,*>les ,franks1 ,*>les ,ald>ondo1 & ! ,onl9e ,di/ribut$ ,pro(read+ ,team4 ,,?omas ,,w+fold1 ,,curate4 ,by ,george ,mac,donald1 ,,ll4,d4 ,,9 ,,?ree ,,volumes4 ,,vol ,,ii4 ,,?omas ,,w+fold1 ,,curate4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,ra*el ,,& ,,h] ,,uncle4 ,x 0 ne>ly d>k :5 !y arriv$ aga9 at ! lodge4 ,ra*el op5$ ! gate = !m4 ,)\t ev5 a ,,?ank ,,y1 !y rode out4 ,%e /ood = a mom5t gaz+ aft] !m ?r\gh ! dusk1 !n turn$ ) a sigh1 & w5t into ! kit*51 :]e h] uncle sat by ! fire ) a book 9 8 h&4 ,h[ ,i %\ld l to be z well made z ,miss ,l+>d6 %e said1 seat+ h]self by ! lamp t /ood on ! deal-table4 ,x ,,mu/ be a f9e ?+ to be /rong & tall1 & able to look ?is way & t )\t turn+ all y\r body along ) y\r head1 l ! old man t ga!rs ! lee*es 9 ,wordswor?'s poem4 ,& :at x mu/ be to sit on a horse z %e does6 ,y %\ld h se5 h] g fly+ l ! v w9d across ! p>k6 ,y w\ld h ?\ght %e & h] horse 7 cut out ( ! same piece4 ,i'm dreadfully envi\s1 uncle4 ,no1 my *ild2 ,i "k y bett] ?an y d y\rself4 ,!re is a great diff]5ce betwe5 ,i ,,wi% ,i ,,0 & ,i ,,%\ld ,,l ,,to ,,be--z mu* z betwe5 a grumble & a pray]4 ,to be cont5t is n to be satisfi$4 ,no "o ought to be satisfi$ ) ! imp]fect4 ,x is ,god's w t we %\ld be>1 & cont5t$ly--because 9 hope1 look+ = ! r$emption ( ! body4 ,& we "k he has a ready s]vant :o w "o day set u free4 ,yes1 uncle2 ,i und]/&4 ,y "k ,i enjoy life3 h[ c\ld ,i help x & y ) me8 ,b ,i don't ?9k ,i ev] g ?r\gh ! *ur*y>d )\t feel+ a sort ( triumph4 ',!re's = y6' ,i say sometimes to ! little crook$ %ad[ t creeps along by my side across ! graves4 ',y'll soon be caught & put inside6'--,b h[ am ,i to tell ,i mayn't be crook$ 9 ! next _w z well z ?is8 ,t's :at tr\bles me at times4 ,!re might be "s necessity = x1 y "k4 ,!n w !re be pati5ce to be> x !re also2 t y may be sure (4 ,b ,i d n fe>4 ,x 7 m likely t ^? :o h n ?ank$ ,god1 b prid$ !mselves t !y 7 beautiful 9 ?is _w1 %\ld be crook$ 9 ! next4 ,x w\ld be l ,dives & ,laz>us1 y "k4 ,b ,god does :at is be/ = !m z well z = u4 ,we %all f9d "o day t beauty & ri*es 7 ! be/ ?+ = ^? to :om !y 7 giv51 z de=mity & pov]ty 7 ! be/ = u4 ,i wond] :at sort ( p]son ,i %\ld h be5 if ,i _h _h a /raight sp9e6 said ,ra*el laugh+4 ,h>dly "o s de> to y\r de=m$ uncle1 said h] companion 9 ugl9ess4 ,!n ,i'm glad ,i am z ,i am1 rejo9$ ,ra*el4 ,?is consci\s individuality ( ours1 said ,polw>?1 aft] a ?\ghtful sil5ce1 is to me an awful ?+--! "o ?+ t seems 9 humanity l ! onl9ess ( ,god4 ,m9e t]rifies me sometimes--look+ a /rang] to me--a limit+ ( myself--a break+ 9 ^u my exi/5ce--l a volcanic outbur/ into ! blue ,sicilian air4 ,:5 x ?us manife/s itself1 ,i f9d no refuge b ! (f]+ ( x back to him :o ?\ght x wor? mak+4 ,i say to him3 ',"l1 x is ?9e1 n m9e2--see to x1 ,"l4 ,?\ & ?y et]nity are m9e1 ,fa!r ( ,jesus ,*ri/4' ,he cov]$ 8 eyes ) 8 h&s1 & 8 lips grew :ite1 & trembl$4 ,?\ght _h turn$ into pray]1 & bo? 7 sil5t = a space4 ,ra*el 0 ! fir/ to speak4 ,i ?9k ,i und]/&1 uncle1 %e said4 ,i don't m9d be+ ,god's dw>f4 ,b ,i w\ld r be made aft] 8 own image2 ?is c't be x4 ,i %\ld l to be made ov] aga94 ,& if ! hope we are sav$ by be no mock]y1 if ,/4 ,paul 0 n ! fool ( 8 own radiant imag9+s1 y w be1 my *ild4--,b n[ let u =get our mis]able bodies4 ,come up to my room1 & ,i w read y a few l9es t came to me ?is morn+ 9 ! p>k4 ,won't y wait = ,mr4 ,w+fold1 uncle8 ,he w be "h yet1 ,i ?9k4 ,x c't be t5 o'clock4 ,he always looks 9 on ,saturdays z he goes home f 8 walk4 ,i %\ld l y to read !m to him too4 ,!y w d him good1 ,i "k4 ,i w\ld1 my de>1 will+ly1 if ,i ?\ght he w\ld c>e = !m4 ,b ,i don't ?9k he w\ld4 ,!y are n good en\gh v]ses4 ,he has be5 br\ght up on ,horace1 &1 ,i fe>1 c\nts ! be/ poetry ! neate/4 ,i ?9k y mu/ be mi/ak5 !re1 uncle2 ,i h he>d him talk delightfully ab\t poetry4 ,y mu/ excuse me if ,i am %y ( read+ my poor "w to any b y\rself1 ,ra*el4 ,my he>t 0 wo mu* 9 x1 & ! subject is s sacr$-- ,i am sorry y %\ld ?9k y\r pe>ls too good to ca/ be=e ,mr4 ,w+fold1 uncle1 said ,ra*el1 ) a t\* ( disappo9t$ temp]4 ,nay1 nay1 *ild1 return$ ,polw>?1 t 0 n a good ?+ to say4 ,:at gives me conc]n is1 t !re is s mu* ( ! r\gh dirty %ell /ick+ ab\t !m1 t to %[ !m w\ld be to wrong ! tru? 9 !m4 ,ra*el seldom took long to rep5t4 ,%e came sl[ly to h] uncle1 :]e he /ood ) ! lamp 9 8 h&1 look+ 9 8 face ) a heav5ly contrition1 & say+ no?+4 ,:5 %e rea*$ him1 %e dropp$ on h] knees1 & kiss$ ! h& t hung by 8 side4 ,h] temp] 0 poor ,ra*el's "o sore-felt tr\ble4 ,polw>? /oop$ & kiss$ h] on ! =ehead1 rais$ h]1 & lead+ h] to ! /air1 /ood aside to let h] g fir/4 ,b :5 %e _h be5 naughty ,ra*el w\ld nev] g be=e h] uncle1 & %e drew back4 ,) a smile ( intellig5ce he yield$ & l$ ! way4 ,b ere !y _h climb$ to ! top1 ,ra*el he>d ,mr4 ,w+fold's /ep1 & w5t d[n aga9 to receive him4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,a ,,dream4 ,invit$ to asc5d1 ,w+fold foll[$ ,ra*el to h] uncle's room1 & !re1 :e!r guid$ by h] or n1 ! conv]sation pres5tly took su* a turn t at l5g?1 ( 8 own motion1 ,polw>? (f]$ to read 8 v]ses4 ,f ! draw] ( 8 table he took a scrat*$ & scor$ half%eet1 &--n 9 ! mo/ melodi\s ( voices1 yet 9 "o ^: h>%ness & weakness c\ld n cov] a c]ta9 ref9em5t ( spiritual t5d]ness--read z foll[s3 ,"l1 he> my discont5t3 ,all blank ,i /&1 ,a mirror poli%$ by ?y h&2 ,?y sun's beams fla% & flame f me-- ,i _c help x3 "h ,i /&1 !re he2 ,to "o ( !m ,i _c say-- ,g1 & on yond] wat] play4 ,nor "o poor ragg$ daisy c ,i fa%ion-- ,i d n make ! words ( ?is my limp+ passion4 ,if ,i %\ld say3 ,n[ ,i w ?9k a ?\ght1 ,lo6 ,i mu/ wait1 unkn[+1 ,:at ?\ght 9 me is gr[+1 ,until ! ?+ to bir? is br\ght2 ,nor "k ,i !n :at next w come ,f out ! gulf ( sil5ce dumb4 ,i am ! door ! ?+ did f9d ,to pass into ! g5]al m9d2 ,i _c say ,i ?9k-- ,i only /& ^u ! ?\ght-well's br9k2 ,f d>kness to ! sun ! wat] bubbles up-- ,i lift x 9 my cup4 ,?\ only ?9ke/--,i am ?\ght2 ,me & my ?\ght ?\ ?9ke/4 ,n\ght ,am ,i b z a f\nta9 sp\t ,f :i* ?y wat] welle? out4 ,?\ art ! only ,"o1 ! ,all 9 all4 --,yet :5 my s\l on !e do? call ,& ?\ do/ answ] out ( ev]y:]e1 ,i 9 ?y allness h my p]fect %>e4 ,:ile he read ,ra*el crept to 8 knee1 knelt d[n1 & laid h] head ^u x4 ,if we are b ! creatures ( a day1 yet surely 7 ! %ad[-joys ( ?is mis]able pair n m]ely nobl] 9 _! ess5ce1 b f9] to ! s\l's palate ?an ! %ad[-joys ( "y ,h]cules ,bascombe--,hel5 & horses & all6 ,poor ,hel5 ,i _c use = comp>ison1 = %e _h no joy1 save inde$ ! v div9e1 ?\gh at pres5t unblossom+ "o ( si/]ly love4 ,/ill1 & not)/&+1 if ! facts ( life are ^? ( ,george ,bascombe's endors+--,,& ,,he ,,c ,,prove ,,x--let u by all means le>n & accept !m1 be !y ! wor/ possible4 ,meantime !re are tru?s t ought to be facts1 & until he has prov$ t !re is no ,god1 "s ( u w g feel+ aft] him if haply we may f9d him1 & 9 him ! tru?s we long to f9d true4 ,"s ( u p]haps ?9k we h se5 him f af>1 b we only "k ! bett] t 9 ! mood :]e9 su* z ,bascombe are1 !y w nev] f9d him--:i* w\ld no d\bt be to !m a com=t 7 x n = a laught]4 ,& if he be su* z _! idea ( :at we ?9k him1 !y ,,are bett] )\t him4 ,if1 on ! contr>y1 he be :at "s ( u really ?9k him1 _! n seek+ him w n p]haps prev5t him f f9d+ !m4 ,f lik5ess ( nature1 community ( feel+1 con/ant int]c\rse1 & p]fect confid5ce1 ,ra*el und]/ood h] uncle's v]ses ) suffici5t ease to enjoy !m at once 9 "p1 &1 = ! re/1 to g on ?9k+ 9 ! direction 9 :i* !y w\ld c>ry h]2 b ,w+fold1 9 :om hone/y ( disposition _h blossom$ at la/ into hone/y ( action1 aft] fitt+ pause1 dur+ :i* no ^w 0 spok51 said3-- ,mr4 ,polw>?1 :]e v]se is conc]n$1 ,i am simply /upid3 :5 read ,i _c foll[ x4 ,i did n und]/& ! half ( t poem4 ,i nev] h be5 a /ud5t ( ,engli% v]se1 & inde$ t "p ( my nature :i* has to d ) poetry1 has be5 a good deal neglect$4 ,w y let me take ^? v]ses home ) me8 ,i _c d t1 = !y are n legible2 b ,i w copy !m out = y4 ,w y give me !m to-morr[8 ,%all y be at *ur*8 ,t %all be j z y please3 w\ld y r h me !re or n8 ,a ?\s& times r1 answ]$ ! curate4 ,to h "o man !re :o kn[s :at ,i mean bett] ?an ,i c say x1 is to h a d\ble s\l & d\ble c\rage4--,b ,i came to-night ma9ly to tell y t ,i h be5 mu* puzzl$ ?is la/ week to "k h[ ,i ought to reg>d ! ,bible--,i mean z to its inspiration4 ,:at am ,i to say ab\t x8 ,^? are two di/9ct ?+s4 ,:y ?9k ( say+ ab\t x1 be=e y h any?+ to say8 ,= y\rself1 h[ev]1 let me ask if y h n already f\nd 9 ! book ! highe/ means ( spiritual education & developm5t y h yet met )8 ,if s1 may n t suffice = ! pres5t8 ,x is ! man ,*ri/ ,jesus we h to "k1 & ! ,bible we h to use to t end--n = !ory or dogma4--,i w tell y a /range dream ,i _h once1 n long ago4 ,ra*el's face bright5$4 ,%e rose1 got a little /ool1 & sett+ x d[n close by ! *air on :i* h] uncle 0 p]*$1 seat$ h]self at 8 feet1 ) h] eyes on ! gr\nd1 to li/54 ,ab\t two ye>s ago1 said ,polw>?1 a fri5d s5t me ,tau*nitz's edition ( ! ,engli% ,new ,te/am5t1 :i* has ! diff]5t read+s ( ! ?ree olde/ kn[n manuscripts translat$ at ! foot ( ! page4 ,! edition 0 prep>$ *iefly = ! sake ( %[+ ! results ( ! collation ( ! ,s9aitic manuscript1 ! olde/ ( all1 s nam$ because x 0 f\nd--a few ye>s ago1 by ,tis*5dorf--9 a mona/]y on ,m\nt ,s9ai--n[h]e else ?an !re6 ,i receiv$ x ) su* exultation z br\ght on an attack ( a/hma1 & ,i c\ld sc>ce op5 x = a week1 b lay ) x "u my pill[4 ,:5 ,i did come to look at x1 my ma9 wond] 0 to f9d ! diff]5ces f ! common v]sion s few & small4 ,/ill !re 7 "s su* z gave rise to a feel+ f> above m]e int]e/--"o 9 p>ticul>1 ! abs5ce ( a ^w t _h tr\bl$ me1 n seem+ l a ^w ( our ,"l1 or consonant ) 8 tea*+4 ,i am unaw>e :e!r ! passage has ev] giv5 rise to controv]sy4 ,may ,i ask :at ^w x 08 int]rupt$ ,w+fold1 eag]ly4 ,i w n say1 return$ ,polw>?4 ,n hav+ tr\bl$ y1 y w\ld probably only wond] :y x %\ld h tr\bl$ me4 ,= my purpose 9 m5tion+ ! matt]1 x is en\gh to say t ,i _h turn$ ) eag]ness to ! passage :]e9 x occurs1 z giv5 9 two ( ! gospels 9 our v]sion4 ,judge my delight 9 discov]+ t 9 ! "o gospel ! :ole passage 0 omitt$ by ! two olde/ manuscripts1 & 9 ! o!r j ! "o ^w t _h tr\bl$ me1 by ! same two4 ,i w\ld n h y suppose me fooli% en\gh to imag9e t ! olde/ manuscript mu/ be ! mo/ correct2 b y w at once und]/& ! s5se ( room & air :i* ! discov]y gave me not)/&+1 & ,i m5tion x because x goes bo? to acc\nt = ! dream t foll[$ & to en=ce its tru?4 ,pray d n h[ev] imag9e me a believ] 9 dreams m ?an 9 any o!r s\rce ( m5tal impressions4 ,if a dream reveal a pr9ciple1 t pr9ciple is a revelation1 & ! dream is nei!r m ,,nor ,,less valuable ?an a wak+ ?\ght t does ! same4 ,! tru? convey$ is ! revelation4 ,i d n d5y t facts h be5 le>n$ 9 dreams1 b ,i w\ld nev] call ! communication ( a m]e fact a revelation4 ,tru? alone1 beheld z su* by ! s\l1 is wor?y ( ! "n4 ,facts1 h[ev]1 may !mselves be ! in/rum5ts ( su* revelation4 ,! dream ,i am n[ go+ to tell y 0 cle>ly en\gh l$ up to by my wak+ ?\ghts4 ,= ,i _h be5 say+ to myself ere ,i fell asleep3 ',on ! v ,m\nt ,s9ai1 t once burn$ ) heav5ly fire1 & res\nd$ ) ! ?und] ( a visible ,pres5ce1 n[ old & cold1 & swa!d 9 ! mi/s ( leg5d & d\bt1 0 discov]$ ! mo/ rev]5d1 because mo/ anci5t record ( ! new disp5sation :i* de?ron$ t m\nta91 & sil5c$ ! ?und]s ( ! p$agogue law6 ,is x n possible t yet1 9 "s anci5t conv5t1 insignificant to ! eye ( ! travell] z mod]n ,naz>e? w\ld be b = its anci5t /ory1 "s "o ( ! orig9al gospel-manuscripts may lie1 tru?ful & unblott$ f ! h& ( ! v evangeli/8--,oh lovely p>*m5t6' ,i ?\ght--'if eye ( man might b see !e6 if lips ( man might kiss !e6' & my he>t swell$ l ! he>t ( a lov] at ! ?\ght ( su* a boon4--,n[1 z y "k1 ,i live 9 a sort ( live c(f9 "h1 cont9u$ ! little man1 /rik+ 8 pigeon-brea/1 ) a b>rel-organ ( discords 9 x1 con/antly out ( ord] 9 "o way or ano!r2 & h5ce x comes t my sleep is s imp]fect1 & my dreams run m ?an is usual1 z ,i believe1 on 9 ! direction ( my la/ wak+ ?\ghts4 ,well1 t night1 ,i dream$ ?us3 ,i 0 9 a des]t4 ,x 0 nei!r day nor night to me4 ,i saw nei!r sun1 moon1 nor />s4 ,a heavy1 yet half-lum9\s cl\d hung ov] ! visible e>?4 ,my he>t 0 beat+ fa/ & high1 = ,i 0 j\rney+ t[>ds a c]ta9 ,arm5ian conv5t1 :]e ,i _h good gr\nd = hop+ ,i %\ld f9d ! orig9al manuscript ( ! f\r? gospel1 ! v h&writ+ ( ! apo/le ,john4 ,t ! old man did n write x himself1 ,i nev] ?\ght ( t 9 my dream4 ,aft] ,i _h walk$ on = a long1 any?+ b we>y "t1 ,i saw ! level horizon l9e be=e me brok5 by a rock1 z x seem$1 ris+ f ! pla9 ( ! des]t4 ,i knew x 0 ! mona/]y4 ,x 0 _m miles away1 & z ,i j\rney$ on x grew & grew1 until x swell$ huge z a hill aga9/ ! sky4 ,at l5g? ,i came up to ! door1 iron-clamp$1 deep-set 9 a l[ ?ick wall4 ,x /ood wide op54 ,i ent]$1 cross$ a c\rt1 rea*$ ! door ( ! mona/]y itself1 & aga9 ent]$4 ,e door to :i* ,i came /ood op51 b prie/ nor guide came to meet me1 & ,i saw no man1 & at l5g? look$ = none1 b us$ my be/ judgm5t to get deep] & deep] into ! build+1 = ,i sc>ce d\bt$ t 9 its inmo/ p5etralia ,i %\ld f9d ! treasure ,i s\ght4 ,at la/ ,i /ood be=e a door hung ) a curta9 ( ri* workman%ip1 torn 9 ! middle f top to bottom4 ,?r\gh ! r5t ,i pass$ into a /one cell4 ,9 ! cell /ood a table4 ,on ! table 0 a clos$ book4 ,oh h[ my he>t beat6 ,nev] b !n h ,i kn[n ! feel+ ( utt] preci\sness 9 a ?+ possess$4 ,:at d\bts & fe>s w\ld n ?is "o lovely1 oh unutt]ably belov$ volume1 lay at re/ = ev]6 ,h[ my eyes w\ld dwell ^u e /roke ( e lett] ! h& ( ! de>e/ disciple _h =m$6 ,ne>ly eighte5 hundr$ ye>s--& !re x lay6--& !re ,,0 a man :o ,,did he> ! ,ma/] say ! words1 & did set !m d[n6 ,i /ood motionless1 & my s\l seem$ to w9d itself among ! leaves1 :ile my body /ood l a pill> ( salt1 lo/ 9 its own gaze4 ,at la/1 ) sudd5 d>+1 ,i made a /ep t[>ds ! table1 &1 b5d+ ) awe1 /ret*$ out my h& to lay x ^u ! book4 ,b ere my h& rea*$ x1 ano!r h&1 f ! opposite side ( ! table1 appe>$ ^u x--an old1 blue-ve9$1 b p[]ful h&4 ,i look$ up4 ,!re /ood ! belov$ disciple6 ,8 c\nt5ance 0 z a mirror :i* %one back ! face ( ! ,ma/]4 ,sl[ly he lift$ ! book1 & turn$ away4 ,!n fir/ ,i saw beh9d him z x 7 an alt> :]eon a fire ( wood 0 burn+1 & a pang ( dismay %ot to my he>t1 = ,i knew :at he 0 ab\t to d4 ,he laid ! book on ! burn+ wood1 & reg>d$ x ) a smile z x %runk & %rivell$ & sm\ld]$ to a%es4 ,!n he turn$ to me & said1 :ile a p]fect heav5 ( peace %one 9 8 eyes3 ',son ( man1 ! ,^w ( ,god live? & abide? = ev]1 n 9 ! volume ( ! book1 b 9 ! he>t ( ! man t 9 love obeye? him4 ,& !re) ,i awoke weep+1 b ) ! lesson ( my dream4 ,a deep sil5ce fell on ! little company4 ,!n said ,w+fold1 ,i tru/ ,i h ! lesson too4 ,he rose1 %ook h&s ) !m1 &1 )\t ano!r ^w1 w5t home4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,ano!r ,,s]mon4 ,x (t5 seems to ^? 9 e>ne/ ab\t ! "r z if all ?+s conspir$ to prev5t _! progress4 ,?is ( c\rse is b an appe>ance1 aris+ 9 "p f ?is1 t ! pilgrim mu/ be head$ back f ! side pa?s into :i* he is con/antly w&]+4 ,to ,w+fold1 h[ev]1 x seem$ t all ?+s fell 9 to fur!r 8 que/1 :i* w n be s surpris+ if we rememb] t 8 0 no int]mitt5t rep5tant seek+1 b ! /ruggle ( 8 :ole en]gy4 ,& !re are ^? :o1 9 _! v fir/ seek+ ( x1 are ne>] to ! k+dom ( heav5 ?an _m :o h = ye>s believ$ !mselves ( x4 ,9 ! =m] !re is m ( ! m9d ( ,jesus1 & :5 he calls !m !y recognize him at once & g aft] him2 :ile ! o!rs exam9e him f head to foot1 &1 f9d+ him n suffici5tly l ! ,jesus ( _! conception1 turn _! backs1 & g to *ur*1 or *apel1 or *amb]1 to kneel be=e a vague =m m+l$ ( tradition & fancy4 ,b ! fir/ %all be la/1 & ! la/ fir/2 & !re are f :om1 be x p5ny or be x p\nd1 :at !y h mu/ be tak5 away because ) !m x lies useless4 ,= ,w+fold1 he soon f\nd t 8 nature 0 be+ /irr$ to dep?s unsuspect$ be=e4 ,hi!rto no?+ _h ev] r\s$ him to g5u9e activity3 8 hi/ory n v happy2 8 life n v int]e/+1 8 "w n cong5ial1 & pay+ itself 9 no satisfaction1 8 pleasures ( a cold & common intellectual sort1--he _h dragg$ along1 su/a9$1 )\t ! s5se ( its su/5tation1 by ! g]m )9 him ( a sl[ly develop+ hone/y4 ,b n[ t ,consci5ce _h got up into ! gu>d's seat1 & ,w _h tak5 ! re9s1 he f\nd all 8 intellectual faculties 9 full play1 keep+ well toge!r1 heads up & traces tight1 :ile ! outrid] ,imag9ation1 ) 8 spott$ dog ,fancy1 0 always f> ahead1 b nev] beyond ! s\nd ( ! gu>d's horn2 & ev] z !y w5t1 object aft] object hi!rto beyond ! radius ( 8 int]e/1 rose on ! horizon ( "q1 & began to glimm] 9 ! dawn ( human relation4 ,8 fir/ s]mon is en\gh to %[ t he _h begun to h ?\ghts ( 8 own--a v diff]5t ?+ f ! ent]ta9+ ( ! ?\ghts ( o!rs1 h[ev] well we may fe$ & lodge !m--?\ghts :i* came to him n z ?+s :i* s\ght an entrance1 b z ?+s t s\ght an exit--cri$ = =ms ( embodim5t t !y might pass out ( ! inf9ite1 & by inc>nation become communicable4 ,! news ( t /range fir/ s]mon _h ( c\rse spread ?r\gh ! t[n1 & ! p came to *ur* ! next ,sunday 9 cr[ds-- twice z _m z ! usual assembly--"s :o w5t seldom1 "s :o w5t n[h]e1 "s :o belong$ to o!r congregations & communities--mo/ly b5t on witness+ :atev] ecc5tricity ! v peculi> "y man might be guilty ( next1 b hav+ a few among !m :o 7 sympa!tically int]e/$ 9 see+ h[ f> 8 call1 if call x 01 w\ld lead him4 ,8 second s]mon 0 to ! same purport z ! fir/4 ,prepos+ no text1 he spoke to ! foll[+ effect1 & inde$ ! foll[+ are ( ! v words he utt]$3 ,! *ur* :]e9 y n[ li/51 my he>]s1 ! pulpit :]e9 ,i n[ speak1 /& "h f ( old 9 ! "n ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,:at is ,*ri/ianity8 ,i "k b "o def9ition1 ! analysis ( :i*1 if ! ?+ 9 "q be a tru?1 mu/ be ! joy\s lab\r ( e dev\t he>t to all et]nity4 ,= ,*ri/ianity does n mean :at y ?9k or :at ,i ?9k conc]n+ ,*ri/1 b :at ,,is ,,( ,*ri/4 ,my ,*ri/ianity1 if ev] ,i come to h any1 w be :at ( ,*ri/ is 9 me2 y\r ,*ri/ianity n[ is :at ( ,*ri/ is 9 y4 ,la/ ,sunday ,i %[$ y our ,"l's v words--t he1 & no o!r1 0 8 disciple :o did :at he told him1--& said !re=e t ,i d>$ n call myself a disciple4 ,i say ! same ?+ 9 say+ n[ t ,i d>e n call myself a ,*ri/ian1 le/ ,i %\ld (f5d him ) my ',"l1 ,"l6' ,/ill x is1 & ,i _c n[ help x1 9 ! "n ( ,*ri/ianity t ,i "h /&4 ,i h1 alas1 ) blameful & appall+ ?\ghtlessness ,i subscrib$ my "n1 z a believ]1 to ! ,articles ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 ) no bett] reason ?an t ,i 0 unaw>e ( any diss5t !refrom1 & h be5 orda9$ "o ( h] m9i/]s4 ,! relations into :i* ?is has br\ght me ,i d n feel ju/ifi$ 9 sev]+ at once1 le/ ,i %\ld !re9 seem to d5y t :i* its own illum9ation may yet %[ me to be true1 & ,i desire !re=e a little respite & room = ?\ght & resolve4 ,b meantime x rema9s my bus9ess1 z an hone/ man 9 ! employm5t ( ! *ur*1 to d my be/ t[>ds ! sett+ =? ('! claims ( him ^u :om t *ur* is f\nd$1 & 9 ^: "n %e exi/s4 ,z "o /&+ on ! outskirts ( a li/5+ ,galilean cr[d1 a ^w comes n[ & !n to my hungry e>s & hungri] he>t3 ,i turn & tell x aga9 to y--n t ye h n he>d x also1 b t ,i may /ir y up to ask y\rselves3 ',d ,i !n obey ?is ^w8 ,h ,i ev]1 h ,i once s\ght to obey x8 ,am ,i a pupil ( ,jesus8 ,am ,i a ,*ri/ian8' ,he> !n ( 8 words4 ,= me1 !y fill my he>t ) d\bt & dismay4 ,! ,"l says3 ,love y\r enemies4 ,saye/ ?\1 ,x is impossible8 ,!n do/ ?\ mock ! ^w ( him :o said1 ,i am ! ,tru?1 & has no "p 9 him4 ,saye/ ?\1 ,alas1 ,i _c8 ,?\ saye/ true1 ,i d\bt n4 ,b ha/ ?\ tri$ :e!r he :o made w n increase ! /r5g? put =? to obey him8 ,! ,"l says3 ,be ye p]fect4 ,do/ ?\ !n aim aft] p]fection1 or do/ ?\ excuse ?y wilful %ort-com+s1 & say1 ,to err is human--nor hope/ t x may also be f\nd human to gr[ div9e8 ,!n ask ?yself1 = ?\ ha/ good cause1 :e!r ?\ ha/ any "p 9 him4 ,! ,"l said1 ,lay n up = y\rselves treasures on e>?4 ,my "p is n n[ to prea* aga9/ ! love ( money1 b to ask y3 ,are y lay+ up = y\rselves treasures on e>?8 ,z to :at ! comm& means1 ! hone/ he>t & ! di%one/ mu/ ea* settle 9 8 own way2 b if y\r he>t condemn y1 :at ,i h to say is1 ,call n y\rselves ,*ri/ians1 b consid] :e!r y ought n to become disciples inde$4 ,no d\bt y c in/ance ?is1 t1 & ! o!r man :o does z y d1 & ( :om yet no man dreams ( que/ion+ ! ,*ri/ianity3 x matt]s n a hair2 all t goes b to say t y are pagans toge!r4 ,d n mi/ake me3 ,i judge y n4 ,i b ask y1 z m\?piece mo/ unwor?y ( t ,*ri/ianity 9 ! "n ( :i* ?is build+ /&s & we are met !re91 to judge y\r own selves by ! words ( its f\nd]4 ,! ,"l said3 ,take no ?\ght = y\r life4 ,take no ?\ght = ! morr[4 ,expla9 x z y may or c--b ask y\rselves--,d ,i take no ?\ght = my life8 ,d ,i take no ?\ght = ! morr[8 & answ] to y\rselves :e!r or no ye are ,*ri/ians4 ,! ,"l says3 ,judge n4 ,did/ ?\ judge ?y neighb\r ye/]day8 ,wilt ?\ judge him aga9 to-morr[8 ,art ?on judg+ him n[ 9 ! v he>t t )9 ?y bosom sits he>+ ! words ,judge n8 ,or wilt ?\ ask yet aga9--,:o is my neighb\r8 ,h[ !n can/ ?\ look to be ( ^? t %all ent] ?r\gh ! gates into ! city8 ,i tell !e n1 = ,i pr(ess n yet to "k any?+1 b do? n ?y own pr(ession ( ,*ri/ianity c\nsel !e to fall ^u ?y face1 & cry to him :om ?\ mocke/1 ',i am a s9ful man1 ,o ,"l'8 ,! ,"l said3 ,all ?+s :atsoev] ye w\ld t m5 %\ld d to y1 d ye ev5 s to !m4 ,ye t buy & sell1 d y obey ?is law8 ,exam9e y\rselves & see4 ,ye w\ld t m5 %\ld deal fairly by y2 d y deal fairly by !m z ye w\ld c\nt fairness 9 !m to y8--,if consci5ce makes y hang ! head inw>dly1 h[ev] y sit ) x erect 9 ! pew1 d>e y add to y\r crime aga9/ ! law & ! prophets ! insult to ,*ri/ ( call+ y\rselves 8 disciples8 ,n e "o t sai? unto me1 ,"l1 ,"l1 %all ent] into ! k+dom ( heav51 b he t doe? ! w ( my ,fa!r :i* is 9 heav54 ,he w none b ^? :o ) him d ! w ( ! ,fa!r4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,nurs+4 ,i h ( c\rse giv5 b ! sp9e & ribs1 z x 71 ( ! s]mon4 ,!re is no place = m4 ,x is en\gh h[ev] to %[ t he came to ! po9t--& :at c be bett] 9 prea*+8 ,c]ta9ly he 0 mak+ ! be/ ( ! blund] t _h l$ him up into t pulpit6 ,& on ! o!r h&1 :atev] might be ! v>i\s judgm5ts & op9ions ( 8 he>]s 9 respect ( ! s]mon--a ?+ ab\t :i* ! less any prea*] all[s himself to ?9k ! bett]--_m ( !m did actually feel t he _h be5 prea*+ to !m1 :i* is say+ mu*4 ,ev5 ,mrs4 ,ram%orn 0 m sil5t ?an usual z !y w5t home1 & al?\gh--n hav+ acqua9t$ h]self1 among/ o!rs1 ) ! s]mons ( ,latim]--%e 0 pr(\ndly conv9c$ t su* prea*+ 0 altoge!r contr>y to ! tradition1 usage1 & tone ( ! ,engli% ,*ur*1 ( :i* h] dep>t$ dean rema9$ to h] ! unimpea*able embodim5t & type1 ! sole rem>k %e made 01 t ,mr4 ,w+fold took q too mu* pa9s to prove himself a pagan4 ,mr4 ,bascombe 0 9 ! same m9d z be=e4 ,i l ! fell[1 he said4 ,he says :at he means1 fair & full1 & no %illy-%ally+4 ,x's all great rubbi%1 ( c\rse6 ,& ! wid[ ( ! dean ( bless$ memory _h n a ^w to say 9 def5ce ( ! s]mon1 b1 = h]1 let x g z ! great rubbi% he call$ x4 ,inde$1 n kn[+ ! real m9d ( h] nephew1 %e 0 no?+ less ?an gratifi$ to he> f him an op9ion s com=tably ho/ile to t ( ?is mo/ uncom=table ( curates1 :om y nev] c\ld tell :]e to h1 & :om nev] s9ce he _h confess$ to wrong 9 ! read+ ( 8 uncle's s]mons1 & ?us unwitt+ly ca/ a reproa* ^u ! memory ( him :o _h dep>t$ f ! h>ass$ company ( deans militant to ! bless$ company ( deans triumphant1 _h %e invit$ to %>e at h] table ( ! good ?+s left beh9d4 ,:y don't y ask him home to d9n]1 aunt8 said ,bascombe1 aft] a pause unbrok5 by ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,:y %\ld ,i1 ,george8 return$ 8 aunt4 ,has he n be5 abus+ u all at a mo/ ignorant & furi\s rate8 ,oh6 ,i didn't "k1 said ! nephew1 & held 8 peace4 ,nor did ! aunt p]ceive ! s>casm = ! sake ( po9t+ :i* he 0 sil5t4 ,b x 0 n lo/1 & ,george 0 paid 9 full by ! flick] ( a fa9t smile across ,hel5's face4 ,z = ,hel51 ! s]mon _h inde$ laid a sort ( feebly electrical hold ^u h]1 ! m]e n]v\s influ5ce ( hone/y & e>ne/ness4 ,b %e c\ld n accuse h]self ( hav+ ev] made a prom95t pr(ession ( ,*ri/ianity1 confirmation & communion not)/&+2 & besides1 _h %e n n[ all b abjur$ ! :ole ?+ 9 h] he>t8 s t1 if e ^w ( :at he said 0 true1 n a ^w ( x c\ld be appli$ to h]6 ,& :at "t _h %e to ?9k ab\t su* f>-away ?+s z _h happ5$ eighte5 c5turies ago1 :5 !re 0 h] "o d>l+ p9+ away ) a black weight on 8 he>t6 ,=1 al?\gh ,leopold 0 gradually recov]+1 a supreme dejection1 = :i* 8 weakness 0 insuffici5t to acc\nt1 pro/rat$ 8 _s1 & at l5g? drove ,mr4 ,fab] to ask ,hel5 :e!r %e knew ( any disappo9tm5t or o!r s\rce ( m5tal suff]+ t c\ld expla9 x4 ,%e told him ( ! habit he _h =m$1 & ask$ :e!r 8 be+ depriv$ ( ! n>cotic might n be ! cause4 ,he accept$ ! sugge/ion1 & set himself1 n )\t "s success1 to repair ! injury ! abuse _h occasion$4 ,/ill1 al?\gh 8 physical condition pla9ly improv$1 ! dejection cont9u$1 & ,mr4 ,fab] 0 ?r[n back ^u 8 =m] conjecture4 ,le>n+ no?+1 h[ev]1 & yet f9d+ t1 z he advanc$ t[>ds heal?1 8 dejection pla9ly deep5$1 he began at l5g? to fe> s(t5+ ( ! bra91 b c\ld discov] no o!r symptom ( su* disease4 ,! e>ne/ness ( ! doctor's que/ aft] a cause = :at anyone might obs]ve1 add$ greatly to ,hel5's uneas9ess2 & besides1 ! fact itself began to und]m9e ! hope ( 8 innoc5ce :i* _h aga9 sprung up & almo/ gr[n to assurance 9 ! abs5ce ( any fre% contradiction f )\t4 ,also1 z 8 heal? return$1 8 sleep became m tr\bl$2 he dream$ m1 & %[$ by 8 increas$ agitation 9 8 dreams t !y 7 m pa9ful4 ,9 ?is respect 8 condition 0 at ! wor/ always betwe5 two & ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+2 & hav+ p]ceiv$ ?is fact1 ,hel5 w\ld nev] all[ anyone except h]self to sit up ) him ! fir/ "p ( ! night4 ,increas$ anxiety & cont9u$ wat*+ soon told ^u h] heal? yet m sev]ely1 & %e lo/ appetite & complexion4 ,/ill %e slept well dur+ ! latt] "p ( ! morn+1 & x 0 9 va9 t aunt & doctor & nurse all expo/ulat$ ) h] ^u ! excess ( h] m9i/ration3 no?+ %\ld make h] yield ! po/ until h] bro!r 0 himself aga94 ,nor 0 %e )\t h] rew>d1 & t a suffic+ "o--9 ! love & gratitude ) :i* ,leopold clung to h]4 ,dur+ ! day also %e sp5t e mom5t1 except su* z %e pass$ 9 ! op5 air1 & at table ) h] aunt1 by 8 b$side1 read+ & talk+ to him2 b z yet n a s+le allusion _h be5 made to ! frightful secret4 ,at l5g? he 0 s mu* bett] t !re 0 no long] ne$ = anyone to sit up ) him2 b !n ,hel5 _h h] b$ put 9 ! dress+-room1 t at "o o'clock %e might be by 8 side1 to sit !re until ?ree %\ld be well ov] & gone4 ,?us %e gave up h] :ole life to him1 & d\btless !reby ga9$ mu* fre% int]e/ 9 x = h]self4 ,b ! weight ( ! secret1 & ! dread ( ! law1 7 too mu* = h]1 & 7 gradually und]m9+ t /r5g? ( dissimulation 9 :i* %e _h tru/$1 & :i*1 9 respect ( *e]fulness1 %e _h to ex]cise t[>ds h] bro!r z well z h] aunt4 ,%e /ruggl$ h>d1 = if ^? weak despair+ eyes ( 8 7 to enc\nt] weakness & despair 9 h]s1 madness itself w\ld be at ! door = bo?4 ,%e _h come ne>ly to ! po9t ( discov]+ t ! s\l is n capable ( g5]at+ its own requirem5ts1 t x ne$s to be suppli$ f a well ^: spr+s lie deep] ?an its own soil1 9 ! inf9ite ,all1 namely1 ^u :i* t soil re/s4 ,happy !y :o h f\nd t ^? spr+s h an outlet 9 _! he>ts--on ! hill ( pray]4 ,x 0 v difficult to lay h] h&s on read+ t suit$ him4 ,gift$ ) a gl[+ yet delicate ea/]n imag9ation1 pamp]$ & all b ru9$1 he 0 impati5t ( n>ratives ( common life1 ^: curr5t bore him to a res]voir & no sea2 :ile1 on ! o!r h&1 "s tales t seem$ to ,hel5 pov]ty-/rick5 flats ( nons5se1 or jumbles ( false inv5tion1 w\ld 9 h] bro!r wake an int]e/ %e c\ld n und]/&1 appe>+ to af=d him outlooks into regions to h] unkn[n4 ,b f ! moral elem5t 9 any /ory he %runk visibly4 ,%e tri$ ! ,g]man tales collect$ by ! bro!rs ,grimm1 s popul> ) *ildr5 ( all ages2 b on ! v fir/ attempt %e blund]$ into an awful "o ( murd] & v5geance1 9 :i*1 if ! draw+ 0 untrue1 ! col\r 0 /rong1 & _h to blund] clumsily out ( x aga91 ) a hot face & a cold he>t4 ,at l5g? %e betook h]self to ! ,?\s& & ,"o ,nights1 :i* %e _h nev] read1 & f\nd v dull1 b :i* ) ,leopold s]v$ = :at book c\ld d4 ,9 ! re/ ( ! h\se ?+s w5t on mu* ! same4 ,old fri5ds & _! daught]s call$ on ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 & inquir$ aft] ! invalid1 & ,george ,bascombe came almo/ e ,saturday1 & /ay$ till ,monday4 ,b ! mom5t ! tide ( h] tr\ble began aga9 to rise1 ,hel5 f\nd h]self less desir\s ( meet+ "o f :om %e c\ld hope nei!r help nor *e]4 ,x might be t future g5]ations ( ! dea?-doom$ might pass _! poor life a little m com=tably t %e _h n be5 a bad woman1 & %e might be privileg$ to pass away f ! _w1 z ,george taught h]1 )\t e>n+ ! curses ( ^? t came aft] h]2 b !re 0 h] preci\s bro!r ly+ be=e h] ) a horrible worm gnaw+ at 8 he>t1 & :at to h] 7 a ?\s& g5]ations unborn6 ,r ) ,macbe? %e might well wi% ! e/ate o' ! _w 7 n[ undone--mo/ ( all :51 9 ! sil5t wat*es ( ! night1 z %e sat by ! b$side ( h] belov$ & he slept1 8 voice w\ld come murmur+ out ( a dream1 s\nd+ s f> away t x seem$ z if 8 _s only & n 8 lips _h spok5 ! words1 ,oh ,hel51 d>l+1 give me my knife4 ,:y w y n let me die8 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,gla/on ,,& ,,! ,,curate4 ,outside1 ! sun rose & set1 nev] a crimson ?read ! less 9 ! g>m5t ( 8 glory t ! _s ( "o ( ! *ildr5 ( ! e>? 0 /a9$ ) blood-guilt9ess2 ! moon came up & knew no?+ ( ! matt]2 ! />s m9d$ _! own bus9ess2 & ! p ( ,gla/on 7 talk+ ab\t _! curate's s]mons4 ,alas1 x 0 ab\t 8 s]mons1 & n ! subject ( !m1 t m5 talk$1 _! int]e/ ma9ly r\s$ by _! ,,peculi>ity1 & :at "s call$ ! oddity ( ! prea*]4 ,:at _h come to him8 ,he 0 n 9 ! lea/ l t = mon?s aft] 8 appo9tm5t1 & ! *ange came all at once6 ,yes--x began ) ^? extravagant notions ab\t hone/y 9 writ+ 8 own s]mons6 ,x might h be5 a sun/roke1 b x took him f> too e>ly 9 ! ye> = t6 ,s(t5+ ( ! bra9 x might be1 poor fell[6 ,0 n excessive vanity sometimes a symptom8--,poor fell[6 ,s said "s4 ,b o!rs said he 0 a clev] fell[1 & long-head$ en\gh to "k t t sort ( ?+ attract$ att5tion1 & might op5 ! way to a b5efice1 or at lea/ an engagem5t 9 ,london1 :]e eloqu5ce 0 ( m acc\nt ?an 9 a dead-&-alive c\ntry place l ,gla/on1 f :i* ! tide ( grace _h ebb$1 leav+ t great %ip ( ! *ur*1 ! ,abbey1 high & dry on ! %ore4 ,o!rs aga9 judg$ him a fanatic--a dang]\s man4 ,su* did n all v5ture to ass]t t he _h err$ f ! way1 b :at man 0 m dang]\s ?an he :o w5t too f>8 ,possibly ^! =got t ! n>r[ way c h>dly be "o to sit d[n 9 com=tably1 or inde$ to be ent]$ at all save by him :o tries ! gate ) ! int5t ( go+ all ! way--ev5 %\ld x lead up to ! p]fection ( ! ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,b1 !y w\ld 9 effect h argu$1 is n a fanatic dang]\s8 & is n an en?usia/ always 9 p]il ( becom+ a fanatic8--,be 8 en?usiasm = :at x may--= ,jesus ,*ri/1 = ,god himself1 su* a man is dang]\s-- mo/ dang]\s6 ,!re are s _m ?+s1 com=tably settl$ l ,presumption's tubs ^u _! own bottoms1 :i* su* m5 w\ld1 if !y c\ld1 at once upset & empty6 ,o!rs suspect$ a ,romaniz+ drift 9 ! :ole affair4 ,wait until he ga!rs influ5ce1 !y said1 & a h&ful ( foll[]s1 & !n y'll see6 ,!y'll be all back to ,rome toge!r 9 a mon?6 ,z ! w9d took by ! tail ,/4 ,pet]'s cock on ! *ur* spire & :irl$ x ab\t1 s did ! w9d ( words 9 ,gla/on rudely seize & flack hi!r & ?i!r ! spiritual reputation ( ,?omas ,w+fold1 curate4 ,& all ! "t1 ! "y man 0 wre/l+1 8 life 9 8 h&1 ) 8 own unbelief2 :ile ^u 8 horizon ev] & anon rose ! glimm] ( a great aurora1 or ! glimpse ( a b\ndless ma9--if only he c\ld h be5 sure !y 7 no mirage ( 8 own p>*$ he>t & hungry eye--t !y 7 ?\ghts 9 ! m9d ( ! ,et]nal1 & ,,?r]=e _h appe>$ 9 81 ev5 z ! ,^w 0 said to h become fle% & dwelt ) m56 ,! next mom5t he w\ld be gasp+ 9 t mal>i\s exhalation f ! m>%es ( 8 neglect$ he>t--! c\nt]-fe>1 namely1 t ! ^w "u ^: pot5t radiance ! _w seem$ on ! v]ge ( budd+ =? & blossom+ z ! rose1 0 ,,too ,,good ,,to ,,be ,,true4 ,yes1 mu* too good1 if !re be no liv+1 self-will+ ,good1 said ,polw>? "o ev5+1 9 answ] to ! phrase j dropp$ f 8 lips4 ,b if !re be su* a ,god z alone c\ld be ,god1 c any?