,,f\r ,,my/]y ,,plays ,,by ,,rudolf ,,/e9] ,translat$ & ,edit$ ) ! ,au?or's ,p]mission by ,h4 ,collison1 ,m4,a4 ,oxon41 ,s4 ,m4 ,k4 ,g&ell1 ,m4,a4 ,oxon41 & ,r4 ,t4 ,glad/one1 ,m4,a4 ,cantab4 ,! ,portal ( ,initiation ,! ,s\l's ,probation ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old ,! ,s\l's ,awak5+ ,g4 ,p4 ,putnam's ,sons ,new ,york & ,london ,! ,knick]bock] ,press #aibj ,,introduction ,! f\r plays "h produc$ 9 an ,engli% translation 9 two volumes1 are p]haps be/ describ$ z ,*ri/ian ,my/]y ,plays4 ,!y are int5d$ to repres5t ! exp]i5ces ( ! s\l dur+ initiation2 or1 9 o!r words1 ! psy*ic developm5t ( man up to ! mom5t :5 he is able to pi]ce ! veil & see into ! beyond4 ,?r\gh ?is vision he is !n able to discov] 8 real self & c>ry into effect ! cryptic injunction grav5 on ! old ,greek temples ,gn?i seauton1 "k ?yself4 ,at a lat] /age he comes to 'realize' himself1 & f9ally le>ns ! true significance ( ! ,second ,adv5t ( our ,"l4 ,?is process is kn[n z ! ',rosicrucian' initiation--an initiation specially adapt$ to mod]n days--! "t & mann] ( :i* dep5d on ! individual nature & circum/ances ( ea* p]son4 ,! f\r plays =m "o cont9u\s s]ies1 & ! *>act]s portray$ are ( q an ord9>y k9d except t !y take m ?an ! usual int]e/ 9 spiritual matt]s1 _! fir/ desire be+ s to improve _! own m5tal & moral /ate z to make !m able to b5efit _! fell[s4 ,we f9d among/ !m _m types--! occult lead] & ! se]ess :o expla9s ! com+ ( ,*ri/4 ,we are %[n ! spiritual developm5t ( an arti/1 a sci5ti/1 a philosoph]1 a hi/orian1 a my/ic1 & a man ( ! _w2 & we he> too ! sc(f+ cynicism ( ,g]manus & ! mat]iali/ic views ( ,fox4 ,we are l$ to realize h[ ! *>act]s are connect$ on ! physical z well z ! spiritual plane2 & we le>n also ab\t ! nature ( elem5tals & ! tw9 =ces ( h9drance kn[n z ,lucif] & ,ahriman2 ! =m] ( :om may be describ$ z an embodim5t ( ! spiritual impulse to action1 an impulse always necess>y b (t5 di/ort$ to br+ ab\t self-glorification r ?an ! ambition to d good2 ! latt] z an embodim5t ( an influ5ce :i* seeks to mat]ialize ev]y?+1 ?us h9d]+ true spiritual gr[? & fre$om4 ,^! two influ5ces are giv5 to man t he may ga9 free w by hav+ p]fect lib]ty to guide !m 9 ! "o direction or 9 ! o!r4 ,) reg>d to ! writ+ & production ( ! plays1 ,doctor ,/e9]'s habit is to write a play :il/ ! rehe>sals are actually 9 progress1 f9i%+ x a few days be=e ! fir/ public p]=mance1 & ! fir/ play 0 writt5 & act$ 9 ?is mann] 9 ,augu/1 #aiaj1 ! second 9 ,augu/1 #aiaa1 ! ?ird 9 ,augu/1 #aiab1 & ! f\r? 9 ,augu/1 #aiac4 ,x 0 n until !n t ! complete key to ! developm5t ( ! *>act]s 0 atta9able4 ,! la/ play expla9s ! progress ( ! o!r ?ree1 &1 foll[+ out ! h9t giv5 9 ! second play by ! acc\nt ( ! previ\s inc>nation 9 ! ,middle ,ages1 traces ! *>act]s "r back to _! e>li] inc>nation 9 anci5t ,egypt4 ,! plays 7 p]=m$ 9 ,muni* e summ] "u ! p]sonal direction ( ! au?or & 7 act$ by m5 & wom5 ( sev]al nationalities--all /ud5ts ( 8 tea*+4 ,! audi5ces numb]$ "s two ?\s& & 7 compos$ entirely ( 8 foll[]s4 ,9 #aiac1 ow+ to ! difficulties & exp5se incurr$ ea* ye> 9 secur+ an appropriate !atre1 8 support]s acquir$ a plot ( gr\nd 9 ,muni*1 & plans 7 design$ = a !atre ( _! own1 b ! ,muni* au?orities aft] mu* prev>ication & delay f9ally prohibit$ its build+1 exhibit+ 9 _! treatm5t ( ,rudolf ,/e9] ! same illib]al _s z !y _h %[n at an e>li] date 9 ! case ( ,ri*>d ,wagn]4 ,because ( ?is1 & because ( ! ho/ility :i* 8 writ+s & lectures _h ar\s$ 9 o!r p>ts ( ,g]many1 ,doctor ,/e9] 0 l$ to set up 8 !atre 9 ,switz]l& at ! little village ( ,dorna*--n f> f ,ble4 ,"h a !atre is be+ built 9 accordance ) 8 own designs & x is hop$ t ! plays w be p]=m$ !re regul>ly z soon z ! edifice is complete4 ,9 conclusion ,i %\ld l to express my gratitude to my fri5ds & fell[ /ud5ts ,r4 ,t4 ,glad/one1 ,m4,a41 ,cantab41 & ,s4 ,m4 ,k4 ,g&ell1 ,m4,a41 ,oxon41 = _! mo/ valuable help 9 ! v difficult task ( translat+ ! plays into ,engli% v]se4 ,only a translator c appreciate ! difficulties involv$ 9 pres]v+ bo? ! s5se & rhy?m ( ! orig9al1 & x is no exagg]ation to say t )\t _! aid ! production ( ^! works 9 ,engli% w\ld n h be5 possible at ! pres5t "t4 ,i %\ld also l to take ?is occasion ( ?ank+ ,doctor ,/e9] himself = p]mitt+ me to att5d ! rehe>sals & assi/ 9 ! p]=mances ( ! plays4 ,x 0 a great privilege & pleasure = :i* ,i c nev] feel suffici5tly grateful4 ,& la/1 b n lea/1 ,i h to ?ank him = 8 ev] k9d & pati5t att5tion to all my que/ions on ! subject ( ^! plays & ( spiritual sci5ce 9 g5]al4 ,h4 ,collison4 ,new ,york1 #aiai4 ,,cont5ts ,,page ,! ,portal ( ,initiation #a ,! ,s\l's ,probation #ada ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old #a ,! ,s\l's ,awak5+ #ace ,,! ,,portal ,,( ,,initiation ,! g5]al public has nev] be5 admitt$ to ! p]=mance ( ^! plays4 ,! ,engli% editor has1 h[ev]1 v5tur$ to give "s indication ( ! co/umes & sc5]y1 ?\gh ?is c only be suffici5t to give a g5]al idea4 ,! foll[+ is a summ>y ( ! sc5es3 ,a ,prelude ,sc5e #a3 ,a debat+ room4 ,!odora's vision ( ! com+ ,*ri/4 ,sc5e #b3 ,johannes' m$itation among ! m\nta9s3 ',"k ?\ ?yself4' ,sc5e #c3 ,m$itation *amb]4 ,m>ia's sep>ation4 ,sc5e #d3 ,! ,_s ( ! ,elem5ts4 ,! ,s\l-_w4 ,sc5e #e3 ,! subt]ranean rock temple4 ,! consultation ( ! hi]ophants4 ,sc5e #f3 ,cont9uation ( ,sc5e #d4 ,felicia3 h] ,fir/ ,fable4 ,g]manus4 ,sc5e #g3 ,! ,_s-_w4 ,m>ia & h] s\l p[]s4 ,!odora's vision ( ! pa/ inc>nation ( ,m>ia & ,johannes4 ,! sc5e ends ) ,b5$ictus' great my/ic utt]ance4 ,an ,int]lude ,sc5e #h3 ,! portrait ( ,capesius by ,johannes4 ,/rad]'s bewild]m5t4 ,sc5e #i3 ,johannes' second m$itation among ! m\nta9s ?ree ye>s lat] ?an ,sc5e #b4 ',feel ?\ ?yself4' ,sc5e #aj3 ,z 9 ,sc5e #c4 ,a trial = ,johannes4 ,sc5e #aa3 ,! ,temple ( ! ,sun4 ,de/9y & debtors4 ,,be+s ,,& ,,p]sons ,,repres5t$ ,9 ! ,prelude & ,int]lude3 ,sophia4 ,e/ella4 ,two ,*ildr54 ,9 ! ,my/]y3 ,johannes ,?omasius4 ,m>ia4 ,b5$ictus4 ,!odosius1 ^: prototype1 z ! ,my/]y proce$s1 reveals itself z t ( ! ,_s ( ,love4 ,romanus1 ^: prototype1 z ! ,my/]y proce$s1 reveals itself z t ( ! ,_s ( ,action4 ,g]manus1 ^: prototype1 z ! ,my/]y proce$s1 reveals itself z t ( ! ,e>?-bra94 ,hel5a1 ^: prototype1 z ! ,my/]y proce$s1 reveals itself z t ( ,lucif]4 ,ret>dus1 active only z a ,_s-influ5ce4 ,philia ,fri5ds ( ,m>ia1 ^: prototypes1 z ! ,a/rid ,my/]y proce$s1 reveal !mselves z spirits ,luna ( ,m>ia's s\l-p[]s4 ,pr(essor ,capesius4 ,doctor ,/rad]4 ,felix ,balde1 :o reveals himself z repres5tative ( ! ,_s ( ,nature4 ,felicia ,balde1 8 wife4 ,! ,o!r ,m>ia1 ^: prototype1 z ! ,my/]y proce$s1 reveals itself z ! ,s\l ( ,love4 ,!odora1 a ,se]ess4 ,ahriman & ,lucif]1 conceiv$ z ,s\l-influ5ces only4 ,! ,_s ( ! ,elem5ts1 conceiv$ z a ,_s-influ5ce4 ,a ,*ild1 ^: prototype1 z ! ,my/]y proce$s1 reveals itself z a "y s\l4 ,z is usual 9 ,engli% /age directions1 "r means "r ( ! /age1 & n "r ( ! audi5ce z 9 ! orig9al ,g]man4 ,s too ! left is left ( ! /age4 ,! music at ! repres5tation ( ea* play 0 by ,mr4 ,adolf ,ar5son4 ,notes on ! ,co/umes ,worn3 ,! co/umes worn are ^? ( e day1 except t ! female *>act]s1 ov] _! dress1 we> bright broad /oles ( a col\r to suit _! "*4 ,b5$ictus is usually 9 a black rid+ suit1 top boots1 & a black mantle4 ,lucif] has gold5 hair1 we>s crimson robes1 & /&s ^u ! "r ( ,johannes4 ,lucif] appe>s z female4 ,ahriman1 ! conv5tional ,satan1 we>s yell[ robes & /&s ^u ! left ( ,johannes4 ,9 ! fif? & elev5? sc5es & :5 9 _s =m or act+ z hi]ophant ,b5$ictus we>s a long :ite robe ov] :i* is a broad gold5 /ole ) my/ic emblems 9 r$4 ,he also we>s a gold5 mitre & c>ries a gold5 crosi]4 ,on su* occasion ,!odosius is simil>ly rob$ except t ! /ole1 mitre1 & crosi] are silv] & ! emblems blue4 ,simil>ly ! /ole1 mitre1 & crosi] ( ,romanus are bronze & ! emblems gre54 ,ret>dus' co/ume is a mixture ( ! above ?ree4 ,g]manus we>s long br[ni% robes & is made to appe> l a giant ) heavy clogs1 z if ti$ to e>?4 ,sc5e #f4 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna 9 ! sev5? & elev5? sc5es & 9 ! o!r plays h conv5tional angel-=ms2 ,a/rid is always 9 ! c5tre ( ?is gr\p2 ,luna is on h] "r2 ,philia on h] left4 ,!odora we>s :ite & has angel's w+s 9 ! sev5? & elev5? sc5es4 ,! ,o!r ,m>ia is dress$ l a _s 7except 9 ,sc5e #a7 b "o associat$ ) rocks & preci\s /ones4 ,,! ,,portal ,,( ,,initiation ,,prelude ,sophia's room4 ,! col\r s*eme is a yell[ r$4 ,sophia1 ) h] two *ildr51 a boy & a girl2 lat]1 ,e/ella4 ,,*ildr5 7s++1 :il/ ,sophia accompanies !m on ! piano73 ,! light ( ! sun is flood+ ,! bread?s ( space2 ,! song ( ! birds is fill+ ,! heights ( ! air2 ,! bless+ ( plant-life unfolde? ,elem5tal ,be+s ( e>?2 ,& human s\ls 9 rev]5t gratitude1 ,rise up to ! spirits ( ! _w4 ,,sophia3 ,n[1 *ildr51 g to y\r room & ?9k ov] ! words we h j practis$4 7,sophia leads ! *ildr5 out47 7,ent] ,e/ella47 ,,e/ella3 ,h[ d y d1 ,sophy8 ,i hope ,i'm n intrud+8 ,,sophia3 ,oh no1 ,e/elle4 ,i am v glad to see y4 7,asks ,e/ella to be seat$ & seats h]self47 ,,e/ella3 ,h y good news f y\r husb&8 ,,sophia3 ,v good4 ,he writes to me say+ t he is int]e/$ 9 ! ,congress ( ,psy*ologi/s2 ?\gh ! mann] 9 :i* !y treat _m great que/ions !re does n appeal to him4 ,h[ev]1 z a /ud5t ( s\ls1 he is int]e/$ 9 j ^? me?ods ( spiritual %ortsight$ness :i* make x impossible = m5 to obta9 a cle> view ( ess5tial my/]ies4 ,,e/ella3 ,does he n int5d speak+ on an important subject1 himself8 ,,sophia3 ,yes1 on a subject t seems important bo? to him & to me4 ,b ! sci5tific views ( ^? pres5t at ! ,congress prev5t 8 expect+ any results f 8 argum5ts4 ,,e/ella3 ,i really came 91 de> ,sophy1 to ask :e!r y w\ld come ) me ?is ev5+ to a new play call$ ,outca/s f ,body & f ,s\l4 ,i %\ld s l to he> x ) y4 ,,sophia3 ,i'm sorry1 my de> ,e/elle1 b tonight is ! date set = ! p]=mance ( ! play1 :i* our society has be5 rehe>s+ = a long "t4 ,,e/ella3 ,oh yes1 ,i _h =gott54 ,b x w\ld h be5 su* a pleasure to h sp5t ?is ev5+ ) my old fri5d4 ,i _h set my he>t on hav+ y beside me1 & gaz+ ) y into ! hidd5 dep?s ( our pres5t-day life4444 ,i only hope t ?is _w ( ideas1 9 :i* y move1 & :i* is s /range to me1 w n f9ally de/roy t bond ( sympa?y1 :i* has unit$ our he>ts s9ce we 7 at s*ool toge!r4 ,,sophia3 ,y h (t5 said t be=e2 & yet y h always _h to admit t our div]g5t op9ions ne$ n erect b>ri]s betwe5 ^? feel+s :i* h exi/$ betwe5 u 9 our companion%ip f our y\? upw>ds4 ,,e/ella3 ,true1 ,i h said s4 ,yet x always ar\ses a s5se ( bitt]ness 9 me1 :51 z ! ye>s roll on1 ,i see h[ y\r affections are e/rang$ f ^? ?+s 9 life t seem to me wor? :ile4 ,,sophia3 ,/ill1 we may be ( mu* mutual help to "o ano!r if we recognize & realize ! v>i\s po9ts ( view :i* we rea* ?r\gh our diff]5t incl9ations4 ,,e/ella3 ,yes6 ,my reason tells me t y are "r4 ,& yet !re is some?+ 9 me t rebels aga9/ y\r view ( life4 ,,sophia3 ,:y n c&idly admit t :at y require ( me is ! r5unciation ( my inmo/ s\l-life8 ,,e/ella3 ,b = "o ?+1 ,i %\ld admit ev5 t4 ,& t is1 t y always claim t y\r view is ! m pr(\nd4 ,i c readily und]/& t p ^: conceptions diff] radically may /ill meet 9 sympa?y ( feel+4 ,b ! nature ( y\r ideas actually =ces ^u y an inn] assumption ( a c]ta9 sup]iority4 ,o!rs c comp>e views & realize t !y d inde$ div]ge t[>ds diff]5t /&po9ts1 b !y nev]!less /& relat$ by an equality ( values4 ,y1 h[ev]1 seem unable to d ?is4 ,y reg>d all o!r views z proce$+ f a l[] degree ( human developm5t4 ,,sophia3 ,b y realize1 ,i hope1 f our previ\s discussions1 t ^? :o ?9k z ,i d1 d n f9ally measure ! "* ( man by 8 op9ions or by 8 k4 ,& :ile we consid] our ideas su*1 t )\t vital realization ( !m life has no valid f\ndations1 we nev]!less try mo/ e>ne/ly n to ov]-e/imate ! value ( ! individual1 :o has be5 p]mitt$ to become an in/rum5t = ! manife/ation ( ?is view ( life4 ,,e/ella3 ,all t s\nds v well1 b x does n remove my "o suspicion4 ,i _c close my eyes to ! fact1 t a _w-view :i* ascribes to itself illimitable dep? mu/ ne$s lead by ! circuit\s r\te ( a m]e appe>ance ( su* dep? to a c]ta9 sup]ficiality4 ,i rate our fri5d%ip too high to po9t out to y ^? among y\r companions :o1 :il/ !y swe> allegiance to y\r ideas1 yet display spiritual arrogance ( ! mo/ unmitigat$ sort1 despite ! fact t ! b>r5ness & banality ( _! s\l speaks 9 _! e ^w & 9 all _! conduct4 ,nor d ,i wi% to call y\r att5tion to ! call\sness & lack ( sympa?y %[n by s _m ( y\r adh]5ts t[>ds _! fell[ m54 ,! greatness ( y\r own s\l has nev] p]mitt$ y to /& alo( f t :i* daily life requires at ! h&s ( ! man :om we call good4 ,& yet ! fact t y leave me alone on ?is occasion1 :5 true & arti/ic life comes to be voic$1 %[s me t y\r ideas too ) ref]5ce to ?is life are to a c]ta9 ext5t sup]ficial--if y w =give my say+ s4 ,,sophia3 ,& :]e9 lies ?is sup]ficiality8 ,,e/ella3 ,y ought to "k4 ,y h kn[n me long en\gh to und]/& h[ ,i h wr5*$ myself away f t mann] ( life1 :i*1 day 9 & day out1 only /ruggles to foll[ tradition & conv5tion4 ,i h s\ght to und]/& :y s _m p suff]1 z x seems1 undes]v$ly4 ,i h tri$ to approa* ! heights & dep?s ( life4 ,i h consult$ ! sci5ces1 s f> z ,i c\ld1 to le>n :at !y disclose4 ,b let me hold fa/ to ! "o po9t :i* ?is mom5t pres5ts to u4 ,i am aw>e ( ! nature ( true art2 ,i believe ,i und]/& h[ x seizes ^u ! ess5tials ( life & pres5ts to our s\ls ! true & high] reality4 ,i seem to feel ! beat+ ( ! pulse ( "t1 :5 ,i p]mit su* art to influ5ce me1 & ,i am horrifi$ :5 ,i h to ?9k :at x is :i* y1 ,sophy1 pref] to ?is int]e/ 9 liv+ art4 ,y turn to :at seem to me ! obsolete1 dogmatically allegorical !mes1 to gaze on a %[ ( puppets1 in/ead ( on liv+ be+s1 & to wond] at symbolical happ5+s :i* /& f> away f all t appeals to our pity & to our active sympa?ies 9 daily life4 ,,sophia3 ,my de> ,e/elle1 t is exactly ! fact t y w n grasp--t ! ri*e/ life is to be f\nd j !re :]e y only see a fanta/ic web ( ?\ghts3 & t !re may be1 & are1 p :o are compell$ to call y\r liv+ reality m]e pov]ty--if x be n measur$ by ! spiritual s\rce f :5ce x comes4 ,possibly my words s\nd h>% to y4 ,b our fri5d%ip dem&s absolute frankness4 ,_s itself is z unkn[n to y z x is to ! multitude4 ,9 its place y "k only ! be>] ( k4 ,x is only ! ?\ght side ( _s ( :i* y are aw>e4 ,y h no conception ( ! liv+1 ! creative _s1 :i* end[s m5 ) elem5tal p[]1 ev5 z ! g]m9al p[] ( nature %apes liv+ entities4 ,l _m ano!r1 = in/ance1 y call ?+s 9 art :i* d5y ! _s1 z ,i conceive x1 nave & orig9al4 ,our conception ( ! _w unites a full & consci\s fre$om ) ! p[] ( nave creation4 ,we absorb consci\sly t :i* is nave1 & d n !reby rob x ( its fre%ness1 its fulness1 & its orig9ality4 ,y believe t ! "* ( man %apes itself1 & t we c m]ely =m ?\ghts & consid]ations ab\t x4 ,y w n see t ?\ght itself actually m]ges into creative _s2 rea*+ ! v f\nta9 ( ,be+2 & develop+ !nce into an actual creative g]m4 ,our ideas d n tea*1 any m ?an ! se$-p[] )9 a plant tea*es x h[ to gr[4 ,x is ! actual gr[? itself1 & 9 l mann] d our ideas fl[ into our v be+1 k9dl+ & disp5s+ life4 ,to ! ideas t h come to me1 ,i am indebt$ = all t makes life wor? :ile2 n only = ! c\rage1 b also = ! insight & p[] t make me hopeful ( s tra9+ my *ildr51 t !y %all n only be capable & useful 9 ord9>y ev]yday life1 9 ! old traditional s5se1 b t !y %all at ! same "t c>ry inw>d peace & cont5tm5t )9 _! s\ls4 ,i h no wi% to /ray f ! po9t1 b ,i w say j "o ?+4 ,i believe--nay ,i "k--t ! dreams :i* y %>e ) s _m c only be realiz$ :5 m5 succe$ 9 unit+ :at !y call ! realities ( life ) ^? deep] exp]i5ces1 :i* y h s (t5 t]m$ dreams & fantasies4 ,y may be a/oni%$ if ,i confess x to y3 b mu* t seems true art to y is to me a m]e fruitless critique ( life4 ,no hung] is /ill$1 no te>s are dri$1 no s\rce ( deg5]acy is discov]$1 :5 m]ely ! out] %[ ( hung]1 or te>-/a9$ faces1 or deg5]ate be+s is %[n ^u ! /age4 ,& ! cu/om>y me?od ( t pres5tation is unspeakably di/ant f ! true dep?s ( life1 & ! true relation%ip betwe5 be+s4 ,,e/ella3 ,i und]/& y\r words inde$1 b !y m]ely %[ me t y d pref] to indulge 9 fancies1 r ?an to look ^u ! realities ( life4 ,our ways1 inde$1 "p4--,i see t my fri5d is d5i$ me tonight4 7,rises47 ,i mu/ leave y n[4 ,b we rema9 fri5ds1 z ( old1 d we n8 ,,sophia3 ,we mu/ inde$ rema9 fri5ds4 7,:ile ^! la/ words are spok51 ,sophia conducts h] fri5d to ! door47 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #a ,room4 ,dom9ant note rose-r$4 ,l>ge rose-r$ *airs are arrang$ 9 a semicircle4 ,to ! left ( ! /age a door leads to ! auditorium4 ,"o aft] ! o!r1 ! speak]s introduc$ ent] by ?is door2 ea* /opp+ 9 ! room = a "t4 ,:ile !y d s1 !y discuss ! disc\rse !y h j he>d 9 ! auditorium1 & :at x sugge/s to !m4 ,ent] fir/ ,m>ia & ,johannes1 !n o!rs4 ,! spee*es :i* foll[ are cont9uations ( discussions already begun 9 ! auditorium4 ,,m>ia3 ,my fri5d1 ,i am inde$ di/ress$ to see ,?y _s & ?y s\l 9 sadness droop1 ,& p[]less to help ! bond t b9ds ,& t has b\nd u bo? = t5 ble/ ye>s4 ,e'en ?is same h\r1 fill$ ) a port5t deep ,9 :i* we bo? h he>d & le>n$ s mu* ,t light5s all ! d>ke/ dep?s ( s\l1 ,br\ght naught b %ade & %ad[ unto !e4 ,aye1 aft] _m ( ! speak]s' words1 ,my li/5+ he>t c\ld feel ! v d>t ,t deeply w\nd$ ?9e4 ,once did ,i gaze ,into ?9e eyes & saw b happ9ess ,& joy 9 all ! ess5ce ( ! _w4 ,9 pictures beauty-/eep$ ?y s\l held fa/ ,ea* fleet+ mom5t1 ba!d by sun%9e's gl[-- ,flood+ ) air & light ! =ms ( m5 ,unseal+ all ! dep?s & d\bts ( ,life4 ,unskill$ z yet ?9e h& to body =? ,9 concrete col\r-s*emes1 ^? liv+ =ms ,t hov]$ 9 ?y s\l2 b 9 ! he>ts ,( bo? ( u !re ?robb$ ! joy\s fai? ,& c]ta9 hope t future days w\ld tea* ,?9e h& ?is art--to p\r =? happ9ess ,into ! v fundam5ts ( ,be+2 ,t all ! wond]s ( ?y _s's se>* ,unfold+ visibly ,creation's p[]s ,?r\gh e creature ( ?9e art w\ld p\r ,s\l rapture deep into ! he>ts ( m54 ,su* 7 our dreams ?r\gh all ^? days ( yore ,t to ?y skill1 mirror$ 9 beauty's guise1 ,! weal ( future m5 w\ld trace its s\rce4 ,s dream$ m9e own s\l ( ! goal ( ?9e4 ,yet n[ ! vital sp>k ( fa%ion+ fire ,t burn$ )9 !e seems ext9ct & dead4 ,dead ?y creative joy3 & well-nigh maim$ ,! h&1 :i* once ) fre% & y\?ful /r5g? ,guid$ ?y /eadfa/ bru% f ye> to ye>4 ,,johannes3 ,alas1 'tis true2 ,i feel z if ! fires ,t er/:ile quick5$ 9 my s\l are qu5*$4 ,m9e eye1 gr[n dull1 do? no m cat* ! gleam ,%$ by ! flick]+ sunlight o'er ! e>?4 ,no feel+ /irs my he>t1 :5 *ang+ moods ,( light & %ade fl[ o'er ! sc5es ar\nd4 ,/ill lies my h&1 seek+ no m to *a9 ,into a la/+ pres5t fleet+ *>ms1 ,%[n =? by magic elem5tal p[]s ,f utmo/ dep?s ( ,life be=e m9e eyes4 ,no new creative fire ?rills me ) joy4 ,= me dull monotone obscures all life4 ,,m>ia3 ,my he>t is deeply griev$ to he> t ?\ ,do/ f9d su* empt9ess 9 ev]y?+ ,:i* ?rives z highe/ good & v s\rce ,( sacr$ life itself )9 my he>t4 ,ah1 fri5d1 beh9d ! *ang+ sc5es ( life ,t m5 call ',be+1' true life lies conceal$ ,spiritual1 ev]la/+1 inf9ite4 ,& 9 t life ea* s\l do? weave its ?read4 ,i feel afloat 9 _s pot5cies1 ,t "w1 z 9 an ocean's unse5 dep?s1 ,& see reveald all ! life ( m51 ,z wavelets on ! ocean's upturn$ face4 ,i am at "o ) all ! s5se ( ,life ,= :i* m5 re/less /rive1 & :i* to me ,is b _! inn] self t /&s reveal$4 ,i see1 h[ (t5times x b9ds itself ,unto ! v k]nel ( man's s\l1 ,& lifts him to ! highe/ t 8 he>t ,c ev] crave4 ,yet z x lives 9 me ,x turns to bitt] fruitage1 :5 m9e own ,t\*es ano!r's be+4 ,ev5 s ,ha? ?is1 my de/9y1 work$ out 9 all ,i will$ to give !e1 :5 ?\ cam'/ 9 love4 ,?y wi% x 0 to travel at my side ,unhesitat+ all ! way1 t soon ,%\ld lead !e to a full & p]fect art4 ,yet :at ha? happ5$8 ,all1 t 9 m9e eyes ,/ood =? reveal$ 9 its own nak$ ,tru? ,z pure/ life1 br\ght dea?1 my fri5d1 to !e ,& slew ?y _s4 ,,johannes3 ,aye4 ',tis s inde$4 ,:at lifts ?y s\l to ,heav5's sun-kiss$ heights ,:5 ?r\gh ?y life x comes into m9e own ,?ru/s my s\l d[n1 to dea?'s abysmal gloom4 ,:5 9 our fri5d%ip's rosy-f+]$ dawn ,to ?is revealm5t ?\ did/ lead me on1 ,:i* %$s its light into ! d>k5$ realms1 ,:]e human s\ls d ent] e night1 ,b]eft ( consci\s life1 & :]e full (t ,man's be+ w&]s err+3 :il/ ! night ,( ,dea? makes mock at ,life's reality4 ,& :5 ?\ did/ reveal to me ! tru? ,( life's return1 !n did ,i "k full well ,t ,i %\ld gr[ to p]fect _s-man4 ,surely1 x seem$1 ! arti/'s cle> ke5 eye1 ,& c]ta9 t\* ( a creator's h&1 ,w\ld blossom = me ?r\gh ?y _s's fire ,& noble might4 ,full deep ,i brea!d ?is fire ,into my be+2 :5--behold--x robb$ ,! ebb & fl[ ( all my _s's p[]4 ,remorselessly x drove out f my he>t ,all fai? 9 ?is our _w4 ,& n[ ,i rea* ,a po9t :]e ,i no long] cle>ly see1 ,:e!r to d\bt or :e!r to believe ,! revelation ( ! _s-worlds4 ,nay m1 ,i ev5 lack ! p[] to love ,t :i* 9 !e ! _s's beauty %[s4 ,,m>ia3 ,alas6 ,! ye>s t pass h taught me ?is3 ,t m9e own way to live ! _s-life ,do? *ange into its opposite1 :5e'er ,x p5etrates ano!r's "*4 ,& ,i mu/ also see h[ _s-p[] ,gr[s ri* 9 bless+ :51 by o!r pa?s1 ,x p\rs itself into ! s\ls ( m54 7,ent] ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna47 ,x fl[e? =? 9 spee*1 & 9 ^! words ,lies p[] to raise to realms cele/ial ,man's common mode ( ?9k+2 & create ,a _w ( joy1 :]e er/:ile brood$ gloom4 ,aye1 x c *ange ! _s's %all[ness ,to dep?s ( e>ne/ feel+2 & c ca/ ,man's "* 9 sure & noble m\ld4 ,& ,i--yes1 ,i am altoge!r fill$ ,by j ?is _s-p[]1 & mu/ behold ,! pa9 & desolation t x br+s ,to o!r he>ts1 :5 f m9e own x p\rs4 ,,philia3 ,x seem$ z ?\gh ! voices ( "s *oir 7,ent] ,pr(4 ,capesius & ,dr4 ,/rad]47 ,m+l$ toge!r1 utt]+ manifold ,conceptions & op9ions1 ea* 8 own1 ,( ^! :o =m$ our rec5t ga!r+4 ,full _m h>monies !re 7 inde$1 ,b also _m a h>%-ton$ dissonance4 ,,m>ia3 ,ah1 :5 ! words & spee* ( _m m5 ,pres5t !mselves 9 su* wise to ! s\l1 ,x seems z ?\gh man's v prototype ,/ood c5tr$ !re 9 secret my/]y3 ,become ?r\gh _m s\ls articulate1 ,z 9 ! ra9b['s ar* pure ,light itself ,gr[s visible 9 _m-col\r$ rays4 ,,capesius3 ,?r\gh *ang+ sc5es ( _m c5turies ,we w&]$ ye> on ye> 9 e>ne/ se>*2 ,/riv+ to fa?om deep ! liv+ =ce ,t dwelt )9 ! s\ls ( ^? :o s\ght ,to probe & scan ! fundam5ts ( be+1 ,& set be=e man's s\l ! goals ( life4 ,we ?\ght t 9 ! dep?s ( our own s\ls ,we liv$ ! high] p[]s ( ?\ght itself2 ,& ?us c\ld solve ! riddles set by ,fate4 ,we felt we _h1 or seem$ at lea/ to feel1 ,sure basis 9 ! logic ( our m9d ,:5 new exp]i5ces cross$ our pa? ,que/ion+ !re ! judgm5t ( our s\l4 ,yet n[ su* basis wav]s1 :5 amaz$ ,i he> today1 z ,i h he>d be=e1 ,! mode ( ?\ght taught by ^! p "h4 ,& m & m unc]ta9 d ,i gr[1 ,:5 ,i p]ceive1 h[ p[]fully 9 life ,?is mode ( ?\ght do? "w4 ,full _m a day ,h ,i sp5t ?us1 ?9k+ h[ ,i might %ape ,"t's riddles z !y solv$ !mselves to me ,9 words1 t he>ts might grasp & trembl+ feel4 ,happy inde$ 0 ,i1 if ,i c\ld fill ,only ! smalle/ corn] ( "s s\l ,among/ my audi5ce ) ! w>m? ( life4 ,& (t5times x seem$ success 0 m9e1 ,nor w\ld ,i make compla9t ( fruitless days4 ,yet all results ( tea*+ ?us c\ld lead ,only to recognition ( ?is tru? ,s lov$ & emphasiz$ by m5 ( de$s1 ,t 9 ! cla% ( life's realities1 ,?\ghts are dim %ad[s1 no?+ m nor less3 ,!y may inde$ w+ life's creative p[]s ,to due fruition1 b !y _c %ape ,& m\ld our life !mselves4 ,s h ,i judg$ ,& ) ?is mode/ comm5t 0 cont5t3 ,:]e pale ?\ghts only "w1 all life is lam$ ,& likewise all t jo9s itself to life4 ,m pot5t ?an ! ripe/ =m ( words1 ,h[ev] art might weave !re9 h] spell1 ,seem$ nature's gift1 man's tal5ts--& m /rong ,! h& ( de/9y to m\ld 8 life4 ,tradition's m\nta9weight1 & prejudice ,) dull oppressive h& w always qu5* ,! /r5g? ( e'en ! v be/ ( words4 ,b t :i* "h reveals itself 9 spee* ,gives m51 :o ?9k z ,i d1 food = ?\ght4 ,cle>ly we saw ! k9d ( consequ5ce ,t comes :5 sects1 9 sup]heat$ spee*1 ,bl9d s\ls ( m5 ) dogma's see?+ /ream4 ,b n\ght "h ( su* _s d we f9d2 ,"h only reason greets ! s\l1 & yet ,^! words create ! actual p[]s ( life1 ,speak+ unto ! _s's inmo/ dep?s4 ,nay ev5 to ! k+dom ( ! ,w ,?is /range & my/ic ,some?+ p5etrates2 ,?is ,some?+1 :i* to su* z ,i1 :o /ill ,w&] 9 anci5t ways1 seems b pale ?\ght4 ,impossible1 x seems1 to disav[ ,its consequ5ces2 none ! less1 myself ,i _c q surr5d] to x yet4 ,b x all speaks ) su* peculi> *>m ,& n z ?\gh x really meant = me ,! contradiction ( exp]i5ce4 ,x almo/ seems z if ?is ,some?+ f\nd ,! k9d ( man ,i am1 insuff]able4 ,,/rad]3 ,i w\ld associate myself 9 fulle/ s5se ,) e "o ( ?y la/ spok5 words3 ,& /ill m %>ply w\ld ,i emphasize ,t all results 9 our s\l-life1 :i* seem ,to spr+ =? f ! influ5ce ( ideas1 ,_c 9 any wise decide = u ,:at actual wor? ( k !y conceal4 ,:e!r !re lives )9 our mode ( ?\ght1 ,error or tru?--'tis c]ta9 ?is alone ,! v]dict ( true sci5ce c decide4 ,& no "o w\ld ) hone/y d5y ,t words1 :i* are1 9 seem+ only1 cle>1 ,yet claim to solve life's deepe/ my/]ies1 ,are q unfit = su* a scrut9y4 ,!y fasc9ate ! _s ( mank9d1 ,& only tempt ! he>t's cr$ulity2 ,seem+ to op5 door into t realm ,be=e :i*1 humble & p]plex$1 n[ /&s ,! /rict & cauti\s se>* ( mod]n m9ds4 ,& he :o truly foll[s su* rese>* ,is b\nd 9 hon\r to confess t none ,c "k :5ce /reams ! well-spr+ ( 8 ?\ght1 ,nor fa?om :]e ! dep?s ( ,be+ lie4 ,& ?\gh confession su* z ?is is h>d ,= s\ls :o all too will+ly w\ld gauge ,:at lies beyond ! k5 ( mortal m9d1 ,yet e glance ( e ?9k]'s s\l ,:e!r direct$ to ! out] side1 ,or turn$ t[>ds ! inn] dep?s ( life1 ,scans b t b\nd>y & naught beside4 ,if we d5y our rational intellect ,or set aside exp]i5ce1 we s9k ,9 dep?s unfa?omable1 bottomless4 ,& :o c fail to see h[ utt]ly ,:at passe? "h = revelation new1 ,fails to fit 9 ) mod]n modes ( ?\ght4 ,inde$ x ne$s b little ?\ght to see1 ,h[ totally devoid ?is me?od is ,( t1 :i* gives all ?\ght its sure support ,& gu>antees a s5se ( c]ta9ty4 ,su* revelations may w>m li/5+ he>ts1 ,b ?9k]s see 9 !m m]e my/ic dreams4 ,,philia3 ,aye1 ?us w\ld always speak ! sci5ce1 won ,by /]n sobriety & intellect4 ,b t suffices n unto ! s\l1 ,t ne$s a /eadfa/ fai? 9 its own self4 ,%e ev] w give he$ to words t speak ,to h] ( _s4 ,all %e dimly s5s$ ,9 =m] days1 %e /rive? n[ to grasp4 ,to speak ( ! ,unkn[n may well entice ,! ?9k]1 b no m ! he>ts ( m54 ,,/rad]3 ,i too c realize h[ mu* !re lies ,9 t objection2 h[ x seems to /rike ,! idle dream]1 :o w\ld only sp9 ,! ?reads ( ?\ght1 & seek ! consequ5ce ,( ?is or t premise1 :i* he himself ,ha? =m$ be=eh&4 ,me--x t\*es n-- ,no out] motive guid$ me to ?\ght4 ,9 *ildhood ,i grew up 'mid pi\s folk ,&1 foll[+ _! cu/om1 /eep$ my s\l ,9 s5se-intoxicat+ images ,( future soj\rn 9 cele/ial realms1 ,:]e) !y seek to com=t & beguile ,man's ignorance & man's simplicity4 ,)9 my boyi% s\l ,i s5s$ ! ?rob ,( utmo/ ec/asy1 :5 rev]5tly ,i rais$ my ?\ghts to highe/ _s-worlds2 ,& pray] 0 !n my he>t's necessity4 ,!reaft] 9 a cloi/] 0 ,i tra9$2 ,monks 7 my tea*]s1 & 9 m9e own he>t ,! deepe/ long+ 0 to be a monk1-- ,an e*o ( my p>5ts' ard5t wi%4 ,= consecration did ,i /& prep>$ ,:5 *ance did drive me f ! cloi/]$ cell2 ,& to ?is *ance ,i owe deep gratitude4 ,=1 _m days be=e *ance sav$ my s\l ,x _h be5 robb$ ( inw>d peace & quiet2 ,= ,i _h read & le>n$ ( _m ?+s1 ,t h no place )9 ! cloi/]-gate4 ,k ( nature's work+ came to me ,f books t 7 =bidd5 to m9e eyes4 ,& ?us ,i le>n$ new sci5tific ?\ght4 ,h>d 0 ! /ruggle z ,i s\ght ! pa? ,w&]+ ?r\gh _m a way to f9d m9e own2 ,nor did ,i ev] ga9 by cunn+ ?\ght ,:ate'er ( tru? reveal$ itself to me4 ,9 fi]ce-f\ght battles h ,i torn ! roots ,f out my _s's soil ( all t br\ght ,peace & cont5tm5t to me :5 a *ild4 ,i und]/& inde$ ! he>t t fa9 ,w\ld so> up to ! heights--b = myself1 ,:5 once ,i recogniz$ t all ,i le>n$ ,f _s-tea*+ 0 an empty dream1 ,i 0 compell$ to f9d ! sur] soil ,t sci5ce & discov]y create4 ,,luna3 ,we may surmise1 ea* aft] 8 own k9d1 ,:]e s5se & goal ( life do? lie = ea*4 ,i altoge!r lack ! p[] to prove ,accord+ to ! sci5ce ( today1 ,:at _s-tea*+ ,i h "h receiv$3 ,b cle> )9 my he>t ,i feel & "k ,my s\l w\ld die )\t ?is _s-lore1 ,z w\ld my body1 if depriv$ ( blood4 ,& ?\1 de> doctor1 'ga9/ our cause do/ fight ,) _m words1 & :at ?\ n[ ha/ told ,( ?y life's conflict l5ds !m weight inde$ ,ev5 ) ^? :o d n und]/& ,?y le>n$ argum5t4 ,yet w\ld ,i ask 7,ent] ,!odora47 ,exactly :y x is t he>ts ( m5 ,receive ! ^w ( ,_s readily1 ,z ?\gh self-und]/ood3 yet :5 man seeks ,food = 8 _s 9 su* le>n$ words ,z ?\ did/ use 8 he>t gr[s *ill & cold4 ,,!odora3 ,al?\gh ,i am at home 'mid j su* m5 ,z circle r\nd me "h1 yet /rangely s\nds ,?is spee* ,i h j he>d4 ,,capesius3 ,:at /rang5ess !re8 ,,!odora3 ,i may n say4 ,d ?\1 ,m>ia1 tell4 ,,m>ia3 ,our fri5d has (t5times expla9$ to u ,:at /range exp]i5ces come to h]4 ,"o day %e felt h]self completely *ang$1 ,& none c\ld und]/& h] alt]$ /ate4 ,e/rangem5t met h] :]esoe'er %e turn$ ,until %e came into our circle "h4 ,n t we fully und]/& ourselves ,:at %e possesses & :at no "o %>es4 ,yet we are tra9$ by ?is our mode ( ?\ght ,! unaccu/om$ to appreciate1 ,& feel ) e mood ( humank9d4 ,"o mom5t 9 h] life1 our fri5d p]ceiv$1 ,all t seem$ h]s a=etime1 disappe>2 ,! pa/ 0 all ext+ui%$ 9 h] s\l4 ,& s9ce ^! wondr\s *anges came to h]1 ,?is mood ( s\l ha? (t r5ew$ itself2 ,x do? n long endure2 & o!r times ,%e lives h] life z ord9>y folk4 ,yet :5soe'er %e falls into ?is /ate1 ,! gift ( memory do? fade away4 ,%e lose? f h] eyes ! p[] to see ,& s5se? h] surr\nd+s1 see+ n4 ,) a peculi> light h] eyes !n gl[1 ,& pictur$ =ms appe> to h]4 ,at fir/ ,!y seem$ l dreams2 anon !y grew s cle>1 ,t we c\ld recognize )\t a d\bt ,"s prophecy ( di/ant future days4 ,full _m a "t h we se5 ?is occur4 ,,capesius3 ,x is j ?is t little please? me ,among/ ^! m52 :o m+le ) good s5se ,& logic1 sup]/ition's fallacies4 ',twas ev] ?us :]e m5 h walk$ ?is pa?4 ,,m>ia3 ,if ?\ can/ /ill speak s1 ?\ do/ n yet ,p]ceive our attitude t[>ds ^! ?+s4 ,,/rad]3 ,well1 z = me1 ,i freely mu/ confess1 ,t ,i w\ld soon] revelations he> ,?an speak ( que/ionable _s-!mes4 ,= ev5 if ,i fail to read aright ,! riddle ( su* dreams1 yet ^? at lea/ ,i c\nt z facts2 & w\ld 'tw]e possible ,to see "o in/ance ( ! my/]y ,( ?is /range _s-mood be=e m9e eyes4 ,,m>ia3 ,p]*ance x is--= look1 %e comes aga94 ,& x do? seem to me z ?\gh e'en n[ ,?is my/ic _s-mood w\ld %[ itself4 ,,!odora3 ,i am compell$ to speak4 ,be=e my s\l ,a pictur$ =m /&s wrapp$ 9 robes ( light2 ,f :i* /range words are s\nd+ 9 m9e e>s4 ,i feel myself 9 future c5turies1 ,& m5 d ,i behold z yet unborn3-- ,!y also see ! pictur$ =m2 !y too ,c he> ! words x speaks1 :i* ?us res\nd-- ',o ye1 :o liv$ 9 fai?'s s9c]ity1 ,take com=t n[ 9 sight1 & look on ,me4 ,receive new life ?r\gh ,me4 ,= ,i am ,he ,:o liv$ )9 ! s\ls ( ^? :o s\ght ,to f9d ,me 9 !mselves1 by foll[+ ,! gospel-words ,my mess5g]s did br+ ,& by _! own devotion's inw>d p[]4 ,! light ( s5se ye saw--believe ye n[ ,9 ! creative _s-_w beyond4 ,= n[ inde$ ye h y\rselves a*iev$ ,"o atom ( div9e prophetic sight4 ,oh1 brea! x deep1 & feel x 9 y\r s\ls4' ,a human =m /eps f t sph]e ( light4 ,& speaks to me3 ',?\ %alt make kn[n to all ,:o w give e> to !e1 t ?\ ha/ se5 ,:at all mank9d %all soon exp]i5ce3 ,once1 long ago1 ,*ri/ liv$ ^u ! e>?1 ,& f ?is life ensu$ ! consequ5ce ,t 9 s\l-sub/ance clad ,he hov]s o'er ,! evolution ( humanity1 ,9 union ) ! e>?'s own _s-sph]e2 ,& ?\gh z yet invisible to m51 ,:5 9 su* =m ,he manife/s ,himself1 ,s9ce n[ _! be+ lacks t _s sight1 ,:i* fir/ w %[ itself 9 future times2 ,yet ev5 n[ ?is future drawe? nigh ,:5 t new sight %all come to m5 on e>?4 ,:at once ! s5ses saw1 :5 ,*ri/ did live ,^u ! e>?2 ?is %all be se5 by s\ls ,:5 soon ! "t %all rea* its fulness due4' 7,exit47 ,,m>ia3 ,?is is ! fir/ "t we h he>d h] speak ,9 su* a mann] to s _m folk4 ,at o!r times %e felt con/ra9$ to spee*1 ,only :5 two or ?ree 7 ga!r$ r\nd4 ,,capesius3 ,to me inde$ x seems mo/ curi\s1 ,t %e1 z ?\gh comm&$ or requir$1 ,%\ld f9d h]self to revelation urg$4 ,,m>ia3 ,x may s seem2 b we "k well h] ways4 ,if at ?is mom5t %e desir$ to s5d ,h] inw>d s\l-voice deep into y\r s\ls1 ,! only reason 01 t unto y ,! s\rce1 :5ce came h] voice1 desir$ to speak4 ,,capesius3 ,conc]n+ ?is /range future gift ( sight1 ,:]e( %e spake1 z dream+1 we h he>d ,t he1 :o ( ?is circle is ! s\l1 ,ha? (t already giv5 full report4 ,is x n possible t f 8 words ,! cont5t ( h] spee* ha? orig91 ,! mode ( utt]ance com+ f h]self8 ,,m>ia3 ,if matt]s ?us did /&1 we %\ld n deem ,h] words ( any consequ5ce or weight3 ,b we h te/$ ?is condition well4 ,be=e %e came into our circle "h1 ,our fri5d _h nev] he>d 9 any way ,( t same lead]'s spee*es1 nor _h we ,he>d aught ( h] be=e %e came to u4 ,,capesius3 ,!n :at we h to deal ) is a /ate1 ,su* z s (t5 happ5s1 contr>y ,to all ! laws ( nature2 & :i* we ,mu/ m]ely e/imate z "s disease4 ,& only heal?y ?\ght1 securely bas$ ,on fully consci\s s5se-impressions1 c ,pass judgm5t on ! riddles set by life4 ,,/rad]3 ,yet ev5 "h "o fact pres5ts itself2 ,& :at we n[ h he>d mu/ h "s wor?-- ,=1 ev5 if we set aside all else ,x do? compel ! ?\ght t _s-p[] ,c cause ?\ght-transf]5ce f s\l to s\l4 ,,a/rid3 ,ah me1 if ye w\ld only d>e to tread ,! gr\nd y\r mode ( ?\ght do? *oose to %un3 ,z sn[ be=e ! sunlight's pi]c+ gl>e ,y\r va9 delusion ne$s mu/ melt away1 ,:i* makes ! moods reveald1 9 su* m9ds ,appe> diseas$1 abnormal1 wond]ful4 ,!y are sugge/ive1 b !y are n /range4 ,& small ?is wond] do? appe> to me ,:5 ,i comp>e x ) ! myriad ,( wond]s t make up my daily life4 ,,capesius3 ,nay1 nay1 "o ?+ x is to recognize ,:at lies be=e our eyes on e side1 ,b q ano!r1 :at is %[n u "h4 ,,/rad]3 ,( _s 'tis n necess>y to speak ,until !re are ?+s %[n to u :i* lie ,outside ! /rictly circl$ b\nd>y ,set by ! laws ( sci5tific ?\ght4 ,,a/rid3 ,! cle> %aft ( ! sunlight on ! dew ,:i* gli/5s 9 ! morn+'s gold5 light1 7,ent] ,felix ,balde47 ,! hurl+ /ream t rise? 'nea? ! rock1 ,! ?und] rumbl+ 9 ! cl\d-wrapp$ sky1 ,all ^! d speak to me a _s tongue3 ,i /rove to und]/& x2 & ,i "k ,t ( ?is spee*'s mean+ & its might1 ,only a fa9t reflection c be glimps$ ,?r\gh y\r inve/igations1 z !y are4 ,& :5 t k9d ( spee* sank deep )9 ,my he>t1 ,i f\nd my s\l's true joy at la/4 ,nor c\ld aught else1 b human words alone ,& _s tea*+ grant ?is gift to me4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,^? words rang true inde$4 ,,m>ia3 ,i mu/ essay ,to tell :at joy fills all my he>t to see 7,ent] ,felicia ,balde47 ,= ! fir/ "t "h ) u yond] man1 ,( :om we (t h he>d2 & joy do? cause ,! wi% to see him "h full _m times4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,x is n usual = me t ,i %\ld ,associate ) su* a cr[d ( m53 ,& n alone unusual---- ,,felicia3 ,aye1 'tis s4 ,8 nature drives u into solitude ,away f all2 ye> 91 ye> out1 we he> ,sc>ce any o!r conv]se save our own4 ,& if ?is good man "h f "t to "t 7,po9t+ to ,capesius47 ,came n to l+] 9 our cottage home1 ,we sc>ce %\ld realize t o!r m51 ,besides ourselves1 live on ! e>? at all4 ,& if ! man1 :o spake su* wondr\s words ,b rec5tly 9 yond] lecture-hall1 ,& :o affect$ u s pot5tly1 ,did n full _m a "t my ,felix meet1 ,:5 he is gone ab\t 8 daily tasks1 ,ye w\ld "k n\ght ( our =gott5 life4 ,,m>ia3 ,s ! pr(essor (t5 visits y8 ,,capesius3 ,assur$ly4 ,& ,i may tell y all1 ,! v deep indebt$ness ,i feel ,to ?is good woman1 :o do? give to me ,9 ri* abundance1 :at none o!r c4 ,,m>ia3 ,& ( :at nature are ^! gifts ( h]s8 ,,capesius3 ,if ,i w\ld tell ! tale1 !n mu/ ,i t\* ,a ?+ t v]ily do? seem to me ,m wond]ful ?an mu* t "h ,i've he>d1 ,9 t x speaks m ne>ly to my s\l4 ,& 7 ,i 9 "s o!r place1 ^! words ,w\ld h>dly pass ! b>ri] ( my lips2 ,yet "h !y seem to fl[ !refrom ) ease4 ,9 my s\l-life !re (t5 comes a "t ,:5 x do? feel itself pump$ out & dry4 ,x seems z ?\gh ! v f\nta9-head ,( k _h run dry )9 my he>t4 ,!n c ,i f9d no ^w ( any k9d ,wor?y to speak or wor?y to be he>d4 ,& :5 ,i feel su* _s b>r5ness ,i flee to ^! good p1 & seek re/ ,9 _! reviv+1 peaceful solitude ,!n ,mi/ress ,felix tells me _m a tale ,set =? 9 wondr\s pictures1 manifold1 ,( be+s1 dwell+ 9 ! l& ( dreams1 ,:o lead a joy\s life 9 fairy realms4 ,:5 ?us %e speaks1 h] tone & spee* recall ,"s leg5d (t-told ( ! anci5t days4 ,i ask no "q :5ce %e f9ds ^! words ,b ?is "o ?+ alone ,i cle>ly "k3 ,t new life fl[s !refrom into my s\l1 ,& sweeps away its dull p>alysis4 ,,m>ia3 ,to he> su* spl5did witness to ! skill ,( ,dame ,felicia do?1 9 wondr\s wise1 ,h>moni\sly bl5d 9 e way ,) all t ,b5$ictus told to u ,ab\t 8 fri5d's deep hidd5 k-f\nts4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,he :o spake words to u j n[1 :i* %[$ 7,b5$ictus appe>s at ! door47 ,h[ 9 ! realm ( univ]sal space1 ,& va/ et]nities 8 _s dwelt1 ,ha? surely little ne$ to speak o'er mu* ,( simple m54 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?\ erre/ fri5d4 ,= me ,inf9ite value ha? ea* ^w ( ?9e4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,x 0 presumption only1 & ! b5t ,( idle talk1 :5 ?\ did/ hon\r me ,to w&] at ?y side our m\nta9 pa?s4 ,only because ?\ did/ conceal f me ,h[ mu* ?yself do/ "k1 ,i d>$ to speak4 ,b n[ our "t is up1 & we mu/ g-- ,a long way h5ce do? lie our quiet home4 ,,felicia3 ,x ha? be5 mo/ refre%+ once aga9 ,to come among/ mank9d3 & yet ,i fe> ,x w n happ5 v soon aga93 ,!re is no o!r life :i* ,felix deems ,bett] ?an liv+ 9 8 m\nta9 heights4 7,exeunt ,felix & 8 wife47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,inde$ ,i well believe 8 wife is "r1 ,nor w he come aga9 = _m days4 ,x ne$$ mu* to br+ him "h today4 ,& yet ! reason lies n 9 himself ,:y no "o kn[e? aught ( him or 84 ,,capesius3 ,he only seem$ to me ecc5tric1 /range2 ,& _m an h\r ,i f\nd him talkative ,:5 ,i 0 ) him2 b 8 my/ic spee* ,& /range disc\rse rema9$ obscure to me1 ,:5 he reveal$ all t he claims to "k4 ,he spoke ( sol> be+s h\s$ 9 rocks2 ,( lun> demons1 :o di/urb _! "w2 ,& ( ! s5se ( numb] hid 9 plants2 ,& he :o li/5s to him _c long ,keep cle> ! ?read ( mean+ 9 8 words4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,& yet 'tis also possible to feel ,z if ! p[]s ( ,nature1 ?r\gh ^! words1 ,s\ght to reveal !mselves 9 _! true /ate4 7,exit47 ,,/rad]3 ,already d ,i feel =ebod+s /range ,t n[ d>k h\rs are com+ 9 my life4 ,= s9ce ! days ( cloi/]$ solitude1 ,:]e ,i 0 taught su* k1 & !reby ,/ruck to ! v d>ke/ dep? ( s\l1 ,n "o exp]i5ce has /irr$ me s1 ,z ?is weird vision ( ! se]ess "h4 ,,capesius3 ,inde$ ,i _c see t aught ( t ,%\ld prove unn]v+4 ,& ,i fe>1 my fri5d1 ,t if ?\ once do/ lose ?y c]ta9ty1 ,d>k d\bt w soon envelop all ?y ?\ght4 ,,/rad]3 ,too true6 ,& 'tis ! fe> ( j ?is d\bt ,t cause? me full _m an anxi\s h\r ,f my exp]i5ce ,i "k n\ght else ,( ?is /range gift ( se]%ip1 save t :5 ,life's vex+ problems sorely tr\ble me1 ,!n1 gho/like1 rise? f d>k _s-dep?s1 ,be=e my _s's eyes1 "s phantom =m ,l "s dream-be+1 grim & t]rible1 ,press+ ) fe>ful weight ^u my s\l1 ,& clut*+ horribly ar\nd my he>t4 ,x seems to speak "r ?r\gh me words l ^!3 ',if ?\ do/ fail to ga9 ! victory ,o'er me ) ^? blunt weapons ( ?y ?\ght1 ,?\ art a fleet+ phantom1 no?+ m1 ,=m$ by ?9e own delud$ imag]y4' ,,!odosius3 ,t is ! de/9y ( all su* m51 ,z d approa* ! _w by ?\ght alone4 ,! _s's voice dwells deep 9 e s\l4 ,nor h we /r5g? to pi]ce ! cov]+ ,t spreads itself be=e our faculties4 ,?\ght do? br+ k ( ?+s temporal1 ,( ?+s t vani% 9 ! c\rse ( "t3 ,! ev]la/+ & all _s-tru? ,are f\nd b 9 ! inn] dep?s ( man4 ,,/rad]3 ,if1 !n1 ! fruitage ( a pi\s fai? ,is able to give re/ to we>y s\ls1 ,su* s\ls may w&] safely 9 t pa?1 ,& f9d suffici5cy )9 !mselves4 ,& yet ! p[] ( k1 pure & true1 ,do? nev] bloom on su* a pa? z ?is4 ,,!odosius3 ,yet !re c be no o!r way to light ,true _s-k 9 ! he>ts ( m54 ,pride may s$uce & *ange to fantasies ,! s\l's true dep?s ( feel+1 & may see ,a vision only :]e fai?'s beauty lies4 ,"o ?+ alone ( all we "h h he>d ,f _s-tea*+ ( ! high] worlds1 ,/rikes cle> ^u our hone/ human s5se3 ,t only 9 ! _s-_w itself ,! s\l c feel itself 9 its true home4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,s long z man feels ne$ ( spee* alone1 ,& n\ght besides1 s long su* words z ^! ,may satisfy him3 b ! full] life ,) all its /rife1 its ye>n+s aft] joy1 ,& all its sorr[1 ne$e? o!r food ,to n\ri% & su/a9 ! fa9t+ s\l4 ,= me1 an inn] voice did drive me on ,to sp5d all ! rema9+ days ( life ,:i* 7 allott$ me1 9 help+ ^? ,:om /ress ( de/9y _h smitt5 d[n ,& plung$ 9 deepe/ pov]ty & ne$4 ,& f> m (t ,i f\nd x necess>y ,to soo! ! angui% ( ! s\l ( man ,?an heal 8 body's pa9 & suff]+4 ,b ,i h felt inde$ 9 _m ways ,my w's weak impot5ce to com=t m54 ,s t ,i am compell$ to seek fre% /r5g? ,f out ! treasur$ /ore :i* fl[e? =? ,abundantly f _s-s\rces "h4 ,! quick5+ w>m? ( words :i* greet m9e e>1 ,fl[s =? ) magic =ce into my h&s2 ,& !nce1 l heal+ balsam1 =? aga91 ,:5 ^? h&s t\* "s sorr[-lad5 s\l4 ,x *ange? on my lips to /r5g!n+ words ,:i* c>ry com=t unto pa9-rack$ he>ts4 ,! s\rce ( words l ^! ,i d n ask2 ,i feel _! tru?--!y give me liv+ life4 ,& e day m cle>ly d ,i see1 ,t !y d]ive _! /r5g? n f my w ,9 all its weakness1 b create anew ,myself ea* day unto myself aga94 ,,capesius3 ,yet surely !re are m5 en\gh on e>? ,:o1 ?\gh !y lack su* revelation's aid1 ,p]=m innum]able de$s ( good8 ,,m>ia3 ,9 soo? !re is no lack ( m5 l ^! ,9 _m places2 b my fri5d do? mean ,a diff]5t ?+2 & if ?\ did/ b "k ,! life %e l$1 ?\ w\ld/ speak o!rwise4 ,:]e unus$ p[]s 9 full abundance dwell ,!re love w cause ! se$ to g]m9ate ,9 ri* abundance 9 ! he>t's good soil4 ,b our fri5d "h exhau/$ life's be/ p[]s ,9 nev]-end+ toil beyond h] /r5g?2 ,& all h] w to live lay cru%$ & dead ,b5ea? ! cruel weight ( de/9y1 ,:i* fell ^u h]4 ,all h] /r5g? %e gave ,to c>eful guidance ( h] *ildr5's weal3 ,& l[ already _h h] c\rage ebb$ ,:5 e>ly dea? took h] lov$ husb& home4 ,9 su* a /ate z ?is1 days dull & dre> ,seem$ all fate _h 9 /ore :il/ life rema9$4 ,b !n ! p[]s ( de/9y prevail$ ,to br+ h] 'nea? ! spell ( _s-lore2 ,& soon ) u %e felt ! vital =ce ,( life break =? 9 h] a second "t4 ,fre% aims 9 life %e f\nd1 & ) !m came ,fre% c\rage once aga9 to fight & /rive4 ,& ?us 9 h] ! _s ha? a*iev$ ,9 v tru? to fa%ion f decay ,a new & liv+ p]sonality4 ,& :5 ! _s 9 su* fruit z ?is ,%[s its creative pot5cy1 we le>n ,its nature1 & ! way x speaks to u4 ,&1 if no pride lies hidd5 9 our spee*1 ,& highe/ moral aims live 9 our he>ts2 ,if we believe t 9 no way at all ,our tea*+ is our own2--b t alone ,! _s %[s itself )9 our s\ls-- ,!n may we surely v5ture to ass]t ,t 9 ?y mode ( ?9k+ may be f\nd ,b feeble %ad[s wav+ to & fro ,a?w>t ! real true s\rce ( human life3 ,& t ! _s1 :i* ens\ls our "w ,is l9k$ 9 inw>d h>mony ) all ,t weaves ! web ( de/9y = man ,deep 9 ! v fundam5ts ( life4 ,i h be5 privileg$ = _m ye>s ,to give myself to vital "w 9 life3 ,& dur+ all ?is "t m ble$+ he>ts ,& ye>n+ s\ls h come be=e m9e eyes1 ,?an _m w\ld conceive 7 possible4 ,i d e/eem ?y high ideal flight1 ,! pr\d assurance ( ?y sci5ces3 ,i l to see ! /ud5t-audi5ce1 ,respectful1 sit & li/5 at ?y feet3 ,& t to _m s\ls ?y "w do? br+ ,ennobl+ cl>ity ( ?\ght1 ,i "k4 ,b yet reg>d+ ?\ght l ?is1 x seems1 ,tru/wor?9ess c only dwell !re9 ,s long z ?\ght lives 9 itself alone4 ,:]eas ! realm ( :i* ,i am a "p ,s5ds into deep realities ( life ,! fruitage ( its words1 s9ce x desires ,to plant 9 deep realities its roots4 ,f>1 f> away f all ?y ?\ght do? lie ,! writt5 ^w ^u ! _s-heav5 ,:i* ) mom5t\s tok5s do? ann\nce ,new gr[? ^u ! tree ( humank9d4 ,& ?\gh inde$ su* ?\ght seems cle> & sure ,z foll[s fai?fully ! anci5t pa?1 ,yet c x only t\* ! tree's co>se b>k1 ,& nev] rea* ! m>r['s liv+ p[]4 ,,romanus3 ,= my "p ,i d seek 9 va9 ! bridge ,t truly leade? f ideas to de$s4 ,,capesius3 ,on "o side ?\ do/ ov]-e/imate ,! p[] :i* c be wield$ by ideas1 ,& on ! o!r ?\ do/ fail to grasp ,! actual c\rse ( true reality3 ,= x is c]ta9 t ideas mu/ =m ,! g]m ( all ! actual de$s ( m54 ,,romanus3 ,if ?is fri5d do? s _m de$s ( good1 ,! impulse !reunto lies 9 h]self ,& h] w>m-he>t$ nature1 n 9 ?\ght4 ,mo/ c]ta9ly 'tis necess>y = man1 ,:5e'er he ha? accompli%$ any "w1 ,to f9d f\ndation = x 9 ideas4 ,b yet 'tis only s*ool+ ( man's w ,9 h>mony ) all 8 skill & p[] ,to und]take "s real "w 9 life ,:i* w help =w>d all ! human race4 ,:5 :irr ( busy :eels s\nds 9 m9e e>s1 ,or :5 ,i see "s creak+ w9dlass drawn ,by /rong /\t h&s ( m5 cont5t to "w1 ,!n d ,i s5se inde$ ! p[]s ( ,life4 ,,g]manus3 ,(t5 9 c>eless spee* h ,i ma9ta9$ ,t ,i pref]r$ ?+s droll & humor\s ,& held ^! only full ( wit & *>m1 ,deem+ t = my bra9 at any rate1 ,!y always w\ld provide mat]ial ,be/ fitt$ to fill up ! "t t lies ,betwe5 my recreation & my "w4 ,b n[ q ta/eless to me seem su* ?+s2 ,! ,p[] ,invisible ha? conqu]$ me2 ,& ,i h le>n$ to feel t !re may be ,m p[]ful =ces 9 humanity1 ,?an all our wit's frail ca/les 9 ! air4 ,,capesius3 ,& did x seem t n[h]e else b "h ',twas possible to f9d su* _s-p[]s8 ,,g]manus3 ,inde$ ! life ,i liv$ did (f] me ,full _m a type ( intellectual works3 ,yet c>$ ,i n to pluck or ta/e _! fruit4 ,b ?is /range mode ( ?\ght :i* blossoms "h ,seem$ to attract & draw me to itself ,h[ev] little ,i desir$ to come4 ,,capesius3 ,mo/ pleasant ha? ?is h\r ( conv]se be51 ,& we are debtors to our ho/ess "h4 7,exeunt all1 except ,m>ia & ,johannes47 ,,johannes3 ,oh1 /ay a little :ile yet by my side1 ,i am afraid3--s desp]ately afraid3-- ,,m>ia3 ,:at is x aile? !e1 my fri5d8 ,speak =?4 ,,johannes3 ,! fir/ cause 0 our lead]'s spee*2 & !n ,! *equ]$ conv]se ( ^! p "h4 ,x all ha? mov$ & /irr$ me ?r\gh & ?r\gh4 ,,m>ia3 ,b h[ c\ld simple spee*es su* z ^! ,seize on ?9e he>t ) su* int5sity8 ,,johannes3 ,ea* ^w seem$ 9 t mom5t unto me ,a dreadful symbol ( our no?+ness4 ,,m>ia3 ,inde$ x 0 significant to see ,p\r =? 9 su* %ort "t s _m k9ds ,( life & man's conflict+ t5d5cies1 ,9 all ! spee*es t we lately he>d4 ,yet 'tis inde$ a mo/ peculi> trait ,( life1 z x is liv$ among/ u "h1 ,to br+ to spee* ! inn] m9d ( man2 ,& mu* t o!rwise comes sl[ly =?1 ,/&s "h reveal$ 9 little space ( "t4 ,,johannes3 ,a mirror$ picture 'twas ( fulle/ life ,t %[$ me to myself 9 cle>e/ l9es3 ,?is _s-revelation makes me feel ,t mo/ ( u protect & tra9 "o trait ,& "o alone 9 all our "*1 ,:i* ?us p]suades itself x is ! :ole4 ,i s\ght to unify ^! _m traits ,9 m9e own self & boldly trod ! pa? ,:i* "h is %[n1 to lead unto t goal2 ,& x ha? made ( me a no?+ness4 ,ke5ly ,i feel :at all ^! o!rs lack1 ,& yet ,i s5se z ke5ly t !y all ,h actual "p 9 life itself1 :il/ ,i ,/& b on unsub/antial no?+ness4 ,x seem$ :ole l9es ( life ran into "o ,significant 9 ^? brief spee*es "h4 ,b !n m9e own life's portrait also rose ,& /ood =? vividly )9 my s\l4 ,! days ( *ildhood fir/ 7 pa9t$ !re1 ,) all its fulness & its joy 9 life3 ,!n came ! picture ( my y\?ful prime ,) t pr\d hopefulness 9 p>5t-he>ts ,awak5$ by ! tal5ts ( _! son4 ,!n dreams conc]n+ my c>e] 9 art1 ,:i* =m$ life's all 9 ^? old happy days1 ,surg$ up f out my _s's inmo/ dep?s ,exhort+ to fulfil my *]i%$ hopes2 ,& !n ^? dreams 9 :i* ?yself did/ see ,h[ ,i translat$ into col\r$ =m ,! _s-life t live? 9 ?y s\l4 ,!n saw ,i tongues ( fire spr+ up & lick ,ar\nd my y\?ful dreams & arti/ hopes1 ,r$uc+ all to du/ & no?+ness4 ,!reaft] rose ano!r pictur$ =m ,f out t dre> & dreadful no?+ness-- ,a human =m1 :i* once _h l9k$ its fate ,9 fai?ful love ) m9e 9 days long pa/4 ,%e s\ght to hold me by h] :5 ,i turn$ ,long ye>s ago unto my home aga91 ,call$ to att5d my "m's fun]al rites4 ,i he$$ n1 b tore myself away4 ,= mighty 0 ! p[] t drew me "h ,to ?is ?y circle & ! goals ( life ,:i* "h are set be=e our eag] gaze4 ,9 ^? d>k days ,i felt no s5se ( guilt ,:5 ,i did r5d 9 twa9 ! bond ( love1 ,t 0 unto ano!r s\l its life4 ,nor lat] :5 ! message came to me ,h[ t h] life did sl[ly p9e away1 ,& f9ally 0 altoge!r qu5*$ ,did ,i feel aught ( guilt until today2 ,b full ( mean+ 7 ^? rec5t words ,9 yond] *amb] :i* our lead] spake2 ,h[ t we may de/roy by p[] misus$ ,& p]v]se ?\ght ! de/9y ( ^? ,:om bonds ( lov+ tru/ l9k to our s\ls4 ,ah1 hide\sly ^! words aga9 res\nd ,out ( ! picture1 !nce re-e*o+ ,) gha/ly repetition f all sides3 ',h] murd]] ?\ art6 h] ha/ ?\ sla96' ,?us :il/ ?is weighty spee* ha? be5 = all ,! motive to probe deep )9 !mselves1 ,)9 my he>t x ha? br\ght =? alone ,! consci\sness ( ?is mo/ griev\s guilt4 ,by ?is new means ( sight ,i c p]ceive ,h[ f> a/ray my /riv+ foot/eps err$4 ,,m>ia3 ,& at ?is mom5t1 fri5d1 9 d>k doma9s ,?\ walke/1 & none else c help !e !re1 ,save he1 9 :om we all d put our tru/4 7,m>ia is call$ away2 re-ent] ,hel5a47 ,,hel5a3 ,i feel con/ra9$ to l+] by ?y side ,a little :ile2 s9ce n[ = _m weeks ,?y gaze ha? held s mu* ( grief & c>e4 ,h[ c ! light1 :i* /reams s radiantly ,br+ gloom unto ?y s\l1 :i* only /rives ,) utmo/ /r5g? to seek & "k ! tru?8 ,,johannes3 ,ha? !n ?is light br\ght naught b joy to !e8 ,,hel5a3 ,n ! same joy z t :i* once ,i knew1 ,b t new joy :i* spr+e? f ^? words1 ,?r\gh :i* ! _s do? reveal itself4 ,,johannes3 ,na!less ,i tell !e t ! self-same p[]1 ,:i* do? 9 !e create1 c also cru%4 ,,hel5a3 ,"s error mu/ h crept into ?y s\l ,) cunn+ tread1 if ?is be possible2 ,& if dull c>e in/ead ( happ9ess1 ,& moods ( sorr[ fl[ =? f ! s\rce ,( tru? itself in/ead ( _s-bliss ,9 free abundance3 seek !n 9 ?yself ,! /umbl+-blocks t ?us imp$e ?y way4 ,h[ (t5 are we told t only heal? ,is ! true fruitage ( our tea*+ "h1 ,:i* makes to blossom =? ! p[]s ( life4 ,%all x !n %[ ! contr>y 9 !e8 ,i see its fruitage 9 s _m lives1 ,:i*1 tru/+ me1 f9d union 9 !mselves4 ,_! =m] mode ( life gr[s day by day ,/range & /ill /rang] to su* s\ls z ^!2 ,z well-spr+s are fre% op5$ 9 _! he>ts1 ,!nce=? r5ew+ life )9 !mselves4 ,to gaze into ! primal dep?s ( be+ ,do? n create ^? passionate desires ,:i* torture & torm5t ! s\ls ( m54 7,exit47 ,,johannes4,,johannes3 ,x took me _m ye>s to und]/& ,& "k ! vanity ( ?+s ( s5se ,:5 _s-k is n jo9$ ) !m ,9 close & intimate companion%ip3 ,& yet "o s+le mom5t proves to me ,t e'en ! highe/ wisdom's words may be ,b vanity ( s\l 9 man's own self4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #b ,9 ! op54 ,rocks & spr+s4 ,! entire sc5e is to be ?\ght ( z tak+ place 9 ! s\l ( ,johannes ,?omasius4 ,:at foll[s is ! cont5t ( 8 m$itation4 7,!re s\nds f ! spr+s & rocks37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,,johannes3 ',tis ?us ,i he> !m1 n[ ^! _m ye>s1 ,^! words ( weighty import all ar\nd1 7he> !m 9 ! w9d & 9 ! wave3 ,out f e>?'s dep?s d !y res\nd to me3 ,& z a t9y acorn's my/]y1 ,conf9es ! /ructure ( a mighty oak1 ,s 9 ! k]nel ( ^! words !re lies1 ,all elem5tal nature2 all ,i grasp ,( s\l1 ( _s1 "t1 et]nity4 ,x seems m9e own peculi>ities ,& all ! _w besides live 9 ^! words3 ',"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,"k ?\ ?yself4' 7,f ! spr+s & rocks res\nds37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,,johannes3 ,& n[--,i feel ,m9e inmo/ be+ t]rifi$ to life3 ,)\t ! gloom ( night do? weave me r\nd1 ,& deep )9 my s\l ?ick d>kness yawns3 ,& s\nd+ f ?is univ]sal gloom ,& up f out ! d>kness ( my s\l ,^! words r+ =?3 ',"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4' 7,f ! spr+s & rocks res\nds37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,,johannes3 ,x robs me ( my v self3 ,i *ange ,ea* h\r ( day1 & am trans=m$ by night4 ,! e>? ,i foll[ on its cosmic c\rse3 ,i seem to rumble 9 ! ?und]'s peal1 ,& fla% ad[n ! lightn+'s fi]ce-=k$ tongue-- ,i ,,am4--,alas1 already d ,i feel ,m9e own exi/5ce snat*$ away f me4 ,i see :at 0 my =m] c>nal %ape1 ,z "s /range be+1 q outside myself1 ,& inf9itely f> away f me4 ,b n[ ano!r body hov]s ne>1 ,& ?r\gh its m\? ,i am compell$ to speak3-- ',ah1 bitt] sorr[ ha? he br\ght to me2 ,s utt]ly ,i tru/$ him ( old4 ,he left me lonely ) my sorr['s pa91 ,he robb$ me ( ! v w>m? ( life1 ,& ?ru/ me deep b5ea? ! *ill1 cold gr\nd4' ,poor s\l1 'tis %e ,i left1 & leav+ h] ,x 0 9 tru? m9e own self t ,i left2 ,& ,i mu/ suff] all h] pa9 & woe4 ,= k ha? end[$ me ) ! p[] ,myself into ano!r's self to fuse4 ,ah me6 ,ye qu5* aga9 by y\r own p[] ,! light ( inn] k ye h br\ght1 ,ye cruel words1 ',"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4' 7,f ! spr+s & rocks res\nds37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,,johannes3 ,ye lead me back aga9 )9 ! sph]e ,( m9e own be+'s =m] fantasies4 ,yet 9 :at %ape "k ,i myself aga96 ,my human =m is lo/ & gone f me2 ,l "s fi]ce dragon d ,i see myself2 ,begott5 out ( primal lu/ & gre$4 ,& cle>ly d ,i see h[ up till n[ ,"s dim delud+ veil ( phantom =ms ,ha? hid f me m9e own mon/rosity4 ,m9e own self's fi]c5ess mu/ dev\r my ,self4 ,& ?r\gh my ve9s run l consum+ fire ,^? words1 t once ) elem5tal =ce ,reveal$ ! core ( suns & e>?s to me4 ,!y ?rob )9 my pulse1 beat 9 m9e he>t2 ,& ev5 9 m9e inmo/ ?\ghts ,i feel ,/range worlds e'en n[ blaze =? l passions fi]ce4 ,!y are ! fruitage ( ^! v words3 ',"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,"k ?\ ?yself1' 7,f ! spr+s & rocks res\nds37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,,johannes3 ,!re1--f t d>k abyss1 :at creature gl>es8 ,i feel ! *a9s t hold me *a9$ to !e4 ,s fa/ 0 n ,prome!us rivett$ ,^u ! nak$ rocks ( ,caucasus1 ,z ,i am rivett$ & =g$ to !e-- ,:o art ?\1 fe>ful1 execrable %ape8 7,f ! spr+s & rocks res\nds37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,,johannes3 ,oh yea1 ,i "k !e2 = ?\ art myself3 ,k do? *a9 to !e1 p]nici\s bea/1 7,ent] ,m>ia unnotic$ by ,johannes47 ,*a9 m9e own self to !e1 p]nici\s bea/4 ,i will$ to flee f !e2 b ,i 0 bl9d1 ,bl9d$ by glam\r ( ! worlds1 :]eto ,my folly fl$ to free me f myself2 ,& n[ once m )9 my sightless s\l ,bl9d ?r\gh ^! words3 ',"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4' 7,f ! spr+s & rocks res\nds37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,,johannes3 7,z ?\gh com+ to himself1 sees ,m>ia4 ,! m$itation passes to ! plane ( inn] reality47 ,?\ "h1 my fri5d8 ,,m>ia3 ,i s\ght !e1 fri5d1 al?\gh ,i "k full well ,h[ com=t+ to !e is solitude1 ,:5 _m v>y+ ?\ghts ( _m m5 ,h flood$ o'er ?y s\l4 ,i also "k ,i _c by my pres5ce help my fri5d ,9 ?is d>k h\r ( /rife--yet ye>n+s vague ,drive me 9 ?is same mom5t unto !e2 ,:5 ,b5$ictus' words1 in/ead ( light1 ,su* griev\s sorr[ drew f ?y s\l's dep?s4 ,,johannes3 ,h[ com=t+ to me is solitude6 ,yea1 ,i h s\ght to f9d myself !re91 ,s (t5 :5 to labyr9?s ( ?\ght ,! joys & griefs ( m5 _h driv5 me4 ,b n[1 ,o fri5d1 t1 too1 is pa/ & gone4 ,:at ,b5$ictus' words at fir/ ar\s$ ,)9 my s\l1 & all t ,i liv$ ?r\gh ,:5 li/5+ to ! spee*es ( ^? m51 ,seems b inde$ a little ?+1 :5 ,i ,comp>e !re) ! /orm t solitude ,) sull5 brood+ ha? br\ght =? 9 me4 ,ah me6 :5 ,i recall ?is solitude6 ,x h\nd$ me into ! voids ( space1 ,& tore me f my v self 9 two4 ,)9 t s\l to :om ,i br\ght su* pa9 ,i /ood1 z ?\gh ,i 7 "s o!r man4 ,& !re ,i _h to suff] all ! pa9 ,( :i* ,i 0 myself ! primal cause4 ,ah cruel1 sombre1 fe>ful solitude ,?\ giv'/ me back unto myself inde$1 ,yet b to t]rify me ) ! sight ,( m9e own nature's fa?omless abyss4 ,man's f9al refuge ha? be5 lo/ to me3 ,i h be5 robb$ ( solitude itself4 ,,m>ia3 ,i mu/ repeat :at ,i h said be=e4 ,alone c ,b5$ictus succ\r !e2 ,only f him may we obta9 support ,& t firm basis :i* we bo? d lack4 ,= "k ?\ ?is3 ,i also c no m ,endure ! riddle ( my life1 unless ,8 g5tle guidance solve? x = me4 ,full (t5 h ,i kept be=e m9e eyes ,?is tru? sublime1 t o'er all life do? float ,appe>ance & deception if we grasp ,life's surface only 9 our moods ( ?\ght4 ,& o'er & o'er aga9 x spake to me3 ,?\ mu/ take k h[ illusion's veil ,weaves all ar\nd !e2 & h[ev] (t ,x may appe> to !e z tru?1 bew>e2 ,= evil fruitage may 9 tru? arise ,if ?\ %\ld/ try )9 ano!r's s\l ,to wake ! light t lives )9 ?yself4 ,yet 9 ! be/ "p ( my s\l ,i "k ,t ev5 ?is oppressive weight ( c>e ,:i* ha? o'er:elm$ ?y s\l1 de> fri5d ( m9e1 ,z ?\ did/ tread ) me ! pa? ( life1 ,is "p & p>cel ( ! ?orny way1 ,t leads unto ! light ( ,tru? itself4 ,?\ mu/ live ?r\gh ea* horror & al>m ,t c spr+ =? f va9 imag9+ ,be=e ! ,tru? 9 ess5ce /&s reveal$4 ,?us speaks ?y />2 & by t same /> spee* ,x do? appe> to me t we %all walk ,"o day unit$1 on ! _s-pa?s4 ,& yet :5e'er ,i seek to tread ^! pa?s ,black night do? spread a curta9 r\nd my sight4 ,& _m ?+s t ,i mu/ live & d1 ,:i* spr+ z fruitage f my "*1 ,int5sify ! d>kness ( t night4 ,we two mu/ seek cle> vision 9 t light1 ,:i*1 ?\gh x vani% = a :ile f sight1 ,c nev] be ext+ui%$ 9 ! s\l4 ,,johannes3 ,b !n1 ,m>ia1 do/ ?\ realize ,?r\gh :at my s\l ha? f\ght its way b n[8 ,a griev\s de/9y awaite? !e1 ,mo/ noble fri5d4 ,= well ,i "k t f> ,f ?y pure nature lies t pot5t =ce1 ,t ha? s :olly %att]$ me to bits4 ,?\ can/ asc5d ! cle>e/ heights ( tru?1 ,& scan ) /eadfa/ gaze life's tangl$ pa?2 ,& :e!r 9 ! d>kness or ! light ,?\ wilt reta9 ?9e own id5tity4 ,b me ea* mom5t may deprive ( ,self4 ,deep d[n ,i _h to dive )9 ! he>ts ,( ^? :o late reveal$ !mselves 9 spee*4 ,i foll[$ "o to cloi/]$ solitude1-- ,& 9 ano!r's s\l ,i li/5$ to ,felicia's fairy lore4 ,i 0 ea* "o2 ,only unto myself ,i seem$ z dead2 ,= ,i mu/ fa9 believe t primal life ,did spr+ f v ,no?+ness itself1 ,if x 7 "r to ent]ta9 ! hope1 ,t out ( t dread no?+ness 9 me ,a human be+ ev] c\ld arise4 ,= ,i am driv5 f fe> into ! d>k ,& f ! d>kness back aga9 to fe> ,by wisdom /or$ )9 ^! liv+ words3 ',"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,"k ?\ ?yself4' 7,f ! spr+s & rocks ! words res\nd37 ,"k ?\ ?yself1 ,o man4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #c ,a room = m$itation4 ,! backgr\nd is a great purple curta94 ,! sc5e is purple 9 col\r ) a l>ge yell[ p5tagonal lamp susp5d$ f ! ceil+4 ,no o!r furniture or ornam5ts are 9 ! room except ! lamp & "o *air4 ,b5$ictus1 ,johannes1 ,m>ia1 & a *ild4 ,,m>ia3 ,i br+ to !e ?is *ild :o ne$s "s ^w ,f out ?y m\?4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,my *ild1 h5ce=? ea* eve ,?\ %alt come unto me to he> ! ^w ,t %all fill full ?y s\l ere ?\ do/ tread ,! realm ( s\ls 9 sleep4 ,wilt ?\ d ?is8 ,,*ild3 ,mo/ gladly w ,i come4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?is v eve ,fill ?y s\l full ere sleep embrace? !e1 ,) /r5g? f ^! few words3 ',! p[]s ( light ,be> me al(t unto ! _s's home4' 7,m>ia leads ! *ild away47 ,,m>ia3 ,& n[1 t ?is *ild's de/9y do? fl[ ,h>moni\sly ?r\gh future days b5ea? ,! %ad[ ( ?y graci\s fa!rhood1 ,i too may claim my lead]'s k9d advice1 ,:o am its "m1 n by bond ( blood ,b ?r\gh ! mighty p[] ( de/9y4 ,= ?\ ha/ %[n to me ! way :]e9 ,i _h to guide its foot/eps f t day1 ,:5 ,i discov]$ x be=e my door ,left by its unkn[n "m desolate4 ,& wond]-work+ prov$ !mselves ^? rules ,:]eby ?\ made/ me tra9 my fo/]-*ild4 ,all p[]s1 t deep 9 body & 9 s\l ,lay hidd51 issu$ =? to light & life3 ,cle> pro( x 0 t all ?y c\nsell+ ,sprang f ! realm :i* %elt]$ ?is *ild's s\l ,be=e x built its body's cov]+4 ,we saw ! hopes ( manhood blossom =? ,& radiate m brightly ea* new day2 ,?\ do/ "k well h[ h>d x 0 = me ,to ga9 ! *ild's affection1 at ! fir/4 ,x grew up 'nea? my c>e1 & yet n\ght else ,save habit *a9$ its s\l at fir/ to m9e4 ,x only realiz$ & felt t ,i ,gave x ! nurture & ! food t s]v$ ,! ne$s ( body & ! gr[? ( s\l4 ,!n came ! "t :5 9 ! *ild-l he>t ,!re dawn$ ! love = h] :o fo/]$ x4 ,an out] incid5t br\ght =? ?is *ange-- ,! visit ( ! se]ess to our gr\p4 ,gladly ! *ild did g ab\t ) h] ,& soon did le>n full _m a beaute\s ^w ,/eep$ 9 ! my/ic *>m t grac$ h] spee*4 ,!n came ! mom5t :5 h] ec/asy ,desc5d$ on our fri5d ) magic p[]4 ,! *ild c\ld see h] eyes' /range sm\ld]+ light1 ,&1 t]rifi$ unto its vital core1 ,! "y s\l dawn$ to consci\sness ( self4 ,9 h] dismay %e fl$ unto m9e arms2 ,& f t h\r did gr[ h] love = me4 ,s9ce t same "t %e do? accept f me ,! gifts ( life ) h] full consci\sness ,n ) bl9d in/9ct3 aye1 & s9ce t day ,:5 ?is "y he>t fir/ quiv]$ into w>m?1 ,:5e'er h] gaze met m9e ) lov+ glance1 ,?y wisdom's treasures ( _! fruitage fail$1 ,& mu* already ripe ha? )]$ up4 ,i saw appe> 9 h] ^? tok5s /range ,t prov$ s t]rible unto my fri5d4 ,a d>k enigma am ,i to myself1 ,& gr[ /ill d>k]4 ,?\ wilt n d5y ,to solve = me life's fe>ful que/ion+s8 ,:y d ,i ?us de/roy bo? fri5d & *ild1 ,:5 ,i 9 love approa* my "w ) !m ,to give !m k ( t _s-lore ,:i* 9 my s\l ,i "k to be ! good8 ,(t ha/ ?\ taught me ?is exalt$ tru?-- ',illusion's veil o'erspreads life's surfaces'-- ,yet mu/ ,i see ) great] cl>ity ,:y ,i mu/ be> ?is heavy de/9y1 ,t seems s cruel & :i* works su* h>m4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,)9 our circle !re is =m$ a knot ,( ?reads t ,k>ma sp9s _w-fa%ion+4 ,?y suff]+s1 my fri5d are l9ks 9 *a9s1 ,=g$ by ! h& ( de/9y1 :]eby ,! de$s ( gods unite ) human lives4-- ,:5 9 life's pilgrimage ,i _h atta9$ ,t rank :i* grant$ me ! dignity ,to s]ve ) c\nsel 9 ! _s-sph]es1 ,a godlike ,be+ did draw nigh to me1 ,:o w\ld desc5d into ! realms ( e>?1 ,& dwell !re1 veil$ 9 =m ( fle%1 z man4 ,= j at ?is "o turn+-po9t ( "t ,! ,k>ma ( mank9d made ?is dem&4 ,= ea* great /ep 9 _w-developm5t ,is only possible :5 gods d /oop ,to l9k !mselves ) human de/9y4 ,& ?is new _s-sight t ne$s mu/ gr[ ,& g]m9ate h5ce=? 9 s\ls ( m5 ,c only be unfold$ :5 a god ,do? plant ! se$ )9 "s human he>t4 ,my task x 0 to f9d t human s\l ,:i* wor?y seem$ to take )9 itself ,! p[]ful ,se$ ( ,god4 ,i _h to jo9 ,! de$ ( heav5 to "s human lot4 ,my _s's eye !n s\ght1 & fell on !e4 ,?y c\rse ( life _h fitt$ !e to be ,! m$iator 9 salvation's "w4 ,?r\gh _m =m] lives ?\ had/ acquir$ ,receptiv5ess = all ! greate/ ?+s ,t human he>ts c e'er exp]i5ce4 ,)9 ?y t5d] s\l ?\ did/ br+ =?1 ,z _s h]itage1 ! noble gift ,( beauty1 jo9$ to virtue's l(tie/ claim3 ,& t :i* ?9e et]nal ,self _h =m$ ,& br\ght to be+ ?r\gh ?y bir? on e>? ,did rea* ripe fruitage :5 ?y ye>s 7 few4-- ,too soon ?\ did/ n scale /eep _s-heights2 ,nor grew ?y ye>n+ = ! _s-l& ,be=e ?\ had/ ! full enjoym5t kn[n ,( h>mless pleasures 9 ! _w ( s5se4 ,ang] & love ?y s\l did le>n to "k ,:5 ?y ?\ghts dwelt yet f> f _s-life4 ,nature 9 all h] beauty to enjoy1 ,& pluck ! fruits ( art1--^! did/ ?\ /rive ,to make ?y life's sole cont5t & its weal?4 ,m]ry ?y laught]1 z a *ild c laugh ,:o ha? n kn[n z yet life's %ad[$ fe>s4 ,& ?us ?\ le>n'd/ to und]/& life's joy1 ,& m\rn its sadness1 ea* 9 its own "t1 ,be=e ?y dawn+ consci5ce grew to seek ,( sorr[ & ( happ9ess ! cause4 ,a rip5$ fruit ( _m lives t s\l1 ,t ent]s e>?'s doma9s1 & %[s su* moods4 ,its *ildlike nature is ! blossom+ ,& n ! gr\nd-root ( its "*4 ,& su* a s\l alone 0 ,i to *oose ,z m$iator = ! ,god1 :o s\ght ,! p[] to "w )9 our human _w4 ,& n[ ?\ le>ne/ t ?y nature mu/ ,trans=m itself into its opposite1 ,:5 x fl[s =? to o!r human s\ls4 ,! _s 9 !e rip5s :atsoe'er ,9 human nature c atta9 ! realm ,( va/ et]nity2 & mu* x slays ,t is b "p ( transitory realms4 ,& yet ! sacrifices ( su* dea?s ,are b ! se$s ( immortality1 ,all t :i* blossoms =? f dea? bel[ ,mu/ gr[ unto ! high] life above4 ,,m>ia3 ,e'en s x is ) me4 ,?\ giv'/ me light3 ,b light t do? deprive me ( my sight1 ,& sund] me f m9e own self 9 twa94 ,!n d ,i seem "s _s's in/rum5t ,no long] ma/] ( myself4 ,no m ,d ,i endure t er/:ile =m ( m9e ,:i* only is a mask & n ! tru?4 ,,johannes3 ,o fri5d1 :at ails !e8 ,vani%$ is ! light ,t fill$ ?9e eye3 z m>ble is ?y frame4 ,i grasp ?9e h& & f9d x cold z dea?4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,my son1 full _m trials h come to !e2 ,& n[ ?\ /&'/ be=e life's h>de/ te/4 ,?\ see/ ! c>nal cov]+ ( ?y fri5d2 ,b h] true self do? float 9 _s-sph]es ,be=e m9e eyes4 ,,johannes3 ,see6 ,h] lips move2 %e speaks4 ,,m>ia3 ,?\ gav'/ me cle>ness2 yet ?is cle>ness ?r[s ,a veil ( d>kness r\nd on e side4 ,i curse ?y cle>ness2 & ,i curse !e too1 ,:o did/ make tool ( me = weird wild arts ,:]eby ?\ will$/ to deceive mank9d4 ,no d\bt at any mom5t hi!rto ,_h cross$ my m9d ( heights ?y _s rea*$2 ,b n[ "o s+le mom5t do? suffice ,to te> all fai? 9 !e f out my he>t4 ,^? _s-be+s ?\ art subject to1 ,i n[ mu/ recognize z helli% fi5ds4 ,o!rs ,i _h to mislead & deceive ,because at fir/ ,i 0 deceiv$ by !e4-- ,b ,i w flee unto dim di/ances1 ,:]e n a s\nd ( !e %all rea* m9e e>s2 ,yet ne> en\gh t ?y s\l may be rea*$ ,by bitt] curses fram$ by ^! my lips4 ,= ?\ did/ rob my blood ( all its fire1 ,t ?\ might/ sacrifice to ?y false god ,t :i* 0 rightly m9e & m9e alone4 ,b n[ ?is same blood's fire %all !e consume4 ,?\ made/ me tru/ 9 va9 imag9+s2 ,& t ?is might be s1 ?\ fir/ did/ make ,a pictur$ falsehood ( my v self4 ,(t5 _h ,i to m>k h[ 9 my s\l ,ea* de$ & ?\ght turn$ to its opposite2 ,s n[ do? turn :at once 0 love = !e1 ,into ! fire ( wild & bitt] hate4 ,?r\gh all worlds w ,i seek to f9d t fire ,:i* c consume !e4 ,see--,i cur--,ah--woe6 ,,johannes3 ,:o speake? "h8 ,i d n see my fri5d4 ,i he> in/ead "s gruesome be+ speak4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?y fri5d's s\l hov]s 9 ! heights above4 ,only h] mortal image ha? %e left ,"h ) u3 & :]e'er a human =m ,is f\nd b]eft ( s\l1 !re is ! room ,s\ght by ! enemy1 ! foe ( good1 ,to ent] into realms p]ceptible1 ,& f9d "s c>nal =m ?r\gh :i* to speak4 ,j su* an adv]s>y spake e'en n[1 ,:o w\ld de/roy ! "w impos$ on me ,= !e1 my son1 & millions yet unborn4 ,7 ,i to deem ^! wild ana!mas1 ,:i* our fri5d's %ell did utt] "h & n[1 ,aught else b "s grim tempt]'s cunn+ skill1 ,?\ dur/ n foll[ m my lead]%ip4 ,! enemy ( ,good /ood by my side1 ,& ?\ ha/ se5 into ! d>kness plung$ ,all t is temporal ( t de> =m1 ,= :om1 my son1 ?y :ole love burns & gl[s4 ,s9ce ?r\gh h] m\? spirits spake (t to !e1 ,! ,k>ma ( ! _w c\ld n re/ra9 ,hell's pr9ces also speak+ ?us ?r\gh h]4 ,fir/ n[ ?