,,p]adv5ture ,,or ,,! ,,sil5ce ,,( ,,god ,,by ,,rob]t ,,keable ,he is a god2 p]adv5ture he sleepe?--#a ,k+s xviii4 #bg ,,con/able ,,co ,,ltd ,,london ,,bombay ,,sydney ,fir/ publi%$1 #aibb ,,by ,,! ,,same ,,au?or ,,! ,,"m ,,( ,,all ,,liv+ ,a ,,city ,,( ,,! ,,dawn ,,simon ,,call$ ,,pet] ,,pilgrim ,,pap]s ,,/&+ ,,by ,,etc4 ,,d$ication ,,my ,,de> ,,*ri/oph]1 ,rec5tly a v em95t ,anglican div9e gave u a book :i* he said embodi$ =ty ye>s ( pr(\nd ?\ght4 ,9 x he deals to no small ext5t ) ! subject ( ?is novel1 a novel :i*1 ?\gh hidd5ly1 ,i wi% to d$icate to y4 ,i want to d s because1 p]haps1 y alone ( all my fri5ds w "k h[ mu* h]e9 writt5 d[n is true to ! life we bo? l$ & bo? h left4 ,x is odd1 ,i ?9k1 z ,i look back1 h[ little we h se5 ( ea* o!r1 & h[ mu*3 h[ little1 because great tracts ( y\r life & m9e h be5 trav]s$ :olly ap>t1 & we only met1 9 ! beg9n+1 :5 we _h bo? ( u come "s di/ance along ! way2 b h[ mu*1 s9ce ea* "t we met & walk$ a mile or two toge!r1 we talk$ v freely & we f\nd we und]/ood4 ,n[1 z l z n1 ,i %all see increas+ly less ( y1 see+ t y h become a ,ca?olic1 a religi\s1 & a prie/ at t4 ,x is little "o kn[s ( life & its surprises1 b we h %ak5 h&s at ! cross-roads anyway4 ,a mom5t1 !n1 ere y g up ! /eep hill ahead ( y1 & a mom5t ere ,i take my own road t has ,i _c see :at level or uphill or d[n 9 x1--a mom5t ere y put my book 9 y\r pocket = ! sake ( ! days gone by4 ,y w appreciate ! fact t ,i %\ld h put my ?\ght into a novel & n into a book ( s]i\s !ology4 ,man's ?\ghts ab\t ,god are read be/ 9 a novel4 ,yes1 on ! "o h&1 !y are be/ set 9 a transitory frivol\s =m t booksell]s w expose on _! /alls labell$ ) "o ( ^? neatly-pr9t$ little tickets--y "k3 ,j ! ,book = a ,long ,j\rney--to cat* ! att5tion ( a man (f = 8 holiday or a girl bor$ ) hav+ to return4 ,yes1 !y are be/ set :]e !y c be read 9 a few h\rs by ! draw+-room fire4 ,=1 aft] all1 t5 ye>s or =ty or f\r hundr$ ( man's pr(\nd ?\ght ab\t ,god is wor?1 maybe a little m ?an ! price ( a p\nd ( *ocolates1 maybe a little less ?an t ( a !atre seat4 ,besides ! novel has a col\r$ wrapp]1 & !y are n yet brave en\gh or suffici5tly wise to wrap up !ology 9 t =m4 ,b on ! o!r h&1 my de> ,*ris1 !re is no =m ( writ+ yet devis$ q s true or q s pr(\nd z ! novel ( human affairs may well be4 ,=1 ,inc>nation or no ,inc>nation1 beyond d\bt y _c sep>ate man & ,god4 ,we h no m$ium o!r ?an ! human bra9 by :i* to ?9k ( ,him1 h[ev] illum9$ or delud$ t bra9 may be1 & no o!r measure ( ,8 ,p]son ?an t ( human life4 ,y\r ab/ract !ologian may decide t ,he is or is n a ,fa!r3 x is man's /riv+ s\l t kn[s2 & aga9/ _! presumptive reason+ ( ! spiritual heav51 ,i w\ld set half a doz5 pages torn f e>?4 ,y w be well aw>e z y read t ^! *apt]s are su* pages truly en\gh4 ,i d n mean t x is n ! /uff ( fiction t is "h1 b ,i d prote/ t ,claxt$ & ,keswick & ,port o' ,man & ,?urloe ,end & ,=dham1 yes1 & ,zanzib>1 are true to type1 ?\gh _m read]s w sc>cely believe me4 ,i c see ! critics mock+ ?\gh ! ink is n yet dry ^u ! page4 ,& if1 by *ance1 "o ( !m %\ld cat* a fleet+ glimpse ( 8 own face 9 ! glass1 he w assur$ly ?r[ x up at me t ! mirror is di/ort$4 ,yet1 z ,samuel ,butl] says3 ,if a bona fide writ] ?9ks a ?+ wants say+ 444 ! "q :e!r x w d him p]sonally good or h>m1 or h[ x w affect ?is or t fri5d1 nev] ent]s 8 head1 or if x does1 x is in/antly ord]$ out aga94 ,all[ me !n1 = ?is reason1 y\r "n )9 ! bo>ds4 ,y w "k1 h[ev] mu* y disapprove1 t !re is no malice "h4 ,= :at w\ld ,i ga9 by mock]y1 old fri5d1 :o h already lo/ fri5ds en\gh by speak+ ! tru?8 ,x is a pitiable dance ?is ( ours ar\nd ! alt> ( ,baal1 ov] :i*1 if ,god be too div9e1 at lea/ man %\ld be human en\gh r to weep ?an to mock4 ,yet ,i believe1 z inde$ ,i h writt51 t sorr[ 9 ! human /ory is b ! %ad[ ( a loveli] ?+2 t ! grass gr[s gre51 t ! fl[] bl[s r$1 t 9 ! wide sea also are ?+s creep+ innum]able bo? small & great bea/s1 & t e "o is good4 ,& ,god's 9 ,8 ,heav58 ,p]adv5ture4 ,at lea/ ,8 ,veil is fair4 ,b--& x is a big b--= y 9 y\r high vocation & = me 9 ?is ( m9e1 = ea* ( u1 oddly en\gh1 9 8 own way1 !re is a v]se f ,miss ,v4 ,h4 ,fri$la5d]'s ,a ,fri5d%ip :i* ,i f9d ,i _c easily =get3 ,:5 we are gr[n ,we "k x is = u ,to r5d ! fl[]y lies f worlds ,f\l ) hypocrisy2 ,to p]i% /on$ & bl9d$ 9 ! des]t-- ,t m5 unborn may see4 ,& ,i want to set t d[n too1 be=e a read] turns a page4 ,ev] y\rs1 ,,rob]t ,,keable4 ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,,d$ication ,i4 ,,lambe? ,,c\rt ,,ii4 ,,cambridge ,,iii4 ,,*ri/mas ,,c>ols ,,iv4 ,,fa!r ,,vassall ,v4 ,,vacation ,,vi4 ,,m\nt ,,c>mel ,,vii4 ,,?urloe ,,end ,,viii4 ,,judgm5ts ,,ix4 ,,=dham ,x4 ,,! ,,bl9d ,,begg> ,,xi4 ,,ursula ,,xii4 ,,zanzib> ,,p]adv5ture ,,*apt] ,i ,,lambe? ,,c\rt ,br+ me my ,b[ ( burn+ gold6 ,br+ me my ,arr[s ( desire6 ,br+ me my ,spe>6 ,o cl\ds1 unfold6 ,br+ me my ,*>iot ( fire6 ,i w n cease f ,m5tal ,fight1 ,nor %all my ,sword sleep 9 my h&1 ,till we h built ,j]usalem ,9 ,engl&'s gre5 & pleasant l&4 ,,blake3 ,milton4 ,?ir/+ = love & joy1 ,eag] to m\ld & plan1 ,^! 7 ! dreams ( a boy4444 ,,ar?ur ,c4 ,,b5son3 ,peace & ,o!r ,poems4 7#a7 ,x mu/ be presum$ t "s reason und]lies ! nom5clature ( ! ways ( our m mod]n t[ns1 b ! game ( guess+ w long rema9 an ent]ta9m5t to ! curi\s4 ,true1 we ?9k to hon\r our illu/ri\s dead by call+ "s bus9ess /reet :olly giv5 ov] to mod]n comm]cialism aft] "o ( !m1 z also we occasionally seek satisfaction by ca/+ =? a "n n[ id5tifi$ ) our equally infam\s enemies2 b ! process by :i* 7 nam$ byways & c\rts t1 aft] all1 h n be5 9 exi/5ce a lifetime1 mu/ rema9 a puzzle4 ,?us if1 walk+ d[n ! dre>y monotony ( ,apple ,or*>d ,road1 "o might conceive t at "s "t or ano!r x boa/$ an apple-tree1 ! mo/ nimble imag9ation baulks at t bl9d alley lead+ f x into an op5 irregul> space entirely surr\nd$ by ! meane/ h\ses1 entitl$ ,lambe? ,c\rt4 ,x1 at lea/1 0 surely nev] associat$ ) an ,ar*bi%op4 ,! m]e sight ( 8 gait]s !re w\ld h be5 ! occasion = an hil>i\s five m9utes4 ,& if x 0 ev] "p ( 8 prop]ty1 ! lea/ said ab\t t ! bett]4 ,= all ?is ! ,bor\gh ( ,claxt$1 n[ )9 ! b\nd>ies ( ,great] ,london1 0 a highly respectable t[n4 ,its citiz5s 7 ma9ly compos$ ( ^? :o g daily to ! ,city r\nd & ab\t ! dec5t h\r ( n9e-?irty = frequ5tly my/]i\s b none ! less remun]ative occupations1 & ( ^? :o supply _! h\seholds ) ! necess>ies & pleasant sup]fluities ( good liv+4 ,a class ap>t1 ^! latt] nev]!less %one1 9 ,claxt$1 ) "s ( ! lu/re ( _! bett]s1 & 71 inde$1 kn[n1 :5 ,paul ,ke/]n 0 "y1 z ,sup]ior ,tradespeople4 ,= bo?1 at ,claxt$1 !re 7 miles ( trim villas asc5d+ to av5ues ( deta*$ h\ses2 *ur*es !re 71 swept & g>ni%$1 or empty ) an ,evangelical ,*ri/ian empt9ess2 ,municipal build+s1 dignifi$1 suffici5t1 new & clean4 ,!re 01 9 %ort1 an air ab\t ! place & its citiz5s1 9 ^? days1 almo/ :olly neatly & simply ,cons]vative4 ,! ,bor\gh1 moreov]1 obta9$ a suffragan bi%op ab\t ?is "t1 & may ?us be said to h be5 seal$ ) a j measure ( div9e approval4 ,yet ! untr\bl$ broad /ream ( ,claxt$'s righte\s prosp]ity _h its occasional backwat] into :i* !re drift$ ! rubbi% :i* w\ld o!rwise h defil$ ! com=table col\r ( wat]s nei!r muddy nor transluc5t4 ,lambe? ,c\rt 0 "o su*4 ,possibly x 0 ov]look$ by ! ,bor\gh ,c\ncil2 possibly x 0 all[$ to rema9 = "s su* def9ite purpose z t x c]ta9ly fulfill$4 ,9 any case ! ,c\rt af=d$ a problem = ! *ur* 9 ^: p>i% x lay1 & ! pr9ciples ( ! ,*ri/ian ,endeav\r ,society1 :i* set e "y ,*ri/ian imm$iately to "w 7?us prev5t+ ! leakage :i* o!rwise occurs aft] ! ,sunday ,s*ool age 9 ! ,s\?71 7 (f]$ 9 x an ample field = ex]cise4 ,god kn[s x ne$$ all t ! "y ,*ri/ian ,endeav\r]s & _! m adult directors /rove to give x4 ,_! "w 0 possibly a =lorn hope1 b if ! ,sun%9e ,committee c\ld n light5 ! d>kness ( ! ,c\rt1 :at else1 ask$ ,claxt$1 c\ld8 ,no?+1 x may well be conc$$1 except rebuild+ & replann+ to admit light & air4 ,^!1 h[ev]1 co/ money1 & besides ! dwell]s 9 ,lambe? ,c\rt w\ld only h mov$ !mselves else:]e4 ,! poor1 reflect$ ! ,claxt$ c\ncillors1 ye h ) y always1 & w5t home to d9n]4 ,s f> z ! ,*ri/ian ,endeav\r ,society 0 conc]n$1 x 0 ,paul ,ke/]n :o discov]$ ,lambe? ,c\rt4 ,he 0 eighte5 at ! "t & secret>y ( ! ,op5-,air ,committee--a committee1 x mu/ be expla9$ p]haps1 :i* did n function 9 t[n-plann+ b 9 gospel-prea*+4 ,"o ,sunday morn+1 return+ f a *ildr5's s]vice 9 ! ,mission ,hall at ! end ( ,apple ,or*>d ,road1 he ent]$ x = ! fir/ "t4 ,a s*ol> _h said t 8 eld] si/]1 regul> 9 att5dance at ! s]vice1 0 sick1 & ,paul1 enquir+ h] :]eab\ts1 _h le>n$ t %e liv$ 9 ! ,c\rt4 ,its inhabitants r>ely aspir$ to ! ,lambe? "p ( _! designation1 b if ! enquir] ne$$ fur!r enlight5m5t add$ ,beh9d ! ',s\? ,pole4' ,paul1 ?us in=m$1 rememb]$ ! dim op5+ "u ! railway bridge beh9d ! public-h\se ( t "n1 & said he w\ld call 9 t morn+4 ,! ur*9 look$ d\btfully at 8 tea*]'s silk hat & frock coat1 b ran (f aft] s]vice to acqua9t 8 "m4 ,paul _h foll[$ at leisure4 ,x is n necess>y to give a detail$ description ( ,lambe? ,c\rt1 b x may be po9t$ out h[ ! place in/antly /ruck ,paul /rategically4 ,x 0 n too f> f ! ,hall1 he saw at once1 to make ! "w ( c>ry+ ! h>monium too heavy2 e corn] ( its area c\ld be rea*$ ) a p[]ful voice2 9 ! v c5tre /ood a lamp-po/1 &1 :at 0 m1 t lamp-po/ /ood alone 9 its glory 9 ! ,c\rt4 ,?is condition (f]$ two great advantages3 fir/1 t ( supply+ all ! light requir$ = ! evangeli/s1 & secondly1 t ( creat+ ^? d>k %ad[s beyond belov$ by ,nicodemus & 8 l4 ,! railway ar* ?r\gh :i* "o ent]$ & :i* %ut (f t end ( ! place1 w\ld1 ( c\rse1 occasionally vibrate ) tra9s--an item on ! debit side ( ! acc\nt2 b on ! o!r h& ! fil?y tumbl+ hovels 7 enclos$ on ?ree sides by ho>d+s & tall blank w>eh\se walls :i* w\ld cat* ! voice1 & _! /rips ( refuse-/rewn g>d5s1 sep>at$ f ea* o!r by brok5 pal+s1 7 j su* z w\ld invite ! inhabitants to sit & gossip !re on summ] & e>ly autumn ev5+s4 ,paul not$ all ?is 9 a mom5t s soon z he 0 inside ! ar*4 ,he 0 a born evangeli/4 ,b to d ! boy ju/ice1 he not$ f> m ?an ?is4 ,he saw ! slatt]nly woman1 ) an unspeakable gap+ bl\se1 h] hair 9 curl-pap]s & h] feet 9 bulg+ unlac$ boots1 :o came to ! door ( ! fir/ cottage & %\t$ at a flax5-hair$ little toddl] ( a girl play+ ) a mat*box 9 ! gutt]4 ,! burn+ words fell on 8 e>s l a scream f hell4 ,maud-,hemily1 y] bloody little bit*1 come 9 out o' t muck or ,i'll smack y\r bottom = y]4 ,he saw ! two m5 by ! lamp-po/ look at him1 & he read aright _! besott$ faces4 ,nei!r spoke1 b "o spat well & truly at ! base ( ! pill>1 & t did = spee*4 ,he rapp$ on ! door ( ,no4 #e1 & :5 ,jimmie op5$ x1 he saw ! rema9s ( a meal 9 greasy newspap]s on ! fil?y table1 & 8 no/rils caught ! smell ( unwa%$ clo!s & ,sunday morn+'s kipp]s4 ,he tri$ to avoid ! wall z he w5t up ! /airs4 ,& :5 he 0 9 ! little ov]head b$room1 ^: w9d[ nev] op5$ & ?r\gh ^: grimy glass "o read an adv]tisem5t ( ,reckitt's ,blue on ! ho>d+ opposite1 & /ood by ! side ( a heap ( blankets & sacks on :i* lay & c\gh$ a *ild ( ?irte5 9 consumption1 a crack$ article on a *air by h] b$side ov] :i* %e occasionally lean$ & expectorat$1 8 he>t mov$ ) some?+ ( t compassion :i* _h be5 ! out/&+ *>act]i/ic ( ! greate/ ,evangeli/ ! _w has ev] kn[n4 ,he 0 m sil5t ?an 8 wont at ! midday d9n]4 ,b :5 ,saturday's hot jo9t1 cold on ,sundays1 _h be5 remov$1 he look$ across ! table to ! cl]gyman at its head1 & spoke4 ,dad1 he said1 d y "k ,lambe? ,c\rt8 ,lambe?8 qu]i$ ! cl]gyman4 ,no4 ,oh1 let me see4 ,isn't x t place beh9d ! ',s\? ,pole'8 ,yes4 ,i w5t 9 to-day to see ,que5ie ,ar*]4 ,%e's awfully bad aga94 ,dad1 x's a gha/ly place4 ,i ?\ght ,i'd speak to ! ,committee ?is aft]noon & arrange an op5-air !re4 ,8 "m look$ up f help+ ! pudd+ & spoke ) a trace ( anxiety4 ,paul1 %e has consumption4 ,ought y to visit h]1 de>8 ,& x's a dreadful place2 ,i don't ?9k ! ,c4,e4 girls ought to g into x ev5 = an op5-air4 ,paul mov$ re/lessly4 ,!y'd be all "r ) u1 "m1 he said4 ,d y ?9k ,jesus ,*ri/ w\ld h /ay$ away because x 0 dirty or because ,que5ie _h consumption8 ,if !re's a place 9 ! p>i% :]e s\ls ne$ sav+1 t place is ,lambe? ,c\rt4 ,8 "m suppress$ a little sigh4 ,! spee* 0 typical ( ,paul4 ,z a ,*ri/ian %e lov$ him = x2 z a "m %e 0 v pr\d4 ,b ?is irresi/ible logic1 :i* he 0 s prone to use1 h[ev] mu* x belong$ to ! atmosph]e ( religion 9 :i* %e :ole-he>t$ly believ$1 affright$ h] a little4 ,x op5$ up inf9ities4 ,%e made ! r pa!tic appeal :i* 0 *>act]i/ic ( h]4 ,:at d y ?9k1 fa!r8 %e qu]i$4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n _h v k9dly eyes1 a =ehead :i* w\ld h made = intellectuality if 8 ev]-n>r[+ outlook on life _h giv5 x a *ance1 & a weak *9 hidd5 by a %ort-be>d & m\/a*e4 ,he smil$ at h]4 ,! boy is q "r1 de>1 he said1 b1 ,paul1 y %\ld n run unnecess>y risks1 especially n[4 ,y might h left ! visit to me4 ,i w g to-morr[4 ,z = ! op5-air1 ,i %\ld ?9k x w\ld be a capital place1 b keep ! girls by y & don't let !m w&] alone into ! h\ses ) tracts or leaflets4 ,d y mean to g to-night8 ,no1 n to-night1 dad4 ,our pit* is 9 ,laur5ce ,place to-night4 ,i ?\ght p]haps next ,sunday4 ,next ,sunday is ! fir/ 9 ! mon?1 de>1 said 8 "m g5tly4 ,won't x be r late8 ,y don't usually h op5-airs on ! fir/ ,sunday1 d y8 ,i "k1 "m1 said ,paul1 b :y n8 ,x is bett] to be a bit late :5 we g to ,lambe? ,c\rt4 ,"s ( ! m5 may be out ( ! publics by !n4 ,& x always seems to me t ,communion ,sunday is ! be/ 9 ! mon? = an op5-air4 ,surely aft] we've rememb]$ ,8 'preci\s ,dea? & ,burial' at ! ,table1 t is j ! "t = u to prea* ! ,cross4 ,& ',8 glori\s ,resurrection & ,asc5sion1' ,paul1 quot$ 8 fa!r s(tly4 ,don't =get t4 ,x's ! liv+ ,savi\r1 no dead ,*ri/ on a crucifix1 t we proclaim4 ,i "k1 dad1 said ! boy1 8 eyes %9+4 ,h[ c\ld "o ?9k o!rwise8 ,i don't "k1 laddie1 said 8 fa!r1 smil+ t5d]ly at him1 b "s appe> to d s4 ,god gu>d y f su* errors1 ,paul4 ,don't be ov]-confid5t2 ,satan c deceive ! v elect4 ,?us 0 ! mission to ,lambe? ,c\rt decid$ ^u4 ,paul _h c>ri$ 8 ,committee ) him1 z he always did4 ,its elde/ memb]1 a m>ri$ bank cl]k ( a n]v\s temp]am5t1 _h inde$ e*o$ some?+ ( ,mrs4 ,ke/]n's fe>s4 ,he ?\ght t ! ,c\rt 0 no place = ladies1 & said1 frankly1 he w\ld n c>e = 8 wife to g !re4 ,paul1 at ! head ( ! ,mission ve/ry table1 play$ ) a p5cil1 & %[$ 8 in/9ctive lead]%ip aga9 by n answ]+ him4 ,he look$ up in/ead1 & caught ,edi? ,?ornton's eyes z %e sat opposite him4 ,!y 7 eag] & indignant1 & he nodd$ ev] s slightly4 ,edi?1 !re=e1 _h tak5 up h] p>able1 & ! m =cefully s9ce %e did n (t5 speak on ,committee4 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,d]rick1 %e exclaim$1 ,i don't agree ) y at all6 ,:at ab\t our mission>ies' wives8 ,:at ab\t ! ,salvation ,army8 ,d y ?9k any place c be too bad = a ,*ri/ian if !re is "o s+le s\l to be sav$8 ,%e flu%$ a little at h] own vehem5ce4 ,mr4 ,d]rick c\gh$1 fumbl+ ) 8 wat**a94 ,he 0 well aw>e t ! ,_s 0 at "w 9 ,apple ,or*>d ,mission ,hall1 & he 0 consci\s ( be+ "o ( ! weak] bre?r54 ,paul's v sil5ce daunt$ him1 = he hone/ly lov$ ! eag] ,paul4 ,let u pray ab\t x1 he sugge/$4 ,paul pu%$ 8 *air back1 & slipp$ to 8 knees4 ,in/9ctively he always knelt to pray1 ?\gh ! m g5]al cu/om 0 to sit4 ,a few m9utes' sil5t pray] fir/1 he comm&$1 &1 9 ! sl[ tick+ ( ! clock1 he pray$ himself1 ) utt] simplicity & e>ne/ness1 = ,lambe? ,c\rt1 = ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s--& = ,mr4 ,d]rick4 ,! result 01 ( c\rse1 a =egone conclusion4 ,?us1 at int]vals1 all t gold5 summ]1 ,lambe? ,c\rt he>d ! ,^w4 ,true1 ! signs foll[+ 7 s small t ! less zeal\s ,endeav\r]s op5ly %ook _! heads1 & ev5 ! m ard5t ( ! b& w\ld h be5 tempt$ to give 94 ,b ,paul & ,edi? 7 ( diff]5t mettle4 ,at devotional meet+s1 ,paul spoke ( h]oic s\ls :o _h prea*$ = half a g5]ation 9 hea!n l&s & n se5 a conv]t1 until1 "o day1 ! tide turn$ 9 all its p[]4 ,mo/ effective 0 ! /ory ( ! ,moravians :o lab\r$ among a c]ta9 b& ( ,esquimaux = =ty ye>s unbless+ & unbless$1 & !n1 discov]+ t ! *annels 7 *ok$ 9 !mselves1 cle>$ !m1 & saw _m mighty works4 ,& 9 ,july1 inde$1 ! d\bt]s _h receiv$ a knock-out bl[4 ,mrs4 ,reynolds1 ( ,no4 #aa1 _h be5 z truly conv]t$ z ,saul on ! road to ,damascus1 conv]t$ by ! human in/rum5tality ( ,edi? & a novel tract 9 ! %ape ( a small slip ( c>dbo>d be>+ no?+ b a "q m>k on "o side & on ! o!r3 ,,h[ ,,%all ,,ye ,,escape ,,if ,,ye ,,neglect ,,s ,,great ,,salvation8 ,poor ,mrs4 ,reynolds1 "o w\ld h ?\ght t h] pres5t woes 7 big en\gh to disc\nt effectively all future ones4 ,reynolds hawk$1 :5 he _h any?+ to hawk or "t to sp>e f ! ,s\? ,pole & regul> t]ms ( s]vice = ,8 ,maje/y4 ,mrs4 ,reynolds1 h]self1 drank1 :51 m r>ely ?an h] sp\se1 %e _h ! :]e)al to obta9 dr9k4 ,reynolds1 :o %\ld h acc\nt$ himself bless$ 9 ! numb] ( olive bran*es r\nd ab\t 8 table1 illogically curs$ :5ev] he saw !m1 b add$ to ! tribe z fa/ z ,nature p]mitt$4 ,x 01 inde$1 :5 8 wife 0 expect+ :at turn$ out to be tw9s1 t ,edi? came h] way4 ,aga9/ ord]s1 %e left ! circle & gave ! woman a *air )9 h] pal+s :]eon %e might sit & li/54 ,mrs4 ,reynolds1 g5tly intoxicat$1 0 grateful1 & ask$ h] visitor to fet* a ,bible f )9 :i* _h rema9$ to ! family because x c\ld n be pawn$4 ,on ! table ,edi? sil5tly laid ! tract4 ,mrs4 ,reynolds1 return+ lat]1 _h se5 x1 & _h be5 7z %e said7 knock$ all ( a heap4 ,:y1 p>ticul>ly1 by t tract or j !n1 does n appe>1 & 0 n inde$ que/ion$ = a mom5t by ! ,endeav\r]s4 ,= conv]t$ ,mrs4 ,reynolds hone/ly & truly _h be54 ,into h] dw>f$ & d>k5$ life _h %one ! radiance ( a new hope1 & f h] h>d5$ he>t1 s /rangely brok51 _h come well+ out a vivid & wond]ful spr+4 ,regul> at s]vices1 humble at home1 zeal\s 9 h] "w1 undaunt$ by sc(f+ & bl[s1 ,mrs4 ,reynolds _h n only be5 con/ra9$1 n]v\sly & pa!tically1 to te/ify publicly 9 h] own ,c\rt1 b hone/ly did te/ify by h] life e day ( ! week4 ,! v publican at ! corn]1 :o _h a s(t spot = ,paul by ! way1 admitt$ x4 ,let ! poor devil alone1 he w\ld %\t at ,reynolds curs+ 8 wife & damn+ ! ,mission across ! b>1 or get out ( 'ere4 ,*ri/6 ,y're a bloody fool1 y are6 ',ere's ! ,mission give y z good a wife z any man ev] 'ad1 & y curs9' ( 'em4 ,w\ldn't m9d if !y conv]t$ my ole woman1 ,i w\ldn't4 ,%e might 'old a pray]-meet9' n[ & ag9 9 ! b>-p>l\r1 (f-h\rs1 if %e'd keep x clean4 7#b7 ,b ?is ,sunday 9 ,octob] 0 to see ! end ( ! ef=t = ! season4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,paul left t week = 8 fir/ t]m at ,cambridge1 & ?is 0 a bigg] damp] ?an ! ,committee c>$ to all[4 ,9 ! second1 h[ev]1 x 0 gett+ cold 9 ! ev5+s1 & activities took a new direction 9 ! w9t]4 ,?us1 a little late1 aft] ,communion1 ! b& salli$ out = ! la/ "t4 ,"s fifte5 or tw5ty ( !m1 !y ga!r$ r\nd ! lamp-po/4 ,a c\ple ( "y m5 di/ribut$ ! hymn-%eets to ! l\ng]s 9 ! g>d5s1 ) a *e]ful smile & a ^w ( fri5dly greet+1 fairly well receiv$1 z a matt] ( fact1 by n[4 ,paul m\nt$ 8 *air "u ! light4 ,edi? took h] seat b5ea? at ! h>monium1 = ,miss ,madel9e ,erne/1 daught] ( ! ,rev4 ,john ,erne/1 an eld]ly assi/ant curate1 :o usually play$1 0 unwell4 ,! la/ fa9t radiance ( ! day 0 dy+ out ov] ! railway bridge1 & ! />s %one /eadily 9 a cle> sky above ! ho>d+s4 ,! ,c\rt greet$ ! ,mission]s 9 v>i\s moods4 ,!y've come1 ,joe1 said ,mrs4 ,reynolds to h] husb& :o1 = once & = obvi\s reasons1 0 at home & sob]2 won't y] come out & li/5-l a bit8 ,! 'ymns w *e] y] up1 & !y c>n't d y] no 'arm anywise4 ,x's y] l>/ *>n/ = ! season1 ,joe4 ,g>n1 said ,joe1 damn y]6 ,hilda ,till+s put h] hat at a becom+ angle 9 ! back kit*5 ( ,no4 #i & salli$ out into ! p>l\r4 ,h] "m sniff$4 ,silly fool1 %e said1 t] g & suck up t] 'em l t4 ',e won't look twice at y]4 ,x'll be a case betwe5 'im & t !re ,madel9e lidy1 if y] asks me4 ,hilda toss$ h] head4 ,miss ,erne/'s n come to-night1 %e said4 ,i saw out ( ! top w9d]4 ',sides1 y] don't "k wat y] talk+ (1 ma4 ,i l ! meet+4 ,& %e salli$ out4 ,two ur*9s1 te>+ at top spe$ "u ! ar*1 made = ! lamp-po/4 ',ere1 'ook x1 gasp$ ! fir/ to arrive1 sotto voce1 to a dim9utive imp already !re4 ,i'll ba% y] 'ead 9 = y] if y] don't4 ,?is 'ere's my job4 ,& he clut*$ at ! lant]n :i* illum9at$ ! music-book on ! requir$ occasions1 & kick$ 8 weak] bro!r on ! %94 ,sil5ce1 boys1 said ,mr4 ,d]rick1 9 8 be/ mann]2 don't fight ) t lant]n n[4 ,orl rite1 guv'nor1 b x's my job4 ,don't y] 'memb] me l>/ tyme8 ,y] said ,i 'eld x /eady & y] give me a copp]4 ,i got 'ere fu/--%rilly1 f ! o!r4 ,!re1 !re1 my lad1 give x up4 ,?is boy usually holds x4 ,no /ruggl+1 please4 ,t's bett]4 ,y c help ) ! h>monium aft]w>ds if y l4 7,! small] boy rec$es into ! backgr\nd snuffl+4 ,?r\gh\t ! fir/ "p ( ! meet+ he is try+ to kick ! eld]1 j> ! lant]n1 or o!rwise mole/ its hold]4 ,aft] ! second hymn1 ,edi? int]v5es ) a p5ny4 ,! small] boy exits triumphantly47 ,paul1 f 8 some:at rickety *air1 survey$ ! little sc5e ) a def9ite s5se ( exultation 9 8 he>t4 ,! la/ trace ( n]v\sness dropp$ f him ) 8 fir/ half-doz5 s5t5ces4 ,he _h ! voice ( an orator1 a s+ul>ly attractive1 arre/+ voice1 t p5etrat$ easily ! fur!/ recesses ( ! ,c\rt & ev5 br\ght 9 a few pass]s-by f ! /reet4 ,! only son1 he 01 z 8 p>5ts (t5 told him1 ! *ild ( pray]s1 & he 0 nam$ ,paul t he might be an apo/le4 ,he w\ld h be5 a dreadful prig if he _h n be5 s trem5d\sly conv9c$ & 9 e>ne/4 ,radiant on t mission *air b5ea? ! g>i% lamp-light1 he b>$ 8 head & lift$ 8 eyes to ! heav5s above him4 ,_h !y op5$1 ) a vision ( ! return+ ,*ri/ escort$ by ! :ole angelic ho/1 he w\ld q hone/ly n h be5 surpris$2 inde$1 if any?+1 he 0 (t5 surpris$ t !y did n4 ,*ri/ wait$ !re z surely z he /ood b5ea? to pray & prea*4 ,8 "y en?usiasm1 8 vital fai?1 /irr$ ! mo/ commonplace ( ! little gr\p ab\t him1 & no wond]1 = he add$ to x an unconsci\s & undevelop$ b und\bt$ p[]4 ,to-night1 ! la/ night ( ! s]ies1 ! la/ night1 p]haps1 = ev] !re1 he drew on all 8 gifts to ! utmo/4 ,x 0 small wond] t su* z ,hilda came to li/5 & su* z ,mrs4 ,reynolds /ay$ to pray4 ,!re fell ev5 on ,!odore ,d]rick a s5se t ! ,acts ( ! ,apo/les might aft] all be true4 ,!y began by s++ ,tell me ! old1 old /ory4 ,be=e ! hymn 0 half ov] ,paul _h 8 audi5ce "u 8 influ5ce z if !y _h be5 little *ildr5 & he a belov$ ma/]1 or an or*e/ra & he ! effici5t conductor4 ,he laugh$ at !m = n s++4 ,he made !m repeat ! *orus 9 p>ts1 wom5 a l9e1 m5 a l9e1 *ildr5 a l9e1 & !n ! la/ l9e all toge!r4 ,he made !m triumph x to ,god1 & !n :isp] x to _! own he>ts4 ,he /ay$ !m altoge!r impressively1 & w\ld n h ^? s+ :o c\ld n say :ole-he>t$ly3 ,rememb] ,i'm ! s9n] ,:om ,jesus came to save4444 ,!n he pray$4 ,no "o !re c\ld pray z ,paul pray$1 & ,paul himself might h wond]$ h[ long he w\ld be able to pray s4 ,an agno/ic r>ely int]rupt$ ,paul's meet+s4 ,!re might be no sure k ( ,god1 b x 0 pla9ly useless to tell t to ,paul aft] y _h he>d him pray4 ,also1 incid5tally1 !re 7 few1 h[ev] r\gh1 :o did n feel t x w\ld be a brutal ?+ to d4 ,a hymn aga9--! ,glory ,song1 by reque/--& ,paul ann\nc$ 8 text1 8 f>ewell message1 _! la/ ^w to ,lambe? ,c\rt = _m mon?s4 ,x 0 ! k9d ( text :i*1 9 8 m\?1 took on t irresi/ible logic t he lov$1 & :i*1 9 8 own he>t1 gl[$ & beat l ! ?rob ( an imm5se dynamo4 ,! ,cross1 s he proclaim$1 is to !m t are p]i%+ fooli%ness1 & to !m t are be+ sav$ ! p[] ( ,god4 ,tell+ anecdotes1 h[ev] commonplace1 hamm]$ 9 8 po9ts4 ,x 0 n ! ,cross t 0 on trial2 x 0 8 he>]s :o 7 !n & !re be+ judg$ by ! ,cross4 ,0 all ?is to !m fooli%ness1 or 0 x ! p[] ( ,god8 ,an easy "q6 ,ea* "o knew well en\gh = himself4 ,& ! inevitable foll[$2 inde$1 9 ,paul's eag] s\l1 c\ld n be ga9said4 ,8 he>]s to a man 7 be+ sav$--! speak]'s face lit up ) ! hone/ joy ( x2--or--or--p]i%+4 ,! :isp]$ ^w rea*$ ! f> corn]s ( ! ,c\rt4 ,x ev5 rea*$ ,reynolds4 ,he /irr$ uneasily1 & wi%$ he _h m be]4 ,! boy on ! *air ann\nc$ t !y w\ld s+ z a la/ hymn ,god be ) y till we meet aga94 ,! haunt+ lilt1 ! g5u9e poetry & life !re is 9 x1 ov]came ! crude composition1 ! tortur$ air :i* 0 ! be/ ! old h>monium c\ld d1 ! vulg> surr\nd+s1 ! banal words4 ,at ! ?ird v]se1 ,paul held up 8 h&4 ,a little hu% fell on ! :ole ,c\rt1 :i* deep5$ z he spoke4 ,paul _h n le>nt ! tricks t x 0 possible = him to play ) 8 oratorical p[]1 b x 0 a naturally clev] ?+ t he did4 ,! tone ( 8 voice :olly *ang$4 ,all h>dness1 logic1 conque/1 argum5t1 _h gone f him1 & x vibrat$ ) t5d]ness1 0 all b brok5 ) hone/ emotion4 ,he begg$1 by ! pity & g5tl5ess ( ! ,savi\r1 t !y might meet at ,8 feet4 ,!y _h1 he said1 all ( !m1 to travel d[n ! long roads ( life2 none knew :]e su* might lead2 w\ld t all _! div]se ways might at lea/ lead home--home to ! "o safe %elt]1 home to ! "o sure hav51 home to ,jesus' feet4 ,! little b& mov$ (f out ( ! ,c\rt1 ! l\ng]s' eyes look+ curi\sly at ,paul4 ,he /opp$ aga9 & aga9 to %ake h&s1 &1 at ! ,mission ,hall1 f\nd ! in/rum5t1 books1 *air1 & ! re/ ( ! p>aph]nalia already put away4 ,he said good-bye to "o & ano!r4 ,edi? held out h] h&4 ,are y alone8 he ask$4 ,may ,i see y home8 ,i don't l to tr\ble y1 %e said4 ,he smil$ at h] eag]ly4 ,i believe y "k ,i'm glad ( ! *ance1 he repli$4 ,%e liv$ "s way (f & sc>cely 9 8 direction1 b "y ,v9tn]1 :o usually escort$ h] home1 saw ! arrangem5t1 & surr5d]$ h] to ,paul )\t a "q4 ,/ill he wi%$ ,miss ,erne/ _h be5 !re2 !n1 ( necessity1 ! vic>'s son saw ! curate's daught] home4 ,"u ^? circum/ances1 he usually secur$ ,edi?1 :o fell to him likewise1 m (t5 ?an n1 on s*ool-treats or ,c4,e4 excursions or rid+ back on summ] ev5+s ) ! ,memb]s' ,cycl+ ,club4 ,b !re 0 no?+ tangible betwe5 !m1 & he 0 devot$ to ,paul l all ! re/ ( _! circle4 ,s ! two lead]s w5t (f toge!r4 ,!y said little at fir/4 ,_! way lay d[n a long wide well-lit ma9 /reet ) _m p ab\t1 if few vehicles see+ t x 0 ,sunday ev5+4 ,!re 0 a s5se ( triumph 9 ,paul1 a s5se gr[+ /eadily n[ t ! s]vice 0 ov] & o!r less p]sonal influ5ces laid = a:ile aside1 & he saw ! commonplace /reet z a vi/a ( magic & wond]4 ,!y pass$ a d>k5$ *ur*1 all lock$ at ?is late h\r1 :i* 0 little ?\ght ( 9 _! circle z lack+ 9 evangelical zeal4 ,at a /reet corn]1 "u a bann] ) a text ^u x1 ano!r op5-air s]vice f ! local ,wesleyan *apel 0 9 progress1 & a speak] ) a h>% voice 0 ?und]+ torr5tial salvation4 ,paul glanc$ at ! girl by 8 side ) a smile4 ',peace be to all !m :o love our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ 9 s9c]ity1' he quot$ quietly4 ,%e nodd$4 ,b ! ,wesleyans are s noisy1 %e said1 & ,i don't see :y !y ne$ h left ! ,*ur*4 ,we %all "r all t1 said ,paul1 utt]ly unconsci\s ( boa/+4 ,! ,evangelicals 9 all ! *ur*es mu/ come toge!r4 ,i don't "k :y !re is any delay4 ,!y want someone to make a move4 ,:5 ,i'm orda9$ ,i %all g & prea* 9 ,noncon=mi/ *apels & invite !m to my *ur* no matt] :at ! ,bi%op says4 ',we mu/ obey ,god r ?an man4' ,! girl look$ up at him4 ,:y does ev]y?+ y say r+ s unansw]ably true8 %e dem&$ ) a little smile4 ,does x8 ,yes4 ,ev]yone ?9ks s4 ,d y "k y fright5 me sometimes4 ,fright5 y6 ,:y 9 ! _w8 ,because y're irresi/ible4 ,d y rememb] la/ week's pray] meet+8 ,maud said to me aft]w>ds3 ',he'll make u all =eign mission>ies4' ,i wi% ,i c\ld1 said ,paul1 q gravely4 ,:y n8 ,t's j x1 %e repli$4 ,:5 y say ',:y n8' !re doesn't seem to be any answ]4 ,b my fa!r w\ld f9d "o quickly en\gh4 ,!y turn$ (f into ! fir/ ( a network ( d>k] side-/reets ( villas lead+ to h] road4 ,a s$ate suburban air brood$ !re1 & except = a w&]+ c\ple & a di/ant policeman1 no "o else 0 9 sight or he>+4 ,! night 0 cle> & sweet4 ,a little moon 0 climb+ into ! sky4 ,paul & ,edi? sl[$ d[n in/9ctively4 ,paul did n pursue ! complication4 ,mr4 ,?ornton 0 a photograph] 9 ,edw>d ,/reet1 a highly respectable p]son1 a memb] ( 8 fa!r's *ur*1 b n )9 ! circle ( 8 fa!r's actual fri5ds4 ,! m5tion ( him gave ,paul a slight j> ab\t ,edi?4 ,he knew well en\gh t if he _h be5 see+ ,madel9e home1 8 "m w\ld h be5 highly delight$1 b t %e w\ld be slightly uneasy at he>+ t he _h be5 ) ,edi?4 ,b he 0 j discov]+ ,edi?4 ,he lik$ ,madel9e--%e 0 f> too pretty1 ) h] fair hair & big eyes & nicely-temp]$ lady-l admiration1 n to be lik$4 ,at ! la/ s*ool-treat--oh well1 b he hadn't said any?+ really4 ,& x 0 9 ! return tra9 t v day t he _h1 s to say1 discov]$ ,edi?4 ,he _h f\nd himself 9 h] c>riage1 hav+ /ray$ f t res]v$ = 8 fa!r & "m to %eph]d "s late arrivals1 & %e _h be5 opposite him ! :ole way4 ,%e 0 quiet--he _h notic$ t fir/2 b :5 he did succe$ 9 draw+ h] out a little1 he _h f\nd a v attractive creature4 ,x 0 h>d to say :y1 b /ill1 z he analys$ h]1 %e 0 frank1 gay1 & yet unexpect$ly deep4 ,& %e1 too1 0 pretty4 ,he _h se5 h] home f ! /ation1 = ! fir/ "t1 & discov]$ t 8 "m 0 j a little annoy$4 ,d y "k1 he said n[1 cont9u+ ! subject1 ,i c't make up my m9d :at ,i want exactly4 ,!re seems su* a lot to d 9 ,engl&1 & yet ( c\rse ,i'm pl$g$ to be a =eign mission>y4 ,i see1 %e said4 ,well1 :at d y ?9k8 he dem&$4 ,x makes me burn to see ! deadness & disunion among ,*ri/ians at home1 & yet ! hea!n1 dy+ daily )\t ,*ri/--h[ c "o /ay 9 ,engl& = a mom5t long] ?an is necess>y8 ,god w surely %[ y :at y mu/ d1 said ! girl quietly4 ,!re 0 a dep? ( s9c]ity 9 ! simple words t /ruck him4 ,x 0 ! k9d ( ?+ ,madel9e w\ld nev] h said1 & w\ld n h meant if %e _h4 ,he ey$ h] ) a sudd5 wi% to see m ( h]4 ,d y "k ,i g to ,cambridge on ,tuesday8 he ask$4 ,%e nodd$4 ,x's go+ to cut me (f f ?+s "h1 he w5t on4 ,i %all h to "w 9 ! vacs41 y "k4 ,& ,i'm t+l+ to get !re4 ,i'll h "t to write a bit1 & ,i expect editors w look at /uff t comes f ! ',v>sity4 ,i read t bit ( y\rs 9 ,! ,record1 %e said4 ,! impli$ praise pleas$ him4 ,did y8 he cri$4 ,did y l x8 ,i'm long+ to be able to write z well z prea*4 ,i want ,god to h my p5 z well z my tongue4 ,oh y are lucky6 %e exclaim$ involunt>ily4 ,lucky8 ,:y8 ,y've s mu* to give4 ,i've no?+4 ,he 0 extraord9>ily t\*$ by h] humility4 ,he want$ to take h] arm1 b he did n l to d s4 ,!y turn$ ano!r corn]1 & 7 9 h] /reet4 ,don't say t1 he said4 ,y've y\rself--give t4 ,no "o c give m4 ,i'm n sure1 %e said1 ) a n]v\s cat* 9 h] voice1 t ,i c give t4 ,:y n8 he ask$4 ,%e did n reply directly4 ,i wond] :at y w be l aft] a t]m at ,cambridge1 %e said1 inconsequ5tly4 ,x won't *ange me at all1 said ,paul4 ,! girl made little /abs ) h] umbrella at ! pavem5t4 ,x w1 %e said4 ,i wond] if y'll come back ! lea/ bit ! same4 ,oh1 ,i "k6 ,y'll h new fri5ds & new int]e/s1 & y'll ?9k u all j a little *eap4 ,y'll g away 9 ! holidays1 abroad v likely1 & ev5 our c\ntry won't seem ! same to y4 ,paul 0 surpris$ at h] vehem5ce1 & he came to a sudd5 resolution4 ,d y "k1 he said1 ,i'm go+ to take a la/ bike ride to-morr[ r\nd ,hursley ,woods & ,all+ton1 j to say good-bye4 ,i meant to g alone1 b d y ?9k y c\ld come too8 ,i'd love x4 ,we'd be able to talk1 up !re 9 ! hea!r4 ,w y8 ,! girl sl[$ d[n /ill m2 !y 7 v ne> h] home4 ,%e 0 s glad t he _h ask$ h] t %e c\ld h>dly speak4 ,yes1 %e said2 & !n1 ) a bur/ ( confid5ce3 ,d y ?9k we ought to8 ,:y n8 he qu]i$1 fr[n+4 ,well1 we'll risk x anyway4 ,look "h1 let's meet at ! bottom ( ,co/] ,lane--say at elev54 ,%all we8 ,t w give u two h\rs1 lots ( "t4 ,%e nodd$ )\t speak+1 & put h] h& on ! lat*4 ,y won't be late--,edi?1 he said1 call+ h]1 on ! impulse1 by h] ,*ri/ian "n4 ,%e flu%$ 9 ! k9dly d>k4 ,no1 %e said s(tly4 ,h[ c\ld %e8 %e ask$ h]self z %e let h]self 94 ,x 0 half-pa/ t5 :5 ,paul climb$ ! /eps ( 8 fa!r's h\se & rang ! bell4 ,! little family _h f9i%$ supp] & 7 wait+ pray]s = him4 ,:]e h y be51 ,paul8 que/ion$ 8 "m4 ,x's v late1 de>4 ,i saw ,miss ,?ornton home1 "m1 said ,paul4 ,oh1 ,paul6 ,0 no "o else go+ h] way8 ,i did n ?9k to ask1 repli$ ,paul frankly4 ,de>1 y ought to take c>e4 ,su* a lot is expect$ ( y\r fa!r's son4 ,did y g 98 ,no1 "m4 ,well1 de>1 g & take y\r boots (f :ile ,annie br+s ! cocoa 94 ,& don't be long1 ,paul4 ,i don't want y to miss pray]s on y\r la/ ,sunday4 ,he w5t out1 clos+ ! door4 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n look$ across at h] husb&1 /ret*$ out 9 8 arm-*air1 tir$ aft] a heavy day1 & gaz+ into ! gl[+ coals4 ,fa!r1 ,i ?9k y ought to say some?+ to him1 %e said4 ,t girl is v attractive1 & q clev] en\gh n to run aft] him too obvi\sly4 ,! cl]gyman /irr$4 ,i don't "k1 de>1 he said4 ,y "k well en\gh we h nev] _h any tr\ble ( t sort ) him1 & ,paul is n )\t balla/4 ,god1 ,:o r$eem$ me f all evil1 he add$ g5tly1 bless ! lad4 7#c7 ,9 tru? ,mr4 ,ke/]n 0 bo? "r & wrong4 ,! next morn+1 dep>t+ on 8 bicycle ) a m]e /atem5t t he want$ a la/ ride1 ,paul 0 v consci\s ( do+ some?+ he _h nev] done be=e4 ,he _h no si/]1 & 8 girl fri5ds 7 ma9ly a family ( c\s9s s closely int]e/$ 9 ea* o!r1 t1 al?\gh !y 7 fri5dly en\gh & admitt$ him to ! family circle on long summ] holidays toge!r1 he 0 n really intimate ) any "o ( !m4 ,nor _h he want$ any girl 9 8 life4 ,he & 8 fa!r 7 great fri5ds1 & ! two %>$ pleasures & "w ) a r>e companion%ip4 ,paul1 ) 8 natural gifts1 _h ?us be5 drawn into active religi\s life mu* e>li] ?an is common1 & he 0 naturally /udi\s1 fond ( nature & ( a lit]>y b5t4 ,:at ) "o ?+ & ano!r1 8 life 0 full4 ,) 8 fa!r he dep>t$ on ,saturday aft]noons = ! woods & ! ponds1 & ,sunday 0 ! be/ day ( ! week to him despite its /rict obs]vance 9 t ,evangelical atmosph]e4 ,b nature is n easily defeat$4 ,he rode1 n[1 to meet ,edi?1 ) a virg9 /irr+ ( 8 pulses4 ,%e 0 we>+ a little fur cap t sat piquantly on h] br[n hair1 & 0 flu%$ & eag]4 ,h] slim figure1 neatly dress$ 9 a br[n clo? coat & skirt1 pleas$ him1 ) ! tan /ock+s & %oes bel[ at :i* he sc>cely d>$ to glance4 ,z !y spun along ! dry road toge!r1 "u ! autumnal trees ^: br[n twi/$ leaves flutt]$ to ! gr\nd ) e brea? t cross$ ! pale blue sky fleck$ ) little :ite cl\ds above1 %e seem$ to him a fitt+ "p ( ! beauty ( ! _w4 ,ne> ! woods1 ! sun caught ! slim trunks ( ! silv] bir*es 9 a sp9ney !re1 & _! silv] contra/$ exquisitely ) ! /ret* ( dy+ brack5 beyond4 ,a l>k cri$ ! ec/asy ( liv+ 9 ! untr\bl$ spaces ( light & air4 ,! road climb$ /eeply to ! woods1 & !y walk$ to ! summit1 he pu%+ h] ma*9e4 ,!y hesitat$ at ! leafy glade t invit$ to ! undulat+ hea!ry expanse ( ,hursley1 b ! arti/ 9 ,paul decid$ aga9/ ! temptation4 ,no1 he said1 don't let's g 9 !re4 ,ev]yone goes !re4 ,let's coa/ d[n to ,all+ton1 & turn to ! left4 ,i "k a lovely place up !re :]e !re w be no trace ( ,saturday aft]noon's visitors4 ,:at d y say8 ,%e %ot a look at him1 & made a grace ( submission4 ,j z y l1 %e said4 ,s !y m\nt$ on ! cre/ & 7 away d[n ! long hill toge!r4 ,oaks leant ov] ! road at fir/1 b beyond !m ! tall h$ges 7 lovely ) sc>let ,octob] hips & haws1 masses ( trail+ ,old ,man's ,be>d1 & sprays ( purple blackb]ries4 ,to ! "r ! fields /ret*$ away to a f> di/ant ridge sc>r$ ) *alk :]e "o might dig = fossils4 ,ahead clu/]$ ! old ro(s ( ,all+ton1 & ! little *ur* t /ood bel[ e/ates l9k$ = c5turies ) ,lambe? & ,cant]bury4 ,aft] ,lambe? ,c\rt1 ,all+ton ,*ur*1 cri$ ,paul gaily4 ,let's g 94 ,!y left _! bicycles at ! ly*-gate & walk$ into ! sil5t clean-swept place4 ,%e foll[$ him 9 sil5ce1 & m>vell$ inw>dly t he seem$ to "k s mu*4 ,t1 he said1 t[>ds ! end ( ! inspection1 is ! coat ( arms ( ,ar*bi%op ,:itgift4 ,he 0 a poor man's son & _h no armorial be>+s1 s he took a cross & ins]t$ five little ,maltese crosses = ! ,five ,w\nds ( ,*ri/1 qu>t]+ x ) ! arms ( ,cant]bury4 ,x's v lovely "h1 isn't x8 ,%e glanc$ dubi\sly at ! two c&les & ! cross on ! alt>4 ,x's r 'high1' don't y ?9k8 ,he look$ judicially at ! simple neat sanctu>y4 ,!re is no h>m 9 ! ?+s !mselves1 he said4 ,aft] all1 !y make = a sort ( beauty1 don't !y8 ,x's ! ,_s t matt]s4 ,:5 ,i'm orda9$1 ,i %all be will+ to prea* 9 a col\r$ /ole if ,i c prea* ! gospel4 ,! d>+ h]esy ( x secretly a/oni%$ h]4 ,b x 0 l ,paul1 %e ?\ght4 ,he /epp$ into a pew1 & mov$ up to make room = h]4 ,let u pray a little1 %all we8 he said simply4 ,%e knelt by 8 side1 h] he>t beat+ viol5tly4 ,9 ! hu% ( ! place1 x s\nd$ s l\d to h] t %e ?\ght he mu/ he>4 ,%e d>$ n look at him1 b %e knew :at he 0 do+4 ,kneel+ erect1 8 eyes w\ld be op51 see+ & yet n see+4 ,%e felt v humble to be all[$ to be !re4 ,t 9 itself 0 en\gh j n[4 ,%e wi%$ !y might be !re = ev] & ev]1 j !y two1 & ,god4 ,t5 m9utes lat]1 9 ! he>t ( ! des]t$ woods1 he flung himself on ! moss at h] feet4 ,i love to lie l ?is & look "r away into ! dep?s ( ! trees1 he said4 ,if y come alone & lie v /ill1 rabbits come out & squirrels1 & y beg9 to he> a hundr$ little noises t y nev] he>d be=e4 ,& ,i love ! t9y insects t crawl up ! blades ( grass & f9d a _w 9 a s+le tuft4 ,edi?1 h[ wond]fully beautiful ! _w is1 isn't x8 ,%e did n want to speak at all1 b he seem$ to expect x4 ,n ev]yone c see all t1 %e said4 ,b x is l y to feel x4 ,& :5 y talk1 ,i feel x too4 ,always1 :5 y talk1 y %[ me wond]ful ?+s4 ,d ,i8 he qu]i$ dreamily4 ,i don't mean to p>ticul>ly4 ,x's all s pla9 to me4 ,t's j x1 %e said4 ,9 a ?icket close at h&1 a ?ru% broke out into song4 ,8 praise end$1 he flew d[n to a s(t bit ( gr\nd & began busily to look = worms4 ,paul mov$ 8 head ev] s slightly1 & ! bird & ! boy look$ at ea* o!r4 ,! ?ru% ey$ him boldly1 summ$ him up ) a quick little pipe1 & flew away4 ,paul sigh$4 ,i almo/ wi% ,i 7 n go+ to ,cambridge1 he said4 ,:y8 %e ask$4 ,he rea*$ out = a brok5 /ick & began to play ) x4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 he said re/lessly4 ,p]haps because x's s good to be "h4 ,cambridge is a new _w4 ,i want to d great ?+s1 ( c\rse1 b x's leav+ ?+s t ,i c d beh9d4 ,suppose ,i fail8 ,i wi% ,i c\ld be orda9$ to-morr[ & g to ! ,mission ,hall to "w at once4 ,or no1 ,i'd l to g to ,africa at once4 ,d y rememb] t man :o came & spoke = ! ,s\? ,am]ican ,mission>y ,society8 ,yes4 ,well1 ,i c>ri$ 8 bag to ! /ation4 ,he _h plead$ = mission>ies1 & _h said t he _h be5 speak+ at meet+s = six mon?s up & d[n ! c\ntry1 ask+ = help1 & _h n _h a s+le volunte]4 ,he 0 ab\t to g back alone4 ,s1 on ! /ation1 ,i (f]$ to g4 ,i said he %\ld n say aga9 t he _h _h no (f] ( s]vice4 ,i 0 sixte54 ,:at did he say8 ,oh1 ! usual ?+s4 ,t ,i mu/ be tra9$ fir/4 ,i ask$ :at m 0 necess>y ?an t "o lov$ ,jesus1 & _h be5 sav$1 & want$ to s]ve4 ,yes8 ,well1 ,i ?\ght he half believ$ t ,i 0 "r4 ,b he didn't d>e say s1 l all ! re/ ( !m4 ,i mu/ wait ,god's "t1 he said4 ,god's "t6 ,he meant man's "t4 ,%e said no?+4 ,x's s h>d to wait1 he add$ re/lessly4 ,i'm glad y didn't g1 %e v5tur$4 ,:y8 ,_m ( u are1 %e equivocat$4 ,:y8 dem&$ ,paul aga91 look+ boldly at h]4 ,%e disda9$ fur!r subt]fuge4 ,y h made ,god real to me1 %e said1 & if y _h gone1 y w\ld h _h no opportunity to d t4 ,8 eyes %one4 ,i'm v glad1 he said s(tly4 ,w y pray = me1 ,edi?8 ,%e want$ to fl+ h]self d[n beside him1 to hide h] flu%$ face 9 8 coat1 to %$ ! te>s t w\ld /upidly />t beh9d h] eyes = no reason at all1 to tell him t %e h>dly d>$ to brea! 8 "n1 b t1 :5 %e pray$1 %e c\ld ?9k ( sc>cely anyone else2 b %e c\ld n4 ,e in/9ct 9 h] cri$ = him--religion1 sex1 passionate admiration4 ,b %e only cl5*$ "o little glov$ h& tightly & said t %e w\ld4 ,a daught] ( ,claxt$ c\ld h>dly d o!rwise4 ,! m9utes slipp$ by4 ,paul roll$ ov] on 8 back & took out 8 wat*4 ,my ^w1 he exclaim$1 we ought to be go+6 ,we %all be late z x is4 ,b :at a topp+ morn+ x has be54 ,come on4 ,& he jump$ to 8 feet4 ,%e got up sl[ly1 & he du/$ a few dry leaves f h] skirt4 ,/raight5+ himself1 he /ood look+ at h]4 ,i've kn[n y su* a little :ile1 he said4 ,i wond] :y8 ,d y "k me n[8 %e ask$4 ,mu* bett]4 ,:5 ,i come back1 %all we h m rides l ?is8 ,i don't "k1 %e said4 ,:at d y mean8 ,y may n want !m4 ,y\r "m might n l x4 ,& 7,eve w out1 ev5 9 an ,evangelical7 nor w ,miss ,erne/4 ,he flu%$4 ,i %all d z ,i please1 he said4 ,& ,i "k ,i %all want y4 ,%e lift$ h] d>k eyes to 8 face4 ,w y8 %e cri$4 ,oh ,i hope y d6 ,i c't help x4 ,x means s mu* to me4 ,ask me j sometimes1 ,paul4 ,w y write to me at ,cambridge8 he dem&$4 ,%e %ook h] head4 ,no1 %e said decid$ly1 n yet1 anyway4 ,i c't write good en\gh lett]s = "o ?+1 & = ano!r y mu/n't wa/e y\r "t on me4 ,paul /ood consid]+ h]4 ,he _h an idea1 b he 0 9 tru? r fright5$ ( x4 ,x seem$ to be go+ too f>4 ,b 8 desire won ! battle ) 8 caution4 ,w\ld y give me a photograph ( y\rself to take to ,cambridge8 he ask$4 ,i hav5't a good "o1 %e said4 ,b y've some?+--a snap%ot1 any?+1 he press$ eag]ly4 ,%e smil$ radiantly & sudd5ly4 ,i've a rubbi%y old ?+ !y took on ! riv] at ,hampton ,c\rt la/ ,augu/1 %e said1 b my hair 0 d[n !n4 ,t'll be lovely6 he cri$4 ,d give me t4 ,h[8 ,%all ,i s5d x y8 ,paul's lett]s 7 n _m1 & fairly common prop]ty at ! family breakfa/ table4 ,he s\ght = an escape f t4 ,w y be at ! pray] meet+ to-night8 he ask$4 ,yes1 %e said4 ,well1 s %all ,i4 ,9 fact1 ,i'm lead+ x4 ,write me a little lett] & give x me aft]w>ds1 w y8 ,%e nodd$4 ,nei!r ( !m 7 aw>e ( incongruity4 ,possibly !y 7 "r1 & !re 0 none4 7#d7 ,paul's b$room 0 a big attic at ! top ( ! ,vic>age1 runn+ ! :ole wid? ( ! h\se4 ,x 0 entirely *>act]i/ic ( him4 ,9 "o corn] 0 a l>ge home-made cage = a pair ( r+-doves1 ) a space 9 front = _! p]ambulations1 fitt$ ) conv5i5t p]*es4 ,"u ! w9d[ 0 :at _h be5 an aqu>ium1 b 0 n[1 aft] _m vicissitudes1 tempor>ily do+ duty z a viv>ium4 ,x 0 a ?ird full ( s& & pebbles & soil1 & conta9$ plants & a %all[ pool ( wat]1 con/itut+1 9 its own]'s imag9ation1 a section ( ,african =e/ = ?ree wat]-tortoises1 a family ( gre5 tree-frogs1 & "s half-develop$ tadpoles4 ,above a writ+-desk 0 a book%elf full ( *eap editions ( ! ,engli% classics1 pur*as$ l>gely ) prize money won by lit]>y ef=ts 9 8 s*ool magaz9e4 ,! books are wor? review+1 = 8 fa!r's well-/ock$ %elves ( ,evangelical !ology held none su*4 ,! great ,engli% poets 7 all !re1 ) ,c>lyle1 ,em]son1 ,lamb1 ,ma*iavelli1 ,locke1 ,macaulay1 & a fur!r miscellane\s ho/4 ,a small] book%elf held ,,mss4 books--?ree slim volumes ( 8 own v]se1 "o ( acro/ics suitable = *ildr5's addresses1 sev]al ( s]mon notes1 ano!r ( special hymns1 *oruses & tunes1 & two ( essays & %ort /ories :i* _h n se5 ! light 9 pr9t]'s ink4 ,paul w\ld h add$ z yet4 ,b\nd volumes ( 8 s*ool magaz9e %one respl5d5t 9 lea!r1 & 7 spr9kl$ int]iorly ) 8 v]se & prose4 ,!re 7 f5c+ /icks 9 a corn]1 & fram$ %oot+ & cadet gr\ps4 ,a cab9et conta9$ glass j>s & m$ic9e bottles ( *emicals1 & a mu*-priz$ retort /ood above x4 ,! mantelpiece 0 fairly full ) phials ( _s t _h a home !re1 & 9 :i* _h be5 pres]v$ an embryo dog-fi%1 a newt ) ?ree legs1 a small grass-snake1 a treasur$ scorpion 7! gift ( an ,african mission>y71 & ! l4 ,la/ly1 ov] ! b$ 0 a text4 ,t1 pr9cipally ( all ^! treasures1 0 to g ) its own] to ,cambridge4 ,paul t night sat on 8 little b$ & look$ ar\nd him4 ,! la/ m9utes ( ! eve ( ! great to-morr[ _h really come at la/4 ,he well rememb]$ ! h\rs 9 ?is room1 dur+ :i* ! ?+s t 7 n[ l>gely accompli%$ _h seem$ to him ov]:elm+ ob/acles 9 ! race4 ,! op5 s*ol>%ip1 ! s*ool exhibitions1 ! ,little ,g--all ^! 7 pa/4 ,!re /ret*$ ahead ! ,tripos & ! ,bi%op's ,exam9ations1 b 9 imag9ation ^! 7 less] difficulties ?an ^? already surm\nt$4 ,l9k$ ) !m 7 8 o!r ambitions1 8 writ+1 8 prea*+1 & a vi/a ( endless ye>s4 ,l a travell] :o has rea*$ a hill-top1 he view$ ! peaks ahead4 ,paul look$ d[n on ! lett] 9 8 h&4 ,! ill-=m$ sprawl+ h&writ+ address$ x to ,p4 ,ke/]n1 ,esq41 ) sev]al und]l9+s4 ,he turn$ x ov] curi\sly1 n 9 ! lea/ aw>e t ! amaz+ ?+ 0 t ?is %\ld be ! fir/ ( its k9d = him to h&le4 ,!n he broke ! envelope & drew out fir/ ! photograph4 ,x _h be5 badly & amateuri%ly snapp$ on a sunny day4 ,! %ad[s 7 "u-expos$1 ! lights f> too /rong4 ,x %[$ "p ( a punt moor$ b5ea? ! trees ( a riv] bank1 & "o girl :olly1 ano!r 9 "p1 :o lay /ret*$ out at ! f> end4 ,%e 9 "p1 he decid$1 0 ,maud4 ,edi? lay laugh+ unre/ra9$ly1 "o h& above h] head gripp+ an ov]hang+ bran*1 ! o!r trail+ 9 a black %ade t 0 und\bt$ly 7f ! context1 s to speak7 wat]4 ,a plait ( h] hair lay across h] %\ld]4 ,%e did n look p>ticul>ly pretty1 b %e did look jolly4 ,paul turn$ ! photograph ov]4 ,on ! back he read3 ,f ,a4 ,v4 ,! inscription j>r$ on him4 ,f ,alb]t ,v9tn]4 ,m5tally1 he c\ld see ,alb]t1 9 :ite flannels1 a coll>1 a made tie1 & br[n %oes1 tak+ x4 ,a ?or\ghly good fell[1 conv]t$1 e>ne/1 b---- ,yet he loa!d himself = t b4 ,he op5$ ! half-%eet ( pap] t _h enwrapp$ x4 ,he 0 di/9ctly curi\s to see :at %e w\ld say4 ,he did n guess = a mom5t h[ long %e _h tak5 to say x4 ,"h is ! snap 7%e _h writt51 )\t introduction74 ,i look a lanky ?+1 & did n "k t 7'he' eras$7 x 0 be+ tak5 j !n4 ,d y rememb] t y _h gone on up ! riv]1 r[+ y\r fa!r & "m & ,mr4 & ,miss ,erne/8 ,i did s wi% ,i _h be5 9 y\r boat6 ,& at tea y pret5d$ ,i 0 n to h a cream bun6 ,b x 0 a jolly day1 wasn't x8 & if ! photo helps y to rememb] t & ?9k k9dly at ,cambridge ( all ( u at ,claxt$1 ,i am glad = y to h x4 ,y\rs s9c]ely1 ,,edi?4 ,paul smil$4 ,!n he fr[n$4 ,he re-read ! lett] sev]al times & look$ aga9 at ! photograph4 ,!n he fold$ ! "o 9 ! o!r1 & plac$ !m 9 ! inn] recess ( a new pocket-book4 ,!n he rea*$ = a ,bible f :i* to read 8 ev5+ ,scripture ,union portion4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,cambridge ,we no soon] get into ! second ,*amb]1 :i* ,i %all call ! ,*amb] ( ,maid5-,?\ght1 ?an we become intoxicat$ ) ! light & ! atmosph]e2 we see no?+ b pleasant wond]s1 & ?9k ( delay+ !re = ev] 9 delight4 ,h[ev] 444 ?is ,*amb] ( ,maid5-,?\ght becomes gradually d>k5$1 & at ! same "t1 on all sides ( x1 _m doors are set op5--b all d>k--all lead+ to d>k passages4 ,we see n ! balance ( good & evil--we are 9 a mi/--we feel ! burd5 ( ! ,my/]y 444--,,keats3 ,lett]s1 ,may1 #ahah4 ,i ask$ = ,tru?-- ,my d\bts came 9 ,& ) _! d9 ,!y we>i$ all my y\?4 ,d4 ,m4 ,,dolb53 ,reque/s4 ,8 ,"n w flee1 ! :ile ?\ m\lde/ ?y lips = spee*4--,,jellalud94 7#a7 ,yes1 sir2 ?is is ! g5tleman's keep9' room1 sir4 ,a bit small1 b cosy & 'omelike1 z ,i allus told pore ,mr4 ,bruce wot 0 haccid5tal %ot 9 ,scotl& la/ ,haugu/4 ,i keeps my bit o' brooms & clean9' ?+s 9 t cupbo>d1 sir--b$d]'s room !y calls x1 ?\gh x a9't mu* ( a room4 ,?r\gh t !re door is ! b$room1 & t might be bigg]1 t's s>t9 sure4 ,b ,i don't "k z 'ow x mu* matt]s to ! "y g5tlem51 sir4 ,if s be !y c lay d[n 9 x1 & 'z room = a *e/ o' draw]s & a ba? on ! floor1 t's ab\t all has !y want4 ,b y'll ne$ to take a bit o' c>e 9 ! ba?1 sir1 if ,i may make bold to say s4 ,mr4 ,bruce1 'e fair soak 'is blankets n[ an' ag94 ,ah1 t c\* n[1 sir6 ,spr+s be brok51 ,i w say4 ,b !n1 lor1 sir1 h[ ! "y g5tlem5 bangs on 'em6 ,!y w 'ave _! bit o' fun1 sir1 same z :at y did 9 y\r day1 ,i d>esay4 ,/ill x's a b9 l t = ye>s1 an' p'rhaps a new "o w\ld be a good ?+4 ,exp5sive8 ,ah yes1 sir4 ,?+s 8 de>4 ,let x /& ov] a bit1 s to say4 ,p'rhaps 9 'is second ye>1 ) 'is fri5ds an' all a-com+ hup1 x might be done4 ,t all1 sir8 ,?ank y1 sir1 ?ank y k9dly4 ,mr4 ,mavis is 'is gyp1 sir1 an' 'e'll be ab\t soon ,i d>esay1 ?\gh 'e's none too fond ( "w1 is ,mavis4 ',e'll tell y all y wants to "k1 sir4 ,good aft]noon1 sir4 ,mrs4 ,rov] dep>t$1 & %ut ! door beh9d h]4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n smil$4 ,%e's a talk]1 ,paul1 he said1 b a good sort1 ,i d>esay4 ,! race ( b$d]s doesn't seem to h *ang$ s9ce ,i 0 up4 ,well1 :at d y ?9k ( x8 ,paul glanc$ r\nd aga9 ) %9+ eyes4 ,! little attic room 0 practically squ>e4 ,on ! left z y ent]$1 two high w9d[s 9 ! ?ick anci5t wall1 ea* all[+ y to sit !re & gaze ?r\gh its m$ival ap]ture1 look$ out ov] a n>r[ college g>d5 to ! riv]4 ,s9ce ?is /aircase 0 only ! second f ! ma9 entrance 9 ! ,fir/ ,c\rt1 ! room's occupant _h a view z well d[n ! n>r[ old-_w /reet :i* cross$ ! riv] "h by a bridge & twi/$ away pa/ ov]hang+ anci5t h\ses4 ,9 ! ne> di/ance rose ! spire ( ,/4 ,lawr5ce's ,*ur*4 ,*e/nuts1 b>e n[1 gu>d$ ! riv]-front1 & trail$ _! l[] b\ghs 9 ! leaf-/rewn /ream4 ,betwe5 ! w9d[s 0 a fireplace ) a bamboo ov]mantel4 ,opposite1 ! "r wall met a slop+ ro( :i* j all[$ a bookcase to /& b5ea? x & 0 pi]c$ by two m w9d[s :i*1 h[ev]1 look$ out on to ! inn] battlem5t$ wall ( ! ,fir/ ,c\rt1 & p]mitt$ no m ?an a glimpse ( ,/4 ,m>y 9 h] turret ov] ! *apel on ! f>!r side4 ,! little room itself 0 b>e save = a squ>e table 9 its c5tre2 a c\*1 q obvi\sly mu* ! worse = we>1 aga9/ ! wall imm$iately opposite ! door2 & a c\ple ( *airs4 ,a fad$ r$ pap] cov]$ ! walls4 ,a /ill m fad$ r$ c>pet lay on ! floor4 ,yet ,paul saw 8 own room1 ! goal ( ye>s ( "w2 he saw 9 imag9ation 8 little desk already 9 a corn]1 8 books on ! %elves1 himself 9 an arm-*air be=e a fire ) leisure to read1 to write1 to ?9k4 ,& he saw some?+ else too1 :i* might imm$iately mat]ialise4 ,x's spl5did1 dad--j :at ,i want$4 ,i'm glad to be high up2 ! view's s good4 ,b ,i'll d "o ?+ "r away1 fir/ ( all4 ,sit d[n = a m9ute1 w y8 ,he plac$ on ! table a br[n pap] p>cel he _h be5 c>ry+ b5ea? 8 arm1 & hurri$ly tore (f ! wrapp+4 ,a fram$ text reveal$ itself4 ,!n1 m\nt+ prec>i\sly on ! c\*1 he s\ght & f\nd a nail f :i* ! la/ occupant _h hung "s picture1 & !re he hung 8 *all5ge1 "r 9 ! c5tre ( ! wall1 exactly opposite ! door1 plac$ 9 su* wise t no "o c\ld ent] )\t see+ ! words4 ,he /epp$ (f & survey$ ! effect4 ,a t\* made ! frame f9ally level4 ,_! capital lett] entw9$ ) spray+ daffodils1 ! multi-col\r$ words proclaim$ pla9ly an insi/5t & dogmatic leg5d3 ,"o is y\r ,ma/]1 ev5 ,*ri/4 ,t takes possession1 dad1 someh[4 ,& ev]yone w "k at once ,^: ,i am & ,:om ,i s]ve4 ,! %ort eld]ly k9dly cl]gyman nodd$ pr\dly1 b ) a little mi/ be=e 8 eyes4 ,ay1 ay1 ,paul laddie1 he said1 ,i'm glad y ?\ght ( t4 ,b x's easy to hang a text1 ,paul2 x's h>d] to live up to x4 ,let u ask ! help ( ! ,ma/]1 my son1 "h & n[1 at ! beg9n+ ( y\r college life4 ,s ! two knelt1 ) ! simplicity ( *ildr54 ,outside1 li/5+ at ! door1 ,mrs4 ,rov] he>d1 & express$ h]self /rongly !reaft] to ,mr4 ,mavis4 ,left hattic is "o o' ! pi\s sort1 ,mavis1 %e said4 ,put a text hup1 'e 'z4 ,ought t] be a s(t job = y4 ,b ,mavis 0 9 8 own way a philosoph]1 & an obs]v] ( life4 ,is 'e8 he qu]i$4 ,well1 ,i'm glad to he> x4 ,may 'e /ay s4 ,b ,i dunno2 ,i've se5 a few o' !m pi\s ones1 & !y (t5 turns out m mis*iev\s ?an ! o!r "y devils4 ,seems t] me we ought'er 'ave put new screws 9 !m w9d] b>s4 ,arm 9 arm1 fa!r & son w5t out to d "s %opp+4 ,paul1 us$ to h>d economy1 0 highly pleas$ ) 8 fa!r's g5]osity4 ,crock]y m>k$ ) ! arms ( ,/4 ,m>y's 0 an unexpect$ joy2 two arm-*airs1 & only "o ( !m second-h&2 a few groc]ies1 cakes & biscuits2 two fram$ pr9ts ( ,l&se]'s dogs1 to bright5 ?+s up1 z 8 fa!r said2 ev5 a toa/+-=k1 a lamp1 a side-table1 a tableclo?--all ^!1 & a he>?rug1 & ! room seem$ furni%$4 ,he unpack$ a box1 & grac$ 8 mantel-%elf ) photographs1 a pres5tation clock f ! *ildr5 ( ! ,mission ,hall1 & a c\ple ( anci5t c&le/icks1 9 ! =m ( metal /orks uphold+ holl[$ bulru%es1 f 8 b$room at home4 ,!n x 0 "t = 8 fa!r to return1 & ! boy saw him to ! /ation4 ,paul w&]$ back 9 ! dusk3 8 h&s 9 8 pockets turn+ a f9al gift ( a new sov]eign1 8 m9d on fire4 ,he pe]$ curi\sly 9 at ! gateways ( unkn[n colleges1 exam9$ ! gay %ops1 l+]$ ov] ! bookcases ( ! num]\s booksell]s4 ,a bell 0 r++ 9 ,/4 ,lawr5ce's /eeple z he pass$1 & he /epp$ = a m9ute into ! *ur*4 ,x 0 a d>k gloomy place1 b a c\ple ( light$ c&les on ! alt> %[$ him a crucifix & six m tall lights beh9d4 ,he came out quickly1 consci\s ( a little flu% ( ang]4 ,p ( t sort 7 betray+ ! ,fai?4 ,he m\nt$ ! two flights ( wood5 /airs light-he>t$ly h[ev]1 & ent]$ 8 own room4 ,mrs4 ,rov] _h k9dl$ a fire1 & its ruddy gl[ welcom$ him4 ,!n he saw t !re 0 a man /&+ by ! fireplace4 ,he paus$1 a little bewild]$4 ,oh1 ,i say1 said ! o!r breezily1 ,i'm glad y've come 94 ,i ?\ght ,i'd wait a few m9utes4 ,!re's nobody up yet y "k1 except a few ( u fre%]s4 ,i he>d ab\t y f ! ,dean1 & ,i ?\ght ,i'd call at once4 ,my "n's ,donaldson4 ,y're go+ to be a p>son1 ar5't y8 ,& s am ,i4 ,h[ d y d8 ,he held out 8 h&4 ,paul w>m$ to ! *e]y greet+4 ,topp+ ( y to call1 he said4 ,my "n's ,ke/]n4 ,!n he rememb]$ x 0 on ! door1 & he felt a fool4 ,yes4 ,are y busy8 ,my ?+s hav5't all come yet1 & y\r room's a damn$ sight m *e]ful ?an m9e4 ,d sit d[n1 said ,paul4 ,take ! new arm*air4 ,y're ! fir/ p]son to sit 9 x4 ,!y call 'em pews "h1 rejo9$ ! o!r1 s9k+ into ! seat4 ,he _h a pipe 9 8 h&1 :i* he lit4 ,y smoke8 he qu]i$4 ,no1 said ,paul4 ,well1 ,i d4 ,always h4 ,i c't read )\t x4 ,i mean to r[ if ,i c1 & ,i don't "k h[ ,i'll get on :5 we tra94 ,:at are y go+ to d8 ,i'm n sure1 said ,paul cauti\sly1 n sure ei!r :at ! o!r really meant4 ,well1 r[ !n4 ,! boat capta9's up already4 ,i saw him aft] lun*4 ,i'll tell him y want to tub1 %all ,i8 ,x'll be sport+ if we get 9 a boat toge!r4 ,yes1 said ,paul1 k9dl+ at ! pr(f]$ fri5d%ip4 ,sitt+ opposite across ! fire1 ,paul took /ock ( 8 companion :o did ! major "p ( ! talk+4 ,donaldson 0 a busy p]sonage & an unfamili> type to ,paul4 ,x soon appe>$ t he held a mission>y burs>%ip f a society :i* ,paul call$ high *ur*2 t he 0 n1 h[ev]1 at all ke5 on a mission>y vocation2 t ! fact t he 0 to be a prie/ 7z he put x7 did n proscribe 8 pleasures to any great ext5t2 & t he 0 v sure ( himself4 ,mu* ( 8 conv]sation 0 un9telligible to ,paul1 b he 0 fri5dly1 & ! boy 0 m lonely ?an he knew4 ,!y w5t d[n to ,hall toge!r seem+ly ! be/ ( fri5ds1 b ,paul 0 already aw>e t he 0 wad+ 9 unfamili> wat]s4 ,8 fir/ ,hall 0 responsible = a s]ies ( indelible impressions4 ,! lovely old room1 lit only by c&les 9 great silv] sconces1 ) its sombre portraits1 its /one-flagg$ floor1 its ar*+ ro(1 made him unutt]ably pr\d4 ,! few %y fre%]s 9 an oasis ( light1 emphasis$ ! dignity ( ! place4 ,?is 0 8 ,hall4 ,a solit>y fell[ at ! high table read a ,lat9 grace 9 :i* ,paul und]/ood only ! ,sacr$ ,"n1 & t 0 repeat$ ) :at /ruck him z a famili>ity1 an indiff]5ce1 to :i* he 0 :olly a /rang]4 ,accu/om$ to ! simple/ meals1 ! d9n] 7r unusually good at ,/4 ,m>y's71 & ! _m wait]s seem$ gr& to him4 ,! comp>ative ease ( 8 companions1 :o nev]!less1 be+ all fre%]s1 ey$ ea* o!r curi\sly1 made him self-consci\s to a degree1 & ,donaldson1 m at 8 ease ?an anyone1 seem$ 9 8 eyes to be bold & d>+4 ,next him1 on ! o!r side1 sat a quiet man sombrely dress$1 :o1 he ga!r$1 _h be5 a day-boy l himself at a less] public s*ool1 & :o introduc$ himself z ,/re!r4 ,he kept 9 ! ,second ,c\rt4 ,! ?ree came out toge!r1 & ,/re!r ask$ !m up to 8 rooms = c(fee4 ,! clock 9 ! ,elizabe?an gable above ! ,hall 0 /rik+ elev5 z he & ,donaldson1 ! ritual ( t fir/ c(fee end$1 came out into ! />light4 ,bel[1 9 ! ,fir/ ,c\rt1 !y /ood a mom5t to say good-night4 ,lights gleam$ 9 a few w9d[s & a s(t radiance ( moon%9e fell on ! armorial be>+s 9 ! great oriel ( ! ,hall4 ,! few /reet noises seem$ v remote4 ,!re 0 an air ( seclusion1 ( peace1 ab\t ! place1 & ,paul drew 9 ! night air ) great brea?s4 ,h[ unutt]ably lovely x all is6 he exclaim$4 ,! o!r glanc$ r\nd c>elessly4 ,yes1 he said1 ,i say1 t fell[ ,/re!r wants tak+ 9 h&4 ,oh8 qu]i$ ,paul dubi\sly4 ,good ,god1 yes4 ,did y ev] see su* boots8 ,& 8 bags6 ,b he's got "s money1 ,i %\ld say4 ,/ill1 "o c't be se5 ) him till he gets some?+ dec5t to we>4 ,i lik$ him1 said ,paul %ortly4 ,oh s did ,i4 ,b look "h1 let's p9* 8 boots & make him buy "s dec5t brogues4 ,paul 0 tickl$4 ,all "r1 he said1 laugh+4 ,b h[8 ,easily en\gh4 ,wait till he's out4 ,come to brekk] to-morr[1 & arrange a plan ( campaign4 ,:at "t8 ,any "t y l4 ,say n9e4 ,!re's no *apel & no lekk]s yet4 ,w t d8 ,"r-o1 said ,paul4 ,good-night4 ,good-night4 ,doesn't matt] if y're a bit late4 ,9 8 room1 ,paul lit a c&le4 ,!n he climb$ into "o ( 8 w9d[-seats & />$ out at ! moonlit1 sl[-mov+ riv]1 ! b>e *e/nuts1 ! empty /reet4 ,h[ too lovely1 he :isp]$ to himself aga91 & sat long ere he got d[n to g to 8 little b$room4 ,z he did s1 ! flick]+ c&lelight %[$ him 8 multi-col\r$ text ) its :ite backgr\nd4 ,! words />$ at him sil5tly1 & he repeat$ !m to himself ) some?+ already ( ! air ( a /rang]4 7#b7 ,paul acclimatis$ ) a/oni%+ rapidity4 ,)9 a =tnight 8 squ>e 0 glori\sly ba%$1 no "o ?und]$ m boi/]\sly up & d[n ! /airs1 & few /roll$ into ,hall ) m non*alance4 ,he tubb$ daily & promis+ly4 ,he 0 poor1 b he 0 le>n+ to make 8 own porridge & fry 8 own breakfa/ eggs & bacon )\t an apology to ,mrs4 ,rov]4 ,donaldson & ,/re!r 79 brogues n[7 _h tak5 to =ega!r+ 9 8 rooms z a regul> ?+4 ,he 0 kn[n at l>ge to be pi1 b among ! fre%]s he 0 %ap+ = a place :i* w\ld disc\nt t to "s ext5t4 ,a few lit]>y m5 ( 8 own ye> _h already he>d "s ( 8 v]ses & read a %ort /ory or two1 & ! ?ree fri5ds _h begun to conceive ( ,! ,lit]>y ,l\nge1 a free & easy club :i* 0 to ga!r f "t to "t = ! enc\ragem5t ( amateur tal5t4 ,cambridge 0 m\ld+ him f> m spe$ily ?an ev5 ,edi? _h expect$4 ,! ,*apel _h be5 an un=gettable exp]i5ce4 ,8 fir/ ,sunday1 at ! e>ly s]vice1 ,paul saw a vision ( beauty :i* he _h nev] associat$ ) religion be=e4 ,! small clean ,go?ic sanctu>y1 ) its old oak /alls1 its f\rte5?-c5tury *alice1 its air ( age & quiet1 0 a new ?+ to him4 ,! ,dean1 ) 8 flam+ sc>let hood1 took up ! ,ea/w>d position x is true2 b 8 read+ 0 s s*ol>ly1 8 r5d]+ ( ! s]vice s res]v$1 t ,paul knew t "h 0 an atmosph]e :i*1 if utt]ly famili> to mo/ ( ! m51 0 completely =eign to himself4 ,f]v\r1 l\d congregational s++1 int5se pietism1 all _h gone2 b 9 _! /ead _h come a sob] solemn figure ( au/]e beauty :o 0 a new int]pret] 9 religion to him4 ,! *ange entranc$ ev5 :ile x repell$ him4 ,rob$ 9 8 :ite surplice 9 8 /all1 he 0 aw>e ( a hi/oric pa/ :i* _h sc>cely conc]n$ him religi\sly h]et(ore1 & he 0 aw$ into rev]5ce4 ,back 9 8 own room1 x is true he 0 *iefly consci\s ( a lack some:]e1 a lack :i*1 h[ev]1 0 made up to him by ! ,cambridge ,int]collegiate ,*ri/ian ,union ) its pray] meet+s & its ev5+ s]mon to fir/ ye> m5 9 ,/4 ,savi\r's ,*ur*4 ,b ev5 ^! /ruck a new note4 ,!re 0 an emphasis on ! intellectual side ( belief4 ,t _h be5 all b entirely abs5t 9 ,claxt$4 ,8 gr[+ fri5d%ip ) ,mann+ emphasis$ all ?is4 ,mann+ 0 a second ye> man :o _h r[$ 9 8 fir/ ye> ,l5ts & ,mays1 & 0 n[ coa*+ ! new fre%]s4 ,paul _h tubb$ late "o ev5+1 & he & ,mann+ _h left ! boa?\se toge!r4 ,!y bicycl$ back 9 company1 & 9 ! por* ( ! college1 ! great man invit$ ,paul 9 to tea4 ,he w\ld sc>cely h d>$ to refuse4 ,! o!r _h gr\nd-floor rooms1 mu* f9] & bigg] ?an ,paul's4 ,!y _h be5 r$ecorat$2 a baby gr& /ood 9 "o corn]2 a revolv+ bookcase by ! fire held a t]ra-cotta ,w+$ ,victory2 two or ?ree gilt-fram$ pictures grac$ ! :ite-pap]$ walls4 ,take a pew1 said ,mann+ c>elessly1 & %\t$ at ! door = ! kit*5s4 ,he ord]$ oils & cakes lavi%ly1 & :5 ! butt]$ buns _h duly arriv$ & tea 0 well =w>d1 ,paul v5tur$ a ^w ( praise4 ,:at topp+ rooms y h1 he said4 ,yes4 ,!y are r jolly1 ar5't !y8 ,t's a g5u9e ,corot ov] !re :i* ,i bamboozl$ ! gov]nor into lett+ me br+ up4 ,are y fond ( art8 ,v1 said ,paul1 b ,i "k s little ab\t x4 ,lit]ature's m 9 my l9e4 ,i'm awfully ke54 ,i say1 ,i wond] if y'd come to ',! ,lit]>y ,l\nge' "o night8 ,! o!r smil$4 ,t's ! new fre%]s' ef=t1 isn't x8 ,/ill1 ,i don't m9d4 ,:at night8 ,paul 0 hugely delight$1 & began to exp&4 ,i'd love to "k :at y ?9k ( "s ( my ?+s1 he said4 ,y %\ld %[ !m to ,tressor4 ,he'd help y4 ,great ,scott6 exclaim$ ,paul1 ,i %\ldn't d>e4 ,:y n8 ,n t ,i ?9k mu* ( ,tressor's /uff myself4 ,( c\rse he c write rattl9' ,engli%1 & x all fl[s placidly en\gh1 b !re's no?+ mu* 9 x4 ,x's extraord9>y :at ! public w read4 ,he has huge sales4 ,i "k him q a lot y "k4 ,knew him at ,w9*e/]4 ,he reads my essays1 ( c\rse1 said ,paul1 b ,i nev] ?\ght to %[ a don my v]se1 let alone a fell[ ) a reputation l ,tressor's4 ,well1 he's ! man to help y obvi\sly4 ,& he w\ld too4 ,he's a jolly dec5t sort is ,tressor4 ,i sp5t a week la/ vac4 at 8 place4 ,he's got "s ripp9' /uff4 ,has he8 said ,paul1 eye+ ) a/oni%$ awe ! man :o _h /ay$ ) a =emo/ lit]>y lion & actually d>$ to criticise him4 ,yes1 jolly f9e4 ,& x's a lovely old h\se & gr\nds1 "u ! ,s\? ,d[ns4 ,i read q a lot !re1 & we _h "s topp9' motor+ & a little r\gh %oot+4 ,he keeps a good cell>1 too1 :i* is some?