,*>les ,franks1 ,*>les ,ald>ondo & ! ,onl9e ,di/ribut$ ,pro(read+ ,team4 ,,?omas ,,w+fold1 ,,curate4 ,by ,george ,mac,donald1 ,,ll4,d4 ,,9 ,,?ree ,,volumes4 ,,vol ,,iii4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,aft] ,,! ,,s]mon4 ,z ! s]mon drew to a close1 & ! mi/ ( 8 emotion began to disp]se1 individual faces ( 8 audi5ce aga9 dawn$ out on ! prea*]'s k54 ,mr4 ,drew's head 0 d[n4 ,z ,i h always said1 c]ta9 ?+s he _h be5 taught 9 8 y\?1 & _h practis$ 9 8 manhood1 c]ta9 mean ways c\nt$ hone/ en\gh 9 ! trade1 _h become to him1 reg>d$ f ! ideal po9t ( ! div9e 9 m]*&ize--su* a m]*&ize1 namely1 z ! %>e ! son ( man might h tak5 9 buy+ & sell+1 _h 8 reput$ fa!r be5 a %op-keep] in/ead ( a c>p5t]--absolutely hateful1 & ! memory ( !m intol]able4 ,nor did x relieve him mu* to rem9d himself ( ! fact1 t he knew n to ! full ! nature ( ! advantages he took1 = he knew t he _h kn[n !m su* z %runk f ! light1 n com+ !reto to be made manife/4 ,he 0 n[ do+ 8 be/ to bani% !m f 8 bus9ess1 & yet !y 7 a pa9ful pres5ce to 8 _s--s griev\s to be borne1 t ! prospect held out by ! prea*] ( an absolute & f9al deliv]ance f !m by ! indwell+ pres5ce ( ! ,god ( all liv+ m5 & true m]*ants1 0 a bless$ness unspeakable4 ,small 0 ! suspicion 9 ! ,abbey ,*ur* ( ,ola/on t morn+1 t ! well-kn[n successful man ( bus9ess 0 weep+4 ,:o c\ld once h imag9$ ano!r reason = ! lay+ ( t r\nd1 good-hum\r$1 cont5t$ face d[n on ! book-bo>d1 ?an pure dr[s9ess f lack ( "w-day int]e/6 ,yet !re 0 a human s\l cry+ out aft] its bir?right4 ,oh1 to be clean z a m\nta9-riv]6 clean z ! air above ! cl\ds1 or on ! middle seas6 z ! ?robb+ ae!r t fills ! gulf betwixt /> & />6--nay1 z ! ?\ght ( ! ,son ( ,man himself1 :o1 to make all ?+s new & clean1 /ood up aga9/ ! old batt]y ( s9-sprung suff]+1 )/&+ & endur+ & /ill+ ! recoil ( ! awful =ce :]e) 8 ,fa!r _h laun*$ ! worlds1 & giv5 bir? to human s\ls ) wills t might become free z 8 own6 ,:ile ,w+fold _h be5 speak+ 9 g5]al t]ms1 ) ! race 9 8 m9d's1 & ! congregation 9 8 body's eye1 he _h yet ?\ght m ( "o s\l1 ) its "o crime & its intol]able burd51 ?an all ! re/3 ,leopold 0 ev] pres5t to him1 & :ile he /rove to avoid absorption 9 a p]sonal int]e/ h[ev] ju/ifiable1 x 0 ( necessity t ! ?\ght ( ! mo/ burd5$ s9n] he knew %\ld col\r ! :ole ( 8 utt]ance4 ,at times inde$ he felt z if he 7 speak+ to him imm$iately--& to him only2 at o!rs1 al?\gh !n he saw h] no m ?an him1 t he 0 com=t+ ! si/] individually1 9 hold+ out to h] bro!r ! mighty hope ( a re/or$ purity4 ,& :5 once m 8 m9d c\ld receive ! messages br\ght home by 8 eyes1 he saw ^u ,hel5's face ! r$ sunset ( a rapt li/5+4 ,true x 0 already fad+ away1 b ! eyes _h wept1 ! gl[ yet hung ab\t *eek & =ehead1 & ! firm m\? _h =gott5 itself into a tremul\s =m1 :i* ! /illness ( absorption _h !re = ! mom5t fix$4 ,b ev5 already1 al?\gh he c\ld n yet read x ^u h] c\nt5ance1 a snake _h begun to lift its head f ! *aotic swamp :i* runs a creek at lea/ into e s\l1 ! rudim5t>y desolation1 a remnant ( ! "t :5 ! _w 0 )\t =m & void4 ,& ! snake said3 ,:y1 !n1 did he n speak l t to my ,leopold8 ,:y did he n com=t him ) su* a good hope1 well-becom+ a prie/ ( ! g5tle ,jesus8 ,or1 if he fanci$ he mu/ speak ( confession1 :y did he n speak ( x 9 pla9 hone/ t]ms1 in/ead ( sugge/+ ! idea ( x s t ! poor boy imag9$ x came f 8 own _s1 & mu/ !re=e be obey$ z ! w ( ,god8 ,s said ! snake1 & by ! "t ,hel5 _h walk$ home ) h] aunt1 ! gl[ _h sunk f h] s\l1 & a gray w9try mi/ _h settl$ d[n ^u h] _s4 ,& %e said to h]self t if ?is la/ hope 9 ,george %\ld fail h]1 %e w\ld n all[ ! matt] to tr\ble h] any f>!r2 %e 0 a free woman1 & z ,leopold _h *os5 o!r c\nsellors1 _h ?us decl>$ h] unwor?y ( confid5ce1 &1 aft] all t %e _h suff]$ & done = love ( him1 _h turn$ away f h]1 %e w\ld put money 9 h] purse1 set out = ,france or ,italy1 & leave him to ! fate1 :atev] x might be1 :i* 8 new advis]s & 8 own ob/9acy might br+ ^u him4 ,0 ! innoc5t b\nd to %>e ! %ame ( ! guilty8 ,_h %e n done en\gh8 ,w\ld ev5 h] fa!r require m ( h] ?an %e _h already done & endur$8 ,:51 !re=e1 %e w5t into ,leopold's room1 & 8 eyes s\ght h] f ! c\*1 %e took no notice t he _h got up & dress$ :ile %e 0 at *ur*2 & he knew t a cl\d _h come betwe5 !m1 & t aft] all %e _h borne & done = him1 he & 8 si/] 7 n[ f>!r ap>t1 = ! "t at lea/1 ?an :5 oceans lay betwixt _! bir? & _! meet+2 & he f\nd himself look+ back ) vague long+ ev5 to ! t]rible old h\se ( ,gla/on1 & ! %>+ ( _! agony !re94 ,8 eyes foll[$ h] z %e walk$ across to ! dress+-room1 & ! te>s rose & fill$ !m1 b he said no?+4 ,& ! si/] :o1 all ! "t ( ! s]mon1 _h be5 fill$ ) wave ^u wave ( wi%+--t ,poldie c\ld he> ?is1 c\ld he> t1 c\ld h su* a ?\ght to com=t him1 su* a lovely ^w to drive ! horror f 8 s\l1 n[ ca/ on him a *illy glance1 & said nev] a ^w ( ! ?+s to :i* %e _h li/5$ ) su* heav+s ( ! _s-ocean2 = %e felt1 ) an in/9ct m righte\s ?an h] w1 t !y w\ld b /r5g!n him 9 8 det]m9ation to d :atev] ! tea*] ( !m might approve4 ,z %e repass$ him to g to ! draw+-room1 %e did inde$ say a ^w ( k9dness2 b x 0 9 a =c$ tone1 & 0 only ab\t 8 d9n]6 ,8 eyes ov]-fl[$1 b he %ut 8 lips s tight t 8 m\? grew grim ) det]m9ation1 & no m te>s came4 ,to ! fri5d :o jo9$ h] at ! *ur*-door1 &1 9 ,george ,bascombe's abs5ce1 walk$ ) !m along ,p9e ,/reet1 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn rem>k$ t ! curate 0 c]ta9ly a mo/ dang]\s man--p>ticul>ly = "y p to he>--he s conf\nd$ all ! l&m>ks ( "r & wrong1 repres5t+ ! hone/ man z no bett] ?an ! ?ief1 & ! murd]] z no worse ?an anybody else--tea*+ p 9 fact t ! be/ ?+ !y c\ld d 0 to commit "s t]rible crime1 9 ord] !reby to atta9 to a bett] innoc5ce ?an )\t x c\ld ev] be !irs4 ,h[ f> %e mi/ook1 or h[ f> %e knew or suspect$ t %e spoke falsely1 ,i w n pret5d to "k4 ,b al?\gh %e spoke z %e did1 !re 0 some?+1 ei!r 9 ! curate or 9 ! s]mon1 t _h quiet$ h] a little1 & %e 0 less contemptu\s 9 h] condemnation ( him ?an usual4 ,happily bo? = himself & o!rs1 ! curate 0 n "o ( ^? :o cripple ! tru? & bl9d _! own s\ls by "s crav5 scruple ,( ?9k+ too precisely on ! ev5t-- ,a ?\ght :i*1 qu>t]$1 ha? b "o "p wisdom1 ,& ev] ?ree p>ts c[>d2 & h5ce1 9 proportion z he r\s$ ! hone/1 he gave occasion to ! di%one/ to cavil & condemn4 ,imag9e ,/4 ,paul hav+ a prevision ( h[ he w\ld be misund]/ood1 ,,& ,,he$+ ,,x6--:at w\ld !n h become ( all ^? 8 mo/ magnific5t outbur/s8 ,& w\ld any am\nt ( apo/olic c>efulness h protect$ him8 ,i suspect x w\ld only h giv5 rise to m vulg> misund]/&+s & misrepres5tations /ill4 ,to expla9 to him :o loves n1 is b to give him ! m pl5tiful mat]ial = mis9t]pretation4 ,let a man h tru? 9 ! inw>d p>ts1 & out ( ! abundance ( 8 he>t let 8 m\? speak4 ,if !n he %\ld h gr\nd to fe> hone/ misund]/&+1 let him prea* aga9 to en=ce ! tru? = :i* he is jeal\s1 & if x %\ld seem to any t ! two utt]ances ne$ reconcil+1 let ^? :o w\ld h !m consi/5t reconcile !m = !mselves4 ,! reason ( ,george ,bascombe's abs5ce f *ur* t morn+ 01 t1 aft] an e>ly breakfa/1 he _h m\nt$ ,hel5's m>e1 & set out to call on ,mr4 ,hook] be=e he %\ld h gone to *ur*4 ,hel5 expect$ him back to d9n]1 & 0 anxi\sly look+ = him4 ,s also 0 ,leopold1 b ! hopes ( ! two 7 diff]5t4 ,at l5g? ! m>e's ho(s e*o$ ?r\gh all ,sunday ,gla/on1 & pres5tly ,george rode up4 ,! groom took 8 horse 9 ! /reet1 & he came into ! draw+-room4 ,hel5 ha/5$ to meet him4 ,well1 ,george8 %e said1 anxi\sly4 ,oh1 x's all "r6--w be at lea/1 ,i am sure4 ,i w tell y all ab\t x 9 ! g>d5 aft] d9n]4--,aunt has ! good s5se nev] to int]rupt u !re1 he add$4 ,i'll j run & %[ myself to ,leopold3 he mu/ n suspect t ,i am ( y\r p>ty & play+ him false4 ,n t x is false1 y "k6 = two negatives make a positive1 & to fool a mad-man is to give him fair play4 ,! words j>r$ sorely on ,hel5's e>4 ,bascombe hurri$ to ,leopold1 & in=m$ him t he _h se5 ,mr4 ,hook]1 & t all 0 arrang$ = tak+ him ov] to 8 place on ,tuesday morn+1 if by t "t he %\ld be able = ! j\rney4 ,:y n to-morr[8 said ,leopold4 ,i am q able4 ,oh6 ,i told him y 7 n v /rong4 ,& he want$ a run aft] ! h\nds to-morr[4 ,s we judg$ x bett] put (f till ,tuesday4 ,leopold gave a sigh1 & said no m4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,bascombe ,,& ,,! ,,magi/rate4 ,aft] d9n]1 ! c\s9s w5t to ! summ]-h\se1 & !re ,george gave ,hel5 8 report1 reveal+ 8 plan & hope = ,leopold4 ,su* fancies mu/ be hum\r$1 y "k1 ,hel54 ,!re is no?+ to be ga9$ by oppos+ !m1 he said4 ,hel5 look$ at him ) ke5 eyes1 & he return$ ! gaze4 ,! confid5ce betwixt !m 0 n p]fect3 ea* 0 d\btful z to ! ?\ght ( ! o!r1 & nei!r ask$ :at x 04 ,a f9e old cock is ,mr4 ,hook]6 said ,greorge2 a jolly1 good-natur$1 brick-fac$ squire2 a tory ( c\rse1 & a s\nd *ur*-man2 z simple z a baby1 & took ev]y?+ ,i told him )\t a h9t ( d\bt or objection2--j ! sort ( man ,i expect$ to f9d him6 ,:5 ,i m5tion$ my "n1 c41 he f\nd he _h kn[n my fa!r1 & t gave me a good />t4 ,!n ,i laud$ 8 av5ue1 & apologiz$ = tr\bl+ him s e>ly & on ,sunday too1 b said x 0 a pure "w ( m]cy 9 :i* ,i begg$ 8 assi/ance--z a magi/rate1 ,i add$1 le/ he %\ld fancy ,i _h come aft] a subscription4 ,x 0 a v delicate case1 ,i said1 9 :i* 7 conc]n$ ! *ildr5 ( a man ( :om he _h1 ,i believ$1 at "o "t kn[n some?+--,g5]al ,l+>d4 ',to be sure6' he cri$2 'knew him v well2 a f9e fell[--b ha/y1 sir--ha/y 9 8 temp]6' ,i said ,i _h nev] kn[n him myself1 b "o ( 8 *ildr5 0 my c\s92 ! o!r 0 ! *ild ( 8 second wife1 a ,h9doo lady un=tunately1 & x 0 ab\t him ,i presum$ to tr\ble him4 ,!n ,i plung$ into ! matt] at once1 tell+ him t ,leopold _h _h viol5t bra9-fev]1 br\ght on by a horrible drug1 ! use ( :i*1 if use ,i d>e call x1 he _h le>nt 9 ,india2 & t1 al?\gh he _h recov]$ f ! fev]1 x 0 v d\btful if ev] he w\ld recov] f ! consequ5ces ( x1 = t he _h become ! prey ( a fix$ idea1 ! h>d deposit f a heat$ imag9ation4 ',& pray :at is ! idea8'he ask$4 ',nei!r m nor less1' ,i answ]$1 '?an t he is a murd]]6'--',god bless me6' he cri$1 some:at to my al>m1 = ,i _h be5 mak+ all ?is preamble to prejudice ! old g5tleman 9 ! "r direction1 le/ aft]w>ds ,leopold's plausibility might be too mu* = him4 ,s ,i e*o$ ! _s ( 8 exclamation1 decl>+ x 0 "o ( ! sadde/ ?+s ,i _h ev] kn[n1 t a fell[ ( su* sweet & g5tle nature1 "o utt]ly incapable ( unk9dness1 n to say viol5ce1 %\ld be s possess$ by mis]y & remorse = a phantom-de$1 no m 8 ?an if he _h dream$ x1 a ?+ he n only did n d1 b nev] c\ld h done4 ,i _h n yet h[ev] told him1 ,i said1 :at 0 p]haps ! sadde/ po9t 9 ! :ole sad /ory--namely1 t ! attack _h be5 br\ght on by ! news ( ! actual murd] ( a lady to :om he _h be5 passionately atta*$2 ! horror ( x _h unh+$ 8 reason1 !n turn$ & fa/5$ ^u 8 imag9ation2 s t he 0 n[ conv9c$ beyond ! rea* ( argum5t or ev5 ! cle>e/ pro(1 t x 0 8 own h& t drove ! knife to h] he>t4 ,!n ,i recall$ to 8 memory ! case z report$1 add+ t ! fact ( ! murd]]'s prolong$ evasion ( ju/ice1 appe>$1 by "s curi\s leg]dema9 ( 8 excit$ fancy1 if n to h sugge/$-- ( t ,i 0 d\btful--yet to h rip5$ 8 conviction ( guilt4 ,n[ no?+ w\ld s]ve him b he mu/ give himself up1 confess--no1 t 0 n a true ^w 9 8 case6--accuse himself ( ! crime1 & meet 8 fate on ! gall[s1--'9 ! hope1 obs]ve1 my de> sir1' ,i said1 '( f9d+ h] 9 ! o!r _w1 & !re mak+ x up ) h]6'--',god bless me6' he cri$ aga91 9 a tone ( absolute horror4 ,& e n[ & !n1 :ile ,i spoke1 he w\ld ejaculate some?+2 & /ill z he li/5$ 8 eyes grew m & m blood%ot ) int]e/ & compassion4 ',ah1 ,i see6' he said !n2 'y want to s5d him to a madh\se8--,don't d x1' he cont9u$1 9 a tone ( expo/ulation1 almo/ entreaty4 ',poor boy6 ,he may get ov] x4 ,let 8 fri5ds look to him4 ,he has a si/]1 y say8' ,i quickly reassur$ him1 tell+ him su* 0 no "o's desire1 & say+ ,i w\ld come to ! po9t 9 a mom5t1 only !re 0 "o ?+ m :i* _h int]e/$ me greatly1 z reveal+ h[ a bra9 9 su* a condition w befool itself1 all b g5]at+ two individualities4--,!re ,i am afraid ,i put my foot 9 x1 b he 0 f> too simple to see x 0 clov5--ha6 ha6 & ,i ha/5$ to rem>k t1 z a magi/rate1 he mu/ h numb]less opportunities ( not+ simil> ph5om5a4 ,he wav$ 8 h& 9 deprecation1 & ,i ha/5$ to rem>k t1 up to a c]ta9 po9t1 :atev] h9t ! newspap]s _h giv51 ,leopold _h exp&$ & connect$ ) e o!r1 b t at "o "p ( ! /ory ,i _h f\nd him entirely at fault3 he c\ld n tell :at he did1 :]e he w5t1 or h[ he _h felt1 fir/ aft] ! de$ 0 done4 ,he confess$ all aft] t 0 a blank until he f\nd himself 9 b$4 ,b :5 ,i told him some?+ he _h n se5--:i* 8 wor%ip might rememb]--! te/imony namely ( ! coa/-gu>dsm5--ab\t ! fi%+-boat ) ! two m5 9 x--,i _h "h to refre% 8 memory z to ! :ole ( t circum/ance--& did s by h&+ him ! newspap] conta9+ x--t 0 :at ,i made y give me ! pap] =--,i h lo/ ! ?read ( my s5t5ce1 b nev] m9d4 ,i told him !n some?+ ,i h n told y yet1 ,hel51 namely1 t :5 ,i happ5$ to allude to t portion ( ! /ory1 ,leopold />t$ up ) fla%+ eyes1 & exclaim$1 ',n[ ,i rememb]6 ,x all comes back to me z cle> z day4 ,i rememb] runn+ d[n ! hill1 & jump+ into ! boat j z !y %ov$ (f4 ,i 0 exhau/$1 & fell d[n 9 ! /]n4 ,:5 ,i came to myself1 ! two m5 7 =w>d3 ,i saw _! legs b5ea? ! sails4 ,i ?\ght !y w\ld be sure to give me up1 & at once ,i slipp$ ov]bo>d4 ,! wat] reviv$ me1 b :5 ,i rea*$ ! %ore1 ,i fell d[n aga91 & lay !re ,i don't "k h[ long4 ,inde$ ,i don't rememb] any?+ m except v confus$ly4' ,t is :at ,leopold said1 & :at ,i n[ told ,mr4 ,hook]4 ,!n at la/ ,i op5$ my m9d to him z to :]e9 ,i v5tur$ to ask 8 assi/ance2 & my petition 01 t he w\ld all[ me to br+ ,leopold1 & w\ld let him g ?r\gh ! =m ( giv+ himself up to ju/ice4 ,especially ,i begg$ t he w\ld li/5 to all he _h to say1 & give no sign t he d\bt$ 8 /ory4 ',& !n1 sir1' ,i conclud$1 ',i w\ld leave x to y to d :at we _c--reconcile him to go+ home in/ead ( to prison4' ,he sat ) 8 head on 8 h& = a :ile1 z if pond]+ "s weighty "q ( law4 ,!n he said sudd5ly3 ',x is n[ almo/ *ur*-"t4 ,i w ?9k ! matt] ov]4 ,y may rely ^u me4 ,w y take a seat 9 my pew & d9e ) u aft]8' ,i excus$ myself on ! gr\nd t ,i mu/ return at once to poor ,leopold1 :o 0 anxi\sly look+ = me4 ,& y mu/ =give me1 ,hel51 & n fancy me misus+ ,fanny1 if ,i did yield to ! temptation ( a little long] ride4 ,i h sc>cely m ?an walk$ h]1 ) a cant] n[ & !n :5 we _h ! *ance ( a bit ( turf4 ,hel5 assur$ him ) grateful eyes t %e knew ,fanny 0 z safe ) him z ) h]self2 & %e felt su* a gu% ( gratitude foll[ ! revival ( hope1 t %e 0 ne>] be+ 9 love ) h] c\s9 to ev] be=e4 ,h] gratitude inw>dly delight$ ,george1 & he ?\ght ! light 9 h] blue eyes loveli] ?an ev]2 b al?\gh /r\gly tempt$1 he judg$ x bett] to delay a =mal confession until circum/ances %\ld be m com=table4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,! ,,confession4 ,all t & ! foll[+ day ,leopold 0 9 spirits = him wond]ful4 ,on ,monday night !re came a consid]able reaction2 he 0 deject$1 worn1 & we>y4 ,twelve o'clock ! next day 0 ! h\r appo9t$ = _! visit to ,mr4 ,hook]1 & at elev5 he 0 dress$ & ready--re/less1 agitat$1 & v pale1 b n a :it less det]m9$ ?an at fir/4 ,a drive 0 ! pretext = borr[+ ,mrs4 ,ram%orn's c>riage4 ,:y is ,mr4 ,w+fold n com+8 ask$ ,l+>d1 anxi\sly1 :5 x began to move4 ,i fancy we %all be q z com=table )\t him1 ,poldie1 said ,hel54 ,did y expect him8 ,he promis$ to g ) me4 ,b he hasn't call$ s9ce ! "t 0 fix$4--,"h ,hel5 look$ out ( ! w9d[4--,i c't ?9k :y x is4 ,i c d my duty )\t him ?\gh1 cont9u$ ,leopold1 & p]haps x is j z well4--,d y "k1 ,george1 s9ce ,i made up my m9d1 ,i h se5 h] b once1 & t 0 la/ night1 & only 9 a dream4 ,a /ate ( irresolution is "o peculi>ly op5 to unheal?y impressions1 said ,george1 good-natur$ly dispos+ ( 8 long legs s t !y %\ld be out ( ! way4 ,leopold turn$ f him to 8 si/]4 ,! /range ?+1 ,hel51 he said1 0 t ,i did n feel ! lea/ afraid ( h]1 or ev5 aba%$ be=e h]4 ',i see y1' ,i said4 ',be at peace4 ,i am com+2 & y %all d to me :at y w4' ,& !n--:at d y ?9k8--,o my ,god6 %e smil$ "o ( h] own old smiles1 only sad too1 v sad1 & vani%$4 ,i woke1 & %e seem$ only to h j left ! room1 = !re 0 a /ir 9 ! d>kness4--,d y believe 9 gho/s1 ,george8 ,leopold 0 n "o ( ,george's initiat$1 ,i ne$ h>dly say4 ,no1 answ]$ ,bascombe4 ,i don't wond]4 ,i c't blame y1 = nei!r did ,i once4 ,b j wait till y h made "o1 ,george6 ,god =bid6 exclaim$ ,bascombe1 a second "t =gett+ himself4 ,am56 said ,leopold3 = aft] t !re's no help b be "o y\rself1 y "k4 ,if he w\ld only talk l t to old ,hook]6 ?\ght ,george4 ,x w\ld g a long way to =e/all any possible misconception ( ! case4 ,i c't ?9k :y ,mr4 ,w+fold did n come ye/]day1 resum$ ,leopold4 ,i made sure he w\ld4 ,n[1 ,poldie1 y mu/n't talk1 said ,hel51 or y'll be exhau/$ be=e we get to ,mr4 ,hook]'s4 ,%e did n wi% ! non-appe>ance ( ! curate on ,monday to be closely inquir$ into4 ,8 company at ! magi/rate's 0 by all possible means to be avoid$4 ,george _h easily p]suad$ ,hel51 m easily ?an he expect$1 to wait _! return 9 ! c>riage1 & ! two m5 7 %[n into ! libr>y1 :]e ! magi/rate pres5tly jo9$ !m4 ,he w\ld h %ak5 h&s ) ,leopold z well z ,george1 b ! consci\s felon drew back4 ,no1 sir2 excuse me1 he said4 ,he> :at ,i h to tell y fir/2 & if aft] t y w %ake h&s ) me1 x w be a k9dness inde$4 ,b y w n6 y w n6 ,wor?y ,mr4 ,hook] 0 ov]:elm$ ) pity at sight ( ! worn sall[ face ) ! great eyes1 9 :i* he f\nd e appe>ance confirmatory ( ! tale :]e) ,bascombe _h fill$ & prejudic$ e fibre ( 8 judgm5t4 ,he li/5$ 9 ! k9de/ way :ile ! poor boy =c$ ! words ( 8 confession f 8 ?roat4 ,b ,leopold nev] dream$ ( attribut+ 8 emotion to any o!r cause ?an compassion = "o :o _h be5 betray$ into su* a crime4 ,x 0 aga9/ 8 w1 = he seem$ n[ b5t1 ev5 to unreason1 on fight+ e weakness1 t he 0 prevail$ ^u to take a little w9e4 ,hav+ end$1 he sat sil5t1 9 ! po/ure ( "o ^: wri/s are already clasp$ by ! d\ble bracelet ( /eel4 ,n[ ,mr4 ,hook] _h ?\ght ! ?+ out 9 *ur* on ! ,sunday2 & aft] a h>d run at ! tail ( a /rong fox ov] a r\gh c\ntry on ! ,monday1 & a good sleep well into ! morn+ ( ! ,tuesday1 c\ld see no bett] way4 ,8 device 0 simple en\gh4 ,my de> "y g5tleman1 he said1 ,i am v sorry = y1 b ,i mu/ d my duty4 ,t1 sir1 is :at ,i came to y =1 answ]$ ,leopold1 humbly4 ,!n y mu/ consid] y\rself my prison]4 ,! mom5t y1 are gone1 ,i %all make notes ( y\r deposition1 & proce$ to arrange = ! necess>y =malities4 ,z a m]e matt] ( =m1 ,i %all take y\r own bail 9 a ?\s& p\nds to surr5d] :5 call$ ^u4 ,b ,i am n ( age1 & hav5't got a ?\s& p\nds1 said ,leopold4 ,p]haps ,mr4 ,hook] w accept my recognizance 9 ! am\nt8 said ,bascombe4 ,c]ta9ly1 answ]$ ,mr4 ,hook]1 & wrote some?+1 :i* ,bascombe sign$4 ,y are v good1 ,george1 said ,leopold4 ,b y "k ,i c't run away if ,i w\ld1 he add$ ) a pitiful attempt at a smile4 ,i hope y w soon be bett]1 said ! magi/rate k9dly4 ,:y su* a wi%1 sir8 return$ ,leopold1 almo/ reproa*fully1 & ! good man /ood aba%$ be=e him4 ,he ?\ght ( x aft]w>ds1 & 0 puzzl$ to "k h[ x 04 ,y mu/ hold y\rself 9 read9ess1 he said1 recov]+ himself ) an ef=t1 to give y\rself up at any mom5t4 ,&1 rememh]1 ,i %all call ^u y :5 ,i please1 e week1 p]haps1 or (t5]1 to see t y are safe4 ,y\r aunt is an old fri5d ( m9e1 & !re w be no ne$ ( explanations4 ,?is turns out to be no common case1 & aft] he>+ ! :ole1 ,i d n hesitate to (f] y my h&4 ,leopold 0 ov]come by 8 k9dness1 & )drew spee*less1 b greatly reliev$4 ,sev]al times dur+ ! c\rse ( 8 n>rative1 its app>5t tru?fulness & its circum/antiality w5t nigh to /agg] ,mr4 ,hook]2 b a glance at ,bascombe's face1 ) its half-amus$ smile1 in/antly set him "r aga91 & he ?\ght ) dismay h[ ne> he _h be5 to lett+ himself be fool$ by a madman4 ,aga9 9 ! c>riage1 ,leopold laid 8 head on ,hel5's %\ld]1 & look$ up 9 h] face ) su* a smile z %e _h nev] se5 on 8 be=e4 ,c]ta9ly !re 0 some?+ 9 confession--if only en?usia/s l ,mr4 ,w+fold w\ld n spoil all by pu%+ ?+s to extremes & turn+ good into bad6 ,leopold 0 yet su* a *ild1 _h s little occupi$ himself ) ?+s ab\t him1 & _h be5 s entirely tak5 up ) 8 passion1 & ! poetry ( exi/5ce unlawfully =c$1 t if 8 k ( ! circum/ances ( ,emmel9e's murd] _h dep5d$ on ! newspap]s1 he w\ld h rema9$ 9 utt] ignorance conc]n+ !m4 ,f ! same causes he 0 s entirely unacqua9t$ ) ! modes ( crim9al proc$ure1 t ! conduct ( ! magi/rate nev] /ruck him z /range1 n to say illegal4 ,& s /rongly did he feel ! good man's k9dness & sympa?y1 t 8 com=t f mak+ a clean brea/ ( x 0 ev5 great] ?an he expect$4 ,be=e !y rea*$ home he 0 fa/ asleep4 ,:5 laid on 8 c\*1 he almo/ fell asleep aga91 & ,hel5 saw him smile z he slept4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,! ,,mask4 ,b al?\gh su* 0 ,george ,bascombe's judgm5t ( ,leopold1 & su* 8 conduct ( 8 affair1 he c\ld n prev5t ! recurr5t intrusion ( ! flick]+ d\bt :i* _h %[$ itself :5 fir/ he li/5$ to ! /ory4 ,amid all ! wildness ( ! tale !re 0 yet a c]ta9 air1 n m]ely ( tru?fulness 9 ! n>rator--t 0 n to be que/ion$--b ( v]isimilitude 9 ! n>ration1 :i* _h its effect1 al?\gh x gave rise to no consci\s ex]cise ( discrim9at+ or pond]at+ faculty4 ,leopold's air ( conviction also1 al?\gh ( c\rse t might well accompany ! m]e/ inv5tion root$ 9 madness1 yet _h its =ce1 p]si/5tly z ,george pooh-pooh$ x--:i* he did ! m /r5u\sly f ! int5se1 ev5 morbid abhorr5ce ( 8 nature to be+ tak5 91 & hav+ to confess himself ( un/able intellectual equilibrium4 ,possibly ?is 0 n ! only k9d ( ?+ 9 :i* ! s5sitiv5ess ( a vanity he w\ld himself h dis[n$1 _h r5d]$ him unfit = p]ceiv+ ! tru?4 ,nor d ,i "k h[ mu* !re may be to *oose betwe5 ! two %ames--t ( accept+ :at is untrue1 & t ( refus+ :at is true4 ,! second "t he li/5$ to ,leopold's cont9u\s n>rative1 ! d\bt return$ ) m cle>ness & less flick]3 !re 0 su* a ?+ z be+ ov]-wise3 might he n be tak+ himself 9 ) 8 own incr$ulity8 ,ought he n to apply "s te/8 ,& did ,leopold's /ory (f] any means ( do+ s8--,"o ?+1 he !n f\nd1 _h be5 dimly haunt+ 8 ?\ghts ev] s9ce he he>d x3 ,leopold affirm$ t he _h ?r[n 8 cloak & mask d[n an old pit-%aft1 close by ! place ( murd]3 if !re 0 su* a %aft1 c\ld x be se>*$8--,recurr+ d\bt at l5g? s wr\ght ^u 8 m9d1 t he resolv$ to make 8 holiday excursion to t neighb\rhood1 & !re endeav\r to ga9 :at assurance ( any sort might be to be _h4 ,:at end beyond 8 own possible satisfaction ! inquiry 0 to answ] he did n ask himself4 ,! re/less _s ( ! detective1 s (t5 conjo9$ ) indiff]5ce to :at is 9 its own nature true1 0 at "w 9 him--b t 0 n all3 he mu/ "k ! v facts1 if possible1 ( :atev] conc]n$ ,hel54 ,i %all n foll[ 8 proce$+s closely3 x is ) _! reaction ^u ,leopold t ,i h to d4 ,! h\se :]e ! t]rible ?+ took place 0 n f> f a little moorl& village4 ,!re ,bascombe f\nd a small inn1 :]e he took up 8 qu>t]s1 pret5d+ to be a geologi/ out = a holiday4 ,he soon came ^u ! disus$ %aft4 ,! inn 0 a good deal frequ5t$ 9 ! ev5+s by ! colli]s ( ! di/rict--a r\gh race1 b n beyond ! influ5ces ( su* an address1 m+l$ ( self-ass]tion & good fell[%ip1 z ,bascombe br\ght to be> ^u !m1 = he _h soon p]ceiv$ t among/ !m he might f9d ! assi/ance he want$4 ,9 ! c\rse ( conv]sation1 !re=e1 he m5tion$ ! %aft1 on :i* he pret5d$ to h come 9 8 rambles4 ,rem>k+ on ! dang] ( su* places1 he le>n$ t ?is "o s]v$ = v5tilation1 & 0 /ill accessible bel[ f o!r work+s4 ,!reaft] he begg$ p]mission to g d[n "o ( ! pits1 on pretext ( exam9+ ! coal-/rata1 & hav+ secur$ = 8 guide "o ( ! mo/ intellig5t ( ^? ^: acqua9tance he _h made at ! inn1 p]suad$ him1 p>tly by expressions ( incr$ulity because ( ! di/ance betwe51 to guide him to ! bottom ( ! %aft ^: accessibility he ma9ta9$4 ,t !y 7 go+ 9 ! "r direction1 he _h ! te/imony ( ! little compass he c>ri$ at 8 wat*-*a91 & at l5g? he saw a fa9t gleam be=e him4 ,:5 at la/ he rais$ 8 head1 we>ily b5t b5ea? ! l[ ro(s ( ! passages1 & look$ upw>ds1 !re 0 a /> look+ d[n at him out ( ! sky ( day6 ,b ,george nev] wa/$ "t 9 />+ at :at 0 above 8 head1 & s began in/antly to se>* ab\t z if exam9+ ! indications ( ! /rata4 ,0 x possible8 ,c\ld x be8 ,!re 0 a piece ( black some?+ t 0 n coal1 & seem$ textile6 ,x 0 a half-mask1 = !re 7 ! eye-holes 9 x6 ,he caught x up & hurri$ x into 8 bag--n s quickly b t ! ha/e set 8 guide speculat+4 ,& ,bascombe saw t ! action 0 not$4 ,! man aft]w>ds (f]$ to c>ry 8 bag1 b he w\ld n all[ him4 ,! next morn+ he left ! place & return$ to ,london1 tak+ ,gla/on1 by a det\r1 on 8 way4 ,a few que/ions to ,leopold drew f him a description ( ! mask he _h worn1 entirely correspond+ ) ! "o ,george _h f\nd2 & at l5g? he 0 satisfi$ t !re 0 tru? m ?an a little 9 ,leopold's confession4 ,x 0 n 8 bus9ess1 h[ev]1 he n[ said to himself1 to set magi/rates "r4 ,true1 he _h set ,mr4 ,hook] wrong 9 ! fir/ place1 b he _h done x 9 good fai?1 & h[ c\ld he turn traitor to ,hel5 & h] bro!r8 ,besides1 he 0 sure ! magi/rate himself w\ld be any?+ b oblig$ to him = op5+ 8 eyes6 ,at ! same "t ,leopold's fanatic eag]ness aft] confession might drive ! matt] fur!r1 & if s1 x might become awkw>d = him4 ,he might be look$ to = ! def5ce1 & 7 he n c]ta9 t 8 guide _h m>k$ 8 concealm5t ( :at he _h pick$ up1 he might h v5tur$ to und]take x1 = c]ta9ly x w\ld h be5 a r>e *ance = a display ( ! =5sic tal5t he believ$ himself to possess2 b z x 01 ! mom5t he 0 call$ to ! b>--:i* w\ld be )9 a =tnight--he w\ld g abroad1 say to ,p>is1 & !re1 = twelve mon?s or s1 await ev5ts4 ,:5 he disclos$ to ,hel5 8 evil success 9 ! coalpit1 x 0 b ! m]e/ film ( a hope x de/roy$1 = %e ,,knew t h] bro!r 0 guilty4 ,george & %e n[ felt t !y 7 l9k$ by ! possession ( a common1 secret4 ,b ! cloak _h be5 f\nd a %ort "t be=e1 & 0 9 ! possession ( ,emmel9e's "m4 ,t "m 0 a woman ( /rong passions & det]m9$ "*4 ,! fir/ %ock ( ! cata/rophe ov]1 h] grief 0 almo/ supplant$ by a rage = v5geance1 9 ! compass+ ( :i* no d\bt %e vaguely imag9$ %e w\ld be do+ some?+ to "r h] daught]4 ,h5ce ! protract$ concealm5t ( ! murd]] 0 bitt]ness to h] s\l1 & %e v[$ h]self to discov]y & rev5ge z ! "o bus9ess ( h] life4 ,9 ?is h] husb&1 a good deal brok5 by ! fe>ful ev5t1 b /ill m by mis=tunes ( ano!r k9d :i* _h begun to ?reat5 him1 (f]$ h] no assi/ance1 & inde$ felt nei!r h] passion urge him1 nor h] p]sev]ance hold him to ! pursuit4 ,9 ! neighb\rhood h] m9d 0 well kn[n1 & n a few f\nd _! advantage 9 supply+ h] passion ) ! fuel ( hope4 ,any h9t ( evid5ce1 h[ev] small1 ! remote/ sugge/ion ev5 t[>ds discov]y1 !y w\ld c>ry at once to h]1 = %e 0 an op5-h&$ woman1 & 9 su* case w\ld give ) a pr(usion t1 b = ! feel+ conc]n$1 w\ld h be5 absurd1 & did expose h] to ! gre$ ( e ly+ m5dicant )9 rea* ( h]4 ,n unnaturally1 !re=e1 x _h occurr$ to a c]ta9 colli] to make 8 way to ! bottom ( ! %aft1 on ! *ance--h>dly ( f9d+1 b ( be+ enabl$ to inv5t some?+ wor? report+2 & !re1 to ! v fool+ ( 8 b>r5 expectation1 he _h f\nd ! cloak4 ,! "m _h be5 ov] to ,holl&1 :]e %e _h in/itut$ unavail+ inquiries 9 ! villages along ! coa/ & among ! isl&s1 & _h be5 home b a few days :5 ! cloak 0 c>ri$ to h]4 ,9 h] m9d x imm$iately associat$ itself ) ! co/umes ( ! horrible ball1 & at once %e s\ght ! li/ ( h] gue/s !reat4 ,x 0 be=e h] at ! v mom5t :5 ! man1 :o _h be5 ,bascombe's guide1 s5t 9 to reque/ an int]view1 ! result ( :i* 0 to turn h] att5tion = ! "t 9 ano!r direction4--,:o might ! visitor to ! m9e h be58 ,little 0 to be ga!r$ 9 ! neighb\rhood beyond ! facts t ! lett]s ,g4 ,b4 7 on 8 c>pet-bag1 & t a scrap ( torn envelope bore :at seem$ ! lett]s mple4 ,%e despat*$ ! poor indications to an inquiry-(fice 9 ,london4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,fur!r ,,decision4 ,! day aft] 8 confession to ,mr4 ,hook]1 a consid]able re-action took place 9 ,l+>d4 ,he did n propose to leave 8 b$1 & lay exhau/$4 ,he said he _h caught cold4 ,he c\gh$ a little2 wond]$ :y ,mr4 ,w+fold did n come to see him1 doz$ a good deal1 & (t5 woke ) a />t4 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn ?\ght ,hel5 ought to make him get up3 no?+1 %e said1 c\ld be worse = him ?an ly+ 9 b$2 b ,hel5 ?\ght1 ev5 if h] aunt 7 "r1 he mu/ be hum\r$4 ,! foll[+ day ,mr4 ,hook] call$1 inquir$ aft] him1 & w5t up to 8 room to see him4 ,!re he said all he c\ld ?9k ( to make him com=table2 repeat$ t c]ta9 prelim9>ies _h to be gone ?r\gh be=e ! comm5cem5t ( ! prosecution2 said t :ile ^! w5t on1 x 0 bett] he %\ld be 9 8 si/]'s c>e ?an 9 prison1 :]e1 if he w5t at once1 he mo/ probably w\ld die be=e ! trial came on2 t 9 ! meantime he 0 responsible = him2 t1 al?\gh he _h done q "r 9 giv+ himself up1 he mu/ n let :at 0 done & c\ld no m be help$1 prey too mu* ^u 8 m9d1 le/ x %\ld r5d] him unable to give 8 evid5ce ) prop] cle>ness1 & he %\ld be judg$ insane & s5t to ,broadmoor1 :i* w\ld be frightful4 ,he end$ by say+ t he _h _h great provocation1 & t he 0 c]ta9 ! judge w\ld consid] x 9 pass+ s5t5ce1 only he mu/ satisfy ! jury !re _h be5 no prem$itation4 ,i w n utt] a ^w to excuse myself1 ,mr4 ,hook]1 repli$ ,leopold4 ,! wor?y magi/rate smil$ sadly1 & w5t away1 if possible1 m conv9c$ ( ! poor lad's insanity4 ,! visit help$ ,leopold ov] t day1 b :5 ! next also pass$1 & nei!r did ,w+fold appe>1 nor any explanation ( 8 abs5ce rea* him1 he made up 8 m9d to act aga9 = himself4 ,! cause ( ! curate's app>5t neglect1 ?\gh ill to f9d1 0 n f> to seek4 ,on ! ,monday1 he _h1 ^u "s pretext or o!r1 be5 turn$ away2 on ! ,tuesday1 he _h be5 told t ,mr4 ,l+>d _h gone = a drive2 on ! ,w$nesday1 t he 0 mu* too tir$ to be se52 & !reupon _h at l5g? judg$ x bett] to leave ?+s to "r !mselves4 ,if ,leopold did n want to see him1 x w\ld be ( no use by p]si/5ce to =ce 8 way to him2 :ile on ! o!r h&1 if he did want to see him1 he felt conv9c$ ! poor fell[ w\ld manage to h 8 own way someh[4 ,! next morn+ aft] he _h ?us resolv$1 ,leopold decl>$ himself bett]1 & got up & dress$4 ,he !n lay on ! s(a & wait$ z quietly z he c\ld until ,hel5 w5t out--,mr1 ,fab] insi/+ %e %\ld d s e day4 ,x 0 no madness1 b a burn+ desire = life1 c\pl$ ) an utt] c>elessness ( t :i* is commonly call$ life1 t n[ rul$ 8 behavi\r4 ,he ti$ 8 slipp]s on 8 feet1 put on 8 smok+-cap1 crept unse5 f ! h\se1 & took ! direction1 ( ! ,abbey4 ,! influ5ce ( ! air--by 8 weakness r5d]$ intoxicat+1 ! /range look ( ev]y?+ ar\nd him1 ! n]v\s excitem5t ( e human approa*1 kept him up until he rea*$ ! *ur*y>d1 across :i* he 0 crawl+1 to f9d ! curate's lodg+1 :5 sudd5ly 8 bra9 seem$ to g swimm+ away into regions beyond ! s5ses4 ,he attempt$ to seat himself on a grave-/one1 b lo/ consci\sness1 & fell at full l5g? betwe5 t & ! next "o4 ,:5 ,hel5 return$1 %e 0 horrifi$ to f9d t he _h gone--:51 or :i!r nobody knew3 no "o _h miss$ him4 ,h] fir/ fe> 0 ! riv]1 b h] consci5ce enlight5$ h]1 & h] %ame c\ld n prev5t h] f seek+ him at ! curate's4 ,9 h] ha/e %e pass$ him :]e he lay4 ,%[n into ! curate's /udy1 %e gave a hurri$ glance ar\nd1 & h] anxiety became t]ror aga94 ,oh6 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 %e cri$1 :]e is ,leopold8 ,i h n se5 him1 repli$ ! curate1 turn+ pale4 ,!n he has ?r[n himself 9 ! riv]6 cri$ ,hel51 & sank on a *air4 ,! curate caught up 8 hat4 ,y wait "h1 he said4 ,i w g & look = him4 ,b ,hel5 rose1 &1 )\t ano!r ^w1 !y set (f toge!r1 & aga9 ent]$ ! *ur*y>d4 ,z !y hurri$ across x1 ! curate caught sight ( some?