,,! ,,gates ,,aj>4 ,,by ,,elizabe? ,,/u>t ,,phelps4 8,spl5dor6 ,imm5sity6 ,et]nity6 ,gr& words6 ,great ?+s6 ,a little def9ite happ9ess w\ld be m to ! purpose40 ,,madame ,,de ,,gasp>9 ,,bo/on3 ,,james ,r4 ,,osgood ,,& ,,company1 ,,late ,,ticknor ,,fields1 ,,& ,,fields1 ,,osgood1 ,,co4 #ahgc4 ,ent]$ accord+ to ,act ( ,congress1 9 ! ye> #ahfh1 by ,,fields1 ,,osgood1 ,,co41 ,9 ! ,cl]k's ,(fice ( ! ,di/rict ,c\rt ( ! ,di/rict ( ,massa*usetts4 ,,univ]sity ,,press3 ,,wel*1 ,,bigel[1 ,,co41 ,,cambridge4 ,to my fa!r1 ^: life1 l a p]fume f beyond ! ,gates1 p5etrates e life :i* approa*es x1 ! read]s ( ?is little book w owe :atev] pleasant ?+ !y may f9d )9 its pages4 ,e4 ,s4 ,p4 ,,&ov]1 ,octob] #bb1 #ahfh4 ,,! ,,gates ,,aj>4 ,i4 ,"o week2 only "o week to-day1 ?is tw5ty-fir/ ( ,febru>y4 ,i h be5 sitt+ "h 9 ! d>k & ?9k+ ab\t x1 till x seems s horribly long & s horribly %ort2 x has be5 su* a week to live ?r\gh1 & x is su* a small "p ( ! weeks t mu/ be liv$ ?r\gh1 t ,i c\ld ?9k no long]1 b light$ my lamp & op5$ my desk to f9d some?+ to d4 ,i 0 toss+ my pap] ab\t1--only my own3 ! packages 9 ! yell[ envelopes ,i h n be5 q brave en\gh to op5 yet1--:5 ,i came across ?is poor little book 9 :i* ,i us$ to keep memor&a ( ! wea!r1 & my lov]s1 :5 ,i 0 a s*ool-girl4 ,i turn$ ! leaves1 smil+ to see h[ _m blank pages 7 left1 & took up my p51 & n[ ,i am n smil+ any m4 ,if x _h n come exactly z x did1 x seems to me z if ,i c\ld be> x bett]4 ,!y tell me t x %\ld n h be5 su* a %ock4 8,y\r bro!r _h be5 9 ! army s long t y %\ld h be5 prep>$ = any?+4 ,ev]ybody kn[s by :at a hair a soldi]'s life is always hang+10 & a great deal m t ,i am afraid ,i h n li/5$ to4 ,i suppose x is all true2 b t nev] makes x any easi]4 ,! h\se feels l a prison4 ,i walk up & d[n & wond] t ,i ev] call$ x home4 ,some?+ is ! matt] ) ! sunsets2 !y come & g1 & ,i d n notice !m4 ,some?+ ails ! voices ( ! *ildr51 sn[ball+ d[n ! /reet2 all ! music has gone out ( !m1 & !y hurt me l knives4 ,! h>mless1 happy *ildr56--& ,roy lov$ ! little *ildr54 ,:y1 x seems to me z if ! _w 7 sp9n+ ar\nd 9 ! light & w9d & laught]1 & ,god j /ret*$ d[n ,8 h& "o morn+ & put x out4 ,x 0 su* a de>1 pleasant _w to be put out6 ,x 0 nev] de>] or m pleasant ?an x 0 on t morn+4 ,i _h n be5 z happy = weeks4 ,i came up f ! ,po/-,(fice s++ to myself4 ,8 lett] 0 s bright & full ( mis*ief6 ,i _h n _h "o l x all ! w9t]4 ,i h laid x away by itself1 fill$ ) 8 jokes & pet names1 8,mamie0 or 8,que5 ,mamie0 e o!r l9e1 & sign$ 8,until next "t1 y\r happy ,,roy40 ,i wond] if all bro!rs & si/]s keep up ! baby-names z we did4 ,i wond] if ,i %all ev] become us$ to liv+ )\t !m4 ,i read ! lett] ov] a great _m times1 & /opp$ to tell ,mrs4 ,bl& ! news 9 x1 & wond]$ :at _h kept x s long on ! way1 & wond]$ if x c\ld be true t he w\ld h a furl\gh 9 ,may4 ,x seem$ too good to be true4 ,if ,i _h be5 f\rte5 in/ead ( tw5ty-f\r1 ,i %\ld h jump$ up & d[n & clapp$ my h&s !re 9 ! /reet4 ,! sky 0 s bright t ,i c\ld sc>cely turn up my eyes to look at x4 ,! sun%9e 0 %iv]$ into little lances all ov] ! gl>+ :ite cru/4 ,!re 0 a sn[-bird *irp+ & peck+ on ! maple-tree z ,i came 94 ,i w5t up & op5$ my w9d[2 sat d[n by x & drew a long brea?1 & began to c\nt ! days till ,may4 ,i mu/ h sat !re z mu* z half an h\r4 ,i 0 s happy c\nt+ ! days t ,i did n he> ! front gate1 & :5 ,i look$ d[n a man /ood !re1--a great1 r\gh man1--:o %\t$ up t he 0 9 a hurry1 & want$ sev5ty-five c5ts = a telegram t he _h br\ght ov] f ,ea/ ,hom]4 ,i believe ,i w5t d[n & paid him1 s5t him away1 came up "h & lock$ ! door be=e ,i read x4 ,phbe f\nd me "h at d9n]-"t4 ,if ,i c\ld h gone to him1 c\ld h busi$ myself ) pack+ & j\rney+1 c\ld h be5 =c$ to ?9k & plan1 c\ld h _h ! %ad[ ( a hope ( "o m look1 "o ^w1 ,i suppose ,i %\ld h tak5 x diff]5tly4 ,^? two words--8,%ot dead0--%ut me up & wall$ me 91 z ,i ?9k p mu/ feel %ut up & wall$ 91 9 ,hell4 ,i write ! words mo/ solemnly1 = ,i "k t !re has be5 ,hell 9 my he>t4 ,x is all ov] n[4 ,he came back1 & !y br\ght him up ! /eps1 & ,i li/5$ to _! feet1--s _m feet2 he us$ to come b\nd+ 94 ,!y let me see him = a m9ute1 & !re 0 a fun]al1 & ,mrs4 ,bl& came ov]1 & %e & ,phbe att5d$ to ev]y?+1 ,i suppose4 ,i did n notice nor ?9k till we _h left him out !re 9 ! cold & _h come back4 ,! w9d[s ( 8 room 7 op5$1 & ! bitt] w9d swept 94 ,! h\se 0 /ill & damp4 ,nobody 0 !re to welcome me4 ,nobody w\ld ev] be 99 99 99 99 ,poor old ,phbe6 ,i _h =gott5 h]4 ,%e 0 wait+ at ! kit*5 w9d[ 9 h] black bonnet2 %e took (f my ?+s & made me a cup ( tea1 & kept at "w ne> me = a little :ile1 wip+ h] eyes4 ,%e came 9 j n[1 :5 ,i _h left my unf9i%$ s5t5ce to dry1 sitt+ "h ) my face 9 my h&s4 8,laws n[1 ,miss ,m>y1 my de>6 ,?is won't nev] d1--a rebell9' ag9 ,provid5ce1 & s+e9' y\r hair on ! lamp *imney ?is way6 ,! d9+-room fire's go9' beautiful1 & ! salmon is toa/$ to a br[n4 ,put away !m pap]s & come "r along60 ,,ii4 ,febru>y #bc;d4 ,:o orig9at$ t mo/ exquisite ( inquisitions1 ! condol5ce sy/em8 ,a solid bl[ has 9 itself ! elem5ts ( its reb\nd2 x ar\ses ! antagonism ( ! life on :i* x falls2 its relief is ! relief ( a combat4 ,b a hundr$ little ne$les prick+ at u1--:at is to be done ) !m8 ,! h&s hang d[n1 ! knees are feeble4 ,we _c s mu* z gasp1 because !y are little ne$les4 ,i "k t !re are ^? :o l ^! calls2 b :y1 9 ! "n ( all sweet pity1 mu/ we endure !m )\t respect ( p]sons1 z we w\ld endure a w$d+ reception or make a p>ty-call8 ,p]haps ,i write excit$ly & h>dly4 ,i feel excit$ & h>d4 ,i am sure ,i d n mean to be ungrateful = real sorr[ful sympa?y1 h[ev] imp]fectly x may be %[n1 or t ne> fri5ds 7if "o has !m71 _c give1 9 su* a "t z ?is1 actual /r5g?1 ev5 if !y fail ( com=t1 by look & tone & love4 ,b x is n ne> fri5ds :o are apt to w\nd1 nor real sympa?y :i* %>p5s ! wor/ ( ! ne$les4 ,x is ! fact t all y\r *ance acqua9tances feel call$ ^u to br+ _! curi\s eyes & j>r+ words "r into ! sil5ce ( y\r fir/ a/oni%m5t2 tak+ y 9 a r\nd ( morn+ calls ) kid gloves & p>asol1 & ! lib]ty to turn y\r he>t ab\t & cut into x at pleasure4 ,y may quiv] at e t\*1 b !re is no escape1 because x is 8! ?+40 ,= in/ance3 ,meta ,tripp came 9 ?is aft]noon1--,i h refus$ myself to ev]ybody b ,mrs4 ,bl&1 be=e1 b ,meta caught me 9 ! p>lor1 & !re 0 no escape4 ,%e _h come1 x 0 pla9 en\gh1 because %e mu/1 & %e _h come e>ly1 because1 %e too hav+ lo/ a bro!r 9 ! w>1 %e 0 expect$ to be v sorry = me4 ,v likely %e 01 & v likely %e did ! be/ %e knew h[1 b %e 0--n z uncom=table z ,i1 b z uncom=table z %e c\ld be1 & 0 evid5tly glad :5 x 0 ov]4 ,%e obs]v$1 z %e w5t out1 t ,i %\ldn't feel s sad by & by4 ,%e felt v sad at fir/ :5 ,jack di$1 b ev]ybody got ov] t aft] a "t4 ,! girls 7 go+ to sew = ! ,fair next week at ,mr4 ,quirk's1 & %e hop$ ,i w\ld ex]t myself & come4 ,ah1 well3-- 8,fir/ le>n to love "o liv+ man1 ,!n may/ ?\ ?9k ^u ! dead40 ,x is n t ! *ild is to be blam$ = n kn[+ en\gh to /ay away2 b h] com+ "h has made me wond] :e!r ,i am diff]5t f o!r wom52 :y ,roy 0 s mu* m to me ?an _m bro!rs are to _m si/]s4 ,i ?9k x mu/ be t !re nev] 0 ano!r l ,roy4 ,!n we h liv$ toge!r s long1 we two alone1 s9ce fa!r di$1 t he _h gr[n to me1 he>t ( my he>t1 & life ( my life4 ,x did n seem z if he c\ld be tak51 & ,i be left4 ,besides1 ,i suppose mo/ "y wom5 ( my age h _! dreams1 & a future probable or possible1 :i* makes ! v incomplet5ess ( life sweet1 because ( ! symmetry :i* is wait+ some:]e4 ,b t 0 settl$ s long ago = me t x makes x v diff]5t4 ,roy 0 all !re 04 ,febru>y #bf?4 ,dea? & ,heav5 c\ld n seem v diff]5t to a ,pagan f :at !y seem to me4 ,i say ?is delib]ately4 ,x has be5 delib]ately =c$ ^u me4 ,t ( :i* ,i _h a fa9t consci\sness 9 ! fir/ %ock takes %ape n[4 ,i d n see h[ "o ) su* ?\ghts 9 h] he>t z ,i h _h c possibly be 8reg5]ate10 or /& any *ance ( ev] becom+ 8"o ( ! r$eem$40 ,& "h ,i am1 :at ,i h be5 = six ye>s1 a memb] ( an ,evangelical *ur*1 9 good & regul> /&+6 ,! b>e1 blank s5se ( physical repulsion f dea?1 :i* 0 all ! idea ,i _h ( any?+ :5 !y fir/ br\ght him home1 has n gone yet4 ,x is horrible4 ,x 0 cruel4 ,roy1 all ,i _h 9 ! wide _w1--,roy1 ) ! fla% 9 8 eyes1 ) 8 smile t light$ ! h\se all up2 ) 8 pretty1 s(t hair t ,i us$ to curl & kiss ab\t my f+]1 8 b\nd+ /ep1 8 /rong arms t fold$ me 9 & c>$ = me1--,roy snat*$ away 9 an in/ant by a dreadful ,god1 & laid out !re 9 ! wet & sn[1--9 ! hide\s wet & sn[1--nev] to kiss him1 nev] to see him any m6 99 99 99 99 ,he 0 a good boy4 ,roy 0 a good boy4 ,he mu/ h gone to ,heav54 ,b ,i "k no?+ ab\t ,heav54 ,x is v f> (f4 ,9 my be/ & happie/ days1 ,i nev] lik$ to ?9k ( x4 ,if ,i 7 to g !re1 x c\ld d me no good1 = ,i %\ld n see ,roy4 ,or if by *ance ,i %\ld see him /&+ up among ! gr&1 :ite angels1 he w\ld n be ! old de> ,roy4 ,i %\ld gr[ s tir$ ( s++6 ,%\ld long & fret = "o little talk1--= ,i nev] said good by1 &-- ,i w /op ?is4 99 99 99 99 99 ,a scrap f ! ,g]man ( ,brg]1 :i* ,i came across to-day1 %all be copi$ "h4 8,be calm1 my *ild1 =get ?y woe1 ,& ?9k ( ,god & ,heav52 ,*ri/ ?y ,r$eem] ha? to !e ,himself = com=t giv54 8,o "m1 "m1 :at is ,heav58 ,o "m1 :at is ,hell8 ,to be ) ,wilhelm1--t's my ,heav52 ,)\t him1--t's my ,hell40 ,febru>y #bg?4 ,miss ,meta ,tripp1 9 ! ignorance ( h] little silly he>t1 has done me a great mis*ief4 ,phbe prep>$ me = x1 by obs]v+1 :5 %e came up ye/]day to du/ my room1 t 8folks 0 all say9' t ,m>y ,cabot0--7,hom] is n an ari/ocratic t[n1 & ,phbe d(fs & dons my title at h] own sweet w7--8t ,m>y ,cabot 0 dreadful l[ s5ce ,royal di$1 & hadn't ought to /ay %ut up by h]self1 day 9 & day out4 ,x 0 behav+ con-tr>y to ! w ( ,provid5ce1 & v bad = h] heal?1 too40 ,moreov]1 ,mrs4 ,bl&1 :o call$ ?is morn+ ) h] ?ree babies1--%e nev] is able to /ir out ( ! h\se )\t ^? *ildr51 poor ?+6--l+]$ awkw>dly on ! door-/eps z %e w5t away1 & hop$ t ,m>y my de> w\ldn't take x unk9dly1 b %e did wi% t ,i w\ld ex]t myself m to see my fri5ds & receive com=t 9 my affliction4 ,%e didn't want to int]f]e1 or bo!r me1 or--b--p w\ld talk1 &-- ,my good little m9i/]'s wife broke d[n all 9 a blu%1 at ?is po9t 9 h] 8poro*ial duties0 7,i m ?an suspect t h] husb& _h a h& 9 ! matt]71 s ,i took pity on h] emb>rassm5t1 & said smil+ t ,i w\ld ?9k ab\t x4 ,i see j h[ ! leav5 has spread4 ,miss ,meta1 a little ov]:elm$ & a good deal my/ifi$ by h] call "h1 pron\nces 8poor ,m>y ,cabot s sad2 %e w\ldn't talk ab\t ,royal2 & y c\ldn't p]suade h] to come to ! ,fair2 & %e 0 s sob]6--:y1 x 0 dreadful60 ,!re=e1 ,hom] has made up its m9d t ,i %all become resign$ 9 an ari?metical mann]1 & com=t$ accord+ to ! ,rule ( ,?ree4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld g away6 ,i wi% ,i c\ld g away & creep into ! gr\nd & die6 ,if nobody ne$ ev] speak any m words to me6 ,if anybody only knew :at to say6 ,little ,mrs4 ,bl& has be5 v k9d1 & ,i ?ank h] ) all my he>t4 ,b %e does n "k4 ,%e does n und]/&4 ,h] happy he>t is b\nd up 9 h] little live *ildr54 ,%e nev] laid anybody away "u ! sn[ )\t a *ance to say good by4 ,z = ! m9i/]1 he came1 ( c\rse1 z x 0 prop] t he %\ld1 be=e ! fun]al1 & once aft]4 ,he is a v good man1 b ,i am afraid ( him1 & ,i am glad t he has n come aga94 ,night4 ,i c only repeat & re-e*o :at ,i wrote ?is noon4 ,if anybody knew :at to say6 ,j aft] supp] ,i he>d ! door-bell1 &1 look+ out ( ! w9d[1 ,i caught a glimpse ( ,deacon ,quirk's old drab felt hat1 on ! upp] /ep4 ,my he>t sank1 b !re 0 no help = me4 ,i wait$ = ,phbe to br+ up 8 "n1 desp]ately li/5+ to h] heavy /eps1 & lett+ h] knock ?ree times be=e ,i answ]$4 ,i confess to hav+ tak5 my hair d[n twice1 wa%$ my h&s to a mo/ unnecess>y ext5t1 & be5 a long "t bru%+ my dress2 also to =gett+ my h&k]*ief1 & hav+ to g back = x aft] ,i 0 d[n /airs4 ,deacon ,quirk look$ tir$ ( wait+4 ,i hope he 04 ,o1 :at an ill-natur$ ?+ to say6 ,:at is com+ ov] me8 ,:at w\ld ,roy ?9k8 ,:at c\ld he8 8,good ev5+1 ,m>y10 said ! ,deacon1 sev]ely1 :5 ,i w5t 94 ,probably he did n mean to speak sev]ely1 b ! tru? is1 ,i ?9k he 0 a little vex$ t ,i _h kept him wait+4 ,i said good ev5+1 & apologiz$ = my delay1 & sat d[n z f> f him z ,i conv5i5tly c\ld4 ,!re 0 an awful sil5ce4 8,i came 9 ?is ev5+10 said ! ,deacon1 break+ x ) a c\gh1 8,i came--hem6--to conf] ) y--0 ,i look$ up4 8,i ?\ght somebody _h ought to come10 cont9u$ ! ,deacon1 8to conf] ) y z a ,*ri/ian bro!r on y\r spiritooal condition40 ,i op5$ my eyes4 8,to conf] ) y on y\r spiritooal condition10 repeat$ my visitor4 8,i und]/& t y h _h "s un=toonate ex]cises ( m9d "u y\r affliction1 & ,i obs]v$ t y abs5t$ y\rself f ! ,communion ,table la/ ,sunday40 8,i did40 8,int5tionally80 8,int5tionally40 ,he seem$ to expect me to say some?+ m2 &1 see+ t !re 0 no help = x1 ,i answ]$4 8,i did n feel fit to g4 ,i %\ld n h d>$ to g4 ,god does n seem to me j n[ :at ,he us$ to4 ,he has dealt v bitt]ly ) me4 ,b1 h[ev] wick$ ,i may be1 ,i w n mock ,him4 ,i ?9k1 ,deacon ,quirk1 t ,i did "r to /ay away40 8,well10 said ! ,deacon1 twirl+ 8 hat ) a puzzl$ look1 8p]haps y did4 ,b ,i don't see ! excuse = any su* feel+s z w\ld make x necess>y4 ,i ?9k x my duty to tell y1 ,m>y1 t ,i am sorry to see y 9 su* a rebelli\s /ate ( m9d40 ,i made no reply4 8,afflictions come f ,god10 he obs]v$1 look+ at me z impressively z if he suppos$ t ,i _h nev] he>d ! /atem5t be=e4 8,afflictions come f ,god1 &1 h[ev] afflict9' or h[ev] cru%9' !y may be1 x is our duty to submit to !m4 ,glory 9 triboolation1 ,/4 ,paul says2 glory 9 triboolation40 ,i cont9u$ sil5t4 8,i sympa?ize ) y 9 ?is sad disp5sation10 he proce$$4 8,( c\rse y 0 v fond ( ,royal2 x's natural y %\ld be1 q natural--0 ,he /opp$1 p]plex$1 ,i suppose1 by some?+ 9 my face4 8,yes1 x's v natural2 poor human nature sets a great deal by e>?ly props & affections4 ,b x's y\r duty1 z a ,*ri/ian & a *ur*-memb]1 to be resign$40 ,i tapp$ ! floor ) my foot4 ,i began to ?9k t ,i c\ld n be> mu* m4 8,to be resign$1 my de> "y fri5d4 ,to say #8,abba1 ,fa!r4' & pray t ! w ( ! ,"l be done40 8,deacon ,quirk60 said ,i4 8,i am n resign$4 ,i pray ! de> ,"l ) all my he>t to make me s1 b ,i w n say t ,i am1 until ,i am1--if ev] t "t comes4 ,z = ^? words ab\t ! ,"l's w1 ,i w\ld no m take !m on my lips ?an ,i w\ld blasphemy1 unless ,i c\ld speak !m hone/ly1--& t ,i _c d4 ,we _h bett] talk ( some?+ else n[1 _h we n80 ,deacon ,quirk look$ at me4 ,x /ruck me t he w\ld look v mu* s at a ,mormon or a ,hott5tot1 & ,i wond]$ :e!r he 7 go+ to excommunicate me on ! spot4 ,z soon z he began to speak1 h[ev]1 ,i saw t he 0 only bewild]$1--hone/ly bewild]$1 & hone/ly %ock$3 ,i d n d\bt t ,i _h said bewild]+ & %ock+ ?+s4 8,my fri5d10 he said solemnly1 8,i %all pray = y & leave y 9 ! h&s ( ,god4 ,y\r bro!r1 :om ,he has remov$ f ?is e>?ly life = ,8 own wise--0 8,we w n talk any m ab\t ,roy1 if y please10 ,i int]rupt$2 8he is happy & safe40 8,hem6--,i hope s10 he repli$1 mov+ uneasily 9 8 *air2 8,i believe he nev] made a pr(ession ( religion1 b !re is no limit to ! m]cy ( ,god4 ,x is v unsafe = ! "y to ?9k t !y c rely on a dea?-b$ rep5tance1 b our ,god is a cov5ant-keep+ ,god1 & ,royal's "m 0 a pi\s woman4 ,if y _c say ) c]ta9ty t he is numb]$ among ! r$eem$1 y are ju/ifi$1 p]haps1 9 hop+ s40 ,i turn$ %>ply on him1 b words di$ on my lips4 ,h[ c\ld ,i tell ! man ( t %ort1 de> lett] t came to me 9 ,decemb]1--t ,roy's 0 no dea?-b$ rep5tance1 b ! quiet1 natural gr[? ( a life t _h always be5 ! life ( ! pure 9 he>t2 ( 8 manly beliefs & unselfi% motives2 ( t dawn+ s5se ( fri5d%ip ) ,*ri/ ( :i* he us$ to speak s mode/ly1 dread+ le/ he %\ld n be hone/ ) himself8 8,p]haps ,i ought n to call myself a ,*ri/ian10 he wrote1--,i le>n$ ! words by he>t4--8& ,i %all make no pr(ession to be su*1 till ,i am sure ( x1 b my life has n seem$ to me = a long "t to be my own4 #8,b\ght ) a price' j expresses x4 ,i c po9t to no "t at :i* ,i 0 consci\s by any revolution ( feel+ ( #8exp]i5c+ a *ange ( he>t1' b x seems to me t a man's he>t might be *ang$ = all t4 ,i d n "k t x is necess>y = u to be able to wat* e footpr9t ( ,god4 ,! way is all t conc]ns u1--to see t we foll[ x & ,him4 ,?is ,i am sure (2 & knock+ ab\t 9 ?is army life only conv9ces me ( :at ,i felt 9 a c]ta9 way be=e1--t x is ! only way1 & ,he ! only guide to foll[40 ,b h[ c\ld ,i say any?+ ( ?is to ,deacon ,quirk8--?is my seal$ & sacr$ treasure1 ( all t ,roy left me ! de>e/4 ,at any rate ,i did n4 ,x seem$ bo? ob/9ate & cruel 9 him to come !re & say :at he _h be5 say+4 ,he might h kn[n t ,i w\ld n say t ,roy _h gone to ,heav51 if--:y1 if !re _h be5 ! brea? ( a d\bt4 ,x is a possibility ( :i* ,i _c rationally conceive1 b ,i suppose t 8 "n w\ld nev] h pass$ my lips4 ,s ,i turn$ away f ,deacon ,quirk1 & %ut my m\?1 & wait$ = him to f9i%4 ,:e!r ! idea began to /ruggle into 8 m9d t he might n h be5 mak+ a v com=t+ rem>k1 ,i _c say2 b he />t$ v soon to g4 8,suppos+ y are "r1 & ,royal 0 sav$ at ! elev5? h\r10 he said at p>t+1 ) "o ( 8 /olid ef=ts to be consolatory1 t are worse ?an 8 rebukes1 8if he is s++ ! song ( ,moses & ! ,lamb 7he po9t$ ) 8 big1 d+y ?umb at ! ceil+71 he doesn't rebel aga9/ ! do+s ( ,provid5ce4 ,all 8 affections are subdu$ to ,god1--m]g$1 z y might say1--m]g$ 9 wor%ipp+ be=e ! great ,:ite ,?rone4 ,he doesn't ?9k ?is mis]'ble e>?ly sp]e ( any importance1 comp>$ ) t et]nal & exce$+ weight ( glory4 ,9 ! appropriate words ( ! poet1-- #8,o1 n to "o creat$ ?+ ,%all our embrace be giv51 ,b all our joy %all be 9 ,god1 ,= only ,god is ,heav54' ,^? are v spiritooal & script]al l9es1 & x's v prop] to reflect h[ true !y are40 ,i saw him g out1 & came up "h & lock$ myself 91 & h be5 walk+ r\nd & r\nd ! room4 ,i mu/ h walk$ a good :ile1 = ,i feel z weak z a baby4 ,c ! man 9 any /ate ( exi/5ce be made to compreh5d t he has be5 hold+ me on ! rack ?is :ole ev5+8 ,yet he came "u a /rict s5se ( duty1 & 9 ! k9dness ( all ! he>t he has6 ,i "k1 or ,i ought to "k1 t he is a good man1--f> bett] 9 ! sight ( ,god to-night1 ,i d n d\bt1 ?an ,i am4 ,b x hurts1--x cuts1--t ?+ :i* he said z he w5t out2 because ,i suppose x mu/ be true2 because x seems to me great] ?an ,i c be> to h x true4 ,roy1 away 9 t dreadful ,heav51 c h no ?\ght ( me1 _c rememb] h[ ,i lov$ him1 h[ he left me all alone4 ,! s++ & ! wor%ipp+ mu/ take up all 8 "t4 ,god wants x all4 ,he is a 8,jeal\s ,god40 ,i am no?+ any m to ,roy4 ,m>* #b4 ,& once ,i 0 mu*1--v mu* to him6 ,8 ,mamie1 8 poor ,que5 ,mamie1--de>]1 he us$ to say1 ?an all ! _w to him1--,i don't see h[ he c l x s well up !re z to =get h]4 ,?\gh ,roy 0 a v good boy4 ,b ?is poor1 wick$ little ,mamie1--:y1 ,i fall to pity+ h] z if %e 7 "s "o else1 & wi% t "s "o w\ld cry ov] h] a little4 ,i c't cry4 ,roy us$ to say a ?+1--,i h n ! words1 b x 0 l ?is1--t "o mu/ be ei!r v "y or v ung5]\s1 if "o c\ld f9d "t to pity "o's self4 ,i h la9 = two nights1 ) my eyes op5 all night long4 ,i ?\ght t p]haps ,i might see him4 ,i h be5 pray+ = a t\*1 a sign1 only = some?+ to break ! sil5ce into :i* he has gone4 ,b !re is no answ]1 none4 ,! light burns blue1 & ,i see at la/ t x is morn+1 & g d[n /airs alone1 & s ! day beg9s4 ,some?+ ( ,mrs4 ,br[n+'s has be5 keep+ a dull me*anical "t 9 my bra9 all day4 8,god keeps a ni*e ,9 ,heav5 to hold our idols3 444 albeit ,he brake !m to our faces1 & d5i$ ,t our close kisses %\ld impair _! :ite40 ,b :y mu/ ,he take !m8 ,& :y %\ld ,he keep !m !re8 ,%all we ev] see !m fram$ 9 _! glori\s gloom8 ,w ,he let u t\* !m !n8 ,or mu/ we /& l a poor wor%ipp] at a ,ca!dral1 look+ up at 8 pictur$ sa9t af> (f ^u ! o!r side8 ,has ev]y?+ /opp$ j "h8 ,our talks toge!r 9 ! twilight1 our plann+ & hop+ & dream+ toge!r2 our walks & rides & laugh+2 our read+ & s++ & lov+1--^! !n are all gone out =ev]8 ,god =give ! words6 b ,heav5 w nev] be ,heav5 to me )\t !m4 ,m>* #d4 ,p]haps ,i _h bett] n write any m "h aft] ?is4 ,on look+ ov] ! leaves1 ,i see t ! little gre5 book has become an outlet = ! %all[] "p ( pa94 ,meta ,tripp & ,deacon ,quirk1 gossip & sympa?y t h buzz$ into my tr\ble & annoy$ me l wasps 7we are apt to make m fuss ov] a wasp-/+ ?an a sabre-cut71 j t proportion ( suff]+ :i* alone c ev] be put into words1--! surface4 ,i beg9 to und]/& :at ,i nev] und]/ood till n[1--:at p mean by ! luxury ( grief4 ,no1 ,i am sure t ,i nev] und]/ood x1 because my pride suff]$ z mu* z any "p ( me 9 t o!r "t4 ,i w\ld no m h sp5t two consecutive h\rs drift+ at ! m]cy ( my ?