ,i could1 with that foundation1 press for a more advanced action in the matter at ,cambridge and ,oxford4' ,miss ,beale obviously replied to this with some questions about the training of the choir1 for ,mr4 ,ruskin's next and rapidly following letter closes thus3-- #8,as for the choir1 nothing is necessary but a due attention to girls' singing1 as well as their dancing4 ,it ought to be as great a shame for a girl not to be able to sing1 up to the faculty of her voice1 might ,i say1 as to speak bad grammar4 ,you could never rival the ,trinit di ,monte1 but could always command the chanting of the psalms with sweetness and clearness1 and a graceful ,te ,deum and ,magnificat4' ,besides the organ1 ,miss ,beale's wedding gifts included the first light of a stained-glass window above the new grand staircase4 ,this was drawn by ,miss ,thompson1 and executed by ,clayton and ,bell4 ,miss ,beale herself chose the subject for the whole--a series of scenes from her beloved story of #8,britomart4' ,over and above the opening of the new buildings1 and the installation of the wedding gifts1 there was in the early part of the summer term some excitement and much pleasant sense of preparation for the gathering of old pupils fixed for the #fth and #gth of ,july4 ,then1 into the midst of the glad anticipation1 came as with transcendent suddenness ,mrs4 ,owen's death on ,june #ai4 ,hers was indeed #8a spirit that went forth ,and left upon the mountain-tops of death ,a light that made them lovely4' ,but for many the happiness of the coming meeting was marred1 most of all for her in whose honour it had been largely arranged4 ,miss ,beale made no change1 but went through all the proceedings as they had been planned1 dwelling never for a moment on her sense of bereavement and loss1 but speaking calmly even in public of the life that had passed out of sight4 ,the first meeting1 on the evening of ,july #f1 was a conversazione in the ,upper or ,second ,division ,hall4 ,an unexpectedly large number of old pupils were present1 and on the next day at the ordinary ,college prayers ,miss ,beale gave what was practically the first ,guild address4 ,though made on an occasion of so much personal interest and gratification to herself1 this address was remarkable not only for the piercing insight with which she ever penetrated below what was apparent or obvious1 but also for what1 for want of a better word1 must be called its soberness4 ,touched1 emotional as the speaker always was1 keenly alive to the sense of union and communion with all lives that in the highest sense had come in contact with her own1 happy in recognising the ,college to be a step by which souls might ascend out of mere material interests1 marking with joy its noble work in the progress of the #8higher education' of women1 she chastened all excess of feeling by the calm sincerity with which she could contemplate #8,even in the green1 the faded tree4' #8,schools too1' she said1 #8like the members of which they are composed1 have their period of growth1 manhood1 and decay4 ,some tell us the first is over for us1 and that we1 too1 have settled down into vigorous manhood4 ,i am not so sure that we have quite done with growth1 even in the outside body2 but however that may be1 ,i trust there is that among us1 which is not even like the most substantial building1 not like the outward form1 liable to decay and death4' ,thus quietly she spoke1 marking for all that heard her that there was no commonplace elation or poor ambition in her thoughts and feelings for her school4 ,on this really momentous occasion for the ,college1 when its members as a whole were summoned to catch a glimpse of all it could be of help and blessing in a far larger world than its own1 the ,principal spoke less of work accomplished than of growth1 and #8the silent witness of a beautiful life as a power to bless4' ,she said less about the gifts with which the ,college had been enriched1 than of some visible sacraments of ,nature with which these gifts should bring them into touch4 ,she dwelt specially on the great meanings of music4 #8,in the ,psalm of ,life each is necessary to the perfection of that glorious music1 which we shall hear and understand when the discords of earth have been resolved4' ,in conclusion ,miss ,beale sketched the possibility of an association of old pupils1 such as already existed in some boys' schools1 and was not wholly unknown among girls4 #8,when ,i read of meetings of old ,etonians1 ,rugbeians1 ,marlburians1 and of works undertaken by them in common1 and know how strong is the tie of affection which binds many of our old pupils to their ,alma ,mater1 ,i have often wished there were some means of uniting us into an association4' ,she named also the uses and aims of such an association4 ,it is needless to say that though its members strive to bear in mind the objects their ,principal and ,president put before them1 rules1 precisely to embody them1 could not be framed4 #8,members should consider themselves united together to help in sustaining1 especially in distant countries1 as high an intellectual and social standard as possible1 first amongst those of their own class4 ,thus reading societies1 mutual improvement societies1 libraries1 etc41 would be helped on by them4 ,they would bear in mind the ,college motto1 8,let no man think or maintain that a man can search too far or be too well studied in the ,book of ,god's ,word1 or in the ,book of ,god's ,works2 but rather let men endeavour an endless progress and proficiency in both2 only let men beware that they apply both to charity and not to grovelling2 to use and not to ostentation40#eh ,some articles of their creed would be--7a7 that influence radiates from a centre1 and hence it is a duty all through life to continue one's own education2 7b7 that the nearer we stand in intellectual and social position1 the stronger are our ties to any1 and the greater are our duties2 7c7 that the worst thing one can do with any talent one possesses is to bury it4 ,rules would have to be framed concerning admission4' ,miss ,beale added that secretaries to the proposed association had already been appointed3 ,mrs4 ,ashley ,smith for the general work and organisation1 ,miss ,flora ,ker as local secretary4 ,this announcement of her appointment to what proved to be a very strenuous work was the first suggestion that ,mrs4 ,smith received that she should even undertake it4 ,in an article in the next ,magazine ,miss ,beale unfolded her plan more fully1 suggesting a few rules4 ,she proposed further that the badge of the association should be a little brooch engraved with a figure of her beloved ,britomart4 ,the idea of a guild of old pupils was eagerly received1 and a committee at once formed to deal with its organisation4 ,in all these arrangements ,miss ,beale showed great strength of mind and self-control in being able to stand aside and let others work out the details of the scheme1 even submitting her own judgment to that of the younger ones1 whom she thought called upon to do the work4 ,yet she was in a true sense ,president of the ,guild1 guiding and directing where she would not command4 ,indeed1 this ever-growing society which multiplied interests for her was largely her own inception1 at a time when her special work1 the ,college1 was also increasing rapidly4 ,the power of mind which could keep the right hold on both is certainly rare4 ,the first committee consisted of associates of the ,college and a few other old pupils4 ,meetings were held to draw up the organisation of the new society1 and this was made known at large in a delightful article by ,mrs4 ,ashley ,smith in the ,magazine for spring #ahhd4 ,in this the writer adventured far enough into the future to be able to suggest the possibility1 at no very distant date1 of some corporate work1 #8such as is done by many boys' schools1' but in #ahhd the time for this had not arrived for ,cheltenham girls4 ,illustration3 ,the ,lower ,hall1 ,ladies' ,college ,cheltenham from a photograph by ,miss ,bertha ,synge4 ,the second large gathering of old pupils1 which took place on ,july #h and #i1 #ahhd1 is always reckoned as the first meeting of the ,guild1 the association being on that occasion formally founded under the name of #8,the ,guild of the ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college4' ,it is interesting to note that what then seemed a large gathering really included less than eighty former pupils of the ,college2 ten years later1 at the fourth ,guild meeting1 there were nearly five hundred1 and the number has increased ever since4 ,the daisy was chosen as an emblem for the ,guild3 its choice and its significance were explained by the ,president in her address on ,saturday1 ,july #i4 ,in a second address at this time1 given after the candidates for ,guild membership had received their #8,masonic sign1' ,miss ,beale dwelt chiefly on the practical questions arising out of the existence of the new association4 ,she spoke of the difficulty of decision among the many opinions which must necessarily exist in a large college2 she hoped that #8whatever decision might finally be arrived at1 all would cheerfully submit to it1 and if their own individual tastes were not in every case gratified1 would find their satisfaction in giving up their own wishes for the sake of the majority4 ,she herself had had to submit1 she hoped cheerfully1 to an adverse vote4' ,the rules were then read4 ,of these it is sufficient to say here that they made it difficult for any one whose life was spent in a mere pleasure-seeking spirit to be a member of the ,guild4 ,the rules were accepted for two years1 and two courses of study were suggested for junior members4 ,in the year following these meetings1 ,mrs4 ,ashley ,smith wrote an article for the ,magazine on the reports received from various members and on the general working of the ,guild1 which by the end of #ahhe numbered nearly two hundred members4 ,this is now an old story1 nor is there anything specially remarkable in the many details of work in ,sunday-schools and coffee-clubs4 ,yet even at the time when the ,guild1 compared with its present self1 looked little more than #8seven maids with seven mops1' the tale of individual work done shows that already much quiet persistent effort was being made by ,miss ,beale's old girls4 ,this association1 founded on principles rather than rules1 was indicative of its origin in a mind which habitually dwelt rather on being than doing4 ,the small beginning1 the gradual steady growth1 the outcome of ideals and thoughts1 were consistent with the whole of the ,college history4 ,and to re-read the story of the foundation of the ,guild is to remember once more how many quiet1 unobtrusive1 untiring workers have helped to make that history4 ,in especial1 the immense work and patience of the secretaries can perhaps never be adequately recognised3 the labour of merely reading and tabulating the reports was considerable4 #8,the ,general ,secretary1' wrote ,mrs4 ,ashley ,smith on one occasion1 #8on receiving the reports enters under more than sixty different headings the occupations of all the ,guild members4 ,it will be easily understood that the task of reducing to order and collating a chaotic mass of miscellaneous information on all subjects1 from the keeping of poultry to the study of ,hebrew1 from making the beds to organising institutes1 is not a very simple affair1 and that therefore an immense saving of time and trouble is effected when the proper form is used1 and it does not become necessary to wade through a letter full of apologies and exculpatory remarks1 before one can arrive at the gist of the report4' ,on another occasion1 after enumerating the different charitable and self-improving societies to which ,guild members belonged1 she said3 #8,it almost gives one a headache to read this long list of occupations2 and when at the end1 hoping for a little breathing space1 we come to an 8odd minute society10 it puts the finishing touch to the bewildering sensation of restless activity1 and one begins to wish for a 8,sit-down-in-peace-and-calm-yourself ,society40' ,the reports1 a matter of obligation to the junior members of the ,guild1 were often looked over by the ,president1 who would surprise the secretaries by her detailed knowledge of the home surroundings and characters of girls whom she hardly knew by sight4 #8,what is so-and-so doing now8' she would ask1 and on being told1 would say1 #8,she ought to be doing more1' or #8less1' and perhaps make some other criticism4 ,not less surprising was her memory of former discussions4 #8,she never forgot1' writes ,mrs4 ,griffith1 #8what had been said4 ,sometimes she began again1 continuing the conversation just where we left off1 after a three months' interval4' ,the secretaries were also impressed by the way in which the ,president held herself bound by its smallest rules4 ,miss ,helen ,mugliston1 who succeeded ,mrs4 ,griffith as ,general ,secretary in #ahih1 said ,miss ,beale was #8perfect to work under4 ,having given you the task1 she gave also her absolute trust and support throughout the whole of it4' ,the second meeting of the ,guild was held in ,june #ahhf1 lasting from a ,friday evening to the following ,tuesday morning4 ,the ,president's opening address dealt with work and duty4 ,this year1 for the first time1 the ,guild was also addressed by an outside speaker1 the ,dean of ,gloucester4 ,mrs4 ,ashley ,smith1 in summing up her impressions of the gatherings of this year1 rejoiced in the interest the members took in the proceedings4 #8,we cannot1' she added1 #8certainly be accused of a servile unanimity in opinions or in the expression of them2 but ,i hope we are united in underlying principles4' ,it was not until two years later that the sense of fellowship was strengthened1 and the individual desires to help others directed by the resolve to organise a corporate work1 a work in which not only all ,guild members might help according to their opportunities1 but in which also all old pupils and others connected with the ,college might be invited to join4 ,this was formally proposed at the ,guild meeting of #ahhh1 and an idea as to what shape it might take was thrown out in a paper then read1 which told for the first time something of what ,miss ,beale had done by means of the ,loan ,fund4 ,to say that ,miss ,beale wished the corporate work to be of such a nature as to carry on that which she had long been doing for impecunious students1 but feebly expresses what was really an earnest desire and hope4 ,the claim she had upon the ,guild1 the importance that must attach to her lightest wish1 was recognised2 and yet1--yet1 many felt that there were stronger reasons still why another kind of work should be chosen4 ,consequently no decision could be made at once1 and those who had heard and discussed the paper parted after merely voting that the ,guild #8should undertake some corporate work4' ,among so many workers there were necessarily many ideas2 the question was too important to be hastily decided1 and it was resolved to give time for suggestions to be made and considered before anything final was done4 ,the ,committee appointed to consider these reduced them to three schemes of work1 on which all members were asked to vote4 ,these were3-- #a4 ,a scheme for educating at ,college a few pupils who were worthy of education1 but unable to pay the fees4 #b4 ,a scheme for taking over an elementary school in order to work it through teachers who had been trained in ,college4 #c4 ,the third scheme1 which was carried1 was submitted to the ,guild in these words3 #8,that the corporate fund be devoted to starting and supporting a mission in one of our large towns1 the place to be decided by the votes of the ,guild ,members4' ,it was but natural that ,president and members should have different ideas on such an occasion4 ,dorothea ,beale1 who had never ceased to hear and obey the call she had received as a girl to help women1 and with them the race1 by means of improved education1 longed to see those she had taught and trained freely sharing with others the very same advantages they had received4 ,the difficulties which beset her own youth were still fresh in her mind4 ,the need for good teachers still existed4 ,she had seen the work she wanted the ,guild to take up in operation for years1 knew that it did not pauperise1 that it blessed giver and receiver1 and was increasingly fruitful1 like good seed in good ground4 ,on the other hand1 she had a profound suspicion of much charitable work of the day1 thinking that #8it will quickly perish because it does not aim at developing energy1 inward power4 ,to do for others what they ought to do for themselves is to degrade them in the order of creation4'#ei ,she could far more easily bear to see people suffering from hunger and nakedness than from loss of will power and sense of responsibility4 ,this was partly1 perhaps1 because she did not know nor in the least realise the miseries and difficulties of extreme poverty4 ,miss ,beale's misgivings about the ,east ,end work were probably never quite set at rest4 ,writing to ,mrs4 ,charles ,robinson in #ahii1 she said3 #8,i shall perhaps sleep two nights at ,st4 ,hilda's ,east4 ,i feel the whole question of ,settlements most difficult4 ,it was undertaken against my judgment1 and yet the guidance all the way seems to point to its being right4 ,sisters and ,deaconesses are much better for this work1 yet there are some whom we can enlist who will never join and could not join 8,orders40' ,the ,guild members who had been trained by their head not always acquiescingly to #8do the next thing1' but to think out questions1 to plan carefully for the best if hardest1 belonged to a new generation and had received another call4 ,they saw how greatly educated women were needed to deal with charity organisation1 with labour problems1 with the children of the poor in schools and workhouses4 ,many of them were already at work for these4 ,they felt1 too1 that they should take their part in helping to rouse others to study and work for the poor4 ,on the other hand1 they saw the need for cheap1 good girls' education to be one which was lessening every year4 ,they had never felt it themselves1 had had no struggle for training under pressure of adverse circumstances4 ,finally1 they must have known that it was work which ,miss ,beale would not fail to carry on1 meeting every necessity which was brought to her personal notice4 ,on ,may #f1 #ahhi1 a general meeting of the ,guild was held in ,london to consider further the lines on which the adopted scheme should be carried out4 ,it was decided that the ,guild ,settlement should be made in ,london1 in the parish of ,st4 ,john's1 ,bethnal ,green1 described by its vicar1 the ,rev4 ,g4 ,bromby1 who warmly welcomed the ,cheltenham workers1 as a #8typical ,east ,end parish of the better sort4' ,at this meeting the ,president introduced the subject by saying3 #8,i trust we shall be able to try to win harmony out of notes not altogether concordant4 ,some of us come with a feeling of disappointment that the scheme we desired has been rejected2--,i am one of these4 ,i not only accept my defeat1 ,i feel sure that you have sought guidance of that inward oracle which must ever be our supreme ruler1 you have done what conscience bade1 and so it is right4 ,as regards my own scheme1 ,i only allude to it to say1 that having now to continue it single-handed1 ,i cannot help you as much as ,i could wish1 and ,i just refer to it to-day in the hope that you will remember it when ,i am no longer here4' ,in these few words only did ,miss ,beale at the time announce her own disappointment and anxiety4 ,there was much more she might have said1 which she did in effect say in an early draft of her speech1 which she fortunately did not destroy4 ,here her misgivings show themselves plainly4 ,they were due to her foresight and judgment1 yet it is likely that in some ways the untried workers1 whom she feared were lightly taking upon themselves responsibilities to which they might prove unequal1 really knew more than herself of the scope and details of the actual task before them4 ,this is what ,miss ,beale wrote but did not say3-- #8,it is no use concealing from you1 for ,i could not1 that ,i am greatly disappointed4 ,but when ,i have said that1 ,i have done2 ,i accept the defeat4 ,others whose schemes have equally been rejected are suffering1 thinking1 perhaps1 it is hard they have been met with so little sympathy4 ,if they do not think well to join in this1 no one will blame them1 ,i hope1 but will believe that they refuse because they ought not to give except as conscience requires1 but let them give or spend in the best way they can all they would have bestowed on the ,guild scheme of their heart's choice4 #8,this matter has brought before me many things which seem to show that our organisation needs some more distinct ideal4 ,like some 8,topsy10 it could say in its infancy1 8'spects ,i growed60 ,but when it undertakes to do something on its own account1 then questions of power and how much power it should exercise1 the questions of law and liberty which need to be faced1 and which we shall1 ,i trust1 grow stronger and wiser in facing1--these have come before me with painful strength because as your ,president ,i had to face them4 ,i was strongly opposed to the ,london scheme2 ,i felt we were far too young1 both in the age of the majority of our members1 and also in the age of our organisation1 to undertake such a great scheme4 ,i had the strongest dislike to fashions in philanthropy1 and especially is it most undesirable to familiarise the young with lives led in the slums of heathen ,london4 ,only those whose faith has had years to grow strong seem called to such work4 #8,i could not see the ,head whom ,i could trust with its management1 and such a centre of work could not be ruled by several equal ,heads1 or by a committee with almost no experience and but little individual responsibility4 ,the whole thing seemed to me a mistake1 and my heart sank as ,i thought of myself as ,president over our ,guild1 working what seemed an impossible scheme4 ,yet it is one of the first principles of education to let children who are not grounded properly make mistakes and so learn where they fail4' ,much happened to reconcile ,miss ,beale to the ,settlement scheme4 ,miss ,catherine ,newman1 as her sister had done ten years before in aid of poor students1 volunteered to undertake the management of the work gratuitously1 and to pay her own expenses4 ,miss ,newman was an old ,college pupil and a member of the ,guild4 ,she was also a trained nurse1 with long experience of work among the poor4 ,miss ,newman's offer and the appeal of her old friend1 ,mr4 ,bromby1 had weight with ,miss ,beale4 ,she felt less anxious about the efforts of her #8children' if safe-guarded by the experience of those she knew and trusted4 ,miss ,newman could also sympathise with ,miss ,beale's own disappointment and anxiety1 while she was confident of her large-mindedness in this matter4 ,this may be gathered from a letter she wrote to her in the course of the proceedings at this time3-- #8 444 ,it is very good of you to set aside your own wishes and to throw yourself into this scheme4 ,i have thought many times since the corporate work was talked about1 that the freedom both teachers and old pupils felt in proposing schemes of work spoke volumes for their confidence in your generosity4 ,several members of the ,guild who felt drawn towards the mission scheme said to me1 8,if ,i thought ,miss ,beale would wish me to vote for the ,loan ,fund because it was her scheme ,i would do so1 but ,i believe that she would prefer that we should think for ourselves and vote for the scheme which most commends itself to us individually40 ,this confidence in your generosity and sense of justice struck me greatly2 they knew you too well to fear for an instant that you might resent their taking a different line1 and ,i felt sure from all ,i had ever known or seen of you that their confidence was not misplaced4 ,had you been able to unfold your scheme to them the result might have been very different1 but of course it is too late now4 ,if we were to renounce the idea of the ,home for workers in the ,east-end1 the elementary school would certainly take its place1 and ,i am sure that you have realised ere now that it would be unjust both to the workers and the parish in which the ,settlement is made to make it a temporary thing4 ,either it must be the corporate work of the ,guild or it must be given up altogether1--at least so it seems to me4 ,we could not expect enthusiasm either to work or support if it might be withdrawn at any moment4 ,as regards your scheme1 dear ,miss ,beale1 ,i am truly sorry that it had not really a fair chance from the accident of its not being ripe yet for publicity4 ,two years hence might have been soon enough1 yet ,i need not remind you that the 8corporate work0 was suggested by yourself4 ,i am not afraid to say1 however1 that your scheme is sure of support and success1 and this ,i trust while your powers are still unimpaired2 but if1 unfortunately1 your strength should oblige you to limit your useful labour before it is fairly launched1 ,i have every confidence that your friends and 8children0 would look upon it as a sacred legacy1 which it would be their pride and pleasure to inherit from you4' ,at the very moment that the ,cheltenham ,settlement was about to be opened in ,bethnal ,green1 the ladies of ,oxford were prepared to start one in the same district4 ,for the convenience of both1 an arrangement was made by which the two sets of workers could live together for a time1 under one head1 ,miss ,newman1 until the resources of each1 and the work they were called upon to do1 were better known4 ,mayfield ,house1 close to ,st4 ,john's ,church1 was therefore taken and formally opened as a ,ladies' ,settlement 7at that time the second in ,london71 on ,october #bf1 #ahhi4 ,four years later1 as suddenly as her sister at ,jersey ,house1 ,miss ,newman died at her post4 #8,what can one feel1' wrote a friend to ,miss ,beale1 #8except that her death seems to seal the whole life with the heroism of service4' ,this trouble was the first link in a chain of circumstances which led1 in the course of three or four years1 to the removal of the ,settlement to ,shoreditch1 where it became an important branch of that work to which ,miss ,beale gave the title of ,st4 ,hilda's4 ,,chapter ,,xi ,,st4 ,,hilda',s ,,work #8,thy kindred with the great of old4' ,,tennyson1 ,in ,memoriam1 lxxiv4 ,those who had often the advantage of hearing ,miss ,beale speak1 either in general addresses to present or past pupils1 or in the more regular course of literature lessons1 soon learned that there were certain heroic names which had for her an almost romantic fascination4 ,among those of great women who influenced her imagination are specially to be remembered ,st4 ,hilda1 ,st4 ,catherine of ,siena1 la ,mre ,anglique1 ,mme4 ,guyon4 ,of these the most dominant1 the most inspiring was that of the great ,northumbrian abbess1 known to those whom she taught and ruled by the name of #8,mother1' not by virtue of her office1 but on account of her signal piety and grace4#fj ,hilda1 the earnest student who #8had been diligently instructed by learned men1 who so loved order that she immediately began to reduce all things to a regular system4' ,hilda1 the patron of the first ,english religious poet1 #8who obliged those under her to attend much to the reading of the ,holy ,scriptures2 who taught the strict observance of justice and other virtues1 particularly of peace and charity4'#fa ,this great ,hilda and her work were to ,dorothea ,beale not merely romantic names1 they were an ideal1 an inspiration4 ,and when the due time came1 though for the sake of ,miss ,newman she hesitated for a moment over the alternative title of ,st4 ,margaret's ,hall1 the name of ,st4 ,hilda was the one she chose to grace her own foundations4 ,there are1 possibly1 members of the ,ladies' ,college who felt a pang of envy when the ,students' ,house became ,st4 ,hilda's ,college4 ,they could have borne to exchange the prim early ,victorian title bestowed by the godfathers of #ahef for this more inspiring name4 ,there is1 however1 consolation in the thought that the ,ladies' ,college is still free to adopt the name of its second founder4 ,st4 ,hilda's ,hall1 as it was at first called1 was formally opened on ,november #bg1 #ahhf2 but its real building was a much longer process1 even if dated only from ,miss ,margaret ,newman's death at the close of #ahgg4 ,miss ,beale thought much and anxiously how she could best lay out the money which she and her staff and some friends had given in order that ,miss ,newman's work might be carried on and enlarged4 ,she advised with a few who cared for education and for the ,college4 ,among those who helped and counselled were ,miss ,soames1 who subscribed largely to ,st4 ,hilda's1 and ,mr4 ,brancker1 some of whose letters on the subject remain4 ,if there seems now to be little that is original in the suggestions and plans discussed by ,miss ,beale and ,mr4 ,brancker1 it is because they were to a great extent pioneers1 and among the first to bring about a real system for attaining the educational objects they had at heart4 ,in #ahgh ,mr4 ,brancker wrote3-- #8,the object you advocate is a very desirable one1 and one ,i have longed for many a time as an adjunct of the ,ladies' ,college--but while we were struggling upwards ,i could never see an opportune time to advocate my ideas on the subject4 ,the means you suggest are very undesirable1 to my mind at least1 as partaking too much of the 8charitable object0 idea to commend themselves to me4 #8,so necessary do ,i consider the future training of those who in their turns have to teach that for the present ,i should be inclined to treat every case on its own merits2 as there may be many who may be anxious to get their education on such easy terms and yet have not the very least idea of imparting that knowledge to others1 and in such cases the object you seek is not attained4 #8,my idea1 which is perhaps a crude one1 would be that the capabilities of each pupil as regards teaching should be tested1 and if she showed suitable powers she should be drafted into one of the boarding-houses1 or if thought better into a separate house2 that the fees of the ,college in her case be remitted1 and that the expense of her board be paid all or in part by the ,college4 ,that for this she should engage to become a regular teacher2 that the ,college should have the first claim on her services1 and that she should pass all the necessary examinations appointed by the ,college4 ,if in a boarding-house she might assist in keeping order and authority1 not as a governess but as an elder pupil1--not as a spy but by moral power1 keep her position1 something like a prpostor in a public school2 a great deal of evil might then be prevented by being nipped in the bud4 ,should she eventually wish to take a ,college degree she should be assisted by the ,college if she remained with them or under their control4 ,my great object would be to get ladies to accept such a position1 as there must be many who would come within the rules of the ,college as to position who would be very glad to have such a vocation in prospect1 and the ,college ought to be in a position now1 unless the funds have been unnecessarily squandered1 to afford to assist such cases in the hope that in the future they would help it4 #8,such are my rough ideas on the subject1 as ,i do not believe in the isolation of those who want a practical knowledge of human nature to enable them to become teachers worth their salt4' ,in a second letter on the same subject ,mr4 ,brancker said3-- #8,i quite understand what you feel about this matter relating to the governess of the future1 and it was only my fear that you might be unwittingly getting into troubled waters that induced me to write you at once about it4 ,it is a very difficult question to solve1 and one that wants a good deal more thought so that no mistake may be made4 ,my plan is to take up the idea of a 8pupil teacher0 in ,government ,schools1 and from that form some plan for the education of those who aspire to be the teachers of the future4 ,i should then carry out the idea ,i have always entertained of giving a preference to our own pupils1 and working them up to our standard4 ,i have always regretted that we missed ,bessie ,calrow1 as she was a born teacher and would have delighted in the work4 ,it seems to me that as you do not take these pupils until they are seventeen1 you have a great chance among your own pupils1 and would certainly know their own character better than any stranger2 therefore1 to any one who had passed through the ,college--could pass the necessary examination1 and was willing to be such pupil teacher--,i would pay the ,college fees and half the boarding-house expenses1 or all if you like1 and would give her a fair trial1 and if at the end of twelve months1 or longer as might be thought desirable1 it was not satisfactory to all parties1 let her depart and no harm would be done4 ,this is a far better and more dignified position than being educated by charity2 and the person enjoying it would lose nothing of her dignity1 if it was not even added to by the position4 ,if the plan is to do any good it must be grafted on to the ,college1 and ,i for one should be very sorry to see that obliged to go to the public for any funds it requires to do good4 ,i would make the pupils sign nothing on my plan1 my hold upon them would be their association with the ,college4 ,i can quite understand the difficulties raised by the boarding-houses about new pupils at that age1 but with old ones that difficulty is at once removed2 as1 like the prpostors1 they would have certain privileges1 but at the same time they must submit to the discipline of the house4 ,my plan may be1 and no doubt is very crude1 but these are the lines ,i should start from and feel my way tentatively1 so as not to destroy the independence of the individual4 ,look where you get the best masters of public schools3--,the man who succeeds is a scholar and very likely ,fellow of his ,college2 he may have been ,bible-clerk1 sizar1 or undergraduate1 and so has worked his way upwards and obtained his position from hard work1 thus adding to his dignity and power of teaching4 ,and ,i should follow as much as possible in these tracks4' ,eventually the ideas expressed in these letters were carried out in the arrangement of ,st4 ,hilda's1 which became not only a home for pupils who could not afford the normal boarding fees1 but also a residence for senior students who needed more liberty than they could have in the other houses4 ,by this means the house was put on a self-supporting basis4 ,miss ,beale could have borne with no other4 ,the ,loan ,fund1 up to this time1 had been the means of assisting over a hundred students4 ,miss ,beale now asked a few personal friends to support it1 pointing out that such a means of help was far better than any system of scholarships1 which she never ceased to dislike1 and against which she continually spoke and wrote4 ,her chief objections to scholarships have been already noted4#fb ,she was moreover opposed to the principle of material giving involved in the system4 ,she only cared1 at any time1 to give what would embrace and ennoble character4 ,she thought it best that people should pay for advantages received1 thought they would value them more1 thought it made girls more careful and self-denying when first the management of money came into their own hands1 to feel that it was not their own to do as they pleased with4 ,a mere gift seemed to her like a dead thing compared with the money which1 lent and returned and then lent to others1 was thus used over and over again4 ,yet the want of response to appeals for the ,loan ,fund must have been partly due to a difference of opinion on its method rather than to want of sympathy with ,miss ,beale's aims4 ,there are many who feel an objection to saddling with a loan a young teacher starting on her work1 or who recognise that an unpaid loan may help to lower the standard in money affairs1 and on that account shrink from giving help in this way4 ,there are few indeed who could lend money so successfully as ,miss ,beale could1 because there are few who could so successfully command repayment4 ,of the first #ejj advanced by the ,loan ,fund1 #die was repaid in a very few years4 ,the pressure she would exercise for repayment sometimes led to the wrong notion that she cared for money for its own sake4 ,she had at all times great skill in wringing the utmost use out of a sum of money to promote those ends for which she lived2 but in the ordinary commonplace sense she was indifferent to money and the things for which it is usually exchanged4 ,her own personal life was as bare of luxury when she was a rich woman as it was when her capital was reckoned in hundreds only4 ,but she did care deeply for character1 and anxiously avoided all forms of easy generosity which might injure those she sought to help4 ,for several years before a turf was cut for ,st4 ,hilda's ,college1 ,miss ,beale was1 as she would herself have expressed it1 building it3 student teachers were being trained in the ,college1 and in #ahha one of these passed the ,cambridge ,examination in the ,theory and ,practice of ,education4 ,gradually she gathered an increasing body of students in a separate house--a house which was as unlike as any could possibly be to the beautiful home which was shortly to be opened4 ,she waited year after year for money with which to build without interrupting the work she had begun in assisted education1 and for the reasons named made no public appeal for it4 ,it was enough1 she maintained1 to state the real needs--to show the value of a work by the way it was done--and thus let it make its own appeal for support4 ,she had a horror of plant which might be a mere empty shell1 or which in its establishment might become a diversion of energy from spiritual work4 ,she felt this especially in the matter of church building1 as may be seen in the following extract from a letter3 #8,what ,i disapproved of was the amount of begging for the ,cathedral4 ,i do not disapprove of it1 but ,i think you know what ,i felt4 ,however1 the ,bishop will do all he can to make it a strong spiritual centre4 ,i can never get over the feeling of spiritual destitution at one very beautiful cathedral4' ,it was also1 perhaps less consciously1 a principle not to take money except from those who were willing for her to carry out her own ideas4 ,she wrote to one friend in #ahhh3-- #8,as regards our ,students' ,home1 ,i have given up the idea of a public meeting4 ,it seemed not right to refuse the offer at first4 ,but ,i shall go on with the work1 and ,i doubt not the money will come4 ,there is such a great need for training teachers4 ,if we had a meeting things might be said and money be given in a way which would pledge us1 or be thought to pledge us1 and now we shall be free4' ,and again in #ahhd to one who helped her ,oxford scheme3-- #8,i grieve over that ,protestant spirit which forbids people to read books1 to associate with people1 who do not think precisely in their way4 ,is this done in ,science8 ,no2 we put various theories before the student and show why we accept them4 ,but we don't ever want to impose our beliefs2 so ,i want not to impose mine in religion1 but to bring the learner to the 8fountain of living water40 ,any transferred opinion is without root1 and cannot endure the storm4 ,teachers must1 if they are to help1 gain the sympathy they need by entering into the religious modes of seeing and feeling of many different souls4 ,i think in a ,university town they would come in contact with various influences1 and in a house like ,st4 ,hilda's ,i should want thoughtful people who have gone through some of the experience of life1--old teachers to help the young4 ,there is a little more of my dream1 but ,i am quite content to wait4 ,if it be ,god's will that such a house should grow up1 the way will be pointed out4 ,i felt ,i could not say all this to you when we meet1 and ,i have got to care that you should not misunderstand me4' ,as the time to begin the actual erection of the house drew near she had no exultation over the fulfilment of a dream4 ,yet in the beginning of ,august #ahhe1 surrounded by young teachers from her own and other schools drawn together for a ,retreat and a brief educational conference1 her mind was naturally full of that dream4 ,some few of her own thoughts about it she wrote down2 such as the following1 with their characteristic heading3-- #8,sunday1 ,aug4 #b1 #ahhe--on ,st4 ,hilda's4 ,some thoughts at church4 #8,god fulfils ,himself in many ways4 ,lest one good custom should corrupt the world4 #8,how often have we seen endowments thus rendered injurious1 not helpful4 ,so it is with many of the institutions around us4 ,can we hope better things from this one8 ,no1 we can only hope for it not a perfection but a temporary usefulness4 8,he1 after he had served his generation according to the will of ,god1 fell on sleep02--so it is with men1 so with institutions1 they need not a body but a spirit4 ,as long as the spirit lives the body is the instrument of all good works4 ,when the spirit dies1 the body becomes the source of disease and corruption4 ,for this reason ,i have cared more to awaken the spirit than to gather funds and build first4 ,the spirit will1 ,i hope1 shape the body4 #8,now what we want is a body of women whose one desire is to consecrate themselves to the ministry of teaching4 #88,get work in this world4 #8,be sure 'tis better than what you work to get40 #8,ye are the salt of the earth1--light of the world1 said the ,lord to the teachers ,he sent forth4' ,the first stone of ,st4 ,hilda's ,college was quietly laid by ,canon ,medd 7one of the trustees and a member of the ,ladies' ,college ,council7 in #ahhd4 ,the opening1 which took place on ,november #bg1 #ahhe1 was far more dignified than that its illustrious parent had known in #ahef4 #8,the ceremony of opening the institution1' so ran the account in the ,cheltenham ,examiner1 #8which was performed by the ,bishop of the diocese1 took place at three o'clock1 and was attended by a large and influential company1 who assembled in the study1 a spacious--but on this occasion none too spacious--apartment on the ground floor4' ,among those present were the ,dean of ,winchester1#fc then ,chairman of the ,college ,council1 who conducted the short service1 the late ,bishop of ,ely1 and many of the clergy of the town1 besides the friends and benefactors of ,st4 ,hilda's4 ,on entering the study the eye was caught at once by the words which ,miss ,beale quoted so often that they seemed like the motto of her work3 #8,knowledge puffeth up1 but charity buildeth up4' ,here1 in this #8,godly ,place1' as he called the house1 the ,bishop of ,gloucester1 who since #ahge had been both nominally and actually ,visitor of the ,ladies' ,college1 gave an address full of sympathy for the ideals of the founder4 ,thus the first resident ,training ,college for teachers1 other than elementary1 was planned1 and built1 and opened4 ,in order to make its position more permanent it was constituted into a separate ,college with a ,council of its own4 ,in #ahhf a statue of ,st4 ,hilda was presented and placed in the hall4 ,on unveiling it1 ,miss ,beale spoke of the ,saint's life1 and especially of her work as a teacher4 ,she concluded with a thought1 the deeper for the personal touch in it1 of memory of what she had had to bear in the past1 and indeed in later years also1 of misconception and misrepresentation4 #8,shall ,i touch in conclusion upon the mythical elements in ,st4 ,hilda's story8 ,myths are truths expressed in poetry4 ,you see the ammonite at her feet1 one of the serpents that she1 like ,st4 ,patrick1 is fabled to have turned into stone4 ,there may have been1 once1 at ,whitby1 serpents who1 with the poisoned tooth of calumny and evil-speaking1 wounded and slew4 ,i think she turned them into stone with her look of sorrow4 ,we have not represented the wild geese1 whom she is said to have destroyed because they wasted her lands4 ,i half believe that story too2 ,i feel sure that all these disappeared from her abbey lands1 but perhaps they were turned into swans4' ,st4 ,hilda's ,college was scarcely built and opened before it was necessary to enlarge it by adding a new wing4 ,it was not until this had been done that ,miss ,beale felt free to devote herself to another foundation1 which also was to bear the name of the sainted ,abbess4 ,as early as the year #ahhb ,miss ,beale1 attracted by the increasing facilities offered to women by the elder universities1 had purchased three acres of land in north ,oxford4 ,these she retained for building uses should the right moment or a definite reason for such a purpose occur4 ,but no one showed much sympathy with the scheme1 there was no offer of money1 and for long much of her own capital was absorbed in ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,cheltenham4 ,impulsive to a fault as she often was1 ,miss ,beale could school herself to wait4 ,after five years came an opportunity of purchasing a ready-made college in ,dr4 ,child's beautiful house on the ,cherwell4 ,it seemed well to accept this1 and begin there the new house of education4 ,there were many reasons why ,miss ,beale allowed so long a time to elapse between her purpose and her act4 ,her own ideas and her aims for her ,hall at ,oxford shaped themselves but gradually4 ,somerville ,college#fd and ,lady ,margaret ,hall were still in their first youth4 ,miss ,beale's scheme seemed uncalled for where there were already so many workers for the cause of women's education in the field4 ,her educational experience had been different from that of those whose minds had developed among university surroundings2 her methods were unacademic1 unconventional4 ,consequently there were some to warn her as she prepared to take her new step3 #8,the ,university may easily receive a shock from which it will take long to recover4' ,it may well be asked even now1 as it was often asked at the time1 why ,miss ,beale wanted to come to ,oxford at all1 and particularly while she was uncertain of the value of ,university ,examinations for women4 ,but she valued even more than the certificate gained by taking schools the atmosphere of ,oxford4 ,she saw that the students of ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,cheltenham1 missed this4 ,when she founded that institution she had written of it1 that she hoped it #8would be a ,hall similar to the ,halls at ,oxford and ,cambridge4' ,now she felt the need of what only the older universities could give4 ,she hoped her new house might become a place of intellectual enlargement and refreshment such as ,oxford could best supply to some who had already begun their work of teaching1 and who needed new thoughts and inspiration1 more time for thought1 a higher intellectual standard4 ,she thought that a year at ,oxford could supply that feature in education which is sometimes more developed at home4 #8,i have often felt 444 that a year in which they should be allowed to expatiate in intellectual pastures in a way that we older women used to do before examinations for women existed1 would be of great value4 ,and they can do this best in some ,university town1 where they can have libraries and museums and such lectures and private help as they most require--both hearing and asking questions1 rather than being asked and answering4444 ,many could take one year who could not take three4444 ,the students of ,st4 ,hilda's 7,oxford7 will have the same opportunities of attending lectures and offering themselves for examinations as at the other ,ladies' ,colleges--but we should not press examination upon any who can do better work without4 ,of course we must be assured that those who come to us will work seriously4' ,yet these reasons were secondary4 ,the purchase of three acres of ground at ,oxford was a definite result of her own suffering of mind in #ahhb4 ,as she emerged from that she at once began to build in vision a house where teachers should be established in the faith1 where they should learn to feel that their calling was not to do mere journeyman work1 but to deal with the deep problems of life4 ,finally1 it may be added that1 whether conscious of it or not1 she could not keep herself out of the great movement which was enabling women to share with men many of the incomparable advantages of ,university life1 she had also her own conception of what ,university life might do for women1 and by means of a ,college at ,oxford for her own ,college at ,cheltenham4 ,for ,cheltenham the connection would be of great value4 ,seeing all that might be won by a well-placed move1 she planned that move1 waited1 then made it at the right moment4 #8,i bewail your news1' wrote an ,oxford friend to whom she communicated the fact that ,st4 ,hilda's was about to be opened1 #8and disclaim all responsibility for your mistake4' ,miss ,beale opened her ,hall and begged the students to accept the words ,non frustra vixi as their motto1 that being the thought which the ammonite at the feet of ,st4 ,hilda's statue now suggested to her4 ,in ,october #ahic seven students took up their residence at ,st4 ,hilda's4 ,mrs4 ,burrows1 who had had a ,college boarding-house at ,cheltenham1 came to be head of the new ,hall1 assisted by her daughter1 who had been a student at ,lady ,margaret ,hall4 ,the house was formally but quietly opened on ,november #f by the ,bishop of the diocese1 ,dr4 ,stubbs1 who placed himself at ,miss ,beale's disposal for all arrangements4 #8,i will keep1' he wrote1 #8,november #f free for ,miss ,beale1 but she must let me hear what1 when1 and how what is to be done'2 and to ,miss ,beale1 #8,you do not want me to bring robes on the #fth1 do you8 ,a line to reassure me would be grateful4' ,on the occasion of the opening1 after the little service conducted by the ,dean of ,winchester1 the ,bishop of ,oxford spoke a few #8grave and weighty words' on the duty of #8self-culture of the whole mind1 soul1 and spirit4' ,the ,dean1 who thanked him for his address1 said that #8the new venture of the ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college was by no means so ambitious as the ,bishop seemed to think4' ,he spoke of the way in which it might prepare women to be of real service in their generation1 and added3 #8,one cannot think of this opening day for the ,oxford ,st4 ,hilda's without strong emotions of gratitude and hope4 ,this is the crown and highest result of all that work for women's education which has been carried on under ,miss ,beale's wise rule at ,cheltenham these many years past2 the ,college1 with its varieties of activity1 and its eight hundred students1 justly claims to be represented here in the home of highest education4' ,illustration3 ,photo4 ,w4 ,h4 ,rogers ,s4 ,hilda's ,hall1 ,oxford4 ,among the friends gathered for this opening ceremony was the founder of the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham1 ,canon ,bellairs4 ,he welcomed this house in ,oxford1 though he would have named it differently4 #8,i am very glad to hear1' he had written a month before1 #8that you are starting what will no doubt become a veritable ,college4 ,you should christen it at once4 ,st4 ,clare would be appropriate4 ,she founded an ,order1 and your ,college will be the foundation of an order4 ,i do hope the ,g4 ,w4 ,r4 will alter its time-table to suit your convenience4 ,it would do so if it had as high an opinion of your excellence as the ,father of your ,college1 and your ,pupils and all that know you have4 ,fancy1 thirty-five years since we first met6 ,what a period for evolution4444 ,i should like very much to have a chat with you to see where you are now4' ,after five years1 ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,oxford1 was recognised by the ,association for the ,education of ,women in ,oxford as ,st4 ,hilda's ,hall4 ,miss ,beale finally1 in #aijj1 connected it with ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,cheltenham1 by presenting it to the ,association of that ,college4 ,that ,miss ,beale was fully alive to changes that must come in the course of time to such an institution as ,st4 ,hilda's ,hall1 and could be content to see her own personal wishes set aside in everything that did not affect the essential life of the place1 is clear from the following letter to ,mrs4 ,wells in ,january #aijc3-- #8,thanks for your nice letter and the suggestions4 ,i think with you that the giving of scholarships will have to be reconsidered1 and some clear rules made4 ,i am1 however1 no less strongly opposed to the modern slave trade than before1 and should be much grieved if we entered upon it4 ,i see you would limit the giving to those who need help4 ,of course ,i see that ,i can no longer have the freedom ,i had in choosing scholars when the house was mine1 and ,i alone was responsible for all expenses1 and ,mrs4 ,hay allowed me to dispose of her gifts1 but ,i do hope we shall go on somewhat the same lines4 #8#a4 ,that we shall not ask for money4 #8#b4 ,that we shall not advertise in order to get scholars4 #8#c4 ,that we shall not pledge ourselves to choose merely by intellectual pre-eminence4 #8#d4 ,i think we are justified in giving the preference to ,cheltenham girls4 #8,might we not say that a scholarship should be offered on certain fixed conditions to certain girls1 say to associates and to those who1 not having been long enough to gain this1 should have taken a high rank in the ,cambridge room4' ,the year marked by this crown and result of labour was saddened by the death of ,miss ,catherine ,newman at ,mayfield ,house4 ,it was a death which caused not only personal sorrow1 but extreme perplexity and loss to all connected with the ,mission4 ,they found themselves at the end of four years' trial of their scheme without a head1 with a scattered band of workers1 and an insanitary house4 ,no one felt the sorrow of it all more than ,miss ,beale2 no one was more courageous in meeting it4 ,the necessary1 difficult1 and toilsome work which was the result of the crisis did not indeed fall to her share1 but to that of some members of the committee on whom the responsibility specially pressed4 ,but such difficulties to be met1 such a death for a cause1 were exactly what roused ,miss ,beale to feel the worth of it as she had never done before4 ,a small untiring sub-committee was formed1 with ,mrs4 ,batten as secretary1 to re-arrange the work4 ,the cost of efficient drainage operations was so heavy that at first it seemed better to seek a new house for the ,settlement than to undertake such a great expense4 ,a long search in the neighbourhood for such a house proved fruitless4 ,it therefore became a question whether the ,guild members should move their work from the place they had deliberately chosen at a large general meeting1 or go to the expense required for making ,mayfield ,house fit for habitation4 ,however1 an appeal to the surveyor resulted in the cost of the drainage work being thrown upon the landlord1 who consequently made harder terms for his tenants4 ,the question whether to stay or go came before the ,guild in #ahid1 and a vote for continuing the work at ,mayfield ,house was passed by a large majority4 ,after an interval of some months the house was re-opened under a new ,lady ,warden1 ,miss ,corbett1--no ,cheltenham worker having been found to undertake it4 ,in her first report ,miss ,corbett was able to show a full complement of workers4 ,there was no falling off1 but in less than two years it became evident that a more complete change must be made4 ,the ,oxford workers1 who by a temporary arrangement lived at first in ,mayfield ,house1 had now a prosperous ,settlement of their own--,st4 ,margaret's--in the very same square as ,mayfield ,house4 ,this ,settlement of the ,ladies' ,branch of the ,oxford ,house could not well be in any other neighbourhood4 ,it was seen to be ludicrous that two large communities of women workers should concentrate their energies on one small corner of the vast field of ,london work4 ,added to this1 the high rent and rates of ,mayfield ,house pointed to the need of a change1 and at the ,guild meeting of #ahif it was definitely proposed to move either to ,east ,ham or ,lambeth4 ,finally1 however1 ,shoreditch was chosen1 a district having sore needs1 and near enough to ,bethnal ,green to enable those members of the ,settlement engaged there in ,board ,school management1 charity organisation1 and other extra parochial work still to carry it on4 ,then came the question of a house4 ,there was none4 ,it was clearly necessary to build1 but for so large an undertaking the reserve fund was insufficient4 ,miss ,beale1 always averse to begging for money1 refused to make any definite appeal for charity1 but as a happy inspiration1 the idea came to her that the ,guild should meet the difficulty with the same kind of means used by ,mrs4 ,grey in starting high schools in #ahgd4 ,this idea took shape in ,february #ahig4 ,miss ,verrall1 who had been ,treasurer of the ,settlement from the beginning1 sent out notices to members of the ,guild to inquire whether shares for #cjjj would be taken up1 and a ready response was given1 all the shares being quickly appropriated within a fortnight4 ,this1 which seems to be a mere business transaction1 was really a great deal more4 ,it was rather a channel for interest and help which had been so far unable to force their way freely4 ,the money was subscribed in the form of debenture stock at three per cent41 repayable at the end of eighty years4 #chjj was subscribed within a fortnight by #caj subscribers4 ,a large part came from women to whom the sacrifice of control or recovery of the capital made it practically a gift4 ,to most the yearly-paid few shillings of interest meant little in comparison with a few pounds available for immediate expenditure4 ,of the money subscribed1 over #djj has now been released by gift from the holders4 ,other holders have authorised the ,council of ,st4 ,hilda's ,east to retain their interest4 ,this brings in about #cj a year4 ,the transaction was a fine example of ,miss ,beale's use of this world's goods1 as means to great ends1 and a fine instance of the response she could command from those she had led to her own point of view4 ,generous aid came also from ,mr4 ,dutton1 whose sister was an old ,cheltonian1#fe and who undertook all the legal business gratuitously2 also from the honorary architect1 ,mr4 ,philip ,day1 the husband of an old pupil1 who volunteered his services for the new house4 ,the workers found temporary quarters during the building1 which took less than a year2 and on ,april #bf1 #ahih1 the house was opened by ,dr4 ,creighton1 the ,bishop of ,london1 under the name of ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,shoreditch4 ,for ,miss ,beale remained faithful to the name and all the ideas it implied for her4 ,on the letter of a friend who wrote1 #8,could not the new house be called ,cheltenham ,house or some such1 binding it to the ,college8 ,it would be better than a picturesque saint'--she wrote1 #8,i disagree4' ,mrs4 ,reynolds1 an old pupil1 became head of the ,settlement during the busy time of furnishing and organisation of work in a new centre4 ,a year later she was succeeded by another old pupil1 ,miss ,bruce1 the present ,lady ,warden1 who had worked in the ,settlement from the first4 ,since that time the house has twice been enlarged4 ,the growth of the ,settlement1 as its beginning had been1 was marked by the loss through death of an enthusiastic worker when ,mrs4 ,moyle1 who was for a time its secretary1 died in ,july #ahii4 ,as the permanence of the ,settlement became assured1 and the interest of both past and present pupils increased1 being augmented by the organisation of shares1 and by the formation of ,st4 ,hilda's ,association1 ,miss ,beale's own interest in the work grew4 ,she regarded ,st4 ,hilda's ,east less as a centre of help for the poor than as a place of training for workers4 ,in this aspect it appealed to her as rightly an integral part of the work of the ,college4 ,in the year #ahih1 which she said might be called for the ,college an annus mirabilis1 she was able to point to the three institutions bearing the name of ,st4 ,hilda1 each firmly established1 flourishing1 and full of promise of future usefulness4 #8,this year ,st4 ,hilda's1 enlarged from six to sixty students1 is full and free from debt4 #8,this year the link with the ,university of ,oxford1 so early formed1 has been made permanent by ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,oxford1 becoming a ,hall of the ,university4 #8,above all1 this year ,st4 ,hilda's ,east has been built by the spontaneous co-operation of past and present girls1 and this has specially cheered us1 that those who have left us for other spheres1 the ,heads of other great ,schools1 still stretch out their hands to us1 work with us in the ,guild and the ,mission1 and the old ties are not broken4' ,but the three great institutions bearing the name of ,st4 ,hilda by no means included all that thought-training work which was what ,miss ,beale specially associated with it4 ,the existence of ,st4 ,hilda's ,college at ,cheltenham made it convenient1 if not imperative1 to find exercise for the energy there inspired and directed1 and to supply classes for practice4 ,to keep this stream of energy within her own guidance for a longer period than the time of training involved1 it was necessary to have scope for it at hand4 ,even the great and growing ,college was not large enough to employ all the workers it trained1 and the ,principal was ever alive to the necessity of having a certain number of teachers from outside1 bringing with them fresh ideas and methods4 ,the ,kindergarten was the first addition to the ,ladies' ,college proper to need such young helpers as ,miss ,beale now had at her disposal4 ,it began1 like ,miss ,beale's other creations1 without a local habitation of its own in #ahgf4 ,the ,college1 owing to the quick perception of its ,lady ,principal1 who was sensitive to each fresh tendency in education1 was one of the first schools in ,england to avail itself of the ,kindergarten mistresses trained by ,madame ,michaelis1 who began her work in her own house at ,croydon as early as #ahgd4 ,miss ,beale at once secured a mistress1 and on her arrival a number of little boys and girls were immediately found to constitute a ,kindergarten in ,miss ,beale's own drawing-room4 #8,the' drawing-room1 as she always called it1 did not well bear out its title4 ,as a baby-class room it looked well4 ,morris's daisy and columbine paper1 then a new thing1 was on the walls1 to suggest the thought1 which was probably correct1 that in first choosing it ,miss ,beale had already an intention of beginning a ,kindergarten1 though she did not find it advisable to mention it then to the ,council4 ,some of the younger teachers in ,college helped a little with this baby-class4 ,the system and organisation1 the carefully trained head1 all seemed rather alarming in those days when ,froebelian ideas and ,german methods were little known in ,england4 ,as early as #ahgf there were twenty-five children in the ,kindergarten1 for which a classroom had to be found in the ,college4 ,in #ahha ,miss ,welldon came to ,cheltenham as head of the ,kindergarten4 ,hers was one of the first appointments made by the ,croydon ,kindergarten ,company1 which had been founded in #ahgf1 with ,madame ,michaelis as ,principal4 ,in #ahhb the new room1 purposely built and fitted for a ,kindergarten1 was opened4 ,it was much enlarged in #ahhg4 ,but soon again more scope was needed for the large number of students who now flocked to ,cheltenham4 ,miss ,beale could not bear to let one of these escape her4 ,she recognised their needs1 she saw their possible value4 ,there were then very few places in ,england where they could be trained2 the demand for ,kindergarten mistresses daily increased4 ,the immediate difficulty was met in #ahhi by the establishment of a ,kindergarten school in connection with ,st4 ,stephen's ,church in ,cheltenham1 supported by the vicar of the parish and a few voluntary contributors4 ,this was staffed by ,kindergarten students of the ,ladies' ,college4 ,fifty-seven children actually appeared in the school the first day1 and the numbers rapidly increased in spite of the fact that each child paid twopence weekly4 ,five years later ,college students penetrated into a still poorer school at ,naunton1 a hamlet adjoining the town of ,cheltenham4 ,in #ahif the infant school of the parish of ,holy ,trinity in the town invited teachers from the ,college4 ,in #ahhi ,cambray ,house was offered for sale4 ,miss ,beale1 who had a strong lingering affection for this first home of her school1 had with regret seen it #8alienated to barbarian boys1' the trees cut down1 and the garden turned into an asphalted playground4 ,the building was well fitted for the school purposes for which it had been adapted and long used4 ,there was enough space in the part which had not been altered1 and which was not wanted for a day-school1 to be utilised as a boarding-house4 ,miss ,beale seized the chance she saw of opening a school which should serve the double purpose of taking overflow pupils or others for whom1 for many reasons1 the ,ladies' ,college was not suited1 and of affording an opening under her own eye for some of the teachers she was training4 ,the rules for admission1 discipline1 etc41 were identical with those of the ,college4 ,by this time1 too1 she saw the use of the racquet-courts and tennis-grounds4 ,it was a great satisfaction to get back this house4 ,she wrote of it to ,miss ,arnold3-- #8,i dare not take any extra fatigue1 as ,i have so much on my hands--,i must try to be alone for a while4 ,i have just bought back the old ,cambray ,house in which ,i began thirty-one years ago4 ,i want a second ,miss ,wilderspin1 ,i have got to put it in order and furnish by ,may4444 ,i heard ,canon ,body at ,all ,saints1 ,margaret ,street1 last ,friday4 ,it was a very good sermon1 and seemed to fit in well with the thoughts that came to me1 as ,i had just got my offer for ,cambray accepted1 rather to my surprise4' ,in #ahie ,cambray was enlarged at a cost of about #bjjj1 and in ,october #ahig ,miss ,beale1 by deed of gift1 made over the property to the ,ladies' ,college1 though it was arranged that she should still continue there the school and boarding-house4 ,miss ,beale marked this return of ,cambray ,house1 #8enlarged and alive again with girls1' into the possession of the ,college1 as another notable event of the annus mirabilis4 ,cambray ,house1 on its acquisition by the ,college through the gift of ,miss ,beale1 was leased to her for a nominal rent2 the school and boarding-house being carried on as a private venture until #aijf1 when their existence was recognised in the ,college prospectus for the first time4 ,miss ,beale spent another #bjjj out of her own income upon additions and improvements after she had made over the house to the ,college4 ,this was a large sum1 but even from a financial point of view by no means wasted4 ,in five years the profits of school and boarding-house amounted to #ajjj1 for which ,miss ,beale planned further fruitful use4 ,cambray ,school1 or1 to give it its true title1 ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college ,school1 and ,cambray boarding-house1 which took pupils belonging to both the new school and the ,college1 was not the only undertaking for which ,miss ,beale made herself personally responsible4 ,she also started1 and placed in a good financial position1 two cheap boarding-houses1 ,st4 ,helen's and ,st4 ,austin's1 and in course of time presented them to the ,college4 ,her position in regard to all these institutions was surely very unusual1 not to say unique4 ,the foundation of a school of over one hundred pupils1 and of houses containing the same number of boarders1 would be a respectable life's work for many a woman4 ,this work appears to have been only one of the many occupations ,miss ,beale found for the little leisure left her by the cares of the great ,college and its ever-multiplying interests4 ,it was perhaps primarily interest in young teachers which led ,miss ,beale to join a movement made in #ahig to induce ladies to take up work in elementary schools4 ,miss ,beale was present at a large meeting held that year in ,westminster ,town ,hall1 when the need and importance of this work were set forth in speeches by the ,bishop of ,stepney1#ff ,sir ,joshua ,fitch1 and others4 ,as a result a ,government ,training ,department was at once formed at the ,ladies' ,college1 and work began with seven students1 who in the same year were encouraged by addresses from ,sir ,h4 ,e4 ,oakeley1 ,h4,m4,i41 and ,sir ,joshua ,fitch4 ,the field of practice for these students was found in ,all ,saints' ,schools1 where there were four departments all supplied with the best apparatus4 ,other schools in the town were also glad at different times to receive these teachers4 ,miss ,beale became much interested in the work1 and proposed to build a practising school of her own for the elementary department of the ,college1 engaged a head-mistress1 and bought land for building4 ,then in #aija came the regulations for local education committees1 which would have put ,miss ,beale's school under local control4 ,she therefore gave up the idea of building and sold her land4 ,later regulations made her find it impossible to continue the elementary work on the lines she wished4 ,the ,government demands proved a fetter to one who felt she should be free to work towards her ideal4 ,to her mind the real progress of elementary education in the country depended1 not on the #8introduction of new subjects of instruction1 which must impose new and burdensome labour on teachers and children4 ,it should be gained by the better training of teachers1 by the adoption of better methods1 by a wiser economy of time1 and by showing teachers how to put more knowledge1 more skill1 more thought1 more love1 and more enthusiasm into their work4' ,the legislation of #aija made her feel that #8,my ,lords' did not recognise these principles as all-important2 that they undervalued such an effort as she was making at ,cheltenham2 that they were unjust to voluntary schools4 ,she felt as if she were playing an unfair game1 and declined any longer to help forward a movement of which she could not see the goal4 ,it may be marked also that she could never feel full sympathy for free education4 ,from this time she again limited herself to training secondary teachers4 ,conditions which made elementary training the one serious work which ,miss ,beale took up only to abandon it1 are indeed to be regretted4 ,the magnificent plant1 the fine opportunities for learning and practising1 such as the ,ladies' ,college could supply1 above all the large-minded teaching1 the sense of real education which the ,lady ,principal would give1 were thus lost to a cause which affects the wellbeing of the whole nation4 ,the ,secondary ,training ,department became a recognised division of the ,college in #ahhe4 ,so high a value did ,miss ,beale put upon this that she wrote of the work of the mistress in whose charge it was1 as #8only second in importance to that of the ,head4' ,st4 ,hilda's work1 using the term which ,miss ,beale herself would have used1 meant much more than teaching definite subjects and preparing for examinations3 it meant inspiration and the leading out of minds4 ,it demanded unlimited devotion to a cause4 ,it is probable that ,miss ,beale had for long cherished1 and had only gradually relinquished a hope1 though she never formed any definite plan1 of seeing arise out of her work for education a body of women willing to form a teaching order4 ,opposed to sisterhood schools as she was1 chiefly because her ideal of education was so high and apart1 that she could not bear to see it receive in any way a secondary place1 she recognised the immense value that some kind of rule would have1 if voluntarily imposed for the sake of education4 ,in other words1 while she did not like to see people taking up teachers' work because they were ,sisters1 she would have liked to see those she inspired and trained voluntarily take upon themselves some of the restrictions of a ,sister's life because they were teachers4 ,the thought may have come to her first when1 in #ahef and #aheh1 ,mrs4 ,lancaster pressed her to undertake penitentiary work under rule4 ,it was this which led to the severity of her dress and grave demeanour at ,casterton1 this which was echoed in a half-expressed wish that her staff at ,cheltenham should wear black4 ,when1 after long years of waiting1 it became her part to train women for the work of education1 the aim of inducing them to adopt a separate devoted life1 with or without visible signs of it1 was ever before her4 ,now that ,st4 ,hilda's work may be witnessed in the three great institutions bearing this name1 it is of no common interest to trace ,miss ,beale's own plan for its development4 ,the plan itself and the noble ideal behind it are not more remarkable than the ability with which she waited1 resigned her individual fancy1 and became an agent rather than an author4 ,the following extract 7circa #ahhd7 states her first design3-- #8,it is thought that a protest in act is specially needed in these days1 now that teachers are so highly paid1 and that an association of teachers who should be ready to take up any work required1 whether it was paid or not1 would be able to carry on work more effectively and continuously than an unorganised body of women4 #8,it is proposed1 therefore1 that after three years1--ten of those who agree in this general principle should unite together as members of the ,society of ,st4 ,hilda1--that they should pay1 if young1 into the funds of the ,society whatever they earn from that time 7but keeping complete control over any invested property71 the ,society providing them a fixed salary1 a home when disengaged or out of health1 but holding a right to send them out to any work which seems needed4 ,the community may1 if two-thirds agree1 reject any member on returning to her what she has paid in1 minus a fair sum for her maintenance4 ,a member may withdraw with half any calculated surplus of earnings over expenditure1 on giving one year's notice4 ,some members might reside permanently and assist in various ways as writers and editors4 #8,it is proposed that the members contributing the money should form the governing body1--elect a ,superior1--that the votes should be in proportion to the money contributed4 ,that all the money should1 after paying maintenance1 be expended1 after leaving a moderate reserve fund1 on providing some charitable work1 and that the members should1 at the will of the ,superior1 be assigned to any post she may think fit4 #8,the work should be primarily teaching or assisting in some way in educational work amongst rich or poor1 specially religious teaching1 to which1 it is hoped1 some members will chiefly devote themselves1 e4g4 by lectures1 by corresponding with those who need advice or help in religious matters1 opening the house to receive as visitors any who need a time of quiet and retreat doing mission work at home and abroad4 ,there should be only a very simple rule to be signed by the workers4 ,prayer at morning1 evening1 and midday2 and such special rules as seem desirable4 ,a holiday in proportion to the character of the work4 ,the dress should be simple1 but not conspicuous1 and some badge should be worn by the members4' ,in this connection it is interesting to read this extract from a letter written to a teacher who was unsettled as to her vocation1 and was contemplating entering a sisterhood3-- #8,april #hi4 #8,i was much interested in your letter4 ,i feel strongly that when in ,god's ,providence we have been trained for one work1 we should not lightly turn to another4 ,as you say1 there is more scope in a large sisterhood4 ,miss ---- is very happy at ,clewer4 ,still1 ,i think the rules of an ordinary sisterhood are difficult to combine with the life of a teacher4 ,i cannot help thinking that out of the ,society of the ,holy ,name may grow up a somewhat freer teaching sisterhood4444 ,i hold strongly that there ought to be some women1 whose energies should be devoted to sending out young teachers1 with a true sense of their vocation4 ,you have gifts as a teacher2 you ought not1 it seems to me1 to bury them4444' ,among the women whose saintly lives were a source of inspiration to ,dorothea ,beale1 there was one whose acquaintance 7so to speak7 she did not make until herself in mature life4 ,none the less did the name of ,mary ,astell become a thought of encouragement and hope to one whose heart was ever fresh4 ,when in #ahij1 after various unsuccessful experiments1 a properly managed house was opened for the regular teachers in the ,college1 ,miss ,beale named it ,astell ,house1 after the lady who1 in the reign of ,anne1 put forth #8a plan of a ,college for the higher education of woman1 which should be at the same time a religious house4 ,the ladies were to spend some time in study as well as prayer1 ,mrs4 ,astell holding that they had as much right as men to improve their minds4444 ,their special work was to be the education of girls of the higher class1 and also1 if their means would admit1 of the daughters of poor gentlemen1 who must otherwise remain untaught4444 ,mrs4 ,astell's scheme aroused considerable interest1 and an unnamed lady 7supposed to be the ,queen7 was ready to give #aj1jjj for the foundation of such an institution2 but ,bishop ,burnet1 who seems to have been consulted in the matter1 put an end to the plan1 saying it would be too much like a nunnery4' ,miss ,beale certainly wanted a nunnery no more than did the timorous ,bishop4 ,as time went on she cared less for the outward shape the spirit she strove to foster might adopt2 but she grew more and more earnest and active in seeking to influence young teachers to become serious and high-minded and self-sacrificing4 ,the ,quiet ,days1 which were instituted chiefly to this end1 affected many wholly outside the ,college4 ,they are therefore better mentioned in connection with those other interests which1 to borrow her own nomenclature in the ,magazine1 may be included under the title of #8,parerga4' ,,chapter ,,xii ,,teacher ,,and ,,principal #8,languor is not in your heart1 ,weakness is not in your word1 ,weariness not on your brow4' ,m4 ,,arnold1 #8,rugby ,chapel4' ,a true history of the ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college would not be merely a faithful record of dated events1 of building1 enlargement1 expansion1 of the introduction of examinations1 of distinctions gained2 it must also suggest1 if only in outline1 the working of the spirit which informed the whole1 that by which it grew and became1 in spite of its size and the different elements it embraced1 homogeneous in itself and full of force4 ,illustration3 ,photo4 ,g4 ,h4 ,martyn ,sons4 ,ladies' ,college and ,garden #aijh4 ,that she was but one worker among many1 that she was only part of an #8order' which must be temporary1 were facts ever before ,miss ,beale's eyes4 ,those who remember their school-days at ,cheltenham with love and gratitude think not only of the ,principal1 but of many others1 some of whom passed out of sight before her1 some of whom are still faithfully carrying out the ideas she inspired1 but whose influence1 like her own1 left an abiding impression4 ,one spirit1 one aim1 an equal strenuous effort were what she strove before all things to gain for her fellow-labourers1 and did undoubtedly to a marvellous extent produce throughout the ,college4 ,though ,miss ,beale did occasionally make mistakes in her choice of workers1 expecting too much1 or perhaps taking too much for granted1 this was very rarely the case where class-teachers were concerned4 ,these1 who had the responsibility of forming character as well as of giving instruction1 were always teachers whom she thoroughly knew and trusted1 and had generally trained herself4 ,by these1 the thought and inspiration of the ,head were handed on4 ,but beyond this1 all who passed through the ,college1 even if they did not have the opportunity of knowing ,miss ,beale personally1 came in contact with her in one way or another4 ,even the youngest heard her ,scripture lessons2 all the pupils in ,division ,i4 had their marks read by her1 and thus came individually before her4 ,those who were confirmed while at school were brought into closer touch with her1 and many through some incident in their school career1 or through peculiar circumstances of home life1 learned to know her as a friend4 ,the highest class in ,college1 and the pupils who were hopefully named ,b4,a4's1 saw a good deal of her even to the end4 ,and from first to last in her long headship1 it was possible for any child1 big or little1 in any part of the ,college1 to know the ,principal1--by herself taking notice of her4 ,miss ,beale's fastidious honesty1 which led her to dread even the least appearance of stealing hearts away from home1 largely held her back from making personal friends among the girls still at ,college4 #8,yearned to be loved1' she wrote once in her diary2 but consistently brought to her work a special gift of self-sacrifice in never seeking affection for herself personally4 ,she had1 moreover1 a horror of the unhealthy attachments which are often a source of danger in girls' schools4 ,in this connection may be read one of her many letters to ,miss ,clara ,arnold3#fg-- #8,yes1 you are right1 that does point to a fatal error4 ,if we make our children lean on us 7broken reeds71 they will not stand long4 ,if they make an idol of any human being1 when the idol is broken their faith goes too4 ,we must try to bid them fly upwards into the sunlight2 they must not tumble about on the ground like those poor birds whose wings are clipped4 ,they must look up1 not to us1 but with us1 to our common ,lord4 ,what miserable1 weak1 sickly creatures many women are1 who must always have a ,pope4 ,the children should give you respect and esteem1 and you can give them sympathy and affection too1 and as they are children they may have a helping hand1 but make them give up1 if possible1 sentimental worship4 ,they must not do right for love of you1 but because it is right4 #8,how fight against this8 ,well1 tell the children some of these things1 and talk it over with ,miss ---- and the other teachers4 ,there must be harmony of action4 ,i speak strongly1 because ,i have seen this spirit eat away the higher life of one large school4 ,i have such a dread of its getting in here4 #8,i know there must be a certain amount of hero-worship in the young4 ,they need help from parents and teacher1 but we must train them out of dependence4 ,this sort of thing1 too1 leads to injustice to those who are not worshipped4 ,they are 8puffed up for one1 against another40 ,they waste time and strength in day-dreams about their idol4 ,when a little older they are always fancying themselves in love1 because they have got used to an excitement of feeling4 #8,i feel inclined to say ,i wish ,i could help you more2 always ask me if you think ,i can4 ,but ,i advise you chiefly to make this a subject of prayer4 ,i say daily that ,collect for ,whitsunday1 about a 8right judgment in all things40 ,then ,i think ,i should see where the evil is most apparent1 not speak to the whole class but to some few4 ,very likely1 if you try to prevent this wrong worship1 you will create an antagonism which will give you much trouble2 such affection easily turns to hatred4444 ,this sort of thing does make homes so unhappy because the wife takes 8tiffs40 ,try earnestly to brace them1 my dear child4' ,miss ,beale's own shyness also stood in the way of her personal intimacy with her pupils4 ,she liked to be met more than half-way4 ,she liked the birthday-book brought to her to sign1#fh the rare wild-flower found and gathered for her1 the little note of sympathy or inquiry or thanks4 ,a hundred reasons would keep most girls back from taking the simple steps which would have led them early to find a friend in ,miss ,beale4 ,while they were reverencing in silence and at a distance there would come along some bright thing of quick perception1 accustomed to society and to be welcome everywhere1 untroubled by self-consciousness1 who would approach the throne with no #8unaccustomed awe1' but stand1 and chat1 and smile1 and be obviously acceptable to the lonely sovereign4 #8,you know1 ,a41' she said once to an old girl1 #8it was your freedom from shyness with me that first drew me to you4' ,and1 as a matter of fact1 ,miss ,beale was really the most accessible of sovereigns4 ,she longed to know all her children1 and to help each personally4 ,it was only a girl whose career was very short or wholly uneventful1 and led in the lower classes of the school1 who could remain wholly unacquainted with her4 ,even then1 it would be found that the ten minutes' individual talk which the ,principal had with each as she left the ,college finally1 impressed itself on the mind of the hearer4 ,her sympathies were ever most readily drawn out by those likely in after years to exercise influence--in some prominent1 possibly ,imperial position1 or as teachers4 ,at all times a silent1 strong1 unconscious impression was produced upon most by ,miss ,beale's rare absence from her post1 her minute attention to her own share of the work of the ,college1 her obvious self-devotion4 #8,i can't picture the ,college without her1 she always seemed to be everywhere1' one wrote after her death4 ,another said1 #8,although she might never speak to you1 still the fact that she was not there on any day always made the ,college feel strange and empty4' ,her memory for all who had passed through the ,college was simply extraordinary4 ,a married pupil1 visiting ,cheltenham after many years' interval1 writes of her amazement at finding that ,miss ,beale could tell her of every girl she had been with in class1 and in many cases by whom she had sat1 whom she had liked1 and so on4 ,another1 who was for two years at the ,college1 only spoke twice to the ,principal during that period1 and left without the least idea that ,miss ,beale could know her as an individual4 ,two years after leaving the first great sorrow of her life came1 in the death of her class-teacher1 ,miss ,aitken4 #8,that friendship1' she writes1 #8had never degenerated into any foolish or selfish attachment4 ,i still count it as one of the strongest motives of my life4' ,in the deep grief over her friend's death came a letter from ,miss ,beale3 #8,just the fact that she remembered and understood was like a revelation4 ,it was through that that ,i first realised the possibility of the individual love and care of ,god4' ,naturally1 it was in the earliest days1 when the first class was small and ,miss ,beale taught many subjects herself1 that an intimate tie between the head and the pupil was most easily formed4 ,but ,miss ,beale's wonderful freshness of mind and heart enabled her to continue not only the old friendships so made1 but yearly to make new ones4 ,she had a wonderful way1 too1 of maintaining friendship4 ,a girl might pass through the school knowing her but a little1 but loyalty to ,college fostered by the ,guild meetings would each year bring her into closer touch with the ,principal4 #8,i hope we may meet again1' she wrote in #ahgf to one who had had a deep love and reverence for her1 but not much more than a slight acquaintance with her in ,college4 ,twenty years after1 when events drew them together again1 a close mutual friendship which greatly brightened ,miss ,beale's declining years grew out of the seed sown so long before4 ,miss ,beale herself held that the influence of the ,principal on the school should be through the teachers4 #8,she can do more with five hundred if she has a staff thoroughly in sympathy with her than if she brought direct personal influence to bear upon a school of a hundred4 8,if you want a thing done1 do not do it yourself10 should be the motto of a ruler for everyday use4 ,act through others1 educate them thereby to independence1 and reserve your strength for things that none but a ,head can do4' ,in teaching1 ,miss ,beale's definite aim was to inspire4 ,she sought but little to inform1 but much to kindle a thirst for knowledge1 a love of good and beautiful things1 and to awaken thinking power4 ,this she undoubtedly did1 though the process was slow2 working itself out quietly in the mind and character of those she taught1 in nobler views of life1 more refined appreciations1 improved sense of proportion4 ,when there was a question of preparation for examination1 or of the definite knowledge such as was required in mathematical subjects1 it was necessary to supplement the lessons of the ,principal4 ,yet her teaching of the exact sciences was hardly less illuminative than of those which make a more direct appeal to the imagination4 ,she would interest the class in a mathematical problem1 induce the mind to work1 leave it at the end of a lesson impressed and roused1 but at the same time not clear about the subject she had been putting before it4 ,then afterwards the explanation up to which she had been leading would often come like a flash to the puzzling brain4 ,naturally the teaching of history was a great opportunity to one who could so clothe her subject with life4 ,in this she was more than merely picturesque and vivid1 she would allow her own delighted interest to show itself4 ,who that heard them could forget her lectures on the reign of ,george the ,third1 in which she and her whole class were transported to the old ,parliament ,house1 listening1 it might be1 to the younger ,pitt's maiden speech1 or to some stirring debate between him and his rival1 hearing the applause1 the dissentient murmurs1 even a joke under the breath of some listener8 ,she would lead up to a climax with dramatic force4 ,with what astonishment did her audience hear1 as if it were a startling piece of political news of their own day1 of the ,coalition ,ministry6#fi ,the study of history has now become organised and scientific4 ,miss ,beale's own methods were out of date long before her death2 she ceased indeed to teach the subject herself about #ahgd1 but she never lost the enthusiasm with which she first entered upon it4 ,as an example she was always anxious that those who were lecturing on history should adopt the views she considered just about certain personages4 ,once1 when the ,tudor period was being studied in the ,college1 she summoned the teachers1 as the school hours ended at one o'clock1 into a classroom to hear what she believed to be the truth about ,cranmer--with a few words making a terrible picture of time-serving and cowardice4 ,on the other hand1 she was always anxious that what was great in ,elizabeth should be recognised2 that every possible excuse should be made for her faults4 ,but if ,miss ,beale's methods of teaching history have been to some extent superseded1 it should be remembered that she was among the first to insist on the importance of general history4 ,though assured of the value of detailed and special knowledge1 she was not content to let one period stand alone unlinked with its context4 ,she would not cut off the history of ,england as a thing by itself1 but showed its place in the stream of time1 in the lives of the nations4 ,so almost every class was obliged to learn something of outline and general history1 and here it was that the ,chart and ,textbook played so important a part4 ,miss ,beale's ,english literature lessons may1 more than any others she gave1 be described as sui generis4 #8,miss ,beale gives literature lessons of a peculiar kind1' was the appreciation of a new pupil who had studied the subject before coming to ,cheltenham4 ,her literature lesson1 indeed1 had many functions4 ,the subject became the vehicle of much teaching that it was not convenient to give in a ,bible lesson4 ,she sought to interest her class in books1 in reading1 in noble thoughts1 in fine prose and poetry4 ,but this was by no means all4 ,she sought primarily to give views of life1 conduct1 and character such as would enable her hearers to go from school into a larger world1 already prepared to know what to find4 ,under the names of friend and friendship much was said which might apply equally to the choice of a husband and to marriage4 ,knowledge of character1 she would often say1 is so important for women4 ,hence she liked1 if possible1 once a year to read and lecture upon one of ,shakspere's great plays to the first class4 ,though ever fresh and interesting1 and herself as interested as ever in these readings1 though the lectures were constantly brightened and enriched by new books and thoughts brought to bear upon them1 there was very little variation in the treatment of the main theme4 ,at certain crises in the story1 over certain characters1 hearers of long standing knew what to expect4 ,ophelia1 to take an instance1 was for all the generations of girls who read ,hamlet at ,cheltenham the woman who failed a man because she could not dare to be true4 ,a matter like this was vital to ,miss ,beale4 ,could any class-teacher in the ,college have represented ,ophelia in any other light1 the ,lady ,principal would have spared no pains to point out the error of the treatment1 both to her and to those she had misled4 ,desdemona1 again1 was always marked as the wife who not unnaturally roused the suspicions of a jealous-minded husband1 because he knew that in marrying him she had deceived her father4 ,the misery that may follow a secret wilful marriage was always hinted at when this story was told4 ,but there were other and less weighty considerations than influence and marriage in these lectures4 ,they supplied opportunity for suggestions on simple affairs such as the choice of books1 ways of spending time and money1 manners1 conversation1 and the like4 ,often questions of the day1 politics in a very general sense1 and social problems were led up to4 ,miss ,beale might be unacademic to a fault in these lectures1 but she had that power of inspiration which made every poem she prized1 every character she admired1 live immortally for those who heard her speak of them4 ,the actual reading--specially of poetry--was a delight to both reader and hearers4 ,miss ,beale had a strong dramatic instinct1 a keen enjoyment of poetry and the right use of words4 ,she had also a wonderful voice1 which she managed well1 and though always quiet and restrained in manner carried her audience with her unweariedly4 ,the literature lesson was long1 specially in the early days when1 owing to short distances and small numbers1 no time was occupied by arrangements for prayers4 ,for thirty or forty minutes corrected notes were returned and criticised1 then the lecture proper would begin and go on for a full hour4 ,sometimes the whole time1 an hour and a half1 was taken up by the lecture4 ,it was certainly very unusual for any one to find it too long4 ,a further interest in these lectures lay in an effort to make them language lessons4 ,as a matter of fact1 though much interested in language herself1 ,miss ,beale did little more than inspire a wish to study it further4 ,perhaps this was her aim in touching upon it at all4 ,she would often bring to her lesson a table of ,grimm's ,law1 explain it very rapidly1 and appear to expect that it should be as rapidly remembered4 ,miss ,beale's literature was by no means confined to ,shakspere's plays4 ,all the greatest and many lesser works in the ,english tongue were taken in their turn4 ,but she would seldom take the works of any whose thought seemed to her inferior2 would have little1 for instance1 to do with ,dryden and ,pope4 ,style in itself had no attraction1 and the growth of literary form1 unless accompanied by the development of noble thought1 was of little interest4 ,no subject1 perhaps1 was more after her own choice than the poems of ,spenser4 ,she would dwell with unfailing delight on the complicated allegories of the ,fary ,queene1 or on the ,hymns to #8,heavenly ,love' and #8,heavenly ,beauty4' ,nor was a school year ever allowed to pass without her introducing the higher classes in the ,college to some of ,browning's works4 ,how many must have learned to know his greater short poems by hearing her read them4#gj ,but the subject with which the name of ,dorothea ,beale as a teacher will ever be associated is that of ,holy ,scripture4 ,for this her greatest force was reserved4 ,this was the soul of her work1 as any who listened to her lessons with a hearing ear1 or who marked the deep reverence prevailing in her class1 could not fail to observe4 ,trammelled she was in many ways1 at first by the narrowness which had almost prevented her coming to ,cheltenham2 increasingly1 as time went on1 by the numbers of her hearers who held opposing views on religion or who had no views at all2 much always by her own dread of #8offending' or of hindering an earnest seeker for truth by a positive assertion4 ,these causes made it inevitable that her teaching should seem to many vague or insufficient1 since she could not bear to miss putting herself beside those who were as babes1 unable to venture a step into the untried4 ,an old pupil has well described this attitude3-- #8,she did not go very much into every sort of detail1 but ,i wonder what use can be made of doctrinal details by people whose general scheme of things is one into which they don't fit8 and that1 ,i suppose1 is the trouble of most people who are puzzled by such things at all4 ,whereas ,miss ,beale1 in anticipation of this difficulty1 always seemed to me to set forth a spiritual construction of the universe1 into which no spiritual truth learned afterwards could possibly fail to fit1 supposing it to be a truth in very deed4 ,i do not see how any teacher can possibly do a greater work2 though ,i do not say for a moment that she did no more4' ,certainly in the weekly lesson to the whole ,first ,division of the school she did a great deal more4 ,another old pupil may be quoted here3-- #8,speaking for myself1 ,i can say without hesitation that it was from her that ,i learned the truth of the sacramental life4 ,one thing she said to me1 and she repeated it with emphasis at the time of my ,confirmation1 is as fresh in my mind to-day as the day she said it4 ,again1 ,i can say for myself1 and my reading has been fairly wide1 that her influence has been entirely against any weakening of faith4 ,knowing something at least of her character and intellectual power1 it was natural to feel that where she was steadfast one need not be afraid4 ,more than that1 her direct teaching by its sympathetic insight into the deepest aspects of life was always1 and always will be inspiring4 ,if it is true that there was something vague in her utterances1 ,i believe it was because she had reached a plane of thought where the words which have become the current thought of everyday life are inadequate forms of expression4' ,if1 in order to seek some erring spirit1 ,miss ,beale did at times seem to neglect others1 it must be remembered that in teaching the ,bible1 more than at any other time1 she really took up the humble position of simply bringing her hearers to think and listen for themselves4 ,this was the intention which lay below the reverent behaviour exacted from a ,scripture class4 ,by means of this she strove to impress the importance to the hearer of being still1 ready1 attentive1 free from selfish or idle thought4 ,she prepared not only the lesson1 but also herself to give it1 with a devotion and self-denial which she never allowed to become relaxed by pressing business1 age1 or infirmity4 ,not only was ,friday evening strictly kept for the final preparation of the lesson1 but the ordinary details of school business attended to before prayers were put aside on the day it was given4 ,no one in the ,college would have thought on those days of speaking to ,miss ,beale beforehand except on some urgent matter4 ,writing to a young teacher in #ahhj1 she said3 #8,i used to prepare my lessons on my knees1 7don't say this to others74 ,you would find it a help1 ,i think1 to do this sometimes4' ,this earnestness and diligence were shared by many of the class-teachers4 ,in a short account of ,miss ,belcher1 which appeared in the ,college ,magazine of #ahih1 ,miss ,beale said3 #8,only those who knew her intimately were aware of the long study and extreme pains she took with her ,scripture lessons4 ,every ,friday at ,cheltenham we used to meet and go over the ,saturday lesson together4' ,the annual midsummer examination was no mere test of knowledge gained1 but1 like the weekly notes1 a real exercise of thought4 ,in this matter ,miss ,beale received the full sympathy and co-operation of the ,rev4 ,e4 ,worsley1 who for many years examined the upper classes of the ,college in ,scripture4#ga ,the subject of ,miss ,beale's ,scripture lessons was generally a ,gospel or an ,epistle4 ,occasionally she would take the book of ,genesis1 from which she would draw much instruction on ,sin1 ,freewill1 ,faith4 ,perhaps her favourite subject was the ,gospel of ,st4 ,john4 ,remembering the ,saturday class1 the awe with which she would speak of the ,logos1 or with passionate devotion follow the sublime teaching of the later chapters of that book1 the glowing ardour with which she would heap up fact and proof concerning the ,resurrection1 occur at once to the memory4 ,letters to old pupils who had become teachers in other schools show ,miss ,beale's reasons for dwelling on certain points4 ,to ,miss ,wolseley ,lewis1 head-mistress of the ,graham ,street ,church ,high ,school1 she wrote in #ahig concerning #a ,cor4 vii43-- #8,yes--,i have taken it4 ,there is no need to insist on every word4 ,in reading one's ,bible some things are not suitable for children1 but the teaching of those chapters regarding the sacredness of the body is extremely valuable4 ,robertson on ,corinthians is very helpful4 #8,i will see if ,i can find my notes1 they would be useful to you2 but you need not be afraid to take it1 you will like it4' ,and again in ,january #ahih on the same subject3-- #8,i have looked in vain for my notes on ,corinthians4 ,i think ,robertson will give you much useful help in working out the more difficult chapters4 ,it is very important with elder girls not to leave out the teaching which comes naturally out of the ,epistle1 on the sacredness of marriage1 and the responsibility of choice1--on the certain promises that if we ask guidance it will be given4 ,the example of ,abraham in choosing a wife for his son may be cited1--the necessity of waiting for guidance1--praying for light until it comes1 when we are called on to decide the most important question of our whole lives4 ,one may insist on the duty of being so equipped that we can earn our own living1 and not be tempted into the disgrace of a mercenary marriage4 ,one may just touch upon the detestable teaching of some modern works1 that our affections and acts are beyond our control4 ,i feel sure you will find you can do much to help girls thus4' ,to ,miss ,arnold at ,truro she wrote3-- #8,as regards ,acts3 ,i should say not2 because one is so much drawn aside to history and geography2 but one may work in ,epistles1 etc41 if there is an examination required4 ,i made up my mind ,i would not take it again4' ,and again1 in #ahia1 on the use of ,scripture teaching3-- #8,i think what we should do is to make it come home to the children in their daily life as a clergyman hardly can4 ,we know their faults and temptations4 ,i often take the baptismal vow4 ,i really can't find time to write much1 and it is so impossible to suggest much4 ,i am sure you will find things easier when you begin4' ,the immense detail of the teaching1 following as it did the innumerable suggestions that one text might give1 was sometimes confusing to a new class4 ,a term's lessons might be occupied with a few verses only4 ,then there is no doubt that ,miss ,beale's large way of thinking and comprehensive form of expression was difficult to follow4 ,this did not lessen with age4 ,new pupils1 particularly of late years1 were often filled with despair at the prospect of having to write out the lessons4 ,many felt the ,sunday work it involved to be a strain4 ,this was less the case at first1 when perhaps intellectual interests had more undisputed sway4 ,the life in ,college1 as in other spheres1 has become more full and offers fewer spaces for uninterrupted thought4 ,sometimes a whisper that her ,scripture lessons were too difficult reached the ,lady ,principal4 ,it grieved her1 but she never quite believed it4 ,she wrote of it to ,miss ,arnold3-- #8,i like you to tell me what is said1 but then ,i do not like to know more4444 ,there are others much older to whom ,i address myself1 and ,i see they do enter more and more as the year goes on1 and ,i am teaching more now for the future4 ,i do think ,i fortify some more for the trials of their future life than ,i did when you were here4 ,those who cannot follow1 ought to be put into a class where the teaching is less difficult4 ,they do not say this1 ,i hope1 about my ,monday lessons1 only the ,saturday4444' ,the patient correction and explanation of the pupils' essays on the lessons was not the least part of the ,scripture work4 ,how full1 elaborate1 and diligent this correction was will not readily be understood by any who do not know the ,cheltenham system4 ,but though ,miss ,beale wrote a great deal in the girls' books1 her corrections were often framed on the ,socratic method so much prized by her4 ,to take an example4 ,a vague use of the word infinitely has written against it1 #8,do you mean from eternity8' #8,the universe1' writes one pupil lightly1 to have the word underlined and with #8,meaning' written above it4 ,and she had a wonderful eye for thought and effort4 ,no writer1 however poor1 whose work showed signs of these was discouraged4 ,one writes of this3-- #8,i have one of my old ,scripture books1 and on looking it over1 for the first time for many years1 ,i am most struck by her power of seeing good in the very crude attempts of a girl of sixteen4 ,it seems to me marvellous that she1 with her great intellect1 could have put herself on our level1 so as to see when we had thought1 and to encourage us with the 8s0 and 8g0 that we valued so highly4 ,i am afraid ,i used to look out more for the 8g's0 than for the comments and corrections that showed how much pains she took herself with each attempt of ours4' ,a good deal of enthusiastic drudgery was needed for the corrector of twenty or thirty ,scripture books every week4 ,even ,miss ,beale found it hard at times1 and would write3-- #8,much idle time again4 ,at #aj ,p4,m4 ,thursday not touched a correction4 ,thus unfaithful while ,i am so much helped4' ,and3-- #8,tired1 but terribly negligent4 ,put off books in a really unpardonable way1 and felt irritable at work4' ,in dealing with individual character1 faults1 and weakness ,miss ,beale showed no common tact1 and often surpassing astuteness4 ,to begin with1 she was herself so well disciplined1 so well attuned to the highest thought of work for others1 that probably she did not even feel irritated by the errors and mistakes of her children4 ,certainly she never showed annoyance4 ,it is impossible even to think of her being satirical or sarcastic either in teaching or in dealing with faults of manner or character4 ,she would have considered it unpardonable in an under-teacher to be so1 almost as reprehensible as to treat or speak of a child as stupid4 ,she had indeed a special love for #8ugly ducklings1' in whom she would frequently perceive and draw out a latent swanhood4 ,some things--such as what she termed the #8petty larceny of her time' by those who prolonged an interview by aimless small talk--did irritate her2 but she would no more have been annoyed by the shortcomings of a child than a doctor would be at the illness of a patient4 ,though able to adapt herself spontaneously to individual characteristics1 she had certain distinct lines along which she worked4 ,dealing with ordinary childish faults she would make no appeal on high religious grounds1 used no set or stock phrases4 ,always1 in big and little things1 she would show the child some ground for expecting right action from her1 pointing out something probably connected with her home which1 a legitimate source of satisfaction1 should be also a spur to do well4 ,or she would treat a rebellious act in such a way as to rob it of all its delight4 ,an amusing instance of this was told by a writer in the ,guardian of ,november #ba1 #aijf3 #8,on one occasion a very clever student1 with an unruly temper1 refused1 because some one had annoyed her1 to eat her breakfast on the day of an important examination4 ,her form mistress begged ,miss ,beale to persuade the girl to have at least some milk4 ,she was sent to ,miss ,beale1 and was greatly startled by--8,i hear you are fasting