+ be too good to be true8--too good = su* a ,god z cont5t$ ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,at "o mom5t he 0 ready to believe ev]y?+1 ev5 to t /range/1 yet to me "r cr$ible miracle ( ! fi% & ! piece ( money1 & ! next to d\bt :e!r man _h ev] d>$ utt] ! words1 ,i & ! ,fa!r are "o4 ,toss$ he 0 & torm5t$ 9 _s1 call+ ev5 al\d sometimes to "k if !re 0 a ,god any:]e he>+ 8 pray]1 sure only ( ?is1 t :atev] else any be+ might be1 if he he>d n pray]1 he c\ld n be ! ,god = :om 8 s\l cri$ & fa9t$4 ,sometimes !re came to him1 x is true1 :at he w\ld gladly h tak5 = an answ]1 b x 0 no?+ m ?an ! sudd5 desc5t ( a k9d ( calmness on 8 _s1 :i*1 = aught he c\ld tell1 might be b ! calm ( exhau/ion4 ,8 knees 7 sore ) kneel+1 8 face :ite ) ?9k+1 8 eyes dim ) tr\ble2 = :5 once a man has set out to f9d ,god1 he mu/ f9d him or die4 ,?is 0 ! inside reality ^: outcome set ! public ( ,gla/on babbl+4 ,x 0 f ?is t ,george ,bascombe magi/]ially pron\nc$ him a hypo*ondriac1 worry+ 8 bra9 ab\t ?+s t _h no exi/5ce--z ,george himself c\ld ) confid5ce te/ify1 n once hav+ se5 ! sight ( !m1 he>d ! s\nd ( !m1 or imag9$ 9 8 he>t t !y ought to be1 or ev5 t !y might possibly be4 ,he pron\nc$ inde$ _! exi/5ce inconsi/5t ) 8 own4 ,! ?\ght _h nev] rippl$ ! grey mass ( 8 self-satisfi$ bra9 t p]haps !re 0 m ( himself ?an :at he c\nt$ he himself yet knew1 & t possibly ^! matt]s _h a consi/5t relation ) p>ts unkn[n4 ,poor1 pov]ty-/rick5 ,w+fold6 --actually crav+ = ?+s b5ea? ,bascombe's notice6 actually cry+ = some?+ high] & bright] ?an ! moon6 ,h[ indep5d5t 0 ,george comp>$ ) ,?omas6--cont5t to live :at he call$ 8 life1 be a b5efactor to m51 *iefly 9 ridd+ _! fancies ( ! gobl9s ( aspiration1 !n die 8 dea?1 & h done ) ! bus9ess2 :ile poor misguid$1 weak-bra9$1 hypo*ondriacal ,?omas c\ld be cont5t$ ) no?+ less ?an ! fulfilm5t ( ! promise ( a c]ta9 man :o p]haps nev] exi/$3 ,! ,fa!r & ,i w come to him & make our abode ) him4 ,yet ,?omas too _h 8 weakness = ! te/imony ( ! s5ses4 ,if he did n1 l ,george1 refuse to believe )\t x1 he yet c\ld n help desir+ signs & wond]s t he might believe4 ,( ?is ! foll[+ poem 0 a result1 & ,i give x ! m will+ly because x w %[ h[ ! intellectual nature ( ! man _h advanc$1 borne on ! waves t bur/ f ! f\nta9s ( ! great deep bel[ x4 ,o ,"l1 if on ! w9d1 at cool ( day1 ,i he>d "o :isp]$ ^w ( mighty grace2 ,if ?r\gh ! d>kness1 z 9 b$ ,i lay1 ,b once _h come a h& ^u my face2 ,if b "o sign t might n be mi/ook1 ,_h ev] be51 s9ce fir/ ?y face ,i s\ght1 ,i %\ld n n[ be d\bt+ o'er a book1 ,b s]v+ !e ) burn+ he>t & ?\ght4 ,s dreams t he>t4 ,b to my he>t ,i say1 ,turn+ my face to front ! d>k & w9d3 ,su* signs _h only b>r$ anew ,8 way ,into !e1 long+ he>t1 !e1 wild]$ m9d4 ,!y ask$ ! v ,way1 :]e lies ! way2 ,! v ,son1 :]e is ! ,fa!r's face2 ,h[ he c\ld %[ himself1 if n 9 clay1 ,:o 0 ! "l ( _s1 =m1 & space4 ,my be+1 ,"l1 w nev]more be :ole ,until ?\ come beh9d m9e e>s & eyes1 ,ent] & fill ! temple ( my s\l ,) p]fect contact--su* a sweet surprise-- ,su* pres5ce z1 be=e x met ! view1 ,! prophet-fancy c\ld n once =esee1 ,?\gh e corn] ( ! temple knew ,by v empt9ess its ne$ ( !e4 ,:5 ,i keep ,,all ?y words1 no fav\r$ "s-- ,he$less ( worldly w9ds or judgm5t's tide1 ,!n1 ,jesus1 ?\ wilt ) ?y ,fa!r come-- ,o end$ pray]s6--& 9 my s\l abide4 ,ah long delay6--ah cunn+1 creep+ s96 ,i %all b fail & cease at l5g? to try3 ,o ,jesus1 ?\gh ?\ wilt n yet come 91 ,knock at my w9d[ z ?\ passe/ by4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,! ,,l95-,,drap]4 ,b !re 0 yet ano!r class among/ ^? :o on t second day he>d ! curate te/ify :at hone/ly he might1 & no m1 conc]n+ ,jesus ( ,naz>e?4 ,s f> z he le>n$1 h[ev]1 t class consi/$ ( "o individual4 ,on ! foll[+ ,tuesday morn+ he w5t into ! %op ( ! *ief l95-drap] ( ,gla/on1 = he 0 go+ to a fun]al1 & want$ a new pair ( gloves t he might decl9e ^? :i* w\ld be (f]$ him4 ,a "y woman wait$ on him1 b ,mr4 ,drew1 see+ him f ! o!r end ( ! %op1 came & took h] place4 ,:5 he 0 fitt$1 _h paid = 8 pur*ase1 & 0 turn+ to take 8 leave1 ! drap]1 ) :at appe>$ a resolution sudd5ly =c$ f hesitation1 lean$ ov] ! c\nt] & said3 ,w\ld y m9d walk+ up /airs = a few m9utes1 sir8 ,i ask x z a great fav\r4 ,i want v mu* to speak to y4 ,i %all be mo/ happy1 answ]$ ,w+fold--conv5tionally1 x mu/ be all[$1 = 9 reality he anticipat$ expo/ulation1 & hav+ 9 8 public m9i/rations to d 8 duty aga9/ 8 own gra91 he _h no fancy = enc\nt]+ o!r p's gra9 z well 9 private4 ,mr4 ,drew op5$ c]ta9 /raits 9 ! c\nt]1 & ! curate foll[$ him ?r\gh !m1 !n ?r\gh a door1 up a /air1 & into a com=table d9+-room1 :i* smelt /rongly ( tobacco4 ,!re ,mr4 ,drew plac$ = him a *air1 & seat$ himself 9 front ( him4 ,! l95-drap] 0 a middle-ag$1 middle-siz$1 /\ti% man1 ) plump rosy *eeks1 ke5 black eyes1 & features ( ! n uncommon pug-type1 ennobl$ & h>moniz$ by a g5u9e expression ( k9dly good-hum\r1 & an excell5t =ehead4 ,8 d>k hair 0 a little /reak$ ) gray4 ,8 mann]1 :i*1 9 ! %op1 _h be5 ( ! %op1 t is1 m def]5tial & w\ld-be pleas+ ?an ,w+fold lik$1 settl$ z he took 8 seat into "o m resembl+ t ( a c\ntry g5tleman4 ,x 0 c\rte\s & fri5dly1 b cl\d$ ) a little anxiety4 ,an uncom=table pause foll[+1 ,w+fold /umbl$ 9 ) ! "q1 ,i hope ,mrs4 ,drew is well1 )\t reflect+ :e!r he _h really ev] he>d ( a ,mrs4 ,drew4 ,! drap]'s face flu%$4 ,x is tw5ty ye>s s9ce ,i lo/ h]1 sir1 he return$4 ,9 8 tone & mann] !re 0 some?+ peculi>4 ,i beg y\r p>don1 said ,w+fold1 ) self-accus+ s9c]ity4 ,i w be op5 ) y sir1 cont9u$ 8 ho/3 %e left me--) ano!r--ne>ly tw5ty ye>s ago4 ,i am a%am$ ( my inadv]t5ce1 rejo9$ ,w+fold4 ,i h be5 su* a %ort "t "h1 &-- ,d n m5tion x1 sir4 ,h[ c\ld y help x8 ,besides1 x 0 n "h ! ?+ took place1 b a hundr$ miles away4 ,i hope ,i %\ld be=e long h ref]r$ to ! fact myself4 ,b n[ ,i desire1 if y w all[ me1 to speak ( some?+ diff]5t4 ,i am at y\r s]vice1 answ]$ ,w+fold4 ,?ank y1 sir4--,i 0 9 y\r *ur* la/ ,sunday1 resum$ ! drap] aft] a pause4 ,i am n "o ( y\r regul> he>]s1 sir2 b y\r s]mon t day set me ?9k+1 & in/ead ( ?9k+ less :5 ,monday came1 ,i h be5 ?9k+ m & m ev] s9ce2 & :5 ,i saw y 9 ! %op1 ,i c\ld n resi/ ! sudd5 desire to speak to y4 ,if y h "t1 sir1 ,i hope y w all[ me to come to ! po9t my own way8 ,w+fold assur$ him t 8 "t 0 at 8 own disposal1 & c\ld n be bett] occupi$4 ,mr4 ,drew ?ank$ him & w5t on4 ,y\r s]mon1 ,i mu/ confess1 sir1 made me uncom=table--no fault ( y\rs1 sir--all my own--?\gh h[ mu* ! fault is1 ,i h>dly "k3 use & cu/om are h>d ^u a man1 sir1 & y w\ld h a man g by o!r laws ?an ^? ( ! _w he lives 94 ,! e>? is ! ,"l's & ! fulness !re(--y w d\btless say4 ,t is ov] ! ,royal ,ex*ange 9 ,london1 ,i ?9k2 b x is n ! laws ( ! ,"l t are specially foll[$ inside = all t4 ,h[ev]1 x is n ) o!r p we h to d1 b ) ourselves--z y w say4 ,well !n x is = myself ,i am tr\bl$ n[4 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 sir1 ,i am n altoge!r at ease 9 my own m9d z to ! way ,i h made my money--:at little money ,i h--no great sum1 b en\gh to retire ^u :5 ,i please4 ,i w\ld n h y ?9k me worse ?an ,i am1 b ,i am s9c]ely desir\s ( kn[+ :at y w\ld h me d4 ,my de> sir1 return$ ,w+fold1 ,i am ! v la/ to look to = enlight5m5t4 ,i am z ignorant ( bus9ess z any *ild4 ,i am n aw>e t ,i ev] b\ght any?+ except books & clo!s1 or ev] sold any?+ except a knife to a s*oolfell[4 ,i _h b\ght x ! day be=e = half-a-cr[n1 b !re 0 a spot ( ru/ on "o ( ! blades1 & !re=e ,i p>t$ ) x = twop5ce4 ,! only ?+ ,i c say is3 if y h be5 9 ! way ( do+ any?+ y are no long] satisfi$ )1 don't d x any m4 ,b j !re comes my ne$ ( help4 ,y mu/ d some?+ ) y\r bus9ess1 & ,,don',t ,,d ,,x1 don't tell me :at to d4 ,m9d ,i d n confess to hav+ done any?+ ! trade w\ld c\nt inadmissible1 or :i* is n done 9 ! l>ge/ e/abli%m5ts4 ,:at ,i n[ make a "q ( ,i le>n$ 9 "o ( ! mo/ respectable ( ,london h\ses4 ,y imply t a man 9 y\r l9e :o w\ld n d c]ta9 ?+s ! do+ ( :i* has contribut$ to ! mak+ ( y\r =tune1 w\ld by ! ord9>y deal] be reg>d$ z ,quixotic8 ,he w\ld2 b t !re may be su* m5 ,i am b\nd to all[1 = "h am ,i wi%+ ) all my he>t t ,i _h nev] done !m4 ,"r gladly w\ld ,i give up ! money ,i h made by !m to be rid ( !m4 ,i am unhappy ab\t x4 ,b ,i %\ld nev] h d>$ to confess x to y1 sir1 or1 ,i believe1 to anyone1 b = ! confession y made 9 ! pulpit "s "t ago4 ,i 0 n !re1 b ,i he>d ( x4 ,i fooli%ly judg$ y unwise to accuse y\rself be=e an unsympa?iz+ public--b "h am ,i 9 consequ5ce accus+ myself to y6 ,to no unsympa?is+ he>]1 ?\gh1 said ! curate4 ,x made me want to g & he> y prea*1 pursu$ ! drap]2 = no "o c\ld say b x 0 plucky--& we all l pluck1 sir1 he add$1 ) a laugh t puck]$ 8 face1 %[$ ! :ite/ ( tee?1 & swept e sign ( tr\ble f ! half-globe ( 8 radiant c\nt5ance4 ,!n y "k sum & sub/ance ( :at ,i c d = y1 ,mr4 ,drew3 ,i c sympa?ize ) y2--n a :it m or less am ,i capable (4 ,i am ! m]e/ beg9n] & dabbl] 9 do+ "r myself1 & h m ne$ to ask y to tea* me ?an to set up = tea*+ y4 ,t's ! beauty ( y6--excuse me1 sir1 cri$ ! drap] triumphantly4 ,y don't pret5d to tea* u any?+1 b y make u s uncom=table t we g ab\t ev] aft] ask+ ourselves :at we ought to d4 ,till la/ ,sunday1 ,i _h always look$ ^u myself z an hone/ man3 let me see3 x w\ld be m correct to say ,i look$ on myself z a man ,,q ,,hone/ ,,en\gh4 ,t ,i d n feel s n[1 is y\r do+1 sir4 ,y said 9 y\r s]mon la/ ,sunday1 & specially to bus9ess m53 ',d y d to y\r neighb\r z y w\ld h y\r neighb\r d to y8 ,if n1 h[ c y suppose t ! "l ( ,*ri/ians w ackn[l$ge y z a disciple ( 81 t is1 z a ,*ri/ian8' ,n[ ,i 0 ev5 sur] ( be+ a ,*ri/ian ?an ( be+ an hone/ man4 ,y w h>dly believe x1 & :at to ?9k ( x myself ,i n[ h>dly "k1 b ,i _h satisfi$ myself1 m or less1 t ,i _h gone ?r\gh all ! necess>y /ages ( be+ born aga91 & x is n[ _m ye>s s9ce ,i 0 receiv$ into a ,*ri/ian *ur*--diss5t+ ( c\rse1 ,i mean2 = :at ,i c\nt ! mo/ important diff]5ce aft] all betwe5 *ur* & diss5t is t ! "o1 "r or wrong1 requires = communion a p]sonal pr(ession ( fai?1 & cr$ible pro( ( conv]sion--:i* ,i believ$ ,i gave !m1 & h be5 = ye>s1 ,i %ame to say x1 "o ( ! deacons ( t community4 ,b x %all n be = long4 ,to return to my /ory1 h[ev]3 ,i 0 indignant at be+ call$ ^u f a *ur*-pulpit to raise 9 myself ! "q :e!r or n ,i 0 a ,*ri/ian2--= _h ,i n put my fai? 9 !--8 ,b ,i w avoid !ology1 = ,i h paid m reg>d to t ?an has prov$ good = me4 ,suffice x to say t ,i 0 n[ driv5 f ! te/s ( ! !ologians to try myself by ! words ( ! ,ma/]3 he mu/ be ! be/ !ologian aft] all1 mu/n't he1 sir8--& s !re & !n ,i tri$ ! te/ ( do+ to y\r neighb\r ,,z4 ,b ,i c\ld ,,n get x to "w2 ,i c\ld n see h[ to use x1 & :ile ,i 0 try+ h[ to make x apply1 y 7 gone1 & ,i lo/ all ! re/ ( ! s]mon4 ,n[ :e!r x 0 any?+ y _h said com+ back to me1 ,i _c tell1 b next day1 t 0 ye/]day1 all at once1 9 ! %op "h1 z ,i 0 s]v+ ,mrs4 ,ram%orn1 ! ?\ght came to me3 ,h[ w\ld ,jesus ,*ri/ h done if he _h be5 a drap] in/ead ( a c>p5t]8 ,:5 %e 0 gone1 ,i w5t up to my room to ?9k ab\t x4 ,& !re x seem$--t fir/ ,i mu/ "k h[ he did z a c>p5t]4 ,b t we are told no?+ ab\t4 ,i c\ld get no light ^u t4 ,& s my ?\ghts turn$ aga9 to ! orig9al "q4 --,h[ w\ld he h done _h he be5 a drap]8 ,&1 /range to say1 ,i seem$ to "k f> m ab\t t ?an ! o!r1 & to h some?+ to g ^u4 ,9 fact ,i _h a %>p & decisive answ] conc]n+ sev]al ?+s ( :i* ,i _h d>$ to make a "q4 ,! vision ( ! ideal woke ! ideal 9 y\rself1 said ,w+fold ?\ghtfully4 ,i don't "k t ,i q und]/& t1 return$ ,mr4 ,drew2 b ! m ,i ?\ght ! m dissatisfi$ ,i became4 ,&1 9 a ^w1 x has come to ?is1 t ,i mu/ set ?+s "r1 or give up bus9ess4 ,t w\ld be no victory1 rem>k$ ! curate4 ,i "k x1 & %all n yield )\t a /ruggle1 ,i promise y4 ,t same aft]noon1 tak+ ! opportunity ( hav+ ov]he>d "o ( !m endeav\r+ to p]suade an old f>m]'s wife to h] disadvantage1 ,i call$ all my p1 & told !m t if ev] ,i he>d "o ( !m d su* a ?+1 ,i w\ld turn him or h] away at once4 ,b :5 ,i came to look at x1 ,i saw h[ difficult x w\ld be to convict ( ! brea* ( su* a vague law2 & un=tunately too ,i _h "s "t ago introduc$ ! sy/em ( a small p]c5tage to ! sell]s1 mak+ x _! int]e/ to =ce sales4 ,t h[ev] is easily rectifi$1 & ,i %all see to x at once4 ,b ,i d wi% ,i _h a m def9ite law to foll[ ?an t ( do+ ,,z6 ,w\ld n m light inside d z well z cle>] law outside8 sugge/$ ,w+fold4 ,h[ c ,i tell till ,i h _h a *ance ( try+8 return$ ! drap] ) a smile1 :i* spe$ily vani%$ z he w5t on3 ,!n aga91 !re's ab\t pr(its6 ,h[ mu* ought ,i to take8 ,am ,i to d z o!rs d1 & always be rul$ by ! m>ket8 ,am ,i b\nd to give my cu/om]s ! advantage ( any special b>ga9 ,i may h made8 ,& !n aga9--= ,i d a l>ge :olesale bus9ess ) ! little c\ntry %ops--if ,i le>n t "o ( my cu/om]s is go+ d[n hill1 h ,i1 or h ,i n1 a "r to p\nce ^u him1 & make him pay me1 to ! detrim5t ( 8 o!r cr$itors8 ,!re's no end ( que/ions1 y see1 sir4 ,i am ! wor/ possible man to ask1 return$ ,w+fold aga94 ,i might1 f v ignorance1 judge t wrong :i* is really "r1 or t "r :i* is really wrong4 ,b "o ?+ ,i beg9 to see1 t be=e a man c d "r by 8 neighb\r1 he mu/ love him z himself4 ,only ,i am su* a poor s*ol> 9 ^! high ?+s t1 z y h j said1 ,i _c pret5d to tea* anybody4 ,t s]mon 0 b an appeal to m5's own consci5ces :e!r !y kept ! words ( ! ,"l by ^: "n !y call$ !mselves4 ,except 9 y\r case1 ,mr4 ,drew1 ,i am n aw>e t "o ( ! congregation has tak5 x to he>t4 ,i am n sure ( t1 return$ ! drap]4 ,"s talk among/ my own p has made me fancy t1 p]haps1 ?\gh talk be b fro?1 ! fro? may rise f "s hot "w d[n bel[4 ,nev] man c\ld tell f ! quiet way ,i am talk+ to y1 h[ mu* ,i h felt ^! few days pa/4 ,w+fold look$ him 9 ! face3 ! e>ne/ness ( ! man 0 pla9 9 8 eyes1 & 8 resolve /amp$ on e feature4 ,! curate ?\ght ( ,zac*aeus2 ?\ght ( ,mat!w at ! receipt ( cu/om2 ?\ght ) "s %ame ( c]ta9 judgm5ts conc]n+ trade1 & %opkeep]s especially1 t seem$ someh[ to h br$ 9 him l creep+ ?+s--= :5ce !y _h come he c\ld n tell4 ,n[ x 0 cle> z day t--always provid$ ! man ,*ri/ ,jesus c be & is ) 8 disciples always to ! end ( ! _w--a tradesman might j z soon h ,jesus beh9d ! c\nt] ) him1 tea*+ him to buy & sell ,,9 ,,8 ,,"n1 t is1 z he w\ld h done x1 z an e>l rid+ ov] 8 l&s might h him ) him1 tea*+ him h[ to treat 8 f>m]s & cottag]s--all dep5d+ on h[ ! "o did 8 trad+ & ! o!r 8 e>l+4 ,a m]e truism1 is x8 ,yes1 x is1 & m is ! pity2 = :at is a truism1 z mo/ m5 c\nt truisms8 ,:at is x b a tru? t ought to h be5 buri$ long ago 9 ! lives ( m5--to s5d up = ev] ! corn ( true de$s & ! w9e ( lov+ k9dness1--b in/ead ( be+ buri$ 9 fri5dly soil1 is all[$ to lie ab\t1 kick$ hi!r & ?i!r 9 ! dry & empty g>ret ( _! bra9s1 till !y are sick ( ! sight & s\nd ( x1 & to be rid ( ! ?\ght ( x1 decl>e x to be no liv+ tru? b only a lifeless truism6 ,yet 9 _! bra9 t truism mu/ rattle until !y %ift x to its rightful qu>t]s 9 _! he>t1 :]e x w rattle no long] b take root & be a /r5g? & lovel9ess4 ,is a tru? to cease to be utt]$ because no bett] =m ?an t ( "s div9e truism--say ( ,/4 ,john ,boan]ges--c be f\nd = x8 ,to ! critic ! truism is a sea-worn1 foot-trodd5 pebble2 to ! ob$i5t s*ol>1 a radiant topaz1 :i*1 z he poli%es x ) ! du/ ( its use1 may turn into a diamond4 ,jesus buy+ & sell+6 said ,w+fold to himself4 ,& :y n8 ,did ,jesus make *airs & tables1 or boats p]haps1 :i* ! p ( ,naz>e? want$1 )\t any admixture ( trade 9 ! matt]8 ,0 !re no transaction8 ,no pass+ ( money betwe5 h&s8 ,did !y n pay 8 fa!r = !m8 ,0 8 ,fa!r's way ( keep+ ?+s go+ 9 ! _w1 too vile = ! h&s ( him ^: be+ 0 delight 9 ! w ( t ,fa!r8 ,no2 !re mu/ be a way ( h&l+ money t is noble z ! h&l+ ( ! sword 9 ! h&s ( ! patriot4 ,nei!r ! mean man :o loves x1 nor ! fai?less man :o despises x1 kn[s h[ to h&le x4 ,! =m] is "o :o all[s 8 dog to become a nuisance1 ! latt] "o :o kicks him f 8 sight4 ,! noble man is he :o s truly does ! "w giv5 him to d t ! inh]5t nobility ( t "w is manife/4 ,& ! trad] :o trades nobly is nobl] surely ?an ! high-born :o1 if he c>ri$ ! pr9ciples ( 8 daily life into trade1 w\ld be z pitiful a sneak z any he t b[s & scrapes falsely beh9d t alt> ( lies1 8 c\nt]4--,all flat truisms ,i "k1 b no long] su* to ,w+fold to :om !y n[ = ! fir/ "t %[$ !mselves tru?s4 ,he _h tak5 a k9dly leave ( ! drap]1 promis+ to call aga9 soon1 & _h rea*$ ! room-door on 8 way out1 :5 he turn$ sudd5ly & said1 ,did y ?9k to try pray+1 ,mr4 ,drew8 ,m51 ^: m9ds1 if ,i may v5ture to judge1 seem to me1 f _! writ+s1 ( ! v highe/ ord]1 h really & positively believ$ t ! l(tie/ activity ( a man's be+ lay 9 pray] to ! unkn[n ,fa!r ( t be+1 & t light 9 ! inw>d p>ts 0 ! c]ta9 consequ5ce--t1 9 v tru?1 n only did ! pray] ( ! man f9d ! e> ( ,god1 b ! man himself f\nd ,god ,himself4 ,i h no "r to an op9ion1 b ,i h a spl5did hope t ,i %all "o day f9d x true4 ,! ,"l said a man mu/ g on pray+ & n lose he>t4 ,) ! words he walk$ out1 & ! deacon ?\ght ( 8 _m pray]s at pray]-meet+s & family-wor%ips4 ,! words ( a "y man :o seem$ to h only j discov]$ t !re 0 su* a ?+ z pray]1 :o c\ld n pret5d to be sure ab\t x1 b hop$ spl5didly1 made him a%am$ ( !m all4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,,ra*el4 ,w+fold w5t /raight to 8 fri5d ,polw>?1 & ask$ him if he w\ld all[ him to br+ ,mr4 ,drew "s ev5+ to tea4 ,y mean ! l95-drap]8 ask$ ,polw>?4 ,c]ta9ly1 if y wi% x4 ,"s tr\bles are cat*+1 said ! curate4 ,drew has caught my disease4 ,i am delight$ to he> x4 ,x w\ld be h>d to cat* a bett]1 & x's "o a ri* man1 z !y say he is1 seldom does cat*4 ,b ,i always lik$ 8 r\nd1 good-hum\r$1 hone/ face4 ,if ,i rememb] rightly1 he _h a sore trial 9 8 wife4 ,x is g5]ally und]/ood t %e ran away ) "s fell[ or o!r4 ,b t 0 be=e he came to live 9 ,gla/on4--,w\ld y m9d look+ 9 ^u ,ra*el = a few m9utes1 sir8 ,%e is n s well to-day1 & has n be5 out ( h] own room4 ,) all my he>t1 answ]$ ,w+fold4 ,i am sorry to he> %e is suff]+4 ,%e is always suff]+ m or less1 said ! little man4 ,b %e enjoys life not)/&+1 z y may cle>ly see4 ,x is to h] only a mitigat$ good1 & t1 ,i tru/1 = ! sake ( an unmitigat$ "o4--,come ?is way1 sir4 ,he l$ ! curate to ! room next 8 own4 ,x 0 a humble little g>ret1 b da9ty ) :it5ess4 ,"o :o did n ?or\ghly "k h]1 might h said x 0 l h] life1 col\rless1 b bright ) innoc5ce & peace4 ,! walls 7 :ite2 ! bo>ds ( ! unc>pet$ floor 7 z :ite z scrubb+ c\ld make old deal2 ! curta9s ( w9d[s & b$ 7 :it5ess itself2 ! cov]let 0 :ite2 s 0 ! face t look$ smil+ ov] ! top ( x f ! "o l[ :ite pill[4 ,b al?\gh ,w+fold knew t face s well1 he almo/ />t$ at ! sight ( x n[3 9 ! pati5ce ( its suff]+ x 0 positively lovely4 ,all t 0 pa9ful to see 0 hidd52 ! crook$ little body lay at re/ 9 ! grave ( ! b$-clo!s2 ! s\l rose f x1 & look$1 graci\s ) womanhood1 9 ! eyes ( ! curate4 ,i _c give y my h&1 %e said smil+1 z he w5t s(tly t[>ds h]1 feel+ l ,moses :5 he put (f 8 %oes1 = ,i h su* a pa9 9 my arm1 ,i _c well raise x4 ,! curate b[$ rev]5tially1 seat$ himself 9 a *air by h] b$side1 &1 l a true com=t]1 said no?+4 ,don't be sorry = me1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 said h] sweet voice at l5g?4 ,! poor dw>fie1 z ! *ildr5 call me1 is n a creature to be piti$4 ,y don't "k h[ happy ,i am z ,i lie "h1 kn[+ my uncle is 9 ! next room1 & w come ! mom5t ,i call him--& t !re is "o ne>] /ill1 %e add$ 9 a l[] voice1 almo/ 9 a :isp]1 :om ,i hav5't ev5 to call4 ,i am 81 & he %all d ) me j z he likes4 ,i fancy sometimes1 :5 ,i h to lie /ill1 t ,i am a little %eep1 ti$ h&s & feet--,i %\ld h said all f\r feet1 if ,i am a %eep--& "h %e gave a little m]ry laugh--ly+ on an alt>--! b$ "h--burn+ away1 9 ! flame ( life1 t consumes ! dea?ful body--burn+1 he>t & s\l & s5se1 up to ! great ,fa!r4--,=give me1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 = talk+ ab\t myself1 b y look$ s mis]able6 & ,i knew x 0 y\r k9d he>t feel+ = me4 ,b ,i ne$ n1 = t1 h gone on at su* a rate4 ,i am a%am$ ( myself6 ,on ! contr>y1 ,i am exce$+ly oblig$ to y = hon\r+ me by talk+ s freely1 said ,w+fold4 ,x is a great satisfaction to f9d t suff]+ is n necess>ily unhapp9ess4 ,i c\ld be well cont5t to suff] also1 ,miss ,polw>?1 if ) ! suff]+ ,i might h ! same peace4 ,sometimes ,i am tr\bl$1 %e answ]$2 b g5]ally ,i am 9 peace1 & sometimes too happy to d>e speak ab\t x4--,w\ld ! p]sons y & my uncle 7 talk+ ab\t ! o!r day--w\ld !y say all my pleasant z well z my pa9ful ?\ghts came f ! same cause--vibrations 9 my bra98 ,no d\bt4 ,!y w\ld say1 ,i presume1 t ! pleasant ?\ghts come f regul>1 & ! unpleasant f irregul> motions ( its p>ticles4 ,!y mu/ give ! same orig9 to bo?4 ,w\ld y be will+ to ackn[l$ge t only y\r pleasant ?\ghts _h a high] orig91 & t y\r pa9ful ones came f physical s\rces8 ,because ( a heada*e & depression ( spirits1 ,w+fold _h be5 turn+ ov] simil> que/ions 9 8 own m9d ! night be=e4 ,i see1 said ! dw>fie--,i see4 ,no4 ,!re are sad ?\ghts sometimes :i* 9 _! season ,i w\ld n lose1 = ,i w\ld h _! influ5ces ) me always4 ,9 _! season !y are bett] ?an a ho/ ( happy ones1 & !re is joy at ! root ( all4 ,b if !y did come f physical causes1 w\ld x foll[ t !y did n come f ,god8 ,is he n ! ,god ( ! dy+ z well z ! ,god ( ! liv+8 ,if !re be a ,god1 ,miss ,polw>?1 return$ ,w+fold eag]ly1 !n is he ,god ev]y:]e1 & n a maggot c die any m ?an a ,%akespe>e be born )\t him4 ,he is ei!r en\gh1 t is1 all 9 all1 or he is n at all4 ,t is :at ,i ?9k--because x is be/3--,i c give no bett] reason4 ,if !re be a ,god1 !re c be no bett] reason1 said ,w+fold4 ,?is ,,if ( ,w+fold's 01 ,i ne$ h>dly n[ say1 an ,,if ( b>e hone/y1 & came ( no desire to %ake an un?9k+ confid5ce4 ,nei!r1 _h x be5 ( ! o!r sort1 c\ld x h %ak5 ,ra*el's1 = h] confid5ce 0 full ( ?9k+4 ,z little c\ld x %ock h]1 = %e h>dly miss$ a s5t5ce t pass$ betwe5 h] uncle & 8 new fri5d4 ,%e made no reply1 nev] imag9+ x h] bus9ess to combat ! d\bts ( a man :om %e knew to be eag] aft] ! tru?1 & be+ guiltless ( any t5d5cy1 because %e believ$1 to condemn d\bt z wick$4 ,a %ort sil5ce foll[$4 ,h[ delightful x mu/ be to feel well & /rong6 said ,ra*el at l5g?4 ,i c't help (t5 ?9k+ ( ,miss ,l+>d4 ,x's always ,miss ,l+>d comes up to me :5 ,i ?9k ( su* ?+s4 ,oh6 a9't %e beautiful & /rong1 ,mr4 ,w+fold8--& sits on h] horse z /raight z a ru%6 ,x does "o good to see h]4 ,j fancy me on a great tall horse6 ,:at a bag ( potatoes ,i %\ld look6 ,%e bur/ into a m]ry laugh1 & !n came a few te>s1 :i* 7 n all ( ! m]rim5t ( :i* %e let !m pass z ! consequ5ce1 rem>k+1 z %e wip$ !m away1 ,b no "o c tell1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1--& ,i'm sure ,miss ,l+>d w\ld be a/oni%$ to he>--:at pleasure ,i h :ile ly+ unable to move4 ,i suppose ,i b5efit by :at p call ! law ( comp5sation6 ,h[ ,i hate ! ^w6 ,z if ,,t 0 ! way ! ,fa!r ( ,jesus ,*ri/ did1 & n 8 v be/ to get 8 *ildr51 eld] bro!rs & prodigal sons1 home to 8 he>t6 ,y he>d :at my uncle said ab\t dreams ! o!r day8 %e resum$ aft] a little pause4 ,yes4 ,i ?\ght x v s5sible1 repli$ ! curate4 ,x all dep5ds on ! sort1 don't x8 said ,ra*el4 ,"s ( m9e ,i w\ld n give = a libr>y4 ,!y make me gr[1 tell+ me ?+s ,i %\ld nev] le>n o!rwise4 ,i don't mean any rubbi% ab\t future ev5ts1 & su* l4 ,( all useless ?+s a k ( ! future seems to me ! mo/ useless1 = :at are y to d ) a ?+ be=e x exi/s8 ,su* a k c\ld only bewild] y z to ! "r way to take--w\ld make y see d\ble in/ead ( s+le4 ,t's n ! sort ,i mean at all4--,y won't laugh at me1 ,mr4 ,w+fold8 ,i c sc>cely imag9e any?+ less likely4 ,!n ,i don't m9d op5+ my toy-box to y4--,9 my dreams1 = in/ance1 ,i am sometimes visit$ by su* a s5se ( fre$om z fills me ) a pure bliss unkn[n to my wak+ ?\ghts except z a rosy cl\d on ! horizon4 ,z if !y 7 "s heav5ly corporation1 my dreams pres5t me1 n ) ! fre$om ( "s poor little city l ,london1 b ) ! fre$om ( all space4 ,! curate sat & li/5$ ) wond]--b ) no s5se ( unfitness2 su* spee* & su* ?\ght suit$ well ) ! face t look$ up f ! l[ pill[ ) its lovely eyes--= lovely !y 71 ) a light t _h bo? fla% & =ce4 ,i don't believe1 %e w5t on1 t ev5 ,miss ,l+>d has m ( ! bless$ s5se ( fre$om & /r5g? & motion :5 %e is on horseback ?an ,i h :5 ,i am asleep4 ,! v w9ds ( my dreams w make me s unspeakabably happy t ,i wake weep+4 ,d n tell me x is gone !n1 = ,i cont9ue s happy t ,i c h>dly get to sleep aga9 to hunt = m joy4 ,don't say x is an unreality--= :]e does fre$om lie8 ,9 ! body or 9 ! m9d8 ,:at does x matt] :e!r my body be ly+ /ill or mov+ f "o spot ( space to ano!r8 ,:at is ! good ( motion b to produce ! feel+ ( fre$om8 ,! feel+ is ev]y?+1 & if ,i h x1 t is all t ,i want4 ,bodily motion w\ld inde$ di/urb x = me--lay fett]s on my _s4--,sometimes1 aga91 ,i dream ( a new fl[]--"o nev] be=e beheld by mortal eye--) "s /range1 wond]ful quality 9 x1 p]haps1 t makes x a treasure1 l t fl[] ( ,milton's inv5tion--haemony--9 ,comus1 y "k4 ,b "o curi\s ?+ is t t /range quality w nev] be recall$ 9 wak+ h\rs2 s t :at x 0 ,i c nev] tell--z if x belong$ to o!r regions ?an ! life ( ?is _w3 ,i reta9 only ! vague/ memory ( its p[]1 & m>vel1 & preci\sness4--,sometimes x is a little poem or a song ,i dream (1 or "s /range musical in/rum5t1 p]haps l "o ( ^? ,i h se5 angels ) 9 a photograph f an old picture4 ,& someh[ ) ! in/rum5t always comes ! k ( h[ to play ^u x4 ,s y see1 sir1 z x has pleas$ ,god to s5d me into ! _w z crook$ z a crab1 & ne>ly z lame z a seal1 x has pleas$ him also to give me ! heal? & ri*es ( ! night to /r5g!n me = ! pa9s & pov]ties ( ! day4--,y rejoice 9 a beautiful ?\ght :5 x comes to y1 ,mr4 ,w+fold--d y n8 ,:5 x comes to me1 answ]$ ,w+fold significantly--almo/ petulantly4 ,c\ld x be t he envi$ ! dw>f-girl8 ,!n is ! ?\ght any worse because x comes 9 a %ape8--or is ! feel+ less ( a feel+ t x is born 9 a dream8 ,i ne$ no conv9c+1 ,i admit all y say1 return$ ,w+fold4 ,:y are y s sil5t1 !n8 ,y make me ?9k y are object+ inside to ev]y?+ ,i am say+1 rejo9$ ,ra*el ) a smile4 ,p>tly because ,i fe> y are excit+ y\rself too mu* & w suff] 9 consequ5ce1 answ]$ ! curate1 :o _h not$ ! rosy flu% on h] face4 ,! same mom5t h] uncle re-ent]$ ! room4 ,i h be5 try+ to conv9ce ,mr4 ,w+fold t !re ,,may be "s good 9 dream+1 uncle1 %e said4 ,successfully8 ask$ ,polw>?4 ,unnecess>ily1 int]ject$ ,w+fold4 ,i requir$ = conviction only ! facts4 ,:y %\ld ,i suppose t1 if !re be a ,god1 he is driv5 out ( u by sleep8 ,x is an awful ?+1 said ,polw>?1 to ?9k--t ?is feeble individuality ( ours1 ! (fspr+ ( ,god's individuality1 %\ld h "s p[]1 & ev5 m w ?an p[]1 to close its door aga9/ him1 & keep h\se )\t him6 ,b :at sort ( a h\se8 murmur$ ,w+fold4 ,yes1 uncle1 said ,ra*el2 b ?9k h[ he keeps ab\t u1 haunt+ ! doors & w9d[s l ! v w9d1 wat*+ to get 96 ,& sometimes he makes ( himself a tempe/1 t bo? doors & w9d[s fly op51 & he ent]s 9 fe> & dismay4 ,! prophetic 9 ! uncle 0 ! poetic 9 ! niece4 ,= y & me1 uncle1 %e w5t on1 he made ! doors & w9d[s s rickety t !y ,,c\ld n keep him out4 ,ye are ! temples ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 said ! curate1 almo/ unconsci\sly4 ,"s ( u a little ru9\s6 rejo9$ ! girl4 ,s full 0 h] s\l ( a lively devotion t %e took ! lib]ties ( a *ild ( ! h\se ) sacr$ ?+s4 ,b1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 %e cont9u$4 ,i mu/ tell y "o m curi\s ?+ ab\t my dreams3 ,i ,,nev] dream ( be+ crook$ & dw>fi%4 ,i don't dream t ,i am /raight ei!r2 ,i suppose ,i feel all "r1 & !re=e nev] ?9k ab\t x4 ,t makes me fancy my s\l mu/ be /raight4--,don't y ?9k s1 sir8 ,inde$ ,i d1 said ,w+fold w>mly4 ,i'm afraid ,i %all be tell+ y "s ( my dreams "s day4 ,we are r giv5 to t weakness1 said ,polw>?1--s mu* s z to make me fe> = our bra9s sometimes4 ,b a crook$ rose-tree may yet be> a good rose4 ,ah6 y are ?9k+ ( my poor fa!r1 uncle1 ,i "k1 said ,ra*el4 ,8 0 a /raight /em & a f9e rose1 only ov]bl[n1 p]haps4--,i don't ?9k ,i ne$ be mu* afraid ( t1 = if ,i 7 to g out ( my m9d1 ,i %\ld n h /r5g? to live--unless inde$ ,i knew ,god ?r\gh all ! madness4 ,i ?9k my fa!r did 9 a way4 ,x 0 q pla9 he did1 answ]$ h] uncle1 & t 9 no feeble way ei!r4--,"s day ,i mu/ tell y1--"h he turn$ to ,w+fold--ab\t t bro!r ( m9e1 ,ra*el's fa!r4 ,i %\ld ev5 l to %[ y a manuscript he left beh9d him--surely "o ( ! /range/ ev] writt56 ,x w\ld be well wor? pr9t+ if t w\ld ensure its fall+ into ! h&s ( ^? :o c\ld read ?r\gh ! madness4--,b we h talk$ q long en\gh = y\r head1 *ild2 ,i w take ,mr4 ,w+fold into ! next room4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,,! ,,butt]fly4 ,z ,w+fold walk$ home t aft]noon1 he ?\ght mu* ( :at he _h he>d & se54 ,if !re be a ,god1 he said to himself1 !n all is well1 = c]ta9ly he w\ld n give be+ to su* a woman1 & !n ?r[ h] aside z a failure1 & =get h]4 ,x is /range to see1 ?\gh1 h[ he p]mits 8 "w to be ?w>t$4 ,to be ! p]fect ,god not)/&+1 he mu/ be able to turn ! v ?w>t+ to high] fur!rance4 ,don't we see some?+ ( ! sort 9 life--! vigor\s nurs$ by ! ardu\s8 ,is x presumptu\s to imag9e ,god say+ to ,ra*el3 ',tru/ me1 & be>1 & ,i w d bett] = !e ?an ?\ can/ ?9k8' ,c]ta9ly ! "o :o mo/ ne$s ! com=t ( su* a fai?1 9 ?is case ,,has x4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld be z sure ( him z ,ra*el ,polw>?6--,b !n1 he add$1 smil+ to himself1 %e has _h h] crook$ sp9e to help h]6 ,x seems z if no?+ less ?an ! spiritual behold+ ( ! ,et]nal w produce at lea/ absolute belief4 ,& till !n :at bett] or inde$ o!r pro( c ! less receive ( ! pres5ce ( ! great] ?an ! expansion ( its own be+ "u ! influ5ces ( t great]8 ,b my plague n[ is t ! ideas ( religion are s gr&1 & ! ?+s all ar\nd x 9 life s common-place1 t !y give ! lie to ea* o!r f morn+ to night--9 my m9d1 ,i mean4 ,:i* is ! true8 a lov+1 c>+ fa!r1 or ! gr9d+ ( cruel pov]ty & ! nak$ exposure to he$less *ance8 ,h[ is x t1 :ile ! =m] seems ! only "r1 reasonable1 & all-suffic+ ?+1 x %\ld yet come m naturally to believe 9 ! latt]8 ,& yet1 :5 ,i ?9k ( x1 ,i nev] did come clos] to believ+ 9 ! latt] ?an is indicat$ by t]ror ( its possible tru?--s _m ?+s look$ l x4--,!n1 :at has nature 9 common ) ! ,bible & its metaphysics8--,!re ,i am wrong--%e has a ?\s& ?+s4 ,! v w9d on my face seems to r\se me to fre% ef=t aft] a pure heal?y life6 ,!n !re is ! sunrise6 ,!re is ! sn[drop 9 ! sn[6 ,!re is ! butt]fly6 ,!re is ! ra9 ( summ]1 & ! cle>+ ( ! sky aft] a /orm6 ,!re is ! h5 ga!r+ h] *ick5s "u h] w+6--,i beg9 to d\bt :e!r !re be ! common-place any:]e except 9 our own mi/ru/+ nature1 t w ca/ no c>e ^u ! ,unse54 ,x is ) me1 9 reg>d to my bett] life1 z x 0 ) ! disciples 9 reg>d to _! bodily life1 :5 !y 7 = ! "t r5d]$ incapable ( und]/&+ ! words ( our ,"l by hav+ =gott5 to take bread 9 ! boat3 !y 7 s afraid ( be+ hungry t !y c\ld ?9k ( no?+ b bread4 ,su* 7 "s ( ! curate's ?\ghts z he walk$ home1 & !y drove him to pray]1 9 :i* came m ?\ghts4 ,:5 he rea*$ 8 room he sat d[n at 8 table1 & wove & knott$ & piec$ toge!r ! foll[+ v]ses1 v5tur+ t easy yet p]il\s ?+1 a sonnet4 ,i give "h its f9al %ape1 n its fir/ or second3 ,me?\ght ,i float$ sightless1 nor did "k ,t ,i _h e>s until ,i he>d ! cry ,z ( a mighty man 9 agony3 ,h[ long1 ,"l1 %all ,i lie ?us f\l & sl[8 ,! arr[s ( ?y lightn+ ?r\gh me g1 ,& /+ & torture me--yet "h ,i lie ,a %apeless mass t sc>ce c m\ld a sigh4 ,! d>kness ?9n$2 ,i saw a ?