\ may/ seek h] v s\l ,& le>n h] nature's inmo/ v]ity2 ,= %e %all =m = !e ! prototype ,( t new high] type ( humank9d ,to :i* ?\ do/ aspire to raise ?yself4 ,h] s\l ha? so>$ al(t to _s-heights1 ,:]e e man may f9d 8 be+'s s\rce ,:i* spr+s to life & fulness 9 himself4 ,?\ too %alt foll[ h] to _s-realms1 ,& see h] 9 ! ,temple ( ! ,sun4-- ,)9 ?is circle !re is =m$ a knot ,( ?reads :i* ,k>ma sp9s1 _w fa%ion+4 ,my son1 s9ce ?\ ha/ n[ atta9$ ?us f>1 ,?\ %alt /ill fur!r pi]ce beyond ! veil4 ,i see ?y /> 9 fulle/ spl5d\r %9e4 ,!re is no place )9 ! realm ( s5se ,= /rife1 su* z m5 wage :5 !y d /rive ,& /ruggle aft] consecration's gift4 ,! riddles :i* arise 9 worlds ( s5se ,mu/ f9d solution ?r\gh man's intellect2 ,f all t s5se eng5d]s 9 man's he>t ,:e!r ( love or hate1 :ate'er its s\rce ,& h[soev] direful its results1 ,! _s-seek] ne$s mu/ /& alo(1 ,:5ce he may ca/ 8 glance all undi/urb$ ,^u ! fields :]e su* cont5tions rage4 ,= him mu/ o!r p[]s unfold !mselves ,:i* are n f\nd ^u t field ( /rife4 ,s did/ ?\ ne$ to fight to prove ?y s\l ,9 combat su* z comes to him alone1 ,:o f9ds himself acc\tr$ = su* p[]s ,z d belong unto ! _s-worlds4 ,& _h ^! p[]s f\nd !e n ripe en\gh ,to tread ! pa? ( k1 !y ne$s mu/ ,h maim$ ?y p[]s ( feel+1 ere ?\ d>$/ ,to "k all t :i* n[ is kn[n to !e4 ,! ,be+s1 :o c gaze into _w-dep?s1 ,lead on ^? m51 :o w\ld atta9 ! heights1 ,fir/ to t summit :5ce x may be %[n ,:e!r !re lies 9 !m ! p[] to rea* ,to consci\s sight )9 ! _s-realms4 ,& ^? 9 :om su* p[]s are f\nd to lie ,are /raightway f ! _w ( s5se set free4 ,! o!rs all mu/ wait _! season due4 ,b ?\1 ?\ ha/ pres]v$ ?y ,self1 my son1 ,:5 ,p[]s on high /irr$ to its dep?s ?y s\l4 ,& pot5t spirits %r\d$ !e ) fe>4 ,"r p[]fully ?y ,self ha? f\ght its way ,e'en ?\gh ?y v he>t 0 torn by d\bts1 ,t will$ to ?ru/ !e into d>ksome dep?s4 ,true pupil ( my tea*+ ha/ ?\ be51 ,fir/ s9ce t h\r1 s fraught ) fate = !e1 ,:5 ?\ did/ le>n to d\bt ?y v self1 ,& gave/ up ?yself z :olly lo/1 ,b yet ! /r5g? )9 !e held !e fa/4 ,!n might ,i give !e ( my treasur$ /ore ,( wisdom1 :5ce to draw ! /r5g? to /& ,assur$1 e'en :5 mi/ru/+ ?9e own self4 ,su* 0 ! wisdom :i* ?\ did/ atta9 ,m /eadfa/ ?an ! fai? once giv5 to !e4 ,ripe wa/ ?\ f\nd1 & ?\ may'/ be set free4 ,?y fri5d ha? gone be=e & waits = !e ,9 _s-worlds1 & ?\ %alt f9d h] !re4 ,i c b add ?is guidance = !e n[3 ,k9dle ! full p[] ( ?y s\l ) words ,:i* ?r\gh my lips %all grant to !e ! key ,to _s-heights1 & !y w lead !e on ,:5 naught else leads1 t eyes ( s5se c see4 ,receive !m 9 ! fulness ( ?y he>t3 ',! weav+ ess5ce ( ! light /reams =? ,?r\gh dep?s ( space to fill ! _w ) light2 ,love's grace do? w>m ! c5turies ( "t ,to call =? revelation ( all worlds4 ,& _s-mess5g]s come =? to w$ ,! weav+ ess5ce ( creative light ,) revelation ( ! s\ls ( m53 ,& t man1 :o c w$ to bo? ( ^! ,8 v ,self1 he lives 9 _s-heights4' ,o spirits1 :o are visible to man1 ,quick5 ) life ! s\l ( ?is our son3 ,f inmo/ dep?s may !re /ream =? = him ,t :i* c fill 8 s\l ) _s-light4 ,f inmo/ dep?s may !re res\nd = him ,t :i* c :olly wake 9 him 8 ,self ,to ! creative joy ( _s-life4 ,a ,,_s-,,voice ,,beh9d ,,! ,,/age3 ,to f\nts ( worlds primeval ,8 surg+ ?\ghts d m\nt2-- ,:at z %ad[ he ha? ?\ght ,:at z fancy he ha? liv$ ,so>s up beyond ! _w ( =m & %ape2 ,on ^: fulness pond]+ ,mank9d 9 %ad[ dreams1 ,o'er ^: fulness gaz+ =? ,mank9d 9 fancy lives4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #d ,a l&scape1 :i* seeks to express ! _w ( s\ls by its *>act]i/ic peculi>ities4 ,ent] ,lucif] & ,ahriman4 ,johannes is se5 at ! "r ( ! /age 9 deep m$itation4 ,:at foll[s is exp]i5c$ by him 9 m$itation4 ,,lucif]3 ,o man1 "k ?\ ?yself2 ,o man1 feel me4 ,f _s guidance1 ?\ ha/ fre$ ?yself1 ,& into e>?'s free realms ?\ ha/ escap$4 ,mid/ e>?'s confusion ?\ did/ seek to prove ,?9e own exi/5ce2 & to f9d ?yself ,0 ?y rew>d1 & 0 ?y de/9y4 ,me did/ ?\ f9d3 = c]ta9 spirits will$ ,to ca/ a veil be=e ! eyes ( s5se2 ,:i* veil ,i r5t 9 twa94 ,^? spirits will$ ,to foll[ out _! own desires 9 !e2 ,b ,i gave !e self-w & foil$ _! aim4 ,o man1 "k ?\ ?yself2 ,o man1 feel me4 ,,ahriman3 ,o man1 "k me2 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4 ,?\ ha/ escap$ f d>k5$ _s-realms ,& ?\ ha/ f\nd aga9 ! e>?'s pure light1 ,s n[ f my sure gr\nd dr9k /r5g? & tru?4 ,i make e>? h>d & fa/4 ,! spirits will$ ,to snat* away f !e ! *>m ( s5se2 ,:i* *>m ,i weave = !e 9 light cond5s$4 ,i lead !e unto true reality4 ,o man1 "k me2 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4 ,,lucif]3 ,"t 0 n :5 ?\ did/ n live ?r\gh me4 ,i foll[$ !e ?r\gh\t ! c\rse ( life1 ,& 0 p]mitt$ to be/[ on !e ,/rong p]sonal traits & joy 9 ?9e own self4 ,,ahriman3 ,"t 0 n :5 ?\ did/ n me behold4 ,?y mortal eyes saw me 9 all e>?'s gr[?2 ,i 0 p]mitt$ to %9e =? = !e ,9 beauty pr\d & revelation's bliss4 ,,johannes 7to himself 9 m$itation73 ,?is is ! sign z ,b5$ictus told4 ,be=e ! _w ( s\ls /& ^! two p[]s3 ,! "o1 z ,tempt]1 lives )9 ! s\l2 ,! o!r do? obscure ! sight ( man ,:5 he directe? x to outw>d ?+s4 ,! "o took on ! woman's =m e'en n[1 ,to br+ ! s\l's illusions 'nea? my gaze2 ,! o!r may be f\nd 9 ev]y?+4 7,ent] ! ,_s ( ! ,elem5ts ) ,capesius & ,/rad]1 :om he has br\ght to ! e>?'s surface f ! e>?'s dep?s4 ,!y are conceiv$ z s\ls look+ out ^u ! e>?'s surface4 ,! ,_s ( ! ,elem5ts is ag$ & /&s erect ^u a sph]e4 ,capesius & ,/rad] are 9 a/ral g>b2 ! =m]1 ?\gh ! old] man ( ! two 9 ye>s1 "h appe>s ! y\ng]4 ,he we>s blue robes ( v>i\s %ades1 ,/rad] we>s br[n & yell[47 ,,_s3 ,s h ye rea*$ ! spot ye long$ to f9d4 ,x prov$ inde$ a heavy c>e to me1 ,to grant y\r wi%4 ,spirits & elem5ts ,did rage 9 mad wild /orm :5 _! doma9 ,i _h to ent] ) y\r ess5ces4 ,y\r m9ds oppos$ ! rul+ ( my p[]s4 ,,capesius3 ,my/]i\s ,be+1 :o art ?\1 :o ha/ ,br\ght me to ?is fair realm ?r\gh _s-sph]es8 ,,_s3 ,! s\l ( man may only look on me1 ,:5e'er ! s]vice :i* ,i r5d] x ,ha? be5 a*iev$4 ,!n may x trace my p[]s ,?r\gh all ! mov+ sequ5ces ( "t4 ,,capesius3 ,x matt]s little to me to enquire ,:at _s l$ me hi!r to ?is place4 ,i feel life's p[]s revive 9 ?is new l&1 ,^: light do? seem to wid5 m9e own brea/2 ,9 my pulse-beat ,i feel ! :ole _w's might2 ,& premonitions ( exalt$ de$s ,?rill 9 my he>t4 ,i w translate 9 words ,! revelation ( ?is beaute\s realm1 ,t ha? refre%$ me 9 su* wondr\s wise2 ,& s\ls ( m5 %all bloom1 z *oice/ fl[]s ,if ,i c p\r into _! life on e>? ,! inspiration fl[+ f ^! f\nts4 7,lightn+ & ?und] f ! dep?s & heights47 ,,/rad]3 ,:y quake ! dep?s1 & :y res\nd ! heights8 ,:5 hope's "y dreams surge upw>d 9 ! s\l8 7,lightn+ & ?und]47 ,,_s3 ,to human dream]s words ( hope l ^! ,s\nd pr\d inde$2 b 9 ! dep?s ( e>? ,! va9 illusions ( mi/ak5 ?\ght ,awake su* ?und]\s e*oes ev]more4 ,ye mortals he> !m only at ^? times ,:5 ye draw nigh to my doma94 ,ye ?9k ,to build exalt$ temples unto ,tru?1 ,& yet y\r "w's effects d b un*a9 ,/orm-spirits 9 primeval dep?s ( e>?4 ,nay m1 ! spirits mu/ de/roy :ole worlds1 ,t de$s ye d 9 realms :]e "t ha? sway ,may n cause deva/ation & cold dea? ,?r\gh all ! ages ( et]nity4 ,,/rad]3 ,s ^! et]nal ages mu/ reg>d ,z empty fantasy :at seems ! tru? ,to man's be/ obs]vation & rese>*4 7,lightn+ & ?und]47 ,,_s3 ,an empty fantasy1 s long z s5se ,do? only se>* 9 realms to _s /range4 ,,/rad]3 ,?\ may'/ well call a dream] t fri5d's s\l ,:i* 9 ! joy ( y\? its goal do? set ,) su* a noble /r5g? & high desire2 ,b 9 m9e ag$ he>t ?y words fall dead ,despite _! summon$ aid ( ?und]\s /orms4 ,i tore myself f cloi/]$ quietude ,to pr\d a*ievem5t 9 my se>* = tru?4 ,9 life's /orm-c5tres _m a ye> ,i /ood1 ,& m5 _h confid5ce 9 me1 & :at ,i taught !m ?r\gh my deep /rong s5se = tru?4 7,lightn+ & ?und]47 ,,_s3 ',tis fitt+ = !e to confess t none ,c tell :5ce /ream ! f\nta9s ( our ?\ght1 ,nor :]e ! fundam5ts ( ,be+ lie4 ,,/rad]3 ,oh ?is same spee*1 :i* 9 y\?'s hopeful days ,s (t ) *ill p]si/5ce pi]c$ my s\l ,:5 ?\ght-f\ndations quak$1 :i* once seem$ firm6 7,lightn+ & ?und]47 ,,_s3 ,if ?\ do/ fail to ga9 ! victory ,o'er me ) ^? blunt weapons ( ?y ?\ght ,?\ art a fleet+ phantom1 no?+ m1 ,=m$ by ?9e own delud$ imag]y4 ,,/rad]3 ,s soon aga9 su* gruesome spee* f !e6 ,?is too ,i he>d be=e 9 m9e own s\l1 ,:5 once a se]ess ?reat5+ly did wi% ,to wreck ! firm f\ndations ( my ?\ght ,& make me feel ! %>p dread /+ ( d\bt4 ,b t is pa/1 & ,i defy ?y might1 ,?\ ag$ rogue1 s cunn+ly conceal$ ,b5ea? a mask devis$ by ?9e own self ,to c\nt]feit ! =m ( nature's "l4 ,reason w ov]?r[ !e1 o!rwise ,?an ?\ do/ ?9k1 :5 once %e is en?ron$ ,^u ! pr\d heights ( ! m9d ( man4 ,z mi/ress w %e reign assur$ly ,n z "s h&maid5 9 nature's realm4 ,,_s3 ,! _w is ord]$ s1 t e act ,requires a l reaction3 unto y ,i gave ! self2 ye owe me my rew>d4 ,,capesius3 ,i w myself create f m9e own s\l ,! _s c\nt]p>t ( ?+s ( s5se4 ,& :5 at l5g? all nature /&s trans=m$1 ,idealiz$ ?r\gh man's creative "w1 ,h] mirror$ =m %all be rew>d en\gh2 ,& !n if ?\ do/ feel ?yself ak9 ,to t great "m ( all worlds1 & spr+'/ ,f dep?s :]e _w-creat+ =ces reign4 ,!n let my w1 :i* lives 9 head & brea/1 ,inspir+ me to aim at highe/ goals1 ,be ?y rew>d = de$s done at my be/4 ,?y help ha? rais$ me f dull s5tim5t ,to ?\ght's pr\d heights--,let ?is be ?y rew>d6 7,lightn+ & ?und]47 ,,_s3 ,ye well c see1 h[ little y\r bold words ,be> weight 9 my doma93 !y d b loose ,! /orm1 & r\se ! elem5ts to wra?1 ,fi]ce adv]s>ies ( ! ord]$ _w4 ,,capesius3 ,take !n ?9e own rew>d :]e't may be f\nd4 ,! impulse t do? drive ! s\ls ( m5 ,to seek true _s-heights )9 !mselves ,set _! own measure1 _! own ord] make4 ,creation 7 n possible = man ,if o!rs wi%$ to claim :at he _h made4 ,! song t trills f out ! l9net's ?roat ,suffice? = itself2 & s do? man ,f9d 8 rew>d1 :5 9 8 fa%ion+ "w ,he do? exp]i5ce creative joy4 7,lightn+ & ?und]47 ,,_s3 ,x is n meet to grudge me my rew>d4 ,if ye y\rselves _c repay ! debt ,!n tell ! woman1 :o end[$ y\r s\ls ,) p[]1 t %e mu/ pay in/ead ( y4 7,exit47 ,,capesius3 ,he ha? dep>t$4 ,:i!r turn we n[8 ,to f9d our way aright 9 ^! new worlds ,mu/ be1 x seems1 ! fir/ c>e ( our m9ds4 ,,/rad]3 ,to foll[ confid5tly ! be/ way1 ,t we c f9d1 ) sure b cauti\s tread1 ,me?9ks %\ld lead u /raightway to ! goal4 ,,capesius3 ,r %\ld we be sil5t z to goal4 ,t we %all f9d if we c\rage\sly ,obey ! impulse ( our inn] self1 ,:i* speaks ?us to me3 ',let ,tru? be ?y guide2 ,may x unfold /rong p[]s )9 ?yself ,& m\ld !m ) ! noble/ fa%ion+ ,9 all t ?\ %alt d2 !n mu/ ?y /eps ,atta9 _! de/9$ goal1 nor g a/ray4' ,,/rad]3 ,yet f ! outset x 7 be/ our /eps ,%\ld n lack consci\sness ( _! true goal1 ,if we w\ld be ( s]vice unto m5 ,& give !m happ9ess4 ,he1 :o w\ld s]ve ,himself alone1 do? foll[ 8 own he>t2 ,b he1 :o wills to s]ve 8 neighb\r be/1 ,mu/ surely "k 8 life's necessities4 7,! ,o!r ,m>ia1 also 9 s\l-=m1 em]ges f ! rocks1 cov]$ ) preci\s /ones47 ,b see6 ,:at wondr\s be+'s ?is8 ,x seems ,z ?\gh ! rock itself did give x bir?4 ,f :at _w-dep?s d su* /range =ms arise8 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,i wre/ my way ?r\gh solid rock1 & fa9 ,w\ld clo! 9 human spee* its v w2 ,i s5se e>?'s ess5ce & ) human bra9s ,i fa9 w\ld ?9k ! ?\ghts ( ,e>? h]self4 ,i brea! ! pure/ airs ( life1 & %ape ,! p[]s ( air to feel z do? mank9d4 ,,/rad]3 ,!n ?\ can/ n assi/ u 9 our que/4 ,= f> al(t f m5's endeav\r /&s ,all t :i* mu/ abide 9 nature's realm4 ,,capesius3 ,lady1 ,i l ?y words1 & ,i w\ld fa9 ,translate ?y =m ( spee* into m9e own4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,mo/ /range do? seem to me y\r pr\d disc\rse4 ,=1 :5 ye speak y\rselves1 unto m9e e> ,y\r words d s\nd incompreh5sible4 ,b if ,i let !m e*o 9 my he>t ,& issue 9 new =m1 !y spread abroad ,o'er all t lives 9 m9e environm5t ,& solve = me its hidd5 my/]y4 ,,capesius3 ,if ?is1 ?y spee*1 be true1 !n *ange = u ,into ?y spee*1 t nature may respond1 ,! "q ( ! true wor? ( our lives4 ,= we ourselves lack p[] to "q ?us ,great "m nature t we may be he>d4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,9 me ye only see an humble maid ,( t high _s-be+1 :i* do? dwell ,9 t doma9 :5ce ye h j n[ come4 ,!re ha? be5 giv5 me ?is field ( "w ,t "h 9 l[l9ess ,i may %[ =? ,h] mirror$ image unto mortal s5se4 ,,capesius3 ,s !n we h j fl$ f t doma9 ,:]e9 our long+ c\ld h be5 assuag$8 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,& if ye d n f9d aga9 ! way1 ,y\r ef=ts %all be fruitless ev]more4 ,,capesius3 ,!n tell :i* way w lead u back aga94 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,!re are two ways4 ,if my p[] do? atta9 ,to its full height all creatures ( my realm ,%all gl[ 9 beauty's mo/ respl5d5t dress4 ,f rocks & wat]1 glitt]+ light %all /ream1 ,& col\rs 9 _! ri*e/ fulness fla% ,on all ar\nd1 :il/ life 9 m]ry mood ,%all fill ! air ) joy\s h>mony4 ,& if y\r s\ls d !n b /eep !mselves ,9 m9e own be+'s pure/ ec/asy ,on _s p9ions %all ye w+ y\r way ,unto primeval orig9s ( worlds4 ,,/rad]3 ,t is no way = u2 = 9 our spee* ,we "n su* talk m]e fancy1 & we fa9 ,w\ld seek firm gr\nd1 n fly to cl\d-capp$ heights4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,!n if ye wi% to tread ! o!r pa? ,ye mu/ =?) r5\nce y\r _s's pride4 ,ye mu/ =get :at reason do? comm&1 ,& let ! t\* ( nature conqu] y4 ,9 y\r m5's brea/s let y\r *ild-s\l h sway1 ,artless & undi/urb$ by ?\ght's dim %ades4 ,s w ye surely rea* ,life's f\nta9-head1 ,al?\gh unconsci\s ( ! way ye g4 7,exit47 ,,capesius3 ,?us are we ?r[n back on ourselves alone1 ,& h b le>n$ t x behove? u ,to "w & wait 9 pati5ce = ! fruit ,t future days %all rip5 f our "w4 ,,johannes 7speak+1 z x 71 f 8 m$itation4 ,"h & 9 ! foll[+ sc5e he sits aside & takes no "p 9 ! action73 ,s d ,i f9d )9 ! s\l's doma9 ,^? m5 :o are already kn[n to me3 ,fir/ he :o told u ( ,felicia's tales1 ,?\gh "h ,i saw him 9 8 y\?ful prime2 ,& also he :o 9 8 y\ng] days ,_h *os5 = 8 life mona/ic rule1 ,z "s old man did he appe>3 ) !m ,!re /ood ! ,_s ( ! ,elem5ts4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #e ,a subt]ranean rock-temple3 a hidd5 site ( ! ,my/]ies ( ! ,hi]ophants4 ,at ! "r ( ! /age1 ,johannes is se5 9 deep m$itation4 ,,b5$ictus 79 ! ,ea/73 ,ye1 :o h be5 companions unto me ,9 ! doma9 ( ev]la/+ life1 ,"h 9 y\r mid/ ,i /& today to ask ,! help ( :i* ,i /& 9 ne$ f y ,to weave ! ?read ( de/9y = "o1 ,:o f our mid/ mu/ n[ receive ! light4 ,?r\gh bitt] trials & sorr[s ha? he pass$1 ,& ha? 9 deepe/ agony ( s\l ,prep>$ ! way to consecrate 8 life ,& ?us atta9 to k ( ! tru?4 ,accompli%$ n[ ! task assign$ to me1 ,z _s-mess5g]1 to br+ to m5 ,! treasur$ wisdom ( ?is temple's %r9e4 ,& n[1 ye bre?r51 'tis y\r sacr$ task ,to br+ my "w to full accompli%m5t4 ,i %[$ to him ! light t prov$ ! guide ,to 8 fir/ vision ( ! _s-_w1 ,b t ?is vision may be turn$ to tru? ,y\r "w mu/ ne$s be add$ unto m9e4 ,my words proce$ f m9e own m\? alone1 ,b ?r\gh y\r lips _w-spirits d s\nd =?4 ,,!odosius 79 ! ,s\?73 ,?us speaks ! p[] ( love1 :i* b9de? worlds ,& fille? be+s ) ! brea? ( life3-- ,let w>m? fl[ 9 8 he>t t he may grasp ,h[ by ! sacrific+ ( t va9 ,illusion ( 8 p]sonality ,he do? draw ne> ! _s ( ! _w4 ,8 sight f sleep ( s5se ?\ ha/ set free2 ,love's w>m? w wake ! _s 9 8 s\l3 ,8 ,self f c>nal cov]+ ?\ ha/ drawn2 ,& love itself w cry/allize 8 s\l ,t x may be a mirror to reflect ,all t do? happ5 9 ! _s-_w4 ,love too w give him /r5g? to feel himself ,a _s1 & w fa%ion ?us 8 e> ,t x c he> & "k ! _s-spee*4 ,,romanus 79 ! ,we/73 ,nor are my words ! revelation true ,( m9e own self4 ,?r\gh me ! _w-w speaks4 ,& s9ce ?\ ha/ ?us rais$ unto ! p[] ,to live 9 _s-realms ! man to !e ,entru/$1 n[ ?is p[] %all lead him =? ,beyond ! b\nds ( space & ends ( "t4 ,to ^? realms %all he pass :]e9 d "w ,creative spirits1 :o %all !re reveal ,!mselves to him2 dem&+ f him de$s2 ,& will+ly w he p]=m _! "w4 ,! purposes ( ,him :o m\lds ! worlds ,%all fill 8 s\l ) life2 !re too ! e>?'s ,primeval s\rces %all enspirit him2 ,_w pot5cies %all !re emp[] him2 ,! mights ( sph]es %all !re enlight5 him1 ,& rul]s ( ! worlds fill him ) fire4 ,,ret>dus 79 ! ,nor?73 ,f ! f\ndation ( ! _w ye h ,be5 =c$ to suff] me )9 y\r mid/4 ,s mu/ ye also to my words give e> ,9 y\r delib]ations "h today4 ,"s little "t mu/ surely yet elapse ,be=e ye c fulfil & br+ to pass ,:at ye h set =? 9 su* beaute\s words4 ,no sign z yet ha? come to u f e>? ,t %e do? long = new initiates4 ,s long z ?is spot1 :]e we c\ncil hold1 ,ha? n be5 trodd5 by ! feet ( ^? ,:o1 un9itiate /ill1 _c set free ,_! _s f realities ( s5se1 ,s long ! task is m9e to *eck y\r zeal4 ,fir/ mu/ !y br+ u message t ! e>? ,do? seem 9 ne$ ( revelations new4 ,= ?is cause hold ,i back y\r _s-light ,)9 ?is temple1 le/ x may br+ h>m ,in/ead ( heal? to s\ls t are n ripe4 ,out ( myself ,i give to man on e>? ,t faculty :i* lets ! tru?s ( s5se ,appe> to him ! highe/1 j s long ,z _s wisdom w\ld b bl9d 8 eyes4 ,nay m1 e'en su* belief may also lead ,him ne>] to ! _s1 = ! aims ,=m$ by 8 w may yet be guid$ "r ,?r\gh 8 bl9d ta/es & grop+s 9 ! d>k4 ,,romanus3 ,f ! f\ndation ( ! _w we h ,be5 =c$ to suff] !e )9 our mid/4 ,b n[ at l5g? ! "t ha? run its c\rse ,t 0 allott$ to su* "w z ?9e4 ,! _w-w 9 me feels t !y approa*-- 7,felix ,balde appe>s 9 8 e>?ly %ape3 ! ,o!r ,m>ia z a s\l-=m f out ( ! rock47 --,:o1 un9itiat$1 c release ,! _s f ! outw>d %[ ( s5se4 ,no m 'tis grant$ !e to *eck our /eps4 ,!y ne> our temple ( _! own free w ,& br+ to !e ?is message1 t !y wi% ,to help our _s lab\rs1 jo9$ ) u4 ,!y f\nd !mselves till n[ n yet prep>$ ,= union1 s9ce !y clung to t belief ,t se]%ip's p[] ) reason ne$s mu/ "p4 ,n[ h !y le>n$ :i!r mank9d is l$ ,by reason1 :i*1 :5 sev]$ f true sight1 ,do? err & w&] 9 ! dep?s ( worlds4 ,!y n[ w speak to !e ( fruits :i* ne$s ,mu/ rip5 ?r\gh ?y p[] 9 human s\ls4 ,,ret>dus3 ,ye1 :o unconsci\sly h =w>d$ ,my "w till n[1 ye %all /ill fur!r help-- ,if ye w di/ant keep f all t do? ,belong unto my realm & t alone4 ,!n %all ye surely f9d a place res]v$ ,= y to "w z hi!rto ye work$4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,a p[]1 :i* speaks f v dep?s ( e>? ,unto my _s1 ha? comm&$ me ,to come unto ?is consecrat$ place2 ,s9ce x desires to speak to y ?r\gh me ,( all its bitt] sorr[ & its ne$4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,my fri5d1 !n tell u n[ h[ ?\ ha/ le>n$ ,! woe ( _w-dep?s 9 ?9e own s\l's core4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,! light t %9es 9 m5 z le>n+'s fruit ,mu/ ne$s give n\ri%m5t to all ! p[]s ,:i* s]ve _w-cycles 9 ! e>?'s d>k dep?s4 ,already n[ a long "t h !y />v$ ,well-nigh entirely reft ( su/5ance4 ,= t :i* gr[s today 9 human bra9s ,do? only s]ve ! surface ( ! e>?1 ,& do? n p5etrate unto its dep?s4 ,"s /range new sup]/ition n[ do? haunt ,^! clev] human heads3 !y turn _! gaze ,unto primeval orig9s ( e>? ,& w b spectres see 9 _s sph]es1 ,?\ght out by va9 illusion ( ! s5se4 ,a m]*ant surely w\ld consid] mad ,a pur*as]1 :o w\ld speak ?us to him3 ',! mi/s & fog1 t hov] 9 ! vale1 ,c c]ta9ly cond5se to solid gold2 ,& ) su* gold ?\ %alt be paid ?y debt4' ,! m]*ant w n will+ly await ,to h 8 ducats made f fog & mi/2 ,& yet :5e'er 8 s\l do? ?ir/ to f9d ,solution ( ! riddles set by life1 ,%\ld sci5ce (f] him su* paym5ts !n ,= _s ne$s & debts1 "r will+ly ,w he accept :ole sol> sy/ems built ,out ( primeval _w-conta9+ fog4 ,! tea*] :o discov]s "s unkn[n ,& luckless layman1 :o ha? rais$ himself ,to heights ( sci5ce or ( s*ol>%ip ,)\t exam9ations duly pass$ ,w surely ?reat5 him ) 8 contempt4 ,yet sci5ce do? n d\bt t )\t pro( ,& )\t _s e>?'s primeval bea/s ,c\ld *ange !mselves to m5 by _! own p[]4 ,,!odosius3 ,:y do/ ?\ n ?yself reveal to m5 ,! s\rces ( ?is light ( ?9e1 :i* /reams ,=? f ?y s\l ) su* respl5d5t ray8 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,a fancy-mong] & a man ( dreams ,!y call me1 :o are well-dispos$ to me3 ,b o!rs ?9k ( me z "s dull fool ,:o1 all untaught ( !m1 do? foll[ out ,8 own peculi> b5t ( fooli%ness4 ,,ret>dus3 ,?\ %['/ already h[ untaught ?\ art ,by ! simplicity ( ?is ?y spee*3 ,?\ do/ n "k t m5 ( sci5ce h ,suffici5t %rewdness to make j ! same ,objection to !mselves z unto !e4 ,& if !y make x n !y "k well :y4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,i "k full well t !y are %rewd en\gh ,to und]/& objections !y h made1 ,b n s %rewd z to believe 9 !m4 ,,!odosius3 ,:at mu/ we d t we may =?) give ,! p[]s ( e>? :at !y d ne$ s mu*8 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,s long z on ! e>? m5 only he$ ,su* m5 z ^!1 :o wi% n to recall ,_! _s's primal s\rce1 s long w />ve ,! m9]al =ces buri$ 9 e>?'s dep?s4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,i ga!r1 bro!r ,felix1 f ?y words1 ,t ?\ do/ ?9k ! "t ha? n[ expir$ ,:5 we did s]ve e>?'s purposes ! be/ ,?r\gh wisdom's light1 ourselves unconsecrate-- ,:5 we %[$ =? f roots 9 our own life ,! liv+ way ( _s & ( love4 ,9 !e ! spirits ( ! e>? arose ,to give !e light )\t ! lore ( books3 ,9 me did love hold sway1 ! love t dwells ,& works )9 ! life ( m5 on e>?4 ,& n[ we wi% to jo9 our bre?r5 "h1-- ,:o1 consecrate1 )9 ?is temple s]ve1-- ,& br+ =? fruitful "w 9 human s\ls4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,if ye unite y\r lab\r n[ ) u1 ,!n mu/ ! consecrat$ "w succe$4 ,! wisdom :i* ,i gave unto my son ,w surely blossom =? 9 him z p[]4 ,,!odosius3 ,if ye unite y\r lab\r n[ ) u1 ,!n mu/ ! ?ir/ = sacrifice arise4 ,& ?r\gh ! s\l life ( :oev] seeks ,! _s-pa?1 w brea! ! w>m? ( love4 ,,romanus3 ,if ye unite y\r lab\r n[ ) u1 ,!n mu/ ! fruits ( _s rip5 fa/4 ,de$s w spr+ up1 :i* ?r\gh ! _s's "w ,w blossom f y\r s\l's disciple%ip4 ,,ret>dus3 ,if !y unite _! lab\r n[ ) y ,:at %all become ( me8 ,my de$s w prove ,fruitless to ^? :o w\ld ! _s seek4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,!n wilt ?\ *ange into ?9e o!r self3 ,s9ce n[ ?\ ha/ accompli%$ all ?y "w4 ,,!odosius3 ,h5ce=? ?\ wilt live on 9 sacrifice ,if ?\ do/ freely sacrifice ?yself4 ,,romanus3 ,?\ wilt be> fruit on e>? 9 human de$s ,if ,i myself may t5d ! fruits = !e4 ,,johannes 7speak+ out ( 8 m$itation1 z 9 ! previ\s sc5e73 ,! bre?r5 9 ! temple %[$ !mselves ,to my s\l-sight1 resembl+ 9 _! =m ,m5 ^: appe>ance ,i already "k4 ,yet ,b5$ictus seem$ a _s too4 ,he :o /ood on 8 left seem$ l t man ,:o ?r\gh ! feel+s only w\ld draw nigh ,! _s-realms4 ,! ?ird resembl$ him1 ,:o do? b recognize ! p[]s ( life ,:5 !y %[ =? ?r\gh :eels & outw>d works4 ,! f\r? ,i d n "k4 ,! wife :o saw ,! _s's light aft] h] husb&'s dea?1 ,i recogniz$ 9 h] own inmo/ be+4 ,& ,felix ,balde came j z 9 life4 ,! curta9 falls sl[ly4 ,,sc5e #f ,sc5e ! same z ! ,f\r?4 7,! ,_s ( ! ,elem5ts /&s 9 ! same place47 ,,felicia3 ,?\ call$/ me4 ,:at w\ld/ ?\ he> ( me8 ,,_s3 ,two m5 did ,i pres5t unto ! e>? ,^: _s-p[]s 7 fructifi$ ?r\gh !e4 ,!y f\nd _! s\l's awak5+ 9 ?y words ,:5 m$itation dry _h lam$ !m bo?4 ,?y gifts to !m make !e my debtor too4 ,_! _s do? n ( itself suffice ,to r5d] full repaym5t unto me ,= all ! s]vice :i* ,i did = !m4 ,,felicia3 ,= _m ye>s "o ( ^! m5 did come ,to our small cottage1 t he might obta9 ,! /r5g? t l5t unto 8 words _! fire4 ,lat] he br\ght ! o!r ) him too2 ,& s !y two consum$ ! fruits1 ^: wor? ,0 !n unkn[n to me3 b little good ,did ,i receive f !m z recomp5se4 ,_! k9d ( k to our son !y gave1 ,) good int5t inde$1 b yet ! *ild ,f\nd n\ght !re9 b dea? unto 8 s\l4 ,he grew to manhood /eep$ 9 all ! light1 ,8 fa!r ,felix1 ?r\gh ! _s-spee*1 ,taught him f f\nta9s & f rocks & hills3 ,to ?is 0 jo9$ all t _h liv$ & gr[n ,9 my own s\l f my fir/ *ildhood's ye>s2 ,& yet our son's cle> _s-s5se 0 kill$ ,by ! deep gloom ( sombre sci5ces4 ,in/ead ( "s bli! happy *ild1 !re grew ,a man ( des]t s\l & empty he>t4 ,& n[ =soo? ?\ do/ dem& ( me ,t ,i %\ld pay :at !y d owe to !e6 ,,_s3 ,x mu/ be s1 = ?\ at fir/ did/ s]ve ,! e>?ly "p 9 !m2 & s ?r\gh me ,! _s bids !e n[ complete ! "w4 ,,felicia3 ',tis n my wont to %r9k f any debt2 ,b tell me fir/ :at detrim5t w gr[ ,9 m9e own self f ?is love-s]vice done8 ,,_s3 ,:at ?\ at fir/ did/ d = !m on e>?1 ,robb$ ( 8 _s-p[]s ?9e only son2 ,& :at ?\ give/ to _! spirits n[ ,is lo/ h5ce=? to !e f ?9e own self2 ,:i* less5+ ( ! p[]s ( life 9 !e ,w %[ z ugl9ess 9 ?9e own fle%4 ,,felicia3 ,!y robb$ my *ild ( all 8 _s-p[]1 ,& 9 return ,i ne$s mu/ w&] =? ,a mon/] 9 ! sight ( m51 t fruits ,may rip5 = !m1 :i* "w little good6 ,,_s3 ,yet ?y "w aids ! welf>e ( mank9d ,& leads z well to ?9e own happ9ess4 ,?y "m's beauty & ?y *ild's own life ,w blossom = !e 9 a l(ti] way1 ,:5 "o day 9 ! s\ls & he>ts ( m51 ,new _s-p[]s %all se$ & fructify4 ,,felicia3 ,:at mu/ ,i d8 ,,_s3 ,mank9d ?\ ha/ inspir$ ,full (t5 ) ?y words4 ,inspire !n n[ ,! spirits ( ! rocks3 9 ?is same h\r ,?\ mu/ br+ =? f out ?y treasur$ /ore ,( fairy pictures "s "o tale to give ,^? be+s :o d s]ve me 9 my "w4 ,,felicia3 ,s be x !n3--,a be+ once did live ,:o flew f ,ea/ to ,we/1 z runs ! sun4 ,he flew o'er l&s & seas1 & f ?is height ,he look$ ^u ! do+s ( mank9d4 ,he saw h[ m5 did "o ano!r love1 ,&1 h[ 9 hatr$ !y did p]secute4 ,yet naught c\ld /ay ?is be+ 9 8 flight1 ,= love & hatr$ none ! less br+ =? ,full _m ?\s& times ! same results4 ,yet o'er "o h\se--!re mu/ ! be+ /ay2 ,= !re9 dwelt a tir$ & we>y man1 ,:o pond]$ on ! love ( humank9d1 ,& pond]$ also ov] human hate4 ,8 contemplations _h already grav$ ,deep furr[s on 8 br[2 8 hair 0 :ite4 ,&1 griev+ o'er ?is man1 ! be+ lo/ ,8 sun-guide's lead]%ip1 & /ay$ ) him ,)9 8 room e'en :5 ! sun w5t d[n4 ,& :5 ! sun arose aga91 once m ,! be+ jo9$ ! _s ( ! sun2 ,& once aga9 he saw mank9d pass ?r\gh ,! cycle ( ! e>? 9 love & hate4 ,b :5 he came1 /ill foll[+ ! sun1 ,a second "t above t selfsame h\se1 ,8 gaze did fall ^u a man q dead4 7,g]manus1 invisible beh9d ! rock1 speaks4 ,z he speaks1 he gradually drags 8 unwieldy size on to ! /age2 8 feet l clogs are almo/ e>?-b\nd47 ,,g]manus3 ,a man once liv$1 :o w5t f ,ea/ to ,we/3 ,^: eag] ?ir/ = k lur$ him on ,o'er l& & sea2 & ) 8 wisdom's sight ,he look$ ^u ! do+s ( mank9d4 ,he saw h[ m5 did "o ano!r love1 ,&1 h[ 9 hatr$ !y did p]secute2 ,& at ea* turn ( life ! man did note ,h[ bl9d 0 wisdom's eye to probe its dep?s4 ,=1 ?\gh ! _w is rul$ by love & hate1 ,yet c\ld he n comb9e !m into law4 ,a ?\s& s+le cases wrote he d[n ,yet /ill he lack$ ! compreh5d+ eye4 ,?is dull1 dry seek] aft] tru? once met ,^u 8 pa? a be+ =m$ ( light2 ,:o f\nd exi/5ce fraught ) heav9ess ,s9ce x mu/ live 9 con/ant combat ) ,a d>ksome be+ =m$ ( %ad[s black4 ',:o art ?\ !n8' ! dry tru?-seek] ask$4 ',love1' said ! "o2 ! o!r answ]$1 ',hate4' ,b ^! two be+s' words fell on deaf e>s2 ,! man he>d n1 b w&]$ bl9dly on ,9 8 dry se>* = tru? f ,ea/ to ,we/4 ,,felicia3 ,& :o art ?\1 :o ?us aga9/ my wi% ,do/ p>ody my words 9 8 own way ,until !y s\nd a v mock]y8 ,,g]manus3 ,only a dw>f-l image ( me lives ,9 man1 & !re9 _m ?+s are ?\ght1 ,t are b mock]y ( _! own selves4 ,:5 ,i d %[ !m 9 ! actual size1 ,9 :i* !y d appe> )9 my bra94 ,,felicia3 ,& !re=e do/ ?\ also mock at me8 ,,g]manus3 ,i mu/ "r (t5 ply ?is trade ( m9e2 ,yet mo/ly m5 d he> me n1 s n[ ,i seiz$ = once ?is opportunity ,to speak z well :]e m5 c he> my words4 ,,johannes 7out ( 8 m$itation73 ,?is 0 ! man1 :o ( himself did say ,t _s-light grew ( its own accord ,)9 8 bra92 & ,dame ,felicia came1 ,j l h] husb&1 z %e is 9 life4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #g ,! doma9 ( _s3 a sc5e ( v>i\s col\r$ cry/al rocks & a few trees4 ,m>ia1 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna2 ! *ild2 ,johannes1 fir/ at a di/ance1 !n com+ ne>]2 ,!odora2 la/ly ,b5$ictus4 ,,m>ia3 ,ye si/]s1 :o s (t5 prov$ ( old ,my help]s1 help me also 9 ?is h\r2 ,t ,i may cause to vibrate 9 itself ,! e!r ( ! worlds4 ,let x res\nd ,9 h>mony1 & ?us res\nd+ rea* ,& p]meate a s\l ) k true4 ,signs c ,i see :i* guide u to our "w2 ,= y\r "w mu/ unite itself ) m9e4 ,johannes1 he :o /rives1 by our designs ,to real exi/5ce %all be lift$ up4 ,! bre?r5 9 ! temple c\nsel took ,h[ !y %\ld guide him to ! heights ( light ,out ( ! dep?s1 & !y expect ( u ,to fill 8 s\l ) p[] = su* high flight4 ,?\ %alt absorb = me1 my ,philia1 ,! light's cle> ess5ce f ! bread?s ( space2 ,& fill ?yself ) all ! *>m ( s\nd1 ,:i* wells f out ! s\l's creative p[]2 ,t ?\ may/ !n imp>t to me ! gifts ,:i* ?\ do/ ga!r f ! _s's dep?s4 ,!n c ,i weave _! p]fect h>monies ,9 ! s\l-/irr+ rhy?mic dance ( sph]es4 ,?\1 ,a/rid1 too1 lov$ mirror ( my s\l1 ,?\ %alt produce )9 ! fl[+ light1 ,! p[] ( %ade t col\rs may %9e =?2 ,?\ %alt give %ape to =mless h>monies1 ,t z _w-sub/ance weave? to & fro ,x may s\nd =? ^u its liv+ way4 ,s am ,i able to entru/ to man1 ,:5 he do? seek1 a _s-consci\sness4 ,& ?\1 /rong ,luna1 firm 9 ?9e own self1 ,e'en l ! liv+ m>r[1 :i* do? gr[ ,)9 ! c5tre ( ! tree1 d ?\ ,unite unto ?y si/]s' gifts ?9e own2 ,impress !reon ?y p]sonality1 ,t he :o seeks may wisdom's surety f9d4 ,,philia3 ,) cle>e/ ess5ce ( ! light w ,i ,f _w-wide bread?s ( space myself imbue2 ,f di/ant e!r-b\nds w ,i brea! deep ,liv+ s\nd-sub/ance t su* ?+s may cause ,?y "w1 belov$ si/]1 to succe$4 ,,a/rid3 ,i w weave ?r\gh ! beam+ web ( light ,subdu+ d>kness1 & ,i w cond5se ,! liv+ s\nds1 t1 s\nd+1 !y may gl[1 ,& gl[+1 s\nd2 t ?\ may/ ?us direct1 ,belov$ si/]1 s\l-life's radiant beam4 ,,luna3 ,s\l-sub/ance w ,i w>m2 & w make h>d ,! liv+ e!r2 t !y may cond5se1 ,& feel !mselves z liv+ entities ,) active p[] to fa%ion _! own life2 ,t ?\1 belov$ si/]1 may/ create ,true wisdom's surety 9 man's seek+ s\l4 ,,m>ia3 ,f ,philia's realm %all /ream =? consci\s joy2 ,& wat] nymphs ) _! trans=m+ p[] ,%all !n unfold receptiv5ess ( s\l2 ,t ! awak5$ "o may und]go ,& live ! mir? & sorr[ ( ! _w4 ,f ,a/rid's web %all gr[ ! joy ( love2 ,& sylphs1 t live 9 air1 %all !n incite ,! s\l's desire to will+ sacrifice2 ,t ?us ! consecrat$ "o may give ,new life to sorr[-lad5 s\ls ( m51 ,& com=t ^? :o crave = happ9ess4 ,f ,luna's p[] %all /ream =? solid /r5g?2 ,& salam&]s ) _! fi]y brea? ,%all !n create security ( s\l2 ,t he :o kn[s may f9d himself aga9 ,9 weav+ s\l-/reams & ! life ( worlds4 ,,philia3 ,i %all implore ! spirits ( ! _w ,t _! own be+'s light may s en*ant ,! s5ses ( ! s\l2 & _! words' s\nd ,s fill ) happ9ess ! _s e>s2 ,t he1 ^: wak5+ ne>s1 may ?us asc5d ,! pa? ( s\ls unto cele/ial heights4 ,,a/rid3 ,! /reams ( love1 :i* w>m ! worlds1 w ,i ,direct unto 8 consecrat$ he>t2 ,t he may br+ into 8 "w on e>? ,! grace ( heav51 & create desire ,= consecration 9 ! he>ts ( m54 ,,luna3 ,f e>?'s primeval p[]s w ,i implore ,c\rage & /r5g?1 t may lay !m deep ,)9 ! seek]'s he>t2 t confid5ce ,9 8 own ,self may guide him ?r\gh 8 life4 ,!n %all he feel secure 9 8 own s\l ,& pluck ea* mom5t's rip5$ fruit1 & draw ,! se$s !refrom to f\nd et]nities4 ,,m>ia3 ,) y1 my si/]s1 jo9$ 9 noble "w ,i %all succe$ 9 :at ,i long to d4 ,b h>k6 ,!re rises to our _w ( light ,! cry ( him :o ha? be5 sorely tri$4 7,johannes appe>s47 ,,johannes3 ',tis ?\1 ,m>ia6 ,!n my suff]+ ,ha? at ! la/ born ri*e/ fruit = me4 ,x ha? )drawn me f ! phantom %ape ,:i* ,i at fir/ did make out ( myself1 ,& :i* !n held me fa/1 a prison]4 ,pa9 d ,i ?ank = ?us enabl+ me ,to rea* !e o'er ! pa?ways ( ! s\l4 ,,m>ia3 ,& :at !n 0 ! pa? t l$ !e "h8 ,,johannes3 ,i felt myself f bonds ( s5se releas$3 ,my sight 0 fre$ f t close b>ri]1 ,:i* hid all b ! pres5t f m9e eyes4 ,q o!rwise ,i view$ ! life ( "o ,i knew on e>?1 & look$ beyond ! space ,b\nd by ! pres5t mom5t's n>r[ r+4 ,capesius1 :o 9 8 old] ye>s ,ha? b employ$ ! sight ( s5se--?is man ,! _s plac$ be=e my s\l a y\?1 ,z fir/ he ent]$ on life's ?orny pa? ,full ( ^? dreams ( hope1 :i* (ttimes br\ght ,a gr\p ( fai?ful he>]s to 8 feet4 ,& ,/rad]1 also c\ld ,i see e'en ?us ,z he appe>$ 9 e>?ly life :5 "y1 ,e'er he _h full outgr[n 8 cloi/]$ y\?3 ,& ,i c\ld see :at he might once h be51 ,if he _h foll[$ out 9 t same way ,! goal he set be=e himself ( old4 ,& only ^? :o 9 _! e>?ly life ,are fill$ already ) ! _s's p[] ,appe> un*ang$ )9 ! _s-realms4 ,bo? ,dame ,felicia & good ,felix too ,_h kept ! =ms 9 :i* !y liv$ on e>?1 ,:5 ,i beheld !m ) my _s's sight4 ,& !n my guides %[$ k9dness unto me1 ,& spake ( gifts :i* %all "o day be m9e ,:5 ,i c rea* to wisdom's l(ty heights4 ,& _m ?+s besides h ,i beheld ,) _s-organs :i* s5se-sight at fir/ ,_h %[n to me 9 its own n>r[ way4 ,= judgm5t's all-illum9at+ light ,irradiat$ ?is new _w ( m9e4 ,b :e!r ,i liv$ 9 "s %ad[y dream1 ,or :e!r _s-tru? surr\nd$ me ,already1 ,i c\ld n z yet decide4 ,:e!r my _s-sight 0 really /irr$ ,by o!r ?+s1 or :e!r m9e own self ,exp&$ into "s _w ( its own1 ,i knew n4 ,!n did/ ?\ appe> ?yself2 ,n z ?\ seeme/ at ! pres5t "t1 ,nor z ! pa/ beheld !e2 nay--,i saw ,!e z ?\ art 9 _s ev]more4 ,n human 0 ?y nature3 9 ?y s\l ,cle> c\ld ,i recognize ! _s-light1 ,:i* work$ n z man clo!d 9 fle% do? "w4 ,z _s did x act1 t /rives to d ,su* "w z 9 et]nity ha? root4 ,& only n[1 :5 ,i d>e /& complete ,9 _s nigh !e1 do? ! full light gl[4 ,9 !e my sight ( s5se already grasp$ ,reality s fa/1 t c]ta9ty ,do? meet me ev5 "h 9 _s-realms2 ,& well ,i "k t n[ be=e me /&s ,no phantom %ape4 ',tis ?y true "* ,9 :i* ,i met !e yond]1 & 9 :i* ',tis n[ p]mitt$ me to meet !e "h4 ,,!odora3 ,i feel compell$ to speak4 ,a gl[ ( light ,f out ?y br[1 ,m>ia1 upw>d m\nts4 ,?is gl[ takes %ape1 & gr[s to human =m4 ,x is a man ) _s deep imbu$1 ,& o!r m5 d ga!r r\nd 8 feet4 ,i gaze into dim times1 long pass$ away ,on t good man :o rose f out ?y head3 ,8 eyes d %9e ) p]fect peace ( s\l2 ,& deep true feel+ gl[s 9 e l9e ,& feature ( 8 noble c\nt5ance4 ,a woman fac+ him m9e eye do? see1 ,:o li/5s ) devotion to ! words ,proce$+ f 8 m\?2 :i* words ,i he>1 ,& ?us !y s\nd3 ',ye h unto y\r gods ,look$ up ) aw$ devotion until n[4 ,^! gods ,i love1 z ye love !m y\rselves4 ,!y did pres5t unto y\r ?\ght its p[]1 ,& plant$ c\rage 9 y\r he>t2 b yet ,_! gifts spr+ f a high] _s /ill4' ,i see h[ rage do? spread among/ ! ?rong ,at ?is man's words4 ,i he> _! mad wild cries3 ',kill him2 = he desires to take f u ,! gifts ! gods h giv5 to our race4' ,b unconc]n$ly ! man speaks on4 ,he tells n[ ( t ,god 9 human =m1 ,:o did desc5d to e>? & conqu] dea?4 ,he tells ( ,*ri/2 & z 8 words fl[ on ,! s\ls ar\nd gr[ calm & pacifi$4 ,"o only ( ! hea!n he>ts resi/s1 ,& swe>s x w wreak v5geance on ! man4 ,i recognize ?is he>t2 x beats aga9 ,9 yond] *ild1 t ne/les at ?y side4 ,! mess5g] ( ,*ri/ speaks to x ?us3 ',?y fate do? n p]mit !e to draw nigh ,9 ?is life2 b ,i %all wait pati5tly1 ,= ?y pa? leads !e to me 9 ! end4' ,! woman :o do? /& be=e ! man ,falls at 8 feet & feels h]self trans=m$4 ,a s\l prays to ! ,god 9 human =m2 ,a he>t do? love ,god's mess5g] on e>?4 7,johannes s9ks ^u 8 knees be=e ,m>ia47 ,,m>ia3 ,johannes1 t :i* dawne? 9 ?y m9d ,?\ %alt awak5 to full consci\sness4 ,e'en n[ )9 !e ha? ?y memory ,wr5*$ itself free f fett]+s ( s5se4 ,?\ ha/ f\nd me1 & ?\ ha/ felt myself1 ,z we 7 jo9$ 9 =m] life on e>?4 ,?\ wa/ ! woman :om ! se]ess saw1 ,= s did/ ?\ lie pro/rate at my feet1 ,:5 ,i z mess5g] ( ,*ri/ did come ,unto ?y tribe 9 days long s9ce gone by4 ,:at 9 ,hib]nia's consecrat$ %r9es ,0 !n entru/$ to me by t ,god1 ,:o dwelt 9 human =m1 & did become ,a conqu]or o'er all ! p[]s ( dea?1 ,i _h to br+ to tribes1 9 :om /ill liv$ ,a s\l t br\ght a will+ sacrifice1 ,to mighty ,od91 & ) sorr[ ?\ght ,^u ! dea? ( ,bald]1 god ( light4 ,! p[]1 :i* f t message grew 9 !e1 ,attract$ !e to me f ! fir/ day ,?9e eyes ( s5se beheld me 9 ?is life4 ,& s9ce x /rove s mightily 9 u1 ,& yet rema9$ unrecogniz$ by bo?1 ,x wove into our life ^? suff]+s1 ,:i* we o'ercame4 ,yet 9 t pa9 itself ,!re lay ! p[] to guide u on our way ,to _s-realms1 :]e we might recognize ,& "k 9 v tru? ea* o!r's s\l4 ,intol]ably did ?y pa9 increase ,?r\gh all ! m5 :o ?rong$ !e r\nd ab\t1 ,) :om by fate's decree ?\ art conjo9$4 ,h5ce 0 ! revelation ( _! selves ,able s fi]cely to convulse ?9e he>t4 ,^! m5 ha? ,k>ma ga!r$ r\nd !e n[1 ,to wake 9 !e ! p[] t once did urge ,!e on ! pa? ( life1 :i* selfsame p[] ,ha? ?us f> r\s$ !e1 t1 f body fre$1 ,?\ c\ld/ asc5d into ! _s-_w4 ,?\ /&e/ ne>e/ to my s\l1 s9ce ?\ ,ha/ kept ?r\gh pa9 ?y /eadfa/ fai? 9 me4 ,& !re=e ha? x fall5 to my lot ,t consecration to complete 9 !e1 ,to :i* ?\ owe/ ?is ?y _s-light4 ,! bre?r51 :o )9 ! temple s]ve1 ,h wak5$ sight 9 !e2 yet can/ ?\ "k ,t :at ?\ see/ is v tru? inde$1 ,only :5 ?\ do/ f9d 9 _s-realms ,a be+1 unto :om 9 worlds ( s5se ,?\ wa/ unit$ 9 ?9e inmo/ s\l4 ,& t ?is be+ might ?us meet !e "h1 ,be=e !e did ! bre?r5 s5d me out4 ,& ?is did prove ! h>de/ ( ?y te/s1 ,:5 ,i 0 summon$ "h to wait = !e4 ,our lead]1 ,b5$ictus1 did ,i ask ,to solve = me ! riddle ( my life1 ,t seem$ to be s cruel & unk9d2 ,& bless$ness /ream$ f 8 e ^w1 ,tell+ ( 8 own mission & ( m9e4 ,he told me ( ! _s ,i mu/ s]ve ,) all ! p[] :i* ,i h f\nd 9 me4 ,& at 8 words x seem$ to me z ?\gh1 ,all 9 a mom5t cle>e/ _s-light ,/ream$ ?r\gh & ?r\gh my s\l1 & suff]+ ,0 *ang$ to joy\s bless$ness2 "o ?\ght ,alone !n fill$ my s\l2--he gave me light1 ,yea1 light1 t gave to me ! p[] ( sight2-- ,x 0 ! w t liv$ )9 ! ?\ght ,:olly to give myself to _s-life1 ,to make me ready = ! sacrifice ,:i* w\ld unto our lead] draw me ne>4 ,?is ?\ght did g5]ate ! highe/ p[]3 ,x gave w+s to my s\l & waft$ me ,into t realm :]e ?\ ha/ f\nd me n[4 ,9 t same mom5t :5 ,i felt releas$ ,f my s5se body1 ,i 0 free to turn ,my _s's eye ^u !e1 & ,i saw ,n only !e1 ,johannes1 /&+ !re2 ,i saw ! woman too1 t foll[$ me ,9 anci5t times2 & _h b\nd close to m9e ,h] de/9y4 ,e'en ?us 0 _s-tru? ,reveal$ to me 9 _s-realms ?r\gh !e1 ,:o 9 ! _w ( s5se already wa/ ,made "o ) me 9 inmo/ consci\sness4 ,s did ,i ga9 ?is _s-c]ta9ty ,& 0 end[$ to give x unto !e4 ,s5d+ a ray ( highe/1 t5d]e/ love ,to ,b5$ictus1 ,i w5t on be=e2 ,& he ha? giv5 unto !e ! p[] ,to foll[ me into ! _s-sph]es4 7,b5$ictus appe>s47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,ye "h h f\nd y\rselves 9 _s-realms ,& s x is p]mitt$ unto me ,to /& once m beside y 9 ^! realms4 ,i c\ld conf] ! p[] t urg$ y "h1 ,b ,i c\ld n conduct y "h myself4 ,?us read ! law1 :i* ,i mu/ ne$s obey3-- ,ye mu/ ?r\gh y\r own selves fir/ ga9 ! eye ,( _s1 :i* do? "h make visible ,my _s to y4 ,ye h j begun ,e'en n[ ! pa? ( _s-pilgrimage4 ,h5ce=? inde$ ^u ! plane ( s5se ,end[$ ) novel p[]s %all ye bo? /&1 ,& ) ! _s 9 y\r he>ts unseal$ ,! cause ( human progress %all ye s]ve1 ,= ,fate itself ha? s unit$ y1 ,t ye toge!r may unfold ! p[]s ,:i* ne$s mu/ s]ve div9e creative "w4 ,& z ye j\rney on ! pa? ( s\ls ,wisdom h]self w tea* y t ! heights ,may only be obta9$ by s\ls ( m51 ,:o h ga9$ _s-c]ta9ty1 :5 !y ,unite 9 fai? to d salvation's "w4 ,my _s-guidance ha? unit$ y ,to realize ea* o!r3 n[ d ye ,unite y\rselves to d ! _s's "w4 ,may p[]s t dwell )9 ?is realm conf] ,on y ?r\gh ^! my lips ?is ,^w ( /r5g?3-- ',! weav+ ess5ce ( ! light /reams =? ,f man to man to fill all worlds ) tru?4 ,! grace ( love spreads w>m? f s\l to s\l ,to "w out bliss et]nal = all worlds4 ,& _s-mess5g]s come =? to w$ ,man's works ( love & grace to cosmic aims4 ,& :5 a man :o dwells among/ mank9d ,c w$ ^! twa91 !re do? /ream =? on e>? ,true _s-light f 8 w>m lov+ s\l4' ,curta9 ,,int]lude ,sc5e3 same z 9 ! ,prelude4 ,! day aft] ! play to :i* ,e/ella1 9 ! ,prelude1 invit$ h] fri5d to accompany h]4 ,,sophia3 ,=give me1 de> ,e/elle1 = keep+ y wait+4 ,i _h to att5d to some?+ = ! *ildr54 ,,e/ella3 ,"h ,i am back aga9 ) y already4 ,i long = y\r sympa?y1 :5ev] any?+ /irs me deeply4 ,,sophia3 ,well1 y "k t ,i %all always sympa?ize mo/ w>mly ) y 9 y\r int]e/s4 ,,e/ella3 ,?is play1 ( :i* ,i spoke to y1 ,outca/s f ,body & f ,s\l t\*$ me s deeply4 ,does x seem to y odd :5 ,i say t !re 7 mom5ts :5 all ,i _h ev] kn[n ( human sorr[ /ood be=e me8 ,) highe/ arti/ic =ce ! "w n only gives ! out] mis*ances1 met ) by s _m p1 b also po9ts out ) wond]ful p5etration ! deepe/ agonies ( ! s\l4 ,,sophia3 ,"o _c1 ,i fe>1 =m a prop] conception ( a "w ( art by simply he>+ ( its cont5ts4 ,b ,i w\ld l y to tell me :at /irr$ y s4 ,,e/ella3 ,! con/ruction ( ! play 0 admirable4 ,! arti/ wi%$ to %[ h[ a "y pa9t] loses all 8 creative desire1 because he beg9s to d\bt 8 love = a woman4 ,%e _h end[$ him ) ! p[] to develop 8 promis+ tal5ts4 ,pure en?usiasm = 8 art _h produc$ 9 h] ! mo/ beautiful love ( sacrifice4 ,to h] he ow$ ! fulle/ developm5t ( 8 abilities 9 8 *os5 field4 ,he blossom$1 z x 71 9 ! sun%9e ( 8 b5efactress4 ,con/ant association ) ?is woman develop$ 8 gratitude into passionate love4 ,?is caus$ him to neglect1 m & m1 a poor creature :o 0 fai?fully devot$ to him1 & :o f9ally di$ ( grief1 because %e _h to confess to h]self t %e _h lo/ ! he>t ( ! man %e lov$4 ,:5 he he>d ( h] dea?1 ! news did n s]i\sly di/urb him1 = 8 he>t belong$ entirely to 8 b5efactress4 ,yet he grew ev] m & m c]ta9 t h] noble feel+ ( fri5d%ip = him w\ld nev] turn to passionate love4 ,?is conviction drove all creative joy f 8 s\l1 & 8 inn] life grew con/antly m desolate4 ,9 ?is condition ( life ! poor girl1 :om he _h =sak51 came aga9 into 8 m9d1 & a wreck$ life 0 all t result$ f a hopeful & promis+ man4 ,)\t prospect ( a s+le ray ( light he p9$ away4 ,all ?is is portray$ ) int5se dramatic vividness4 ,,sophia3 ,i c easily see h[ ! play mu/ h work$ ^u y\r feel+s4 ,z a girl y always suff]$ int5sely at ! de/9y ( su* p1 :o _h be5 driv5 to bitt]ness by heavy mis=tunes 9 _! life4 ,,e/ella3 ,my de> ,sophy2 y misund]/& me4 ,i c easily di/+ui% betwe5 :at is real & :at is m]ely arti/ic4 ,& criticism fails1 ,i "k1 if "o c>ries into x ! feel+s "o _h 9 life4 ,:at /irr$ me "h s deeply 0 ! really p]fect repres5tation ( a deep problem ( life4 ,i 0 once aga9 able to realize cle>ly h[ art c only m\nt to su* heights1 :5 x keeps close to ! fulness ( life4 ,z soon z x dep>ts !refrom1 its works are untrue4 ,,sophia3 ,i und]/& y p]fectly :5 y speak l t4 ,i h always admir$ ! arti/s :o c\ld repres5t :at y call ! reality ( life4 ,& ,i believe a great _m h t p[]1--especially n[adays4 ,nev]!less ev5 ! v highe/ atta9m5ts leave beh9d !m 9 my s\l a c]ta9 discom=t4 ,= a long "t ,i 0 unable to expla9 ?is to myself1 b "o day ! light came t br\ght ! answ]4 ,,e/ella3 ,y mean to tell me1 t y\r conception ( ! _w has dispell$ y\r appreciation ( s-call$ reali/ic art8 ,,sophia3 ,de> ,e/elle1 let u n speak ( my conception ( ! _w today4 ,y "k q well1 t ! emotion y h j describ$ 0 entirely famili> to me long be=e ,i knew any?+ at all ab\t :at y call my 'conception ( ! _w4' ,& ^! feel+s are n only ar\s$ 9 me ) ref]5ce to s-call$ reali/ic art3 b o!r ?+s also create a simil> feel+ 9 me4 ,x gr[s especially m>k$ :5 ,i become aw>e ( :at ,i might call1 9 a high] s5se1 ! want ( tru? 9 c]ta9 works ( art4 ,,e/ella3 ,!re ,i really _c foll[ y4 ,,sophia3 ,a vivid grasp ( real tru? mu/ ne$s create 9 ! he>t a s5se ( a c]ta9 pov]ty 9 works ( art4 ,= ( c\rse ! greate/ arti/ is always a novice comp>$ ) nature 9 h] p]fection4 ,! mo/ accompli%$ arti/ fails to give me :at ,i c get f ! revelation ( a l&scape or a human c\nt5ance4 ,,e/ella3 ,b t is 9 ! nature ( ! case & _c be alt]$4 ,,sophia3 ,b x c\ld be alt]$1 if m5 w\ld only become cle> on "o po9t4 ,!y c\ld say t x is irrational = ! s\l to reproduce :at high] p[]s h already set be=e u z ! highe/ =m ( art4 ,yet ^! same p[]s h implant$ 9 man a desire to cont9ue to "w ^u creation 9 a c]ta9 s5se1 9 ord] to give to ! _w :at ^! p[]s h n yet plac$ be=e ! s5ses4 ,9 all t man c create1 ! orig9al p[]s ( creation h left nature incomplete4 ,:y %\ld he reproduce h] imp]fections 9 an imp]fect =m1 :5 he has ! ability to *ange t imp]fection into p]fection8 ,if y ?9k ( ?is ass]tion z *ang$ into an elem5tal feel+ y w und]/& :y ,i feel a s5se ( di/ress t[>ds mu* t y call art4 ,?is p]ception ( an imp]fect reproduction ( "s obvi\s tru? mu/ ne$s produce di/ress4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! lea/ p]fect repres5tation ( :at is conceal$ beh9d ! outw>dly obs]v$ ph5om5on may prove a revelation4 ,,e/ella3 ,y are really talk+ ( some?+ t n[h]e exi/s4 ,no true arti/ really tries to give a b>e reproduction ( nature4 ,,sophia3 ,t is j :y s _m works ( art are imp]fect2 = ! creative function leads ( itself beyond nature1 & ! arti/ _c "k ! appe>ance ( :at is outside 8 s5ses4 ,,e/ella3 ,i see no possibility ( our com+ to any und]/&+ ) "o ano!r on ?is po9t4 ,x is inde$ sad t1 9 ^! mo/ important problems ( ! s\l1 my be/ fri5d foll[s views s diff]5t f my own4 ,i hope our fri5d%ip may yet fall on bett] days4 ,,sophia3 ,on su* a po9t we %all surely be able to accept :atev] life may br+ u4 ,,e/ella3 ,au revoir1 de> ,sophy4 ,,sophia3 ,good-bye1 de> ,e/elle4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #h ,same room z = ,sc5e #a4 ,johannes at an easel1 be=e :i* ,capesius1 ,m>ia1 & ,/rad] are also seat$4 ,,johannes3 ,i ?9k ^? are ! f9al t\*es n[1 ,& feel t ,i may call my "w complete4 ,especial pleasure ha? x giv5 me ,?y nature to int]pret ?r\gh m9e art4 ,,capesius3 ,?is picture is a m>vel unto me ,& its creator a /ill great] "o4 ,= naught1 :i* m5 l me h up till n[ ,consid]$ possible1 c be comp>$ ,) ?is *ange t ha? tak5 place 9 !e4 ,"o only c believe1 :5 actual sight ,compels belief4 ,we met ?ree ye>s ago2 ,& ,i 0 !n all[$ to c\nt myself ,a memb] ( t small community1 ,9 :i* ?\ did/ atta9 ?9e excell5ce4 ,a man ( sad demean\r wa/ ?\ !n1 ,witness ea* glance & aspect ( ?y face4 ,once did ,i he> a lecture 9 ?y gr\p1 ,& at ! end felt urg$ to add !reto ,words t 7 wr5*$ ) pa9 f out my s\l4 ,i spake 9 su* a mood :]e9 "o do? ,?9k almo/ always ( oneself alone2 ,& none ! less my gaze did ev] re/ ,^u t pa9t]1 :elm$ 'nea? sorr['s load1 ,:o sat & kept /ill sil5ce1 f> ap>t4 ,sil5t he pond]$ 9 a fa%ion /range1 ,& "o might well believe t he he>d n ,a s+le ^w ( all ^? spok5 ne>4 ,! sorr[ unto :i* he gave himself ,seem$ ( itself to h a sep>ate life2 ,x seem$ z ?\gh ! man himself he>d n1 ,b r t 8 v grief _h e>s3 ,x is p]haps n inappropriate ,to say he 0 by sorr[ q obsess$4 ,soon aft] t day did we meet aga91 ,& ev5 !n !re 0 a *ange 9 !e2 ,= happ9ess did beam =? f ?9e eyes2 ,)9 ?y nature p[] did dwell aga91 ,& noble fire did r+ 9 all ?y words4 ,?\ did/ express a wi% to me t day-- ,:i* seem$ to me mo/ /range & curi\s-- ,to be my pupil did/ ?\ !n desire4 ,& ( a tru? ?\ ha/ ?r\gh\t ^! ye>s ,) utmo/ dilig5ce absorb$ ?yself ,9 all ,i _h to say on _w ev5ts4 ,&1 z we grew m intimate1 ,i !n ,did "k ! riddle ( ?9e arti/ life1 ,& ea* new picture prov$ a fre% surprise4 ,my ?\ght 9 =m] days 0 ill-incl9$ ,to so> to worlds beyond ! life ( s5se-- ,n t ,i d\bt$ !m--b yet x seem$ ,presumptu\s to draw ne> ) eag] m9d4 ,b n[ ,i mu/ admit t !m ha/ *ang$ ,my po9t ( view4 ,i he> !e (t repeat ,t ?9e arti/ic skill dep5ds alone ,^u ! gift to function consci\sly ,9 o!r worlds2 & t ?\ can/ implant ,naught 9 ?y "w b :at ?\ ha/ fir/ se5 ,9 _s worlds3 inde$ ?y works d %[ ,h[ _s /&s reveal$ 9 actual life4 ,,/rad]3 ,nev] s little h ,i und]/ood ,?y spee*2 = surely 9 all arti/s' "w ,! liv+ _s is ?us manife/4 ,h[ !re=e do? ?y fri5d1 ,?omasius1 ,diff] f o!r ma/]s 9 8 art8 ,,capesius3 ,ne'er h ,i d\bt$ t ! _s %[s ,itself 9 man1 :o none ! less rema9s ,unconsci\s ( its nature4 ,he creates ,?r\gh ?is same _s1 b p]ceives x n4 ,?omasius h[ev] do? create ,9 worlds ( s5se :at he 9 _s-realms ,c consci\sly behold2 & _m times ,ha? he assur$ me1 t1 = m5 l him1 ,no o!r me?od ( creation s]ves4 ,,/rad]3 ,?omasius is a m>vel unto me1 ,& freely ,i admit ?is picture "h ,ha? fir/ reveal$ to me 9 8 true self ,capesius1 :om ,i ?\ght ,i knew full well4 ,9 ?\ght ,i knew him2 b 8 "w do? %[ ,h[ little ( him ,i _h really kn[n4 ,,m>ia3 ,h[ comes x1 doctor1 t ?\ can/ admire ,! greatness ( ?is "w s mu*1 & yet ,can/ /ill d5y ! greatness ( its s\rce8 ,,/rad]3 ,:at ha? my wond] at ! arti/'s "w ,9 common ) my fai? 9 _s-sight8 ,,m>ia3 ,"o c inde$ admire a "w1 e'en :5 ,"o ha? no fai? 9 t :i* is its s\rce2 ,yet 9 ?is case !re w\ld be naught to r\se ,our admiration1 _h ?is arti/ n ,trodd5 ! pa? t l$ to _s-life4 ,,/rad]3 ,yet /ill we mu/ n say t :osoe'er ,do? to ! _s :olly give himself ,w consci\sly be guid$ by its p[]4 ,! _s p[] creates 9 arti/s' s\ls1 ,e'en z x works )9 ! trees & /ones3 ,yet is ! tree n consci\s ( itself4 ,& only he1 :o sees x f )\t1 ,c recognize ! _s's "w !re94 ,s too ea* arti/ lives )9 8 "w ,& n 9 spiritual exp]i5ce4 ,b :5 m9e eyes n[ on ?is picture fall1 ,i d =get all t allures to ?\ght2 ,! v s\l-=ce ( my fri5d do? gleam ,f out ^? eyes1 & yet--!y are b pa9t6 ,! seek]'s ?\ghtfulness dwells on t br[2 ,& e'en 8 noble w>m? ( words do? /ream ,f all ! col\r-tones ) :i* ?y bru% ,ha? solv$ ! my/]y ( portraiture4 ,ah1 ^! same col\rs1 surely !y are flat6 ,& yet !y are n2 !y seem visible ,only to vani% /raightway f my sight4 ,! m\ld+ too do? seem l col\r's "w2 ,& yet x tells ( _s int]tw9$ ,9 e l9e1 & _m ?+s besides1 ,t are n ( itself4--,:]e !n is t ,:]e( x speaks8 ,n on ! canvas !re1 ,:]e only _s-b>r5 col\rs lie4 ,is x !n 9 ,capesius himself8 ,b :y c ,i p]ceive x n 9 him8 ,?omasius1 ?\ ha/ s pa9t$ "h ,t :at is pa9t$ do? de/roy itself1 ,! mom5t t ! eye w\ld fa?om x4 ,i _c grasp :]eto x urge? me4 ,:at mu/ ,i grasp f x8 ,:at %\ld ,i seek8 ,i fa9 w\ld pi]ce ?is canvas ?r\gh & ?r\gh ,to f9d :at ,i mu/ seek )9 its dep?s2 ,to f9d :]e ,i may grasp all t :i* /reams ,f ?is same picture into my s\l's core4 ,i mu/ atta9 x4--,oh--delud$ fool6 ,x seems z ?\gh "s gho/ 7 haunt+ me1 ,a gho/ ,i _c see1 nor h ,i p[] ,:i* do? enable me to focus x4 ,?\ do/ pa9t gho/ly ?+s1 ,?omasius1 ,ensn>+ !m by magic 9 y\r "w4 ,!y d allure u on to seek = !m1 ,& yet !y nev] let !mselves be f\nd4 ,oh--h[ ,i f9d y\r pictures horrible6 ,,capesius3 ,my fri5d1 9 ?is same mom5t ha/ ?\ lo/ ,! ?9k]'s peace ( m9d4 ,consid] n[1 ,if f ?is picture "s gho/ speaks to !e ,!n ,i myself mu/ surely gho/ly be4 ,,/rad]3 ,=give me1 fri5d1 'twas weakness on my "p4 ,,capesius3 ,ah1 speak b good1 n evil1 ( ?is h\r6 ,= ?\gh ?\ seem$'/ to h lo/ ?yself1 ,yet 9 reality ?\ wa/ uprais$ ,f>1 f> above ?yself2 & ?\ did/ feel1 ,ev5 z ,i myself full (t h felt4 ,at su* times1 h[soe'er "o feels oneself ,/rong-arm\r$ at all po9ts ) logic's might1 ,"o c b be conv9c$ t "o is seiz$ ,by "s /range p[] t c h orig9 ,n 9 s5se-k or s5se-reason+4 ,:o ha? end[$ ?is picture ) su* p[]8 ,to me x seems ! symbol 9 s5se-life ,( s\l-exp]i5ces ga9$ !reby4 ,x ha? taught me to recognize my s\l1 ,z nev] h]et(ore seem$ possible2 ,& mo/ conv9c+ ?is self-k prov$4 ,?omasius did se>* me ?r\gh & ?r\gh3 ,= unto him 0 giv5 p[] to pi]ce ,?r\gh s5se-appe>ance unto _s-self4 ,) 8 develop$ sight he p5etrates ,to _s v]ity2 & ?us = me ,^? anci5t words ( wisdom3 ',"k ?yself1' ,9 new light d appe>4 ,to "k ourselves ,e'en z we are1 we mu/ fir/ f9d t p[] ,)9 ourselves1 :i*1 z true _s1 do? ,conceal itself f u 9 our own selves4 ,,m>ia3 ,we mu/1 to f9d ourselves1 t p[] unfold ,:i* c pi]ce ?r\gh into our v s\ls3 ,& truly d ^! words ( wisdom speak-- ,unfold ?yself & ?\ %alt f9d ?yself4 ,,/rad]3 ,if we admit n[1 t ,?omasius ,ha? ?r\gh ?' unfold+ ( 8 _s p[]1 ,atta9$ to k ( t entity1 ,t dwells1 invisible1 9 ea* ( u1 ,!n mu/ we say t on ea* plane ( life ,k do? diff]4 ,,capesius3 ,s w\ld ,i ma9ta94 ,,/rad]3 ,if matt]s ?us d /&1 !n is all ?\ght ,no?+3 all le>n+ b illusory2 ,& e mom5t ,i mu/ lose myself4444 ,oh1 d leave me alone4444 7,exit47 ,,capesius3 ,i'll g ) him4 7,exit47 ,,m>ia3 ,capesius is ne>] f> today ,to _s lore1 ?an he himself do? ?9k2 ,& ,/rad] suff]s deeply4 ,:at 8 s\l ,s hotly craves1 8 _s _c f9d4 ,,johannes3 ,! inn] nature ( ^! two did /& ,already !n be=e my _s's eye ,:5 fir/ ,i d>$ to tread ! realm ( s\ls4 ,z a "y man ,i saw ,capesius1 ,& ,/rad] 9 ! ye>s he ha? n rea*$ ,by "s long span z yet4 ,capesius ,did %[ a y\?ful promise :i* conceals ,mu* t ?is life w n all[ to come ,to due fruition 9 ! realms ( s5se4 ,i 0 attract$ to 8 inn] self3 ,9 8 s\l's ess5ce ,i c\ld fir/ behold ,:at is ! ess5tial k]nel ( a man2 ,& h[ a man's peculi>ities ,9 e>?ly life d manife/ !mselves ,z consequ5ces ( "s =m] life4 ,i saw ! /ruggles t he ov]came1 ,:i* 9 8 o!r lives _h orig91 ,& :i* h %ap$ 8 pres5t mode ( life4 ,i c\ld n see 8 dea?-disc>d$ selves ,) my s\l's vision1 yet ,i did p]ceive ,)9 8 nature t :i* c\ld n rise ,f 8 surr\nd+s z !y are today4 ,?us 9 ! picture ,i c\ld reproduce1 ,:at dwells )9 ! basis ( 8 s\l4 ,my bru% 0 guid$ by ! p[]s1 :i* he ,unfold$ 9 8 =m] lives on e>?4 ,if ?us ,i h reveal$ 8 inmo/ self1 ,my picture w h s]v$ ! aim1 :i* ,i ,did purpose = x 9 my ?\ght3 = z ,a "w ( art ,i d n rate x high4 ,,m>ia3 ,x w confirm its "w )9 t s\l ,:i* x ha? %[$ ! pa? to _s-realms4 ,curta9 falls :il/ ,m>ia & ,johannes are /ill 9 ! room ,,sc5e #i ,same region z 9 ,sc5e #b4 ,f rocks & spr+s res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4' ,,johannes3 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself6 ,= ?ree long ye>s ,i h s\ght /r5g? ( s\l1 ) c\rage w+$1 ,:i* do? give tru? unto ^! words1 :]eby ,a man may free himself to conqu] fir/2 ,!n conqu]+ himself may fre$om f9d ,?r\gh ^! same words3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4' 7,f rocks & spr+s res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4'7 ,i note _! pres5ce 9 m9e inmo/ s\l1 ,_! :isp]$ brea?+ ?rills my _s-e>2 ,& hid )9 !mselves !y be> ! hope1 ,t !y w gr[ & lead man's _s up1 ,out ( 8 n>r[ self to _w-wide space1 ,e'en z a giant oak my/]i\sly ,builds 8 pr\d body f an acorn small4 ,_s c cause to live 9 its own self ,all weav+ =ms ( wat] & ( air1 ,& all t do? make h>d ! solid e>?4 ,man too c grasp :ate'er ha? ta'en firm hold ,( be+1 9 ! elem5ts1 9 s\ls1 ,9 "t1 9 spirits & et]nity4 ,! :ole _w's ess5ce lies 9 "o s\l's core1 ,:5 su* p[] 9 ! _s roots itself1 ,:i* c give tru? unto ^! selfsame words3 ,o man1 exp]i5ce & feel ?yself-- 7,f rocks & spr+s res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4'7 ,i feel !m s\nd+ 9 my v s\l1 ,r\s+ !mselves to grant me /r5g? & p[]4 ,! light do? live 9 me2 ! brightness speaks ,ar\nd me2 s\l light g]m9ates 9 me2 ,! brightness ( all worlds creates 9 me3 ,o man1 exp]i5ce & feel ?yself2 7,f rocks & spr+s res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4'7 ,,johannes3 ,i f9d myself secure on e side1 ,:]e'er ^! words ( p[] d foll[ me4 ,!y w give light 9 s5se-life's d>k5$ ways3 ,!y w su/a9 me on ! _s-heights3 ,s\l-sub/ance w !y p\r into my he>t ,?r\gh all ! ons ( et]nity4 ,i feel ! ess5ce ( ! worlds 9 me1 ,& ,i mu/ f9d myself 9 all ! worlds4 ,i gaze ^u ! nature ( my s\l1 ,:i* m9e own p[] ha? vivifi$2 ,i re/ ,)9 myself2 ,i look on rocks & spr+s2 ,!y speak ! native language ( my s\l4 ,i f9d myself aga9 )9 t s\l1 ,into ^: life ,i br\ght su* bitt] grief2 ,& out ( h] ,i call unto myself3 ',?\ mu/ f9d me aga9 & ease my pa94' ,! _s-light w give to me ! /r5g? ,to live ?is o!r self 9 its own self4 ,oh hopeful words1 ye /ream =? /r5g? to me ,f all ! worlds3 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4 7,f rocks & spr+s res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4'7 ,,johannes3 ,ye make me feel my feebl5ess1 & yet ,ye place me ne> ! highe/ aims ( gods2 ,& blissfully ,i feel creative p[] ,f ^! high aims 9 my weak1 e>?ly =m4 ,& out ( m9e own ,self %all /& reveal$ ,^? p[]s1 :]e( ! g]m lies hid 9 me4 ,& ,i w give myself unto ! _w ,by liv+ out m9e own ess5tial life2 ,yea1 all ! might ( ^! words w ,i feel1 ,:i* s\nd )9 me s(tly at ! fir/4 ,!y %all become = me a quick5+ fire ,9 my s\l-p[]s & on my _s-pa?s4 ,i feel h[ n[ my v ?\ght do? pi]ce ,to deep-conceal$ f\ndations ( ! _w2 ,& h[ x /reams ?r\gh !m ) radiant light4 ,e'en ?us do? "w ! fructify+ p[] ,( ^! same words3 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4 7,f rocks & spr+s res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself6'7 ,f heights ( light a be+ %9es on me1 ,& ,i feel w+s to lift myself to him3 ,i too w free myself1 l all ^? s\ls1 ,:o conqu]$ self4 7,f spr+s & rocks res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4'7 ,t be+ d ,i see ,:om ,i w\ld fa9 be l 9 future times4 ,! _s 9 me %all gr[ free1 ?r\gh !e ,sublime example1 ,i w foll[ !e4 7,ent] ,m>ia7 ,,johannes3 ,! _s-be+s1 :o did take me up1 ,h wok5 n[ ! vision ( my s\l4 ,& z ,i gaze into ! _s worlds1 ,i feel 9 m9e own self ! quick5+ p[] ,( ^! same words3 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4 7,f spr+s & rocks res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself6'7 ,,johannes3 ,?\ "h1 my fri5d8 ,,m>ia3 ,my s\l did urge me "h4 ,i saw ?y /> %9+ 9 fulle/ /r5g?4 ,,johannes3 ,?is /r5g? c ,i exp]i5ce 9 myself4 ,,m>ia3 ,s closely are we "o1 t ?y s\l's life ,all[s its light to %9e =? 9 my s\l4 ,,johannes3 ,m>ia1 !n ?\ also art aw>e ,( :at has j reveal$ itself to me4 ,man's fir/ conviction has j come to me1 ,& ,i h ga9$ ! c]ta9ty ( self4 ,i feel t p[] to guide me ev]y:]e ,lies 9 ^! words3 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4 7,f rocks & spr+s res\nds3 ',o man1 feel ?\ ?yself6'7 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #aj ,a room = m$itation z 9 ,sc5e #c4 ,,!odosius 79 _s-g>b73 ,n[ can/ ?\ feel all worlds )9 ?yself3 ,s n[ feel me z love-p[] ( all worlds4 ,a nature1 t is light$ up by me1 ,feels its own be+'s p[] enhanc$1 :5e'er ,x gives itself to give ano!r joy4 ,?us d ,i "w ) true creative joy ,to build ! worlds4 ,)\t me none c live1 ,& naught )\t my /r5g? c e'er exi/4 ,,johannes3 ,s ?\ do/ /& be=e my _s's eye1 ,joy-giv] ( all worlds4 ,my _s's /r5g? ,do? feel creative joy1 :5 ,i behold ,!e z ! fruit ( self-exp]i5ce4 ,)9 ! temple to my _s's eye ,once did/ ?\ %[ ?yself1 yet at t "t ,i knew n :e!r dream or tru? appe>$4 ,b n[ ! scales h fall5 f m9e eyes1 ,:i* kept ! _s's light conceal$ f me3 ,i "k n[ t ?\ really do/ exi/4 ,i w reveal ?y nature 9 my de$s2 ,& !y %all "w salvation ?r\gh ?y p[]4 ,to ,b5$ictus too ,i owe deep ?anks3 ,?r\gh wisdom ha? he giv5 me ! /r5g? ,to turn my _s's sight unto ?y _w4 ,,!odosius3 ,feel me 9 ?y s\l-dep?s1 & be> my p[] ,to all ! worlds4 ,?us1 s]v+ ,love's behe/s ,?\ %alt exp]i5ce true bless$ness4 ,,johannes3 ,i feel ?y pres5ce ?r\gh its w>m+ light2 ,i feel creative p[] arise 9 me4 7,!odosius disappe>s47 ,he ha? dep>t$3 b he w return ,& give me /r5g? f out ! spr+s ( love4 ,8 light c disappe> b = a:ile2 ,!n1 9 its own exi/5ce1 x lives on4 ,i c resign myself unto my ,self1 ,& feel ,love's v self 9 m9e own s\l3 ,by ,love uplift$ ,i c feel my ,self3 ,love %all ?r\gh me reveal himself to man4 7,he gr[s unc]ta91 z is gradually made manife/ by 8 ge/ures47 ,yet h[ %all ,i exp]i5ce myself8 ,x seems "s _s-be+ drawe? ne>4 ,s9ce ,i 0 c\nt$ wor?y to receive ,! _s's sight1 ,i feel x ev] ?us1 ,:5 evil p[]s desire to seize on me4 ,yet1 come :at may1 ,i h /r5g? to resi/2 ,= ,i c feel myself )9 my ,self2 ,:i* quick5+ words give /r5g? inv9cible4 ,yet n[ mo/ /rong resi/ance d ,i feel3 ,well may x be ! fi]ce/ ( all foes3 ,b let him come1 = he w f9d me arm$4 ,?\ foe ( ,good2 'tis surely ?9e own self6 ,= ne> me ,i c feel ?y pot5t /r5g?4 ,i "k ?\ do/ desire to r5d 9 twa9 ,:ate'er has wr5*$ itself f ?y control4 ,b ,i %all /r5g!n 9 me t new /r5g?1 ,:]e9 ?\ can/ h nei!r "p nor lot4 7,b5$ictus appe>s47 ,,johannes3 ,o ,b5$ictus1 f\nt ( my new life6 ,x is n possible4 ,x _c be4 ,nay1 nay1 x _c be ?yself4 ,?\ art ,"s va9 illusion4 ,oh1 revive 9 me ,ye good p[]s ( my s\l1 & /raightway cru% ,?is phantom image1 t w\ld mock at me6 ,,b5$ictus3 ,ask ( ?y s\l n[1 :e!r x c feel1 ,:at ?r\gh ^! ye>s my ne>ness meant to x4 ,?r\gh me ! fruits ( wisdom grew = !e2 ,& wisdom only n[ c lead !e on1 ,& f5d f error 9 ! _s's realm4 ,s n[ exp]i5ce me )9 ?yself4 ,yet w\ld/ ?\ g /ill fur!r1 ?\ mu/ !n ,ent] t way1 :i* to my temple leads4 ,& if my wisdom is to guide !e /ill ,to l(ti] heights1 x mu/ fl[ f t spot ,:]e ) my bre?r5 close conjo9$ ,i "w4 ,! /r5g? ( tru? ,i gave to !e myself2 ,& if ?is k9dles p[] f its own fire ,)9 ?yself1 !n %alt ?\ f9d ! way4 7,exit47 ,,johannes3 ,oh1 he do? leave me4 ,h[ %all ,i decide ,:e!r ,i h "s phantom =m dispell$1 ,or if reality ha? left me n[8 ,yet d ,i feel 9 me my /r5g? r5ew$4 ',twas no illusion1 b ! man himself4 ,i w exp]i5ce !e )9 myself1 ,o ,b5$ictus1 = ?\ gav'/ me p[]1 ,:i*1 gr[+ ( itself )9 myself1 ,taught me to sev] error f ! tru?4 ,& yet to va9 illusion ,i succumb$3 #a felt a %udd'r+ fe> at ?9e approa*2 ,& c\ld consid] !e a fantasy1 ,:5 ?\ did/ /& be=e my v eyes4 7,!odosius appe>s47 ,,!odosius3 ,f all illusion ?\ %alt free ?yself1 ,:5 ?\ do/ fill ?yself ) m9e own /r5g?3 ,to me c\ld ,b5$ictus lead ?y /eps1 ,b ?9e own wisdom n[ mu/ be ?y guide4 ,if ?\ do/ only live :at he ha? put ,)9 !e1 !n ?\ can/ n live ?yself4 ,9 fre$om /rive unto ! heights ( light2 ,& = ?is /riv+ n[ receive my /r5g?4 7,exit47 ,,johannes3 ,h[ glori\s ^! words ( ?9e d s\nd6 ,i mu/ n[ live !m out )9 myself4 ,f all illusion !y w set me free1 ,if !y b fill my nature to ! full4 ,"w on !n fur!r 9 my s\l's deep core1 ,ye words1 sublime & gr&6 ,ye surely mu/ ,proce$ f out ! temple's %r9e alone1 ,s9ce ,b5$ictus' bro!r utt]$ y4 ,i feel already h[ ye m\nt )9 ,m9e inmo/ be+4 ,soon %all ye res\nd ,f out my v ,self1 t ,i may read ,y\r mean+ rightly4 ,_s1 t do? dwell ,)9 me1 =? f ?y concealm5t come6 ,n[ 9 ?9e own true nature %[ ?yself6 ,i feel ?y ne> approa*3 ?\ mu/ appe>4 7,lucif] & ,ahriman appe>47 ,,lucif]3 ,o man1 "k me4 ,o man1 feel ?\ ?yself4 ,f _s guidance ha/ ?\ fre$ ?yself1 ,& into e>?'s free realms ?\ ha/ escap$4 ,mid/ e>?'s confusion ?\ did/ seek to prove ,?9e own exi/5ce2 & to f9d ?yself ,0 ?y rew>d4 ,s n[ use ?is rew>d4 ,9 _s-v5tures keep ?yself secure4 ,9 ! wide realms on high a be+ /range ,?\ %alt discov]1 :o to human lot ,w fett] !e1 & w oppress !e too4 ,a man1 feel ?\ ?yself3 ,o man1 "k me4 ,,ahriman3 ,o man1 "k ?\ ?yself3 ,o man1 feel me4 ,f _s d>kness ha/ ?\ n[ escap$2 ,& ?\ ha/ f\nd aga9 ! light ( e>?4 ,s n[ f my sure gr\nd draw /r5g? & tru?4 ,! solid e>? d ,i make h>d & fa/3 ,yet can/ ?\ also lose t c]ta9ty4 ,weak hesitation c e'en n[ de/roy ,! p[] ( be+1 & ?\ can/ misuse ,! _s-/r5g? e'en 9 ! heights ( light4 ,?\ can/ be r5t 9 twa9 )9 ?yself4 ,o man1 feel me4 ,o man1 "k ?\ ?yself4 7,exit ) ,lucif]47 ,,johannes3 ,:at meane? ?is8 ,fir/ ,lucif] arose ,f me1 & ,ahriman did foll[ him4 ,do? n[ "s new illusion haunt my s\l1 ,al?\gh ,i pray$ s ard5tly = tru?8 ,ha? ,b5$ictus' bro!r r\s$ 9 me ,only ^? p[]s1 :i* 9 ! s\ls ( m5 ,d b create illusion & deceit8 7,! foll[+ is a _s voice com+ f ! heights47 ,,_s3 ,to f\nts ( _w primeval ,?y surg+ ?\ghts d m\nt4 ,:at unto illusion urg$1 ,:at 9 error held !e fa/1 ,appe>e? to !e n[ 9 _s-light4 ,?r\gh ^: fulness see+1 ,mank9d do? ?9k 9 tru?2 ,?r\gh ^: fulness /riv+1 ,mank9d do? live 9 ,love4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #aa ,! ,temple ( ! ,sun4 ,hidd5 site ( ! my/]ies ( ! ,hi]ophants4 ,capesius & ,/rad] appe> z 9 ,sc5e #d4 ,,ret>dus 7to ,capesius & ,/rad] be=e him73 ,ye h br\ght bitt] grief to me1 my fri5ds4 ,! (fice :i* ,i did entru/ to y ,ye h adm9i/]$ ) ill success4 ,i call y n[ be=e my judgm5t seat4 ,to !e1 ,capesius1 ,i did entru/ ,full measure ( ! _s1 t ideas ,( mank9d's upw>d /riv+ might compose1 ,) graceful words1 ! cont5t ( ?y spee*1 ,:i* %\ld h work$ conv9c+ly on man4 ,!n ?9e activity ,i did direct ,into ^? ga!r+s ( m51 :]e9 ,?\ did/ ,johannes & ,m>ia meet4 ,_! t5d5cy t[>ds ! _s-sight ,?\ %\ld/ h sup]s$$ by ! p[] ,:i* ?y words %\ld h ex]cis$ on !m4 ,in/ead ( t ?\ did/ ?yself give up ,unto ! influ5ce :i* fl[s f !m4-- ,& to !e1 ,/rad]1 did ,i %[ ! way ,t leads to sci5tific c]ta9ty4 ,?\ had/ by rigid ?9k+ to de/roy ,! magic p[] t comes f _s-sight4 ,b yet ?\ lack$/ feel+'s c]ta9 t\*4 ,! p[] ( ?\ght did slip away f !e1 ,:5 opportunity = conque/ came4 ,my fate is close-entw9d ) y\r de$s1 ,?r\gh y are ^! two seek]s aft] tru? ,n[ lo/ = ev]more f my doma92 ,= to ! bre?r5 ,i mu/ give _! s\ls4 ,,capesius3 ,?y tru/y mess5g] ,i c\ld n be4 ,?\ gav'/ me p[] to picture human life2 ,& ,i c\ld well portray :ate'er inspir$ ,! s\ls ( m5 at ?is "t or at t3 ,b yet x 0 impossible = me ,to gift my words1 :i* pa9t$ b ! pa/1 ,) p[] to fill & satisfy m5's s\ls4 ,,/rad]3 ,! weakness :i* mu/ ne$s befall me too ,0 b a true reflection ( ?9e own4 ,k inde$ ?\ c\ld/ give to me3 ,b n ! p[] to /ill t ye>n+ voice1 ,:i* /rives = tru? 9 e ye>n+ he>t4 ,deep 9 m9e inmo/ s\l ,i none ! less ,felt o!r p[]s cont9ually arise4 ,,ret>dus3 ,see n[ !n :at result y\r weakness br+s4 ,! bre?r5 are approa*+ ) ^? s\ls ,9 :om !y w o'er?r[ my p[]4 ,e'en n[ ,johannes & ,m>ia feel _! might4 7,ent] ,b5$ictus ) ,lucif] & ,ahriman2 beh9d !m ,johannes & ,m>ia47 ,,b5$ictus 7to ,lucif]73 ,johannes' & ,m>ia's s\ls h n[ ,no long] room = bl9d unsee+ p[]3 ,to _s-life !y h be5 lift$ up4 ,,lucif]3 ,!n mu/ ,i /raightway f _! s\ls dep>t4 ,! wisdom unto :i* !y h atta9$1 ,do? give !m p[] to see me1 & my sway ,o'er s\ls ( m5 do? only la/ s long ,z ,i rema9 invisible to !m4 ,yet do? ! p[] cont9ue :i* ha? be5 ,f ! creation ( ! worlds m9e own4 ,& ?\gh ,i _c tempt _! s\ls1 yet /ill ,my p[] w cause )9 _! _s-life ,mo/ beaute\s fruits1 to rip5 & endure4 ,,b5$ictus 7to ,ahriman73 ,johannes' & ,m>ia's s\ls h n[ ,de/roy$ all error's d>kness 9 !mselves2 ,& _s-sight ha? be5 reveal$ to !m4 ,,ahriman3 ,i mu/ inde$ r5\nce _! spirits !n2 ,= !y w turn h5ce=? unto ! light4 ,yet "o ?+ ha? n yet be5 ta'en f me2 ,) s5se-appe>ance to delight _! s\ls4 ,& ?\gh no long] !y w deem x tru?1 ,yet w !y see h[ tru? x do? reveal4 7,ent] ! ,o!r ,m>ia47 ,,!odosius 7to ! ,o!r ,m>ia73 ,close int]tw9d 0 ?y de/9y ,) ?9e exalt$ si/]'s l(ti] life3 ,! light ( love ,i c\ld imp>t to h]3 ,b n ! w>m? ( love1 s long z ?