+ on ! gr\nd1 &1 spr++ =w>d1 f\nd ,leopold4 ,he is dead6 cri$ ,hel51 9 an agony1 :5 %e saw him /op & /oop4 ,he look$ dead inde$2 b :at appall$ h] ! mo/ reassur$ ,w+fold a little3 blood _h fl[$ freely f a cut on 8 eyebr[4 ,! curate lift$ him1 no h>d task1 out ( ! damp %ad[1 & laid him on ! /one1 :i* 0 w>m 9 ! sun1 ) 8 head on ,hel5's lap1 !n ran to ord] ! c>riage1 & ha/5$ back ) br&y4 ,!y got a little into 8 m\?1 b he c\ld n swall[ x4 ,/ill x seem$ to d him good1 = pres5tly he gave a deep sigh2 & j !n !y he>d ! c>riage /op at ! gate4 ,w+fold took him up1 c>ri$ him to x1 got 9 ) him 9 8 arms1 & held him on 8 knees until he rea*$ ! manor h\se1 :5 he c>ri$ him up/airs & laid him on ! s(a4 ,:5 !y _h br\ght him r\nd a little1 he undress$ him & put him to b$4 ,d n leave me1 murmur$ ,leopold1 j z ,hel5 ent]$ ! room1 & %e he>d x4 ,w+fold look$ to h] = ! answ] he 0 to make4 ,h] be>+ 0 mu* alt]$3 %e 0 bo? a%am$ & humbl$4 ,yes1 ,leopold1 %e said1 ,mr4 ,w+fold w1 ,i am sure1 /ay ) y z long z he c4 ,inde$ ,i w1 ass5t$ ! curate4 ,b ,i mu/ run = ,mr4 ,fab] fir/4 ,h[ did ,i come "h8 ask$ ,leopold1 op5+ 8 eyes l>ge ^u ,hel5 aft] swall[+ a spoonful ( ! bro? %e held to 8 lips4 ,b1 be=e %e c\ld answ] him1 he turn$ sick1 & by ! "t ! doctor came 0 v fev]i%4 ,fab] gave ! necess>y directions1 & ,w+fold walk$ back ) him to get 8 prescription made up4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,! ,,curate ,,& ,,! ,,doctor4 ,!re is some?+ /range ab\t t "y man's illness1 said ,fab]1 z soon z !y _h left ! h\se4 ,i fancy y "k m ?an y c tell1 & if s1 !n ,i h committ$ no indiscretion 9 say+ z mu*4 ,p]haps x might be an indiscretion to ackn[l$ge z mu* h[ev]1 said ! curate ) a smile4 ,y are "r4 ,i h n be5 long 9 ! place1 return$ ,fab]1 & y _h no opportunity ( te/+ me4 ,b ,i am indiff]5t hone/ z well z y1 ?\gh ,i don't g y 9 ev]y?+4 ,p w\ld h me believe y don't g ) me 9 any?+4 ,!y say z mu*--d !y8 return$ ,fab] ) "s annoyance4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h be5 c>eful n to trespass on y\r pres]ves4 ,z = pres]ves1 ,i don't "k ( any1 answ]$ ! curate4 ,!re is no true bird 9 ! gr\nds t won't manage someh[ to escape ! sn>e ( ! f[l]4 ,well1 said ! doctor1 ,i "k no?+ ab\t ,god & all t k9d ( ?+1 b1 ?\gh ,i don't ?9k ,i'm a c[>d exactly ei!r1 ,i "k ,i %\ld l to h y\r pluck4 ,i hav5't got any pluck1 said ! curate4 ,tell t to ! m>9es1 said ,fab]4 ,i d>5't g & say :at ,i ?9k or don't ?9k1 ev5 9 ! b$room ( my lea/ or?odox pati5t--at lea/1 if ,i d1 ,i in/antly rep5t x--:ile y g on say+ :at y really believe ,sunday aft] ,sunday6--,h[ y c believe x1 ,i don't "k1 & x's no bus9ess ( m9e4 ,oh yes1 x is6 return$ ,w+fold4 ,b z to ! pluck1 x may be a man's duty to say 9 ! pulpit :at he w\ld be j z wrong to say by a sick-b$4 ,t has no?+ to d ) ! pluck6 ,t's all ,i c>e ab\t4 ,x has ev]y?+ to d ) :at y take = pluck4 ,my pluck is only ,don ,worm4 ,i don't "k :at y mean by t4 ,x's ,b5$ick's "n1 9 ,mu* ,ado ab\t ,no?+1 = ! consci5ce4 ,,my pluck is no?+ b my consci5ce4 ,x's a damn$ f9e ?+ to h anyh[1 :atev] "n y put ^u x6 said ,fab]4 ,excuse me if ,i f9d y\r epi!t m amus+ ?an apt1 said ,w+fold1 laugh+4 ,y are q "r1 said ,fab]4 ,i apologize4 ,z to ! pluck aga91 ,w+fold resum$1 --if y ?9k ( ?is "o fact--t my :ole desire is to believe 9 ,god1 & t ! only ?+ ,i c be sure ( sometimes is t1 if !re be a ,god1 none b an hone/ man w ev] f9d him1 y w n !n say !re is mu* pluck 9 my speak+ ! tru?8 ,i don't see t t makes x a hair easi]1 9 ! face ( su* a set ( gap+ noodles z-- ,i beg y\r p>don3--!re is m lack ( consci5ce ?an ( bra9s 9 ! ,abbey ( a ,sunday1 ,i fe>4 ,well1 all ,i h to say is1 ,i c't = ! life ( me see :at y want to believe 9 a ,god =6 ,x seems to me ! _w w\ld g r bett] )\t any su* fancy4 ,look "h n[3 !re is "y ,sp5s]--out !re at ,h>wood--a pati5t ( m9e4 ,8 wife di$ ye/]day--"o ( ! lovelie/ "y creatures y ev] saw4 ,! poor fell[ is z bad ab\t x z fell[ c be4 ,well1 he's "o ( y\r sort1 & said to me ! o!r day1 j z y w\ld h him1 ',x's ! w ( ,god1' he said1 '& we mu/ hold our peace4'--',don't talk to me ab\t ,god1' ,i said1 = ,i c\ldn't /& x4 ',d y mean to tell me t1 if !re 0 a ,god1 he w\ld h tak5 su* a lovely creature z t away f h] husb& & h] helpless infant1 at ! age ( two & tw5ty8 ,i scorn to believe x4' ,:at did he say to t8 ,he turn$ z :ite z dea?1 & said nev] a ^w4 ,ah1 y =got t y 7 tak+ f him 8 only hope ( see+ h] aga96 ,i c]ta9ly did n ?9k ( t1 said ,fab]4 ,ev5 !n1 resum$ ,w+fold1 ,i %\ld n say y 7 wrong1 if y 7 prep>$ to add t y _h se>*$ e possible region ( exi/5ce1 & _h f\nd no ,god2 or t y _h tri$ e !ory man _h inv5t$1 or ev5 t y 7 able to inv5t y\rself1 & _h f\nd none ( !m consi/5t ) ! be+ ( a ,god4 ,i d n say t !n y w\ld be "r 9 y\r judgm5t1 = ano!r man1 ( equal weight1 might h _h a diff]5t exp]i5ce4 ,i only say1 ,i w\ld n !n blame y4 ,b y mu/ all[ x a v s]i\s ?+ to ass]t z a conviction1 )\t su* gr\nds z ! ass]tor has pretty fully satisfi$ himself conc]n+1 :at ,,c\ld only drive ! /+ ( dea? t5 times deep]4 ,! doctor 0 sil5t4 ,i d\bt n y spoke 9 a bur/ ( indignation2 b x seems to me ! indignation ( a man unaccu/om$ to pond] ! ?+s conc]n+ :i* he expresses su* a positive conviction4 ,y are wrong !re1 return$ ,fab]2 = ,i 0 br\ght up 9 ! /raite/ sect ( ! ,ph>isees1 & "k :at ,i am say+4 ,! /raite/ sect ( ! ,ph>isees c h>dly be ! s*ool 9 :i* to ga!r any su* idea ( a ,god z "o c\ld wi% to be a reality4 ,!y pr(ess to "k4 ,is t any argum5t ( weight1 !y & _! op9ions be+ :at !y are8--,if !re be a ,god1 d y imag9e he w\ld *oose any /rait sect "u ! sun to be 8 int]pret]s8 ,b ! "q is n ( ! idea ( a ,god1 b ( ! exi/5ce ( any1 see+1 if he exi/s1 he mu/ be su* z ! human he>t c\ld nev] accept z ,god1 inasmu* z he at lea/ p]mits1 if n himself enacts cruelty4 ,my argum5t to poor ,sp5s] rema9s--h[ev] unwise or inde$ cruel x may h be54 ,i grant x a c]ta9 am\nt ( =ce--z mu* exactly z _h gone to satisfy ! *ildr5 :om ,i he>d ! o!r day agree+ t ,dr4 ,fab] 0 a v cruel man1 = he pull$ out nurse's too?1 & gave poor little baby su* a na/y1 na/y p[d]6 ,is t a fair p>allel8 ,i mu/ look at x4 ,i ?9k x is4 ,:at y d is (t5 unpleasant1 sometimes mo/ pa9ful1 b x does n foll[ t y are a cruel man1 & a hurt] in/ead ( a heal] ( m54 ,i ?9k !re is a fault 9 ! analogy1 said ,fab]4 ,= "h am ,i no?+ b a slave to laws already exi/+1 & compell$ to "w accord+ to !m4 ,x is n my fault !re=e t ! rem$ies ,i h to use are unpleasant4 ,b if !re be a ,god1 he has ! matt] 9 8 own h&s4 ,!re is weight & ju/ice 9 y\r argum5t1 :i* may well make ! analogy appe> at fir/ sight false4 ,b is !re no !ory possible t %\ld make x p]fect8 ,i d n see h[ !re %\ld be any4 ,=1 if y say ,god is "u any su* compulsion z ,i am "u1 !n surely ! h\se is divid$ aga9/ itself1 & ,god is n ,god any m4 ,= my "p1 said ! curate1 ,i ?9k ,i ,,c\ld believe 9 a ,god :o did b 8 imp]fect be/3 9 "o all p[]1 & n all goodness1 ,i c\ld n believe4 ,b suppose t ! design ( ,god involv$ ! p]fect+ ( m5 z ! ,,*ildr5 ,,( ,,god--',i said ye are gods1'--t he w\ld h !m p>tak]s ( 8 own bless$ness 9 k9d--be z himself2--suppose 8 gr& idea c\ld n be cont5t$ ) creatures p]fect ,,only by 8 gift1 s f> z t %\ld rea*1 & hav+ no will+ causal %>e 9 ! p]fection1 t is1 p>tak+ n at all ( ,god's individuality & free-w & *oice ( good2 !n suppose t suff]+ 7 ! only way ?r\gh :i* ! individual c\ld be set1 9 sep>ate & self-individuality1 s f> ap>t f ,god1 t x might ,,w1 & s become a p>tak] ( 8 s+l5ess & fre$om2--& suppose t ?is suff]+ mu/ be & _h be5 initiat$ by ,god's tak+ 8 %>e1 & t ! inf9itely great] %>e2--suppose next1 t ,god saw ! g]m ( a pure affection1 say 9 y\r fri5d & 8 wife1 b saw also t x 0 a g]m s imp]fect & weak t x c\ld n enc\nt] ! com+ fro/s & w9ds ( ! _w )\t loss & decay1 :ile1 if !y 7 p>t$ n[ = a few ye>s1 x w\ld gr[ & /r5g!n & exp&1 to ! c]ta9ty ( an inf9itely high] & deep] & ke5] love ?r\gh ! endless ages to foll[--s t by suff]+ %\ld come1 9 place ( cont5t$ decl9e1 abortion1 & dea?1 a tr\bl$ bir? ( joy\s result 9 heal? & immortality2--suppose all ?is1 & :at !n8 ,fab] 0 sil5t a mom5t1 !n answ]$1 ,y\r !ory has b "o fault3 x is too good to be true4 ,my !ory leaves pl5ty ( difficulty1 b has no su* fault z t4 ,:y1 :at sort ( a ,god w\ld cont5t y1 ,mr4 ,fab]8 ,! "o idea is too bad1 ! o!r too good to be true4 ,mu/ y exp& & p>e until y get "o exactly to ! measure ( y\rself ere y c accept x z ?9kable or possible8 ,:y1 a less ,god ?an t w\ld n re/ y\r s\l a week4 ,! only possibility ( believ+ 9 a ,god seems to me to lie 9 f9d+ an idea ( a ,god l>ge en\gh1 gr& en\gh1 pure en\gh1 lovely en\gh to be fit to believe 94 ,& h y f\nd su*--may ,i ask8 ,i ?9k ,i am f9d+ su*4 ,:]e8 ,9 ! man ( ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,i h ?\ght a little m ab\t ^! ?+s1 ,i fancy1 ?an y h1 ,mr4 ,fab]4 ,i may come to be sure ( some?+2 ,i don't see h[ a man c ev] be sure ( ,,no?+4 ,don't suppose me q dumbf\nd]$1 ?\gh ,i c't answ] y (f h&1 said ,mr4 ,fab]1 z !y rea*$ 8 door4--,come 9 ) me1 & ,i w make up ! m$ic9e myself2 x w save "t4 ,!re are a ?\s& difficulties1 he resum$ 9 ! surg]y1 "s ( !m spr++ f peculi> po9ts t come be=e "o ( my pr(ession1 :i* ,i d\bt if y w\ld be able to meet s readily4 ,b ab\t ?is poor fell[1 ,l+>d4 ,y "k ,gla/on gossip says he is out ( 8 m9d4 ,if ,i 7 y1 ,mr4 ,fab]1 ,i w\ld n take pa9s to contradict x4 ,he is n out ( 8 m9d1 b has su* tr\ble 9 x z might well drive him out4--,don't y ev5 h9t at t1 ?\gh4 ,i und]/&1 said ,fab]4 ,if doctor & m9i/] did und]/& ea* o!r & "w toge!r1 said ,w+fold1 ,i fancy a good deal m might be done4 ,i don't d\bt x4--,:at sort ( fell[ is t c\s9 ( !irs--,bascombe is 8 "n1 ,i believe8 ,a man to suit y1 ,i %\ld ?9k1 said ! curate2 a man ) a mo/ trem5d\s p[] ( believ+ 9 no?+4 ,come1 come6 return$ ! doctor1 y don't "k half en\gh ab\t me to tell :at sort ( man ,i %\ld l or dislike4 ,well1 all ,i w say m ( ,bascombe is1 t if he 7 n conceit$ he w\ld be hone/2 & if he 7 z hone/ z he believes himself1 he w\ld n be s ready to judge e "o di%one/ :o does n agree ) him4 ,i hope we may h ano!r talk soon1 said ! doctor1 se>*+ = a cork4 ,"s day ,i w tell y a few ?+s t may /agg] y4 ,likely en\gh3 ,i am only le>n+ to walk yet1 said ,w+fold4 ,b a man may /agg] & n fall1 & ,i am ready to he> any?+ y *oose to tell me4 ,fab] h&$ him ! bottle1 & he took 8 leave4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,,hel5 ,,& ,,! ,,curate4 ,be=e ! morn+ ,leopold lay w\nd 9 ! net ( a l[ fev]1 almo/ z ill z ev]1 b ) ?is diff]5ce1 t 8 m9d 0 f> less tr\bl$1 & t ev5 8 mo/ re/less dreams no long] sc>$ him awake to a /ill ne>] assurance ( mis]y4 ,& yet1 _m a "t1 z %e wat*$ by 8 side1 x 0 excruciat+ly pla9 to ,hel5 t ! /uff ( :i* 8 dreams 7 made 0 ! la/ process to ! f9al execution ( ! law4 ,%e ?\ght %e c\ld foll[ x all 9 8 movem5ts & ! expressions ( 8 c\nt5ance4 ,at a c]ta9 po9t1 ! cold dew always appe>$ on 8 =ehead1 aft] :i* inv>iably came a smile1 & he w\ld be quiet until ne> morn+1 :5 ! same signs aga9 appe>$4 ,sometimes he w\ld murmur pray]s1 & sometimes x seem$ to ,hel5 t he mu/ fancy himself talk+ face to face ) ,jesus1 = ! look ( bless$ & tru/ful awe ^u 8 c\nt5ance 0 amaz+ 9 its beauty4 ,= ,hel5 h]self1 %e 0 prey to a ho/ ( *angeful emotions4 ,at "o "t %e accus$ h]self bitt]ly ( hav+ be5 ! cause ( ! return ( 8 illness2 ! next a gu% ( gladness w\ld swell h] he>t at ! ?\ght t n[ %e _h him at lea/ saf] = a :ile1 & t he might die & s escape ! :ole cr[d ( horrible possibilities4 ,= ,george's manipulation ( ! magi/rate c\ld b delay ! disclosure ( ! tru?2 ev5 %\ld no discov]y be made1 ,leopold mu/ at l5g? suspect a trick1 & t w\ld at once drive him to fre% action4 ,b among/ ! re/1 a feel+ :i* _h b lately begun to indicate its f>-(f pres5ce n[ ?reat5$ to br+ ) x a deep] & m p]man5t sorr[3 x became m & m pla9 to h] t %e _h tak5 ! evil "p aga9/ ! "o %e lov$ be/ 9 ! _w2 t %e _h be5 z a ,satan to him2 _h driv5 him back1 /ood almo/ bodily 9 ! way to turn him f ! pa? ( peace4 ,:e!r ! pa? he _h s\ght to foll[ 0 ! only "o or n1 x 0 ! only "o he knew2 & t x 0 at lea/ ,a true "o1 0 prov$ by ! fact t he _h already f\nd 9 x ! beg9n+s ( ! peace he s\ght2 :ile %e1 = ! avoidance ( %ame & pity1 = ! sake ( ! family1 z %e _h said to h]self1 _h pursu$ a c\rse :i* if successful1 w\ld at be/ h result$ 9 %utt+ him up1 z 9 a madh\se1 ) 8 own inborn horrors1 ) va9 remorse1 & equally va9 long+4 ,h] consci5ce1 n[ t h] m9d 0 quiet]1 f ! great] di/ance to :i* ! ?reat5+ p]il _h aga9 )drawn1 _h tak5 ! opportunity ( speak+ l\d]4 ,& %e li/5$--b /ill ) "o "q ev] pres5t$3 ,:y might he n appropriate ! consolations ( ! gospel )\t committ+ ! suicide ( surr5d]8 ,%e c\ld n see t confession 0 ! v door ( refuge & safety1 t[>ds :i* he mu/ press4 ,george's abs5ce 0 n[ aga9 a relief1 & :ile %e fe>$ & %rank f ! sev]ity ( ,w+fold1 %e c\ld n help a c]ta9 indiscribable s5se ( safety 9 8 pres5ce--at lea/ s long z ,leopold 0 too ill to talk4 ,= ! curate1 he became m & m int]e/$ 9 ! woman :o c\ld love s /rongly1 & yet n entirely1 :o suff]$ & mu/ /ill suff] s mu*1 & :o a fai? ev5 no great] ?an 8 own might r5d] comp>atively bless$4 ,! desire to help h] grew & grew 9 him1 b he c\ld see no way ( rea*+ h]4 ,& !n he began to discov] "o peculi> advantage belong+ to ! little op5 *amb] ( ! pulpit--op5 n only or specially to heav5 above1 b to s _m ( ! secret *amb]s ( ! s\ls ( ! congregation4 ,= :at a man d>es n1 c\ld n if he d>$1 & d>$ n if he c\ld1 say to ano!r1 ev5 at ! "t & 9 ! place fitte/ ( all1 he c say !nce1 op5-fac$ be=e ! :ole congregation2 & ! p]son 9 ne$ !re( may he> x )\t umbrage1 or ! *ok+ husk ( individual application1 irritat+ to ! rejection ( :at tru? may lie 9 x = him4 ,w\ld t our pulpits 7 all 9 ! p[] ( su* m5 z by suff]+ "k ! human1 & by ob$i5ce ! div9e he>t6 ,!n w\ld ! (fice ( in/ruction be no m ma9ly occupi$ by ! press1 b ! faces ( true m5 w\ld ev]y:]e be w9d[s = ! light ( ! ,_s to ent] o!r m5's s\ls1 & ! voice ( _! words w\ld foll[ ) ! =ms ( :at tru? !y saw1 & ! p[] ( ! ,"l w\ld spe$ f he>t to he>t4 ,!n w\ld m5 soon und]/& t n ! =m ( ev5 s\nde/ words availe? any?+1 b a new creature4 ,:5 ,w+fold 0 9 ! pulpit1 !n1 he c\ld speak z f ! secret to ! secret2 b else:]e he felt1 9 reg>d to ,hel51 l a transport-%ip fill$ ) troops1 :i* mu/ g sail+ ar\nd ! %ores ( an invad$ ally1 9 fru/rate se>* = a l&+4 ,oh1 to help t woman1 t ! light ( life might g up 9 h] he>t1 & h] *eek bloom aga9 ) ! rose ( peace6 ,b n a ^w c\ld he speak 9 h] pres5ce1 = he he>d ev]y?+ be w\ld h said z he ?\ght x w\ld s\nd to h]1 & !re=e he _h no utt]ance4 ,is x an infirmity ( c]ta9 k9ds ( m51 or a wise provision = _! protection1 t ! brighte/ =ms ! tru? takes 9 _! private cogitations seem to lose half _! lu/re & all _! grace :5 utt]$ 9 ! pres5ce ( an unreceptive nature1 & !y he>1 z x 71 _! own voice reflect$ 9 a poor1 dull1 inh>moni\s e*o1 & are disgu/$8 ,b1 on ! o!r h&1 ev] 9 ! pauses ( ! ru%+1 ev] 9 ! wat]y gleams ( life t broke ?r\gh ! cl\ds & drifts ( ! fev]1 ,leopold s\ght 8 fri5d1 &1 f9d+ him1 %one into a brief radiance1 or1 miss+ him1 gloom$ back into ! l& ( visions4 ,! t5d]ness ( ! curate's s]vice1 ! he>t t %[$ itself 9 ev]y?+ he did1 ev5 9 ! turn & expression ( ! m9i/]+ h&1 0 a k9d ( revelation to ,hel54 ,= :ile 8 intellect 0 hang+ ab\t ! door1 ask+ que/ions1 & uneasily %ift+ hi!r & ?i!r 9 its unlov$ p]plexities1 ! _s ( ! ma/] _h gone by x unse51 & ent]$ into ! *amb] ( 8 he>t4 ,aft] prea*+ ! s]mon la/ record$1 !re came a reaction ( d\bt & depression on ! m9d ( ! curate1 great] ?an usual4 ,_h he n gone f>!r ?an 8 "r8 ,_h he n impli$ m conviction ?an 0 88 ,words c\ld n g beyond 8 satisfaction ) :at he f\nd 9 ! gospel1 or ! hopes = ! range ( 8 consci\s life spr++ !refrom2 b 0 he n n[ mak+ p suppose him m c]ta9 ( ! ,,fact ( ^! ?+s ?an he 08 ,he 0 driv5 to console himself ) ! reflection t s long z he _h _h no su* int5tion1 ev5 if he _h be5 s c>ri$ away by ! delight ( 8 he>t z to give su* an impression1 x matt]$ little3 :at 0 x to o!r p :at he believ$ or h[ he believ$8 ,if he _h n be5 untrue to himself1 no h>m w\ld foll[4 ,0 a man nev] to talk f ! highe/ 9 him to ! =gett+ ( ! l[]8 ,0 a man nev] to be c>ri$ beyond himself & ! regions ( 8 k8 ,if s1 !n f>ewell poetry & prophecy--yea1 all gr& discov]y6--= ?+s mu/ be =ese5 ere !y c be realiz$--appreh5d$ ere !y be compreh5d$4 ,?is mu* he c\ld say = himself1 & no m1 t he 0 ready to lay d[n 8 life = ! m]e ,,*ance1 if he might s use ! ^w1 ( ^! ?+s be+ true2 nor did he argue any devotion 9 t1 see+ life )\t !m w\ld be to him a wa/e ( unreality4 ,he c\ld be> witness to no facts--b to ! tru?1 to ! lovel9ess & h>mony & righte\sness & safety t he saw 9 ! idea ( ! ,son ( ,man--z he read x 9 ! /ory4 ,he d>$ n say :at1 9 a "t ( p]secution1 torture might "w ^u him1 b he felt "r hopeful t1 ev5 7 he base en\gh to d5y him1 any cock might cr[ him back to rep5tance4 ,at ! same "t he saw pla9 en\gh t ev5 if he gave 8 body to be burn$1 x 7 no suffic+ assurance ( 8 ,*ri/ianity3 no?+ c\ld satisfy him ( t less ?an ! consci\s pres5ce ( ! p]fect *>ity4 ,)\t t he 0 /ill outside ! k+dom1 w&]+ 9 a dream ar\nd its walls4 ,difficulties w5t on pres5t+ !mselves2 at times he w\ld be ov]:elm$ 9 ! toss+ waves ( contradiction & impossibility2 b /ill 8 head w\ld come up into ! air & he w\ld get a brea? be=e he w5t d[n aga94 ,& ) e fre% conflict1 e fre% gleam ( d\btful victory1 ! ess5tial idea ( ! ma/] look$ m & m lovely4 ,& he began to see ! work+ ( 8 d\bts on ! gr[? ( 8 he>t & s\l--bo? wid5+ & realiz+ 8 fai?1 & prev5t+ x f becom+ fai? 9 an idea ( ,god in/ead ( 9 ! liv+ ,god--! ,god beyond z well z 9 ! he>t t ?\ght & will$ & imag9$4 ,he _h mu* "t = reflection z he sat sil5t by ! b$side ( ,leopold4 ,sometimes ,hel5 w\ld be sitt+ ne>1 ?\gh g5]ally :5 he arriv$ %e w5t out = h] walk1 b nev] any?+ came to him he c\ld utt] to h]4 ,& %e 0 "o ( ^? :o le>n little f o!r p4 ,a *ange mu/ pass ^u h] ere %e c\ld be rightly receptive4 ,"s vap\r or o!r t cl\d$ h] be+ mu/ be driv5 to ! w9ds fir/4 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn _h become at lea/ reconcil$ to ! frequ5t pres5ce ( ! curate1 p>tly f ! te/imony ( ,hel51 p>tly f ! witness ( h] own eyes to ! quality ( 8 m9i/rations4 ,%e 0 by no means "o ( ! lovelie/ among wom51 yet %e _h a he>t1 & c\ld appreciate "s k9ds ( goodness :i* ! arrogance ( h] relation to ! *ur* did n int]f]e to hide--= no?+ is s dead5+ to ! div9e z an habitual deal+ ) ! outsides ( holy ?+s--& %e became half-fri5dly & q c\rte\s :5 %e met ! curate on ! /air1 & w\ld n[ & !n1 :5 %e ?\ght ( x1 br+ him a glass ( w9e z he sat by ! b$side4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,,an ,,exam9ation4 ,! acqua9tance betwe5 ! drap] & ! gate-keep] rapidly rip5$ into fri5d%ip4 ,v g5]ally1 z soon z he _h %ut 8 %op1 ,drew w\ld walk to ! p>k-gate to see ,polw>?2 & ?ree times a week at lea/1 ! curate made "o ( ! p>ty4 ,mu* 0 !n talk$1 m 0 ?\ght1 & ,i v5ture to say1 m yet 0 und]/ood4 ,"o ev5+ ! curate w5t e>li] ?an usual1 & _h tea ) ! ,polw>?s4 ,d y rememb]1 he ask$ ( 8 ho/1 once putt+ to me ! "q :at our ,"l came into ?is _w =8 ,i d1 answ]$ ,polw>?4 ,& y rememb] ,i answ]$ y wrong3 ,i said x 0 to save ! _w4 ,i d4 ,b rememb]1 ,i said prim>ily1 = ( c\rse he did come to save ! _w4 ,yes1 j s y put x4 ,well1 ,i ?9k ,i c answ] ! "q correctly n[1 & 9 le>n+ ! true answ] ,i h le>n$ mu*4 ,did he n come fir/ ( all to d ! w ( 8 ,fa!r8 ,0 n 8 ,fa!r fir/ ) him always & 9 ev]y?+--8 fell[-m5 next--= !y 7 8 ,fa!r's8 ,i ne$ n say x--y "k t y are "r4 ,jesus is t5fold a real p]son to y--is he n--s9ce y discov]$ t tru?8 ,i ?9k s2 ,i hope s4 ,x does seem z if a gr& simple reality _h begun to dawn ^u me out ( ! fog--! =m z ( a man pure & simple1 because ! et]nal son ( ! ,fa!r4 ,& n[1 may ,i n ask--are y able to accept ! miracles1 ?+s 9 !mselves s improbable8 ,if we suppose ! "q settl$ z to :e!r ! man 0 :at he said1 !n all t rema9s is to ask :e!r ! works report$ ( him are consi/5t ) :at y c see ( ! "* ( ! man4 ,& to y !y seem--8 ,"s consi/5t1 o!rs n4 ,conc]n+ ! latt] ,i look = m light4 ,meantime let me ask y a "q ab\t !m4 ,:at 0 ! ma9 object ( miracles8 ,"o ?+ at lea/ ,i h le>n$1 ,mr4 ,polw>? & t is1 n to answ] any "q ( y\rs 9 a hurry1 said ,w+fold4 ,i w1 if y please1 take ?is "o home ) me1 & hold ! light to x4 ,d1 said ,polw>?1 & y w f9d x return y ! light ?reefold4--,"o ^w m1 ere ,mr4 ,drew comes3 d y /ill ?9k ( giv+ up y\r curacy8 ,i h almo/ =gott5 ,i ev] ?\ght ( su* a ?+4 ,:atev] en]gies ,i may or may n h1 ,i "k "o ?+ = c]ta91 t ,i c\ld n devote !m to any?+ else ,i %\ld ?9k entirely wor? do+4 ,inde$ no?+ else seems int]e/+ en\gh--no?+ to repay ! lab\r1 b ! tell+ ( my fell[-m5 ab\t ! "o man :o is ! tru?1 & to "k :om is ! life4 ,ev5 if !re be no h]eaft]1 ,i w\ld live my "t believ+ 9 a gr& ?+ t ought to be true if x is n4 ,no facts c take ! place ( tru?s1 & if ^! be n tru?s1 !n is ! l(tie/ "p ( our nature a wa/e4 ,let me hold by ! bett] ?an ! actual1 & fall into no?+ness (f ! same precipice ) ,jesus & ,john & ,paul & a ?\s& m1 :o 7 lovely 9 _! lives1 & ) _! dea? make ev5 ! no?+ness into :i* !y h pass$ l ! g>d5 ( ! ,"l4 ,i w g fur!r1 ,polw>?1 & say1 ,i w\ld r die = ev]more believ+ z ,jesus believ$1 ?an live = ev]more believ+ z ^? t d5y him4 ,if !re be no ,god1 ,i feel assur$ t exi/5ce is & c\ld be b a *aos ( contradictions1 :5ce c em]ge no?+ wor?y to be call$ a tru?1 no?+ wor? liv+ =4--,no1 ,i w n give up my curacy4 ,i w tea* t :i* ,,is good1 ev5 if !re %\ld be no ,god to make a fact ( x1 & ,i w sp5d my life on x1 9 ! gr[+ hope1 :i* ,,may become assurance1 t !re is inde$ a p]fect ,god1 wor?y ( be+ ! ,fa!r ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & t x 0 ,,because !y are true1 t ^! ?+s 7 lovely to me & to s _m m5 & wom51 ( :om "s h di$ = !m1 & "s w\ld be yet ready to die4 ,i ?ank my ,god to he> y say s4 ,nor w y /& /ill !re1 said ,polw>?4 ,b "h comes ,mr4 ,drew6 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,immortality4 ,h[ goes bus9ess8 said ,polw>?1 :5 ! new-com] _h seat$ himself4 ,t is h>dly a "q ,i look = f y1 sir1 return$ ! drap]1 smil+ all ov] 8 r\nd face1 :i* look$ m ?an ev] l a moon ( sup]ior intellig5ce4 ,= me1 ,i am glad to leave x beh9d me 9 ! %op4 ,true bus9ess c nev] be left 9 any %op4 ,x is a c>e1 :ite or black1 t sits beh9d e horseman4 ,t is fact2 & ) me x has j tak5 a new %ape1 said ,drew1 = ,i h come ) q a fre% difficulty4 ,s9ce ,i saw y la/1 ,mr4 ,polw>?1 a /range & v uncom=table d\bt has ru%$ 9 ^u me1 & ,i f9d myself altoge!r unfit to tackle x4 ,i h no weapons--n a s+le argum5t ( ! lea/ weight4 ,i wond] if x be a law ( nature t no soon] %all a man get into a muddle ) "o ?+1 ?an a ?\s& o!r muddles %all come p\r+ 9 ^u him1 z if ,muddle itself 7 go+ to swall[ him up6 ,"h am ,i j beg9n+ to get a little />t 9 hone/] ways1 :5 up comes ! ugly head ( ! said d\bt1 swell+ itself m & m to look l a fact--namely1 t aft] ?is _w !re is no?+ = u--no?+ at all to be _h anyh[--t z we came s we g--into life1 out ( life--t1 hav+ be5 no?+ be=e1 we %all be no?+ aft]6 ,! fl[]s come back 9 ! spr+1 & ! corn 9 ! autumn1 b !y a9't ! same fl[]s or ! same corn4 ,!y're j z diff]5t z ! new g5]ations ( m54 ,!re's no pret5ce t we come back ei!r4 ,we only ?9k we don't g into ! gr\nd1 b away some:]e else4 ,y c't prove t4 ,no4 ,& y don't "k any?+ ab\t x6 ,n mu*--b en\gh1 ,i ?9k4 ,:y1 ev5 ^? t pr(ess to believe x1 sc(f at ! idea ( an app>ition--a gho/6 ,t's ! fault ( ! gho/s1 ,i suspect--or _! report]s4 ,i don't c>e ab\t !m myself4 ,i pref] ! tale ( "o :o1 !y say1 rose aga91 & br\ght 8 body ) him4 ,yes2 b he 0 only "o6 ,except two or ?ree :om1 !y say1 he br\ght to life4 ,/ill !re are b ?ree or f\r4 ,to tell y ! tru?1 ,i d n c>e mu* to argue ! po9t ) y4--,x is by no means a matt] ( ! ,,fir/ importance :e!r we live = ev] or n4 ,mr4 ,polw>?6 exclaim$ ! drap] 9 su* a/oni%m5t m+l$ ) horror1 z prov$ he 0 n 9 imm$iate dang] ( becom+ an advocate ( ! doctr9e ( ext9ction4 ,! gate-keep] smil$ :at1 b = a peculi> expression ( undef9able good 9 x1 might h be5 call$ a kn[+ smile4 ,suppose a ?+ 7 9 itself n wor? hav+1 he said1 w\ld x be any great enhancem5t ( x z a gift to add ! assurance t ! possession ( x 0 et]nal6 ,mo/ p ?9k x a f9e ?+ to h a bit ( l& to call _! own & leave to _! *ildr52 b suppose a /9k+ & undra9able swamp1 full ( f\l spr+s--:at consolation w\ld x be to ! proprietor ( t to "k1 :ile ! _w la/$1 n a human be+ w\ld once dispute its possession ) any =tunate desc5dant hold+ x8 ,! drap] only />$1 b 8 />e 0 a ?or\gh "o4 ,! curate sat wait+1 ) bo? amusem5t & int]e/1 = :at w\ld foll[3 he saw ! direction 9 :i* ! little man 0 driv+4 ,y a/oni% me6 said ,mr4 ,drew1 recov]+ 8 m5tal brea?4 ,h[ c y comp>e ,god's gift to su* a horrible ?+6 ,:]e %\ld we be )\t life8 ,ra*el bur/ out laugh+1 & ! curate c\ld n help jo9+ h]4 ,mr4 ,drew1 said ,polw>?1 half m]rily1 are y go+ to help me drag my *a9 out ( its we>y l5g?1 or are y too mu* %ock$ at ! d\btful condition ( its l9ks to t\* !m8 ,i promise y ! la/ %all be ( bright gold4 ,i beg y\r p>don1 said ! drap]2 ,i might h kn[n y didn't mean x4 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i mean ev]y?+ ,i say & t lit]ally4 ,p]haps ,i don't mean ev]y?+ y fancy ,i mean4--,tell me !n1 w\ld life be wor? hav+ on any & e possible condition8 ,c]ta9ly n4 ,y "k "s1 ,i d>e say1 :o w\ld be glad to be rid ( life su* z x is1 & su* z !y suppose x mu/ cont9ue8 ,i don't4 ,i d4 ,i h already und]/ood t ev]ybody clung to life4 ,mo/ p d2 ev]ybody c]ta9ly does n3 ,job1 = in/ance4 ,!y say t is b a poem4 ,,b a poem6 ,,ev5 a poem--a repres5tation true n ( ?is or t individual1 b ( ! race6 ,!re ,,are su* p]sons z w\ld gladly be rid ( life1 & 9 _! condition all w\ld feel ! same4 ,some:at simil> is ! /ate ( ^? :o pr(ess unbelief 9 ! exi/5ce ( ,god3 none ( !m expect1 & few ( !m seem to wi% to live = ev]6--,at lea/1 s ,i am told4 ,t is no wond]1 said ! drap]2 --if !y don't believe 9 ,god1 ,i mean4 ,!n !re ,i h y6 ,!re y all[ life to be n wor? hav+1 if on c]ta9 evil conditions4 ,i admit x1 !n4 ,& ,i repeat t to prove life endless is a matt] ( ! ,,fir/ importance4 ,& ,i w g a little f>!r4--,does x foll[ t life is wor? hav+ because a man w\ld l to h x = ev]8 ,i %\ld say s2 :o %\ld be a bett] judge ?an ! man himself8 ,let u look at x a mom5t4 ,suppose--we w take a /rong case--suppose a man ^: :ole delight is 9 cruelty1 & :o has su* pl5tiful opportunity ( indulg+ ! passion t he f9ds x well ) him--su* a man w\ld ( c\rse desire su* a life to endure = ev]3 is su* a life wor? hav+8 7 x well t man %\ld be immortally cruel8 ,n = o!rs4 ,/ill less1 ,i say1 = himself4 ,9 ! judgm5t ( o!rs1 d\btless2 b to himself he w\ld be happy4 ,call 8 horrible satisfaction happ9ess !n1 & leave aside ! fact t 9 its own nature x is a horror1 & n a bliss3 a "t mu/ come1 :51 9 ! ex]cise ( 8 delight1 he %all h de/roy$ all life besides1 & made himself alone ) himself 9 an empty _w3 w he !n f9d life wor? hav+8 ,!n he ought to live = puni%m5t4 ,) t we h no?+ to d n[1 b !re y h giv5 me an answ] to my "q1 :e!r a man's judgm5t t 8 life is wor? hav+1 proves immortality a ?+ to be desir$4 ,i h4 ,i und]/& n[4 ,x foll[s t !re is some?+ ( prior importance to ! possession ( immortality3--:at is t some?+8 ,i suppose t ! immortality itself %\ld be wor? possess+4 ,yes2 t ! life %\ld be su* t x 7 well x %\ld be endless4--,& :at !n if x be n su*8 ,! "q !n w\ld be :e!r x c\ld n be made su*4 ,y are "r4--,& :]e9 consi/s ! ess5tial inh]5t wor?9ess ( a life z life8--,! only p]fect idea ( life is--a unit1 self-exi/5t1 & creative4 ,t is ,god1 ! only "o4 ,b to ?is idea1 9 its k9d1 mu/ e life1 to be complete z life1 correspond2 & ! human correspond5ce to self-exi/5ce is1 t ! man %\ld r\nd & complete himself by tak+ into himself t orig92 by go+ back & 9 8 own w adopt+ 8 orig91 root+ !re9 afre% 9 ! ex]cise ( 8 own fre$om & 9 all ! en]gy ( 8 own self-r\s$ w2 9 o!r words--t ! man say ,i w be aft] ! w ( ! creat+ ,i2 t he see & say ) 8 :ole be+ t to w ! w ( ,god 9 himself & = himself & conc]n+ himself1 is ! highe/ possible condition ( a man4 ,!n has he complet$ 8 cycle by turn+ back ^u 8 hi/ory1 lay+ hold ( 8 cause1 & will+ 8 own be+ 9 ! w ( ! only ,i ,,am4 ,?is is ! r\nd+1 re-creat+1 unify+ ( ! man4 ,?is is religion1 & all t ga!rs n ) ?is1 scatt]s abroad4 ,& !n1 said ,drew1 ) "s eag]ness1 lawfully comes ! "q1 ',%all ,i1 or %all ,i n live = ev]8' ,p>don me2 ,i ?9k n1 return$ ! little prophet4 ,i ?9k r we h done ) x = ev]4 ,! man ) life s 9 himself1 w n dream ( ask+ :e!r he %all live4 ,x is only 9 ! twilight ( a half-life1 hold+ 9 x at once mu* :]e=e x %\ld desire its own cont9uance1 & mu* t r5d]s x unwor?y ( cont9uance1 t ! d\btful desire ( immortality c arise4--,d y rememb]--"h ,polw>? turn$ to ,w+fold--my m5tion+ to y once a c]ta9 manuscript ( /range int]e/--to me at lea/ & ,ra*el--:i* a bro!r ( m9e left beh9d him8 ,i rememb] x p]fectly1 answ]$ ! curate4 ,x seems s to m+le ) all ,i ev] ?9k on ?is "q1 t ,i %\ld mu* l1 if y g5tlem5 w\ld all[ me1 to read "s extracts f x4 ,no?+ c\ld h be5 he>ti] ?an ! assurance ( bo? ! m5 t !y c\ld b be delight$ to li/5 to any?+ he *ose to give !m4 ,i mu/ fir/ tell y1 h[ev]1 said ,polw>?1 m]ely to protect y f c]ta9 di/urb+ speculations1 o!rwise sure to pres5t !mselves1 t my poor bro!r 0 mad1 & t :at ,i n[ read portions ( seem$ to him no play ( ! imag9ation1 b a record ( absolute fact4 ,"s p>ts are /rang] & less intelligible ?an o!rs1 b ?r\gh x all !re is abundance ( intellectual movem5t1 & :at seems to me a wond]ful ke5ness to p]ceive ! movem5ts & arre/ ! indications ( an imag9$ consci\sness4 ,z he spoke1 ! little man 0 op5+ a cab9et 9 :i* he kept 8 preci\s ?