+ ^! days4 ,by ! way1 h y tri$ ! college port8 ,no1 said ,paul %ortly4 ,he wond]$ if he ought to say t he 0 a teetotal] = life4 ,well1 y %\ld4 ,x's damn$ good4 ,h a cig>ette4 ,i don't smoke1 said ,paul4 ,wise man1 said ! o!r4 ,by ! way1 !re's a company br++ up ,! ,mikado & ,! ,gondoli]s ?is t]m1 a good cr[d1 ,i ?9k4 ,i "k a girl 9 x4 ,gilb]t & ,sullivan's /uff's great1 ,i ?9k4 ,don't y8 ,i'm afraid ,i hav5't se5 any1 said ,paul1 :o _h nev] be5 to a !atre 9 8 life4 ,he began to wi% he _h got out ( com+ to tea1 b he ne$ n h done s1 = ! o!r seem$ curi\sly unsurpris$4 ,hav5't y8 ,!n y've a treat 9 /ore = y1 he said4 ,& he plung$ into gossip 9 :i* ,paul he>d great names b&i$ ab\t--,ibs51 ,b]n>d ,%aw1 ,galswor?y--almo/ = ! fir/ "t 9 conv]sation4 ,he said ,yes & ,no at int]vals2 & if he _h no contribution ( 8 own to make1 he 0 at lea/ v obvi\sly int]e/$4 ,mann+ 0 attract$ by ! boy4 ,he told ,tressor1 lat]1 t ,ke/]n knew no?+ & _h be5 n[h]e1 b t he _h possibilities & 0 at any rate n consci\sly a prig4 ,z = ,paul1 !re op5$ be=e him a new heav5 & a new e>?4 ,:5 he _h dep>t$1 c>ry+ volumes ( ! ,plays ,pleasant & ,unpleasant1 he f\nd x h>d to settle d[n to 8 books4 ,9 half an h\r1 he 01 inde$1 repoli%+ "s v]ses entitl$ ,! ,backs 9 ,autumn ) a view to gett+ ,mann+ to read a fair copy4 ,at lun* next day1 !re came a knock on 8 door4 ,come 91 he call$1 expect+ ! arrival ( ,donaldson to fet* him = ! riv]4 ,! door op5$1 & a /rang] ent]$4 ,ke/]n8 he said enquir+ly1 /&+ 9 ! doorway4 ,h[ d y d4 ,i mu/ introduce myself--,i'm ,h>tley ( ,jesus4 ,possibly y may "k my "n z ,i'm on ! ,committee ( ! ,c4,i4,c4,c4,u4 ,i meant to call be=e1 = ,i he>d y 7 up at ,/4 ,m>y's & y ought to be a great /r5g? to u4 ,paul got eag]ly to 8 feet4 ,d come 91 he said4 ,h y _h lun*8 ,oh well1 d h "s4 ,x's only a scrat* affair1 b !re's en\gh to g r\nd4 7,he burr[$ 9 ! cupbo>d = plates & a knife47 ,i'm tubb+ e>ly1 s ,i h to hurry4 ,awfully good ( y to call4 ,( c\rse ,i've he>d ( y4 ,! o!r took a seat at ! table4 ,he _h frank ke5 eyes & paus$ a second = grace4 ,paul 0 sudd5ly aw>e t he himself _h said none4 ,he pu%$ ! *eese t[>ds 8 gue/ & began to cut bread4 ,i'm glad y're up "h1 said ,h>tley4 ,we hav5't a college secret>y 9 ,/4 ,m>y's & ,i hope y'll take x on4 ,!n ,i've be5 wond]+ if y'd help me ) some?+ on ,sunday4 ,i run a *ildr5's s]vice at ,/4 ,savi\r's s*ools 9 ! morn+s1 & ,i'd be awfully grateful if y'd l5d me a h&4 ,! ,committee want to put y\r "n d[n too = ! op5-airs on ,p>k]'s ,piece4 ,!y hold "o !re e ,sunday night1 y "k4 ,paul smil$ w>mly4 ,! atmosph]e ( ,claxt$ _h come 9 ) ! visitor4 ,i'll be delight$ to help1 he said1 b y've outl9$ a pretty tall programme = ! fir/ five m9utes4 ,oh no1 said ,h>tley4 ,y're us$ to all t k9d ( ?+1 ,i "k4 ,h[ did y come to he> ( my be+ up8 qu]i$ ,paul4 ,i 0 on a ,*ildr5's ,seaside ,mission at ,ea/b\rne la/ ,augu/1 & met ,mr4 ,erne/4 ,he told me y 7 com+ up4 ,miss ,erne/ play$ = u sometimes4 ,%e sang y\r praises sky-high4 ,paul blu%$1 b x 0 v pleasant to he> ( ! home folk ?is way4 ,!y 7 deep 9 talk :5 a clam\r ( asc5d+ feet s\nd$ on ! /airs & ,donaldson 0 he>d )\t %\t+ breezily3 ,ke/]n6 ,ke/]n6 ,f\r1 y're late6 ,damn x all1 sir 7bur/+ op5 ! door71 y're late aga94 ,oh--,i beg y\r p>don4 ,may ,i introduce y8 said ,paul4 ,mr4 ,h>tley ( ,jesus1 ,mr4 ,donaldson ( ?is college4 ,h[ d y d8 said ,donaldson1 smil+ *>act]i/ically4 ,awfully sorry4 ,didn't "k anyone 0 "h4 ,oh1 t's all "r1 repli$ ,h>tley4 ,i 0 j go+4 ,y are bo? tubb+1 are y8 ,well1 ,ke/]n1 ,sunday at elev51 eh8 ,w y give ! address8 ,"r1 said ,paul4 ,t5 m9utes8 ,yes--n long]4 ,*e]io4 ,good luck on ! riv]4 ,& he w5t out4 ,:o's t8 dem&$ ,donaldson4 ,pal ( y\rs8 ,he looks a bit ( an ass to me4 ,paul expla9$1 rea*+ = 8 cap & /ick4 ,go%6 ,s y're prea*+ on ,sunday1 are y8 ,he won't get me1 anyway4 ,don't suppose he'll ask y1 said ,paul4 ,:]e's ,gus ,/re!r8 ,gussie8 ,wait+ bel[1 ,i expect4 ,he 0 ord]+ tea = ?ree at ! kit*5s :5 ,i came up4 ,well1 let's g4 ,we hav5't mu* "t if we're walk+ d[n toge!r4 ,! ?ree fri5ds =ega!r$ 9 ! ,c\rt1 ,donaldson *aff+ ,/re!r :om he _h *ri/5$ ,gus by way ( a comical allusion to ! o!r's v und&ifi$ dress4 ,he himself wore socks & ties t proclaim$ !mselves1 a ,norfolk jacket ( a light twe$ & a fancy wai/coat4 ,z !y w5t1 ,paul 0 a little sil5t4 ,he 0 wond]+ :e!r he lik$ ,donaldson4 ,& if s1 :y8 ,he 0 aw>e t ! meet+ ) ,h>tley _h be5 significant1 t ! two w\ld nev] get on toge!r1 t he 0 propos+ to get on ) bo?4 ,x 0 puzzl+4444 ,by ,jesus ,bridge !y *anc$ to meet a girl4 ,donaldson smil$ at h]1 aft] ! mann] ( 8 k9d1 & %e smil$ back at him aft] ! mann] ( h]s4 ,/re!r snort$ aft] a fa%ion ( 8 own4 ,donaldson took up 8 p>able4 ,i say1 ,ke/]n1 did y see t8 ,gus1 t girl made eyes at y4 ,yes1 by ,jove1 %e's look+ back at y4 ,oh ,i say1 ,gussie1 ?is won't d1 my boy6 ,x's ^? new brogues ( y\rs4 ,i've se5 h] along "h be=e1 & ,i bet %e's on ! look\t = y4 ,"h1 y ar5't tubb+2 g & pick h] up1 & tell u all ab\t x at tea4 ,/re!r snort$ aga94 ,opprobri\s conduct1 he mutt]$ /ormily4 ,donaldson ro>$ ) laught] & ,paul c\ld n help smil+4 ,/re!r lov$ long words1 & x 0 *>act]i/ic ( him t he made odd noises4 ,he retort$ n[1 fi]cely4 ,don't bray l an ass1 he said4 ,d y want all ! /reet to he> y8 ,gus1 y'll be ! dea? ( me6 ,opprobri\s conduct6 ,b did y see h] ankles--pretty little ankles & a neat little wai/4 ,i mu/ say y've got q good ta/e4 ,"s hussy ( a %op-girl1 gr[l$ ! o!r4 ,disgu/+1 ,i call x4 ,:y c't y leave females alone8 ,paul *uckl$ aga94 ,come on y two1 he said4 ,let him alone1 ,donaldson4 ,we've /ill to *ange1 & x's pa/ two n[4 ,next day ! intrigue s lightly begun develop$4 ,mann+ _h cons5t$ to tea ) ,paul1 & ,donaldson1 :o 0 !re1 told him ! /ory ) c]ta9 em5dations natural to him4 ,mann+ 0 highly amus$4 ,write ,/re!r a lett]1 he sugge/$1 pret5d+ t x comes f ! girl & ask+ him to meet h] on ,jesus ,bridge "s night4 ,v likely he'll bite out ( %e] funk ( :at %e might d if he does n4 ,y c g & wat*4 ,he'll walk up & d[n snort+4 ,x'd be r a joke4 ,by ,jove1 we w1 cri$ ,donaldson4 ,x'll be no end ( a rag4 ,b look "h1 he kn[s our h&writ+4 ,w y write x8 ,yes1 if y l4 ,give me "s pap]1 ,ke/]n4 ,paul got up = ! mat]ials ) "s reluctance4 ,b ,i l old ,/re!r1 he object$4 ,he may be an ass1 b he's a good sort4 ,x mu/n't g fur!r4 ,! m ! m]ri]1 said ,donaldson4 ,don't spoil sport4 ,paul %ook 8 head1 hesitat+4 ,b ,mann+ support$ him4 ,y're "r1 ,ke/]n1 he said4 ,we'll keep ! joke to ourselves4 ,y ?ree are pretty ?ick1 & x w\ld be l[ d[n to split on a pal4 ,s ! lett] 0 writt5 & po/$1 & ,paul 0 at breakfa/ next morn+ :5 ,/re!r came 9 ) x4 ,he flung himself into an arm-*air & toss$ ! note on ! table4 ,:o wrote t8 he dem&$ savagely1 8 limbs sprawl+ all ov] ! place4 ,paul1 feign+ surprise1 op5$ x4 ',elsie ,dawson1' he read1 z "o bewild]$4 ,great ,scott1 ,gussie1 ,i %\ldn't h ?\ght y'd h _h a correspond5ce ) girls6 ,:y1 %e's ! girl we met ye/]day6 ,good ,"l--',w y meet me to-night at #i4cj on ,jesus ,bridge8' ,:at are y go+ to d8 ,my aunt1 fancy h] hav+ ! *eek6 ,/re!r kick$ out at a foot/ool4 ,i don't "k ! girl1 he exclaim$ bitt]ly4 ,= ! life ( him1 ,paul c\ldn't help play+ up to ! game n[ t ! victim _h ris5 s well4 ,he got up & w5t ov] to ! fire4 ,b look "h1 he said s]i\sly1 %e's se5 y & %e's pla9ly aft] y4 ,well1 hang x all1 man1 we don't want h] sort hang+ ab\t :5ev] we g d[n to ! riv]4 ,y'd bett] meet h] once & *oke h] (f4 ,take ,donaldson ) y2 he'll take h] (f y\r h&s4 ,/re!r gr[l$1 mutt]$1 & kick$ out at ! foot/ool aga91 ! :ile ,paul1 int5sely amus$ b outw>dly s]i\s1 ga!r$ at la/ t he 0 curs+ ,donaldson1 decl9+ to tell t wor?y a ?+ ab\t ! lett]1 & dem&+ h[ ! girl c\ld h le>nt 8 "n4 ,%e ov]he>d ,donaldson say+ x1 ,i expect1 inv5t$ ! res\rceful ,paul4 ,he 0 cut %ort by ! noise on ! /air t usually h]ald$ t g5tleman's approa*4 ,give me ! lett]1 said ,/re!r hurri$ly1 & don't say any?+4 ,if y g1 come 9 "h aft]w>ds & tell me :at happ5s1 repli$ ,paul quickly1 toss+ x him4 ,! o!r nodd$4 ,has he got x8 dem&$ ,donaldson eag]ly1 z soon z !y 7 alone at ! boa?\se t aft]noon4 ,paul nodd$4 ,oh my holy aunt1 :at a spree6 ,:at did he say8 ,:at's he go+ to d8 ,paul expla9$1 smil+4 ,y're n to "k4 ,i kidd$ him all "r1 & ,i ?9k he's go+ to-night4 ,lor6 :at an ass6 ,well1 we'll be !re anyway4 ,wond] if ,mann+ w\ld c>e to come8 ,don't ask him1 said ,paul4 ,aft] all ,gussie's our pal1 & ,mann+'s n our ye>4 ,i wi% he knew no?+ ab\t x4 ,donaldson />$4 ,he's a damn$ good sport1 anyway4 ,may be1 retort$ ,paul4 ,s's old ,gussie1 if x comes to t4 ,all "r1 conc$$ ! o!r4 ,b we'll g4 ,we'll g out at n9e4 ,x'll ne$ a bit ( reconnoitr+4 ,paul %[$ admirable /rategy by sugge/+ to ,/re!r t he1 ,paul1 %\ld take ,donaldson out ( college be=e ! arrang$ h\r = ! r5dezv\s to avoid any awkw>d que/ions z to ! o!r gett+ away f !m4 ,9 ! %ad[ ( a tree1 ) coat coll>s turn$ up1 !y wat*$ _! victim arrive1 cross & recross ! bridge n]v\sly2 advance1 obvi\sly fum+1 "s way into ! ,common2 return2 look at 8 wat*2 fume "s m2 /amp ab\t = a qu>t] ( an h\r2 & f9ally make (f = home4 ,! conspirators return$ ano!r way1 & ,donaldson w5t to 8 own room4 ,paul f\nd ,/re!r 9 81 await+ him4 ,hullo6 ,back8 qu]i$ ,paul4 ,:at happ5$1 ,gussie8 ,no answ]4 ,oh come on1 said ,paul1 :at did %e say8 ,did y get rid ( h] easily8 ,all ?is fuss ab\t bea/ly females1 mutt]$ ,/re!r4 ,!n he flung himself back 9 8 *air & half bell[$3 ,%e wasn't !re6 ,paul c\ld h scream$4 ,x 0 irresi/ibly comic1 b he ma9ta9$ 8 composure by an ef=t4 ,n !re6 he exclaim$4 ,:at d y mean8 ,! o!r expla9$4 ,paul sugge/$ t %e might h be5 kept at home4 ,hadn't he1 ,/re!r1 left ! ,bridge a bit too soon8 ,/re!r emphatically ?\ght n1 & gloom desc5d$ ^u him4 ,:at if %e wrote aga98 ,:at if ! port]s spott$ h] hang+ ar\nd8 ,:at if--b fur!r speculation 0 cut (f1 ! wood5 /airs betray+ approa*+ visitors4 ,mann+ & ,donaldson came 9 toge!r4 ,hullo1 ,gus ,/re!r1 cri$ ! latt] noisily1 :]e've y be58 ,we've be5 se>*+ ! place = y4 ,%ut up1 gr[l$ ,/re!r suspici\sly4 ,mann+ smil$ at bo? ( !m4 ,:at a bally r[ y d make1 ,donaldson1 he said4 ,c y give u "s c(fee1 ,ke/]n8 ,look "h1 ,i ?\ght ^? v]ses ( y\rs ! o!r night jolly good4 ,! talk drift$ into lit]ature1 b t5 m9utes lat] !re 0 a fur!r knock on ! door4 ,come 91 call$ ,paul4 ,! door op5$1 & old ,sam1 an "u-port]1 put 9 8 head4 ,he 0 an anci5t m>9]1 %ort1 r$-fac$1 ) smil+ eyes1 a g5ial old boy & popul>1 s9ce he 0 ready = any?+ t includ$ a tip4 ,begg9' y\r p>don1 sir1 he said to ,paul1 b is ,mr4 ,/re!r 'ere8 ,i c\ldn't f9d 'im 9 'is rooms4 ,/re!r made a noise ( "s sort1 indicative ( 8 pres5ce1 f 8 *air4 ,8 face 0 a /udy4 ,oh !re y are1 sir4 ',xcuse me1 b !re's a "y lady 9 ! por* a-arsk9' aft] y4 ,p&emonium4 ,donaldson attempt$ to ru% out & ,/re!r clos$ ) him4 ,mann+ sprang to ! lamp1 laugh+ s mu* t he c\ld h>dly hold x4 ,an arm-*air 0 ov]turn$4 ,paul caught ,donaldson1 & ,/re!r fre$ himself4 ,sam beam$ b5efic5tly on !m all & clos$ ! door ) a w9k z ,/re!r w5t out4 ,oh my holy aunt1 ro>$ ,donaldson4 ,gussie w be ! dea? ( me4 ,did y see 8 face8 ,b :at's ! next move1 ,mann+8 ,wait = him to come back4 ,!n pull 8 leg4 ,!y wait$ a long t5 m9utes1 & !n w5t (f to ,/re!r's rooms4 ,8 oak 0 sport$1 & no am\nt ( bang+1 n ev5 ,donaldson's upro>i\s ,gus ,/re!r6 ,op51 y old blight]4 ,come on1 ,gussie6 ,pull up y\r socks4 ,:o's y\r lady fri5d8 e*o+ ?r\gh ! night1 0 ( any use4 ,! ?ree dep>t$ toge!r1 ,donaldson to ,mann+'s rooms = a dr9k4 ,b ,paul refus$ ! invitation4 ,he climb$ 8 /airway1 a bit consci\s-/rick51 & sport$ 8 own door4 ,he glanc$ r\nd ! little room1 & drew consolation f its remote com=table air4 ,!n he rememb]$ t x 0 ,saturday night & he _h an address = ! morr[ to prep>e4 ,he sigh$ & sat d[n to ?9k4 7#c7 ,! *ildr5's s]vice prov$ to be a small affair comp>$ ) 8 own at ,claxt$ & requires no fur!r notice1 b ! op5-air meet+ on ,p>k]'s ,piece 0 a diff]5t matt]4 ,:5 ,paul at la/ f\nd himself on a *air b5ea? ! c5tral lamp-po/1 x 0 ) feel+s he _h nev] _h be=e4 ,a big cr[d ( t[nsfolk surr\nd$ him1 b among !m 7 ',v>sity m51 "s memb]s ( ! ,c4,i4,c4,c4,u41 b o!rs :o 7 n4 ,paul realis$ himself & 8 position z he _h nev] done 9 ,lambe? ,c\rt4 ,he 0 n m]ely prea*+ rep5tance to obvi\s & ignorant s9n]s2 he 0 *all5g+ life & ?\ght :i* c\ld meet him on equal t]ms4 ,! s5se ( x surg$ ?r\gh him z he /ood !re & read ! curi\s faces1 yell[ 9 ! lamplight1 t r+$ him r\nd aga9/ ! foggy gloom beh9d4 ,ev5 ^! t[n's m5 7 a new audi5ce to him4 ,!y _h caught some?+ ( ! criticism1 ! indep5d5ce1 ( ! ,univ]sity2 & !y 7 also s>ca/ic1 z ,mr4 ,mavis & ,mrs4 ,rop] might be1 hav+ se5 9 _! day _m ?+s4 ,?is p>ticul> "y g5tleman's :im 0 religion1 j z ano!r's might be ! break+ ( w9d[s1 or ! pur*ase ( a c]ta9 k9d ( picture1 or "s =m ( sport1 or highly col\r$ socks4 ,"o _h to take ^! ph5om5a philosophically1 ?ankful if "o's own "y g5tleman _h ! m h>mless crazes4 ,! s5sitive ,paul 0 aw>e t ?is 0 ! temp] ( ! great] "p ( 8 audi5ce1 :ile ! less] "p w\ld be critical1 amus$1 or ragg+ und]graduates4 ,he fac$ ! cr[d unc]ta9ly = a few mom5ts4 ,& !n ! bl9d+ conviction 9 :i* he _h be5 nurtur$ swept d[n on him t1 aft] all1 ^! 7 b s9ful s\ls ne$+ ! ,savi\r1 _! v complexity b mak+ ! m necess>y ,8 div9e simplicity4 ,indecision w5t to ! w9ds4 ,z he wrote home lat] to 8 fa!r1 he1 !reaft]1 prea*$ unto !m ,jesus4 ,:5 ! circle broke up1 a man bore d[n ^u him4 ,paul saw him1 />t$1 hesitat$1 blu%$ & w\ld h escap$4 ,b x 0 too late4 ,com9' back n[8 qu]i$ ,mann+ ) a smile4 ,i 0 return+ f call+ on "s p :o live across ! ,piece1 & saw y4 ,we might z well walk back toge!r & ,i'll brew "s c(fee4 ,y'll want x aft] t ef=t4 ,reassur$ to "s ext5t1 ,paul ?ank$ him1 ex*ang$ a ^w or two ) ,dick ,h>tley 9 explanation1 & set (f ) ! o!r4 ,cle> ( ! cr[d1 !y fell into /ep4 ,i congratulate y on y\r s]mon1 ,ke/]n1 said ,mann+4 ,x 0 a great ef=t4 ,paul ?\ght he detect$ a note ( mock]y 9 ! words4 ,he pull$ himself toge!r & mu/]$ up all 8 c\rage4 ,he mu/ n1 he told himself1 be a%am$ ( 8 ,ma/]4 ,i spoke :at ,i believe ) all my he>t1 he said simply4 ,! s5ior man 0 in/antly aw>e ( ! o!r's impli$ reproa*4 ,he slipp$ 8 arm into ,paul's famili>ly4 ,exactly1 he said4 ,no "o ) a gra9 ( s5se c\ld d\bt t4 ,if y don't m9d my say+ s1 x 0 a s9c]e1 g5u9e & rem>kable p]=mance4 ,x 01 hone/ly1 ! be/ s]mon ,i've he>d = a long "t4 ,paul w>m$ naturally to ! praise4 ,! fri5dly appreciation *e]$ & enc\rag$ him4 ,t's jolly good ( y1 he exclaim$ boyi%ly4 ,i ?\ght at fir/ y 7 pull+ my leg4 ,my de> fell[1 ,i "k true art :5 ,i see x1 prote/$ ,mann+4 ,art8 qu]i$ ,paul1 bewild]$4 ,yes1 art4 ,skilful execution4 ,a f9e art1 too1 = y\r imag9ation 0 at "w4 ,& ,i'm incl9$ to ?9k t y h a great gift ( imag9ation1 ,ke/]n4 ,y felt /rongly1 y saw vividly1 & y knew in/9ctively h[ to express y\rself4 ,9 ! sup]lative1 t's g5ius4 ,t's h[ ! great pictures come to be pa9t$1 ! great books to be writt51 & ! great orations to be made4 ,! int]e/+ ?+ ab\t y is t "o is n yet sure :i* y w d4 ,paul 0 sil5t4 ,he 0 at once elat$1 bewild]$ & disappo9t$4 ,gradually ! humbl] feel+ pr$om9at$4 ,he _h nev] ?\ght ( himself z an arti/1 & z an evangeli/ he knew in/9ctively t he _h fail$ ) ,mann+4 ,! ,gospel is n a "w ( art1 he said %ortly1 & %rewdly4 ,b y\r pres5tation ( x 0 a di/9ct t\r de =ce1 said ,mann+4 ,paul took 8 c\rage 9 bo? h&s4 ,y praise ! pres5tation1 n ! ?+1 he said4 ,:at is ! ,gospel to y1 ,mann+8 ,! o!r smil$ g5ially4 ,ah well1 he said1 if ,i invite an evangeli/ to c(fee1 ,i suppose ,i mu/ expect to be ask$ if ,i am sav$4 ,don't6 cri$ ,paul4 ,y laugh at x4 ,i _c d t4 ,y're wrong !re1 repli$ ! o!r quickly4 ,i d n laugh at x4 ,a man is a fool :o does t4 ,x is impossible to d5y t ,*ri/ianity 01 & probably is1 a great dynamic 9 ! _w's affairs4 ,y _c dismiss ,/4 ,paul1 ,augu/9e1 ,francis ( ,assisi1 or ev5 ,lu!r & ,wesley or ,moody1 ) a ge/ure4 ,b ,i confess t to-night's affair int]e/$ me mo/ z an obs]v] ( m54 ,y int]e/ me m ?an y\r religion4 ,b "h we are4 ,let's talk ov] c(fee4 ,paul1 9 8 arm-*air by ! fireplace1 glanc$ r\nd ! n[ famili> room ) an air ( ho/ility ( :i* 8 subconsci\s m ?an 8 consci\s m9d 0 aw>e4 ,b he _h _h tea t day ) ,h>tley1 & he def9itely comp>$ 8 fri5d's room at ,jesus ) ?is1 = ! fir/ "t4 ,he _h yet to discov] t he 0 s5sitive to an atmosph]e1 b he 0 already well on ! road to t discov]y4 ,h>tley's room 0 big & r b>e4 ,he 0 a?letic1 & ! wall-space 0 almo/ :olly giv5 up to a numb] ( o>s1 & a doz5 or s pla9ly-fram$ gr\ps ) a cricket cap hang+ f ! corn] ( "o4 ,! exceptions 7 two o!r photographs1 "o ( ! s]vice on ! s&s at ,ea/b\rne 79 :i* ,paul _h discov]$ ,madel9e7 & "o ( ! ,cambridge ,univ]sity ,mission>y ,campaign]s 9 "s ,midl& t[n4 ,! mantel%elf 0 ov]cr[d$ ) photographs ( m51 snap%ots ( *ildr51 & ! c>ds ( a v>iety ( *iefly religi\s societies & activities among :i* a ,bump ,supp] m5u seem$ out ( place4 ,! electric lights 7 nak$2 ! w9d[-curta9s commonplace2 ! tea _h be5 homely4 ,! room focuss$ activities4 ,x _h made ,paul feel in/9ctively ke51 z !y said at ! ,*ri/ian ,union4 ,mann+1 kneel+ be=e ! fire1 0 c>efully p\r+ boil+ wat] into a ,turki% c(fee-pot ( burni%$ copp]4 ,delicate *9a c(fee-cups /ood by a silv] cig>ette-box on an ,indian lacqu]$ table4 ,a diffus$ light filt]$ ?r\gh silk5 lamp-%ades1 & two wall-sconces ( c&les lit ! pictures ) a fa9t radiance4 ,! corn]s & di/ances ( ! room 7 heavy ) %ad[s4 ,bronze *rysan!mums /ood 9 a tall vase on an o!rwise b>e ov]mantel4 ,! *airs ! big foot/ools1 ! l\nge1 ! c>pet--all 7 s(t1 ri*1 heavy4 ,! firelight gl9t$ on ! tool$ lea!r b9d+s ( books 9 a case opposite him4 ,! room made him feel com=table & introspective4 ,p>k]'s ,piece seem$ to belong to a diff]5t _w4 ,he pull$ himself toge!r1 & delib]ately cont9u$ ! conv]sation4 ,b x is ,*ri/ ,:o matt]s1 ,mann+1 he said ) real brav]y4 ,! o!r replac$ ! kettle & set ! c(fee-pot on ! table4 ,he select$ a cig>ette & lit x ov] ! lamp4 ,!n he settl$ himself com=tably on ! l\nge4 ,matt]s8 he qu]i$4 ,y\r te*nicalities are new to me1 ,ke/]n4 ,b ,paul 0 n go+ to %irk issues4 ,yes1 he said1 matt]s to y\r s\l1 = life or dea?4 ,t1 !n1 said ,mann+1 is my bus9ess4 ,my s\l is my own1 at any rate4 ,no1 said ,paul1 x 0 b\ght ) a price4 ',ye are n y\r own4' ,i 0 n aw>e t ,i _h put m9e up = sale1 retort$ ,mann+1 & if x 0 pur*as$1 on y\r own %[+1 "s n9ete5 hundr$ ye>s be=e x came into my possession at all1 x seems to me t ,i don't get mu* ( a *ance4 ,*ri/ b\ght y to set y free1 said ,paul1 & he m5tally recall$ a fav\rite anecdote ( 8 conc]n+ a travell+ ,engli%man & a fre$ slave4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 p]haps1 he decid$ n to use x 9 ?is connection4 ,?anks1 said ,mann+ drily4 ,!n ,i claim my fre$om4 ,b1 capp$ ,paul1 y h to *oose :om y w s]ve4 ,mann+ flick$ (f 8 cig>ette a% ) a little ge/ure4 ,look "h1 he said1 words are words4 ,!y s]ve a purpose1 b !y are n ends 9 !mselves4 ,/4 ,paul us$ ,jewi% & ,rabb9ic phraseology1 & appeal$ to 8 day ) metaphors4 ,?us--x's z old z ! hills--if y talk ( pur*ase1 y imply a sell]4 ,did ,*ri/ buy me f ,satan or f ,almighty ,god or f :om8 ,s f> z ,i am aw>e1 ! po9t is n ev5 yet settl$4 ,nor is x meant to be settl$4 ,x implies a conception ( ! univ]se g5]ally t is outworn4 ,nei!r y nor ,i are anci5t ,jews4 ,a good deal ( wat] has fl[$ "u ! bridges s9ce ,habakkuk4 ,paul said no?+4 ,9 po9t ( fact1 he h>dly und]/ood4 ,?is 0 all new to him4 ,well1 ,i see ,god 9 art & beauty4 ,he has giv5 me a s\l t f9ds ,him !re1 r ?an 9 sacrifice ( ! fat ( rams & ! ?und] ( ,s9ai4 ,i take x1 ev5 y d n reg>d ,him z ti$ to pit*-p9e1 corrugat$ iron & ,moody & ,sankey's hymns4 ,he is n to me a tribal deity1 ne$+ propitiation & ord]+ ! slaught] ( wom5 & *ildr51 flocks & h]ds4 ',no?+ b ! ,blood ( ,jesus1' s\nd$ all "r on ,p>k]'s ,piece & (f]s an emotional /imulus to un$ucat$ p4 ,b :5 y come to def9itions1 ! ?\ght ( ! ,old ,te/am5t leaves me r cold4 ,h[ 9 ! _w c blood wa% me clean8 ,b y believe 9 ! ,bible1 surely8 qu]i$ ,paul1 puzzl$ & hone/ly griev$4 ,my de> fell[1 :at 9 ! _w d y mean by 'believe 9'8 ,i believe 9 ,br[n+4 ,p]sonally1 ,i believe 9 ! pres5t ,gov]nm5t4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,i believe 9 y4 ,paul flu%$4 ,b ! ,bible is ! 'v]bally inspir$ ,^w ( ,god1' he v5tur$ to quote4 ,:i* ( ! t5-score diff]5t v]sions8 qu]i$ ,mann+ calmly4 ,by ! way1 h y %[n y\r v]ses to ,tressor yet8 ,if 8 visitor accept$ ! *ange ( subject1 x 0 because he 01 = ! mom5t1 clean b[l$4 7#d7 ,paul _h left a note ask+ ,/re!r to breakfa/1 & he r wond]$ if1 aft] ! previ\s day's rag1 8 fri5d w\ld come4 ,b he came4 ,to m>k ! occasion1 ,paul _h fi% & an omelette s5t up f ! kit*5s1 & ov] ^! burnt sacrifices he made 8 apology4 ,look "h1 ,gussie1 he said1 ,i'm sorry t rag end$ z x did4 ,i _h no idea ! o!rs _h arrang$ x ) old ,sam l t1 & ,i c\ldn't help ,donaldson kick+ up all t r[ on ! /airs4 ,t 0 bea/ly1 ,i admit4 ,i'm awfully sorry4 ,hope x won't make any diff]5ce to our fri5d%ip4 ,/re!r gr[l$ 9 8 ?roat4 ,:o bagg$ my boots8 he dem&$1 ) a s5se ( hum\r4 ,paul laugh$4 ,let's rag ,donaldson someh[1 he sugge/$1 & ,i'll give !m back4 ,/re!r smil$4 ,!n fr[n$4 ,always talk+ ab\t girls1 he mutt]$4 ,!n1 dropp+ ! subject = good & all1 ,come to ,! ,mikado ?is week1 he invit$4 ,i've nev] be5 to ! !atre1 said ,paul frankly4 ,! o!r nodd$ sl[ly 9 8 m$itative fa%ion4 ,s8 he qu]i$4 ,yes1 said ,paul4 ,my p are aga9/ x4 ,!y say ! /age is immoral4 ,i don't "k4444 ,!n s are newspap]s1 said ,/re!r1 & s's ,cambridge too = ! matt] ( t4 ,t's diff]5t1 object$ ,paul4 ,/re!r laid d[n 8 knife & =k4 ,go+ to ! ,p4,m41 ,sunday8 he qu]i$4 ,yes1 ,i expect s1 said ,paul4 ,:y8 ,i'll come ) y1 if y'll come ) me to ,! ,mikado4 ,i've nev] be5 to a ,p4,m4 ,my p say pray] meet+s make religion too emotional4 ,paul got up dubi\sly4 ,he look$ out ( ! w9d[4 ,aft] all1 !re 71 x seem$1 _m po9ts ( view 9 ! _w4 ,ought he to see none o!r ?an 8 fa!r's8 ,& besides1 if ?is w\ld get ,gus ,/re!r to a pray] meet+ 444 ,i'll g1 he said4 ,i see t x is c]ta9ly fooli% to condemn a ?+ y hav5't se54 ,t night1 ov] 8 fire 9 8 own belov$ room1 he got out a secret & p]sonal di>y :i* an evangelical mission] _h urg$ him to keep1 & sat ?\ghtfully ov] x1 p5cil 9 h&4 ,!n he wrote sl[ly3 ,nov4 #ac4 ,i h decid$ to g to a !atre1 s9ce x is obvi\sly unfair to condemn any?+ unse54 ,i wi% to be sure ( ! _s 9 :i* ,i g & = :at ,i ought to look4 ,!re=e ,i %all ask myself aft]w>ds ?ree que/ions1 & ,i write ^! d[n n[ to make c]ta9 t ,i d n =get3 #a4 ,if ,*ri/ came :ile ,i 0 !re1 %\ld ,i m9d8 #b4 ,d ,i see any?+ bad 9 ?is play8 #c4 ,has x help$ my ,*ri/ian life8 ,ye>s lat] he turn$ up 8 old answ]s1 writt5 late on ! ,w$nesday night ( ! play1 & smil$ at _! amaz+ & yet s]i\s y\?fulness4 #a4 ,i %\ld m9d ,*ri/'s adv5t :ile ,i 0 9 ! !atre no m ?an ,i %\ld m9d ,8 com+ :ile ,i 0 laugh+ ov] a humor\s novel1 s ran ! fir/ answ]4 #b4 ,hone/ly1 ,i see no?+ bad 9 ! play4 ,x 0 beautiful1 ! col\r & music bewit*+1 & ! only fault1 ov]mu* fooli%ness4 ,b 9 ! b> & l\nge1 "o felt t ! m5 ab\t 7 mo/ly ( ! sort :o are c>eless ab\t _! s\ls4 ,qu]y3 ,b :at ab\t a bump supp] or a smok+ c>riage8 #c4 ,no1 x has n help$ my ,*ri/ian life1 b x has n1 s f> z ,i c see1 h9d]$ x4 ,indirectly1 x has p]haps help$ me1 j z ex]cise1 music1 poetry & ord9>y conv]sation1 may be said to d4 ,note4 ,hone/ly1 ,i h nev] enjoy$ myself m 9 all my life4 ,poor ,paul6 7#e7 ,b he 0 to enjoy himself /ill m t memorable t]m4 ,t[>ds its close1 z a s*ol>1 he receiv$ an invitation to ! big college ,fea/ ( ,/4 ,m>y's1 a commemoration to :i* "s di/+ui%$ outsid] 0 always invit$ & :i* celebrat$ itself ) ! aid ( a classic m5u & "s hi/oric music4 ,nei!r ,/re!r nor ,donaldson 7 ask$1 = nei!r _h a*iev$ s*ol>%ip fame1 & ,mann+ 0 sep>at$ f ! fre%] by an impassable gulf ( table4 ,paul1 9 fact1 sat betwe5 ,judson & ! wall f>!/ f ! ,high ,table4 ,judson1 cox ( 8 boat1 0 a g5ial p]son1 b no p>ticul> fri5d ( ,paul's1 & ,judson1 moreov]1 0 frankly !re to eat & dr9k4 ,paul function$ m]ely automatically 9 reg>d to ^!4 ,x 0 ! spl5d\r1 ! glam\r1 t he fea/$ ^u1 & 8 imag9ation saw to x t nei!r lack$4 ,ev5 ! %e] beauty ( ! %9+ plate1 ! silv] c&elabra1 ! anci5t hall & ! glitt]+ tables1 t\*$1 "h & !re1 ) ! orange & yell[ & gre5 & gold ( ! pil$ dess]t1 0 all b =gott5 z he read 8 li/ ( di/+ui%$ names1 caught ! gleam ( ribbons across ?is & t %irt-front1 li/5$ to ! clev] %ort spee*es1 delight$ 9 ! hi/oric music1 %>$1 timidly1 9 ! c]emonies ( toa/ & lov+-cup4 ,he saw a _w wor? ent]+4 ,he 0 intoxicat$1 ?\gh he drank no m ?an a %y glass ( lemonade4 ,if1 9 ! d>k %ad[$ gall]y away f ! bu/l+ wait]s1 !re l+]$ und]/&+ spirits1 z l z n ,paul ,ke/]n 0 ! mo/ ent]ta9+ p]son pres5t4 ,9 ! libr>y1 ! great ,tressor s+l$ him out4 ,well1 ,ke/]n1 he said smil+1 :at did y ?9k ( x all8 ,! boy look$ at him gravely4 ,x 0 all r wond]ful to me1 sir1 he said4 ,x 0 a good fea/1 c]ta9ly1 said ! o!r4 ,by ! way1 ,i fe> ,i c't get away f all ?is n[1 b ,i want$ to say a ^w to y ab\t ^? v]ses ( y\rs4 ,!y are v di/9ctly good1 ,i ?9k4 ,! %orte/ is ! be/--,! ,sp5t ,day4 ,y'll d mu* bett] "w1 b 9 its own way1 x's a p]fect poem4 ,paul c\ld h>dly believe 8 e>s4 ,x is awfully good ( y to read !m1 he manag$ to say4 ,oh n at all4 ,i'm delight$4 ,look "h1 are y engag$ to-morr[8 ,come to lun*eon1 w y8 ,y r[1 don't y8 s y'll want to leave e>ly4 ,i won't invite anybody else1 & we c discuss !m !n4 ,good-night4 ,! big man1 ) ! heavy eyebr[s1 slightly b[$ %\ld]s & k9dly eyes1 smil$1 nodd$1 & pass$ on4 ,mann+ foll[$ him up to ,paul4 ,:at did he say8 he ask$4 ,paul h>dly lik$ to tell him4 ,x seem$ fanta/ic z he said x4 ,mann+ nodd$4 ,i ?\ght z mu*1 he said1 smil+4 ,rememb] me1 ,ke/]n1 :5 y're a big man4 ,i at any rate put "o ( y\r feet on ! ladd]4 ,paul mumbl$ some?+1 & soon escap$4 ,8 fire 0 out 9 8 room1 b x matt]$ little2 he c\ld n sit d[n to read or ?9k quietly aft] all ?is4 ,up & d[n he pac$1 repeat+ ,tressor's words3 ,9 its own way1 x's a p]fect poem4 ,a p]fect poem6 ,& ,tressor _h said x6 ,said x aft] ^? songs1 ^? spee*es2 said x 9 t company4 ,!n1 z ! boy pass$ & repass$1 8 eye fell on 8 text4 ,he look$ at x critically3 ! frame & fl[]s & lett]+ 7 s extraord9>ily bad4 ,a few weeks ago he _h n rem>k$ t4 ,/ill1 x 0 ! words t matt]$4 ,:at w\ld ! ,ma/] h ?\ght ( ! college fea/8 ,cana ( ,galilee8 ,yes1 b ,he w\ld h be5 b a visitor4 ,c\ld ,he h _h a real "p 9 x8 ,paul swung into a new tra9 ( ?\ght4 ,he consid]$ ! co/ ( x all4 ,:y1 :5 he _h refus$ ! fir/ cig>1 ,judson _h said he nev] refus$ a half-cr[n smoke4 ,half a cr[n = a cig>6--! ?+ 0 mon/r\s to evangelical ,paul4 ,! smokes ( ! d9n] alone w\ld h kept a cate*i/ 9 ,india = a ye>6 ,probably ! w9es w\ld h paid ! annual sal>y ( a :ite mission>y 9 ,*9a4 ,& ) e tick ( ! clock1 a hea!n s\l pass$ into et]nity4 ,h[ (t5 he _h said x6 ,:at1 !n1 0 he do+ among su* ?+s8 ,:at "p _h he 9 su* extravagance8 ,"o is y\r ,ma/]1 ev5 ,*ri/4 ,paul sigh$1 & rea*$ = 8 di>y4 ,! fea/ 0 wond]ful 7he wrote71 extraord9>ily beautiful ,i ?\ght4444 ,b444 ,!n he w5t to b$4 ,wond] on wond]s4 ,! morn+'s po/ br\ght him a lett] f ! editor ( ,! ,granta1 accept+1 magnanim\sly1 a %ort /ory ( an imag9ative nature t he _h plac$ 9 ,egypt ) ! aid ( a ,ba$ek]4 ,! editor ask$1 int]e/$ly1 if he _h be5 !re4 ,he suppos$ t ,paul mu/ h be51 = ! descriptions 7 s vivid4 ,paul's porridge grew cold4 ,he sat on ) ! lett] 9 8 h&4 ,donaldson f\nd him s1 call+ to g ) him to a di/ant lecture4 ,hullo1 he said1 n f9i%$ brekk]8 ,y're late aga91 f\r6 ,i say1 said ,paul1 ,! ,granta's tak5 t y>n ( m9e ab\t ,egypt4 ,by ,jove1 t's topp+4 ,donaldson spoke envi\sly1 />+ at him4 ,b ,i told y x 0 jolly good1 didn't ,i8 ,y did1 said ,paul1 b ,i say1 :at d y ?9k ,tressor said la/ night ab\t my v]se8 ,c't say1 said ,donaldson4 ,!n ,paul told him4 ,8 fri5d :i/l$4 ,damn x all1 ,paul1 he said--by ! way1 let me call y ',paul1' may ,i8--,i %\ld *uck all ^? prea*+ & pray+ /unts ( y\rs n[4 ,:y on e>?---- began ,paul1 utt]ly surpris$4 ,oh well1 d z y ?9k be/4 ,b x'll spoil y = lit]ature4 ,didn't ,tressor tell y ! o!r day t y\r essays 7 too l s]mons8 ,& if y get 9 ) ,mann+ & all t set1 ,h>tley & 8 cr[d won't be ( any use4 ,paul got up sl[ly & walk$ to ! fire4 ,he /ood /ill a:ile1 gaz+ into x4 ,! o!r fidget$4 ,come on n[1 anyway1 he said4 ,we %all be late = t lekk]4 ,i %an't g ?is morn+4 ,i %all cut x4 ,"r-o4 ,good-bye4 ,i'm (f1 retort$ ! o!r1 & dep>t$1 a little huff$4 ,mrs4 ,rop] came 9 to cle> away4 ,ar5't y a-go+ to f9i% y\r breakfuss1 sir8 %e ask$4 ,i've done1 ?anks1 said ,paul4 ,i don't want any m4 ,(f 'is fe$1 said ,mrs4 ,rop] outside to h] help4 ',ad too mu* at t !re fea/1 ,i expect4 ',ere1 y c 'ave !m eggs4 ,z = ,paul1 he m\nt$ 8 bicycle & rode out into ! c\ntry4 ,a w9try sun lay on ! b>e woods & /ubble fields1 & x 0 all v lovely4 ,ev5 ! close-cropp$ h$ges 7 beautiful4 ,! fall5 bee*-leaves 7 a spread ( old gold "u ! trees by ,mad+ley4 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,*ri/mas ,,c>ols 444 ,d\bt1 :i*1 l a gho/1 ,9 ! bra9's d>kness haunt$ me1 ,0 ?us resolv$3 ,him lov$ ,i mo/1 ,b h] ,i lov$ mo/ s5sibly4 ,la/ly1 my giddie/ hope all['d ,no selfi% ?\ght1 or e>?ly smir*2 ,& =? ,i w5t1 9 peace1 & pr\d ,to take my passion into ,*ur*2 ,grateful & glad to ?9k t all ,su* d\bts w\ld seem entirely va9 ,to h] ^: nature's light] fall ,made no divorce ( he>t f bra94 ,,cov5try ,,patmore3 ,! ,angel 9 ! ,h\se4 7#a7 ,paul1 walk+ home f ,claxt$ ,/ation d[n ,edw>d ,/reet & pa/ ,mr4 ,?ornton's ,elite ,photographic ,/udio1 0 puzzl$4 ,"s bewild]+ spell _h fall5 ^u ,claxt$ 9 a c\ple ( mon?s4 ,! suburban /ation _h a /range respectable air t sat ill on x1 & :]eas a /ation may smell ( dirt or smoke1 x %\ld n smell ( /ale pa9t4 ,edw>d ,/reet 0 horribly tidy1 & gap$4 ,! ,t[n ,hall & its ,libr>ies1 once maje/ic c5tres ( le>n+ & au?ority1 _h be5 *eap5$4 ,& ! famili> road to 8 home appe>$ to h be5 newly wa%$ & to h %runk 9 ! process4 ,8 fa!r's h\se _h only escap$ ! sn>e by a miracle1 & ,paul 0 obsess$ by a s5se ( t miracle4 ,! case ( /uff$ birds 9 ! hall1 ! gilt pres5tation clock 9 ! draw+-room1 ! old arm-*air 9 ! d9+-room1 ! y>ds ( comm5t>ies & s]mons 9 ! /udy1 ) ! illum9at$ addresses above !m1 7 miracul\sly pleasant4 ,= days aft] 8 return1 he kept look+ at !m1 & m>vell+ inw>dly t !y 7 j ! same4 ,! furniture ( ,mann+'s & ,mr4 ,tressor's rooms _h already made him feel t 9 8 home recollections !re mu/ be "s mi/ake4 ,b he knew n[1 />+ ab\t him1 t !re 0 n4 ,& he 0 /ill q glad1 & a little subdu$4 ,oh1 ,paul1 cri$ 8 "m1 hurry+ into ! hall to meet him1 h[ well y're look+6 ,are y glad to be back8 ,v glad1 "m d>l+1 said ,paul1 kiss+ h]4 ,:]e's dad8 ,x's ! ,b& ( ,hope night1 de>1 don't y rememb]8 ,he's n back yet4 ,b he said he w\ldn't be late = supp]4 ,sit d[n ov] !re :]e ,i c see y1 & tell me all ab\t ,cambridge4 ,paul laugh$4 ,t's a big ord]1 he said4 ,i don't "k :]e to beg94 ,tell me ab\t y\r *ildr5's s]vice & ! op5 air meet+s1 ,paul1 said 8 "m4 ,is ,mr4 ,h>tley nice8 ,y\r fa!r & ,i are s glad y've made su* fri5ds4 ,paul ?ru/ ,! ,lit]>y ,l\nge1 ! ,college ,fea/1 ! ,!atre1 ,donaldson1 ,/re!r & ,mann+1 into ! back ( 8 m9d1 & told h]4 ,& d y f9d ! lectures h>d8 %e qu]i$4 ,paul laugh$ gaily4 ,:at a topsy-turvy notion ( ,cambridge 8 "m1 aft] all1 mu/ h6 ,8 fa!r's key grat$ 9 ! door & ,paul ran out into ! hall4 ,! cl]gyman came 91 foll[$ by ,mr4 ,d]rick4 ,ah1 ,paul1 he said1 x is good to see y home aga94 ,come 91 ,mr4 ,d]rick4 ,paul's j back4 ,i'll get y ! books at once4 ,he ent]$ ! /udy1 & ,mr4 ,d]rick held out 8 h&4 ,paul took 9 ! dapp] little man1 f 8 spotless tall l95 coll> to 8 neat black boots4 ,h[ are y8 he said g5ially4 ,h[ goes ?+s8 ,h[ d y d1 ,mr4 ,paul1 said ,mr4 ,d]rick n]v\sly4 ,we are all v well1 ?ank y4 ,h y _h a good "t at college8 ,h[ %ort ! t]ms are6 ,y seem sc>cely to h gone away at all4 ,eh8 qu]i$ ,paul1 mom5t>ily a/oni%$4 ,!n he recollect$4 ,yes1 he confess$1 ,i suppose !y d seem %ort4 ,we read m 9 ! vacs4 ?an 9 ! t]ms1 y "k4 ,i hope y w /ill be able to l5d u a h&1 h[ev]1 said 8 visitor4 ,r1 said ,paul4 ,:o's tak+ ! *ildr5 on ,sunday8 ,i am1 unless y'd r4 ,i put ,paul d[n = ! ev5+1 said 8 fa!r1 return+4 ,i r hope he'll g to *ur* ) 8 "m 9 ! morn+4 ,%e'd enjoy hav+ him4 ,y "k :at mo!rs are1 ,d]rick4 ,yes1 yes1 to be sure1 said ! little man quickly4 ,i %\ld h ?\ght ( x4 ,b ,i expect we %all see a good deal ( y1 ,mr4 ,paul4 ,r1 said ! "y man aga94 ,are all ! folk go+ /rong8 ,yes4 ,mr4 ,v9tn] is secret>y ( ! ,mission>y ,committee 9 y\r place4 ,he's com+ on well4 ,v9tn]6 exclaim$ ,paul4 ,b he 0 a%am$ ( 8 in/9ctive ?\ght ! next mom5t4 ,spl5did1 he said4 ,mr4 ,d]rick nodd$4 ,he gave a mo/ helpful address on ,h5ry ,m>tyn la/ week4444 ,?ank y1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,are ^? ! books8 ,i'll g ?r\gh !m to-night & let y h !m on ,sunday4 ,i don't suppose x'll take me long4 ,good-night4 ,good-night1 ,mr4 ,paul4 ,! cl]gyman ?ank$ him & saw him out4 ,capital fell[1 he said1 ent]+ ! d9+-room4 ,wait till y're orda9$1 ,paul1 & y'll "k :at su* lay help means to a cl]gyman4 ,well1 de> boy1 & h[ are y8 ,really ,i ?9k y've gr[n4 ,:at d y ?9k1 "m8 ,i've be5 admir+ 8 fancy wai/coat1 said ,mrs4 ,ke/]n4 ,:]e did y get x1 ,paul8 7#b7 ,paul 0 soon aw>e t he 0 9 = a delightful vacation4 ,n _m "y m5 9 _! circle w5t to ! ,univ]sity1 & none at all1 naturally1 f among ! work]s4 ,paul 01 !re=e1 lionis$4 ,x 0 impossible = him n to be aw>e ( x4 ,he _h always be5 a k9d ( natural lead]1 b he 0 n[ some?+ m4 ,a glam\r sat ab\t him4 ,x 0 possibly ,miss ,erne/ :o made him aw>e ( x fir/4 ,%e 0 to play at ! ,mission ,hall t fir/ ,sunday night1 & ,paul call$ = h] to take h] d[n ?r\gh ! d>k1 slummy /reets4 ,%e kept him wait+ "s m9utes1 & :5 %e came d[n1 %e 0 mo/ unusually respl5d5t ev5 = h]4 ,h[ d y d8 %e said1 %ak+ h&s & smil+4 ,d y "k1 ,i h>dly d>e call y ,paul n[8 ,:y ev] n8 he ask$1 clos+ ! h\se door beh9d h]4 ,y're s mu* old]1 %e said4 ,two mon?s1 ,madel9e1 he prote/$1 us+ h] "n delib]ately4 ,is t all8 ,x seems to me t y've be5 away ages4 ,paul glanc$ at h]4 ,%e 0 entirely demure1 & did n look at him4 ,well1 he confess$1 x seems a long "t to me too4 ,x's curi\s h[ quickly ,cambridge *anges ?+s4 ,i h>dly feel ! same z ,i did two mon?s ago4 ,i suppose y've met all sorts ( ripp+ p4 ,r4 ,d y "k ,mr4 ,tressor's at our college1 & ,i've %[n him my v]ses4 ,he said--he 0 awfully nice ab\t !m4 ,& ,! ,granta has tak5 a /ory ( m9e4 ,i'm n surpris$1 %e said4 ,i always ?\ght y _h x 9 y4 ,paul 0 a little piqu$ t %e took x s easily1 ?\gh on reflection he p]ceiv$ t ?is 0 a complim5t4 ,x is impossible n to write at ,/4 ,m>y's1 he said4 ,is x v lovely8 %e ask$ s(tly4 ,oh1 exquisite4 ,y mu/ see4 ,d y ?9k y c\ld come up 9 ! summ] t]m8 ,my rooms are small & high up y "k1 b p]fect ,i ?9k4 ,& ! ,hall & ,*apel ?rill me e "t ,i see !m4 ,if y c\ld see ! moonlight on our ,fir/ ,c\rt6 ,doesn't ,claxt$ bore y aft] all t8 ,paul laugh$4 ,x's r qua9t1 he confess$4 ,x's really r l ano!r _w4 ,d y "k1 ,i've be5 to ! !atre4 ,h y8 ,oh h[ spl5did6 ,i'd love to g4 ,don't tell anyone1 said ,paul1 cauti\sly4 ,( c\rse n4 ,:at did y see8 ,! ,mikado4 ,oh don't--,i c't be> x4 ,y make me s jeal\s4 ,!re y are1 lead+ y\r own life1 & ,i'm ti$ d[n to ?is4 ,y don't "k h[ ?+s bore me at times4 ,paul grew sudd5ly grave4 ,i ?9k p]haps ,i am beg9n+ to1 he said1 & laps$ into sil5ce4 ,a lay-read] took ! s]vice1 & ,paul1 9 cassock & surplice on ! plat=m ( ! little mission *ur*1 _h leisure to obs]ve4 ,he _h be5 !re a ?\s& times2 v de> memories l9k$ him to x2 b n till n[ _h he look$ ab\t him critically4 ,! place 0 an iron build+ ( good size1 g>i%ly lit ) gas1 & at "o end 0 a plat=m :i* c\ld be scre5$ (f f ! body ( ! hall4 ,! curta9s 7 drawn ap>t = ?is s]vice1 & ,paul f :]e he sat1 />$ sideways at ! v>ni%$ ,table )9 ! encircl+ wood rail+s2 at ! text above x2 at ! h>monium opposite him1 ) ! back ( ,miss ,erne/ visible1 & ! side ( h] face1 "u its big hat1 :5 %e occasionally glanc$ at ! lay-read] :o 0 tak+ ! pray]s & ann\nc+ ! hymns4 ,bel[ h] sat ! *oir ( work+ m51 & ne> !m a c\ple ( =ms ( girls :o /r5g!n$ _! ef=ts4 ,paul scann$ _! faces surreptiti\sly ) amusem5t4 ,!re1 aga9/ ! wall1 0 old ,mill] :o inv>iably />t$ ea* v]se a ^w ahead ( ! re/1 & got /eadily m flat z ! hymn cont9u$4 ,among ! girls1 he 0 surpris$ to see ,miss ,till+s4 ,he suppos$ %e _h be5 conv]t$ 9 8 abs5ce4 ,9 ! front r[ 0 ,hodgson1 a police-s]geant & a ?or\ghly good fell[4 ,next him1 ,mc,arthur1 :o play$ a cornet :5 he knew ! tune4 ,& !n ! congregation1 among !m ,mrs4 ,reynolds4 ,if ,edi? ,?ornton 7 pres5t1 he c\ld n see h]4 ,b he look$4 ,! lay-read] 0 occasionally d\btful ab\t 8 aspirates4 ,he also read an unduly l>ge selection ( collects4 ,8 voice1 too1 got on ,paul's n]ves4 ,he read = ! hundr$? "t ! %ort1 />+ gilt text above ! ,table4 ,till ,he ,come4 ,except = ! hymn notices1 !re 0 no?+ else to cat* ! att5tion4 ,oh yes1 ,i4,h4,s4 9 a monogram "u ! text4 ,paul wond]$ if ! lay-read] knew :at ! lett]s meant4 ,he wond]$ if any ( !m knew :at !y meant4 ,!n1 z ! read] began ! pray] = ,p>liam5t1 if anyone knew :at any?+ meant4 ,mrs4 ,reynolds1 = example4 ,t all ?+s may be bord]$ & settl$ by _! h5deav\rs1 ^u ! be/ & sure/ f\ndations4444 ,am5--v l\dly f old ,mill]4 ,b he _h he>d t old ,mill] 0 a /rong ,cons]vative & conc]n$ ) politics 9 8 (f h\rs4 ,curi\s2 x /ruck ,paul sudd5ly t ! work]s nev] seem$ to h politics4 ,oh1 at la/--,hymn #adh4 ,aft]w>ds1 !y 7 all v k9d4 ,he %ook h&s ) ! dep>t+ congregation1 includ+ ,hilda ,till+s4 ,hodgson 0 unfeign$ly glad to see him back4 ,b outside1 :ile ,paul 0 smil+ly mak+ 8 way back to ! plat=m by :i* ,madel9e 0 /&+ draw+ on h] gloves1 ! s]geant 0 rebuff$ by old ,mill]4 ,good s]mon1 ,mill]1 he said4 ,he's a f9e "y *ap1 & ,i'm glad he's back4 ,eh1 eh1 s]geant1 b ,i dunno z ,i 'olds ) all ?is 'ere book-l>n+4 ',e's got m gramm> nor ev]1 &1 seems t] me1 less grace4 ,doesn't x all seem r que] to y n[8 ask$ ,madel9e1 z !y walk$ home4 ,paul %rugg$ 8 %\ld]s4 ,!y're rattl+ good p1 he said1 enigmatically4 ,yes1 ( c\rse4 ,by ! way1 d y rememb] t ! ,sale ( ,"w is to be ?is week4 ,y w help me decorate our /all1 won't y1 ,paul8 ,r4 ,is x ?is week8 ,i'd =gott54 ,d y want all t musl9 /uff tack$ up aga98 ,yes4 ,b we'll get y a /ep-ladd] ?is ye>4 ,! boxes collaps$ la/ "t--rememb]8 ,he nodd$1 amus$4 ,b :y don't y try a new idea8 he sugge/$4 ,:y always keep to ! same old musl98 ,madel9e sigh$4 ,we d always keep to ! same old ?+s1 don't we8 ,b :at c\ld we d8 ,sugge/ some?+4 ,h a backgr\nd ( palms & cov] ! framework ) ivy4 ,t'd be lovely4 ,b h[ c\ld we get ! ivy8 ,leave t to me4 ,i'll get x = y4 ,w y8 ,?anks s mu*4 ,c\ld ,i help8 ,paul glanc$ at h] c>efully4 ,%e walk$ gracefully1 b ) h] eyes on ! pavem5t4 ,he admir$ h] fair hair & h] new hat1 h] trim figure4 ,aft] all1 :y n8 ,bicycle out ) me on ,friday & get "s1 he sugge/$4 ,!re's lots at ,hursley4 ,h] voice 0 ev5 z ev] z %e repli$4 ,t w\ld be delightful1 %e said4 ,come 9 n[ & ask fa!r1 w y8 ,p]haps he'd come too4 ,& ,i say1 d let me read y\r v]ses4 ,i'd l to s mu*4 ,paul 0 sudd5ly %y4 ,oh !y're no?+1 he said4 ,%e smil$4 ,mr4 ,tressor did n ?9k s1 %e retort$4 ,paul1 ,i wond] if y're go+ to be a poet4 ,i'm go+ to be a =eign mission>y1 he said4 ,well1 y c be bo?4 ,i expect abroad y w\ld h no end ( inspiration4 ,y're n likely to be s5t among utt] savages4 ,y're m likely to be made ! head ( "s college or ano!r1 p]haps 9 ,india4 ,y c\ld write too4 ,i %\ld ?9k ,calcutta or ,delhi1 or "s place l t1 w\ld be heav5ly4 ,& y'd g to ! m\nta9s 9 ! summ]4 ,x makes me envi\s to ?9k ( y4 ,y'll h a glori\s life4 ,paul grew grave4 ,i'd pref] to be among savages1 he said4 ,:y8 ,besides1 d y ?9k t's altoge!r "r8 ,god didn't give y y\r gifts = y to wa/e !m4 ,& !y want ! o!r sort ( mission>y j z mu*4 ,i suppose !y d1 said ,paul4 ,& if ,i liv$ t sort ( life1 ,i %\ld m>ry4 ,"o c\ld4 ,i've always d\bt$ if a pione] mission>y ought to m>ry4 ,madel9e nodd$4 ,i ?9k y're "r4 ,& besides1 ! wives ( t sort ( mission>y d get s awfully d[dy4 ,i suppose x doesn't matt] :at y we> among savages1 & s !y don't c>e any m ab\t dress+4 ,i'm afraid ,i c\ld nev] be s good z all t4 ,paul laugh$4 ,hone/ly1 ,i c't see y d[dy1 ,madel9e1 he said4 ,%e smil$1 b said no?+4 ,he glanc$ at h] %yly4 ,summ]y frocks & ,indian ,society w\ld suit y1 he said4 ,d y ?9k s8 %e said easily4 ,yes4 ,by ! way1 y j mu/ come up = ! ,mays4 ,w y promise8 ,i'll come if ,i possibly c1 %e said1 & ?ank y ev] s mu* = ask+ me4 ,"h we are4 ,n[ come 9 & settle ) fa!r ab\t ! ivy1 w y8 7#c7 ,! ,annual ,sale ( ,"w 0 ! p>o*ial ,fea/ ( ,claxt$4 ,a di/+ui%$ visitor 0 always invit$ to op5 x2 ! /alls ?r\gh :i* "o w&]$1 7 s _m c\rses1 s to speak2 & 9 ! ev5+1 !re 7 always songs1 a few spee*es1 & light refre%m5ts4 ,s f> z ! ,mission ,hall ( ! *ur* 0 conc]n$1 only ! m sup]ior memb]s 7 expect$ to put 9 an appe>ance1 & ^! *iefly 9 ! ev5+4 ,?us ,hodgson always came1 b n old ,mill]4 ,! ,*ri/ian ,endeav\r arrang$ little side-%[ conc]ts f six o'clock onw>ds1 at half-h\r int]vals1 b ev5 ! ,endeav\r]s 7 n se5 9 ! aft]noon4 ,dur+ ^? sacr$ h\rs1 ! c>riages drew up outside ! ,p>i% ,room 9 ,edw>d ,/reet1 & !re desc5d$ f !m ! elite & ! weal?y ( ! congregation4 ,^!1 ent]+ ! half-empty room1 caus$ a ripple ( comm5t to run ?r\gh ! /all-hold]s proportionate to _! importance4 ,old ,mrs4 ,:]ry1 ,mrs4 ,erne/ w\ld :isp] en?usia/ically to ,madel9e4 ,oh1 my de>1 try to get h] "h at once4 ,%e always sp5ds su* a lot1 & %e's s bl9d1 %e c't see :at %e buys4 ,%e j decides to sp5d s mu*1 ,i believe1 & :5 x's sp5t1 no "o c get ano!r p5ny out ( h]4 ,d fet* h] "h4 ,h[ c ,i1 "m8 retort$ ,madel9e1 on ?is occasion4 ,i'll try1 said ,paul1 good-hum\r$ly1 & /roll$ (f 9 h] direction4 ,madel9e1 ,i saw y fa/5+ t ivy ) ,paul1 said ,mrs4 ,erne/1 z he w5t4 ,well1 "m8 ,my de>1 anyone might h se54 ,i ?\ght ,i saw ,mrs4 ,cator wat*+4 ,& y "k :at %e is likely to say4 ,madel9e toss$ h] pretty head4 ,i "k :at ,i am ab\t1 "m1 %e said4 ,i hope y d1 sigh$ ,mrs4 ,erne/4 ,h] husb& 0 a good man1 b )\t di/9ction1 & tru? to tell1 %e 0 tir$ ( liv+ on a curate's /ip5d4 ,paul came up ) ,mrs4 ,:]ry4 ,! old lady _h be5 g5u9ely glad to see him1 &1 s9ce h] own sons _h be5 at ,cambridge1 %e %[$ him cau/ic good hum\r4 ,y want me to sp5d my money "h1 ,i suppose1 d y8 ,well1 x doesn't mu* matt] to me4 ,good aft]noon1 ,mrs4 ,erne/4 ,i see y've adopt$ a sy/em ( pickets4 ,or is x ,miss ,erne/8 ,/ill ev]y?+'s fair 9 love & w>1 & c]ta9ly a ,sale ( ,"w is w>4 ,:at h y8 ,i %all only buy ?+s t ,i c s5d else:]e4 ,paul /ood *att+ ) ,madel9e aga9 :ile ! old lady did h] %opp+4 ,a little hum ( talk cov]$ _! conv]sation1 :i* 0 brok5 n[ & aga9 z someone nodd$ & spoke to him1 or he 0 s5t (f by 8 fa!r on "s trivial err&4 ,he 0 n z bor$ z usual1 b drift$ back to ! ivy-hung /all fairly regul>ly4 ,at half pa/ f\r he sugge/$ tea4 ,y c g1 ,madel9e1 said ,mrs4 ,erne/4 ,i'll wait a little4 ,someone mu/ wat* ! /all4 ,come on !n1 said ,paul1 cat*+ ,madel9e's eye1 & %e mov$ (f ) him4 ,=m]ly x _h be5 h>d to get ,madel9e = tea4 ,"y m51 :o _h rec5tly />t$ go+ to ! ,city1 us$ to drop 9 ab\t ?is "t & take h] (f4 ,!re 7 "o or two ab\t n[1 b %e _h no eyes = !m4 ,he pilot$ h] into a corn]1 & w5t to get ! tea f ! buffet :i* 0 presid$ ov] by ,mrs4 ,cator h]self4 ,%e kept him *att+ :ile a fre% pot 0 made1 & he 0 /e]+ 8 way back to ,madel9e ) ! little tray :5 he saw ,edi?4 ,x 0 e>ly = h]1 = %e arriv$1 z a rule1 ) ! re/ ( ! ,endeav\r]s4 ,!re %e 01 h[ev]1 ) h] "m 9 a black dress & a bead bonnet4 ,mrs4 ,?ornton 0 well kn[n 9 ! congregation4 ,%e aspir$ to r a high e/ate1 :i* 0 impossible = h]1 socially1 ) h] husb&'s %op 9 ,edw>d ,/reet4 ,paul wat*$ ,edi? br+ h] 94 ,! girl 0 quiet & self-possess$1 & did n1 app>5tly1 see him4 ,%e /e]$ h] "m to a little table & sat d[n by h]4 ,"o ( ! ,miss ,cators1 act+ waitress1 w5t up = ! ord]4 ,"h's ! tea1 said ,paul4 ,sorry ,i 0 s long4 ,y mu/ want x4 ,i d4 ,oh1 & y've got eclairs6 ,h[ delici\s2 ,i love !m4 ,i rememb]$ t y did at ! s*ool-treat la/ ,augu/4 ,t t]rible day6 ,d y rememb] h[ ,mrs4 ,?ornton w\ld h lun* at our table8 ,look--!re %e is4 ,i d hope %e doesn't see y4 ,%e's sure to come ov] if %e does4 '',ow d y d1 ,mr4 ,paul1 & 'ow d y l ,cambridge8 ,we're glad to see y back1 ,i'm sure4' ,paul sat d[n delib]ately 9 su* a position t he c\ld see ,edi?4 ,don't1 ,madel9e1 he said4 ,%e's a ?or\ghly good sort really1 & means well4 ,paul1 y "k p]fectly well y us$ to laugh at h] z mu* z any ( u4 ,did ,i8 ,!n ,i 0 wrong4 ,i'm beg9n+ to see t ! _w is full ( que] sorts ( p1 & t ! only real te/ is _! s9c]ity4 ,well1 !n1 "s s9c]e p are impossible4 ,y "k !y are4 ,at any rate ,i'm s9c]e en\gh to tell y t ,i ?9k s4 ,e!l ,cator came up to !m4 ,%e 0 a brunette1 tall & ?91 & 9 a cap & apron %e look$ pretty4 ,%e 0 "o ( ,madel9e's fri5ds4 ,hullo1 ,madel9e1 %e said4 ,h[ are y two gett+ on8 ,h "s m tea8 ,my de>1 ar5't y worn out ) ?is tea bus9ess8 ,c't ,i give y a h&8 ,x's a slack "t at ! /all4 ,oh no4 ,x's all "r4 ,b x's our busy "t1 ( c\rse4 ,h "s m eclairs4 ,we're runn+ a bit %ort1 b ,i c get "s = y4 ,i c\ldn't4 ,really1 ,i c\ldn't4 ,w y1 ,paul8 ,i say1 ,e!l1 are y go+ to ! s*ool dance8 ,grace said ye/]day %e didn't "k :at y _h decid$4 ,d come1 my de>4 ,i've said ,i'll g1 & y mu/ be !re4 ,i've positively got a new frock = x4 ,look "h1 said ,paul1 laugh+1 ?is is no place = me4 ,i'm (f4 ,i'll tell y\r "m to expect y 9 half an h\r1 ,madel9e4 ,good-bye4 ,good-bye1 ,miss ,cator4 ,y\r tea's topp+4 ,i'll s5d 9 ev]yone ,i see4 ,& he walk$ (f4 ,madel9e glanc$ quickly across ! room2 ,mrs4 ,?ornton & ,edi? 7 mak+ _! way to ! door2 ,paul caught !m up z %e wat*$4 ,%e flu%$ slightly4 ,e!l ,cator slipp$ into ! empty place by h] side1 & dropp$ h] voice a little4 ,he's n ke5 on t girl1 surely1 %e said4 ,madel9e %rugg$ h] %\ld]s4 ,h[ %\ld ,i "k8 %e ask$1 ) an assumption ( indiff]5ce4 ,e!l laugh$4 ,well1 my de>1 ( c\rse x's n my bus9ess1 b ,i ?\ght y saw a good deal ( him4 ,well1 naturally1 see+ :at our fa!rs are4 ,has ,cambridge *ang$ him8 ,i %\ld h ?\ght he'd h dropp$ ! ,mission ,hall n[4 ,e!l's tone 0 a little contemptu\s1 & x r\s$ ,madel9e to ! def5sive4 ,my de>1 y don't "k ,paul1 %e said coolly4 ,he doesn't play at religion4 ,he probably wants to speak to ,miss ,?ornton ab\t ! ,*ri/ian ,endeav\r4 ,x w\ld take m ?an a t]m at ,cambridge to make ,paul ?r[ t ov]4 ,& ,i l him = x4 ,h] fri5d got up4 ,i mu/ g1 %e said4 ,i didn't mean to be a cat1 ,madel9e4 ,ev]ybody kn[s ,paul's a born p>son1 & ( c\rse he'll make a good "o4 ,he wants to g to ,india1 said ,madel9e1 mollifi$ & inconsequ5t1 & n realis+ t %e li$4 ,he'll be a bi%op "o day1 ,i expect4 ,e!l look$ envi\s1 & rew>d$ h]4 ,india6 %e exclaim$1 & sat d[n aga9 = a m9ute or two4 ,! girls fell to discuss+ ,simla ) a suburban imag9ation4 ,mrs4 ,?ornton _h ask$ him ',ow he lik$ ,cambridge8 & ,paul _h repli$ at l5g?4 ,b %e _h gone (f at la/1 & left him ) ! tall girl ^: br[n eyes _h be5 alight ) a flick] ( amusem5t ! :ile he _h talk$ to h] "m4 ,!y 7 /&+ ne> ! plat=m at ! top ( ! room1 & a n yet op5$ fi%pond ) its appurt5ances scre5$ !m slightly4 ,he 0 able to look h] full 9 ! face n[ & realise h[ good %e look$1 ?\gh ! little fur hat 0 slightly out ( place !re1 & h] coat a little %abby4 ,"m's a de>1 %e said4 ,he nodd$4 ,i "k4 ,edi?1 ,i've long$ to see y aga94 ,:y w]5't y at ! ,mission ,hall on ,sunday8 ,i c\ldn't g4 ,i 0 ev] s sorry4 ,really8 ,%e nodd$4 ,i knew y 7 prea*+4 ,mr4 ,d]rick told u4 ,b ,i _h to /ay & help "m ) ! kiddies4 ,paul saw a m5tal vision ( ! little rooms ov] ! %op & ! ?ree small ,?ornton *ildr5 sprawl+ ev]y:]e4 ,once or twice he _h be5 9 on bus9ess = ! ,society1 & he knew x well4 ,edi? 9 t sett+ _h always puzzl$ him a little4 ,%e did n seem q to belong to x1 & yet %e mov$ ab\t h\sehold jobs ) a quiet dignity t did n 9 ! lea/ sugge/ res5tm5t or incongruity4 ,y'll be "h to-night8 he que/ion$4 ,%e %ook h] head4 ,t's :y ,i've come ?is aft]noon4 ,:5 are we go+ to meet !n8 ,i d s want to talk to y4 ,cambridge is wond]ful1 ,edi?4 ,!re's heaps to say4 ,i don't "k :y1 b ,i want to tell y ?+s4 ,he c\ldn't "k t %e _h to make a little ef=t to /eady h] voice4 ,d y1 ,paul1 %e said4 ,t's awfully good ( y4 ,he /udi$ h] a m9ute1 ?9k+ rapidly4 ,tell me :at y're do+ ?is week1 he dem&$4 ,oh1 ! usual ?+s4 ,b& ( ,hope1 a committee ,?ursday1 pray] meet+ ,friday1 & ,saturday1 "s c\s9s ( ours are com+ ov]4 ,sunday8 ,y silly6 ,y "k z well z ,i d6 ,paul reflect$4 ,he w\ld h to call = ,madel9e = ! *ildr5's s]vice4 ,aft]noon ,sunday s*ool--no good1 he knew4 ,ev5+1 8 "m w\ld be go+ d[n to ! ,mission ,hall4 ,he %rugg$ 8 %\ld]s impati5tly4 ,monday8 he qu]i$4 ,%e smil$4 ,monday's ! fir/ night ( c>ol s++1 %e said4 ,no6 he cri$ eag]ly4 ,i'll come4 ,:at "t d y />t8 ,y "k y nev] come1 %e said laugh+4 ,h y le>n$ to s+ s mu* bett] at ,cambridge8 ,a little ?rill ( pleasure at h] laught] ran ?r\gh him4 ,y %all he>1 he said4 ,i %all be !re4 ,& :5 we've f9i%$1 ,i %all see y home4 ,i half promis$ ,mr4 ,v9tn]1 %e said1 b p]haps---- ,!re's "m look+ = me4 ,i mu/ g4 ,& ,paul1 alone1 c\ld n get ,alb]t ,v9tn] out ( 8 m9d :ile he disc\rs$ ( ! ,univ]sity to 8 fa!r's s5ior *ur*w>d54 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n left be=e ! conclusion ( ! proce$+s1 & ,paul /ood by ! table alone1 wat*+ 8 fa!r1 ,mr4 ,d]rick & a w>d5 make neat piles ( silv] & gold1 ent] totals on slips ( pap] & f9ally arrive at ! exact figure tak54 ,conv]sation among ! wait+ onlook]s di$ d[n :ile ! f9al imm5se calculation 0 be+ made1 & x 0 9 a solemn sil5ce t at la/ ,mr4 ,ke/]n /ood erect1 beam+ & triumphant1 to ann\nce t ! result exce$$ by five p\nds1 sev5 & f\rp5ce ! previ\s ye>'s figure1 & to say t he ?ank$ all :o _h 9 any way assi/$ at ?is magnific5t result ) all 8 he>t4 ,!y w\ld n[ jo9 9 s++ ! ,doxology4 ,madel9e w5t to ! piano2 ,?ank ,god f :om all bless+s fl[1 !y sang4 ,paul jo9$ 9 he>tily1 b a little self-consci\sly4 ,x 0 odd1 b ! famili> words did n come z naturally z !y _h us$ to d4 ,five p\nds1 sev5 & f\rp5ce6 ,b 8 fa!r 0 a sa9t1 ,paul ?\ght1 z he look$ at him4 7#d7 ,paul1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n & ,miss ,bi%op walk$ home toge!r1 ! latt] a great fri5d ( ! ,*ur*4 ,%e 0 angul>1 tall1 a little cau/ic & an able speak]1 & %e _h a great reputation = k4 ,%e felt deeply & express$ h]self /rongly4 ,paul lik$ h] imm5sely4 ,%e l$ ! conv]sation n[1 9 h] cle>1 incisive1 deep voice4 ,x appe>$ t a newly-appo9t$ neighb\r+ vic> _h accept$ ! (f] ( a cross & two c&le/icks = ! ,holy ,table 9 8 *ur*4 ,x 0 kn[n1 at la/1 t he _h def9itely accept$2 x 0 n kn[n1 yet1 :at w\ld be done ab\t x--:e!r appeal w\ld be made by "s aggriev$ memb]s ( ! congregation aga9/ ! grant+ ( a faculty1 or :e!r ,mr4 ,k5sit w\ld be call$ 94 ,miss ,bi%op 0 :olly 9 fav\r ( ?is latt]4 ,:at is ! good ( faculties & appeals8 %e dem&$4 ,!y always confuse ! real issue4 ,k5sit knocks ! nail on ! head anyway4 ,x's n a case ( legal or illegal ornam5ts2 x's a case ( ,rome4 ,d !y take u all = fools8 ,*ur* aft] *ur* has begun t way1 & end$ ) ,mass & ! confessional6 ,mr4 ,duncan1 obs]v$ ,mr4 ,ke/]n mildly1 is entirely aga9/ all t4 ,?is is a mi/ake1 ( c\rse1 b he seems to me a s9c]e1 e>ne/ evangelical at bottom4 ,!n :at1 cont9u$ ,miss ,bi%op decisively1 has he to d ) a cross & c&le/icks8 ,x's all v well1 ,vic>1 b t's ! ?9 end ( ! w$ge4 ,y "k x z well z ,i d4 ,8 "w is ! sav+ ( s\ls1 & t sort ( ?+ nev] sav$ a s\l yet4 ,is t n s8 ,i'm afraid y're only too "r1 admitt$ ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,x's a great pity--a great pity4 ,a pity6 ,i %\ld call x some?+ worse ?an t1 retort$ ! lady4 ,paul's m9d 0 busy4 ,he 0 recall+ ! *apel at ,/4 ,m>y's 9 ! e>ly morn+s1 & ! remote1 au/]e1 mov+ little s]vice enact$ !re on ,sundays be=e a cross & c&le/icks4 ,= ! life ( him he _h to say some?+4 ,miss ,bi%op1 he said1 d y ?9k1 n[adays1 a cross always leads to ,rome8 ,!re is "o on ! ,table at ,/4 ,m>y's4 ,& h[ mu* ,gospel h y he>d prea*$ !re8 %e dem&$1 %rewdly4 ,yes1 ,paul1 t's ! te/1 said 8 fa!r4 ,! boy hesitat$4 ,!n he equivocat$4 ,b ! cross is ! sign ( our fai?1 he said4 ,is x8 ,miss ,bi%op 0 emphatic4 ,i d n "k t x is--n1 at any rate1 9 ! s5se p use ! phrase4 ',*ri/ is ,ris5'3 t's ,*ri/ianity4 ,! empty cross symbolises t1 said ,paul4 ,!n put a cross on ! /eeple1 9 ! por*1 ov] ! pulpit ev54 ,:y on ! ,table8 ,y "k z well z ,i d t ! ?+ is ,pre-,re=mation1 ,roman usage4 ,a little e>li]1 retort$ ,paul4 ,b n e>ly en\gh4 ,did ,paul h a cross 9 ! catacombs8 ,possibly1 said ,paul1 nettl$4 ,miss ,bi%op utt]$ an indignant exclamation4 ,n ( t sort1 %e said4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n l9k$ 8 arm 9 ,paul's4 ,! lad doesn't mean to def5d ,ritualism1 he said k9dly4 ,i "k my boy too well4 ,keep to ! ,^w ( ,god1 ,paul1 & y won't g wrong4 ,b1 fa!r1 began 8 son---- ,mr4 ,ke/]n press$ 8 arm4 ,t w d1 ,paul1 he said4 ,i want to ask our fri5d some?+4 ,! !atre s]vice = ! la/ night ( ! ye> is def9itely settl$1 ,miss ,bi%op2 w y say a few words8 ,miss ,bi%op did n at once reply4 ,!n3 ,i hate ! place1 ,vic>1 %e said2 y "k ,i d4 ,i don't believe 9 us+ x4 ,! :ole atmosph]e reeks ( ! devil4 ,la/ ye> ,i c\ld h>dly br+ myself to g inside4 ,p]haps1 possibly--b if we c p]haps draw ! p !re---- ,yes1 %[ !m ! road 91 & maybe !y'll g aga94 ,we hope n1 said ! cl]gyman meekly1 by ! grace ( ,god4 ,%e %ot a swift glance at him4 ,!y 7 outside h] own door n[1 & ! light fell on ! k9d1 g5tle face ( ! man be=e h]4 ,h] %>p face *ang$ a little4 ,i w speak1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 %e said1 if y wi% x4 ,paul & 8 fa!r walk$ on a little 9 sil5ce4 ,!n ! eld] sigh$4 ,x's n easy1 ,paul1 he said1 to comb9e ! ,ma/]'s *>ity & ! ,ma/]'s zeal4 ,y d1 dad1 cri$ ,paul1 mov$ m ?an a little1 & meant x4 ,b z ! days sp$ by1 ,paul 0 aw>e t at e turn he 0 confront$ ) a contra/ t gradually deep5$ into some?+ approa*+ a "q4 ,mov+ ) 8 fa!r *e]ily ab\t ! p>i%2 walk+ ! famili> /reets ) 8 "m1 s absurdly & yet s lovably pr\d1 by 8 side2 /epp+ aga9 into ! r\nd ( p>o*ial activities1 yet always n[1 z "o :o _h no p]man5t place among !m2 ,paul _h con/antly to *eck )9 himself a c]ta9 critical outlook t _h nev] be5 8 be=e4 ,he criticis$1 too1 9 m ?an "o direction4 ,!re 0 ! incid5t1 = example1 ( ! ,*ri/mas decorations at ! ,mission ,hall4 ,r$ ,turkey twill1 z usual1 _h he & ,madel9e ins]t$ into ! panels ( ! ,comm&m5ts & ! ,"l's ,pray] beh9d ! little alt>1 = a brief :ile escap+ f ! dom9ation ( _! gilt lett]+4 ,ivy t5drils1 likewise1 _h !y set tw9+ "h & !re across !m1 b1 at ?is or?odox conclusion1 ,paul _h slipp$ back discont5t$4 ,x /ill looks b>e1 ,madel9e1 he said4 ,let's put a big vase ( :ite *rysan!mums on ! l$ge beh9d4 ,r1 %e said2 t w improve ?+s4 ,!y made x two vases & survey$ ! result4 ,madel9e %rugg$ h] pretty %\ld]s4 ,( c\rse ,i'm n high1 %e said1 b ,i mu/ say ,i l fl[]s on ! alt>--always4 ,& ,paul1 look+ at h]1 agre$4 ,b he 0 /ill 8 fa!r's son4 ,if y don't call x an alt>1 he said1 smil+4 ,madel9e smil$ back4 ,e>ly ,*ri/mas morn+1 h[ev]1 8 fa!r ord]$ _! removal1 & ) !m sundry wov5 pap] *a9s & fl[]s t ,s]geant ,hodgson1 ) great en?usiasm1 _h erect$ ) ! aid ( old ,mill]1 aft] ,mrs4 ,ke/]n & ,paul _h left ! night be=e4 ,! gaily-col\r$ pap] _h inde$ be5 incongru\s aga9/ ! natural fl[]s1 & ,mrs4 ,ke/]n _h exclaim$ at x4 ,h] husb& _h be5 ru?less likewise4 ,b ,paul _h criticis$ _! edict4 ,fa!r1 he _h said1 ) 8 direct logic1 ought y to take away old ,mill]'s *a9s8 ,he ?9ks !m beautiful4 ,!y're 8 (f]+ to our ,savi\r4 ,surely ,god looks at ! devotion m ?an at ! ?+4 ,& y aboli% my fl[]s too4 ,surely !re's no?+ ,popi% 9 a vase or two ( *rysan!mums6 ,mr4 ,ke/]n _h be51 h[ev]1 obdurate4 ,we _c h pap] *a9s1 ,paul1 he said1 n ev5 to please y4 ,i %\ld h ?\ght y1 a budd+ poet1 w\ld h especially dislik$ !m6 ,& z to fl[]s beh9d ! ,table1 y "k x's n our cu/om4 ,paul1 z usual1 p]si/$4 ,( c\rse ,i don't l ! pap]1 he said1 b t's n ! po9t4 ,& if a cu/om is good1 :y refuse x because ,mohamm$ans or hea!ns1 let alone ,ca?olics1 practice x8 ,don't argue ) y\r fa!r1 my son1 begg$ ,mrs4 ,ke/]n1 timidly4 ,%e hat$ argum5t4 ,besides ,mr4 ,ke/]n 0 above criticism4 7#e7 ,t ,*ri/mas night1 !re 0 a la/ c>ol s++4 ,dr4 ,b>n>do's ,homes _h already b5efitt$ heavily z a result ( ! ,endeav\r]s' ef=ts1 &1 tru? to tell1 ! b& ( "y p w5t s++ t ev5+ "u ! tw9kl+1 fro/y sky m because !y lik$ ea* o!r's company ?an = *>itable reasons4 ,mr4 ,d]rick _h be5 outvot$1 &1 true ,*ri/ian democrat1 he _h giv5 94 ,!y w5t t[>ds a new1 weal?y suburb ( ,claxt$1 n f> f ! edge ( ! c\ntry & ,hursley ,woods1 & !y sang "h & !re ) great success4 ,at la/1 z1 f> (f1 ! ,t[n ,hall clock boom$ elev51 ,mr4 ,d]rick n]v\sly decl>$ = home4 ,x 0 cold1 he said1 & he 0 sure !y 7 all tir$4 ,9 ! des]t$ /reet ( curta9$ & my/]i\s villa w9d[s1 ! moon glitt]+ on ! fro/y road1 ! little knot ( "y p prep>$ to g _! sev]al ways4 ,paul1 wrapp$ to ! e>s 9 8 ov]coat1 /ood by ,edi? altoge!r delightful & attractive 9 h] furs4 ,alb]t ,v9tn] 0 collect+ hymn-books4 ,he came up to !m & hesitat$4 ,may ,i see y home1 ,miss ,?ornton8 he ask$4 ,x's out ( y\r way1 ,v9tn]1 said ,paul4 ,i c d x4 ,! "y %op-assi/ant ignor$ him4 ,x's ! la/ night ( ! c>ols1 he said to ,edi?4 ,! girl flu%$1 ill at ease4 ,paul realis$1 sudd5ly1 t !y 7 at a crisis4 ,= a second or two x seem$ to him t ! small gr\p ab\t !m /ood /ill wat*+1 t ! v />s li/5$4 ,!n he made up 8 m9d & desc5d$ into ! ar5a4 ,well1 ,miss ,?ornton1 he said easily1 y mu/ *oose betwe5 u1 x seems4 ,we c h>dly bo? ( u see y home4 ,:i* is x to be8 ,edi? turn$ to ! o!r & held out h] h&4 ,i practically promis$ ,mr4 ,ke/]n be=e1 %e said4 ,good-night1 ,mr4 ,v9tn]1 & ?ank y = ask+ me4 ,! "y fell[ took h] h& ) a mutt]$ good-ev5+1 & turn$ away4 ,paul felt reproa*$4 ,good-night1 ,alb]t1 he said1 ) a r+ ( fri5dl9ess4 ,i'm sorry ,i 0 be=e y4 ,ano!r "t1 p]haps4 ,v9tn] mov$ (f aft] ! o!rs1 & ,edi? & ,paul walk$ a little up ! road4 ,_! turn+ lay on ! "r1 b at ! corn] ,paul hesitat$4 ,x w only take a qu>t] ( an h\r long]1 he said4 ,let's g home by ! field-pa? to ,co/] ,lane4 ,probably y\r p won't expect y till midnight4 ,%e nodd$ )\t words1 & ! turn to ! left hid !m 9 a m9ute f ! lea/ *ance ( obs]vation by ! o!rs4 ,be=e !m ! road ran /raight ahead 9 ! cle> night1 till ! villas ?9n$1 & x became a sc>cely-us$ way1 & f9ally a half-c\ntry footpa? by a c\ple ( fields4 ,paul drew h] arm ?r\gh 8 9 sil5ce1 & !y fell into /ep toge!r4 ,!y _h be5 s++ a c>ol ) a haunt+ refra9 ab\t a night ( wond]1 a night ( grace4 ,x rang 9 8 head n[1 & he c\ld h sung z !y walk$4 ,e y>d deep5$ a s5se ( exaltation 9 him4 ,?is s]5e ,*ri/mas night1 he & ,edi? alone 9 x1 ! _w wide & wond]ful--oh1 x 0 good to live4 ,! pav$ footpa? became a gravell$ walk1 & ! walk1 a m]e track4 ,!y 7 on ! f> edge ( ! t[n4 ,across ! /ubble1 a l9e ( n yet doom$ elms /ret*$ delicate b>e twigs cle> 9 ! moonlight1 & ! />s swung emme%$ 9 _! net4 ,a half-built h\se flung a deep %ad[ across _! pa?1 & ,paul /opp$ )\t w>n+ on its v]ge4 ,he _h realis$ sudd5ly t 8 companion 0 v sil5t & he want$ to see h]4 ,a little sw+ ( 8 arm br\ght ! girl face to face ) him1 & he look$ d[n into h] eyes4 ,s he look$ a m9ute1 & !n v sl[ly he b5t 8 head1 &1 /ill ) 8 eyes on h]s1 _! lips met4 ,at t s(t1 w>m1 fragrant1 unaccu/om$ t\*1 8 he>t leapt & great waves ( emotion surg$ & tore )9 him4 ,oh6 cri$ ,edi?1 & fell back f him4 ,! two /ood q /ill4 ,paul swall[$ once or twice be=e he c\ld speak4 ,!n3 ,edi?1 he :isp]$ fooli%ly1 & aga93 ,edi?4 ,oh1 ,paul6 %e cri$1 ,paul6 ,paul6 444 ,oh1 ,i nev] meant to let y d x6 ,h] words recall$ ! boy to 8 s5ses4 ,he took h] two h&s1 & %e did n /ay him4 ,edi?1 he said exultantly1 y're m9e1 n[1 m9e6 ,*ri/mas night1 too6 ,oh1 x's wond]ful1 j wond]ful6 ,no1 no1 no6 %e cri$1 almo/ fi]cely4 ,no8 he qu]i$1 bewild]$4 ,:at d y mean8 ,y let me kiss y4 ,y love me1 ,edi?1 don't y8 ,y mu/6 ,y c\ldn't h kiss$ me l t if y hadn't lov$ me6 ,don't1 don't1 ,paul6 %e cri$ aga91 & b5t h] head1 try+ to release h] h&s4 ,some?