\ ,did/ always let ?y noble/ impulses ,f dim s5sations only rise 9 !e1 ,& did/ n /rive to see !m cle> & bold ,9 ! full light ( wisdom's c]ta9ty4 ,! influ5ce ( ! ,temple does n rea* ,unto ! nature ( vague impulses1 ,e'en ?\gh su* impulse wills to "w = good4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,m>ia3 ,i ne$s mu/ recognize t noble ?\ght ,c only "w salvation 9 ! light4 ,s to ! temple ,i n[ w5d my way4 ,my own emotion %all 9 future times ,n rob ! light ( love ( its results4 ,,!odosius3 ,?r\gh ?is1 ?9e insight1 ?\ do/ give me p[] ,to make ,m>ia's s\l-light on ! e>? ,run smoo? & ev5ly ^u its pa?3 ,= aye a=etime x mu/ lose its might ,9 s\ls1 su* z ?9e own 0 h]et(ore1 ,:i* w\ld n unify _! light ) love4 ,,johannes 7to ! ,o!r ,m>ia73 ,i see 9 !e ! nature ( t s\l1 ,:i* also holde? sway )9 m9e own4 ,i 0 unable to f9d out ! way ,:i* l$ to ?9e exalt$ si/]'s s\l ,s long z 9 my he>t ! w>m? ( love ,f love's light ev] held itself ap>t4 ,! sacrifice :i* to ! temple's %r9e ,?\ br+'/1 %all be repeat$ 9 my s\l4 ,!re9 ! w>m? ( love %all sacrifice ,itself unto love's wond]-work+ light4 ,,m>ia3 ,johannes1 9 ! realm ( _s-life ,?\ ha/ atta9$ to k ?r\gh myself4 ,to _s k ?\ can/ only add ,true s\l-exi/5ce1 :5 ?\ f9de/ too ,?9e own s\l1 z ?\ did/ f9d m9e be=e4 7,ent] ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna47 ,,philia3 ,!n f ! :ole creation ( ! worlds ,! joy ( s\ls %all be reveal$ to !e4 ,,a/rid3 ,f ?9e :ole be+ !n c be outp\r$ ,! light & radiance ( ! w>m? ( s\ls4 ,,luna3 ,!n %alt ?\ d>e to live out ?9e own self1 ,:5 su* light c illum9ate ?y s\l4 7,ent] ,felix & ,felicia ,balde47 ,,romanus 7to ,felix ,balde73 ,long ha/ ?\ f ! temple held ?yself4 ,?\ only w\ld/ admit enlight5m5t1 ,:5 light f ?9e own s\l reveal$ itself4 ,m5 ( ?y nature rob me ( ! p[] ,to give my light unto m5's s\ls on e>?4 ,!y wi% to draw f d>ksome dep?s alone1 ,:at !y %\ld freely (f] unto life4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,yet 'twas man's own illusion 9 itself1 ,t br\ght me light f out ! d>ke/ dep?s3 ,& let me to ! temple f9d my way4 ,,romanus3 ,! fact t ?\ ha/ hi!r f\nd ?y way ,gives me ! p[] to give light to ! w ,( bo? ,johannes & ,m>ia "h4 ,t x no m may foll[ =ces bl9d1 ,b f _w-aims h5ce=? direct itself4 ,,m>ia3 ,johannes1 ?\ ha/ se5 ?9e own self n[ ,9 _s 9 myself4 ,?\ %alt live out ,?9e own exi/5ce z a _s1 :5 ,! _w's light c behold itself 9 !e4 ,,johannes 7to ,felix ,balde73 ,9 !e1 good bro!r ,felix1 d ,i see ,t s\l-p[] :i* did hold my w fa/ b\nd ,9 its own _s4 ,?\ w\ld/ f9d ! way ,unto ! temple3 ) ! /r5g? ( w ,)9 my _s ,i w\ld fa9 po9t out ,! pa? unto ! temple ( ! s\l4 ,,ret>dus3 ,johannes' & ,m>ia's s\ls e'en n[ ,escape f my doma93 h[ !n %all !y ,discov] all t spr+s =? f my might8 ,s long z !y did lack )9 _! s\ls ,! fundam5ts ( le>n+1 !y did /ill ,f9d joy & pleasure 9 my gifts1 b n[ ,i see myself compell$ to let !m g4 ,,felicia3 ,t man )\t ?9e aid1 may fire himself ,to rational ?\ght1 t h ,i %[n to !e ,f me a le>n+ /reams t d>e be> fruit4 ,,johannes3 ,?is le>n+ %all be w$d$ to ! light1 ,:i* f ?is temple's s\rce c fill m5's s\ls4 ,,ret>dus3 ,capesius1 my son1 ?\ art n[ lo/4 ,?\ ha/ )drawn ?yself f my doma9 ,be=e ! temple's light c %9e = !e4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,he ha? begun ! pa?4 ,he feels ! light4 ,& he w w9 ! /r5g? to se>* & "k ,9 8 own s\l all t1 :i* up till n[ ,good ,dame ,felicia ha? produc$ = him4 ,,/rad]3 ,!n ,i alone seem lo/1 = ( myself ,i _c ca/ all d\bts f out my he>t2 ,& surely ,i %all nev] f9d aga9 ,! way t do? unto ! temple lead4 ,,!odora3 ,f out ?9e he>t a gl[ ( light spreads =?2 ,a human image n[ is born !refrom2 ,& ,i c he> ! words1 :i* d proce$ ,f ?is same human =m4 ,e'en ?us !y s\nd3 ',i h a*iev$ ! p[] to rea* ! light4' ,my fri5d1 tru/ ?\ ?yself6 ,^! v words1 ,:5 ?y "t is fulfill$1 ?yself %alt speak4 ,curta9 ,,! ,,s\l',s ,,probation ,,summ>y ,,( ,,! ,,sc5es ,sc5e #a3 ,capesius4 ,8 occult ex]cises & 8 despair4 ,sc5e #b3 ,m$itation *amb] ! same z ,sc5es #c & #aj ( ,play #a4 ,b5$ictus w>ns ,m>ia t ,johannes mu/ be free4 ,%e resolves to look back ^u pa/ inc>nations4 ,sc5e #c3 ,johannes & 8 pa9t+4 ,m>ia resolves n to h9d] 8 fre$om by h] love4 ,sc5e #d3 ,z ,sc5e #a4 ,capesius & ,/rad]4 ,sc5e #e3 ,capesius at ! ,balde's cottage4 ,dame ,felicia's fable4 ,johannes & 8 d\ble4 ,sc5e #f3 ,! #ad? c5tury4 ,! mead[s by ! ,ca/le ( ! ,my/ic ,knights4 ,c\ntry folk4 ,! ,jew4 ,?omas confesses to ! ,monk 8 love = ,keane's daught]4 ,sc5e #g3 ,same p]iod4 ,! ,int]ior ( ! ,ca/le4 ,! ,gr& ,ma/] & ,c\ncil4 ,! ,monk's dem&4 ,! app>ition ( 8 late ,ma/]1 ,b5$ictus4 ,sc5e #h3 ,same p]iod4 ,keane has discov]$ t ,?omas & 8 swee!>t are ! *ildr5 ( ! #a/ ,preceptor & in=ms ! #a/ ,preceptor ( ! fact4 ,! sc5e closes ) a discussion on evolution1 & ! inspir$ w>n+ ( ! ,second ,ma/] ( ,c]emonies4 ,sc5e #i3 ,same p]iod4 ,! ,keanes4 ,dame ,keane's fable4 ,! ,c\ntry folk4 ,?omas & ,cecilia4 ,sc5e #aj3 ,sc5e same z ,sc5e #e4 ,! return to ! pres5t day4 ,explanation ( ,sc5es #f to #i4 ,sc5e #aa3 ,m$itation *amb] z 9 ,sc5e #b4 ,m>ia defeats ,ahriman4 ,sc5e #ab3 ,! same4 ,johannes & ,lucif]4 ,sc5e #ac3 ,! ,temple ( ! ,sun4 ,de/9y4 ,,p]sons1 ,,=ms1 ,,& ,,features ,! spiritual & psy*ic exp]i5ces ( ! *>act]s appe>+ 9 ?is ,s\l's ,probation are a cont9uation ( ! exp]i5ces giv5 9 ! sc5es ( ,! ,portal ( ,initiation1 & ! ev5ts relat$ occur sev]al ye>s lat]4 ,b5$ictus ,!odosius ,hi]ophants ( ! ,temple ( ! ,sun4 ,romanus ,pr(essor ,capesius4 ,philia ,! spiritual be+s :o facilitate ! connection ,a/rid betwe5 ! ,s\l & ! ,cosmos4 ,!y are n ,luna allegorical1 b are realities = ! _s ,se]4 ,! ,o!r ,philia1 ,! spiritual be+ :o h9d]s ! connection betwe5 ! ,s\l & ! ,cosmos4 ,! ,voice ( ,consci5ce1 n allegorical1 b a reality1 = ! _s ,se]4 ,m>ia4 ,johannes ,?omasius4 ,doctor ,/rad]4 ,felix ,balde4 ,felicia1 8 wife4 ,! ',d\ble' ( ,johannes ,?omasius4 ,lucif]4 ,ahriman4 ,! ev5ts ( ! ,six? to ! ,n9? ,sc5es conta9 ! spiritual vision ( ,capesius into 8 =m] life4 ,m>ia & ,johannes %>e ! exp]i5ces at ! same "t2 b ,/rad]'s =m] inc>nation is only se5 by ,capesius1 ,m>ia1 & ,johannes4 ,^! sc5es back into ! f\rte5? c5tury are conceiv$ z results ( imag9ative cognition1 & 9 ! physical _w are only recognizable by _! effect4 ,! way 9 :i* a life is repeat$ 7f occurr5ces ( ! f\rte5? c5tury into ! pres5t day7 %\ld n be tak5 arbitr>ily1 b m]ely z :at may happ5 at any turn+ po9t ( "t4 ,^! conflicts & consequ5ces ( a =m] life are only possible at su* a "t4 ,! ,vision ( ,capesius into ! ,f\rte5? ,c5tury ,! ,_s ( ,b5$ictus4 ,! ,gr& ,ma/]1 *ief ( a bran* ( my/ic bro!rhood4 ,fir/ ,preceptor1 ( ! my/ic bro!rhood4 7,a =m] inc>nation ( ,pr(essor ,capesius47 ,second ,preceptor1 ( ! my/ic bro!rhood4 ,fir/ ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies1 ( ! my/ic bro!rhood4 ,second ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies1 ( ! my/ic bro!rhood4 ,simon1 ! ,jew 7a =m] inc>nation ( ,dr4 ,/rad]74 ,?omas 7a =m] inc>nation ( ,johannes ,?omasius74 ,a ,monk 7a =m] inc>nation ( ,m>ia74 ,joseph ,keane 7a =m] inc>nation ( ,felix ,balde74 ,8 ,wife 7a =m] inc>nation ( ,felicia ,balde74 ,b]?a1 _! daught] 7a =m] inc>nation ( ! ,o!r ,m>ia74 ,cecilia1 _! fo/]-daught] 7a =m] inc>nation ( ,!odora74 ,six ,c\ntry ,m51 & ,six ,c\ntry ,wom54 ,note on ! ,co/umes ,worn 7see also notes to ! ,portal ( ,initiation74 ,! knights are 9 *a9 arm\r & d>k blue robes ( _! ord]1 ) a :ite ,maltese cross on _! mantle & on _! tunic4 ,! mantle ( ! ,gr& ,ma/] is crimson2 8 tunic is :ite ) a r$ cross4 ,_! blue caps & ! ,gr& ,ma/]'s r$ cap are flat & triangul>4 ,! app>ition ( ,b5$ictus 9 ,sc5e #g1 is 9 p9k pea* blossom col\r4 ,he appe>s 9 ! backgr\nd ab\t n9e feet above ! /age & rema9s rigid ) 8 arms ext5d$ 9 cross fa%ion ! :ole "t ( 8 appe>ance 9 ?is sc5e4 ,,! ,,s\l',s ,,probation ,,sc5e #a ,! libr>y & /udy ( ,capesius4 ,prevail+ col\r br[n4 ,ev5+4 ,fir/ ,capesius1 !n ! ,_s-,=ms :o are p[]s ( s\l2 lat] ,b5$ictus4 ,,capesius 7read+ 9 a book73 ',by inw>d gaz+ on ! ,be+less1 ,& dream+ ?r\gh ! %ad[y picture realm ,( ?\ght1 con=mably to self-made laws3-- ,?us err+ human nature (t5 seeks ,to f9d ! mean+ & ! goal ( life3 ,! s\l f its own dep?s w\ld draw replies ,to que/ions t conc]n ! univ]se4 ,yet su* attempts are va91 illusory ,e'en at ! outset1 & !y lead at la/ ,to feeble visions :i* de/roy !mselves4' 7,speak+ z foll[s47 ,?us is portray$ 9 words ( import grave ,?r\gh ,b5$ictus' noble _s-sight1 ,! inw>d life ( _m human s\ls4 ,ea* phrase goes home de/ructive to my he>t-- ,unfold+ truly m9e own way & life ,until ?is day1 ) cruel vividness4 ,& %\ld a god ?is v h\r appe> ,desc5d+ on me 9 a rag+ /orm ,& clad 9 wra?1 yet c\ld 8 ?reat5+ might ,n torture me ) m appall+ fe>s ,?an d ! ,ma/]'s words1 z /rong z fate4 ,long ha? my life be51 b its web displays ,no?+ b pictures %ad[y & dim ,:i* haunt my dream+ s\l & fondly /rive ,to mirror tru?s ( nature & ( m9d4 ,) ?is dream-fabric ha? my ?\ght essay$ ,to solve ! riddle ( ! univ]se4 ,d[n _m a pa? my re/less s\l ,i turn$4 ,yet d ,i cle>ly see t ,i myself1 ,0 n ! active ma/] ( my s\l ,:5 ?reads ( ?\ght along illusion's pa? ,spun !mselves out to cosmic di/ances4 ,s t :i* ,i 9 my cont5t beheld ,9 pictures1 left me empty1 l$ to naught4 ,!n came across my pa? ,?omasius1 ,! y\?ful pa9t]4 ,he inde$ /rode on1 ,upheld by true/ en]gies ( s\l ,to t exalt$ spiritual way ,:i* trans=ms human life1 & makes to rise ,f hidd5 gulfs ( s\l ! en]gy ,:i* fe$s ! spr+s ( life )9 ourselves4 ,t :i* awoke f out 8 inmo/ s\l ,abides 9 e man4 ,& s9ce f him ,i ga9$ ?is revelation1 ,i d c\nt ,z *ief among/ ! _m s9s ( life ,to let ! _s's treasure gr[ corrupt4 ,i "k h5ce=? t ,i mu/ se>* & seek ,& nev]more all[ myself to d\bt4 ,9 days gone by my vanity ( ?\ght ,c\ld h entic$ me to ! false belief ,t unto k man aspires 9 va92 ,& only failure & despair belong ,to ^? :o w\ld lay b>e ! spr+s ( life4 ,& 7 all wisdom to unite 9 ?is1 ,& 7 ,i p[]less to reject ! claim ,t human de/9y dem&s ( man ,t he %all lose 8 individual self ,& s9k into ! gulf ( no?+ness1 ,yet w\ld ,i make ! v5ture unafraid4 ,su* ?\ghts w\ld be a sacrilege today1 ,s9ce ,i h le>n$ ,i _c w9 repose ,until ! _s treasure 9 my s\l ,ha? be5 unveild to ! light ( day4 ,! fruits ( "w ( _s-entities ,h be5 implant$ 9 ! human s\l1 ,& :oso leaves ! _s se$ to lie ,unhe$$ & decay1 he br+s to n\ght ,! "w div9e committ$ unto man4 ,?us d ,i recognize life's highe/ task2 ,yet :5 ,i try to take "o s+le /ep ,across ! ?re%old t ,i d>e n %un1 ,i feel my /r5g? des]t me1 :i* ( yore ,did pride itself on elevat$ ?\ght1 ,& s\ght ! goals ( life 9 "t & space4 ,once did ,i reckon x an easy ?+ ,to set ! bra9 9 action & to grasp ,! nature ( reality by ?\ght4 ,b n[1 :5 ,i w\ld se>* ! f\nt ( life ,& compreh5d x z 9 tru? x is1 ,my ?\ght appe>s z "s blunt in/rum5t2 ,i h no p[]1 no matt] h[ ,i /rive1 ,to =m a cle> ?\ght-image f ! words ,( ,b5$ictus1 ?\gh 8 e>ne/ spee*1 ,%\ld n[ direct me to ! _s's pa?4 7,resum+ 8 read+47 ',9 sil5ce s\nd ! dep?s ( ?9e own s\l1 ,& ev] let /rong c\rage be ?y guide4 ,?y =m] ways ( ?9k+ ca/ away ,:at "t ?\ do/ )draw into ?yself2 ,= only :5 ?9e own light is put out ,w _s-radiance %[ itself to !e4' 7,resum+ 8 soliloquy47 ,x seems z ?\gh ,i c\ld n draw my brea? ,:5 ,i attempt to und]/& ^! words4 ,& ere ,i feel ! ?\ghts t ,i mu/ ?9k1 ,fe> & misgiv+ h beset my s\l4 ,x is borne 9 on me t ev]y?+ ,:i* hi!rto 0 my environm5t ,is crumbl+ into ru91 & !re) ,i too am crumbl+ into no?+ness4 ,an hundr$ times at lea/ h ,i p]us$ ,! words :i* foll[1 & ea* sev]al "t ,d>kness enfolds me deep] ?an be=e4 7,resum+ 8 read+47 ',)9 ?y ?9k+ cosmic ?\ght do? live1 ,)9 ?y feel+ cosmic =ces play1 ,)9 ?y w d cosmic be+s "w2 ,ab&on ?\ ?yself to cosmic ?\ght1 ,exp]i5ce ?yself ?r\gh cosmic =ce1 ,create ?yself anew f cosmic w4 ,end n at la/ 9 cosmic di/ances ,by fantasies ( dreamy ?\ght beguil$4 ,d ?\ beg9 9 f>!/ _s-realms ,& end 9 ! recesses ( ?y s\l4 ,! plan div9e !n %alt ?\ recognize ,:5 ?\ ha/ realiz$ ?y ,self 9 !e4' 7,becomes entranc$ by a vision1 !n comes to himself & speaks47 ,:at 0 ?is8 7,?ree ,figures1 repres5t+ s\l-=ces1 float r\nd him47 ,,luna3 ,abundant p[] is ?9e ,= l(ty _s-flight2 ,its sure f\ndation re/s ,^u ! human w4 ,its temp] ha? be5 tri$ ,by sure & c]ta9 hope4 ,x ha? gr[n /rong z /eel ,by sight ( future times4 ,?\ do/ b c\rage lack ,to p\r into ?y w ,?y confid5ce 9 life4 ,into ! va/ ,unkn[n ,d>e b to v5ture =?6 ,,a/rid3 ,f cosmic di/ances ,& f ! sun's glad light1 ,f utmo/ realms ( />s ,& magic might ( worlds1 ,f heav5's e!real blue ,& _s's l(ty p[]1 ,w9 might9ess ( s\l2 ,& s5d its radiant beams ,deep d[n )9 ?9e he>t2 ,t k gl[+ w>m ,may ?us be born 9 !e4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,!y are deceiv+ !e ,?is evil si/]hood2 ,!y seek b to ensn>e ,by trick]y & guile4 ,! gifts s seem+ fair ,:i* !y h (f]$ !e ,w vani% into air ,:5 ?\ w\ld/ hold !m fa/ ,) all ?y human /r5g?4 ,!y lead !e on to worlds ,inhabit$ by gods1 ,:]e ?\ wilt be de/roy$ ,if1 once )9 _! realm1 ,?\ /rive/ to o'ercome ,by human /r5g? alone4 ,,capesius3 ,x 0 q pla9 t "h "s be+s spake-- ,& yet x is mo/ sure t no "o else-- ,beside myself--is pres5t 9 ?is place4 ,s h ,i b held conv]se ) myself ,& yet t too seems q impossible-- ,= ne'er c\ld ,i imag9e su* disc\rse ,z "h ,i li/5$ to4444 ,am ,i /ill he ,i 0 be=e8 7,f 8 ge/ures x is pla9 he feels unable to reply 'yes4'7 ,oh6 ,i am--,i am n4 ,,! ,,_s-,,voice ,,( ,,consci5ce3 ,?y ?\ghts d n[ desc5d ,to dep?s ( human life ,& :at z s\l do? compass !e ar\nd ,& :at z _s is en*a9$ 9 !e1 ,is lo/ 9 cosmic dep?1 ,f ^: fulness quaff+ ,mank9d do? live 9 ?\ght2 ,f ^: fulness liv+ ,mank9d illusion weaves4 ,,capesius3 ,en\gh4444 ,en\gh4444 ,:]e is ,capesius8 ,y ,i implore 444 ye =ces all unkn[n4444 ,:]e is ,capesius8 ,:]e is 444 myself8 7,once m he relapses into a rev]ie47 7,ent] ,b5$ictus4 ,capesius does n notice him at fir/4 ,b5$ictus t\*es him on ! %\ld]47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,i le>n$ t ?\ did/ wi% to speak ) me1 ,& s ,i came to seek !e 9 ?y home4 ,,capesius3 ,"r good x is ( !e to grant my wi%4 ,yet x _h sc>ce be5 possible t ?\ ,%\ld/ f9d me 9 worse case ?an n[ ,i am4 ,t ,i am n ?is mom5t on ! gr\nd ,pro/rate be=e ?y feet1 aft] su* pa9 ,z ev5 n[ ha? rack$ my s\l1 ,i owe ,to ?y k9d glance alone :i* s\ght m9e own1 ,s soon z ?\ did/ ) ?y g5tle t\* ,ar\se me f ! horrors ( my dream4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,i am aw>e t ,i h f\nd !e n[ ,fight+ a battle = ?y v life4 ,s9ce ,i h kn[n full well ?is long "t pa/ ,t ?us x 0 appo9t$ u to meet4 ,prep>e to *ange ! s5se ( _m words ,if ?\ w\ld/ und]/& my spee* aright ,& d n m>vel t ?y pres5t pa9 ,be>s 9 my language q ano!r "n-- ,i call ?y /ate good =tune4 ,,capesius3 ,!n inde$ ,?\ do/ b heap ! measure ( ! woe ,:i* ca/s me into gloom's abysmal dep?s4 ,j n[ ,i felt z if my real self ,_h fl[n af> to cosmic di/ances1 ,& unfamili> be+s ?r\gh its %ea?s ,7 speak+ "h4 ,b ?is ,i took to be ,halluc9ation1 _s mock]y1 ,& m\rn$ t ?us my s\l c\ld be deceiv$3 ,?is ?\ght alone kept me f break+ d[n4 ,take n away my "r ?us to believe1 ,! only prop ,i lean on2 tell me n ,my fev]$ dream+ 0 good =tune2 else ,i %all be lo/ inde$4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,a man c lose ,n\ght else b t :i* keeps him sep>ate ,f cosmic be+4 ,:5 he seems to lose ,t :i* 9 dreamy fantasies ( ?\ght ,he misappli$ to lab\rs purposeless1 ,!n let him seek = :at has gone f him4 ,= he w surely f9d x1 & )al ,! prop] use to :i* x %\ld be put ,9 human life4 ,m]e words ( com=t n[ ,7 no?+ m ?an clev] play on words4 ,,capesius3 ,nay--lore t may by simple human wit ,be compreh5d$ ?\ do/ n imp>t4 ,bitt] exp]i5ce has %[n me ?is4 ,l de$s :i* lead "o on to l(ty heights ,& also ca/ "o to abysmal dep?s1 ,?y c\nsels p\r a /ream ( fi]y life ,& also dea?ly *ill into m5's s\ls4 ,!y "w at once e'en z ! nod ( fate ,& also z a /orm ( liv+ love4 ,mu* _h ,i s\ght & ?\ght 9 e>li] days ,be=e ,i met !e2 yet ! _s's p[]s1 ,creative & de/ructive1 ,i h le>n$ ,only s9ce ,i h foll[$ 9 ?y /eps4 ,! turmoil & confusion ( my s\l1 ,caus$ by ?y words1 0 evid5t :5 ?\ ,did/ come )9 my *amb]4 ,(t ,i felt ,mu* pa9 :il/ read+ 9 ?y book ( life1 ,until today my cup ( woe 0 full4 ,& s my agony ( s\l o'erfl[$1 ,spill$ by ?y fateful words4 ,_! mean+ swept ,o'er all my s\l unrecogniz$1 & yet ,l "s elixir !y reviv$ my he>t4 ,9 su* wise wr\ght !y 9 ! magic worlds ,t all my cl>ity ( s5se 0 lo/4 ,!n gho/ly phantoms made a mock ( me1 ,& words ( import d>k ,i seem$ to he> ,issue f my di/raught torm5t$ s\l4 ,i "k t all ! secrets ?\ do/ gu>d ,= human s\ls may n be writt5 d[n1 ,b t ! answ] to m5's d\bts may be ,reveal$ to ea* accord+ to 8 ne$4 ,s grant me t ( :i* ,i /& 9 ne$2 ,= v]ily ,i mu/ inde$ be told ,:at robb$ me ( my s5ses & my wits ,& compass$ me ) magic's airy spells4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,ano!r mean+ hides )9 my words ,?an t ( ! ideas :i* !y convey2 ,!y guide ! natural =ces ( ! s\l ,to _s-v]ities2 _! inw>d s5se ,_c be und]/ood until ! day ,on :i* !y wak5 vision 9 ! s\l ,t yields itself to _! compell+ p[]4 ,!y are n fruitage ( m9e own rese>*2 ,b spirits h entru/$ !m to me1 ,spirits well skill$ to read ! signs 9 :i* ,! ,k>ma ( ! _w do? /& reveal$4 ,! special virtue ( ^! words is ?is1 ,unto ! s\rce ( k !y c guide4 ,yet none ! less x mu/ be ea* man's task1 ,:o und]/&s !m 9 _! true/ s5se1 ,to dr9k ! _s-wat]s f t s\rce4 ,nor are my words design$ to h9d] !e ,f be+ swept away to worlds t seem ,to !e fanta/ic4 ,?\ ha/ se5 a realm ,:i* mu/ rema9 illusion j z long ,z ?\ do/ lose ?yself on ent]+ x4 ,b wisdom's out] portal w be f\nd ,unseal$ to ?9e advanc+ s\l s soon ,z ?\ do/ ne> x ) self-consci\sness4 ,,capesius3 ,& h[ c ,i ma9ta9 self-consci\sness8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,! answ] to ?is riddle ?\ %alt f9d ,:51 ) awak5$ inn] eye1 ?\ do/ ,p]ceive be=e !e _m wondr\s ?+s1 ,:i* %ortly w be f\nd to cross ?y pa?4 ,"k t a te/ ha? be5 orda9$ = !e ,by lords ( fate & by ! _s-p[]s4 7,exit47 ,,capesius3 ,al?\gh _! mean+ is n cle> to me ,i feel 8 words at "w )9 myself4 ,he ha? appo9t$ me a goal2 & ,i ,am ready to obey4 ,he do? n ask ,= /ress ( ?\ght2 x seems t he desires ,i %\ld press =w>d ) explor+ feet ,to f9d ! _s-v]ities myself4 ,i _c tell h[ he 0 s5t to me2 ,& yet 8 actions h compell$ my tru/2 ,he ha? re/or$ me to myself once m4 ,s ?\gh at pres5t ,i may n div9e ,! nature ( ! spell t %ook me s1 ,i w n %r9k f fac+ ^! ev5ts ,:i* 8 prophetic vision ha? =etold4 ,curta9 :il/ ,capesius rema9s /&+ ,,sc5e #b ,a m$itation *amb]4 ,prevail+ col\r violet4 ,s]i\s1 b n gloomy atmosph]e4 ,b5$ictus1 ,m>ia1 !n ! ,_s-,figures repres5t+ s\l-p[]s4 ,,m>ia3 ,great conflicts 9 my s\l bid me invoke ,wise c\nsel f my ma/] 9 ?is h\r4 ,gloomy =ebod+s rise )9 my he>t4 ,& ,i am p[]less to )/& ! ?\ghts ,t ov]:elm me ev] & aga94 ,!y pi]ce me to my be+'s inmo/ core2 ,!y seek to lay ^u me a comm& ,:i* to obey do? seem l sacrilege4 ,deceitful p[]s mu/ be obsess+ me2 ,oh1 ,i implore !e--l5d me aid 444 t ,i ,may exorcise !m4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,nev] %alt ?\ lack ,:at ?\ do/ ne$ ( me at any "t4 ,,m>ia3 ,i "k h[ closely to my s\l are knit ,johannes' life & aims4 ,a /ony road ,( fate br\ght u toge!r2 & ,god's w ,ha? hall[$ 9 high _s-realms our bond4 ,all ?is /&s out be=e me e'en z cle> ,z only tru? itself c be4 ,& yet-- ,horror o'erp[]s me t ^! lips ( m9e ,mu/ utt]ance give to sacrilegi\s words-- ,& yet--deep 9 my s\l ,i he> a voice ,:i* tells me pla9ly & repeat$ly ,despite my utmo/ w to fight x d[n3 ',?\ mu/ give up ,johannes1 let him g4 ,no long] may/ ?\ keep him at ?y side ,if ?\ w\ld/ n "w evil to 8 s\l4 ,alone he mu/ proce$ along ! road ,on :i* he travels to 8 long$ = goal4' ,i "k t if ?\ do/ b speak ! ^w ,?is ly+ dream w cease to haunt my s\l4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,m>ia1 noble grief leads !e a/ray ,to see ! tru? yet call x c\nt]feit4 ,,m>ia3 ,:at ,i h se5--is tru?4444 ,x _c be6 ,betwe5 my ma/]'s utt]ance & m9e e> ,delusion /eals4 ,o speak to me aga94 ,,b5$ictus3 ,:at ,i h spok51 ?\ ha/ he>d aright3 ,?y love is noble1 & ,johannes /&s ,close-knit to !e4 ,b love mu/ n =get ,t %e is wisdom's si/]4 ,long inde$ ,= 8 salvation ha? ,johannes be5 ,) !e unit$4 ,n[ 8 s\l dem&s1 ,= its own progress1 fre$om to pursue ,its aims unh9d]$4 ,fate do? n decree ,t ye %all be no long] outw>d fri5ds2 ,b ?is x do? dem& ) /rict decree ,johannes' fre$om 9 ! _s-realm4 ,,m>ia3 ,/ill d ,i he> delusion3 s let me ,alone cont9ue speak+1 = ,i "k ,t ?\ mu/ und]/& me )\t fail4 ,= sure x is no ly+ %ape w d>e ,to *ange ! words unto ?9e e> address$4 ,my ho/ ( d\bts 7 easily disp]s$ ,if e>?-life's tortu\s c\rse alone x 7 ,t knits ,johannes' s\l unto m9e own4 ,b to our bond 0 l(ty sanction giv5 ,:i* knits s\l unto s\l et]nally4 ,& _s-p[]s did speak ) bless+s meet ,! ^w t bans all d\bt = ev]more3 ',he ha? won tru? )9 ?' et]nal realms ,because 9 worlds ( s5se 8 inmo/ self ,already 0 unit$ ) ?9e own4' ,:at c ?is revelation mean to me ,if n[ its v opposite is true8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?\ ha/ to le>n t ev5 "o to :om ,!re ha? be5 mu* reveal$1 may yet be f\nd ,lack+ p]fection /ill 9 div]s ways4 ,tangl$ ! pa?s t lead to high] tru?3 444 ,& only ^? may hope to rea* ! goal ,:o walk 9 pati5ce ?r\gh _! labyr9?s4 ,?\ did/ b see "o "p ( :at is real ,9 t great realm ( ev]la/+ light1 ,:5 ) ?9e inn] vision ?\ did/ gaze ,^u a picture ( ! _s-l&4 ,n yet ha/ ?\ se5 full reality4 ,johannes' s\l is knit unto ?9e own ,by e>?ly ties ( su* complexity ,t x may be allott$ unto ea* ,to f9d 8 way into ! _s-realm ,?r\gh =ces borr[$ f ! o!r "o4 ,b no?+ hi!rto ha? cle>ly %[n ,t ?\ ha/ conqu]$ ea* & e te/4 ,to see a picture ha? be5 grant$ !e ,( :at ! future holds = !e 9 /ore ,:5 ?\ can/ pass unsca!d ! full ordeal4 ,t ?\ ha/ se5 ! ultimate rew>d ,( unremitt+ ef=t is no sign ,t ?\ ha/ rea*$ ! end ( all ?y /rife4 ,?\ ha/ beheld a picture1 :i* ?y w ,alone c turn unto reality4 ,,m>ia3 ,al?\gh ?y words j spok5 fall on me ,l bitt] pa9 t foll[s h\rs ( bliss1 ,!re is at lea/ "o lesson ,i h le>n$1 ,:i* is to b[ my head to wisdom's light ,:5 x do? prove itself ?r\gh inw>d =ce4 ,already some?+ is becom+ cle> ,:i* up till n[ lay hidd5 9 my he>t4 ,b :5 9 highe/ bliss delusion's sn>e ,do? we> ! mask ( tru? to human m9ds1 ,d>kness ( s\l is difficult to ban4 ,i ne$ /ill m ?an t :i* ?\ ha/ giv5 ,to plumb ! dep? ( mean+ 9 ?y words4 ,?\ once did/ lead myself to ^? s\l-dep?s ,:]e9 a light 0 !n v\*saf$ to me ,by :i* ,i c\ld behold ! lives ,i sp5t ,9 previ\s inc>nations long ago4 ,?us 0 x grant$ me to le>n ! way ,9 :i* my s\l 0 l9k$ unto my fri5d's4 ,my act ( br++1 9 ^? days ( old1 ,johannes' s\l unto ! _s-f\nt ,i felt & recogniz$ to be ! se$ ,:i* grew & bore su* *]i%$ fri5d%ip's fruit1 ,z 0 f\nd ripe = all et]nity4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?\ wa/ acc\nt$ wor?y to retrace ,?y pa? on e>? 9 days long s9ce gone by4 ,b ?\ mu/ n =get to look & see ,if ?\ can/ be assur$ ) c]ta9ty ,t ( ?9e actions none rema9 conceal$ ,:5 backw>d ?\ did/ turn ?y _s's eye4 ,,m>ia 7aft] a pause betok5+ deep reflection73 ,h[ c\ld ,i be s bl9d$1 s misl$8 ,! rapture :i* ,i felt on look+ back ,ov] a p]iod ( bygone times ,delud$ me to va9 =getfulness ,( manifold %ortcom+s4 ,n till n[ ,did ,i =esee t ,i mu/ turn my gaze ,into ! d>kness ere ,i compreh5d ,! road t leads back f ?is pres5t life ,to old5 days :5 my fri5d's s\l s\ght m9e4 ,to !e1 my ma/]1 w ,i make my v[ ,h5ce=? to bridle my s\l's arrogance4446 ,n[ = ! fir/ "t d ,i realize ,h[ pride ( k leads ! s\l a/ray2 ,s t1 in/ead ( its imbib+ /r5g? ,f freely (f]$ /ores ( _s-weal?1 ,x misapplies ! gift 9 wanton use ,& only holds ! mirror up to self4 ,i "k at la/ f my he>t's w>n+ call1 ,to :i* ?y words l5d add$ p[]1 h[ f> ,i am today e'en f ! ne>e/ goal4 ,no m w ,i be ov]swift to read ,a mean+ into words f _s-l&s4 ,i w e/eem !m p[] :]e) my s\l ,may %ape its c\rse--1 n z "s message s5t ,to free me f ! ne$ ( f9d+ out ,! goal ( action 9 my daily life4 ,_h ,i paid e>li] he$ unto ?is tru? ,& gone my way 9 due humility2 ,i _h n fail$ to see t only !n ,:5 he decides to tread a pa? n trac$ ,by me be=eh&1 c my fri5d unfold ,to fulle/ bloom 8 ri*ly-gift$ s\l4 ,& n[ t ?is is cle> ,i %all n fail ,9 f9d+ /r5g? suffici5t to fulfil ,:at love & duty may require ( me4 ,yet d ,i feel assur$ ?is v h\r ,m cle>ly ?an ,i ev] 0 be=e ,t "s grave te/+ ( my s\l draws nigh4 ,= mo/ly1 :5 m5 te> f out _! he>ts ,t ( !mselves :i* 9 ano!r lives1 ,love ha? be5 *ang$ into its opposite4 ,!mselves !y *ange ! ties t c\pl$ !m1 ,yet passion's impulse gives to !m ! p[]4 ,:il/ ,i mu/ ( m9e own free w uproot ,! work+s ( my s\l's life1 :i* ,i saw ,accompli%+ !mselves 9 my fri5d's acts2 ,& /ill un*ang+ mu/ my love abide4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,if ?\ w\ld/ /e] ?y c\rse direct1 ?\ mu/ ,become aw>e ( :at ?\ mo/ did/ prize ,9 ?is ?y love4 ,= once ?\ kn[/ ! =ce ,t leads !e all unkn[n )9 ?y s\l1 ,?\ wilt f9d p[] to d :at duty bids4 ,,m>ia3 ,by say+ ?is ?\ giv'/ e'en n[ t aid ,( :i* my s\l s sorely /&s 9 ne$4 ,i mu/ inve/igate m9e inmo/ self ,) e>ne/ que/ion+3 & s ,i ask1 ,:at pot5t cause impels me 9 my love8 ,i see my own s\l's life & /r5g? at "w ,9 my fri5d's nature & activities4 ,s t :i* ,i desire to satisfy ,is no?+ b ! hung] ( myself1 ,:i* ,i1 delud$1 call unselfi%ness4 ,?us x ha? be5 conceal$ f me till n[ ,t 9 my fri5d ,i mirror b myself4 ,x 0 ! dragon ,selfi%ness :o veil$ ,! tru? f me 9 wrapp+s ( deceit4 ,& selfi%ness c take an hundr$ =ms3-- ,i see x cle>ly n[4 ,& :5 "o ?9ks ,! enemy subdu$1 behold him rise ,out ( defeat & /rong] ?an be=e4 ,moreov] 'tis a foe ) add$ skill ,to hide ! tru? ) cloak ( c\nt]feit4 7,m>ia s9ks into deep ?\ght47 7,! ?ree ,_s-,figures ( ! s\l-p[]s appe>47 ,,m>ia3 ,ye si/]s1 :om ,i f9d 9 ,be+'s dep?s ,:5e'er my s\l exp&s & guides h]self ,to cosmic di/ances1 release = me ,f out ! e!r's heights ! p[]s ( sight ,& lead !m h5ce to e>?ly pa?s1 t ,i ,may "k myself z ,i exi/ 9 ,"t1 ,& may be able to direct my c\rse ,f ,life's old ways unto new sph]es ( ,w4 ,,philia3 ,f my he>t's dep?s w ,i myself imbue ,) s\l's aspir+ light2 ,i w brea! deep ,f _s-=ces liv+ p[]s ( ,w2 ,t ?\1 belov$ si/]1 maye/ seek ,& f9d ! light 9 bygone sph]es ( life4 ,,a/rid3 ,) selfhood1 consci\s ( itself1 w ,i ,weave 9 ! self-surr5d]+ ,w ( love2 ,i w set free f fett]s ( desire ,! budd+ p[]s ( ,w1 & w trans=m ,?y crippl$ wi% to _s-c]ta9ty2 ,t ?\1 belov$ si/]1 maye/ le>n ,to f9d ?yself 9 di/ant pa?s ( life4 ,,luna3 ,i w call self-d5y+ p[]s ( he>t2 ,& w make firm endur+ s\l-repose2 ,!n %all !y w$1 & raise up _s-light ,9 all its p[] f out ! dep?s ( s\l4 ,!n %all !y int]p5etrate & =ce ,e>?'s b\nds to he$ ! li/5+ _s-e>1 ,compel e>?'s di/ances to answ]4 ,t ?\1 belov$ si/]1 maye/ f9d ,life's v>i$ traces 9 ,"t's va/ expanse4 ,,m>ia 7aft] a pause73 ,if ,i c only te> myself away ,f my bewild]$ consci\sness ( self ,& give myself to y3 t ?us ye may ,reflect my v s\l f cosmic space2 ,!n f ?is sph]e ( life ,i ga9 release1 ,& f9d myself 9 o!r /ates ( be+4 7,long pause1 !n ! foll[+37 ,9 y1 my si/]s1 ,i see _s-=ms ,9 :om dwell cosmic s\ls4 ,ye h ! p[] ,to br+ se$-=ces f et]nal realms ,to fruitage 9 humanity itself4 ,?r\gh my s\l's gates (t h ,i f\nd ! way ,into y\r k+dom1 & h !re beheld ,! primal %ap+ ( ?is e>?ly globe ,) inn] vision4 ,n[ y\r help ,i crave ,s9ce ,i am bidd5 to retrace ! way ,t /ret*es back f> f my pres5t life ,to long pa/ ages ( humanity4 ,release my s\l f consci\sness ( self ,9 "t-enclos$ exi/5ce1 & reveal ,! duties laid on me by =m] lives4 ,a ,,_s-,,voice1--,,! ,,spiritual ,,consci5ce3 ,h] ?\ghts are seek+ n[ ,= clues 9 ,"t's va/ space4 ,:at z debt %e /ill do? owe1 ,:at z duty is impos$1 ,arise f out h] inmo/ dep?s ( s\l1 ,f ^: deepness dream+ ,mank9d do? guide 8 life1 ,9 ^: deepness /ray+ ,mank9d himself do? lose4 ,curta9 falls2 ev]ybody /ill /&+ on ! /age ,,sc5e #c ,a room ^: prevail+ t9t is rose-r$1 *e]ful atmosph]e4 ,johannes at an easel2 ,m>ia ent]s lat]2 f9ally ! ,_s-,figures repres5t+ s\l-p[]s4 ,,johannes3 ,m>ia1 :5 %e saw my picture la/1 ,/ood sil5t4 ,h]et(ore %e ev] gave ,h9ts to assi/ ! progress ( my "w ,f h] ri* /ore ( wisdom manifold4 ,little z ,i c tru/ myself to judge ,:e!r my art inde$ accompli%es ,! task our _s-curr5t ha? impos$1 ,yet is my confid5ce 9 h] complete4 ,& ev] ?r\gh my _s r+ h] words ,:i* l5t me /r5g? & br\ght me happ9ess ,:5 ,i took c\rage & began ?is "w4 ',9 su* a way z ?is1' %e said1 '?\ can/ ,attempt ?is ent]prise1 & s reveal ,?y _s's visions unto e>?ly eyes4 ,?\ wilt n fail to recognize h[ =ms1 ,fa%ion$ l ?\ghts1 %ape matt] to _! w2 ,nor yet h[ col\r1 to desire ak91 ,do? fill ?y vital en]gy ) w>m?4 ,9 su* wise can/ ?\ ev5 repres5t ,on canvas ?r\gh ?y skill ! high] realms4' ,i feel ! p[] t dwells )9 ^! words ,& diffid5tly yield to t belief ,t ,i am draw+ ne>] to ! goal ,:i* ,b5$ictus ha? appo9t$ me4 ,full (t ,i sat disc\rag$ at my "w2 ,x seem$ at "o "t s presumptu\s1 ,& at ano!r s impossible ,to repres5t 9 col\r & 9 =m ,! visions t are grant$ to my s\l4 ,h[ c ! ceaseless web ( _s-life1 ,:i* is reveal$ to inn] sight alone ,& is s f> )drawn f outw>d s5se1 ,be manife/ 9 matt] :i* is drawn1 ,z drawn x mu/ be1 f ! realm ( s5se8 ,?is "q h ,i ask$ myself full (t4 ,yet :5 ,i bani% p]sonality1 ,& foll[ _s-tea*+ fai?fully1 ,& feel myself caught up 9 bless$ness ,unto creative =ces ( ! worlds1 ,at once belief awak5s 9 an art ,z true & my/ic z our _s-que/4 ,i le>n$ to live ) light1 & recognize ,9 col\r's p[] ! action ( t light1 ,z fai?ful /ud5ts ( true my/ic lore ,see 9 realms reft ( col\r & ( =m ,! _s's de$s & s\l's reality4 ,rely+ on ?is _s-light1 ,i won ,?is p[] to feel 9 fl[+ sea ( light1 ,& live )9 ! /ream ( gl[+ t9ts2 ,& s5se ^? _s-=ces :i* ma9ta9 ,_! might 9 non-mat]ial webs ( light1 ,& radiant col\rs fill$ ) _s-life4 7,ent] ,m>ia1 unobs]v$ by ,johannes47 ,& :5 my c\rage faile? me1 once m ,( !e1 my fri5d mo/ noble1 d ,i ?9k4 ,at ?y s\l's fire my love ( "w is w>m$2 ,?y _s-light awakes my fai? anew4 7,he sees ,m>ia47 ,oh1 ?\ art "h4444 ,impati5tly ,i crav$ ,?y com+1 yet ,i m>k$ n ?9e approa*6 ,,m>ia3 ,i mu/ rejoice to f9d my fri5d s wrapt ,9 "w z to =get 8 fri5d h]self4 ,,johannes3 ,nay1 speak n ?us1 s9ce ?\ do/ "k full well ,t ,i _c create "o s+le ?\ght ,:i* ha? n fir/ be5 hall[$ by ?9e aid4 ,no "w ( m9e owes n its life to !e4 ,?r\gh ?y love's fire h ,i be5 purifi$2 ,?r\gh !e my art ha? le>n$ to repres5t ,! beauty ( ! tru?s reveal$ to !e1 ,:i* w>m my he>t1 illum9ate my s5se1 ,& clo! 9 radiant light ! _s-_w4 ,! curr5t ( my "w mu/ take its rise ,f ?y s\l's spr+ & fl[ !nce into m9e1 ,ere ,i c feel ! w+s t lift me up ,to l(ty heights ( _s1 f> f e>?4 ,i love ! life t quick5s 9 ?y s\l1 ,&1 lov+ x1 c give x =m & hue4 ,love only c beget arti/ic p[] ,& make an arti/'s "w be> fruit & live4 ,if ,i1 z arti/1 am to c>ry back ,pictures ( _s to ! _w ( s5se1 ,!n cosmic _s mu/ speak =? ?r\gh me1 ,my p]sonality be b its tool4 ,i mu/ fir/ bur/ ! bonds ( selfi%ness ,ere ,i c "k t ,i %all n mi/ake ,= _s-worlds my own va9 fantasies4 ,,m>ia3 ,& if ?\ had/ to seek ?r\gh ?9e own sight ,& n ?r\gh m9e ! true s\rce ( ?y "w1 ,x might well be t1 com+ f "o s\l ,?y dream ( beauty might be unifi$4 ,,johannes3 ,i %\ld be sp9n+ webs ( idle ?\ght ,9 speculat+ :i* ,i %\ld pref]3 ,:e!r to inc>nate ?y _s-sight1 ,or 9 myself to seek my vision's s\rce4-- ,i am conv9c$ ,i c\ld n f9d x ?us4 ,i c )draw to deep retreats ( s\l ,& f9d delight 9 wide-flung _s-worlds3 ,i c be lo/ to all ! _w ( s5se ,& foll[ col\r-wond]s ) m9e eye ,& wat* creative en]gies at "w1 ,if ,i am left ) m9e own s\l alone4 ,:ate'er may ?us befall me ,i am n ,!reby impell$ to my creative art4 ,b if ,i foll[ !e to cosmic heights1 ,& 9 w>m rapture live aga9 :at ?\ ,already ha/ 9 _s !re beheld1 ,!n 9 my _s-sight ,i feel a fire ,:i* burns on 9 me also1 & ^: flames ,k9dle ! p[]s t drive me to my "w4 ,if my desire 7 simply to relate ,t :i* ,i c f9d out 9 high] worlds1 ,!n ) my s\l ,i well might upw>d so> ,to sph]es :]e _s unto _s speaks4 ,b z an arti/ ,i mu/ f9d t fire ,:i* lights ! picture & inflames ! he>t4 ,& my s\l _c to my picture give ,! magic w>m? t /reams ?r\gh human he>ts1 ,till x c qu5* its ?ir/ ) _s-tru?s ,reveal$ f out ! dep?s ( ?9e own he>t4 ,h[ primal =ce by long+ is cond5s$1 ,h[ p[]s creative blaze ) _s-light1 ,&1 s5s+ ev5 !n _! ne$ ( man1 ,display !mselves z gods 9 e>lie/ times1 ,all ?is1 my fri5d1 ?y s\l 9 noble spee* ,ha? (t5 l$ me on to le>n unse54 ,9 hues e!real ( ! _s-_w ,i s\ght to d5sify :at hid f sight2 ,& felt h[ col\rs long$ to see !mselves ,mirror$ z _s 9 ! s\ls ( m54 ,s do? my fri5d's s\l speak z if 'tw]e m9e ,out ( my pictures to ! human he>t4 ,,m>ia3 ,be?9k1 ,johannes1 h[ ! ,"o ,s\l mu/-- ,a p]sonality ap>t f all-- ,evolve f out ! womb ( "t4 ,love s]ves to knit toge!r sep>ate s\ls ,n kill _! individuality4 ,! mom5t is ^u u1 :5 we twa9 ,mu/ te/ our s\ls1 & f9d ! _s-pa? ,t ea* mu/ foll[ = its sep>ate good4 7,exit47 ,,johannes3 ,:at meant my fri5d8 ,h] words did s\nd s /range4 ,m>ia1 ,i mu/ foll[ !e =?)4 7,! ?ree ,_s-,figures ( ! s\l-p[]s appe> ) ! ,o!r ,philia47 ,,luna3 ,?\ can/ n f9d ?yself ,portray$ 9 o!r s\ls4 ,! p[] ( ?9e own self ,mu/ root 9 cosmic soil1 ,if f ! _s-heights ,?\ w\ld/ inde$ transplant ,_! beauty to e>?'s dep?s4 ,be bold to be ?yself1 ,t ?\1 /rong s\l$1 may/ give ,?yself to cosmic p[]s--a will+ sacrifice4 ,,a/rid3 ,9 all ?y ways on e>? ,?\ mu/ n lose ?yself2 ,mank9d do? n atta9 ,to sun-kiss$ di/ances ,if he w\ld rob himself ( p]sonality4 ,s !n prep>e ?yself1 ,press on ?r\gh e>?ly love ,to utmo/ dep?s ( he>t ,:i* rip5 cosmic love4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,o he$ ! si/]s n2 ,!y lead !e f> a/ray ,to cosmic di/ances1 ,& rob !e ( e>?'s t\*4 ,!y d n und]/& ,t e>?ly love be>s trace ,( cosmic love itself4 ,9 cold _! natures dwell ,& w>m? flies f _! p[]s4 ,!y fa9 w\ld lure mank9d ,f out 8 own s\l dep?s ,to cold & l(ty worlds4 ,curta93 ,johannes1 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna1 & ! ,o!r ,philia /ill /&+ ,,sc5e #d ,! same room z 9 ,sc5e #a4 ,capesius & ,/rad]4 ,,capesius 7to ,/rad] :o is ent]+73 ,a he>ty welcome to ! fri5d ^: tongue ,) _m a disputati\s argum5t ,/\tly )/ood me6 ',tis long "t s9ce ,?\ cross$ ?is ?re%old4 ,yet 9 e>li] days ,?\ wa/ my con/ant welcome visitor4 ,,/rad]3 ,alas ,i h n _h ! "t to sp>e2 ,my life ha? und]gone a curi\s *ange4 ,no long] d ,i plague my we>y bra9 ,) hopeless problems4 ,n[ ,i d$icate ,! k ,i h won to hone/ "w1 ,su* z may s]ve "s useful end 9 life4 ,,capesius3 ,?\ meane/ t ?\ ha/ giv5 up ?y que/8 ,,/rad]3 ,say r1 t x ha? ab&on$ me4 ,,capesius3 ,& :at may be ?y pres5t lab\rs' goal8 ,,/rad]3 ,!re are no goals 9 life orda9$ = man ,:i* he may see & cle>ly und]/&4 ,x is a mighty eng9e by ^: :eels ,we are caught up & we>i$1 & ca/ out ,into ! d>kness :5 our /r5g? is sp5t4 ,,capesius3 ,i knew !e 9 ! days :5 eag]ly ,& undismay$ ?\ did/ set out to solve ,! riddle ( exi/5ce4 ,i h le>n$ ,h[ ?\ did/ see ?y treasur$ k s9k ,into ! bottomless abyss1 & h[ ,?y s\l1 pr(\ndly %ak51 _h to dra9 ,! bitt] cup ( disappo9t$ dreams4 ,b nev] = "o mom5t did ,i ?9k ,t ?\ c\ld/ drive ! impulse f ?y he>t ,:i* _h become s fully ma/] !re4 ,,/rad]3 ,?\ ha/ b to recall a c]ta9 day ,on :i* a se]ess by h] tru?ful spee* ,made cle> to me ! error ( my ways4 ,i _h no *oice b to ackn[l$ge !n ,t ?\ght1 h[ev] h>d x toil & /rive1 ,c nev] rea* ! f\nta9-head ( life4 ,= ?\ght _c d o!rwise ?an err ,if x be s t highe/ wisdom's light ,c be reveal$ to t d>k p[] ( s\l ,( :i* t woman %[$ h]self possess$4 ,! rules ( sci5ce _c ev] lead ,to su* a revelation2 t is pla94 ,_h ?is be5 all1 & _h ,i only met ,?is "o defeat :il/ foll[+ my que/1 ,i d believe ,i c\ld h br\ght myself ,to />t afre% by /riv+ to unite ,my me?ods ) ^? o!r diff]5t ones4 ,b :5 x fur!r 0 made evid5t ,t "s peculi> _s-faculty1 ,a m]e halluc9ation z ,i deem$1 ,c\ld trans=m trance into creative p[]1 ,hope disappe>$1 & left me 9 despair4 ,do/ ?\ recall ! pa9t]1 t "y man ,we bo? enc\nt]$ :il/ he 0 engross$ ,foll[+ ! dubi\s c\rse ( _s-ways8 ,aft] su* buffet+s f fate ,i liv$ ,= _m weeks b5umb$1 to madness nigh4 ,& :5 by nature's aid ,i 0 at la/ ,re/or$ to s5se1 ,i made a firm resolve ,to m$dle ) su* seek+ nev] m4 ,long1 long x 0 be=e ,i _h rega9$ ,my body's heal?2 & 'twas a joyless "t4 ,i made myself pr(ici5t 9 ^? ?+s ,t lead to bus9ess & to normal life4 ,s n[ ,i am a factory manag]1 ,:]e screws are made4 ,?is is ! "w ,i ?ank ,= _m h\rs 9 :i* ,i c =get ,my bitt] suff]+s 9 a futile que/4 ,,capesius3 ,i mu/ confess ,i sc>ce c recognize ,my fri5d ( =m] days2 s diff]5t ,is n[ ! guise 9 :i* he %[s himself4 ,beside ^? h\rs ( :i* ?\ spak'/ j n[ ,7 !re n o!rs full ( /orm & /ress1 ,9 :i* ! anci5t conflicts 7 r5ew$ ,t urg$ !e =? f ?is b5umb+ life8 ,,/rad]3 ,i am n sp>$ ^? h\rs 9 m9e own s\l ,:5 impot5ce 'ga9/ impot5ce do? /rive4 ,& fate ha? n s will$ x 9 my case ,t rosy beams ( hope %\ld =ce _! way ,into my he>t1 & leave assurance !re ,t ?is my pres5t life is n an utt] loss4 ,r5unciation is h5ce=? my goal4 ,yet may ! =ce :i* su* a task requires ,end[ me lat] on ) faculty ,to foll[ up my que/ 9 o!r ways4 7,aside47 ,if ?is t]re/rial life repeats itself4 ,,capesius3 ,?\ spak'/1--if ,i inde$ h he>d aright1-- ,( repetition ( ?y life on e>?4 ,!n ha/ ?\ really won ?is fateful tru?1 ,f\nd x on _s-j\rneys1 :i* today ,?\ none ! less condemn/ z dubi\s8 ,,/rad]3 ,?is is ! way once travell$ by ?yself ,to t conviction :i* ha? giv5 me /r5g? ,to make a new beg9n+ ( my life4 ,i s\ght ^u my sick-b$ once = all ,9 compreh5sive survey to embrace ,! field ( k trav]s$ by myself4 ,& ?is ,i did1 ere seek+ o!r aims4 ,i mu/ h ask$ myself an hundr$ times ,:at we c le>n f nature1 & inf] ,f :at we "k at pres5t ( h] laws4 ,i c\ld n f9d a loophole = escape4 ,! repetition ( our e>?ly life ,_c & mu/ n be d5i$ by ?\ght ,t do? n wi% to te> itself away ,f all rese>* ha? f\nd = ages pa/4 ,,capesius3 ,c\ld ,i h _h "o su* exp]i5ce ,!n %\ld ,i h be5 sp>$ mu* bitt] pa94 ,i s\ght ?r\gh _m a we>y wakeful night ,= lib]at+ ?\ghts to set me free4 ,,/rad]3 ,& yet x 0 ?is _s lightn+-fla% ,:i* robb$ me ( my la/ rema9+ p[]s4 ,! /ronge/ impulse ( my s\l ha? be5 ,ev] to seek = evid5ce 9 life ,( :at my ?\ght ha? =c$ on me z tru?4 ,s x befell1 z if by *ance1 t ,i ,e'en 9 ^? days ( mis]y %\ld prove1 ,& by my own life te/ify ! tru?1 ,t cruel tru? ) all t x involves3 ,:i* is1 t all our sorr[s & our joys ,are b results ( :at we really are4 ,aye6 ?is is (t5 v h>d to be>4 ,,capesius3 ,incr$ible seems su* exp]i5ce4 ,:at c !re be to ov]%ad[ tru?1 ,= :i* we se>* unwe>y+1 & :i* ,unto our _s firm assurance gives4 ,,/rad]3 ,= !e x may be s1 b n = me4 ,?\ art acqua9t$ ) my curi\s life4 ,by *ance x seem$ my p>5ts' plans 7 cross$4 ,_! purpose 0 to make a monk ( me2 ,& naught s hurt !m1 !y h (t5 said1 ,9 all _! life z my apo/asy4 ,i bore all ?is1 yea & mu* m besides2 ,j z "o be>s ! o!r ?+s 9 life ,s long z bir? & dea? appe> ! b\nds ,appo9t$ = our e>?ly pilgrimage4 ,s too my lat] life & all ! hopes ,t came to naught1 to me a picture seem$ ,t only by itself c\ld be expla9$4 ,w\ld t ! day _h nev] dawn$1 on :i* ,i alt]$ ^? convictions t ,i held1 ,=--be> 9 m9d--,i h n yet confess$ ,! total burd5 laid on me by fate4 ,no *ild 0 ,i ( ^? :o w\ld h made ,a monk ( me1 b an adopt$ son ,*os5 by !m :5 b a few days old4 ,my own real p>5ts ,i h nev] kn[n1 ,b 0 a /rang] 9 my v home4 ,nor less e/rang$ h ,i rema9$ f all ,t happ5$ r\nd me 9 my lat] life4 ,& n[ my ?\ght compels me to look back ,unto ^? days ( long ago1 & see ,h[ f myself ,i /ole ! _w away4 ,= ?\ght is l9k$ ) ?\ght to make a *a93 ,a man to :om x ha? be5 ?us orda9$ ,to be a /rang] 9 ! _w1 be=e ,8 consci\sness _h ev] dawn$ 9 him1 ,?is man ha? will$ ?is fate ^u himself ,ere he c\ld w z consequ5ce ( ?\ght4 ,& s9ce ,i /ay t :i* ,i 0 at fir/ ,i "k )\t ! %ad[ ( a d\bt ,t all unkn[+ ,i am 9 ! p[] ,( =ces t control my de/9y ,& t w n reveal !mselves to me4 ,d ,i ne$ m to give me cruel pro( ,h[ _m veils en%r\d m9e inmo/ self8 ,)\t false ?ir/ = k1 judge ?is n[2 ,ha? my new tru? reveal$ ! light to me8 ,x ha?1 at any rate1 br\ght c]ta9ty ,t ,i 9 m9e unc]ta9ty mu/ /ay4 ,?us x portrays to me my de/9y ,& l 9 its own way1 is my reply1 ,half angui% & half bitt] mock]y4 ,a fe>ful s5se ( horror on me grew4 ,tortur$ by scorn ,i mu/ confront my life2 ,& sc(f+ at ! mock]y ( fate ,i yield$ to ! d>kness4 ,yet !re /ay$ ,"o s+le ?\ght :i* ,i c\ld realize3 ,d ) me :at ?\ wilt1 ?\ life-ma*9e2 ,i am n curi\s h[ ?y cog-:eels "w6 ,,capesius3 ,! man :om ,i h recogniz$ 9 !e ,9 su* condition _c long rema91 ,b]eft ( ,k1 ev5 if he w\ld4 ,already ,i c see ! days approa* ,:5 we %all bo? be o!r ?an we are4 ,! curta9 falls1 leav+ !m /&+ opposite "o ano!r ,,sc5e #e ,a m\nta9 glade1 9 :i* is situat$ ,felix ,balde's solit>y cottage4 ,ev5+4 ,dame ,felicia ,balde1 ,capesius1 !n ,felix ,balde2 lat] on ,johannes & 8 ,d\ble2 aft]w>ds ,lucif] & ,ahriman4 ,dame ,felicia is seat$ on a b5* 9 front ( h] cottage4 ,,capesius 7arriv+1 approa*es h]73 ,i "k an old fri5d w n ask 9 va9 ,= leave to /ay & re/ a:ile ) !e2 ,s9ce n[1 e'en m ?an any =m] "t1 ,he ne$s :at 9 ?9e h\se s (t he f\nd4 ,,felicia3 ,:5 ?\ wa/ /ill f> (f ?y we>i$ /ep ,told me ! tale :i* n[ ?9e eyes repeat2 ,t sorr[ dwelle? 9 ?y s\l today4 ,,capesius 7:o has seat$ himself73 ,ev5 a=etime 'twas n grant$ me ,to br+ mu* m]rim5t into ?y home2 ,b special pati5ce mu/ ,i crave today ,:51 heavy-he>t$ & ( peace b]eft1 ,i =ce my way unto ! home ( peace4 ,,felicia3 ,we 7 "r glad to see !e 9 ! days ,:5 sc>ce ano!r man came ne> ?is h\se4 ,& ?\ art /ill our fri5d1 despite ev5ts ,t came betwe5 u1 e'en ?\gh _m n[ ,are glad to seek u 9 ?is lonely glade4 ,,capesius3 ,! tale is true !n :i* ha? rea*$ m9e e>s1 ,t ?y de> ,felix1 s res]v$ ( yore1 ,is n[adays a man mu* visit$8 ,,felicia3 ',tis s2 good ,felix us$ to %ut u (f ,f ev]yone--2 b n[ ! p ?rong ,to "q him1 & he mu/ answ] !m4 ,8 duty bids him lead ?is novel life4 ,9 =m] days he c>$ n to imp>t1 ,save to 8 inn] self1 ! secret lore ,conc]n+ _s-de$s & nature's p[]s ,by rock & =e/ unto him reveal$4 ,nor did m5 seem to value x be=e4 ,h[ great a *ange ha? n[ come o'er ! times6 ,= _m m5 n[ l5d a will+ e> ,to :at !y c\nt$ folly 9 ! pa/1 ,gre$y = wisdom1 ,felix c reveal4 ,& :5 my de> good husb& has to talk 7,felix ,balde comes out ( ! h\se47 ,h\r ^u h\r on end1 z (t he do?1 ,i long = ^? old days ( :i* ,i spake4 ,h[ (t w\ld ,felix e>ne/ly decl>e ,t 9 ! quiet he>t en%r9$1 ! s\l ,mu/ le>n to treasure up ! _s-gifts ,f worlds div9e 9 m]cy s5t to h]4 ,he held x trea*]y to t high spee* ,( _s1 to reveal x to an e> ,t 0 b op5 to ! _w ( s5se4 ,,felix3 ,felicia _c reconcile h]self ,to ?is mu* alt]$ fa%ion ( our life4 ,z %e regrets ! lonel9ess ( old1 ,s %e deplores ! _m days t pass ,9 :i* we h b few h\rs = ourselves4 ,,capesius3 ,:at made !e welcome /rang]s to a h\se ,t %ut !m out s /]nly h]et(ore8 ,,felix3 ,! _s-voice :i* speaks )9 my he>t ,bade me ( yore be sil5t2 ,i obey$4 ,n[ t x bids me speak ,i %[ myself ,equally fai?ful unto its comm&4 ,our human nature und]goes a *ange ,z e>?'s exi/5ce gradually evolves4 ,n[ are we v ne> an epo*'s close4 ,& _s-k !re=e mu/ 9 "p ,be n[ reveald unto e man ,:o *oose? to receive x to himself4 ,i "k h[ little :at ,i h to tell ,is 9 agreem5t ) man's curr5t ?\ght2 ,! _s-life1 !y say1 mu/ be made kn[n1 ,9 /rict & logical ?\ght sequ5ces1 ,& m5 d5y all logic to my words4 ,true sci5ce on a firm f\ndation bas$1 ,_c1 !y say1 reg>d me o!rwise1 ,?an z a vision>y s\l :o seeks ,a solit>y road to wisdom's seat1 ,& kn[s no m ( sci5ce ?an ( art4 ,yet n a few decl>e x wor? _! :ile ,! tangle ( my language to explore ,because !re9 f "t to "t is f\nd ,some?+ ( wor?1 to reason n oppos$4 ,i am a man into ^: he>t mu/ fl[1 ,unt\*$ by art1 ea* vision he may see4 ,n\ght "k ,i ( a k lack+ words4 ,:5 ,i retreat )9 m9e inmo/ he>t ,& also :5 ,i li/ to nature's voice ,!n su* a k wakes to life 9 me ,z ha? no ne$ to seek = any words2 ,spee* is to x z intimately l9k$ ,z is 8 body's %ea? to man on e>?2 ,& k su* z ?is1 :i* 9 ?is wise ,reveals itself to u f _s-worlds1 ,c be ( s]vice ev5 unto ^? ,:o und]/& x n4 ,& s x is ,t e man is free to come to me ,:o w att5d to :at ,i h to say4 ,_m are l$ by curiosity ,& o!r trivial reasons to my door4 ,i "k t ?is is s1 b also "k ,t ?\gh ! s\ls ( j su* m5 z ^! ,are n ?is mom5t liv+ = ! light1 ,yet 9 !m h be5 plant$ se$s ( good ,:i* w n fail to rip5 9 due "t4 ,,capesius3 ,let me1 ,i pray !e1 freely speak my m9d4 ,i h admir$ !e n[ ^! _m ye>s2 ,yet up till n[ ,i h n grasp$ ! s5se ,:i* und]lies ?y /range my/]i\s words4 ,,felix3 ,x surely w unfold itself to !e2 ,= ) a l(ty _s do/ ?\ /rive ,& noble he>t1 & s ! "t mu/ come ,:5 ?\ ?yself %alt he> ! voice ( tru?4 ,?\ do/ n m>k h[ full ( ri* cont5t ,man1 z ! image ( ! cosmos1 is4 ,8 head do? mirror heav5's v self1 ,! spirits ( ! sph]es "w ?r\gh 8 limbs1 ,& 9 8 brea/ e>?-be+s hold _! sway4 ,to all ( ^! oppos$1 9 all _! might ,appe> ! demons1 natives ( ! ,moon1 ,^: lot x is to cross ^? be+s' aims4 ,! human be+ :o be=e u /&s1 ,! s\l ?r\gh :i* we le>n to feel desire1 ,! _s :o illum9ates our pa?3 ,all ^!1 full _m gods h work$ to m\ld ,?r\gh\t ! ages ( et]nity2 ,& ?is _! purpose 03 to jo9 9 "o1 ,=ces proce$+ out ( all ! worlds ,:i* %\ld1 9 comb9ation1 make mank9d4 ,,capesius3 ,?y words come ne> to caus+ me al>m1 ,= !y reg>d mank9d z no?+ else ,?an product ( div9e activities4 ,,felix3 ,& s a man :o sets himself to le>n ,true _s sci5ce mu/ be meek inde$4 ,& he :o1 arrogant & va91 desires ,to ga9 n\ght else ?an k ( himself2 ,= him ! gates ( wisdom op5 n4 ,,capesius3 ,once m1 no d\bt1 w ,dame ,felicia ,come to m9e aid1 z %e s (t ha? done1 ,& make a picture = my seek+ s\l1 ,:i*1 be+ w>m$ !reat1 may rightly grasp ,! real true mean+ 9 ?y words conta9$4 ,,felicia3 ,de> ,felix (t ha? told me 9 ! pa/ ,! v words :i* n[ he spake to !e4 ,!y fre$ a vision 9 m9e he>t1 :i* ,i ,did promise1 !n & !re1 ,i mu/ relate ,"s day to !e4 ,,capesius3 ,oh d s1 de>e/ dame2 ,i sorely crave refre%m5t1 su* z ?\1 ,out ( ?y picture-/oreh\se can/ provide4 ,,felicia3 ,s be x !n4 ,!re once did live a boy1 ,! only *ild ( ne$y =e/-folk1 ,:o grew up 9 ! woodl& solitudes2 ,few s\ls he knew beside 8 p>5ts twa94 ,8 build 0 sl5d]1 & 8 sk9 well-nigh ,transp>5t2 m>vels ( ! _s hid ,deep 9 8 eye2 long c\ld "o gaze !re94 ,& ?\gh few human be+s ev] came ,into ! circle ( 8 daily life1 ,! lad 0 well befri5d$ none ! less4 ,:5 gold5 sun%9e ba!d ! neighb\r+ hills1 ,) ?\ghtful eyes he drew ! _s-gold ,into 8 s\l1 until 8 he>t became ,k9 to ! morn+ glory ( ! sun4 ,b :5 ! morn+ sun%9e c\ld n break ,?r\gh d5se d>k banks ( cl\d1 & heav9ess ,lay on ! hills ar\nd1 8 eye grew sad1 ,& sorr[ took possession ( 8 he>t4 ,?us 8 att5tion only c5tr$ on ,! _s-fabric ( 8 n>r[ _w1 ,a _w t seem$ z mu* a "p ( him ,z did 8 limbs & body4 ,woodl&s all ,& trees & fl[]s he felt to be 8 fri5ds2 ,f cr[n & calyx & f tops ( trees1 ,! _s be+s spake full (t to him1 ,& all _! :isp]+s 7 lucid spee*4 ,m>vels & wond]s ( ! hidd5 worlds ,disclos$ !mselves unto ! boy :5 he ,held conv]se 9 8 s\l ) _m ?+s ,by m5 deem$ lifeless4 ,ev5+ (t5 fell1 ,& /ill ! boy w\ld be away f home1 ,& cause 8 lov+ p>5ts mu* di/ress4 ,at su* times he 0 at a place ne> by ,9 :i* a spr+ rose gu%+ f ! rocks1 ,to fall 9 mi/y spray ^u ! /ones4 ,:5 silv] moonbeams w\ld reflect !mselves1 ,a miracle ( col\r & ( light1 ,full 9 ! ru% ( ha/+ wat]drops1 ,! boy c\ld sp5d beside ! rock-born spr+ ,h\r aft] h\r1 till _s-%apes appe>$ ,be=e ! vision ( ! y\?ful se] ,:]e moonbeams %iv]$ on ! fall+ drops4 ,!y grew to be ?ree =ms 9 woman's %ape1 ,:o spoke to him ab\t ^? ?+s 9 :i* ,8 ye>n+ s\l made kn[n its int]e/4 ,& :5 ^u a g5tle summ] night ,! lad 0 once m sitt+ by ! spr+1 ,a myriad p>ticles "o woman took ,f out ! col\r$ web ( wat]drops ,& to ! second woman h&$ !m4 ,%e fa%ion$ f ! wat]y p>ticles ,a gleam+ *alice ) a silv] %e5 ,& h&$ x 9 turn unto ! ?ird4 ,%e fill$ ! vessel ) ! silv] rays ,( moonlight & !n gave x to ! boy1 ,:o _h beheld all ?is ) inn] sight4 ,dur+ ! night :i* foll[$ ?is ev5t ,he dream$ a dream 9 :i* he saw himself ,robb$ ( ?is *alice by "s dragon wild4 ,aft] ?is night _h pass$1 ! boy beheld ,b ?ree times m ! m>vel ( ! /ream4 ,!n ! ?ree wom5 /ay$ away f him ,al?\gh he sat & mus$ beside ! spr+ ,t gu%$ b5ea? ! moonlight f ! rock4 ,& :5 ?ree times ?ree hundr$ sixty weeks ,_h pass$1 ! boy _h long become a man1 ,& left home1 p>5ts1 & 8 woodl& nook ,to live 9 "s /range city4 ,!re "o eve ,he sat & ?\ght1 tir$ ) ! day's h>d toil1 ,mus+ on :at life held 9 /ore = him1 ,:5 sudd5ly he felt himself caught up ,& set aga9 beside t rock-b\nd spr+2 ,! wom5 ?ree1 he !re beheld once m1 ,& ?is "t cle>ly he c\ld he> !m speak4 ,^! 7 ! words ! fir/ "o spake to him3 ',?9k ( me always :5soe'er ?\ art ,o'ercome by lonel9ess1 = ,i am %e ,:o lures ! inn] vision ( mank9d ,to />ry realms & heav5ly di/ances4 ,& :osoev] wills to feel my sway ,to him ,i give a draught ( life & hope ,out ( ! magic goblet :i* ,i hold4' ,! second also spake ^! words to him3 ',=get me n at times :5 ?\ art nigh ,to los+ c\rage on life's battlefield4 ,i lead m5's ye>n+ he>ts to dep?s ( s\l ,& also up to l(ty _s-heights4 ,& :osoev] seeks 8 p[]s f me1 ,= him ,i =ge unwav]+ fai? 9 life ,%ap$ by ! magic hamm] :i* ,i wield4' ,! ?ird "o gave h] message 9 ^! words3 ',lift up ?y _s's eye to gaze on me ,:5 by life's riddles ?\ art ov]:elm$4 ',tis ,i :o sp9 ! ?reads ( ?\ght t lead ,?r\gh labyr9?s ( life & dep?s ( s\l4 ,& :osoev] puts 8 tru/ 9 me ,= him ,i weave ! rays ( liv+ love ,^u ?is magic loom at :i* ,i sit4' ,?us x befell ! man1 & 9 ! night ,t foll[$ on 8 vision he did dream1 ,h[ t a dragon wild 9 circles crept ,r\nd him1 b 0 n able to draw ne>4 ,he 0 protect$ f t dragon's claws ,by ^? same be+s :om he saw ( old ,seat$ beside ! spr+ among ! rocks1 ,:o _h gone ) him1 :5 he left 8 home1 ,to gu>d him 9 8 /range environm5t4 ,,capesius3 ,accept my ?anks1 de> dame1 be=e ,i g1 ,= ?is ri* treasure ?\ ha/ giv5 me4 7,/&s up & dep>ts2 ,felix & ,dame ,felicia g into ! h\se47 ,,capesius 7alone & at "s di/ance73 ,i feel ! heal? t su* a picture br+s ,into my s\l1 & h[ to all my ?\ghts ,x c re/ore ! =ces !y _h lo/4 ,simple ! tale unfold$ by ! dame1 ,& yet x r\se? p[]s ( ?\ght 9 me ,t c>ry me away to worlds unkn[n4444 ,!re=e w ,i 9 ?is fair solitude ,myself to dreams ab&on1 :i* s (t ,h s\ght to u%] ?\ghts into my s\l1 ,?\ghts :i* h prov$ !mselves ( high] wor? ,?an _m a fruit ( weeks ( close rese>*4 7,he disappe>s beh9d "s ?ick bu%es4 ,ent] ,johannes1 sunk 9 deep ?\ght47 ,,johannes ,,to ,,himself3 ,0 ?is "s dream1 or 0 x tru? inde$8 ,i _c be> ! words my fri5d j spake ,9 calm s]5ity & yet s firm ,ab\t our sep>ation :i* mu/ come4 ,w\ld ,i might ?9k x 0 b worldly s5se1 ,t sets itself aga9/ ! _s's tr5d1 ,&1 l a mirage1 /&s betwe5 u twa94 ,i _c1 & ,i w n let ! words ,( w>n+ :i* ,m>ia spake to me ,?us qu5* ! s\nd+ voice ( m9e own s\l ,:i* says ',i love h]1' says x night & day4 ,out ( ! f\nta9 ( my love alone ,spr+s t activity = :i* ,i crave4 ,:at value ha? my impulse to create ,or yet my outlook on high _s-aims ,if !y w\ld rob me ( t v light ,:i* c alone irradiate myself8 ,9 ?is illum9ation mu/ ,i live1 ,& if x is to be )drawn f me ,!n %all my *oice be dea? = ev]more4 ,i feel my =ces fail me at ?is h\r ,z soon z ,i w\ld set myself to ?9k2 ,x mu/ be t ,i w&] o'er a pa? ,:]eon h] light %$s n its radiant beam4 ,a mi/ beg9s to =m be=e m9e eyes ,:i* %r\ds ! m>vels o'er1 :i* us$ to make ,^! woods1 ^! cliffs a glory to m9e eyes1-- ,a fe>ful dream m\nts f abysmal dep?s-- ,:i* %akes me ?r\gh & ?r\gh ) fe> & dread-- ,o get !e gone f me2--,i ye>n to be ,alone to dream my individual dreams2 ,9 !m at lea/ ,i /ill c fight & /rive ,to w9 back t :i* n[ seems lo/ to me4 ,he w n g2--!n w ,i fly f him4 7,he feels z if he 7 root$ to ! gr\nd47 ,:at are ! bonds t hold me prison] ,& *a9 me1 z ) fett]s1 to ?is place8 7,! ,d\ble ( ,johannes ,?omasius appe>s47 ,ah6--:osoe'er ?\ art2 if human blood ,do? c\rse )9 ?y ve9s1 or if ?\ art ,"s _s only--leave me & dep>t4 ,:o is x8--,"h "s demon br+s to me ,my own self's lik5ess1--he w n dep>t2-- ,x is ! picture ( my v self ,& seems to be m p[]ful ?an t self4-- ,,d\ble3 ,m>ia1 ,i d love !e2--beat+ he>t ,& fev]$ blood are m9e :5 at ?y side4 ,& :5 ?9e eye meets m9e1 my pulse do? ?rill ,) passion's tremor3 :5 ?y de>e/ h& ,do? ne/le 9 m9e own1 my body swoons ,) rapture & delight4 ,,johannes3 ,?\ phantom gho/1 ,( mi/ & fog compact1 h[ do/ ?\ d>e ,to utt] blasphemy & s malign ,! pure/ feel+s ( my he>t4 ,h[ great ,a load ( guilt mu/ ,i h laid on me1 ,t ,i mu/ be compell$ to look ^u ,su* lu/--bef\l$ di/ortion ( t love ,t is to me s holy4 ,,d\ble3 ,i h l5t ,full (t unto ?y words a li/5+ e>4 ,i seem$ to draw !m up into my s\l ,z 'tw]e "s message f ! _s-_w4 ,b m ?an any sc5e ?y words disclos$ ,i lov$ to h ?y body close to m9e4 ,& :5 ?\ spak/ ( s\l-pa?s ,i 0 fill$ ,) rapture t w5t leap+ ?r\gh my ve9s4 7,! voice ( consci5ce speaks47 ,,consci5ce3 ,?is is ! unconfess$ ,b n yet dispossess$ ,app>5tly repress$ ,/ill by ! blood possess$ ,! hidd5 lure ,( sexual p[]4 ,,d\ble 7) a slightly diff]5t voice73 ,i h no p[] to g away f !e2 ,(t wilt ?\ f9d me /&+ by ?y side2 ,i leave !e n till ?\ ha/ f\nd ! p[] ,:i* makes ( me ! v c\nt]p>t ,( t pure be+ :i* ?\ %alt become4 ,z yet ?\ ha/ n rea*$ t high e/ate4 ,9 ! illusion ( ?y p]sonal self ,?\ ?9k/ mi/ak5ly t ?\ art he4 7,ent] ,lucif] & ,ahriman47 ,,lucif]3 ,o man1 o'ercome ?yself4 ,o man1 deliv] me4 ,?\ ha/ defeat$ me ,9 ?y s\l's highe/ realm2 ,b ,i am b\nd to !e ,9 ?9e own be+'s dep?4 ,me %alt ?\ ev] f9d ,across ?y pa? 9 life ,if ?\ w\ld/ /rive to %ield ,all ( ?yself f me4 ,o man1 o'ercome ?yself1 ,o man1 deliv] me4 ,,ahriman3 ,o man1 be bold & d>e4 ,o man1 exp]i5ce me4 ,?\ ha/ avail$ to w9 ,to _s se]%ip "h1 ,b ,i mu/ spoil = !e ,! long+ ( ?y he>t4 ,/ill mu/ ?\ suff] (t ,deep agony ( s\l1 ,if ?\ do/ n cons5t ,to make use ( my p[]s4 ,o man be bold & d>e4 ,o man1 exp]i5ce me4 7,lucif] & ,ahriman vani%2 ! ,d\ble also4 ,johannes walks1 deep 9 ?\ght1 into ! d>k recesses ( ! =e/4 ,capesius appe>s aga94 ,he has1 f 8 po/ beh9d ! bu%es1 wat*$ ! sc5e betwe5 ,johannes & ! ,d\ble z if x 7 a vision47 ,,capesius3 ,:at h ,i se5 & he>d6 ,x lay on me ,j l "s nightm>e4 ,came ,?omasius ,walk+ l "o :o is absorb$ 9 ?\ght2 ,!n he /ood /ill2 x seem$ z if he talk$ ,) someone1 & yet no "o else 0 !re4 ,i felt o'ercome z by "s deadly fe>2 ,& saw no m ( :at w5t on ar\nd4 ,z if ,i 7 asleep1 & unaw>e1 ,i mu/ h sunk into yon picture-_w ,:i* ,i c n[ s cle>ly call to m9d4 ,x c inde$ h be5 b little "t ,i sat & dream$1 unconsci\s ( myself2 ,& yet1 h[ ri* 0 yond] _w ( dreams1 ,:at /range impressions do? x make on me4 ,p]sons 7 !re :o liv$ 9 bygone days1 ,i pla9ly saw !m move & he>d !m speak4 ,i dream$ ab\t a _s-bro!rhood ,:i* /rove ) /eadfa/ purpose to atta9 ,unto ! heights :i* cr[n humanity4 ,among !m ,i c\ld cle>ly see myself1 ,& all t happ5$ 0 famili> too4 ,a dream 4441 yet mo/ unn]v+ 0 t dream4 ,i "k t 9 ?is life ,i c]ta9ly ,c ne'er h le>n$ to "k ! l ( x4 ,& ea* impression t x leaves beh9d ,reacts l v life ^u my s\l4 ,^? pictures draw me ) resi/less p[]4442 ,o if ,i c\ld b dream t dream aga94 ,curta91 :il/ ,capesius rema9s /&+ ,! foll[+ f\r sc5es repres5t ev5ts tak+ place dur+ ! fir/ ?ird ( ! ,x,i,vth c5tury4 ,_! cont5ts w %[ :at ,capesius1 ,?omasius1 & ,m>ia saw on look+ back at _! la/ inc>nation4 ,,sc5e #f ,a woodl& mead[4 ,9 ! backgr\nd1 high cliffs on :i* /&s a ca/le4 ,summ] ev5+4 ,c\ntryfolk2 ,simon1 ! ,jew2 ,?omas1 ! ,ma/] m9]2 ! ,monk4 ,c\ntryfolk walk+ across ! mead[1 & /opp+ to talk4 ,,fir/ ,,c\ntryman3 ,see yon vile ,jew2 he surely w n d>e ,to take ! same road t we take ourselves2 ,= ?+s might v well come to 8 e>s ,on he>+ :i* !y'd burn = _m a day4 ,,second ,,c\ntryman3 ,we mu/ make cle> to 8 effront]y1 ,aye1 v cle> inde$1 t we no m ,w tol]ate 8 race 9 our good l& ,across ^: b\nds he ha? contriv$ to sl9k4 ,,fir/ ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,he is protect$ by ! noble knights ,:o live up 9 yon ca/le2 none ( u ,may ent] x2 ! ,jew is welcome !re4 ,= he do? d :ate'er ! knights desire4 ,,?ird ,,c\ntryman3 ',tis v h>d to "k :o s]ves ! ,"l ,& :o ! devil4 ,?ankful %\ld we be ,to our good lords :o give u food & "w4 ,:at %\ld we be if x 7 n = !m8 ,,second ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,! ,jew %all h my praise2 8 rem$ies ,h cur$ me ( ! evil sickness t ,i _h4 ,besides1 he 0 s good & k9d to me4 ,& _m m c tell ! selfsame tale4 ,,?ird ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,yet did a monk let slip ! tru? to me1-- ,! devil's rem$ies ! ,jew employs4 ,bew>e 8 drugs2 trans=m$ )9 ! blood ,!y grant an entrance to all k9ds ( s94 ,,f\r? ,,c\ntryman3 ,! m5 :o wait ^u ! knights oppose ,our anci5t cu/oms1 say+ t ! ,jew ,ha? /ores ( k bo? to heal & bless ,:i* w 9 days to come be rightly priz$4 ,,fif? ,,c\ntryman3 ,new times & bett] are 9 /ore2 ,i see ,_! com+ 9 my _s1 :5 my s\l ,pictures to me :at eyes _c behold4 ,! knights int5d to br+ all ?is ab\t4 ,,f\r? ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,we owe ! ,*ur* ob$i5ce1 = %e gu>ds ,our s\ls f devil-visions1 & f dea?1 ,& f hell-fire4 ,! monks bid u bew>e ,! knights1 & _! vile sorc]]1 ! ,jew4 ,,fif? ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,only a %ort "t long] ne$ we be> ,9 pati5ce ! oppression ( ! knights4 ,soon w _! citadel 9 ru9s lie4 ,?us ha? x be5 =etold me 9 a dream4 ,,six? ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,i fe> su* tales betok5 mortal s9-- ,t noble knights d plot to br+ u h>m-- ,n\ght d ,i see b good come f _! h&s2 ,i ne$s mu/ c\nt !m ,*ri/ians1 z ourselves4 ,,six? ,,c\ntryman3 ,:at m5 %all ?9k ( !m 9 days to come ',tw]e be/ to leave to be adjudg$ by ^? ,:o %all live aft] u4 ,m]e tools are we1 ,us$ by ! knights 9 _! satanic arts ,to w> aga9/ true ,*ri/ianity4 ,if !y be driv5 out we %all be fre$ ,f _! p]nici\s sway1 & live our lives ,z we %all *oose1 9 ?is our native l&4 ,n[ let u g to vesp]s1 !re to f9d ,t :i* our s\ls require1 & t :i* is ,9 h>mony ) our ance/ral ways4 ,^! novel tea*+s suit u n at all4 7,exeunt ! c\ntryfolk47 7,simon1 ! ,jew1 ent]s f ! wood47 ,,simon3 ,:]e'er ,i g1 ,i f9d await+ me ,! anci5t hatr$ & ! bitt] taunts4 ,& yet ,i suff] n a :it ! less ,ea* "t ,i f9d myself expos$ to !m4 ,!re seems to be no reasonable cause ,:y p %\ld behave t[>d me ?us4 ,& yet "o ?\ght pursues me ev]more ,:i* makes ! tru? app>5t to my s\l1 ,t no?+ c befall u )\t cause4 ,s too a reason !re mu/ be = ?is1 ,t suff]+ is ! lot ( all my tribe4 ,s ) ! lords ( yond] citadel1 ,i f9d _! lot is ne> ak9 to m9e4 ,!y h b *os5 ( _! own free w ,t :i* by nature is impos$ on me4 ,!y set !mselves ap>t f all mank9d1 ,& /rive 9 isolation to acquire ,! p[]s ?r\gh :i* !y may atta9 _! goal4 ,?us c ,i feel ! debt ,i owe to fate ,& f9d h] bless+ 9 my lonel9ess4 ,=c$ to rely on my own s\l alone ,i took ! realms ( sci5ce = my field4 ,& recogniz$ f :at ,i le>n$ !re9 ,t ripe = new atta9m5ts 0 our "t4 ,! laws ( nature1 hi!rto unkn[n1 ,mu/ n[ reveal !mselves unto mank9d ,& make him ma/] ( ! _w ( s5se ,:5ce he w be all[$ to lib]ate ,p[]s he c put to use = 8 own ends4 ,s h ,i tri$1 z f> z 9 me lay1 ,to make fre% progress 9 ! heal+ art4 ,?is toil ende>$ me to ! bro!rhood4 ,its memb]s made me free ( _! e/ates ,to seek to f9d ! =ces t reside ,9 plants & 'nea? ! surface ( ! gr\nd1 ,t !y may yield = u new b5efits4 ,my actions !re=e m>* ) _! designs1 ,& ,i confess t ,i h pluck$ ) joy ,mu* goodly fruit :il/ go+ on my way4 7,exit into ! wood47 ,?omas1 ! ,ma/] m9]1 ent]s f ! wood4 ,ent] ! ,monk47 ,,?omas3 ,"h w ,i sit & re/ a little :ile4 ,my s\l ha? ne$ ( re/ to f9d itself ,aft] ! %ocks :i* ,i h _h to be>4 7,! ,monk comes up to him47 ,,monk3 ,i greet !e he>tily1 mo/ valiant son4 ,?\ ha/ come "h 9 se>* ( solitude4 ,?y "w well done1 ?\ w\ld/ h peace & quiet ,9 :i* to turn ?y ?\ghts to _s-worlds4 ,to see my well-lov$ pupil ?us employ$ ,rejoice? me4 ,b :y s sad ?9e eyes8 ',tw\ld seem anxiety weighs d[n y\r s\l4 ,,?omas3 ,pa9 (t is neighb\r unto highe/ bliss2 ,t ?is is s my own life proves today4 ,,monk3 ,ha/ ?\ !n met ) bliss & pa9 at once8 ,,?omas3 ,i told !e1 rev]5d fa!r1 t ,i lov$ ,! m\nta9-w>d5's daught]1 & confess$ ,t %e 0 also greatly drawn to me4 ,%e is to m>ry me & %>e my life4 ,,monk3 ,%e w be true to !e1 come weal1 come woe2 ,%e is a fai?ful daught] ( ! ,*ur*4 ,,?omas3 ,su* an "o only w\ld ,i take to wife2 ,s9ce1 hon\r$ ma/]1 ,i h le>n$ f !e ,! mean+ ( ob$i5ce to ,god's w4 ,,monk3 ,& art ?\ also c]ta9 ( ?y s\l1 ,t x w walk /ill fur!r 9 ! way ,( righte\sness1 :i* ,i h po9t$ out8 ,,?omas3 ,s sure z 9 ?is body beats a he>t1 ,s sure w ,i1 ?y son1 be true = aye ,to ^? exalt$ tea*+s :i* ( old ,f ?9e own lips ,i 0 all[$ to le>n4 ,,monk3 ,& n[ t ?\ ha/ told me ( ?y bliss ,let me he> also f !e ( ?y woe4 ,,?omas3 ,(t h ,i told !e :at my life ha? be54 ,sc>ce _h ,i left my *ildhood's days beh9d ,?an ,i began to travel & to roam4 ,i nev] work$ = long 9 any place4 ,ev] ,i *]i%$ 9 my he>t ! wi% ,to meet my fa!r1 :om ,i lov$1 al?\gh ,i _h n he>d a good report ( him4 ,he left my de> good "m all alone ,because he wi%$ to />t 8 life anew ,unhamp]$ by a wife & *ildr5 twa94 ,! impulse = adv5ture dwelt 9 him4 ,i 0 a *ild /ill1 :5 he w5t f u4 ,my si/] 0 a t9y new-born babe4 ,my "m di$ ( grief 9 no long "t4 ,my si/] 0 adopt$ by good folk ,:o lat] mov$ away f my old home4 ,& ( h] fate ,i nev] m he>d tell4 ,"s relatives assi/$ me to le>n ,a m9]'s "w1 9 :i* ,i exp]t grew1 ,s t ,i f\nd employm5t :]e ,i wi%$4 ,! hope t "s day ,i %\ld once m f9d ,my fa!r1 nev] vani%$ f my he>t4 ,& n[ my hope at la/ is realiz$ ,b also is = ev] torn f me4 ,matt]s ( bus9ess l$ me ye/]day ,to seek = spee* ) my sup]ior4 ,?\ kn[/ h[ lightly ,i e/eem ! knight ,:o issue? ! directions = my "w ,s9ce ,i h le>n$ ?\ art 8 enemy4 ,f t "t =w>d ,i made up my m9d ,n to rema9 9 s]vice "u him4 ,= reasons :i* rema9 unkn[n to me ,! knight allud$ 9 our int]view ,to matt]s :i* all[$ him to decl>e ,himself to be--! fa!r :om ,i s\ght4 ,:at foll[$ 444 ,i w\ld gladly leave untold4 ,x w\ld n h be5 h>d to ov]look ,my "m's suff]+s at 8 h&s1 & m9e1 ,:5 he & ,i once m /ood face to face1 ,& :5 he spoke1 grief-burd5$1 ( old days4 ,b 9 8 =m1 /ood fac+ me1 ?y foe4 ,& "o ?+ !n 0 manife/ to me3-- ,h[ deep a gulf mu/ ev] sep>ate ,myself f him1 :om ,i s fa9 w\ld love1 ,& :om ,i s\ght s long & ard5tly4 ,n[ h ,i lo/ him = ! second "t1 ,su* is ! lot t ha? befall5 me4 ,,monk3 ,i w\ld n e'er e/range !e f ^? ties ,impos$ on !e by blood-relation%ip4 ,b :at ,i c be/[ ^u ?y s\l ,%all ev] be to !e a gift ( love4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #g ,a *amb] 9 ! ca/le ^: ext]ior 0 %[n 9 ! prec$+ sc5e4 ,decorat$ ?r\gh\t ) symbols ( a ,my/ic ,bro!rhood4 7,= co/umes1 see note on page #ade47 ,columns1 ar*es1 & vault$ ro( ) ! my/ic symbols %[n 9 ! ,au?or's ',occult ,symbols4' ,fir/ ! ,knights assemble2 !n ! ,monk & "o ( ! ,knights2 lat] appe>s ! _s ( ,b5$ictus :o has pass$ away ab\t fifty ye>s e>li]4 ,!n ,lucif] & ,ahriman4 ,! ,gr& ,ma/] seat$ ) f\r ,bro!rs at a long table4 ,,gr& ,,ma/]3 ,ye :o are jo9$ ) me 9 comrade%ip ,to seek ! goal appo9t$ unto man1 ,& br+ t k f ! _s-realm ,into ! scope ( e>?'s activities1 ,z is appo9t$ to our bro!rhood1 ,mu/ also truly help me 9 ?is h\r ,:5 heavy trials imp5d4 ,!n1 "k ye all ,t s9ce our v5]at$ ma/] fell1 ,a victim by ! ,p[]s ( ,d>kness claim$1 ,:o draw _! /r5g? f ,evil1 help+ on ,! plan ( ,wisdom by _! natural means1 ,t is by means ( ,opposition's /r5g?1 ,s9ce ,wisdom turne? ,evil into ,good3 ,s9ce t sad loss we /rive on e>? 9 va91 ,= _m a ca/le ( our bro!rhood ,ha? by our enemies be5 ov]:elm$1 ,& _m bro!rs de> to u h fall5 ,9 fight1 & foll[$ our great ,ma/] home ,into ! realm ( ev]la/+ light4 ,= u too do? ! h\r approa* apace ,:5 ^! /\t walls t %elt] u %all fall4 ,our foes already spy ! c\ntry r\nd ,to f9d a pretext "u :i* !y may ,rob u ( our possessions1 ne'er acquir$ ,= our own use1 b z a means to draw ,ar\nd u individuals1 9 ^: s\ls ,we c\ld implant ! g]ms ( ?+s to come4 ,^! g]ms %all rip5 :5 ^? m5 !mselves ,f9d _! way back f out ! _s-l& ,to live anew 9 future days on e>?4 ,,fir/ ,,ma/] ,,( ,,c]emonies3 ,t ?is our bro!rhood %\ld be o'er?r[n ,by "s obscure design ( de/9y1 ,is some?