,the ,legend of ,sister ,beatrix ,charles ,nodier 7#aghj-ahdd7 ,not far from the highest peak in the ,jura1 but descending a little down its slope facing west1 one could still see1 going on for half a century ago1 a mass of ruins that had belonged to the church and the convent of ,our ,lady of the ,flowering ,thorns4 ,it is at one end of a deep and narrow gorge1 much more sheltered to the north1 which produces each year1 thanks to its favourable aspect1 the rarest flowers of that region4 ,half a league from there1 from the opposite end of the gorge1 the debris of an ancient manor house is visible which has itself disappeared like the house of ,god4 ,we only know that it used to be lived in by a family renowned for its feats of arms and that the last of the noble knights to bear its name died in winning back the tomb of ,jesus ,christ for ,christians without an heir to propagate his line4 ,his inconsolable widow would not abandon a place so conducive to the upkeep of her melancholy1 but the rumour of her piety spread far and wide as did her works of charity and a glorious tradition has perpetuated her memory for future generations of ,christians4 ,the people1 who have forgotten all her other names1 still call her ,,the ,,saint4 ,on one of those days when winter1 coming to an end1 suddenly relaxes its rigour under the influence of a temperate sky1 ,,the ,,saint was walking1 as usual1 down the long driveway leading to her castle1 her mind given over to pious meditations4 ,she came in this way to the thorny bushes that still mark its end1 and saw1 with no little surprise1 that one of these shrubs had taken on already all its springtime finery4 ,she hastened to get nearer to it in order to assure herself that this semblance was not produced by a remnant of snow that had failed to melt1 and1 delighted to see it crowned1 in effect1 by an innumerable multitude of beautiful little white stars with rays of crimson1 she carefully detached a branch to hang it in her oratory before a picture of the ,virgin ,mary she had held in great reverence since childhood1 and went back joyfully to take to her this innocent offering4 ,whether this modest tribute really pleased the divine mother of ,jesus or whether a special pleasure1 which it is difficult to define1 is reserved for the least outpouring of a tender heart to the object of its affection1 never had the soul of the chatelaine been as open to more ineffable emotions than those she felt that mild evening4 ,she promised herself1 with a joy that was ingenuous1 to go back every day to the bush in bloom in order to daily bring back a fresh garland4 ,we may well believe that she was faithful to that promise4 ,one day1 however1 when her care for the poor and sick had kept her busy longer than usual1 it was in vain that she hurried to reach her wild flowerbed4 ,night got there before her1 and it is said that she started to regret having let herself be taken over quite so much by this solitary place1 when a clarity calm and pure1 like that which comes to us with daylight1 suddenly showed her all her flowering thorns4 ,she stopped walking for a moment1 struck by the thought that this light might emanate from a camp fire made by bandits1 for it was impossible to imagine it having been produced by myriads of glow-worms1 hatched before their time4 ,the year was not far gone enough for the warm and peaceful nights of summer4 ,nevertheless1 her self-imposed obligation came to mind and gave her courage4 ,she walked lightly1 holding her breath1 towards the bush with the white flowers1 seized in a trembling hand a branch which seemed to fall of itself between her fingers1 so little resistance it offered to her1 and went back to her manor house without daring to look behind her4 ,for the whole of the subsequent night1 the saintly lady pondered this phenomenon without being able to explain it1 and1 as she was determined to solve this mystery1 no sooner than the following day1 at the same time in the evening1 she went back to the bushes with a faithful servant and her old personal chaplain4 ,the gentle light shone there as it had the day before1 and seemed1 as they drew near to it1 to grow brighter and more radiant4 ,they stopped then and knelt down1 as it seemed to them this light was coming down from heaven4 ,after they had done this1 the good priest got up by himself and took a few respectful steps towards the flowering thorns singing a hymn of the church and brushed them aside easily for they opened like a veil4 ,the spectacle that offered itself to their sight at that moment inspired such admiration in them that they stayed for a long time without moving1 totally filled with joy and gratitude4 ,it was an image of the ,virgin ,mary1 simply carved in common wood1 brought to life by colours given to it by a brush that was rudimentary and wearing clothes that gave a naive idea of luxury1 but it was from her that emanated the wondrous splendour that