\ghts1 ?an ,i w\ld h put my h& into ! furnace fire4 ,! "r to m\rn makes ev]y?+ diff]5t4 ,!n1 z to "m1 ,i 0 v "y :5 %e di$1 & fa!r1 ?\gh ,i lov$ him1 0 nev] to me :at ,roy has be54 ,?is luxury ( grief1 l all luxuries1 is pleasurable4 ,?\gh1 z ,i 0 say+1 x is only ! %all[ "p ( "o's he>t--,i imag9e t ! deepe/ he>ts h _! %all[s--:i* c be fill$ by x1 /ill x br+s a %all[ relief4 ,let x be confess$ to ?is hone/ book1 t1 driv5 to x by desp]ation1 ,i f\nd 9 x a wret*$ sort ( cont5t4 ,be+ a little /rong] n[ physically1 ,i %all try to be a little brav]2 x w d no h>m to try4 ,s ,i seem to see t x 0 ! cont5t ( poison1--salt-wat] p\r$ betwe5 %ipwreck$ lips4 ,at any rate1 ,i mean to put ! book away & lock x up4 ,roy us$ to say t he did n believe 9 j\rnals4 ,i beg9 to see :y4 ,,iii ,m>* #g4 ,i h tak5 out my book1 & am go+ to write aga94 ,b !re is an excell5t reason4 ,i h some?+ else ?an myself to write ab\t4 ,?is morn+ ,phbe p]suad$ me to walk d[n to ! (fice1 8,to keep up my spirits & get "s salt pork40 ,%e br\ght my ?+s & put !m on me :ile ,i 0 hesitat+2 ti$ my victor9e & button$ my gloves2 w>m$ my boots1 & fuss$ ab\t me z if ,i _h be5 a baby4 ,x did me good to be tak5 c>e (1 & ,i ?ank$ h] s(tly2 a little m s(tly ?an ,i am apt to speak to ,phbe4 8,bless y\r s\l1 my de>60 %e said1 w9k+ briskly1 8,i don't want no ?anks4 ,x's ?anks en\gh je/ to see "o ( y\r old looks com9' ov] y = a spell1 s5ce--0 ,%e knock$ ov] a *air ) h] broom1 & left h] s5t5ce unf9i%$4 ,phbe has always _h a que]1 cl++1 sup]ior sort ( love = u bo?4 ,%e d&l$ u on h] knees1 & made all our rag-dolls1 & c>ri$ u ?r\gh measles & mumps & ! re/4 ,!n "m's e>ly dea? ?rew all ! c>e ^u h]4 ,i believe t 9 h] secret he>t %e consid]s me m h] *ild ?an h] mi/ress4 ,x co/ a great _m battles to become e/abli%$ z 8,miss ,m>y40 8,i %\ld l to "k10 %e w\ld say1 ?r[+ back h] great1 squ>e %\ld]s & t[]+ up 9 front ( me1--8,i %\ld l to "k if y s'pose ,i'm a go9' to #8,miss' anybody t ,i've trott$ to ,bamb]ry ,cross z _m times z ,i h y1 ,m>y ,cabot6 ,cat* me60 ,i rememb] h[ %e w\ld insi/ on call+ me 8h] baby0 aft] ,i 0 9 long dresses1 & t x mortifi$ me cruelly once :5 ,meta ,tripp 0 "h to tea ) "s ,bo/on c\s9s4 ,poor1 good ,phbe6 ,h] r\gh love seems wor? m to me1 n[ t x is all ,i h left me 9 ! _w4 ,x occurs to me t ,i may n h tak5 notice en\gh ( h] lately4 ,%e has done h] hone/ be/ to com=t me1 & %e lov$ ,roy1 too4 ,b ab\t ! lett]4 ,i wrapp$ my face up closely 9 ! crpe1 s t1 if ,i met ,deacon ,quirk1 he %\ld n recognize me1 &1 ?9k+ t ! air 0 pleasant z ,i walk$1 came home ) ! pork = ,phbe & a lett] = myself4 ,i did n op5 x2 9 fact1 ,i =got all ab\t x1 till ,i _h be5 at home = half an h\r4 ,i _c be> to op5 a lett] s9ce t morn+ :5 ! lances ( light fell on ! sn[4 ,!y h writt5 to me f ev]y:]e1--uncles & c\s9s & old s*ool-fri5ds2 well-mean+ p2 say+ ea* ! same ?+ 9 ! same way1--no1 n t exactly1 & v likely ,i %\ld feel hurt & lonely if !y did n write2 b sometimes ,i wi% x did n all h to be read4 ,s ,i did n notice mu* ab\t my lett] ?is morn+1 till pres5tly x occurr$ to me t :at mu/ be done _h bett] be done quickly2 s ,i drew up my *air to ! desk1 prep>$ to read & answ] on ! spot4 ,some?+ ab\t ! writ+ & ! signature r pleas$ me3 x 0 dat$ f ,kansas1 & 0 sign$ ) ! "n ( my "m's y\nge/ si/]1 ,w9ifr$ ,=cey!4 ,i w lay ! lett] 9 betwe5 ^! two leaves1 = x seems to suit ! pleasant1 spr+-l day2 besides1 ,i took out ! gre5 book aga9 on acc\nt ( x4 ,,lawr5ce1 ,,kansas1 ,febru>y #ba4 ,,my ,,de> ,,*ild1--,i h be5 ?9k+ h[ happy y w be by & by because ,roy is happy4 ,& yet ,i "k--,i und]/&-- ,y h be5 9 all my ?\ghts1 & !y h be5 su* pitiful1 t5d] ?\ghts1 t ,i _c help lett+ y "k t somebody is sorry = y4 ,= ! re/1 ! he>t kn[e? its own1 & ,i am1 aft] all1 too mu* ( a /rang] to my si/]'s *ild to int]m$dle4 ,s my lett] dies ^u my p54 ,y _c be> words yet4 ,h[ %\ld ,i d>e to fret y ) !m8 ,i c only rea* y by my sil5ce1 & leave y ) ! ,he>t t bl$ & broke = y & ,roy4 ,y\r ,aunt1 ,,w9ifr$ ,,=cey!4 ,,po/script1 ,febru>y #bc4 ,i op5 my lett] to add1 t ,i am ?9k+ ( com+ to ,new ,engl& ) ,fai?1--y "k ,fai? & ,i h nobody b ea* o!r n[4 ,inde$1 ,i may be on my way by ! "t ?is rea*es y4 ,x is j possible t ,i may n come back to ! ,we/4 ,i %all be = a "t at y\r uncle ,calv9's1 & !n my husb&'s fri5ds ?9k t !y mu/ h me4 ,i %\ld l to see y = a day or two1 b if y d n c>e to see me1 say s4 ,if y let me come because y ?9k y mu/1 ,i %all f9d x out f y\r face 9 an h\r4 ,i %\ld l to be some?+ to y1 or d some?+ = y2 b if ,i _c1 ,i w\ld r n come4 ,i l t lett]4 ,i h writt5 to h] to come1 & 9 su* a way t ,i ?9k %e w und]/& me to mean :at ,i say4 ,i h n se5 h] s9ce ,i 0 a *ild4 ,i "k t %e 0 v mu* y\ng] ?an my "m2 t %e sp5t h] "y ladyhood tea*+ at ! ,s\?2--gr&fa!r _h en\gh ) :i* to support h]1 b ,i h he>d x said t %e pref]r$ to take c>e ( h]self2--t %e f9ally m>ri$ a poor m9i/]1 ^: s]mons p lik$1 b ^: coat 0 %ock+ly %abby2 t %e left ! com=ts & elegances & fri5ds ( ,new ,engl& to g to ! ,we/ & bury h]self 9 an unhe>d-( little place ) him 7,i ?9k %e mu/ h lov$ him72 t he aft]w>ds settl$ 9 ,lawr5ce2 t !re1 aft] !y _h be5 m>ri$ "s *ildless ye>s1 ?is little ,fai? 0 born2 & t !re ,uncle ,=cey! di$ ab\t ?ree ye>s ago2 t is ab\t all ,i "k ( h]4 ,i suppose h] %>e ( ,gr&fa!r ,burleigh's little prop]ty supports h] respectably4 ,i und]/& t %e has be5 liv+ a sort ( mission>y life among h] husb&'s p s9ce 8 dea?1 & t !y ?9k !y %all nev] see h] l aga94 ,x is !y :o keep h] f com+ home aga91 ,uncle ,calv9's wife told me once2 !y & "o o!r ?+1--h] husb&'s grave4 ,i hope %e w come to see me4 ,i notice "o /range ?+ ab\t h] lett]4 ,%e does n use ! ugly words 8dea?0 & 8dy+40 ,i don't "k exactly :at %e put 9 _! places1 b some?+ t _h a pleasant s\nd4 8,to be happy because ,roy is happy40 ,i wond] if %e really ?9ks x is possible4 ,i wond] :at makes ! words *ase me ab\t4 ,,iv4 ,may #e4 ,i am afraid t my brave resolutions are all break+ d[n4 ,! /illness ( ! ,may days is creep+ into ev]y?+2 ! days 9 :i* ! furl\gh 0 to come2 9 :i* ! bitt] ,peace has come in/ead1 & 9 :i* he w\ld h be5 at home1 nev] to g away f me any m4 ,! lazy w9ds are *ok+ me4 ,_! fa9t sweetness makes me sick4 ,! moi/1 ri* loam is pl\gh$ 9 ! g>d52 ! grass1 m gold5 ?an gre51 spr+s 9 ! w>m holl[ by ! front gate2 ! great maple1 j rea*+ up to tap at ! w9d[1 blazes & b[s "u its weight ( sc>let blossoms4 ,i _c be> _! p]fume2 x comes up 9 great brea?s1 :5 ! w9d[ is op5$4 ,i wi% t little cricket1 j wak$ f 8 w9t]'s nap1 w\ld n sit !re on ! sill & *irp at me4 ,i hate ! bluebirds fla%+ 9 & out ( ! c>m9e cl\d t ! maple makes1 & s++1 s++1 ev]y:]e4 ,x is easy to und]/& h[ ,bianca he>d 8,! night+ales s+ ?r\gh h] head10 h[ %e c\ld call !m 8,owl-l birds10 :o sang 8= spite10 :o sang 8= hate10 :o sang 8= doom40 ,mo/ ( all ,i hate ! maple4 ,i wi% w9t] 7 back aga9 to fold x away 9 :ite1 ) its b>e1 black f+]s only to come tapp+ at ! w9d[4 8,roy's maple0 we us$ to call x4 ,h[ mu* fun he _h out ( t old tree6 ,z f> back z ,i c rememb]1 we nev] consid]$ spr+ to be (ficially introduc$ till we _h _h a fight ) ! r$ blossoms4 ,roy us$ to pelt me well2 b ) t pretty *ivalry ( 81 :i* 0 r>e 9 su* a little fell[1 :i* develop$ aft]w>ds into t r>] treatm5t ( wom51 ( :i* e "o speaks :o speaks ( him1 he w\ld /op ! play ! in/ant x ?reat5$ r\ghness4 ,i us$ to be glad1 ?\gh1 t ,i _h /r5g? & c\rage en\gh to make x "s fun to him4 ,! maple is full ( pictures ( ,roy4 ,roy n yet ov] ! dignity ( 8 fir/ boots1 aim+ = ! cross-b>r$ bran*1 com+ to ! gr\nd ) a t]rible wr5* on 8 ankle1 /raight up aga9 be=e anybody c\ld /op him1 & sitt+ !re on ! ugly1 sway+ b\gh z :ite z a %eet1 to wave 8 cap1--8,!re1 ,i meant to d x1 & ,i h60 ,roy1 *opp+ (f ! twigs = k9dl+-wood 9 8 mud ov51 & s5d+ 8 hat*et "r ?r\gh ! p>lor w9d[4 ,roy cutt+ leaves = me1 & !n pull+ all my wrea?s d[n ov] my nose e "t ,i put !m on6 ,roy mak+ me jump half-way across ! room ) a sudd5 ?ump on my w9d[1 &1 look+ out1 ,i w\ld see him ) 8 hat (f & hair bl[n f 8 =ehead1 fram$ 9 by ! sc5t$ blossoms1 or ! quiv]+ gre51 or ! flame ( blood-r$ leaves4 ,b !re is no end to !m if ,i beg94 ,i _h plann$1 if he came ?is week1 to /rip ! ri*e/ bran*es1 & fill 8 room4 ,may #f4 ,! ,may-day /illness1 ! lazy w9ds1 ! sweetness 9 ! air1 are all gone4 ,a mis]able nor!a/]ly /orm has set 94 ,! g>d5 loam is a mass ( mud2 ! gold5 grass is dr5*$2 ! poor little cricket is dr[n$ 9 a mud-puddle2 ! bluebirds are huddl$ among ! leaves1 ) _! heads "u _! drabbl$ w+s1 & ! maple blossoms1 dull & %runk51 drip aga9/ ! glass4 ,x beg9s to be evid5t t x w nev] d = me to live alone4 ,yet :o is !re 9 ! wide _w t ,i c\ld be> to br+ "h--into ,roy's place8 ,a little old-fa%ion$ book1 b\nd 9 gre5 & gold1 attract$ my att5tion ?is morn+ :ile ,i 0 du/+ ! libr>y4 ,x prov$ to be my "m's copy ( 8,elia10--"o t fa!r _h giv5 h]1 ,i saw by ! fly-leaf1 9 _! e>ly engagem5t days4 ,x is "s "t s9ce ,i h read ,*>les ,lamb2 inde$1 s9ce ! middle ( ,febru>y ,i h read no?+ ( any sort4 ,phbe dries ! ,j\rnal = me e night1 & sometimes ,i glance at ! ,telegraphic ,summ>y1 & sometimes ,i don't4 8,y us$ to be fond en\gh ( books10 ,mrs4 ,bl& says1 look+ puzzl$1--8regul> blue-/ock+1 ,mr4 ,bl& call$ y 7no p]sonal objection to y1 ( c\rse1 my de>1 b he doesn't l lit]>y wom51 :i* is a great com=t to me74 ,:y don't y read & div]t y\rself n[80 ,b my bra91 l ! re/ ( me1 seems to be cru%$4 ,i c\ld n foll[ ?ree pages ( hi/ory ) att5tion4 ,%akespe>e1 ,wordswor?1 ,:itti]1 ,mrs4 ,br[n+1 are fill$ ) ,roy's m>ks1--& s d[n ! %elf4 ,besides1 poetry /rikes z no?+ else does1 deep into ! roots ( ?+s4 ,"o f9ds ev]y:]e "s /ra9 at ! fibres ( "o's he>t4 ,a m9d mu/ be heal?ily reconcil$ to actual life1 be=e a poet--at lea/ mo/ poets--c help x4 ,we mu/ le>n to be> & to "w1 be=e we c sp>e /r5g? to dream4 ,to hymns & hymn-l poems1 exception %\ld be made4 ,"s ( !m are l s(t h&s /eal+ into ours 9 ! d>k1 & hold+ u fa/ )\t a spok5 ^w4 ,i d n "k h[ _m times ,:itti]'s 8,psalm10 & t old cry ( ,c[p]'s1 8,god moves 9 a my/]i\s way10 h quiet$ me1--j ! s\nd ( ! words2 :5 ,i 0 too wild to take 9 _! mean+1 & too wick$ to believe !m if ,i _h4 ,z to novels1 7by ! way1 ,meta ,tripp s5t me ov] f\r ye/]day aft]noon1 among :i* notice 8,aurora ,floyd0 & 8,uncle ,silas107 ! au?or ( 8,rutl$ge0 expresses my feel+ ab\t !m precisely4 ,i d n rememb] h] exact words1 b !y are n unlike ^!4 8,%e _h f> outliv$ ! passion ( ord9>y novels2 & ! few :i* /ruck ! dep?s ( h] exp]i5ce gave h] m pa9 ?an pleasure40 ,h[ev]1 ,i took up poor 8,elia0 ?is morn+1 & /umbl$ ^u 8,dream ,*ildr510 to :i*1 = pa?os & symmetry1 ,i h read few ?+s sup]ior 9 ! language4 ,ye>s ago1 ,i almo/ knew x by he>t1 b x has slipp$ out ( memory ) _m o!r ?+s ( late4 ,any book1 if x be "o ( ^? :i* ,lamb calls 8books :i* are books10 put be=e u at diff]5t p]iods ( life1 w unfold to u new mean+s1--:eels )9 :eels1 delicate spr+s ( purpose to :i*1 at ! la/ read+1 we 7 /one-bl9d2 gems :i* p]haps ! au?or ignorantly cut & poli%$4 ,a s5t5ce 9 ?is 8,dream ,*ildr510 :i* at eighte5 ,i pass$ by ) a compassionate sort ( wond]1 only ?9k+ t x gave me 8! blues0 to read x1 & t ,i 0 glad ,roy 0 alive1 ,i h seiz$ ^u & le>n$ all ov] aga9 n[4 ,i write x d[n to ! dull music ( ! ra94 8,& h[1 :5 he di$1 ?\gh he _h n be5 dead an h\r1 x seem$ z if he _h di$ a great :ile ago1 su* a di/ance !re is betwixt life & dea?2 & h[ ,i bore 8 dea?1 z ,i ?\ght1 pretty well at fir/1 b aft]w>ds x haunt$ & haunt$ me2 & ?\gh ,i did n cry or take x to he>t z "s d1 & z ,i ?9k he w\ld h done if ,i _h di$1 yet ,i miss$ him all day long1 & knew n till !n h[ mu* ,i _h lov$ him4 ,i miss$ 8 k9dness & ,i miss$ 8 crossness1 & wi%$ him to be alive aga9 to be qu>rell+ ) him 7= we qu>rell$ sometimes71 r ?an n h him aga940 ,h[ /ill ! h\se is6 ,i c he> ! coa* rumbl+ away at ! half-mile corn]1 com+ up f ! ev5+ tra94 ,a little arr[ ( light has j cut ! gray gloom ( ! ,we/4 ,t5 o'clock4 ,! coa* to :i* ,i sat li/5+ rumbl$ up to ! gate & /opp$4 ,puzzl$ = ! mom5t1 & feel+ z inhospitable z ,i knew h[1 ,i w5t d[n to ! door4 ,! driv] 0 already on ! /eps1 ) a bundle 9 8 arms t prov$ to be a r m9ute *ild2 & a lady1 veil$1 0 j /epp+ f ! c>riage into ! ra94 ,( c\rse ,i came to my s5ses at t1 &1 call+ to ,phbe t ,mrs4 ,=cey! _h come1 s5t h] out an umbrella4 ,%e surpris$ me by runn+ lightly up ! /eps4 ,i _h imag9$ a some:at advanc$ age & a s$ate am\nt ( infirmities1 to be necess>y concomitants ( aun?ood4 ,%e came 9 all sp>kl+ ) ra9-drops1 &1 g5tly pu%+ aside ! h& ) :i* ,i 0 try+ to pay h] driv]1 said1 laugh+3-- 8,"h we are1 bag & baggage1 y see1 #8big trunk1 little trunk1' c41 c4 ,y did n expect me8 ,ah1 my lett] miss$ !n4 ,x is too bad to take y by /orm 9 ?is way4 ,come1 ,fai?6 ,no1 don't tr\ble ab\t ! trunks j n[4 ,%all ,i g "r 9 "h80 ,h] voice _h a sp>kle 9 x1 l ! drops on h] veil1 b x 0 l[ & v sweet4 ,i took h] 9 by ! d9+-room fire1 & 0 turn+ to take (f ! little girl's ?+s1 :5 a s(t h& /ay$ me1 & ,i saw t %e _h drawn (f ! wet veil4 ,a face some:at pale look$ d[n at me1--%e is tall] ?an ,i1--) l>ge1 compassionate eyes4 8,i am too wet to kiss y1 b ,i mu/ h a look10 %e said1 smil+4 8,t w d4 ,y are l y\r "m1 v l40 ,i don't "k :at possess$ me1 :e!r x 0 ! sudd51 sweet feel+ ( k9%ip ) some?+ alive1 or :e!r x 0 h] face or h] voice1 or all toge!r1 b ,i said3-- 8,i don't ?9k y are too wet to be kiss$10 & ?rew my arms ab\t h] neck1--,i am n ( ! kiss+ k9d1 ei!r1 & ,i _h on my new bombaz9e1 & %e 0 v wet4 ,i ?\ght %e look$ pleas$4 ,phbe 0 s5t to op5 ! regi/] 9 ! blue room1 & z soon z x 0 w>m ,i w5t up ) !m1 lead+ ,fai? by ! h&4 ,i am unus$ to *ildr51 & %e kept /epp+ on my dress1 & sp9n+ ar\nd & tipp+ ov]1 9 ! mo/ a/oni%+ mann]4 ,x /rik+ly rem9d$ me ( a top at ! la/ gasp4 ,h] "m obs]v$ t %e 0 tir$ & sleepy4 ,phbe 0 wait+ ar\nd awkw>dly up /airs1 ) fre% t[els on h] arm4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ turn$ & held out h] h&4 8,well1 ,phbe1 ,i am glad to see y4 ,?is is ,phbe1 ,i am sure8 ,y h alt]$ ) ev]y?+ else s9ce ,i 0 "h be=e4 ,y keep bright & well1 ,i hope1 & take good c>e ( ,miss ,m>y80 ,x 0 a simple en\gh ?+1 to be sure1 h] tak+ ! tr\ble to notice ! old s]vant ) :om %e _h sc>cely ev] ex*ang$ a half-doz5 words2 b ,i lik$ x4 ,i lik$ ! way1 too1 9 :i* x 0 done4 ,x rem9d$ me ( ,roy's f9e1 well-br$ mann] t[>ds 8 inf]iors1--always cordial1 yet always appropriate2 ,i h he>d t our "m _h mu* ! same4 ,i tri$ to make ?+s look z pleasant z ,i c\ld d[n /airs1 :ile !y 7 mak+ ready = tea4 ,! grate 0 rak$ up a little1 a bright supp]-clo? laid on ! table1 & ! curta9s drawn4 ,phbe mix$ a ha/y cake ( "s sort1 & br\ght out ! heavi] pieces ( silv]1--tea-pot1 c41 :i* ,i d n use :5 ,i am alone1 because x is s mu* tr\ble to take c>e ( !m1 & because ,i l ! little ,w$gwood set t ,roy _h = 8 *ocolate4 8,h[ pleasant60 said ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 z %e sat d[n ) ,fai? 9 a high *air beside h]4 ,phbe _h a great hunt up g>ret = t *air2 x has be5 /[$ away !re s9ce x & ,i p>t$ company4 8,h[ pleasant ev]y?+ is "h6 ,i believe 9 bright d9+-rooms4 ,!re is an indescribable d+9ess to mo/ t ,i h se51 :i* t5ds to any?+ b ?ankfulness4 ,homesick1 ,fai?8 ,no2 t's "r4 ,i don't ?9k we %all be homesick at ,c\s9 ,m>y's40 ,if %e _h n said t1 ! probabilities are t !y w\ld h be51 = ,i h fall5 q out ( ! way ( active h\sekeep+1 & h almo/ =gott5 h[ to ent]ta9 a fri5d4 ,b ,i d n want h] good op9ion wa/$1 & mean !y %all h a good "t if ,i c make x = !m4 ,x 0 a little h>d at fir/ to see h] opposite me at ! table2 x 0 ,roy's place4 ,:ile %e 0 sitt+ !re 9 ! light1 ) ! du/ & we>9ess ( travel bru%$ away a little1 ,i 0 able to make up my m9d :at ?is aunt ( m9e looks l4 ,%e is "y1 !n1 to beg9 )1 & ,i f9d x necess>y to reit]ate ! fact1 9 ord] to get x into my /upid bra94 ,! cape & spectacles1 ! little old woman's %awl & invalid's walk1 = :i* ,i _h prep>$ myself1 p]si/ 9 hov]+ be=e my bewild]$ eyes1 ready to drop d[n on h] at a mom5t's notice4 ,j ?irty-five %e is by h] own %[+2 old] ?an ,i1 to be sure2 b z we pass$ 9 front ( ! mirror toge!r1 once to-night1 ,i c\ld n see half t diff]5ce betwe5 u4 ,! peace ( h] face & ! pa9 ( m9e contra/ %>ply1 & give me an old1 worn look1 beside h]4 ,aft] all1 ?\gh1 to "o :o _h se5 mu* ( life1 h]s w\ld be ! true maturity p]haps1--! maturity ( repose4 ,a look 9 h] eyes once or twice gave me ! impression t %e ?9ks me r "y1 ?\gh %e is f> too wise & delicate to %[ x4 ,i don't l to be treat$ l a girl4 ,i mean to f9d out :at %e does ?9k4 ,my eyes h be5 on h] face ! :ole ev5+1 & ,i believe x is ! sweete/ face--woman's face--t ,i h ev] se54 ,yet %e is f> f be+ a beautiful woman4 ,x is difficult to say :at makes ! impression2 sc>cely any feature is accurate1 yet ! t\t ensemble seems to h no fault4 ,h] hair1 :i* mu/ h be5 bright bronze once1 has gr[n gray--q gray--be=e its "t4 ,i really d n "k ( :at color h] eyes are2 blue1 p]haps1 mo/ frequ5tly1 b !y *ange ) e ^w t %e speaks2 :5 quiet1 !y h a curi\s1 f>-away look1 & a /eady1 lamb5t light %9es ?r\gh !m4 ,h] m\? is well cut & delicate1 yet y d n s mu* notice t z its expression4 ,x looks z if x held a happy secret1 ) :i*1 h[ev] ne> "o may come to h]1 "o c nev] int]m$dle4 ,yet !re are l9es ab\t x & on h] =ehead1 :i* are pro( pla9 en\gh t %e has n always float$ on summ] seas4 ,%e yet we>s h] wid['s black1 b relieves x pleasantly by :ite at ! ?roat & wri/s4 ,take h] altoge!r1 ,i l to look at h]4 ,fai? is a r\nd1 roll+1 rollick+ little piece ( mis*ief1 ) ?ree ye>s & a half ( exp]i5ce 9 ?is v happy _w4 ,%e has black eyes & a pretty *91 funny little p9k h&s all cov]$ ) dimples1 & a dimple 9 "o *eek besides4 ,%e has tipp$ ov] two tumbl]s ( wat]1 scrat*$ h]self all ov] play+ ) ! cat1 & set h] apron on fire already s9ce %e has be5 "h4 ,i /& 9 "s awe ( h]2 b1 aft] ,i h become initiat$1 ,i ?9k t we %all be v good fri5ds4 8,( all names 9 ! catalogue10 ,i said to h] "m1 :5 %e came d[n into ! p>lor aft] putt+ h] to b$1 8,fai? seems to be ab\t ! mo/ inappropriate = ?is solid-bodi$1 tw9kl+ little bairn ( y\rs1 ) h] pretty r$ *eeks1 & su* an appetite = supp]60 8,yes10 %e said1 laugh+1 8!re is no?+ spirituelle ab\t ,fai?4 ,b %e means j t to me4 ,i c\ld n call h] any?+ else4 ,h] fa!r gave h] ! "n40 ,h] face *ang$1 b did n sadd52 a quietness crept into x & into h] voice1 b t 0 all4 8,i w tell y ab\t x sometime1--p]haps10 %e add$1 ris+ & /&+ by ! fire4 8,fai? looks l him40 ,h] eyes assum$ _! di/ant look1 8l ! eyes ( ^? :o see ! dead10 & gaz$ away1--s f> away1 into ! fire1 t ,i felt t %e w\ld n be li/5+ to any?+ t ,i might say1 & !re=e said no?+4 ,we sp5t ! ev5+ *att+ cosily4 ,aft] ! fire _h di$ d[n 9 ! grate 7,i _h ,phbe light a p9e-knot !re1 because ,i notic$ t ,aunt ,w9ifr$ fanci$ ! blaze 9 ! d9+-room71 we drew up our *airs into ! corn] by ! regi/]1 & roa/$ away to our he>ts' cont5t4 ,a v bad habit1 to sit ov] ! regi/]1 & ,aunt ,w9ifr$ says %e %all und]take to break me ( x4 ,we talk$ ab\t ev]y?+ "u ! sun1--uncles1 aunts1 c\s9s1 ,kansas & ,connecticut1 ! surr5d]s & ! assass9ation1 books1 pictures1 music1 & ,fai?1--,o1 & ,phbe & ! cat4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ talks well1 & does n gossip nor exhau/ h] res\rces2 "o feels always t %e has mat]ial 9 res]ve on any subject t is wor? talk+ ab\t4 ,= "o ?+ ,i ?ank h] ) all my he>t3 %e nev] spoke ( ,roy4 ,^u reflection1 ,i f9d t ,i h really pass$ a pleasant ev5+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,%e knock$ at my door j n[1 aft] ,i _h writt5 ! la/ s5t5ce1 & _h put away ! book = ! night4 ,?9k+ t x 0 ,phbe1 ,i call$1 8,come 910 & did n turn4 ,%e _h come to ! bureau :]e ,i /ood unbraid+ my hair1 & t\*$ my arm1 be=e ,i saw :o x 04 ,%e _h on a crimson dress+-g[n ( w>m flannel1 & h] hair hung d[n on h] %\ld]s4 ,al?\gh s gray1 h] hair is massive yet1 & coils f9ely :5 %e is dress$4 8,i beg y\r p>don10 %e said1 8b ,i ?