+ n[ise inconceivable4 ,b t ! fall ( our community ,%\ld doom s _m bro!rs' s+le lives1 ,w\ld seem to contrav5e ! cosmic law4 ,i d n wi% my words to make compla9t1 ,s9ce will+ly our bro!rs suff] dea?4 ,b /ill my s\l desires to compreh5d ,! sacrifice dem&$ f ^! m5 ,:o h alli$ !mselves unto a :ole1 ,because ! p[]s ( de/9y decree ,! ov]?r[ & ru9 ( t :ole4 ,,gr& ,,ma/]3 ,! sep>ate life ( individual m5 ,is l9k$ mo/ wisely to ! _w's design4 ,among/ our bro!rs !re w surely be ,"s :o h giv5 pro( ( compet5ce ,to s]ve our bro!rhood ) _! s\l's p[] ,& yet ^: nature /ill %[s _m a /a94 ,! errors & misde$s ( su* a he>t ,mu/ f9d _! expiation 9 ! pa9 ,suff]$ by x 9 s]vice = ! :ole ,& he :o1 blameless bo? 9 act & de$1 ,mu/ none ! less walk 9 ! ?orny way ,trac$ by ! ,k>ma ( ! bro!rhood1 ,w f9d 8 pa9 requit$ by ! p[] ,to m\nt al(t unto ! high] life4 ,,fir/ ,,ma/] ,,( ,,c]emonies3 ,s !n ! bro!rhood may tol]ate ,)9 its ranks s\ls n yet purifi$ ,:o v[ !mselves to its exalt$ aims8 ,,gr& ,,ma/]3 ,he :o to l(ty works is d$icate ,do? m>k alone ! goodness 9 m5's s\ls2 ,he lets ! evil "w its ransom out ,z cosmic ju/ice 9 its c\rse decides4 ,my bro!rs1 ,i h bid y meet me "h ,9 ord] to rem9d y ) grave words ,t we h duties 9 our days ( grief4 ,we mu/ be ready to lay d[n our lives ,= ^? high purposes to :i* we swore ,lifelong allegiance4 ,ye !n are inde$ ,my bro!rs1 if undaunt$ly y\r s\ls ,repeat ! motto ( our bro!rhood3 ',bo? sep>at5ess & life mu/ be =sworn ,by ^? :o w\ld set eyes on _s-goals ,?r\gh occult s5ses unto !m reveal$2 ,:o d>e to let ! _s's w p\r d[n ,& flood _! individual purposes4' ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,exalt$ ,ma/]1 %\ld/ ?\ deign to te/ ,! he>t ( ea* man 9 our bro!rhood1 ,x w\ld repeat t motto l\d & cle>6-- ,yet d we beg !e to expla9 to u ,:y1 n cont5t ) robb+ u ( life ,& our possessions1 n[ our enemies ,w\ld rob u also ( ^? humble s\ls ,:om we h t5d$ ) unselfi% love4 ,= e day af=ds new evid5ce ,t n alone compulsion makes our folk ,submit !mselves unto our conqu]ors2 ,b t inde$ !y too h le>n$ to hate ,! _s-pa? :i* we _h %[n to !m4 ,,gr& ,,ma/]3 ,t :i* we h implant$ 9 m5's s\ls ,may die inde$ today2 b ^! same m51 ,:o once h brea!d our _s-radiance1 ,w come aga9 to e>?1 & !n be/[ ,^u ! _w ! fruitage ( our "w4 ,?us speaks unto my _s (t5times ,our mighty lead] f ! realm ( dea?1 ,:5 9 my quiet h\rs1 ,i d s9k d[n ,into my s\l's deep places1 & ar\se ,/r5g? to abide a:ile 9 _s-l&s4 ,!n may ,i feel ! ma/]'s pres5ce ne> ,& he> 8 words1 z 9 ! life ( s5se ,i (t5 he>d !m4 ,nev] do? he speak ,ab\t our "w z draw+ to a close2 ,b only ( fulfilm5t ( our aims ,9 lat] days t are to come on e>?4 7,exeunt ! ,gr& ,ma/] & two ,bro!rs47 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,he speaks ( _s-worlds 9 j su* words ,z m5 may speak ( villages or t[ns4444 ,! way 9 :i* our l(tie/ bro!rs speak ,( o!r /ates ( life oppresse? me4 ,& yet ,i am devot$ f]v5tly ,unto ! progress ( our e>?ly aims4 ,,second ,,ma/] ,,( ,,c]emonies3 ,my firm reliance is our ma/]'s words4 ,! man :o _c he> ) p]fect fai? ,! tale ( _s & ( _s-worlds1-- ,is n[ise lack+ 9 ! faculties ,to grasp a revelation ( ?is k9d4 ,! ?+s he lacks are ( a diff]5t m\ld4 ,he may well guess1 unwill+ to admit1 ,t he is consci\s ( unwor?9ess ,to be a memb] ( ! high] worlds4 ,a s\l mu/ be defil$ by secret /a9 ,& eag] to d5y t !y are !re1 ,t w n b[ be=e ! _s-lore4 7,exeunt47 7,ent] ! ,monk2 ! ,second ,preceptor ent]s & /eps up to him47 ,,second ,,preceptor3 ,:at err& br+e? !e to ?is our h\se ,:i* is = !e ! home ( enemies8 ,,monk3 ,i mu/ include among/ my fri5ds all ^? ,:o be> ! =m ( m54 ,?is is our rule4 ,b ho/ile ?\ may/ well e/eem ! claim ,:i* ,i1 by duty b\nd1 mu/ "h pres5t4 ,^? :o are ov] me h s5t me "h4 ,& _! desire is t ! prop]ty ,belong+ to ! ,*ur*1 z by old de$s ,is well atte/$1 %\ld be giv5 back ,to !m )\t dispute4 ,yon tract ( gr\nd ,^u :i* ye h sunk y\r m9e1 belongs ,9 law & equity unto ! ,*ur*4 ,! mann] 9 :i* ye possess$ y\rselves ,( ?is e/ate conf]s no legal rights4 ,,second ,,preceptor3 ,:e!r 9 law we h a "r to call ,x ours or no1 w\ld con/itute a case ,= legal disputation long drawn out4 ,b c]ta9 'tis t x belongs to u ,if we ref] x to a high] law4 ,yon tract ( gr\nd 0 ly+ lo/ & wa/e ,:5 x 0 pur*as$ by our bro!rhood3 ,n e'en an inkl+ _h ye ( ! fact ,t f> bel[ ri* treasure lay conceal$4 ,?is h we won = human indu/ry4 ,its treasures travel f> & wide today ,to di/ant l&s1 to fur!r human weal4 ,& _m hone/ s\ls are n[ at "w ,9 %aft & tunnel und]nea? ! gr\nd ,:i* 9 y\r h&s lay wa/e & desolate4 ,,monk3 ,!n x do? n seem fair & "r to !e ,to urge ^u ?y bro!rhood ! ne$ ,( peaceably accept+ our dem& ,t s we may rega9 our prop]ty8 ,,second ,,preceptor3 ,s9ce we are n aw>e ( any guilt1 ,b are conv9c$ our cause is :olly j1 ,we c b wait 9 quiet confid5ce ,to see if ye are really b5t on /rife1 ,:5 z be=e1 y\rselves are 9 ! wrong4 ,,monk3 ,!n w ye h to ?ank y\r head/rong w ,if we are driv5 to a /]n] c\rse4 ,,second ,,preceptor3 ,! hon\r ( our bro!rhood dem&s ,t only :5 defeat$1 sword 9 h&1 ,d we all[ ourselves to be despoil$4 ,,monk3 ,s be x6 ,n[ my mission is fulfill$4 ,betwe5 u !re is no m ne$ ( words4 ,w x be possible = me to h ,an audi5ce ) ?y "l1 :o "h comm&s8 ,,second ,,preceptor3 ,! ma/] d\btless w conc$e !e ?is2 ,yet wait1 ,i pray ?ree1 = a little :ile4 ,he _c at ?is mom5t come to !e4 7,exit47 ,,monk3 ,o1 t m9e (fice =ce? me to tread ,! halls ( ?is dete/$ bro!rhood4 ,turn :]e !y may1 my eyes mu/ contemplate ,s9ful devices & satanic spells4 ,almo/ a horror seize? hold on me2 ,a crackl+ & a rumbl+ fill ! air2 ,i feel ! p[]s ( ill are ga!r$ r\nd4 7,noises he>d47 ,b z my consci5ce is entirely cle> ,i w defy ! enemy4 7,noises he>d47 ,oh1 ?is ,is t]rible4444 7,! _s ( ,b5$ictus appe>s47 ,def5d me1 ,sa9ts 9 ,heav56 ,,b5$ictus3 ,collect ?yself1 my son4 ,i (t5 came ,to meet !e1 :5 ! f]v\r ( ?y pray]s ,transport$ !e unto ! _s-_w4 ,take !re=e c\rage 9 ?is pres5t h\r ,& le>n a tru? :i* ?\ mu/ realize ,if _s cle>ness is to hold its sway ,& drive away ! d>kness f ?y s\l4 ,,monk3 ,:5 9 my trials ,i pray$ to ,heav5 = light1 ,& :5 my supplication w+$ its way ,to realms cele/ial1 & won response1 ,?\1 v5]at$ ma/]1 did/ appe>4 ,?\1 :o wa/ aye our ,ord]'s ornam5t1 ,! :ile ?\ w]t among/ u "h on e>?1 ,& out ( high] realms did/ speak to me1 ,enlight5+ my m9d & /r5g!n+ me4 ,my s\l beheld !e ) its inn] eye1 ,my _s e> 0 op5 to ?y words4 ,9 ?is h\r also !n1 w ,i receive ,! revelation ) humility ,:i* ?\ %alt cause to fl[ into my s\l4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?\ art )9 t bro!rhood's abode ,:om ?\ do/ *>ge ) wick$ h]esies4 ,!y seem to hate :at we are taught to love ,& hold 9 hon\r :at we c\nt z s94 ,our bre?r5 feel !mselves 9 duty b\nd ,to ha/e ! _s-bre?r5's ov]?r[1 ,& ?9k _! action sanction$ by ! words ,i spake myself :il/ ,i 0 /ill on e>?4 ,yet d !y n imag9e t ^! words ,c only hold ! liv+ tru? s long ,z !y are rightly act$ on by ^? ,:o h be5 my successors 9 my "w4 ,s let ^? ?\ghts :i* ,i once held on e>? ,rise up afre% & live )9 ?y s\l ,9 h>mony ) ne$s ( new] times4 ,& ?us behold ?is ,ord]1 :i* do? seek ,its goal 9 my/ic realms1 z ,i %\ld judge ,& look on x1 if x _h be5 my lot ,to dwell on e>? & "w ) !e today4 ,?is bro!rhood is v[$ to l(ty aims4 ,^! individuals :o h jo9$ its ranks ,h premonitions ( ! days to come2 ,_! lead]s see ) a prophetic eye ,! fruits t %all gr[ ripe 9 future times2 ,sci5ce & daily life %all und]go ,a *ange ( =m & seek ideals new2 ,& :at ?is bro!rhood do? n[ a*ieve1 ,:om ?\ ha/ l5t a h& to p]secute1 ,are de$s :i* s]ve to br+ ?is *ange ab\t4 ,alone by peaceful union ( ! aims ,s\ght by our bre?r5 & ^! h]etics ,c good be made to blossom on ?is e>?4 ,,monk3 ,?is w>n+1 ( :i* ,i am wor?y f\nd1 ,h[ c ,i act ^u x8 ,x dep>ts ,amaz+ly f all t ,i h held1 ,up to ?is mom5t1 to be "r & good4 7,ahriman & ,lucif] appe>47 ,b o!r be+s n[ are draw+ nigh6 ,:y d !y come & /& beside !e n[8 ,,ahriman3 ,?is fur!r message comes f o!r realms4 ,x _c seem an easy ?+ = !e ,?y pr$ecessor's bidd+ to obey4 ,reflect--he dwells 9 ev]la/+ bliss4 ,& actions by decree & duty !re ,desirable1 may well ^u ! e>? ,lead to confusion at ! pres5t "t4 ,lift up ?9e eyes to :]e he dwells on high ,if ?\ w\ld/ seek = com=t f ! bliss ,t1 :5 ! latt] days ( e>? draw ne>1 ,by cosmic spirits is to be be/[$4 ,b if at pres5t ?\ w\ld/ act aright1 ,be guid$ only1 9 ! *oice ( pa?s1 ,by t :i* reason & ! s5ses tea*4 ,?\ ha/ be5 able cle>ly to disc]n ,! s9ful ways ( yond] bro!rhood ,:i* !y w\ld fa9 keep secret f ! _w2 ,?us ha/ ?\ le>n$ t laws = future life ,c well be fram$ by s\ls n[ /eep$ 9 s96 ,h[ can/ ?\ wi%1 n[ t ?\ kn[/ ^! ?+s1 ,to live 9 fri5d%ip ) ! bro!rhood8 ,= error is a poor & /]ile soil ,:]e good fruit _c come to rip5+4 ,,lucif]3 ,?y pi\s m9d ha? %[n ! road to !e4 ,x is mo/ true t times & objects *ange2 ,b none ! less 'tis n = h]etics ,to trace ! pa?s on :i* mank9d mu/ tread4 ,! error ( ?is _s-bro!rhood ,is dang]\s1 because x speaks ! tru?1 ,& yet expresses x 9 su* a way ,z makes ! tru? m deadly ?an a lie4 ,a man :o op5ly av[$ he li$ ,w\ld h to be b]eft ( common s5se ',ere he c\ld br+ himself to su* belief ,t m5 w\ld gladly foll[ :]e he l$4 ,! _s-knights inde$ are %rewd ( m9d2 ,!y d n fail to speak ab\t ! ,*ri/ ,because ?is "n c op5 e door ,t gives admission to ! s\ls ( m54 ,b ev] c m5 easie/ be l$ ,into ! s]vice ( ! ,anti*ri/ ,:5 9 ! "n ( ,*ri/ he is proclaim$4 ,,monk3 ,conflict+ voices f ! _w ( s\ls ,assail m9e e>s1 z (t5 h]et(ore1 ,& always ) an aim to c\nt]act ,! pi\s prompt+s ( a m9d dev\t4 ,h[ %all ,i f9d ! pa?s t lead to good ,if by ! ,p[]s ( ,evil !y be prais$8 ,almo/ x seems to me z if inde$4442 ,b no1 su* words %all n be ?\ght by me--1 ,! wisdom ( my ma/] %all reveal ,! mean+ ( 8 words1 s d>k to me4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,i c direct !e to ! prop] pa?1 ,if ?\ wilt let ! words :i* once ,i spake ,on e>? possess !e 9 ?9e inmo/ s\l4 ,& if ?\ art resolv$ to f9d ! life ,t lives )9 ^? words ^u ^? planes ,on :i* ?\ n[ can/ see me face to face1 ,! prop] pa? %all be made pla9 to !e4 ,curta91 :ile ! ,monk1 ! ,_s ( ,b5$ictus1 ,lucif]1 & ,ahriman are /ill on ! /age ,,sc5e #h ,! same4 ,! ,fir/ ,preceptor2 ,joseph ,keane2 !n ! ,gr& ,ma/] ) ,simon2 lat] ! ,fir/ & ! ,second ,ma/] ( ,c]emonies4 ,joseph ,keane is !re fir/2 ! ,preceptor approa*es him4 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,?\ did/ s5d ^w ?\ w\ld/ h spee* ) me4 ,:at is ! news t ?\ art come to br+8 ,,joseph ,,keane3 ,mo/ weighty matt]s bo? to !e & me4 ,?\ kn[/ ! ma/] m9] ,?omas "h1 ,:o r5d]s s]vice to !e8 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,well ,i "k ,! wor?y man2 we prize him = 8 skill1 ,& 8 subord9ates hold him 9 love4 ,,keane3 ,& do/ ?\ "k my *ild1 ,cecilia1 too8 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor 7mov$73 ,x ha? s *anc$ t ,i h se5 ! maid ,:5 ,i h met !e ) ?y family4 ,,keane3 ,x happ5$ t soon aft] ,?omas came ,he paid u frequ5t visits 9 our home4 ,!y grew m frequ5t2 x 0 evid5t ,t to ,cecilia 8 :ole he>t w5t out4 ,we did n m>vel t ?is %\ld be s4 ,b1 kn[+ our girl's nature1 x 0 long ,ere we c\ld ?9k t %e return$ 8 love4 ,h] life 0 well nigh "o cont9u\s pray]1 ,& almo/ all society %e %unn$4 ,yet ev] do? x n[ appe> m cle> ,t to ?is /rang] %e ha? giv'n h] he>t4 ,& z ?+s are1 we feel ourselves compell$ ,n to oppose ! wi%es ( our *ild2 ,?omas %e loves1 & %e w\ld m>ry him4 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor 7) falt]+ movem5ts73 ,:y runs ?is m>riage c\nt] to ?y w8 ,,keane3 ,my "l1 !re is no ne$ = me to tell ,( my devotion to ! bro!rhood4 ,my he>t w\ld h to be> a heavy load ,if my *ild's love1 9 its entirety1 ,7 ca/ ^u ! side ( ^? :o say ,t y & ,i alike are h]etics4 ,! monk :o n[ o'er yond] abbey rules ,close by our home1 & :o do? ev] seek ,to ?w>t ! mission ( ! bro!rhood1 ,ha? won dom9ion o'er our daught]'s s\l4 ,z long z %e is /ill b5ea? my ro( ,s long %all ,i too n ab&on hope ,t %e may yet aga9 retrace ! pa? ,:i* leads f _s-d>kness unto light4 ,b ,i %all h to give h] up = lo/ ,:5 %e %all h become ! wife ( "o ,:o1 l h]self1 works = ! weal ( man ,accord+ to ! precepts ( t monk4 ,8 ,rev]5ce ha? _h complete success ,9 foi/+ su* op9ions z he holds ,on ,?omas1 :o receives !m 9 full fai?4 ,a ?rill ( t]ror w\ld run ov] me ,to he> ! curses p\r f ,?omas' lips ,:5e'er we spake ab\t ! bro!rhood4 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,our enemies are _m2 if "o m ,is add$ x _c affect u mu*4 ,?y words h n yet made x cle> to me ,:at my conc]n is ) ?is tale ( love4 ,,keane3 ,my "l1 ?\ see/ ?is packet 9 m9e h&4 ,its cont5ts w>rant me to come to !e4 ,my wife & ,i alone h read ! l9es3 ,none else 9 ^! p>ts kn[s a ^w ( !m4 ,n[ mu/ !y be made kn[n to !e z well-- ,! maid :o passe? = our fle% & blood ,is n ! (fspr+ ( my wife & me4 ,we und]took ! tra9+ ( ! *ild ,:5 h] own "m di$4 ,:at ,i h /ill ,to say w make x seem unnecess>y1 ,to tell at l5g? h[ all ?is came to pass4 ,= long we knew n :o h] fa!r 02 ,! girl today kn[s n h] p>5tage4 ,fa!r & "m %e beholds 9 u4 ,& su* a /ate ( ?+s might h gone on ,s9ce we d love h] z our v own4 ,b "s ye>s lat] ?an h] "m's dea? ,! pap]s t ,i hold 7 br\ght to u2 ,!y make x pla9 :o our *ild's fa!r is4 ,i _c tell if he is kn[n to !e4 7,! ,preceptor loses control ov] himself47 ,b n[ ,i "k--am sure 444 444 t ?\ art he4 ,!re is no ne$ = me to tell !e m4 ,b s9ce x is ?y *ild :o is conc]n$ ,i beg !e to ext5d to me ?9e aid4 ,unit$ our endeav\rs may succe$ ,to save h] f ! d>kness t imp5ds4 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,de> ,keane4 ,?\ ha/ be5 ev] true to me1 ,& ,i w\ld fa9 /ill fur!r c\nt on !e4 ,nei!r )9 nor yet )\t ^! walls ,mu/ any 9 ?is c\ntry ev] "k ,! tru? ( my relation to ?is girl4 ,,keane3 ,my ^w !reon4 ,i mean no h>m to !e2 ,i only beg t ?\ wilt l5d ?9e aid4 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,?\ do/ p]ceive t at ! pres5t "t ,i _c talk ) !e at great] l5g?4 ,i pray !e come tomorr[4 ,,keane3 ,i w come4 7,exit47 ,,fir/ ,,preceptor3 ,h[ cruelly my fate fulfils itself4 ,i left my wife & *ild 9 mis]y1 ,s9ce !y seem$ h9drances ^u ! pa? ,along :i* vanity did beckon me4 ,x l$ me on to jo9 ?is bro!rhood4 ,9 words ( solemn import ,i !n v[$ ,my s]vice to ! cause ( human love ,albeit ,i 0 lad5 ) ! guilt ,aris+ f ! opposite ( love4 ,! bro!rhood's cle> vision1 z appli$ ,to acts & m51 is manife/ 9 me4 ,x welcom$ me a bro!r 9 its ranks ,& =?) laid on me its rules sev]e4 ,to self-exam9ation 0 ,i l$ ,& k ( myself1 :i* o!rwise ,9 o!r walks ( life ,i _h n f\nd4 ,& !n :51 "u ,fate's decree1 my son ,came & dwelt ne> me1 ,i 0 fa9 to ?9k ,t mighty ,p[]s 7 m]ciful to me ,9 %[+ h[ to expiate my s94 ,i knew long s9ce t ?is ,keane's fo/]-*ild ,0 none else ?an ! daught] :om ,i left4 ,! bro!rhood is ne> its ov]?r[1 ,ea* bro!r resolute to meet 8 dea?1 ,conv9c$ t ^? high purposes w live ,= :i* he makes 8 life ! sacrifice4 ,b ,i1 alas1 h felt = _m days ,i 0 n wor?y ( ?is glori\s end4 ,my purpose ev] rip5$ to make kn[n ,my case unto ! ma/]1 & to crave ,p]mission to =sake ! bro!rhood4 ,i _h 9 m9d !nce=w>d to devote ,my days unto my *ildr51 & s f> ,z 9 ?is e>?-life yet is possible ,to (f] p5ance4 ,b ,i cle>ly see1 ,t 'twas n filial long+ br\ght my son ,to ?is same spot to seek 8 fa!r out1 ,al?\gh 8 good he>t made him ?us believe4 ,b he 0 l$ by =ces 9 ! blood ,:i* drew him to 8 si/]4 ,o!r ties1 ,blood-born1 7 loos5$ by a fa!r's guilt1 ,or else yon monk _h nev] _h ! p[] ,to rob me s entirely ( my son4 ,inde$ ! robb]y is s complete1 ,t ) ! bro!r w ! si/] too ,f my pat]nal long+s be e/rang$4 ,& s n\ght else rema9s = me b ?is1 ,to take imm$iate measures to ensure ,t !y %all "k ! tru? ab\t !mselves1 ,& !n ) resignation to await ,! p5ance laid ^u me by ^? p[]s ,:o keep ! reckon+ ( our misde$s4 7,exit47 7,aft] an int]val ! ,gr& ,ma/] & ,simon ent]47 ,,gr& ,,ma/]3 ,h5ce=w>d ,simon1 9 ! ca/le walls ,?\ mu/ abide1 = s9ce t ly+ tale ,0 publi%$ t ?\ art a sorc]]1 ,p]il awaits ?9e e /ep outside4 ,,simon3 ,my he>t is sore inde$ to f9d t m5 ,9 ignorance assail a pr(f]$ aid ,^: only object is to d !m good4 ,,gr& ,,ma/]3 ,^? :o1 by grace ( l(ty _s-p[]s1 ,c turn _! gaze ^u ! s\ls ( m51 ,w see ! enemies !re9 array$ ,:i* fight aga9/ ! nature ( ! s\l4 ,! battle :i* our mortal foes prep>e ,is b an emblem ( t great] /rife ,wag$ 9 ! he>t incessantly by p[]s ,:i* are at enmity among/ !mselves4 ,,simon3 ,my "l1 9 v tru? ^! words ( ?9e ,ar\se an e*o 9 my deepe/ s\l4 ,inde$ my nature is n prone to dreams2 ,yet :5 ,i walk alone ?r\gh wood & field ,a picture (t5 rise? 9 my s\l ,:i* ) my w ,i c no m control ,?an any object :i* m9e eye beholds4 ,a human =m appe>s 9 front ( me ,:i* fa9 w\ld grasp my h& 9 fell[%ip4 ,su* suff]+ on 8 features is express$ ,z nev] yet ,i saw 9 any face4 ,! greatness & ! beauty ( ?is man ,seize firmly hold ( all my p[]s ( s\l2 ,i fa9 w\ld s9k to e>? & humbly b[ ,be=e ?is mess5g] f o!r worlds4 ,next mom5t l a rag+ flame1 !re comes ,! wilde/ ang] se>+ ?r\gh my he>t1 ,nor c ,i ga9 ! ma/]y o'er ! p[] ,t fans ! opposition ( my s\l1 ,& ,i am =c$ to ?ru/ aside ! h& ,:i* is s lov+ly held out to me4 ,s soon z to my s5ses ,i return ,! radiant =m ha? vani%$ f my sight4 ,& !reupon1 :5 ,i recall 9 ?\ght ,t :i* my _s ha? s (t5 se51 ,be=e my s\l ?is ?\ght pres5ts itself ,:i* moves me to ! bottom ( my he>t4 ,i feel myself attract$ by ?y lore1 ,9 :i* a ,_s-be+ is reveal$ ,desc5d+ f ! ,k+dom ( ! ,sun1 ,to take a human =m ^u ,himself1 ,9 ord] to disclose ,himself to m54 ,i _c keep ! gl[+ beauty out ,t p\rs ^u me f ?y noble lore1 ,& yet my s\l w n ass5t !reto4 ,! primal =m ( our humanity ,9 ?y great ,_s-be+ ,i admit2 ,b /ill my individual self rebels ,:5 ,i w\ld turn to him 9 fai? & love4 ,s mu/ ,i ev] wage an inw>d w> ,! ar*etype ( e out] /rife4 ,9 sore di/ress1 ,i seek 9 va9 a clue ,to solve ! riddle ( my life & fate3 ,h[ comes x t ,i und]/& s well ,& yet t ,i 9 no wise c believe ,! ?+s ?y noble tea*+s d reveal8 ,i foll[ ?9e example fai?fully1 ,yet f9d myself oppos$ at e po9t ,to ?is example's goal & orig94 ,& :5 ,i mu/ ?us recognize myself1 ,a flood ( d\bt o'er:elms my falt'r+ fai? ,t 9 ?is life ,i may yet f9d myself4 ,nay1 worse ?an ?is1 ! dread do? haunt me (t ,t ?is bewild]m5t ( d\bt may run ,?r\gh all ! lives t ,i %all live on e>?4 ,,gr& ,,ma/]3 ,! picture1 :i* ?\ sawe/1 my good fri5d1 ,be=e my _s /ood out /rong & cle> ,:il/ ?\ did/ pa9t x 9 ^? vivid words2 ,& z ?\ did/ speak fur!r1 !n x grew ,9 bread? be=e m9e eyes until ,i saw ,h[ cosmic aims are l9k$ to human fate4 7,exeunt47 7,aft] an int]val1 ! two ,ma/]s ( ,c]emonies ent]47 ,,fir/ ,,ma/] ,,( ,,c]emonies3 ,de> bro!r1 ,i mu/ op5ly confess ,t our ,gr& ,ma/]'s clem5cy exce$s ,my compreh5sion1 :5 ,i ne$s mu/ see ,:at bitt] wrong our foes inflict on u4 ,al?\gh !y w n /udy :at we tea* ,!y scruple n to pa9t u 9 m5's eyes ,z h]etics & mess5g]s f hell4 ,,second ,,ma/] ,,( ,,c]emonies3 ,8 clem5cy f our own tea*+ fl[s4 ,c we proclaim life's highe/ aim to be ,to und]/& ! s\l ( e man1 ,& !n misund]/& our foes ourselves8 ,!re are among/ !m _m m5 inde$ ,:o foll[ 9 ! foot/eps ( ! ,*ri/4 ,yet ev5 f ! s\ls ( su* z ^! ,! ess5ce ( our tea*+s mu/ be veil$1 ,?\gh !y %\ld he> !m ) ! out] e>4 ,rememb]1 bro!r1 h[ reluctantly1 ,& ) :at inn] conflict1 ?\ wa/ l$ ,to grant admission to ! _s-voice4 ,we "k1 f :at ! ma/] ha? reveal$1 ,t future m5 w see 9 ,_s-light ,! l(ty ,be+ ( ! ,sun1 :o trod ,?is ,e>? once only 9 a human frame4 ,?is revelation we ) joy believe ,& gladly foll[ :]e our lead]s tread4 ,yet b a %ort "t s9ce ^! weighty words ,7 said by him :om we acclaim z ,head3 ',y\r s\ls mu/ rip5 sl[ly1 if inde$ ,) eyes prophetic ye w\ld see today ,t :i* ! m5 ( lat] days %all see ,& ye mu/ n imag9e1' said our *ief1 ',t aft] pass+ "o initial te/ ,ye c h sight ( ?+s t are to be4 ,:5 ye %all h atta9$ to c]ta9ty ,t all mank9d mu/ ne$s be born aga91 ,ye !n w h to meet ! second te/ ,:i* sets y\r p]sonal illusions free ,to dim ! radiance ( ! ,_s-light4' ,?is solemn w>n+1 too1 ! ma/] gave3 ',(ttimes reflect1 9 m$itation's h\r1 ,h[ psy*ic mon/]s1 ( illusion born1 ,beset ! pa? ( ^? :o seek ! light4 ,:o falls _! victim may see ev5 !re ,human exi/5ce :]e ! ,_s seeks ,to be reveal$ to ,_s-light alone4 ,if ye w\ld wor?ily prep>e y\rselves ,to recognize1 by help ( inn] sight1 ,! ,light ( ,wisdom /ream+ f ! ,*ri/1 ,ov] y\rselves ye mu/ keep wat* & w>d ,le/ p]sonal illusion bl9d y !n ,:5 y\r s\ls ?9k t x is fur!/ (f4' ,) ?is injunction cle>ly held 9 view ,we soon %all rid u ( ! va9 belief ,t 9 ^! times we c transmit ^! tru?s1 ,^: beauty we confess )9 our s\ls1 ,9 easy mann] to po/]ity4 ,r mu/ we take com=t f ! fact1 ,t we today c meet s _m s\ls ,9 :om ! se$1 al?\gh !y "k x n1 ,already ha? be5 s[n = future lives4 ,?is se$ c only manife/ itself ,9 man1 by opposition to ^? ,p[]s ,) :i* x lat] w ally itself4 ,9 all ?is hatr$ :i* pursues u n[ ,i d b see ! se$ ( future love4 ,,fir/ ,,ma/] ,,( ,,c]emonies3 ,c]ta9 x is t highe/ tru?'s int5t ,c only 9 su* mann] be disclos$2 ,yet h>d x seems 9 ?is our pres5t age ,to %ape our lives to foll[ out its aim4 ,,second ,,ma/] ,,( ,,c]emonies3 ,"h too ,i foll[ out our ma/]'s words3 ',x is n grant$ unto all mank9d ,to live ,e>?'s future /ages 9 advance4 ,b individuals !re mu/ ev] be ,:o c =esee :at lat] days w br+1 ,& :o devote _! feel+ to ^? ,p[]s ,:i* loose all be+ f its pres5t ties ,to gu>d x safe = all ,et]nity4' ,! curta9 falls1 :ile ! two ,ma/]s ( ,c]emonies are /ill 9 ! hall ,,sc5e #i ,! woodl& mead[1 z 9 ,sc5e #f4 ,joseph ,keane1 ,dame ,keane1 _! daught] ,b]?a2 aft]w>ds1 ,c\ntryfolk1 lat] ! ,monk2 f9ally ,keane's fo/]-daught] ,cecilia & ,?omas4 ,,b]?a3 ,de> "m1 ,i s long to he> ! tale ,cecilia (t5 spake ( ye>s ago4 ,?\ do/ "k all ^? fairy-tales to tell ,:i* fa!r br+s back ) him f ! knights ,:5 he comes home1 & :i* ) greate/ joy ,s _m fri5ds are always glad to he>4 ,,keane3 ,! s\l c f9d real treasure 9 ^? tales4 ,! gifts :i* on ! _s !y conf] ,decay n ) ! body 9 ! grave ,b be> _! fruits 9 lat] lives on e>?4 ,d>kly1 z ?r\gh a glass1 we glimpse _! tru?2 ,& f su* d>k5$ sight1 our s\ls c w9 ,k to s]ve our ne$s 9 daily life4 ,if only folk c\ld realize ! /ore ,( preci\s gifts our knights h to be/[6 ,cecilia & ,?omas h1 alas1 ,deaf e>s at pres5t = su* ?+s z ^!2 ,s9ce !y draw wisdom f ano!r s\rce4 ,,b]?a3 ,today ,i fa9 w\ld li/5 to t tale ,:i* tells ab\t ! ,evil & ! ,good4 ,,dame ,,keane3 ,"r gladly w ,i tell x !e4 ,att5d4 ,once on a "t !re liv$ a man :o sp5t ,mu* "t 9 puzzl+ ov] cosmic tru?s4 ,t :i* torm5t$ 8 poor bra9 ! mo/ ,01 h[ to le>n ( ,evil's orig94 ,& to t "q he c\ld n reply4 ,! _w 0 made by ,god1 s he w\ld say1 ,& ,god c only h 9 him ! ,good4 ,h[ !n do? ,evil spr+ f out ! ,good8 ,"t & aga9 he puzzl$ ov] ?is1 ,b c\ld n f9d ! answ] t he s\ght4 ,n[ x befell t on a c]ta9 day ,?is seek] on 8 travels pass$ a tree ,t 0 engag$ 9 conv]se ) an axe4 ,unto ! tree ! axe did speak ^! words3 ',t :i* ?\ can/ n d ,i c a*ieve1 ,i c fell !e2 b ?\ can/ n fell me4' ,unto ! va9 axe ?us ! tree repli$3 '',twas b a ye> ago a man did cleave ,! v wood ( :i* ?9e haft is made ,out ( my body ) ano!r axe4' ,& :5 ! man _h li/5$ to ^! words ,a ?\ght 0 /raightway born )9 8 s\l ,:i* he c\ld n set cle>ly d[n 9 words1 ,b :i* completely answ]$ 8 dem&3 ,h[ ,evil c\ld orig9ate f ,good4 ,,keane3 ,?9k on ?is /ory1 daught] & ?\'lt see1 ,h[ contemplat+ nature's my/]ies ,may =m fre% k 9 a human head4 ,i "k h[ _m ?+s ,i c make cle> ,unto myself by sp9n+ out 9 ?\ght ,! tales by :i* ! knights enlight5 u4 ,,b]?a3 ,i "k ,i am a simple little ?+1 ,)\t ability to und]/& ,! le>n$ words :i* clev] p use ,9 sett+ =? ! sci5ce !y pr(ess4 ,i h no ta/e = matt]s ( t k9d4 ,:5ev] ,?omas tells u ( 8 "w ,i ne>ly fall asleep4 ,b ,i c\ld sp5d ,unnumb]$ h\rs 9 li/5+ to ! tales ,:i* fa!r br+s back home on 8 return ,f visit+ ! ca/le1 & :]e) ,he (t5 weaves a /ory ( 8 own ,z he rec\nts !m to u h\r on h\r4 7,exeunt47 7,aft] an int]val1 ! ,c\ntryfolk come across ! mead[47 ,,fir/ ,,c\ntryman3 ,my uncle ye/]day came home aga94 ,he dwelt a long "t 9 ,bohemia1 ,& e>n$ an hone/ liv+ 9 ! m9es4 ,full _m a bit ( news he ha? to tell ,pick$ up by him ^u 8 j\rney+s4 ,excitem5t & unre/ are ev]y:]e4 ,attacks are made ^u ! ,_s-,knights4 ,our local bro!rhood c n escape2 ,already prep>ations h be5 made ,& ere long w ?is ca/le be besieg$4 ,,second ,,c\ntryman3 ,i hope 'twill n be long 'ere !y attack4 ,_m among/ u w mo/ c]ta9ly ,gladly enli/ among ! fight+-m52 ,i mean to be among ! fir/ myself4 ,,fir/ ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,?\ wilt b hurry headlong to ?y doom6 ,h[ c a man be su* a witless fool6 ,ha/ ?\ =got h[ /rongly =tifi$ ,! ca/le is8 ,! battle w be grim4 ,,second ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,x is no bus9ess ( ! c\ntryfolk ,to mix ) ?+s !y d n und]/&4 ,yet !re are _m h]eab\ts today ,:o d naught else b g f place to place ,& fan ! emb]s ( revolt & /rife4 ,?+s h already come to su* a pass ,t sick folk h to cry 9 va9 = aid4 ,! good man :o 9 =m] days 0 wont ,to help s _m 9 sore ne$1 c n[ ,no m pass out beyond ! ca/le gates1 ,s cruelly h folk belab\r$ him4 ,,?ird ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,( c\rse6 = _m p 7 enrag$ ,on he>+ f :at s\rce ! sickness came ,t broke out1 all at once1 among our c[s4 ,! ,jew br\ght ?is ^u !m by 8 spells4 ,he only seems to make sick p well ,9 ord]1 by ! use ( helli% arts1 ,bett] to s]ve ! ends ( evil p[]s4 ,,?ird ,,c\ntryman3 ,?is fuss ab\t vile h]esy is n\ght1 ,& matt]s n4 ,! fact is t ^! folk ,_h all !y ne$$1 & n\ght else to d ,b sp5d _! leisure 9 abusive talk4 ,a clev] judge ( human nature !n ,devis$ ?is silly tale ab\t ! ,jew1 ,h[ he _h laid a spell ^u our /ock4 ,& s f ?is alone ! /orm arose4 ,,f\r? ,,c\ntryman3 ,i ?9k t e "o ( y might "k ,:at w>s d mean1 ) all _! mis]y4 ,h n our fa!rs told u all t !y ,mu/ ne$s endure1 :5 all ! c\ntryside ,0 ov]run by b&s ( soldi]y8 ,,f\r? ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,i always said t x w\ld come to pass3 ,_! lord%ips' rule mu/ %ortly fade away4 ,already ha? a dream reveal$ to me ,h[ we c be ( s]vice to ! troops ,:5 !y arrive to c>ry out ! siege1 ,& take good c>e ( all _! creature ne$s4 ,,fif? ,,c\ntryman3 ,if dreams today are /ill to be believ$1 ,t is a matt] we ne$ n discuss4 ,! knights h tri$ to make u clev]] ,?an 7 our fa!rs4 ,n[ !y h to le>n ,h[ mu* our clev]ness ha? be5 increas$4 ,our fa!rs let !m 92 9 our turn we ,%all drive !m out4 ,i "k ! secret tracks ,t yield an entrance to ! =talice4 ,i us$ to "w )9 x until rage ,drove me away2 n[ w ,i %[ ! knights ,h[ we c make _! sci5ce s]ve our ends4 ,,fif? ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,he surely ha? no good ?\ght 9 8 he>t2 ,i trembl$ z ,i li/5$ to 8 words4 ,,six? ,,c\ntryman3 ,9 _s-vision ,i h lately se5 ,a traitor lead+ ho/ile soldi]y ,by secret ways into ! ca/le's keep4 ,,six? ,,c\ntrywoman3 ,su* visions are de/ructive1 ,i %\ld say4 ,no "o :o ?9ks z ,*ri/ians ought to ?9k ,b is aw>e t hone/y alone1 ,n treason1 c f evil set u free4 ,,six? ,,c\ntryman3 ,i let folk talk1 & help z be/ ,i c4 ,h[ (t5 d we he> a ?+ call$ wrong ,by ^? :o lack ! c\rage 9 !mselves ,to d t v ?+4 ,let's g our ways2 ,i see ! fa!r com+ d[n ! road2 ,we w n int]rupt 8 tra9 ( ?\ght4 ,i f\nd no difficulty up till n[ ,9 und]/&+ ev]y?+ he taught2 ,b 9 ! s]mon :i* he prea*$ today ,he said mu* t "o c\ld n und]/&4 7,! ,c\ntryfolk g away t[>ds ! =e/47 7,aft] an int]val ! ,monk comes along ! mead[ pa?47 ,,monk3 ,x mu/ be t a s\l is l$ a/ray ,9 /riv+ to pursue h] natural c\rse4 ,! weakness ( my he>t alone all[$ ,su* visions to appe> be=e m9e eyes ,z ^? :i* ,i beheld )9 ^? walls4 ,t !y mu/ %[ !mselves to me 9 /rife ,is pro( en\gh h[ little yet 9 me ,! psy*ic =ces "w 9 h>mony4 ,!re=e w ,i address myself anew ,to k9dle 9 myself ^? pot5t words ,:i* br+ me light f out ! ,_s-heights4 ,t man alone pref]s ano!r road1 ,:om p]sonal illusions h made bl9d4 ,! s\l c only triumph ov] lies ,by prov+ h]self wor?y ( ! grace ,:i* ,_s-light1 outp\r$ f f\nts ( love1 ,9 words ( wisdom do? reveal to h]4 ,i "k t ,i %all f9d ! greate/ /r5g? ,:i* c ?r[ light on :at ! ,fa!rs taught4 ,:5 f ! gloom ( self's imag9+s ,) l[ly he>t submissive ,i c flee4 7,exit47 7,aft] an int]val !re appe> on ! mead[ ,cecilia & ,?omas47 ,,cecilia3 ,de> bro!r1 :5 9 f]v5t ec/asy ,( sil5t pray] my s\l did b[ h]self ,unto ! ,f\nta9 ( ! ,_w1 & ye>n ,:ole-he>t$ly to be made "o !re)1 ,a light be=e my _s w\ld appe>-- ,) g5tle w>m? & radiancy agl[2 ,?is !n trans=m$ itself into a man ,:o look$ into my face ) t5d] eyes1 ,& spoke to me4 ,^! 7 ! vision's words3 ',human delusion left !e once =lorn1 ,& n[ ?\ art upborne by human love2 ,wait !re=e until long+ f9ds a way ,to br+ ! seek] safely to ?y side4' ,?us spake ?is human figure (t to me2 ,nor c\ld ,i fa?om :at ! words might mean2 ,& yet a dim =ebod+ made me glad1 ,t "s "t !y %\ld be fulfill$ = me4 ,& !n1 belov$ bro!r1 ?\ did/ come1 ,& :5 ,i fir/ set eyes ^u ?y face1 ,i felt my s5ses leave me2 = ?\ wa/ ,t human figure's v c\nt]p>t4 ,,?omas3 ,dream & =ebod+ told !e b ! tru?1 ,inde$ 'twas long+ guid$ me to !e4 ,,cecilia3 ,& :5 ?\ did/ reque/ me z ?y wife ,i ?\ght ! ,_s _h orda9$ x s4 ,,?omas3 ,t 9 good tru? ! ,_s's purpose 0 ,to re-unite u1 cle>ly may be se51 ,al?\gh we read x n aright at fir/4 ,z wife & helpmeet1 s5t me f above1 ,s did/ ?\ seem to me1 :5 fir/ we met4 ,& !n my long-lo/ si/] did ,i f9d4 ,,cecilia3 ,& h5ce=? no?+ %all divide u twa94 ,,?omas3 ,yet _m ob/acles betwe5 u rise4 ,?y fo/]-p>5ts by close ties are b\nd ,unto ! bro!rhood :i* ,i mu/ spurn4 ,,cecilia3 ,!y are inc>nate love & k9dness bo?2 ,& loyal fri5d%ip w !y give to !e4 ,,?omas3 ,my cre$ w sep>ate me f _! love4 ,,cecilia3 ,?r\gh me y w f9d out ! way to !m4 ,,?omas3 ,keane1 ! de> fell[1 is s ob/9ate2 ,he nev] w see aught b d>kness !re ,:]e ,i p]ceive ! v f\nt ( light4 ,9 rip] ye>s x 0 fir/ grant$ me ,to turn my /eps t[>d ?is light ( tru?1 ,s9ce all ,i le>n$ ( x 9 *ildhood's days ,^u my _s made b little m>k2 ,:il/ lat] on1 my e ?\ght 0 b5t ,on sci5tific k z a means ,to ga9 a livelihood4 ,:5 ,i came "h ,at la/ ,i f\nd ! tea*] & ! guide ,:o _h ! p[] to lib]ate my s\l4 ,! tea*+ he ha? let me li/5 to ,do? be> ! v /amp ( tru? itself4 ,su* is 8 spee* t he>t & head alike ,mu/ yield !mselves z captives to 8 words1 ,s full at once ( g5tl5ess & good4 ,i took ! greate/ tr\ble h]et(ore ,to und]/& ! o!r _s type2 ,& f\nd x c\ld b unto error lead4 ,s9ce x cl+s only to ^? _s-p[]s ,:i* may be fai?ful guides 9 e>?ly ways ,b _c lift "o up to high] worlds4 ,h[ %all ,i !re=e ev] f9d ! way ,into ! he>ts ( p :o believe ,t f ?is error all salvation spr+s8 ,,cecilia3 ,i he> ?y words1 de> bro!r1 & !y seem ,! product ( no peaceful frame ( m9d4 ,yet 'tis a peaceful sc5e ( =m] days ,:i* !y h reawak5$ 9 my s\l4 ',twas "o ,good ,friday1 _m ye>s ago1 ,i saw ! sc5e ( :i* ,i speak to !e4 ,x happ5$ t ^u t day ! man ,:o wore my bro!r's features1 said to me3 ',f s\rce div9e ha? sprung ! human s\l2 ,x c 9 dea? dive d[n to nature's dep?s1 ,9 "t x w set _s free f dea?4' ,n until aft]w>ds 0 ,i aw>e ,t ^! words are ! motto ( our knights4 ,,?omas3 ,alas6 my si/]1 t ?y lips %\ld speak ,^? evil words1 :i* our oppon5ts take ,z revelation ( ! highe/ tru?4 ,,cecilia3 ,i h at he>t no sympa?y at all ,) outw>d acts committ$ by ! knights2 ,i truly s]ve ! cre$ t n\ri%$ !e4 ,b nev] c\ld ,i make myself believe ,t m5 :o guide ! foot/eps ( ! s\l ,by su* in/ruction t[>d s high a goal ,walk n !mselves ! pa? t ,*ri/ ha? trod4 ,! ,_s's pupil am ,i1 /aun* & true1 ,& ,i confess t x is my belief ,t on t day1 my bro!r's _s /rove ,to speak ( aims t lead ! s\l to peace4 ,,?omas3 ,! p[]s ( de/9y h n orda9$ ,peace = ! s\l1 x seems1 = !e & me2 ,!y take our fa!r f u t same h\r ,t sees him once aga9 re/or$ to u4 ,,cecilia3 ,my faculties are cl\d$ o'er ) pa9 ,:5 ( our fa!r ?us ,i he> !e speak4 ,?y he>t w\ld draw !e to 8 side 9 love1 ,& yet ?\ tremble/ at ! v ?\ght ,( union ) him :il/ he is alive4 ,?\ foll[e/ our lead] 9 good fai?1 ,yet can/ n he> ! messages ( love ,:i* 8 comm&s s t5d]ly convey4 ,a d>k enigma face? me2 ,i see ,! goodness ( ?y he>t1 ?y /eadfa/ fai?1 ,& yet mu/ %udd] at ! deep abyss ,t yawns s horribly betwixt y twa94 ,& did n hope live on to com=t me1 ,& tell me love is nev] ov]come ,i %\ld lack c\rage to endure ?is pa94 ,,?omas3 ,de> si/]1 ?\ ha/ yet to le>n ! p[] ,( ?\ght1 once x ha? gripp$ a human s\l4 ,?is is no case ( son oppos+ sire2 ,b "o ?\ght f ano!r turns away4 ,?\ght is ! sov]eign :om my s\l obeys2 ,did ,i refuse h] homage ,i %\ld be ,9 v tru? my _s's murd]]4 ,curta92 ,?omas & ,cecilia /ill /&+ 9 ! mead[ 7,?is closes ! vision into ! ,x,i,vth ,c5tury & ! foll[+ is ! sequel ( ! ev5ts describ$ 9 ! fir/ five sc5es47 ,,sc5e #aj ,! same l&scape z 9 ,sc5e #e4 ,,capesius 7wak+ f ! vision :i* _h br\ght 8 previ\s inc>nation be=e 8 s\l73 ,?is unfamili> l&scape1 & ?is seat1 ,a cottage & a wood 9 front ( me6 ,are !y famili>8 ,urg5tly !y claim ,famili>ity2 yet ?y d lie ,^u my nature1 l "s heavy weight4 ,!y seem l real ?+s4 ,b no2 all ?is ,is b a picture ( s\l sub/ance spun4 ,i "k h[ pictures su* z ^! are made ,out ( ! ?ir/ & long+ ( ! s\l4 ,z if awak+ f my crav+'s dream ,f out ! _s-ocean ,i h come-- ,& memory1 dread & %udd]+ %ape1 appe>s ,to br+ to m9d ^! long+s ( my s\l4 ,h[ burnt my ?ir/ to "k ! _w's design6 ,?is long+ va91 ( self-d5ial born1 ,consum$ my nature to its v roots4 ,s\ght ,i exi/5ce ) impetu\s w1 ,!n all ! _w's design did flee f me4 ,a mom5t1 ( et]nity me?9ks1 ,p\r$ out su* /orms ( suff]+ on my s\l ,z only c be felt 9 life's full c\rse4 ,betwe5 me & ?is crav+ fe> !re /ood ,t :i* _h br\ght ?is fe> to life 9 me4 ,i felt myself embrace ! univ]se ,& all my p]sonality 0 lo/4444 ,b no1 x 0 n ,i :o felt l ?is1 ,x 0 ano!r be+ sprung f me4 ,i saw mank9d & all its works evolve ,f cosmic ?\ghts :i* ru%+ fa/ ?r\gh ,space1 ,press$ on 9 eag]ness to be reveal$4 ,!y drew ! picture ( a liv+ _w ,9 all its detail spread be=e my gaze4 ,f my s\l-sub/ance did !y draw ! p[] ,) :i* to fa%ion ,be+ out ( ,?\ght4 ,& z ?is _w cond5s$ be=e m9e eyes1 ,my p]sonal s5se ( feel+ pass$ f me4 ,& words res\nd$ f ?is picture-_w1 ,?9k+ !mselves2 & ?ru/ !mselves on me4 ,f out life's ne$s !y br\ght to be+ ?+s1 ,& gift$ !m ) p[] f de$s ( good4 ,?us !y res\nd$ ?r\gh ! bread?s ( ,space3 ',o man "k ?\ ?yself )9 ?y _w4' ,!n saw ,i "o :o /ood 9 front ( me ,&1 %[+ me 8 s\l1 display$ m9e own4 ,& !n ! cosmic words w5t on to say3 ',s long z 9 ! circle ( ?y life ,?\ can/ n feel ?is be+ close entw9$1 ,?\ art a dream1 & do/ b dream ?y life4' ,i c\ld n ?9k 9 figures cle> & pla92 ,i did b see bewild]+ =ces press ,f ?\ght to life1 & f life back to ?\ght-- ,b if my _s seeks yet fur!r back ,& recollects :at ,i beheld be=e1 ,a liv+ picture /&s be=e my s\l1 ,:i* is n blurr$1 z 0 all else t ,i ,9 lat] mom5ts c\ld exp]i5ce1 ,b :i* m pla9ly sets be=e my s\l ,m5's lives & actions ) ea* detail cle>4 ,i gaze ^u ?is picture1 & c tell ,:at m5 ^! are1 & :at x is !y d2 ,i recognize ea* s\l ,i look ^u1 ,al?\gh _! bodies' %apes are n ! same4 ,i look ^u all ?is z ?\gh myself ,7 !n a p]son liv+ 9 ?is _w2 ,b none ! less ) cold unfeel+ eye ,i scan a picture t seems life itself4 ,x seems z if its work+ on my s\l ,res]ves itself until t lat] "t ,:i* to my _s e>li] 0 display$4 ,)9 a _s-bro!rhood ,i c\ld ,myself & o!rs cle>ly recognize2 ,& yet j z a man do? feel a sc5e ,( bygone days arise f memory's f\nt1 ,?omas ,i see1 a m9] & my son1 ,& =?) ,i mu/ call to m9d t s\l1 ,:o1 z ,?omasius1 is kn[n to me4 ,! lady :om ,i "k z se]ess n[ ,/&s !re be=e m9e eyes z m9e own *ild4 ,m>ia1 :o befri5ds ,?omasius1 ,reveals h]self to me 9 monki% g>b1 ,& do? condemn ! _s-bro!rhood4 ,& ,/rad] we>s ! visage ( ! ,jew4 ,9 ,joseph ,keane & 9 8 wife ,i see ,! s\ls ( ,felix & ,felicia4 ,! o!rs' lives lie op5 to my view ,)\t concealm5t2 s too1 do? m9e own4 ,b :ile ,i am engross$ 9 read+ x1 ,! picture fades & disappe>s f view4 ,& ,i c feel t ^? s\l-elem5ts ,( :i* t liv+ picture 0 compos$ ,!mselves are p\r+ into m9e own s\l4 ,i feel myself end[$ ) /r5g? ( s\l ,9 my :ole be+1 & ,i seem set free ,f all ! fett]s ( ! _w ( s5se3 ,my be+ do? embrace ! univ]se4 ,?us d ,i feel t in/ant s prolong$ ,:i* ,i 0 able to live ?r\gh1 be=e ,t liv+ picture rose be=e m9e eyes4 ,& n[ /ill fur!r backw>d c ,i look4 ,itself cond5s+ out ( cosmic ?\ght ,?is =e/ do? appe> be=e my gaze1 ,?is h\se :]e ,felix & ,felicia ,s (t5 br\ght me com=t 9 di/ress4 ,n[--9 ! _w ,i f9d myself once m ,f :i* a mom5t s9ce ,i felt myself ,remov$ by va/ expanse ( "t & space4 ,& t :i* latt]ly ,i /ill c\ld see3 ,! picture :i* disclos$ to me myself ,is waft$ l "s mi/y fantasy ,o'er all t n[ ,i feel by means ( s5se4 ,x is a nightm>e1 t oppresse? me2 ,x gropes 9 deep recesses ( my s\l2 ,x op5s cosmic doors to bread?s ( ,space4 ,:at /orm is ?is t %akes my be+'s dep?s1 ,:at ent]s =cibly f cosmic space8 ,a ,,voice 7repres5t+ _s-consci5ce73 ,feel n[ :at ?\ ha/ se51 ,live o'er :at ?\ ha/ done ,refre%$ f ,be+'s s\rce2 ,?9e own life ha/ ?\ dream$4 ,"w out ?is de$ 9 !e ,) noble _s-light3 ,reg>d ?y daily task ,) =ce ( _s-sight4 ,if ?is ?\ can/ n d1 ,to empty ,no?+ness ,?\ art = ev] doom$4 ,curta91 be=e ,capesius has left ! /age ,,sc5e #aa ,! same m$itation-*amb] z 9 ,sc5e #b4 ,m>ia1 ,ahriman4 ,,ahriman3 ,s ,b5$ictus spun a cunn+ web ,( ?\ght1 ^: patt]n ?\ ha/ foll[$ out1 ,& n[ ?\ art fa/ b\nd 9 error's toils4 ,?omasius too & e'en ,capesius ,are victims ( ?is same illusion's spell4 ,= at ! same "t z ?9e eyes beheld ,?is long-pa/ e>?ly life--s too did !irs4 ,h5ce=w>d 'tis 9 t "t ?\ do/ seek ,to f9d ! causes ( ?y pres5t life2 ,b only error c be error's fruit ,if ?\ art ready to all[ ?yself ,to make ! pa? ( duty "h & n[ ,dep5d ^u su* va9 imag9+s4 ,t ,b5$ictus took f ?9e own bra91 ,& plac$ ^! visions 9 an e>li] age1 ,?9e own self's k c q cle>ly prove4 ,?\ saw/ p ( ?is pres5t "t ,b little *ang$ f ^? ( =m] days4 ,woman ?\ saw/ z woman1 man z man1 ,& all _! attributes 7 simil>2 ,?\ can/ n !re=e any long] d\bt ,t :at ?\ did/ transf] to "t's dim pa/ ,by _s-vision1 f> f be+ tru? ,0 b ! va9 delusion ( ?y s\l4 ,,m>ia3 ,9 !e ,i see ! sire ( all deceit2 ,yet "k ,i too ?\ (t do/ speak ! tru?4 ,& any "o :o *ose to set aside ,all c\nsel t might rea* him ?r\gh ?y words ,to utmo/ error soon w\ld fall a prey4 ,& z illusion we>s ! mask ( tru? ,! bett] to ensn>e ! s\ls ( m51 ,s 'tis b easy = a man to yield ,!reto1 by try+ l a c[>d to sl9k ,pa/ e place :]e error might be hid4 ,m ?an illusion f9ds ! s\l 9 !e2 ,= 9 ! ,_s ( ,deceit do? live ,! =ce t gives mank9d disc]nm5t true4 ,i !re=e %all oppose !e )\t fe>4 ,?\ ha/ attack$ t portion ( my s\l ,:i* mu/ at all times keep ! mo/ al]t4 ,if ,i weigh all ! evid5ce :i* ?\ ,9 clev] calculation ha/ advanc$1 ',tw\ld seem t only pictures f my bra9 ,h be5 transf]r$ into an e>?ly pa/4 ,yet w\ld ,i ask !e if ?y wisdom c ,unlock ! door ( e e>?ly age8 ,,ahriman3 ,no be+s live 9 any _s-realm ,:i* set !mselves to ?w>t me :5 ,i seek ,admission into any e>?ly age4 ,,m>ia3 ,! l(ty ,p[]s ( ,fate h *os5 well ,9 sett+ !e to be _! enemy4 ,?\ do/ enc\rage all ?\ w\ld/ re/ra94 ,?\ br+e/ fre$om to ! s\ls ( m5 ,:5 ?\ do/ p5etrate to _! s\l-dep?s4 ,f !e orig9ate ! p[]s ( ?\ght ,:5ce k spr+s ) all its va9 deceits ,b :i* c also guide man to ! tru?4 ,9 ,_s-l& !re is b "o doma9 ,:]e may be =g$ ! sword t bids !e flee ,z soon z ?\ do/ set ?9e eyes !reon4 ,x is a realm 9 :i* ! s\ls ( m5 ,d ga!r k ?r\gh _! reason's p[]s1 ,:i* k !y w aft]w>ds transmute ,to ,_s-wisdom4 ,if ,i h ! /r5g? ,to =ge ! ^w ( tru? into t sword1 ,t v mom5t ?\ mu/ flee f h5ce4 ,s he>k5 well1 ?\ sire ( all deceit2 ,if tru? triumphant ,i proclaim to !e-- ,9 e>?ly evolution !re are times ,9 :i* ! anci5t =ces sl[ly die1 ,& dy+1 see ! gr[? ( new] ones4 ,at su* a cyclic po9t my fri5ds & ,i ,did f9d ourselves drawn close by _s-bonds ,:il/ seek+ out our =m] lives on e>?4 ,true ,_s-m5 7 work+ at t "t1 ,unit$ 9 a bro!rhood ( s\ls ,^: aims 7 s\ght 9 my/icism's realm4 ,n[1 at su* seasons c]ta9 t5d5cies ,are c>efully implant$ 9 m5's s\ls1 ,:i* ne$ a long "t = full rip5+4 ,9 _! next inc>nation1 !re=e1 m5 ,mu/ %[ /rong traces ( _! previ\s life4 ,at su* times1 _m m5 w be reborn ,9 _! succe$+ lives z m5--s too ,wom5 z wom5 (t5 re-appe>4 ,at t "t also is ! int]val ,%ort] ?an usual 'twixt two e>?ly lives4 ,to und]/& aright ^! cyclic po9ts ,?\ lacke/ p[]1 & !re=e can/ n yet ,survey _! gr[? ) eyes f error free4 ,call b to m9d ! "t :5 la/ we met ,9 temples ( t ,_s-bro!rhood3 ,!n ?\ spake/ words ( flatt]y1 int5t ,to break my inn] consci\sness ( self4 ,i recollect ?is "t2 & draw !refrom ,! =ce n[ to oppose myself to !e4 7,ahriman )draws ) reluctant mi54 ,?und]47 ,,m>ia3 ,defeat$ he has _h to leave ! spot ,:i* ,b5$ictus ha? s (t5 bless$4 ,b unto me ha? be5 made manife/ ,h[ lightly s\ls may into error fall ,:o give !mselves unto ! ,_s-voice ,)\t due he$1 & %un ! saf] ways4 ,! ,enemy inde$ ha? mighty p[] ,life's contradictions to acc5tuate ,& ?us rob s\ls ( _! security4 ,he mu/ fall sil5t :5 ! ,light appe>s ,t f ! f\nt ( ,wisdom issu+ ,do? br+ full cle>ness to our _s-sight4 ,curta91 :ile ,m>ia is /ill 9 ! room ,,sc5e #ab ,! same4 ,johannes & ,lucif]4 ,,lucif]3 ,take w>n+ by ,capesius' fate & le>n ,:at fruits are rip5$ :5 a s\l attempts ,to p5etrate too soon ! _s-_w4 ,he kn[s ! words writ 9 8 book ( life ,& kn[s 8 tasks = _m lives to come4 ,b suff]+ n orda9$ by de/9y ,is wr\ght by k :i* ha? n ! p[] ,to *ange itself to de$s 9 e>?ly life4 ,! *oice t to successful issue leads ,dep5ds ^u ! rip5ess ( ! w4 ,at e /ep t he w\ld take 9 life ,h5ce=? ,capesius mu/ ask himself3 ,c all my obligations ?us be met ,:i* are ! outgr[? ( my =m] lives8 ,s o'er 8 pa? a dazzl+ light is %$1 ,caus+ 8 eyes to suff] f ! gl>e ,& giv+ him no help ^u 8 way4 ,x kills ! =ces :i*1 :il/ /ill unkn[n1 ,are tru/y guides = e human s\l1 ,& do? n aid ! p[] ( c>eful ?\ght4 ,?us x c only hurt ! body's /r5g? ,be=e ! s\l ha? le>n$ to conqu] x4 ,,johannes3 ,i c p]ceive ! error ( my life4 ,i /ole ! s\l-p[]s f my c>nal frame ,& pr\dly c>ri$ !m to _s-heights4 ,yet x 0 n a human be+ :ole ,t ?us 0 c>ri$ upw>d to ! light4 ,n\ght 0 x b ! %ad[ ( a s\l1 ,:i* c\ld b rhapsodize ( _s-realms ,& feel a on5ess ) creative p[]s2 ,x wi%$ to live all blissful 9 ! light ,& de$s ( light 9 col\r to behold2 ,x fanci$ t z arti/ x c\ld pa9t ,_s-exi/5ce 9 a _w ( s5se4 ,?is =m t took its semblance f m9e own ,ha? %[n to me myself ) cruel tru?4 ,i dream$ ( s\l-love1 pure & free f /a91 ,:il/ passion yet 0 c\rs+ ?r\gh my ve9s4 ,b n[ m9e eyes h se5 ! e>?ly road ,:i* is ! real creative =ce 9 life4 ,& %[s me :i!r ,i mu/ truly /rive4 ,^? _s-pa?ways :i* ( late ,i trod ,_c be foll[$ f> by su* a s\l ,z j be=e its pres5t life on e>? ,9 ,?omas's body f\nd a fitt+ home4 ,! fa%ion ( 8 life mu/ be = me ,! rule by :i* to seek my pres5t goal4 ,i've /riv5 = atta9m5t "h & n[ ,( ?+s t only lat] c be> fruit4 ,,lucif]3 ,my light mu/ s]ve to guide ?y fur!r /eps ,z x ha? done to guide !m hi!rto4 ,! _s-pa? :i* ?\ ha/ s\ght to tread ,c w$ ! _s to ! l(ty heights1 ,b to ?y s\l x br+e? n\ght b gloom4 ,,johannes3 ,:at ha? a man atta9$ :o gives himself ,a s\l-less puppet to ! _s-_w8 ,e'en at ! end ( all 8 e>?ly days ,he is b t same be+ :i* he 01 ,:5 9 e>?'s primal days 8 human =m ,f out ! cosmic womb did fir/ em]ge4 ,if to ^? impulses ,i yield myself ,:i*1 spr++ f unfa?om$ dep?s ( s\l1 ,clam\r imp]i\sly = life & =m1 ,!n 9 me works ! univ]sal all4 ,i "k n !n :at drives me on to act2 ,b surely x mu/ be ! cosmic w ,:i* leads me on to its appo9t$ goal4 ,?is w mu/ "k ! :]e=e ( man's life ,?\gh human k _c make x pla94 ,t :i* 9 p]fect manhood x creates ,is vital weal? :]e) to =m ! s\l4 ,to x w ,i surr5d]1 & no m ,by idle _s-/riv+ kill x out4 ,,lucif]3 ,myself ,i "w 9 ?is same cosmic w ,:5 x fl[s mightily ?r\gh human s\ls1 ,:i* are b limbs ( high] entities ,until !y c exp]i5ce my p[]4 ,& 'tis my task to make !m p]fect m5 ,& fit !mselves into ! univ]se4 ,,johannes3 ,i long h ?\ght ,i knew ! :ole ( !e2 ,yet dwelt )9 me b ?y phantom %ade ,portray$ !re by my vision>y dreams4 ,n[ mu/ ,i feel !e1 live !e by my w2 ,!n c ,i ov]come !e lat] on ,if s 'tis writt5 9 my de/9y4 ,let _s-k1 t ,i ga9$ too soon1 ,repose h5ce=? )9 m9e inmo/ s\l ,till impulses 9 life %all call x =?4 ,) confid5ce ,i yield me to t w ,t ha? m wisdom ?an ! human s\l4 7,exit ,johannes ) ,lucif]47 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #ac ,! ,temple ( ! ,sun2 hidd5 site ( ! ,my/]ies ( ! ,hi]ophants2 ,lucif]1 ,ahriman1 ! ?ree ,s\l-,figures1 ,/rad]1 ,b5$ictus1 ,!odosius1 ,romanus1 ,m>ia4 7,ent] fir/ ,lucif] & ,ahriman47 ,,lucif]3 ,! ,"l ( ,wi%es /&s z victor "h-- ,he ha? be5 able to o'erp[] ! s\l ,:i* ev5 9 ! light ( _s-sun ,/ill _h to feel ak9 to ?is our realm4 ,i seiz$ ?' auspici\s h\r 9 :i* to ca/ ,a glam\r o'er its vision ( ! light ,to :i* 9 dreams alone x _h b[$ d[n4 ,yet all my hopes mu/ =?) disappe> ,t victory is ours 9 _s-realms1 ,s9ce ?\ art wor/$1 comrade ( my fight4 ,?\ wa/ unable to o'erp[] ! s\l ,:i* 0 to br+ our lab\rs to _! goal4 ,! human s\l t gave itself to me ,i c possess & 9 our k+dom hold ,= %ort e>?-lives alone1 b all 9 va92 ,= !n ,i mu/ re/ore x to our foes4 ,to w9 outright we ne$ ! o!r1 too1 ,t ha? )drawn itself f ?y doma94 ,,ahriman3 ,! times are n well suit$ to my arts1 ,i f9d no means ( access to m5's s\ls4 ,see1 "h comes "o :om ,i did sorely plague4 ,?\gh ignorant 9 _s he draws nigh2 ,= reason do? compel him to pu% on4 ,s ,i )draw f him & f ?is place ,:i* he c only tread unconsci\sly4 7,! ?ree ,s\l-,figures ) ,/rad]47 ,,philia3 ,) fai?'s cle> p[] w ,i myself imbue ,& =ce ( liv+ tru/ w ,i brea! deep1 ,f out ! s\l's glad /riv+ t ! light ,may dawn ^u ! _s-slumb]]4 ,,a/rid3 ,) humble joy ( s\l w ,i entw9e ,t :i* ha? be5 reveal$2 & w cond5se ,! rays ( hope t light 9 d>k may %9e2 ,& twilight 9 ! light1 t ?us ! p[]s ,may be> al(t ! _s-slumb]]4 ,,luna3 ,s\l light w ,i make w>m1 & w make h>d ,! p[] ( love4 ,!n %all !y d>+ gr[1 ,& %all release !mselves1 & m\nt+ up ,endue !mselves ) weight1 t cosmic loads ,may fall f (f ! _s-slumb]] ,t 8 s\l's love ( light may set him free4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,my comrades1 ,i h hi!r summon$ y ,:o ) me seek to f9d ! _s-light ,t %\ld fl[ /ream+ to ! s\ls ( m54 ,ye "k ! nature ( ! sun ( s\l2 ,(t do? x %9e ) fulle/ noontide gl>e1 ,& !n aga9 l feeble twilight /eal ,p[]less ?r\gh mi/s ( vision>y dream4 ,& (t5 do? ! d>kness drive x out4 ,! temple-s]vants' _s-gaze mu/ pi]ce ,to s\l dep?s :]e !re %9es ) p[]ful ray1 ,! _s-light t comes f cosmic heights4 ,!n too x mu/ disclose my/]i\s aims ,t lurk unnotic$ 9 ! s\l's d>k lairs ,int5t on %ap+ man's developm5t4 ,^? _s-be+s :o f cosmic p[]s ,be/[ ! _s-food on human s\ls ,are pres5t n[ )9 ! sacr$ fane ,to guide ?is man's s\l f ! _s-night ,into ! k+dom ( ! light on high4 ,! sleep ( k /ill envelops him2 ,b _s-calls already h be5 he>d ,9 8 s\l's dep?s ( :i* he nev] knew4 ,t :i* !y spoke deep 9 8 inmo/ s\l ,w %ortly f9d its way to _s-e>s4 ,,!odosius3 ,?is s\l ha? n be5 able hi!rto ,to recognize itself 9 _s-light ,t ?r\gh s5se-revelation is outp\r$1 ,to %[ ! mean+ ( all e>?ly gr[?4 ,x saw ,god's _s /ripp$ ( nature's guise1 ,& ,nature's self e/rang$ f deity4 ,& s ?r\gh _m lives x _h to pass ,& /ay a /rang] to ! s5se ( life2 ,x c\ld b f9d alone su* c>nal t5em5ts ,to c>ry out its individual "w ,z b>r$ x f ! cosmos & f man4 ,n[ 9 ! temple x w e>n ! p[] ,to recognize /range ,be+ z its own1 ,& s be able to atta9 ! =ce ,t leads out f ! labyr9?s ( ?\ght ,& po9ts ! way unto ! spr+s ( life4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,ano!r man /rives to ! temple's light2 ,?\gh n at once w he approa* its doors ,& seek = entrance to ?is hall[$ spot4 ,?r\gh\t a life ( /udi\s rese>* ,he plant$ g]ms ( ?\ght 9 8 s\l-dep?s4 ,& s p]=ce ! _s-light w5t =? ,to rip5 !m outside our temple's doors4 ',twas giv5 him to "k 8 pres5t life ,to be ! product ( a =m] "o ,liv$ 9 a "t t n[ ha? long gone by4 ,n[ he c see ! errors ( t life ,& realize :at _! result w be1 ,b lacke? p[]1 ^? duties to fulfil1 ,:i* ?r\gh self-k he c recognize4 ,,romanus3 ,capesius %all1 ?r\gh ! temple's p[]1 ,le>n h[ a man mu/1 9 a s+le life1 ,take up a load ( duties :i* dem& ,= _! entire accompli%m5t ! space ,( _m lives ( e>?ly pilgrimage4 ,s ca/+ fe> aside he w admit ,t anci5t errors ) _! consequ5ce ,pursue ! s\l e'en pa/ ! gate ( dea?4 ,nor %all he !n be vanqui%$ 9 ! fight ,by :i* ! _s-portals are flung wide ,if eye to eye1 undaunt$1 he %all brave ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old ( t realm4 ,to him %all by t gu>dian be reveal$ ,t none may climb up to ! heights ( life ,:o fe>s to look on de/9y's decrees4 ,8 insight w admit ) c\rage !n ,t ( self-k suff]+ is ! fruit ,= :i* %e kn[s no words ( com=t+4 ,w %all become 8 comrade on ! way ,:i* face? boldly all t may befall1 ,&1 he>t5$ by a draught f hope's cle> spr+1 ,endures ! pa9 ( wid5+ consci\sness4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,ye h1 my bro!rs1 at ?is pres5t h\r1-- ,true s]vants ( ! temple t ye are1-- ,set =? ! ways 9 ,wisdom's outl9es drawn ,by :i* ^! two :o seek ! _s-tru? ,%all h _! s\ls br\ght to _! goal by y4 ,yet o!r "w ! temple-s]vice claims4 ,"h by our side ! ,"l ( ,wi%es /&s2 ,he c be pres5t 9 ?is holy place ,because ,johannes' s\l unb>r$ = him ,! gates :i* he w\ld o!rwise f9d b>r$4 ,! bro!r :o is our initiate ,lacks = ! mom5t c\rage to )/& ,) p[] ! words t f ! d>kness rise4 ,! p[]s ( good c only /r5g!n him ,:5 on _! opposite !y te/ !mselves4 ',twill n be long ere he aga9 appe>s ,"h 9 ?is temple1 compass$ by our love4 ,yet mu/ 8 _s-treasure gu>d$ be ,n[ t he mu/ desc5d into ! d>k4 7,turn+ to ,lucif]47 ,!e mu/ ,i n[ address :o n = long ,can/ occupy ! gr\nd :]e ?\ do/ /&4 ,! temple's p[] c at ! pres5t "t ,n yet release ,johannes f ?y grasp4 ,9 times to come he w be ours aga91 ,:5 ^? fruits ( our si/] %all be ripe ,^: blossoms we already see unfold4 7,m>ia appe>s47 ,%e c\ld behold 9 bygone e>?ly lives ,h[ closely l9k$ ,johannes 0 to h]4 ,he foll[$ aft] h] s long ago ,z 9 ^! days :5 %e w\ld fa9 oppose ,! light ^: humble h&maid n[ %e is4 ,:5 s\l-l9ks prove !mselves s /aun*ly true ,z to outla/ ! _s's w&]+s ,!n %all ! ,"l ( ,wi%es f9d 8 p[] ,unable to effect a sev]ance4 ,,lucif]3 ,b ,b5$ictus' w itself compell$ ,johannes' & ,m>ia's s\ls to "p4 ,& :]esoe'er m5 f ea* o!r "p ,!re is ! field made ready = my p[]4 ,i ev] "w = sep>at5ess ( s\l1 ,to set ! e>?-life free1 & = all "t ,to break its s]vitude to cosmic *a9s4 ,m>ia's be+1 9 mona/ic g>b1 ,turn$ f its fa!r yond] s\l away ,t n[ is dwell] 9 ,johannes' =m4 ,?is too ha? caus$ "s g]ms ( m9e to spr\t ,:i* ,i %all surely br+ to rip5+4 ,,m>ia 7turn+ to ,lucif]73 ,9 human nature !re are spr+s ( love ,to :i* ?y p[] c nev] p5etrate4 ,!y are unseal$ :5 faults ( =m] lives-- ,a load unwitt+ly assum$ by man1-- ,are 9 a lat] life by _s se51 ,& by ! free-w ( self-sacrifice ,trans=m$ to e>?ly action1 :i* %all t5d ,to be> fruit = ! real good ( man4 ,! p[]s ( de/9y h grant$ me ,! vision :i* c p5etrate ! pa/2 ,already too h ,i receiv$ ! signs ,s to direct my free-w sacrifice ,t good may p\r !refrom = e s\l ,^: ?read ( life %all h to tw9e ) m9e ,?r\gh\t ! evolution ( ?is e>?4 ,i saw h[ 9 its e>?ly frame ( yore ,johannes' s\l turn$ f 8 sire away1 ,& saw ! =ces t compell$ myself ,to make ! son repel ! fa!r's he>t4 ,?us is ! fa!r n[ oppos$ to me ,to br+ to m9d my own (f5ce ( old4 ,pla9ly he speaks 9 cosmic language cle> ,^: symbols are ! actions ( man's life4 ,t :i* ,i set betwe5 ! sire & son ,mu/ reappe>1 ?\gh 9 ano!r =m ,9 ?is my life 9 :i* ,johannes' s\l ,ha? once aga9 be5 closely knit to m9e4 ,! suff]+ :i* ,i _h to und]go ,9 sev]+ ,johannes f myself ,0 b my own act's fat$ consequ5ce4 ,if n[ my s\l is fai?ful to ! light ,:i* f ! _s-=ces comes to x1 ,x w be /r5g!n$ by ! s]vices ,:i* x may r5d] to ,capesius ,9 ?is sore /ress ( 8 life-pilgrimage4 ,& ) su* =ces1 simil>ly won1 ,w also le>n to see ,johannes' /> ,:5 he1 by fett]s ( desire misl$ ,treads n ! way illum9$ by ! light4 ,! _s-vision :i* ha? l$ me back ,to di/ant days on e>? w tea* me n[ ,h[ ,i mu/ deal ) s\l-l9ks at ?is "t ,s t life-p[]s unconsci\sly prep>$ ,%all h5ce=? "w awak5$ = man's weal4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,9 old5 days on e>? 0 =m$ a knot ,( ?reads :i* ,k>ma sp9s _w-fa%ion+4 ,?ree human lives are int]wov5 !re1 ,& n[ ^u ?is fateful knot !re %9es ,?is holy temple's l(ty _s-light4 ',tis !e1 ,m>ia1 ,i mu/ n[ address2 ,( ^! ?ree s\ls at ?is "t ?\ alone ,art pres5t at ! place ( sacrifice4 ,may ?is light op]ate )9 ?yself ,& turn to welf>e ^? creative p[]s ,:i* once ^u a "t ?y life-?reads wove ,fa/ 9 a life-knot ) ^? o!r two4 ,! fa!r c\ld n 9 8 =m] life ,8 son's he>t f9d2 b n[ 9 o!r sc5es ,! _s-seek] w accompany ,?y fri5d's self on its way to _s-l&4 ,& ?9e is n[ ! duty to ma9ta9 ,johannes' s\l 9 light by ?9e own =ce4 ,once did/ ?\ hold x 9 s fa/ a bond ,t x c\ld only bl9dly foll[ !e4 ,?\ did/ !n give x back its lib]ty1 ,:5 /ill x clung to !e 9 fancy fond4 ,b ?\ %alt once m f9d x1 :51 self-will$1 ,x w9s its individuality4 ,if ?y s\l to t light holds ev] true ,:i* p[]s f _s-realms be/[ on !e1 ,johannes' s\l w ?ir/ to dr9k ( ?9e ,e'en :]e ! ,"l ( all ,desire holds sway2 ,& ?r\gh ! love :i* holds x b\nd to !e ,x w rega9 ! pa? to light on high4 ,= ev] mu/ a liv+ be+ /rive ,?r\gh light or d>kness1 :i* ha? once beheld ,& kn[n ! heights ( _s 9 its s\l4 ,x ha? drawn brea? f cosmic di/ances ,( air t pulse? ) immortal life1 ,& liv+ raise? all our human k9d ,f its s\l dep?s up to ! sun%9e's heights4 ,curta9 ,,! ,,gu>dian ,,( ,,! ,,?re%old ,,summ>y ,,( ,,! ,,sc5es ,sc5e #a3 ,! ante-*amb] to ! rooms ( ! ,my/ic ,league4 ,! re9c>nat$ c\ntry folk h be5 invit$ to att5d a meet+ "h4 ,sc5e #b3 ,! same4 ,?omasius is invit$ to jo9 ! league & receive ! bless+ ( ! ,rosy ,cross4 ,he decl9es on ! gr\nd t he has und]tak5 o!r "w inconsi/5t ) ! objects ( ! league4 ,sc5e #c3 ,! k+dom ( ,lucif]4 ,! *all5ge3 ,lucif]3 ',i mean to fight4' ,b5$ictus3 ',& fight+ s]ve ! gods4' ,sc5e #d3 ,! h\se ( ,/rad] & 8 wife ,!odora4 7,lucif] at "w47 ,!odora's pa9ful vision ( ,?omasius4 ,sc5e #e3 ,! h\se ( ! ,baldes4 ,/rad]'s vision ( 8 wife ,!odora :o has rec5tly di$4 ,capesius z a m$ium4 ,sc5e #f3 ,! groves ( ,lucif] & ,ahriman & _! creatures :o dance4 ,dame ,balde's fable4 ,sc5e #g3 ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4 ,sc5e #h3 ,! k+dom ( ,ahriman4 ,! re9c>nat$ c\ntry folk come "h unconsci\sly at night4 ,/rad] comes consci\sly4 ,sc5e #i3 ,! home ( ,b5$ictus1 ov]look+ a factory t[n4 ,! law ( numb]4 ,sc5e #aj3 ,! ,temple ( ! ,my/ic ,league4 ,! admission ( ,?omasius & o!rs4 ,,p]sons1 ,,app>itions1 ,,& ,,ev5ts ,! spiritual & psy*ic exp]i5ces ( ! *>act]s1 sket*$ 9 ?is s]ies ( sc5ic pictures call$ ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old1' are a cont9uation ( ^? :i* appe>$ be=e 9 my life pictures call$ ',! ,portal ( ,initiation' & ',! ,s\l's ,probation1' & are suppos$ to take place ab\t fifte5 ye>s lat] ?an ! occurr5ces 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation4' ,! ?ree plays toge!r =m an organic :ole4 ,9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old' ! foll[+ p]sons & be+s appe>3 ,i4 ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,_s3 #a4 ,b5$ictus4 ,lead] ( ! ,temple ( ! ,sun & ! tea*] ( a numb] ( p :o appe> 9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4' #b4 ,hil>y ,true-to-,god1 ,gr& ,ma/] ( ! ,my/ic ,league1 repres5t$ 9 a =m] inc>nation 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ! ,gr& ,ma/] ( a ,my/ic ,bro!rhood4 #c4 ,johannes ,?omasius1 a pupil ( ,b5$ictus1 sometimes call$ ,johannes & sometimes ,?omasius4 ,,ii4 ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,sacrifice3 #d4 ,magnus ,bellicosus1 ,preceptor ( ! ,my/ic ,league1 kn[n z ,g]manus 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation4' #e4 ,alb]tus ,torquatus1 ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies 9 ! ,my/ic ,league1 kn[n z ,!odosius 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation4' #f4 ,pr(essor ,capesius4 ,,iii4 ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,w3 #g4 ,fr$]ick ,tru/wor?y1 ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies 9 ! ,my/ic ,league4 ,! ,re9c>nation ( ! ,second ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies ( ! ,_s-,bro!rhood 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation'2 & kn[n z ',romanus' 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation4' #h4 ,!odora1 a ,se]ess1 9 :om ! ,elem5t ( ,w is *ang$ into a simple gift ( prophecy4 #i4 ,doctor ,/rad]4 ,,iv4 ,! ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,s\l3 #aj4 ,m>ia1 a pupil ( ,b5$ictus4 #aa4 ,felix ,balde4 #ab4 ,dame ,felicia1 8 wife4 ,v4 ,be+s f ! ,_s ,_w3 ,lucif]4 ,ahriman4 ,,vi4 ,be+s ( ! ,elem5t ( ,human ,_s3 ,! ,d\ble ( ,?omasius4 ,! ,s\l ( ,!odora4 ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4 ,philia ,! spiritual be+s ?r\gh ^: ag5cy ! human ,a/rid s\l =ces are connect$ ) ! ,cosmos4 ,luna ,! ,o!r ,philia1 ! spiritual be+ :o h9d]s ! union ( ! s\l-p[]s ) ! ,cosmos4 ,! ,voice ( ,consci5ce4 ,^! spiritual be+s are n int5d$ to be allegorical or symbolic1 b realities1 :o to spiritual p]ception are exactly l physical p]sons4 ,! foll[+ p]sons are ! re9c>nations ( ! twelve peasants 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation'3 #a4 ,f]d9& ,fox4 #b4 ,mi*ael ,nobleman4 #c4 ,b]n>d ,/raight4 #d4 ,francesca ,humble4 #e4 ,m>y ,/eadfa/4 #f4 ,l\isa ,fe>-,god4 #g4 ,fr$]ick ,cle>-,m9d4 #h4 ,gasp] ,hotspur4 #i4 ,george ,c&id4 #aj4 ,m>y ,dauntless4 #aa4 ,erm9ia ,/ay-at-,home4 #ab4 ,ka?>9e ,c\nsel4 ,9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old' ! nature ( ! re9c>nation is n to be reg>d$ z a law hold+ good g5]ally1 b z some?+ :i* c only happ5 at a turn+-po9t ( "t4 ,h5ce1 = example1 ! incid5ts ( ,sc5e #h betwe5 ,/rad] & ! twelve o!rs are only possible at su* a p]iod4 ,! spiritual entities tak+ "p 9 ?is play are by no means to be consid]$ z m]ely allegory or symbol4 ,= any "o :o recognizes ! spiritual _w z reality1 ! be+s !re exi/1 j z mu* z physical m5 9 ! s5se-_w1 & z su* !y may be portray$4 ,spiritual be+s d n h human =m1 z !y are b\nd to h ^u ! /age4 ,if ! writ] ( ^! psy*ic incid5ts 9 pictures consid]$ ^! be+s to be allegories1 he w\ld n h repres5t$ !m 9 ! way he has done4 ,! sy/ematic arrangem5t ( ! *>act]s into gr\ps 7#c #d7 is n int5tional or 9 ! orig9al plan ( ! play2 x is a result--by way ( aft]?\ght--( ! incid5ts1 :i* are sket*$ out q indep5d5tly1 & fall naturally into su* a division4 ,x w\ld nev] h occurr$ to ! au?or to include x 9 ! orig9al plan2 b x may be p]mitt$ to cite x "h z a result4 ,! s*eme ( /age decoration is 9 accordance ) ! planet>y signs %[n 9 ,dr4 ,/e9]'s ,lecture on ,occult ,seals & ,symbols4 ,9 ,sc5e #b1 ! walls & furniture1 etc41 are decorat$ ) ,dr4 ,/e9]'s ar*itectural design = ,jupit]4 ,sc5e #d is devot$ to ,v5us4 ,& ,dr4 ,/e9]'s symbols = ! ,sun gov]n ! little wood5 hut & all its appurt5ances 9 ,sc5e #e4 ,to ! o!r sc5es no ar*itectural design is applicable4 ,! co/umes are z foll[s3 ,except :5 (ficiat+ z ,hi]ophant ,b5$ictus is 9 black frockcoat & tr\s]s4 ,hil>y1 ,bellicosus1 ,torquatus1 & ,tru/wor?y are 9 d>k frockcoats etc41 except :5 act+ z (fic]s 9 ! ,temple or z lead]s 9 ! ,my/ic ,league4 ,johannes is 9 a d>k blue velvete5 suit1 %ort coat1 bree*es1 & /ock+s4 ,capesius1 :5 he is 9 ! s\l1 e4g41 9 ,sc5es #c & #f1 appe>s q "y1 be>dless1 & 9 flimsy blue & :ite robes2 at o!r times 9 ord9>y mod]n attire4 ,!odora1 mod]n ) a col\r$ /ole4 ,/rad]1 mod]n1 %ort br[n jacket2 except 9 ,sc5e #d1 :]e he is 9 grey lav5d]4 ,m>ia1 mod]n ) /ole4 ,felix ,balde1 a blue tunic trimm$ ) fur4 ,felicia ,balde1 mod]n ) /ole4 ,lucif]1 fl[+ crimson & r$ robes1 long gold5 hair1 & cr[n$ :5 on 8 ?rone4 ,ahriman 9 yell[ robes4 ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old1 conv5tional angel ) a flam+ sword4 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna1 & ! ,o!r ,philia1 fl[+ musl9 robes ( _m col\rs1 b ,a/rid is 9 :ite4 ,! re9c>nat$ male peasants are 9 frockcoats ( v brilliant col\r1 crimson1 *ocolate1 blue1 etc4 ,! tr\s]s1 coat & wai/coat are always to mat*4 ,! wom5 are 9 mod]n co/umes ) /oles4 ,see also ! notes on ! co/umes 9 ! two prec$+ plays4 ,,! ,,gu>dian ,,( ,,! ,,?re%old ,,sc5e #a ,a hall ) a gr\nd tone ( indigo blue4 ,! ante*amb] to ! rooms 9 :i* a ,my/ic ,league c>ries on its "w4 ,9 ! c5tre a l>ge door ) curta94 ,on ea* side ( ! door two pictures :i* repres5t1 beg9n+ f ! "r ( ! /age1 ! ,prophet ,elijah1 ,john ! ,bapti/1 ,raphael1 ! poet ,novalis4 ,!re are pres5t1 9 a lively conv]sation twelve ,p]sons1 :o 9 "o way or ano!r take an int]e/ 9 ! activities ( ! ,league4 ,beside !m3 ,felix ,balde & ,doctor ,/rad]4 ,,fox3 ,a mo/ unusual summons 'tis inde$1 ,t draws u "h toge!r at ?is "t4 ,x comes f m51 :o ev] hold t !y1 ,f all ,e>?'s o!r *ildr5 sep>ate1 ,are hon\r$ ) a special _s-aim4 ,_! _s-eyes %all n[1 h[ev]1 see ,t 9 ! _w's plan !y mu/ be b\nd close ,) m5 ^: _s is unconsecrate2 ,:o face life's fight 9 _! own /r5g? alone4 ,i ne'er felt drawn t[>ds su* _s-ways ,z f9d _! *ief res\rce 9 secrecy1 ,& only c>e to hold fa/ to s\nd ?\ght1 ,& to ! commons5se ( human m9ds4 ,?is ,_s-,league by :i* we n[ are call$ ,means n ?r\gh ?is same call t we %\ld be ,initiat$ 9 its high] aims4 ,x w ?ro' my/ic dim ^w-portraiture ,keep u b 9 ! ,temple's out] c\rts2 ,& use our p[]s b z ! p's voice-- ,a cunn+ plan to /r5g!n its own w4 ,s %all we m]ely be ! help]s bl9d ,( m5 :o f ! _s heights above1 ,look d[n to lead u on ) beckon+ h&4 ,!y d n hold t we are ready yet ,ev5 to take "o /ep t might lead on ,t[>d _! holy ,temple's treasure-h\se1 ,or to ! _s-light 9 :i* !y dwell4 ,:5 ,i obs]ve ! true /ate ( ?is league ,x seems ,i see b pride & self-deceit ,clo!d 9 a prophet's robe & humble dress4 ,& s 'tw]e surely be/ to %un ea* ?+ ,t "h is (f]$ u 9 wisdom's g>b2 ,t we at any rate may n appe> ,to /rive )\t due pro( aga9/ ! "w ,:i* is s highly priz$ by _m m52 ,s w\ld ,i c\nsel y at fir/ to he> ,:at aim ?is wisdom-tea*] ha? 9 view ,& !n to foll[ simple commons5se4 ,:o takes su* s5se z guide )9 himself ,w n be l$ a/ray by tempt+ lures ,:i* f ! ,my/ic ,temple issue =?4 ,,mi*ael ,,nobleman3 ,i d n "k1 ,i _c ev5 guess ,) :at /range _s-gift ^! m5 are d[]$ ,:o n[ desire to f9d a bridge to u4 ,b /ill ,i "k well sev]al hone/ m5 ,)9 ! ranks ( ?is same ,_s-,league4 ,/rictly !y gu>d ! secret ( ! f\nt ,:5ce ?is _! k is suppos$ to come2 ,b t ! f\nta9 :5ce !y dr9k is good1 ,_! life & de$s make manife/ to all4 ,& all t f _! circle issues =? ,be>s on its face ! m>k ( true/ love4 ,s may we well believe ! aim is good ,:i* leads !m 9 ?is special way to m51 ,to :om ! my/ic pa? is /range & new1 ,b 9 ^: s\ls ! in/9ct = ! tru? ,& hone/ goals ( _s-life f9d place4 ,,b]n>d ,,/raight3 ,caution w\ld seem to me our duty n[4 ,i ?9k ! my/ics f9d ! "t draws nigh ,:i* br+s an end+ to _! sov]eign p[]4 ,reason w sc>cely ask 9 future times ,:at dreams ( tru? ^! holy temples _h4 ,if ?is league tells ( goals ( su* a k9d ,z h seem$ wise to mank9d's g5]al ?\ght ,!n x 7 good to jo9 our lot to !irs4 ,yet he _h bett] %un ! my/ic's robe ,:o only seeks to pass ! portal by1 ,:i*1 l "s b>ri] ( heav5ly light1 ,%uts out 8 pres5t life f o!r worlds4 ,= 9 t _w 'twill be ( small acc\nt ,:at value ea* %all put ^u himself4 ,no high] value %all ea* "o receive ,?an univ]sal judgm5t grante? him4 ,,francesca ,,humble3 ,s mu* t "h ,i ne$s mu/ li/5 to ,s\nds l ! words ( ^? poor bl9d$ m5 ,:o _c see ! noble _s-light ,:i* /reams f e consecrat$ %r9e ,9 rays ( wisdom to ! out] _w ,to com=t & to heal ! s\ls ( m54 ,he only 9 ^: he>t ?is light do? %9e1 ,& pi]ce ) w>m+ gl[ 8 inmo/ s\l ,c recognize ! true wor? ( ?is h\r1 ,:i* op5s up ! my/ic's solemn realm ,ev5 to ^? :o feel !mselves too weak ,to rea*1 ?r\gh deep s\l /ruggle1 to ! high ,& consecrate abodes ( _s-light4 ,,m>y ,,/eadfa/3 ,_m sure signs %[ pla9ly mu* mu/ *ange ,)9 ^? s\ls :o /rive to foll[ close ,?is guidance1 9 _! daily life on e>?2 ,b little c be said :i* goes to prove ,t my/ic ways c lead on to ^? ends ,:i* br+ /rong p[]s into ! s\ls ( m54 ,x seems to me t :at our "t requires ,is lead]s1 :o by us+ nature's p[]s ,c jo9 dext]ity to g5ius1 ,& work+ ?us amid/ ! ?+s ( ,e>? ,fulfil _! purpose 9 ! _w ( m54 ,su* m5 d se>* = roots ( _s-"w ,deep 9 ! "m-e>? ( tru? itself1 ,& ?us are kept f idle w&]+ ,along ! pa? away f human heal?4 ,feel+ myself possess$ ) ?is idea ,i recognize 9 doctor ,/rad]'s self ,! p[]s :i* = su* guidance ( ! s\l ,are bett] suit$ ?an ! my/ics' are4 ,h[ long ha? man ) sorr[ _h to feel ,t ?ro' ! great inv5tions ( te*nique ,full _m a fett] has be5 rivet$ ,on ! free _s-in/9ct 9 8 s\l4 ,b n[ a hope do? rise )9 ! brea/ ,:]e( none h]et(ore c e'er h dream$4 ,9 ,/rad]'s work%ops we c see1 9 small1 ,! work+ ( ^? wond]s1 :i*1 9 great ,%all soon trans=m ! mean+ ( te*nique ,& free its %\ld]s f t heavy load ,:i* 9 our day do? weigh on _m s\ls4 ,,/rad]3 ,inde$ su* words z ^! are full ( hope ,ab\t my seem+ly successful "w4 ',tis true !re yet rema9s ! bridge to pass ,betwe5 exp]im5t & actual use1 ,b /ill ! eye ( sci5ce up till n[ ,c only see t x is possible ,t 9 te*nique ! pro( ( all ?+s lies4 ,! au?or ( ?is "w may be all[$ ,to speak "h freely ( ! hopes he ha? ,z to ! s]vice x may r5d] man4 ,he begs to be =giv5 any words ,t s\nd va+lori\s to ! g5]al e>2 ,!y only %ad[ =? ! feel+s :5ce ,! /r5g? = ?is "w fl[s into 8 s\l4 ,we see h[ 9 man's daily life on e>? ,! work+s ( emotion & ! s\l ,disp]se & lapse into a s\lless /ate ,! m ! _s ma/]s all ! p[]s ,t x c f9d )9 ! realm ( s5se4 ,ea* day ! "w gr[s m me*anical1 ,:i* makes = wor? 9 life2 & ?r\gh su* "w ,man's life itself becomes me*anical4 ,mo/ likely mu* once held z burd5some ,may n[ be prov$ ( s]vice to mank9d4 ,s t ! art & "w ( cold te*nique ,may no m lame ! s\l-life ( mank9d ,nor prove a h9drance to true _s-aims4 ,b little 0 a*iev$ ?r\gh all ?is /rife ,9 :i* "o "q only seem$ ( weight1 ,h[ man %\ld act t[>ds 8 fell[-m54 ,i h myself sp5t _m a solemn h\r ,9 ?9k+ out ?is riddle ( man's life4 ,b ev] did ,i f9d su* ?