+ bel[1 ,l %eet$ corpse1 a knot at head & feet4 ,sl[ clomb ! sun ! m\nta9s ( ! dead1 ,& look$ ^u ! _w3 ! sil5ce broke6 ,a bl9d+ /ruggle6 !n ! ?und]\s beat ,( great exult+ p9ions /roke on /roke6 ,& f t _w a mighty angel fl$4 ,b ^u ! heels ( ! sonnet came1 z 0 natural1 accord+ to ! law ( reaction1 a fre% & m appall+1 because m self-ass]tive & v]isimil\s invasion ( ! commonplace4 ,:at a fooli%1 unreal ?+ he _h writt56 ,he caught up 8 hat & /ick & hurri$ out1 ?9k+ to combat ! demon bett] 9 ! op5 air4 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,! ,,common-,,place4 ,x 0 ev5+1 & ! air 0 /ill w>m4 ,p9e ,/reet 0 almo/ empty1 save ( ! r$ sun1 :i* bl9d$ him s t :]ev] he look$ he c\ld only see great sunblots4 ,all b a few ( ! %ops 7 clos$1 b among/ ! few he 0 surpris$ to f9d t ( 8 fri5d ! l95drap]1 :o _h always be5 a /rong advocate ( e>ly clos+4 ,! %utt]s 7 up1 h[ev]1 ?\gh ! door /ood wide op54 ,he peep$ 94 ,to 8 sun-bl9d$ eyes ! %op look$ v d>k1 b he ?\ght he saw ,mr4 ,drew talk+ to "s "o1 & ent]$4 ,he 0 "r2 x 0 ! drap] himself1 & a poor woman ) a *ild on "o arm1 & a pr9t dress %e _h j b\ght on ! o!r4 ,! curate lean$ aga9/ ! c\nt]1 & wait$ until bus9ess %\ld be ov] to address 8 fri5d4 ,is ,mr4 ,drew an embryonic angel8 he half felt1 half ?\ght )9 himself4 ,is ?is %op ! *rysalis ( a great psy*e8 ,w ! drap]1 ) 8 r\nd good-hum\r$ face & puck]+ smile1 ev] spread ?und]\s w+s & cleave ! air up to ! ?rone ( ,god8 ,i _c tell y h[ x goes aga9/ me to take t woman's money1 said ! voice ( ! drap]4 ,! curate woke up 9 ! pres5ce ( ! unw+$1 & saw t ! woman _h left ! %op4 ,i did let h] h ! pr9t at co/-price1 ,mr4 ,drew w5t on1 laugh+ m]rily4 ,t 0 all ,i c\ld v5ture on4 ,:]e 0 ! dang]8 ,ah1 y don't "k s well z ,i d ! good ( hav+ "s difficulty 9 gett+ :at y ne$6 ,to ease ! /ruggles ( ! poor1 unless x be 9 sickness or absolute want1 ,i h repeat$ly prov$ to be a cruel k9dness4 ,!n y don't sell to ! poor wom5 at co/-price always8 ,no--only to ! soldi]s' wives4 ,!y h a v h>d life ( x1 poor ?+s6 ,t is y\r cu/om1 !n8 ,= ! la/ t5 ye>s1 b ,i don't let !m "k x4 ,is x = ! soldi]s' wives y keep y\r %op op5 s late8 ,i ?\ght y 7 ! great support] ( e>ly clos+ 9 ,gla/on1 said ! curate4 ,i w tell y h[ x happ5$ to-night1 answ]$ ! drap]1 & z he spoke he turn$ r\nd1 n 8 long left e> ^u ! pivot ( 8 skull1 b 8 :ole p]son ^u ! pivot ( ! c\nt]--to misuse ! ^w pivot ) ,wordswor?--& bolt$ ! %op-door4 ,aft] ! "y m5 _h put up ! %utt]s & 7 gone1 he said1 return+ to ! c\nt]1 leav+ me z usual to bolt ! door1 ,i fell a-?9k+4 ,outside1 ! /reet 0 full ( sunlight1 b only en\gh came 9 to %[ h[ gloomy ! place 0 )\t m ( x1 & ! back ( ! %op 0 ne>ly d>k4 ,x 0 v /ill too--s /ill t ! sil5ce seem$ to h tak5 ! %ape ( gloom4 ,p>don me = talk+ 9 ?is unbus9ess-l way3 a man c't be a drap] always2 he mu/ be fooli% sometimes4 ,?irty ye>s ago ,i us$ to read ,t5nyson4 ,i believe ,i 0 among/ ! e>lie/ ( 8 admir]s4 ,fooli%6 e*o$ ,w+fold1 ?\ghtfully4 ,y see1 ! drap] w5t on1 !re ,,is some?+ solemn 9 ! quiet aft] bus9ess is ov]4 ,sometimes x's m s1 sometimes less2 b ?is night x came ^u me t ! %op felt l a *apel--_h ! v air ( "o someh[1 & s ,i fell a ?9k+1 & =got to %ut ! door4 ,h[ x began ,i don't "k1 b my pa/ life came up to me1 & ,i rememb]$ h[1 :5 ,i 0 a "y man1 ,i us$ to despise my fa!r's bus9ess1 to :i* he 0 br++ me up1 & fe$ my fancy ) ?+s belong+ to high] walks 9 life4 ,!n ,i saw t mu/ h be5 p>tly h[ ,i fell into ! mi/ake ( m>ry+ ,mrs4 ,drew4 ,%e 0 ! daught] ( a doctor 9 our t[n1 a wid[]4 ,he 0 9 poor heal?1 & unable to make mu* ( 8 practice1 s t :5 he di$ %e 0 left de/itute1 & = t reason alone1 ,i d believe1 accept$ me4 ,:at foll[$ y "k3 %e w5t away ) a man :o us$ to travel = a l>ge ,man*e/] h\se4 ,i h nev] he>d ( h] s9ce4 ,aft] %e left me1 a sort ( some?+ :i* ,i ?9k ,i may call ! disease ( self-pres]vation1 laid hold ^u me4 ,i mu/ ackn[l$ge t ! loss ( my wife 0 n altoge!r a mis]y4 ,%e despis$ my trade1 :i* drove me to def5d x--& ! m bitt]ly t ,i also despis$ x4 ,!re 0 !re=e a good deal ( /rife betwe5 u4 ,i did n make all[ance en\gh = ! desc5t %e _h made f a pr(essional fa!r to a trade-husb&4 ,i =got t1 if %e 0 to blame = m>ry+ me = bread1 ,i 0 to blame = m>ry+ h] to enl>ge myself ) h] sup]iority4 ,aft] %e 0 gone1 ,i 0 aw>e ( a n unwelcome calm 9 ! h\se1 & 9 ! empt9ess ( t calm came ! demon ( selfi%ness sev5fold into my he>t1 & took up 8 abode ) me4 ,f t "t ,i busi$ myself only ab\t two ?+s--! safety ( my s\l1 & a good provision = my body4 ,i jo9$ ! *ur* ,i _h occasion to m5tion to y be=e1 sir1 grew a little h>d] 9 my bus9ess deal+s1 & began to lay by money4 ,& s1 ev] s9ce1 h ,i be5 go+ on till ,i he>d y\r s]mon ! o!r day1 :i* ,i hope has wak$ me up to some?+ bett]4--,all ?is long /ory is b to let y und]/& h[ ,i 0 feel+ :5 t woman came into ! %op4 ,i told y h[1 9 ! dusk & ! sil5ce1 x 0 z if ,i 7 9 ! *apel4 ,i f\nd myself half-li/5+ = ! organ4 ,!n ! v]se ( a hymn came into my m9d--,i c't tell :]e or :5 ,i _h met ) x1 b x _h /uck to me3 ,let me /& ev] at ! door1 ,& keep x f ! ent]+ s91 ,t s ?y temple1 walls & floor1 ,be pure = !e to ent] 94 ,n[ t1 y see1 is said ( ! temple ( ! he>t2 b someh[ ?+s w5t r cross-cut t ev5+--!y got muddl$ 9 my head4 ,x seem$ z if ,i 0 ! door-keep] ( my %op1 & at ! same "t z if my %op1 spread+ out & dimly vani%+ 9 ! sacr$ gloom1 0 ! temple ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 out ( :i* ,i _h to keep ! s94 ,& ) ! ?\ght1 a great awe fell ^u me3 c\ld x be--might x n be t ,god 0 actually 9 ! place8--t 9 ! sil5ce he 0 ?9k+--9 ! gloom he 0 kn[+8 ,i laid myself ov] ! c\nt]1 ) my face 9 my h&s1 & w5t on half ?9k+1 half pray+4 ,all at once ! desire arose burn+ 9 my he>t3 ,w\ld to ,god my h\se 7 9 tru? a holy place1 haunt$ by 8 pres5ce6 ',& :]e=e n8' rejo9$ some?+ )9 me--he>t or bra9 or some?+ deep] ?an ei!r4 ',is ?y "w unholy8 ,are ?y de$s base8 ,is ?y buy+ or sell+ di%one/8 ,is x all = ?yself & no?+ = ?y fell[s8 ,is x n a lawful call+8 ,is x1 or is x n1 ( ,god8 ,if x be ( ,god1 & yet he be n pres5t1 !n surely ?y lawful call+ ?\ foll[e/ unlawfully4 ,s !re ,i 0--br\ght back to ! old /ory4 ,& ,i said to myself1 ',god kn[s ,i want to foll[ x lawfully4 ,am ,i n ev5 n[ seek+ h[ to d s8 ,b ?is1 ?\gh true1 did n satisfy me4 ,to foll[ x lawfully--ev5 9 8 sight--no long] seem$ en\gh4--,0 !re !n no possibility ( rais+ x to dignity8 ,did ! bus9ess ( ,zac*aeus rema91 aft] ! visit ( ,jesus1 a contemptible "o /ill8 ,c\ld n m9e be made ,*ri/ian8 ,0 !re no corn] 9 ! temple :]e a man might buy & sell & n be driv5 out by ! :ip ( small cords8--,i he>d a /ep 9 ! %op1 & lift+ my head1 saw a poor woman ) a *ild 9 h] arms4 ,annoy$ at be+ f\nd 9 t po/ure1 l "o drunk or 9 despair2 annoy$ also ) myself = n hav+ %ut ! door1 ) my usual fir/ t5d5cy to inju/ice a h>% ^w 0 trembl+ on my v lips1 :5 sudd5ly some?+ made me look r\nd 9 a k9d ( maze on ! dusky back %op4 ,a mom5t m & ,i und]/ood3 ,god 0 wait+ to see :at tru? 0 9 my words4 ,t is j h[ ,i felt x1 & ,i hope ,i am n irrev]5t 9 say+ s4 ,!n ,i saw t ! poor woman look$ fright5$--,i suppose at my looks & ge/ures--p]haps %e ?\ght me out ( my m9d4 ,i made ha/e & receiv$ h]1 & li/5$ to h] err& z if %e _h be5 a du*ess--say r an angel ( ,god1 = su* ,i felt h] 9 my he>t to be4 ,%e want$ a bit ( d>k pr9t ) a p>ticul> k9d ( spot 9 x1 :i* %e _h se5 9 ! %op "s mon?s be=e1 b _h n be5 able to buy4 ,i turn$ ov] ev]y?+ we _h1 & 0 ne>ly 9 despair4 ,at la/1 h[ev]1 ,i f\nd ! v piece :i* _h ev] s9ce haunt$ h] fancy--j en\gh ( x left = a dress6 ,b all ! "t ,i s\ght x1 ,i felt z if ,i 7 do+ ,god s]vice--or at lea/ do+ some?+ he want$ me to d4 ,x s\nds almo/ ludicr\s n[1 b-- ,god =bid6 said ,w+fold4 ,i'm glad y don't ?9k s1 sir4 ,i 0 afraid y w\ld4 ,_h ! ?+ be5 a trifle1 ,i %\ld /ill h said ! same1 return$ ! curate4 ,b :o ) any he>t w\ld call x--a trifle to please ! fancy ( a poor woman1 "o :o is probably f> (t5] vex$ ?an pleas$8 ,%e _h be5 brood+ ov] ?is dress--y took tr\ble to cont5t h] ) h] desire4 ,:o kn[s :at x may d = ! gr[? ( ! woman8 ,i "k :at y've done = me by ! /ory ( x4 ,%e did walk out pleas$-l1 said ! drap]1 --& left me m pleas$ ?an %e1--& s grateful to h] = com+--y c't ?9k6 ,i beg9 to suspect1 said ! curate1 aft] a pause1 t ! common transactions ( life are ! mo/ sacr$ *annels = ! spread ( ! heav5ly leav54 ,!re 0 t5 times m ( ! div9e 9 sell+ h] t g[n z y did1 9 ! "n ( ,god1 ?an 9 tak+ h] into y\r pew & s++ out ( ! same hymn-book ) h]4 ,i %\ld be glad to d t next ?\gh1 if ,i _h ! *ance1 said ,mr4 ,drew4 ,y mu/ n ?9k1 because he has done me s little good1 t our m9i/] is n a fai?ful prea*]2 &1 ow+ y m ?an he>t c tell1 sir1 ,i l *apel bett] ?an *ur*1 & consid] x ne>] ! "r way4 ,i don't mean to be a turncoat1 & leave ,drake = y1 sir2 ,i mu/ give up my deacon%ip1 b ,i won't my pew or my subscription4 ,q "r1 ,mr4 ,drew1 said ,w+fold2 t c\ld d no?+ b h>m4 ,i h j be5 read+ :at our ,"l says ab\t proselytiz+4 ,good night4 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,,home ,,aga94 ,! curate _h ent]$ ! drap]'s %op 9 ! full blaze ( sunset1 b ! demon ( unbelief sat on 8 %\ld]s2 he c\ld get no ne>] 8 he>t1 b t 0 en\gh to make ( ! maje/ical ro( frett$ ) gold5 fire 4444 a f\l & pe/il5t congregation ( vap\rs4 ,:5 he left ! %op1 ! sun 0 f> bel[ ! horizon1 & ! glory _h fad$ out ( ! we/2 b ! demon _h fl$1 & ! br[n fea!rs ( ! twilight 7 beautiful z ! w+s ( ! silv] dove1 sprung heav5w>ds f among ! pots4 ,& z he w5t he reason$ ) himself-- ,ei!r !re is a ,god1 & t ,god ! p]fect he>t ( tru? & lovel9ess1 or all poetry & art is b an uns[n1 unplant$1 rootless fl[]1 cr[n+ a some:at symmetrical heap ( /ones4 ,! man :o sees no beauty 9 its petals1 f9ds no p]fume 9 its brea?1 may well accord x ! p>5tage ( ! /ones2 ! man ^: he>t swells behold+ x w be ready to ?9k x has roots t rea* bel[ !m4 ,! curate's se>*1 x w be rem>k$1 _h already wid5$ greatly ! sph]e ( 8 d\bts2 b1 ! l>g] ! field1 ! great] ! *ance ( f9d+ a m>l-pit2 &1 if !re be su* a ?+ z tru?1 e fre% d\bt is yet ano!r f+]-po/ po9t+ t[>ds its dwell+4--,s talk$ ! curate to himself1 &1 full 9 ! face1 r\nd+ ! corn] ( a /reet1 met ,george ,bascombe4 ,! "y b>ri/] held out 8 l>ge hospitable h& at ! full l5g? ( 8 arm1 & spread abroad 8 wide *e/ to greet him1 & !y w5t ?r\gh ! c]emony ( %ak+ h&s1--:i*1 ev5 9 _! case1 ,i _c judge s degrad+ & hypocritical z ! ,lat9 nations seem to consid] x4 ,!n ,w+fold _h ! fir/ ^w4 ,i h n yet _h an opportunity ( ?ank+ y = ! great s]vice y h done me1 he said4 ,i am glad to "k ,i h su* an hon\r2 b-- ,i mean1 9 op5+ my eyes to my true position4 ,ah1 my de> fell[6 ,i 0 sure y only requir$ to h y\r att5tion turn$ 9 ! "r direction4 ,:5--8--ah6--,i--,i 0 on ! v]ge ( committ+ ! solecism ( ask+ y :5 y ?\ght ( resign+4 ,ha6 ha6 ,n yet1 repli$ ,w+fold to ! "q ?us at once )drawn & put4 ,! m ,i look into ! matt]1 ! m reason ,i f9d = hop+ x may be possible = me to--to--keep ! appo9tm5t4 ,oh6 ,! fur!r ,i inquire1 ! m am ,i conv9c$ t1 if n 9 a c]ta9 portion ( :at ! *ur* tea*es1 !n n[h]e else1 & assur$ly n 9 :at y tea*1 %all ,i f9d any?+ by :i* life c ei!r acc\nt = or ju/ify itself4 ,b if :at y f9d is n true6 cri$ ,george1 ) a bur/ ( semi-gr& indignation4 ,b if :at ,i f9d %\ld be true1 ev5 ?\gh y %\ld nev] be able to see x6 return$ ! curate4 ,& z if disject$ by an explosion betwe5 !m1 ! two m5 7 t5 paces asund]1 ea* hurry+ 8 own way4 ,if ,i c't prove !re is a ,god1 said ,w+fold to himself1 z little surely c he prove !re is none4 ,b !n came ! ?\ght--,! fell[ w say t1 !re be+ no sign ( a ,god1 ! burd5 ( pro( lies ) me4 ,& !re) he saw h[ useless x w\ld be to discuss ! "q ) any "o :o1 n see+ him1 _h no desire to see him4 ,no1 he said1 my bus9ess is n to prove to any o!r man t !re is a ,god1 b to f9d him = myself4 ,if ,i %\ld f9d him1 !n w be "t en\gh to ?9k ( %[+ him4 ,& ) t 8 ?\ghts turn$ f ,bascombe1 & w5t back to ! drap]4 ,:5 he rea*$ home1 he took out 8 sonnet1 b1 aft] work+ at x = a little :ile1 he f\nd t he mu/ ease 8 he>t by writ+ ano!r4 ,"h x is3 ,me?\ght t 9 a solemn *ur* ,i /ood4 ,its m>ble acres1 worn ) knees & feet1 ,lay spread f1 door to door1 f /reet to /reet4 ,midway ! =m hung high ^u ! rood ,( him :o gave 8 life to be our good2 ,beyond1 prie/s flitt$1 b[$1 & murmur$ meet ,among ! c&les %9+ /ill & sweet4 ,m5 came & w5t1 & wor%ipp$ z !y c\ld1 ,& /ill _! du/ a woman ) h] broom1 ,b[$ to h] "w1 kept sweep+ to ! door4 ,!n saw ,i1 sl[ ?r\gh all ! pill>$ gloom1 ,across ! *ur* a sil5t figure come2 ,daught]1 x said1 ?\ sweepe/ well my floor6 ,x is ! ,"l6 ,i cri$2 & saw no m4 ,i suppose1 if "o c\ld s /op ! ?roat ( ! blossom-buri$ night+ale1 t1 ?\gh he might brea! at w1 he c\ld no long] s+1 he w\ld drop f 8 b\gh1 & die ( suppress$ song4 ,p]haps "s m5 s die--,i d n "k2 x 7 bett] ?an to live1 & to bore _! fri5ds ) ! insuppressible4 ,b1 h[ev] ?is may be1 ! man :o c utt] himself to 8 own joy 9 any ( ! =ms ( human expression--let him give ?anks to ,god2 &1 if he give n 8 v]ses to ! pr9t]1 he w probably h cause to give ?anks aga94 ,to ! man's self1 ! utt]ance is n ! less invaluable4 ,& s ,w+fold f\nd x4 ,he w5t out aga91 & into ! *ur*y>d1 :]e he sat d[n on a /one4 ,h[ /range1 he said to himself1 t out ( fai? %\ld h sprung t /one *ur*6 ,a poor little poem n[ & !n is all t /&s = m9e--all t %[s1 t is6 ,b my he>t does sometimes burn1 )9 me4 ,if only ,i c\ld be sure !y 7 ,,8 words t set x burn+6 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,,! ,,%ea?4 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 said ,polw>? "o ev5+1 ! usual salutations ov]1 tak+ :at he commonly left to 8 fri5d--! initiative1--,i want to tell y some?+ ,i don't wi% ev5 ,ra*el to he>4 ,he l$ ! way to 8 room1 & ! curate foll[$4 ,seat$ !re1 9 ! %ad[y old attic1 ?r\gh ! v walls ( :i* ! ivy grew1 & into :i*1 by ! op5 w9d[ 9 ! gable1 f ! inf9ite we/1 blew ! ev5+ air1 c>ry+ ) x ! preci\s sc5t ( honeysuckle1 to m+le ) t ( old books1 ,polw>? rec\nt$ & ,w+fold li/5$ to a /range adv5ture4 ,! trees hid ! sky1 & ! little human ne/ 0 d>k ar\nd !m4 ,i am go+ to make a confidant ( y1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 said ! dw>f1 ) tr\bl$ face1 & almo/ :isp]$ ^w4 ,y w "k h[ mu* ,i h already le>n$ to tru/ y :5 ,i say t :at ,i am ab\t to confide to y pla9ly involves ! secret ( ano!r4 ,8 l>ge face grew pal] z he spoke1 & some?+ almo/ l fe> grew 9 8 eyes1 b !y look$ /raight into ^? ( ! curate1 & 8 voice did n tremble4 ,"o night1 "s weeks ago--,i c1 if necess>y1 make myself c]ta9 ( ! date1--,i 0--no uncommon ?+ ) me--unable to sleep4 ,sometimes1 :5 su* is my case1 ,i lie z /ill & happy z any bird "u ! w+ ( its "m2 at o!r times ,i mu/ get up & g out1 = ,i take long+s = air almo/ z a drunk>d = w9e1 & t night no?+ w\ld s]ve my poor prison$ s\l b m air ?r\gh ! b>s ( its lungs4 ,i rose1 dress$1 & w5t out4 ,x 0 a /ill1 w>m night1 no moon1 b pl5ty ( />-light1 ! w9d bl[+ z n[1 g5tle & sweet & cool--j ! w9d my lungs sigh$ =4 ,i got into ! op5 p>k1 avoid+ ! trees1 & w&]$ on & on1 )\t ?9k+ :]e ,i 0 go+4 ,! turf 0 s(t "u my feet1 ! dusk s(t to my eyes1 & ! w9d to my s\l2 ,i _h brea? & room & leisure & sil5ce & lonel9ess1 & ev]y?+ to make me m ?an usually happy2 & s ,i w&]$ on & on1 nei!r c>+ nor look+ :i!r ,i w5t3 s long z ! />s rema9$ uncl\d$1 ,i c\ld f9d my way back :5 ,i pleas$4 ,i _h be5 out p]haps an h\r1 :5 ?r\gh ! s(t air came a cry1 app>5tly f f> (f4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ! tone t seem$ to me unusually frightful4 ,! b>e s\nd made me %udd] be=e ,i _h "t to say to myself x 0 a cry4 ,i turn$ my face 9 ! direction ( x1 s f> z ,i c\ld judge1 & w5t on4 ,i _c run1 =1 if ,i attempt x1 ,i am 9 a mom5t unable ev5 to walk--f palpitation & *ok+4 ,i _h n gone v f> be=e ,i f\nd myself approa*+ ! holl[ :]e /&s ! old h\se ( ,gla/on1 un9habit$ = tw5ty ye>s4 ,0 x possible1 ,i ?\ght1 t ! cry came f ! h\se1 & _h !re=e s\nd$ f>!r (f ?an x 08 ,i /ood & li/5$ = a mom5t1 b all seem$ /ill z ! grave4 ,i mu/ g 91 & see :e!r anyone 0 !re 9 want ( help4 ,y may well smile at ! idea ( my help+ anyone1 = :at c\ld ,i d if x came to a /ruggle8 ,on ! contr>y1 int]rupt$ ,w+fold1 ,i 0 smil+ ) admiration ( y\r pluck4 ,at lea/1 resum$ ,polw>?1 ,i h ?is advantage ov] "s1 t ,i _c be fool$ ) ! fancy t ?is poor mis]able body ( m9e is wor? ?9k+ ( beside ! smalle/ suspicion ( duty4 ,:at is x b a crack$ jug8 ,s d[n ! slope ,i w5t1 got into ! g>d51 & made my way ?r\gh ! tangl$ bu%es to ! h\se4 ,i knew ! place p]fectly1 = ,i _h (t5 w&]$ all ov] x1 sometimes sp5d+ h\rs !re4 ,be=e ,i rea*$ ! door1 h[ev]1 ,i he>d "s "o beh9d me 9 ! g>d51 & in/antly /epp$ into a ?icket ( gooseb]ry & currant bu%es4 ,x is sometimes an advantage to be little--! mom5t ,i /epp$ aside ,i 0 hidd54 ,t same mom5t ! night seem$ r5t 9 twa9 by a mo/ hide\s cry f ! h\se4 ,ere ,i c\ld brea! aga9 aft] x1 ! tall figure ( a woman ru%$ pa/ me1 te>+ its way ?r\gh ! bu%es t[>ds ! door4 ,i foll[$ in/antly1 saw h] run up ! /eps1 & he>d h] op5 & %ut ! door4 ,i op5$ x z quietly z ,i c\ld1 b j z ,i /epp$ into ! d>k hall1 came a ?ird fe>ful cry1 ?r\gh ! e*oes ( :i* 9 ! empty h\se ,i he>d ! ru% ( hurri$ feet & trail+ g>m5ts on ! /air4 ,z ,i say ,i knew ! h\se q well1 b my p]turbation _h s muddl$ ! idea ( x 9 my bra91 t = a few seconds ,i _h to consid] h[ x lay4 ,! mom5t ,i recall$ its plan1 ,i made :at ha/e ,i c\ld1 rea*$ ! top ( ! /air1 & 0 hesitat+ :i* way to turn1 :5 once m came ! fe>ful cry1 & set me trembl+ f head to foot4 ,i _c describe ! horror ( x4 ,x 0 z ! cry ( a s\l 9 torture--unlike any s\nd ( ! human voice ,i _h ev] be=e he>d4 ,i %udd] n[ at ! recollection ( x z x e*o$ ?r\gh ! h\se1 cl++ to ! walls & driv5 along4 ,i 0 hurry+ ,i knew n :i!r1 = ,i _h aga9 lo/ all notion ( ! h\se1 :5 ,i caught a glimpse ( a light %9+ f "u a door4 ,i approa*$ x s(tly1 & f9d+ t door inside a small closet1 knew at once :]e ,i 04 ,z ,i 0 9 (fice on ! gr\nd1 & x c\ld h>dly be any ?+ righte\s t l$ to su* an outcry 9 ! h\se1 :i*1 al?\gh des]t$1 0 /ill my ma/]'s1 ,i felt ju/ifi$ 9 se>*+ fur!r into ! matt]4 ,lay+ my e> !re=e aga9/ ! door1 ,i he>d :at 0 pla9ly a lady's voice4 ,"r sweet & womanly x 01 ?\gh full ( pa9--ev5 agony1 ,i ?\ght1 b h]oically suppress$4 ,%e soo!d1 %e expo/ulat$1 %e condol$1 %e coax$4 ,m+l$ ) h]s 0 ! voice ( a y\?1 z x seem$4 ,x 0 wild1 yet s l[ z sometimes to be all b inaudible1 & n a ^w f ei!r c\ld ,i di/+ui%4 ,h>dly ! less pla9 0 x1 h[ev]1 t ! y\? spoke ei!r 9 delirium or ) some?+ t]rible on 8 m9d1 = 8 tones 7 ^? ( "o 9 despair4 ,i /ood = a "t bewild]$1 fasc9at$1 t]rifi$4 ,at l5g? ,i grew conv9c$ someh[ t ,i _h no "r to be !re4 ,d\btless ! man 0 9 hid+1 & :]e a man hides !re mu/ he reason1 b 0 x any bus9ess ( m9e8 ,i crept out ( ! h\se1 & up to ! high] gr\nd4 ,!re ,i drew deep brea?s ( ! sweet night air--s pure t x seem$ to be wa%+ ! _w clean = ano!r day's uses4 ,b ,i _h no long] any pleasure 9 ! _w4 ,i w5t /raight home1 & to b$ aga9--b _h br\ght little repose ) me3 ,i mu/ d some?+--b :at8 ,! only result c]ta9 to foll[1 0 m tr\ble to ! tr\bl$ already4 ,might !re n be innoc5t reasons = ! que/ionable situation8--,might n ! man h be5 tak5 ill1 & s sudd5ly t he c\ld rea* no o!r %elt]8 ,& ! lady might be 8 wife1 :o _h gone z soon z %e c\ld leave him to f9d help1 b _h fail$4 ,!re ,,mu/ be "s simple explanation ( ! matt]1 h[ev] /range x %[$6 ,i might1 9 ! morn+1 be ( s]vice to !m4 ,& p>tly com=t$ by ! tempor>y conclusion1 ,i got a little tr\bl$ sleep4 ,z soon z ,i _h _h a cup ( tea1 ,i set out = ! old h\se4 ,i he>d ! s\nds ( ! workm5's hamm]s on ! new "o z ,i w5t4 ,all else 0 sil5ce4 ,! day look$ s hone/ & s cle> ( consci5ce t x 0 difficult to believe ! night _h %r\d$ su* an awful meet+4 ,yet1 9 ! broad light ( ! =5oon1 a cold %udd] seiz$ me :5 fir/ ,i look$ d[n on ! slack ridges & brok5 ro(s ( ! old h\se4 ,:5 ,i got into ! g>d5 ,i began to s+ & knock ! bu%es ab\t1 !n op5$ ! door noisily1 & clatt]$ ab\t 9 ! hall & ! l[] rooms be=e go+ up ! /air4 ,along e passage & into e room ,i w5t1 to give good w>n+ ere ,i approa*$ t 9 :i* ,i _h he>d ! voices4 ,at l5g? ,i /ood at ! door ( x & knock$4 ,!re 0 no answ]4 ,i knock$ aga94 ,/ill no answ]4 ,i op5$ x & peep$ 94 ,!re 0 no "o !re6 ,an old b$/ead 0 all ,i saw4 ,i se>*$ e corn]1 b n "o trace c\ld ,i discov] ( human be+ hav+ be5 !re1 except ?is beh9d ! b$--& x may h la9 !re z long z ! mattress1 :i* ,i rememb] s9ce ! fir/ "t ,i ev] w5t into ! h\se4 ,z he spoke ,polw>? h&$ to ! curate a small lea!r %ea?1 :i*1 f its %ape1 c\ld n h belong$ to a pair ( scissors1 al?\gh nei!r ( ! m5 knew any sort ( knife x w\ld h fitt$4 ,w\ld y m9d tak+ c>e ( x1 ,mr4 ,w+fold8 ! gate-keep] cont9u$ z ! curate exam9$ x2 ,i don't l hav+ x4 ,i c't ev5 be> to ?9k ( x ev5 9 ! h\se1 & yet ,i don't q c>e to de/roy x4 ,i don't 9 ! lea/ m9d tak+ *>ge ( x1 answ]$ ,w+fold4 ,:y 0 x t1 z he said s1 ! face ( ,hel5 ,l+>d rose be=e 8 m9d's eye z he _h n[ se5 x twice 9 ! congregation at ! ,abbey--pale ) an inw>d tr\ble z x seem$1 l>ge-ey$ & worn--s *ang$1 yet s ennobl$8 ,ev5 !n he _h felt ! dead5+ effect ( its li/lessness1 & _h _h to turn away le/ x %\ld compel him to feel t he 0 b talk+ to ! w9ds1 or into a des]t :]e dwelt no voice ( human response4 ,:y %\ld he ?9k ( h] n[8 ,0 x t h] tr\bl$ pallid face _h t\*$ him--_h set some?+ ne> 8 he>t a trembl+1 :e!r ) m]ely human sympa?y or ) ! t5d]ness ( man = suff]+ woman8 ,c]ta9ly he _h nev] till !n ?\ght ( h] ) ! slighte/ int]e/1 & :y %\ld %e come up to him n[8 ,c\ld x be t--8 ,good heav5s6 ,!re 0 h] bro!r ill6 ,& _h n ,fab] said !re seem$ some?+ unusual ab\t ! "* ( 8 illness8--,:at c\ld x mean8--,x 0 impossible ( c\rse--b yet--& yet-- ,d y ?9k1 he said1 we are 9 any way b\nd to inquire fur!r into ! affair8 ,if ,i _h ?\ght s1 ,i %\ld n h left x unm5tion$ till n[1 answ]$ ,polw>?4 ,b )\t be+ busybodies1 we might be prep>$ 9 case ! ?+ %\ld unfold itself1 & put x 9 our p[] to be useful4 ,meantime ,i h ! relief ( ! confessional4 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,invitation4 ,z ,w+fold walk$ back to 8 lodg+s1 he f\nd a new elem5t m+l+ ) ! v>i$ matt] ( 8 previ\s inquiry4 ,human suff]+ laid hold ^u him--nei!r z 8 own nor z t ( humanity1 b z t ( m5 & wom5--kn[n or unkn[n1 x matt]$ no?+3 !re 7 he>ts 9 ! _w f ^: agony broke t]rible cries1 he>ts ( :i* sad faces l t ( ,miss ,l+>d 7 ! expon5ts4 ,su* he>ts might be groan+ & wri?+ 9 any ( ! h\ses he pass$1 &1 ev5 if he knew ! he>ts1 & :at ! vampire t suck$ _! blood1 he c\ld d no?+ = _! relief4 ,little inde$ c\ld he h imag9$ ! life ( su* a com=t-gu>d$ lady z ,miss ,l+>d1 expos$ to ! intrusion ( any t]ror-wak+ mon/]1 f ! old ocean ( *aos1 into ! quiet fl[ ( its mead[-bank$ riv]6 ,& :at multitudes mu/ !re n be 9 ! _w--:at multitudes 9 our isl&--h[ _m ev5 9 ,gla/on1 ^: he>ts1 lac]at$ by no remorse1 ov]:elm$ by no cru%+ s5se ( guilt1 yet knew _! own bitt]ness1 & _h no fri5d radiant en\gh to make a sun%9e 9 _! %ady places6 ,he fell into m\rnful mood ov] ! tr\bles ( 8 race4 ,always a k9d-he>t$ fell[1 he _h n be5 us$ to ?9k ab\t su* ?+s2 he _h _h tr\bles ( 8 own1 & _h got ?r\gh at lea/ "s ( !m2 p mu/ h tr\bles1 else w\ld !y gr[ un5durable = pride & insol5ce4 ,b n[ t he _h begun to hope he saw a glimm] some:]e af> at ! end ( ! d>ksome cave 9 :i* he _h all at once discov]$ t he 0 buri$ alive1 he began also to feel h[ wret*$ ^? mu/ be :o 7 grop+ on )\t ev5 a hope 9 _! d>k eyes4 ,if he _h nev] committ$ any crime1 he _h yet done wrong en\gh to und]/& ! mis]y ( %ame & di%on\r1 & %\ld he n f9d a lov+ human he>t ! he>t ( ! _w1 w\ld rejoice--) :at rejoic+ might !n be possible--to accept ,george ,bascombe's !ory1 & drop into ! jaws ( d>kness & cease4 ,h[ mu* m mis]able !n mu/ ^? be :o _h committ$ "s t]rible crime1 or de>ly lov$ "o :o _h6 ,:at relief1 :at hope1 :at light5+ = !m6 ,:at a bre$+ ne/ ( v]miculate c>es & pa9s 0 ?is human he>t ( ours6 ,oh1 surely x ne$$ "s refuge6 ,if no savi\r _h yet come1 ! tortur$ _w ( human he>ts cri$ al\d = "o ) unutt]able groan+6 ,:at w\ld ,bascombe d if he _h committ$ a murd]8 ,or :at c\ld he d = "o :o _h8 ,if fable x 71 x 0 at lea/ a ne$--inv5t$ "o--t ( a ,savi\r to :om anyone might g1 at any mom5t1 )\t a j\rney1 )\t lett]s or comm5dations or cr$5tials6 ,& yet no3 if x _h be5 inv5t$1 x c\ld h>dly be by any "o 9 ! ne$1 = su* ev5 n[ c\ld h>dly be br\ght to believe x4 ,ill be/$ 7 ! _w inde$ if !re 7 no "o beyond ^: p>don crime c\ld n g6 ,ah6 b :]e 0 ! good ( p>don if /ill ! consci\s crime kept /++8 & :o w\ld wi% "o he lov$ to gr[ call\s to ! crime he _h committ$8 ,c\ld "o rejoice t 8 guilty fri5d _h le>n$ to laugh aga91 able at l5g? to bani% ! memory ( ! f\l ?+8 ,w\ld reviv+ self-cont5t r5d] him pleasant to ! eyes1 & 8 company preci\s 9 ! wisdom t spr+s f ! k ( evil8 ,w\ld n t be ! mom5t :5 he :o _h mo/ assidu\sly s\ght to com=t him 9 8 remorse1 w\ld fir/ be tempt$ to )draw 8 foot f 8 ?re%old8 ,b if !re 0 a ,god--su* a ,god z1 accord+ to ! ,*ri/ian /ory1 _h s5t 8 own son into ! _w--_h giv5 him to appe> among u1 clo!d 9 ! g>b ( humanity1 ! arm\r t c be pi]c$1 to take all ! consequ5ces ( be+ ! god ( ob$i5ce among/ ! *ildr5 ( disob$i5ce1 engulf+ _! wrongs 9 8 inf9ite =be>ance1 & w9n+ !m back1 by sl[ & unpromis+ & t$i\s r5ewal1 to ! he>t ( 8 fa!r1 surely su* a ,god w\ld n h creat$ !m1 kn[+ t "s ( !m w\ld s9 s9s f ! horror ( :i* 9 !mselves all 8 devotion c\ld n r$eem !m6--,& z he ?\ght ?us1 ! words arose 9 8 m9d--,,come ,,unto ,,me ,,all ,,ye ,,t ,,lab\r ,,& ,,are ,,heavy ,,lad51 ,,& ,i ,,w ,,give ,,y ,,re/4 ,8 he>t fill$4 ,he pond]$ ov] !m4 ,:5 he got home he s\ght & f\nd !m 9 ! book4--,did a man ev] really utt] !m8 ,if a man did1 ei!r he 0 ! mo/ presumptu\s ( mortals1 or ,,he ,,c\ld ,,d ,,:at ,,he ,,said4 ,if he c\ld1 !n to h se5 & di/ru/$ t man1 ,w+fold felt1 w\ld h be5 to de/roy 9 himself ! believ+ faculty & become incapable ( tru/+ = ev] aft]4 ,& su* a man mu/1 9 virtue ( 8 v innoc5ce1 "k t ! wor/ we>9ess & ! wor/ load is evil & crime1 & mu/ "k himself able1 9 full righte\sness1 ) no juggl]y ( oblivion or self-e/eem1 to take (f ! heavy load & give re/4 ,& yet1 ?\ght ! curate1 n )\t self-reproa*1 = "o :o w g to him to get ! re/1 a ?\s& w ask--,,h[ ,,c ,,he ,,!n ,,d ,,x8--,z if !y %\ld be fit to "k6 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,a ,,s]mon ,,to ,,hel54 ,all ! re/ ( ! week 8 m9d 0 full ( ?\ghts l ^!1 amid :i* ev] arose ! suff]+ face ( ,hel5 ,l+>d1 br++ ) x ! /ill /r5g!n+ suspicion t beh9d x mu/ lie "s oppressive1 p]haps t]rible secret4 ,b he made no slighte/ movem5t t[>ds ! discov]y ( x1 put n a s+le "q 9 any direction = its confirmation or dissolution4 ,he w\ld n look 9 at h] w9d[s1 b :at se$s ( com=t he c\ld f9d1 he w\ld scatt] wide1 & hope t "s ( !m might fall into h] g>d54 ,:5 he rais$ 8 head on ! ,sunday f kneel+1 ) he>t hone/1 dev\t1 & neighb\rly1 9 ! pulpit be=e ! s]mon1 & ca/ 8 eyes r\nd 8 congregation1 !y re/$ fir/1 = "o mom5t & no m1 ^u ! same pallid & tr\bl$ c\nt5ance ^: reflection _h s (t5 ( late look$ out f ! magic mirror ( 8 memory2 ! next1 !y flitt$ across ! satisfi$1 heal?y1 h&some1 clev] face ( h] c\s91 beh9d :i* pla9ly sat a consci5ce well-to-d1 9 an easy *air2 ! ?ird1 !y saw & fl$ ! peevi% autumnal visage ( ,mrs4 ,ram%orn2 ! next1 !y rov$ a little1 !n re/$ on ! drap]'s good-hum\r$ disc1 on ! :ite =ehead ( :i* brood$ a cl\d ( ?\ghtfulness4 ,la/ ( all !y s\ght ! free seats1 & f\nd ! faces ( bo? ! dw>fs4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t he _h se5 ,ra*el's !re1 & x /ruck him t x express$ great] suff]+ ?an he _h read 9 x be=e4 ,%e ought r to be 9 b$ ?an 9 *ur*1 he ?\ght4 ,b ! same seem$ ! case ) h] uncle's c\nt5ance also2 & ) t came ! conclusion t ! pulpit 0 a wond]ful wat*-t[] :5ce to /udy human nature2 t p lay b>e m ( _! real nature & condition to ! man 9 ! pulpit ?an !y "k--ev5 be=e ! s]mon4 ,_! faces h fall5 into ! %ape ( _! m9ds1 = ! *ur* has an isolat+ z well z congregat+ p[]1 & no pass+ emotion m\lds !m to an evanesc5t %[4 ,:5 ,polw>? spoke to a fri5d1 ! suff]+ melt$ 9 issu+ radiance2 :5 he sat ?us quiesc5t1 pati5t endurance 0 ! fir/ ?+ to be read on 8 c\nt5ance4 ,?is fla%$ ?r\gh ! curate's m9d 9 ! mom5ts ere he began to speak1 & ) x came afre% ! feel+--"o t is1 yet ought n to be sad--t no "o ( all ^! he>ts c\ld give summ]-wea!r to ano!r4 ,! te>s rose 9 8 eyes z he gaz$1 & 8 he>t swell$ t[>ds 8 own fle% & blood1 z if 8 _s w\ld break =? 9 a torr5t ( m9i/]+ t5d]ness & com=t4 ,!n he made ha/e to speak le/ he %\ld become unable4 ,z usual 8 voice trembl$ at fir/1 b rose into /r5g? z 8 e>ne/ness f\nd way4 ,?is is a good deal l :at he said3 ,! m>vell\s man :o is report$ to h appe>$ 9 ,pale/9e1 tea*+ & prea*+1 seems to h suff]$ f> m f sympa?y ) ! inw>d sorr[s ( 8 race ?an f pity = _! bodily pa9s4 ,^! la/1 c\ld he n h swept f ! e>? ) a ^w8 & yet x seems to h be5 mo/ly1 if n inde$ always1 only 9 answ] to pray] t he heal$ !m1 & t = ! sake ( "s deep]1 "s spiritual heal+ t %\ld g ) ! bodily cure4 ,x c\ld n be = ! dead man :om he 0 ab\t to call f ! tomb1 t 8 te>s fl[$4 ,:at s\rce c\ld !y h b compassion & pitiful sympa?y = ! sorr[s ( ! dead man's si/]s & fri5ds :o _h n ! inw>d joy t su/a9$ himself1 & ! ?\ght ( all ! pa9s & he>ta*es ( ^? t look$ 9 ! face ( dea?--! mean+s ( love--torn g5]ations1 ! blackness ( b]eavem5t t _h /orm$ ?r\gh ! ev] *ang+ _w ( human he>ts s9ce fir/ man _h be5 made 9 ! image ( 8 ,fa!r8 ,yet are !re f> m t]rible tr\bles ?an ?is dea?--:i* ,i tru/ c only "p1 n keep ap>t4 ,!re is ! weight ( consci\s wrong be+ & wrong do+--t is ! grave/one t ne$s to be roll$ away ere a man c rise to life4 ,call to m9d h[ ,jesus us$ to =give m5's s9s1 ?us lift+ f _! he>ts ! cru%+ load t p>alyz$ all _! ef=ts4 ,recall ! t5d]ness ) :i* he receiv$ ^? f :om ! religi\s ( 8 day turn$ aside--! rep5tant wom5 :o wept sore-he>t$ f v love1 ! publicans :o knew !y 7 despis$ because !y 7 despicable4 ,) him !y s\ght & f\nd %elt]4 ,he 0 _! savi\r f ! /orm ( human judgm5t & ! bit+ fro/ ( public op9ion1 ev5 :5 t op9ion & t judgm5t 7 re-e*o$ by ! ju/ice ( _! own he>ts4 ,he receiv$ !m1 & ! life )9 !m rose up1 & ! light %one--! consci\s light ( light1 despite ev5 ( %ame & self-reproa*4 ,if ,god be = u :o c be aga9/ u8 ,9 8 "n !y rose f ! hell ( _! own he>ts' condemnation1 & w5t =? to d ! tru? 9 /r5g? & hope4 ,!y he>d & believ$ & obey$ 8 words4 ,& ( all words t ev] 7 spok51 7 ev] words g5tl]1 t5d]]1 humbl]1 loveli]--if true1 or m arrogant1 man-degrad+1 ,god-defy+--if false1 ?an ^!1 conc]n+ :i*1 z 81 ,i n[ desire to speak to y3 ',come unto me1 all ye t lab\r & are heavy-lad51 & ,i w give y re/4 ,take my yoke ^u y1 & le>n ( me2 = ,i am meek & l[ly 9 he>t3 & ye %all f9d re/ unto y\r s\ls4 ,= my yoke is easy1 & my burd5 is light'8 ,surely ^! words1 c\ld !y b be he>tily believ$1 are su* z e human he>t might gladly he>6 ,:at man is !re :o has n _h1 has n n[1 or w n h to class himself among/ ! we>y & heavy-lad58 ,ye :o call y\rselves ,*ri/ians pr(ess to believe su* re/ is to be _h1 yet h[ _m ( y g b[$ to ! v e>?1 & take no s+le /ep t[>ds him :o says ,come1 lift n an eye to see :e!r a face ( m]cy may n be look+ d[n ^u y6 ,is x t1 aft] all1 y d n believe !re ev] 0 su* a man z !y call ,jesus8 ,t c h>dly be4 ,!re are few s ignorant1 or s wilfully illogical z to be able to disbelieve 9 ! exi/5ce ( ! man1 or t he spoke words to ?is effect4 ,is x !n t y are d\btful conc]n+ ! :ole import ( 8 appe>ance8 ,9 t case1 7 x b z a d\btful m$ic9e1 w\ld x n be well to make "s trial ( ! (f] made8 ,if ! man said ! words1 he mu/ h at lea/ believ$ t he c\ld fulfil !m4 ,:o t kn[s any?