+s4 ,he br\ght f x a good-siz$ qu>to volume1 neatly b\nd 9 morocco1 ) gilt edges1 :i* he seem$ to h&le n m]ely ) respect b ) t5d]ness4 ,! head+ ( ! next *apt] is my own1 & does n belong to ! manuscript4 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,,passages ,,f ,,! ,,autobiography ,,( ,,! ,,w&]+ ,,jew4 ',i h at l5g? be5 ill1 v ill1 once m1 & = _m reasons =eign to ! weightie/1 :i* ,i _h =gott51 ,i _h hop$ t ,i 0 go+ to die4 ,b !re9 ,i am z usual deceiv$ & disappo9t$4 ,t ,i h be5 out ( my m9d ,i "k1 by hav+ return$ to ! real k ( :at ,i am4 ,! consci\s pres5t has aga9 fall5 toge!r & made a :ole ) ! pa/1 & t :ole is my p]sonal id5tity4 ',h[ ,i broke loose f ! bonds ( a madness1 :i*1 aft] s _m & heavy ye>s ( un9t]rupt$ sanity1 _h at l5g? laid hold ^u me1 ,i w n[ relate4 ',i _h1 z ,i h said1 be5 v ill--) "s sort ( fev] t _h f\nd fit root+ 9 a bra9 ov]we>i$1 f n hav+ be5 orig9ally con/ruct$ to la/ s long4 ,:e!r x came n ( an indwell+ demon1 or a legion ( demons1 ,i _c tell--,god kn[s4 ,surely ,i 0 z "o possess$4 ,i 0 mad1 :e!r = ye>s1 or b = mom5ts--:o c tell8 ,i _c4 ,v]ily x seems = _m ye>s2 b1 kn[+ well ! tru? conc]n+ ! relations ( "t 9 him t dreame? & wake? f 8 dream1 ,i place no confid5ce 9 ! te/imony ( ! impressions left ^u my seem+ memory4 ,i c h[ev] tru/ x suffici5tly z to ! "* ( ! illusions t !n possess$ me4 ,i imag9$ myself an ,engli%man call$ ,polw>?1 ( an anci5t ,corni% family4 ,inde$1 ,i _h 9 my imag9ation1 z ,polw>?1 gone ?r\gh ! hi/ory1 e day ( x1 ) its sunrise & sunset1 ( m ?an half a lifetime4 ,i _h a bro!r :o 0 de=m$ & a dw>f1 & a daught] :o 0 l him2 & ! only ?+1 ?r\gh\t ! madness1 t approa*$ a consci\sness ( my real be+ & hi/ory1 0 ! impression t ^! ?+s _h come ^u me because ( a c]ta9 griev\s wrong ,i _h at "o "t committ$1 :i* wrong1 h[ev]1 ,i _h q =gott5--& c\ld ill h imag9$ 9 its native hide\sness4 ',b "o morn+1 j z ,i woke1 aft] a re/less night fill$ ) dreams1 ,i 0 aw>e ( a half-embodi$ %ad[ 9 my m9d-- :e!r ?\ght or memory or imag9ation1 ,i c\ld n tell3 & ! /range ?+ 01 t x d>kly radiat$ f x ! conviction t ,i mu/ hold & id5tify x1 or be = ev] lo/ to myself4 ,!re=e1 ) all ! might ( my w to reta9 ! %ad[1 & all ! en]gy ( my recollection to recall t ( :i* x 0 ! vague %ad[1 ,i conc5trat$ ! :ole p[] ( my spiritual man ^u ! phantom ?\ght1 to fix & reta9 x4 ',ev]yone kn[s :at x is to hunt su* a =mless fact4 ,evanesc5t z a ra9b[1 its :ole appe>ance1 f ! fir/1 is t ( a ?+ 9 ! act ( vani%+4 ,x is a ?+ t 0 kn[n1 b1 f ! mom5t consci\sness turn$ its lant]n ^u x1 began to become invisible4 ,= a "t1 dur+ ! close pursuit t foll[s1 x seems only to be turn+ corn] aft] corn] to evade ! m9d's eye1 b beh9d e corn] x leaves a portion ( itself2 until at l5g?1 al?\gh :5 f9ally _c be told1 x is gone s utt]ly t ! m9d rema9s agha/ 9 ! p]plexity ( ! d\bt :e!r ev] !re 0 a ?\ght !re at all4 ',?r\gh\t my delusion ( an ,engli% exi/5ce1 ,i _h be5 torm5t$ 9 my wak+s ) su* ?\ght-phantoms1 & ev] _h ,i foll[$ !m1 z an idle man may foll[ a flitt+ m>%-fire4 ,inde$1 ,i _h gr[n s mu* int]e/$ 9 ! ph5om5on & its possible indications t ,i _h inv5t$ v>i\s !ories to acc\nt = !m1 "s ( :i* seem$ to myself orig9al & +5i\s1 :ile ! common idea t !y are vague rem9isc5ces ( a =m] /ate ( be+1 ,i _h aga9 & aga9 exam9$1 & z (t5 entirely reject$1 z 9 no way t5able or v]isimil>4 ',b ^u ! morn+ to :i* ,i h ref]r$1 ,i succe$$1 = ! fir/ "t1 9 fix+1 captur+1 id5tify+ ! haunt+1 flutt]+ ?+4 ,t mom5t ! bonds ( my madness 7 brok54 ,my pa/ return$ ^u me4 ,i _h b to ?9k 9 any direction1 & e occurr5ce1 ) "t & place & all its circum/ance1 rose aga9 be=e me4 ,! awful fact ( my own be+ once m /ood b>e--awful always--t5fold m awful aft] su* a p]iod ( blissful oblivion !re(3 ,i 01 ,i _h be51 ,i am n[1 z ,i write1 ! man s my/]i\s 9 crime1 s unlike all o!r m5 9 8 puni%m5t1 kn[n by v>i\s names 9 v>i\s l&s--"h 9 ,engl& z ! ,w&]+ ,jew4 ,ahasu]us 0 himself aga91 alas6--himself & no o!r4 ,wife1 daught]1 bro!r vani%$1 & return$ only 9 dreams4 ,i 0 & rema9 ! w&]]1 ! undy+1 ! rep5tant1 ! un=giv54 ,o he>t6 ,o we>y feet6 ,o eyes t h se5 & nev] m %all see1 until !y see once & are bl9d$ = ev]6 ,back ^u my s\l ru%es ! memory ( my de$1 l a /orm ( hail m+l$ ) fire1 fla%+ ?r\gh e old dry *annel1 t x ?robs & wri!s anew1 scor*$ at once & torn ) ! poison\s burn+4 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,,! ,,w&]+ ,,jew4 ',x 0 a fair summ]-morn+ 9 holy ,j]usalem1 & ,i sat & wr\ght at my trade1 = ,i sew$ a pair ( s&als = ! feet ( ! high prie/ ,caiaphas4 ,& ,i wr\ght dilig5tly1 = x behov$ me to cease an h\r ere set ( sun1 = x 0 ! day ( prep>ation = ! eat+ ( ! ,passov]4 ',n[ all t night !re _h be5 a go+ to & fro 9 ! city1 = ! *ief prie/s & _! foll[]s _h at l5g? laid h&s ^u him t 0 call$ ,jesus1 :om "s believ$ to be ! ,messiah1 & o!rs1 ) my fool-self among/ !m1 an ar*-impo/or & blasphem]4 ,= ,i 0 ( ! h\se ( ,caiaphas1 & he>tily did desire t ! man my "l decl>$ a deceiv] ( ! p1 %\ld meet ) ! j rew>d ( 8 do+s4 ,?us ,i sat & work$1 & ?\ght & rejoic$2 & ! morn+ pass$ & ! noon came4 ',x 0 a day ( sultry summ]1 & ! /reet burn$ b5ea? ! sun1 & ,i sat 9 ! %ad[ & look$ out ^u ! gl>e2 & ev] ,i wr\ght at ! s&als ( my "l1 ) _m f9e /it*es1 9 cunn+ workman%ip4 ,all _h be5 = "s "t v /ill1 :5 sudd5ly ,i ?\ght ,i he>d a f>-(f tumult4 ,& soon came ! idle *ildr51 :o ev] run fir/ t !y be n swall[$ up ( ! cr[d2 & !y ran & look$ beh9d z !y ran4 ,& aft] !m came ! cr[d1 cry+ & %\t+1 & sway+ hi!r & ?i!r2 & 9 ! mid/ ( x arose ! "o arm ( a cross1 b5ea? ! weight ( :i* t same ,jesus b5t s l[ t ,i saw him n4 ,truly1 said ,i1 he ha? n seldom borne heavi] burd5s 9 ! work%op ( 8 fa!r ! ,galilean1 b n[ 8 s9s & 8 idl5ess h f\nd him1 & tak5 f him 8 vig\r2 = he t despise? ! law %all p]i%1 :ile !y t wait ^u ! ,"l %all r5ew _! /r5g?4 ,= ,i 0 wro? ) ! man :o taught ! p to despise ! great ones t adm9i/]$ ! law1 & give hon\r to ! small ones :o only kept x4 ,besides1 he _h driv5 my fa!r's bro!r f ! c\rt ( ! ,g5tiles ) a :ip1 :i* truly hurt him n outw>dly1 b /ung him to ! s\l2 & yet t v temple :i* he pret5d$ ?us to hon\r1 he _h ?reat5$ to de/roy & build aga9 9 ?ree days6 ,su* 7 ! ?\ghts ( my he>t2 & :5 ,i le>n$ f ! boys t x 0 9 tru? ,jesus ( ,naz>e? :o pass$ on 8 way to ,calv>y to be crucifi$1 my he>t leap$ )9 me at ! ?\ght t ! law _h at l5g? ov]tak5 ! malefactor4 ,i laid d[n ! s&al & my awl1 & rose & w5t =? & /ood 9 ! front ( my %op4 ,& ,jesus drew nigh1 & z he pass$1 lo1 ! end ( ! cross dragg$ ^u ! /reet4 ,& "o 9 ! cr[d came beh9d1 & lift$ x up & pu%$ !re)1 s t ,jesus /agg]$ & _h nigh fall54 ,!n w\ld be fa9 h re/$ ! arm ( ! cross on ! /one by :i* ,i 0 wont to g up into my %op f ! /reet4 ,b ,i cri$ out1 & drove him !nce1 say+ scornfully1 ,g on ,jesus2 g on4 ,truly ?\ re/e/ n on /one ( m9e6 ,!n turn$ he 8 eyes ^u me1 & said1 ,i g inde$1 b ?\ goe/ n2 & !re) he rose aga9 "u ! weight ( ! cross1 & /agg]$ on1 ',& ,i foll[$ 9 ! cr[d to ,calv>y4' ,"h ! read] paus$ & said1 ,i c give y b a few passages n[4 ,y see x is a l>ge manuscript4 ,i w !re=e *oose "s ( ^? t be> ^u ! subject ( :i* we h be5 talk+4 ,a detail$ acc\nt ( ! crucifixion foll[s "h1 :i* ,i c\ld n br+ myself to read al\d4 ,! eclipse is 9 x1 & ! e>?quake1 & ! :ite faces ( ! ris5 dead gleam+ ?r\gh ! d>kness ab\t ! cross4 ,x ends ?us3 ',& all ! "t1 ,i /ood n f> f ! foot ( ! cross1 nor d>$ g ne>]1 = ar\nd x 7 8 "m & !y t 7 ) h]1 & my he>t 0 sore = h] also4 ,& ,i w\ld h )drawn my foot f ! place :]e ,i /ood1 & gone home to weep1 b some?+1 ,i "k n :at1 held me !re z x 7 root$ to ! gr\nd4 ,at l5g? ! end 0 draw+ ne>4 ,he op5$ 8 m\? & spake to 8 "m & ! disciple :o /ood by h]1 b truly ,i "k n :at he said1 = z 8 eyes turn$ f !m1 !y look$ ^u me1 & my he>t di$ )9 me4 ,he said n\ght1 b 8 eyes _h t 9 !m t w\ld h sla9 me ) sorr[1 _h n dea?1 al?\gh ,i knew x n1 already %runk f my pres5ce1 d>+ no m come nigh su* a malefactor4--,oh ,dea?1 h[ gladly w\ld ,i build !e a temple1 set !e 9 a l(ty place1 & wor%ip !e ) ! sacrifice ( vultures on a fire ( dead m5's bones1 w\ld/ ?\ b he> my cry6--,b ,i rave aga9 9 my folly6 ,god =give me4 ,all ! days ( my appo9t$ "t w ,i wait until my *ange come4--,) t look--a well ( ev]la/+ te>s 9 my ?robb+ bra9--my feet 7 unroot$1 & ,i fl$4' ,"h ! read] paus$ aga91 & turn$ ov] _m leaves4 ',& ev] z ,i pass$ at night ?r\gh ! l&s1 :5 ,i came to a cross by ! wayside1 !reon w\ld ,i climb1 &1 w9d+ my arms ab\t its arms & my feet ab\t its /em1 w\ld !re hang 9 ! d>kness or ! moon1 9 ra9 or hail1 9 w9d or sn[ or fro/1 until my s9ews gave way1 & my body dropp$1 & ,i knew no m until ,i f\nd myself ly+ at its foot 9 ! morn+4 ,=1 ev] 9 su* case1 ,i lay )\t s5se until aga9 ! sun %one ^u me4 '444 ,& if ev] ! memory ( t look pass$ f me1 !n1 /raightway ,i began to long = dea?1 & s long$ until ! memory & ! p[] ( ! look came aga91 & ) ! sorr[ 9 my s\l came ! pati5ce to live4 ,& truly1 al?\gh ,i speak ( =gett+ & rememb]+1 su* motions ( my _s 9 me 7 n z ^? ( ano!r man2 9 me !y are n measur$ by ! scale ( m5's lives2 !y are n ( ye>s1 b ( c5turies2 = ! seconds ( my life are tick$ by a clock ^: p5dulum sw+s ?r\gh an arc ( motionless />s4 '444 ,once ,i _h a vision ( ,dea?4 ,me?9ks x mu/ h be5 a precursive vap\r ( ! madness t aft]w>ds infold$ me1 = ,i "k well t !re is n "o call$ ,dea?1 t he is b a ^w ne$ful to ! weakness ( human ?\ght & ! pov]ty ( human spee*2 t he is a no-be+1 & b a *ange f t :i* is4--,i _h a vision ( ,dea?1 ,i say4 ,& x 0 on ?is wise3 ',i 0 walk+ ov] a wide pla9 ( s&1 l ,egypt1 s t ev] & anon ,i look$ ar\nd me to see if n[h]e1 f ! base ( ! horizon1 ! pyramids cut _! triangle out ( ! blue night ( heav52 b ,i saw none4 ,! />s came d[n & sp>kl$ on ! dry s&s1 & all 0 wa/e1 & wide desolation4 ,! air also 0 /ill z ! air ( a wall$-up tomb1 :]e !re are b dry bones1 & n ev5 ! w9d ( an evil vap\r t rises f decay4 ,& ?r\gh ! dead air came ev] ! l[ moan+ ( a di/ant sea1 t[>ds :i* my feet did be> me4 ,i _h be5 j\rney+ ?us = ye>s1 & 9 _! lapse x _h gr[n b a little l\d]4--,sudd5ly ,i 0 aw>e t ,i 0 n alone4 ,a dim figure /rode beside me1 vague1 b c]ta9 ( pres5ce4 ,& ,i fe>$ him n1 see+ t :i* m5 fe> ! mo/ 0 itself t :i* by me 0 ! mo/ desir$4 ,s ,i /ood & turn$ & w\ld h spok54 ,b ! %ade t seem$ n a %ad[1 w5t on & reg>d$ me n4 ,!n ,i also turn$ aga9 t[>ds ! moan+ ( ! sea & w5t on4 ,& lo6 ! %ade :i* _h gone be=e until x seem$ b z a vap\r among ! />s1 0 aga9 by my side walk+4 ,& ,i said1 & /ood n1 b walk$ on3 ,?\ %ade t art n a %ad[1 see+ !re %9e? no sun or moon1 & ! />s are _m1 & ! "o slaye? ! %ad[ ( ! o!r1 :at art ?\1 & :]e=e goe/ ?\ by my side8 ,?9k n to make me afraid1 = ,i fe> no?+ 9 ! univ]se b t :i* ,i love ! be/4--,i spake ( ! eyes ( ! ,"l ,jesus4--,!n ! %ade t seem$ no %ad[ answ]$ me & spake & said3 ,little kn[e/ ?\ :at ,i am1 see+ ! v ?+ ?\ saye/ ,i am n1 t ,i am1 & n\ght else1 & !re is no o!r b me4 ,i am ,%ad[1 ! %ad[1 ! only %ad[--none su* z ^? f :i* ! light hide? 9 t]ror1 yet l !m1 = life hide? f me & turne? away1 yet if life 7 n1 nei!r 7 ,i1 = ,i am no?+2 & yet aga91 z soon z any?+ is1 !re am ,i1 & ne$$ no mak]1 b came ( myself1 = ,i am ,dea?4--,ha6 ,dea?6 ,i cri$1 & w\ld h ca/ myself be=e him ) out/ret*$ arms ( wor%ipful entreaty2 b lo1 !re 0 a %ad[ ^u ! belt ( ,orion1 & no %ad[ by my side6 & ,i sigh$1 & walk$ on t[>ds ! ev] moan+ sea4 ,!n aga9 ! %ad[ 0 by my side4 ,& aga9 ,i spake & said3 ,?\ ?+ ( flitt+ & return1 ,i despise !e1 = ?\ wilt n abide ! conflict4 ,& ,i w\ld h ca/ myself ^u him & wre/l$ ) him !re1 = defeat & n = victory4 ,b ,i c\ld n lay hold ^u him4 ,?\ art a p[]less no?+1 ,i cri$2 ,i w n ev5 defy !e4--,?\ w\ld/ provoke me1 said ! %ad[2 b x availe? n4 ,i _c be provok$4 ,truly1 ,i am b a %ad[1 yet "k ,i my own wor?1 = ,i am ! ,%ad[ ( ! ,almighty1 & :]e he is1 !re am ,i--,?\ art no?+1 ,i said4--,nay1 nay1 ,i am n ,no?+4 ,?\1 nor any man--,god only kn[e? :at t ^w meane?4 ,i am b ! %ad[ ( ,no?+1 & :5 ,,?\ saye/ ,,no?+1 ?\ meane/ only me2 b :at ,god meane? :5 he saye? ,,no?+--! no?+ )\t him1 t no?+ :i* is no %ad[ b ! v sub/ance ( ,unbe+--no creat$ s\l c "k4--,!n art ?\ n ,dea?8 ,i ask$4--,i am :at ?\ ?9ke/ ( :5 ?\ saye/ ,dea?1 he answ]$1 b ,i am n ,dea?4--,alas1 !n6 :y come/ ?\ to me 9 ! des]t places1 = ,i did ?9k ?\ wa/ ,dea? inde$1 & c\ld/ take me unto !e s t ,i %\ld be no m4--,t is :at dea? _c d = !e1 said ! %ad[2 none b he t creat$ !e c cause t ?\ %\ld/ be no m4 ,?\ art until he w t ?\ be n4 ,i h he>d x said among/ ! wise t1 h>d z x is to create1 x is h>d] /ill to uncreate4 ,truly ,i _c tell4 ,b w\ld/ ?\ be uncreat$ by ! h& ( ,dea?8 ,w\ld/ ?\ h ?y no-be+ ! gift ( a %ad[8--,!n ,i ?\ght ( ! eyes ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 & ! look he ca/ ^u me1 & ,i said1 ,no3 ,i w\ld n be c>ri$ away ( ,dea?4 ,i w\ld be fulfill$ ( ,life1 & /& be=e ,god = ev]4 ,!n once aga9 ! belt ( ,orion grew dim1 & ,i saw ! %ad[ no m4 ,& yet did ,i long = ,dea?1 = ,i ?\ght he might br+ me to ^? eyes1 & ! p>don t lay 9 !m4 ',b aga91 z ! ye>s w5t on1 & ea* br\ght less hope ?an t be=e x1 ,i =got ! look ! ,"l _h ca/ ^u me1 & 9 ! we>9ess ( ! life t 0 mortal & yet w\ld n cease1 9 ! long+ aft] ! natural end ( t :i* aga9/ nature endur$1 ,i began to long ev5 = ! end ( be+ itself4 ,& 9 a city ( ! ,g]mans1 ,i f\nd c]ta9 m5 ( my own nation :o said unto me3 ,fe> n1 ,ahasu]us2 !re is no life beyond ! grave4 ,live on until ?y end come1 & cease ?y compla9ts4 ,:o is !re among u :o w\ld n gladly take ^u him ?y judgm5t1 & live until he 0 we>y ( liv+8--,yea1 b to live aft] ?\ art we>y8 ,i said4 ,b !y he$$ me n1 answ]+ me & say+3 ,se>* ?\ ! ,scriptures1 ev5 ! ,book ( ! ,law1 & see if ?\ f9d !re "o leaf ( ?is g\rd ( a fai? t ha? sprung up 9 a night4 ,v]ily1 ?is immortality is b a fla% 9 ! bra9 ( m5 t w\ld rise above _! fate4 ,saye? ,moses1 or saye? ,job1 or saye? ,david or ,daniel a ^w ( ! matt]8 ,& ,i li/5$ unto !m1 & became ( _! m9d4 ,b !re)al ! long+ aft] dea? return$ ) t5fold =ce & ,i rose up & girt my g>m5t ab\t me1 & w5t =? once m to se>* = him :om ,i n[ took = ! port] ( ! gate ( et]nal sil5ce & unfelt repose4 ,& ,i said unto myself z ,i walk$3 ,:at 9 ! old days 0 sweet] :5 ,i 0 we>y ) my lab\r at mak+ ( %oes1 ?an to f9d myself dropp+ into ! dea? ( sleep6 h[ mu* sweet] !n mu/ x n be to s9k into ! sleepie/ ( sleeps1 ! fa!r-sleep1 ! "m-bosom$ dea? ( no?+ness & unawak+ re/6 ,!n %all all ?is endless :ir ( ! :eels ( ?\ght & desire be ov]2 !n welcome ! night ^: d>kness do? n see!1 & :i* no morn+ %all ev] /ir6 ',& :]ev] armies 7 draw+ nigh1 ea* to ! o!r1 & ! day ( battle 0 ne>1 ?i!r ,i flew 9 hot ha/e1 t ,i might be fir/ ^u ! field1 & ready to welcome hotte/ p]il4 ,i f\ght n1 = ,i w\ld n slay ^? t c\nt$ x n ! good ?+ to be sla91 z ,i c\nt$ x4 ,b _h ! armies be5 ( m5 t lov$ dea? l me1 h[ _h ,i rag$ among !m !n1 ev5 z ! angel ,azrael to give !m _! sore-desir$ re/6 = ,i lov$ & hat$ n my k9d1 & w\ld dilig5tly h m[n !m d[n out ( ! /++ air ( life into ! s(t balm ( ! sepul*re4 ,b :at !y s\ght n1 & ,i !re=e w\ld n give1 t se>*$ ,i aft] ! m eag]ly = myself4 ,& my sight grew s ke5 t1 :5 yet no bigg] ?an a mote 9 ! sunbeam1 ,i c\ld always descry ! vulture-sc\t1 hang+ al(t ov] ! field ( de/9y4 ,!n w\ld ,i ha/5 on & on1 until a swoop w\ld h br\ght him /raight on my head4 ',& ) t a troop ( horsem51 horses & m5 mad ) liv+ fe>1 came ) a level ru% t[>ds ! spot :]e ,i sat1 fa9t ) woe4 ,& ,i sprang up1 & b\nd$ to meet !m1 ?r[+ my arms al(t & %\t+1 z "o :o w\ld turn a h]d4 ,& l a wave ( ! ris+ tide be=e a swift w9d1 a wave t sweeps on & breaks n1 !y came h>d-buffet+ ov] my head4 ,ah6 t 0 a torr5t inde$6--a ?und]\s succession ( solid bill[s1 alive1 hurl$ along by ! hurricane-fe> 9 ! he>t ( !m6 ,= "o mom5t only ,i felt & knew :at ,i lay b5ea?1 & !n = a "t !re 0 no?+4--,i woke 9 sil5ce1 & ?\ght ,i 0 dy+1 t ,i _h all b pass$ across ! invisible l9e betwe51 & 9 a mom5t !re w\ld be = ev]more no?+ & no?+4 ,!n foll[$ aga9 an empty space z x seem$4 ,& n[ ,i am dead & gone1 ,i said1 & %all w&] no m4 ,& ) t came ! agony ( hell1 =1 lo1 /ill ,i ,,?\ght6 ,& ,i said to myself1 ,alas6 ,o ,god6 =1 not)/&+ ,i no m see or he> or ta/e or smell or t\*1 & my body ha? dropp$ f me1 /ill am ,i ,ahasu]us1 ! ,w&]]1 & mu/ g on & on & on1 bl9d & deaf1 ?r\gh ! unutt]able wa/es t "k n ! s5ses ( man--nev]more to f9d re/6 ,alas6 dea? is n dea?1 see+ he slaye? b ! lea!rn bottle1 & spille? n ! w9e ( life ^u ! e>?4 ,alas6 alas6 = ,i _c die6 ,& ) t a f+] twit*$1 & ,i %\t$ al\d = joy3 ,i 0 yet 9 ! body6 ,& ,i sprang to my feet jubilant1 &1 lame & bruis$ & brok5-arm$1 tott]$ away aft] ,dea?1 :o yet might hold ! secret ( et]nal repose4 ,i 0 alive1 b yet !re 0 hope1 = ,dea? 0 yet be=e me6 ,i 0 alive1 b ,i _h n di$1 & :o c\ld tell b ,i might yet f9d ! lovely night t ha? nei!r cl\ds nor />s6 ,i _h n pass$ into ! l& ( ! dead & f\nd myself yet liv+6 ,! wise m5 ( my nation 9 ! city ( ! ,alma9s might yet be wise6 ,& = an h\r ,i rejoic$1 & 0 glad greatly4' ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,! ,,w&]+ ,,jew4 ,x 0 midnight1 & sultry z hell4 ,all day n a brea? _h /irr$4 ,! c\ntry ?r\gh :i* ,i pass$ 0 level z ! sea t _h once fl[$ above x4 ,my he>t _h almo/ ceas$ to beat1 & ,i 0 we>y z ! man :o is too we>y to sleep outright1 & lab\rs 9 8 dreams4 ,i slumb]$ & yet walk$ on4 ,my blood fl[$ sc>ce fa/] ?an ! sluggi% wat] 9 ! _m canals ,i cross$ on my we>y way4 ,& ev] ,i ?\ght to meet ! %ad[ t 0 & 0 n dea?4 ,b ?is 0 no dream4 ,j on ! /roke ( midnight1 ,i came to ! gate ( a l>ge city1 & ! wat*]s let me pass4 ,?r\gh _m an anci5t & l(ty /reet ,i w&]$1 l a gho/ 9 a dream1 kn[+ no "o1 & c>+ n = myself1 & at l5g? rea*$ an op5 space :]e /ood a great *ur*1 ! cross ^u ^: spire seem$ bejewell$ ) ! />s ^u :i* x dwelt4 ,& 9 my s\l ,i said1 ,o ,"l ,jesus6 & w5t up to ! base ( ! t[]1 & f\nd ! door !re( op5 to my h&4 ,!n ) my /aff ,i asc5d$ ! w9d+ /airs1 until ,i rea*$ ! op5 sky4 ,& ! /airs w5t /ill w9d+1 on & on1 up t[>ds ! />s4 ,& ) my /aff ,i asc5d$1 & arose into ! sky1 until ,i /ood at ! foot ( ! cross ( /one4 ',ay me6 h[ ! c5turies )\t ha/e1 )\t re/1 _h glid$ along s9ce ,i /ood by ! cross ( di%on\r & pa96 ,& ,god _h n gr[n we>y ( 8 life yet1 b ,i _h gr[n s we>y 9 my v bones t we>9ess 0 my elem5t1 & ,i _h ceas$ almo/ to note x4 ,& n[1 high-uplift$ 9 hon\r & wor%ip ov] e popul\s city1 /ood ! cross among ! />s6 ,i scrambl$ up ! p9nacles1 & up on ! c>v5 /em ( ! cross1 = my s9ews 7 z /eel1 & my muscles _h dri$ & h>d5$ until !y 7 z ^? ( ! tig] or ! great s]p5t4 ,s ,i climb$1 & lift$ up myself until ,i rea*$ ! great arms ( ! cross1 & ov] !m ,i flung my arms1 z 0 my wont1 & entw9$ ! /em ) my legs1 & !re hung1 ?ree hundr$ feet above ! ro(s ( ! h\ses4 ,& z ,i hung ! moon rose & ca/ ! %ad[ ( me ,ahasu]us ^u ! cross1 up aga9/ ! ,pleiades4 ,& z if dull ,nature 7 (f5d$ !reat1 nor und]/ood ! (f]+ ( my poor sacrifice1 ! cl\ds began to ga!r1 l ! vultures--no "o c\ld h told :5ce4 ,f all sides ar\nd !y rose1 & ! moon 0 blott$ out1 & !y ga!r$ & rose until !y met "r ov] ! cross4 ,& :5 !y clos$1 !n ! lightn+ brake =?1 & ! ?und] ) x1 & x fla%$ & ?und]$ above & ar\nd & b5ea? me1 s t ,i c\ld n tell :i* voice belong$ to :i* arr[1 = all 7 m+l$ 9 "o great confusion & upro>4 ,& ! p 9 ! h\ses bel[ he>d ! s\nd ( ! ?und]1 & !y look$ f _! w9d[s1 & !y saw ! /orm rav+ & fla%+ ab\t ! spire1 :i* /ood ! he>t ( ! agony1 & !y saw some?+ hang !re1 ev5 ^u its cross1 9 ! =m ( a man1 & !y came f _! h\ses1 & ! :ole space b5ea? 0 fill$ ) p1 :o /ood gaz+ up at ! m>vel4 ,a ,,miracle6 ,a ,,miracle6 !y cri$2 & truly x 0 no miracle--x 0 only me ,ahasu]us1 ! w&]] tak+ ?\ght conc]n+ 8 crime aga9/ ! crucifi$4 ,!n came a great light all ab\t me1 su* light = %9+ z ,i _h nev] be=e beheld1 & inde$ ,i saw x n all ) my eyes1 b ! great] "p ) my s\l1 :i* surely is ! light ( ! eyes !mselves4 ,& ,i said to myself1 ,d\btless ! ,"l is at h&1 & he come? to me z late to ! bless$ ,saul ( ,t>sus1 :o 0 ,,n ! *ief ( s9n]s1 b ,i--,ahasu]us1 ! accurs$4 ,& ! ?und] bur/ l ! bur/+ ( a _w 9 ! furnace ( ! sun2 & :e!r x 0 t ! lightn+ /ruck me1 or t ,i dropp$1 z 0 my cu/om1 outwe>i$ f ! cross1 ,i "k n1 b !reaft] ,i lay at its foot among ! p9nacles1 & :5 ! p look$ aga91 ! miracle 0 ov]1 & !y return$ to _! h\ses & slept4 ,& ! next day1 :5 ,i s\ght ! com=t ( ! ba?1 ,i f\nd ^u my side ! figure ( a cross1 & ! =m ( a man hang+ !reupon z ,i _h hung1 depa9t$ 9 a d>k col\r z ( lead pla9 ^u ! fle% ( my side ov] my he>t4 ,"h 0 a miracle inde$6 b v]ily ,i knew n :e!r !refrom to ga!r com=t or despair4 ',& x 0 night z ,i w5t into a village among ! m\nta9s1 ?r\gh ! des]t places ( :i* ,i _h all t day be5 w&]+4 ,& nev] be=e _h my condition seem$ to me s hopeless4 ,!re 0 n "o left ^u ! e>? :o _h ev] se5 me kn[+ me1 & al?\gh !re w5t a tale ( su* a man z ,i1 yet fai? _h s f> vani%$ f ! e>? t = a ?+ to be m>vell\s1 h[ev] j1 0 suffici5t reason :]e=e no man1 to be c\nt$ wise1 %\ld believe ! same4 ,= ! la/ fifty ye>s ,i _h f\nd n "o t w\ld receive my te/imony4 ,= :5 ,i told !m ! tru? conc]n+ myself1 say+ z ,i n[ say1 & kn[+ ! ?+ = true--t ,i 0 ,ahasu]us :om ! ,^w _h bani%$ f 8 home 9 ! regions gov]n$ ( ,dea?1 %utt+ aga9/ him ! door ( ! tomb t he %\ld n g 91 e man said ,i 0 mad1 & w\ld hold ) me no mann] ( communication1 m ?an if ,i _h be5 possess$ ) a legion ( sw9e-lov+ demons4 ,!re=e 0 ,i cold at he>t1 & lonely to ! v root ( my be+4 ,& ?us x 0 ) me t midnight z ,i ent]$ ! village among ! m\nta9s4--,n[ all !re9 slept1 s ev5 t n a dog b>k$ at ! s\nd ( my foot/eps4 ,b sudd5ly1 & my s\l yet quiv]s ) dismay at ! remembrance1 a yell ( horror tore its way f ! ?roat ( e sleep] at once1 & %ot into e cranny ( ! _m-fold$ m\nta9s1 t my s\l knock$ %ak+ aga9/ ! sides ( my body1 & ,i also %riek$ al\d ) ! ke5 t]ror ( ! cry4 ,= surely !re 0 no sleep] !re1 man1 woman1 or *ild1 :o yell$ n al\d 9 an agony ( fe>4 ,& ,i knew t x c\ld only be because ( ! unse5 pres5ce 9 _! /reet ( ! outca/1 ! homeless1 ! loveless1 ! w&]] = ev]1 :o _h refus$ a /one to 8 mak] :]eon to re/ 8 cross4 ,truly ,i "k n :5ce else c\ld h come t cry4 ,& ,i look$ to see t all ! inhabitants ( ! village %\ld ru% out ^u me1 & g = to slay ! unslayable 9 _! agony4 ,b ! cry pass$1 & aft] ! cry came aga9 ! /illness4 ,& = v dread le/ yet ano!r su* cry %\ld ent] my e>s1 & turn my he>t to a jelly1 ,i did ha/5 my /eps to leave ! dwell+s ( ! *ildr5 ( ! _w1 & pass out ^u ! pa?less hills aga94 ,b z ,i turn$ & w\ld h dep>t$1 ! door ( a h\se op5$ ov] aga9/ :]e ,i /ood2 & z x op5$1 lo6 a %>p gu/ ( w9d f ! m\nta9s swept along ! /reet1 & out into ! w9d came runn+ a girl1 clo!d only 9 ! g>m5t ( ! night4 ,& ! w9d blew ^u h]1 & by ! light ( ! moon ,i saw t h] h&s & h] feet 7 r\gh & br[n1 z ( "o t knew lab\r & h>d%ip1 b yet h] body 0 da9ty & fair1 & m\ld$ 9 lovel9ess4 ,h] hair blew ar\nd h] l a ra9 cl\d1 s t x almo/ bl9d$ h]1 & truly %e _h mu* ado to cle> x f h] face1 z a half-dr[n$ man w\ld cle> f 8 face ! wat]s :5ce he ha? be5 lift$2 & l two />s ( light f amid/ ! cl\d gaz$ =? ! eyes ( ! girl4 ,& %e look$ ^u me ) ! c\rage ( a *ild1 & %e said unto me1 ,/rang]1 kn[e/ ?\ :]e=e 0 t cry8 ,0 x ?\ :o did s cry 9 our /reet 9 ! night8 ,& ,i answ]$ h] & said1 ,v]ily n ,i1 maid51 b ,i too he>d ! cry1 & x %ook my s\l )9 me4--,:at seem$ x unto !e l1 %e ask$1 = truly ,i slept1 & "k only ! t]ror !re( & n ! s\nd8 ,& ,i said1 ,x seem$ unto me t e s\l 9 ! village cri$ out at once 9 "s dream ( horror4--,i cri$ n out1 %e said2 = ,i slept & dream$1 & my dream 0 su* t ,i "k v]ily ,i cri$ n out4 ,& ! maid5 0 lovely 9 h] innoc5ce4 ,& ,i said3 ,& 0 ?y dream su*1 maid51 t ?\ w\ld/ n refuse b w\ld/ tell x to an old man l me8 ,& ) t ! w9d came d[n f ! m\nta9 l a torr5t ( wolves1 & x laid hold ^u me & swept me f ! village1 & ,i fl$ be=e x1 & c\ld n /ay my /eps until ,i got me into ! cov]t ( a holl[ rock4 ',& sc>ce _h ,i turn$ 9 ?i!r :51 lo6 ?i!r came ! maid5 also1 fly+ 9 my foot/eps1 & driv5 ( ! self-same mighty w9d4 ,& ,i turn$ 9 pity & said1 ,fe> n1 my *ild4 ,"h is b an old man ) a sore & )]$ he>t1 & he w n h>m !e4--,i fe> !e n1 %e answ]$1 else w\ld ,i n h foll[$ !e4--,?\ did/ n foll[ me ( ?9e own incl9+1 ,i said1 b ! w9d t came f ! m\nta9s & swept me be=e x1 did be> !e aft] me4--,truly ,i "k ( no w9d1 %e said1 b ! w9d ( my own foll[+ ( !e4 ,:]e=e did/ ?\ flee f me8--,nay6 b :]e=e did/ ?\ foll[ me1 maid58--,t ,i might tell !e my dream to ! :i* ?\ did/ desire to he>k54 ,=1 lo6 z ,i slept ,i dream$ t a man came unto me & said1 ,behold1 ,i am ! unre/+ & undy+ "o1 & my burd5 is great] ?an ,i c be>1 = ,dea? :o befri5de? all is my enemy1 & w n look ^u me 9 peace4 ,& ) t came ! cry1 & ,i awoke1 & ran out to see :5ce came ! cry1 & f\nd !e alone 9 ! /reet4 ,& z ,god live?1 su* z 0 ! man 9 my dream1 su* art ?\ 9 my wak+ sight4--,n ! less mu/ ,i ask !e aga91 ,i said1 :]e=e did/ ?\ foll[ me8--,t ,i may com=t !e1 %e answ]$4--,& h[ ?9ke/ ?\ to com=t "o :om ,god ha? =sak58--,t _c be1 %e said1 see+ t 9 a vision ( ! night he s5t !e unto me1 & s n[ ha? s5t me unto !e4 ,!re=e w ,i g ) !e1 & m9i/] unto !e4--,be?9k !e well :at ?\ doe/1 ,i said2 & be=e ?\ art fully resolv$1 sit !e d[n by me 9 ?is cave1 t ,i may tell !e my tale4 ,& /raightway %e sat d[n1 & ,i told h] all4 ,& ere ,i _h f9i%$ ! sun _h ris54--,!n art ?\ n[ alone1 said ! maid51 & ha/ no "o to love !e8--,no "o1 ,i answ]$1 man1 woman1 or *ild4--,!n w ,i g ) !e1 = ,i "k nei!r fa!r nor "m1 & no "o ha? p[] ov] me1 = ,i keep goats on ! m\nta9s = wages1 & if ?\ wilt b give me bread to eat ,i w s]ve !e4 ,& a great love arose 9 my he>t to ! maid54 ,& ,i left h] 9 ! cave1 & w5t to ! ne>e/ city1 & return$ !nce ) g>m5ts & victuals4 ,& ,i lov$ ! maid5 greatly4 ,& al?\gh my age 0 !n m>vell\s be+ ov] & above a ?\s& & sev5 hundr$ ye>s1 yet f\nd %e my p]son nei!r pitiful nor uncomely1 = ,i 0 /ill 9 body ev5 su* z :5 ! ,"l ,jesus spake ! ^w ( my doom4 ,& ! damsel lov$ me1 & 0 m9e4 ,& %e 0 z ! apple ( m9e eye4 ,& ! _w 0 no m unto me z a des]t1 b x blossom$ z ! rose ( ,%>on4 ,& al?\gh ,i knew e city ^u x1 & e highway & navigable sea1 yet did all become to me fre% & new because ( ! joy :i* ! damsel _h 9 behold+ its k+doms & ! glories !re(4 ',& x came to pass t my he>t grew pr\d )9 me1 & ,i said to myself t ,i 0 all-sup]ior to o!r m51 = ,dea? c\ld n t\* me2 t ,i 0 a m>vel ^u ! face ( ! _w2 & 9 ?is yet m above all m5 t _h ev] liv$1 t at su* an age z m9e ,i c\ld yet ga9 ! love1 yea1 ! absolute devotion1 ( su* an "o z my wife1 :o nev] we>i$ ( my company & conv]sation4 ,s ,i took to me ev5 ! free grace ( love z my m]it unto pride1 & laid x n to ! great gift ( ,god & ! t5d]ness ( ! he>t ( my belov$4 ,l ,satan 9 ,heav5 ,i 0 uplift$ 9 ! /r5g? & wor?9ess & hon\r ( my demon-self1 & my pride w5t n =? 9 ?anks1 = ,i glori$ n 9 my ,god1 b 9 ,ahasu]us4 ,!n ! ?\ght smote me l an arr[ ( lightn+3 ,%e w die1 & ?\ %alt live--live--live--& z he ha? delay$1 s w he yet delay 8 com+4 ,& z ,satan f ! sev5? heav51 ,i fell prone4 ',!n my _s began aga9 to revive )9 me1 & ,i said1 ,lo6 ,i h yet _m ye>s ( h] love ere %e die?1 & :5 %e is gone1 ,i %all yet h ! memory ( my belov$ to be ) me1 & *e] me1 & be> me up1 = ,i may nev] aga9 despise t :i* %e ha? lov$ z %e ha? lov$ me4 ,& yet aga9 a ?\ght smote me1 & x 0 z an arr[ ( ! lightn+1 & its b>b 0 ! tru?3 ,b %e w gr[ old1 x said1 & w )] be=e ?y face1 & be z ! wan+ moon 9 ! heav5s4 ,& my he>t cri$ out 9 an agony4 ,b my w s\ght to com=t my he>t1 & said1 ,cry n out1 =1 9 spite ( old age z 9 spite ( dea?1 ,i w love h] /ill4 ,!n some?+ began to wri! )9 me1 & to hiss out words t ga!r$ !mselves unto ?is purpose3 ,b %e w gr[ unlovely1 & wr9kl$1 & d>k ( hue1 & ! %ape ( h] body w vani%1 & h] =m be un=m$1 & h] eyes w gr[ small & dim1 & creep back into h] head1 & h] hair w fall f h]1 & %e %all be z ! unsightly figure ( ,dea? ) a sk9 drawn ov] 8 unseemly bones2 & ! damsel ( ?y love1 ) ! r\nd limbs & ! fly+ hair1 & ! cle> eyes out ( :i* looke? a s\l cle> z !y1 w be n[h]e--n[h]e1 = ev]more1 = ?\ wilt n be able to believe t %e x is :o /&e? be=e !e3 h[ w x be ) !e !n8 ,& :at m]cy is 8 :o ha? s5t !e a gr[+ loss 9 ! company ( ?is woman8 ,!reupon ,i rose 9 ! /r5g? ( my agony & w5t =?4 ,& ,i said no?+ unto my wife1 b /rode to ! foot ( ! great m\nta91 ^: entrails 7 all agl[1 & on ^: sides grew ! palm & ! tree-bread & ! nut ( milk4 ,& ,i climb$ ! m\nta91 nor once look$ beh9d me1 b climb$ to ! top4 ,& !re = "o mom5t ,i /ood 9 ! /ock-dullness ( despair4 ,& b5ea? me 0 ! great fi]y gulf1 out/ret*$ l a r$ lake sk9n$ ov] ) black ice1 ?r\gh ! cracks :]e9 %one ! bl9d+ fire4 ,e mom5t "h & !re a great liquid bubbl+ w\ld break ?r\gh ! cru/1 & make a wall[+ heap ^u ! flat1 !n s9k aga91 leav+ an op5 r$ well-pool ( fire :5ce ! rays %ot up l flame1 al?\gh flame !re 0 none4 ,x lay l ! back ( "s huge animal upheav$ out ( hell1 :i* 0 w\nd$ & bl$ fire4--,n[1 9 ! la/ ye> ( my long soj\rn1 life _h aga91 because ( ! woman t lov$ me1 become preci\s unto me1 & m ?an once _h ,i laugh$ z ,i caught myself />t+ back f "s dang] 9 a cr[d$ /reet1 = ! ?+ 0 new to me1 s utt]ly _h ! c>e ( my life fall5 into disuse ) me4 ,b n[ aga9 9 my mis]y ,i ?\ght no m ( dang]1 b w5t /alk+ & slid+ d[n ! s9d]y slope ( ! huge fire-cup1 & out ^u ! lake ( molt5 e>?--molt5 z :5 fir/ x %ot f ! womb ( ! sun1 ( ^: ard\r1 ?r\gh all ! millions ( ye>s1 x _h n yet cool$4 ,& z once ,/4 ,pet] on ! /ormy wat] to f9d ! ,"l ( ,life1 s walk$ ,i on ! /ill lake ( fire1 c>+ nei!r = life nor dea?4 ,= my he>t 0 )]$ to ! roots by ! ?\ght ( ! decay ( h] :om ,i _h lov$2 = w\ld n !n h] v pres5ce e h\r be caus+ me to =get ! beauty t _h once made me glad8--,i _h walk$ "s t5 furlongs1 & pass$ ! middle ( ! lake1 :5 sudd5ly ,i be?\ght me t %e w\ld m>vel :i!r ,i _h gone1 & set out to seek me1 & some?+ might befall h]1 & ,i %\ld lose my rose ere its leaves _h begun to drop4 ,& ,i turn$ & /rode aga9 9 ha/e across ! floor ( black heat1 brok5 & seam$ ) r$ light4 ,& lo6 z ,i ne>$ ! mid/ ( ! lake1 a =m came t[>ds me1 walk+ 9 ! v foot/eps ,i _h left beh9d me1 nor _h ,i to look aga9 to "k ! graci\s motion ( my belov$4 ,& ! black ice broke at h] foot1 & ! fire %one up on h] face1 & x 0 lovely z an angel ( ,god1 & ! gl[ ( h] love out%one ! gl[ ( ! ne!r fire4 ,& ,i call$ n to /ay h] foot1 = ,i judg$ t ! soon] %e 0 ) me1 ! soon] w\ld %e be 9 safety1 = ,i knew h[ to walk !reon bett] ?an %e4 ,& my he>t sang a song )9 me 9 praise ( ! love ( woman1 b ,i ?\ght only ( ! love ( my woman to me1 :om ! fires ( hell c\ld n hold back f him :o 0 wor?y ( h] love2 & my he>t s5t ! song up to my lips2 b1 z ! fir/ ^w arose1 sure itself a r$ bubble f ! pit ( gl[+ hell1 ! black cru/ bur/ up betwe5 u1 & a great hillock ( see?+1 sl[-sp\t+1 sl[-fall+1 mad r$ fire arose4 ,= a mom5t or two ! molt5 m\nd bubbl$ & wall[$1 !n sank--& ,i saw n my wife4 ,headlong ,i plung$ into ! fi]y pool at my feet1 & ! cl++ torture hurt me n1 & ,i caught h] 9 my arms1 & rose to ! surface1 & crept =?1 & %ook ! fire f m9e eyes1 & lo6 ,i held to my bosom b z ! fragm5t ( a c9d] ( ! furnace4 ,& ,i laugh$ al\d 9 my madness1 & ! devils bel[ he>d me1 & laugh$ yet aga94 ,o ,age6 ,o ,decay6 ,i cri$1 see h[ ,i triumph ov] !e3 :at can/ ?\ d to ?is8 ,& ,i flung ! c9d] f me into ! pool1 & plung$ aga9 into ! gr9n+ fire4 ,b x ca/ me out sev5 times1 & ! sev5? "t ,i turn$ f x1 & ru%$ out ( ! valley ( burn+1 & ?rew myself on ! m\nta9-side 9 ! moonlight1 & awoke mad4 ',& :at ,i _h !n said 9 despair1 ,i said yet aga9 9 ?ankfulness4 ,o ,age6 ,o ,decay6 ,i cri$1 :at can/ ?