to-day2 for a temper like yours it is probably a wise discipline40 ,nothing more was said1 but the girl did not refuse her luncheon4' ,such homopathic treatment was sometimes also applied to idleness1 a rare fault in a schoolgirl4 ,it was1 in ancient days1 occasionally known in the ,third ,division at ,cheltenham4 ,quite rarely1 in consequence1 a little girl would be allowed to do nothing but sit still all the morning4 ,no one had a chance of showing obstinacy4 ,it was a relief to more than one young teacher to be told that #8,you must never let a child have the satisfaction of holding out against you4' ,if such a thing did occur1 there was no contest1 no opposition of superior power on the part of a teacher2 a few1 very few words from the ,lady ,principal would make the child see the futility and silliness of her attitude4 ,a moral delinquency was1 however1 met with the very greatest seriousness4 ,parents were sometimes surprised at the extraordinary pains ,miss ,beale would take to obtain the confession of such a fault as copying a lesson4 ,the slightest suspicion of dishonesty was always followed up at once1 but the act was never brought home to the offender until there was positive proof4 ,then the way would be made easy for her1 the lie prevented by something like this3 #8,my child1 ,i am sure you have too good a conscience to rest with such a thing as this upon it4' ,conviction and confession of a fault made it immediately possible to show how it came about1 how it might be prevented in the future4 ,especially in the matter of untruthfulness ,miss ,beale would trace the outside fault to its source1 showing it to be a symptom of some corrupting force within1 cowardice1 vanity1 or idleness4 ,in this connection it is well worth while to read her remarkable little paper on ,truth4#gb ,one tale of her discrimination may well be told4 ,a class-teacher received some anonymous letters which she took to ,miss ,beale1 naming the girl she took to be the writer4 ,some days passed4 ,the teacher thought the matter forgotten1 when one morning ,miss ,beale said to her1 #8,send ---- to me4 ,i can see by her face this morning that she will tell me all4' ,miss ,beale was not disappointed either in the confession or its effects4 ,no one could reprove like ,miss ,beale4 ,her grief1 her admonition were expressed not only with so much sympathy1 but with such an absolute impersonal sense of rightness and justice1 that it was impossible to resent them4 #8,nothing is more touching1' she wrote in #ahih1 #8than the penitence of children1 when they find that we have seen the good which is hidden1 and not only the evil that comes forth2 that we know1 not only what is done1 but what is resisted4'#gc ,any who had so failed became a special care4 #8,we try1' she wrote once1 #8to make her feel there is no anger at all1 but sympathy and an anxious watchfulness which will1 we hope1 make her more watchful over herself4' ,to break the rule of silence was always regarded as a great fault4 ,a careless pupil1 conscious of breaking it only once or twice1 would be surprised to find in her term's report1 #8,disobedient to rule4' ,a girl whose influence was seen to be a source of evil--a single act or conversation might be enough to prove it--was instantly removed4 ,careful as ,miss ,beale was to let no pupil go who might by any possibility be induced to stay1 she never hesitated a moment in a case of this kind4 ,the extreme seriousness with which she regarded this may be gathered from the following letter to a head-mistress3-- #8,this is grievous4 ,how is it that girls were allowed to go out by themselves8 ,i wonder1 too1 that ,miss ---- did not see there was something wrong4 ,no girls can act thus without some unnatural excitement4 ,then are there no prefects in the house8 no elder girls to be relied on8--no confidential servant8 ,i don't see how you can keep any one of the three1 but perhaps there are degrees of guilt4 ,it was so different at ----4 ,a girl began to talk as she ought not--the younger girls told the seniors1 the seniors came to ----2 she told me1 and within two hours the girl had left the house4 ,there ought to be such confidence between the seniors and the head of the house1 and constant vigilance over the girls' characters and insight4 ,i always feel that a school is at the mercy of one naughty girl1 and we must never relax our vigilance4 ,it is sad to think that they have degraded women in the eyes of all that know it4' ,such instances are stated1 not because it was continually the part of the ,principal and her staff to deal with iniquity4 ,on the contrary1 the order and conduct of the school were singularly good1--the sense of duty1 fostered by a call to exercise it rather than by precept1 was unusually high4 ,one means by which this was maintained was the constant collaboration of the parents4 ,in all matters ,miss ,beale tried to take them with her1 encouraged them to come to her1 to talk over the children1 spoke to the children about them1 wrote to them on special matters1 tried to get them to understand her aims4 ,her letters1 too1 show what pains she took to bring about a real co-operation4 ,on one occasion no less than ten letters passed between ,principal1 parent1 and class-teacher on so simple a matter as a child returning in the afternoon1 according to a school rule1 to do a lesson over again4 ,miss ,beale won the child to see and do what was right1 but she also wrote to the mother3-- #8,i fear you have led your child to think there is a question to be settled now as to which is the supreme authority4 ,of course1 if this is so1 it is much to be deplored2 it is something like a conflict between father and mother before their child4 ,we so earnestly wish that the home and school should be one in spirit4 ,if this cannot be1 it is best1 as ,i have already said1 that the child should be placed in another school4' ,one letter to a parent on a matter of the same kind ended with this postscript3 #8,sometimes we cannot1 and sometimes we ought not1 to keep a promise made under a wrong impression4 ,consider ,herod's case4' ,parents who did not send their children back on the right day1 or who kept them at home for insufficient reason1 always heard from her4 ,she would write thus3 #8,had ,i known how difficult it would be for ---- to return1 ,i should have advised her remaining here for her holiday'2 or1 #8,i know things are not considered so serious at a girls' school as at a boys' school1 but no boy would be received back1 ,i am sure1 at one of our great public schools who had been absent without the leave of the ,head-master4' ,on the other hand1 ,miss ,beale was always most anxious to support the authority and dignity of the parent4 ,once1 when this seemed not to have been done by a teacher1 she wrote3 #8,she saw when ,i pointed it out how very wrong it was even to hint to a child that ,i thought her mother in the wrong4' #8,she was never tired1' ran a notice by an old pupil after her death1 #8of impressing upon the girls that home must come first in their affections4 ,it was indeed pathetic to hear her speak1 as she did almost weekly in her addresses to the assembled divisions1 of the beauty of the relation of a child to its parents4' ,it is impossible to do more than refer to the many letters which show the confidence and gratitude of the ,college parents1 but1 as an example1 one from a father who held high official rank1 on his daughter's passing an examination in #ahgg1 may be quoted1 with its good wishes which were so entirely realised3-- #8,excuse my sending you one line of sincere thanks for your valuable 7and inestimable1 ,i may call it7 friendship towards my dear daughter4 #8,we were immensely pleased at her success1 which we attribute entirely to the love of work instilled into her by your system at ,college generally1 as well as by your personal influence4 ,you not only obtain the respect and the devoted love and loyalty of your girls1 but through them the admiration of their parents and all those who take an interest in their careers4 ,i am sure few persons in the army of teachers are more highly esteemed than yourself1 few for whom more hearty prayers are offered for a long1 long life of usefulness4 #8,we feel so proud of our girl's success4 ,with every good wish for the health and prosperity both of yourself and your glorious ,college1' etc4 ,lastly and supremely1 it was through ,miss ,beale's own personal influence upon her teachers1 her clearly defined example always before them1 that the spirit of the ,college came to be what it was4 ,she had the gift of inspiration in that rare degree which makes actual direction of less value4 ,she did not neglect details2 she would indicate minor matters deserving of attention which others would overlook2 she often quoted at a teachers' meeting the example of the great general who1 on taking over a command1 first paid attention to the boots of his men4 ,but it was never necessary for her to harp upon little things1 or to go personally to see if her wishes had been carried out4 ,one1 who had had some years' experience in teaching before she arrived at ,cheltenham as a student1 spoke with something like rapture of the ,college organisation as it appeared to her coming fresh from other places of education4 #8,if ,i had a spare hour in the morning1 it was useless to try and concentrate my thoughts on any study1 ,i was simply fascinated by the superior attraction of watching ,miss ,beale's government of her little kingdom4 ,no monarch ever had more absolute sway over his subjects2 all the threads responded to her lightest touch4444 #8,the ,college1 as ,miss ,beale made it1 was an organism1 the product of inner forces needing constant renewal of vitality1 not a vast machine1 working without friction for the production of clever women4 #8,then1 for the first time1 my soul conceived the possibility of a beneficent ,spirit watching over the general good1 and yet caring for the needs of the humblest individual4 ,thus she1 who so loved to point out that outward things are sacramental exponents of the invisible1 became herself a channel through which ,i realised things unseen4' ,this influence was not gained through the more ordinary ways of intimacy4 ,in one sense ,miss ,beale saw very little of her teachers1 some1 as the staff became very large1 she hardly knew at all1 though naturally with a few of the older ones she became more really intimate4 ,there were also a few special instances of close friendship4 ,notably may be mentioned that of ,miss ,martha ,brown1 who came to ,cheltenham about #ahgc1 no longer young or strong4 ,her actual work in the ,college lasted but a short time1 for her health soon failed altogether1 though a keen mind1 occupied and interested by a true love of knowledge and desire to impart it1 kept her up for a year or so1 until she was forced to resign herself to her last illness4 ,for more than a year she remained in ,miss ,beale's house1 ,miss ,beale herself sometimes sharing with ,miss ,gore the task of nursing and caring for her in every way1 holding it1 indeed1 a privilege to wait upon one whose spirit so soared above her circumstances1--she was poor as well as hopelessly ill1--one who1 regarding the mysteries of science as a lesson-book given to man by ,god1 did not weary in her study of them even when near the gates of death4 ,miss ,brown is often mentioned in ,miss ,beale's diary1 and later her name occurs frequently among those who had passed beyond the veil1 and whom ,miss ,beale specially loved to honour at a ,guild meeting4 ,with regard to the greater number of the staff1 though it is to be feared that her dislike of spending trifling sums of money stood in the way of even small hospitalities1 this can have been but a secondary reason why she did not see more of them4 ,it was a principle with her to spend time on recreation only so far as would help work2 it was a principle to use the short interviews which alone were possible among large numbers in the most economical way2 finally1 it was a principle that influence may be stronger and better for detachment from everyday occasions4 ,to spend time on small talk would only fritter away good influence4 ,yet1 in thinking of this1 there must occur to the memory of some1 at least1 that she had a kind of dread of the word influence1 as implying something personal1 that she thought it dangerous to try to establish a sphere of influence1 that she never consciously tried to acquire it4 ,once when a petition was put forward against the suffrage for women1 ,miss ,beale1 who declined to sign it1 said that one reason urged upon her for doing so seemed so poor1 namely1 that the vote would impair the influence of women with men4 ,one aim1 a common self-devotion in all was what she desired4 ,to further it meetings of the staff were constantly held1 when she would speak serious words which would burn themselves into the soul of many a young teacher4 ,her intense earnestness impressed1 her tremendous claim was irresistible4 ,nothing for self6 all for those committed to your care1--your whole life arranged so as best to further your work6 ,this was the claim she made1 and to this she found response4 ,individually she helped much by a quiet word now and then1 by a little unexpected note1 sometimes by a long letter4 ,one young teacher1 who was apt to become excited in the enjoyment of her work1 was surprised one morning to receive in the midst of it a little note1 which1 when deciphered1 ran1 #8,my dear child1 try to work quietly4 ,we must not let good feeling go off in steam4' ,those who were long at ,cheltenham could tell of many such instances of watchful kindness2 letters to those who left to work elsewhere are full of it4 ,she had a wonderfully keen perception for reality of intention and earnestness in work1 and was quick to encourage any who showed these qualities4 ,one who was long on the staff at ,cheltenham has written thus of the help she received from the ,principal when she first went3-- #8,i often think of the days when ,i first began to teach1 just a beginner4 ,how ,miss ,beale encouraged and inspired one4 ,i remember when she came in to one of my early geography lessons1 an atrociously bad one1 she spoke so kindly to me afterwards about it1 and suggested that ,i should give up the subject for a time and study it before ,i taught it again4 ,later1 she showed me a book with new ideas on the teaching of geography1 and asked if ,i would try again4 ,i did1 and it became my special subject whilst ,i was at ,college1 all through her kindly encouragement and help4 ,she was always so delightfully sympathetic about one's family and friends too1 and she never forgot one's home circumstances4' ,when it was necessary to find fault or alter an arrangement ,miss ,beale never shrank from doing what she believed to be for the good of the whole1 even at the cost of personal convenience4 ,but she was always careful not to reprove except in such a way as to leave an absolute sense of justice4 ,there was no sting in her rebuke4 ,and she could own herself wrong4 ,she had no foolish fear about giving herself away4 ,one member of the staff could tell of long and repeated application for an arrangement which she knew to be right1 but which ,miss ,beale absolutely and bluntly refused4 ,at last it was granted4 ,miss ,beale herself came and stood patiently watching the removal of desks1 etc41 involved4 ,it took at least an hour4 ,when she had seen it finished1 she said3 #8,i see you were right in insisting on this4' #8,she has given in1 and ,i could die for her6' exclaimed the teacher1 as she reported the incident to another concerned in it4 ,it has often been said that the ,college teachers were overworked4 ,it would be truer1 perhaps1 to state that too many chose to overwork1 and that it was easy to do so4 ,miss ,beale1 who taught1 read1 wrote so much1 interviewed people1 conducted any amount of ,college business1 and yet found time to write upon ,browning or the ,fourth ,dimension1 was unable rightly to estimate how little a young woman of average intelligence can do4 ,she had to learn it by actual experience of cases1 and she tried to learn it4 ,she was always anxious to readjust a burden1 took infinite trouble to do so1 but did not always realise the weakness of many a willing horse1 or the want of common-sense1 which will make people heap up tasks or work without plan4 ,she never wanted to play herself1 could not understand that any one should seriously wish to do so2 she therefore regarded such a thing as the teachers' tennis-ground as quite superfluous4#gd ,nor could she understand why any should wish to live out of sight of the place of their work4 ,even in the summer holidays she frequently chose the ,sanatorium for a residence4 ,her own house was gradually absorbed by the ,college buildings1 until it became almost as shut from the outer world as the women's apartments in an oriental establishment1 with no proper air and light of its own1 only such as was derived from the surrounding corridors of the beloved ,college4 ,miss ,beale preferred it should be so4 ,yet this attitude was but the defect of the great qualities by which she was enabled to make a complete self-surrender1 and to call upon others to do the same #8for the work's sake4' ,the only teachers who really felt ill-used or misunderstood1 and who perhaps had some genuine ground for their complaint1 were those who were unwilling to take trouble over fresh methods and subjects1 or who were unable to rise to the high standard put before them1 innocently thinking that the profession of a school-mistress was just an interesting occupation1 or a means of earning a livelihood4 ,yet the practical side had its place4 ,it was to ,miss ,beale's foresight and initiative that the ,pension ,fund was in the first instance due4 ,miss ,beale's letters to ,miss ,clara ,arnold1 with whom she had a close correspondence from the time ,miss ,arnold left the ,college to become a teacher until her death in ,march #aijf1 show at once her ideal1 and her close individual care for her own child4 ,some of the most interesting are quoted here3-- #8,may ,god bless you and prosper your work4 ,you look to me too eager1--will you understand my word8 ,try to feel more what ,i was saying to-day1 that work is not ours but ,god's1 and so we may look up peacefully1 trustingly1 committing our work to ,him4 ,if we try to serve ,him in sincerity1 ,he will perfect that which is lacking4 ,are not those chapters in ,ezekiel comforting1 when we feel our shortcomings1 and that we sometimes lead children wrongly8 ,because the shepherds made them to err--8,i myself will be their shepherd40' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,june #ahha4 #8,i wish ,i could help you1 my dear child4 ,i have copied out for you parts of an address given to teachers some years ago by ,mr4 ,body4#ge ,i took notes of it and send some to you4 ,you must not let your spiritual life die down1 you must get oil to burn in the lamp of your being3 that spirit of grace and life and light of the soul4 ,such times of dryness do seem to be sent at times to try our faith2 whether we serve ,god for ,his gifts and the joys of religion1 but often they are the result of disobedience to the ,voice of the ,spirit4 8,because ,i called and ye refused10 etc4 ,some unfaithfulness to what we knew to be right1 some self-indulgent ways1 some sloth4 ,sometimes there is a sin unknown1 and ,god would make us search it out2 sometimes hidden like ,achan's piece of gold1 it causes us to turn our backs on our enemies4 ,we have to find out and acknowledge the sin4 #8,i don't understand about your ,sundays4 ,i find ,i need so much that quiet day4 ,i think you should resist making it a social day1 as friends expect1--have a good portion alone for prayer and study--for the study of rather deep books4 8,build yourselves up1 beloved1 in your most holy faith40 ,take portions of the ,bible and work them out with good commentaries1 above all with prayerful study4 #8,do you intercede enough8 ,if our prayers become selfish they lose life4 ,remember the cruse of oil4 #8,i wonder if you could sometimes go to ,st4 ,peter's1 ,eaton ,square1 to a ,bible class1 which ,mr4 ,wilkinson holds generally once a fortnight on ,fridays after afternoon service4 ,i should like you to see him2 but ,i care for his teaching on ,sundays less than on week-days4 ,it is a fashionable congregation and the church crowded1 still ,i wish you would go1 because he seems to feel the presence of a living ,god more than almost any one ,i have heard4 #8,do you go to ,church now or to the ,brethren's services8 ,to me the ,church services and seasons1 and especially the silent half-hour while others are communicating1 is full of teaching4 8,i will come to them and make them to sit down to meat and will serve them40 ,do you know the 8,imitation08 ,if not1 let me send you a copy4 ,perhaps ,god speaks to you better in other ways4 #8,have you let opportunities slip of helping others8 ,now see if there is some one to whom you might give a cup of cold water4 ,thank ,god for such an opportunity1 and ask ,him to refresh your own soul and ,he will1 but you must be patient4 ,not at first does ,he answer4 ,partly this dryness is to teach you humility and sympathy4 #8,i would recommend you to be sympathetic in spite of it4 ,make some definite rule for devotion and keep to it4 #8,be particular about time1 one may waste so much in mere talk2 have some rule and respect it4 #8,take a little time at mid-day for prayer4 ,then if you don't feel right1 just go on quietly and untroubled1 trying to do as well as you can4 #8,read some daily portion on your knees and look up in faith4 ,he 8feedeth the young ravens that call upon ,him40 ,to one who wrote that she found the character of the county in which her school was placed #8detestable4' #8,i am most sorry about your finding the ---- character 8detestable40 ,if you have seemed called to work there1 you must be intended to love them1 to see what is good in them first1 then what needs correction4 ,i dare say their good qualities are just complementary to yours1 just what you want4 #8,how does your ,bishop feel about the flock over which the ,great ,shepherd has made him overseer8 and how does the ,great ,shepherd ,himself feel towards our detestable characters8 ,many letters to young teachers dealt with the care of health1 which was always impressed as a sacred duty upon girls and teachers alike4 ,body and mind should be kept fit for duty4 ,hence social engagements which would make it imperative to sit up late at night should be cut off as far as possible4 ,holidays should be spent in such a way as to gain complete freshness and rest and where there was no risk of infection1 not even of taking cold4 ,here is one to ,miss ,arnold3-- #8,i am so vexed to hear about this chronic headache4 ,remember it is one of your duties to ,god1 ,who has given you work1 to keep yourself fit1 so you must use every means4 ,i dare say a tonic would do you good4 #8,take warning too by ---- and do not put too great a spiritual strain upon your soul2 the body is to have rest and not too great excitement4 ,there have been times of weakness when ,i have not dared to let myself feel1--not at church or ,i should have broken down4 ,you are not as weak as that1 ,i hope4 ,i believe you ought to do less in the holidays4' ,again1 a month later she wrote3-- #8,but ,i often think that you drive your poor body too hard2 if we do that1 we have to carry 8the ass0 instead of the ass carrying us1 and then we break down under the burden4' ,here is a letter to another head-mistress3-- #8,i do wish you would take a real rest and holiday4 ,i feel sure it would be more economical in the end4 ,you have led two lives1 and for awhile ,i want you to lead none1 go to sleep4444 ,those whom you have inspired will carry on your work1 and then ,i hope you will come back with fresh energy to take up not all1 but a part of the work you have done4' ,miss ,beale could also enter into the feelings of exhaustion and depression which follow some special trial connected with work4 ,but the sympathy she showed was ever bracing1 as may be seen in the following extracts from letters3-- #8,i feel anxious about you1 but don't know what can be done1 and think that the school must suffer if you let these private troubles occupy your field of vision4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,i am grieved that you are feeling so exhausted4 ,if your post is clearly at ,truro1 if you have no call to leave it1 then you must brace yourself again1 and the work will be done all right1 whether in joy or sorrow4 ,if ,god has given it you1 ,he will give the strength to do it4 ,we are inclined to lie like the impotent man thinking 8,i can't40 ,directly we hear ,christ's voice--we can6 but it may be this body which you starved and ill-treated and worked so hard--8the ass10 as ,st4 ,francis1 ,i think1 called it1 has been overdriven4' ,there were many teachers who heard from ,miss ,beale just at the moment when they seemed to need help4 ,a few words of encouragement would come at such times as the beginning of new work4 ,to one she wrote always for the opening day of the term4 ,two such letters follow3-- #8,january #ah1 #ahig4 #8,i am thinking of you on this your opening day1 and this text seemed given me for you4 8,be strong1 and ,he shall comfort 7strengthen1 i4e47 thine heart1 and put thou thy trust in the ,lord40 #8,try1 my child1 to live more this year for your children1 and to enter1 as you are doing1 more into the thought that to save our lives we must lose them4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,september #ah1 #ahii4 #8,i have been thinking about you1 and supposed you would begin to-morrow4 #8,what a glorious ,epistle for this week4 ,may you be strengthened with might by the ,spirit1 and be filled with all the fulness of ,god4 ,his power does work in it1 above all that we ask or think4 #8,the prayer in 8,great ,souls0 speaks specially of those worn down by sickness4 ,i am sorry you feel weak1 but the heat has tried every one1 and ,i think you will revive when your children gather round you4 #8,perhaps this sort of class will be better for you1 and ,i think you are suited for it1 because you are sympathetic1 and will encourage those who feel themselves backward or not clever1 to use the powers they have1 to do what they can4 ,may our ,lord bless and comfort and guide you1 my dear child4' ,the ,college was not an easy place to leave4 ,miss ,beale was proud of the number of head-mistresses she sent out1 but she grudged parting with her best teachers4 ,and there were many who1 like ,miss ,belcher1#gf sacrificed their own interests to that of the ,college4 ,the following is a characteristic letter on the subject3-- #8,february #ahid4 #8,miss ,wolseley ,lewis1 who has been here nineteen years as pupil and teacher1 who is ,b4,a41 gold medallist1 all round1 a charming character1 good churchwoman1 excellent influence1 has come to ask me for a testimonial6 ,i wish ,i could write she is horrid6 #8,i am losing ,miss ,edmonds1 another gold medallist1 and so good all round1 because she wants to be ,m4,d4 and missionary4 ,i think it is cruel to take people at this time of year4 ,is there any chance of ,canon ,holland waiting8' ,but when ,miss ,wolseley ,lewis went to ,graham ,street1 she wrote to her3-- #8,you have been much in my thoughts this last ,sunday4 ,the sorrow of this year#gg seems to have drawn us nearer1 and it is hard to part with you2 but ,i feel you have been called to this work1 and ,i am in the depths of my heart glad4 ,may you in some degree realise the life of the ideal woman1 through the indwelling of the ,holy ,ghost4' #8,i have known her1' wrote a head-mistress after the death of ,miss ,beale1 #8for thirty-six years now1 and she has been the truest and most valued of friends to me4 ,how we who are head-mistresses of smaller schools will miss her advice and help it is difficult to express4' ,and ,miss ,beale could be most generous in parting with her best even in obedience to the claims of ordinary life1 claims which she did not find it easy always to recognise4 ,the following letter gives an example of this3-- #8,there can be only one answer under the circumstances1--you feel you could not return1 and ,i should feel as you do in your place4 ,it is a great blow to me1 for we have learned to feel such trust in one another1 and one cannot trust these young teachers to every one4444 ,i shall miss from my staff one whom ,i had learned to regard as a dear and faithful friend and fellow-worker4' ,many more extracts might be made from ,miss ,beale's letters to show her care for teachers and her supreme interest in all that concerned their welfare1 but in many cases they suffer by separation from their context4 ,therefore1 from the large mass of correspondence left1 a certain number of letters dealing with various subjects have been selected to form a chapter by themselves4 ,,chapter ,,xiii ,,parerga #8,all the great mystics have been energetic and influential1 and their business capacity is specially noted in a curiously large number of cases4' ,,inge1 ,bampton ,lectures1 ,preface vii4 ,one outcome of ,miss ,beale's time of personal spiritual distress1 one which bore directly on what she considered as ,st4 ,hilda's work1 was an arrangement made for the first time in #ahhd for devotional meetings for teachers at the end of the summer term4 ,after #ahhe1 when a second gathering took place1 they were held alternately with the biennial ,guild meetings4 ,like much of ,miss ,beale's work1 these ,quiet ,days1 as they were called1 resulted rather from a definite idea than from a formal plan4 ,their arrangement and character appear to have been due to the occurrence of certain conditions and circumstances while ,miss ,beale was forming a decision to help others who might be suffering as she herself had done4 ,plans for this help began to pass through her mind as early as the summer of #ahhb1 while she was herself1 as she would have expressed it1 #8in the fire4' ,in ,july #ahhb she wrote to a friend3-- #8,july #be1 #ahhb4 #8,what occurred to me was this--that something of a more definite ,retreat might be held for teachers during the vacation4 ,mr4 ,wilkinson had at ,christmas some ,quiet ,days which were very valuable and helpful4 ,still these were not quite like a regular ,retreat3--because very few who went were able to be really quiet in ,london lodgings1 and so could not get the absolute silence and repose which make a ,retreat valuable4444 ,most of the regular ,retreats are too general to give teachers the special help1 and many are so distinctly ,high ,church1 that one could not venture to recommend young teachers to go4444 ,i can't accept the decision 8nothing can be done02 theories of distress which reach me as the old light seems to go out1 and the dark waves close in1 are too distressing4 ,we cannot administer 8a universal pill02 but we can to some extent support and comfort those who are passing through the darkness2 one can out of one's own experience tell them that the stars will shine out once more2 one can teach some few simple lessons of faith and patience and hope2 one can show that there are a priori and a posteriori grounds for the faith we hold1--though mysteries unfathomable remain in every department of thought2 and in such a meeting1 personal help and advice might be given to meet special individual difficulties4 ,it is here that the ,christian ,evidence ,society fails4 ,teachers have not time for much reading and there are masses of books1 many of them containing very little matter and plenty of words and arguments1 which are useless for our special difficulties4 ,of course ,retreats are not simply for such intellectual treatment of doubts1 and one would look for a quickening of faith by the special services and united prayers4 ,so ,i thought it might seem good to hold some sort of ,retreat in ,oxford next year4' ,it was not till the beginning of #ahhc while attending a ,retreat in ,warrington ,crescent--a time to which she often recurred as of much help and strengthening--that ,miss ,beale was able definitely to consider what might be done4 ,there were friends to whom she could turn1 who took trouble to help her by thinking over the matter from her point of view4 ,among these may specially be mentioned the late ,archbishop of ,canterbury and ,mrs4 ,benson1 the late ,bishop of ,st4 ,andrews1 and ,canon ,body4 ,to ,mrs4 ,benson she wrote3-- #8,epiphany1 #ahhc4 #8,whilst others were rejoicing at the recent appointment ,i have been conscious of a mixed feeling1 for the ,archbishop of ,canterbury will not be able to do what the ,bishop of ,truro had half promised1 in the way of helping by some kind of ,retreat1 teachers who have difficulties of belief4 ,mr4 ,wilkinson has also been unable to give us the ,quiet ,days for which we had hoped4 ,so some ,head ,mistresses1 who were in ,retreat1 and felt the great need1 asked for special prayers for teachers in ,colleges and ,high ,schools1 and that some way might be found to help them4 ,mr4 ,body responded very heartily to our request1 and desired us to make it the subject of our special petition each week during the year4 ,afterwards in conversation1 he spoke of the valuable help you had been able to give1 and this has set me thinking whether we could not ask you to make your knowledge and experience more widely useful4 #8,our main difficulty would be to meet the doubts of those who have them1 without suggesting doubts to those who have not been called to encounter this trial4 #8,it has occurred to me1 that perhaps there might be something on the model of the ,guild for the ,sick1 combining the principle of the 8,instruction by ,correspondence0 classes4 #8 444 ,perhaps you may think me intruding--my acquaintance with you is so slight--and unpractical1 but the need is great and immediate1 and ,i think you will feel this too4 ,i have gained such painful experience1 both from within and without1 of the misery of those who have once seen and then lost the sight of the invisible2 those who have left1 especially those who become teachers1 often turn to me for help1 which ,i feel so incompetent to give1 and which ,i have not time to do properly4 ,one is writing to me now1 who is in a school in which there are sixteen teachers1 ten of whom have given up all outward sign of the religious life4 ,i long to be able to refer those who need guidance to some who are able to help them4 ,every other trial can be borne1 but this is utter misery4 #8 444 ,it is not enough to preach sermons1 and print books1 as well might we furnish a treatise on ,arithmetic to a child whose sum is wrong2 we must find out and show why it is wrong4 ,the ,church did not make its way by such means at first1 at least not without daily discussions 8in the school of one ,tyrannus40 ,of course ,i do not overlook that some of the difficulties of belief are moral1 but these could be met by the means ,i suggest4 #8,i think it is very important that members should be able to enquire anonymously2 come 8by night0 as it were1 and should be assured that no one would try to find out the name4' ,to ,canon ,body1 who had sent her a letter full of sympathy and interest1 she wrote3-- #8,i am so glad you wrote thus freely1 for it has made me understand better how much you can feel for those in this deepest sorrow1 and yet have a sure and certain hope that they will rise out of that ,hades4 ,it is1 as you say1 most cheering to find movements of the same kind in different places4 ,if there is a spiritual tide1 the waters can only be lifted by extra mundane force4' ,gradually the plan shaped itself4 ,for a time ,miss ,beale hoped to be able to arrange at ,oxford a ,retreat followed by a conference1 with lectures and discussions on theological subjects4 ,this proved to be impracticable4 ,then she sought to carry out the plan at ,cheltenham4 ,she was advised to limit herself to two or three days of quiet study and devotion with addresses4 ,she would not1 however1 relinquish the idea of some kind of conference4 ,the scheme stated in the following extract from a letter was very much what was actually carried out3-- #8,i hope the archbishop will be so good as to ask some one to give the addresses in the ,quiet ,days4444 ,i should be there and a few of my friends1 head mistresses1 and we should make our subsequent lessons harmonise with the previous instruction1 so that there should be unity4 ,i do not mean to give lessons on methods of teaching in the ordinary mechanical sense2 but on our vocation and the moral aspects of our work1 and then ,i thought we could get some one to give ,bible lessons on the books set by ,oxford and ,cambridge1 some one who knows the difference between dead and living teaching4 ,we must have enough to occupy those who come for the whole month1 though ,i expect only a few of those who come will remain so long4 ,there will1 ,i find1 be a large proportion of earnest teachers who will be able to help and strengthen the weak4' ,the ,rev4 ,v4 ,h4 ,stanton#gh kindly acceded to ,miss ,beale's request to give the addresses at the three ,quiet ,days which opened the conference in #ahhd4 ,in the following year ,canon ,mason did this4 ,it is noticeable that on almost every occasion the conductor of this ,retreat for teachers was drawn from the ranks of ,cambridge4 ,the reason for this ,miss ,beale often explained1 as in the following letter written as late as ,april #aijd3-- #8,i have had nearly all the book you sent read to me2 there are some beautiful thoughts1 but ,i don't feel quite at home in the general atmosphere4 ,it is difficult to describe1 but ,i remember when ,archbishop ,benson was choosing a ,conductor for our ,retreat1 he said one day1 he would rather choose from the ,cambridge school of thought4 ,i asked him what was the difference between ,cambridge and ,oxford1 and he said1 8,the latter began with the thought of sin1 the former with the thought of the ,divine ,life in man40 #8,some day when we meet ,i may be able to make clearer what ,i mean4' ,mr4 ,stanton's earnest sympathetic addresses were greatly valued by those who were present in #ahhd4 ,not less prized was the generous kindness of the ,lady ,principal in the weeks which followed the ,retreat4 ,miss ,beale not only gave frequent addresses on various subjects1 continuing in some the line of thought begun on the ,quiet ,days1 she was also constantly at the service of any member of the party for discussion or counsel4 #8,i expected certainly to see something of you1' one who had been present wrote afterwards to her1 #8but that you would constitute yourself the mother of the party1 be with us at meals1 and do so very much for our improvement and entertainment was quite undreamt of4 ,indeed1 we were all touched by it4 ,i think those quiet days at the beginning gave a special tone of earnestness to the gathering4' ,mrs4 ,soulsby wrote of the #8help and comfort you gave to me and so many others by arranging that ,retreat4 ,i have never been present at anything so calculated to do steady and lasting good4' ,and many spoke of the #8sense of fellowship' which had been gained by meeting so many with like aims and interests2 they told how they were going back to work with #8new hope for the future1' or with #8many new lights and helpful suggestions to aid' them4 ,some said the work of teaching had been represented to them in a new light1 some that the conference helped them to a new start4 ,one told how she was #8in danger of making shipwreck when your wise counsel saved me4' ,another said3 #8,one thing struck me very much1 the fellow-feeling and anxiety to help that teachers who have been at ,cheltenham have for each other4' ,more than a hundred teachers1 many of them belonging to ,cheltenham1 were present for the first days of the conference in #ahhd4 ,some twenty outside teachers remained for the whole month4 ,the time was long enough to foster real intimacy4 ,a great deal of time and thought had been devoted to arrangements beforehand1 in order that all might get the utmost benefit from the time4 ,in this ,miss ,beale received much willing co-operation from her own staff1 and ,miss ,caines lent ,fauconberg ,house and her servants4 ,miss ,beale was specially anxious that during the ,quiet ,days all should have the opportunity of keeping well the silence which was observed4 ,those who had no rooms of their own had little sitting-rooms assigned them in the ,college1 the music-rooms being available for this purpose4 ,that part of the ,cheltenham world which still regarded ,miss ,beale with suspicion and to whom a ,retreat appeared1 even as late as #ahhd1 to be a dangerous ,high ,church innovation1 raised a cry of alarm4 ,the music-rooms had been turned into cells6 ,it is not known what the word implied to those who made the outcry1 and it was soon silenced1 but it caused a little annoyance at the time4 ,the month passed in teaching and helping1 though gladly given out of her own holidays1 was an undoubted physical strain to ,miss ,beale4 ,she wrote to ,mrs4 ,benson3-- #8,i wish ,i had never said ,i would try to write a paper for ,thursday at the ,health ,exhibition4 ,i do not like to leave even for a day1 as one ought to go on trying to help those who remain4 ,we do feel so grateful for all the time and thought you and the ,archbishop have been good enough to give us1 especially in the selection of ,mr4 ,stanton4 ,for myself1 ,i should never have had the courage to go on2 7one gets nervous74444' ,and she was tired4 ,the last entry in her diary for that month is this3-- #8,august #bg4--;,end of month at ,fauconberg4 ,last address not good1 and result of neglect4' ,yet ,miss ,beale probably felt such a strain far less than any other head-mistress would have done1 so absorbingly interesting to her was this kind of work4 ,she always looked back with great pleasure on that time4 ,she treasured the letters she received afterwards from those who had been present1 dated from it lasting friendships made with some who had come from other schools1 and felt it had drawn her nearer to some of her own teachers4 ,miss ,beale's outside interests were concerned1 as was natural1 chiefly with education4 ,with every educational movement made during the last fifty years in the direction of progress she became to some extent associated4 ,she presided at the first meeting of head-mistresses held in #ahgd at ,myra ,lodge1 when the ,association for ,head-mistresses was founded with ,miss ,buss as president4 #8,i see1' said ,miss ,beale of this meeting in #aijf1 #8it is recorded that ,i presided4 ,my recollections are only of lying in great pain on the sofa and taking only a feeble part in the discussion4 ,i little thought that ,i should be allowed to address a conference which more than thirty years after numbers over two hundred and thirty members4444 ,at our first meeting certain principles were asserted which tended to settle some difficult questions4' ,miss ,beale here doubtless refers to the very first resolution passed by this aristocratic body1 which was to the effect that no school can work satisfactorily unless the head-mistress be entirely responsible for its internal management4 ,miss ,ridley1 in writing of ,miss ,buss1#gi 7to #8whose insight and foresight1' said ,miss ,beale1 #8the founding of the ,association was entirely due1'7 has shown that the passing of this resolution was in itself almost a raison d'tre for the ,association4 ,for the rightful position of a head-mistress was not recognised without some difficulty and controversy4 ,the governing bodies of girls' schools could not at first be selected on the ground of interest and experience in educational matters4 ,another resolution passed on that occasion was to the effect that an examination to test the power of teachers is desirable4 ,on the death of ,miss ,buss1 in #ahie1 ,miss ,beale became president until #ahig1 when her term of office expired4 ,she never sought re-election1 her increasing deafness making it difficult for her to conduct meetings4 ,she thought a great deal of the importance of the ,association and of the discussions which took place at its meetings1 and strove in every way to render them not only earnest but fair-minded4 #8,i hope1' she said on one occasion1 #8that our assemblies will not become such as the discussions in ,parliament1 merely formal1 every one having taken a side before and being unmoved by anything said4' ,miss ,beale several times read papers to the ,association1 and in later years the deferential welcome she received from its members was very noticeable4 ,her last address1 given on the request of the ,association in ,june #aijf1 only a few months before her death1 may be regarded as her farewell to the educational world4 ,when the ,association for ,assistant ,mistresses was formed1 ,miss ,beale regarded it at first with some anxiety4 ,she feared the clash of interests and promotion of suspicion between a head and her staff4 ,later1 when she understood the work of the ,association1 she received it into favour1 and on one occasion addressed a meeting of the western branch at ,st4 ,hilda's4 ,members of the ,association were welcomed1 and sometimes spent the morning at ,college when they came over for branch meetings4 ,miss ,beale1 too1 was always willing to let those of her staff who belonged to the ,a4,a4,m4 ,committee go up to ,london to attend meetings in term time1 and was pleased when it fell to ,miss ,lumby1 as ,president of the ,association1 to give evidence together with ,mrs4 ,withiel1 before the ,bryce ,commission in #ahie4 ,the ,teachers' ,guild1 founded by ,miss ,buss in #ahhc1 met with warm support from the head-mistresses of the ,association4 ,a branch was started at ,cheltenham in the following year1 and a paper by ,miss ,beale read1 she herself being indisposed at the time4 ,she used her influence with her own teachers to join the ,guild1 and frequently addressed the branch meetings on such subjects as the ,value of ,examinations4 ,in the ,froebel ,society she was also much interested and subscribed to it regularly4 ,when the ,church ,schools' ,company was founded in #ahhc1 ,miss ,beale became at once a member of the ,council4 ,she was proud that the ,college supplied head-mistresses to both the ,graham ,street and ,baker ,street ,schools4 ,the hopefulness no increase of years or disappointment could abate1 the open mind ever quick to receive what was good and original from those younger and less experienced than herself1 were seen in the way ,miss ,beale greeted the work of the ,child-,study ,association4 ,with her consent ,miss ,louch1 then a member of the ,college staff1 proceeded to ,america in #ahid to attend a course of lectures by ,dr4 ,stanley ,hall on child-study4 ,on her return the ,association was formed in ,edinburgh1 and in the same year a branch was started in ,cheltenham1 with ,miss ,beale as local president4 ,before her death she was president of the whole ,association1 and presided over the conference held in ,cheltenham in #aijf1 the year of her death4 ,when the ,paidologist1 the organ of the ,child-,study ,association1 was started1 ,miss ,beale contributed largely to the guarantee fund1 and for five years was a member of the ,magazine ,committee4 ,she promoted the work of the ,association by trying to get the ,college staff1 boarding-house mistresses1 and parents of pupils to join and assist in it4 ,miss ,beale was among those consulted by ,miss ,mason when1 in #ahhh1 she definitely sought to give the ,parents' ,educational ,union1 which had had a successful year's work in ,bradford1 a national name and character4 ,the work of the society appealed greatly to ,miss ,beale1 and the ,cheltenham branch was one of the earliest founded4 ,her name appears among those of the vice-presidents in #ahib4 ,to pass beyond the limits of the work in which1 from the fact of her position1 the ,lady ,principal of ,cheltenham was called upon to take a part1 it may be noticed that she was always much interested in ,sunday-school teaching1 and wrote many articles upon it4 ,several of these have been printed4 ,her interest was caused largely by the numbers of old pupils who took up this work1 and who came to her for advice about it1 as well as to the congenial nature of religious instruction4 ,dissatisfied with the methods or want of method prevailing in many ,sunday-schools1 she had a high ideal of the work for the sake both of teacher and children1 and was always ready with sympathy and suggestion4 ,to an old pupil engaged on a paper intended to point out some existing ills in ,sunday-schools she wrote in #ahhj3-- #8,i should say begin with all the good done--the necessity for them at the time1 etc4 ,then speak of the evils1 and with each sort suggest a remedy1 and admit that the evils are not universal4 ,try to put it in rather a different shape1 and ,i think it would do good in overthrowing some self-complacency4 ,especially is it an evil when quite raw girls--some ignorant girls such as we have at ,college--pretend to teach4 ,children accustomed to proper teaching of course fidget4 ,i should have been a little rebel myself1 if ,i had had to hear the wretched stuff that some children do at ,sunday ,school4 ,but it does1 when done properly1 draw classes together4' ,institutions and societies designed to help the poor of ,cheltenham came of course before ,miss ,beale's notice4 ,she never1 however1 allowed herself to be drawn from the pressing requirements of her own work1 so as to become acquainted with the details of that which1 to some extent1 grows up round every church4 ,she was1 indeed1 on principle1 chary in her support of this1 maintaining that in a town there was generally great waste of funds and labours1 owing to the lack of combination4 ,she wrote as early as #ahha in reference to ,cheltenham3-- #8,i am so anxious that we should all work in the direction pointed out by our ,rural ,dean1 get all ,church people to work together as one1 for works which cannot or ought not to be merely parochial1 and in all charitable work1 wherever it is possible1 to get all1 whether ,church or not1 to join in opposing all forms of evil4444 ,i think we should take works in order of importance4 ,i may be wrong1 but ,i have regretted the erection of ,church steeples when there was other work that seemed to me of more importance left unsupported4 ,i think the increase of offertories in churches1 good as it is in many ways1 has tended to hinder united work in the town4 ,i do not know whether there ever could be a sort of ,council for the administration of at least part of the funds so collected2 but it does seem as if the present plan gave too much to some districts and too little to others1 and left some institutions which have a claim upon all1 with scarcely any support1 because what is everybody's business is nobody's4444 ,the laity have very little influence in the distribution of money collected in churches1 which tends always to become a larger proportion of what is given away1 so that much of the power to organise united work must rest with the clergy4 ,and living forces1 which are enormously more important than money1 are wasted by 8congregationalism40 ,could there not be some larger association of ,church workers from which some sort of administrative council might select persons suitable for any special work8 ,could not work sometimes be done collectively1 instead of each clergyman doing it separately for his own congregation8 ,i do hope that more and more1 in one work after another1 we may unite our forces1 and if once people can be induced to look into the evils which exist at their very doors1 they will be moved to work with one heart and mind to remove what is a disgrace to our town4' ,among the institutions of ,cheltenham1 for which ,miss ,beale specially claimed the need of united action1 was the ,working ,men's ,college4 ,she herself on one occasion read a paper there1 her subject being #8,self-support and ,self-government from the point of view1 not of the individual1 but of the ,college4' ,the paper1 simple and direct1 shows how ,miss ,beale could throw herself into the minds of those she addressed1 appealing to all that was best in them1 while at the same time putting her own thoughts into them4 ,it embodies her favourite theories of the danger of helping people through gifts3-- #8,i do not think there are many belonging to this ,college who could not pay a few shillings annually4 ,self-denial adds value to energy4444 ,everybody does not agree with me4 ,some think you will misunderstand1--think we do not want help4 ,i do not think you will1 to judge by my own feelings4 ,i like to be independent4 ,you look at the ,ladies' ,college and say1 8,you have got all you want40 ,but time was when we were very poor1 so poor that our ,council said1 444 we will have but another year's trial and then shut up4 ,we never said we would beg people to help us3 we would make it self-supporting1 or it should die4444 ,i feel certain if you working-men were to say1 ,we will take the management ourselves1 and it shall be a success1 that it would be1 and ,i think that if other people manage and pay for it1 that some of the strongest and most independent would stand aloof4444 ,i am quite sure that our ,college would not have been what it is if we had had money to fall back upon4 ,i might myself have left the helm and gone to sit quietly in the cabin while the vessel drifted on to the rocks4' ,among ,miss ,beale's papers there exists a very simple address entitled1 #8,is ,death the ,end8' ,she intended to read it at a little mission-room1 maintained in a very poor street by her friends1 ,mr4 and ,mrs4 ,james ,owen4 ,the subject was one which had taken strong hold of her fancy at the time4 ,some one had discovered a dragon-fly emerging from its chrysalis on a water-lily in the little pond which then existed in the ,fauconberg ,house garden adjoining the ,college grounds4 ,it was taken to ,miss ,beale1 who saw enacted before her own eyes a living parable of resurrection-life4 ,her childlike delight in this came out in almost every ,scripture lesson she gave that summer4 ,the pond was watched for chrysalids2 they were taken into the classrooms for the children to see the creatures creep out of their tombs1 lie soft and sleepy for a little1 then sail away on new-found wings4 ,this true story of the dragon-fly and all it could teach of life1 through death1 ,miss ,beale longed to tell to ,mrs4 ,owen's poor friends4 ,she wrote it carefully1 and had little illustrations made2 but the lecture was never given4 #8,mrs4 ,owen would not let me1' she said sadly1 #8but ,i think ,i could have interested them in the dragon-fly4' ,but ,mrs4 ,owen was probably