\ght y w\ld n be 9 b$1 & ,i came 9 to say1--let me sit some:]e else at ! breakfa/-table1 if y l4 ,i saw t ,i _h tak5 #8! vacant place4' ,good night1 my de>40 ,x 0 su* a little ?+6 ,i wond] h[ _m p w\ld h notic$ x or tak5 ! tr\ble to speak ( x4 ,! quick p]ception1 ! unusual delicacy1--^! too are l ,roy4 ,i almo/ wi% t %e _h /ay$ a little long]4 ,i almo/ ?9k t ,i c\ld be> to h h] speak to me ab\t him4 ,fai?1 9 ! next room1 seems to h wak5$ f a fright5$ dream1 & ,i c he> _! voices ?r\gh ! wall4 ,h] "m is soo?+ & s++ to h] 9 ! brok5 words ( "s old lullaby ) :i* ,phbe us$ to s+ ,roy & me to sleep1 ye>s & ye>s ago4 ,! unfamili>1 home-l s\nd is pleasant 9 ! sil5t h\se4 ,phbe1 on h] way to b$1 is /opp+ on ! g>ret-/airs to li/5 to x4 ,ev5 ! cat comes mew+ up to ! door1 & purr+ z ,i h n he>d ! creature purr s9ce ! old ,sunday-night s++1 hu%$ s long ago4 ,v4 ,may #g4 ,i 0 awak5$ & ne>ly smo!r$ ?is morn+ by a pill[ ?r[n directly at my head4 ,some:at unaccu/om$1 9 ! respectable1 old maid's life t ,i lead1 to su* a pleasant little me?od ( salutation1 ,i j]k$ myself upright1 & />$4 ,!re /ood ,fai? 9 h] night-dress1 laugh+ z if %e w\ld suffocate1 & h] "m 9 se>* ( h] 0 j knock+ at ! op5 door4 8,%e insi/$ on go+ to wake ,c\s9 ,m>y1 & w\ldn't be wa%$ till ,i let h]2 b ,i /ipulat$ t %e %\ld kiss y s(tly on bo? y\r eyes40 8,i did10 said ,fai?1 /\tly2 8,i kiss$ h] eyes1 bo? two ( 'em1 & h] nose1 & h] m\? & h] neck2 !n ,i pull$ h] hair1 & !n ,i sp9*$ h]2 b ,i ?\ght %e'd h to be bang$ a little4 ,wasn't x a bang1 ?\gh60 ,x really did me good to beg9 ! day ) a he>ty laugh4 ,! days usually look s long & blank at ! beg9n+1 t ,i c h>dly make up my m9d to /ep out into !m4 ,fai?'s pill[ 0 ! fam\s pebble 9 ! pond1 to :i* au?ors ( orig9al imag9ation inv>iably resort2 ,i felt its little circles wid5+ out all ?r\gh ! day4 ,i wond] if ,aunt ,w9ifr$ ?\ght ( t4 ,%e ?9ks ( _m ?+s4 ,= in/ance1 afraid app>5tly t ,i %\ld ?9k ,i 0 afflict$ ) "o ( ^? pr(essional visitors :o hold t a *ance relation%ip ju/ifies !m 9 impos+ on "o f ! beg9n+ to ! end ( ! *apt]1 %e manag$ to make me und]/&1 ?is morn+1 t %e 0 expect+ to g back to ,uncle ,=cey!'s bro!r on ,saturday4 ,i 0 surpris$ at myself to f9d t ?is proposition /ruck me ) dismay4 ,i insi/$ ) all my he>t on keep+ h] = a week at ! lea/1 & s5t =? a fiat t h] trunks %\ld be unpack$4 ,we h _h a quiet1 homelike day4 ,fai? f\nd h] way to ! or*>d1 & in/all$ h]self !re = ! day1 ov]haul+ ! muddy grass ) h] b>e h&s to f9d d&elions4 ,%e came 9 at d9n]-"t z br[n z a little nut1 ) h] hat hang+ d[n h] neck1 h] apron torn1 & j ab\t z dirty z ,i %\ld suppose x possible = a clean *ild to succe$ 9 mak+ h]self4 ,h] "m1 h[ev]1 seem$ to be q us$ to x1 & ! exp$ition ) :i* %e made h] pres5table ,i reg>d z a /roke ( g5ius4 ,:ile ,fai? 0 dispos$ (1 & ! h\se /ill1 auntie & ,i took our knitt+ & sp5t a regul> old woman's morn+ at ! s\? w9d[ 9 ! d9+-room4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,mrs4 ,bl& came ov]1 babies & all1 & s5t up h] c>d to ,mrs4 ,=cey!4 ,supp]-"t came1 & /ill !re _h n be5 a ^w ( ,roy4 ,i began to wond] at1 :ile ,i respect$1 ?is unusual sil5ce4 ,:ile h] "m 0 putt+ ,fai? to b$1 ,i w5t into my room alone1 = a few mom5ts' quiet4 ,an e>ly d>k _h fall51 = x _h cl\d$ up j be=e sunset4 ,! dull1 gray sky & n>r[ horizon %ut d[n & cr[d$ 9 ev]y?+4 ,a soldi] f ! village1 :o has j come home1 0 walk+ d[n ! /reet ) 8 wife & si/]4 ,! crickets 7 *irp+ 9 ! mead[s4 ,! fa9t brea? ( ! maple came up4 ,i sat d[n by ! w9d[1 & hid my face 9 bo? my h&s4 ,i mu/ h sat !re "s "t1 = ,i _h q =gott5 t ,i _h company to ent]ta91 :5 ! door s(tly op5$ & %ut1 & "s "o came & sat d[n on ! c\* beside me4 ,i did n speak1 = ,i c\ld n1 &1 ! fir/ ,i knew1 a g5tle arm crept ab\t me1 & %e _h ga!r$ me into h] lap & laid my head on h] %\ld]1 z %e might h ga!r$ ,fai?4 8,!re10 %e said1 9 h] l[1 lull+ voice1 8n[ tell ,auntie all ab\t x40 ,i don't "k :at x 01 :e!r ! voice1 or t\*1 or words1 b x came s sudd5ly1--& nobody _h held me = s long1--t ev]y?+ seem$ to break up & unlock 9 a m9ute1 & ,i ?rew up my h&s & cri$4 ,i don't "k h[ long ,i cri$4 ,%e pass$ h] h& s(tly to & fro across my hair1 bru%+ x away f my temples1 :ile !y ?robb$ & burn$2 b %e did n speak4 ,by & by ,i sobb$ out3-- 8,auntie1 ,auntie1 ,auntie60 z ,fai? sobs out 9 ! d>k4 ,x seem$ to me t ,i mu/ h help or die4 8,yes1 de>4 ,i und]/&4 ,i "k h[ h>d x is4 ,& y h be5 be>+ x alone s long6 ,i am go+ to help y1 & y mu/ tell me all y c40 ,! /rong1 decid$ words1 8,i am go+ to help y10 gave me ! fir/ fa9t hope ,i h _h1 t ,i c\ld be help$1 & ,i c\ld tell h]--x 0 n sacrilege--! p5t-up /ory ( ^! weeks4 ,all ! "t h] h& w5t s(tly to & fro across my hair4 ,pres5tly1 :5 ,i 0 weak & fa9t ) ! new com=t ( my te>s1 8,aunt ,w9ifr$10 ,i said1 8,i don't "k :at x means to be resign$2 ,i don't "k :at x means60 ,/ill h] h& pass$ s(tly to & fro across my hair4 8,to h ev]y?+ /op all at once6 )\t giv+ me any "t to le>n to be> x4 ,:y1 y d n "k1--x is j z if a great black gate _h swung to & b>r$ out ! future1 & b>r$ out him1 & left me all alone 9 any _w t ,i c ev] live 91 =ev] & =ev]40 8,my *ild10 %e said1 ) emphasis solemn & l[ ^u ! words1--8my *ild1 ,i d "k4 ,i ?9k y =get--my husb&40 ,i _h =gott54 ,h[ c\ld ,i8 ,we are mo/ selfi%ly bl9d$ by our own griefs4 ,no o!r =m ?an ours ev] seems to walk ) u 9 ! furnace4 ,h] few words made me feel1 z ,i c\ld n h felt if %e _h said m1 t ?is woman :o 0 go+ to help me _h suff]$ too2 _h suff]$ p]haps m ?an ,i1--t1 if ,i sat z a little *ild at h] feet1 %e c\ld tea* me ?r\gh ! k9%ip ( h] pa94 8,o my de>10 %e said1 & held me close1 8,i h trodd5 e /ep ( x be=e y1--e s+le /ep40 8,b y nev] 7 s wick$ ab\t x6 ,y nev] felt--:y1 ,i h be5 afraid ,i %\ld hate ,god6 ,y nev] 7 s wick$ z t40 ,l[ "u h] brea? %e answ]$ 8,yes10--?is sweet1 sa9tly woman :o _h come to me 9 ! d>k z an angel might4 ,!n1 turn+ sudd5ly1 h] voice trembl$ & broke3-- 8,m>y1 ,m>y1 d y ?9k ,he c\ld h liv$ ^? ?irty-?ree ye>s1 & be cruel to y n[8 ,?9k t ov] & ov]2 only t4 ,x may be ! only ?\ght y d>e to h1--x 0 all ,i d>$ to h once1--b cl+ to x2 cl+ ) bo? h&s1 ,m>y1 & keep x40 ,i only put bo? h&s ab\t h] neck & clung !re2 b ,i hope--x seems1 z if ,i clung a little to ! ?\ght besides2 x 0 z new & sweet to me z if ,i _h nev] he>d ( x 9 all my life2 & x has n left me yet4 8,& !n1 my de>10 %e said1 :5 %e _h let me cry a little long]1 8:5 y h once f\nd out t ,roy's ,god loves y m ?an ,roy does1 ! re/ comes m easily4 ,x w n be z long to wait z x seems n[4 ,x isn't z if y nev] 7 go+ to see him aga940 ,i look$ up bewild]$4 8,:at's ! matt]1 de>80 8,:y1 d y ?9k ,i %all see him1--really see him80 8,m>y ,cabot10 %e said abruptly1 turn+ to look at me1 8:o has be5 talk+ to y ab\t ?is ?+80 8,deacon ,quirk10 ,i answ]$ fa9tly1--8,deacon ,quirk & ,dr4 ,bl&40 ,%e put h] o!r arm ar\nd me ) a quick movem5t1 z if %e w\ld %ield me f ,deacon ,quirk & ,dr4 ,bl&4 8,d ,i ?9k y w see him aga98 ,y might z well ask me if ,i ?\ght ,god made y & made ,roy1 & gave y to ea* o!r4 ,see him6 ,:y1 ( c\rse y w see him z y saw him "h40 8,z ,i saw him "h6 ,:y1 "h ,i look$ into 8 eyes1 ,i saw him smile1 ,i t\*$ him4 ,:y1 ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 ,roy is an angel60 ,%e patt$ my h& ) a little1 s(t1 com=t+ laugh4 8,b he is n any ! less ,roy = t1--n any ! less y\r own real ,roy1 :o w love y & wait = y & be v glad to see y1 z he us$ to love & wait & be glad :5 y came home f a j\rney on a cold w9t] night40 8,& he met me at ! door1 & l$ me 9 :]e x 0 light & w>m60 ,i sobb$4 8,s he w meet y at ! door 9 ?is o!r home1 & lead y into ! light & ! w>m?4 ,& _c t make ! cold & d>k a little %ort]8 ,?9k a m9ute60 8,b !re is ,god1--,i ?\ght we w5t to ,heav5 to wor%ip ,him1 &--0 8,%all y wor%ip m he>tily or less1 = hav+ ,roy aga98 ,did ,m>y love ! ,ma/] m or less1 aft] ,laz>us came back8 ,:y1 my *ild1 :]e did y get y\r ideas ( ,god8 ,don't y suppose ,he kn[s h[ y love ,roy80 ,i drank 9 ! bless$ words )\t d\bt or argum5t4 ,i 0 too ?ir/y to d\bt or argue4 ,"s o!r "t ,i may ask h] h[ %e kn[s ?is beautiful ?+1 b n n[4 ,all ,i c d n[ is to take x into my he>t & hold x !re4 ,roy my own aga91--n only to look at /&+ up among ! s+]s1--b close to me2 someh[ or o!r to be z ne> z--to be ne>] ?an--he 0 "h1 really m9e aga96 ,i %all nev] let ?is g4 ,aft] we _h talk$ a:ile1 & :5 x came "t to say good night1 ,i told h] a little ab\t my conv]sation ) ,deacon ,quirk1 & :at ,i said to him ab\t ! ,"l's w4 ,i did n "k b t %e w\ld blame me4 8,"s "t10 %e said1 turn+ h] great1 compassionate eyes on me1--,i c\ld feel !m 9 ! d>k1--& smil+1 8y w f9d out all at once1 9 a happy mom5t1 t y c say ^? words ) all y\r he>t1 & ) all y\r s\l1 & ) all y\r /r5g?2 x w come1 ev5 9 ?is _w1 if y w only let x4 ,b1 until x does1 y d "r1 q "r1 n to scor* y\r alt> ) a false burnt-(f]+4 ,god is n a ,god to be mock$4 ,he w\ld r h only ! old cry3 #8,i believe2 help m9e unbelief1' & wait till y c say ! re/4 8,x has (t5 grat$ on my e>s10 %e add$1 8to he> p speak ^? words unwor?ily4 ,!y seem to me ! mo/ solemn words t ! ,bible conta9s1 or t ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce c utt]4 ,z f> z my obs]vation goes1 ! good p--= !y are good p--:o use !m :5 !y ought to "k bett] are ( two sorts4 ,!y are p 9 actual agony1 bewild]$1 rack$ ) rebelli\s d\bts1 unaccu/om$ to own ev5 to !mselves ! secret see?+s ( s92 really p]suad$ t because x is a ,*ri/ian duty to h no w b ! ,"l's1 !y are "u obligations to affirm t !y h no w b ! ,"l's4 ,or else !y are p :o "k no m ab\t ?is pa9 ( b]eavem5t ?an a *ild4 ,an affliction has pass$ ov] !m1 put !m into m\rn+1 made !m feel uncom=table till ! fun]al 0 ov]1 or ev5 caus$ !m a %all[ sort ( grief1 ( :i* ea* week evaporates a little1 till x is gone4 ,^! m\rn]s air _! tr\ble ! longe/1 prate l\de/ ab\t resignation1 & h ! mo/ to say to y or me ab\t our #8rebelli\s /ate ( m9d4' ,poor ?+s6 ,"o c h>dly be vex$ at !m = pity4 ,?9k ( be+ made s60 8,!re is /ill ano!r class ( ! *e]fully resign$10 ,i sugge/$1 8:o are ev5 m ready ?an ^! to tell y ( y\r desp]ate wick$ness--0 8,p :o h nev] _h ev5 ! semblance ( a tr\ble 9 all _! lives10 %e int]rupt$4 8,yes4 ,i 0 go+ to speak ( !m4 ,( all mis]able com=t]s1 !y are ! mo/ arrogant40 8,z to real in/ant submission10 %e said pres5tly1 8!re is "s ( x 9 ! _w4 ,!re are sweet1 r>e lives capable ( great loves & great pa9s1 :i* yet are kept s attun$ to ! life ( ,*ri/1 t ! cry 9 ! ,g>d5 comes sc>cely less hone/ly f _! lips1 ?an f 84 ,su*1 l ! ,/4 ,john1 are b "o among ! ,twelve4 ,su*1 x w d y & me good1 de>1 at lea/ to rememb]40 8,su*10 ,i ?\ght :5 ,i 0 left alone1 8y new de> fri5d ( m9e1 :o h come ) su* a bless$ com+ into my lonely days1--su* y mu/ be n[1 :atev] y 7 once40 ,if ,i %\ld tell h] t1 h[ %e w\ld op5 h] s(t eyes6 ,,vi4 ,may #i4 ,z ,i 0 look+ ov] ! gre5 book la/ night1 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ came up beh9d me & s(tly laid a bun* ( violets d[n betwe5 ! leaves4 ,by an odd contra/1 ! cont5t$1 passionless ?+s fell aga9/ ^? two v]ses t 7 copi$ f ! ,g]man1 & completely cov]$ !m f sight4 ,i lift$ ! fl[]s1 & held up ! page = h] to see4 ,z %e read1 h] face alt]$ /rangely2 h] eyes dilat$1 h] lip quiv]$1 a flu% %ot ov] h] *ecks & dy$ h] =ehead up to ! waves ( h] hair4 ,i turn$ away quickly1 feel+ t ,i _h committ$ a rud5ess 9 wat*+ h]1 & detect+ 9 h]1 h[ev] involunt>ily1 "s f>1 inn] sympa?y1 or %ad[ ( a long-pa/ sympa?y1 ) ! desp]ate words4 8,m>y10 %e said1 lay+ d[n ! book1 8,i believe ,satan wrote t40 ,%e laugh$ a little !n1 n]v\sly1 & pal$ back into h] quiet1 peaceful self4 8,i mean t he inspir$ x4 ,!y are wick$ words4 ,y mu/ n read !m ov]4 ,y w outgr[ !m sometime ) a beautiful gr[? ( tru/ & love4 ,let !m alone till t "t comes4 ,see1 ,i w blot !m out ( sight = y ) colors z blue z heav51--! real heav51 :]e ,god w be lov$ ! mo/40 ,%e %ook ap>t ! ?ick1 sweet nosegay1 &1 tak+ a half-doz5 ( ! little blossoms1 p9n$ !m1 dripp+ ) fragrant dew1 ^u ! l9es4 ,!re ,i %all let !m /ay1 &1 s9ce %e wi%es x1 ,i %all n lift !m to see ! reckless words till ,i c d x safely4 ,?is aft]noon ,aunt ,w9ifr$ has be5 tell+ me ab\t h]self4 ,some:at m1 or ( a diff]5t k9d1 ,i %\ld imag9e1 f :at %e has told mo/ p4 ,%e seems to love me a little1 n 9 a prop] k9d ( way1 because ,i happ5 to be h] niece1 b = my own sake4 ,x surprises me to f9d h[ pleas$ ,i am t %e %\ld4 ,t ,kansas life mu/ h be5 v h>d to h]1 9 contra/ z x 0 ) ! smoo? elegance ( h] girlhood2 %e 0 v "y1 too1 :5 %e und]took x4 ,i said some?+ ( ! sort to h]4 8,!y h be5 ! h>de/ & ! easie/1 ! sadde/ & ! happie/1 ye>s ( all my life10 %e answ]$4 ,i pond]$ ! words 9 my he>t1 :ile ,i li/5$ to h] /ory4 ,%e gave me vivid pictures ( ! long1 bright bridal j\rney1 ov]%ad[$ ) a v mundane we>9ess ( jolt+ coa*es & railway accid5ts be=e its close2 ( ! little neglect$ hamlet :i* wait$ = !m1 tw5ty miles f a po/-(fice & ?irty f a s*ool-h\se2 ( ! p>sonage1 a log-hut among log-huts1 di/+ui%$ & adorn$ by a little la? & pla/]+1 glass w9d[s1 & a door/ep2--!y drew 9 sight ( x at ! close ( a tir$ day1 ) a r$ sunset ly+ l[ on ! flats4 ,uncle ,=cey! want$ mission-"w1 & mission-"w he f\nd "h )--,i %\ld say ) a v5geance1 if ! expression 7 exactly suit$ to an elegantly con/ruct$ & reflective j\rnal4 8,my he>t sank = a mom5t1 ,i confess10 %e said1 8b x nev] w\ld d1 y "k1 to let him suspect t1 s ,i smil$ away z well z ,i knew h[1 %ook h&s ) "o or two wom5 9 r$ calico :o _h be5 #8slick+ up inside1' !y said2 w5t 9 by ! fire1--x 0 really a pleasant fire1--&1 z soon z !y _h left u alone1 ,i climb$ into ,john's lap1 &1 ) bo? arms ar\nd 8 neck1 told him t ,i knew we %\ld be v happy4 ,& ,i said--0 8,said :at80 ,%e blu%$ a little1 l a girl4 8,i believe ,i said ,i %\ld be happy 9 ,patagonia1--) him4 ,i made him laugh at la/1 & say t my face & words 7 l a beautiful prophecy4 ,&1 ,m>y1 if !y 71 x 0 beautifully fulfill$4 ,9 ! r\ghe/ times1--times ( ragg$ clo!s & empty fl\r-b>rels1 ( weakness & sickness & quack doctors1 ( cold & disc\ragem5t1 ( prairie fires & gu]illas1--f tr\ble to tr\ble1 f ye>'s end to ye>'s end1 we 7 happy toge!r1 we two4 ,z long z we c\ld h ea* o!r1 & z long z we c\ld be ab\t our ,ma/]'s bus9ess1 we felt z if we did n d>e to ask = any?+ m1 le/ x %\ld seem t we 7 ungrateful = su* weal? ( m]cy40 ,x w\ld take too long to write out "h ! half t %e told me1 ?\gh ,i wi% ,i c\ld1 = x int]e/$ me m ?an any /ory t ,i h ev] read4 ,aft] ye>s ( ,*ri/-l toil+ to help ^? r\gh old f>m]s & wick$ bu%:ack]s to ,heav51 ! call to ,lawr5ce came1 & x seem$ to ,uncle ,=cey! t he _h bett] g4 ,x 0 a pleasant1 influ5tial p>i%1 & !re1 ?\gh n less h>d at "w1 !y f\nd few] rubs & m com=ts2 !re ,fai? came1 & !re 7 _! pleasant days1 till ! w>4--,i held my brea? to he> h] tell ab\t ,quantrell's raid4 ,!re1 too1 ,uncle wa/$ ?r\gh t dea?-9-life1 consumption2 !re he 8fell on sleep10 %e said1 & !re %e buri$ him4 ,%e gave me no fur!r description ( 8 dea? ?an ^? words1 & %e spoke !m ) h] f>-away1 te>less eyes look+ (f ?r\gh ! w9d[1 & aft] %e _h spok5 %e 0 /ill = a "t4 ,! he>t kn[e? its own bitt]ness2 t grew di/9ct to me1 z ,i sat1 %ut out by h] sil5ce4 ,yet !re 0 no?+ bitt] ab\t h] face4 8,fai? 0 six mon?s old :5 he w5t10 %e said pres5tly4 8,we _h nev] nam$ h]3 ,baby 0 "n en\gh at fir/ = su* a wee ?+2 !n %e 0 ! only "o1 & _h come s late1 t x seem$ to mean m to u ?an to mo/ to h a baby all to ourselves1 & we lik$ ! s\nd ( ! ^w4 ,:5 x became q c]ta9 t ,john mu/ g1 we us$ to talk x ov]1 & he said t he w\ld l to "n h]1 b :at1 he did n tell me4 8,at la/1 "o night1 aft] he _h la9 = a :ile ?9k+ ) clos$ eyes1 he bade me br+ ! *ild to him4 ,! sun 0 sett+1 ,i rememb]1 & ! moon 0 ris+4 ,he _h _h a h>d day2 ! life 0 all scor*$ out ( ! air4 ,i mov$ ! b$ up by ! w9d[1 t he might h ! brea? ( ! ris+ w9d4 ,baby 0 wide awake1 coo+ s(tly to h]self 9 ! cradle1 h] bits ( damp curls cl++ to h] head1 & h] p9k feet 9 h] h&s4 ,i took h] up & br\ght h] j z %e 01 & knelt d[n by ! b$4 ,! /reet 0 /ill4 ,we c\ld he> ! frogs *ant+ a mile away4 ,he lift$ h] little h&s ^u 8 own1 & said--no matt] ab\t ! words--b he told me t z he left ! *ild1 s he left ! "n1 9 my sacr$ *>ge1--t he _h *os5 x = me1--t1 :5 he 0 out ( sight1 x might help me to h x (t5 on my lips4 8,s !re 9 ! sunset & ! moonrise1 we two alone toge!r1 he baptiz$ h]1 & we gave our little girl to ,god40 ,:5 %e _h said ?is1 %e rose & w5t ov] to ! w9d[1 & /ood ) h] face f me4 ,by & by1 8,x 0 ! f\rte5?10 %e said1 z if mus+ to h]self1--8! f\rte5? ( ,june40 ,i rememb] n[ t ,uncle ,=cey! di$ on ! f\rte5? ( ,june4 ,x may h be5 t ! words ( t baptismal bless+ 7 ! la/ t !y he>d1 ei!r *ild or "m4 ,may #aj4 ,x has be5 a pleasant day2 ! air %9es l transp>5t gold2 ! w9d sweeps l somebody's /rong arms ov] ! fl[]s1 & ga!rs up a cr[d ( p]fumes t w&] up & d[n ab\t "o4 ,! *ur* bells h rung out l silv] all day4 ,^? bells--especially ! ,second ,adv5t at ! fur!r end ( ! village--are positively gha/ly :5 x ra9s4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ 0 dress$ bright & e>ly = *ur*4 ,i1 9 morn+ dress & slipp]s1 sigh$ & demurr$4 8,auntie1 d y expect to he> any?+ new80 8,judg+ f y\r diagnosis ( ,dr4 ,bl&1--no40 8,to be edifi$1 refre%$1 /r5g!n$1 or in/ruct$80 8,p]haps n40 8,bor$1 !n80 8,n exactly40 8,:at d y expect80 8,!re are ! pray]s & s++4 ,g5]ally "o c1 if "o tries1 wr+ a little devotion f ! wor/ ( !m4 ,z to a m9i/]1 if he is good & commonplace1 "y & e>ne/ & ignorant1 & ,i1 :om he _c help "o /ep on ! way to ,heav51 consequ5tly /ay at home1 ,deacon ,quirk1 :om he might c>ry a mile or two1 by & by /ays at home also4 ,if !re is to be a #8build+ fitly jo9$ toge!r1' ea* /one mu/ d its "p ( ! uphold+4 ,i feel bett] to g half a day always4 ,i nev] compel ,fai? to g1 b ,i nev] h a *ance1 = %e teases n to be left at home40 8,i ?9k x's spl5did to g to *ur* mo/ ! "t10 put 9 ,fai?1 :o 0 squatt$ on ! c>pet1 c\nt+ sug>$ c>away se$s1--8all b ! s]mon4 ,t isn't spl5did4 ,i don't l ! gre-at big pray]s 'n' ?+s1 ,i l c>am>y se$s1 ?\gh2 "m always gives 'em to me 9 meet+ 'cause ,i'm a good girl4 ,don't y wi% y 7 a good girl1 ,c\s9 ,m>y1 s's y c\ld h "s8 ,besides1 ,i've got on my be/ hat & my button-boots4 ,besides1 !re us$ to be a real funny little boy up 9 meet+ at home1 & he gave me a little t9 dorg once ov] ! top ! pew4 ,only "m made me give x back4 ,o1 y ought to se5 ! man t prea*$ d[n at ,uncle ,calv9's6 ,i tell y he 0 a bully old m9i/]1--he bang$ ! ,bible l ev]y?+60 8,!re's a devotional _s = y60 ,i said to h] "m4 8,well10 %e answ]$1 laugh+1 8x is bett] ?an t %e %\ld be left to play dolls & eat pres]ves1 & be puni%$ = disob$i5ce4 ,sunday w\ld inv>iably become a guilty sort ( holiday at t rate4 ,n[1 c>aways or #8bully old m9i/]s' not)/&+1 %e c>ries to b$ ) h] a dim notion t ?is has be5 holy "t & pleasant "t4 ,besides1 ! associations ( a *ur*-go+ *ildhood1 if ,i c manage !m g5ially1 w be a help to h] :5 %e is old]4 ,come1 ,fai?6 g & pull (f ,c\s9 ,m>y's slipp]s1 & br+ d[n h] boots1 & !n %e'll h to g to *ur*4 ,no1 ,i didn't say t y might tickle h] feet60 ,feel+ ! lea/ bit sorry t ,i _h set ! example ( a /ay-at-home ,*ri/ian be=e ! *ild1 ,i w5t directly up /airs to make ready1 & we />t$ aft] all 9 good season4 ,dr4 ,bl& 0 9 ! pulpit4 ,i obs]v$ t he look$--z inde$ did ! congregation bodily--) "s curiosity into our slip1 :]e x has be5 a r>e occurr5ce ( late to f9d me1 & :]e ! light1 fall+ ?r\gh ! little /a9$ glass oriel1 t\*$ ,aunt ,w9ifr$'s ?\ghtful smile4 ,i wond]$ :e!r ,dr4 ,bl& ?