\ n[ d to de/roy ! image ( h] :i* ,i be> ne/$ 9 my he>t ( he>ts8 ,t at lea/ is safe1 ,i ?ank ,god4 ,& f t h\r ,i nev] m believ$ t ,i %\ld die :5 at l5g? my body dropp$ f me4 ,if ! ?\ght came1 x came z a fe>1 & n z a ?+ conc]n+ :i* a man may say ,i w\ld or ,i w\ld n4 ,= a mighty hope _h aris5 )9 me t yet ,i %\ld /& =giv5 9 ! eyes ( him t 0 crucifi$1 & t 9 tok5 ( 8 =giv5ess he w\ld grant me to look aga91 b 9 peace1 ^u ! face ( h] t _h lov$ me4 ,o mighty ,love1 :o c tell to :at heights ( p]fection ?\ maye/ yet rise 9 ! bosom ( ! meane/ :o foll[e? ! ,crucifi$6' ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,,rem>ks4 ,polw>? clos$ ! manuscript1 & = a "t no "o spoke4 ,! man :o wrote t book1 said ,w+fold1 c\ld n h be5 all out ( 8 "r m9d4 ,i mu/ confess to y1 return$ ,polw>?1 t ,i h *os5 "s ( ! m /rik+ passages--only "s ( !m h[ev]4 ,"o ?+ is pretty cle>--t1 grant$ ! imag9$ conditions1 )9 t circle ! writ] is sane en\gh--z sane at lea/ z ! ,w&]+ ,jew himself c\ld well h be54 ,c\ld y tru/ me ) ! manuscript1 ,mr4 ,polw>?8 said ! curate4 ,will+ly1 said ,polw>?1 h&+ x to him4 ,& ,i may c>ry x home ) me8 ,c]ta9ly4 ,i %all take "r good c>e ( x4 ,are !re any fur!r memorials ( /ruggle ) unbelief8 ,yes1 !re are "s2 = mood & n conviction mu/1 9 su* a m9d1 (t5 rule ! h\r4 ,sometimes he c believe2 sometimes he _c3 he is a great man inde$ :o c always rise above 8 own moods6 ,!re is "o passage ,i specially rememb] 9 :i* aft] 8 own fa%ion he treats ( ! exi/5ce ( a ,god4 ,y w "k ! "o ,i mean :5 y come to x4 ,x is inde$ a treasure6 said ! curate1 tak+ ! book & reg>d+ x ) priz+ eyes4 ,9 8 he>t he 0 ?9k+ ( ,leopold & ,hel54 ,& :ile he ?us reg>d$ ! book1 he 0 himself reg>d$ ( ! gray lum9\s eyes ( ,ra*el4 ,:at %one f ^? eyes may h be5 h] delight at he>+ him s speak ( ! book1 = ! h& t wrote x 0 t ( h] fa!r2 b !re 0 a l+]+ 9 h] gaze1 n unmix$ ) que/ion+1 & a c]ta9 indescribable liquidity 9 its light1 rem9d+ "o ( ! />s z se5 ?r\gh a cle> air f :i* ! dew settles ?ick1 t might h made a "m anxi\s4 ,alas = _m a woman ^: outw>d =m is unga9ly--%e has a full r\nd he>t "u ! twi/$ ribs6 ,:y !n %\ld ,i say alas8 ,7 x bett] t ! he>t 7 l ! %ape8 or are su* z ,ra*el =gott5 be=e ! ,god ( ! sp>r[s8 ,no1 surely2 b he :o mo/ di/9ctly believes t f be=e ! face ( ,god e sorr[ %all vani%1 t !y t s[ 9 te>s %all reap 9 joy1 t dea? is b a mi/ t = a season swa!s ! _s1 & t1 ev] z ! self-seek+ vani%es f love1 x gr[e? m full ( delight--ev5 he :o ) all 8 he>t believes ?is1 may be m\rnful ov] ! a*+ ( ano!r he>t :ile yet x la/s2 & he :o looks = 8 own dea? z 8 resurrection1 may yet be sorr[ful at e pale sunset t rem9ds him ( ! dep>ture ( ! belov$ be=e him4 ,! curate rose & took 8 dep>ture1 b ! light ( ! gaze t _h re/$ ^u him l+]$ yet on ! c\nt5ance ( ,ra*el1 & a sad half-smile hung ov] ! motions ( ! baby-l f+]s t knitt$ s busily4 ,! drap] foll[$ ! curate1 & ,polw>? w5t up to 8 own room3 he nev] c\ld keep (f 8 knees = long toge!r4 ,& z soon z %e 0 alone1 ,ra*el's h&s dropp$ on h] lap1 h] eyes clos$1 & h] lips mov$ ) solemn sweet motions4 ,if !re 0 a he>+ e> op5 to t little h\se1 oh surely ^? two 7 bless$6 ,if n1 !n k9d dea? 0 yet = a c]ta9ty draw+ nigh--only1 :at if 9 deep hell !re %\ld be yet a deep] hell8 ,& until sl[ ,dea? arrive1 :at lov+ he>t c be> ! load t /upid ,*ance or /ill m /upid ,fate has heap$ ^u x8 ,yet _h ,i r be cru%$ b5ea? ! weight ( m9e1 & die ) my fri5ds 9 ! moan+ ( et]nal f>ewells1 ?an live l ,george ,bascombe to c>ry lightly 8 little bag ( cont5t4 ,a curs$ confusion inde$ is ! univ]se1 if x be no creation1 b ! helpless unhelpable ?+ su* m5 w\ld h u believe x--! hotb$ "m ( ! *ildr5 ( an iron ,necessity4 ,c any damnation be worse ?an ?is damn+ into an exi/5ce f :i* !re is no refuge b a d\btful dea?8 ,drew ov]took ,w+fold1 & !y walk$ toge!r into ,gla/on4 ,wasn't t spl5did8 said ! drap]4 ,ha? n ,god *os5 ! weak ?+s ( ! _w to conf\nd ! mighty8 return$ ! curate4 ,ev5 ?r\gh ! play ( a mad-man's imag9ation1 ! _s ( a s\nd m9d may speak4 ,did y n f9d 9 x "s /uff t w\ld %ape into answ]s to y\r que/ions8 ,i ought to h done s1 ,i d>e say1 answ]$ ! drap]1 b to tell ! tru?1 ,i 0 s tak5 up ) ! wild /ory1 & ! /yle ( ! ?+1 & ! little man's way ( read+ x1 t ,i nev] ?\ght ( :at ,i 0 full ( :5 ,i came4 ,!y p>t$ at ! %op1 & ! curate w5t on4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,,/ruggles4 ,he /opp$ at ! ,manor ,h\se1 = x 0 only beg9n+ to be late1 to inquire aft] ,leopold4 ,hel5 receiv$ him ) h] usual coldness--a mann] :i* 0 9 "p assum$ = self-protection1 = 9 8 pres5ce %e always felt rebuk$1 & :i* _h ! effect ( a veil betwe5 !m to hide f h] mu* ( ! curate's "* t might o!rwise h be5 intelligible to h]4 ,leopold1 %e said1 0 a little bett]1 b ,w+fold walk$ home ?9k+ :at a happy ?+ x w\ld be if ,god 7 to take him away4 ,8 int]e/ 9 ,hel5 deep5$ & deep5$4 ,he c\ld n help admir+ h] /r5g? ( "* ev5 :5 he saw x sp5t = worse ?an n\ght2 & h] devotion to h] bro!r 0 lovely1 not)/&+ ! /a9s ( selfi%ness t spott$ x4 ,h] moral /&>d 0 inde$ f> f l(ty1 & z to h] spiritual nature1 t z yet appe>$ n[h]e4 ,& yet ! gr[? 9 h] 0 m>vell\s :5 he ?\ght ( :at %e _h seem$ be=e ?is tr\ble came4 ,"o ev5+ z he left ,leopold1 he he>d h] s++1 & /ood on ! /air to li/54 ,& to li/5 0 to m>vel4 ,= h] voice1 in/ead ( be+ h>d & dry1 z :5 he he>d x be=e1 01 )\t any loss ( ela/icity1 n[ liquid & melliflu\s1 & full ( feel+4 ,its tones 7 borne along l ! leaves on ! wild we/ w9d ( ,%elley's sonnet4 ,& ! long+ ( ! curate to help h] f t mom5t took a fre% dep>ture1 & grew & grew4 ,b z ! h\rs & days & weeks pass$1 & ! long+ f\nd no outlet1 x turn$ to an almo/ hopeless brood+ ^u ! face & ! =m1 yea ! he>t & s\l ( ! woman he s fa9 w\ld help1 until ere long he lov$ h] ) ! passion ( a man m+l$ ) ! compassion ( a prophet4 ,he saw t some?+ _h to be done ,,9 h]--p]haps t "s sav+ %ock 9 ! guise ( ru9 _h to visit h]2 t "s door _h to be bur/ op51 "s ro( bl[n away1 "s rock bla/$1 t light & air might h free c\rse ?r\gh h] s\l's h\se1 )\t :i* t s\l c\ld nev] gr[ /ately l ! h\se x inhabit$4 ,:atev] might be de/9$ to effect ?is1 = ! *ance ( r5d]+ poore/ & mo/ s]vile aid1 he w\ld wat* & did wat*1 9 sil5ce & self-re/ra9t1 le/ he %\ld be betray$ into any presumptu\s ^w t might brea! fro/ in/ead ( balm ^u ! buds ( h] delay+ ,spr+4 ,if he might b be all[$ to m9i/] :5 at l5g? ! sleep+ s\l %\ld /ir6 ,if its wak+ glance--ah6 if x might fall on him6 ,z (t5 z ! ?\ght intrud$1 8 he>t w\ld give "o deliri\s b\nd1 !n c\* a%am$ ( its presumption4 ,he w\ld n1 he d>$ n look 9 t direction4 ,he accus$ himself ( m+l+ e>?ly motives & feel+s ) ! unselfi% & true1 & scorn$ himself because ( x4 ,& 0 n ,bascombe already ! fav\r$ fri5d ( h] he>t8 ,yet h[ c\ld x be ( h] he>t8 = :at conc]n _h he>ts 9 a common unbelief8 ,none2 b !re 7 ! he>ts--! man & ! woman--not)/&+1 :o might yet well be drawn toge!r by ! unkn[n div9e :i* !y also %>$2 & t ,hel51 ^: foot seem$ n[ to approa* & n[ to %un ! l9e betwixt ! k+dom ( ?is _w & ! k+dom ( heav51 %\ld retire ) su* a guide into ! des]ts ( d5ial & *os5 godlessness1 0 to ,w+fold a ?\ght ( torture almo/ un5durable4 ,! ?\ght ( its possibility1 nay1 probability--= 7 n su* unfitnesses cont9ually becom+ facts8--?reat5$ sometimes to upset ! :ole fabric ( 8 fai?1 al?\gh re>$ 9 spite ( !ology1 adv]se philosophy1 & ! mo/ hone/ & bewild]+ d\bt4 ,t su* a ?+ %\ld be possible seem$ at ^? times to be> m aga9/ ! exi/5ce ( a ,god ?an all ! o!r gr\nds ( "q toge!r4 ,!n a %udd] w\ld g to ! v deeps ( 8 he>t1 & he w\ld lay himself sil5t be=e ! pres5ce = a "t2 or make ha/e into ! solitudes--n :]e ! sun %one & ! wat] ran1 b :]e ! light 0 dim & ! w9d l[ 9 ! p9e woods4 ,!re1 :]e ! sombre gre5 vaults 7 upheld by a hundr$ sl5d] columns1 & ! f>-rec$+ aisles seem$ to lead to ! ance/ral home ( %ad[s1 !re1 8 own s\l a %ad[ ( grief & fe> among ! %ades ( ! gloomy temple1 he b[$ 8 he>t be=e ! ,et]nal1 ga!r$ toge!r all ! might ( 8 be+1 & groan$ =? 9 deepe/ ef=t ( a w t /ruggl$ to be3 ,?y w be done1 & n m9e4 ,!n w\ld 8 _s aga9 walk erect1 & c>ry its burd5 z a cross & n z a grave/one4 ,sometimes he 0 sorely p]plex$ to ?9k h[ ! weakness1 z he call$ x1 _h begun1 & h[ x _h gr[n ^u him4 ,he c\ld n say x 0 8 do+1 & :at _h he ev] be5 aw>e ( 9 x aga9/ :i* he ought to h /riv58 ,came n ! :ole ?+ ( 8 nature1 a nature t 0 n ( 8 design1 & 0 beyond him & 8 control--a nature t ei!r sprung f a ,god1 or grew out ( an unconsci\s ,fate8 ,if f ! latt]1 h[ 0 su* z he to enc\nt] & r$uce to a con/ra9$ & self-reject+ reason a ,self unreasonable1 be+ an issue ( ! ,unreason+1 :i* ,self 0 yet great] ?an he1 its vag>ies ! s\rce ( 8 int5se/ consci\sness & brighte/ glimpses ( ! ideal & all-desirable4 ,if on ! o!r h& x 0 born ( a ,god1 !n let t ,god look to x1 =1 sure1 t :i* belong$ to 8 nature c\ld n be evil or ( small acc\nt 9 ! eyes ( him :o made him 9 8 own image4 ,b alas6 t image _h1 no matt] h[1 be5 s defac$1 t ! w ( ! man might ev5 n[ be sett+ itself up aga9/ ! w ( ! ,god6 ,did 8 love !n spr+ f ! ,god-w or ! man-w8 ,mu/ !re n be "s ,god-way ( ! ?+1 all "r & no?+ wrong8--,b he c\ld n compass x1 & ! m>vel to himself 0 t all ! "t he 0 able to g on prea*+1 & t ) "s s5se ( hone/y & joy 9 8 "w4 ,9 ?is tr\ble m ?an ev] ,w+fold felt t if !re 0 no ,god1 8 s\l 0 b a ?+ ( rags & pat*es out 9 ! ma/]less pitiless /orm & hail ( a *aotic univ]se4 ,(t5 w\ld he ru% into ! d>k1 z x 71 cry+ = ,god1 & ev] he w\ld em]ge !refrom ) "s t9cture ( ! light1 en\gh to keep him alive & s5d him to 8 "w4 ,& !re1 9 h] own seat1 ,sunday aft] ,sunday1 sat ! woman :om he _h se5 t5 times1 & t = no ha/y mom5ts1 dur+ ! week1 by ! b$side ( h] bro!r1 yet to :om only n[1 9 ! op5 secrecy ( ! pulpit1 did he d>e utt] ! words ( might he w\ld s fa9 h p\r$ direct into h] suff]+ he>t4 ,& !re1 ,sunday aft] ,sunday1 ! face he lov$ bore witness to ! tr\ble ( ! he>t he lov$ yet m3 t he>t 0 n yet r$eem$6 oh1 might x be grant$ him to set "s little w9d a bl[+ = its revival & hope6 ,z (t5 z he /ood up to prea*1 8 he>t swell$ ) ! message he bore--a message ( no private int]pretation1 b = ! heal+ ( ! nations1 yet a message = h]1 & = ! heal+ ( e individual he>t t w\ld he> & take1 & he spoke ) ! fre$om & dignity ( a prophet4 ,b :5 he saw h] aft]w>ds1 he sc>cely d>$ let 8 eyes re/ a mom5t on h] face1 w\ld only pluck ! fl[] ( a glance fly+1 or /eal x at su* mom5ts :5 he ?\ght %e w\ld n see4 ,%e caught 8 glance h[ev] f> (t5] ?an he knew1 & 0 sometimes aw>e ( x )\t see+ x at all4 ,& !re 0 t 9 ! curate's behavi\r1 9 8 absolute avoidance ( self-ass]tion1 or ! lea/ possible intrusion ^u h] m5tal privacy--9 ! wrapp+ ( 8 g>m5ts ar\nd him z x 71 t 8 pres5ce might (f5d z little z might be1 :ile at ! same "t he 0 full ( simple direct m9i/ration to h] bro!r1 )\t "o side-glance t s\ght approval ( h]1 :i* ! nobility ( ! woman c\ld n fail to note1 & seek to und]/&4 ,x 0 altoge!r a "t ( great /ruggle ) ,w+fold4 ,he seem$ to be assail$ 9 e direction1 & to feel ! /rong h\se ( life giv+ way 9 e "p1 & yet he held on--liv$1 :i* he ?\ght 0 all1 &1 )\t kn[+ x1 grew4 ,p]haps x may be ?is p]iod t ! foll[+ v]ses :i* ,i f\nd among 8 pap]s belong3 he c\ld n himself tell me4-- ,out ( my door ,i run to d ! ?+ ,t calls ^u me4 ,/raight ! w9d ( words ,:oops f m9e e>s ! s\nds ( !m t s+ ,ab\t _! "w--,my ,god6 my ,fa!r-,k+4 ,i turn 9 ha/e to see ?y bless$ door1 ,b lo6 a cl\d ( flies & bats & birds1 ,& /alk+ vap\rs1 & vague mon/] h]ds1 ,h ris5 & light$1 ru%$ & swoll5 betwe54 ,ah me6 ! h\se ( peace is !re no m4 ,0 x a dream !n8 ,walls1 fireside1 & floor1 ,& sweet ob$i5ce1 lov+1 calm1 & free1 ,are vani%$--gone z !y _h nev] be54 ,i lab\r groan+4 ,comes a sudd5 %e56-- ,& ,i am kneel+ at my ,fa!r's knee1 ,sigh+ ) joy1 & hop+ utt]ly4 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,! ,,lawn4 ,leopold _h begun to c\gh1 & ! fev] cont9u$4 ,e aft]noon came ! r$ flu% to 8 *eek1 & ! h>d glitt] into 8 eye4 ,8 talk 0 !n excit$1 & mo/ly ab\t 8 com+ trial4 ,to ,hel5 x 0 t]ribly pa9ful1 & %e confess$ to h]self t b = ,w+fold %e mu/ h giv5 way4 ,leopold insi/$ on see+ ,mr4 ,hook] e "t he call$1 & e "t express$ ! hope t he w\ld n all[ pity = 8 weak /ate to prev5t him f apply+ ! sev]e rem$y ( ! law to 8 moral condition4 ,b 9 tru? x began to look d\btful :e!r disease w\ld n run a race ) law = 8 life1 ev5 if ! latt] %\ld at once proce$ to ju/ify a claim4 ,f ! fir/ ,fab] d\bt$ if he w\ld ev] recov] f ! consequ5ces ( t exposure 9 ! *ur*y>d1 & x soon became evid5t t 8 lungs 7 m ?an affect$4 ,8 c\gh increas$1 & he began to lose :at little fle% he _h4 ,"o day ,fab] express$ 8 conviction to ,w+fold t he 0 fight+ ! disease at ! great disadvantage ( hav+ an unkn[n enemy to cont5d )4 ,! fell[ is unhappy1 he said1 & if t la/s ano!r mon?1 ,i %all ?r[ up ! sponge4 ,he has a good deal ( vitality1 b x is yield+1 & by t "t he w be 9 a gallop+ consumption4 ,y mu/ d y\r be/ = him1 said ,w+fold1 b 9 8 he>t he wi%$1 ) an hone/ affection1 t he might n succe$4 ,leopold1 h[ev]1 seem$ to h no idea ( 8 condition1 & ! curate wond]$ :at he w\ld ?9k or d 7 he to le>n t he 0 dy+4 ,w\ld he insi/ on complet+ 8 confession1 & urg+ on a trial8 ,he _h himself told him all t _h pass$ ) ! magi/rate1 & h[ ?+s n[ 7 z he und]/ood !m1 b x 0 pla9 t he _h begun to be uneasy ab\t ! affair1 & 0 d\btful at times :e!r all 0 z x seem$4 ,! curate 0 n deceiv$4 ,he _h be5 pres5t dur+ a visit f ,mr4 ,hook]1 & no?+ c\ld be pla9] ?an ! impression out ( :i* ! good man spoke4 ,nor c\ld he fail to suspect ! cunn+ k9dness ( ,george ,bascombe 9 ! affair4 ,b he did n judge t he _h n[ ! lea/ call to int]f]e4 ,! poor boy _h done z mu* z lay ei!r 9 or out ( him 9 ! direction ( duty1 & 0 daily becom+ m & m unfit ei!r to orig9ate or c>ry out a fur!r c\rse ( action4 ,if he 0 9 himself capable ( any?+ m1 he 01 9 8 pres5t /ate ( weakness1 utt]ly unable to cope ) ! w ( ^? ar\nd him4 ,fab] w\ld h _h him leave ! c\ntry = "s s\!rn climate1 b he w\ld n he> ( x1 & ,hel51 kn[+ to :at extremities x might drive him1 w\ld n insi/4 ,nor1 inde$1 0 he n[ 9 a condition to be mov$4 ,also ! wea!r _h gr[n cold]1 & he 0 s5sitive to atmosph]ic *anges z any creature ( ! elem5ts4 ,b aft] a =tnight1 :5 x 0 n[ ! middle ( ! autumn1 x grew q w>m aga91 & he reviv$ & made su* progress t he 0 able to be c>ri$ into ! g>d5 e day4 ,!re he sat 9 a *air on ! lawn1 ) 8 feet on a %eepsk91 & a fur cloak ab\t him4 ,& = all ! pa9 at 8 he>t1 = all ! mis]y 9 :i* no "o c\ld %>e1 = all ! pangs ( a helpless jeal\sy1 *eck$ only by a gnaw+ remorse1 bo? ( :i* took refuge 9 ! ?\ght ( foll[+ ?r\gh ! sph]es until he f\nd h]1 ca/ himself at h] feet1 spoke ! tru?1 & became1 if he might1 h] slave = ev]1 fail+ :i* he c\ld b turn & g w&]+ ?r\gh ! sph]es1 seek+ re/ & f9d+ none1 save inde$ !re 7 "s salvation ev5 = him 9 ! bosom ( 8 ,god--,i say t1 someh[1 ) all ?is on ! bra9 & 9 ! he>t ( him1 ! sun%9e 0 yet pleasant to 8 eyes1 :ile x /ung him to ! s\l2 ! s(t brea?+ ( ! w9d 0 pleasant to 8 *eek1 :ile he curs$ himself = ! pleasure x gave him2 ! few fl[]s t 7 left look$ up at him m\rnfully & he let !m look1 nor turn$ 8 eyes away1 b let ! te>s ga!r & fl[4 ,! fir/ agonies ( ! enc\nt] ( life & dea? 7 ov]1 & life 0 sl[ly wa/+ away4 ,oh :at might n a little joy d = him6 ,b :]e 0 ! joy to be f\nd t c\ld irradiate su* a d>kness ev5 = "o fair memorial mom5t8 ,"o hot noon ,w+fold lay beside him on ! grass4 ,nei!r _h spok5 = "s "t3 ! curate m & m %runk f spee* to :i* 8 he>t 0 n directly mov$4 ,z to :at might be 9 season or out ( season1 he nev] w\ld pret5d to judge1 he said1 b ev5 ,balaam's ass knew :5 he _h a call to speak4 ,he pluck$ a pale r$ pimp]nel & h&$ x up ov] 8 head to ,leopold4 ,! y\? look$ at x = a mom5t1 & bur/ into te>s4 ,! curate rose ha/ily4 ,x is s he>tless ( me4 said ,leopold1 to take pleasure 9 su* a *ildi% innoc5ce z ?is6 ,x m]ely %[s1 said ! curate1 lay+ 8 h& g5tly on 8 %\ld]1 t ev5 9 ^! l[ly lovel9esses1 !re is a some?+ t has its root deep] ?an y\r pa92 t1 all ab\t u1 9 e>? & air1 :]ev] eye or e> c rea*1 !re is a p[] ev] brea?+ itself =? 9 signs1 n[ 9 a daisy1 n[ 9 a w9dwaft1 a cl\d1 a sunset2 a p[] t holds con/ant & sweete/ relation ) ! d>k & sil5t _w )9 u2 t ! same ,god :o is 9 u1 & ^u ^: tree we are ! buds1 if n yet ! fl[]s1 also is all ab\t u--inside1 ! ,_s2 outside1 ! ,^w4 ,& ! two are ev] try+ to meet 9 u2 & :5 !y meet1 !n ! sign )\t1 & ! long+ )91 become "o 9 light1 & ! man no m walke? 9 d>kness1 b kn[e? :i!r he goe?4 ,z he end$ ?us1 ! curate b5t ov] & look$ at ,leopold4 ,b ! poor boy _h n li/5$ to a ^w he said4 ,some?+ 9 8 tone _h soo!d him1 b ! mom5t he ceas$1 ! ve9 ( 8 grief bur/ out ble$+ afre%4 ,he clasp$ 8 ?9 h&s toge!r1 & look$ up 9 an agony ( hopeless appeal to ! blue sky1 n[ gr[n pal] z 9 fe> ( ! com+ cold1 ?\gh /ill ! air 0 w>m & sweet1 & cri$1 ,oh6 if ,god w\ld only be good & unmake me1 & let d>kness cov] ! place :]e once 0 me6 ,t w\ld be l a good ,god6 ,all ,i %\ld be sorry = !n w\ld be1 t !re 0 n en\gh ( me left = a dim flitt+ ,w-o'-!-wisp ( praise1 ev] s++ my ?ankfulness to him t ,i 0 no m4--,yet ev5 !n my de$ w\ld rema91 = ,i d>e n ask t %e %\ld die outright also--t w\ld be to heap wrong ^u wrong4 ,:at an awful ?+ be+ is6 ,n ev5 my annihilation c\ld make up = my crime1 or rid x out ( ! univ]se4 ,true1 ,leopold6 said ! curate4 ,no?+ b ! burn+ love ( ,god c rid s9 out ( any:]e4 ,b are y n =gett+ him :o surely knew :at he und]took :5 he w\ld save ! _w8 ,no m ?an y c\ld h set t sun flam+ ov]head1 ) its million-mil$ bill[s & its limitless tempe/s ( fire1 c y tell :at ! love ( ,god is1 or :at x c d = y1 if only by enl>g+ y\r love ) ! inru% ( itself4 ,few h su* a cry to raise to ! ,fa!r z y1 su* a claim ( s9 & helplessness to heave up be=e him1 su* a joy ev5 to (f] to ! great ,%eph]d :o _c re/ :ile "o %eep /rays f 8 flock1 "o prodigal haunts ! d5s ( evil & wa/e4 ,cry to him1 ,leopold1 my de> boy4 ,cry to him aga9 & yet aga91 = he himself said t m5 ought always to pray & n fa9t1 = ,god did he> & w\ld answ] al?\gh he might seem long ab\t x4 ,i ?9k we %all f9d "o day t nobody1 n ! poet ( wide/ sweep & mo/ d>+ imag9ation1 n ! prophet :o so>s ! highe/ 9 8 ard\r to ju/ify ! ways ( ,god to m51 n ! *ild :5 he is mo/ fully possess$ ( ! angel t 9 heav5 always beholds ! face ( ! ,fa!r ( ,jesus1 has come or c\ld h come )9 sight ( ! maje/y ( 8 be/[+ ^u 8 *ildr54 ,= did he n1 if ! /ory be true1 all[ torture itself to invade ! v s\l's citadel ( 8 be/ belov$1 z he w5t to seek ! poor ape ( a prodigal1 /upidly gr9n+ among/ 8 h>lots8 ,leopold did n answ]1 & ! %ad[ lay deep on 8 face = a :ile2 b at l5g? x began to ?91 & at la/ a feeble quiv]+ smile broke ?r\gh ! cl\d1 & he wept s(t te>s ( refre%+4 ,x 0 n t ! y\? _h turn$ aga9 f ! hope ( re/ 9 ! ,son ( ,man2 b t1 z ev]yone kn[s :o kn[s any?+ ( ! human _s1 !re mu/ be 9 its hi/ory days & seasons1 morn+s & nights1 yea deepe/ midnights4 ,x has its alt]nat+ summ] & w9t]1 its /orm & %9e1 its s(t dews & its tempe/s ( la%+ hail1 its cold moons & prophetic />s1 its pale twilights ( sadde/ memory1 & its gold5 gleams ( brighte/ hope4 ,all ^! m+l$ & displac$ ea* o!r 9 ,leopold's ru9$ _w1 :]e *aos _h come aga91 b ov] ^: wat]s a mighti] brea? 0 n[ mov+4 ,& n[ aft] mu* ?\ght1 ! curate saw t he c\ld n hope to transplant into ! bosom ( ! lad ! fl[]s ( tru? t gladd5$ 8 own g>d53 he mu/ s[ ! se$ f :i* !y _h sprung1 & t se$ 0 ! k ( ! true ,jesus4 ,x 0 n[ ! m possible to help him 9 ?is way1 t ! wild bea/ ( 8 despair _h tak5 its claws f 8 bosom1 _h )drawn a pace or two1 & c\*$ wat*+4 ,& ,w+fold soon f\nd t no?+ calm$ & bright5$ him l talk ab\t ,jesus4 ,he _h tri$ v]se fir/--seek+ out ! be/ )9 8 rea* :]e9 lov+ s\ls h utt]$ _! devotion to ! man ( m52 b "h also ! fl[]s w\ld n be transplant$4 ,h[ x came ab\t he h>dly knew1 b he _h soon drift$ into r ?an *os5 ano!r way1 :i* way prov$ a "r "o3 he w\ld beg9 ?9k+ al\d on "s "p ( ! gospel /ory1 g5]ally t :i* 0 mo/ 9 8 m9d at ! "t--talk+ ) himself1 z x 71 all ab\t x4 ,he began ?is "o morn+ z he lay on ! grass beside him1 & t 0 ! position 9 :i* he f\nd he c\ld be/ ?us soliloquize4 ,n[ & !n b n (t5 ,leopold w\ld int]rupt him1 & p]haps turn ! monologue into dialogue1 b ev5 !n ,w+fold w\ld h>dly ev] look at him3 he w\ld n di/urb him ) m ( 8 pres5ce ?an he c\ld help1 or all[ ! tru? to be flav\r$ ) m ( 8 individuality ?an 0 unavoidable4 ,= e individuality1 he argu$1 has a peculi> flav\r to e o!r1 & only ,jesus is ! pure simple humanity t e "o c love1 out & out1 at once4 ,9 ^! m5tal me&]+s1 he avoid$ no?+1 took notice ( e difficulty1 :e!r able to discuss x fully or n1 broke out 9 words ( delight :5 8 _s 0 mov$1 nor hid 8 disappo9tm5t :5 he fail$ 9 gett+ at :at might seem good en\gh to be ! he>t ( ! ?+4 ,x 0 l hat*+ a s]mon 9 ! sun in/ead ( 9 ! ov54 ,occasionally1 :51 hav+ ceas$1 he look$ up to "k h[ 8 pupil f>$1 he f\nd him fa/ asleep--sometimes ) a smile1 sometimes ) a te> on 8 face4 ,! sight w\ld satisfy him well4 ,calm ^u su* a torm5t$ sea mu/ be ! gift ( ,god2 & ! curate w\ld !n sometimes fall asleep himself--to />t awake at ! fir/ f>-(f s\nd ( ,hel5's dress z x swept a runn+ fire ( fairy fog-signals f ! half- op5$ buds ( ! daisies1 & ! long heads ( ! rib-grass1 :5 he w\ld rise & saunt] a few paces aside1 & %e w\ld b5d ov] h] bro!r1 to see if he 7 w>m & com=table4 ,by ?is "t all ! old t5d]ness ( h] m9i/ration _h return$1 nor did %e seem any long] jeal\s ( ,w+fold's4 ,"o day %e came beh9d !m z !y talk$4 ,! grass _h be5 m[n t morn+1 & also %e happ5$ to be dress$ 9 h] rid+- habit & _h ga!r$ up ! skirt ov] h] arm1 s t on ?is occasion %e made no s\nd ( sweet approa*4 ,w+fold _h be5 utt]+ "o ( 8 rambl+ monologues--9 :i* 0 mu* )\t =m1 b no?+ void4 ,i don't "k q1 he _h be5 say+1 :at to ?9k ab\t t /ory ( ! woman !y br\ght to ,jesus 9 ! temple--,i mean h[ x got into t nook ( ! gospel ( ,/4 ,john1 :]e x has no "r place4--,!y didn't br+ h] = heal+ or = ! rebuke ( h] demon1 b = condemnation1 only !y came to ! wrong man = t4 ,!y d>$ n c>ry out ! law ( /on+1 z !y w\ld h lik$1 ,i suppose1 ev5 if ,jesus _h condemn$ h]1 b p]haps !y hop$ r to entrap him :o 0 ! fri5d ( s9n]s into say+ some?+ aga9/ ! law4--,b :at ,i want is1 to "k h[ x got !re1--j !re1 ,i mean1 betwixt ! sev5? & eigh? *apt]s ( ,/4 ,john's ,gospel4 ,!re is no d\bt ( its be+ an int]polation--t ! twelf? v]se1 ,i ?9k x is1 ought to jo9 on to ! fifty-second4 ,! ,alex&rian manuscript is ! only "o ( ! ?ree olde/ t has x1 & x is ! late/ ( ! ?ree4 ,i did ?9k once1 b ha/ily1 t x 0 our ,"l's text = say+ ,i ,,am ,,! ,,light ,,( ,,! ,,_w1 b x foll[s q z well on 8 (f] ( liv+ wat]4 ,"o c easily see h[ ! place w\ld appe> a v suitable "o to any presumptu\s scribe :o wi%$ to settle ! "q ( :]e x %\ld /&4--,i wond] if ,/4 ,john told ! lovely tale z some?+ he _h =gott51 aft] he _h f9i%$ dictat+ all ! re/4 ,or 0 x well kn[n to all ! evangeli/s1 only no "o ( !m 0 yet p>tak] en\gh ( ! _s ( him :o 0 ! fri5d ( s9n]s1 to d>e put x on writt5 record1 ?9k+ x h>dly a safe /ory to expose to ! qu>ry+ ( m5's conclusions8 ,b x doesn't matt] mu*3 ! tale mu/ be a true "o4 ,only--to ?9k ( j ?is "o /ory1 ( t5d]e/ righte\sness1 float+ ab\t l a holy waif ?r\gh ! _w ( lett]s6--a sweet gray dove ( promise t c f9d no re/ = ! sole ( 8 foot6 ,j ?is "o /ory ( all /ories a k9d ( outca/6 & yet z a w&]]1 oh1 h[ welcome6 ,"s manuscripts1 ,i und]/&1 h grant$ x a sort ( ou?\se-%elt] at ! end ( ! gospel ( ,/4 ,luke4 ,b x all matt]s no?+1 s long z we c believe x2 & true x mu/ be1 x is s l him all ?r\gh4 ,& if x does g w&]+ z a /ray ?r\gh ! gospels1 )\t place ( its own1 :at matt]s x s long z x c f9d he>ts en\gh to ne/le 91 & br+ =? its "y ( com=t6--,p]haps ! woman h]self told x1 &1 z ) ! woman ( ,sam>ia1 "s w\ld & "s w\ld n believe h]4--,oh6 ! eyes t met ^u h]6 ,! fi]y hail ( scorn f ^? ( ! ,ph>isees--! light ( et]nal sun%9e f ^? ( ,jesus6--,i 0 read+ ! o!r day1 9 "o ( ! old ,miracle ,plays1 h[ ea* t look$ on :ile ,jesus wrote ) 8 f+] on ! gr\nd1 imag9$ he 0 writ+ d[n 8 individual s9s1 & 0 9 t]ror le/ 8 neighb\r %\ld come to "k !m4--,& wasn't he g5tle ev5 ) ^? to :om he 0 %>p] ?an a two-edg$ sword6 & oh h[ g5tle to h] he w\ld cov] f _! rud5ess & wrong6 ,,let ,,! ,,s9less ,,?r[6 ,& ! s9n]s w5t out1 & %e foll[$--to s9 no m4 ,no reproa*es1 y see6 ,no /irr+ up ( ! fi]y snakes6 ,only don't d x aga94--,i don't ?9k %e did x aga93--d y8 ,x 0 j "h t ,hel5 came & /ood beh9d ,leopold's *air4 ,! curate lay on ! grass1 & nei!r saw h]4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,,h[ ,,jesus ,,spoke ,,to ,,wom54 ,b :y wasn't he z g5tle ) good wom58 said ,leopold4 ,wasn't he8 said ! curate 9 "s surprise4 ,he said ,:at h ,i to d ) !e to 8 own "m8 ,a ,greek s*ol> %\ld g to ! ,greek1 said ! curate4 ,our ,engli% is n p]fect4 ,y see %e want$ to make him %[ (f1 & he ?\ght h[ little %e knew :at he came to ! _w =4 ,h] ?\ghts 7 s unlike 8 t he said1 ,:at h we 9 common6 ,x 0 a moan ( ! ,god-head ov] ! di/ance ( its creature4 ,p]haps he ?\ght3 ,h[ !n w y /& ! %ock :5 at l5g? x comes8 ,b he look$ at h] z h] own son ought to look at e bless$ "m1 & %e read 9 8 eyes no rebuke1 = in/antly1 sure ( h] desire1 %e told !m to d :atev] he said4 ,i hope t's ! "r way ( x1 said ,leopold1 = ,i want to tru/ him out & out4 ,b :at d y make ( ! /ory ( ! poor woman t came ab\t h] daught]8 ,wasn't he r\gh to h]8 ,x always seem$ to me su* a cruel ?+ to talk ( ?r[+ ! meat ( ! *ildr5 to ! dogs6 ,we _c judge ( ! ^w until we "k ! _s t gave bir? to x4 ,let me ask y a "q3 ,:at w\ld y take = ! greate/ pro( ( d[nright fri5d%ip a man c\ld %[ y8 ,t is too h>d a "q to answ] all at once4 ,well1 ,i may be wrong1 b ! deepe/ outcome ( fri5d%ip seems to me1 on ! "p ( ! sup]ior at lea/1 ! p]mission1 or bett] /ill1 ! call1 to %>e 9 8 suff]+s4 ,& 9 say+ t h>d ^w to ! poor ,g5tile1 our ,"l hon\r$ h] ?us mightily4 ,he assum$ = ! mom5t ! "p ( ! ,jew t[>ds ! ,g5tile1 t he might1 = ! sake ( all ! _w ( ,g5tiles & ,jews1 lay b>e to 8 ,jewi% foll[]s ! mann] ( _s !y 7 (1 & let !m see :at a lovely humanity !y despis$ 9 _! pride ( election4 ,he took h] to suff] ) him = ! salvation ( ! _w4 ,! cl\d ov]%ad[$ !m bo?1 b :at words imm$iately !reaft] made a glory 9 h] he>t6 ,he spoke to h] z if h] v fai? _h rea*$ an arm into ! heav5s1 & br\ght !refrom ! ?+ %e s\ght4--,b ,i confess1 ! curate w5t on1 ^? two passages h bo? tr\bl$ me4 ,s ,i presume w ev]y?+ t is ,god's1 until x becomes a /r5g? & a light by reveal+ its true nature to ! he>t t has gr[n capable ( und]/&+ x4 ,! fir/ sign ( ! com+ capacity & ! com+ joy1 is ! anxiety & ! "q4--,!re is ano!r passage1 :i*1 al?\gh x does n tr\ble me s mu*1 ,i _c yet get a "r p]ception (4 ,:5 ,m>y ,magdal5e took ! ,ma/] ( ,dea? = ! g>d5]--! g>d5] ( ! g>d5 ( ! tombs6 no great mi/ake1 0 x8--x is a lovely ?+1 t mi/ak+ ( ,jesus = ! g>d5]6--h[ ! holy & ! l[ly1 yea ! holy & ! common meet on all sides6 ,j li/5 to _! morn+ talk--! morn+ ( ! et]nal op5 _w to ,jesus1 :ile ! %ad[s ( ?is n>r[ life /ill clu/]$ ar\nd ,m>y3--,i c give x y exactly1 = ,i 0 read+ x ?is v day4 ',woman1 :y weepe/ ?\8 ,:om seeke/ ?\8' ',sir1 if ?\ h borne him h5ce1 tell me :]e ?\ ha/ laid him1 & ,i w take him away4' ',m>y4' ',ma/]6' ',t\* me n2 = ,i am n yet asc5d$ to my ,fa!r3 b g to my bre?r51 & say unto !m1 ,i asc5d unto my ,fa!r & y\r ,fa!r2 & to my ,god & y\r ,god4' ,:y did he say1 ,,d ,,n ,,t\* ,,me8 ,x c\ld n be t !re 0 any defilem5t to "o 9 ! new body ( ! resurrection1 f contact ) "o /ill 9 ! old g>m5ts ( humanity4 ,b c\ld x be t !re 0 dang] to h] 9 ! contact8 ,0 !re some?+ 9 ! new h\se f ,heav5 hurtful to ! old tab]nacle8 ,i c h>dly believe x4 ,p]haps x might be4 ,b we mu/ look at ! reason ! ,ma/] gives--only ( all words h>d to und]/&1 ! little conjunctions are sometimes ! h>de/4 ,:at c t ,,= mean8 ',t\* me n1 ,,= ,i am n yet asc5d$ to my ,fa!r4' ,does x mean1 ',i mu/ fir/ pres5t myself to my ,fa!r2 ,i mu/ fir/ h ,8 h& laid on ?is body new-ris5 f ! grave2 ,i mu/ g home fir/8' ,! *ild mu/ kiss 8 "m fir/1 !n 8 si/]s & bro!rs3 0 x s ) ,jesus8 ,0 he s glad 9 8 fa!r1 t he mu/ c>ry ev5 ! human body he _h rescu$ et]nal f ! grave1 home to %[ him fir/8 ,!re are _m difficulties ab\t ! int]pretation1 & ev5 if true1 x w\ld /ill %ock e he>t ^: devotion 0 less ?an absolutely *ild-l4 ,0 n ,god ,,) him1 z close to him z ev5 ,god c\ld come to 8 et]nal son--9 him--,,"o ) him1 all ! "t8 ,h[ c\ld he get ne>] to him by go+ to ,heav58 ,:at head-qu>t]s1 :at c\rt ( place & circum/ance %\ld ! ,et]nal1 ,immortal1 ,invisible hold8 ,& yet if f him fl[ "t & space1 al?\gh he _c be subject to !m2 if 8 son c\ld inc>nate himself--ca/ ! liv+1 responsive1 ela/ic1 fl[+1 evani%+ circum/ance ( a human g>m5t ar\nd him2 if1 z ,novalis says1 ,god c become :atev] he c create1 !n may !re n be "s c5tral home ( ,god1 hold+ relation ev5 to "t & space & s5se8 ,b ,i am bewild]$ ab\t x4--,jesus /ood !n 9 ! meet+ po9t ( bo? worlds1 or r 9 ! skirts ( ! great _w t infolds ! less4 ,i am talk+ l a baby1 = my words _c compass or ev5 repres5t my ?\ghts4 ,?is _w looks to u ! natural & simple "o1 & s x is--absolutely fitt$ to our ne$ & education4 ,b !re is t 9 u :i* is n at home 9 ?is _w1 :i* ,i believe holds secret relations ) e />1 or p]haps r1 ) t 9 ! he>t ( ,god :5ce issu$ e />1 div]se 9 k9d & "* z 9 col\r & place & motion & light4 ,to t 9 u1 ?is _w is s f> /range & unnatural & unfitt+1 & we ne$ a yet homeli] home4 ,yea1 no home at la/ w d1 b ! home ( ,god's he>t4 ,jesus1 ,i say1 0 n[ look+1 on "o side1 into ! region ( a deep] life1 :]e 8 p1 ^? t knew _! own :5 !y saw him1 w\ld "o day f9d !mselves t5fold at home2 :ile1 on ! o!r h&1 he 0 look+ into ! region ( _! pres5t life1 :i* cu/om & fai?lessness make !m afraid to leave4 ,b we ne$ n fe> :at ! new conditions ( life w br+1 ei!r = body or he>t1 = !y w be ne>] & sweet] to our deep] be+1 z ,jesus is ne>] & de>] ?an any man because he is m human ?an any4 ,he is all t we c love or look =1 & at ! root ( t v lov+ & look+4--',9 my ,fa!r's h\se are _m mansions1' he said4 ,matt]1 "t1 space1 are all ,god's1 & :atev] may become ( our philosophies1 :atev] he does ) or 9 respect ( "t1 place1 & :at we call matt]1 8 do+ mu/ be true 9 philosophy z well z fact4 ,b ,i am w&]+4 ,! curate 0 w&]+1 b ! lib]ty ( w&]+ 0 ess5tial to 8 talk+ ) ! k9d ( fre$om & tru? he want$ to m$iate betwixt 8 pupil & ! lovely ?+s he saw4 ,i wond] :]e ! p5it5t ?ief 0 all ! "t1 said ,leopold4 ,yes1 t also is a difficulty4 ,!re aga9 come 9 ! bo!r+ "t & space1 bo!r+ 9 _! relation to heav5ly ?