+ t 0 almo/ ang] surg$ up 9 him4 ,he drew h] to him4 ,:at d y mean1 ,edi?8 he dem&$4 ,i love y1 d y he>8 ,i see n[1 ,i h be5 lov+ y = a long "t4 ,i love y ) all my he>t4 ,don't y love me8 ,at t new note 9 8 voice1 %e fac$ him bravely4 ,paul1 de>1 %e said1 li/54 ,i d love y1 ,god kn[s ,i d1 b--b--well1 y\r p w\ld hate x if !y knew4 7,paul made an angry movem5t1 b %e *eck$ him47 ,no1 li/54 ,!y w\ld say y're too "y2 t y ought n to ?9k ( su* ?+s n[2 t--t---- ,oh1 y "k4 ,don't make x h>d = me4 ,y\r "m w\ld hate y to m>ry a girl l me4 ,paul />$ into h] sad "y face 9 sil5ce = a mom5t1 b 8 he>t sank4 ,!n3 ,"m h>dly kn[s y1 he said mis]ably4 ,b %e kn[s my "m1 said ! girl1 simply4 ,paul knew exactly :at %e meant4 ,vividly1 he saw x all4 ,8 gift ( ke5 imag9ation aid$ him4 ,he saw 8 "m's surpris$1 pa9$1 worri$ look2 8 fa!r's p]plexity4 ,b he pu%$ x f him4 ,look "h1 he began4 ,"o m9ute1 ,paul1 de>4 ,oh1 ,paul1 d li/5 to me6 ,i "k :at y're go+ to say1 & ,i love y = x4 ,p]haps1 "o day1 ,i'll let y say x4 ,aft] all1 9 ! end1 t w be = u to decide4 ,b /ill ,i ought n to h kiss$ y4 ,no1 really ,i ought n4 ,y've got y\r "w to d4 ,y don't "k :at ,god w call y to4 ,y're s wond]ful1 ,paul1 de>--y ) all y\r p[] ( speak+ & writ+ & le>n+4 ,y don't "k h[ wond]ful y are to me1 ,paul4 ,i don't see :y y l me a bit4 ,b ,i won't /& 9 y\r way4 ,y mu/ g on1 & f9d out :at ,god wants y to d1 & g & d x4 ,& !n1 !n1 p]haps--lat] on---- ,oh1 ,paul1 say some?+6 ,i--,i c't say--any m4 ,! te>s /ood 9 h] eyes4 ,h] voice *ok$4 ,he drew h] to him & put "o arm r\nd h]4 ,%e made a little movem5t to resi/1 b 9 do+ s1 %ot a glance at him & at :at %e saw let him h 8 way4 ,!n1 9 ! lum9\s w9t] d>k1 he pe]$ d[n at h]1 & took h] h&1 & /udi$ ! oval ( h] face1 & h] little e>s1 & ! /ray hair t escap$ f h] fur cap4 ,love at any rate has ?is 9 common ) true religion1 t x awes a man4 ,i c't tell y all ,i feel1 he decl>$ at la/1 speak+ v sl[ly4 ,edi?1 ,i don't "k y yet4 ,y're v1 v wond]ful1 little girl4 ,& y're su* heaps bigg] ?an ,i--t's :at ,i see mo/ cle>ly4 ,edi?1 w y at lea/ let me see y & talk to y8 ,i'm beg9n+ to be worri$1 & ,i believe y're j ! p]son ,i've be5 want+ to talk to ab\t x all4 ,w y let me8 ,& w y tell me j :at y ?9k8 ,%all we h x z a secret betwe5 u1 t y help me l t8 ,oh1 ,paul6 ,c\ld ,i8 ,may ,i8 ,x's w y1 he said1 smil+4 ,y "k ,i w4 ,i ?9k !re's no?+ ,i w\ldn't d = y1 ,paul1 %e said4 ,he kiss$ h] aga91 !n1 g5tly1 & %e suff]$ him4 ,!y made an odd c\ple z !y walk$ home toge!r4 ,= a reason he c\ld n h expla9$1 ,paul saw s _m ?+s cle>ly--or ?\ght he saw--t ,*ri/mas night "u ! />s4 ,he put into words ! gr[+ criticism he 0 feel+ ( 8 fa!r's traditional outlook on life & religion4 ,expla9+ ?+s to h]1 !y became cle>] to himself4 ,he set be=e h]1 "o by "o1 ! /raws t _h be5 bl[+ pa/ him on ! w9d4 ,& he _h *os5 well1 = ,edi? ,?ornton und]/ood4 ,i don't see :y evangelicalism %\ld be all pit*-p9e & ,moody & ,sankey1 he grumbl$4 ,i don't see :y ?+s good 9 !mselves %\ld be wrong simply because ev5 ,roman ,ca?olics d !m4 ,i don't love our ,"l less because ,i r l to see *rysan!mums beh9d ! ,holy ,table4 ,d y love ,him m if !y are !re8 %e ask$4 ,no1 ( c\rse n4 ,at lea/--no2 ,i w say no4 ,n t1 at all4 ,b ! beauty ( ?+s reflects ,him someh[4 ,x's easi] to wor%ip 9 an atmosph]e ( beauty1 ,edi?4 ,or x is = me4 ,& surely t c't be wrong6 ,b suppose ,he comes to u ) ,8 face s sc>r$ t !re is no beauty t we %\ld desire ,him8 ,paul fr[n$ a little4 ,t's n exactly :at ,i mean1 he said4 ,!re's no po9t 9 our mak+ ?+s ugly4 ,no4 ,b--oh1 ,i h>dly l to say x to y6--b don't y ?9k1 someh[1 "o r =gets ab\t all t1 see+ ,him8 ,9 sil5ce !y rea*$ ! bottom ( h] /reet1 & /ood a mom5t4 ,edi?1 he exclaim$ impulsively1 y're heaps bett] ?an ,i4 ,pray = me1 d>l+1 won't y8 ,oh1 ,paul1 ( c\rse4 ,& y mu/n't say t4 ,i %all4 ,x's true4444 ,edi?1 :5 %all ,i see y aga98 7#f7 ,! days sp$ by4 ,!y made a curi\s kaleidoscope z ea* morn+ gave a new twi/ to life4 ,paul read mo/ morn+s2 sp5t an aft]noon & ev5+ or two 9 t[n ) ,/re!r :o liv$ 9 ,s\? ,k5s+ton2 & mo/ly took 8 %>e 9 p>o*ial gaieties & m s]i\s bus9ess = ! re/ ( ! "t4 ,he did n f9d x 9 ! lea/ dull4 ,he c\ld /ill sit 9 a clo!s' basket slung on a /\t pole betwe5 two *airs1 & du/ f\r o!rs prec>i\sly ) ! aid ( a big /ick1 amid ! tumultu\s laught] ( a ,mo!rs' ,meet+ ,tea4 ,or he decorat$ ! ,infants' ,*ri/mas ,tree1 di/ribut$ sweets at ! ,sunday ,s*ool ,treat1 box$ ) boys at ! ,lads' ,brigade1 conduct$ a pray] meet+ at ! ,*ri/ian ,endeav\r1 call$ = ,madel9e on ,sunday morn+s & took h] 9 to supp] at sundry p>ties4 ,except at ! latt]1 he met ,edi? frequ5tly & revell$ 9 ! und]/&+ !re 0 betwe5 !m4 ,moreov] !re 0 h>dly ! suspicion ( any rift betwe5 him & 8 fa!r4 ,yet1 once or twice1 bo? ,paul & ,mr4 ,ke/]n 7 aw>e t ?+s 7 n :olly un*ang$4 ,& possibly ! la/ night ( ! old ye> (f]s ! be/ example4 ,! ,vic> _h tak5 ! ,mission ,hall ,wat* ,night ,s]vice1 & 8 son _h gone into ! ve/ry to seek him :5 x 0 ov]4 ,he _h ent]$ )\t knock+ z he 0 us$ to d1 & f\nd 8 fa!r fac+ a /a9$1 un%av51 ragg$ tramp 9 ! little wood & iron room1 ) its inc&esc5t light1 photographs ( previ\s vic>s1 %elf ( hymn & pray] books1 & illum9at$ texts4 ,he apologis$1 & made to g out4 ,come 91 ,paul1 said 8 fa!r4 ,our bro!r "h is seek+ ! ,"l :ile ,he may be f\nd & y c help u bo?4 ,sit d[n a m9ute1 w y4 ,paul wat*$1 :ile 8 fa!r endeav\r$ to p5etrate ! o!r's bewild]$ intellig5ce4 ,! boy saw at once t ! fell[ 0 maudl9 ) dr9k1 b he did n e/imate ! ext5t to :i* ,a few m ye>s %all roll1 & ! hot air ( ! cr[d$ hall1 7 also ent]+ into ! process ( conv]sion4 ,my bro!r1 said 8 fa!r aga91 e>ne/ly1 x has all be5 done = y4 ,y h only to accept4 ,don't take my ^w = x2 let u see :at ,god says4 ,li/54 7,he turn$ ! pages ( 8 ,bible impressively z ?\gh he did n "k ! texts by he>t2 b he 0 :olly unconsci\s ( pos+47 ',?\gh y\r s9s be z sc>let1 !y %all be z :ite z wool4444 ,him t come? to ,me ,i w 9 no wise ca/ out4444 ,! ,"l ha? laid on ,him ! iniquity ( u all4' ,& :at !n8 ,! ,apo/le sums x up3 ',!re=e1 be+ ju/ifi$ by fai?1 we ,,h ,,peace ) ,god1 ?r\gh our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4' ,t is all4 ,claim ,god's free1 p]fect salvation1 & y ,,h ,,peace ) ,god4 ,aye1 aye1 mi/]1 b ,i ba9't be no s*ol>d4 ,i've n b9 s bad z "s blokes ,i kn[s on4 ,a glass o' be] n[ & ag91 ,gawd ,almighty ',e c>n't s5d a bloke to 'ell = t4 ,c ',e n[1 mi/]8 ,i want t] be sav$1 t's wot hi want4 ,t] be sav$4 ,an' ,gawd's tru?1 ,i don't "k wot'll d fur a doss t]night1 ,gawd's /ru?1 mi/]4444 ,let u pray1 said ! cl]gyman sudd5ly4 ,! te>s /ood 9 ,paul's eyes1 z1 8 face hidd5 9 8 h&s aga9/ ! r\gh wood5 b>s ( 8 *air1 he he>d 8 fa!r wre/le ) 8 ,god = ! man's s\l4 ,he nev] he>d 8 fa!r pray ?us )\t see+ a m5tal picture f an old ,bible ( 8 *ildhood1 :]e9 ,jacob1 an ill-drawn figure 9 a :ite robe girt up ab\t 8 wai/1 twi/$ back ) 8 %runk5 s9ew f an angel ) an odd di/ort$ face l ! "o t a crack 9 ! ceil+ made ) ! wall 9 ! c&le-light above 8 b$4 ,ev5 n[1 he saw x aga94 ,"l1 we w n let ,!e g except ,?\ bless u4 ,h m]cy ^u ?is poor /orm-toss$ s\l4 ,give him joy & peace 9 believ+4 ,let !re be joy 9 ! pres5ce ( ! angels ( ,god ?is night ov] "o s9n] return+4 ,out 9 ! %>p air1 he took 8 fa!r's arm4 ,daddy1 he 0 half-drunk4 ,d y ?9k he und]/ood8 ,no?+ is impossible ) ,god1 ,paul1 always rememb] t4 ,if ! ,ma/] c\ld save ! dy+ ?ief1 ,he c save him4 ,a doz5 sil5t paces1 & !n3 ,b1 fa!r1 suppose he 7 run ov] & kill$ on 8 way to ! lodg+ h\se1 ?is night1 z he is1 d y ?9k he w\ld g /raight to heav58 ,yes1 ,paul1 ,i d--by ! inf9ite grace ( ,god4 ,drunk z he 01 ,i believe he knew :at he said :5 he repeat$3 ',j z ,i am--,i come1' aft] me4 ,b--b---- ,paul f\nd x h>d to put 8 new ?\ght into words4 ,well1 ,paul1 laddie1 out ) x4 ,well1 dad1 ,i don't see h[ t c\ld h made him fit = heav54 ,8 fa!r's h& tight5$ on 8 arm4 ,nor ,i1 ,paul1 nor any man4 ,b d y suppose t ,god w g back on ,8 pl$g$ & writt5 ,^w8 ,& !n1 j !n1 a memory _h %ot ?r\gh ,paul's m9d4 ,:i* ( ! t5 score diff]5t v]sions8 ,mann+ _h qu]i$ aga91 coolly4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,fa!r ,,vassall ,god1 if !re be any ,god1 speaks daily 9 a new language1 by ! tongues ( m52 ! ?\ghts & habits ( ea* fre% g5]ation & ea* new-co9$ _s ?r[ ano!r light ^u ! univ]se1 & conta9 ano!r comm5t>y on ! pr9t$ ,bibles2 e scruple1 e true diss5t1 e glimpse ( some?+ new1 is a lett] ( ,god's alphabet2 & ?\gh !re is a grave responsibility = all :o speak1 is !re none = ^? :o unrighte\sly keep sil5ce & con=m8 ,is n t also to conceal & cloak ,god's c\nsel8--,,rob]t ,,l\is ,,/ev5son3 ,lay ,morals4 7#a7 ,mr4 ,tressor _h n yet return$ f lectur+1 ! man said 9 response to ,paul's knock1 b he _h left ^w t he w\ld n be m ?an a few m9utes late4 ,w\ld ,mr4 ,ke/]n come 98 ,mr4 ,mann+ 0 also com+ to lun*eon4 ,z ! door ( ! don's keep+-room clos$ beh9d him1 ,paul look$ r\nd eag]ly4 ,he walk$ ov] to ! fireplace & /ood on ! rug1 ) 8 back to ! fire z if he own$ ! place4 ,8 eyes rov$ r\nd ! rememb]$ room4 ,!re 7 ! book%elves1 ) ! hid electric lights at ! top ( !m z he knew1 9 :i*1 dur+ j su* a mom5t ( wait+1 he _h once look$ = ,mr4 ,tressor's own works & f\nd none4 ,!re 7 ! few odd vivid little pictures--! amateur photograph ( ,tressor himself ) a leap+ pack ( dogs1 ! c>toon f ,vanity ,fair1 ! wat]-col\r ( ! old h\se 9 ! ,weald1 ,loggan's pr9t ( ! ,college1 an impression ( ! gorge at ,ronda1 & a p5cil sket* ( ! ,*elsea ,embankm5t4 ,!re 7 ! few big com=table *airs2 ! little table ) its fat cig>ette-box1 a new book or two1 ! ivory pap]-cutt]2 ! tall firescre51 n us$ n[1 ( fad$ tape/ry2 ! w9d[-seat4 ,he glanc$ ?r\gh ! high wide w9d[s4 ,! b>e trees ( ! ,fell[s' g>d5 7 wet & dismal 9 a ,janu>y mi/1 b se5 s1 ,paul _h an odd feel+ t !y 7 quiet & dignifi$4 ,9 %ort1 x 0 ! old room1 ) its air ( s]5e1 sil5t wait+1 9 :i* ! boy _h already se5 visions & dream$ dreams4 ,mr4 ,tressor came 91 big1 sl[1 k9dly4 ,he %ook h&s ) ,paul1 smil+ ^u him4 ,well1 glad to be up aga98 ,be5 writ+ m v]ses 9 ! ,vac41 eh8 ,paul %ook 8 head4 ,i c\ld n write at home1 someh[1 he said4 ,:y n8 ,i don't "k4 ,i 0 too busy1 p]haps1 = "o ?+4 ,read+8 ,no1 n mu*4 7,paul hesitat$4 ,!n he spoke out47 ,y see !re's no end to d 9 a p>i%1 ,*ri/mas-"t4 ,! o!r nodd$ ) a compreh5sion at :i* ,paul wond]$ slightly4 ,i "k4 ,s*ool treats1 socials & pray] meet+s4 ,i admire ! p :o d !m enorm\sly4 ,i suppose y _h y\r full %>e8 ,yes1 said ,paul1 & 0 sil5t1 rememb]+ ,edi?4 ,x 0 odd--,tressor & ,edi?4 ,& he lik$ bo?4 ,mann+ 0 ann\nc$4 ,mann+ ent]$ easily1 nodd$ to ,tressor1 apologis$ = be+ late1 & greet$ ,paul4 ,hullo1 ,paul1 he said1 _h a good ,vac48 ,we 7 j talk+ ( 8 manifold activities1 said ,tressor1 b ,i expect lun*eon is ready4 ,let's g 94 ,paul felt a little out ( x dur+ ! meal4 ,! o!rs talk$ s easily ( places1 p & ?+s :i* 7 =eign to him4 ,p]sonalities 7 m5tion$ ( :om y nev] he>d at ,claxt$4 ,he felt an absurd desire to retaliate 9 k9d & tell ( a re/aurant lun* ) ,gipsy ,smi? aft] a big meet+ 9 ,we/m9/] ,*apel & ( vet]an ,mr4 ,h5ry ,hut*9son's visit to 8 fa!r4 ,b q possibly nei!r ,tressor nor ,mann+ _h ev] he>d ( ! ,_w's ,conf]5ce ( ,*ri/ian ,endeav\r or ( ! ,*ildr5's ,special ,s]vice ,mission4 ,also1 ?\gh he knew :at to d at table ( c\rse1 he 0 r on 8 gu>d4 ,he 0 self-consci\s :5 he _h to help himself f ! di%es ) :i* ! man s]v$ him4 ,at home1 help+s 7 h&$ to y4 ,!y w5t back to ! /udy = c(fee1 & x 0 !n t ,mann+ rem>k$ disconnect$ly to ! don3 ,i he> ,fa!r ,vassall is com+ into resid5ce at ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* ?is t]m4 ,yes4 ,he's a great prea*] 9 8 way4 ,h y he>d him8 ,no1 b ,i %all g4 ,ca?olicism int]e/s me4 ,!re's s mu* m to be said = x ?an = any o!r =m ( religion x seems to me1--& j z mu* to be said aga9/ x4 ,tressor laugh$1 & look$ across at ,paul4 ,:at d y say to t1 ,ke/]n8 he ask$4 ,paul glanc$ f "o to ! o!r1 & flu%$ slightly4 ,!re seems to me no?+ 9 ! _w to be said = x1 he said bravely4 ,!re y are1 ,mann+1 laugh$ ,tressor k9dly4 ,& ,i mu/ say ,i agree ) ,ke/]n 9 ! ma94 ,mann+ cross$ 8 legs1 & lit a cig>ette4 ,d y8 he said1 9 8 cool1 att5tive1 b cynical way4 ,i suppose y w\ld4 ,b ,i %all divide my foes1 aft] ! ,apo/olic mann]4 ,y d n believe 9 dogma2 ,paul does4 ,surely---- began ,paul1 & /opp$1 wi%+ he _h n begun4 ,well8 qu]i$ ,tressor4 ,paul took ! plunge4 ,well1 y believe 9 our ,"l1 sir1 don't y8 ,& surely ! ,atonem5t & ! ,resurrection /& = dogmas4 ,mann+ & ,tressor ex*ang$ a glance4 ,mann+ laugh$4 ',n[ ! ,sadducees say !re is no resurrection1' he quot$4 ,paul look$ bewild]$2 ! eld] don a little grave4 ,i expect we d n bo? int]pret ! /ory 9 q ! same way1 ,ke/]n1 he said4 ,b1 sir1 said ,paul e>ne/ly1 :at two ways c !re be8 ,! :ole ( ,*ri/ianity is bas$ on our ,"l's ,resurrection4 ',if ,*ri/ be n rais$1 y\r fai? is va94' ,mann+ settl$ himself into 8 *air4 ,d g on1 he said4 ,!ology int]e/s me enorm\sly4 ,i told y1 ,tressor1 t ,paul "h w\ld conv]t y if he c\ld4 ,! boy felt uneasy4 ,he did n want to argue & c\ld n br+ himself to speak to ! don z ,mann+ did1 ?\gh he 0 well aw>e t ,tressor w\ld n 9 ! lea/ h res5t$ x4 ,b he felt he mu/ say some?+1 & 8 evangelical upbr++ taught him :at to say4 ,surely ! ,bible /ory is simple en\gh1 he said4 ,tressor mov$1 = him1 a trifle impati5tly4 ,y ?9k s1 d y8 he said4 ,oh1 yes1 said ,paul1 mu* m sure ( 8 gr\nd n[4 ,i confess ,i d n4 ,:at ( ! discrepancies 9 ! /ory8 ,:at ( ! late additions to ! text8 ,& :at1 /ill m1 ( ! atmosph]e 9 :i* x 0 writt58 ,b ,i grant y1 9 a diff]5t s5se1 t ! ,bible picture is simple en\gh4 ,jesus is to me a simple1 brave1 k9dly man ^: gospel has nev] be5 transc5d$ & ^: _s w nev] die4 ,if y all[ = ,ea/]n imag9ation & ,ca?olic r$uctions1 x is inde$ simple en\gh4 ,paul he>d bewild]$4 ,he knew1 ( c\rse1 t ,high] ,critics exi/$1 a /range1 disloyal1 un-,*ri/ian few1 mo/ly to be f\nd 9 ,g]many--& left !re by s5sible p4 ,x ought1 p]haps1 to be expla9$ t he _h tak5 a s*ol>%ip 9 hi/ory & 0 read+ = t ,tripos4 ,at ,claxt$1 a !ological degree seem$ unnecess>y4 ,! ,gospel 0 s simple t ! ,bi%op's exam9ation1 to be tak5 9 due c\rse1 0 tra9+ all suffici5t = a ,*ri/ian m9i/]4 ,gipsy ,smi?1 = example1 knew little !ology4 ,b1 he /amm]$1 our ,"l 0 ,god4 ,he di$ to save u4 ,if ,he _h n be5 ,god1 :at p[] c\ld !re h be5 9 ! ,cross8 ,:at m]it 9 ,8 ,blood8 ,a little sil5ce fell on !m all4 ,tressor1 aft] 8 fa%ion1 0 smok+ cig>ettes 9 ha/y puffs1 ext+ui%+ "o aft] ano!r 9 8 a%-tray half burn$4 ,mann+ />$ ?\ghtfully & a little cynically into ! fire4 ,paul's que/ions hung 9 ! air1 & 8 li/5]s' sil5ce answ]$ !m4 ,i wond] h[ long y w believe all t1 qu]i$ ,tressor gravely4 ,all my life1 answ]$ ,paul resolutely1 8 emb>rassm5t gone4 ,i hope to sp5d x prea*+ ! ,gospel4 ,x seems to me !re is no?+ else wor? do+4 ,:at good is !re 9--7he ne>ly said all ?is1 b *eck$ himself 9 "t7--9 le>n+1 com=t1 art1 music1 any?+1 except z aids to ?is8 ,:at else matt]s besides ?is8 ,sir1 surely y see t6 ,x 0 odd t ! don %\ld e*o ,maud ,?ornton1 b he did4 ,y w\ld make u all =eign mission>ies1 ,i suppose1 he said4 ,only = a mom5t did ,paul hesitate4 ,!n3 ,yes1 he said simply1 ,i suppose ,i w\ld4 ,n all are call$ to ! same sort ( "w1 ( c\rse1 b x %\ld be all to t end4 ,aga9 8 li/5]s ex*ang$ glances1 b ?is "t !y c\ld af=d to smile4 ,i fe> ,i %\ld make a poor mission>y1 said ,tressor4 ,paul look$ at him1 di/ress$4 ,he _h n meant to br+ ! conv]sation to su* a head1 b :at else c\ld he h said8 ,! don saw 8 uneas9ess1 & rose1 smil+4 ,well1 ,ke/]n1 he said1 don't ?9k ,i m9d 9 ! lea/ y\r say+ :at y ?9k4 ,besides y are flatt]+2 ,i confess no "o yet ev5 ?\ght he saw a pot5tial mission>y 9 me4 ,b h[ev] tight y sit to y\r dogmas1 ,i %\ld give e> to ! o!r side also1 if ,i 7 y4 ,aft] all1 y are up "h = t1 ar5't y8 ,& n[ ,i'm walk+ ) ! ,ma/] ?is aft]noon1 & ,i fe> ,i've got to g4 ,come aga9 sometime4 ,look 9 any ev5+4 ,if ,i'm busy1 ,i'll say s4 ,& br+ me "s m v]ses4 ,good-bye4 ,paul1 on 8 feet1 v5tur$ h[ev] "o m direct "q4 ,good-bye1 sir1 he said1 b x worries me4 ,d tell me "o ?+4 ,d y hone/ly mean t1 z y read y\r ,bible1 y d n ?9k ,*ri/ dogmatic8 ,hone/ly1 ,i d n1 said ,tressor1 & nodd$ k9dly4 ,good-bye1 he said aga94 7#b7 ,x 0 ,mann+ :o enlight5$ ,paul on ! o!r's attitude1 h[ev]1 mu* lat] 9 ! t]m4 ,spr+ _h made an unexpect$ly e>ly appe>ance1 & !y took a ,canad] to paddle up ! ,backs4 ,! sunlight lay s(t & lovely on ! mell[ walls1 ! sl[-mov+ black riv]1 ! will[s j break+ into new gre51 & ! trim lawns4 ,paul z yet1 h[ev]1 _h n begun to attempt to f9d refuge 9 beauty & to re/ 8 s\l ^u x4 ,he ev5 survey$ ! ,spr+ fl[]s on ! banks ( ,tr9ity ,fell[s' g>d5 ) dissatisfaction4 ,tressor's k9dly b obvi\sly unmov$ criticism ( a rapture ( 8 read to him ! night be=e on ! p>allel ( natural & sup]natural resurrection1 _h occasion$ m imm$iately 8 pres5t attitude4 ,i don't und]/& x at all1 he rem>k$ to ,mann+1 digg+ 8 paddle f]oci\sly into ! wat] & =c+ 8 companion to lean h>d on 8 9 ! /]n to escape /rik+ ! c5tre ar* ( ,tr9ity ,bridge4 ,well1 let u avoid a collision anyway1 said ,mann+ good-hum\r$ly4 ,b look "h1 ,paul1 ,tressor's position is simple en\gh4 ,y read ! ,bible z if x 7 ye/]day's ,times2 he doesn't4 ,he consid]s1 fir/1 ! difficulty ( *oos+ betwe5 ! v>iations 9 ! _m texts2 !n ! difficulty ( gett+ back beh9d fif?-c5tury manuscripts to ! orig9al2 !n ! difficulty ( kn[+ h[ mu* ! orig9al owes to ! unsci5tific m9d & ,ea/]n imag9ation ( ! writ]4 ,heav5s6 ,y read hi/ory6 ,d y n d ! same ?+ ) ,b$e & ! ,anglo-,saxon ,*ronicle & all ! re/ ( ! mu/y /uff8 ,well1 !n1 9 8 m9d ! ,*ri/ %r9ks to %ad[y proportions4 ,he rema9s possibly ! mo/ int]e/+ & arre/+ figure 9 hi/ory1 b t is all4 ,y see1 resurrection or no1 all ^? ev5ts are n9ete5 hundr$ ye>s beh9d u4 ,paul leant back 9 8 canoe & =got to paddle4 ,oh1 he said at la/1 ,i see4 ,! o!r look$ at him curi\sly4 ,y're an odd fi%1 ,paul1 he said4 ,:at d y see8 ,i see ! diff]5ce betwe5 ,tressor's ,*ri/ianity &--& my fa!r's4 ,:i* is8 ,tressor reads ab\t ,*ri/1 b my fa!r kn[s ,him4 ,he is m real to my fa!r1 ,mann+1 ?an ,i am4 ,! curi\s look di$ out ( ,mann+'s face1 b an affectionate r+ crept into 8 voice4 ,"l1 ,paul1 y're a rum ass1 y "k1 he said1 b y are r an int]e/+ "o4 ,paul 0 due at ,dick ,h>tley's = tea1 & z soon z !y _h l&$1 he ru%$ r\nd to 8 fri5d4 ,x 0 odd1 he ?\ght z he w5t1 h[ "o sudd5ly saw ?+s1 by "s curi\s indef9able process1 :i* "o _h kn[n1 "o ?\ght1 = ye>s4 ,aft] all1 he _h prea*$ on ! ,bl9d ,begg> 9 ,/4 ,john's ,gospel a score ( times "o way & ano!r1 yet he _h nev] really und]/ood x until ?is aft]noon4 ,he _h kn[n ,*ri/ ev] s9ce he c\ld well rememb]1 b someh[ x 0 ! ,*ri/ ( ! pr9t$ page t he _h kn[n4 ,alive to-day1 yes1 b n alive 9 su* a way t ,8 liv+ actually solv$ intellectual d\bts4 ,to ,paul1 ! ,cambridge /reets _h sudd5ly become ! /reets ( a ,new ,j]usalem4 ,f old gables to mod]n %op-fronts1 !y _h all at once become intimate & t5d]4 ,he ?\ght1 ev5 z he ran1 t j z he _h come to dwell t5d]ly on a m5tal image ( ,edw>d ,/reet because ,edi? liv$1 mov$1 & _h association !re1 s n[ ! :ole _w 0 transfigur$ be=e him4 ,*ri/ mov$ 9 x1 & he knew ,*ri/4 ,he rattl$ up ! wood5 /airs to 8 fri5d's room & bur/ 9 almo/ )\t knock+4 ,dick 0 read+ 9 an arm-*air & a kettle hiss$ on ! hob4 ,he look$ up f 8 book4 ,heav5s6 ,:at's ! matt]8 he ask$1 smil+4 ,paul sl[$ d[n1 %ut ! door1 & came ov] to ! fire1 8 face %9+4 ,i say1 ,dick1 he said1 d y realise :at x means t we "k ,*ri/8 ,! old] man />$1 z well he might h done4 ,!n a r envi\s expression crept into 8 face4 ,wi/fulness 0 sc>cely :at "o ?\ght ( 9 connection ) matt]-(-fact1 a?letic1 sob]-m9d$ ,dick ,h>tley1 b x 0 !re at t mom5t4 ,ah1 he said %ortly1 & 0 sil5t4 ,( c\rse ,i ?\ght ,i did1 p\r$ out ,paul excit$ly1 walk+ up & d[n1 b ,i beg9 to ?9k ,i nev] h till ?is aft]noon4 ,i see1 n[1 :at's ! matt] ) ,tressor & ,mann+ & all ! re/ ( !m4 ,!y ?9k ,*ri/ is a /ory out ( a book1 ,dick4 ,ev5 ,i 7all innoc5t ( self-righte\s priggi%ness 0 ,paul71 ev5 ,i ?\ght ( ,him only z emotionally alive1 s to speak4 ,b ,he lives1 ,dick1 ,he lives6 ,we "k ,him6 ,we ar5't worri$ by criticism or any ( _! intellectual d\bts1 because we "k ,him4 ,don't y see8 ,dick clos$ ,h>nack's ,acts ( ! ,apo/les & put x on "o side4 ,y h a great gift ( fai?1 ,paul1 he said4 ,fai?6 ,x isn't fai?6 ,x's sight1 ,i tell y4 ,:y1 man1 look "h1 if ,mann+ 7 to come gravely to my room to-night & argue t y 7 a my?1 :at ! blazes d y ?9k ,i %\ld say8 ,i %\ld laugh 9 8 face6 ',:y1 ,i _h tea ) him ?is aft]noon1' ,i %\ld say6 ,& x's ! same ) ,jesus4 ,dick--! eag] voice hu%$ a little--we're hav+ tea ) ,him ?is aft]noon4 ,h>tley did n laugh4 ,he half glanc$ r\nd4 ,c "o act on t altoge!r8 he qu]i$4 ,paul flung out 8 h& ) an eag] ge/ure4 ,:y n8 he cri$4 ,"o %\ld act on x absolutely ,i ?9k4 ,h>tley spoke sl[ly4 ,well1 b w\ld ,*ri/ /ay "h1 read ,h>nack1 take 9 a newspap] 78 eyes rov$ ! room71 r[1 get new w9d[-curta9s1 &--& fall 9 love8 ,8 gaze re/$ on a portrait on ! mantelpiece4 ,paul's h& fell to 8 side4 ,he1 too1 glanc$ r\nd ! simple1 commonplace1 9 ! op9ion ( mo/ p sev]ely pla9 room4 ,!n he dropp$ into a *air4 ,y mu/ ask ,him1 he said sl[ly4 ,suppose ,i h8 ,!n y mu/ d :at ,he says4 ,dick 0 altoge!r m sl[1 m solid1 ?an ,paul4 ,he began to make tea4 ,x's odd1 he said1 busy ov] ! cups1 b ,i'm n sure t ,i "k4 ,ah1 said ,paul1 /ill triumphant & impetu\s1 ,i ask$ y if y really knew ,him1 ,dick4 7#c7 ,9 ,hursley ,woods t vacation1 ,paul expla9$ x all to ,edi?4 ,!y 7 seat$ side by side on a fall5 log1 & all ar\nd !m ! fre% blue ( ! wild hyac9?s 0 un/a9$ z ,p>adise4 ,!y lit ! dull day ) a radiance ( _! own4 ,br[n & gre5 & grey bl5t ab\t !m & fad$ into di/ance1 & he held h] h&4 ,! two _h j kiss$ ) a solemn virg9al innoc5ce4 ,!y 7 glad1 b n gay4 ,francis ( ,assisi w\ld h wond]$ at !m1 _h he be5 !re4 ,z x 0 "o ( 8 bre?r51 a big blackbird ) a bright enquir+ eye1 emphatically did s4 ,x probably /ruck him t ^! re/ra9$ humans 7 out ( place 9 su* a vivid1 t+l+1 riot\s life z t ( a wood 9 spr+4 ,he hopp$ (f to look = a worm4 ,paul r5ew$ ! conv]sation t ! kiss+ _h int]rupt$4 ,y see1 ,edi?1 de>1 he said1 x's s illogical to believe "o ?+ & act ano!r4 ,:at are ! realities ( life8 ,god1 & a lo/ _w1 & ,*ri/ our ,savi\r4 ,:at does any?+ matt] beside !m8 ,bo? ,dick & ,i feel t ev]y?+--ev]y?+--ought to be surr5d]$ to ,him4 ,ev5 ?+s good 9 !mselves mu/ g d[n be=e ! awful necessity ( prea*+ ! ,gospel4 ,m9d y1 ,i don't speak ( le>n+ q z ,i did4 ,i see1 = example1 t if ,i get a fir/ 9 my ,hi/ory1 x w be ( use 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,b all ! re/--d y see8 ,%e nodd$ sl[ly4 ,yes1 9 a way1 %e said4 ,look "h--he jump$ up eag]ly--,i'll give y an illu/ration4 ,x's a silly "o1 9 a way1 b x's all ! bett] = t4 ,x's ! commonplace ?+s p won't see4 ,9 my rooms1 la/ t]m1 ,donaldson & ,/re!r & ,i--oh1 & a man call$ ,hannam--7 discuss+ dress4 ,donaldson 0 say+ t !re 0 no reason :y a ,*ri/ian %\ldn't we> dec5t socks--clock$1 gay ?+s l 8 own4 ,!re 0 no?+ wrong 9 !m1 he said4 ,i agre$1 b ,i c\ldn't help x2 ,i said3 ',w\ld ,*ri/ h worn !m8 ,w\ld ,he h sp5t an extra %ill+ on a yell[ /ripe 9 ,8 socks :5 t %ill+ w\ld s5d a ,te/am5t to ,*9a8' ,w\ld ,he8 ,:at d y ?9k8 ,he w\ld n1 %e said4 ,exactly4 ,9 8 triumph1 ,paul sob]$ & sat d[n4 ,!re's no escape1 he said4 ,edi? leant =w>d & prodd$ ! s(t e>? ) a /ick4 ,!n y'd we> ! olde/ clo!s & live on j any?+ & h no home & g ab\t prea*+1 %e said4 ,exactly1 said ,paul aga94 ,b :at w\ld happ5 to ! _w if ev]yone did t8 qu]i$ ,edi?4 ,t is n our conc]n1 said ,paul gravely4 ,i d n "k & ,i d n c>e4 ,b ?is ,i d "k1 if ,*ri/ians />t$ 9 to d t1 !y'd--!y'd--well1 !y'd turn ! _w upside d[n4 ,:i* is exactly :at ! _w said ,paul & ,b>nabas 7 do+4 ,& s x /on$ !m4 ,s x /on$ !m4 ,y're q "r4 ,x 0 ! ,apo/les' lives or _! own4 ,hea!n ,rome saw ! issue admirably4 ,hea!n ,engl& doesn't4 ,:y n8 ,because ,*ri/ians are no long] ,apo/olic4 ,! girl turn$ wide eyes on him4 ,b oh6 ,paul1 %e cri$1 ?9k :at t means6 ,x w\ld mean giv+ up ev]y?+2 x w\ld mean dea?6 ',i c d all ?+s ?r\gh ,*ri/ t /r5g!ne? me'1 quot$ ,paul gravely4 ,! girl look$ away4 ,! he>t ( ! ri* woods grew dim be=e h]4 ,%e fumbl$ = h] h&k]*ief4 ,v t5d]ly ! boy put 8 arm ab\t h]4 ,edi?1 d>l+1 he said1 don't ?9k ,i don't love y4 ,i don't ?9k ,i've ev] lov$ y m ?an ,i d n[4 ,b if ,*ri/ told u to put our love aside1--= a :ile1 d[n "h p]haps1--c\ld we refuse ,him8 ,all ! woman 9 h] revolt$4 ,i don't "k6 %e sobb$4 ,i don't m9d giv+ up ev]y?+ else4 ,b ,i c\ld help y4 ,paul's own eyes cl\d$4 ,de>1 d>l+ ,edi?1 he said1 ,i "k y c\ld4 ,& y w\ld help too4 ,i expect y w4 ,oh1 ,i hope s--y don't "k h[ mu*6 ,b we ought to face ! full bitt]ness ( ! ,cross1 & !n1 if ,god makes x possible1 take :at ,he gives u v gratefully4 ,surely y see t8 ,! girl dabb$ at h] eyes & roll$ h] h&k]*ief into a h>d ball4 ,!n %e look$ up at him ) a w9try smile4 ,i %\ldn't love y s mu* if y w]5't s awfully "r always1 ,paul1 %e said4 7#d7 ,9 8 new eag]ness1 ,paul sprang a m9e on 8 fa!r4 ,he w5t up to t[n to meet ,/re!r :o _h tak5 a c\ple ( tickets = a mat9e ( ,pet] ,pan1 ) :i* play 8 fri5d's curi\s p]sonality 0 viol5tly intrigu$4 ,! arti/ 9 ,paul revell$ 9 ! fairy tale1 & deep call$ to deep be=e ! boy :o w\ld n gr[ up4 ,b 8 passionate cre$ w\ld n let him alone4 ,x's all v well1 ,gus ,/re!r1 he said1 arm 9 arm 9 ,reg5t ,/reet1 b d y ?9k a girl ought to dress up l t 9 boy's clo!s8 ,& :at good does x d8 ,x's l sitt+ d[n to play a r\nd game :ile ! h\se is on fire6 ,/re!r grunt$4 ,he 0 betwe5 ! devil & ! deep sea4 ,he lov$ ,pet] ,pan ) a deep love t 0 all ! fond] = be+ buri$ s deep 9 8 que] hidd5 self1 b he hat$ ,paul9e ,*ase--at lea/ on ! picture po/c>ds4 ,t1 !n1 he pass$ ov]4 ,b ! o!r he w\ld n pass4 ,y r[1 & eat *ocolate biscuits 9 my rooms :ile ! h\se is on fire1 he retort$4 ,only :ile wait+ to get to "w1 p]si/$ ,paul4 ,might be at a pray] meet+1 gr[l$ ! o!r4 ,paul ass5t$ sadly4 ,i admit t's logical1 he said4 ,/re!r l5g!n$ 8 unga9ly /ride4 ,bald]da%1 he mutt]$4 ,if y tri$ to live at pray] meet+s1 y'd soon cease to live at all4 ,g & see ,pet] ,pan :ile y're wait+ to get to "w4 ,x's a bad example4 ,p w\ldn't und]/&4 ,b x's awfully jolly4 ,?\ght y'd got a bloom9' text up 9 y\r rooms to make 'em und]/&4 ,paul /opp$ 9 ! middle ( ,reg5t ,/reet4 ,i've got x1 he cri$ excit$ly4 ,i'll put a cross up z well--a big1 pla91 empty cross ov] my writ+-table4 ,?\ght t 0 ,popi%4 ,i don't c>e if x's ,popi% or n4 ,x's a symbol ( ,*ri/4 ,! %ad[ ( x ought to lie ev]y:]e & t\* ev]y?+4 ,come on1 let's g & get "o n[4 ,m[bray's h !m4 ,come on4 ,!re's "t be=e tea4 ,! odd pair explor$ ! premises ( ! ,m>g>et ,/reet %op4 ,secretly1 ,paul 0 mov$ by ! beauty ( ! crucifixes1 ?\gh 8 s\l 0 /irr$ by a ho/ ( ,madonnas :i* %\ld h be5 pa9t$1 he said1 quot+ a ,prote/ant tract1 z if ! ,virg9 7 a woman ( fifty1 & 7 n4 ,/re!r lur*$ ar\nd1 grunt+ to himself4 ,he 0 curi\s ov] mo/ ?+s4 ,paul b\ght a big pla9 cross = 8 rooms1 &1 on second ?\ghts1 a small silv] "o = 8 wat**a94 ,?\ght y ought to give all y\r money to ! ,*9ese1 said ,/re!r4 ,paul laugh$4 ,old ass1 he said2 ?is is mission>y "w4 ,miss ,bi%op happ5$ to be at 8 home z he unroll$ 8 p>cel4 ,%e 0 cau/ic & cynical4 ,my exp]i5ce is t if y we> ! cross on y\r wat*-*a91 y soon cease to be> x 9 y\r he>t1 %e said4 ,paul retort$ hotly4 ,:y8 he dem&$4 ,x's t k9d ( say+ t we h got to disprove4 ,*ri/ is real to me4 ,i want to feel ,him at e turn4 ,i want to give up all my life to ! ,cross4 ,?is is only ! sign ( x1 ,i "k1 b :y %\ld y argue t my we>+ ( ! sign w make ! ?+ itself unreal to me1 j because "s p we> x & h =gott5 its mean+8 ,b is x necess>y1 ,paul8 qu]i$ 8 "m g5tly4 ,y don't und]/&1 "m1 said ,paul4 ,is x necess>y to put up y\r portrait 9 my rooms at ,cambridge8 ,c't ,i rememb] y )\t8 ,8 "m sigh$2 t 0 s l ,paul4 ,8 fa!r look$ tr\bl$4 ,x's ! ?9 end ( ! w$ge1 laddie1 he said1 s (t54 ,we don't1 ( c\rse1 object to ! ?+ itself2 x's only t we hate ! religion t has de/roy$ ! tru? ( ,*ri/ :ile x has deck$ itself out ) crosses4 ,isn't ! ,savi\r )\t ! symbol en\gh = y1 my boy8 ,! old devil is s cunn+1 ,paul1 lad4 ,& ! cocksure folk are ! p he gets fir/1 add$ ,miss ,bi%op4 ,!n1 said ,paul %rewdly1 y ought to look out1 ,miss ,bi%op4 ,paul1 said 8 fa!r /]nly1 y =get y\rself4 7#e7 ,yet "o might almo/ h suppos$ t ,miss ,bi%op _h inde$ /irr$ ! devil into action4 ,%e w\ld h said t he 0 positively wait+ = cocksure ,paul t v fir/ aft]noon ( ! ,may t]m4 ,8 emiss>y 0 a y\?ful-look+ man1 r small1 light & quick 9 movem5t1 fair ( complexion1 ) al]t1 ke51 grey-blue eyes t p]petually brimm$ ov] ) hum\r1 al?\gh ! home ( x 0 l[ d[n 9 !m1 out ( sight4 ,he 0 decor\sly dress$ 9 black1 b ) a r %abby button$ frock-coat1 = he 0 c>eless ( appe>ances1 & :5 he spoke at fir/ to /rang]s1 or if he 7 unusually mov$1 !re 0 (t5 a little /amm] 9 8 voice4 ,he 01 9 %ort1 ! ,rev4 ,fa!r ,vassall1 a ,popi% prie/4 ,paul f\nd him 9 ,hannam's rooms1 ,hannam be+ ! new acqua9tance ( ! previ\s t]m4 ,he kept 9 ! rooms bel[ ,paul1 :o did n c>e = him p>ticul>ly1 & _h1 inde$1 done no m ?an call ! fir/ t]m4 ,b ,hannam 0 a lonely individual1 ( some:at ecc5tric ta/es1 "o ( :i* 0 = v]se4 ,he1 !re=e1 admir$ ,paul & ,paul's writ+s1 & latt]ly ! two _h se5 m ( ea* o!r4 ,paul knew1 t he 0 a ,ca?olic1 b z "o did n exactly associate religion ( any sort ) ,hannam1 :o1 nev]!less1 0 tol]ant ( ,paul's ard5t fai?1 ?is fact _h n obtrud$ z "o might h expect$4 ,?us1 !n1 x *anc$ t ,ke/]n arriv$ at ,/4 ,m>y's a day be=e ,mann+1 & by an e>li] tra9 ?an t ( any ( 8 m intimate fri5ds4 ,he 0 *aff+ old ,tom ab\t f\r ( ! clock 9 ! ,fir/ ,c\rt1 & on 8 way to 8 rooms knock$ by an impulse at ,hannam's door4 ,hallo1 ,ke/]n1 cri$ ,hannam joyfully z he ent]$1 glad y're up e>ly4 ,want "s tea8 ,d come 94 ,let me introduce y--,fa!r ,vassall1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n ( ?is college4 ,paul f\nd himself %ak+ h&s ) ! ,popi% prie/4 ,he did x n]v\sly1 b ) obvi\s int]e/4 ,odd z x may seem1 ,popi% prie/s 7 z r>e & z /range to ,paul z ,buddhi/ monks4 ,! /rang] seem$ to appreciate ! fact4 ,8 eyes tw9kl$4 ,h-,h-,hannam has t-told me a little ab\t y1 ,mr4 ,k-,ke/]n1 he said4 ,paul laugh$ engag+ly1 & mu* m pleasantly ?an "o ought to d ) ! devil4 ,b !n !re 0 an air ab\t ?is prie/ t 0 amaz+ly boyi%1 eag] & attractive4 ,y felt at once1 z x 71 8 radiant p]sonality4 ,besides !re 7 no hypocrisies ab\t ,fa!r ,vassall1 & he always came /raight to ! po9t4 ,8 tone sugge/$ to ,paul :at he meant4 ,t ,i am a fi]ce ,prote/ant1 ,i suppose y mean1 smil$ ,paul4 ,& a p-p-poet1 /amm]$ ! little prie/1 :i* is v mu* nic]1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,y two ought to h a lot 9 common1 put 9 ,hannam ) lazy int]e/4 ,fa!r ,vassall 0 once a ,prote/ant1 ,ke/]n1 & he is /ill a poet4 ,mu* b-bett] ,p-,p-,prote/ant ?an p-p-poet1 explod$ ! accus$ m]rily4 ,!y drew r\nd ! fire ) _! tea4 ,conv]sation rang$ ov] _! do+s 9 ! vacation & ! prospects ( ! t]m1 & ,paul le>n$ t ,fa!r ,vassall _h be5 a wet ,bob at ,eton & cox ( 8 college crew at ! ,univ]sity4 ,absurdly en\gh1 he _h nev] associat$ su* heal?y do+s ) ,papi/ry4 ,b ,fa!r ,vassall _h be5 a ,prote/ant !n4 ,?is amaz+ fact held ,paul's m9d4 ,x /agg]$ him to ?9k t ,prote/ants c\ld ev] become ,ca?olics4 ,he look$ on ! prie/ ) amazem5t & real sorr[4 ,= "o ?+ he c\ld nev] h kn[n ,*ri/4444 ,hannam ask$ ,paul if he _h be5 to ! !atre2 ,paul confess$ to ,pet] ,pan2 ,fa!r ,vassall said t above all ?+s he w\ld l to see x4 ,:y don't y g !n8 enquir$ ,paul c>elessly4 ,p-prie/s are =bidd5 to g to p-plays1 said ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,:at6 cri$ ,paul4 ,ridicul\sly1 x 0 8 fir/ %ock4 ,he _h always und]/ood t actors1 actresses & ,roman ,ca?olics own$ ! same ma/] & 7 z ?ick z ?ieves1 & "h 0 a prie/ pr(ess+ to be =bidd5 by 8 ,*ur* to g to ! !atre at all6 ,fa!r ,vassall expla9$4 ,b we c g to m-m-music halls1 he /amm]$1 8 eyes alight ) mis*ief4 ,ke/]n pref]s mission>y meet+s1 said ,hannam4 ,:y1 exclaim$ ! prie/ eag]ly1 8 /utt] all b disappe>+ 9 8 en?usiasm2 y %\ld come & he> ,fa!r ,k5elm !n1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,he has be5 t-?irty ye>s 9 ,s\? ,am]ica1 & is utt]ly devot$ to our ,"l & ! ,*ur*'s "w out !re4 ,he is ov] "h arrang+ = ! publication ( ! ,b-,bible 9 "o ( ! native tongues & is speak+ 9 ,cambridge ?is week4 ,! ,bible6 cri$ ,paul agha/4 ,b ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* does n all[ p to read ! ,bible6 ,hannam gr9n$1 & ?rew himself back 9 8 *air4 ,he anticipat$ enjoym5t4 ,fa!r ,k5elm has himself translat$1 publi%$ & di/ribut$ "s half-million ,b-,bibles 9 two or ?ree l-l-languages1 retort$ ! prie/4 ,b1 ,fa!r1 said ,paul1 utt]ly s]i\s1 copy+ ,hannam's mode ( address & sc>cely notic+ x 9 8 eag]ness1 y c't d5y t y\r ,*ur* burnt ,bibles op5ly 9 ,/4 ,paul's ,*ur*y>d at ! ,re=mation4 ,nev] "o1 said ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,paul /iff5$ angrily1 ?\gh 8 ang] relax$ into bewild]m5t at ! o!r's laugh+ face4 ,! prie/ leant =w>d4 ,h y ev] se5 a copy ( :at we did b-burn8 ask$ ! o!r4 ,paul %ook 8 head4 ,well1 ,i c\ld %[ y "o at ! ,presbyt]y4 ,we burnt ,p-,prote/ant copies ( ! ,holy ,scripture :i* _h be5 mutilat$ by ! removal ( :ole books & made worse ?an valueless by ! bias ( ! translation & ! m-m>g9al notes t _h be5 add$4 ,ah1 said ,paul1 reliev$1 ,i see4 ,b t dep5ds on :at view y take ( ! notes4 ,excuse me1 retort$ ! o!r1 x does n4 ,we burnt annotat$ & mis-translat$ portions ( ! ,scriptures1 n ! ,holy ,bible4 ,^? are indisputable hi/orical f-facts4 ,! annotation _c be d5i$ & ! mis-translation is prov$ ev5 by y\r own ,revis$ ,v]sion4 ,& z = motive1 may ,i ask :at y w\ld advise a hea!n conv]t ( y\rs to d :o 0 giv5 a ,bible conta9+ notes :i* taught ,t-,transub/antiation & ,m-m-m>iolatry8 ,burn x1 said ,paul in/antly4 ,! little prie/ laugh$4 ,q-q-q s1 he explod$4 ,he has y1 ,ke/]n1 put 9 ,hannam2 admit x4 ,h a cig>ette1 ,fa!r4 ,paul glanc$ f "o to ! o!r4 ,i d1 he said frankly4 ,b1 ,fa!r1 y int]e/ me enorm\sly4 7,he hesitat$47 ,may ,i speak frankly8 ,! prie/ nodd$1 ) a little quick ge/ure1 8 eyes se>*+ ! o!r's face4 ,well1 y don't speak ( ,*ri/ &--& s on1 "o little bit z ,i expect$ a ,roman ,ca?olic to speak4 ,mission>ies too--,i h>dly knew y _h any4 ,&--well1 ar5't !y ne>ly always political8 ,ar5't ,ca?olic conv]sions ne>ly always =c$8 ,! prie/ no long] smil$4 ,he look$ away into ! fire4 ,d y suppose x 0 =ce1 he qu]i$ solemnly1 :i* made ,s\? ,am]ican ,indians dig up _! buri$ treasures valu$ at two hundr$ & fifty ?\s& p\nds to give to ,fa!r ,k5elm = ! conv]sion ( ,p-,prote/ant ,engl&8 ,!re 0 magic 9 ,fa!r ,vassall1 & ,paul's imag9ation saw a /ory 9 :i*1 _h ! boot be5 on ! o!r foot1 he w\ld h glori$4 ,a little sil5ce fell on ! conv]sation4 ,sudd5ly3 ,:at ab\t ! ,inquisition8 he qu]i$4 ,y read h-hi/ory8 ! prie/ ask$1 a trifle %>ply4 ,paul nodd$4 ,!n y ought to "k t ! ,spani% ,inquisition 0 political & national1 n ,ca?olic4 ,y ought to "k t "s ( ! mo/ disreputable ,popes protect$ su* p z ! ,jews f ! fury ( fanatics4 ,y ought to "k t ! long-suff]+ ( ! av]age ,bi%op 9 h]esy trials 0 amaz+4 ,read ,gairdn]4 ,b waive all t4 ,see "h1 w\ld y hang a murd]]8 ,( c\rse4 ,!n if y hone/ly b-believ$ t ! tea*+ ( h]esy 0 ! murd]+ ( innoc5t s\ls1 & if y _h ! p[]1 :at w\ld y d to h]etics8 ,paul's sil5ce 0 suffici5t answ] to ! old dilemma4 ,z to actual p5alties1 ! age did n see or feel z ours does4 ,torture 0 ,engli% law1 rememb]1 & boil+ alive or press+ to dea? or break+ on ! :eel ord9>y legal p-puni%m5ts4 ,p]haps1 said ,paul1 b su* ?+s 7 ! puni%m5ts ( crime4 ,m>y burnt ,prote/ants = religion4 ,elizabe? r-rack$ & hung & disemb[ell$ m ,ca?olics ?an ,m>y ,prote/ants1 retort$ ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,besides1 t5 times1 no1 ?irty times z _m suff]$ = ,ca?olicism "u ,h5ry ,,viii4 & ,edw>d ,,vi4 ?an = ,prote/antism all ! way ?r\gh ,engli% hi/ory4 ,paul look$ hopelessly r\nd ! little room4 ,he saw himself1 z x 71 hemm$ 9 & ov]:elm$ by inexorable fact4 ,besides1 x 0 all s unexpect$4 ,did ,claxt$ "k no?+ ( ^! z ( o!r ?+s8 ,:y1 inde$1 _h he himself nev] se5 !m 9 ?is light8 ,p-,prote/antism1 w5t on ,fa!r ,vassall1 taught t x belong$ to e man to pick & *oose = himself among doctr9es1 & x !re=e _h no m-mann] ( reason = :at x did4 ,calv9's burn+ ( ,s]vetus at ,g5eva really outrages d-d-dec5cy4 ,& ! ,p-,pilgrim ,fa!rs burnt m wit*es 9 a ye> 9 ,new ,engl& ?an ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* h]etics 9 pre-,re=mation ,engl& 9 a c-c5tury4 ,paul drew a long brea?4 ,i--,i mu/ ?9k1 he said confus$ly4 ,i _h no idea !re 0 any?+ on y\r side4 ,he mov$ re/lessly4 ,b tell me "o ?+1 don't y tea* t all ,prote/ants g to hell8 ,hannam laugh$ outright4 ,b ! prie/ did n4 ,he glanc$ up %>ply4 ,don't y evangelicals tea*1 he dem&$ ) ! quickness ( a rapi] ?ru/1 t all unbeliev]s g to hell8 ,paul's face 0 a /udy4 ,fa!r ,vassall *uckl$ y\?fully z he look$ at him4 ,!n 8 own face *ang$ & 8 eyes grew t5d]4 ,i'm s-sorry1 he said1 /amm]+ aga94 ,t wasn't q-q fair4 ,b we d n tea* t1 & ,i ?9k y d4 ,no2 :5 y get to ,p-,purgatory1 ,i'll say to ,/4 ,pet]3 ',let ,k-,ke/]n 92 he's a g-g-good boy6' ,he /ood up & rea*$ = 8 hat & /ick4 ,are y go+ home8 ask$ ,paul4 ,might ,i walk a little way ) y8 ,! prie/ nodd$1 & turn$ = a ^w ) ,hannam z ,paul w5t to ! door4 ,!y 7 an odd pair z !y walk$ toge!r ?r\gh ! /reets4 ,paul 0 a good deal tall] ?an 8 companion1 & v s]i\s4 ,! little prie/ 0 gay aga91 & *att]$ ab\t odd subjects & ,cambridge topics4 ,:5 a don nodd$ to ,vassall1 x /ruck ! und]graduate z some?+ he _h sc>cely realis$1 t 8 new acqua9tance _h a great & gr[+ reputation4 ,b n until !y 7 at ! door ( ! ,ca?olic *ur* c\ld ,paul speak 8 m9d4 ,i mu/ g-g 9 "h n[1 said ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,i've got to he> ! confessions ( a lot ( nuns mu* holi] ?an ,i %\ld be if ,i liv$ = a c-c5tury4 ,lat] on1 ,paul realis$ :at an amaz+ light t ?rew ^u ! ,sacram5t ( ,p5ance1 b j at pres5t he 0 too mu* occupi$ to consid] x4 ,fa!r1 he said abruptly1 w y =give me if ,i ask y "o ?+8 ,x isn't a usual ?+1 ,i "k1 & x's awfully p]sonal1 b ,i c't help x4 ,! eld] look$ into ! flu%$1 s]i\s face ( ! und]graduat] & kept 8 eyes ^u him4 ,w-:at is x8 he ask$4 ,d y believe 9 ! reality ( ,*ri/1 "h & n[1 on e>?8 ,c\ld y say y "k ,him8 ,) all my he>t1 said ! prie/ simply & unhesitat+ly4 ,!n may ,i call & see y "s "t8 ask$ ! boy1 ) a little cat* 9 8 ?roat4 ,fa!r ,vassall nam$ a day & "t4 7#f7 ,paul's new fri5d%ip soon became ! dom9ant int]e/ ( ! t]m = him4 ,ev5 ! prospects ( ! ,may eight 9 :i* he r[$ 7 less prom95t 9 8 m9d4 ,8 fa!r's lett]s vigor\sly d5\nc+ any int]c\rse ) a ,papi/ at all1 only ar\s$ 8 ho/ility4 ,( :at use 0 he1 if by ?is "t he 0 n able to def5d evangelical religion8 ,besides1 he _h rapidly become :ole-he>t$ly aw>e t !re 0 no sort ( "q t ,fa!r ,vassall lov$ ,*ri/ ) a s9c]ity n exce$$ by t ( 8 own fa!r4 ,paul grew ev] m c]ta9 ( t4 ,he wrote z mu* to ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 b ,mr4 ,ke/]n w\ld n admit ! o!r's s9c]ity at all4 ,at be/1 ! prie/ 0 a delud$1 s*em+ fanatic out to trap 8 son4 ,! home lett]s grew passionate2 ,paul ! m bewild]$4 ,au?ority & exp]i5ce 7 at _! fir/ s]i\s conflict )9 him1 ?\gh he nev] phras$ x s4 ,in/ead he op5$ 8 he>t to ! prie/1 :o 0 enorm\sly m *>itable to ! boy's fa!r ?an ,mr4 ,ke/]n 0 to him4 ,& ,paul read books1 & talk$ to ,dick4 ,possibly he rea*$ a spiritual climax z e>ly z t bright midsumm] day t ! two ( !m took on ! ,upp] ,riv]4 ,!y _h />t$ 9 a ,canad]1 & got z f> z ,hasl+field4 ,!y _h /ripp$ among ! gold ( butt]cups1 & plung$ d[n into ! cool1 cle> wat] :]e ! mazy re$s twi/$ ?is way & t 9 ! sl[ curr5t4 ,!y _h lun*$1 & ba!d aga91 & ly+ side by side 9 ! sun on ! grass1 _h fix$ up 9 common a good deal ( ! com+ ,long ,vacation4 ,!n1 settl+ into ! canoe1 !y _h drift$ sl[ly d[n-/ream1 ,dick on 8 back lazily dipp+ a paddle n[ & aga9 to avoid an ob/acle1 & ,paul read+4 ,n[ ! latt] toss$ ! book d[n1 & spoke4 ,dick1 he said vehem5tly1 ,i c't help x4 ,!y're "r4 ,:o are8 ,roman ,ca?olics4 ,don't be an ass4 ,i'm n an ass1 or at lea/ n ov] ?is4 ,besides ,i don't mean t all !y say & d is "r4 ,"s ?+s obvi\sly c't be4 ,i %all nev] be a ,ca?olic4 ,b !re is no way out ( ! difficulty ab\t au?ority4 ,no8 ,well1 *uck me ov] t t(fee1 & = goodness sake don't say s at ,port o' ,man4 ,b ,i say1 ,dick1 said ,paul e>ne/ly1 d li/54 ,x's worry+ me no end4 ,y c't answ] ! dilemma1 ei!r4 ,don't want to1 ejaculat$ ! o!r4 ,paul />$ at him4 ,b :y n8 he dem&$4 ,y\r attitude amazes me1 & oddly en\gh1 y are n unlike my fa!r4 ,b anyway t attitude's pla9ly wrong4 ,!re mu/ be a way out4 ,! fell[ :o says3 ',i'm an evangelical1 & ,i won't discuss ! "q or he> ano!r side1' mu/ be wrong4 ,dick grunt$4 ,li/54 ,! v fir/ "t ,i call$ on ,fa!r ,vassall1 he _h me4 ,he 0 frightfully k9d2 he und]/ood ab\t our ,"l be+ real z next to nobody seems to d1 & he 0 entirely sympa!tic ab\t ! ,cross j dom9at+ ev]y?+4 ,9 fact1 he 0 evangelical ov] x4 ,he admitt$ he 04 ,he said ,ca?olics 7 at "o ) evangelicals on t po9t1 & t _! ,religi\s ,ord]s 7 compos$ ( p :o simply liv$ ! ,gospel life4 ,b let's waive t4 ,he w5t on to ask me h[1 despite all t1 ,i knew :at our ,"l _h meant by ,8 words4 ,i said3 ',because x's 9 ! ,bible4' ,he said3 ',grant$4' 7,notice !re's no?+ ( ,mann+ or ,tressor ab\t him1 belittl+ ! ,bible47 ',b' 7he w5t on7 'let's be def9ite4 ,take a text3 ,?is is ,my ,body--:at does x mean8' ,i said3 ',x means ! bread repres5ts ,8 ,body brok5 = u4' ,he said3 ',h[ d y "k8 ,at any rate = fifte5 hundr$ ye>s nobody ?\ght s4' ,i said3 ',by pray]1 by reason1 & by ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s4' ,& !n he said3 ',t's :at ,lu!r said1 & taught ,consub/antiation4 ,t's :at ,calv9 said & d5i$ x4 ,t's :at ,wesley said & taught ! ,real ,pres5ce1 b n ,consub/antiation or ,transub/antiation4 ,t's :at ,spurgeon said & d5i$ all ?ree4 ,& t's :at ,g5]al ,boo? said & disp5s$ ) sacram5ts altoge!r4 ,if y c>e to %ut y\rself up ) y\r ,bible & pray1 y w probably arrive at "s fur!r op9ion4 ,!re are ab\t ?ree hundr$ & sixty-five ,prote/ant sects1 & !re is no reason :y !re %\ld n be ?ree hundr$ & sixty-six4' ,none at all1 said ,dick2 & ,i say1 sit /eady1 or y'll upset ?is bally canoe4 ,b look "h1 ,dick--hang x all1 be s]i\s4 ,he's "r4 ,! ,bible1 be+ n9ete5 hundr$ ye>s old & a writt5 book1 is op5 to scores ( diff]5t int]pretations4 ,m]e pray+ obvi\sly does n prev5t su* diff]5ces ( op9ion2 x almo/ seems to increase !m4 ,& consequ5tly1 if !re is n "s "o au?oritative voice to int]pret1 we might z well n h ! ,bible at all4 ,or1 l ,tressor1 we mu/ *uck dogma ov]bo>d4 ,ei!r way our position goes4 ,& s8 ,well1 s1 if y w h x1 we've got to f9d "s bett] reason ?an our view ( ! ,bible = condemn+ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,we've got to f9d "s fur!r basis = our position4 ,dick sat up & fell to paddl+4 ,paul wat*$ him anxi\sly4 ,aft] a :ile1 8 companion began to :i/le1 & at t ,paul c\ld /& x no m4 ,dick1 he cri$1 d y mean to say y don't see x at all8 ,dick ,h>tley trail$ 8 paddle beh9d him & laugh$ a little4 ,look "h1 ,paul1 he said1 y're too logical4 ,religion is n a prim>y textbook4 ,y & ,i "k & love ,*ri/1 & we "k t ,roman ,ca?olicism is n ,8 ,gospel4 ,! ?+ is s obvi\s t x isn't wor? discussion4 ,*uck x1 !n4 ,pit* t book ov]bo>d & say y\r pray]s4 ,& he recomm5c$ to paddle4 ,paul flu%$ b5ea? 8 summ] tan4 ,he leant back & />$ up ?r\gh ! weave ( leaves & twigs above !m1 & :5 he spoke1 he 0 delib]ate & cool4 ,dick1 he said1 ,*ri/ is ! tru?1 & y\r attitude to tru? seems to me simple blasphemy4 ,dick laugh$ aga94 ,y're a nice old ass1 he said4 ,paul's lett]s 7 full ( ! burn+ subject1 & he wrote at l5g? to 8 fa!r & to ,edi?4 ,8 fa!r 0 bo? incr$ul\s & indignant at ! boy's attitude1 & 8 replies ?rew 8 son into despair4 ,! eld] man w\ld admit no?+ at all4 ,he decl9$ to argue2 he refus$ ev5 to consid] :at seem$ to ,paul reasonable hi/orical evid5ce4 ,rome 0 ! great ,babylon1 ! ,sc>let ,woman1 ,anti-,*ri/2 x _h li$1 trick$1 tortur$ & sold its ,ma/] all d[n ! c5turies4 ,i w\ld soon] see a son ( m9e dead1 wrote ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 ?an a ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,paul1 9 an agony ( d\bts & fe>s1 liv$ a tempe/u\s life4 ,to ,edi? he unburd5$ at l5g?1 & %e1 ?\gh utt]ly bewild]$ at ^! new ?+s1 0 at lea/ sympa!tic & und]/&+4 ,! burd5 ( h] cry 03 ,h[ c x be1 de>8 b ) ! und]curr5t--,y mu/ face x2 y\r fa!r is wrong to d5\nce y\r hone/y2 b ,don't be ra% or act 9 a hurry4 ,to h]1 !n1 ! boy turn$ z to a new an*orage4 7#g7 ,donaldson & ,/re!r saw ! conflict only sup]ficially2 ,mann+ m truly1 b z a cynic4 ,?us "o riot\s night ( a meet+ ( ! new ,lit]>y ,society1 ,paul _h _h some?+ ( an ovation4 ,8 little room--its text /ill on ! wall & ! cross ov] ! writ+ bureau 9 ! corn]--0 beg9n+ to reflect ! gr[? ( 8 arti/ic s5se4 ,l&se]'s pictures _h gone1 & 9 _! place hung "s engrav+s1 rescu$ f old books dug out ( ! boxes 9 ,*>+ ,cross ,road1 9 neat ebony frames4 ,a ,falkl& grac$ "o side ( ! mantel%elf1 & q a good ,melan*?on by ,holl ! o!r4 ,! room 0 lit ) c&les1 & tobacco smoke drift$ ?ickly1 s9ce a *ildi% rule ( ! society en=c$ smok+ out ( *ur*w>d5s4 ,paul1 z presid5t1 _h be5 ov]rul$1 & n[ always smok$ "o pipe4 ,on ?is p>ticul> occasion1 he 0 smok+ a second 9 great exultation1 hav+ j read 8 la/ & l5g?ie/ poetical ef=t to a really appreciative audi5ce4 ,n )\t significance1 x dealt ) an ,indian leg5d ( ! se>* = ! :ite bird ( tru?4 ,by ,jove1 damn$ good1 bur/ out ,donaldson4 ,paul1 y've ! mak+s ( a real poet4 ,:at d y ?9k1 ,mann+8 ,he may d /uff wor? read+ yet1 if he'll take good advice4 ,:i* is8 ask$ ,paul4 ,mann+ lit a cig>ette1 cig>ettes be+ all[$ aft] ! solemn prelim9>ies4 ,y won't l x1 ,ke/]n1 he said1 b "h x is4 ,burn t4 ,get rid ( x4 ,x's be5 good practice1 & ,i %\ld judge x's n at all bad1 b don't sit tight to x4 ,any?+ good 9 x w /ick & come out aga92 ! second & ?ird rate _h bett] g up 9 smoke4 ,oh1 *eese x all1 ,mann+6 ,%[ x to ,tressor & get x pu%$ into "s magaz9e2 & *orus ( ass5t f ! memb]s back$ ,donaldson up4 ,mann+ %ook 8 head4 ,i "k ,i'm "r1 he said4 ,pass ! cake1 ,/re!r4 ,/re!r dis5gag$ 8 long =m f ! *air he occupi$1 & pass$ x4 ,m c(fee8 he grunt$ at ,paul4 ,paul 0 wat*+ ,mann+ closely4 ,!n1 sudd5ly3 ,y are "r1 he said1 & ) a swift movem5t tore ! ?+ 9 halves4 ,donaldson swore4 ,well1 ,i'm damn$6 put 9 a memb]4 ,y silly blight]6 ,mann+ f9i%$ 8 cake1 & /ood up4 ,he look$ r\nd amus$ly1 /ret*+ himself4 ,i reckon t f9i%es ! sitt+ anyway1 he said4 ,come ov] to my rooms a little lat]1 ,ke/]n1 w y8 ,good-night1 y p4 ,! company disp]s$1 all save ,/re!r1 :o sat on imp]turbably1 8 eyes on ! ceil+4 ,he refus$ to smoke1 & _h return$ to dull suits & heavy boots1 ) an occasional concession to society 9 ! %ape ( a tie or wai/coat4 ,paul1 hav+ se5 ! la/ d[n ! /airs1 & ex*ang$ a fusillade ( sug> ) ! dep>t+ ,donaldson1 re-ent]$ ! room4 ,he %ut ! door & look$ r\nd dispirit$ly4 ,a c&le 0 gutt]+ on ! bureau2 heavy smoke hung 9 ! air2 dirty plates & cups litt]$ ! table2 "o picture 0 awry4 ,he walk$ to ! w9d[ & op5$ x wide1 to let 9 ! cle> night air4 ,/>s %one s]5ely al(t & mirror$ !mselves 9 ! /ill riv]4 ,ano!r lett] f my pat] to-day1 ,gussie1 he said at la/1 turn+ back to ! fire4 ,he'll n see1 or und]/&4 ,/re!r grunt$4 ,x's s odd1 w5t on ,paul we>ily4 ,9 "s ways1 he's ! g5tle/ & mo/ lovable ( m54 ,he's full ( ! love ( ,god4 ,he is a hundr$ times bett] ?an ,i %all ev] be4 ,b ov] ?is1 he's mad1 rabid4 ,he seems to picture ,fa!r ,vassall z a mixture ( ,torquemada & ,judas ,isc>iot4 ,if only ,i c\ld get !m to meet4444 ,go+ to ! joss-h\se aga91 ,sunday8 ,/re!r _h 8 own picturesque & blasphem\s slang4 ,paul smil$1 und]/&+ him4 ,:y8 he dem&$4 ,i'll come ) y4 ,x's m amus+ ?an ! ',ciccu' or *apel4 ,is !re a w&] r\nd ) c&les ?is week8 ,gussie1 y're incorrigible4 ,b1 heav5s1 :at a tangle x all is6 ,does ?is look l ! room ( a ,*ri/ian8 ,look at x6 ,paul made a sweep+ ge/ure4 ,/re!r pu%$ back heavily f ! fire4 ,bea/ly *eap cake ?is ev5+1 anyway4 ,paul hurl$ a cu%ion at him4 ,! two fri5ds w5t d[n & out toge!r4 ,:at's worry+ y especially8 ask$ ,mann+1 half an h\r lat]4 ,oh1 no?+ mu*4 ,at lea/1 t's n "r2 x is mu* to me4 ,mann+1 x's awful4 ,x's my fa!r's attitude t[>ds ,ca?olicism4 ,ah6 ,no "t at all = x8 ,no4 ,& he doesn't und]/&4 ,compla9 9 v]se1 said ,mann+1 h&+ him a ,sw9burne1 & read t4 ',e'en ! we>ie/ riv] w9ds some:]e safe to sea4' ,leave ! wise to wrangle4 ,y\r l9e is go+ to be lit]ature1 my son4 ,,*apt] ,v ,,vacation ,! /icks break1 ! /ones crumble1 ,! et]nal alt>s tilt & tumble1 ,sanctions & tales dislimn l mi/ ,ab\t ! amaz$ evangeli/4 ,he /&s un%ook f age to y\? ,^u "o p9-po9t ( ! tru?4 ,,rob]t ,,l\is ,,/ev5son4 7#a7 ,paul lay v /ill 9 ! hea!r4 ,an occasional bee buzz$ pa/ 8 face1 &1 high al(t1 a t[]+ hawk reg>d$ him sev]ely1 until1 satisfi$ t he 0 alive1 x gave its w+s an imp]ceptible tilt & glid$ swiftly away4 ,! sun drew out ! sweet sc5ts f fl[]s & brack51 & a small w9d br\ght up1 n[ & aga91 a :iff ( ! sea4 ,f> bel[1 ,port o' ,man ne/l$ peacefully 9 its bay4 ,a sort ( toy t[n ev5 9 reality1 f ?is height x appe>$ to ! wat*] z if modell$ by a *ild 9 col\r$ clays1 s remote & /ill & small x 04 ,x look$ no m ?an a ?9 moon ( build+s betwe5 ! fields & ! sea4 ,no s\nd came up s f>1 b n[ & aga9 !re 0 a sp>kle on ! edge ( ! br[n rocks :5 ! surf ran up a %ade high] ?an usual1 & 9 ! wide expanse ( sea itself1 gre5 & blue *ang$ ! "o ) ! o!r p]petually4 ,moreov] ,paul's %>p eyes c\ld detect a vivid spot ( sc>let on ! s&s t 0 nev] /ill ei!r4 ,he knew x to be ! bann] ( ! ,*ildr5's ,special ,s]vice ,mission1 flapp+ 9 ! w9d4 ,he ought1 ( c\rse1 to h be5 !re1 & :5 he _h ann\nc$ to ,mr4 ,/u>t1 ! lead]1 8 int5tion ( play+ truant = "o :ole1 gold5 morn+1 he _h be5 receiv$ ) fr[ns4 ,b t _h n daunt$ ,paul4 ,x took a good deal m ?an a ,mr4 ,/u>t1 9 fact1 to daunt him4 ,& s he _h ris5 be=e ! sun & tak5 8 /ick & 8 breakfa/1 & dep>t$ = a long1 solit>y climb up ,s\? ,b>rule4 ,dick ,h>tley _h (f]$ to come z well1 b ,paul _h refus$4 ,9 ! fir/ place he want$ to be alone2 9 ! second1 he really did n want ,dick ( all p1 h[ev] mu* he lov$ him1 j !n2 & ?irdly1 he _h /ill a s5se ( mission>y responsibility1 & he decl9$ to deplete ! /aff = a s+le day by ano!r work]4 ,nev]!less1 he 0 !re himself on t day because he 0 rapidly rea*+ a frame ( m9d :i* w\ld probably make ! ,c4,s4,s4,m41 & _m o!r evangelical activities1 f9ally impossible4 ,mr4 ,/u>t1 = example--he reflect$ on ,mr4 ,/u>t4 ,he 0 a nice1 big1 old g5tleman :om p>5ts lik$4 ,he _h no visible vices ( any sort4 ,he lik$ a really big d9n] 9 ! midday on ,sunday4 ,he play$ cricket on ! s&s ) a k9dly smile & ! aptitude ( a rh9oc]os4 ,he told impossible s*ool /ories fifty ye>s old :5 prea*+ on ! s&s1 & ! moral ( !m all 0 ! same--! necessity = a clean he>t4 ,z = 8 own he>t1 he 0 q sure t x 0 clean4 ,he 0 ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 b he _h only "o def9ite !ological belief--,salvation 0 by ,fai? ,alone )\t ,works4 ,b he _h "o /rong negation--he believ$ t ,confirmation 0 unbiblical & wrong4 ,&1 in/ructively en\gh1 x 0 ov] ,confirmation t ,paul 0 beg9n+ to jib4 ,possibly x is necess>y1 at ?is po9t1 to say some?+ z to ! me?ods & devices ( a ,c4,s4,s4,m4 ,!re may yet be ! un9itiat$4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 !n1 a /aff ( volunt>y work]s1 female & male1 is drawn toge!r dur+ a summ] mon? at "s popul> seaside resort1 :i* %\ld1 if possible1 h s&s r ?an a bea*1 & be to "s ext5t select4 ,?is latt] is p>tly due to ! fact t ! ,mission aims m especially at ! *ildr5 ( ! bett] classes1 b also because1 :]eas ! ,c4,s4,s4,m4 c compete ) ! m ord9>y nigg]-m9/rel tr\pe & it9]ant %[1 n[adays ^! ?+s are done1 at ! bigg] holiday places1 ^u s lavi% & ,satanic a scale1 t ! funds ( ! ,mission are sc>cely l>ge en\gh to provide adequate equipm5t = hone/ competition ) !m4 ,h[ev]1 if ! /aff be wisely *os5--a blue or two1 or at lea/ "s m5 9 recognis$ blaz]s1 are necess>y1 z well z ladies ) good voices--mu* may be done4 ,on an ord9>y day1 aft] a pray] meet+1 ?is /aff proce$s to ! s&s4 ,"s memb]s w&] up & d[n ! sea%ore di/ribut+ attractive c>ds ( invitation to *ildr51 & engag+ p>5ts 9 amiable conv]sation :]e possible4 ,! o!rs1 *iefly ! mascul9e section1 ?r[ (f coats1 & ) he>ty en?usiasm comm5ce to build a pulpit4 ,"s rov+ *ildr5 w inevitably be p]suad$ to help1 & ! cr[d gr[s z ! pulpit is decorat$ ) seawe$1 fl[]s1 %ells1 & /ones1 ) a suitable text outl9$ ^u x4 ,,jesus only1 or ,god is ,love2 b occasionally ! unusual is wor? try+--,ephpha?a or ,two ,sp>r[s or ,five ,smoo? ,/ones4 ,& f9ally ! bann] is hoi/$ & ! s]vice m]rily beg9s4 ,*oruses ) v>iations play a l>ge "p--,let ! sun%9e 91 ,let ! sun%9e out1 ,let ! sun%9e all r\nd ab\t2 ,/ep by /ep ) ,jesus2 ,we are build+ day by day 7& !re are actions 9 t72 b ! ,scriptures are read to sword drill 7,! ,^w ( ,god is %>p] ?an any two-edg$ sword71 & ! addresses are %ort & breezy4 ,! notices always take a long :ile4 ,walks = ! girls1 games = ! boys1 sports = bo?--excursions1 picnics1 competitions2 *e]y exhortations to ,wat* = ! ,bann]1 or ,come to ! ,h\se2 & la/ly1 special s]vices = boys & girls indoors 9 ! ev5+s4 ,^! latt] are ! ultimate hook4 ,at !m1 _m a man & woman has accept$ ,*ri/ 9 y\? ) real s9c]ity & det]m9ation4 ,paul ?rew himself he>t & s\l into all ?is4 ,he did a great "p 9 mak+ religion seem to ! holiday-mak]s :at x 0 truly & happily to himself1 ! c5tral joy & inspiration ( life4 ,if any 7 incl9$ to ?9k t att5dance at a mission might be a poor way ( sp5d+ a holiday1 !y _h only to wat* ,paul = a :ile4 ,he 0 9 love ) ,*ri/1 & he 0 indiff]5t to ! _w's op9ion t x might be indec5t to %[ x z braz5ly z a pair ( ,cockney lov]s on ! top ( a motor-bus4 ,9 :i* conclusion bo? ,paul & ! lov]s are und\bt$ly & altoge!r "r4 ,& yet ,paul 0 tr\bl$4 ,mr4 ,/u>t's bl& piety 0 new to him2 ! work]s' robu/ ignorance _h him by ! ?roat2 above all ! scorn+ ( a c]emony 7he w\ld n h said a sacram5t7 :i* he _h come to feel _h beh9d x ! au?ority ( an ,in/itution t he 0 f9d+ increas+ly necess>y to ! int]pretation ( ! ,bible1 :ile x might be a small ?+ 9 itself1 worri$ him4 ,& x worri$ him ! m because nobody else--n ev5 ,dick--0 worri$2 :ile beh9d ev]y?+1 lay ! ev]-deep5+ %ad[ ( 8 fa!r's refusal to see "o p>ticle ( evid5ce or necessity = ! ,*ur*4 ,b /ill ano!r influ5ce _h laid f+]s on ,paul's life1 al?\gh he knew x n yet4 ,he _h come out t morn+ def9itely to seek some?+1 def9itely to re/ himself on some?+4 ,paul _h always lov$ nature2 he _h always be5 "o 7z 8 "m w\ld h said7 = a c\ntry walk2 & he _h writt5 v]ses to *e/nut-trees 9 ,may & bee*-trees 9 ,autumn4 ,yet = all t1 ! beauty ( ! _w _h ev] be5 a second>y ?+--some?+ y enjoy$ because y 7 satisfi$4 ,b t morn+ he _h come to x because he 0 n satisfi$4 ,& he lay n[1 almo/ immovable1 introspective1 pe]+ at ! t9y hea!r-bells1 tak+ def9ite note ( a fragm5t ( moss1 see+ ) delight ! ve9s ( col\r 9 ! small /ones4 ,?+s 7 beautiful1 he told himself1 beautiful 9 !mselves2 also !y 7 unfa?omable2 & ! joy ( !m 0 a c>ess to 8 tr\bl$ _s4 ,pres5tly he sigh$1 & roll$ ov] on 8 back1 />+ up & away into ! va/1 di/ant blue1 wat*+1 z ! m9utes sp$1 a p9-po9t ( :ite come out ( no?+1 ga!r1 build itself ) o!rs1 =m a t9y cl\d1 & trail (f across ! sp>kl+ sea4 ,paul felt himself incr$ibly small2 saw himself1 def9itely1 less ?an no?+1 = ! fir/ "t 9 8 life4 ,& 0 cont5t4 7#b7 ,:5 he ent]$ ! d9+-room ( ! ,h\se1 ! o!rs 7 already at lun*4 ,! ,mission p>ty 7 h\s$ 9 a typical1 tall flat-*e/$ h\se on ! front1 ( ! k9d t "o f9ds inevitably along all ! %ores ( ,brita91 h\ses ( app>5tly "o p]iod1 z if ! ,engli% middle-class _h f\nd ! sea simultane\sly 9 a g5]ation4 ,t1 inde$1 did happ54 ,! room itself 0 ?readb>e4 ,ev]y?+ 9 x f ! furniture to ! wall-pap]1 0 ?91 & ap$ solidity4 ,! v l95 on ! table knew t x 0 *eap4 ,only :]e a sc>let fu*sia flam$ 9 an e>!n pot on ! w9d[-l$ge1 0 !re dep?4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,/u>t1 & ! ladies1 7 n lodg$ !re4 ,! m5 ( ! p>ty _h x z mu* to !mselves z ! admir+ foll[]s ( ,h5d]son 7:o _h play$ cricket = 8 c\nty7 & ,lea!r1 a ,*ur* ,mission>y ,society ,isl+ton mission>y f ,india1 w\ld all[ !m4 ,b besides ^! two1 & ,dick1 & a lad ( sev5te5 :om ,h5d]son tutor$1 a /rang] 0 at lun* t day4 ,dick introduc$ him4 ,hullo1 ,paul1 he said1 y're n s late z y might be4 ,let me introduce y to ,mr4 ,*ild]s4 ,h[ d y d8 said ,paul correctly1 eye+ him4 ,! newcom] rose easily1 & held out 8 h&4 ,he 0 fair1 slight1 a little b[$1 & p]haps =ty4 ,b x 0 h>d to say 8 age4 ,he took ,paul's h& firmly1 & met 8 glance ) a curi\sly remote frankness4 ,mr4 ,*ild]s is a /orybook uncle f =eign p>ts1 ,paul1 said ,dick4 ,aile5 ,*ild]s introduc$ me ?is morn+1 & ,i p]suad$ him to come 9 to lun*4 ,he is j back f ,india4 ,paul1 n 9 ! lea/ und]/&+ :y1 0 sudd5ly aw>e t !re 0 ho/ility 9 ! room1 b x did n come f ! /rang]4 ,he glanc$ r\nd4 ,lea!r1 :o _h f9i%$ 8 cold mutton1 _h pu%$ 8 plate back slightly aft] 8 mann]1 & 0 look+ puzzl$ & a little annoy$4 ,to escape ! nephews & nieces1 said ,*ild]s smil+1 & to meet ,mr4 ,lea!r4 ,h[ jolly1 said ,paul eag]ly1 tak+ 8 seat4 ,:at "p ( ,india 7 y 98 ,he 0 always eag] to he> ( hea!n l&s4 ,i've travell$ pretty ext5sively1 return$ ! o!r1 b rec5tly ,i've be5 liv+ 9 ,bombay = "s mon?s4 ,9 ! native qu>t]1 said ,dick1 play+ ) 8 =k4 ,some?+ 9 8 tone caught ,paul's att5tion aga94 ,he look$ m closely at ! visitor4 ,7 y do+ mission>y "w8 he ask$4 ,*ild]s %ook 8 head4 ,no1 he said2 inde$1 on ! contr>y1 ,i w5t to le>n4 ,! language8 p]si/$ ,paul1 /ill at sea4 ,i le>nt t at ,cambridge ye>s ago1 said ,*ild]s4 ,y don't say s4 ,did y take ,ori5tal ,languages1 or :atev] !y call x8 ,no4 ,! fact is1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 ,i le>nt x f ,indian /ud5ts1 & ,i 0 out 9 ,india /udy+ ,indian religi\s my/icism4 ,oh6 said ,paul1 & glanc$ swiftly aga9 at ,lea!r4 ,he und]/ood at la/4 ,little z he knew ( ! subject 7?\gh he _h he>d ,fa!r ,vassall speak ( x71 he knew t a man :o /udi$ ,indian my/icism1 & ! ,rev4 ,h]b]t ,lea!r1 ,c4,m4,s41 ,b5>es1 w\ld n h mu* 9 common4 ,lea!r c\ld play mo/ games & prea* a d[nright ,gospel s]mon1 b ! ,apo/les 7 ! only my/ics 9 :om he believ$ & he w\ld n h call$ !m by t title4 ,ev5 less ?an ,dick 0 he metaphysical1 & ev5 m ?an ,paul at 8 wor/ 0 he dogmatic4 ,he spoke n[4 ,z a matt] ( fact we are hav+ a bit ( an argum5t1 ,ke/]n1 he said4 ,mr4 ,*ild]s seems to believe 9 ,h9duism4 ,i nev] said t1 ,mr4 ,lea!r1 put 9 ,*ild]s4 ,! o!r %rugg$ 8 %\ld]s4 ,!re 0 some?+ ( contempt 9 ! ge/ure1 & ! /rang] seem$ to read a *all5ge !re4 ,i did say t we (t5 did ! ,brahm9 less ?an ju/ice1 & t ! ,yogi adept _h usually true spirituality1 he said4 ,d y mean ! fell[s :o sit on spikes & sw+ f hooks on fe/ivals8 enquir$ ,dick1 bewild]$4 ,! o!r laugh$ a little1 pleasantly4 ,t is n all !y d1 &1 put l t1 x c]ta9ly s\nds fooli%1 b /ill ^? :o are g5u9e among !m1 d sometimes %[ ! complete p[] ( _s ov] matt] 9 t way1 he repli$4 ,a pack ( li>s & sc\ndrels1 said ,lea!r hotly1 brimm+ ov]4 ,*ild]s' eyes flam$ sudd5ly1 & z sudd5ly ! light 9 !m di$ d[n4 ,he kept 8 temp] p]fectly4 ,i d n ?9k s1 he said ) s]5e control4 ,b y d n mean t !y h any p[] :i* ,*ri/ians h n got1 surely8 qu]i$ ,paul4 ,i d inde$1 said ,*ild]s1 if y mean by ,*ri/ians ! av]age foll[]s ( ,*ri/4 ,lea!r drumm$ ) 8 f+]s on ! table4 ,paul />$ into ! o!r's face4 ,!re 0 some?+ s subdu$ & yet s p[]ful ab\t x1 t he 0 v deeply int]e/$4 ,w y expla9 a little8 he ask$4 ,we don't he> ( ^! ?+s f t po9t ( view4 ,well1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 ,i d n "k t !re is mu* to expla94 ,aft] all1 pray] & fa/+ h a prom95t place 9 all =ms ( ,*ri/ian ?