right1 since the audience for whom the paper was intended was such as ,miss ,beale knew only in the pages of ,browning's ,christmas ,eve4 ,in the work of the ,church abroad1 in the needs and claims of heathen peoples governed by ,england1 in the various problems which arise out of these vast considerations1 ,miss ,beale was interested only in a secondary way4 ,that is to say1 when they came before her in the work of her own pupils1 when her girls turned to her for sympathy and help1 then she would consider them enough to be able to form some definite opinion1 and to give sound advice4 ,the teachings of ,hindoo religions and philosophy1 and the progress of ,christianity in ,india1 came before her as matters of real interest in #ahhc1 when ,pundita ,ramabai was sent by the ,wantage ,sisters to study at the ,college4 ,miss ,beale received her with the utmost warmth and friendship4 ,she made every possible arrangement for her health and protection3 she not only put at her disposal every advantage the ,college could offer1 but gave up a large portion of her own valuable time in order to help her personally4 ,she welcomed ,ramabai's long letters on religious questions and difficulties1 answering them at equal length4 ,she obtained introductions and arranged interviews for her with many whom she thought could help her4 ,ramabai's #8appetite for philosophy' 7to quote ,miss ,beale71 her enthusiasm and unsparing devotion to the cause of her unhappy sisters in ,india1 touched her deeply1 and when the ,home for ,widows was established at ,poona1#hj ,miss ,beale became a large and regular subscriber to it4 ,among her papers there is one which was perhaps sent to ,india1 or was perhaps just one of those written expressions of some thought which had seized and filled her mind4 ,it was evidently intended to be an appeal against the cruelty which made such homes for widows necessary3-- #8,my heart1' it runs1 #8is stirred by sorrow and pity for those suffering widows of ,india2 but there are some whom ,i pity more1--those who inflict the sorrows on them1 since it is far better to suffer than to do wrong4444 ,but what grieves me1 too1 is the thought of the waste of all that wonderful amount of energy and life which ,god has given your country-women in order to bless others4 ,if the men of ,india believe in ,god's goodness and wisdom1 as ,i think they must1 even though they may not trust ,him1 they must think ,he has not made all those widows to be a burden and misery to themselves and others1 but to do good work4 ,what mistakes people make when they think that they are wiser than ,god4444 ,i look forward to the future and rejoice and think that as ,india grows wiser with that wisdom which trusts the infinitely wise and good ,god1 ,whom we worship1 she will send out her clever and good women1 who are now crushed by sorrow and unkindness1 into the rich harvest-fields of the world1 will cheer them on in their work for others1 and they will become a blessing2 surely that is the only joy of a woman's heart4444 ,not this only1 there will be many who will gladly give up all thought of the happiness of wife or of mother1 in its limited sense1 and go forth to live for others4444 ,i can remember when ,old ,maid was a term of contempt in ,england1 but it is not so now2 you have seen me and sixty old maids working together happy and content1 and if ,i could send out a hundred women where ,i can now send one1 ,i should not have too many1 so constant are the demands for 8old maids10 as you would call them1--for teachers1 nurses1 missionaries1 and all sorts of good work4444 ,india will some time feel all that her wasted women's life can do4 ,god will put it into the hearts of men and of the happy women1 who are sometimes hard on the unhappy1 to set these women free to do all that is in their heart1 and other good women will teach them to use their precious gift of liberty as in ,god's sight4' ,ramabai undoubtedly made ,miss ,beale realise the need for definite ,christian teaching in ,india4 ,here is an interesting extract from a letter on this subject3-- #8#ahhd4 #8,rama ,bai is very learned and thoughtful1 and says how powerless most missionaries are1 for want of the knowledge of native philosophy and religion4444 ,i thought that the native religions were feeding the higher life1 but it seems not so now2 but the state is much the same as in ,greece and ,rome just before the ,christian era4 ,she spoke much as ,plato does in the ,republic about the character of the gods in the ,indian poetry1 and felt the wonderful power of the perfect ,example1 and the inward ,grace to follow it4' ,on hearing of ,miss ,beale's death ,ramabai wrote3 #8,it is over twenty-one years since ,i saw ,miss ,beale for the last time4 ,but her sacred memory is quite fresh1 and ,i seem to hear her pray and give ,bible instruction4 ,her love and influence1 her words of encouragement and her prayers on my behalf1 have helped me much in my life and work4' ,in ,south ,africa1 a school at ,bloemfontein1 still more one at ,grahamstown1 became of interest at ,cheltenham through the influence of ,miss ,strong1 who prepared herself to work in them by some periods of time at the ,college4 ,many teachers at the ,diocesan ,school1 ,grahamstown1 were drawn from ,cheltenham1 and its association of old pupils was for a time affiliated with the ,guild4 ,other old pupils went to ,india1 ,china1 ,japan4 ,as the number of ,cheltenham missionaries increased1 the importance and needs of their work became impressed more and more on some members of the ,guild4 ,in #ahgh ,miss ,beale1 whose own interest in foreign missions grew steadily in later years1 allowed the formation of a ,missionary ,study ,circle within the ,guild4#ha ,this is the only special work other than that of the ,london ,settlement she ever sanctioned1 and this one was much safeguarded4 ,when the ,occasional ,leaflet1 the organ of this circle1 was first published1 she made it a condition that there should be no begging for money1 nor even a definite urging of the claims of foreign mission work4 ,she feared girls might be drawn by the attraction of distant and more heroic-seeming activities to neglect duty at home4 ,and1 as the present editor of the ,leaflet has remarked1 #8,she hardly realised how careful societies are in selecting and training would-be missionaries4' ,on one occasion ,miss ,beale1 by the request of the late ,bishop of ,grahamstown1#hb actually addressed a small missionary meeting4 ,she began by saying3-- #8,i have been asked to speak to you a few words to-day1 and ,i have consented on condition that ,i should not advocate a cause4 ,it is sometimes said1 8,will you not collect money or bring forward such an institution80 and ,i say 8,no6 my duty is to give principles1 and to leave the definite application40 ,and if the carrying out of the principles deprives of helpers myself and the work that is nearest to my heart ,i am content1 and so ,i am sure the ,bishop is4' ,she continued1 #8,i admit there is sometimes a call to go abroad for those who want to serve ,christ1 and lack resolution to be cut off from home ties4 ,we cannot so easily forget we are soldiers if we go out to an enemy's country4 ,we read in history of brave people who failed in war because when they had won a battle they could not be kept together2 but disappeared into their own homes1 and had to be got together again on the next emergency4 ,so1 ,i think some who feel themselves weak do well to join some army bound for foreign parts4 ,they can't run away on the first repulse1 or give up when tired2--and the raw recruit comes back a veteran from his foreign campaign1 able to lead the volunteers who have to be trained at home4 ,not only does a foreign campaign help us to break the bondage of self-indulgent habits1 but it unites us too4 ,there is nothing like going away from home and facing a common foe to unite us to those from whom we were severed4 ,a neighbour whom we scarcely knew in ,cheltenham is a friend at once in ,china or ,africa4 ,in the presence of unbelief ,christians who are separated feel their differences in minor matters1 matters of taste and feelings rather than of principle1 to be insignificant2--and unite in the great battle against sin4 ,whilst1 on the other hand1 they feel the immense power1 the great need of faith1 living and real1 to sustain them when the props of ,society1 of ,church ,services1 of sympathetic friends are taken away2--they have to dig down to the rock4444 ,in any case the battle must not begin without training and discipline4 ,useless women1 because undisciplined in thought1 in will1 in action1 what havoc they make6 ,having a name to live1 yet dead2--these bring in confusion4 ,those who have not learned obedience1 those who want credit for themselves1 or excitement1 never help to win victory4' ,there was one matter outside her own proper sphere of activity in which ,miss ,beale was never sparing of money or personal trouble4 ,this was the work to which ,mrs4 ,lancaster had first drawn her in her youth1 the rescue and protection of women4 ,it became1 as life went on1 specially linked with the memory of that other friend1 of whom she loved to think as ,britomart1 rescuing her sister from the fire4 ,when ,mrs4 ,owen died1 it was felt instinctively that her work for others must and should continue4 ,there seemed no memorial so fit as a ,home for ,friendless ,girls for one whose chosen task it had been to seek the lost piece of silver4 ,miss ,beale translated1 as it were1 all her poetical thoughts1 all her most tender memories into active co-operation1 taking the chair at committees1 addressing meetings1 making known the needs of the ,home1 finding workers for it4 ,miss ,beale herself had learned much since #ahef4 ,as time went on she felt less inclined to seek remedies for evil than to prevent its beginning2 she looked more to causes than to resulting facts4 ,when in #ahhe ,mrs4 ,william ,grey made an appeal for help in organising some definite movement among the mothers of ,england against the sins which create the necessity for rescue1 ,miss ,beale responded warmly1 urging her to come forward herself to lead it4 #8,,ladies' ,,college1 ,,cheltenham1 ,august #e1 #ahhe4 #8,,dear ,,mrs4 ,,grey1--,your beautiful letter was sent me by an old pupil1 who with her husband1 ,mr4 ,mitchell1 is one of the most earnest workers in the cause4 ,the labours they have gone through patiently and quietly for years are immense4 #8,well3 it seems to me that we ought to have a ,union1 as large as the one you established1 and which did such wonderful work before2 but this time for--shall ,i say shepherding those who have no proper protectors1 and my thoughts turn to you to lead in this also4 7#a7 ,because ,i am sure that the work you have done has alone made it possible to hope that we may roll back this flood of corruption instead of being submerged by it2 the improvement in education has shown what women can do1 and won for the time a respect from men1 which they had not before4 ,these large schools have taught them to work together organically1 and the solid studies have strengthened them in every way4 7#b7 ,because you have such faith--,i remember how strong it was when mine failed4 7#c7 ,because you would be able to unite people of various creeds and classes and ranks in this great national work--people would trust your delicacy and your judgment1 and you would emphasise the patriotic grounds4 ,i never forget your speech at ,bristol1 and your words about our 8dear1 dear country40 ,you can both stir the heart1 and guide the judgment4 ,i think that perhaps ,god has restored your health that you may lead once more4 #8,dim visions float before my mind of an ,union of ,women which should embrace and work with the existing organisations1 such as the ,girls' ,friendly1 the ,metropolitan ,association1 and the ,christian ,young ,women1--which should welcome help from all2 for what are sectarian distinctions in the presence of such evils8 8,let every one that nameth the name of ,christ0 join--and those too who1 not naming ,his name1 live according to ,his life4444 #8,women band themselves together to go out to nurse in the armies--once that was thought impossible4444 ,perhaps ,i am talking of what is impracticable4 ,it is hard to keep calm enough to see clearly1 when such visions hover before one4 ,it is so important to keep calm1 that one may neither be paralysed1 nor make fantastic strokes instead of striking truly2 and therefore ,i want you to think and guide4 #8,i am sure we teachers must not let ourselves be diverted from our proper work1 of inspiring and setting others to work--indirectly1 not directly1 can we act4 ,i often have to stop earnest teachers1 who would break themselves down1 and say--8,if you want a thing done1 don't do it yourself40 ,but we do need more and more not to think of the mere giving of knowledge1 but of lifting through education the girls' characters2 giving them proper ideas of marriage and what it ought to be3 we should abolish all the frivolities of the marriage ceremonial4 ,would we had more weddings like that ,i attended yesterday of one of our teachers4 ,i had never before been present at one which had really satisfied me1 and there were crowds of poor people belonging to the 8unwashed0 amongst whom she had laboured1 who behaved as fashionable congregations do not1 and who must have gone away with a deeper sense of the meaning of a true marriage4 ,we need1 ,i think1 a marriage reform association as much as a funeral reform4 ,i am afraid my letter is a little incoherent4 ,i am in bed with headache1 after a somewhat exhausting week4 ,we have had a teachers' meeting again this year1 beginning with some ,quiet ,days1 and addresses to teachers by ,canon ,mason1 whom the ,archbishop of ,canterbury kindly asked4 ,i think we all thoroughly enjoyed these and our after meetings1 and our country excursions and social gatherings4 #8,miss ,helen ,gladstone was with us1 and ,ramabai1 with teachers from all parts4 #8,give my love to dear ,miss ,shireff4 ,i don't know what she will say to my urging work on you4' ,mrs4 ,grey did not decline the task thus sent back to her1 so far as she was able to do it by writing4 ,she was then living abroad in enfeebled health1 but her passionate words touched many in ,england1 and a movement which received the name of the ,women's ,league was set on foot in the usual routine way with committees and meetings4 ,miss ,beale attended one or two of these1 but does not appear to have been quite happy at them4 ,she was necessarily hampered by the fact that the name of the ,college ought not to be associated with this special work4 ,she felt also that she had not sufficiently studied the subject1 nor knew enough about the organisation of societies other than educational1 to be able to make suggestions before others of wide experience4 ,on one occasion1 when a difference of opinion arose about admission to the ,league1 she felt she had not spoken as decisively as she should1 and she wrote afterwards to ,mrs4 ,grey3 #8,i enclose the two circulars2 but please do not question me4 ,it seemed impertinent to speak when there were four or five ,bishops' wives present1 and ,i doubt my judgment4 ,i have given all my thought to other forms of organisation1 and ,i live so much out of the world4' ,and to the lady with whom she had specially differed she wrote thus3-- #8,i have been trying to think how it was possible for you to misunderstand me1 as ,i saw you did on ,saturday4 ,i thought you knew me too well to think ,i could wish any one to conceal their colours4 ,i was very tired1 and ,i see ,i did not make myself clear4 ,may ,i try now8 #8,there are two parties who call themselves ,agnostics3 there are those who reject the ,christian moral law1 and teach a truly abominable doctrine2 with such one could have absolutely nothing to do2 no league we could ever join could include these1 for they are our enemies4 #8,there are others1 who hold all that ,christ has taught us1 who would fully accept the ,christian moral law1 as the one and only rule4 ,i know some of these2 their whole heart is with us2 they do the work of ,christ1 for they go into the wilderness and find those wounded and stripped by thieves1 and bring them to our inn1 and bid us take care of them4 #8,i am sure our ,lord will one day place such on ,his right hand1 though they may question1 8,lord1 when saw we ,thee80 ,i would not separate from them1 lest ,i should be parted from ,him ,whose love is certainly working in them1 tho' their 8eyes are holden0 that they know ,him not4 #8,i know still that we cannot join them1 so as to do the same work1 and they know it too4 ,they gather in1 they go into the highways and hedges2 they leave the inner work to those who are actually disciples4 ,one ,i know has just now got the care of two neglected portionless girls1 and sent them to good ,church schools4444 #8,i shall be deeply grieved1 if in a crisis of such danger1 we show the enemy that we are so divided that we cannot welcome as allies those who are doing ,christ's work1 and acknowledging the perfection of ,his teaching1 because we cannot understand their difficulties in accepting the doctrines we hold sacred4 ,we shall not 8water down0 our teaching1 nor would they wish us to do so4 ,we shall not give up prayer1 because we do not impose special rules4' ,another letter of this period 7,march #ahhf7 to ,mrs4 ,grey shows ,miss ,beale's calm judgment as well as her sympathy in the difficult work of the ,league3-- #8 444 ,i am disappointed to find that some1 even of mature age1 seem to think it right to shut their eyes4444 ,of course one would be glad that such subjects as this should not be brought up without necessity1 and ,i suppose that many of us have grown up without a notion that some of the crimes alluded to in your paper were possible4 ,it does darken the whole world and sadden the lives of the young to know that such wickedness is possible2 it may destroy their faith in ,god1 to know it before their moral constitution has attained its full vigour1 and plunge them into pessimism3 one cannot help wishing to conceal these loathsome visions from those we love4 ,i do not go with ,miss ,ellice ,hopkins in her wish that the young should be very early warned4 ,it seems to me that there is a parallel between that and our action in cases of bodily disease3 one who looked on passively is sickened and made ill2--the nurse or surgeon bent on healing does not suffer4 #8,and ,i do feel that there is a great danger in bringing before the mind temptations which are connected with the bodily organisation4 ,a nervous excitement seems to be produced1 something of the nature of hysteria1 and there is a sort of criminal fascination such as those feel who throw themselves from heights3 the judgment seems utterly in abeyance4 ,the same thought seems expressed in the story of ,medusa4 #8,for this reason ,i do feel a little hesitation in giving countenance to the indefinite extension of ,blue-ribbon armies1 necessary and beneficent as they are in cases where there is strong temptation1 or persons are moved to work actively against intemperance2 and ,i would rather that the campaign should be one of missionaries1 so to speak1 of those who have bound themselves to some active work in the cause4 ,i think that such great evils might arise from the terrible mistakes which might be committed by those who undertook the ostracism without having a fair chance of arriving at a correct judgment4 ,it is so easy to stab to death the character of an innocent man2 the devil may steal as well as buy a man's shadow2 he may sell as well as buy4444 #8,so what seems to me best would be to have a small band of wise and calm leaders2 and not to invite a general public to give any pledge1 only trust to the working of such leaven as these would form4 #8,some of the points to which they direct attention should be the abolition of the frivolities of the marriage ceremony4444 #8,as regards material measures1 ,i would still urge the formation of a body of women-policemen1 who could safely do work which could not be done by men-policemen or clergymen4 ,these should undertake to watch over registries for women1 shops where women work1 to establish labour registers themselves1 and take care that women were not paid starvation wages2 to enter 7under protection7 suspected houses2 to watch railway stations and ships1 etc4 etc4 #8,so you see1 dear ,mrs4 ,grey1 tho' my heart is altogether with you1 my judgment does not quite go with the recommendations4 ,i do not fear your misunderstanding me1 because we are so truly one1 and can only differ about the best modes of work4444' ,as time went on ,miss ,beale's continued sympathy with this particular work was evidenced in larger subscriptions to the ,national ,vigilance ,association1 to which she also left a legacy4 ,the letters of the last years show her interest in it1 and that her horror of a worldly marriage was as great as ever4 ,she wrote to ,miss ,ellice ,hopkins in #aijc3-- #8,i meant that marriage without the spiritual ideal was intolerable1 but the body is transfigured2 there is a 8metamorphosis10 as the ,new ,testament insists so often2 but the ,scripture teaching is so different from the mere sentimental4 ,i don't like the tendency of ,lady ,rose's ,daughter4 ,i dislike1 of course1 much of ,sarah ,grand1 but the end of the ,heavenly ,twins does bring before people the horrors of such a marriage as the ,bishop's wife promotes4 ,it is a long and ever-renewed struggle with these wicked laws4444 ,it is sad to see that this new ,education ,act is shutting out women1 and making the hope of the suffrage less4 ,here the ,town ,council and the ,county ,council both asked me to nominate a woman--and four of our staff here have been asked to be managers of schools--but of course two or three women will be able to do very little4' ,cheltenham pupils who in course of time took up the cause of the poor and degraded1 found the greatest sympathy and help from ,miss ,beale4 ,she was always specially ready with sympathy for those who were engaged in an unpopular struggle for good4 ,among them may be specially mentioned ,miss ,annette ,bear1 whose labours in #ahid were instrumental in getting a clause dealing with children employed on the stage added to the ,act1 afterwards known as the ,children's ,charter1 and who after her marriage worked successfully for the women's vote in ,australia4 ,a short account of ,annette ,bear ,crawford appeared in the ,college ,magazines for #ahii and #aijj4 ,to an old pupil trying to help her unhappy sisters in ,africa she wrote3 #8,i must tell you how glad ,i was to see your name on the ,ladies' ,national ,list1 and to hear from yourself on the subject4 ,i am so rejoiced when my old girls take up this trying question4 ,only refined and educated women can handle it successfully4' ,she also begged her not to be discouraged by failure1 #8but remember the real thing to aim at is the ,suffrage4 ,without the vote you may cut off one evil to find it coming up again in a worse form1 and often1 but for the personal discipline1 might as well be knocking your head against a stone wall4' ,as time went on this question of the vote for women seemed more and more important to ,miss ,beale4 ,she became a ,vice-,president of the ,central ,society for ,women's ,suffrage1 besides being a regular subscriber4 ,naturally1 ,miss ,beale hoped for reform by means of the cultivation of the mind4 ,much evil she considered came from want of proper interests and from deficient knowledge of life1 such as even good reading could to some extent supply4 #8,give them literature lessons1' she said to an old pupil who had a large class of intelligent ,yorkshire factory girls4 ,a letter to another worker shows in what way she hoped women school managers might help to hinder the spread of corruption4 ,it has the additional interest of suggesting a measure akin to one lately adopted by the educational authorities in some counties3-- #87circa7 #ahhi4 #8,perhaps ,i ought not to say much2 my own vineyard ,i must keep4 ,it does seem to me that both men and women who are wanting to mend things ought to take municipal offices and all sorts of legal and government work4 #8,schools ought to be able to keep children longer and gradually reduce school time1 and could not one get a law that children without employment should be at school8 ,they must have in clerical language a 8title0 to leave school control by showing their parents are able to look after them or that they have an employer4 ,this wholesale feeding does seem a serious matter1 as weakening the sense of parental responsibility4 ,i do hope we shall not go in for pauperising in ,bethnal ,green4 ,i feel sure we shall not under ,miss ,newman4444 #8,the monstrous evil is1 however1 hydra-headed1 and one's courage sometimes sinks2 but there is1 no doubt1 a much higher public opinion than there was4' ,miss ,beale's pity for the helpless was not confined to women4 ,she felt deeply the needs of discharged prisoners1 and more than once sent donations of money to one of her old girls who was in a position to help them4 ,she also supported ,miss ,agnes ,weston's work for sailors4 ,another class whose needs she fully recognised was that of poor gentle people4 ,impoverished ,irish ladies1 governesses1 and others1 she was always anxious to help1 and frequently maintained the duty which richer members of their own class owed to them4 ,those who asked her aid for these often found her unexpectedly generous4 ,it has been shown how much she undertook1 both in money payment and trouble1 for girls who could not afford an education befitting their position4 ,outside this1 indeed1 her interests may have been held to have been comparatively few2 but when she did permit herself to study the problems of her day1 she made it evident that the force of mind and will which she concentrated on her own work could also have effected great results in other fields of labour4 ,,chapter ,,xiv ,,honours #8,he deserved well of his country4' #8,shall we try to deserve more rather than to win more8' said ,miss ,beale when she quoted the phrase of the ,roman senate1 which heads this chapter1 to some children--not of ,cheltenham--who were to receive prizes4 ,it well expresses her feeling about rewards4 ,they should grow out of the work2 should be some fresh privilege of service4 ,hence her indifference to prizes in the ,college4 ,they were given on a percentage of marks obtained in the midsummer examinations4 ,they were announced when the marks of the classes were read to them on the first morning of the next term1 but they were never presented3 they had to be fetched by the individuals who earned them from the secretary's room4 #8,i was opposed1' she wrote on one occasion1 #8to this custom4 ,i did not think it necessary to make pupils work1 they seemed as earnest and painstaking before prizes were given as since4 ,i felt it was better they should work from a love of knowledge or a simple sense of duty1 but the ,council took another view1 and as there is much to be said on their side of the question1 ,i yielded4 #8,in life1 prizes must be to a great extent the reward of thoughtful industry1 and it seems to me that on the one hand we may thereby teach the children to put success at its true value1 and point out to them that it is at the bar of our own conscience alone that we must stand approved or condemned2 that on the other hand they may learn to bear disappointment patiently4 ,i do not find that prizes create any feelings of jealousy or ill-will1 nor can ,i blame a child who looks forward with pleasure to carrying home to her parents this proof that she has tried to do as they would have her4 ,it appears to me a matter of less importance than is usually supposed1 and in any case can affect only a few pupils at the head of a class4 ,stimulants to exertion1 however1 are rarely needed4 ,there are very few who are not interested and earnest in their work1 and our difficulty is more frequently to check too great zeal1 and to insist on the observation of those limits we place to the time devoted to study than to demand more4' ,the high ideal of deserving rather than gaining was what ,miss ,beale set before herself as true wealth to be desired4 ,so she was careful1 when the management of large public funds and a much increased personal income came to her1 to remain as frugal1 as poor as ever4 ,it was not merely that she liked simplicity4 ,her simplicity of life was a deliberate intention4 ,there was a personal note in the fervour with which she would read the words of ,abraham to the king of ,sodom3 #8,i will not take from a thread even to a shoe-latchet1 444 lest thou shouldest say1 ,i have made ,abram rich4' ,no monk was ever more faithful to his chosen bride of ,poverty than ,miss ,beale remained with her large income and successful investments4 ,she was consistent also in preferring for those she loved a simple personal life1 which would leave mind and time free for thought and the needs of others4 ,when first ,miss ,beale went to ,cheltenham she adopted a very simple mode of living1 such as she thought would sufficiently meet her needs1 and she never changed it4 ,at the age of seventy she would even help to lay her own table for the frugal midday meal1 if the general servant had been delayed by household work in the morning4 ,she would walk to the station to save a cab fare1 and invariably chose the simplest means of conveyance unless on a matter of urgency4 ,it is true she became rather grander in dress as years went on4 #8,what did ,i wear1' she wrote to ,miss ,brown about #ahgf1 after some function she had attended1 #88velvet and ostrich feathers80 ,well1 what could ,i wear but my felt bonnet and old velvet cloak and old black serge8 ,i looked quite smart enough4' ,kind friends there were who liked to see the ,lady ,principal beautifully dressed1 and who were allowed in later life to guide her into velvet and ostrich feathers4 ,she submitted for the sake of the ,college1 for whose good she would cheerfully have worn either sackcloth or cloth of gold6 ,for the sake of the ,college1 still more for the sake of that work for women and the race which the ,college represented1 ,miss ,beale gladly greeted honours4 ,that they had anything to do with herself personally1 she was not even aware4 ,her work did indeed receive recognition far and wide from those who prized education1 and who regarded it from various points of view4 ,among the first to honour it with special notice and a substantial1 even magnificent gift1 was ,john ,ruskin1 when in #ahhe he presented to the ,college two beautiful and valuable manuscripts--one1 of the four ,gospels1 in ,greek1 written in the eleventh century2 another 7,antiphonarium ,romanum7 of the thirteenth century4 ,he gave also a collection of printed books4 ,these were the occasion of an interesting series of letters from ,mr4 ,ruskin to ,miss ,beale4 ,some of them are printed here4 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,february #aj1 #ahhb4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,i have to ask your pardon for never having replied to your former letter2 but it came when ,i was already over-wrought and threatened with illness1 and it gave me more to think of than it was possible then to review4 #8,i am now1 however1 most seriously bent on understanding the principles and knowing some of the results of modern girl education4444 #8,a very few lines would enable me to become of some use to you--in my own fields of work--and without moving from my fields of rest4 #8,i have the deepest respect for ,mr4 ,shields' work1 nevertheless it is out of my way2 and such drawing models as ,i may send you would be altogether different in feeling4 #8,but the first thing ,i want to know is what kind of library or schoolroom you have1 for quiet separate reading1 and what standard books the ,college possesses in ,lexicons1 works on natural history1 and classic literature1 and what place ,latin and ,italian have in your code of studies4--,ever faithfully yours1 ,j4 ,,ruskin4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,february #ah1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,i can only thank you to-day for the most interesting parcel1 which gives me an idea of the ,college and its branches1 admitting every degree of enthusiasm in its ,principal4 #8 444 but for the moment1 entirely puzzling to me1 as ,i neither want to confuse the strict ,college work with that of ,ruskin societies1 nor the elementary and general teaching with that of artists' studios1 or of general papers in your ,magazine4 #8,and when ,i give you books ,i should like them to be accessible to the classes in general4 ,i can't scatter them among the boarding-houses or give them only to the senior students at ,st4 ,hilda's4 ,you can surely put up some shelves for me in a corner of some generally inhabited room1 and put them under the care of an official librarian4 ,it seems to me the office might be given for a term at a time to any girl who cared to take it1 involving also the curatorship of any drawings1 casts of coins1 or the like1 which ,i could at times lend or present to you4 #8,in the meantime1 will you let me have a list of the classes1 with the books used in them1 and times of required attendance4 #8,dr4 ,watson has trusted me for the present to arrange the work for his daughter1 without reference to any competitive honours or testing examinations4 ,i wish to keep her well at her music1 ,french1 and if she cares for it1 elementary drawing1 with beginning of ,latin and the first making out of classic history4 ,what ,i chiefly need to know is the method of instruction in the music and drawing classes4 7,do your seniors touch ,greek at all87 #8,i have just been reading an excellent paper by ,miss ,sophia ,beale on ,art instruction1 in which1 however1 the general sense and truth of the author's views are prevented from taking a practical form by her falling into the scarcely in our time avoidable error of supposing that accuracy of drawing can only be taught by the figure4 #8,the figure can never be drawn accurately unless life is given to the task4 ,but a triangle1 an arch1 a cinquefoil1 and a wild rose are within the reach of ordinary girlhood's observation and delineation1 to ordinary girlhood's extreme profit4--,believe me1 dear ,madam1 your faithful servant1 ,,john ,,ruskin4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,march #c1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,i shall be most thankful if you can find anything in my books that the girls will like to have in the ,magazine3 the ivied trunks were sent in no high spiritual but lowly practical intent1 simply as the sort of models which you can't cut and bring in for yourselves1 and which1 once drawn real size1 will teach more than all my talking4 #8,i think her librarian cares will be ever so good for my wild flower1 and am looking out more fine books for her to-day1 chiefly a perfect edit1 of ,scott's poetry and ,heyne's beautiful ,virgil4 #8,i am wholly with you in liking ,greek better than ,latin1 but only as added to ,latin by clever girls4 ,the entire history of the ,catholic ,church being in ,latin1 and half the language of ,europe derived from it1 ,i would make every girl who passed through any course of literature begin with understanding her ,pater ,noster and ,te ,deum4 #8,but ,i have put a lovely edition of ,hesiod aside for next dispatch to the wild librarian4 #8,i don't quite know what the 8,kyrle0 ,society means1 but imagine ,i have stores of things they could put to use4--,ever faithfully yours1 ,j4 ,,ruskin4 #8,enclosed may be a pretty little gift to any of your good girls4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,march #g1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,i have put the little volume of poems into my near bookcase at the back of my arm-chair4 ,they look really very nice1 and show an extremely high tone in the school4 #8,i am going to send you with the ,pindar1 a beautiful #acth cent4 ,,ms41 with the ,gregorian notes all written to the old ,latin songs4 ,i think the ,college will be proud of it1 and your organist interested by it4 #8,i shall be delighted to see whatever the teachers care to send me4 ,i have been languid and stupid this spring1 or should have written something for the drawing classes before now4--,ever faithfully and respectfully yours1 ,j4 ,,ruskin4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,march #aa1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,there is no way of enlarging those ,kate sketches3 they were calculated for the little confusion caused by their smallness1 and are not well drawn enough for magnifying4 #8,i will send you some prettier ones for framing4 ,i am very glad the books have come safe4 ,the grace and dignity of the engravings in ,heyne are of great educational value1 and the two ,,mss4 are extremely good of the kind4 ,they cost1 curiously1 the same price each1 #ajj or #aje1--;,i forget which4 #8,the wild librarian sends me an extremely bad account of herself to-day4 ,i have sent her a beautifully impressive and didactic answer1 which she ought to show you4--,ever faithfully yours1 ,j4 ,,ruskin4 #8,i have sent your organist a ,magister for himself4 ,i am so glad he likes it4 ,i couldn't make out his initials1 or would have put his name in it2 people ought always to sign in print4 ,a4,b4,c4 ,so and ,so4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,march #ab1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,i send you two books to-day with real pleasure4 ,the old book of towns containing images of the things that once were1 in spite of their stiffness1 liker the realities now lost than any wooden efforts at restoration1 while the ,arabian book is a type of all the subtle and faithful skill of ,france can do at its present best4 #8,i call it the faithful skill of ,france4 ,there is no nation has ever produced such honest work in love of its subjects1 not in vanity1 as the ,desc4 de l',egypte and the illustrated beautiful books of modern times4 ,the great ,cuvier series is degraded by its filthy anatomies1 but in mere engraving and colours stands alone4 ,but ,i am going to send you some birds1 also matchless1 as ,i can't send you the ,cuvier for its horror4 #8,the ,english book on the ,dee1 with its rotten paper and vulgar woodcuts1 illustrates our ,english meanness in comparison1 but has its poor use too4444' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,march #ad1 #ahhg4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,there is not the least need of this flame of gratitude4 ,i am only too glad to find a place where ,i can send books likely to be permanently useful to ,english girls4 ,i am sending three more to-day1 which ,i think likely to be far more serviceable than those finer ones1 containing as they do1 quantities of sound historical information given in a simple and graceful way on subjects which every ,christian girl should have knowledge of1 while ,i suppose not one in fifty ever hears any truth about them4 ,they are nice collegiate books too1 to look at4 #8,i am mightily pleased too at your having a girl-organist1 and hope to work out some old plans with her4--,ever most truly yours1 ,j4 ,,ruskin4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,,brantwood1 ,,coniston1 ,,lancashire1 ,march #bd4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,these candlesticks are lovely1 but a little too loose and catchy to be quite good design4 ,the fillets of the bases should be bars1 and branch into the foliage1 not be entangled in it4 ,but ,i am heartily glad to see such work4 #8,the glass for the ,,mss4 will be excellent1--but only the lazuli and gold will stand sunlight--all colours of time fade in full light4 ,but there's no harm in a little fading of the ,greek ,evangelists1 or the musical notes on a single page4 #8,that ,norway ,bishops' book will be a lovely companion to the ,old ,geography4 #8,you needn't mind who is or isn't in association with you4 #8,you have plenty of power alone--and inventiveness enough to boot4--,ever affectly4 yrs41 ,j4 ,r4' ,mr4 ,ruskin's munificent gifts did not stand alone4 ,almost every number of the ,magazine chronicled some present to the ,college1 some book or picture1 scientific apparatus or specimen4 ,special mention should be made of ,dr4 ,wright's collection of fossils which formed the foundation for a museum1 and of the grant of flint instruments and many animals obtained through ,sir ,william ,flower from the ,british ,museum4 ,the distinctions which came to both ,principal and ,college in the later years of ,miss ,beale's headship were very numerous and came from widely differing sources4 ,the ,college gained gold medals for educational exhibits at the ,paris ,exhibitions of #ahhi and #aijj4 ,the name of ,dorothea ,beale became known abroad as that of one who had a real interest in education for its own sake and who had no exclusive or insular views4 ,the warm welcome she would extend to educationists of every kind and tongue1 the care with which she would personally answer letters of inquiry1 the high tone of her addresses at public gatherings1 her pamphlets and articles made the name of ,cheltenham respected afar4 ,to this may be added the freshness and openness of mind with which she would lend attention to new methods4 ,she always took them seriously1 however empirical they might appear1--considered them1 tried them if they seemed hopeful1 persevered in them if they were proved to be effective1 abandoned them if they were inferior to methods already in use4 ,there were many examples of this4 ,once1 for instance1 in the eighties1 she heard of a method of teaching reading and of preserving discipline which had been evolved by ,mrs4 ,fielden1 a clever lady who had established a good elementary school in a ,yorkshire manufacturing village4 ,miss ,beale sent an old pupil who lived in the neighbourhood to visit the school1 watch its working1 and send her full details of the management4 ,after receiving her report1 she obtained the loan of one of ,mrs4 ,fielden's teachers for a week1 and had the system introduced by her into the schoolroom of the ,third 7,junior7 ,division4 ,it lived but a short time4 ,miss ,nixon1 head-mistress of the division1 found it mechanical1 and it was abandoned4 ,in ,miss ,beale's last term1 in ,september #aijf1 ,mrs4 ,arthur ,somervell's ,rhythmical ,mathematics came to her notice4 ,she not only wrote to the author #8,the book is beautiful and the method very suggestive1' but within a few days introduced it to the teachers whom it concerned and had its principles explained to a class of little children4 ,foreign pupils were always welcomed at the ,college1 and made to feel at home4 ,when first it was suggested that some ,siamese girls should be received there1 ,miss ,beale wrote eagerly to secure them1 and always took the greatest interest in their work4 ,the foreign teachers found her sympathetic and interested1 able to understand and allow for their different training and points of view4 ,with some it was not merely a case of mutual esteem4 ,there were those who found she welcomed their friendship and returned it with kindred affection and confidence4 ,in the summer term of #ahhi several foreign educationists came to ,cheltenham4 ,mrs4 ,e4 ,h4 ,monroe was sent by the ,government of the ,united ,states1 and ,signora ,zampini ,salazaro by the ,italian ,government1 to study ,english schools and methods4 ,madame ,garnier-,gentilhomme1 ,officier de l',instruction ,publique1 spent a week with ,miss ,beale4 ,these visits were perhaps not unconnected with the ,international ,congresses of ,education which met in ,paris in ,august4 ,these ,miss ,beale attended1 and herself wrote an account of them in the ,magazine of autumn #ahhi1 from which some brief extracts are made4 #8,i cannot sufficiently regret that so few ,english took part in the most interesting ,international ,congress of ,secondary and ,superior ,instruction which has just concluded in ,paris4 ,it was an assembly such as one can scarcely hope to see in a life-time4 ,one had an opportunity of hearing not only the leading educational authorities of ,france1 who are doing a great work for their country1 but distinguished men from all parts of the world4' ,after enumerating the representatives present from different countries1 she continues3-- #8,from ,england1 the near neighbour of ,france1 came the ,honourable ,lyulph ,stanley1 member of the ,school ,board1 but not one person having official rank as a member of the ,education ,department1 not one representative of a university4 ,there was one ,professor from ,edinburgh1 the ,secretary of the ,college of ,science from ,dublin1 ,mr4 ,widgery1 of ,university ,college ,school1 the ,editor of the ,schoolmaster1 ,miss ,buss with one of her staff1 ,miss ,beale of ,cheltenham with four1 and two private governesses4 #8 444 ,the first step was to add to the ,committee a number of foreign members2 eighteen were chosen1 amongst whom were ,mr4 ,stanley and myself4 ,then1 after arranging the order of the day1 we separated and formed ourselves into sections1 each person selecting the question which interested him most4 ,in each section a ,president and ,vice-,presidents and a reporter were elected4 ,i was chosen a ,vice-,president of ,section ,,iv4#hc 444 #8,i was told that we were to speak our own language1 as was the case at the ,congress held at the ,health ,exhibition in ,london4 ,however1 the general wish was at last complied with1 that we should all produce our thoughts in more or less foreign ,french1 and it was nearly always intelligible4 #8 444 ,one question 78,the methods best adapted for the ,secondary ,instruction of girls1 specially as regards ,modern ,languages and ,science07 gave rise to a good deal of warm discussion4 ,we were surprised to find that less than two hours in a week were given to a modern language in ,french schools for girls4 ,the importance of beginning very early was not generally recognised4 ,the ,english1 specially ,mr4 ,widgery and ,miss ,beale1 contributed a great deal to this part of the discussion1 insisting much on a truly scientific gymnastic of sound as opposed to the haphazard mode of teaching pronunciation4' ,the ,misses ,andrews who accompanied ,miss ,beale on this occasion were impressed by the way she was received and heard4 ,her deafness did not prevent her taking a part in the discussion1 and speaking as she did in a foreign tongue1 she yet dominated her large international audience4 ,she showed extraordinary indifference to her own comfort4 ,miss ,alice ,andrews remembers1 for instance1 a luncheon in the neighbourhood of the ,sorbonne1 at a little restaurant to which they had been guided by some acquaintance4 ,miss ,beale and ,miss ,buss found themselves in the midst of artists and students1 some of whom carried on pronounced flirtations with the waitress girls4 ,miss ,beale sat calmly writing her speech for the next meeting1 indifferent to her djener and unconscious of her surroundings4 ,the ,congress of ,secondary and ,superior ,instruction was followed by a ,congress of ,primary ,teachers1 for which ,miss ,beale was induced to stay4 ,one day she addressed it3-- #8,i said a few words on the work of teachers in enlarging the sympathies and diminishing prejudice and enabling us therefore to understand one another better4 #8,it is the seen1 the material1 about which nations quarrel2 it is the unseen1 that which belongs to the intellect1 the spirit1 which unites us in a generous emulation1 in which all are gainers1 for in such contests all may obtain the prize4' ,greatly pleased as ,miss ,beale was with much she saw1 she quickly perceived that she could not work herself with such a system as prevailed in ,france4 #8,i do not wish to see secondary education in ,england subject in any way to a ,government department1 or secondary schools in ,england assimilated to primary4' ,all the intervals of the ,congress were filled with visits to various educational institutions and interviews with leading educationists4 ,there was a visit to ,fontenay-aux-,roses1 to a deaf school1 to a primary school and kindergarten1 to the ,muse ,pdagogique4 ,there were also some visits less of the nature of business4 ,once1 at least1 they went by invitation to the ,thtre ,franais1 where they witnessed a representation of the ,femmes ,savantes4 ,there were also many receptions4 ,miss ,alice ,andrews wrote3-- #8,we had two evenings at the ,ministre de l',instruction ,publique1 just for the members of the ,congresses4 ,these were more like our ,guild meetings2 no amusement was provided1 but the members found it for themselves in walking about and conversing2 and so did we1 for by the end we had made many acquaintances and a few friends1 and there we met some of those who1 in the day1 had been seated on platforms and had interested us by their eloquence4 ,on the last evening there was a dinner-party of about fifty persons1 at which the principal foreign members of the ,congress were entertained4 ,to this ,miss ,beale was invited1 and placed at table on the right hand of the minister4'#hd ,it was a great happiness to ,miss ,beale to see so much good work going on1 and to meet so many who really cared for the cause for which she lived4 #8,many were the promises of visits2 we left ,paris with a higher idea of the great work that ,france is accomplishing1 and grateful for the generous hospitality with which we were welcomed1 and allowed to see all that is being done by those who are directing education in ,france4' ,the immediate result to the ,college of this ,congress of #ahhi was an honour for its ,principal when ,miss ,beale was made ,officier d',acadmie4 ,in the following year a meeting of the #8,socit des ,professeurs de ,langues ,vivantes' met at ,cheltenham4 ,miss ,beale was elected a member of this ,society1 by means of which many ,french students came to ,cheltenham4 ,after her death a little article upon ,miss ,beale appeared in ,les ,langues ,modernes1 the monthly organ of this ,society4 ,it rightly acknowledged the welcome and the constant kindness that foreign students always received from her4 #8,il faudrait un volume pour analyser sa vie et son uvre4 ,les ,anglais l'avaient bien comprise1 parce qu'elle rsumait au plus haut point les qualits de leur race4 ,les trangres ont pu admirer son esprit d'initiative1 son nergie et son enthousiasme communicatif4 ,les jeunes filles franaises qui ont eu la bonne fortune d'tudier ,cheltenham1 lui taient particulirement reconnaissantes de la sympathie large qu'elle leur tmoignait4 ,la vivacit et la spontanit franaises1 que les ,anglais confondent volontiers avec la lgret et l'insouciance1 taient des qualits qu'elle prisait beaucoup4 ,la bienveillance pour nous se traduisait en actes4 ,dans ce collge aristocratique o les frais d'tudes taient assez considrables1 o l'on n'admettait que les jeunes filles appartenant un milieu social lev1 ,miss ,beale rduisait volontiers les frais d'tudes des ,franaises1 et facilitait leurs relations avec des familles anglaises distingues4 #8,elle eut pour plusieurs de mes compatriotes et moi des attentions qui nous allrent au cur4 ,quand nous la rencontrions dans les couloirs avec son petit bonnet blanc de douairire1 ou quand elle nous invitait au th dans son home1 elles s'informait de nos tudes1 corrigeant elle-mme dans la conversation nos phrases dfectueuses1 nous parlant avec sympathie de notre pays1 et nous rappelant le souvenir agrable qu'elle avait gard de ,paris1 o elle tait venue passer quelques mois dans sa jeunesse1 en vue de complter son instruction4' ,a further result was the permission granted by the ,french ,government for the admission of students from the ,college to ,fontenay-aux-,roses4 ,this permission was much prized by ,miss ,beale1 who was comforted by it for delays which had occurred in the opening of ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,oxford4 ,another recognition of her work for education came to ,miss ,beale in #ahif1 when ,durham ,university conferred upon her the distinction of ,tutor in ,letters4 ,the widespread influence of that work was emphasised by her election in #ahih as a ,corresponding ,member of the ,national ,education ,association1 ,u4,s4,a4 ,in her letter acknowledging this honour ,miss ,beale said3 #8,we receive much inspiration from the ,states1 and possess in our ,library a large number of valuable works from ,americans on ,philosophy and ,education4' ,she was specially attached to the writings of ,dr4 ,harris4 ,the contrasts existing between girls' education as it was in #ahfe and thirty years later must have been brought very forcibly before ,miss ,beale when1 in #ahid1 she was again asked to give evidence before a ,royal ,commission4 ,the chairman of this was ,mr4 ,bryce1 who had himself inspected and reported for the ,taunton ,commission of #ahfd-g4 ,the composition of this later body marked the advance that had been made4 ,of its seventeen members three were women4 ,well might ,miss ,beale say that the changes she had witnessed were #8inconceivably great4' ,her own position was changed4 ,on the first occasion she had merely been the able representative of a little known and rather despised class of workers4 ,on the second she came as one of the recognised leaders of a band whose work was becoming yearly more valuable and more important4 ,miss ,beale was first questioned on the co-operation and co-relation of different schools in one neighbourhood4 ,she expressed herself in favour of the co-operation of teachers1 not of unity in governing bodies1 #8because one governing body is rather apt to generalise and say that everything that is suitable for boys should be done for girls4' ,she was also careful to say that there must be a supreme authority in each school4 ,one point of special interest to-day is the discussion which took place on the teaching of the classics to girls4 ,miss ,beale1 as has been shown1 was never in favour of teaching either ,latin or ,greek to young girls1 and she maintained her objections on this occasion4 ,she thought it a mistake to begin ,greek at the age of eleven or twelve1 though she admitted that it was easier to learn than ,latin4 #8,but children1' she said1 #8do not enter into the delicacies and refinements of the ,greek language1 444 and they get tired of it4444 ,i do not think the most intelligent teacher could make a child like the intricacies of grammar early4'#he ,miss ,beale does not seem to have mentioned one reason why she would not teach ,latin early until1 in #ahih1 she wrote in ,work and ,play3 #8,i feel strongly that ,latin should1 however1 properly come after ,german1 specially for girls4 ,there is a pestilential atmosphere in the ,campania1 and one needs to have one's moral fibre braced by the poetry of the ,hebrews and of ,england and ,germany1 if one would remain unaffected by writings saturated with heathen thought4' ,other points discussed were the training of teachers1 a subject on which ,miss ,beale had much to say4 ,she insisted on the advantages of associating training colleges with large schools3 #8,if students get simply lectures1 and ideas which they have not an opportunity of carrying into practice1 they become unpractical1 and they have to learn the practical parts of their profession when they become teachers4' ,the question of scholarships was introduced2 ,miss ,beale enunciated her theory that they should be given irrespective of place4 ,it ought not to be possible for one institution to buy up scholars from another4 ,she admitted that she would like to make necessity a condition of holding a scholarship4 #8,would not that1' asked ,dr4 ,fairbairn1 ,i carry with it to a large extent what one may term a social distinction1--even a stigma in certain cases8' #8,i think1' was the reply1 #8if people are ashamed of being poor1 they ought to be ashamed of being ashamed of it4' ,some points there were on which the ,commissioners desired enlightenment from ,miss ,beale's experience1 but got little help4 ,one of these was by what means a passage might be effected from primary to secondary schools and the universities4 ,miss ,beale1 who disliked free education1 had in #ahie even less sympathy with elementary teaching than she had a few years later1 when she undertook to train students for it4 ,the indication she gave the ,commission was a suggestion that to meet the needs of the prize pupils of the elementary schools1 it would be best to found higher schools of the same class1 as she maintained that1 owing largely to the influences of their homes1 children coming from primary schools could not profit by the kind of education existing in secondary schools as they are4 ,three or four times the chairman also sought to obtain an opinion from her on the difference between boys and girls1 but was always met by some such answer as1 #8,i do not profess to say much about boys4' ,it was an excellent thing that ,miss ,beale was asked by ,messrs4 ,longmans1 ,green and ,co4 to put forth her own original ideas1 and state something of her long experience concerning education1 in the volume which appeared in #ahih under the title ,work and ,play in ,girls' ,schools4 ,designed primarily for the enlightenment of the generation which first received it1 the book will remain as an historical record of methods actually in use at the ,ladies' ,college4 ,with the two last sections of this work ,miss ,beale had nothing to do3 that on the #8,moral ,side of ,education' was written by ,miss ,soulsby1 the concluding chapter on the #8,cultivation of the ,body' was from the pen of ,miss ,dove4 ,yet it is worthy of notice that both these able and original-minded head-mistresses were for a time teachers at ,cheltenham4 ,miss ,beale felt that ,miss ,soulsby's chapter should have been first in the book2 but as her own section is so very much the longest1 and as it would have been impossible to her to treat of education from the intellectual side only and apart from its bearing on character1 there is nothing to be regretted in the arrangement4 ,one of ,miss ,beale's chapters is1 moreover1 devoted to the question of ,philosophy and ,religion4 ,a letter she wrote to ,miss ,strong on this subject is interesting3-- #8,january #ahig4 #8,i have ventured to accept ,mr4 ,longmans' proposal4 ,i am afraid it is rather rash1 and ,i hope ,i shall find that he gives me the ,midsummer holidays4 ,this is what he puts in his programme4 8,order of importance4 ,cultivation of the body1 cultivation of the moral character1 cultivation of the mind10 and so he arranges the subjects in that order4 ,you see what ,i have said1 it makes me so vexed to hear people say1 8,of course health is the first thing10 when ,i know they mean to put pleasure before duty4 ,in order of importance1 of course1 ,miss ,soulsby is first4' ,this book1 the most important of ,miss ,beale's mature age--she was verging on sixty when it was published--was written with all the enthusiasm of youth4 ,the hopefulness and freshness of a young teacher1 heightened rather than restrained by the experience of years1 glow on every page4 ,nor is the idealism of the student missing4 ,notice specially for this the passage on astronomy on page #bed3hf #8,thus is the mathematical passion awakened2 surely most of us can remember the first time that our soul really ascended into the seventh heaven4' ,the chapter entitled ,psychological ,order of ,study1' in which this passage occurs1 is perhaps the most suggestive in the book1 which abounds in the results of ripened thought and knowledge4 ,but that on the #8,relation of ,school to ,home' was most impressive to those who did not already know the writer's views on the subject4 ,in #8,a ,few ,practical ,precepts' occur one or two phrases which might well pass into scholastic proverbs1 as for instance this3 #8,it is a worse fault to teach below than above the powers of a child4' ,miss ,beale did not write the whole of that part of the book for which she made herself responsible4 ,some parts were given to specialists upon the ,college staff1 in order that all the subjects might be treated with expert knowledge4 ,miss ,beale's own life during this later period naturally became more social than ever before4 ,she attended many public functions1 and was brought constantly into touch with those who shared her high intellectual aims or literary work4 ,among these was ,dr4 ,jowett1 to whom she felt she owed a special debt for his translation of the ,republic4 ,a day came at last1 in #ahic1 when1 as a witty friend said1 she and the ,master lunched together1 #8with ,plato as an unobtrusive third4' ,in #ahid1 accompanied by ,miss ,draper1 she made another visit to ,paris1 to be present at the wedding of ,lady ,victoria ,blackwood and ,mr4 ,w4 ,l4 ,plunket4 ,she greatly enjoyed the experience1 especially ,lord ,dufferin's friendliness4 #8,lord ,dufferin proposed to send a young man to take us out in the morning1 and show us something of ,paris4 ,i rather wondered that we grey-haired ladies should require an escort1 but of course accepted1 and we were awaiting our young man in the salon of the ,htel ,normandie when1 to our surprise and pleasure1 we heard ,lord ,dufferin's own voice in the hall4 ,though he had to be present at the civil wedding at twelve o'clock1 he most kindly found time to take us up the ,heights of ,montmartre4 ,we had much interesting conversation on the way4' ,the diary which ,miss ,beale still kept carefully1 though briefly1 gives a glimpse of this fuller outside life1 but remains faithful to its early character as a record of thought and aspiration4 ,a few extracts from the last years are given4 #ahic4 #8,jan4 #ae4 ,retreat at ,brondesbury4 ,canon ,body #ith to #acth4 0 #bb4 ,last ,sunday of ,epiphany4444 ,perfect revelation of ,god's character only possible to man in ,christ4 ,arise1 shine6 ,magi faithful to what was given4444 0 #bd4 ,more earnestness in work needed4 ,unnecessary speaking of others' faults4 0 #ca4 ,again a quarter of an hour wasted4444 ,feb4 #b4 ,edward died4#hg ,presentation in the ,temple4 0 #ad4 ,friendless ,girls' meeting4 ,mar4 #ca4 ,all ,saints4 ,mr4 ,illingworth4 ,may #aj4 ,in ,london4 ,degree ,day4 ,radley4 0 #aa4 ,ascension ,day4 ,h4 ,c4 ,radley4 ,at ,cowley ,house4 ,froude's ,lecture4 ,lunch at ,balliol4 0 #ab4 ,text4 8,in ,him was ,life and the ,life was the ,light40 0 #ad4 ,mrs4 ,russell ,gurney lunched4 ,june #g-aj4 ,royal ,society4 ,staying with the ,samuelsons4 0 #ai4 ,grandchildren's party4 ,twenty-three present4 ,five absent4 0 #bd4 ,council4 ,baker ,street4 ,queen's ,college4 ,greek ,play4 0 #be4 ,at ,miss ,clarke's4 0 #bf4 ,oxford4 ,home4 ,dec4 7#ca874 ,was at ,sudeley for ,christmas4 #ahif4 ,april #ba4 ,cambridge ,conference4#hh ,stayed at the ,vice- ,chancellor's4#hi ,may #c4 ,pressed in spirit4 8,i stand at the door and knock40 ,read ,bishop ,french's ,life4 0 #f4 ,girls came back4 0 #g4 ,first day4 ,full of self4 0 #ac4 ,slept at ,bethnal ,green4 #ahig4 ,feb4 #i4 ,bishop came4 0 #aj4 ,miss ,clarke died4 0 #ae4 ,went to funeral4 8,he giveth grace for grace40 ,as we spend1 more pours in1 the water level is kept up4 8,he that watereth shall be watered also himself40 0 #be4 ,telegram to say #cjjj subscribed by the ,guild for ,st4 ,hilda's ,east4 #ahih4 ,jan4 #h4 ,council4 0 #ad4 ,after reading to-day ,i thought 444 the smallest living thing can stir tides of the boundless ocean1 the atom move the infinite4 0 #bc4 ,h4 ,c41 ,st4 ,philip's4 ,woman touched garment4 ,sermon and lesson1 to be healed of that weakness which is undermining spiritual strength1 not by thinking1 but by touching ,jesus ,christ4 ,sept4 #ac4 ,had a very refreshing holiday4 7#a7 ,lord ,farrer's2 7#b7 ,lodgings2 7#c7 ,miss ,bidder's2 7#d7 ,bonchurch2 7#e7 ,forest2 7#f7 ,woodchester4 0 #i4 ,studio looks well and all rooms4 0 #bc4 ,opened4 0 #be4 ,h4 ,c4 ,fresh resolutions against spirit of indolence4' ,the year #ahie1 which opened sadly with the death of ,miss ,buss1 was marked by wide extensions of the ,cheltenham ,college work4 ,the playground was now in daily use4 ,a triumph of the athletic tendency of the age1 it was also an emphatic mark of ,miss ,beale's acceptance of new ideas4 ,to the end she could not quite understand why it was wanted1 but she saw it had to be1 and even grew proud of it in its way4 ,in #ahie the old ,cheltenham theatre1 which the ,college had purchased a few years before1 was razed to the ground1 and the erection of a new1 fine building in its place1 as an integral part of the ,college buildings1 was begun4 ,this was an immense hall1#ij capable of holding nearly two thousand people1 and possessed of remarkable acoustic qualities4 ,it was fitted up with a large stage and everything necessary for the acting which had already become a feature of the ,guild meetings4 ,the ,guild plays grew to be ,miss ,beale's recreation in her old age4 ,it was an immense pleasure to see the stories and poems she had prized all her life made living on the stage4 ,she had a keen dramatic sense1 and delighted in watching rehearsals and personally coaching some of the individual actors4 ,she was interested even in getting details of dress as correct as possible1 and in the schemes of colour1 objecting to a predominance of red1 a colour she always disliked4 ,the ,guild plays were of course chosen1 like the subjects of her literature lessons1 with a view to elevate rather than to entertain4 ,three performances specially stand out in the memory3 ,comus1 in #ahif1 with its exquisite dancing and dressing2 that of ,griselda1 in #aijd2 and the last of all1 with its prophetic note of farewell1 ,hatshepset1 in #aijf4 ,probably ,griselda most of all appealed to ,miss ,beale1 who gave an interpretation all her own to ,chaucer's tale4 ,she saw in it a spiritual allegory of ,god's dealings with the soul1 and she set it forth in a beautiful little introduction to the story4 ,years before it had been proposed that ,sir ,edwin ,arnold's ,griselda should be taken for the ,college play4 ,she wrote very strongly against it to ,miss ,wolseley ,lewis3-- #8,i am sure none of you would be able to bear the modernised dramatised ,griselda if you learned it4 ,it is like painting the face of an unearthly medival saint and clothing her with garments which show the human form4 ,in the ,griselda of ,chaucer there is nothing of the vulgar love-making of the 8merchant40 ,the love of the 8markis0 comes as a gift from heaven4 #8,then that scene in which she ministers to his pleasure by music2 it is all such a low kind of ministry4 ,whereas in the original1 hers is just the worship of perfect faith1--obedience to his will1 because she will not question it4444 ,the whole thing jars on me4444 ,the quiet1 grave 8markis0 7of ,chaucer7 may be a type of ,him who tries us to confirm our faith1 but this human 8marquis0 is of the earth earthy1 and cannot stand for a spiritual type4 ,it reminds me of the passage in which ,ruskin comments on the attitude of the ,prophets in 8,the ,transfiguration40#ia ,do you remember it in ,modern ,painters8 #8,there6 enough6 ,i wish it might be ,comus1 or ,the ,princess or ,alcestis would not cost so much trouble as something new1--but better nothing than something not really high4 #8,there1 ,i don't want to dictate or to say you shall not do what you wish1 but ,i hope you won't wish this ,griselda4444 ,i do think we should like ,comus1 and we might have such good music4' ,in the early part of #ahie ,miss ,beale was more than usually active and well4 ,in the ,easter holidays she paid a long-promised visit to ,miss ,mason's ,house of ,education at ,ambleside4 ,here she gave a lecture to the students on ,geometry4 ,the visit was a great pleasure1 she was in full sympathy with ,miss ,mason's work1 and she enjoyed meeting ,miss ,arnold at ,fox ,howe1 and many friends and pupils4 ,in ,june she was present at a performance of the ,alcestis at ,bradfield ,college2 she also went again to the ,royal ,society conversazione4 ,the active enjoyment of this summer received a check at the term-holiday1 when1 while walking on ,leckhampton ,hill1 ,miss ,beale slipped and broke her leg4 ,the period of forced inaction which followed was generally held to be good for her1 and she was well enough to be carried into the ,college for the addresses of the ,quiet ,days at the end of the term4 ,she was unable1 however1 to be present at the ,oxford summer meeting in ,august4 ,the paper she had written for this on the ,professional ,education of ,teachers was read by ,mr4 ,worsley4 ,a school which has neither prize-giving nor speech-day does not easily obtain very highly distinguished visitors4 ,it was not till #ahig that the ,college was honoured by the presence of ,royalty4 ,in that year the ,empress ,frederick of ,germany proposed a visit4 ,her interest in education led her to wish to see the classes at work in their usual conditions4 ,she therefore went with ,miss ,beale from one room to another while the actual teaching was going on4 ,a few days after her visit ,miss ,beale received the following letter from ,major-,general ,russell1 who was at that time member for ,cheltenham3-- ,,frankfort1 ,,germany1 ,august #ac1 #ahig4 #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,yesterday ,i had the honour of lunching with the ,empress ,frederick at ,cronberg4 ,as soon as ,i arrived there she called me on one side1 and begged that ,i would convey to you the pleasure and satisfaction that she had derived from her visit to the ,ladies' ,college at ,cheltenham4 ,she begged me to tell you that she was much gratified by what she saw of the arrangements1 and what she learned of the system of education pursued there4 ,she was much impressed by the happiness and contentment which appeared to be universal among the pupils1 and also with the strict and excellent discipline which she hears and remarked you maintain both among the instructors and the students themselves4 #8,she added that she fully appreciates the great work that you have accomplished in the interest of education1 as well as the personal sacrifice and self-devotion which you have consecrated to the task4 #8,i need not say how much pleasure it has afforded me to be the medium of conveying to you ,her ,imperial ,majesty's gracious message1 and1 ,i remain1 yours sincerely1 ,,frank ,s4 ,,russell4' ,two years later the ,princess ,henry of ,battenberg came to unveil a marble bust of ,queen ,victoria1 the work of ,countess ,feodora ,gleichen1 which had been presented to the ,college4 ,illustration3 ,the ,empress ,frederick at ,cheltenham from a photograph by ,mr4 ,domenico ,barnett ,among ,miss ,beale's triumphs of this period should surely be mentioned her mastery of the tricycle at the age of sixty-seven4 ,it became a great delight to her4 ,she used it chiefly in the early morning--often very early--when the streets were empty4 #8,the men in the milk-carts know me and keep out of my way1' she would say4 ,she greatly enjoyed the fresh air and complete solitude gained with so little effort4 ,in #ahih ,england received a severe visitation of small-pox4 ,no town in the country suffered more than ,gloucester1 where for long it raged among the unvaccinated1 and even devoted nurses and doctors fell victims4 ,it was five times introduced into ,cheltenham1 but owing1 ,miss ,beale was pleased to hint in the ,magazine1 to the healthiness of the climate and the good sanitation of the town1 it never got a hold there4 ,cheltenham largely owed its immunity to the exertions of the ,lady ,principal1 who insisted on revaccination where it was necessary for every one connected with the ,college4 ,this meant not only teachers1 pupils1 servants1 but all who had to do with any ,college girl in any capacity--all in the homes of the day-pupils--all in the shops which served the boarding-houses--the whole railway staff at the different stations4 ,the ,college custom was too good to lose1 and she carried her point4 ,such a drastic measure had its comic side1 as was perceived by the saucy butcher-boy who shouted to a boarding-house cook1 #8,i must know if you are vaccinated before ,i deliver this meat4' ,among the ,college victims was a girl within a few weeks of an important examination4 ,the daughter of an anti-vaccinator1 she had of course never been #8done1' and the father telegraphed that he would not permit it4 ,a married sister staying in the town urged the ,college authorities to act on their own responsibility2 but that ,miss ,beale would not do4 ,the girl made another appeal to her father2 but a cab was actually at the door to take her to the station1 when his answer arrived in the second telegram--#8,may do as she pleases4' ,this modified permission saved the situation4 ,miss ,beale's determined and successful action in this matter was doubtless remembered when1 in #aija1 the ,mayor and ,corporation resolved to bestow upon her the freedom of the borough4 ,this was ceremonially done on ,october #bh1 the ,town ,council1 ,governing ,body of the ,college1 and a large number of ,miss ,beale's friends being present4 #8,the honour1' said the ,mayor 7,mr4 ,norman7 in his preliminary address to the ,council1 #8is given with discrimination1 and somewhat rarely4 ,we in ,cheltenham1 during the thirty years of our corporate life1 have only conferred it in two instances4444 ,i am charged to-day with the proposing of a resolution which will add a third to that number4 ,the resolution is in these terms3-- 8,that1 in recognition of the great work she has done for the education of women in ,england1 and especially of the unique position to which under her direction the ,cheltenham ,ladies' ,college has attained among the educational institutions of the country1 ,miss ,dorothea ,beale be1 in pursuance and exercise of the provisions of the ,honorary ,freedom of ,boroughs' ,act1 #ahhe1 admitted to the honorary freedom of this borough40 #8,when ,i first approached ,miss ,beale on this subject1 ,i did not know whether any lady had before been admitted a freeman of the borough4 ,but from the wording of the ,act of ,parliament ,i was quite sure that the term 8freeman0 in the section quoted was used in a generic sense1 and that ladies were as eligible as men to the honour which we propose to confer upon ,miss ,beale4 ,i was therefore prepared to create a precedent1 if necessary4 ,but since then ,i have learned that at least in one case1 that of ,baroness ,burdett ,coutts1 this honour has been conferred upon a lady4' ,in her reply ,miss ,beale said3-- #8 444 ,in some places those who should work together stand opposed2 elsewhere we have heard of fights between town and gown2 at some seats of learning women have been denied titles that they have earned4 ,in ,cheltenham we have a happy conciliation of opposites4444 ,you ,municipal authorities recognise that2 you care not only for pure water and open spaces and cleanliness1 but for the ,free ,library and ,science ,schools and ,art ,galleries and healthy recreations2 and we school authorities cannot but make the body healthier by mental discipline1 by the sunshine of truth1 by inspiring the young with high aspirations1 and so lifting them out of the rudeness which is the outward sign of selfishness4 ,i look upon to-day's ceremony as a sign of our faith for the individual and for the community1 health in its largest sense1 mens sana in corpore sano1 is to be realised only by the harmonious working of the inward and outward law4 ,to invite a woman to be a ,freeman of a ,town is1 ,i venture to believe1 an expression of the thought that not the individual but the family1 with its twofold life1 is the true unit and type of the state1 that social and civil and national prosperity depend on the communion of labour1 and that the ideal commonwealth is realised only in proportion as the dream of one of our poets is fulfilled1 and men and women 8,walk this world ,yoked in all exercise of noble ends40 #8 444 ,formerly we had no women ,guardians1 but one who is called in her own town 8the ,guardian ,angel0#ib visited us and won all hearts1 and then there were elected two ladies1 who have been re-elected ever since1 who by their insight and gentleness and wisdom have destroyed the last vestige of prejudice4 #8 444 ,mrs4 ,owen was also a link between the ,ladies' ,college and the ,cheltenham ,college1 that elder brother1 under whose protection alone our ,college could have grown up4 ,it is a strange thing that women are threatened with exclusion from the projected ,educational ,authority2 women1 who are born to the care of children1 who are so much needed to hold the outposts in our educational army1 which are being deserted by men4 ,visions ,i have of a closer union between all the schools of our town4444 ,cheltenham1 too1 has made progress intellectually4 ,a ,literary ,institution died a natural death shortly after ,i came2 it was1 ,i hope1 only a case of post hoc4 ,in my early days the provision of books was scanty indeed4 ,i tried to get ,tennyson's last poem in one of the principal shops of the ,promenade4 ,i was told1 8,we never have had any poetic effusions in our library1 and ,i do not think we shall begin now40 ,there was no ,permanent ,library1 and a ,free ,library was impossible and unthought of1 and in our own ,college ,i was fain to be content with a grant of #e for books4 ,but more than all the material and intellectual progress has been the raising of public opinion regarding the moral law4 ,much there is still to deplore1 much to amend1 and we long to see more efforts made to promote temperance1 but ,i am sure that the higher education of women1 the opening to them of larger opportunities of usefulness1 has helped to lift many above the unsatisfying pleasures of a frivolous life1 and won for them the respect which is always a blessing both to 8him that gives and him that takes40 ,we have1 indeed1 reason to thank ,god and take courage4' ,in the same year ,miss ,beale was co-opted a member of the ,advisory ,board of the ,university of ,london4 ,the recognition by the town was from every point of view a triumph and an honour4 ,the year in which it took place and the preceding one were marked by large extension of boarding-house property and many other signs of wealth4 ,but for ,miss ,beale herself it can have been no time of great gladness4 ,though her vitality was as great as ever1 her health was less good1 her deafness much increasing1 her sight impaired4 ,constantly she was called upon to part by death from some old and valued friend or fellow-worker4 ,in ,january she shared the general mourning for ,queen ,victoria4 ,in ,march #aija ,miss ,caines died2 a month later the beloved sister ,eliza and ,canon ,hutchinson1 of whom ,miss ,beale spoke as a friend and pastor of many years1 were buried on the same day4 ,miss ,beale turned from her sister's grave to write last words to be read after her own death should she be called away while still head of the ,college4 ,she also revised her will and wrote directions concerning her personal belongings and her funeral4 ,but if the road to the ,dark ,tower grew lonely1#ic it was greatly brightened by the love of those she had taught1 inspired1 and helped4 ,no parent was ever more closely encompassed by the love of children4 ,there were those at ,cheltenham who thought for her1 waited on her1 read to her--no light task--those who1 should she desire it1 were ever at her beck and call4 ,some of these were on the ,college ,council4 ,one1 in particular1 ,miss ,flora ,ker1 who lived at ,cheltenham1 was always at hand1 making the interests of the ,college and little attentions to ,miss ,beale the first duty of her day4 ,another1 who had become head of a boarding-house1 thought of her daily needs to the smallest details4 ,a third habitually accompanied her on the visits which became so great an enjoyment in these later years1 and on the frequent business journeys to ,london1 making them easy by many little thoughtful arrangements4 ,miss ,beale would seem unconscious of these at the moment1 but she deeply valued the thought and the loving service of which she availed herself to the full4 ,the ,chairman and different members of the ,council showed also much personal consideration for the ,principal4 ,nor could she travel anywhere without finding #8old girls' ready to welcome and make much of her in every way4 ,in these things she had indeed #8all that should accompany old age4' ,in #aijb came a crowning honour for the ,ladies' ,college when its ,principal was offered the ,,ll4,d4 by the ,edinburgh ,university1 in recognition of her services to education4 ,miss ,beale was simply and unfeignedly delighted with this acknowledgment of the worth of women's work4 ,her loyal staff seized the occasion to give her a personal sense of satisfaction also4 ,they presented her with her robes1 which were made as costly and beautiful as possible4 ,a journey to ,scotland was a great adventure to ,miss ,beale1 but the occasion warranted the effort4 ,as usual1 all the arrangements were left in the hands of ,miss ,alice ,andrews1 who with others of the ,college staff accompanied the ,principal4 ,it was examination week at ,cheltenham1 or such a flight of teachers would not have been possible4 ,the degree was conferred on ,april #aa in the ,m',ewan ,hall of ,edinburgh ,university4 ,others who received it on the same occasion were ,lord ,alverstone1 ,mr4 ,asquith1 ,mr4 ,austin ,dobson1 ,sir ,john ,batty ,tuke1 and ,dr4 ,rcker4#id ,only once before had the ,university conferred this degree on a woman1 viz4 on ,miss ,ormerod1 in recognition of her great services to agriculture4 ,illustration3 ,photo4 ,g4 ,h4 ,martyn ,sons ,dorothea ,beale1 ,,ll4,d4 ,sir ,ludovic ,grant1 ,dean of the ,faculty of ,law1 thus summed up ,miss ,beale's claim to a national recognition3-- #8,no feature of the national progress during the last fifty years is more remarkable than the revolution which has transformed our girls' schools from occidental zenanas into centres of healthy activity4 ,in the great crusade which has been crowned with this most desirable consummation1 the foremost champion was the cultured and intrepid lady who guides the destinies of the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham4 ,it was largely due to ,miss ,beale's indomitable advocacy1 on platform and on paper1 that the barriers of parental prejudice were broken down1 that the ancient idols venerated by a former generation--,mangnall1 ,pinnock1 and ,lindley ,murray--were shattered1 and that barren catechism and lifeless epitome were compelled to give place to fructifying studies1 and the futile promenade to invigorating recreations4 ,i need not remind you that ,miss ,beale's apostolic ardour is equalled by her administrative abilities4 ,when she went to ,cheltenham her pupils were counted by tens2 to-day they are to be counted by hundreds1 and the institution in respect of organisation and educational efficiency will bear comparison with the best of the great ,english public schools4 ,among the collateral benefits resulting from the great movement for the higher education of women1 in which ,miss ,beale has played so conspicuous a part1 not the least important is the power which the ,scotch ,universities have obtained of conferring their honorary degrees upon women1 and therefore it is with no ordinary satisfaction that the ,university of ,edinburgh now exercises this power by begging ,miss ,beale's acceptance of an honour which has been brought within the reach of her sex largely through her own endeavours4' ,her account of the ceremony is best read in her own letter to the ,vice-,principal3-- #8,april #ab1 #aijb4 #8,just a few lines while waiting for breakfast4 ,we start at eleven for ,glasgow1 and ,i am in the midst of the agonies of packing4 #8,yesterday was a long day4 ,we started at #i4bj1 as it is a long drive to the ,m',ewan ,hall4 ,in the voting-room we met our ,chairman and various distinguished professors--,laurie1 ,saintsbury1 ,professor ,rcker--of the people ,i knew2 but the most important of all was the beadle4 ,in a little while our names were called1 and one had to step into place4 ,first came the ,doctors of ,divinity4 ,there were six ,,ll4,d4's1 headed by the ,lord ,chief-,justice1 who was followed by ,mr4 ,asquith1 whom ,i followed in every subsequent procession4444 ,arrived at the hall1 we sat as it were in the front row below the stage in our hall4 ,there were central steps1 opposite which sat the ,vice-,chancellor or ,vice-,principal4 ,each went up and stood with his back to the audience whilst the leader of his faculty expatiated on his claims to the honours2 he looked like a person being reprimanded4 ,then the beadle invested him with the hood1 the ,v4-,p4 put the cap over his head1 he wrote his name in a book1 and then seated himself with other exalted persons on the platform4 ,various speeches followed1 but none were made to ordinary graduates4 ,music played1 no sticks or umbrellas were allowed1 and no cries such as the savages utter at ,english ,universities2 the only amusement was to fly paper from the galleries2 some seems to have been made into windmills1 they flew rather well4 ,then procession again to the voting-room1 where ,i was first to claim my box2 there was nothing to compare with my shabby things--cardboard most of them1 but ,i am persuaded that my robes were far superior to any other4 ,ask those who saw them from a distance4 #8,well1 we next proceeded to church1 and ,st4 ,giles' looked most beautiful4 ,the sermon ,i did not hear1 but am assured that was because the preacher had an ,aberdeen accent4 ,one thing ,i omitted4 ,just after ,i had taken the degree1 as ,i was seated on the platform1 came a porter with a telegram for me4 ,i opened it and found congratulations from the ,kindergarten4 ,please tell them how smartly it arrived at the right moment4 ,the others kindly sent arrived at the hotel1 and ,i found them on my return2 please thank the senders4 #8,after church some nice ,miss ,stevensons carried us off4 ,they have a beautiful house and a splendid view of the heights1--one is ,chairman of the ,school ,board4 ,they are always at work4 ,then we came back and were visited by various old girls4' ,at ,glasgow ,miss ,beale stayed with a married pupil1 and found herself in the midst of #8old girls1' who made much of her4 ,from ,glasgow she wrote a second letter1 to be read to the assembled ,college before the dispersion for the holidays3-- #8,april #af1 #aijb4 #8,we are often in spirit in ,cheltenham1 and ,i must send a few last words1 to wish you all very happy holidays4 #8,we are very busy4 ,the first thing we visited was the ,queen ,margaret ,settlement1 which is something like our ,st4 ,hilda's4 ,it is a very large place1 and a school for invalid children was being held4 ,miss ,bruce came down to the opening4 ,on ,monday a large number of distinguished people were invited to meet us1 and yesterday afternoon we had a party of about thirty ,cheltonians4 ,in the evening we dined with ,professor and ,mrs4 ,george ,adam ,smith4 ,i sat next to ,professor ,henry ,jones1 who has written a book on ,browning1 and on the other side was the ,rector1 ,dr4 ,story4 ,he has kindly promised to take us over the ,university this morning4 ,there are about three hundred girls studying here1#ie and they have a charming ,miss ,galloway2 she is as fond of ,glasgow ,university as ,i am of our ,college4 ,to-morrow we are to go over the ,cathedral4 #8,i think we shall come back refreshed and with some new ideas4 #8,i am glad to hear all is going on well4' ,from ,mrs4 ,osborne in ,glasgow ,miss ,beale went on to stay with other old pupils in ,scotland1 coming afterwards to ,newcastle1 where she was asked to launch a ship4 ,her ignorance of use and wont under conditions fairly well known to most people came out when she attired herself for this event in well-looped-up dress and indiarubber shoes4 ,much as she disliked adventure1 she was prepared to march into the ,tyne if the glory of the ,ladies' ,college demanded it4 ,however1 she much enjoyed the ceremony that actually took place1--the drive to the docks1 the description she received of the vessel1 the bouquet of roses presented to her in honour of ,st4 ,george's ,day4 ,her diary at this point becomes crowded with facts concerning steamers and dock labourers4 ,from ,newcastle ,miss ,beale went to ,durham1 where she stayed with the ,dean2 then to ,york4 ,wherever she went there were schools to visit1 and perhaps address1 #8old girls' to see4 ,a night in ,london ended the wanderings1 and she came home well and happy to enter in her diary3 #8,arrived to the hour1 exactly three weeks after starting1 having spent the night in nine different places1 and feeling quite refreshed by meeting with so much kindness1 and so many charming old girls4' ,the year which had so bright a spring brought but a sorry autumn for ,miss ,beale4 ,in ,october #aijb she was--an unheard-of thing--obliged to leave ,cheltenham for her health1 and went to ,bath1 accompanied by ,miss ,berridge1 for several weeks4 ,her sight was a special anxiety1 and during this time she was not allowed to write or read4 ,a letter from ,miss ,berridge to ,miss ,sturge gives a glimpse of the life at ,bath3-- #8,october #aijb4 #8,we brought with us ,adam ,smith's work on the ,minor ,prophets1 and also ,jane ,austen's ,persuasion4 ,at first we stuck to the ,prophets1 but at last ,jane got a hearing1 and since then she has utterly ousted the ,prophets4 ,it has been rather amusing to note how many excellent reasons there were for giving ,jane the preference4 ,miss ,beale was--tired--or sleepy--or not very well1 and could not attend to anything that required thought--or it was near lunch--or tea--or supper-time1 and therefore it was not worth while1 etc4 etc41 and ,i think she has really liked the story very much4 ,please tell ,miss ,alice ,andrews1--it is her book1 and ,miss ,beale at first refused to bring it1 but thought ,i might do so1 as it might amuse me4 ,the result of the experiment is that we are now going to read some of ,scott's1 beginning with ,the ,antiquary4 ,miss ,beale is very much better1 though of course far from being her former energetic self4 ,but we have still more than a fortnight before us1 and if she makes as much progress in that time as she has done in the fortnight just gone1 we may be very well satisfied4 #8,bath is a very pretty place1 but1 of course1 ,i have not seen much of it4 ,miss ,beale is now able to take short walks2 to-day she went to ,milsom ,street4 #8,i have written such multitudes of letters that ,i really do not know to whom they have all been4' ,miss ,beale was able to return to work before the end of the term4 ,she seemed in most ways as vigorous as ever4 ,a doctor1 whom she consulted about her deafness in #aijc1 told her she had the pulse of a woman of forty4 ,but she became more and more careful about her health4 ,her summer holidays were spent at ,oeynhausen1 where she followed a #8,kur4' ,there she took with her always some friend who devoted herself to the care of ,miss ,beale1 and at the same time was a congenial companion1 reading aloud to her1 or listening while ,miss ,beale read4 ,on one occasion ,miss ,amy ,giles went1 on another ,frulein ,grzywacz4 ,the life at the baths was carefully planned even to minutes4 ,miss ,beale liked to have her morning letters before the early walk1 which the daily rgime demanded4 ,while waiting for the postman1 even watching his appearance along the street1 she would have some deep book read aloud to her1 able to give her whole attention4 #8,the postman is just here1 ,miss ,beale1' ,frulein ,grzywacz would say1 as she finished a chapter4 #8,he is still ten doors off1 you can read another paragraph1' would be the reply4 ,in #aijb a determined and successful effort was made to get a worthy portrait of ,miss ,beale4 ,early in the ,college history a picture1 which bore but a faint resemblance to the original and was wholly unworthy of her1 had been painted1 and at a ,council meeting in #ahgc it was #8resolved that it be placed 7veiled7 over the door of the ,council room1 as most in accordance with the wishes of the donors4' ,in #ahhi the ,council itself approached ,miss ,beale on the subject of a portrait1 ,sir ,samuel ,johnson1 then chairman1 writing to her3-- #8,february #be1 #ahhi4 #8,you cannot1 you must not leave the ,college without something that will identify it with the ,founder4 ,fancy what unavailing attempts will be made some day to supply the want6 and the blame which will attach to us for not having left something behind worthy of such a woman6 ,think again1 and do not let your feelings stand in the way of a plain duty4' ,on the envelope containing this letter ,miss ,beale wrote in pencil the characteristic note3 #8,miss ,stirling might make a clay or terra-cotta4' ,a modelling class had recently been opened in the ,college under ,miss ,stirling2 ,miss ,beale was much interested in it and anxious to encourage it4 ,the wish of the ,council took the form of a resolution to which ,miss ,beale replied3-- #8,june #ahhi4 #8,i certainly have a very great objection to the thought of my portrait being placed in the ,ladies' ,college during my life4 ,when our ,guild asked me to allow this last year ,i refused4 #8,secondly1 ,i should much regret the diversion of funds which are so much needed for improvements in the ,college1 and for the extension of work in many directions2 whether that money is contributed from public or private sources4 #8,lastly1 ,i believe that putting myself forward in this way would be a real hindrance to my work1 as it would give a false impression regarding the share ,i have been allowed to take in helping on the growth of this ,college4 #8,i thought of getting ,miss ,stirling1 who models portraits1 to take one in clay1 this would be executed in stone by ,mr4 ,martyn at small cost1 and would answer all historical purposes4 ,i have a variety of photos1 too4' ,later1 she consented to give a few sittings to ,mrs4 ,lea ,merritt1 for whose work she had a great admiration4 ,the approach of the ,college ,jubilee made a new moment for appealing to her again on this subject1 and at the ,guild meeting of #aijb she was presented with the following address1 composed by ,miss ,amy ,lumby and signed by a large number of old pupils3-- #8,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,we1 the undersigned1 your 8children10 once in learning and always in affection1 approach you with a very earnest wish4 ,there is not one amongst us who does not look back with loving delight to the time when she saw your face daily1 and learnt from your lips what things were best worth learning4 #8,the face we can never forget1 but we should like to be able to have it constantly before us in such a form as shall call up again the spirit of those happy bygone days4 ,there exists as yet no counterfeit presentment of our 8,school-mother0 which does this2 only a great artist can accomplish the task worthily2 and so we beg1 and beg most earnestly that1 for our sake and for the sake of those who come after us1 you will consent to let a portrait of yourself be painted by such an one1 and will accept it for the ,college in commemoration of the ,jubilee4' ,miss ,beale was much touched by this appeal4 ,she received it in eloquent silence1 but at the last gathering before the ,guild members separated her reply was read aloud by ,miss ,ker3-- #8,i am touched by the kind wish of the ,guild conveyed to me in the resolution of yesterday4 ,i am afraid a third attempt would be no more successful than the preceding4 ,the unbiassed artist represents his subject as she is1 not as she seems to be to those who are good enough to overlook her defects1 and love her in spite of them4 ,still1 if it is really wished that another attempt should be made1 ,i will willingly sit once more4' ,the work was entrusted to ,mr4 ,j4 ,j4 ,shannon1 ,r4,a41 who had proved his ability for the task by the portraits of ,miss ,clough and ,miss ,wordsworth4 ,no effort was spared by the painter to realise ,miss ,beale at her best1#if and she gave a good deal of time to sittings1 which were employed also in listening to reading aloud4 ,dr4 ,illingworth's ,personality ,human and ,divine1 a very favourite work of hers1 was often chosen4 ,sometimes this work was displaced by ,lorna ,doone1 which ,miss ,beale said #8amused the painter4' ,the ,lady ,principal was painted in her ,,ll4,d4 robes1 but also in her familiar head-dress1 son petit bonnet de douairire4 ,she is represented as looking up with the glance well known to those who had watched her when she lectured4 ,the attitude1 which is as much that of disciple as teacher1 was fitly chosen4 ,the portrait was formally presented by the ,duchess of ,bedford on ,november #h1 #aijd1 and with it an illuminated book containing the names of the donors4 ,miss ,beale in her reply said3-- #8,you have all come here moved by loyalty to your ,college4 ,loyalty is not a personal matter4444 ,tribute was due not to ,tiberius but to ,caesar2 so you wanted a portrait of a ,lady ,principal--not of the person but of the representative1--and the ,principal has a great advantage over the person in that the former lasts on when the latter passes away2 loyalty outlasts life3--so ,i look on your gift as a page of ,college history4 ,but not only have you brought a present for the ,college4 ,i find also a beautiful book for my own personal self1 not my official self1 a record of affection from my children1 which warms my heart1 and makes me long to be more worthy of it4 #8,but if the affection of those we love is an energising power1 it produces a moral tension1 not unmingled with fear4444 ,he who recorded the names in the ancient church wrote3 8,let us fear lest we also come short40 ,but as ,i have said1 the ,principal does not die4 ,like the ,lama she is re-incarnated4 ,in her1 if the body dies1 the esprit de corps survives1 and ,i look forward to the time when another shall reign in my stead1 444 and a procession of rulers greater than their ancestors 444 shall see developments which we cannot foresee4' ,for various reasons it was necessary to postpone the ,college ,jubilee celebrations until ,may #aije4 ,on this occasion a bust of ,miss ,beale was presented to the ,college by some admirers of her work who were not connected with it4 ,a large new wing built for science teaching was opened by ,lord ,londonderry1 then ,president of the ,board of ,education2 and there were many distinguished guests4 ,two memorable speeches were made on this great occasion4 ,one by the ,chairman of the ,council1 ,dr4 ,magrath1 ,provost of ,queen's ,college1 ,oxford1 who made a brief but very sympathetic retrospect of the past history of the ,ladies' ,college4 ,the other was from ,mrs4 ,bryant1 ,head-mistress of the ,north ,london ,collegiate ,school4 ,she1 as was fitting1 looked forward to the future1 and foreshadowed a large development of the work so well begun and established at ,cheltenham4 ,this ,jubilee ,day was the only public commemoration the ,ladies' ,college ever had4 ,it was fitting that there should be one great public acknowledgment of ,miss ,beale's work before the day came when she must leave it to the guidance of another4 ,,chapter ,,xv ,,the ,,last ,,term #8,and1 when the day was done1 relieved at once4' ,,browning1 ,how it strikes a ,contemporary4 ,at the beginning of the year #aije ,miss ,beale sought to induce ,bishop ,ellicott1 who had then resigned his see of ,gloucester1 to continue to visit the ,ladies' ,college1 ,cheltenham1 as he had done for upwards of thirty years4 ,he declined on the ground of ill-health1 saying1 #8,among the many things that ,i regret being unable to attend to1 ,i regret none more than the addresses to the bright-eyed attentive hearers ,i always secured at the ,college4 ,but all things must have an end4' ,this was written but a few months before the ,bishop's death4 ,miss ,beale1 happily for her active spirit1 was not thus summoned to retire from work owing to age or feeble health4 ,she had expressed more than once the wish that she might die in harness1 and her letters since #aijj had frequently breathed the wonder that she should still last on1 and up to the summer of #aijf there was nothing to suggest that the end was really drawing near4 ,the last ,christmas holidays were happy4 ,miss ,beale made a round of visits4 ,at ,lindfield she stayed with ,miss ,keyl1 an old ,gloucestershire friend1 in ,london with ,mrs4 ,tallents1 an old pupil4 ,lastly1 having been joined by ,miss ,alice ,andrews1 she went for a few days to ,miss ,wedgwood1 whose sister1 ,lady ,farrer1 was also staying with her4 ,miss ,beale greatly enjoyed her time with these old friends whom she had first known as pupils at ,queen's ,college4 ,she was singularly active4 #8,i dare say you would like to do just one thing each day1' said one hostess to her1 little realising the vitality which would carry her on through a long series of events such as would tire out most younger people4 ,the spring passed with little special incident1 but for ,miss ,beale it was saddened by the death of ,mrs4 ,charles ,robinson in ,march4 ,in the ,easter holidays ,miss ,beale much enjoyed a visit to ,miss ,mellish1 ,head-mistress of the ,ladies' ,college1 ,guernsey4 ,here she made many new acquaintances1 took drives1 saw places of interest1 and kept an account of all in her diary4 ,but the draft of a letter to some friend during this visit shows1 that in spite of her courageous spirit1 she felt her own term of work in this world to be practically over4 #8,,guernsey1 ,april #aijf4 #8,i arrived here yesterday4 ,i am staying with a very nice old girl who is ,head-mistress of the ,college here4 ,i have long wished to see this beautiful island where ,i have many friends4 ,i have one of our staff with me who is a geologist1 and is enjoying rambles4 ,i don't go about now without some one1 a 8lady-in-waiting10 to take care of me4 #8,the revolutionary changes make one anxious1 the ,bill to legalise 8peaceful persuasion0 especially4 ,perhaps the ,german conquest may change all4 ,that a contest must come there seems no doubt1 but it is better not to prophesy till after the event4444 #8,there are problems enough for our successors on this planet4 ,i wonder what we shall find to do1--what battles to fight when we pass out of sight4444 ,i don't think we shall want only rest4' ,in the summer1 having at first declined the invitation1 ,miss ,beale was persuaded to address the ,head-mistresses' ,conference1 which met on ,june #h and #i at the ,clapham ,high ,school4 ,in spite of the deafness1 which made her dread committee meetings1 she took her share in the discussions4 ,speaking on a resolution concerning the suffrage she said3 #8,the underpayment of women went to the heart of all as a crying evil1 and made every one earnest about the extension of the suffrage4' ,she also in a later discussion expressed her emphatic disapproval of afternoon compulsory school1 and related the history of the change made at ,cheltenham in #ahfd4 ,the address to the assembled head-mistresses on the following morning1 ,miss ,beale's last public utterance1 may well find a place here4 ,full of the tenderest regard for the past1 appreciating as no younger worker could the ideals and conflicts of her own generation1 that utterance showed a front of marvellous courage and hope to the anxieties of the present and future4 #8,i feel a sorrowful pride as ,i remember some of the ,heads of the great ,schools1 who have passed out of sight1 but whose works follow them4 ,we were happy in our founder3#ig with such a leader one felt ashamed of any evil spirit of competition3 she always wanted to impart any good gift and introduce improved methods of teaching3 to recommend new books1 and to propose arrangements for the better organisation of schools1 for the training of teachers1 for extending the sphere of women's work1 for relieving them of the pressure of anxiety about old age3 these things occupied her thoughts while she was still herself bearing the burden of financial responsibility1 and generously caring for those bound to her by strong ties of family affection4444 ,it was the celestial light which shone inwardly that irradiated her outward life4 ,of external work she undertook perhaps more than she ought to have done4 ,she was on the ,governing ,body of the ,church ,schools ,company1 a member of our ,governing ,body1 and of that of several other schools4 ,she spared no pains in labouring for others1 always sympathising and sustaining1 fighting for the best good4 ,above all1 actuating her1 and enabling her to go on bravely1 was that optimism which came from the belief that ,god had given her this work to do1 and that ,his ,spirit would sustain her4 ,most gracefully did she descend from her throne when the end came4 ,i shall not forget our last interview1 when she playfully alluded to the fact that she had now to become again as a little child1 to obey where she had ruled1 and she was content to pass on the work into the hands of one so able1 so beloved1 so trusted as ,mrs4 ,bryant4 #8,another early member was ,miss ,benson1 the first ,head-mistress of the ,girls' ,public ,day ,schools ,company's ,school at ,oxford1 and afterwards1 for a few months1 at ,bedford2 she was a burning and a shining light1 unsparing in her demands upon herself and others2--she might have been called ,zelotes4 #8,of her successor1 our own beloved ,miss ,belcher1 it is hard for me to speak4 ,she was the soul of honour4 ,i remember one day she and her friend#ih came to me and said one of them would like to apply for a good post1 at a time when head-mistress-ships did not abound4 ,i said1 8,i think ,i ought to tell you that events are impending which may shake our ,college to its foundations40 ,some would have said1 8,let us seek another shelter40 ,their answer was1 8,we shall not apply40 ,sometimes one thinks that if she could have had a less onerous work than the rule over the great school at ,bedford1 which left but little leisure for exercise1 she might be at work now4 ,but we will put aside 8,might-have-beens10 as we see how her spirit lives in her school4 ,one of the ,bedford ,council thought when a salary of over #ajjj was offered1 there would be many applications--thought we might send a second ,head as her successor1 but not one of our staff would apply1 for ,miss ,belcher had chosen4 #8,this year has taken from us one of my best-beloved pupils1 the late ,head-mistress of ,truro ,high ,school1 afterwards the wife of ,canon ,charles ,robinson2 all who knew her regarded her as indeed a saint4 #8,i may not speak of the living--none are happy till their death--but it is a joy to me 7now the most ancient grandmother of all7 to see with intimate knowledge the good work being done by those whom ,i have learned to know as friends and fellow-workers4 ,specially close ties bind me to those ,head-mistresses whom we ourselves have sent forth4 ,of these in the ,association there are now twenty presiding over important schools1 and ten who are no longer ,heads1 not to name many who for various reasons do not belong to our ,association4 #8,to turn to less personal matters1 we who belong to ,secondary ,schools have been happy in escaping the troubles which beset those schools which receive ,government grants4 ,so far1 ,secondary ,schools have been allowed some individuality4 ,i think we may give thanks for the liberty of 8prophesying10 that we have hitherto enjoyed4 ,i rather dread the result of the absorption into ,trusts of the great ,school ,companies4 8,wha dare meddle wi' me80 has been the cry of some of us1 and the prickles have protected the flower4 #8,then we have escaped payment by results1 and interference from inspectors1 some of whom are able to see the body but not the soul which moves it4 #8,the present troubles bring us into closer sympathy with those who have been enduring what seemed to us an ,egyptian bondage1 but who were doing grand work in disciplining and drilling the masses4 ,many of those who are now to take up the management of ,council schools are now brought into closer relation with ours4 #8 444 ,and now what is the main issue before us8 ,when the ,secondary ,schools are absorbed into the national system1 and orders are issued to us from the ,education ,department1 shall we be told that we also are to give only secular instruction1 and forbidden to give definite teaching regarding the creeds and ritual which express the truths by which we live2--shall we be forbidden to ask any questions about the fitness of the teachers whom we wish to appoint8 ,these are matters which seem to press for answers4 #8,only a few thoughts can ,i throw out to-day on this subject4 ,first1 it seems inconceivable that there should be any such limitations of the realms of knowledge as is implied in the word 8secular40 ,man's thoughts cannot be shut in by space or time1 he must seek the real beneath the phenomenal1 he must search for the ultimate2 more than any earthly or secular good he desires to know and live for the things which belong to an eternal world1--the true1 the beautiful1 the good4 ,all literature1 all history1 attests this4 ,whence then the discordant cries1 some demanding secular teaching only1 others fearing it8 #8,i think we are confused sometimes1 because we do not remember or recognise sufficiently that there are two ways of approaching the subject of religious teaching and of all subjects of thought4 ,take