+s1 ,i mean4 ,on ! ,friday1 ! p5it5t ?ief1 z y call him1 0 to be ) ,jesus 9 ,p>adise2 & n[ x 0 ,sunday1 & ,jesus said he _h n yet be5 up to see 8 ,fa!r4 ,"s w\ld say1 ,i am too lit]al1 too curi\s2 :at c ,friday & ,sunday h to d ) ,p>adise8 ,b words ,,mean 9 bo? worlds1 = !y are n two b "o--surely at lea/ :5 ,jesus ?9ks & speaks ( !m2 & !re c be no wrong 9 feel+ ev] s bl9dly & dully aft] ,,:at !y mean4 ,su* humble que/ion+ c d no h>m1 ev5 if1 9 face ( ! facts1 ! que/ions be z f> (f & ,,silly--9 ! old sweet mean+ ( ! ^w--z ^? ( any infant conc]n+ a _w he has n prov$4--,b ab\t ,m>y ,magdal5e3 ,he mu/ h said ! ^w ,,t\* ,,me ,,n4 ,t c\ld n h crept 94 ,x is too h>d = an int]polation1 ,i ?9k2 & if no int]polation1 x mu/ mean "s deep-good ?+ we don't und]/&4 ,"o ?+ we c make sure (3 x 0 no?+ t %\ld hurt h]2 = see :at foll[s4 ,b = t1 :5 he said ,,t\* ,,me ,,n1 ,,= ,i ,,am ,,n ,,yet ,,asc5d$ ,,to ,,my ,,fa!r1 %e might h ?\ght--',ah6 ?\ ha/ ?y ,fa!r to g to1 & ?\ wilt leave u = him4'--,,b1 he w5t on1 ,,g ,,to ,,my ,,bre?r5 ,,& ,,say ,,unto ,,!m3 ,i ,,asc5d ,,unto ,,my ,,fa!r1 ,,& ,,y\r ,,fa!r2 ,,& ,,my ,,god ,,& ,,y\r ,,god4 ,:at m c\ld %e want8 ,?9k3 ! ,fa!r ( ,jesus1 ) :om1 9 all 8 k & all 8 suff]+1 ! gr& he>t 0 p]fectly1 exult+ly satisfi$1--t ,fa!r he calls our ,fa!r too4 ,he %>es ) 8 bre?r5--( 8 be/1 8 deepe/1 8 he>tie/1 mo/ secret delight1 & makes x _! & 8 mo/ op5 joy3 he %>es 8 et]nal ,fa!r ) u1 8 p]fect ,god ) 8 bre?r54 ,& :atev] 8 n hav+ yet asc5d$ to him may mean1 we see1 ) m>vel & joy1 t :at delay$ him--ev5 ?\gh1 = "s reason p]fect 9 t5d]ness z 9 tru?1 he w\ld n be t\*$--0 love to ,m>y ,magdal5e & 8 "m & 8 bre?r54 ,he c\ld n g to ! ,fa!r )\t com=t+ !m fir/4 ,& c]ta9ly :atev] %e took ! ,,t\* ,,me ,,n to mean or po9t at1 x 0 no?+ t hurt h]4--,x j /rikes me--is x possible he said x 9 ord] to turn ! ov]:elm+ passion ( h] joy1 :i* aft] su* a re/oration w\ld h clung m ?an ev] to ! visible pres5ce1 & w\ld be ready to suff] ! pa9s ( dea? yet aga9 :5 he p>t$ f h]--might x be to turn t torr5t into ! wid] & ev] wid5+ *annel ( joy 9 8 ev]la/+ pres5ce to ! inn]mo/ be+1 8 communion1 he>t to he>t1 ) e *ild ( 8 ,fa!r8 ,9 our poor weakness & n>r[ness & self-love1 ev5 ( ,jesus ! bodily may block out ! spiritual ne>ness1 :i*1 h[ev] 9 mo/ moods we may be unable to realise ! fact1 is & rema9s a ?+ unutt]ably loveli] & bett] & de>]--enhanc+ t5fold :at vision ( a bodily pres5ce may at "s "t be grant$ u4 ,b h[ any woman c help ca/+ h]self he>t & s\l at ! feet ( su* a l[ly gr&eur1 su* a t5d] maje/y1 su* a self-dissolv+ p]fection--,i _c imag9e4 ,! tru? mu/ be t ^? :o kneel n h n se54 ,y d n once read ( a woman be+ aga9/ him--except inde$ x 0 8 own "m1 :5 %e ?\ght he 0 go+ all a/ray & =gett+ 8 high mission4 ,! div9e love 9 him t[>ds 8 ,fa!r 9 heav5 & 8 bre?r5 ( m51 0 ev] melt+ d[n 8 consci\s individuality 9 sweete/ %[]s ^u individual he>ts2 he came d[n l ra9 ^u ! m[n grass1 l %[]s t wat] ! e>?4 ,no woman1 no man surely ev] saw him z he 0 & did n wor%ip6 ,hel5 turn$ & glid$ back into ! h\se1 & nei!r knew %e _h be5 !re4 ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,,deliv]ance4 ,all t c\ld be done = ,leopold by t5d]e/ si/]ly c>e "u ! sup]vision ( ,mr4 ,fab]1 :o believ$ 9 m$ic9e less ?an 9 good nurs+1 0 well supplem5t$ by ! bro!rly m9i/rations ( ,w+fold1 :o gave all ! "t he c\ld hone/ly sp>e f 8 ord9>y "w to soo! & enlight5 ! suff]+ y\?4 ,b x became cle>] e week t no?+ w\ld avail to entice ! torn roots ( 8 be+ to clasp aga9 ! soil ( ! _w3 he 0 )]+ away out ( x4 ,ere long symptoms appe>$ :i* no "o c\ld well mi/ake1 & ,l+>d himself knew t he 0 dy+4 ,w+fold _h dread$ t 8 discov]y ( ! fact might reveal t he _h imag9$ "s atonem5t 9 ! public confession he desir$ to make1 & t1 :5 he f\nd x d5i$ him1 he w\ld fall into despair4 ,b he 0 ) him at ! mom5t1 & 8 be>+ left no gr\nd = anxiety4 ,a gleam ( gladness f bel[ ! horizon ( 8 _s1 %ot up1 l ! aurora ( a heav5ly morn+1 ov] ! sky ( 8 c\nt5ance4 ,he glanc$ at 8 fri5d1 smil$1 & said1 ,x has kill$ me too1 & t is a com=t4 ,! curate only look$ 8 reply4 ,!y say1 resum$ ,leopold1 aft] a :ile1 t ,god takes ! w = ! de$3--d y ?9k s8 ,c]ta9ly1 if x be a true1 g5u9e w4 ,i am sure ,i meant to give myself up1 said ,leopold4 ,i _h n ! slighte/ idea !y 7 fool+ me4 ,i "k x n[1 b :at c ,i d8 ,i am s weak1 ,i %\ld only die on ! way4 ,he tri$ to rise1 b fell back 9 ! *air4 ,oh6 he sigh$1 isn't x good ( ,god to let me die6 ,:o kn[s :at he may d = me on ! o!r side6 ,:o c tell :at ! b\nty ( a ,god l ,jesus may be6 ,a vision arose be=e ! m9d's eye ( ! curate3--,emmel9e kneel+ = ,leopold's =giv5ess2 b he wisely held 8 peace4 ,! com=t] ( ! s9n] mu/ come f ! =giv5ess ( ,god1 n f ! fav\rable judgm5t ( man mitigat+ ! h>%ness ( 8 judgm5t ( himself4 ,w+fold's bus9ess 0 to />t him well 9 ! _w :i!r he 0 go+4 ,he mu/ fill 8 scrip ) ! only weal? t w\ld n dissolve 9 ! wat]s ( ! riv]--t 01 ! k ( ,jesus4 ,x %ot a t]rible pang to ! he>t ( ,hel51 h]self1 = all h] suff]+1 s full ( life1 :5 %e le>n$ t h] d>l+ mu/ die4 ,yet 0 !re no small consolation m+l$ ) ! %ock4 ,fe> vani%$1 & love return$ ) grief 9 tw(old /r5g?4 ,%e flew to him1 & %e :o _h be5 s self-conta9$1 s compos$1 s unsubmissive to any sway ( feel+1 broke into su* a /orm ( passionate affection t ! vexilla mortis answ]$ f 8 bosom1 flaunt+ !mselves 9 crimson be=e h] eyes4 ,9 va91 = ,leopold's sake1 ! curate _h s\ght to quiet h]3 %e _h res5t$ 8 int]f]5ce2 b ?is result ( h] impetuosity spe$ily br\ght h] to h] s5ses1 & set h] to subdue h]self4 ,! same ev5+ ,leopold insi/$ on dictat+ to ! curate 8 confession1 :i* done1 he sign$ x1 mak+ him & ,hel5 atte/ ! signature4 ,?is docum5t ,w+fold took *>ge (1 promis+ to make ! "r use ( x1 :atev] he %\ld on reflection conclude t to be2 aft] :i* ,leopold's m9d seem$ at ease4 ,8 suff]+s f c\gh & weakness & fev] n[ augm5t$ ) great] rapidity1 b x 0 pla9 f ! k9d ( light 9 8 eye1 & ! f> look :i* 0 n yet retrospective1 t hope & expectation 7 high 9 him4 ,he _h 8 times ( gloom1 :5 ! dragon ( ! pa/ crept out ( its cave1 & tore him afre%2 b ! prospect ( com+ deliv]ance /r5g!n$ him4 ,d y really ?9k1 he said once to ! curate1 t ,i %all ev] see ,emmel9e aga98 ,truly ,i hope s1 answ]$ 8 fri5d1 & c\ld argue ^u ! po9t4 ,b ,i ?9k ! be/ way1 :5 d\bt comes z to any?+ y w\ld l to be true1 is j to hide y\rself 9 ,god1 z ! *ild w\ld hide f ! d>k 9 ! folds ( 8 "m's mantle4 ,b aunt w\ld say1 if %e knew1 t1 dy+ z %e did1 ,emmel9e c\ld n be sav$4 ,"s p may h to be a good deal a/oni%$ z to :at c & _c be1 return$ ! curate4 ,b nev] m9d :at p say3 make y\r appeal to ! savi\r ( m5 ab\t :atev] tr\bles y4 ,cry to ! fai?ful creator1 8 ,fa!r4 ,to be a fai?ful creator ne$s a might ( tru? & lov+-k9dness ( :i* our n>r[ he>ts c ill conceive4 ,ask mu* ( ,god1 my boy1 & be v humble & v hop+4 ,aft] all su* utt]ances1 ,leopold w\ld look 8 ?anks1 & hold 8 peace4 ,i wi% x 0 ov]1 he said once4 ,s d ,i1 return$ ! curate4 ,b be ( good c\rage1 ,i ?9k no?+ w be giv5 y to be> t y w n be able to be>4 ,i c be> a great deal m ?an ,i h _h yet4 ,i don't ?9k ,i %all ev] compla94 ,t w\ld be to take myself out ( 8 h&s1 & ,i h no hope any:]e else4--,are y any sur] ab\t him1 sir1 ?an y us$ to be8 ,at lea/ ,i hope 9 him f> m1 answ]$ ,w+fold4 ,is t en\gh8 ,no4 ,i want m4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld come back & tell y t ,i am alive & all is true4 ,i w\ld r h ! natural way ( x1 & get ! good ( n kn[+ fir/4 ,b if ,i c\ld tell y ,i _h f\nd ,god1 !n t w\ld make y sure4 ,w+fold c\ld n help a smile3--z if any assurance f su* a simple s\l c\ld rea* ! que/ions t toss$ 8 tr\bl$ _s6 ,i ?9k ,i %all f9d all ,i want 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 he said4 ,b y c't see him1 y "k4 ,p]haps ,i c d bett]4 ,& at all ev5ts ,i c wait1 said ! curate4 ,ev5 if he w\ld let me1 ,i w\ld n see him "o mom5t be=e he ?\ght x be/4 ,i w\ld n be out ( a d\bt or difficulty an h\r soon] ?an he w\ld take me4 ,leopold gaz$ at him & said no m4 ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,,! ,,mead[4 ,z ! disease advanc$1 8 desire = fre% air & fre$om grew to a great long+4 ,"o hot day1 ^: ard\rs1 too /rong = ! leaves ^: spr+s _h begun to dry up1 7 burn+ !m yell[ & black & pale & hectic r$1 ! fancy seiz$ him to get out ( ! g>d5 ) its clipt box-trees & cypresses1 into ! mead[ beyond4 ,!re a r$ c[ 0 swit*+ h] tail z %e ga!r$ h] milk f ! _w1 & look+ z if all 7 well4 ,he lik$ ! look ( ! c[1 & ! op5 mead[1 & want$ to %>e x ) h]1 he said4 ,hel51 ) ! anxiety ( a c>eful nurse1 fe>$ x might hurt him4 ,:at ,,does x matt]8 he return$4 ,is life s sweet t e mom5t m ( x is a preci\s boon8 ,aft] ,i'm gone a few days1 y won't "k a week f an h\r ( me4 ,:at a weight x w be (f y6 ,i envy y all ! relief ( x4 ,x w be to y j :at x w\ld be to me to get into t mead[4 ,hel5 made ha/e to let him h 8 w4 ,!y prep>$ a sort ( litt]1 & ! curate & ! coa*man c>ri$ him4 ,he>+ :at !y 7 ab\t1 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn hurri$ into ! g>d5 to prote/1 b prote/$ 9 va91 & jo9$ ! little procession1 walk+ ) ,hel51 l a second m\rn]1 aft] ! bi]4 ,!y cross$ ! lawn1 & ?r\gh a d\ble r[ ( small cypresses w5t w9d+ d[n to ! und]gr\nd passage1 z if to ! tomb itself4 ,!y _h n ?\ght ( op5+ ! door fir/1 & ! place 0 d>k & sepul*ral4 ,hel5 ha/5$ to set x wide4 ,lay me d[n = a mom5t1 said ,leopold4 --,"h ,i lie 9 my tomb6 ,h[ s(t & br[n ! light is6 ,i %\ld n m9d ly+ "h1 half-asleep1 half-awake1 = c5turies1 if only ,i _h ! hope ( a "r good wak+ at la/4 ,a flood ( fair light fla%$ 9 sweet torr5t into ! place--& !re1 fram$ 9 ! doorway1 b f> across ! gre5 field1 /ood ! r$ c[1 swit*+ h] tail4 ,& "h comes my resurrection6 cri$ ,leopold4 ,i h n _h long to wait = x--h ,i8 ,he smil$ a pa9$ cont5t z he spoke1 & !y bore him out into ! sun & air4 ,!y set him d[n 9 ! middle ( ! field 9 a l[ *air--n f> f a small clump ( trees1 ?r\gh :i* ! footpa? l$ to ! /ile :]eon ! curate 0 seat$ :5 he fir/ saw ! ,polw>?s4 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn f\nd ! fancy ( ! sick man pleasant = ! hale1 & s5t = h] knitt+4 ,hel5 sat d[n empty-h&$ on ! wool at h] bro!r's feet1 & ,w+fold1 tak+ a book f 8 pocket1 )drew to ! trees4 ,he _h n read long1 sitt+ )9 sight & call ( ! gr\p1 :5 ,hel5 came to him4 ,he seems incl9$ to g to sleep1 %e said4 ,p]haps if y w\ld read some?+1 x w\ld s5d him (f4 ,i w ) pleasure1 he said1 & return+ ) h]1 sat d[n on ! grass4 ,may ,i read y a few v]ses ,i came ^u ! o!r day1 ,leopold8 he ask$4 ,please d1 answ]$ ! invalid1 r sleepily4 ,i w n pl$ge myself t ! v]ses belong$ to ! book ,w+fold held be=e him1 b "h !y are4 ,he read !m sl[ly1 & z ev5ly & s(tly & rhy?mically z he c\ld4 ,!y come to !e1 ! halt1 ! maim$1 ! bl9d1 ,! devil-torn1 ! sick1 ! sore2 ,?y he>t _! well ( life !y f9d1 ,?9e e> _! op5 door4 ,ah6 :o c tell ! joy 9 ,pale/9e-- ,:at smiles & te>s ( rescu$ ?rongs6 ,_! lees ( life 7 turn$ to w9e1 ,_! pray]s to %\ts & songs6 ,! /ory de> our wise m5 fable call1 ,give paltry facts ! mighty range2 ,to me x seems j :at %\ld fall1 ,& no?+ v /range4 ,b 7 ,i deaf & lame & bl9d & sore1 ,i sc>ce w\ld c>e = cure to ask2 ,ano!r pray] %\ld haunt ?y door-- ,set !e a h>d] task4 ,if ?\ art ,*ri/1 see "h ?is he>t ( m9e1 ,torn1 empty1 moan+1 & unble/6 ,_h ev] he>t m ne$ ( ?9e1 ,if ?9e inde$ ha? re/8 ,?y ^w1 ?y h& "r soon did sc>e ! bane ,t 9 _! bodies dea? did bre$3 ,if ?\ can/ cure my deep] pa91 ,!n ?\ art ,"l inde$4 ,leopold smil$ sleepily z ,w+fold read1 & ere ! read+ 0 ov]1 slept4 ,:at c ! little object want "h8 said ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,w+fold look$ up1 & see+ :o x 0 approa*+ !m1 said1 ,oh6 t is ,mr4 ,polw>?1 :o keeps ! p>k gate4 ,nobody c well mi/ake him1 return$ ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,ev]ybody kn[s ! creature4 ,few p "k him really1 said ,w+fold4 ,i ,,h he>d t he is an oddity 9 m9d z well z 9 body1 said ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,he is a fri5d ( m9e1 rejo9$ ! curate4 ,i w g & meet him4 ,he wants to "k h[ ,leopold is4 ,pray keep y\r seat1 ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ,i don't 9 ! lea/ m9d him1 said ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,any ,,fri5d ( y\rs1 z y are k9d en\gh to call him1 w be welcome4 ,cl]gym5 come to "k--inde$ x is _! duty to be acqua9t$ ) all sorts ( p4 ,! late dean ( ,haly/one w\ld /op & speak to a paup]4 ,! curate did h[ev] g & meet ,polw>?1 & return+ ) him pres5t$ him to ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 :o receiv$ him ) p]fect condesc5sion1 & a mo/ graci\s b[4 ,hel5 b5t h] head also1 v diff]5tly1 b x w\ld be h>d to say h[4 ,! little man turn$ f !m1 & = a mom5t /ood look+ on ! face ( ! sleep+ y\?3 he _h n se5 him s9ce ,hel5 ord]$ him to leave ! h\se4 ,ev5 n[ %e look$ angry at 8 presumption 9 />+ at h] bro!r4 ,b ,polw>? did n see h] look4 ,a great t5d]ness came ov] 8 face1 & 8 lips mov$ s(tly4 ,! ,"l ( ?y life keep x = !e1 my son6 he murmur$1 gaz$ a mom5t long]1 !n rejo9$ ,w+fold4 ,!y walk$ aside a few paces4 ,pray be seat$1 said ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 )\t look+ up f h] knitt+--! seat %e (f]$ be+ ! wide mead[4 ,b !y _h already done s1 & pres5tly 7 deep 9 a g5tle talk1 ( :i* at l5g? c]ta9 words t _h be5 foolh>dy en\gh to w&] )9 h] range1 attract$ ! notice ( ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 & %e began to li/54 ,b %e c\ld n he> di/9ctly4 ,!re %\ld be "o bi%op at lea/1 ! little man 0 say+1 or ,i don't "k b he ought to be ! ar*-ar*-bi%op1--a poor man1 if possible1--"o l ! c\ntry p>son ,*auc] sets up 9 contra/ ) ! regul> cl]gy1--^: ma9 bus9ess %\ld be to travel ab\t f univ]sity to univ]sity1 f college to college1 f s*ool to s*ool1 w>n+ (f all "y m5 :o did n "k )9 !mselves t x 0 nei!r = position1 nor income1 nor /udy1 nor influ5ce1 t !y s\ght to m9i/] 9 ! temple1 f ent]+ ! *ur*4 ,z f holy gr\nd1 he w\ld w>n !m (f4 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn fanci$1 f c]ta9 obscure associations 9 h] own m9d1 t he 0 speak+ ( diss5t+ m9i/]s & p]sons ( l[ orig91 :o might wi% to ent] ! *ur* = ! sake ( ,,bett]+ ,,!mselves1 & hold+ z %e did1 t no *ur* pref]m5t %\ld be obta9$ except by p]sons ( good family & position1 qualifi$ to keep up ! dignity ( ! pr(ession1 %e 0 n a little gratifi$ to he>1 z %e suppos$1 ! same s5tim5ts f ! m\? ( su* an illit]ate p]son z1 tak+ no note ( 8 some:at rem>kable utt]ance1 %e imag9$ ,polw>? to be4 ,!re=e %e proce$$ to patronize him yet a little f>!r4 ,i q agree ) y1 %e said graci\sly4 ,none b su* z y describe %\ld presume to set foot )9 ! sacr$ prec9cts ( ! pr(ession4 ,polw>? did n mu* reli% ,mrs4 ,ram%orn's /yle1 & 0 consid]ably surpris$ at receiv+ su* a he>ty approval ( a propos$ re=mation 9 cl]ical ?+s1 rea*+ ev5 to ! ar*iepiscopal1 :i* he _h put half-humor\sly1 & yet 9 ?or\gh e>ne/1 = ! e> ( ,w+fold only4 ,he 0 little en\gh desir\s ( pursu+ ! conv]sation ) ,mrs4 ,ram%orn3 ,*>ity h]self does n require ( a man to ca/ 8 preci\s ?+s at ! feet ( my lady ,disda92 b he mu/ reply4 ,yes1 he said1 ! great evil 9 ! *ur* has always be5 ! pres5ce 9 x ( p]sons unsuit$ = ! "w !re requir$ ( !m4 ,"o v simple sift+ rule w\ld be1 t no "o %\ld be admitt$ to holy ord]s :o _h n fir/ prov$ himself capable ( mak+ a bett] liv+ 9 "s o!r call+4 ,i _c g ) y s f> z t--s few c>e]s are op5$ to g5tlem51 rejo9$ ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,besides--take ! b>1 = in/ance3 ! =5sic /yle a man mu/ !re acquire w\ld h>dly become ! pulpit4 ,b x w\ld n be a bad rule t ev]yone1 = admission to holy ord]s1 %\ld be possess$ ( prop]ty suffici5t at lea/ to live ^u4 ,) t = a f\ndation1 8 liv+ w\ld beg9 at once to tell1 & he w\ld imm$iately occupy ! sup]ior position e cl]gyman ought to h4 ,:at ,i 0 ?9k+ (1 said ,polw>?1 0 ma9ly ! exp]i5ce 9 life he w\ld ga!r by hav+ to make 8 own liv+2 t1 beh9d ! c\nt] or ! pl\gh1 or 9 ! work%op1 he w\ld come to "k m5 & _! /ruggles & _! ?\ghts-- ,good heav5s6 exclaim$ ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,b ,i mu/ be "u "s misappreh5sion6 ,x is n possible y c be speak+ ( ! ,,*ur*--( ! cl]ical ,,pr(ession4 ,! mom5t t is br\ght )9 ! rea* ( su* p z y describe1 t mom5t ! *ur* s9ks to ! level ( ! ca?olic prie/hood4 ,say r1 to ! level ( ,j]emy ,taylor1 return$ ,polw>?1 :o 0 ! son ( a b>b]2 or ( ,tillotson1 :o 0 ! son ( a clo?i]1 or some?+ ( ! sort1 & c]ta9ly a fi]ce diss5t]4 ,8 enemies said ! ar*bi%op himself 0 nev] baptiz$4 ,by-!-way1 he 0 n orda9$ till he 0 ?irty--& t be>s on :at ,i 0 j say+ to ,mr4 ,w+fold1 t ,i w\ld h no "o orda9$ till aft] =ty1 by :i* "t he w\ld "k :e!r he _h any real call or only a temptation to ! *ur*1 f ! base hope ( an easy liv+4 ,by ?is "t ,mrs4 ,ram%orn _h _h m ?an en\gh ( x4 ,! man 0 a levell]1 a *>ti/1 a positivi/--a despis] ( dignities6 ,mr4--1 ,mr4--1 ,i don't "k y\r "n--y w oblige me by utt]+ no m su* vile sl&]s 9 my company4 ,y are talk+ ab\t :at y don't 9 ! lea/ und]/&4 ,! man :o does n respect ! religion ( 8 native c\ntry is capable (--(--( ,,any?+4--,i am a/oni%$1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 at y\r all[+ a memb] ( y\r congregation to speak ) s little reg>d = ! feel+s ( ! cl]gy4--,y =get1 sir1 :5 y attribute :at y call base motives to ! clo?--y =get :o said ! lab\r] 0 wor?y ( 8 hire4 ,i hope n1 madam4 ,i only v5ture to sugge/ t1 ?\gh ! lab\r] is wor?y ( 8 hire1 n e man is wor?y ( ! lab\r4 ,w+fold 0 highly amus$ at ! turn ?+s _h tak54 ,polw>? look$ annoy$ at hav+ all[$ himself to be beguil$ into su* an utt]ly useless beat+ ( ! air4 ,my fri5d ,,has "s r peculi> notions1 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 said ! curate2 b y mu/ admit x 0 y\r approval t enc\rag$ him to g on4 ,x is q z well to "k :at p ?9k1 answ]$ ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 pret5d+ %e _h drawn him out f suspicion4 ,my husb& us$ to say t v few ( ! cl]gy _h any notion ( ! envy & opposition ( ! l[] ord]s1 bo? to !m p]sonally1 & to ! doctr9es !y taught4 ,to l[ human nature ! tru? has always be5 unpalatable4 ,:at precisely %e meant by ,,! ,,tru? x w\ld be h>d to say1 b if ! visual embodim5t ( x 0 n a dep>t$ dean1 x 0 at lea/ always associat$ 9 h] m9d ) a ca!dral *oir1 & a portly p]son 9 silk /ock+s4 ,"h happily ,leopold woke1 & 8 eyes fell ^u ! gate-keep]4 ,ah1 ,mr4 ,polw>?6 ,i am s glad to see y6 he said4 ,i am gett+ on1 y see4 ,x w be ov] soon4 ,i see1 repli$ ,polw>?1 go+ up to him1 & tak+ 8 (f]$ h& 9 bo? 84 ,i c\ld almo/ envy y = hav+ got s ne> ! end ( y\r tr\bles4 ,are y sure x w be ! end ( !m1 sir8 ,( "s ( !m at lea/1 ,i hope1 & ^? ! wor/4 ,i _c be sure ( any?+ b t all ?+s "w toge!r = good to !m t love ,god4 ,i don't "k yet :e!r ,i d love ,god4 ,n ! fa!r ( ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,if ,god is really j l him1 ,i don't see h[ any man c\ld help lov+ him4 ,b1 d y "k8 ,i am t]rifi$ sometimes at ! ?\ght ( see+ ,,my fa!r4 ,he 0 su* a sev]e man6 ,i am afraid he w scorn me4 ,nev]--if he has got into heav5ly ways4 ,& y h y\r "m !re too1 h y n8 ,oh6 yes2 ,i didn't ?9k ( t4 ,i don't rememb] mu* ( h]4 ,anyh[1 y h ,god !re1 & y mu/ re/ 9 him4 ,he w n =get y1 = t w\ld be ceas+ to be ,god4 ,if ,god 7 to =get = "o mom5t1 ! univ]se w\ld gr[ black--vani%--ru% out aga9 f ! realm ( law & ord] into *aos & night4 ,b ,i h be5 wick$4 ,! m ne$ y h1 if possible1 ( y\r ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,"h ,mrs4 ,ram%orn beckon$ ! att5dance ( ! curate :]e %e sat a few y>ds (f on ! o!r side ( ,leopold4 ,%e 0 a little a%am$ ( hav+ condesc5d$ to lose h] temp]1 & :5 ! curate w5t up to h]1 said1 ) an attempt at gaiety3 ,is y\r odd little fri5d1 z y call him1 all--8 ,& %e tapp$ h] lace-cap c>efully ) h] f+]4 ,r m s ?an mo/ p1 answ]$ ,w+fold4 ,he is a v rem>kable man4 ,he speaks z if he _h se5 bett] days--?\gh :]e he c h ga!r$ su* dete/able revolution>y notions1 ,i c't ?9k4 ,he is a man ( education1 z y see1 said ! curate4 ,y don't mean he has be5 to ,ox=d or ,cambridge8 ,no4 ,8 education has be5 ( a mu* high] sort ?an is g5]ally f\nd !re4 ,he kn[s t5 times z mu* z mo/ univ]sity m54 ,ah6 yes2 b t goes = no?+3 he hasn't ! /&+4 ,& if he _h be5 to ,ox=d1 he nev] c\ld h imbib$ su* notions4 ,besides--8 mann]s6 ,to speak ( ! cl]gy z he did 9 ! he>+ ( "o ^: :ole hi/ory is b\nd up ) ! *ur*6 ,%e meant h]self1 n ,w+fold4 ,b ( c\rse1 %e w5t on1 !re mu/ be some?+ ,,v wrong ) him to "k s mu* z y say1 & occupy su* a m5ial position6 ,no?+ b a gate-keep]1 & talk l t ab\t bi%ops & :at n6 ,p t are crook$ 9 body are always crook$ 9 m9d too4 ,i d>e say n[ he has q a cot]ie ( fri5ds & foll[]s among/ ! l[] ord]s 9 ,gla/on4 ,he's j ! sort ( man to lead ! work+ classes a/ray4 ,no d\bt he is a v int]e/+ /udy = a "y man l y1 b y mu/ take c>e2 y may be misund]/ood4 ,a "y cl]gyman ,,c',t be too cauti\s--if he has any hope ( ris+ 9 8 pr(ession4--,a gate-keep]1 inde$6 ,wasn't x some?+ l t ,david want$ to be8 said ! curate4 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 ,i nev] all[ any su* fooli% je/s 9 my he>+4 ,x 0 a ,,door-keep] ! ,psalmi/ said--& to ! h\se ( ,god1 n a nobleman's p>k4 ,a v]g]1 ,i suppose1 ?\ght ,w+fold4--,s]i\sly1 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 t poor little atom ( a creature is ! wise/ man ,i "k1 he said4 ,likely en\gh1 9 ,,y\r judgm5t1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 said ! dean's wid[1 & drew h]self up4 ,! curate accept$ 8 dismissal1 & jo9$ ! little man by ,leopold's *air4 ,i wi% y two c\ld be ) me :5 ,i am dy+1 said ,leopold4 ,if y w let y\r si/] "k y\r wi%1 y may easily h x1 said ! curate4 ,x w be j l say+ good-bye at ! pi]-head1 & pu%+ (f alone--y c't get m ?an "o into ! boat--out1 out1 alone1 into ! inf9ite ocean (--nobody kn[s :at or :]e1 said ,leopold4 ,except ^? t are !re already1 & !y w be wait+ to receive y1 said ,polw>?4 ,y may well hope1 if y h fri5ds to see y (f1 y w h fri5ds to welcome y too4 ,b ,i ?9k x's n s mu* l sett+ (f f ! pi]-head1 z gett+ d[n ! side ( ! ocean-%ip1 to laud at ! pi]-head1 :]e y\r fri5ds are all /&+ look+ out = y4 ,well6 ,i don't "k1 said ,leopold1 ) a sigh ( we>9ess4 ,i'm ?ankful sometimes t ,i've gr[n /upid4 ,i suppose x's ) dy+4 ,i didn't use to feel s4 ,sometimes ,i seem n to "k or c>e any?+ ab\t any?+4 ,i only want to /op c\gh+ & a*+ & g to sleep4 ,jesus 0 glad to give up 8 _s into 8 ,fa!r's h&s4 ,he 0 v tir$ be=e he got away4 ,?ank y4 ,?ank y4 ,i h him4 ,he is some:]e4 ,y c't m5tion 8 "n b x br+s me some?+ to live & hope =4 ,if he is !re1 all w be well4 ,& if ,i d get too tir$ to c>e = any?+1 he won't m9d2 he w only let me g to sleep1 & wake me up aga9 by-&-by :5 ,i am re/$4 ,he clos$ 8 eyes4 ,i want to g to b$1 he said4 ,!y c>ri$ him into ! h\se4 ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,,ra*el ,,& ,,leopold4 ,e day aft] ?is1 s long z ! wea!r cont9u$ w>m1 x 0 ,leopold's desire to be c>ri$ out to ! mead[4 ,once at 8 e>ne/ petition1 in/ead ( sett+ him d[n 9 ! usual place1 !y w5t on ) him into ! p>k1 b he soon wi%$ to be tak5 back to ! mead[4 ,he did n l ! trees to come betwe5 him & 8 b$3 !y made him feel l a rabbit t 0 too f> f its hole1 he said2 & he 0 nev] tempt$ to try x aga94 ,regul>ly too e day1 ab\t "o o'clock1 ! gnome-l =m ( ! gate-keep] w\ld issue f ! little door 9 ! p>k-f5ce1 & come m>*+ across ! grass t[>ds ,leopold's *air1 :i* 0 set ne> ! small clump ( trees already m5tion$4 ,! curate 0 almo/ always !re1 n talk+ mu* to ! invalid1 b lett+ him "k e n[ & !n by "s little att5tion or ^w1 or m]ely by %[+ himself1 t he 0 ne>4 ,sometimes he w\ld take refuge f ! heat1 :i* ! ,indian nev] felt too great1 among/ ! trees1 & !re w\ld g5]ally be ?9k+ out :at he want$ to say to 8 p ! next ,sunday4 ,"o ?+ he f\nd /range1 & c\ld n satisfy himself conc]n+1 namely1 t al?\gh 8 m9d 0 s mu* occupi$ ) ,hel5 t he (t5 seem$ unable to ?9k consecutively ^u any subject1 he c\ld always =esee 8 s]mon be/ :51 seat$ beh9d "o ( ! trees1 he c\ld by mov+ 8 head see h] at "w beside ,leopold's *air4 ,b ! ?+ t did c>ry him ?r\gh became pla9 en\gh to him aft]w>ds3 8 fai? 9 ,god 0 all ! "t gr[+--& t ?r\gh :at seem$ at ! "t only a succession ( int]ruptions4 ,no?+ is s ru9\s to progress 9 :i* ef=t is ne$ful1 z satisfaction ) app>5t a*ievem5t2 t ev] s\nds a halt2 b ,w+fold's exp]i5ce 0 t no soon] did he set 8 foot on ! l[e/ hillock ( self-congratulation ?an "s fre% difficulty came t ?rew him pro/rate2 & he rose aga9 only 9 ! /r5g? ( ! necessity = deep5+ & broad5+ 8 f\ndations t he might build yet high]1 tru/ yet f>!r3 t 0 ! only way n to lose ev]y?+4 ,he 0 gradually le>n+ t 8 fai? mu/ be an absolute "o1 claim+ f ,god ev]y?+ ! love ( a p]fect ,fa!r c\ld give1 or ! ne$s he _h creat$ 9 8 *ild c\ld desire2 t he mu/ n look to himself fir/ = help1 or imag9e t ! div9e 0 only ! supplem5t to ! weakness & failure ( ! human2 t ! highe/ ef=t ( ! human 0 to lay hold ( ! div9e4 ,he le>n$ t he c\ld keep no simple/ law 9 its lovel9ess until he 0 possess$ ( ! same _s :5ce t law sprung2 t he c\ld n love ,hel5 aright1 simply1 p]fectly1 unselfi%ly1 except ?r\gh ! pres5ce ( ! orig9at+ ,love2 t ! "o ?+ :]e9 he might imitate ! free creative w ( ,god 0 to w ! pres5ce & p[] ( t w :i* gave bir? to 84 ,x 0 ! vital gr[? ( ?is fai?1 ev5 :5 he 0 too mu* tr\bl$ to recognize ! fact1 t made him /rong 9 ! mid/ ( weakness2 :5 ! son ( man 9 him cri$ out1 ,let ?is cup pass1 ! son ( ,god 9 him c\ld yet cry1 ,let ?y w be done4 ,he c\ld inhabit trembl+1 & yet be brave4 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn g5]ally came to ! mead[ to see h[ ! invalid 0 aft] he 0 settl$1 b %e seldom /aid3 %e 0 n fond ( nurs+1 nei!r 0 !re any ne$ ( h] assi/ance2 & z ,hel5 nev] dream$ n[ ( oppos+ ! smalle/ wi% ( h] bro!r1 !re 0 no long] any ob/ruction to ! visits ( ,polw>?1 :i* 7 eag]ly look$ = by ,leopold4 ,"o day ! little man did n appe>1 b soon aft] 8 usual "t ! /ill m gnome-l =m ( 8 little niece came scrambl+ r ?an walk+ ov] ! mead[4 ,g5tly & mode/ly1 almo/ %yly1 %e came up to ,hel51 made h] a c\rtesy l a village s*ool-girl1 & said1 :ile %e glanc$ at ,leopold n[ & !n ) an ocean ( t5d]ness 9 h] l>ge1 cle> woman-eyes3 ,my uncle is sorry1 ,miss ,l+>d1 t he _c come to see y\r bro!r to-day1 b he is laid up ) an attack ( a/hma4 ,he wi%$ ,mr4 ,l+>d to "k t he 0 ?9k+ ( him3--%all ,i tell y j :at he said8 ,hel5 b5t h] neck3 %e did n feel mu* int]e/ 9 ! matt]4 ,b ,leopold said1 ,e ^w ( su* a good man is preci\s3 tell me1 please4 ,ra*el turn$ to him ) ! flu% ( a :ite rose on h] face4 ,i ask$ him1 sir--',%all ,i tell him y are pray+ = him8' & he said1 ',no4 ,i am n exactly pray+ = him1 b ,i am ?9k+ ( ,god & him toge!r4' ,! te>s rose 9 ,leopold's eyes4 ,ra*el lift$ h] baby-h&1 & /rok$ ! dusky1 long-f+ur$ "o t lay ^u ! arm ( ! *air4 ,de> ,mr4 ,l+>d1 %e said1--,hel5 /opp$ 9 ! middle ( an embroid]y /it*1 & gave h] a look z if %e 7 ab\t to ask = h] te/imonials--,i c\ld well wi%1 if x pleas$ ,god1 t ,i 7 z ne> home z y4 ,leopold took h] h& 9 84 ,d y suff] !n8 he said4 ,j look at me1 %e answ]$ ) a smile t 0 v pitiful1 ?\gh %e did n mean x = su*1 --%ut up all my life 9 ?is epitome ( de=mity6 ,b ,i a9't grumbl+3 t w\ld be a f9e ?+6 ,my h\se is n s small b ,god c get into x4 ,only y c't ?9k h[ tir$ ,i (t5 am ( x4 ,mr4 ,w+fold 0 tell+ me ye/]day t "s p fancy ,/4 ,paul 0 little & mis%ap51 & t t 0 8 ?orn 9 ! fle%4 ,i don't ?9k t c be true1 or he w\ld nev] h comp>$ 8 body to a tab]nacle1 =1 oh de>6 x won't /ret* an in* to give a body room4 ,i don't ?9k ei!r1 if t _h be5 ! case1 he w\ld h said he didn't want x tak5 (f1 b ano!r put ov] x4 ,i d want m9e tak5 (f me1 & a d[nright good new "o put on in/ead--some?+ n q s f> (f y\r si/]'s !re1 ,mr4 ,l+>d4 ,b ,i'm a%am$ ( talk+ l ?is4 ,x came ( want+ to tell y ,i c't be sorry y are go+ :5 ,i %\ld s de>ly l to g myself4 ,& ,i w\ld gladly /ay a :ile1 & t 9 a h\se no bigg] ?an y\rs1 if ,i _h a consci5ce ( ! same sort 9 my back-p>l\r1 said ,leopold smil+4 ,b :5 ,i am gone ! _w w be ! clean] = x4--,d y "k ab\t ,god ! same way y\r uncle does1 ,miss ,polw>?8 ,i hope ,i d--a little4 ,i d\bt if anybody kn[s z mu* z he does1 %e return$1 v s]i\sly4 ,b ,god kn[s ab\t u all ! same1 & he don't limit 8 goodness to u by our k ( him4 ,x's s wond]ful t he c be all to ev]ybody6 ,t is 8 ,godness1 y "k4 ,we c't be all to any "o p]son4 ,d :at we w1 we c't let anybody see into u ev54 ,we are all 9 bits & spots4 ,b ,i fancy x's a sign t we come ( ,god t we don't l x4 ,h[ gladly ,i w\ld help y1 ,mr4 ,l+>d1 & ,i c d no?+ = y4--,i'm afraid y\r beautiful si/] ?9ks me v =w>d4 ,b %e don't "k :at x is to lie awake all night sometimes1 ?9k-?9k+ ab\t my beautiful bro!rs & si/]s t ,i c't get ne> to d any?+ =4 ,:at an odd creature6 ?\ght ,hel51 to :om h] talk convey$ next to no?+4 --,b ,i d>esay !y are bo? out ( _! m9ds4 ,poor ?+s6 !y mu/ h a h>d "t ( x ) "o ?+ & ano!r6 ,i beg y\r p>don aga9 = talk+ s mu*1 conclud$ ,ra*el1 &1 ) a c\rtesy fir/ to ! "o !n to ! o!r1 walk$ away4 ,h] gait 0 no squ>e m>* l h] uncle's1 b a sort ( sidelong propulsion1 r5d]$ m labori\s by ! ?ick grass ( ! mead[4 ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,,! ,,blood-,,h\nd4 ,i ne$ n foll[ ! /eps by :i* ! inquiry-(fice became able s f> to enlight5 ! "m ( ,emmel9e conc]n+ ! p]son & habits ( ! visitor to ! des]t$ %aft1 t %e _h n[ come to ,gla/on 9 pursuit ( yet f>!r discov]y conc]n+ him4 ,%e _h no plan 9 h] m9d1 & z yet m]ely int5d$ go+ to *ur* & ev]y:]e else :]e p congregat$1 9 ! hope ( some?+ turn+ up to direct inquiry4 ,n a suspicion ( ,leopold _h ev] cross$ h]4 ,%e did n ev5 "k t he _h a si/] 9 ,gla/on1 = ,emmel9e's fri5ds _h n all be5 intimate ) h] p>5ts4 ,on ! morn+ aft] h] arrival1 %e w5t out e>ly to take a walk1 & brood ov] h] *]i%$ v5geance2 & f9d+ h] way into ! p>k1 w&]$ ab\t 9 x = "s "t4 ,leav+ x at l5g? by ano!r gate1 & inquir+ ! way to ,gla/on1 %e 0 direct$ to a footpa? :i* w\ld lead h] ?i!r across ! fields4 ,foll[+ ?is1 %e came to a /ile1 & be+ r we>y ) h] long walk1 sat d[n on x4 ,! day 0 a gr& autumnal "o4 ,b nature _h no *>ms = h]4 ,inde$ _h %e n be5 close %ut 9 ! gloomy *amb] ( h] own ?\ghts1 %e w\ld n ?us h walk$ abroad alone2 = nature 0 to h] a dull1 featureless void2 :ile h] pa/ 0 sc>cely ( ! sort to invite retrospection1 & h] future 0 cl\d$4 ,x s fell t j !n ,leopold 0 asleep 9 8 *air1--e morn+ he slept a little soon aft] be+ c>ri$ out1--& t *air 0 9 its usual place 9 ! mead[1 ) ! clump ( trees betwe5 x & ! /ile4 ,w+fold 0 seat$ 9 ! %ade ( ! trees1 b ,hel51 happ5+ to want some?