illumined these precincts4 ,hail ,mary1 full of grace1 said the chaplain1 who had now prostrated himself1 at last1 and1 to judge by the harmonious murmur which promptly arose through all the woods thereabouts after he had uttered these words1 one could have thought them taken up by a choir of angels4 ,he then solemnly proceeded to recite those admirable litanies in which faith has1 unknowingly1 spoken the language of the most elevated poetry1 and1 following on from new acts of worship1 he picked the statue up so as to take it to the castle1 where it was to find a sanctuary worthy of it1 while the lady and the servant1 hands joined together and with heads slightly bowed1 slowly came after1 merging their prayers with his4 ,i do not need to say that the wonderful image was placed in an elegant niche1 that it was surrounded by odorous candles1 bathed in perfumes1 laden with a rich crown1 and acknowledged1 till half way through the night1 by the hymns of the faithful4 ,but1 in the morning1 it could no longer be found and all the ,christians who1 by gaining her1 had been filled with such pure happiness1 were much alarmed4 ,what secret sin could have brought down this disgrace on the manor house of ,,the ,,saint8 ,why had the ,virgin ,mary left it8 ,what new resting place had she chosen8 ,we may doubtless guess4 ,the blessed mother of ,jesus preferred the modest shadow of her favourite bushes to the dazzle of an earthly dwelling4 ,she had gone back1 in the midst of the coolness of the woods1 to taste the peace of solitude and the sweet exhalations of the flowers4 ,all the people who lived in the castle went there at dusk and found her there1 even more resplendent than she had been the previous night4 ,they fell on their knees in respectful silence4 ,potent queen of angels6 said the chatelaine4 ,this is the abode you prefer4 ,your will be done4 ,and indeed1 not long afterwards1 a shrine embellished by all the adornments that an inspired architect could lavish on it in those centuries of feeling and imagination rose around that venerated image4 ,the great and good of the earth wanted to enrich it with their gifts4 ,kings endowed it with a tabernacle of pure gold4 ,the fame of ,our ,lady's miracles spread far and wide throughout the ,christian world and summoned to the valley a multitude of pious women who dwelt there according to a monastic rule4 ,the saintly widow1 more touched than ever by the light of grace1 could not refuse the title of mother superior of this convent4 ,she died there full of days after a life of good works1 good examples and sacrifices which rose up like a perfume from the foot of ,our ,lady's altars4 ,such was1 according to the handwritten records of the province1 the origin of the church and convent of ,our ,lady of the ,flowering ,thorns4 ,two centuries had passed since the death of ,,the ,,saint1 and a young virgin in her extended family was still1 according to custom1 the sister custodian of the holy tabernacle1 which means that she took care of it1 and that it was her job to open the tabernacle on feast days when the miraculous image was shown to the faithful4 ,she it was who had the care of maintaining the ever new elegance of ,our ,lady's ornaments1 of removing the dust from them and the harmful insects1 of picking1 to compose her crown or to adorn her altar1 the most gracious flowers in the garden in their growth and the most chaste in their colour1 forming chains1 garlands and bouquets that attracted in their turn1 through the great stained glass window open to the rising sun1 a multitude of purple and azure butterflies1 aerial flowers indicative of solitude4 ,among these tributes the flowering thorn was always given preference when in season1 and1 imitated in lieu of all the others with an art that the good nuns had stolen the secret of from nature1 it rested on the breast of the beautiful ,madonna as a thick clump knotted with a silver ribbon4 ,the butterflies themselves might have slipped up sometimes1 but they did not dare to dwell on these celestial flowers which were not made for them4 ,the sister custodian at that time was called ,beatrix4 ,eighteen years old at most1 she had scarcely been told how pretty she was1 for she had entered ,our ,lady's house when she was only fifteen1 as pure and unspoilt as her flowers4 ,there is a happy or disastrous age at which a young girl's heart understands that it was created to love1 and ,beatrix had reached it4 ,but this need1 initially vague and anxious1 had only made her duties more dear to her4 ,unable to explain then the secret motions that agitated her so much1 she had taken them to be the symptoms of a pious fervour which accuses itself of not being ardent enough1 and which feels obliged to love enthusiastically and to the point of madness4 ,the unknown object of these loving tendencies eluded her lack of experience1 and among the objects that occupied the senses of her ingenuous heart1 if we can put