\ght x 0 wick$ = p to smile 9 *ur*4 ,no1 ( c\rse he has too mu* s5se4 ,i wond] :at x is ab\t ,dr4 ,bl& t always sugge/s su* que/ions4 ,x has be5 v w>m all day1--t aggravat+1 unseasonable heat1 :i* is apt to come 9 spasms 9 ! e>ly "p ( ,may1 & :i*1 9 ?ick spr+ alpaca & heavy sack1 "o f9ds intol]able4 ,! !rmomet] /ood at #ge on ! *ur* por*2 e w9d[ 0 %ut1 & ev]ybody's fan 0 flutt]+ ,n[1 ) ?is sight be=e him1 :at %\ld our obs]vant m9i/] d1 b give out z 8 fir/ hymn3 8,?9e e>?ly ,sabba?s40 8,?9e e>?ly ,sabba?s0 w\ld be a beautiful hymn1 if x 7 n = ^? l9es ab\t ! wea!r3-- 8,no midnight %ade1 no cl\d$ sun1 ,b sacr$1 high1 et]nal noon06 ,!re 0 a great hot sunbeam /rik+ directly on my black bonnet4 ,my fan 0 brok54 ,i gasp$ = air4 ,! *oir w5t ov] & ov] & ov] ! words1 sp9n+ !m into "o ( ^? indescribable tunes1 9 :i* ev]ybody seems to be try+ to get ?r\gh fir/4 ,i don't "k :at !y call$ !m1--!y always rem9d me ( a game ( 8,tag40 ,i look$ at ,aunt ,w9ifr$4 ,%e took x m coolly ?an ,i1 b an amus$ little smile play$ ov] h] face4 ,%e told me aft] *ur* t %e _h repeat$ly he>d t hymn giv5 out at noon ( an int5se ,july day4 ,h] husb&1 %e said1 us$ to save x = ! w9t]1 or = cl\dy aft]noons4 8,us+ means ( grace10 he call$ t4 ,h[ev]1 ,dr4 ,bl& did bett] ! second "t1 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ jo9$ 9 ! s++1 & ,i enjoy$ x1 s ,i w n blame ! poor man4 ,i suppose he 0 s f> lift$ above ?is e>?1 t he w\ld n h kn[n :e!r he 0 prea*+ 9 ,gre5l&'s icy m\nta9s1 or on ,india's coral /r&4 ,:5 he ann\nc$ 8 text1 8,= our conv]sation is 9 ,heav510 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ & ,i ex*ang$ glances ( cont5t4 ,we _h be5 talk+ ab\t heav5 on ! way to *ur*2 at lea/1 till ,fai?1 n f9d+ h]self ent]ta9$1 int]rupt$ u by "s sev]e speculations z to :e!r ,maltese kitties 7 mulattoes1 & 8:y ! bell-r+] didn't jump (f ! /eeple "s night1 & see if he c\ldn't fly "r up1 ! way ,elijah did40 ,i li/5$ to ,dr4 ,bl& z ,i h n li/5$ = a long "t4 ,! subject 0 ( all subjects ne>e/ my he>t4 ,he is a s*ol>ly man1 9 8 way4 ,he ought to "k1 ,i ?\ght1 m ab\t x ?an ,aunt ,w9ifr$4 ,p]haps he c\ld help me4 ,8 s]mon1 z ne>ly z ,i c recall x1 0 sub/antially ?is4 8,! future life pres5t$ a va/ !me to our speculation4 ,!ories #8too num]\s to m5tion1' _h be5 held conc]n+ x4 ,pagans _h believ$ 9 a com+ /ate ( rew>ds & puni%m5ts4 ,:at natural !ology _h dimly =e%ad[$1 ,revelation _h br\ght 91 l a full-orb$ day1 ) heal+ on its w+s40 ,i am n positive ab\t ! metaphors4 8,z x 0 fitt+ t we %\ld at times turn our ?\ghts ^u ! ?reat5+s ( ,scripture1 x 0 em95tly suitable also t we %\ld consid] its promises4 8,he propos$ 9 ?is disc\rse to consid] ! promise ( heav51 ! rew>d (f]$ by ,*ri/ to 8 good & fai?ful s]vants4 8,9 ! fir/ place3 ,:at is heav580 ,i am n q cle> 9 my m9d :at x 01 ?\gh ,i tri$ my be/ to f9d out4 ,z ne>ly z ,i c recollect1 h[ev]1-- 8,heav5 is an et]nal /ate4 8,heav5 is a /ate ( hol9ess4 8,heav5 is a /ate ( happ9ess40 ,hav+ he>d ^! obs]vations be=e1 ,i w n enl>ge z he did ^u !m1 b leave t = ! 8vivid imag9ation0 ( ! gre5 book4 8,9 ! second place3 ,:at w be ! employm5ts ( heav58 8,we %all /udy ! "* ( ,god4 8,an inf9ite m9d mu/ ( necessity be et]nally an object ( /udy to a f9ite m9d4 ,! f9ite m9d mu/ ( necessity f9d 9 su* /udy supreme delight4 ,all less] joys & int]e/s w pale4 ,he felt at mom5ts1 9 reflect+ on ?is !me1 t t good bro!r :o1 on be+ ask$ if he expect$ to see ! dead wife ( 8 y\? 9 heav51 repli$1 #8,i expect to be s ov]:elm$ by ! glory ( ! pres5ce ( ,god1 t x may be ?\s&s ( ye>s be=e ,i %all ?9k ( my wife1'--he felt t p]haps ?is bro!r 0 ne> ! tru?40 ,poor ,mrs4 ,bl& look$ exce$+ly uncom=table4 8,we %all also glorify ,god40 ,he enl>g$ ^u ?is division1 b ,i h =gott5 exactly h[4 ,!re 0 some?+ ab\t adoration1 & ! h>p]s h>p+ ) _! h>ps1 & ! sea ( glass1 & cry+1 ,wor?y ! ,lamb6 & a great deal m t bewild]$ & di%e>t5$ me s t ,i c\ld sc>cely li/5 to x4 ,i d n d\bt t we %all glorify ,god prim>ily & happily1 b c we n d x 9 "s o!r way ?an by h>p+ & pray+8 8,we %all moreov] love ea* o!r ) a univ]sal & unselfi% love40 8,t we %all recognize our fri5ds 9 heav51 he 0 incl9$ to ?9k1 aft] mature delib]ation1 0 probable4 ,b !re w\ld be no special selfi% affections !re4 ,9 ?is _w we h enmities & favoritisms4 ,9 ! _w ( bliss our he>ts w\ld gl[ ) holy love alike to all o!r holy he>ts40 ,i wond] if he really ?\ght t w\ld make 8a _w ( bliss40 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ slipp$ h] h& into m9e "u h] cloak4 ,ah1 ,dr4 ,bl&1 if y _h kn[n h[ t little s(t t\* 0 prea*+ aga9/ y6 8,9 ! words ( an em95t div9e1 :o has long s9ce ent]$ into ! joys ( :i* he spoke3 #8,?us1 :5ev] ! m9d roves ?r\gh ! imm5se region ( heav51 x w f9d1 among all its innum]able millions1 n an enemy1 n a /rang]1 n an indiff]5t he>t1 n a res]v$ bosom4 ,disguise "h1 & ev5 concealm5t1 w be unkn[n4 ,! s\l w h no int]e/s to conceal1 no ?\ghts to disguise4 ,a w9d[ w be op5$ 9 e brea/1 & %[ to e eye ! ri* & beautiful furniture )96' 8,?irdly3 ,h[ %all we fit = heav580 ,he m5tion$ sev]al ways1 among :i*1-- 8,we %\ld subdue our e>?ly affections to ,god4 8,we mu/ n love ! creature z ! ,creator4 ,my son1 give me ?y he>t4 ,:5 he removes our fri5ds f ! sc5es ( "t 7) a glance 9 my direction71 we %\ld resign ourselves to 8 w1 rememb]+ t ! ,"l gave & ! ,"l ha? tak5 away 9 m]cy2 t ,he is all 9 all2 t ,he w nev] leave u nor =sake u2 t ,he c nev] *ange or die40 ,z if t made any diff]5ce ) ! fact1 t 8 be/ treasures *ange or die6 8,9 conclusion1-- 8,we inf] f our text t our he>ts %\ld n be set ^u e>?ly happ9ess4 7,enl>g$47 8,t ! subject ( heav5 %\ld be (t5 9 our ?\ghts & on our lips40 7,enl>g$47 ,( c\rse ,i h n done ju/ice to ! fill+ up ( ! s]mon2 to ! illu/rations1 metaphors1 pro(-texts1 le>n+1 & eloqu5ce1--=1 ?\gh ,dr4 ,bl& _c seem to ?9k outside ( ! old grooves1 a little eloqu5ce really fla%es ?r\gh ! tam5ess ( 8 /yle sometimes1 & :5 he 0 talk+ ab\t ! h>p]s1 etc41 "s ( 8 words 7 well *os54 8,to be dr[n$ 9 light10 ,i h some:]e read1 8may be v beautiful2 x is /ill to be dr[n$40 ,b ,i h giv5 ! skeleton ( ! disc\rse1 & ,i h giv5 ! sum ( ! impressions t x left on me1 an att5tive he>]4 ,x is =tunate t ,i did n he> x :ile ,i 0 alone2 x w\ld h made me desp]ate4 ,go+ hungry1 hopeless1 bl9d$1 ,i came back empty1 uncom=t$1 grop+4 ,i want$ some?+ actual1 some?+ pleasant1 ab\t ?is place into :i* ,roy has gone4 ,he gave me glitt]+ g5]alities1 cold commonplace1 vagu5ess1 unreality1 a ,god & a future at :i* ,i sat & %iv]$4 ,dr4 ,bl& is a good man4 ,he _h1 ,i "k1 writt5 t s]mon ) pray]4 ,i only wi% t he c\ld be made to see h[ x glides ov] & sails spl5didly away f wants l m9e4 ,b ?anks be to ,god :o has provid$ a voice to answ] me out ( ! deeps4 ,auntie & ,i walk$ home )\t any rem>ks 7we ov]he>d ,deacon ,quirk obs]ve to a neighbor3 8,t's :at ,i call a good gospel s]mon1 n[6071 s5t ,fai? away to ,phbe1 sat d[n 9 ! p>lor1 & look$ at ea* o!r4 8,well80 said ,i4 8,i "k x10 said %e4 ,^u :i* we bo? began to laugh4 8,b did he say ! dreadful tru?80 8,n z ,i f9d x 9 my ,bible40 8,t x is probable1 only probable t we %all recognize--0 8,my *ild1 d n be tr\bl$ ab\t t4 ,x is n probable1 x is sure4 ,if ,i c\ld f9d no pro( = x1 ,i %\ld none ! less believe x1 z long z ,i believe 9 ,god4 ,he gave y ,roy1 & ! capacity to love him4 ,he has taught y to sanctify t love ?r\gh love to ,him4 ,w\ld x be l ,him to create su* beautiful & unselfi% loves1--mo/ l ! love ( heav5 ( any type we "k1--j = our ?reescore ye>s & t5 ( e>?8 ,w\ld x be l ,him to suff] two s\ls to gr[ toge!r "h1 s t ! sep>ation ( a day is pa91 & !n wr5* !m ap>t = all et]nity8 ,x w\ld be :at ,madame de ,gasp>9 calls1 #8fe>ful irony on ! "p ( ,god4'0 8,b !re are lo/ loves4 ,!re are lo/ s\ls40 8#8,h[ (t5 w\ld ,i h ga!r$ y1 & ye w\ld n6' ,t is n 8 "w4 ,he w\ld h sav$ bo? s\l & love4 ,!y _h _! own way4 ,we 7 speak+ ( ,8 r$eem$4 ,! object ( hav+ ?is _w at all1 y "k1 is to fit u = ano!r4 ,( :at use w x h be51 if on pass+ out ( x we mu/ ?r[ by =ev] its gifts1 its lessons1 its memories8 ,god l9ks ?+s toge!r bett] ?an t4 ,be sure1 z y are sure ( ,him1 t we %all be ourselves 9 heav54 ,w\ld y be y\rself n to recognize ,roy8--consequ5tly1 n to love ,roy1 = to love & to be sep>at$ is mis]y1 & heav5 is joy40 8,i und]/&4 ,b y said y _h o!r pro(40 8,s ,i h2 pl5ty ( x4 ,if #8_m %all come f ! ,ea/ & f ! ,we/1 & %all sit d[n 9 ! k+dom ( ,god ) ,abraham1 ,isaac1 & ,jacob1' w !y n be likely to "k t !y are ) ,abraham1 ,isaac1 & ,jacob8 or w !y ?9k x is ,%adra*1 ,me%e*1 & ,ab$nego8 8,:at is meant by su* expressions z #8ris5 toge!r1' #8sitt+ toge!r at ! "r h& ( ,god1' #8sitt+ toge!r 9 heav5ly places'8 ,if !y mean any?+1 !y mean recognitions1 fri5d%ips1 enjoym5ts4 8,did n ,pet] & ! o!rs "k ,moses :5 !y saw him8--"k ,elias :5 !y saw him8 ,yet ^! m5 7 dead hundr$s ( ye>s be=e ! favor$ fi%]m5 7 born4 8,h[ 0 x ) ^? #8sa9ts :i* slept & arose' :5 ,*ri/ hung dead !re 9 ! d>k8 ,7 !y n se5 ( _m80 8,b t 0 a miracle40 8,!y 7 ris5 dead1 su* z y & ,i %all be "s day4 ,! miracle consi/$ 9 _! ris+ !n & !re4 ,moreov]1 did n ! begg> recognize ,abraham8 &--,well1 "o might g ?r\gh ! ,bible f9d+ x full ( ?is promise 9 h9ts or ass]tions1 9 p>ables or visions4 ,we are #8heirs ( ,god1' #8jo9t heirs ) ,*ri/'2 hav+ suff]$ ) ,him1 we %all be #8glorifi$ toge!r4' ,*ri/ himself has said _m sure ?+s3 #8,i w come & receive y1 t :]e ,i am1 !re ye may be4' #8,i w t !y be ) me :]e ,i am4' ,us+1 too1 ! v type ( ,godhead to signify ! et]nal ne>ness & et]nal love ( j su* z y & ,roy z ,john & me1 he prays3 #8,holy ,fa!r1 keep !m :om ,?\ ha/ giv5 me1 t !y may be "o z we are4' 8,!re is "o place1 ?\gh1 :]e ,i f9d :at ,i l bett] ?an all ! re/2 y rememb] t old cry wrung f ! lips ( ! /rick5 k+1--#8,i %all g to him2 b he w n return to me4'0 8,i nev] ?\ght be=e h[ simple & direct x is2 & t1 too1 9 ^? old bl9d$ days40 8,! m ,i /udy ! ,bible10 %e said1 8& ,i /udy n entirely 9 ignorance ( ! comm5tators & ! my/]ies1 ! m p]plex$ ,i am to imag9e :]e ! curr5t ideas ( our future come f4 ,!y c]ta9ly are n 9 ?is book ( graci\s promises4 ,t heav5 :i* we he>d ab\t to-day 0 ,dr4 ,bl&'s1 n ,god's4 #8,x's aye a wond]fu' ?+ to me1' z poor ,laud]dale said1 #8! way "s prea*]s take x ^u !mselves to expla9 matt]s to ! ,almighty6'0 8,b ! h>ps & *oirs1 ! ?rone1 ! :ite robes1 are all 9 ,revelation4 ,deacon ,quirk w\ld put 8 great br[n f+] on ! v]ses1 & hold y !re triumphantly40 8,c't p tell picture f sub/ance1 a metaphor f its mean+8 ,t book ( ,revelation is precisely :at x pr(esses to be1--a vision2 a symbol4 ,a symbol ( some?+1 to be sure1 & ri* ) pleasant hopes1 b /ill a symbol4 ,n[1 ,i really believe t a l>ge proportion ( ,*ri/ian *ur*-memb]s1 :o h /udi$ _! ,bible1 att5d$ ,sabba? s*ools1 li/5$ to s]mons all _! lives1 if y c\ld fairly come at _! mo/ def9ite idea ( ! place :]e !y expect to sp5d et]nity1 w\ld own x to be ! gold5 city1 ) pe>l gates1 & jewels 9 ! wall4 ,x nev] occurs to !m1 t1 if "o picture is lit]al1 ano!r mu/ be4 ,if we are to walk gold5 /reets1 h[ c we /& on a sea ( glass8 ,h[ c we #8sit on ?rones'8 ,h[ c untold millions ( u #8lie 9 ,abraham's bosom'8 8,b :y h giv5 u empty symbols8 ,:y n a little fact80 8,!y are n empty symbols4 ,& :y ,god did n give u actual descriptions ( actual heav5ly life1 ,i don't tr\ble myself to wond]4 ,he c]ta9ly _h 8 reasons1 & t is en\gh = me4 ,i f9d f ^! symbols1 & f 8 voice 9 my own he>t1 _m beautiful ?+s1--,i w tell y "s m ( !m at ano!r "t1--&1 = ! re/1 ,i am cont5t to wait4 ,he loves me1 & he loves m9e4 ,z long z we love ,him1 ,he w nev] sep>ate ,himself f u1 or u f ea* o!r4 ,t1 at lea/1 is sure40 8,if t is sure1 ! re/ is ( less importance2--yes4 ,b ,dr4 ,bl& said an awful ?+60 8,! quotation f a dead div9e80 8,yes4 ,t !re w be no sep>ate int]e/s1 no ?\ghts to conceal40 8,poor good man6 ,he has f\nd out by ?is "t t he %\ld n h laid d[n nons5se l t1 )\t qualification or demur1 be=e a ,bible-read+ he>]4 ,x 0 simply 8 op9ion1 n ,david's1 or ,paul's1 or ,john's1 or ,isaiah's4 ,he _h a p]fect "r to put x 9 ! =m ( a conjecture4 ,nobody w\ld =bid 8 conjectur+ t ! inhabitants ( heav5 are all deaf & dumb1 or we> gre5 glasses1 or %ave _! heads1 if he *ose1 provid$ he /at$ t x 0 conjecture1 n revelation40 8,b :]e does ! ,bible say t we %all h p[] to conceal our ?\ghts8--& ,i w\ld r be annihilat$ ?an to sp5d et]nity ) he>t laid b>e1--! inn] temple ?r[n op5 to be trampl$ on by e pass+ /rang]60 8,! ,bible specifies v little ab\t ! m9or arrangem5ts ( et]nity 9 any way4 ,b ,i d\bt if1 "u any circum/ances1 x w\ld h occurr$ to inspir$ m5 to in=m u t our ?\ghts %all cont9ue to be our own4 ,! fact is pat5t on ! face ( ?+s4 ,! dead m9i/]'s supposition w\ld de/roy individuality at "o fell swoop4 ,we %\ld be l a man walk+ d[n a room l9$ ) mirrors1 :o sees himself reflect$ 9 all sizes1 colors1 %ades1 at all angles & 9 all proportions1 accord+ to ! capacity ( ! mirror1 till he seems no long] to belong to himself1 b to be cut up into ellipses & octagons & prisms4 ,h[ soon w\ld he gr[ frantic 9 su* companion%ip1 & beg = a corn] :]e he might hide & hu% himself 9 ! d>k8 8,t we %all 9 a high] life be able to d :at we _c 9 ?is1--judge fairly ( ea* o!r's moral wor?1--is und\bt$ly true4 ,:atev] ! ,judgm5t ,day may mean1 t is ! sub/ance ( x4 ,b ?is promiscu\s !ory ( refraction2--nev]6 8,besides1 :]ev] ! ,bible t\*es ! subject1 x premises our individuality z a matt] ( c\rse4 ,:at w\ld be ! use ( talk+1 if ev]ybody knew ! ?\ghts ( ev]ybody else80 8,y don't suppose t p talk 9 heav580 8,i don't suppose any?+ else4 ,are we to sp5d ages ( joy1 a company ( mutes toge!r8 ,:y n talk80 8,i suppos$ we %\ld s+1--b--0 8,:y n talk z well z s+8 ,does n song involve ! faculty ( spee*8--unless y w\ld l to make can>ies ( u40 8,ye-es4 ,:y1 yes40 8,!re are ! visitors at ! beautiful ,m\nt ( ,transfiguration aga94 ,did n !y talk ) ea* o!r & ) ,*ri/8 ,did n ,john talk ) ! angel :o #8%ew$ him ^? ?+s'80 8,& y mean to say--0 8,i mean to say t if !re is su* a ?+ z common s5se1 y w talk ) ,roy z y talk$ ) him "h1--only n z y talk$ ) him "h1 because !re w be no tr\bles nor s9s1 no anxieties nor c>es1 to talk ab\t2 no ugly %ades ( cross words or little qu>rels to be made up2 no fe>ful look+-= ( sep>ation40 ,i laid my head ^u h] %\ld]1 & c\ld h>dly speak = ! com=t t %e gave me4 8,yes1 ,i believe we %all talk & laugh & joke & play--0 8,laugh & joke 9 heav580 8,:y n80 8,b x seems s--s--:y1 s wick$ & irrev]5t & all t1 y "k40 ,j !n ,fai?1 :o1 m\nt$ out on ! kit*5 table1 0 prea*+ at ,phbe 9 comical mimicry ( ,dr4 ,bl&'s *oice/ intonations1 laugh$ out l ! spla% ( a little wave4 ,! s\nd came 9 at ! op5 door1 & we /opp$ to li/5 till x _h rippl$ away4 8,!re60 said h] "m1 8put t *ild1 ?is v m9ute1 ) all h] little s9s =giv51 into "o ( our de> ,"l's _m mansions1 & d y suppose t %e w\ld be any ! less holy or less rev]5t = a laugh l t8 ,is he go+ to *eck all ! sp>kle & blossom ( life :5 he takes u to himself8 ,i don't believe any su* ?+4 ,!re 7 bo? s5se & ,*ri/ianity 9 :at somebody wrote on ! dea? ( a humor\s poet3-- #8,does nobody laugh !re1 :]e he has gone1-- ,?is man ( ! smile & ! je/8' --provid$ !re 0 any hope t ! poor fell[ _h gone to heav52 if n1 x 0 bad philosophy & worse religion4 ,did n ,david dance be=e ! ,"l ) all 8 might8 ,a ,bible :i* is full ( happy battle-cries3 #8,rejoice 9 ! ,"l6 make a joyful noise unto him6 ,give ?anks unto ! ,"l1 = 8 m]cy endure?6'--a ,bible :i* exhau/s its spl5did weal? ( rhetoric to make u und]/& t ! com+ life is a life ( joy1 no m ?reat5s to make nuns ?an mutes ( u4 ,i expect t y w he> "s ( ,roy's v old jokes1 see ! sp>kle 9 8 eye1 li/5 to 8 laugh+ voice1 light5 up ! happy days z gleefully z y may *oose2 & t--0 ,fai? appe>$ ^u ! sc5e j !n1 ) ! int]e/+ in=mation t %e _h bitt5 h] tongue2 s we talk$ no m4 ,h[ pleasant--h[ pleasant ?is is6 ,i nev] suppos$ be=e t ,god w\ld let any "o laugh 9 heav54 ,i wond] if ,roy has se5 ! ,presid5t4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ says %e does n d\bt x4 ,%e ?9ks t all ! soldi]s mu/ h cr[d$ up to meet him1 & 8,o10 %e says1 8:at a sight to see60 ,,vii4 ,may #ab?4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ has said some?+ ab\t go+1 b ,i _c yet be> to he> ( su* a ?+4 ,%e is to /ay a :ile long]4 #af?4 ,we h be5 ov] to-night to ! grave4 ,%e propos$ to g by h]self1 ?9k+1 ,i saw1 ) ! delicacy ) :i* %e always ?9ks1 t ,i w\ld r n be !re ) ano!r4 ,nor %\ld ,i1 nor c\ld ,i1 ) any o!r ?an ?is woman4 ,x is /range4 ,i wi%$ to g !re ) h]4 ,i _h a vague1 unreason+ feel+ t %e w\ld take away "s ( ! bitt]ness ( x1 z %e has tak5 ! bitt]ness ( mu* else4 ,x is look+ v pleasant !re n[4 ,! turf has gr[n f9e & smoo?4 ,! l[ arbor-vit h$ge & knots ( ,norway spruce1 t fa!r plant$ long ago = "m1 drop cool1 gre5 %ad[s t /ir ) ! w9d4 ,my ,engli% ivy has crept ab\t & ab\t ! cross4 ,roy us$ to say t he %\ld fancy a cross to m>k ! spot :]e he might lie2 ,i ?9k he w\ld l ?is pure1 unve9$ m>ble4 ,may-fl[]s cov] ! grave n[1 & /eal out among ! clov]-leaves ) a flu% l sunrise4 ,by & by !re w be roses1 &1 9 ,augu/1 ,augu/'s own :ite lilies4 ,we w5t sil5tly ov]1 & sat sil5tly d[n on ! grass1 ! field-pa? /ret*+ away to ! little *ur* beh9d u1 & beyond1 9 front1 ! slope1 ! flats1 ! riv]1 ! hills cut 9 purple di/ance melt+ f> into ! ea/4 ,! air 0 ?ick ) p]fume4 ,gold5 bees hung giddily ov] ! blu% 9 ! grass4 ,9 ! l[ bran*es t swept ! grave a little bird _h built h] ne/4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ did n speak to me = a "t1 nor wat* my face4 ,pres5tly %e laid h] h& ^u my lap1 & ,i put m9e into x4 8,x is v pleasant "h10 %e said !n1 9 h] v pleasant voice4 8,i meant t x %\ld be10 ,i answ]$1 try+ n to let h] see my lips quiv]4 8,at lea/ x mu/ n look neglect$4 ,i don't suppose x makes any diff]5ce to him40 8,i d n feel sure ( t40 8,:at d y mean80 8,i d n feel sure t any?+ he has left makes no #8diff]5ce' to him40 8,b ,i don't und]/&4 ,he is 9 heav54 ,he w\ld be too happy to c>e = any?+ t is go+ on 9 ?is w(ul _w40 8,p]haps t is s10 %e said1 smil+ a sweet contradiction to h] words1 8b ,i don't believe x40 8,:at d y believe80 8,_m ?+s t ,i h to say to y1 b y _c be> !m n[40 8,i h sometimes wond]$1 = ,i _c help x10 ,i said1 8:e!r he is %ut (f f all k ( me = all ^! ye>s till ,i c g to him4 ,x w be a great :ile4 ,x seems h>d4 ,roy w\ld want to "k some?+1 if x 7 only a little1 ab\t me40 8,i believe t he wants to "k1 & t he kn[s1 ,m>y2 ?\gh1 s9ce ! belief mu/ re/ on analogy & conjecture1 y ne$ n accept x z demon/rat$ ma!matics10 %e answ]$1 ) ano!r smile4 8,roy nev] =got me "h60 ,i said1 n mean+ to sob4 8,t is j x4 ,he 0 n con/itut$ s t he1 rema9+ himself1 ,roy1 c\ld =get y4 ,if he goes out into ?is o!r life =gett+1 he becomes ano!r ?an himself4 ,t is a f> m unnatural way ( creep+ out ( ! difficulty ?an to assume t he loves & rememb]s4 ,:y n assume t8 ,9 fact1 :y assume any?+ else8 ,nei!r reason1 nor ! ,bible1 nor common s5se1 =bids x4 ,in/ead ( />t+ ) x z an hypo!sis to be prov$ if we c1 ,i lay x d[n z "o ( ^? probabilities = :i* ,butl] w\ld say1 #8! presumption am\nts ne>ly to c]ta9ty'2 & if any "o c disprove x1 ,i w he> :at he has to say4 ,!re60 %e broke (f1 laugh+ s(tly1 8t is a suffici5t dose ( metaphysics = su* a simple ?+4 ,x seems to me to lie j "h3 ,roy lov$ y4 ,our ,fa!r1 = "s t5d]1 hidd5 reason1 took him out ( y\r sight = a :ile4 ,?\gh *ang$ mu*1 he c h =gott5 no?+4 ,be+ only out ( sight1 y rememb]1 n lo/1 nor asleep1 nor annihilat$1 he goes on lov+4 ,to love mu/ mean to ?9k (1 to c>e =1 to hope =1 to pray =1 n less out ( a body ?an 9 x40 8,b t mu/ mean--:y1 t mu/ mean--0 8,t he is ne> y4 ,i d n d\bt x40 ,! sun%9e quiv]$ 9 among ! ivy-leaves1 & ,i turn$ to wat* x1 ?9k+4 8,i d n d\bt10 %e w5t on1 speak+ l[1--8,i _c d\bt t our abs5t dead are v pres5t ) u4 ,he said1 #8,i am ) y alway1' kn[+ ! ne$ we h ( him1 ev5 to ! end ( ! _w4 ,he mu/ und]/& ! ne$ we h ( !m4 ,i _c d\bt x40 ,i wat*$ h] z %e sat ) h] abs5t eyes turn$ ea/w>d1 & h] peculi> look--,i h nev] se5 x on ano!r face--z ( "o :o holds a happy secret2 & :ile ,i wat*$ ,i wond]$4 8,!re is a reason = x10 %e said1 r\s+ z if f a pleasant dream1--8a good s5sible reason1 too1 x /rikes me1 indep5d5t ( ,scriptural or o!r pro(40 8,:at is t80 8,t ,god keeps u briskly at "w 9 ?is _w40 ,i did n und]/&4 8,altoge!r too briskly1 consid]+ t x is a prep>ative _w1 to int5d to put u f x into an idle "o4 ,:at m natural ?an t we %all sp5d our be/ en]gies z we sp5t !m "h1--9 com=t+1 tea*+1 help+1 sav+ p ^: v s\ls we love bett] ?an our own8 ,9 fact1 x w\ld be v unnatural if we did n40 8,b ,i ?\ght t ,god took c>e ( u1 & angels1 l ,gabriel & ! re/1 if ,i ev] ?\ght any?