+ = h] "w1 w5t to him & committ$ h] bro!r to 8 c>e until %e %\ld return1 :]eupon he took h] place4 ,almo/ ! same mom5t h[ev]1 he spi$ ,polw>? com+ f ! little door 9 ! f5ce1 & w5t to meet him4 ,:5 he turn$1 he saw1 to 8 surprise1 a lady /&+ beside ! sleep+ y\?1 & gaz+ at him ) a /range int5tness4 ,polw>? _h se5 h] come f ! clump ( trees1 & suppos$ h] a fri5d4 ,! curate walk$ ha/ily back1 fe>+ he might wake & be />tl$ at sight ( ! /rang]4 ,s int5t 0 ! gaz+ lady t he 0 )9 a few y>ds ( h] be=e %e he>d him4 ,%e />t$1 gave "o glance at ! curate1 & hurri$ away t[>ds ! t[n4 ,!re 0 an agitation 9 h] movem5ts :i* ,w+fold did n l2 a suspicion cross$ 8 m9d1 & he resolv$ to foll[ h]4 ,9 8 turn he made ov] 8 *>ge to ,polw>?1 & set (f aft] ! lady4 ,! mom5t ! eyes ( ,emmel9e's "m fell ^u ! c\nt5ance ( ,leopold1 :om1 not)/&+ ! *ange t suff]+ _h caus$1 %e recogniz$ at once1 p>tly by ! peculi>ity ( 8 complexion1 ! suspicion1 almo/ conviction1 awoke 9 h] t "h 0 ! murd]] ( h] daught]4 ,t he look$ s ill seem$ only to confirm ! likelihood4 ,h] fir/ idea 0 to wake him & see ! effect ( h] sudd5 pres5ce4 ,f9d+ he 0 att5d$1 h[ev]1 %e hurri$ away to inquire 9 ! t[n & discov] all %e c\ld ab\t him4 ,a few mom5ts aft] ,polw>? _h tak5 *>ge ( him1 & :ile he /ood look+ on him t5d]ly1 ! y\? woke ) a />t4 ,:]e is ,hel58 he said4 ,i h n se5 h]4 ,ah1 "h %e comes6 ,did y f9d me alone !n8 ,mr4 ,w+fold 0 ) y4 ,he gave y up to me1 because he _h to g into ! t[n4 ,he look$ inquir+ly at 8 si/] z %e came up1 & %e look$ 9 ! same way at ,polw>?4 ,i feel z if ,i _h be5 ly+ all alone 9 ?is wide field1 said ,leopold1 & z if ,emmel9e _h be5 by me1 ?\gh ,i didn't see h]4 ,polw>? look$ aft] ! two retir+ =ms1 :i* 7 n[ almo/ at ! end ( ! mead[1 & ab\t to issue on ! high road4 ,hel5 foll[$ 8 look ) h]s4 ,a s5se ( dang] seiz$ h]4 ,%e trembl$1 & kept beh9d ,leopold's *air4 ,h y be5 c\gh+ mu* to-day8 ask$ ! gate-keep]4 ,yes1 a good deal--be=e ,i came out4 ,b x does n seem to d mu* good4 ,:at good w\ld y h x d8 ,i mean1 x doesn't d mu* to get x ov]4 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,polw>?1 ,i am s tir$6 ,poor fell[6 ,i suppose x looks to y z if x w\ld nev] be ov]4 ,b all ! millions ( ! dead h got ?r\gh x be=e y4 ,i don't "k t t makes mu* diff]5ce to ! "o :o is go+ ?r\gh x4 ,& yet x is a sort ( company4 ,only1 ! ,"l ( ,life is ) y1 & t is real company1 ev5 9 dy+1 :5 no "o else c be ) y4 ,if ,i c\ld only feel he 0 ) me6 ,y may feel 8 pres5ce )\t kn[+ :at x is4 ,i hope x isn't wrong to wi% x ov]1 ,mr4 ,polw>?8 ,i don't ?9k x is wrong to wi% any?+ y c talk to him ab\t & submit to 8 w4 ,/4 ,paul says1 ',9 ev]y?+ let y\r reque/s be made kn[n unto ,god4' ,i sometimes feel z if ,i w\ld n ask him = any?+1 b j let him give me :at he likes4 ,we mu/ n want to be bett] ?an is requir$ ( u1 = t is at once to gr[ worse4 ,i don't q und]/& y4 ,n to ask may seem to y a m submissive way1 b ,i don't ?9k x is s *ildlike4 ,x seems to me f> bett] to say1 ',o ,"l1 ,i %\ld l ?is or t1 b ,i w\ld r n h x if ?\ do/ n l x also4' ,su* pray] br+s u into consci\s & imm$iate relations ) ,god4 ,rememb]1 our ?\ghts are !n1 pass+ to him1 s5t by our w into 8 m9d4 ,our ,"l taught u to pray always & n get tir$ ( x4 ,god1 h[ev] poor creatures we may be1 w\ld h u talk to him1 = !n he c speak to u bett] ?an :5 we turn no face to him4 ,i wond] :at ,i %all d ! fir/ ?+ :5 ,i f9d myself out--out1 ,i mean1 9 ! air1 y "k4 ,x does seem /range we %\ld "k s little ( :at is 9 "s s5se s ne> u6 t su* a ?9 veil %\ld be s imp5etrable6 ,i fancy ! fir/ ?+ ,i %\ld d w\ld be to pray4 ,!n y ?9k we %all pray !re--:]ev] x is8 ,x seems to me z if ,i %\ld g up 9 pray] ! mom5t ,i got out ( ?is dungeon ( a body4 ,i am wrong to call x a dungeon1 = x lies op5 to ,god's fair _w1 & ! lovel9ess ( ! e>? comes into me ?r\gh eyes & e>s j z well z into y4 ,/ill x is a pleasant ?\ght t x w drop (f me "s day4 ,b = pray]--,i ?9k all w pray !re m ?an "h--9 _! he>ts & s\ls ,i mean4 ,!n :]e w\ld be ! h>m if y 7 to pray = me aft] ,i am gone8 ,n[h]e t ,i "k4 ,x 7 inde$ a /range ?+ if ,i might pray = y up to ! mom5t :5 y ceas$ to brea!1 & !re) an iron gate close betwe5 u1 & ,i c\ld n ev5 rea* y ?r\gh ! e> ( ! ,fa!r ( u bo?6 ,x is a fai?less doctr9e1 = x supposes ei!r t ^? p>t$ f u c d )\t pray]1 ! ?+ ,jesus himself c\ld n d )\t1 see+ x 0 8 highe/ joy1 or t ,god has s p>t$ ^? :o are 9 him f ^! :o are 9 him1 t !re is no long] any relation1 ev5 ) ,god1 common to !m4 ,! ?+ to me takes ! =m ( an absurdity4 ,ah1 !n1 pray = me :5 ,i am dy+1 & don't be c>eful to /op :5 y ?9k ,i am gone1 ,mr4 ,polw>?4 ,i w rememb]1 said ! little man4 ,& n[ ,hel5 _h recov]$ h]self1 & came & took h] usual seat by h] bro!r's side4 ,%e ca/ an anxi\s glance n[ & !n into ,polw>?'s face1 b d>$ n ask him any?+4 ,,*apt] ,,xxi4 ,,! ,,blood-,,h\nd ,,trav]s$4 ,emmel9e's "m _h n gone f> be=e %e became aw>e t %e 0 foll[$4 ,x 0 a turn+ ( ! tables :i* %e did n reli%4 ,z w\ld n h be5 unnatural1 ev5 _h %e be5 at peace ) all ! _w1 a c]ta9 feel+ ( undef9$ t]ror came ^u h] & ?reat5$ to ov]ma/] h]4 ,x 0 ! m oppressive t %e did n *oose to turn & face h] pursu]1 feel+ t to d s w\ld be to confess consci\sness ( cause4 ,! fate ( h] daught]1 seldom abs5t f h] ?\ghts1 n[ rose be=e h] 9 association ) h]self1 & 0 gradually swell+ uneas9ess into t]ror3 :o c\ld tell b ?is man press+ on h] heels 9 ! solit>y mead[1 & n ! poor y\? :o lay dy+ !re 9 ! *air1 & :o might inde$ be only ano!r ( 8 victims1 0 ! murd]] ( ,emmel9e6 ,unconsci\sly %e accel]at$ h] pace until x 0 almo/ a run1 b did n !reby wid5 by a s+le y>d ! di/ance betwe5 h] & ! curate4 ,:5 %e came out on ! high road1 %e gave a glance 9 ea* direction1 &1 avoid+ ! c\ntry1 made = ! h\ses4 ,a %ort lane l$ h] into ,p9e /reet4 ,!re %e felt safe1 ! m t x 0 m>ket-day & a good _m p ab\t1 & slack5$ h] pace1 feel+ confid5t t h] pursu]1 :oev] he 01 w\ld n[ turn aside4 ,b %e 0 disappo9t$1 =1 ca/+ a glance ov] h] %\ld]1 %e saw t he /ill kept ! same di/ance beh9d h]4 ,%e saw also1 9 t s+le look1 t he 0 well-kn[n1 = sev]al 7 salut+ him at once4 ,:at c\ld x mean8 ,x mu/ be ! ,g4 ,b4 ( ! ,temple6 ,%\ld %e /op & *all5ge 8 pursuit8 ,! ob/acle to ?is 0 a c]ta9 s9k+ at ! he>t acc\nt$ = by an old memory4 ,%e mu/ elude him in/ead4 ,b %e did n "k a s+le p]son 9 ! place1 or "o h\se :]e %e c\ld seek refuge4 ,!re 0 an hotel be=e h]6 ,b1 unatt5d$1 heat$1 disord]$1 to all appe>ance disreputable1 :at acc\nt c\ld %e give ( h]self8 ,t %e _h be5 foll[$ by "s "o ev]ybody knew1 & to :om ev]ybody w\ld li/56 ,feebly debat+ ?us ) h]self1 %e hurri$ along ! pavem5t ( ,p9e ,/reet1 ) ! ,abbey *ur* be=e h]4 ,! foot/eps beh9d h] grew l\d] & quick]3 ! man _h made up 8 m9d & 0 com+ up ) h]6 ,he might be mad1 or ready to run all risks6 ,probably he knew 8 life at /ake ?r\gh h] p]sev]ance & det]m9ation6 ,on came ! foot/eps1 = ! curate _h inde$ made up 8 m9d to speak to h]1 & ei!r remove or c]tify 8 appreh5sions4 ,ne>] yet & ne>] !y came4 ,h] c\rage & /r5g? 7 giv+ way toge!r1 & %e %\ld be at 8 m]cy4 ,%e d>t$ into a %op1 sank on a *air by ! c\nt]1 & begg$ = a glass ( wat]4 ,a "y woman ran to fet* x1 :ile ,mr4 ,drew w5t up/airs = a glass ( w9e4 ,return+ ) x he came f beh9d ! c\nt]1 & approa*$ ! lady :]e %e sat lean+ h] head ^u x4 ,meantime ! curate also _h ent]$ ! %op1 & plac$ himself :]e he might1 unse5 by h]1 await h] dep>ture1 = he c\ld n speak to h] !re4 ,he _h h] full 9 sight :5 ,mr4 ,drew w5t up to h]4 ,d me ! fav\r1 madam1 he said--b said no m4 ,= at ! s\nd ( 8 voice1 ! lady gave a viol5t />t1 & rais+ h] head look$ at him4 ,! w9e-glass dropp$ f 8 h&4 ,%e gave a half-*ok$ cry1 & sp$ f ! %op4 ,! curate 0 on ! spr+ aft] h] :5 he 0 arre/$ by ! look ( ! drap]3 he /ood fix$ :]e %e _h left him1 :ite & trembl+ z if he _h se5 a gho/4 ,he w5t up to him1 & said 9 a :isp]3 ,:o is %e8 ,mrs4 ,drew1 answ]$ ! drap]1 & ! curate 0 aft] h] l a greyh\nd4 ,a little cr[d ( ! %op-p ga!r$ 9 con/]nation ab\t _! ma/]4 ,pick up ^? pieces ( glass1 & call ,jacob to wipe ! floor1 he said--!n walk$ to ! door1 & /ood />+ aft] ! curate z he all b ran to ov]take ! swiftly glid+ figure4 ,! woman1 ignorant t h] pursu] 0 aga9 ^u h] track1 & h>dly any long] kn[+ :at %e did1 hurri$ bl9dly t[>ds ! *ur*y>d4 ,pres5tly ! curate relax$ 8 spe$1 hop+ %e w\ld ent] x1 :5 he w\ld h h] 9 a fit place = ! int]view ^u :i* he 01 if possible1 m det]m9$ ?an ev]1 n[ t he _h ga9$1 s unexpect$ly1 su* an absolute hold ( h]4 ,%e mu/ be ,emmel9e's "m1 he said to himself1 --fit "m = su* a daught]4 ,! mom5t he caught sight ( ! visage lift$ f its reg>d ( ! sleep+ y\?1 he _h suspect$ ! fact4 ,he _h n _h "t to analyze its expression1 b !re 0 some?+ dreadful 9 x4 ,a bold "q w\ld det]m9e ! suspicion4 ,%e ent]$ ! *ur*y>d1 saw ! ,abbey door op51 & ha/5$ to x4 ,%e 0 9 a /ate ( bewild]m5t & t]ror t w\ld h craz$ a weak] woman4 ,9 ! por* %e ca/ a glance beh9d h]3 !re aga9 0 h] pursu]6 ,%e sprang into ! *ur*4 ,a woman 0 du/+ a pew n f> f ! door4 ,:o is t com+8 %e ask$1 9 a tone & ) a mi5 t appall$ ,mrs4 ,j5k9s4 ,%e _h b to /ret* h] neck a little to see ?r\gh ! por*4 ,:y1 x be only ! p>son1 ma'am6 %e answ]$4 ,!n ,i %all hide myself1 ov] !re1 & y mu/ tell him ,i w5t out by t o!r door4 ,"h's a sov]eign = y4 ,i ?ank y1 ma'am1 said ,mrs4 ,j5k9s1 look+ wi/fully at ! sov]eign1 :i* 0 a great sum ( money to a sexton's wife ) *ildr51 !n in/antly go+ on ) h] du/+2 b x a9't no use try9' ( tricks ) our p>son4 ,,he a9't "o ( y\r ,mollies4 ,a man z don't play no tricks ) hisself1 z ,i he]d a g5tleman say1 x a9't no use try9' no tricks ) ,,him4 ,almo/ :ile %e spoke1 ! curate ent]$4 ,! suppliant drew h]self up1 & endeav\r$ to look bo? dignifi$ & injur$4 ,w\ld y oblige me by walk+ ?is way = a mom5t8 he said1 com+ /raight to h]4 ,)\t a ^w %e foll[$ him1 a long way up ! *ur*1 to ! /one scre5 :i* divid$ ! *ancel f ! nave4 ,!re1 9 sight ( ,mrs4 ,j5k9s1 b s f> (f t %e c\ld n he> a ^w said1 he ask$ h] to take a seat on ! /eps t l$ up to ! door 9 ! c5tre ( ! scre54 ,aga9 %e obey$1 & ,w+fold sat d[n ne> h]4 ,are y ,emmel9e's "m8 he said4 ,! gasp1 ! expression ( eye & *eek1 ! :ole />tl$ response ( ! woman1 reveal$ t he _h /ruck ! tru?4 ,b %e made no answ]4 ,y _h bett] be op5 ) me1 he said1 = ,i mean to be v op5 ) y4 ,%e />$ at him1 b ei!r c\ld n1 or w\ld n speak4 ,probably x 0 caution3 %e mu/ he> m4 ,! curate 0 already excit$1 & ,i fe> n[ got a little angry1 = ! woman 0 n pleasant to 8 eyes4 ,i want to tell y1 he said1 t ! poor y\? :om y\r daught]'s behavi\r made a murd]] (1-- ,%e gave a cry1 & turn$ l a%es4 ,! curate 0 a%am$ ( himself4 ,x seems cruel1 he said1 b x is ! tru?4 ,i say he is n[ dy+--w be gone aft] h] 9 a few weeks4 ,! same bl[ kill$ bo?1 only "o has tak5 long] to die4 ,no end c be s]v$ by br++ him to ju/ice4 ,inde$ if he 7 arre/$1 he w\ld b die on ! way to prison4 ,i h foll[$ y to p]suade y1 if ,i c1 to leave him to 8 fate & n urge x on4 ,if ev] man 0 sorry1 or suff]$ = 8 crime1-- ,& pray :at is t to me1 sir8 cri$ ! av5g+ "m1 :o1 f9d+ h]self entreat$1 /raightway became arrogant4 ,w x give me back my *ild8 ,! villa9 took h] preci\s life )\t giv+ h] a mom5t to prep>e = et]nity1 & y ask me--h] "m--to let him g free6 ,i w n4 ,i h v[$ v5geance1 & ,i w h x4 ,all[ me to say t if y die 9 t _s1 y w be f> worse prep>$ = et]nity ?an ,i tru/ y\r poor daught] 04 ,:at is t to y8 ,if ,i *oose to run ! risk1 x is my bus9ess4 ,i tell y x %all n be my fault if ! wret* is n br\ght to ! gall[s4 ,b he _c live to rea* x4 ,! necess>y prelim9>ies w\ld wa/e all t is left ( 8 life4 ,i only ask ( y to let him die 9 :at peace is possible to him4 ,we mu/ =give our enemies1 y "k4 ,b inde$ he is no enemy ( y\rs4 ,no enemy ( m9e6 ,! man :o murd]$ my *ild no enemy ( m9e6 ,i am 8 enemy !n1 & t he %all f9d4 ,if ,i _c br+ him to ! gall[s1 ,i c at lea/ make e man & woman 9 ! c\ntry po9t ! f+] ( scorn & hatr$ at him4 ,i c br+ him & all 8 to disgrace & ru94 ,_! pride inde$6 ,!y 7 f> too gr& to visit me1 b n to s5d a murd]] into my family4 ,i am 9 my rights1 & ,i w h ju/ice4 ,we %all see if !y are too gr& to h a nephew hung6 ,my poor lovely innoc5t6 ,i w h ju/ice on ! f\l villa94 ,cr++ %all n turn me4 ,h] lips 7 :ite1 & h] tee? set4 ,%e rose ) ! sl[ movem5t ( "o ^: int5t1 if x _h blossom$ 9 passion1 0 yet root$ 9 det]m9ation1 & turn$ to leave ! *ur*4 ,x might hamp] y\r proce$+s a little1 said ,w+fold1 if 9 ! meantime a *>ge ( bigamy 7 br\ght aga9/ y\rself1 ,,mrs4 ,,drew6 ,h] back 0 t[>ds ! curate1 & = a mom5t %e /ood l ano!r pill> ( salt4 ,!n %e began to tremble1 & laid hold ( ! c>v$ top ( a b5*4 ,b h] /r5g? fail$ h] completely2 %e sank on h] knees & fell on ! floor ) a deep moan4 ,! curate call$ ,mrs4 ,j5k9s & s5t h] = wat]4 ,) "s difficulty !y br\ght h] to h]self4 ,%e rose1 %udd]$1 drew h] %awl ab\t h]1 & said to ! woman1 ,i am sorry to give s mu* tr\ble4 ,:5 does ! next tra9 />t = ,london8 ,)9 an h\r1 answ]$ ! curate4 ,i w see y safe to x4 ,excuse me2 ,i pref] go+ alone4 ,t ,i _c p]mit4 ,i mu/ g to my lodg+s fir/4 ,i w g ) y4 ,%e ca/ on him a look ( que/ion+ hate1 yield$1 & laid two f+]s on 8 (f]$ arm4 ,!y walk$ out ( ! *ur* toge!r & to ! cottage :]e1 = privacy1 %e _h lodg$4 ,!re he left h] = half an h\r1 &1 yield+ to h] own necessities & n 8 entreaties1 %e took "s refre%m5t4 ,9 ! gl[+ sull5ness ( foil$ rev5ge1 ! smoke ( :i* 0 cross$ e n[ & !n by a fla% ( hate1 %e sat until he return$4 ,be=e ,i g ) y to ! tra91 said ! curate1 re-ent]+1 y mu/ give me y\r ^w to leave "y ,l+>d unmole/$4 ,i "k my fri5d ,mr4 ,drew has no desire to tr\ble y1 b ,i am equally confid5t t he w d :atev] ,i ask him4 ,if y w n promise me1 f ! mom5t y get into ! tra9 y %all be wat*$4--,d y promise8 ,%e 0 sil5t1 ) cold gleam+ eyes1 = a "t1 !n said1 ,h[ am ,i to "k t ?is is n a trick to save 8 life8 ,y saw him2 y c\ld see he is dy+4 ,i tell y ,i d n ?9k he c live a mon?4 ,8 disease is mak+ rapid progress4 ,he mu/ g ) ! fir/ ( ! cold wea!r4 ,%e c\ld n help believ+ him4 ,i promise1 %e said4 ,b y are cruel to compel a "m to =give ! villa9 t /abb$ h] daught] to ! he>t4 ,if ! poor lad 7 n dy+1 ,i %\ld see t he gave himself up1 z inde$ he set out to d "s weeks ago1 b 0 fru/rat$ by 8 fri5ds4 ,he is dy+ = love ( h]4 ,i believe ,i say s ) tru?4 ,pity & love & remorse & horror ( 8 de$ h br\ght him to ! /ate y saw him 94 ,to be hone/ ) y1 he might h got bett] en\gh to be tortur$ = a :ile 9 a madh\se1 = no jury w\ld h br\ght him 9 any?+ b insane at ! "t1 ) ! evid5ce t w\ld h be5 adduc$2 b 9 8 anxiety to see me "o day--= 8 fri5ds at t "t did n fav\r my visits1 because ,i enc\rag$ him to surr5d]--he got out ( ! h\se alone to come to me1 b fa9t$ 9 ! *ur*y>d1 & lay on ! damp e>? = ! bett] "p ( an h\r1 ,i fancy1 be=e we f\nd him4 ,/ill1 _h x n be5 = ! /ate ( 8 m9d1 he might h got ov] t too4--,z y hope to be =giv51 y mu/ =give him4 ,he held out 8 h& to h]4 ,%e 0 a little s(t5$1 & gave him h]s4 ,all[ me "o ^w m1 said ! curate1 & !n we %all g3 ,our crimes are fri5ds t w hunt u ei!r to ! bosom ( ,god1 or ! pit ( hell4 ,%e look$ d[n1 b h] look 0 /ill sull5 & pr\d4 ,! curate rose1 took up h] bag1 w5t ) h] to ! /ation1 got h] ticket1 & saw h] (f4 ,!n he ha/5$ back to ,drew1 & told him ! :ole /ory4 ,poor woman6 said h] husb&4 --,b ,god only kn[s h[ mu* ,i am to blame = all ?is4 ,if ,i _h behav$ bett] to h] %e might nev] h left me1 & y\r poor "y fri5d w\ld n[ be well & happy4 ,p]haps consum+ 8 s\l to a c9d] ) t odi\s drug1 said ,w+fold4 ',tis true1 z ,edg> 9 ,k+ ,le> says3 ,! gods are j1 & ( our pleasant vices ,make in/rum5ts to plague u2 b he takes our s9s on himself1 & :ile he drives !m out ( u ) a :ip ( scorpions he w yet make !m "w 8 ends4 ,he defeats our s9s1 makes !m prison]s1 =ces !m into ! s]vice ( good1 *a9s !m l galley-slaves to ! r[+-b5*es ( ! gospel-%ip1 or sets !m l ugly gurgoyles or corbels or brackets 9 ! walls ( 8 temples4--,no1 t la/ figure ,i retract4 ,i don't l x4 ,x implies _! cont9uance4 ,poor woman6 said ,mr4 ,drew aga91 :o = once _h be5 inatt5tive to ! curate4 ,well6 %e is sorely puni%$ too4 ,%e w be worse puni%$ yet1 said ! curate1 if ,i c read ! signs ( "*4 ,,%e is n rep5tant yet--?\gh ,i did spy 9 h] j once a t\* ( s(t5+4 ,x is an awful retribution1 said ! drap]1 & ,i may yet h to be> my %>e--,god help me6 ,i suspect x is ! weight ( h] own crime t makes h] s fi]ce to av5ge h] daught]4 ,i d\bt if any?+ makes "o s un=giv+ z guilt unrep5t$ (4 ,well1 ,i mu/ try to f9d out :]e %e is1 & keep an eye ^u h]4 ,t w be easy en\gh4 ,b :y8 ,because1 if1 z y ?9k1 !re is m evil 9 /ore = h]1 ,i may yet h x 9 my p[] to d h] "s s]vice4--,i wond] if ,mr4 ,polw>? w\ld call t ,,div9e ,,s]vice1 he add$1 ) "o ( 8 sunny smiles4 ,inde$ he w\ld1 answ]$ ! curate4 ,,*apt] ,,xxii4 ,,! ,,b$side4 ,george ,bascombe1 :5 he w5t to ,p>is1 _h no ?\ght ( des]t+ ,hel54 ,b he _h good gr\nd = fe>+ t x might be ru9\s bo? to ,l+>d & himself to und]take 8 def5ce4 ,f ,p>is he wrote (t5 to ,hel51 & %e repli$--n s (t51 yet (t5 en\gh to satisfy him2 & z soon z %e 0 conv9c$ t ,leopold c\ld n recov]1 %e let him "k1 :]eupon he in/antly began 8 prep>ations = return+4 ,be=e he came1 ! wea!r _h *ang$ once m4 ,x 0 n[ cold1 & ! cold _h begun at once to tell ^u ! invalid4 ,!re are "s natures to :i* cold1 moral1 spiritual1 or physical1 is le?al1 & ,l+>d's 0 ( ! class4 ,:5 ! dy+ leaves began to %iv] 9 ! brea? ( ! com+ w9t]1 ! v brightness ( ! sun to look gleamy1 & nature to put on ! unfri5dly aspect ( a _w n made = liv+ 9 b = %utt+ out--:5 all ?+s took ! turn ( rem9d+ man t 8 life lay n 9 !m1 ,leopold began to %r9k & )draw4 ,he c\ld n face ! gha/ly p]si/5ce ( ! w9t]1 :i* w\ld come1 let all ! s\ls ( ! summ]-nations %r9k & prote/ z !y might2 let !m creep %iv]+ to ,hades2 he w\ld h 8 day4 ,8 suff]+s 7 n[ consid]able1 b he nev] compla9$4 ,re/less & fev]$ & sick at he>t1 x 0 yet m f ! necessity ( a lovely nature ?an f any virtue ( w t he 0 s easy to nurse1 accept+ s readily all m9i/rations4 ,nev] exact+ & nev] refus+1 he 0 always g5tly grateful1 giv+ a sort ( impression t he c\ld h be5 f> m ?ankful _h he n kn[n ! object ( ! k9dnesses s unwor?y4 ,next to ,w+fold's & 8 si/]'s1 ! face he always welcom$ mo/ 0 t ( ! gate-keep]--inde$ ,i ought h>dly to say ,,next to !irs2 = if ! curate 0 to him z a bro!r1 ,polw>? 0 l a fa!r 9 ,*ri/4 ,he came e day1 & e day1 almo/ till t ( 8 dep>ture1 ,leopold _h some?+ to ask him ab\t or some?+ to tell him4 ,i am gett+ s /upid1 ,mr4 ,polw>?6 he said once4 ,x tr\bles me mu*4 ,i don't seem to c>e = any?+ n[4 ,i don't want to he> ! ,new ,te/am5t3 ,i w\ld r he> a *ild's /ory--some?+ t did n want ?9k+ ab\t4 ,if ,i am n c\gh+1 ,i am cont5t4 ,i c\ld lie = h\rs & h\rs & nev] ?9k m ?an :at goes creep+ ?r\gh my m9d no fa/] ?an a canal 9 ,holl&4 ,:5 ,i am c\gh+1--,i don't ?9k ab\t any?+ !n ei!r--only long = ! fit to be ov] & let me back aga9 into ,sleepy ,holl[4 ,all my pa/ life seems to be gone f me4 ,i don't c>e ab\t x4 ,ev5 my crime looks l some?+ done ages ago4 ,i "k x is m9e1 & ,i w\ld r x 7 n m9e1 b x is z if a great cl\d _h come & swept away ! _w 9 :i* x took place4 ,i am afraid sometimes t ,i am beg9n+ n to c>e ev5 ab\t t4 ,i say to myself1 ,i %all be sorry aga9 by & by1 b ,i c't ?9k ab\t x n[4 ,i feel z if ,i _h h&$ x ov] to ,god to lay d[n :]e ,i %\ld f9d x aga9 :5 ,i 0 able to ?9k & be sorry4 ,?is 0 a long utt]ance = him to make1 b he _h spok5 sl[ly1 & ) frequ5t pauses4 ,polw>? did n speak once1 feel+ t a dy+ man mu/ be all[$ to ease 8 m9d aft] 8 own fa%ion1 & take z mu* "t to x z he pleas$4 ,hel5 & ,w+fold bo? w\ld h told him he mu/ n tire himself1 b t ,polw>? nev] did4 ,! dy+ %\ld n h _! utt]ances *eck$1 or ! feel+ ( n hav+ f9i%$ =c$ ^u !m4 ,!y w always h pl5ty ( ! feel+ )\t t4 ,a fit ( c\gh+ compell$ him to break (f1 & :5 x 0 ov]1 he lay pant+ & we>y1 b ) 8 l>ge eyes que/ion+ ! face ( ,polw>?4 ,!n ! little man spoke4 ,he mu/ give u e sort ( opportunity = tru/+ him1 he said4 ,! "o he n[ gives y1 is ?is dulness t has come ov] y4 ,tru/ him ?r\gh x1 submitt+ to x & yet tru/+ aga9/ x1 & y get ! good ( x4 ,9 y\r pres5t /ate p]haps y _c ev5 try to br+ ab\t by =ce ( w any bett] /ate ( feel+ or high] intellectual condition2 b y c say to ,god some?+ l ?is3 ,see1 ,"l1 ,i am dull & /upid1 & c>e = no?+3 take ?\ c>e ( ev]y?+ = me1 he>t & m9d & all4 ,i leave all to !e4 ,wilt ?\ n at l5g? draw me out ( ?is my froz5 w9t]y /ate8 ,let me n %r9k f fre% life & ?\ght & duty1 or be unready to come out ( ! %ell ( my sickness :5 ?\ s5de/ = me4 ,i wait ?y w4 ,i wait ev5 ! light t ,i feel n[ z if ,i d>$ n enc\nt] = we>9ess ( body & fa9tness ( _s4 ,ah6 cri$ ,leopold1 !re y h t\*$ x6 ,h[ c y "k s well :at ,i feel8 ,because ,i h (t5 _h to fight h>d to keep dea? to 8 own prov9ce1 & n let him cross ov] into my _s4 ,alas6 ,i am n fight+ at all2 ,i am only lett+ ?+s g4 ,y are fight+ m ?an y "k1 ,i suspect1 = y are endur+1 & t pati5tly4 ,suppose ,jesus 7 to knock at ! door n[1 & x 0 lock$2 suppose y knew x 0 he1 & !re 0 no "o 9 ! room to op5 x = him2 suppose y 7 z weak z y are n[1 & seem$ to c>e z little ab\t him or any?+ else3 :at w\ld y d8 ,leopold look$ half amaz$1 z if wond]+ :at 8 fri5d c\ld be driv+ at ) su* a "q4 ,:at else c\ld ,i d b get up & op5 x8 he said4 ,w\ld y n be tempt$ to lie /ill & wait till "s "o came4 ,no4 ,w\ld y n say 9 y\r he>t1 ',! ,"l kn[s ,i am v weak1 & ,i %\ld cat* cold1 & ! ex]tion w\ld make me c\gh dreadfully1 & he won't m9d if ,i lie /ill8' ,t ,i w\ldn't6 ,:at %\ld ,i c>e :at came to me8 ,:at w\ld x matt] s long z ,i got "o look at him6 ,besides1 if he didn't want me to get up1 he w\ldn't knock4 ,b suppose y knew t ! mom5t y turn$ ! key y w\ld drop d[n1 & :5 ! ,"l came 9 y w\ld n see him4 ,i c't ?9k :]e y want to take me1 ,mr4 ,polw>?6 said ! y\?4 ,ev5 if ,i knew ,i %\ld drop dead ! mom5t ,i got out on ! floor1 :at w\ld x matt]6 ,i %\ld get to him ! soon] !n1 & tell him :y ,i didn't op5 ! door4 ,c y suppose = a mom5t ,i %\ld let any c>e = ?is mis]able body ( m9e come betwe5 my eyes & ! face ( my ,"l8 ,y see !n t y d c>e ab\t him a little1 ?\gh a m9ute ago y didn't ?9k x6 ,!re are _m feel+s 9 u t are n able to get up /airs ! mom5t we call !m4 ,be z dull & /upid z x pleases ,god to let y be1 & tr\ble nei!r y\rself nor him ab\t t1 only ask him to be ) y all ! same4 ,! little man dropp$ on 8 knees by ! b$side1 & said1 ,o ,"l ,jesus1 be ne> :5 x seems to u1 z x seem$ to !e once1 t our ,fa!r has =sak5 u1 & ga!r$ back to himself all ! gifts he once gave u4 ,ev5 ?\ :o wa/ mighty 9 dea?1 did/ ne$ ! pres5ce ( ?y ,fa!r to make !e able to endure3 =get n u ! "w ( ?y h&s1 yea1 ! lab\r ( ?y he>t & _s4 ,o rememb] t we are 8 (fspr+1 nei!r acc\ntable = our own be+1 nor able to com=t or /r5g!n ourselves4 ,if ?\ w]t to leave u alone1 we %\ld cry out ^u !e z on ! "m :o ?rew h] babes to ! wolves--& !re are no wolves able to t]rify !e4 ,ah ,"l6 we "k ?\ leave/ u n1 only 9 our weakness we w\ld com=t our he>ts ) ! music ( ! words ( fai?4 ,?\ can/ n d o!r ?an c>e = u1 ,"l ,*ri/1 = :e!r we be glad or sorry1 sl[ ( he>t or full ( fai?1 all ! same are we ! *ildr5 ( ?y ,fa!r4 ,he s5t u "h1 & nev] ask$ u if we w\ld2 !re=e ?\ mu/ be ) u1 & give u rep5tance & humility & love & fai?1 t we may inde$ be ! *ildr5 ( ?y ,fa!r :o is 9 heav54 ,am54 ,:ile ,polw>? 0 yet pray+1 ! door _h op5$ g5tly beh9d him1 & ,hel51 n kn[+ t he 0 !re1 _h ent]$ ) ,bascombe4 ,he nei!r he>d _! entrance1 nor saw ! face ( disgu/ t ,george made beh9d 8 back4 ,:at 0 9 ,bascombe's deepe/ s\l :o %all tell8 ,( t region he himself knew no?+4 ,x 0 a sil5t1 holy place into :i* he _h nev] yet ent]$-- !re=e lonely & des]t$ z ! top ( ,s9ai aft] ! cl\d _h dep>t$4 ,no--,i w n say t3 :o kn[s :at is :]e man _c or w n look8 ,if ,george _h s\ght !re1 p]haps he might h f\nd traces ( a pres5ce n yet altoge!r vani%$4 ,9 :at he call$ & imag9$ 8 deeepe/ s\l1 h[ev]1 all he 0 n[ consci\s ( 0 a p]fect loa?+ ( ! mon/r\s sup]/ition s fitly embodi$ be=e him4 ,! pray] ( ! kneel+ absurdity 0 to him an audaci\s mock]y ( ! infrangible laws ( ,nature3 ?is hulk ( mis%ap5 pott]y actually presum+ to believe t an invisible individual he>d :at he said because he crook$ 8 h+es to say x6 ,x did n occur to ,george t ! infrangible laws ( ,nature %e _h h]self f ! v fir/ s agoniz+ly brok5 to ! poor dw>f1 %e _h be5 to him su* a cruel /ep-"m1 t he 0 9 evil case inde$ if he c\ld f9d no fa!r to give him fair play & a *ance ( ! endurable4 ,0 he s mu* to blame if he felt ! annihilation (f]$ by su* !ori/s z ,george1 n altoge!r a satisfactory c\nt]poise ei!r to its exi/5ce or its loss8 ,if1 ev51 he 7 to fancy 9 8 tr\ble t ! old fable ( an eld] bro!r1 some?+ m humble ?an gr& h&some ,george ,bascombe & m ready to help 8 little bro!rs & si/]s1 might be true1 see+ t an old /ory is n necess>ily a false "o1 & 7 to try aft] ! h9ts x gave1 surely 9 8 condition su* folly1 h[ev] absurd to a man ( ,george ,bascombe's end[m5ts1 might ( ! m gift$ ephem]os be p>don$ if n piti$4 ,nor w ,i ass]t t he 0 altoge!r unaw>e ( any admixture ( ! sad ) ! ludicr\s :5 he saw ! amorph\s agglom]ate ( human %r$s & pat*es kneel+ by ! b$side ( ! dy+ murd]]1 to pray "s com=t into 8 pass+ s\l4 ,b 8 gorge rose at ! nons5se & /uff ( x1 :ile ?r\gh ,hel5 ran a cold %udd] ( disgu/ at ! famili>ity & irrev]5ce ( ! little spiritual prig4 ,h[ _m ( ! judgm5ts we are told n to judge & yet d judge1 mu/ make ! angels ( ! judg+ & ! judg$ turn & look at ea* o!r & smile a sad smile1 ere !y set !mselves to =get t :i* s sorely ne$s to be =gott54 ,polw>? rose f 8 knees unaw>e ( a ho/ile pres5ce4 ,leopold1 he said1 tak+ 8 h&1 ,i w\ld gladly1 if ,i might1 walk ) y ?r\gh ! %ad[4 ,b ! he>t ( all he>ts w be ) y4 ,re/ 9 y\r t5t a little :ile1 :i* is inde$ ! holl[ ( ! ,fa!r's h& turn$ ov] y1 ) y\r /rong bro!r wat*+ ! door4 ,y\r imag9ation _c g beyond ! tru? ( him :o is ! ,fa!r ( lights1 or ( him :o is ! ,eld] ,bro!r ( m54 ,leopold answ]$ only ) 8 eyes4 ,polw>? turn$ to g1 & saw ! on-look]s4 ,!y /ood betwe5 him & ! door1 b p>t$ & made room = him to pass4 ,nei!r spoke4 ,he made a b[ fir/ to "o & !n to ! o!r1 look+ up 9 ! face ( ea*1 unaba%$ by smile or scorn or blu% ( annoyance1 b ,george took no notice1 walk+ /raight to ! b$ ! mom5t ! way 0 cle>4 ,hel5's consci5ce1 h[ev]1 or he>t1 smote h]1 &1 return+ 8 b[1 %e op5$ ! door = h] bro!r's fri5d4 ,he ?ank$ h]1 & w5t 8 way4 ,poor de> fell[6 said ,george k9dly1 & /rok$ ! ?9 h& laid 9 83 c ,i d any?+ = y8 ,no?+ b be good to ,hel5 :5 ,i am gone1 & tell h] n[ & !n t ,i'm n dead1 b liv+ 9 ! hope ( see+ h] aga9 "o day be=e long4 ,%e might =get sometimes--n me1 b t1 y "k4 ,yes1 yes1 ,i'll see to x1 answ]$ ,george1 9 ! evil tone ( "o :o fai?fully promises a *ild an impossibility4 ,( c\rse !re 0 no m h>m 9 ly+ to a man :o 0 j on ! v]ge ( be+ a man no m1 & becom+ only an unpleasant mass ( *emicals1 :i* a :ole ant-heap ( little laws w\ld pres5tly be c>ry+ outside ! gates ( ! organic1 ?an !re _h be5 9 ly+ to him :5 he suppos$ him a madman4 ,nei!r c\ld anyone blame him = inconsi/5cy2 = _h he n always said 9 ! goodness ( 8 he>t1 t he w\ld nev] di/urb ! fai? ( old p draw+ nigh _! end1 because su* no m possess$ ! ne$ful ela/icity ( bra9 to accommodate !mselves to ! subv]sion ( previ\s modes ( feel+ & ?\ght1 unavoidable to ! adoption ( 8 preci\s revelation4 ,preci\s he did believe x1 nev] hav+ himself "o ( ^? visions ( inf9ite hope1 :i*1 7 8 !ory once prov$ z true z he imag9$ x1 mu/ !n inde$ vani% = ev]4 ,d y suff] mu*8 ask$ ,george4 ,yes--a good deal4 ,pa98 ,n s mu*2--sometimes4 ,! weakness is ! wor/4 ,b x doesn't matt]3 ,god is ) me4 ,:at good does t d y8 ask$ ,george1 =gett+ himself1 half 9 contempt1 half 9 a curiosity :i* he w\ld h call$1 & :i* p]haps 01 sci5tific4 ,b ,leopold took x 9 good fai?1 & answ]$1 ,x sets x all "r1 & makes me able to be pati5t4 ,george laid d[n ! h& he held1 & turn$ sadly to ,hel51 b said no?+4 ,! next mom5t ,w+fold ent]$4 ,hel5 kiss$ ! dy+ h&1 & left ! room ) ,george4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii4 ,,! ,,g>d54 ,t5d]ly he l$ h] into ! g>d51 & d[n ! walks n[ b>e ( bord]+ fl[]s4 ,to ,hel5 x look$ l a gravey>d2 ! dry bu%es 7 ! memorials ( ! buri$ fl[]s1 & ! cypress & box trees rose l ! l>g] monum5ts ( %apely /one4 ,! day 0 a cold lead5 "o1 t w\ld h ra9$ if x c\ld1 to get rid ( ! deadness at its he>t1 b no te>s came4 ,to ! summ]-h\se !y w5t1 "u ! c$>1 & sat d[n4 ,nei!r spoke = "s "t4 ,poor ,leopold6 said ,george at l5g?1 & took ,hel5's h&4 ,%e bur/ into te>s1 & aga9 = "s "t nei!r spoke4 ,george1 ,i c't be> x6 %e said at l5g?4 ,x is v sad1 answ]$ ,george4 ,b he _h a happy life1 ,i don't d\bt1 up to--to-- ,:at does t matt] n[8 ,x is all a horrible f>ce4--,to beg9 s fair & lovely1 & end s /ormy & cold & mis]able6 ,george did n l to say :at he ?\ght1 namely1 t x 0 ,leopold's own do+4 ,he did n see t !re9 lay ! deepe/ dep? ( ! mis]y--! ?+ t ( all ?+s ne$$ help3 all else might be borne2 ! less t ,,c\ld be borne ! bett]4 ,x ,,is horrible1 he said4 ,b :at c be done8 ,:at's done is done1 & nobody c help x4 ,!re %\ld be somebody to help x1 said ,hel54 ,ah6 ,%\ld be6 said ,george4 --,well1 x's a com=t x w soon be ov]6 ,is x8 return$ ,hel5 almo/ %>ply4 --,b he's n y\r bro!r1 & y don't "k :at x is to lose him6 ,oh1 h[ desolate ! _w w be )\t my d>l+6 ,& aga9 h] te>s f\nd way4 ,all t ,i c d to make up = ! loss1 de>e/ ,hel51 said ,george1-- ,oh ,george6 %e cri$1 />t+ to h] feet1 is !re ,,no hope8 ,i don't mean ( 8 gett+ bett]--t we d "k ! likelihoods (--b is !re no hope ( ,,"s ,,"t see+ him aga98 ,we "k s little ab\t all ( x6 ,,might !re n be "s way8 ,b ,george 0 too hone/ 9 himself1 & too true to 8 pr9ciples1 to pret5d any?+ to ,hel54 ,h]s 0 an altoge!r diff]5t case f ,leopold's4 ,"h 0 a "y woman full ( heal? & life & hope1 ) all h] joys be=e h]6 ,_m suns mu/ set be=e h] sun w\ld g d[n1 _m pale moons look lovely 9 h] eyes1 ere came ^? t w\ld mock h] ) )]$ memories--a :ole hortus siccus ( passion-fl[]s4 ,:y %\ld he lie to ,,h] ( a hope beyond ! grave8 ,let ! pleasures ( ! _w be ! de>] to h] = ! k t !y mu/ s soon dep>t2 let love be ! sweet] = ! m\rnful ?\ght t x is a ?+ ( ! summ]1 & t :5 ! w9t] comes x %all be no m6 ,b p]haps ,george =got "o po9t4 ,i w all[ t ! insects ( a day1 dy+ 9 a mom5t ( delightful fruition1 are bless$2 b :5 ! delicate ,psy*e1 ) h] jewel-fea!r$ w+s1 is beat ab\t by a w9d full ( ra9 until %e lies draggl$ 9 ! dirt2 :5 !re are no m fl[]s1 or if !re be1 ! joy ( h] hov]+ is ov]1 & yet dea? comes b sl[ly2 :5 ! m\rn]s are go+ ab\t ! /reets ere ev] ! silv] cord is loos$2 :5 ! pa/ looks a mock]y & ! future a blank2--!n p]haps1 ev5 to ! correlatives ( ! mo/ triumphant natural selection1 x may n m]ely seem z if some?