+ ( him at all c = a mom5t hold t ?is man spoke :at he did n believe8 ,! be/ ( ! ,jews :o yet d n believe 9 him1 say ( him t he 0 a good ?\gh mi/ak5 man4 ,w a man lie = ! privilege ( be+ despis$ & reject$ ( m51 a man ( sorr[s & acqua9t$ ) grief8 ,:at b ! confid5ce ( tru? c\ld h su/a9$ him :5 he knew t ev5 ^? :o lov$ him w\ld h left him _h !y believ$ :at he told !m ( 8 com+ fate8--,b !n3 believ+ :at he said1 might he n h be5 mi/ak58--,a man c h>dly be mi/ak5 z to :e!r he is at peace or n--:e!r he has re/ 9 8 s\l or n4 ,nei!r ,i ?9k c a man well be mi/ak5 z to :5ce comes ! peace he possesses1--z to ! well :5ce he draws 8 com=t4 ,! mis] kn[s 8 com=t is 8 gold4 ,0 ,jesus likely to be mi/ak5 :5 he suppos$ himself to "k t 8 com=t came f 8 ,god8 ,anyh[ he believ$ t 8 peace came f 8 ob$i5ce--f 8 on5ess ) ! w ( 8 ,fa!r4 ,fri5ds1 if ,i _h su* peace z 0 pla9ly 81 %\ld ,i n "k well :5ce x came8--,b ,i ?9k ,i he> "s "o say3 ',d\btless ! good man d]iv$ com=t f ! ?\ght ( 8 ,fa!r1 b might he n be mi/ak5 9 suppos+ !re 0 any ,fa!r8' ,he> me1 my fri5ds3 ,i d>e n say ,i "k !re is a ,fa!r4 ,i d>e n ev5 say ,i ?9k1 ,i c only say ) my :ole he>t ,i hope we h inde$ a ,fa!r 9 heav52 b ?is man says ,,he ,,kn[s4 ,am ,i to say he does n "k8 ,c ,i1 :o "k s mu* ,i w\ld gladly h o!rwise 9 myself1 imag9e him less hone/ ?an ,i am8 ,if he tells me he kn[s1 ,i am dumb & li/54 ,"o ,i ,,"k3 ,,!re ,,is--outweighs a :ole creation ( voices cry+ ea* ,i ,,"k ,,n1 ,,!re=e ,,!re ,,is ,,n4 ,& obs]ve x is 8 own1 8 own be/ he wants to give !m--no bribe to ob$i5ce to 8 w1 b ! assurance ( bliss if !y w d z he does4 ,he wants !m to h peace--,,8 peace--peace f ! same s\rce :5ce he has x4 ,= :at does he mean by ,,take ,,my ,,yoke ,,^u ,,y1 ,,& ,,le>n ,,( ,,me8 ,he does n mean ,,we> ,,! ,,yoke ,i ,,lay ,,^u ,,y1 ,,& ,,obey ,,my ,,words4 ,i d n say he might n h said s1 or t he does n say :at comes to ! same ?+ at o!r times1 b t is n :at he says "h--t is n ! tru? he w\ld convey 9 ^! words4 ,he means ,,take ,,^u ,,y ,,! ,,yoke ,i ,,we>2 ,,le>n ,,to ,,d ,,z ,i ,,d1 ,,:o ,,submit ,,ev]y?+ ,,& ,,ref] ,,ev]y?+ ,,to ,,! ,,w ,,( ,,my ,,fa!r1 ,,yea ,,h ,,my ,,w ,,only ,,9 ,,! ,,c>ry+ ,,out ,,( ,,83 ,,be ,,meek ,,& ,,l[ly ,,9 ,,he>t1 ,,& ,,ye ,,%all ,,f9d ,,re/ ,,unto ,,y\r ,,s\ls4 ,) all ! grief ( humanity 9 8 he>t1 9 ! face ( ! dea? t await$ him1 he yet says1 ,,= ,,my ,,yoke1 ,,! ,,yoke ,i ,,we>1 ,,is ,,easy1 ,,! ,,burd5 ,i ,,be> ,,is ,,light4 ,:at made t yoke easy1--t burd5 light8 ,t x 0 ! w ( ! ,fa!r4 ,if a man answ]3 ',any good man :o believ$ 9 a ,god1 might say z mu*1 & ,i d n see h[ x c help me2' my reply is1 t ?is man says1 ,,come ,,unto ,,me1 ,,& ,i ,,w ,,give ,,y ,,re/--ass]t+ ! p[] to give p]fect help to him t comes4--,does all ?is look f> away1 my fri5ds1 & v unlike ! ?+s ab\t u8 ,! ?+s ab\t y d n give y peace2 f some?+ diff]5t y may hope to ga9 x4 ,& d n our s\ls !mselves fall out ) _! surr\nd+s1 & cry = a nobl]1 bett]1 m beautiful life8 ,b "s "o w p]haps say3 ',x is well2 b 7 ,i meek & l[ly 9 he>t z he ( :om y speak1 x c\ld n t\* ,,my tr\ble3 t spr+s n f myself1 b f "o ,i love4' ,i answ]1 if ! peace be ! peace ( ! ,son ( man1 x mu/ rea* to e cause ( unre/4 ,& if ?\ had/ x1 w\ld x n !n be next door to ?y fri5d8 ,h[ %all he :om ?\ love/ receive x ! mo/ readily--b ?r\gh !e :o love/ him8 ,:at if ?y fai? %\ld be ! next /ep to 88 ,anyh[1 if ?is peace be n an all-rea*+ z well z a he>t-fill+ peace2 if x be n a righte\s & a lovely peace1 & t 9 despite ( all surr\nd+ & oppos+ tr\bles1 !n x is n ! peace ( ,god1 = t passe? all und]/&+3--s at lea/ say !y :o pr(ess to "k1 & ,i desire to take !m at _! ^w4 ,if ?y tr\ble be a tr\ble ?y ,god _c set "r1 !n ei!r ?y ,god is n ! true ,god1 or !re is no true ,god1 & ! man :o pr(ess$ to reveal him l$ ! "o p]fect life 9 virtue ( 8 fai? 9 a falsehood4 ,alas = poor m5 & wom5 & _! a*+ he>ts6--,if x (f5d any ( y t ,i speak ( ,jesus z ,,! ,,man :o pr(ess$ to reveal ,god1 ,i answ]1 t ! man ,i see1 & he draws me z ) ! /r5g? ( ! adorable ,tru?2 b if 9 him ,i %\ld c]ta9ly f9d ! ,god = ! lack ( ^: peace ,i & my bre?r5 & si/]s p9e1 !n 7 heav5 itself too n>r[ to hold my exultation1 = 9 ,god himself alone c\ld my joy f9d room4 ,come !n1 sore he>t1 & see :e!r 8 he>t _c heal ?9e4 ,he kn[s :at sighs & te>s are1 & if he knew no s9 9 himself1 ! m pitiful mu/ x h be5 to him to behold ! sighs & te>s t guilt wrung f ! tortur$ he>ts ( 8 bre?r5 & si/]s4 ,bro!rs1 si/]s1 we ,,mu/ get rid ( ?is mis]y ( ours4 ,x is slay+ u4 ,x is turn+ ! fair e>? into a hell1 & our he>ts into its fuel4 ,!re /&s ! man1 :o says he kn[s3 take him at 8 ^w4 ,g to him :o says 9 ! might ( 8 et]nal t5d]ness & 8 human pity--,,come ,,unto ,,me1 ,,all ,,ye ,,t ,,lab\r ,,& ,,are ,,heavy-,,lad51 ,,& ,i ,,w ,,give ,,y ,,re/4 ,,take ,,my ,,yoke ,,^u ,,y1 ,,& ,,le>n ,,( ,,me2 ,,= ,i ,,am ,,meek ,,& ,,l[ly ,,9 ,,he>t3 ,,& ,,ye ,,%all ,,f9d ,,re/ ,,unto ,,y\r ,,s\ls4 ,,= ,,my ,,yoke ,,is ,,easy ,,& ,,my ,,burd5 ,,is ,,light4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,a ,,s]mon ,,to ,,himself4 ,long ere he ?us came to a close1 ,w+fold 0 bl9d to all & e individuality be=e him--felt only ! g5]al suff]+ ( ! human s\l1 & ! new-born hope = x t lay 9 ! /ory ( ! ideal man1 ! human ,god4 ,he did n see t ,hel5's head 0 d[n on ! book-bo>d4 ,%e 0 sobb+ convulsively4 ,9 "s way ! ^w _h t\*$ h]1 & _h unseal$ ! f\nta9 ( te>s1 if n ( fai?4 ,nei!r did he see ! curl on ! lip ( ,bascombe1 or ! glance ( annoyance :i*1 e n[ & !n1 he ca/ ^u ! b5t head beside him4 ,:at on e>? are y cry+ ab\t8 ,x is all 9 ! way ( 8 bus9ess1 y "k1 said ,bascombe's eyes1 b ,hel5 did n he> !m4 ,"o or two m 9 ! congregation 7 weep+1 & "h & !re %one a face 9 :i* ! light seem$ to prev5t ! te>s4 ,polw>? %one & ,ra*el wept4 ,= ! re/1 ! congregation li/5$ only ) v>y+ degrees ( att5tion & indiff]5ce4 ,! l>g] portion look$ z if nei!r ,w+fold nor any o!r body ev] meant any?+--at lea/ 9 ! pulpit4 ,! mom5t ,w+fold rea*$ ! ve/ry1 he hurri$ (f ! g>m5ts ( 8 pr(ession1 sp$ f ! ,abbey1 & all b ran across ! *ur*-y>d to 8 lodg+4 ,!re he %ut himself up 9 8 *amb]1 fe>ful le/ he %\ld h said m ?an he _h yet a "r to say1 & le/ ebb+ emotion %\ld uncov] ! fact t he _h be5 b fir$ by ! runn+ ( 8 own :eels1 & n inspir$ by ! guide ( ! fi]y-:eel$ ?rone1 ! *]ub ,contemplation4 ,!re1 f ! congregation1 f ! *ur*1 f ! s]mon1 f ! pa/ altoge!r1 he turn$ aside 8 face & w\ld =get !m q4 ,:at _h he to d ) ! ?+ t 0 done1--done )1 & gone1 ei!r into ! treasury or ! lumb]-room1 ( creation8 ,t[>ds ! hills ( help he turn$ 8 face--to ! summits ov] ^: tops he look$ = ! dayspr+ f on high to break =?4 ,if only ,*ri/ w\ld come to him6--,d :at he might1 h[ev]1 8 ?\ghts ,,w\ld w&] back to ! great go?ic gulf into :i* he _h be5 p\r+ out 8 s\l1 & ! great] human gulfs t op5$ into ! anci5t pile1 ^: m\?s 7 ! faces t hid ! floor b5ea? !m--until at l5g? he 0 altoge!r vex$ ) himself = be+ int]e/$ 9 :at he _h done1 in/ead ( absorb$ 9 :at he _h yet to d4 ,he left !re=e 8 *amb]1 & plac$ himself at a side-table 9 8 sitt+-room1 :ile 8 l&lady prep>$ ! o!r = 8 d9n]4 ,%e too _h be5 at *ur* t morn+1 :5ce x came t %e mov$ ab\t & set ! ?+s on ! table ) unusual s(tness1 caus+ him no int]ruption :ile he wrote d[n a l9e "h & !re ( :at aft]w>ds grew into ! foll[+ v]ses--born 9 ! ef=t to =get ! ?+s t 7 beh9d1 & rea* =? aft] ! ?+s t lay be=e him4 ,yes1 ,ma/]1 :5 ?\ come/ ?\ %alt f9d ,a little fai? on e>?1 if ,i am "h6 ,?\ "k'/ h[ (t ,i turn to !e my m9d1 ,h[ sad ,i wait until ?y face appe>6 ,ha/ ?\ n pl\gh$ my ?orny gr\nd full sore1 ,& f x ga!r$ _m /ones & %]ds8 ,pl\gh1 pl\gh & h>r[ till x ne$s no m-- ,!n s[ ?y mu/>d-se$1 & s5d ?y birds4 ,i love !e1 ,"l2 & if ,i yield to fe>s1 ,nor tru/ ) triumph t pale d\bt defies1 ,rememb]1 ,"l1 'tis nigh two ?\s& ye>s1 ,& ,i h nev] se5 !e ) m9e eyes4 ,& :5 ,i lift !m f ! wondr\s tale1 ,see1 all ab\t me has s /range a %[6 ,is t ?y riv] runn+ d[n ! vale8 ,is t ?y w9d t ?r\gh ! p9es do? bl[8 ,c\ld/ ?\ "r v]ily appe> aga91 ,! same :o walk$ ! pa?s ( ,pale/9e1 ,& "h 9 ,engl& tea* ?y tru/+ m51 ,9 *ur* & field & h\se1 ) ^w & sign8 ,"h are b lilies1 sp>r[s1 & ! re/6-- ,my h&s on "s de> pro( w\ld light & /ay6 ,b my he>t sees ,john lean+ on ?y brea/1 ,& s5ds !m =? to d :at ?\ do/ say4 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,criticism4 ,extraord9>y "y man6 exclaim$ ,mrs4 ,ram%orn z !y left ! *ur*1 ) a sigh t express$ despair4 ,is he an infidel or a fanatic8 a ,jesuit or a ,soc9ian8 ,if he w\ld pay a little m att5tion to 8 composition1 said ,bascombe indiff]5tly1 he might 9 "t make ( himself a good speak]4 ,i am n at all sure !re are n ! elem5ts ( an orator 9 him1 if he w\ld only reflect a little on ! f9e relations betwe5 spee* & passion1 & le>n ( ! be/ models h[ to play ^u ! feel+s ( a congregation4 ,i decl>e ,i don't "k1 b he might make a great man ( himself4 ,z long z he don't f9i% 8 s5t5ces h[ev]1 jumbles 8 figures1 & beg9s & ends abruptly )\t ei!r exordium or p]oration1 he ne$n't look to make any?+ ( a prea*]--& t seems 8 object4 ,if t be 8 object1 he _h bett] jo9 ! ,me?odi/s at once4 ,he w\ld be a treasure to !m1 said ,mrs4 ,ram%orn4 ,t is n 8 object1 ,george4 ,h[ c y say s8 rem>k$ ,hel5 quietly1 b ) "s lat5t indignation4 ,george smil$ a r unpleasant smile & held 8 peace4 ,little m 0 said on ! way home4 ,hel5 w5t to take (f h] bonnet1 b did n re-appe> until %e 0 call$ to _! e>ly ,sunday d9n]4 ,n[ ,george _h c\nt$ ^u a turn 9 ! g>d5 ) h] be=e d9n]1 & 0 annoy$--m1 x is true1 because ( ! emotion :i* he rightly judg$ ! cause ( h] n jo9+ him1 ?an ! necessity laid on him ( eat+ 8 d9n] )\t hav+ fir/ unburd5$ 8 m9d2 b ! latt] fact also _h its %>e 9 vex+ him4 ,:5 %e came into ! draw+-room x 0 pla9 %e _h be5 weep+2 b1 al?\gh !y 7 alone1 & w\ld probably h to wait yet a few m9utes be=e _! aunt jo9$ !m1 he resolv$ 9 8 good nature to be consid]ate1 & say no?+ till aft] d9n]1 le/ he %\ld spoil h] appetite4 ,:5 !y rose f ! table1 %e w\ld h aga9 escap$1 b :5 ,george left 8 w9e & foll[$ h]1 %e cons5t$1 at 8 urg5t1 almo/ expo/ulatory reque/1 to walk once r\nd ! g>d5 ) him4 ,z soon z !y 7 out ( sight ( ! w9d[s1 he began--9 ! tone ( "o ^: love x is t prompts rebuke4 ,h[ ,,c\ld y1 my de> ,hel51 h s little c>e ( y\r heal?1 already s mu* %ak5 ) nurs+ y\r bro!r1 z to yield y\r m9d to ! maund]+ ( t silly ecclesia/ic1 & all[ 8 false eloqu5ce to untune y\r n]ves6 ,rememb] y\r heal? is ! fir/ ?+--positively ! ,,fir/ & =emo/ ?+ to be consid]$1 bo? = y\r own sake & t ( y\r fri5ds4 ,)\t heal?1 :at is any?+ wor?8 ,hel5 made no answ]1 b %e ?\ght ) h]self !re 7 two or ?ree ?+s = ! sake ( :i* %e w\ld will+ly "p ) a consid]able portion ( h] heal?4 ,h] c\s9 imag9$ h] consci5ce-/rick51 & resum$ ) yet great] confid5ce4 ,if y ,,mu/ g to *ur*1 y ought to prep>e y\rself be=eh& by firmly impress+ on y\r m9d ! fact t ! :ole ?+ is b "p ( a sy/em--"p ( a false sy/em2 t ! prea*] has be5 br\ght up to ! trade ( religion1 t x is 8 bus9ess1 & t he mu/ lay himself out to p]suade p--himself fir/ ( all if he c1 b anyh[ 8 congregation1 ( ! tru? ( ev]y?+ conta9$ 9 t f>rago ( prie/ly absurdities-- call$ ! ,bible1 =soo?6 z if !re 7 no o!r book wor?y to be m5tion$ beside x4 ,?9k = a mom5t h[ soon1 7 x n = _! *ur*es & pray]s & music & _! tomfool]y ( prea*+1 ! :ole preci\s edifice w\ld topple ab\t _! e>s1 & ! livelihood1 ! means ( cont5tm5t & influ5ce1 w\ld be gone f s _m re/less palt]+ spirits6 ,s :at is left !m b to play ^u ! hopes & fe>s & diseas$ consci5ces ( m5 z !y be/ c6 ,! idiot6 ,to tell a man :5 he is hipp$ to ,,come ,,unto ,,me6 ,bah6 ,does ! fool really expect any gr[n man or woman to believe 9 8 or h] bra9 t ! man :o spoke ^? words1 if ev] !re 0 a man :o spoke !m1 c at ?is mom5t anni dom9i--,george lik$ to be correct--#ahgj1 he> :atev] silly words ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 or any o!r human bip$1 may ?9k prop] to address to him ) 8 face buri$ 9 8 blankets by 8 b$side or 9 8 surplice ov] ! pulpit-bible8--n to m5tion t !y w\ld h y believe1 or be damn$ to all et]nity1 t e ?\ght vibrat$ 9 ! convolutions ( y\r bra9 is kn[n to him z well z to y\rself6 ,! ?+ is really too absurd6 ,ha6 ha6 ha6 ,! man di$--! dea? ( a malefactor1 !y say2 & 8 body 0 /ol5 f 8 grave by 8 foll[]s1 t !y might impose ?\s&s ( ye>s ( absurdity ^u g5]ations to come aft] !m4 ,& n[1 :5 a fell[ feels mis]able1 he is to cry to t dead man1 :o said ( himself t he 0 meek & l[ly 9 he>t1 & /raightway ! poor begg> %all f9d re/ to 8 s\l6 ,all ,i c say is t1 if he f9d re/ s1 x w be ! re/ ( an idiot6 ,believe me1 ,hel51 a good ,havannah & a bottle ( cl>et w\ld be consid]ably m to ! purpose2--= ladies1 p]haps r a cup ( tea & a little ,bee?ov56 ,"h he laugh$1 = ! ru% ( 8 eloqu5ce _h swept away 8 bad hum\r4 ,b really1 he w5t on1 ! :ole is ,,too absurd to talk ab\t4 ,to g :9+ aft] an old ,jew fable 9 ^! days ( progress6 ,:y1 :at d y ?9k is ! la/ discov]y ab\t light8 ,y w all[ ?is mu* 9 excuse = _! be+ s misl$1 return$ ,hel51 ) "s bitt]ness1 t ! old fable pret5ds at lea/ to provide help = sore he>ts2 & except x be vivisection1 ,i---- ,d be s]i\s1 ,hel51 int]rupt$ ,george4 ,i don't object to jok+1 y "k1 b y are n jok+ 9 a "r _s4 ,?is matt] has to d ) ! well-be+ ( ! race2 & we ,,mu/ ?9k ( o!rs1 h[ev] y\r ,jew-gospel1 9 ! g5u9e _s ( ! ,hebrew ( all "t1 w\ld set ev]ybody to ! sav+ ( 8 own w9d-bubble ( a s\l4 ,believe me1 to live = o!rs is ! true way to lose sight ( our own fanci$ sorr[s4 ,hel5 gave a deep sigh4 ,fanci$ sorr[s6--,yes1 gladly inde$ w\ld %e live = ,,"o o!r at lea/6 ,nay m--%e w\ld die = him4 ,b alas6 :at w\ld t d = "o ^: v be+ 0 consum$ ) grief ineffable6--,%e mu/ speak1 else he w\ld read h] he>t4 ,!re are real sorr[s1 %e said4 ,!y are n all fanci$4 ,!re are v few sorr[s1 return$ ,george1 9 :i* fancy does n be> a /rong] proportion ?an ev5 a woman ( s5se1 :ile ! fancy is ^u h]1 w be prep>$ to admit4 ,i c rememb] bur/s ( grief :5 ,i 0 a boy1 9 :i* x seem$ impossible any?+ %\ld ev] console me2 b 9 "o m9ute all w\ld be gone1 & my he>t1 or my sple51 or my diaphragm1 z m]ry z ev]4 ,believe t all is well1 & y w f9d all w be well--v tol]ably well1 t is1 consid]+4 ,consid]+ t ! well-be+ has to be divid$ & apportion$ & accommodat$ to ! v>i\s p>ts ( su* a huge :ole1 & t !re is no ,god to look aft] ! bus9ess6 said ,hel51 :o1 accord+ to ! /ate ( ! tide 9 ! sea ( h] tr\ble1 res5t$ or accept$ h] c\s9's tea*+4 ,few wom5 are will+ to believe 9 dea?4 ,mo/ ( !m love life1 & are fai?ful to hope2 & ,i mu* d\bt :e!r1 if ,hel5 _h b _h a ta/e ( tr\ble to r\se ! woman )9 h] be=e h] c\s9 conceiv$ ! wi% ( mak+ h] a proselyte1 %e w\ld h turn$ ev5 a tol]ably pati5t e> to 8 in/ructions4 ,yet x is /range to see h[ ev5 noble wom51 ) ! div9e gift ( imag9ation1 may be argu$ into unbelief 9 _! be/ in/9cts by "s small man1 z common-place z clev]1 :o beside !m is z lime/one to m>ble4 ,! kn[+ craft comes creep+ up into ! %ad[ ( ! ri* galleon1 & lo1 ) all h] b\ntiful sails gleam+ 9 ! sun1 ! %ip ( ,god glides (f 9 ! wake ( ! felucca to ! swelt]+ holl[s betwixt ! w9ds6 ,y p]plex me1 my de> c\s91 said ,bascombe4 ,x is pla9 y\r nurs+ has be5 too mu* = y4 ,y see ev]y?+ ) a jaundic$ eye4 ,?ank y1 ,c\s9 ,george1 said ,hel54 ,y are ev5 m c\rte\s ?an usual4 ,%e turn$ f him & w5t into ! h\se4 ,bascombe walk$ to ! bottom ( ! g>d5 & light$ 8 cig>1 confess+ to himself t = once he c\ld n und]/& ,hel54--,0 x !n only t he 0 ignorant ( ! awful fact t lay burr[+ 9 h] he>t1 or 0 he n ignorant also ( ! nature ( t he>t 9 :i* su* a fact mu/ s burr[8 ,0 !re any?+ 9 8 sy/em to wipe (f t burn+1 tortur+ r$8 ,su* ?+s mu/ be3 m5 :o wrong society mu/ suff] = ! sake ( t society4 ,b ! r$ lay burn+ on ! consci5ce ( ,hel5 too1 & %e _h n murd]$6 ,& = him :o _h1 he gave society nev] a ?\ght1 b %riek$ al\d 9 8 dreams1 & moan$ & wept :5 he wak$ ov] ! memory ( ! woman :o _h wrong$ him1 & :om he _h1 if ,bascombe 0 "r1 swept out ( be+ l an aphis f a rose-leaf4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,a ,,vani%+ ,,glimm]4 ,hel5 ran up/airs1 dropp$ on h] knees by h] bro!r's b$side1 & fell into a fit ( sobb+1 :i* no te>s came to relieve4 ,hel56 ,hel56 if y give way ,i %all g mad1 said a voice ( mis]y f ! pill[4 ,%e jump$ up1 wip+ h] dry eyes4 ,:at a wick$1 selfi%1 bad si/]1 bad nurse1 bad ev]y?+1 ,i am1 ,poldie6 %e said1 h] tone asc5d+ ! /eps ( vocal indignation z %e spoke4 ,b %all ,i tell y--"h %e look$ all ab\t ! *amb] & into ! dress+-room ere %e proce$$--%all ,i tell y1 ,poldie1 :at x is t makes me s-- ,i don't "k :at8--,x is all ! fault ( ! s]mon ,i he>d ?is morn+4 ,x is ! fir/ s]mon ,i ev] really li/5$ to 9 my life--c]ta9ly ! fir/ ,i ev] ?\ght ab\t aga9 aft] ,i 0 out ( ! *ur*4 ,someh[ or o!r ( late ,mr4 ,w+fold has be5 prea*+ s /rangely6 b ?is is ! fir/ "t ,i h c>$ to li/54 ,d y "k he prea*es z if he actually believ$ ! ?+s he 0 say+1 & n only t1 b z if he expect$ to p]suade y ( !m too6 ,i ,,us$ to ?9k all cl]gym5 believ$ !m1 b ,i d\bt x n[ m ?an ev]1 = ,mr4 ,w+fold speaks s diff]5tly & looks s diff]5t4 ,i nev] saw any cl]gyman look l t2 & ,i nev] saw su* a *ange on a man z !re is on him4 ,!re mu/ be some?+ to acc\nt = x4 ,c\ld x be t he has himself really gone to--z he says--& f\nd re/--or some?+ he hadn't got be=e8 ,b y won't "k :at ,i mean unless ,i tell y fir/ :at he 0 prea*+ ab\t4 ,8 text 03 ,come unto me all ye t lab\r & are heavy lad52--a common en\gh text1 y "k8 ,poldie6 b someh[ x seem$ fre% to him1 & he made x look fre% to me1 = ,i felt z if x hadn't be5 int5d$ = prea*+ ab\t at all1 b = go+ /raight into p's he>ts its own self1 )\t any s]mon4 ,i ?9k ! way he did x 0 ?is3 he fir/ made u feel ! sort ( p]son t said ! words1 & !n made u feel t he did say !m1 & s made u want to see :at !y c\ld really mean4 ,b ( c\rse :at made !m s diff]5t to me1 0--"h ,hel5 did bur/ into te>s1 b %e f\ght ) h] sobs1 & w5t on--0--0--t my he>t is break+ = y1 ,poldie--= ,i %all nev] see y smile aga91 my d>l+6 ,%e buri$ h] face on 8 pill[1 & ,leopold utt]$ a great & exce$+ bitt] cry4 ,h] h& 0 on 8 m\? in/antly1 & h] sobs ceas$1 :ile ! te>s kept fl[+ d[n h] :ite face4 ,j ?9k1 ,poldie1 %e said1 9 a voice :i* %e seem$ to h borr[$ 9 h] ne$ f "s "o else1 --j ?9k a mom5t6 ,:at if !re %\ld be "s help 9 ! great wide univ]se--some:]e1 = z wide z x is--a he>t t feels = u bo?1 z my he>t feels = y1 ,poldie6 ,oh6 oh6 w\ldn't x be gr&8 ,w\ldn't x be lovely to be at peace aga91 ,poldie8 ,if !re %\ld be somebody some:]e :o c\ld take ?is gnaw+ s]p5t f my he>t6--,%e pull$ wildly at h] dress4--',come unto me1' he said1 'all ye t lab\r & are heavy lad51 & ,i w give y re/4' ,t's :at he said3--oh6 if x c\ld be true6 ,surely x is--= y1 be/ ( si/]s1 cri$ ,leopold2 b :at has x to d ) me8 ,no?+4 ,%e is ,,dead--,i kill$ h]4 ,ev5 if ,god 7 to raise h] to life aga91 ,,he c\ld n make x t ,i didn't drive ! knife into h] he>t6 ,give ,,me re/6--:y !re's ! h& t did x6 ,o my ,god6 my ,god6 cri$ ! poor y\?1 & />$ at 8 ?9 wa/$ h&1 ?r\gh :i* ! light %one r$1 z at a consci\s evil ?+ t _h done ! de$1 & 0 /ill /a9$ ) its signs4 ,god ,,c',t be v angry ) y1 ,poldie1 sobb$ ,hel51 feel+ ab\t bl9dly 9 ! d>k =e/ ( h] ?\ghts = "s h]b ( com=t1 & (f]+ any leaf ^u :i* h] h& fell fir/4 ,!n he a9't fit to be ,god6 cri$ ,leopold fi]cely4 ,i w\ldn't h a ^w to say to a ,god t didn't cut a man 9 pieces = su* a de$6 ,oh ,hel51 %e 0 s lovely6--& :at is %e n[8 ,surely if !re 7 a ,god1 he w\ld d some?+ to set x "r someh[6 ,i "k if ,i 0 ,god1 ,poldie1 ,i %\ld f9d "s way ( sett+ y up aga91 my d>l+4 ,y a9't half z bad z y make y\rself out4 ,y _h bett] tell t to ! jury1 ,hel51 & see h[ !y w take x1 said ,leopold contemptu\sly4 ,! jury6 ,hel5 almo/ scream$4 ,:at d y mean1 ,poldie8 ,well6 return$ ,leopold1 9 a tone ( ju/ification1 b made no fur!r answ] to h] "q4 ,all ,god c d to set x "r1 he resum$1 aft] a pause1 is to damn me = ev] & ev]1 z "o ( ! blacke/ creatures 9 creation4 ,,t ,i don't believe1 anyh[6 return$ ,hel5 ) equal vehem5ce & indef9it5ess4 ,& = ! fir/ "t1 ,george ,bascombe's tea*+s 7 a com=t to h]4 ,x 0 all nons5se ab\t a ,god4 ,z to h] bro!r's mis]y1 x _h no s\rce b t to :i* ,%akespe>e attribut$ ! mis]y ( ,macbe?--& :o %\ld "k bett] ?an ,%akespe>e8--! fe>1 namely1 ( p do+ ! l to himself6 ,b /raightway !reupon--horrible ?\ght6--%e f\nd h]self--yes6 x 0 9 h]--call x ?\ght1 or call x feel+1 x 0 h]s6--%e f\nd h]self despis+ h] poor cru%$ bro!r6 disgu/$ ) him6 turn+ f him1 n ev5 9 scorn ( 8 weakness1 b 9 ang] at :at he _h br\ght ^u h]6 ,x 0 b a fla% ( ! lightn+ ( hell3 "o glance ( 8 great1 tr\bl$1 appeal+1 yet hopeless eyes1 vague ) ! fogs t /eam$ up f ! ,phlege?on )9 him1 0 en\gh to turn h] ang] at him into hate ( h]self :o _h /abb$ 8 angel 9 h] he>t4 ,!n 9 h]self %e knew t all murd]]s are n ( ,macbe?'s ord]1 & t all remorse is n = oneself4 ,b :]e 0 ! ,god to be f\nd :o c\ld & ,,might help 9 ! wret*$ case8 ,h[ 7 !y to approa* him8 ,or :at c\ld he d = !m8 ,7 su* a be+ to assure ,leopold t no hurt %\ld come to him--ev5 t he ?\ght little ( ! wrong t he _h done--w\ld t make 8 cru%$ he>t beg9 to swell aga9 ) fre% life8 w\ld t br+ back ,emmel9e f ! d>k grave & ! worms to ! sunny e>? & ! spee* ( m58 ,& :i!r1 yet f>!r1 he might h s5t h]1 %e d>$ n ?9k4 ,& ,leopold 0 n m]ely at /rife ) himself1 b condemn$ to dwell ) a self t 0 loa?some to him4 ,%e no long] saw any glimm] ( hope b su* z lay 9 ,george's doctr9e ( dea?4 ,if !re 0 no help] :o c\ld clean he>ts & revive ! light ( life1 !n welcome gaunt dea?6 let ! grim-m\!d skeleton be cr[n$ at e fea/6 ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,,let ,,u ,,pray6 ,t 0 ! sole *9k 9 ! prison :]e ^! two sat immur$ alone f _! k9d--unless1 inde$1 ! curate might "k ( ano!r4 ,"o ?+ ,hel5 _h gr\nd = be+ c]ta9 (--t ! curate w\ld tell !m no m ?an he knew4 ,ev5 ,george ,bascombe1 :o did n believe "o ?+ he said1 c\nt$ him an hone/ man6 ,might %e v5ture to consult him1 putt+ ! case z ( a p]son :o _h done v wrong--say /ol5 money or committ$ =g]y or some?+8 ,might %e n ?us ga!r a little honey ( com=t & br+ x home to ,leopold8 ,?9k+ ?us & ?us %e sat sil5t2 & all ! "t ! suff]+ eyes 7 fix$ ^u h] face1 look+ = no com=t1 b f9d+ !re all !y ev] _h ( re/4 ,are y ?9k+ ab\t ! s]mon1 ,hel58 he ask$4 ,:at 0 x y 7 tell+ me ab\t x j n[8 ,:o prea*$ x8 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 %e answ]$ li/lessly4 ,:o is ,mr4 ,w+fold8 ,our curate at ! ,abbey4 ,:at sort ( man is he8 ,oh1 a man some:]e ab\t ?irty--a /raight=w>d1 ord9>y k9d ( man4 ,ah6 said ,leopld--!n add$ aft] a mom5t--,i 0 hop+ he might be an old man1 ) a grey head1 l ! brahm9 :o us$ to tea* me ,sanscrit4--,i wi% ,i _h treat$ him bett]1 poor old fell[6 & le>n$ a little m4 ,:at does x matt] ab\t ,sanscrit8 ,:y %\ld y make tr\bles ( trifles8 said ,hel51 ^: trials _h at la/ begun to und]m9e h] temp]4 ,x 0 n ( ! ,sanscrit1 b ! moon%ee ,i 0 ?9k+1 answ]$ ,leopold mildly4 ,y d>l+6 cri$ ,hel51 already rep5tant4 ,b ) ! revulsion %e felt t ?is /ate ( ?+s c\ld n long cont9ue--%e mu/ ei!r lose h] s5ses1 or turn into some?+ hateful to h]self3 ! /ra9 0 m ?an %e c\ld be>4 ,%e ,,mu/ speak to somebody1 & %e w\ld try :e!r %e c\ld n approa* ! subject ) ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ,b h[ 0 %e to see him8 ,x w\ld be awkw>d to call ^u him at 8 lodg+s1 & %e mu/ see him absolutely alone to d>e a :isp] ( :at 0 on h] m9d4 ,z %e ?us reflect$1 ! ?\ght ( :at p w\ld say1 7 x rem>k$ t %e contriv$ to meet ! curate1 br\ght a %ad[ ( scorn ^u h] face4 ,leopold saw ! expression1 &1 s5sitive z an ail+ woman1 said1 ,hel51 :at ,,h ,i done to make y look l t8 ,h[ did ,i look1 my ,poldie8 %e ask$1 turn+ on him eyes l brimm+ wells ( love & t5d]ness4 ,let me see1 answ]$ ,leopold2 & aft] a mom5t's ?\ght repli$1 ,z ,milton's ,satan might h look$ if ,mammon _h c\nsell$ him to make (f ) ! cr[n-jewels in/ead ( decl>+ w>4 ,ah1 ,poldie6 cri$ ,hel51 delight$ at ! /ray glance ( sun%9e1 & kiss+ him z %e spoke1 y mu/ really be bett]6 ,i'll tell y :at6 %e exclaim$ joyfully1 z a new ?\ght /ruck h]3 ,z soon z y are able1 we w set out = ,new ,york--to pay ,uncle ,tom a visit ( c\rse6 b we %all nev] be se5 or he>d ( aga94 ,at ,new ,york we w *ange our names1 cross to ,san ,francisco1 & f !re sail = ! ,s&wi* ,isl&s4 ,p]haps we may be able to f9d a little "o to buy1 j big en\gh = u two2 & y %all m>ry a nice native---- ,h] =c$ gaiety gave way4 ,%e bur/ out weep+ afre%1 & ?r[+ h] arms r\nd him1 sobb$-- ,poldie1 ,poldie6 y c pray3 cry to ,god to help u someh[ or o!r2 & if !re be no ,god to he> u1 !n let u die toge!r4 ,!re are easy ways ( x1 ,poldie4 ,?ank y6 ?ank y1 si/] de>6 he answ]$1 press+ h] to 8 bosom3 t is ! fir/ ^w ( real com=t y h spok5 to me4 ,i %all n be afraid if y g ) me4 ,x 0 inde$ a com=t to bo? ( !m to rememb] t !re 0 ?is alt]native equally to ! gall[s & a long life ( gnaw+ fe> & remorse4 ,b x 0 only to be a la/ refuge ( c\rse4 ,hel5 )drew to ! dress+-room1 laid h]self on h] b$1 & began to compass h[ to meet & circumv5t ! curate1 s z by an innoc5t cunn+ to wile f him on false pret5ces :at spiritual balm %e might s ga9 = ! torn he>t & consci5ce ( h] bro!r4 ,!re 0 no d\bt x w\ld be g5u9e1 & ! be/ to be _h1 see+ ,george ,bascombe1 :o 0 hone/y itself1 judg$ ! curate an hone/ man4 ,b h[ 0 x to be done8 ,%e c\ld see only "o way4 ,) "s inconsi/5cy1 %e resolv$ to ca/ h]self on 8 g5]osity1 & yet w\ld n tru/ him entirely4 ,%e did n g d[n/airs aga91 b _h h] tea ) h] bro!r4 ,9 ! ev5+ h] aunt w5t out to visit "s ( h] p5sion]s1 = x 0 "o ( ,mrs4 ,ram%orn's cl]ical duties to be k9d to ! poor--a good deal at _! exp5se1 ,i am afraid--& pres5tly ,george came to ! door ( ! sick-room to beg h] to g d[n & s+ to him4 ,( c\rse1 9 ! h\se ( a dean's relict1 no music except sacr$ mu/ be he>d on a ,sunday2 b to h ,hel5 s+ x1 ,george w\ld condesc5d ev5 to a hymn tune2 & !re 0 ,h&el1 = :om he pr(ess$ a great admiration6 ,:at matt]$ 8 subjects8 ,he c\ld b compose ! sort ( ?+ ! c\rt want$ ( him1 & 9 ord] to t1 _h to fuddle 8 bra9s fir/1 poor fell[6 ,s said ,george at lea/4 ,t ,leopold might n he> !m talk+ outside 8 door1 a ?+ :i* no invalid likes1 ,hel5 w5t d[n/airs ) h] c\s92 b al?\gh %e _h (t5 sung f ,h&el = 8 pleasure1 cont5t to reproduce ! b>e s\nds1 & c>+ no?+ ab\t ! feel+s bo? !y & ! words repres5t$1 %e positively refus$ ?is ev5+ to gratify him4 ,%e mu/ g back to ,leopold4 ,%e w\ld s+ f ,! ,creation if he lik$1 b no?+ out ( ,! ,messiah w\ld %e or c\ld %e s+4 ,p]haps %e c\ld h]self h>dly h told :y1 b ,george p]ceiv$ ! l+]+ influ5ce ( ! morn+'s s]mon1 & m vex$ ?an he _h ev] yet be5 ) h]1 = he c\ld n endure h] to *]i% ! lea/ prejudice 9 fav\r ( :at he despis$1 he said he w\ld ov]take 8 aunt1 & left ! h\se4 ,! mom5t he 0 gone1 %e w5t to ! piano1 & began to s+1 ,com=t ye4 ,:5 %e came to ,come unto me1 %e broke d[n4 ,b ) sudd5 resolution %e rose1 &1 hav+ op5$ e door betwe5 x & h] bro!r1 rais$ ! top ( ! piano1 & !n sang1 ,come unto me1 z %e _h nev] sung 9 h] life4 ,nor did %e /op !re4 ,at ! di/ance ( six ( ! wide-/&+ h\ses1 h] aunt & c\s9 he>d h] s++ ,?\ did/ n leave1 ) ! tone & expression ( a prophetess--( a ,ma5ad1 ,george said4 ,%e 0 /ill s++ :5 he op5$ ! door1 b :5 !y rea*$ ! draw+-room %e 0 gone4 ,%e 0 kneel+ beside h] bro!r4 ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,,two ,,lett]s4 ,! next morn+1 z ,w+fold ate 8 breakfa/ by an op5 w9d[ look+ across ! *ur*y>d1 he receiv$ a lett] by ! local po/4 ,x 0 z foll[s3-- ,de> ,mr4 ,w+fold1 ,i am ab\t to take an unhe>d-( lib]ty1 b my reasons are su* z make me bold4 ,! day may come :5 ,i %all be able to tell y !m all4 ,meantime ,i hope y c help me4 ,i want v mu* to ask y\r c\nsel ^u a c]ta9 matt]1 & ,i _c beg y to call1 = my aunt kn[s no?+ ( x4 ,c\ld y contrive a suitable way ( meet+8 ,y may imag9e my necessity is griev\s :5 ,i ?us expose myself to ! possible bitt]ness ( my own aft] judgm5t4 ,b ,i mu/ h confid5ce 9 ! man :o spoke z y did ye/]day morn+4 ,i am1 de> ,mr4 ,w+fold1 s9c]ely y\rs1 ,hel5 ,l+>d4 ,p4,s4--,i %all be walk+ along ,p9e ,/reet f our end1 at elev5 o'clock to-morr[4 ,! curate 0 n tak5 ) a great surprise4 ,b some?+ l fe> ov]%ad[$ him at f9d+ 8 s]mons come back ^u him ?us4 ,0 he1 an unbeliev+ lab\r]1 to g reap+ ) 8 blunt & brok5 sickle :]e ! corn 0 ripe/6 ,b he _h no "t to ?9k ab\t t n[4 ,x 0 ne>ly t5 o'clock1 & %e w\ld be look+ = h] answ] at elev54 ,he _h n to ?9k long1 h[ev]1 be=e he saw :at seem$ a suitable plan to sugge/2 :]eupon he wrote z foll[s3 ,de> ,miss ,l+>d1 ,i ne$ n say t ,i am entirely at y\r s]vice4 ,b ,i am d\btful if ! only way t occurs to me w comm5d itself to y4 ,i "k :at ,i am ab\t to propose is safe1 b y may n h suffici5t confid5ce 9 my judgm5t to accept x z su*4 ,d\btless y h se5 ! two de=m$ p]sons1 an uncle & niece1 nam$ ,polw>?1 :o keep ! gate ( ,o/]field ,p>k4 ,i "k !m well1 &1 /range z x may seem1 ,i mu/ tell y1 9 ord] t y may p>take ( my confid5ce1 t :atev] *ange y may h obs]v$ 9 my public "w is ow+ to ! influ5ce ( ^? two1 :o h m fai? 9 ,god ?an ,i h ev] met ) be=e4 ,x may n be amiss to m5tion also t1 al?\gh poor & di/ort$1 !y are ( g5tle blood z well z noble nature4 ,) ?is preamble1 ,i v5ture to propose t y %\ld meet me at _! cottage4 ,to !m x w\ld n appe> at all /range t "o ( my congregation %\ld wi% to see me alone1 & ,i "k y may tru/ _! discretion4 ,b :ile ,i write ?us1 ) all confid5ce 9 y & 9 !m1 ,i mu/ tell y t ,i h none 9 myself4 ,i feel bo? a%am$ & p]plex$ t y %\ld imag9e any help 9 me4 ,( all ,i "k1 ,i am ! poore/ creature to give c\nsel4 ,all ,i c say = myself is t ,i ?9k ,i see a glimm] ( light1 & light is light1 ?r\gh :atev] cranny1 & into :atev] pov]ty-/rick5 *amb]1 x may fall4 ,:atev] ,i see ,i w say4 ,if ,i c see no?+ to help y1 ,i w be sil5t4 ,& yet ,i may be able to direct y :]e to f9d :at ,i _c give y4 ,if y accept my plan1 & w appo9t day & h\r1 ,i %all acqua9t ! ,polw>?s ) ! s]vice we desire ( !m4 ,%\ld y object to x1 ,i %all try to ?9k ( ano!r4 ,i am1 de> ,miss ,l+>d1 y\rs v truly1 ,?omas ,w+fold4 ,he plac$ ! lett] betwe5 ! pages ( a pamphlet1 took 8 hat & /ick1 & 0 walk+ d[n ,p9e ,/reet z ! ,abbey clock /ruck elev54 ,midway he met ,hel51 %ook h&s ) h]1 &1 aft] an indiff]5t ^w or two1 gave h] ! pamphlet1 & bade h] good morn+4 ,hel5 hurri$ home4 ,x _h requir$ all h] self-comm& to look him 9 ! face1 & h] he>t beat almo/ pa9fully z %e op5$ ! lett]4 ,%e c\ld n b be pleas$--ev5 m ?an pleas$ ) x4 ,if ! secret _h be5 h] own1 %e ?\ght %e c\ld h tru/$ him entirely2 b %e mu/ n expose poor ,leopold4 ,by ! next po/ ! curate receiv$ a grateful answ]1 appo9t+ ! "t1 & express+ p]fect read9ess to tru/ ^? :om he _h tri$4 ,%e 0 receiv$ at ! cottage door by ,ra*el1 :o ask$ h] to walk into ! g>d51 :]e ,mr4 ,w+fold 0 expect+ h]4 ,! curate l$ h] to a seat ov]gr[n ) honeysuckle4 ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,,advice ,,9 ,,! ,,d>k4 ,x 0 "s mom5ts be=e ei!r ( !m spoke1 & x did n help ,w+fold t %e sat cl\d$ by a d>k-col\r$ veil4 ,at l5g? he said1 ,y mu/ n fe> to tru/ me because ,i d\bt my ability to help y4 ,i c at lea/ assure y ( my sympa?y4 ,! tr\ble ,i h myself _h enables me to promise y t4 ,c y tell me1 %e said1 f beh9d m veils ?an t ( lace1 h[ to get rid ( a haunt+ idea8 ,t dep5ds on ! nature ( ! idea1 ,i %\ld imag9e1 answ]$ ! curate4 ,su* ?