+ ab\t x1 :i* ,i am incl9$ to d\bt40 8#8,god works by ! use ( means1' z ! prea*]s say4 ,:y n use ,roy z well z ,gabriel8 ,:at ar*angel c\ld und]/& & rea* ! peculi>ities ( y\r nature z he c\ld8 or1 ev5 if und]/&+1 c\ld s love & be> ) y8 ,:at is to be done8 ,w !y s5d ,roy to ! planet ,jupit] to take c>e ( somebody else's si/]80 ,i laugh$ 9 spite ( myself2 nor did ! laugh seem to j> ^u ! sacr$ /illness ( ! place4 ,h] words 7 draw+ away ! bitt]ness1 z ! sun 0 blott+ ! dull1 dead gre5s ( ! ivy into its gl[ ( gold5 color4 8,b ! ,bible1 ,aunt ,w9ifr$40 8,! ,bible does n say a great deal on ?is po9t10 %e said1 8b x does n contradict me4 ,9 fact1 x helps me2 &1 moreov]1 x w\ld uphold me 9 black & :ite if x w]5't = "o little ob/acle40 8,& t80 8,t fr[n+ #8orig9al ,greek1' :i* ,gail ,hamilton d5\nces ) h] righte\s indignation4 ,no soon] d ,i f9d a pretty v]se t is exactly :at ,i want1 ?an up hops a comm5tator1 & says1 ?is isn't accord+ to text1 & means some?+ entirely diff]5t2 & ,b>nes says ?is1 & ,/u>t believes t1 & ,ol%aus5 has demon/rat$ ! o!r1 & v ignorant x is 9 y1 too1 n to "k x6 ,"h ! o!r day ,i f]ret$ out a s5t5ce 9 ,revelation t seem$ to prove beyond "q t angels & r$eem$ m5 7 ! same2 :]e ! angel says to ,john1 y "k1 #8,am ,i n ( ?y bre?r5 ! prophets8' ,i ?\ght t ,i _h discov]$ a delightful ?+ :i* all ! ,fa!rs ( ! *ur* _h ov]look$1 & w5t 9 great glee to y\r ,uncle ,calv91 to be told t some?+ 0 ! matt]1--a n\n left out1 or "s o!r unansw]able & unreasonable horror1 ,i don't "k :at2 & t x didn't mean t he 0 ( ?y bre?r5 ! prophets at all6 8,y see1 if x c\ld be prov$ t ! ,*ri/ian dead become angels1 we c\ld h all t we ne$1 direct f ,god1 ab\t--to use ! beautiful old phrase--! communion ( sa9ts4 ,f ,g5esis to ,revelation ! ,bible is fill$ ) angels :o are at "w on e>?4 ,!y hold sweet conv]se ) ,abraham 9 8 t5t4 ,!y are intru/$ to save ! s\l ( ,lot4 ,an angel he>s ! wail ( ,hag>4 ,! beautiful feet ( an angel br+ ! good tid+s to maid5 ,m>y4 ,an angel's noiseless /ep guides ,pet] ?r\gh ! b>r$ & bolt$ gate4 ,angels roll$ ! /one f ! buri$ ,*ri/1 & angels sat !re 9 ! solemn morn+1--,o ,m>y6 if we c\ld h se5 !m6 8,!n !re is t "o "q1 direct1 compreh5sive1--we %\ld n ne$ any?+ else1--#8,are !y n all m9i/]+ spirits1 s5t =? to m9i/] to ! heirs ( salvation8' 8,b y see x nev] seems to h ent]$ ^? comm5tators' heads t all ^! beautiful ?+s ref] to any b a sup]ior race ( be+s1 l ^? f ^: ranks ,lucif] fell40 8,h[ /upid 9 !m60 8,i take com=t 9 ?9k+ s2 b1 to be s]i\s1 ev5 admitt+ t ^! passages ref] to a sup]ior race1 mu/ !re n be "s simil>ity 9 ! laws :i* gov]n exi/5ce 9 ! heav5ly _w8 ,s9ce ^! graci\s de$s are p]=m$ by :at we are accu/om$ to call #8spiritual be+s1' :y may !y n z well be done by p f ?is _w z f any:]e else8 ,besides1 !re is ano!r po9t1 & a reasonable "o1 to be made4 ,! ^w angel 9 ! orig9al,a means1 /rictly1 a mess5g]4 ,x applies to any s]vant ( ,god1 animate or inanimate4 ,an ea/ w9d is z mu* an angel z ,mi*ael4 ,aga91 ! g5]ic t]ms1 #8spirits1' #8gods1' #8sons ( ,god1' are us$ int]*angeably = sa9ts & = angels4 ,s1 y see1 ,i fancy t ,i f9d a way = y & ,roy & me & all ( u1 /raight into ! %9+ m9i/ry4 ,m>y1 ,m>y1 w\ldn't y l to g ?is v aft]noon80 ,a 4 ,%e lay back 9 ! grass1 ) h] face up-turn$ to ! sky1 & drew a long brea?1 we>ily4 ,i d n ?9k %e meant me to he> x4 ,i did n answ] h]1 = x came ov] me ) su* a hopeless ?rill1 h[ good x w\ld be to be tak5 to ,roy1 !re by 8 beautiful grave1 ) ! ivy & ! ,may-fl[]s & ! sunlight & ! clov]-leaves r\nd ab\t2 & t x c\ld n be1 & h[ long x 0 to wait1--x came ov] me s t ,i c\ld n speak4 8,!re60 %e said1 sudd5ly r\s+1 8:at a ?\ghtless1 wick$ ?+ x 0 to say6 ,& ,i meant to give y only ! good *e] ( a *e]y fri5d4 ,no1 ,i d n c>e to g ?is aft]noon1 nor any aft]noon1 till my ,fa!r is ready = me4 ,:]ev] he has mo/ = me to d1 !re ,i wi%1--yes1 ,i ?9k ,i wi% to /ay4 ,he kn[s be/40 ,aft] a pause1 ,i ask$ aga91 8,:y did ,he n tell u m ab\t ?is ?+1--ab\t _! pres5ce ) u8 ,y see if ,i c\ld "k x60 8,! my/]y ( ! ,bible lies n s mu* 9 :at x says1 z 9 :at x does n say10 %e repli$4 8,b ,i suppose t we h be5 told all t we c compreh5d 9 ?is _w4 ,k on "o po9t might involve k on ano!r1 l ! l9ks ( a *a91 till x /ret*$ f> beyond our capacity4 ,at any rate1 x is n = me to break ! sil5ce4 ,t is ,god's affair4 ,i c only accept ! fact4 ,nev]!less1 z ,dr4 ,*alm]s says3 #8,x 7 well = u all c\ld we c>efully draw ! l9e betwe5 ! secret ?+s :i* belong to ,god & ! ?+s :i* are reveal$ & belong to u & to our *ildr54' ,"s "o else1--,:ately1 ,i ?9k1--,i rememb] to h notic$ z speak+ ab\t ^! v subjects to ?is effect1--t precisely because we "k s little ( !m1 x is ! m important t we #8%\ld endeavor s to dwell on !m z to make ! mo/ ( :at little k we h4'0 8,aunt ,w9ifr$1 y are su* a com=t60 8,x ne$s our be/ fai?10 %e said1 8to be> ?is retic5ce ( ,god4 ,i _c help ?9k+ sometimes ( a ?+ ,laud]dale said1--,i am always quot+ him1--f #8,son ( ! ,soil1' y rememb]3 #8,x's an awfu' m>vel1 beyond my rea*1 :5 a ^w ( communication w\ld make a' ! diff]5ce1 :y x's no p]mitt$1 if x 7 b to keep a he>t f break+ n[ & !n4' ,?9k ( poor ,eugnie de ,gur91 try+ to cont9ue h] little j\rnal #8,to ,maurice 9 ,heav51' till ! awful1 answ]less /illness %ut up ! book & laid aside ! p54 8,b !n10 %e cont9u$1 8!re is ?is to rememb]1--,i may h borr[$ ! idea1 or x may be my own1--t if we c\ld speak to !m1 or !y to u1 !re w\ld be no dea?1 = !re w\ld be no sep>ation4 ,! la/1 ! sure/1 9 "s cases ! only te/ ( loyalty to ,god1 w\ld ?us be tak5 away4 ,roman ,ca?olic nature is human nature1 :5 x comes ^u its knees be=e a sa9t4 ,_m lives--all su* lives z y\rs & m9e--w\ld become--0 8,w\ld become :at80 8,"o long defiance to ! ,fir/ ,comm&m5t40 ,i _c become us$ to su* words f su* quiet lips4 ,yet !y give me a curi\s s5se ( ! tru/wor?9ess ( h] peace4 8,f\nd$ ^u a rock10 x seems to be4 ,%e has done :at x takes a lifetime = "s ( u to d2 :at "s ( u g into et]nity1 leav+ undone2 :at ,i am afraid ,i %all nev] d1--s\nd$ h] own nature4 ,%e kn[s ! wor/ ( h]self1 & faces x z fairly1 ,i believe1 z anybody c d 9 ?is _w4 ,z = ! be/ ( h]self1 %e tru/s t to ,*ri/1 & he kn[s x1 & we4 ,i hope %e1 9 h] sweet humbl5ess1 w "k x "s day4 8,i suppose1 nev]!less10 %e said1 8t ,roy kn[s :at y are do+ & feel+ z well z1 p]haps bett] ?an1 he knew x ?ree mon?s ago4 ,s he c help y )\t h>m+ y40 ,i ask$ h]1 turn+ sudd5ly1 h[ t c\ld be1 & yet heav5 be heav51--h[ he c\ld see me suff] :at ,i _h suff]$1 c\ld see me sometimes :5 ,i suppos$ none b ,god _h se5 me1--& s+ on & be happy4 8,y are n ! fir/1 ,m>y1 & y w n be ! la/1 to ask t "q4 ,i _c answ] x1 & ,i nev] he>d ( any :o c\ld4 ,i feel sure only ( ?is1--t he w\ld suff] f> less to see y ?an to "k no?+ ab\t y2 & t ,god's p[] ( inv5t+ happ9ess is n to be block$ by an ob/acle l ?is4 ,p]haps ,roy sees ! end f ! beg9n+1 & c be> ! sight ( pa9 = ! peace t he wat*es com+ to meet y4 ,i d n "k1--t does n p]plex me n[2 x only makes me anxi\s = "o ?+40 8,:at is t80 8,t y & ,i %all n d any?+ to make !m sorry40 8,to make !m sorry80 8,roy w\ld c>e4 ,roy w\ld be disappo9t$ to see y make life a hopeless ?+ = 8 sake1 or to see y d\bt 8 ,savi\r40 8,d y ?9k t80 8,"s sort ( m\rn+ ov] s9 ent]s t happy life4 ,god himself #80 griev$' =ty ye>s long ov] 8 w&]+ p4 ,among ! angels !re has be5 #8sil5ce1' :atev] t my/]i\s pause may mean1 j z !re is joy ov] "o s9n] t rep5te?2 ano!r ( my pro(-texts t1 to %[ t !y are all[$ to keep u 9 sight40 8,!n y ?9k1 y really ?9k1 t ,roy rememb]s & loves & takes c>e ( me2 t he has be5 li/5+1 p]haps1 & is--:y1 y don't ?9k he may be "h80 8,yes1 ,i d4 ,"h1 close beside y all ?is "t1 try+ to speak to y ?r\gh ! bless$ sun%9e & ! fl[]s1 try+ to help y1 & sure to love y1--"r "h1 de>4 ,i d n believe ,god means to s5d him away f y1 ei!r40 ,my he>t 0 too full to answ] h]4 ,see+ h[ x 01 %e slipp$ away1 &1 /roll+ out ( sight ) h] face to ! ea/]n hills1 left me alone4 ,& yet ,i did n seem alone4 ,! l[ bran*es swept ) a little s(t sigh across ! grave2 ! ,may-fl[]s wrapp$ me 9 ) fragrance ?ick z inc5se2 ! t9y sp>r[ turn$ h] s(t eyes at me ov] ! edge ( ! ne/1 & *irp$ cont5t$ly2 ! 8bless$ sun%9e0 talk$ ) me z x t\*$ ! edges ( ! ivy-leaves to fire4 ,i _c write x ev5 "h1 h[ ^! ?+s /ole into my he>t & hu%$ me4 ,if ,i _h se5 him /&+ by ! /a9less cross1 x w\ld n h fright5$ or surpris$ me4 ,!re--n dead or gone1 b !re--x helps me1 & makes me /rong6 8,mamie6 little ,mamie60 ,o ,roy1 ,i w try to be> x all1 if y w only /ay6 ,,viii4 ,may #bj4 ,! ne>] ! "t has come = ,aunt ,w9ifr$ to g1 ! m x has seem$ impossible to "p ) h]4 ,i h run away f ! ?\ght l a crav51 till %e made me face x ?is morn+1 by say+ decid$ly t %e %\ld g on ! fir/ ( ! week4 ,i dropp$ my sew+2 ! "w-basket tipp$ ov]1 & all my spools roll$ away "u ! *airs4 ,i _h a little "t to ?9k :ile ,i 0 pick+ !m up4 8,!re is ! re/ ( my visit at ,norwi* to be made1 y "k10 %e said1 8& :ile ,i am !re ,i %all =m "s def9ite plans = ! summ]2 ,i h h>dly decid$ :at1 yet4 ,i _h bett] leave "h by ! sev5 o'clock tra91 if su* an e>ly />t w n incommode y40 ,i w\nd up ! la/ spool1 & turn$ away to ! w9d[4 ,!re 0 a confus$1 dre>y sky ( scurry+ cl\ds1 & a cold w9d 0 bruis+ ! apple-buds4 ,i hate a cold w9d 9 ,may4 ,x made me *oke a little1 ?9k+ h[ ,i %\ld sit & li/5 to x aft] %e 0 gone1--( ! old1 blank1 com=tless days t mu/ come & g1--( :at %e _h br\ght1 & :at %e w\ld take away4 ,i 0 a bit fa9t1 ,i ?9k1 = a m9ute4 ,i _h n really ?\ght ! prospect ?r\gh1 be=e4 8,m>y10 %e said1 8:at's ! matt]8 ,come "h40 ,i w5t ov]1 & %e drew me into h] lap1 & ,i put my arms ab\t h] neck4 8,i c n be> x10 said ,i1 8& t is ! matt]40 ,%e smil$1 b h] smile fad$ :5 %e look$ at me4 ,& !n ,i told h]1 sobb+1 h[ x 02 t ,i c\ld n g into my future alone1--,i c\ld n d x6 t %e did n "k h[ weak ,i 01--& reckless1--& wick$2 t %e did n "k :at %e _h be5 to me4 ,i begg$ h] n to leave me4 ,i begg$ h] to /ay & help me be> my life4 8,my de>6 y are z bad z ,fai? :5 ,i put h] to b$ alone40 8,b10 ,i said1 8:5 ,fai? cries1 y g to h]1 y "k40 8,are y q 9 e>ne/1 ,m>y80 %e ask$1 aft] a pause4 8,y don't "k v mu* ab\t me1 aft] all1 & !re is ! *ild4 ,x is always an exp]im5t1 br++ two families into lifelong relations "u "o ro(4 ,if ,i c\ld ?9k x be/1 y might rep5t y\r b>ga940 8,i am n #8a family1'0 ,i said1 feebly try+ to laugh4 8,aunt ,w9ifr$1 if y & ,fai? only w make ?is y\r home1 ,i c nev] ?ank y1 nev]4 ,i %all be ent]ta9+ my good angels1 & t is ! :ole ( x40 8,i h _h "s ?\ght ( n go+ back10 %e said at la/1 9 a l[1 con/ra9$ voice1 z if %e 7 t\*+ some?+ t gave h] great pa91 8= ,fai?'s sake4 ,i %\ld l to educate h] 9 ,new ,engl&1 if--,i _h int5d$ if we /ay$ to r5t or buy a little home ( our own some:]e1 b ,i _h be5 putt+ (f a decision4 ,we are mo/ weak & mo/ selfi% sometimes :5 we ?9k ourselves /ronge/ & noble/1 ,m>y4 ,i love my husb&'s p4 ,i ?9k !y love me4 ,i 0 almo/ happy ) !m4 ,x seem$ z if ,i 7 c>ry+ on 8 "w = him4 ,t 0 s pleasant60 ,%e put me d[n out ( h] arms & walk$ across ! room4 8,i w ?9k ! matt] ov]10 %e said1 by & by1 9 h] natural tones1 8& let y "k to-night40 ,%e w5t away up /airs !n1 & ,i did n see h] aga9 until to-night4 ,i s5t ,fai? up ) h] d9n] & tea1 judg+ t %e w\ld r see ! *ild ?an me4 ,i obs]v$1 :5 ! di%es came d[n1 t %e _h t\*$ no?+ b a cup ( c(fee4 ,i began to und]/&1 z ,i sat alone 9 ! p>lor ?r\gh ! aft]noon1 h[ mu* ,i _h ask$ ( h]4 ,9 my selfi% di/ress at los+ h]1 ,i _h n ?\ght ( t4 ,faces t h] husb& lov$1 mead[s & hills & sunsets t he has wat*$1 ! home :]e 8 la/ /ep s\nd$ & 8 la/ ^w 0 spok51 ! grave :]e %e has laid him1--?is la/ m ?an all1--call aft] h]1 & cl+ to h] ) ye>n+ clos5ess4 ,to leave !m1 is to leave ! la/ fa9t %ad[ ( h] beautiful pa/4 ,x hurts1 b %e is too brave to cry out4 ,tea 0 ov]1 & ,fai? 9 b$1 b /ill %e did n come d[n4 ,i 0 sitt+ by ! w9d[1 wat*+ a little cresc5t moon climb ov] ! hills1 & wond]+ :e!r ,i _h bett] g up1 :5 %e came 9 & /ood beh9d me1 & said1 attempt+ to laugh3-- 8,v impolite 9 me to run (f s1 wasn't x8 ,c[>dly1 too1 ,i ?9k4 ,well1 ,m>y80 8,well1 ,auntie80 8,h y n rep5t$ y\r proposition yet80 8,y w\ld excel z an inquisitor1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!60 8,!n x %all be z y say2 z long z y want u y %all h u1--,fai? & me40 ,i turn$ to ?ank h]1 b c\ld n :5 ,i saw h] face4 ,x 0 v pale2 !re 0 some?+ inexpressibly sad ab\t h] m\?1 & h] eyelids droop$ heavily1 l "o we>y f a great /ruggle4 ,feel+ = ! mom5t guilty & a%am$ be=e h]1 z if ,i _h done h] wrong1 8,x is go+ to be v h>d = y10 ,i said4 8,nev] m9d ab\t t10 %e answ]$1 quickly4 8,we w n talk ab\t t4 ,i knew1 ?\gh ,i did n wi% to "k1 t x 0 be/ = ,fai?4 ,y\r h&s ab\t my neck h settl$ x4 ,:]e ! "w is1 !re ! labor] mu/ be4 ,x is q pla9 n[4 ,i h be5 talk+ x ov] ) !m all ! aft]noon2 x seems to be :at !y want40 8,) !m08 ,i />t$ at ! words2 :o _h be5 9 h] lonely *amb]8 ,ah1 x is simply real to h]4 ,:o1 inde$1 b h] ,savi\r & h] husb&8 ,%e did n seem incl9$ to talk1 & /ole away f me pres5tly1 & out ( doors2 %e 0 wrapp$ 9 h] blanket %awl1 & _h ?r[n a %imm]+ :ite hood ov] h] gray hair4 ,i wond]$ :]e %e c\ld be go+1 & sat /ill at ! w9d[ wat*+ h]4 ,%e op5$ & %ut ! gate s(tly2 &1 turn+ h] face t[>ds ! *ur*y>d1 walk$ up ! /reet & out ( my sight4 ,%e feels ne>] to him 9 ! re/+-place ( ! dead4 ,h] he>t cries aft] ! grave by :i* %e w nev] sit & weep aga92 on :i* %e w nev] plant ! roses any m4 ,z ,i sat wat*+ & ?9k+ ?is1 ! fa9t light /ruck h] slight figure & little %imm]+ hood aga91 & %e walk$ d[n ! /reet & 9 ) /eady /ep4 ,:5 %e came up & /ood beside me1 smil+1 ) ! light knitt$ ?+ ?r[n back on h] %\ld]s1 h] face seem$ to rise f x z f a sn[y cl\d2 & = h] look1--,i wi% ,raphael c\ld h _h x = "o ( 8 rapt ,madonnas4 8,n[1 ,m>y10 %e said1 ) ! sp>kle back aga9 9 h] voice1 8,i am ready to be ent]ta9+1 & promise n to play ! h]mit aga9 v soon4 ,%all ,i sit "h on ! s(a ) y8 ,yes1 my de>1 ,i am happy1 q happy40 ,s !n we took ?is new promise ( home t has come to make my life1 if n joyful1 some?+ less ?an desolate1 & analyz$ x 9 its practical be>+s4 ,:at a pity t all pretty dreams h to be analyz$6 ,i _h "s notion ab\t ?r[+ our little incomes into a jo9t family fund1 b %e put a veto to t2 ,i suppose because m9e is ! l>g]4 ,%e pref]s to take bo>d = h]self & ,fai?2 b1 if ,i "k myself1 %e %all nev] be suff]$ to h ! feel+ ( a bo>d]1 & ,i w make h] s mu* at home 9 my h\se t %e %all n rememb] t x is n h] own4 ,h] visit to ,norwi* %e has decid$ to put (f until ! autumn1 s t ,i %all h h] to myself undi/urb$ all summ]4 ,i h be5 look+ at ,roy's picture a long "t1 & wond]+ h[ he w\ld l ! new plan4 ,i said some?+ ( ! sort to h]4 8,:y put any #8w\ld' 9 t s5t5ce80 %e said1 smil+4 8,x belongs 9 ! pres5t t5se40 8,!n ,i am sure he likes x10 ,i answ]$1--8he likes x10 & ,i said ! words ov] till ,i 0 ready to cry = re/ 9 _! sweet s\nd4 #bb;d4 ,x is ,roy's bir?day4 ,b ,i h n spok5 ( x4 ,we us$ to make a great deal ( ^! little fe/ivals1--b x is ( no use to write ab\t t4 ,i am afraid ,i h be5 be>+ x v badly all day4 ,%e notic$ my face1 b said no?+ till to-night4 ,mrs4 ,bl& 0 d[n /airs1 & ,i _h come away alone up "h 9 ! d>k4 ,i he>d h] ask+ = me1 b w\ld n g d[n4 ,by & by ,aunt ,w9ifr$ knock$1 & ,i let h] 94 8,mrs4 ,bl& _c und]/& :y y don't see h]1 ,m>y10 %e said1 g5tly4 8,y "k y h n ?ank$ h] = ^? ,engli% violets t %e s5t ! o!r day4 ,i only ?\ght ,i w\ld rem9d y2 %e might feel a little pa9$40 8,i c't to-night1--n to-night1 ,aunt ,w9ifr$4 ,y mu/ excuse me to h] someh[4 ,i don't want to g d[n40 8,is x t y don't #8want to1' or is x t y c't80 %e said1 9 t g5tle1 mo!rly way ( h]s1 at :i* ,i c nev] take (f5ce4 8,m>y1 ,i wond] if ,roy w\ld n a little r t y w\ld g d[n80 ,x might h be5 ,roy himself :o spoke4 ,i w5t d[n4 ,,ix4 ,june #a4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ w5t to ! (fice ?is morn+1 & met ,dr4 ,bl&1 :o walk$ home ) h]4 ,he always likes to talk ) h]4 ,a woman :o kn[s some?+ ab\t fate1 free-w1 & =ekn[l$ge absolute1 :o is n ignorant ( politics1 & talks intellig5tly ( ,agassiz's late/ fossil1 :o c und]/& a ,g]man quotation1 & has he>d ( ,/rauss & ,ne&]1 :o c da% h] sprightl9ess ably aga9/ 8 old dry bones ( metaphysics & !ology1 yet nev] speak an acc5t above t ess5tially womanly voice ( h]s1 is1 ,i imag9e1 a ph5om5on 9 8 social exp]i5ce4 ,i 0 sitt+ at ! w9d[ :5 !y came up & /opp$ at ! gate4 ,dr4 ,bl& lift$ 8 hat to me 9 8 grave way1 talk+ ! :ile2 some:at eag]ly1 too1 ,i c\ld see4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ answ]$ him ) a peculi> smile & a few l[ words t ,i c\ld n he>4 8,b1 my de> madam10 he said1 8! glory ( ,god1 y see1 ! glory ( ,god is ! prim>y consid]ation40 8,b ! glory ( ,god involves ^! less] glories1 z a sid]eal sy/em1 ?\gh a spl5did :ole1 exi/s by ! multipli$ diff]+ ( "o /> f ano!r />4 ,ah1 ,dr4 ,bl&1 y make a gr& ab/raction out ( x1 b x makes me cold10--%e %iv]$1 half playfully1 half involunt>ily1--8x makes me cold4 ,i am v mu* alive & human2 & ,*ri/ 0 human ,god40 ,%e came 9 smil+ a little sadly1 & /ood by me1 wat*+ ! m9i/] walk ov] ! hill4 8,h[ mu* does t man love 8 wife & *ildr580 %e ask$ abruptly4 8,a good deal4 ,:y80 8,i am afraid t he w lose "o ( !m !n1 be=e _m m ye>s ( 8 life are pa/40 8,:at6 he hasn't be5 tell+ y t !y are consumptive or any?+ ( ! sort80 8,o de> me1 no10 ) a m]ry laugh :i* di$ quickly away3 8,i 0 only ?9k+1--!re is tr\ble 9 /ore = him2 "s int5se pa91--if he is capable ( int5se pa91--:i* %all %ake 8 cold1 smoo? !oriz+ to ! f\ndation4 ,he speaks a =eign tongue :5 he talks ( b]eavem5t1 ( dea?1 ( ! future life4 ,no argum5t c\ld conv9ce him ( t1 ?\gh1 :i* is ! wor/ ( x40 8,he mu/ ?9k y %ock+ly het]odox40 8,i don't d\bt x4 ,we _h a little talk ?is morn+1 & he reg>d$ me ) an expression ( m+l$ con/]nation & p]plexity t 0 curi\s4 ,he is a v good man4 ,he is n a /upid man4 ,i only wi% t he w\ld /op prea*+ & tea*+ ?+s t he kn[s no?+ ab\t4 8,he is only drift+ ) ! tide1 ?\gh10 %e add$1 89 8 views ( ?is matt]4 ,9 our recoil f ! mat]ialism ( ! ,romi% ,*ur*1 we h1 x seems to me1 ne>ly /r&$ ourselves on ! opposite %ore4 ,j z1 9 a reb\nd f ! _s :i* w\ld put our ,savi\r on a level ) ,buddha or ,mahomet1 we h be5 9 dang] ( =gett+ #8to beg9 z ! ,bible beg9s1' ) 8 humanity4 ,x is ! gr&eur ( inspiration1 t x kn[s h[ to balance tru?40 ,x _h be5 9 my m9d = sev]al days to ask ,aunt ,w9ifr$ some?+1 &1 feel+ 9 ! mood1 ,i made h] take (f h] ?+s & devote h]self to me4 ,my "q conc]n$ :at we call ! 8int]m$iate /ate40 8,i h be5 expect+ t10 %e said2 8:at ab\t x80 8,:at is x80 8,life & activity40 8,we d n g to sleep1 ( c\rse40 8,i believe t notion is ab\t explod$1 ?\gh cle> ?9k]s l ,:ately h appe>$ to advocate x4 ,:]e x orig9at$1 ,i d n "k1 unless f ! frequ5t comp>isons 9 ! ,scriptures ( dea? ) sleep1 :i* ref] solely1 ,i am conv9c$1 to ! condition ( body1 & :i* are vot$ d[n by an ov]:elm+ majority ( decid$ /atem5ts relative to ! consci\sness1 happ9ess1 & tangibility ( ! life into :i* we imm$iately pass40 8,x is int]m$iate1 9 "s s5se1 ,i suppose40 8,x waits betwe5 two o!r conditions1--yes2 ,i ?9k ! drift ( :at we are taught ab\t x leads to t conclusion4 ,i expect to become at once s9less1 b to h a broad] ,*ri/ian "* _m ye>s h5ce2 to be happy at once1 b to be happi] by & by2 to f9d 9 myself wond]ful new ta/es & capacities1 :i* are to be immeasurably ennobl$ & enl>g$ aft] ! ,resurrection1 :atev] t may mean40 8,:at does x mean80 8,i "k no m ?an y1 b y %all he> :at ,i ?9k1 pres5tly4 ,i 0 go+ to say t ?is seems to be pla9 en\gh 9 ! ,bible4 ,! angels took ,laz>us at once to ,abraham4 ,dives seems to h f\nd no int]val betwe5 dea? & consci\sness ( suff]+40 8,!y always tell y t t is only a p>able40 8,b x mu/ mean some?+4 ,no /ory 9 ! ,bible has be5 pull$ to pieces & twi/$ ab\t z t has be54 ,we are 9 dang] ( pull+ & twi/+ all s5se out ( x4 ,!n ,judas1 hav+ hang$ 8 wret*$ self1 w5t to 8 own place4 ,besides1 !re 0 ,*ri/'s promise to ! ?ief40 ,i told h] t ,i _h he>d ,dr4 ,bl& say t we c\ld n place mu* dep5d5ce on t passage1 because 8,p>adise0 did n necess>ily mean heav54 8,b x meant liv+1 ?9k+1 enjoy+2 = #8,to-day ?