\ght produc$ ,no fruit ( any value = real life4 ,i felt myself draw ne> ! bitt] ?\ght ,t cosmic fate ha? =eorda9$ ! lot ,t victory 9 ?is mat]ial realm ,mu/ ev] be to _s-pa?s a foe4 ,release f ?is bewild]m5t ( ?\ght ,0 br\ght me by a seem+ accid5t4 ,x 0 my lot to make exp]im5ts ,9 matt]s f su* que/ions f> remov$2 ,:5 sudd5ly !re fla%$ across my m9d ,a ?\ght :i* %[$ me :]e ! "r pa? lay4 ,te/ foll[$ close on te/1 until at la/ ,su* p[]s 7 ga!r$ !re 9 front ( me1 ,z 9 _! full expression %all "s day ,?r\gh pure te*nique t fre$om br+ to man1 ,9 :i* 8 s\l may f9d developm5t4 ,no m %all m5 be =c$ to dream away ,_! :ole exi/5ce plant-l1 fa%ion+ ,9 n>r[ factory rooms unlovely ?+s4 ,! p[]s ( te*nique w be s unveil$ ,t e man %all h :at he may ne$ ,to keep him 9 8 "w1 9 8 own home ,arrang$ by him1 z he may ?9k x be/4 ,i ?\ght x well to speak fir/ ( ?is hope ,s t x may n seem q out ( place ,to say1 :at ,i mu/ say1 ab\t ?is call ,:i* n[ ! ,rosicrucian ,bro!rhood ,issues to m5 :o /& outside _! league4 ',tis only :5 a human s\l unfolds ,& f9ds its own true be+ 9 itself ,t ^? f9e in/9cts1 :i* f endless "t ,draw spirits ea* to ea*1 c h full scope4 ,& !re=e1 only he w ?9k aright ,:o recognizes t ?is call con=ms ,to signs1 :i* we h le>n$ to "k full well4 ,! bro!rhood 9 future w be/[ ,its highe/ treasures freely on mank9d ,because all m5 mu/ le>n to long = !m4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,! words j spok5 h be5 wrung f out ,a s\l1 :i* ha? be5 giv5 to our times ,to grace ! realms ( s5se ) life's true wor?4 ,& 9 ?is field ,i d\bt if any "o ,) doctor ,/rad] c\ld compete today4 ,b ,i myself trod v diff]5t pa?s ,to f9d out :at is ne$ful = ! s\l4 ,s ,i1 too1 beg y\r leave to speak a ^w4 ,fate ha? made cle> to me t ,i mu/ se>* ,among ^? treasures1 :i* disclose !mselves ,to e man )9 8 inmo/ s\l4 ,!re9 ,i seem$ to f9d true wisdom's light ,:i* c full well illum9ate life's wor?4 ,! my/ic pupil%ip 0 giv5 me ,9 solitude & contemplation deep4 ,& ?us ,i le>n$ t all t makes man "l ,( ?is /rong realm ( s5se1 do? only s]ve ,to bl9d 8 be+1 & condemn mank9d ,to se>* 9 d>kness = ! way ( life4 ,aye1 e'en ^? gems ( k :i* ! use ,( reason & ( s5se ha? f\nd on e>?1 ,are b fa9t grop+s 9 a d>k5$ realm4 ,i "k x is ! my/ic way alone ,t c direct our /eps to life's true light4 ,myself ,i /ood ^u t pa? ( tru? ,z "o :o /rives )\t a help+ h&2 ,b all m5 _c /ruggle ?us alone4 ,! k ga9$ by s5se & intellect ,seems l a body left )\t a s\l ,:5 x do? set itself defiantly ,aga9/ ! light t s9ce ,e>?'s dawn ha? /ream$ ,f sacr$ temples ( true my/]y4 ,ye !re=e ought 9 gratitude to grasp ,! h& t beckons f ! ,temple n[ ,^u ^: ?re%old roses full ( light ,girdle significant ! sign ( dea?4 ,,l\isa ,,fe>-,,god3 ,a man :o feels ! wor? ( 8 own s\l ,c b rely ^u 8 own ideas1 ,if he desire to "k ! _s-worlds ,& f9d himself !re9 9 v tru?4 ,:oe'er c give himself1 ) bl9dfold fai?1 ,to outside guidance1 fir/ mu/ lose himself4 ,aye1 e'en t light1 :i* deep )9 himself ,a man may feel z highe/ wisdom's p[] ,claims _s-recognition only :5 ,its tru? admits ( pro( )9 itself4 ,?is light may be a dang] to a man ,if he draws ne> !reto )\t su* pro(4 ,= (t5 on ?is pa? ! s\l appe>s ,b z "s picture1 drawn f cosmic dep?s1 ,spr++ f out its own unconsci\s wi%4 ,,fr$]ick ,,cle>-,,m9d3 ,fully to und]/& ! my/ic way ,ea* man mu/ trace its impulse 9 himself4 ,:o1 ere he ent]s on ! se>*1 do? =m ,9 8 own s\l a picture ( ! goal1 ,:]eto t se>* mu/ lead1 is sure to f9d ,in/ead ( tru?1 delusion's fantasy4 ,=1 we may say1 t ea* true my/ic %\ld ,?us hold himself t[>d ! goal ( tru? ,z "o :o f a m\nta9-top w\ld gaze ,^u ! beauty ( a di/ant view4 ,he waits till he has ga9$ ! utmo/ height ,be=e he tries to picture all ! sc5e ,:]eto 8 pilgrimage ha? guid$ him4 ,,fox3 ,at su* a "t z ?is we %\ld n ask ,h[ m5 %\ld hold !mselves t[>d ! tru?4 ,! bre?r5 ( ! league w n require ,to he> ab\t su* ?+s f m5 l u4 ,x ha? inde$ already rea*$ m9e e>s ,t an occurr5ce ( a special sort ,ha? =c$ ! league to turn & ?9k ( u4 ,?omasius1 :o came "s ye>s ago ,b5ea? ! influ5ce ( a _s-/ream1 ,:i* set itself to foll[ my/ic aims1 ,ha? le>n$ j h[ to use su* =ms ( ?\ght ,z 9 our "t compel m5's confid5ce1 ,& hang !m1 z a mantle1 r\nd t lore ,:i* %\ld be sacr$ to initiates4 ,9 ?is way he 0 able to succe$1 ,& ga9 approval f bo? f> & ne> ,= writ+s :i* _h borr[$ logic's g>b ,b :i*1 9 fact1 conta9$ b my/ic dreams4 ,ev5 inquir]s ( ackn[l$g$ wor? ,are ) ! message ( ! man inspir$ ,& s l5d col\r to 8 pres5t fame1 ,:i* gr[s1 ,i fe>1 9 dang]\s degree4 ,initiates did dread ?is l9e ( ?\ght ,s9ce x mu/ ne$s de/roy _! fix$ idea ,t wisdom is _! sole pr]ogative4 ,& s !y try to %elt] 'nea? _! w+ ,t :i* ,?omasius is giv+ =?4 ,inde$1 !y wi% x to appe> z if ,!y knew already 9 ! ye>s gone by ,t su* a message w\ld j n[ be s5t ,to s]ve 9 build+ up _! own great "w4 ,if !y succe$ n[ at ?is pres5t "t ,9 draw+ u ) craft into _! net1 ,!y w make cle> unto ! _w at l>ge ,t p[]s ( de/9y did wisely s5d ,?omasius ) 8 message at ?is "t ,s t belief 9 _! significance ,might ) ! commons5se ( man comb9e4 ,,gasp] ,,hotspur3 ,?is ,my/ic ,league is bold to make ! claim ,t x alone mu/ ev] guide mank9d3 ,x proves !reby :at small acc\nt x takes ,( all t c be won = man's true weal ,j by s\nd commons5se1 = we may say ,t 'tis n[ prov$ t nature & ! s\l ,c be expla9$ z ?+s me*anical4 ,& 'tis inde$ a *eck to all free ?\ght ,t doctor ,/rad] ) s cle> a bra91 ,%\ld c\nt5ance ?is my/ic fallacy4 ,:o ?us do? ma/] p[]s me*anical ,%\ld n inde$ lack insight1 & we "k ,t ere we ga9 true k ( ! s\l ,all my/ic lean+s ne$s mu/ be de/roy$4 ,yet ?is false sci5ce1 :i* ,?omasius ,is giv+ =? today to all ! _w1 ,enables e'en extreme sagacity ,to reconcile itself ) wilde/ dreams1 ,:5 once x falls a victim to t sn>e4 ,if ?r\gh /rict tra9+ 9 ! way ( ?\ght1 ,mo/ natural to man1 ,?omasius ,_h = ?is "w ( 8 prep>$ himself1 ,in/ead ( /udy+ ! my/ic art1 ,he might h pluck$ full _m a noble fruit ,f wisdom's tree ?r\gh 8 own inborn gifts4 ,in/ead ( :i* ^u ! way he *ose ,naught b disa/r\s error c\ld occur4 ,no d\bt ! bro!rhood may l to ?9k ,su* error c be turn$ to _! acc\nt4 ,x f9ds acceptance1 s9ce x seeks to %[ ,t sci5ce n[ ha? giv'n s\ls /rong pro( ,( k only f\nd 9 dreams be=e4 ,,george ,,c&id3 ,t x is possible to speak su* words ,z we h j be5 =c$ ) pa9 to he>1 ,%[s cle>ly h[ t insight :i* fl[s =? ,f _s-life ha? sc>ce inde$ begun ,to gr[ at all 'mid/ all our mod]n ?\ghts4 ,turn y\r eyes backw>d o'er ! flight ( "t ,& see :at ?+s liv$ 9 ! s\ls ( m5 ,be=e ! sci5ce :i* is n[ 9 fl[] ,0 ev5 able to reveal its se$4 ,!n y w f9d t ?is same ,my/ic ,league ,do? b today fulfil a "w :i* !n ,0 trac$ be=eh& 9 ! cosmic s*eme4 ,we _h to wait until ,?omasius ,_h f9i%$ ?is great "w he _h 9 h&4 ,! way is new by :i* ! _s-light ,illum9ates ?r\gh him ! s\ls ( m54 ,& yet ?is light did ev] "w 9 all ,t m5 h d>$ to make ^u ! ,e>?4 ,b :]e1 !n1 0 ! s\rce ( all ?is light ,:i*1 ?o' s\ls knew x n1 c\ld %9e s cle>8 ,we f9d all signs po9t to ! my/ic art1 ,:i* dwelt 9 secret consecrat$ %r9es1 ,be=e mank9d let reason be its guide4 ,! ,_s ,league :i* n[ ha? call$ u "h ,w gladly let ! my/ic light /ream =? ,on t bold "w1 :i* out ( human ?\ght ,/rives to p]fection 9 ! _s-_w4 ,& we1 :o1 9 ?is h\r s big ) fate1 ,may /ay a:ile on consecrat$ gr\nd1 ,%all be ! fir/ :o1 un9itiate1 ,%all see ! tor* ( ,god f _s-heights ,leap d[n into ! dep?s ( human s\ls4 ,,m>y ,,dauntless3 ,?omasius1 inde$1 ne$s n ! %ield1 ,! ,rose-,cross ,bro!rs h 9 m9d = him1 ,if 9 an e>ne/ sci5tific way ,he c portray ! pa?way ( ! s\l ,?r\gh _m e>?ly lives & _s-realms4 ,?is "w ha? n[ reveal$ ! light on high1 ,to :i* !y say ! my/ic temples lead1 ,e'en unto m5 :o er/:ile _h to %un ,! v ?re%old ( su* sacr$ %r9es4 ,su* recognition do? he well des]ve ,z he already ha? s ri*ly f\nd ,because he gave t fre$om unto ?\ght1 ,:i* 0 d5i$ x by ! my/ic s*ools4 ,,erm9ia ,,/ay-,,at-,,home3 ,! ,rose-,cross ,bro!rs c 9 future live ,b 9 ! recollection ( mank9d4 ,t :i* !y call =1 at ?is v "t ,w soon ga9 consci\sness ( its own p[] ,& und]m9e ! ,temple's fundam5ts4 ,!y boldly wi% to jo9 9 future days ,reason & sci5ce to _! sacr$ %r9e4 ,?omasius1 !re=e1 :om s will+ly ,!y n[ admit into _! ,temple's mid/ ,w c\nt h]eaft] z _! conqu]or4 ,,/rad]3 ,i h be5 sorely blam$ because ,i ?9k ,t he acts well1 :o holds himself prep>$ ,to fur!r1 9 close union ) ! league1 ,! "w :i* ?r\gh ,?omasius is fulfill$4 ,"o speak] took objection to my views ,& held ,i ought to "k h[ dang]\s ,! my/ic's true s\l-se>*+ may become4 ,i (t5 felt ,i be/ c\ld und]/& ,! _s-way :5 ,i gave up myself ,completely to ! influ5ce b9d+ me ,to me*anisms :i* ,i made myself4 ,! way 9 :i* ,i /ood t[>d my works ,ha? %[n ! mean+ ( ! sacr$ %r9e4 ,& :ile ,i 0 at "w1 ,i (t5 ?\ght3 ',h[ d ,i seem to "o :o only tries ,to und]/& ! work+ ( ^? p[]s ,:i* ,i put into ?+s me*anical8 ,& yet :at might ,i be unto a s\l ,to :om ,i might reveal myself 9 love8' ,i h to ?ank su* ?\ghts z ^! t n[ ,! le>n+ :i* f my/ic circles spr+s ,reveals itself to me 9 its true light4 ,& s1 ?\gh n initiate1 ,i "k ,t s\ls ( gods c 9 ! sacr$ %r9e ,reveal !mselves 9 love to human s\ls4 ,,ka?>9e ,,c\nsel3 ,! noble words :i* doctor ,/rad] speaks ,ab\t ! sacr$ %r9es mu/ surely f9d ,an e*o 9 ^? s\ls :i* /& )\t ,! gates ?r\gh :i* initiates may pass1 ,b yet are c\nt$ wor?y to receive ,! lore initiates d /rive to tea*3 ,x is n difficult to und]/& ,:y our =efa!rs held to ! belief ,t my/ics 7 ! enemies ( light4 ,x ev5 0 d5i$ _! s\ls to guess ,:at hidd5 secrets lay )9 ! %r9e4 ,all ?is is *ang$ today4 ,! ,my/ic ,light ,is n entirely hid1 b tells ! _w ,z mu* z un9itiate folk may "k4 ,& _m s\ls1 :o h receiv$ ?is light ,& be5 reviv$ !reby1 h felt =?) ,a r\s+ up ( s\l-p[]s1 :i* be=e ,work$ 9 !m1 z 9 sleep1 unconsci\sly4 7,?ree knocks are he>d47 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,! own]s ( ?is place w soon approa* ,& ye w he> :at !y desire to say4 ,b if ye wi% to und]/& _! words ,& to receive ?r\gh !m ! light y\rselves ,ye mu/ n by pre-judgm5t bl9d y\rselves4 ,! p[] ( ! initiates w n[ ,prove itself mighty1 :]esoe'er x f9ds ,good he>ts & wills prep>$ to (f] up ,errone\s fancies to ! light ( tru?2 ,b :]e ! w ha? gr[n ?r\gh error h>d ,& ?us ha? sla9 ! s5se ( tru? itself1 ,?is p[] w !re be prov$ ( none effect4 ,,fox3 ,su* words z ^! might be ( use to "o ,:o ?r\gh self-contemplation did desire ,to f9d himself )9 8 inmo/ s\l4 ,b at ! fir/ appe>ance ( ?is league ',tw]e bett] to hold fa/ to ^? reports ,ab\t ?is k9d ( _s-bro!rhood1 ,:i* may be cr$it$ hi/orically4 ,f !m we see t v _m m5 ,h be5 entic$ into ! holy %r9e ,by secret words1 :i* l$ !m to believe ,t 9 ^! temples1 /ep by /ep1 ! s\l ,c\ld f ! l[lie/ grades ( wisdom rise ,up to ! heights :]e _s-sight is ga9$4 ,:o foll[$ su* inducem5t soon p]ceiv$ ,t 9 ! l[] grades he c\ld see signs ,^: purport (f]$ him mu* food = ?\ght4 ,he d>$ to hope t 9 ! high] grades ,! mean+ ( ^! signs w\ld be disclos$1 ,& wisdom be reveal$3 b :5 he rea*$ ,^? high] grades himself1 he f\nd in/ead ,t ma/]s knew b little ( ^? signs ,& did b speak ab\t ! _w & life-- ,no?+ b mean+less & b>r5 words4 ,if he 0 n deceiv$ by ^! same words ,nor yet 0 trick$ by _! futility1 ,he turn$ himself away f su* pursuits4 ,& s at ?is "t 'tis p]haps ( use ,to li/5 to ! judgm5t ( ! pa/ ,z well z unto edify+ spee*4 7,aga9 ?ree knocks are he>d47 7,! curta9 is drawn back1 & !re ent] ! ,gr& ,ma/] ( ! ,my/ic ,league1 ,hil>y ,true-to-,god2 aft] him1 ,magnus ,bellicosus1 ! ,second ,preceptor2 ,alb]tus ,torquatus1 ! ,fir/ ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies2 & ,fr$]ick ,tru/wor?y1 ! ,second ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies4 ,! p]sons :o 7 be=e assembl$ gr\p !mselves on ea* side ( ! hall47 ,,fr$]ick ,,tru/wor?y3 ,de> fri5ds1 ?is mom5t1 :5 we jo9 u fir/ ,at ?is our temple's anci5t holy gates ,is mo/ significant = y & u4 ,! call :i* we h giv5 to y n[ ,0 /rongly laid ^u u by ! signs ,:i* our ,gr& ,ma/] c\ld disc]n full well ,9 ! wise plan ( e>?'s developm5t4 ,!re x is v pla9ly %ad[$ =? ,t at ?is "t ! s]vice wise & true ,( ?is our sacr$ ,temple mu/ unite ,) univ]sal commons5se ( man1 ,:i* seeks = tru? f> (f f my/ic pa?s4 ,yet 9 ! plan 7 also signs to %[ ,t ere ?is consummation c\ld be rea*$1 ,a man mu/ fir/ arise :o und]/ood ,h[ to br+ k1 built on commons5se ,& reason only1 into su* a =m ,z truly to comprise ! _s-_w2 ,?is n[ ha? happ5$4 ,to ,?omasius ,! lot has fall5 to produce a "w ,bas$ on t v sci5ce1 :i* today ,all m5 dem&4 ,?is "w 9 _! own tongue ,do? br+ full pro( ( _s-wor?1 :i* m5 ,c\ld only f9d 9 my/ic pa?s be=e1 ,& 9 ! temples ( initiates4 ,?is "w w n[ become ! fett] firm ,t y ) u unites 9 _s-life2 ,?r\gh x w ye be able to disc]n ,h[ firm ! base on :i* our tea*+ re/s4 ,& ?r\gh x1 too1 ye w receive ! p[] ,to take f u t k ) free w ,:i* is conf9$ to my/ic pa?s alone ,& s1 9 liv+ fruitfulness1 t ,life ,c n[ unfold itself1 :i* do? unite ,! univ]sal commons5se ( man ,) all ! cu/oms ( ! sacr$ %r9e4 ,,magnus ,,bellicosus3 ,our bro!r's words h made x cle> to y1 ,t we h be5 induc$ by solemn signs ,to call y to ! ,?re%old ( our ,%r9e4 ,! ,ma/] soon w speak to y & %[ ,! deep] reasons = ?us call+ y4 ,b fir/ ,i mu/1 s f> z may be meet1 ,tell y ( ?is great man1 ^: "w ha? made ,our pres5t union possible today4 ,?omasius gave himself to pa9t+'s art ,until he felt an inw>d _s-call ,to take up sci5ce z 8 "w 9 life4 ,8 gifts :i* 7 s great & s unique ,)9 ! region ( ! pa9t]'s art1 ,7 fir/ develop$ :5 he pass$ )9 ,! sph]es devot$ to true my/ic lore1 ,^! l$ him to ! ,ma/]1 &1 ?r\gh him1 ,he le>nt ! fir/ /eps 9 t _w ( tru? ,:]e wisdom tea*es spiritual sight4 ,upborne to _s-heights & ?us infill$ ,) great creative p[]1 he pa9t$ !n ,pictures1 :i* seem inde$ l liv+ m54 ,t :i* w\ld soon h driv5 o!r m5 ,to /rive ama9 t[>d ! highe/ goal ,^u ! beat5 track ( art--all ?is ,0 b a fre% inc5tive to 8 bra9 ,to use h>d-won success 9 su* a way ,z might prove be/ = welf>e ( mank9d4 ,he saw full well t _s-sci5ce mu/ ,fir/ f9d a firm f\ndation1 & = ?is ,! s5se = sci5ce & /rict reason+ ,mu/ be releas$ f mania = set =m ,?r\gh contact ) an arti/ m9d1 & ga9 ,! inw>d /r5g? to realize ! tru? ,( _w-relation%ip 9 life & de$4 ,& s ,?omasius ha? (f]$ up1 ,a will+ (f'r+ to humanity1 ,! arti/-p[]1 he might h us$ himself4 ,o fri5ds1 read ye aright ?is man's true s\l ,& und]/& ! call :i* n[ we give ,& hesitate no m to foll[ x4 ,,hil>y ,,true-,,to-,,god3 ,9 t same ,_s's ,"n1 :i* is reveal$ ,to s\ls )9 our sacr$ %r9e1 we come ,to m5 :o until n[ might nev] he> ,! ^w :i* "h do? secretly s\nd =?4 ,^? ,p[]s :i* guide ! purpose ( our ,e>? ,c\ld n 9 its beg9n+ be reveal$ ,to all humanity 9 _! full light4 ,z 9 ! body ( a *ild1 ! p[]s ,?r\gh :i* x le>ns to act & use its m9d1 ,mu/ gradually rip51 & gr[ /rong2 ,s mu/ humanity unfold itself ,z "o great :ole ?r\gh\t its e>?ly c\rse4 ,! impulse 9 ! s\l :i* lat] on ,might wor?y prove to gaze on _s-light ,9 high] worlds1 fir/ liv$ 9 atrophy4 ,yet 9 ! ,e>?'s beg9n+ !re 7 s5t ,f out ! high] k+doms ( real life ,exalt$ _s-be+s1 :o might act ,z wise in/ructors ( humanity4 ,9 my/ic holy %r9es did !y employ ,^? mighty _s p[]s1 :i* 7 p\r$ =? ,9 secret into s\ls :i* c\ld "k n\ght ,( _! exalt$ lead]s or _! "w4 ,!n lat] f ! ranks ( m5 !mselves ,^! ma/]s wise c\ld *oose = pupils ^? ,:o by well-te/$ lives ( self-d5ial ,_h prov$ t !y 7 ripe to be orda9$ ,into ! my/ic aims & wisdom's lore4 ,& :5 ! pupils ( ^? e>ly se]s ,c\ld gu>d 9 wor?y way ! good & true1 ,!n ^? sublime in/ructors turn$ _! /eps ,back to _! own especial realms ( life4 ,^! pupils ( ! gods !n *ose out m5 ,:o might succe$ !m 9 ! gu>dian%ip ,( _s-treasures2 & 9 su* a way ,! treasures 7 pass$ on f age to age4 ,until ! pres5t "t all my/ic s*ools1 ,if !y are su* 9 tru?1 h really sprung ,f t :i* fir/ 0 f\nd$ f on high4 ,humbly we *]i% 9 ?is v place ,t :i* our fa!rs h&$ d[n to u4 ,we d n ev] speak ab\t ! dues1 ,:i* ?r\gh our (fice we inh]it$1 ,b only ( ! fav\r %[n to u ,by ^? great _s-p[]s1 :o *ose weak m5 ,z m$iators1 & entru/$ !m ,) treasures :i* br+ =? ! _s-light ,9 s\ls ( m53 & 'tis our lot1 de> fri5ds1 ,to op5 to y n[ ?is treasur$ /ore4 ,= signs :i* 9 ! plan ( all ! worlds ,c cle>ly be disc]n$ by _s-eyes ,%[ mo/ propiti\s at ?is v "t4 ,,fox3 ,f di/ant worlds1 x seems1 ! reasons come ,:i* %\ld conv9ce u t 'tw]e meet t we ,%\ld jo9 ourselves to y1 & 9 ?is way ,%\ld be ! fir/ to give ! impetus ,to ?is great "w ,?omasius gives ! _w4 ,h[ev] gr& :at ?\ ha/ spok5 s\nds1 ,x _c dr[n 9 he>ts ( homely m5 ,! ?\ght t su* a "w w take effect ,?r\gh its own p[]1 if x %\ld prove to hold ,)9 itself :at s\ls ( m5 require4 ,if ?is "w prove important1 x w be1 ,n ?r\gh ! ?+s ! my/ics (f] u1 ,b s9ce true sci5ce comes to ! support ,( _s-k1 & do? prove x true4 ,if ?is be really s1 :at use is !re1 ,if my/ic approbation paves ! way1 ,& n ?' intr9sic m]it ( ! "w8 ,,alb]tus ,,torquatus3 ,! sci5ce :i* is op5+ on ! _w ,f su* f\ndations z ,?omasius laid ,w nei!r ga9 nor lose ?r\gh su* applause ,z we or ye may *oose to r5d] x4 ,& yet !reby a way c n[ be f\nd ,by :i* mank9d may /udy my/ic lore4 ,x w\ld accompli% only half its "w ,if x %\ld %[ ! goal1 b n ! road4 ,& n[ x re/s ) y to und]/& ,t n[ at la/ ! mom5t ha? arriv$ ,= reason & ! my/ic pa? to jo92 ,& to ! _s-life ( ?is our _w ,to give !reby ! p[] :i* c b "w ,:5 x reveals itself 9 season due4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #b ,! same4 ,! p]sons :o 7 at fir/ assembl$ h left1 ) ! exception ( ,felix ,balde & ,dr4 ,/rad]1 :o rema9 ) ,hil>y ,true-to-,god1 ! ,gr& ,ma/]2 ,magnus ,bellicosus1 ! ,second ,preceptor2 ,alb]tus ,torquatus1 ! ,fir/ ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies2 ,fr$]ick ,tru/wor?y1 ! ,second ,ma/] ( ! ,c]emonies2 ,m>ia2 & ,johannes ,?omasius4 ,,hil>y3 ,my son1 :at ?\ ha/ p]fect$ mu/ n[ ,)9 ?is holy place receive ! seal1 ,:i* sacr$ & primeval k gives1 ,besides ! bless+ ( ! ,rosy ,cross4 ,:at ?\ ha/ br\ght ! _w mu/ be ?r\gh u ,unto ! ,_s (f]$1 t x may ,be> fruit 9 all ! worlds1 :]e p[] ( man ,c be made use ( = _w-fa%ion+4 ,,bellicosus3 ,t ?\ might'/ give unto ! _w ?is "w ,?\ _h'/ to "p = _m ye>s ) mu* ,t 9 ?9e inmo/ s\l ?\ lov$'/ be/4 ,!re /ood a _s-tea*] at ?y side1 ,:o w5t f !e1 s t ?y human s\l ,might p]fectly unfold its p[]s 9 !e4 ,?\ wa/ 9 close/ t\* ) "o de> fri5d2 ,%e also left !e1 = ?\ _h'/ to le>n ,t :i* m5 only le>n :5 !y are set ,to foll[ out _! s\l's p[]s 9 !mselves4 ,) c\rage ha/ ?\ pass$ ?r\gh ?is ordeal4 ,t :i* 0 tak5 f !e = ?y good ,is1 = ?y good1 re/or$ to !e anew4 ,?y fri5d /&s "h be=e !e3 9 ! %r9e ,%e waits = !e to foll[ out our wi%4 ,soon1 ?\ wilt meet ?y tea*] once aga94 ,^! fri5ds1 :o on our temple's ?re%old /&1 ,desire to jo9 ) u 9 greet+ !e1 ,z "o :o br+s great k "h ) him4 ,,felix ,,balde 7to ,?omasius73 ,! my/ic art :i* h]et(ore aspir$ ,?r\gh inw>d contemplation t[>d ! light1 ,w ?r\gh ?9e act be able n[ to "w ,?r\gh k ga9$ )9 ! _w ( s5se4 ,,/rad] 7to ,?omasius73 ,^? s\ls :o aft] _s-k /rive ,:ile life /ill unto matt] b9ds !m fa/1 ,w n[ ?r\gh !e f9d out a road by :i* ,!y c atta9 ! light 9 _! own way4 ,,?omasius3 ,exalt$ ,ma/]1 & ye1 hon\r$ sirs6 ,ye ?9k to see be=e y n[ a man ,:o1 ?r\gh ! ,_s's p[] & e>ne/ /rife1 ,0 able to produce ! "w y praise ,& c ackn[l$ge ) y\r fo/]+ c>e4 ,ye ?9k t he w c]ta9ly succe$ ,9 reconcil+ sci5ce ( today ,) ev]-anci5t sacr$ my/ic art4 ,& truly 7 !re any?+ besides ,! voice ( m9e own s\l1 :i* c\ld in/il ,belief ab\t x into me1 ,i ?9k ,x well might be y\r words4444 ,,tru/wor?y3 ,! ,ma/]'s ^w ,do? b express t :i* )\t a d\bt ,?\ feele/ 9 ?y s\l4 ,!re is no ne$ ,to /r5g!n :at ?9e inn] voice decl>es4 ,,?omasius3 ,ah6 7 x s1 mo/ humbly w\ld ,i /& ,be=e y & implore t ,i might ga9 ,! temple's bless+ on ?is "w ( m9e4 ,i us$ to ?9k x s1 :5 fir/ ,i he>d ,! ^w by :i* ,i came to und]/& ,t ye w\ld take my "w b5ea? y\r c>e ,& op5 gateways to me1 :i* be=e ,only initiates c\ld e'er approa*4 ,b z ,i trod ! pa? t l$ to y ,!re op5$ out ^u my s\l a _w ,to :i*1 at su* a "t ye c]ta9ly ,w\ld n h wi%$ to lead me4 ,ahriman ,9 all 8 greatness /ood be=e me !re4 ,& !n ,i saw t he x is 9 tru? ,:o is ! exp]t 9 real cosmic laws4 ,:at human be+s ?9k !y "k ( him ,is ( no value4 ,only he c "k ,:o once ha? se5 him 9 ! _s-_w4 ,x 0 f him alone t ,i c\ld le>n ,! tru? ab\t ?is "w ( m9e 9 full4 ,he %[$ h[ 9 ! progress ( ! _w ,"o c\ld n judge effects ( su* a "w2 ,s9ce its true progress _c be apprais$ ,by ^? impressions m5 may =m ( x ,:o judge by sci5ce & /rict logic's law4 ,! f9al v]dict _c be pron\nc$ ,till creature f creator is set free1 ,&1 fre$ f him1 c foll[ its own pa? ,?r\gh\t ! c\rses ( ! _s-life4 ,yet n[ ! "w is s b\nd up ) me ,t x is possible t ,i might turn ,t :i* ,i guide back f ! _s-realms ,to some?+ evil1 ev5 ?\gh x 7 ,good 9 itself & 9 its work+ p[]4 ,i mu/ myself f out ! _s-_w ,s5d =? af> my influ5ce on all ,:i* %[s itself on ,e>? z ! result ,( t :i* ,i h br\ght =? f my m9d4 ,& if ,i %\ld let evil issue =? ,f out ! _s-_w1 ?r\gh ^! results1 ,!n w\ld ! tru? d damage great] f> ,?an error1 = m5 foll[ aft] tru? ,accord+ to _! insight1 error n4 ,i %all = c]ta9 at "s future "t ,turn ! results ( ?is my act to ill ,= ,ahriman ha? cle>ly %ewn to me ,t ^! results mu/ all belong to him4 ,:ile ,i 0 at my "w1 & fill$ ) joy ,t x %\ld lead me ) su* c]ta9 tread ,/ep aft] /ep1 up tru?'s great pyramid1 ,i only notic$ 9 my s\l t "p ,:i* l5t itself to help me 9 my se>*2 ,& all ! re/ ,i left )\t a gu>d4 ,all ^? wild impulses1 :i* =m]ly ,7 b 9 bud1 c\ld n[ 9 quietude ,bloom =? & rip5 into full gr[n fruits4 ,i ?\ght ,i dwelt 9 highe/ _s-realms1 ,b 0 9 tru? 9 deepe/ night ( s\l4 ,x 0 ! /r5g? ( ^! same impulses ,:i* %[$ me cle>ly ,ahriman's own realm4 ,& s ,i "k ! effect t ,i %all h1 ,= 9 ! future all ^! impulses ,w g to =m my p]sonality4 ,be=e ,i took ?is "w 9 h&1 ,i gave ,myself to ,lucif]1 because ,i wi%$ ,to le>n to "k & und]/& 8 realm4 ,n[ "k ,i1 :at ,i c\ld n see be=e ,:5 ,i 0 lo/ entirely 9 my "w1 ,t he x 0 :o wove ar\nd my ?\ght ,^? beaute\s pictures1 :i* )9 my s\l ,br\ght =? wild impulses1 :i* sil5t n[ ,w surely "o day ga9 control ( me4 ,,tru/wor?y3 ,h[ c "o :o ha? rea*$ su* _s-heights ,& kn[s all ?is = c]ta91 yet believe ,t he ha? no escape f evil left8 ,:y1 ?\ can/ see :]e dang] = !e lies2 ,& s can/ cru% x1 & ) c\rage save ,?yself1 & ! results ( ?y great "w3 ,a _s-pupil is 9 duty b\nd ,to kill :at h9d]s progress 9 himself4 ,,?omasius3 ,i see1 ?\ judge/ n by cosmic laws1 ,i c\ld e'en n[ fulfil :at ?\ do/ wi% ,& ,i myself c\ld q well tell myself ,9 ?is same h\r all t ?\ telle/ me4 ,b t :i* ,k>ma n[ do? let me d ,w n 9 future be p]missible4 ,= ?+s mu/ come :i* w o'er%ad[ me ,& d>k5 all my _s1 till ,i turn ,to t :i* ,i describ$ to !e j n[4 ,!n z ! _w progresses ,i w seize ,) gre$ on any?+ t's 9 my "w ,:i* c be us$ = h>m1 & all ( ?is ,i w embody 9 my _s-life4 ,!n ,i %all h to love great ,ahriman ,& joyfully to 8 possession give ,all t ,i h d]iv$ f e>?ly life4 7,pause1 dur+ :i* ,?omasius m$itates deeply47 ,if all alone ,i c\ld enc\nt] ?is1 ,& be> x also 9 my s\l alone1 ,i c\ld await ) fulle/ peace ( m9d ,all t 0 de/9$ = me on my way4 ,b x w h>m y\r league z mu* z me4 ,:atev] bad %all foll[ f my "w ,bo? = myself & o!r s\ls ( m51 ,w f9d its balance ?r\gh j ,k>ma's law4 ,! fact t ye fell victims to ?is fault ,makes x f> h>d] = ! life ( e>?1 ,s9ce ye are lead]s 9 ?is self-same life ,& ought to read ! _s-worlds aright4 ,ye ought n to h fail$ to notice !n ,t x 0 someone else1 & n myself ,:o %\ld h _h ! do+ ( ?is "w4 ,ye %\ld h kn[n x mu/ be put aside ,= n[2 & lat] w\ld appe> aga9 ,?r\gh "o :o o!rwise w\ld guide its c\rse4 ,s by y\r judgm5t1 ye deprive ! league ,( rights x ought to h1 if x w\ld /ill ,direct ! s]vice ( ! ,sacr$ ,place4 ,because ?is fate = y 0 %[n to me ,i n[ appe> ^u y\r ?re%old "h4 ,k w\ld o!rwise h kept me f>1 ,= truly ,i c claim no bless+ n[ ,^u ?is "w1 :i* does bo? good & h>m4 ,,hil>y3 ,de> bre?r51 t :i* we h j begun1 ,_c be c>ri$ any fur!r n[4 ,we mu/ betake ourselves unto ! ,place ,f :5ce ! ,_s c make kn[n ,8 w4 7,hil>y leaves ! hall ) ,bellicosus1 ,torquatus1 & ,tru/wor?y4 ,doctor ,/rad] & ,felix ,balde also leave4 ,only ,m>ia & ,?omasius are left47 7,! hall gr[s d>k4 ,aft] a %ort pause ! ?ree ,_s-=ms ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna appe> 9 a cl\d ( light1 & gr\p !mselves s t !y completely hide ,m>ia4 ,! foll[+ is a _s-exp]i5ce ( ,?omasius47 ,,philia3 ,! s\l is a?ir/ ,to dr9k ( ! light ,:i* fl[s f ! worlds1 ,an all-c>+ w ,hides close f mank9d4 ,b eag]ly seeks ,! _s to he> ,! language div9e ,:i* wisdom 9 love ,do? hide f ! he>t4 ,= dang] surr\nds ,! ?\ghts t w\ld se>* ,9 realms ( ! s\l1 ,:]e secret ?+s rule ,! s5ses f f>4 ,,a/rid3 ,yet s\ls are enl>g$1 ,:i* foll[ ! light ,& "w ?r\gh ! worlds ,:i* bold _s-sight ,reveals to mank9d4 ,! _s do? /rive ,enraptur$ to live ,9 realms ( ! gods ,:i* wisdom b5ign ,makes kn[n to ! se]4 ,!re my/]ies beckon ,! bold ke5 desire ,to w9 ^? new worlds ,:i* f> f man's ?\ght ,deep secrets conceal4 ,,luna3 ,x rip5s ! s\l ,to picture ! sight ,:5ce p[]s w spr+ =? ,:i* w1 reft ( fe>1 ,do? k9dle 9 man4 ,! ransom+ p[]s ,f primeval dep?s ,br+ magical might ,t s5se _c "k1 ,close b>ri]$ 9 e>?4 ,& traces are !re ,t ea* se>*+ s\l ,may f9d out ! gate ,fa/ clos$ by ! gods ',ga9/ err+ desire4 ,,! ,,voice ,,( ,,consci5ce 7invisible73 ,n[ tott] ?y ?\ghts ,9 ,be+'s abyss2 ,& :at 0 l5t z help to !m1 ,?\ n[ ha/ lo/4 ,& :at %one z ! sun = !m ,= !e is qu5*$4 ,alone 9 cosmic dep?s ?\ w&]e/1 ,:i* m5 intoxicat$ ) desire ,w\ld seek to w94 ,?\ tremble/ 9 ! fundam5ts ( gr[? ,:]e m5 mu/ le>n to be b]eft ( all ,com=t ( s\l4444 7,! la/ words run /raight on into ! foll[+ ones spok5 by ,m>ia1 :o is /ill hidd5 by ! ,_s-=ms & _c be se54 ,%e speaks at fir/ 9 a gho/ly inw>d voice47 ,,m>ia3 ,s bl5d ?y s\l ,to p[]s ( love ,:i* once c\ld p5etrate h] ) ! hope ,( liv+ w>m?1 ,:i* once c\ld all h] w illum9ate ,) _s-light4 ,rescue f lonel9ess ,! p[]s ( he>t t seek ,& feel ! ne>ness ( ?y fri5d ,9 ! d>kness ( ?y /rife4 7,! ,_s-=ms vani% ) ! cl\d ( light4 ,m>ia becomes visible 9 h] old place4 ,m>ia & ,?omasius are alone1 /&+ opposite ea* o!r4 ,f n[ onw>ds ! exp]i5ces are on ! physical plane47 ,,?omasius 7r\s+ himself f deep m$itation73 ,:]e 0 ,i ev5 n[8 ,my p[]s ( s\l ,unveil$ ! conflict ( my inn]-self2 ,! consci5ce ( ! _w reveal$ to me ,:at ,i _h lo/2 & !n z bless+ came ,! voice ( ,love )9 ! d>ksome realm4 ,,m>ia3 ,johannes1 ! companion ( ?y s\l ,may once aga9 be pres5t at ?y side1 ,& foll[ !e to e>?'s primeval dep?s1 ,:]e s\ls c w9 p]ception e'en z gods1 ,by conque/ t de/roye?1 yet acquires ,by bold p]si/5ce life f seem+ dea?4 ,e'en 9 ! ev] empty fields ( ice ,%e may g ) h] fri5d1 :]e he w be ,encircl$ ) ! light :i* spirits =m ,:5 d>kness w\nds & maims ! p[]s ( life4 ,my fri5d1 ?\ /&e/ at t ?re%old n[1 ,:]e man mu/ lose :at once he ha? atta9$4 ,full _m a glance ?\ ha/ t[>d _s-realms ,direct$1 & f !m ha/ ga9$ ! p[] ,t made !e capable ( ?y great "w4 ,x seems to !e1 t n[ t "w is lo/2 ,desire n !n t x 7 o!rwise1 ,= su* desire mu/ rob !e ( all p[] ,( fur!r progress into _s-realms4 ,:e!r ?\ walk'/ 9 error or 9 tru?1 ,?\ can/ keep ev] cle> ! view ahead1 ,:i* lets ?y s\l press fur!r on its pa? ,if ?\ do/ bravely be> necessities ,impos$ ^u !e by ! _s-realm4 ,?is is ! law ( _s-pupil%ip4 ,s long z ?\ /ill h>b\re/ ! wi% ,t :at ha? happ5$ might be o!rwise ,?\ wilt =ego ! p[] :i* mu/ be ?9e1 ,if ?\ do/ wi% to /ay 9 _s-l&4 ,t ?\ ha/ lo/ :at ?\ ere:ile had/ won ,is sure/ sign to !e t ?\ may'/ walk ,9 safety fur!r on ! _s-pa?4 ,h5ce=w>d ?\ mu/ n rely ^u1 ,if ?\ 9 tru? reg>de/ x z lo/1 ,t und]/&+ :i* ?\ ha/ till n[ ,well-us$ z ! crit]ion ( ?y "w4 ,!re=e ?y be+ mu/ become q /ill ,& wait 9 sil5ce = ! _s's gifts2 ,!n only wilt ?\ commune ) ?yself ,:5 ?\ once m ha/ won ?yself anew4 ,(t ha/ ?\ met ! solemn ,gu>dian ,:o on ! ,?re%old keeps s /rict a wat* ,:5 _s-life mu/ "p f _w ( s5se2 ,b pa/ t pres5ce ha/ ?\ nev] be54 ,at sight ( him aye did/ ?\ turn away ,& all ?y view 0 pictur$ f )\t4444 ,ne'er 9 t inn] _w :i* wid5s out ,beyond !e z ! _s-v]ity1 ,h ?y /eps trod3 s mu/ ?\ n[ await ,t :i* %all be reveal$1 :5 at my side ,?\ %alt n only to su* _w draw nigh1 ,b %alt pass o'er ! ,?re%old's b\nd>y4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #c ,9 ,lucif]'s k+dom4 ,a space :i* is n enclos$ by artificial walls1 b by fanta/ic =ms :i* resemble plants1 animals1 etc4 ,all 9 v>i\s brilliant %ades ( r$4 ,9 ! backgr\nd are arrang$ ?ree transp>5cies %[+ ! top ( ,raphael's ',disputa1' ,leon>do's ',la/ ,supp]1' & ,raphael's ',s*ool ( ,a!ns4' ,^! are illum9at$ f ! back ( ! /age :5ev] ,m>ia or ,b5$ictus *all5ges ,lucif]4 ,at o!r times !y are invisible4 ,on ! "r1 ,lucif]'s ?rone4 ,at fir/ only ! s\ls ( ,capesius & ,m>ia are pres5t4 ,aft] a "t ,lucif] appe>s1 & lat] on ,b5$ictus & ,?omasius1 ) 8 e!ric c\nt]p>t or 'd\ble1' & la/ly1 ,!odora4 ,,m>ia3 ,?\1 :o )9 ! realm ( s5se art nam$ ,capesius1 ,i wond] :y x is ,?\ art ! be+ :om ,i meet ! fir/ ,9 ,lucif]'s doma93 'tis dang]\s ,:5 spirits ( ?is place bl[ r\nd "o's head4 ,,capesius 79 a/ral g>b73 ,o speak n to me ( ,capesius ,:o 9 ! k+dom ( ! ,e>? ere:ile ,/rove ?r\gh a life :i* he ha? long s9ce kn[n ,0 b a dream4 ,:il/ !re be b5t 8 m9d ,^u su* ?+s z ev] come to pass ,z "t /reams on4 ,& he _h set himself ,9 t way to discov] all ! p[]s ,?r\gh :i* mank9d fulfils its _s-life4 ,:at ?us he came to "k ab\t ^? p[]s ,he tri$ to keep deep fa/5$ 9 8 s\l4 ,n[ only 9 ?is realm "o und]/&s ,to judge aright ! k he pursu$4 ,he ?\ght ! pictures he possess$ 7 true ,& c\ld reveal to him reality2 ,b1 view$ f "h1 !y cle>ly %[ !mselves ,z naught b empty dreams1 :i* ,_s-h&s ,h wov5 r\nd ab\t weak m5 ( ,e>?4 ,!y _c be> ! cold cle> light ( tru?4 ,!y w\ld be utt]ly afraid & /unn$ ,if !y %\ld le>n h[ all ! c\rse ( life ,is turn$ by spirits aft] _! ideas4 ,,m>ia3 ,?\ speake/ z ,i've only he>d ^? speak ,:o ne'er h be5 inc>nate on ! ,e>?4 ,!y tell y ,e>? ha? no significance1 ,t 9 ! univ]se its "w is small4 ,b he :o ha? belong$ to realms ( ,e>? ,& owes to x ! be/ p[]s t he ha?1 ,w h a diff]5t tale to tell !re(4 ,he f9ds important _m ?reads ( fate ,:i* b9d ,e>?'s life to t ( all ! worlds4 ,e'en ,lucif] :o works "h ) su* p[] ,mu/ keep 8 gaze fix$ fa/ ^u ! ,e>?1 ,& seek to turn m5's de$s 9 su* a way ,t _! results may rip5 8 own s\l4 ,he kn[s he'd fall a victim to ! d>k ,if he c\ld f9d no booty on ! ,e>?1 ,& s 8 fate is b\nd up ) t sph]e4 ,s too1 ) ^? :o dwell 9 o!r worlds4 ,& :5 ! human s\l c cle>ly see ,! cosmic goal1 :i* ,lucif] desires1 ,& c comp>e ) x :at ^? p[]s wi% ,:o h him z oppon5t to _! aims1 ,!n w %e "k t he c be de/roy$ ,?r\gh conque/s :i* %e ga9s o'er h] own self4 ,,capesius3 ,! human be+ :o "h talks ) !e ,?9ks t fate dreadful1 :i* compels him n[ ,to we> a body r\nd him2 :i* ha? yet ,! brea? ( life & keeps its e>?ly =m1 ,al?\gh ! _s ha? no m control4 ,at su* a "t ?is _s feels inde$ ,t worlds1 he values1 fall at "o fi]ce bl[4 ,he feels himself )9 a prison-h\se ,n>r[ & horrible ) naught all r\nd4 ,remembrance ( ! life t he pass$ ?r\gh ,seems1 z x 71 ext+ui%$ f 8 s\l4 ,at times he feels aw>e ( human s\ls1 ,b :at !y say he _c und]/&2 ,he only cat*es "s especial words ,:i* lift !mselves f out ! g5]al talk1 ,& br+ remembrance ( ! lovel9ess ,:i* he c gaze on 9 ! ,_s-realms4 ,he's 9 8 body !n1 & yet is n2 ,& lives )9 himself a life he fe>s ,:5 he beholds x f ?is region "h3 ,& he is long+ = ! "t to come ,:5 f ?is body he w be set free4 ,,m>ia3 ,! body :i* is prop] to ,e>?-s\ls ,be>s 9 itself ! means to recreate ,9 l(ty pictures lovel9ess sublime3 ,:i* pictures1 ev5 if _! sub/ance n[ ,seems b a %ad[ 9 ! human s\l1 ,are yet ! buds :i* 9 ! future worlds ,w op5 out to blossom & to fruit4 ,s ?r\gh 8 body man may s]ve ! gods4 ,& 8 s\l's life do? %[ 9 its true light ,only :5 9 8 body he do? f9d ,! p[] to give 8 ,i reality4 ,,capesius3 ,ah1 utt] n t ^w 9 front ( him ,:o /&s be=e !e n[ 9 ,_s-realms ,& on ! ,e>? is call$ ,capesius4 ,he fa9 w\ld flee away :5 t ^w s\nds1 ,s fi]ce x burns him "h4 ,,m>ia3 ,s ?\ do/ hate ,t :i* fir/ gives true be+ unto m58 ,h[ can/ ?\ come to live )9 ?is realm ,if s appall+ seems t ^w to !e8 ,= no "o c arrive z f> z ?is ,:o ha? n fac$ ! nature ( t ^w4 ,,capesius3 ,he :o appe>s to !e ha? (t5 /ood ,be=e great ,lucif] :o rules ?is realm4 ,& ,lucif] ha? made x cle> to him ,t only s\ls1 :o consci\sly make use ,( p[]s t f _! e>?ly bodies come1 ,c h>m ! realm :i* do? obey 8 w4 ,^? s\ls h[ev] :o g ?r\gh _! life ,)9 ! body1 z x 7 9 swoon1 ,& yet already h clairvoyant p[]1 ,^! only le>n 9 ,lucif]'s doma91 ,& _c cause x h>m 9 any way4 ,,m>ia3 ,i "k t 9 ^! realms ( ,_s-life ',tis n by words1 b sight1 t "o do? le>n4 ,:at 9 ?is mom5t ,i h come to see ,because ( ?9e appe>ance to me "h1 ,w lat] %[ itself )9 my s\l ,z progress 9 my _s-pupil%ip4 ,,capesius3 ,"h 'tis n only tea*+ t "o ga9s2 ,duties are also %[n "o 9 ?is place4 ,?\ ha/ "h spok5 ) ! s\l ( him ,:o calls himself ,capesius on e>?4 ,! _s-glances into =m] lives ,t are accord$ !e1 w %[ to !e ,?\ owe/ mu* ?r\gh ,k>ma unto him4 ,!re=e ?\ %\ld/ petition ,lucif] ,t he1 ! great ,light-,be>]1 %\ld all[ ,capesius to gu>d !e on ! ,e>?4 ,?\ kn[e/ ?r\gh ?y wisdom well en\gh ,:at ?\ can/ d = him1 s t he may ,be l$ aga9 to !e 9 lat] lives ,s t ?r\gh !e ! debt may be wip$ out4 ,,m>ia3 ,& s ?is duty :i* ,i hold s de> ,mu/ be fulfill$ ?r\gh p[] f ,lucif]8 ,,capesius3 ,?\ do/ desire ?is duty to fulfil1 ,& t c only be ?r\gh ,lucif]4 ,look6 ,"h he comes1 ! ,_s ( ! ,light4 7,lucif] appe>s &1 9 ! c\rse ( 8 spee*1 ,b5$ictus47 ,,lucif]3 ,m>ia1 ?\ art ask+ at my ?rone ,self-k = t v human s\l ,:o /&e? ne> !e 9 ! life on ,e>?4 ,x _c le>n to "k itself aright ,except by gaz+ deep into myself2 ,& t x w a*ieve )\t ?9e aid4 ,h[ can/ ?\ ?9k t ,i w\ld grant to !e ,all t ?\ may/ desire = ?is ?y fri5d8 ,?\ name/ ,b5$ictus z ?y guide1 ,:o is my /rong oppon5t on ! ,e>?1 ,l5d+ unto m9e enemies 8 /r5g?4 ,already ha? he /ol5 mu* f me4 ,johannes cut himself adrift f him ,& plac$ himself b5ea? my guid+ h&4 ,he _c yet inde$ see my true self ,because he ha? n yet ! se]'s full p[]4 ,he w atta9 x lat] ?r\gh myself1 ,& !n he w entirely be m9e own4 ,b ,i comm& !e n to speak a ^w ,t might apply to him 9 any way ,s long z ?\ do/ /& be=e my ?rone4 ,any su* ^w w\ld burn me 9 ?is place4 ,"h words are de$s1 & de$s mu/ foll[ !m2 ,b :at might foll[--f su* words ( ?9e-- ,x mu/ n be---- ,,b5$ictus3 ,?\ mu/ give e> to h]4 ,= :]e words h an equal p[] ) de$s ,!y come 9 consequ5ce ( =m] de$s4 ,! de$ is done t conqu]s ,lucif]4 ,m>ia is my _s-pupil true4 ,i c\ld direct h] to t po9t1 :5ce %e ,c\ld recognize ! highe/ _s-task1 ,:i* same %e w mo/ c]ta9ly fulfil4 ,& 9 fulfill+ x %e w = sure ,build 9 ,johannes p[] & balm to heal1 ,:i* w release him f ?y k+dom's grip4 ,m>ia c>ries deep )9 h] s\l ,a solemn holy v[ :i* do? awake ,su* heal+ p[]s 9 progress ( ! worlds4 ,soon wilt ?\ he> all ?is put into words1 ,b if ) p[]ful ?\ght ?\ w\ld/ suppress ,& veil ! rays ( light ?r\gh :i* ?\ ga9/ ,! magic p[] to /rive aga9/1 & w9 ,! victory o'er all t selfhood means1 ,i ?9k t !n ?\'lt glimpse ! heal+ rays1 ,:i* w 9 future %9e ) su* a /r5g? ,t !y w draw ,johannes to _! realm1 ,by _! all-p[]ful love4 ,,m>ia3 ,johannes soon ,w "h appe>2 & yet 9 su* a =m ,z e>?ly s\ls w\ld recognize z !irs1 ,w come t be+1 :o )9 ! man ,lies hid z dual p]sonality4 ,& if ,johannes c\ld b recognize ,!e z ?\ seeme/ to 8 e>?ly =m ,x c\ld n br+ to him all he requires ,to help him 9 ! progress ( 8 s\l4 ,?\ %alt v\*safe to him ?is d\ble n[ ,= him to use ^u ^? _s-pa?s ,o'er :i* ,i %all 9 future guide 8 /eps4 ,,lucif]3 ,johannes !n mu/ /& be=e me n[4 ,i feel full well ! p[] :i* comes f !e2 ,x ha? oppos$ me s9ce ! ,e>? began4 7,ent] ,johannes ,?omasius & 8 ,e!ric ,c\nt]p>t f diff]5t sides ( ! /age at ! same mom5t1 & meet face to face47 ,,?omasius3 ,o m9e own ,lik5ess1 up till n[ ?\ ha/ ,%[n ?yself to me only t ,i might ,be fright5$ at ! sight ( m9e own self4 ,i _c und]/& !e mu* z yet2 ,i only "k t ?\ do/ guide my s\l4 ',tis ?\ !n :o do/ baulk me ( free life ,& do/ prev5t me f due cognizance ,( :at ,i really am4 ,n[ mu/ ,i he> ,!e speak 9 front ( ,lucif]1 to see ,:at ,i 9 future ye>s %all yet a*ieve4 ,,?omasius' ,,d\ble3 ',tis true ,i (t5 0 all[$ to come ,& br+ ,johannes k ( himself4 ,b ,i c\ld only "w 9 ^? s\l dep?s1 ,:i* /ill are hidd5 f 8 consci\sness4 ,my life )9 him ha? = "s long "t ,be5 subject to consid]able *ange4 ,m>ia us$ to /& close to 8 side4 ,he ?\ght h] b\nd 9 _s to himself2 ,i %[$ him t ! true guides ( 8 s\l ,7 only passion & impulsiv5ess4 ,he c\ld b ?9k ( ?is z "s reproa*1 ,b ?\ c\ld/ %[1 ,o ,light-,be>] sublime1 ,to s5sual t5d5cies ! way by :i* ,!y be/ might s]ve ! _s-purposes4 ,johannes f ,m>ia _h to "p1 ,& give himself =?) to e>ne/ ?\ght ,:i* ha? ! p[] to purify m5's s\ls4 ,:at f 8 purity ( ?\ght /ream$ =? ,fl[$ also into me1 & ,i 0 *ang$4 ,i felt 8 purity )9 myself4 ,n\ght ne$ he fe> f me1 if he %\ld n[ ,feel once m drawn t[>d ,m>ia's s\l4 ,b he belongs1 z yet1 to ?y doma91 ,& at ?is mom5t ,i dem& him back4 ,= he c\ld n[ exp]i5ce myself1 ,unless ?\ w'/ to misdirect 8 s5se4 ,he ne$s me n[1 t f me !re may fl[ ,into 8 ?\ght ) mighty consci\s /r5g? ,bo? w>m? ( s\l & also p[] ( he>t4 ,!n once m %all he f9d himself z man4 ,,lucif]3 ,i c\nt ?y /riv+ good4 ,yet c ,i n ,grant to !e all t ?\ do/ ask ( me4 ,= %\ld ,i give !e to ,johannes n[ ,9 t same =m :]e9 9 =m] ye>s ,?\ did/ appe> be=e 8 m9d & s\l1 ,he w\ld at pres5t only give 8 love ,to ?9k+ & to k cold & b>e2 ,& all w>m individuality ,w\ld seem unfeel+1 mean+less & dead4 ,x is n ?us my p[] mu/ fa%ion him4 ,?r\gh me he mu/ discov] 9 himself ,8 liv+ p]sonality & self4 ,i mu/ trans=m !e1 if ! ?+ t's "r ,%all come =? = 8 heal? & progress n[4 ,i h a long "t s9ce prep>$ = all ,t n[ %all cle>ly %[ itself 9 !e4 ,9 future ?\ wilt seem ano!r man4 ,johannes w no m ,m>ia love1 ,z he ha? lov$ h] 9 ! days gone by4 ,yet none ! less he'll love1 ) all ! /r5g? ,& all ! passion he once gave to h]4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,! glori\s "w 9 :i* we've ga9$ success ,?\ w\ld/ n[ turn unto ?9e own acc\nt4 ,?\ ha/ ,johannes ?r\gh 8 p[] ( he>t ,m>k$ = ?9e own "o day2 & yet ?\ see/ ,t ?\ mu/ make ! fett]s /rong] /ill ,if ?\ w\ld/ keep 8 be+ = ?yself4 ,8 he>t w be b5ea? 8 _s's rule-- ,if t is s !n all ! k-"w ,:i* he on ,e>? accompli%$1 mu/ be giv'n ,9 future1 = _! own1 to ^? great ,p[]s ,:i* ?\ ha/ f\ght aga9/ s9ce ,"t began4 ,if ?\ succe$'/ 9 l[]+ t love ,:i* n[ ,johannes = ,m>ia feels ,& *ang+ x by cunn+ to ! lu/ ,:i* ?\ do/ n[ require = ?9e own ends1 ,!n w he turn ! good he did on ,e>?1 ,to evil ends f out ! ,_s-worlds4 ,,m>ia3 ,!n he may yet be sav$8 ',tis n decre$ ,t he mu/ fall a victim to ! p[]s ,t want to ga9 8 "w n[ = !mselves8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,x w\ld be s if all ! ,p[]s rema9$ ,j z at pres5t !y h =m$ !mselves2 ,b if at ! "r h\r ?\ do/ all[ ,?y v[ to take effect 9 ?9e own s\l ,^? p[]s mu/ *ange _! c\rse 9 future times4 ,,lucif]3 ,s "w1 compell+ p[]s1 ,ye elem5tal sprites1 ,feel n[ y\r ,ma/]'s p[]2 ,& smoo? = me ! way1 ,t leads f realms ( ,e>? ,t s !re may draw ne> ,to ,lucif]'s doma9 ,:ate'er my wi% desires ,:ate'er obeys my w4 7,!odora appe>s47 ,,!odora3 ,:o calle? me to realms s /range to me8 ,i l x n1 unless ! _w ( gods ,reveals itself 9 love unto my s\l1 ,& gl[+ w>m? entw9+ r\nd my he>t ,draws _s-spee* f out m9e inmo/ s\l4 ,,?omasius' ,,d\ble3 ,ah1 h[ ?\ do/ trans=m my v life6 ,?\ ha/ appe>$1 & "h am ,i1 a man ,:o n[ c only "w :5 fill$ by !e4 ,johannes %all1 ?r\gh me1 be n[ ?9e own1 ,& f h5ce=w>d ?\ %alt h ! love ,:i* once s fe>ful & s radiant ,0 wre/$ = ,m>ia f 8 he>t4 ,he saw !e ye>s ago1 b did n !n ,feel all ! w>m? ( love :i* 0 to gr[ ,9 secret 9 ! dep?s ( 8 own s\l4 ,n[ x w rise1 & fill him full ( p[]1 ,& turn 8 ?\ghts entirely to ?yself4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,! crucial mom5t is arriv+ n[1 ,8 /ronge/ p[] ha? ,lucif] let loose3 ,m>ia1 all ! tra9+ ( ?y s\l ,?\ mu/ put =? 9 /r5g? to vanqui% him4 ,,m>ia3 ,o ,be>] ( t ,light1 :i* w\ld conf9e ,love only to ! s]vice ( ! self2 ,?\ ha/ f ,e>?'s beg9n+ grant$ m5 ,k1 :5 !y1 /ill guid$ by ! gods1 ,obey$ ! _s1 kn[+ n\ght ( self4 ,b s9ce t "t ea* s\l ( man ha? be5 ,! place 9 :i* ?\ fighte/ 'ga9/ ! gods4 ,yet n[ ! times are com+1 :i* mu/ br+ ,de/ruction on ?yself & on ?y realms4 ,a ?9k] bold 0 able to release ,sci5ce f all ?y gifts 9 su* a way ,t unto mank9d's gods x gave itself4 ,b ?\ do/ try once m to get ! p[]s1 ,:i* = ! gods are de/9$1 = ?yself4 ,because ,johannes ?r\gh 8 "w ha? n[ ,depriv$ !e ( t k1 ) ^: fruit ,?\ f ! fir/ deceiv$'/ all mank9d1 ,s n[ ?\ w\ld'/ deceive him1 ?r\gh t love ,:i*1 %\ld he foll[ out 8 de/9$ pa? ,= ,!odora he %\ld nev] feel4 ,?\ fa9 w\ld/ conqu] ,wisdom n[ by ,love1 ,z once 'ga9/ ,love ?\ did/ by ,wisdom fight4 ,b "k full well t 9 ,m>ia's he>t1 ,) :i* %e n[ oppose? ?y designs1 ,! _s-pupil%ip ha? plant$ p[]s ,to keep f> (f1 = ev]1 all self-love ,f ,k4 ,nev] f ?is h\r w ,i ,all[ myself to be possess$ by joy ,su* z m5 feel :5 ?\ghts gr[ ripe )94 ,i'll /eel my he>t to s]ve z sacrifice ,s t my m9d c always only ?9k ,9 su* a way t ?r\gh my ?\ghts ,i may ,(f] ! fruits ( ,k to ! gods4 ,my sacr$ s]vice %all su* ,k be1 ,& :at ,i ?us effect )9 myself ,%all o'er ,johannes p[]fully out/ream1 ,& (t1 9 future1 :5 )9 8 he>t ,^! words are :isp]$ f ?yself to him3 ',man's human nature %all ?r\gh love f9d out ,:at gives /r5g? to 8 p]sonality4' ,!n %all my he>t ?is p[]ful answ] give3 ',once did/ ?\ he> ^! words1 :5 ,e>? began1 ,& !re did/ %[ =? signs ( ,wisdom's fruit1 ,! fruits ( love c only come to man ,:5 !y are br\ght to him f realms div9e4' ,,lucif]3 ,i mean to fight4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,& fight+1 s]ve ! gods4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #d ,a *e]ful p9k room 9 ! home ( ,/rad] & 8 wife ,!odora4 ,"o notices by ! arrangem5t t !y use x z a room 9 common1 :]e !y c>ry on _! v>i\s works4 ,on 8 table !re are me*anical models2 on h]s ?+s to d ) my/ic /udies4 ,! two are hold+ a conv]sation :i* %[s t !y are absorb$ 9 ! fact t x is ! sev5? anniv]s>y ( _! w$d+ day4 ,,/rad]3 ',tis sev5 ye>s today s9ce ?\ becam'/ ,! lov$ & de> companion ( my life ,& also unto me a s\rce ( light1 ,:i* %one ^u a life :i* =m]ly ,0 ?reat5$ only ) approa*+ d>k4 ,9 _s-life ,i 0 a />v+ man ,:5 ?\ did/ fir/ /& at my side & give ,t :i* ! _w _h aye )held f me4 ,= long ye>s _h ,i /riv5 e>ne/ly ,to probe ! dep?s ( sci5ce ) my m9d ,& f9d ! wor? ( life & goal ( man4 ,"o day ,i cle>ly _h to recognize ,t all ?is /riv+ _h be5 q 9 va9 ,had/ ?\ n %[n t man's _s seeks ,h[ to reveal itself ?r\gh c]ta9 ?+s ,:i* %unn$ my k & my eag] ?\ght4 ,i met !e !n among/ t company ,:]e ,b5$ictus 0 ! guide ( all1 ,& li/5$ to ?y revelations !re4 ,lat] ,i saw h[ 9 ,?omasius ,! _s-pupil%ip c\ld "w ) p[] ,)9 ! human s\l4 ,:at ?us ,i saw ,robb$ me ( fai? 9 sci5ce & good s5se1 ,& yet x %[$ me no?+ at t "t ,:i* really seem$ to me intellig5t4 ,i turn$ away f all ! realm ( ?\ght ,& w5t on liv+ 9 an aimless way ,s9ce life _h ceas$ to be ( wor? to me4 ,i gave myself to te*nique t x might ,br+ me oblivion & =getfulness1 ,& liv$ a life ( torm5t1 till once m ,i met !e1 = ! second "t2 & !n ,our fri5d%ip soon grew deep & ripe = love4 ,,!odora3 ,x is b natural1 t on ?is day ,remembrance ( ^? old times %\ld aga9 ,/& out s vividly be=e ?y s\l4 ,i also feel a ne$ 9 m9e own he>t ,to look back once aga9 ^u ^? days ,:5 we 7 drawn toge!r 9 life's bond4 ,i felt ! con/ant /r5g!n+ at t "t ,)9 me ( ! p[] :i* made my s\l ,able = k f ! _s-worlds4 ,& "u ,felix ,balde's noble lead ,?is p[] grew on !nce=w>d to t height ,at :i* x /ood j sev5 ye>s ago4 ,ab\t t "t ,i met ,capesius ,"o day 9 ,felix' lovely woodl& home4 ,a long life _h he sp5t 9 deep rese>* ,& won 8 way to _s-pupil%ip4 ,he greatly wi%$ to be all[$ to le>n ,my way ( gaz+ on ! _s-_w4 ,s aft] t ,i sp5t mu* "t ) him4 ,& 9 8 h\se ,i *anc$ to meet ) !e ,& c\ld br+ heal+ to ?y m5tal w\nds4 ,,/rad]3 ,& !n ! true light %one into my s\l ,:i* long _h only gaz$ ^u ! d>k4 ,i saw at la/ :at _s is1 9 tru?4 ,?\ l$d'/ me on 9 su* a way to see ,:at 0 disclos$ to !e f high] worlds1 ,t e d\bt might swiftly disappe>4 ,all ?is at t "t work$ s mu* on me ,t fir/ ,i ?\ght ( !e z no?+ else ,except a m$ium = ! _s's "w4 ,x 0 a long :ile e'er ,i recogniz$ ,t n my m9d alone hung on ?y words1 ,:i* did reveal to x its true abode2 ,b t my he>t 0 tak5 captive too ,& c\ld no long] live )\t !e ne>4 ,,!odora3 ,!n did/ ?\ tell me t :i* ?\ did/ feel ,& all ?y words 7 9 s /range a =m2 ,x seem$ z if ?\ nev] had/ "o ?\ght ,t all ! long+ dwell+ 9 ?y he>t ,c\ld ev5 hope x might be satisfi$4 ,?y words %[$ cle>ly t x 0 advice ,t ?\ wa/ seek+ f ?y si/]-s\l4 ,?\ spak/ ( help :i* ?\ did/ !n require ,& ( ! /r5g!n+ ( ?y p[]s ( s\l ,:i* o!rwise mu/ keep !e prison-b\nd4 ,,/rad]3 ,t my s\l's mess5g] c\ld be by fate ,de/9$ to be companion ( my life ,lay v f> f all ,i _h 9 m9d ,:51 seek+ help1 ,i %[$ my he>t to !e4 ,,!odora3 ,& yet ^? v words :i* cut adrift ,?y he>t f m9e at fir/1 soon w5t to prove ,t all ( ?is c\ld n be o!rwise-- ,he>ts (t5 h to po9t ! way to fate4 ,,/rad]3 ,& :5 ?y he>t pron\nc$ ! fateful ^w ,my s\l 0 flood$ o'er ) waves ( life ,:i*1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n feel1 ,i knew 7 !re2 ',twas n till late1 :5 my memory ,rose f ! dep?s ( my subconsci\s s\l1 ,t !y fulfill$ !mselves 9 rays ( light4 ,i c\ld "k all1 f :at my mem'ry taught1 ,b c\ld n live x !n1 because s mu* ,/ill held me f> ap>t f _s-life4 ',twas !n inde$ ,i fir/ became aw>e ,( _s 9 close contact ) my s\l4 ,ne'er h ,i felt l t aga92 & yet ,t k gave to me a c]ta9ty ,t ha? illum9at$ all my life4 ,& !n fl[$ on ^! sev5 wondr\s ye>s4 ,i le>n$ to feel h[ e'en me*anic skill ,:i* n[ ,i /udy1 is enri*$ by s\ls ,^: attitude t'w>d _s-life is "r4 ',twas ?r\gh ! _s-p[] :i* ?\ c\ld/ give ,& :i* made su* dem&s ^u my life ,t ,i 0 able to look out beyond ,! /rife = p[]1 & !nce q sudd5ly ,z if x _h be5 prompt$1 !re appe>$ ,be=e my wond]+ _s t new "w ,f :i* we n[ may d>e to hope s mu* ,& 9 ?y light ,i felt )9 my s\l ,! full awak5+ ( all ^? p[]s ,:i* w\ld h p]i%$1 _h ,i liv$ alone4 ,?is c]ta9ty ( life :i* ,i _h won ,let me /& upright !n1 j at t "t ,:51 9 su* />tl+ wise1 ,?omasius ,condemn$ be=e ! ,rose ,cross bro!rhood ,! "w ( 8 own bra91 & ca/ himself ,adrift1 ) judgm5t h>d1 j at t h\r ,:i* c\ld h br\ght him to 8 life's full height4 ,?is inn] c]ta9ty c\ld hold me fa/ ,:5 all ! out] _w seem$ to reveal ,naught b a mass ( contradict+ facts4 ,?r\gh !e alone h ,i ga9$ all ?is p[]4 ,! _s-revelation :i* ?\ gav'/ ,br\ght me ! s5se ( k ,i _h won2 ,& :5 ! revelation came no m ,?\ /ill did/ /ay my /r5g? & light ( s\l4 ,,!odora 79 a brok5 s5t5ce1 z if m$itat+ deeply73 ,!n :5 ! revelation came no m 444 ,,/rad]3 ',tis t :i* (t5 made me sorr[ful4 ,i wond]$ if 'tw]e n deep pa9 to !e ,to lose ?y se]ess' p[] ( second-sight1 ,& :e!r ?\ did/ suff] sil5tly1 ,le/ ,i %\ld grieve3 & yet ?y temp]am5t ,%[$ ?\ c\ld/ be> ) calmness fate's decree4 ,b lately ?\ ha/ seem$ to me to *ange1 ,joy no m /reams f !e z h]et(ore ,& ?9e eye's gl[+ light beg9s to fade4 ,,!odora3 ,inde$ x c\ld n be deep pa9 to me ,:5 _s-revelation disappe>$4 ,my fate _h only *ang$ my way ( life2 ,:i* ,i mu/ ne$s accept ) pati5ce calm4 ,b n[ 'tis born once m1 & br+s great grief4 ,,/rad]3 ,?is is ! fir/ "t 9 ^! sev5 ye>s ,i _c fa?om ,!odora's m9d2 ,= ea* exp]i5ce ( _s-life ,0 su* a s\rce ( inw>d joy to !e4 ,,!odora3 ,q diff]5t is ! revelation n[4 ,at fir/1 z !n1 ,i feel myself con/ra9$ ,to drive away all ?\ght t is m9e own2 ,b :]e1 be=e1 aft] "s little "t ,:5 ,i a*iev$ ?is inw>d empt9ess ,a g5tle light did hov] r\nd my s\l ,& _s-pictures wi%$ to =m !mselves2 ,!re come n[ unse5 feel+s ( disgu/2 ,:i* come 9 su* a way t ,i am sure ,! p[] ,i feel )9 comes f )\t-- ,!n fe> ,i _c bani% p\rs itself ,into my life & gov]ns all my s\l-- ,& gladly w\ld ,i flee f t dread ,%ape ,t is invisible1 & yet abhorr$4 ,x tries to rea* me ) its evil w ,& ,i c only hate :at is reveal$4 ,,/rad]3 ,) ,!odora 'tis n possible4 ,!y say t :at "o ?us lives ?r\gh1 is b ,! mirror$ work+ ( "o's own s\l-p[]s4 ,yet ?y s\l c\ld n %[ su* ?+s z ^!4 ,,!odora 7pa9fully1 sl[ly1 z if reflect+73 ,i "k inde$ t su* ideas are held-- ,!re=e ) all ! p[] t /ill 0 m9e ,i sank into ! _s-_w & pray$ ,t ^? same be+s :o s (t be=e ,7 k9d to me1 w\ld graci\sly reveal ,h[ ,i c\ld le>n ! cause ( all my pa94 7,n[ foll[ 9 brok5 words73 ,& !n 444 ! %9+ ,light 444 came 444 z be=e ,& =m$ 444 ! image 444 ( an e>?ly man4444 ,x 0 444 ,?omasius 444 ,,/rad] 7pa9fully1 ov]come by ! quick inru% ( feel+s73 444 ,?omasius 444 ,! man 9 :om ,i always h believ$ 444 7,pause1 !n m$itat+ pa9fully47 ,:5 ,i aga9 recall be=e my s\l ,h[ he behav$ t[>ds ! ,my/ic ,league 444 ,h[ ( himself & ,ahriman he spake---- 7,!odora is lo/ 9 contemplation1 & />es blankly into space1 z if h] _s 7 abs5t47 ,,/rad]3 ,o ,!odora 444 :at do/ ?\ 444 see n[4444 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #e ,a r\nd room 9 ! little h\se 9 ! wood1 describ$ 9 ! ,s\l's ,probation1 z ,felix ,balde's home4 ,dame ,balde1 ,felix ,balde1 ,capesius1 ,/rad]1 are se5 seat$ at a table on ! left ( ! /age4 ,lat] appe>s ! ,s\l ( ,!odora4 ,! room is ! natural col\r ( ! wood & has two pretty ar*$ w9d[s4 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,we %all n "k aga9 h] beaute\s self ,nor feel h] radiant nature till we too ,%all rea* "s day ! _w to :i* %e ha? ,s e>ly f our sight be5 /ol'n away4 ,a few %ort weeks ago we /ill c\ld he> ,) joy 9 ?is our h\se ! graci\sness ,t /ream$ s w>mly ?r\gh h] e ^w4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,we bo?1 my wife ,felicia1 & myself1 ,lov$ h] inde$ f out our inmo/ s\l1 ,s c we %>e & und]/& ?y grief4 ,,/rad]3 ,de> ,!odora1 %e s (t5 spoke ,?r\gh\t ! la/ h\rs ( h] life on e>? ,( ,dame ,felicia & ( ,felix too2 ,%e 0 s closely intimate ) all ,t life br\ght to y "h f day to day4 ,n[ mu/ ,i grope my fur!r pa? alone4 ,%e 0 ! sum & mean+ ( my life4 ,& :at %e gave1 c nev] die = me4 ,& yet--%e is n "h---- ,,felix ,,balde3 ,yet c we /ill ,) !e s5d out our lov+ ?\ghts to h] ,into ! _s-worlds1 & ?us unite ,h] s\l ) ours ?r\gh all ! days to come4 ,b1 ,i mu/ own1 x 0 a %ock to u ,:5 we 7 told h] life on ,e>? 0 o'er4 ,^! _m ye>s !re ha? be5 grant$ me ,a gift ( insight :i* do? (t5 %[ ,9 unexpect$ mom5ts q uns\ght ,:at inw>d /r5g? do? lie 9 all m5's lives2 ,9 h] case ha? ?is gift deceiv$ me sore4 ,= ne'er inde$ c\ld ,i ?9k o!rwise1 ,except t ,!odora w\ld be sp>$ ,to sp5d on ,e>? = _m ye>s z yet ,t love ?r\gh :i* %e ha? 9 joy & grief ,%[n h]self helpful to s _m m54 ,,/rad]3 ',tis v /range h[ all ha? come to pass2 ,z long z ,i h kn[n h]1 _h %e liv$ ,ev] ! same s\nd heal?y mode ( life4 ,b s9ce ! "t %e fir/ became aw>e ,( ,some?+ /range1 unkn[n1 t ?reat5$ h] ,& tri$ to ent] & oppress h] m9d2 ,h] s5ses cl\d$ ov] m & m ,& suff]+ p\r$ itself ?r\gh all h] life4 ,h] body's p[]s 7 sapp$1 z "o c\ld see ,by "s great /ruggle 9 h] inmo/ s\l4 ,%e told me1 :5 9 my anxiety1-- ,i pli$ h] (t ) _m que/ion+s-- ,%e felt h]self expos$ to fe>ful ?\ghts ,:i* fright5$ h] & work$ l fire )94 ,& :at %e said besides--'tis t]rible1 ,= :5 %e ralli$ all h] p[]s ( ?\ght ,to f9d ! cause ( all ?is suff]+ ,!re always came be=e h] _s's gaze ,?omasius 444 :om we bo? hon\r$ s1 ,& yet f ?is impression aye rema9$ ,! /ronge/ feel+s :i* spake cle> to h] ,t %e _h cause to fe> ,?omasius4 ,,capesius 7spok5 z 9 a trance73 ,accord+ to ! /rict decree ( ,fate ,?omasius & ,!odora ne'er ,c\ld meet 9 e>?ly passion 9 ?is life4 ',tw\ld be inde$ oppos$ to cosmic laws ,if "o desir$ to make ! o!r feel ,aught t 0 n on _s only bas$4 ,)9 8 he>t ,?omasius do? break ,! /]n decree ( mighty p[]s ( ,fate3 ,t he %\ld nev] h>b\r 9 8 s\l ,?\ghts t might br+ to ,!odora h>m4 ,= he do? feel :at he ought n to feel ,&1 ?r\gh 8 disob$i5ce he do? =m ,e'en n[ ! p[]s :i* c deliv] o'er ,8 future life unto ! realms ( d>k4 ,:5 ,!odora _h be5 =c$ to come ,to ,lucif]1 %e le>nt unconsci\sly ,t ?r\gh ! ,light-be>]1 ,?omasius ,0 fill$ ) s5sual passion = h]self4 ,m>ia1 :o _h be5 by ,fate's decree ,entru/$ ) ,?omasius' _s-life1 ,& ,!odora1 at ! same "t met ,)9 t realm :i* fights aga9/ ! gods-- ,m>ia f ,?omasius _h to "p1 ,& he ?r\gh /r5g? ( ?is false love 0 =c$ ,to be 9 bondage unto ,lucif]4 ,:at ,!odora ?us exp]i5c$ ,became consum+ fire )9 h] s\l ,& work+ fur!r caus$ h] all ?is pa94 ,,/rad]3 ,oh tell u1 ,fa!r ,felix1 :at ?is means4 ,capesius speaks 9 su* a mann] /range ,( ?+s :i* are incompreh5sible2 ,& yet !y fill my s\l ) dread & fe>4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,capesius1 :5 tread+ o'er ! pa?1 ,:i* he ha? f\nd mo/ ne$ful = 8 s\l ,le>ns ev] m & m to ex]cise ,^? special gifts ( _s :i* are 82 ,8 _s lives 9 t\* ) high] worlds ,& passe? by unnotic$ all ^? ?+s ,?r\gh :i* ! s5ses speak unto ! s\l4 ',tis b by habit t he do? p]=m ,all t ha? be5 8 cu/om 9 ?is life4 ,he ev] tri$ to visit 8 old fri5ds ,& likes to :ile away long h\rs ) !m1 ,& yet :5ev] he is at _! side ,8 be+ seems 9 m$itation lo/4 ,b :at he sees 9 _s aye is true ,s f> z m9e own se>*+ ( ! s\l ,c te/ify to prov+ ( ! tru?4 ,& !re=e 9 ?is case ,i d believe ,t ow+ to ^! _s-gifts1 he c\ld ,p]ceive )9 ! dep?s ( 8 own s\l ,! tru? ( ,!odora's de/9y4 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,x is s /range1 he nev] notices ,:at ^? ar\nd him may be speak+ (2 ,x seems 8 s\l is f 8 body loos$ ,& gaze? only on ! _s-_w2 ,& yet "s ^w w (t5 br+ him back ,out ( ?is /range ab/raction1 & he'll tell ,( ?+s t seem to come f _s-realms ,& someh[ be connect$ ) t ^w4 ,ap>t f t :atev] "o may say ,makes no impression on 8 m9d at all4 ,,/rad]3 ,ah6 if he speaks ! tru?--h[ horrible-- 7,!odora's ,s\l appe>s47 ,,!odora',s ,,s\l3 ,capesius ha? be5 all[$ to "k ,( my exi/5ce 9 ! _s-_w3 ,x is ! tru? :i* he makes kn[n to y4 ,we mu/ n let ,?omasius transgress3 ,m>ia ha? already set alight ,! sacrifice ( love 9 h] /rong he>t2 ,& ,!odora f ! _s-heights ,w s5d out rays ( bless+ f ,love's p[]4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,de> ,/rad]1 ?\ mu/ n[ be calm & /ill2 ,%e wants to speak to !e2 ,i und]/& ,! signs %e gives to u3 s n[ att5d4 ,,!odora 7aft] mak+ a movem5t ) h] h& t[>ds ,/rad]73 ,?omasius possesse? second sight2 ,& he w f9d me 9 ! _s-realms4 ,?is mu/ n be until he is set free ,f e>?ly passion 9 8 se>* = me4 ,9 future he w also ne$ ?y help1 ,& t is :at ,i n[ reque/ ( !e4 ,,/rad]3 ,my ,!odora1 :o do/ ev5 n[ ,turn to me z ( old 9 love1 say on ,:at ?\ desire/1 & x %all be done4 7,!odora makes a sign t[>ds ,capesius47 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,t %[s %e _c n[ say any m1 ,b wi%e? u to he> ,capesius speak4 7,!odora vani%es47 ,,capesius 7z 9 a trance73 ,?omasius c ,!odora see1 ,if he do? *oose to use 8 _s-eyes4 ,!re=e h] dea? w n de/roy 9 him ,?is passion :i* is h>mful to himself4 ,yet w he h to act q o!rwise ,?an he w\ld act if ,!odora /ill ,liv$ 9 ! body on ?is e>? ( ours4 ,he w ) passion /rive t[>d ! light ,:i* is reveal$ to h] f _s-heights ,al?\gh %e ha? no consci\sness ( e>?4 ,?omasius is set to w9 t light ,t ?r\gh him ,lucif] may ga9 x too4 ,?is light div9e w\ld !n help ,lucif] ,to keep = ev]more )9 8 realm ,! k :i* ,?omasius acquir$ ,& won = 8 own use ?r\gh e>?ly p[]4 ,= ,lucif]1 s9ce fir/ ! ,e>? began ,ha? ev] s\ght = m5 :o h acquir$ ,wisdom div9e ?r\gh in/9cts t 7 false4 ,he wills n[ to unite pure _s-sight ,) human k1 :i*1 if treat$ ?us ,w\ld turn to evil1 ?\gh 'tw]e good itself4 ,?omasius h[ev] ev5 n[ ,may be turn$ back f ?is 8 evil way1 ,if ,/rad] gives himself to c]ta9 aims ,:i* %all 9 future spiritually guide ,all human k1 t x may approa* ,& jo9 itself to k t's div9e4 ,if he w\ld h ^! aims reveal$1 he mu/ ,z pupil unto ,b5$ictus turn4 7,pause47 ,,/rad] 7to ,felix ,balde73 ,o fa!r ,felix1 give me ?9e advice4 ,ha? ,!odora really tru/$ ?is ,unto ,capesius to tell to me8 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,^! la/ few days ,i h mo/ e>ne/ly ,held conv]se (t5 ) m9e inmo/ self ,to try & to cle> my ?\ghts ab\t ?is man4 ,gladly ,i'll tell !e all ,i "k myself4 ,capesius is liv+ 9 true wise ,! life ( _s-pupil%ip1 al?\gh ,f 8 behavi\r x seems o!rwise4 ,he is already de/9$ by 8 fate ,mu* to accompli% 9 ! _s-life4 ,& only c fulfil ! duties high ,to :i* 8 s\l ha? be5 already call$ ,if he prep>es 8 _s = !m n[4 ,& yet x lay q ne> 8 nature too1 ,in/ead ( seek+ light on _s-pa?s1 ,unto false sci5ce to devote himself1 ,:i* c j n[ make bl9d s _m s\ls4 ,! solemn ,gu>dian on ! ,?re%old grim1 ,:i* m>ks ! _w ( s5se f _s-worlds1 ,_h duties ( a mo/ especial k9d ,:5 to ! gate ,capesius f\nd 8 way4 ,to su* an e>ne/ seek] mu/ ! gate ,ne$s op51 b beh9d him %ut at once4 ,! means he us$ 9 =m] times to w9 ,p[] = himself )9 ! _w ( s5se ,c\ld no m help him 9 ! _s-realms4 ,he be/ prep>es himself = s]vice high ,:i* he "o day mu/ r5d] to mank9d ,:5 he ignores our pres5ce & our talk4 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,!re is b "o ?+ he /ill notices4 ,i mean ! /ories t ,i us$ to tell ,s (t5 to him & ?r\gh :i* he felt ,refre%$ & reawak5$ to new ?\ght ,:5 8 s\l seem$ b]eft ( all ideas4 ,,capesius3 ,su* /ories f9d _! way to _s-l&s ,if 9 ! _s also !y are told4 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,!n1 if ,i c collect myself en\gh ,to speak my /ories out )9 myself ,i'll ?9k ( !e ) love3 s t !y !n ,may also 9 ! _s-l& be he>d4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #f ,a space n circumscrib$ by artificial walls b enclos$ by int]tw9$ plants l trees & /ructures :i* spread out & s5d %oots into ! int]ior4 ,ow+ to natural occurr5ces ! :ole is mov+ viol5tly & is sometimes fill$ ) /orm4 ,! /age is divid$ into two groves1 sep>at$ = a %ort di/ance by a r[ ( trees4 ,! grove on "r ( /age is appropriat$ lat] by ,lucif] & 8 ,spirits1 & ! left grove by ,ahriman & 8 ,spirits4 ,! dance movem5ts are set to music4 ,m>ia & ,capesius are on ! /age z ! curta9 rises2 !n ,b5$ictus1 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna1 ! o!r ,philia1 ,lucif]1 ,ahriman1 & ,creatures :i* move 9 a danc+ fa%ion & :i* repres5t ?\ghts1 la/ly ! ,s\l ( ,dame ,balde4 ,,b5$ictus 7invisible z yet1 only audible73 ,)9 ?y ?9k+1 cosmic ?\ghts d live4 ,,capesius 79 a/ral g>b73 ,!re e*oes ,b5$ictus' noble voice2 ,8 words are r++ 9 ! _s "h1 ,& are ! same z 9 ! book ( life ,are writt5 d[n to aid 8 pupils' "w1 ,:i* s\ls on e>? f9d h>d to und]/& ,& :i* are ev5 h>d] to fulfil4 ,:at "p ( _s-l& is ?is1 :]e s\nd ,! words :i* s]ve to te/ ! s\ls on ,e>?8 ,,m>ia3 ,ha/ ?\ abode s long 9 _s-l& ,9 su* a way t ?\ ha/ le>n$ s mu* ,& yet ?is region is unkn[n to !e8 ,,capesius3 ,:at lives "h 9 its own reality ,s\ls1 v]s$ 9 _s-ways1 c grasp ) ease2 ,ea* ?+ expla9s itself ?r\gh some?+ else4 ,! :ole may /& reveal$ 9 light1 :5 "p ,se5 by itself1 may (t5 /ill seem d>k4 ,b :5 a _s-ess5ce do? unite ,) e>?ly nature to create "s "w1 ,! s\l beg9s to lose h] grasp ( ?+s4 ,& n alone a "p1 b e'en ! :ole ,is (t conceal$ f h] by d>kness deep4 ,:y words :i* come 9 ,b5$ictus' book ,& :i* 7 writt5 = m5's s\ls on ,e>?1 ,%\ld e*o "h1 )9 a place l ?is1 ,t is ! problem :i* do? (f] "h4 ,,b5$ictus 7/ill invisible73 ,)9 ?y feel+1 cosmic =ces play4 ,,capesius3 ,aga9 !re come ! words :i* on ! ,e>? ,did ,b5$ictus to 8 pupils tru/2 ,& "h 9 8 own voice !y e*o =?4 ,!y /ream ?r\gh all ! limitless expanse ,( ?is great realm ar\s+ d>ksome p[]s4 ,,m>ia3 ,i feel already :at ,i mu/ pass ?r\gh ,)9 ! b\ndless spaces ( ?is realm2 ,& ,b5$ictus' ne>ness draws me on4 ,9 ?is place he w let me gaze on ?+s ,incompreh5sible to s\ls on ,e>? ,! :ile !y dwell 9 bodies b\nd by s5se1 ,& e'en :il/ s]v+ _s-pupil%ip4 ,s mu/ ! ma/] br+ !m to ?is place ,:]e words d n dep5d on human spee*1 ,b are impr9t$ on _! s\ls by signs2 ,"h he trans=ms to spee* _w happ5+s-- ,a _w-descriptive language = ! s\l4 ,i'll loose my inmo/ be+ f ! ,e>?1 ,cond5s+ all my p[]s )9 my s\l1 ,& s await :ate'er may be reveal$ ,to indicate my way ?r\gh _s-space4 ,& !n :5 ,i return to life on ,e>? ',twill be a ?\ght :i*1 :5 recall$ w %9e ,z k 9 m9e inmo/ dep?s ( s\l4 ,,b5$ictus 7appe>s f ! backgr\nd73 ,w9 ?\ ?yself 9 p[] ( cosmic ?\ght1 ,lose ?\ ?yself 9 life ( cosmic =ce2 ,?\ %alt f9d e>?ly aims reflect !mselves ,?r\gh ?9e own be+ 9 ! cosmic light4 ,,capesius3 ,s ,b5$ictus is 9 _s "h6 ,p]haps 8 words re-e*o ( !mselves4 ,do? !n ! tea*] br+ ! lore ( e>? ,to vivify & "w 9 _s-realms8 ,b :at c be ! mean+ "h ( words ,:i* he do? use on e>? 9 o!r ways8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,capesius1 ?\ ha/ 9 ?9e e>?-life ,ent]$ )9 my circle1 ?\gh 9 tru? ,?\ ne'er wa/ consci\s ( ?y pupil%ip4 ,,capesius3 ,capesius is n )9 ?is place2 ,& 8 s\l w n he> him spok5 (4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?\ wilt n feel ?\ art ,capesius ,b him 9 _s ?\ %alt see & "k4 ,= !e ! p[]ful "w ( ?\ght ha? n[ ,9 ?y s\l-body cag$ ! _s-life4 ,s t ?y s\l-life c release itself ,f ?\ght's dream-play )9 ?9e e>?ly frame4 ,too weak x felt itself to w&] =? ,f out _w di/ances to dep?s ( s\l2 ,too /rong to gaze at l(ty _s-light ,?r\gh all ! d>kness t surr\nds ! ,e>?4 ,i mu/ accompany ea* "o :o ga9s ,! _s-light f me 9 e>?ly life ,:e!r he kn[s1 or do? n "k1 t he ,came z a _s-pupil to myself4 ,& ,i mu/ lead him fur!r on ^? pa?s ,:i* he 9 _s le>n$ to tread ?r\gh me4 ,?\ ha/ ?r\gh ?y s\l-sight 9 cosmic space ,le>n$ to draw nigh ! _s consci\sly ,s9ce loos$ f body ?\ can/ foll[ x4 ,b1 n yet fre$ f ?\ght1 ?\ can/ n see ,true be+ 9 ! _s-realm z yet4 ,fir/ ?y s5se-body ?\ mu/ lay aside ,b n ! f9e corporeal web ( ?\ght4 ,?\ only can/ p]ceive ! _w 9 tru? ,:5 no?+ ( ?y p]sonality ,rema9s to cl\d ! cle>ness ( ?y sight4 ,he only :o ha? le>n$ to view 8 ?\ghts ,z ?+s outside himself1 e'en z ! se] ,beholds 8 e>?ly =m releas$ f him1 ,c p5etrate to _s v]ities4 ,s look ^u ?is picture t x may ,turn into k ?r\gh clairvoyant p[]s ,?\ghts1 ^: true be+ is built up 9 space ,to =ms1 :i* mirror =? ! ?\ghts ( m54 7,a *e]ful subdu$ light diffuses itself4 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna appe> 9 gl[+ cl\ds47 7,exeunt ,capesius & ,m>ia47 ,,voices 7:i* s\nd toge!r1 spok5 by ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna73 ,let ?\ghts hov] r\nd ,l weav+ ( dreams ,& build !mselves 9 ,to s\ls t are "h2 ,let w t creates ,& feel+ t /irs ,& ?\ght t do? "w ,! dream] ar\se-- 7,:ile ?is s\nds1 ,lucif] approa*es f "o side1 & ,ahriman f ! o!r4 ,!y g to _! ?rones rais$ on ea* side at ! back ( ! /age1 fac+ ! audi5ce2 ,lucif] on ! "r ( ! /age1 ,ahriman on ! left47 ,,lucif] 79 a l\d voice1 emphasiz+ e ^w73 ,)9 ?y w d cosmic be+s "w4 7,on ,lucif]'s side1 be+s ) gold5 hair1 dress$ 9 crimson & radiantly beautiful repres5t+ ?\ghts1 beg9 to move4 ,^! c>ry out1 9 a danc+ fa%ion1 movem5ts :i* repres5t ! =ms ( ?\ght correspond+ to ,lucif]'s words47 ,,ahriman 7speak+ 9 a l\d1 ho>se voice73 ,^! cosmic be+s d b puzzle !e4 7,aft] ^! words ,lucif]'s gr\p is /ill & ! ?\ght-be+s on ,ahriman's side move & c>ry out danc+ movem5ts :i* make =ms correspond+ to 8 words4 ,!y h grey hair & are clad 9 indigo blue1 be+ squ>e 9 build1 & 9 appe>ance di/+ui%$ m by =ce ?an beauty4 ,aft] ?is ! movem5t f bo? gr\ps is c>ri$ on toge!r47 ,,lucif]3 ,)9 ?y feel+ cosmic =ces play4 7,! ?\ght-be+s on ,lucif]'s side repeat _! movem5ts47 ,,ahriman3 ,! cosmic =ces are b mock+ !e4 7,! ?\ght-be+s on ,ahriman's side repeat _! movem5ts1 !n aga9 bo? toge!r47 ,,lucif]3 ,)9 ?y ?9k+ cosmic ?\ght do? live4 7,repetition ( ! movem5ts 9 ,lucif]'s gr\p47 ,,ahriman3 ,! cosmic ?\ght do? b bewild] !e4 7,repetition ( ! movem5ts 9 ,ahriman's gr\p47 7,! movem5ts ( ea* gr\p are !n repeat$ f\r times sep>ately & ?rice toge!r47 7,! ?\ght-be+s vani% left & "r2 ,lucif] & ,ahriman rema93 ,philia1 ,luna1 & ,a/rid advance f ! backgr\nd1 & speak toge!r ! words !y spoke be=e ) ! foll[+ alt]ation47 ,,philia1 ,,etc43 ,?\ghts hov]$ ar\nd ,l weav+ ( dreams ,& built !mselves 9 ,to s\ls t are "h-- ,!n w t creates ,& feel+ t /irs ,& ?\ght t do? "w ,! dream] ar\s$-- 7,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna vani%4 ,ent] ,capesius 9 a/ral g>b1 & aft] he has spok5 a few words ,m>ia jo9s him1 ?\gh at fir/ he _c see h]47 ,,capesius3 ,! s\l lives out h] life )9 h]self3 ,believes %e ?9ks because %e does n see ,?\ghts all spread out 9 space 9 front ( h]-- ,believes %e feels1 because ! feel+s %[ ,no fla% l lightn+ leap+ f ! cl\ds2 ,%e sees ?is realm ( space1 & gaze? on ,! cl\ds above h] 4442 & 7 ?is n s1 ,suppos+ t ! lightn+ 7 to fla%1 ,& n an eye look$ up above to see1 ,%e ne$s mu/ ?9k ! lightn+ 0 9 h]4 ,%e does n see h[ ,lucif] spr+s =? ,f out h] ?\ghts1 & p\rs h] feel+s 91 ,& s believes %e is alone ) !m4 ,:y do? delusion lead h] captive ?us8 ,o s\l1 give answ] to ?yself 444 yet 444 :5ce8 ,f out ?yself8 ,ah1 nay 444 p]haps t1 too1 ,7 answ]$ 444 n by !e 444 b ,lucif]4444 ,,m>ia3 ,& if x 72 :y !n %\ld/ ?