it like that1 ,our ,lady alone seemed to her worthy of that deep adoration for which life itself could scarcely suffice4 ,this cult of every passing moment had become the one thing her mind dwelt on1 the one thing that charmed her solitude4 ,it filled even her dreams with mysterious languors and ineffable acts of worship4 ,she was often to be seen stretched out in front of the tabernacle1 breathing out to her divine patron prayers that were interspersed with sobs1 or wetting the space around the altar with her tears1 and the celestial ,virgin smiled no doubt1 from the top of her eternal throne1 at that happy and tender mistake on the part of the innocent1 for the ,holy ,virgin loved ,beatrix and liked to be loved by her4 ,besides1 she had perhaps discerned in ,beatrix's heart that she always would be loved by her4 ,about that time there occurred an event that raised the veil under which ,beatrix's secret had remained so long hidden to herself4 ,a young lord in those parts1 having been attacked by murderous footpads1 was left in the forest for dead1 and1 though he had only preserved at most the feeble semblance of a life about to be extinguished1 the convent servants transported him to their infirmary4 ,as the daughters of chatelaines at that time were1 from their earliest years1 in receipt of formulas and recipes with respect to the healing art1 ,beatrix was sent by her sisters to the bedside of the dying man to help him4 ,she put into practice all she had learned of that useful body of knowledge1 but she counted more on the intercession of the miraculous ,virgin ,mary1 and her long and laborious vigils1 divided between the cares of a sick nurse and the prayers of a servant of ,mary1 obtained for her all the success she had hoped for4 ,raymond re-opened his eyes to the light and1 in doing so1 recognized his benefactress4 ,he had already seen her occasionally in the very castle she had been born in4 ,what's this8 he cried4 ,is it you1 ,beatrix8 ,is it you ,i loved so much in my childhood years and that the too soon forgotten acknowledgement of that love by your father and mine had permitted me to hope for as a wife8 ,what grievous twist of fate has let me see you again1 chained by the links of a life which is not made for you1 and cut off1 without any going back1 from that brilliant world that you were the principal ornament of8 ,if you yourself chose this state of solitude and abnegation1 ,beatrix1 ,i swear to you1 you have my word1 that it was because you did not yet know your own heart4 ,the commitment that you made in your then ignorance of those feelings that are natural to all that breathes1 is null and void before ,god as it is before men4 ,you have carelessly betrayed your destiny as a wife1 as a lover1 and as a mother6 ,you condemned yourself1 you poor1 dear child1 to long days of boredom1 bitterness1 disgust that no pleasure henceforth will be able to assuage the long sadness of6 ,it is however so sweet to love1 so sweet to be loved1 so sweet to live again through what one loves in the objects that one loves6 ,the pure joys of affection add to life twofold1 threefold1 fourfold4 ,what tenderness there is in having a friend who worships you1 who enhances each moment with ever new causes for pleasure1 who only lives to cherish you or please you4 ,the innocent caresses of pretty children1 so fresh1 gracious1 happy to be alive1 and that a barbarous whim would then have sent into oblivion6 ,this is what you have lost6 ,this is what you would have lost1 ,beatrix1 if blind obstinacy keeps you in the abyss you have plunged in6 ,no1 he continued even more exaltedly1 you will not be ignorant of the plans of your ,god and mine1 who has only brought us back together that we may be forever reunited6 ,you will willingly submit yourself to the vows of a love that begs to enlighten you6 ,you will be ,raymond's wife as you are his sister and his beloved6 ,do not turn away from him your eyes full of tears6 ,do not pull back your hand that trembles in his6 ,tell him that you are willing to follow him and never to leave him again6 ,beatrix did not answer4 ,she could not put into words what she felt4 ,she escaped from ,raymond's weakened arms and went away troubled1 trembling and distraught to fall at the feet of the ,virgin1 her consolation and her support4 ,she wept as she had previously1 but now it was no longer with an aimless and obscure emotion1 but with a feeling stronger than piety1 stronger than shame1 stronger1 alas1 than that holy ,virgin whose aid she called upon in vain1 and her tears1 this time1 were hot and bitter4 ,many days in a row she was seen1 prostrate and a supplicant1 and no-one was surprised because all of them in the convent knew of her passionate devotion to ,our ,lady of the ,flowering ,thorns4 ,she spent the rest of her time in the sick room of the wounded man whose recovery now no longer depended on assiduous nursing4 ,one night when the church was