\ght1 h !y n8 ,& by pray] & fa/+ ^! m5 s subdue ! body t ! _s 9 !m c live almo/ indep5d5tly ( bodily aids1 & ev5 ( itself affect mat]ial ?+s4 ,pray] to a false god nev] did t = a man1 retort$ ,lea!r4 ,we %\ld probably diff] 9 our def9ition ( false1 return$ ,*ild]s c\rte\sly4 ,b look "h1--! mission>y leant ov] ! table--d y mean y've ev] se5 !m d any?+ t 0 n a clev] conjur+ trick8 ,mo/ c]ta9ly1 said ,*ild]s4 ,lea!r ?rew himself back4 ,y c d ! same y\rself1 ,i suppose1 he sne]$4 ,a little1 said ,*ild]s1 ?\gh ,i am really a m]e novice4 ,! o!r completely lo/ 8 temp]4 ,%[ u !n1 he said curtly4 ,oh yes1 d1 cri$ ,paul1 b 9 a :olly diff]5t tone4 ,! eld] man glanc$ f "o to ! o!r1 & !n back aga9 to ,paul4 ,he hesitat$4 ,i w\ld r n1 he said4 ,"o ought n to play tricks4 ,exactly1 cut 9 ,lea!r4 ,tricks4 ,*ild]s tight5$ 8 lips1 & once aga9 fire fla%$ 9 8 eyes4 ,oh1 ,i say1 cri$ ,dick1 & /opp$4 ,a little sil5ce fell on !m4 ,! situation 0 di/9ctly /ra9$4 ,x 0 odd1 ,paul ?\ght aft]w>ds1 h[ "t seem$ to /& /ill4 ,! little /orm _h come up s sudd5ly1 & ! commonplace meal & room _h s swiftly tak5 on a new aspect4 ,lea!r 0 insuff]ably rude4 ,x /ruck ,paul t "h1 aga91 0 ! h>% dogmatic attitude t w\ld n ev5 all[ t !re c\ld be any?+ else to see or to believe4 ,he felt sudd5ly t he mu/ end x4 ,mr4 ,*ild]s1 he said1 if y c\ld %[ u :at y mean we %\ld be v glad4 ,! eyes ( ! two met once m across ! table1 & ,*ild]s made up 8 m9d4 ,i dislike ?is sort ( ?+1 he said1 b p]haps sometimes x may be ( value4 ,has ,mr4 ,lea!r a p98 ,lea!r got up & took "o f a pa9t$ sat9 p9cu%ion t hung on ! wall by ! fire4 ,!y 7 all s supremely grave t no "o saw ! hum\r ( x1 especially ! visitor1 :o w\ld h se5 none 9 any case4 ,*ild]s pu%$ 8 *air back a few feet f ! table4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 he said1 w\ld y cle> a place on ! table8 ,i w\ld r t\* no?+ myself4 ,& !n p]haps ,mr4 ,lea!r w\ld set ! p9 !re4 ,let x lie on ! clo?1 please4 ,bewild]$1 ,paul obey$4 ,! o!rs drew 9 eag]ly4 ,no "o knew :at 0 to be attempt$1 b all 7 eag] to see4 ,ev5 ,lea!r %[$ ke5 int]e/4 ,paul pu%$ back ! potatoes & a tablespoon1 & swept a few crumbs to "o side4 ,lea!r dropp$ ! p9 into ! cle>$ space1 ?rew himself back into 8 *air1 & ?ru/ 8 h&s into 8 pockets4 ,dick leant 8 elb[s on ! table & />$ at _! visitor4 ,n[1 said ,*ild]s1 w\ld y m9d keep+ quiet8 ,i w n ask y to keep y\r eyes :olly on ! p91 or y w say y h be5 hypnotis$ or some?+ ( t sort1 b please wat* x & me1 & d n speak4 ,9 ! t5se quiet t foll[$1 ,paul ?rew a look at 8 companions4 ,dick 0 puzzl$1 ,lea!r sceptical & attempt+ indiff]5ce1 ,h5d]son & 8 pupil a-quiv] ) equal curiosity4 ,only ,*ild]s sat on s]5e1 8 eyes on ! commonplace p9 t lay s /ill on ! table4 ,f )\t1 ! sea's murmur came s(tly 94 ,!re 0 a pat* ( sunlight on ! :ite clo?4 ,! p9 lay cle>ly 9 ! v c5tre ( x4 ,x lay q /ill1 naturally1 & %one 9 ! light4 ,/ill8 ,0 x /ill8 ,paul caught 8 brea?4 ,= !n1 z !y wat*$1 z ! clock tick$ ! m9utes l\dly on ! mantel%elf1 z ! boy beside him brea!d h>d1 & ,paul himself clasp$ & unclasp$ 8 h&s1 ! t9y %9+ ?+ /irr$1 trembl$1 flick]$ z x 71 made spasmodic movem5ts1 & f9ally rose1 trembl+1 to /& on its po9t4 ,paul swall[$ 9 8 ?roat1 & ,lea!r cri$ out4 ,x's a trick1 he exclaim$ %>ply4 ,! p9 fell back sil5tly4 ,oh no1 h[ c\ld x be8 said ,*ild]s quietly4 ,i am n s good a conjur] z all t4 ,h[ on e>?---- began ,dick4 ,lea!r /ood up4 ,i am play+ cricket at ?ree1 he said abruptly4 ,i fe> ,i mu/ g4 ,i--,i beg y\r p>don if ,i 0--0 rude1 ,mr4 ,*ild]s4 ,b--b---- ,t is q all "r4 ,p]haps ,i %\ld n h said :at ,i did4 ,b !re is no?+ really /range 9 :at y h se51 ,mr4 ,lea!r4 ,i hope ,i h n put y (f y\r game4 ,all t aft]noon1 ,paul & ! visitor sat by ! sea on ! s& & talk$ toge!r4 ,! eld] man 0 a quiet1 s]i\s1 ?\ghtful p]son :o made no attempt :atev] to de/roy any ( 8 "y companion's beliefs1 & really v little to in/ruct him4 ,b ,paul 0 inexorable4 ,8 in*oate eyes fa/5$ on ! o!r1 he he>d ( auras & a/ral bodies & famili> spirits ) an ev]-deep5+ amazem5t4 ,x 0 n t ! ?+s !mselves made mu* ( a contribution to 8 m9d2 he 0 n1 p]haps1 ready = !m2 b x 0 ,*ild]s himself1 especially 9 contra/ to ,mr4 ,/u>t1 ,lea!r1 ,h5d]son1 ,dick1 :o affect$ him pr(\ndly4 ,x 0 8 fir/ contact ) a true b ali5 spirituality1 8 fir/ lesson 9 comp>ative religion4 ,he saw at once h[ closely a s*eme ( ?+s t all[$ = transition planes ( spiritual life1 ! int]weav+ ( ! mat]ial & spiritual1 & ! help ( unse5 be+s1 fitt$ 9 ) ,ca?olicism4 ,"h1 f ano!r s\rce1 came confirmation ( 8 new surmises4 ,& above all1 "h 0 lack+ t ignorant1 dogmatic temp] ( evangelicalism1 indiff]5t to beauty & liv+1 ) :i* he 0 f9d+ himself increas+ly at odds4 ,t[>ds ! end ( ! aft]noon1 he v5tur$ ! supreme "q :i* _h be5 on 8 lips = long1 b :i* he 0 m ?an half-afraid to speak4 ,mr4 ,*ild]s1 he ask$1 :at d y\r _s-guides say ( ,*ri/8 ,! cle> blue eyes look$ into 8 s]5ely4 ,!y d n say mu*1 he said4 ,b :y n8 ,he 0 /rik+ly adept1 said ,*ild]s1 & has advanc$ f> beyond u4 ,b we %all see ,him at "s di/ant "t1 if we cont9ue /eadily to progress4 ,b we "k ,him1 object$ ,paul1 "h & n[4 ,y feel ! influ5ce ( ,8 ,_s1 = all spiritual liv+ has left its impress :i* ^? :o foll[ aft] may enjoy along ! road4 ,along ! road8 ,yes4 ,pray]1 ,fa/+1 ,self-discipl9e4 ,x is v h>d4 ,paul %ook 8 head4 ',my yoke is easy & ,my burd5 is light1' he quot$4 ,t 0 n all ,he said1 said ,*ild]s gravely4 ,& ,paul1 /rick5 by a ho/ ( texts1 sat on v /ill4 ,d y y\rself f9d ,god8 he ask$ at la/4 ,he is v f> above u1 repli$ ,*ild]s4 ,x is sc>cely a "q ( ,god4 ',he t ha? se5 ,me1 ha? se5 ! ,fa!r1' return$ ! boy eag]ly4 ,& :at precisely does t mean8 ask$ ,*ild]s1 r t5d]ly4 ,paul leapt to 8 feet4 ,ah1 :at6 he cri$4 ,i see t t's ! "q4 ,b ,i w n believe t ,god is f>1 ,mr4 ,*ild]s2 ,he is ne>1 v ne>1 9 ! ,p]son ( ,8 ,son4 ,aft] a mom5t1 ,*ild]s1 too1 got up4 ,he _h decid$ n to speak4 ,he l9k$ 8 arm 9 ! o!r's affectionately4 ,let u g1 he said4 7#c7 ,! mon? drew to its close2 fair success att5d$ ! ,mission2 & "o day ,dick & ,paul said good-bye to ! re/1 & to a smil+1 *e]+ cr[d ( *ildr5 on ! /ation plat=m1 sett+ (f 9 ! toy tra9 :i* /eam$ importantly by ! fu*sia-h$ges & ! old t9 m9es1 to ,d\glas & civilisation4 ,!y 7 (f to ,keswick1 = ! great ,conv5tion4 ,paul _h long want$ to g1 & 0 all eag]ness = x4 ,8 companion _h be5 sev]al times be=e1 &1 z always1 0 ! m /eady & self-conta9$4 ,at ,liv]pool !y /ay$ a night ) fri5ds1 & 7 walk+ ?r\gh ! little ,we/morel& t[n ! foll[+ ev5+4 ,! /reets 7 fairly full4 ,cl]gym5 9 semi-cl]ical dress--black coat & grey tr\s]s1 or vice v]sa--& m\/a*es ab\nd$1 b /ill m1 "y e>ne/ m5 9 grey flannels & bright smil+ "y wom54 ,little p>ties mov$ up & d[n ! /reet1 frequ5tly s++ or humm+ hymns4 ,fragm5ts ( hymn-tunes drift$ out ( op5 w9d[s1 & a p>ty leisurely r[+ %orew>ds1 7 s++ well 9 unison4 ,paul began himself to s+4 ',oh t w be ,glory = me1' he humm$1 8 head high1 sc5t+ ! p9e-woods4 ,y old cr[1 said ,dick4 ,well1 if ,i c't s+1 retort$ ,paul1 ,i c at lea/ make a joyful noise4 ,well1 !n1 make x 9 company :]e x's dr[n$1 & n alone1 said ,dick1 gr9n+ at him4 ,next morn+ ,paul did s+ 9 company4 ,! fri5ds /ay$ at a h\se tak5 regul>ly = ! p]iod ( ! ,conv5tion by an eld]ly lady1 & *>itably fill$ ) mission>ies1 ord9&s1 & "y cl]gym54 ,%e call$ !m all h] boys1 & !y took x 9 turns to conduct family pray]s4 ,moreov] !y w5t ) h] 9 a body :]ev] %e w5t1 &1 tru? to tell1 %e 0 r pr\d ( !m4 ,"o c>ri$ h] umbrella1 ano!r h] ,bible1 a ?ird h] hymn-book1 & s on4 ,?is ye> two ( !m 7 col\r$4 ,?us w5t ,paul & ,dick to ! big t5t = ! fir/ morn+'s meet+4 ,x 0 pack$ ) sev]al ?\s& p drawn f a l>ge v>iety ( ,prote/ant d5om9ations1 & ! speak]s 7 a ,*ur* ( ,engl& bi%op1 a ,bapti/ layman1 & a ,me?odi/ mission>y4 ,an ,adv5ti/ l$ 9 pray]1 or at lea/ ,paul ga!r$ t he 0 an ,adv5ti/ f ! intimate in=mation he volunte]$ 9 ! c\rse ( x1 z to ! details & date ( ! ,second ,com+ ( ,*ri/4 ,! va/ congregation adopt$ _m attitudes = pray]1 b1 *iefly1 t ( ! half-b5d2 ! *airman ann\nc$ t he tru/$ ! utmo/ unity & h>mony w\ld prevail ?r\gh\t ! sev]al meet+s2 x 0 und]/ood t ! subject ( ! ,sacram5ts & su*-l controv]sies 0 to be avoid$2 & a motto 9 r$ & :ite burgeon$ imm5se ov] ! plat=m3 ,,all ,,"o 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,?r\gh\t ! week1 ,paul foll[$ ! usual c\rse ( a memb] ( ! ,conv5tion4 ,he b\ght a new hymn-book ( ,! ,hymns ( ,consecration & ,fai?1 & a new ,bible1 a ,baxt]1 ^: leaves 7 also neatly cut away 9 index =m to facilitate ! f9d+ ( ! m m9or ,m9or ,prophets4 ,he also b\ght a small text fram$ 9 /raws = 8 "m1 b1 ! exultation ( ! mom5t :i* _h prompt$ ! pur*ase hav+ work$ (f1 gave x away next day4 ,he w5t to ,fri>'s ,crag by moonlight1 & sang 79 company7 ,!re'll be no %ad[s1 & ,:5 ! mi/s h roll$ away4 ,on ! ,sunday he w5t to outdoor meet+s4 ,!re 0 an (ficial ,conv5tion op5-air1 b ! m>ket-place 0 q full ( o!r op5-airs1 conduct$ by p ^: ideas 7 n suffici5tly express$ 9 ! c5tral "o2 & !re 0 also to be se5 a some:at dirty1 v ragg$ & unkempt prophet :o _h come all ! way f ! ,s\? on foot to d5\nce mod]n ,*ri/ianity 9 ! cause ( ,humanit>ian ,deism1 & ^: rabid s9c]ity attract$ ,paul4 ,f9ally he w5t 7out ( curiosity7 to a meet+ = m5 only address$ by a prom95t evangelical lady ^: subject 0 ,! ,p]sonal ,devil1 & to a s]ies ( meet+s 9 :i* a new baptism ( ! ,_s 0 be+ taught1 ! idea ( ! pa/or :o conduct$ !m be+ t if "o only claim$ ! promise1 "o w\ld become full--! emphasis lay !re--full ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,^! meet+s cont9u$ sometimes until midnight & 7 occasionally notewor?y = ! ,gift ( ,tongues4 ,b z !re 7 n f\nd any :o c\ld int]pret1 ! au?orities1 rememb]+ ,/4 ,paul1 r cold-%\ld]$ !m4 ,two days be=e ! fri5ds 7 to leave1 z !y 7 com+ f a s]vice 9 ! t5t1 !y ran /raight into ,edi? ,?ornton4 ,paul gave a %\t ( surprise & ran =w>d eag]ly4 ,y "h6 he exclaim$4 ,%e turn$1 & he saw t h] si/] ,maud 0 ) h]4 ,oh1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 cri$ ! eld] girl1 we wond]$ if we %\ld see y6 ,we he>d t y 7 com+ on to ,keswick aft] ,port o' ,man1 b x 0 only j ! o!r day t we got ! *ance ( com+ ourselves4 ,b h[ topp+ to see y1 said ,paul1 delight$1 %ak+ h&s4 ,i say1 d let me introduce my fri5d4 ,mr4 ,h>tley2 ,miss ,?ornton1 ,miss ,edi? ,?ornton4 ,:]e are y /ay+8 ,at ',! ,p9es4' ,i "k--! ,y4,w4,c4,a4 h\se4 ,:5 did y arrive8 ,saturday4 ,we might h met be=e1 only really !re are s _m girls 9 ! h\se1 & ! ,matron arranges a full programme = u ea* day4 ,:]e are y /ay+1 ,mr4 ,h>tley8 ,paul turn$ m directly to ,edi?1 :o _h sc>cely spok54 ,:at luck6 he exclaim$1 8 eyes sp>kl+4 ,edi? glanc$ cauti\sly at h] si/]1 :o 0 talk+ n[ animat$ly to ,dick4 ,paul1 isn't x8 %e said4 ,& ,i d want to see y s mu*4 ,we mu/ fix up some?+4 ,:at are y do+ ?is aft]noon8 ,we're all go+ = a picnic on ! lake4 ,!n we'll come too4 ,%e laugh$4 ,y c't1 y "k4 ,unless y come & be introduc$ to ,matron & %e invites y4 ,& t %e won't d unless y please h] imm5sely--:i* ,i fe> is n likely4 ,oh1 ,i say--:y ev] n8 ,! girl flu%$1 & laugh$ aga94 ,:y8 cri$ ! intrigu$ ,paul4 ,i %an't tell y4 ,oh1 d6 ,well1 if y mu/ "k1 because y won't behave4 ,y give y\rself away too op5ly4 ,girls1 /ay+ at ! ,y4,w4,c4,a4 9 ,keswick ,week1 are suppos$ to--to--to---- ,to :at8 ,to get on )\t m51 anyway4 ,unless !y're prop]ly engag$4 ,b ar5't y ev] free8 ,i might be4 ,:58 ,i "k--to-morr[ morn+1 e>ly4 ,we'll cut ! pray] meet+ = once1 & g & walk by ! lake4 ,oh1 ,paul1 if we c\ld6 ,w y try8 7#d7 ,& s1 on t la/ day1 ,paul & ,edi? w&]$ (f 9 ! e>ly morn+ by ! road t leads along ! lake1 & ex*ang$ impressions4 ,x 0 a cold summ] t ye> 9 ! ,nor?1 & !re 0 a drift+ mi/ ov] ! wat] :i* ! sun _h n yet disp]s$4 ,high above x1 ! great hills lift$ !mselves1 & !re 0 a s\nd ( t9kl+ wat] on ! air1 = x _h ra9$ heavily ! night be=e & ! little rills 7 full4 ,! sky1 too1 0 alive ) s(t lights ( grey & :ite & blue4 ,:]e ! road b5ds out ( sight ( ! la/ h\ses1 ,paul took ! h& t swung by ! girl's side1 &1 remote & virg9al1 !y walk$ toge!r h& 9 h&4 ,well1 ,paul de>1 %e said1 tell me ev]y?+4 ,& ,paul tri$ to tell h]4444 ,& ,keswick1 he said at la/1 only sums x all up4 ,y c't escape f x1 ,edi?4 ,p believe all sorts ( diff]5t ?+s ev5 "h4 ',all "o 9 ,*ri/'--b !y ar5't4 ,& h[ c !y be1 unless !re is "s voice to int]pret ,him to u8 ,b x c't be ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 ,paul6 %e cri$1 9 real di/ress4 ,y say t1 said ,paul1 b :y8 ,because y've a di/ort$ notion ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,look "h1 ,edi?1 we won't g into x n[1 b ,i tell y t ev]y?+ ,i 0 told ab\t ,rome1 turns out to be wrong4 ,! m ,i see1 ! m ,i he>1 ! m ,i ?9k1 ! m reasonable x is4 ,b y c't1 c't1 c't1 give up all y've believ$ & taught ab\t ,jesus4 ,de>1 "o isn't ask$ to give up any?+4 ,fa!r ,vassall believes 9 ,him j z mu* z y or ,i or my fa!r4 ,inde$1 he believes m1 ,edi?4 ,i feel t 9 ?is place4 ,^! p say !y believe 9 ,him1 b !y don't ?9k out :at !y mean4 ,he is ,god1 ,edi?1 truly1 really1 altoge!r ,god4 ,& if ! ,baby 9 ! cradle c\ld be ,god1 :y %\ldn't ! ,sacram5t be ,jesus8 ,:y %\ldn't he *oose t veil z ,he *ose ! o!r8 ,& see :at x w\ld mean6 ,!re ,he w\ld be1 = our wor%ip1 our s]vice1 really1 bodily1 spiritually too4 ,z ,he 0 9 ,be?lehem1 ,he w\ld be ! same !re = ev]4 ,& !re is ,8 ,*ur* speak+ = ,him1 gu>d+ ,him4 ,h[ c x speak = ,him8 ,paul made a *>act]i/ic ge/ure4 ',he t he>e? y1 he>e? ,me1' he quot$4 ,& ! fir/ ,c\ncil--',x seems good to ! ,holy ,gho/1 & to u4' ,?9k ( ! arrogance ( t6 ,& ,/4 ,paul--',! ,*ur*1 ! ,pill> 7t is ! ,uphold]71 & ! ,gr\nd 7t is ! ,basis7 ( ! ,fai?4' ,! ,*ur*1 n ! ,bible4 ,&3 ',we h ! ,_s ( ,god4' ,mr4 ,irv+ said t ( u all 9 ! t5t la/ night4 ,i "k4 ,b 'by _! fruits ye %all "k !m4' ,h we unity8 ,& :o 0 tea*+ ,mr4 ,irv+'s p>ticul> gospel ( ! fulness ( ! ,_s1 a hundr$1 no1 t5 ye>s ago8 ,:]eas ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*---- ,he broke (f1 & loos$ h] h&4 ,!y /ood on ! fragrant1 peaty soil1 /rewn ) br[n p9e ne$les1 "u ! crags above ! lake1 & ! fur!r rocks 7 j break+ ?r\gh ! mi/4 ,a fa9t s\nd ( e>ly s++ float$ ov] to !m4 ,!y li/5$4 ,let me come clos] to ,!e1 ,jesus1 ,yes1 clos] day by day2 ,let me lean h>d] on ,!e1 ,jesus1 ,yes1 h>d] all ! way4 ,d y "k :o wrote t8 ,paul qu]i$4 ,no4 ,a monk1 :o believ$ t our ,"l 0 9 ! ,sacram5t on ! ,alt>4 ,oh1 ,paul6 ,x's true4 ,x's a k9d ( om54 ,edi?1 d y "k ,i see a sort ( vision n[adays4 ,i see ,jesus1 plann+1 *oos+1 end[+ ,8 little b&1 & mak+ !m ,8 ,*ur*4 ',z ! ,fa!r ha? s5t ,me1 ev5 s s5d ,i y4' ,i see t same ,*ur* gr[+ all d[n ! ye>s1 always misund]/ood1 always p]secut$1 always o!r-worldly at bottom1 & always tea*+ ! same "o fai?4 ,its voice1 ,8 voice2 its p[]1 ,8 p[]2 its he>t1 ,8 he>t4 ,& ,i seem to see ,jesus beckon+ me !re4 ,oh1 ,paul1 don't1 don't4 ,pray1 pray6 ,i h pray$1 de>1 & z ,i pray--oh1 ,edi?1 ,i don't "k6 ,b no?+ /ops my see+4 ,x j gets cle>]4 ,ev]y?+ fits4 ,little ?+s sort ( seem to come my way4 ,if x's wrong1 surely our ,"l ,:om ,i d love1 ,edi?1 & ,:om ,i h tri$ to s]ve1 won't let me g wrong4 ,b suppose1--suppose x's a temptation8 ,i "k4 ,dad says x's ! ,devil4 ,exactly4 ',!y call$ ! ,ma/] ( ! ,h\se ,beelzebub1 & h[ mu* m !y ( ,8 ,h\sehold8' ,ev]y?+ fits4 ,oh1 ,paul1 %e cri$1 !re y g aga96 ,i c't argue ) y4 ,i---- ,no1 because x's unansw]able4 ,& x's be5 s = two ?\s& ye>s4 ,paul1 ,paul1 d pray6 ,d>l+1 ,i d pray4 ,b :at c ,i d8 ,"m says3 ',cl+ to ! ,book--,don't let g ! ,^w1' b ! ,^w itself seems to me to po9t t way4 ,i c't help x2 x does4 ,i don't want to be a ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,i'd hate to be4 ,b1 ,edi?1 oh ,edi?1 ,edi?1 :y is !re no answ] :5 "o prays8 ,paul1 !re is1 !re is6 ,he turn$ on h]4 ,!n y pray4 ,n[4 ,"h4 ,god w answ] y1 p]haps4 ,oh1 ,i c't1 ,paul4 ,n ) y "h4 ,i w\ldn't d>e4 ,he caught h] h&s4 ,oh1 d>l+1 d4 ,i'm s tir$ ( begg+ & cry+ = light4 ,i seem always to h to be ! lead]1 & ,i d s want to be l$4 ,! girl's eyes fill$ ) swift te>s4 ,paul1 d>l+1 %e :isp]$4444 ,well1 ,i w4 ,!y knelt 9 ! %ad[ ( ! p9es1 una%am$1 & 9 ! air !re 0 a tremble ( a s\nd--! ripple ( ! t9y wavelets on ! bea* b5ea?1 & ! s\gh ( ! p9es above4 ,!y knelt h& 9 h&1 l two *ildr52 & aft] a mom5t or two %e pray$ al\d1 9 a hu%$ :isp]4 ,oh ,god 7%e said71 ,?\ can/ see u4 ,?\ art "h4 ,d1 d1 %[ ,paul--%[ u bo?1 :at is "r & true1 & :at we ought to d4 ,don't let u be l$ a/ray f ,!e4 ,don't let u be fright5$ ( foll[+ ,!e4 ,j let u--let u draw clos] to ,!e & lean h>d] on ,!e1 all ! way4 ,= ,jesus ,*ri/'s sake4 ,sobs *ok$ h] ,am51 & ,paul1 8 eyes wet1 put 8 arm ab\t h]4 ,s clasp$ !y knelt4 ,& ! little waves rippl$ on ! %ore & ! w9d s\gh$ 9 ! p9es above4 ,!y walk$ home sob]ly4 ,at ! entrance to ! t[n1 ,edi? put ano!r "q4 ,paul1 %e said1 tell me1 hav5't y lik$ ,keswick8 ,he 0 sil5t = a mom5t4 ,!n3 ,edi?1 %all ,i tell y ! tru?8 ,yes--& always4 ,well1 ,i've lov$ x s mu* t ,i've almo/ hat$ x4 ,our fri5ds are s s9c]e1 s good1 & ,i seem to "k x all s well4 ,x's my home1 b ,i'm beg9n+ to feel myself a /rang] among my own p4 ,! girl swall[$ t /upid lump t w\ld keep ris+ 9 h] ?roat4 ,de>1 %e said1 w y promise me "o ?+8 ,:at8 ,promise4 ,y mu/ tell me :at x is fir/4 ,i c't tie my h&s1 ev5 = y4 ,well1 promise t :atev] happ5s to y1 y'll nev] laugh at all ?is4 ,!y 7 at h] corn]1 & ! boy look$ into h] grave face4 ,i won't1 he said4 ,i promise4 ,i owe x too mu*4 ,b1 ,edi?1 "o ?+ ,i won't promise4 ,i won't promise t1 if ,i ev] see x to be false1 ,i won't fight x ) e weapon on :i* ,i c lay h&4 ,& %e dropp$ h] eyes f 81 =lorn1 = %e saw t x 0 n 9 him to say m4 7#e7 ,paul w5t to ,ripon1 & ,dick1 say+ good-bye = "s "t1 to ! ,s\?4 ,he 0 to be orda9$ 9 ,septemb]1 & _h to int]view 8 prospective ,vic>1 some:]e 9 ,nor? ,london4 ,paul 0 /ay+ ) ,judson = a few days1 t ,judson :om he _h h>dly kn[n at ! college fea/1 b :o _h come r m intimately into 8 life ( late4 ,judson 0 a ,congregationali/1 & 8 fa!r 0 a m9i/] ( ! d5om9ation 9 ,ripon4 ,he himself 0 a %ort1 bullet-head$ sort ( p]son1 :om ,paul usually ?\ght ( z a bullet4 ,at any rate1 !re did n seem to be mu* room = emotionalism or s5tim5t 9 8 make-up1 & he _h a bullet-l way ( bor+ into ?+s4 ,he _h bor$ /raight into ,paul4 ,blunt1 def9ite1 ready1 he _h lik$ ,paul1 & _h />t$ to call & to dem& to be call$ ^u4 ,8 rooms reflect$ 9 a negative way 8 p]sonality4 ,be+ poor1 !y rema9$ poorly furni%$1 b ev5 on tupp5ce-halfp5ny !y might h be5 less h>d4 ,on ei!r side ( ! mantelpiece 7 two humor\s col\r$ plates out ( ,pr9t]s' ,pie4 ,paul ?\ght !y symbolis$ ! man4 ,h[ anyone c\ld look at ! same two jokes = ev]1 "o on ea* side ( ! mantel-piece1 us$ to /rike him z an incr$ible my/]y4 ,he ?\ght at fir/ t x meant t ,judson _h no s\l at all4 ,x 0 :5 he discov]$ 8 mi/ake t he began to l ! man4 ,= ,judson _h a s\l4 ,he w5t regul>ly1 )\t any adv]tisem5t ( x1 to a ,congregational *apel4 ,he address$ ,congregational meet+s 9 villages at consid]able inconv5i5ce & q unobtrusively4 ,he & ,paul alone at ,/4 ,m>y's _h ! s9 ( public prea*+ to _! *>ge4 ,& ,paul 0 beg9n+ to f9d out t he alone nei!r mock$ at nor disreg>d$ 8 own religi\s /ruggles4 ,judson survey$ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* ) a %rewd eye4 ,he left ,paul to make enquiries1 b he took !m s]i\sly4 ,9 8 rooms he wore c>pet slipp]s & a blaz]1 & smok$ an ugly pipe1 b1 feet on 8 mantelpiece & h&s 9 8 pockets1 he 0 prep>$ to admit t !re 7 _m po9ts ( view4 ,he>+1 !n1 t ,paul 0 go+ to ! ,isle ( ,man & ,keswick1 he _h p]suad$ him to come = a few days to ,ripon on 8 way ,s\?4 ,x 0 inconv5i5t t1 at ! "t1 a ,congregational conf]5ce 0 tak+ place 9 ,ripon1 b z money = tra9 f>es 0 a consid]ation to bo? fri5ds1 ,paul's visit 0 n delay$4 ,he himself 0 glad1 z a matt] ( fact1 t ! conf]5ce 0 sitt+4 ,congregationalism 0 n imm$iately on 8 road1 b he ?\ght he w\ld turn (f to see a little ( x z he pass$4 ,?ree m9i/]s 7 /ay+ 9 ! h\se1 & ! fri5ds 7 out ( x mo/ days4 ,!y made sundry excursions1 & lun*$ away4 ,t fir/ aft]noon1 ,paul 0 tak5 to 8 fri5d's fa!r's *apel4 ,he 0 %[n affectionately r\nd4 ,judson op5$ ! door ( ! roomy1 clean1 pit*-p9e ve/ry ) an air1 & took obvi\s pride 9 a new pulpit ( consid]able dim5sions4 ,he expla9$ ! heat+ app>atus ) ! same sponsorial solicitude t a prie/ takes :5 he %[s a visitor a new alt>4 ,he op5$ & play$ ! new ,am]ican organ4 ,he exhibit$1 9 %ort1 an unhu%$ g5ial int]e/ 9 & affection = a s]ies ( :at already seem$ to ,paul incr$ibly ugly & unattractive ?+s4 ,= ,paul _h nev] admir$ 8 own mission hall4 ,he _h nev] ev5 ?\ght ( admiration1 or ! rev]se1 9 connection ) x4 ,x _h /ood = use1 n = ornam5t4 ,b ,judson evid5tly saw 9 8 *apel beautiful & holy gr\nd4 ,he did n take (f 8 %oes1 because he 0 n a rituali/ & t 0 n 8 way1 b he lik$ ! heat+ app>atus to %9e brightly & to burn ! be/ coal4 ,x 0 mu* ! same 9 ! ,m9/]4 ,!re _h be5 a "t :5 ,paul _h ?\ght all ca!drals high & t5d+ to ,pop]y4 ,n[ he saw 9 ,ripon a lovely ?+ misus$ & defac$4 ,! *oir 0 full ( cane *airs1 rank on rank1 = x alone 0 *iefly us$4 ,!y /ood 9 platoons on ! wide1 dignifi$ /eps lead+ up to ! alt>1 /eps ! /one ( ^: v approa* 0 all b entirely conceal$ by an exp5sive r$ ,turkey c>pet1 pres5t$1 !y 7 impressively in=m$1 by a less] ,royalty1 :5 /ay+ ) ! ,bi%op :o _h be5 popul> at ,c\rt4 ,! alt> frontal _h ! appe>ance ( r$ plu%1 ) a multi-col\r$ ,maltese cross work$ ^u x1 flank$ by lilies4 ,x _h co/ sev5ty-five p\nds sixte5 %ill+s4 ,!y 7 told s4 ,also ! two %ades ( r$ 7 lock$ 9 a viol5t argum5t4 ,!y saw ! high1 oak-ro($ ,lady ,*apel1 :i* 0 l9$ ) nev]-op5$ books1 call$ a libr>y1 & us$ = a *oir ve/ry4 ,! light /ream$ ?r\gh its lovely w9d[ ^u dog-e>$ piles ( ,tallis's *ant-books4 ,& 9 ! ,nor? ,transept1 !y /ood 9 front ( an imm5se & decorat$ ,georgian memorial = :i* pill>s _h be5 brok5 & c>v+s cut away1 a memorial :i* 0 approa*$ /ill by anci5t alt> /eps1 & on ! top ( :i* repos$ a ,georgian figure 9 col\r$ /one :o recl9$ ^u 8 side1 "o elb[ propp+ up 8 bewigg$ head1 & "o h&1 ) lace at ! wri/1 froz5 = ev] 9 a timeless pat ^u a bulg+ /oma*4 ,judson saw pleasant humanity 9 ! effigy1 ! v]g] magnific5ce1 ,paul an arti/ic & religi\s abom9ation ( desolation1 & !y all ?ree ascrib$ _! own feel+s to ! all-see+ deity4 ,! sunlight cont9u$ to dapple ! /one :i* ev] way x 04 ,!y w5t1 also1 to ,f\nta9s ,abbey4 ,judson express$ contempt = ! decad5t ,engli% ari/ocracy1 excit$ !reto by "s subtle influ5ce aris+ f ! well-cut1 trim lawns1 & mu* admir$ ! view ( a classical temple :i* is to be se5 ?r\gh a well-plac$ gap4 ,he admir$ x to ! ext5t ( a pipe ^u ! spot4 ,)9 ! ru91 ,paul sat on a fall5 /one1 & fell on sil5ce4 ,return+ f a t\r ( inspection1 ,judson survey$ him ) amusem5t4 ,are y brood+ ^u a sonnet1 ,ke/]n8 he enquir$1 feel+ = 8 mat*es aga94 ,paul's tragic y\? =bade him to reply4 ,well1 ^? bless$ monks ( y\rs did !mselves pr\d1 anyway1 cont9u$ 8 companion4 ,puff-puff4 ,wond] if we c\ld get up a picnic "h4 ,! di/ant hoot ( a *>-a-banc appe>$ m or less to answ] him4 ,?ank ,god x's a ru91 said ,paul savagely2 let's g4 ,wond] h[ long x took 'em to build x1 rem>k$ ,judson z !y walk$ away4 ,g5]ations1 said ,paul4 ,:5 !y fir/ came1 !y />v$ 9 ! =e/ on b]ries :ile !y pl\gh$ & plant$ l&s1 & liv$ 9 daub & wattle huts4 ,sl[ly1 piece by piece1 !y rais$ all t1 to ! hon\r & glory ( ,god4 ,! place 0 a pray] 9 /one4 ,!y knew h[ to *oose a site1 rem>k$ ! practical ,judson4 ,wond] if x c\ld be repair$8 ,& ,i wond] if x 0 answ]$1 said ,paul4 ,:at8 ,! pray]4 ,does ! ru9 look l x8 ,y're a rum ass1 said ,judson affectionately4 ,paul kick$ a /one savagely f 8 pa?4 ,i'm sick ( be+ call$ a rum ass by ev]yone1 he said4 ,i see no?+ rum or as99e 9 :at ,i said4 ,y w\ldn't1 said ,judson4 ,b !n we ar5't all poets1 he add$4 ,nor am ,i1 retort$ ,paul gloomily1 & anyh[ :at ,i said _h no?+ to d ) poetry4 ,well1 let's get lun* at t place by ! gate4 ,! poetry 9 a ham s&wi* is :at ,i want at pres5t4 ,paul return$ to e>?4 ,i c\ld d ) two1 he e*o$ ) en?usiasm4 7#f7 ,t night1 ov] & aft] a high ,york%ire tea1 ,paul 0 able to /udy ,congregational m9i/]s4 ,a r\nd doz5 ( !m sat 9 ,mr4 ,judson's /udy b5ea? a l>ge engrav+ ( ! late ,mr4 ,spurgeon 9 ! act ( prea*+ f ! pulpit ( 8 ,tab]nacle4 ,paul 0 int]e/$ 9 _! app>5tly inf9ite v>iety4 ,!re 0 ! type he knew well 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& ,claxt$ circles1 ! s9c]e1 lovable1 e>ne/1 be>d$ sort :o d n smoke & are r sil5t 9 a g5]al conv]sation4 ,!re 0 ! he>ty1 bluff1 uncl]ical sort1 :o d smoke & :o talk a good deal & tell humor\s anecdotes4 ,"o su* relat$ ) great good hum\r h[ he _h be5 knock$ up "o ra9y night 9 mi/ake = a ,high ,*ur* p>son1 & ask$ to bicycle five miles to baptize a dy+ baby a few h\rs old4 ,a "y man 9 a corn]1 9 a ,roman coll> & a frock coat1 ask$ if he w5t4 ,g8 ,n ,i6 ,d'y suppose ,i'd g out on a cold night to spr9kle half a doz5 drops ( wat] ov] a baby8 ,i told ! fell[ ,i 0 sorry1 b t if he 0 wise1 he'd g home to b$1 z ,i propos$ to g4 ,& ,i %ut ! w9d[ be=e he answ]$4 ,two or ?ree laugh$1 ,paul c\ld n see :y4 ,t's l y1 ,joe1 said ,mr4 ,judson4 ,i %\ld h gone1 said ! "y man 9 ! corn] gravely4 ,m fool y !n1 retort$ ,joe1 app>5tly liv+ up to 8 reputation = bluff good hum\r4 ,i d n ?9k s1 said ! "y man4 ,! c]emony may mean a great deal to ! "m1 & ! ,*ur* ought to be human en\gh to cat] = all4 ,t k9d ( attitude gives p a wrong impression ( ,noncon=mity4 ,n s wrong z ! impression y'd give1 put 9 a ?ird mission>y hotly4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ _c cat] = sac]dotalism4 ,:at did y ?9k ( ! ,mod]ator's address8 ask$ ,mr4 ,judson ( ! company 9 g5]al1 a little too quickly1 ,paul ?\ght4 ,b he ?\ght also t he _h se5 yet ano!r type 9 m9i/]ial ,congregationalism4 7#g7 ,roll+ ,londonw>ds1 wat*+ ! spe$+ fields & ! quiet sleepy ,midl& villages1 ,paul turn$ ov] ! kaleidoscope ( 8 vacation & realis$ t he 0 approa*+ a return to ,claxt$ ) some?+ l dismay4 ,dismay1 h[ev]1 did n la/ long4 ,he 0 det]m9+ at all co/s to prea* some?+ ( ! new _s t 0 9 him1 & to %[ ,lambe? ,c\rt & ,apple ,or*>d ,road t ) broad] sympa?ies & a m !ological outlook c\ld also m>* all ! zeal & f]v\r ( evangelicalism4 ,! tra9 sl[$ d[n = ,leice/]4 ,a figure ( out/&+ dress & height deta*$ itself f ! little ?rong ( wait+ pass5g]s1 & select$ 8 comp>tm5t4 ,! newcom] c>ri$ an atta* case1 a lea!r package ( odd & awkw>d size1 a suitcase1 & a box ( lant]n slides1 & he 0 moreov] encumb]$ ) a travell+ rug1 a silk hat1 an ov]coat1 & a /ick4 ,paul assi/$ ) ^!1 & ! /rang] sat d[n opposite him4 ,paul's eyes took 9 8 gait]$ legs & 8 silk apron1 & re/$ ev5 m enquir+ly on 8 purple /ock4 ,x 0 8 fir/ p]sonal meet+ ) a bi%op4 ,!y two 7 alone 9 ! c>riage4 ,?anks1 said ! ,bi%op4 ,i'm sorry to be hung ab\t ) ?+s l ?is1 b ,i don't seem able to disp5se ) any ( !m4 ,he s\nd$ q human1 & ev5 fri5dly4 ,paul wond]$ :o he 0 & if he ought to introduce my "l at once into ! conv]sation4 ,h[ev] he blackball$ ! idea4 ,i "k1 he said4 ,i always seem to accumulate heaps ( ?+s myself4 ,well1 said ! o!r1 a tw9kle 9 8 eye1 x's a nuisance1 y "k1 be+ a bi%op1 & especially a bi%op f abroad1 home on leave4 ,y've got to fit 9 s mu*4 ,!re's lectur+ & pass+ pro(s & prea*+1 & a bi%op has to c>ry s _m ?+s ar\nd ) him4 ,does he8 said ,paul1 smil+ & meet+ ! o!r's mood1 ,i fe> ,i don't "k :at he wants4 ,b--er--may we introduce ourselves--er--my "l8 ,! big1 clean-%av51 "y-look+ prelate *uckl$ pleasantly4 ,c]ta9ly1 he said4 ,i'm ! ,bi%op ( ,mozambique1 & z ,i'm only a colonial1 y ne$n't call me 'my "l1' y "k1 unless y l4 ,paul look$ at him ) increas$ int]e/4 ,( c\rse2 he ought to h recognis$ him4 ,he 0 an extreme ,high ,*ur* bi%op1 n unkn[n to controv]sial fame4 ,i'm ,paul ,ke/]n1 ( ,/4 ,m>y's1 he said4 ,ox=d8 ,no1 ,cambridge4 ,i'm sorry4 ,or at lea/ ,i'm n really4 ,! o!r laugh$ outright4 ,we'll agree to diff]1 & get on fam\sly1 he said4 ,& :]e d y come f j n[1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n8 ,paul det]m9$ 9 a mom5t to be q frank4 ,a ,*ildr5's ,special ,s]vice ,mission 9 ! ,isle ( ,man1 ! ,keswick ,conv5tion1 & ! ,congregationali/ ,congress 9 ,ripon1 he said1 v gravely4 ,good1 said ! o!r4 ,f :i* ,i ga!r y are a ,noncon=mi/ c&idate = ! m9i/ry4 ,wrong1 said ,paul4 ,i'm ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 or ,i ?9k ,i am /ill4 ,& ,i'm go+ to be a mission>y1 or--& sudd5ly = ! fir/ "t he saw1 cle>ly1 ! gulf t might be ahead--,i pray ,god t ,i am4 ,! ,bi%op's smile di$ away1 b 8 tone 0 none ! less k9dly :5 he spoke aft] a few m9utes' quiet scrut9y ( ! o!r's face4 ,!n3 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 he said1 ,i take x1 if y won't ?9k me rude1 t y are go+ ?r\gh ! mill l ! re/ ( u h _h to d4 ,& ,paul1 impulsively1 nodd$1 & 9 a few m9utes 0 op5+ 8 he>t1 :ile ! miles slipp$ fa/ away & ! tra9 ru%$ z easily z de/9y along its rail$ road4 ,y c't be a ,roman ,ca?olic1 said ! ,bi%op decisively :5 ,paul _h f9i%$4 ,:y n8 ,because y "k too mu* hi/ory to believe 9 ! ,pope4 ,hone/ly1 said ,paul1 ,i see no reason 9 hi/ory to disbelieve 9 ! ,pope4 ,8 infallibility8 ,vox corporis1 vox capitis1 retort$ ,paul2 & if ! ,*ur* has no head1 no ultimate au?ority1 h[ c x speak8 ,! ,*ur* has ultimate au?ority4 ,x resides 9 ! :ole college ( bi%ops disp]s$ ?r\gh\t ! _w4 ,! ,papal p[] is a gr[? due to v>i\s human circum/ances1 & 9 its f9al def9ition is contr>y to ! true ,ca?olic fai?4 ,surely t's :at e h]etic has said ( e def9ition4 ,t's :at 0 said :5 e cre$ came to be =mulat$ 9 ord] to safegu>d ! fai? aga9/ ! increas+ !oris+ ( m54 ,t's :at ! ,congregationali/s say ab\t ! ,sacram5ts4 ,b ! te/ lies 9 ! acceptance ( ! new /atem5t by ! :ole ,ca?olic body4 ,paul nodd$ eag]ly4 ,& = f\r hundr$ ye>s at lea/ ! :ole ,ca?olic body accept$ ,pope ,leo's def9ition ( ! ,papacy1 :i* is good en\gh to ju/ify x1 &1 sir1 has ! :ole ,*ur* accept$ y\r !ory8 ,h ev5 ! ,engli% bi%ops accept$ x8 ,are y n almo/ alone on ! b5* 9 y\r views8 ,well1 b judge = y\rself4 ,read y\r ,bible & pray4 ,is !re a ,pope 9 ! ,holy ,scriptures8 ,wasn't ! ,fir/ ,c\ncil ( ,j]usalem a meet+ ( ! college ( bi%ops8 ,& t1 retort$ ,paul1 is :at !y said at ,keswick4 ',read y\r ,bible & pray4' ,only1 let alone ! ,pope1 mo/ ( !m don't see ev5 a bi%op at ,j]usalem6 ,! big man took x 9 good "p4 ,someone has be5 prompt+ y1 "y man1 he said k9dly4 ,fa!r ,vassall1 repli$ ,paul in/antly4 ,ah6 ,h y ev] be5 abroad8 ,! eld] man's voice h>d5$ subtly4 ,no4 ,well1 don't judge ,roman ,ca?olicism by its appe>ance 9 ,engl&4 ,x's at its be/ "h4 ,x we>s ,sunday clo!s4 ,prie/s don't keep mi/resses 9 ,engl&1 & ! wor%ip ( ! sa9ts is n q ! idolatry x is 9 ,italy4 ,paul flu%$ sudd5ly1 b sat sil5t4 ,concub9age is a regul> ?+ 9 ,spa91 w5t on ! o!r suavely4 ,9 ,france !y're v dubi\s ab\t ! ,pope4 ,9 ,engl&1 bel[ ! surface1 !y are z disunit$ pretty ne>ly z we are4 ,9 ,s\? ,am]ica1 ! p w\ld h m religion if !y 7 /ill hea!n4 ,paul recall$1 9 a swift flood ( memory1 8 meet+ ) ,fa!r ,k5elm at ,cambridge4 ,he recall$ 8 /ories ( imm5se ador+ cr[ds1 ( p]secution will+ly endur$1 ( h]oic self-sacrifices = ! propagation ( ! fai?4 ,/ill m he rememb]$ h[ ! fa!r1 eag]ly talk+ to him1 _h seem$ to take x = grant$ t he 0 a ,ca?olic2 & h[ he1 feel+ t he mu/ be hone/1 _h said he 0 n2 & h[ in/antly1 across ! cr[d$ draw+-room1 )\t a trace ( n]v\sness or any s5se ( indecorum1 ! sudd5 /ab ( ! poignant "q _h fla%$--,oh1 b ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 surely y love our ,"l8 ,w\ld su* a man condone immorality8 ,! boy's face h>d5$4 ,!re 0 an ,isc>iot among ! ,apo/les1 ,bi%op1 he said4 ,yes1 "o4 ,n elev5 out ( twelve4 ,! tra9 began to sl[ d[n1 & ! ,bi%op /irr$ to ga!r 8 traps4 ,my "l1 said ,paul1 curt 9 8 ard\r1 y m]ely prop\nd a dilemma4 ,ei!r ! ,holy ,gho/ has kept sil5ce z to ! ess5tial c5tral au?ority ( ! ,*ur* till ,he %[$ x to ,anglo-,ca?olics sev5ty ye>s ago1 ! devil triumph+ mean:ile1 or--or---- ,eh8 qu]i$ ! a/oni%$ ,bi%op4 ,or x is all a lie4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,m\nt ,,c>mel ,?\ art a ,god t hide/ ,?yself4--,,isa4 xlv4 ,!n ,job answ]$ & said3 ,oh t ,i knew :]e ,i might f9d ,him4--,,job xxiii4 ,!re is no pro( ( ,god's exi/5ce1 & y mu/ fir/ ( all believe 9 x if y want to prove x4 ,:]e does he %[ himself8 ,:at does he save8 ,:at tortures ( ! he>t1 :at disa/]s does he turn aside f all & ea* 9 ! ru9 ( he>ts8 ,:]e h we kn[n or h&l$ or embrac$ any?+ b 8 "n8 ,god's abs5ce surr\nds inf9itely & ev5 actually ea* kneel+ suppliant1 a?ir/ = "s humble p]sonal miracle1 & ea* seek] :o b5ds ov] 8 pap]s z he wat*es = pro(s l a creator2 x surr\nds ! pitiful antagonism ( all religions1 arm$ aga9/ ea* o!r1 enorm\s & bloody4 ,god's abs5ce rises l ! sky ov] ! agonis+ conflicts betwe5 good & evil1 ov] ! trembl+ he$fulness ( ! upright1 ov] ! imm5sity--/ill haunt+ me--( ! cemet]ies ( agony1 ! *>nal-heaps ( innoc5t soldi]s1 ! heavy cries ( ! %ipwreck$4 ,abs5ce6 ,abs5ce6 ,9 ! hundr$ ?\s& ye>s t life has tri$ to delay dea?1 !re has be5 no?+ on e>? m fruitless ?an man's cries to div9ity1 no?+ :i* gives s p]fect an idea ( sil5ce4--,,h5ri ,,b>busse3 ,light 7translat$ by ,fitzwat] ,wray74 7#a7 ,9 ,mr4 ,ke/]n's /udy ! curta9s 7 close drawn & no gas _h be5 lit4 ,!y 7 heavy crimson curta9s1 ?ick & old-fa%ion$1 & !y hung motionless1 completely scre5+ ! w9d[s4 ,a fire flick]$ fitfully 9 ! grate1 ) s little light t ! army ( danc+ invad+ %ad[s ru%$ ev5 m & m tempe/u\sly & ov]:elm+ly =w>d t[>ds x4 ,!y leapt ov] ! sombre-back$ books 9 _! close r[s on ! %elves ar\nd ! room1 flick+ a lett] tool$ 9 gold "h & !re z !y pass$4 ,9 ! corn]s !y already rul$ supreme4 ,high ^u ! walls !y hung1 l ga!r$ cl\ds4 ,only imm$iately be=e ! grate1 :]e ! big secretaire /ood ) its roll-top lid pu%$ back1 0 _! k+dom n yet4 ,! little light %[$ ! op5 desk1 its half-fill$ & neatly-labell$ pigeon-holes1 its ink/&1 blott] & loose pap]s4 ,left & "r ( ! c5tre1 ! big draw]s 7 all %ut1 save "o1 t gap$ half-op54 ,! heavy piece seem$ almo/ z x 7 to brood ov] t draw]4 ,x 0 seldom op54 ,x held ,paul's old s*ool reports & essays & "s anci5t s]mon notes1 *iefly ?+s he did n guess 7 /ill 9 exi/5ce4 ,a few ( !m1 disord]$1 lay half 91 half out1 toss$ d[n !re by a quick movem5t4 ,"o lay on ! floor1 :ite 9 ! gloom1 z x _h fall5 f ! read]'s h&4 ,! read] himself _h slipp$ f 8 seat4 ,! revolv+ *air 9 :i* he _h be5 sitt+1 0 pu%$ slightly back1 & he himself 0 kneel+1 head =w>d1 face hid 9 8 h&s4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n (t5 pray$ !re ?us1 busy at 8 s]mons1 & !re 0 a foot/ool bel[ ! desk = him to kneel ^u4 ,b he 0 n kneel+ on x n[4 ,8 0 no prem$itat$ pray+4 ,he _h dropp$ ! manuscript1 turn$ ! gas ha/ily out1 & fall5 =w>d !re1 9 "o swift motion1 "s half-h\r or m ago4 ,! fire _h ?us begun to die1 b he paid no he$4 ,8 head1 ) its hair already m ne>ly :ite ?an grey1 _h sc>cely mov$ 9 8 h&s = all t "t4 ,yet if ! man's b[$ %\ld]s 7 all b motionless1 ! rapid agonis$ ?\ghts lanc$ ?is way & t )\t ceas+ ?r\gh 8 tortur$ s\l4 ,n[ !y 7 fly+ back d[n ! ye>s1 reveal+1 l lightn+ fla%es1 o!r great mom5ts 9 ! drama ( 8 son3 ! mom5t he _h knelt pray+--good ,god1 h[ he _h pray$6--& wait+ = ! news ( ! bir? 9 ! room above2 ! mom5t :5 he1 & 8 wife ) him ?is "t1 _h knelt & wre/l$ ) ,god 9 an agony = ! life ( ! lad ^u :om ! consult+ doctors 7 ev5 !n pron\nc+ a f9al decision4 ,9 ea* case1 !re _h be5 /eps at la/ outside ann\nc+ :at _h seem$ & :at he _h acclaim$ to be a v]itable miracle4 ,b n[--ah6 n[4444 ',fa!r1 if x be possible444' ',! ,"l1 ,:o ha? r$eem$ u f all evil1 bless ! lad444' ',"l ( ,all p[] & might444' ',ma/]444'--x 0 9 brok5 phrases t he pray$4 ,x 01 inde$1 a pray] n truly ( words at all4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 /rick5 z he _h nev] dream$ he c\ld be /rick51 flung 8 rack$ & a*+ s\l at ! feet ( 8 ,god4 ,& x 0 all s /ill3 ! sil5t dance ( ! %ad[s1 ! sil5t exi/+ ( ! heavy curta9s & old-fa%ion$ furniture1 ! sil5t1 brok5 man4 ,x 0 /ill outside 9 ! suburban /reet1 dank & unlovely 9 ! dull ,decemb] ev5+4 ,x 0 /ill high up :]e ! l[]+ cl\ds1 heavy ) sn[ t ye>1 hid ! moon4 ,& ,god on ,8 ?rone sat /ill4 ,oh1 my ,god1 sp>e me ?is ?+4444 ,?\ kn[e/4444 ,let n ,satan triumph ov] me4444 ,! boy is ,?9e--giv51 d$icat$1 b\ght2--save ,?\ my son1 my only son4 ,yet n my w1 b ,?9e be done4444 ,ah1 b x _c be ,?y w--?is deceit1 ?is lie6 ,o ,god ( ,tru?1 op5 8 eyes t he may see wondr\s ?+s out ( ,?y ,^w4444 ,knives1 lances--ea* brok5 s5t5ce 0 "o su*4 ,& truly ,mr4 ,ke/]n w\ld h c\nt$ 8 he>t's blood a light (f]+ if !reby he might h sav$ 8 son4 ,8 he>t's blood6 ,he 0 (f]+ ev5 m z he knelt !re n[4 ,8 fai? & love 7 break+ 8 s\l ^u ! :eel1 & n "o bl[ w\ld he sp>e himself4 ,& )91 )\t1 above1 sil5ces1 int]wov5 sil5ces1 a veil--inscrutable4 ,b ,god mu/ be made to he>444 ',fa!r1 if x be possible4444' ,! h&le ( ! door turn$1 futilely s9ce ! door 0 lock$4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n rose sl[ly1 & op5$ x4 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n came 94 ,fa!r6 %e exclaim$4 ,y\r fire's ne>ly out6 ,& no gas8 ,:atev]-- ,oh1 fa!r de>1 :at is x8 ,h[ long h y be5 "h alone8 ,:y didn't y call me 98 ,let me light ! gas = y4 ,%e walk$ ov] & lit ! yell[ jet1 turn+ aga9 to ! man :o /ood1 sil5t & motionless1 by ! table4 ,h] eyes took 9 ! drawn face1 ! hagg>d br[1 ev5 ! signs ( a man's difficult te>s4 ,%e mov$ swiftly to him4 ,fa!r6 %e cri$ aga91 :at is x8 ,has any?+ happ5$ to ,paul8 ,"o h& rea*$ up to 8 %\ld] & ! o!r 0 press$ h>d on h] he>t4 ,no1 no1 ,cl>a1 said ! man4 ,he's writt51 t's all4 ,9 advance ( 8 com+1 ,i suppose1 s z to prep>e u4 ,y _h bett] read :at he says4 ,8 wife detect$ ! bitt]1 hopeless pa9 t und]lay ! words4 ,h] glance1 too1 read aright ! op5 draw] & ! disord]$ pap]s4 ,me*anically %e rea*$ out = ! lett]4 ,he's /ill our boy1 %e cri$1 inconsequ5tly4 ,! old ,puritan /raight5$ himself4 ,a son ( m9e a ,roman ,ca?olic6 he cri$4 ,:at is my s9 t ,god %\ld br+ ?is ^u me8 ,w\ld ,god he _h di$ fir/6 ,fa!r6--no6--oh1 don't say t6 ,i c't be> x1 ,i c't be> x4 ,oh1 ,god help u1 ,god help u---- ,%e sank heavily into a *air1 h] body %ak5 ) sobs4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n mov$ ov]1 & laid 8 h& on h] %\ld]4 ,x 0 an utt]ly pa!tic ge/ure t he made1 z if1 :atev] h] grief1 !y 7 bo? ( !m p[]less be=e x4 ,he's n tak5 ! /ep yet1 he said z "o cat*+ at a /raw4 ,!n1 bitt]ly1 ,or he says n4 ,he wi%es to consult u fir/4 ,b y c read t 8 m9d is made up4 ,!y h trapp$ my boy4 ,?r\gh h] te>s1 8 wife ask$ = ! lett] to be read4 ,x's q %ort1 said ,mr4 ,ke/]n heavily1 z he recross$ ! room & seat$ himself 9 8 *air1 & !n1 ) t new bitt]ness1 %ort & sweet4 ,y c read betwe5 ! l9es4 ',,my ,,de>1 ,,de> ,,fa!r1 ',i "k t :at ,i am go+ to say w give y t]rible pa91 & believe me1 x is only aft] h\rs ( real agony 9 pray] = light t ,i h come to some?+ ( a decision4 ,n by ! way t ,i h really come to a decision at all1 = ,i %all take no /ep1 n[ or at any "t1 )\t consult+ y fir/4 ,please1 please1 believe t4 ,b ,i feel ,i mu/ tell y def9itely t x seems to me v likely t ,i %all make my submission to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4' 7',make 8 submission6'--d y notice t8 ,submit to ! ,devil6 ,our ,paul67 ',i d n love our ,"l "o :it less ?an ,i ev] did2 inde$ ,i ?9k ,i love ,him m4 ,x is because ,i love ,him t ,i %all take ?is /ep1 if ,i feel x to be f9ally "r4 ,if ,i g1 ,i %all g because x seems to me to be ,8 ,w & t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is ,8 "o ,true ,*ur*4 ,i "k y w f9d x all b impossible to und]/&1 b1 de> fa!r1 = ,god's sake believe me :5 ,i say t ,i believe ,i g to ,him because ,he is ! ,tru? & because ,i believe t t is ,8 ,tru?4' ',tru?6' ,t tissue ( lies & ,devil's deceits6 ,oh1 ! p[] ( ! old ,enemy6 ,i w\ld nev] h believ$ x possible ( our boy1 ! son ( our pray]s1 our ,paul4 ,b no son ( m9e---- ,fa!r1 fa!r1 don't6 ,= my sake1 /op4 ,he won't g--he c't g4 ,y w be able to talk to him4 ,he kn[s ! ,^w ( ,god too well to be l$ s awfully a/ray4 ,don't get angry1 de>e/1 don't1 ,i beg y4 ,x--x'll pass1 ?is trial4 ,x breaks my he>t to see y look l t4 ,my he>t is brok5 already1 ,i ?9k1 ,cl>a4 ',8 "o true ,*ur*6' ,if anyone _h told me t ,paul1 ,paul---- ,fa!r1 let's pray4 ,god w help u4 ,he won't all[ ! ,devil to take our boy4 ,let's pray1 & tru/ ,him1 de>e/4 ,he's nev] fail$ u yet4 ,d y rememb] :5 ,paul 0 s ill---- ,& once m1 ?is "t toge!r1 fa!r & "m cri$ ^u _! ,god4 7#b7 ,t night1 too1 z if ! odd developm5t ( life wi%$ to make a secret je/ ( x1 ,edi? ,?ornton made h] great resolve4 ,%e put on h] coat & hat1 made an excuse ab\t "s ,*ri/mas %opp+1 & w5t out into ! foggy air4 ,! %op-fronts 7 gay & tempt+1 b %e _h no eyes = !m to-night4 ,edw>d ,/reet 0 full ( hurry+ foot pass5g]s1 int5t on _! own bus9ess1 b *e]ful ) ! good-w ( ! season :5 !y blund]$ into ea* o!r or dropp$ _! p>cels4 ,%e /e]$ ?r\gh !m sc>cely aw>e t !y 7 !re4 ,h] own eyes1 if any _h look$ into !m1 w\ld h reveal$ a t5sion ( _s & a high purpose :i* acc\nt$ = all t4 ,deep d[n 9 h]1 unreason+ & unreasonably1 %e knew t %e 0 ab\t no light adv5ture4 ,yet x 0 all s absurdly simple & commonplace4 ,9 ,well+ton ,road ! /ripp$ trees dripp$ gloomily 9 ! d>k4 ,little %>p pats ( fall+ moi/ure 7 di/9ctly audible on ! c>pet ( dead leaves t /rew$ ! long old-fa%ion$ g>d5s on ei!r side4 ,?is /reet1 b little us$1 0 almo/ des]t$1 & ! lamps gleam$ at r>e int]vals4 ,edi? liv$1 z x 71 f lamp-po/ to lamp-po/4 ,%e bade h] unwill+ feet rea* t next "o1 & t next1 & t next2 & s %e pass$4 ,)9 ,/4 ,patrick's ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* lights %one gaily4 ,! build+1 ( no great size1 laid no claim to ar*itectural glory & h>b\r$ no air ( my/]y or d\ble-deal+4 ,b ,edi?'s he>t beat fi]cely z %e w5t up ! pa?4 ,9 ! por*1 %e />$ at ! untidy notice-bo>d /uck ) black-edg$ fun]al c>ds reque/+ pray]s = ! dead1 at ! po/] ( a ,new ,ye> :i/ drive1 & at ! /\p ( holy wat]4 ,?is ,*ri/'s ,*ur*6 ,b ev5 z %e look$1 h] simple m9d swiftly adju/$ values4 ,paul's lett]s1 & h] own secret read+1 _h taught h] to d s4 ,%e und]/ood h[ "o might1 = example1 come to believe 9 pray]s = ! dead1 & h[1 if s1 !re w\ld be no?+ aga9/ pr9t$ rem9d]s1 & h[1 if s1 su* rem9d]s w\ld naturally be plac$ 9 ! *ur* & might1 equally naturally1 get a little dirty4 ,holy wat] too2 well1 x 0 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t1 m or less1 & its sav+ logic adumbrat$ 9 ! ,new4 ,b ! :i/ drive 0 a /ickl]4 ,w\ld ! ,apo/les h tol]at$ c>ds8 444 ,b %e w\ld g ?r\gh ) h] visit ( enquiry n[4 ,%e pu%$ op5 ! door & look$ 94 ,!n1 ) a quick little ge/ure1 ent]$1 & let x sw+ to beh9d h]4 ,& !re %e /ood1 look+ curi\sly r\nd ! place1 ) t unreason+ fe> tak+ ev] m /eadily possession ( h] he>t4 ,! alt> 0 lit ) _m c&les4 ,%e />$ at x almo/ lit]ally ) a sort ( horror1 z if x 7 a mon/r\s ?+4 ,! /atues ab\t1 ! odd pictures1 ! pray+ p "h & !re1 ev5 ! entry ( a man into a confessional & ! fleet+ glimpse ( ! head & %\ld]s ( ! prie/1 7 small ?+s4 ,t alt> /ood to h] = ev]y?+4 ,au?ority1 logic1 hi/ory--:at 7 !y to a girl8 ,oh1 well1 ^! _h a place1 p]haps2 %e lik$ to he> ,paul speak ( !m2 %e ass5t$ to :at he _h to say2 b "o ?+ m ?an any o!r _h gripp$ h]1 h[ or :y %e knew n1 9 all ?is /range talk ( ?is incr$ible religion4 ,! ,baby 9 ! ,mang]1 ! ,sacram5t on ! alt>--suppose t 7 true8 ,& %e _h come to see2 come up out ( ,galilee ( ! ,g5tiles to ,j]usalem t is f above2 come up f af> l ! ,wise ,k+s4 ,:]e is ,he t is born ,k+ ( ! ,jews8 %e ask$1 trembl+1 9 h] he>t4 ,"h6 ,:at1 among ^? c&les1 "u t /range canopy--,he8 ,s %e /ood hesitat+4 ,an old woman1 b5t1 clean1 made a deep curtsey 9 ! aisle & came noisily d[n to ! door4 ,z %e pass$ ,edi?1 %e look$ up1 survey$ h] = a mom5t1 & smil$4 ,a happy ,*ri/mas1 honey1 %e said4 ,g =w>d1 & sit d[n4 ,himself is wait+ y4 ,edi? smil$ an answ]1 me*anically4 ,%e did n "q ! odd say+4 ,nei!r !n nor lat] did %e d\bt t ! ?+ 0 a miracle4 ,%e w5t =w>d4 ,himself is wait+ y1 %e repeat$ wond]+ly4 ,x 0 z if a deep musical bell _h peal$ )9 h]1 & a :ole sweet c>illon brok5 out4 ,himself is wait+ y1 ,himself is wait+ y1 ,himself is wait+ y1 rang ! m]ry bells4 ,%e actually flu%$ a little4 ,%e sat d[n 9 a pew & />$ at ! alt>4 ,amid a ho/ ( confus$ unkn[n objects :i* %one & bl5d$ ! "o 9 ! o!r1 %e p]ceiv$ a k9d ( box4 ,x _h curta9s1 %e saw1 & !y 7 drawn4 ,:y drawn8 ,h] eyes w&]$ upw>ds4 ,%e p]ceiv$ t f ! f\r corn]s sprang metals :i* met above aft] an int]val & upheld a cross4 ,! little gold1 %9+ ?+ held h] = a mom5t4 ,!n %e look$ into ! space b5ea?4 ,c&lelight gleam$1 sp>kl$1 leapt1 on a brilliant1 glitt]+ some?+ n unlike a vase fill$ ) sc9tillat+ fl[]s4 ,9 ! v he>t ( ! fl[]s gleam$ a liv+ :ite4 ,%e />$ at x4 ,& !n1 sudd5ly1 all untaught1 %e knew4 ,himself is wait+ y2 ,himself is wait+ y2 ,himself is wait+ y--l[] & ev5 l[]1 a fa9t :isp] ( music1 ! little peal rang on4 ,b %e did n believe 444 ,yet = c5turies on c5turies1 ,paul _h said1 m5 _h ?\ght 444 ,m>tyrs _h di$ 444 ,sa9ts _h se54444 ,he8 ,well1 a ,baby4444 ,l h] la/-arriv$ si/]1 t9y1 puck]$1 remote1 de>4 ,he8 ,suppose t t small :ite circle 0 a little w9d[1 ?r\gh :i* h] s\l c\ld pass2 c\ld pass & pass2 to ,8 embrace1 ,8 tone1 ,8 he>t4444 ,sl[ly1 v sl[ly1 ,edi? ,?ornton1 :o envi$ de>1 eag]1 clev] ,paul s9ce he _h s mu* to give1 slipp$ =w>d en h] knees1 & clos$ h] eyes4 ,& !n1 9 ! fragrant1 gleam+ sil5ce ( h] m9d1 !re arose a little fe>4 ,%e wat*$ x come4 ,x 0 v small at fir/1 l a man's h&4 ,only x grew & grew1 till x fill$ all h] gaze & ?und]$ 9 h] s\l's e>4 ,wave on wave x ?und]$1 ?und]$ & broke1 ?is ov]:elm+ ma/]y ( fe>4 ,& %e knew q well :y %e 0 afraid4 ,h] s\l _h pass$ ?r\gh ! little door1 b x 0 lonely !re4 ,paul1 ,paul1 de>1 de> ,paul6 %e cri$1 /riv+ s h>d to see him4 ,paul6--! e*oes w5t w&]+ d[n ! corridors ( h] s\l1 & came rev]b]at+ back to h]4 ,%e 0 alone--alone4 ,& ! light di$1 & ! music di$1 & %e 0 v sore afraid4 ,& !n ,he came4 ,walk+ ?r\gh ! d>k ,he came1 seek+ h]4 ,%e saw ,him1 only !re 0 no sight4 ,! v sc5t ( ,8 robes 0 sweet1 only !re 0 no smell4 ,he spoke1 too2 cle>] ?an ! noise ( ! wat]-floods t dr[n$ h]1 l\d] ?an ! great w9ds ro>+ ?r\gh ! la%$ ,hursley p9es1 %e he>d ,him1 only !re 0 no s\nd4 ,& %e knew :at ,he said1 only !re 0 no ?\ght4 ,x is ,i1 ,he said1 ,i1 ,i2 be n afraid4 ,%e gripp$ ! feet ( ,him1 & m>vell$ z %e did s t !y %\ld tread h] d[n s ru?lessly1 s immeasurably happy4 ,& %e cri$ up to ,him--,paul1 ,paul6 ,oh1 ,ma/]1 give me ,paul6 ,don't take ,paul away6 ,i c't live )\t ,paul6 ,daught]1 ,he said1 x is ,i--,i2 be n afraid4 ,%e sobb$2 %e *ok$ ) sobs4 ,paul6 %e tri$ to cry1 ,oh ,ma/]1 de> de> ,ma/]1 give me ,paul--,paul6 ,& ! s\nd1 t 0 no s\nd1 e*o$ away & away & out on great m\nta9 places1 va/ & b>e4 ,! ,:ite ,feet sl[ly di$ betwe5 h] h&s4 ,%e look$ up4 ,x is ,i1 ,he :isp]$1 b5d+ ov] h]4 ,%e look$ "r into ,8 eyes1 d[n1 d[n1 d[n4 ,%e _h n ?\ght dea? c\ld be s unutt]ably sweet4 ,%e felt a h& on h] %\ld]4 ,c ,i d any?+ = y8 said a man's voice4 ,please excuse me ask+1 only y seem$ 9 tr\ble4 ,%e felt a%am$ because h] face 0 wet ) te>s4 ,also %e did n "k :at to say4 ,long aft]w>ds1 %e realis$ t :at %e _h said 0 a second miracle4 ,fa!r1 please1 %e said1 l a *ild1 ,i want to--to come 94 7#c7 ,paul himself t night1 ^: s\l's welf>e 0 already s great a tr\ble to s may div]se p]sons1 01 almo/ = ! fir/ "t1 n ?9k+ ( religion at all4 ,to 8 lips ! gods 7 e>ly lift+ ! immortal *alice 9 ^: draught lies utt] bitt]ness4 ,t :i* _h be5 to him a k9d ( vision>y ?+1 a holy grail float+ on light betwe5 heav5 & e>?1 _h tak5 =m betwe5 8 h&s4 ,he _h1 inde$1 hop$ = some?+ "o day ( ! sort1 b n t ! laurel leaves %\ld be pluck$ = 8 head be=e he _h ev5 tak5 8 degree4 ,true1 !y 7 z yet 9 %ad[ r ?an 9 sub/ance1 b o!rs 7 see+ t cr[n+ %ad[ ev5 m ?an he4 ,he 0 by ?is "t 9 8 la/ ye>1 9 ! fir/ autumn t]m ( x1 & t v t]m a firm ( publi%]s _h accept$ 8 fir/ book ( poems4 ,tressor's "n _h br\ght x )9 ! range ( practical politics1 b s9ce !n "o or two critics _h read ! boy's v]se & (f]$ ! usual qualifi$ praise4 ,b 9 ! qualifications ran a s9c]e note4 ,x _h impress$ ! publi%]s4 ,!y _h cons5t$ to publi% at _! own exp5se1 & _h ev5 (f]$ a royalty aft] a sale :i* !y _h e/imat$ at ! outside possible probability4 ,= ,paul's fir/ *eque bugles %\ld bl[--9 fairyl&4 ,b !n ,paul 0 already 9 fairyl&4 ,mann+ _h sugge/$ t ! success ( ,! ,lit]>y ,l\nge w>rant$ an annual d9n]1 & ,donaldson _h add$ ! coroll>y t ?is triumph ( ! club's fir/ presid5t ought to be celebrat$ 9 t[n4 ,! idea sugge/$1 x _h seem$ obvi\s & inevitable4 ,t]m ov]1 ,paul _h gone d[n to ,mann+'s home 9 ,ox=d%ire = a =tnight or s1 & n[ bo? _h come up toge!r = ! celebration4 ,paul 0 ,mann+'s gue/ at ! ,balmoral = ! night1 & a private d9+-room _h be5 engag$ at an hotel on ! riv] side ( ! ,/r&4 ,f9ally1 t !re %\ld be no lack ( glory1 ,tressor himself 0 ! gue/ ( ! ev5+4 ,! ev5+ ,mann+ & ,paul arriv$ !re 0 a wond]ful sunset1 z if ! heav5 itself w\ld fl+ an e>ne/ ( ! boy's success across ! _w4 ,f ! ,/r&1 ! great gold5 gl[ seem$ to burn beh9d ! ,admiralty ,ar*1 f> (f1 beh9d ! ,p>k & ! great ,palace4 ,! spire ( ,/4 ,m>t9's & ! incr$ible globe on ! top ( ! ,coliseum caught its radiance1 &1 look+ ea/1 ! :ole faade ( ! busy /reet %one ) t unimag9able radiance4 ,! great c5tral column ( ! ,squ>e burgeon$ black & mon/r\s aga9/ x4 ,:itehall 0 an av5ue ( glory wa%$ ) fairy gold4 ,yet x 0 ?+s undi/+ui%$ & unbeautiful 9 !mselves t gave ! be/ effects4 ,slipp+ ?r\gh back /reets to ,leice/] ,squ>e1 ! two fri5ds 7 n[ & aga9 br\ght to a complete /op4 ,betwe5 ! great bulk ( a t[]+ h\se utt]ly block$ 9 ) %ad[ & "s tawdry outpo/ ( a spread+ !atre spla%$ ) adv]tisem5t1 !y w\ld see a pat* ( sky twi/$ into wri!n cl\d1 royal1 amb]1 imp5etrable4 ,"s ,titan1 /rid+ ?r\gh ! heav5lies1 _h flung 8 ,bac*ic sc>f f him4 ,/a9$ ) ! purple ( 8 fea/1 x fell across ! _w1 an orange symbol ( drunk5 ec/asy4 ,said ,paul3 ,mann+1 ,god gave u eyes to see t4 ,! o!r's face rema9$ immobile4 ,x 0 odd to see h[ t spl5d\r %one on 8 hair & eyes1 odd1 ,paul ?\ght1 because 8 fri5d's face 0 h>d1 & no less h>d = t c>ess4 ,surely y mu/ ?9k s6 he exclaim$4 ',i am all t has be5 & t is & t %all be1 & no mortal has ev] rais$ my veil1' quot$ ,mann+4 ,paul look$ up & away4 ,we _c ev5 t\* x1 he said sudd5ly4 ,i've nev] ?\ght ( t4 ,a sugge/ion ( ! aft]-gl[ /ill hung susp5d$ 9 ! sky z he ba!d & dress$4 ,he ran 8 bl9d up to see x z he /ood 9 8 %irt-sleeves be=e ! glass4 ,b ev5 ! poet 9 him c\ld n be hold5 by su* beauty to-night4 ,! e>? 0 too real b5ea? 8 feet4 ,x 0 s wond]ful t he1 ,paul ,ke/]n1 %\ld be /&+ dress+ !re4 ,memories came & w5t l meteors ?r\gh 8 m9d4 ,he rememb]$ 8 fir/ sonnet4 ,he rememb]$ h[1 = ! fir/ "t1 9 ! h>% atmosph]e ( a s*ool class-room & ?r\gh !1 to him1 unc]ta9 m$ium ( a ,lat9 poet1 ! fir/ glimpse ( fairy l&s =lorn _h come to him1 & ! magic casem5t op5$4 ,a new ma/] _h f\nd !m plodd+ we>ily ?r\gh ,horace & _h1 by an impulse1 /ay$ ! halt+ con/rue (--(--7yes1 x 0 old ,lammick2 he ?\ght he _h =gott5 ,lammick67--( ,lammick1 to r5d] ! ?+ himself4 ,z he spoke1 x 0 pla9 t he _h =gott5 ! boys1 & s f> z ,paul 0 conc]n$1 he _h v soon =gott5 ! ma/]4 ,only he saw ! old ,roman s++ wov5 words ( music ab\t unutt]able ?+s4 ,& he saw himself go+ up = 8 s*ol>%ip exam4 ,he _h pa9/ak+ly read ,macaulay's essays 9 ! tra9 = /yle4 ,he rememb]$ putt+ 8 old ,wat]bury on ! desk be=e him s t ea* "q might h fifte5 m9utes4 ,he rememb]$--oh1 he rememb]$ ! look ( ! commons on 8 fir/ breakfa/ table1 a pl\gh$ field ! fir/ "t he walk$ to ,coton1 ! /a9$ glass 9 ! ,r\nd ,*ur* ,ea/ w9d[ se5 f ! ,union writ+-room1 villas 9 ! ,*]ry ,h9ton ,road1 a pr9t on ,david's /all 9 ! m>ket-place1 ra9 on ,g>ret ,ho/el ,bridge1 ,cl>e ,av5ue "o v e>ly morn+4 ,!n he saw1 sudd5ly1 grotesquely /ret*$ bodies & legs1 sprawl$ f]v5tly by pray+ m5 9 ! ,h5ry ,m>tyn ,hall4 ,he he>d "o ( !m speak3 ,o ,god1 make all slack m5 ke54 ,paul *uckl$ to himself1 because he lov$ x s4 ,!n he wi%$ vividly & acutely t he _h f9ally rewritt5 t l9e 9 ! pro( ( 8 book4 ,x 0 ab\t br[n )]$ ivy on ! trunk ( a p9e 9 ,hursley ,woods4 ,!re 0 a little curl ( br[n hair too t slipp$ always "u ,edi?'s e>4 ,he w\ld give h] ! fir/ copy himself1 if he _h to g to ,claxt$ p]sonally & especially to d x4 ,he w\ld give x h] 9 ,hursley ,woods4 ,no he w\ldn't2 he w\ld give x h] 9 ,lambe? ,c\rt4 ,he w\ld take h] = a walk4 ,!y w\ld g pa/ ! ,s\? ,pole4 ,!y w\ld walk up to ! lamp-po/1 & he w\ld h& h] ! book4 ,t's y\rs1 he w\ld say1 all ( x4 ,& ,i /ill want to prea* 9 ,lambe? ,c\rt ?\gh ,i did write x4 ,n[ :at d y say8 ,paul began to s+ ! ,glory ,song4 ,mann+ put 8 head 94 ,great ,scott1 ,paul1 he said1 :at's all ! noise ab\t8 ,paul flu%$ guiltily4 ,!n he laugh$4 ,i c't help x1 ,mann+1 he said4 ,i feel too buck$ = words4 ,i "k ,i'm q mad1 b ,i c't help x4 ,& x 0 jolly ?read+ ! busy ,*ri/mas /reets 9 a taxi1 arriv+ at ! hotel door1 hav+ a man 9 uni=m op5 x = y s importantly1 he>+ ! girl 9 ! (fice tell ! page to take ! g5tlem5 to ! ,lit]>y ,l\nge d9+-room1 & ! f9d+ ( x full ( m5 await+ !m4 ,!re 0 ,donaldson1 explosive b g5ial1 w>m$ ) excitem5t already4 ,hullo1 ,ke/]n6 ,damn$ glad to see y aga94 ,i say1 ,i congratulate y1 y "k1 b didn't ,i always say y'd d x8 ,& ,/re!r1 look+ big & unga9ly 9 8 black clo!s t nev] fitt$ p>ticul>ly1 b smil+ grimly4 ,felicitations1 ,ke/]n1 & all t sort ( ?+4 7,by ,gad1 ,gussie1 felicitations6 ,keep t = y\r spee*1 old horse4 ,:at's t8 ,always mak+ a r[8 ,ha1 ha1 ha--t's damn$ good6 ,good old ,gussie67 ,tressor put ,paul at 8 ease4 ,he 0 s big & smil+2 he talk$ s easily2 x 0 all s natural to him4 ,he 0 on ,paul's "r1 ( c\rse1 & ,paul c\ld look pa/ him1 d[n ! table1 at !m all1 ,mann+ at ! o!r end1 glanc+ up n[ & aga91 ) a reassur+ nod4 ,judson1 by ! way1 0 !re1 = he _h insi/$ on admission to ! club & _h turn$ out ! coole/ critic ( !m all4 ,paul smil$ to see h[ he enjoy$ himself2 & he drank 8 unaccu/om$ w9e & lean$ back 9 8 *air at la/1 :5 he _h made 8 spee*1 ) all self-consci\sness gone f him4 ,b x 0 h>d to sit /ill & li/5 to ,tressor4 ,! *ief gue/ ( ! ev5+ rose to respond to ! toa/ 9 8 slightly heavy way1 b he smil$ d[n ! disord]$ table & met ! eyes turn$ to him z if he 7 no m ?an an und]graduate himself4 ,he talk$ ( ! college & ( lit]ature1 z he 0 9 duty b\nd to d2 he introduc$ an anecdote or two2 at la/ he turn$ slightly to ,paul4 ,well1 at any rate1 !y _h reason to hope great ?+s f ! presid5t4 ,he might p]haps say !re t f ! fir/ he _h detect$ 9 ! v]ses ! presid5t _h be5 good en\gh to %[ him1 ! true m>k1 ! real _s ( a poet4 ,he 0 v grateful = ! "p he _h be5 able to play 9 advis+ & read+1 b x 0 g5u9e recognition t _h l$ to ! acceptance = publication ( ! book :i* !y all expect$ s eag]ly4 ,x 0 a fir/ book1 & a y\?ful book1 b he 0 n exagg]at+ :5 he said t he look$ =w>d to ! day :5 !y w\ld all be pr\d ( hav+ be5 among ! fir/ to recognise ! au?or's und\bt$ g5ius & greet 8 fir/ appe>ance 9 pr9t4 ,he anticipat$ t1 9 ! days to come1 !y w\ld rememb] ?is night ) real pride4 ,he ?ank$ ! club = hav+ invit$ him to %>e 9 t4 ,!y _h be5 good en\gh to say t !y 7 hon\r$ by 8 pres5ce1 b he assur$ !m t he felt hon\r$ to be !re4 ,!y toa/$ him4 ,!y toa/$ ,paul4 ,!y toa/$ ea* o!r4 ,excitem5t1 ! toa/s1 ! r+ ( fri5dly faces1 ! hot room1 8 own a*ievem5t--all ^! ?+s intoxicat$ ,paul4 ,tressor left4 ,donaldson propos$ a music hall2 ,paul h>dly realis$ t he agre$4 ,9 ,leice/] ,squ>e1 p smil$ z !y tumbl$ out ( _! taxis1 & ! lights 7 blurr$4 ,paul sc>cely knew :]e he 0 till he f\nd himself 9 ! /alls4 ,!n came ! gradual awak5+4 ,!y 7 too ne> ! footlights = "o ?+4 ,! or*e/ra bl>$ & cra%$ at !m1 & ! solemn1 tir$ faces ( ! m5 beh9d ! fiddles began to obsess ,paul4 ,!y laugh$ at no jokes1 ^! fell[s4 ,!y _h he>d !m all a score ( times be=e4 ,!re 0 no hone/ laught] on ! /age1 & ,donaldson1 next him1 loll$ ab\t & held 8 sides at a pa9t$ trave/y ( hum\r4 ,:5 a turn all[$1 ^! p]=m]s crept out by a small black hole & return$ pres5tly wip+ _! lips4 ,( c\rse1 x 01 x _h to be1 a bus9ess1 b ,paul saw x all ?r\gh innoc5t eyes4 ,ess5tial glory _h gl[$ ^u him f ! sky2 g5u9e tributes _h bless$ him on ,tressor's lips2 ?is began to %ape itself z a horrible ?+4 ,! great curta9 w5t up & d[n inexorably4 ,9 ! dazzl+ gl[ ( ! se>*lights a c\ple ( danc]s pir\ett$ be=e him1 pa9t$1 half-nak$4 ,8 own face flu%$2 he glanc$ guiltily r\nd4 ,by ,gad1 look at t girl's ?ighs1 :isp]$ ,donaldson4 ,/re!r 0 bolt upright1 cynical1 8 lips purs+ 9 a way he _h4 ,! light gl[$ r$1 %ad[$4 ,9 & out ( ! %ad[s1 :ile ! music rose & fell1 ^? :ite legs tw9kl$ & danc$4 ,n[ back1 n[ out aga94 ,a twirl ( %ort skirts1 & 9 a cascade ( :ite1 "o ?r[s h]self backw>d 9 a man's arms4 ,paul seem$ to meet h] eyes z %e look$ out across ! footlights1 ) ! p[d] & r\ge on h] *eeks & h] bosom all b b>$4 ,?und] ( applause2 smiles1 b[s1 a h&-9-h& appe>ance 9 ! nak$ light ( ! great hall2 ,donaldson half on 8 feet1 />+2 ev5 ,judson clapp+ vigor\sly4 ,paul turn$ to ,mann+4 ,i'm go+1 he said ?ickly4 ,i mu/1 ,mann+4 ,! o!r look$ at him closely4 ,i'll come too1 he said1 & rose4 ,i don't want to see any m4 ,no1 no1 said ,paul1 vehem5tly1 ,i'd r g alone4 ,d y m9d1 ,mann+8 ,i'm all "r1 only ,i'd l to walk back4 ,mann+ nodd$4 ,i see1 he said4 ,we'll meet at breakfa/4 ,good-night4 ,oh1 ,i say1 damn x all1 y c't g1 ,paul4 ',tisn't done1 my de> *ap4 ,eyes 9 ! boat1 f\r6 ,sit /ill1 sir4 ,%ut up1 :isp]$ ,paul savagely4 ,ev]ybody c he> y4 ,let me get out ( ?is4 ,! l\ng]s 9 ! prom5ade look$ at him curi\sly4 ,a girl nudg$ aga9/ him2 ,get me a dr9k1 de>1 %e said 9 a l[ tone1 & ev5 half-re/$ a h& ^u 8 arm4 ,a feel+ ( all b physical sickness nauseat$ ! boy4 ,9 ! cloak-room1 he ?\ght t ! att5dant le]$ at him4 ,9 ! /reet he d>$ n look at ! folk l+]+ & pass+ bel[ ! /eps4 ,swiftly1 dr9k+ great draughts ( ! night air1 he set (f home4 ,x 0 drizzl+ slightly1 b he did n notice x4 ,/>+ /raight ahead1 he f\nd himself h>dly able to ?9k1 only dimly aw>e ( /reet-lamps & great1 black1 velvet spaces4 ,he 0 pla9ly n to be acco/$ 9 ,piccadilly4 ,9 ,knightsbridge1 ! /reets empti]1 he began to feel releas$4 ,b n till he 0 9 8 own room at ! hotel1 & _h ?r[n (f 8 coat & ba!d 8 face & sunk by 8 b$ ) 8 head 9 8 h&s1 0 he able to =mulate 8 ?\ghts4 ,!n !y came1 9 a torr5tial flood4 ,he1 ,paul ,ke/]n1 call$ ( ,god1 de/9$ = ! m9i/ry1 ev5 n[ at odds 9 8 own inmo/ he>t & ) 8 be/-belov$ p>5ts = ! tru? ( ,*ri/1 _h be5 drunk & _h gone to a music hall4 ,he 0 all sup]latives & saw no door ( escape = 8 s\l4 ,b to d him ju/ice1 x 0 n 8 own s\l t he worri$ ab\t4 ,he sc>cely ?\ght ( himself4 ,he _h inde$ be5 ?9k+ ( himself mo/ ( ! ev5+1 b n[ he ?\ght ( 8 ,ma/]4 ,"o is y\r ,ma/]1 ev5 ,*ri/4 ,8 tortur$ consci5ce pa9t$ vividly to him ! sc5e ^u :i* he _h dwelt (t5 en\gh--! op5 c\rty>d2 ! fire 9 ! corn]1 :]e ! light leap$ & danc$ on wall & gate2 ! sudd5 op5+ ( a door2 ! buzz ( voices1 cries1 tor*-lights2 ! c[>d ,apo/le />t+ to 8 feet1 :ile ! gu>d felt = spe>s & came to att5tion2 ! pass+ ( a "y erect ,figure ) set face1 ,^: *eek 0 already r$d5$ ) a bl[2 & ! turn+ ( ! head1 s t ! eyes ( prison] & betray] met on an in/ant4 ,he1 ,paul1 _h =gott5 8 ,ma/]4 ,he1 ,paul1 _h d5i$ 8 ,ma/]4 ,he1 ,paul1 _h be5 %[n ! k+doms ( ! _w & ! glory ( !m1 & _h fall5 at ! feet ( ! tempt]4 ,pet] _h gone out & wept bitt]ly1 ) ! memory ( a look4 ,paul1 !n1 tri$ to pi]ce ! d>kness & see4 ,he did n sit by ! fire & wait2 he 0 up1 9 8 s\l1 & out1 se>*+ = ,him4 ,9 brok5 s5t5ces1 he 0 cry+ 8 confession1 r5ew+ 8 pl$ges1 seek+ = p>don4 ,b x 0 to-night z ?\gh = long he s\ght 9 va94 ,wa% me1 & ,i %all be :it] ?an sn[1 he pray$1 & ,mann+'s voice came e*o+ back3 ,h[ 9 ! _w c blood wa% me clean8 ,he turn$ to /ray phrases ( ! old hymns3 ,:ile o!rs ,?