\ %alt be ) me4' ,paul's beautiful p]plex$ rev]y1 h[ev]1 w\ld be en\gh if x /ood alone2 = he did n "k :e!r he w\ld r /ay 9 ?is _w1 or dep>t & be ) ,*ri/1 :i* is f> bett]4 ,) ,*ri/1 y see2 & ,8 ?ree my/]i\s days1 :i* typify our int]m$iate /ate1 7 ov] !n1 & he _h asc5d$ to 8 ,fa!r4 ,w\ld x be #8f> bett]' ei!r to leave ?is actual tangible life ?robb+ ) hopes & passions1 to leave its busy1 ,*ri/-l work+1 its quiet joys1 its v sorr[s :i* are ne> & human1 = a nap ( sev]al ages1 or ev5 = a vague1 lazy1 half-alive1 disembodi$ exi/5ce80 8,disembodi$8 ,i suppos$1 ( c\rse1 t x 0 disembodi$40 8,i d n ?9k s4 ,& t br+s u to ! ,resurrection4 ,all ! t5d5cy ( ,revelation is to %[ t an embodi$ /ate is sup]ior to a disembodi$ "o4 ,yet c]ta9ly we :o love ,god are promis$ t dea? w lead u into a condition :i* %all h ! advantage ( ?is3 = ! good apo/le to die #80 ga94' ,i don't believe1 = in/ance1 t ,adam & ,eve h be5 w&]+ ab\t 9 a mi/y condition all ^! ?\s&s ( ye>s4 ,i suspect t we h "s sort ( body imm$iately aft] pass+ out ( ?is1 b t !re is to come a my/]i\s *ange1 equival5t1 p]haps1 to a re-embodim5t1 :5 our capacities = action w be greatly improv$1 & t 9 "s mann] ?is new =m w be connect$ ) ?is #8g>m5t by ! s\l laid by4'0 8,deacon ,quirk expects to rise 9 8 own entire1 orig9al body1 aft] x has la9 9 ! ,fir/ ,*ur* cemet]y a prop] numb] ( ye>s1 "u a black slate head/one1 adorn$ by a will[1 & su* a #8*]ubim' z t poor boy %ot1--by ! way1 if ,i've laugh$ at t /ory once1 ,i h fifty times40 8,p]haps ,deacon ,quirk w\ld admire a "w ( art t ,i f\nd /[$ away on ! top ( y\r ,uncle ,calv9's bookcases4 ,x 0 an old woodcut--nobody kn[s h[ old--( an int]e/+ skeleton ris+ f 8 grave1 &1 9 a sprightly & mode/ mann]1 draw+ on 8 sk91 :ile ,gabriel1 ) apoplectic *eeks1 feet upp]mo/ 9 ! air1 0 bl[+ a good-siz$ t9 trumpet 9 8 e>6 8,no2 "s ( ! popul> notions ( resurrection are simple physiological impossibilities1 f causes #8too t$i\s to specify4' ,imag9e1 = in/ance1 ! resurrection ( two ,hott5tots1 "o ( :om has happ5$ to make a d9n] ( ! o!r "s f9e day4 ,a little complication !re6 ,or picture ! t\*+ sc5e1 :5 t devot$ husb&1 ,k+ ,mausolas1 ^: wid[ _h him burn$ & ate ! a%es1 %\ld feel mov$ to in/itute a se>* = 8 body6 ,x is no wond] t ! infidel argum5t has ! be/ ( x1 :5 we attempt to en=ce a natural impossibility4 ,x is wor? :ile to rememb] t ,paul expressly /at$ t we %all n rise 9 our entire e>?ly bodies4 ,! simile :i* he us$ is ! se$ s[n1 dy+ 91 & m+l+ )1 ! gr\nd4 ,h[ _m ( its orig9al p>ticles are f\nd 9 ! full-gr[n corn80 8,yet y believe t some?+ belong+ to ?is body is pres]v$ = ! completion ( ano!r80 8,c]ta9ly4 ,i accept ,god's /atem5t ab\t x1 :i* is z pla9 z words c make a /atem5t4 ,i d n "k1 & ,i d n c>e to "k1 h[ x is to be effect$4 ,god w n be at a loss = a way1 any m ?an he is at a loss = a way to make 8 fields blossom e spr+4 ,= aught we "k1 "s invisible comp\nd ( an annihilat$ body may hov]1 by a div9e decree1 ar\nd ! site ( dea? till x is want$1--suffici5t to pres]ve id5tity z /rictly z a body c ev] be said to pres]ve x2 & /rang] ?+s h happ5$4 ,y rememb] ! old ,mohamm$an belief 9 ! "o little bone :i* is imp]i%able4 ,pr(4 ,bu%'s idea ( our triune exi/5ce is sugge/ive1 = a notion4 ,he believ$1 y "k1 t x takes a mat]ial body1 a spiritual body1 & a s\l1 to make a man4 ,! spiritual body is enclos$ )9 ! mat]ial1 ! s\l )9 ! spiritual4 ,dea? is simply ! slipp+ (f ( ! out] body1 z a husk slips (f f its k]nel4 ,! dea?less frame /&s ready !n = ! s\l's untrammell$ occupation4 ,b x is a wa/e ( "t to speculate ov] su* useless fancies1 :ile s _m rema9 t w vitally affect our happ9ess40 ,x is s+ul>2 b ,i nev] gave a s]i\s ?\ght--& ,i h done "s ?9k+ ab\t o!r matt]s--to my heav5ly body1 till t mom5t1 :ile ,i sat li/5+ to h]4 ,9 fact1 till ,roy w5t1 ! ,future 0 a mis]able1 my/]i\s blank1 to be drawn on & on 9 et]nal & joyless monotony1 & to :i*1 at times1 annihilation seem$ pref]able4 ,i rememb]1 :5 ,i 0 a *ild1 ask+ fa!r once1 if ,i 7 s good t ,i _h to g to heav51 :e!r1 aft] a hundr$ ye>s1 ,god w\ld n let me 8die out40 ,m or less ( ! disposition ( t same desp]ate little s9n] ,i suspect has always clung to me4 ,s ,i ask$ ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 9 "s p]plexity1 :at %e suppos$ our bodies w\ld be l4 8,x mu/ be ne>ly all #8suppose1'0 %e said1 8= we are n[h]e def9itely told4 ,b ?is is c]ta94 ,!y w be z real z ^!40 8,b ^! y c see1 y c t\*40 8,:at w\ld be ! use ( hav+ a body t y c't see & t\*8 ,a body is a body1 n a _s4 ,:y %\ld y n1 hav+ se5 ,roy's old smile & he>d 8 own voice1 clasp 8 h& aga91 & feel 8 kiss on y\r happy lips8 8,x is really amus+10 %e cont9u$1 8to sum up ! notions t good p--excell5t p--ev5 ?9k+ p--h ( ! heav5ly body4 ,vague visions ( float+ ab\t 9 ! cl\ds1 ( balanc+--) a :ite robe on1 p]haps--9 /iff r[s ab\t a ?rone1 l ! angels 9 ! old pictures1 conv]g+ to an apex1 or rang$ 9 semi-circles l s _m m>bles4 ,murillo has "o *>m+ exception4 ,i always take a secret delight 9 t little *]ub ( 81 kick+ ! cl\ds1 9 ! "r-h& upp] corn] ( ! ,immaculate ,conception2 he seems to be hav+ a good "t ( x1 9 g5u9e baby-fa%ion4 ,! tru? is1 t ! ord9>y idea1 if sift$ accurately1 r$uces our et]nal p]sonality to--gas4 8,isaac ,taylor holds1 t1 z f> z ! ab/ract idea ( _s is conc]n$1 x may j z reasonably be granite z e!r4 8,mrs4 ,*>les says a pretty ?+ ab\t ?is4 ,%e ?9ks ^! #8sup]-spiritualiz$ angels' v #8unsatisfactory' be+s1 & t #8! he>t returns ) lov+ ob/9acy to ! "y m5 9 long :ite g>m5ts' :o sat wait+ 9 ! sepul*re4 8,"h aga9 ,i cl+ to my conjecture ab\t ! ^w #8angel'2 = !n we %\ld le>n emphatically some?+ ab\t our future selves4 8#8,z ! angels 9 heav51' or #8equal unto ! angels1' we are told 9 ano!r place1--t may mean simply :at x says4 ,at lea/1 if we are to resemble !m 9 ! p>ticul> respect ( :i* ! words 7 spok51--& t "o ( ! mo/ important :i* c\ld well be select$1--x is n unreasonable to inf] t we %all resemble !m 9 o!rs4 #8,9 ! ,resurrection1' by ! way1 means1 9 t connection & 9 _m o!rs1 simply future /ate ( exi/5ce1 )\t any ref]5ce to ! "t at :i* ! great bodily *ange is to come4 8#8,b ?is is a digression1' z ! noveli/s say4 ,i 0 go+ to say1 t x bewild]s me to conjecture :]e /ud5ts ( ! ,bible h discov]$ ! usual foggy nons5se ab\t ! corporeity ( heav54 8,if !re is any?+ laid d[n 9 pla9 /atem5t1 devoid ( metaphor or p>able1 simple & unequivocal1 x is ! def9ite contradiction ( all t4 ,paul1 9 8 preface to t sublime apo/rophe to dea?1 repeats & reit]ates x1 le/ we %\ld make a mi/ake 9 8 mean+4 8#8,!re are cele/ial bodies4' #8,x is rais$ a spiritual body4' #8,!re is a spiritual body4' #8,x is rais$ 9 incorruption4' #8,x is rais$ 9 glory4' #8,x is rais$ 9 p[]4' ,moses1 too1 :5 he came to ! transfigur$ m\nt 9 glory1 _h z real a body z :5 he w5t into ! lonely m\nt to die40 8,b !y w be diff]5t f ^!80 8,! glory ( ! t]re/rial is "o1 ! glory ( ! cele/ial ano!r4 ,take away s9 & sickness & mis]y1 & t ( itself w\ld make diff]5ce en\gh40 8,y d n suppose t we %all look z we look n[80 8,i c]ta9ly d4 ,at lea/1 ,i ?9k x m ?an possible t ! #8human =m div9e1' or some?+ l x1 is to be reta9$4 ,n only f ! fact t ris5 ,elijah bore x2 & ,moses1 :o1 if he _h n pass$ ?r\gh 8 resurrection1 does n seem to h look$ diff]5t f ! o!r1--,i h to use ^? two poor prophets on all occasions1 b1 z we are told ( !m nei!r by p>able nor picture1 !y are important1--& t angels nev] appe>$ 9 any o!r1 b because1 9 s9less ,ed51 ,god *ose x = ,adam & ,eve4 ,:at came 9 unm>r$ beauty direct f ,8 h& _c be unwor?y ( ,8 o!r ,p>adise #8beyond ! />s4' ,x w\ld *ime 9 pleasantly1 too1 ) ! idea ( ,r$emption1 t our v bodies1 free f all ! di/ortion ( guilt1 %all return to some?+ ak9 to ! pure ideal 9 :i* ,he m\ld$ !m4 ,!n !re is ano!r reason1 & /rong]40 8,:at is t80 8,! human =m has be5 borne & dignifi$ =ev] by ,*ri/4 ,&1 fur!r ?an t1 ,he asc5d$ to ,8 ,fa!r 9 x1 & lives !re 9 x z human ,god to-day40 ,i _h nev] ?\ght ( t1 & said s4 8,yes1 ) ! v feet :i* trod ! du/y road to ,emmaus2 ! v w\nd$ h&s :i* ,?omas t\*$1 believ+2 ! v lips :i* ate ( ! broil$ fi% & honeycomb2 ! v voice :i* murmur$ #8,m>y6' 9 ! g>d51 & :i* told h] t ,he asc5d$ unto ,8 ,fa!r & h] ,fa!r1 to ,8 ,god & h] ,god1 ,he #80 p>t$ f !m1' & 0 #8receiv$ up into heav54' ,8 dea? & resurrection /& =ev] ! great prototype ( ours4 ,o!rwise1 :at is ! mean+ ( su* /atem5ts z ^!3 #8,:5 ,he %all appe>1 we %all be l ,him'2 #8,! fir/ man 7,adam7 is ( ! e>?2 ! second man is ! ,"l4 ,z we h borne ! image ( ! e>?y1 we %all also be> ! image ( ! heav5ly'8 ,& :at ( ?is1 :5 we are told t our #8vile bodies1' be+ *ang$1 %all be fa%ion$ #8l unto ,8 glori\s body'80 ,i ask$ h] if %e inf]r$ f t1 t we %\ld h j su* bodies z ! fre$om f pa9 & s9 w\ld make ( ^!4 8,fle% & blood _c inh]it ! k+dom10 %e said4 8,!re is no escap+ t1 ev5 if ,i _h ! smalle/ desire to escape x1 :i* ,i h n4 ,:atev] is ess5tially e>?ly & tempor>y 9 ! arrangem5ts ( ?is _w w be out ( place & unnecess>y !re4 ,e>?ly & tempor>y1 fle% & blood c]ta9ly are40 8,*ri/ said1 #8,a _s ha? n fle% & bones1 z ye see me h4'0 8,a _s ha? n2 & :o ev] said t x did8 ,8 body _h some?+ t appe>$ l !m1 c]ta9ly4 ,t passage1 by ! way1 has l$ "s +5i\s writ] on ! ,*emi/ry ( ,heav5 to inf] t our bodies !re w be l ^!1 m9us blood6 ,i don't propose to sp5d my "t ov] su* inve/igations4 ,summ+ up ! mean+ ( ! /ory ( ^? la/ days be=e ! ,asc5sion1 & grant+ ! %ade ( my/]y :i* hangs ov] !m1 ,i ga!r ?is1--t ! spiritual body is real1 is tangible1 is visible1 is human1 b t #8we %all be *ang$4' ,"s indef9able b ?or\gh *ange _h come ov] ,him4 ,he c\ld )draw ,himself f ! recognition ( ,m>y1 & f ! disciples1 ^: #8eyes 7 hold51' z x pleas$ ,him4 ,he came & w5t ?r\gh b>r$ & bolt$ doors4 ,he appe>$ sudd5ly 9 a c]ta9 place1 )\t s\nd ( foot/ep or flutt] ( g>m5t to ann\nce ,8 approa*4 ,he vani%$1 & 0 n1 l a cl\d4 ,new & wond]ful p[]s _h be5 giv5 to ,him1 ( :i*1 probably1 ,8 little bewild]$ gr\p ( fri5ds saw b a few illu/rations40 8,& ,he 0 yet man80 8,he 0 ,jesus ( ,naz>e? until ! sorr[ful drama ( human life t ,he _h tak5 ^u ,himself 0 ?or\ghly f9i%$1 f mang] to sepul*re1 & f sepul*re to ! "r h& ( ,8 ,fa!r40 8,i l to wond]10 %e said1 pres5tly1 8:at we are go+ to look l & be l4 ,ourselves1 9 ! fir/ place4 #8,x is ,i ,myself1' ,*ri/ said4 ,!n to be p]fectly well1 nev] a s5se ( pa9 or weakness1--imag9e h[ mu* solid com=t1 if "o _h no o!r1 9 be+ =ev] rid ( all ! ills t fle% is heir to6 ,beautiful1 too1 ,i suppose we %all be1 e "o4 ,h y nev] _h t come ov] y1 ) a ?rill ( compassionate ?ankfulness1 :5 y h se5 a poor girl %r9k+1 z only girls c %r9k1 "u ! life-long affliction ( a m>r$ face or =m8 ,! loss or pres5ce ( beauty is n z slight a deprivation or bless+ z ! morali/s w\ld make x out4 ,y\r gr&mo!r1 :o 0 ! mo/ beautiful woman ,i ev] saw1 ! belle ( ! c\nty all h] "y days1 & ! model = arti/s' fancy sket*+ ev5 9 h] old ones1 z mode/ z a violet & z hone/ z ! sun%9e1 us$ to h ! prettie/ little way :5 we girls 7 9 our te5s1 & %e ?\ght t we mu/ be lectur$ a bit on y\?ful vanity1 ( add+1 9 h] quiet voice1 smoo?+ d[n h] black silk apron z %e spoke1 #8,b /ill x is a ?+ to be ?ankful =1 my de>1 to h a comely c\nt5ance4' 8,b to return to ! track & our future bodies4 ,we %all f9d !m va/ly conv5i5t1 und\bt$ly1 ) p[]s ( :i* !re is no dream+4 ,p]haps !y w be s "o ) ! s\l t to w w be to d1--h9drance out ( ! "q4 ,i1 = in/ance1 sitt+ "h by y1 & ?9k+ t ,i %\ld l to be 9 ,kansas1 w\ld be !re4 ,!re is an int]e/+ bit ( a h9t 9 ,daniel ab\t ,gabriel1 :o1 #8be+ caus$ to fly swiftly1 t\*$ him ab\t ! "t ( ! ev5+ oblation4'0 8,b d y n make a v mat]ial k9d ( heav5 out ( su* suppositions80 8,x dep5ds ^u :at y mean by #8mat]ial4' ,! t]m does n1 to my ?9k+1 imply degradation1 except s f> z x is associat$ ) s94 ,dr4 ,*alm]s has ! "r ( x1 :5 he talks ab\t #8spiritual mat]ialism4' ,he says 9 8 s]mon on ! ,new ,heav5s & ,e>?1--:i*1 by ! way1 y %\ld read1 & f :i* ,i wi% a few m ( our prea*]s w\ld le>n some?+1--t we #8=get t on ! bir? ( mat]ialism1 :5 x /ood out 9 ! fre%ness ( ^? glories :i* ! great ,ar*itect ( ,nature _h impress$ ^u x1 t !n ! 8morn+ />s sang toge!r1 & all ! sons ( ,god %\t$ = joy40' ,i d n believe 9 a gross heav51 b ,i believe 9 a reasonable "o40 #d?4 ,we h be5 devot+ ourselves to fem99e vanities all day out 9 ! or*>d4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ has be5 mak+ h] summ] bonnet1 & ,i "s l95 coll>s4 ,i saw1 ?\gh %e said no?+1 t %e ?\ght ! crpe a little gloomy1 & ,i am go+ to we> ^! 9 ! morn+s to please h]4 ,%e has an accumulation ( "w on h&1 & 9 ! aft]noon ,i (f]$ to tuck a little dress = ,fai?1--! prettie/ p9k b>ge affair pale z a blu% rose1 & ab\t z delicate4 ,fai?1 :o _h be5 mak+ mud-pies 9 ! swamp1 & 0 spatt]$ ) black peat f curls to /ock+s1 look$ on approv+ly1 & want$ x to we> on a flag-root exp$ition to-morr[4 ,x seem$ to d me good to d some?+ = somebody aft] all ?is lonely &--,i suspect--selfi% idl5ess4 #f?4 ,i read a little ( ,dr4 ,*alm]s to-day1 & w5t laugh+ to ,aunt ,w9ifr$ ) ! fir/ s5t5ce4 8,!re is a limit to ! revelations ( ! ,bible ab\t futurity1 & x 7 a m5tal or spiritual trespass to g beyond x40 8,ah6 b10 %e said1 8look a little f>!r d[n40 ,& ,i read1 8,b :ile we attempt n to be #8wise above t :i* is writt51' we %\ld attempt1 & t mo/ /udi\sly1 to be wise up to t :i* is writt540 #h?4 ,x occurr$ to me to-day1 t x 0 a noticeable fact1 t1 among all ! visits ( angels to ?is _w ( :i* we are told1 no "o seems to h discov]$ 9 any ! pres5ce ( a dead fri5d4 ,if r$eem$ m5 are subject to ! same laws z !y1 :y did su* a ?+ nev] happ58 ,i ask$ ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 & %e said t ! "q rem9d$ h] ( ,/4 ,augu/9e's lonely cry ?irty ye>s aft] ! dea? ( ,monica3 8,ah1 ! dead d n come back2 =1 _h x be5 possible1 !re has n be5 a night :5 ,i %\ld n h se5 my "m60 ,!re seem$ to be two reasons1 %e said1 :y !re %\ld be no exceptions to ! law ( sil5ce impos$ betwe5 u & ^? :o h left u2 "o ( :i* 01 t we %\ld be ov]p[]$ ) famili> curiosity ab\t !m1 :i* nobody seems to h d>$ to express 9 ! pres5ce ( angels1 & ! secrets ( _! life ,god has decre$ t x is unlawful to utt]4 8,b ,laz>us1 & ,jairus's little daught]1 & ! dead rais$ at ! ,crucifixion1--:at ( !m80 ,i ask$4 8,i _c help conjectur+ t !y 7 suff]$ to =get _! glimpse ( spiritual life10 %e said4 8,s9ce _! resurrection 0 a miracle1 !re might be a miracle ?r\gh\t4 ,at lea/1 _! lips mu/ h be5 seal$1 = n a ^w ( _! te/imony has be5 sav$4 ,:5 ,laz>us d9$ ) ,simon1 aft] he _h come back to life1--& ( t fea/ we h a m9ute acc\nt 91 ,i believe1 e ,gospel1--nobody seems to h ask$1 or he to h answ]$1 any que/ions ab\t x4 8,! o!r reason is a sorr[fully suffici5t "o4 ,x is t e lo/ d>l+ has n gone to heav54 ,( all ! m]cies t our ,fa!r has giv51 ?is bless$ unc]ta9ty1 ?is long unbrok5 sil5ce1 may be ! de>e/4 ,bitt]ly h>d = y & me1 b :at are ?\s&s l y & me weigh$ aga9/ "o :o /&s beside a hopeless grave8 ,?9k a m9ute :at m\rn]s !re h be51 & :om !y h m\rn$6 ,pond] "o su* solit>y in/ance z t ( ,vittoria ,colonna1 wond]+1 ?r\gh h] wid[$ ye>s1 if %e c\ld ev] be #8good en\gh' to jo9 wick$ ,pesc>a 9 ano!r _w6 ,?is poor e>? holds--,god only kn[s h[ _m1 ,god make !m v few6--,vittorias4 ,ah1 ,m>y1 :at "r h we to compla980 #i?4 ,to-night ,aunt ,w9ifr$ _h call]s1--,mrs4 ,quirk & 7,o ,hom] ari/ocracy67 ! but*]'s wife1--& x fell to my lot to put ,fai? to b$4 ,! little maid5 s]i\sly demurr$4 ,c\s9 ,m>y 0 v good1--,o yes1 %e 0 good en\gh1--b h] mamma 0 a great deal good]2 & :y c\ldn't little peoples sit up till n9e o'clock z well z big peoples1 %e %\ld l to "k6 ,f9ally1 %e came to ! graci\s conclusion t p]haps ,i'd d1 made me c>ry h] all ! way up /airs1 & dropp$1 l a little lump ( lead1 half asleep1 on my %\ld]1 be=e two buttons 7 unfa/5$4 ,feel+ "u "s sort ( !ological obligation to he> h] say h] pray]s1 ,i pull$ h] curls a little till %e awoke1 & w5t ?r\gh ) 8,n[ ,i lay me d[n to sleep1 ,i pway ve ,"l10 triumphantly4 ,i suppos$ t 0 ! end1 b x seems t %e has be5 also taught ! ,"l's ,pray]1 :i* %e gave me promptly to und]/&4 8,o1 see "h6 ,t isn't all4 ,i c say ,our ,fa!r1 & y've got to help me a lot60 ,?is v soon became a self-evid5t proposition2 b by our unit$ ef=ts we manag$1 aft] tribulations manifold1 to arrive successfully at 8,= ev] 'n' ev] 'n' ev] 'n' ,a-m540 8,de> me10 %e said1 jump+ up ) a yawn1 8,i ?9k t's a dreadful long-tail$ pray]1--don't y1 ,c\s9 ,m>y80 8,n[ ,i mu/ kiss mamma good night10 %e ann\nc$1 :5 %e 0 tuck$ up at la/4 8,b mamma kiss$ y good night be=e y came up40 8,o1 s %e did4 ,yes1 ,i 'memb]4 ,well1 x's papa ,i've got to kiss4 ,i knew !re 0 somebody40 ,i look$ at h] 9 p]plexity4 8,:y1 !re60 %e said1 89 ! upp] draw]1--my pretty little papa 9 a purple frame4 ,don't y "k80 ,i w5t to ! bureau-draw]1 & f\nd 9 a case ( velvet a small ivory pa9t+ ( h] fa!r4 ,?is ,i br\ght1 wond]+1 & ! *ild took x rev]5tly & kiss$ ! pictur$ lips4 8,fai?10 ,i said1 z ,i laid x s(tly back1 8d y always d ?is80 8,d :at8 ,kiss papa good night8 ,o yes1 ,i've done t ev] s9ce ,i 0 a little girl1 y "k4 ,i guess ,i've always kiss$ him pretty mu*4 ,:5 ,i'm a naughty girl he feels real sorry4 ,he's gone to heav54 ,i l him4 ,o yes1 & !n1 :5 ,i'm ?r\gh kiss+1 mamma kisses him too40 ,x4 ,june #aa4 ,i 0 9 h] room ?is aft]noon :ile %e 0 dress+4 ,i l to wat* h] bru% h] beautiful gray hair2 x q alt]s h] face to h x d[n2 x seems to %r9e h] 9 l a cl\d1 & ! outl9es ( h] *eeks r\nd out1 & %e gr[s "y4 8,i us$ to be pr\d ( my hair :5 ,i 0 a girl10 %e said ) a slight blu%1 z %e saw me look+ at h]2 8x 0 all ,i _h to be va9 (1 & ,i made ! mo/ ( x4 ,ah well6 ,i 0 d>k-hair$ ?ree ye>s ago4 8,o y regul> old woman60 %e add$1 smil+ at h]self 9 ! mirror1 z %e twi/$ ! silv] coils fla%+ ?r\gh h] f+]s4 8,well1 :5 ,i am 9 heav51 ,i %all h my pretty br[n hair aga940 ,x seem$ odd en\gh to he> t2 !n ! next m9ute x did n seem odd at all1 b ! mo/ natural ?+ 9 ! _w4 ,june #ad4 ,%e said no?+ to me ab\t ! anniv]s>y1 &1 ?\gh x has be5 9 my ?\ghts all ! "t1 ,i said no?+ to h]4 ,i ?\ght t %e w\ld %ut h]self up = ! day1 & 0 r surpris$ t %e 0 ab\t z usual1 busily at "w1 *att+ ) me1 & play+ ) ,fai?4 ,j aft] tea1 %e w5t away alone = a "t1 & came back a little quiet1 b t 0 all4 ,i 0 = "s reason impress$ ) ! feel+ t %e kept ! day 9 memory1 n s mu* z ! day ( h] m\rn+1 z ( 8 release4 ,long+ to d some?+ = h]1 yet n kn[+ :at to d1 ,i w5t into ! g>d5 :ile %e 0 away1 &1 f9d+ "s c>nations1 t %one l />s 9 ! dy+ light1 ,i ga!r$ !m all1 & took !m to h] room1 &1 fill+ my t9y porphyry vase1 left !m on ! bracket1 "u ! photograph ( ,uncle ,=cey! t hangs by ! w9d[4 ,:5 %e f\nd !m1 %e call$ me1 & kiss$ me4 8,?ank y1 de>10 %e said1 8& ?ank ,god too1 ,m>y1 = me4 ,t he %\ld h be5 happy1--happy & out ( pa91 = ?ree long beautiful ye>s6 ,o1 ?9k ( t60 ,:5 ,i 0 9 h] room ) ! fl[]s1 ,i pass$ ! table on :i* h] little ,bible lay op54 ,a m>k ( ri* ribbon--a black ribbon--fell across ! pages2 x bore 9 silv] text ^! words3-- 8,?\ %alt h no o!r gods be=e me40 #bj?4 8,i ?ank !e1 my ,god1 ! riv] ( ,le! may inde$ fl[ ?r\gh ! ,elysian ,fields1--x does n wat] ! ,*ri/ian's ,p>adise40 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ 0 say+ t ov] to h]self 9 a dreamy und]tone ?is morn+1 & ,i happ5$ to he> h]4 8,j a quotation1 de>10 %e said1 smil+1 9 answ] to my look ( inquiry1 8,i c\ldn't orig9ate s pretty a ?+4 ,isn't x pretty80 8,v2 b ,i am n sure t ,i und]/& x40 8,y ?\ght t =getfulness w\ld be necess>y to happ9ess80 8,:y1--yes2 z f> z ,i _h ev] ?\ght ab\t x2 t is1 aft] our la/ ties ) ?is _w are brok54 ,x does n seem to me t ,i c\ld be happy to rememb] all t ,i h suff]$ & all t ,i h s9n$ "h40 8,b ! la/ ( all ! s9s w be z if x _h nev] be54 ,*ri/ takes c>e ( t4 ,no %ad[ ( a s5se ( guilt c dog y1 or affect y\r relations to ,him or y\r o!r fri5ds4 ,! la/ pa9 borne1 ! la/ te>1 ! la/ sigh1 ! la/ lonely h\r1 ! la/ unsatisfi$ dream1 =ev] gone by2 :y %\ld n ! dead pa/ bury its dead80 8,!n :y rememb] x80 8#8,save b to swell ! s5se ( be+ ble/4' ,besides1 =getfulness ( ! disagreeable ?