closed1 when all the nuns had gone back to their cells1 when everything1 including prayer1 was silent1 ,beatrix went slowly into the choir stalls1 put her lamp down on the altar1 opened the door of the tabernacle with a trembling hand1 turned away with a shiver1 lowering her eyes1 as if she were afraid that the queen of the angels would strike her down with a look and threw herself on her knees4 ,she wanted to speak and the words died on her lips or were strangled by her sobs4 ,she drew her veil and her hands to her brow4 ,she tried to compose herself and calm down4 ,she made one final effort4 ,she managed to tear from her heart a few mixed up sounds1 without knowing if she was uttering a prayer or a blasphemy4 ,oh celestial benefactress of my youth6 she said4 ,you that ,i have so long loved alone1 and who will always remain the sovereign of my soul1 whatever the unworthy sharing ,i involve you in6 ,mary6 ,heavenly ,mary6 ,why have you forsaken me8 ,why have you allowed your ,beatrix to fall prey to the awful passions of hell8 ,you know ,i have not given in without a struggle to the passion that devours me6 ,today the die is cast1 ,mary1 and cast forever6 ,i shall serve you no longer1 for ,i am no longer worthy to serve you4 ,i shall go far away to hide from you the eternal regret my sin fills me with1 the eternal bereavement of my innocence which you are unable to restore to me4 ,let me still now worship you6 ,have mercy on the tears ,i shed and which at least prove how remote ,i have been from the cowardly betrayals of my senses6 ,welcome the last of my tributes as you have welcomed all the others6 ,if zeal for your altars is worth some gratitude on your part1 send death to this wretch who implores you for it before she leaves you6 ,having spoken these words1 ,beatrix got up1 and1 with fear and trembling1 approached the image of the ,holy ,virgin4 ,she adorned it with new flowers1 seized those that she had just replaced1 and1 ashamed for the first time in her life of the pious use she made of them that she no longer had the right to1 she pressed them to her heart1 in a scapular that had been blessed1 so as never to part with them4 ,after that she gazed one last time at the tabernacle1 cried out in terror and fled4 ,the following night a coach whisked away at high speed from the convent the handsome wounded knight and a young nun in breach of her vows who accompanied him4 ,the first year that succeeded this event was almost entirely given over to the exaltation of a love requited4 ,the world itself for ,beatrix was a new experience of pleasures that were inexhaustible4 ,love multiplied around her all the means of seduction able to perpetuate her error and encompass her loss4 ,she only emerged from voluptuous dreams in order to awake amid the joy of banquets1 among entertainments devised by strolling players and the concerts of minstrels4 ,her life was one long crazy feast in which the serious voice of reflexion1 stifled by an orgy's clamours1 could only have struggled to make itself heard4 ,and yet she had not quite forgotten ,mary4 ,more than once1 as she prepared to dress1 her scapular had opened at the touch of her fingers4 ,more than once she had let drop on the withered posy of the ,virgin a gaze and a tear4 ,prayer had come more than once to her lips1 like a hidden flame lurking under ash and embers1 but it had been extinguished there by the kisses of her abductor1 and1 even in her ecstasy1 a voice still told her that a prayer might have saved her6 ,it was not long before she felt the only lasting love is that which is purified by religion1 that only the love of ,our ,lord and ,mary gives the lie to the ups and downs of our emotions4 ,alone among our affections1 it seems to grow and get stronger with time1 while other loves burn so brightly and are spent so quickly in our hearts of ash4 ,nevertheless she loved ,raymond as much as she could love anyone1 but a day came when she saw that ,raymond no longer loved her4 ,that day made her foresee the even more atrocious day when she would be quite abandoned by the man for whom she herself had abandoned the honours of the altar1 and that dreaded day also came4 ,beatrix now found herself1 alas1 with no-one to turn to on earth or in heaven4 ,she sought in vain to console herself with memories and to take refuge in hopes4 ,the flowers in the scapular had withered like those of her happiness4 ,the well spring of her tears and her prayer had dried up4 ,the fate that ,beatrix had made for herself had been realised4 ,the unfortunate woman accepted her damnation4 ,the higher the fall on the path to virtue1 the more ignominious it is1 the more irreparable it is1 and ,beatrix had fallen from on high4 ,at first her opprobrium frightened her1 and then she ended up by getting used to it1 the spring in her soul having broken4 ,fifteen years went by like this1 and for fifteen years the guardian angel that baptism had granted to her cradle1 