\ art sav+1 d n pass me by1 & ,mr4 ,/u>t pres5t$ himself be=e him1 suave1 smil+1 & ) ! gho/ ( a voice3 ,well1 de> boys1 h y giv5 y\r he>ts to ,jesus8 ,is !re "o "h :o has n8 ,he wri!d ^u ! rack4 ,he hat$ himself = all t he w\ld n all[ himself to ?9k4 ,someh[ ,fa!r ,vassall crept into 8 m9d1 sitt+ 9 8 old arm-*air at ! presbyt]y 9 8 anci5t cassock1 smok+ a cig>ette1 look+ at him ) k9dly eyes ?r\gh ! smoke4 ,concub9age is a regul> ?+ 9 ,spa91 said a cle>1 s*ol>ly voice1 ) j t suspicion ( veil$ triumph 9 x t _h goad$ ! boy to madness 9 ! tra94 ,%e has g-g-g5tle f+]s t nev]!less d-d-draw m5 to ,god4 ,fa!r ,vassall _h quot$ ! words once1 ) 8 little /amm] t someh[ did away ) all suspicion ( effem9acy4 ,! specks ( light ceas$ to dance be=e ,paul's clos$ eyes4 ,x 0 z if he 0 9 a v wide room4 ,he grew /ill4 ,8 m9d settl$ d[n to ! great "q4 ,did ,god really w t m5 %\ld come to ,him t way8 ,:at if he took a /ep =w>d8 ,fai? is a /ep 9 ! d>k4 ,9 ! d>k8 ,b ?is 0 light6 ,t gl>e ov] ! footlights1 t se>*+ limelight1 t _h be5 d>kness4 ,9 an audible :isp]1 8 face hidd5 9 8 h&s ^u 8 b$1 ,paul made 8 exp]im5t4 ,hail ,m>y 7he :isp]$7 full ( grace1 ! ,"l is ) !e2 bless$ art ?\ among wom51 & bless$ is ! fruit ( ?y womb1 ,jesus4 ,well1 b t 0 m]ely a confession ( fai? t he might h made at any "t4 ,!re 0 m4 ,%\ld he d>e x8 ,holy ,m>y--x 0 l a solemn oa?--,"m ( ,god1 pray = u s9n]s1 n[1 & 9 ! h\r ( our dea?4 ,am54 ,sil5ce1 above1 ab\t1 b5ea?4 ,a veil ( sil5ce4 ,b !re 0 peace 9 ! sil5ce1 surely1 surely1 ! peace ( ,god4 ,9 ! sil5ce1 ,paul ,ke/]n crept into b$1 & believ$ himself com=t$4 7#d7 ,a few h\rs be=e1 at ,claxt$1 ,madel9e ,erne/ _h be5 sitt+ alone by ! fire1 putt+ a few f9i%+ t\*es to a bl\se4 ,x 0 a ,*ri/mas pres5t = ,e!l ,cator1 & x _h to be f9i%$ t night4 ,t 0 ! wor/ ( mak+ ,*ri/mas pres5ts4 ,9 a way x 0 r fun1 b be=e y _h f9i%$1 ! days _h ne>ly always all b run out & y _h to g on work+ :5 y 7 tir$4 ,madel9e 0 tir$1 b %e wi%$ %e c\ld af=d to buy pres5ts4 ,also to buy a few m ?+s = h]self--"s silk /ock+s1 = example2 %e put h] head on "o side to consid] t4 ,%e look$ v pretty z %e did s4 ,! lamplight %one on h] fair abundant hair & h] :ite sk94 ,big eyes1 too1 %e _h1 & lovely la%es4 ,x 0 a pity !re 0 nobody m appreciative ?an ! old purr+ tabby by ! fire to see h]4 ,%e dabb$ ) h] ne$le once or twice1 & lift$ ! %9+ /uff4 ,?r\gh h] pretty head a curr5t ( ?\ghts 0 fl[+ inconsequ5tly4 ,!n ! door op5$1 & ,mrs4 ,erne/ came 94 ,mrs4 ,erne/ 0 %ort1 com=tably /\t1 a little b5t4 ,%e _h be5 pretty1 & %e 0 gr[+ grey4 ,%e 0 almo/ always tir$1 & ) good reason4 ,mr4 ,erne/ 0 n ev5 a ,vic>1 &1 tru? to tell1 %e _h ceas$ to hope t he ev] w\ld be4 ,/ill work+1 ,madel9e8 ,yes1 "m4 ,i mu/ f9i% ?is4 ,e!l always s5ds me some?+ & ,i mu/ rememb] h]4 ,h y put ! clean ?+s away8 ,no4 ,i'm s sorry4 ,i'll g at once4 ,i =got all ab\t !m4 ,nev] m9d4 ,sit d[n a m9ute4 ,madel9e1 h y he>d ab\t ,paul8 ,:at1 "m8 ,madel9e b5t e>ne/ly ov] h] "w4 ,he's writt5 a book ( poems & x's go+ to be publi%$ e>ly next ye>4 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n told me ?is aft]noon4 ,"m6 ,y don't say s4 ,h[ spl5did6 ,! girl flu%$ ) g5u9e pleasure & excitem5t4 ,yes1 de>4 ,he is clev]1 is ,paul4 ,i expect he'll d great ?+s "o day4 ,! eyes ( "m & daught] met4 ,i always ?\ght s1 said ,madel9e4 ,mrs4 ,erne/ sat d[n 9 an arm-*air1 & rea*$ = h] "w-basket4 ,%e op5$ x ) a little sigh4 ,!re 7 always socks or /ock+s 9 x1 & no m ?an h] daught] did %e l m5d+ !m4 ,%e ?read$ h] ne$le1 & fitt$ ! wood5 heel into a sock4 ,fa!r _h a talk ) ,mr4 ,ke/]n ?is morn+1 %e said1 vaguely4 ,madel9e /raight5$ out h] "w4 ,yes8 %e qu]i$1 critically1 z if to ! bl\se4 ,yes4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n is tr\bl$ ab\t ,paul4 ,really8 ,:y8 ,he's gett+ ,high ,*ur*4 ,well1 :at ab\t x8 ,i l ?+s a bit high] ?an fa!r & ,mr4 ,ke/]n myself4 ,i "k4 ,y are s musical4 ,i wi% ,tom didn't we> out 8 socks q s fa/4 ,b ,paul's gett+ v ,high ,*ur*4 ,v8 ,madel9e look$ up m$itatively4 ,yes1 v4 ,( c\rse y\r fa!r w\ld n wi% y to "k any?+4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n told him privately4 ,he's v worri$ ab\t x4 ,x's t ,fa!r ,vassall1 said ,madel9e4 ,h[ d y "k ab\t ,fa!r ,vassall8 ,paul told me4 ,he likes him v mu*4 ,well1 ,i'm sure x w\ld be too dreadful = ! ,ke/]ns if ,paul became a ,roman ,ca?olic4 ,x won't matt] mu* if he's a poet4 ,madel9e6 ,x w\ld4 ,i'm sure ,roman ,ca?olicism is v dreadful--!re's ! confessional4 ,?\gh ,i mu/ say x's worse = a woman ?an a man4 ,& ! ,pope too4 ,b t's ! po9t4 ,suppose ,paul became a prie/4 ,!y'll get him if !y c4 ,jesuits always try = clev] "y m54 ,madel9e laugh$4 ,"m6 ,z if ,paul w\ld be a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/6 ,:y n8 ,fa!r says he w\ld n be surpris$4 ,well1 ,i %\ld4 ,paul6 ,he's s v evangelical4 ,i "k4 ,b---- 7,!re 0 a little pause47 ,madel9e1 does he see mu* ( t girl1 ,edi? ,?ornton8 ,! girl put d[n h] "w & look$ into ! fire4 ,%e 0 sil5t4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 %e exclaim$ sudd5ly4 ,well1 de>1 ,i've ?\ght once or twice he look$ at h] r z if he lik$ h]4 ,i'm sure ,i don't "k :at he c see 9 h]4 ,b ( c\rse if he's a prie/1 he won't be able to m>ry at all4 ,no1 "m1 ,i suppose n4 ,well1 my de>1 ,i ?9k x w\ld be t]rible = ! ,ke/]ns1 ,paul do+ s well & all4 ,j too t]rible4 ,i am sure all _! fri5ds ought to try & prev5t x4 ,& if he becomes an au?or too1 he's n likely to be a mission>y aft] all4 ,he ought to be a great prea*] "o day1 & if he writes z well1 ,i suppose x w\ld help a great deal4 ,yes1 ,i suppose x w\ld4 ,! girl propp$ h] head on h] h&s1 & />$ into ! flames4 ,mrs4 ,erne/ f9i%$ h] sock4 ,:at's ! "t8 %e ask$4 ,! girl look$ up4 ,t5 o'clock1 %e said4 ,de>1 y ought to be go+ up4 ,y look tir$4 ,give me a kiss1 ,madel9e4 ,= once1 ! girl got up at once & w5t ov] to h] "m4 ,mrs4 ,erne/ put h] arms r\nd h]1 & smoo!d back h] hair4 ,%e sigh$4 ,i d hope y'll be happy1 %e said4 ,i'm sure ,i don't want any?+ except ! be/ = my girl4 ,i "k1 mumsie4 ,don't worry1 d>l+4 ,no1 de>1 ,i won't4 ,only---- ,de> girl1 ,i expect ,paul is v easily l$4 ,t ,fa!r ,vassall n[4 ,& a good woman c h su* an influ5ce on a man1 ,madel9e4 ,! girl kiss$ h] aga91 & hid h] face on h] %\ld]4 ,y\r fa!r & ,i h pray$ = y ev] s9ce y 7 a wee girl1 d>l+1 t y might m>ry ! "r man4 ,good-night1 de> *ild4 ,good-night1 mumsie4 ,is daddy 9 ! /udy8 ,yes1 de>4 ,tell him x's t51 w y8 ,paul comes home to-morr[1 ,madel9e4 ,does he8 ,yes4 ,take ^? c>ds r\nd to ! ,ke/]ns 9 ! aft]noon1 w y4 ,if y see him1 tell him h[ pleas$ we are ab\t ! book4 ,yes4 ,good-night1 "m4 ,good-night1 de>4 ,sleep s\nd4 ,madel9e undress$ sl[ly4 ,!n %e slipp$ on h] dress+-g[n & knelt by h] b$4 ,%e habitually said ! pray]s t %e _h said s9ce %e 0 a little girl1 & %e said !m n[4 ,b %e said !m a little m sl[ly ?an usual1 & :5 %e _h f9i%$1 %e did n jump at once betwe5 ! %eets z %e usually did4 ,%e knelt on1 ?9k+4 ,%e did n want to be a cl]gyman's wife any:]e really1 9 ,engl& or abroad4 ,yet %e c\ldn't tell ,god t4 ,b %e did want to be a successful au?or's wife1 only %e c\ld n tell ,god t ei!r4 ,%e _h nev] ev5 told ,god prop]ly ab\t ,paul1 p>tly because %e _h nev] kn[n q :at to tell4 ,n[1 h[ev]1 %e 0 realis+ j :at x w\ld mean to h] if he became a ,roman ,ca?olic prie/1 utt]ly prepo/]\s z x seem$4 ,besides1 9 h] he>t ( he>ts1 x did n seem q s prepo/]\s z %e _h said4 ,paul 0 l t4 ,also1 he 0 r nice4 ,su* a boy4 ,mu* to good = t ,edi? ,?ornton1 only t also y c\ldn't tell ,god4 ,& !n1 q sudd5ly1 %e did beg9 to tell ,god ?+s4 ,%e really pray$4 ,%e said %e 0 sorry = lots ( ?+s & t %e w\ld give !m up4 ,%e pray$ n to be always want+ nice clo!s1 & %e pray$ to h m fai?4 ,x 0 an expression1 & %e us$ x z su*4 ,= m grace too1 %e pray$1 n really kn[+ :at grace might be4 ,& %e meant t also4 ,b h] s\l1 n v big1 at ! be/1 truly immolat$ itself1 & %e did ! v utmo/ %e c\ld ) x4 ,& :5 %e _h leap$ ^u ! alt> z well z %e 0 able1 & _h ga%$ h]self ) great horrid knives ( r5unciation1 %e pref]r$ h] reque/4 ,make ,paul love me1 ,o ,god1 %e :isp]$1 & make me love him v1 v mu*4 ,s1 !n1 at la/1 ! pall ( deep night settl$ d[n on half ! _w4 ,ev5 ,donaldson got to b$ someh[4 ,mann+1 l ,paul1 walk$ back "u ! />s1 :i/l+ g5tly to himself 9 ! m empty /ret*es4 ,! danc] :o _h look$ at ,paul across ! footlights slept1 & ! girl :o _h ask$ = a dr9k4 ,yet danc+ & dr9k+ & pray+ nev] cease altoge!r1 nor does ! voiceless cry ( ! _w ev] cease to e*o ?r\gh ! sil5ces4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,?urloe ,,end ,,madman4 ,! wild duck1 /r++ ?r\gh ! sky1 ,are s\? away4 ,_! gre5 necks glitt] z !y fly1 ,! lake is grey4 ,s /ill1 s lone1 ! f[l] nev] he$s4 ,! w9d goes ru/le1 ru/le1 ?r\gh ! re$s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,n ?us1 n ?us are ! wild s\ls ( m54 ,no peace = ^? ,:o /ep beyond ! bl9dness ( ! p5 ,to :]e ! skies unclose4 ,f !m ! spitt+ mob1 ! cross1 ! cr[n ( ?orns1 ,! bull gone mad1 ! ,savi\r on 8 horns4 ,,john ,,masefield3 ,good ,friday4 7#a7 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 sir8 enquir$ ! man1 outside ! little c\ntry /ation4 ,paul nodd$4 ,yes1 he said2 are y f ,fa!r ,vassall8 ,yes1 sir4 ,be5 wait+ 'arf an h[]1 sir4 ,tra9s t late4 ,we've five mile to drive1 sir1 s if y'll get 94444 ,paul deposit$ 8 suitcase 9 ! dog-c>t & climb$ on to ! seat alongside ! driv]4 ,he 0 9 ! he>t ( ! ,midl&s1 & ! lamps on ! little c\ntry /ation 7 already be+ dimm$ to save ! ,company's oil1 s9ce ! next & la/ tra9 ( ! day 0 n due = sev]al h\rs4 ,outside ! /ation enclosure1 lights beh9d ! r$ bl9ds ( an inn ?rew a gl[ on ! h>d road1 & f a cottage w9d[ or two came "h & !re a flick]2 b ^! pass$1 !y 7 spe$ily out into ! op5 c\ntry4 ,trees loom$ up aga9/ fro/y />s2 b = ! mo/ "p high h$ges hid ev5 ! fields on ei!r side ! n>r[ lane4 ,a small moon1 l[ on ! horizon1 swung up & d[n ov] !m l a *ild's toy4 ,! bea/ betwe5 ! %afts kept up a /eady trot1 ?\gh n[ & aga9 ! /eam ( 8 ex]tion rose mi/ily 9 ! radiance ( ! poor lamps ( ! dog-c>t z he pl\gh$ uphill at a walk4 ,by 8 side1 ,paul's driv] soon relaps$ into ! monoton\s sil5ce ( ! c\ntry4 ,paul himself1 muffl$ up on 8 high seat1 sway+ a little ) ! motion1 _h "t to ?9k4 ,he 0 actually on 8 way to /ay ) ,fa!r ,vassall1 & he 0 aw>e t he 0 9 d\bt z to ! issue ( 8 j\rney4 ,! la/ ,*ri/mas vacation & ! ensu+ ,l5t t]m _h goad$ him to ! act4 ,*ri/mas _h be5 almo/ impossible at home1 & ! ,l5t t]m _h %[n him1 e day m cle>ly1 t he c\ld n pr(ess evangelical ,anglicanism z a m9i/] & a mission>y4 ,claxt$ _h /ung him into t conclusion on e side4 ,! atmosph]e ( ! ,mission ,hall1 s9c]e1 e>ne/1 zeal\s z x 01 left him gasp+ n[ z a fi% out ( wat]4 ,he _h /ood on its plat=m & n kn[n :at to say4 ,! illogical inconclusiv5ess ( ! old attitude />$ at him s />kly t he c\ld no long] repeat ! old %ibbole?s4 ,! s]mon 9 :i* "o exp\nd$ a text z if ! phrases ( x & ! entire context _h dropp$1 v]bally complete1 l ! image ( ! great goddess ,diana1 f ! skies1 & !n exhort$1 9 words made z vivid & z practical z possible1 to ! vague s5sationalism ( ,come to ,jesus or ,accept ,salvation1 0 n[ beyond him4 ,! ?+1 left ?us 9 ! air1 _h become mean+less to him1 & 8 v s9c]ity =bad 8 prea*+ any?+ 9 :i* he did n :olehe>t$ly believe4 ,! ,*ur* & ,sacram5ts1 ! old tru?s set 9 a practical sy/em1 ^! seem$ necess>y to ! ,gospel salvation4 ,yet a m ?\ghtful work] or two _h already be5 (f5d$ by ! vague & t5tative phras+ 9 :i* he tri$ to h9t at x4 ,or aga91 ?\gh ?is he tri$ to suppress1 ! gorge ( ! poet 9 him w\ld rise n[ aga9/ ,moody & ,sankey or ,torrey & ,alex&]4 ,metre & rhyme _h come to be ?+s t he c\ld n help subconsci\sly analys+1 b x does n d to analyse mission hymn-books4 ,nor c "o make a really successful evangeli/ if "o is affect$ almo/ to desp]ation by a cornet out ( tune1 or tracts = di/ribution t are nei!r ,engli% nor common s5se4 ,la/ly1 ! home atmosph]e 0 electric ) disagreem5t4 ,he 0 out ( tune ) x all4 ,!re seem$ no long] any?+ to talk ab\t at table4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n 0 n int]e/$ 9 lit]ature & art2 ) 8 politics ,paul1 feel+ aft] ,socialism1 0 9 viol5t collision2 ! p>i% 0 no long] 8 _w2 & ev5 into talk ( ! ,second ,com+ ( ,*ri/ w\ld creep ! voice ( criticism1 or into ! ,isl+ton ,conf]5ce ! "q ( ,rome4 ,x 01 ( c\rse1 a common-place trag$y1 b t did n make x ! less tragic4 ,! man _h /ood /ill1 & ! boy _h gone on4 ,also1 at ! =k roads1 he _h tak5 ! unfamili> turn4 ,full ( x all1 !n1 he 0 com+ to /ay ) ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,he _h det]m9$ to d t ?is once at lea/4 ,he mu/ talk ?+s out ) 8 fri5d4 ,b %\ld !y come to a conclusion1 & if s to :at conclusion & ) :at results1 t 0 ! "q4 ,t's ! 'ouse1 sir4 ,paul pe]$ eag]ly ahead4 ,he c\ld make out a d>k1 vague outl9e1 & a wall on ! left4 ,wo-up1 beauty1 cri$ 8 driv] to ! horse4 ,!y came to a /&/ill be=e a big iron gate betwe5 tall r$-brick gate-po/s4 ,paul climb$ /iffly d[n1 & swung 8 bag out4 ,he f\nd himself on a flagg$ pa? t ran up to a door set 9 a %all[ portico 9 ! front ( a long1 l[1 mell[ ,que5 ,anne h\se4 ,x 0 n too d>k to see a solid cornice & p>apet4 ,! bell's on ! "r1 sir1 said ! voice at ! gate4 ,i'll drive on r\nd to ! /able4 ,paul pull$ ! wr\ght-iron bell-pull1 & some:]e 9 ! black recesses a bell jangl$4 ,he he>d a door op5 & ! s\nd ( feet4 ,all "r1 ,bridget1 call$ a famili> voice2 ,i'll let him 94 ,a door op5$ some:]e4 ,a fa9t glimm] ( mov+ light %one ?r\gh ! glass panes & drew ne>]4 ,! front door swung op54 ,paul bl9k$ 9 ! light4 ,! prie/ /ood ) a lant]n 9 8 left h&4 ,he wore 8 cassock1 & 0 muffl$ 9 a cloak1 ) a black skull-cap on 8 head4 ,8 m]ry smil+ face 0 turn$ up to ,paul1 clean %av51 y\?ful look+1 ! hair a little tumbl$4 ,good ev5+1 ,fa!r1 said ,paul4 ,sorry ,i'm late4 ,i've be5 long+ to get "h4 ,h-h[ are y8 explod$ ! prie/4 ,c-come 94 ,x's spl5did1 y\r c-com+4 ,paul pass$ 94 ,he _h ! odd ?\ght t x 0 all "p ( a dream4 ,! passage 0 /one-flagg$ & ! hall beautifully b>e4 ,an oak b5* ran along "o wall4 ,!re 7 a few c>v+s & weapons & curios ab\t4 ,a sombre pr9t or two hung opposite3 ,/4 ,francis ,xavi] 9 a high biretta1 & an ,entombm5t4 ,! figure 9 black putt+ up ! lat* by ! light ( ! lant]n 0 m$ival & fanta/ic4 ,yet x 0 all real1 & x 0 real t he1 ,paul ,ke/]n1 0 !re at la/1 9 ! h\se ( a ,ca?olic prie/4 ,come 91 said ,fa!r ,vassall aga94 ,y mu/ be cold4 ,come & get w>m be=e supp]4 ,!re's a t-t-topp+ fire 9 ! p-p>l\r4 ,he l$ ! way1 bu/l+ =w>d ) a swi% ( cassock1 welcom+1 k9d4 ,paul ent]$ ! long l[ libr>y1 hung ) panels ( gre5 clo?1 & took 9 its satisfactory furni%+ at a glance4 ,! room re/$ quietly1 wait+ = him4 ,) a swift m5tal comp>ison1 he saw himself arriv+ at ,claxt$ in/ead4 ,!n he1 too1 laugh$ eag]ly1 & mov$ =w>d to ! big op5 ,tudor fireplace4 ,a log burn$ !re brightly1 ! royal flames leap+ 9 ! iron grate beh9d a high scre54 ,a deep gre5-brocad$ arm-*air /ood back 9 an +le1 a litt] ( pap]s on ! rug ne> by1 a %ad$ c&le 9 a tall twi/$ c&le/ick ?r[+ a pool ( light d[n ^u !m4 ,above ! fireplace /ood unfamili> incongru\s objects3 a :ite skull-cap t _h be5 ,pius ,,ix4's1 9 a glass-front$ box1 & a black ,madonna hung ) beads4 ,!re 0 an unfram$ wat]-col\r too1 & a p5cil sket*4 ,f ! rug1 he turn$ to survey ! room4 ,its b>e wood floor rea*$ out into ! %ad[s1 save :]e a goat-sk9 caught ! light4 ,bookcases ) :ite %elves /ood out f ! walls4 ,on a /& 9 a w9d[ recess 7 tall lilies gr[+ 9 a pot4 ,! m>ble head ( ,b]n>d ( ,clairvaux1 wrapt 9 contemplation1 /ood on a bracket2 he c\ld j see ! aquil9e nose1 & d[nca/ eyes4 ,!re 0 a solid n>r[ oak table ) a *e/ bel[4 ,9 a corn] !re 0 a hang+ lamp1 burn+ dimly1 s t "o c\ld see to move ov] !re4 ,x gl9t$ on a gr& piano4 ,a com=table *9tz-cov]$ *air or two /ood ab\t4 ,8 ho/ pull$ =w>d an arm-*air ^: elb[s end$ 9 c>v$ griff9-heads4 ,sit d[n1 he reit]at$1 & toa/ y\rself4 ,x is jolly to see y "h4 ,h['s ,c-,cambridge8 ,paul drew a deep brea? & seat$ himself4 ,f9e1 he said4 ,i suppose x exi/s1 by ! way1 he w5t on1 ) a laugh4 ,we w5t up f\r 9 ! ,l5ts4 ,i say1 ?is is j heav5ly4 ,good man4 ,h a cig>ette4 ,supp] won't be long4 ,are y v busy1 ,fa!r8 ,we miss y awfully at ,cambridge4 ,:5's ! next book to appe>8 ,i'm s b-b-busy ,i don't "k :at to d4 ,prea*+ ne>ly e ,sunday1 & lectures4 ,i've got to l-lecture to ,anglicans on ,m-,my/icism 9 t-t[n on ,monday4 ,oh1 ,i say1 !y are com+ 94 ,two conv]sions la/ week1 bo? c-cl]gym5 & su* good fell[s4 ,& x's su* fun "h4 ,!re's heaps to d yet4 ,y %all see to-morr[4 ,yes8 ,he nodd$1 wrapp+ 8 h&s 9 8 cloak & laugh+ m]rily4 ,( c\rse1 :5 ,i came ,i built a *apel4 ,x's an old b>n1 mu* old] ?an ! h\se1 ?irte5? c5tury !y say4 ,x mu/ h be5 a *apel be=e1 ,i ?9k2 x feels l x4 ,well1 all ! village talk$1 ( c\rse4 ,p-,popi% treason & p-plot6 ,bridget told me1 & ,tim2 all ! s]vants are ,ca?olic y "k4 ,b ,i w\ldn't let anyone see x1 = ,i'm n "h regul>ly en\gh to />t a new *ur* l t4 ,p]haps we'll h ano!r prie/ "o day1 & a ,mission4 ,( c\rse1 if !y enquire1 t's ano!r /ory4 ,s1 la/ week :5 sev]al ( !m came to ,tim & got him to ask me to h a s]vice on ,sunday ev5+1 ,i did4 ,x 0 full2 p-pack$4 ,! ,wesleyan local prea*] came too4 ,we _h ,b-,b5$iction4 ,oh1 y ought to h be5 "h1 my de>4 ,!y all sang ',/> ( ! ,sea' b-b-beautifully6 ,x 0 s l ,fa!r ,vassall1 ,paul ?\ght4 ,he 0 z eag] z a boy1 & ! ,fai? 0 a glori\s k9d ( adv5ture ) him4 ,!re 0 no *eck+ 8 en?usiasm4 ,9 8 company ,paul always felt z if he 7 liv+ 9 ! times ( ! ,apo/les :5 ,*ri/ians 7 a little p]secut$1 defiant1 d>+ b&1 b ! ,cross & ! ,resurrection ?+s ( b ye/]day4 ,& al?\gh he always _h a s5se t ! _w ( ?\ght & action 9 :i* ! prie/ liv$ 0 utt]ly remote f ! _w ( ! av]age man1 /ill he _h come to see t !re 0 no?+ ( ! poseur 9 8 fri5d4 ,he did n pose z a m$ivali/2 he simply 0 "o4 ,& he did n adapt 8 religion to ! _w2 he adapt$ 8 _w to 8 religion4 ,x 0 on t plat=m t ! two met s readily4 ,paul 0 utt]ly accu/om$ to t po9t ( view4 ,only at ,claxt$ !re 0 a diff]5t religion4 ,s n[1 at once1 ! little prie/ %ot 8 swift "q q simply4 ,& h[ is x ) y8 he ask$4 ,h y decid$ to l-l-let y\rself g-g8 ,n s diff]5tly does a ,salvationi/ ask a s9n] at ! p5it5t =m if he is sav$4 ,paul mov$ uneasily4 ,don't1 ,fa!r1 he said2 don't ask me t yet4 ,i c't say4 ,i'm pull$ all ways4 ,:5ev] ,i sit d[n to ?9k1 a great tangle gr[s & weaves 9 my m9d till ,i'm 9 despair at ev] decid+ any?+4 ,fa!r ,vassall nodd$4 ,i "k1 he said4 ,s x 0 ) me4 ,y're on ! r-rack4 ,e n-n]ve gives y pa94 ,y've ?\ght en\gh4 ,y "k en\gh really4 ,if y w5t on read+ & talk+ & argu+ till d-d-doomsday1 y'd get no c-cle>]4 ,y mu/ turn simply to our ,"l & d ,8 ,w-,w4 ,if ,i knew x6 ,! prie/ wat*$ him 9 sil5ce4 ,!n he rose & felt = a cig>ette4 ,y d "k x1 he said4 ,:at y don't "k is :e!r y d>e d x4 ,my fa!r says ,i'm too "y to make su* a decision4 ,he want$ me to g & see ,preb5d>y---- ,fa!r ,vassall int]rupt$ him4 ,see no "o1 he said4 ,don't see me if y l4 ,g away alone & ask our ,"l1 9 ! light ( :at ,he has %[n y4 ,oh1 my de>6 ,x's z pla9 z ! n-n-nose on y\r f-f-face6 ,my fa!r says ,i'm utt]ly un/able & always *ang+ my m9d4 ,t's n t-t-true4 ,see "h3 ,i "k exactly :at's happ5$ to y4 ,:at8 ,y began1 z a boy1 by turn+ to our ,"l ) all ! love ( :i* y\r he>t 0 capable4 ,y v[$ to be ,8 lov]4 ,& ,he weigh$ y1 look$ y ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 & accept$ y4 ,/ep by /ep ,he l$ y on4 ,he %[$ y new ?+s ab\t ,himself z y 7 ready to be> !m4 ,he tru/$ y4 ,he nev] left y4 ,& n[ at la/1 ,he has %[n y ,himself 9 ,8 ,*ur*4 ,y "k ,he's !re4 ,i believe1 9 y\r he>t ( he>ts1 y h fai?4 ,& y hang back because y are afraid4 ,y ought to be a ,ca?olic4 ,y ought to be a religi\s1 a ,r-,r$emptori/1 ,i ?9k4 ,y're /amp$ & m>k$ out = x4 ,!re6 ,i've nev] said z mu* to anyone4 ,god help y4 ,he end$ abruptly1 utt]ly e>ne/1 & />$ at ! fire1 /ret*+ a h& out to x4 ,i %all break my fa!r's he>t4 ,h[ c ,i8 cri$ ,paul1 all ! bitt] agony ( days at home & h\rs ( pray]1 sweep+ d[n ^u him4 ,! prie/ made a ge/ure4 ,excuses4 ,y "k t too4 ',he t love? fa!r or "m m ?an ,me444' ,& w\ld y break ,8 he>t8 ,x's s cruel1 s awfully h>d4 ,( c\rse x's cruel4 ,wasn't ! ,cross cruel8 ,d y ?9k ,*ri/ianity is a d-draw+-room g-game8 ,x's fire4 ,x's a sword4 ,x's dea? or life4 ,good ,"l1 :at else has x be5 f ! fir/ m>tyr to ! la/1 ye/]day8 ,& y k-k-"k x4 ,x's m ?an ,i c be>1 ! boy bur/ out4 ,x's n-n-n1 /utt]$ ! prie/ in/antly4 ,our ,"l nev] (f]s anyone a heavi] cross ?an he c b-b-be>4 ,! passion ( ! decl>ation sil5c$ ,paul4 ,b only = a few seconds4 ,!n ! full =ce ( :at x w\ld mean to 8 p ov]came him4 ,y don't "k my fa!r1 he half :isp]$4 ,he says he w\ld r see me dead4 ,oh1 he says t]rible ?+s6 ,fa!r1 he w see no?+1 no?+4 ,& he always h>ps on ! /ra9 ( my pa/ religi\s exp]i5ces4 ,i d5y !m1 he says1 if ,i become a ,ca?olic4 ,y d no su* ?+4 ,:at does he himself ?9k1 = example1 happ5$ at y\r ,communions8 ,he ?9ks ,*ri/ came to y spiritually & f$ y\r s-s-s\l ) ,8 ,s-,_s4 ,& s ,he did4 ,! ,*ur* doesn't d5y t4 ,! ,*ur* says y w receive some?+ )9 h] t outside !y d n ev5 pret5d to give4 ,y are n ask$ to d5y "o :it ( ! pa/4 ,& y "k t too4 ,paul sprang to 8 feet4 ,) y1 x looks inevitable4 ,y hypnotise me into believ+4 ,b !re are heaps ( ?+s to be said4 ,i d see ! ne$ = au?ority2 ,i d und]/& ! reasonabl5ess ( ! :ole philosophy--f ! ,inc>nation to relics & indulg5ces--x's reasonable en\gh1 x's logical2 b is x true8 ,is ,pet] true8 ,is ! ,*ur* :at y say8 ,come to t1 is ! ,gospel /ory itself true8 ,is x8 ,is x8 ,oh1 my ,god1 ,i w\ld give ev]y?+ to "k6 ,he /ood !re1 h&s flung out1 8 :ole s\l 9 8 face4 ,& z 8 t5se voice ceas$1 ! sil5ce ( ! room hemm$ !m 94 ,sl[ly ,fa!r ,vassall got1 too1 to 8 feet4 ,!y fac$ ea* o!r across ! rug1 & ! black ,madonna1 hung ) dripp+ beads1 ?ru/ h] ,son out be=e !m4 ,oh1 my de>1 ,i'm afraid = y6 :isp]$ ! prie/1 />+4 ,afraid8 ,he nodd$4 ,y see1 y h ! s\l ( a r-religi\s & t's no t-t-trifle4 ,& !re y d>e to /&1 ask+ if ! /ory ( ,b-,be?lehem & ,c-,calv>y is true6 ,well8 ,paul 0 defiant4 ,! prie/ cross$ ! room1 & came back f a little se>* on ! table ) a pap] 9 8 h&4 ,all ! m]rim5t _h di$ out ( 8 face2 x look$ ye>s old]1 wan4 ,i w-want y to p-promise me some?+1 he said1 /amm]+ mu* aga9 9 8 emotion4 ,paul leant back aga9/ ! mantelpiece1 we>ily4 ,:at1 ,fa!r8 he ask$2 ,i'll d any?+ ,i c4 ,y c-c-c d ?is1 ea-easily4 ,don't let's argue any m all ! "t y're "h4 ,don't read books1 except ! ,n-,n-,new ,t-,t-,te/am5t4 ,& promise me to pray ?is e day 9 ! *apel be=e ! ,s-,sacram5t ) all y\r he>t4 ,he held out a pap]4 ,i've w-w-writt5 x out = y1 he said4 ,paul took ! half-%eet ( notepap]1 writt5 9 ! cle> pr9t ( ! prie/'s h&4 ,he read x ?r\gh once1 & !n he read x ?r\gh aga91 only1 ?is "t1 ! lett]s 7 a little blurr$4 ,!n he look$ up at 8 fri5d4 ,fa!r1 he said1 ,i c't help x4 ,i "k ?is1 :atev] anyone says4 ,y br+ our ,"l to me z no "o & no?+ else has ev] done4 ,ah1 !n1 cri$ ! prie/1 if y turn back n[6 ,bridget put h] head 94 ,supp]'s ready1 y\r rev]5ce1 %e said4 ,fa!r ,vassall nodd$ swiftly at h]4 ,y promise8 he said1 turn+ to ,paul4 ,oh1 yes4 ,& y'll pray = me8 ,fa!r ,vassall laugh$ mean+ly4 ,come to supp]1 he said gaily4 ,x's p-p-pork & b-b-beans4 ,b ,i c give y a glass ( ,sp-,sp-,spani% ,b-,b-,burgundy6 7#b7 ,9 ! *apel t night ,paul pray$ 8 pray] = ! fir/ "t4 ,! prie/ walk$ 9 be=e him & %[$ him to 8 *air & a pray]-desk ) a c\rtly little ge/ure4 ,! ?ree s]vants sat beh9d4 ,a c&le 0 already lit = ,paul1 & "o burn$ also = ! prie/ 9 8 corn]4 ,!re 0 a :ite sanctu>y lamp be=e ! alt>1 & a r$ "o on ! left4 ,o!rwise !re 0 no light4 ,pray]s began ) ,scripture read+4 ,fa!r ,vassall _h ann\nc$ ! fact ) 8 odd air ( almo/ play+ ) ! ?+4 ,we read ! ,b-,b-,bible e night1 he _h said4 ,d y m-m-m9d8 ,we read = t-t-t5 m-m-m9utes6 ,paul _h said1 smil+ly1 t he did n m9d4 ,s n[ he sat back 9 8 *air & compos$ himself to li/5 & to look4 ,! prie/ opposite1 a little black hun*$-up figure1 half turn$ on "o side to all[ ! c&lelight to fall on 8 book1 _h ann\nc$3 ,! ,acts ( ! ,holy ,apo/les & begun 9 a matt]-(-fact1 r rapid tone1 to read4 ,z :5 he prea*$1 s :5 he read1 he did n /amm]1 be+ %ortly utt]ly engross$ 9 8 subject4 ,he read on1 *apt] aft] *apt]1 )\t break or division4 ,paul grew int]e/$ 9 ! mann] ( x4 ,! n>rative roll$ out be=e him z a :ole1 a simple1 n]v\s1 obvi\s /ory :i* s+ul>ly held ev5 ! att5tion ( a li/5] :o c\ld h gone on1 pretty well1 :]ev] ! read] _h c>$ to /op4 ,b aft] a :ile ! boy all[$ 8 eyes to rove4 ,?is /ory ( ,pet]'s do+s--odd1 h[ ,pet] dom9at$ ! e>ly *apt]s--did n someh[ seem out ( place "h4 ,he began to apprise ! details ( ! build+ & its furniture4 ,x 0 pla9ly a b>n4 ,x _h a b>n ro( ( anci5t un/a9$ timb]1 & a /one floor4 ,! w9d[s 7 irregul>1 uncurta9$2 he saw 8 little moon aga91 /eady n[1 %9+ ?r\gh ! b>e casem5t1 j t\*+ r\gh beams t spann$ ! irregul> rectangle z a rood-scre54 ,9 ! c5tre rose a cross ) flank+ figures4 ,!y 7 rudely c>v$1 by ! prie/ himself1 b !re 0 dea? 9 ! :ite nude body ( ! ,*ri/ & passionate life 9 ! upturn$ head ( ! ,m>y4 ,john /ood acquiesc5t2 ,paul wond]$ at 8 attitude4 ,x hid him2 p]haps !re 0 conflict 9 8 he>t4 ,p]haps he und]/ood4 ,p]haps1 if "o und]/ood1 conflict di$ d[n to peace4 ,! ?9 supports ( ! rood dropp$ d[n ?r\gh ! %ad[s to ! floor4 ,a little figure /ood half-way up "o ( !m4 ,oh1 & 9 ! corn]1 betwe5 ! f> support & ! wall1 /ood ano!r /atue4 ,paul />$ at x4 ,some?+ wri!d 9 ! c&lelight4 ,!n he saw t x %\ld d s4 ,/4 ,mi*ael trod d[n ! dragon !re4 ,paul look$ ?r\gh ! rood to ! alt>4 ,high hang+s ran up into ! canopy1 b x & !y 7 lo/ 9 ! %ad[s4 ,9 ! c5tre1 a c>toon 0 appliqud ^u !m2 a ,madonna & ,*ild2 x 0 j visible4 ,!re 7 f\r c&le/icks1 silv]2 ! c&les 7 burn$ l[ 9 !m4 ,a silv] figure hung on an ebony cross--or x look$ l ebony4 ,! tab]nacle 0 a blur ( :ite silk4 ,a :ite clo? glimm]$ !re2 & bel[1 "u ! alt>1 a r[ ( pa9t$ c>v5 %ields4 ,paul c\ld n di/+ui% m1 b he knew !m4 ,he _h se5 ,fa!r ,vassall at "w ^u !m 9 8 /udy at ,cambridge4 ,!y emblazon$ symbols ( ! ,passion4 ,!n he began to conc5trate on ! gloom to ! left1 :]e ! r$ light burn$4 ,! %ad[s 7 all confus$ & blurr$4 ,!re 7 irregul> outl9es1 /reaks1 %ad[y l9es4 ,he puzzl$ out a small alt>1 ) t9y c&le/icks & a biggi% case ^u x1 t %one fitfully4 ,! l9es radiat$ f ! case1 /uck ?r\gh x1 beh9d x1 z ?\gh !y 7 a bundle ( spe>s4 ,spe>s6 ,x 0 a spe>2 he c\ld see1 n[1 a gleam on ! blade4 ,ano!r 0 head$ ) a bun*$ object4 ,& !n he knew4 ,a small ladd]1 a sponge on a re$1 a spe>1 a %ort] /ick dripp+ ) ! knott$ cords ( a sc\rge2 ^! he c\ld see n[4 ,& he knew too :at ! reliqu>y held4 ,if x 0 true1 t little heavily gu>d$ spl9t] )9 _h once be5 /a9$ ) ! ,blood1 ! real1 lit]al ,blood1 ab\t :i* he _h s (t5 prea*$ & sung4 ,j su* ?ongs z ^? _h bit into ! r$d5+ fle%1 curl$ & twi/$ & hiss$ on :ite ?ighs & %\ld]s t %rank to ! utmo/ limit ( ! cords 9 ! human wri! & agony ( ,*ri/4444 ,b ,pet] & ! ,apo/les answ]+1 said 7! read] read on73 ,we ought to obey ,god r ?an m54 ,! ,god ( our fa!rs ha? rais$ up ,jesus1 :om y put to dea?1 hang+ ,him ^u a tree4 ,him ha? ,god exalt$ ) ,8 "r h& to be ,pr9ce & ,savi\r1 to give rep5tance to ,israel & remission ( s9s4 ,& we are witnesses ( ^! ?+s3 & ! ,holy ,gho/1 :om ,god ha? giv5 to all t obey ,him4 ,paul />$ out be=e him motionless1 ) set lips4 ,be=e him1 pla91 f> f> too pla9 aga9/ ! dim wall1 ! twi/+ :ips rose & fell4 ',9 ! "n ( ! ,fa!r1 & ! ,son1 & ! ,holy ,gho/1 ,am51' said ,fa!r ,vassall1 & !re 0 a little %uffl+ z !y all knelt d[n4 ,acts ( ,fai?1 ,hope1 ,*>ity & ,contrition2 ! ,cre$2 ,our ,fa!r1 ,hail ,m>y1 ,glory ,be2 odd-,engli%$ pray]s = night protection2 m %uffl+2 n[ ,paul & ! prie/ 7 alone4 ,x grew utt]ly /ill4 ,paul fumbl$ = 8 slip ( pap] & drew x out4 ,! ru/l+ dom9at$ ! :ole *apel2 x ev5 seem$ to /ir ! %ad[s t %ift$ always1 sil5tly1 9 ! c&lelight4 ,he spread ! pap] on ! desk be=e him4 ,sl[ly he pray$ ea* s5t5ce4 ,,an ,,act ,,( ,,consecration4 ,o ,"l ,,jesus ,*ri/1 ,:o art ! ,way1 ! ,tru? & ! ,life1 ,)\t ,:om no man come? to ! ,fa!r1 ,no man is free1 ,& no man lives et]nally1 ,unite me :olly to ,?yself t ,i may walk 9 light & truly live4 ,b ,?y ,way mu/ be ! ,way ( ,sorr[s1 ,?y ,tru? %>p] ?an sc\rges1 ,& ,?y ,life a los+ ( my own4444 ,give me !re=e ,grace--or r ,?yself1 ! ,f\nt ( ,grace2 ,c>ry me1 = ,i _c walk alone2 ,enlight5 me1 = ,i am all d>kness2 ,live 9 me1 = ,i _c live except 9 ,!e4 ,let me c\nt all ?+s loss b ,!e1 s9ce ,?\ did/ c\nt all ?+s loss except my love4 ,= me ,?\ did/ leave ! joys ( heav52 ,= me ,?\ wa/ born 9 cold & nak$ness2 ,= me ,?\ did/ be> ! contempt ( ,?y creatures & had/ n :]e to lay ,?y head2 ,= me ,?\ did/ die daily 9 ! s\ls ( ^? t reject$ ,!e1 & 9 ! s\ls ( !m t lov$ ,!e2 die !re=e 9 m9e t ,?\ may/ live & ,i 9 ,!e2 ,= me ,?\ did/ suff] ,?y ,"m to be pi]c$ ) swords1 ,:o wa/ ,?yself pi]c$ ) nails2 pi]ce me !n too1 & nail me to ,?y ,cross4 ,i (f] myself :olly & )\t res]ve to ,!e ,:o did/ c\nt no?+ great] ?an my love3 ,my fle% is weak1 z ,?\ kn[e/ ,:o did/ be> x1 ,b my _s is will+1 ?\gh sorr[ful z ,?9e ev5 unto dea?4 ,unite me !n1 body & s\l ) ,?y ,div9ity2 ,my s9s to ,?y ,r$emption2 ,my weakness to ,?y ,/r5g?2 ,my abyss ( no?+ness to ,?y ,pl5itude4 ,i give myself to ,!e1 /a9$1 %r9k+ & afraid2 ,give ,?yself to me1 ,o my crucifi$ ,god1 & make me ,?9e4 ,de> ,,jesus6 ,be to me n a ,judge1 b a ,savi\r6 ,de> ,jesus6 ,be to me n a ,judge1 b a ,savi\r6 ,he cri$ x aga91 & aga94 ,te>s bl9d$ him4 ,he *ok$ !m back4 ,x 0 s /ill t he c\ld n break ! sil5ce ev5 ) a sob4 7#c7 ,! ,truce ( ,god held4 ,x held s truly t = a brief succession ( days ,paul bani%$ ! major "p ( 8 d\bts & haunt+ fe>s 9 ! vivid atmosph]e ( ,?urloe ,end4 ,!y did n sleep2 !y fl$4 ,he 0 n quiesc5t1 b r ov]:elm+ly alive4 ,he drank a l>gely new & intoxicat+ dr9k4 ,x mu/ be rememb]$ = :at1 exactly1 ,claxt$ /ood4 ,q ap>t f ! rights or wrongs ( religion1 !re 0 a life 9 ,claxt$ t 0 a %e] anti!sis to ?is4 ,x 0 an anti!sis 9 small ?+s z well z 9 big1 9 utt]ly unreasonable & /upid ?+s z well z 9 vital ones4 ,?us1 at ,claxt$1 "o nev]1 at d9n] or supp]1 sat d[n to boil$ beans & bacon2 if "o _h1 x w\ld n h be5 reg>d$ z an adv5ture2 moreov] "o nev] did sit d[n )\t potatoes4 ,x is extraord9>ily easy to make a mock ( x1 b !re 0 a hid p>able !re4 ,food 0 food at ,claxt$2 at ,?urloe ,end x 0 a sacram5t1 & a m]ry sacram5t ( life4 ,nor 0 x less life because to ,fa!r ,vassall x 0 ,ca?olic life4 ,?us ,fa!r ,vassall ev5 ate fi% & maigre s\p on ,fridays1 & enjoy$ dislik+ x4 ,mo/ morn+s !re *anc$ to be e>ly spr+ sun%9e1 & breakfa/ 0 s]v$ out ( doors4 ,breakfa/ out ( doors at ,claxt$ w\ld h seem$ to v]ge on ! pr(ane1 almo/ on ! immoral4 ,tea1 out ( doors1 9 midsumm]1 yes2 prep>$ =1 ) gue/s4 ,at ,?urloe ,end !y ran 9 ha/ily = a little tea because !y 7 s busy g>d5+1 & ! lights 7 n long4 ,at ,claxt$ w9e 0 a mock]2 at ,?urloe ,end1 ! cask ( ,spani% ,burgundy hav+ j arriv$1 !y bottl$ x ) ze/ & solemnity4 ,at ,claxt$1 aga91 ! rooms 7 elect to _! v>i\s ends4 ,! draw+-room 0 = call]s1 tea & ,sunday aft]noons4 ,! /udy 0 = s]mons4 ,! d9+-room 0 ! room 9 :i* "o d9$2 9 :i* ,mr4 ,ke/]n re/$ = an h\r aft] d9n]2 9 :i*1 aft] supp]1 all duly rema9$1 ) books or "w1 till pray]s & b$4 ,moreov]1 !re 0 r\t9e ord] at ,claxt$1 a pleasant1 simple1 k9dly r\t9e1 b r\t9e4 ,a ,puritan r\t9e1 too1 x 0 ( c\rse4 ,x _h nev] /ruck ,paul be=e1 b no "o laugh$ mu* at ,claxt$4 ,! family 0 any?+ b solemn2 possibly1 temp]am5tally1 x 0 incl9$ to be grave2 b1 !n1 on ! o!r h&1 x nev]1 nev] riot$4 ,oh1 except at a ,*ri/mas p>ty1 at hide & seek & bl9d man's buff4 ,& n[ t "o 0 gr[n up1 "o did n play su* games4 ,on ! o!r h&1 at ,?urloe1 hum\r rac$ unre/ra9$ly4 ,! morn+'s po/ br\ght laught] 7& te>s7 ) x always4 ,! day's "w 0 a p]petual surprise4 ,fa!r ,vassall w\ld ann\nce 8 int5tion ( do+ some?+ ) z solemn a det]m9ation z ,mr4 ,ke/]n w\ld h giv5 to a mon?'s holiday4 ,i %all wr-wr-write on ! v-v-v]&ah all ! morn+1 he w\ld ann\nce firmly4 ,or3 ,i %all r-r-read 9 ! p-p-p>l\r = t-t-two h\rs4 ,sometimes he w\ld g to 8 room1 & n reappe> till lun*eon4 ,sometimes he w\ld return to ! *apel aft] breakfa/ = j z long4 ,9 ! ev5+s1 be=e ! fire1 he w\ld read :at he _h writt5 dur+ ! day1 or ,paul w\ld read to him4 ,or !y w\ld make tape/ry1 or wood-c>ve1 or ,fa!r ,vassall w\ld play ! piano2 or sit /ill1 occasionally talk+1 b mu* m (t5 sitt+ sil5tly1 :ile peace dripp$ sl[ly 9 on ,paul's s\l4 ,"o nev] did no?+ at ,claxt$4 ,he himself1 9 ! morn+s1 usually /roll$ r\nd till "s corn] seem$ inevitable = a lett]1 a book1 or a poem1 or ! little table 9 8 b$room beckon$ inexorably to "w4 ,9 a s5t5ce1 ! day arrang$ itself2 p]haps bett]1 x pres5t$ itself arrang$2 at ,claxt$1 z x 0 9 ! beg9n+1 s x 01 & ev] w\ld be4 ,!n aga91 at ,?urloe ,end1 ! h\se 0 inve/$ ) a p]sonality4 ,paul us$ to w&] ar\nd at fir/1 mak+ fri5ds4 ,! rooms /ood back1 gravely1 b ) a smile hidd5 9 !m4 ,! furniture belong$ to ! h\se1 & _h be5 select$ by x1 he felt1 ) c>e4 ,x _h *os5 unv>ni%$ oak1 = ! mo/ "p1 because its tall1 cle> w9d[s 7 look+ up always to ! light1 & old oak is wise ab\t light1 tak+ its measure & pass+ ! re/ on enri*$4 ,its *airs1 =ms1 tables1 bookcases1 7 l op5 h&s1 hold+ mu* graci\sness4 ,moreov] x 0 gravely pr\d ( itself1 & n a%am$ ( its wide walls & ! pools ( its floors4 ,:]e x held out a picture or a pr9t1 x did s ) a curi\s re/ra9t1 yet ) a k9d ( c\rtesy4 ,x wore pictures l a beautiful woman we>s jewels4 ,at ,claxt$ !re 0 no h\se at all4 ,!re 0 a middle-class home4 ,ev]y?+ t ! family _h ev] possess$1 = ?ree g5]ations1 0 collect$ 9 x4 ,! ,ke/]ns said ab\t a new possession t x w\ld g !re or !re1 & new possessions con/antly p\r$ 9--te/imonials1 seasonable gifts1 k9dly pres5ts f work]s aft] summ] holidays1 ano!r antimacass> aft] ! ,sale ( ,"w1 photographs1 texts1 mission>y curios4 ,?+s ov]fl[$ on to ea* o!r3 an occasional table on a rug2 a cro*et mat on a table2 a pot on ! cro*et mat2 a f]n 9 ! pot2 a cov] ab\t !m bo?2 a picture above ! f]n2 fram$ photographs bel[ ! picture2 z l z n1 9 ! end1 a small basket "u ! table4 ,small baskets 7 always s useful = putt+ odds & ends 94 ,& all ! furniture & c>pets & mats & pictures1 jo/l$ ea* o!r1 & cri$ to heav5 t "h 0 no cont9u+ city4 ,:i*1 ( c\rse1 is q true1 = we seek "o to come4 ,clocks 7 all ov] ! h\se at ,claxt$2 at ,?urloe ,end !re 0 "o ov] ! /able t /ruck ! h\rs ) mu* solemnity4 ,moreov] x _h its own views z to correct "t-tell+ :i*1 z ,fa!r ,vassall said1 0 :olly "r1 s9ce t-t-"t 0 r-r-relative4 ,paul told himself t religion _h no?+ to d ) all ?is2 t !re 7 ,ca?olic middle-class homes1 & ,prote/ant h\ses4 ,he 0 n su* a fool z n to "k1 too1 t 8 own temp]am5t lik$ ! "o & dislik$ ! o!r1 b 0 n necess>ily "r or wrong because ( t4 ,yet aft] all we are all ( u conc]n$ ) ?+s z we meet !m1 & religion & philosophy1 speak+ 9 g5]alities1 d %ape p's h\ses1 occupations & dress4 ,"h1 !n1 came ! ,greeks br++ gifts1 g5]\s gifts = :i* he felt he _h be5 se>*+1 at "o "t bl9dly1 lately m def9itely1 all 8 days4 ,if ! gifts 7 ( ,god1 !y w\ld leave little room = d\bt4 ,! days ( truce1 h[ev]1 7 n )\t ev5t4 ,! pair ( !m did port5t\s ?+s4 ,up ! c5tre ( ! g>d5 ran an anci5t ov]gr[n h$ge1 tangl$1 va/2 & ?r\gh x1 ) axe & saw1 !y cut a leafy tunnel4 ,9 old flannel tr\s]s1 & %irts )\t coll>s1 !y lab\r$ 9 ! sweat ( _! br[s1 & cut _! h&s & scrat*$ _! faces & lo/ _! way & despair$ ( f9i%+ & f9ally atta9$4 ,j be=e sunset !y em]g$ "o w>m deliri\s day1 ! sc5t ( ris+ sap ov]fl[+ f ! brok5 twigs & b\ghs ab\t !m1 a mell[ light on ! wall across a small gre5 ahead4 ,fa!r ,vassall cut ! la/ imp$+ gr[? away1 z 0 fit1 b ,paul dragg$ x beh9d4 ,!y /epp$ out toge!r4 ,! little prie/ look$ ab\t him ) triumph1 excitem5t & discov]y on 8 face4 ,s ,bilboa hail$ ! ,pacific1 & ,piz>ro climb$ ! ,&es4 ,& s1 also1 ,fa!r ,vassall _h "s su* ?\ght z !y4 ,a cross1 j "h1 9 ! middle ( t gre51 he cri$4 ,"o w b-burr[ ?r\gh ! tunnel1 & f9d ! c-cross at ! end6 ,& !n1 sudd5ly1 ! m]rim5t di$ out ( 8 face1 & ! two look$ at ea* o!r4 ,i w g = ! saw & ! hamm]1 said ,paul1 aft] a second4 ,yes1 cri$ ,fa!r ,vassall1 animation aga94 ,i "k ( two s-sapl+s :i* w j d4 ,paul turn$ back4 ,n-,n-,no6 splutt]$ 8 fri5d2 n-n-n ?r\gh ! tunnel n[6 ,s ,paul w5t back ano!r way4 ,or1 int]mitt5tly1 !y lab\r$ at a rock]y4 ,! prie/ _h be5 engag$ ^u x1 b he took a dislike to ! job soon aft] ,paul's arrival4 ,"o day1 aft] half an h\r's "w1 he flung d[n 8 spade4 ,paul gr\nd$ a load$ :eelb>r[1 & laugh$4 ,:at 9 ! _w is ! matt]8 he dem&$4 ,i w n h a r-r-rock]y 9 my g>d51 said ! prie/1 n a made rock]y anyway4 ,i knew x 0 a bad idea4 ,:y ev]8 ask$ ,paul1 frankly puzzl$4 ,! d-d-devil makes r-rock]ies1 said ,fa!r ,vassall1 n ,g-,g-,god4 ,"o ev5+ ,paul relat$ at l5g? ! incid5ts ( ! ,port o' ,man mission1 & p>ticul>ly t ( ,mr4 ,*ild]s4 ,fa!r ,vassall he>d him gravely4 ,at ! close he ask$3 ,d y "k ,david ,e!ridge8 ,paul %ook 8 head4 ,ev] he>d ( him8 ,no4 ,:o is he8 ,we'll g & see him to-morr[4 ,%all we8 ,y'll l him4 ,he lives ab\t two miles (f4 ,good1 said ,paul1 smil+4 ,b :o 9 ! _w is he8 ,he's a ,ca?olic4 ,he 0 a ,spirituali/4 ,he became conv]t$ because x 0 ! d-d-devil4 ,oh1 ,i'd love to meet him !n1 cri$ ,paul4 ,!y w5t1 !n1 lun*eon be+ ov]1 ! prie/ 9 8 ru/y c\ntry ul/]1 a little b5t1 preoccupi$1 grave2 ,paul sw++ along 9 a twe$ jacket eag]ly4 ,! few pass]s-by salut$ ! prie/1 & a cl]gyman on a bicycle look$ at ,paul int5tly4 ,he's ! ,v-,v-,vic>1 said ,fa!r ,vassall1 bubbl+ ) laught]4 ,he's a g-g-good man2 ,i l him2 b ,i expect he'd l to r-r-rescue y6 7#d7 ,david ,e!ridge liv$ 9 a small cottage1 & he 0 pott]+ ab\t ! g>d5 :5 !y arriv$4 ,paul _h receiv$ no description ( him & _h no reason to expect "o ?+ m ?an ano!r1 b ! ex-,spirituali/'s %ort1 r tubby figure & r\nd1 smil+1 p9k face1 tickl$ him4 ,he look$ ! la/ man 9 ! _w to h met ) ! devil4 ,anyway he seem$ to h come well out ( ! enc\nt]4 ,he greet$ ! prie/ eag]ly1 & 0 introduc$ to ,paul )\t explanations4 ,fir/ he mu/ %[ !m r\nd ! g>d54 ,he _h bulbs 9 ! grass1 & o!rs hidd5 cunn+ly among tree-roots1 & ^! he discov]$ ) triumph4 ,new gre5 _h be5 made1 he decl>$1 s9ce ye/]day1 & 9 "o spot !re 7 six t9y ?ru/+ po9ts1 :5 ! br[n leaves 7 rak$ away ) disc]n+ f+]s1 :]e at ! la/ visit !re _h be5 b five4 ,!y b5t l+]+ly ov] !m4 ,wond]ful1 wond]ful1 cri$ ,e!ridge1 9 a subdu$ ec/asy4 ,i don't c>e h[ _m times "o sees !m1 !y're wond]ful6 ,paul look$ f ! face ( ! prie/ to t ( 8 fri5d4 ,!re 0 g5u9e awe writt5 on !m bo?4 ,x 0 odd1 he ?\ght1 ! outlook ( ev]yone d[n "h4 ,he himself lov$ ! beauty ( t new det]m9$ virg9al life1 b ^! two saw m4 ,!y saw holy ?+s4 ,back 9 ! cottage at tea1 ,paul's visit 0 frankly exp\nd$4 ,i b-br\ght ,k-,k-,ke/]n to see y1 ,e!ridge1 said ,fa!r ,vassall1 because he's met a clairvoyant & se5 a m-m-miracle4 ,he's impress$1 naturally4 ,& ! fell[ talk$ to him no end4 ,i want him to he> y\r side ( ! c-case4 ,:at 0 x y saw1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n8 ask$ ,e!ridge4 ,0 x at a sance8 ,no1 said ,paul1 & t's :at seems to me p>ticul>ly int]e/+4 ,x 0 9 a v ord9>y h\se at a v ord9>y lun*eon1 & 9 ! pres5ce ( f\r or five m5 :o1 z c]ta9ly z any?+ is c]ta91 7 nei!r accomplices nor cr$ul\s nor op5 to hypnotic influ5ce4 ,& x happ5$ 9 broad daylight 9 ab\t two m9utes1 :ile we all sat r\nd & wat*$4 ,:at happ5$8 qu]i$ ,mr4 ,e!ridge1 ) a s]i\s air t did n g s /rangely ) 8 face z a /rang] w\ld suppose4 ,a p91 an ord9>y p91 wobbl$ on a :ite tableclo? & /ood on end1 all by itself4 ,w-,w-,wobbl$8 explod$ ,fa!r ,vassall1 e>ne/ly4 ,paul1 look+ at him1 lov$ him sudd5ly ) a great passionate movem5t t[>ds 8 *ildlike s9c]ity & pr(\nd fai?4 ,yes1 ,fa!r1 he said z gravely1 wobbl$4 ,d y m9d tell+ me all ab\t x8 put 9 _! ho/4 ,y've really begun at ! wrong end ( ! /ick1 y "k1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,& ,paul told him4 ,he told him ev]y?+1 includ+ ! clairvoyant's /atem5t t ,god 0 v f> (f4 ,:5 he _h f9i%$1 ,david ,e!ridge nodd$4 ,t w\ld be x1 he said4 ,s mu* ( tru?1 s mu* ( plausibility1 a little release ( p[]1 & ! gra9 ( error t w\ld1 )\t ,god1 crack ev5 ,pet]'s rock4 ,b ! p-p98 ask$ ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,h[ did he d t8 ,x's simple1 ,fa!r4 ,he 0 p]fectly "r4 ,x is no miracle1 really1 z he himself said4 ,!re is psy*ic p[]4 ,x is z real a ?+ z t ( my muscles1 p]haps 9 a s5se m real because m fundam5tal4 ,all ultimate p[] may be psy*ic4 ,& :at he did ) a p91 all ! my/ic sa9ts h done1 :5 necess>y1 aga9 & aga94 ,only !y h done s "u ,god & at ,8 direction4 ,maybe ,god ,himself1 inc>nate1 only made use ( "s su* hidd5 human p[] ( ,8 creation1 :5 ,he walk$ ! waves4 ,!n ,*ild]s 0 "r8 ask$ ,paul1 glanc+ at ! prie/ h[ev]4 ,e!ridge seem$ to be contradict+ ! v]dict ( 8 fri5d4 ,"r1 & f our /&po9t wrong too1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,s f> z 8 explanation ( ! p9 w5t1 he 0 "r1 b he 0 9 ! wrong s9ce he 0 play+ ) a p[] only to be ex]cis$ along ! l9es reveal$2 & he 0 delud$ by ,satan :5 he spoke z he did ( ,god4 ,by ,satan8 ,i h no d\bt at all4 ,x always beg9s s4 ,he lies 9 wait to deceive4 ,i don't und]/&1 said ,paul1 bewild]$4 ,*ild]s 0 a man ( pray] & ( great rev]5ce4 ,he spoke v k9dly ev5 ( ,ca?olicism4 ,t1 said ,e!ridge gravely1 ,i fe> ! mo/4 ,paul /udi$ 8 face int5tly4 ,he 0 look+ out ( ! cottage w9d[ at ! broad high-road1 8 features v set & grave1 & ) a /range mask ( pa9 ly+ ^u _! *e]y commonplace ext]ior t 0 n good to see4 ,he seem$ to become aw>e ( ! o!r's exam9ation1 & turn$ to him4 ,x is l ?is1 he said4 ,god has m>k$ out ! spiritual way4 ,he has h$g$ & protect$ x4 ,s\ls may g safely !re v1 v f>1 ev5 "h1 t[>ds ! cele/ial city4 ,b if !y /ray (f t pa? = any reason1 :y1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 9 ! woods & holl[s lurk enemies t let none escape4 ,h[ d y "k8 bur/ out ,paul1 vehem5tly4 ,does ! ,*ur* def9itely say s8 ,e!ridge nodd$ t[>ds ! prie/1 ) a fa9t smile t only l+]$ a second h[ev]4 ,t's a "q = 8 rev]5ce1 he said1 b ,i c (f] y an au?ority1 if y l4 ,please1 said ,paul4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ! o!r's tone t aw$ him4 ,well1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 !re 0 a "y man :o knew no?+ ( t div9e road save t1 by ,provid5ce1 8 feet 7 plac$ ^u x at 8 baptism4 ,b he 0 entic$ aside4 ,he 0 %[n a seem+ly fair & direct pa? to ! same b\rne4 ,he foll[$ x4 ,at fir/ all w5t well4 ,to be precise1 he1 too1 obta9$ some?+ ( ! p[]s ( :i* y h se5 a sample4 ,he became adept at seek+ escape 9 trance4 ,! p5cil wrote = him automatically1 & wrote good & wise ?+s4 ,he made ! practice ( ^! ?+s 8 life1 & f9ally !y dom9at$ him4 ,he became all b _! slave4 ,yes--& !n8 ,well1 fir/1 ! "* ( ! messages *ang$ a little4 ,8 fri5ds 9 ! gnosis w>n$ him ( mis*iev\s spirits1 ev5 ( bad ones1 b he 0 n to be afraid4 ,he w\ld n be afraid4 ,= a :ile ! good return$--& rivet$ 8 *a9s m firmly4 ,!n ! %ad[ crept 9 aga94 ,he 0 told ( a new morality1 l$ on to seek relief 9 /imulants1 enc\rag$ to voyage f> & (t5 9 trance4 ,at la/ only !re1 9 trance1 0 !re full escape4 ,he loa!d himself1 b 8 wak+ life 0 beset ) devils1 pruri5t curiosity1 p]v]t$ s5suality1 a desire to inflict pa94 ,he /ruggl$1 b 9 va94 ,b 9 ! trance-sleep he 0 free4 ,a motor c> humm$ up ! hill & buzz$ ov] ! cre/4 ,e!ridge wait$ till ! s\nd di$ away4 ,nei!r ( 8 li/5]s mov$4 ,& !n "o day1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 w5t on ! n>rator at la/ ev5ly1 hav+ gone ov] 9 trance1 he f\nd 8 return b>r$4 ,he c\ld see 8 own body on ! c\* & he long$ to re-ent] x4 ,b he c\ld n4 ,a ,wat*] /ood on ! ,?re%old4 ,= an et]nity !re seem$ no possibility ( return4 ,paul moi/5$ dry lips4 ,a wat*]8 he manag$ to ask4 ,yes4 ,beyond tell+4 ,d y loa! any?+8 ,h y ev] felt ,fe>8 ,d y %r9k f corruption1 its sc5t & sight8 ,y _c imag9e all ^? inc>nate1 b x 0 t4 ,my ,g-,g-,god1 said ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,t's en\gh1 ,e!ridge4 ,b y are "h1 cri$ ,paul4 ,:at sav$ y8 ,! grace ( ,god1 :i* is beyond tell+1 at ! mom5t1 &1 "u ,him1 ,fa!r ,vassall aft]w>ds4 ,he may tell y if he please4 ,paul glanc$ at ! prie/4 ,b he %ook 8 head4 ,i t-t-told y x 0 ! d-d-devil1 he said4 ,fa!r ,vassall1 p]haps1 c h>dly speak ( x1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,he f\ght = my s\l4 ,he held me all "o night1 & a crucifix 9 my h&s1 :ile ,satan %ook my body1 my b$1 ! v room1 b c\ld n prevail4 ,& sil5ce drew 9 & sat betwe5 ! ?ree ( !m4 ,paul broke x4 ,he sigh$4 ,=give me1 he said1 b :at is "o to believe8 ,y expla9 "o ?+ by an unkn[n =ce2 :y n s expla9 ?is8 ,&--,i don't mean to be rude1 ,mr4 ,e!ridge--,i suppose we all h a side to our "* :i*1 suppos+ x 7 = any reason develop$ & releas$1 might d t]rible ?+s4 ,! ex-,spirituali/ b[$ slightly4 ,y are q "r1 he said tranquilly4 ,t is "o explanation4 ,y c expla9 ! ,gospels & ! ,inc>nation & ,l\rdes &--& ,spiritualism t way4 ,m5 ev5 expla9 man4 ,if !re 7 no explanation possible1 !re w\ld be no ne$ ( fai?4 ,b ,i hav5't---- began ,paul4 ,fa!r ,vassall made a quick ge/ure4 ',si scires donum ,dei1' he said4 ,don't t-t-tempt ,god1 ,ke/]n4 ,e!ridge rose z if he _h n he>d4 ,let u walk 9 ! g>d5 a little1 he said1 & brea! clean air4 ,t ev5+1 ,fa!r ,vassall v>i$ ! ord] ( night pray]s some:at4 ,he cross$ ov] ! *apel to ,paul1 aft] ! ,scripture read+1 & put a little manual 9 8 h&4 ,x 0 n :olly unfamili> to ! boy1 b = ! fir/ "t ! real significance ( ! ,(fice ( ,compl9e dawn$ on him4 ,he saw ! long d>k corridors lead+ f *apel1 ! sil5t %ut-(f mona/ic cells1 ! peasant on 8 lonely road home1 ! soldi] on s5try gu>d :ile ! camp slept4 ,he saw t ! night _h be5 alive to su*1 & t _! fai? _h made ^! pray]s = a %ield4 ,& he 0 n sorry = t %ield himself t night4 ,grant u1 ,o ,"l1 a quiet night & a p]fect end4 ,y\r adv]s>y ! devil1 goe? ab\t z a ro>+ lion seek+ :om he may dev\r4 ,?\ %alt n be afraid = ! ,t]ror by night1 ,= ,he %all give ,8 angels *>ge ov] !e4 ,visit ?is h\se1 we besee* ,!e1 ,o ,"l4 ,drive f> f x all sn>es ( ! enemy4 ,let ,?y holy angels dwell !re94444 ,all 8 imag9ation a/ir1 ,paul li/5$1 9 8 secret he>t1 = ! drift ( p9ions4 ,nor1 !n1 did he wond] t he fail$ to he> !m2 he only m>vell$ a little at ! imp5etrability ( clay-%utt]$ doors4 7#e7 ,?us1 !n1 came ,paul ,ke/]n to 8 la/ night at ,?urloe ,end4 ,judge ye1 :o may4 ,?is1 at lea/1 0 ! mann] ( x4 ,! ,fa!r _h read al\d ,! ,holy ,grail1 & ,paul ,! ,h\nd ( ,heav54 ,he _h himself *os5 x2 he _h no "o to blame = t4 ,ah1 fonde/1 bl9de/1 weake/ 7he read71 ,i am ,he ,:om ?\ seeke/2 ,?\ drive/ ,love f !e1 ,:o drive/ ,me4 ,he %ut ! book4 ,! little prie/ 0 nurs+ 8 knees aga9/ ! tall f5d]1 & ! boy look$ f him to ! c&lelight on ! :ite ( ! uncanonis$ sa9t's hat on ! mantel%elf4 ,x r fasc9at$ him1 t r\nd skull-cap4 ,x 0 a *ild's trick to put x !re1 ! little :ite sat9y ?+ 9 its glass-front$ box--a *ild's trick1 lovable4 ,he look$ at ! prie/ aga94 ,! o!r /irr$4 ,my de>1 he said1 /amm]+ badly1 y g-g-g to-m-m-morr[4 ,& we've kept ! tr-truce4 ,paul nodd$4 ,sil5ce4 ,! prie/ spoke aga94 ,i don't "k1 he said4 ,i c't /ick my f+]s into y\r s\l4 ,i d-d-don't want to4 ,only ,god's be5 good to y1 y "k4 ,&--& ,he's a j-j-jeal\s ,god4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 bur/ out ! boy4 ,fa!r1 ,i don't "k4 ,!re's s mu* = & aga9/4 ,& ,i've pray$ & pray$ & pray$1 &--& ,god hides ,himself4 ,he's giv5 y all ! l-l-light y ne$4 ,he's %[n y6 ,he's s5t ,8 ,son & appo9t$ ,8 ,*ur* & p-p-put x b-b-bang 9 y\r p-pa?4 ,:at else d y want8 ,d y want a special r-r-revelation8 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 wail$ ,paul4 ,i don't ,,"k4 ,8 voice broke a little4 ,fa!r ,vassall dropp$ 8 knees & jump$ up1 cat*+ 8 robe ab\t him4 ,8 eyes %one1 ?\gh 8 face 0 grave4 ,l-look "h1 he said4 ,"h's a bit ( pap]4 ,i'll put "h all ! ?+s t make = ! ,*ur*1 unless y feel hone/ly1 9 y\r own m9d1 t ! balance ( evid5ce on a po9t puts x on ! o!r side4 ,n[4 ,:5 ! pap] 0 writt5 x appe>$ ?us3 ,,:i* is ,,true8 ,r4,c4 ,anglican4 ,emotions 9 ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,emotions at ,claxt$1 ,keswick1 etc4 ,reason8 ,hi/ory8 ,:i* ,works8 ,scripture8 ,tradition8 ,ca?olic ,idea8 ,consi/5cy8 ,gospel ( ! ,poor8 ,beauty8 ,common s5se8 ,miracles8 ,pet]8 7,aft] ! fir/1 ,paul _h object$3 ,b ,*ri/ianity may n be reasonable at all4 ,t-t-t h>dly makes = ,anglicanism1 retort$ ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,is x1 ! ,via ,m$ia1 reasonable8 ,& ,paul _h be5 sil5t !reaft]47 ,t's en\gh1 ,fa!r1 said ,paul1 9 a /ill voice4 ,x is1 only ?is4 7,he add$1 la/ on ! li/--,pet]47 ,n[1 "h y are4 ,to-morr[1 aft] breakfa/1 g into ! *apel1 put ?is be=e y1 & pray4 ,pray4 ,,pray4 ,he>8 ,i'll say no m1 n[ or ev]4 ,y're alone1 y "k1 y mu/ be4444 ,if x's 'yes1' aft] t1 come & tell me1 & ,i'll get ! faculties & receive y4 ,if x's 'no1' !n don't say any?+4 ,j 'good-bye4' ,& ,g-,god bless y1 anyway4 ,he _h 8 way4 ,! boy w5t almo/ sil5tly to b$1 he>d ,mass1 ate breakfa/ quietly1 w5t into ! *apel1 & knelt d[n4 ,he propp$ 8 pap]s be=e him4 ,he *ose to kneel be=e ! r$ lamp4 ,he read 8 pap]1 b he c\ld n ?9k4 ,confus$ images buzz$ ?r\gh 8 head1 & voices4 ,i'd r see a son ( m9e dead1 said ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,god is v f> (f1 said ,*ild]s4 ,he 0 delud$ by ,satan1 said ,david ,e!ridge4 ,oh1 don't break y\r fa!r's he>t1 ,paul1 cri$ 8 "m4 ,concub9age is a regul> ?+ 9 ,spa91 said ! ,bi%op ( ,mozambique4 ,*ri/ is ! mo/ arre/+ figure 9 hi/ory1 said ,mann+ coolly4 ,he's a j-j-jeal\s ,god1 said ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,paul %ut 8 eyes4 ,he 0 s tir$4 ,he turn$ delib]ately away & ?\ght ( ,edi?4 ,he rememb]$ ,hursley ,woods1 & ! little br[n cap1 & ! br[n leaves1 & ! blue sky4 ,a ?ru%1 too1 t look$ at !m out ( beady eyes4 ,& "h he 01 9 a ,popi% *apel1 ,fa!r ,vassall's *apel4 ,he look$ up4 ,9 ! cle> morn+ light1 ! *apel 0 all s pla94 ,9 front ( him1 z pla9 z pla91 0 a sponge on re$1 a spe>1 a ladd]1 a sc\rge4 ,he notic$ t !y 7 a little du/y4 ,! glass reliqu>y rem9d$ him ( wax fl[]s "u a glass case belong+ to 8 great-aunt ,sophie2 no1 x did n rem9d him ( ! fl[]s1 x 0 j ! case1 ) its plu% fr+e1 t x br\ght ridicul\sly to 8 m9d4 ,b inside ! case 0 t small spl9t] ! prie/ _h describ$1 a fragm5t spl9t]$ f ,calv>y ) its sweat & turmoil & blood4 ,x _h be51 ( c\rse1 l t figure on ! rood4 ,he _h hung dead4 ,dead4 ,dra9$ ( blood4 ,dead4 ,dead8 ,a little to ! "r ! :ite tab]nacle veil hung 9 ! folds to :i* ,fa!r ,vassall _h adju/$ x ?is morn+4 ,& beh9d lay ! my/]y4 ,if only he ,,knew4 ,& !n1 sudd5ly1 he saw x all z cle>ly z ! day ?r\gh ! *apel w9d[3 8 brok5 home1 8 "m's te>s1 ,edi? lo/ to him1 8 ambition to write poetry block$ out1 & in/ead1 in/ead--t silv] ,cup beh9d ! :ite curta9 ?ru/ into 8 h&4 ,a half-rememb]$ l9e %ot into 8 head3 ,& d[n ! %aft ( light ,blood-r$444 ,& suppose1 aft] all1 x 7 n true4444 ,if x 7 true1 surely ,god w\ld %[ him4 ,if ,he 7 a ,fa!r1 surely1 surely444 7#f7 ,t1 !n1 0 ! mann] 9 :i* ,paul ,ke/]n grew afraid4 ,! utt] sil5ce ( ! *apel grew on him1 bore d[n on him1 wave on wave4 ,0 x n "t = ! trap8 ,oh1 b !y w\ld call him4 ,meantime1 :y w\ldn't ,god speak8 ,j a ^w1 a flick] ( a curta94444 ,x 0 all s /ill4 ,n ev5 a w9d4 ,! sil5ce li/5$1 t 0 ! awful ?+2 x li/5$ = him to pray4 ,& if he pray$--oh1 if he pray$1 he w\ld break d[n l a baby1 & surr5d]1 & he w\ld nev] really h kn[n4 ,!n ,paul knew he c\ld n pray4 ,b he %ut 8 eyes2 he grop$ into ! blackness2 he press$ aga9/ ! sil5ce2 he knew he 0 alone1 all alone2 he knew if he c\ld h fl$1 he w\ld h done s1 b t he c\ld n move4 ,he mu/ fight x out alone1 endure alone2 & ?\gh t awful sil5ce t]roris$ 8 v ?\ght1 he mu/ /ill try to ?9k4444 ,x's t-t-"t to g1 :isp]$ a voice 9 8 e>4 ,he got up1 & /umbl$ out4 ,?ank y s mu*1 ,fa!r1 he said4 ,!re 0 utt] t]ror 9 8 s\l1 b t 0 :at he said4 ,he saw ! o!r's face1 t5d] & grave1 & 8 qua9t black g[n1 & ! b>e hall1 & ! little flagg$ pa?1 & ! iron gate1 & ! trap4 ,oh1 he 0 glad to see ! trap4 ,he mu/n't be afraid2 x 0 absurd2 he c\ld walk out4 ,really ,i've lov$ be+ "h1 he he>d himself say+4 ,c-come aga9 s-s-"s t-"t1 /amm]$ ,fa!r ,vassall4 ,?anks1 ,i w1 ,fa!r4 ,good-bye4 ,g-g-good-bye4 ,he balanc$ himself z ! horse />t$ =w>d1 & !n turn$ & wav$4 ,! little prie/ wav$ too4 ,!y swung r\nd ! turn4 ,paul look$ at ! cl\ds1 mov+ s]5ely across ! sky4 ,he pe]$ into ! b>e twigs ( an oak4 ,"s palm 0 9 bloom1 s(t1 yell[1 fea!ry4 ,tru?1 x's real mild spr+1 sir1 said ,tim4 ,yes1 said ,paul4 ,i mu/ say ,i'm glad summ] is com+4 ,london1 s+le1 he said ?r\gh ! wicket at ! book+ (fice4 ,x 0 real1 t funny little w9d[1 & odd1 h[ absurd ! man look$1 pe]+ at him6 ,a c\ple ( turns up ! plat=m1 a good asphalt$ plat=m1 ) />+ adv]tisem5ts1 r jolly--ab\t p5s1 ,ea/] 9 ,norm&y1 ,ne/le's ,milk4 ,& !re 0 ! tra9 at la/1 sw++ m]rily r\nd ! corn]1 noisy1 fussy1 real4 ,?ird class1 smok]1 empty1 t w\ld d4 ,paul flung himself into a f> corn]4 ,?ank ,god1 he said to himself1 ?ank ,god4 ,a tall d>k girl walk$ up ! tra94 ,%e look$ 9 at ,paul's w9d[4 ,he didn't see h]1 b %e saw him1 hesitat$ a mom5t1 & decid$1 aft] all1 %e w\ldn't travel to t[n ) him4 ,if p]haps1 ! next comp>tm5t 0 empty1 %e w\ld pref] t4 ,x 04 ,%e got 9 & %ut ! door4 ,%e _h a newspap] & a novel to read1 b %e settl$ h]self to />e out ( ! w9d[ in/ead4 ,! c\ntry 0 s unimag9ably lovely4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,judgm5ts ,i am c]ta9 ( no?+ b ( ! hol9ess ( ! he>t's affections1 & ! tru? ( ,imag9ation4 ,:at ! ,imag9ation seizes z ,beauty mu/ be ,tru?4444 ,! ,imag9ation may be comp>$ to ,adam's dream2--he awoke & f\nd x tru?4--,,keats3 ,lett]s1 ,novemb] #bb1 #ahag4 7#a7 ,well1 qu]i$ ,tressor1 & :at's ! next move8 ,he 0 seat$ at 8 desk 9 8 /udy1 p5 9 h&1 a pile ( correspond5ce be=e him1 & ,paul1 :o _h n be5 able to rema9 /ill = five m9utes s9ce he _h he>d ! news1 0 lean+ at ! mom5t aga9/ ! op5 w9d[ opposite4 ,june _h come 9 full-?roat$4 ,! trees 9 ! ,fell[s' ,g>d5 7 ?ick ) gre51 & ! roses 9 ! p>t]res flam$ 9 ! sun4 ,ev]y?+ flam$ 9 su* a sunlight z _h nev] be5 be=e1 nor1 9 its own way1 w\ld be aga94 ,miracles ( t sort are n s uncommon 9 life z might be ?\ght1 b ea* "o /&s by itself4 ,s to-day ,paul 0 inw>dly if only half-consci\sly m>vell+ at ! _w1 see+ t x 0 transfigur$ be=e him4 ,! don1 wat*+ him ?\ghtfully1 0 well aw>e ( x4 ,8 own exp]i5ces ( a qu>t] ( a c5tury be=e1 rose l a k9dly gho/ be=e him4 ,he knew 9 :at a turmoil ( susp5se ! boy mu/ h wak5$1 b yet h[ a k9d ( de> regret _h l+]$ ) him at breakfa/1 ! la/ breakfa/ ( ! true und]graduate /age1 ! /age 9 :i* ! future is all possibility1 ! die /ill unread ev5 if ca/4 ,he guess$ h[ he & 8 fri5ds _h talk$ ab\t ev]y?+ & ?\ght only ab\t "o ?+2 h[ !y _h /roll$ r\nd to ! ,s5ate ,h\se2 h[ a glam\r _h be5 !re ^u ! ugly unimpos+ dull build+ t he1 ! don1 knew s well2 h[ anxiety _h spurr$ ! spirits ( ! m5 9 ! gall]y2 h[ ! fir/ names _h be5 greet$ ) reliev$ *e]s4 ,& he knew h[ ,paul _h he>d 8 own 9 ! ,fir/ ,class ,hon\rs ,li/ ( ! ,hi/ory ,tripos ) a s5se1 fir/1 ( utt] unreality1 & !n ( triumph t _h giv5 him = a fleet+ h\r ! c>riage ( a god4 ,paul _h come into ,k+'s ,p>ade ) 8 fri5ds a new man4 ,a light _h fall5 on 8 ways1 & at fir/1 z always1 he _h be5 blissfully ignorant ( ! bitt] t lurks 9 all e>?'s sweets4 ,he _h be5 ignorant = ab\t z long z x took him to walk to ! po/ (fice4 ,!re1 :5 ,donaldson _h said t !re 0 no good 8 s5d+ a telegram1 he _h se5 real envy 9 ! eyes ( a fri5d1 & :5 ! cl]k _h read ! flimsy pap] )\t ! flick] ( an eyebr[1 _h realis$ t ! _w is mighty big & c>es no?+4 ,ah well1 ,paul _h ?\ght z he ha/5$ back to college1 t made no diff]5ce to ! fact t he1 ,paul ,ke/]n1 _h got a ,fir/1 :i* no?+ c\ld ev] de/roy & :i* w\ld rema9 a title to respect among all sorts & conditions ( m54 ,diff] ) him z m5 might & w\ld1 he _h ent]$ set & recognis$ li/s & ridd5 a triumphant c\rse4 ,& ,tressor 0 g5u9ely pleas$ t ! boy _h come bur/+ 9 to him1 sc>cely wait+ to knock1 greet+ him ) ! eyes ( a grateful fri5d4 ,i've got x1 he _h cri$1 ,i've got x1 ,tressor6 ,a ,fir/ aft] all6 ,?anks to y m ?an to anyone4 ,i c h>dly believe x's true4 ,paul _h walk$ ab\t ! /udy to tell 8 news4 ,donaldson got a ?ird1 ,/re!r a second4 ,i wi% ,gussie _h got a fir/4 ,i say1 my fa!r w be pleas$4 ,h[ _m8 ,oh !re 7 only five giv51 out ( a hundr$ & ?irty1 ,i ?9k4 ,y "k ,i nev] c\ld h writt5 a dec5t l9e if x hadn't be5 = y4 ,z x 0 ,i ?\ght t ,special ,p]iod w\ld di% me4 ,i say--does x s\nd bea/ly8--,i'm mo/ glad ( all = "o ?+4 ,:atev] ,i become1 no "o w ev] be able to say t if ,i'd kn[n a little hi/ory ,i'd h be5 diff]5t6 ,& s on1 disjo9t$ly1 z ! s5se ( x soak$ 91 & ?\ghts rose 9 8 m9d l bright bubbles--rose & bur/4 ,tressor und]/ood x all4 ,& he lik$ ! way ! boy pe]$ at a picture1 pick$ up a pap]-knife & exam9$ x z if x 7 some?+ r>e1 look$ out at ! roses1 %ot a que/ion+ glance at him1 & s on4 ,all ^! ?+s 7 s _m signpo/s to ! eag] m9d4 ,tressor felt aga9 8 own ke5 int]e/ z to :at t m9d w\ld d4 ,& s he _h at la/ ask$ 8 "q4 ,well1 he _h said1 & :at's ! next move8 ,ah6 said ,paul1 & leant up aga9/ ! op5 w9d[-frame all at once1 v /ill4 ,i'm only tw5ty-"o1 he said at la/4 ,tressor turn$ ! /atem5t ov]4 ,!n he und]/ood4 ,two ye>s be=e y c be orda9$1 he said4 ,yes1 ?ank ,god1 said ,paul1 s9c]ely4 ,oh6 ,has x come to t8 ,paul's re/lessness fell on him aga91 l a mantle4 ,he /raight5$ himself1 ?ru/ 8 h&s into 8 pockets1 look$ r\nd1 & flung himself into a *air4 ,i suppose ,i've kn[n x all ! t]m1 he said1 b ,i've nev] realis$ x till n[4 ,tressor laid d[n 8 p5 & lean$ back4 ,he 0 frankly curi\s4 ,! t]m _h be5 s busy = bo? ( !m t ?is 0 ! fir/ vital conv]sation1 al?\gh1 at odd int]vals1 he _h ?\ght a good deal ab\t ! boy4 ,?us he knew ( ! visit to ,?urloe ,end1 b n ( any details4 ,he knew ( conflicts1 n ( decisions1 if !re _h be5 any4 ,yes1 said ,paul1 x has4 ,i "k "o ?+4 ,i _c be orda9$ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& unless my m9d *anges a great deal betwe5 ?is & !n4 ,t is odd to me1 said ,tressor m$itatively4 ,t is "o ( ! ?+s ,i c\ld d4 ,y8 ,yes4 ,! ,anglican m9i/ry /&s = an ord]ly1 dec5t1 re/ra9$ religi\s pr(ession1 b x does n commit ! prie/ to dogmatic extravagance4 ,i see1 said ,paul4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,engl& appeals to y on ^? gr\nds exactly :i* make x impossible = me1 at lea/ z yet4 ,b :y8 ,no bi%op w\ld refuse y on acc\nt ( mod]ation4 ,q s4 ,b ! ,apo/le _h a ^w to say on t to ! ,*ur* ( ,laodicea4 ,tressor fr[n$ slightly4 ,he dislik$ ,paul 9 t mood4 ,surely y see n[1 he said1 t y _c det]m9e ! univ]se by a s+le text4 ,paul ?rew 8 leg ov] ! arm ( 8 *air4 ,t is precisely :at ,i d see1 he said4 ,i'm "o imm5se note ( int]rogation4 ,! don smil$4 ,t's admirable1 anyway1 & t1 ,i suppose1 blocks ,rome4 ,i'm unfeign$ly glad4 ,i confess ,i saw y g to ,?urloe ,end ) "s fe>4 ,y're impressionable1 & ,fa!r ,vassall has a magnetic p]sonality4 ,a %ad[ ga!r$ 9 ,paul's face1 ga!r$ & deep5$4 ,b ,i play$ ! c[>d !re1 he said4 ,tell me1 said ,tressor1 if y c1 t is4 ,i'd l to4 ,paul 0 emphatic4 ,also ! ?+ 0 v vivid to him & _h lo/ no?+ 9 retrospection4 ,8 he>] saw ! situation z he unfold$ x1 saw x almo/ z vividly z ,paul _h se5 x1 b 8 wond] grew almo/ m quickly ?an 8 int]e/4 ,he f\nd himself sc>cely li/5+1 impati5t ( ! f9al details4 ,s y see1 conclud$ ,paul1 ,i 0 afraid to pray4 ,i knew t if ,i gave way an in* ,i %\ld give way altoge!r4 ,& 9 ! end1 ,i--,i fl$4 ,!re 0 dea? 9 8 voice4 ,well1 retort$ ,tressor1 ,i congratulate y ) all my he>t4 ,hone/ly1 ,paul1 ,i did n ?9k y _h s mu* 9 y4 ,really1 y int]e/ me enorm\sly4 ,:at6 cri$ ! g5u9ely a/oni%$ ,paul4 ,( c\rse4 ,! :ole ?+ 0 consummate /ag$ emotionalism4 ,& y came ?r\gh x1 & ,vassall's ov]:elm+ hypnotic p]sonality1 by ! %e] =ce ( y\r own w4 ,no1 hone/ly1 ,i nev] dream$ y _h x 9 y4 ,i am mo/ extraord9>ily glad4 ,paul return$ 8 leg to a normal position4 ,he />$ at ! speak] = appreciable seconds )\t a ^w4 ,!n he laugh$4 ,well1 he said1 well---- ,& ( c\rse y may be "r4 ,i %\ld say !re c be no room = d\bt4444 ,b1 if t's ,rome1 :y n ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&8 ,ord]s & a fell[%ip--writ+1 lectur+1 prea*+4 ,x w\ld suit y admirably4 ,x w\ld n1 retort$ ,paul decisively4 ,i %\ld nev] be cont5t4 ,besides1 :at %\ld ,i prea*8 ,= :at %\ld ,i /&8 ,i _c see ! ,bible )\t ! ,gospel1 & ,i c prea*1 9 ,*ri/'s "n1 no?