+s sometimes arise m]ely f ! /ate ( ! heal?1 & !re ! doctor is ! be/ help4 ,hel5 %ook h] head1 & smil$ beh9d h] veil a griev\s smile4 ,! curate paus$1 b1 receiv+ no assi/ance1 v5tur$ on aga94 ,if x be a ?\ght ( some?+ pa/ & gone1 = :i* no?+ c be done1 ,i ?9k activity 9 "o's daily "w mu/ be ! be/ aid to endurance4 ,oh de>6 oh de>6 sigh$ ,hel5--:5 "o has no he>t to endure1 & hates ! v sunlight6--,y w\ldn't talk ab\t "w to a man dy+ ( hung]1 w\ld y8 ,i'm n sure ab\t t4 ,he w\ldn't he$ y4 ,p]haps n4 ,:at w\ld y d !n8 ,give him "s food1 & try him aga91 ,i ?9k4 ,!n give me "s food--"s hope1 ,i mean1 & try me aga94 ,)\t t1 ,i don't c>e ab\t duty or life or any?+4 ,tell me1 !n1 :at is ! matt]2 ,i ,,may be able to h9t at "s hope1 said ,w+fold1 v g5tly4 ,d y call y\rself a ,*ri/ian8 ,! "q w\ld to mo/ p h s\nd$ /range1 abrupt1 inquisitorial2 b to ,hel5 x s\nd$ n "o ( !m all4 ,no1 %e answ]$4 ,ah6 said ! curate a little sadly1 & w5t on4 ,because !n ,i c\ld h said1 y "k :]e to g = com=t4--,might x n be well h[ev] to try if !re is any to be _h f him t said ',,come ,,unto ,,me1 ,,& ,i ,,w ,,give ,,y ,,re/8' ,i c d no?+ ) t4 ,i h tri$ & tri$ to pray1 b x is ( no use4 ,!re is su* a weight on my he>t t no p[] ( m9e c lift x up4 ,i suppose x is because ,i _c believe !re is anyone he>+ a ^w ,i say4 ,ye/]day1 :5 ,i got alone 9 ! p>k1 ,i pray$ al\d3 ,i ?\ght t p]haps1 ev5 if he might n be able to read :at 0 9 my he>t1 he might be able to he> my voice4 ,i 0 ev5 fooli% en\gh to wi% ,i knew ,greek1 because p]haps he w\ld und]/& me bett] if ,i 7 to pray 9 ,greek4 ,my bra9 seems turn+4 ,x is ( no use6 ,!re is no help any:]e6 ,%e tri$ h>d1 b c\ld n prev5t a sob4 ,& !n came a bur/ ( te>s4 ,w y n tell me some?+ ab\t x8 said ! curate1 yet m g5tly4 ,oh1 h[ gladly w\ld he relieve h] he>t if he might6 ,p]haps ,jesus has begun to give y help1 ?\gh y d n "k x yet1 he said1 ,8 help may be on ! way to y1 or ev5 ) y1 only y d n recognize x = :at x is4 ,i h kn[n t k9d ( ?+4 ,tell me "s fact or "s feel+ ,i c lay hold (4 ,possibly !re is some?+ y ought to d & are n do+1 & t is :y y _c re/4 ,i ?9k ,jesus w\ld give no re/ except 9 ! way ( le>n+ ( him4 ,hel5's sobs ceas$1 b :at appe>$ to ! curate a long sil5ce foll[$4 ,at l5g? %e said1 ) falt]+ voice3 ,suppose x 7 a great wrong t _h be5 done1 & t 0 ! un5durable ?\ght8 ,,suppose1 ,i say1 t 0 :at made me mis]able6 ,!n y mu/ ( c\rse make all possible rep>ation1 answ]$ ,w+fold at once4 ,b if none 7 possible--:at !n8 ,"h ! answ] 0 n s pla91 & ! curate _h to ?9k4 ,at lea/1 he said at l5g?1 y c\ld confess ! wrong1 & ask =giv5ess4 ,b if t also 7 impossible1 said ,hel51 %udd]+ inw>dly to f9d h[ ne> %e drew to ! edge ( ! awful fact4 ,aga9 ! curate took "t to reply4 ,i am endeav\r+ to answ] y\r que/ions z well z ,i c1 he said2 b x is h>d to deal ) g5]alities4 ,y see h[ useless1 = t v reason1 my answ]s h z yet be56 ,/ill ,i h some?+ m to say1 & hesitate only because x may imply m confid5ce ?an ,i d>e pr(ess1 & ( all ?+s ,i dread untru?4 ,b ,i am hone/ 9 ?is mu* at lea/1 t ,i desire ) true he>t to f9d a ,god :o w ackn[l$ge me z 8 creature & make me 8 *ild1 & if !re be any ,god ,i am ne>ly c]ta9 he w d s2 = surely !re _c be any o!r k9d ( ,god ?an ! ,fa!r ( ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,9 ! /r5g? ( ?is mu* ( consci\s tru? ,i v5ture to say--t no crime c be committ$ aga9/ a creature )\t be+ committ$ also aga9/ ! creator ( t creature2 !re=e surely ! fir/ /ep = anyone :o has committ$ su* a crime mu/ be to humble himself be=e ,god1 confess ! s91 & ask =giv5ess & cleans+4 ,if !re is any?+ 9 religion at all x mu/ re/ ^u an actual individual communication betwe5 ,god & ! creature he has made2 & if ,god he>d ! man's pray] & =gave him1 !n ! man w\ld c]ta9ly "k x 9 8 he>t & be consol$--p]haps by ! gift ( humility4 ,!n y ?9k confession to ,god is all t is requir$8 ,if !re be no "o else wrong$ to :om confession c be made4 ,if ! case 7 m9e--& sometimes ,i mu* fe> t 9 tak+ holy ord]s ,i h griev\sly s9n$--,i %\ld !n d j z ,i h done ) reg>d to t--cry to ! liv+ p[] :i* ,i ?9k orig9at$ me1 to set ! matt] "r = me4 ,b if x c\ld n be set "r8 ,!n to =give & console me4 ,alas6 alas6 t he w n he> (4 ,he w\ld r be puni%$ ?an consol$4 ,i fe> = 8 bra94 ,b inde$ t might be well4 ,%e _h gone mu* f>!r ?an %e _h int5d$2 b ! m d\btful help became1 ! m %e 0 driv5 by ! agony ( a p]i%+ hope to se>* ! he>t ( ,w+fold4 ,aga9 ! curate pond]$4 ,are y sure1 he said at l5g?1 t ! p]son ( :om y speak is n neglect+ some?+ he ought to d--some?+ he kn[s p]haps8 ,he _h come back to ! same ) :i* he />t$4 ,?r\gh h] veil he saw h] turn deadly :ite4 ,ev] s9ce ,leopold said ! ^w ,,jury1 a gha/ly fe> _h haunt$ ,hel54 ,%e press$ h] h& on h] he>t & made no answ]4 ,i speak f exp]i5ce1 ! curate w5t on--f :at else c\ld ,i speak8 ,i "k t s long z we hang back f do+ :at consci5ce urges1 !re is no peace = u4 ,i w n say our pray]s are n he>d1 = ,mr4 ,polw>? has taught me t ! mo/ preci\s answ] pray] c h1 lies 9 ! gr[+ /r5g? ( ! impulse t[>ds ! dread$ duty1 & 9 ! ev] %>p] /+s ( ! consci5ce4 ,i ?9k ,i ask$ already :e!r !re 7 no relatives to :om rep>ation c\ld be made8 ,yes1 yes1 gasp$ ,hel52 & ,i told y rep>ation 0 impossible4 ,h] voice _h sunk almo/ to a groan4 ,b at lea/ confession-- said ,w+fold---& />t$ f 8 seat4 ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,,int]cession4 ,a /ifl$ cry _h int]rupt$ him4 ,hel5 0 press+ h] h&k]*ief to h] m\?4 ,%e rose & ran f him4 ,w+fold /ood al>m$ & irresolute4 ,%e _h n gone _m /eps1 h[ev]1 :5 h] pace slack5$1 h] knees gave way1 & %e dropp$ s5seless on ! grass4 ,w+fold ran to ! h\se = wat]4 ,ra*el ha/5$ to h] assi/ance1 & ,polw>? foll[$4 ,x 0 "s "t be=e !y succe$$ 9 reviv+ h]4 ,:5 at l5g? ! col\r began to return a little to h] *eek1 ,polw>? dropp$ on 8 knees at h] feet4 ,w+fold 9 8 m9i/rations 0 already kneel+ on "o side ( h]1 & ,ra*el n[ kneel$ on ! o!r4 ,!n ,polw>? said1 9 8 l[ & husky1 yet n altoge!r unmelodi\s voice1 ,life et]nal1 ?is lady ( ?9e ha? a sore he>t & we _c help h]4 ,?\ art ,help1 ,o mighty ,love4 ,!y :o "k !e be/ rejoice 9 !e mo/4 ,z ?y sun t %9es ov] our heads1 z ?y air t fl[s into our bodies1 ?\ art above1 ar\nd1 & 9 u2 ?\ art 9 h] he>t3 ,oh speak to h] !re2 let h] "k ?y w1 & give h] /r5g? to d x1 ,o ,fa!r ( ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,am54 ,:5 ,hel5 op5$ h] eyes1 %e saw only ! d>k leaves ( an arbutus ov] h]1 & knew no?+ beyond a s5se ( utt] mis]y & weakness1 ) an impulse to rise & run4 ,) an ef=t %e mov$ h] head a little1 & !n %e saw ! ?ree kneel+ =ms1 ! cl]gyman ) b[$ head1 & ! two dw>fs ) %9+ upturn$ faces3 %e ?\ght %e 0 dead & !y 7 kneel+ ab\t h] corpse4 ,h] head dropp$ ) a we>y sigh ( relief1 %e lay passive1 & he>d ! dw>f's pray]4 ,!n %e knew t %e 0 n dead1 & ! disappo9tm5t 0 bitt]4 ,b %e ?\ght ( ,leopold1 & 0 consol$4 ,aft] a few m9utes ( quiet1 !y help$ h] into ! h\se1 & laid h] on a s(a 9 ! p>l\r4 ,don't be fright5$1 de> lady1 said ! little woman2 nobody %all come ne> y4 ,we w wat* y z if y 7 ! que54 ,i am go+ to get "s tea = y4 ,b ! mom5t %e left ! room1 ,hel5 got up4 ,%e c\ld n endure a mom5t long] 9 ! place4 ,!re 0 a demon at h] bro!r's e>1 :isp]+ to him to confess1 to rid himself ( 8 torture by ! aid ( ! law3 %e mu/ ru% home & drive him away4 ,%e took h] hat 9 h] h&1 op5$ ! door s(tly1 & ere ,ra*el c\ld say a ^w1 _h flitt$ ?r\gh ! kit*51 & 0 among/ ! trees on ! opposite side ( ! road4 ,ra*el ran to ! g>d5 to h] uncle & ,w+fold4 ,!y look$ at ea* o!r = a mom5t 9 sil5ce4 ,i w foll[ h]1 said ,w+fold4 ,%e may fa9t aga94 ,if %e does ,i %all :i/le4 ,he foll[$1 & kept h] 9 sight until %e 0 safe 9 h] aunt's g>d54 ,:at ,,is to be done8 he said1 return+ 9 great tr\ble4 ,i d n ?9k ,i made any blund]1 b !re %e is gone 9 t5fold mis]y6 ,i wi% ,i c\ld tell y :at pass$1 b t ( c\rse ,i _c4 ,( c\rse n1 return$ ,polw>?4 ,b ! fact ( h] leav+ yon s is no sign t y said ! wrong ?+1--r ! contr>y4 ,:5 p seek advice1 x is too (t5 9 ! hope ( f9d+ ! advis] side ) _! second famili> self1 in/ead ( _! awful fir/ self1 ( :i* !y "k s little4 ,d n be anxi\s4 ,y h done y\r be/4 ,wait = :at w come next4 ,,*apt] ,,xxi4 ,,hel5 ,,alone4 ,hel5 tott]$ to a little summ]-h\se 9 ! g>d51 :i* _h be5 h] be/ retreat s9ce %e _h giv5 h] room to h] bro!r1 & !re seat$ h]self to rega9 brea? & composure ere %e w5t to him4 ,%e _h s\ght ! door ( ,p>adise1 & ! door ( hell _h be5 op5$ to h]6 ,if ! frightful idea :i*1 %e did n d\bt1 _h already sugge/$ itself to ,leopold1 %\ld n[ be enc\rag$1 !re 0 no?+ b black madness be=e h]6 ,h] ,poldie on ! scaffold6 ,god 9 heav56 ,inf9itely r w\ld %e poison h]self & him6 ,!n %e rememb]$ h[ pleas$ & consol$ he _h be5 :5 %e said some?+ ab\t _! dy+ toge!r1 & t reassur$ h] a little3 no1 %e 0 c]ta9 ,leopold w\ld nev] yield himself to public %ame6 ,b %e mu/ take c>e t fooli%1 extravagant curate %\ld n come ne> him4 ,!re 0 no kn[+ to :at he might p]suade him6 ,poor ,poldie 0 s easily l$ by any %[ ( nobility--any?+ t look$ gr& or self-sacrific+6 ,hel5's only k ( guilt came f ! pale image ( x lift$ above h] horizon by ! refraction ( h] sympa?y4 ,%e did n "k1 p]haps nev] w\ld und]/& ! gha/ly horror ( consci\s guilt1 besides :i* !re is no evil else4 ,agonies ( injury a man may endure1 &1 s f> f be+ ov]:elm$1 rise above !m t5fold a man1 :o1 7 he to awake to ! self-k ( a crime1 w\ld s9k into a heap ( ru94 ,!n inde$1 if !re be no ,god1 or "o t has n an inf9ite p[] ( sett+ "r t :i* has gone wrong ) 8 "w1 !n inde$ welcome ! fai?1 = fai? x may !n be call$1 ( su* z say !re is no h]eaft]6 ,hel5 did n "k to :at gulfs ( p]sonal %ame1 nay1 to :at summits ( public execration1 a man may be glad to flee = refuge f ! fangs ( home-born guilt--if s be !re is any refuge to be f\nd 9 ei!r4 ,& "s k9d ( refuge !re does seem to be4 ,/range x is & true t 9 publicity itself lies "s relief f ! gnaw+ ( ! worm--z if ev5 a curs+ humanity 7 a b>ri] ( protection betwe5 ! torn s\l & its crime4 ,x flees to its k9d = %elt] f itself4 ,h5ce1 ,i imag9e1 9 "p1 may ! coolness ( "s crim9als be acc\nt$ =4 ,_! quietness is ! relief br\ght by confession--ev5 confession b to _! fell[s4 ,is x t ! crime seems !n lift$ a little f _! %\ld]s1 & its weight %>$ by ! ace8 ,hel5 _h hop$ t ! man :o _h spok5 9 public s t5d]ly1 & at ! same "t s p[]fully1 ( ! sav+ he>t ( ! univ]se1 t w\ld h no divisions ( pride1 no scatt]+s ( hate1 b ( _m w\ld make "o1 w\ld 9 private h spok5 yet sweet] words ( hope & consolation1 :i* %e might h c>ri$ home 9 gladness to h] sick-s\l$ bro!r1 to com=t & /r5g!n him--words ( might to allay ! burn+ ( ! poison )9 him1 & make him feel t aft] all !re 0 yet a place = him 9 ! univ]se1 & t he 0 no outca/ ( ,geh5na4 ,b in/ead ( su* words ( g5tle might1 l ^? ( ! man ( :om he 0 s fond ( talk+1 he _h only spok5 dre>ily ( duty1 h9t+ at a horror t w\ld plunge ! :ole anci5t family into a hell ( di%on\r & contempt6 ,x did inde$ %[ :at m]e he>tless w9dbags ( effete !ology ^? prie/s 76 ,skeletons !y 71 & no human be+s at all6--,h] fa!r6--! ?\ght ( him 0 di/raction6 ,h] "m6 ,oh1 if ,leopold _h _h h] "m = 8 too1 in/ead ( ! d>k-sk9n$ woman ) ! fla%+ eyes1 he w\ld nev] h br\ght ?is ^u !m6 ,x 0 all 8 "m's fault--! fault ( h] race--& ( ! horrible drug h] p _h taught him to take6 ,& 0 he to g & confess x1 & be tri$ = x1 & be--8 ,great ,god6--,& "h 0 ! prie/ actually c\nsell+ :at 0 worse ?an any suicide6 ,sudd5ly1 h[ev]1 x occurr$ to h] t ! curate _h _h no k ( ! facts ( ! case1 & _h !re=e be5 compell$ to talk at r&om4 ,x 0 impossible he %\ld suspect ! crime ( :i* h] bro!r _h be5 guilty1 & !re=e c\ld n "k ! frightful consequ5ces ( su* a confession z he _h c\nsell$4 ,_h %e n bett] !n tell him all1 & s ga!r f him "s "r & reasonable advice = ! soo?+ ( ! agonies ( h] poor brok5-w+$ angel8 ,b alas6 :at security _h %e t a man capable ( su* prie/ly sevei'ity & he>tlessness--h] t]rors made h] ?us inconsequ5t--w\ld n himself betray ! all b innoc5t suff]] to ! v5geance ( ju/ice s call$8 ,no2 %e w\ld v5ture no f>!r4 ,soon] w\ld %e g to ,george ,bascombe--f :om %e n only c\ld look = no spiritual com=t1 b ^: !ories 7 s cruel aga9/ culprits ( all sorts6 ,alas1 alas6 %e 0 alone6 absolutely alone 9 ! great wa/e1 dea?-ey$ univ]se6--,b = a man to talk s ( ! t5d]ness ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & !n s]ve h] z ! curate _h done--x 0 inde$ %ameless6 ,,he w\ld nev] h treat$ a poor wret*$ woman l t6--,& z %e said ?us to h]self1 aga9 ! words s\nd$ 9 ! e> ( h] he>t3 ',,come ,,unto ,,me1 ,,all ,,ye ,,t ,,lab\r ,,& ,,are ,,heavy ,,lad51 ,,& ,i ,,w ,,give ,,y ,,re/4' ,:5ce came ! voice8 ,f h] memory1 or f t inn] *amb] ( ! _s :i* ! "o _s-be>+ _s keeps = 8 own 9 e h\se t he builds--alas s long 9 mo/ human h\ses %ut away f ! re/ ( ! rooms & =gott51 or recollect$ ) uneas9ess z a lumb]-closet 9 :i* lie too _m ?+s t _h bett] n be look$ into8 ,b :at matt] :]e ! voice t _h said !m1 s long z ! words 7 true1 & %e might believe !m6--,:atev] is true ,,c be believ$ ( ! true he>t4 ,ere %e knew1 ,hel5 0 on h] knees1 ) h] head on ! *air1 yet once m cry+ to ! he>] ( cries--possible or impossible be+ %e knew n 9 ! lea/1 b words report$ ( him _h giv5 bir? to ! cry--to help h] 9 h] dire ne$4 ,in/ead ( any ^w1 or ?\ght ev51 com+ to h] t might be fanci$ an answ]1 %e 0 sc>$ f h] knees by an approa*+ /ep---t ( ! h\se-keep] come to look = h] ) ! message f h] aunt t ,leopold 0 m re/less ?an usual1 n at all l himself1 & %e c\ld d no?+ ) him4 ,,*apt] ,,xxii4 ,a ,,haunt$ ,,s\l4 ,hel5 rose & ha/5$ to h] bro!r1 ) a he>t ( lead 9 h] body4 ,%e />t$ :5 %e saw him3 "s *ange _h pass$ on him s9ce ! morn+6 ,0 t eag] look 9 8 eyes a fre% access ( ! fev]8 ,t glimm] on 8 c\nt5ance1 d\btful z ! fir/ ( ! morn+1 :5 ! travell] kn[s n :e!r ! light be 9 ! sky or only 9 8 bra91 did look m l a dawn ( 8 old heal?ful radiance ?an any fre% fire ( madness2 b at ! same "t he appe>$ m wa/$ & p9*$ & dea?-l ?an %e _h yet se5 him4 ,or 0 x only 9 h] eyes--0 %e b read+ 9 8 face ! agony %e _h h]self gone ?r\gh t day8 ,hel51 ,hel56 he cri$ z %e ent]$ ! room1 come "h1 close to me4 ,%e ha/5$ to him1 sat d[n on ! b$side1 took 8 h&1 & look$ z *e]fully z %e c\ld1 yet x 0 b ! m woefully1 9 8 face4 ,hel56 he said aga91 & he spoke ) a /range expression 9 8 voice1 = x seem$ t ( hope1 ,i h be5 ?9k+ all day ( :at y told me on ,sunday4 ,:at 0 t1 ,poldie8 ask$ ,hel5 ) a pang ( fe>4 ,:y1 ^? words ( c\rse--:at else8 ,y sang !m to me aft]w>ds1 y "k4 ,hel51 ,i %\ld l to see ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ,don't y ?9k he might be able to d some?+8 ,:at sort ( ?+1 ,poldie8 %e falt]$1 gr[+ sick at he>t4--,0 ?is :at came ( pray+6 %e ?\ght bitt]ly4 ,some?+ or o!r--,i don't "k :at exactly1 return$ ,leopold4--,oh ,hel56 he broke out ) a cry1 /ifl$ by ! caution t _h gr[n habitual to bo? ( !m1 is !re no help ( any k9d any:]e8 ,surely ,mr4 ,w+fold c\ld tell me some?+--com=t me someh[1 if ,i 7 to tell him all ab\t x6 ,i c\ld tru/ ! man t said su* ?+s z ^? y told me4 ,t ,i c\ld6--,oh6 ,i wi% ,i hadn't run away1 b _h let !m take me & hang me6 ,hel5 felt h]self gr[ :ite4 ,%e turn$ away1 & pret5d$ to se>* = some?+ %e _h dropp$4 ,i don't ?9k he w\ld be ( ! slighte/ use to y1 %e said1 /ill /oop+4 ,& %e felt l a devil dragg+ ! s\l ( h] bro!r to hell4 ,b t 0 a fooli% fancy1 & mu/ be resi/$6 ,n if ,i told him ev]y?+8 ,leopold hiss$ f betwe5 8 tee? 9 ! /ruggle to keep d[n a %riek4 ,no1 n if y told him ev]y?+1 %e answ]$1 & felt l a judge condemn+ him to dea?4 ,:at is he !re = !n8 said ,leopold indignantly1 & turn$ 8 face to ! wall & moan$4 ,hel5 _h n yet ?\ght ( ask+ h]self :e!r h] love to h] bro!r 0 all cle> love1 & n[ise m+l$ ) selfi%ness-- :e!r 9 ! fre% horror t day p\r$ into ! cup t _h seem$ already runn+ ov]1 x 0 ( h] bro!r only %e ?\ght1 or :e!r ?reat5$ %ame to h]self _h n a "p 9 h] mis]y4 ,b1 z f> z %e 0 aw>e1 %e 0 q hone/ 9 say+ t ! curate c\ld n com=t him--= :at attempt ev5 _h he made to com=t h]8 ,:at _h he done b utt] common-places & truisms ab\t duty8 ,& :o c\ld tell b--inde$ 0 %e n c]ta9 t su* a man1 br++ ! artill]y ( 8 fanaticism to be> ^u h] poor boy's wild en?usia/ic temp]am5t1 w\ld spe$ily p]suade him to make a reality ( t t]rible ?+ he _h already ?\ght (1 t hide\sly impossible possibility :i* %e d>$ n ev5 all[ to pres5t itself be=e h] imag9ation8 ,s he lay & moan$1 & %e sat cru%$ & spee*less ) despair+ mis]y4 ,all at once ,leopold sat /raight up1 8 eyes fix$ & flam+1 8 face :ite3 he look$ l a corpse possess$ by a _s ( fe> & horror4 ,hel5's he>t swell$ into h] ?roat1 ! muscles ( h] face contract$ ) irresi/ible rigor1 & %e felt x gr[ exactly l 81 :ile ) wide eyes %e />$ at him1 & he />$ at some?+ :i* le/ %e also %\ld see1 %e d>$ n turn h] head4 ,surely1 %e ?\ght aft]w>ds1 %e mu/ h be5 t mom5t 9 ! pres5ce ( some?+ une>?ly6 ,h] physical be+ 0 wr5*$ f h] control1 & %e mu/ simply sit & wait until ! p[] or influ5ce1 :i*ev] x might be1 %\ld pass away4 ,h[ long x 0 ere x relax$ its hold %e c\ld n tell2 x c\ld n h be5 long1 %e ?\ght4 ,sudd5ly ! light sank f ,leopold's eyes1 8 muscles relax$1 he fell back motionless1 app>5tly s5seless1 on ! pill[1 & %e ?\ght he 0 dead4 ,! same mom5t %e 0 free2 ! horror _h dep>t$ f h] own atmosph]e too1 & %e made ha/e to re/ore him4 ,b 9 all %e did = him1 %e felt l ! execution] :o gives re/oratives to ! wret* t has fa9t$ on ! rack or ! :eel4 ,:at "r _h ,,%e1 %e ?\ght1 to multiply to him 8 mom5ts ( torture8 ,if ! cruel p[] t _h creat$ him = su* mis]y1 :oev]1 :atev]1 :]ev] he might be1 *ose ?us to torture him1 0 %e1 8 only fri5d1 out ( ! selfi% affection he _h plant$ 9 h]1 to l5d h]self 8 tool8 ,yet %e hesitat$ n a s+le mom5t 9 h] m9i/rations4 ,!re is s mu* passes 9 u ( :i* our consci\sness takes no grasp1--or b ) su* a flitt+ t\* z sc>cely to h& x ov] to ! memory--t ,i feel enc\rag$ to d\bt :e!r ev] !re 0 a man absolutely )\t hope4 ,t !re h be51 alas1 are _m1 :o are aw>e ( no gr\nd ( hope1 nay ev5 :o feel no glimm] 9 !m ( any?+ !y c call hope1 ,i "k2 b ,i ?9k 9 !m all is an und]ly+ unconsci\s hope4 ,i ?9k t n "o 9 all ! _w has m ?an a %ad[y notion ( :at hopelessness means4 ,p]haps utt] hopelessness is ! out] d>kness4 ,at l5g? ,leopold op5$ 8 eyes1 gave a t]rifi$ glance ar\nd1 held out 8 arms to h]1 & drew h] d[n ^u 8 face4 ,i saw h]6 he said1 9 a voice t s\nd$ z if x came f ! grave1 & %e he>d x 9 h] he>t4 ,nons5se1 de> ,poldie6 x 0 all fancy--no?+ m1 %e return$1 9 a voice almo/ z holl[ z 82 & ! lightness ( ! words utt]$ 9 su* a tone j>r$ dismayfully on h] own e>4 ,fancy6 he repeat$2 ,i "k :at fancy is z well z any man or woman born3 ,,t 0 no fancy4 ,%e /ood !re1 by ! w>drobe--9 ! same dress6--h] face z :ite z h] dress6 ,&--li/56--,i w tell ,,y--,i w soon satisfy y x ,,c\ld be no fancy4--,"h he pu%$ h] f him & look$ /raight 9 h] eyes4--,i saw h] back reflect$ 9 ! mirror ( ! w>drobe-door1 &--"h ! fix$ look ( horror ?reat5$ to return ^u 8 face1 b he w5t on--li/51--!re 0 a worm crawl+ on x1 ov] h] lovely :ite %\ld]6 ,ugh6 ,i saw x 9 ! mirror6 ,8 voice _h ris5 to a /rangl$ %riek1 8 face 0 di/ort$1 & he %ook l a *ild on ! po9t ( yell+ al\d 9 an agony ( fe>4 ,hel5 clasp$ 8 face betwe5 h] h&s1 & ga!r+ c\rage f despair1 if inde$ t be a possible s\rce ( c\rage1 & x is n ga!r$ r f ! hidd5 hope ( :i* ,i speak1 & ! love t w cleave & n =sake1 %e set h] tee?1 & said3 ,let h] come !n1 ,poldie6 ,i am ) y1 & ,i defy h]6 ,%e %all "k t a si/]'s love is /rong] ?an ! hate ( a jilt--ev5 if y did kill h]4 ,be=e ,god1 ,poldie1 ,i w\ld aft] all r be y ?an %e4 ,say :at y w1 %e _h h]self to blame1 & ,i don't d\bt did tw5ty worse ?+s ?an y did :5 y kill$ h]4 ,b ,leopold seem$ n to he> a ^w %e said1 & lay ) 8 face to ! wall4 ,at l5g? he turn$ 8 head sudd5ly1 & said1 ,hel51 if y don't let me see ,mr4 ,w+fold1 ,i %all g mad1 & !n ev]y?+ w come out4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii4 ,,compell$ ,,confid5ce4 ,hel5 flew to ! dress+-room to hide h] dismay1 & !re ca/ h]self on ! b$4 ,! gray ,fate above1 or ! awful ,demo-gorgon b5ea?1 w\ld h its way6 ,:e!r x 0 a liv+ ,w or b ! %ad[ ( ! ev5ts x seem$ to ord]1 x 0 too mu* = h]4 ,%e _h no *oice b yield4 ,%e rose & return$ to h] bro!r4 ,i am go+ to f9d ,mr4 ,w+fold1 %e said 9 a ho>se voice1 z %e took h] hat4 ,don't be long !n1 ,hel51 return$ ,leopold4 ,i c't be> y out ( my sight4 ,& don't let aunt come into ! room4 ,,%e might come aga91 y "k1 & !n all w\ld be out4--,br+ him ) y1 ,hel54 ,i w1 answ]$ ,hel51 & w5t4 ,! curate might h return$3 %e w\ld seek him fir/ at 8 lodg+4 ,%e c>$ no?+ ab\t appe>ances n[4 ,x 0 a dull aft]noon4 ,cl\ds _h ga!r$1 & ! w9d 0 *illy4 ,x seem$ to bl[ out ( ! *ur*1 :i* /ood up cold & gray aga9/ ! sky1 fill+ ! end ( ! /reet4 ,:at a wret*$1 horrible _w x 06 ,%e approa*$ ! *ur*1 & ent]$ ! *ur*y>d f :i* x rose l a rock f ! ,dead ,sea--a type ( ! true *ur*1 ar\nd ^: walls lie ! dead bodies ( ! old selves left beh9d by ^? :o ent]4 ,hel5 w\ld h envi$ ! dead1 :o lay s /ill "u its waves2 b1 alas6 if ,leopold 0 "r1 !y b roam$ else:]e 9 _! tr\ble1 & 7 no bett] = dy+4 ,%e hurri$ across1 & rea*$ ! h\se2 b ,mr4 ,w+fold _h n yet return$1 & %e hurri$ back across x aga91 to tell ,leopold t %e mu/ g f>!r to f9d him4 ,! poor y\? 0 already m compos$4 ,:at w n ! vague/ hope sometimes d = a man6 ,hel5 told him %e _h se5 ! curate 9 ! p>k1 :5 %e 0 out 9 ! morn+1 & he might be !re /ill1 or %e might meet him com+ back4 ,leopold only begg$ h] to make ha/e4 ,%e took ! road to ! lodge4 ,%e did n meet him1 & x 0 ) int5se repugnance t %e approa*$ ! gate4 ,is ,mr4 ,w+fold "h8 %e ask$ ( ,ra*el1 z if %e _h nev] spok5 to h] be=e2 & ,ra*el1 turn+ pal] at ! sight ( h]1 answ]$ t he 0 9 ! g>d5 ) h] uncle1 & w5t to call him4 ,! mom5t he appe>$ %e said1 9 a tone r5d]$ by conflict+ emotions inexplicable1 & s\nd+ almo/ rude1 ,w y come to my bro!r8 ,he is v ill1 & wants to see y4 ,c]ta9ly1 return$ ,w+fold2 ,i w g ) y at once4 ,b 9 8 he>t he trembl$ at ! ?\ght ( be+ look$ to = consolation & c\nsel1 & t app>5tly 9 a case ( no ord9>y k9d4 ,mo/ likely he w\ld n "k :at to say1 or h[ to behave himself6 ,h[ diff]5t x w\ld be if ) all 8 he>t he believ$ ! gr& lovely ?+s record$ 9 ! book ( 8 pr(ession6 ,!n inde$ he might ent] ! *amb]s ( pa9 & fe> & guilt ) ! innoc5t confid5ce ( a w+$ angel ( com=t & heal+6 ,b n[ ! eyes ( 8 und]/&+ 7 bl9d$ ) ! ,,ifs & ,,buts t flew sw>m+ l black muscae :]ev] !y turn$4 ,/ill he w\ld--nay1 he mu/ g & d 8 be/4 ,!y walk$ across ! p>k to rea* ! h\se by ! g>d51 & = "s di/ance !y walk$ 9 sil5ce4 ,at l5g? ,hel5 said3 ,y mu/ n enc\rage my bro!r to talk mu*1 if y please2 & y mu/ n m9d :at he says2 he has _h bra9-fev]1 & sometimes talks /rangely4 ,b on ! o!r h&1 if he fancy y don't believe him1 x w drive him wild--s y mu/ take c>e-- please4 ,h] voice 0 l t ( a s\l try+ to speak ) unprov$ lips4 ,miss ,l+>d1 said ,w+fold1 sl[ly & quietly--& if 8 voice trembl$1 he only 0 aw>e ( x1 ,i _c see y\r face1 !re=e y mu/ p>don me if ,i ask y--are y q hone/ ) me8 ,hel5's fir/ feel+ 0 ang]4 ,%e held h] peace = a "t4 ,!n %e said1 ,s1 ,mr4 ,w+fold6--t is ! way y help ! helpless6 ,h[ c any man help )\t kn[+ :at has to be help$8 return$ ! curate4 ,! v be+ ( 8 help dep5ds ^u 8 kn[+ ! tru?4 ,x is v pla9 y d n tru/ me1 & equally impossible ,i %\ld be ( any s]vice z long z ! case is su*4 ,aga9 ,hel5 held h] peace4 ,res5tm5t & dislike t[>ds himself comb9$ ) t]ror ( 8 anticipat$ c\nsel to r5d] h] spee*less4 ,h] sil5ce la/$ s long t ,w+fold came to ! resolution ( mak+ a v5ture t _h occurr$ to him m ?an once t morn+4 ,_h he n be5 conv9c$ t a s\l 0 9 dire mis]y1 he w\ld n h _h rec\rse to ! seem+ cruelty4 ,w\ld ?is help to satisfy y t1 :atev] my advice may be wor?1 at lea/ my discretion may be tru/$8 he said4 ,!y 7 at ! mom5t pass+ ?r\gh a little ?icket 9 ! p>k1 :]e nobody c\ld see !m1 & z he spoke1 he took ! knife-%ea? f 8 pocket1 & held x out to h]4 ,%e />t$ l a "y horse at some?+ dead3 %e _h nev] se5 x1 b ! %ape _h an association4 ,%e pal$1 retreat$ a /ep1 ) a draw+ back ( h] head & neck & a spread+ ( h] no/rils1 />$ = a mom5t1 fir/ at ! %ea?1 !n at ! curate1 gave a little moan1 bit h] "u lip h>d1 held out h] h&1 b z if %e 7 afraid to t\* ! ?+1 & said3 ,:at is x8 ,:]e did y f9d x8 ,%e w\ld h tak5 x1 b ,w+fold held x fa/4 ,give x me1 %e said imp]atively4 ,x is m9e4 ,i lo/ x4 ,!re is some?+ d>k on ! l9+ ( x1 said ! curate1 & look$ /raight into h] eyes4 ,%e let g h] hold4 ,b almo/ ! same mom5t %e snat*$ ! %ea? out ( 8 h& & held x to h] bosom1 :ile h] look ( t]ror *ang$ into "o ( defiance4 ,w+fold made no attempt to recov] x4 ,%e put x 9 h] pocket1 & drew h]self up4 ,:at d y mean8 %e said1 9 a voice t 0 h>d yet trembl$4 ,%e felt l "o t sees ! vultures ga!r+ above him1 & lifts a moveable f+] 9 def5ce4 ,!n ) sudd5 haught9ess bo? ( ge/ure & ^w3 ,y h be5 act+ ! spy1 sir6 ,no1 return$ ! curate quietly4 ,! %ea? 0 committ$ to my c>e by "o :om c]ta9 facts t _h come to 8 k-- c]ta9 words he _h ov]he>d-- ,he paus$4 ,%e %ook visibly1 b /ill w\ld hold :at gr\nd might yet be left h]4 ,:y did y n give x me be=e8 %e ask$4 ,9 ! public /reet1 or 9 y\r aunt's pres5ce8 ,y are cruel6 %e pant$4 ,h] /r5g? 0 go+4 ,:at d y "k8 ,no?+ s well z t ,i want to s]ve y1 & y may tru/ me4 ,:at d y mean to d8 ,my be/ to help y & y\r bro!r4 ,b to :at end8 ,to any end t is "r4 ,b h[8 ,:at w\ld y tell him to d8 ,y mu/ help me to discov] :at he ought to d4 ,n-- %e cri$1 clasp+ h] h&s & dropp+ on h] knees be=e him1 --y ,,w n tell him to give himself up8 ,promise me y w n1 & ,i w tell y ev]y?+4 ,he %all d any?+ y please b t6 ,any?+ b t6 ,w+fold's he>t 0 sore at sight ( h] agony4 ,he w\ld h rais$ h] ) soo?+ words ( sympa?y & assurance1 b /ill %e cri$1 ,promise me y w n make him give himself up4 ,i d>e n promise any?+4 he said4 ,i ,,mu/ d :at ,i may see to be "r4 ,believe me1 ,i h no wi% to =ce myself into y\r confid5ce1 b y h let me see t y are 9 great tr\ble & 9 ne$ ( help1 & ,i %\ld be unfai?ful to my call+ if ,i did n d my be/ to make y tru/ me4 ,a pause foll[$4 ,hel5 rose despair+ly1 & !y resum$ _! walk4 ,j z !y rea*$ ! door 9 ! f5ce :i* w\ld let !m out ^u ! mead[ 9 sight ( ! ,manor-h\se1 %e turn$ to him & said1 ,i w tru/ y1 ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ,i mean1 ,i w take y to my bro!r1 & he %all d z he ?9ks prop]4 ,!y pass$ out & walk$ across ! mead[ 9 sil5ce4 ,9 ! passage "u ! f5ce1 z %e turn$ f clos+ ! door beh9d !m1 %e /ood & press$ h] h& to h] side4 ,oh6 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 %e cri$1 my he>t w break6 ,he has no "o b me6 ,no "o b me to be "m & si/] & all to him6 ,he is ,,n wick$--my poor d>l+6 ,%e caught ! curate by ! arm ) a grasp :i* left its m>k beh9d x1 & gaz$ appeal+ly into 8 face3 9 ! dim tomb-l light1 h] wide-/ra9$ eyes1 :ite agoniz$ c\nt5ance1 & trembl+ roseless lips made h] look l "o call$ back f dea? to speak ( horrors4 ,save him f madness1 %e said1 9 =c$ & unnatural utt]ance4 ,save him f ! remorse gnaw+ at 8 he>t4 ,b d n1 ,,d n c\nsel him to give himself up4 ,w\ld x n be bett] y %\ld tell me ab\t x1 said ! curate1 & save him ! pa9 & excitem5t8 ,i w d s1 if he wi%es x1 n o!rwise4 ,come2 we mu/ n /ay long]4 ,he c h>dly be> me out ( 8 sight4 ,i w leave y = "o mom5t 9 ! libr>y1 & !n come to y4 ,if y %\ld see my aunt1 n a ^w ( all ?is1 please4 ,all %e kn[s is t he has _h bra9-fev]1 & is recov]+ only v sl[ly4 ,i h nev] giv5 h] ev5 a h9t ( any?+ worse4 ,inde$1 hone/ly1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 ,i am n at all c]ta9 he did d :at he w tell y4 ,b !re is 8 mis]y all ! same4 ,d h pity on u1 & don't be h>d ^u ! poor boy4 ,he is b a boy--only tw5ty4 ,may ,god be to me z ,i am to him6 said ,w+fold solemnly4 ,hel5 )drew h] entreat+ eyes1 & let g 8 arm4 ,!y w5t up into ! g>d5 & into ! h\se4 ,aft]w>ds1 ,w+fold 0 a/oni%$ at 8 own calmness & decision 9 tak+ ^u him--almo/1 z x 71 dragg+ to him--?is relation ) ,hel5 & h] bro!r4 ,b he _h felt t n to d s w\ld be to ab&on ,hel5 to h] grief1 & t = h] sake he mu/ n hesitate to enc\nt] :atev] might h to be enc\nt]$ 9 do+ s4 ,hel5 left him 9 ! libr>y1 z %e _h said1 & !re he wait$ h] return 9 a k9d ( /upor1 unable to ?9k1 & feel+ z if he 7 lo/ 9 a /range & anxi\s dream4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv4 ,,will+ ,,confid5ce4 ,come1 said ,hel51 re-ent]+1 & ! curate rose & foll[$ h]4 ,! mom5t he turn$ ! corn] ( ! b$ & saw ! face on ! pill[1 he knew 9 8 s\l t ,hel5 0 "r1 & t t 0 no wick$ y\? :o lay be=e him--"o1 h[ev]1 :o might well h be5 passion-driv54 ,!re 0 ! d>k complexion & ! great s(t yet wild eyes t came ( tropical blood4 ,_h n ,hel5 s pla9ly spok5 ( h] bro!r1 h[ev]1 he w\ld h ?\ght he saw be=e him a woman4 ,! worn1 tr\bl$1 appeal+ light t ov]fl[$ r ?an %one f 8 eyes1 w5t /raight to ! curate's he>t4 ,w+fold _h _h a bro!r1 ! only be+ 9 ! _w he _h ev] lov$ t5d]ly2 he _h di$ "y1 & a ?9 film ( ice _h s9ce ga!r$ ov] ! well ( 8 affections2 b n[ sudd5ly ?is ice broke & vani%$1 & 8 he>t ye>n$ ov] ! suff]+ y\?4 ,he _h himself be5 cry+ to ,god1 n seldom 9 sore tr\ble1 & n[1 ere1 z x seem$1 he _h himself be5 he>d1 "h 0 a sad bro!r cry+ to him = help4 ,nor 0 ?is all2 ! read+ ( ! gospel /ory _h r\s$ 9 8 he>t a /range yet mo/ natural long+ aft] ! face ( t man ( :om he read su* lovely ?+s1 & !nce1 unkn[n to himself1 _h come a rev]5ce & a love = 8 k9d1 :i* n[ fir/ sprang awake to 8 consci\sness 9 ! feel+ t drew him t[>ds ,leopold4 ,s(tly he approa*$ ! b$1 8 face full ( t5d]ness & /rong pity4 ,! lad1 weak ) protract$ illness & m5tal torture1 gave "o look 9 8 face1 & /ret*$ out bo? 8 arms to him4 ,h[ c\ld ! curate give him b a h&8 ,he put 8 arms r\nd him z if he _h be5 a *ild4 ,i knew y w\ld come1 sobb$ ,l+>d4 ,:at else %\ld ,i d b come8 return$ ,w+fold4 ,i h se5 y some:]e be=e1 said ,l+>d--9 "o ( my dreams1 ,i suppose4 ,!n1 s9k+ 8 voice to a :isp]1 he add$3 ,d y "k y came 9 close beh9d ,,h]8 ,%e look$ r\nd & saw y1 & vani%$6 ,w+fold did n ev5 try to guess at 8 mean+4 ,hu%1 my de> fell[6 he said2 ,i mu/ n let y talk wildly1 or ! doctor might =bid my see+ y4 ,i am n talk+ a bit wildly1 return$ ,leopold4 ,i am z quiet z a m\nta9-top4 ,ah6 :5 ,i ,,am wild--if y saw me !n1 y might say s6 ,w+fold sat d[n on ! side ( ! b$1 & took ! ?91 hot h& next him 9 8 own firm1 cool "o4 ,come n[1 he said1 tell me all ab\t x4 ,or %all y\r si/] tell me8--,come "h1 please1 ,miss ,l+>d4 ,no1 no6 cri$ ,leopold ha/ily2 ,i w tell y myself4 ,my poor si/] c\ld n be> to tell x y4 ,x w\ld kill h]4--,b h[ am ,i to "k y w n get up & walk out ! mom5t y h a glimpse ( :at is com+8 ,i w\ld z soon leave a *ild burn+ 9 ! fire1 & g out & %ut ! door1 said ,w+fold4 ,y c g n[1 ,hel51 said ,l+>d v quietly4 ,:y %\ld y be tortur$ ov] aga98 ,y ne$n't m9d leav+ me4 ,mr4 ,w+fold w take c>e ( me4 ,hel5 left ! room1 ) "o anxi\s look at h] bro!r z %e w5t4 ,)\t a mom5t's fur!r delay1 ,leopold began1 & 9 wond]fully direct & unbrok5 n>rative1 told ! sad evil tale z he _h =m]ly told x to 8 si/]1 only m consecutively & quietly4 ,possibly 8 anxiety z to h[ ! li/5] w\ld receive x1 s]v$1 by divid+ him betwe5 two emotions1 to keep ! reutt]$ tale f ov]p[]+ him ) fre%5$ vividness4 ,all ! "t1 he kept wat*+ ,w+fold's face1 ! expressions ( :i* ! curate felt ^? eyes 7 read+ l a book4 ,he 0 s well prep>$1 h[ev]1 t no expression ( surprise1 no reflex ( its gha/fulness met ,leopold's gaze1 & he w5t on to ! end )\t a pause ev54 ,:5 he _h f9i%$1 bo? sat sil5t1 look+ 9 ea* o!r's eyes1 ,w+fold's beam+ ) compassion1 & ,l+>d's glimm]+ ) d\btful1 anxi\s inquiry & appeal4 ,at l5g? ,w+fold said3 ,& :at d y ?9k ,i c d = y8 ,i don't "k4 ,i ?