the angel with the heart of a brother who had loved her so much1 covered his eyes with his wings and wept4 ,oh6 ,how many treasures those fleeting years carried away with them6 ,innocence1 modesty1 youth1 beauty1 love1 those roses in life that only flower once1 and1 in addition1 conscience that compensates for all other losses6 ,the jewels that had formerly adorned her1 the impious tributes that debauchery pays to crime1 provided her1 for a time1 with a resource too apt to dwindle4 ,she was left alone1 abandoned1 an object of contempt for others as for herself1 given over to the insolent disdain of vice1 and hateful to virtue1 a repellent example of shame and misery that mothers showed their children to turn them away from sin6 ,she wearied of being a burden to pity1 of only getting alms that a pious repugnance often nailed to the hands of charity1 of only being helped on one side by people whose brows blushed to give her a piece of bread4 ,one day she wrapped herself in her rags1 which had been when new luxurious clothes4 ,she decided to ask for her daily bread or a bed for the night from those who had not known her6 ,she flattered herself that she could hide her infamy behind her wretchedness4 ,she set out1 the poor beggar1 possessing nothing but the flowers that she had formerly taken from the ,virgin's bouquet1 falling now1 one by one1 into dust under her dried up lips6 ,beatrix was still young1 but shame and hunger had left on her brow the imprint of those hideous marks that reveal premature ageing4 ,when her pale and mute face timidly begged help from passers-by1 when her white and delicate hand opened jerkily to receive their gifts1 there were none who did not feel that her life must have been very different at some stage4 ,those who were the most indifferent to her halted before her with a harsh look that seemed to say3 ,oh my daughter6 ,how was it you fell from what you were8 ,and yet her own look could no longer reply to them1 for it had been a long time now since she had been able to weep4 ,she walked on and on1 on and on3 her journey seemed as though it would only ever end with her death4 ,one particular day she had been climbing since sun-up1 at a bare mountain's back1 a rough and rugged path1 without a single house in sight to assuage her weariness4 ,all she had eaten were some flavourless roots torn from cracks in the rocks4 ,her shoes1 worn to shreds1 had just come away from her bloodied feet4 ,she felt herself faint with fatigue and need when1 night having come1 she was all of a sudden struck by the appearance of a long line of lights that were indicative of a large building4 ,towards these lights she made her way with all the strength left to her1 but1 at the chime of a silvery bell1 the sound of which awoke in her heart a strange and vague memory1 all the lights went out at once1 and all that now remained around her were silence and night4 ,she nevertheless took a few more steps with outstretched arms1 and her trembling hands rested on a closed door4 ,she leaned against it for a moment as if to catch her breath and tried to hold onto it so as not to fall4 ,her debilitated fingers let her down4 ,they gave way under the weight of her body4 ,oh holy ,mary6 she cried4 ,why did ,i leave you8 ,and the unhappy ,beatrix passed out on the threshold4 ,may the wrath of heaven go easy on the guilty6 ,nights like this expiate a whole lifetime of sin6 ,the keen coolness of the morning had scarcely begun to bring back to life in her a blurred and painful sense of her own identity1 when she perceived that she was not alone4 ,a woman knelt at her side was raising her head carefully1 and staring at her with anxious curiosity1 waiting for her to come round completely4 ,god be praised1 said the good sister at the convent gate1 for having sent to us so early in the day an act of mercy to perform and a sadness to alleviate6 ,it's a happy omen for the glorious feast of the ,holy ,virgin that we celebrate today6 ,but how is it1 my dear child1 that you did not think to pull on the bell or to use the knocker8 ,at no time would your sisters in ,jesus ,christ not have been ready to receive you4 ,well1 there we are6 ,don't answer me just yet1 you poor lost sheep6 ,fortify yourself with this beef broth that ,i warmed up in a hurry as soon as ,i saw you4 ,taste this full-bodied wine that will put the heat back in your stomach and help you move your sore limbs again4 ,let me see that you're better4 ,drink1 drink down all of it1 and now1 before you get up1 if you don't feel strong enough to yet1 put this cloak on ,i've thrown over your shoulders4 ,put those little1 oh so cold hands of yours in mine so that ,i can restore blood and life to them4 ,can you feel already the circulation coming back into your fingers as ,i breathe on them8 ,oh6 ,you'll soon be yourself again6 ,beatrix1 imbued with tender feeling1 grasped the hands of the worthy nun1 and pressed them several times to her