+ b t4 ,! don knit 8 br[s4 ,!n :at's ! matt] ) an evangelical m9i/ry8 ,paul jump$ up4 ,he pr[l$ ab\t re/lessly4 ,sudd5ly he made a c\ple ( ge/ures1 "o to ! well-l9$ %elves1 ! o!r to ! g>d54 ,t & t1 he said4 ,i'm afraid y g beyond me1 said ,tressor politely4 ,oh1 ,i say1 ,i'm sorry1 cri$ ,paul4 ,b--b--c't y see8 ,d\btless x's %e] presumption1 b evangelicalism seems to me utt]ly divorc$ f reason & k4 ,x has no logical basis at all4 ,rome may be wrong1 b x's logical4 ,x's a conceivable !ory4 ,evangelical ,prote/antism j won't d4444 ,look "h1 ! ,*ur* might be infallible1 div9e4 ,x's j possible4 ,i don't "k 444 b x's possible4 ,b ! ,bible is n infallible--we "k t--& :at is m1 x w\ld be useless if x 7 )\t an explicit int]pretation4 ,t's c]ta91 f9al4 ,tressor glanc$ at 8 correspond5ce4 ,he ought to att5d to x1 b1 on ! o!r h&1 an idea 0 =m+ 9 8 m9d4 ,! m he ?\ght ( x1 ! m he lik$ x4 ,! lett]s might wait4 ,he got up & mov$ ov] t[>ds ! book%elves4 ,paul1 beh9d him1 w5t on ab/ract$ly4 ,& !n !re's ! o!r reason4 ,t seems to me less hon\rable1 less conv9c+1 b--,i c't help x--x's ov]p[]+4 ,put x l ?is4 ,c\ld ,i possibly put on ! sc>let j]sey ( ! ,salvation ,army & foll[ ! b&8 ,c\ld ,i8 ,well1 ,i c\ldn't4 ,t--t's an insult to--to beauty1 a blasphemy aga9/--aga9/--oh1 ,i don't "k--aga9/ a summ]'s day1 ,i ?9k4 ,& an evangelical m9i/ry means a r$ j]sey1 y "k--or some?+ l x4 ,! ,mission ,hall1 = example2 ! ,religi\s ,tract ,society4444 ,i say1 am ,i a--a damn$ fool8 ,tressor _h tak5 a little book (f ! %elves1 & 0 half me*anically turn+ ! leaves4 ,immature1 ( c\rse1 weak 9 places1 b---- ,he put x back4 ,eh8 he qu]i$1 smil+4 ,a r$ j]sey8 ,no1 ,i r agree4 ,b ! morn+'s go+4 ,:]e are y lun*+8 ,h "s ) me8 ,i'd love to1 said ,paul4 ,"r4 ,give me half an h\r = ^! lett]s4 ,& at lun*eon ,i'll tell y :at's come into my head4 ,he smil$1 affectionately4 ,?anks1 said ,paul1 gett+ up4 ,!n he rememb]$ 8 ,fir/ aga91 ov]:elm+ly4 ,i ?9k ,i'll j g & see1 he said boyi%ly1 :e!r !re are any telegrams = me4 ,tressor turn$ to 8 desk4 ,d1 he said4 ,"o o'clock4 7#b7 ,paul walk$ across ! ,second ,c\rt :i/l+4 ,9 ! scre5s he met ,/re!r4 ,!re's only "o o!r fir/1 gr[l$ 8 fri5d4 ,judson4 ,%[s :at egregi\s asses ! exam9]s 74 ,paul hit him 9 ! ribs4 ,:]e is he8 he dem&$4 ,i mu/ g & congratulate him4 ,he's 9 ! g>d51 read+ telegrams4 ,i believe !re are "s = y4 ,x's a sick5+ sight1 b ,i'll come ) y if y l4 ,paul took 8 arm & !y m>*$ (f4 ,i'm sorry y didn't get "o1 ,gussie1 he said4 ,y des]v$ x4 ,! o!r snort$4 ,rot1 he grunt$4 ,nev] /ood a look 94 ,lucky to get a second4 ,b ,i always ?\ght y'd score4 ,betwe5 ! ,fir/ ,c\rt & ! riv]1 "u ! *e/nuts1 7 a c\ple ( deck-*airs & a rug4 ,judson 9 flannels sprawl$ !re1 ) ,hannam1 ,donaldson & "o or two o!rs4 ,somebody toss$ ,paul half a doz5 orange envelopes4 ,he ?rew himself d[n1 & tore !m op54 ,mr4 ,ke/]n wir$ t he & ,mrs4 ,ke/]n 7 com+ up to-morr[4 ,!n an uncle _h wir$1 & a gr&fa!r4 ,mr4 ,erne/ also4 ,!re 0 "o f s*ool1 & t intrigu$ ,paul4 ,x 0 jolly to ?9k t ! ,head & ! re/ ( !m _h be5 expect+ ! occasion1 ?9k+ ( x1 c>+4 ,pleasant1 too1 t he _h conf]r$ hon\r on ! s*ool4 ,he />$ out at ! %9+ riv]1 & saw ! old hall1 ! cut & mutilat$ =ms1 ! hon\r bo>ds1 ! dais1 ! r[s ( %uffl+ s*oolboys1 & himself among/ !m4 ,ann\ncem5ts 7 made aft] pray]s4 ,to-morr[1 probably1 !n1 ! ,head w\ld say precisely3 ,i am sure ! s*ool w be glad to le>n t ,paul ,ke/]n1 :o w5t up to ,/4 ,m>y's1 ,cambridge1 9 444 has 444 ,! s*ool w\ld *e]1 s5s+ a possible half-holiday 9 connection !re)4 ,well1 he'd look 9 next mon?1 t[>ds ! end ( ,july1 & !n---- ,x 0 really r pleasant4 ,he rea*$ = ! la/ telegram1 speculat+ idly :o _h s5t x4 ,he c\ld n "k t ,mr4 ,ke/]n _h told ! news to e possible p]son 9 ! /reet z he himself w5t to ! po/ (fice4 ,i'm s glad--,edi?1 he read4 ,he read x aga9 & aga94 ,he glanc$ up cov]tly at ! o!rs4 ,!n he fold$ ! ?9 pap]1 slipp$ x back 9 its envelope1 /ret*$ himself out at full l5g? & />$ up into ! blue sky4 ,fragm5ts ( conv]sation f ! m5 ab\t him drift$ 9 & out ( 8 m9d1 & n[ & aga9 he _h to respond to a rem>k address$ po9t-blank to him4 ,he 0 /ill pleasantly aw>e ( a*ievem5t & pride t mu/ be hid4 ,b he 0 wre/l+ all ! :ile ) an enigma4 ,he _h se5 ! girl once only aft] 8 visit to ,?urloe ,end1 dur+ ! brief week-end ( ! vacation t he _h sp5t at home4 ,!y _h walk$ devi\sly home f ,sunday ev5+ s]vice1 & he _h p\r$ out 8 he>t to h]4 ,he _h be5 full ( ! contra/ betwe5 ,claxt$ & ,?urloe ,end1 z well z ! gr[+ impossibility he 0 exp]i5c+ 9 ^! occasional returns to s]vice 9 ! evangelical atmosph]e4 ,!re _h be5 reaction1 too1 9 8 outlook aft] ! relief ( escape f ,fa!r ,vassall1 & :at ) "o ?+ & ano!r he _h be5 m$itat+--he spoke to h] z if he 7 m$itat+--a return & a surr5d]4 ,& %e _h a/\nd$ him3 %e _h utt]ly refra9$ f sugge/+ t he %\ld n d s4 ,inde$ %e _h done m2 %e _h br\ght to be> ^u ! problem ! m9d (1 z x 71 a ,claxt$ ,ca?olic1 ?\gh1 s9ce no?+ _h z yet come ( x1 %e _h said no?+ ( h] visit to ,/4 ,patrick's4 ,! wit*]y ( ,?urloe ,end _h be5 mean+less to h]4 ,claxt$ 0 /ill to h] de> & simple4 ,%e saw no?+ :atev] to alt] 9 h] own home or 9 84 ,b>ns1 & %r9es1 & c>v5 %ields1 m]ely bewild]$ h]4 ,he _h felt1 z he talk$1 t s f> z ext]nals w5t1 %e w\ld h pref]r$ ! inc&esc5t lights 9 r[s1 ! r$ drugget & ! pit*-p9e ( ! ,mission ,hall4 ,p]fectly simply1 !n1 %e _h said3 ,paul1 de>1 if ,jesus calls y1 y mu/ d :at ,he says4 ,p>rot-l1 he _h answ]$ h] ) ! old cry3 ,b ,i don't "k6 ,he c\ld feel n[ h] f+]s on 8 arm1 clut*+ a little m tightly4 ,don't1 ,paul1 %e _h said4 ,x seems to me q pla94 ,jesus doesn't hide ,himself4 ,he speaks pla9ly en\gh 9 our he>ts1 & y--y '"k ,8 voice4' ,he _h />$ h>d at h] 9 ! light ( a /reet lamp z !y pass$3 ! firm little face r s$ate2 ! precise1 neat dress2 h] glov$ h&2 ! little hymn & pray] book %e c>ri$ :i* he _h giv5 h]1 surreptiti\sly4 ,intuitively he saw t %e belong$ to ,claxt$2 yes1 ?\gh he knew t he _h modifi$ h] views n a little1 ,claxt$ 0 bone ( h] bone & fle% ( h] fle%4 ,life 0 amaz+ly simple to h]4 ,%e might "q ! =m 9 :i* ! ?+s ( religion rea*$ h]--! au?ority ( ,*ri/1 ,8 pres5ce 9 ! ,sacram5t2 %e might become ,high ,*ur* 9 practice2 b no?+ 9 ,claxt$ rubb$ h] up ! wrong way4 ,& he saw sudd5ly j :at x meant t h] home 0 9 ,edw>d ,/reet & h] fa!r a photograph]4 ,%e 0 unobtrusive1 trim1 conv5tional4 ,he _h want$ to seize h] almo/ r\ghly1 %ake h]1 drag h] out1 & he _h n be5 able to d x at all because %e w\ld n h und]/ood ! fir/ syllable ( explanation4 ,come to t1 did he8 ,p]haps1 t v day1 he _h come to see m pla9ly ! po9t4 ,! sc>let j]sey--well1 x 0 j a sc>let j]sey to ,edi? ,?ornton4 ,y put x on1 if ,*ri/ said s4 ,:y n8 ,ly+ !re !n1 9 ! flu% ( success1 blue %9+ sky above1 cle> %9+ riv] h>d by1 h] words 9 8 pocket1 no1 9 8 he>t1 ,paul nev]!less saw a %ad[ a?w>t ! sky4 ,he _h kn[n long t an imp]meable curta9 0 sl[ly dropp+ betwe5 him & 8 p2 he _h kn[n t _! v voices s\nd$ odd--famili>1 arre/+ly famili>1 b z ^? :o speak ano!r tongue2 & he _h kn[n t ! *ange lay 9 him & n 9 !m4 ,!re 7 notes 9 ! pa/ t no long] /ruck response1 t rea*$ him muffl$1 ?r\gh ! curta94 ,& he saw pla9ly en\gh t ,edi? belong$ to t side4 ,!re 0 a %ad[ !n ev5 on ?is bright day4 ,he lov$ h] s4 ,"o mom5t1 0 x q t8 ,0 x n r t he want$ to love h] s mu*1 want$ t !y %\ld speak & walk toge!r1 & knew !y c\ld n8 ,inexorably1 hate x z he might1 ! irresi/ible tides 7 sweep+ !m ap>t4 ,he 0 be+ mov$ on & out1 prote/ z he w\ld & did4 ,yet he c\ld n prote/ altoge!r z he w\ld1 = 8 v he>t 0 %ak54 ,!re 0 a w> 9 8 memb]s--! old1 old phrase rose unbidd5 9 8 m9d4 ,&1 s]5e & f> z t blue sky1 ,god seem$ to be4 ,?us a ?\ghtful ,paul w5t 9 to lun*eon1 yet :olly unaw>e ( ! new flood t 0 ev5 !n ga!r+ to its height & 0 ab\t to ov]ma/] him4 ,= a :ile ! two talk$ inconsequ5tly1 on small ?+s4 ,!n1 :5 ! c(fee 0 on ! table1 ,tressor reop5$ ! conv]sation ( ! morn+4 ,s1 hone/ly1 y don't q "k :at to d next8 ,no4 ,b ,i suppose ,i %all tea* = a ye> or two1 if possible d "s private coa*+4 ,i mu/ e>n money2 ,i %all h to say no def9itely to ! !ological college next ye>1 n ?is4 ,lit]ature8 ,well1 ( c\rse1 :]ev] ,i am ,i %all write4 ,i c't help x4 ,b c\ld ,i make a liv+ ) my p58 ,i don't suppose s1 & ,i c't ask my fa!r = money4 ,& ev5 if ,i c\ld1 ,i d\bt awfully if ,i c\ld d occasional j\rnalism4 ,tressor %ook 8 head emphatically4 ,don't try1 he said4 ,x's an impossibility = y1 ,i %\ld say--n y\r l9e at all4 ,paul sudd5ly realis$ :at a problem he 0 up aga9/4 ,he sigh$4 ,x's awfully h>d1 he said4 ,i suppose ,i mu/ tea*4 ,no1 said ,tressor1 n yet anyway4 ,i want y to give y\r own lit]>y ta/e a *ance4 ,write poetry4 ,d ano!r play--m c>efully ?is "t4 ,paul smil$ ruefully4 ,9 ! ,l5t ,t]m he _h _h an inspiration4 ,dropp+ 8 read+1 cutt+ 8 lectures1 bury+ himself 9 8 rooms1 he _h begun & writt5 a play4 ,& ,tressor _h lectur$ him = ! fir/1 ?reat5$ dire ?+s = ! second1 & f9ally & utt]ly turn$ d[n ! la/4 ,i'd love to1 said ,paul1 b--,i c\ldn't write a l9e 9 ,claxt$ anyway4 ,i "k1 said ,tressor equably4 ,i don't suppose y c\ld1 & ,i'm n sugge/+ x4 ,b :at ab\t ,=dham8 ,=dham8 qu]i$ ,paul1 puzzl$4 ,! o!r nodd$4 ,=dham--my h\se4 ,b--b---- ,yes2 z y "k1 ,i h a h\se to :i* ,i g occasionally4 ,my fri5ds sometimes consid] x an unnecess>y luxury s9ce ,i'm only !re two or ?ree times a ye>4 ,b x's r a nice h\se1 & x wants liv+ 94 ,x w\ld d x good to h someone liv+ 9 x & look+ aft] x a little4 ,!re are "s cottages1 & "s r\gh %oot+1 & a g>d54 ,i b\ght ! place because ( ! g>d52 y'd l x4 ,y might write poetry 9 x1 & a play1 or half a doz51 see+ h[ quickly y write4 ,:at d y say8 ,he _h talk$ sl[ly on to give ,paul "t4 ,! boy's face 0 a /udy4 ,ev5 !n1 he h>dly took x 94 ,d y mean g--g--z y\r--y\r gue/8 he /amm]$4 ,no1 said ,tressor1 n exactly z my gue/4 ,h "s m c(fee8 ,y see1 ,i want y to d "s "w4 ,g z my ag5t1 let u say4 ,my h\sekeep] w look aft] y1 & be glad ( x1 & ,i'll give y a small sal>y4 ,y'll keep y\rself1 &1 ,i ?9k1 y'll write4 ,to be hone/1 ,i ?9k y'll write well4 ,oh1 ,i say6 cri$ ,paul1 only :5 x came to ! po9t he _h no?+ to say4 ,i take x t's settl$ !n8 ,words came ) a ru%4 ,i'd l x m ?an any?+ on e>?4 ,x w\ld be absolutely too good to be true4 ,i c't ?ank y en\gh4 ,i--,i---- ,"r1 !n4 ,?ank me by writ+ good poetry4 ,by ! way1 ,mann+ is com+ d[n ) me 9 ,augu/2 d y ?9k y c\ld jo9 u1 & rema9 on8 ,i mu/ consult my fa!r1 ( c\rse1 said ,paul1 b ,i'm c]ta9 ,i c say yes4 ,h[ p]fectly too glori\s4 ,oh1 ,i say1 y're j too good to me1 sir4 ,let's g & smoke a cig>ette 9 ! ,fell[s' ,g>d54 ,on ! way ,paul rememb]$ t ano!r ,*ildr5's ,special ,s]vice ,mission _h be5 9 ! air = t ,augu/4 ,dick ,h>tley _h urg$ x4 ,well1 x 0 no long] 9 ! air4 7#c7 ,paul met 8 p>5ts on ! /ation plat=m4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n %ook 8 h& firmly2 8 "m kiss$ him ) te>s ( pride 9 h] eyes4 ,oh1 ,paul1 %e :isp]$1 ,i'm s glad4 ,fa!r's j delight$4 ,! ,"l has giv5 y bra9s1 sonnie1 said ! cl]gyman4 ,i pray t y w use !m always 9 ,8 s]vice4 ,yes1 fa!r1 said ,paul4 ,i say1 ,i've su* news = y4 ,s h we1 ,paul1 said ,mrs4 ,ke/]n4 ,madel9e & ,mr4 ,erne/ are com+ up to see y take y\r degree4 ,are !y8 ,h[ jolly6 ,we'll h a picnic up ! riv]4 ,b y'll nev] guess :at ,i've got to tell y4 ,wait till we're 9 ! cab4 ,port]1 l5d a h& ) ^! traps1 w y8 ,i've got rooms = y q ne> ,/4 ,m>y's1 "m4 ,yes1 de>4 ,oh1 ,paul1 ,i c't believe y're gr[n up6 ,x's s funny to h my little son tak+ rooms = me4 ,paul took h] arm4 ,b1 mat] de>1 ,i wi% y w\ld rememb] h[ old ,i am4 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n sigh$4 ,we don't want to lose y1 de>1 %e said wi/fully4 ,!y 7 on ?9 ice1 he ?\ght4 ,come on1 ?is way4 ,t cab w d = u4 ,9 y get1 "m4 ,well1 ,paul1 & :at's ! great news8 ask$ 8 fa!r z !y drove (f4 ,paul /udi$ 8 face4 ,he c\ld n tell h[ he w\ld take x4 ,he w\ld be disappo9t$1 b he might be r pr\d4 ,anyway1 he mu/ plunge4 ,mr4 ,tressor1 fa!r1 wants me to g d[n to ,=dham1 nom9ally z 8 ag5t1 really to h a ye> at lea/ 9 :i* to write4 ,he ?9ks ,i %all be able to d "s good /uff4 ,x w co/ me no?+2 he w ev5 give me a small sal>y2 & ,i %all really & truly be able to write at la/4 ,paul6 cri$ 8 "m1 & glanc$ swiftly at 8 fa!r4 ,8 fa!r 0 n look+ at him4 ,i take x1 !n1 he said1 t ?is project--possibility--( jo9+ ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 is po/pon$--indef9itely8 ,yes1 repli$ ,paul1 sudd5ly a/oni%$4 ,?ank ,god1 said ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 ?ank ,god4 7,he paus$ a second1 swall[+ 9 8 ?roat47 ,may ,i be =giv5 = d\bt+ t our ,"l ev] fail$ to he> & answ] pray]4 ,a little bur/ ( ang] fla%$ 9 ,paul's he>t4 ,at ,?urloe ,end1 he said1 ,i %\ld h become a ,roman ,ca?olic if--if---- ,he rememb]$ ,tressor's comm5t1 & /opp$4 ,if6 ,if :at8 ,8 "m suppli$ a fur!r example ( ! div]se possible int]pretations ( t incid5t4 ,oh1 my son1 %e said1 y w nev] "k h[ y\r fa!r agonis$ 9 pray] = y4 ,all ! "t y 7 9 t t]rible place---- ,t w d1 "m1 put 9 ,mr4 ,ke/]n quickly4 ,! lad has be5 sav$1 z x 71 out ( ! m\? ( ! lion4 ,t is en\gh4 ,?ank ,god1 ?ank ,god4 ,& :5 d y g to ,=dham1 ,paul8 ,en?usiasm _h di$ 9 ! boy4 ,9 ,augu/1 fa!r1 he said heavily4 ,= a ye>1 ,paul8 ,y w be able to g to ,ridley ,hall aft]w>ds8 ,i don't "k1 "m4 ,or at lea/---- ,x all dep5ds1 anyway4 ,mr4 ,tressor mu/ take a great int]e/ 9 y1 de>4 ,%all we meet him8 ,y\r fa!r & ,i w\ld l to ?ank him = 8 great k9dness to our boy4 ,he is com+ to lun*1 said ,paul4 ,mrs4 ,rop] is probably gett+ x ready n[4 ,mann+ & ,/re!r are com+ too4 ,x'll be a bit ( a tight fit1 b ,i ?9k we c all squeeze 9 someh[4 ,x 0 two ye>s s9ce 8 p>5ts _h la/ be5 9 8 rooms4 ,8 fa!r's fir/ look 0 = ! text4 ,x hung !re /ill1 ,paul hav+ /ubbornly refus$ to take x d[n4 ,! man rememb]$ t fir/ pray]1 & aga9 saw ! h& ( ,god ^u him = good4 ,!n he espi$ ! writ+-desk2 by ?is "t x 0 a crucifix t hung !re4 ,he look$ quickly away2 x 7 be/ to say no?+4 ,8 wife took t cue f him4 ,besides1 %e _h eyes = ! o> t hung imm5se ! l5g? ( ! wall4 ,is t y\r o>1 de>8 %e ask$4 ,did y r[ ) x8 ,paul smil$4 ,no1 mummie1 he said ) affectionate raill]y1 ,i us$ x = a walk+-/ick4 ,%e glanc$ at him incr$ul\sly4 ,!n smil$4 ,y %\ldn't laugh at me1 %e said4 ,paul1 :]e did y get ! pictures6 ,%e 0 exam9+ 8 pr9ts4 ,d y l !m1 "m8 he ask$ pr\dly4 ,fairly1 ,paul4 ,b ,i ?9k ,i lik$ ^? dogs y _h be/4 ,y always 7 an odd boy4 ,d y rememb] y\r doves1 & y\r newts8 ,na/y ?+s4 ,he laugh$ outright4 ,oh1 "m1 he said1 my poor pr9ts6 ,b ,i've got ! ,l&se]s /or$ 9 ! ,gyp-room & ,i'll br+ !m home = y4 ,?ank y1 de>4 ,i ?9k !y'd d nicely 9 y\r old b$room1 & !y'll rem9d y ( college :5 y come home4 ,paul 0 n requir$ to answ]4 ,mann+ knock$1 came 91 & 0 introduc$4 ,! days t foll[$ 7 un=gettable4 ,= "o ?+1 !y 7 to be ! la/ 9 ! old t[n & ea* "o _h to be sav\r$ to ! full4 ,= ano!r1 only a few m51 wait+ = degrees1 7 up1 & ,paul _h to take 8 p ?r\gh colleges & *ur*es & *apels t 7 n :olly des]t$1 b 9 :i*1 nev]!less1 beauty reign$ supreme 9 unaccu/om$ sil5ce4 ,he _h a new pride 9 lawn & c\rt & hall4 ,9 a little1 he 0 to be a "p ( ! anci5t place1 an admitt$ son1 & a son1 moreov]1 :o c\ld1 s to speak1 look 8 fo/]-"m fairly 9 ! face4 ,ea* sep>ate /reet & build+1 too1 held a rememb]$ association4 ,x 0 odd to recall h[ he _h pe]$ ?r\gh ! gate ( ,*ri/'s & wond]$ if x 7 ,/4 ,m>y's2 w&]$ ?r\gh ,tr9ity1 n q sure t he _h a "r to be !re2 b\ght 8 fir/ cake 9 t little groc]'s2 swept1 "o rag night1 triumphantly d[n ,pety ,cury 9 a hurry+ ho/ ) proctors h>d 9 ! re>4 ,!n he _h to %[ ! ,h5ry ,m>tyn ,hall1 ,p>k]'s ,piece1 ,/4 ,savi\r's1 & he ev5 d>$ greatly & po9t$ out ! creep]-front$ ,ca?olic presbyt]y4 ,besides1 ! days gave him a new intimacy ) 8 p>5ts4 ,a b>ri] _h gone1 n[ t ! spectre ( ! ,sc>let ,woman no long] peep$ out ( e conv]sation4 ,also ! furni%+s ( ,claxt$ at lea/ 7 n "h4 ,8 fa!r1 x is true1 occasionally prob$ him to see h[ f> ! orig9al impulse to take ,anglican ,ord]s really rema9$1 b ! ?ru/s 7 easily p>ri$4 ,8 "m 0 m ( a difficulty4 ,9 ,great ,/4 ,m>y's %e _h laid a h& on 8 arm4 ,i wond] if ,i %all ev] see my son prea* 9 t pulpit1 %e said wi/fully4 ,paul _h no he>t to %att] h] dream4 ,i wond]1 he repli$ lightly4 ,b he knew t he did n4 ,! ,erne/s came up ! day be=e ! great occasion4 ,9 ! aft]noon1 ! five ( !m w5t to a tea g>d5 on ! ,upp] ,riv]4 ,paul refra9$ f ask+ any o!r m5 = two reasons3 = "o1 !re 0 no "o up1 unless x 7 ,/re!r1 :o w\ld mix ) 8 fa!r & ,mr4 ,erne/2 = ! o!r x 0 r a wond]ful ,madel9e t he met on ! /ation plat=m4 ,he nev] guess$ h[ p]sev]+ly ! visit & ! g>ni%+s _h be5 s*em$ =1 plann$ & prep>$4 ,he only knew t %e wore an amaz+ly simple frock & a big hat f ^: %ade ! regul> beauty ( h] face look$ out at him4 ,9 ! %ad$ sunlight1 h] big eyes1 "u ! d>k la%es /rik+ & unusual 9 s fair a blonde1 laugh$ up at 84 ,i say1 ,paul1 %e said1 y've no idea h[ pr\d we are ( y4 ,don't1 he cri$1 y'll make me horribly n]v\s4 ,rubbi%1 y nev] are1 %e *all5g$4 ,b x 0 n t t made h] look away cont5t4 ,/re!r saw !m toge!r1 & f\nd occasion to make enquiries 9 8 own fa%ion4 ,:o's ! girl8 he gr[l$4 ,paul told him1 gaily4 ,humph6 ,disgu/9'4 ,bett] tell h] !re's no vic>'s wife job go+ begg9'4 ,y old ass1 said ,paul4 ,b he told h]1 all ! same4 ,aft] tea1 ! eld]s sat on 9 ! dappl$ %ade1 & ,paul dug out a punt & put ! girl into x4 ,!y float$ g5tly into ,p>adise1 & he pull$ 9 "u a spread+ tree4 ,by ,jove1 x's hot1 he said4 ,i ?9k we'll lay up1 if y don't m9d4 ,( c\rse4 ,come & sit d[n4 ,%e mov$ h] skirt & %ift$ a cu%ion4 ,%e _h no d\bt :atev] :]e he 0 to sit4 ,he ?rew himself d[n beside h]4 ,may ,i smoke8 he ask$4 ,claxt$ seem$ impossibly f>4 ,( c\rse4 ,i love x1 y "k4 ,i don't see :y y %\ldn't4 ,he tapp$ 8 cig>ette on 8 case4 ,no1 he said vaguely4 ,x 0 s trifl+ an incid5t1 b x 0 "o among _m4 ,madel9e at ,cambridge 01 someh[1 a new ,madel9e4 ,he 0 aw>e h[ mu* he lik$ ! *ange1 & he resolv$ to take ,/re!r's advice4 ,d y "k :at ,i'm go+ to d next ye>8 he ask$4 ,no4 ,ridley8 ,he told h]4 ,%e lay q /ill4 ,!n %e heav$ a little sigh4 ,%e c\ldn't help x4 ,= "o ?+1 ,paul 0 r delici\s 9 8 coll>less %irt & blaz]1 ! pill> ( 8 ?roat good to see4 ,= ano!r1 !re 0 utt] *>m ab\t !m3 ! s(t-fl[+ riv]1 ! :isp] ( ! wat] "u ! punt's /]n1 ! tall trees t met high ov]head & int]lac$ 9 _! delicate beauty1 ! bright sunlight on ! gre5 fields & swift] fl[ yond]1 )\t ! brooky tunnel4 ,& besides---- ,i pray$ ab\t x1 ,paul1 %e said simply4 ,%e meant x4 ,9 h] own way1 %e meant x absolutely4 ,hone/ly1 too1 %e 0 too glad to ?9k = a mom5t1 z %e might h done1 t p]haps ?is 0 ! v be/ op5+ ( !m all4 ,yet1 aft] all1 x 0 n4 ,y pray$1 qu]i$ ,paul1 frankly a/oni%$4 ,yes4 ,i ?\ght y lik$ t horrid ,fa!r ,vassall too mu*4 ,i ?\ght y'd become a ,roman ,ca?olic z sure z fate4 ,"m said---- ,b nev] m9d4 ,y won't n[ anyway4 ,oh1 ,paul1 w y write a real play8 ,look "h1 he said grimly1 ,i don't suppose ,i'll ev] be a p>son4 ,( c\rse n4 ,y c d mu* bett---- ,no1 7%e 0 v hone/7 t's n "r4 ,i admire cl]gym5 ev] s mu*4 ,b y "k1 ,paul1 almo/ anyone c be a cl]gyman4 ,c !y8 ,yes1 ,i suppose y're "r4 ,x looks r l x anyway4 ,( c\rse !y c4 ,e!l ,cator's bro!r is go+ to be a cl]gyman2 y "k him3 he s+s r nicely4 ,b j fancy writ+ a play6 ,paul1 ,i don't c>e :at !y say at ,claxt$3 y mu/ give me a box ! fir/ night4 ,paul sudd5ly ?\ght he w\ld4 ,%e look$ up at him dreamily4 ,y might ev5 be an actor y\rself1 %e said4 ,d y rememb] ^? *>ades t ,*ri/mas at ! ,gators'8 ,!n a trifle ha/ily3 ,talk+ ( !m rem9ds me4 ,%e _h tak5 (f h] hat4 ,h] hair 0 s mu* sun%ot silk4 ,& ,paul und]/ood all ab\t ! *>ades at ! ,gators'4 ,he _h extemporis$ ! :ole affair1 sc5e by sc5e4 ,x 0 ! "o ?+ he lov$ at p>ties4 ,& "o sc5e _h be5 ! deck ( a %ip 9 ! ev5+1 a piano play+ 9 ! backgr\nd1 %e 9 a *air1 he1 play+ ! lov]1 lean+ on ! bulw>k4 ,!y _h play$ x r too well1 if any?+1 ?\gh ! ,gators 7 n ! sort ( p1 ev5 at ,claxt$1 to m9d4 ,& aft]w>ds1 ,paul rememb]$1 !y _h be5 *aff$ ov] x1 9 a jolly k9d ( way1 & he _h be5 flatt]$1 & !y _h gone on play+ !y 7 lov]s1 especially go+ d[n to supp]1 on ! /airs4 ,x 0 r nice ( h] to rememb]4 ,he leant a little t[>ds h]4 ,i rememb]1 he said1 look+ d[n into h] face4 ,we %all nev] see y aft] y g to ,mr4 ,tressor's4 ,y c]ta9ly w1 he v[$4 ,i %all jolly well come4 ,& ,i say1 p]haps y & y\r fa!r might ev5 come to see me1 at ,=dham4 ,oh1 %e brea!d1 t w\ld be jolly4 ,b x won't be possible1 y "k1 unless---- ,unless :at8 ,%e look$ up swiftly1 & away4 ,a _s mov$ 9 ,paul1 b !n1 aft] all1 he 0 n go+ to be a p>son4 ,he rea*$ out & took h] h&4 ,unless :at8 ,%e laugh$4 ,b p]haps y'll come back & prea* occasionally at ! ,mission ,hall1 %e said4 ,! work]s w miss y1 ,paul4 ,mr4 ,d]rick1 ,alb]t ,v9tn] & ,edi? ,?ornton4 ,paul gave no sign1 or he ?\ght he did n4 ,%e /udi$ him4 ,! temptation to probe a little fur!r 0 irresi/ible4 ,miss ,?ornton's gett+ q ,high ,*ur*1 %e said4 ,h] p are r worri$ ab\t x4 ,well1 said ,paul1 rapidly ma/]+ himself & speak+ delib]ately n[1 ,i'm incl9$ to be ,high ,*ur* myself1 come to t4 ,! ,ca?olic religion's r wond]ful1 ,madel9e4 ,fa!r ,vassall ?\ght ,i ought to be a ,r$emptori/4 ,:at's t8 ,a fri>4 ,a memb] ( ! religi\s ord] ( ! ,r$emptori/s4 ,!y prea* missions--a sort ( ,ca?olic evangeli/s4 ,is ,fa!r ,vassall a ,r$emptori/8 ,oh1 no4 ,he's a secul> prie/4 ,%e nodd$4 ,yes1 t's x4 ,he isn't a monk or a fri>1 b he'd l y to be "o4 ,i "k4 ,i've he>d fa!r talk ab\t x4 ,paul detect$ ! sne]4 ,he 0 p]fectly cool n[4 ,m ?an t1 he 0 gett+ angry4 ,b he /ill held h] h&1 & %e notic$ no?+4 ,edi? ,?ornton1 he said1 is r wond]ful4 ,madel9e %ift$ a little4 ,is %e8 %e que/ion$4 ,i c't say ,i "k h] v well4 ,%e's full ( good works1 ( c\rse4 ,i expect %e'd make a spl5did wife = a curate4 ,%e'd r l to m>ry a cl]gyman1 ,paul4 ,w\ldn't y1 ,madel9e8 ,%e smil$ sl[ly4 ,i ?9k ,i'd r m>ry a--a---- ,= ! life ( him he c\ldn't help x4 ,an actor1 p]haps1 he said1 or an au?or4 ,%e flu%$4 ,i don't "k1 %e said 9 an und]tone4 ,he laugh$ sudd5ly4 ,well1 ,madel9e1 he said1 ,i'll rememb]4 ,i expect ,i'll be able to introduce y to ev] s _m4 ,& ,i'm sure !y'd want to m>ry y anyway4 ,!re'll be no ne$ to pray ab\t t4 ,he let g h] h& & /ood up4 ,by ,jove1 he said1 ,i ?9k we ought to be gett+ back4 7#d7 ,s1 !n1 ! great day came & w5t4 ,sc>let spla%$ ! /reets4 ,self-consci\s "y m5 mov$ ab\t !m 9 rabbit-sk9 hoods & und]graduate g[ns & flutt]+ b[s ( :ite1 girls walk$ beside !m 9 consci\s surr5d] ( "o day at any rate to sup]ior claims1 & p>5ts brood$ maje/ically 9 ! backgr\nd4 ,! files ( neophytes l9$ up on ! cr[d$ floor ( ! ,s5ate ,h\se 9 an atmosph]e ( subdu$ :isp]+ talk1 pe]+ ov] heads & r\nd %\ld]s 9 an endeav\r to see :at 0 go+ =w>d at ! f> end4 ,"o _h occasional glimpses ( a r bor$-look+ p]sonage 9 robes on a rais$ *air1 dons ) %eafs ( pap]s 9 ! vic9ity1 & "s "y man or ano!r kneel+ 9 /iff self-consci\sness4 ,o!r colleges' und]graduates w5t up1 applaud$ by compatriots1 disda9$ by ! re/4 ,paul 0 vividly rejoic$ t he came f ,/4 ,m>y's & n f ,emmanuel or ,cats42 an ,emmanuel r[+-blue1 arriv+ a little late1 %\ld]$ pa/ him ) a glance t %\t$ al\d ! absurdity ( ^? half-doz5 ,/4 ,m>y's m54 ,an u%] gave !m _! signal4 ,paul f\nd himself 9 a cle>$ space1 & saw ,tressor loom+ l>ge on its edge4 ,he 0 aw>e t he _h to kneel 9 a feudal attitude & t ! ,vice-,*ancellor 0 murmur+ ,lat94 ,! indiff]5ce ( ! majority ab\t him made ! :ole c]emony oddly imp]sonal4 ,& n[ !y 7 all out aga91 & !re 0 ! faade ( ! ,libr>y1 & ! buttresses ( ,k+'s ,*apel1 look+ /a9$ & grey aga9/ a grey sky4 ,t ev5+1 ,paul _h an odd enc\nt]4 ,he _h se5 8 p to _! rooms1 &1 return+1 hesitat$ to r+ ! bell & ent] college4 ,x _h become a jolly night ( />s1 ) a fleet+ mi/ on ! riv]1 & he 0 go+ d[n = good ! v next day4 ,he ?\ght he w\ld walk ?r\gh ! old t[n = ! la/ "t1 9 ! ways he _h walk$ s _m times dur+ ! pa/ ?ree ye>s1 8 m9d 9 a :irl ( ?\ght4 ,s he /roll$ ov] ! bridge1 & d[n pa/ spectral ,/4 ,laur5ce's1 & r\nd ! corn] by port5t\s ,john's1 & s on to ,tr9ity4 ,& z he drew ne> to ,tr9ity1 ! s\nd ( bolts be+ )drawn 9 ! great gateway came to 8 e>s 9 ! /illness4 ,! door op5$1 & a tall figure em]g$4 ,good-night1 my "l1 said ! port]'s voice1 subs]vi5t1 def]5tial4 ,good-night1 repli$ ! o!r *e]fully1 & /rode briskly =w>d4 ,paul smil$ to himself4 ,:5 ! black-gait]$ figure came abrea/1 he1 too1 spoke4 ,good ev5+1 my "l1 he said4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,mozambique halt$ & />$ ?r\gh ! night at 8 int]locutor curi\sly4 ,good ev5+1 he said4 ,i fe> ,i don't recognise y4 ,naturally1 said ,paul4 ,d y rememb] a railway c>riage8 ,:at6 ,! sampl] ( ,keswick ,conv5tions & ,wesleyan--0 x8--,conf]5ces4 ,a r dogmatic & ass]tive "y man1 if ,i rememb] rightly4 ,( c\rse4 ,h[ are y8 ,v well1 ?anks4 ,i've /ay$ up to take my degree4 ,good4 ,congratulations4 ,:at class did y get8 ,paul told him4 ,spl5did1 said ! o!r1 look+ d[n m closely4 ,& n[ :at's ! next move8 ,h y made up y\r m9d yet8 ,h['s ,fa!r ,vassall8 ,paul 0 wide awake & 9 a /ate ( m5tal exaltation4 ,! o!r's voice 0 k9dly & *e]ful1 & someh[ invit$ confid5ces4 ,he ?\ght rapidly1 t1 aft] all1 "h 0 an advis] to h& ^: po9t ( view w\ld be int]e/+ he>+4 ,probably !y w\ld nev] meet aga91 & in/9ctively he knew t ?is big1 almo/ boyi% bi%op w\ld sp>e him five m9utes & respect 8 confession4 ,moreov]1 ?\gh ! ,bi%op ( ,mozambique c\ld h>dly be said to be 9 any way repres5tative ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 at any rate he 0 an ,anglican bi%op ) au?ority & ,paul 0 /ill ( 8 communion4 ,x 0 a rapid & impulsive decision1 b once made1 he act$ imm$iately ^u x4 ,are y 9 a hurry8 he ask$4 ,n p>ticul>ly1 said ! ,bi%op1 b ,i'm lodg+ at ,selwyn & mu/ get back pretty soon4 ,may ,i walk up ) y8 ,i want$ a /roll4 ,x's my la/ ,cambridge night1 & x w\ld be jolly ?r\gh ! ,backs4 ,delight$4 ,%all we get on8 ,!y pac$ (f toge!r1 a few /eps 9 sil5ce4 ,!n ,paul expla9$4 ,i've decid$ :at to d1 tempor>ily at lea/4 ,x doesn't matt] :at j n[1 b x means a rejection ( ,ord]s1 = a "t at any rate1 & also ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,n[ ,i came to t conclusion at ,fa!r ,vassall's h\se d[n at ,?urloe ,end la/ vac41 b x has tr\bl$ me1 m or less1 ev] s9ce4 ,i've he>d sev]al op9ions ^u x1 none ( :i* agree ) my own1 & ,i'd v mu* l y\rs4 ,y see1 y're ! only bi%op ,i "k1 &--&--y're ,*ur* ( ,engl& too4 ,! big man laugh$4 ,excell5t1 he said4 ',i'm ,*ur* ( ,engl& too4' ,well1 well4444 ,b ,i suppose ,i am1 & if ,i c d any?+ ,i'll be delight$4 ,n p>ticul>ly = t reason ?\gh4 ,paul s5s$ hum\r1 b he c\ld n see x4 ,! o!r's voice1 h[ev]1 0 v fri5dly4 ,& :5 ! ,bi%op ?ru/ 8 h& into 8 arm & bade him get on ) x1 he did s4 ,once m aga91 !n1 ?is "t "u ! %ad[y high trees1 z !y pac$ 9 ! sc5t$ d>k pa/ ,fell[s' g>d5s & placid sleep+ lawns1 ,paul told ( 8 conflict 9 ! little *apel4 ,! ,bi%op he>d him v gravely4 ,he ask$ a "q or two z ! /ory 0 told1 b = ! mo/ "p he>d 9 sil5ce4 ,& :5 ! boy f9i%$1 !y walk$ a good hundr$ y>ds be=e he spoke4 ,!n1 look+ /raight be=e him1 weightily1 g5tly1 he deliv]$ 8 v]dict4 ,ke/]n1 he said1 ,i w tell y :at ,i ?9k1 & ,i am pretty sure ( x because1 ?\gh ,i've se5 s little ( y1 ,i feel fairly sure ( y4 ,i believe y love our ,"l ) all y\r he>t4 ,i believe y wi% to s]ve ,him4 ,& !re=e ,i c tell y :at ,i ?9k ( t exp]i5ce 9 ! *apel4 ,paul said no?+4 ,p]haps ! o!r wait$ = him to speak1 p]haps he did n4 ,at any rate1 at la/ he spoke aga94 ,indirectly he pass$ 8 judgm5t4 ',he %all give ,8 angels *>ge conc]n+ !e'1 he quot$1 'to keep !e 9 all ?y ways4' ,& once m ,paul c\ld n believe 8 e>s4 ,9 sil5ce ! two f9i%$ _! walk4 ,!y /ood = a few m9utes outside ( ,selwyn ,lodge1 ! tall big man look+ into ! boy's face ) oddly tr\bl$ eyes4 ,b---- he said at la/4 ,he broke (f abruptly4 ,i won't say x1 he said4 ,x's n my job4 ,y've ask$ me "o ?+1 & giv5 me "o confid5ce2 ,i c say no m4 ,y mu/ settle y\r own life4 ,t's :at ,fa!r ,vassall says1 put 9 ,paul4 ,! o!r nodd$4 ,he kn[s1 ( c\rse1 he said1 z "o pr(essional might speak ( ano!r4 ,b look "h3 we c\ld d ) y 9 ,mozambique if y c>e to come4 ,paul 0 int]iorly %ak5 by t m ?an a little4 ,x 0 s sudd54 ,9 a fla%1 he saw a pa? be=e 8 feet4 ,a cl]gyman1 a mission>y2 n q z he _h imag9$1 b suppose ! ,bi%op1 aft] all1 7 "r8 ,ca?olicism )\t ! ,pope1 ,ca?olicism 9 a s5se ) a k9dli]1 less def9ite cross4 ,=dham sudd5ly m5ac$ him4 ,:at if x meant1 well1 well--betrayal1 a clev]ly hid1 intrigu+1 attractive s*eme1 b betrayal4 ,he hesitat$4 ,?9k x ov]1 said ! ,bi%op4 ,he did n1 c\ld n "k1 ( c\rse1 b ! ^w tipp$ ! scale4 ,?9k6 ,paul _h ?\ght till he c\ld ?9k no m4 ,= a :ile he 0 done ) ?\ght4 ,=dham meant a ye>'s re/1 a ye>'s solace4 ,?ank y ev] s mu*1 he said4 ,i won't =get x4 ,& ?anks awfully = he>+ me4 ,b ,i'm book$ = a ye> at lea/4 ,good-bye4 ,good-bye1 said ! ,bi%op4 ,god bless y4 ,paul walk$ (f to ,/4 ,m>y's alone1 if a man :o walks ) a ?\s& fe>s1 d\bts1 desires1 hopes & loves legion$ 9 8 he>t1 ev] walks alone4 ,9 ! morn+ he breakfa/$ ) ,mann+4 ,8 fri5d 0 en?usia/ic ov] ! possibility ( ,=dham1 & utt]ly & :olly delight$4 ,he himself1 hav+ sp5t a f\r? ye> 9 rese>* "w1 0 (f to ,c5tral ,africa 9 ,septemb] to %oot big game & incid5tally /udy tropical m$ic9e1 b he w\ld see ,paul at ! ,manor be=e he w5t4 ,he 0 an odd mixture1 & ,paul r envi$ him4 ,money1 or ! lack ( x1 did n hamp] him2 9 8 own subject1 he 0 di/9ctly brilliant2 yet 8 sci5ce 0 a play?+ 9 8 life4 ,he did n sit lightly to ! s]i\s subjects t worri$ ,paul1 b he rode !m on ! curb ) easy ma/]y4 ,paul 0 increas+ly aw>e t he want$1 n[adays1 to talk to ,mann+4 ,?us1 !n1 t ! second po/ & n ! fir/ br\ght him 8 lett]1 matt]$ n a little--p]haps4 ,,my ,,de> 7,fa!r ,vassall wrote71 ,i'll be q hone/2 ,i don't l x4 ,x seems to me t y are go+ d[n to ,=dham z ,jonah took %ip = ,t>%i%4 ,god grant !re's a /orm--& a :ale6 ,i %all pray = x anyway1 s look out4 ,( c\rse1 aft] y\r visit "h1 ,i've no "r to judge1 = ,i believe y did n play tricks4 ,b x beats me4444 ,hone/ly1 ,i'd r1 f> r1 he> t y 7 go+ to be a ,,prote/ant ,,cl]gyman6 ,h[ev]1 ,i'm "h if y want me4 ,paul1 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,ke/]n1 ,mr4 ,erne/ & ,madel9e caught ! #aa4bj to t[n4 ,!y 7 all a bit subdu$1 especially ,madel9e4 ,,*apt] ,,ix ,,=dham ,foot aft] foot ye g back & travail & make y\rselves mad2 ,bl9d feet t feel = ! track :]e highway is none to be _h4 ,!re=e ! ,god t ye make y is griev\s1 & gives n aid1 ,because x is b = y\r sake t ! ,god ( y\r mak+ is made4 99 99 99 99 99 ,cry out1 = 8 k+dom is %ak52 cry out1 = ! p blaspheme2 ,cry al\d till 8 godhead awak52 :at do? he to sleep & to dream8 ,is n ?is ! great ,god ( y\r sires1 t ) s\ls & ) bodies 0 f$1 ,& ! _w 0 on flame ) 8 fires8 ,o fools1 he 0 ,god1 & is dead4 ,,alg]non ,,*>les ,,sw9burne3 ,hymn ( ,man4 ,le sil5ce t]nel de ces espaces inf9is m'effraie4--,,pascal3 ,p5ses4 ,& t inv]t$ ,b[l we call ! ,sky1 ,:]eund] crawl+ coop't we live & die1 ,lift n ?y h&s to ,x = help--= ,x ,rolls impot5tly on z ,?\ or ,i4 ,,om> ,,khayy,m4 7#a7 ,ursula ,mann+ />$ out at ! rods ( ra94 ,*anctonbury ,r+ 0 all b blott$ out2 %e c\ld j see ! cr[n ( bee*es :5 ! mi/s 7 bl[n aside = a few mom5ts1 & t 0 all4 ,! woods bel[ /ood heavy & motionless1 & ! fields betwe5 !m & ! cottage lay /ret*$ out1 dr9k+ x 94 ,x _h be5 a hot dry summ]1 & ! :ole _w 0 rejoic+ 9 ! ra94 ,t decid$ ,ursula4 ,%e turn$ back into ! b$room1 op5$ a w>drobe1 & took out an old twe$ skirt & jump]4 ,!n %e took (f mo/ ( h] clo!s & assum$ ^!4 ,%e let d[n h] hair1 twi/$ x into a long black plait1 ti$ x firmly1 & swung ! heavy mass ov] h] %\ld] ) a defiant j]k4 ,!n1 b>ehead$1 %e w5t d[n/airs humm+ a little song1 & select$ a /ick 9 ! hall4 ,%e look$ ab\t eighte51 dress$ s4 ,h] "m came out ( ! sitt+-room4 ,ursula1 %e cri$1 y're n go+ out6 ,yes1 "m1 ,i am4 ,:y n8 ,! ra9's heav5ly1 & ! woods h spread out _! h&s to x4 ,& ,i want to get soak$4 ,! eld] lady /ood irresolute1 a ludicr\s expression ( dismay 9 h] face4 ,! girl look$ at h] & laugh$4 ,oh1 "m1 %e cri$1 say x if x's any help6 ,mrs4 ,mann+1 at t1 smil$ ruefully4 ,ursula1 %e said1 x's all v well1 b y are try+4 ,y'll probably cat* y\r dea? ( cold4 ,ursula op5$ ! door & /epp$ into ! por*4 ,%e look$ up into ! lead5 sky & d[n at ! runnels ( wat] on ei!r side ( ! little g>d5 pa? to ! gate4 ,!n %e glanc$ back at h] "m1 smil$ at h]1 wav$ h] h&1 & /epp$ into ! d[np\r )\t a ^w4 ,h] "m gave a little scream4 ,ursula6 ,:]e's y\r mac48 ,! muffl$ click ( ! lat* at ! gate answ]$ h]4 ,x op5$ into a little lane t ran d[n on ! left to a ma9 road & up on ! "r t[>ds ! woods bel[ ,*anctonbury4 ,up ?is !n1 %e w5t1 sw++ h] /ick1 sw++ out4 ,! ra9 fell /eadily ar\nd & ^u h]1 & ev] & aga9 %e lift$ h] face to x & smil$ sl[ly to h]self at ! kiss & /+ ( x4 ,9 a little ! w9d+ track became a m]e footpa? & deb\*$ into an old *alk-qu>ry1 cut f ! side ( ! hill1 fr+$ ) imm5se bee*-trees & an occasional oak4 ,! girl ran a few /eps up a sodd5 l[ bank & /ood = a mom5t look+ d[n into ! great b[l4 ,a cont9ual patt] & s\gh ( ra9 came up to h]1 ?\gh "h1 "u ! giant trees1 less ( ! actual d[np\r rea*$ h]4 ,! :ite *alk %one ?r\gh ! mi/y air4 ,a m9iature torr5t p\r$ z a little wat]fall ov] ! f> br9k & spla%$ bel[ on to bu%es & brambles4 ,a w>m1 ri*1 wet fragrance rose all ab\t h]1 & e liv+ gre5 ?+ seem$ /ret*$ out & motionless 9 an utt] ec/asy ( enjoym5t4 ,! girl drew a deep brea?4 ,unconsci\sly1 %e 0 regi/]+ x all4 ,all ! grey monotones1 all ! myriad little drips & spla%+s1 all ! wa%$ leaves & grasses ar\nd & und]foot1 & all ! tall uprea*+ br[n trunks t rose aga9/ ! teem+ sky1 7 impress+ !mselves ^u h] m9d4 ,%e knew x z an in/9ct & /ood !re to miss no?+4 ,& "o day ,ursula ,mann+ w\ld pa9t j su* a picture1 & p w\ld wond] h[ %e did x1 & ! critics talk ( h] unique gift4 ,b at ! qu>ry %e turn$ to ! left4 ,! high soak$ grasses rea*$ to h] knees2 la/ ye>'s litt] ( leaves clung to h] feet2 sprays ( bramble clut*$ at h] %ort skirt2 b %e mov$ sl[ly & p]si/5tly on4 ,h] eyes1 t look$ at y always )\t a tremor1 glanc$ quietly "r & left z %e w5t4 ,by field-pa? & coppice1 & n[ 9 a sunk5 lane t skirt$ an old wall beh9d :i* rose ,=dham ,manor1 %e made h] way4 ,%e 0 dr5*$ ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 b x 0 w>m ra91 & besides ! ex]cise kept h] w>m4 ,! pores ( h] sk91 l ^? ( ! woods & ! plants1 op5$ to ! joy\s quick5+ b5ison ( x4 ,ra9 dripp$ f h] plait$ hair & %one on h] face4 ,& /ill %e mov$ /eadily ?r\gh x1 ) ! erect c>riage & pr\d sw+ ( h]1 & ^? resolute eag] eyes4 ,j pa/ ! old wall1 :]e x turns to run up to ! coa*-h\se & /ables & b>ns aga9/ :i* fruitful anci5t fig-trees gr[1 %e cross$ a field diagonally to h] left4 ,its b\nd>y h$ge 0 ?ick & %e mov$ along to ! "r seek+ an op5+4 ,n until %e 0 all b at ! corn] did %e f9d x1 & !re1 pu%+ back a tangle ( old man's be>d & bryony1 %e leapt ?r\gh & out on to ! c>riage-drive runn+ by ! p>k up to ! h\se4 ,& j !n a c> turn$ ! corn] & swept pa/ h]4 ,!re 7 ?ree m5 9 x besides ! driv]4 ,"o sat next him1 8 hat pull$ d[n1 muffl$ 9 an ov]coat1 b %e knew him4 ,( ! o!rs1 "o turn$ & wav$ *e]fully ov] ! back z ! c> w5t on4 ,%e knew him1 too1 j z %e knew t he 0 arriv+ t day to /ay ) ,mr4 ,tressor4 ,! ?ird man %e did n "k4 ,%e smil$ sudd5ly to h]self4 ,x 0 pla9 !y _h be5 caught 9 ! op5 c> by ! sudd5 /orm1 driv+ up f ,brighton probably4 ,:at fun6 ,h] c\s9 hat$ ra94 ,mann+ turn$ back to ,paul4 ,my c\s9 ,ursula1 he said4 ,%e lives j "h1 :5 %e's n 9 t[n4 ,possibly y "k ! "n4 ,%e pa9ts1 & has r a gr[+ reputation4 ,oh1 said ,paul4 ,:at 9 ! _w 0 %e do+ out 9 ?is !n8 ,%e look$ dr[n$4 ,i "k4 ,%e loves t sort ( ?+4 ,i wond] :at y'll ?9k ( h]1 ,paul4 ,:y8 ,i don't "k4 ,%e's r unusual4 ,n y\r sort at all ,i %\ld imag9e4 ,b--well1 ,i don't "k4 ,x w be r amus+ to see4 7#b7 ,ursula w5t on d[n ! drive1 h] ?\ghts idle1 h] appreciation vivid4 ,arriv$ 9 ! macadamis$ road ( civilisation1 %e foll[$ x )\t giv+ a ?\ght to ! fact t girls1 soak$ to ! sk91 hatless b happy1 are r>eties along ev5 c\ntry roads4 ,! surface _h be5 rapidly s(t5+ "u ! d[np\r1 b little %e c>$ = t ei!r4 ,blackb]ries gleam$ sc>let1 purple1 black 9 e h$ge2 ?ru%es1 9 ! n[ g5tle ra91 7 already out on ! w>-pa? = worms2 & ! sweep ( ! ,s\? ,d[ns on h] "r 0 visible ?r\gh ! dripp+ trees4 ,ursula began to s+ to h]self z %e w5t1 break+ (f to nod fri5dlily to a c>t] :o knew h]1 & pick+ up h] song aga9 )\t tr\bl+ :e!r or n he 0 out ( e>%ot4 ,t 0 h] way4 ,%e _h always se5 cle>ly & scorn$ muddle-head$ conv5tionalities2 at fir/1 :ile h] fa!r liv$ & %e 0 /ill 9 h] te5s1 ) a c]ta9 submission to au?ority1 b s9ce1 aft] h] tw5ty-fir/ bir?day1 q op5ly & frankly4 ,h] "m1 :o nev] _h _h mu* ( a w ( h] own1 gave 9 to h] daught] z %e _h to h] husb&4 ,?us1 at ,ursula's sugge/ion1 !y _h tak5 ! old cottage "u ,*anctonbury on ! edge1 b actually "p (1 ,mr4 ,tressor's e/ate1 & ,mrs4 ,mann+ _h be5 =c$ to admit ! advantage ( ! *ange f ! big e/abli%m5t :i* ,mr4 ,mann+ _h ma9ta9$ z befitt$ a bank+ magnate4 ,!n1 a r lonely aunt com+ to live ) !m1 ! girl _h ann\nc$ h] int5tion ( hav+ a flat & /udio 9 t[n1 & s9ce %e _h h] own money & moreov] made m1 no?+ 9 ! _w 0 able to prev5t h]4 ,%e came & w5t n[ betwe5 ! two1 ) int]vals ( w&]+ abroad4 ,%e _h a big circle ( h] own acqua9tances ( :om h] "m knew little1 *iefly h[ev]1 x mu/ be confess$1 because %e did n und]/& m ?an ab\t a ?ird ( :at !y said & did :5 !y came d[n to ,sussex ) h] daught]2 b %e _h only a few fri5ds4 ,^! h] "m knew less ?an ! re/1 reta9+ en\gh _s to av[ def9itely t %e did n want to "k !m4 ,!y pr(ess$ views & took "p 9 movem5ts :i* 71 frankly1 beyond tol]ation4 ,!re 0 ,muriel ,li/]1 = example1 :o prea*$ 9 *ur*es & actually l$ a campaign = ! admission ( wom5 to ! prie/hood4 ,yet ,ursula h]self took active "p 9 no movem5ts or campaigns4 ,on acc\nt ( ?is x 0 p]haps odd t ! lead]s ( !m %\ld be h] fri5ds4 ,b !n a subtle reason und]lay t4 ,= ,ursula 0 r a good p]son to talk to1 & a v good p]son to h c(fee ) by night 9 h] /udio aft] ! fatigue ( committees1 incl9$1 z is ! way ( committees1 to be a little heavy 9 h&4 ,%e 0 sympa!tic1 und]/&+1 entirely capable ( giv+ an op9ion1 b %e did n say mu*4 ,also %e 0 clean-h&$1 s to speak4 ,x 0 a little irritat+1 possibly1 at times1 t %e 0 s resolutely unimpassion$ :5 a reaction>y bi%op insult$ wom5 or m9i/]s took back by "s ,civil ,s]vice ,regulation :at ! ,removal ( ,sex ,disabilities ,act _h giv54 ,b "o knew x 0 ,ursula4 ,& "o knew1 moreov]1 t at a crisis nei!r bi%op nor m9i/]s matt]$ to h] a toss ( h] pres5t ra9-soak$ plait4 ,= ,ursula1 ) h] quiet1 good-hum\r$ resolution & h] unque/ion$ art1 n only saw life f an enviable angle1 b quietly act$ z if t 7 ! only "o f :i* x %\ld be se5 by reasonable p4 ,h] c\s9 _h once said ( h] t %e press$ t[>ds ! goal ) apo/olic conviction4 ,n t x 0 a :olly good def9ition because1 unlike ! apo/le1 %e tri$ to make no proselytes1 see+ ! _w ab\t h] z a v lovely satisfy+ ?+ ) :i* %e 0 cont5t to be satisfi$4 ,con/itutionally1 & f environm5t1 no lo/ cause _h z yet come vividly h] way4 ,two days lat] %e 0 introduc$ to ,paul4 ,mann+ & he 7 do+ ! r\nd ( ! p>k1 ,mann+ ) a gun "u 8 arm1 ,paul1 metaphorically1 ) a p5cil 9 8 h&4 ,9 o!r words1 he 0 realis+ :at a lovely place x 04 ,! wide sweeps ( grass1 ! clumps ( trees1 ! views ( ! ,d[ns1 & ! utt] quiet ( ?is little ,sussex backwat] 7 already ex]cis+ _! magic ^u him4 ,! two ( !m _h come along ! nor!rn b\nd>y ( ! e/ate & 7 n[ skirt+ ! lake4 ,x 0 a wild ov]gr[n place1 ) no?+ =mal ab\t x1 a big irregul> %eet ( wat] ) a tangle ( we$s & lilies at "o end & a regim5t ( great elms clos+ x 94 ,an av5ue ( limes l$ f x to ! h\se1 an odd av5ue t only appe>$ z an av5ue :5 y came ^u its entrance1 sudd5ly1 9 ! middle ( grassy p>k-l&4 ,?us x />t$ n[h]e 9 p>ticul>1 &1 f a di/ance1 _h no p>ticul> object1 s9ce ! wat] itself lay l[ at ! f> end ( x beh9d a rais$ bank4 ,paul already lov$ t4 ,y w&]$ d[n f ! g>d5 & saw1 sudd5ly1 ! gre5 gu>d$ road ( x runn+ away into ! p>k4 ,intrigu$1 y ent]$1 & saunt]$ c>elessly up x4 ,!n1 at q a long la/1 y climb$ ! slope ( ! bank & sudd5ly saw be=e y ?is /ill en*ant$ refuge :]e ! fi% leap$ 9 ! ga!r+ dusk & :ite swans sail$ fri5dlily up 9 ! heat ( ! sun4 ,"h & !re a fall5 trunk lay half 9 & half out ( ! wat]4 ,9 places !re 0 no com+ at ! br9k = =e/s ( re$s4 ,b1 at its deepe/ corn]1 a promontory ( hazels t 0 almo/ an isl&1 ?ru/ out into its s]5ity4 ,! fri5ds leap$ f /one to tussock & tussock to log & l&$4 ,a sugge/ion ( a pa? l$ !m ?r\gh ! few y>ds ( und]gr[?4 ,& !re1 hidd5 by a scre5 ( gre51 ) ! wat] at h] feet1 sat ,ursula on ! flat pr[ ( a punt4 ,%e 0 mak+ a little wat]-col\r1 palette 9 "o h&1 bru% 9 ! o!r1 a little impressioni/ /udy ( a p9e t /ood by himself on ! bank opposite1 8 br[n roots rea*+ d[n into ! lake4 ,hullo1 ,ursula1 said ,mann+1 we didn't see y4 ,let me introduce ,paul ,ke/]n4 ,he's go+ to be a ne> neighb\r1 s y've got to "k him4 ,! girl look$ up b did n move4 ,paul f\nd himself />+ across a t9y /rip ( wat] into cle> br[n eyes1 a pale oval face1 & a frame ( black hair1 all set on a tall pill> ( :ite ?roat & neck4 ,%e 0 we>+ a brilliant yell[ jump]1 )\t adornm5t1 & a %ort blue skirt4 ,%e 0 long-limb$1 & he realis$ vaguely t h] :ite b>e arms & black /ock+$ legs 7 %apely & lissom & good to see4 ,h[ d y d1 he said prop]ly4 ,i've se5 y be=e some:]e1 %e repli$4 ,paul 0 puzzl$4 ,he %ot a glance at ,mann+1 b he 0 fiddl+ unconc]n$ly ) 8 gun4 ,left to 8 own res\rces1 he cont9u$ to be polite4 ,x's awfully rude ( me1 he said1 b ,i'm afraid ,i don't rememb]4 ,nei!r d ,i1 %e said4 ,he smil$4 ,s did %e4 ,let's call x quits1 he sugge/$4 ,i'm afraid ,i mu/1 b ,i %all hope to rememb] yet1 %e retort$ :imsically4 ,possibly x 0 at ,cambridge1 sugge/$ ,paul4 ,r n1 put 9 ,mann+1 re/or+ 8 piece to 8 arm1 ,ursula nev] comes to see me4 ,( c\rse n1 %e return$ equably1 :y %\ld ,i8 ,mann+ laugh$4 ,!y 7 good fri5ds1 ^! two4 ,:y1 inde$1 he said1 b y ne$n't rub x 94 ,& y might be s nice z to come & h d9n] 9 ! imm$iate future & make up a f\r at bridge4 ,y mu/ fir/1 %e said1 extract a nice note ( invitation f ,mr4 ,tressor1 & x mu/ include "m & auntie4 ,9 addition y mu/ call ^u u4 ,call ?is aft]noon1 & br+ ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,meantime y're j a little bit ( a nuisance at ! mom5t4 ,i want to pa9t4 ,ke/]n's a poet1 rem>k$ ,mann+ gravely4 ,! girl nodd$4 ',leaves 9 ,autumn1' %e said4 ,paul flu%$4 ,y've read x8 he cri$ excit$ly4 ,%e smil$ sl[ly4 ,i've ev5 pa9t$ x1 %e said4 ,:at8 ,pa9t$ x4 ,t is1 !re 0 "o poem especially ,i c\ldn't =get4 ,i saw x r vividly4 ,oh1 said ,paul1 ) a deep brea?4 ,someh[ ! fact t %e knew ( 8 "w & _h appreciat$ x to t ext5t1 seem$ to him ! bigge/ praise t he _h _h yet4 ,he c\ld n take 8 eyes (f h]4 ,:i* "o8 he ask$ at la/4 ,%e consid]$ him a mom5t ,!n3 ,i'll %[ y ! sket*1 %e said1 & y %all guess :i* x is meant to illu/rate4 ,%e got up z %e spoke & turn$ r\nd = a case t lay beh9d h] 9 ! punt4 ,oh1 d1 cri$ ,paul1 />t+ =w>d4 ,mann+ laugh$4 ,%e's n got x !re1 he said4 ,some?+ 9 8 tone--a fa9t trace ( mock]y1 x seem$ to ,paul--/ruck !m bo?4 ,paul look$ guilty ( fooli%ness & ! girl /ood arre/$4 ,!y bo? ( !m look$ at ,mann+4 ,t in/ant pose rema9$ ) ,paul long aft]w>ds z ! key-note ( _! meet+4 ,x 0 symbolic1 someh[1 z if ,mann+ w\ld always be fa9tly contemptu\s ( !m4 ,b :y1 ! boy _h no idea4 ,well1 said ,ursula1 & %e spoke s soon t x 0 z if !re _h be5 no pause1 ,i h n1 x is true4 ,i 0 only go+ to pack up because ,i c pa9t no m j n[1 ?anks to y1 ,arnold1 y old rott]4 ,b ,i w d m n[4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 w y walk back ) me1 & see y\r picture8 ,may ,i8 ask$ ,paul eag]ly4 ,mann+ ?ru/ 8 h& into 8 arm4 ,:at ab\t ! ,mill cottage8 he ask$ bant]+ly4 ,oh1 ,i clean =got1 said ,paul1 & hesitat$4 ,8 fri5d laugh$4 ,good ,"l1 ,paul1 he said1 a pretty sort ( an ag5t y'll make6 ,i 0 tak+ him to see 8 fir/ job1 he expla9$4 ,old ,morley wants a new ro(1 or some?+ ( t sort4 ,b1 ( c\rse1 x doesn't matt]4 ,i 0 only rott+4 ,we'll walk up ) y1 ,ursula4 ,t'll be ! call1 & on my own responsibility ,i'll invite y & my de> aunt 9 to bridge aft] d9n] ?is v day4 ,s he's go+ to be ,mr4 ,tressor's ag5t1 said ,ursula1 busy ov] h] pa9t+ mat]ials4 ,well1 said ,paul hone/ly & a little awkw>dly1 x's only an excuse1 ,i fe>4 ,paul's to prove himself a poet1 said ,mann+1 & incid5tally to settle ! !ory & cont5t ( revelation4 ,p]haps y'll help him4 ,p]haps1 said ! girl s]5ely4 ,i hope s4 ,!y /roll$ back toge!r1 ,mann+ 9 ! middle1 & x 0 ,mann+ :o did mo/ ( ! talk+4 ,he *att$ on1 occasionally ask+ a "q1 b = ! mo/ "p tak+ x = grant$1 app>5tly f exp]i5ce1 t ,ursula w\ld li/5 r ?an speak4 ,paul1 too1 0 n mu* includ$ 9 ! conv]sation1 :i* conc]n$ ! ,mann+ family & _! fri5ds & ! girl's "w4 ,?us he ga!r$ f ! bant]+ talk a good deal conc]n+ h] life "h & 9 ,london1 h] art & h] fri5ds4 ,x int]e/$ him pr(\ndly4 ,%e 0 a new type altoge!r 9 8 exp]i5ce1 "o ( :i* he _h he>d rum\rs1 s to speak1 at ,claxt$ 7:]e su* /range go+s-on 7 occasionally m5tion$ ) sc&alis$ horror71 b :i* "o w\ld equally fail to f9d at ,?urloe ,end or ,/4 ,m>y's4 ,glanc+ pa/ 8 fri5d f "t to "t1 he wat*$ h] face4 ,%e turn$ h] head b little1 walk+ /eadily & sil5tly =w>d4 ,b he notic$ h[ %e kept h] eyes up1 & h[ %e _h a trick ( />+ at a tree or a cl\d or a bea/ 9 ! lu% pa/ure ) a k9d ( untr\bl$ wond]4 ,x 0 easy to und]/& t "h 0 an arti/4 ,!y came !n to ! cottage & ,paul 0 introduc$ to ! "m & aunt4 ,ursula /ood by :ile ! usual ?+s 7 said1 & !n turn$ to him4 ,n[1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 %e said1 w y come ?is way8 ,h] "m glanc$ up1 b said no?+1 & ,paul1 s9ce no "o else mov$1 foll[$ h] alone4 ,%e l$ ! way up/airs & into a room ov] ! por*1 ! room f :i* %e _h wat*$ ! ra94 ,x 0 big & airy & light1 half /udio & half b$room4 ,! b$ itself /ood 9 an alcove1 curta9$ ) a vivid cretonne1 blue 9 ! ma91 on :i* riot$ a bold design ( orange & yell[ & sc>let fruit1 ) apple-blossom & leaves4 ,! curta9 0 half drawn1 & ! /ill ,puritan ,paul felt a little t he ought n to look t way4 ,ursula1 q obvi\sly _h no su* views at all1 = %e cross$ ! room to ! alcove1 pull$ ! curta9 yet fur!r back1 & s\ght = a portfolio t lay 9 a little recess ne> ! head ( ! b$4 ,paul /ood hesitat+ly4 ,he did n q "k :at to d4 ,! girl call$ to him ov] h] %\ld]4 ,sit d[n1 w y1 %e said1 any:]e4 ,he walk$ ov] to a c\* by ! w9d[ & sat d[n1 look+ out ov] ! gay g>d5 to ! ,d[ns4 ,hollyhocks m>*$ z an army ) bann]s 9 a b$ b5ea? ! w9d[4 ,*anctonbury's cr[n1 cle> & bright 9 ! sunlight to-day1 rose into ! pale blue sky above4 ,:at a glori\s w9d[-seat1 he said1 ) a little note ( cont5t 9 8 voice4 ,%e ?rew him a glance1 b did n speak4 ,%e 0 se>*+ ?r\gh ! portfolio4 ,i ?9k1 obs]v$ ,paul m$itatively1 ,i'm ! luckie/ man alive to get a *ance ( a ye> "h4 ,yes8 ,i c't make up my m9d :at to d1 y see1 he said4 ,i %\ld h ?\ght !re 0 absolutely no d\bt4 ,no8 qu]i$ ,paul 9 g5u9e a/oni%m5t4 ,( c\rse n4 ,y've got to write great poetry4 ,i've also got to live1 said ,paul1 ) a flick] ( a smile4 ,naturally4 ,:at ab\t x8 ,well1 ,i've got to e>n money4 ,ursula f\nd :at %e 0 look+ =4 ,"h x is1 %e said1 com+ ov] to him4 ,& !n1 c>ry+ on ! conv]sation3 ,i ?9k ^? ( u :o c see & express ?+s1 ought to ?9k fir/ ( t1 %e said4 ,aft] all1 "o lives someh[4 ,b ,paul h>dly he>d4 ,he 0 />+ at ! little picture1 & 0 v sil5t4 ,%e broke ! sil5ce4 ,well1 c y guess ! poem8 %e dem&$4 ',sp5t1' he :isp]$1 half to himself4 ,h] sil5ce told him he 0 correct4 ,x 0 ! %ort ?+1 s9ce !n slightly r5am$ & improv$1 t ,tressor _h1 ( all he _h writt51 prais$ sup]latively4 ,( all he _h writt51 b1 z he look$ at ?is1 a/oni%m5t well$ up 9 him4 ,b ?is is n :at ,i wrote1 he said4 ,x 0 a picture ( dull-r$ angry sunset tones ov] a b>e /ony pla9 & a dimly-outl9$ ragg$ track4 ,a solit>y figure ( a man lay !re1 j z he _h /umbl$ =w>d & fall5 at ! la/ /ep4 ,! light gl[$ on 8 sunburnt nude back1 8 face 9 %ad[2 & on "o o!r object1 =1 "s %ort way beyond him1 0 a dimly-se5 ru9$ %r9e1 ) ! /atue ( a god1 half ov]?r[n4 ,! /one effigy reel$ insecurely aga9/ a brok5 pill>1 & ! gl[ ( ! dy+ sun caught on its upca/ face4 ,! girl _h copi$ "s ,greek ma/]piece1 & !re1 9 t lone wa/e1 z if to mock ! beat5 human figure1 a regul>1 p]fect1 immobile br[ & eyes & nose & lips turn$ upw>ds to ! sky4 ,9 ! fall5 man 0 life1 beat5 & despair+1 b life2 9 ! fall5 god 0 dea?1 s]5e & lovely1 b dea?4 ,?is is n :at ,i wrote1 repeat$ ,paul aga94 ,b y in/antly nam$ x4 ,x alone1 ( ! pieces 9 ! book1 fitt$ at all1 he said4 ,i suspect t 0 n all4 ,i %\ld n be 9 ! lea/ surpris$ if y _h m 9 y\r m9d ?an y knew4 ,anyway1 y\r sp5t day /ruck me s4 ,paul />t$1 & look$ at h] almo/ ) awe4 ,he saw x all s pla9ly4 ,he _h sat d[n to write "o ev5+ aft] a dull heavy day :5 all ! gr[+ d\bt & despair 9 8 s\l _h be5 surg+ ar\nd him4 ,he _h writt5 ( a dy+ sun1 a b>r5 wa/e1 a we>i$ walk1 a lo/ hope2 yet he _h n se5 ?is--no1 no1 n ?is4 ,x 0 an ord9>y day1 said ,paul4 ,to y p]haps4 ,to me x meant a life4 ,b x's wrong ( life1 he said4 ,%e hesitat$4 ,speak+ g5]ally1 ,i agree1 %e answ]$1 b :y d y say s8 ,t fall5 god1 t empty temple1 he urg$1 sudd5ly1 almo/ passionately mov$1 he c\ld h>dly say :y4 ,i see4 ,%e 0 q delib]ate4 ,i rememb] :at ,arnold said4 ,y h /ill an idol 9 ! %r9e4 ,god1 said ,paul rev]5tly1 only ,he is no idol4 ,!re is no god1 said ,ursula4 ,if %e _h la%$ him ) a :ip1 he c\ld n h be5 m />tl$1 m outrag$4 ,!re1 9 t sunny w9d[1 look+ out ov] t gay g>d51 ?is attractive1 /rik+1 int]e/+ girl1 = ^: "w & ?\ght he _h already a y\?ful g5]\s impulse1 _h sudd5ly blasphem$4 ,& %e _h done x s coolly1 s unemotionally4 ,!re is no god1 %e _h said1 exactly z if %e _h pass$ a deta*$ criticism on art or v]se4 ,& yet no r++ affirmation1 no dogmatic ass]tion to equal h]s1 sprang to 8 lips4 ,conflict & pa9 _h done m 9 8 he>t ?an he _h guess$4 ,oh1 !re mu/ be1 !re mu/ be6 0 all t he c\ld cry1 z if he hop$ aga9/ hope4 ,ursula took ! picture f 8 h& & _! eyes met4 ,ev5 9 8 di/ress1 he saw ! miracle4 ,h]s 7 utt]ly s]5e4 ,he knew 8 own to be in*oate1 baffl$1 griev$4 ,& yet 9 h] s]5ity1 too1 0 a t\* ( k9dl9ess1 & a k9d ( deep wond] ( und]/&+ z if1 despite h] empty heav51 %e look$ on my/]y4 ,some?+ deep d[n 9 him /irr$ be=e ^? eyes ( h]s4 ,he =got t he _h only kn[n h] half a morn+4 ,he =got t he 0 a man & a ,*ri/ian1 & %e 0 a girl & a hea!n4 ,& he =got entirely t x 0 ! fool :o said 9 8 he>t !re is no god4 ,oh1 he cri$1 y've no idea h[ d[n & out ,i am6 ,%e smil$ & put out h] h&4 ,i'll help1 %e said1 & ,i put x badly1 too1 j n[4 ,p]adv5ture !re is a god1 b1 y "k1 we don't "k ev5 8 ,"n &--&--he seems asleep4 ,!y 7 odd words1 he ?\ght vaguely1 b someh[ !re 0 t5d]ness & /r5g? hidd5 9 !m4 ,paul ,ke/]n knew sudd5ly h[ mu* he want$ bo?4 ,& s he rea*$ out1 too1 & put 8 h& into h]s4 7#c7 ,! impression ( ,ursula's p]sonality 0 inde$ /rong en\gh to veil ! full significance ( :at %e _h said = sev]al days4 ,9 "p1 moreov]1 ! influ5ce ( ,tressor & ,mann+1 & /ill m1 ! bus9ess ( adju/m5t to 8 new environm5t made = ?is4 ,paul always s5s$ ! atmosph]e ( h\ses & places 9 r a cat-l way1 w&]+ ab\t a little1 twi/+1 z x 71 9 ! new b$1 until x 0 famili> & fri5dly4 ,& ,=dham ,manor 0 s diff]5t f any o!r h\se 9 :i* he _h ev] /ay$1 let alone liv$1 t ! process took "t4 ,x 0 a v beautiful place1 ( m ?an "o date1 b ! front _h be5 :olly rebuilt 9 ! e>ly ,georgian p]iod1 :ile ! back _h be5 left ,jacobean4 ,! result 0 s+ul>ly arre/+4 ,/rong1 sev]e1 pla91 dignifi$1 yet n pomp\s & ov] heavy1 a circul> drive ran up to ! entrance hall4 ,on ei!r side equally mat*$ build+s--! s]vants' qu>t]s & ! l--pu%$ out1 ea* ) a little cupola & gables4 ,wide op5 high iron gates l$ to a gravell$ drive ) a balu/rade1 a slope1 & bel[ a big h]bace\s bord]4 ,bel[ t aga9 !re 0 a fur!r walk1 a l[ rail+1 & a full wide sweep ( p>k-l& :]e1 away to ! "r & b trees f "h1 ran ! av5ue4 ,b :5 "o skirt$ or pass$ "r ?r\gh ! h\se1 "o came out on a h]b g>d5 & box-trimm$ walks2 & f ! b$s ( rosem>y1 lav5d] & ?yme "o look$ back to ! sweet smil+ r$ brickwork & wide w9d[s ( ! e>li] build+1 ) an irregul> ro( & high dorm] w9d[s4 ,)91 ! h\se _h 9 fact _m faults4 ,! rooms 7 mu* too small = its size = "o ?+4 ,b :ile ?is w\ld h matt]$ to a family 9 resid5ce1 if any?+ x add$ to its suitability = ,tressor1 a ba*elor & only an occasional visitor4 ,besides !re 0 at lea/ "o feature :i* admirably fitt$ n[4 ,!re 0 a l>ge p>tially divid$ hall into :i* desc5d$ a wide dignifi$ /aircase4 ,?is hall p>ticul>ly pleas$ ,paul4 ,x 0 r a /ately obvi\s hall z "o ent]$ f ! front1 b "o skirt$ ! /airs1 & behold its aspect *ang$4 ,! big fireplace beh9d 0 ,jacobean4 ,!re 0 a bookcase full ( new books meant to be read4 ,!re 7 long l[ *airs & a pl5ty ( rugs & foot/ools4 ,& ! portraits 9 ! front portion gave way to a picture or two :i* he 0 beg9n+ to love4 ,"o 0 a ,dut* l&scape1 sombre1 my/]i\s1 & ! o!r pl\ghl&s & ?ree /rong horses t climb$ a ridge 9 a gale ( driv+ w9d4 ,! m5 7 already settl+ d[n4 ,!y met at breakfa/1 & !reaft] ,tressor dep>t$ to 8 /udy & 0 no m se5 till lun*4 ,mann+ & ,paul1 h[ev]1 gaily wa/$ half a morn+4 ,!y smok$ a pipe 9 ! g>d5s1 & pick$ up ! newspap]s 9 ! l\nge hall on _! way to "w aft]w>ds1 ,paul usually read+ or glanc+ ?r\gh any?+ he _h done ! day be=e4 ,9 ! aft]noon1 !y rode or motor$ or walk$1 f\nd tea wait+ !m on _! return1 & sep>at$ = a c\ple ( h\rs' m s]i\s go+ be=e ! dress+ bell4 ,9 ! ev5+ ?+s seem$ to fall out ) easy cont5t1 ?\gh ,tressor w\ld )draw to 8 /udy aga9 z (t5 z n4 ,x 0 all r leisur$ & easy4 ,express$ 9 col\r1 ,paul ?\ght ( ,claxt$ z hav+ none2 ( ,?urloe ,end z black & :ite & sc>let2 ( ,=dham z blue & old gold )9 & br[n & gre5 )\t4 ,z = duties1 z yet he _h none wor? ! m5tion4 ,old ,mrs4 ,bird1 ! h\sekeep]1 & he1 already lov$ ea* o!r4 ,x 0 obvi\s t %e propos$ to take *>ge ( him4 ,rid]1 :o comb9$ ! functions ( valet & butl] & *auffeur1 _h in/ructions to take ,paul ov] :5 ,tressor 0 away1 & seem$ gravely imp]turb$4 ,timo?y1 ! head g>d5] & an in/itution1 appe>$ actually prep>$ to tea* him a little2 & z = ! gamekeep]1 :o liv$ at ! lodge1 he talk$ dogs & horses ) ,mann+ by ! h\r1 & accept$ ,paul because he c\ld li/5 ) grave att5tion4 ,9 a ^w1 ! e/abli%m5t 0 pla9ly ready to accept him1 & he 01 z he %\ld h be51 pr(\ndly grateful4 ,x 0 ?us1 !n1 aft] a morn+ /roll1 :ile ,mann+ 0 p]functorily look+ ?r\gh ,! ,times1 t ,paul broa*$ ! agno/icism ( ,ursula4 ,! ladies _h d9$ at ! ,manor ! previ\s ev5+1 & %e _h sung4 ,paul _h _h no conv]sation out ( ! ord9>y ) h]1 & yet once aga9 ! /r5g? ( h] p]sonality _h impress$ him4 ,s n[1 z he /ood by ! c>v$ & decorat$ mantelpiece & look$ out ?r\gh ! op5 w9d[ to ! sunny g>d51 sniff+ ! fragrant sc5t ( h]bs & box t waft$ 91 ! girl 0 vividly 9 8 m9d4 ,arnold1 he said4 ,yes8 ,:at's up n[8 ,i say1 ,i l y\r c\s94 ,mann+ fold$ ! pap] c>elessly & toss$ x aside1 feel+ = 8 tobacco p\*4 ,i'm sure ,i'm v pleas$1 he said4 ,don't rag4 ,%e worries me4 ,i ?\ght y said y lik$ h]4 ,s ,i d1 b x is exactly t t worries me4 ,%e's an a!i/4 ,true4 ,x runs 9 ! family 9 ?is g5]ation4 ,a reaction p]haps4 ,h] fa!r 0 a *ur*w>d51 & h] "m likes ! vic> to call once a mon?4 ,paul %ift$ uneasily4 ,x isn't a subject = jok+ to me1 he said4 ,y "k t1 v well y "k x4 ,i may be 9 difficulties1 b ,i believe 9 ,god ) all my he>t4 ,mann+ lean$ back easily 9 8 *air & lit 8 pipe4 ,y ?9k y d1 he said1 betwe5 ! puffs4 ,paul r\nd$ on him eag]ly4 ,b ,i d1 he insi/$4 ,to be hone/1 x is an utt] my/]y to me h[ y d n4 ,i c't conceive ( x at all4 ,i "k we've nev] discuss$ ! po9t be=e--x hasn't seem$ to me wor? discussion1 ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 ,i mean--b ,i want to n[4 ,ahl ,& :y n[8 ,because1 impossible z x seems to me 9 y\r or anybody's case1 t y\r c\s9 %\ld say ',!re is no god' utt]ly /agg]s me4 ,:5 did %e say t8 ,paul told him4 ,he smok$ ?\ghtfully4 ,humph1 he said at la/1 dubi\sly1 b ,i d\bt if ,ursula is z mu* an a!i/ z an agno/ic4 ,%e probably put x t way because h] god1 :atev] %e ?9ks1 has no?+ wor? m5tion+ 9 common ) any idea ( ,god 9 y\r m9d4 ,paul reg>d$ him = a mom5t 9 tr\bl$ sil5ce1 weigh+ 8 words4 ,!n he sigh$4 ,x is utt]ly beyond me1 he said4 ,h[1 9 ! face ( ?+s z !y are1 y or anyone c fail to believe 9 a ,creator1 an ,inspir]1 a ,support]1 ,i d n see4 ,x may be old-fa%ion$1 b ev5 ,paley's ,evid5ces seem good en\gh to me4 ,all[ evolution if y l1 all[ any?+1 y've got to get back to some?+4 ,!re mu/ h be5 a beg9n+1 ev5 if x 0 all ! mo/ t5u\s ( spiral nebul4 ,well1 :o made t8 ,i hav5't ! remote/ notion1 said ,mann+4 ,well1 b4444 ,yes8 ,well1 if ,god didn't create x1 h[ did x come8 ,:at o!r hypo!sis is possible8 ,x's n conceivable1 ?9kable ev5 at all1 t matt] is et]nal4 ,:y1 et]nity1 backw>ds or =w>ds1 is un?9kable4 ,exactly4 ,yet y ascribe ?is un?9kable attribute to ,god4 ,paul knit 8 br[s4 ,"o mu/1 he object$4 ,no1 said ,mann+1 sitt+ up %>ply1 t's exactly :]e y're wrong4 ,"o mo/ emphatically mu/ n4 ,complete bewild]m5t settl$ d[n on ,paul4 ,he made a *>act]i/ic little ge/ure at la/4 ,i suppose ,i hav5't ! intellig5ce necess>y to foll[ y1 he said almo/ bitt]ly4 ,paul1 said ,mann+1 y h1 t's ! rub4 ,m1 ,i %\ldn't be 9 ! lea/ surpris$ if y did4 ,y've be5 ,god-ridd5 all y\r life1 obsess$1 b\nd1 b y've brok5 /eadily away f ! *a9s4 ,x seems inevitable to me t soon] or lat] y w break ) ?is also4 ,if ,i've said no?+ mu* s f>1 x's because1 9 a way1 ,i'm n int]e/$4 ,i l y too mu* to want to see y rot up y\r life ) ,roman ,ca?olicism or any arrant nons5se ( t sort1 b ,i've always ?\ght y _h bett] keep y\r ,god till--till---- ,he hesitat$4 ,!n3 ,possibly till ! "r p]son came along to deliv] y4 ,y mean y\r c\s91 ,i suppose1 ,paul said sl[ly4 ,inde$ ,i d n1 repli$ ,mann+ quickly4 ,i _h no idea y two w\ld s]i\sly broa* ! subject4 ,b x is int]e/+ t x has come t way4 ,y're 9 good h&s1 ?\gh ,ursula keeps m ( ! c>go ?an ,i c c>ry4 ,preci\s little1 ,i %\ld ?9k1 retort$ ,paul4 ,well1 y c discuss t ) h]4 ,z = myself---- ,yes1 !n1 z = y\rself4 ,y hone/ly want to "k8 ,i d4 ,sit d[n !n4 ,don't pr[l ab\t4 ,i've got to be /eadily s]i\s & pr(\nd = at lea/ t5 m9utes1 & ,i ne$ help4 ,paul p]ceiv$ a hassock at 8 feet & dropp$ on to x4 ,c>ry on1 he said1 smil+ a little z ! o!r _h meant him to d4 ,b ,mann+ 0 9 no hurry to beg94 ,be=e he began to speak1 ,timo?y came pa/ ! w9d[1 saw ! two sitt+ sil5tly1 & w5t on aga91 %ak+ 8 head & mutt]+ to himself4 ,& :5 ,mann+ did beg9 to speak1 he 0 abrupt1 & !re 0 a h>d note 9 8 voice4 ,look "h1 ,paul1 he said1 ! root ( ! matt] is j ?is3 ,god is a guess 9 ! d>k4 ,y are driv5 back & back & back1 z y say1 till y c't g fur!r1 b !n y beg9 to inv5t mean+less words to cov] y\r inadequacy4 ,y talk ab\t inf9ite & et]nal & almighty1 words :i* are no m ?an scraps ( ma!matical logic4 ,! m9d kn[s t x's beat51 t = "s odd reason x _c travel back beyond c]ta9 b\nds4 ,x's l space3 y _c conceive ( some?+ t ends1 )\t y\r dem&+ :at comes next4 ,some?+1 y say1 mu/ come next1 & next1 & next4 ,& !re c't be a la/2 & yet !re mu/ be a la/1 an end444 ,he /opp$1 z if he 0 try+ once m himself to beat back aga9/ ! reel+ ?\ght4 ,paul rema9$ immovable4 ,well1 n[1 ! m9d hates a vacuum4 ,x mu/ r\nd (f ?+s4 ,?us1 !n1 at t extreme limit ( compreh5sion1 :5 no fur!r logical sequ5ce is possible1 x gets out ( ! difficulty by creat+ a conception ^u :i* x c re/4 ,?\ght dem&s a beg9n+1 an end1 a supreme p[]1 a reason1 & ! imag9ation ( man1 :5 8 m9d c no m1 simply jumps 9 ! d>k4 ',all "r1' x says1 '!re is ,"o ,:o is ,et]nal1 ,almighty1 ,inf9ite--,god4' ,a guess 9 ! d>k1 y see4 ,paul />$ into t %ift+ black abyss4 ,! horror ( x rose into 8 eyes4 ,waves & seas1 inexorable1 he>tless1 roll$ 9 ^u him1 & he felt himself s9k+1 s9k+4 ,! s5sation 0 almo/ physical1 & he _h lit]ally to moi/5 8 lips to speak4 ,we h ,*ri/1 he said4 ,he 0 n 9 ! d>k4 ,he knew4 ,mann+ %rugg$ 8 %\ld]s at t1 & said no?