+s ( ?is life implies =getfulness ( ! pleasant ones4 ,!y are all tangl$ toge!r40 8,to be sure4 ,i don't "k t ,i %\ld l t40 8,( c\rse y w\ldn't4 ,imag9e y\rself 9 a /ate ( be+ :]e y & ,roy _h lo/ y\r pa/2 all t y _h borne & enjoy$1 & hop$ & fe>$1 toge!r2 ! pretty little memories ( y\r babyhood1 & fir/ #8half-days' at s*ool1 :5 he us$ to trudge along beside y1--little fell[6 h[ _m times ,i h wat*$ him6--hold+ y tight by ! apron-sleeve or hat-/r+1 or bits ( fat f+]s1 le/ y %\ld run away or fall4 ,!n ! old ,academy pranks1 out ( :i* y us$ to help ea* o!r2 8 little *ivalry & eld]-bro!rly advice2 ! mis*ief 9 8 eyes2 "s ( ! #8,sunday-night talks'2 ! fir/ novel t y read & dream$ ov] toge!r2 ! college /ories2 ! *ats ov] ! corn-popp] by firelight2 ! e>lie/1 e>ne/ look+-on into life toge!r1 its temptations conqu]$1 its lessons le>n$1 its disappo9tm5ts fac$ toge!r1--always y two1--w\ld y l to1 are y likely to1 =get all ?is8 8,roy might z well be n ,roy1 b a /range angel1 if y %\ld4 ,heav5 w be n less heav51 b m1 = ?is pleasant rememb]+4 ,s _m o!r & great] & happi] memories w fill up ! "t !n1 t aft] ye>s ^! ?+s may--probably w--seem small] ?an x seems to u n[ !y c ev] be2 b !y w1 ,i ?9k1 be always de>2 j z we look back to our baby-selves ) a pity+ sort ( fondness1 &1 ?\gh ! little creatures are ( small en\gh use to u n[1 yet we l to keep good fri5ds ) !m = old times' sake4 8,i h no d\bt t y & ,i %all sit d[n "s summ] aft]noon 9 heav5 & talk ov] :at we h be5 say+ to-day1 & laugh p]haps at all ! poor little dreams we h be5 dream+ ( :at has n ent]$ into ! he>t ( man4 ,y see x is c]ta9 to be s mu* bett] ?an any?+ t ,i c ?9k (2 :i* is ! com=t ( x4 ,& ,roy--0 8,yes2 "s m ab\t ,roy1 please40 8,suppos+ he 7 to come "r into ! room n[1--& ,i slipp$ out1--& y _h him all to y\rself aga9--,n[1 de>1 don't cry1 b wait a m9ute60 ,h] c>ess+ h& fell on my hair4 8,i did n mean to hurt y1 b to say t y\r fir/ talk ) him1 aft] y /& face to face1 may be l t4 8,rememb]+ ?is life is go+ to help u amaz+ly1 ,i fancy1 to appreciate ! next10 %e add$1 by way ( p]iod4 8,*ri/ seems to h ?\ght s1 :5 he call$ to ! m9ds ( ^? happy p :at1 9 t unconsci\s m9i/]+ ( l[ly fai? :i* may nev] reap its %eaf 9 ! field :]e ! se$ 0 s[n1 !y _h n _h ! com=t ( f9d+ out be=e1--#8,i 0 sick & 9 prison1 & ye visit$ me4' ,& to come aga9 to ,abraham 9 ! p>able1 did he n say1 #8,son1 rememb] t ?\ 9 ?y lifetime had/ good ?+s & ,laz>us evil'80 8,i wond] :at x is go+ to look l10 ,i said1 z soon z ,i c\ld put poor ,dives out ( my m9d4 8,heav58 ,eye ha? n se51 b ,i h my fancies4 ,i ?9k ,i want "s m\nta9s1 & v _m trees40 8,m\nta9s & trees60 8,yes2 m\nta9s z we see !m at sunset & sunrise1 or :5 ! maples are on fire & !re are cl\ds en\gh to make great purple %ad[s *ase ea* o!r into lakes ( light1 ov] ! tops & d[n ! sides1--! ideal ( m\nta9s :i* we cat* 9 r>e glimpses1 z we cat* ! ideal ( ev]y?+4 ,trees z !y look :5 ! w9d cooes ?r\gh !m on a ,june aft]noon2 elms or l9d5s or p9es z cool z fro/1 & yell[ sun%9e trickl+ ?r\gh on moss4 ,trees 9 a =e/ s ?ick t x %uts out ! _w1 & y walk l "o 9 a sanctu>y4 ,trees pi]c$ by />s1 & trees 9 a ba? ( summ] moons to :i* ! ?rill ( #8,love's "y dream' %all cl+ =ev]--,b !re is no end to "o's fancies4 ,"s wat]1 too1 ,i w\ld l40 8,!re %all be no m sea40 8,p]haps n2 ?\gh1 z ! sea is ! great type ( sep>ation & ( de/ruction1 t may be only figurative4 ,b ,i'm n p>ticul> ab\t ! sea1 if ,i c h riv]s & little brooks1 & f\nta9s ( j ! "r sort2 ! f\nta9s ( ?is _w don't please me g5]ally4 ,i want a little brook to sit & s+ to ,fai? by4 ,o1 ,i =got6 %e w be a l>ge girl probably1 won't %e80 8,nev] too l>ge to l to he> y\r "m s+1 w y1 ,fai?80 8,o no10 said ,fai?1 :o bobb$ 9 & out aga9 l a can>y1 j !n1--8n unless ,i'm dreadful big1 ) long dresses & a wat]fall1 y "k4 ,i s'pose1 maybe1 ,i'd h to h little girls myself to s+ to1 !n4 ,i hope !y'll behave bett]'n ,m>y ,ann does4 ,%e's lo/ h] o!r arm1 & all h] sawdu/ is j runn+ out4 ,besides1 ,kitty ?\ght %e 0 a m\se1 & ran d[n cell> ) h]1 & %e's all %ook5 up1 someh[4 ,%e don't look v pretty40 8,fl[]s1 too10 h] "m w5t on1 aft] ! int]ruption4 8,n all am>an? & asphodel1 b ( v>iety & color & beauty unimag9$2 glorifi$ lilies ( ! valley1 heav5ly tea-rose buds1 & spiritual h>ebells among !m4 ,o1 h[ y\r poor "m us$ to say1--y "k fl[]s 7 h] poetry1--com+ 9 weak & worn f h] g>d5 9 ! e>ly "p ( h] sickness1 h&s & lap & basket full3 #8,w9ifr$1 if ,i only suppos$ ,i c\ld h "s fl[]s 9 heav5 ,i %\ldn't be half s afraid to g6' ,i _h n ?\ght z mu* ab\t ^! ?+s !n z ,i h n[1 or ,i %\ld h kn[n bett] h[ to answ] h]4 ,i %\ld l1 if ,i _h my *oice1 to h day-lilies & c>nations fre% "u my w9d[s all ! "t40 8,"u y\r w9d[s80 8,yes4 ,i hope to h a home ( my own40 8,n a h\se80 8,some?+ n unlike x4 ,9 ! ,fa!r's h\se are _m mansions4 ,sometimes ,i fancy t ^? words h a lit]al mean+ :i* ! simple m5 :o he>d !m may h und]/ood bett] ?an we1 & t ,*ri/ is truly #8prep>+' my home = me4 ,he mu/ be !re1 too1 y see1--,i mean ,john40 ,i believe t gave me "s ?\ghts t ,i ought n to h1 & s ,i made no reply4 8,if we h trees & m\nta9s & fl[]s & books10 %e w5t on1 smil+1 8,i don't see :y n h h\ses z well4 ,inde$1 !y seem to me z supposable z any?+ c be :i* is guess-"w at ! be/2 = :at a homeless1 desolate sort ( s5sation x gives "o to ?9k ( p w&]+ ov] ! #8sweet fields beyond ! flood' )\t a local habitation & a "n4 ,:at c\ld be done ) ! millions :o1 f ! "t ( ,adam1 h be5 ga!r+ !re1 unless !y liv$ "u ! conditions ( organiz$ society8 ,organiz$ society involves homes1 n unlike ! homes ( ?is _w4 8,:at o!r arrangem5t c\ld be z pleasant1 or c\ld be pleasant at all8 ,rob]tson's def9ition ( a *ur* exactly fits4 #8,m unit$ 9 ea* o!r1 because m unit$ 9 ,god4' ,a happy home is ! happie/ ?+ 9 ! _w4 ,i d n see :y x %\ld n be 9 any _w4 ,i d n believe t all ! little t5d]nesses ( family ties are ?r[n by & lo/ ) ?is life4 ,9 fact1 ,m>y1 ,i _c ?9k t any?+ :i* has 9 x ! elem5ts ( p]man5cy is to be lo/1 b s94 ,et]nity _c be--x _c be ! great blank ocean :i* mo/ ( u h someh[ or o!r be5 br\ght up to feel t x is1 :i* %all swall[ up1 9 a pitiless1 glorifi$ way1 all ! little brooks ( our delight4 ,s ,i expect to h my beautiful home1 & my husb&1 & ,fai?1 z ,i _h !m "h2 ) _m diff]5ces & great ones1 b m9e j ! same4 ,unless ,fai? goes into a home ( h] own1--! little creature6 ,i suppose %e c't always be a baby4 8,d y rememb] :at a pretty little wi/ful way ,*>les ,lamb has ( wond]+ ab\t all ?is8 8#8,%all ,i enjoy fri5d%ips !re1 want+ ! smil+ indications :i* po9t me to !m "h1--! 8sweet assurance ( a look08 ,sun1 & sky1 & breeze1 & solit>y walks1 & summ] holidays1 & ! gre5ness ( fields1 & ! delici\s juices ( meats & fi%1 & society1 444 & c&le-light & fireside conv]sations1 & innoc5t vanities1 & je/s1 & irony itself1--d ^! ?+s g out ) life8'0 8,n[1 ,aunt ,w9ifr$60 ,i said1 sitt+ up /raight1 8:at am ,i to d ) ^! beautiful h]esies8 ,if ,deacon ,quirk %\ld he>60 8,i d n see :]e ! h]esy lies4 ,z ,i hold fa/ by ! ,bible1 ,i _c be 9 mu* dang]40 8,b y don't glean y\r conjectures f ! ,bible40 8,i conjecture no?+ t ! ,bible contradicts4 ,i d n believe z tru? indisputable any?+ t ! ,bible does n give me4 ,b ,i reason f analogy ab\t ?is1 z we all d ab\t o!r matt]s4 ,:y %\ld we n h pretty ?+s 9 heav58 ,if ?is #8bright & beautiful economy' ( skies & riv]s1 ( grass & sun%9e1 ( hills & valleys1 is n too good = su* a place z ?is _w1 w !re be any less v>iety ( ! bright & beautiful 9 ! next8 ,!re is no reason = suppos+ t ! voice ( ,god w speak to u 9 ?und]-claps1 or t x w n take to itself ! ?\s& g5tle1 sugge/ive tongues ( a nature built on ! ru9s ( ?is1 an unm>r$ sy/em ( b5efic5ce4 8,!re is a pretty argum5t 9 ! fact t j su* sunrises1 su* op5+ ( buds1 su* fragrant dropp+ ( fruit1 su* bells 9 ! brooks1 su* dreams at twilight1 & su* hu% ( />s1 7 fit = ,adam & ,eve1 made holy man & woman4 ,h[ d we "k t ! ab/ract idea ( a heav5 ne$s imply any?+ v mu* unlike ,ed58 ,!re is "s reason z well z poetry 9 ! conception ( a #8,p>adise ,rega9$4' ,a #8new e>? :]e9 dwelle? righte\sness4'0 8,b h[ f> is x safe to tru/ to ?is k9d ( argum5t80 8,bi%op ,butl] w answ] y bett] ?an ,i4 ,let me see1--,isaac ,taylor says some?+ ab\t t40 ,%e w5t to ! bookcase = 8 8,physical ,!ory ( ,ano!r ,life10 &1 f9d+ h] place1 %[$ me ?is passage3-- 8,if ?is (t5 repeat$ argum5t f analogy is to be t]m$1 z to ! conclusions x involves1 a conjecture m]ely1 we ought !n to ab&on altoge!r e k9d ( ab/ract reason+2 nor w x be easy aft]w>ds to make good any pr9ciple ( natural !ology4 ,9 tru?1 ! v basis ( reason+ is %ak5 by a scepticism s sweep+ z ?is40 ,& 9 ano!r place3-- 8,none ne$ fe> ! consequ5ces ( su* endeavors :o h well le>n$ ! prime pr9ciple ( s\nd philosophy1 namely1 n to all[ ! mo/ plausible & pleas+ conjectures to unsettle our convictions ( tru? 444 re/+ ^u positive evid5ce4 ,if !re be any :o fr[n ^u all su* attempts1 444 !y w\ld d well to consid]1 t al?\gh individually1 & f ! con/itution ( _! m9ds1 !y may f9d x v easy to ab/a9 f e pa? ( excursive m$itation1 x is n s ) o!rs :o almo/ irresi/ibly are borne =w>d to ! va/ field ( univ]sal contemplation1--a field f :i* ! human m9d is n to be b>r$1 & :i* is bett] tak5 possession ( by ^? :o rev]5tly b[ to ! au?ority ( ,*ri/ianity1 ?an left op5 to impiety40 8,v good10 ,i said1 lay+ d[n ! book4 8,b ab\t ^? trees & h\ses1 & ! re/ ( y\r #8pretty ?+s'8 ,are !y to be l ^!80 8,i don't suppose t ! h\ses w be made ( oak & p9e & nail$ toge!r1 = in/ance4 ,b ,i hope = heav5ly types ( nature & ( art4 ,some?+ t w be to u !n :at ^! are n[4 ,t is ! am\nt ( x4 ,!y may be z #8spiritual' z y please2 !y w answ] all ! purpose to u4 ,z we are n spiritual be+s yet1 h[ev]1 ,i am "u ! necessity ( call+ !m by _! e>?ly names4 ,y rememb] ,plato's old !ory1 t ! ideal ( ev]y?+ exi/s et]nally 9 ! m9d ( ,god4 ,if t is s1--& ,i d n see h[ x c be o!rwise1--!n :atev] ( ,god is express$ to u 9 ?is _w by fl[]1 or blade ( grass1 or human face1 :y %\ld n t be express$ =ev] 9 heav5 by some?+ correspond+ to fl[]1 or grass1 or human face8 ,i d n mean t ! heav5ly creation w be less real ?an ^!1 b m s4 ,_! #8spirituality is ( su* a sort t our g>d5s & =e/s & homes are b %ad[s ( !m4 8,y don't "k h[ ,i amuse myself at night ?9k+ ?is all ov] be=e ,i g to sleep2 wond]+ :at "o ?+ w be l1 & ano!r ?+2 plann+ :at ,i %\ld l2 ?9k+ t ,john has se5 x all1 & wond]+ if he is laugh+ at me because ,i "k s little ab\t x6 ,i tell y1 ,m>y1 !re's a #8deal o' com=t 9 't' z ,phbe says ab\t h] cup ( tea40 ,july #e4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ has be5 hunt+ up a ,sunday s*ool class = h]self & "o = me2 :i* is a v5ture t ,i nev] 0 p]suad$ into und]tak+ be=e4 ,%e h]self is fa/ becom+ acqua9t$ ) ! poor] p ( ! t[n4 ,i f9d t %e is a ?or\ghly busy ,*ri/ian1 ) a c]ta9 8week-day hol9ess0 t is /rong & refre%+1 l a we/ w9d4 ,*ur*-go+1 & conv]sations on heav51 by no means exhau/ h] vitality4 ,%e told me a pretty ?+ ab\t h] class2 x happ5$ ! fir/ ,sabba? t %e took x4 ,h] s*ol>s are "y girls ( f f\rte5 to eighte5 ye>s ( age1 *ildr5 ( *ur*-memb]s1 mo/ ( !m4 ,%e seem$ to h tak5 _! he>ts by /orm4 ,%e says1 8,!y treat$ me v prettily1 & made me love !m at once40 ,clo ,b5tley is 9 ! class2 ,clo is a pretty1 s(t-ey$ little creature1 ) a %r9k+ m\?1 & an absorb+ passion = music1 :i* %e has always be5 too poor to gratify4 ,i suspect t h] tea*] w make a pet ( h]4 ,%e says t 9 ! c\rse ( h] lesson1 or1 9 h] words1-- 8,:ile we 7 all talk+ toge!r1 somebody pull$ my sleeve1 & !re 0 ,clo 9 ! corn]1 ) h] great br[n eyes fix$ on me4 #8,see "h6' %e said 9 a :isp]1 #8,i c't be good6 ,i w\ld be good if ,i c\ld only j h a piano6' #8,well1 ,clo1' ,i said1 #8if y w be a good girl1 & g to heav51 ,i ?9k y w h a piano !re1 & play j z mu* z y c>e to4' 8,y ought to h se5 ! look ! *ild gave me6 ,delight & fe> & incr$ul\s bewild]m5t tumbl$ ov] ea* o!r1 z if ,i _h propos$ tak+ h] into a =bidd5 fairy-l&4 8#8,:y1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!6 ,:y1 !y won't let anybody h a piano up !re6 n 9 heav58' 8,i laid d[n ! "q-book1 & ask$ :at k9d ( place %e suppos$ t heav5 0 go+ to be4 8#8,o1' %e said1 ) a dre>y sigh1 #8,i nev] ?9k ab\t x :5 ,i c help x4 ,i suppose we %all all j /& !re6' 8,& y80 ,i ask$ ( ! next1 a bright girl ) snapp+ eyes4 8#8,d y want me to talk good1 or tell ! tru?8' %e answ]$ me4 ,hav+ be5 giv5 to und]/& t %e 0 n expect$ to #8talk good' 9 my class1 %e said1 ) an approv+1 decid$ nod3 #8,well1 !n6 ,i don't ?9k x's go+ to be any?+ nice anyway4 ,no1 ,i don't6 ,i told my la/ tea*] s1 & %e look$ j z %ock$1 & said ,i nev] %\ld g !re z long z ,i felt s4 ,t made me mad1 & ,i told h] ,i didn't see b ,i %\ld be z well (f 9 "o place z ano!r1 except = ! fire4' 8,a sil5t girl 9 ! corn] began at ?is po9t to look int]e/$4 #8,i always suppos$1' said %e1 #8t y j float$ r\nd 9 heav5--y "k--all toge!r--some?+ l ju-jube pa/e6' 8,:]eupon ,i %ut ! "q-book entirely1 & took ! talk+ to myself = a :ile4 8#8,b ,i nev] ?\ght x 0 any?+ l t1' int]rupt$ little ,clo1 pres5tly1 h] *eeks flu%$ ) excitem5t4 #8,:y1 ,i %\ld l to g1 if x is l t6 ,i nev] suppos$ p talk$1 unless x 0 ab\t conv]t+ p1 & say+ y\r pray]s1 & all t4' 8,n[1 w]5't ^? ideas,b allur+ & com=t+ = "y girls 9 ! blossom ( w>m human life8 ,!y 7 try+ ) all _! little he>ts to #8be good1' too1 "s ( !m1 & _h all ( !m be5 to *ur* & ,sunday s*ool all _! lives4 ,nev]1 nev]1 if ,jesus ,*ri/ _h be5 ,tea*] & ,prea*] to !m1 w\ld ,he h pictur$ _! bless$ endless ye>s ) ,him 9 su* bleak colors4 ,!y are n ! hues ( ,8 ,bible40 ,b ,facts4 ,,xi4 ,july #af4 ,we took a trip to-day to ,ea/ ,hom] = butt]4 ,nei!r angels nor pr9cipalities c\ld conv9ce ,phbe t any butt] b 8,/eph5 ,david's0 might1 c\ld1 w\ld1 or %\ld be us$ 9 ?is family4 ,s to ,mr4 ,/eph5 ,david's1 a j\rney ( f\r miles1 ,i meekly betake myself at /at$ p]iods 9 ! dome/ic ye>1 burd5$ ) directions ab\t firk9s & half-firk9s1 p\nds & half-p\nds1 salt & no salt1 *urn+ & 8work+-ov]02 "s ( :i* ,i rememb] & "s ( :i* ,i =get1 & to all ( :i* ,phbe consid]s me sublimely incapable ( att5d+4 ,! aft]noon 0 p]fect1 & we took ?+s leisurely1 lett+ ! re9s sw+ f ! hook1--an arrangem5t to :i* ,mr4 ,tripp's old gray 0 entirely agreeable1--&1 lean+ back aga9/ ! buggy-cu%ions1 w\nd along among ! /rong1 sweet p9e-smells1 lazily talk+ or lazily sil5t1 z ! _s mov$1 & z only two p :o ?or\ghly und]/& & l ea* o!r c talk or be sil5t4 ,we rode home by ,deacon ,quirk's1 &1 z we jogg$ by1 !re broke ^u our view a bloom+ vision ( ! ,deacon himself1 at "w 9 8 potato-field ) 8 son & heir1 :o1 by ! way1 has ! reputation ( be+ ! mo/ awkw>d fell[ 9 ! t[n%ip4 ,! amiable *ur*-(fic]1 hav+ caught sight ( u1 left 8 "w1 & com+ up to ! f5ce 89 ru/ic mode/y unsc>$10 guiltless ( coat or ve/1 8 calico %irt-sleeves roll$ up to 8 huge br[n elb[s1 & 8 du/y /raw hat flapp+ 9 ! w9d1 rapp$ on ! rails ) 8 hoe-h&le z a sign = u to /op4 8,are we 9 a hurry80 ,i ask$1 "u my brea?4 8,o no10 said ,aunt ,w9ifr$4 8,he has some:at to say unto me1 ,i see by 8 eyes4 ,i h be5 expect+ x4 ,let u he> him out4 ,good aft]noon1 ,deacon ,quirk40 8,good aft]noon1 ma'am4 ,pleasant day80 ,%e ass5t$ to ! /atem5t1 novel z x 04 8,a v pleasant day10 repeat$ ! ,deacon1 look+ = ! fir/ "t 9 8 life1 to my k1 a little undecid$ z to :at he %\ld say next4 8,rem>kable f9e day = rid+4 ,9 a hurry80 8,well1 n especially4 ,did y want any?+ ( me80 8,y're a *ur*-memb]1 ar5't y1 ma'am80 ask$ ! ,deacon1 abruptly4 8,i am40 8,or?odox80 8,o yes10 ) a smile4 8,y _h a reason = ask+80 8,yes1 ma'am2 ,i _h1 z y might say1 a reason = ask+40 ,! ,deacon laid 8 hoe on ! top ( ! f5ce1 & 8 arms across x1 & pu%$ 8 hat on ! back ( 8 head 9 a becom+ & argum5tative mann]4 8,i hope y don't consid] t ,i'm tak+ lib]ties if ,i h a little religi\s conv]sation ) y1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!40 8,x is no (f5ce to me if y are10 repli$ ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 ) a tw9kle 9 h] eye2 b bo? tw9kle & words glanc$ (f f ! ,deacon4 8,my wife 0 tell+ me la/ night10 he began1 ) an om9\s c\gh1 8t h] niece1 ,clotildy ,b5tley--,moses ,b5tley's daught]1 y "k1 & "o ( y\r s5tim5tal girls t reads poetry1 & is easy en\gh l$ away by va9 delusions & false doctr9e--0 "u y\r *>ge at ,sunday-s*ool4 ,n[ ,clotildy is intimate ) my wife1--:o is h] aunt on h] "m's side1 & always tries to d h] duty by h]1--& %e told ,mrs4 ,quirk :at y'd be5 a say+ to ^? "y m9ds on ! ,sabba?40 ,he /opp$1 & obs]v$ h] impressively1 z if he expect$ to see ! guilty blu%es ( arraign$ h]esy cov]+ h] amus$1 att5tive face4 8,i hope y w p>don me1 ma'am1 = repeat+ x1 b ,clotildy said t y told h] %e %\ld h a pianna 9 heav54 ,a pianna1 ma'am60 8,i c]ta9ly did10 %e said quietly4 8,y did8 ,well1 n[1 ,i didn't believe x1 nor ,i w\ldn't believe x1 till ,i'd ask$ y6 ,i ?\ght x w>n't m ?an fair t ,i %\ld ask y1 be=e repeat+ x1 y "k4 ,x's none ( my bus9ess1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 any m ?an t ,i take a g5]al int]e/ 9 ! spiritooal welf>e ( ! y\? ( our ,sabba? s*ool2 b ,i am v mu* surpris$6 ,i am v mu* surpris$60 8,i am surpris$ t y %\ld be1 ,deacon ,quirk4 ,d y believe t ,god w\ld take a poor little disappo9t$ girl l ,clo1 :o has be5 all h] life "h =bidd5 ! enjoym5t ( a p]fectly innoc5t ta/e1 & keep h] 9 ,8 happy heav5 et]nal ye>s1 )\t f9d+ means to gratify x8 ,i don't40 8,i tell ,clotildy ,i don't see :at %e wants ( a pianna-=te10 obs]v$ 8,clotildy's0 uncle1 s5t5ti\sly4 8,%e c g to s+9' s*ool1 & %e's be5 9 ! *oir ev] s9ce ,i h1 :i* is six ye>s come ,*ri/mas4 ,besides1 ,i don't ?9k x's our place to speckylate on ! my/]ies ( ! heav5ly sp]e4 ,my wife told h] t %e mu/n't believe any su* ?+s z t1 :i* 7 v irrev]5t1 & contr>y to ! ,scriptures1 & ,clo w5t home cry+4 ,%e said3 #8,x 0 s pretty to ?9k ab\t4' ,x is v easy to impress ^! delusions ( fancy on ! "y40 8,pray1 ,deacon ,quirk10 said ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 lean+ e>ne/ly =w>d 9 ! c>riage1 8w y tell me :at !re is #8irrev]5t' or #8unscriptural' 9 ! idea t !re w be in/rum5tal music 9 heav580 8,well10 repli$ ! ,deacon aft] "s consid]ation1 8come to ?9k ( x1 !re w be h>ps1 ,i suppose4 ,h>p]s h>p+ ) _! h>ps on ! sea ( glass4 ,b ,i don't believe !re w be any piannas4 ,x's a dreadfully mat]ial way to talk ab\t t glori\s _w1 to my ?9k+40 8,if y c\ld %[ me :]e9 a h>p is less #8mat]ial' ?an a piano1 p]haps ,i %\ld agree ) y40 ,deacon ,quirk look$ r nonpluss$ = a m9ute4 8,:at d y suppose p w d 9 heav580 %e ask$ aga94 8,glorify ,god10 said ! ,deacon1 promptly recov]+ himself1--8glorify ,god1 & s+ ,wor?y ! ,lamb6 ,we %all be clo!d 9 :ite robes ) palms 9 our h&s1 & b[ be=e ! ,great ,:ite ,?rone4 ,we %all be engag$ 9 su* employm5ts z befit s9less creatures 9 a spiritooal /ate ( exi/5ce40 8,n[1 ,deacon ,quirk10 repli$ ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 look+ him ov] f head to foot1--old /raw hat1 calico %irt1 blue ov]alls1 & c[-hide boots1 co>se1 "w-worn h&s1 & 8n>r[ =ehead braid$ tight10--8j imag9e y\rself1 w y8 tak5 out ( ?is life ?is m9ute1 z y /& "h 9 y\r potato-field 7! ,deacon *ang$ 8 position ) evid5t uneas9ess71 & put into ano!r life1--n anybody else1 b y\rself1 j z y left ?is spot1--& d y hone/ly ?9k t y %\ld be happy to g & put on a :ite dress & /& /ill 9 a *oir ) a gre5 bran* 9 "o h& & a s++-book 9 ! o!r1 & s+ & pray & nev] d any?+ b s+ & pray1 ?is ye>1 next ye>1 & e ye> =ev]80 8,we-ell10 he repli$1 surpris$ into a mom5t>y fla% ( c>nal c&or1 8,i c't say t ,i %\ldn't wond] = a m9ute1 maybe1 h[ ,ab9adab w\ld ev] get ^? potatoes ho$ )\t me4--,ab9adab6 g back to y\r "w60 ,! graceful ,ab9adab _h saunt]$ up dur+ ! conv]sation1 & 0 li/5+1 hoe 9 h& & m\? op54 ,he slunk away :5 8 fa!r spoke1 b came up aga9 pres5tly on tiptoe :5 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ 0 talk+4 ,!re 0 an int]e/$1 intellig5t look ab\t 8 squ>e & pitifully emb>rass$ face1 :i* attract$ my notice4 8,b !n10 proce$$ ! ,deacon1 re-en=c$ by ! sudd5 recollection ( 8 duties z a fa!r & a *ur*-memb]1 8t c\ldn't be a p]man5t /ate ( feel+1 y "k4 ,i expect to be trans=m$ by ! r5ew+ ( my m9d to appreciate ! glories ( ! ,new ,j]usalem1 desc5d+ out ( heav5 f ,god4 ,t's :at ,i expect1 m>m4 ,n[ ,i he]d t y told ,mrs4 ,bl&1 or t ,m>y told h]1 or t %e he]d x someway1 t y said y suppos$ !re 7 trees & fl[]s & h\ses & su* 9 heav54 ,i told my wife ,i ?