\ n seek8 ,g =? into ! deep to f9d x !re4444 ,,capesius3 ,a be+ "h1 :o he>s ! spee* ( s\ls8 ,,m>ia3 ,s\ls are n "h divid$ ea* f ea* ,z :5 )9 ! body !y are p5t4 ,"h ea* s\l he>s itself 9 o!r's spee*4 ,s do/ ?\ only speak unto ?yself ,:5 ,i say3 ',seek ?9e answ] 9 ! deep4' ,,capesius 7hesitat+ly73 ,ah1 9 ! deep !re ?reat5s d>ksome 444 fe>4 ,,m>ia3 ,yea truly1 fe> is !re3 b ask ?yself1 ,z ?\ ha/ =c$ ?y way )9 h] realm ,if %e do? n reveal h]self to !e4 ,ask ,lucif]1 be=e :om ?\ do/ /& ,if on ?y weakness he is p\r+ fe>4 ,,lucif]3 ,:o flees f me w love me all ! same4 ,*ildr5 ( ,e>? h lov$ me f ! fir/ ,& only ?9k t hatr$ is my due4 ,s d !y ev] seek me 9 my de$s4 ,if ,i _h n z ornam5t to life ,s5t beauty to _! s\ls1 !y w\ld long s9ce ,h p9$ away 9 tru?'s cold empty =ms ,?r\gh\t ! long dull progress ( ! ,e>?4 ',tis ,i :o fill ! arti/'s s\l ) p[] ,& :atsoe'er ( beauty m5 h se5 ,ha? _h its prototype )9 my realm-- ,n[ ask ?yself1 if ?\ %\ld/ fe> me /ill4 ,,m>ia3 ,9 ^! doma9s :i* ,lucif] comm&s ,fe> ha? n v]ily h] prop] place4 ,f h5ce he mu/ s5d =? into m5's s\ls ,n fe>1 b wi%es1 z 8 gifts to m54 ,fe> comes f q ano!r realm ( p[]4 ,,ahriman3 ,at bir? ,i 0 ! equal ( ! gods1 ,:o h curtail$ my _m anci5t rights4 ,i wi%$ 9 su* a way to fa%ion m5 ,= ,lucif]1 my bro!r1 & 8 realm1 ,t ea* %\ld be> 8 own _w 9 himself4 ,= ,lucif] z pe] among/ 8 pe]s ,w\ld only %[ himself 9 _s-realms4 ,9 o!rs he b %[s 8 pictur$ =m ,& s c\ld nev] be a "l ( m54 ,i wi%$ to give unto mank9d su* /r5g? ,t !y might gr[ to equal ,lucif]4 ,& _h ,i /ay$ )9 ! realm ( gods ,?is too _h be5 9 primal days fulfill$4 ,! gods h[ev] will$ to rule on ,e>?1 ,& f _! k+dom !y did "o day ?ru/ ,my p[] into ! dep?s ( ! abyss1 ,s t ,i might n make mank9d too /rong4 ,& ?us 'tis only f ?is place ,i d>e ,s5d out my p[]ful /r5g? ^u ! ,e>?4 ,b 9 ?is way my p[] turns into ,,fe>4 7,z ,ahriman f9i%es speak+1 ,b5$ictus appe>s47 ,,capesius3 ,he :o ha? he>d :at bo? ^! two p[]s "h ,spake f _! places out into ! worlds ,may "k f ?is :]e he c look & f9d ,bo? fe> & hatr$ 9 _! own doma9s4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,9 cosmic spee* ?\ %alt p]ceive ?yself2 ,& feel ?yself 9 cosmic p[] ( ?\ght4 ,& z ?\ n[ did/ see outside ?yself ,:at ?\ did/ dream 0 all ?9e inmo/ self1 ,s f9d ?yself1 & %udd] n[ no m ,at t "o ^w ?\ ha/ a "r to use ,to prove ?9e own exi/5ce to ?yself-- ,,capesius3 ,s once m ,i belong to m9e own self ,n[ w ,i seek myself1 because ,i d>e ,to see myself 9 cosmic ?\ght & live4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,& ?\ mu/ add all ?is :i* ?\ ha/ won ,to victories ( old to give ! _w4 7,dame ,balde 9 h] ord9>y dress appe>s 9 ! backgr\nd beside ,b5$ictus47 ,,dame ,,balde 79 a m$itative voice suitable = fairy tales73 ,once on a "t !re liv$ a *ild ( ,god ,:o _h aff9ity ) ^? :o weave ,! ?\ghtful wisdom ( ! _s-realms4 ,?is *ild1 br\ght up by tru?'s almighty ,sire ,grew up )9 8 realm to anci5t /r5g?4 ,& :5 8 body1 radiant ) light1 ,did feel 8 rip5$ w creative /ir ,he (t5 look$ ) pity on ! ,e>? ,:]e s\ls ( m5 7 /riv+ aft] tru?4 ,!n to ! ,sire ( tru? ! *ild w\ld say3 ',! s\ls ( m5 are ?ir/+ = ! dr9k ,:i* ?\ can/ h& to !m f out ?y spr+s4' ,) e>ne/ spee* ! ,sire ( tru? repli$3 ',! spr+s1 ( :i* ,i am appo9t$ gu>d1 ,let light /ream =? f out ! _s-suns2 ,only su* be+s d>e to dr9k ! light ,z ne$ n ?ir/ = air t !y may brea!4 ,!re=e 9 light h ,i br\ght up a *ild ,:o c feel pity = ! s\ls on ,e>? ,& manife/ ! light 'mid/ brea?+ m54 ,s turn & g unto mank9d & br+ ,! light t's 9 _! s\ls to meet my light ,enfill$ ) confid5ce & _s-life4' ,s !n ! %9+ light-*ild turn$1 & w5t ,to s\ls :o keep !mselves alive by brea?4 ,& _m good m5 f\nd he on ! ,e>?1 ,:o (f]$ him ) joy _! s\ls' abode4 ,^! s\ls he turn$ to gaze ) grateful love ,^u _! ,sire :o dwells 9 spr+s ( light4 ,& :5 ! *ild he>d f ! lips ( m5 ,& joy\s m9d ( m51 ! magic ^w ,( fantasy1 he knew himself alive ,dwell+ ) gladness 9 ! he>ts ( m54 ,b "o sad day !re came unto ! *ild ,a man :o ca/ ^u him *ill+ looks4 ',i turn ! s\ls ( m5 on e>? t[>d ,! ,sire ( tru? :o dwells 9 spr+s ( light--' ,?us to ! /range man did ! light-*ild speak-- ,! man repli$3 ',?\ do/ b weave wild dreams ,into m5's spirits1 & deceiv'/ _! s\ls4' ,& s9ce ! day :i* witness$ ?is ev5t ,! *ild :o c br+ light to brea?+ s\ls ,ha? (t5 suff]$ sl&] f mank9d4 7,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna1 & ! ,o!r ,philia appe> 9 a cl\d ( light47 ,,philia3 ,n[ let e s\l ,t dr9ks ( ! light ,awake to full p[] ,9 cosmic expanse4 ,,a/rid3 ,s too let ! _s ,t kn[e? no fe> ,arise 9 full p[] ,9 cosmic doma9s4 ,,luna3 ,let man :o do? /rive ,to rea* to ! heights ,hold firm ) full /r5g? ,to inn]mo/ self4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,let man /ruggle on ,to him :o be>s light ,& op5s out worlds ,:i* quick5 9 m5 ,! s5se ( delight4 ,?is beauty s bright ,awak5$ 9 s\ls1 ,inspir$ to admire1 ,! _s leads on ,to realms ( ! gods4 ,a*ievem5t consoles ,! feel+s t d>e ,! ?re%old to tread1 ,:i* /rictly do? gu>d ',ga9/ s\ls t feel fe>4 ,& en]gy f9ds ,a w t gr[s ripe ,& fe>less do? /& ',=e p[]s t create ,& fa%ion ! worlds4 ,curta9 falls :il/ ,b5$ictus1 ,capesius1 ,m>ia1 ,dame ,balde1 ,lucif]1 & ,ahriman1 & ! f\r ,s\l-=ms1 are /ill 9 _! places4 ,,sc5e #g ,a l&scape compos$ ( fanta/ic =ms4 ,?is picture ( blaz+ fire on "o side ( ! /age ) ru%+ wat] on ! o!r :irl$ into liv+ =ms is int5d$ to sugge/ ! sublime4 ,9 ! c5tre a *asm bel*+ =? fire :i* leaps up into a k9d ( b>ri] ( fire & wat]4 ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old /&s 9 ! c5tre ) flam+ sword erect4 ,8 co/ume is ! conv5tional angelic g>b4 ,! ,gu>dian1 ,?omasius1 ,m>ia1 lat] on ,lucif] & !n ! o!r ,philia4 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,:at un*eck$ wi% do? s\nd )9 m9e e>8 ,s /orm m5's s\ls :5 fir/ approa*+ me ,e'er !y h fully ga9$ tranquillity4 ,x is desire t really leads su* m5 ,& n creative p[] :i* d>es to speak ,s9ce x 9 sil5ce c\ld itself create4 ,! s\ls :i* ?us comport !mselves :5 "h ,i ne$s mu/ relegate aga9 to ,e>?1 ,= 9 ! ,_s-realm !y c b s[ ,confusion1 & d b di/urb ! de$s ,:i* cosmic p[]s h wisely =eorda9$4 ,su* m5 c also injure _! own selves ,:o =m de/ructive passions 9 _! he>ts ,:i* are mi/ak5 = creative p[]s1 ,s9ce !y mu/ take delusion = ! tru? ,:5 e>?ly d>kness no m %elt]s !m4 7,?omasius & ,m>ia appe>47 ,,?omasius3 ,?\ do/ n see ^u ?y ?re%old n[ ,! s\l ( him :o 0 ! pupil once ,( ,b5$ictus1 & came (t to !e1 ,?omasius1 al?\gh ^u ! ,e>? ,x _h to call ,?omasius' =m its own4 ,he came to !e1 8 ?ir/ = k qu5*$ ,& c\ld n be> to h !e ne> to him4 ,he hid 9 8 own p]sonality ,:5 he felt ne> !e1 & ?us (t did see ,worlds :i*1 he ?\ght1 made cle> ! orig9 ,( all exi/5ce & ! goal ( life4 ,he f\nd ! happ9ess ( k !re ,& also p[]s :i* to ! arti/ gave ,t :i* direct$ bo? 8 h& & he>t ,t[>d creation's s\rce1 s t he felt ,!re truly liv$ )9 him cosmic p[]s1 ,:i* held him /eady to 8 arti/'s "w4 ,he did n "k t n\ght be=e him /ood ,9 all t he creat$ ?r\gh 8 ?\ght ,except ! liv+ cont5t ( 8 s\l4 ,l spid]s1 sp9n+ webs ar\nd !mselves ,s did he "w1 & ?\ght himself ! _w4 ,inde$ he once ?\ght t ,m>ia /ood ,oppos$ to him 9 _s1 till he saw ,t picture %e _h grav5 on 8 s\l ,:i* !n z _s did reveal itself4 ,& :5 he 0 all[$ a mom5t's glimpse ,( 8 own be+1 z x really 01 ,he gladly w\ld h fl$ away f self2 ,he ?\ght himself a _s b he f\nd ,he 0 a creature b ( fle% & blood4 ,he le>n$ to "k ! p[] ( ?is same blood2 ',twas !re 9 tru?1 ! re/ 0 b a %ade4 ,blood 0 8 tea*] true2 & ?is alone ,gave him cle> vision1 & reveal$ to him ,:o 0 8 sire & :o 8 si/] de> ,9 long =gott5 ages on ! ,e>?4 ,to blood-relations 8 blood guid$ him4 ,!n did he see h[ /rongly s\ls ( m5 ,mu/ be deceiv$ :5 !y 9 vanity ,w\ld rise to _s f ! life ( s5se4 ,su* ef=t truly b9ds ! s\l m firm ,to s5se-exi/5ce ?an a daily life1 ,dull human dream exi/5ce foll[+4 ,& :5 ,?omasius c\ld view all ?is ,be=e 8 s\l z be+ 8 own /ate ,he gave himself ) vig\r to t p[] ,:i* c\ld n lie to him al?\gh z yet ',twas b reveal$ 9 picture1 = he knew ,t ,lucif] himself is really !re ,e'en if he c b %[ 8 pictur$ =m4 ,! gods desire to draw ne> to mank9d ,?r\gh tru? alone2 b ,lucif]--to him ,x matt]s n if m5 see false or true1 ,he ev] w rema9 ! same himself4 ,& !re=e ,i ackn[l$ge t ,i feel ,i h atta9$ reality :5 ,i ,believe t ,i mu/ se>* & f9d ! s\l ,:i* 9 8 own realm he did b9d to m9e4 7,to ! ,gu>dian47 ,s arm$ ) all ! /r5g? :i* he be/[s ,i mean to pass !e & to p5etrate ,to ,!odora :om ,i "k to be ,)9 ! realm t o'er ?is ?re%old lies4 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,?omasius1 ?9k well :at ?\ do/ "k4 ,:at o'er ?is ?re%old lives is all unkn[n2 ,yet do/ ?\ "k q well all ,i mu/ ask1 ,be=e ?\ can/ set foot )9 ?is realm4 ,?\ mu/ fir/ "p ) _m ( ^? p[]s ,:i* ?\ ha/ won :5 9 ?9e e>?ly frame4 ,out ( !m all ?\ can/ alone reta9 ,t :i* by ef=ts1 pure & spiritual1 ,?\ did/ a*ieve1 & :i* ?\ ha/ kept pure4 ,b ?is ?\ ha/ ?yself ca/ (f f !e ,& giv5 z 8 own to ,ahriman4 ,:at /ill is ?9e ha? be5 by ,lucif] ,de/roy$ = use )9 ! _s-_w4 ,?is too ^u ! ?re%old ,i mu/ take ,if ?\ w\ld/ really pass ?is portal by4 ,s n\ght rema9s to !e2 a lifeless life ,mu/ be ?y lot )9 ! _s-realms4 ,,?omasius3 ,yet ,i %all be & ,!odora f9d4 ,%e'll be = me ! s\rce ( fulle/ light1 ,:i* ev] ha? s ri*ly be5 reveal$ ,unto h] s\l1 ap>t f lore ( ,e>?4 ,t is en\gh4 ,& ?\ wilt set ?yself ,9 va9 aga9/ me1 ev5 if ! p[] ,:i* ,i myself h won ^u ! ,e>? ,%\ld n fulfil ! e/imate :i* ?\ ,did/ =m ( my good _s long ago4 ,,m>ia 7to ! ,gu>dian73 ,?\ kn[e/ well1 :o ha/ be5 gu>dian ,( ?is realm's ?re%old s9ce ! _w began ,:at be+s ne$ to cross ! ?re%old o'er ,:o to ?y k9d & to ?y "t belong3 ,s too ) m51 :o meet !e at ?is gate ,if !y d come alone1 & _c %[ ,t !y h done true _s-good !y mu/ ,g back aga9 f "h to life on ,e>?4 ,b ?is man "h ha? be5 all[$ to br+ ,t o!r s\l unto ?y ?re%old n[ ,:om fate ha? b\nd s closely ) 8 own4 ,?\ ha/ be5 ord]$ by high _s p[]s ,to keep back _m m5 f "h1 :o w\ld ,try to approa* ! gateway ( ?is realm ,& w\ld b br+ de/ruction on !mselves ,if !y %\ld d>e to pass ! ?re%old o'er4 ,yet ?\ may'/ ?r[ x op5 unto ^? ,:o ?r\gh _! inmo/ p]sonality ,are 9 ! _s-realms incl9$ to love1 ,& to su* love c cl+ z !y press ?r\gh1 ,z ha? be5 =eorda9$ !m by ! gods ,be=e to battle ,lucif] came =?4 ,/&+ be=e 8 ?rone my he>t ha? v[$ ,) /ricte/ oa?1 t 9 ,e>?'s future times ,x w\ld s s]ve ?is love t ,lucif]1 ,:5 he gives k ( x to m5's s\ls ,c d no h>m4 ,& ^? :o li/5 well ,= ! reveal+ ( ?is love div9e ,) e>ne/ m9ds1 z once !y /rove to grasp ,! k giv5 =? by ,lucif]1 ,!y mu/ inevitably f9d !mselves4 ,johannes 9 8 e>?ly =m do? n[ ,no long] li/5 to my voice1 z once1 ,:5 9 an e>?ly life long s9ce pass$ by ,i 0 enabl$ to reveal to him ,t :i* _h be5 entru/$ to myself ,9 holy temples 9 ,hib]nia ,by t same ,god ,:o dwells )9 mank9d ,& ,:o once conqu]$ all ! p[]s ( dea? ,because ,he liv$ love's life s p]fectly4 ,my fri5d w once aga9 9 _s-realms ,disc]n ! words :i* come =? f my s\l ,b :i* 7 h9d]$ f 8 e>?ly e>s ,by ,lucif] & 8 delusive p[]4 ,,?omasius 7z "o :o p]ceives "s spiritual be+73 ,m>ia1 do/ ?\ see1 clad 9 long cloak ,t dignifi$ old man1 8 solemn face1 ,8 noble br[1 ! fla%+ ( 8 glance8 ,he passe? ?r\gh ! /reets1 'mid cr[ds ( m5 ,yet ea* do? /ep aside 9 rev]5ce ,t yon old man may g 8 way 9 peace1 ,& le/ 8 tra9 ( ?\ght be rudely /irr$4 ,= "o c see t1 wrapp$ )9 himself ,he m$itates ) p[]ful inmo/ ?\ght4 ,m>ia1 do/ ?\ see8 ,,m>ia3 ,yea1 ,i c see1 ,:5 ?r\gh ! eyes ( ?9e own s\l ,i look4 ,b 'tis to !e alone t he w\ld n[ ,reveal himself 9 sc5es significant4 ,,?omasius3 ,i n[ c see into 8 v s\l1 ,?+s full ( mean+ lie )9 its dep?s ,& memory ( some?+ he's j he>d4 ,be=e 8 eyes !re /&s a tea*] wise4 ,he lets ! words :i* he ha? he>d f him ,pass ?r\gh 8 s\l2 x is f him he comes4 ,8 ?9k+ scans ! v s\rce ( life2 ,z once mank9d 9 old5 times on ,e>? ,might /& q ne> & view ! _s-sc5es1 ,al?\gh _! s\l-life 0 b l a dream2 ,! old man's s\l do? trace t l9e ( ?\ght ,:i* f 8 hon\r$ tea*] he ha? le>n$4 ,& n[ he disappe>s f my s\l's sight2 ,ah1 if ,i c\ld b wat* 8 fur!r /eps4 ,i see m5 speak+ ) ea* o!r n[ ,among ! cr[d2 & ,i c he> _! words4 ,!y speak ( t old man ) rev]5ce deep4 ,9 8 "y days he 0 a soldi] brave2 ,ambition1 & desire to be r5[n$ ,7 burn+ 9 8 s\l2 he wi%$ to c\nt ,z =emo/ w>rior )9 8 ranks4 ,9 battle's s]vice he did p]petrate ,unnumb]$ gruesome de$s ?r\gh ?ir/ = fame4 ,& 9 8 life full _m a "t x *anc$ ,he caus$ mu* blood to fl[ ^u ! e>?4 ,at la/ !re came a day :5 sudd5ly ,! luck ( battle turn$ its back on him4 ,he left ! battlefield 9 bitt] %ame ,to ent] 8 own home1 a man disgrac$2 ,scorn & d]ision 7 8 lot 9 life1 ,& f t "t wild hatr$ fill$ 8 s\l ,:i* _h n lo/ its pride & love ( fame4 ,he look$ ^u 8 boon-companions n[ ,only z enemies to be de/roy$ ,z soon z opportunity occurr$4 ,b s9ce ! man's pr\d s\l 0 soon compell$ ,to recognize t v5geance on 8 foes ,w\ld n be possible = him 9 life1 ,he le>n$ ! victory o'er 8 own self ,& vanqui%$ all 8 pride & love ( fame4 ,he ev5 made resolve 9 8 old age ,a circle small ( pupils to att5d ,:i* _h aris5 !n )9 8 t[n4 ,! man :o 0 ! tea*] ( ?is b& ,0 9 8 s\l possess$ ( all ! lore ,:i* by ! ma/]s 9 mu* old] days ,_h be5 deliv]$ to initiates-- ,all ?is ,i he> f m5 )9 ! cr[d4 ,x fills me ) w>m love :5 ,i behold ,) my s\l's sight1 ?is agd man1 :o ?us ,aft] ! victories :i* love ( fame ,_h won = him c\ld ev5 !n a*ieve ,! greate/ human task--to conqu] self-- ,!re=e d ,i p]ceive )9 ?is place ,! man to :om ,i :olly give myself1 ,al?\gh ,i see him b 9 pictur$ =m4 ,?is feel+ h[soe'er x comes to me ,is n a mom5t's "w4 ,?r\gh lives long pa/ ,i mu/ h be5 9 close/ union jo9$ ,unto a s\l ,i love z ,i love him4 ,i h n 9 ?is mom5t r\s$ 9 me ,a love s /rong z t :i* n[ ,i feel2 ,x is a recollection f pa/ times2 ,nor c ,i grasp x ) my ?\ght z yet1-- ,?\gh memory calls ^! feel+s back to me4 ,surely ,i once 0 pupil ( ?is man ,& full ( awe & wond] gaz$ on him8 ,oh1 h[ ,i long once m 9 ?is same h\r ,to meet ! e>?ly s\l :i* =m]ly ,c\ld speak ab\t ?is body z its own1 ,no matt] if on ,e>? or o!r:]e4 ,!n w\ld ,i prove ! /r5g? ) :i* ,i love2 ,:at noble human ties did once create ,?is c good p[]s alone r5ew 9 me4 ,,m>ia3 ,art ?\ q sure1 ,johannes1 t ?is s\l ,if x approa*$ !e n[ w\ld %[ itself ,^u ! same bright height :]eon x /ood ,9 ^? old days j pictur$ '=e ?y s\l8 ,p]*ance x n[ is *a9$ a prison] ,by feel+s all unwor?y ( its pa/4 ,_m a man n[ walks ^u ! ,e>? ,:o w\ld be fill$ ) %ame1 if he c\ld see ,h[ little 9 8 pres5t mode ( life ,do? correspond ) t :i* once he 04 ,p]*ance ?is man ha? wall[$ 9 ! mire ,( lu/ & passion1 & ?\ saw'/ him n[ ,oppress$ by con/]nation & remorse4 ,,?omasius3 ,m>ia1 :y do/ ?\ sugge/ su* words8 ,i _c see :at leads !e s to speak4 ,= ?\ghts h "h q o!r influ5ce1 ,?an 9 ! places :]e t man ha? liv$4 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,johannes1 t :i* "h )9 ?is place ,reveals itself is prov+ ( ?y s\l4 ,gaze on ! gr\ndwork ( ?y self1 & see ,:at ?\1 unkn[+1 will/ & can/ p]=m4 ,all t 0 hidd5 9 ?9e inmo/ dep?s ,:ile ?\ w]t liv+ ) ?y s\l /ill bl9d4 7,lucif] appe>s47 ,w n[ appe> & rob !e ( ! d>k ,9 ^: protection ?\ wa/ liv+ !n4 ,s n[ p]ceive :at human s\l x is ,to :om ?\ do/ b[ d[n 9 ard5t love1 ,& :o indwelt ! body ?\ did/ see4 ,p]ceive to :om ?y /ronge/ love is giv54 ,,lucif]3 ,s9k ?yself deep 9 dep?s ( ?9e own self2 ,p]ceive ! /ronge/ p[]s ( ?9e own s\l2 ,& le>n to "k h[ ?is /rong love ( ?9e ,c hold !e upright 9 ! cosmic life4 ,,?omasius3 ,yea1 n[ ,i feel ! s\l t wi%$ to %[ ,itself to me--'tis ,!odora's self-- ',twas %e :o wi%$ to be reveal$ to me4 ,%e /ood be=e me s9ce 'tis h] ,i'll see ,:5 ,i h ga9$ an entrance ?r\gh ?is gate4 ',tis "r to love h]1 = h] s\l did /& ,be=e me 9 t o!r body-=m ,:i* %[$ me h[ 'tis h] t ,i mu/ love4 ,?r\gh !e alone w ,i n[ f9d myself ,& w9 ! future1 fight+ 9 ?y /r5g?4 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,i _c keep !e back f :at mu/ be4 ,9 pictur$ =m ?\ ha/ already se5 ,! s\l ?\ love/ be/2 h] %alt ?\ see ,:5 ?\ ha/ cross$ ! ?re%old ( ?is realm4 ,p]ceive1 & let exp]i5ce decide ,if x %all prove s heal+ z ?\ dream'/4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,ah1 he$ ?\ n ! gu>dian /rict ,:o leade? !e to wa/es ( life ,& robs !e ( ?y w>m? ( s\l2 ,he c b see ! _s-=ms1 ,& kn[e? naught ( human woe ,:i* s\ls c only !n endure ,:5 e>?ly love do? gu>d !m safe ,f *ill+ cosmic space4 ,/rictness to him belongs1 ,f him do? k9dness flee1 ,& p[] to wi% ,he ha? abhorr$ ,s9ce fir/ ! ,e>? began4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #h ,ahriman's ,k+dom4 ,no sky is visible4 ,a d>k enclosure l a m\nta9 gorge ^: black masses ( rock t[] up 9 fanta/ic =ms1 divid$ by /reams ( fire4 ,skeletons are visible ev]y:]e2 !y appe> to be cry/alliz$ out ( ! m\nta91 b are :ite4 ,_! attitude sugge/s ! habitual egoism ( _! la/ life4 ,prom95t on "o side is a mis] & on ! o!r a massive glutton etc41 etc4 ,ahriman is seat$ on a rock4 ,hil>y1 ,fr$]ick ,tru/wor?y1 !n ! ,twelve :o 7 ga!r$ toge!r 9 ! fir/ sc5e2 !n ,/rad]2 lat] on ,?omasius & ,m>ia2 la/ ( all ,?omasius' ,d\ble4 ,,tru/wor?y3 ,h[ (t5 h ,i trod ?is realm be=e4-- ,& yet h[ horrible x seems to me ,t e'en f "h we mu/ s (t5 fet* ,! wise direction = full _m a plan ,:i* is important = u & our league ,& po9ts significantly to our aims4 ,,hil>y3 ,! gra9 ( corn mu/ fall to e>? & die ,be=e ! life )9 x c return4 ,all t 9 e>?ly life ha? run to wa/e ,%all "h unto new be+ be trans=m$4 ,& :5 our league desires to plant ! se$s ,( human acts1 to rip5 9 due c\rse1 ',tis f ! dead t we mu/ fet* ! gra94 ,,tru/wor?y3 ,uncanny is ! "l :o "h be>s rule2 ,& if x 7 n writt5 9 our books1 ,:i* are ! greate/ treasures ( our %r9e1 ,t he :om "h we (t5 meet1 is good1 ,"o w\ld inde$ z evil reckon him4 ,,hil>y3 ,n only books1 b e'en my _s-sight ,decl>es t :at is "h reveal$ is good4 ,,ahriman 79 a feign$ voice1 s>donically73 ,i "k :y ye are ga!r$ "h aga94 ,ye w\ld discov] f me h[ 'tw]e be/ ,to guide ! s\l ( him :o (t be=e ,ha? /ood ^u ! ?re%old ( y\r %r9e4 ,because ye ?9k ,?omasius is lo/ ,ye n[ believe t ,/rad] is ! man ,to d y s]vice 9 ! my/ic league4 ,:at he ha? won = progress ( mank9d ,by use ( p[]s :i* foll[ nature's laws1 ,= ?is he owe? ?anks to me1 s9ce ,i ,hold sway :]e p[]s me*anical obta9 ,/r5g? = !mselves f _! creative f\nts4 ,s all t he may d to help mank9d ,x ne$s mu/ turn itself unto my realm4 ,b ?is "t ,i myself w see to x ,t :at ,i wi% %all happ5 to ?is man ,9 future1 s9ce ye lo/ ,?omasius ,by y\r own "w ?r\gh leav+ me aside4 ,if ye desire to s]ve ! _s-p[]s ,ye fir/ mu/ conqu] = y\rselves ^? p[]s ,:i* 9 ?is case ye tri$ to ca/ aside4 7,ahriman becomes invisible47 ,,tru/wor?y 7aft] a pause1 dur+ :i* he has )drawn into himself73 ,exalt$ ,ma/]1 c>e oppresse? me ,?\gh ,i h /riv5 long to bani% x1 ,= ?is is laid ^u me by /rict rules ,:i* h be5 ord]$ = u by our league4 ,b mu* t %[s ! life ( ?is same league ,ha? made ! /ruggle 9 my s\l sev]e2 ,yet w\ld ,i ev] ?ankfully submit ,my d>kness to ! _s-light1 :i* ?\ ,art capable ( giv+ ?r\gh ?y p[]s4 ,b :5 ,i mu/ full (t5 cle>ly see ,?\ w]t a victim ( delusion's sn>e ,& h[ ?y words1 e'en z ev5ts fell out1 ,did (t5 prove s griev\sly at fault1 ,!n h ,i felt z ?\gh "s wick$ elf ,7 re/+ pa9fully ^u my s\l4 ,& ?is "t also are ?y words at fault4 ,?\ c\ld/ h reckon$ t we c]ta9ly ,%\ld he> good tid+s f ?is _s "h4 ,,hil>y3 ',tis h>d to und]/& ! cosmic ways4 ,my bro!r1 we are well-advis$ to wait ,until ! _s indicates ! way ,:i* is orda9$ = t :i* we create4 7,exeunt ,hil>y & ,tru/wor?y47 ,,ahriman 7:o has re-appe>$73 ,!y see1 b d n recognize me yet2 ,= _h !y kn[n :o rules )9 ?is place ,!y c]ta9ly w\ld n h v5tur$ "h ,to seek direction2 & !y w\ld condemn ,to age-long pa9s ( hell t human s\l ,( :om1 !y he>d1 t x did visit me4 7,all ! p]sons :o at ! beg9n+ ( ! play 7 assembl$ 9 ! ante-room ( ! my/ic league n[ appe> on ! sc5e2 !y are bl9dfold$ to %[ _! ignorance ( ! fact t !y are 9 ,ahriman's k+dom4 ,! words !y speak live 9 _! s\ls1 b !y "k no?+ ( !m4 ,!y are exp]i5c+ dur+ sleep unconsci\s dreams :i* are audible 9 ,ahriman's k+dom4 ,/rad]1 :o also appe>s1 is h[ev] semi-consci\s ) reg>d to all t he exp]i5ces1 s t lat] on he w be able to recollect x47 ,,/rad]3 ,! h9t t ,b5$ictus gave to me ,t ,i %\ld cultivate my p[] ( ?\ght1 ,ha? l$ me to ?is k+dom ( ! dead4 ,al?\gh ,i hop$ t rais$ to _s-realms ,i %\ld f9d tru? on wisdom's sun-clad heights4 ,,ahriman3 ,:at ?\ can/ le>n ( wisdom 9 ?is place ,?\ wilt f9d all-suffici5t = long "t1 ,if "h ?\ do/ comport ?yself aright4 ,,/rad]3 ,be=e :at _s do? my s\l !n /&8 ,,ahriman3 ,t %alt ?\ "k :5 memory pres5tly ,c call aga9 to !e :at "h ?\ see'/4 ,,/rad]3 ,& all ^! folk1 :y d ,i f9d !m "h ,)9 ?y d>ksome realm8 ,,ahriman3 ',tis b z s\ls ,t !y are 9 ?is place3 !y d n "k ,aught ( !mselves :5 "h1 s9ce 9 _! homes ,sunk n[ 9 deepe/ sleep !y w\ld be f\nd4 ,b "h q cle>ly all w be reveal$ ,t lives )9 _! s\ls1 ?\gh !y w\ld sc>ce ,on wak+ ?9k su* ?\ghts c\ld be _! own4 ,s too1 !y _c he> u :5 we speak4 ,,l\isa ,,fe>-,,god3 ,! s\l %\ld n 9 bl9d devotion ?9k ,t x c raise itself 9 haughty pride ,up to ! light1 or t x c unfold ,unto its full ext5t its own true self4 ,i w b recognize :at ,i d "k4 ,,ahriman 7only audible to ,/rad]73 ,& do/ n "k h[ bluntly ?\ do/ lead ,9 haughty pride ?yself into ! d>k4 ,%e too w s]ve !e1 ,/rad]1 9 ! "w ,t ?\ ha/ wrung s boldly f my p[]s4 ,%e do? n ne$ = t ! _s-fai? ,:i* seems s ill-accord$ ) h] pride4 ,,fr$]ick ,,cle>-,,m9d3 ,entranc+ are inde$ ^! my/ic pa?s2 ,nor w ,i h5ce=? fail 9 dilig5ce1 ,b give myself completely to ! lore ,t ,i c ga!r f ! ,temple's words4 ,,mi*ael ,,nobleman3 ,! impulse aft] tru? )9 my s\l ,is draw+ me t[>d ! _s-light2 ,! noble tea*+ :i* n[ %9es s cle> ,9 human life1 w surely f9d t ,i ,am ! be/ pupil t x ev] _h4 ,,george ,,c&id3 ,i ev] h be5 deeply mov$ by all ,t ha? reveal$ itself f _m a s\rce ,( noble my/ic _s-treasuries4 ,) all my he>t w\ld ,i yet fur!r /rive4 ,,ahriman 7audible only to ,/rad]73 ,su* m5 mean well3 yet do? _! /riv+ /ay ,b 9 ! upp] lay]s ( _! s\ls4 ,& s c ,i make use = _m ye>s ,( all ^! mighty treasures :i* lie hid ,unconsci\sly )9 _! spirits' dep?s4 ,!y too seem useful to my con/ant aim ,t ,/rad]'s "w 9 mank9d's life on e>? ,%all ) pr\d brilliance unfold itself4 ,,m>y ,,/eadfa/3 ,a heal?y view ( life w ( itself ,br+ to ! s\l ! fruits ( _s-realms ,:5 m5 jo9 rev]5ce = ! univ]se ,to a cle> view ( s5se-reality4 ,,ahriman 7audible only to ,/rad]73 ,%e speaks 9 dreams ( ?is reality2 ,%e'll dream s mu* ! bett] :5 %e wakes4 ,yet %e w be ( little s]vice n[4 ,p]*ance 9 h] next life %e'll help me m1 ,= !n %e w appe> z occulti/ ,& z ne$ may arise w tea* mank9d ,ab\t _! life s9ce fir/ ! ,e>? began4 ,& yet %e sc>ce w treasure tru? aright2 ,9 =m] lives %e (t did ,/rad] *ide ,& n[ %e praise? him3 s do? %e *ange1 ,& ,lucif] w be m glad ( h]4 ,,francesca ,,humble3 ,! solemn my/ic k+dom w "o day ,be pictur$ by mank9d z "o great :ole1 ,:5 ?\ght ?r\gh feel+ %all express itself ,& feel+ let itself be l$ by ?\ght4 ,,ka?>9e ,,c\nsel3 ,mank9d1 'tis true1 do? /rive to see ! light2 ,b /range inde$ ! me?ods he pursues4 ,= fir/ he qu5*e? x1 & is surpris$ ,t he c f9d x n[h]e 9 ! d>k4 ,,ahriman 7audible only to ,/rad]73 ,s too ) s\ls3 !y f9d x good to talk ,z voic+ ! well-be+ ( _! m9d1 ,b und]nea? !y fail 9 con/ancy4 ,su* are = me q unapproa*able1 ,& yet !y w 9 future mu* a*ieve ,f :i* ,i'll reap a h>ve/ ( good fruit4 ,!y are by no means :at !y ?9k !mselves4 ,,b]n>d ,,/raight3 ,if k is n ga9$ ?r\gh cauti\s se>* ,!n fantasy br+s n\ght b airy =ms ,to solve ! riddle ( ! univ]se1 ,:i* only c be ma/]$ by /rict ?\ght4 ,,erm9ia ,,/ay-,,at-,,home3 ,! cosmic sub/ance mu/ = ev] *ange ,t all exi/5ce may unfold itself2 ,& he :o fa9 w\ld keep all ?+s ! same ,w lack ! p[] to und]/& life's aims4 ,,gasp] ,,hotspur3 ,to live 9 fantasy1 do? only mean ,to rob m5's s\ls ( e p[] 9 life ,?r\gh :i* !y c gr[ /rong to s]ve !mselves ,& d true s]vice to _! fell[ m54 ,,m>y ,,dauntless3 ,! s\l t w\ld b burd5 its own self ,%\ld =m itself ?r\gh outside p[]s alone2 ,true m5 w only seek developm5t ,f out _! hidd5 p]sonalities4 ,,ahriman 7audible only to ,/rad]73 ,x is b human :at ^! s\ls conceal4 ,"o _c tell :at !y may yet a*ieve2 ,= ,lucif] may try 8 p[] on !m1 ,& make !m ?9k !y are b work+ out ,ea* 8 own p[]s ( s\l ) /eadfa/ aim2 ,& s p]*ance he ha? n lo/ !m yet4 ,,fox3 ,he :o w\ld cosmic riddles rightly read ,mu/ wait till und]/&+ & "r ?\ght ,reveal !mselves ?r\gh p[]s )9 8 life1 ,& he :o fa9 w\ld f9d 8 way aright ,mu/ seize all he c use t gives him joy4 ,above all else ! se>* = wisdom's lore ,to give high aims to weak humanity-- ,?is leads to no?+ on ?is ,e>? ( ours4 ,,ahriman 7audible only to ,/rad]73 ,he ha? be5 *os5 z philosoph]1 ,& su* he w appe> 9 8 next life-- ,) him ,i d b balance my acc\nt4 ,sev5 ( twelve ,i ev] ne$ myself ,& five ,i give to ,bro!r ,lucif]4 ,f "t to "t ,i take acc\nt ( m5 ,& see bo? :at !y are & :at !y d4 ,& :5 ,i once h *os5 out my twelve ,i d n ne$ to se>* = any m4 ,= if ,i come 9 numb] to ?irte5 ,! la/ is j exactly l ! fir/4 ,:5 ,i h got ^! twelve )9 my realm ,& c ?r\gh _! s\l-nature fa%ion !m1 ,!n o!rs too mu/ ev] foll[ !m4 7,to himself2 hold+ 8 h&s ov] ,/rad]'s e>s s t he %all n he>47 ,true1 none ( ?is h ,i a*iev$ z yet1 ,s9ce ,e>? refus$ to give h]self to me4 ,b ,i %all /rive ?r\gh\t et]nity1 #a ,until--p]*ance--,i ga9 ! victory4 ,"o mu/ make use ( :at is n yet lo/4 7,! foll[+ s t x is aga9 audible to ,/rad]73 ,?\ see/ ,i d n flatt] ) f9e words1 ,inde$ ,i d n wi% to please mank9d4 ,he :o w\ld inspiration seek = l(ty aims ,9 spee* well-regulat$ & arrang$1 ,ne$s mu/ betake himself to o!r worlds4 ,b1 :o ) reason & a s5se = tru? ,p]ceives ! ?+s :i* "h ,i br+ to pass1 ,he c ackn[l$ge t x is ) me ,! p[]s are f\nd1 )\t :i* human s\ls ,mu/ lose !mselves :il/ liv+ on ! ,e>?4 ,! v worlds ( gods make use ( me1 ,& only seek to draw s\ls f my grasp ,:5 ,i gr[ active 9 _! own doma94 ,& !n if my oppon5t do? succe$ ,9 lead+ m5 a/ray ) ?is belief ,t my exi/5ce ha? be5 prov$ to be ,unnecess>y = ! univ]se1 ,!n s\ls may dream inde$ ( high] worlds1 ,b /r5g? & p[] decay 9 e>?ly life4 ,,/rad]3 ,?\ see/ 9 me "o :o w\ld foll[ !e ,& give 8 p[]s to !e to use at w4 ,:at ,i h witness$ "h do? seem to %[ ,t all t makes mank9d ?9e enemy ,is lack ( reason's p[] & /r5g? ( m9d4 ,9 tru? ?\ did/ n flatt] ) f9e words2 ,= ?\ did/ well-nigh mock ^! poor weak m5 ,:5 x did please !e to portray _! fate4 ,i mu/ confess t x seems good to me ,:at ?\ w\ld/ give unto ! s\ls ( m51 ,= !y w only be enri*$ ) /r5g? ,= :at is good ?r\gh !e1 & w b ga9 ,t :i* is bad1 if !y 7 bad be=e4 ,if only m5 did bett] "k !mselves ,!y mu/ = c]ta9 feel ) all _! he>ts ,! bitt] scorn t ?\ do/ ca/ on !m4 ,b :at is "h wrung =? f out my s\l8 ,i speak su* words z w\ld de/roy my life ,if on ! ,e>? ,i f\nd t !y 7 true4 ,?\ mu/ s ?9k2 ,i _c o!rwise ,?an f9d t :at ?\ ha/ j said is true2 ,yet 'tis b tru? :5 9 ?is realm ( ?9e3 ,x w\ld be error = ! _w ( ,e>? ,if x prove !re to be :at x seems "h4 ,i mu/ no fur!r trace my human ?\ghts ,)9 ?is place--!y n[ mu/ h an end4 ,9 ?y r\gh words !re s\nde? pa9 = !e1 ,& !y are pa9ful too 9 m9e own s\l4 ,i c--:il/ fac+ !e--b weep--& cry---- 7,exit quickly47 7,ent] ,m>ia & ,?omasius bo? fully consci\s1 s t !y c he> & und]/& all t goes on1 & speak ab\t x47 ,,?omasius3 ,m>ia1 t]ror reigns on e side1 ,x close? 9 & presse? on my s\l2 ,:5ce %all come inw>d /r5g? to conqu] x8 ,,m>ia3 ,my holy1 e>ne/ v[ do? ray out p[]3 ,& ?\ can/ be> ?is pressure on ?y s\l ,if ?\ wilt feel ! heal+ p[] x gives4 ,,ahriman 7to himself73 ',tis ,b5$ictus :o ha? s5t !m "h2 ,he guid$ !m t !y might recognize ,& "k me1 :5 !y feel me 9 my realm4 7,he speaks ! re/ s t ,?omasius & ,m>ia c he>47 ,?omasius1 ! ,gu>dian did direct ,?y foot/eps fir/ ( all t[>d my realm ,s9ce !y w lead !e to ! v light ,?\ seeke/ 9 ! dep?s ( ?9e own self4 ,"h ,i c give !e tru? al?\gh ) pa91 ,z ,i h suff]$ _m ?\s& ye>s1 ,= ?\gh ! tru? c p5etrate to me1 ,x mu/ fir/ sep>ate itself f joy ,be=e x d>es to v5ture ?\gh my por*4 ,,?omasius3 ,s mu/ ,i joylessly behold ! s\l ,:om ,i s ard5tly desire to see8 ,,ahriman3 ,a wi% do? only lead to happ9ess ,:5 w>m? ( s\l c *]i% x2 b "h ,all wi%es freeze1 & ne$s mu/ live 9 cold4 ,,m>ia3 ,e'en 9 ! ev] empty fields ( ice ,i may g ) my fri5d1 :]e he w be ,encircl$ by ! light :i* spirits br+ ,:5 d>kness w\nds & maims ! p[]s ( life4 ,?omasius1 feel n[ ?y s\l's full /r5g?4 7,! ,gu>dian appe>s ^u ! ,?re%old47 ,,ahriman3 ,! ,gu>dian himself mu/ br+ ! light ,t ?\ do/ n[ s ard5tly desire4 ,,?omasius3 ',tis ,!odora :om ,i wi% to see4 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,! s\l t on my ?re%old clo!d itself ,9 t same veil :i* _m ye>s ago ,x wore on e>?1 ha? k9dl$ 9 ! dep?s ,( ?9e own s\l 9 solemn h\rs ( life ,! /ronge/ love :i* 0 conceal$ 9 !e4 ,:ile ?\ w]t /&+ yet outside ?is realm ,& fir/ did/ beg f me an entrance "h1 ,x /ood be=e !e 9 a pictur$ =m1 ,&1 be+ ?us conceiv$ by inw>d wi%1 ,c only %[ delusion's va9 conceits4 ,b n[ ?\ %alt 9 v tru? behold ,! s\l t 9 a life ( long ago ,0 dwell+ 9 t old man :om ?\ saw'/4 ,,?omasius3 ,i see him n[ aga9 9 8 long cloak1 ,t wor?y anci5t ) 8 e>ne/ br[2 ,o s\l1 :o dwelt )9 ?is cov]+ ,:y do/ ?\ hide ?yself s long f me8 ,x mu/--x c--b ,!odora be4 ,ah1 see--n[ f ! cov]$ picture1 comes ,reality3 'tis ,!o 444 'tis myself---- 7,z ,?omasius beg9s ! "n ',!odora1' 8 ,d\ble appe>s47 ,,8 ,,d\ble 7com+ close up to ,?omasius73 ,p]ceive me--& !n "k ?yself 9 me4 ,,m>ia3 ,& ,i may foll[ !e to cosmic dep?s ,:]e s\ls c w9 p]ception e'en z gods ,by conque/ t de/roye?1 yet acquires ,by bold p]si/5ce life f seem+ dea?4 7,peals ( ?und]1 & increas+ d>kness47 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #i ,a pleasant1 sunny morn+ l&scape1 9 a t]rac$ g>d5 ov]look+ a t[n ) _m factories4 ,b5$ictus1 ,capesius1 ,m>ia1 ,?omasius1 & ,/rad] are discov]$ walk+ up & d[n & engag$ 9 leisurely conv]sation4 ,b5$ictus we>s a :ite biretta & is 9 8 :ite robe1 b )\t ! gold5 /ole4 ,,capesius3 ,"h is ! place1 :]e ,b5$ictus (t ,9 s(t w>m sunlight ( a summ] morn ,gave himself to 8 pupils t !y might ,9 rev]5t mood receive 8 wisdom's words4 ,out yond] lies :at ev] mu/ divide ,) pitiless int5t ! s\ls ( m5 ,f all ! wondr\s beauty ( ! e>?1 ,t nature's ,god do? %[] s b\nte\s "h4 ,9 yon wa/e sea ( h\ses 9 ! t[n ,do? ,b5$ictus ev] nobly /rive ,to heal ?is human woe by de$s ( love4 ,& :5 ) human words s wise & true ,he tells 8 pupils ( ! _s-_w1 ,he seeks = he>ts1 :i* free creative p[] ,t "h reveals itself 9 wak5+ s\ls1 ,ha? fill$ ) sun%9e & ) love = m54 ,i1 too1 may n[ behold ! happ9ess ,:i* ?r\gh 8 words do? rea* ! he>t ( man4 ,s9ce he 9 love ha? und]ta'en ! task ,( guid+ me )9 ! _s-_w3 ,& n[ :5 ,i may feel t he is ne> ,i %all aga9 discov] m9e own self4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,)9 ! circle ( my pupils "h ,?r\gh free-w acts ( o!rs & ?yself ,a knot %all "o day loos5 9 ! ?reads ,:i* ,k>ma sp9s 9 lives ( m5 on e>?4 ,?y life itself w help to loose ?is knot4 ,9 he>ts ( m5 :o give !mselves 9 tru? ,to foll[ wisdom1 :i* ,i s]ve myself1 ,?\ can/ by ?9e own p[] discov] ^? ,jo9$ unto :om ?\ wilt complete ! "w ,= :i* 9 _s ?\ ha/ be5 prep>$4 ,,capesius3 ,!e h ,i kn[n1 & ,i w foll[ !e4 ,z ,i held conv]se ) m9e inmo/ s\l1 ,:5 ,i _h be5 all[$ to he> ?y words ,)9 ! _s-realm 9 _! true =m1 ,& ?\ had/ br\ght me to myself aga91 ,!n c\ld ,i see portray$ 9 _s-light ,! aims :i* 9 ! progress ( ! e>? ,i 0 to foll[ 9 my future lives4 ,& n[ ,i "k t ?\ did/ *oose = me ,! "o "r way = ?is to be reveal$4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?omasius & ,/rad] w h5ce=? ,unit$ ) ?yself accompli% mu* ,t be/ may s]ve to fur!r human heal?4 ,!y h prep>$ ! s\l-p[]s :i* are !irs ,) su* int5t s9ce fir/ ! ,e>? began ,t !y c jo9 to =m a tr9ity ,) ?9e own _s 9 ! cosmic c\rse4 ,,capesius3 ,s ,i mu/ ?ank my fate's unb5d+ p[]s ,:i* seem$ at fir/ incompreh5sible1 ,t :5 ! rightful mom5t came at la/ ,my life's aim sudd5ly reveal$ itself4 7,he pauses m$itatively47 ,h[ wond]fully ha/ ?\ l$ me on3 ,x seem$ at fir/ z if ,i /rove 9 va9 ,to ent] ) my _s consci\sly ,into ^? worlds :i* by ?y words are plac$ ,s ?\ghtfully be=e ! s\ls ( m54 ,= _m ye>s ,i c\ld f9d n\ght b ?\ghts ,:5 9 ?y writ+s ,i absorb$ myself4 ,& !n1 q sudd5ly1 ar\nd me fl[$ ,! _s-_w 9 its reality2 ,i sc>ce knew h[ to f9d myself aright ,)9 my =m] m accu/om$ _w4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,t w\ld h hid ! _s-life f !e ,= ev] by its /rong effective p[] ,unless ! /rong] =ces ( ?is life ,_h fir/ r$uc$ x to a %ad[ dim4 ,& s ?\ too1 ) ?y full _s-sight ,mu/ on t ?re%old le>n to "k ?yself1 ,:]e o!rs fir/ c ga9 _! _s-sight4 7,dur+ ! la/ words ,/rad] walks up to ,capesius & ! ?ree g away toge!r3 aft] a %ort "t ,b5$ictus returns ) ,/rad]47 ,,/rad]3 ,x gave deep pa91 )9 m9e inmo/ self ,& weigh$ ) heavy pressure on my s\l ,:5 on awak+ to myself ,i f\nd ,i 0 aga9 )9 my body p5t ,f :i* ?y words _h giv5 me release4 ,my dead5$ s\l-life fir/ torm5t$ me ,on my return1 yet 'twas n only pa92 ,= x br\ght =? 9 me ! memory ,( all ,i liv$ ?r\gh ere ,i saw ) dread ,:at ,i c\ld le>n f ,ahriman himself1 ,t e ?\ght mu/ cease its progress !re4 ,i _h to ask myself :y ,i 0 set ,by ,b5$ictus' ^w )9 ?is realm ,:]e s\ls alone are tak5 into c\nt ,& only ^? are valu$ :i* c help ,t[>d ! objects1 :i* t p[] desires ,to make 8 own ?r\gh de$s t ,i h done4 ,he1 9 8 wisdom1 want$ to select ,twelve help]s f ! numb] ( mank9d4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,yet 'tis well kn[n to !e :y all ^! s\ls1 ,:i* ,ahriman %[$ =?1 drew ne> to !e1 ,:5 he w\ld =ce himself ^u _! fates4 ,,/rad]3 ,t also bitt] pa9 reveal$ to me3 ,x %[$ h[ 9 a =m] life on ,e>? ,i 0 unit$ to a bro!rhood ,:i* n[ ha? =m$ aga9 its my/ic league1 ,& h[ ^? p /ood t[>ds myself1 ,:o 7 9 _! true nature !n reveal$4 ,& ,i c\ld feel q sure t ,ahriman ,w use ! bond1 :i* e'en 9 future lives ,mu/ ev] surely b9d _! s\ls to m9e4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,! cosmic p[]s d s direct _! de$s ,t ^! ) cosmic progress may unite ,by foll[+ 9 wisdom numb]'s laws4 ,! sign h[ ?is direction is fulfill$ ,%[s itself cle>ly to ! out] s5se2 ,if x do? wat* ! ,sun ^u ! c\rse ,he takes ?r\gh\t ! con/ellations twelve4 ,x is 8 place among/ ^? v signs ,:i* %[s h[ on ! ,e>? ?+s come to pass ,9 /rict succession 9 long c\rse ( "t4 ,s ,ahriman desir$ to m\ld ! s\ls ,( ^? :o are unit$ ?us to !e ,to p[]s f :5ce ?y "w might %9e af>4 ,he also wi%$ to foll[ numb]'s laws ,9 b9d+ _! s\l-nature unto ?9e4 ,,/rad]3 ,s9ce ,i h le>n$ ! s5se ( numb]'s law1 ,s %all ,i too succe$ 9 rescu+ ,my "w f out ! realm ( ,ahriman ,& (f]+ x to ! gods ( ,e>?4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,x 0 ?r\gh ,ahriman ?\ had/ to le>n ,! s5se ( numb] 9 ! univ]se2 ,s 0 x ne$ful = ?9e own s\l's good4 ',twas _s-pupil%ip t guid$ !e ,into t realm1 :i* ?\ did/ ne$ to "k ,if ?y creative p[] %\ld bloom aright4 7,exeunt ,b5$ictus & ,/rad]4 ,m>ia & ,?omasius appe> f ! o!r side47 ,,m>ia3 ,johannes1 k ha? ?y s\l acquir$ ,f tru?'s cold realms4 ,no long] wilt ?\ n[ ,weave only 9 ?y pictures t :i* s\ls1 ,/ill p5t )9 ! body1 live 9 dreams1 ,= f> f cosmic progress are ^? ?\ghts ,:i* b z self-begott5 %[ !mselves4 ,,?omasius3 ',tis love ( self--al?\gh !y may pret5d ',tis ?ir/ = k make? !m d ?is4 ,,m>ia3 ,:oe'er desires to d$icate himself ,to human progress & p]=m su* "w ,z %all 9 c\rse ( "t prove liv+ =ce ,mu/ fir/ entru/ himself unto ^? p[]s ,:o "w 9 deep realities & br+1 ,:]e ord] ) confusion aye do? fight1 ,! rhy?mic law ( numb] & its p[]4 ,= k only ha? true active life1 ,t c reveal itself )9 ! s\l ,:5 x c br+ to m51 /ill clo!d 9 fle%1 ,! memory ( life 9 _s-realms4 ,,?omasius3 ,my c\rse ( life is ?us made cle> to me4 ,i _h to feel myself a tw(old man4 ,?r\gh ,b5$ictus' help & ?r\gh ?9e own ,i am a be+ /&+ by myself2 ,& all ! =ces t )9 me /ir ,d n belong at all to m9e own self4 ,ye n[ h giv5 me a manhood new ,:o mu/ be will+ to give o!r m5 ,:at he ha? ga9$ by _s-pupil%ip4 ,he mu/ devote himself unto ! _w ,z be/ he c3 naught f t o!r man ,mu/ m+le & di/urb :at n[ at la/ ,he ha? z true self-k recogniz$4 ,conta9$ 9 8 own _w he w g on1 ,if 8 own /r5g? & help f bo? 8 fri5ds ,%all 9 ! future s]ve to =m 8 fate4 ,,m>ia3 ,:e!r ?\ walk'/ 9 error or 9 tru? ,?\ can/ keep ev] cle> ! view ahead2 ,:i* lets ?y s\l press f>!r on its pa?1 ,if ?\ do/ bravely be> necessities ,impos$ ^u !e by ! _s-realm4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #aj ,! ,temple ( ! my/ic ,league m5tion$ 9 ! fir/ & second pictures4 ,"h ,b5$ictus1 ,torquatus1 & ,tru/wor?y h ! robes & insignia ( _! (fice ( ,hi]ophant z describ$ 9 ! ',portal ( ,initiation4' ,! ,ea/]n alt> supports a gold5 sph]e2 a blue sph]e re/s ^u ! ,s\!rn alt>2 :il/ ! sph]e ^u ! alt> ( ! ,we/ is r$4 ,z ! sc5e op5s ,b5$ictus & ,hil>y are /&+ at ! alt> 9 ! ,ea/2 ,bellicosus & ,torquatus at ! alt> 9 ! ,s\?2 ,tru/wor?y at ! alt> 9 ! ,we/2 !n ent] ,?omasius1 ,capesius1 ,/rad]2 !n ,m>ia1 ,felix ,balde1 & ,dame ,balde2 & lat] on ! ,s\l ( ,!odora2 & la/ ( all ! f\r ,s\l-,=ces4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,! s\ls ( all my pupils h receiv$ ,! _s-light1 ea* 9 t special =m ,:i* 0 appo9t$ = him by 8 fate4 ,:at !y h n[ a*iev$ ea* = himself ,ea* n[ mu/ r5d] fruitful = mank9d4 ,b ?is c only happ51 if _! p[]s ,accord+ unto numb]'s rhy?mic law ,desire to jo9 )9 ! holy place ,to =m ! high] unity1 :i* fir/ ,c wak5 to true life :at o!rwise ,c\ld only /ay 9 solit>y /ate4 ,!y /& ^u ! ?re%old ( ! %r9e1 ,^: s\ls mu/ fir/ unite1 & !n %all s\nd ,9 unison accord+ to ! rules ,impr9t$ 9 ! cosmic book ( fate4 ,t :at x c\ld n br+ to pass itself ,! _s h>mony may ?us a*ieve4 ',twill br+ fre% inspiration to ! old ,:i* "h ha? nobly reign$ s9ce "t 0 n4 ,to y1 ye bre?r51 ,i ^! pupils br+ ,:o f\nd _! way "h ?r\gh ! _s-worlds ,& ?r\gh ! /ricte/ prov+ ( _! s\ls4 ,! holy cu/oms w !y treat ) awe4 ,& treasure anci5t sacr$ my/ic ways ,:i* "h are se5 z p[]s ( _s-light4 ,ye too1 :o h fulfill$ 9 true/ wise ,y\r l(ty _s-s]vice = s long1 ,h5ce=? w be entru/$ ) new tasks4 ,! cosmic plan do? call ! sons ( m5 ,b = a "t unto ! sacr$ %r9e1 ,& :5 9 s]vice !y exhau/ _! /r5g? ,x guide? !m to o!r fields ( "w4 ,ev5 ?is temple _h to /& its trial2 ,& "o man's error _h to gu>d x once1 ,! gu>dian ( ! light--f d>kness deep1 ,"o cosmic h\r big ) ! fate ( worlds4 ,?omasius p]ceiv$ ?r\gh inw>d light ,:i* rules unconsci\s 9 ! s\ls ( m51 ,t o'er its ?re%old he mu/ n pursue ,8 way unto ! holy my/ic %r9e ,ere he _h cross$ t o!r ?re%old o'er1 ,( :i* ?is only is ! outw>d sign4 ,s ( himself he %ut ! door aga9 ,:i* y w\ld fa9 h op5$ wide 9 love4 ,he w n[ z ano!r come aga9 ,wor?y ( y\r initiation's gift4 ,,hil>y3 ,our s\ls "h humbly (f] sacrifice ,unto ! _s by ^: p[] alone ,! inn] s\l ( man is fructifi$4 ,& we w\ld /rive t our own wills may be ,a revelation ( ! _s-w4 ,by cosmic wisdom is ! temple l$ ,:i* unconfus$ do? guide to future times4 ,?\ %[e/ u directions :i* ?yself ,ha/ read )9 ! cosmic book ( fate1 ,:at "t ?y pupils pass$ _! pro( sev]e4 ,s lead !m n[ )9 our sacr$ %r9e1 ,t !y may jo9 _! "w unto our own4 7,hil>y knocks )9 ! ,temple2 !n ent] ,?omasius1 ,capesius1 ,m>ia1 ,felix ,balde1 ,dame ,balde1 & ,/rad]4 ,tru/wor?y & ,torquatus s guide _! entrance t :5 !y come to ! middle ( ! ,temple1 ,?omasius is /&+ 9 front ( ,b5$ictus & ,hil>y1 ,capesius 9 front ( ,bellicosus & ,torquatus1 ,/rad] 9 front ( ,tru/wor?y1 :il/ ,m>ia is ) ,felix & ,dame ,balde47 ,,hil>y3 ,my son1 ! words man utt]s 9 ?is place ,spell guilt :i* cries al\d to _s-worlds ,unless ! speak] foll[s tru? alone4 ,z great ! guilt1 s /rong too are ! p[]s ,:i* /rike x1 & de/roy ! "o :o speaks ,& proves himself unwor?y ( 8 task4 ,he :o is /&+ "h be=e !e n[1 ,0 consci\s ( ! work+ ( 8 words ,& tri$ to full ext5t ( all 8 p[]s ,to r5d] s]vice to ! _s-_w ,be=e ?is holy symbol ( t light ,:i* %9es ^u our ,e>? f out ! ea/4 ,x is ! w ( fate t ?\ h5ce=? ,%alt /& & s]ve )9 ?is sacr$ place4 ,& he :o consecrates !e to ! task ,& ( 8 (fice h&s !e n[ ! key1 ,do? give 8 bless+ also t x may ,prove ( good s]vice1 9 s f> z he ,ha? s]v$ ! sacr$ cu/oms wor?ily4 ,,?omasius3 ,exalt$ ,ma/]1 he w\ld n presume-- ,?is poor weak mortal1 :o do? d>e to /& ,be=e !e n[ 9 body1--e'en to %ape ,"o wi% t ?y successor he might be ,)9 ?is anci5t consecrat$ place4 ,he is n wor?y e'en to place "o /ep ,across ! ?re%old ( ?is my/ic %r9e1 ,b :at he d>es n wi% =1 = himself1 ,he mu/ p]ceive 9 deep humility ,s9ce p[]s ( fate h ( necessity ,desir$ to s5d ?is call unto 8 s\l4 ,x 0 n ,i1 z ,i am 9 my life ,nor z ,i saw myself a %ort "t back ,9 _s1 z a :olly wor?less s\l1 ,t let me n[ draw ne> unto ?is place4 ,& yet ! man :o /&s "h visible ,ha? be51 by ,b5$ictus & 8 fri5d1 ,end[$ ) second manhood1 :i* ! fir/ ,%all h5ce=? only z a be>] s]ve4 ,! _s-pupil%ip ha? giv5 me ,a self t c %[ =? itself ) p[] ,& to ! full unfold its own pursuits ,e'en :5 ! be>] ne$s mu/ "k himself ,full f> remov$ f l(ty aims ( s\l4 ,if1 9 su* case1 8 duty x do? seem ,to give ?is second self t's r\s$ 9 him ,to s]vice 9 ! progress ( ! ,e>? ,8 life mu/ aye obs]ve ?is /ricte/ rule ,to be a light be=e 8 _s-eyes1 ,t n\ght f 8 own self mu/ ent] 9 ,nor cause di/urbance 9 t "w1 :i* he ,ha? n himself arrang$ nor br\ght to pass ,b :i* 8 second self mu/ execute4 ,conceal$ )9 himself he ?us w "w ,t "o day he may be :at he do? "k ,to be ! future goal ( 8 true self4 ,?r\gh\t 8 life he'll c>ry 8 own c>es ,lock$ fa/ 9 deep recesses ( 8 s\l4 ,i told !e :5 at fir/ ?\ call$'/ me ,t ,i c\ld nev] tread ! temple c\rts ,9 m9e own human p]sonality4 ,he :o n[ comes1 z ?\gh ano!r's life ,_h be5 entru/$ to him1 sees t fate ,ha? laid on him ! task ( wat*+ o'er ,results ( 8 own "w & guid+ !m ,) dutiful att5tion f ?is place ,= su* "t z ! _s do? comm&4 ,,torquatus 79 ! ,s\?1 to ,capesius73 ,capesius1 h5ce=? 'twill be ?y task ,to s]ve ! holy temple 9 ?is place ,:5ce love ?r\gh wisdom %all /ream =? to m5 ,z w>mly z ! sun%9e's noontide rays4 ,he :o w\ld to ! _s sacrifice ,) und]/&+ ( ! my/ic "w1 ,mu/ ne$s face dang]s "h1 = ,lucif] ,c 9 ?is place draw ne> ) secret tread ,to :omsoev] fai?fully do? try ,to c>ry out ! _s-s]vice "h1 ,& on ea* ^w he c impress ! seal ,t m>ks ! adv]s>y ( ! gods4 ,?\ /ood'/ be=e ! adv]s>y's ?rone ,& saw'/ :at foll[s 8 activities2 ,s = ?9e (fice ?\ art well prep>$4 ,,capesius3 ,he :o ha? view$ ! adv]s>y's realm ,z p[]s ( fate p]mitt$ me to d1 ,he kn[s t 'good' & 'evil' are b words ,:i* mank9d sc>ce c und]/& aright4 ,:o speaks ( ,lucif] z :olly bad ,might also say t fire is evil too1 ,because x ha? a p[] t c kill life2 ,he might call wat] evil1 s9ce a man ,might 9 ! wat] easily be dr[n$4 ,,torquatus3 ,?r\gh o!r ?+s do? ,lucif] appe> ,z evil to !e2 n ?r\gh t :i* he ,w\ld indicate z evil ( himself4 ,,capesius3 ,! cosmic _s :o c\ld br+ ! light ,to s\ls ( m5 :5 fir/ ! ,e>? 0 =m$ ,mu/ r5d] s]vice to ! univ]se1 ,9 ways :i* 9 !mselves seem nei!r good ,nor evil unto spirits :o h le>n$ ,:at /]n necessity do? (t reveal4 ,= good c turn to ill1 if evil m9ds ,make use ( x = _! de/ructive ends2 ,& :at seems evil may be turn$ to good ,if "s good be+ guide? x aright4 ,,torquatus3 ,s do/ ?\ "k :at ?\ wilt h to d ,s long z ?\ do/ /& )9 ?is place4 ,love do? n value p[]s t are reveal$ ,)9 ! _w by judgm5t's /]n decree-- ,%e treasures !m = :at !y may br+ =? ,& asks h[ %e c m\ld & use ! life ,:i* is creat$ out ( cosmic dep?s4 ,,b5$ictus 79 ! ,ea/73 ,yet love speaks (t5 ) su* g5tle words1 ,& ne$s support )9 ! dep?s ( s\l4 ,"h 9 ?is place %e w unite ) all ,t foll[s cosmic law ) ?reefold w ,& is unto ! _s d$icate4 ,m>ia w unite h] "w to ?9e4 ,! v[ %e took 9 ,lucif]'s doma9 ,is n[ p]mitt$ to ray =? its p[]s4 ,,m>ia3 ,capesius spake words ( deep import ,:i* c reveal ! tru? if !y proce$ ,f t same _s :i* c guide mank9d ,t[>d true love1 9 progress ( ! ,e>?1 ,b :i* b error ^u error heap ,:5 !y are fa%ion$ by an evil m9d ,& 9 ! s\l trans=m !mselves to ill4 ',tis true t ,lucif] do? %[ himself ,z be>] ( ! light to man's s\l-sight ,:5 x w\ld seek to gaze on _s-space4 ,b !n ! human s\l w always wi% ,to wak5 also 9 its inmo/ dep?s ,:at x c only gaze on & admire4 ,al?\gh ^u 8 beauty x may look ,ne'er may x fall 'nea? ,lucif]'s fell sway ,le/ he %\ld ga9 ! p[] to "w )94 ,:5 he1 ! be>] ( ! light1 s5ds =? ,8 rays ( wisdom & ! worlds are fill$ ,) haughty s5se ( self1 & ) full light ,ea* creature's p]sonality %9es =? ,a patt]n ( 8 own imp]i\s self1 ,!n may ! inmo/ be+ ( ! s\l ,build up on ?is appe>ance1 & rejoice ,9 all its s5ses1 :il/ x radiates ,! joy ( wisdom1 all ar\nd1 t lives ,9 its own self & loves to feel alive4 ,b1 m ?an any o!r _s1 man ,requires a ,god :o do? n only ask ,= admiration :5 8 outw>d =m ,reveals itself 9 glory to ! s\l1 ,b ,"o :o radiates ,8 highe/ p[] ,:5 ,he ,himself do? dwell )9 man's s\l1 ,& lov+ unto dea? =etelle? life4 ,a man may turn to ,lucif] & feel ,inspir$ by beauty1 or "s spl5d\r bright3 ,& yet s live 8 life )9 himself ,t ,lucif] c ne'er f9d entrance !re2 ,b to t o!r ,_s man do? cry1 ,:5 he c fa?om 8 own self aright3 ',! goal ( love = e>?ly s\ls--'tis ?is ,n ,i1 b ,*ri/1 do? live )9 me n[4' ,,b5$ictus 7turn+ to ,m>ia73 ,& :5 h] s\l %all to h] _s b[ ,z %e ha? v[$ to ,lucif]1 x %all1 ,!n ?r\gh h] p[] on to ! temple /ream ,) all t leads unto ! heal? ( ,e>?4 ,& ,*ri/ w k9dle 9 ! hall[$ place ,( wisdom w>m+ rays ( _s-love4 ,:at %e c ?us accompli% 9 ! _w ,is done because ! c\rse ( h] own life ,is b\nd up closely ) t knot ( fate ,:i* ,k>ma sp9s 9 human lives on ,e>?4 ,9 "s long-pa/ exi/5ce1 x 0 %e ,:o caus$ ! son to leave 8 fa!r's home2 ,& n[ %e leads ! son to him aga94 ,! s\l1 :i* 9 ,?omasius n[ dwells ,9 =m] life 0 to t "o :i* n[ ,fulfils itself )9 ,capesius1 ,z son to fa!r b\nd by ties ( blood4 ,! fa!r w n n[ ?r\gh ,lucif] ,dem& ! debt ,m>ia owes to him1 ,= by ,*ri/'s p[]1 ! debt ha? be5 annull$4 ,,magnus ,,bellicosus 7speak+ to ,hil>y & ,b5$ictus1 b frequ5tly turn+ to ,felix ,balde & ,dame ,balde73 ,)9 ! holy place do? %9e ! light ,:i* fl[s ) p[] f out ! _s-heights1 ,:5 s\ls c wor?ily receive its /r5g?4 ,b yet ^? l(ty p[]s ( wisdom's realm ,:i* ?us reveal !mselves 9 my/ic %r9es ,h *os5 also o!r pa?s to s\ls4 ,! signs ( our own times h made x cle> ,t all ^! pa?s mu/ n[ be jo9$ 9 "o4 ,! temple mu/ unite itself ) s\ls ,:o h rea*$ _s-light 9 o!r ways ,& yet h be5 enlight5$ 9 good tru?4 ,n[ ,dame ,felicia & h] husb& too1 ,are su* z may approa* ?is sacr$ place ,& :o c br+ to x a weal? ( light4 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,i c b tell ! fairy-tales t rise ,)9 my he>t q ( _! own accord-- only "k ab\t _! _s-s\rce ,:at (t ,capesius ha? told to me4 ,9 all humility ,i mu/ believe1 ,:at he ha? told me ( my gift ( s\l2 ,s also ,i believe :at ye make cle> ,:y ,i am call$ )9 ^! temple walls4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,i foll[$ n alone ! outw>d call ,s5t to me by ! gu>dian ( ?is %r9e2 ,b true unto my _s-pa?way's goal ,i h appli$ myself unto ! p[] ,:i*1 z m9e inmo/ guide1 do? ev] po9t ,9 :at direction ,i %all turn my /eps ,t ,i may be/ be able to fulfil ,9 life :at _s-p[]s h =eorda9$4 ,?is "t ,i saw q cle>ly ,i 0 meant ,to %un t way :i* ,b5$ictus n[ ,ha? %[n 8 pupils 9 ! _s-life4 ,! signs t n[ ,i see )9 ?is %r9e ,appe>$ to me 9 vision previ\sly4 ,= (t5 :5 my s\l did tread ! dep?s ,& all self-w _h be5 de/roy$ 9 me1 ,& p[] & pati5ce c\ld ma9ta9 !mselves ,9 t dread lonel9ess :i* aye approa*$ ,be=e ,i c\ld exp]i5ce _s-light1 ,!n all ! univ]se seem$ "o ) me1 ,& soon ,i f\nd myself )9 t _w1 ,:]e life's true purpose 0 reveal$ to me4 ,dur+ su* _s-w&'r+s ,i h be5 ,9 _m a temple :i* x seems to me ,resembles t :i* n[ my s5se p]ceives1 ,j z ! writ+ ( ! spok5 ^w ,mu/ %[ a writt5 picture ( ! spee*4 ,,tru/wor?y 79 ! ,we/1 to ,/rad]73 ,de> ,/rad]1 x is n[ ?y de/9y ,to speak t ^w h5ce=? )9 ! %r9e ,:i* w agree ) all ,?omasius ,makes kn[n to u1 z sunset mu/ agree ,) t hope-giv+ gl[ ( morn+ light4 ,?is ^w1 9 its full s5se do? seize ^u ,! work+ ( t ,p[] :o %[$ himself ,to !e1 :5 ?\ w]t /&+ on ?y trial4 ,?\ had/ to /& )9 t _s-place ,:]e ?\ght is /rictly ord]$ to /& /ill4 ,= if ?9e h& %\ld wield a hamm] n[ ,& only /rike ! air1 x c\ld n "k ,! p[] x ha?1 unless ! bl[ %\ld rea* ,"s anvil2 ev5 s x is ) ?\ght4 ,x ne'er c\ld really fa?om its own dep? ,if ,ahriman 7 n oppos$ to x4 ,all ?\ght )9 ?y life ha? l$ !e on ,to contradict ?yself & ?is ha? caus$ ,)9 ?y s\l bo? pa9 & heavy d\bt4 ,?us did/ ?\ le>n to "k ?yself ?r\gh ?\ght2 ,z light c only gaze ^u itself1 ,b ?r\gh reflection t its rays ca/ =?2 ,! words ( him :o s]ves ! temple "h ,?us1 9 a picture1 life's reflection %[4 ,,/rad]3 ,9 tru? ! light ( ?\ght = long "t /ream$ ,b ?r\gh reflection into m9e own life2 ,yet = full sev5 ye>s ! _s %[$ ,itself to me 9 its bright spl5d\r too1 ,& did reveal ^? worlds unto my s\l1 ,9 front ( :i* my s\l _h =m]ly ,/ood ev] /ill 9 torm5t & 9 d\bt4 ,)9 my s\l ?is light mu/ gr[ s deep ,t x %all la/ ?r\gh all et]nity1 ,if ,i w\ld f9d ! pa? to _s-aims ,& make my own creations br+ =? heal?4 ,,!odora 7becom+ visible1 z a _s-be+1 at ,/rad]'s side73 ,i 0 all[$ to w9 ?is light = y1 ,because ?y p[] did /rive t[>d my light1 ,z soon z ?y "r "t _h be5 fulfill$4 ,,/rad]3 ,s too ?y light1 ?\ _s-mess5g]1 ,w /ream o'er all ! words t 9 ?is place ,%all be wrung =? f out m9e inmo/ s\l4 ,= ,!odora's self is n[ ) m9e ,to holy my/ic s]vice consecrate4 7,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna1 & ! ,o!r ,philia appe> 9 a gl[+ cl\d ( light47 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,to ,e>?'s primeval s\rce ,m\nt ?\ghts ( sacrifice ,f _m a holy %r9e2 ,let all t lives 9 s\ls1 ,let all t _s lights ,so> to ! _w ( =m2 ,let cosmic-p[]s incl9e ,) graci\sness to m51 ,to k9dle _s-light ,)9 _! p[]s ( s\l4 ,,philia3 ,f cosmic spirits ,i ,w beg _! be+'s light1 ,! s\l-s5se to uphold2 ,! s\nd too ( _! words1 ,to loose ! _s-e>1 ,t :at ha? be5 ar\s$ ,^u ! pa?s ( s\l ,may n become ext9ct ,9 lives ( m5 on ,e>?4 ,,a/rid3 ,! love-/reams w ,i guide ,t fill ! _w ) w>m? ,unto ! spirits ( ,initiat$ m51 ,t ?us ! sacr$ rite ,may be pres]v$ & kept ,)9 ! he>ts ( m54 ,,luna3 ,f primal p[]s w ,i ,= might & c\rage pray1 ,= ^! w help to make ,self-sacrifice to gr[1 ,s t x may trans=m ,:at n[ is se5 9 "t ,& *ange to _s-se$s ,= all et]nity4 ,curta9 falls :ile all ! *>act]s1 includ+ ,!odora1 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna1 & ! ,o!r ,philia are /ill inside ! ,temple4 ,,! ,,s\l',s ,,awak5+ ,,summ>y ,,( ,,! ,,sc5es ,sc5e #a3 ,hil>y's bus9ess is ?reat5$ ) disa/] because ( 8 attempt to introduce into x 8 spiritual ideals & occult me?ods4 ,he has engag$ z controll] ( 8 ma*9]y1 ,/rad]1 :o is g5]ally kn[n to be a failure because ( 8 unpractical inv5tions4 ,) him comes a gr\p ( simil> cranks4 ,hil>y's old manag] is 9 despair4 ,sc5e #b3 ,johannes is a prey to delusion & loves to w&] 9 8 own dreaml&4 ,he is w>n$ by ,m>ia & ,b5$ictus4 ,capesius1 9 a mom5t ( clairvoyance gets a glimpse ( ,johannes' inn] mood1 & is s al>m$ t he decides t !re c be no bl5d+ ( spiritual gifts ) e>?ly ?+s1 & he )draws f ,hil>y's gr\p & goes to ! old my/ic ,felix4 ,m>ia urges ,johannes to discrim9ate betwe5 tru? end self-delusion :i* c be done by ! /udy ( elem5tal sprites4 ,! dance ( gnomes & sylphs4 ,! y\? ( ,johannes appe>s4 ,x is 9 despair because x is sep>at$ f ,johannes4 ,lucif] tries to console x ) promises ( human wisdom & love ( beauty4 ,!odora (f]s div9e wisdom4 ,sc5e #c3 ,argum5ts on v>i\s phases ( occult developm5t4 ,dur+ ! discussion1 ,ahriman glides /eal?ily across ! /age to br+ diss5sion & confusion ( ?\ght among ! speak]s1 :o are ignorant ( 8 pres5ce4 ,/rad]'s temptations4 ,felix speaks on my/icism4 ,! appe>ance 9 _s =m ( ,m>ia & ,b5$ictus to help ,/rad]1 & ( ,ahriman to ?w>t him4 ,!re is a repetition ( ,/rad]'s "p 9 ,sc5e ,,ii4 ,sc5e #d3 ,simil> discussions betwe5 ,hil>y's manag] & ,romanus4 ,ahriman _h succe$$ 9 sep>at+ ! v>i\s my/ics4 ,dur+ ! discussion1 ,romanus1 by 8 argum5ts on occultism1 makes a great impression ^u ! manag]4 ,johannes & 8 d\ble4 ,ahriman sc(fs at ! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4 ,/rad] ) ,b5$ictus4 ,! vision ( ! latt] is tr\bl$2 he--! occult lead]--is mi/ak54 ,sc5e #e3 ,! ,_s ,_w4 ,?is sc5e ne$s c>eful m$itation & "s k ( ! au?or's sy/em4 ,att5tion %\ld be giv5 to ! indications ( ! planet>y sph]es--,m]cury1 ,v5us1 ,sun1 ,jupit]1 & ,saturn--to :i* 9 turn we exp& aft] dea?4 ,he$ %\ld be paid to ! w>n+ giv5 by ! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4 ,lucif] "h appe>s z a b5efic5t guide1 s1 too1 ! o!r ,philia4 ,sc5e #f3 ,! ,_s ,_w4 ,! same rem>ks apply4 ,capesius is /ruck by ! figures ( 8 previ\s inc>nations1 z %[n 9 ! =m] plays4 ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old w all[ an ev5 e>li] inc>nation to appe>4 7,sc5es #g & #h3 ,! e>li] inc>nations 9 ,egypt giv+ ! key to ! f\r plays1 & %[+ ! orig9 ( developm5t ( ! diff]5t *>act]s47 ,sc5e #g3 ,%[s 9 a rem>kable way h[ ! future developm5t ( ! ,baldes & ,capesius is go+ to proce$4 ,! conclud+ spee* ( ! hi]ophant =e%ad[s ! approa* ( a new ,era :5 c&idates = initiation w get ! hidd5 light indep5d5tly & n "u ! hypnotic sugge/ion ( ! guid+ prie/4 ,sc5e #h3 ,drop sc5e4 ,egyptian woman 7o!rwise ,johannes ,?omasius7 is 9 love ) a man :o is a neophyte or c&idate = my/icism & ab\t to retire f ! _w4 ,?is my/ic is kn[n to u o!rwise z ,m>ia4 ,sc5e #h3 ,ab\t #bjjj ,b4,c4 ,! hi]ophant 7,capesius7 has refus$ to use 8 ?\ght p[] to sugge/ to ! c&idate :at 8 vision %\ld be4 ,! c&idate has a free vision look+ f> into ! future4 ,a brea? ( love & fre$om is waft$ into ! closely seal$ prec9cts4 ',! tru? %all make !e free4' ,b ) ?is rebellion aga9/ ! old ord]1 !re is a consequ5ce4 ,lucif] & ,ahriman hi!rto *a9$ )9 ! temple break _! *a9s & beg9 to "w _! w4 ,! anci5t temple has be5 invad$1 b ! ,ego beg9s to wake4 ,! read] w n ov]look1 9 all ?is cosmic developm5t1 ! individual developm5t ( ! diff]5t *>act]s :i* are difficult to und]/& f ! o!r plays )\t ?is glimpse into _! previ\s inc>nation4 ,! au?or has pres5t$ x 9 ?is ord]1 because x corresponds to ! read]'s own exp]i5ce4 ,sc5e #i3 ,m>ia's awak5+4 ,! rem9isc5ce 9 wak+ ( :at has happ5$ 9 a psy*ic condition4 ,sc5e #aj3 ,johannes' awak5+4 ,! quotations ref] to ,sc5es #g & #h4 ,sc5e #aa3 ,/rad]'s awak5+4 ,b5$ictus' vision is aga9 cl\d$4 ,! reason "h is probably ,/rad]'s approa*+ dea?4 ,! quotations ref] to ,sc5e #c4 ,sc5e #ab3 ,ahriman's mann]1 %ape1 & spee* betray ! fact t he is be+ f\nd out by ! foll[]s ( ,b5$ictus4 ,ahriman hopes1 h[ev]1 to cat* ,/rad]4 ,note ! satire indulg$ 9 at ! exp5se ( ^? occulti/s1 !osophi/s1 & o!rs ^: air ( sup]iority makes !m a laugh+ /ock4 ,note also ! la/ l9e %[+ ! importance ( rememb]+ ! dead4 ,sc5e #ac3 ,hil>y & ,romanus4 ,sc5e #ad3 ,/rad]'s dea? is ann\nc$ & ,hil>y's manag] is conv]t$4 ,sc5e #ae3 ,secret>y & ,nurse4 ,! ,secret>y's spee*4 ,ahriman's %ape is "h ev5 m t ( ! conv5tional devil ?an 9 ,sc5e #ab4 ,?is is to %[ t 8 true nature is n[ fully grasp$ by ,b5$ictus & 8 foll[]s4 ,?is is se5 9 ,ahriman's la/ spee*4 ,note ,b5$ictus' spee* ab\t ! dead & _! messages4 ,b5$ictus tells ,ahriman t "o c only s]ve ,good :5 "o does good n = oneself4 ,! triumph & initiation ( ,/rad] & 8 future p[]4 ,! defeat & exit ( ,ahriman4 ,,p]sons1 ,,figures1 ,,& ,,ev5ts ,! psy*ic & spiritual ev5ts portray$ 9 ?is play are to be conceiv$ z foll[+1 at ab\t a ye>'s int]val1 ^? del9eat$ 9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4' ,i4 ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,_s3 #a4 ,b5$ictus1 ! p]sonality 9 :om a numb] ( 8 'pupils' recognize ! sage :o kn[s ! deep spiritual connection ( e>?ly ev5ts4 ,9 my e>li] s\l pictures ',! ,portal ( ,initiation' & ',! ,s\l's ,probation1' he is portray$ z ! ,hi]ophant ( ! ,sun-,temple2 9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old' he manife/s t p>ticul> phase ( spiritual activity :i* aims to sub/itute ! actual spiritual life ( mod]n times = ! m]ely traditional views upheld !re9 by ! ,my/ic ,bro!rhood4 ,9 ',! ,s\l's ,awak5+' ,b5$ictus mu/ no long] be conceiv$ only z a sage :o has au?ority ov] 8 pupils b also z hav+ 8 own psy*ic de/9y int]wov5 ) _! psy*ic exp]i5ces4 #b4 ,hil>y ,true-to-,god1 ! adept 9 traditional spiritual life1 :i*1 9 8 case1 is accompani$ by individual _s-exp]i5ce4 ,he is ! same individuality :o appe>s 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ,gr& ,ma/] ( a ,my/ic ,bro!rhood4 #c4 ,! ,manag] ( ,hil>y's bus9ess ( sawmills4 #d4 ,hil>y's ,secret>y4 ,he appe>s 9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old' z ,fr$]ick ,cle>-,m9d4 ,,ii4 ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,sacrifice3 #a4 ,magnus ,bellicosus nam$ ,g]manus 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation4' ,9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' & 9 ! ',gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old' he is ! ,preceptor ( a ,my/ic ,bro!rhood4 #b4 ,alb]tus ,torquatus nam$ ',!odosius' 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation4' ,he appe>s 9 ! ',s\l's ,probation' z ! ,fir/ ,ma/] ( ,c]emonies ( ! ,my/ic ,bro!rhood4 #c4 ,pr(essor ,capesius appe>+ 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ,fir/ ,preceptor4 #d4 ,felix ,balde1 repres5t+ 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation' a k9d ( natural my/icism1 b "h1 a subjective my/icism4 ,he appe>s z ,joseph ,keane 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation4' ,,iii4 ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,w3 #a4 ,romanus :o is "h re-introduc$ "u ! same "n us$ = him 9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation' because x expresses ! inn] /ate ( be+ to :i* he has work$ upw>ds dur+ ! ye>s :i* elapse betwe5 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation' & ! ',awak5+4' ,9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old' ! "n giv5 him ( ,fr$]ick ,tru/wor?y is ! "o by :i* he is suppos$ to be kn[n 9 ! physical _w1 & ! "n is us$ !re because 8 inn] life has v little to d ) ! ev5ts repres5t$4 ,9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' he appe>s z ,second ,ma/] ( ,c]emonies 9 ! m$ival ,my/ic ,bro!rhood4 #b4 ,doctor ,/rad] ! individual appe>+ 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ! ,jew1 ,simon4 #c4 ,! ,nurse ( ,doctor ,/rad] ! individual call$ ,m>y ,/eadfa/ 9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4' ,9 ',! ,portal ( ,initiation' %e is kn[n z ',! ,o!r ,m>ia' because ! imag9ative p]ception ( ,johannes ,?omasius con/ructs1 "u h] guise1 an imag9ative picture ( c]ta9 nature-=ces4 ,h] individuality appe>s 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ,b]?a1 ,keane's daught]4 #d4 ,dame ,balde :o appe>s 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ,dame ,keane4 ,,iv4 ,repres5tatives ( ! ,elem5t ( ,s\l3 #a4 ,m>ia ^: individuality appe>s 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ! ,monk4 #b4 ,johannes ,?omasius ^: individuality appe>s 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ,?omas4 #c4 ,hil>y's wife4 ,v4 ,be+s f ! ,_s ,_w3 #a4 ,lucif]4 #b4 ,ahriman4 #c4 ,gnomes4 #d4 ,sylphs4 ,,vi4 ,be+s ( ! ,elem5t ( ,human ,_s3 #a4 ,philia ,! spiritual be+s ?r\gh ^: ag5cy ! #b4 ,a/rid human ,s\l-=ces are connect$ ) ! ,cosmos4 #c4 ,luna #d4 ,! ',o!r' ,philia1 repres5t+ ! elem5t ( ,love 9 ! _w to :i* ! _s-p]sonality belongs4 #e4 ,! ,s\l ( ,!odora appe>+ 9 ',! ,s\l's ,probation' z ,cecilia1 fo/] daught] ( ,keane & si/] ( ,?omas :o imp]sonates ,johannes ,?omasius4 #f4 ,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4 #g4 ,! ,d\ble ( ,johannes ,?omasius4 #h4 ,! ,_s ( ,johannes ,?omasius' ,y\?4 #i4 ,! ,s\l ( ,f]d9& ,fox 9 ! realm ( ,ahriman 7,sc5e #ab74 ,he appe>s z ,f]d9& ,fox only 9 ',! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old4' ,,vii4 ,! p]sonalities ( ,b5$ictus & ,m>ia also appe> z m5tal exp]i5ces1 to wit3 ,9 ! second sc5e z ^? ( ,johannes ,?omasius1 9 ! ?ird sc5e z ^? ( ,/rad]4 ,m>ia appe>s ?us to ,johannes ,?omasius 9 ,sc5e #i4 ,,viii4 ,! individualities ( ,b5$ictus1 ,hil>y ,true-to-,god1 ,magnus ,bellicosus1 ,alb]tus ,torquatus1 ,/rad]1 ,capesius1 ,felix ,balde1 ,dame ,balde1 ,romanus1 ,m>ia1 ,johannes ,?omasius & ,!odora appe> 9 ! _s-realm 9 ! fif? & six? sc5es ( ?is play1 z 's\ls'2 & 9 ! temple 9 ! sev5? & eigh? sc5es z p]sonalities liv+ 9 a f> di/ant pa/4 ,9 connection ) ',! ,s\l's ,awak5+' x is advisable aga9 to draw att5tion to a po9t already made ) ref]5ce to ! prec$+ s\l-pictures4 ,nei!r ! spiritual nor ! psy*ic ev5ts nor ! spiritual be+s are int5d$ to be m]e symbols or allegories4 ,anyone int]pret+ !m 9 ?is mann] w\ld q misconceive ! real be+ ( ! spiritual _w4 ,ev5 9 ! m5tal exp]i5ces :i* are %[n 79 ! second1 ?ird1 & t5? sc5es7 no?+ m]ely symbolical is portray$4 ,!y are g5u9e psy*ic exp]i5ces1 z real = a p]son :o has access to ! _s _w z are p]sons & ev5ts 9 ! _w ( ! s5ses4 ,su* a p]son w f9d ',! ,awak5+' a ?or\ghly reali/ic s\l-picture4 ,7 ! case "o ( m]e symbolism or allegory1 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly h left ^! sc5es unwritt54 ,9 response to v>i\s que/ions1 ,i _h once m attempt$ to add a few 'supplem5t>y rem>ks' 9 explanation ( ?is 's\l-picture2' b z on =m] occasions1 ,i aga9 suppress ! attempt4 ,i feel av]se to add+ mat]ial ( ?is k9d to a picture int5d$ to speak = itself4 ,su* ab/ract consid]ations h no "p to play 9 ! conception & work+-out ( ! picture1 & w\ld only be a discordant elem5t4 ,! spiritual realities1 "h set =?1 pres5t !mselves to ! s\l z conv9c+ly z physical ?+s pres5t !mselves to our bodily p]ception4 ,yet1 z is natural1 an uncl\d$ spiritual vision views ! be+s & ev5ts %[n 9 pictures pa9t$ by spiritual p]ception o!rwise ?an ! physical p]ceptions w\ld behold ! same be+s & ev5ts4 ,on ! o!r h&1 x mu/ be said t ! mann] 9 :i* spiritual ev5ts array !mselves be=e ! p]ception ( ! s\l det]m9es alike ! t5d5cy & con/ruction ( su* pictures4 ,,! ,,s\l',s ,,awak5+ ,,sc5e #a ,hil>y's (fice4 ,fitt+s n v mod]n4 ,he is a manufactur] ( sawn woodwork4 ,,secret>y3 ,& e'en our good fri5ds 9 ,/4 ,george/[n ,decl>e t !y too are dissatisfi$4 ,,manag]3 ,:at8 ev5 !y2 x is deplorable4 ,! self-same reasons too2 'tis pla9 to see ,) :at regret & pa9 our fri5ds ann\nce ,t !y c deal no m ) ,hil>y4 ,,secret>y3 ,compla9ts ( our unpunctuality ,& ( ! value ( our goods comp>$ ,) ^? produc$ by our competitors ,rea* u by po/2 & on my bus9ess trips ,our cli5ts meet me ) ! same old tale4 ,! good "n ( ?is h\se is vani%+1 ,by ,hil>y's =efa!rs h&$ d[n ,to u intact t we might height5 x4 ,& m5 beg9 to ?9k t ,hil>y ,is sway$ by dream]s & /range fantasies1 ,&1 ?us obsess$1 no long] c be/[ ,! e>ne/ c>e :i* he 0 wont to give ,to all ! op]ations ( ! firm1 ,^: products 7 _w-fam\s & unique4 ,s _m z 7 our admir]s !n ,s great is n[ ! tale ( ^? :o blame4 ,,manag]3 ,x is notori\s t ,hil>y ,long s9ce ha? let himself be l$ a/ray ,by seek]s aft] "s /range _s gifts4 ,to su* pursuits he ev] 0 incl9$2 ,b =m]ly he kept !m sep>ate ,f bus9ess & its workaday r\t9e4 7,ent] ,hil>y47 ,,manag] 7to ! ,secret>y73 ,x seems advisable to me to speak ,alone ) our employ] = a :ile4 7,exit ,secret>y47 ,,manag]3 ,anxiety x is t bids me seek ,an int]view & e>ne/ spee* ) !e4 ,,hil>y3 ,:y !n does my advis] feel conc]n$8 ,,manag]3 ,?+s happ5 con/antly :i* br+ to light ,a s]i\s dim9ution 9 dem& ,= :at we manufacture2 nor d we ,produce z l>ge an output z we %\ld4 ,!re is besides an increase ( compla9ts ,ab\t ! l[] /&>d ( our "w1 ,& o!r h\ses /ep 9 front ( u4 ,s too our well-kn[n promptness ha? decl9$ ,z _m cli5ts tru?fully atte/4 ,ere long ! be/ fri5ds t rema9 to u ,no m w be cont5t ) ,hil>y4 ,,hil>y3 ,long h ,i be5 full well aw>e ( ?is ,& yet inde$ x leaves me unconc]n$4 ,b none ! less ,i feel an urg5t ne$ ,to talk ?+s ov] ) !e2 ?\ ha/ help$ ,n only z ! s]vant ( my h\se1 ,b also z my de> & tru/$ fri5d4 ,& s ,i %all speak pla9ly to !e n[ ,( matt]s :i* ,i (t h h9t$ at4 ,:oev] wills to br+ ! new ?+s 9 ,mu/ be cont5t to let ! old ?+s die4 ,h5ce=? ! bus9ess w be c>ri$ on ,9 diff]5t ways f ^? x knew be=e4 ,production1 t b /ays 9 /raite/ b\nds ,& )\t c>e do? (f] up its fruits ,^u ! m>ket ( our e>?ly life ,reg>dless ( ! uses !y may f9d1 ,do? seem s trivial & ( little wor?1 ,s9ce ,i h come to "k ! noble =m ,"w c assume :5 %ap$ by _s-m54 ,f ?is "t =? ,?omasius %all be ,direct+ arti/ 9 ! work%ops "h1 ,:i* ,i %all build = him close to our works4 ,s w ! product made by our ma*9es ,be m\ld$ by 8 w 9 arti/-=ms ,& ?us supply = daily human ne$ ,! useful ) ! exquisite comb9$1 ,art & production %all become "o :ole ,& daily life by ta/e be beautifi$4 ,s w ,i add to ^! dead =ms ( s5se1 ,= ?us d ,i reg>d our output n[1 ,a s\l1 :]eby !y may be ju/ifi$4 ,,manag] 7aft] long reflection73 ,! plan to fabricate su* wond]-w>es ,suits n ! _s ( our pres5t age4 ,! aim ( all production n[ mu/ be ,complete p]fection 9 "s n>r[ groove4 ,! p[]s :i* "w imp]sonally1 & p\r ,! "p into ! :ole 9 active /reams1 ,conf] un?9k+ly ^u ea* l9k ,a wor? t is by wisdom n be/[$4 ,& 7 ?is ob/acle n 9 ?y pa? ,yet w\ld ?y purpose none ! less be va94 ,t ?