lips4 ,i am myself again1 she said1 and ,i feel well enough to go to thank ,god for the favour he has done me by guiding my steps to this holy house4 ,only1 so that ,i can include it in my prayers1 can you please tell me where ,i am8 ,and where could you be1 the keeper of the gate replied1 if it is not at the convent of ,our ,lady of the ,flowering ,thorns1 since there is no other monastic building in this wilderness for more than five leagues around4 ,our ,lady of the ,flowering ,thorns6 exclaimed ,beatrix with a cry of joy followed immediately by marks of the deepest consternation3 ,our ,lady of the ,flowering ,thorns6 she repeated1 letting her head fall onto her bosom4 ,may the ,lord have mercy on me6 ,what's this1 my daughter8 said the charitable angel of mercy4 ,didn't you know8 ,it's true that you seem to come from far away1 for ,i have never seen a lady's clothing that looks like yours4 ,but ,our ,lady of the ,flowering ,thorns does not limit her protection to those who live locally4 ,you must know1 if you have heard speak of her1 that she is good to everyone4 ,i know her1 and ,i have served her1 answered ,beatrix1 but ,i come from far away1 as you say1 reverend mother1 and you must not wonder that my eyes did not recognize at first this place of peace and blessing4 ,and yet here is the church and the convent1 and the thorn bushes where ,i gathered so many flowers4 ,even now they still flower6 ,but ,i was so young when ,i left them6 ,it was during the time1 she continued1 lifting her forehead to heaven with that determined look that imparts self-denial to ,christian remorse1 it was during the time when ,sister ,beatrix was the custodian of the holy basilica4 ,do you remember that time1 reverend mother8 ,how could ,i have forgotten it1 my child1 since ,sister ,beatrix has never stopped being the custodian of the holy basilica8 ,she has stayed among us till today1 and will remain for a long time1 ,i hope1 a subject of edification for the whole community1 since1 apart from the protection of the ,holy ,virgin1 we know of no surer support under heaven4 ,i'm not talking about her1 ,beatrix broke in1 sighing bitterly1 ,i'm talking about another ,beatrix who ended up living a sinful life1 and who occupied the same post sixteen years ago4 ,god will not punish you for those demented words1 said the nun as she drew her to her breast4 ,the distress and the illness that have affected your mind1 have troubled your memory with these sad visions4 ,i have lived in this convent for more than sixteen years1 and ,i have never known anyone in charge of looking after the holy basilica apart from ,sister ,beatrix4 ,being as you are determined to perform an act of worship for ,our ,lady1 while ,i'm making a bed up for you1 go1 my sister1 go to the foot of the tabernacle4 ,you will find ,beatrix there already1 and you will recognize her easily1 for divine goodness has allowed her not to lose in ageing a single one of her youthful graces4 ,i'll come back for you presently and won't leave you then till you're completely well again4 ,having spoken these words the keeper of the gate made her way back to the cloister4 ,beatrix stumbled as far as the steps leading up to the church1 knelt down on the approach to them and banged her head against it4 ,then she grew a little bolder1 got up1 and1 from pillar to pillar1 went up to the grille where she once more fell upon her knees4 ,through the cloud that had darkened her vision she had discerned the sister custodian standing in front of the tabernacle4 ,little by little the sister drew nearer to her as she made her daily inspection of the holy place1 rekindling the flame in burnt-out candles1 or replacing the garlands of the day before with new garlands4 ,beatrix could not believe her eyes4 ,this sister was herself1 not as age1 vice and despair had made her1 but as she must have been in the innocent days of her youth4 ,was it an illusion produced by remorse8 ,was it a divine punishment1 a foretaste of those reserved for her by a celestial curse8 ,racked by doubt1 she hid her head in her hands1 and rested it motionless against the bars of the grille1 stammering from quivering lips the most tender of her prayers from time gone by4 ,and yet the sister custodian kept on moving4 ,already the folds of her clothes had brushed against the bars4 ,beatrix1 overcome with emotion1 did not dare even to breathe4 ,it's you1 dear ,beatrix1 said the sister in a voice for the dulcet tones of which there is no word in any language known to man4 ,i don't need to see you to know who you are1 for ,i hear your prayers now as ,i heard them then4 ,i've been waiting for you for a long time1 but1 as ,i was sure you would return1 ,i took your place the day you left me1 so that no-one would know that you'd gone4 ,you know now what they are1 the pleasures and happiness whose picture so seduced you1 and you will not go away again4 ,you're here1 between ourselves1 for the duration