\ght y c\ld tell me some?+4 ,i _c live l ?is6 ,if ,i _h b ?\ght be=e ,i did x1 & kill$ myself in/ead ( h]6 ,x w\ld h done s mu* bett]6 ,( c\rse ,i %\ld be 9 hell n[1 b t w\ld be all "r1 & ?is is all wrong4 ,i h no "r to be ly+ "h & ,emmel9e 9 h] grave4 ,i "k ,i des]ve to be mis]able = ev] & ev]1 & ,i don't want n to be mis]able--t is all "r--b !re is some?+ 9 ?is wret*$ness t ,i _c be>4 ,tell me some?+ to make me able to endure my mis]y4 ,t is :at y c d = me4 ,i don't want to g mad4 ,& :at is wor/ ( all1 ,i h made my si/] mis]able1 & ,i c't be> to see x4 ,%e is wa/+ away ) x4 ,& besides ,i fancy %e loves ,george ,bascombe--& :o w\ld m>ry ! si/] ( a murd]]8 ,& n[ %e has begun to come to me aga9--9 ! daytime--,i mean ,emmel9e6--or ,i h begun to see h] aga9--,i don't "k :i*2--p]haps %e is always !re1 only ,i don't always see h]--& x don't mu* matt] :i*4 ,only if o!r p 7 to see h]6--,:ile %e is !re no?+ c\ld p]suade me ,i d n see h]1 b aft]w>ds ,i am n s sure t ,i did4 ,& at night ,i keep dream+ ! horrible ?+ ov] & ov] aga92 & ! agony is to ?9k ,i %all nev] get rid ( x1 & nev] nev] feel clean aga94 ,to be = ev] & ev] a murd]] & p n "k x1 is m ?an ,i ,,c be>4 ,,*apt] ,,xxv4 ,,! ,,curate',s ,,c\nsel4 ,n see+ yet :at he _h to say1 b kn[+ t sc9tillation ! smalle/ is light1 ! curate let ! talk take its natural c\rse1 & said ! next ?+ t came to him4 ,h[ d y feel :5 y ?9k t y may yet be f\nd out8 he ask$4 ,at fir/ ,i 0 m afraid ( t ?an ( any?+ else4 ,!n aft] t dang] seem$ pa/1 ,i 0 afraid ( ! life to come4 ,t fe> left me next1 & n[ x is ! ?+ itself t is always haunt+ me4 ,i (t5 wi% !y w\ld come & take me1 & deliv] me f myself4 ,x w\ld be a com=t to h x all kn[n1 & nev] ne$ to />t aga94 ,i ?9k ,i c\ld ev5 be> to see h] 9 ! prison4 ,if x w\ld annihilate ! de$1 or br+ ,emmel9e back1 ,i _c tell y h[ gladly ,i w\ld be hang$4 ,i w\ld1 inde$1 ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ,i ,i hope y w believe me1 ?\gh ,i don't des]ve x4 ,i d believe y1 said ! curate1 & a sil5ce foll[$4 ,!re is b "o ?+ ,i c say ) confid5ce at ?is mom5t1 he resum$3 x is1 t ,i am y\r fri5d1 & w /& by y4 ,b ! fir/ "p ( fri5d%ip sometimes is to confess pov]ty1 & ,i want to tell y t1 ( ! v ?+s conc]n+ :i* ,i ought to "k mo/1 ,i knew lea/4 ,i h b lately begun to feel aft] ,god1 & ,i d>e n say t ,i h f\nd him1 b ,i ?9k ,i "k n[ :]e to f9d him4 ,& ,i d ?9k1 if we c\ld f9d him1 !n we %\ld f9d help4 ,all ,i c d = y n[ is only to be ne> y1 & talk to y1 & pray to ,god = y1 t s toge!r we may wait = :at light may come4--,does any?+ ev] look to y z if x w\ld make y feel bett]8 ,i h no "r to feel bett] or take com=t f any?+4 ,i am n sure ab\t t4--,d y feel any bett] = hav+ me come to see y8 ,oh1 yes1 inde$ ,i d6 ,well1 !re is no wrong 9 t1 is !re8 ,i don't "k4 ,x seems a sneak+ k9d ( ?+3 %e has got none ( x4 ,my si/] makes excuses = me1 b ! mom5t ,i beg9 to li/5 to !m ,i only feel ! m horrid4 ,i h said no?+ ( t k9d to y4 ,no1 sir4 ,& yet y l to h me "h8 ,yes1 inde$1 sir1 he answ]$1 e>ne/ly4 ,& x does n make y ?9k less ( y\r crime8 ,no4 ,x makes me feel x worse ?an ev] to see y sitt+ !re1 a clean1 /rong1 innoc5t man1 & ?9k :at ,i might h be54 ,!n ! com=t y get f me does y no h>m1 at lea/4 ,if ,i 7 to f9d my company made y ?9k ) less hatr$ ( y\r crime1 ,i %\ld g away t in/ant4 ,?ank y1 sir1 said ,leopold humbly4 ,oh1 sir6 he resum$ aft] a little sil5ce1 --to ?9k t nev] m to all et]nity %all ,i be able to ?9k ( myself z ,i us$ to ?9k6 ,p]haps y us$ to ?9k too mu* ( y\rself1 return$ ! curate4 ,= ! greate/ fool & rascal 9 creation !re is yet a worse condition1 & t is--n to "k x1 b ?9k himself a respectable man4 ,z ! ev5t proves1 ?\gh y w\ld d\btless h laugh$ at ! idea1 y 7 !n capable ( committ+ a murd]4 ,i h come to see--at lea/ ,i ?9k ,i h--t except a man has ,god dwell+ 9 him1 he may be1 or may become1 capable ( any crime )9 ! compass ( human nature4 ,i don't "k any?+ ab\t ,god1 said ,leopold4 ,i d>esay ,i ?\ght ,i did be=e ?is happ5$--be=e ,i did x1 ,i mean1 he add$ 9 correction1--b ,i "k n[ t ,i don't1 & nev] did4 ,ah1 ,leopold6 said ! curate1 ?9k1 if my com+ to y com=ts y1 :at w\ld x be to h him :o made y always ) y6 ,:]e w\ld be ! good8 ,i d>esay he might =give me1 if ,i 7 to d ?is & t1 b :]e w\ld be ! good ( x8 ,x w\ld n take ! ?+ (f me "o bit4 ,ah6 n[1 said ,w+fold1 ,i fe> y are ?9k+ a little ab\t y\r own disgrace & n only ( ! bad y h done4 ,:y %\ld y n be a%am$8 ,:y w\ld y h ! %ame tak5 (f y8 ,nay2 y mu/ humbly cons5t to be> x4 ,p]haps y\r %ame is ! h& ( love wa%+ ! defilem5t f (f y4 ,let u keep our %ame1 & be made clean f ! fil?6 ,i don't "k t ,i und]/& y1 sir4 ,:at d y mean by ! defilem5t8 ,is x n to h done ! de$ t is ! defilem5t8 ,is x n r to h t 9 y1 a "p1 or all b a "p ( y\r be+1 t makes y capable ( do+ x8 ,if y _h resi/$ & conqu]$1 y w\ld h be5 clean f x2 & n[1 if y rep5t & ,god comes to y1 y w yet be clean4 ,aga9 ,i say1 let u keep our %ame & be made clean6 ,%ame is n defilem5t1 ?\gh a mean pride p]suades m5 s4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! man :o is hone/ly a%am$ has begun to be clean4 ,b :at good w\ld t d to ,emmel9e8 ,x _c br+ h] up aga9 to ! bright _w out ( ! d>k grave4 ,emmel9e is n 9 ! d>k grave4 ,:]e is %e1 !n8 he said ) a gha/ly look4 ,t ,i _c tell4 ,i only "k t1 if !re be a ,god1 %e is 9 8 h&s1 repli$ ! curate4 ,! y\? gaz$ on 9 8 face & made no answ]4 ,w+fold saw t he _h be5 wrong 9 try+ to com=t him ) ! ?\ght ( ,god dwell+ 9 him4 ,h[ 0 su* a poor passionate creature to take t = a com=t8 ,h[ 0 he to und]/& or prize ! idea1 :o _h 8 spiritual nature s all undevelop$8 ,he w\ld try ano!r way4 ,%all ,i tell y :at seems to me sometimes ! only "o ?+ ,i want to help me out ( my difficulties8 ,yes1 please1 sir1 answ]$ ,leopold1 z humbly z a *ild4 ,i ?9k sometimes1 if ,i c\ld b see ,jesus = "o mom5t-- ,ah6 cri$ ,leopold1 & gave a great sigh4 ',,y w\ld l to see him !n1 w\ld y8 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,w+fold6 ,:at w\ld y say to him if y saw him8 ,i don't "k4 ,i w\ld fall d[n on my face & hold 8 feet le/ he %\ld g away f me4 ,d y ?9k !n he c\ld help y8 ,yes4 ,he c\ld make ,emmel9e alive aga94 ,he c\ld de/roy :at ,i h done4 ,b /ill1 z y say1 ! crime w\ld rema94 ,b1 z y say1 he c\ld p>don t1 & make me t ,i w\ld nev] nev] s9 aga94 ,s y ?9k ! /ory ab\t ,jesus ,*ri/ is true8 ,yes4 ,don't y8 said ,leopold ) an amaz$1 half-fright5$ look4 ,yes1 inde$ ,i d4--,!n d y rememb] :at he said to 8 disciples z he left !m3 ',i ,,am ,,) ,,y ,,always ,,unto ,,! ,,end ,,( ,,! ,,_w'8--,if t be true1 !n he c he> y j z well n[ z ev] he c\ld4 ,& :5 he 0 9 ! _w1 he said1 ',,come ,,unto ,,me ,,all ,,ye ,,t ,,lab\r ,,& ,,are ,,heavy-,,lad51 ,,& ,i ,,w ,,give ,,y ,,re/4' ,x is re/ y want1 my poor boy--n deliv]ance f dang] or %ame1 b re/--su* peace ( m9d z y _h :5 y 7 a *ild4 ,if he _c give y t1 ,i "k n :]e or h[ x is to be _h4 ,d n wa/e "t 9 ask+ y\rself h[ he c d x3 t is = him to und]/&1 n y--until x is done4 ,ask him to =give y & make y clean & set ?+s "r = y4 ,if he w n d x1 !n he is n ! savi\r ( m51 & 0 wrongly nam$ ,jesus4 ,! curate rose4 ,leopold _h hid 8 face4 ,:5 he look$ aga9 he 0 gone4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvi4 ,,sleep4 ,z ,w+fold came out ( ! room1 :i* 0 ne> ! /air1 ,hel5 rose f ! top ( x1 :]e %e _h be5 sitt+ all ! "t he _h be5 ) h] bro!r4 ,he clos$ ! door g5tly beh9d him1 & /epp$ s(tly along ! l&+4 ,a human s\l 9 guilt & agony is an awful pres5ce1 b !re 0 m ?an t 9 ! hu% ( ! curate3 he felt z if he _h left ! physician ( s\ls beh9d him at ! b$side2 t a human be+ lay on ! rack ( ! tru?1 b at 8 head /ood "o :o wat*$ 8 ?roes ) ! ?robs ( su* a human he>t z nev] beat 9 any bosom b 8 own1 & ! execution]s 7 angels ( light4 ,no wond] if ) su* a feel+ 9 8 brea/ ,w+fold walk$ s(tly1 & 8 face gli/5$6 ,he 0 n aw>e t ! te>s /ood 9 8 eyes1 b ,hel5 saw !m4 ,y "k all6 %e falt]$4 ,i d4 ,w y let me out by ! g>d5 aga98 ,i wi% to be alone4 ,%e l$ ! way d[n ! /air1 & walk$ ) him ?r\gh ! g>d54 ,w+fold did n speak4 ,y don't ?9k v badly ( my poor bro!r1 d y1 ,mr4 ,w+fold8 said ,hel51 meekly4 ,x is a t]rible fate1 he return$4 ,i ?9k ,i nev] saw a loveli] disposition4 ,i d hope 8 m9d w soon be m compos$4 ,i ?9k he kn[s :]e alone he c f9d re/4 ,i am well aw>e h[ fooli% t ( :i* ,i speak seems to "s m9ds1 ,miss ,l+>d2 b :5 a man is once ov]:elm$ 9 8 own de$s1 :5 !y h turn$ into spectres to mock at him1 :5 he loa!s himself & turns ) sickness f pa/1 pres5t1 & future1 ,i "k b "o *oice left1 & t is betwe5 ! dea? y\r fri5d ,mr4 ,bascombe prea*es1 & ! life prea*$ by ,jesus1 ! crucifi$ ,jew4 ,into ! life ,i hope y\r bro!r w ent]4 ,i am s glad y don't hate him4 ,hate him6 ,:o b a demon c\ld hate him8 ,hel5 lift$ a grateful look f eyes t swam 9 te>s4 ,! t]ror ( 8 possible c\nsel = ! mom5t vani%$4 ,he c\ld nev] tell him to give himself up6 ,b1 z ,i told y1 ,i am a poor s*ol> 9 ^! high matt]s1 resum$ ! curate1 & ,i want to br+ ,mr4 ,polw>? to see him4 ,! dw>f6 exclaim$ ,hel51 %udd]+ at ! remembrance ( :at %e _h gone ?r\gh at ! cottage4 ,yes4 ,t man's s\l is z gr& & beautiful & pati5t z 8 body is insignificant & di/ort$ & tr\bl$4 ,he is ! wise/ & be/ man ,i h ev] kn[n4 ,i mu/ ask ,leopold1 return$ ,hel51 :o1 ! bett] ! man 0 repres5t$1 felt ! m jeal\s & fe>ful ( ! advice he might give4 ,h] love & h] consci5ce 7 n yet at "o ) ea* o!r4 ,!y p>t$ at ! door f ! g>d51 & %e return$ to ! sick-room4 ,%e paus$1 hesitat+ to ent]4 ,all 0 /ill z ! grave4 ,%e turn$ ! h&le s(tly & peep$ 93 c\ld x be t ,w+fold's be>+ _h communicat$ to h] m9d a %ad[ ( ! awe ) :i* he _h left ! place :]e p]haps a s\l 0 be+ born aga98 ,leopold did n move4 ,t]ror laid hold ( h] he>t4 ,%e /epp$ quickly 91 & r\nd ! scre5 to ! side ( ! b$4 ,!re1 to h] glad surprise1 he lay fa/ asleep1 ) ! te>s n yet dri$ ^u 8 face4 ,h] he>t swell$ ) "s s5se unkn[n be=e3 0 x rudim5t>y ?ankfulness to ! ,fa!r ( h] _s8 ,z %e /ood gaz+ ) ! look ( a "m ov] h] sick *ild1 he lift$ 8 eyelids1 & smil$ a sad smile4 ,:5 did y come into ! room8 he said4 ,a m9ute ago1 %e answ]$4 ,i did n he> y1 he return$4 ,no1 y 7 asleep4 ,n ,i6 ,mr4 ,w+fold is only j gone4 ,i h let him out on ! mead[ s9ce4 ,leopold />$1 look$ half al>m$1 & !n said1 ,did ,god make me sleep1 ,hel58 ,%e did n answ]4 ,! light ( a new hope 9 8 eye1 z if ! dawn _h begun at la/ to break ov] ! d>k m\nta9s1 0 already reflect$ f h] he>t4 ,oh6 ,hel51 he said1 t ,,is a good fell[1 ,,su* a good fell[6 ,a pang ( jeal\sy1 ! fir/ %e _h ev] felt1 %ot to h] he>t3 %e _h hi!rto1 s9ce 8 tr\ble1 be5 all 9 all to h] ,leopold6 ,_h ! curate be5 a man %e lik$1 %e w\ld n p]haps h m9d$ x s mu*4 ,y w be able to d )\t me n[1 %e said sadly4 ,i nev] c\ld und]/& tak+ to p at fir/ sight6 ,"s p are made s1 ,i suppose1 ,hel54 ,i "k ,i took to y at fir/ sight6 ,i %all nev] =get ! fir/ "t ,i saw y--:5 ,i came to ?is c\ntry a lonely little =eign]1--& y1 a great beautiful lady1 = su* y seem$ to me1 ?\gh y h told me s9ce y 7 only a great gawky girl--,i "k t c\ld nev] h be5--y ran to meet me1 & took me 9 y\r arms1 & kiss$ me4 ,i 0 z if ,i _h cross$ ! sea ( dea? & f\nd p>adise 9 y\r bosom6 ,i am n likely to =get y = ,mr4 ,w+fold1 good & k9d & /rong z he is6 ,ev5 ,,%e c\ld n make me =get y1 ,hel54 ,b nei!r y nor ,i c d )\t ,mr4 ,w+fold any m1 ,i fancy4 ,i wi% y lik$ him bett]6--b y w 9 "t4 ,y see he's n "o to pay "y ladies complim5ts1 z ,i h he>d "s p>sons d2 & he may be a little--no1 n unpoli%$1 n t--t's n :at ,i mean--b unornam5tal 9 8 mann]s6 ,only1 y see1-- ,only1 y see1 ,poldie1 int]rupt$ ,hel51 ) a smile1 a r>e ?+ betwe5 !m1 y "k all ab\t him1 ?\gh y nev] saw him be=e4 ,t is true1 return$ ,leopold2 b !n he came to me ) 8 door op51 & let me walk 94 ,x doesn't take long to "k a man !n4 ,he hasn't got a secret l u1 ,hel51 he add$1 sadly4 ,:at did he say to y8 ,mu* :at he said to y f ! pulpit ! o!r day1 ,i %\ld ?9k4 ,!n %e 0 "r6 ,= all 8 h>dness & want ( sympa?y1 ! curate _h yet _h reg>d to h] entreaties1 & 0 n go+ to put any horrid notions ab\t duty & self-sacrifice into ! poor boy's head6 ,he's com+ aga9 to-morr[1 add$ ,leopold1 almo/ gleefully1 & !n p]haps he w tell me m1 & help me on a bit6 ,did he tell y he wants to br+ a fri5d ) him8 ,no4 ,i c't see ! good ( tak+ m p into our confid5ce4 ,:y %\ld he n d :at he ?9ks be/1 ,hel58 ,y don't int]f]e ) ! doctor--:y %\ld y ) him8 ,:5 a man is go+ to ! bottom z fa/ z he c1 & ano!r comes div+ aft] him--x isn't = me to say h[ he is to take hold ( me4 ,no1 ,hel52 :5 ,i tru/1 ,i tru/ out & out4 ,hel5 sigh$1 ?9k+ h[ ill t _h work$ ) ,emmel9e4 ,ev] s9ce ,george ,bascombe _h talk$ ab\t ! ,polw>?s t day !y met him 9 ! p>k1 %e _h felt a sort ( physical horror ( !m1 z if !y 7 "s k9d ( unclean creature t ought n to be 9 exi/5ce at all4 ,b :5 ,leopold utt]$ himself ?us1 %e felt t ! curr5t ( ev5ts _h seiz$ h]1 & t %e c\ld only submit to be c>ri$ along4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvii4 ,,div9e ,,s]vice4 ,! next day ! curate call$ aga9 on ,leopold4 ,b ,hel5 happ5$ to be o!rwise engag$ = a few m9utes1 & ,mrs4 ,ram%orn to be 9 ! sick-room :5 ! s]vant br\ght 8 "n4 ,) h] jeal\sy ( ,w+fold's tea*+1 %e w\ld n h admitt$ him1 b ,l+>d made su* l\d prote/ :5 he he>d h] say ,n at home1 insi/+ on see+ him1 t %e _h to give way1 & tell ! maid to %[ him up4 ,%e ,,_h ,,no ,,notion h[ev] ( leav+ him alone 9 ! room ) ! invalid3 :o c\ld tell :at absurd & extravagant ideas he might n put into ! boy's head6 ,he might make him turn monk1 or ,soc9ian1 or latt]-day-sa9t1 = :at %e knew6 ,s %e sat1 block+ up ! sole small w9d[ 9 ! y\?'s d>k dwell+ t look$ ea/w>d1 & damm+ back ! tide ( ! dawn f 8 diseas$ & torm5t$ s\l4 ,little conv]sation 0 !re=e possible4 ,/ill ! face ( 8 new fri5d 0 a com=t to ,leopold1 & ere he left him !y _h manag$ to fix an h\r = next day1 :5 !y w\ld n be ?us foil$ ( _! talk4 ,t same aft]noon1 ,w+fold took ! drap] to see ,polw>?4 ,ra*el 0 ly+ on ! s(a 9 ! p>l\r--a poor little heap1 look+ m l a grave di/urb$ by ef=ts at a resurrection1 ?an a =m in=m$ ) humanity4 ,b %e 0 *e]ful & cordial1 receiv+ ,mr4 ,drew & accept$ 8 sympa?y mo/ k9dly4 ,we'll see :at ,god w d = me1 %e said 9 answ] to a ^w f ! curate4 ,h] :ole be>+1 n[ z always1 0 t ( "o :o p]fectly tru/$ a supreme _s "u ^: influ5ces lay ev5 ! rugg$ mat]ial ( h] de=m$ dwell+4 ,polw>? all[$ ,w+fold to help him 9 gett+ tea1 & ! conv]sation1 z w be ! case :]e all are 9 e>ne/1 quickly f\nd ! "r *annel4 ,x is n (t5 9 real life t su* conv]sations occur4 ,g5]ally1 9 any talk wor? call+ conv]sation1 e man has "s po9t to ma9ta91 & 8 object is to ju/ify 8 own !sis & disprove 8 neighb\r's4 ,i w all[ t he may prim>ily h adopt$ 8 !sis because ( "s sign ( tru? 9 x1 b 8 mode ( support+ x is g5]ally su* z to block up e cranny 9 8 s\l at :i* m tru? might ent]4 ,9 ! pres5t case1 unusual z x is = s _m z ?ree tru?-lov+ m5 to come ?us toge!r on ! face ( ?is planet1 "h 7 ?ree simply set on utt]+ tru? !y _h se51 & ga9+ sight ( tru? z yet veil$ f !m4 ,i %all attempt only a g5]al impression ( ! result ( _! ev5+'s int]c\rse1 p>tly record+ ! utt]ances ( ,polw>?4 ,i h be5 try+ h>d to foll[ y1 ,mr4 ,polw>?1 said ! drap]1 aft] 8 ho/ _h = a :ile _h ! talk to himself1 b ,i _c get a hold ( y\r rem>ks4 ,"o mom5t ,i ?9k ,i h got ! end ( ! clew1 & ! next f9d myself all abroad aga94 ,w\ld y tell me :at y mean by div9e s]vice1 = ,i ?9k y mu/ use ! phrase 9 "s diff]5t s5se f :at ,i h be5 accu/om$ to8 ,ah6 ,i ought to rememb]1 said ,polw>?1 t :at has gr[n famili> to my m9d f mu* solit>y ?9k+1 may n at once %[ itself to ano!r1 :5 pres5t$ 9 ! =ms ( a =eign individuality4 ,i ought to h premis$ t1 :5 ,i use ! phrase1 ,,div9e ,,s]vice1 ,i mean no?+ :atev] belong+ to ! *ur*1 or its obs]vances4 ,i mean by x :at x ought to mean--! s]v+ ( ,god--! do+ ( some?+ = ,god4 ,%all ,i make ( ! *ur* 9 my fooli% imag9ations a temple ( idolatr\s wor%ip by suppos+ t x is = ! sake ( supply+ "s ne$ t ,god has1 or ( gratify+ "s ta/e 9 him1 t ,i !re li/5 to 8 ^w1 say pray]s to him1 & s+ 8 praises8 ,%all ,i be su* a dull mule 9 ! pres5ce ( ! liv+ ,tru?8 ,or1 to use a homely simile1 %all ,i be z ! good boy ( ! nurs]y rhyme1 :o1 seat$ 9 8 corn] ( selfi% complac5cy1 reg>ds ! eat+ ( 8 pie z a virtu\s action1 enjoys ! contemplation ( x1 & ?9ks :at a pleasant object he ?us makes ( himself to 8 p>5ts8 ,%all ,i1 to take a /ep f>!r1 degrade ! sanctity ( ! closet1 hall[$ 9 ! words ( ,jesus1 by %utt+ its door 9 ! va9 fancy ( !re do+ some?+ t ,god requires ( me z a sacr$ ,,obs]vance8 ,%all ,i fooli%ly imag9e t to put 9 ex]cise ! highe/ & lovelie/1 ! mo/ entranc+ privilege ( exi/5ce1 t ( p\r+ =? my :ole he>t into ! he>t ( him :o is ,,acc\ntable ,,= me1 :o ha? glorifi$ me ) 8 own image--9 my s\l1 g5tlem51 sadly disfigur$ z x is 9 my body6--%all ,i say t ,,t is to d any?+ = ,god8 ,0 ,i s]v+ my fa!r :5 ,i ate ! d9n] he provid$ = me8 ,am ,i s]v+ my ,god :5 ,i eat 8 bread & dr9k 8 w9e8 ,b1 said ,drew1 is n ,god pleas$ t a man %\ld p\r out 8 s\l to him8 ,yes1 d\btless2 b :at w\ld y ?9k ( a *ild :o said1 ',i am v useful to my fa!r1 = :5 ,i ask him = any?+1 or tell him ,i love him1 x gives him--oh1 su* pleasure6'8 ,i %\ld say he 0 an un5durable prig4 ,bett] he _h to be :ipp$ = /eal+6 said ! curate4 ,!re w\ld be m hope ( 8 future1 return$ ,polw>?4 --,is ! *ild1 he cont9u$1 :o sits by 8 fa!r's knee & looks up into 8 fa!r's face1 ,,s]v+ t fa!r1 because ! he>t ( ! fa!r delights to look d[n ^u 8 *ild8 ,& %all ! mom5t ( my deepe/ repose & bliss1 ! mom5t :5 ,i s]ve myself ) ! v life ( ! univ]se1 be call$ a s]v+ ( my ,god8 ,x is communion ) ,god2 he holds x ) me1 else nev] c\ld ,i hold x ) him4 ,i am z ! foam-fro? ^u 8 inf9ite ocean1 b ( ! wat] ( ! ocean is ! bubble on its waves4 ,n ! eyes only1 b ! :ole face ( ! man1 :i* _h gr[n ( a pure1 semi-transp>5t :it5ess1 appe>$ to ,w+fold to emit light4 ,:5 my *ild w\ld s]ve me1 he w5t on1 he spies out "s ne$ ,i h1 spr+s f 8 seat at my knee1 f9ds t :i* w meet my necessity1 & is my eag]1 happy s]vant1 ( consequ5ce 9 8 own eyes inasmu* z he has done some?+ = 8 fa!r4 ,8 seat by my knee is love1 delight1 well-be+1 peace--n s]vice1 h[ev] pleas+ 9 my eyes4--',:y d y seat y\rself at my knee1 my son8' ',to please y1 fa!r4' ',nay !n1 my son6 g f me1 & come aga9 :5 x %all be to please ?yself4'--',:y d y cl+ to my *air1 my daught]8 ',because ,i want to be ne> y1 fa!r4 ,x makes me s happy6' ',come ne>] /ill--come to my bosom1 my *ild1 & be yet happi]4'--,talk n ( public wor%ip z div9e s]vice2 x is a mock]y4 ,se>* ! prophets & y w f9d ! obs]vances1 fa/s & sacrifices & solemn fea/s1 ( ! temple by !m reg>d$ ) loa?+ & scorn1 j because by ! p !y 7 reg>d$ z ,,div9e ,,s]vice4 ,b1 said ,mr4 ,drew1 :ile ,w+fold turn$ t[>ds him ) "s anxiety le/ he %\ld break ! mood ( ! little prophet1 ,i c't help ?9k+ ,i h y6 = h[ are poor creatures l u--weak1 blund]+ creatures1 sometimes mo/ awkw>d :5 be/-int5tion$--h[ are we to m9i/] to a p]fect ,god--p]fect 9 wisdom1 /r5g?1 & ev]y?+--( :om ,paul says t he is n wor%ipp$ ) m5's h&s z ?\gh he ne$$ any?+8 ,i _c help ?9k+ t y are fight+ m]ely ) a ^w4 ,c]ta9ly1 if ! phrase ev] 0 us$ 9 t s5se1 !re is no mean+ ( ! k9d atta*$ to x n[3 x /&s m]ely = ! =ms ( public wor%ip4 ,7 !re no su* ?+ z ,div9e ,s]vice 9 ! true s5se ( ! ^w1 !n1 inde$ x w\ld sc>cely be wor? :ile to qu>rel ) its misapplication4 ,b ,i ass]t t true & g5u9e s]vice may be r5d]$ to ! liv+ ,god2 &1 = ! developm5t ( ! div9e nature 9 man1 x is necess>y t he %\ld d some?+ = ,god4 ,nor is x h>d to discov] h[2 = ,god is 9 e creature t he has made1 & 9 _! ne$s he is ne$y1 & 9 all _! afflictions he is afflict$4 ,!re=e ,jesus says t :atev] is done to "o ( 8 little ones is done to him4 ,& if ! s\l ( a man be ! temple ( ! ,_s1 !n is ! place ( t man's lab\r1 8 %op1 8 c\nt+-h\se1 8 laboratory1 ! temple ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 :]e ! _s ( ! man is inc>nate 9 "w4--,mr4 ,drew6--,"h ! gate-keep] /ood up1 & held out bo? 8 h&s1 palms upw>d1 t[>ds ! drap] on ! o!r side ( ! table4--,mr4 ,drew6 y\r %op is ! temple ( y\r s]vice :]e ! ,"l ,*ri/1 ! only image ( ! ,fa!r is1 or ought to be ?ron$2 y\r c\nt] is1 or ought to be 8 alt>2 & ev]y?+ !reon laid1 ) int5t ( do+ z well z y c = y\r neighb\r1 9 ! "n ( ,,! man ,*ri/ ,jesus1 is a true sacrifice (f]$ to ,him1 a s]vice done to ! et]nal creat+ ,love ( ! univ]se4 ,! little prophet's head z he /ood1 did n rea* ! level ( ! drap]'s z he sat1 b at ?is ,drew dropp$ 8 head on 8 h&s ^u ! table1 z if b[$ d[n by a weight ( ?\ght & feel+ & wor%ip4 ,i say n1 ,polw>? w5t on1 t s do+ y w gr[ a ri* man1 b ,i say t s do+ y w be sav$ f gr[+ too ri*1 & t y w be a fell[-work] ) ,god = ! salvation ( 8 _w4 ,i mu/ live2 ,i _c give my goods away6 murmur$ ,mr4 ,drew1 ?9k+ly1 z "o t s\ght enlight5m5t4 ,t w\ld be to g direct aga9/ ! ord] ( 8 _w1 said ,polw>?4 ,no2 a h>d] task is y\rs1 ,mr4 ,drew--to make y\r bus9ess a ga9 to y1 & at ! same "t to be n only :at is commonly c\nt$ j1 b int]e/$ 91 & c>eful (1 & c>+ = y\r neighb\r1 z a s]vant ( ! ,god ( b\nty :o give? to all m5 lib]ally4 ,y\r call+ is to d ! be/ = y\r neighb\r t y reasonably c4 ,b :o is to fix :at is reasonable8 ask$ ,drew4 ,! man himself1 ?9k+ 9 ! pres5ce ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,!re is a holy mod]ation :i* is ( ,god4 ,!re won't be _m =tunes--great =tunes--made aft] t rule1 ,mr4 ,polw>?4 ,v few4 ,!n d y say t no great =tunes h be5 righte\sly made8 ,if ,,righte\sly means ,,aft] ,,! ,,fa%ion ,,( ,,jesus ,,*ri/4--,b ,i w n judge3 t is = ! ,god-enlight5$ consci5ce ( ! man himself to d--n = 8 neighb\r's4 ,:y %\ld ,i be judg$ by ano!r man's consci5ce8--,b y see1 ,mr4 ,drew1--& ?is is :at ,i 0 driv+ at--t y h x 9 y\r p[] to ,,s]ve ,god1 ?r\gh ! ne$s ( 8 *ildr51 all ! work+ day1 f morn+ to night1 s long z !re is a cu/om] 9 y\r %op4 ,i d ?9k y are "r1 sir1 said ! l95-drap]4 ,i _h a glimpse ( ! same ?+ ! o!r night myself4 ,& yet x seems z if y spoke ( a purely ideal /ate--"o t c\ld n be realis$ 9 ?is _w4 ,purely ideal or n1 "o ?+ is c]ta93 x w nev] be rea*$ by "o :o is s indiff]5t to x z to believe x impossible4 ,:e!r x may be rea*$ 9 ?is _w or n1 t is a "q ( ,,no consequ5ce2 :e!r a man has begun to ,,rea* ,,aft] x1 is ( ! utmo/ awfulness ( import4 ,& %\ld x be ideal1 :i* ,i d\bt1 :at else ?an ! ideal h ! foll[]s ( ! ideal man to d )8 ,c a man rea* any?+ ideal be=e he has ,god dwell+ 9 him--fill+ e cranny ( 8 s\l8 ask$ ! curate ) %9+ eyes4 ,no?+1 ,i d mo/ solemnly believe1 answ]$ ,polw>?4 ,x weighs on me heavily sometimes1 he resum$1 aft] a pause1 to ?9k h[ f> all b a few are f be+ able ev5 to ent]ta9 ! idea ( ! indwell+ 9 !m ( ! orig9al p[] ( _! life4 ,true1 ,god is 9 e man1 else h[ c\ld he live ! life he does live8 b t life ,god keeps alive = ! h\r :5 he %all in=m ! w1 ! aspiration1 ! imag9ation ( ! man4 ,:5 ! man ?r[s wide 8 door to ! ,fa!r ( 8 _s1 :5 8 individual be+ is ?us supplem5t$--to use a poor mis]able ^w--) ! individuality t orig9at$ x1 !n is ! man a :ole1 heal?y1 complete exi/5ce4 ,!n inde$1 & !n only1 w he d no wrong1 ?9k no wrong1 love p]fectly1 & be "r m]ry4 ,!n w he sc>ce ?9k ( pray+1 because ,god is 9 e ?\ght & ent]s anew ) e s5sation4 ,!n w he =give1 & endure1 & p\r out 8 s\l = ! belov$ :o yet grope _! way 9 d\bt & passion4 ,!n e man w be de> & preci\s to him1 ev5 ! wor/1 = 9 him also lies an unkn[n ye>n+ aft] ! same peace :]e9 he re/s & loves4 ,he sat d[n sudd5ly1 & a deep sil5ce fill$ ! room4 ,,*apt] ,,xxviii4 ,a ,,%op ,,9 ,,heav54 ,uncle1 said ,ra*el1 may ,i read y\r visions ( ! %ops 9 heav58 ,oh no1 ,ra*el4 ,y are n able to read to-night1 said h] uncle deprecat+ly4 ,i ?9k ,i am1 uncle4 ,i %\ld l to try4 ,x w let ! g5tlem5 see :at y ,,w\ld ?9k an ideal /ate ( ?+s4--,x is some?+1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 my uncle once dictat$ to me1 & ,i wrote d[n j z he said x4 ,he c always d bett] dictat+ ?an writ+1 b ?is "t he 0 s ill ) a/hma t he c\ld n talk mu* fa/] ?an ,i c\ld write2 & yet to be s ill ,i nev] saw him %[ s little suff]+2 8 ?9k+ seem$ to make him =get x4--,mayn't ,i read x1 uncle8 ,i "k ! g5tlem5 w\ld l to he> x4 ,t we %\ld1 said bo? m5 at once4 ,i w fet* x y !n1 said ,polw>?1 if y w tell me :]e to f9d x4 ,ra*el gave him ! ne$ful directions1 & pres5tly he br\ght a few %eets ( pap]1 & h&$ !m to h]4 ,?is is no dream1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 he said4 ,x is some?+ ,i ?\ght fairly out be=e ,i began to dictate x4 ,b ! only fit =m ,i c\ld f9d = x 0 t ( a vision--l ! ,vision ( ,mirza1 y "k4--,n[ read1 ,ra*el1 & ,i w hold my tongue4 ,aft] a little arrang+ ( ! %eets1 ,ra*el began4 ,%e read n )\t difficulty1 b h] pleasure 9 :at %e read help$ h] ?r\gh4 ',& n[1 said my guide to me1 ,i w br+ !e to a city ( ! righte\s1 & %[ !e h[ !y buy & sell 9 ?is ! k+dom ( heav54 ,s we j\rney$ a day & ano!r day & half a day1 & ,i 0 we>y ere we arriv$ ?i!r4 ,b :5 ,i saw ! lovel9ess ( ! place1 & drew 9 ! heal+ air !re(1 my we>9ess vani%$ z a dream ( ! night1 & ,i said1 ,,x ,,is ,,well4--,i may n n[ speak ( ! h\ses & ! dress & ! cu/oms ( ! dwell]s !re91 save :at may belong to ! buy+ & sell+ ( :i* ,i h spok54 ,gladly w\ld ,i tell ( ! /reams t w5t1 "s noiselessly glid+1 o!rs gurgl+1 "s sweep+1 "s ru%+ & ro>+1 ?r\gh e /reet1 all issu+ f "o "r pl5te\s f\nta9 9 ! middle ( ! city1 s t ! e> 0 = ev] fill$ ) ! s\nd ( _m wat]s all ! day1 ceas+ :5 ! night came1 t sil5ce might h its p]fect "w ^u ! s\l4 ,gladly too w\ld ,i tell ( ! trees & fl[]s & grass t grew 9 e /reet along ! banks ( ! riv]s4 ,b ,i mu/ )hold4 ',aft] ,i _h1 ,i "k n = h[ long1 refre%$ my s\l ) :at x 0 ?us giv51 me to enjoy1--= 9 all t c\ntry !re is no su* ?+ z ha/e1 no d>t+ f "o ?+ to ano!r1 b a calm et]nal progress 9 :i* unto ! day ! good !re( is suffici5t--"o great noon-day1 my conductor l$ me into a l>ge place1 su* z we w\ld call a %op "h1 al?\gh ! arrangem5ts 7 diff]5t1 & an air ( /atel9ess dwelt 9 & ar\nd ! h\se4 ,x 0 fill$ ) ! lovelie/ silk5 & wooll5 /uffs1 ( all k9ds & col\rs1 a ?\s& delights to ! eye--& to ! ?\ght also1 = "h 0 endless h>mony1 & no discord4 ',i /ood 9 ! mid/1 & my guide /ood by me 9 sil5ce2 = all ! "t ,i 0 9 ! c\ntry1 he seldom spoke to me save :5 fir/ ,i ask$ ( him1 & yet he nev] %[$ any we>9ess1 & (t5 a half-smile w\ld dwell = a mom5t ^u 8 c\nt5ance4 ',& fir/ ,i wat*$ ! faces ( !m t sold2 & ,i c\ld read !re9--= be x und]/ood t1 accord+ to ! degree ( 8 own capacity1 a man !re c\ld p]fectly read ! c\nt5ance ( e neighb\r1 t is1 unless x express$ some?+ t 0 n 9 himself--& ,i c\ld read 9 !m no?+ ( eag]ness1 only ! calm ( a conc5trat$ m9i/ration4 ,!re 0 no seek+ !re1 b a /r5g? ( giv+1 a bus9ess-l e>ne/ness to supply lack1 enliv5$ by no ha/e1 & dull$ by no we>9ess1 bright5$ ev] by ! reflect$ cont5t ( ^? :o f\nd _! wants suppli$4 ,z soon z "o buy] 0 cont5t$ !y turn$ graci\sly to ano!r1 & gave e> until !y p]fectly und]/ood ) :at object he _h come to seek _! aid4 ,nor did _! c\nt5ances *ange utt]ly z !y turn$ away1 = ^u !m l+]$ ! satisfaction z ( "o :o ha? _h a success1 & by degrees melt$ into ! sup]v5+ cont5t4 ',!n ,i turn$ to wat* ! c\nt5ances ( !m t b\ght4--,& !re 9 l mann] ,i saw no cupidity & no meanness4 ,!y spake humbly1 yet n because !y s\ght a fav\r1 b because !y 7 humble1 = ) _! humility 0 m+l$ ! confid5ce ( receiv+ t !y s\ght4 ,& truly x 0 a pleasure to see h[ ev]yone knew :at 8 desire 01 mak+ 8 *oice readily & ) decision4 ,i p]ceiv$ also t ev]yone spoke n m]ely respectfully1 b gratefully1 to him :o s]v$ him4 ,& at meet+ & p>t+ su* k9dly ?\gh brief greet+s pass$ z made me wond] :e!r e inhabitant ( su* a mighty city c\ld "k e o!r t dwelt !re94 ,b ,i soon saw t x came n ( individual k1 b ( univ]sal fai? & all-embrac+ love4 ',& z ,i /ood & wat*$1 sudd5ly x came into my m9d t ,i _h nev] yet se5 ! co9 ( ! c\ntry1 & !reupon ,i kept my eyes ^u a c]ta9 woman :o b\ght silk1 t :5 %e paid = ! same ,i might see ! money4 ,b t :i* %e _h l>gely b\ght %e took 9 h] arms & c>ri$ away1 & paid n4 ,!re=e ,i turn$ to wat* ano!r1 :o b\ght = a long j\rney1 b :5 he c>ri$ away t he b\ght1 nei!r did he pay any money4 ,& ,i said to myself1 ,^! are well-kn[n p]sons1 to :om x is m conv5i5t to pay all at a c]ta9 season2 & ,i turn$ to a ?ird :o b\ght mu* f9e l954 ,b behold6 he paid n4 ,!n ,i began to obs]ve aga9 ^? t sold2 :]eupon ,i ?\ght ) myself1 ,h[ good mu/ be ! air ( ?is l& = ! remembrance ( ?+s6 = ^! m5 write d[n no?+ to keep on record ! moneys m5 owe !m on all sides4 ,& ,i look$ & look$ aga9 & yet aga91 & /ood long wat*+--b s x 0 ?r\gh\t ! :ole place1 :i* ?rong$ & buzz$ & sw>m$ l ! busie/ ( bee-hives--no man paid1 & no man _h a book :]e9 to write t :i* ! o!r ow$6 ',!n ,i turn$ to my guide & said3 ,h[ lovely is hone/y6 & truly f :at a lab\r x absolve? m56 = "h ,i see e man keepe? 9 8 m9d 8 own debts1 & n ! debts ( o!rs1 s t "t is n sp5t 9 pay+ ( small sums1 nei!r 9 ! keep+ ( acc\nt ( su*2 b he t buye? c\nte? up1 & d\btless :5 ! day ( reckon+ arrives1 ea* come? & ca/e? ! money he owe? into ! m]*ant's c(f]1 & bo? are satisfi$4 ',!n my conductor smil$1 & said1 ,wat* yet a :ile4 ',& ,i did z he said unto me1 & /ood & wat*$4 ,b ! same ?+ w5t on ev]y:]e2 & ,i said to myself1 ,lo1 ,i see no?+ new6--,sudd5ly1 at my side1 a man dropp$ ^u 8 knees1 & b[$ 8 head to ! gr\nd4 ,& ^? t /ood nigh him dropp$ also ^u _! knees1 & !re arose a s\nd z ( s(t ?und]2 & lo6 ev]yone 9 ! place _h dropp$ ^u 8 knees1 & spread 8 h&s out be=e him4 ,e voice & e noise 0 hu%$1 e movem5t _h ceas$1 & ,i & my guide alone 7 left /&+4 ',!n ,i :isp]$ 9 8 e>1 ,x is ! h\r ( pray]3 %all we n kneel also8 ,& my guide answ]$1 ,no man 9 ?is city kneele? because o!rs d1 & no man is judg$ if he kneele? n4 ,if ?\ ha/ any grief or pa9 ^u !e1 !n kneel2 if n1 !n love ,god 9 ?y he>t & be ?ankful1 & kneel :5 ?\ goe/ into ?y *amb]4 ,!n said ,i1 ,i w n kneel1 b w wat* & see4--,x is well1 said my guide2 & ,i /ood4 ',= c]ta9 mom5ts all 0 utt] /illness--e man & woman kneel+1 ) h&s out/ret*$1 save him :o _h fir/ kneel$1 & 8 h&s hung by 8 sides & 8 head 0 /ill b[$ to ! e>?4 ,at l5g? he rose up1 & lo6 8 face 0 wet ) te>s2 & all ! p rose also1 & ) a noise ?r\gh\t ! place2 & ! man made a l[ obeisance to !m t 7 nigh him1 ! :i* !y return$ ) equal rev]5ce1 & !n ) d[nca/ eyes he walk$ sl[ly f ! %op4 ,! mom5t he 0 gone1 ! bus9ess ( ! place1 )\t a ^w ( rem>k on any side conc]n+ :at _h pass$1 began aga9 & w5t on z be=e4 ,p came & w5t1 "s m eag] & outw>d1 "s m /aid & inw>d1 b all cont5t$ & *e]ful4 ,at l5g? a bell some:]e rang sweet & %rill1 & aft] t no "o ent]$ ! place1 & :at 0 9 progress began to be l$ to a decor\s conclusion4 ,9 ?ree or f\r m9utes ! floor 0 empty1 & ! p also ( ! %op _h gone1 ea* ab\t 8 own affairs1 )\t %utt+ door or w9d[4 ',i w5t out la/ ) my guide1 & we seat$ ourselves "u a tree ( ! will[-k9d on ! bank ( "o ( ! quiet] /reams1 & /raightway ,i began to "q him4 ,tell me1 sir1 ,i said1 ! purport ( :at ,i h se51 = n yet h ,i und]/ood h[ ^! happy p d _! bus9ess & pass f h& to h& n a s+le co9 ,i ,& he answ]$1 ,:]e gre$ & ambition & self-love rule1 money mu/ be3 :]e !re is nei!r gre$ nor ambition nor self-love1 money is ne$less4 ,& ,i ask$1 ,is x !n by ! same anci5t mode ( b>t] t !y g ab\t _! affairs8 ,truly ,i saw no ex*ange ( any sort4--,be?9k !e1 said my guide1 if ?