\ %\ld/ f9d a man to realize ,! plan ?\ ha/ s *>m+ly conceiv$ ,passe? belief1 at lea/ x passe? m9e4 ,,hil>y3 ,?\ kn[e/1 fri5d1 ,i d n dream va9 dreams4 ,h[ %\ld ,i aim at su* a l(ty goal ,_h n k9d fate already br\ght to me ,! man to realize :at ,i propose8 ,i am amaz$ t ?9e eyes _c see ,t ,/rad] is1 9 fact1 ?is v man4 ,& "o :o1 kn[+ ?is man's inn] self1 ,& 8 own duty to humanity1 ,conceives "o ( 8 duties to be ?is2 ,to f9d a field ( "w = su* a man1 ,a dream] is no prop] "n = him4 ,,manag] 7aft] manife/+ "s surprise73 ,am ,i to look on ,/rad] z ?is man8 ,9 8 case ha? x n be5 manife/ ,h[ easily delud$ mortals are ,:o lack ! p[] to "k realities8 ,t 8 contrivance owes to _s-light ,its orig9 do? n admit ( d\bt4 ,& if x c sometime be p]fect$ ,^? b5efits w d\btless p\r !refrom ,:i* ,/rad] ?\ght he _h already won4 ,b a m]e model x w long rema9 ,see+ ^? =ces are /ill undisclos$ ,^: p[] alone w give reality4 ,i am di/ress$ to f9d t ?\ do/ hope ,good w result f giv+ up ?y plant ,unto a man :o came to grief himself ,) 8 own c>efully contriv$ ma*9e4 ',tis true x l$ 8 _s up to heights ,:i* ev] w entice ! s\ls ( m51 ,b :i* w only !n be scal$ by him ,:5 he ha? made ! rightful p[]s 8 own4 ,,hil>y3 ,t ?\ mu/ praise ! _s ( ?is man ,& yet seek'/ cause to ov]?r[ 8 "w ,do? prove mo/ cle>ly t 8 wor? is great4 ,! fault1 ?\ saye/1 did n lie 9 him1 ,t failure r ?an success 0 84 ,among u !re=e he w surely f9d ,8 prop] place2 = "h !re w n be ,ext]nal h9drances to ?w>t 8 plans4 ,,manag]3 ,& if1 despite :at ,i h j n[ said1 ,i 7 to /rive )9 myself & try ,to tune my reason to ?y mode ( ?\ght1 ,/ill "o m po9t compels me to object4 ,:o w 9 future value ?is ?y "w8 ,or %[ su* compreh5sion ( ?9e aims ,z to make use ( :at ?\ may/ h made8 ,?y prop]ty w all be swall[$ up ,be=e ?y bus9ess ha? be5 well begun1 ,& !n x c no m be c>ri$ on4 ,,hil>y3 ,i will+ly admit my plans w\ld %[ ,!mselves imp]fect1 if among/ mank9d ,true compreh5sion 7 n fir/ ar\s$ ,= ?is new k9d & /yle ( h&icraft4 ,:at ,/rad] & ,?omasius create ,mu/ be p]fect$ 9 ! ,sanctu>y ,:i* ,i %all build = _s k "h4 ,:at ,b5$ictus1 :at ,capesius ,& :at ,m>ia yond] %all imp>t ,w %[ to man ! pa? t he %\ld tread ,& make him feel ! ne$ to p5etrate ,8 human s5ses ) ! _s's light4 ,,manag]3 ,& s ?\ w\ld/ end[ a little clique ,to live self-c5tr$1 f ! _w ap>t1 ,& %ut ?yself f all true human life4 ,?\ fa9 w\ld/ bani% selfi%ness on e>? ,yet wilt ?\ *]i% x 9 ?y retreat4 ,,hil>y3 ,a dream]1 x w\ld seem1 ?\ ?9ke/ me1 ,:o ?\ghtlessly d5ies exp]i5ce ,t life ha? br\ght him4 ,?us %\ld ,i appe> ,unto myself if1 = "o mom5t's space1 ,i held ?is view ?\ ha/ ab\t success4 ,! cause t ,i hold de> may fail inde$1 ,yet ev5 if1 despis$ by all mank9d ,x crumbles into du/ & disappe>s1 ,yet 0 x once conceiv$ by human s\ls ,& set up z a patt]n on ?is e>?4 ,9 _s x w "w its way 9 life ,al?\gh x /ay n 9 ! _w ( s5se4 ,x w contribute "p ( t great p[] ,:i* 9 ! end w make x come to pass ,t e>?ly de$s are w$ to _s aims2 ,?is 9 ! _s-wisdom is =etold4 ,,manag]3 ,i am ?y s]vant & h _h my say ,z duty & conviction bade me speak2 ,yet n[ ! attitude ?\ ha/ assum$ ,gives me ! "r to speak z fri5d to fri5d4 ,9 "w toge!r ) !e ,i h felt ,myself impell$ = _m a ye> to seek ,a p]sonal k ( ! ?+s to :i* ,?\ giv'/ ?yself ) su* self-sacrifice2 ,my only guides h be5 ! writt5 words ,:]e9 ! _s-wisdom is reveal$4-- ,& ?\gh ! worlds are hidd5 f my gaze ,to :i* ^? writ+s _h direct$ me1 ,yet 9 imag9ation ,i c feel ,! m5tal /ate ( m5 ^: simple tru/ ,leads !m to seek su* _s-v]ities4 ,i h f\nd confirmation 9 myself ,( :at ! exp]ts 9 ?is love describe1 ,z be+ ! possession ( su* s\ls ,z feel !mselves at home 9 _s realms4 ,! all-important ?+1 x seems to me1 ,is t su* s\ls1 despite _! utmo/ c>e1 ,_c divide illusions f ! ,tru? ,:5 !y come d[n f out ! _s heights ,z come !y mu/1 back into e>?ly life4 ,!n f ! _s _w1 s newly won1 ,visions desc5d ^u !m :i* prev5t ,_! see+ cle>ly 9 ! _w ( s5se1 ,&1 ?us misl$1 _! judgm5t goes a/ray ,9 ?+s p]ta9+ to ?is life on e>?4 ,,hil>y3 ,:at ?\ w\ld/ raise z h9drance to my "w ,do? b confirm my purpose2 ?\ ha/ prov$ ,t 9 ?yself ,i n[ h "o fri5d m ,to /& beside me 9 my se>* = tru?4 ,h[ c\ld ,i h conjectur$ up till n[ ,?y k ( ! nature ( ^? s\ls ,:o fa9 w\ld come & jo9 me 9 my task8 ,?\ "k'/ ! p]ils ev] ?reat'n+ !m4 ,s w _! actions make x cle> to !e ,t !y "k pa?s :]e !y are kept f h>m4 ,soon ?\ wilt d\btless "k t ?is is s1 ,& ,i %all f9d h5ce=? z 9 ! pa/ ,9 !e a c\nsellor1 :o do? n fail4 ,,manag]3 ,i _c l5d my /r5g? to fa%ion de$s ,^: processes ,i d n und]/&4 ,^? m5 9 :om ?\ tru/$ seem to me ,misl$ by ! illusion ,i h nam$3 ,& o!rs too1 :o li/5 to _! words1 ,w victims to t same illusion fall ,:i* do? o'erp[] all ?\ght t kn[s its goal4 ,my help & c\nsel ev]more %all be ,?9e to comm& z long z ?\ do/ ne$ ,acts bas$ ^u exp]i5ce on e>?2 ,b ?is new "w ( ?9e is n = me4 ,,hil>y3 ,by ?y refusal ?\ do/ jeop>dize ,a "w design$ to fur!r _s-aims4 ,= ,i am hamp]$ lack+ ?9e advice4 ,consid] h[ imp]i\s is ! call ,( duty :5 fate designs to make a sign1 ,& su* a sign ,i _c b behold ,9 ^! m5 be+ "h at our behe/4 ,,manag]3 ,! long] ?\ do/ speak 9 su* a /ra9 ,m cle>ly do/ ?\ prove ?yself to me1 ,! unconsci\s victim ( illusion's spell4 ,?y purpose is to s]ve humanity1 ,b 9 reality ?\ wilt b s]ve ,! gr\p :i*1 back$ by !e1 w h ! means ,to c>ry on a:ile its _s-dream4 ,soon %all we "h behold activities ,orda9$ no d\bt by _s = ^! s\ls1 ,b :i* w prove a mirage to ourselves ,& mu/ de/roy ! h>ve/ ( our "w4 ,,hil>y3 ,if ?\ wilt n befri5d me ) ?9e aid ,dre> do? ! future /ret* be=e my s\l4 7,ent] ,/rad]1 left47 ,,hil>y3 ,de> ,/rad]1 ,i h long expect$ !e4 ,z ?+s are n[ x seems advisable ,to sp5d ! pres5t "t 9 s]i\s talk ,& lat] on1 decide :at we %all d4 ,my de> old fri5d ha? j confess$ to me ,t he c n approve :at we h plann$4 ,s let u n[ he> c\nsel f ! man ,:o promises 8 _s to our "w4 ,mu* n[ dep5ds ^u h[ at ?is "t ,m5 recognize ea* o!r 9 _! s\ls1 ,:o ea* to ea* seem l a sep>ate _w ,& yet unit$ c\ld accompli% mu*4 ,,/rad]3 ,& s ! loyal fri5d ( ,hil>y ,w n jo9 ) u 9 ! hopeful "w ,:i* our fri5d's wisdom ha? made possible8 ,yet c our plan alone be c>ri$ out ,if 8 prov$ skill 9 life be wisely jo9$ ,9 compact ) ! aims ( future days4 ,,manag]3 ,n only w ,i hold alo( myself1 ,b ,i w\ld also make cle> to my fri5d1 ,t ?is design ha? nei!r aim nor s5se4 ,,/rad]3 ,i d n wond] ?\ %\ld'/ hold t view ,( any plan 9 :i* ,i am conc]n$4 ,i saw a great inception come to grief ,because today ! =ces /ill are hid ,:i* turn cle> ?\ght to s5se reality4 ',tis kn[n ,i drew f _s-light ! ?\ght1 ,:i*1 ?\gh prov$ true1 yet _h no life on e>?4 ,?is fact do? witness 'ga9/ my p[] to judge ,& also kills belief t _s hides ,! s\rce ( true creation on ! e>?4 ,& 'twill be v difficult to prove ,t su* exp]i5ce ha? giv'n me p[] ,n to fall victim = ! second "t4 ,= ,i mu/ ne$s fall into error once ,t ,i may safely rea* ! l& ( tru?4 ,yet 'tis b natural m5 %\ld d\bt my ^w4 ,?y _s outlook mo/ especially ,mu/ f9d our wisdom promise little ga94 ,i he> !e prais$ = t ke5 sympa?y ,:i* goes out f !e to all _s-life1 ,& = ! "t & /r5g? ?\ give/ x4 ,b x is also said t ?\ w\ld/ keep ,?y "w on e>? sev]ely sep>ate ,f _s-/riv+1 :i* ) its own p[]s ,w\ld "w creatively 9 ?y s\l-life4 ,to ?is pursuit ?\ w\ld/ devote alone ,^? h\rs :i* e>?ly lab\r do? n claim4 ,! aim1 h[ev]1 ( ! _s-tide ,:]e ,i see cle> life's evolution writ1 ,is to jo9 _s-"w = _s-ends ,to e>?ly lab\rs 9 ! _w ( s5se4 ,,manag]3 ,s long z _s b to _s gives ,all x c d 9 free creative might1 ,x raise? s\ls 9 human dignity ,& gives !m reason 9 _! life on e>?4 ,b :5 x seeks to live out its own self ,& ov] o!rs' selves to dom9e] ,x /raightway do? draw nigh ! realm 9 :i* ,illusion (t5 c endang] tru?4 ,?is k unto :i* ,i h atta9$ ,by p]sonal ef=t 9 ! _s-_w ,do? make me act z ,i d act today2 ,x is n p]sonal pref]5ce1 z ?\1 ,misl$ by :at is said ( me1 w\ld/ ?9k4 ,,/rad]3 ,an error 'tis 9 _s-k !n ,t makes !e ho/ile to ! views ,i hold4 ,?r\gh ?is w difficulties multiply4 ,no d\bt 'tis easy = ! _s-se] ,to "w 9 p>tn]%ip ) o!r m5 ,:o h already let !mselves be taught ,by life & nature :at exi/5ce means4 ,b :5 ideas :i* claim t !y d spr+ ,f _s s\rces jo9 reluctantly ,) o!rs fl[+ f ! self-same s\rce1 ,"o c b seldom hope = h>mony4 7,aft] a p]iod ( quiet m$itation47 ,yet t :i* mu/ w surely come to pass4 ,r5ew$ exam9ation ( my plans 444 ,p]haps may make !e *ange ! views1 to :i* ,on fir/ consid]ation ?\ do/ cl+4 ,curta9 :il/ all ?ree are sunk 9 reflection4 ,,sc5e #b ,m\nta9\s c\ntry2 9 ! di/ance1 ,hil>y's h\se1 :i* is 9 ! vic9ity ( ! work%ops1 :i* are n se54 ,hil>y's h\se has no upp] floor2 no corn]s or angles1 & is cresc5t %ap$4 ,a wat]fall on ! left ( ! /age1 fac+ audi5ce4 ,a rivulet runs f ! wat]fall betwe5 little rocks across ! /age4 ,johannes is se5 sitt+ on a rock to "r4 ,capesius left4 ,,johannes3 ,! t[]+ masses ) _! sil5t life ,brim up ! air ) riddles manifold2 ,yet ask no madd5+ que/ions su* z slay ,a s\l t asks n = exp]i5ce ,b only = s]5ity 9 :i* ,x may behold life's revelation cle>4 ,see h[ ^! col\rs play among ^! cliffs1 ,h[ calmly dumb ! b>e expanses lie1 ,h[ twilight clo!s ! woods 9 gre5 & blue2 ,?is is ! _w 9 :i* ,johannes' s\l ,w re/ & weave tomorr['s fantasies4 ,johannes' s\l %all feel )9 itself ,! dep?s & di/ances ( ?is its _w2 ,& by creative p[]s ?is s\l %all be ,deliv]$ ( its hidd5 en]gy ,& make kn[n t ! _w's en*antm5t is ,only appe>ance glorifi$ by art4 ,yet c\ld ,johannes ne'er accompli% ?is ,did n ,m>ia ?r\gh h] love awake ,) g5tle s\l-w>m? =ces 9 8 s\l4 ,i mu/ ackn[l$ge fate's wise lead]%ip ,9 draw+ me s closely unto h]4 ,h[ %ort a "t x is s9ce ,i h kn[n ,t %e is by my side2 h[ closely knit ,ha? be5 9 ^! few weeks ,johannes' s\l ,into a liv+ unity ) h]s4 ,z _s %e lives 9 me ?\gh f> (f2 ,%e ?9ks )9 my ?\ght :5 ,i call up ,be=e my s\l ! objects ( my w4 7,m>ia appe>s z a ?\ght ( ,johannes47 ,,johannes 7cont9u+73 ,m>ia "h be=e me6 b h[ /range6 ,%e mu/ n ?us reveal h]self to me6 ,?is /]n cold _s-face1 ?is dignity ,t *ills my e>?ly feel+s--'tis n ?us ,johannes w or c ,m>ia see ,draw nigh to him4 ',tis n ,m>ia--?is-- ,:om by k9d fate's decree wise p[]s h s5t4 7,m>ia disappe>s f ,johannes' vision47 ,:]e is ,m>ia :om ,johannes lov$ ,be=e %e _h trans=m$ 8 s\l 9 him ,& l$ x up to ice-cold _s-heights8 ,& :]e ,johannes1 :om ,m>ia lov$1 ,:]e is he n[8--,he 0 at h& e'en n[4 ,i see no m ,johannes1 :o did/ give ,me back unto myself ) joy4 ,! pa/ ,_c & %all n rob me ( him ?us4 7,m>ia aga9 appe>s be=e ,johannes' vision47 ,,m>ia3 ,m>ia z ?\ fa9 w\ld/ h] behold ,lives n 9 worlds :]e %9es ! light ( tru?4 ,johannes' _s treads illusion's realm ,by fantasy misl$2 set ?yself free ,f /rong desire & its allur+ p[]4 ,i feel 9 me ! turmoil ( ?y s\l2 ,x robs me ( ! calmness t ,i ne$4 ',tis n ,johannes :o directs ! /orm ,into my s\l2 x is "s o!r man1 ,o'er :om he 0 victori\s 9 ! pa/4 ,n[ z a wrai? x roams ! _s-pla9s2-- ,once kn[n = su* x /raight w fade away4 ,,johannes3 ,t is ,m>ia z %e really is1 ,:o ( ,johannes speaks z he appe>s ,to 8 own vision at ! pres5t "t4 ,long s9ce into ano!r =m he rose ,?an t :i* errant fancy pa9ts = me ,because ,i am cont5t to let my s\l ,amuse itself ) dreams 9 slo?ful ease4 ,b n yet do? ?is be+ hold me fa/4 ,escape f him ,i /ill c--& ,i w-- ,he (t5 calls me to 8 side & /rives ,to w9 me = myself by 8 own p[]s-- ,yet w ,i /rive to free myself f him4 ,long ye>s ago he flood$ my s\l's dep?s ,) _s be+2 none ! less today ,no m d ,i desire to h>b\r him4 ,?\ /rang] be+ 9 ,johannes' s\l ,=sake me--give me back my pri/9e self ,be=e ?\ did/ comm5ce ?y "w 9 me4 ,i w\ld behold ,johannes free ( !e4 7,b5$ictus appe>s at ,m>ia's side1 equally z a ?\ght ( ,johannes47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,johannes1 he$ ! w>n+ ( ?y s\l2 ,! man :o1 flood+ !e ) _s1 rose ,to be ?y nature's primal en]gy1 ,mu/ at ?y side /ill hold 8 fai?ful sway ,& claim t ?\ trans=m 8 be+'s p[]s ,?r\gh ?y w into human de$s4 ,he mu/1 ,himself conceal$1 "w out 8 task 9 !e2 ,t ?\ "s day may/ rea* :at ?\ do/ "k ,to be ?y be+'s di/ant future goal4 ,?y p]sonal sorr[ ?\ mu/ be> ?r\gh life ,fa/ lock$ )9 ! *amb] ( ?y s\l4 ,s only %alt ?\ w9 ?yself1 if ?\ ,do/ bravely let him own !e m & m4 ,,m>ia 7se5 z a ?\ght ( ,johannes73 ,my holy e>ne/ v[ do? beam =? p[] ,:i* %all pres]ve = !e :at ?\ ha/ won4 ,me %alt ?\ f9d 9 ^? cold fields ( ice1 ,:]e spirits mu/ create light = !mselves4 ,:5 d>kness w\nds & maims ! p[]s ( life ,seek me )9 ^? cosmic dep?s :]e s\ls ,wre/le to w9 ,god-k = !mselves4 ,by conque/ t w9s be+ f ! void2 ,b nev] seek me 9 ! realm ( %ades1 ,:]e outliv$ s\l-exp]i5ce w9s by guile ,a transi5t life f out illusion's web1 ,& dream's frail phantoms c ! _s *eat2 ,s t 9 pleasure x =gets itself ,& looks on s]i\s ef=t ) di/a/e4 7,b5$ictus & ,m>ia disappe>47 ,,johannes3 ,%e sai? illusion 444 444 yet 'tis pass+ fair4 ,x lives2 ,johannes feels x 9 himself1 ,he feels ,m>ia's ne>ness 9 him too4 ,johannes w n "k h[ _s works ,to solve ! riddles ( ! s\l's d>k dep?s4 ,he w create & w z arti/s "w4 ,s may t "p ( him /ill lie conceal$1 ,:i* consci\sly w\ld gaze on cosmic heights4 7,he s9ks into fur!r m$itation47 7,capesius rises f 8 seat2 z x 7 ar\s+ himself out ( deep ?\ght47 ,,capesius3 ,did ,i n cle>ly feel )9 my s\l ,t :i* ,johannes1 dream+ ov] !re1 ,wr\ght z ! pictures ( 8 long+ he>t8 ,)9 me gl[$ to life ?\ghts n m9e own-- ,su* z he only c\ld orig9ate4 ,! be+ ( 8 s\l liv$ 9 m9e own1 ,i saw him y\ng] gr[n1 z he beheld ,himself ?r\gh va9 illusion1 & did mock ,! ripe fruits t 8 _s _h a*iev$4 ,b hold6 ,:y d ,i n[ exp]i5ce ?is8 ,= seldom may ! _s-se>*] see ,! be+ 9 himself ( o!r s\ls4 ,i m9d1 t ,b5$ictus (t5 said ,t only he--& only = a :ile-- ,c d ?is1 ^: good de/9y orda9s ,t he %all be uprais$ "o fur!r /ep ,^u ! _s pa?4 ,may ,i ?us read ,! mean+ ( :at happ5$ ev5 n[8 ,seldom inde$ c\ld ?is ?+ be all[$2 ,= 'tw\ld be t]rible if aye ! se] ,c\ld see ! inn] be+ ( m5's s\ls4 ,did ,i see truly8--or c\ld x h be5 ,illusion let me dream ano!r's s\l8 ,i mu/ enquire f ,johannes himself4 7,capesius approa*es ,johannes1 :o n[ notices him = ! fir/ "t47 ,,johannes3 ,capesius--,i ?\ght !e f> f "h4 ,,capesius3 ,yet my s\l felt itself q ne> to ?9e4 ,,johannes3 ,ne> m9e--at su* a "t--x _c be6 ,,capesius3 ,:y do/ ?\ %udd] at ^! words ( m9e8 ,,johannes3 ,i d n %udd] 444 7,at ?is mom5t ,m>ia jo9s !m2 ?is enables bo? ,johannes & ,capesius to speak _! next words to !mselves47 7,to himself73 444 h[ 8 /eady glance ,do? pi]ce me to m9e inmo/ dep?s ( s\l4 ,,capesius 7to himself73 ,8 %udd] %[s me t ,i saw aright4 7,capesius turns to ,m>ia47 ,m>ia1 ?\ do/ come 9 fitt+ "t4 ,p]haps ?y tongue may speak "s ^w ( *e]4 ,to solve ! problem :i* oppresse? me4 ,,m>ia3 ,i ?\ght to f9d ,johannes "h1 n !e4 ,=ebod+ bade me seek ! problem's weight ,9 him--b ?\1 ,i fanci$1 wa/ cont5t1 ,devot$ to t glori\s ent]prise ,:i* we are (f]$ "h by ,hil>y4 ,,capesius3 ,:at c>e ,i = x8 ,x di/urbs me n[-- ,,m>ia3 ,di/urbs !e8 ,did/ ?\ n express delight ,to ?9k ?y projects might be realiz$8 ,,capesius3 ,:at ,i h liv$ ?r\gh 9 ?is fateful h\r ,ha? *ang$ ! =m] purpose ( my s\l1 ,s9ce all activity 9 "w on e>? ,mu/ rob me ( my new clairvoyant p[]s4 ,,m>ia3 ,:oe'er is suff]$ to tread _s-ways ,f9ds _m a h9t to %ape 8 de/9y4 ,on s\l pa?s he w try to foll[ !m1 ,yet !y h n be5 rightly und]/ood ,if !y di/urb 8 duties on ! e>?4 7,capesius sits1 & is plung$ 9 ?\ght :ile ! vision ( ,lucif] appe>s to ,m>ia47 ,,lucif]3 ,?9e ef=t w n br+ !e mu* rew>d4 ,new =ce beg9s to /ir )9 8 he>t ,t opes ! portal ( 8 s\l to me4 ,m>ia1 gaze ) ?y clairvoyant sight ,^u 8 inmo/ s\l2 & !re behold ,h[ he do? free himself on _s-w+s ,f ?y w>m lov+ bonds ( "w on e>?4 7,lucif] rema9s on ! sc5e47 7,m>ia turns t[>ds ,capesius to r\se him f 8 m$itation1 b at ! same mom5t he seems to r\se himself ( 8 own accord47 ,,m>ia3 ,if on ! _s-pa? ,johannes felt ,! nature ( 8 duties h9d] him1 ',tw\ld n be "r1 ?\gh s x might appe>4 ,he ne$s mu/ "w ^u ! out] plane4 ,?y task is to exp\nd ! _s-lore ,to o!r m5 & su* a task z ?is ,_c imp$e ! progress ( ?y s\l4 ,,capesius3 ,f> m ?an :5 !y "w on out] ?+s ,d _s =ces lose !mselves 9 words4 ,words make "o reason o'er :at "o has se51 ,& reason is a foe to se]%ip's p[]4 ,i _h a _s-vision ev5 n[ ,:i* only c\ld disclose itself to me ,because ! s\l :i* 0 reveal$ to me1 ,al?\gh our e>?ly bodies are close fri5ds1 ,_h nev] be5 by me q und]/ood ,if ,i saw truly1 ,i am no m b\nd ,by any ties unto ?is "w ( e>?4 ,= ,i mu/ feel p]suad$ t high ,p[]s ,n[ set ano!r goal be=e my s\l ,?an t prescrib$ = x by ,hil>y4 7,he places himself 9 front ( ,johannes47 ,,capesius3 ,johannes1 tell me truly1 did/ ?\ n ,a :ile ago feel old1 outliv$ desires ,t liv$ )9 !e l ?y pres5t self1 ,:ile ?\ wa/ lo/ 9 m$itation deep8 ,,johannes3 ,c !n my _s's /ruggle "w to =m ,exp]i5ce )9 ano!r's s\l8 ,& c su* vision make m9e error /rong ,to f9d its way to life 9 cosmic space8 7,johannes aga9 falls into m$itation47 7,m>ia turns h] face t[>ds ,lucif] & he>s him say37 ,,lucif]3 ,"h too ,i f9d ! s\l's gate op5 wide4 ,i'll n delay b use ?is *ance at once4 ,if also 9 ?is s\l a _s-wi% ,is born1 t "w ( love mu/ come to naught ,:i* do? bode ill to me ?r\gh ,hil>y4 ,i c de/roy ,m>ia's might 9 him3 ,& ?us c add h] p[] unto m9e own4 7,capesius at ?is mom5t /raight5s up self-consci\sly1 &1 dur+ ! foll[+ spee*1 %[s an increas+ly def9ite conviction47 ,,capesius3 ,my d\bts dissolve--t :i* ,i saw 0 true2 ,i 0 all[$ to see ,johannes' life4 ,s is x also cle> t 8 _w c\ld ,only unfold itself because m9e own ,w\ld nev] draw ne> 8 & compreh5d ,! _s-pa? do? ask = solitude4 ,co-op]ation is b meant = ^? ,:o compreh5d ea* o!rs' hopes & aims4 ,a s\l :i* sets humanity aside ,atta9s ! wide b\nds ( ! worlds ( light4 ,a patt]n 9 old ,felix c ,i f9d1 ,he seeks on pa?s t none b he may "k ,9 pr\d seclusion = ! _s-light4 ,he s\ght & f\nd because he kept himself ,f ev] grasp+ ?+s by reason's /r5g?4 ,9 8 track w ,i foll[1 & ?y "w1 ,:i* hamp]s se]%ip's p[] ) e>?ly ?+s1 ,%all no m lead ,capesius a/ray4 7,exit47 ,,m>ia3 ,s 'tis ) man1 :at "t 8 bett] self ,s9ks into _s-sleep & /rong desire ,is all 8 be+'s food2 until aga9 ,true _s-nature wakes 9 gl[+ light4 ,su* is ! sleep all human be+s sleep ,be=e clairvoyant p[]s h wak5$ !m4 ,!y "k n !y are sleep+1 ?\gh awake2 ,!y seem awake1 because !y ev] sleep4 ,! se] do? sleep1 :5 to ?is wak+ /ate ,he /ruggles =? f out 8 real self4 ,capesius w n[ )draw f u4 ,x is no transi5t :im2 8 m5tal life ,draws him away f u & f our plans4 ,x is n he t turns himself f u4 ,! dread decree ( fate is pla9ly se54 ,& s we :o are left mu/ consecrate ,our p[]s ) m devotion to our "w4 ,,johannes3 ,m>ia1 d n ( ,johannes ask ,t = new aims at su* a "t z ?is ,he %\ld gird up 8 s\l1 :i* l all s\ls ,ne$s _s-sleep 9 :i* x may mature ,! =ces :i* are g]m9at+ !re4 ,i "k t ,i 9 "t to come %all d>e ,to "w = _s-worlds--b d n n[ ,appeal to me = s]vices--n n[4 ,?9k h[ ,i drove away ,capesius 444 ,7 ,i ripe = ?is "w--he w\ld be1 too4 ,,m>ia3 ,capesius away8 ,do/ ?\ n--dream8 ,,johannes3 ,i dream$ :ile consci\s 444 yea1 ,i woke 9 dreams4 ,:at w\ld seem fantasy to cosmic p[]s ,to me prov$ symbol t ,i 0 mature4 ,"r well ,i "k my wi% 0 my true self2 ,my ?9k+ only 0 ano!r self4 ,& s ,johannes /ood be=e my s\l ,z once he 01 ere _s seiz$ on him ,& fill$ 8 be+ ) a second self4 ,johannes is n dead2444 a liv+ wi% ,create? him companion ( my s\l4 ,i may h /unn$ him1 b n ov]?r[n4 ,a liv+ man1 he claims 8 natural rights ,:5e'er t o!r self mu/ s9k to sleep4 ,& to wake--always t--exce$s its p[]s4 ,asleep x 0 ?r\gh\t t "t 9 :i* ,capesius c\ld live )9 himself4 ,h[ my fir/ nature tore me f myself4 ,my dreams did seem to him ! sign ( fate2 ,& s 9 me & n 9 him do? "w ,! p[] :i* drove him =?1 & :i* =bids ,our _s to be turn$ to "w on e>?4 ,,m>ia3 ,! _s-p[]s are com+--call on !m4 ,to cosmic _s-s\rces turn ?y gaze ,& wait until ! p[]s )9 ^? dep?s ,discov] t )9 ?9e own true self ,:i* /irs ) consci\s life ak9 to !irs4 ,_! magic words w %[ ?9e inw>d sight ,t :i* makes !m & !e a unity4 ,ca/ out ?9e own bra9's int]f]+ spee*1 ,t _s may speak 9 !e z x wills2 ,& to ?is _s-spee* give ?\ due he$4 ',twill c>ry !e beyond ! sph]es ( light ,& l9k !e to true _s-ess5ce !re4 ,?y mi/y visions sprung f times long pa/ ,w !n gr[ %>p & cle> 9 cosmic light1 ,b w n b9d !e s9ce ?\ ha/ control4 ,comp>e !m ) ^! elem5tal =ms1 ,) %ad[s & ) phantoms ( all k9ds1 ,& place !m ne> to demons manifold ,& s discov] :at !y really are4 ,b 9 ! realm ( spirits root ?yself ,:o primal s\rce to primal s\rce d b9d1 ,:o dwell close l9k$ ) dormant cosmic p[]s ,& ord] ! processions ( ! sph]es4 ,?is view ( cosmic ?+s w give !e /r5g?1 ,amid ! surg+ sea ( _s-life1 ,to bl5d ?yself & inmo/ s\l 9 "o4 ,! _s bids me tell !e ?is myself2 ,b n[ give e> to :at ?\ kn[e/ well ,?\gh 'tis n w$d$ yet to ?y s\l-dep?s4 ,,johannes 7/ill sitt+ on a rock to "r ( /age4 ,he collects himself = a det]m9$ ef=t73 ,i w give e>--,i w defy myself4 7,f bo? sides advance elem5tal spirits4 ,f ! "r ( /age creatures l gnomes4 ,!y h /eel-blue-grey bodies1 small z comp>$ ) m52 !y are ne>ly all head1 b x is b5t =w>d & d[nw>d1 & is lilac & purple 9 color1 ) t5drils & gills ( v>i\s %ades ( ! same hue4 ,_! limbs are long & mobile1 suitable = ge/iculation1 b ill-adapt$ = walk+4 ,f ! left ( /age come sylph-l figures1 sl5d] & almo/ headless2 _! feet & h&s are p>tly f9s & p>tly w+s4 ,"s ( !m are blui%-gre51 o!rs yell[i%-r$4 ,! yell[i%-r$ ones are di/+ui%$ by %>p] outl9es ?an ! blui% gre5 ones4 ,! words spok5 by ^! figures are accompani$ by expressive ge/ures develop+ into a dance47 ,,*orus ,,( ,,! ,,gnomes 7danc+1 hopp+1 & ge/iculat+ 9 rhy?m73 ,we h>d51 we /r5g!n 7said %>ply & quickly7 ,! nebul\s e>?-du/2 ,we loos51 we p[d] ,h>d-cru/$1 e>?-b\ld]s2 ,swift %att] we ! h>d1 ,sl[ h>d5 we ! loose4 ,su* is our _s-k9d4 ,( m5tal matt] =m$ ,full-skill$ 7 we be=e ,:5 human s\ls /ill slept 7said sl[ly & dreamily7 ,& dream$ :5 e>? began4 ,,*orus ,,( ,,! ,,sylphs 7a sway+ motion 9 rhy?m73 ,we weave & we unweave ,! web ( wat]y air2 ,we scatt] & divide ,se$ =ces f ! sun2 ,light-=ce cond5se ) c>e2 ,fruit-p[]s de/roy ) skill2 ,= su* is our s\l-k9d ,f rays ( feel+ p\r$1 ,:i* ev]-liv+ gl[s ,t mank9d may enjoy ,e>?-evolution's s5se4 ,,*orus ,,( ,,! ,,gnomes 7danc+1 hopp+1 & ge/iculat+ 9 rhy?m73 ,we titt] & we laugh 7said %>ply & quickly7 ,we bant] & grimace1 ,:5 /umbl+ human s5se ,& fumbl+ human m9d ,beholds :at we h made2 ,!y ?9k !y und]/& ,:5 spirits f our age ,weave *>ms = _! dull eyes 7said sl[ly & emphatically74 ,,*orus ,,( ,,! ,,sylphs 7a sway+ motion 9 rhy?m73 ,we take c>e1 & we t5d1 ,be> fruit & 9 _s1 ,:5 "y mank9d's dawn-life ,& old mank9d's errors ,consume :at we h made ,& *ildlike or greyhair$ ,f9d 9 "t's /ream dull joy ,f our et]nal plans4 7,^! _s-be+s collect 9 two irregul> gr\ps 9 ! backgr\nd1 & rema9 !re visible4 ,f ! "r appe> ! ?ree s\l-=ces3 ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna ) '! o!r ,philia4'7 ,,philia3 ,!y ray out ! light ,z lov+ light-=ms ,to rip5ess s ble/1 ,s g5tly !y w>m ,& mightily heat ,:]e embryo gr[? ,w\ld rea* actual life2 ,t ?is actual life1 ,may make s\ls rejoice ,:o lov+ly yield ,to radiant light4 ,,a/rid3 ',tis life t !y weave1 ,& help create1 ,9 up-spr++ m51 ,!y %att] ! e>? ,& d5sify air2 ,t *ange may appe> ,9 /r5u\s gr[?4 ,su* /r5u\s gr[? ,fills spirits ) joy ,:o feel t !y weave ,a life :i* creates4 ,,luna3 ,!y ?\ghtfully m\ld1 ,al]t to create ,9 flexible /uff2 ,!y %>p5 ! edge ,& flatt5 ! face1 ,& cunn+ly build ,! cle>ly-cut =ms2 ,t cle>ly-cut =ms ,! w may inspire ,) cunn+ to build1 ,al]t to create4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,!y ga!r ! blooms ,& use )\t c>e ,! magical works2 ,!y dream ( ! true ,& gu>d 'ga9/ ! false2 ,t g]ms :i* lie hid ,may wake into life4 ,& clairvoyant dreams ,make cle> unto s\ls ,! magical web ,t =ms _! own life4 7,^! f\r s\l-=ces disappe> t[>ds ! left2 ,johannes1 :o dur+ ! prec$+ ev5ts 0 deep 9 m$itation1 r\ses himself47 ,,johannes3 ',& clairvoyant dreams ,make cle> unto s\ls ,! magical web ,t =ms _! own life4' ,^! are ! words t /ill di/9ctly r+ ,)9 my s\l2 t :i* ,i saw be=e ,pass$ 9 confusion out ( my s\l's k54 ,yet :at a p[] /irs 9 me1 :5 ,i ?9k2 ',! magical web ,t =ms _! own life4' 7,he relapses once m into m$itation2 !re appe>s to him z a ?\ght-=m ( 8 own a gr\p compos$ (3 ,! ,_s ( ,johannes' ,y\?1 ) ,lucif] on its "r & ,!odora's s\l on its left47 ,,! ,,_s ,,( ,,johannes' ,,y\?3 ,! life )9 ?y wi%es fe$s my life1 ,my brea? dr9ks ?ir/ily ?y y\?ful dreams2 ,i am alive :5 ?\ do/ n desire ,to =ce ?y way to worlds ,i _c f9d4 ,if 9 ?yself ?\ lose/ me1 ,i mu/ ,d griev\s pa9ful s]vice to grim %ades3-- ,o gu>dian ( my life 444 =sake me n4 ,,lucif]3 ,he nev] w =sake !e1--,i behold ,deep 9 8 nature long+s aft] light ,:i* _c foll[ 9 ,m>ia's /eps4 ,& :5 ! radiance :i* is born ( !m ,do? fully light ,johannes' arti/-s\l ,x mu/ be> fruit2 nor w he be cont5t ,to ca/ ?is fruit away 9 yond] realm ,:]e love divorc$ f beauty reigns alone4 ,8 self w no m seem ( wor? to him ,:i* fa9 w\ld ca/ 8 be/ gifts to ! %ades ,because x sets by k too mu* /ore4 ,:5 wisdom %all ?r[ light on 8 desires ,_! glori\s wor? w be reveal$ to him2 ,he only c ?9k !m ( little wor? ,s long z !y hide d>kly 9 ! s\l4 ,until !y c atta9 to wisdom's light ,i w be ?y protector--?r\gh ! light ,i f9d deep-seat$ 9 ! human s\l4 ,he has z yet no pity = ?y woes1 ,& ev] lets !e s9k among ! %ades ,:5 he is /riv+ up ! heights ( light4 ,= !n he c =get t ?\1 8 *ild1 ,mu/ lead a mis]able phantom life4 ,b h5ce=?1 ?\ wilt f9d me at ?y side ,:5 z a %ade ?\ freeze/ ?r\gh 8 fault4 ,i w ex]t my rights z ,lucif] 7,at ! ^w ',lucif]' ! _s ( ,johannes' y\? />ts47 ,res]v$ to me by anci5t cosmic law1 ,& occupy ^? dep?s )9 8 s\l ,he leaves ungu>d$ 9 8 _s-flight4 ,i'll br+ !e treasure t w light = !e ,! d>k seclusion ( ! %ad[-realms4 ,b ?\ wilt n be fully fre$ till he ,c once aga9 unite himself ) !e4 ,?is act he c delay 444 b n prev5t4 ,= ,lucif] w well protect 8 rights4 ,,!odora3 ,?\ _s-*ild1 ?\ liv'/ ,johannes' y\? ,9 gloomy %ad[-realms4 ,to !e 9 love ,b5ds d[n ! s\l :i* o'er ,johannes broods ,f realms ablaze ) light1 agl[ ) love4 ,%e w f ?9e en*antm5t set !e free ,if ?\ wilt take s mu* ( :at %e feels ,z %all procure !e life 9 bless$ness4 ,i w ally !e ) ! elem5ts ,:i* lab\r unaw>e 9 cosmic space ,)draw+ ev] f> f wak+ s\ls4 ,) ^? e>?-spirits ?\ can/ fa%ion =ms1 ,& ) ! fire-s\ls ?\ can/ ray out p[]1 ,if ?\ wilt sacrifice ?y consci\s life ,unto ! w t works ) light & p[] ,b )\t human wisdom4 ,s %alt ?\ ,pres]ve ?y k1 only half ?9e own1 ,f ,lucif]1 & to ,johannes give ,! s]vices :i* are ( wor? to him4 ,f 8 s\l's be+ ,i w br+ to !e ,:at cause? him to crave ?y be+'s aid1 ,& f9d refre%m5t 9 ! _s-sleep4 ,,lucif]3 ,b beauty %e c ne'er be/[ on !e ,s9ce ,i myself d>e take x f> f h]4 ,,!odora3 ,f noble feel+ ,i w f9d ! g]m ,( beauty :i* gr[s ripe ?r\gh sacrifice4 ,,lucif]3 ,f free-w %e w te> !e & in/ead ,give !e to spirits :o dwell 9 ! d>k4 ,,!odora3 ,i %all awak5 sight by _s fill$ ,t e'en f ,lucif] kn[s itself free4 7,lucif]1 ,!odora1 & ! ,_s ( ,johannes' y\? disappe>4 ,johannes1 awak+ f 8 m$itation1 sees '! o!r ,philia' approa*+ him47 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,& clairvoyant dreams ,make cle> unto s\ls ,! magical web ,t =ms _! own life4 ,,johannes3 ,?\ riddle-speak+ _s--at ?y words ,?is _w ,i ent]$6 ,( its my/]ies ,"o only--is important = my s\l3 ,:e!r1 z liv+ 9 ! _s worlds1 ,! %ad[ dwells :o s\ght ) ,lucif] ,& ,!odora to be %[n to me4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,he lives--& by ?yself 0 wak$ to life4 ,e'en z a glass 9 pictures do? reflect ,all ?+s by light ^u its surface ?r[n ,s mu/ :ate'er 9 _s-realms ?\ see'/-- ,ere full maturity gives !e ! "r ,to su* clairvoyance--mirror$ be 9 life ,)9 ! realm ( half-wak$ _s-%ades4 ,,johannes3 ',tis b a picture1 mirror$ ?us by me8 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,yet "o t lives & keeps its hold on life ,s long z ?\ do/ keep )9 ?yself ,an outliv$ self :i* ?\ inde$ can/ /un ,b :i* z yet ?\ can/ n ov]?r[4 ,johannes1 ?9e awak5+ is b false ,until ?\ %alt ?yself set free ! %ade ,:om ?9e (f5ce do? l5d a magic life4 ,,johannes3 ,:at ?anks ,i owe ?is _s1 :o br+s tru? ,into my s\l--,i ne$s mu/ foll[ x4 ,curta9 falls sl[ly1 :ile '! o!r ,philia' & ,johannes rema9 quietly /&+4 ,,sc5e #c ,! ,same4 7,ent] left1 ,magnus ,bellicosus1 ,romanus1 ,torquatus1 & ,hil>y1 9 deep conv]sation1 & paus+ 9 _! walk47 ,,bellicosus3 ,& if 8 head/rong mood w n be *ang$1 ,h[ c prosp]ity att5d ! "w ,:i* ,hil>y is fa9 to d$icate ,9 lov+ s]vice to 8 fell[m58 ,,romanus3 ,:at our fri5d's true companion 9 8 "w ,did give z reason :y he did object1 ,ha? weight n only among/ m5 :o =m ,op9ions bas$ on out] facts ( life4 ,are n ^! argum5ts advanc$ by him ,also 9 h>mony ) my/ic views8 ,,bellicosus3 ,yet x lies n )9 ! _s gr\p ,:i* holds our projects 9 its firm embrace4 ,^? :o succe$$ to our my/ic task ,7 ,b5$ictus' pupils2--'tis = !m ,t ,hil>y w\ld make a field ( "w ,9 :i* _! _s-fruitage c mature4 ,! wise p[]s rul+ ov] de/9y ,h1 9 ! temple1 jo9$ !m to ourselves2 ,our fri5d1 h[ev]1 repres5ts alone ,! wisdom :i* to u )9 ! %r9e ,z _s-law & duty 0 reveal$4 ,,romanus3 ,b art ?\ sure t ?\ do/ und]/& ,?is _s-law8 ,m simply x might mean ,t ,b5$ictus & 8 pupils too1 ,:om 9 8 way he to ! _s l$1 ,%\ld /ill rema9 )9 ! temple's %r9e ,& n at ?is "t tread ! h>d r\gh road ,to :i* fri5d ,hil>y w\ld lead !m on4 ,= b too easily c _s-sight ,be turn$1 ^u t road1 to s\l's dream-sleep4 ,,bellicosus3 ,i did n hope to he> su* words f !e ,to ,hil>y's companion 9 8 "w4 ,we mu/ inde$ all[ t k ga9$ ,f books alone is b ( little wor?4 ,b ?\ art b\nd to recognize ! signs ,:i* are begott5 on ! my/ic way4 ,h[ ,b5$ictus' pupils 7 impell$ ,to come to u1 speaks cle>ly to our s\ls4 ,!y are jo9$ ) u t we may obey ,:at _! clairvoyance do? to !m reveal4 ,,torquatus3 ,ano!r sign do? /ill make manife/ ,t full ri* bless+ f ! _s-p[]s ,^u t project ha? n be5 outp\r$ ,:i* 9 ! temple %[$ itself to u4 ,capesius ha? n[ )drawn himself ,f ,b5$ictus & 8 pupils' gr\p4 ,t he %\ld n yet 9 its fullness feel ,! wakefulness ( s\l :i* n[ 9 him ,do? ,b5$ictus seek1 do? ca/ sad d\bt ,e'en on our tea*]'s p]sonal compet5ce4 ,,bellicosus3 ,! gift ( se]%ip lies /ill f> f me3 ,yet intuition (t5 do? reveal ,)9 my s\l ! mean+ ( ev5ts4 ,:5 = ! fir/ "t 9 our sacr$ fane ,i saw ,capesius )9 our gr\p ,! ?\ght oppress$ me1 t fate set him !re ,to be bo? ne> to u & yet f> (f4 ,,romanus3 ,?9e intuition ,i c fully grasp4 ,b at t v mom5t none among/ ,our new-f\nd my/ic fri5ds s closely knit ,by fate to u z ,/rad]1 c\ld ,i f9d4 ,su* intuition is to me a sign ,to %[ my s\l ! road1 :]e ,i may !n ,) reason se>*2 & :5 ,i come to act ,i mu/ de/roy t intuition fir/ ,:i* gave /r5g? & direction to my ?\ght4 ,?us my/icism's /rict decrees orda94 ,9 _s-realms ,i f9d myself 9 tru? ,) ,b5$ictus' pupils close alli$2 ,yet1 if ,i leave my inn] my/ic gr\p ,& f9d my way back into life on e>?1 ,by ,/rad]'s side alone d>e ,i d ?is4 ,,torquatus3 ,b ,hil>y's companion 9 8 "w ,f9ds n 9 ,/rad]'s s\l true _s-/r5g? ,su* z c prove ( use 9 out] life4 ,& if myself ,i he$ my inn] voice ,x is reveal$ t he entirely lacks ,! rightful mood to tread ! my/ic pa?4 ,:at outw>d signs c %[ him ( ^! ?+s ,& :at 8 reason grasps ( _s-life1 ,ar\se ! explor]'s zeal 9 him2 ,f inw>d _s-life he /&s f> (f4 ,:at c ! _s products ( ?is man ,be b obscurely wov5 my/ic dreams8 ,,romanus3 ,^u ! _s pa? 8 fri5ds h trod2 ,he ha? n made suffici5t progress yet ,to jo9 himself to foes ( 8 own s\l1 ,:o br+ to _m my/ics dang] great ,:5 !y pursue him into life on e>?4 ,,bellicosus3 ,if ?\ do/ ?9k him safe f su* attacks ,n\ght h9d]s !e f work+ = him !re ,s t ?is great s*eme may be br\ght to pass ,:i* ,hil>y w\ld c>ry out ?r\gh him4 ,= :5 our fri5d's companion comes to "k ,h[ highly ?\ do/ rate ! man :om he ,d>es ?9k ( little wor?1 he w 9 tru? ,misd\bt 8 own op9ion4 ,?\ alone ,can/ w9 him ov] to ! cause we s]ve4 ,= well he kn[s t 9 ?9e out] life ,?\ ha/ inv>iably a*iev$ success ,9 all ?\ ha/ essay$ ) =e?\ght wise4 ,,romanus3 ,if ?\ wilt ,/rad] take1 de> ,hil>y1 ,z ?y companion1 &1 f ?is ?y "w ,keep ,b5$ictus' o!r foll[]s ,on _s pa?s f all illusion free1 ,?\ %alt n /& alone2--,i (f] !e ,n only :at n[ ,bellicosus asks ,z my assi/ance2 b w also help ,) all ! worldly goods at my comm& ,9 mak+ ,/rad]'s plan a real success4 ,,hil>y3 ,h[ can/ ?\ ?9k t ,/rad] at ?is "t ,f ,b5$ictus' pupils w\ld dep>t8 ,to foll[ 8 own _s-aims alone8 ,! o!rs are z ne> him z himself4 ,,romanus3 ,9 human life !y well may /& s close4 ,b only t "p ( 8 s\l c hold ,t !y 9 _s too are "o ) him1 ,:i* /ill is deeply sunk 9 _s-sleep ,b soon1 me?9ks1 x w be evid5t ,h[ t "p c gr[ ripe to wak+ life4 7,exeunt "r47 7,ent] left--,capesius1 ,/rad]1 ,felix ,balde1 & ,dame ,balde2 z if com+ to a /&/ill dur+ _! talk because ( ! importance to !m ( ! foll[+ dialogue47 ,,capesius3 ,to seek ! _s 9 m9e inmo/ s\l ,is all t ,i c d at su* a "t4 ,7 ,i to load myself ) outw>d "w1 ,t _s might be br\ght to realms ( s5se1 ,) ra%ness %\ld ,i /rive to grasp ! cause ,( be+ 9 ^? worlds ^: ess5ce true ,i h n fully grasp$ )9 myself4 ,( cosmic be+ ,i c see no m ,?an ha? already %ap$ itself 9 me4 ,h[ %all my "w d good to o!r m5 ,if 9 creat+ ,i b please myself8 ,,/rad]3 ,?y mean+ is1 ,i take x1 t ?y "w ,w only c>ry ?9e own be+'s /amp2 ,& 9 t "w1 ?\ do/ b manife/ ,to outw>d cosmic life ?y p]sonal self8 ,,capesius3 ,till ,i enc\nt] ) m9e inn] _w ,a be+ /range to me1 'tis ev5 s4 ,h[ f> ,i n[ c pi]ce ano!r's s\l ,i realiz$ ) pa91 :5 = a :ile ,i 0 awake & c\ld ) cle>ness judge4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,?\ speak'/ z ,i h nev] he>d !e speak-- ,b ne'er c\ld ,i s und]/& ?y m9d ,z ,i d n[1 :5 naught speaks b ?yself4 ,9 all ?y words !re r+s ! my/ic mood ,:i* ,i h s\ght unwe>i$ _m ye>s2 ,& :i* alone c recognise ! light ,9 :i* ! human _s feels itself ,a "p ( cosmic _s ?r\gh cle> sight4 ,,capesius3 ,because ,i felt h[ ne> ,i'd drawn to !e ,i s\ght !e1 flee+ f ! k9d ( life ,t 0 ab\t to slay m9e inn] _w4 ,,/rad]3 ,i (t5 und]/ood ?y pres5t spee*2-- ,& !n ,i ?\ght x wisdom2--b no ^w ,9 all ?y spee* c ,i n[ und]/&4 ,capesius & fa!r ,felix bo? ,conceal d>k mean+s 9 transp>5t words4444 ,d ,i n feel ^! words ( ?9e are b ,! cloak ( =ces3 =ces ( ! s\l ,t exile me f !e unto ^? words ,:i* lie remote f all ?y _s-pa?s8 ,worlds ,i h no desire =1--s9ce ,i mu/ ,deep 9 my s\l adore t _w ( ?9e4 ,! opposition ,i c lightly be> ,:i* f )\t n[ m5ace? my "w2 ,yea1 e'en if all my plans 7 brok5 up ,^u ?is opposition2--,i c\ld be>4 ,b ,i _c =ego ^! worlds ( ?9e4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,a man _c atta9 ! _s-_w ,by seek+ to unlock ! gates himself4 ,once did/ ?\ give me pleasure1 :5 ( old ,( ?9e inv5tion ?\ wa/ wont to speak-- ,!n1 :5 enlight5m5t 0 grant$ !e ,by :at ?\ did/ n /rive to und]/&4 ,?\ wa/ f> ne>] to ! my/ic mood4 ,to /rive = n\ght1--b j to live 9 peace1 ,expectancy ! s\l's :ole inn] life3-- ,t is ! my/ic mood4 ,:5 wak$ 9 man ,x leads 8 inmo/ s\l to realms ( light4 ,our outw>d tasks d n endure su* mood4 ,if !m ?\ w\ld/ ?r\gh my/icism seek1 ,my/ic illusion w de/roy ?y life4 ,,/rad]3 ,i ne$ !e sorely2--yet ,i f9d !e n-- ,! be+ t unites u ?\ do/ scorn4 ,yet h[ c m5 be f\nd to und]take ,true cosmic "w if my/ics all decl9e ,to leave _! individuality8 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,into ?y _w ( active daily life ,! t5d] be+ ( clairvoyant sight ,_c be introduc$1 = x w fade ,e'en z its welcome bord] l9e appe>s4 ,9 fai? dev\t1 rev]+ _s-sway ,) _s-sight repos+ 9 ! he>t3-- ,?us my/ics %\ld draw nigh ! _w ( de$s4 ,,capesius3 ,& if !y /rive to tread x o!rwise ,! "w ( error !y w !n behold2 ,b wisdom's radiance !y w nev] see4 ,i once saw cle>ly ?r\gh ano!r's s\l4 ,i knew t ,i saw truly :at ,i saw4 ,yet only t s\l's error c\ld ,i see4 ,?is 0 my fate = spoil+ _s-sight ,by my desire = out] de$s on e>?4 ,,/rad]3 ,?us speaks ,capesius :o ha? advanc$ ,beyond me f> ^u ! pa? ( s\ls4 ,& yet my _s-vision only wakes ,:5 ?\ghts ( action :olly fill my s\l2 ,& x is flood$ ) a liv+ hope ,t = ! _s x may build a %r9e ,& k9dle !re on e>? ! light t %9es ,s w>mly ?r\gh ! _s-worlds on high ,& seeks1 ?r\gh human s5se-activities1 ,a new home 9 ! daily life ( e>?4 ,am ,i a son ( error8--n ?y son1 ,ye wide-flung _s-realms :]e wisdom dwells8 7,/rad] turns away1 = a mom5t1 f ! companions ) :om he has be5 conv]s+2 & n[ he has ! foll[+ _s-vision--,b5$ictus1 ,m>ia1 ,ahriman appe>--9 ! guise ( 8 ?\ght-=ms b nev]!less 9 real _s-int]c\rse2 fir/ ,b5$ictus & ,ahriman1 !n ,m>ia47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,9 wide-flung _s-realms :]e wisdom dwells ,?\ seeke/ aid to /ill ?y que/ion+ d\bt1 ,:i* makes ! secret ( ?9e inn] life ,lie l a burd5 on ?9e e>?ly ?\ght4 ,& ?\ %alt h an answ]1 su* an "o ,z _s-spaces out ( _! s\l-dep?s ,are will+ to reveal ?r\gh ?is my voice4 ,b le>n to und]/& :at ?\ ha/ guess$ ,& :at ?\ (t5 ha/ made bold to say1 ,b 9 ?9e inn] be+ only dream/4 ,give to ?y dreams ! life1 :i* ,i am b\nd ,to (f] !e f out ! _s-_w2 ,b turn to dreams :atev] ?\ can/ draw ,by ?\ght f all ?y s5se-exp]i5ce4 ,capesius & ,felix ca/ !e =? ,f out ! _s-light :i* !y behold2 ,?y place ?' abyss betwixt !mselves & !e-- ,d n compla9 t !y h done ?is ?+1 ,b gaze 9 ?9e abyss4 ,,ahriman3 ,aye1 gaze !re96 ,?\ %alt behold !re :at to !e seems meet ,= human spirits on _! cosmic pa?4 ',tw]e well = !e1 if o!r _s-p[]s ,did tell !e :5 ?y s\l is sunk 9 sleep2 ,b ,b5$ictus tells !e :5 awake1 ,s do/ ?\ slay1 behold+1 ?y response4 ,aye1 gaze !re94 ,,/rad]3 ,i w4 ,:at d ,i see8 ,two =ms confus$8 ,!y *ange1 yea1 & !y te>1 ,"o at ! o!r te>s--a battle n[-- ,! phantoms fight ea* o!r furi\sly1-- ,de/ruction reigns1 & f x gloom is born2-- ,f out ! gloom n[ issue o!r %ades ,) e!r's light ar\nd !m1--flick'r+ r$2 ,"o ( ! =ms q cle>ly leaves ! re/2 ,& comes to me2--s5t f ! d>k abyss4 7,m>ia /eps =? f ! abyss47 ,,m>ia3 ,?\ see/ demons2--summon up ?y /r5g?1 ,!y are n ?us1--be=e !e !y appe> ,:at !y are n4 ,if ?\ can/ hold !m fa/ ,until _! phantom nature %all become ,illum9$ to ! be+ ( ?y s\l ,?\ wilt behold :at value !y possess ,9 evolution ( ! cosmic s*eme4 ,?y p[] ( sight do? fade ere !y unfold ,! =ces :i* w make !m lum9\s4 ,illum9ate !m ) ?9e own self's light4 ,:]e is ?y light8 ,?\ raye/ d>kness out-- ,p]ceive ?y d>kness all ar\nd ?yself-- ',mid/ light ?\ do/ create ! baffl+ gloom2 ,& feel/ x :5 creat$ by ?yself4 ,yet !n ?\ ne'er can/ feel ?yself create4 ,?\ w\ld/ =get ?y long+ to create1 ,:i* reigns unconsci\sly )9 ?y s\l4 ,because ?\ art afraid to ray out light4 ,?\ w\ld/ enjoy ?is light t is ?9e own4 ,?\ w\ld/ enjoy !re9 ?yself alone4 ,?\ seek/ ?yself1 & seeke/ to =get4 ,?\ let'/ ?yself s9k dream+ 9 ?yself4 ,,ahriman3 ,aye1 li/ to h]2 ?y riddles %e c solve ,b h] solution solves !m n = !e4 ,%e gives !e wisdom--s t ) its aid ,?\ can/ direct ?y /eps to fooli%ness4 ,wisdom 7 good = !e--at o!r times1 ,:5 on !e _s-day do? brightly %9e4 ,b :5 ,m>ia speaks ?us 9 ?y dreams ,%e slays ?y riddle's answ] by h] words4 ,aye1 li/ to h]4 ,,/rad]3 ,:at mean su* words z ^!8 ,m>ia1 are !y born f out ! light8 ,f out my light8 ,or is my d>kness t ,f :i* !y s\nd8 ,o ,b5$ictus1 speak2 ,:o br\ght me c\nsel f ! d>k abyss8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,at ?9e abyss's edge %e s\ght !e out4 ,?us spirits seek out m5 to %elt] !m1 ,f ^? :o fa%ion phantoms = m5's s\ls ,& s conceal ! cosmic-_s's sway ,) mazy d>kness1 t !y only "k ,!mselves 9 tru? 9 _! own be+'s net4 ,look fur!r yet )9 ?y d>k abyss4 ,,/rad]3 ,:at n[ lives 9 ! dep?s ( m9e abyss8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,gaze on ^! %ades2 ^u ! "r1 blue-r$ ,entic+ ,felix--& ! o!rs see-- ,!re on ! left--:]e r$ ) yell[ bl5ds2 ,:o are int5t to rea* ,capesius4 ,!y bo? d feel ! might ( ^! same %ades2-- ,& ea* 9 lonel9ess creates ! light ,:i* foils ! %ades :o w\ld deceive m5's s\ls4 ,,ahriman3 ,he w\ld d bett] did he %[ to !e ,?y %ades--yet ?is ?+ c\ld he sc>cely d2-- ,he ha? ! be/ int5tions c]ta9ly4 ,he only sees n :]e to seek ^? %ades4 ,!y /& beh9d !e1 critically ne>1-- ,yet ?\ ?yself do/ hide !m n[ f him4 ,,/rad]3 ,s n[ ,i he> 9 m9e abyss ^! words ,:i* once ,i ?\ght ! prat+ ( a fool1 ,:5 ,hil>y's advis] utt]$ !m4444 ,,m>ia3 ,sire ,felix temp]s = himself ! blade ,t rids him ( 8 dang]2 "o :o treads ,! pa? ?y s\l takes ne$s ano!r k9d4 ,! sword ,capesius do? fa%ion "h1 ,& bravely wields 9 battle ) 8 foes1 ,w\ld be = ,/rad] b a %ad[ sword ,%\ld he comm5ce !re) ! _s-fight ,:i* p[]s ( de/9y orda9 = s\ls ,:o mu/ *ange _s-be+1 ripe = de$s ,) mighty p[]1 to e>? activity4 ,?\ can/ n use _! weapons 9 ?y fight2 ,yet ?\ mu/ "k !m1 s t ?\ may/ =ge ,?9e own f out s\l-sub/ance ?\ghtfully4 7,! figures ( ,b5$ictus1 ,ahriman1 & ,m>ia disappe>2 i4e41 f outw>d sight2 ,/rad] wakes up f 8 _s-vision2 he looks r\nd = ,capesius1 ,felix ,balde1 & ,dame ,balde1 :o aga9 approa* him2 he has seat$ himself ^u a rock47 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,de> ,/rad]1 ev5 n[ ! _s drove ,!e f> f u--?us x appe>$ to me4 7,he pauses a :ile 9 ! expectation t ,/rad] w say some?+1 b s9ce ! latt] rema9s sil5t ,felix cont9ues47 ,i w\ld n seem to ca/ !e coldly =? ,f out our gr\p to o!r pa?s ( life4 ,i only wi% to *eck ?y fur!r /eps ,9 t illusion :i* confuse? !e4 ,:at _s sees 9 _s mu/ by s\ls ,9 _s also be receiv$ & liv$4 ,h[ fooli% 7 x if ,felicia ,%\ld take ! fairies liv+ 9 h] s\l1 ,:o also fa9 w\ld only live 9 s\ls1 ,& make !m dance ^u a puppet's /age4 ,_! magic *>m w\ld be completely lo/4 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,i surely h be5 sil5t long en\gh4 ,b speak ,i w1 if ?\ art go+ to ca/ ,?y my/ic mood ^u my fairy sprites4 ,!y w\ld inde$ enjoy to h _! p[] ,drawn out ( !m1 t !y might be br\ght up ,& suckl$ fre% ) my/icism's milk4 ,i hon\r my/icism2 b ,i fa9 ,w\ld keep x di/ant f my fairy realms4 ,,capesius3 ,felicia1 0 x n ?y fairy-tales ,t set my feet fir/ on ! _s-pa?8 ,^? /ories ( ! air & wat]-sprites1 ,call$ up s (t be=e my ?ir/+ s\l1 ,7 mess5g]s to me f yond] _w ,:]eto ,i n[ ! my/ic entrance seek4 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,b s9ce ?\ cam'/ ) ?is new my/ic art ,into our h\se ?\ ha/ b seldom ask$ ,:at my fair magic be+s are ab\t4 ,m (t5 ?\ ha/ only ?\ght ( wor? ,:at we>s a solemn air ( dignity2 ,:ile ^? :o cap] out ( %e] delight ,are uncong5ial to ?y my/ic ways4 ,,capesius3 ,i d n d\bt1 ,felicia1 t ,i ,%all "o day compreh5d ! mean+ hid ,deep 9 ! be+ ( ^? wondr\s elves ,:o %[ _! wisdom ?r\gh a m]ry mask4 ,yet n[ my p[] ha? n advanc$ s f>4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,felicia1 ?\ kn[e/ h[ ,i love ,^? fairy be+s :o d visit !e2 ,b to conceive !m z me*anical ,embodi$ dolls--?is goes aga9/ ! gra94 ,,dame ,,balde3 ,z yet ,i h n br\ght !m to !e ?us2 ,?y fancy flies--too high2 b ,i 0 glad ,:5 ,/rad]'s plan 0 told me1 &1 ,i he>d1 ,?omasius also /rives to repres5t ,! _s cas$ 9 matt] visible4 ,i saw 9 _s danc+ m]rily ,my fairy pr9ces & my s\ls ( fire ,9 ?\s& doll-games1 beautifi$ by art2 ,& !re ,i left !m1 happy 9 ! ?\ght1 ,to f9d _! own way to ! nurs]ies4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #d ,! ,same4 7,! ,manag] & ,romanus1 paus+ 9 _! walk1 speak z foll[s47 ,,manag]3 ,?\ "k'/ ! my/ic fri5ds ( ,hil>y1 ,& ,i p]ceive 9 !e a clev] man ,) p[] to give at all times judgm5t sure ,bo? 9 life's "w & 9 ! my/ic arts3 ,& s ,i value ?y consid]$ ?\ght4 ,b h[ %all ,i make s5se ( :at ?\ say/8 ,t ,/rad]'s fri5ds %\ld /ay 9 _s-realms ,& n z yet use _! clairvoyant p[]s ,^u ! fa%ion+ ( ?+s ( s5se ,seems "r to !e4 ,b w ! selfsame pa? ,= ,/rad] n be j z dang]\s8 ,8 _s me?ods seem to prove to me ,t nature-spirits always bl9d 8 eyes ,z soon z /rong desire = p]sonal de$s ,drives him to seek "s out] "w 9 life4 ,)9 oneself1 z all true my/ics "k1 ,^? =ces mu/ develop 9 _! /r5g? ,9 ord] to oppose ^! enemies2 ,b ,/rad]'s sight1 x seems1 is n yet ripe ,to see su* foes ^u 8 _s-pa?4 ,,romanus3 ,yet ^? good spirits :o conduct su* m51 ,z /& outside ! _s-realms entire1 ,h n yet left 8 side1 b guide 8 /eps4 ,^! spirits ev] pass ^? my/ics by ,:o make a pact ) be+s to secure ,_! s]vice = _! p]sonal _s mood4 ,9 ,/rad]'s me?ods ,i c pla9ly feel ,h[ nature-spirits /ill give to 8 self ,! fruits ( _! b5ign activity4 ,,manag]3 ,s 'tis by feel+ only ?\ art l$ ,to ?9k good spirits "w 9 ,/rad]'s case2 ,?\ (f're/ little & do/ ask full mu*4 ,^! are ! spirits ,i mu/ h5ce=? ask ,if ,i cont9ue active 9 ?is place ,:]e = s long ,i h be5 privileg$ ,to s]ve ! "w-plans & t _s true ,:i* ,hil>y's own fa!r ev] lov$2 ,& :i* ,i /ill he> speak+ f 8 grave1 ,e'en if 8 son ha? no m e>s = x4 ,:at sai? ?is _s ( t brave /rong man ,:5 he p]ceives ^! crazy spirits n[ ,:i* 8 son tries to br+ )9 8 h\se8 ,i "k t _s :o = n9ety ye>s ,liv$ 9 8 body4 ,he x 0 :o taught ,to me ! true/ secrets ( my "w ,9 ^? old days :5 he c\ld "w himself1 ,! :ile 8 son crept (f to my/ic fanes4 ,,romanus3 ,my fri5d1 can/ ?\ inde$ be unaw>e ,h[ highly ?is same _s ,i rev]e8 ,8 s]vant c]ta9ly 0 t old man ,:om = a patt]n ?\ did/ rightly *oose4 ,& ,i myself h /riv'n to s]ve him too ,f *ildhood's days up to ! pres5t "t4 ,b ,i too crept away to my/ic fanes4 ,i plant$ truly deep )9 my s\l ,:at !y 7 will+ to be/[ on me4 ,b reason swept aside ! temple mood ,:5 at ! door x ent]$ into life4 ,i knew t 9 ?is way ,i be/ c\ld br+ ,?is mood's /rong =ces into e>?ly life4 ,f out ! temple none ! less ,i br\ght ,my s\l into my "w4 ,& x is well ,t s\l by reason %\ld n be di/urb$4 ,,manag]3 ,& do/ ?\ f9d t ,/rad]'s _s-way ,is ev5 di/antly ak9 to ?9e8 ,i f9d myself at ?y side ev] free ,f _s-be+s ,/rad] br+s to me4 ,i cle>ly feel1 e'en 9 8 r&om spee*1 ,h[ elem5tal spirits1 quick ) life1 ,by ^w & nature p\r !mselves ?r\gh him ,reveal+ ?+s ! s5ses _c grasp4 ,x is j ?is t keeps me (f f him4 ,,romanus3 ,?is spee*1 my fri5d1 do? /rike me to ! he>t4 ,s9ce ,i drew nigh to ,/rad] ,i h felt ,^? v ?\ghts :i* come to me ?r\gh him ,to be end[$ ) q peculi> p[]4 ,!y cleft me j z if !y 7 m9e own4 ,& "o day ,i reflect$3 ,:at if ,i ,owe to 8 s\l n to myself ! p[] ,:i* let me rip5 to maturity6 ,h>d on ?is feel+ came a second "o2 ,:at if = all t makes me ( "s use ,9 life & "w & s]vice = mank9d ,i am indebt$ to "s pa/ e>?-life8 ,,manag]3 ,i feel precisely ?us ab\t him too4 ,:5 "o draws ne> to him1 ! _s :i* ,do? "w ?r\gh him moves p[]fully "o's s\l4 ,& if ?y /rong s\l mu/ succumb to him1 ,h[ %all ,i manage to protect m9e own ,if ,i unite ) him 9 ?is 8 "w8 ,,romanus3 ,x w dep5d on !e alone to f9d ,! "r relation 'twixt ?yself & him4 ,i ?9k t ,/rad]'s p[] w n h>m me ,s9ce 9 my ?\ght ,i h conceiv$ a way ,9 :i* he may h made t p[] 8 own4 ,,manag]3 ,h made--8 own--su* p[]--& ov] !e-- ,a dream]--ov] !--! man ( de$s6 ,,romanus3 ,if "o might d>e to make a guess t n[ ,"s _s lives its life 9 ,/rad]'s frame ,:o 9 "s e>li] e>?-life _h atta9$ ,to mo/ unusual altitude ( s\l2 ,:o knew mu* :i* ! m5 ( 8 own "t ,7 /ill too undevelop$ to conceive4 ,!n x 7 possible t 9 ^? days ,?\ghts 9 8 _s did orig9ate ,:i* by degrees c\ld make _! way to e>? ,& m+le 9 ! common life ( m52 ,& t f ?is s\rce p l myself ,h drawn _! capability = "w-- ,! ?\ghts :i* 9 my y\? ,i seiz$ ^u1 ,& :i* ,i f\nd 9 my environm5t1 ,might well h be5 ?is _s's prog5y6 ,,manag]3 ,& do/ ?\ ?9k x ju/ifiable ,to trace back ?\ghts to ,/rad] & none else ,t hold a value = mank9d's :ole life8 ,,romanus3 ,i 7 a dream] if ,i act$ ?us4 ,i sp9 no dreams ab\t mank9d's :ole life ,) eyes fa/ clos$4 ,i ne'er _h use = ?\ghts ,t %[ !mselves & =?) fade away4 ,i look at ,/rad] ) wide-op5 eyes2 ,& see :at ?is man's nature proves to be1 ,:at qualities he ha? & h[ he acts1 ,& t :]e9 he fails2--& !n ,i "k ,i h no option left me b to judge ,( 8 end[m5ts z ,i h j done4 ,z if ?is man _h /ood be=e m9e eyes ,already _m hundr$ ye>s ago1 ,s d ,i feel him 9 my _s n[4 ,& t ,i am awake--,i "k full well4 ,i %all l5d my support to ,hil>y2 ,= t :i* mu/ w surely come to pass4 ,s ?9k 8 project ov] once aga94 ,,manag]3 ,x w be ( m b5efit to me ,if ,i ?9k ov] t :i* ?\ ha/ said4 7,exeunt ,manag] & ,romanus4 ,johannes comes f ano!r direction1 deep 9 ?\ght1 & sits d[n on a b\ld]4 ,johannes is at fir/ alone1 aft]w>ds appe> 8 ,d\ble1 ! ,_s ( ,johannes' y\?1 & f9ally ! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old1 & ,ahriman47 ,,johannes3 ,i 0 a/oni%$ :5 ,capesius ,made kn[n to me h[ my s\l's inn] self ,reveal$ itself unto 8 _s's eye4 ,i c\ld s utt]ly =get a fact ,:i* ye>s ago 0 cle> z day to me3-- ,t all t lives )9 ! human s\l ,works fur!r 9 ! out] _s-realms2 ,long h ,i kn[n x1 yet ,i c\ld =get4 ,:5 ,b5$ictus 0 direct+ me ,to my fir/ _s-vision1 ,i beheld ,capesius & ,/rad] by ?is means1 ,cle> z a picture1 9 ano!r age4 ,i saw ! pot5t pictures ( _! ?\ghts ,s5d circl+ ripples ?r\gh ! _w's expanse4 ,well d ,i "k all ?is--& knew x n ,:5 ,i beheld x ?r\gh ,capesius4 ,! "p ( me :i* kn[s 0 n awake2 ,t 9 an e>?-life ( ! di/ant pa/ ,capesius & ,i 7 closely knit3 ,t also = a long "t h ,i kn[n1-- ,yet at t in/ant ,i did "k x n4 ,h[ c ,i keep my k all ! "t8 7,a voice f ! di/ance1 t ( ,johannes' ,d\ble47 ',! magical web ,t =ms _! own life4' ,,johannes3 ',& clairvoyant dreams ,make cle> unto s\ls ,! magical web ,t =ms _! own life4' 7,:ile ,johannes is speak+ ^! l9es 8 ,d\ble approa*es him4 ,johannes does n recognize him1 b ?9ks ! o!r ,philia is com+ t[>ds him47 ,o _s-c\nsellor1 ?\ com'/ once m2 ,true c\nsel did/ ?\ br+ unto my s\l4 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,johannes1 ?9e awak5+ is b false ,until ?\ %alt ?yself set free ! %ade ,:om ?9e (f5ce do? l5d a magic life4 ,,johannes3 ,?is is ! second "t ?\ speake/ ?us4 ,i w obey !e4 ,po9t me out ! way4 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,johannes1 give life 9 ! %ad[-realm ,to :at is lo/ to !e 9 ?9e own self4 ,f out ?y _s's light p\r light on him ,s t he w n h to suff] pa94 ,,johannes3 ,! %ad[-be+ 9 me ,i h /unn$ ,b n o'er?r[n3 :]e=e he mu/ rema9 ,a %ade en*ant$ among/ ! o!r %ades ,till ,i c re-unite myself ) him4 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,!n give to me t :i* ?\ owe/ him3 ,! p[] ( love1 t drives !e =? to him1 ,! he>t's hope1 t 0 fir/ begot by him1 ,! fre% life1 t lies hidd5 deep 9 him1 ,! fruits ( e>?-lives 9 ! di/ant pa/1 ,:i* ) 8 be+ n[ are lo/ to !e2 ,oh1 give !m me2 ,i'll br+ !m safe to him4 ,,johannes3 ,?\ kn[e/ ! way to him8--,oh1 %[ x me4 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,i c\ld get to him 9 ! %ad[-realm ,:5 ?\ did/ raise ?yself to _s-sph]es2 ,b s9ce1 desire-p[]s tempt+ !e1 ?\ did/ ,av]t ?y m9d to foll[ aft] him1 ,:5 n[ ,i seek him my /r5g? ev] fails4 ,b if ?\ wilt abide by my advice ,my /r5g? c !n create itself anew4 ,,johannes3 ,i v[$ to !e t ,i w\ld foll[ !e-- ,& n[1 ,o _s-c\nsellor1 aga9 ,) all my s\l's /r5g? ,i r5ew t v[4 ,b if ?\ can/ ?us f9d ! way to him1 ,!n %[ x to me 9 ?is h\r ( fate4 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,i f9d x n[ b _c lead ! way4 ,i c alone %[ to ?9e inw>d eye ,! be+ :om ?y long+ n[ do? seek4 7,! _s ( ,johannes' ,y\? appe>s47 ,,! ,,_s ,,( ,,johannes' ,,y\?3 ,?anks to t _s ,i %all ev] owe ,:o 0 all[$ ?y s\l sight to unseal1 ,s t :5 ,i appe> by _s-law ,?\ wilt h5ce=? behold me op5-ey$4 ,b ?\ mu/ fir/ ?is _s truly "k1 ,at ^: side ?\ art n[ behold+ me4 7,! _s ( ,johannes' ,y\? disappe>s3 only n[ does ,johannes recognise ! ,d\ble47 ,,johannes3 ,t _s-c\nsellor--m9e o!r self8 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,n[ foll[ me--?\ ha/ s v[$ to me-- ,= ,i mu/ n[ conduct !e to my "l4 7,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old appe>s & /&s beside ! ,d\ble47 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,johannes1 w\ld/ ?\ te> ?is %ade away ,f ^? en*ant$ regions ( ! s\l1 ,!n slay desire1 :i* leads !e aye a/ray4 ,! trace :i* ?\ do/ foll[ disappe>s ,s long z ?\ do/ seek x ) desire4 ,x leads !e to my ?re%old & beyond4 ,b "h1 obey+ l(ty ,be+'s w1 ,i d confuse ! inw>d sight ( ^? ,)9 ^: _s-glance lives va9 desire2 ,all ^! mu/ meet me ere !y are all[$ ,to p5etrate to ,tru?'s pure radiant light4 ,i hold ?yself fa/ prison$ 9 ?y sight ,s long z ?\ approa*e/ ) desire4 ,myself too z illusion do/ ?\ see1 ,s long z va9 desire is jo9$ ) sight ,& _s-peacefulness ( s\l ha? n ,become z yet ?y be+'s vehicle4 ,make /rong ^? words ( p[] :i* ?\ do/ "k1 ,_! _s-p[] w conqu] fantasy4 ,!n recognise me1 free f all desire1 ,& ?\ %alt see me z ,i really am4 ,& !n ,i ne$ no long] h9d] !e ,f gaz+ freely on ! _s-realm4 ,,johannes3 ,b z illusion do/ ?\ too appe>8 ,?\ too 444 :om ,i mu/ ev] see ! fir/1 ,( all ! be+s 9 ! _s-l&4 ,h[ %all ,i "k ! tru? :5 ,i mu/ f9d ,"o tru? alone confront m9e onw>d /eps-- ,t ev] d5s] gr[s illusion's veil4 ,,ahriman3 ,let n ?yself be q confus$ by him4 ,he gu>ds ! ?re%old fai?fully inde$ ,e'en if today ?\ see'/ him we> ! clo!s ,:i* = ?yself ?\ did/ pat* up be=e ,)9 ?y _s f old odds & ends4 ,& lea/ ( all %\ld/ ?\ behold 9 him ,an actor 9 a poor dramatic %[4 ,b ?\ wilt make x bett] lat] on4 ,yet e'en ?is cl[ni% =m c s]ve ?y s\l4 ,x do? n h to sp5d mu* en]gy ,9 %[+ !e t :i* x n[ /ill is4 ,pay close att5tion to ! ,gu>dian's spee*3 ,its tone is m\rnful & its pa?os m>k$1 ,all[ n ?is3 = !n he w disclose ,f :om today he borr[s to excess4 ,,johannes3 ,!n e'en ! cont5t ( 8 spee* deceives8 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,ask n ( ,ahriman1 s9ce he do? f9d ,9 contradictions aye 8 *ief delight4 ,,johannes3 ,( :om !n %all ,i ask8 ,,! ,,d\ble3 ,:y1 ask ?yself4 ,) my p[] w ,i =tify !e well ,s t awake ?\ may/ f9d ! place ,:5ce ?\ can/ gaze untramell$ by desire4 ,increase ?y p[]4 ,,johannes3 ',! magical web ,t =ms _! own life4' ,o magical web t =ms m9e own life ,make kn[n to me :]e desire do? n burn4 7,! ,gu>dian disappe>s3 9 8 place appe> ,b5$ictus & ,m>ia47 ,,m>ia3 ,myself too z illusion do/ ?\ see ,s9ce va9 desire is /ill alli$ ) sight4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,& _s-peacefulness ( s\l ha? n ,become z yet ?y be+'s vehicle4 7,! ,d\ble1 ,b5$ictus1 & ,m>ia disappe>47 ,,johannes3 ,m>ia1 ,b5$ictus1--,gu>dians6 ,h[ c !y z ! ,gu>dian come to me8 ',tis true ,i h sp5t _m ye>s ) !e ,& ?is =bids me n[ to seek ?9e aid-- ,! magical web t =ms m9e own self4 7,exit1 "r47 7,ent] ,/rad]1 ,b5$ictus1 & ,m>ia1 left47 ,,/rad]3 ,?\ gav'/1 :5 jo9$ 9 _s unto me ,be=e ! d>k abyss ( m9e own self1 ,wise c\nsel to direct m9e inw>d sight1 ,:i* at t "t ,i c\ld n und]/&1 ,b :i* w "w su* *anges 9 my s\l ,z c]ta9ly w solve life's problems1 :5 ,!y seek to h9d] :at ,i /rive to d4 ,i feel 9 me ! p[] :i* ?\ do/ give ,to ?y disciples on ! _s-pa?4 ,& s ,i %all be able to p]=m ,! s]vice ?\ do/ ask = 9 ?is "w ,t ,hil>y to mank9d w devote2 ,we %all1 h[ev]1 lack ,capesius4 ,:atev] /r5g? ! re/ br+ to ! "w ,w n replace 8 ke5 activity2 ,b t :i* mu/ w surely come to pass4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,yea1 t :i* mu/ w surely come to pass4 ,?is phrase expresse? ?9e own /age ( gr[?4 ,b x awakes no answ]+ response ,9 s\ls ( all our o!r _s-fri5ds4 ,?omasius is n z yet prep>$ ,to c>ry _s-p[] to worlds ( s5se1 ,s he too w )draw f ?is same "w4 ,?r\gh him do? de/9y give u a sign ,t we mu/ all n[ seek ano!r plan ,,/rad]3 ,w n ,m>ia & ?yself be !re8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,m>ia mu/ ,johannes take ) h] ,if %e w\ld ev] f9d 9 tru? ! road1 ,:i* leads f _s to ! _w ( s5se4 ,?us wills ! ,gu>dian :o ) e>ne/ eye ,unceas+ gu>ds ! bord]s ( bo? realms4 ,%e _c l5d h] aid to !e z yet4 ,& ?is may s]ve !e z a c]ta9 sign ,t ?\ can/ n at ?is "t truly f9d ,! way into ! realm ( e>?ly ?+s4 ,,/rad]3 ,s ,i & all my aims are left alone6 ,o lonel9ess1 did/ ?\ !n seek me out ,:5 ,i did /& at ,felix ,balde's side8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,! ?+ :i* ha? j happ5$ 9 our gr\p ,ha? taught me1 z ,i look on ?y c>e]1 ,to read a c]ta9 ^w 9 _s-light ,:i* hi!rto ha? hid itself f me4 ,i saw t ?\ wa/ b\nd to c]ta9 k9ds ,( be+s1 :o1 if !y %\ld take a "p ,creatively 9 mank9d's life today1 ,w\ld surely "w = evil2 n[ !y live ,z g]ms 9 c]ta9 s\ls1 & w gr[ ripe ,9 future days to "w ^u ! e>?4 ,su* g]ms h ,i se5 liv+ 9 ?y s\l4 ,t ?\ do/ "k !m n is = ?y good4 ,?r\gh !e !y w fir/ le>n to "k !mselves4 ,b n[ ! road is /ill close b>r$ = !m ,:i* leads into ! realm ( e>?ly ?+s4 ,,/rad]3 ,:atev] else ?y words may say to me1 ,!y %[ me t my lot is lonel9ess4 ,& ?is x is mu/ truly =ge my sword4 ,m>ia told me ?is at m9e abyss4 7,b5$ictus & ,m>ia retire a little way2 ,/rad] rema9s alone2 ! s\l ( ,!odora appe>s47 ,,!odora',s ,,s\l3 ,& ,!odora 9 ! worlds ( light ,w make w>m? = !e t ?y _s-sword ,may ke5ly smite ! foes ( ?9e own s\l4 7,disappe>s4 ,exit ,/rad]4 ,b5$ictus & ,m>ia come to ! front ( /age47 ,,m>ia3 ,my le>n$ tea*]1 ne'er yet did ,i he> ,!e tell disciples1 :o _h rea*$ ! /age ,( ,/rad]1 9 su* tones ! words ( fate4 ,w 8 s\l run its c\rse s spe$ily ,t ^! words' p[] w prove ( use to him8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,fate gave ! ord]1 & x 0 fulfill$4 ,,m>ia3 ,& if ! p[] %\ld prove no use to him1 ,w n its evils also fall on !e8 ,,b5$ictus3 ',twill n be evil2 yet ,i d n "k ,9 :at way x w manife/ 9 him4 ,my gaze at pres5t p5etrates to realms ,:]e su* advice illum9ates my s\l2 ,b ,i see n ! sc5e ( its result4 ,& if ,i try to see1 my vision dies4 ,,m>ia3 ,?y vision dies1--my guide & lead]1 ?9e8-- ,:o /ays = !e ?y se]%ip's c]ta9 gaze8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,johannes flees !re) to cosmic space2 ,we mu/ pursue2--= ,i c he> him call4 ,,m>ia3 ,he calls1--f _s-space 8 call r+s out2 ,!re s\nds )9 8 tone a di/ant fe>4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,s f ! ev] empty fields ( ice ,our my/ic fri5d's call s\nds 9 cosmic space4 ,,m>ia3 ,! ice's cold is burn+ 9 my self1 ,& k9dl+ tongues ( flame 9 my s\l-dep?s2 ,! flames are scor*+ all my p[] ( ?\ght4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,9 ?y s\l-dep?s ! fire do? blaze1 :i* n[ ,johannes k9dles 9 ! cosmic fro/4 ,,m>ia3 ,! flames fly (f1--!y fly (f ) my ?\ght4 ,& !re on di/ant cosmic %ore ( s\ls ,a furi\s fight--my p[] ( ?\ght do? fight-- ,9 /ormy *aos--& cold _s-light-- ,my ?\ght-p[] reels2--! cold light--hamm]s out ,hot waves ( d>kness f my fail+ ?\ght4 ,:at n[ em]ge? f ?is d>kl+ heat8 ,clad 9 r$ flames my self /orms--to ! light2-- ,to ! cold light--( cosmic fields ( ice4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #e ,! ,_s ,realm4 ,! sc5e is set 9 floods ( significant col\r1 r$di% deep5+ into fi]y r$ above1 blue m]g+ into d>k blue & violet bel[4 ,9 ! l[] "p !re is an e>?-globe :i* has ! effect ( be+ a symbol4 ,! figures t appe> seem to bl5d into a complete :ole ) ! col\rs4 ,on ! left ( ! /age ! gr\p ( gnomes z 9 ,sc5e #b1 9 front ( !m ,hil>y1 & 9 ! imm$iate =egr\nd ! s\l-=ces4 ,,felix ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 7,seat$ at ! extreme "r ( /age1 hav+ ! =m ( a p5it5t1 b array$ 9 a light violet robe girdl$ ) gold47 ,i ?ank !e1 ,_s1 wise to gov]n worlds1 ,my savi\r f my gloomy lonel9ess2 ,?y ^w awak5s unto "w & life4 ,i w make use ( :at ?\ giv'/ to worlds ,ab\t :i* ,i c m$itate1 :il/ ?\ ,do/ let m9e own become ins5sible4 ,= !n ?\ be>e/ to !m on ?y rays ,t :i* 9 pictures fa%ione? p[]s = me4 ,,lucif]3 7,blui%-gre5 glitt]+ "u-g>m5t1 r$di% out]-g>m5t1 %ap$ l a mantle & gleam+ brightly1 :i* ext5ds into w+-l outl9es2 8 upp] "p is n an aura b he we>s a mitre ( deep r$ bord]$ ) w+s2 on 8 "r w+ a blue %ape hav+ ! appe>ance ( a sword2 a yell[ %ape1 l ! ball ( a planet1 is support$ by 8 left w+4 ,he /&s some:at beh9d & to ! "r1 t[]+ ov] ,felix ,balde's s\l47 ,my s]vant1 su* activity z ?9e ,! sun-"t ne$s1 9 :i* we f9d ourselves4 ,! e>?-/> n[ receives a fad$ light2 ,x is ! "t :5 s\ls l ?9e c "w ,unto ! be/ advantage on !mselves4 ,on !e ,i ray =? f my f\nt ( light ,! g]ms t t5d to raise self-consci\sness4 ,g1 ga!r !m to make ?9e ego /rong4 ,9 lat] e>?-life !y w come to fl[]4 ,!re %all ! blossoms by ?y s\l be s\ght2 ,9 its own nature x w take delight ,:5 x c joy 9 plann+ its desires4 ,,felix ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 7gaz+ at ! gr\p ( gnomes4 ,f ?is mom5t1 ! gnomes becom+ consci\s1 keep sway+ up & d[n1 slightly rais+ & l[]+ !mselves1 z if ! gr\p 0 brea?+ f above47 ,!re f> away1 bright be+ disappe>s2 ,x floats 9 %ad[-pictures ?r\gh ! dep?s2 ,&1 float+1 /rives to ga9 "s /eady+ weight4 ,,hil>y',s ,,s\l3 7,) ! figure ( a /eel-blue-grey elem5tal _s *ang$ to resemble a man's2 ! head less b[$1 & ! limbs m human47 ,! mi/ ( wi%es do? reflect ! light ,?r[n on ! realm ( _s by e>?'s />1 ,! /> = :i* 9 ?is _w ?\ do/ =m ,f s\l-mat]ial a ?9k+ self4 ,= !e 'tis b a fleet+ web ( mi/1 ,b to !mselves !y seem l solid s\ls4 ,on e>? !y "w1 by cosmic reason l$1 ,9 old fire =ces1 ?ir/+ aft] =m4 ,,felix ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 ,i w t _! weight %all n burd5 me1 ,nor %all oppose ! t5d5cy to float4 7,! gnomes cease _! movem5t47 ,,ahriman3 ,?y spee* is good4 ,swift w ,i seize ?y words ,t ,i may keep !m = myself unh>m$4 ,?\ can/ n yet develop !m ?yself4 ,b on ! e>? !y w\ld fill !e ) hate4 ,,/rad]',s ,,s\l3 7,t[>d ! left ( /age2 only 8 head is visible2 x is 9 a yell[i%-gre5 aura ) r$ & orange />s4 ,at ?is mom5t on ,/rad]'s imm$iate left appe>s ! ,s\l ( ,capesius4 ,simil>ly only 8 head is to be se54 ,x is 9 a blue aura ) r$ & yell[ />s47 ,i he> a ^w :i* s\nds & s\nds aga94 ,x seems significant1 & yet ! s\nd ,do? vani%1 & ! lu/ = life do? seize ,its e*o$ answ]4 ,:i* road w\ld x take8 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 7,array$ l a copy ( ,lucif]1 ?\gh ! radiance is lack+4 ,in/ead ( ! sword %e has a sort ( dagg]1 & 9 place ( ! planet a r$ ball l a fruit47 ,x travels onw>d 9 its se>* = weight ,unto ! place :]e radiant be+ fades ,& mi/y pictures surge into ! dep?s4 ,if ?\ do/ keep its mean+ 9 ?y realm ,i'll br+ its p[] to !e )9 ! mi/2 ,!n ?\ wilt re-discov] x on e>?4 ,,philia3 7,figure l an angel1 yell[ m]g+ into a sort ( :ite1 ) w+s ( a bright violet1 a light] %ade ?an ,m>ia has lat] on4--,all ?ree s\l-figures are ne> ,/rad]'s s\l & /& 9 ! c5tre ( ! /age47 ,! mi/-creations ,i w t5d = !e ,t !y may n :5 consci\s guide ?y w2 ,t w ,i unto cosmic light entru/ ,:]e9 !y =m ! heat ?y nature ne$s4 ,,a/rid3 7,figure l an angel1 rob$ 9 bright violet1 ) blue w+s47 ,i beam =? cle> & wondr\s life ( />s ,to be+s1 t !y may make =ms !refrom4 ,!y to ?9e e>?ly body %all give /r5g?1 ,f k f>1 b ne> to he>t's int5t4 ,,luna3 7,figure l an angel1 robe ( blue & r$1 ) orange w+s47 ,! weighty be+1 !y ) toil create1 ,9 ?y s5se-body w ,i lat] hide2 ,t ?\ may/ n 9 ?\ght turn x to ill ,& ?us /ir up a /orm 9 e>?ly life4 ,,/rad]',s ,,s\l3 ,! ?ree 7 speak+ to me sun%9e's words1 ,!y "w = me :]e ,i c see !m "w4 ,full _m figures are !y fa%ion+2 ,i feel an impulse by s\l-p[] to *ange ,!m ) design1 & make !m "o ) me4 ,awake 9 me1 ,o royal sol> p[] ,t by resi/ance ,i may dim ?y might2 ,desire br\ght f moon ages moves me ?us4 ,a gold5 gl[ n[ /irs1 ,i feel its w>m?1 ,& silv] %e51 =?-spray+ ?\gh yet cold2 ,awake1 ,m]curial long+1 once aga9 ,& w$ my sev]$ cosmic self to me4 ,well d ,i feel t once aga9 a "p ,is =m$ f out t picture1 :i* ,i "h ,f cosmic _s =ces mu/ create4 ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 ,on t f> %ore ( s\ls ,i see em]ge ,a picture t ne'er t\*$ my be+ yet ,s9ce ,i escap$ ! clut* ( e>?ly life4 ,x rays out grace & soo!s ) s(t appeal4 ,! w>m+ gl[ ( wisdom /reams !refrom1 ,& cl>ify+ light gives to my s\l4 ,c\ld ,i b make ?is picture "o ) me ,i %\ld atta9 :at ,i am ?ir/+ =4 ,yet "k ,i n ! p[] :i* c\ld avail ,to make ?is picture active 9 my sph]e4 ,,luna3 ,t :i* two e>?-lives gave !e ?\ mu/ feel4 ,"o1 _m ye>s ago1 slid g5tly by ,9 e>ne/ ef=t2 lat] on ?\ had/ ,"o by ambition soil$2 :i* mu/ be f$ ,) /r5g!n+ grace desc5d+ f ! fir/1 ,t ,jupit]'s fire-s\ls may be reveal$ ,)9 ! circle ( ?y _s-sight4 ,!n %alt ?\ feel t wisdom /r5g!ns !e4 ,!n w ! picture1 :i* ?\ see'/ af> ,^u ! bord]s ( ?y s\l's expanse1 ,be set at lib]ty to come to !e4 ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 ,i ne$s mu/ be indebt$ to ! s\l ,t n[ prep>es = be+1 s9ce x %[s ,a w>n+ picture 9 my s\l's expanse4 ,,a/rid3 ,?\ art inde$2 b n z yet do? x ,dem& a paym5t 9 ?y next e>?-life4 ,?is picture s]ves to give !e p[]s ( ?\ght ,t ?\ z man may/ recognize ! man ,:o %[s 8 e>?ly future to !e "h4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,! picture may inde$ come clos] yet ,b _c p5etrate ?y v self4 ,& s re/ra9 its long+ = ?yself1 ,t ?\ may/ f9d ?yself on e>? aga9 ,ere x c fl[ into ?9e inmo/ self4 ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 ,i feel be=e :at ,i %all owe to x ,:5 ,i %all w to br+ x ne> to me1 ,yet c ass]t t ,i am free !refrom4 ,f ,philia's doma9 ,i n[ behold ,9 picture-sequ5ces ! en]gy ,:i* ,i %all ga!r f its ne> approa*4 ,,philia3 ,:5 ,saturn soon 8 _m-col\r$ light ,%all ray on !e1 use well ! fav\r'd h\r4 ,!n ?r\gh 8 p[] 9 ?y s\l's vehicle ,t :i* 9 _s is ak9 to !e ,w plant ! roots ( ?\ght1 :i* w disclose ,! mean+ ( ! cyclic life ( e>? ,:5 ?