for an illustration the subject now occupying the scientific world4 ,can we retain the conception of the atom as formulated in the last century8 ,is matter an aggregate of impenetrable1 indivisible nodules1 or is an atom merely a centre of force8 ,have we nothing that we should call solid1 only vortices8 ,is solidity a flux of ions8 ,these are all matters on which the wisest may differ1 but there are certain fundamental facts on which all are agreed--the fact that there must be one all-embracing medium through which relations are realised4 ,so in the world of spirit1 the fact is indisputable that we are conscious of forces affecting us and on which we individually react1 indisputable that we can interpret facts of sensation1 and this necessitates a belief in the correspondence of our mind with one all-embracing spirit2 it seems impossible to doubt that in interpreting the universe we are corresponding with and holding communion with an infinite mind revealed in ,nature1 and we repeat with inner conviction the first article of our ,creed--8,god created10--we pass on to the second half--8,god created man in ,his own image10 and so we go on to speak of other articles of faith4 ,philosophy1 which has so large a place in the ,bible teaching and which is always based on the facts of our inner consciousness and our moral sense1 ought1 ,i believe1 to have a larger space in our teaching1 but we should endeavour more to build on foundations which cannot be shaken4 ,the mystery of our own being1 the distinction of the 8,i0 and the 8,me10 the facts of conscience1 the which lifts us out of the mere individual or animal1 and speaks of the relation of the true self to the eternal1 the kingdom of righteousness1--the evolution of human thought through the ages1--leads on to the faith that man is indeed the child of ,god1 that ,his ,spirit is inspiring us4 #8,what seem to us present troubles are perhaps intended to make us dig deeper in the field wherein the great treasure of spiritual truth is hidden1 so that we may say with fuller conscious conviction1 8,the ,kingdom of ,heaven is at hand0--8is within you40' ,on her way to ,paddington after the ,head-mistresses' ,conference1 the cab which contained ,miss ,beale and ,miss ,andrews was run into by another1 a shaft shattering the window beside ,miss ,beale4 ,she did not realise her danger or that her shawl was full of bits of broken glass4 ,the accident is alluded to in the letter she afterwards wrote to ,mrs4 ,woodhouse1 whose guest she had been at ,clapham4 #8,i am so glad ,i was able to be present4 ,it was a most interesting meeting2 and very glad to see your beautiful school4444 #8,lord ,aberdeen once complimented me on not suffering from 8train fever02 ,i am afraid ,i seemed to do so at lunch4 ,it was well that we allowed a little spare time to be run into4 ,one needs to allow for motors6' ,it was the year of the ,guild meetings4 ,a very large number of old pupils1 larger than ever before1 came to ,cheltenham in ,june1 for every year saw additions to the roll of members and no falling off among the elder ones1 who felt each time might be the last occasion on which the beloved ,principal would preside4 ,the subject chosen for the play was the very unusual one of a story from ,egyptian history4 ,no pains were spared to render it truthfully2 ,dr4 ,budge was consulted1 the ,book of the ,dead studied2 ,miss ,beale herself gave a lecture on the history of ,egypt1 a subject she had never worked up before4 ,the story of the great queen whose life was given up to her country1 ordered wholly for their good1 with no private interests2 whose marriage was an act of sacrifice2 who ruled her people with large-minded beneficence1 and under whom they prospered2 who finally1 as age came upon her1 resigned for their sake1 seemed strangely appropriate for the close of ,miss ,beale's long work for ,cheltenham4 ,the very remoteness of the story1 its gravity1 the absence from it of such didacticism as abounded in ,miss ,beale's interpretation of ,britomart and ,griselda1 made it all the more forcible4 ,it was in no way premeditated4 ,miss ,beale herself said she did not much care for it1 as it contained so little spiritual teaching4 ,but as the curtain fell upon ,hatshepset's resignation and death1 the crowded audiences of past and present pupils palpably realised that for them the inevitable change awaiting the ,college had been1 if unconsciously1 foreshadowed4 ,the ,guild arrangements1 which generally included an address from ,miss ,beale on ,saturday morning and a closing one on ,monday from some speaker invited for the purpose1 were altered in #aijf to suit the convenience of the ,bishop of ,stepney4 ,the earlier address was given by the ,bishop after the ,college prayers1 which ,miss ,beale herself read as usual4 ,his subject was the work of ,st4 ,hilda's ,east and the needs of ,east ,london4 ,he held his hearers enthralled as he spoke to them of those other girls and women whom they were meant to help4 ,but even more striking than the strong words of the young ,bishop was the sight of the frail and aged form of her1 so long their teacher and inspirer1 to whom most of those present were consciously and deeply indebted for much that was best in their lives4 ,miss ,beale1 with the familiar smile which marked her enthusiastic approval1 stood the whole time close to the ,bishop1 straining to hear every word1 her eye alert to trace the effect of what he was saying on his audience4 ,many who saw her thus saw her for the last time1 as they had to leave ,cheltenham when the morning ,guild meetings were over4 ,miss ,beale herself left before the end1 unequal to the long strain they involved4 ,on ,sunday the usual admission of new members took place4 ,on ,monday ,miss ,beale addressed the ,guild for the last time4 ,it was not unnatural that she should speak on this occasion as one who looked back on the changes and progress of fifty years4 ,miss ,beale conveyed to her hearers the suggestion that it was not with unmixed satisfaction that she surveyed matters from this standpoint4 ,in the midst of advantages1 such as the last generation could not know1 their eyes opened to the needs of others1 needs they could supply1 many women remained not serious1 not devoted4 ,she appealed for more earnestness in all1 that there might be none wearing the ,guild badge who should not be able to use the motto of ,st4 ,hilda's1 ,oxford3 ,non frustra vixi4 ,so passed this great gathering of friends4 ,it was only afterwards that it came to be known that below her joyous affectionate welcome1 her ready sympathy and quick memory for her children and their concerns1 lay a deep reason for personal anxiety1 that she was beginning to suspect herself to be the victim of a serious malady4 ,only once was there a sign of uneasiness1 when she seemed much distressed not to have seen again an old pupil and ,guild member1 ,dr4 ,aldrich-,blake1 who had been obliged to leave ,cheltenham without saying good-bye to her4 ,the summer holidays were again spent at ,oeynhausen4 ,she wrote in the course of them that she was deriving benefit from the treatment1 but certainly it was far less effective than before4 ,nor did she give herself a chance of throwing off the cares of work4 ,in the ordinary sense of the word1 indeed1 ,miss ,beale could never rest1 and though physically less strong her brain seemed inexhaustibly active4 ,she corrected the ,magazine proofs1 engaged new teachers1 and wrote many letters to the ,college secretary1 going as usual into all kinds of details about arrangements for new pupils4 ,nor did she even rest from study4 ,she wrote to ,cheltenham for a table of ,german genders2 while from ,mr4 ,worsley she asked the ,scripture examination papers1 which he had as usual undertaken4 ,her letter shows this continued activity of mind3-- #8,september #ab1 #aijf4 #8,thanks for your note4 ,i think ,i should like to have all the papers2 we can better show the girls where they have failed to enter into the full meaning4 ,i looked at mine1 and thought they had kept to very outside things4 #8,have you seen ,montague ,owen's record of the ,sewell family8 ,it is privately printed1 but ,i can lend you my copy4 ,they certainly were a wonderful and original people4 ,now ,elizabeth is gone at the age of ninety-one4 ,you were1 ,i think1 at ,radley4 #8,we re-open next week with one hundred and fifty new pupils to fill our vacancies4' ,she was glad to get back to ,cheltenham1 but those who knew her best saw that it was only by a stern effort of will that she nerved herself to begin her work in the ordinary way4 ,they began to hope that she might not much longer be called upon to make what was visibly a tremendous effort4 ,nothing was left undone4 ,school began on ,september #bb4 ,miss ,beale1 as usual on the first day of term1 gave a short address after prayers to the assembled teachers and children4 ,she spoke1 as often before1 of the parable of the ,talents1 but mainly of the joy of the ,lord--the joy and reward of being fellow-workers with ,god4 ,strangely fitting did her words afterwards seem for the last time she addressed the ,college as a body4 ,in the month which followed only a few saw signs of the weakness and illness which had really begun4 ,she had undertaken the usual courses of lectures1 and missed none4 ,the ,college numbers were very large1 the life as full and vigorous as ever4 ,there was even a new department started for the first time that term1 in the arrangement--the revolution of ,time's wheel having been made--of courses of lessons in cookery4 ,on ,october #af the annual ,council meeting was held in ,london4 ,in order to spare herself fatigue1 ,miss ,beale did not as usual accompany ,miss ,alice ,andrews to the ,oxford meeting on the previous evening1 but went up alone from ,cheltenham the next morning4 ,it meant a long day and an early start1 earlier than ever before1 as the time of departure had been altered4 ,this ,miss ,beale only learned the same morning1 but with her habit of being ready long beforehand she was able to catch the train4 ,this1 by the new arrangement1 did not wait for the ,oxford train by which ,miss ,andrews went up4 ,consequently1 when ,miss ,andrews arrived at the ,paddington ,hotel1 ,miss ,beale had already gone to see her doctor1 ,miss ,aldrich-,blake4 ,probably she preferred to make this visit alone4 ,to ,miss ,aldrich-,blake she owned that she was tired1 that she felt her much impaired hearing and sight to be a hindrance to work2 but she made light of the malady which was her real and undefined dread4 ,miss ,aldrich-,blake1 however1 advised an immediate operation1 in spite of the annual general meeting fixed for ,november #af1ii on account of which ,miss ,beale wished to put it off for the present4 ,on leaving the doctor's house ,miss ,beale went on alone to keep one or two appointments4 ,at the ,council meeting in the afternoon she showed no fatigue1 but read her report with animation4 ,miss ,andrews then joined her for ,st4 ,hilda's committee meeting4 ,they left this meeting in time to catch the afternoon train back to ,cheltenham4 ,miss ,beale generally slept for part of this journey2 that day she was wakeful and tired1 but she said nothing then to ,miss ,andrews of what the doctor had told her4 ,she did1 however1 shortly tell ,miss ,rowand1 who persuaded her to see ,dr4 ,cardew4 ,he confirmed ,dr4 ,aldrich-,blake's opinion1 and ,miss ,beale then made up her mind to enter a nursing home1 hard by the ,college1 on ,monday1 ,october #bb4 ,during these intervening days she went on with her usual work1 and silently made preparation for what might be a final parting from it4 ,on ,sunday1 which she spent alone but for a visit from ,frulein ,grzywacz1 she wrote a large number of letters4 ,one was to the ,vice-,principal1 ,miss ,sturge3-- #8,i have been feeling very unwell since my return from ,germany1 and two doctors whom ,i have consulted say ,i must have a few weeks away4 ,i am sorry to throw any of my work on others1 but ,i thought the week in which our half-term holiday comes my absence would be less felt4 ,also1 as the ,bishop gives five lectures1 these would take the place of mine on ,saturdays4444 ,i thought some one who has taught the ,fairy ,queen could take my literature lesson4 ,the doctor who knows me best fixed three weeks as the date of my return4' ,one to ,miss ,gore3-- #8,i have not told any one but ,miss ,rowand the reason why ,i shall have to be absent1 perhaps for a few weeks--perhaps for ever--from my beloved ,college4 ,i want you to come and stay in the house till we see which way things will go4 ,i hope you will manage to come1 and that you will put on a cheerful countenance and not let any one suspect that there is so serious a cause for my absence4 ,i am very grateful for having been allowed to do so many years of work1 very grateful for the loyal and affectionate support of my colleagues and our ,council1 specially the ,chairman4 ,i think ,i feel content whichever way things may be ordered for me by ,him who doth not willingly afflict1 but chastens for our profit4--,yours affectionately1 ,d4 ,,beale4' ,on ,monday1 ,october #bb1 ,miss ,beale read prayers as usual1 choosing a hymn by ,miss ,fermi from the collection of school hymns she herself had made3-- #8,all the way our ,father leadeth1 ,whether dark or bright4' ,after prayers she gave her last ,scripture lesson--the usual ,monday lesson to the assembled ,first ,division4 ,the subject was the ,healing of the ,body1 in connection with thoughts suggested by ,st4 ,luke's ,day1 and the ,gospel for the ,nineteenth ,sunday after ,trinity4 ,it was a remarkable lesson4 ,one who had not been present said that1 when she entered the ,hall after it was over1 people were talking of ,miss ,beale's wonderful ,scripture lesson4 ,in it she dwelt1 as often before1 on the duty of the care of health2 and yet it was not to be the first consideration4 ,she showed why sickness of the body is often for our profit4 ,then1 having touched on wrong teachings about the body1 as1 for instance1 those of ,buddhism1 she showed that the ,incarnation brought unity of the whole being1 at-one-ment of body1 soul1 and spirit4 ,she concluded with the words3 #8,the ,body of our ,lord ,jesus ,christ preserve thy body and soul unto everlasting life4' ,after the lesson ,miss ,beale read the weekly class marks1 as usual on ,mondays4 ,in the course of the morning she discussed a paper she had written1 for the ,american ,national ,educational ,association1 with ,miss ,alice ,andrews4 ,miss ,andrews told her that a member of the staff had lost her mother1 and during the day ,miss ,beale wrote a note of sympathy4 ,in a second interview that morning ,miss ,beale told ,miss ,andrews that the doctor had told her she must lie up for some weeks4 #8,but ,i am not going away1 ,i shall be amongst you all4' ,miss ,sturge noticed that ,miss ,beale lingered in the ,hall when school was over1 as if unwilling to leave4 ,she seemed pathetically anxious to leave nothing undone4 ,finally1 after discussing several small matters1 she said1 #8,good-bye2 ,i hope to come back in three weeks1 and you can just say ,i am resting4 ,i will not tell you where1 and then if you are asked you will not know4' ,then she added wistfully1 #8,perhaps ,i may never come back4' ,on that afternoon1 accompanied by ,miss ,rowand1 she went to the nursing home4 ,the operation took place next day4 ,miss ,beale found it hard just at first to reconcile herself to the position of patient1 and the absolute obedience and dependence it involved4 ,but in the charge of ,miss ,lane and her staff she was surrounded with loving care1 to which she was most responsive1 once pointing out to a friend the nurse who was standing by as #8the one who spoils me so4' ,miss ,gore and ,miss ,rowand saw her from time to time4 ,the mid-term holiday was approaching1 and she spoke of arrangements for it1 and begged ,miss ,rowand to send her party for their usual expedition in charge of the house-governesses1 and to remain at home herself4 ,up to the morning of ,sunday the #bhth all seemed to go well4 ,very early that day she seemed ill1 and wandering in mind1 getting up and saying she must go to early service4 ,in the afternoon she was quiet and calm1 and saw one or two friends4 ,to ,miss ,gore she spoke of the coming ,all ,saints' ,day1 saying how much the ,communion of ,saints meant to her4 ,on this day also1 by the hand of ,miss ,lane--but she signed it herself--she wrote a last letter to ,miss ,amy ,giles#ajj3-- #8,i went up to a ,council ,meeting1 and afterwards consulted ,dr4 ,aldrich-,blake4 ,i had had my suspicions for some time1 and she at once confirmed them4 ,i went on to ,paddington1 as we had a meeting of our ,council1 and returned at three o'clock4 ,then after a few days we decided to enter a ,home1 and here ,i am4444 ,they say ,i am going on very well1 but ,i had to leave my work4 ,my doctor says ,i can come back probably at the end of three weeks1 which ,i am anxious to do1 as ,i have a ,general ,meeting 7annual7 on the #afth ,november4 ,i am very contented1 and the ,head of the ,home takes great care of me4 ,the only people ,i allow to know are ,miss ,rowand and ,miss ,gore1 who are coming to see me to-day4 ,i have had a not very cheerful ,sunday1 and ,i wonder whether ,i shall get right1 sometimes ,i hope not4 ,i wonder if we shall meet again4 ,i hope some day4 ,i need not say how dear you are to me4 ,we have lost many friends this last year4 ,at least1 ,i ought not to say that1 they have passed out of sight4 ,i think you have not heard that both ,mr4 and ,mrs4 ,rix1 who came to our first ,retreat1 have passed away within the month1 so those three friends have met once more4#aja 444 ,i have been talking to the ,head of this ,home1 who is very anxious to have a ,home for six ladies1 ,i have promised her #ajj4 ,what do you think of a site8 ,i know your father built one in the ,isle of ,wight1 but it is an expensive place4 ,there1 ,i don't think ,i have any more to say4--,yours very affectionately1 ,,dorothea ,,beale4' ,on ,monday came the change for the worse2 nervous prostration1 from which she never rallied1 although one day there seemed a gleam of hope1 and during the brief improvement she dictated to ,miss ,lane1 at the doctor's request1 some details of the days before the operation3-- #8,on ,tuesday 7the #afth ,october7 ,i went up to ,london hurriedly at #f4cg1 full of the thought of what was before me4 ,i went straight to ,dr4 ,aldrich-,blake1 an old pupil4 ,she condemned me4 ,then ,i saw1 as ,i had arranged1 a new attendant4 ,i looked into shops and felt giddy1 and went on to the place of meeting1 where ,i saw two others1 and lastly several friends1 and those who were to dine together to attend the meeting of our ,council1 and next a meeting of our ,st4 ,hilda's ,council1 and then came down to ,cheltenham1 thinking of course of what ,i should do4 ,the following ,tuesday you know ,i decided and you arranged for the operator to come from ,birmingham1 and you can report further4 ,i gave all my lessons as usual1 and corrected all my exercises until the evening of ,monday4 ,whatever my work was ,i did it4 ,my last lesson was on ,monday morning4 ,i had planned to give a ,confirmation lesson on ,tuesday1 but this the doctor forbade4' ,once after this she recognised the doctor4 ,once she asked for her ,prayer-book and spectacles1 but before they could be brought she had lapsed again into unconsciousness4 ,when her sister addressed her by name1 she turned her head1 but did not open her eyes4 ,then on ,november #h appeared more alarming bulletins1 and on the #ith the fatal notice1 #8,miss ,beale is sinking4' #8,we went through the morning1' says ,miss ,sturge1 #8feeling like ,elisha4 8,knowest thou that the ,lord will take away thy master from thy head to-day8 ,yea1 ,i know it1 hold ye your peace40' ,not in ,cheltenham only1 but far and wide her children were praying for her2 watching for news1 remembering and repeating to each other things she had said4 ,it was stormy weather1 and more than one thought of ,wordsworth's lines--lines which she had often read to her class--written when he was expecting to hear of the death of ,charles ,james ,fox3-- #8,a power is passing from the earth ,to breathless ,nature's dark abyss4' ,miss ,beale died on ,friday1 ,november #i1 at #ab4ae1 during ,college hours4 ,it was thought best that the girls should hear of her death before leaving4 ,when all were assembled in the ,princess ,hall the ,vice-,principal said3 #8,it has pleased ,god to take from us our beloved ,principal4' ,in a few words she told the history of the last few days1 and then said3 #8,we feel that it is what she would have desired1--no long waiting in suffering or helplessness1 but to go home straight from her work with her splendid powers scarcely impaired4 8,nothing is here for tears1 nothing to wail ,or knock the breast2 no weakness1 no contempt1 ,dispraise1 or blame2 nothing but well and fair1 ,and what may quiet us in a death so noble40 #88,the readiness is all40 ,let us bear our grief with calmness and dignity4 ,we know that it would be her wish that work should go on as usual4444 ,we believe that love lasts on1 and that the noble work she did for fifty years has done much for ,england and for womanhood1 and that not only we who have been blessed by her gracious presence1 but generations also to come shall reap the fruit of her toil1 and rise up and call her blessed4 ,let us pray4' ,then followed a thanksgiving1 adapted from the form of memorial service issued by authority in ,january #aija after the death of ,queen ,victoria4 ,of the days immediately following ,miss ,beale's death1 ,miss ,sturge wrote3 #8,many of the staff and elder pupils were privileged to see the beloved form as it lay in the peace and majesty of death4 ,though not one of the thousand workers at ,college can have been unconscious of the mighty change that had come for all1 the work went on as usual1 and the ,college was closed only on ,november #af1 the day of the funeral4' ,the paper which ,miss ,beale intended should be read at ,college prayers on her death was not found at the time4 ,this was well4 ,she certainly had not weighed what the effect of her words1 written with calm deliberate detail years before1 would be if read to assembled numbers at the very moment of shock and loss4 ,in this paper she first explained the directions she had left in her will about the funeral3-- #8,first let me say ,i have put in my will two things1 which have to do with the disposal of this perishable body4 #87#a7 ,i desire that it should be cremated4 ,it seems so wrong to place in the ground the disease germs which may injure others1 when they could be destroyed4 ,no feeling of sentiment should hinder our doing what is reasonable or right4 #87#b7 ,i have asked1 and ,i hope my wish may be respected by all1 that no flowers should be bought for my funeral4 ,they are beautiful emblems1 and if any could gather a few wild flowers or bring a few from their own gardens1 it would be good1 but ,i should not like any wholesale destruction1 any waste of life1 even with wild flowers1 and it seems to me quite wrong to spend large sums in decking a grave1 when there is so much to be done for the living4 ,if the present pupils and teachers were to give only sixpence each it would come to about #cj1 and if we take in old pupils and friends1 and those who give much more1 ,i fear a large sum would be wasted1 which1 wisely spent1 would not perish like cut flowers1 but bear real fruit4 ,still1 flowers are all beautiful things1 and gifts of our ,father to teach and cheer us3 they are patterns of things in the heavens1 and flowers speak to us of 1 rising4 ,i often said to you ,i do not like the word resurrection because it means rising again1 and gives the impression that the body that rises is the same that was buried2 whereas ,st4 ,paul has taught that we sow not that body that shall be4' ,but this was only a preface4 ,she spoke chiefly of rising through death to fuller and higher life1--of the purification which all who would see ,god must desire4 ,finally she asked3-- #8,shall ,i pray for my children who are now on earth1 for this ,college which ,i have loved1 and which has1 ,i dare hope1 been a means of blessing to some8 ,has it through my fault hidden the spiritual instead of revealing it1 like the trees of ,paradise8 ,will you see that the sunshine of ,heaven1 the love and holiness which can dwell only in souls1 may light up the school-rooms and boarding-houses1 and kindle hearts and send forth many light-bearers8 ,and will you ask sometimes for me that ,i may be purified of the evil that obscured the heavenly light that yet burned feebly within the earthly pitcher8 ,may ,he send you a worthier teacher6 ,may you1 above all things1 hear the ,voice of ,him who stands at the door and knocks1 may you open your eyes to the ,blessed ,spirit1 the ,paraclete6' ,on ,monday1 ,november #ab1 the body was cremated at ,perry ,barr1 the ,reverend ,dr4 ,magrath reading the committal service4 ,next day came the offer from the ,dean and ,chapter of ,gloucester of #8a tomb in the ,cathedral to ,dorothea ,beale1' and on the #afth the funeral took place4 ,everything that could lend dignity and honour to the occasion was done4 ,those who were present can never forget the impression of that day4 ,the sombre beauty of the ,cathedral in the ,november rain1 the music1 the well-ordered procession1 the crowds1 produced a sense of fitness for an occasion which was not merely one of grief4 ,rather was it an act of solemn thanksgiving for the long1 faithful labours ended1 an act of resignation through the heart and will of thousands of the life which had blessed them1 to the continuous love of a merciful ,creator4 ,many were there who held high position1 in educational or municipal life1 many friends and parents of pupils1 many former teachers1 and of course the whole staff4 ,but the crowd which filled the great nave from end to end was made up for the most part of pupils past and present4 ,eight hundred girls still at the ,college came voluntarily1 walking in grave silence in pairs from the station to the ,cathedral4 ,only a small proportion of this crowd could be present in the ,lady ,chapel for the latter part of the service1 but all when it was over filed quietly past the open grave surrounded by its home-made wreaths of flowers and laurel4 ,meanwhile1 in ,cheltenham1 those who were unable to come to ,gloucester filled ,st4 ,matthew's ,church1 where a service was held simultaneously with that in the ,cathedral4 ,at ,st4 ,paul's ,cathedral at the same time the dome was filled for a memorial service1 which included a short address from the ,bishop of ,stepney4 ,an old pupil present wrote of this3-- #8,a memorial service in ,st4 ,paul's ,cathedral is an honour accorded to very few women1 and befitting but very few4 ,but to the great throng assembled in the wide spaces of the dome on ,november #af1 there was a profound sense of congruity in this mourning for a woman whose real distinction was described on that occasion by the ,bishop of ,stepney when he called ,miss ,beale 8great40 #8,miss ,beale's greatness--that indefinable1 unmistakable1 inestimable quality so rare in her sex--gave her a right to be commemorated there1 at the very heart of the world of the living1 in presence of the memorials of the nation's mighty dead4 ,listening to the mysterious1 hope-inspiring sentences1 and to the lesson from #a ,corinthians xv41 so often chosen by her at ,college prayers1 it seemed that but a very slight veil divided us from that eager1 unquenchable1 quickening spirit1 then exploring the 8vasty halls of ,death40 ,and the reverberating thunders of the 8,dead ,march in ,saul0 have an appropriateness for every strenuous life4 ,effort in growth and development1 conflict with difficulties1 the surmounting of obstacles1 were certainly of the very essence of ,miss ,beale's nature4' ,services were also held at ,bowdon ,parish ,church and at ,sunderland4 ,at ,bakewell1 on the ,sunday after she died1 thanks were offered for the life and work of ,dorothea ,beale4 ,there was widespread appreciation both spoken and written of ,miss ,beale's life and work1 with barely a discordant note4 ,many of the notices#ajb gave a really striking impression both of herself and of what she had done for the cause of education4 ,apart from that work she did not care to be known2 it is but an obvious truth that its greatness was dependent on the greatness of her character4 ,a number of old ,cheltenham pupils were once asked what they considered the special result of the teaching they had received at the ,college4 ,their replies were to the most part to the effect that they had learned the worth of the strenuous life4 ,they would perhaps have been nearer a complete statement of the truth had they said #8an idea of ,duty4' ,for it was surely this--a consciousness of responsibility1 a sense of stewardship1 some perception of the #8thanks and use'#ajc owing for each excellence that had been lent out to them--which was brought home by the teaching1 both of word and life1 of ,dorothea ,beale to all1 even the youngest and least clever1 who came within the circle of her influence4 ,through such knowledge of duty ,miss ,beale's own idea of the #8strenuous life' might be perceived4 ,among the words most often on her lips1 especially when speaking to teachers1 were such as vivifying1 energising1 quickening1 inspiration4 ,she did not hesitate to say that to her all forms of life were a manifestation of ,god4 ,work was to her mind a privilege1--the active will1 a ,divine gift1--slothfulness was death4 ,it was the defect of a great quality that she sometimes hasted overmuch1 that she found it hard to wait in trifling matters1 that she seemed even to exaggerate the importance of the ,college4 ,she was not spared--she would not have asked to be spared--the inevitable sacrifice demanded of all genius1 of all lives devoted to a cause4 ,it was the sign of her self-consecration that in any great emergency1 before any important decision1 she was calm and full of patience4 ,it should be remembered also that each generation has its own mission4 ,to that of ,dorothea ,beale belonged especially the duty of crying to the careless daughters of ,england1 #8,rise up ye women that are at ease4' ,to another it may be given to serve by waiting4 ,what1 it is often asked1 was the secret of her really marvellous influence8 ,personal magnetism she undoubtedly possessed1 and that of a rare and abiding quality1 a quick eye to perceive1 and a touch which could evoke the best even in the most unlikely4 ,but her influence and power for good came surely as much from what she would not do as from what she actually did for her children4 ,her strength lay in what she would herself call #8passive activity4' ,it was her claim not to teach them so much as to lead them to the ,one ,teacher1 to bring them into such relationship with ,him that they could hear ,his ,voice4 ,for that inner ,voice which must at all costs be obeyed she bade them listen1 with pure and undefiled conscience1--the ear of the soul4 ,thus each who tried to follow her teaching left the ,college not merely as a devoted pupil of ,miss ,beale1 possibly even indifferent to her1 but with a clearer consciousness of the #8,light that lighteth every man1' and the paramount necessity of walking in it4 ,was the strenuous life all they learned at ,cheltenham8 ,it was doubtless not easy to tell the whole4 ,the strength and greatness of their ,head lay not alone in devising and carrying out important and detailed work4 ,it lay also--though this was less readily seen--in an unwearied watchfulness of affection1 in a sympathy never estranged1 in active thoughtfulness1 in a memory for all that was hopeful and fair in the lives and characters which came under her care4 ,remembering these1 there comes ultimately to the mind the thought of how little she really cared for human judgment1 just or unjust2 how she would say that there was but one ,voice to listen for1 one word of approval worth earning1 since the ,lord ,himself had said about a woman's work1 #8,she hath done what she could4' ,,chapter ,,xvi ,,letters #8,the living record of your memory4' ,,shakspere1 ,sonnet lv4 ,miss ,beale enjoyed both receiving and writing letters4 ,she kept a very large number1 especially of those from old pupils4 ,a letter which told of help or inspiration gained through the life at ,college would be put away1 labelled in her own peculiar and favourite abbreviated way3 #8,sent #b chr me4' ,she was a very ready and at times a very voluminous correspondent4 ,she attended to all her letters herself1 and answered all to which she intended to reply1 not merely by return of post1 but often the moment she received them4 ,if her answer was of some importance she would keep it by her for a time1 and often rewrite it before finally sending it4 ,her papers include a very large number of drafts and copies of letters which she sent4 ,the chief part of her correspondence was done before the school hours began each morning1 and she generally came to her place at #i ,a4,m4 with her morning letters already answered4 ,where she found she could help by means of letters she would spare no pains nor time over them4 ,perhaps ,mrs4 ,charles ,robinson received more than any one else4 ,in #ahgh ,mrs4 ,robinson1 then ,miss ,arnold1 left ,cheltenham to become a teacher at the ,dulwich ,high ,school4 ,she was at that time in a state of great religious perplexity2 dissatisfied with the teaching of the ,plymouth ,brethren1 among whom she had been brought up1 unable to accept that of the ,church1 she would not attend the services of either4 ,during this time of gloom ,miss ,beale wrote every week to ,miss ,arnold a letter she might receive on ,sunday morning1 and all her life remained a constant correspondent4 ,it is fitting that this chapter of letters should begin with some of those written to the #8best-beloved child4'#ajd ,to ,miss ,arnold3-- #8,july #ahhj4 #8,it seems to me you have failed in trying to keep the first commandment1 and so of course in the others4 8,thou shalt worship the ,lord ,thy ,god and ,him only shalt ,thou serve40 ,you see it is not when we feel inclined2 when we can realise ,his presence1 when we have plenty of spare time4 #8,then in your life and work has it not been that you have thought more of pleasing others1 of doing work1 of being so laborious1 so useful1 etc4 etc41 instead of serving ,him1 too much of being well thought of yourself4 ,this often leads to greed of work3 we do not say3 8,lord1 what wouldst ,thou have me to do80 but1 8,i want to do this or that40 #8,then as regards your public worship4 ,do not you think1 if you told your father that you felt ,church services more helpful1 he would be less grieved that you should go to ,church than go in deadness4 ,he chose the ,brethren because he felt his religious life quickened with them2 would he not wish you to act in the same spirit8 ,could you not frankly talk it over with him8' ,in #ahha ,miss ,beale wrote to urge ,miss ,arnold to attend some addresses ,mr4 ,wilkinson was about to give3-- #8,you will make some effort and some sacrifices1 if necessary1 to come1 will you not1 my dear child8 ,even the love of ,miss ---- for which you should give thanks1 is a danger too1 lest you should learn to look at yourself with the indulgence that we give to those we love1 and do not see clearly the faults and failings4 ,mr4 ,wilkinson does help to show how much ground there is for humility4' ,to the same3-- #8#ahhb4 #8,your letter grieves me very much1 just as the painful illness of one ,i love would2 because you have to go through it2 but it is right1 if you go through it rightly1 seeking the truth4 ,only one cannot in a letter1 nor in a little while1 nor off-hand deal with these difficulties4 ,as in every science1 thought1 and earnest labour1 and aspiration1 and desire are necessary if we would find truth2 so in religion1 the knowledge of absolute wisdom and goodness1 which transcends all we can know1 there must be a deep devotion to truth1 which spares no pains in the search4 #8,will you begin with a simple and clear book first1--,i noticed it in the last ,magazine1--by ,godet4 ,it is translated by ,canon ,lyttelton4 ,i think it shows conclusively the fact of our ,lord's resurrection1 and with that goes the testimony of miracles1 not as wonders but as signs4 ,when you have got thus far1 you will find1 ,i trust1 the repulsion to the supernatural element diminished1 if it exists in you4 ,don't ever let yourself say1 8,we can't know40 ,we can know enough to believe and trust in ,god's goodness1 and one must go on seeking by prayer1 thought1 obedience1 very1 very patiently1 and then through eternity one will draw nearer and nearer4 #8,as regards your conception of inspiration1 ,i think it requires correction2 claims have been made for the ,bible which it never made for itself4 ,holy men spake as they were moved by the ,holy ,spirit2 but the literal dictation of every word we are not taught4 #8,but ,i cannot attempt to answer piecemeal4 ,i have gone through all these questionings1 but ,i think my faith strengthens from year to year1--if ,i dare say so4 ,so that it seems to me marvellous that any one can fail to feel the divine1 underlying all the superficial1 the phenomenal which men verily call realities4 ,do you remember how ,browning makes ,lazarus feel 8marvel that they too see not with his opened eyes60 ,that objection to the ,israelites destroying the ,canaanites seems to me so frightfully superficial4 ,are there not evils far worse than death8 ,would it not be enormously preferable to die than to live as many do8 ,what should we say if we could see beyond the grave8 ,we judge knowing only one side of the grave4 ,and if ,god saw well that these people should die at once1 would it not be part perhaps of the education of a nation chosen to do a particular work1 that ,god should make them burn with indignation against the detestable1 unspeakable1 moral evils1 and make them the executioners of ,his justice8 ,it would not degrade them to do this1 if they did it as a judge condemns the guilty1 with no personal hatred4 ,we cannot sit in judgment thus4 ,in the world's history we see ,god ever employing men to do the work ,he has to do4 ,there may be necessities for this1 of which we know nothing2 ,i mean in the nature of things3 certainly there is good as regards the moral training of men4 #8,go on wishing and praying and seeking all your life1 never saying anything which you do not believe1 and then the ,god of truth will hear you as you say1 8,open ,thou mine eyes1 that ,i may see the wondrous things of ,thy law40 8,lighten our darkness1 we beseech ,thee60 ,feeling must come in1 as the ,brethren rightly say4 ,we must love1 and desire1 and know ,him to be our ,father2 we must trust ,him4 ,we can't understand even an earthly friend without trust1 but we must use the powers ,he has given us1 we dare not bury them4 ,we shall have to wait for the solution of much hereafter2 but we shall grow in grace and in the knowledge of our ,lord and ,saviour4 #8,my poor child1 would ,i could help you more1 but ,god will help you4 8,though ,he tarry1 wait40 ,use the means natural and supernatural4 ,tell me from time to time how you are getting on1 and ,i will try to put you on a course of reading4' ,to the same3-- #8#ahhb4 #8,my poor child1 ,i do indeed feel for you in your loneliness1 but remember him whose eyes were opened spiritually and he was therefore cast out of the synagogue1--but ,jesus found him4 ,do not fear that because the disciples call down fire that the ,lord will send it4 8,come unto ,me all that are heavy-laden10 ,he says to us now as then4 ,to those who are 8without guile10 i4e4 sincerely seeking truth1 ,he still promises that they shall see greater things than they have ever done4444 ,no2 we cannot and we would not believe that ,he who is infinitely wiser than man can be less good4 ,he is not a ,pharaoh to bid us make bricks without straw4 ,he does not tell us to do what we cannot and then punish us for not doing it4 8,she hath done what she could0 was the sentence of the ,lord when others found fault4 ,god is love1 and if we pity and long to draw to our hands any suffering child of earth1 must not ,he8 ,if we pity those who suffer in a less degree1 must not ,he those who are suffering the sorrow greatest of all1 the loss in any degree of ,his presence1 of that faith which makes all things possible8 ,go on1 my poor child1 looking up to ,him1 and trusting in ,his utter love who will not leave us1 not when we cry1 8,depart from me1 for ,i am a sinful man1 ,o ,lord40 ,it is hard sometimes to believe we are not wrong1 when we see the disciples1 those who really want to do right1 acting so differently from the way in which ,he acted4 ,but we know that in all ages some of the most unchristian things have been done by those who thought they were doing ,god's will4 #8,i do not think from what you tell me that you can go on at the ,meeting4 ,if your father wishes it you might for a while abstain from going to church2 but if so1 let the time you would have spent in public worship be passed in private prayer and studying2 just looking up with childlike spirit to the ,father1 feeling ,his presence1 ,his love4 #8,i do not think you should1 however1 absent yourself long from communion with some body of believers4 ,all ,scripture and our spiritual experience is against this4 ,if you decide for ,st4 ,peter's1 ,i think ,i can tell you of a friend's house where you would be welcome most ,sundays2 and we must have you among us for the ,quiet ,days at ,christmas4 #8,you know ,i do not want to proselytise2 if with the ,brethren you had found spiritual nourishment1 ,i would have had you rest there2 but now you are starving it is different1 like that poor dove who found no rest for the sole of her feet1 you need to be taken into an ark4 #8,i do not want you to be dependent on man1 but it is the order of ,god's providence that ,he sends disciples to lead others to ,him1 and so we are to help one another4 ,and you have a period of trouble before you1 outward and inward1 until you are able to stand upon the rock once more4 ,trust ,god if you should have to walk through that dark valley where you cannot see ,him4 ,each trial will one day result in joy1--the joy of being able to help other troubled souls especially4 ,he descended into ,hades1 ,he rose again6 ,i shall remember you in prayer1 and ,i shall ask prayers for you at ,st4 ,peter's1 of course without their knowing the least who you are1 but that you are suffering and in darkness4 ,be patient and ,i think your father's heart will come back4' ,to the same3-- #8#ahhb4 #8,now1 my dear child1 do not fret about this trial4 ,just try to look up and wait4 ,i believe your father's heart will come back4 ,you see he has obeyed his opinions before1 and truth is like the sun which ever rises higher upon our earthly day1 and does not sink as the natural sun4 ,we need sometimes to remember the words1 8,call no man your father upon earth40 ,i mean that there is the all-embracing ,fatherhood1 in which we see all earthly relations3 we do not1 must not1 cast those off1 but they must be swallowed up in the greater4 ,write to me whenever you feel it would comfort you1 ,i will try to help you1 until you feel again that you need not outward help4444 ,one feels more and more how slowly one learns and how infinite is ,god's truth2 how one need's patience and deep humility1 and utter faith in ,him who is the ,light4' ,to the same3-- #8,january #ahhc4 #8,my poor child1 you must not grieve thus4 ,since ,god loves your father1 ,he is giving to him only that discipline1 whatever it be that is necessary4 ,yes1 believe this1 even though the suffering has come through you1 for we must believe it universally4 ,i do not say you will not suffer for it1 or that there may not have been some wrong in it on your part4 ,but if1 as you know1 he does wish you to know and serve ,god more perfectly1 then through this ,god is leading him on to know and serve ,him better1 and you must trust ,god to know what ,he is about4 ,you must go on for your own sake 7and for the sake of the children ,god has given you71 seeking for light4' ,to the same3-- #8,january #ahhc4 #8,i always feel as if ,i must write by return4 ,your letters draw out my heart to you so4 ,i am glad you went and felt the love shining in on you4 #8,now1 as regards the a priori argument2 it is just the fundamental thing4 ,did you read my ,browning paper8 ,see1 it is just the thought that comes out in 8,saul40 ,we1 if we love ourselves1 we must believe in ,god's love4 ,he must be better if ,he is greater in every other way2 it cannot be that we excel ,him in the power of love1 which is the highest gift of all4 ,we can't think that ,he does not care for ,his children1 that ,he has left them orphans4 #8,i think one can see too that ,he in whom dwelt the ,divine ,spirit without measure1 yet who was truly man1 and who therefore grew as man in insight as we do1 felt that utter faith grow1 tower up1 as that intense love1 that utter self-devotion which ,he felt within1 told ,him of ,his oneness with ,god2 as ,he prayed that we might be one1 even as ,he was one with the ,father4 #8,and ,he1 trusting the ,father1 knew ,he could not be deceived by that ,father2 and we knowing ,him1 know ,he could not deceive us4444 ,so ,i come a priori to belief in the story of that ,life1 and when ,i get to it by inward reasons1 ,i am able first to look at the outward reasons1 which to many are enough without the inward1 but are not to me4 ,it was in this way too ,kant got back to belief in ,christianity4 ,i read it was the moral law within which taught him1 and all ,st4 ,john's teaching seems to me to be that we must feel the ,spirit within ere we can recognise the ,christ without4 ,but then ,he does give freely of ,his ,spirit1--if we seek1 we shall find4 ,he knocks at the door of man's heart1 8,if any one will hear ,he will come in40 #8,my child1 do remember those comforting words1 8,if ye were blind ye should have no sin1 but now ye say1 we see2 therefore your sin remaineth40 ,so blindness is no sin in itself1 if is lazy1 conceited ignorance that is sin4 #8,i wish you could be in the ,house of ,rest from ,friday to ,monday1 and have all ,saturday of the ,quiet ,days4 ,i wish you could have one talk with ,mr4 ,wilkinson before he leaves4' ,to the same3-- #8,january #ahhc4 #8,it does seem to me such a strange idea that our service should be acceptable to ,god in proportion to its difficulty4 ,it is really at bottom the same thing that makes people torture themselves4 ,it lies at the root of that idea regarding the ,sabbath1 which our ,lord condemned so strongly4 ,he came to make us know better the ,father's heart4 ,surely ,he loves to make it easy to ,his children to draw near4 8,i will allure her into the wilderness and will speak comfortably unto her40 ,under the old dispensation ,he appointed a solemn ritual1 and why did ,st4 ,paul exhort us to use psalms and hymns but that by the joy of music our hearts may be loosened from their deadness1 and then we can trust them whither we will4 ,it seems to me of course that our service is much more in conformity with the apostolic model handed down1 and with allusions in the ,bible4 ,but ,i do not want to dispute about that4 ,god has left us free4 ,if your father says1 8,i wish you to go to the meeting10 you should1 supposing you think it not wrong1 obey4 ,but ,i don't believe he would1 if you told him you went merely in obedience to his wishes2 that you felt it did not help your spiritual life4 #8,if it is finally decided that you go to ,st4 ,peter's1 ,i should like to ask ,mr4 ,wilkinson to see you1 and ,i would tell him some of your difficulties2 he is so wise4 #8,i have been thinking much these holidays about the many who like yourself are full of difficulties and questions4 ,one thing some of us are going to do1 and ,i want you to join3 make each week special prayers for the teachers in ,colleges and ,high ,schools1--7you will specially remember me71 and ask that some means may be found of helping them4444 #8,need you dwell upon that question of eternal death8 ,could you not say1 8,father1 ,i see not yet what ,thou doest1 but ,i trust ,thee80 ,if the death of any of ,his creatures whom ,he loves is inevitable1 then it does not make us believe ,him unloving1 we know how ,he yearns to serve us4' ,to the same3-- #8,march #ahhc4 #8,i do not mean either to say that the carelessness of a time in which you did see and were able to realise divine things was nothing to do with the present trial4 ,who can judge another8 ,i begged him not to be unhappy if your religious life took another form4444 #8,yes1 ,i was so glad to see your father4 ,i feel ,i know him much better1 and perhaps he knows me better4 #8,i quite understand his strong language about the ,church1 only those evils are not inherent in it1 but in our sinful nature1 and similar ones appear even among the ,brethren4 ,the unreality does not depend upon the amount of ritual4444' ,to the same3-- #8,april #ahhc4 #8,i have very much enjoyed ,professor ,edward ,caird's ,hegel4 ,it is #cs4 #f;d41 published by ,blackwood4 ,i am not quite sure it would help you1 but think it would4 ,i want you to get deeper1 and to be very patient until ,god shows you more light4 ,he is showing it to you1 only until you and ,i are able to see more clearly ,he must wait4 ,you have not suffered so much for nothing1 but ,i trust you may one day help others4 ,if you get ,westcott on the ,resurrection1 read the end first on ,positivism1 there is much in it that is so ,christian1 and much in what is called ,christianity which ,st4 ,paul would have called carnal4 ,all that about the ,lord's glorified ,body in ,st4 ,john and ,st4 ,paul speak to us of a spirit glorified and no longer bound in any space1 but a life-giving power1 real1 substantial4444 #8,poor ,george ,eliot4 ,she had a passionate nature1 and she came into circumstances so sad4 ,her life is a great sorrow to those who feel that her teaching was in some way noble1 though in others it was really weakening4 ,he who knows all will judge her3 8,whose mercy endureth for ever40 ,she was a long way above ,lewes4 ,if you come across ,hutton's ,essays you ought to read them4 ,i always get a good bit of reading in the holidays that demands thought4444' ,to the same3-- #8,may #ahhc4 #8,i am glad you find the work comforting again1 and that ,god has sent you help through some one else4 ,don't fret and look forward to next holidays1 you don't know yet how full of blessing they may be4 ,just remember it is a command1 8,be not anxious for to-morrow10 and so we can obey4 ,i remember once that thought that ,i must stay seemed the only thing to save me from breaking down1 and so failing to do as ,i ought the work ,god had given me4 ,see that it is a sin to fret and be anxious about your father's health1 or your future relations to home1 or anything4 ,we have to do our best1 and then trust to ,him 8who ordereth all things according to the counsel of ,his ,will40 #8,then as regards past sins4 ,it seems to me that it enervates you to dwell upon them as you are doing4 ,i may be wrong1 but it seems to me that the sense of guiltiness in the past makes you afraid of ,god1 as you ought not to be4 ,if a child were ever so naughty to you1 did ever so many wrong things to you1 would it shut her out from your love8 ,you know it would not2 you would sorrow over her1 and seek to do her good4 ,only her continuing naughty1 continuing to hate and distrust you1 could prevent your doing her good4 8,ye are not straitened in ,god1 but in your own heart40 8,if we confess our sins1 ,he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins1 and to cleanse us40 ,we can't think of ,him not forgiving us1 without thinking of ,him as less good than ,he is1 and ,he is infinitely good4 ,of course this does not mean that ,he will not give us due discipline for our past failures1 in order that we may be healed of the sins which caused them2 but then we are glad of this1 it is only a sign of ,his love for us4 #8,we should confess to ,him because ,he is judge1 i4e4 ,he separates and enables us to discern1 distinguish the good from the evil in us1 and separate4 ,one whom ,i have often quoted to you said1 8,i forbid you to look at your sins except at the foot of the ,cross40 ,do you do this sometimes8 ,the consciousness of guilt would be hardening without the consciousness of the abounding love4 ,this purifies4 ,i wonder if ,i have met your thought4444' ,to the same3-- #8,may #ahhc4 #8,you say you don't know what to pray for4 ,i think1 perhaps1 you are praying too exclusively for yourself4 ,ask for ,god's grace1 and power to respond4 ,intercede much for your children1 your relations1 your father1 teachers and friends1 and any one whom ,god gives you the means of helping4 ,especially at ,holy ,communion pray for the ,church and all who are separated by darkness from one another1 and put yourself quietly in ,god's ,hands4 ,some of our collects help me2 one ,mr4 ,wilkinson was so fond of3 8,who knowest our necessities before we ask10 etc4 etc43 do you know it8 ,i think of ,him then as coming to us all in ,holy ,communion1 and from ,his own ,hands giving us the pledges of ,his love1 to make us know ,he is giving us ,his own glorified ,life2 the ,life of ,god in such a way that we can receive it1--emptying ,himself in ,christ of that glory which we can't know3 the ,absolute ,being1 the ,infinite we cannot conceive4 ,we must trust ,his word 444 and this faith makes us strong1 saves us from sickness1 delivers us from the power of sin2 yes1 though we fall again and again1 enables us to arise4 #8,i so want you not to have that crushing fear1 which1 ,i may be wrong1 but ,i think1 you sometimes feel of ,god4 ,he must be so sorry1 if we don't understand ,him and feel like that4444 8,i fell at ,his feet as dead1 and ,he laid ,his hand on me1 saying1 ,fear not40 ,think of this and of the parting words1 8,peace be unto you40' ,to the same3-- #8,july #ahhc4 #8 444 ,you will have heard of our great loss1 and yet ,i ought not to call it so1--in dear ,mrs4 ,owen4 ,it is good to have known her1 and one feels what it is to live and work in the hearts of others1 seeing such a life and death4 ,i will tell you more of what she has taught me when you come4' ,to the same3-- #8,july #ahhc4 #8,my dear child1 ,i will certainly ask for both of you to come4 ,yes1 it is a naughty letter4 ,you must love not only with pity1 but with a stretching forth to sympathise4 ,what if we feel ourselves better than another1 because the ,spirit has stirred the once cold depths of our soul1 and so there is some light4 ,is it not because there has been so little that souls near us have remained cold8 ,can we ever glance at their faults without shame in thinking we are responsible for so much8 ,how we shall long to make them some amends1 how gladly we shall bear any punishment1 or even harshness1 if we can through this show our yearning love1 alleviate our self-reproval6 ,we cannot feel we are better4 ,our ,church service does at least try to keep us humble by our repeated confessions1 especially at ,holy ,communion4' ,to the same3-- #8,so very glad you have had a happy time4 ,god is good in giving us playgrounds as well as workrooms2 we want both1 and in both ,he shines on us1 and is glad in our gladness as well as afflicted in our afflictions4444' ,to the same3-- #8,october #ahhe4 #8,i object to your sentence1 that you would rather your father thought what was not true1 than that he should think what is certainly the truth1 viz4 that he has been in some way to blame4 ,also to that 8,i cannot bear this sorrow to fall on him40 ,we have simply to do the right1 and believe that ,god knows what ,he is about1 when ,he lets pain come upon us for our mistakes2 pains us1 yes1 8shatters us10 that we may know the truth better4 ,how many a parent or teacher tries to spare a child pain1 and wrongly4 ,you will not1 of course1 willingly pain any1 much less the father whom you love so much1 but you have both of you simply to speak the truth and do what conscience bids you4444 ,say frankly and firmly what you feel you must do1 and then drop the subject4444 ,you remind me of those good ,christians who beg us not to hang a man1 8lest he should fall into the hands of ,god40 ,god can care for people whether alive or dead1 but ,i believe your father would really suffer less1 and be worried less1 by a simple straightforward course of conduct4 ,you are thinking of self too much1 thinking yourself of too much importance when you say1 8,i am only thinking of the sorrow that threatens him and how ,i can bear it40 ,perhaps ,god is leading him to truer views of the ,father4' ,the following letter1 written in ,august #ahhh1 refers to ,miss ,arnold's appointment as ,head-mistress of the ,truro ,high ,school3-- ,to the same3-- #8,august #ahhh4 #8,do not trouble yourself about whatever you ought to have done now4 ,it is done1 and you thought it right1 so it was right4 ,i think of your ,bishop saying in his quiet way1 8,i do the best ,i can1 and then ,i just leave it40 ,i dare say the ,lakes will refresh you4 ,it is 8heart-rending10 ,i doubt not4 ,i wept all the day that ,i left ,queen's1 but it was well4 ,we are having a delightful time4444 #8,now ,i must stop my #aeth letter4 ,i had to get up at #e ,a4,m41 the days are so full4' ,to the same3-- #8,september #ahhh4 #8,i think you are beginning to-day1 at least you are a good deal in my thoughts1 and you will want a lot of wisdom4 ,it is a comfort to remember1 8,if any man lack wisdom let him ask of ,god1 who giveth to all men liberally40 ,i am so glad you have ,miss ----4 ,it is a great thing to have a few who work for love only4444 #8,don't be hasty in making changes1 and don't take to caps6' ,to the same3-- #8,be sure the rooms will brighten when you have prayed some sunshine into them4 ,it is terrible to have such a lot of servants6 #8,miss ,buss gets her girls to help adorn4 #8,i am glad we open on ,st4 ,matthew's ,day4' ,to the same3-- #8,august #ahhh4 #8,miss ,h4 and ,miss ,e4 wanted me to advise your going out socially a little4 ,i said ,i thought there were as yet difficulties1 as a ,head-mistress cannot choose2 that ,i thought for the first term it might be best to abstain2 then you can look round you and judge better4 ,they did not think there were many who would ask you1 that those who would were nice1 and it would be better for you not to be quite shut up4 ,what do you think of saying you will go out not more than once a week8 ,you have had so active a life2 and intercourse with other people1 and varied interests are good for school teachers4 ,also they think for the school it is good4 ,i merely tell you this1 ,i said ,i could not judge for you4 #8,i hope you will not be led by anything ,i said to speak1 if you do not think it is quite best1 or indeed to do anything4 ,i cannot judge1 and if ,i could1 the responsibility is yours1 and ,i should grieve if ,i misled you4 #8,i am so glad you feel refreshed4 ,it is our general meeting2 ,i shall be glad when it is over4 #8,all best wishes1 dear child1 for you and yours1 the children whom ,god has given you4' ,to the same3-- #8,october #ahhh4 #88,be wise as serpents1 and harmless as doves40 ,i should not answer people who lay snares1 we have a good example of this to guide us4 #8,it is so absurd of people to expect one to make up one's mind on all subjects4 ,we can no more judge of many questions of foreign or domestic policy than we can about the steering of a ship4 ,but we can of questions of morality and cruelty4 #8,mrs4 ,grey's new book1 ,last ,words to ,girls1 is so grand4 ,i hope it will be useful4' ,to the same3-- #8,october #ahhh4 #8,we must put things in the ideal way4 ,religiosity is the death of religion1 the grave-clothes which keep the living soul bound in the sepulchre2 which you have to help to loosen that it may come forth at ,christ's word4 #8,no1 ,i don't know the ,bishop at all personally4 ,i think if he will let you consult him1 you will find his judgment a great help1 but after all the responsibility rests on you1 you can't put it on any one4' ,to the same3-- #8,july #ahhi4 #8,we have1 ,i should think1 quite full numbers now4 ,i have not got the lists1 but we have at least seventy new pupils2 it is strange4 #8,i am better1 have managed to be in ,college every day1 by means of spending the end in bed4 ,i hope ,i shall pick up1 for work is a tonic4' ,to the same3-- #8,february #ahhi4 #8,i am so thankful ,god gives me any words to help you1 my dear child4 ,i think1 however1 it was that passage ,i sent you from ,canon ,body's notes1 was it not1 that really helped you1 not what ,i said myself8' ,to the same3-- #8,january #ahij4 #8,it was nice to see you4 ,be sure that nothing would be worse for you than to have no worries1 to have all speak well of you4 ,besides the more you need wisdom the more you will ask and seek it1 and the more it will come for your needs4 #8,and it is only by patience under our trials that you can bear witness to her and others of the spirit that is in you4' ,to the same3-- #8,august #ahij4 #8,i shall not1 ,i expect1 see you4 ,i do not go to ,oxford till ,saturday1 and leave on ,monday4 ,i hope you will not be made ill at ,ammergau2 ,i mean to keep as quiet as ,i can4 ,i have already begun a good read2 all ,lotze's book on ,religion1 ,the ,children of ,gibeon1 part of ,stanley1 a good deal of ,green's philosophical works1 and ,lux ,mundi1 and endless magazines4' ,to the same3-- #8,august #ahij4 #8,thanks for your very interesting letter4 ,i think ,i should have felt as you did4 ,i once went to something of the kind in ,switzerland1 and liked some of the early scenes1 but after the ,agony in the ,garden ,i felt ,i could see no more1 and came out4444 #8,i have had such cheering letters lately4 ,one from a girl whom ,i thought the most tiresome ,i ever knew1 about thirty-four years ago4 ,she has been writing and saying how sorry she is1 and wants to send her niece to be under me3 8after many days thou shalt find it40' ,to the same3-- #8,november #ahij4 #8,all good wishes for 8more life and fuller40 ,don't trouble about not feeling4 ,remember the ,lord's words to those unfeeling disciples who went to sleep during ,his agony3 8,the spirit is willing1 but the flesh is weak40 ,there is winter as well as spring or summer in our spiritual life4 8,die ,blume verblht1 die ,frucht muss treiben40 ,you complain of the outward excitement of others1 yet you want inward excitement4 ,see how in the ,imitatio one finds the same sort of feeling4 ,i foresaw some reaction2 there have been times during the last few years1 during which you have been overstrained1 and now you want a period of hybernation1 ,i believe4 ,you will1 of course1 go on doing just the same1 as if you felt and saw1 and you will believe in the ,presence1 and do your best4' ,to the same3-- #8,june #ahia4 #8,don't fret about what 8they say10 not even listen1 except to learn4 ,i dare say they are right1 and have sides of truth that we have not4 ,in ,tara there are beggars who go about saying3 8,what ,god gives1 ,i will take02 each of us can only do that4 #8,i am glad you have got advice2 you have been too careless with this marvellous body1 so complicated and needing to be well-treated4 ,you have driven it on1 like some poor ass1 with sticks6 ,now you must be a little kind to it or it will stand still and kick4' ,to the same3-- #8,february #ahib4 #8,your ,bishop came last ,wednesday1 and ,i spoke to him for the first time in my life1 after having known him for so many years4 ,he seemed so bright1 and ,i hope the removal of the load of responsibility will restore him1 and he will be able to take up some less heavy work4 ,he cannot but do good where-ever he is3 it is wonderful what a spiritual power he is felt to be4 ,he did just manage to see us before we broke up1 but only in a hurried way2 then he lunched with me1 and when all were gone he gave me his blessing1 which made me feel worse and better4 ,do you understand8 #8,i am so glad you are feeling cheered about the school4 ,don't you think it is right to be content with prosperity as well as with adversity8444 #8,yes1 ,i read ,the ,wages of ,sin when it was coming out1 a thing ,i seldom do1 but ,i was much struck with its power4 ,the author is a daughter of ,kingsley4 ,i don't feel inclined to read ,mrs4 ,ward's new book4' ,to the same3-- #8,june #ahib4 #8 444 ,i am enjoying my work4 ,i was on the top of ,battledown before #g ,a4,m4 to-day4 ,it is the best time for a walk4444' ,to the same3-- #8,july #ahib4 #8,our new building is to begin1 and ,i am miserable at having to turn out of my house1 which is to be pulled down4' ,to the same3-- #8,august #ahib4 #8,i think this state is partly reaction2 do not bustle about it1 but take rest4 ,the excitement of last year is1 ,i fancy1 likely to lead to this2 our spiritual faculties need rest after overfatigue1 so seek repose1 8,o rest in the ,lord40 ,read1 too1 some lighter literature4 ,farrer's story of ,nero's time ,i should like you to read4 ,it shows what ,christianity has done4 ,i had a restful time at our ,sanatorium after ,i had got out of my house1 and now ,i have had a very pleasant week with my sisters at ,woodchester4 ,i really think it would be good for you one day to make your headquarters at ,leckhampton4 ,the country is so lovely1 the air bracing1 and there are all sorts of nice excursions by train and omnibus1 to most lovely places1 and there is such variety4444 #8,be not anxious4 ,let me recommend you1 as a diversion1 to learn shorthand4 ,i find it very good4 ,script phonography1 it is an easy system1 you could teach yourself4 ,i am taking lessons2 it is much liked4' ,to the same3-- #8,january #ahic4 #8 444 ,we began to-day4 ,i dare say ,i shall feel better when we are once more immersed4 ,we are about the same in numbers1 but there is a great deal of illness about1 and we are half thinking of having a whooping-cough class1 under a separate teacher1 for ,division ,,iii4' ,to the same3-- #8,june #ahic4 #8,i have had a great pleasure lately4 ,mrs4 ,russell ,gurney has been spending six weeks here4 ,you must get her ,dante's ,pilgrim's ,progress1 just brought out1 you will enjoy it2 ,i have given a copy to ,mrs4 ,rix4 ,mr4 ,alfred ,gurney came to stay with her1 and he has sent me his ,parsifal1 a little book of about eighty pages2 it is beautiful too4 #8,i should like you to read 7in part7 ,mrs4 ,booth's ,life4 ,it is very interesting1 and ,i am quite surprised at the clearness and truth of her teaching4 ,she seems never to have joined a party1 but always looked for truth1 and hates the ,god of ,calvin and the doctrine 8of assurance10 and the idea that ,christ could be good for us and we need not be good4 ,her utter devotion is beautiful4 ,i have not finished it1 and ,i can't see how the work was carried on after the person 8was saved40' ,to the same3-- #8,august #ahid4 #8,i am so glad you are feeling somewhat refreshed4 ,you really must forget 8the things that are behind0--the bad things as well as the good1 or the heart 8would fail in looking back40 ,and if no other way opens1 and you are both called to go back to ,truro1 you will be able4 8,i can do all things10 and the sorrows for both of you will be like the mist which1 though it came up from the face of the ground1 yet watered ,paradise and made it fruitful4 ,does not all consciousness of sin and failure bring us nearer not only to ,him in ,whom alone is strength1 but to our brothers and sisters in sympathy and compassion4 ,we are touched with the feeling of their infirmities4 #8,so1 my dear child 7,i feel inclined to say children1 for this has made me feel nearer to your friend71 8lift up the hands that hang down and the feeble knees1 lest that which is weak be turned out of the way1 but let it rather be healed0 by your sorrows--your wounds too4 #8,i have had a very pleasant but exhausting time since we met4 ,i spent a fortnight at ,oxford1 attending both ,oxford ,extension and ,british ,association4 ,we heard a good deal about social and economic problems4 ,mr4 ,sydney ,webb and ,dr4 ,rein of ,jena1 who trains men as teachers1 gave some nice lectures4 ,miss ,louch is come back1 having had a delightful time at the ,educational ,congress at the ,clarke ,university1 under the ,presidency of ,dr4 ,stanley ,hall4 ,she says she has learned a great deal4444 ,i think our ,training ,department has as many if not more than any ,college there is1 in spite of not having received any of the thousands that have been given to them--or1 shall ,i say1 because of it8 ,i am sure it is good to have to pay one's way4 ,i believe our ,universities would do better work if they had nothing4 8,then welcome each rebuff40 #8,we had many parties at ,st4 ,hilda's1 and everybody admired the house4 ,the girls enjoy the boat very much2 ,i hope there will be no accidents4 ,it is a very safe one1 but one is always nervous about the water4444 #8,i am pleased with the ,higher ,cambridge ,list 444 and ,i am glad that we manage to keep up our lists1 because we do not buy up our neighbours' girls1 and try not to make examinations the end4 ,glad your girl has done so well4 #8,i am working hard at the ,magazine and my ,reports to the ,council1 and trying to rest a little after my ,oxford labours4 ,on ,tuesday ,i hope to go to the hills near ,stroud4 #8,i must lend you some day ,streets and ,lanes1 by the late ,miss ,benson4 ,the ,archbishop has sent me a copy4 #8,may ,god bless and comfort your hearts1 my dear children1 and make this light affliction1 which is but for a moment1 work out an eternal good4' ,to the same3-- #8,,ambleside1 ,may #ahie4 #8 444 ,the lakes are more beautiful and lovable than ,i had imagined4 ,there is a singular charm in the hills round ,ambleside1 they ripple like the sea4 #8,you must not 8feel0 while you are so weak1 just lie1 as it were1 in the sepulchre1 and then come out as ,browning's ,lazarus4' ,to the same3-- #8,july #ahig4 #8,i got home from ,london late last night1 and it troubled me1 and you were much in my mind when ,i went to church2 and in the service it seemed to me that it must be your energies were to be used to the full1 and yet your married life1 to which you have now been called1 does in some degree restrain you4 ,hitherto ,i have thought you wanted1 like an electric eel1 to recuperate2 you have gone through too much lately4 ,to-day1 it seemed to me as if you should still speak1 but in writing2 you have the power of writing well4 ,i think ,i speak better than ,i write2 ,i don't know how you speak1 but you can write4 ,now see if speaking is not to be your work whether writing is4 ,how ,i feel ,i need solitude1 and can't write for want of it2 but you have solitude enough to enable you to write4 ,a little later1 as ,i waited for a message1 which sometimes comes at the quiet times1 the words came3 8,i became dumb1 and opened not my mouth1 for it was ,thy doing40 ,i thought it was to be sent on to you1 so there it is2 not with your mouth1 but with your hand1 and perhaps to a larger audience4 ,i think the solitude of the cycle will help you too4444' ,there was one friend and old pupil1 a writer for whose philosophical and poetical work in particular ,miss ,beale had a great admiration1 who received many letters from her4 ,a few extracts from these are given4 ,to ,miss ----3-- #8,december #ahhf4 #8,i don't think you will get any food in ,spinoza4 ,you say1 may we not adopt ,agnosticism and say of these problems honestly1 8,i will give it up08 ,but you cannot4 ,we may try to1 but it is not human to be content to be caged in by this little world of time and space4 ,that restless discontent reaching out to wider knowledge1 to the infinite1 is surely its own witness4 ,if not1 ,man1 the crown of all things on earth1 is the only irrational creature upon it4 ,you will not be able to give up philosophy4 #8,i quite agree that we are not to be allowed here so to 8make up our minds40 ,that spirit ever open to receive more light1 is what our ,master spoke of as the childlike spirit4 #8,have you seen a little sixpenny book by ,armstrong of ,leeds8 ,he is a ,unitarian1 so ,i do not agree with the end2 but all the early chapters on the ,belief in ,god are very good1 and ,i think you would like it4 ,there are also some very satisfactory sermons by ,professor ,momerie on the existence of the soul4 ,i read a great deal of philosophy when ,i get time4 ,have you read ,martineau's ,types of ,ethical ,history8 ,if not1 do4 ,also ,green's ,prolegomena to ,ethics4 ,last summer ,i read ,lotze's ,microcosmus1 but ,i should recommend the two others rather4 #8,i wish you entered more than ,i think you do into ,browning's thoughts4 ,he has1 it seems to me1 so clearly set forth the main basis of ,faith1 not systematically1 but recurrently4 #8,we must work out these matters for ourselves2 but rest we cannot4 ,you cannot in the presence of your brother's suffering--you cannot in the presence of death say3 8,i care not to lift the veil1 or ever to know whether there is a curtain behind which we pass or a dark abyss40 #8,indeed1 dear child1 ,i do feel for you4 ,when you are freer1 you must come and see me1 and we will talk over things4 ,i shall not think you wicked1 but believe that you do want to know ,god1 and that ,he is sorry for you1 because you do care1 but cannot see4444 ,it is only the contemptuous1 what ,i may call the omniscient ,agnostic1 that ,i do not want to have anything to do with2 those who sneer at the most pathetic aspirations and hopes4 ,the reverent and yet sorrowful doubt which yet longs for dawn1 shall one day be blest by the sunrise1 here or hereafter4' ,to the same3-- #8,january #e1 #ahhg4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,child1--,no2 ,i don't mind your saying anything that is in your heart4 #8,as regards knowledge4 ,we use this word1 it seems1 in different senses4 ,it is not at all identical with 8to form a conception of03 e4g4 ,i cannot form a conception of what gravitation or electricity is1 but ,i know each in a sense4 ,these are names for something without which the kosmos as it is could not be4 ,or ,i might perhaps illustrate better by saying ,i can form no conception of the ,universe1 no complete conception1 and yet from my isolated spot ,i look up and say1 it is4 ,of what can we form a complete conception8 ,not of the 8flower in the crannied wall40 #8,any other explanation of the facts of the ,universe seems to me incredible1 except one1 viz41 that it is the utterance of supreme ,wisdom and ,love1 and that it is adapted to the intelligence of finite beings4 ,the ,unity of law tells us there is one ,god1 the ,creator and ,ruler4 ,as regards the hypothesis of order coming out of chance atoms--the myth of a primval chaos--can any one entertain it8 ,ex nihil nihil2 the order we see in evolution must have existed with the original atoms1 if such were the basis of created life4 #8,no1 ,i do not think it your fault1 but the fault of ,spinoza's system that it cannot give you satisfaction4 ,it is a revival1 only in another form1 too1 of the old ,greek thought of ,zeus1 over whom there was another ,god1 ,fate4 ,so ,spinoza's and the ,greek ,supreme were not ,supreme4 #8,of course ,i can do nothing in a letter but suggest lines of thought and lines of reading4 ,after ,armstrong1 ,i should most like you to take either ,green's ,prolegomena or ,martineau's ,types1 and read both several times4 ,green will help you to see the unity underlying all possibility of knowledge4 #8,it is perhaps more than anything the harmony of the ,threefold ,unity which helps me to realise the conception of the divine which ,jesus uttered most clearly4 #8,one sees the absolute physical unity1 each atom forming part of the complete whole1 and standing in vital relation to the whole4 #8,one sees all knowledge as real1 only when it takes its place as in 7can ,i say part of87 the ,universal thought4 ,one can see things only when one sees all in ,god4 ,but one sees that this which we have separated off as physical nature1 is yet the means and the condition of the intellectual too2 for ,light1 which is necessary to vital processes1 is the means by which the ,universal thought is revealed to our intelligence1 by which ,god touches1 as it were1 from without and awakens1 and causes truly to live1 our intellectual being4 #8,thirdly1 each--the physical1 the intellectual--are felt by us to be the means to the highest of all1 the perfection of the moral nature4 ,without this1 goodness1 power1 and intellect would be worthless or horrible2 and as the material can only be translated into the conception by the intellectual1 so we feel that the moral alone can interpret the intellectual4 #8,that the full solution is not ours must seem natural to us1 who know ourselves to be shut in by space and time4 ,but ,i am sure that men will not long remain blind to other facts1 as they have been to some extent in this generation1 owing to the scientific sudden growth of our day4 #8,the facts of conscience are to me quite inexplicable on any other hypothesis than that of ,one who is supremely good speaking to ,his children1 not through 8eye or ear10 but directly4 ,there is the unity of consciousness which makes memory possible1 and moral judgment possible2 and yet there is a secondary consciousness1 the 8categorical imperative10 the ideal goodness1 ever revealing to man a higher and better4 ,what if the conscience has never--,i should say ,except in ,one--received the perfect vision of goodness8 ,this is only to say that the receiver is limited and imperfect1 not that the perfect spiritual sun is not1 or rather ,i should say the universal light1 for the sun is a localisation of that which is invisible2 is saturating through infinite space4 ,words ever fail4 #8,i know that endless questions are still unanswered1 but this seems to me to be a real knowledge1 which is consistent and which gives peace1 that all other theories are inconsistent1 and that the highest1 the moral being is starved upon them4' ,to the same3-- #8,january #bg1 #ahib4 #8 444 ,the ,bishop of ,gloucester was here to-day1 and began talking about your ,goethe1 which he praised2 he is a good judge4 ,i thought you would like to know4 ,would you send him the book1 and say ,i have asked you2 he will tell people about it4 ,he reads philosophy too1 and specially advises ,lotze4' ,to the same3-- #8,written from ,,sudeley ,,castle1 7probably7 ,december #ahic4 #8,i fetched your ,magazine from the ,post ,office about five o'clock1 and ,i have just read it through4 ,i must express to you how delighted ,i am with it4 ,it is so clear1 so well written1 it gets to the centre of things4 ,i have seen nothing you have done at all to compare with it4 ,i must get the number4 ,i think ,i shall take in the ,magazine1 it looks good throughout4 ,a friend takes the philosophical review and lends it to me4 ,i might take this and lend it to her4 ,i have a paper in hand against an article in that1 but ,i fear ,i shall not be able to polish it off4 ,you must have had days1 weeks1 of quiet thought to write this4 ,this makes me want you still more to go to ,oxford1 and get to know ,caird4 ,did ,i tell you ,i lunched with ,jowett tte--tte not long before his death8 #8,you must come and see me if ,i can't come to you4444' #8,,ps4--,if you lend it to other friends1 ascertain about the postage4' ,to the same3-- #8,november #ahie4 #8 444 ,i am sending you a little book on ,psychology by a young teacher and writer4 ,i wish she had shown me the ,,ms4 or the proof4 ,if you feel inclined to look at it1 and give her a few written criticisms ,i should be glad4 ,we want so much common language in all these subjects1 words are used so differently2 e4g4 8conception0 is not generally used as she does4 ,intuition is another which we must fix the meaning of1 for each book one reads4 ,real1 reason1 etc41 want defining4 ,a dictionary of philosophical terms should be made by some people authorised to establish an ,eirenicon4' ,to the same3-- #88 #ahif4 #8,no2 ,i am sure you ought not to give anything4 ,i am sorry even that the notice was sent you4 ,perhaps1 however1 you may know some one or ones who may have money that they want to put out in some way for the ,master's service1 and might think this a right way4 ,we shall not get on if the ,guild has to produce funds unasked4 ,i don't want any one to be asked1 but they might be shown a paper4' ,to the same3-- #8,january #ahig4 #8 444 ,i find ,i read ,not made in ,germany without knowing it was yours4 ,it is prettily written1 but ,i don't consider such things worthy of you1 and the variations on that one tune are so very numerous4 ,i wish we1 like the ,greeks1 had things written which turned on other problems4 ,these things are very well as a diversion4 ,i wonder what is the subject of the novel4 #8,one of our teachers has been translating a book of ,herbart's4 ,i have sent for his introduction to philosophy4 ,i will tell you if ,i think it would do for what ,i want2 something giving the fundamental questions which come before beginners4 ,herbart is much read now1 but he is difficult to translate1 and the people who have tried have not been very successful2 ,i wonder if you have read any of him4 #8,i send a letter of introduction to ,miss ,swanwick1 ,i suppose you know her translations and writings4 ,i think she is only second to ,mrs4 ,browning1 and she is charming1 and young still4 ,when ,i last saw her1 the friend of so many distinguished people1 her memory was wonderful4 ,tennyson had one of her books open upon his table during the last days4' ,to the same3-- #87,date uncertain47 #8 444 ,herbart is a power4 ,i have not got the book yet4 ,you really must not let yourself be diverted altogether from philosophy4 ,you have not thought and suffered so much for nothing1 and though your philosophy will come out in most things1 even in stories1 you must give it us sometimes 8neat40 ,you remind me of ,darwin's earth-worms2 you have had to burrow and work underground1 and you have turned up some fruitful soil4 ,well1 the ,spirit which led you into the wilderness will bring you out of it1 and anoint you to tell some good tidings4' ,to the same3-- #8,july #d1 #ahih4 #8 444 ,i am glad to hear you have come to a satisfactory agreement with ,blackwood4 ,it is an advantage to have a leading publisher4 ,now as regards the sonnet4 ,i don't feel as if anything could make the ,eros of later ,greek religion pure4 ,he and ,aphrodite have fallen from heaven1 and ,i cannot think of them at the same time with the ,sufferer on ,calvary--so it rather jars on my feelings4 #8,i know there is behind the myth the thought of love1 of one who is the offspring of truth and purity1 of perfect beauty4 ,but love1 associated with ,eros as we know him1 is not love4444 #8,i am feeling wonderfully well2 the body responds to the spirit1 and is refreshed too by the sympathy of my dear children4' ,miss ,beale's correspondence with her #8children' frequently concerned spiritual and mental difficulties of various kinds4 ,one or two of the letters she wrote on such questions follow4 ,to one in religious doubt3-- #87,undated47 #8 444 ,how ,i wish some one abler and better than ,i could help you now1 but as ,god has given you to me1 and something of a mother's heart with my children1 ,i must try4 #8,first3 ,i would resolve to take some fixed time each day1 say ten minutes on first rising1 just to plume one's feathers for some short flights above the earth4 #8,secondly3 ,i would think of some of the blessings and thank ,god for them4 #8,thirdly3 ,then ,i would plead for light2 8,show me ,thy glory2 but ,i would ask in humility1 being content to wait till the third or even the fourth watch40 ,i would ask1 8,show me the ,father and it sufficeth2 let me know ,thy love1 if ,i cannot bear ,thy glory40 ,and ,i would utter the prayer not only in aspiration in spoken words1 or only in feeling 7which is the music of prayer71 but ,i would utter it in act1 by reading in a childlike spirit some ,scripture--climbing as it were the ,delectable ,mountains with the shepherds1 and trying to make out something through their glasses4 ,ask that same ,spirit1 which has taught the spirit of man1 and which ,i believe taught you specially1--not for your own1 but for the ,church's sake1 to show to you spiritual truths4 #8,fourthly3 ,then ,i would see if there was some selfishness1 some 8,evil ,eye0 preventing my seeing1 and ask deliverance from any besetting sin4 #8,fifthly3 ,i would ask ,god to let me offer some sacrifice1 permit me to join with ,him1 to hold communion with ,him in blessing another1 and try to look for some to whom ,i might give some cup of refreshment1 some way of entering into ,his joy1 and of crucifying self4 #8,sixthly3 ,i would place myself under such influences as have lifted the souls of others4 ,i would join in common worship as much as possible in our prayers here and at ,church4 #8,seventhly3 ,i would receive the teaching of ,jesus1 and through the bread and wine of earth ask ,god to feed me with the ,heavenly ,manna4 #8,will you1 my child1 try some of these ways1 and not be soon weary8 ,in due season you will reap1 if you faint not4 #8,perhaps you will soon find some ways more suited to yourself than some of those ,i have suggested2 but you asked me4 ,i will try to get a beautiful prayer ,i have heard asking for light4 ,it may be that the answer will be a baptism of fire2--a heaping coals of fire on our heads1 and thus purifying us from evil4 ,i would say earnestly1 compel yourself 7though often unwillingly71 to look up to the ,father1 as the noblest souls have done in all ages1 whether ,christian or not4 ,you must catch some beams of heavenly light1 and see1 as ,st4 ,stephen did1 that man may be glorified to stand at the ,right ,hand of ,god1 and to share with ,him in carrying out ,his purposes of love4 ,i think you will be led on to see the ,father revealed in the ,son2 to me ,he is the ,way1 and it seems ,his words are true for us now3 8,no man cometh unto the ,father 7cometh near so as to see and know ,him7 but by ,me40 #8,may the ,good ,shepherd lead you to green pastures and the still waters of comfort4' ,to one who found danger and unreality in forms and ceremonies1 and who wrote3 #8,i feel ,i am cutting myself off from you in writing like this4' ,she replied3-- #8,,ps4--,nothing will cut you off from me4 ,i thought ,i had given no rules1 only such suggestions as a heathen philosopher might have followed4 ,i wrote my letter hastily2 ,i should like to see what ,i said4 #8,your letter gave me pain1 which was partly selfish1 to find ,i was too ignorant to help you4 ,we must have a little talk some day4' ,to one who had written that she had to fight hard against pessimism caused by much unaccountable and apparently needless suffering4 ,she answered3-- #8,november #aj1 #ahie4 #8,i think our faith in ,god1 as in any person1 rests more on what ,he is than what ,he does4444 #8,now ,i come to the conclusion3-- #87#a7 ,that in ,nature is revealed an intelligence whose limits we cannot see2 ,one1 i4e4 infinitely wise and mighty4 7#b7 ,in good men we see benevolence1 the earnest desire to bless up to the limits of their power4 ,in the ,christ we see this without any limit of selfishness1 and we say1 ,if ,man1 the ,son1 is thus loving1 then the ,father is love4 8,no man knoweth the ,father1 but the ,son40 ,we can approach ,god1 so as to know the character of ,god1 only thus1 it seems to me4 ,you have here the argument of ,saul 7,browning74 ,then when you allege against the witness of the heart1 the facts of ,nature1 ,i answer that however inexplicable by us these facts are1 this witness for ,god1 which comes from within1 cannot be overthrown4 #8,nor1 indeed1 does that fact of animals preying on one another trouble me much4 ,death to them1 i4e4 the stopping of the activities of life suddenly1 whilst they are in full vigour1 seems better than the gradual decay of sickness4 ,there is with them no anticipation and no joy in cruelty4 #8,the facts of moral evil1 those are what seem to overwhelm one at times4 ,there are children born into such terrible surroundings1 we say4 ,there again we can see a little way up into the darkness1 and trust4 ,we do see that the redemption of the lost is often effected by the knowledge that others suffer through their sin4444 #8,do we not know enough of our interests and ,god's infinite wisdom to make us trust ,god for the universal good8 ,men must be left to work out the consequences of evil1 to bear them1 and learn it is ,god's purpose for them to rise out of the darkness into increasing love of ,his holy will4 ,at length regenerated humanity will so enter into sympathy with the ,spirit of ,god mediated through the indwelling ,christ1 that things in ,heaven and earth will be recapitulated in ,him the ,head1 and will become intelligently and lovingly obedient to that will4 ,the cost of suffering is as nothing compared with the infinite good4 ,i can only sketch the outline of my faith4' ,the letter which follows was written to a pupil who1 while she was at school1 did not personally know ,miss ,beale very well4 ,a talk at a ,guild meeting eleven years after she left revealed to ,miss ,beale's penetrating eye some distress caused by disillusionment and disappointment4 ,a fortnight afterwards she wrote3-- #8,july #ahih4 #8,i have so often thought of our interrupted conversation1 and must take a bit of my first ,saturday evening to write a line4 #8,you were feeling1 ,i judge1 somewhat as ,wordsworth did when he wrote the ,ode on ,immortality4 ,this is1 ,i think1 how the matter stands4 ,when we are young1 we think that perfection1 i4e4 the ideal1 can be found on earth--we set up1 perhaps1 some earthly idol1 and endow it with every excellence4 ,then we find that we have been in a measure mistaken4 ,what shall we do8 ,doubtless there does then come upon us the shadow of a great darkness1 as we find how much evil there is1 and we are tempted to believe the lying word of ,satan1 that the kingdoms of the world are his4 ,shall we then lower our ideal1 say we will conform to that which is1 or believe the heavenly proclamation--8the kingdoms of this world are become the kingdoms of our ,lord and of ,his ,christ0--and work on to make this as true as we can for our own souls1 and for those near us8 ,we see that the ideals cannot be realised on earth1 because this is a place of discipline4 ,many make a worldly marriage because they give up their ideal1 and conform to what is1 instead of ever striving to bring about what ought to be--nothing can make that right4 ,but on the other hand we must be content to be the companions of those who1 like ourselves1 are 8compassed about with infirmities10 to arm them for the fight with evil1 and to love those who are not perfect1 as ,britomart did the ,red ,cross ,knight4 ,what ,i want you all to keep before you is that one day the ideal will be realised1 as the ,bible and our own hearts assure us1 and to join the army of light and go right on1 confident of eventual victory4 ,you have1 my dear child1 a somewhat heavy burden of responsibility for your age1 and you miss the sustaining hand1 but you must not look down1 but up6 ,take our first ,cambridge ,room motto3 8,as the soar falcon1 so ,i strive to fly1 ,in contemplation of the immortal sky40 ,there we may look for the realisation of our earthly endeavours1 as ,abt ,vogler teaches4 ,i wonder if you read ,browning4 ,i wish you had a ,browning ,society4--,with much sympathy1 444' ,to one who had written of the #8,intolerance of ,church people'3-- #8,july #ahhd4 #8 444 ,but it does seem to me quite impossible in education to leave religion an open question1 i4e41 to teach without hypothesis4 ,how could we unite into one coherent whole the teaching of optics1 unless we presuppose the undulatory theory8 ,or the facts of astronomy without the theory of gravitation8 ,yet both may be1 and are questioned4 ,for some philosophical theory must underlie all things1 and no one can1 it seems to me1 teach history1 or geography1 or science without it4 ,we who believe in ,christian philosophy1 and feel that it alone makes the universe intelligible1 and life worth living for ourselves or others2 who think that it is the power needed to give life to the world1 and to deliver us from evil and all the misery which oppresses us1 naturally desire with all the energy of our being to teach it1 and we most of us would not let little differences hinder our working with those who acknowledge the immeasurable blessings of ,christ's teaching4 ,here ,i found dissenters wishing that the teaching of our ,college should be ,church2 because they said there must be some basis2 that they would rather let their children hear sometimes what they disagreed with1 and judge for themselves1 than that there should be no definite teaching4 ,they thought our ,church was on the whole the most liberal4 #8,i am so grieved1 dear friend1 that any of us should bring disgrace on our ,teacher by our faults1 but when we do what our ,master1 the ,truth1 disapproved1 the blame should not rest on ,him4 ,it would not be just to you if we called a child who was in your class and loved you1 by your name when she told a lie4 ,nor should you say1 8,see what ,christians do10 when they sin against ,christ4 ,in so far as they are untruthful they are un-,christian4 #8,then1 had you not1 even as you admit1 condemned utterly those whose conduct admitted of a more favourable interpretation8 ,we are not utterly truthful1 unless we do more than act up to our convictions1 unless we do our utmost to make those convictions as near the truth as we are able4 ,and do you know ,i felt so disappointed after talking to you the other day1 because it seemed to me as if you had not cared to search into the depths of things1 as if you were content to float about instead of searching for the rock beneath the flood4 ,our apprehension of the truth regarding the goodness of ,god1 and ,his purpose for us1 and our duty to our ,father and to one another1 seems to me the priceless pearl4 ,i found you had not read what ,i thought you would have read1 the works in which the ages have indeed drawn for us pictures of those who wrestled with ,god in the darkness and cried--8,tell me ,thy ,name40 ,and now you disappoint me again1 as some other of my dear ,agnostic friends4 ,they seem wanting in the tenderness of those who ever look up to ,jesus ,christ1 and therefore learn to feel in the light of ,his example4 ,this our miserable failure1 the habitual self-examination and definite confession of sin1 helps us to4 ,there1 ,i have told you what is in my heart4 ,the former on thinking over our conversation ,i meant to say1 because ,i love you4 ,the latter1 7the want of sympathy17 ,i did not know of4 ,i wonder if you will misunderstand me now1--perhaps1--but ,i have felt you did not before4' ,the following was written to a former student1 who after a time of great religious privilege had been assailed by special temptation3-- #8,august #ahhh4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,friend1--,i am grieved that you have suffered so much1 and yet it was not sent you in vain4 ,it was to correct faults in yourself1 and to help you in your vocation to correct those in others4 ,you did not1 ,i feel sure1 yield to the wrong1 but fought against it1 and temptation is not sin4 #8,i have been thinking what you could read4 ,do you know ,froebel's own works8 ,i think some of these 7which are not light reading7 would be nice for you on your travels4 ,i like always a book that is suitable for a little reading and much thinking4 ,he is so bathed in the spirit of love1 so deeply ,christian and so full of the spirit of liberty4 ,when you come home you must come and pay us a visit1--that and ,rosmini ,i should like you to read4 ,i have asked ,miss ,gore to send you one of my photos1 in case you care to have it1 when we go home4--,with deep sympathy1 yours most sincerely1 ,d4 ,,beale4' ,among the letters are many to old pupils on the deaths of relations or friends4 ,the next was written to ,miss ,alice ,owen1 now ,mrs4 ,mark ,collet1 on the anniversary of her mother's death3-- #8,june #ahia4 #8,this was a birthday eight years ago into a world of larger scope than this1 and ,i feel as if her spirit were still watching over those she loved on earth4444 #8,surely the tides of eternal love1 flowing in upon our narrow lives1 will make us all of one spirit1 sorrowing and rejoicing with one another1 instead of judging1 because we feel1 as she taught in that beautiful parable1 that we are one4 #8,may our ,lord give you an ever larger measure of ,his own love4' ,the next letter refers to the death of ,mrs4 ,russell ,gurney3-- #8,october #ahif4 #8,i got a letter from ,orme ,square this morning4 ,our beloved friend entered into rest yesterday4 ,i think of the glad meeting of those who were kindred souls on earth4 ,i had also a note from ,addington saying how thankful ,mrs4 ,benson is1 and happy in spite of her loss4' ,several other letters of a kindred nature follow4 ,to ,miss ,giles1 on the death of her father3-- #8,april #ahga4 #8,still in one way we who are old suffer less from parting4 ,to us the time seems so short1 ere we may hope to meet once more where are no more partings or tears4' ,to ,miss ,susan ,wood1 on the death of her mother3-- #8,may #ahhj4 #8,i need not tell you ,i have felt much for you4 ,one could not have wished the suffering prolonged1 and yet one does not feel the loss less4 ,happily1 one seems generally to forget1 when all is over1 the last painful incidents of the sickness1 and to remember the past years4 ,few have had a more devoted mother4 ,how proud she was of your successes6 ,how old it makes us feel when we take our place in the front rank of the army of life2 may we be able to say1 when we too are struck down1 8,i have fought a good fight40 ,may ,god bless your work1 my dear child1 to the everlasting weal of those whom ,he has given you4' ,to ,miss ,frances ,crawley1 afterwards ,mrs4 ,wells3-- #8,july #ahha4 #8,i must write you one line of sympathy in this great sorrow4 ,i know how much you loved your dear father1 and had longed for this visit1 and now there will be a great blank4 ,you will not think now 8,how glad he will be if ,i do well40 ,but on the other hand1 my dear child1 you will feel you must be more than ever to your mother4 ,you children will be all to her now4 ,besides1 ,god never takes but ,he also gives--only we often miss the gift because we don't look for it4 ,he will help you to know ,him better as your ,father1 partly because you will think of your own father as near ,him1 for where our treasure is1 there our hearts are also4 ,you will think more of pleasing ,him1 and so preparing to meet those who have loved you and loved ,god1 where there will be no more death for ever4' ,to an old pupil1 on the death of her father3-- #8,november #i1 #ahif4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,child1--,this is indeed a blessed death for one so good as your father2 you must give thanks for him4 #8,there is no service ,i think so strengthening as the burial2 may you be comforted and strengthened for the battle of life by a clearer vision of that unseen host which is ever near1 though 8our eyes are holden that we see them not0 through want of faith4 ,soon must we join their ranks4 ,shall we join in their psalms of thanksgiving8' ,to ,miss ,strong1 on the death of ,miss ,margaret ,clarke3-- #8,february #c1 #ahig4 #8,indeed ,i am grieved2 she has been a power for good1 and has sent out some grand workers1 and ,i shall miss her greatly4 ,i am thankful ,i was with her at ,christmas4 #8,one feels sure 8her works will follow her10 and ,he who gave her power will raise up others4 ,it is1 so far as one can see1 too heavy a burden for ,kate alone4 ,her memory will be a power1 her life was so wonderfully guided1 and one feels sure she has work to do beyond1 for which the training of earth will have prepared her4' ,to ,miss ,rowand1 on the death of her mother3-- #8,june #aija4 #8,it is grievous for you and those who loved that dear and noble1 simple-minded woman1 for her goodness gave unity to her life4 ,now the alabaster box is broken1 only the fragrance of the life remains4 ,she has been spared the living death such as ,i have seen1 when the soul finds in the body a tomb4 ,she is released and doubtless carries on ministries of love with your noble father and beloved brother4 #8,i have just seen ,frulein1 whose only sister has just passed away4 #8,how little the sorrows of earth will seem to us as we look back1 ,i think2 even as many which even here issue in blessing4 ,we realise that all things do indeed 8work together for good to them that love ,god10 and ,i know that through this fresh sorrow the fire will burn up more and more of the earthly1 so that the spirit may shine forth more brightly 8to give light to all that are in the house40--,yours with deep sympathy and affection4' ,to ,miss ,caines1 just before her death3-- #8,march #aija4 #8,,my ,,very ,,dear ,,friend1--,we can only pray now that if it be ,god's will you may be spared to the many who love you1 and to whom you have been a blessing during these many years of faithful service4 ,but if the ,master should come and call for you1 then ,he will go with you through the ,valley of the ,shadow of ,death4 ,his ,rod and ,staff which stay your tottering steps will comfort you1 and ,he will bring you forth to the light4 #8,we must say for you and for ourselves2--8,jesus1 ,i trust ,thee40 ,we do believe that what the world calls ,death is birth into a brighter world4 #8,may we all meet again where sorrow and sighing are no more4--,with much love1 your very affectionate4' ,to a friend1 on the death of ,miss ,caines3-- #8,this morning my dear friend passed away1 full of peace and content to go4 ,the children have been all that we could wish1 full of sympathy1 but quietly impressed and very sorrowful4 ,we do not wish them to leave1 but to learn to look calmly on death1 and hopefully up to ,him ,who has taught ,his servants to triumph over death4444 #8,the loss to me is more than ,i can say4 ,god's will be done4' ,the next letter is to ,mrs4 ,cooper1#aje a much-loved old pupil1 who in #aijb lost a son1 a promising young artist1 and seven months later her husband through death3-- #8,june #aijc4 #8,i am sending you such a nice sermon by our good bishop1 which ,i think you will like4 ,i quite agree with you that one ought not to seek intercourse through mediums4 ,i would never join the ,psychical ,society4 ,it was right to enquire as these scientific men have done1 but the inexperienced are almost sure to be taken in by such1 and it seems to me that we ought not to try to draw aside the veil but wait until ,god's herald bids us enter4 #8,i think you must expect to feel the sense of loss becoming greater1 but then you will get to feel how short is the time of mourning on earth1 and to ascend in heart and mind--and so to be above the storms and clouds of earth--even as the lark--and yet with him to hover over the earthly home1 8that nest which you can drop into at will1--,those quivering limbs comprest40 ,you will want to speak to and help others with the comfort wherewith you are comforted of ,god4444 #8,it is nice to look back on that time forty years ago4 ,i remember your confessions to me then4 ,well1 you have not been forsaken1 nor left to beg your bread4' ,to the same3-- #8,october #aijc4 #8,i have just heard of this fresh trouble4 ,surely you must be intended to do some work for others specially needing heart's blood4--,this paper was put into my hands just as ,i heard of your fresh disappointment and anxiety4' ,to the ,misses ,hibbert ,ware1 on the death of their sister3-- #8,march #aije4 #8,indeed one ought only to give thanks for her4 ,i think of her looking down on us all at peace having escaped from the long enduring pain associated with this earthly body1 and springing up like the lark into the larger heaven4 #8,well1 we must wait to understand these things which it has not entered into the heart of man to conceive in all their joyful reality1 though in some measure they are revealed here to saintly souls which have been made partakers of ,christ's sufferings4' ,to ,mrs4 ,mace1 on the death of her husband3-- #8,may #aijf4 #8,only to-day did ,i hear of the death of ,mr4 ,mace4444 ,it did seem grievous after his suffering with so much courage and hope the operation4 ,one can only give thanks now that the soul has escaped from 8the body of humiliation10 through which it has risen to the spiritual life4 ,i don't like the word resurrection1 does not suggest that the soul has put on its old clothing1 after being delivered from the body of corruption4 ,you must be glad that he is free4' ,miss ,beale wrote several letters1 from which extracts are given1 to ,miss ,belcher during her last illness4 ,the following was written after the ,head-mistresses' ,conference on ,october #h and #i at ,oxford in #ahih3-- #8,october #ahih4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,friend1--,i got home last night4 ,everybody was asking and thinking about you and missing you so much4 ,i hoped for a line this morning2 ,susan will doubtless write to-day4 ,i brought back ,agnes ,body for the ,sunday here4 ,the text in my birthday book for to-day is3 8,i have prayed for thee that thy faith fail not40 ,i know this prayer is fulfilled for you4 ,how ,i long to have some real talk with you now2 but ,i think even in the body there is communion1 and still more out of the body4 ,it seems to me as if ,miss ,carter must be with you4 ,your love and care for her was returned in blessings on your own life1 and through you on others4 ,miss ,strong looks ill4 ,she has been staying with her ,bishop2 that will strengthen her4 ,that good ,miss ,day of ,westminster was there1 and sweet ,mrs4 ,woodhouse of ,sheffield4 #8,i feel sure the ,conference will do good1 there were so many good women there2--only we missed one4' ,a day or two later she wrote3-- #8,,my ,,very ,,dear ,,friend1--,i feel somewhat cheered by ,susan's letter to-night4 ,each morning ,i have so many enquiries1 8,have you heard80 ,susan is good in writing4 ,here are three letters from some staying at ,st4 ,hilda's1 where we were always thinking of you4444 #8,just two years on the #aath1 since the ,archbishop fell asleep4 ,i wonder if he looks down at the school1 and its first ,head-mistress too4 ,shall we see and be able in some measure to 8succour0 those on earth8 ,may the peace of ,god which passeth all understanding be with you4' ,the next alludes to a proposed visit of ,miss ,beale to ,miss ,belcher3-- #8,st4 ,luke's ,day4 #8,,dear ,,friend1--,i am so looking forward to ,friday4 ,i thought of you so much on this the ,physician's day1 as we sang that beautiful hymn and ,psalm xxx42 and our window told of the raising of the daughter by the ,healer4 ,my own life seems to me almost a resurrection1 ,i must hope that you too may be raised up to do work on earth1 ere you go to a higher sphere4' ,after this visit ,miss ,belcher wrote3-- #8,,my ,,dear ,,friend1--,the strength and comfort of your visit has been with me ever since1 and far from its doing me any harm it has done me untold good4 ,may ,god bless you for having imparted to me so richly of the 8comfort wherewith you yourself have been comforted of ,god40 ,i do so trust you were not over-tired2 hope to hear from some one to-morrow4 #8,will you call me ,marian in our private letters8 ,i have never liked being only ,miss ,belcher1 and since the close communion and rich gift of yesterday1 ,i feel ,i should like it4' ,miss ,beale's reply was3-- #8,october #bc1 #ahih4 #8,,dearest ,,marian1--,it is good to hear that you were none the worse for my visit1 and that our ,lord put into my mouth some words of comfort4 ,i shall hope to hear about ,dr4 ,broadbent4 ,i had a nice note from ,susan4 ,all here were so glad to get news of you direct4444 #8,i wonder if you know ,fechner's little book2 there is one chapter ,i like much1 from which ,i am sending you some extracts4' ,the next letter was written after an operation ,miss ,belcher had undergone3-- #8 444 ,i lingered this morning1 and the postman brought me ,susan's cheerful letter1 just as ,i was starting1 and ,i was able to make the service specially a ,eucharist on your account4 ,what a wonderful epistle2 it is one to feed on4 ,it tells how suffering strengthens the inner man1 and enlarges one's sympathies and makes us know the love of ,god4 ,and the ,gospel tells of renewed life after going down nearly to the grave4 ,you and ,i can give thanks for both2 may ,st4 ,paul's wish be accomplished in us4' ,miss ,belcher replied3-- #8,sunday ,evening4 #8,,my ,,dear ,,miss ,,beale1--,my first few lines written by myself must be to you4 ,all through last week the ,epistle and your words about it have been such a help4 ,it was just like one of your ,scripture lessons every day all to myself4 ,i am still going on so well1 but of course it must take time1 and ,i am not out of the wood4 ,still1 as you said1 all is well and will be well4 ,thank you so much for ,lilla's letter4 ,i am so sorry she is not well1 and ,lucy ,soulsby too4 ,i am so rejoiced to hear you are so well and vigorous1 and that ,college is overflowing4 ,how wonderful it all is1 