+ 7 wrong some:]e1 b ev5 z if !re ought to be somebody to set wrong "r4 ,if ,psy*e %\ld be s subdu$ to circum/ance z to accept )\t "q h] suppos$ fate1 !n d\bly woe = ,psy*e6 ,b if ,george c\ld n lie1 x 0 n necess>y = him to speak ! tru?3 sil5ce 0 en\gh4 ,a mom5t ( x 0 all ,hel5 c\ld endure4 ,%e rose ha/ily1 left ! w9t]$ summ]-h\se1 & walk$ back to ! sick-*amb]4 ,george foll[$ a few paces beh9d1 s f> qu5*$ t he did n ov]take h] to walk by h] side1 feel+ he _h no aid to (f] h]4 ,d\btless he c\ld h told h] ( help at h&1 b x 0 help t mu/ come1 t c\ld nei!r be giv5 nor tak51 w\ld n come ! soon] = any pray]1 & inde$ w\ld n beg9 to exi/ until ! wor/ %\ld be ov]3 ! ne>e/ ,george came to belief 9 a sav+ p[]1 0 to console himself ) ! ?\ght t ,,"t w\ld d ev]y?+ = ,hel54 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv4 ,,! ,,dep>ture4 ,z ,leopold sl[ly dep>t$1 he seem$ to 8 si/] to draw along ) him all t 0 preci\s 9 h] life4 ,%e felt h]self gr[ dull & indiff]5t4 ,x 0 to no purpose t %e upbraid$ h]self ) he>tlessness2 seem+ly he>tless h] bosom rema9$4 ,x 0 n t h] m9d 0 occupi$ ) any?+ else ?an h] bro!r1 or drew com=t f ano!r s\rce2 h] feel+s appe>$ to be dy+ ) him :o _h drawn !m =? m ?an any o!r4 ,! battle 0 end+ )\t ev5 ! poor pomp & circum/ance ( torn bann]s & wailful music4 ,leopold said v little dur+ ! la/ few days4 ,8 fits1 ( c\gh+ 7 m frequ5t1 & 9 ! pauses he _h nei!r /r5g? nor desire to speak4 ,:5 ,hel5 came to 8 b$side1 he w\ld put out 8 h& to h]1 & %e w\ld sit d[n by him & hold x w>m 9 h]s4 ,! h& ( 8 si/] 0 ! po9t ( ! planet f :i*1 l 8 m\nt ( asc5sion1 ! _s ( ! y\? took its dep>ture2--:5 he let t g1 he 0 gone4 ,b he di$ asleep1 z s _m d2 & fanci$1 ,i presume1 t he 0 wak+ into 8 old life1 :5 he woke into 8 new "o4 ,w+fold /ood on ! o!r side ( ! b$1 ) ,polw>? by him1 = s _h ! dep>t+ wi%$ x1 & al?\gh he made no sign1 ,i _c b ?9k he reap$ "s cont5t !refrom4 ,:ile yet he l+]$1 "o ( ,hel5's li/less1 /ray+ glances 0 arre/$ by ! c\nt5ance ( ! gate-keep]4 ,x 0 s /ill & s rapt t %e ?\ght he mu/ be see+ )9 ! veil1 & reg>d+ :at ?+s 7 await+ h] bro!r on ! rev]se ( ! two-sid$ wond]4 ,b x 0 n s4 ,polw>? saw no m ?an %e did3 he 0 ,,only /&+ 9 ! pres5ce ( him :o is n ! ,god ( ! dead b ( ! liv+4 ,:atev] lay 9 t ,w 0 ! life ( :atev] came ( t ,w1 t is1 ( e creature1 & no to t ,w1 to ! face ( ! ,fa!r1 he lift$1 9 8 pray]ful ?\ght1 ! he>t & m9d & body ( ! y\? n[ pass+ ?r\gh ! bir? ( dea?4 ,i "k n1 he w\ld h said1 _h he be5 que/ion$ conc]n+ 8 spiritual attitude1 h[ my pray] %\ld = ano!r "w any?+ ) ! p]fect ,giv]1 b at lea/ ,i w n leave my fri5d beh9d :5 ,i g into ! pres5ce ( 8 ,fa!r & my ,fa!r4 ,& ,i believe !re is some?+ 9 x ,i _c yet see4 ,w+fold's anxiety 0 all = ,hel54 ,he c\ld d no m = ,leopold1 nor did he ne$ m f man4 ,z to _m ( ! ?+s t puzzl$ !m mo/1 he 0 on 8 way to "k m2 he w\ld soon be 9 ! he>t ( :at seem$ likely to rema9 a long secret to him4 ,b !re 0 8 si/]1 ab\t to be left beh9d him )\t 8 hopes2 = h] 7 dre>y days at h&2 & ! curate pray$ ! ,god ( com=t & consolation to visit h]4 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn w\ld n[ & !n look 9 at ! noiseless door ( ! *amb] ( dea?1 b %e rightly felt h] pres5ce 0 n desir$1 & ?\gh ready to help1 did n ent]4 ,nei!r did ,george--n f he>tlessness1 b t he judg$ x bett] to leave ! prie/s ( falsehood undi/urb$ 9 ! ex]cise ( _! mis]able (fice4 ,:at did x matt] h[ _m com=t+ lies 7 told to a dy+ man8 ,:at ,,c\ld x matt]8 ,!re 0 small dang] ( _! fooli% pray]s & sup]/iti\s c]emonies evok+ a deity f ! well-ord]$1 self-evolv$ sph]icity ( int]act+ law1 :]e n a p9-hole ( failure af=d$ space out ( :i* he might creep4 ,no m c\ld !y deprive ! poor lad ( ! bliss ( return+ into ! absolute no?+ness :5ce he _h crept--to commit a horrible crime aga9/ immortal society1 & creep back aga91 ) a he>t full ( love & remorse & self-abhorr5ce1 into ! black abyss4 ,!re=e1 :y %\ld he n let !m tell _! lies & utt] _! silly incantations8 ,alo( & unh>m$ he /ood1 safe on ! %ore1 all ready to rea* ! rescu+ h& to ,hel51 ! mom5t %e %\ld turn h] eyes to him1 = ! help %e knew he _h to give h]4 ,c]ta9ly1 = h] sake1 he w\ld r %e 7 n left unprotect$ to su* subtle & ins9uat+ influ5ces2 b ) ! p[] ( 8 m9d ^u h] good s5se1 he _h no fe> ( ! result4 ,n t he expect$ h] to submit at once to ! :olesome regim5 & pla9 diet he mu/ prescribe h]3 ! s(t h& ( ,"t mu/ fir/ draw toge!r ! edges ( h] he>t's w\nd4 ,b ! deadness ( ,hel5's feel+s1 ! he>tlessness because ( :i* %e cri$ out aga9/ h]self1 seem$1 9 a vague way1 by h]self unackn[l$g$ yet felt1 if n caus$ by1 yet associat$ ) "s subtle radiation f ! be+ ( ,george ,bascombe4 ,t v morn+ :5 he came into ! breakfa/-room s quietly t %e _h n he>d him1 &1 look+ up1 saw him unexpect$ly1 he seem$ = a mom5t1 %e c\ld n tell :y1 ! dull f\nta9 ( all ! mis]able feel+--n ( loss1 b ( no loss1 :i* press$ h] he>t flat 9 h] bosom4 ,! next mom5t %e accus$ h]self ( ! grosse/ inju/ice1 attribut+ x to ! sickness ( s\l :i* ! %ad[ ( dea? _h wr\ght 9 h]2 = 0 n ,george ! only true fri5d %e _h ev] _h8 ,if %e lo/ him %e mu/ be lonely inde$6--,! feel+ l+]$ not)/&+1 & :5 %e ?\ght x dispell$1 began to ga!r aga9 imm$iately4 ,at ! same "t %e %runk f ,w+fold z h>d & unsympa!tic4 ,true he _h be5 mo/ k9d1 ev5 t5d]1 to h] bro!r1 b to him he _h tak5 a fancy1 hav+ f\nd 9 him "o :om he c\ld "w ^u & fa%ion to 8 own lik+3 poor ,poldie _h nev] be5 "o ( ! /ronge/ ( m54 ,b to h]1 :om he c\ld n model aft] 8 own ideas1 :o requir$ a reason = ! ?+ anyone w\ld h h] believe--to h] he _h %[n ! r\gh side ( 8 nature1 go+ f>!r ?an any g5tleman ought1 ev5 if he 0 a cl]gyman1 9 criticiz+ h] conduct4 ,he might well take example ( h] c\s9 ,george6 ,:at a diff]5t sort ( artill]y ,,he _h br\ght to be> ^u ! out/&+ =tress ( h] convictions6 ,s w\ld %e say )9 h]self1 aga9 & aga91 9 diff]5t =ms1 n kn[+ h[ little ( conviction !re 0 9 ! conclusions %e seem$ to come to--h[ mu* ( old habit & gratitude on ! "o h&1 & pride & res5tm5t ^u ! o!r4-,& !re /ill 0 t feel+6 %e c\ld n drive x away4 ,x 0 l try+ to disp]se a fog ) a fan4 ,! outside wea!r1 al?\gh %e 0 f> pa/ he$+ t1 0 9 h>mony ) h] s\l's wea!r4 ,a dull d>k-grey fog hung f ! sky1 & )\t mu* obscur+ ! e>? altoge!r hid ! sun4 ,! air 0 v cold4 ,!re 0 nei!r joy nor hope any:]e4 ,! bu%es 7 leafless & budless1 ! summ] gone1 ! spr+ n wor? hop+ =1 because x also w\ld g3 spr+ aft] spr+ came--= no?+ b to g aga96 ,?+s 7 s empty & wret*$ t pa9 & grief1 almo/ fe> itself1 w\ld h be5 welcome4 ,! _w ar\nd h]1 yes1 all h] life1 all h]self1 0 b ! cold dead body ( a summ]-_w4 ,& ,leopold 0 go+ to be buri$ ) ! summ]4 ,8 smiles _h all gone ) ! fl[]s4 ,! we$s ( 8 tr\bles 7 go+ also1 = !y w\ld die ) him4 ,b he w\ld n "k x & be glad1 any m ?an %e1 :o 0 left c>+ = nei!r summ] nor w9t]1 joy nor sorr[1 love nor hate1 ! pa/ nor ! future4 ,_m su* ?\ghts w&]$ hazily ?r\gh h] m9d z %e n[ sat hold+ ! h& ( him :o 0 fa/ sleep+ away f h] into dea?4 ,h] eyes 7 fix$ on ! w9d[ ?r\gh :i* he _h ent]$ t t]rible night1 b %e saw no?+ beyond x4 ,he is gone said ,polw>? 9 a voice t s\nd$ unkn[n to ! e>s ( ,hel51 & z he spoke he kneel$4 ,%e />t$ up ) a cry1 & look$ 9 h] bro!r's face4 ,%e _h nev] se5 anyone die1 & yet %e saw t he 0 dead4 ,,*apt] ,,xxv4 ,,! ,,sunset4 ,h[ ! t]rible "t1 t]rible = its v dulness & ins5sibility1 pass$ until x br\ght ! fun]al1 ,hel5 c\ld n h told4 ,x seem$ to h]1 z %e look$ back ^u x1 a b>e blank1 yet 0 ! blank full ( a wa/e we>9ess ( he>t4 ,! days 7 all "o1 outside & inside4 ,h] he>t 0 b a lonely n>r[ bay to ! sea ( cold immovable fog t fill$ ! _w4 ,no "o tri$ to help1 no "o inde$ knew h] tr\ble4 ,ev]yone took x = grief at ! loss ( h] bro!r1 :ile to h]self x 0 ! oppression ( a life t _h n ev5 ! int]e/ ( pa94 ,! curate _h ( c\rse call$ to inquire aft] h]1 b _h n be5 invit$ to ent]4 ,george _h be5 ev]y:]e ) help1 b _h no ^w to speak4 ,! day ( ! fun]al came1 9 ?9 fog & dull cold4 ,! few fri5ds ga!r$4 ,! body 0 borne to ! ,abbey4 ,! curate receiv$ x at ! gate 9 ! "n ( ! *ur*--:i* takes our *ildr5 9 its arms1 & our bodies into its g>d5--save inde$ :]e h] g>d5] is "s fooli% prie/ :o kn[s n ! he>t ( 8 "m1 & w pick & *oose among h] dead2--! lovely words ( ! la/-fir/ ( ! apo/les1 7 read2 & e>? 0 giv5 back to e>?1 to m+le ) ! re/ ( ! /uff ! great workman works )al4 ,cold 0 ,hel5's he>t1 cold h] body1 cold h] v be+4 ,! e>?1 ! air1 ! mi/1 ! v light 0 cold4 ,! pa/ 0 cold1 ! future yet cold]4 ,%e w\ld h grudg$ ,leopold 8 lonely re/ 9 ! grave1 b t %e _h n feel+ en\gh ev5 = t4 ,h] life seem$ )]+ away f h]1 l an autumn fl[] 9 ! fro/s ( w9t]2 & %e1 z if %e _h be5 b a fl[]1 did n seem to c>e4 ,:at 0 life wor?1 :5 x _h n /r5g? to desire ev5 its own cont9uance8 ,he>tless %e return$ f ! grave1 c>eless ( ,george's mute att5tions1 n ev5 scornful ( h] aunt's %all[ wail ov] ! unc]ta9ty ( life & all ?+s human1--s indiff]5t to ! :ole mis]y t %e walk$ /raight up to ! room1 h]s once m1 f :i* ! body _h j be5 c>ri$1 & :i*1 = s _m _m we>y weeks1 _h be5 ! c5tre ( lov+ pa91 sometimes agony4 ,once m %e 0 at peace--b :at a peace6 ,%e took (f h] cloak & bonnet1 laid !m on ! b$1 w5t to ! w9d[1 sat d[n1 & gaz$1 h>dly see+1 out on ! cold g>d5 ) its sodd5 e>?1 its leafless %rubs1 & p]5nial trees ( d>kness & m\rn+4 ,! mead[ lay beyond1 & !re %e did see ! r$ c[ busily fe$+1 & 0 half-angry ) h]4 ,beyond ! mead[ /ood ! trees1 ) ! p>k beh9d !m4 ,& yet fur!r beh9d lay ! holl[ ) ! awful h\se 9 its bosom1 its dismal haunt$ lake & its ru9$ g>d54 ,b no?+ mov$ h]4 ,%e c\ld h walk$ ov] e room 9 t h\se )\t a s+le quav] ( ! praecordia4 ,poldie 0 dead1 b 0 x n well8 ,ev5 if he _h n be5 9 tr\ble1 :at %\ld 8 dea? matt]8 ,%e w\ld die soon h]self & = ev]3 :at did t or any?+ else matt]8 ,might %e b keep ?is dulness ( _s1 & nev] m wake to weep fooli% te>s ov] an exi/5ce ! :ole up/&+ broad-bas$ fact ( :i* 0 n wor? "o drop 9 ! riv]s ( weep+ t _h be5 fl[+ ev] s9ce ! joyless bir? ( ?is unconceiv$1 ill-fat$1 unfa!r$ _w6 ,to ! h\r ( dea? belong$ jubilation & n m\rn+2 ! h\r ( bir? 0 ! h\r ( sorr[4 ,back to ! d>kness6 0 ! cry ( a life ^: v be+ 0 an injury1 only !re 0 no "o to h done ! injury4 ,?us %e sat until %e 0 summon$ to d9n]--e>ly = ! sake ( ! fri5ds ^: home lay at a di/ance4 ,%e ate & drank & took h] %>e 9 ! talk z matt] ( c\rse1 believ+ all at ! table w\ld judge h] a he>tless creature1 & c>eless ( :at !y might ?9k or say4 ,b !y judg$ h] m k9dly & m truly ?an %e judg$ h]self4 ,!y saw ?r\gh h] eyes ! deeps ^: upw>d ducts 7 *ok$ ) ! fro/ ( an unkn[n despair4 ,no soon] 0 %e at lib]ty ?an aga9 %e s\ght h] room1 n consci\sly f love to h] bro!r :o _h di$ !re1 b because ! deadness ( h] he>t *ose a fitt+ lonel9ess3 & aga9 %e seat$ h]self at ! w9d[4 ,! dre>y day 0 draw+ to a close1 & ! night1 dre>i] x c\ld n be1 0 at h&4 ,! gray _h gr[n d>k]1 & %e sat l "o wait+ = ! night l a mon/] com+ to claim its own & swall[ h] up4 ,some?+--0 x an invasion ( reviv+ light8 caus$ h] to lift h] eyes4 ,away1 sideways f h] w9d[1 9 ! we/1 ! mi/ _h cle>$ a little--some:]e ab\t ! sun4 ,?9n] & ?9n] x grew4 ,no sun came =?3 he 0 already d[n2 b a canopy ( fa9t amb] grew visible1 /ret*$ above 8 tomb4 ,x 0 ! /uff ( :i* sad smiles are made1 n a ?+ t belong$ to gladness4 ,b only he :o has lo/ 8 sorr[ )\t rega9+ 8 joy1 c tell h[ ne> sorr[ lie? to joy4 ,:o t has kn[n ! dull pa?s ( li/less no-feel+1 w\ld n h 8 sorr[ back ) all its att5dant agonies8 ,! pale amb] spread1 dilute ) light1 & b5ea? x lay ! gray ( ! fog1 & above x ! d>k blue ( cl\d--n ( sky4 ,! s\l ( x 0 s /ill1 s resign$1 s sad1 s =sak51 t %e :o _h ?\ght h] he>t gone f h]1 sudd5ly felt its wells 7 fill+1 & soon !y ov]fl[$4 ,%e wept4 ,at :at8 ,a col\r 9 ! sky6 ,0 !re !n a ,god t knew sadness--& 0 t a bann] ( grief he hung =? to com=t ! sorr[ful ) sympa?y8 ,or 0 x b a godless col\r :i* ! he>t v>ni%$ ) its own grief8 ,or if ! human he>t came f no?+ & 0 sad1 :y might n ! aspects ( nature come f no?+ & be sad too--wr\ght 9 h>mony ) ! unutt]able woe ( humanity8 ,!n ei!r is man ! con/ructive c5tre ( ! _w1 & its mean+s are b 8 own face look+ back ^u him f ! mirror ( 8 own project$ atmosph]e1 & com=t !re is none2 or he is n ! c5tre ( ! _w1 :i* yet c>ries 9 its =ms & col\rs ! aspects ( 8 m9d2 & !n1 horror ( horrors6 is man ! "o consci\s po9t & object ( a va/ d]ision--ins5ti5t nature gr9n+ at s5ti5t man6 rose or saffron1 8 sky b mocks & makes m[s at him2 :ile he himself is ! wor/ mock]y ( all1 be+ at once t :i* mocks & t :i* n only is mock$ b wri!s 9 agony "u ! mock]y4 ,su* z ,bascombe reply t !y f9d x n s4 ,i answ]--,= ! be/ ( reasons1 t x is n s4 ,hel5's d\bts did n /ay h] weep+1 z d\bt g5]ally does2 = ! sky ) its sweet sadness 0 be=e h]1 & deep 9 h] he>t a lake ( te>s1 :i*1 n[ t x _h begun to fl[1 w\ld n be /ay$4 ,%e knew n :y %e wept1 knew n t x 0 ! sympa?y ( t pale amb] ( sad resignation :i* br\ght h] relief3 b %e wept & wept1 until h] he>t began to /ir1 & h] te>s came cool] & fre]4 ,oh ,poldie6 my own ,poldie6 %e cri$ at l5g?1 & fell ^u h] knees--n-to wor%ip ! sky--n to pray to ,poldie1 or ev5 = ,poldie--n inde$ to pray at all1 s f> z %e knew2 yet ,i d\bt if x 0 m]ely & only f ! impulse ( ! old *ildi% habit ( say+ pray]s4 ,b 9 a mom5t %e grew re/less4 ,!re 0 no ,poldie6 ,%e rose & walk$ ab\t ! room4 ,& he came back to h] s\l1 h] desolate bro!r1 clo!d1 alas6 9 ! rags & tatt]s ( all ! unk9d & unju/ ?\ghts %e _h ev] _h conc]n+ him1 & we>+ on 8 face ! reflection ( h] worse de$s4 ,%e _h /ood betwe5 him & ! only poor remnant ( peace1 consolation1 & hope t x 0 possible he %\ld h2 & x 0 ?r\gh ! fri5ds :om %e _h treat$ ) su* di/ance & uncordiality t he did receive x4 ,!n out ru%$ f ! *amb] ( h] memory ! vision ( ! small d>k n]v\s wild-look+ ,indian boy :o gaz$ at h] b = "o que/ion+ mom5t1 !n %ot into h] arms & ne/l$ 9 h] bosom4 ,h[ _h %e ju/ifi$ t fai?8 ,%e _h receiv$1 & %elt]$1 & %ield$ him1 d\btless1 & w\ld h done s ) h] life1 yet1 :5 x came to ! te/1 %e _h lov$ h]self bett] ?an him1 & w\ld h doom$ him to agony r ?an h]self to disgrace4 ,oh ,poldie6 ,poldie6 ,b he c\ld n he>6 ,nev]1 = ev]more1 %\ld %e utt] to him ^w ( sorr[ or rep5tance6 nev] beg 8 =giv5ess1 or let him "k t n[ %e knew bett]1 & _h ris5 above su* weakness & selfi%ness6 ,%e /opp$1 & look$ sadly f ! w9d[4 ,! sky 0 cl\dless ov]head1 & ! amb] pall 0 fa9t] & cle>] ov] ! tomb ( ! sun4 ,%e turn$ ha/ily to ! b$ :]e lay h] cloak & bonnet1 put !m on ) trembl+ h&s1 & w5t out by t same w9d[ into ! g>d54 ,%e c\ld n help a %udd] z %e /ood 9 ! d>k passage unlock+ ! door 9 ! sunk f5ce1 b ! next m9ute %e 0 cross+ ! mead[ ?r\gh ! cold fro/y twilight air1 n[ cle> ( its fog1 & seem+ someh[ to com=t1 uplift1 & /r5g!n h]4 ,! r$ c[ 0 /ill fe$+ !re4 ,%e /opp$ & talk$ to h] a little4 ,%e seem$ "o ( ,poldie's fri5ds1 & ,poldie _h come back to h] he>t if he might nev] m to h] arms1 & %e 0 n[ on h] way to "o ( 8 be/ fri5ds1 :om1 z m wor?y1 he _h lov$ ev5 bett] ?an h]1 & :om %e _h n hon\r$ z !y des]v$ or z he mu/ h desir$4 ,to get ne> !m1 w\ld be to get ne>] to ,poldie4 ,at lea/ %e w\ld be ) ^? :om he _h lov$1 & :o1 %e did n d\bt1 /ill lov$ him1 believ+ him /ill alive4 ,%e c\ld n g to ! curate1 b %e c\ld g to ! ,polw>?s2 no "o w\ld blame h] = t-except inde$ ,george4 ,b ev5 ,george %\ld n come betwe5 h] & :at m]e %[ ( communion ) ,poldie 0 left h]6 ,%e w\ld keep h] fre$om--w\ld r break ) ,george ?an lose an atom ( h] lib]ty6 ,%e w\ld be no clay = 8 h&s to m\ld aft] 8 pleasure6 ,%e op5$ ! door 9 ! f5ce & ent]$ ! p>k1 seem+ to recov] /r5g? ) e /ep %e took t[>ds ,poldie's fri5ds4 ,x 0 almo/ d>k :5 %e /ood at ! lodge-door & knock$4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvi4 ,,an ,,hone/ ,,spy4 ,no "o answ]$ ,hel5's knock4 ,%e repeat$ x1 & /ill no answ] came4 ,h] he>t might h fail$ h]1 b t %e he>d voices3 :at if !y 7 talk+ ab\t ,leopold8 ,at l5g?1 aft] knock+ f\r or five times1 %e he>d ! /ep z ( a *ild com+ d[n a /air2 b x pass$ ! door4 ,cle>ly no "o _h he>d h]4 ,%e knock$ yet aga91 & imm$iately x 0 op5$ by ,ra*el4 ,! pleasur$ surprise t %one up 9 h] face :5 %e saw :o x 0 t /ood )\t1 0 lovely to see1 & ,hel51 on ^: mis]able isolation x came l a sunrise ( humanity1 took no c\nsel ) pride1 b1 9 simple gratitude = ! voiceless yet eloqu5t welcome1 b5t d[n & kiss$ h]4 ,! little arms 7 flung ab\t h] neck1 & ! kiss return$ ) su* a g5tle w>m? & re/ra9$ sweetness z w\ld h satisfi$ ! mo/ fa/idi\s 9 ! matt] ( salute--to :i* class1 h[ev]1 ,hel5 did n belong1 = %e seldom kiss$ anyone4 ,!n ,ra*el took h] by ! h&1 & l$ h] into ! kit*51 plac$ a *air = h] ne> ! fire1 & said1 ,i ,,am sorry !re is no fire 9 ! p>l\r4 ,! g5tlem5 are 9 my uncle's room4 ,oh1 ,miss ,l+>d1 ,i d wi% y c\ld h he>d h[ !y h be5 talk+6 ,h !y be5 say+ any?+ ab\t my bro!r8 ask$ ,hel54 ,x's all ab\t him1 %e repli$4 ,may ,i ask :o ! g5tlem5 are8 said ,hel5 d\btfully4 ,mr4 ,w+fold & ,mr4 ,drew4 ,!y are (t5 "h4 ,is x--d y mean ,mr4 ,drew1 ! drap]8 ,yes4 ,he is "o ( ,mr4 ,w+fold's be/ pupils4 ,he br\ght him to my uncle1 & he has come (t5 ev] s9ce4 ,i nev] he>d t--,mr4 ,w+fold--took pupils4--,i am afraid ,i d n q und]/& y4 ,i w\ld h said ,,disciples1 return$ ,ra*el smil+2 b t has gr[n to feel su* a sacr$ ^w--z if x belong$ only to ! ,ma/]1 t ,i didn't l to use x4 ,x w\ld say be/ :at ,i mean ?\gh2 = !re are p 9 ,gla/on t are actually m5d+ _! ways because ( ,mr4 ,w+fold's tea*+1 & ,mr4 ,drew 0 ! fir/ ( !m4 ,x is long s9ce su* a ?+ 0 he>d ( 9 ! ,abbey4 ,x nev] 0 9 my "t4 ,hel5 sigh$4 ,%e wi%$ x _h rema9$ possible = h] also to become "o ( ,mr4 ,w+fold's pupils1 b h[ c\ld %e n[ :5 %e _h le>n$ t :at he _h to tea* 0 at be/ b a lovely phantasm1 sprung ( ! see?+ toge!r ( ! consci5ce & imag9ation4 ,george c\ld give acc\nt ( ! :ole matt]3 religion inv>iably excit$ ! imag9ation & weak5$ ! consci5ce2--witness ! innum]able tales conc]n+ ,jesus inv5t$ 9 ! fir/ ( ! ,*ri/ian c5turies1 & ab\t ?is & t sa9t 9 ^? t foll[$6 ,hel5's exp]i5ce 9 ,leopold's case _h c]ta9ly be5 diff]5t1 b ! o!r fact rema9$4 ,alas1 %e c\ld n be a pupil ( ,mr4 ,w+fold6 ,%e c\ld no long] deceive h]self ) su* com=t4 ,& yet6--,,come ,,unto ,,me1 ,,& ,i ,,w ,,give ,,y ,,re/4 ,i d wi% ,i c\ld he> !m1 %e said4 ,& :y n8 return$ ,ra*el4 ,!re is n "o ( !m w\ld n be glad to see y4 ,i "k t4 ,i am afraid ,i %\ld h9d] _! talk4 ,w\ld !y speak j z freely z if ,i 7 n !re8 ,n t ,i "k :y !y %\ldn't1 %e add$2 only ! pres5ce ( any /rang]-- ,y are no /rang] to ,mr4 ,w+fold or my uncle1 said ,ra*el1 & ,i d>esay y "k ,mr4 ,drew8 ,to tell y ! tru?1 ,miss ,polw>?1 ,i h n behav$ z ,i %\ld ei!r to y\r uncle or ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ,i "k x n[ t my bro!r is gone4 ,!y 7 s good to him6 ,i feel n[ z if ,i _h be5 possess$ ) an evil _s4 ,i c\ld n be> !m to be m to him ?an ,i 04 ,oh1 h[ ,i %\ld l to he> :at !y are say+6 ,i feel z if ,i %\ld get a glimpse ( ,leopold--almo/1 if ,i might4 ,b ,i c\ldn't face !m all toge!r4 ,i c\ld n g into ! room4 ,ra*el 0 sil5t = a mom5t1 ?9k+4 ,!n %e said3 ,i'll tell y :at !n3 !re's no occasion4 ,betwe5 my uncle's room & m9e !re's a little closet1 :]e y %all sit & he> e ^w4 ,no?+ w divide y f !m b a few ?9 old bo>ds4 ,t w\ld h>dly be hon\rable ?\gh--w\ld x8 ,i w answ] = x4 ,i %all tell my uncle aft]w>ds4 ,!re may be cases :]e ! motive makes ! "r or ! wrong4 ,x's n z if y 7 li/5+ to f9d out secrets4 ,i %all be 9 ! room1 & t w be a connect+ l9k1 y "k3 !y nev] turn me out4 ,come n[4 ,we don't "k :at we may be los+4 ,! desire to he> ,leopold's be/ fri5ds talk ab\t him 0 /rong 9 ,hel51 b h] he>t misgave h]3 0 x n unbecom+8 ,%e w\ld be 9 t]ror ( discov]y all ! "t4 ,9 ! middle ( ! /air1 %e drew ,ra*el back & :isp]$1 ,i d>e n d x4 ,come on1 said ,ra*el4 ,he> :at ,i %all say to !m fir/4 ,aft] t y %all d z y please4 ,evid5tly1 s quick 0 h] response1 h] ?\ghts _h be5 go+ 9 ! same direction z ,hel5's4 ,?ank y = tru/+ me1 %e add$1 z ,hel5 aga9 foll[$ h]4 ,arriv$ at ! top1 ! "o /ood trembl+1 :ile ! o!r w5t into ! room4 ,uncle1 said ,ra*el1 ,i h a fri5d 9 ! h\se :o is v anxi\s to he> y & our fri5ds speak y\r m9ds to ea* o!r1 b = reasons does n wi% to appe>3 w y all[ my fri5d to li/5 )\t be+ se58 ,is x y\r wi%1 ,ra*el1 or are y only convey+ ! reque/ ( ano!r8 ask$ h] uncle4 ,x is my wi%1 answ]$ ,ra*el4 ,i really desire x--if y d n m9d4 ,%e look$ f "o to ano!r z %e spoke4 ,! curate & ! drap] indicat$ a full acquiesc5ce4 ,d y "k q :at y are ab\t1 ,ra*el8 ask$ ,polw>?4 ,p]fectly1 uncle1 %e answ]$4 ,!re is no reason :y y %\ld n talk z freely z if y 7 talk+ only to me4 ,i w put my fri5d 9 ! closet1 & y ne$ nev] ?9k t anyone is 9 ! h\se b ourselves4 ,!n ,i h no m to say1 return$ h] uncle ) a smile4 ,y\r ,,fri5d1 :oev] he or %e may be1 is he>tily welcome4 ,ra*el rejo9$ ,hel51 :o _h already drawn ne>] to ! door ( ! closet1 & n[ seat$ h]self "r will+ly 9 its %elt]1 amid/ an atmosph]e odor\s ( apples & h]bs4 ,already ! talk 0 go+ on j z be=e4 ,at fir/ ea* ( ! talk]s did n[ & !n rememb] !re 0 a li/5] unse5 b f\nd1 :5 ! conv]sation came to a close1 t he _h = a long "t =gott5 x4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvii4 ,,:at ,,hel5 ,,he>d1 ,al?\gh satisfi$ t1 aft] :at ,ra*el _h said to ! m51 !re c\ld be no impropriety 9 h] mak+ use ( ! privilege grant$ h]1 ,hel5 felt oddly uncom=table at fir/4 ,b soon ! fancy came1 t %e 0 li/5+ at ! door ( ! o!r _w to cat* news ( h] ,leopold1 & t made h] =get h]self & put h] at peace4 ,= "s "t1 h[ev]1 ! conv]sation 0 absolutely un9telligible to h]4 ,%e und]/ood ! words & phrases1 & ev5 "s ( ! s5t5ces1 b z %e _h no clue to _! drift1 ! ef=t to und]/& 0 l attempt+ to realize ! span ( a ra9b[ f a foot or two ( x appe>+ n[ & !n 9 diff]5t p>ts & vani%+ aga9 at once4 ,x 0 *iefly ,polw>?1 (t5 ,w+fold1 & n[ & !n ,drew t spoke1 ,ra*el contribut+ only an occasional ^w4 ,at l5g? broke some?+ ( a dawn ov] ! seem+ *aos4 ,! words f :i* ! light t fir/ rea*$ ,hel5 fl[$1 7 ! drap]'s4 ,i c't ?9k1 = all t1 he said1 :y1 if !re be life beyond ! grave1 & mo/ s9c]ely ,i tru/ !re is--,i don't see :y we %\ld "k s little ab\t x4 ,confess n[1 ,mr4 ,polw>?6--,mr4 ,w+fold6 he said appeal+ly1 --does x n seem /range t1 if our de>e/ fri5ds g on liv+ some:]e else1 !y %\ld1 ! mom5t !y cease to brea!1 pass away f u utt]ly--s utt]ly t f t mom5t nei!r h9t nor trace nor sign ( _! exi/5ce ev] rea*es u8 ,nature1 ! ,bible1 ,god himself says no?+ ab\t h[ !y exi/ or :]e !y are1 or :y !y are s sil5t--cruelly sil5t if x be 9 _! p[] to speak1--!re=e1 !y _c2 & "h we are left n only ) a*+ he>ts b wav]+ fai?1 n kn[+ :i!r to turn to escape ! />e ( ! awful blank1 t seems 9 ! v int5sity ( its sil5ce to %\t 9 our e>s t we are b du/ & return to ! du/6 ,! gate-keep] & curate int]*ang$ a pleas$ look ( surprise at ! drap]'s eloqu5ce1 b ,polw>? in/antly took up 8 answ]4 ,i grant y x w\ld be /range inde$ if !re 7 no good reason = x1 he said4 ,!n d y say1 ask$ ,w+fold4 t until we see1 discov]1 or devise "s good reason = ! d>kness t ov]hangs x1 we are at lib]ty to rema9 9 d\bt z to :e!r !re be any life )9 ! cl\d8 ,i w\ld say s1 answ]$ ,polw>?1 7 x n t we h ! /ory ( ,jesus1 :i*1 if we accept x1 is surely en\gh to satisfy u bo? z to ! ?+ itself1 & z to ! exi/5ce ( a good reason1 :e!r we h f\nd "o or n1 = ! my/]y t ov]%ad[s x4 ,/ill ,i presume we are n =bidd5 to seek su* a reason1 said ! curate4 ,! drap] 0 glanc+ f ! "o to ! o!r ) evid5t anxiety4 ,c]ta9ly n1 return$ ! gate-keep]4 ,= :at else is our imag9ation giv5 u b ! discov]y ( good reasons t are1 or ! inv5tion ( good reasons t may p]haps be8 ,c y !n imag9e any good reason1 said ,drew1 :y we %\ld be kept 9 su* absolute ignorance ( ev]y?+ t befalls ! p>t$ _s f ! mom5t x quits its h\se ) u8 ,i ?9k ,i "k "o1 answ]$ ,polw>?4 ,i h sometimes fanci$ x might be because no true idea ( _! condition c\ld possibly be grasp$ by ^? :o rema9 9 ! tab]nacle ( ! body2 t to "k _! /ate x is necess>y t we also %\ld be clo!d 9 our new bodies1 :i* are to ! old z a h\se to a t5t4 ,i d\bt if we h any words 9 :i* ! new facts c\ld be imp>t$ to our k1 ! facts !mselves be+ beyond ! rea* ( any s5ses :]e( we are n[ 9 actual possession4 ,i expect to f9d my new body provid$ ) new1 ,i mean ,,o!r s5ses beyond :at ,i n[ possess3 _m m may be requir$ to br+ u into relation ) all ! facts 9 himself :i* ,god may h %ad[$ =? 9 prop]ties1 z we say1 ( :at we call matt]4 ,! spaces all ar\nd u1 ev5 to ^? betwixt /> & />1 may be ! home ( ! multitudes ( ! heav5ly ho/1 yet seem+ly empty to all :o h b our provision ( s5ses4 ,b ,i d n c>e to dwell ^u t k9d ( speculation4 ,x belongs to a l[] region1 ^u :i* ,i grudge to exp5d int]e/ :ile ! f> l(ti] "o invites me1 :]e1 if ,i ga!r n ! special b>ley ( :i* ,i am 9 se>*1 ,i am sure to come ^u ! f9e/ ( :eat4--,well1 !n1 = my reason3 ,!re are a ?\s& individual ev5ts 9 ! c\rse ( e man's life1 by :i* ,god takes a hold ( him--a ?\s& brea*es by :i* he w\ld & does ent]1 little z ! man may "k x2 b !re is "o univ]sal & un*ang+ grasp he keeps ^u ! race1 yet n z ! race1 = ! grasp is ^u e solit>y s+le individual t has a "p 9 x3 t grasp is--dea? 9 its my/]y4 ,to :om c ! man :o is ab\t to die 9 absolute lonel9ess & g he _c tell :i!r1 flee = refuge f ! d\bts & fe>s t assail him1 b to ! ,fa!r ( 8 be+8 ,b1 said ,drew1 ,i _c see :at h>m w\ld come ( lett+ u "k a little--z mu* at lea/ z might s]ve to assure u t !re 0 m ( ,,some?+ on ! o!r side4 ,j ?is1 return$ ,polw>?1 t1 _! fe>s allay$1 _! hopes enc\rag$ f any l[] qu>t]1 m5 w\ld1 z usual1 turn away f ! f\nta9 to ! ci/]n ( life1 f ! ev] fre% orig9al creative ,love to t drawn (f & %ut 94 ,t !re are ?\s&s :o w\ld =get ,god if !y c\ld b be assur$ ( su* a tol]able /ate ( ?+s beyond ! grave z ev5 ?is :]e9 we n[ live1 is pla9ly to be anticipat$ f ! fact t ! d\bts ( s _m 9 respect ( religion conc5trate !mselves n[-a-days ^u ! "q :e!r !re is any life beyond ! grave2 a "q :i*1 al?\gh no d\bt ne>ly associat$ ) religion1--z :at "q wor? ask+ is n8--does n imm$iately belong to religion at all4 ,satisfy su* p1 if y c1 t !y %all live1 & :at h !y ga9$8 ,a little com=t p]haps--b a com=t n f ! highe/ s\rce1 & possibly ga9$ too soon = _! well-be+4 ,does x br+ !m any ne>] to ,god ?an !y 7 be=e8 ,is he fill+ "o cranny m ( _! he>ts 9 consequ5ce8 ,_! assurance ( immortality has n come f a k ( him1 & )\t him x is worse ?an wor?less4 ,little inde$ has be5 ga9$1 & t ) ! loss ( mu*4 ,! ^w applies "h :i* our ,"l 9 8 p>able puts into ! m\? ( ,abraham3 ,if !y he> n ,moses & ! prophets1 nei!r w !y be p]suad$ ?\gh "o rose f ! dead4 ,he does n say !y w\ld n believe 9 a future /ate ?\gh "o rose f ! dead--al?\gh mo/ likely !y w\ld soon p]suade !mselves t ! app>ition aft] all 0 only an illusion--,footnote3 ,see ,lyn*'s admirable s]mon on ?is subject4 b t !y w\ld n be p]suad$ to rep5t1 ?\gh "o rose f ! dead2 & )\t t1 :at great matt] :e!r !y believ$ 9 a future /ate or n8 ,x w\ld only be ! worse = !m if !y did4 ,no1 ,mr4 ,drew6 ,i repeat1 x is n a belief 9 immortality t w deliv] a man f ! woes ( humanity1 b fai? 9 ! ,god ( life1 ! fa!r ( lights1 ! ,god ( all consolation & com=t4 ,believ+ 9 him1 a man c leave 8 fri5ds1 & _! & 8 own immortality1 ) ev]y?+ else--ev5 8 & _! love & p]fection1 ) utt] confid5ce 9 8 h&s4 ,until we h ! life 9 u1 we %all nev] be at peace4 ,! liv+ ,god dwell+ 9 ! he>t he has made1 & glorify+ x by inmo/ spee* ) himself--t is life1 assurance1 & safety4 ,no?+ less is or c be su*4 ,,*apt] ,,xxviii4 ,,:at ,,hel5 ,,he>d ,,m ,a ^w y dropp$ ! o!r day1 said ! curate1 set me ?9k+ ( ! note-wor?y fact t belief 9 ,god & belief 9 immortality cease toge!r4 ,b ,i d n see ! logic ( x4 ,if we are "h )\t ,god1 :y may we n g on !re )\t ,god8 ,i m>vel t ,i h he>d ( no "o tak+ up & advocat+ ! view4 ,:at a gr& discov]y x w\ld be = "s p--t n only 0 !re no ,god to int]f]e ) !m1 & insi/ on _! becom+ some?+ wor? be+1 b t !y 7 immortal not)/&+6 t dea? 0 only ! passage ( ano!r bir? into a condition ( enl>g$ capacity = su* bliss z !y enjoy$ "h1 b m exalt$ 9 degree1 p]haps 9 k9d1 & altoge!r pref]able4 ,i "k "o to :om ! ?\ght w\ld n h be5 a new "o1 said ,polw>?4 ,h y n come ^u a passage 9 my bro!r's manuscript involv+ ! v idea8 ,n yet4 ,i read v sl[ly & pick up all ! crumbs4 ,i wi% we _h _h ! book "h4 ,i %\ld h s mu* lik$ to he> y read f x aga94 ,! gate-keep] rose & w5t to 8 cab9et4 ,! wi% is easily gratifi$1 he said4 ,i made a copy ( x1--p>tly = security1 p>tly t ,i might ?or\ghly ent] into my bro!r's ?\ghts4 ,i wond] almo/ y l5d ! orig9al !n1 said ,w+fold4 ,i c]ta9ly c\ld n l5d ! copy to any man ,i c\ld n tru/ ) ! orig9al1 answ]$ ,polw>?4 ,b ,i nev] l5t ei!r be=e4--,he 0 turn+ ov] ! leaves z he spoke4--,! passage1 he w5t on1 besides = its own wor?1 is preci\s to me z %[+ h[1 ?r\gh all 8 madness1 8 ?\ghts haunt$ ! gates ( wisdom4--,ah6 "h x is6 ',ab\t ?is "t ,i _h ano!r /range vision1 :e!r 9 ! body or out ( ! body1 ,i _c tell4 ,i ?\ght1 z (t5] ?an once be=e1 t at l5g? ,i 0 dy+4 ,& x seem$ to me t ,i did die1 & awake to ! consci\sness ( a bless$ fre$om f ! co>s] & m pond]\s out] dress ,i _h hi!rto worn1 be+ n[ clad only 9 :at _h be5 up to ?is "t an inn] g>m5t1 & 0 a f> m closely fitt+ "o4 ,! fir/ delight ( :i* ,i 0 aw>e 0 coolness--a coolness t hurt me n--! coolness z ( a dewy summ] eve1 9 :i* a s(t fri5dly w9d is bl[+2 & ! coolness 0 t ( p]fect well-be+1 ( ! heal? t come? aft] fev]1 :5 a s\nd sleep ha? divid$ x away & built a ramp>t betwe52 ! coolness ( und\bt$ tru?1 & ( love t has surm\nt$ passion & is t5fold love4' ,he goes on to give fur!r & full] acc\nt ( 8 s5sations1--v5tures ev5 on ! anticipat$ futility ( an attempt to convey a notion ( "o ( 8 new s5ses4 ,i leave all t = y\r own read+1 ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ',b :]e 0 ,i8 ,t ,i c\ld n tell4 ,i am "h 0 all ,i c\ld say2 b !n :at m c\ld ,i ev] h said8--,gradually my sight came to me1 or ! light ( ! c\ntry arose1 ,i c\ld n tell :i*1 & behold1 ,i 0 9 ! mid/ ( a p>adise1 gorge\s yet graci\s1 to describe :i* ,i f9d no words 9 ! halt+ tongues ( e>?1 & ,i "k some?+ ( !m all1 mo/ ( !m well4 ,if ,i say a purple sea 0 break+ 9 light on an em]ald %ore1 ! mom5t ! words are writt51 ,i see !m co>se & crude z a boy's fir/ attempt at l&scape2 yet are !re no bett] :]e) to tell :at fir/ fill$ my eyes ) heav5ly delight4 ',! inhabitants 7 _m1 b n[h]e 7 !y cr[d$4 ,!re 0 room 9 abundance1 & wild places seem$ to be held sacr$ = solitude4' ,i am only pick+ up a s5t5ce "h & !re1 z ,i ha/5 to ! p>ticul> po9t1 said ,polw>?1 look+ d[n ! page4 ',b ! fl[]s6 & ! birds6 & above all ! beauty ( ! p6 ,& !y dwelt 9 h>mony4 ,yet on _! =eheads lay z x seem$ a fa9t mi/1 or z x 7 ! fir/ ( a cl\d ( com+ disquiet4 ',& ,i pray$ him1 ,tell me1 sir1 :i!r %all ,i g to f9d ,god & say unto him1 ,lo1 "h ,i am6 ,& he answ]$ & said to me1 ,sir1 ,i b dimly "k :at ?