\ do/ tread aga9 ?is /> ?yself4 ,,capesius3 ,?y c\nsel %all become my monitor ,z soon z ,saturn p\rs 8 light on me4 ,,lucif]3 ,"o m ?+ w ,i wak5 9 ^! s\ls2 ,! view ( worlds ^: light w cause !m pa91 ,ere !y c leave ?is sun-"t =tifi$ ,) p[]s = lat] life ^u ! e>?4 ,pa9 mu/ ?r\gh d\bt mature _! fruit 9 !m1 ,s w ,i summon up ^? sph]es ( s\l ,:i* !y h n ! /r5g? to look ^u4 7,! s\ls ( ,b5$ictus & ,m>ia appe> 9 ! middle ( ! region4 ,b5$ictus z a figure reproduc+ 9 m9iature ! configuration ( ! entire sc5]y4 ,bel[1 8 robe1 becom+ broad]1 %ades into blue-gre52 ar\nd 8 head is an aura ( r$1 yell[ & blue2 ! blue bl5ds into ! blue-gre5 ( ! entire robe4 ,m>ia on 8 "r z an angelic figure2 yell[ %ad+ into gold1 )\t feet & ) bright violet w+s47 ,,b5$ictus' ,,s\l3 ,?\ do/ weigh heavy on my cosmic task ,) ^! opaque e>?-lad5 sph]es ( ?9e4 ,if ?\ do/ give ?9e own self fur!r p[] ,!n wilt ?\ f9d t 9 ?is _s-life ,m9e own sun-nature w n %9e on !e4 ,,m>ia3 ,he 0 unkn[n to !e1 :5 ?\ did/ la/ ,a robe1 ( e>?ly matt] wov51 we>2 ,yet do? x /ill be> fruit 9 ?y s\l %ea?-- ,! sun%9e's ^w ( p[]1 ) :i* he f$ ,!e k9dly 9 f> di/ant times on e>?4 ,se>* out ?y nature's deepe/ impulses ,& ?\ %alt feel him ne> !e !n ) p[]4 ,,felix ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 ,words issue out ( circles /range to me1 ,& yet _! tones illum9ate me n3 ,& s !y are n fully real to me4 ,,/rad]',s ,,s\l3 ,on _s-%ores illum9ation works1 ,yet h[soe'er ,i /rive to und]/& ,! s5se ( ^! light-=ces1 !y are dumb4 ,,dame ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 7,figure ( a p5it5t ) :ite coif1 l t ( a nun2 robe yell[-orange1 ) silv] girdle2 %e appe>s q close to ,m>ia2 on h] "r & ne> ,felix ,balde47 ,ye s\ls n[ summon$ up by ,lucif]6 ,! p5it5t do? he> y\r voices' tone1 ,b only sun%9e's voice do? give him light2 ,its sup]-spl5d\r do? de/roy y\r voice4 ,! o!r c behold y\r />ry light1 ,b />ry writ+ is to him unkn[n4 ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 ,! />ry writ+6 ?is ^w wak5s ?\ghts1 ,& be>s !m on ! waves ( s\l to me4 ,?\ghts :i* 9 e>?-lives 9 ! di/ant pa/ ,7 to my be+ wondr\sly reveal$ ,!y light5 /ill1 yet--z !y gr[1 !y fade2 ,oblivion %$s its gloomy %ade ar\nd4 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 7,ent] ! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old1 l an angel1 symbolically array$ & /eps to ! side ( ! s\ls ( ,m>ia & ,b5$ictus47 ,ye s\ls :o n[ at ,lucif]'s dem& ,h drawn ne> ! b\nds ( o!r s\ls1 ,9 ?is doma9 ye are )9 my p[]4 ,! s\ls :om ye are seek+ seek y too4 ,)9 ?is cosmic age 'tis n orda9$ ,_! be+s %all t\* y\rs )9 _! sph]es ,n e'en 9 ?\ght2--& s d ye bew>e ,le/ to _! orbits ye %\ld =ce y\r way4 ,%\ld ye d ?is1 'tw\ld h>m bo? !m & y4 ,i %\ld be b\nd to take away f y ,! />ry light1 & bani% y f !m ,= cosmic ages into o!r sph]es4 ,curta9 falls sl[ly ,,sc5e #f ,a simil> sc5e ,! same *>act]s are /ill 9 _! places4 ,! light+ is full ( w>m %ades1 b n too bright4 ,t[>d ! "r ( /age ! sylphs keep sway+ to & fro4 ,9 front ,philia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna4 ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 7,/&+ on ! left ( /age ne> ! middle47 ,! picture1 t 9 sun%9e's h\r ,i saw1 ,beam$ grace & work$ ) g5tle k9dl9ess2 ,e'en n[ )9 my be+ x holds sway1 ,:5 o!r wisdom-light illum9ates ,?is _s-realm ) _m-col\r$ rays1 ,yet n[ ! picture's influ5ce do? gr[4 ,x bids me draw !refrom1 = future times ,on e>?1 t :i* ! s\l :o /&s reveal$ ,)9 ! picture & ha? mighty weight ,9 m9e own sph]e1 once gave to my s5se-life1 ,yet do? no p[]ful curr5t ( desire4 ,direct me to ?is s\l4 ,,romanus' ,,s\l3 7,a figure %[+ all ! upp] "p ( ! body d[n to ! hips2 x has mighty r$ w+s :i* ext5d r\nd its head 9 su* a way z to *ange into a r$ aura1 runn+ into blue on ! out] edge2 x /&s on ! left ( ,capesius' s\l1 :il/ close are ! s\ls ( ,bellicosus & ,torquatus fur!r /ill to left ( /age1 fac+ audi5ce47 ,wake 9 ?yself ,! picture ( ! ,jew :o he>d naught else ,b hate & ridicule on e side1 ,yet truly s]v$ ! my/ic bro!rhood ,( :i* ?\ wa/ a memb] once on e>?4 ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 ,?\ght-pictures n[ beg9 to dawn 9 me1 ,& seek to seize me 9 _! p[]ful grasp4 ,see ,simon's image rise f my s\l-waves-- ,& see1 ano!r jo9s him--"s s\l-%ape-- ,a p5it5t2--w\ld ,i might keep him f>6 7,ref]r+ to ,balde1 or ,joseph ,keane 9 ! previ\s play47 ,,romanus' ,,s\l3 ,t :i* he "h mu/ d c b be done ,9 cosmic sun%9e-"t2 9 solitude ,& rob$ 9 d>kness he mu/ w5d 8 way ,:il/ ,saturn do? light up ?is _s-realm4 ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 ,h[ do? ?is p5it5t bewild] me6 ,8 s\l's irradiations burn & bore ,_! way into m9e own ,s\l's inmo/ core-- ,s "w ^! s\ls :o h atta9$ ! p[] ,to see ! inmo/ dep?s ( o!r s\ls4 ,,felix ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 7,f ! extreme "r ( /age ) holl[ veil$ voice47 ',de> ,keane1 ?\ ha/ be5 ev] true to me'-- ,,capesius' ,,s\l3 ,myself--my v words--f out 8 m\? ,re-e*o$--r++ out--9 _s-realms6 ,"h is a s\l t ,i mu/ try to meet4 ,x kn[s me well1--?r\gh x ,i'll f9d myself4 7,capesius' s\l disappe>s2 ! 'o!r ,philia' comes into view on ! "r ( /age ) ,!odora's s\l2 beh9d h] ,dame ,balde's s\l47 ,,romanus' ,,s\l3 ,two s\ls d !re draw nigh ! p5it5t2 ,! _s :om ?r\gh love s\ls ev] *oose ,to be _! lead] goes ahead ( !m4 ,! light ( meekness p\rs f "o ( !m ,& fl[s into ! o!r1 :o appe>s ,to u z p5it5t4 ,! picture gl[s ,) beauty's light1 :i* "h z wisdom lives4 ,,torquatus' ,,s\l3 7,figure visible z f> z ! brea/1 blue aura1 gre5 w+s47 ,desire's reflection do/ !m b behold ,:i* ,i all[ to %9e f my s\l's %ea? ,into ?y sph]e 9 loyal _s-tro?4 ,fate's primal =ces h appo9t$ me ,to be ! means to give !e meekness "h4 ,?us s\ls 9 _s d s]ve o!r s\ls4 ,?y cold h>d reason nev] c\ld atta9 ,life's gift ( sympa?y )\t m9e aid4 ,,bellicosus' ,,s\l3 7,figure visible l t ( ,torquatus' s\l1 b ) blue-violet aura & blue-gre5 w+s47 ,make /rong ?y _s-e> to und]/& ,:at says ! s\l :o rays out meekness' light4 ',nea? ,saturn's beam s\ls c be br\ght to %[ ,?is gleam ( noble _s-bless$ness4 ,,!odora',s ,,s\l3 7,angelic figure2 :ite ) yell[ w+s & blue-yell[ aura47 ,my loyal _s-comrade1 p\r on him ,9 s(t5+ gl[ ! love t p]meates ,?9e own s\l-%ea?1 = x w soo! = him ,! all-consum+ fire ( solitude-- ,& d ?\ unto him direct ?\ght-rays ,f yond] %ad[-s\ls :o at ?is "t ,d ga!r =ces 9 ! _s-worlds ,t _! s\l-bodies may ?us gleam ) life1 ,t s _! gleam+1 gl[+ life may s]ve ,to /r5g!n 9 =?com+ lives on e>? ,clairvoyant consci\sness 9 human s\ls4 ,,dame ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 7,to ,felix47 ,feel me1 ?\ _s g>b$ z p5it5t4 ,o ?\ sun-s\l1 receive ! p[] ( />s4 ,until ?y _s-%ea? do? free itself ,f ,lucif]'s dom9ion1 ,i %all be ,beside !e 9 ?y solitude to br+ ,!e p[]s :i* ,i %all roam o'er cosmic space ,f /> to /> to ga!r up = !e4 ,,!odora',s ,,s\l3 ,pa/ ?\ghts ( e>? arise 9 gl[+ light ,on yond] %ore ( s\ls4 ,a human =m4 ,i saw x :5 on e>?2 x foll[s "h2 ,:at once ,i he>d is n[ re-e*o$ "h2 7,lucif] appe>s ) ! s\l ( ,johannes1 :o has ! appe>ance ( an angel4 ,8 robes rose-col\r$ ) lilac rose-col\r$ w+s4 ,no feet47 ',f out ,god's be+ rose ! human s\l2 ,x c 9 dea? dive d[n to nature's dep?s2 ,9 "t x w set _s free f dea?4' ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,?is s\nd+ liv+ picture-be+ br+s ,! =ce ( noble bro!r-love to u ,:i* ?\ did/ fai?fully display on e>?4 ,i'll *ange x into s\l-p[] = ?y use4 ,! message ,i direct unto ?y s\l ,absorbs ! glimm'r+ light ( %ad[-s\ls1 ,:o1 dur+ e>?-life w ar\se 9 !e ,! ?\ghts !y brood on ?r\gh et]nity4 ,& ?\1 ! p5it5t ( _s-realms1 ,direct ?y s\l-/eps onw>d to ! />s2 ,!re nature-spirits long to use ?y "w ,:]efrom !y w beam fantasy to s\ls ,& s w fa%ion w+s = life on e>?4 ,,dame ,,balde',s ,,s\l3 ,i foll[ !e1 de> si/] ( my s\l1 ,my ,philia1 :o do/ weave love f /> ,to /> & f "o _s to ! next4 ,i foll[ !e al(t to />ry worlds1 ,i take ?y words to _m cosmic sph]es1 ,& ?us by _s-"w build up myself ,= m9e own future w&]+s on e>?4 7,felix ,balde's s\l disappe>s sl[ly1 l$ by ,dame ,balde's s\l2 ,!odora /&s motionless look+ at ,johannes' s\l1 !n %e also disappe>s1 z does ,lucif] ) ! s\l ( ,johannes47 ,,romanus' ,,s\l3 ,t :i* we j h witness$ 9 ?is place1 ,h[ love's ^w works ) ! creative ^w ,9 close/ union1 do? ar\se 9 u ,g]ms we %all ne$ 9 future lives on e>?4 7,! s\ls ( ,romanus1 ,torquatus1 & ,bellicosus disappe>--,b5$ictus' s\l & ,m>ia's s\l appe> by ! side ( ! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old1 :o n[ ent]s47 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,behold ! cosmic midnight ( y\rselves6 ,i hold y 'nea? ! spell ( rip5$ light ,:i* p\rs on y f ,saturn1 till y\r %ea?s1 ,m /rongly wak+ ?r\gh ?is same light's p[] ,become self-lum9\s1 ) liv+ hues4 ,,m>ia',s ,,s\l3 ,do? cosmic midnight come :5 s\ls awake8 ,x 0 ! moon-"t1 :5 ! sun decl>$ ,! e>ne/ ^w ( ,fate1 t human s\ls1 ,:o see _! cosmic midnight h\r awake1 ,see lightn+s1 :i* ) in/antane\s fla% ,light up ! ?+s t are to be1 b pass ,aga9 s quickly t ! _s-sight ,dies at ! v mom5t ( its bir?-- ,& dea? becomes a seal ( de/9y ,= ev] /amp$ ^u ! s\ls :o saw4 ,su* s\ls he> too ! words ( ?und] cle> ,:i* dully roll ?r\gh cosmic fundam5ts ,& ?reat5 s\l-illusion z !y roll4 7,lucif] reappe>s ) ! ,s\l ( ,johannes47 ,,b5$ictus' ,,s\l3 ,f ev] empty fields ( ice fate's cry ,do? rea* to u f our de> my/ic fri5d4 ,:5 we ! cosmic midnight c p]ceive1 ,we rea* ! _s-circle ( ! s\l4 ,,m>ia',s ,,s\l3 ,! flames draw nigh1 !y draw nigh ) my ?\ght ,!re f my di/ant cosmic %ore ( s\ls2 ,a fi]ce /rife do? draw nigh2--'tis m9e own ?\ght ,:i* battles ) ! ?\ghts ( ,lucif]2-- ,m9e own ?\ght battles 9 ano!r's s\l1-- ,! hot light issues--out ( gloomy cold-- ,l lightn+ fla%es4 ,is ?is hot s\l-light-- ,?is s\l-light--9 ! cosmic fields ( ice8 ,,lucif]3 ,! light ?\ see/--'tis my hot cosmic light-- ,see too ! lightn+ fla%es ( ?y ?\ght ,/rike f ! b\nds ( ,lucif]'s doma94 ,i br+ )9 ! focus ( ?y gaze ,! s\l s long & closely b\nd to !e ,:5 ?\ do/ feel ?y cosmic midnight h\r4 ,h5ce=? ?y se>* mu/ f9d ano!r way ,to come into communion ) ?is s\l4 ,o s\l1 :o to ?is place ha/ foll[$ me1 ,display & use ! =ces ( ! light ,:i* ,saturn on h] cosmic midnight p\rs4 ,,johannes' ,,s\l3 ,i c feel s\ls1 b h n yet ! p[] ,to make _! light gr[ visible 9 me4 ,h[ev] close !y are !y g5]ate ,?\ghts :i* b s]ve to light me f af>4 ,h[ c ,i raise !m to m9e inn] sight8 ,,philia3 ,?\ wilt see !m if ?\ do/ swiftly grasp ,:at !y illum9e 9 ! cosmic light2 ,%\ld/ ?\ behold1 use well t mom5t's space2 ,light su* z ?is is quickly gone aga94 ,,johannes' ,,s\l3 ,:at yond] guide's s\l to 8 pupil speaks1-- ,t pupil's s\l s ne> & de> to me1-- ,%\ld n[ illum9ate my s\l's doma94 ,,b5$ictus' ,,s\l3 ,br+ =? )9 ?is _s-midnight h\r ,! w t ?\ desir'/ to feel aga9 ,:5 e>?ly =ces once m clo! ?y =m4 ,?y words %all prove a light to ?y fri5d's s\l4 ,,m>ia',s ,,s\l3 ,let !n my words gr[ /rong 9 cosmic light1 ,:i* at ?is cosmic midnight ,i confide ,unto ! s\l br\ght me by ,lucif]4 ,:atev] 9 m9e inmo/ s\l is de> ,i w behold x &1 behold+1 speak1 ,t x may =m itself into a tone1 ,to :i* ?is s\l %all answ] :5 on e>?1 ,&1 lov+ x1 %all live z x comm&s4 ,:at n[ d ,i see 9 m9e inmo/ s\l8 ,a l(ty c\nsel 9 flame-lett]s writ4 ,my love = t de> guid+-s\l flames out1 ,:o 9 m9e e>?--z 9 my _s-life ,ha? l$ me on ?r\gh ea* successive age2 ,:o ev] f\nd me :5 m9e in/ant pray] ,s\ght help 9 dang]1 ev5 :5 x dwelt ,on _s-heights itself2 9 dazzl+ light ,?is love appe>s to me2 s\nd out f me1 ,?\ ^w ( love1 unto ?is o!r s\l4 ,:at flames are ^? ?is ^w ( love do? wake8 ,!y gl[ s g5tly1 yet _! g5tle light ,p\rs =? a s5se ( l(ty dignity2 ,by wisdom's lightn+s1 :5ce a bless+ fl[s1 ,! cosmic e!r is lit up ar\nd-- ,& bliss comes p\r+ ) att5dant joy ,o'er all ! compass ( my s\l's doma94 ,( !e1 ,duration1 w\ld ,i crave a boon2 ,p\r out ?yself into ?is bless$ness1 ,& let my guide & let t o!r s\l ,n[ dwell !re9 ) me 9 peacefulness4 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,n[ let ! lightn+s vani% into naught ,^: %>p fla% br+s to view necessities ,:5 s\ls awake & feel ! ,cosmic ,nor?4 ,let ?und] also lose its ro>1 :i* rolls ,9 w>n+ at ! cosmic midnight h\r4 ,a/rid1 to !e ,i give a /rict comm&3 ,keep close wat* o'er ?is ?und]-/orm ( s\ls ,till 9 ! c\rse ( "t ! s\l awakes ,to f9d its cosmic midnight once aga91 ,!n %all x see itself 9 o!r guise1 ,e'en 9 a picture ( an old5 "t1 ,& "k h[ /r5g? = l(ty _s-flight ,e'en f disa/] may ! s\l's w+s ga94 ,a s\l may nev] wi% itself to fall2 ,yet1 :5 x falls x mu/ a lesson le>n4 ,,a/rid3 ,! lightn+'s p[] & ?und]'s w ,i gu>d ,& keep !m safe )9 ! cosmic life1 ,till ,saturn turns t[>d ! s\l once m4 ,,m>ia3 ,i feel ! bless$ness ( />s endure1 ,& 9 ! /ream ( "t ,i ent] x4 ,i'll live & "w )9 its k9dly sway ,) ?is s\l-be+ long s9ce knit to m9e4 ,,luna3 ,i w protect ?y "w 9 _s "h1 ,t ?\ may/ reap ! fruits 9 life on e>?4 ,,johannes' ,,s\l3 ,)9 my s\l's doma9--,i see ?is />6 ,x p\rs =? k9dness--beams =? bless$ness-- ,9 cosmic e!r float+--?is s\l />-- ,b !re--9 yon fa9t light--ano!r />-- ,its note is fa9t1--yet w ,i li/ !reto4 7,) ! la/ words appe>s ! _s ( ,johannes' y\?4 ,figure l an angel's2 silv]y %e547 ,,! ,,_s ,,( ,,johannes' ,,y\?3 ,i fe$ ) life ! be+ ( ?y wi%1 ,my brea? w p\r into ?y y\?ful aims ,enlight5+ /r5g?1 :5 worlds are tempt+ !e ,)9 :i* ,i c guide !e joyfully4 ,if ?\ %\ld/ lose me 9 ?yself1 ,i mu/ ,!n (f] up myself z sacrifice1 ,a be+ reft ( be+1 to ! %ades4 ,o blossom ( my be+1--leave me n4 ,,lucif]3 ,he nev] w =sake !e--,i behold ,deep 9 8 nature long+s aft] light ,:i* d n foll[ up ! o!r s\l4 ,& :5 ! radiance1 :i* is born ( !m1 ,takes root & gr[s deep d[n )9 8 s\l1 ,x mu/ be> fruit2 nor w he be cont5t ,to ?r[ ?is fruit away 9 yond] realm ,:]e love1 divorc$ f beauty1 reigns alone4 ,sl[ curta9 ,,sc5e #g ,a temple some:at ,egyptian 9 appe>ance4 ,a place ( initiation 9 ! f>-di/ant pa/ 9 ?is ,e>?'s ?ird /age ( po/-,atlantean civilisation4 ,a conv]sation betwe5 ! hi]ophant1 o!rwise ,capesius1 ! keep] ( ! temple1 o!rwise ,felix ,balde or ,joseph ,keane & a my/ic1 o!rwise ,dame ,balde or ,dame ,keane4 ,,hi]ophant3 ,are all ! prep>ations duly made1 ,my keep] ( ! temple1 to ! end ,our holy rite may s]ve bo? gods & m58 ,,keep]3 ,s f> z human =e?\ght c provide ,all ha? be5 well prep>$2 a holy brea? ,ha? fill$ ! temple n[ = _m days4 ,,hi]ophant3 ,my my/ic1 z ! royal c\nsellor1 ,a prie/ ha? be5 select$ unto :om ,?is v day our secret wisdom's /ore ,is ) all hol9ess to be reveal$4 ,ha/ ?\ !n s prep>$ him by ?y te/s ,t he is n[ entirely giv5 o'er ,to wisdom set ap>t f e>?ly c>es1 ,& %uts 8 e> to all b _s-lore8 ,a diff]5t c\nsellor w\ld d u h>m4 ,,my/ic3 ,! te/s 7 giv5 z ! law orda9s1 ,! ma/]s f\nd !m adequate2 ,i ?9k ,our my/ic ha? b little natural ta/e ,= e>?ly c>es2 8 s\l is set ^u ,8 _s-progress & developm5t ,( self2 9 _s trance he (t is se54 ',tis n too mu* to say he revels 9 ,! union ( ! _s ) 8 s\l4 ,,hi]ophant3 ,has ?\ !n (t5 se5 him 9 ?is /ate8 ,,my/ic3 ,9 tru? he may ?us frequ5tly be se54 ,8 nature d\btless is incl9$ t[>d ,! temple's s]vice r ?an ! /ate's4 ,,hi]ophant3 ,x is en\gh4 ,n[ g to ?9e own place ,& see our holy rite is well p]=m$2 7,exit ,my/ic47 ,to !e1 my keep]1 ,i h m to say4 ,?\ kn[e/ h[ ,i prize ?y my/ic gifts3 ,to me ?\ be>e/ wisdom f> beyond ,t :i* befits ?y /atus 9 ?is %r9e4 ,(t to ?y se]%ip h ,i _h rec\rse ,to prove :at m9e own _s-sight ha? se54 ,& s ,i ask1 :at confid5ce ha/ ?\ ,t ?is new my/ic is = _s ripe8 ,,keep]3 ,:o asks = my op9ion8 ,is my voice ,( any wor?8 ,,hi]ophant3 ,x aye ha? wor? = me4 ,today aga9 ?\ %alt /& by my side2 ,we mu/ mo/ closely wat* ?is holy rite ,) inw>d sight2 &1 %\ld ! 'my/ic' prove ,e'en 9 ! slighte/ way unripe z yet ,= its high mean+ 9 ! _s life1 ,i %all refuse him rank z 'c\nsellor4' ,,keep]3 ,:at is x !n t n[ may be reveal$ ,9 ?is new 'my/ic' at our holy rite4 ,,hi]ophant3 ,i "k he is n wor?y ( ! tru/ ,! temple s]vants seek to give to him4 ,8 human nature is well kn[n to me4 ,8 my/ic-s5se is n t he>tfelt urge ,:i* /irs 9 m5 :5 light f _s realms ,9 k9dness draws s\ls upw>ds to itself4 ,/rong passion surges 9 8 be+ yet2 ,! crav+ ( 8 s5ses is n /ill$4 ,inde$ ,i w\ld n blame ! w div9e1 ,:i* e'en 9 crav+ & 9 passion p\rs ,its wisdom-light o'er evolution's /ream4 ,b :5 ! crav+ do? conceal itself1 ,& revel 'nea? devotion's my/ic mask1 ,x cause? ?\ght to lie1 & makes w false4 ,! light t weaves ! web ( _s-worlds ,c nev] p5etrate unto su* s\ls1 ,s9ce passion spreads a my/ic fog betwe54 ,,keep]3 ,my hi]ophant1 ?y judgm5t is sev]e ,9 deal+ ) a man :o /ill is "y ,& inexp]i5c$1 :o c nei!r "k ,himself nor take ano!r c\rse ?an t ,:i* prie/ly guides & my/ic lead]s say ,do? rea* ! goal along ! s\l's true pa?4 ,,hi]ophant3 ,i d n judge ! man1 ,i judge ! de$ ,t w be wr\ght "h 9 ?is holy place4 ,?is holy my/ic rite1 :i* we p]=m1 ,ha? n importance = ourselves alone4 ,fate's /ream ( cosmic evolution p\rs ,?r\gh ^w & de$ ( sacr$ prie/ly rites4 ,:at happ5s "h 9 pictures comes to pass ,9 ev]la/+ life 9 _s-worlds4 ,b n[1 good keep]1 get !e to ?y task2 ,?\ wilt ?yself discov] h[ to l5d ,assi/ance to me 9 ?is holy rite4 7,exit ,keep]1 "r47 ,,hi]ophant4 7alone7 ,?is y\?ful my/ic w n be to blame1 ,:o hopes ?is day to d$icate himself ,unto ! wisdom1 if 9 ^! next h\rs ,a wrong emotion1 su* z may gu% out ,unhe$$ f 8 he>t1 %\ld ?r[ its rays ,^u our sacr$ rite1 & 9 ?is act ,%\ld ?r\gh our symbols draw nigh _s-sph]es ,:5ce ill results 9 consequ5ce mu/ fl[ ,into ! curr5t ( our human life4 ,! guides & lead]s are !mselves to blame4 ,h !y n le>n$ to "k ! my/ic =ce ,:i* p5etrates 9 "s my/]i\s way ,) _s e ^w & sigh ( ours2 ,& ceases n f action ev5 :5 ,! cont5ts ( a s\l are p\r$ !re9 ,:i* h9d]s cosmic evolution's c\rse8 ,in/ead ( ?is "y my/ic consci\sly ,"h to ! _s (f'r+ up himself1 ,8 tea*]s drag him l a sacrifice ,into ! holy prec9cts1 :]e 8 s\l ,unconsci\sly he to ! _s yields4 ,= v]ily he w\ld n take ?is road ,if he 7 consci\s ma/] ( 8 s\l4 ,)9 ! circle ( our my/]ies ,! highe/ hi]ophant alone do? "k ,:at my/ic tru?s lurk 9 our sacr$ =ms4 ,b he is dumb z solitude itself4 ,su* sil5ce 8 high dignity comm&s4 ,! o!rs gaze uncompreh5d+ly ,:5 ( our ritual's real int5t ,i speak4 ,s am ,i left to be> my c>es alone2 ,well-nigh unbe>able _! burd5 seems ,:5 all ! mean+ ( our ritual ,& ( our temple is borne 9 on me4 ,"o ?+ especially ,i deeply feel-- ,! solitude ( ?is /]n _s-%r9e4 ,:y d ,i feel s lonely 9 ?is place8 ,! s\l mu/ ask ?is "q4 ,:51 ah1 :5 ,w to my s\l ! _s make reply8 ,curta9 falls sl[ly ,,sc5e #h ,,"p ,i ,outside ! ,egyptian temple4 ,an ,egyptian woman is se5 cr\*+ by ! wall4 ,%e is a previ\s inc>nation ( ,johannes ,?omasius4 ,,egyptian ,,woman3 ,?is is ! h\r 9 :i* he d$icates ,himself to s]ve ! anci5t holy laws ,( sacr$ wisdom1--& 9 do+ ?is ,he mu/ =ev] te> himself f me4 ,f out ^? heights ( light to :i* 8 s\l ,progresses !re mu/ fla% into m9e own ,! ray ( dea?4 ,:5 ,i am torn f him-- ,naught do? rema9 = me 9 life on e>? ,b m\rn+--resignation--sorr[--dea?4 7,cl++ to ! wall47 ,yet ?\gh 9 ?is h\r he ab&ons me ,i1 none ! less1 w /ay close to ! spot ,:]e he unto ! _s gives himself4 ,& if m9e eyes are n all[$ to see ,h[ he do? te> himself away f e>?1 ,p]*ance 'twill be n[ grant$ 9 a dream ,to l+] disembodi$ by 8 side4 ,,"p ,,ii ,inside ! temple4 ,! hall ( initiation4 ,! c]emony is p]=m$ on a broad flight ( /eps desc5d+ f ! back to ! front ( ! /age4 ,! *>act]s /& 9 gr\ps bel[ "o ano!r & on diff]5t /eps4 ,! drop-curta9 goes up1 disclos+ ev]y?+ 9 read9ess = ! initiation ( ! ,neophyte1 :o is to be ?\ght ( z an e>li] inc>nation ( ,m>ia2 beh9d ! alt> & to ! left ( x /&s ! ,*ief ,hi]ophant :o is to be ?\ght ( z an e>li] inc>nation ( ,b5$ictus2 on ! o!r side ! ,record]1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,hil>y ,true-to-,god2 a little 9 front ( ! alt> ! ,keep] ( ! ,seals1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,!odora2 9 front1 on ! "r side ( ! alt>1 ! ,imp]sonator ( ! ,e>? ,elem5t1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,romanus1 & ) him ! ,imp]sonator ( ! ,air ,elem5t1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,magnus ,bellicosus2 q close to ! ,*ief ,hi]ophant1 /&s ! ,hi]ophant1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,capesius2 on ! left side ( ! alt> ! ,imp]sonator ( ! ,fire ,elem5t1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,doctor ,/rad]1 ) ! ,imp]sonator ( ! ,wat] ,elem5t1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,torquatus4 ,9 front ( !m ,philia1 ,a/rid1 ,luna & ! 'o!r ,philia4' ,f\r o!r prie/s /& 9 front ( !m4 ,9 front ( all ,lucif] to ! left ( alt> & ,ahriman to ! "r 9 ! guise ( sph9xes1 ) ! *]ub emphasiz$ 9 ! case ( ,lucif] & ! bull 9 ! case ( ,ahriman4 ,dead sil5ce = a :ile aft] ! int]ior ( ! temple ) its gr\p$ my/ics has become visible4 ,! ,keep] ( ! ,temple an e>li] inc>nation ( ,felix ,balde1 & a ,my/ic1 an e>li] inc>nation ( ,dame ,balde1 lead ! ,neophyte 9 ?r\gh a doorway on ! "r ( /age4 ,!y place him 9 ! inn] circle ne> ! alt>1 & rema9 /&+ ne> him4 ,,! ,,keep] ,,( ,,! ,,temple3 ,f out t web ( unreality ,:i* ?\1 9 error's d>kness nam$'/ _w1 ,! my/ic ha? conduct$ !e to u4 ,f be+ & f naught ! _w 0 made ,:i* to a semblance wove itself = !e4 ,semblance is good1 by be+ und]/ood2 ,?\ did/ b dream x 9 ?y sembl$ life2 ,& semblance kn[n by semblance disappe>s4 ,le>n1 semblance ( a semblance1 :at ?\ art4 ,,! ,,my/ic3 ,?us speaks ! gu>dian ( ?is temple's door4 ,feel 9 ?yself ! sore weight ( 8 words4 ,,! ,,imp]sonator ,,( ,,! ,,e>? ,,elem5t3 ,b5ea? ! weight ( e>?-life seize ^u ,! semblance ( y\r be+ )\t fe>4 ,t ?\ may/ s9k into ! cosmic dep?s ,9 d>ksome cosmic dep?s ?y be+ seek4 ,b9d to ?y semblance t :i* ?\ do/ f9d2 ,its weight w give ?y be+ unto !e4 ,,! ,,record]3 ,?\ wilt n und]/&1 z ?\ do/ s9k1 ,:]eto we lead till ?\ ha/ he>d 8 call4 ,we =ge = !e ! =m ( ?y real self2 ,p]ceive our "w2 else mu/ ?\ lose ?yself ,z semblance 9 ! cosmic no?+ness4 ,,! ,,my/ic3 ,s speaks ! gu>dian ( ?is temple's words4 ,feel 9 ?yself ! sore weight ( 8 words4 ,,! ,,imp]sonator ,,( ,,! ,,air ,,elem5t3 ,fly f ! weight ( e>?-life :i* w\ld kill ,! be+ ( ?yself1 z ?\ do/ s9k4 ,fly f x on ! lightness ( ! air4 ,9 light ( cosmic space ?y be+ seek4 ,b9d to ?y semblance t :i* ?\ do/ f9d2 ,its flight w give ?y be+ unto !e4 ,,! ,,record]3 ,?\ wilt n und]/&1 z ?\ do/ fly1 ,:]eto we lead1 till ?\ ha/ he>d 8 call4 ,we light = !e ! life ( ?y real self2 ,p]ceive our "w2 else mu/ ?\ lose ?yself ,z semblance 9 ! cosmic weight9ess4 ,,! ,,my/ic3 ,s speaks ! gu>dian ( ?is temple's words4 ,feel 9 ?yself ! uplift ( 8 words4 ,,! ,,*ief ,,hi]ophant3 ,my son1 ?\ wilt on wisdom's noble road ,! my/ic's c\nsel c>efully obey4 ,?\ can/ n see ! answ] 9 ?yself2 ,= error's d>kness /ill do? weigh !e d[n ,& folly /rives 9 !e = di/ant ?+s4 ,gaze !re=e--on ?is flame :i* is m close 7,! bright1 quiv]+ sacr$ flame fl>es up on ! alt> 9 ! middle ( ! /age47 ,to !e ?an is ! life ( ?9e own self1 ,& read ?9e answ] hidd5 9 its fire4 ,,! ,,my/ic3 ,s speaks ! lead] ( ?is temple's rites4 ,feel 9 ?yself ! ritual's holy p[]4 ,,! ,,imp]sonator ,,( ,,! ,,fire ,,elem5t3 ,let all ! errors ( ?9e own ideas ,be burn$ 9 fire t ?is rite lights = !e4 ,let1 ) ?9e errors1 ?yself also burn4 ,z flame ( cosmic fire ?y be+ seek2 ,b9d to ?y semblance t :i* ?\ do/ f9d2 ,its fire w give ?y be+ unto !e4 ,,! ,,keep] ,,( ,,! ,,seals3 ,?\ wilt n und]/& :y to a flame ,we fa%ion !e till ?\ ha/ he>d 8 call4 ,we cleanse = !e ! =m ( ?9e own self2 ,p]ceive our "w2 else mu/ ?\ lose ?yself ,z =mless be+ 9 ! cosmic sea4 ,,! ,,my/ic3 ,s speaks ! gu>dian ( ?is temple's seals4 ,feel 9 ?yself ! p[] ( wisdom's light4 ,,! ,,imp]sonator ,,( ,,! ,,wat] ,,elem5t3 ,resi/ ! flame-p[]s ( ! _w ( fire ,t !y may n dev\r ?y be+'s might4 ,f semblance1 be+ w n rise 9 !e ,unless ! wave-beat ( ! cosmic sea ,c fill !e ) ! music ( ! sph]es4 ,z wave 9 cosmic sea ?y be+ seek2 ,b9d to ?y semblance t :i* ?\ do/ f9d2 ,its waves w give ?y be+ unto !e4 ,,! ,,keep] ,,( ,,! ,,seals3 ,?\ wilt n und]/& :y to a wave ,we fa%ion !e till ?\ ha/ he>d 8 call4 ,we build = !e ! =m ( ?9e own self2 ,p]ceive our "w2 else mu/ ?\ lose ?yself ,a =mless be+ 9 ! cosmic fire4 ,,! ,,*ief ,,hi]ophant3 ,my son1 by p[]ful ex]cise ( w ,^! my/ic c\nsels too ?\ mu/ obey4 ,?\ can/ n see ! answ] 9 ?yself2 ,by c[>dly fe> ?y p[] is /ill congeal$2 ,?\ can/ n fa%ion weakness to a wave ,t lets ?y note r+ out among/ ! sph]es4 ,s li/5 to ?y s\l-p[]s :5 !y speak2 ,& ?9e own voice )9 _! words p]ceive4 ,,philia3 ,9 fire cleanse ?\ ?yself2--& lose ?yself ,z cosmic wave 9 music ( ! sph]es4 ,,a/rid3 ,build ?\ ?yself 9 music ( ! sph]es2 ,9 cosmic di/ances fly light z air4 ,,luna3 ,s9k ) ?y weight ( e>? to cosmic dep?s2 ,take c\rage z a self 9 ?y sore weight4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,f ?9e own be+ draw ?yself away2 ,unite ?yself ) elem5tal might4 ,,! ,,my/ic3 ,?9e own s\l speaks ?us 9 ^! temple halls2 ,feel ?\ !re9 ! guidance ( ! p[]s4 ,,! ,,*ief ,,hi]ophant 7address+ ! ,hi]ophant73 ,my bro!r hi]ophant1 explore ?is s\l1 ,:i* we are to direct to wisdom's pa?1 ,d[n to its dep?s2 tell u :at ?\ do/ f9d ,its pres5t /ate ( consci\sness to be4 ,,! ,,hi]ophant3 ,all ha? be5 done t our rite do? dem&4 ,! s\l no m rememb]s :at x 04 ,! web ( semblance1 spun on error's loom1 ,oppos+ elem5ts h swept away2 ,9 elem5tal /rife x do? live on2 ,naught save its be+ ha? ! s\l reta9$4 ,n[ ( ?is be+ x %all read ! life ,9 cosmic words1 t speak f out ! flame4 ,,! ,,*ief ,,hi]ophant3 ,o human s\l1 read n[ :at ?r\gh ! flame ,! cosmic ^w decl>es )9 ?yself4 7,a pause ( consid]able l5g? ensues1 dur+ :i* ! /age is d>k5$ till only ! flame & indi/9ct outl9es ( ! *>act]s are visible2 at ! conclusion ( ! pause ! ,*ief ,hi]ophant cont9ues47 ,& n[ f out ! cosmic vision wake6 ,decl>e :at c be read f cosmic words6 7,! ,neophyte is sil5t4 ,! ,*ief ,hi]ophant1 mu* al>m$1 cont9ues73 ,he speaks n4 ,do? ! vision leave !e8 ,speak6 ,,! ,,neophyte3 ,ob$i5t to ?y /rict & sacr$ rite ,i sank into ! be+ ( ?is flame ,to wait ! s\nd ( l(ty cosmic words4 7,! assembl$ my/ics1 ! ,hi]ophant except$1 %[ an ev]-increas+ al>m dur+ ! spee* ( ! ,neophyte47 ,i felt t ,i c\ld %ake (f f myself ,! weight ( e>? & be z light z air4 ,i felt ! lov+ tide ( cosmic fire ,did be> me up on /ream+ _s-waves4 ,i saw ! body t ,i we> on e>? ,z o!r be+ /& outside myself4 ,?\gh wrapt 9 bliss1 & consci\s ( ! light ,( _s r\nd me1 yet ,i c\ld reg>d ,m9e e>?ly %ea? ) long+ & desire4 7,con/]nation all ar\nd47 ,spirits ray$ light !reon f l(ty worlds2 ,l %9+ butt]flies !re hov]$ ne> ,! be+s :o att5d its active life2 ,! body by ^! be+s ba!d 9 light ,reflect$ sp>kl+ col\rs manifold2 ,!y %one close by1 grew fa9t] fur!r (f1 ,& !n 7 scatt]$ & disp]s$ 9 space4 ,)9 ! be+ ( my _s s\l ,!re lurk$ ! wi% t weight ( e>? %\ld s9k ,me d[n into my %ea?1 t ,i might feel ,& le>n ! s5se ( joy )9 life's w>m?4 ,s1 div+ gladly d[n into my %ea?1 ,i he$$ ?y /]n summons to awake4 ,,! ,,*ief ,,hi]ophant 7himself al>m$1 to ! al>m$ my/ics73 ,?is is no _s-vision2 e>?'s desires ,escap$ ! my/ic & z (f]+ rose ,to radiant _s-heights2--,o sacrilege6 ,,! ,,record] 7angrily to ! ,hi]ophant73 ,?is c\ld n h occurr$1 had/ ?\ p]=m$ ,! (fice grant$ !e z hi]ophant ,z anci5t holy duty did dem&4 ,,! ,,hi]ophant3 ,i did ! duty 9 ?is solemn h\r ,:i* ^? f high] realms did lay on me4 ,i did n ?9k t :i* x is my place ,to ?9k1 accord+ to ! ritual1 ,& :i*1 proce$+ f me1 %\ld appe> ,9 _s-work+ 9 ! neophyte4 ,! "y man !re=e ha? decl>$ to u ,none o!r's ?\ghts b 8 own be+'s self4 ,! tru? ha? conqu]$4 ,ye may puni% me2 ,i _h to d :at ye p]ceiv$ ) fe>4 ,i feel ! times approa* :i* w set free ,! ego f ! gr\p-s\l & let loose ,its own true individual p[]s ( ?\ght4 ,:at if ! y\? escapes y\r my/ic pa? ,at pres5t8--,lat] lives on e>? w %[ ,) cle>e/ signs ! k9d ( my/ic way ,:i* de/9y ha? =eorda9$ = him4 ,,! ,,my/ics3 ,o sacrilege2--?\ mu/ atone--& pay-- 7,! sph9xes beg9 to speak "o aft] ! o!r z ,ahriman & ,lucif]2 hi!rto !y h be5 z motionless z /atues2 :at !y say is he>d only by ! hi]ophant1 ! *ief hi]ophant1 & ! neophyte2--! o!rs are full ( excitem5t ov] ! prec$+ ev5ts47 ,,ahriman ,,z ,,sph9x3 ,= my realm ,i mu/ lay my h&s ^u ,:at "h do? wrongly seek ! way to light1 ,& 9 ! d>kness fur!r fo/] x2 ,t x may br+ =? _s-qualities ,:i* lat] on w let x weave itself ,) rightful mean+ into human life4 ,b till x ga9s ^! _s-qualities1 ,:at 9 ?is holy s]vice did appe> ,z e>?ly burd51 ?is w s]ve my "w4 ,,lucif] ,,z ,,sph9x3 ,= my realm ,i %all be> away ! ?+s ,t joy z _s-wi% 9 semblance "h2 ,!y'll gladly %9e z semblance 9 ! light ,& ?us 9 _s d$icate !mselves ,to beauty f :i* !y are kept ap>t ,at pres5t by ! burd5 ( e>?'s weight4 ,9 beauty1 semblance into be+ turns1 ,:i* lat] %all illum9ate ! e>?1 ,desc5d+ z ! light :i* flies f "h4 ,,! ,,*ief ,,hi]ophant3 ,! sph9xes speak--:o 7 b images ,e'er s9ce ?is rite by sages 0 p]=m$4 ,^u dead =m ! _s n[ ha? seiz$4 ,o ,fate1 ?\ do/ s\nd =? z cosmic ^w6 7,! o!r my/ics1 ) ! exception ( ! ,hi]ophant & ! ,neophyte1 are amaz$ at ! words ( ! ,*ief ,hi]ophant47 ,,! ,,hi]ophant 7to ! ,*ief ,hi]ophant73 ,?is holy my/ic rite :i* we p]=m ,ha? n importance = ourselves alone4 ,fate's /ream ( cosmic evolution p\rs ,?r\gh ^w & de$ ( sacr$ prie/ly rites4 ,! curta9 falls on ! m5tal atmosph]e set up by ! prec$+ occurr5ces ,,sc5e #i ,a /udy 9 ,hil>y's h\se4 ,a g5]al atmosph]e ( s]i\sness p]vades ! room4 ,m>ia alone 9 m$itation4 ,,m>ia3 ,a />ry s\l1 on yond] _s-%ore1 ,draws ne>1--draws ne> me clad 9 _s-light1 ,draws ne> ) m9e own self1 & z x ne>s-- ,its radiance ga9s 9 p[]1--& ga9s 9 calm4 ,o /> )9 my _s-circle1 :at ,do? ?9e approa* %$ on my gaz+ s\l8 7,a/rid appe>s to "r47 ,,a/rid3 ,p]ceive t :i* ,i n[ c br+ to !e2 ,f cosmic /rife 'twixt d>kness & ! light ,i /ole ?y p[] ( ?\ght2 ,i br+ x n[ ,f out its cosmic midnight's wak5+ ,) s]vice true back to ?9e e>?ly =m4 ,,m>ia3 ,my ,a/rid1 ?\ ha/ ev] till today ,appe>$ to me z %9+ %ad[-s\l2 ,:at turns !e n[ to ?is bright _s-/>8 ,,a/rid3 ,i kept ! lightn+'s & ! ?und]'s p[] ,= !e1 t !y might /ay )9 ?y s\l1 ,& n[ ?\ can/ behold !m consci\sly-- ,:5 ( ! cosmic midnight ?\ do/ ?9k4 ,,m>ia3 ,! cosmic midnight6--ere = ?is e>?-life ,my self enclos$ me 9 my body's %ea?2 ,:5 ,saturn's col\r$ light kept endless wat*6 ,m9e e>?ly ?\ghts conceal$ f me be=e ,?is _s sc5e 9 s\l-obscurity2-- ,n[ 9 s\l-cl>ity x do? em]ge4 ,,a/rid3 ,?yself 9 cosmic light did/ speak ^! words3 ',( !e1 ,duration1 w\ld ,i crave a boon3 ,p\r out ?yself into ?is bless$ness ,& let my guide1 & let t o!r s\l ,n[ dwell ) me !re9 9 peacefulness4' ,,m>ia3 ,dwell ) me also4 ,o ?\ mom5t ble/1 ,9 :i* ?is _s happ5+ creates ,new p[]s ( self4 ,equip my s\l ) /r5g? ,t ?\ may/ n pass f me l a dream4 ,9 light :i* on ! cosmic midnight %9es1 ,:i* ,a/rid br+s f s\l-obscurity1 ,m9e ego jo9s t self :i* fa%ion$ me ,to s]ve its purpose 9 ! cosmic life4 ,b h[1 ,o mom5t1 c ,i hold !e fa/1 ,s t ,i d n lose !e :5 once m ,my s5ses feel e>? cle>ness once aga98 ,_! p[] is great2 & (t51 if !y slay ,! _s-vision1 x /ays dead e'en :5 ,! self 9 _s f9ds itself aga94 7,imm$iately aft] ! la/ words1 z if summon$ by !m1 ,luna appe>s47 ,,luna3 ,pres]ve1 be=e ! s5se-life once aga9 ,makes !e to dream1 ! p[] ( ?9e own w ,) :i* ?is mom5t ha? pres5t$ !e4 ,?9k ( ! words t ,i myself did speak ,:5 at ! cosmic midnight se5 by !e4 ,,m>ia3 ,my ,luna1 f ! cosmic midnight ?\ ,ha/ br\ght me hi!r m9e own p[] ( w ,to be my prop ?r\gh\t my life on e>?4 ,,luna3 ,! ,gu>dian's w>n+ foll[$ ?us ?y words3 ',!n %alt ?\ see ?yself 9 o!r guise1 ,e'en 9 a picture ( an old5 "t1 ,& "k h[ /r5g? = l(ty _s-flight ,e'en f disa/] may ! s\l's w+s ga94 ,a s\l may nev] wi% itself to fall2 ,yet1 :5 x falls x mu/ a lesson le>n4' ,,m>ia3 ,:]eto do? ?y ^w's p[] n[ c>ry me8 ,a _s-/> on yond] %ore ( s\ls6 ,x gleams1 x drawe? nigh--9 _s-=m2 ,draws nigh ) m9e own self2 &1 z x ne>s1 ,! light gr[s d5s] & )9 ! light ,=ms d>k51 tak+ on _! be+'s %ape6 ,a y\?ful my/ic1 & a sacr$ flame1 ,! /]n call ( ! highe/ hi]ophant ,to tell ! vision se5 )9 ! flame6 ,! gr\p ( my/ics ov]come ) fe> ,at t "y my/ic's self-ackn[l$gm5t4 7,! ,gu>dian ( ! ,?re%old appe>s :ile ! latt] s5t5ces are be+ utt]$47 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,he> once aga9 )9 ?y _s-e> ,! /]n call ( ! highe/ hi]ophant4 ,,m>ia3 ',o human s\l1 read n[ :at ?r\gh ! flame 7,b5$ictus appe>s47 ,! cosmic ^w decl>es )9 ?yself4' ,:o spoke ! words my ?\ght br+s back to me1 ,recall+ !m f wat]s ( ! s\l8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,) m9e own words ?\ calle/ me to !e4 ,:5 9 times pa/ ,i utt]$ ?is comm&1 ,x did n f9d !e ready to respond4 ,& s x /ay$ 9 evolution's womb2 ,! c\rse ( "t ha? l5t new =ce !reto ,:i* fl[$ !re9 f out ?9e own s\l's life2 ,& s x wr\ght 9 lat] lives on e>? ,9 ?y s\l's dep?s al?\gh ?\ knewe/ x n4 ,x let !e f9d me z ?y guide aga92 ,by consci\s ?\ght x n[ trans=ms itself ,into a p[]ful motive 9 ?y life4 ',?is holy my/ic rite1 :i* we p]=m1 ,ha? n importance = ourselves alone2 ,fate's /ream ( cosmic evolution p\rs ,?r\gh ^w & de$ ( sacr$ prie/ly rites4' ,,m>ia3 ,?\ did/ n speak ?is ^w )9 t place4 ,! hi]ophant did speak1 :o us$ to be ,?y colleague 9 t anci5t my/ic b&4 ,he knew e'en !n t p[]s ( de/9y ,=esaw ! end+ ( ?is my/ic b&4 ,unconsci\sly ! hi]ophant beheld ,! beaute\s ris+ ( ! rosy dawn ,:i* to ! _s-/ream ( e>? =etold ,a new sun ov] ,hellas %\ld arise4 ,s he =bore to s5d ! p[]ful ?\ght ,:i* he %\ld h direct$ to my s\l4 ,! cosmic _s's in/rum5t 0 he ,at t initiation1 dur+ :i* ,he he>d ! :isp]+ /ream ( cosmic life4 ,he spoke a ^w f out 8 inmo/ s\l ',"o ?+ especially ,i deeply feel3 ,! solitude ( ?is /]n _s-%r9e4 ,:y d ,i feel s lonely 9 ?is place8' ,,b5$ictus3 ,9 8 s\l !re 0 plant$ ev5 !n ,! g]m ( solitude1 :i* lat] on ,matur$ to s\l-fruit 9 ! womb ( "t4 ,?is fruit ,capesius z my/ic n[ ,mu/ ta/e1 & s mu/ foll[ ,felix' /eps4 ,,m>ia3 ,t woman1 too1 :o ne> ! temple /ay$1 ,i see h] z %e 0 9 old5 "t1 ,b n yet c my vision p5etrate ,to :]e %e is2 h[ c ,i f9d h] !n ,:5 s5se-life cause? me to dream aga98 ,,! ,,gu>dian3 ,?\ wilt discov] h] :5 ?\ do/ see ,t be+ 9 ! realm ( s\ls :om %e ,do? c\nt a %ade among/ ! o!r %ades4 ,%e seeks to rea* x ) /rong p[] ( s\l4 ,%e w n free x f ! _w ( %ades ,till 9 h] pres5t body1 ?r\gh ?9e aid1 ,%e ha? beheld h] long pa/ life on e>?4 ,,m>ia3 ,l "s s\l-/> my highe/ gu>dian glides1 ,9 gl[+ light t[>d my %ore ( s\ls2-- ,8 light spreads peace1 f> r\nd ! wide flung space2-- ,8 light ha? gr&eur2--& 8 dignity ,makes /rong my be+ 9 its inmo/ dep?s2 ,9 ?is peace w ,i n[ subm]ge myself2-- ,i feel be=e t ?r\gh x ,i %all f9d ,my way to fulle/ _s-wakefulness4 ,& ye1 too1 mess5g]s into my s\l-- ,i'll keep )9 myself z beacon-lights4 ,^u !e1 ,a/rid1 w ,i call :5 ?\ght ,w\ld f s\l-cle>ness fa9 )draw itself4 ,& !e1 ,o ,luna1 may my pray] !n f9d ,:5 w-p[] slumb]s deep 9 my s\l dep?s4 ,! curta9 falls :ile ,m>ia1 ,a/rid1 & ,luna are /ill 9 ! room ,,sc5e #aj ,! same4 ,johannes alone 9 m$itation4 ,,johannes3 ',?is is ! h\r 9 :i* he d$icates ,himself to s]ve ! anci5t holy laws ,( sacr$ wisdom2--9 a dream p]*ance ,i may 9 _s l+] at 8 side4' ,?us ne> ! temple spake 9 anci5t times ,! woman :om my _s-vision sees2 ,by ?\ghts ( h] ,i feel my /r5g? increas$4 ,:at is ?is picture's purpose8 ,:y do? x ,hold my att5tion spellb\nd8 ,c]ta9ly ,no sympa?y f out ! picture's self ,acc\nts = ?is1 =1 %\ld ,i see ! sc5e ,9 e>?ly life1 ,i %\ld consid] x ,( no importance4 ,:at sai? x to me8 7,z if f af> ! voice ( '! o!r ,philia4'7 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,! magical web ,t =ms _! own self4 ,,johannes3 ,& clairvoyant dreams ,make cle> unto s\ls ,! magical web ,t =ms _! own self4 7,:ile ,johannes is speak+ ^! l9es '! o!r ,philia' approa*es him47 ,,johannes3 ,:o art ?\1 magic _s-c\nsellor8 ,true c\nsel did/ ?\ br+ unto my s\l ,b did/ deceive me ov] ?9e own self4 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,johannes1 ?9e own be+'s d\ble =m ,f ?yself did/ ?\ fa%ion4 ,z a %ade ,mu/ ,i roam r\nd !e = s long a "t ,z ?\ ?yself %alt n set free ! %ade ,:om ?9e (f5ce do? l5d a magic life4 ,,johannes3 ,?is is ! ?ird "t t ?\ speake/ ?us2 ,i w obey !e4 ,po9t me out ! way6 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,johannes1 :il/ ?\ liv'/ 9 _s-light1 ,seek :at is treasur$ up )9 ?y ,self4 ,f its own light x w %$ light on !e4 ,?us can/ ?\ le>n by look+ 9 ?yself ,h[ to wipe out ?y fault 9 lat] lives4 ,,johannes3 ,h[ %all ,i1 :ile ,i live 9 _s-light1 ,seek :at is treasur$ up )9 my ,self8 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,give me t :i* ?\ ?9ke/ t ?\ art2 ,lose ?\ ?yself 9 me a little :ile1 ,yet s t ?\ do/ n ano!r seem4 ,,johannes3 ,h[ c ,i give myself to !e be=e ,i h beheld !e z ?\ really art8 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,i am )9 !e1 memb] ( ?y s\l2 ,! =ce ( love )9 !e is myself2 ,! he>t's hope1 z x /irs )9 ?y brea/1 ,! fruits ( long-pa/ lives ^u ?is e>? ,laid up = !e & hid )9 ?yself1 ,behold !m n[ ?r\gh me2--feel :at ,i am1 ,& ?r\gh my p[] 9 !e behold ?yself4 ,se>* out ! pictur$ be+1 :i* ?y sight1 ,)\t ?y sympa?y1 did =m = !e4 7,exit47 ,,johannes3 ,o _s-c\nsellor1 ,i c inde$ ,feel !e 9 me1 yet ,i see !e no m4 ,:]e live/ ?\ = me8 7,z if f af> ! call ( '! o!r ,philia4'7 ,,! ,,o!r ,,philia3 ,! magical web ,t =ms _! own self4 ,,johannes3 ',! magical web ,t =ms _! own self4' ,o magical web1 t =ms m9e own self1 ,%[ me ! pictur$ be+ :i* my sight ,)\t my sympa?y did =m = me4 ,:]eto do? ?is ^w's p[] conduct me n[8 ,a _s-/> on yond] %ore ( s\ls-- ,x %9es1--x drawe? nigh--z _s-=m1 ,gr[s bright] z x ne>s2--n[ =ms appe>2-- ,!y act z be+s act :o are alive2-- ,a y\?ful my/ic--& a sacr$ flame1 ,! /]n call ( ! highe/ hi]ophant ,to tell ! vision se5 )9 ! flame4 ,t woman do? ! y\?ful my/ic seek1 ,:om my sight saw )\t my sympa?y4 7,m>ia appe>s z a ?\ght-=m ( ,johannes47 ,,m>ia3 ,:o ?\ght ( !e be=e ! sacr$ flame8 ,:o felt !e ne> initiation's %r9e8 ,johannes1 w\ld/ ?\ te> ?y _s-%ade ,f out ! magic k+doms ( ! s\l2 ,live !n ! aims t x w %[ to !e2 ,! pa? on :i* ?\ seek'/ w guide ?y /eps1 ,b ?\ mu/ fir/ discov] x aright4 ,! woman ne> ! temple %[s x !e ,if %e lives p[]fully )9 ?y ?\ght4 ,spellb\nd among/ %ade-spirits do? %e /rive ,to draw nigh to t o!r %ade :o n[ ,?r\gh !e do? evil s]vice to grim %ades4 7,! ,_s ( ,johannes' ,y\? appe>s47 ,,! ,,_s ,,( ,,johannes' ,,y\?3 ,i w be grateful to !e ev]more ,if ?\ 9 love do/ cultivate ! p[]s ,laid up = me )9 ! womb ( "t ,by t "y my/ic 9 t bygone age ,:om once ?y s\l s\ght at ! temple gate4 ,b ?\ mu/ fir/ ?is _s truly see ,at ^: side ,i h n[ appe>$ to !e4 ,,m>ia3 ,m>ia1 z ?\ w\ld/ behold h]1 lives ,9 o!r worlds ?an ^? :]e tru? abides4 ,my holy e>ne/ v[ do? ray out /r5g? ,:i* %all keep = !e t :i* ?\ ha/ ga9$4 ,9 ^! cle> fields ( light me %alt ?\ f9d ,:]e radiant beauty life-p[] do? create2 ,seek me 9 cosmic fundam5ts1 :]e s\ls ,fight to recov] _! div9e e/ate ,?r\gh love1 :i* 9 ! :ole beholds ! self4 7,:ile ,m>ia is speak+ ! la/ l9es1 ,lucif] appe>s47 ,,lucif]3 ,s "w1 compell+ p[]s2 ,act !re=e1 p[]s ( might1 ,ye elem5tal sprites1 ,feel n[ y\r ma/]'s p[]1 ,& smoo? = me ! way ,t leads f realms ( ,e>? ,t s !re may draw ne> ,to ,lucif]'s doma9 ,:ate'er my wi% desires1 ,:ate'er obeys my w4 7,ent] ,b5$ictus47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,m>ia's holy e>ne/ v[ do? p\r ,n[ ?r\gh 8 s\l salvation's heal+ ray4 ,he w admire !e1 b he w n fall4 ,,lucif]3 ,i mean to fight4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,&1 fight+ s]ve ! gods4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #aa ,! same4 ,ent] ,b5$ictus & ,/rad]4 ,,/rad]3 ,?\ did/ speak gravely1 & ,m>ia spoke ,"r h>%ly to me also1 :5 ye two ,%[$ y\rselves to me at my life's abyss4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,?\ "k'/ ^? pictures h no prop] life2 ,_! cont5t only1 /rives to make its way ,into ! s\l1 & takes pictorial =m4 ,,/rad]3 ,yet x 0 h>d to he> ^! pictures say3 ',:]e is ?y light8 ,?\ raye/ d>kness out1 ,mid/ light ?\ do/ create ! baffl+ gloom4' ,s spake ! _s ?r\gh ,m>ia's =m4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,because 9 ?9e asc5t ?\ had/ atta9$ ,to high] levels on ! _s-pa?4 ,! _s1 :i* _h l$ !e to itself1 ,us$ d>kness z a symbol to depict ,! /ate ( k :i* 0 ?9e be=e4 ,?is _s *ose to use ,m>ia's =m ,because ?y s\l itself s fa%ion$ x4 ,! _s1 my de> ,/rad]1 at ?is h\r ,works mightily )9 !e & w lead ,!e ) swift flight to l(ty grades ( s\l4 ,,/rad]3 ,& yet ^! words /ill t]rify my s\l3 ',because ?\ art afraid to ray out light4' ,! _s spake ?is also 9 t sc5e4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,! _s _h to call ?y s\l afraid ,because 9 !e ^? ?+s 7 fe>fulness ,:i* w\ld1 9 less] s\ls1 be brav]y4 ,z we advance1 our =m] brav]y ,turns into fe> :i* mu/ be ov]come4 ,,/rad]3 ,oh6 h[ ^! words d pi]ce me to ! he>t6 ,romanus lately told me ( 8 plan3 ,i 0 to c>ry out ! "w myself ,n z ?y p>tn] b )\t ?9e aid4 ,9 ?is ev5t1 he 0 prep>$ to use ,all t he _h to succ\r ,hil>y4 ,:5 ,i decl>$ t ,i c\ld ne'er cons5t ,to sep>ate ! "w f out ?y gr\p1 ,he answ]$ t 9 t case x w\ld be ,9 va9 to make m ef=t4 ,he x is ,:o backs ! opposition to my "w1 ,:i* ,hil>y's companion (f]e?4 ,)\t ^! plans my life mu/ wor?less seem4 ,s9ce ^! two m5 h torn away f me ,my field ( action1 all t ,i c see ,ahead is life reft ( ! brea? ( life4 ,9 ord] t my _s may n %[ ,disc\ragem5t ,i ne$ t brav]y ,( :i* ?\ spak'/ j n[4 ,b :e!r ,i ,%all f9d my /r5g? suffici5t = ! task ,is m ?an ,i c say1 = ,i c feel ,h[ t same =ce :i* ,i mu/ ne$s set free ,w likewise "w on me di/9ctively4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,m>ia & ,johannes h j made ,advances 9 clairvoyance2 & ! ?+s ,:i* h9d]$ !m f bridg+ o'er ! gap ,betwe5 ! my/ic life & _w ( s5se ,are no m !re1 & 9 ! c\rse ( "t ,aims w appe> 9 :i* bo? ?\ & !y ,c take "p jo9tly4 ',tis n guidance1 b ,creative /r5g? t fl[s f my/ic words3 ',= t :i* mu/ w surely come to pass4' ,& s 9 wakefulness we mu/ await ,! way 9 :i* ! _s s5ds ! signs4 ,,/rad]3 ,a vision came to me n long ago ,:i* ,i mu/ hold to be a sign f fate4 ,i 0 abo>d a %ip1 ?\ at ! helm1 ,! lab\r+ o>s 7 "u my comm&2 ,& we 7 be>+ to _! place ( "w ,m>ia & ,johannes2 !re appe>$ ,ano!r %ip q close to u2 on bo>d ,romanus & ! fri5d ( ,hil>y-- ,!y lay across our c\rse z enemies4 ,i battl$ ) !m2--z ! fight w5t on ,lo6 ,ahriman /ood by _! side to help4 ,:ile ,i 0 bitt]ly engag$ ) him ,came ,!odora to my side1 9 aid1 ,& !n ! vision vani%$ f my sight4 ,i d>$ to say once to ,capesius ,& ,felix t ,i c\ld ) ease endure ,! opposition :i* n[ m5ace? ,my "w f outw>d s\rces e'en if all ,my plans 7 ru9$--,i %\ld /& upright4 ,suppose t picture n[ %\ld %[ to me ,t outw>d opposition do? imply ,an inw>d fight--a fight ) ,ahriman2 ,am ,i well arm\r$ also = ?is fight8 ,,b5$ictus3 ,my fri5d1 ,i c behold 9 ?9e own s\l ,?is picture is n fully ripe z yet4 ,i feel ?\ can/ make /rong] /ill ! p[] ,:i* %[$ ?is picture to ?y _s's eye4 ,i c feel too t = ?y fri5ds & !e ,?is picture c create new p[]s ( s\l ,if only ?\ wilt rightly /rive = /r5g?4 ,?is c ,i feel2--h[ x %all be fulfill$ ,rema9s a secret hidd5 f my sight4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #ab ,! int]ior ( ! e>?4 ,enorm\s cry/al =mations1 ) /reams l lava break+ ?r\gh !m4 ,! :ole sc5e is fa9tly lum9\s1 transp>5t 9 "s p>ts1 & ) ! light %9+ ?r\gh f beh9d 9 o!rs4 ,above are r$ flames :i* appe> to be be+ press$ d[nw>d f ! ro(4 7,"o h& ( ,ahriman is a claw & he has a clov5 ho(4 ,?is is to %[ ! audi5ce t 8 id5tity z ! ,devil is be+ discov]$4 ,fox has a clov5 ho(47 ,,ahriman 7at fir/ alone73 ,n[ liv+ matt] falle? f above ,:i* ,i mu/ use4 ,x is ! /uff :]e( ,are demons made1 & x is fl[+ free ,)9 ! _w ( =m4 ,a man do? /rive ,to te> f out 8 be+ utt]ly ,! _s-sub/ance he receiv$ f me4 ,my influ5ce ha? be5 till n[ q good1 ,b n[ he is too ne> ! my/ic ?rong ,:om ,b5$ictus ?r\gh 8 wisdom's light ,ha? l5t ! p[] enabl+ !m to face ,awak5+ at ! cosmic midnight h\r4 ,o'er him ha? ,lucif] 8 influ5ce ca/3 ,s t ,m>ia & ,johannes c\ld ,release !mselves f out 8 sph]e ( light4 ,h5ce=? to ,/rad] ,i mu/ closely cl+4 ,once he is m9e ,i'll cat* ! o!rs too4 ,johannes wore himself q dull & blunt ,aga9/ my %ad[2--n[ he kn[s me well4 ,?r\gh ,/rad] only c ,i get at him4 ,& 9 ,m>ia's case x is ! same2 ,yet ,/rad] w p]haps n recognize ,! _s-tangle1 :i* to human eyes ,appe>s z nature1 is 9 fact naught else ,?an m9e own p]sonal _s-prop]ty4 ,& s he may conceive t en]gy ,& matt] bl9dly /ruggle !re :]e ,i1 ,d5y+ _s1 fa%ion _s-?+s4 ',tis true ! re/ h talk$ to him a lot ,ab\t my be+ & ab\t my realm2 ,& yet1 me?9ks1 ,i h n lo/ him q4 ,he w =get t ,b5$ictus s5t ,him hi!r unto me1 b half-awake1 ,t 8 belief may be dispell$ t ,i ,am b a wov5 ?\ght 9 human bra9s4 ,yet ,i %all ne$ "s e>?ly help if ,i ,mu/ br+ him "h be=e x is too late4 ,n[ !re=e ,i w call ^u a s\l ,:i* 9 its clev]ness consid]s me ,to be naught else ?an "s dull fooli% cl[n4 ,he s]ves me on & (f1 :5 ,i h ne$4 7,ahriman goes (f & returns ) ! s\l ( ,fox1 ^: figure is a sort ( copy ( 8 own4 ,on ent]+ he takes a b&age f ! eyes ( ?is p]son repres5t+ ! s\l47 ,,ahriman3 7,aside7 ,e>?-k he mu/ leave "h at ! door4 ,= he mu/ nev] und]/& ! ?+s ,:i* "h he le>ns1 s9ce he is hone/ /ill2 ,no ef=t w\ld he make1 if he once knew ,! purpose ) :i* ,i n[ influ5ce him4 ,he mu/ be able lat] to =get4 7,to ,fox7 ,do/ ?\ "k doctor ,/rad]1 :o s]ves me8 ,,! ,,s\l ,,( ,,fox3 ,he drifts ab\t ^u ! /> ( ,e>?2 ,he w\ld build le>n$ prattle into life2 ,& yet ea* w9d ( life w knock him d[n4 ,he li/5s eag]ly to my/ic prigs1 ,& is already /ifl$ by _! fog2 ,he n[ do? try to bl9d poor ,hil>y1 ,^: fri5d1 h[ev]1 keeps him well 9 h&1 ,s9ce all ^! bragg>t _s-:isp]+s ,w\ld o!rwise 8 bus9ess q de/roy4 ,,ahriman3 7,aside7 ,su* talk z ?is is n :at ,i require4 ,i n[ h ne$ ( ,/rad]--:il/ ?is man ,c /ill h p]fect fai? 9 8 own self2 ,!n ,b5$ictus f> too easily ,w make 8 wisdom kn[n among/ mank9d4 ,! fri5d ( ,hil>y might be ( use ,to ,lucif]2 ,i mu/ act o!rwise-- ,?r\gh ,/rad] ,i mu/ ,b5$ictus h>m4 ,= he & all 8 pupils c a*ieve ,no?+ at all1 ha? he n ,/rad]'s aid4 ,m9e enemies ( c\rse /ill h _! p[]s1 ,& aft] ,/rad]'s dea? he w be !irs4 ,b if :ile /ill on e>? 8 s\l c be ,deceiv$ ab\t itself1 my ga9 w be ,t ,b5$ictus c no long] use ,him z ! lead] ( 8 coa*'s team4 ,n[ 9 fate's book ,i h already read ,t ,/rad]'s span ( life is ne>ly run4 ,b ,b5$ictus c n yet see ?is4 ,my tru/y knave1 too crafty is ?y wit1 ,:o take/ me = "s dull fooli% cl[n4 7,to ,fox7 ,s well ?\ reasone/ t m5 att5d4 ,g !re=e & see ,/rad] v soon ,tell him t 8 ma*9e is ill-contriv$2 ,t 'tis n only unpropiti\s times ,t *eck fulfilm5t ( 8 promises2 ,b t 8 reason+ also is at fault4 ,,! ,,s\l ,,( ,,fox3 ,= su* a mission am ,i well equipp$4 ,= "s "t pa/ ,i h done no?+ else ,b ?9k h[ ,i c unto ,/rad] prove ,h[ full ( error 8 ambitions are4 ,:5 once a man ha? =m$ a clev] s*eme ,by d9t ( _m nights ( e>ne/ ?\ght ,he w ) ease believe t ill-success ,is due n to 8 ?\ght b outw>d acts4 ,& ,/rad]'s case is surely pitiable2 ,_h su* a man z he %unn$ my/ic snobs1 ,& made fit use ( 8 f9e intellect1 ,8 great end[m5ts surely w\ld h borne ,mu* fruit & pr(it = humanity4 ,,ahriman3 ,n[ see to x t ?\ art %rewdly arm$4 ,?is is ?y task3 ,?\ art to und]m9e ,! confid5ce ( ,/rad] 9 himself4 ,no long] !n w he desire to "w ,) ,b5$ictus1 :o mu/ h5ce=? re/ ,^u himself & 8 own argum5ts4 ,b ^! are n s pleas+ to mank9d1 ,:o w be m oppos$ to !m on e>? ,! m _! inmo/ nature is disclos$4 ,,! ,,s\l ,,( ,,fox3 ,i see already h[ ,i %all beg9 ,to %[ to ,/rad] :]e 8 ?\ght ha? fail$4 ,!re is a flaw )9 8 new ma*9e1 ,?\gh he _c p]ceive x ( himself4 ,a veil ( my/ic d>kness h9d]s him4 ,b ,i1 ) my cle> common s5se1 %all be ,( mu* m use to him ?an my/ic dreams4 ,?is = a long :ile ha? be5 my desire2 ,yet knew ,i n h[ to accompli% x4 ,at l5g? a light is ?r[n a?w>t my pa?4 ,n[ mu/ ,i ?9k ( all ! argum5ts ,:i* w make ,/rad] realize ! tru?4 7,ahriman leads out ,fox's s\l & aga9 bl9dfolds ! individual portray+ ! s\l be=e he is all[$ to dep>t47 ,,ahriman 7alone73 ,he w be ( great s]vice unto me4 ,! my/ic light on e>? do? burn me sore2 ,i mu/ "w fur!r !re1 b mu/ n let ,! my/ics unto m5 my "w reveal4 7,!odora's s\l appe>s47 ,,!odora',s ,,s\l3 ,?\ maye/ ,/rad] rea*2 b none ! less ,i %all be by 8 side2 & s9ce we 7 ,unit$ on ! radiant pa? ( s\ls1 ,we %all rema9 unit$ :]esoe'er ,he dwells on e>? or 9 ! _s-realms4 ,,ahriman3 ,if %e inde$ =sakes him n1 ! :ile ,he /ill do? dwell on e>?1 ,i /& to lose ,my battle2 yet ,i %all n cease to hope ,t he may yet =get h] 'ere ! end4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #ac ,a l>ge reception room 9 ,hil>y's h\se4 ,z ! curta9 rises ,hil>y & ,romanus are 9 conv]sation4 ,,hil>y3 ,i mu/ ) grief confess to !e1 de> fri5d1 ,t ?is fate's tangle1 :i* is =m+ "h ,)9 our circle1 well-nigh cru%e? me4 ,on :at c "o rely1 :5 no?+ holds8 ,! fri5ds ( ,b5$ictus are by !e ,kept f> f our endeav\rs2 ,/rad]1 too1 ,is torn by bitt] agonies ( d\bt4 ,a man :o1 full ( %rewdness & ( hate1 ,ha? (t oppos$ ! my/ic life & aims1 ,ha? po9t$ out grave errors 9 8 plans ,& %ewn t 8 inv5tion _c "w1 ,& is n only /opp$ by outw>d *ecks4 ,life ha? n br\ght me any rip5$ fruit2 ,i long$ = p]fect de$s4 ,& yet ! ?\ghts ,t br+ de$s unto rip5ess nev] came4 ,my s\l 0 ev] plagu$ by lonel9ess4 ,by _s-sight alone 0 ,i upborne4 ,& yet2--9 ,/rad]'s case ,i 0 deceiv$4 ,,romanus3 ,i (t5 felt z ?\gh "s gruesome %ape ,0 press+ pa9fully ^u my s\l ,:5e'er ?y words 7 9 ! c\rse ( life ,%[n to be naught b errors & mi/akes2 ,t z ! _s-sight seem$ to deceive ,my my/ic ma/] did ?is %ape become ,)9 me & did set a feel+ free ,:i* n[ enables me to give !e light4 ,too bl9dly ha/ ?\ tru/$ _s-sight2 ,& s z error x appe>s to !e ,:5 x do? surely lead !e to ! tru?4 ,9 ,/rad]'s case ?y sight 0 true1 despite ,! ?+s t sup]-clev] m5 ha? %[n4 ,,hil>y3 ,?y fai? /ill do? n wav]1 & ?\ ha/ ,! same op9ion n[ ( ,/rad]'s "w8 ,,romanus3 ,! reasons :]eon ,i did build x up ,h naught to d ) ,/rad]'s fri5ds at all ,& /ill are valid1 :e!r 8 ma*9e ,prove itself true or faulty 9 design4 ,suppos+ he ha? made an error2 well1 ,a man ?r\gh error f9ds ! way to tru?4 ,,hil>y3 ,! failure !n do? n affect !e--!e ,to :om life ha? br\ght no?+ b success8 ,,romanus3 ,^? :o d n fe> failure w succe$4 ,x only ne$s an und]/&+ eye ,to see :at be>+ my/icism has ,^u our case1 & =?) !re appe>s ,! view t we %\ld take ( ,/rad]'s "w4 ,he w come (f victori\s 9 ! fight ,:i* fl+s ! _s-portals op5 wide2 ,undaunt$ by ! wat*man w he /ride ,across ! ?re%old ( ! _s-l&4 ,my s\l ha? deeply realiz$ ! words ,:i* t /]n ,gu>dian ( ! ?re%old spoke4 ,i feel him ev5 n[ at ,/rad]'s side4 ,:e!r he sees him1 or t[>d him goes ,unkn[+1 ?is inde$ ,i _c say2 ,b ,i believe t ,i "k ,/rad] well4 ,he w c\rage\sly make up 8 m9d ,t self-enlight5m5t mu/ come ?r\gh pa92 ,! w w ev] be> him company ,:o bravely goes to meet :at lies be=e1 ,&1 =tifi$ by ,hope's /r5g?-giv+ /ream1 ,do? boldly face ! pa9 :i* k br+s4 ,,hil>y3 ,my fri5d1 ,i ?ank !e = ^! my/ic words4 ,(t h ,i he>d !m2 n[ = ! fir/ "t ,i feel ! secret mean+ !y enfold4 ,! cosmic ways are h>d to compreh5d-- ,my portion1 my de> fri5d1 x is to wait ,until ! _s po9ts me out ! way ,:i* is appropriate unto my sight4 7,exeunt left47 7,ent] ,capesius & ,felix ,balde1 %[n 9 by ! ,secret>y1 on "r47 ,,secret>y3 ,i ?9k t ,b5$ictus w return ,sometime today f (f 8 j\rney2 b ,he is n "h at pres5t2 if ?\ com'/ ,aga9 tomorr[ ?\ %\ld/ f9d him "h4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,c we !n h a talk ) ,hil>y8 ,,secret>y3 ,i'll g & ask him n[ to come to y4 7,exit47 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,a vision ( deep import ha/ ?\ se54 ,c\ld/ ?\ n tell x to me o'er aga98 ,"o _c appreh5d su* ?+s aright ,till !y are fully grasp$ by _s-sight4 ,,capesius3 ,x came ?is morn+1 :5 ,i ?\ght myself ,wrapt 9 ! /illness ( ! my/ic trance4 ,my s5ses slept1 & ) !m memory4 ,to _s ?+s alone 0 ,i alive4 ,at fir/ ,i saw naught b famili> sights4 ,!n ,/rad]'s s\l came cle>ly into view ,be=e m9e inn] eye1 & = a :ile ,/ood sil5t1 s t ,i _h ample "t ,to make sure ,i 0 consci\sly awake4 ,b soon ,i also he>d him cle>ly say ',ab&on n ! real true my/ic mood1' ,z if ! s\nd came f 8 inmo/ s\l4 ,he !n cont9u$1 ) %>p emphasis3 ',to /rive = naught2 b j to live 9 peace3 ,expectancy ! s\l's :ole inn] life1 ,su* is ! my/ic mood4 ,& ( itself ,x wakes1 uns\ght amid ! /ream ( life1 ,:5e'er a human s\l is rightly /rong ,& seeks ! _s ) all-p[]ful ?\ght4 ,?is mood comes (t5 9 our /ille/ h\rs ,yet also 9 ! heat ( action2 !n ,x come? le/ ! s\l may ?\ghtless lose ,! t5d] sight ( _s-happ5+s4' ,,felix ,,balde3 ,l to ! v e*o ( my words ,?is utt'rance s\nds1--yet n q :at ,i meant4 ,,capesius3 ,on close consid]ation "o might f9d ,! opposite ( ?9e own words !re91-- ,& m di/9ctly do? ?is fact appe> ,:5 we give he$ to ?is 8 fur!r spee* ',:oev] falsely wakes ! my/ic mood ,x leads 8 inmo/ s\l b to himself ,& weaves betwixt himself & realms ( light ,! d>k veil ( 8 own s\l's ent]prise4 ,if ?is ?\ w\ld/ ?r\gh my/icism seek ,my/ic illusion w de/roy ?y life4' ,,felix ,,balde3 ,?is c be no?+ else ?an words ( m9e ,by ,/rad]'s _s-views trans=m$2 9 !e ,!y e*o z a griev\s my/ic fault4 ,,capesius3 ,moreov] ,/rad]'s f9al words 7 ^!3 ',a man c n atta9 ! _s-_w ,by seek+ to unlock ! gates himself4 ,tru? do? n s\nd )9 ! s\l ( him ,:o only seeks a mood = _m ye>s4' 7,philia appe>s1 p]ceptible only to ,capesius2 ,felix ,balde %[s t he does n compreh5d :at foll[s47 ,,philia3 ,capesius1 if soon ?\ m>ke/ well ,:at 9 ?y seek+ comes to !e uns\ght1 ',twill /r5g!n !e ) _m-col\r$ light2 ,9 pictur$ be+ x w pi]ce !e ?r\gh ,s9ce ?y s\l-=ces %[ x unto !e4 ,t :i* ?y self's sun-nature rays on !e ,by ,saturn's rip5$ wisdom w be dull$2 ,!n to ?y vision w !re be disclos$ ,t :i* 9 e>?-life ?\ can/ compreh5d4 ,!n ,i w lead !e to ! gu>dian ,:o on ! _s-?re%old keeps 8 wat*4 ,,felix ,,balde3 ,f circles :i* ,i "k n issue words4 ,_! s\nd awakes no be+ full ( light ,& s !y are n fully real to me4 ,,capesius3 ,! h9t :i* ,philia ha? giv5 me ,%all be my guide s t f ?is "t =? ,9 _s too may be reveal$ :at ,i ,already z a man ^u ! e>?1 ,c f9d )9 ! circuit ( my life4 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #ad ,! same4 ,hil>y's wife 9 conv]sation ) ! ,manag]4 ,,hil>y',s ,,wife3 ,t fate itself do? n desire ! de$ ,:i* yet my husb& ?9ks imp]ative1 ,seems likely :5 "o views ! tangl$ ?reads ,?is p[] do? weave to =m ! knot 9 life1 ,:i* holds u "h 9 its compell+ bonds4 ,,manag]3 ,a knot ( fate inde$1 :i* truly seems ,unable to be loos$ by human s5se-- ,& s1 ,i take x1 x mu/ ne$s be cut4 ,i see no o!r possibility ,?an t ! /r& :i* l9ks ?y husb&'s life ,to m9e mu/ n[ at la/ be cut 9 twa94 ,,hil>y',s ,,wife3 ,:at6 ,"p f !e6--,my husb& nev] w4 ',tw\ld g aga9/ ! _s ( ! h\se ,:i* by 8 own de> fa!r 0 inspir$ ,& :i* ! son w fai?fully uphold4 ,,manag]3 ,b ha? he n already brok5 fai?8 ,! aims t ,hil>y ha? n[ 9 view ,c surely n be f\nd along ! road ,8 fa!r's _s ev] walk$ ^u4 ,,hil>y',s ,,wife3 ,my husb&'s happ9ess 9 life n[ hangs ,on ! successful issue ( ^! aims4 ,i saw ! trans=mation ( 8 s\l ,z soon z1 l a lightn+ fla%1 ! ?\ght ,illum9$ him4 ,he _h f\nd hi!rto ,no?+ 9 life b sad s\l-lonel9ess1 ,a feel+ :i* he 0 at pa9s to hide ,e'en f ! circle ( 8 close/ fri5ds ,b :i* consum$ him inw>dly ! m4 ,till !n he deem$ himself ( no acc\nt ,because ?\ghts w\ld n spr+ up 9 8 s\l ,:i* seem$ to him to be ( use 9 life4 ,b :5 ?is plan ( my/ic ent]prise ,!n /ood be=e 8 s\l1 he grew q "y1 ,he 0 ano!r man1 a happy man2 ,?is aim fir/ gave to him a wor? 9 life4 ,t ?\ c\ld/ ere oppose him 9 ?is "w ,0 inconceivable till x occurr$4 ,he felt ! bl[ m ke5ly ?an aught else ,t 9 8 life ha? yet befall5 him4 ,c\ld/ ?\ b "k ! pa9 t ?\ ha/ caus$1 ,?\ w\ld/ n surely be s h>% ) him4 ,,manag]3 ,i feel z if my manhood w\ld be lo/ ,if ,i %\ld set myself to g aga9/ ,m9e own convictions4--,i %all f9d x h>d ,to d my "w ) ,/rad] at my side4 ,yet ,i decid$ ,i w\ld be> ?is load ,to help ,romanus1 :om ,i und]/& ,s9ce he conc]n+ ,/rad] spake ) me4 ,:at he expla9$ became ! />t+-po9t ,= me ( m9e own _s-pupil%ip4 ,!re 0 a p[] t flam$ =? f 8 words ,& ent]$ actively )9 my s\l2 ,i nev] yet _h felt x s be=e4 ,8 c\nsel is mo/ preci\s1 ?\gh z yet ,i _c und]/& & foll[ x2 ,romanus only c>es = ,/rad] n[2 ,he ?9ks ! o!r my/ics by _! %>e ,n only are a h9drance to ! "w ,b also are a dang] to !mselves4 ,= 8 op9ion ,i h su* reg>d ,t ,i mu/ n[ believe ! foll[+3 ,if ,/rad] _c f9d a way to "w ,)\t 8 fri5ds1 'twill be a sign ( fate4 ,a sign t ) ^! fri5ds he mu/ abide1 ,& only lat] fa%ion faculties1 ,?r\gh my/ic /riv+ = "s outw>d "w4 ,! fact t rec5tly he ha? become ,m closely knit to !m ?an =m]ly1 ,despite a slight e/rangem5t = a :ile1 ,makes me believe t he w f9d 8 way1 ,lies 9 ?is /ate ( ?+s1 ?\gh x involves ,a failure1 = ! pres5t1 ( 8 aims4 ,,hil>y',s ,,wife3 ,?\ see'/ ! man ) only t mu* sight ,) :i* ,romanus ha? entru/$ !e1 ,?\ %\ld/ gaze on him ) unbias$ eye4 ,he c s /eep himself 9 _s-life ,t he appe>s q sund]$ f ! e>?4 ,!n _s =ms 8 :ole environm5t ,& ,!odora live? !n = him4 ,9 speak+ ) him x appe>s z if ,%e too 7 pres5t4 ,_m my/ics c ,express ! _s-message 9 su* words ,z br+ conviction aft] c>eful ?\ght2 ,b ,/rad]'s v spee* ha? ?is same p[]4 ,"o sees t he sets little /ore ^u ,m]e inw>d _s-life t is cont5t ,) feel+s only2 ! explor]'s zeal ,do? ev] prove 8 guide 9 my/ic life4 ,& s 8 my/ic aims d n de/roy ,8 s5se = sci5tific s*emes :i* seem ,bo? practical & useful = ?is life4 ,try to p]ceive ?is faculty 9 him1 ,& ?r\gh him also le>n ano!r ?+1 ,h[ "o's own p]sonal judgm5t ( "o's fri5ds ,is ( m value ?an ano!r man's ,su* z ,romanus ha? acquir$ ( him4 ,,manag]3 ,9 su* a case z ?is1 s f> remov$ ,f all ! vi/a ( my usual ?\ght1 ,! judgm5t ( ,romanus seems to me ,"s solid gr\nd to /& on4 ,if1 myself1 ,i ent] realms to my/icism ne>1 ,i surely ne$ su* guidance z inde$ ,a man c only give me :o c w9 ,my confid5ce by s mu* ( himself ,z ,i myself c fully compreh5d4 7,ent] ! ,secret>y47 ,y seem upset1 my fri5d2 :at ha? occurr$8 ,,secret>y 7hesitat+ly73 ,good doctor ,/rad] di$ a few h\rs s9ce4 ,,manag]3 ,di$8--,/rad]8 ,,hil>y',s ,,wife3 ,:at4 ,n ,/rad] dead8--,:]e n[ ,is ,hil>y8 ,,secret>y3 ,he is 9 8 own room4 ,he seem$ q /rick5 :5 ! mess5g] ,fir/ br\ght ! news to him f ,/rad]'s h\se4 7,exit ,hil>y's wife1 foll[$ by ! ,secret>y47 ,,manag] 7alone73 ,dead--,/rad]6--,c ?is really be ! tru?8 ,! _s-sleep ( :i* ,i he>d s mu* ,n[ t\*e? me4--,! fate :i* "h do? guide ,! ?reads ( life we>s n[ a s]i\s face4 ,o little s\l ( m9e1 :at mighty h& ,ha? n[ laid hold ^u ?y ?read ( fate1 ,& giv5 x a "p )9 ?is knot4 ',b t :i* mu/ w surely come to pass6' ,:y is x t ^! words h nev] left ,my m9d s9ce ,/rad] spake !m long ago ,:5 talk+ ) myself & ,hil>y8-- ,z if !y rea*$ him f ano!r _w ,s did !y s\nd2--he spake z if entranc$2-- ,:at is to come to pass8--,"r well ,i "k ,! _s-_w laid h&s ^u me !n4 ,)9 ^? words !re s\nds ! _s-spee*-- ,s\nds e>ne/--2 h[ c ,i its weav+ le>n8 ,curta9 ,,sc5e #ae ,! same4 ,doctor ,/rad]'s nurse is sitt+ !re wait+4 ,ent] ! ,secret>y4 ,,secret>y3 ,soon ,b5$ictus w1 ,i hope1 appe> ,& he> himself ! message ?\ do/ br+3 ,he w5t a j\rney & ha? j return$4 ,a great man surely doctor ,/rad] 04 ,at fir/ ,i did n h mu* confid5ce ,9 ,hil>y's trem5d\s plan ( "w2 ,b1 z ,i frequ5tly 0 9 ! room ,:il/ ,/rad] 0 engag$ 9 %[+ him ,:at fur!r ne$s 8 plan ( "w involv$1 ,all my objections swiftly lo/ _! =ce4 ,aye full ( _s1 ) ! ke5e/ s5se ,= all ?+s possible & purposeful1 ,he yet 0 ev] he$ful t ! end ,%\ld issue reasonably f ! "w2 ,ne'er w\ld he any?+ = grant$ take4 ,he held himself q z a my/ic %\ld2 ,z p :o are anxi\s to behold ,a lovely view f "s tall m\nta9-cre/ ,keep plodd+ on till !y h rea*$ ! top ,nor try to pa9t ! picture 9 advance4 ,,nurse3 ,a man ( l(ty _s & great gifts ,?\ knewe/ h>d at "w 9 active life4 ,i1 9 ! %ort "t x 0 giv5 me ,to r5d] e>?'s la/ s]vices to him ,le>n$ to admire 8 l(t9ess ( s\l4 ,a sweet s\l1 t1 except = sev5 ye>s ,( utmo/ bliss1 walk$ aye ?r\gh life alone4 ,_! wisdom my/ics (f]$ him1--b love ,0 all 8 ne$2--8 lu/ = outw>d de$s ,0 naught b--love1 :i* s\ght = _m =ms ,( life 9 :i* to manife/ itself4 ,t :i* ?is s\l s\ght on ! my/ic pa? ,0 ne$ful to its be+'s noble fire1 ,z sleep is to ! body aft] toil4 ,,secret>y3 ,9 him ! my/ic wisdom 0 ! s\rce ,( outw>d de$s z well2 = all 8 "w ,0 ev] fully /eep$ 9 its ideals4 ,,nurse3 ,because 9 him love 0 a natural law1 ,& he _h to unite himself 9 s\l ,) all ! aspirations ( 8 life2 ,e'en 8 la/ ?\ghts 7 /ill ab\t ! "w ,to :i* 9 love he did devote himself-- ,z p "p f be+s :om !y love ,s ,/rad]'s s\l reluctantly did leave ,! "w on e>? ?r\gh :i* 8 love _h p\r$4 ,,secret>y3 ,he liv$ 9 _s ) full consci\sness3 ,& ,!odora 0 ) him z aye ,%e 0 9 life--true my/ic s\ls feel ?us4 ,,nurse3 ,because 8 lonel9ess knit him to h]1 ,%e /ood be=e him /ill 9 dea?4 ,by h] ,he felt t he 0 call$ to _s-worlds ,to f9i% !re 8 incomplet$ task4 ,= ,b5$ictus j be=e 8 dea? ,he wrote a message :i* ,i n[ h come ,to give into ! my/ic lead]'s h&s4 ,s mu/ ! life ( ?is our "t on e>? ,unfold itself yet fur!r1 full ( d\bt2-- ,b bright5$ by sun-be+s su* z he1 ,f :om a wid] numb] may receive1 ,l planets1 light-rays :i* awak5 life4 7,ent] ,b5$ictus left4 ,exit ,secret>y "r47 ,,nurse3 ,be=e 8 /r5g? dep>t$1 ,/rad] wrote ,^! few l9es = !e4 ,i h come to br+ ,8 message to 8 fai?ful my/ic fri5d4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,& z he set ?is message d[n = me ,:at 7 ! !mes t 8 s\l dwelt ^u8 ,,nurse3 ,at fir/ ! late/ ( 8 plans 9 life ,liv$ 9 8 ?\ght2 !n ,!odora came ,to jo9 him 9 ! _s2 feel+ ?is ,8 s\l did g5tly leave its body's %ea?4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,my ?anks to !e1 ?\ fai?ful s\l1 = all ,?y s]vices to him :il/ yet on e>?4 7,exit nurse4 ,b5$ictus reads ,/rad]'s la/ words47 ,,b5$ictus3 7read+7 ',my fri5d1 :5 ,i p]ceiv$ my /r5g? 0 sp5t ,& saw t opposition to my "w ,did n alone f outw>d s\rces rise1 ,b t ! inn] flaws ( my own ?\ght ,7 ob/acles to *eck my plan's success1 ,once m ,i saw t vision :i* ,i told ,n long ago to !e4 ,b yet ?is "t ,! vision end$ o!rwise4 ,no m ,0 ,ahriman my foe2 a _s /ood ,!re1 9 8 /ead1 :om ,i c\ld cle>ly feel ,to repres5t my own errone\s ?\ght4 ,& !n did ,i rememb] ?9e own words ,ab\t ! /r5g!n+ m9e own s\l's p[]s4 ,b !reupon ! _s disappe>$4'-- ,!re are a few m words1--b ,i _c ,deciph] !m--a *aos cov]s !m ,by weav+ 9 a veil ( active ?\ght4 7,ahriman appe>s2 ,b5$ictus sees him47 7,!re is no long] any illusion ab\t ,ahriman4 ,8 =m is mu* m inhuman2 8 "r arm is bone1 8 "r h& a claw1 & he has a clov5 ho(47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,:o art ?\1 :o do/ take a %ad[$ life1 ,f out my *aos1 9 ! s\l's doma98 ,,ahriman 7aside73 ,he sees me1 b z yet he kn[s me n4 ,& s he w n cause me fe>ful pa9 ,if ,i %\ld try to lab\r by 8 side4 7,to ,b5$ictus47 ,i c decl>e to !e :at ,/rad] means ,to tell !e fur!r = ?y p]sonal good4 ,& also = ?y pupil's my/ic pa?4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,my my/ic gr\p w always "k itself ,to be 9 t\* ) ,/rad]'s s\l1 al?\gh ,! life ( s5se no long] =ms a bridge4 ,b :5 a _s-mess5g] draws ne> ,& manife/s to u f 8 own worlds1 ,!n he mu/ ne$s fir/ w9 our confid5ce4 ,?is he c only d if he appe>s ,)\t disguise unto our _s-gaze4 ,,ahriman3 ,?\ art b /riv+ = self-consci\sness3 ,s /rang] _s-be+s1 :o might wi% ,to r5d] !e a s]vice1 are compell$ ,to %[ !mselves z p>ts ( ?9e own self1 ,if !y may only help !e undisguis$4 ,,b5$ictus3 ,:oe'er ?\ art 'tis sure ?\ only can/ ,s]ve ,good :5 ?\ do/ /rive n = ?yself1 ,:5 ?\ do/ lose ?yself 9 human ?\ght ,to rise newborn )9 ! cosmic life4 ,,ahriman3 7aside7 ,n[ is x "t = me to ha/e away ,f 8 environm5t1 = :5soe'er ,8 sight c ?9k me z ,i really am1 ,he w comm5ce to fa%ion 9 8 ?\ght ,"p ( ! p[] :i* sl[ly kille? me4 7,ahriman disappe>s47 ,,b5$ictus3 ,n[ only d ,i see 'tis ,ahriman1 ,:o flees himself1 b fa%ions out ( ?\ght ,a k ( 8 be+ 9 myself4 ,8 aim is to confuse ! ?\ght ( man ,because !re91 misl$ by error old1 ,he seeks ! s\rce ( all 8 suff]+s4 ,z yet he kn[s n t ! only way ,= him to f9d release 9 future is ,to f9d himself reflect$ 9 ?is ?\ght4 ,& s he %[s himself to m5 inde$1 ,b n z he do? feel he is 9 tru?4 ,himself reveal+1 & conceal+ too1 ,he s\ght to utilize 9 8 own way ,a fav\rable h\r 9 ,/rad]'s case4 ,?r\gh him he hop$ to /rike 8 fri5ds z well2 ,b he w n be able to conceal ,8 nature f my my/ic pupils n[4 ,he %all be pres5t 9 _! wak+ ?\ght ,if he holds sway )9 _! inn] sight4 ,s %all !y le>n to "k 8 _m =ms1 ,:i* w\ld disguise him :5soe'er he mu/ ,reveal himself unto ! s\ls ( m54 ,b ?\1 sun-rip5$ s\l ( ,/rad]1 ?\ ,:o by ! /r5g!n+ ( ?y _s-p[]s ,did/ drive ! ,"l ( ,error into flight ,?\ %alt1 z _s-/>1 %9e on ?y fri5ds4 ,?y light %all h5ce=? ev] p5etrate ,into ,m>ia's & ,johannes' selves2 ,?r\gh !e w !y be able to equip ,!mselves m /rongly = _! _s-"w1 ,t s !y may ) p[]ful ?\ght reveal ,!mselves z pro( ( s\l-enlight5m5t1 ,e'en at su* times z dusky ,ahriman1 ,by cl\d+ wisdom1 seeks to spread ! night ,( ,*aos o'er full-wak5$ _s-sight4 ,curta9 ,,notes #a ,note4--,v solemn & sl[4