and for all eternity4 ,come back with confidence to the position that you occupied among my daughters4 ,you will find in your cell1 the way to which you have not forgotten1 the habit that you left there1 and you will put on with it your primordial innocence1 of which it is the emblem4 ,i owed to your love a grace that was out of the ordinary and which ,i have obtained for your repentance4 ,farewell1 sister custodian of ,mary6 ,love ,mary as she has loved you6 ,it was indeed ,mary1 and when ,beatrix1 distraught1 raised towards her eyes flooded with tears1 when she stretched out to her her trembling arms making to her an act of thanksgiving broken by her sobs1 she saw the ,holy ,virgin go up the steps of the altar1 re-open the door to the tabernacle1 and sit down again there in her heavenly glory under her golden halo and under her festoons of thorn flowers4 ,beatrix did not go back down to the choir without emotion4 ,she went back to see her companions whose faith she had betrayed1 and who had aged1 immune to reproach1 in the practice of an austere duty4 ,she slid among her sisters lowering her head1 and ready to humble herself at the first shout to announce her fault4 ,her heart greatly troubled1 she lent an attentive ear to their voices1 and she heard nothing4 ,as none of them had noticed her departure1 none of them paid any heed to her return4 ,she threw herself at the feet of the ,holy ,virgin1 who had never looked so beautiful to her1 and who seemed to be smiling4 ,in the dreams of her illusory life1 she had grasped nothing that came anywhere near such happiness4 ,the divine feast of ,mary 7,i think ,i have already said that this took place on the ,feast of the ,assumption7 was celebrated in a mixture of of contemplation and ecstasy1 the finest moments of which far excelled past celebrations of the feastday by this community of virgins1 without stain or blemish like their queen4 ,some had seen miraculous lights emanating from the tabernacle1 others had heard songs of angels mixed in with their pious canticles1 and had1 out of respect1 stopped their singing so as not to disturb the celestial harmony4 ,it was said that there had been that day a feast in ,paradise as there had been in the convent of the ,flowering ,thorns1 and1 due to a phenomenon foreign to that season1 all the thorn bushes in the area had burst into flower again so that1 outside as well as inside1 there were only the scents of spring4 ,it was because a soul had come back to the bosom of the ,lord1 shorn of all the defects and ignominious shortcomings of our human condition1 and there is no feastday in heaven more agreeable to saints there4 ,only one thing disturbed for a moment the innocent joy of this flock of virginal doves4 ,a poor woman1 sickly and ill1 had been sitting in the morning on the threshold of the convent4 ,the nun at the entrance had seen her and had partially relieved her suffering by making up for her a nice warm bed for her to rest her weary limbs in1 weakened by privation1 and1 since then1 she had looked for her in vain4 ,this wretched creature had disappeared without a trace1 but it was thought that ,sister ,beatrix might have seen her in the church where she had gone to pray4 ,have no fear1 my sisters1 said ,beatrix1 moved to tears by this tender concern on their part4 ,have no fear1 she went on1 as she pressed the gatekeeper sister to her bosom1 ,i have seen that poor woman and ,i know what has become of her4 ,she is well1 my sisters1 she is happy1 happier than she deserves1 and happier than any of you could have hoped for her to be4 ,this answer allayed all their fears1 but it was noted because it was the first severe word to come from ,beatrix's mouth4 ,after that1 the whole of ,beatrix's life went by like a single day1 like that day in the future that is promised to the ,lord's elect1 without boredom1 without regret1 without fear1 without any emotions1 for sensitive hearts cannot wholly do without them1 other than those of piety towards ,god and charity towards ,man4 ,she lived for a century without seeming to have aged1 for only the soul's bad passions add years to the body4 ,the life of the good is an eternal youth4 ,beatrix died nevertheless1 or rather calmly fell asleep in that ephemeral sleep of the tomb that separates time from eternity4 ,the ,church honoured her memory by crowning her with a posthumous glory4 ,it made her a saint4 ,bzovius1 who has examined this story with that solemn critical spirit that canonical writers offer so many examples of1 is quite convinced that she was worthy of this honour by reason of the tender fidelity she showed to ,our ,lady1 for it is1 he said1 purity of love that makes saints1 and ,i would affirm1 not with much authority admittedly1 but in the sincerity of my mind and heart1 that1 as long as the school of ,luther and ,voltaire cannot offer me a more poignant story than hers1 ,i will agree with the opinion expressed by ,bzovius4