+4 ,arnold1 cri$ ,paul aga91 ,he knew6 ,mann+ got up4 ,look "h1 ,paul1 he said1 we've work$ ov] t gr\nd4 ,*ri/ianity is a matt] ( evid5ce4 ,god ,almighty1 y "k some?+ ( x6 ',by :at au?ority8' ,he relit 8 pipe & toss$ ! mat* ?r\gh ! w9d[4 ,paul turn$ ! "q ov] 9 8 m9d4 ,( c\rse1 t 0 ! "q4 ,he saw x1 l a flam+ note ( int]rogation1 burn+ 9 ^u him4 ,t unansw]able "q3 ,by :at au?ority8 ,fa!r ,vassall---- ,8 fri5d int]rupt$ him4 ,&1 ,arnold bur/ out1 ultimately1 t is evid5ce we c te/ = ourselves4 ,:at did ,*ri/ say ( ,god8 ,take "o ?+3 t ,he 0 a ,fa!r1 :o he>d & answ]$ & c>$ = ,8 creatures1 = ! lea/ ( !m4 ,well1 does ,he--,i ask y1 does ,he8 ,come1 n[1 be hone/4 ,y "k ,he doesn't4 ,!re is n a flick] ( evid5ce 9 ! :ole va/ univ]se t ,god he>s or answ]s or c>es4 ,!re are laws1 great driv+ laws1 t's all4 ,%ove y\r f+] 9 & y'll get hurt2 jump "r 9 & y'll be kill$4 ,inevitably4 ,always4 ,scream+ to ,god won't save y4 ,"s bloody w>'s on1 & a woman implores ,god to save h] lov]4 ,well1 does ,he8 ,if ,he turn a s+le bullet aside1 ,he mu/ dis>range ! :ole cosmic law4 ,does ,he8 ,i ask y--does ,he8 ,paul hid 8 face4 ,he saw ! pa/ ?ree ye>s :ite z an op5 road be=e him4444 ,does ,he8 ,b ,mann+ did n seem to notice4 ,!re's no fa!rly control1 t's ! po9t4 ,ev5 religion squirms be=e ! obvi\sness ( t1 & inv5ts excuses4 ,god make? ,8 ra9 to fall on ! j & on ! unju/4 ,pi%1 ,he does no su* ?+4 ,he has no?+ to d ) ! fall ( ra91 or ,he abdicat$ ,8 p[] be=e ! dawn ( hi/ory4 ,b ,somebody mu/1 cri$ ,paul4 ,mann+ dropp$ back into 8 *air4 ,/op1 he cri$4 ,if we are to g on talk+ y mu/ n say t4 ,y surr5d] to ! savage :5 y say t4 ,he1 poor devil1 sees ! lightn+ hit 8 hut3 ',somebody mu/ be angry1' he says4 ,exp]i5ce comes along & %[s ev5 unsci5tific m9ds ! irrefragable laws ( ?und]/orms1 & y\r poor fell[ bleats3 ',!n somebody mu/ h caus$ !m4' ,sci5ce comes along & demon/rates )\t a d\bt ! unity ( matt] & ! exi/5ce ( ! electron1 & ! de> ,*ri/ian folds 8 h&s3 ',b ,god is ! ,fir/ ,cause1 ! ,creator4' ,guesses1 all ( !m4 ,guess if y want to1 ,ke/]n1 b n to me4 ,i won't4 ,t's flat4 ,paul c\ld /& x no m4 ,he jump$ up & pac$ re/lessly ab\t4 ,i see :at y mean1 he cri$4444 ,oh1 & ,i see :at %e meant1 too4444 ,x 0 beautiful1 beautiful1 b a m>ble /atue aft] all2 & x's ! end ( ! day2 & x's fall5--fall54444 ,well1 ! travell] has fall5 too4444 ,no wond]4444 ,oh1 no wond]4444 ,mann+ smok$ /eadily4 ,he _h be5 unusually vehem5t1 & 0 a trifle a%am$ ( himself4 ,i say1 ,paul1 he said at la/1 pull y\rself toge!r4 ,y're n a fool4 ,paul /opp$ 9 8 walk & /ood reg>d+ him4 ,b he did n make an answ] to t4 ,if y don't guess1 :at happ5s !n8 ,mann+ smil$ languidly4 ,well1 y don't guess1 t's all4 ,x's q simple4 ,p]haps !re is a god2 p]haps ,he is all t is said ab\t ,him4 ,p]haps4444 ,only we are reasonable m5 & we h to g ^u facts1 & ! facts are t !re is no trace ( ,him4 ,unless v exi/5ce is a sign--! fact t ?+s are1 said ,paul1 cat*+ at a /raw4 ,oh1 v well1 h x if y w4 ,b ( :at or ( :om is exi/5ce a sign8 ,i "k x's s5tim5tal twaddle to talk ( ! cruelty & s on ( ,nature1 & ,i won't4 ,b y "k & ,i "k !re are laws1 & :at sort ( laws8 ,to :at sort ( m9d c y argue f ,nature's laws8 ,?9k4 ,paul ?\ght4 ,he ?\ght ( ! regul>ity & beauty ( ice-cry/als :i* no "o c see )\t a microscope4 ,:y always regul>8 ,:y beautiful8 ,he ?\ght ( ! evolution & ! ext9ction ( ! d9osaur1 ! pt]odactyl & ! re/4 ,:y8 ,necess>y8 ,useful8 ,did ! h&1 !n1 ( ! ,pott] %ake8 ,he ?\ght ( ! laws t calmly all[ m5 & wom5 to br+ =? cong5ital idiots or *ildr5 loa?somely diseas$ 9 body or 9 s\l4 ,laws6 ,he flam$ sudd5ly ) rage4 ,! m9d ( a devil6 he cri$4 ,rubbi%1 retort$ ,mann+4 ,good heav5s1 ,paul1 pull y\rself toge!r6 ,b !re1 ,i suppose x takes "t4 ,an idiot1 !n4 ,oh1 *uck x4 ,i've "s "w to d4 ,g & read ,t5nyson4 ,well1 :at o!r sort ( p]sonality c\ld x be8 ,y de> old ass1 !re's ,,no p]sonality 9 x at all4 ,t's ! :ole argum5t4 ,y w guess4 ,talk ab\t ! high hills6 ,y g skipp+ on f po9t to po9t--9 imag9ation4 ,exi/5ce exi/s s f> z we c tell4 ,relatively to u x exi/s1 anyway4 ,b t is ! end ( ! argum5t4 ,y c g no fur!r4 ,no?+ imag9able c h creat$ x--no?+--no?+4 ,& =gett+ ,t5nyson1 he pu%$ 8 arm ?r\gh ,paul's & l$ him out into ! g>d54 ,! sweet w>m sun 0 releas+ a ?\s& sc5ts4 ,paul drew trail+ f+]s ?r\gh a spiky ho/ ( lav5d]4 ,butt]flies flutt]$ _! app>5tly aimless dance ov] ! b$s1 & bees1 m obvi\sly purposeful1 div$ into fl[]ets4 ,ev5 ! anci5t flags on :i* !y /ood 7 crack$ & brok5 by ! impetu\s ?ru/ ( t9y t5drils "o c\ld de/roy ) a p9*4 ,arnold ,mann+ took up 8 p>able4 ',consid] ! lilies1' he quot$4 ,*ri/ took a f> /ep =w>d1 anyway1 ,paul4 ,! savage only saw horror1 & made 8 gr9n+ abom9ation z an image ( ,god4 ,! ,jew saw1 = "s reason1 ! beauty ( law & unity1 & ,elijah mock$ ! poor leap+ prie/s ( ,baal & cri$ out on ,jehovah4 ,*ri/ saw beauty & t5d]ness1 & inve/$ ,8 ,god ) a /ill high] p]sonality4 ',ye "k n ! ,fa!r1' ,he said4 ,& we1 we poor mod]ns1 we see x all1 ,paul1 & we see t all--all--^? conceptions 7 j %ad[s ( ourselves4 ,paul 0 gaz+ up t[>ds ! ,d[ns ) a f>-away look 9 8 eyes4 ,little fleecy float+ cl\ds 7 rac+ %ad[s ( !mselves across ! ri* gre5 turf4 ,i see1 he said sadly4 ,!y /roll$ up & d[n4 ,g & write a poem ab\t ?is1 said ,mann+ ) unusual g5tl5ess4 ,t w buck y up4 ,paul sl[ly %ook 8 head4 7#d7 ,x w\ld be fooli% to pret5d t a c\ple ( conv]sations %att]$ ! fai? ( ye>s1 & yet1 9 life1 x (t5 seems s4 ,"u ! surface1 ! insidi\s "w goes on1 & p]haps !re is nev] a crisis = :i* !re has n be5 prep>ation4 ,s x 0 ) ,paul4 ,! gr\nd _h be5 /eadily slipp+ f b5ea? 8 feet4 ,^u a pr(f]$ rock1 = good or ill1 he _h n climb$4 ,n[1 ) all ! ?und] & confusion ( a cataclysm1 ! elaborate /ructure fell4 ,mann+'s cool *all5ge1 z mu* or m ?an 8 logic1 _h br\ght ab\t ! ru94 ,does ,god he>8 he _h ask$1 & delib]ately await$ ! answ]4 ,once ,paul w\ld h be5 z swift & z assur$ 9 8 reply4 ,9 ,lambe? ,c\rt1 on ,p>k]'s ,piece1 ev5 at ,port o' ,man1 he w\ld in/antly h answ]$ yes4 ,b ^? days _h gone4 ,he f\ght ! conclusion1 wre/l$ ) x1 ev5 /ill pray$ e>ne/ly aga9/ x1 b c\ld n escape ! only possible d$uction1 z x seem$ to him4 ,!re _h be5 no answ] at all1 absolutely & lit]ally none2 or else1 z ,fa!r ,vassall w\ld h x1 he _h be5 he>d & l$1 l$ delib]ately & z he c\ld be> x1 to ! ?re%old ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,b 8 fa!r1 ?an :om none pray$ m e>ne/ly1 said t t 0 ! devil1 & ! ,bi%op ( ,mozambique t !re ! angels ( ,god _h be5 set ab\t him = deliv]ance4 ,:i* 0 "r8 ,he _h be5 toss$ l a %uttlecock among !m4 ,out ( t dilemma1 ,tressor's quiet reason$ judgm5t _h op5$ up a way ( escape4 ,=dham ,manor _h seem$ s pla9ly ! be/ & wise/ refuge4 ,8 fa!r1 aga91 _h approv$4 ,besides1 if he c\ld write v]se1 t 0 a gift ( ,god giv5 him = improvem5t4 ,& x 0 n t he did n pray ev5 n[1 & read ! ,bible1 too1 z he _h be5 taught4 ,only ! ,bible po9t$1 if any:]e1 :]e !y :o advis$ him mo/ to read x w\ld n admit !re 0 any conceivable possibility ( go+4 ,no1 ! ar*es ( ! ye>s _h l$ ,paul irresi/ibly on4 ,"o by "o1 so>+ unse5 be=e him1 !y _h clos$ d[n at ! end ( ea* span an appreciable m>* ne>] to ! br9k ( ! precipice4 ,he /ood !re n[1 pe]+ into its dep?s1 disc]n+ no pa? at all1 suspect+ t ! plunge into ! abyss 0 only a matt] ( weeks1 or days4 ,does ,god he>8 dem&$ ,mann+1 & ,paul _h no answ] b ! e*o ( ,job's old cry3 ,oh t ,i knew :]e ,i might f9d ,him6 ,small wond] t he c\ld n write poetry4 ,poetry6 ,!re 0 no mean+ 9 life if ,god 7 n--no reasonable end1 no conceivable beg9n+1 no?+ wor? :ile4 ,arnold might grub ab\t ) 8 sci5ce2 ,paul s\ght ! _s ( ?+s4 ,& :5 he turn$ to ,tressor1 ! don utt]ly fail$ him4 ,x 0 odd1 ,paul ?\ght1 h[ entirely he fail$ him4 ,paul 0 com+ daily to love m & m ?is k9dly pleasant man1 b he 0 beg9n+ to see jo9ts 9 8 h>ness4 ,! ?ree ( !m w\ld talk ( an ev5+1 = ,paul c\ld n d o!rwise1 & he w\ld drag a some:at unwill+ ,mann+ into x2 b ,tressor answ]$ ! y\ng] man n at all4 ,he clung to a refuge t 0 n yet1 at any rate1 /orm-pro( = ,paul4 ,logic1 said ,tressor1 fail$ at a po9t4 ,! he>t ( man univ]sally _h ne$ ( ,god1 & x w\ld n crave if !re 0 no?+ to crave =4 ,tressor reli$ on intuition & in/9ct4 ,in/9ct & intuition1 said ,mann+1 7 ! result ( tra9+ & environm5t4 ,psy*ology c\ld dissect & label bo?1 almo/ z easily z physiology ! bones & muscles ( a man4 ,!re 0 my/]y be=e & beh9d1 said ,tressor1 b ,god 0 fa!rly1 & 9 ! end ! we>y s\l w\ld fall back ^u ,8 he>t & re/4 ,sir1 ,mann+ cri$ "o ev5+1 goad$ = once out ( 8 habitual calm1 if y\r pr9ciples _h be5 appli$ 9 sci5ce1 man w\ld be /ill 9 ! ,/one ,age6 ,tressor _h flick$ an eyelid & look$ hurt4 ,he _h %ortly gone (f to 8 /udy1 & ,mann+ _h z %ortly gone aft] him to apologise4 ,he _h return$ a little flu%$4 ,he's a jolly good *ap1 he said to ,paul4 ,x's bea/ly ( me to hurt 8 feel+s4 ,feel+s6 ,z if1 ,paul ?\ght1 feel+s matt]$4 ,he walk$ b>ehead$ 9 ! av5ue & /ood on ! edge ( ! sleep+ lake1 & he cri$ out ( ! dep?s ( 8 tortur$ s\l to ,god4 ,"o syllable ( an answ]1 "o solit>y sign out ( ! /ill night1 "o resolute conviction ev51 if ,god pref]r$ t secret way1 among ! *ang+ %ift+ d\bts t rack$ 8 s\l1 & he w\ld be ready to dr9k any k9d ( cup & be baptiz$ ) any baptism4 7#e7 ,tack$ on to ! v h\se1 0 a peculi> feature ( ! place4 ,! p>i% *ur* 0 also ! private *apel4 ,! p>i% _h dw9dl$ all b to ! inhabitants ( ! p>k & gr\nds1 & "o cl]gyman s]v$ ,=dham & held z well ! liv+ ( ! consid]able village t lay beyond2 b1 occasionally1 once a mon? = ea* s]vice1 ,communion 0 celebrat$1 ,ev5song sung1 s ne> to !m t x 0 difficult ev5 = unsympa!tic gue/s n to g4 ,besides1 ,tressor lik$ "o to g1 & t 0 en\gh = ,mann+ & ,paul4 ,! la/ ,sunday 9 ! mon?1 !n1 ,paul w5t to ,ev5song4 ,all ! s]vants 7 !re3 de> old ,mrs4 ,bird 9 a bonnet t t9kl$ ) jet1 ) s]vice-books ! treasur$ gifts ( h] ma/]2 ,timo?y1 = ! mo/ "p cr\*$ 9 8 pew1 expressionless2 ,rid]1 precise & und]/&+2 ! maids1 /range 9 ,sunday outdoor g>m5ts4 ,! ?ree fri5ds occupi$ a pew discreetly n 9 ! front1 flatt]+ly n too f> beh9d4 ,& ,mr4 ,prideaux took ! s]vice & prea*$4 ,!re _h1 x appe>$1 b lately be5 a s]i\s controv]sy 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,a dean _h prea*$ at ,we/m9/] on ! e>li] *apt]s ( ,g5esis1 _h depreciat$ _! hi/oric value1 & _h welcom$ ! tea*+s ( ,pr(essor ,d>w94 ,a bi%op _h retort$ 9 ! ,gu>dian1 & ,ca?olic-m9d$ cl]gy tak5 ! matt] up 9 ! ,*ur* ,times4 ,! ,record _h said t x _h long told ! public t ?is w\ld be ! result ( 444 ,& s on4 ,mr4 ,prideaux1 an able1 en]getic1 zeal\s man1 prea*$ ^u ! subject4 ,he believ$ 9 deal+ ) subjects ( curr5t int]e/1 besides 7?\gh he did n say s71 unless y are v ,high ,*ur*1 ! mon? ( ,augu/ is s+ul>ly des]t 9 reg>d to fe/ivals4 ,he may also h ?\ght t "h 8 small select congregation did at any rate conta9 a proportion ( li/5]s :o w\ld be m int]e/$ 9 su* matt]s ?an ! av]age villag]4 ,& he 0 q "r 9 a s5se4 ,only ! ,vic> c\ld n "k t !re 0 a v]itable gulf fix$ betwe5 8 com=table reason$ !ology & ! deva/at+ vivid mod]nism ( ei!r ,mann+ or ,paul4 ,! prie/ said t1 ( c\rse1 ,d>w9ism 0 n prov$2 an increas+ ho/ ( sci5ti/s disagre$ ) x4 ,besides1 ,d>w9 _h nev] taught ,d>w9ism4 ,aga91 if he _h1 !re 0 no?+ inh]5tly ho/ile to ! true tea*+s ( ! ,*ur* 9 ! !ory ( evolution4 ,!re 0 no?+ ( revelation z to ! precise po9t at :i* ! ape-man became ! man-ape ) a s\l4 ,& x 0 only ^? :o _h =gott5 ! true relation ( ,*ur* & ,bible :o f\nd any difficulty 9 ,g5esis4 ,! dev\t *ur*man only saw 9 ^! inspir$ fragm5ts ( anci5t leg5d illu/rations ( ! et]nal grop+ ( ! s\l ( man aft] tru?1 &1 he might say1 an unique witness to ! guid+ h& ( ,god4444 ,mr4 ,prideaux came to supp] aft]w>ds1 & play$ a c\ple ( rubb]s ( bridge4 ,he 0 g5ial1 & hop$1 :5 he le>n$ ( ,paul's tak+ up ( resid5ce at ,=dham1 t ,paul w\ld come to see him4 ,he 0 a ba*elor1 & x w\ld be delightful if !y c\ld see a good deal ( ea* o!r4 ,paul w5t up sl[ly to 8 room at la/4 ,he op5$ ! w9d[ & look$ out t[>ds ! av5ue & ! lake4 ,! trees /ret*$ grey & gho/ly 9 a dim mi/y />light1 b !y 7 n fri5dly or invit+ to-night4 ,some?+ _h gone f ! face ( e>? & sky4 ,d>w91 evolution1 sci5ce1 ape-m51 ! int]pretations ( texts--:at j>gon6 ,:]e 0 ,god n[1 & :y w\ld ,he n speak8 ,:at else matt]$8 ,he 0 sil5t2 ,he _h be5 et]nally sil5t x seem$2 x 0 b ! prompt+s ( _! own imag9ation :i* m5 _h tak5 = ,8 voice4 ,no1 he c\ld n g & write poetry any m4 ,,*apt] ,x ,,! ,,bl9d ,,begg> ,! only /r5g? = me is to be f\nd 9 ! s5se ( a p]sonal pres5ce ev]y:]e1 x sc>cely matt]s :e!r x be call$ human or div9e2 a pres5ce :i* only makes itself felt at fir/ 9 ?is & t p>ticul> =m & feature4444 ,into ?is pres5ce we come1 n by leav+ beh9d :at are usually call$ e>?ly ?+s1 or by lov+ !m less1 b by liv+ m int5sely 9 !m1 & lov+ m :at is really lovable 9 !m2 = x is lit]ally true t ?is _w is ev]y?+ to u1 if only we *oose to make x s1 if only we live 9 ! pres5t because x is et]nity4444--,,ri*>d ,,lewis ,,nettle%ip3 ,lectures & ,memories1 ,vol4 ,i41 p4 #gb4 ,he ha? made ev]y?+ beautiful 9 its "t2 ,he ha? also set ! _w 9 _! he>t1 & yet s t man _c f9d out ! "w t ,god ha? wr\ght f ! beg9n+ ev5 unto ! end4444--,,eccles4 iii4 ,fool1 said my muse to me1 look 9 ?y he>t & write4--,,sir ,,philip ,,sidney4 7#a7 ,augu/ drew to its sunny close1 & ,mann+ & ,tressor dep>t$1 leav+ ,paul to sup]9t5d ! r]o(+ ( old ,morley's ,mill cottage1 ! build+ ( an extra p\ltry h\se1 ! lay+-out ( a new fl[] b$1 ! cutt+ d[n ( a few trees & ! lett+ ( an empty cottage4 ,!y also left him to write poetry2 & :]eas1 )\t assi/ance1 he w\ld h cut a poor figure at any ( ! practical jobs1 he felt t he 0 do+ ev5 worse z a poet4 ,septemb] f\nd him1 !n1 alone & p]turb$2 b ,octob] came1 h]ald$ ) ! gleam ( crimson & gold bann]s among ! bee*es ( ,*anctonbury1 & f\nd him alone & desp]ate4 ,he 0 ! m ov]:elm$ by x all z he 0 totally unprep>$4 ,hi!rto 8 days _h be5 m full ?an he c\ld manage1 =1 besides talk & fri5ds & all ! incid5ts ( life at ,cambridge1 he _h _h 8 degree = :i* to "w4 ,hi!rto v]se _h be5 a refuge1 a joy :i* he _h all[$ himself ) a k9d ( grim delib]ation4 ,he w\ld want to write1 feel+ t /range1 deep1 indef9ite hung] )9 him t all :o h 9 any degree ! gift ( a creative art "k s well1 & he w\ld p]mit himself to leave 8 books & sit by ! fire or 9 ! w9d[-seat ) a p5cil = an h\r1 a measur$ h\r only4 ,or hi!rto !re _h be5 o!r difficulties 9 ! way1 f ,donaldson's tramp on ! /airs to ! di/urb+ furniture at ,claxt$--little ?+s1 ?+s ov] :i* "o ought to be able to triumph1 b ?+s :i* ord9>ily triumph ov] u all4 ,!re1 !n1 lay ! /+ ( x4 ,he _h n[ "t & to sp>e4 ,he _h n[ bo? lonel9ess1 &1 on ! o!r h&1 ! company ( beauty bo? )9 & )\t doors4 ,he _h1 9 ! well-tra9$ s]vants ( ! h\se & e/ate1 ! v be/ ( human help t[>ds t respect & leisure & com=t t our r pitiable s\ls d ne$4 ,he _h ,prideaux at ! ,vic>age1 ! be/ ( fell[s1 = a companionable pipe & *at1 & he _h ,mrs4 ,mann+ & ,miss ,nett]ly1 h] si/]1 only too ready to give him tea 9 _! draw+-room & be k9d4 ,! di/urb+ elem5t 0 :olly )drawn4 ,ursula _h gone to ,london on a :im ( h] own 9 ,augu/1 & on an ill-def9$ visit !reaft]1 & _h at la/ return$ s absorb$ 9 a picture p]haps1 s possibly delib]ately remote1 t1 if he saw h]1 x 0 only to pass ! "t ( day1 or wat* h] face immobile z he re/$ 9 ! ev5+ 9 h] "m's draw+-room4 ,9 despair1 he _h ab&on$ ! attempt to write = "o to read4 ,! possibility ( read+ _h be5 "o ( ! attractions ( ,=dham4 ,at ,claxt$ he _h done b little m ?an le>n ! names ( classical ,engli% au?ors1 at ,cambridge b snat*$ odd mom5ts = !m4 ,he 0 peculi>ly unfamili> ) ! "w ( ! great poets & he _h soak$ himself 9 none ( ! mod]ns4 ,he _h long$ s eag]ly = ! *ance really to read ,sw9burne1 ,francis ,?ompson & ! l1 & n[ t x _h come he c\ld n4 ,! malignancy ( 8 own p>ticul> devil foll[$ him ev5 9 ?is4 ,he w\ld walk to ,/orr+ton & tramp back ov] ! ,d[ns to curl himself up 9 ! l\nge ) ! ,h\nd ( ,heav5 9 8 h&s1 only to f9d 8 eyes w&]+ f ! page & 8 feet /irr+ re/lessly t[>ds ! g>d5s :]e old ,timo?y w\ld be pott]+ ab\t4 ,n1 ( c\rse1 t old ,timo?y help$ at all1 & he w\ld p]haps take a h& ) a spade or li/5 to a disc\rse on mann]s = half an h\r or s1 & !n turn unsatisfi$ to ! t[]+ /r5g? ( ! animophil\s lime-trees 9 ! av5ue & ! quiet assurance ( ! sleep+ wat] 9 ! lake4 ,old ,timo?y w\ld look aft] him & %ake 8 head4 ,he _h small op9ion ( /rapp+ "y m5 :o c\ld n dig = a morn+ & be ?ankful4 7#b7 ,half-way ?r\gh ,octob] ,paul came ne> to ! climax4 ,a morn+ unusually wret*$ _h l$ to an aft]noon's hone/ endeav\r ) ! =e/]s 9 ! p>k1 & he _h return$ to ba? & *ange ) a m com=table feel+ 9 8 he>t & pleasurably tir$ muscles4 ,b ev5 z he dress$1 ! %ad[s crept 9 aga94 ,he came d[n ! wide /airs to ! hall sl[ly1 a haunt$ man4 ,its v quiet & peace & air ( wait+ k9dly read9ess to help1 exasp]at$ him4 ,a fri5dly t\*1 :]e "o looks = love1 is worse ?an indiff]5ce to a lov]4 ,& brood+ !re1 he _h det]m9$ to write to ,tressor & tell him t ! exp]im5t 0 a failure & t he mu/ leave4 ,aft] d9n]1 ! company ( 8 ?\ghts intol]able1 he told ,rid] t he 0 go+ out & walk$ across ! p>k to ! cottage bel[ ! ,d[ns4 ,mrs4 ,mann+ 0 always glad to see him1 & he knew he w\ld l to sit 9 an arm-*air & li/5 to h] placid *at4 ,%e und]/ood j no?+ at all1 t 0 ! be/ ( h]4 ,prideaux w\ld und]/& suffici5t to irritate b n en\gh to help2 ! ,manor _h an air ( und]/&+ b ( keep+ its own placid secret4 ,mrs4 ,mann+ w\ld talk ab\t h] f[ls & ask him if he did n ?9k ,mr4 ,lloyd ,george too t]rible4 ,& 9 ! morn+ he w\ld write to ,tressor4 ,ursula 0 !re4 ,x appe>$ t h] picture 0 ne>+ completion1 & t %e 01 z x 71 /&+ aside = a day or two to be q sure ( ! necess>y f9al t\*es4 ,%e sat idly1 wat*+ h] "m at "w4 ,he /udi$ h] pr(ile z %e sat1 delib]ately tell+ himself t ?is & t might h be5 improv$1 delib]ately consci\s t he w\ld n h alt]$ a l9e4 ,sure /r5g? l+]$ on h] face 9 "s subtle way4 ,%e 0 oddly remote1 spl5didly active1 he felt1--! o!r side ( a veil4 ,( t veil %e 0 9 supreme comm&4 ,n t x matt]$2 he did n want h] to lift x4 ,he 0 too preoccupi$1 too mu* on ! rack to c>e4 ,:5 he _h gone1 ! girl sat on sil5t = a little4 ,!n1 )\t mov+1 %e ask$ a "q or two ( h] "m4 ,"m1 did y see mu* ( ,mr4 ,ke/]n :ile ,i 0 away8 ,yes1 de>1 a good deal4 ,he & ,arnold came sev]al times1 & :5 ,arnold w5t1 he kept up ! habit ( dropp+ 94 ,does he ev] talk mu*8 ,no1 n mu*4 ,he's a quiet man1 ,i ?9k4 ,c]ta9 vivid little sc5es =m$ !mselves 9 ,ursula's m9d4 ,%e _h se5 him walk+ & talk+ ) ,mann+1 _h he>d him ) ,tressor4 ,& %e rememb]$ 8 face by ! lake & 9 h] room4 ,a quiet man8 ,eag]1 ard5t1 %e _h ?\ght him4 ,& !re 0 8 v]se1 too4 ,he's absorb$ 9 8 "w1 ,i expect1 w5t on h] "m1 h] head on "o side z %e t\*$ h] embroid]y deftly4 ,mr4 ,tressor said he ?\ght he w\ld d a great deal4 ,he said he 0 v prolific1 ,i rememb]4 ,!y use su* odd words4 ,he's all alone up !re n[1 isn't he8 ,yes1 de>4 ,b ,mr4 ,prideaux calls1 & he goes to see him4 ,mr4 ,prideaux8 ,does he l him8 ,v mu*1 de>1 ,i believe4 ,b ! ,vic> is n at all gossipy1 y "k4 ,d y l him1 ,ursula8 ask$ ,miss ,nett]ly curi\sly4 ,! girl smil$4 ,i sc>cely "k him1 auntie1 %e said4 ,well1 de>1 said h] "m1 fold+ h] "w1 ,i ?9k x's b$time4 ,y mu/ be tir$1 too4 ,mrs4 ,mann+ always ?\ght "o mu/ be tir$4 ,curi\sly en\gh1 %e 0 s nice ab\t x t "o =got to be irritat$4 ,9 h] own room ,ursula uncov]$ h] picture & _h a look at x4 ,%e read a little4 ,!n %e sat on a:ile1 />+ out ( ! w9d[4 ,!n %e got up1 fet*$ h] portfolio & look$ ?r\gh its cont5ts4 ,:5 %e rea*$ ! little wat]-col\r %e _h done to illu/rate ,paul's poem1 %e put x on "o side--!reaft] by itself on h] mantelpiece4 ,!n %e w5t to b$4 ,9 ! morn+ %e ann\nc$ ! int5tion ( tak+ a walk4 ,ev]yone placidly agre$1 z !y did f =ce ( habit :]e ,ursula 0 conc]n$1 & h] "m came to ! gate ) h] & wat*$ h] away 9 h] yell[ jump]1 ) a gre5 sc>f & skirt4 ,mrs4 ,mann+ 0 v pr\d ( h] daught]4 ,%e did n ask :]e %e 0 go+1 h[ev]4 ,paul1 aft] a late breakfa/1 /roll$ out on to ! t]race4 ,he 0 turn+ ov] ! phrases ( 8 lett] to ,tressor :5 he saw ! girl com+ up ! drive4 ,he w5t to meet h]4 ,x cross$ 8 m9d t %e might be br++ a message f h] "m4 ,hullo1 he said1 :5 he 0 )9 speak+ di/ance4 ,good morn+4 ,h[ are y8 ,v well1 %e said4 ,busy8 ,n p>ticul>ly1 repli$ ,paul ruefully4 ,i 0 j ab\t to write a bea/ly lett]4 ,%e look$ him frankly 9 ! face4 ,h['s ! poetry go+8 %e ask$4 ,he did n ?9k to be surpris$4 ,x's n go+ at all1 he said4 ,%e nodd$4 ,!y 7 /&+ /ill !re1 on ! drive4 ,%e look$ away f him1 z if %e _h se5 all %e want$1 look+ out ov] ! p>k alive 9 ! sun4 ,i've writt5 no?+ = ages1 he w5t on impulsively4 ,i c't4 ,& ,i c't read ei!r4 ,come = a walk1 %e said4 ,n[8 ,) y8 ,:]e8 ,x 0 only aft]w>ds t he realis$ t ?is 0 n ! polite/ reply4 ,at once1 ) me1 on ! ,d[ns1 %e repli$ smil+4 ,8 face lit up4 ,he saw 9 a fla% h[ good a walk ) h] w\ld be4 ,oh1 good1 he cri$1 ,i'd love to4 ,may ,i get a /ick & a hat8 ,w y come 9 a mom5t8 ,i'll wait "h1 %e said4 ,don't be long4 ,i won't be two m9utes1 he repli$1 & ran up ! /eps4 ,%e l$ ! way1 d[n ! drive1 pa/ ! lodge1 up to ! "r1 up a little pa? t skirt$ ! h$ges & ran ?r\gh ! woods at ! foot ( ! great hill1 & !n up /ill m1 by a w9d+ track t s]p5t9$ out into ! op5 d[nl& at ! top4 ,! r+ ( ,*anctonbury 0 away on _! "r2 a dew-pond r+$ ) a /ony bea* j 9 front1 its wat]s reflect+ ! blue ( ! autumn sky & ruffl$ ) a w9d f ! sea4 ,be=e !m !y c\ld see ,cissbury 9 ! di/ance & foll[ ! coa/ l9e pa/ ,wor?+1 hid beh9d a d[n1 to ,%oreham1 ) ,lanc+ ,*apel set up above x1 & ,brighton4 ,x 0 s cle> to-day t ! gleam ( :ite on ! cliffs beyond ,rott+dean 0 di/9ctly visible4 ,!y _h said little z !y climb$1 z "o does1 = x is a climb1 b n[ !y turn$ to ! left & walk$ sl[ly along ! close-cropp$ ride ?r\gh ! tuft$ hummocky grass1 skirt+ t ridge bel[ :i* ,=dham & ,/eyn+ ne/le & a d[n w9ds to ! sea4 ,n[1 %e said1 :at's ! matt]8 ,don't y ?9k y'd l to tell me8 ,i w\ld1 cri$ ,paul eag]ly1 ,i'd love to4 ,besides---- ,he broke (f1 puzzl+ at h] z !y walk$4 ,well8 ,i say1 h[ did y "k any?+ 0 ! matt]8 ,i saw la/ night1 %e said imp]turbably4 ,x /ruck me t y 7 d[n & out1 & hadn't a s\l to speak to4 ,y're "r4 ,b :y d y bo!r ) me8 ,%e walk$ on delib]ately4 ,i'm n bo!r+4 ,y see1 ,i l y1 & ,i l y\r v]se1 & y're ! sort ( p]son x's wor? :ile talk+ to 9 life4 ,t's v good ( y1 said ,paul4 ,b ,i don't des]ve all t4 ,i'm an awful fool1 & ,i've fl\nd]$ ab\t till ,i've got fairly well bogg$4 ,i ?\ght s4 ,tell me4 ,i don't "k :]e to beg94 ,yes1 ,i d ?\gh4 ,aft] all1 x's y :o bogg$ me really4 ,he smil$ at h] ruefully1 b %e took no notice1 h] eyes on ! l&scape bel[4 ,y said !re 0 no ,god1 w5t on ,paul1 & ,i c\ldn't =get x1 & spoke to ,arnold ab\t x at la/4 ,!n he rubb$ x 94 ,= ?ree ye>s1 n[1 ,i've be5 seek+ to get at ! tru? ab\t ,god4 ,y don't "k h[ ,i've tri$4 ,i've tri$ to he> ,8 voice1 to "k :at ,he wants1 & ,i've got no ne>]4 ,or ,i ?9k ,i hav5't4 ,x hadn't /ruck me till y spoke & ,arnold pu%$ x home t p]haps ! reason is t--t--!re isn't a ,god at all4 ,d y hone/ly feel t ?ree ye>s is a long "t8 ,well--x's ?ree ye>s1 anyway4 ,x is4 ,?ree ye>s4 ,h] tone arre/$ him4 ,he knew :at %e meant4 ,!y walk$ a hundr$ y>ds :ile he turn$ x ov]4 ,he _h a sudd5 vision ( ! g5]ations ( seek]s t _h gone be=e him seek+4 ,he saw vividly t :]e ! my/ics1 sa9ts & doctors _h sp5t lifetimes1 ?ree ye>s 0 n mu*4 ,b z he saw1 he flam$ out4 ,! floodgates 7 loos5$4 ,at la/1 l ! psalmi/1 he spake ) 8 tongue4 ,yes4 ,?ree ye>s4 ,oh1 ,i "k x's a drop 9 ! bucket4 ,b !y're ! ?ree be/ ye>s up to n[ ( my life1 & !y are my life4 ,!y're all ,i've _h to give4 ,& if ,god is a ,fa!r to u1 if ,he c>es at all1 ,he mu/ be big en\gh to be int]e/$ ev5 9 my ?ree ye>s4 ,& in/ead ( t----8 ,he doesn't c>e at all4 ,he is sil5t1 always sil5t4 ,y 7 "r3 ,he mu/ be asleep4 ,!re's nev] any voice nor any t answ]s4 ,& s all ! light's gone out ( life4 ,:at's ! good ( any?+8 ,:at's ! mean+ ( any?+8 ,be=e1 ev]y?+ 9 ! _w seem$ to h a secret joy beh9d x1 & x 0 wond]ful to feel "p ( a great plan1 to be able to l5d oneself to x & "w = x4 ,x 0 wond]ful to feel t ,*ri/ knew & 0 our ,ma/] & ,fri5d4 ,oh1 ,i lov$ ,him s6 ,& ,he's gone1 ,he's hidd54 ,& ) ,him has gone all ! light & joy 9 liv+4 ,%e said no?+4 ,i tell y x's gone6 he cri$ aga91 & x 0 an exce$+ bitt] cry4 ,!y 7 walk+ on ! edge ( a bee* sp9ney4 ,! tall da9ty trunks t[]$ up t[>ds ! sun & _! wide cr[n ( leaves mov$ toge!r ) smoo? bill[y sway+ motions4 ,& :]e _! spread+ bran*es rea*$ out t[>ds ! slope ( ! ,d[n1 a ri* wrea? ( col\r 0 gr[+ among !m4 ,ursula /ret*$ up h] h& z !y walk$ & broke (f a spray ( gold5 glory4 ,%e held x out to ,paul )\t a ^w4 ,he took x me*anically4 ,lovely1 he said1 un?9k+ly4 ,oh1 no1 %e repli$ calmly4 ,x's dull & ugly & useless & a comb9ation ( s _m *emical elem5ts t y c read all ab\t 9 ! books4 ,x's p]fectly pla94 ,:at is m1 ! leaves are already 9 decay4 ,paul he>d h] at fir/ 9 blank amazem5t4 ,he glanc$ f h] face to ! b\gh 9 8 h&1 & f ! b\gh to h] face4 ,he c\ld read no?+ !re4 ,he look$ up at ! sp9ney f :i* %e _h brok5 x1 & z he look$ anew its br[n & gre5 & grey & gold cle>$ be=e 8 eyes4 ,x 0 z sudd5 z a song4 ,"s little hidd5 *a9 snapp$ inside him4 ,please g on1 he said1 l a *ild4 ,y're n wor? x4 ,y're z bl9d z a bat4 ,& y1 ) y\r v]se & y\r talk1 y pret5d$ to see6 ,! scorn ( h] voice la%$ him4 ,%e humbl$ him pitifully4 ,& yet %e said s little4 ,x 0 ! tone ( ! bit+ words t did x1 & ! fact t %e 0 s seem+ly unmov$4 ,i've tri$ to1 he said1 y don't "k h[ ,i've tri$4 ,tri$6 ,t's exactly :at y w\ld d4 ,tri$6 ,"o has to try s v h>d to see ! sunlight4 ,!y walk$ on 9 sil5ce4 ,x 0 v odd2 z !y walk$ ,paul began to /udy ! %ort gre5 grass & ! delicate curv+ t5drils ( moss z if he _h nev] se5 !m be=e4 ,paul1 %e said at la/1 & he 0 pa/ ?9k+ x /range1 if "o is bl9d "o _c see4 ,if "o has eyes1 "o c't help see+4 ,he made an ef=t to recov] 8 position4 ,b x's ,god t matt]s1 he said1 x's n ! ?+s !mselves4 ,& if ,god is n !re1 :y1 !n---- ,:y1 !n1 ! rose is /ill r$ to-day z x 0 ye/]day1 & /ill sweet1 sweet 9 its life & sweet 9 its dea?4 ,& a new "o is on ! way4 ,:o are y to talk ab\t ,god ,:om y d n & _c und]/&8 ,talk ab\t ! ?+s t y see1 t is y\r bus9ess4 ,smell ! sc5t ( ! rose1 pick x1 love x1 wor%ip x4 ,are y mad8 ,god is sil5t1 he reit]at$ sull5ly4 ,y see1 %e fla%$ in/antly back4 ,b ! m9d matt]s4 ,x's ! fir/ pr9ciple ( philosophy4 ,y c't get away f t4 ,%e /opp$ & lay a h& ^u 8 arm4 ,li/51 %e said 9 a new voice4 ,a l>k 0 s++ some:]e 9 ! f> blue empyrean4 ,look1 %e said4 ,! wide op5 c\ntry ( field & coppice & lane lay spread be=e !m4 ,& s !y /ood a:ile4 ,paul1 %e w5t on pres5tly1 x's too lovely = y & me to spoil4 ,let ! prie/ & ! philosoph] g _! own ways4 ,x's _! vocation2 p]haps !y mu/1 poor s\ls4 ,mean:ile1 ! beauty ( ! _w is beyond argum5t4 ,god6 7,%e spoke s(tly & r wond]+ly47 ,god6 ,oh1 ,i "k no?+ ( ,god4 ,p]haps ,he is n1 p]haps ,he is4 ,! ,god !y talk ab\t1 anyway1 is n "h4 ,b ! e>? is "h1 light & col\r are "h1 beauty is "h1 & beauty is en\gh = y to s+ & = me to pa9t1 all our days4 ,paul look$ ab\t him ) eyes t _h gr[n wid] ) a new amazem5t z %e spoke4 ,oh1 he said z s(tly z %e1 ,i see1 ,i see4 ,i knew y w\ld1 %e said1 & dropp$ h] h&4 ,b :y did ,i nev] see x be=e8 he ask$ s(tly4 ,%e %rugg$ h] %\ld]s1 smil+ at him4 ,let's g1 %e said4 ,!y walk$ d[n to ,/eyn+ by ! /eep pa? t drops ov] ! hill & skirts ! big bosom ( ! ,d[n4 ,paul pluck$ sprays ( leaves1 laugh$1 swung 8 /ick1 sang4 ,%e laugh$ back at him4 ,madcap1 %e said4 ,oh1 ,i "k4 ,i'm mad4 ,no1 ,i'm n4 ,b ,i h be5 mad1 y "k4 ,b1 ,i say1 y mu/ tea* me m4 ,we mu/ talk ab\t ?is4 ,w y8 ,yes4 ,b y don't ne$ tea*+1 y "k4 ,y're a poet4 ,y'll tea*4 ,i "k :at ,i am1 he cri$1 /opp+ sudd5ly1 ,i "k :at ,i am6 ,:at8 %e qu]i$1 amus$4 ,i'm ! bl9d begg>-man4 ',"o ?+ ,i "k3 once ,i 0 bl9d1 b n[ ,i see4' ,rememb]8 ,%e nodd$ at him1 s5s+ some?+ ( ! old evangelical ye>s 9 8 quotation4 ,oh1 x's wond]ful6 ,heav5s1 :at a poem6 ,no3 ,i'll write a play ab\t x4 ,y see x1 don't y8 ,h[ 0 he made to see1 eh1 h[8 ,%e laugh$ outright4 ,!re y are6 ,i don't "k4 ,h[8 ,:y1 clay t\*$ 8 eyes1 common clay--& he saw6 ,y und]/&3 x 0 j common clay t he _h be5 walk+ ^u1 bl9d z a bat1 = all 8 days4 ,& he saw6 ,%e saw ! p>able1 grave all at once4 ,paul1 %e said1 ,i told y a mom5t ago t y w\ld tea*4 ,come on1 he %\t$1 plung+ d[n ! hill1 ,i want to write4 ,heav5s1 h[ ,i want to write6 ,ursula1 ,i %all read x to y bit by bit4 ,& y %all pa9t a picture ( x4 ,we'll d x toge!r4 ',! ,begg>-,man4' ,%all we8 ,r4 ,beg9 to-day4 ,come & read to me to-night4 ,y don't m9d8 ,he /opp$ aga9 abruptly4 ,m9d8 ,( c\rse n4 ,:at a boy6 ,!n we're real fri5ds1 are we8 ,( c\rse1 said ,ursula4 ,i saw t la/ night4 7#c7 ,?us1 v]itably1 0 born ,! ,begg>-,man4 ,! g5]al public knew no?+ ( x till ! play 0 /ag$1 m ?an twelve mon?s lat]1 aft] ! usual intol]able delays & ! appe>ance ( ! au?or's second book ( v]se1 & !n1 = all ! int]e/ x ar\s$ 9 ?is new au?or1 & = all ! heavy book+s1 few ev] knew ! details ( its orig9 & work+ out4 ,x 01 z /ag$1 a *ildr5's my/]y4 ,!y lov$ ! ,begg>-,man1 & %\t$ ) glee at 8 gay sallies & 8 new-born wond]m5t 9 wood5 /ools1 8 rickety hut & ! we$s ab\t 8 door4 ,!y lov$ 8 adv5ture ) ! ,k+1 ! /upid old ,k+ :o 0 z bl9d z--z a begg>-man4 ,b gr[n-up p w5t1 too1 & !y smil$ a little wi/fully :5 ! *ildr5 laugh$1 & look$ a little sadly at glitt]+ ,h]od4 ,x 0 n a biblical play 9 a s5se1 & yet1 z a critic said1 x 0 a *apt] or two ( ,/4 ,john's gospel t _h n previ\sly be5 writt54 ,z to ,paul1 9 ^! days1 t ,begg>-,man mov$ into ,=dham ,manor & liv$ ) him4 ,he & ! boy became insep>ables4 ,he inspir$ a ?\s& songs t did n m5tion 8 "n1 b he relat$ incid5ts & prea*$ p>ables t ,paul w\ld retail z :olly 8 own4 ,ursula 0 _! confidante4 ,mrs4 ,mann+1 at fir/ bewild]$1 at l5g? p]=ce tol]ant1 got us$ to ! arrival ( ,paul on a morn+ brea?less f a race across ! p>k4 ,good-morn+1 ,mrs4 ,mann+1 he w\ld %\t1 :]e's ,ursula8 ,good-morn+1 %e w\ld say4 ,9 ! /udio1 pa9t+4 ,i'll g up1 if ,i may1 he w\ld reply1 & da% up ! /airs4 ,ursula1 at h] easel1 w\ld smile gravely & call ,come 9 almo/ be=e he knock$4 ,oh1 ,i say1 ,paul w\ld cry gaily1 :at d y ?9k ! ,begg>-,man told me la/ night8 ,he says t1 aft] ! cure1 he w5t (f to 8 h\se )\t 8 /ick4 ,)\t 8 /ick4 ,he c\ld h>dly believe s simple a ?+ z t z he w5t1 b x 0 true4 ,= ! fir/ "t1 !n1 he saw 8 home--a poor en\gh %anty1 b 8 own home1 t he saw = ! fir/ "t4 ,he 0 /ill rubb+ ! te>s out ( 8 eyes1 :5 !re came a knock at ! door4 ,he op5$ x4 ',excuse me1' said ! man )\t1 trembl+ ) eag]ness1 'b is !re any m ( t clay8 ,i don't want all y\rs1 ( c\rse1 only j a little4444 ,or if y c\ld tell me :]e to get x4444' ',good heav5s6' ro>$ ! bl9d man 7ass]t+ himself = ! fir/ "t 9 hi/ory1 ,ursula71 'x 0 clay1 man1 good hone/ clay6 ,look at x6 ,turn r\nd & look at x6 ,!re's miles ( ! holy preci\s /uff4 ,g d[n on y\r mis]able knees1 z ,i did1 & ?ank ,god = x4 ,i didn't make x4 ,i c't give x to y4 ,god ?ru/s x at y4 ,7 y born bl9d8' ,or ,paul w\ld asc5d ! /airs m quietly1 & knock4 ,may ,i come 98 he w\ld say1 op5+ ! door g5tly4 ,yes1 y old silly4 ,:at is x n[8 ,paul w\ld ?r[ himself into ! w9d[-seat & look gravely at h]4 ,i say1 d y "k1 9 ! long run1 !y all said t he 0 /ill bl9d6 ,:at8 ,!y all said he 0 /ill bl9d4 ,! p1 y "k1 & ! ,ph>isees4 ,! p said3 ',b1 look "h1 h[ c\ld clay op5 a man's eyes8 ,! ?+'s ridicul\s4 ,!re mu/ be m 9 x ?an t4 ,come n[1 ,he said a magic ^w1 didn't ,he1 t ,jesus8 ,he _h "s secret m$ic9e1 eh8 ,y're hid+ some?+1 y "k y are6 ,:at 0 x8' ',x 0 clay out ( ! /reet1' said ! ,begg>-,man1 'j clay4' ',rubbi%1' said ! p1 'y're z bl9d z a bat to believe t twaddle4' ,ursula w\ld lean back ?\ghtfully1 /udy+ him4 ,& ! ,ph>isees8 %e ask$ s(tly4 ,ah1 ! ,ph>isees6 ,paul jump$ up & began to walk re/lessly ab\t4 ,y see1 ,ursula1 :5 he 0 bl9d !y 7 r satisfi$ ) him4 ,he saw s pla9ly :at good1 wise1 holy m5 !y 74 ,he saw pla9ly t !y 7 meant to be ma/]s 9 ,israel1 & x is "r & prop] = begg>s to see t4 ,b :5 !y 7 up aga9/ 8 sight1 & %[$ pla9ly t ultimately !y knew no m ?an he did1 &1 inde$1 n s mu*1 ab\t ,god or ,jesus or miracles or clay or any?+1 he began to ?9k t !y1 too1 mu/ h be5 born bl9d4 ,i see1 said ! girl1 ,i see1 ,paul4 ,& :at !n8 ,oh1 !y turn$ ! ,begg>-,man out ( ! temple1 said ,paul4 ,ah1 & :at !n8 ,he tells me1 he w5t1 ,ursula1 he j w5t4 ,&--& he's nev] gone back4 ,sil5ce betwe5 !m4 ,he 0 />+ out ( ! w9d[ n[1 & %e lean+ back 9 h] *air1 play+ ) h] bru%es4 ,ursula4 ,yes8 ,d y "k1 ! disciples ?\ght him bl9d1 too4 ,:y8 ,well1 !y 7 s sure ab\t ,jesus4 ,!y made a :ole religion up ab\t him4 ,& ! ,begg>-,man nev] c\ld d t4 ',he took ! clay t he & ,i 7 /&+ on1' he w\ld say1 '& ,i saw4 ,t's all ,i h to tell4 ,"o ?+ ,i "k3 :]eas ,i 0 bl9d1 n[ ,i see4' ',love him1 !n1' said ! disciples4 ',good heav5s1 d y ?9k ,i don't8' cri$ ! ,begg>-,man4 ',wor%ip him1 !n1' said ! disciples4 ',( c\rse1' said ! ,begg>-,man1 'z ,i wor%ip my "m & my wife & ! little blue spr+ lilies on ! hills ( ,galilee4' ',no1' !y said4 ',he's ! ,second ,p]son ( ! ,tr9ity4 ,he's ! ,logos4 ,he's ,et]nal1 ,invisible1 ! ,only ,wise----' ,& ! ,begg>-,man us$ to int]rupt !m4 ',/op1' he us$ to say1 't's beyond me4 ,i c't foll[ t4 ,"o ?+ ,i "k3 :]eas----' ',we've he>d all t1' said ! disciples1 't's n en\gh4' ',i'm sorry1' said ! ,begg>-,man4 ',x is = me4' ,well8 qu]i$ ,ursula4 ,& ,paul turn$ r\nd f ! w9d[1 8 eyes meet+ h]s4 ,!y turn$ ! ,begg>-,man out ( ! ,*ur*1 he said gravely4 ,& %e w\ld nod back at him1 ) a little smile4 ,he w5t on see+1 ?\gh1 %e w\ld say4 ,y're a de>1 ,ursula1 cri$ ,paul4 ,despite 8 eag]ness t ,octob] morn+1 ,paul did n !n1 all at once1 write 8 play4 ,he said t he & ! ,begg> _h got to get to "k ea* o!r4 ,& be=e he got to ! actual draft1 he wrote d[n a few def9ite incid5ts 9 ! lat] life ( ! ,begg>-,man4 ,he br\ght ! manuscript r\nd to ,ursula "o day ! foll[+ ,spr+ :5 ! new fl[]s 7 out on ,*anctonbury v mu* z !y _h be5 :5 !y sprang into vivid flames ( be+ be=e ! newly-op5$ eyes ( ! bl9d ,begg> on ! hills ( ,galilee t he _h lov$ s mu*4 ,he br\ght x r\nd to h] v e>ly1 :ile ! family at ! cottage 7 /ill at breakfa/1 :i* did n p]turb him at all4 ,aft] greet+s1 he look$ across at ,ursula4 ,c y come = a long walk ?is morn+8 he ask$4 ,yes1 %e said4 ,at lea/1 n a v long walk4 ,i want y to come to t little wood on ! cre/ ( ! ,d[ns above ,/eyn+--y "k--& let me read ?is to y4 ,mrs4 ,mann+'s eyes travell$ f "o to ! o!r a little anxi\sly4 ,really1 ^! two 444 ,b p]haps ?is "t 444 ,well1 if ! girl knew h] own m9d4444 ,all "r1 said ,ursula4 ,i'll get a coat4 ,don't =get x's only ,spr+1 said ,mrs4 ,mann+ at ! door4 ,don't cat* cold4 ,we'll rememb]1 "m1 said ,ursula1 & !y set out4 ,at ! rememb]$ spot1 ,paul spread a mack9to% on ! gr\nd4 ,!re1 he said1 sit d[n4 ,i'm go+ to read to y4 ,d y m9d8 ,%e smil$ h] own sil5t sl[ smile at him1 & drew h] knees up1 & clasp$ h] h&s r\nd !m1 & />$ d[n at ! sleepy little t[n ne/l+ f> bel[4 ,paul read4 ,x 0 ! la/ /age be=e ! actual & n[ fam\s play4 ,he _h writt5 )\t introduction z if he 7 ab\t a %ort /ory1 &1 9 ma91 x 0 ?is t 0 dramatis$4 7#d7 ,paul f9i%$4 ,ursula1 :o _h h>dly mov$1 put out a h& & laid x g5tly on 8 arm4 ,paul drew a brea? ( reliev$ cont5t1 be+ satisfi$ n[ t he knew h] s well4 ,n[1 he said1 ,i %all beg9 t play4 ,god is sil5t1 said ,ursula quizzically4 ,b ,i see1 cri$ ,paul eag]ly4 ,:at d y see8 ,i see ! wond] & beauty ( ?+s z !y are4 ,i see t !y satisfy4 ,i see t t's en\gh1 t--t !y're a k9d ( av5ue d[n :i* a man c g =w>d4 ,& at ! end1 p]haps1 he w f9d1 n all ! secret1 b a /ill liv+ lovely lake ( wat] into :i* he w plunge1 cont5t4 ,wat]8 ,paul nodd$1 ) bright eyes4 ,! wat] ( life1 he said4 ,& :at is t1 d y ?9k8 ,i don't "k4 ,x's sure to be beautiful1 ?\gh4 ,v1 ,paul1 ,i ?9k1 repli$ ,ursula1 speak+ v quietly z %e (t5 did4 ,paul /udi$ h] face4 ,i w\ld l y to be !re1 he said1 a little re/lessly4 ,w\ld y8 %e said4 ,well1 we %all see4 ,next morn+1 ,ursula w5t up to t[n & took up resid5ce aga9 9 h] flat4 ,mrs4 ,mann+ _h flutt]$ ab\t h] all ! aft]noon1 & le>n$ no?+4 ,h] daught] seem$ :olly unaw>e t %e might h any "q to ask1 & ,mrs4 ,mann+ did n d>e ask h] any?+ directly4 ,b %e ?\ght %e might le>n m f ,paul4 ,s1 :5 h] daught]'s c> _h driv5 (f1 %e & h] si/] walk$ r\nd to ! ,manor ) a note ,ursula _h left = ,paul4 ,!y f\nd him at "w4 ,he got up1 p5 9 h&1 & a look 9 ! back ( 8 eyes t ,mrs4 ,mann+ saw 9 h] daught]'s :5 %e 0 v busily pa9t+4 ,ursula's gone to t[n1 said h] "m1 & %e's left y ?is note4 ,has %e8 qu]i$ ,paul4 ,%e didn't tell me %e 0 go+4 ,he tore x op51 & read x quickly4 ,x only took him a few seconds to read & he smil$ z he f9i%$4 ,t's all "r1 he said4 ,x's no?+ mu*1 ,mrs4 ,mann+1 only ab\t my "w4 ,well1 we won't int]rupt y n[1 %e said politely4 ,come 9 :5 y c4 ,at ! end ( a long morn+'s "w1 ,paul pick$ up ! note z if he _h n se5 x be=e1 & re-read x4 ,i'm (f to t[n1 %e _h writt54 ,i've _h a sudd5 notion4 ,give my love to ! ,begg>-,man4 ,y & he h got y\r "w to d toge!r j n[1 & ,i %\ld only int]rupt1 b call me 9 at ! f9i% & ,i want a box ! fir/ night4 ,,ursula4 ,hav+ read x1 ,paul smil$ aga94 ,he 0 /ill preoccupi$ ) ! beauty ( ! budd+ limes t ar*$ ! av5ue ( ,sight4 ,,*apt] ,,xi ,,ursula ,if y tea* a man to keep 8 eyes ^u :at o!rs ?9k ( him1 un?9k+ly to lead ! life & hold ! pr9ciples ( ! majority ( 8 contempor>ies1 y mu/ discr$it 9 8 eyes ! au?oritative voice ( 8 own s\l4 ,he may be a docile citiz52 he w nev] be a man4 ,x is ours1 on ! o!r h&1 to disreg>d ! babble & *att]+ ( o!r m5 bett] & worse ?an we are1 & to walk /raight be=e u by :at light we h4 ,!y may be "r2 b s1 be=e heav51 are we4 ,!y may "k2 b we "k also1 & by t k we mu/ /& or fall4 ,!re is su* a ?+ z loyalty to a man's bett] self2 & f ^? :o h n t1 ,god help me1 h[ am ,i to look = loyalty to o!rs8 444 ,al?\gh all ! _w rang$ !mselves 9 "o l9e to tell ,?is is wrong1 be y y\r own fai?ful vassal & ! ambassador ( ,god--?r[ d[n ! glove & answ] ,?is is "r4 ,d y ?9k y are only decl>+ y\rself8 ,p]haps 9 "s dim way1 l a *ild :o deliv]s a message n fully und]/ood1 y are op5+ wid] ! /raits ( prejudice & prep>+ mank9d = "s tru] & m spiritual grasp ( tru?2 p]haps1 z y /& =? = y\r own judgm5t1 y are cov]+ a ?\s& weak ones ) y\r body2 p]haps1 by ?is decl>ation alone1 y h avoid$ ! guilt ( false witness aga9/ humanity & ! little ones unborn4 ,x is good1 ,i believe1 to be respectable1 b mu* nobl] to respect oneself & utt] ! voice ( ,god4--,,rob]t ,,l\is ,,/ev5son4 ,y see deep]8 ,?us saw he1 ,& by ! light he saw1 mu/ walk3 h[ else ,0 he to d 8 "p8 ,,rob]t ,,br[n+3 ,savi\r ( ,society4 7#a7 ,! day _h come at la/1 & _h all b end$4 ,! busy writ+1 t _h be5 b an int]lude1 z x seem$ aft]w>ds1 to ! "w ( curtail+1 alt]+1 l5g!n+ & f9ally /ag+ ! play2 ! alt]nat+ moods ( despair & hope2 ! weeks ( rehe>sals2 ! imm$iate days be=e ! p]=mance1 sp5t 9 t[n1 half liv$ at ! !atre1 sp5t 9 a new bewild]+ atmosph]e ( critical int]e/$ faces1 critical indiff]5t faces1 toady+ sycophant faces1 /upid c>eless faces2 all ^! 7 ov]4 ,arnold & ,ursula _h /ood by him all ! "t1 ,arnold giv+ him sanctu>y 9 8 rooms1 ,ursula ready = 8 moods1 ! cle>+-h\se ( 8 ?\ghts & emotions4 ,paul _h gr[n ev] m cle>ly aw>e :at good fri5ds ^! 71 & n[1 = ! fir/ night1 !y two & ,tressor _h be5 ) him 9 ! box4 ,he 0 v tir$2 t seem$ to /& out m cle>ly ?an any?+ else4 ,he 0 utt]ly tir$ ( 8 own "w1 & utt]ly tir$ ( ! :ole dre>y bus9ess ( /ag+4 ,he _h se5 ! curta9 g up *iefly ) a k9d ( dull wond] t anyone %\ld be !re to wat* ! fanta/ically famili> & n[ bor+ ?+4 ,he _h look$ d[n ) ! re/1 across ! footlights1 into t ,ea/]n /reet :]e pass]s by came & w5t1 & mules & asses1 :]e a radiant sun %one bl9d+ly1 :]e tall :ite h\ses & ! gaudy boo?s ( m]*ants fill$ ! sc5e2 b he _h a sudd5 odd s5se ( ,*anctonbury & d>k p9es & ! cool mell[ w9d1 & a feel+ t ! begg>-man _h no place !re4 ,yet ! begg>-man 0 duly at 8 corn] cr\*+ 9 ! du/1 :9+1 %r9k+ f ! ,ph>isee's robe1 ! m]*ant's /ick4 ,paul f\nd himself />+ ) ar\s$ int]e/--8 bl9d begg>-man6 ,& !n !re _h be5 t confus$ murmur (f ! /age2 ! sudd5 empty+ ( ! /reet2 t cry ( ! ,son ( ,david1 />tl+ly cle>1 t _h fet*$ ! begg>-man to 8 feet & drawn him grop+ (f1 leav+ ! des]t$ /alls1 ! gl>+ du/ & a te!r$ bea/ or two = ! audi5ce to /udy ! :ile ! noise )\t di$ d[n1 & leap$ aga9 into a sudd5 %\t z ! miracle 0 accompli%$4 ,t _h be5 8 idea1 8 only1 & 8 ! new /rid+ 9 ( t al]t figure1 ?rong$1 jo/l$1 que/ion$1 :o made 8 resolute revolution>y way back to 8 old seat = 8 b[l & 8 /ool ere he m>*$ (f home--see+4 ,) ! fall ( ! curta91 an eag] manag] _h pu%$ 8 way 94 ,capital1 capital1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,x's go+ l a bell4 ,?or\ghwood is "h1 & he's v impress$1 v impress$ inde$4 ,i 0 n sure ( him1 y "k1 b if he says ! "r ?+1 ! play's made4 ,i congratulate y1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 ,i d inde$4 ,paul _h />$ at him4 ,!n he b[$ & murmur$ a conv5tional reply1 & sat d[n heavily by ,ursula4 ,%e _h put h] h& on 8 arm & smil$4 ,t's all "r1 %e said4 ,don't m9d him4 ,p w see ! "r ?+1 if he doesn't4 ,w !y8 he _h que/ion$4 ,boy1 %e said1 ,i've nev] _h a d\bt4 ,!re's no d5y+ sight4 ,& s x _h be54 ,! ?+ 0 sight4 ,ev5 a fir/-night ,london !atre audi5ce1 attract$ by ! adv]tisem5t ( an unusual ?+1 _h se5 t4 ,! play z a play 0 good1 b ! play z a p>able 0 some?+ m4 ,! clay _h t\*$ m eyes ?an ^? ( ! bl9d begg> t night4 ,:5 ! la/ curta9 fell1 x _h fall5 on a sil5t h\se4 ,! weav+ ( ! spell _h be5 complete4 ,art1 poetry1 drama & successful /ag+1 all _h be5 !re1 b ! _s ( some?+ m _h /ol5 into ! place4 ,sev]al ?\s& m5 & wom5 _h look$ on tru? 9 its beauty1 /ripp$ ( ! %ams & conv5tionalities ( or?odox religion1 & ! utt] lovel9ess ( x _h gone /raight to _! he>ts4 ,( c\rse1 ! applause _h come1 _h gr[n1 _h begun z a brea? ( relief & _h ris5 to a cresc5do ( tumult4 ,p _h invad$ ! box4 ,! manag] _h ge/ur$ t[>ds a sea ( upturn$ faces1 look+ _! way4 ,paul _h gone beh9d1 %ak5 h&s ) a sudd5 grateful eag]ness ) ! m5 & wom5 :o _h play$ 9 8 success1 & appe>$ = a mom5t be=e ! curta94 ,he _h said some?+1 & b[$1 & felt sudd5ly utt]ly c>ri$ away1 s t he _h wav$ 8 h& boyi%ly & _h1 app>5tly1 done j ! "r ?+1 :atev] t 04 ,at pres5t he _h no recollection4 ,b ev5 ,ursula _h be5 smil+ :5 he rejo9$ !m4 ,come on1 cri$ ,arnold1 ! taxi's wait+ & we'll get out ( ?is4 ,"r1 said ,paul4 ,:i* way8 444 ,:at is x8 ,l5d me a p5cil1 w y8 ,!re1 w t d8 ,arnold ?ru/ 8 arm into 84 ,look "h1 he said1 = heav5's sake don't />t sign+ programmes n[4 ,on y g1 ,ursula4 ,we'll foll[4 ,! port] 9 8 little box smil$ at him4 ,! manag] appe>$ aga9 & smil$ at him4 7,oh1 ,i say1 don't g4 ,d /ay = supp]4444 ,?anks awfully1 b ,i've got a %[ fix$ up1 ,i fe>4 ,ano!r night44447 ,a little cr[d at ! door smil$ at him & ?ru/ =w>d4 ,a policeman ev5 smil$ at him1 & ?ru/ back4 ,ursula got 92 ,paul 0 vividly aw>e ( ! d>k night1 a muddy /reet1 a yell[ fl>e ( light ov] ! way1 ! tail ( a po/]3 ----,,ar-,,man1 & ! gleam ( ! girl's :ite op]a-cloak4 ,!n he too 0 91 9 ! d>k conf9$ little space1 sitt+ d[n by h]1 fumbl+ to move h] wraps a little1 /[+ 8 legs away to make room = ,arnold4 ,& !n ,arnold1 l+]+ mom5t>ily to bid ! driv] make all spe$1 0 9 too1 & ! door bang$1 & ! fir/ p]=mance 0 ov]4 ,?ank ,god1 said ,arnold4 ,give me a cig>ette1 somebody4 ,did y see ,muriel8 ask$ ,ursula4 ,%e 0 9 front4 ,%e wav$ to me4 ,i took x to mean t %e'd g on4 ,:]e's ,tressor8 dem&$ ,paul4 ,arnold laugh$4 ,he> t1 ,ursula8 ,/ill1 ,i suppose x's excusable4 ,p]sonally ,i %\ld h be5 drunk be=e ?is4 ,y're really a m>vel1 ,paul4 ,:at 9 ! _w are y talk+ ab\t8 ,ursula1 d expla94 ,h] eyes danc$ at him4 ,oh1 x's no?+1 %e said4 ,we're all ( u too excit$ to talk s5se4 ,paul1 isn't x absolutely priceless8 ,i c't tell y :at ,i feel1 said ,paul4 ,tressor %ook h&s ) y1 & said good-night & t he'd cle> (f1 & y 7 to let him "k :5 y 7 go+ d[n to ,=dham1 expla9$ ,arnold belat$ly4 ,oh1 yes1 s he did4 ,i say1 ,mortim] did ',h]od' well1 didn't he8 ,& d'y "k1 t f9i% is good1 isn't x8 ,x 0 wond]ful to-night4 ,9 ! end1 x seem$ to me t ,i hadn't writt5 x1 hadn't ev5 se5 x be=e4 ,magic ( an excit$ h\se1 comm5t$ ,arnold4 ,well1 y ought to be a happy man4 ,y're a lucky "o1 anyway4 ,i "k4 ,i am4 ,i am bo?4 ,& ,i'm awfully grateful to y two4 ,arnold put 8 head out ( ! w9d[4 ,"h we are1 he cri$1 half 9 & half out ( ! taxi4 ,we've done no?+4 ,paul turn$ sudd5ly to ! girl4 ,y did ev]y?+1 he said1 ) vivid realisation4 ,x _h be5 ,ursula's wi% to give ,paul a triumphant supp] at h] flat ! night ( 8 success4 ,x 0 n to be a big affair1 ! ?ree ( !m & ,muriel ,li/] only1 & ,paul _h eag]ly ass5t$1 realis+ a little h[ intol]able any o!r programme w\ld be4 ,s n[ ,ursula w5t ahead up/airs1 & :5 ,paul & 8 fri5d came 91 0 draw+ h] gloves (f be=e ! fire & *att+ ) h] fri5d4 ,"h he is1 %e cri$4 ,n[ ,muriel4 ,muriel ,li/] took an eag] pace =w>d & held out h] h&4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 %e said1 ,i don't "k h[ to congratulate y4 ,y've done f> m ?an devise a successful play1 f> m ?an write "s wond]ful poetry4 ,y've prea*$ a new religion1 d y "k t8 ,y're rightly call$ ,paul2 y're an apo/le4 ,paul laugh$4 ,t's ! "o role ,i've s\ght all my days1 he said1 b ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld nev] play x4 ,well1 y h4 ,all ,london w "k x to-morr[4 ,y've said ! ?+ ! *ur*es are afraid to say4 ,y've said :at we've be5 try+ to prea* = ye>s4 ,& :at's m1 y've said x 9 su* a way t p w li/5 & see4 ,oh1 ,i d congratulate y6 ,my de> ,muriel1 said ,arnold1 y're intol]able4 ,a p>son is bad en\gh1 b a woman p>son is worse4 ,:atev] y girls may feel1 ,i'm dy+ = eats & dr9ks1 & ,i bet ! successful au?or is too1 only1 probably1 he's too %y to say s4 ,let's eat fir/ & talk x ov] aft]w>ds4 ,muriel *uckl$ & turn$ to ,ursula4 ,:at a pig he is1 %e cri$1 b p]haps he's "r4 ,we're all f\r too exalt$ = life at pres5t4 ,let's eat1 & we %all gr[ sane4 ,x's a p>able4 ,come on1 my de>2 %all ,i dole out *ick58 ,!y ga!r$ r\nd ! table 9 a corn] ( ! big /udio & fell to1 talk+ rem9isc5tly & mo/ly all at once ! :ile4 ,f9ally ,paul pu%$ 8 *air back a little & laugh$ al\d4 ,:at is x n[8 mumbl$ ,arnold1 /ill busy4 ,oh1 cri$ ,paul1 ,i c't believe x1 y "k1 ,i c't believe x6 ,we f\r1 "h1 & ,i ! au?or ( a play t--t 7,i "k x's conceit$1 b ,i c't help x7 t p]haps half ,london w be talk+ ab\t 9 a week6 ,8 little ge/ure took !m all 93 ,arnold opposite1 consum+ trifle2 ,ursula on 8 left1 tall1 d>k1 lean+ back 9 h] *air1 play+ ) a spoon1 smil+2 ,muriel on 8 "r1 ke5-fac$1 upright1 fair2 ! b>e table litt]$ ) pleasant ?+s ( glass & silv]2 di%es--! :ite dbris ( *ick51 ! %att]$ orange ( a jelly2 ! %ad[$ spaces ( ! /udio ab\t !m2 ! blue curta9s2 ! fad$ ,p]sian rug2 easel2 worn1 easy *airs2 model's ?rone2 a %elf 9 ! corn] gleam+ ) ! hamm]$ copp] ( ,ursula's collection ( antique ,arab c(fee-pots & b[ls2 a /&>d lamp %ad$ ) blue & old gold2 a bookcase ) its own]'s c>efully select$ volumes1 among :i* 7 a c\ple n[ be>+ 8 "n4 ,& ! ?ree look$ at him & read 8 face = a second or two 9 sil5ce4 ,!y all knew :at he meant4 ,x 0 r wond]ful :5 "o consid]$ ! ,paul ,ke/]n ( ,lambe? ,c\rt4 ,muriel ,li/] broke ! little sil5ce4 ,x's l y n to believe x yet1 %e said4 ,paul /udi$ h] & grew puzzl$4 ,:y d y say t8 he ask$4 ,%e ?rew a glance at ,ursula4 ,! two 7 great fri5ds & confid$ 9 ea* o!r4 ,!n %e laugh$4 ,y're /ill a bit bl9d1 y "k1 %e retort$4 ,:y8 qu]i$ ,paul4 ,i don't see4 ,exactly1 nodd$ ! o!r4 ,b come on1 let's talk4 ,paul *ose ! big foot/ool1 :i*1 9 ! /udio1 _h come to be reg>d$ z 8 special "r4 ,arnold sprawl$ on a c\*4 ,muriel ,li/] sat on a *air by ,paul4 ,ursula _h a pile ( cu%ions 9 ! corn] betwe5 ,arnold & ! fire1 & said little z 0 h] wont4 ,y've got to prea* t new religion ( y\rs1 w5t on ,muriel :5 !y 7 settl$4 ,i hope y realise t4 ,paul fr[n$4 ,he lik$ ,miss ,li/]1 b n especially h] r p>sonic mann]4 ,i don't "k t ,i c1 he said4 ,y mu/4 ,:y %\ldn't y8 ,i'm n sure t ,i see x l t myself yet4 ,surely y d4 ,don't y see x's j :at ! _w is wait+ =8 ,m5 & wom5 h outgr[n t old pi\s talk ( a god t is no m ?an a glorifi$ human be+1 & especially !y've outgr[n all ^? grave-clo!s ! ,greek philosoph]s & ,ea/]n gno/ics w\nd ab\t ! figure ( ! prophet ( ,naz>e? 9 ord] to pres5t to ! _w a conception1 a ,jesus ( ! ,nic5e ,cre$4 ,b someh[ !re 0 no way out4 ,we all speculat$ z to ! p]sonality ( ,god1 except a few1 :o 7 agno/ics1 b y get n[h]e ) negations4 ,i "k1 said ,paul gravely4 ,t ,god ( !irs is asleep4 ,! oracle is sil5t4 ,i "k4 ,yes1 & n[ by "s /roke ( g5ius y've put y\r f+] on ! ?+ t matt]s4 ,sight4 ,! beauty ( ! _w4 ',he's good1 omnipot5t1 a fa!r'--t's :at ! !ologians h said4 ',x's beautiful1' say y1 & t's en\gh4 ,! gospel ( %e] slo?ful mat]ial s5tim5talism1 put 9 ,mann+ lazily4 ,%e fla%$ on him4 ,rubbi%1 %e cri$4 ,t's n ! gospel ( ! ,begg>-,man1 is x1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n8 ,no1 said ,paul1 no1 no1 no2 x's n t4 ,no1 ! glory ( ?is is t x is positive4 ,x /rides =w>d4 ,x builds2 x---- ,x builds :at8 ,let's be practical4 ,t sort ( talk1 up to ! pres5t anyway1 has mo/ly built ,agapemones4 ,muriel ,li/] fr[n$4 ,no1 %e said4 ,! ,temple ( ,common ,?+s4 ,arnold suck$ 8 pipe4 ,i fe> ,i c't foll[ s quickly1 he retort$ cynically4 ,y w\ldn't4 ,b1 don't y see8 ,?is cre$ doesn't seek an /hetic hybrid s5sual beauty4 ,:5 ! begg>-man _h 8 eyes op5$1 :at 0 x seem$ beautiful to him8 ,eh1 :at8 ,paul smil$4 ,8 ?ree-legg$ /ool1 he said1 & 8 little hovel4 ,exactly4 ,clay4 ,! beauty ( gold-br[n e>?4 ,& ,miss ,li/] relaps$ into sil5ce4 ,i /ill don't see ! gospel1 said ,arnold4 ,y're born bl9d1 !n1 retort$ ! girl4 ,well1 return$ ,arnold1 be a little m explicit4 ,get on ) x4 ,a gospel t orig9s & ends don't matt] & t we ought to be influ5c$ by !m n at all2 t ,god is veil$1 b ! veil is good2 t we are k9 to all t is2 t b>ri]s are ( our own mak+2 t ! urge ( life )9 u is our guide2 & t moralities & revelations & false spiritualities h !mselves made s94 ,&1 %e add$ sl[ly1 t ! true spiritual life consi/s 9 ! pursuit ( le>n+1 exp]i5ce & beauty1 accord+ to vocation1 )\t fe> & = !mselves alone4 ,fe>8 qu]i$ ,arnold4 ,yes1 )\t fe>4 ,! gospel ( ! ,begg>-,man bani%es fe>4 ,he kn[s "r values4 ,he kn[s he _c be robb$ ( any?+ t matt]s4 ,he fe>s no man2 all m5 are bro!rs2 all are bl9d begg>s ) pot5tial sight2 he has no?+ b pity = y\r ari/ocrat1 y\r millionaire4 ',news f ,n[h]e'1 *uckl$ ,arnold4 ,true--) ! pa? blazon$ to x1 %e exclaim$4 ,x appe>s to be y & n ,paul :o is prea*+ anyway1 put 9 ,ursula1 />+ into ! fire4 ,he w live x1 & he w s+ x--& y w pa9t x1 cri$ ,muriel4 ,:i* rem9ds me1 said ,paul gravely1 t ,i've to g d[n to ,claxt$ to-morr[4 ,claxt$8 ,yes1 to my p4 ,i've utt]ly neglect$ !m lately4 ,!y don't ev5 "k ,i've writt5 a play4 ,!y w to-morr[1 said ,arnold1 if !y read ! newspap]s4 ,yes1 ,paul repli$ sl[ly1 ,i ?9k !y w4 ,& 0 sudd5ly sil5t1 ) a sil5ce t ! little company knew to be significant4 ,! firelight danc$ on 8 face4 ,ursula turn$ h] head sl[ly & /udi$ him4 7#b7 ,paul w5t back ) ,arnold1 & next morn+ ! two fri5ds pack$ up & p>t$1 ,arnold go+ to ,cambridge1 ,paul to ,claxt$4 ,! latt] 0 to sp5d "s weeks ) 8 p & 0 re/less ov] ! prospect4 ,he did n say mu*1 h[ev]2 ,arnold 0 almo/ incapable ( und]/&+ j :at ,claxt$ meant4 ,he knew t ! ,ke/]ns 7 old-fa%ion$ & /rait-lac$2 :at he c\ld n "k 0 ! s9c]ity1 ! e>ne/ness on ! "o h&1 & ! fi]ce fanaticism on ! o!r1 ( _! fai?4 ,b ,paul knew1 or ?\ght s4 ,p]haps he %\ld h realis$ ev5 m ?an he did1 b ! ye>s ( p>tial sep>ation & ! mell[ influ5ce ( ,=dham _h dull$ 8 memory to "s ext5t4 ,he _h h>dly left ,claxt$ /ation1 h[ev]1 be=e he got an inkl+ ( :at 0 to be4 ,9 ,edw>d ,/reet he ran into ,miss ,bi%op4 ,n[ ,miss ,bi%op 0 ,miss ,bi%op1 a unique product ( div9e provid5ce1 b b5ea? all h] angul>ity & sect>ianism ran a k9dly curr5t :i* _h hi!rto embrac$ ,paul4 ,he !re=e smil$ at see+ h]1 %ift$ a suitcase to 8 left h& & held out 8 "r4 ,:y1 ,miss ,bi%op1 he said1 h[ d y d8 ,! woman's lips compress$ & h] eyes fla%$4 ,y c be z *e]ful z t1 c y8 %e said4 ,d y realise ! evil y h done8 ,b ,i suppose y don't4 ,may ,god op5 y\r eyes 9 "t1 t is all ,i h to say4 ,good-day4 ,& %e pass$ on1 )\t tak+ 8 h&4 ,paul's a/oni%m5t & dismay 7 almo/ ludicr\s4 ,a pass+ small boy ) a /reet ur*9's ke5 p]ception1 p]ceiv$ vaguely t he _h hit on a lucky incid5t4 ,8 arre/$ :i/le & wide gr9 recall$ ,paul to 8 s5ses4 ,fair cop1 mi/]8 qu]i$ ! small boy1 hopefully4 ,paul ignor$ him1 caught a glimm] ( ! hum\r ( ! situation1 *ang$ 8 grip on 8 suitcase aga91 & pass$ on4 ,b z he w5t1 he turn$ h] words ov] 9 8 m9d4 ,increas+ly he c\ld see no s5se 9 !m4 ,tak+ ! c9d]-pa? t skirts ! railway1 ! k9dly t\* ( famili> ?+s :i* h ceas$ to h p[] to p]plex or t]rify came to 8 aid4 ,x 0 along ?is pa? t he _h gone to ! ,mission ,hall ,sunday by ,sunday1 ! wat]s ( 8 s\l tr\bl$ ) ! fr5zy ( apo/le%ip1 b x 0 along ?is pa? t he _h return$ (t5 & aga9 arm 9 arm ) a t5d] k9dly ,mr4 ,ke/]n :o _h %>$ all 8 son's en?usiasms & sympa?is$ 9 8 di/resses4 ,"h1 z a s*oolboy1 he _h c\nt$ tra9s or trudg$ eag]ly home f s*ool = a ,saturday aft]noon excursion4 ,"h1 m adult1 he _h be5 fir/ consci\s ( sex /imulus 7?\gh !n & n[ he did n s label x7 9 ! company ( ,madel9e & ,edi?4 ,edi?6 ,yes1 x 0 ( ,edi? t he ?\ght mo/ly z he walk$ home4 ,%e _h be5 res]v$ & sorr[ful on 8 go+ to ,=dham1 _h repli$ m & m t>dily to lett]s1 _h f9ally ceas$ to write at all4 ,b he too _h ceas$4 ,anyone z s5sitive z ,paul to surr\nd+s w\ld h felt an incongruity betwe5 ,edi? ,?ornton & ,=dham ,manor1 & !n1 too1 he _h be5 go+ ?r\gh an emotional /ress big en\gh to dom9ate 8 m9d4 ,b n[1 back "h 9 ! home atmosph]e1 he ?\ght v w>mly ( h]4 ,he long$ = h] simplicity1 h] nave fai?4 ,x did n seem to him a b>ri] betwe5 !m4 ,aft] all1 ) ! sight ( ! ,begg>-,man1 x 0 easy to enfold h] 9 t5d]ness & und]/&+4 ,?us1 !n1 he came at la/ to 8 fa!r's door1 wait$ impati5tly = ! maid to op5 x1 dropp$ 8 bag 9 ! little hall1 & turn$ impulsively to ! figure ( ,mr4 ,ke/]n irresolute 9 ! /udy door4 ,dad1 he cri$1 x is good to see y aga96 ,h[ are y8 ,h['s "m8 ,oh1 ,paul6 ,! love1 ! sorr[1 ! ye>n+ ( ,mrs4 ,ke/]n's cry /abb$ him sudd5ly & unexpect$ly to ! he>t4 ,%e _h ru%$ pa/ h] husb& & flung h] arms ab\t 8 neck4 ,emotion well+ up 9 him1 he b5t 8 head to kiss h]1 & felt ! hot te>s on h] *eek4 ,oh1 my boy1 my boy4444 ,y've come at la/1 ,paul4 ,oh1 my son1 y'll nev] d\bt y\r "m's love = y1 w y8 ,kiss y\r fa!r1 ,paul4 ,i _c lose ei!r ( my m54 ,paul 0 already bewild]$4 ,! pa?os ( h] grip on 8 arm1 & ! significance ( h] eag]ness to see ! greet+ betwe5 him & 8 fa!r1 7 n lo/ ^u him4 ,8 "m cl++ to him1 he turn$ to 8 fa!r1 :o _h n /irr$4 ,( c\rse ,i've come1 "m d>l+1 he said4 ,b ,i've be5 t]ribly busy1 y "k4 ,& x's awfully jolly see+ y & daddy aga94 7,he us$ ! *ildi% ^w unconsci\sly47 ,h[ are y1 fa!r8 ,! man mov$ a little & bru%$ 8 son's lips4 ,paul p]ceiv$ 9 a mom5t t he _h ag$4 ,fe> slipp$ sudd5ly into 8 m9d4 ,he pe]$ a little to see 8 fa!r's eyes1 & !n1 ) some?+ l a cat* 9 8 he>t1 & ) a delib]ate bl9dness1 pu%$ !m be=e him into ! /udy4 ,oh1 x is jolly to be back1 he cri$ aga91 b ) simulat$ en?usiasm n[1 refus+ to admit :at he _h se51 /ifl+ 8 gr[+ appreh5sion4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n seat$ himself 9 8 revolv+ *air 9 front ( ! bureau4 ,8 ,bible lay op5 ^u x4 ,paul caught a glimpse ( ! und]l9+s1 ! railway-l9es1 ! add$ r$ & black ( ! almo/ microscopic notes 9 ! neat h&writ+ he knew s well4 ,he look$ swiftly r\nd4 ,! case ( /uff$ birds1 ! books1 ! fram$ portraits1 a pr9t ( ,john ,g4 ,paton1 mission>y 9 ! ,new ,hebrides--no?+ _h *ang$4 ,8 eye fell on a text1 ! lett]s ( :i* _h be5 cut out sep>ately ) a fretsaw1 hung on an invisible ?read1 & drap$ on ! wall above ! bureau4 ,jesus ,himself drew ne> & w5t ) !m4 ,t 0 new2 & yet1 yet1 h[ old6 ,! old ,claxt$2 ! old fai?2 ! old ob/9ate un*ang+ evangelicalism t 0 already a lifetime old to him4 ,h[ are all y\r new fri5ds8 ask$ 8 fa!r4 ,! hidd5 note ( bitt]ness /ung ,paul = ! fir/ "t to some?+ l ang]4 ,he *ok$ x d[n1 h[ev]4 ,v well inde$1 ?anks1 he said ev5ly4 ,i _h supp] ) !m la/ night1 & saw ,mann+ (f to ,cambridge ?is morn+4 ,! v newspap] told u t mu*1 said ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 ) a ge/ure t[>ds ! ,morn+ ,po/ t lay fold$ on a side-table4 ,aft] ! !atre1 ,i und]/&4 ,! h>%ness ( ! man's voice 0 too obvi\s to all[ ( any fur!r equivocation4 ,paul mov$ ov] to ! fireplace1 & 8 "m1 seat$ 9 an arm-*air1 held out a h& appeal+ly to him4 ,paul1 de>1 %e entreat$1 don't ang] y\r fa!r4 ,y "k :at he feels ab\t ! !atre4 ,b ,i've said no?+1 "m1 cri$ ,paul mis]ably4 ,no?+6 exclaim$ ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 :eel+ r\nd on him1 no long] able to re/ra9 himself1 no?+6 ,d y ?9k x is no?+ t my boy %\ld write a play8 ,my son1 photograph$ ) a /age-manag]1 appe>+--:at is y\r ^w8--'call$' be=e ! curta96 ,oh1 ,god1 :at h ,i done t my son %\ld come to ?is6 ,fa!r1 fa!r1 don't6 cri$ ,mrs4 ,ke/]n4 ,( c\rse ,paul mu/ take 8 own place---- ,"m1 y don't "k :at y say4 ,8 own place6 ,b t is ! son we gave to ,god1 t is ! son ( our hopes & pray]s1 t is ! boy = :om we contriv$ & sav$ t he might g to college1 & n[--n[1 he writes plays6 ,! bitt]ness is m ?an ,i c be>4 ,i h lo/ my son4 ,! grim com$y ( x 0 lo/ on ! ?ree ( !m4 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n bur/ into te>s4 ,fa!r1 de>1 %e sobb$1 don't say su* t]rible ?+s4 ,oh1 ,i c't be> x6 ,some?+ awoke & fl>$ up 9 ,paul4 ,! ?+ _h come s quickly1 ) su* an appe>ance ( inevitability t he _h be5 tak5 :olly unaw>es4 ,he _h hop$ = a reasonable talk ab\t ! !atre1 & at lea/ a com=table agreem5t to diff]4 ,b he _h be5 consci\s dur+ ! la/ few m9utes ( utt] helplessness be=e ?is incr$ible attitude1 & n[ ! cruel absurdity ( x all flam$ be=e him4 ,fa!r1 he bur/ out1 y've no "r to speak s4 ,y've no "r to judge ! !atre z y d4 ,y "k no?+ ab\t x4 ,y've n se5 my play4 ,i hav5't1 ?ank ,god1 ,i hav5't4 ,b ,i've read ab\t x4 ,i've read ab\t x ) utt] %ame & dismay4 ,yet ,i c't1 ,i won't at lea/1 believe all t ! pap] h9ts at4 ,is x true t y h p>odi$ ! ,gospel8 ,p>odi$8 ,paul 0 utt]ly bewild]$ aga94 ,yes1 p>odi$4 ,i ga!r y h tak5 a /ory t y le>n$ z a boy at y\r "m's knee1 ^u :i* ,i h ev5 he>d y prea*1 & h reset x1 rewritt5 x1 pu%+ ! ,ma/] into ! backgr\nd1 d5y+1 s f> z ,i c see1 ! ,son ( ,god4 ,fa!r---- sobb$ ,mrs4 ,ke/]n4 ,"m1 t w d4 ,paul & ,i mu/ ?ra% ?is ?+ out4 ,tell me1 ,paul1 once & = all1 :at is ,jesus ,*ri/ n[ to y8 ,paul />$ at him4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 flu%$1 vehem5t1 t]rible1 0 ! fa!r ( ! old ,ca?olic controv]sial days1 ! fa!r f :om he 0 divid$ by an impassable gulf4 ,:at c\ld he say8 ,h[ c\ld he expla98 ,he made an involunt>y hopeless ge/ure t 0 imm$iately misund]/ood1 & turn$ back to ! fireplace4 ,ah1 cri$ ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 y w n answ]4 ,?is is :at y\r ,ca?olic fri5ds h done = y6 ,i told y s1 b y w\ld nev] believe me4 ,rome 0 s reasonable & fair1 wasn't x8--an angel ( light4 ,fa!r ,vassall believ$ 9 ,*ri/ z e>ne/ly z ,i did--did y n say t8 ,b ?is is ! end6 ,y d5y ! ,ma/] :o b\ght y ) ,8 own blood6 ,! utt] inju/ice ( t *>ge broke d[n ,paul's la/ res]ve4 ,he turn$ swiftly back1 z vehem5t z ! o!r1 ! true son ( 8 fa!r if ! eld] c\ld only h se5 x4 ,y don't "k :at y say1 he cri$4 ,?is is utt] madness1 utt] *ildi% folly4 ,fa!r ,vassall has no?+ :atev] to d ) all ?is4 ,h[ c\ld he8 ,d y ?9k he want$ me to g to ,=dham1 ?