and so inspiring4 #8,i had begun ,archbishop ,benson's ,st4 ,cyprian and your book before the operation1 but have been too weak to read since4 ,i hope to begin to-morrow4 ,if you have read anything lately you think ,i should like1 will you tell me the names8 ,it must not be philosophy4 ,i hope to have the best papers of the ,church ,congress read to me4444' ,shortly after this ,miss ,belcher wrote herself on an anticipated visit from another physician3-- #8,,my ,,very ,,dear ,,friend1-- 444 ,dr4 ,robson of ,leeds comes to-morrow4 ,i know you will pray that the 8right judgment0 will be given4 ,it is thought he will operate1 but not certain4 ,please let ,eliza and ,susan ,draper know4 ,i cannot forget all ,i owe to you1 my friend and guide1 of so many years4 ,we have a private celebration to-morrow at eight1 but you will not get this in time to think of us4--,ever your loving and grateful friend1 #8,m4 ,,belcher4 #8,you shall hear as soon as possible4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,dearest ,marian1--,i have heard from ,susan4444 ,of course we can't understand1 and we only know that all is well4 ,i thought of you so much at prayers this morning4 ,i read the ,lesson instead of the ,epistle4 8,the souls of the righteous are in the hands of ,god1 and there shall no torment touch them40 ,we missed your accustomed visit on the term holiday yesterday4' 99 99 99 99 99 #8,first ,sunday in ,advent1 #ahih4 #8,,my ,,very ,,dear ,,marian1--,we were all so full of hope at first1 and are much disappointed that relief has not come1 but that you are still stretched upon the cross4 8,no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous but grievous1 yet at such times one can just think of the #8,mystery of ,pain1' and realise that each sufferer does in uniting his will with ,god's in some measure1 #8fill up that which is behind of the afflictions of ,christ 444 for ,his body's sake4'0 ,i think perhaps you may be suffering specially for one1 that her faith may be once more awakened4 ,every sufferer thus 8lifted up0 does in a measure draw the hearts of others to ,him through whom we are able to reveal the power of faith4444 ,i said to ,miss ,drummond1 8,i dare say you would not have been spared any of the suffering02 she answered so heartily1 8not one half-hour40 ,we see now what a wonderful work she did among the ,college boys1 and it must be that your suffering is a part of the work ,god has given you to do for the school1 and that you1 too1 will be enabled to say 8not one half-hour10 when the darkness passes away1 and the true light shines into the things of earth1 and we know as we are known4 ,i know that suffering so claims the attention1 but one can only know and believe1 not feel it2 but it is much to live by faith4 ,faith is the illuminating power through which alone we truly know4 ,was not ,miss ,carter's suffering felt by you to be mediatorial too1 and you are her successor4 ,i shall try to spend a few days with ,miss ,martin at ,christmas4 #8,to-day the ,jairus window comes before me2 the thought of the ,lord sending away all those who pressed round the maiden1 that she might know the advent of ,him who is the ,lord and ,giver of life4' ,the following is the last letter ,miss ,beale wrote to ,miss ,belcher3-- #8,december #e1 #ahih4 #8,,my ,,very ,,dear ,,friend1--,i have tried to write several times1 but tore up what ,i wrote4 ,susan is good in telling me about you1 and at times my heart sinks1 when ,i think of all you are suffering1 though there do seem to me to be some hopeful signs4444 ,well1 we ought not1 ,i suppose1 to wish1 we are so sure that 8in all our afflictions ,he is afflicted10 and 8the angel of ,his presence saves us10 and makes our souls strong to bear and our 8light affliction is but for a moment40 #8,i dare say this term has seemed to you unending4 ,i think when the strain of thinking about school is taken off1 you will feel stronger4 ,i hope to go to ,kilburn from ,january #e to the #ith2 there we shall think much about you4 ,i am just writing about ,st4 ,hilda's ,east4444 ,things seem going on well1 ,i think ,i shall stay there after the ,retreat1 and try to get more into touch4' ,enclosed in this letter were some verses from ,ken's #8,midnight ,hymn1' with the words1 #8,i thought you might like this if awake at night4' ,after ,miss ,belcher's death on ,december #ae1 #ahih1 ,miss ,beale wrote to ,miss ,strong3 #8,three of my noble-hearted friends gone so lately--,miss ,buss1 ,miss ,clarke1 and ,marian ,belcher4 ,the road to the ,dark ,tower gets lonely1 but we look beyond4' ,a few letters on general subjects are given4 ,the first of these was written to ,miss ,susan ,wood1 in #ahig1 in reply to an inquiry about women teachers3-- #8,i should not like to say ,i would have none but women teachers4 ,i consider a combination good1 better than either men or women only4 ,still1 if a woman is equal in knowledge and ability1 ,i consider she generally teaches better than a man4 ,if all women are ultimately forced to go to the ,university1 the higher teaching will be taken out of their hands1 or else women will teach there4' ,the following extract1 from a letter to ,miss ,sturge in ,october #aijb1 deals with the developments of the ,college3-- #8,the numbers enable us to have an aggregate of schools and to have virtually about seven who might have and ought--,headships elsewhere1 had they not an independent sphere of their own4 #8,lastly1 are you right in saying that an inspiring personality can be taken away8 ,the inspiration is not from any person who can pass away2 we are but the earthen vessels2 the light persists and is given just so long as it is needed1 to any one who has to give light4 ,the inspiration for the ,headship will be given to my successor in turn4444 #8,i do hope ,god may allow me to go on longer1 and it is a comfort to feel that you are glad ,i should4 #8,as regards the growing size of the ,college4 ,i may add in addition to what ,i have said1 that ,i have never wished independently to add to the size merely1 and that in each development ,i have felt ,i was obliged to go on1 though often ,i dreaded it2 e4g4 the training of teachers could not be refused when ,miss ,newman offered4 ,then the ,kindergarten grew up1 and the elementary teachers was really forced on one4 ,it is unprofitable in money 7the ,elementary ,school ,department71 and a great strain on me1 but ,i feel we have to do this special work4 ,in fact1 it is not our work1 but we are set here by the great ,captain1 and ,i trust we are taking our share in advancing somewhat the kingdom of truth and righteousness4 ,i cannot see that in this erection of buildings1 or in any other way1 we are acting from self1 but under direction4 ,i have not yet read the comments on the buildings1 but wanted to reply to the letter at once4' ,the following was written to ,bishop ,fraser of ,manchester1 who had publicly referred with approbation to the saying of ,thucydides1 that #8that woman was most to be admired who was least spoken of whether for good or evil'3-- #8,december #ahgh4 #8,,my ,,lord1--,we owe to you so much for education work that ,i cannot but feel sorry you should by your recent quotation from ,thucydides place before women a standard lower than the highest4 ,i felt bound to protest against it1 when a few days later ,i read a paper before the ,social ,science ,congress in my own schoolroom4 #8,will the excuse be received from us3 8,i was afraid of being spoken of for good1 and so ,i hid my talent in a napkin80 ,must we not expect that our work will be measured1 as was that of another woman by the words1 8,she hath done what she could80 ,i venture to enclose a few lines from an article of mine1 signed 8,a ,utopian10 in a ,fraser#ajf of #ahff4 ,it was provoked by the same quotation from ,thucydides in a ,quarterly of that year4--,i am1 my ,lord1 yours with sincere respect and esteem1 ,d4 ,,beale4' ,to ,mrs4 ,ashley ,smith1 at that date ,miss ,lucy ,hall1 a relation of ,bishop ,fraser's1 on the same subject3-- #8,december #ab1 #ahgh4 #8,,dear ,,lucy1--,i was glad to hear you thought you could be of use in the ,board ,school4 ,could you not teach the boys some mathematics8 ,if you could1 ,i will send you an amusing book about ,euclid4 #8,i have asked ,miss ,gore to send you a copy of what ,i wrote to the ,bishop4 ,i think he should have got his secretary just to send me a line4 ,i did not do it in a perky spirit1 but ,i felt bound to protest1 and having protested1 ,i thought ,i should rather say to him1 why4 ,many women do leave undone the things they ought to do1 because they shrink from coming forward4 ,i have done so myself4 ,if he would preach that we should do what we ought in ,god's sight1 and never trouble our heads about what people say1 when our conscience speaks1 it would be better4 ,perhaps he will think twice before he again quotes that1 and if so1 ,i shall be satisfied4 ,i would not care1 if he were not so good and clever that people listen to what he says4 ,he is1 too1 not conventional1 yet he says what may promote a wrong kind of conventionality4 ,i have since seen such a nice bit of a sermon about the idle lives that women lead2 so if you do see him1 ,i should like you to ask him about this too4 #8,you must let me know when you really get to work as manager4' ,to ,miss ,laurie1 after reading ,pasteur's ,life3-- #8#aijb4 #8,i want to have a general conference about organising our ,science work better2 we are using razors for stone-cutting4 ,i should like a great deal of the correcting taken from the 8,professoriate10 and young specialists entrusted with work under superintendence4 ,talk with ,m4 ,reid and ,a4 ,johnson4 ,we ought to let our superior minds 8expatiate10 and let me have a few notes1 as ,i can't talk much now4 ,we might bring up a body of inspirers as well as workers4 ,pasteur's life has specially excited me to ask what more we could do4 ,the teachers ought to read more of the lives of discoverers1 e4g4 ,lodge 7though that is too slight1 ,history of ,matter1 etc4 etc474 #8,if there are disadvantages in the ,london changes1 at least ,i hope we shall get more liberty2 let us try to find 8a soul of goodness in things evil40 #8,what a beautiful character is ,pasteur's4 ,i find it quite a ,sunday book4' ,to ,miss ,nixon1 on ,henry ,george's ,progress and ,poverty3-- #8,april #ahhd4 #8,i am sorry to have given you pain1 but ,i do hope you will read the writings of those who understand political economy better than we do4 ,i think if you had read about the evils which preceded the abolition of the old ,poor ,law1 you would have seen why ,i cannot approve ,mr4 ,george's plans1 and not thought that ,i desire less than you do that these miseries of the people should be lessened4 ,it is so important for us teachers to try to get right views about history2 to pray by our acts that we may have 8a right judgment in all things40 #8,it is more pathetic than anything to see people led by false hopes to follow wandering fires to their destruction2 and such1 ,i am sure1 are some of the new lights4 ,the history of the ,crusades and the ,french ,revolution ought not to have been written in vain for us4 ,there are three articles that ,i think you ought to read1--the ,duke of ,argyle's1 ,mr4 ,herbert ,spencer's1 and ,mr4 ,brodrick's1 in the last ,nineteenth ,century and ,contemporary4 #8,reforms ,i earnestly desire on laws of succession1 land transfer1 etc4 etc41 but ,i am sure that no external bettering of conditions can do good without this is the outcome of right principles1 and that people can be raised only by raising the moral standard of all4 ,perhaps we may have time to talk some day4 ,to ,mr4 ,coates after a lecture he had given at ,cheltenham3-- #8,july #ahhh4 #8,,dear ,,mr4 ,,coates1-- 444 ,what ,i especially regretted was that the lecture raised a number of questions to which it furnished no answers1 but seemed to me to suggest erroneous ones2 words were used which were not defined4 #87#a7 ,persecution2 7#b7 ,official dignity2 7#c7 ,rights of the individual in relation to the community4 #87#a7 ,now as regards persecution1 you said people could not1 if they were in earnest1 help persecuting4 ,that was equivalent to the assertion that persecution was right2 but you did not say what you understood by persecution4 ,everything depends on that to girls accustomed to associate persecution with bodily torture4 ,i think what you said would suggest wrong ideas4 ,i can't agree with your general proposition1 but of course ,i may be wrong4 #87#b7 8,a ,dog in ,office0 is to me a different being from one who has not been appointed to the charge4 ,he feels it1 and ,i feel it4 ,he respects himself more1 and by his 8investiture10 though it be only by a costermonger1 he becomes capable of acts of which he would otherwise have been incapable1 and his bearing1 in combination with his legitimate title derived from the owner of the barrow1 obtains recognition from all the street curs4 #8,i may1 of course1 be superstitious1 but ,i do regard a consecrated king1 a ,president elected deliberately by a great nation1 a man solemnly set apart to serve a church1 as in some sense different from others4 ,it seems to me that this is a matter of some importance in these days1 when the sacredness of human relationships is called in question4 ,i think we teachers cannot feel too strongly the duty of doing for thought what the feudal lords did for material forces in erecting bulwarks or breakwaters against the floods of undisciplined opinions in question1 passion clothed in rags of thought4 ,we want1 like the old alchemists1 to make the indeterminate clouds of smoke like actual forms4 #8,i do not think you and ,i really differ1 but ,i suppose the fact of my having a little kingdom has aggravated my sense of responsibility1 and ,i can't help always regarding teaching as purposeful4 ,i hold in abhorrence the maxim 8,art for ,art's sake40 ,i always want it to have a purifying influence on the character4 ,i believe you do the same1 only you are afraid of 8preaching40 #8,you will be saying1 8,i wish some one else shared my aversion10 so ,i will spare you ,no4 #c4 ,i hope you will not misunderstand me4' ,to ,mrs4 ,rix3-- #8,january #ahia4 #8,it is always an anxious thing when people of different nations marry4444 #8,i hope your good husband will not desert his post4 ,i feel sure these scientific things were given us to prevent our feeling crushed by the weight of the 8unintelligible world0 of philosophy1 and the atonement of science and philosophy is the work of our age--through nature we have to go to find the spiritual ,christ4 ,poor ,mr4 ,lant ,carpenter4 ,i wonder if it was the ,sphinx who killed him4' ,to ,sir ,joshua ,fitch1 after the death of ,miss ,buss3-- #8,july 787 #ahig4 #8,i have been thinking what ,i could write to you about ,miss ,buss4 ,i don't think ,i could send you anything that would help in an article1 or say much more than ,i have in the ,guardian4 ,i am spoken of as her life-long friend1 but ,i did not know her until long after ,i came to ,cheltenham1 a little before you joined our ,council4 ,it is said in many papers that ,i attended with her the evening classes at ,queen's ,college4 ,i never did4 ,she assisted at the evolution which transformed our governing body from a local ,committee to what it is now1 and by getting an enlarged ,council we were saved from dying of atrophy4444 #8,from that time we were intimately associated in educational movements1 and ,i ever felt that she was utterly to be trusted never to think1--much less to do anything but what was true1 straightforward1 unselfish4 ,she was deeply1 unostentatiously religious1 lived in the spirit of prayer1 and had the love of ,god in its twofold sense ever guiding her thought and actions4 ,often have we knelt together1 at her request1 the last thing at night and said together the ,veni ,creator4 #8,if ,i spoke the other day of troubles with the governing bodies--it was not from anything definite that she said to me2 but she has often1 to allay my impatience1 repeated what one of her ,governors said3 8,do you think we come here to register your decrees80 ,she received it as a deserved reproof1 though1 of course1 she must have known what was best for the school1 and never desired her selfish good1--only that of the ,school4 #8,the large view she took of the general outlook for the growing up teachers struck me much4 ,the provision for the future1 the opening of new occupations1 the health and bodily development4 ,her gymnasium1 ,i think1 she herself built and gave to the school4444 ,she had a lady doctor to examine the girls1 weigh them1 etc41 etc4 #8,the formation of the ,head-mistresses' ,association was entirely due to her4 ,the first meeting1 and1 ,i think1 the second was held at ,myra ,lodge4 ,she was very anxious about the 8,teachers' ,guild40 #8,i sat with her on the ,council of the ,church ,schools' ,company1 and was surprised at the amount of time and thought she gave to it4 ,with such solicitude she used to say1 8,my dear1 we must help these young ,head-mistresses40 ,whenever any school-mistress got into difficulties she was of such sympathy and help4 #8,then she tried so much to help her old girls1 to promote the love of reading in her staff1 to call out their helpfulness in many ways4 ,that exhibition of things made that cost nothing1 was a very original idea1 and taught economy by an object lesson4444 #8,the ways in which she used to help poor girls were hardly known to any one2 clothes she used to get sent to them1 and she had friends to whom she could mention cases where money help was needed and get it4 ,then she was not one to give up because she could not influence people by what were for her the highest motives2 but appealed to the best in them1 would give ethics when she could not give religion1 and when she spoke of wrong1 it was with a sorrow which covered the indignation4 #8,there was a real solicitude1 in spite of her many occupations1 to help all teachers4 ,she would get books to send round to other schools to help them1 and never seemed to think of any being rivals1 but rather fellow-workers4 #8,but you must know most of what ,i am saying1 for you knew her well1 and she specially loved your wife4 ,i am only writing what comes to my mind to do what ,i can2 but you see ,i have so few definite facts1 and ,i knew her only when she was full-grown in character and her work established4 #8,i think1 having a ,boarding ,house as well as a ,school was a mistake1 and she felt it so at last4 ,it was impossible for her to attend to it much herself2 and ,i think she should not have rushed off on foreign tours at ,christmas4 #8,finally1 perhaps1 ,i may say that she was1 it seemed to me1 always pained and surprised at wrong in others1 and expectant of good1 and able to see the latent good underlying the apparent evil4 ,she had the charity that hopeth all things4 #8,her generosity in money matters was very great1 especially to her family4 ,she used to speak with such joy and pride of the battles her brother fought in ,shoreditch1 and her brave sister-in-law1 and great was her affection for her nephew4 #8,forgive my incoherence please1 and take the will for the deed4' ,miss ,beale wrote but little about herself1 but in her correspondence with an intimate friend1 she would give glimpses of her own personal life1 even of her doings1 as well as of her thought and reading4 ,her letters to ,miss ,amy ,giles are the most interesting from this point of view1 covering as they do the last period of her life4 ,some extracts from these are given3-- #8,july #f1 #ahig4 #8,,dear ,,amy1--,i wonder what you will do now that you have quite lost your beloved mother4 ,i was talking with ,miss ,sewell about you1 and said ,i wished you could come and spend a week here4444 ,if you came the week after next1 perhaps you would like to stay for our ,quiet ,days at the end4' ,to the same3-- #8,august #ae1 #ahig4 #8,i have kept your letter so long1 hoping ,i might see my way to pay you a visit1 which ,i should so very much like to do1 but ,i am afraid the prospect is a diminishing one4 ,it was a great pleasure to renew my acquaintance with one whom ,i had loved as a pupil1 and to find we had grown even nearer during the intervening years4 ,it would1 too1 be a pleasure to see ,miss ,sewell1 for whom ,i have so great an admiration4 ,i will not altogether give up hopes1 but ,i am much afraid it will be impossible4 ,the work for ,longmans is to fill two hundred pages4 ,i get ordinarily a hundred and fifty letters a week on ,college business1 and now that we are beginning this ,elementary work1 there is a ,head to be found1 prospectuses to be drawn up1 the ,education ,office to be consulted1 etc41 and also the ,magazine to be edited1 and some few people ,i must see4444 #8,there are many things one has to deny one's self 8for the work's sake10 but it is worth while4 ,i cannot be too thankful for being allowed to do it4' ,to the same3-- #8,august #be1 #ahih4 #8,my sister has come home on purpose1 and ,i am spending a week with her on the hills2 my niece helping to copy the ,,ms4' ,in the summer holidays of #ahih ,miss ,beale stayed with ,miss ,giles at ,bonchurch4 ,they afterwards visited ,marlborough ,college and ,savernake ,forest together1 parting at ,marlborough station4 ,miss ,beale wrote after this to ,miss ,giles3-- #8,august #bh1 #ahih4 #8,i will own that after you were gone all things seemed colder4444 ,the doctor thought me wonderfully well1 and my ears much better than usual after so long an absence4 ,he says ,i can go to-morrow1 and highly approves of cycling if ,i can do it4444 ,may the spiritual sun ever rise for you1 my dear child1 more and more until the perfect day4' ,to the same3-- #8,september #g1 #ahih4 #8,i had some bicycle lessons at ,woodchester1 but all united in recommending tricycling instead for me4' ,to the same3-- #8,october #ahih4 #8,that cycling is wonderful1 ,i am so much better4' ,to the same3-- #8,november #ac1 #ahih4 #8,miss ,belcher is still very ill1 but yesterday brought me a gleam of hope4 ,thanks to you ,i am wonderfully well4 ,i have cycled two mornings as far as our ,sanatorium1 and got back about #h ,a4,m4 444 ,i think this renewed life must mean that there is some more work for me to do1 or that ,i want strength to bear some coming trials4444 #8,we have been getting some lectures from ,mr4 de ,slincourt1 also a son-in-law4 ,we like him very much4444 ,next ,saturday ,i have to attend six meetings4 ,i had to go to ,london lately1 and spent a night at ,st4 ,hilda's ,east2 it looks so nice1 and seems going on so well4' ,to the same3-- #8,november #bi1 #ahih4 #8,i am glad you have seen the ,chapel of the ,ascension4 ,mr4 ,shields is far the best interpreter ,i have ever seen of ,bible thoughts in pictures4444 ,thanks to you ,i am wonderfully strong this term4444 ,i have joined the ,aristotelian ,society4 ,i shall almost never1 perhaps never be able to attend the meetings1 but ,i shall get papers4444 ,miss ,belcher is still battling with the disease4 ,sometimes we hope1 and then we fear we may lose her1 but to gain time is much4' ,to the same4 ,written when there was some idea of ,miss ,giles living abroad3-- #8,may #ad1 #ahii4 #8,i don't like the idea of your being uprooted from ,england4444 ,it is different to go for a time1 but it seems to me that most ,english people who live abroad have their lives comparatively wasted4' ,to the same4 ,after alluding to the death of ,mrs4 ,moyle3-- #8,july #af1 #ahii4 #8,it seems so wonderful that ,i should be alive1 and see so many dear children pass away4' ,to the same4 ,speaking of the ,south ,african ,war3-- #8,december #bf1 #ahii4 #8,it is indeed a sad time1 and ,i don't see how it is to end2 surely we as a nation have to pass through the fire4444 ,i think all the advantages we women have had this last half century were to prepare us for some terrible trials4 ,shall we be able to look up and lift up our heads above this earth1 and know that salvation draweth nigh8 ,i think you will understand me4' ,to the same4 ,also about the ,south ,african ,war3-- #8,february #aj1 #aijj4 #8,it is difficult to keep up one's active powers with this nightmare3 one is so sure that all suffering is intended to be purifying1 and so we must glorify ,god in the fires4 ,war does seem to be waged in a more humane spirit than ever before1 that is one comfort1 and there are many others4' ,to the same4 ,miss ,giles had sent a paper for the ,magazine3-- #8,september #aijj4 #8,i feel sure ,i shall not accept ,guinevere as a subject for our magazine4 ,i am not fond of the ,idylls4' ,to the same4 ,on recovering from bronchitis3-- #8#aijc4 #8,thanks for your kind offer1 but ,i must not ask any one to stay this term2 ,i must reserve every bit of strength for the work4' ,to the same4 ,towards the end of the ,easter holidays1 when she had been confined to her room with a bronchial attack3-- #8,i have been reading a very pretty book1 ,the ,house of ,quiet4 ,now ,i have ,herbert ,spencer's ,autobiography1 which ,i am not reading1 but a friend picks out bits for me4 ,i have been going over again some old friends1 ,dr4 ,jekyl1 ,cecilia de ,noel1 etc4' ,to the same3-- #8,june #aije4 #8,i had a very enjoyable visit to ,winchester to the annual meeting of head-mistresses1 and last week ,i dined at the ,clothworkers'1 my first experience of a ,city company's dinner4 ,there were many interesting people4' ,in the summer holidays of #aije ,miss ,giles accompanied ,miss ,beale to ,oeynhausen4 ,the two following letters concern the preparation made for this visit to the ,german baths4 #8,july #aije4 #8,have you quite made up your mind not to come to the ,quiet ,days8444 remember you will have a period of spiritual starvation as regards church-going4444 #8,i mean to take as little as possible 444 we do no visiting 444 a few books ,i must have4 ,if you come1 you could write out your notes of addresses and read them to me1 as ,i am not likely to hear them4444 ,we have had twelve concerts1 and ,i was present at most of them4 ,i have not yet signed a report1 and have taken leave of only some of the about one hundred and twenty who will leave4 #8,i thought of taking ,illingworth's ,personality1--and perhaps ,lux ,mundi1 if you do not know it well2 also some ,hamlet books3 but ,i shall take chiefly light books1 in a material sense4' ,on returning from ,germany ,miss ,beale went to ,hyde ,court for her niece's wedding1 and wrote on arrival to ,miss ,giles4 #8,september #aije4 #8,lena looks lovely6' ,a letter followed describing the wedding1 and concluding thus3-- #8,the country is looking lovely--even in the rain2 but the swallows are flying about in great excitement4 ,i think they must be departing at once4 ,i wonder how long ,i shall be privileged to go on working before ,i too migrate4 ,i do hope ,i may be able to work on to the end4444' ,to the same3-- #8,september #aije4 #8,i had nightmare last night about war in ,india4 ,russia is quite ready to turn her armies into ,afghanistan1 and she is allowed to keep all ready in ,manchuria4 ,well1 one can only hope that still out of the strife will come soul evolution4' ,in ,september #aije ,miss ,beale's letters speak of exhaustion1 but others wrote of her that she was busy1 full of energy1 and #8does not seem to tire4' ,to the same4 ,speaking of her visit to ,london in the ,christmas holidays3-- #8,january #ae1 #aijf4 #8,one afternoon ,i spent with ,mrs4 ,benson1 and ,miss ,benson lent me the book recounting her digging up of the ,temple of ,mut4 ,arthur ,benson too was there1 and ,miss ,tait and ,mrs4 ,henry ,sidgwick4 #8,what a revolution we have6 ,if we had stood still things might have been as they are in ,russia4 ,one could not be satisfied with the late government1 but one dreads violent changes2 it is well there are a few strong men in the ,ministry4 ,mr4 ,balfour deserves his fate for not bringing in a re-distribution ,bill1 and for tyrannising--but one feels sorry for him too4 #8,,ps4--,think of us on ,tuesday' 7the opening day of term71 #8,i feel so weak4' ,the weakness to which ,miss ,beale alluded was destined to continue1 but amid the decay of natural health long-rooted hopes grew strong and blossomed afresh4 ,but a few weeks before her own death she wrote to a friend who had recently lost her mother3-- #8,you will miss your beloved mother1 but it is well4 ,i suppose none of us desire to live after our faculties fail4444 ,i am feeling old age is creeping on4444 ,well1 we shall soon all meet--,behind the veil1 behind the veil6' ,,footnotes #a ,,ms4 ,autobiography4--,d4 ,beale4 #b ,,ms4 autobiography4 #c #8,have you seen ,miss ,cornwallis' ,letters8 ,a very remarkable woman1 though a little uncomfortable to herself and others1 and a little too audacious now and then4 ,she wrote these ,small ,books on ,great ,subjects which were much thought of at the time1 and always considered a man's work4'--,letters of ,dr4 ,john ,brown1 ,,clxxxiv41 #8,to ,lady ,airlie4' 7,adam ,black1 #aijf47 #d ,see chap4 xv41 ,letter to the ,bishop of ,manchester4 #e ,william ,cornwallis ,harris1 ,major ,h4,e4,i4,c41 was also a cousin of ,mr4 ,beale's4 ,major ,harris saw service in ,india1 shot big game in the heart of ,africa1 was sent in charge of a mission to ,shoa in ,abyssinia1 returning after arranging a commercial treaty4 ,for this he was knighted4 ,he died in ,india in #ahdh1 aged #da4 #f ,,ms4 autobiography written about #ahie4 #g ,author of ,malvern ,chase and other works4 #h ,,ms4 autobiography4 #i ,,ms4 autobiography4 #aj ,ibid4 #aa ,,ms4 autobiography4 #ab ,on the ,education of ,girls4--,fraser's ,magazine1 ,october #ahff4 #ac ,,ms4 autobiography4 #ad ,,ms4 autobiography4 #ae ,,ms4 autobiography4 #af ,ibid4 #ag ,,ms4 autobiography4 #ah ,ibid4 #ai ,see ,appendix ,a4 #bj ,nineteenth ,century1 ,april #ahhh4 #ba ,mr4 ,carus ,wilson was ordained the following year by the ,archbishop of ,canterbury4 #bb ,bishop ,jackson4 #bc ,kaiserwerth ,deaconesses4 ,by a ,lady4 #bd ,ibid4 #be ,ibid4 #bf ,see ,appendix ,b4 #bg ,see ,appendix ,c4 #bh ,see chap4 v4 #bi ,nineteenth ,century1 #ahhh4 #cj ,mr4 ,bellairs was subsequently ,vicar of ,nuneaton1 and ,hon4 ,canon of ,worcester4 #ca ,afterwards first ,bishop of ,tasmania4 #cb #8,cheltenham is ,attica in architecture and ,botia in understanding4'--,gentleman's ,magazine1 #ahbh4 #cc #8,cheltenham3 a polka1 parson-worshipping place of which ,francis ,close is ,pope1 besides pumps and pump-rooms1 chalybeates1 quadrilles1 and one of the prettiest counties of ,britain4'--,a4 ,,tennyson1 ,letter1 #ahde4 #cd ,these were among the first in the country4 #ce ,see ,appendix ,d4 #cf ,history of ,ladies' ,college1 p4 #ab4 #cg ,these marks of omission occur in the copy of ,miss ,beale's letter left among her papers4 #ch ,history of the ,ladies' ,college1 p4 #bb4 #ci ,afterwards ,sir ,thomas ,barlow and ,sir ,william ,gull4 #dj #8,of ,queens' ,gardens1' ,sesame and ,lilies1 ,j4 ,ruskin4 #da ,see p4 #aa4 #db ,on the ,education of ,women4 ,a ,paper read by ,mr4 ,william ,grey at the meeting of the ,society of ,arts1 ,may #ca1 #ahga4 #dc ,mrs4 ,grey4 #dd ,heroic couplets4 #de ,lincoln's ,inn4 #df ,francis ,mary ,buss and ,her ,work for ,education1 ,a4 ,e4 ,ridley1 p4 #bdb4 #dg ,history of the ,ladies' ,college4 #dh ,the ,rev4 ,g4 ,h4 ,wilkinson1 ,d4,d41 then ,vicar of ,st4 ,peter's1 ,eaton ,square4 ,at his death1 ,bishop of ,st4 ,andrews and ,primus of the ,scottish ,church4 #di ,poems1 ,f4 ,w4 ,faber4 #ej #8,in ,retreat1 #ahhc4' #ea #8,building4' #eb #8,in ,retreat1 #ahhc4' #ec ,letter to a friend4 #ed ,ibid4 #ee ,in every embassy in ,europe1 in many ,government houses in our colonies1 and in several courts of ,asia1 wives and mothers are living who have drawn their earliest principles from the ideal teachings of ,dorothea ,beale4--,court ,journal1 ,november #bd1 #aijf4 #ef ,first preface4 #eg ,ibid4 #eh ,bacon's ,advancement of ,learning4 #ei ,guild ,address1 #ahhh4 #fj ,see ,bishop ,lightfoot's #8,sermon on ,st4 ,hilda1' ,c4,l4,c4 ,mag41 ,spring #ahhf4 #fa ,see ,miss ,beale's paper1 #8,st4 ,hilda's1' ,c4,l4,c4 ,mag41 ,autumn #ahhf4 #fb ,chap4 ,,viii4 #fc ,dr4 ,kitchin1 now ,dean of ,durham4 #fd ,then ,somerville ,hall4 #fe ,mrs4 ,c4 ,t4 ,mitchell1 who has from the first been connected with the ,guild work4 #ff ,now ,bishop of ,london4 #fg ,afterwards ,mrs4 ,charles ,robinson4 #fh ,even such an act as this had nothing personal in it4 #8,once1' writes an old girl1 #8,i asked ,miss ,beale to sign a photograph on the last afternoon of the term4 ,she said her hand was tired with shaking hands1 and asked if next term would do4 ,when ,i said it was a ,christmas present for ,mother1 and ,i wanted to give it complete1 she at once sat down and signed it4' #fi ,compare with this ,miss ,beale's remarks on history as an educational subject1 ,work and ,play1 p4 #aad4 #gj ,miss ,beale published some of her lectures on literature in #aijb in the volume entitled1 ,literary ,studies of ,poems ,new and ,old3 ,g4 ,bell and ,sons4 #ga ,so much did ,miss ,beale dislike a formal study of the ,bible1 that when first the ,oxford ,local ,examinations were taken in the ,college1 she induced the parents of pupils entering for them to sign a conscience clause to the effect that they did not wish their children to take a ,scripture examination4 ,the amount set for study was afterwards lessened1 and could therefore be more thoroughly taught4 ,thus her objections were minimised4 #gb ,relation of ,home to ,school ,life1 ,no4 ,,ii41 ,truth4 #gc ,work and ,play in ,girls' ,schools4 #gd ,she spoke of tennis as #8playing archery4' #ge ,at ,miss ,clarke's school in the ,christmas holidays of #ahgg1 the first ,retreat ,miss ,beale attended4 #gf ,see chap4 xv4 #gg ,death of ,miss ,newman at ,mayfield ,house4 #gh ,now ,ely ,professor of ,divinity at ,cambridge1 and ,canon of ,ely4 #gi ,frances ,mary ,buss and her ,work for ,education4 #hj ,now at ,mukti1 ,poona ,district4 #ha ,its objects are3 a systematic study of mission work in all lands2 formation of closer links with those old ,college girls who are now missionaries4 #hb ,bishop ,webb4 #hc ,in this section the methods best adapted for the secondary instruction of girls1 specially as regards ,modern ,languages and ,science1 were discussed4 #hd ,m4 ,fallires1 then ,ministre de l',instruction publique4 #he ,it is interesting to compare this opinion with those expressed in the last ,head-masters' ,conference 7,december #aijg7 by the ,head-masters of ,eton and ,winchester1 who were in the minority which would have lessened the amount of scholarship ,greek required from boys of thirteen and fourteen4 #hf ,the marvels of astronomy had always a special fascination for ,miss ,beale4 ,when the ,leonid meteors were expected on one night in #ahih the ,chief ,constable1 ,admiral ,christian1 by her wish instructed the police as soon as they appeared to ring up ,miss ,beale1 and she was to pull the alarm-bell to rouse the girls4 #hg ,the news reached ,miss ,beale two days later4 ,see ,appendix ,e4 #hh ,on ,secondary ,education4 #hi ,charles ,smith1 ,m4,a41 ,master of ,sidney ,sussex ,college4 #ij ,designed by ,mr4 ,e4 ,r4 ,robson1 ,f4,s4,a4 #ia ,raphael4 #ib ,mrs4 ,james ,owen4 #ic ,letter to ,miss ,strong4 #id ,now ,sir ,arthur ,rcker4 #ie ,queen ,margaret's ,college4 #if ,he was surreptitiously introduced into the gallery of the ,hall while ,miss ,beale was giving a lesson4 #ig ,miss ,buss4 #ih ,miss ,gretton4 #ii ,this proved to be the date of her funeral4 #ajj ,see ,letters4 #aja ,the allusion is to ,mrs4 ,charles ,robinson4 #ajb ,see ,appendix ,f4 #ajc #8,nature never lends ,the smallest scruple of her excellence1 ,but1 like a thrifty goddess1 she determines ,herself 444 ,both thanks and use4'--,measure for ,measure4 ,a favourite quotation of ,miss ,beale's4 #ajd ,after ,mrs4 ,robinson's death in #aijf1 ,miss ,beale wrote to ,canon ,robinson1 #8,i think ,i may say that ,clara was the best beloved of all my children4' #aje ,f4 ,du ,pr4 #ajf ,fraser's ,magazine1 ,october #ahff4 ,,appendix ,a1 ,page #bh4 ,a lady who attended ,dr4 ,bernays' ,german classes with ,miss ,beale has interesting recollections of her4 ,she remembers her as in appearance #8very fair and slight and interesting looking1' with a quiet dignity and attraction about her which gave her an influence2 one remarkable instance of this may be told4 ,dorothea and ,anna ,beale were once absent from the ,german class on its first meeting for a new term4 ,dr4 ,bernays said they should read ,faust1 and accordingly all the pupils brought copies of ,faust to the next class4 ,when all were seated1 ,dorothea stood up and said quietly and respectfully that she thought ,faust objectionable reading for young girls1 and suggested some other book4 ,dr4 ,bernays looked just a little annoyed1 but listened quite kindly4 ,he said it was a pity the books had been bought1 but put it to the class what should be done4 ,such was ,miss ,beale's influence that all decided to submit to her judgment4 ,,appendix ,b1 ,page #gd4 ,,titles ,,of ,,chapters ,,in ,,miss ,,beale',s ,,textbook #aheh4 ,a4,d4 ,,first ,,century4--,christianity4 0 ,,second 0 ,good ,emperors4 0 ,,third 0 ,barbarian ,invasions4 0 ,,fourth 0 ,establishment of ,christianity in the ,roman ,empire4 0 ,,fifth 0 ,fall of the ,roman ,empire4 0 ,,sixth 0 ,struggles of the ,eastern ,emperors with the ,barbarian ,kings4 0 ,,seventh 0 ,saracens4 0 ,,eighth 0 ,charlemagne4 0 ,,ninth 0 ,northmen4 0 ,,tenth 0 ,cities increase in importance4 0 ,,eleventh 0 ,hildebrand4 0 ,,twelfth 0 ,crusades4 0 ,,thirteenth 0 ,the ,age of the ,schoolmen4 0 ,,fourteenth 0 ,the ,middle ,classes increase in importance4 0 ,,fifteenth 0 ,invention of ,printing4 0 ,,sixteenth 0 ,reformation4 0 ,,seventeenth 0 ,religious ,wars4 0 ,,eighteenth 0 ,struggles for ,political ,liberty4 ,,appendix ,c1 ,page #ge4 ,a ,,page ,,of ,,miss ,,beale',s ,,self-,,examination #aheh4 ,have ,i been ,the ungodly borroweth ,most of the forms of always careful to and payeth not injustice come under the return anything again4--,ps4 xxxvii4 head of sins of the tongue2 borrowed8 #ba4 e4g41 ascribing false motives1 evil-speaking1 ,the spoil of the c4 ,cheapening1 making poor is in your houses4 bargains1 is generally ,what mean ye that ye injustice4 ,also1 delaying grind the faces of the to pay what you owe--you poor4--,is4 iii4 #ae4 may deceive yourself1 so far as to think ,woe unto him that that you are only anxious buildeth his house by to be economical1 that unrighteousness1 and you may have more to give his chambers by away2 but will it not be an wrong2 that useth his insult to ,god to offer ,him neighbours' service part of your unjust gain8 without wages1 and ,it is much more charitable giveth him not for his to pay justly1 than to work4--,is4 xvii4 #ac4 give2 but there is not so much chance of praise4 ,i will be a swift witness against them that oppress the hireling in his wages4--,mal4 iii4 #e4 ,say not unto thy neighbour go1 and come again1 and to-morrow ,i will give1 when thou hast it by thee4--,prov4 iii4 #bh4 ,have ,i indulged ,whatsoever thy ,do not leave yourself time my body hand findeth to do1 do to think about anything it by idleness1 not it with all thy is your duty to do4 rising when ,i might4--,eph4 x4 #i4 ought1 taking ,idleness1 by delaying1 unnecessary rest8 ,be not slothful in conquers2 stop to parley business4--,rom4 and you have lost the day4 xii4 #aa4 ,it is a great help in getting up1 or beginning ,wasting time ,early in the morning any occupation1 to have with unprofitable will ,i direct my some signal1 and then never or idle talking1 prayer unto ,thee1 and allow yourself one second or reading8 will look up4--,ps4 after4 ,be careful to make some fixed arrangement ,allowing idle ,rising a great while of your time1 as far as thoughts to run before day1 ,he departed possible2 at any rate1 on unchecked8 into a solitary put in as many landmarks place1 and there as you can in the day2 but ,refusing prompt prayed4--,s4 ,matt4 do not praise yourself and cheerful i4 #ce4 for your conscientious obedience because arrangement of your time1 unwilling to or you will find1 in a few give up some days1 that you have become interesting quite unpunctual4 occupation8 ,,appendix ,d1 p4 #ij ,,prospectus ,,of ,,the ,,cheltenham ,,college ,,for ,,young ,,ladies ,,november #a1 #ahec ,,prospectus ,,of ,,the ,,cheltenham ,,college ,,institution ,,for ,,the ,,education ,,of ,,young ,,ladies ,,and ,,of ,,children ,,under ,,eight ,,years ,,of ,,age2 ,cambray ,house4 ,committee3 ,,rev4 ,h4 ,w4 ,,bellairs1 ,m4,a41 one of ,h4,m4's ,inspectors of ,schools1 #c1 ,priory ,parade4 ,,rev4 ,w4 ,,dobson1 ,m4,a41 ,principal of the ,cheltenham ,college1 #b1 ,sandford ,place4 ,,rev4 ,h4 ,a4 ,,holden1 ,m4,a41 ,vice ,principal of the ,cheltenham ,college1 ,fellow and late ,assistant ,tutor of ,trinity ,college1 ,cambridge1 ,the ,queen's ,hotel4 ,,lieut4-,,col4 ,,fitzmaurice1 ,k4,h41 #ad1 ,royal ,crescent4 ,s4 ,e4 ,,comyn1 ,,esq41 ,m4,d41 #d1 ,berkeley ,place4 ,,nath4 ,,hartland1 ,,esq41 ,the ,oaklands1 ,charlton ,kings4 ,honorary ,secretary3 ,,rev4 ,,hubert ,a4 ,,holden1 ,m4,a4 ,treasurer3 ,,nathaniel ,,hartland1 ,,esq4 ,the ,,committee are now able to publish a detailed ,prospectus of the ,course and ,arrangements of this ,institution1 with the ,hours and ,terms for the various ,departments and ,classes4 ,the management of the educational ,working of the ,college1 which it is proposed to open after the ensuing ,christmas ,vacation1 will be committed to a ,,lady ,,principal to be assisted by ,teachers and ,professors1 appointed by the ,committee4 ,,fees1 ,,payable ,,half ,,yearly ,,in ,,advance4 ,the ,pupils of the ,institution will be arranged in ,,four ,,divisions1 according to attainments2 and the terms will be regulated according to the following scale3-- ,,for ,,the ,,first ,,division #ab ,guineas for the ,half ,yearly ,session4 ,,for ,,the ,,second ,,division #i ,guineas 0 0 ,,for ,,the ,,third ,,division #f ,guineas 0 0 ,,for ,,the ,,fourth ,,division #d ,guineas 0 0 ,children will be admitted after the completion of their ,fourth year2 but ,boys must be withdrawn on the completion of their ,seventh year4 ,,regular ,,course ,,of ,,study3 ,,holy ,,scripture ,,and ,,the ,,liturgy ,,of ,,the ,,church ,,of ,,england1 ,the ,,principles ,,of ,,grammar and the ,elements of ,,latin1 ,,arithmetic1 ,,calisthenic ,,exercises1 ,,drawing1 ,,french1 ,,geography1 ,,history1 ,,music1 ,,needlework4 ,,extra ,,and ,,bye ,,course ,,of ,,study3 ,,german1 ,,italian1 ,,dancing4 ,for ,pupils desirous of availing themselves of extra ,lessons in ,,music and ,,drawing from ,professors attached to the ,college1 extra ,classes will be formed and extra charges made4 ,,extra ,,or ,,bye ,,students4 ,students1 not engaged in the ,regular ,routine of the ,college ,course1 will be at liberty to attend the ,bye ,course of ,study and also the extra ,classes in ,,music and ,,drawing4 ,such ,students may be nominated upon either ,ordinary or ,bye ,shares 7issued at #aj each71 and will be required to pay a ,fee of ,two ,guineas a year to the ,college1 exclusive of the ,fee to the ,professor4 ,,hours ,,of ,,attendance4 ,,morning4--,from a ,quarter past ,nine to a ,quarter past ,twelve4 ,,afternoon4--,from ,half-past ,two to ,half-past ,four4 7,wednesday and ,saturday ,half ,holidays47 ,children under ,seven ,years of ,age will attend in the ,mornings only4 ,members of ,classes for ,religious ,instruction under the ,parochial ,clergy1 will be excused attendance at the ,college on ,monday ,afternoons4 ,,boarding ,,houses for the reception of ,pupils will be opened1 with the sanction of the ,committee1 in the immediate neighbourhood of ,,cambray ,,house1 under the ,superintendence of the following ,ladies3--,mrs4 ,,murgeaud1 #g1 ,oriel ,terrace2 ,miss ,,atkinson1 of ,kingsbridge1 ,devon42 ,mrs4 ,,trew1 of ,stoneham ,house1 ,bath ,road4 ,the ,charge for ,boarders is #ce per annum4 ,extras3 ,washing #d1 #ds42 ,seat in ,church #a1 #as4 ,a few of the ,fifty #bj ,shares remain to be disposed of2 application for which should be made to the ,hon4 ,secretary4 ,the ,proprietors of such ,shares will have the option of nominating either one ,regular or two ,bye ,students4 ,several ,teachers and ,professors have been appointed1 the announcement of whose names is deferred for the present1 till the list is complete4 ,november #a1 #ahec4 ,,appendix ,e1 ,page #ccb4 ,,edward ,,beale4 ,the ,reverend ,edward ,beale1 a member of the ,society of ,st4 ,john the ,evangelist1 ,cowley1 died at ,mazagon1 ,bombay ,presidency1 on ,february #c1 #ahid4 ,he was a younger brother to whom ,miss ,beale was much attached4 ,his early promise of a brilliant career was cut short by severe illness while he was still an undergraduate at ,oxford4 ,for years he was wholly incapacitated1 but on recovering partial health he received deacon's orders1 and before joining ,st4 ,john's ,society1 worked for a time at ,warminster4 ,here he gave the addresses afterwards published under the title of ,the ,mind of ,christ4 ,from ,cowley ,mr4 ,beale was sent to the ,society's ,mission in ,bombay4 ,he was much beloved and looked up to by those among whom he worked4 ,at the time of his death 7which occurred after a very short illness7 he was engaged to read a paper at the coming ,diocesan ,conference on #8,the ,necessity of ,faith in the ,church as the ,fullest ,possible ,manifestation of the ,life of ,god in ,creation4' ,his funeral was attended by a crowd of the poorest poor4 ,the following lines in her brother ,edward's handwriting1 found among ,miss ,beale's papers1 seem to be undoubtedly original1 and to tell the history of his consecrated life3-- ,,india--,,written ,,in ,,illness1 #ahhd4 ,once ,i was wont to prize ,glance from approving eyes1 ,and sun myself too fondly in their light4 ,too eager to entwine ,the flowers about ,love's shrine ,with pulses throbbing with a wild delight4 ,and one who loved me said1 ,with voice of boding dread1 #8,oh child1 these hopes will fade1 these flowers will die1 ,and what will then remain ,to ease the long1 slow pain1 ,unless your heart be lifted up on high8 444 ,once when ,i heard a name ,of high heroic fame1 ,of lives of lasting influence for good1 ,i felt my heart on fire ,with one long vague desire ,to join the ranks of those who have withstood4 ,but now ,i do not ask ,for such heroic task1 ,my heart is all too faint to stand the glare1 ,my eyes too weak to see ,the path laid out for me1 ,i only wait and feel that ,one is there4 444 ,one1 at whose blessed feet ,i lie in silence sweet ,perhaps unheeded as the world goes by1 ,there only lying still ,waiting to know ,his ,will1 ,till ,he shall bend on me ,his gracious eye4 ,then in that glorious gleam ,shall every earthborn dream1 ,darkness1 delusion1 doubt all flee away3 ,truth shall be brought to light1 ,faith shall be lost in sight1 ,in the clear shining of the perfect day6 ,,appendix ,f1 ,page #cfh4 ,the following notice by an old pupil1 now a head-mistress1 appeared in the ,times of ,november #ag3-- #8,miss ,beale's personality made itself everywhere strongly felt1 but most of all in her own school4 ,even in later days1 when she could come in contact with a very small minority of the #ajjj under her care1 her absence was felt by all as a loss of moral support1 almost a lessening of tension4 ,strenuousness was a dominant note of the tone she inspired by the force of her own vitality1 and1 to use a favourite word of her own1 she was always 8energizing0 the school4 ,and it told4 8,i am sending my girl to ,cheltenham10 said one1 8because ,i find that those who have been there do their work--paid or unpaid--with thoroughness and attention to detail10 and others paid the same testimony to the training4 ,this thoroughness was eminently characteristic of ,miss ,beale's own work4 ,to the end she prepared her lessons with the same care she would have asked from the merest beginner in teaching4 ,her correspondence was unlimited1 and an astonishing amount of it was written in her own hand4 ,she superintended every detail of the building which she loved--which was indeed her hobby4 ,while allowing her subordinates much scope and encouraging suggestion1 she kept the threads of the intricate organisation in her own hands4 ,her physical energy was only second to her force of will1 though her 8spirit0 was pathetically shown in latter days by her refusal to accept the limitations set by failing health4 8,we have talked for three minutes about my health10 she said to one who saw her after a serious illness1 8let us speak of something more interesting40 ,and1 though she had lost the sight of one eye1 and was so deaf that listening to others reading must have been a strain rather than a pleasure1 she still continued to read every book of importance as it appeared4 ,her intellectual vigour was fresh to the end1 and her keen interest in every new branch of learning unimpaired4 ,she would plunge on a railway journey into a discussion of the last book on psychology1 or demonstrate the latest method of teaching shorthand4 ,she was astonishingly young in thought1 always 8up to date10 and often in advance of the general progress4 #8,her personal influence1 though strong1 and in some cases almost overpowering1 was peculiarly free from any weakening element4 ,she did not encourage demonstration1 and1 though in later years she allowed her tenderness more play1 the atmosphere about her was always bracing4 ,perhaps she was more in touch with the strong than the weak4 ,she had little understanding of1 or sympathy with any form of frivolity1 still less of flippancy4 ,she made decisions herself on principles always1 and she expected the same from others4 ,very often she induced it by her mere expectation1 and so made the weak strong4 ,it was this partly which made so many come to her for the advice which was given at the cost of any amount of time or trouble to any 8old girl40 ,and1 though she never sought1 or perhaps enjoyed1 popularity in the ordinary sense of the word1 many who had feared her in their school-days1 grew afterwards to love her as well as to admire her1 and often to depend on her4 ,she had a great reverence for the conscience of each with whom she dealt4 ,she brought up her 8children0 to think for themselves1 and1 though naturally disappointed when they differed from her1 she always acknowledged their right to hold their own opinions4 ,she was incapable of pettiness1 and nothing could exceed her generosity in owning herself mistaken4 ,indeed she loved a fair fight1 and greatly appreciated an honourable opponent1 and she welcomed as fellow-workers those of very different views from herself1 and had1 indeed1 the most wonderful power of discovering worth in all4 #8,much of her outward success was due1 no doubt1 to her shrewd business capacity--her physique1 her intellectual strength1 her single-minded absorption in the cause of education1 and its concrete embodiment in her own school4 ,but the real success1 her power of inspiring others1 was due to her greatness of character4 ,the ,guild meetings1 at which there was often an attendance of some hundreds of old girls1 were the source of inspiration to many4 8,i come back feeling a poor thing1 but knowing that great things are possible10 was the feeling of many1 if not expressed in these words4 ,and this was due1 not to her organising power1 nor even to her freshness of thought1 but to her spiritual genius4 ,she was a seer1 perhaps1 rather than a prophet1 for1 though of original mind1 she found accurate expression of thought difficult4 8,i never understood ,miss ,beale's ,scripture lessons10 said an old pupil1 8they were so vague2 but ,i always felt a bigness of thought about them1 and sometimes the meaning of things she said begins to dawn on me now40 ,her religious life was not expressed formally2 but it was beyond all doubt a real force and the source of her strength4 ,the feeling was there and was intense4 ,years after she could not speak without tears of a time of doubt and uncertainty4 ,she was rapt in prayer1 and at times fervent to passion4 ,it was with absolute reality that she taught that the important thing was to know and do the will of ,god1 and it is this above all else which is causing thousands of her children to 8rise up and call her blessed40' ,the following extract is from a notice in the ,guardian of ,november #ba1 #aijf3-- ,,dorothea ,,beale4 ,,in ,,thankful ,,remembrance4 #8,miss ,beale is dead4 ,to many of us who loved and reverenced her1 death seems the wrong word to use1 she looked forward with such loving hopefulness to the great time of direct revelation1 that one would rather 7following ,dr4 ,pusey's practice7 call her deathday her last and greatest birthday4 ,much has been said and written of her work--comparatively little of her personality4 ,as one who was honoured by her friendship for over thirty years1 ,i would ask for a little space in which to describe her4 ,her most marked characteristic was her profound reverence for truth4 ,if truth hurt her1 none the less did she accept it loyally4 ,this sanctified her scholarship4 ,her generous gratitude to all who in any way helped her evidenced her large-heartedness4 ,especially did she remember her father's indirect1 unconscious teaching4444 #8,among the most treasured memories of the present writer are those of certain ,sunday afternoons spent at ,cheltenham with ,miss ,beale1 her great friend1 ,miss ,buss1 and another friend who has also entered into rest4 ,after saying the ,veni ,creator together we talked with perfect openness of those things we most loved and dreaded4 ,this close personal communion with such personalities as those of our two great leaders was at once a privilege and a responsibility4 ,mention has been made elsewhere of ,miss ,beale's reading at ,college prayers4 ,even more penetratingly beautiful was her reading on some of those afternoons4 ,in a time of great trouble she read to us ,kingsley's ,st4 ,maura4 ,and the pathos with which she lingered on the words1 8,who ever found the ,cross a pleasant bed80 made1 at least on one of her hearers1 an indelible impression4 #8,perhaps the words which most adequately describe her whole life are1 8,i have set ,god always before me40 ,she has been1 and still is1 to those who knew her1 a true ,dorothea--the gift of ,god4' ,e4 ,t4 ,,day4 ,,index ,address to ,parents1 #aee4 ,aitken1 ,miss ,v41 #beh4 ,aldrich-,blake1 ,dr41 #ceg1 #cfb1 #cfc4 ,alston1 ,miss1 #cj1 #dj1 #fb1 #gi1 #ig1 #ih4 ,alverstone1 ,lord1 #cdj4 ,ambleside1 #ccc1 #chh4 ,andrews1 ,miss ,a41 #cbb1 #cbc1 #cdj1 #cdd1 #ced1 #ceh1 #cei1 #cfa4 ,anglique1 ,la ,mre1 #bbf4 ,arnold1 ,miss ,c41 #afa1 #agc1 #bdf1 #bfg1 #bfh1 #bhj1 #bhb1 #bhc1 #cgb-chi4 ,asquith1 ,mr41 #cdj1 #cda4 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