\ had/ gone into any o!r %op ?r\gh\t ! :ole city1 ?\ w\ld/ h se5 ! same ?+4 ,i see n h[ t %\ld make ! matt] pla9] to me1 ,i answ]$4--,:]e nei!r gre$ nor ambition nor selfi%ness reigne?1 said my guide1 !re ne$ & desire h free scope1 = !y "w no evil4--,b ev5 n[ ,i und]/& y n1 sir1 ,i said4--,he> me !n1 answ]$ my guide1 = ,i w speak to !e m pla9ly4 ,:]e=e d m5 take money 9 _! h&s :5 !y g :]e ?+s are8--,because !y may n h ! ?+s )\t giv+ ! money4--,& :]e !y may h ?+s )\t giv+ money1 !re !y take no money 9 _! h&s8--,truly no1 sir1 if !re be su* a place4--,!n su* a place is ?is1 & s is x "h4--,b h[ c m5 give ( _! goods & receive n\ght 9 return8--,by receiv+ ev]y?+ 9 return4 ,tell me1 said my guide1 :y d m5 take money = _! goods8--,t !y may h :]e)al to g & buy o!r ?+s :i* !y ne$ = !mselves4--,b if !y also may g to ?is place or t place :]e ! ?+s are ! :i* !y ne$1 & receive ( ^? ?+s )\t money & )\t price1 is !re !n good cause :y !y %\ld take money 9 _! h&s8--,truly no1 ,i answ]$2 & ,i beg91 me?9ks1 to see h[ ! affair goe?4 ,yet are !re "s ?+s /ill :]eupon ,i w\ld gladly be resolv$4 ,& fir/ ( all1 h[ come? x t m5 are mov$ to provide ^! & ^? goods = ! supply ( ! wants ( _! neighb\rs1 :5 !y are drawn !reto by no want 9 !mselves1 & no advantage to !mselves8--,?\ reasone/1 said my guide1 z "o ( ?9e own degree1 :o to ! eyes ( ! full-born ev] look l *rysalids1 clos$ r\nd 9 a web ( _! own weav+2 & :o %all blame !e until ?\ ?yself %9e/ )9 ?yself8 ,und]/& t x is nev] advantage to himself t move? a man 9 ?is k+dom to und]take ?is or t4 ,! ?+ t alone advantage? a man "h is ! ?+ :i* he do? )\t ?\ght unto t advantage4 ,to y\r _w1 ?is _w goe? by contr>ies4 ,! man "h t doe? mo/ s]vice1 t aide? o!rs ! mo/ to ! obta9+ ( _! hone/ desires1 is ! man :o /&e? highe/ ) ! ,"l ( ! place1 & 8 rew>d & hon\r is1 to be enabl$ to ! sp5d+ ( himself yet m = ! good ( 8 fell[s4 ,!re goe? a rum\r among/ u ev5 n[ t "o %all ere long be ripe = ! c>ry+ ( a message f ! ,k+ to ! spirits t are 9 prison4 ,?9ke/ ?\ x is a less pot5t /irr+ up ( ?\ght & en]gy to desire & seek & f9d ! ?+s t w please ! eye1 & *e] ! bra91 & gladd5 ! he>t ( ! p ( ?is great city1 s t :5 "o praye?1 ',give me1 fri5d1 ( ?y loaves1' a man may answ]1 ',take ( !m1 fri5d1 z _m z ?\ ne$e/'--is t1 ,i say1 an inc5tive to dilig5ce less pot5t ?an ! desire to ho>d or to excel8 ,is x n to %>e ! bliss ( ,god :o ho>de? no?+1 b ev] give? lib]ally8 ,! joy ( a man "h is to enable ano!r to lay hold ^u t :i* is ( 8 own k9d & be glad & gr[ !reby--doctr9e /range & unbelievable to ! man 9 :om ! well ( life is yet seal$4 ,nev] h !y be5 _m at a "t 9 ! old _w :o c\ld ?us ent] into ! joy ( _! ,"l4 ,& yet1 if ?\ be?9k !e1 ?\ wilt p]ceive t su* bliss is n unkn[n among/ ?y fell[s4 ,kn[e/ ?\ no musician :o w\ld f9d x joy en\gh = a night1 to scale ! t[] ( a hundr$ bells1 & s5d ! great meteors ( music-light fly+ ov] ! c>e-tortur$ city8 ,w\ld ev]yone ev5 ( ?y half-creat$ race reason ) himself & say3 ,truly x is 9 ! night1 & no "o c see :o x is t m9i/]e?2 ! s\nds alone w g =? nor be> my image2 ,i %all reap no hon\r2 ,i w n rise & g8 ,?\ kn[e/1 ,i say1 "s 9 ?y _w :o w\ld n speak ?us 9 _! he>ts1 b w\ld will+ly cons5t to be z no?+1 s to give life to _! fell[s4 ,9 ?is city s is x ) all--9 %op or work%op1 9 /udy or !atre1 all seek to sp5d & be sp5t = ! lovely all4 --,& ,i said1 ,"o ?+ tell me1 sir--h[ mu* a man may h = ! ask+4--,:at he w--t is1 :at he c well use4--,:o !n %all be ! judge !re(8--,:o b ! man himself8--,:at if he %\ld turn to gre$1 & beg9 to ho>d & sp>e8--,sawe/ ?\ n ! man ?is day because ( :om all bus9ess ceas$ = a "t8--to t man _h come a ?\ght ( accumulation in/ead ( gr[?1 & he dropp$ ^u 8 knees 9 %ame & t]ror4 ,& ?\ sawe/ h[ all bus9ess ceas$1 & /raightway t ( ! %op 0 made :at bel[ !y call a *ur*2 = ev]yone ha/5$ to ! poor man's help1 ! air 0 fill$ ) pray+ brea?1 & ! atmosph]e ( ,god-lov+ s\ls 0 ar\nd him2 ! f\l ?\ght fl$1 & ! man w5t =? glad & humble1 & to-morr[ he w return = t :i* he ne$e?4 ,if ?\ %\ld/ be pres5t !n1 ?\ wilt see him m t5d]ly m9i/]$ unto ?an all ! re/4--,& if su* a man pray$ n8--,if su* a man slept ere he rep5t$1 he w\ld wake ) hatr$ 9 8 he>t t[>ds ! city & ev]yone !re91 & w\ld /raightway flee into ! wild]ness4 ,& ! angel ( ! ,"l w\ld g out aft] him1 & smite him ) a ^w1 & he w\ld vani% f among/ u1 & 8 life w\ld be ! life ( "o ( ^? lea/ ( liv+ ?+s t are 9 y\r _w born ( ! wat]2 & !re mu/ he gr[ up aga91 crawl+ ?r\gh ! *annels ( ?\s&-fold$ diff]5ce1 f animal to animal1 until at l5g? a human bra9 be giv5 him1 & aft] g5]ations he become once aga9 capable ( be+ born ( ! _s into ! k+dom ( lib]ty4 ,!n %all all 8 pa/ life op5 ^u him1 & 9 %ame & dismay w he rep5t a ?\s&-fold1 & w s9 no m4 ,su*1 at lea/1 are ?\ghts ( our wise m5 ^u ! matt]2 b truly we "k n4--,x is good1 ,i said4 ,b h[ are m5 guid$ z to :at lies to !m to provide = ! g5]al good8--,e man doe? :at ?+ he c1 & ! m 8 lab\r is desir$1 ! m he rejoices4--,if a man %\ld desire t he c\ld no :]e f9d 9 ! city8--,!n w\ld he /raightway d 8 endeav\r to provide t ?+ = all 9 ! city :o might aft] him desire ! same4--,n[1 sir1 me?9ks ,i "k & und]/&1 ,i answ]$4 ,& we rose & w5t f>!r4' ,i ?9k t ,,c\ld be6 said ! curate1 break+ ! sil5ce t foll[$ :5 ,ra*el ceas$4 ,n 9 ?is _w1 said ! drap]4 ,to d\bt t x ,,c\ld be1 said ! gatekeep]1 w\ld be to d\bt :e!r ! k+dom ( heav5 is a *im]a or a div9e idea4 ,,*apt] ,,xxix4 ,,polw>? ,,& ,,l+>d4 ,! morn+ aft] ,w+fold's second visit1 ,l+>d1 mu* to 8 si/]'s surprise1 p>tly to h] pleasure1 & some:at to h] con/]nation1 ask$ = 8 clo!s3 he want$ to get up4 ,s little en]gy _h he hi!rto %[n1 s weak 0 he1 & s frequ5t _h be5 ! symptoms ( return+ fev]1 t ! doctor _h n yet ?\ght ( advis+ m ?an an h\r's sitt+ :ile 8 b$ 0 made com=table4 ,& ,hel5 _h felt t %e _h him1 if n safe1 yet saf] 9 b$ ?an he c\ld be else:]e4 ,8 wi% to rise 0 a sign t he 0 gett+ bett]4 ,b c\ld %e wi% him to get bett]1 see+ e h\r ?reat5$ to be an h\r ( torture8 ,on ! o!r h&1 %e c\ld n b hope t1 = ! la/ day or s1 8 m9d _h be5 a little m at ease4 ,assur$ly ! light 9 8 eye 0 less tr\bl$3 p]haps he saw prospect ( su* m5tal quiet z might r5d] life endurable4 ,he decl9$ assi/ance1 & ,hel51 hav+ got him ev]y?+ he requir$1 left ! room to wait )9 he>+4 ,x took him a long "t to dress1 b he _h resolv$ to d x himself1 & at l5g? call$ ,hel54 ,%e f\nd he look$ worse 9 8 clo!s--fe>fully worn & :ite6 ,ah1 :at a sad gho/ he 0 ( 8 =m] sunny self6 ,hel5 turn$ h] eyes f him1 t he might n see h[ *ang$ %e ?\ght him1 & !re 7 ! trees 9 ! g>d5 & ! mead[s & ! p>k beyond1 ba?+ 9 ! /r5g? ( ! sun1 betwixt ! blue sky & ! gre5 e>?6 ,:at a hide\s _w x is6 %e said to h]self4 ,%e 0 n yet p]suad$1 l h] c\s91 t x 0 ! be/ possible _w--only t1 un=tunately1 n mu* 0 possible 9 worlds4 ,w y get me some?+1 ,hel51 he said4 ,mr4 ,w+fold w be "h1 & ,i want to be able to talk to him4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t he _h ask$ = food1 ?\gh he _h seldom refus$ to take :at %e br\ght him4 ,%e made him lie on ! c\*1 & gave ord]s t1 if ,mr4 ,w+fold call$1 he %\ld be %[n up at once4 ,leopold's face bright5$2 he actually look$ pleas$ :5 8 s\p came4 ,:5 ,w+fold 0 ann\nc$1 he grew = a mom5t radiant4 ,hel5 receiv$ ! curate respectfully1 b n v cordially3 ,,%e c\ld n make ,leopold's face %9e6 ,w\ld y\r bro!r l to see ,mr4 ,polw>?8 ask$ ! curate r abruptly4 ,i w see anyone y w\ld l me to see4 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 answ]$ ,liug>d = himself1 ) a decision t cle>ly indicat$ return+ /r5g?4 ,b1 ,leopold1 y "k x is h>dly to be desir$1 sugge/$ ,hel51 t m p]sons-- ,i don't "k t1 int]rupt$ ,leopold ) /range expression4 ,p]haps ,i _h bett] tell y1 ,miss ,l+>d1 said ! curate1 t x 0 ,mr4 ,polw>? :o f\nd ! ?+ ,i gave y4 ,aft] y\r visit1 he c\ld n fail to put ?+s toge!r1 & _h he be5 a common man1 ,i %\ld h judg$ x prud5t to tell him = ! sake ( secrecy :at ,i h told him = ! sake ( c\nsel4 ,i repeat 9 y\r bro!r's he>+ :at ,i h said to y1 t he is ! wise/ & be/ man ,i h ev] kn[n4--,i left him 9 ! mead[ at ! foot ( ! g>d54 ,he is suff]+ to-day1 & ,i want$ to save him ! long] walk4 ,if y w all[ me1 ,i w g & br+ him 94 ,d1 said ,leopold4 ,?9k1 ,hel56--,if he is ! wise/ & be/ man ,mr4 ,w+fold ev] knew6 ,tell him :]e to f9d ! key4 ,i w g myself1 %e said--) a yield+ to ! inevitable4 ,:5 %e op5$ ! door1 !re 0 ! little man seat$ a few y>ds (f on ! grass4 ,he _h pluck$ a c[slip & 0 look+ into x s int5tly t he nei!r he>d nor saw h]4 ,mr4 ,polw>?6 said ,hel54 ,he lift$ 8 eyes1 rose1 & tak+ (f 8 hat1 said ) a smile1 ,i 0 look+ 9 ! c[slip = ! spots :i* ! fairy1 9 ! ,midsumm] ,night's ,dream1 calls 'rubies4'--,h[ is y\r bro!r1 ,miss ,l+>d8 ,hel5 answ]$ ) cold polit5ess1 & l$ ! way up ! g>d5 ) consid]ably m /atel9ess ( demean\r ?an 0 necess>y4 ,:5 he foll[$ h] into ! room1 ,?is is ,mr4 ,polw>?1 ,leopold1 said ! curate1 ris+ respectfully4 ,y may speak to him z freely z to me1 & he is f> m able to give y c\nsel ?an ,i am4 ,w\ld y m9d %ak+ h&s ) me1 ,mr4 ,polw>?8 said ,leopold1 hold+ out 8 %ad[y h&4 ,polw>? took x ) ! k9de/ ( smiles1 & held x a mom5t 9 84 ,y ?9k me an odd-look+ creature--don't y8 he said2 b j because ,god made me s1 ,i h be5 compell$ to ?9k ab\t ?+s ,i might o!rwise h =gott51 & t is :y ,mr4 ,w+fold w\ld h me come to see y4 ,! curate plac$ a *air = him1 & ! gate-keep] sat d[n4 ,hel5 seat$ h]self a little way (f 9 ! w9d[1 pret5d+1 or h>dly m1 to hem a h&k]*ief4 ,leopold's big eyes w5t w&]+ f "o to ! o!r ( ! two m54 ,:at a horrible _w x is6 0 ! ?\ght t kept humm+ on l an evil insect 9 ,hel5's he>t4 ,i am sorry to see y suff] s mu*1 said ,leopold k9dly1 = he he>d ! lab\r$ brea? ( ! little man1 & saw ! heav+ ( 8 *e/4 ,x does n greatly tr\ble me1 return$ ,polw>?4 ,x is n my fault1 y see1 he add$ ) a smile2 at lea/ ,i don't ?9k x is4 ,y are happy to suff] )\t fault1 said ,leopold4 ,x is because x is j t my puni%m5t seems great] ?an ,i c be>4 ,y ne$ ,god's =giv5ess 9 y\r s\l4 ,i don't see h[ t %\ld d any?+ = me4 ,i d n mean x w\ld take away y\r suff]+2 b x w\ld make y able to be> x4 ,x w\ld be fre% life 9 y4 ,i c't see :y x %\ld4 ,i c't feel t ,i h wrong$ ,god4 ,i h be5 try+ to feel x1 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 ev] s9ce y talk$ to me4 ,b ,i don't "k ,god1 & ,i only feel :at ,i h done to ,emmel9e4 ,if ,i said to ,god1 ',p>don me1' & he said to me1 ',i d p>don y1' ,i %\ld feel j ! same4 ,:at c\ld t d to set any?+ "r t ,i h set wrong8 ,i am :at ,i am1 & :at ,i ev] %all be1 & ! injury :i* came f me1 cleaves fa/ to h]1 & is my wrong :]ev] %e is4 ,he hid 8 face 9 8 h&s4 ,:at use ,,c x be to torture ! poor boy s8 said ,hel5 to h]self4 ,! two m5 sat sil5t4 ,!n ,polw>? said3 ,i d\bt if !re is any use 9 try+ to feel4 ,& no am\nt ( try+ c\ld enable y to imag9e :at ,god's =giv5ess is l to ^? t h x 9 !m4 ,tell me some?+ m y d feel1 ,mr4 ,l+>d4 ,i feel t ,i c\ld kill myself to br+ h] back to life4 ,t is1 y w\ld gladly make am5ds = ! wrong y h done h]4 ,i w\ld give my life1 my s\l1 to d x4 ,& !re is no?+ y c d = x8 ,hel5 began to tremble4 ,:at is !re t c be done8 answ]$ ,leopold4 ,x does seem h>d t a man %\ld be made capable ( do+ ?+s t he is n made capable ( undo+ aga94 ,x is inde$ a t]rible ?\ght6 ,& ev5 ! smalle/ wrong is1 p]haps1 too awful a ?+ = creat$ be+ ev] to set "r aga94 ,y mean x takes ,god to d t8 ,i d4 ,i don't see h[ he ev] c\ld set "s ?+s "r4 ,he w\ld n be ,god if he c\ld n or w\ld n d = 8 creature :at t creature _c d = himself1 & mu/ h done = him or lose 8 life4 ,!n he isn't ,god1 = he c't help me4 ,because y don't see :at c be done1 y say ,god c d no?+--:i* is z mu* z to say !re _c be m )9 8 scope ?an !re is )9 y\rs6 ,"o ?+ is cle>1 t1 if he saw no m ?an :at lies )9 y\r k51 he c\ld n be ,god4 ,! v impossibility y see 9 ! ?+ po9ts to ! region :]e9 ,god works4 ,i don't q und]/& y4 ,b x doesn't matt]4 ,x's all a horrible mess4 ,i wi% ,i 0 dead4 ,my de> sir1 is x reasonable t because a be+ s capable ( go+ wrong f9ds himself incapable ( sett+ "r1 he %\ld judge x useless to cry to t be+ :o call$ him into be+ to come to 8 aid8--& t 9 ! face ( ! /ory--if x 7 b an old leg5d1 worn & disfigur$--t he took ^u himself our s9s8 ,leopold hung 8 head4 ,god ne$s no mak+ up to him1 ! gate-keep] w5t on--s f> f x t he takes our s9s on himself1 t he may cle> !m out ( ! univ]se4 ,h[ c\ld he say he took our s9s ^u him1 if he c\ld n make am5ds = !m to ^? !y _h hurt8 ,ah6 cri$ ,leopold1 ) a pr(\nd sigh1 --if t c\ld be6--if he c\ld really d t6 ,:y1 ( c\rse he c d t6 said ,polw>?4 ,:at sort ( wat*mak] 7 he :o c\ld n set "r ! wat*es & clocks himself made8 ,b ! he>ts ( m5 & wom56 ,:i* ,god does f> m ?an make6 int]pos$ ,polw>?4 ,t a be+ able to make ano!r self-consci\s be+ di/9ct f himself1 %\ld be able also to set "r :atev] t be+ c\ld set wrong1 seems to me to foll[ ( simple necessity4 ,he might ev51 %\ld t be fit1 put ! man himself 9 ! way ( mak+ up = :at he _h done1 or at lea/ put x 9 8 p[] to ask & receive a =giv5ess t w\ld set all "r betwe5 him & ! p]son wrong$4 ,"o ( ! pa9ful ?+s 9 ! dogma ( ! endless loss ( ! wick$ is t x leaves no room = ! righte\s to make up to !m = ! wrongs !y did !m 9 ?is life4 ,= ! righte\s d ! wick$ f> m wrong ?an !y ?9k--! righte\s be+ all ! "t1 9 reality1 ! weal?y1 & ! wick$ ! poor4 ,b x is a bless$ ^w t !re are fir/ t %all be la/1 & la/ t %all be fir/4 ,hel5 />$4 ,?is la/ s\nd$ to h] m]e rav+ madness1 & %e ?\ght h[ wrong %e _h be5 to all[ su* fanatics to ga9 p[] ov] h] poor ,leopold--:o sat be=e !m :it] ?an ev]1 & ) :at %e took = a wild] gleam 9 8 eye4 ,is !re n ! might ( love1 & all et]nity = x to "w 91 to set ?+s "r8 end$ ,polw>?4 ,o ,god6 cri$ ,leopold1 if t might be true6 ,t w\ld be a gift inde$--! p[] to make up = ! wrong ,i h done6 ,he rose f ! c\*--sl[ly1 s$ately1 ,i _h almo/ said =mally1 l "o ) a settl$ object1 & /ood erect1 sway+ a little f weakness4 ,mr4 ,w+fold1 he said1 ,i want ( y "o m fav\r3 w y take me to ! ne>e/ magi/rate8 ,i wi% to give myself up4 ,hel5 />t$ up & came =w>d1 pal] ?an ! sick man4 ,mr4 ,w+fold6 ,mr4 ,polw>?6 %e said1 & turn$ f ! "o to ! o!r1 ! boy is n himself4 ,y w nev] all[ him to d su* a mad ?+6 ,x may be ! "r ?+1 said ! curate to ,leopold1 b we mu/ n act )\t consid]ation4 ,i h consid]$ & consid]$ x = days--= weeks1 return$ ,leopold2 b until ?is mom5t ,i nev] _h ! c\rage to resolve on ! pla9e/ ( duties4--,hel51 if ,i 7 to g up to ! ?rone ( ,god ) ! psalm 9 my m\?1 & say to him1 ',aga9/ !e1 !e only1 h ,i s9n$1' x w\ld be false2 = ,i h s9n$ aga9/ e man1 woman1 & *ild 9 ,engl& at lea/1 & ,i w repudiate myself4 ,to ! ?rone ( ,god ,i want to g1 & !re is no way ?i!r = me b ?r\gh ! gate ( ! law4 ,leopold6 plead$ ,hel51 z if = h] own life ) "s h>d judge1 :at good c x d to s5d ano!r life aft] ! "o t is gone8 ,x _c br+ x back1 or heal a s+le sorr[ = its loss4 ,except p]haps my own1 said ,leopold1 9 a feeble voice1 b n ! less 9 a det]m9$ tone4 ,live till ,god s5d = y1 p]si/$ ,hel51 he$less ( 8 words4 ,y c give y\r life to make up = ! wrong y h done 9 a ?\s& bett] ways3 t w\ld be b to ?r[ x 9 ! dirt4 ,!re is s mu* good wait+ to be done6 ,leopold sank on ! c\*4 ,i am sitt+ d[n aga91 ,hel51 only because ,i am n able to /&1 he said4 ,i ,,w g4 ,don't talk to me ab\t do+ good6 ,:atev] ,i t\*$ ,i %\ld b sme> ) blood4 ,i want ! responsibility ( my own life tak5 (f me4 ,i am l ! horrible creature ,frank5/e9 made--"o t has no "r to exi/5ce--& at ! same "t l ! mak] ( x1 :o is acc\ntable = t exi/5ce4 ,i am a blot on ,god's creation t mu/ be wip$ (f4 ,= ?is my /r5g? is giv5 back to me1 & ,i am once m able to w & resolve4 ,y w f9d ,i c act too4 ,hel51 if y w inde$ be my si/]1 y mu/ ,,n prev5t me n[4 ,i "k x is h>d ^u y1 awfully h>d4 ,i "k ,i am dragg+ y\r life d[n ) m9e1 b ,i _c help x4 ,if ,i don't d x1 ,i %all b g out ( "o madness into ano!r1 ev] a deep]1 until ! devils c't hold me4 ,mr4 ,polw>?1 is x n my duty to give myself up8 ,ought n ! evil ?+ to be made manife/ & swept out ( ! e>?8 ,mo/ p grant x a man's fir/ duty to take c>e ( 8 life3 t is ! only ?+ ,i c d = m9e4 ,x is n[ a fil?y pool ) a corpse 9 x3--,i w\ld clean x out--h ! ?+ buri$ at lea/1 ?\gh nev] =gott5--nev]1 nev] =gott54 ,!n ,i %all die & g to ,god & see :at he c d = me4 ,:y %\ld y put x (f till !n8 said ,polw>?4 ,:y n g to him at once & tell him all8 ,z if x _h be5 ,samuel at ! comm& ( ,eli1 ,leopold rose & crept feebly across ! floor to ! dress+-room1 ent]$ x1 & clos$ ! door4 ,!n ,hel5 turn$ ^u ,w+fold ) a face :ite z l951 & eyes fla%+ ) tr\bl$ wra?4 ,! tigress-"m swell$ 9 h] he>t1 & %e look$ l a ,ma5ad inde$4 ,is ?is !n y\r religion8 %e cri$ ) quiv]+ no/ril4 ,w\ld he y d>e to call y\r ma/] h /ol5 into ! h\se ( a neighb\r to play ^u ! weakness ( a poor lad suff]+ f bra9-fev]8 ,a f9e trophy ( y\r p]suasive p[] & prie/ly craft y w\ld make ( him6 ,:at is x to y :e!r he confesses 8 s9s or n8 ,if he confesses !m to him y say is y\r ,god1 is n t en\gh8 ,= %ame1 g5tlem56 ,%e ceas$1 & /ood trembl+ & fla%+--a human ?und]-cl\d4 ,nei!r ( ! m5 c>$ to ass]t innoc5ce1 because1 al?\gh !y _h n advis$ ! /ep1 !y entirely approv$ ( x4 ,a mom5t m1 & h] ang] sudd5ly w5t out4 ,%e bur/ into te>s1 & fall+ on h] knees be=e ! curate1 begg$ & pray$ l a *ild condemn$ to "s frightful puni%m5t4 ,x 0 t]rible to ,w+fold to see a woman 9 su* an agony ( pray]--to "o :o w\ld n grant x--& t "o himself4 ,9 va9 he s\ght to raise h]4 ,if y d n save ,leopold1 ,i w kill myself1 %e cri$1 & my blood w be on y\r head4 ,! only way to save y\r bro!r is to /r5g!n him to d 8 duty1 :atev] t may be4 ,! hot fit ( h] m5tal fev] return$4 ,%e sprang to h] feet1 & h] face turn$ aga9 almo/ l t ( a corpse ) pale wra?4 ,leave ! h\se6 %e said1 turn+ %>ply ^u ,polw>?1 :o /ood solemn & calm at ,w+fold's side1 a /ep beh9d4 ,x 0 wond]ful :at an unconsci\s dignity radiat$ f him4 ,if my fri5d goes1 ,i g too1 said ,w+fold4 ,b ,i mu/ fir/ tell y\r bro!r :y4 ,he made a /ep t[>ds ! dress+-room4 ,b n[ came a fre% *ange ( mood ^u ,hel54 ,%e d>t$ betwe5 him & ! door1 & /ood !re ) su* a look ( humble entreaty z w5t to 8 v he>t1 & all b unmann$ him4 ,ah1 h[ lovely %e look$ 9 ! sil5t pray] ( te>s6 ,b n ev5 h] te>s c\ld turn ,w+fold f :at seem$ 8 duty4 ,!y c\ld only br+ answ]+ te>s f ! dep? ( a t5d] he>t4 ,%e saw he w\ld n fl9*4 ,!n may ,god d to y z y h done to me & m9e6 %e said4 ,am56 return$ ,w+fold & ,polw>? toge!r4 ,! door ( ! dress+-room op5$1 & out came ,leopold1 8 :ite face %9+4 ,god has he>d me6 he cri$4 ,h[ d y "k t8 said 8 si/]1 9 ! ho>se acc5ts ( unbeliev+ despair4 ,because he has made me /rong to d my duty4 ,he has rem9d$ me t ano!r man may be accus$ ( my crime1 & n[ to conceal myself 7 to d\ble my bas5ess4 ,x w be "t en\gh to ?9k ( t :5 !re is a necessity = x4 ,! ?+ y imag9e may nev] happ51 said ,hel51 9 ! same unnatural voice4 ,leave x1 cri$ ,leopold1 until an innoc5t man %all h suff]$ ! torture & %ame ( a false accusation1 t a guilty man may a little long] act ! hypocrite6 ,no1 ,hel51 ,i h n fall5 s l[ z t yet4 ,believe me1 ?is is ! only liv+ h\r ,i h _h s9ce ,i did ! de$6 ,b z he spoke1 ! light di$ out ( 8 face1 & ere !y c\ld rea* him he _h fall5 heavily on ! floor4 ,y h kill$ him6 cri$ ,hel51 9 a /ifl$ %riek1 = all ! "t %e _h nev] =gott5 t h] aunt might he>4 ,b ! same mom5t %e caught f 8 condition a lurid hope4 ,g1 ,i beg ( y1 %e said--by ! w9d[ !re1 be=e my aunt comes4 ,%e mu/ h he>d ! fall4 ,!re is ! key ( ! door bel[4 ,! m5 obey$1 & left ! h\se 9 sil5ce4 ,x 0 "s "t be=e ,leopold return$ to consci\sness4 ,he made no resi/ance to be+ aga9 put to b$1 :]e he lay 9 extreme exhau/ion4 ,,*apt] ,,xxx4 ,,! ,,/rong ,,man4 ,! next day he 0 mu* too exhau/$ & weak to talk ab\t any?+4 ,he took :at 8 si/] br\ght him1 smil$ 8 ?anks1 & once put up 8 h& & /rok$ h] *eek4 ,b h] he>t 0 n gladd5$ by ^! signs ( comp>ative composure1 = :at gave him quiet b ! same t fill$ h] ) unspeakable horror8 ,! day aft] t 0 ,saturday1 & ,george ,bascombe came z usual4 ,! s\nd ( 8 /ep 9 ! hall made h] dy+ hope once m flutt] its w+s3 hav+ lo/ ! poor /ay ( ! p>son1 f :om %e _h nev] expect$ mu*1 %e turn$ 9 h] fre% despair to ! c\s9 f :om %e _h nev] look$ = any?+4 ,b :at 0 %e to say to him8--,no?+ yet1 %e resolv$2 b %e w\ld take him to see ,leopold--= 0 he n sure to he> t ! p>son _h be5 admitt$8 ,%e did n feel at all c]ta9 t %e 0 do+ "r1 b %e w\ld d x2 & if %e left !m toge!r1 possibly ,george might drop "s good ,,practical advice1 :i*1 ?\gh spok5 9 ignorance1 might yet tell4 ,george 0 su* a heal?y nature & su* a s\nd ?9k]6 ,0 x n z ridicul\s z horrible = any man to ?9k he _h a "r to ?r[ away 8 v exi/5ce1 & br+ disgrace ^u 8 family z well1 = a m]e po9t ( hon\r--no1 n hon\r1 m]e fa/idi\sness6 ,leopold 0 bett]1 & will+ en\gh to see ,george1 say+ only1 ,i w\ld r x 7 ,mr4 ,w+fold4 ,b he c't come to-day1 ,i suppose1 to-morr[ be+ ,sunday4 ,george's entrance br\ght ) x a waft ( breezy heal?1 & a %[ ( bodily vig\r pleasant & refre%+ to ! he>t ( ! invalid4 ,k9dness %one 9 8 eyes1 & 8 l>ge1 h&some h& 0 out z usual :ile he 0 yet y>ds away4 ,x swall[$ up t ( poor ,leopold1 & held x fa/4 ,come1 come1 old fell[6 ,:at's ! mean+ ( ?is8 he said "r *e]ily4 ,y ought to be a%am$ ( y\rself--ly+ 9 b$ l ?is 9 su* wea!r6 ,:y a9't y rid+ 9 ! p>k ) ,hel51 in/ead ( mop+ 9 ?is d>k room8 ,y'll be z bl9d z ! fi% 9 ! cave ( ,k5tucky if y don't get out ( ?is directly6 ,we mu/ see :at we c d to get y up6 ,he glanc$ r\nd ! room1 saw t ,hel5 _h left x1 & *ang$ 8 tone to a l[] & s]i\s "o3 ,i say1 my boy1 y mu/ h be5 play+ old ,h>ry ) y\r con/itution to br+ y\rself to su* a pass6 ,by ,jove6 ?is w nev] d6 ,y mu/ turn ov] a new leaf1 y "k4 ,t sort ( ?+ nev] pays4 ,! game's n wor? ! c&le4 ,:y1 y've be5 at dea?'s door1 & life's n s long t y c af=d to play ducks & drakes ) x4 ,?us he talk$1 9 expo/ulatory rattle1 ! v high-prie/ ( social morality1 = "s1 "t be=e ,leopold c\ld get a ^w 94 ,b :5 he did1 x turn$ ! curr5t into q ano!r *annel4 ,an h\r pass$1 & ,george reappe>$ 9 ! draw+-room1 :]e ,hel5 0 wait+ = him4 ,he look$ v grave4 ,i fe> matt]s are worse ) poor ,leopold ?an ,i _h imag9$1 he said4 ,hel5 gave a sad nod ( acquiesc5ce4 ,he's q (f 8 head1 cont9u$ ,george1 --tell+ me su* an awful cock-&-bull /ory ) ! greate/ gravity6 ,he ,,w h x t he is a murd]]--! murd]] ( t v girl ,i 0 tell+ y ab\t1 y rememb]1-- ,yes1 yes6 ,i "k1 said ,hel51 z a fa9t gleam ( reviv+ hope %ot up f bel[ h] horizon4 ,george took ! :ole ?+ = a sick fancy1 & :o 0 likely to "k bett] ?an he--a lawy]1 & skill$ 9 evid5ce8 ,n a ^w w\ld %e say to int]f]e ) su* an op9ion6 ,i hope y gave him a good talk+-to1 %e said4 ,( c\rse ,i did1 he answ]$2 b x 0 ( no use4 ,i see exactly h[ x is4 ,he gave me a full & circum/antial acc\nt ( ! affair1 fill+ up all ! gaps1 x is true1 b go+ only j z f> z ! newspap]s suppli$ ! skeleton4 ,h[ he got away1 = in/ance1 he c\ld n tell me4 ,& n[ no?+ w s]ve him b confess x6 ,he don't c>e :o kn[s x6 ,he's z mad z a hatt]6--,i beg y\r p>don1 ,hel5--on t "o po9t1 ,i mean4 ,! mom5t ,i saw him ,i read madness 9 8 eye6--,:at's to be done n[8 ,george1 ,i look to y1 said ,hel54 ,poor aunt is ( no use4 ,?9k :at w become ( h]1 if ! unhappy boy %\ld attempt to give himself up6 ,we %\ld be ! talk ( ! c\nty--( ! :ole c\ntry6 ,:y didn't y tell me ( ?is be=e1 ,hel58 ,x mu/ h be5 com+ on = "s "t4 ,george1 ,i didn't "k :at to d4 ,& ,i _h he>d y say su* t]rible ?+s ab\t ! duty ( puni%+ crime4 ,good graci\s1 ,hel56 :]e is y\r logic8 ,:at has crime to d ) x6 ,is d[n-"r />k-/>+ madness a crime8 ,anyone ) half an eye c see ! boy is mad6 ,hel5 saw %e _h made a slip1 & held h] peace4 ,george w5t on3-- ,he ought to be %ut up4 ,no6 no6 no6 ,hel5 almo/ scream$1 & cov]$ h] face ) h] h&s4 ,i've done my be/ to p]suade him4 ,b ,i w h ano!r try4 ,t a fell[ is out ( 8 m9d is no reason :y he %\ld be unassailable by good logic--t is1 if y take him on 8 own admissions4 ,i fe> y w make no?+ ( him1 ,george4 ,he is set ^u x1 & ,i don't "k :at ,,is to be done4 ,george got up1 w5t back to ,leopold1 & pli$ him ) ! v be/ ( argum5ts4 ,b !y 7 ( no avail4 ,!re 0 = him b "o door out ( hell1 & t 0 ! door ( confession--let :at might lie on ! o!r side ( x4 ,:o kn[s1 he said1 b ! law ( a life = a life may h come ( compassion = ! murd]]8 ,nons5se6 said ,george4 ,x comes ( ! c>e ( society ov] its own con/itu5t p>ts4 ,:atev] x came f1 ,i "k ?is1 return$ ,leopold1 t1 s9ce ,i made up my m9d to confess1 ,i am a man aga94 ,george 0 sil5t4 ,he f\nd himself 9 t r>e condition = him--p]plexity4 ,x w\ld be mo/ awkw>d if ! ?+ came to be talk$ (6 ,"s w\ld ev5 be fools en\gh to believe ! /ory6 ,entire pro( ( madness w\ld only make su* set x d[n z ! consequ5ce--or1 if pity prevail$1 !n z ! cause ( ! de$4 ,!y might be compell$ to %ut him up1 to avoid no end ( ! mo/ frightful annoyances4 ,b ,hel51 he fe>$1 w\ld n cons5t to t4 ,& !n 8 /ory 0 s circum/antial--& !re=e s f> plausible--t !re 0 no d\bt mo/ magi/rates w\ld be ready at once to commit him = trial--& !n :]e w\ld !re be an end ( ! mo/ (f5sive emb>rassm5ts6 ,?us ,george reflect$ uneasily4 ,b at l5g? an idea /ruck him4 ,well1 he said lightly1 if y w1 y w4 ,we mu/ try to make x z easy = y z we c4 ,i w manage x1 & g ) y4 ,i "k all ab\t su* ?+s1 y "k4 ,b x won't d j to-day4 ,if y 7 to g be=e a magi/rate1 look+ z y d n[1 he w\ld n li/5 to a ^w y utt]$4 ,he w\ld only fancy y 9 a fev] & s5d y to b$4 ,if y are quiet to-day--let me see-- to-morr[ is ,sunday--& if y are 9 ! same m9d on ,monday1 ,i w take y to ,mr4 ,hook]--he's "o ( ! c\nty magi/rates1 & y %all make y\r /atem5t to him4 ,?ank y4--,i %\ld l ,mr4 ,w+fold to g too4 ,soh6 said ,george to himself4 ,by all means1 he answ]$4 ,we c take him ) u4 ,he w5t aga9 to ,hel54 ,?is is a mo/ awkw>d bus9ess1 he said4 ,poor girl6 :at y mu/ h gone ?r\gh ) him6 ,i _h no idea6 ,b ,i see my way out ( x4 ,keep y\r m9d easy1 ,hel54 ,i d see :at ,i c d4 ,only :at's ! mean+ ( 8 want+ t fell[ ,w+fold to g ) him8 ,i %\ldn't a bit wond] n[ if x all came ( "s ( 8 nons5se6 ,at lea/1 x may be t ass ( a curate t has put confession 9 8 head--to save 8 s\l1 ( c\rse6 ,h[ did he come to see him8 ,! poor boy w\ld see him4 ,:at made him want to see him8 ,hel5 held h] peace4 ,%e saw ,george suspect$ ! tru?4 ,well1 no matt]1 said ,george4 ,b "o nev] kn[s :at may come ( ?+s4 ,we ought always to look well ahead4--,y _h bett] g & lie d[n a:ile1 ,hel52 y don't seem q y\rself4 ,i am afraid to leave ,leopold1 %e answ]$4 ,he w be tell+ aunt & ev]ybody n[4 ,t ,i w take c>e he does n1 said ,george4 ,y g & lie d[n a :ile4 ,hel5's /r5g? _h be5 sorely tri$3 %e _h borne up bravely to ! la/2 b n[ t %e c\ld d no m1 & h] bro!r _h tak5 himself out ( h] h&s1 h] /r5g? _h begun to give way1 &1 almo/ = ! fir/ "t 9 h] life1 9 daylight1 %e long$ to g to b$4 ,let ,george1 or ,w+fold1 or :o w\ld1 see to ! wilful boy6 ,%e _h done :at %e c\ld4 ,%e gladly yield$ to ,george's sugge/ion1 s\ght an unoccupi$ room1 bolt$ ! door1 & ?rew h]self ^u ! b$4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxi4 ,,george ,,& ,,leopold4 ,george w5t aga9 to ,leopold's room1 & sat d[n by him4 ,! y\? lay ) 8 eyes half clos$1 & a smile--a fa9t sad "o--flick]$ ov] 8 face4 ,he 0 asleep3 f infancy he _h slept ) 8 eyes op54 ,emmel9e6 he murmur$1 9 ! tone ( "o :o entreats =giv5ess4 ,/range infatuation6 said ,george to himself3 ev5 8 dreams are mad6 ,good ,god6 !re c't be any?+ 9 x--c !re8 ,i beg9 to feel z if ,i 7 n q safe myself4 ,mad-doctors g mad !mselves1 !y say4 ,i wond] :at sort ( float+ sporule c>ries ! infection--rea*+ ! bra9 by ! nose1 ,i fancy4 ,or p]haps !re is lat5t madness 9 u all1 requir+ only ! pres5ce ( ano!r madness to set x free4 ,leopold 0 awake & look+ at him4 ,is x a v bad way ( dy+8 he ask$4 ,:at is1 old boy6 ,hang+4 ,yes1 v bad--*ok+1 y "k1 answ]$ ,george1 :o want$ to make ! wor/ ( x4 ,i ?\ght ! neck 0 brok5 & all 0 ov]1 return$ ,leopold1 ) a slight tremor 9 8 voice4 ,yes1 t's h[ x ought to be2 b x fails s (t56 ,at lea/ !re's no m hang+ 9 public1 & t's a com=t1 said ,leopold4 ,:at a que] ?+1 said ,george to himself1 t a man %\ld be ready to hang = an idea6 ,:y %\ld he n d 8 be/ to enjoy :at is left ( ! sunlight1 see+1 z _! own prophet says1 ! night come? :5 no man c "w8 ,a few m :iffs ( 8 cig> be=e x goes out1 w\ld hurt no "o4 ,x is "o ?+ to hang a murd]]1 & q ano!r to hang y\rself if y happ5 to be ! man4 ,b he's />k rav+ mad1 & mu/ be hum\r$4 ,dance ^u no?+ = an idea6 ,well1 x's n )\t pl5ty ( p>allels 9 hi/ory6--,i wond] :e!r 8 "o idea w\ld give way n[1 if x 7 br\ght to ! actual te/ ( hang+6 ,x is a pity x c\ldn't be tri$1 j = exp]im5t's sake4 ,b a /rait-wai/coat w\ld be bett]4 ,leopold's acqua9tance ) ,george _h be5 b small1 & ( 8 fav\rite !ories he knew no?+4 ,b he _h always kn[n t he 0 n m]ely 8 si/]'s c\s91 b ! tru/$ fri5d bo? ( h] & ( h] aunt2 & s9ce he _h come to "k ( 8 frequ5t visits1 he _h begun to believe him m to ,hel5 ?an a fri5d4 ,h5ce ! mom5t he _h made up 8 m9d to confess1 he 0 ready to tru/ ,george entirely1 & al?\gh he 0 disappo9t$ to f9d him receive 8 communication 9 a _s s diff]5t f t ( ,w+fold & 8 fri5d1 he felt no motion ( di/ru/ on t acc\nt1 see+ ,hel51 :o _h be5 to him true z /eel1 took ! same view ( 8 resolution4 ,:at w\ld y d y\rself !n1 ,george1 if y _h committ$ a crime l m9e8 he ask$1 aft] ly+ sil5t = a :ile4 ,none ( ,george's !ories _h greatly tax$ 8 imag9ation4 ,he _h n be5 9 any habit ( fancy+ himself 9 ?is or t situation--& :5 he did1 x 0 always 9 "s pleasant "o ( victory or recognition4 ,possible conditions ( humanity o!r ?an pleasant1 he _h be5 cont5t to reg>d f ! outside1 & come to logical conclusions conc]n+1 )\t1 z a ,g]man w\ld say1 ?9k+ himself into !m at all2 & x w\ld h be5 to d ! v idea ( ,george ,bascombe a wrong to imag9e him entangl$ 9 any su* net ( gl[+ wire z a crime aga9/ society6 ,!re=e1 al?\gh = mo/ que/ions ,george _h always an answ] ready1 = ?is he _h none at h&1 & requir$ a mom5t1 & b a mom5t1 to ?9k4 ,i w\ld say to myself1 he repli$1 ',:at is done1 is done1 & is beyond my p[] to alt] or help4' ,& s ,i w\ld be a man & be> x--n a weakl+1 & let x cru% me4 ,no1 by ,jove6 x %\ldn't cru% ,,me6 ,ah1 b y hav5't tri$ ! weight ( x1 ,george6 return$ ,leopold4 ,god =bid6 said ,george4 ,god =bid6 inde$1 rejo9$ ,leopold2 b !re 'tis done = all 8 =bidd+6 ,:at's done is done1 ,god or devil1 & mu/ be borne1 ,i say1 said ,bascombe1 /ret*+ out 8 legs4 ,he 0 aw>e x s\nd$ he>tless1 b h[ c\ld he help x8 ,:at else 0 !re to be said8 ,b if y c't be> x8 ,if x is driv+ y mad--mad--mad8 ,if y mu/ d some?+ or kill y\rself8 cri$ ,leopold4 ,y hav5't done y\r be/ at try+ yet1 return$ ,george4 ,b y are ill1 & n v able to try1 ,i d>esay1 & s we c't help x4 ,on ,monday we %all g to ,mr4 ,hook]1 & see :at he says to x4 ,he rose & w5t to get a book f ! libr>y4 ,on ! /air he met ! butl]3 ,mr4 ,w+fold _h call$ to see ,mr4 ,l+>d4 ,he c't see him to-day4 ,he is too mu* exhau/$1 said ,bascombe2 & ! curate left ! h\se ?\ghtful & sorry1 feel+ z if a vulture _h settl$ by ! side ( ! y\?