\ meane/4 ,say fur!r4 ,& ,i /ood = an h\r1 ev5 z "o a/oni$4 ,!n said ,i1 ,all my long life on ! _w :5ce ,i came1 ,i did look to f9d ,god :5 dea? %\ld take me4 ,b lo1 n[--,& ) t my he>t smote me1 = 9 my =m] life ,i _h (t5times fall5 into unbelief & d5i$ ,god3 0 ?is n[ my puni%m5t--t ,i %\ld nev] f9d him8 ,& my he>t grew cold 9 my body1 & ! blood curdl$ !re94 ,!n ! man answ]$ & said1 ,x is true t 9 g5]ations pa/1 = s ,i read 9 our anci5t books1 m5 did believe 9 "o above !m & 9 !m1 :o _h wr\ght !m to t !y 71 & 0 work+ !m to bett] /ill2 b :e!r x be t we h n[ ga9$ t bett]1 & !re is no?+ high] unto :i* we may look1 !re=e no ne$ ( ! high "o1 ,i "k n1 b truly we h long ceas$ s to believe1 & h le>n$ t1 z ?+s are1 s !y h be51 & s !y %all be4 ,!n fell z x 7 a cold /one into ! core ( my he>t1 & ,i que/ion$ him no f>!r1 = ,i bore dea? 9 my he>t1 ev5 z a woman c>rie? h] unborn *ild4 ,no ,god6 ,i cri$1 & sp$ away into a solitude & %riek$ al\d1 ,no ,god6 ,nay1 b ere ,i believe x1 ,i w se>* ?r\gh all creation1 & cry al\d z ,i g4 ,i w se>* until ,i f9d him1 & if ,i f9d him n1--4 ,) t my s\l w\ld h fa9t$ 9 me1 _h ,i n spread =? my w+s & ru%$ al(t to f9d him4 ',= ! m lovely any?+ ,i saw1 ! m graci\s 9 col\r or =m1 or ! m m>vell\s 9 ! law ( its work+1 ev] a fre% pang %ot to my he>t3 if t :i* ,i _h he>d %\ld prove true1 !n 0 !re no ,love su* z seem$ to me to dwell !re91 ! s\l ( its beauty1 & all ! excell5ce !re( 0 b a delusion ( my own he>t1 gre$y aft] a phantom p]fection4 ,no ,god6 no ,love6 no lovel9ess1 save a gha/ly semblance !re(6 & ! m gha/ly t x 0 s l lovel9ess1 & yet 0 n to be lov$ ^u p]il ( pro/itution ( _s4 ,!n 9 tru? 0 heav5 a fable1 & hell an all-embrac+ fact6 = my v be+ knew 9 itself t if x w\ld dwell 9 peace1 ! v atmosph]e 9 :i* x liv$ & mov$ & brea!d mu/ be love1 liv+ love1 a "o div9e pres5ce1 tru? to itself1 & love to me1 & to all !m t ne$$ love1 d[n to ! poore/ t c b ne$ x1 & kn[e? x n :5 x come?4 ,i knew t if love 0 n all 9 all1 9 fact z well z 9 imag9ation1 my life 0 b a dre>y holl[ made 9 ! %ape ( a life1 & !re=e = ev] hungry & nev] to be satisfi$4 ,& aga9 ,i spread w+s--no long] z x seem$ ( hope1 b w+s ( despair1 yet mighty1 & flew4 ,& ,i le>n$ !reaft] t despair is b ! hidd5 side ( hope4' ,"h foll[ pages ( 8 w&]+s 9 que/ ( ,god4 ,he tells h[ & :]e he inquir$ & s\ght1 se>*+ into ! ne> & m9ute z e>ne/ly z into ! f> & va/1 wat*+ at ! v pores ( be+1 & sitt+ 9 ! gates ( ! mighty halls ( assembly--b all 9 va94 ,no ,god 0 to be f\nd4 ',& x seem$ to me1' he says at la/1 't1 z ,i _h be5 ! w&]] ( e>?1 s 0 ,i n[ doom$ to be ! w&]] ( heav54 ,on e>? ,i w&]$ to f9d dea?1 & m5 call$ me ! ev]la/+ ,jew2 9 heav5 ,i w&]$ to f9d ,god1 & :at "n w\ld !y give me n[8 ',at la/ my he>t sank )9 me :olly1 & ,i fold$ my w+s1 & ?r\gh ye>s ,i also sank & sank1 & alight$ at l5g? ^u ! place appo9t$ = my habitation--t namely :]e9 ,i f\nd myself fir/ aft] dea?4 ,& alight+ !re1 ,i fell d[n we>y & slept4 ',& :5 ,i awoke ,i turn$ ^u my side 9 ! despair ( a life t 0 nei!r 9 my own p[] nor 9 t ( "o :o 0 ! ,fa!r ( me1 :i* life !re=e 0 an evil ?+ & a tyrant unto me4 ,& lo6 !re by my side ,i beheld a lily ( ! field su* z grew on ! wayside 9 ! old times betwixt ,j]usalem & ,be?any4 ,nev] s9ce my dea? _h ,i se5 su*1 & my he>t awoke )9 me1 & ,i wept bitt] te>s t no?+ %\ld be true1 no?+ be t :i* x _h seem$ 9 ! times ( old4 ,& z ,i wept ,i he>d a s\nd z ( ! fall+ ( _m te>s1 & ,i look$1 & lo a %[] z f a wat]+-pot fall+ ^u ! lily6 ,& ,i look$ yet aga91 & ,i saw ! wat]+-pot1 & ! h& t held x2 & he ^: h& held ! pot /ood by me & look$ at me z he wat]$ ! lily4 ,he 0 a man l ! m5 ( ! _w :]e su* lilies gr[1 & 0 poorly dress$1 & seem$ l a g>d5]4 ,& ,i look$ up 9 8 face1 & lo--! eyes ( ! ,"l ,jesus6 & my he>t swell$ until x fill$ my :ole body & my head1 & ,i gave a great cry1 & = joy t turn$ into agony ,i c\ld n rise1 nei!r c\ld ,i speak1 b ,i crept on my h&s & my knees to 8 feet1 & !re ,i fell d[n ^u my face1 & ) my h&s ,i lift$ "o ( 8 feet & did place x ^u my head1 & !n ,i f\nd voice to cry1 ,o ma/]6 & !re) ! life dep>t$ f me4 ,& :5 ,i came to myself ! ma/] sat "u ! tree1 & ,i lay by 8 side1 & he _h lift$ my head ^u 8 knees4 ,& behold1 ! _w 0 jubilant ar\nd me1 = ,love 0 ,love & ,"l ( all4 ,! sea ro>$1 & ! fulness !re( 0 love2 & ! purple & ! gold & ! blue & ! gre5 came /raight f ! hidd5 r$ he>t ( ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,& ,i clos$ my eyes = v bliss2 nor _h ,i yet be?\ght me ( ! "t :5 fir/ ^? eyes look$ ^u me1 = ,i seem$ to h kn[n !m s9ce fir/ ,i began to be4 ,b n[ :5 = v bliss ,i clos$ my eyes1 my s9 came back to me1 & ,i rememb]$4 ,& ,i rose up1 & kneel$ d[n be=e him1 & said1 ,o ,"l1 ,i am ,ahasu]us ! ,jew1 ! man :o w\ld n let !e re/ ?y cross ^u ! /one be=e my work%op1 b drave !e f x4--,say no m ( t1 answ]$ my ,"l1 = truly ,i h myself re/$ 9 ?y he>t1 cross & all1 until ! ?+ ?\ didde/ 9 ?y ignorance is bett] ?an =gott51 = x is rememb]$ 9 love4 ,only see ?\ also make "r excuse = my bre?r5 :o1 l !e !n1 "k n n[ :at !y d4 ,come & ,i w br+ !e to ! woman :o di$ = !e 9 ! burn+ fire4 ,& ,i said1 ,o ,"l1 leave me n1 = al?\gh ,i w\ld n[ 9 my turn "r gladly die = h]1 yet w\ld ,i n look ^u t woman aga9 if ! love ( h] w\ld make me love !e "o hair ! less-- ?\ kn[e/4 ,& ! ,"l smil$ ^u me & said1 ,fe> n1 ,ahasu]us2 my love infolds & is ! ne/ ( all love4 ,i fe> n2 fe> ?\ n ei!r4 ,& ,i arose & foll[$ him4 ,& e tree & fl[]1 yea e /one & cl\d1 ) ! :ole e>? & sea & air1 7 full ( ,god1 ev5 ! liv+ ,god--s t n[ ,i c\ld h di$ ( pure cont5t4 ,& ,i foll[$ my ,"l4' ,! gate-keep] 0 sil5t1 & s 7 !y all4 ,at l5g? ,ra*el rose s(tly1 wip+ ! te>s f h] eyes1 & left ! room4 ,b %e f\nd no "o 9 ! closet4 ,hel5 0 already ha/5+ across ! p>k1 weep+ z %e w5t4 ,,*apt] ,,xxix4 ,,! ,,curate',s ,,resolve4 ,! next day 0 ,sunday4 ,twelve mon?s _h n yet elaps$ s9ce ! small ev5ts ) :i* my n>rative op5$4 ,! *ange :i* _h pass$1 n m]ely ^u ! op9ions1 b 9 ! he>t & m9d & v be+ ( ! curate1 _h n !n begun to appe> ev5 to himself1 al?\gh its roots 7 n only deep 9 him b deep beyond him1 ev5 9 ! s\rce ( him2 & n[ he 0 9 a /ate ( m9d1 a /ate ( be+1 r1 ( ^: nature at t "t he _h n1 & c\ld n h _h1 ! fa9te/ =e-feel+1 ! mo/ %ad[y conception4 ,x _h be5 a season ( great tr\ble1 b ! ga9 _h be5 inf9itely great]2 = n[ 7 ! bonds ( ! f9ite brok51 he _h bur/ ! %ell ( ! mortal1 & 0 ( ^? ov] :om ! second dea? ha? no p[]4 ,! agony ( ! second bir? 0 pa/1 & he 0 a *ild aga9--only a *ild1 he knew1 b a *ild ( ! k+dom2 & ! _w1 & all t ,god c>$ ab\t 9 x1 0 81 z no mis]'s gold c\ld ev] belong to its ho>d]1 :ile ! creat$ univ]se1 yea & ! uncreat$ also :5ce x sprang1 lay op5 to him 9 ! b\ndless free-giv+ ( ! orig9al ,?\ght4 ,all ?+s are y\rs1 & ye are ,*ri/'s1 & ,*ri/ is ,god's3 he und]/ood ! words ev5 z he :o said !m und]/ood !m1 & z ! wise ( ?is _w nev] w und]/& !m until fir/ !y become fools t !y may be wise4 ,at ! same "t a great sorr[ ?reat5$ him f ! no less my/]i\s region ( 8 relations to humanity2 b if t region & its mo/ inexplicable c>es 7 beyond ! rule ( ! ,life t dwelt 9 him1 !n 0 t ,life no true ,god1 & ! :ole ?+ 0 false2 = he lov$ ,hel5 ) a love t 0 no inv5tion or creation ( 8 own1 & if n 81 !n ^:8 ,c]ta9ly n ( "o :o1 :5 x ?reat5$ to ov]:elm him1 0 unable to uphold him "u x6 ,?is ?+ also belong$ to ! ,god ( 8 be+4 ,a poor ,god mu/ he be = m5 or wom5 :o did n c>e ab\t ! awful ?+s involv$ 9 ! relation betwe5 !m6 ,!re=e ev5 9 8 wor/ anxieties ab\t ,hel51--,i d n mean 9 8 wor/ seasons ( despair at ! ?\ght ( nev] ga9+ h] love--he _h nev] yet inde$ consci\sly reg>d$ ! w9n+ ( h] z a possibility--b at ^? times :5 he mo/ pla9ly saw h] ! submissive disciple ( ,george ,bascombe1 & ! two seem$ to 8 fancy to be /ray+ away toge!r into a wide field1 full ( d>k m\nta9s2 :5 he saw h]1 s capable ( ! noble/1 submitt+ h] m9d to ! entrance ( ! poore/1 meane/1 %abbie/ !ories ( life1 & tak+ = h] guide "o :o c\ld lead h] to no consci\s well-be+1 or make provision = su/a9m5t :5 ! "t ( suff]+ & anxiety %\ld come1 or ! "t ( heal? & /r5g? be ov] :5 yet %e mu/ live on2 :5 he saw h] adopt+ a sy/em ( ?+s ^: influ5ce w\ld %rivel up in/ead ( develop+ h] faculties1 cru% h] imag9ation ) su* a m\nta9-weight z 0 nev] pil$ above ,titan1 & dw>f ! :ole div9e woman )9 h] to ! size & condition ( an ,aztec--ev5 !n 0 he able to reason ) himself3 ,%e belongs to ,god1 n to me2 & ,god loves h] bett] ?an ev] ,i c\ld love h]4 ,if %e %\ld set out ) h] bl9d guide1 x w be b a fir/ day's j\rney %e w g--?r\gh m>%y places & dry s&s1 across ! f> bread? ( :i*1 lo6 ! blue m\nta9s t %elt] ! high vales ( sweetness & peace4 ,& ) ?is he n only tri$ to com=t himself1 b succe$$--,i d n say to cont5tm5t1 b to quiet4 ,cont5tm5t1 :i*1 :atev] its imm$iate %ape1 to be cont5tm5t at all1 mu/ be ! w ( ,god1 lay beyond4 ,alas t m5 _c believe !re is su* a ?+ z t good & acceptable & p]fect w ( ,god6 ,to ^? t d believe x1 x is ! rejoic+ ( a consci\s deliv]ance4 ,& n[ ?is ,sunday1 ,w+fold ent]$ ! pulpit prep>$ at la/ to utt] 8 resolve4 ,happily no?+ _h be5 done to introduce ! confus+ elem5t ( ano!r w4 ,! bi%op _h he>d no?+ ( ! matt]1 & if any?+ _h rea*$ ! rector1 he _h n spok54 ,n "o ( ! congregation1 n ev5 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 _h h9t$ to him t he ought to resign4 ,x _h be5 left altoge!r ) himself4 ,& n[ he w\ld tell !m ! decision to :i* ! ?\ght he _h tak5 _h conduct$ him4 ,i w give a portion ( 8 s]mon--en\gh to %[ u h[ he %[$ ! congregation ! /ate ( 8 m9d 9 ref]5ce to ! gr& "q1 & ! position he took 9 relation to 8 he>]s4 ,x is "t1 my he>]s1 he said1 because x is n[ possible1 to br+ to a close t unc]ta9ty ) reg>d to ! cont9uance ( our relation to ea* o!r1 :i* ,i 01 9 ! spr+-"t ( ! ye>1 compell$ by m5tal circum/ance to occasion4 ,i !n =c$ myself1 = v dread ( ! hone/y ( an all-kn[+ ,god1 to break ?r\gh e conv5tion ( ! *ur* & ! pulpit1 & speak to y ( my mo/ private affairs4 ,i told y t ,i 0 sure ( n "o ( ^? ?+s conc]n+ :i* x is tak5 = grant$ t a cl]gyman mu/ be satisfi$2 b t ,i w\ld n at once yield my (fice1 le/ 9 t act ,i %\ld seem to decl>e unbelief ( _m a ?+ :i* ev5 !n ,i desir$ to f9d true4 ,9 leav+ me undi/urb$ ei!r by compla9t1 expo/ulation1 or pr(f]$ in/ruction1 y1 my he>]s1 h grant$ me ! leisure ( :i* ,i /ood 9 ne$4 ,meantime ,i h endeav\r$ to %[ y ! be/ ,i saw1 :ile yet ,i d>$ n say ,i 0 sure ( any?+4 ,i h ?us kept y1 ^? at lea/ :o c>$ to foll[ my pa?1 acqua9t$ ) my m5tal hi/ory4 ,& n[ ,i come to tell y ! practical result at :i* ,i h arriv$4 ,b :5 ,i say t ,i w n =sake my curacy1 /ill less my "r & duty to tea* :atev] ,i seem to "k1 ,i mu/ n !re9 convey ! impression t ,i h atta9$ t conviction & assurance ! discov]y ( ! abs5ce ( :i* 0 ! cause ( ! :ole unc]ta9 proce$+4 ,all ,i n[ say is1 t 9 ! /ory ( ,jesus ,i h beheld su* gr&eur--to me app>5tly altoge!r beyond ! rea* ( human inv5tion1 su* a radiation ( div9e lovel9ess & tru?1 su* hope = man1 so>+ miles above e possible pitfall ( ,fate2 & h at ! same "t1 f ! endeav\r to obey ! ^w record$ z 81 exp]i5c$ su* a consci\s enl>gem5t ( m5tal faculty1 su* a deep5+ ( moral /r5g?1 su* an enhancem5t ( ideal1 su* an increase ( fai?1 hope1 & *>ity t[>ds all m51 t ,i n[ decl>e ) ! cons5t ( my :ole man--,i ca/ 9 my lot ) ! s]vants ( ! ,crucifi$2 ,i am cont5t ev5 to %>e _! delusion1 if delusion x be1 = x is ! tru? ( ! ,god ( m5 to me2 ,i w /& or fall ) ! /ory ( my ,"l2 ,i w take my *ance--,i speak n 9 irrev]5ce b 9 hone/y--my *ance ( failure or success 9 reg>d to :atev] may foll[ 9 ?is life or ! life to come1 if !re be a life to come--on ! words & w ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 :om if1 impress$ z ,i am ) ! tru? ( 8 nature1 ! absolute devotion ( 8 life1 & ! ess5tial might ( 8 be+1 ,i yet obey n1 ,i %all n only des]ve to p]i%1 b 9 t v refusal draw ru9 ^u my head4 ,be=e ,god ,i say x--,i w\ld r be crucifi$ ) t man1 s x might be z a disciple & n z a ?ief t creeps1 intrudes1 or climbs into ! fold1 ?an ,i w\ld reign ) him ov] su* a k+dom ( gr&eur z w\ld h satisfi$ ! imag9ation & love-ambition ( 8 "m4 ,on su* gr\nds z ^! ,i hope ,i am ju/ifi$ 9 decl>+ myself a disciple ( ! ,son ( ,man1 & 9 devot+ my life & ! r5ew$ en]gy & enl>g$1 yea inf9ite hope :i* he has giv5 me1 to 8 bro!rs & si/]s ( my race1 t if possible ,i may ga9 "s to be p>tak]s ( ! bless$ness ( my hope4 ,h5ce=? ,i am1 n ,,9 ,,holy ,,ord]s1 ,i reject ! phrase1 b ,,"u holy ord]s1 ev5 ! ord]s ( ,*ri/ ,jesus1 :i* is ! law ( lib]ty1 ! law ^: ob$i5ce alone c set a man free f 9-burr[+ slav]y4 ,& if any man yet say t1 because ( my lack ( absolute assurance1 ,i h no "r to ! sacr$ po/1--,let him1 ,i answ]1 :o has be5 assail$ by su* d\bts z m9e1 & f ! citadel ( 8 fai? sees no m "o l+]+ %ad[ ( a foe--let him ca/ at me ! fir/ /one6 ,va9 *all5ge6 = su* a "o w nev] ca/ a /one at man or woman4 ,b let n him ^: belief is b ! abs5ce ( d\bt1 :o has nev] lov$ en\gh t :i* he ?9ks he believes to h felt a s+le fe> le/ x %\ld n be true--let n t man1 ,i say1 ca/ at me pebble f ! brook1 or clov5 rock f ! m\nt ( ! law1 = ei!r w fall hurtless at my feet4 ,fri5ds1 ,i h = ! la/ "t spok5 ( myself 9 ?is place4 ,ye h borne ) me 9 my trials1 & ,i ?ank y4 ,^? :o h n only borne b suff]$1 & d n[ rejoice ) me1 ,i ?ank t5fold4 ,i h done-- ,save = "o ^w to ! ,*ri/ians ( ?is congregation3 ,! waves ( infidelity are com+ 9 ) a /rong w9d & a fl[+ tide4 ,:o is to blame8 ,god x _c be1 & = unbeliev]s1 !y are z !y 74 ,x is ! ,*ri/ians :o are to blame4 ,i d n mean ^? :o are call$ ,*ri/ians1 b ^? :o call & c\nt !mselves ,*ri/ians4 ,i tell y1 & ,i speak to ea* "o ( :om x is true1 t y hold & pres5t su* a )]$1 />v$1 mis]able1 dea?'s-head idea ( ,*ri/ianity2 t y are y\rselves su* pov]ty-/rick5 believ]s1 if believ]s y are at all2 t ! notion y pres5t to ! _w z y\r ideal1 is s commonplace1 s false to ! gr&1 graci\s1 mighty-he>t$ ,jesus--t ,,y are ! cause :y ! tru? hangs its head 9 pati5ce1 & rides n =? on ! :ite horse1 conqu]+ & to conqu]4 ,y dull its lu/re 9 ! eyes ( m52 y de=m its fair proportions2 y repres5t n t :i* x is1 b t :i* x is n1 yet call y\rselves by its "n2 y are n ! salt ( ! e>?1 b a salt t has lo/ its sav\r1 = ye seek all ?+s else fir/1 & to t seek+ ! k+dom ( ,god & 8 righte\sness %all nev] be add$4 ,until y rep5t & believe afre%1 believe 9 a nobl] ,*ri/1 namely ! ,*ri/ reveal$ by himself1 & n ! muffl$ =m ( some?+ vaguely human & c]ta9ly n all div9e1 :i* ! false int]pretations ( m5 h sub/itut$ = him1 y w be1 z1 ,i repeat1 y are1 ! ma9 reason :y fai? is s scanty 9 ! e>?1 & ! enemy comes 9 l a flood4 ,= ! sake ( ! progress ( ! tru?1 & t into nobl] m9ds ?an y\rs1 x 7 bett] y jo9$ ! ranks ( ! enemy1 & decl>$ :at ,i fe> ) _m ( y is ! fact1 t y believe n at all4 ,b :e!r 9 "s s5se y believe or n1 ! fact rema9s1 t1 :ile y are n ( ^? ,*ri/ians :o obey ! ^w ( ! ma/]1 ,,do+ ! ?+s he says to !m1 y are ( ^? ,*ri/ians1 if y ,,w be call$ by ! "n1 to :om he w say1 ,i nev] knew y3 g =? into ! out] d>kness4 ,!n at lea/ w ! *ur* be rid ( y1 & ! hone/ d\bt] w h room to brea! ! div9e air ( ! pres5ce ( ,jesus4 ,b oh :at unspeakable bliss ( he>t & s\l & m9d & s5se rema9s = him :o l ,/4 ,paul is crucifi$ ) ,*ri/1 :o lives no m f 8 own self1 b is inspir$ & in=m$ & possess$ ) ! same fai? t[>ds ! ,fa!r 9 :i* ,jesus liv$ & wr\ght ! w ( ! ,fa!r6 ,if ! words attribut$ to ,jesus are inde$ ! words ( him :om ,jesus decl>$ himself1 !n truly is ! fate ( mank9d a glori\s "o1--& t1 fir/ & la/1 because m5 h a ,god supremely gr&1 all-p]fect 9 ,god-head2 = t is1 & t alone c be1 ! absolute bliss ( ! creat$4 ,,*apt] ,,xxx4 ,,hel5 ,,awake4 ,t ,sunday-d9n] 0 a v quiet meal4 ,an old fri5d ( ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 a lady-ecclesia/ic l h]self1 d9$ ) !m2 :at ! two may h said to ea* o!r 9 secret conclave1 ,i _c tell1 b n a ^w ( rem>k ^u ,mr4 ,w+fold or 8 s]mon 0 he>d at table4 ,z %e 0 leav+ ! room1 ,bascombe :isp]$ ,hel5 to put on some?+ & come to him 9 ! g>d54 ,hel5 glanc$ at ! w9d[ z if d\btful4 ,x 0 cold1 b ! sun 0 %9+2 ! wea!r _h no?+ to d ) x2 %e _h b tak5 a mom5t to ?9k4 ,%e press$ h] lips toge!r--& cons5t$4 ,george saw %e w\ld r n g1 b he set x d[n to a si/]ly unwill+ness to enjoy h]self :5 h] bro!r c\ld no long] behold ! sun1 & su* m]e s5tim5t mu/ n be enc\rag$4 ,:5 ! cypresses & box-trees _h come betwixt !m & ! h\se1 he (f]$ 8 arm1 b ,hel5 pref]r$ be+ free4 ,%e did n refuse to g into ! summ]-h\se ) him2 b %e took h] place on ! opposite side ( ! little table4 ,george h[ev] spi$ no h9t ( approa*+ doom4 ,i am sorry to h to alt] my op9ion ( t curate1 he said z he seat$ himself4 ,!re 0 s mu* 9 him t ,i took to promise well4 ,b old habit1 ! necessities ( exi/5ce1 & ! fe> ( society h be5 too mu* = him--z !y w always be = mo/ m54 ,he has succumb$ at la/1 & ,i am sorry6 ,i did ?9k he 0 go+ to turn out an hone/ man6 ,& y h come to ! c]ta9 conclusion t he is n an hone/ man1 ,george8 ,assur$ly4 ,:y8 ,because he goes on to tea* :at he confesses he is n sure ab\t4 ,he pr(esses to be sure t x is bett] ?an any?+ he is sure ab\t4--,y tea* me !re is no ,god3 are y absolutely c]ta9 !re is n8 ,yes2 absolutely c]ta94 ,on :at gr\nds8 ,on gr\nds ,i h set =? to y tw5ty times1 ,hel51 de>1 answ]$ ,george a little impati5tly4 ,i am n incl9$ to talk ab\t !m n[4--,i c no m believe 9 a god ?an 9 a dragon4 ,& yet a dragon 0 believable to ! poets t made our old ballads2 & n[ geology reveals t "s-su* creatures did at "o "t actually exi/4 ,ah6 y turn ! tables on me !re1 ,hel56 ,i confess my p>allel a false "o4 ,a tru] "o ?an y ?9k1 p]haps1 said ,hel54 ,t a ?+ %\ld seem absurd to "o man1 or to a ?\s& m51 w n make x absurd 9 its own nature2 & m5 z good & z clev] z y1 ,george1 h 9 all ages believ$ 9 a ,god4 ,only _! notion ( ,god may h be5 diff]5t f y\rs4 ,p]haps _! notion 0 a believable "o1 :ile y\rs is n4 ,by ,jove1 ,hel56 y've got on ) y\r logic4 ,i feel q flatt]$6 ,s f> z ,i am aw>e y h _h no tutor 9 t bran* b myself6 ,y'll soon be too mu* = y\r ma/]1 by ,jove6 ,l ! pi$ pip]1 ,hel5 smil$ a little smile4 ,b %e said s]i\sly1 ,well1 ,george1 all ,i h to sugge/ is--,:at if1 aft] all y\r inability to believe x1 ?+s %\ld at la/ prove1 ev5 to y\r-- satisfaction1 %all ,i say8--t !re ,,is a ,god8 ,don't tr\ble y\rself a bit ab\t x1 ,hel51 return$ ,george1 ^: m9d 0 full ( some?+ else1 to introduce :i* he 0 anxi\sly1 & he$lessly1 cle>+ ! way3 ,i am prep>$ to take my *ance1 & all ,i c>e ab\t is :e!r y w take y\r *ance ) me4 ,hel51 ,i love y ) my :ole s\l4 ,oh6 y h a s\l1 !n1 ,george8 ,i ?\ght y hadn't6 ,x ,,is a fooli% =m ( spee*1 no d\bt1 return$ ,bascombe1 a little disconc]t$1 z 0 natural4 --,b to be s]i\s1 ,hel51 ,i d love y4 ,h[ long w y love me if ,i tell y ,i don't love y8 ,really1 ,hel51 ,i don't see h[ to answ] su* a "q4 ,i don't und]/& y at all to-day6 ,h ,i (f5d$ y8 ,i am v sorry if ,i h1 b ,i am q 9 ! d>k z to :5 or :]e or h[4 ,tell me !n1 said ,hel51 he$less ( 8 evid5t annoyance & discom=t1 h[ long w y love me if ,i love y 9 return8 ,= ev] & ev]4 ,ano!r =m ( spee*8 ,y "k :at ,i mean well en\gh4 ,i %all love y z long z ,i live4 ,george1 ,i nev] c\ld love a man :o believ$ ,i 0 go+ to die = ev]4 ,b1 ,hel51 plead$ ,bascombe1 if x c't be help$1 y "k6 ,b y are cont5t x %\ld be s4 ,y believe x will+ly4 ,y sc(f at any h9t ( a possible immortality4 ,well1 b1 ,hel51 :at diff]5ce c x make betwe5 y & me8 return$ ,george1 :om ! dang] ( los+ h] _h r5d]$ = ! mom5t indiff]5t ev5 to 8 mo/ *]i%$ !ory4 ,if !re %\ld be any?+ aft]w>ds1 ( c\rse ,i %\ld g on lov+ y to ! v extreme ( ! possible4 ,:ile n[ y don't love me en\gh to wi% ,i may live & n die6 ,leav+ t out ( view h[ev]1 x makes all ! diff]5ce to ! love ,i %\ld h to expect ( y4 ,x may be only a :im--,i c prove no?+ any m ?an y--b ,i h a--:im !n--to be lov$ z an immortal woman1 ! *ild ( a liv+ ,god1 & n z a helpless ba/>d ( ,nature6--,i beg y\r p>don--,i =get my mann]s4 ,t a lady %\ld utt] su* a ^w6--& t lady1 ,hel56--,george 0 %ock$4 ,com+ on ! re/1 x absolutely bewild]$ him4 ,he sat sil5t p]=ce4 ,hel5 saw x1 & yield$ to a mom5t's annoyance ) h]self1 b pres5tly resum$3 ,i h giv5 y ! advantage1 ,george1 & wrong$ myself4 ,b ,i don't c>e ,,mu*4 ,i %all only take ! bett] c\rage to speak my m9d4--,y come ask+ me to love y1 & my bro!r ly+ m\ld]+ 9 ! e>?--all !re is ( him1 y tell me6 ,if y believ$ he 0 alive /ill1 & ,i %\ld f9d him aga9 "s day1 !re w\ld be no reason :y y %\ld n speak ( love ev5 n[2 = :]e does anyone ne$ love m ?an at ! br9k ( ! grave8 ,b to come talk+ ( love to me1 ) ! same voice t has b j be5 tea*+ me t ! grave is ! end ( all1 & my bro!r gone d[n into x = ev]--,i tell y1 c\s9--,i mu/ say x--x seems to me h>dly dec5t4 ,= me at lea/--,i w ,,n be lov$ ) ! love t c calmly accept su* a fate4 ,& ,i w nev] love any man1 believ+ t1 if ,i outlive him1 my love mu/ !reaft] be b a homeless torr5t1 fall+ ev] into a bottomless abyss4 ,:y %\ld ,i make ( my he>t a ro>+ furnace ( regrets & self-accusations8 ,! memory ( my bro!r is = me en\gh4 ,let me keep :at fre$om is possible to me2 let me r live ! life ( a cold-blood$ animal1 & die 9 ! ice t ga!rs ab\t me4 ,b be=e ,i sit d[n to await su* an end1 ,i %all "k :e!r ,i am inde$ compell$ to believe z y d t !re is no ,god1 t ,dea? is my "l & ma/]1 t he w take me z he has tak5 my bro!r & yet ,i %all nev] see him m4 ,no1 c\s9 ,george1 ,i ne$ a ,god2 & if !re be none h[ did ,i come to ne$ "o8 ,yes1 ,i "k y ?9k y c expla9 x all1 b ! way y acc\nt = x is j z mis]able z :at y w\ld put 9 its place4 ,i am n complete 9 myself l y4 ,i am n able to live )\t a ,god4 ,i w seek him until ,i f9d him1 or drop into ! abyss :]e all "q & answ] ceases4 ,!n 9 ! end ,i %all be no worse ?an y w\ld h me at ! beg9n+--no1 x w be no?+ s bad1 = !n ,i %all n "k my mis]y z y w\ld h me "k x n[4 ,if we are creatures ( no?+1 9 spite ( all ! outcry ( our s\ls aga9/ t fate1 :at mighty matt] is x if1 ?us utt]ly befool$ ( ,nature1 we %\ld also a little fool ourselves1 by believ+ 9 a lovely hope t looks l a promise1 & seems z if x ought to be true8 ,h[ c a devotion to ! facts ( h] exi/5ce be requir$ ( "o ^: nature has be5 prov$ to h] a lie8--,y speak f ! facts ( y\r nature1 ,george2 ,i speak f ! facts ( m9e4 ,hel5 _h come awake at la/6 ,x w\ld h suit$ ,george bett] _h %e rema9$ a half-quick5$ /atue1 responsive only to himself1 h] n ov]-pot5t ,pygmalion4 ,he sat spee*less--) 8 eyes fix$ on h]4 ,y ne$ no ,god1 %e w5t on1 !re=e y seek none4 ,if y ne$ none1 y are "r to seek none1 ,i d>e say4 ,b ,i ne$ a ,god--oh1 ,i _c tell h[ ,i ne$ him1 if he be to be f\nd6 & by ! same reason+ ,i w give my life to ! se>* = him4 ,to ! la/ ,i w g on seek+ him1 = if once ,i give 91 & confess !re is no ,god1 ,i %all g mad--mad1 & p]haps kill somebody l poor ,poldie4 ,george1 ,i h said my say4 ,i w\ld n h come into ! g>d5 b to say x4 ,good-bye4 ,z %e spoke %e rose & held out h] h& to him4 ,b 9 ! tumult ( m emotions ?an ,i c well "n--among/ ! re/ indignation1 dismay1 disappo9tm5t1 pride1 & *agr91 he lo/ himself :ile se>*+ 9 va9 = words1 paid no he$ to h] movem5t1 & lift$ no h& to take t %e (f]$4 ,) head erect %e walk$ f ! summ]-h\se4 ,! love ( a lifetime6--a sweet invitation6 %e said to h]self1 z ) ! sl[ /ep ( re/ra9$ wra? %e w5t up ! g>d54 ,george sat = "s m9utes z %e _h left him4 ,!n he broke ! sil5ce 9 8 own e>s & said1 ,well1 ,i'm damn$6 ,& s he 0--= ! "t--& a v good ?+ too1 = he requir$ x4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxi4 ,,?\ ,,did/ ,,n ,,leave4 ,! next day ! curate f\nd himself s ill at ease1 f ! reaction aft] excitem5t ( v>i\s k9ds1 t he det]m9$ to give himself a holiday4 ,8 notion ( a holiday 0 a v simple "o3 a day 9 a deep wood1 if su* c\ld be _h1 ) a volume fit = alt]nate read+ & pocket+ z he might feel incl9$4 ,( late no volume _h be5 8 companion 9 any w&]+s b 8 ,new ,te/am5t4 ,!re 0 a remnant ( real old-fa%ion$ =e/ on ! ,ly!1 "s di/ance up3 ?i!r he w5t by ! road1 ! %orte/ way1 to return by ! w9d+ c\rse ( ! /ream4 ,x 0 a beautiful day ( ,/4 ,m>t9's summ]4 ,9 ! =e/1 if ! leaves 7 gone1 !re 0 ! m light1 & sun & %ad[ play$ _m a lovely game4 ,b he saw !m z ?\gh he saw !m n1 = fe> & hope /ruggl$ 9 8 he>t1 & = a long "t pray] itself c\ld n atone !m4 ,at l5g? a calm fell1 & he set out to return home1 d[n ! bank ( ! riv]4 ,_m-hu$ & _m-%ap$ _h be5 ! ?\ghts1 n t came to him f ! =e/1 b t he _h c>ri$ ?i!r ) him3 ?r\gh all & ea* ( !m1 ev] & aga9 _h come dawn+ ! face ( ,hel51 z he _h se5 x 9 *ur* ! day be=e1 :]e %e sat betwe5 h] aunt & h] c\s91 s unlike ei!r4 ,=1 to _! annoyance1 %e _h insi/$ on go+ to *ur*1 & to h]s1 !y _h refus$ to let h] g alone4 ,& 9 h] face ! curate _h se5 some?+ he _h nev] se5 !re until !n1--a wi/ful look1 z if n[ %e w\ld be glad to pick up any suitable crumb to c>ry home ) h]4 ,9 t dawn ( com+ *ildhood1 ?\gh he d>$ n yet altoge!r believe x su*1 ! h>d contemptu\s expression ( ,bascombe's c\nt5ance1 & ! sev]e disapproval 9 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn's1 7 entirely lo/ ^u him4 ,all ! way d[n ! riv]1 ! sweet *ange haunt$ him4 ,:5 he got into ! p>k1 & rea*$ t holl[ betwixt ! /eep f]ny slopes :]e he sat on ! day ) :i* my n>rative op5s1 he seat$ himself aga9 on ! same /one1 & review$ ! pa/ twelve mon?s4 ,?is 0 mu* su* a day z t1 only ! h\r 0 diff]5t3 x 0 ! sett+ sun t n[ %one ^u ! f]ns1 & ca/ %ad[s f !m big en\gh = oaks4 ,:at a *ange _h pass$ ^u him6 ,t day ! ,new ,te/am5t _h be5 ! book ( ! *ur*--?is day x 0 a f\nta9 ( liv+ wat]s to ! man ,?omas ,w+fold4 ,he _h n op5$ 8 ,horace = six mon?s4 ,great tr\ble he _h _h2 bo? t & its results 7 preci\s4 ,n[ a new tr\ble _h come1 b t also 0 a =m ( life3 he w\ld r love & suff] & love /ill1 a ?\s& times r1 ?an return to ! pov]ty ( n kn[+ ,hel5 ,l+>d2 yet a ?\s& times r w\ld he =get ,hel5 ,l+>d ?an lose f 8 he>t "o ^w ( ! ,ma/]1 ^: love 0 ! root & only pl$ge & security ( love1 ! only p[] t c\ld glorify x--c\ld cleanse x f ! m+l$ selfi%ness t wr\ght = its f9al decay & dea?4 ,! sun 0 d[n ere he left ! p>k1 & ! twilight 0 rapidly foll[+ ! sun z he drew ne> to ! ,abbey on 8 way home4 ,sudd5ly1 m l an od\r ?an a s\nd1 he he>d ! organ1 he ?\ght4 ,nev] yet _h he he>d x on a week-day3 ! organi/ 0 n ( ^? :o haunt _! in/rum5t4 ,(t5 ( late _h ! curate gaz$ on t organ z ^u a rock fill$ ) sweet wat]s1 be=e :i* he /ood a ,moses )\t 8 rod2 sometimes ! solemn in/rum5t appe>$ to him a dumb ,j]emiah t sat !re f ,sunday to ,sunday1 all ! week long1 ) 8 head b[$ ^u 8 h&s1 & n a ,jebusite to li/5 to him3 if only 8 f+]s _h be5 taught ! craft1 he ?\ght1 h[ 8 s\l w\ld p\r itself out ?r\gh ! song-tubes ( t tab]nacle ( sweetness & pray]1 & on ! bla/ ( its utt]ance asc5d to ! ?rone ( ! mo/ high6 ,:o c\ld x be t 0 n[ peopl+ ! sil5ce ( ! va/ *ur* ) melodi\s s\nds1 wor%ipp+ creatures ( ! elem5ts8 ,if ! w9ds & ! flames ( fire are 8 augels1 h[ mu* m ! gr&ly consort+ tones ( ! heav5ly organ6 ,he w\ld g & see :at p[] in=m$ ! vapor\s music4 ,he ent]$ ! *ur* by "o ( ! t[]s1 9 :i* a /air l$ skyw>d1 pass+ ! neighb\rhood ( ! organ1 & hav+ a door to its l(t4 ,z he asc5d$1 came a pause 9 ! music2--& !n1 l ! break+ up ( a summ] cl\d 9 ! heav5lie/ ( ra9-%[]s1 began ! prelude to ! solo 9 ! ,messiah1 ,,?\ ,,did/ ,,n ,,leave ,,8 ,,s\l ,,9 ,,hell4 ,up /ill ! curate crept s(tly4 ,all at once a ri* full contralto voice--surely he _h he>d x be=e--came float+ out on ! torr5t1 e tone be>+ a ^w ( sorr[ful triumph 9 its bosom4 ,he rea*$ ! door4 ,v g5tly he op5$ x1 & peep$ 94 ,b ! back ( ! organ 0 t[>ds him1 & he c\ld see no?+4 ,he /epp$ ^u ! tiles ( ! little apse4 ,"o /ride cle>$ ! end ( ! organ1 & he saw ! face ( ! s+]3 x ,,0 ,hel5 ,l+>d6 ,%e />t$4 ,! music fold$ its w+s & dropp$--l a l>k into its ne/4 ,b ,hel5 recov]$ h]self at once1 rose f h] m9i/ration at ! music-alt>1 & approa*$ ! curate4 ,h ,i tak5 too great a lib]ty8 %e said1 9 a g5tle1 /eady voice4 ,no1 surely1 he answ]$4 ,i am sorry ,i />tl$ y4 ,i wi% y w\ld wake su* s\nds (t5]4 ,he didn't leave my bro!r's s\l 9 hell1 did he1 ,mr4 ,w+fold8 %e said abruptly1 & h] eyes %one ?r\gh ! dusk4 ,if ev] a s\l 0 tak5 out ( hell1 x 0 ,leopold's1 return$ ! curate4 ,& x lifts m9e out ( x too1 he add$1 to he> y say s4 ,i behav$ v badly to y4 ,i confess my fault4 ,w y =give me8 %e said4 ,i love y too mu* to be able to =give y3 t 0 ! ^w 9 ! curate's he>t1 b a diff]5t f\nd its way to 8 lips4 ,my he>t is op5 to y1 ,miss ,l+>d1 he said3 take :at =giv5ess y ?9k y ne$4 ,= :at ,i c tell1 x may be my "p to ask =giv5ess1 n to grant x4 ,if ,i h be5 h>d] to y ?an !re 0 ne$1 ,i pray y to =give me4 ,p]haps ,i did n ent] en\gh into y\r difficulties4 ,y nev] said "o ^w m ?an 0 "r1 or h>d] ?an ,i des]v$4 ,alas6 ,i c no m--9 ?is _w at lea/--ask ,leopold to =give me1 b ,i c ask y & ,mr4 ,polw>?1 :o 7 z ! angels ( ,god to him1 to p>don me = him & = y\rselves too4 ,i 0 ob/9ate & pr\d & selfi%4--,oh1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 c y1 d y really believe t ,leopold is some:]e8 ,is he alive ?is mom5t8 ,%all ,i ev]--ev]--,i don't m9d if x's a ?\s& ye>s fir/--b %all ,i ,,ev] see him aga98 ,i d ?9k s4 ,i ?9k ! /ory mu/ be true t tells u ,jesus took to himself aga9 ! body he left on ! cross1 & br\ght x ) him out ( its grave4 ,w y take me = a pupil--a disciple--& tea* me to believe--or hope1 if y l t ^w bett]--z y d8 said ,hel5 humbly4 ,h[ ! he>t ( ! curate beat--l ! drum ( a prais+ or*e/ra6 ,de> ,miss ,l+>d1 he answ]$1 v solemnly1 ,i c tea* y no?+2 ,i c b %[ y :]e ,i f\nd :at has *ang$ my life f a bleak ,novemb] to a sunny ,june--) its ?und]-/orms no d\bt--b /ill ,june beside ,novemb]4 ,p]haps ,i c\ld help y a little if y 7 really set out to f9d ,jesus1 b y mu/ y\rself set out4 ,x is y :o mu/ f9d him4 ,words ( m9e1 z ! voice ( "o cry+ 9 ! wild]ness1 may let y "k t "o is ne> :o ?9ks he sees him1 b x is y :o mu/ se>*1 & y :o mu/ f9d4 ,if y d se>*1 y w f9d1 ) or )\t help ( m9e4--,b x is gett+ d>k4--,y h ! key ( ! nor? door1 ,i suppose8 ,yes4 ,!n w y lock ! door1 & take ! key to ,mrs4 ,j5k9s4 ,i w /ay "h a :ile1 & !n foll[ y home1 if y w all[ we1 :]e we c h a little talk toge!r4 ,ah1 :at an an!m ! sil5t organ w play = me6 ,hel5 turn$ & w5t d[n into ! *ur*1 & !nce home4 ,! curate rema9$ ) ! organ4 ,x 0 sil5t1 & s 7 8 lips1 b 8 he>t--! music 0 n lat5t !re1 = 8 praise & ?anksgiv+ asc5d$1 )\t voice or in/rum5t1 ess5tial h>mony1 to ! e> t he>s ?\ght1 & ! he>t t vibrates to e *ord ( feel+ 9 ! he>ts x has creat$4 ,ah6 :at is x we s5d up ?i!r1 :]e our ?\ghts are ei!r a dissonance or a sweetness & a grace8 ,alone 9 ! dusky *ur*1 ! curate's asc5d$ l a song ( ! angels1 = 8 he>t 0 all a ?anksgiv+--n = any p]fect$ gift1 b = _m a lovely hope4 ,he knelt d[n by ! organ & wor%ipp$ ! ,god & ,fa!r ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/--t ,god & no o!r 0 ! ,god ( 8 expectation4 ,:5 he rose f 8 knees1 ! *ur* 0 d>k1 b ?r\gh ! w9d[s ( ! cl]e/ory _m />s 7 %9+4 ,,! ,,end4