\gh y did4 ,:y1 if he _h _h 8 way1 ,i %\ld be a ,ca?olic prie/ by n[1 or well on ! way to x4 ,j s1 /orm$ 8 fa!r1 a ,ca?olic prie/ inde$6 ,!n he w\ld h trapp$ y f9ely4 ,z x is1 baulk$ 9 t1 he w s5d y\r s\l to hell by ano!r road6 ,oh1 ,i c't be> x1 ,i c't be> x1 cri$ ,mrs4 ,ke/]n1 rock+ h]self to & fro4 ,paul cl5*$ 8 fi/s4 ,y've no "r to speak s1 he retort$ passionately4 ,h[ d>e y insult ,fa!r ,vassall 9 t way8 ,is x l ,*ri/ to talk s8 ,if t is all y\r evangelicalism c d = y1 ,i am well quit ( x4 ,s y admit y are quit ( x8 ,y turn y\r back on y\r fa!r's & "m's fai?8 ,y h no use = ! ,scripture ( ,tru?8 ,! boy might1 9 a san] mom5t1 h caught ! tone ( inv9cible bigotry t _h crept into 8 fa!r's words4 ,( c\rse ,i've use = x1 retort$ ,paul aga91 contemptu\sly4 ,hav5't ,i writt5 a play "u its inspiration8 ,b ,i mu/ make my own judgm5t on religion4 ,mr4 ,ke/]n sob]$ sudd5ly & t]ribly4 ,he spoke bit+ words ) sl[ delib]ation4 ,y mu/1 sir1 he said1 only x is blasphemy to speak s ( inspiration4 ,& y w be good en\gh to tell me :at is y\r judgm5t on ! ,ma/] ,:o alone is s]v$ 9 ?is h\se4 ,paul gaz$ at him a m9ute4 ,phrases rose to 8 lips4 ,!n he realis$ h[ useless !y w\ld be4 ,8 ang] di$ z quickly z x _h aris54 ,y w\ld n und]/&1 he said hopelessly4 ,i "k ,i h n ! new le>n+ ( my son1 retort$ ,mr4 ,ke/]n bitt]ly1 b ,i ?9k ,i c und]/& t mu*4 ,w y answ] a pla9 "q8 ,are y /ill on ! ,"l's side1 or n8 ,( c\rse he is1 wept ,mrs4 ,ke/]n4 ,fa!r1 h[ c y ask8 ,speak1 ,paul1 & tell him y /ill love & s]ve ! ,"l ,jesus8 ,mr4 ,ke/]n /udi$ 8 son's face4 ,speak1 !n1 he said sl[ly4 ,paul hesitat$4 ,!n he drew himself up4 ,i love & respect & admire ,jesus ( ,naz>e? ) all my he>t1 he said4 ,8 tea*+ x is t has op5$ my eyes1 & 8 gospel ( compassion & bro!rl9ess is z noble z any t ! _w has yet he>d4 ,b ,i _c call him ,god z y d1 & z ,ca?olics d4 ,! ang] di$ 9 ,mr4 ,ke/]n's face4 ,! look ( an old & brok5 man crept into x4 ,he turn$ back to 8 desk & pick$ up 8 ,bible4 ,d y p]haps rememb] :at ?is says8 he dem&$4 ,li/54 7,he fumbl$ ) ! leaves47 ',he t confesse? n t ,jesus ,*ri/ is come 9 ! fle% is n ( ,god1 & ?is is ! _s ( anti*ri/1 :]e( ye h he>d t x %\ld come2 & ev5 n[ already is x 9 ! _w4' ,! words l+]$ 9 ! little room4 ,! ?ree ( !m1 ea* 9 8 or h] own way1 quail$ be=e ! />k decisiv5ess ( !m4 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n x 0 :o fir/ c\ld be> x no long]4 ,fa!r1 he is y\r son1 %e cri$4 ,no?+ c alt] t6 ,mr4 ,ke/]n 0 on 8 feet1 two ?\s& ye>s ( ,*ri/ianity /ripp$ f him1 ! _s ( ! ,old ,te/am5t gl[+ 9 8 face4 ,:at sai? ! ,scripture8 he cri$4 ',curs$ be he t sette? light by 8 fa!r or 8 "m4' ',curs$ be he t make? ! bl9d to w&] out ( ! way4' ,or our ,ma/] ,himself3 ',he t love? *ild m ?an me is n wor?y ( me4' ,& y1 ,paul1 h done bo? ^! ?+s4 ,my grey hairs y w\ld br+ d[n 9 sorr[ to ! grave1 b t is n en\gh4 ,"h1 into ?is v p>i% ( :i* ,i am pa/or1 y h br\ght y\r devil's doctr9e & brok5 up "o family ( ,*ri/'s flock already4 ,%all ,i sp>e my son any m ?an our bro!r sp>$ 8 daught]8 ,y w leave ?is h\se1 & ,i d n want to see y\r face till y come z a p5it5t aga94 ,mrs4 ,ke/]n buri$ h] face 9 h] h&s & c[]$ 9 h] *air ) an in>ticulate cry ( woe s bitt] t bo? fa!r & son %rank be=e x4 ,! cl]gyman /epp$ quickly ov] to h]4 ,"m1 "m1 he cri$1 ! de> ,"l kn[s4 ,he w save ! boy yet4 ,b h[ c we h su* 9 ?is h\se8 ,my son1 my son1 %e wail$4 ,!n1 break+ free f h] husb&1 ,oh1 ,paul1 say y don't mean x6 ,paul1 ,paul1 w\ld y break y\r "m's he>t8 ,say y don't mean x1 ,paul1 say y don't mean x6 ,%e flung h] arms r\nd 8 neck1 b ! boy put h] away4 ,he 0 piec+ ?is & t toge!r1 & 0 no m only ! boy4 ,:at d y mean1 he dem&$1 :5 y say ,i h brok5 up a family 9 ?is p>i%8 ,:at *>ge is t8 ,tell me1 if y h any ju/ice left 9 y4 ,y "k1 said 8 fa!r /]nly2 don't pret5d y d n4 ,i d n "k1 cri$ ,paul passionately4 ,i beg9 to ?9k y are mad1 all mad4 ,my ,god1 if ?is is ! religion ( ,*ri/1 ,*ri/ w\ld n "k x6 ,8 fa!r />t$1 & = a mom5t x 0 almo/ z if ! old man w\ld /rike 8 son4 ,!n1 ) a ge/ure1 he /rode to ! door4 ,g1 he said1 g4 ,only la/ mon? ,i _h to com=t ,mr4 ,?ornton :5 8 *ild1 ,edi?1 left 8 h\se to become a ,papi/ ?r\gh y4 ,papi/ or a!i/1 x is all "o to me4 ,i w n h su* )9 my h\se4 ,edi?6 cri$ ,paul1 utt]ly dumbf\nd$4 ,8 tone1 & ! use ( ! girl's "n1 brac$ ,mrs4 ,ke/]n4 ,oh1 ,paul1 %e cri$1 y knew ( x1 don't pret5d y didn't6 ,h[ y c\ld h act$ s beh9d our backs ,i c't ?9k4 ,poor1 poor girl6 ,oh1 y _h bett] g n[4 ,x w\ld be bett] = u all4 ,may our ,fa!r h m]cy on u1 & may y be sp>$ ! agony t y\r p>5ts "k4 ,8 "m's action br\ght ,paul to 8 s5ses4 ,he look$ f "o to ! o!r ( !m 9 con/]nation4 ,y don't mean x1 he cri$1 surely y don't mean x6 ,don't g l t1 ,paul1 sobb$ ,mrs4 ,ke/]n1 break+ d[n aga91 ,i c't be> x4 ,paul pull$ himself toge!r4 ,b1 "m1 fa!r1 he said1 ?is is %e] madness4 ,we are n liv+ 9 ! ,middle ,ages4 ,?is isn't melodrama4 ,i--,i diff] f y 9 religion1 ,i "k2 ,i c't help x2 ,i mu/ d :at seems "r to me4 ,b surely1 because ( t---- ,8 fa!r op5$ ! /udy door4 ,brok5 & old1 !re 0 a c]ta9 dignity n[ 9 8 face4 ,paul1 he said1 we talk diff]5t tongues1 b no?+ alt]s ! fact t y h turn$ utt]ly f ! religion ( y\r p>5ts to s]ve ano!r4 ',z = me & my h\se1 we w s]ve ! ,"l4' ,y h no place "h4 ,g n[1 le/ we say 9 our ang] :at ought n to be said4 ,paul look$ aga9 heavily r\nd ! room4 ,y h said x already1 he repli$1 & left ! h\se4 7#c7 ,paul walk$ d[n ! /reet l a man 9 a dream4 ,once he /opp$1 turn$1 & walk$ a few paces back1 tell+ himself t x c\ld n be true1 t x 0 too !atrical to be true4 ,b 8 fa!r's face rose be=e him z he w5t1 & /ill m ! t]ror ( 8 "m's te>s4 ,he recall$ ! hi/ory ( a fri5d ( 8 9 tra9+ = ! ,bapti/ m9i/ry1 :o _h decid$ he c\ld n accept ! doctr9e ( ! deity ( ,*ri/ & _h be5 curs$ by 8 wid[$ "m & turn$ into ! /reet ) eighte5p5ce 9 8 pocket4 ,someh[ x _h nev] seem$ possible t x c\ld happ5 to him4 ,yet1 9 ! ?roes ( ! ,ca?olic /age ( 8 s\l's pilgrimage1 x _h be5 pla9 en\gh t some?+ ( t sort w\ld happ5 if he made 8 submission to ! ,*ur*4 ,once m1 ! horror ( 8 p>5ts' grief z he _h se5 x :5 he knelt 9 ,fa!r ,vassall's *apel gripp$ 8 he>t4 ,& n[1 & n[1 sudd5ly1 s ironically1 s futilely1 s *ildi%ly1 ?is ?+ _h swept d[n ^u him4 ,he1 ,paul ,ke/]n1 _h be5 turn$ f 8 fa!r's h\se4 ,! ?+ 0 true4 ,!n1 into ! /ream ( 8 ?\ghts1 drift$ ! memory ( :at _h be5 said ( ,edi? ,?ornton4 ,( all ! incr$ible happ5+s ( an incr$ible morn+1 t1 p]haps1 0 ultimately "o ( ! mo/ incr$ible4 ,edi? a ,ca?olic6 ,he ?\ght ( h] face "u ! lamplight 9 ,lambe? ,c\rt--oh1 incr$ible6 ,b "o mom5t3 he ?\ght ( h] pray] "u ! p9es at ,keswick1 ( h] answ] to 8 dilemma aft] 8 return f ,?urloe ,end4 ,gradually he began to piece toge!r ! mosaic ( h] simple reason+1 h] resolute fai?1 h] ard5t love2 x 0 exactly ( su* s\ls t ,ca?olic sa9ts are made4 ,t1 !n1 _h be5 ! inn] mean+ ( h] sorr[ ov] 8 go+ to ,=dham & ( h] sil5ce !reaft]4 ,?is resolution1 ?is t]rible dome/ic retribution1 _h come cra%+ d[n on h] head1 & %e1 too1 _h be5 driv5 out alone4 ,once m ! flame ( ang] flick]$ 9 8 he>t4 ,z he ?\ght x ov]1 8 indignation grew4 ,he pictur$ h]1 z he lov$ be/ to d1 9 ! quiet neat simplicity ( t br[n dress ( h]s1 ) h] cle>1 tru/ful eyes4 ,& !y _h turn$ h] out1 _h !y1 to :at1 he %\ld l to "k8 ,good ,god1 & ?is 0 9 ,engl& to-day6 ,he saw ,mr4 ,?ornton1 rotund1 bald1 v respectable1 & realis$ t if1 at bottom1 he 0 z bigot$ a ,prote/ant z any ( !m1 bus9ess 0 mix$ up ) religion4 ,! man _h nev] really lov$ 8 daught]1 ,paul ?\ght1 he1 ) 8 comm]cial s\l1 8 respectable tradesman's boot-lick+ s]vility1 8 front pew 9 ! side aisle nev] empty on a ,sunday4 ,& z he ?\ght ( x all1 he came to a resolution4 ,he gripp$ 8 /ick m firmly & turn$ (f to ,edw>d ,/reet4 ,a girl assi/ant came =w>d4 ,paul did n "k h]4 ,c\ld he see ,mr4 ,?ornton8 ,%e w\ld enquire4 ,:at "n8 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 said ,paul1 a little grimly4 ,a flutt] ( surprise & !n ( und]/&+ cross$ ! girl's face4 ,w\ld he sit d[n4 ,%e w\ld tell ,mr4 ,?ornton4 ,%e disappe>$ beh9d a scre5 & op5$ a door4 ,paul1 look+ r\nd ! suburbanly-fa%ionable %op1 knew t %e /ood 9 front ( a solid1 highly poli%$ desk 9 t little inn] sanctum1 & wond]$ if %e w\ld say m ?an 8 "n4 ,if n1 x w\ld be 8 fa!r :o w\ld be expect$4 ,! imm$iate appe>ance ( ,mr4 ,?ornton r\nd ! scre51 b[+1 smil+1 rubb+ 8 h&s1 %[$ him t %e _h n4 ,he walk$ =w>d4 ,z ! photograph] />t$ 9 surprise1 he spoke4 ,h[ d y d1 ,mr4 ,?ornton8 ,i've come to ask if ,i may see ,edi?4 7,bett] to put x t way3 ! man w\ld n "k h[ mu* he _h be5 told47 ,edi?'s fa!r /ood & look$ at him 9 amazem5t4 ,paul1 out ( ! corn] ( 8 eye1 saw ! int]e/$ fri5dly smile ( ! girl beh9d4 ,possibly ,mr4 ,?ornton saw x reflect$ 9 ! "y man's face1 = 8 own flu%$ angrily4 ,he /umbl$ = words4 ,y1 y---- he splutt]$4 ,h[ d>e y1 sir8 ,paul survey$ him coolly4 ,he 0 sure ( 8 gr\nd n[4 ,really1 ,mr4 ,?ornton444 he said4 ,y\r daught] & ,i 7 v good fri5ds 9 ! ,mission1 & ,i h n se5 h] = "s "t4 ,look "h1 bur/ out ! man1 y may be a cl]gyman's son1 & y may ?9k to come x ov] me1 b ,i tell y y 7 responsible--,i "k y 7 responsible4 ,broke h] "m's 'e>t1 %e has1 & y---- ,he realis$ sudd5ly t he 0 9 ! %op4 ,anyone might come 94 ,! girl 0 !re4 ,he took a grip ( himself & prep>$ = a m cold-blood$ battle4 ,ah1 he said conv5tionally1 ,i'm v glad y've call$4 ,w y please to come inside a mom5t4 ,paul ent]$ ! lion's d54 ,! little man 0 /ill m reassur$ by ! weight & prosp]ity ( 8 (fice furniture4 ,he sank into 8 *air1 & motion$ ,paul to a seat4 ,"o glance to see t ! door 0 %ut beh9d him1 & !n3 ,i'm v glad y've call$4 ,if !re 0 a j law 9 ?is l&1 ,i ought to be able to prosecute y1 ,i ought4 ,y made my girl a ,ca?olic1 y did1--a ,papi/1 my girl6 ,y g to college to le>n to be a m9i/]1 & y come sneak+ back p]v]t9' a girl l my ,edi?4 ,& :]e is %e n[1 ,i ask y1 :]e is %e n[8 ,9 a conv5t1 t's :]e %e is4 ,fair broke h] "m's 'e>t x has4 ,a conv5t6 ,go+ to be a nun6 ,& :at tricks !y'll play on h] !re1 :at dirty tricks !m ,jesuits w be up to---- ,paul cut 9 decisively4 ,mr4 ,?ornton1 he said1 t w d4 ,t is utt] rubbi%1 y "k4 ,:at is m1 x is bea/ly4 ,i won't he> x4 ,mr4 ,?ornton knew education & ! mann] ( g5tlem54 ,he _h all ! ,claxt$ respect = !m4 ,s n[ ?is p]emptory "y man mom5t>ily %ut him up4 ,er--er--,i---- he /utt]$4 ,paul lean$ coolly back & wait$4 ,he 0 desp]ately angry1 & he 0 beg9n+ to be aw>e ( a s5se ( bitt] loss1 b bo?1 "h1 only made him cool4 ,& 8 coolness enrag$ ! photograph] ev5 z he /amm]$ "u 8 set-back4 ,8 s5se ( outrage1 ( p]sonal injury1 came rapidly to ! =e aga94 ,x grew e second1 & at la/3 ,well1 ,i've lo/ my girl1 anyway1 ,i h1 & ?r\gh y4 ,:at _h y got to d ) h]1 anyway1 t's :at ,i want to "k8 ,walk9' out ) h]--z good z--,i he> n[---- ,paul flu%$4 ,!re x 01 ! nak$ tru?1 z ,alf ,v9tn] & ,maud & half ! p>i% probably saw x4 ,he bit 8 lip4 ,mr4 ,?ornton1 he said1 ,i want$ to m>ry y\r daught]4 ,m>ry6 ,! man gap$ on him4 ,someh[ he _h n ?\ght t4 ,he _h nev] ?\ght t ,mr4 ,ke/]n's son1 at ,cambridge too1 do+ s well1 go+ to be a m9i/]1 _h ?\ght s]i\sly ( m>ry+ 8 daught]4 ,heav5s1 :at !y _h miss$6 ,& ?is "y man app>5tly ?\ght he _h miss$ some?+1 too4 ,aft] all1 !n1 he c\ldn't h p]suad$ h] to seek a conv5t4 ,?is 0 a new developm5t4 ,y don't say s1 n[1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 sir1 he said4 ,well1 ,edi? 0 a de> good girl1 ! be/ ( ! lot ,i always said4 ,:atev] made h] take up ) t ,ca?olikism1 ,i c't tell4 ,%e nev] he>d x 9 ?is h\se1 ,i "k4 ,& see+ t y 7 go+ ,high ,*ur*1 "m & ,i1 we ?\ght444 ,:at happ5$1 ,mr4 ,?ornton1 c y tell me t8 ,well1 sir1 %e outs ) x "o ev5+1 six mon?s or s ago x 04 ,says %e's go+ to be receiv$ into ! ,*ur*--^? 7 h] v words4 ,go+ to be receiv$ into ! ,*ur*6 ,x made me v hot1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 x did4 ,no memb] ( our family has ev] be5 a ,ca?olic1 ?ank ,god1 & ,i said z ,i w\ldn't h a *ild ( m9e a ,ca?olic 9 a good *ur*-go+ evangelical h\se l ?is4 ,said x out pla9 & /raight1 ,i did4 ,& %e ups & walks out ( ! door t v night4 ,y mean y turn$ h] out1 ,i suppose4 ,well1 sir1 ,i 0 hot1 ,i admit4 ,%e provok$ me1 too1 kn[+ bett]'n h] fa!r4 ',if y c't g to my *ur*1 out y g1' ,i said4 ',y mean t1 fa!r8' %e asks4 ',yes1' ,i said1 /&+ on my dignity1 & %e j walks (f4 ,h] "m 9 te>s1 too4 ',y g to communion ) me1 or y're no daught] ( m9e1' t 0 :at ,i said1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n1 & y\r fa!r1 he support$ me 9 x aft]w>ds4 ,& y turn$ h] out t night1 z %e 08 ,z %e 01 %e walk$ out1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n4 ,w5t /raight to ! ,ca?olic ,conv5t1 ,i believe4 ,h] "m saw h] !re once4 ,& :]e %e is n[1 ,i don't "k4 ,no1 ,i don't "k4 ,%e 0 go+ to be a nun1 %e said1 & x seems1 %e be+ ov]-age1 nobody c't /op h]4 ,if !re 0 a law 9 ?is s-call$ ,*ri/ian l&1 ,mr4 ,ke/]n---- ,paul got up4 ,! look on 8 face *eck$ ! photograph]4 ,i und]/&1 ,mr4 ,?ornton1 he said1 despite y\r words4 ,y\r ,*ri/ianity 0 su* t y drove y\r daught] f y\r h\se = ! sake ( h] new fai?4 ,i %\ld h>dly h ?\ght x possible1 b ,i fe> ,i und]/& only too well4 ,& ,i w tell y :at ,i ?9k ( x1 ,mr4 ,?ornton4 ,x 0 a c[>dly1 mean1 base1 un*ri/ian ?+ ( y to d1 & t ,jesus1 9 ^: "n y did x1 w\ld nev] h l5t 8 au?ority to any su* ?+4 ,x is utt]ly =eign to 8 gospel4 ,z = ,edi?1 ,i hope to ,god %e kn[s h] own m9d1 t is all1 & 9 my own sorr[1 ,i c only f9d he>t to be glad t at lea/ %e is n "h4 ,good-day4 ,& ,paul1 n wait+ = ! o!r to recov]1 walk$ out ( ! %op4 ,at ! corn] ( ,edw>d ,/reet & ,well+ton ,road1 sc>cely reason+ z to :at he 0 ab\t to d1 he hail$ a cab & drove to ! conv5t4 ,he _h be>d$ ! nun :o op5$ ! door & 0 9 ! p>l\r wait+ to see ! ,rev]5d ,"m be=e he realis$ ! futility ( 8 action4 ,/ill1 he 0 !re n[1 & he look$ curi\sly ab\t him4 ,x 0 :ile he wait$ 9 t p>l\r t he came to a realisation ( h[ f> f ! religion x repres5t$ he _h mov$4 ,pla9ly furni%$ ) a table1 a few /iff *airs1 a =eign-look+ s-call$ c\* ) an antimacass>1 & a *eap book%elf ) old-fa%ion$ books 9 x1 an oleograph ( ,pius ,,ix4 hung ov] ! mantelpiece1 beam+ bl&ly1 half a crucifix beh9d him4 ,a ,madonna 9 col\r$ pla/] /ood on a %elf1 & on ! mantel-piece at "o end a ca/ ( ,*ri/ po9t+ to 8 ble$+ dripp+ he>t1 & at ! o!r ano!r ( ,/4 ,!resa gaz+ s]aphically upw>ds4 ,a crucifix /ood betwe5 !m1 ! ,*ri/ meet+ ,/4 ,!resa's gaze ) agonis$ eyes1 :ite girt ab\t ! wai/ ) a heavy pla/] lo9-clo?4 ,! table 0 cov]$ ) a fad$ r$ clo?4 ,x held an ink/& & a blott]4 ,9 ! corn] a prie-,dieu 0 tuck$ out ( ! way4 ,! ,rev]5d ,"m 0 k9d & polite4 ,did he come f ! family8 ,no1 & ,paul h>dly c>$ to expla94 ,well1 ( c\rse1 he c\ld n1 9 any case1 see ,si/] ,edi?4 ,nor 0 %e !re 9 fact4 ,%e _h be5 admitt$ to ! novitiate1 &1 dur+ tra9+1 ! rules 7 /rict4 ,%e c\ld n promise t a lett] w\ld be giv52 x dep5d$ on ! lett]4 ,paul und]/ood t x w\ld be read4 ,! si/] 0 v happy1 h[ev]1 mu* happi] ?an %e _h be5 on ! night %e arriv$ alone & 9 te>s1 turn$ out f h] fa!r's h\se4444 ,t 0 all1 ( c\rse4 ,he might h kn[n x4 ,b "o ?+ aft] ano!r4444 ,paul ,ke/]n sudd5ly took /ock ( 8 own he>t4 ,:]e1 inde$1 0 he ev5 to sleep t night8 ,9 ! /reet1 he turn$ ! "q ov]4 ,& aft]w>ds1 :at 0 he to d8 ,mann+ 0 at ,cambridge2 well1 ,=dham4444 ,b sudd5ly he hat$ ,=dham4 ,he saw x1 pr\d1 alo(1 & utt]ly fail+ to und]/& su* tr\bles z 7 84 ,tressor1 too1 w\ld be !re1 & ,paul %rank f ,tressor's dignifi$ quiet k9dl9ess4 ,he sudd5ly knew himself to be alone4 ,he knew himself to be beat51 bruis$1 lonely2 yes1 he1 ) ! morn+'s pap] full ( 8 triumph4 ,apples ( ,sodom4444 ,= ?is he _h made ! great ex*ange4 ,?is 0 :at x all came to3 he 0 d[n & out & alone4 ,ursula8 7#d7 ,he took tra9 to t[n1 engag$ a room = ! night at ! ,grosv5or z be+ ! ne>e/ hotel1 & took a taxi to h] flat4 ,two at a "t he m\nt$ ! /airs2 damn ! lift4 ,he knock$4 ,come 91 %e call$4 ,x 0 eight o'clock & ! lights 7 on1 ( c\rse4 ,%e 0 sitt+ alone 9 an easy-*air by ! fire1 clad 9 a loose simple dress ( a ri* deep orange t became h] well4 ,%e 0 read+1 & look$ up almo/ expectantly f h] book at 8 knock4 ,a little fire leap$ 9 ! grate1 & ! room 0 /ill1 famili>1 k9d4 ,%e smil$ enquir+ly z %e saw him4 ,:y1 ,paul1 %e said4 ,paul mov$ sl[ly ov] to h]1 clos+ ! door beh9d him4 ,on ! rug be=e ! fire1 he came to a /&/ill1 look+ d[n into h] upturn$ face ) its cle> unafraid op5 eyes1 set 9 its r+ ( black hair1 tak+ 9 h] regul> def9ite features1 h] :ite ?roat4 ,%e smil$ at him aga9 z he /ood !re1 t5d]ly4 ,ursula1 ,ursula6 he cri$1 took a ha/y /ep =w>d1 dropp$ on 8 knees be=e h]1 & buri$ 8 face 9 ! k9dly flame ( h] dress4 ,%e rea*$ a h& out & laid x on 8 head1 /rok+ 8 hair4 ,= a little nei!r mov$4 ,!n3 ,i und]/&1 ,paul1 %e said )\t m words2 ,i ?\ght x might be s4 ,y\r face told me la/ night4 ,he look$ up4 ,y're v wond]ful1 he said sl[ly4 ,h[ c\ld y guess8 ,b x's n only my p1 ,ursula4 ,t1 ( c\rse1 0 j too t]rible4 ,fa!r simply drove me out4 ,n a ^w ( explanation w\ld he all[4 ,x happ5$ s quickly1 too2 at fir/ ,i h>dly und]/ood4444 ,b ,i ?9k x 0 worse aft]w>ds :5 ,i did4 ,edi? has gone to be a nun4 ,edi?8 ,yes4 7,words came quick] n[47 ,( c\rse y don't "k ab\t h] ?\gh4 ,i 0 9 love ) h]4 ,ursula1 %e 0 su* a de>4 ,someh[ or ano!r ,i see n[ :at ,i've lo/1 desolat+ly4 ,d y "k--( c\rse1 x s\nds absurd--b 9 my m9d %e is1 z x 71 9 ! balance aga9/ ! !atre4 ,%e 0 s diff]5t4 ,%e 0 s unspoilt1 s simple1 s lov+4 ,oh1 %e 0 a de>1 ,ursula4 ,& %e's gone to be a nun1 & x 0 ,i :o made h]4 ,y :o made h]8 ,well1 ,i set h] ?9k+ ab\t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ,i suppose4 ,( c\rse ,i don't "k 9 ! lea/ :at br\ght h] to x 9 ! end1 b /ill ,i c see1 someh[4 ,%e 0 made to be a nun4 ,!n %e c\ld h>dly h be5 made = y4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k4 ,%e 0 su* a de>4 ,y don't "k1 he cri$ bitt]ly4 ,ursula smil$4 ,y odd1 impetu\s1 eag] creature1 %e said4 ,b1 ,ursula1 ,i'm utt]ly sick & mis]able to-night4 ,i c't put x into words prop]ly4 ,i see :at ,i've lo/4 ,my p--( c\rse1 !y're ignorant1 almo/ mad1 b !y've got some?+ t ,i've lo/4 ,_! fai? is wond]ful4 ,*ri/ is s real to !m4 ,!y live 9 an odd _w1 b x isn't %all[1 x isn't a %am1 & our _w is su* a %am1 ,ursula4 ,i feel t at ! !atre s mu*4 ,y nev] "k :at p really ?9k & mean4 ,& aft]w>ds1 9 ! morn+ light1 s to speak1 x's all made-up & pa9t$ & false4 ,%e said no?+1 only %ift$ h] eyes to ! fire4 ,& !n !re's ,edi?4 ,y c't see ,edi?1 ,ursula1 z ,i d4 ,%e 0 l a fl[]4 ,%e 0 s utt]ly simple & *ildi% & true4 ,%e 0 j ! opposite to all ?is4 ,%e saw ?r\gh ?+s4 ,t's :y %e's become a nun1 ( c\rse2 j walk$ /raight =w>d into x4 ,& our _w nev] walks /raight =w>d4 ,our _w8 ,! tone ( h] voice held him4 ,%e _h %ad$ h] face ) h] h& n[ & did n look at him4 ,our _w1 ,paul8 %e qu]i$ aga94 ,:at d y mean8 ,%e did n at once reply4 ,!n1 sudd5ly1 %e turn$ & look$ at him4 ,:at are y go+ to d n[8 %e ask$4 ,i don't "k4 ,!re seems no?+ to d4 ,i ?\ght ! bl9d begg> saw beauty s wond]fully4 ,didn't x fill 8 life8 ,he %rugg$ 8 %\ld]s & said no?+4 ,! room hung v /ill4 ,!n y don't "k :at y're go+ to d8 %e ask$ aga9 at la/4 ,no4 ,come ) ,muriel & me to ,africa4 ,:at8 ,i ?\ght t w\ld />tle y4 ,we only fix$ x def9itely ?is morn+4 ,muriel's bro!r is an assi/ant commission] or some?+ ( t sort 9 ,basutol&1 & he's giv5 h] an op5 invitation to visit him4 ,ye/]day1 too1 %e 0 ask$ to g out & address "s s]ies ( meet+s 9 ! ,cape & ,natal4 ,i %\ld l to see ! c\ntry & pa9t4 ,s we settl$ ?is morn+ to g toge!r--ab\t ,june4 ,come too4 ,c\ld ,i8 ,( c\rse4 ,b :at ab\t ,muriel8 ,%e'd love x4 ,& "o m 9 a ,s\? ,african h\se doesn't matt]4 ,paul turn$ x swiftly ov]4 ,) 8 books & 8 successful play he knew he c\ld raise en\gh money4 ,he drew a deep brea?4 ,oh1 he said1 ,i'd love x4 ,good1 %e said1 t's settl$4 ,we're travell+ ,ea/ ,coa/4 ,& n[1 :y n g d[n & /ay ) "m = a little8 ,,*apt] ,,xii ,,zanzib> ,lo1 w+$ ) _w's wond]s1 ,) miracles %od1 ,) ! fires ( 8 ?und]s ,= raim5t & rod1 ,god trembles 9 heav51 & ! angels are :ite ) ! t]ror ( ,god4 99 99 99 99 99 ,?\ght made him & breaks him1 ,tru? slays & =gives2 ,b to y1 z "t takes him1 ,?is new ?+ x gives1 ,ev5 love1 ! belov$ ,republic1 t fe$s ^u fre$om & lives4 ,,alg]non ,,*>les ,,sw9burne3 ,h]?a4 ,high sat :ite ,hel51 lonely & s]5e4 ,he _h n rememb]$ t %e 0 s fair1 ,& t h] neck curv$ d[n 9 su* a way2 ,& he felt tir$4 ,he flung ! sword away1 ,& kiss$ h] feet1 & knelt be=e h] !re1 ,! p]fect ,knight be=e ! p]fect ,que54 ,,rup]t ,,brooke3 ,m5elaus & ,hel54 7#a7 ,paul 0 />+ ov] ,ursula's %\ld] at h] ne>ly f9i%$ wat]-col\r1 & %e1 lean+ back a little1 0 putt+ quick t\*es to x4 ,h] *air 0 aga9/ ! rail on ! %ady side ( ! boat deck2 & j bel[1 ! endless procession ( natives :o _h begun c>ry+ coal f light]s alongside to ! coal bunk]s ( ! %ip s9ce b an h\r or two aft] an*or _h be5 dropp$ ! night be=e1 & :o 7 /ill app>5tly z busy z ev]1 toil$1 ea* man 9 x nak$ to ! wai/-clo?1 sooty & p]spir+1 9 ! blaz+ sun4 ,! d+y1 clumsy1 r\gh-hewn boats 9 ! utt]ly cle> wat] ?r\gh :i* y c\ld see almo/ to _! keels1 7 ba!d 9 t vivid light1 :ile1 betwe5 burn+ blue above & sp>kl+ blue b5ea?1 ! *ant+ lab\r]s pass$ up ) full baskets & b5t %\ld]s & d[n ) empty ones & laught]4 ,n[ & aga9 a fussy laun*1 usually ) a gay flag flutt]+ 9 ! breeze ( its passage1 *unk$ or *ortl$ by4 ,across ! fl[1 a big ,p4 & ,o4 /eam] mov$ sl[ly into ! ,canal1 its cr[d ( emigrants lean+ ov] ! side1 />+1 %\t+1 talk+4 ,on _! own %ip1 p 7 mo/ly clu/]$ at ! gangways *aff]+ ) p$l>s1 or disp]s$ a%ore or bel[4 ,paul himself 0 back f a visit to ,simon ,artz & c>ri$ packages "u 8 arm4 ,!re1 ,ursula said1 hold+ ! block out be=e h]4 ,w t d8 ,he did n at once reply4 ,%e twi/$ r\nd a bit & glanc$ up at him4 ,well8 %e qu]i$ aga94 ,y've hit x absolutely1 he said4 ,b ! :ole ?+ says some?+ besides4 ,x says x pla9ly1 too4 ,x's /upid ( me n to be able to put x into words4 ,i %all 9 a m9ute4 ,! boys' monoton\s *ant came /eadily up to !m1 & a sir5 %riek$4 ,! ,p4 & ,o4 mail 0 lo/ beh9d a big ,jap /eam]1 & f half a doz5 %ips ab\t !m came ! s\nd ( /rik+ bells4 ,z ! noise ( ! la/ ( !m di$ away1 ,paul spoke4 ,i "k1 he said sl[ly4 ,y've got ! incr$ible contra/ !re4 ,nak$1 sweat+1 tir$ natives1 work+ endlessly = a m]e trifle at a bor+ we>y job 9 a liv+ _w ( light & col\r1 &--& be+ jolly ov] x4 ,!y are jolly4 ,look at t *ap's face1 look+ up at u4 ,& t "o1 *ipp+ 8 neighb\r4 7,he indicat$ two figures 9 ! sket*47 ,x's j %e] animal spirits4 ,ursula said no?+4 ,paganism1 too1 said ,paul4 ,paganism8 ,yes4 ,x's 9 ! sket* z y've pa9t$ x4 ,a fi]ce vehem5tly-liv$ to-day1 & no to-morr[ or ye/]day4 ,write t4 ,i %all4 ,d y realise ,i've writt5 l blazes s9ce we've be5 on ?is /unt8 ,%e />$ ov] ! side1 hun*+ h]self up a little4 ,i h1 ,paul w5t on4 ,y've made me4 ,y're a p]petual inspiration1 ,ursula4 ,h] body relax$1 & %e laugh$ a little1 happily4 ,! next book1 please1 %e said4 ',to ,ursula3 ,an ,inspiration4' ,he mov$ =w>d a pace or two1 & lean$ ov] ! rail1 look+ out & ov] ! gimcrack %ore build+s ) _! />+1 blatant1 ugly mod]nity4 ,x's all v well1 he said1 = y to take x lightly1 b x happ5s to be s amaz+ly true4 ,i'm always see+ ?+s ) y4 ,ursula /udi$ 8 %\ld]s 9 h] sil5t way = a m9ute or two4 ,!n %e got up4 ,i've to wa% = lun*eon1 ,paul1 %e said1 z %e mov$ away1 & don't =get we g a%ore aft]w>ds4 ,he half turn$4 ,%all ,i take y\r ?+s8 ,oh1 no4 ,besides1 y've got y\r own4 ,com+8 ,five m9utes1 he said4 ,i hav5't be5 pa9t+1 y "k4 ,left alone1 he look$ away aga9 ov] ! t[n4 ,9 ! middle di/ance1 a m9>et rose into ! hot air4 ,8 gaze re/$ on x1 & ! tra9 ( ?\ght he _h _h runn+ ?r\gh 8 m9d m or less consci\sly all ! morn+ s9ce he _h pass$ b5ea? its %ad[ 9 ! /reet & />$ 9 ?r\gh ! little entrance to ! ve/ibule t 0 n scre5$ f view1 re-occurr$ to him4 ,x conc]n$ _! :ole j\rney4 ,!y _h come ov]l& to ,m>seilles1 & _h /opp$ twelve h\rs 9 ,p>is z ,muriel want$ to d "s %opp+4 ,leav+ ! girls1 !n1 he _h gone up to ,montm>tre ) ! old ecclesia/ical int]e/ /ill ke5 9 8 m9d1 & !reaft] _h come d[n to ,notre ,dame4 ,& 9 ! two *ur*es1 a beg9n+ to ! lesson t ! voyage seem$ to be read+ him1 _h be5 made4 ,! great mod]n *ur*1 ) its flaunt+ col\r & electric light & g>i% decorations1 _h be5 (f]$ fir/4 ,h]e9 ! religi\s half ( tw5tie?-c5tury ,france placat$ ,god4 ,at ! door1 great li/s ( names1 bus9ess-l1 me?odical1 7 a p]petual pray] = ! dead1 ! sick1 specially ne$y s\ls1 *ildr51 neophytes ( ! prie/hood & all ! o!r classes ( t ,ca?olic _w4 ,"u ! bl[n bubble ( ! dome1 wor%ipp]s came & w5t ) eag] fai?4 ,)\t1 ! great c>v5 figure ( ! ,sacr$ ,he>t look$ out across ! city t ?is new temple 0 to save4 ,b5ea?1 ,p>is laugh$1 & %opp$1 & w5t ab\t its bus9ess 9 ! m hidd5 /reets & h\ses ) ,fr5* alacrity4 ,notre ,dame seem$ to him an already half-des]t$ backwat]4 ,all ! pageantry ( ! ,middle ,ages--bi%op & c>d9al1 noble & k+1 peasant & soldi]--_h fl[$ 9 & out aga9 ?r\gh its great sombre au/]e doors1 "h1 :]e massive pill>s & n>r[ w9d[s %ut out ! sun4 ,! anci5t /one effigy ( ! ,"m ( ,god 0 black5$ & a little disreputable4 ,%e /ill _h h] c&les1 yes2 b (ficial ,france no m b[$ be=e h]1 & mod]n ,france 0 try+ a new supplication up on ! hill4 ,t5 ?\s& ?\s& pray]s _h be5 pray$ "h4 ,z _m brok5 he>ts _h wept "h4 ,cui bono8 ,= )\t1 ! ,se9e /ill slipp$ lazily by1 & ov] h] bridges pass$ ! cr[d t laugh$ & %opp$ & w5t ab\t its bus9ess4 ,naples _h %[n him ,pompeii4 ,x _h be5 an un=gettable day :5 ! ?ree ( !m trod ^u ! old *>iot-ruts 9 ! gate ( ! anci5t city4 ,! ro(less h\ses1 ! w9d+ ways1 ! %ops & ba?s & !atres1 _h be5 alive & peopl$ aga9 9 ,paul's imag9ation4 ,nei!r ! du/ nor ! tireless sun c\ld daunt him z he toil$ ) 8 ultimately prote/+ companions 9 & out & up & d[n4 ,he _h se5 ! patrician roll by 9 8 *>iot1 ! gladiator boa/ & dr9k 9 ! tav]n1 ! slave girl laugh ) h] fri5ds at ! /reet corn]1 ! ,greek m]*ant jo/le 8 way ?r\gh ! cr[d ) p]spir+ port]s be>+ 8 m]*&ise beh9d him4 ,& !n1 9 ! temple ( ,apollo1 he _h se5 ! sway+ cr[d1 ! sacrosanct prie/1 ! inc5se1 ! (f]+1 ! smil+ god4 ,a place ( pray] aga92 old] n[2 m ru9$2 an anci5t outworn fai?1 b /ill ! et]nal place ( pray] f :i* m5 _h cri$ to ! heav5s above = ! ,k+dom ( ,god on e>?4 ,well1 & 9 ! /reets ( ,pompeii1 ,am]icans laugh$1 & ,cook's t\ri/s b\ght spuri\s curiosities1 & ,neapolitan guides w5t ab\t _! bus9ess4 ,"h1 9 ,port ,said1 at ! door ( ! immemorial ,ea/1 he _h se5 ,jewi% synagogue1 ,mohamm$an mosque1 ,koptic *apel1 ,ca?olic ca!dral & ,anglican *ur*4 ,a ?\s& tongues ( pray]1 & all ab\t !m ,port ,said3 c\rtesan1 m]*ant1 mat]ial1 tawdry ,port ,said4 ,briti% & ,fr5* & ,egyptian2 ,levant9e & ,syrian & ,greek2 ,am]ican & ,jew & cosmopolite1 h[ !y w5t ab\t _! bus9ess6 ,!y all woo$ _! gods "o way & ano!r1 ?\ght ,paul1 all b p]haps ,ursula's nigg] boys ^: job 0 ! h>de/ & dirtie/ ( all1 & :o laugh$ 9 ! sun4 ,& !n ,paul laugh$1 & w5t bel[ to lun*eon4 ,!y left at sunset1 & aft] d9n]1 z 9 duty b\nd1 ! ?ree ( !m drew *airs =r>d ! w9d-scre5 & wat*$ ! /eady blaze ( ! :ite se>*lights z ! %ip's great eyes />$ ahead at ! n>r[ wat]way1 ! /eep eng9e]$ banks & ! flat endless s&s4 ,"h & !re dahabeeyahs1 moor$ = ! night1 /ood out = a few m9utes ) _! ?9 sp>s black & graceful aga9/ t inf9ite :ite gl>e1 & !n slipp$ into ! %ad[s beh9d4 ,dr$g+ b>ges loom$ mon/r\s & di/ort$1 & dropp$ sil5tly beh9d4 ,once a lonely ,arab on a camel /ood reveal$ 9 e detail1 motionless1 on ! bank above1 & once a long /r+ ( mules pass$1 padd+ ?r\gh ! night4 ,& always !re 7 ! />s1 & l[ d[n ! ,cross t ,paul saw = ! fir/ "t4 ,! majority ( _! fell[-pass5g]s /ood & *att$ = a few m9utes & !n w5t bel[ = music or c>ds4 ,b ,ursula1 ,muriel & ,paul sat on4 ,amaz+ ?+1 said ,muriel at la/4 ,i suppose ! ,*ildr5 ( ,israel cross$ some:]e ab\t "h4 ,moses has always seem$ to me a slightly humor\s p]son1 b ,i don't ?9k he w aga94 ,& to me1 said ,paul reflectively1 he has always seem$ imm5sely impressive4 ,i don't ?9k he w aga94 ,ursula laugh$ quietly4 ,:y n8 qu]i$ ,muriel aggressively4 ,%e & ,paul on ! :ole got on v well toge!r1 b !y ne>ly always sp>r$4 ,all ?is makes ! ,exodus s extraord9>ily real4 ,"o c see x happ5+4 ,yes1 ass5t$ ,paul1 b don't y see1 x makes x also extraord9>ily small4 ,good ,"l1 look at ^? immemorial s&s4 ,israelites6 ,:y ,egyptians & ,assyrians & ,e?iopians & ,greeks & ,romans & scores m ^: names are =gott5 h pass$ "h4 ,i 0 taught t ! ,exodus 0 ! c5tral act ( ! play1 b x's m]ely an int]lude = ! %ift+ ( sc5]y4 ,9 ! play call$ ,kismet1 put 9 ,ursula4 ,muriel1 :o 0 sitt+ betwe5 !m1 glanc$ f "o to ! o!r4 ,!n %e settl$ h]self back 9 h] *air4 ,oh1 g on1 y two1 %e said cont5t$ly4 ,i love to he> y4 ,y're bo? ( y mak+ y\r own lives m ?an any o!r two p ,i "k1 & y bo? ( y pret5d y're n4 ,ursula laugh$ aga94 ,we're m>ionettes "r en\gh1 %e said1 b by "s odd *ance we're alive1 & we c ?or\ghly enjoy ! play4 ,paul drew a deep brea? ( cont5t4 ,i wi% ?is bit ( x w\ld cont9ue = a v long "t1 he said happily4 ,& :ile ! great vessel glid$ on almo/ sil5tly ) its impression ( rel5tless irresi/ible purpose1 ! ?ree sat sil5t1 />+ at ! />s4 ,! ,r$ ,sea unfold$ itself4 ,!y saw a dawn 9 ,port ,suez4 ,paul 0 fir/ on deck 9 8 pyjamas2 & ) b "o glance ar\nd ru%$ excit$ly d[n to ! cab9 t ,muriel & ,ursula %>$ betwe5 !m4 ,_! door /ood on ! lat*4 ,he ?ump$ on x vigor\sly4 ,come 91 call$ ,ursula at once4 ,paul fumbl$ ) ! lock & pu%$ aside ! curta94 ,ursula 0 sitt+ up 9 b$ read+1 h] hair ab\t h]1 h] ?9 silk nightdress expos+ h] %\ld]s & neck4 ,9 ! bunk above1 ,muriel1 on h] side1 cov]$ ) a %eet1 only half awake1 op5$ h] eyes sleepily4 ,x is odd h[ mom5ts ( und]/&+ come 9 life1 n to be hurri$1 n to be ga9said4 ,paul ,ke/]n _h travell$ ) ^! two = "s days n[ ) all _! opportunities ( intimacy1 & 9 h] own flat he _h se5 ,ursula ,mann+ rob$ = ! ev5+ or mak+ a belat$ breakfa/ ev5 m reveal+ly dress$ ?an n[4 ,he might1 s to speak1 h kn[n himself 9 love ) h] fifty times4 ,b n till ?is m9ute did 8 h& clut* ) a sudd5 n]v\sness at ! ne>e/ ?+ ab\t him 7:i* happ5$ to be ! curta971 & 8 brea? cat* 9 8 ?roat4 ,n till ?is m9ute did %e seem to him utt]ly desirable = himself alone1 &--= t is ! deviltry ( love--s supremely lovely t %e mu/ be unatta9able4 ,or all b unatta9able4 ,m5 d>e great adv5tures ) a k9d ( godlike effront]y4 ,b 9 no?+ are !y m godlike t :51 realis+ ! awe & maje/y ( love1 !y conceive delib]ately t !y may w9 to x4 ,w\ld !y1 ?\gh1 if1 m (t5 ?an n1 ! woman did n div9e _! ?\ght & hold out ! sceptre f h] ?rone8 ,t1 at any rate1 is ano!r deviltry4 ,s ,ursula4 ,hullo1 ,paul1 %e said1 v unconc]n$1 h] eyes re/+ s(tly on him1 :at's up8 ,%ip on fire8 ,no1 /amm]$ ,paul1 ,i say1 are y awake8 ,t is1 ,i mean--well1 ( c\rse1 ,i see y are6 ,i say1 come on deck4 ,! sunrise is too heav5ly = words4 ,x's also hot1 said ,muriel1 sitt+ up 9 h] bunk & lean+ ov] to look at ,ursula4 ,hullo6 ,good-morn+4 ,y read+8 ,paul look$ at ,muriel4 ,%e1 too1 wore a ?9 silk nightdress1 b at ! sight ( h] he recov]$ 8 assurance4 ,well1 d come up1 bo? ( y1 he said4 ,x's f> too good to miss4 ,ursula clos$ h] book & drew h] knees up1 prep>atory to gett+ out ( ! bunk4 ,com+1 %e said4 ,paul1 tell ! /ew>d we'll h tea on deck4 ,he dep>t$ on 8 err&1 humm+ to himself ) sudd5 elation4 ,9 ! passage he ran into ,major ,j>d9e4 ,on su* occasions h]et(ore z a f\r? p]son _h be5 dem&$ ( necessity1 ,j>d9e _h fill$ t position1 & _h seem$ increas+ly to reli% x4 ,he 0 9 ! ,k+'s ,african ,rifles1 return+ f leave to 8 companies 9 ,zanzib>4 ,he gr9n$ at ,paul1 b ) a c]ta9 gloom born ( ! tropics & ! h\r4 ,morn+1 he said4 ,y're devili% e>ly & musical1 ,ke/]n4 ,paul laugh$4 ,come & see ! sunrise1 ,major1 he said4 ,x'll *e] y up4 ,we're hav+ tea on deck4 ,!n ! o!r visibly bright5$4 ,good1 he cri$ ) alacrity4 ,i'll tub lat]4 ,%an't be a jiffy4 ,& he disappe>$ into 8 cab9 to get rid ( 8 imp$im5ta4 ,on ! boat-deck1 !n1 ! f\r ga!r$4 ,muriel disp5s$ tea1 assi/$ by ! ,major1 & lit cig>ettes4 ,ursula & ,paul drew a little ap>t4 ,%e leant a h& on ! davits ( "o ( ! boats1 & ,paul /ood back a little by h] side4 ,br[n & orange & yell[ & burnt brick-r$1 ! s&/one hills & s&y wa/es grew />tl+ly & swiftly cle> z !y wat*$4 ,! new sun rose ov] ! des]t1 ov] ! rocky hills1 a great gold5 orb1 in/antly alive4 ,magically ! %ad[s drew (f ! sea or fad$ 9 its dep?s2 ! blue ( x light5$1 grew transp>5tly cle>1 transluc5t4 ,look1 said ,ursula1 9 a half :isp]1 & po9t$ d[n4 ,paul took a /ep =w>d1 & pe]$ :]e %e indicat$4 ,9 ! /ill wat] a great %>k foll[$ by a small replica ( itself mov$ lazily ?r\gh ! wat]y _w ab\t x4 ,its g5tle s9u\s movem5ts 7 sc>cely noticeable2 x glid$ by undi/urb$ ) j fann+ tail4 ,slate-grey1 mottl$ ) black1 x 0 s ne> ! surface t "o c\ld fancy "o saw its wick$ little eye inspect+ ! sil5t mon/] ( ! %ip ly+ !re at its ease s invuln]able & great4 ,x's gone1 said ,paul4 ,my fir/ %>k6 ,ev5 x 0 beautiful1 ,ursula4 ,b t fa]y t[n1 said ! girl s(tly1 :o _h rais$ h] eyes f ! sea4 ,:ite & picturesque1 ) ! gre5 ( palms fleck$ "h & !re ^u x1 ,port ,suez sp>kl$ 9 ! n[ ris5 sun4 ,) its tumbl$ flat-ro($ h\ses1 its occasional m9>et1 its fr+e ( g>d5s1 x 0 a pa9t$ ?+1 a bit ( ! v]itable ,ea/1 = all ! heat & du/ & smells & commonplac5ess ( day 9 its /reets4 ,paul /ood motionless by h] side1 gaz+4 ,d y suppose we c g a%ore8 he ask$ at l5g?4 ,no4 ,%e %ook h] head4 ,nobody ev] seems to "h4 ,besides y'd mu* bett] n1 ,paul4 ,i'd love to4 ,i "k :at y're go+ to say1 b ,i don't believe x4 ,i l dirt & smells4 ,!y're j z my/]i\s & magical z col\r & sc5t4 ,rubbi%1 said ,muriel1 :o _h come up beh9d !m4 ,eh1 ,major8 ,gad1 yes4 ,poet or n1 ,ke/]n1 y w\ldn't l ,port ,suez4 ,ursula glanc$ at !m4 ,= all t1 ,paul's "r1 %e said4 ,& %e smil$ at him4 ,a sort ( fi]ce flame leapt 9 ,paul at t4 ,he _h h>d "w to control himself4 ,! hid passion ( 8 nature 0 ass]t+ itself4 ,he ?rew 8 head back & laugh$4 ,!n he caught ,ursula by ! h&4 ,oh1 come on6 he cri$4 ,ursula1 ,i'll race y r\nd ! deck4 ,c't1 %e said laugh+1 9 a nightie4 ,b ,i might manage to walk4 ,%e slipp$ h] h& into 8 arm1 & !y /roll$ (f4 ,= ! mom5t x 0 en\gh = ,paul t !y two walk$ toge!r4 ,t morn+'s sun1 z x set at la/ ov] ,egypt1 lit up ! p59sula ( ,s9ai ) fi]ce r$ flames4 ,! hot day _h drawn sl[ly out1 & mo/ p 7 9 deck *airs1 ) _! books on _! laps z ! sun w5t d[n4 ,ev5 ! ,major _h be5 read+1 a novel by ,mr4 ,*>les ,g>vice4 ,e>li] on1 ! ?ree _h m]rily attack$ him = 8 *oice1 & he _h /\tly def5d$ himself4 ,t's all v well1 he said1 b ! sort ( /uff !y put 9 novels ^! days1 beats me4 ,i don't want to read a bally s]mon--c't und]/& x ei!r--& half ! re/ a fell['s a%am$ to read 9 ladies' company4 ,n[ ?is *ap1 :at's 8 "n8 7he look$ back to ! cov]--,nev] c rememb] au?ors' names7--,g>vice1 y always "k :at y've got ) him4 ,milk & honey1 said ,muriel 9 h] abrupt way1 />+ out ov] ! p59sula 9 ! direction ( ! ,promis$ ,l&4 ,eh8 qu]i$ ! ,major1 hopelessly at sea4 ,muriel laugh$4 ,yes1 & !re are ! ,t5 ,comm&m5ts1 %e said1 ov] !re4 ,j>d9e /ill look$ puzzl$4 ,he lik$ ,muriel1 aga9/ 8 w z x 74 ,ursula1 he told ,paul1 0 s damn$ quiet1 b ,muriel said ?+s a fell] c\ldn't und]/&4 ,odd pair4 ,pretty ?\gh4 ,& deuc$ attractive4 ,:at did ,ke/]n ?9k8 ,s n[4 ,t's :]e y get me1 he said4 ,b1 ,i say1 :at ab\t a sund[n]8 ,com+1 ,ke/]n8 ,paul rose4 ,ursula look$ up4 ,br+ two m & come back1 %e said lazily4 ,"r1 ,miss ,mann+4 ,y & ,miss ,li/] c discuss ! ,comm&m5ts = five m9utes exactly4 ,!n y mu/ =get !m4 ,b !re's no?+ ab\t sund[n]s 9 ! ,decalogue1 ,major1 said ,paul gaily1 z he mov$ (f4 ,or ,i %\ldn't---- ,!y w5t out ( he>+4 ,muriel glanc$ at h] companion4 ,x's odd1 %e said4 ,paul's lo/ sight ( ,god1 b he /ill ?9ks he c keep morality4 ,ursula fix$ h] gaze on ! d>k5+ m\nta9s4 ,i don't agree1 my de>1 %e said4 ,h[8 ,he's n s mu* lo/ sight ( ,god4 ,he's see+ ,him truly at la/4 ,muriel consid]$ ?is4 ,y mean ,8 veil ( beauty t y're s fond ( talk+ ab\t1 & pa9t+1 %e said4 ,well1 p]haps4444 ,b /ill he ?9ks he keeps or?odox morality4 ,he simply hasn't ?\ght ( t1 said ,ursula4 ,muriel f\nd a m>k] & %ut h] book4 ,h] motions sugge/$ t %e 0 ab\t to op5 a conv]sation1 b %e did n speak at once1 ?\gh %e put h] book d[n & /ret*$ h]self out 9 h] *air4 ,b at la/ %e spoke delib]ately4 ,de>1 %e said1 ,i "k :at y ?9k ab\t all t4444 ,n[ ,paul's 9 love ) y1 :e!r he kn[s x or :e!r he doesn't4 7,a little pause47 ,y "k x anyway4 ,also y're high prie/ess ( 8 new religion4 ,%e /opp$4 ,%e seem$ to ?9k ! o!r w\ld say some?+1 b t 0 n ,ursula's way4 ,n = ! fir/ "t1 despite _! fri5d%ip1 ,muriel f\nd x irritat+4 ,look "h1 ,ursula1 %e said1 sitt+ up1 :at's go+ to happ5 :5 he does beg9 to ?9k ab\t morality8 ,a look grew 9 ,ursula's face4 ,h] fri5d /udi$ h] int5tly4 ,i say1 ,ursie1 %e said1 b 9 a *ang$ s(t5$ tone1 x's play+ ) fire4 ,paul's n q an ord9>y man4 ,ursula made no direct reply4 ,b ! o!r und]/ood h]4 ,he's l a p]son :o has glimps$ ,p>adise ?r\gh ! b>s1 %e said4 ,yes8 qu]i$ ,muriel4 ,! gate's op51 said ,ursula simply1 z ! m5 came back4 7#b7 ,b ,paul 0 to fulfil ,muriel's pr$iction soon] ?an %e expect$4 ,! little ,gaika me&]$ 9 h] sl[ & /eady way d[n ! ,r$ ,sea4 ,at ! close ( a swelt]+ day1 %e drew into ,port ,sudan1 & x 0 at ,port ,sudan t ,paul ,ke/]n began fir/ to ?9k ab\t morality 9 ! light ( 8 op5$ eyes4 ,x happ5$ ?is way4 ,! ?ree 7 sitt+ ov] c(fee 9 ! saloon :5 ! ,major1 :o _h f9i%$ e>li] & _h gone up on deck1 re-ent]$ & cross$ ov] to !m4 ,i say1 he said1 ! skipp] says we %all be "h all night & c g a%ore if we l4 ,y ?ree c>e to come8 ,by ,jove1 yes1 cri$ ,paul excit$ly1 jump+ up4 ,x's a dull place1 y "k1 said ! ,major1 z if x 7 8 duty to apologise = x4 ,a :>f1 a railway /ation & s&1 mo/ly4 ,b x's r int]e/9'4 ,x's go+ to be ! ma9 port = ,kh>t\m & ,upp] ,egypt "o day4 ,is !re no?+ else to see b s&1 ,major8 qu]i$ ,muriel1 smil+4 ,oh1 !re are "s native /ores1 ,miss ,li/]1 & an hotel :]e we c get a dr9k4 ,& x w be cool on %ore 9 ! night air4 ,t settles x1 said ! girl4 ,com+1 ,ursie8 ,r1 said ,ursula4 ,hurrah1 cri$ ,paul4 ,%all ,i get y\r sc>ves8 ,x 0 necess>y to r[ across ! h>b\r 9 a native boat4 ,! m5 h&$ ! girls 9 & sat beside !m on ! r\gh seats4 ,a boy 9 a r$ fez1 ) 8 %irt hang+ loose ov] 8 cotton draw]s1 :o 0 to act z guide1 direct$ op]ations4 ,two gr9n+ negroes1 _! muscles knott$ b5ea? _! flimsy ve/s1 drove ! boat ov] ! d>k wat]s ) long sweeps ( o>s4 ,!re 0 no moon1 b ! />s gave a s(t light4 ,& z ! blunt pr[ cut ! sea1 a ?\s& molt5 ripples broke 9 little waves left & "r1 silv] /ream]s melt$ into ! d>kness on ei!r side1 :ile ! blades ( ! o>s turn$ up liquid fire4 ,e little drop t fell f !m 0 a diamond ( light4 ,z !y look$ ov] ! side1 gleam+ flights ( liv+ silv] gems ( fi% fl$ be=e _! approa*4 ,ov] ! black wat]s ahead1 %one a yell[ flick] or two f lant]ns on ! quay4 ,!y l&$1 laugh+ & jok+1 & f\nd !mselves on a roadway t 01 z ! ,major _h said1 all s&1 except = granite curb/ones t ran ahead into ! night & m>k$ its c\rse4 ,n[ & aga91 a bo>d ann\nc$ ! site ( a *ur* or hotel2 & at a cross-road 9 ! wa/e1 build+ op]ations _h be5 begun = a big %op1 a !atre & a re/aurant4 ,piccadilly ,circus "h1 said ,j>d9e1 all 9 good "t6 ,:i* way n[8 laugh$ ,muriel4 ,d[n t[>ds ^? lights4 ,!re are make%ift /ores !re1 & ! native qu>t]4 ,i expect we might f9d a native caf & music hall go+ /rong4 ,:at fun1 said ,ursula4 ,lead on1 ,major4 ,_! guide jabb]$ 9 ,swahili & ,j>d9e int]pret$4 ,he says !re's a !atre1 he said smil+1 if ! ladies c>e to see x4 ,a !atre6 ejaculat$ ,paul4 ,heav5s above6 ,:at 9 ! _w d !y %[ "h8 ,!re'll be a c9ematograph1 said ! ,major judicially1 & a b&1 & dances1 & songs scree*$ l\d en\gh to dr[n ev5 ! b&4 ,we might look 94 ,if x's a bit too mu* = ! ladies1 we c leave4 ,z if 9 ready answ]1 ! s\nd ( a *orus 0 borne on ! night air to !m4 ,! p>ty /ood /ill & />$ at ea* o!r4 ,!n !y broke into mutual laught]4 ,!re 0 no mi/ak+ x3 ,africa 0 s++ 9 :at x call$ ,engli%3 ,i'm a bro-k5 doll4 ,come on1 come on1 cri$ ,paul1 recov]+ himself4 ,we %all miss half ! fun4 ,oh1 no1 we %an't1 said ,j>d9e4 ,take x easy1 = goodness' sake4 ,!y'll keep x up till morn+1 especially z !re's a %ip 94 ,z !y approa*$1 ! gl>es & %ad[y build+s ahead resolv$ !mselves into m recognisable objects4 ,!y /opp$ at l5g? on ! edge ( a cr[d t 0 sitt+ at tre/le tables 9 a half-light t fad$ into ! d>k night ar\nd4 ,ev]yone 0 look+ t[>ds a big ram%ackle build+ t held out an op5-air /age4 ,k]os9e fl>es & oil lamps illum9at$ x4 ,a b&1 9 tatt]$ crimson tunics1 bl>$ & beat bel[1 b r out ( ! way to ! "r to p]mit ( ! arti/es desc5d+ into ! auditorium1 & on x1 at ! mom5t1 a /\t d>k-hair$ ,greek woman 0 s++4 ,h] voice rea*$ !m only at int]vals1 =1 h>% & l\d & discordant z x 01 ! b& beat x mo/ ( ! "t4 ,sudd5ly1 ) a ge/ure1 %e comm&$ ! *orus4 ,! audi5ce took x up4 ,ragg$ ,africans--,sudanese1 ,fellah91 ,swahilis2 ,indians1 & half-ca/es2 fr[sy ,greeks & ,levant9es2 & a spr9kl+ ( :ite-duck$1 m respectable look+1 b di/9ctly d>k ,europeans2 !y all sang1 %\t$1 beat "t4 ,x 0 obvi\sly a popul> item4 ,ursula laugh$ he>tily4 ,oh1 %e cri$1 h[ priceless6 ,c't we g ne>] ! /age & sit d[n1 ,major8 ,j>d9e look$ d\btful4 ,oh1 ,i don't "k1 he said4 ,b ! guide _h caught "s ( ! ,engli% words4 ,seet d[n8 he qu]i$4 ,yas1 s>4 ,pl5ty room up !re4 ,missy1 come !es way4 ,"r1 said ,ursula1 smil+4 ,lead on1 ,jacob4 ,! boy %[$ all 8 :ite tee?4 ,me ,abdullah1 mees1 he said4 ,y foll[ me4 ,= goodness' sake1 keep to ! o!r side ( ! b&1 urg$ ,muriel4 ,! boy lead+1 ! girls foll[+1 ! ,major & ,paul 7 b\nd to g4 ,paul 0 eag] en\gh4 ,j>d9e 0 less ready1 &1 ) "s k1 m appreh5sive4 ,good ,god1 ,ke/]n1 he said1 ?is is m ?an ,i b>ga9$ =4 ,y nev] "k :at y're 9 = "h4 ,x 0 impossible1 h[ev]1 to draw back easily n[4 ,! proprietor himself1 an oil$ smil+ ,syrian 9 ev5+ dress1 _h come =w>d4 ,) a magnific5t ge/ure1 he indicat$ a small table = f\r on ! left1 & wav$ ,abdullah into ! surr\nd+ blackness4 ,j>d9e nodd$ to "s %ip's (fic]s at a little di/ance1 & seem$ m reliev$ :5 he saw a spr9kl+ ( wom5 ab\t !m & ev5 a gr\p ( ladies f ! %ip on ! edge ( ! %ad[s4 ,b !y 7 too noticeably prom95t = 8 lik+4 ,x 0 too late to move1 h[ev]1 & he b[$ to ! inevitable1 giv+ ord]s = dr9ks to ! ,indian wait]1 b ) audible misgiv+s ov] t4 ,i'll ord] w9e1 he said4 ,we c see t ! cork hasn't be5 tamp]$ )1 & t's less likely to poison y ?an any?+ else4 ,y're mighty *e]ful1 ,major1 laugh$ ,muriel4 ,well1 ,miss ,li/]1 we're 9 = x n[1 anyway4 ,don't blame me4 ,i w\ldn't h miss$ x = ! _w1 put 9 ,paul en?usia/ically4 ,by ,jove1 ,ursula1 j look at t b&6 ,did y ev] see any?+ m comic 9 y\r life8 ,paul %ortly =got ! /age1 or ne>ly s4 ,x 0 ! audi5ce t int]e/$ him1 & ! great gl[ ( light t lo/ itself 9 ! black des]t ab\t & %one on /range ,ea/]n faces t came & w5t on ! %ad[-l9e ( its edge4 ,x 0 unusual1 too1 to sit ) t fanta/ic noise 9 "o's e>s & yet to be able to look out to ! sil5ce yond] "u ! s]5e />s4 ,!re 7 two semi-,european wom5 at a table ne>1 also1 to :om 8 eyes con/antly if surreptiti\sly return$4 ,fat1 bulg+1 9 tawdry lace & imitation jewels1 !y 7 nev]!less smil+1 gay1 human1 he ?\ght1 & "o ( !m kept a mo!rly eye on a *ild ( sev5 or eight 9 a sailor suit :o w\ld w&] f h] side4 ,he leant =w>d to draw ,ursula's att5tion to !m4 ,& !n he saw t h] eyes 7 fix$ on ! /age4 ,into ! g>i% light1 h]ald$ ) cla%+ cymbals1 advanc$ ?ree ,african girls ) elaborately dress$ woolly hair1 ?ick r\g$ lips1 bright laugh+ eyes4 ,_! legs & feet 7 b>e4 ,%ort col\r$ skirts rea*$ only to ! knee1 & sc>cely to t4 ,above ! wai/ !y wore only t9y bodices ( vivid col\r1 r$ & yell[1 :i* 7 b\nd tightly across brea/s firmly outl9$ b5ea? !m4 ,gaudy necklaces ( beads & co9s sp>kl$ ar\nd _! necks1 & a ho/ ( j+l+ bangles decorat$ _! b>e arms4 ,ea* c>ri$ a tamb\r9e1 & to ! accompanim5t ( native drums1 !y po/ur$ & danc$4 ,x 0 no m ?an a danse du v5tre1 b x 0 at lea/ a new exp]i5ce = ,paul4 ,a t5se /illness settl$ gradually d[n on ! audi5ce1 x seem$ to him4 ,! edge ( ! brok5 irregul> circle ( light fill$ up ) faces1 a grey & black wall ( !m1 a f5ce ( gleam+ />+ eyes4 ,! drums beat 9 a wild rhy?m1 & %rill native pipes broke 94 ,wild] & wild] grew ! dance4 ,! protub]ant po/ur+s1 ! voluptu\s wri?+s ( :i* he h>dly guess$ ! mean+1 ! extraord9>y :eel+s 9 swift /eps dur+ :i* ! ?ree p]=m]s %ook _! heavy buttocks braz5ly at ! gaz+ cr[d1 glanc+ ov] _! %\ld]s ! :ile1 7 ab&on$ = m reckless toss+ ( arms & legs1 m %rill1 m cacophon\s music4 ,paul grew :ite4 ,! ,major lean$ ov] t[>ds ! ladies4 ,er--er1 he /amm]$1 r$-fac$4 ,i ?9k p]haps x's gett+ late4 ,hadn't we bett] be go+8 ,c]ta9ly1 said ,muriel1 gett+ up at once4 ,paul foll[$ suit4 ,wait till ?is is ov]1 said ,ursula1 coolly4 ,y c't leave 9 ! middle ( a turn4 ,paul moi/5$ 8 lips4 ,& !n1 f ! w+s1 into ! blaze & noise1 danc$ a swift figure4 ,! girl 0 p]haps an ,abyss9ian ) maybe ,fr5* blood 9 h] ve9s2--%e 0 kn[n at any rate to ! cr[d :o *e]$ z "o man & %\t$ h] "n4 ,regul>ly featur$1 sup]bly fram$1 h] rav5-black hair fl[$ loose ab\t h]1 cr[n$ ) a sc>let fl[]4 ,h] skirt 0 diaphan\s & spangl$2 a sort ( loose :ite sc>f 0 held by a clasp betwe5 h] brea/s b float$ 9 a cl\d ar\nd h] z %e mov$4 ,h] %apely back b>e1 h] curv$ & li!some body firm1 h] tw9kl+ little feet light1 h] col\r too 0 at any rate :ite by comp>ison ) ! previ\s p]=m]s4 ,! b>b>ic clam\r ( music di$ d[n4 ,! ?ree negro girls collaps$ on "o side4 ,! audi5ce subsid$ ) t5se expectancy4 ,%e danc$ 9 sil5ce & alone4 ,%e utt]ly held h] audi5ce4 ,born ( mix$ p>5tage1 bett] n nam$1 :]e1 h[1 ,god kn[s1 probably %e 0 dirty1 c]ta9ly %e 0 z co>se1 z savage1 z animal1 z %e well c\ld be4 ,b %e held h] audi5ce4 ,%e weav$ a spell ( romance1 ( poetry1 ( magic1 !re1 9 ^? g>i% lights & 9 t r\gh rude place4 ,%e 0 inc>nate grace1 & %e 0 lovely1 say :at y w\ld4 ,entreat+1 =bidd+1 ab&on+1 desir+1 %e 0 wild pagan love4 ,! negresses1 too1 _h danc$ a passion t _h gr[n old1 v1 v old1 a =c$1 a ?\ght-out ?+2 %e danc$ passion1 b ! passion ( ! ,song ( ,songs1 ( ,dionysus "y 9 ,attic fields1 ( y\? itself4 ,& z %e f9i%$1 %e dis5gag$ h] fl[] ) a swift movem5t f h] hair1 & toss$ x to--,paul4 ,he caught x in/9ctively4 ,& !n he realis$ t he _h caught x4 ,he held x 9 8 f+]s1 felt its /em firm betwe5 !m1 & knew t he 0 himself & awake4 ,he realis$ t he _h be5 /&+ & t ! f\r ( !m 7 9 a prom95t position4 ,he realis$1 too1 t he _h be5 *>m$ aga9/ 8 w1 caught away1 & t 8 face _h %[n x2 t %e _h se5 x2 t %e _h1 9 h] wanton way1 *os5 him4444 ,he utt]$ an exclamation & dropp$ ! bloom4 ,= ,god's sake1 let's get out1 said ,j>d9e1 some:]e4 ,lights swam be=e ,paul4 ,he he>d dimly a bur/ ( *e]+1 voices speak+ 9 a mom5t ( less noise1 a little laught]1 !n m *e]s4 ,he /umbl$ among *airs4 ,p]spiration /ood on him s t he fumbl$ = 8 h&k]*ief to wipe 8 face4 ,8 bra9 cle>$ a little 9 do+ s4 ,he saw a bloat$ face t le]$ up f a table & realis$ t ! man 0 speak+ to him4 ,) 8 ha/y ge/ure ( refusal1 8 bra9 cle>$ a little m1 & he began to und]/&4 ,he began to und]/&1 above all1 h[ & :y he _h lik$ ! dance4 ,!y 7 outside an inf9ity lat] & walk+ ?r\gh ! cool night4 ,he glanc$ d[n1 /ill r /upidly1 feel+ 8 feet on s&1 & saw t 8 %oes 7 cov]$ ) x1 & ! black turn$-up ankles ( 8 ev5+ tr\s]s4 ,look+ ahead1 he saw ,j>d9e 0 on 9 front ) ,muriel4 ,he turn$ 8 head to /eal a glance at ,ursula1 & cri$ out on ! in/ant4 ,ursula6 ,y're we>+ x6 ,:y n8 ,y dropp$ x r rudely4 ,he m>vell$ at h] level voice4 ,%e 0 p]fectly cool1 he notic$1 look+ /raight ahead 9 h] direct way z !y walk$4 ,& ! fl[] 0 a trumpet-%ap$ hibiscus t burn$ 9 ! op5+ ( h] ev5+ frock ev5 aga9/ ! :ite sk9 ( h] neck4 ,he sudd5ly und]/ood 8 confus$ memories4 ,!y _h laugh$ at him1 & *e]$ h] :5 %e _h pick$ x up4 ,give x me1 ,ursula6 he cri$4 ,?r[ x away6 ,y c't we> x6 ,:y ev] n8 ,well1 %e 444 ,t girl6 ,!n1 swiftly1 ) a k9d ( braz5 ang]3 ,%e 0 practically nak$6 ,yes4 ,%e _h "o ( ! mo/ lovely bodies ,i've ev] se54 ,ursula turn$ h] head & look$ up at him ) a fa9t tw9kle ( amusem5t 9 h] eyes4 ,b--b---- ,paul /amm]$ = words4 ,yet ev5 s1 ! girl by 8 side1 ) h] s]5e smile1 began to ma/] 8 excitem5t by h] m]e cool pres5ce4 ,b1 ,ursula1 x 0 a disgraceful ?+4 ,oh8 ,y didn't seem to ?9k s :ile y wat*$4 ,p]sonally1 ,i ?\ght x 0 wond]fully beautiful4 ,b 9 t place6 ,exactly4 ,l a fre% fl[] on a du/-heap4 ,naturally ,i pick$ up h] gift4 ,b y c't ju/ify x1 he prote/$ 9 bewild]m5t t grew ) e s5t5ce4 ,x 0 grossly immoral4 ,immoral8 ,yes4 ,y "k x4 ,paul 0 emphatic4 ,:at 0 immoral !n8 ,! fl[]8 ,! du/-heap8 ,! girl's body8 ,! dance8 ,ugly or beautiful1 p]haps1 b immoral8 ,:at d y mean8 ,well1 x appeal$ to ! wor/ passions 9 ev]yone1 to ! animal 9 u1 9--9 me4 ,x appeal$ to y s5sually no d\bt4 ,y\r m9d1 in=m$ by y\r s5ses1 appreciat$ ! animal grace & beauty4 ,:y n8 ,are animals immoral8 ,t 0 a girl ?\gh1 a human be+1 a--a---- ,& isn't a girl an animal8 ,are y & ,i n animals8 ,we've s\ls anyway4 ,are y s sure animals hav5't s\ls8 ,h[ d y "k8 ,:at is a s\l1 ,paul8 ,a s\l8 qu]i$ ,paul4 ,well444 7,he /umbl$ desp]ately47 ,! immortal "p ( u1 ! home ( ! _s1 a bit ( ,god4 ,god8 ,h] tone in/antly arre/$ him4 ,!re1 9 ! night1 pick+ _! way d[n ! road-to-be ov] ! s& ( ! des]t1 ! bl>e ( ! music beh9d !m 9 ! di/ance1 he 0 arre/$ aga94 ,he 0 quick en\gh to see x ) ! swiftness ( ?\ght4 ,god6 ,ev]y?+ came back to ,god4 ,& :]e 0 ,god8 ,& if !re 0 no ,god1 :]e 0 morality8 ,ursula put h] h& on 8 arm4 ,x 0 r l ,*anctonbury all ov] aga91 he ?\ght in/antly1 & smil$ involunt>ily at ! ?\ght4 ,"h1 9 ,egypt1 9 ! :irl ( new exp]i5ce1 h] t\* on 8 arm br\ght back ! song ( ! l>k & ! vision ( ! ,engli% sun on ! fields & woods r\nd ,/eyn+4 ,& %e knew x4 ,y old de>1 %e said4 ,:at ab\t ! begg>'s clay8 ,is clay magical 9 plants & fl[]s1 & s9ful 9 human bodies8 ,b t sort ( ?+ outrages ! moral law1 he object$1 sob]ly4 ,%e laugh$ a v little4 ,has ,god spok5 ,8 laws s cle>ly1 ,paul8 %e said4 ,i ?\ght y _h come to ! conclusion t ,he 0 r sil5t4 ,b !re mu/ be a moral law6 ,:y1 good heav5s444 ,!n :]e is ! moral ,lawgiv]8 %e dem&$1 in/antly4 ,:]e is ! moral ,lawgiv]8 ,:]e6 ,! ^w e*o$ 9 8 consci\sness1 & he knew t he _h no answ]4 ,tramp+ ov] ! s&1 tramp+ ?r\gh ! night1 he saw to :at he _h come1 or ?\ght he saw4 ,?us soon 0 ,muriel answ]$4 ,ursula laugh$ a little aga94 ,poor old ,paul1 %e said4 ,look "h1 de>1 ! girl gave u ! be/ %e _h to give1 & :at %e gave _h real beauty4 ,isn't t en\gh = y & me8 ,he made no answ]1 & !y walk$ a little fur!r 9 sil5ce4 ,!n h] h& on 8 arm tight5$4 ,doesn't ! bl9d begg> see8 %e qu]i$1 smil+ up at him 9 ! d>k4 ,i'm n q sure1 ,ursula1 he said4 ,!re is clay t has n t\*$ 8 eyes !n1 %e repli$ g5tly4 ,paul caught h] h&4 ,a glimm] ( h] mean+ danc$ be=e him1 b z a :ole x /ill elud$ him z yet4 ,x elud$ him1 b !re 0 some?+ 9 h] voice t made 8 blood run swift & hot z x _h b j n[ 9 ! caf *antant4 ,ursula1 d>l+1 he :isp]$4 ,%e *eck$ him4 ,y see1 ,paul1 %e said g5tly1 y 7 angry n because %e 0 probably half a slave1 or ill-treat$1 or ignorant1 or z l z n solely out = y\r money4 ,y didn't ?9k ( ^? ?+s4 ,no1 y 7 angry because %e 0 nak$4 ,t 0 bea/ly1 immoral--t be+ :at %e 0 %e glori$ 9 h] body & h] grace4 ,well1 x 0 n bea/ly to me1 especially 9 h]4 ,:at else _h %e to glory 98 ,:y %\ld %e n h glori$ 9 h] body8 ,is a beautiful body bea/ly8 ,%e danc$ natural passion--is natural passion immoral8 ,i _c foll[ y\r !ology4 ,%e 0 lovely & %e gave u h] be/1 &--well1 ,i 0 glad to be able to ?ank h] = x4 ,paul's grip tight5$ on h] h&4 ,:y1 ,ursula1 he said huskily1 x 0 ,i :o 0 bea/ly1 priggi%---- ,%e %rugg$ h] %\ld]s4 ,!n %e laugh$ lightly4 ,let t pass1 %e said4 ,w y we> y\r fl[] n[8 ,give x me1 cri$ ,paul4 ,%e pe]$ up at him4 ,!n %e loos5$ h] h& & took ! bloom f h] dress4 ,"h x is1 %e said1 pres5t+ x4 ,he held x 9 8 f+]s a mom5t or two1 /udy+ its fre% lovel9ess 9 ! dim />light4 ,its fa9t sc5t came to 8 no/rils4 ,%e /ood smil+ & look+ at him4 ,he look$ up sudd5ly4 ,may ,i drop x 9 ! sea z we r[ back8 he ask$4 ,%e read 9 8 eyes :at he meant1 & if he _h n be5 q s bl9d & /upid & seem+ ri* he w\ld h read 9 h]s t ! gate ( ,p>adise /ood op5 be=e him1 z %e _h said to ,muriel4 ,b %e saw t he _h n read t yet1 & if %e 0 n q cont5t1 %e 0 at lea/ v wise4 ,because ! sea is cool & lovely8 %e ask$4 ,& =giv+1 he said4 ,%e nodd$1 und]/&+4 7#c7 ,paul told himself z he w5t to sleep t he w\ld ask ,ursula to m>ry him 9 ! morn+4 ,b he did n4 ,he may h be5 at "o "t a budd+ evangeli/ & he 0 c]ta9ly n[ a poet1 b he 0 /ill ! son ( ,claxt$1 & he f\nd x h>d to escape f all t t meant4 ,he _h ideas z to proposals1 & ?is 0 a s]i\s proposal ( m>riage4 ,he wait$ 8 *ance1 !n2 & miss$ a good _m ?r\gh wait+ to be q sure t ! "r mom5t _h inde$ come4 ,?us & ?us is x ev] likely to be1 ev5 :5 we sleep]s awake1 & all roads lead to ,n[h]e4 ,b 9 ,zanzib> he _h 8 way4 ,ad5 came & w5t1 & ,kil9d9i1 & t fir/ walk+ ?r\gh tropical bu% to ! old =t by ! sea t has dream$ s _m hundr$ ye>s away s9ce ! remnant ( its ,portuguese g>rison 0 crucifi$ on its walls4 ,n ev5 9 ,mombasa1 sitt+ on ! %ore at ! entrance ( ! riv]1 did he speak1 = !re is a golf l9ks ( sorts h>d by & ! ,major & ,muriel 7 go+ r\nd4 ,ev5 m wond]fully1 n ev5 t night at sea did he speak1 ?\gh ! surface 0 l a %eet ( poli%$ d>k glass t n[ & aga9 %iv]$ into an untellable pool ( liquid silv] z a s*ool ( fly+ fi% %att]$ its quietude into phosphoresc5t fire4 ,yet1 possibly1 8 sil5ce !n 0 n s wond]ful aft] all4 ,x 0 su* a night ( wond] t he c\ld h>dly speak at all1 ev5 al?\gh he ?\ght himself 9 love4 ,zanzib>1 h[ev]1 suffic$4 ,"h !y 7 to leave ! ,major1 & "h1 naturally1 he %[$ !m r\nd be=e !y sail$4 ,he _h a bungal[ out pa/ ,mnazi ,mmoja1 be=e ! b>racks1 ov]look+ ! sea1 & 8 c> met him at ! l&+-/age4 ,s !y 7 driv5 sl[ly pa/ ! front ( ! ,sultan's palace & ?r\gh ! native t[n to ! tidal creek t wa%es ! base ( ,liv+/one's h\se twice a day2 up ! creek road !n1 pa/ ! ,engli% ,ca!dral ) its tall ?9 spire ris+ above :at 0 once ! :ipp+-po/ ( ! slave m>ket1 ris+ out ( a sea ( sc>let-fl[]+ flamboyants t surr\nd x & 7 9 full bloom to greet !m2 up ! road t skirts ! ,engli% ,games ,club2 pa/ ! ,g]man ,club2 pa/ ! cemet]y :]e wax5 frangipanni & purple b\ga9villaea %$ _! blossoms ! p]petual summ]4 ,d[n a private way to ! "r n[1 & !re1 on a grassy knoll front+ ! sea-bea*1 a grove ( palms beh9d1 ! /ill /rait across :i* lay ! hills ( ,africa 9 a haze be=e1 /ood ,major ,j>d9e's bungal[4 ,!y _h b ! day & ! ev5+1 & ! ,major sugge/$ a run across ! isl& to ! bea* at ,*uaka :]e ! surf ( ! ,indian ,ocean beats all day & a cool w9d bl[s ev5 9 ! hot season4 ,zanzib>1 he said1 0 b a bigg] ,mombasa s f> z ! native t[n w5t1 b n[h]e else on ! coa/ w\ld y f9d tangle ( banana & orange & lime & coconut & mango & almond & areca & date1 ) "h & !re a grove ( cassu>9as or cloves1 to mat* ?is4 ,he 0 "r4 ,!y skirt$ ! banks ( l[ swampy riv]s lovely ) blue wat]-lilies & re$s & sc>let dragon-flies2 ran ?r\gh plantations ( grey au/]e coconut trees ?r\gh :i* ! sunlight trickl$ d[n on to ?9 sp>se olive grass2 left clu/]s ( br[n huts set 9 small pat*es ( delicately-leav$ r$-/emm$ muhoga2 climb$ ! two hundr$ feet ( ! ,liliputian hill ( coral t makes ! backbone ( ! isl&2 came out on to t pla9 at its summit :]e ,engli% brack5 gr[s & a sweet yell[ %rub t might1 at a di/ance1 be ,engli% gorse2 & desc5d$ at la/ ?r\gh groves ( orange trees1 ! fruit scatt]$ 9 lavi% pr(usion on ! v road1 to ! collector's h\se at ,*uaka4 ,he 0 a polite ,goanese1 & he made !m tea1 s]v+ !m himself on 8 b>azza :i* 0 hung out f ! fir/ floor ov] ! v bea* b5ea?1 :]e ! :ite coral s& gli/5$ 9 ! sun & ! surf beat 9 p]petually4 ,!reaft] !y /roll$ (f1 !oretically to look = %ells1 ?\gh no "o did mu* look+3 ,j>d9e because he did n c>e = %ells2 ,muriel because1 aft] h] k9d1 %e want$ hone/ly to rea* a di/ant po9t & see :at lay beyond2 ,ursula because %e 0 utt]ly entranc$ by ! /ret* ( ! =e%ore1 ) ! riot ( vegetation ev] invad+ ! s&s & ev]1 9 its outpo/s ( mangrove1 ! v sea itself2 & ,paul because he 0 beg9n+ to realise t he c>$ ab\t collect+ no?+ except ,ursula4 ,muriel & ! ,major 7 ?us soon out ( sight4 ,ursula & ,paul1 hav+ wa/$ half an h\r wat*+ ! antics ( a nak$ kiddie 9 a m9iature outrigg] canoe :i* he f9ally ran a%ore ) consummate ease & made fa/ ) ! skill ( an anci5t m>9]1 f\nd a great mass ( coral rock :i* ov]hung a pool t 0 "o en*ant$ g>d5 ( col\r & life4 ,!y bo? wad$ 9 till ,ursula _h h] skirts high above h] knees1 & ,paul's uproll$ tr\s]s %[$ a good c\ple ( in*es ( soak$ t]ritory4 ,look6 %e cri$4 ,paul1 d y see t sea-ur*98 ,look6 ,9 !re4 ,oh1 my de>1 d y see its sp9es8 ,sat9y br[n1 spott$ ) blue & r$4 ,c\ld y get x8 ,if ,i die 9 ! attempt1 said ,paul manfully1 giv+ a fre% tug to 8 tr\s]s & mov+ cauti\sly =w>d4 ,"h 0 promise ( ! ,claxt$ viv>ium at la/6 ,good "l1 ?is coral1 he groan$4 ,:y don't "s ( ! blight]s :o write ab\t ,african seas say coral is z %>p z--ugh6--ne$les6 ,he rea*$ =w>d at l5g? & plung$ 8 arm deep into ! pool4 ,oh1 g on1 laugh$ ,ursula1 ano!r in*4444 ,y\r tr\s]s don't matt]4 ,t's x4444 ,got x8 ,damn6 cri$ ,paul4 ,oh1 ,i say ,i'm sorry1 b ^? sp9es are %>p4 ,lor1 ,i'm soak$4 ,b !re1 j look at him4 ,look at him try+ to walk on my h&4 ,come on out1 & let's put him 9 %all[ wat] & wat* him move4 ,!y b5t toge!r ov] ! lovely ?+ & wat*$ x walk sl[ly b purposefully away4 ,& :ile !y /ood !re1 motionless1 b>efoot1 side by side on ! s& 9 "s six in*es or s ( ! w>m wat]1 a fleet ( t9y sky-blue fi% invad$ ! %all[s4 ,ursula caught ,paul's h&1 & !re !y /ood1 h>dly d>+ to brea!1 :ile ! little liv+ fragm5ts ( sapphire pok$ _! t9y noses ab\t _! toes4 ,!n1 sudd5ly1 ,paul laugh$ tempe/u\sly1 & !y fl$4 ,oh1 y rott]1 cri$ ,ursula1 smil+ at him4 ,!y'll nev] come aga94 ,i c\ldn't help x1 said ,paul a little ruefully1 /oop+ to rub 8 foot4 ,t fell[ 0 actually b$d+ d[n betwe5 my foot & y\rs1 & he tickl$ s4 ,well1 anyway1 we've got to put on %oes & /ock+s n[4 ,x'll be sunset 9 next to no "t4 ,paul1 did y ev] imag9e any?+ q z lovely z all ?is8 ,paul /ood1 & let 8 gaze w&] ar\nd4 ,!re 0 n a s\l to be se5 9 ! curve ( ! bay 9 :i* !y 74 ,a little way (f1 ! outrigg]1 r\gh-hewn & br[n1 lay on its side4 ,k+ crabs 7 beg9n+ to em]ge f _! holes 9 ! s& & /& on _! spid]y legs & survey ! ev5+ _w f _! ca/les ( eyes4 ,f> out at sea fea!ry p9k cl\ds 7 float+ d[n to a b>r$ horizon ( em]ald & gold4 ,all ar\nd & ab\t !m a s(t light gl[$ f :i* ! fi]ce vividness ( ! day _h di$ away4 ,he turn$ & put 8 arm 9 h]s4 ,let's sit 9 ! outrigg] & put on our ?+s1 he said4 ,!y sat side by side1 & ,paul 0 aw>e aga91 z he _h be5 lately1 ( ! girl's lovel9ess4 ,unconc]n$1 gaily1 %e t[ell$ h] feet on 8 h&k]*ief1 drew on h] /ock+s1 fa/5$ !m1 smoo!d d[n h] skirt4 ,%e f9i%$ be=e him1 s9ce %e _h dri$ fir/1 & sat wait+ = a second or two1 h] face re/+ on h] h&s1 h] eyes on ! ev]-deep5+ sunset col\rs4 ,he too f9i%$1 & foll[$ h] gaze seaw>ds4 ,!n3 ,d y want any?+ m ?an t8 %e ask$ s(tly4 ,& at h] "q ,paul und]/ood q sudd5ly4 ,absurdly en\gh1 k came to him j !n1 l a revelation4 ,!re 0 no app>5t reason :y x %\ld n h come be=e1 & he did n move = a little pond]+ 8 dulness & ! surpass+ wond] ( ?+s4 ,= ?is awak5+ 0 n a bit z he _h imag9$ su* ?+s w\ld be4 ,he 0 n excit$ or passionate1 n n[ at any rate4 ,he want$ inde$ to t\* h]1 b t5d]ly1 he c\ld sc>cely tell himself h[ t5d]ly4 ,he put 8 arm g5tly ab\t h] wai/4 ,yes1 ,ursula1 y1 y1 he :isp]$4 ,%e turn$ ) a swift movem5t & fac$ him4 ,i6 %e cri$1 h] eyes alight1 ,i6 ,!n1 = ,paul ,ke/]n & ,ursula ,mann+1 = bo? ( !m1 ! k+doms ( ?is _w & ! glory ( !m pass$ away1 & !re 0 vision ( a new heav5 & a new e>?4 ,aft] a little1 ,paul dis5gag$ himself f h] arms4 ,!re 0 an odd expression ( wond] writt5 on 8 face1 v pla9 to see4 ,ursula tri$ to read x1 b 0 puzzl$4 ,:at is x1 ,paul d>l+8 %e :isp]$4 ,:y1 he said sl[ly1 d y "k :at ,i 0 ?9k+8 ,all my ye>s ( worry & d\bt1 all t talk ab\t religion---- ,he broke (f4 ,yes8 ,he hesitat$4 ,!n he laugh$ m]rily l a *ild & flung 8 arms ab\t h] aga91 eag]ly1 boi/]\sly4 ,( c\rse1 he manag$ to say at la/1 x 0 all awfully important4 ,really1 truly1 ,ursula4 ,pr9t$ 9 ,great ,brita9 by ,bill+ & ,sons1 ,limit$1 ,guild=d & ,e%]4