--a good-natur$ vulture1 no d\bt1 b n ! less "o b5t on pick+ out ! eyes ( 8 m9d4 ,he walk$ away along ! /reet t[>ds ! *ur* ) d[n-b5t head1 see+ no "o4 ,he ent]$ ! *ur*y>d1 n look+ :i!r he w5t3 a lovely s\l 0 9 pa9 & p]il1 & he c\ld n get ne> to help x4 ,!y 7 giv+ x *oke-damp to brea!1 in/ead ( m\nta9-air4 ,!y 7 wa%+ its sores ) anodynes in/ead ( lay+ !m op5 ) ! knife ( hone/y1 t !y might be cleans$ & heal$4 ,he f\nd himself /umbl+ among ! level grave/ones1 & /opp$ & sat d[n4 ,he sat a :ile1 seem+ to ?9k ( no?+1 8 eyes re/+ on a little tuft ( moss t %one l gre5 gold 9 ! sunlight on ! %\ld] ( an awkw>d little *]ub's w+4 ,ere long he f\nd himself ?9k+ h[ n ! s\l ( ,leopold1 b t ( ,hel51 0 9 *ief dang]4 ,poor ,leopold _h ! s]p5t ( 8 crime to /+ him alive1 b ,hel5 _h ! vampyre ( an imp]fect love to fan h] asleep ) ! airs ( a false devotion4 ,x 0 ,hel5 he _h to be anxi\s ab\t m ?an ,leopold4 ,he rose & walk$ back to ! h\se4 ,c ,i see ,miss ,l+>d8 he ask$4 ,x 0 a maid :o op5$ ! door ?is "t4 ,%e %[$ him into ! libr>y1 & w5t to inquire4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxii4 ,,w+fold ,,& ,,hel54 ,:5 ,hel5 lay d[n1 %e tri$ to sleep1 b %e c\ld n ev5 lie /ill4 ,= all h] pref]5ce ( ,george & 8 c\nsel1 & h] hope 9 ! view he took ( ,leopold's case1 ! m]e k t 9 ! next room h] c\s9 sat by h] bro!r1 made h] anxi\s & re/less4 ,at fir/ x 0 ! b>e feel+ t !y 7 toge!r--! ?+ %e _h = s long tak5 su* pa9s to prev5t4 ,next came ! fe> le/ ,leopold %\ld succe$ 9 p]suad+ ,george t he 0 really guilty--9 :i* case1 :at w\ld ,george1 ! righte\s man1 c\nsel8 ,& la/ & *ief ( all1 :at hope ( peace to ,leopold c\ld he 9 any ( 8 c\nsel--except inde$ he l$ him up to ! door ( dea?1 & urg$ him into ! no?+ness beh9d x8 ,!n :at if ,george %\ld be wrong1 & !re ,,0 some?+ beh9d x8 ,:atev] sort ( a some?+ x might be1 c\ld ! tea*+ ( ,george be 9 ! smalle/ measure a prep>ation = x8 ,7 x n bett]1 s f> z ! ,,possibility :i* rema9$ unt\*$ by any ( ,george's argum5ts 0 conc]n$1 t ,leopold %\ld die believ+ aft] ,mr4 ,w+fold's fa%ion1 & n disbeliev+ aft] ,george's8 ,if !n !re 7 no?+ beh9d1 he w\ld be no?+ ! worse2 if !re 71 ! curate might h 9 "s sort prep>$ him = x4 ,& n[ fir/ %e began to feel t %e 0 a little afraid ( h] c\s9--t %e _h yield$ to 8 influ5ce1 or r all[$ him to assume ^u ! possession ( influ5ce1 until %e 0 aw>e ( some?+ t some:]e gall$4 ,he 0 a v good fell[1 b 0 he "o fit to rule h] life8 ,w\ld h] nature cons5t to look up to 8 always1 if %e 7 to m>ry him8 ,b ! ?\ght only flitt$ l a cl\d across ! surface ( h] m9d1 = all h] c>e 0 ,leopold1 & alas6 ) him %e 0 n[ almo/ angry1 & x griev$ h] sorely4 ,all ^! feel+s toge!r _h comb9$ to =m h] mood1 :5 h] maid came to ! door ) ! message t ,mr4 ,w+fold 0 9 ! libr>y4 ,%e resolv$ at once to see him4 ,! curate's he>t trembl$ a little z he wait$ = h]4 ,he 0 n q sure t x 0 8 bus9ess to tell h] h] duty--yet some?+ seem$ to drive him to x3 he c\ld n be> ! idea ( h] go+ on 9 ! pa? ( crook$ness4 ,x is no easy matt] = "o man to tell ano!r 8 duty 9 ! simple/ relations ( life2 & "h 0 a man1 naturally %y & self-di/ru/ful1 d>+ to rebuke & in/ruct a woman1 ^: pres5ce 0 mighty ^u him1 & ^: influ5ce 0 t5fold height5$ by ! suff]+ t s(t5$ h] beauty6 ,%e ent]$1 tr\bl$ yet /ately1 d\btful1 yet ) a k9d ( half-tru/ 9 h] demean\r1 :ite1 & blue-ey$1 ) pa9$ m\?1 & a droop ( we>9ess & suff]+ 9 eyelids & neck--a creature to be wor%ipp$ if only = compassion ( dignifi$ di/ress4 ,?omas ,w+fold's nature 0 "o m ?an usually b5t t[>ds helpfulness1 b 8 e>ly hi/ory1 8 lack ( fri5ds1 ( confid5ce1 ( convictions1 ( /& or aim 9 life1 _h hi!rto prev5t$ ! outcome ( t t5d5cy4 ,b n[1 l issu+ wat]1 :i*1 hav+ f\nd way1 ga!rs =ce mom5tly1 ! p5t-up m9i/ration ( 8 s\l 0 ass]t+ itself4 ,n[ t he und]/ood m ( ! human he>t1 & recognis$ 9 ?is & t human c\nt5ance ! b>s ( a cage ?r\gh :i* peep$ an imprison$ life1 8 own he>t burn$ 9 him ) ! love ( ! helpless2 & if !re 0 m+l$ !re9 any?+ ( ! ambition ( b5efaction1 any?+ ( ! love ( p[]1 any?+ ( self-recomm5dation1 pride ( influ5ce1 or desire to be a c5tre ( good1 & rule 9 a small k+dom ( ! aid$ & aid+1 ^! m>%y gr[?s _h ! faire/ *ance ( dy+ an obscure dea?2 = ! "o sun1 pot5t on ! :eat = life1 & on ! t>es = dea?1 is ! face ( ,*ri/ ,jesus1 & 9 t pres5ce ,w+fold liv$ m & m f day to day4 ,& n[ came ,hel51 :o1 m ?an anyone ^: hi/ory he _h yet le>n$--m p]haps ?an ev5 h] bro!r1 ne$$ su* help z he confid5tly hop$ he knew n[ :]e %e might f9d6 ,b :5 he saw h] /& be=e him w\nd$ & te>ful & pr\d1 reg>d+ 8 behavi\r 9 respect ( h] bro!r z cruel & he>tless2 :5 he felt 9 8 v s\l t %e 0 jeal\s ( 8 influ5ce1 t %e dislik$ & ev5 despis$ him2 x 0 only ) a /rong ef=t he avoid$ assum+ a mann] correspond5t to ! idea ( himself he saw reflect$ 9 h] m9d1 & submitt+ himself1 z x 71 to be :at %e judg$ him4 ,:51 h[ev]1 by a pure ef=t ( w1 he rose above ?is weakness & look$ h] full & cle> 9 ! face1 a new jeal\sy ( himself arose3 %e /ood !re s lovely1 s attractive1 s t5fold womanly 9 h] mis]y1 t he f\nd he mu/ keep a /]n wat* ^u himself1 le/ int]e/ 9 h] z a woman %\ld trespass on ! sph]e ( simple humanity1 :]e9 ) fav\r+ di/9ction is recogniz$ nei!r ,jew nor ,greek1 pr9ce nor peasant--n ev5 man or woman1 only ! "o human he>t t c love & suff]4 ,x aid$ him 9 ?is respect h[ev]1 t 8 inh]5t mode/y caus$ him to look up to ,hel5 z to a suff]+ goddess1 noble1 gr&1 lovely1 only ignorant ( ! "o secret1 ( :i* he1 haunt+ ! /eps ( ! ,unb\nd ,prome!us1 _h le>n$ a few syllables1 brok5 yet pot5t1 :i* he w\ld fa91 c\ld he f9d h[1 communicate 9 _! pot5cy to h]4 ,& besides1 to help h] n[ look+ ^u him f ! di/ant height ( consci\s sup]iority1 he mu/ p]suade h] to :at %e reg>d$ z an un5durable degradation6 ,! circum/ances assur$ly protect$ him f any dang] ( (f]+ h] su* expression ( sympa?y z might n h be5 welcome to h]4 ,x is true t ! be/ help a woman c get is f a "r man--equally true ) its conv]se2 b let ! man :o v5tures take he$4 ,unless he is able to c\nsel a woman to ! h>de/ ?+ t be>s ! "n ( duty1 let him n d>e give advice ev5 to h] ask+4 ,hel5 h[ev] _h n come to ask advice ( ,w+fold4 ,%e 0 9 no su* mood4 ,%e 0 inde$ we>y ( a los+ /rife1 & only = a glimm] ( possible help f h] c\s91 saw ru9 inevitable be=e h]4 ,b ?is revival ( hope 9 ,george _h r\s$ afre% h] indignation at ! intrusion ( ,w+fold ) :at %e *ose to lay to 8 *>ge z uns\ght c\nsel4 ,at ! same "t1 ?r\gh all ! indignation1 t]ror1 & dismay1 some?+ )9 h] murmur$ audibly en\gh t ! curate & n h] c\s9 0 ! guide :o c\ld lead h] bro!r :]e grew ! h]b ( :at peace might yet be _h4 ,x 0 !re=e ) a s5se ( bewild]m5t1 discord1 & unc]ta9ty1 t %e n[ ent]$ ! libr>y4 ,w+fold rose1 made 8 obeisance1 & advanc$ a /ep or two4 ,he w\ld n (f] a h& t might be unwelcome1 & ,hel5 did n (f] h]s4 ,%e b5t h] neck graci\sly1 & motion$ him to be seat$4 ,i hope ,mr4 ,l+>d is n worse1 he said4 ,hel5 />t$4 ,_h any?+ happ5$ :ile %e _h be5 away f him8 ,no4 ,:y %\ld he be worse8 %e answ]$4 ,h !y told y any?+8 ,i h he>d no?+2 only z ,i 0 n all[$ to see him1-- ,i left him ) ,mr4 ,bascombe half an h\r ago1 %e said1 will+ to escape ! imputation ( hav+ refus$ him admittance4 ,w+fold gave an involunt>y sigh4 ,y d n ?9k t g5tleman's company desirable = my bro!r1 ,i presume1 %e said ) a smile s lu/reless t x seem$ bitt]4 ,he won't d him any h>m--at lea/ ,i d n ?9k y ne$ fe> x4 ,:y n8 ,no "o 9 y\r pr(ession c ?9k 8 op9ions h>mless1 & c]ta9ly he w n suppress !m4 ,a man ) su* a weight on 8 s\l z y\r bro!r c>ries1 w n be ready to fancy x light5$ by hav+ lumps ( lead ?r[n ^u x4 ,an easy m9d may take a %r\d on its %\ld]s = w+s1 b :5 tr\ble comes & x wants to fly1 !n x kn[s ! diff]5ce4 ,leopold w n be misl$ by ,mr4 ,bascombe4 ,hel5 grew pal]4 ,%e w\ld h him misl$--s f> z n to betray himself4 ,i am f> m afraid ( y\r influ5ce ?an ( 81 add$ ! curate4 ,:at bad influ5ce d y suppose me likely to ex]cise8 ask$ ,hel51 ) a cold smile4 ,! bad influ5ce ( wi%+ him to act ^u y\r consci5ce in/ead ( 8 own4 ,is my consci5ce !n a worse "o ?an ,leopold's8 %e ask$1 b z if %e felt no int]e/ 9 ! answ]4 ,x is n 81 & t is en\gh4 ,8 own & no o!r c tell him :at he ought to d4 ,:y n leave him to x1 !n8 %e said bitt]ly4 ,t is :at ,i want ( y1 ,miss ,l+>d4 ,i w\ld h y fe> to t\* ! life ( ! poor y\?4 ,t\* 8 life6 ,i w\ld give him m9e to save x4 ,,y c\nsel him to ?r[ x away4 ,alas1 :at diff]5t mean+s we put on ! ^w6 ,y call ! few ye>s he may h to live 9 ?is _w 8 life2 :ile ,i-- ,:ile y c\nt x ! millions ( :i* yon "k no?+1--some:]e :5ce no "o has ev] return$ to br+ any news6--a wret*$ life at be/ if x be su* z y repres5t x4 ,p>don me1 t is m]ely :at y suppose ,i mean by ! ^w4 ,i d n mean t2 ,i mean some?+ altoge!r diff]5t4 ,:5 ,i spoke ( 8 life1 ,i ?\ght no?+ ab\t "h or !re1 n[ or !n4 ,y w see :at ,i mean if y ?9k h[ ! light came back to 8 eye & ! col\r to 8 *eek ! mom5t he _h made up 8 m9d to d :at _h long seem$ 8 duty4 ,:5 ,i saw him aga9 t light 0 /ill 9 8 eyes1 & a feeble hope look$ out ( e feature4 ,exi/5ce1 f a demon-haunt$ vapor1 _h begun to *ange to a morn+ ( spr+2 life1 ! life ( consci\s well-be+1 ( law & ord] & peace1 _h begun to dawn 9 ob$i5ce & self-r5unciation2 8 resurrection 0 at h&4 ,b y !n1 & n[ y & ,mr4 ,bascombe1 w\ld /op ?is resurrection2 y w\ld seat y\rselves ^u 8 grave/one to keep him d[n6--,& :y8--,le/ he1 le/ y1 le/ y\r family %\ld be disgrac$ by lett+ him out ( 8 grave to tell ! tru?4 ,sir6 cri$ ,hel51 indignantly draw+ h]self to h] full height & some?+ m4 ,w+fold took "o /ep ne>] to h]4 ,my call+ is to speak ! tru?1 he said3 & ,i am b\nd to w>n y t y w nev] be at peace 9 y\r own s\l until y love y\r bro!r aright4 ,love my bro!r6 ,hel5 almo/ scream$4 ,i w\ld die = him4 ,!n at lea/ let y\r pride die = him1 said ,w+fold1 n )\t indignation4 ,hel5 left ! room1 & ,w+fold ! h\se4 ,%e _h h>dly %ut ! door1 & fall5 aga9 ^u ! b$1 :5 %e began to "k 9 h] he>t t ! curate 0 "r4 ,b ! m %e knew x1 ! less w\ld %e confess x ev5 to h]self3 x 0 un5durable4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiii4 ,a ,,review4 ,! curate walk$ hurri$ly home1 & seat$ himself at 8 table1 :]e yet lay 8 ,greek ,te/am5t op5 at ! passage he _h be5 pond]+ = 8 s]mon4 ,alas6 all he _h !n be5 ?9k+ ) su* f]v\r _h vani%$4 ,he knew 8 inspir+ text1 b ! re/ 0 gone4 ,wor/ ( all1 feel+ 0 gone ) ?\ght1 & 01 = ! "t at lea/1 beyond recall4 ,righte\s z 8 ang] 01 x _h ruffl$ ! mirror ( 8 s\l till x c\ld no long] reflect heav5ly ?+s4 ,he rose1 caught up 8 ,new ,te/am5t1 & w5t to ! *ur*-y>d4 ,x 0 a /ill place1 & s9ce ! pa9s ( a new bir? _h come ^u him1 he _h (t5 s\ght ! %elt] ( its calm4 ,a few y>ds f ! wall ( ! rectory g>d5 /ood an old yew-tree1 & a little ne>] on "o side 0 a small ?icket ( cypress2 betwe5 ^! & ! wall 0 an anci5t /one ^u :i* he g5]ally seat$ himself4 ,x _h already begun to be call$ ! curate's *air4 ,mo/ imag9$ him drawn ?i!r by a cl]ical love ( gloom1 b 9 t case he c\ld sc>cely h _h su* delight 9 see+ ! sky ?r\gh ! d>k foliage ( ! yew3 he ?\ght ! p>ts s se5 look$ m div9ely blue ?an any ( ! re/4 ,he w\ld h admitt$1 h[ev]1 t he f\nd quiet1 = ! s\l z well z ! body1 ^u ?is edge ( ! _w1 ?is br9k ( ! gulf t swall[$ ! ev]-p\r+ ev]-vani%+ ,niag>a ( human life4 ,on ! /one he n[ seat$ himself & fell a-mus+4 ,:at a *ange _h come ^u him--sl[1 inde$1 yet h[ va/1 s9ce ! night :5 he sat 9 ! same *ur*y>d indignant & uneasy ) ! words ( ,bascombe l hot coals 9 8 he>t6 ,he _h be5 made a%am$ ( himself :o _h nev] ?\ght mu* ( himself1 b ! m he _h lo/ ( wor?9ess 9 8 own eyes ! m he _h ga9$ 9 wor?4 ,& ! m 8 poor satisfaction ) himself _h di$ out1 ! m ! _w _h awak$ ar\nd him4 ,= x mu/ be rememb]$ t a little conceit is no m to be endur$ ?an a great "o1 b mu/ be swept utt]ly away4 ,sky & w9d & wat] & birds & trees said to him1 ,=get ?yself & we w ?9k ( !e4 ,s+ no m to ?yself ?y fooli% songs ( decay1 & we w all s+ to !e ( love & hope & fai? & resurrection4 ,e>? & air _h gr[n full ( h9ts & sp>kles & vital motions1 z if betwe5 !m & 8 s\l an abid+ community ( fundam5tal exi/5ce _h manife/$ itself4 ,he _h nev] 9 ! old days t 7 s ne> & yet seem$ s f> beh9d him1 consci\sly c>$ = ! sunlight3 n[ ev5 ! %ad[s 7 m>vell\s 9 8 eyes1 & ! glitt] ! gold5 wea!r-cock on ! t[] 0 l a cry ( ! prophet ,isaiah4 ,high & alone 9 ! cle> blue air x swung1 an endless w>n+ to him t ve]s ) ! w9d ( ! _w1 ! words ( m51 ! summ] breezes ( _! praise1 or ! bitt] bla/s ( _! w9try blame2 x 0 no long] to him a cock ( ! w9ds1 b a cock ( ! tru?--a ,pet]-cock1 t crew al\d 9 gold5 %9e its rebuke ( c[>dice & ly+4 ,nev] be=e _h he s\ght acqua9tance ) ! fl[]s t came dream+ up out ( ! e>? 9 ! woods & ! lanes l a mi/ ( lovel9ess1 b ! spr+-"t came 9 8 own s\l1 & !n he knew ! *ildr5 ( ! spr+4 ,& z ! joy ( ! reviv+ _w f\nd its way into ! ?roats ( ! birds1 s did ! spr+ 9 8 reviv+ s\l f9d its way into ! *annels ( ?\ght & spee*1 & issue 9 utt]ance bo? rhy?mic & melodi\s4--,b n 9 any1 nei!r 9 all ( ^! ?+s lay ! *ief sign & embodim5t ( ! *ange he recognis$ 9 himself4 ,x 0 ?is3 t1 :]eas 9 =m] times ! "n ,*ri/ _h be5 to him little m ?an a dull !ological symbol1 ! ?\ght ( him & ( 8 ?\ghts 0 n[ con/antly ) him2 ev] & anon "s fre% light w\ld break f ! cl\dy halo t enwrapp$ 8 gr&eur2 ev] 0 he gr[+ m ! ,son ( ,man to 8 lov+ he>t1 ev] m ! ,son ( ,god to 8 aspir+ _s4 ,te/imony _h m]g$ almo/ 9 vision3 he saw into1 & p>tly und]/ood ! p]fection x pres5t$3 he look$ ^u ! face ( ,god & liv$4 ,(t5] & (t5]1 z ! days pass$1 did x seem z if ! man 7 by 8 side1 & at times1 9 ! /illness ( ! summ]-eve1 :5 he walk$ alone1 x seem$ almo/1 z ?\ghts ( reveal+ arose 9 8 he>t1 t ! ,ma/] himself 0 tea*+ him 9 spok5 words4 ,:at ne$ n[ to rack 8 s\l 9 foll[+ ! dim-se51 ev] evani%+ pa?s ( metaphysics6 he _h b to obey ! prophet ( life1 ! man ^: be+ & do+ & tea*+ 7 bl5d$ 9 "o ?ree-fold h>mony1 or r1 7 ! ?ree-fold analysis ( "o :ite ess5ce--he _h b to obey him1 haunt 8 foot/eps1 & he>k5 aft] ! s\nd ( 8 _s1 & all tru? w\ld 9 heal?y process be unfold$ 9 himself4 ,:at philosophy c\ld c>ry him :]e ,jesus w\ld c>ry 8 ob$i5t fri5ds--into 8 own peace1 namely1 f> above all fe> & all hate1 :]e 8 s\l %\ld brea! su* a high atmosph]e ( /r5g? at once & repose1 t he %\ld love ev5 8 enemies1 & t ) no su* love z condesc5d+ly ov]looks1 b ) ! real1 he>ty1 & self-involv$ affection t w\ld die to give !m ! true life6 ,alas6 h[ f> 0 he f su* p]fection n[--f su* a m>tyrdom1 lovely z endless1 9 ! consum+ fire ( ,god6 ,& at ! ?\ght1 he fell f ! heights ( 8 contemplation--b 0 caught 9 ! ?icket ( pray]4 ,by ! "t he rea*$ 8 lodg+1 ! gl[ _h vani%$1 b ! mood rema9$4 ,he sat d[n & wrote ! fir/ sket* ( ! foll[+ v]ses1 !n f\nd t 8 s]mon _h aga9 drawn nigh1 & 0 )9 ! rea* ( 8 spiritual t5tacles4 ,fa!r1 ,i cry to !e = bread1 ,) hung]$ long+1 eag] pray]2 ,?\ he>'/1 & give/ me in/ead ,m hung] & a half-despair4 ,o ,"l1 h[ long8 ,my days decl9e2 ,my y\? is lapp$ 9 memories old2 ,i ne$ n bread alone1 b w9e-- ,see1 cup & h& to !e ,i hold4 ,& yet ?\ give/3 ?anks1 ,o ,"l1 ,t /ill my he>t ) hung] fa9ts6 ,! day w come :5 at ?y bo>d ,i sit =gett+ all my pla9ts4 ,if ra9 mu/ come & w9ds mu/ bl[1 ,& ,i pore long o'er dim-se5 *>t1 ,yet1 ,"l1 let n ! hung] g1 ,& keep ! fa9tness at my he>t4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiv4 ,a ,,s]mon ,,to ,,leopold4 ,:5 ! curate /ood up to read1 8 eyes z ( !mselves s\ght ,mrs4 ,ram%orn's pew4 ,!re sat ,hel51 ) a look t reveal$1 he ?\ght1 m ( det]m9ation & less ( suff]+4 ,h] aunt 0 by h] side1 cold & gl>+1 an ecclesia/ical puss1 ready to spr+ ^u any small *ur*-m\se t d>$ squeak 9 its own mur9e way4 ,bascombe 0 n visible1 & t 0 a relief4 ,= an unbeliev+ face1 :e!r ! dull d9+ c\nt5ance ( a mayor1 or ! ke5 se>*+ c\nt5ance ( a b>ri/]1 is a sad bone 9 ! ?roat ( utt]ance1 & has to be ( set w pass$ ov]1 &1 if t may be1 =gott54 ,w+fold tri$ h>d to =get ,mrs4 ,ram%orn's1 & "o or two besides1 & by ! "t he came to ! s]mon1 ?\ght ( no?+ b human he>ts1 _! agonies1 & him :o came to call !m to him4 ,i came n to call ! righte\s1 b s9n]s to rep5tance4 ,0 x !n ( ! s9n]s fir/ our ,"l ?\ght ere he came f ! bosom ( ! ,fa!r8 ,did ! p]fect w embrace 9 ! all-aton+ t5d]ness ( ! div9e he>t1 ! degrad$1 disfigur$1 defil$1 di/ort$ ?+1 ^: angel is too bl9d ev] to see ! face ( its ,fa!r8 ,?r\gh all ! hide\s fil? ( ! *>nel-h\se1 :i* ! passions _h heap$ ^u h]1 did ! ,^w recognise ! b\nd1 w+-lam$1 fea!r-draggl$ ,psy*e1 pant+ 9 horrible/ torture8 ,did he h a desire to ! "w ( 8 h&s1 ! *ild ( 8 fa!r's he>t1 & !re=e1 /rong 9 compassion1 spe$ to ! pa9ful rescue ( he>ts l 8 own8 ,t purity arid defilem5t %\ld ?us meet across all ! great divid+ gulf ( law & morals6 ,! fri5d ( publicans & s9n]s6 ,?9k3 he 0 absolutely fri5dly ) !m6 0 n %ock$ at !m6 held up no h&s ( dismay6 ,only !y mu/ d s no m4 ,if he 7 to come aga91 visibly1 n[1 :i* d y ?9k w\ld come cr[d+ ar\nd him 9 great] numb]s--! respectable *ur*-go]s1 or ! p f ! slums8 ,i d n "k4 ,i d>e n judge4 ,b ! fact t ! *ur* draws s few ( ^? t are despis$1 ( ^? :om ,jesus drew & to :om mo/ expressly he came1 gives gr\nd = "q z to h[ f> ! *ur* is l h] ,"l4 ,c]ta9ly _m a "o w\ld f9d ! way to ! feet ( ! ma/]1 f :om ! respectable *ur*-go]1 ! ph>isee ( our "t1 & ! prie/ :o /&s on 8 pr(ession1 w\ld draw back ) disgu/4 ,& d\btless x w\ld be 9 ! religi\s _w t a man l ,jesus1 :o1 )\t a pr(essional education1 a craftsman by bir? & e>ly tra9+1 utt]$ sc>ce a phrase endors$ by cl]ical use1 or a ^w ( ! religi\s cant ( ! day1 b taught 9 simple/ natural =ms ! et]nal facts ( fai? & hope & love1 w\ld meet ) ! *ief & p]haps ! only ,,bitt] oppon5ts ( 8 doctr9e & life4 ,b did our ,"l n call ! righte\s8 ,did he n call hone/ m5 ab\t him--,james & ,john & ,simon--/urdy fi%]-folk1 :o fac$ ! night & ! /orm1 work$ h>d1 f>$ r\ghly1 liv$ hone/ly1 & l$ good cleanly lives ) fa!r & "m1 or ) wife & *ildr58 ,i d n "k t he said any?+ special to conv9ce !m t !y 7 s9n]s be=e he call$ !m4 ,b x is to be rem>k$ t "o ( ! fir/ effects ( 8 company ^u ,simon ,pet] 01 t ! fi%]man grew a%am$ ( himself1 & :ile a%am$ 0 yet possess$ ) an impulse ( op5ness & hone/y no less ?an passionate4 ,! pure man %\ld n be deceiv$ z to :at sort ( company he 0 96 ',dep>t f me1 = ,i am a s9ful man1 ,o ,"l6' ,i w\ld ,i c\ld cle>ly behold ) my m9d's eye :at he !n saw 9 ,jesus t drew f him t cry6 fle knew him = ! ,messiah3 :at 0 ! work+ ( ! c>p5t] ^u ! fi%]man t satisfi$ him ( ! fact8 ,w\ld ! miracle h done x b = ! previ\s talk f ! boat to ! p8 ,i ?9k n4 ,anyh[ ,/4 ,pet] judg$ himself among ! s9n]s1 & we may be sure t if ^! fi%]s _h be5 self-satisfi$ m51 !y w\ld n h left all & gone aft] him :o call$ !m4 ,/ill x w\ld h>dly se]n t x 0 specially z s9n]s t he did s4 ,aga91 did n m5 su* z ! ,"l himself reg>d$ z righte\s come to him--,nicodemus1 ,na?aniel1 ! "y man :o came runn+ & kneel$ to him1 ! scribe :o 0 n f> f ! k+dom1 ! c5turion1 9 :om he f\nd m fai? ?an 9 any ,jew1 he :o _h built a synagogue 9 ,cap]naum1 & sculptur$ on its l9tel ! pot ( manna8 ,^! came to him1 & we "k he 0 ready to receive !m4 ,b he knew su* w\ld always come drawn ( ! ,fa!r2 !y did n want mu* call+2 !y 7 n s mu* 9 8 ?\ghts !re=e2 he 0 n tr\bl$ ab\t !m2 !y 7 z ! n9ety & n9e1 ! eld] son at home1 ! money 9 ! purse4 ,d\btless !y _h mu* to le>n1 7 n yet 9 ! k+dom1 b !y 7 cr[d+ ab\t its door4 ,if ,i set x =? aright1 ,i "k n1 b ?us x looks to me4 ,& "o ?+ ,i _c =get--x meets me 9 ! face--t "s at lea/1--:o kn[s if n all8--( ! pure/ ( m5 h c\nt$ !mselves ! greate/ s9n]s6 ,nei!r c ,i =get t o!r say+ ( our ,"l1 a /umbl+-block to _m--our ,"l 0 n s c>eful z p]haps "s w\ld h _h him1 le/ m5 %\ld /umble at ! tru?--,! fir/ %all be la/ & ! la/ fir/4 ,:ile our ,"l spoke ! words3 ,! "t come? t :osoev] kille? y w ?9k t he doe? ,god s]vice1 ev5 !n 0 ,saul ( ,t>sus at ! feet ( ,gamaliel1 prep>+ to d ,god t s]vice2 b l "o born out ( due "t1 aft] all ! re/ he saw ! ,"l1 & became ! *ief 9 lab\r & suff]+4 ,?us ! la/ became fir/4 ,& ,i be?9k me t ! belov$ disciple1 :o lean$ on ! bosom ( ! ,"l1 :o 0 bold] to ask him ?an any--) ! boldness ( love1 he :om ! meek & l[ly call$ a ,son ( ,?und]1 0 ! la/ ( all to rejo9 ! ma/] 9 ! mansions ( 8 ,fa!r4 ,la/ or fir/--if only we are ) him6 ,"o ?+ is cle> t 9 ! ord] ( ! ,"l's bus9ess1 fir/ came s9n]s4 ,:o t reflects c fail to see ?is at lea/1 t a crime br+s a man face to face ) ! reality ( ?+s8 ,he :o kn[s himself a s9n]--,i d n mean z "o ( ! race--! mo/ self-righte\s man w all[ t z a man he is a s9n]--he to :om1 9 ! words ( ! communion s]vice1 ! remembrance ( 8 s9s is griev\s1 & ! burd5 ( !m intol]able1 kn[s 9 himself t he is a lo/ man4 ,he c no m hold up 8 head among 8 k9d2 he _c look a woman or a *ild 9 ! face2 he _c be left alone ) ! *aos ( 8 ?\ghts1 & ! mon/]s x mom5tly bre$s4 ,! joys ( 8 *ildhood1 ! delights ( exi/5ce1 are gone f him4 ,!re dwells )9 him an ev] pres5t judgm5t & fi]y indignation4 ,su* a man w />t at ! s\nd ( p>don & peace1 ev5 z ! camel ( ! des]t at ! sc5t ( wat]4 ,!re=e surely is su* a man ne>] to ! gate ( ! k+dom ?an he aga9/ :om ! _w has nev] wagg$ a tongue1 :o nev] s9n$ aga9/ a social cu/om ev51 & has z easy a consci5ce z ! day he 0 born2 b :o kn[s s little ( himself t1 :ile he ?9ks he is good en\gh1 he c>ries )9 him ! capacity & possibility ( e c>d9al s91 wait+ only ! special & fitt+ temptation :i*1 l ! mat* to ! *>g$ m9e1 %all set all 9 a ro>6 ,( ?is dang] he kn[s no?+1 nev] dreams ( pray+ aga9/ x1 takes 8 seat 9 8 pew ,sunday aft] ,sunday ) 8 family1 nor ev] murmurs ,lead u n into temptation ) ! lea/ s5se t temptation is a frightful ?+1 b repeats & responds & li/5s 9 p]fect self-satisfaction1 d\bt+ nev] t a _w made up ( su* z he mu/ be a pleasant sight 9 ! eyes ( ! ,p]fect4 ,!re are m5 :o w nev] see :at !y are capable or 9 dang] ( until !y h committ$ "s fe>ful wrong4 ,nay !re are "s = :om ev5 t is n en\gh2 !y mu/ be f\nd out by _! fell[-m51 & scorn$ 9 ! eyes ( ! _w1 be=e !y c or w admit or compreh5d _! own disgrace4 ,& !re are worse /ill ?an ^!4 ,b a man may be oppress$ by 8 s9s1 & h>dly "k :at x is t oppresses him4 ,!re is m ( s9 9 our burd5s ?an we are ourselves aw>e4 ,x ne$s n t we %\ld h committ$ any griev\s fault4 ,d we recognize 9 ourselves t :i* ne$s to be set "r1 t ( :i* we ought to be a%am$1 some?+ :i*1 7 we lift$ above all worldly anxieties1 w\ld yet keep u uneasy1 dissatisfi$1 take ! ess5tial gladness out ( ! sunlight1 make ! fair face ( ! e>? indiff]5t to u1 a tru/ful glance a discompos+ look1 & dea? a d>kness8--,i say to ! man :o feels ?us1 :atev] he may h done or left undone1 he is n s f> f ! k+dom ( heav5 b t he may ent] !re9to if he w4 ,& if !re be "h any s\l )]$ up ) dismay1 torn ) horrible wond] t he %\ld h done ! de$ :i* he yet ha? done1 to him ,i say--,flee f ! self t ha? s9n$ & hide !e ) ,*ri/ 9 ,god4 ,or if ! words s\nd to !e z ! words ( "s unkn[n tongue1 & ,i am to !e z "o t beate? ! air1 ,i say in/ead--,call al\d 9 ?y agony1 t1 if !re be a ,god1 he may he> ! voice ( 8 *ild1 & put =? 8 h& & lay hold ^u him1 & r5d f him ! g>m5t t cl+s & poisons & burns1 squeeze ! black drop f 8 he>t1 & set him weep+ l a summ] ra94 ,o bless$1 holy1 lovely rep5tance to :i* ! ,son ( ,man1 ! v root & man ( m51 ha? come to call u6 ,good x is1 & ,i "k x4 ,come & rep5t ) me1 ,o he>t w\nd$ by ?9e own inju/ice & wrong1 & toge!r we w seek ! m]ciful4 ,?9k n ab\t ?y s9 s z to make x ei!r less or great] 9 ?9e own eyes4 ,br+ x to ,jesus1 & let him %[ !e h[ vile a ?+ x is4 ,& leave x to him to judge !e--sure t he w judge !e ju/ly1 ext5uat+ no?+1 = he ha? to cleanse !e utt]ly1 & yet =gett+ no smalle/ excuse t may cov] ! amazem5t ( ?y guilt1 or witness = !e t n ) op5 eyes did/ ?\ d ! de$4 ,at ! la/ he cri$1 ,fa!r =give !m1 = !y "k n :at !y d4 ,= 8 enemies ! tru? %\ld be spok51 8 fir/ words :5 !y _h nail$ him to ! cross4 ,b aga9 ,i say1 let x be ,*ri/ t excuse? !e2 he w d x to m purpose ?an ?\1 & w n wrong ?y s\l by excus+ !e a hair too mu*1 or ?y he>t by excus+ !e a hair too little4 ,i dream$ once t ,i _h committ$ a t]rible crime4 ,c>ri$ beyond myself by passion1 ,i knew n at ! mom5t ,,h[ evil 0 ! ?+ ,i did4 ,b ,i knew x 0 evil4 ,& sudd5ly ,i became aw>e1 :5 x 0 too late1 ( ! nature ( t :i* ,i _h done4 ,! horror t came ) ! k 0 ( ! ?+s t belong only to ! secret s\l4 ,i 0 ! same man z be=e ,i did x1 yet 0 ,i n[ a man ( :om my =m] self c\ld n h conceiv$ ! possibility z dwell+ )9 x4 ,! =m] self seem$ n[ by contra/ lovely 9 purity1 yet out ( t seem+ purity ?is fe>ful1 f\l ,i ( ! pres5t _h j be5 born6 ,! face ( my fell[-man 0 an av5g+ law1 ! face ( a j enemy4 ,:]e1 h[1 %\ld ! frightful face be hidd58 ,! consci\s e>? mu/ take x into its w\nd$ bosom1 & t be=e ! all-see+ daylight %\ld come4 ,b x w\ld come1 & ,i %\ld /& !re9 po9t$ at by e ray t %ot ?r\gh ! sunny atmosph]e6 ,! agony 0 ( its own k9d1 & ,i h no ^w to tell :at x 0 l4 ,an evil od\r & a sick5+ pa9 comb9$1 might be a symbol ( ! torture4 ,z is 9 ! nature ( dreams1 possibly ,i lay b a little second on ! rack1 yet an age seem$ %ot ?r\gh & ?r\gh ) ! burn+ me%es ( t crime1 :ile1 c[]+ & t]ror-/rick51 ,i toss$ ab\t ! loa?some fact 9 my m9d4 ,i _h ,,done x1 & f ! done !re 0 no escape3 x 0 = ev]more a ?+ done4--,came a sudd5 *ange3 ,i awoke4 ,! sun /a9$ ) glory ! curta9s ( my room1 & ! light ( light d>t$ ke5 z an arr[ into my v s\l4 ,glory to ,god6 ,i 0 innoc5t6 ,! /one 0 roll$ f my sepul*re4 ,) ! d>kness :5ce x _h sprung1 ! cl\d ( my crime w5t heav+ lurid away4 ,i 0 a creature ( ! light & n ( ! d>k4 ,= me ! sun %one & ! w9d blew2 = me ! sea ro>$ & ! fl[]s s5t up _! od\rs4 ,= me ! e>? _h no?+ to hide4 ,my guilt 0 wip$ away2 !re 0 no r$ worm gnaw+ at my he>t2 ,i c\ld look my neighb\r 9 ! face1 & ! *ild ( my fri5d might lay 8 h& 9 m9e & n be defil$6 ,all day long ! joy ( t deliv]ance kept surg+ on 9 my s\l4 ,b some?+ yet m preci\s1 m lovely ?an su* an awak+1 w rep5tance be to ! s9n]2 = aft] all x 0 b a dream ( ! night f :i* t set me free1 & ! spectre-de$ t vani%$ _h nev] _h a place 9 ! _w ( fact2 :ile ! horror f :i* rep5tance deliv]s1 is no dream1 b a /ubborn abid+ reality4 ,aga91 ! vani%+ vision leaves ! man :at he 0 be=e1 /ill capable x may be ( committ+ ! crime f :i* he is n altoge!r clean to :om 9 8 sleep x 0 possible3 rep5tance makes ( ! man a new creature1 "o :o has awak$ f ! sleep ( s9 to sleep t sleep no m4 ,! *ange 9 ! "o case is n = greatness comp>able ) t 9 ! o!r4 ,! sun t awakes f ! "o sleep1 is b ! outw>d sun ( our e>?ly life--a glori\s inde$ & lovely ?+1 :i* yet ev5 n[ is ga!r+ a cru/ ( d>kness1 blott+ itself out & vani%+3 ! sun t awakes a man f ! sleep ( dea? is ! liv+ ,sun t ca/s f 8 ?\ght out into be+ t o!r sun1 ) ! space :]e9 x holds planet>y c\rt--! ,fa!r ( lights1 be=e ^: %9+ 9 ! inn] _w ( tru? et]nal1 ev5 ! de$s ( vice become z spectral dreams1 &1 ) ! night ( godlessness t eng5d]$ !m1 flee away4 ,b a man may answ] & say to me--',?\ art b borne on ! w+s ( ?9e imag9ation4 ,! fact ( ! crime rema9s1 let a man te> out 8 he>t 9 rep5tance1 & no awak+ c re/ore an innoc5ce :i* is inde$ lo/4' ,i answ]3 ,! words ?\ speake/ are 9 !mselves true1 yet ?y ignorance makes !m false1 ,?\ kn[e/ n ! p[] ( ,god1 nor :at resurrection f ! dead means4 ,:at if1 :ile x re/or$ n ?y =m] innoc5ce1 x br\ght !e a purity by ! side ( ^: :ite spl5d\r & inw>d preci\sness1 ! innoc5ce ?\ had/ lo/ 0 b a bauble1 be+ b a ?+ t turn$ to dross 9 ! fir/ furnace ( its temptation8 ,innoc5ce is inde$ priceless--t innoc5ce :i* ,god c\nte? innoc5ce1 b ?9e 0 a flimsy %[1 a bit ( poli%$ & *]i%$ glass--in/ead ( :i*1 if ?\ rep5te/1 ?\ %alt 9 ?y jewel-box f9d a diamond4 ,is ?y purity1 ,o fair ,psy*e ( ! social _w1 ^u ^: w+s no spatt]+ %[] has yet ca/ an e>?y /a91 & :o kn[e/ n yet :e!r !re be any su* ?+ z rep5tance or ne$ ( ! same6--is ?y purity to comp>e ) ! purity ( t heav5ly ,psy*e1 twice born1 :o ev5 n[ 9 ! twilight-slumb]s ( heav51 dreams t %e wa%es ) h] te>s ! feet ( h] ,"l1 & wipes !m ) ! hairs ( h] head8 ,o b\ntiful ,god1 :o wilt give u back ev5 our innoc5ce t5fold6 ,he c give an awak+ t leaves ! pa/ ( ! s\l t5 times f>!r beh9d ?an ev] wak+ f sleep left ! dreams ( ! night4 ,if ! pot5cy ( t awak+ lay 9 ! inru% ( a new bill[ ( life1 fre% f its orig9al s\rce1 c>ry+ ) x an enl>gem5t ( ! :ole nature & its e "p1 a glorification ( e faculty1 e s5se ev51 s t ! man1 =gett+ no?+ ( 8 pa/ or its %ame1 %\ld yet cry out 9 ! joy ( 8 second bir?3 ',lo6 ,i am a new man2 ,i am no m he :o did t awful & evil ?+1 = ,i am no m capable ( do+ x6 ,god be prais$1 = all is well6'--w\ld n su* an awak+ s5d ! pa/ af> into ! dim di/ance ( ! fir/ creation1 & wrap ! ill de$ 9 ! clean l95 clo? ( =giv5ess1 ev5 z ! dull creature ( ! sea rolls up ! gra9 ( intrud+ s& 9 ! lovely g>m5t ( a pe>l8 ,su* an awak+ means ,god himself 9 ! s\l1 n disda9+ close/ vital company ) ! creature he =esaw & creat$4 ,& ! man kn[s 9 full cont5t t he is heal$ ( 8 plague4 ,nor w\ld he will+ly lose ! sc>s :i* record its outbreak1 = !y tell him :at he is )\t ,god1 & set him ev] look+ to see t ! door into ! heav5ly g>d5 /&s wide = ,god to ent] ! h\se :5 x pleases him4 ,& :o c tell :e!r1 9 ! tra9 ( su* an awak+1 may n foll[ a ?\s& opportunities & means ( mak+ am5ds to ^? :om he has injur$8 ,nor mu/ ,i fail to rem9d ! man :o has committ$ no griev\s crime1 t except he has rep5t$ ( 8 evil self1 & abjur$ all wrong1 he is n safe f any1 ev5 ! wor/ (f5ce4 ,!re 0 a "t :5 ,i c\ld n und]/& t he :o lov$ n 8 bro!r 0 a murd]]3 n[ ,i see x to be no figure ( spee*1 b1 9 ! realities ( man's moral & spiritual nature1 an absolute simple fact4 ,! murd]] & ! unlov+ sit on ! same b5* be=e ! judge ( et]nal tru?4 ,! man :o loves n 8 bro!r1 ,i d n say is at ?is mom5t capable ( kill+ him1 b if ! natural work+ ( 8 unlove be n *eck$1 he w assur$ly become capable ( kill+ him4 ,until we love our bro!r1 yes1 until we love our enemy1 :o is yet our bro!r1 we conta9 )9 ourselves ! undevelop$ g]m ( murd]4 ,& s ) e s9 9 ! tables or out ( ! tables4 ,!re is n "o 9 ?is congregation :o has a "r to ca/ a look ( reproa* at ! wor/ felon :o ev] sat 9 ! prison]s' dock4 ,i speak no hyp]bole1 b simple tru?4 ,we are v ready to draw 9 our m9ds a di/9ction betwe5 respectable s9s--human imp]fections we call !m1 p]haps--& disreputable vices1 su* z !ft & murd]2 b !re is no su* di/9ction 9 fact4 ,_m a ?ief is a bett] man ?an _m a cl]gyman1 & miles ne>] to ! gate ( ! k+dom4 ,! heav5ly ord] goes ^u o!r pr9ciples ?an ours1 & !re are fir/ t %all be la/1 & la/ t %all be fir/4 ,only1 at ! root ( all human bliss lies rep5tance4 ,come !n at ! call ( ! ,wat]1 ! ,heal]1 ! ,giv] ( rep5tance & light1 ! ,fri5d ( publicans & s9n]s1 all ye on :om lies ! weight ( a s91 or ! ga!r$ heap ( a ?\s& crimes4 ,he came to call su* z y1 t he might make y cle> & clean4 ,he _c be> t y %\ld live on 9 su* mis]y1 su* badness1 su* blackness ( d>kness4 ,he w\ld give y aga9 y\r life1 ! bliss ( y\r be+4 ,he w n speak to y "o ^w ( reproa*1 except inde$ y %\ld aim at ju/ify+ y\rselves by accus+ y\r neighb\r4 ,he w leave x to ^? :o *]i% ! same s9s 9 _! he>ts to ca/ /ones at y3 he :o has no s9 ca/s no /one4 ,he>tily he loves y1 he>tily he hates ! evil 9 y--s he>tily t he w ev5 ca/ y into ! fire to burn y clean4 ,by mak+ y clean he w give y re/4 ,if he upbraid1 x w n be = pa/ s91 b = ! pres5t little fai?1 hold+ out to him an acorn-cup to fill4 ,! re/ ( y keep alo(1 if y w1 until y %all h done "s de$ t compels y to cry out = deliv]ance2 b y t "k y\rselves s9n]s1 come to him t he may "w 9 y 8 p]fect "w1 = he came n to call ! righte\s1 b s9n]s1 u1 y & me1 to rep5tance4 ,,end ,,( ,,! ,,second ,,volume4