\ght y\r deceas$ husb& 0 a ,congregational m9i/]1 & ,i didn't believe y ev] said x2 b t's ! rumor40 ,)\t deem+ x necess>y to ref] to h] 8deceas$ husb&10 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ repli$ t 8rumor0 0 q "r4 8,well60 said ! ,deacon1 ) sev]e significance1 8,i believe 9 a spiritooal heav540 ,i look$ him ov] aga91--hat1 hoe1 %irt1 & all2 scann$ 8 ob/9ate old face ) its /upid1 good eyes & animal m\?4 ,!n ,i glanc$ at ,aunt ,w9ifr$ z %e lean$ =w>d 9 ! aft]noon light2 ! :ite1 f9ely cut woman1 ) h] s]5e smile & rapt1 sa9tly eyes1--e in* ( h]1 body & s\l1 ref9$ n only by bir? & tra9+1 b by ! long ne>ness ( h] he>t to ,*ri/4 8,( ! e>?1 e>?y4 ,( ! heav5s1 heav5ly40 ,! two faces %>p5$ !mselves into two types4 ,:i*1 inde$1 0 ! bett] able to compreh5d a 8spiritooal heav508 8,x is di/9ctly /at$ 9 ! ,bible1 by :i* ,i suppose we %all bo? agree10 said ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 g5tly1 8t !re %all be a new e>?1 z well z new heav5s4 ,x is noticeable1 also1 t ! descriptions ( heav51 al?\gh a s]ies ( metaphors1 are yet s+ul>ly e>?like & tangible ones4 ,are fl[]s & skies & trees less #8spiritual' ?an :ite dresses & little palm-bran*es8 ,9 fact1 :]e are y go+ to get y\r little bran*es )\t trees8 ,:at c\ld well be m sugge/ive ( mat]ial modes ( liv+1 & mat]ial indu/ry1 ?an a city m>k$ into /reets & alleys1 pav$ solidly ) gold1 wall$ 9 & b>r$ ) gates ^: jewels are nam$ & c\nt$1 & ^: v l5g? & bread? are measur$ ) a cele/ial surveyor's *a980 8,b ,i ?9k we'd ought to /ick to :at ! ,bible says10 answ]$ ! ,deacon1 /olidly4 8,if x says gold5 cities & doesn't say fl[]s1 x means cities & doesn't mean fl[]s4 ,i d>e say y're a good woman1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 if y d hold su* oncommon doctr9e1 & ,i don't d\bt y mean well en\gh1 b ,i don't ?9k t we ought to tr\ble ourselves ab\t ^! my/]ies ( a future /ate4 ,i'm will+ to tru/ !m to ,god60 ,! evasion ( a fair argum5t by ?is self-suffici5t spasm ( piety 0 m ?an ,i c\ld calmly /&1 & ,i indulg$ 9 a subdu$ explosion4--,auntie says x s\nd$ l ,f\r? ( ,july crack]s t\*$ (f "u a wet b>rel4 8,deacon ,quirk6 d y mean to imply t ,mrs4 ,=cey! does n tru/ x to ,god8 ,! tru? is1 t ! exi/5ce ( su* a _w z heav5 is a fact f :i* y %r9k4 ,y "k y d6 ,%e has tw5ty ?\ghts ab\t x :]e y h "o2 yet y set up a claim to sup]ior spirituality60 8,m>y1 ,m>y1 y are a little excit$2 ,i fe>4 ,god is a _s1 & !y t wor%ip him mu/ wor%ip him 9 _s & 9 tru?60 ,! relevancy ( ?is la/1 ,i confess myself incapable ( p]ceiv+1 b ! good man seem$ to be conv9c$ t he _h made a po9t1 & we rode (f leav+ him "u t blissful delusion4 8,if he w]5't a good man60 ,i sigh$4 8,b he is1 & ,i mu/ respect him = x40 8,( c\rse y mu/2 nor is he to blame t he is n>r[ & r\gh4 ,i %\ld sc>cely h argu$ z s]i\sly z ,i did ) him1 b t1 z ,i fancy him to be a repres5tative ( a class1 ,i want$ to try an exp]im5t4 ,isn't he amus+1 ?\gh8 ,he is precisely "o ( ,mr4 ,/op=d ,brooke's m5 #8:o c und]/& no?+ :i* is orig9al4'0 8,are !re1 or are !re n1 m ( su* m5 9 our *ur* ?an 9 o!rs80 8,n m proportionately to numb]s4 ,b ,i w\ld n h !m ?9n$ out4 ,! bett] we d ,*ri/'s "w1 ! m ( un$ucat$1 neglect$1 or debas$ m9d w be drawn to try & s]ve ,him ) u4 ,he s\ght out ! lame1 ! halt1 ! bl9d1 ! /upid1 ! crot*ety1 ! r\gh1 z well z ! equable1 ! intellig5t1 ! ref9$4 ,untra9$ ,*ri/ians 9 any sect w always h _! ecc5tricities & _! littl5esses1 at :i* ! silk5 judgm5t ( high places1 :]e ! ,c>p5t]'s ,son w\ld be a /range gue/1 w sne]4 ,t nev] tr\bles me4 ,x only raises ! "q 9 my m9d :e!r cultivat$ ,*ri/ians g5]ally are suffici5tly cultivators1 scatt]+ _! gold5 gifts on wayside gr\nd40 8,n[ take ,deacon ,quirk10 ,i sugge/$1 :5 we _h ridd5 along a little way "u ! l[1 gre5 ar*es ( ! elms1 8& put him into heav5 z y propos$1 j z he is1 & :at is he go+ to d ) himself8 ,he c dig potatoes & sell !m )\t *eat+1 & give g5]\sly ( _! proce$s to =eign missions2 b take away 8 potatoes1 & :at w\ld become ( him8 ,i don't "k a human be+ m incapacitat$ to live 9 su* a heav5 z he believes 940 8,v true1 & a good1 common-s5se argum5t aga9/ su* a heav54 ,i don't pr(ess to surmise :at w be f\nd = him to d1 beyond ?is1--t x w be "s v palpable "w t he c und]/&4 ,h[ d we "k t he w\ld n be appo9t$ gu>dian ( 8 poor son "h1 to :om ,i suspect he has n be5 all t fa!r might be 9 ?is life1 & t he w\ld n h 8 body z well z 8 s\l to look aft]1 8 f>m z well z 8 pray]s8 to him might be committ$ ! *>ge ( ! dews & ! ra9s & ! hundr$ unse5 influ5ces t are at "w on ?is v potato-field40 8,b :5 8 son has gone 9 8 turn1 & we h all gone1 & !re are no m potato-fields8 ,an ,et]nity rema9s40 8,y don't "k t !re w\ldn't be any potato-fields2 !re may be "s k9d ( agricultural employm5ts ev5 !n4 ,to :omsoev] a tal5t is giv51 x w be giv5 him :]e) to use x4 ,besides1 by t "t ! good ,deacon w be imm5sely *ang$4 ,i suppose t ! simple transition ( dea?1 :i* rids him ( s9 & ( grossness1 w n only wond]fully ref9e him1 b w h its effect ^u 8 intellect40 8,if a tal5t is giv51 use w be f\nd = x8 ,tell me "s m ab\t t40 8,i fancy _m ?+s ab\t x2 b ( c\rse c feel sure ( only ! f\ndation pr9ciple4 ,?is life is a great s*ool-h\se4 ,! wise ,tea*] tra9s 9 u su* gifts z1 if we graduate honorably1 w be ( mo/ s]vice 9 ! p]fect manhood & womanhood t come aft]4 ,he sees1 z we d n1 t a p[] is sometimes be/ tra9$ by repression4 #8,we d n always lose an advantage :5 we disp5se ) x1' ,goe! says4 ,b ! suffocat$ lives1 l little ,clo's !re1 make my he>t a*e sometimes4 ,i take com=t 9 ?9k+ h[ !y w bud & blossom up 9 ! air1 by & by4 ,!re are a great _m ( !m4 ,we tread !m und]foot 9 our c>eless /epp+ n[ & !n1 & d n see t !y h n ! ela/icity to rise f our t\*4 #8,heav5 may be a place = ^? :o fail$ on e>?1' ! ,c\ntry ,p>son says40 8,!n !re w be air en\gh = all80 8,= all2 = ^? :o h _h a little bloom 9 ?is _w1 z well4 ,i suppose ! arti/ w pa9t 8 pictures1 ! poet s+ 8 happy songs1 ! orator & au?or w n f9d _! tal5ts hidd5 9 ! et]nal d>kness ( a grave2 ! sculptor w use 8 beautiful gift 9 ! m\ld+ ( "s heav5ly ,c>r>a2 #8z well ! s+] z ! play] on in/rum5ts %all be !re4' ,*ri/ said a ?+ t has gr[n on me ) new mean+s lately3--#8,he t lose? 8 life = my sake %all f9d x4' ,x1 y see1--n ano!r man's life1 n a /range comp\nd ( p[]s & pleasures1 b 8 own famili> aspirations4 ,s we %all be/ #8glorify ,god1' n less !re ?an "h1 by do+ x 9 ! peculi> way t ,he himself m>k$ out = u4 ,b--ah1 ,m>y1 y see x is only ! life #8lo/' = ,8 sake t %all be s beautifully f\nd4 ,a great man nev] goes to heav5 because he is great4 ,he mu/ g1 z ! meane/ ( 8 fell[-s9n]s g1 ) face t[>ds ,calv>y1 & e gold5 treasure us$ = love ( ,him :o %[$ him h[40 8,:at w\ld ! old ,pagans--& mod]n ones1 too1 = t matt]--say to t8 ,wasn't x ,tacitus :o ann\nc$ x z 8 belief1 t immortality 0 grant$ z a special gift to a few sup]ior m9ds8 ,= ! p :o p]si/$ 9 mak+ up ! re/ ( ! _w1 poor ?+s6 z x c\ld be ( little consequ5ce :at became ( !m1 !y might die z ! brute die?40 8,x seems an unbe>able ?+ to me sometimes10 %e w5t on1 8! wreck ( a gift$ s\l4 ,a man :o c be1 if he *ooses1 z mu* bett] & happi] ?an ! re/ ( u z ! ocean reflects m sky ?an a mill-pond1 mu/ also be1 if he *ooses1 m wick$ & m mis]able4 ,x takes long] to rea* sea-%ells ?an riv]-pebbles4 ,i am compell$ to ?9k1 also1 t intellectual rank mu/ 9 heav5 be> "s proportion to goodness4 ,!re are la/ & !re are fir/ t %all h *ang$ places4 ,z ! tree falle?1 !re %all x lie1 & ) t am\nt ( hol9ess ( :i* a man leaves ?is life ! possessor1 he mu/ />t 9 ano!r4 ,i h se5 great ?9k]s1 #8=emo/ m5' 9 sci5ce1 9 !ology1 9 ! arts1 :o1 ,i solemnly believe1 w turn aside 9 heav51--& w turn humbly & he>tily1--to let c]ta9 day-labor]s & paup]s :om ,i h kn[n g up be=e !m z k+s & prie/s unto ,god40 8,i believe t4 ,b ,i 0 go+ to ask1--= poor creatures l y\r respect$ niece1 :o hasn't a tal5t1 nor ev5 a s+le absorb+ ta/e1 = "o ?+ above ano!r ?+1--:at %all %e d80 8,:atev] %e like? be/2 some?+ v useful1 my de>1 don't be afraid1 & v pleasant4 ,some?+1 too1 = :i* ?is life has fitt$ y2 ?\gh y may n und]/& h[ t c be1 bett] ?an did poor ,he9e on 8 #8matrazz5-gruft1' read+ all ! books t treat$ ( 8 disease4 #8,b :at good ?is read+ is to d me ,i don't "k1' he said1 #8except t x w qualify me to give lectures 9 heav5 on ! ignorance ( doctors on e>? ab\t diseases ( ! sp9al m>r[4'0 8,i don't "k h[ _m times ,i h ?\ght (--,i believe x 0 ! poet ,gray1 :o said t 8 idea ( heav5 0 to lie on ! s(a & read novels4 ,t t\*es ! lazy "p ( u1 ?\gh40 8,yes1 !y w be ! active1 outgo+1 g5]\s elem5ts ( our nature t w be br\ght into use !n1 r ?an ! self-c5tr$ & dreamy ones4 ,?\gh ,i suppose t we %all read 9 heav51--be+ influ5c$ to be bett] & nobl] by good & noble tea*]s ( ! p51 n less !re ?an "h40 8,o ?9k ( x6 ,to h books1 & music1--& pictures80 8,all t ,art1 #8! h&maid ( ! ,"l1' c d = u1 ,i h no d\bt w be done4 ,et]nity w nev] become monoton\s4 ,v>iety )\t end1 *>ms unnumb]$ )9 *>ms1 w be devis$ by ,inf9ite +5uity to m9i/] to our delight4 ,p]haps1--?is is j my fancy+1--p]haps !re w be :ole planets turn$ into gall]ies ( art1 ov] :i* we may w&] at w2 or into or*e/ral halls :]e ! highe/ possibilities ( music w be realiz$ to s+] & to he>]4 ,d y "k1 ,i h sometimes _h a flitt+ notion t music w\ld be ! language ( heav58 ,x c]ta9ly diff]s 9 "s indescribable mann] f ! o!r arts4 ,we h mo/ ( u felt x 9 our diff]5t ways4 ,x always seems to me l ! cry ( a great1 sad life dragg$ to use 9 ?is _w aga9/ its w4 ,pictures & /atues & poems fit !mselves to _! "w m cont5t$ly4 ,symphony & song /ruggle 9 fett]s4 ,t s5se ( conflict is n good = me4 ,x is q z likely to h>m z to help4 ,!n p]haps ! my/]ies ( sid]eal sy/ems w be spread out l a *ild's map be=e u4 ,p]haps we %all take j\rneys to ,jupit] & to ,saturn & to ! glitt]+ haze ( nebul1 & to ! site ( ru9$ worlds ^: #8ext9ct light is yet travell+ ?r\gh space4' ,occupation = explor]s !re1 y see60 8,y make me say ) little ,clo1 #8,o1 :y1 ,i want to g6' e "t ,i he> y talk4 ,b !re is "o ?+1--y spoke ( families liv+ toge!r40 8,yes40 8,& y spoke (--y\r husb&4 ,b ! ,bible--0 8,says !re %all be no m>ry+ nor giv+ 9 m>riage4 ,i "k t4 ,nor w !re be su* m>ry+ or giv+ 9 m>riage z !re is 9 a _w l ?is4 ,*ri/ expressly goes on to /ate1 t we %all be z ! angels 9 heav54 ,h[ d we "k :at heav5ly unions ( he>t ) he>t exi/ among ! angels8 ,x leaves me m>g9 en\gh to live & be happy ) ,john =ev]1 & x holds _m possibilities = ! settlem5t ( all p]plex+ que/ions br\ght ab\t by ! relations ( ?is _w4 ,x is ( no use to talk mu* ab\t !m4 ,b x is on t v v]se t ,i f\nd my un%ak5 belief t !y w be smoo!d out 9 "s natural & happy way1 ) :i* ea* "o %all be cont5t40 8,b ,o1 !re is a great gulf fix$2 & on "o side "o1 & on ! o!r ano!r1 & !y lov$ ea* o!r40 ,h] face pal$1--x always pales1 ,i notice1 at ! m5tion ( ?is my/]y1--b h] eyes nev] lo/ by a %ade _! /eadfa/ tru/4 8,m>y1 don't "q me ab\t t4 ,t belongs to ! unutt]able ?+s4 ,god w take c>e ( x4 ,i ?9k ,i c\ld leave x to him ev5 if he br\ght x = me myself to face4 ,i feel sure t he w make x all come out "r4 ,p]haps ,he w be s de> to u1 t we c\ld n love any "o :o hat$ him4 ,9 "s way ! void mu/ be fill$1 = he %all wipe away te>s4 ,b x seems to me t ! only ?\ght 9 :i* !re c be any re/1 & 9 t !re c1 is ?is3 t ,*ri/1 :o loves u ev5 z 8 ,fa!r loves him1 c be happy 9 spite ( ! exi/5ce ( a hell4 ,if x is possible to him1 surely he c make x possible to u40 8,two ?+s t ,he has taught u10 %e said aft] a sil5ce1 8give me beautiful assurance t none ( ^! dreams ) :i* ,i help myself c be beyond 8 int5tion to fulfil4 ,"o is1 t eye ha? n se5 x1 nor e> he>d x1 nor ! he>t conceiv$ x1--?is lavi%ness ( rew>d :i* he is keep+ = u4 ,ano!r is1 t #8,i %all be satisfi$ :5 ,i awake4'0 8,) 8 lik5ess40 8,) 8 lik5ess4 ,& ab\t t ,i h o!r ?+s to say40 ,b ,old ,gray /opp$ at ! gate & ,phbe 0 wat*+ = h] butt]1 & x 0 no "t to say !m !n4 ,,xii4 ,july #bb4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ has connect$ h]self ) our *ur*4 ,i ?9k x 0 r h>d = h]1 break+ ! la/ tie t b\nd h] to h] husb&'s p2 b %e _h a feel+1 t1 if h] "w is to be done & h] days end$ "h1 %e _h bett] take up all su* little ?reads ( influ5ce to make h]self "o ) u4 #be?4 ,to-day :at %\ld ,deacon ,quirk d b make a solemn call on ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 = ! purpose ( ask+--& ?is ) a h9t t he wi%$ he _h ask$ be=e %e became a memb] ( ! ,hom] ,fir/ ,congregational ,*ur*--:e!r !re 7 tru? 9 ! rumors1 n[ rife ab\t t[n1 t %e 0 a ,sw$5borgian6 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ broke out laugh+1 & laugh$ m]rily4 ,! ,deacon fr[n$4 8,i us$ to fancy t ,i believ$ 9 ,sw$5borg10 %e said1 z soon z %e c\ld sob] d[n a little4 ,! ,deacon prick$ up 8 e>s1 ) visions ( excommunications & c\ncils reflect$ on e feature4 8,until ,i read 8 books10 %e f9i%$4 8,oh60 said ! ,deacon4 ,he wait$ = m1 b %e seem$ to consid] ! conv]sation at an end4 8,s !n y--if ,i und]/&--are n a ,sw$5borgian1 ma'am80 8,if ,i 71 ,i c]ta9ly %\ld h _h no inducem5t to jo9 myself to y\r *ur*10 %e repli$1 ) g5tle dignity4 8,i believe1 ) all my he>t1 9 ! same ,bible & ! same cre$ t y believe 91 ,deacon ,quirk40 8,& y live y\r cre$1 :i* all su* g5ial ,*ri/ians d n f9d x necess>y to d10 ,i ?\ght1 z ! ,deacon 9 "s p]plexity took 8 dep>ture1 & %e return$ ) a smile to h] sew+4 ,i suppose ! call came ab\t 9 ?is way4 ,we _h ! sew+-circle "h la/ week1 & j be=e ! lamps 7 light$1 & :5 p _h dropp$ _! "w to gr\p & talk 9 ! corn]s1 ,meta ,tripp came up ) "o or two o!r girls to ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 & begg$ 8to he> "s ( ^? que] ?+s p said %e believ$ ab\t heav540 ,auntie is nev] obtrusive ) h] views on ?is or any o!r matt]1 b1 be+ ?us urg$1 %e answ]$ a few que/ions t !y put to h]1 to ! extreme sc&al ( "o or two old ladies1 & ! secret delight ( ! re/4 8,well10 said little ,mrs4 ,bl&1 squeez+ & kiss+ h] y\nge/1 :o 0 at t mom5t vigor\sly employ$ 9 /ick+ v long d>n+-ne$les into 8 "m's wat]fall1 8,i hope !re'll be a great _m babies !re4 ,i %\ld be p]fectly happy if ,i always c\ld h babies to play )60 ,! look t ,aunt ,w9ifr$ %ot ov] at me 0 wor? see+4 ,%e m]ely repli$1 h[ev]1 t %e suppos$ all our 8highe/ aspirations10--) an indescribable acc5t to :i* ,mrs4 ,bl& 0 safely deaf1--if good ones1 w\ld be realiz$2 & add$1 laugh+1 t ,sw$5borg said t ! babies 9 heav5--:o outnumb] ! gr[n p--w be giv5 into ! *>ge ( ^? wom5 especially fond ( !m4 8,sw$5borg is sugge/ive1 ev5 if y c't accept :at seem to ! un9itiat$ to be 8 natural impossibilities10 %e said1 aft] we _h discuss$ ,deacon ,quirk a:ile4 8,he says a pretty ?+1 too1 occasionally4 ,did ,i ev] read y ab\t ! h\ses80 ,%e _h n1 & ,i wi%$ to he>1 s %e f\nd ! book on ,heav5 & ,hell1 & read3-- 8,z (t5 z ,i h spok5 ) ! angels m\? to m\?1 s (t5 ,i h be5 ) !m 9 _! habitations3 _! habitations are altoge!r l ! habitations on e>? :i* are call$ h\ses1 b m beautiful2 9 !m are p>lors1 rooms1 & *amb]s 9 great numb]s2 !re are also c\rts1 & r\nd ab\t are g>d5s1 %rubb]ies1 & fields4 ,palaces ( heav5 h be5 se51 :i* 7 s magnific5t t !y c\ld n be describ$2 above1 !y glitt]$ z if !y 7 ( pure gold1 & bel[1 z if !y 7 ( preci\s /ones2 "o palace 0 m spl5did ?an ano!r2 )91 x 0 ! same ! rooms 7 ornam5t$ ) su* decorations z nei!r words nor sci5ces are suffici5t to describe4 ,on ! side :i* look$ to ! s\? !re 7 p>adises1 :]e all ?+s 9 l mann] glitt]$1 & 9 "s places ! leaves 7 z ( silv]1 & ! fruits z ( gold2 & ! fl[]s on _! b$s pres5t$ by colors z x 7 ra9b[s2 at ! b\nd>ies aga9 7 palaces1 9 :i* ! view t]m9at$40 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ says t our hymns1 tak5 all toge!r1 conta9 ! wor/ & ! be/ pictures ( heav5 t we h 9 any bran* ( lit]ature4 8,x seems to me incr$ible10 %e says1 8t ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur* %\ld h all[$ t beautiful #8,j]usalem' 9 its hymnology s long1 ) ! gha/ly c\plet1-- #8,:]e congregations ne'er break up1 ,& ,sabba?s h no end4' ,! dulle/ prea*]s are sure to give x out1 & t :5 !re are ! greate/ numb] ( re/less *ildr5 wond]+ :5 x w be "t to g home4 ,x is only )9 t5 ye>s t mod]n hymn books h alt]$ x1 return+ 9 "p to ! orig9al4 8,i d n ?9k we h *os5 ! be/ p>ts ( t hymn = our #8s]vice ( song4' ,y nev] read ! :ole ( x8 ,y don't "k h[ pretty x is6 ,x is a relief f ! cu/om>y palms & *oirs4 ,"o's :ole he>t is glad ( ! outlet ( its sweet refra91-- #8,w\ld ,god t ,i 7 !re6' be=e "o has half read x4 ,y are q ready to believe t #8,!re is no hung]1 heat1 nor cold1 ,b pleasure e way4' ,li/5 to ?is3-- #8,?y h\ses are ( ivory1 ,?y w9d[s cry/al cle>1 ,?y tiles are made ( beat5 gold2 ,o ,god1 t ,i 7 !re6 #8,we t are "h 9 bani%m5t ,cont9ually d moan4 99 99 99 99 99 #8,our sweet is mix$ ) bitt] gall1 ,our pleasure is b pa91 ,our joys sc>ce la/ ! look+ on1 ,our sorr[s /ill rema94 #8,b !re !y live 9 su* delight1 ,su* pleasure & su* play1 ,z t to !m a ?\s& ye>s ,do? seem z ye/]day4' ,& ?is3-- #8,?y g>d5s & ?y gallant walks ,cont9ually are gre52 ,!re gr[ su* sweet & pleasant fl[]s ,z n[h]e else are se54 #8,!re c9namon1 !re sug> gr[s1 ,!re n>d & balm ab\nd1 ,:at tongue c tell1 or he>t conceive ,! joys t !re are f\nd8 #8,q ?r\gh ! /reets1 ) silv] s\nd1 ,! flood ( life do? fl[1 ,^u ^: banks1 on e side1 ,! wood ( life do? gr[4' ,i tell y we may le>n some?+ f t gr& old ,ca?olic s+]4 ,he is f> ne>] to ! ,bible ?an ! innovators on 8 ,,mss4 ,d y n notice h[ l 8 images are to ! inspir$ ones1 & yet h[ pleasant & natural is ! effect ( ! entire poem8 8,!re is nobody l ,bon>1 ?\gh1 to s+ ab\t heav54 ,!re is "o ( 81 #8,we %all meet & re/1'--d y "k x80 ,i %ook my head1 & knelt d[n beside h] & wat*$ h] face1--x 0 q unconsci\s ( me1 ! mus+ face1--:ile %e repeat$ dreamily3-- 8,:]e ! fad$ fl[] %all fre%51-- ,fre%5 nev]more to fade2 ,:]e ! %ad$ sky %all bright51-- ,bright5 nev]more to %ade2 ,:]e ! sun-blaze nev] scor*es2 ,:]e ! />-beams cease to *ill2 ,:]e no tempe/ /irs ! e*oes ,( ! wood1 or wave1 or hill24444 ,:]e no %ad[ %all bewild]2 ,:]e life's va9 p>ade is o'er2 ,:]e ! sleep ( s9 is brok51 ,& ! dream] dreams no m2 ,:]e ! bond is nev] sev]$1-- ,p>t+s1 clasp+s1 sob & moan1 ,midnight wak+1 twilight weep+1 ,heavy noontide1--all are done2 ,:]e ! *ild has f\nd its "m2 ,:]e ! "m f9ds ! *ild2 ,:]e de> families are ga!r$1 ,t 7 scatt]$ on ! wild24444 ,:]e ! hidd5 w\nd is heal$2 ,:]e ! blight$ life reblooms2 ,:]e ! smitt5 he>t ! fre%ness ,( its buoyant y\? resumes24444 ,:]e we f9d ! joy ( lov+1 ,z we nev] lov$ be=e1-- ,lov+ on1 un*ill$1 unh9d]$1 ,lov+ once1 =ev]more40 444 #cj?4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ 0 we$+ h] day-lilies ?is morn+1 :5 ! gate creak$ timidly1 & !n swung noisily1 & 9 walk$ ,ab9adab ,quirk1 ) a b\quet ( ,*9a p9ks 9 ! button-hole ( 8 gre5-gray l95 coat4 ,he _h tak5 evid5t pa9s to sm>t5 himself up a little1 = 8 hair 0 comb$ into two horizontal dabs ov] 8 e>s1 & ! gre5-gray coat & blue-*eck$ %irt-sleeves 7 q clean2 b he c]ta9ly is ! mo/ unc\? specim5 ( six feet five t x has ev] be5 my privilege to behold4 ,i feel sorry = him1 ?\gh4 ,i he>d ,meta ,tripp laugh+ at him 9 ,sunday s*ool ! o!r day1--8,quadrangul> ,quirk10 %e call$ him1 a little too l\d1 & ! poor fell[ he>d h]4 ,he half turn$1 blu%+ fi]cely2 !n slunk d[n 9 8 corn] ) z pitiable a look z is (t5 se5 ^u a man's face4 ,he came up to ,auntie awkw>dly1--a "p ( ! sc5e ,i saw f ! w9d[1 & ! re/ %e told me1--head hang+1 & ! t9y b\quet held out4 8,clo s5t ^! to y10 he /amm]$ out1--8my c\s9 ,clo4 ,i 0 com+ 'long1 & %e ?\ght1 y "k1--%e'd get me1 y see1 to--to--t is1 to--br+ !m4 ,%e s5t h]--t is--let me see4 ,%e s5t h] respect--ful--respectful--no1 h] love2 t 0 x4 ,%e s5t h] love 'long ) 'em40 ,mrs4 ,=cey! dropp$ h] we$s1 & held out h] :ite1 %apely h&s1 wet ) ! heavy dew1 to take ! fl[]s4 8,o1 ?ank y6 ,clo kn[s my fancy = p9ks4 ,h[ k9d 9 y to br+ !m6 ,won't y sit d[n a few mom5ts8 ,i 0 j go+ to re/ a little4 ,d y l fl[]s80 ,ab9adab ey$ ! :ite h&s1 z 8 huge f+]s j t\*$ !m1 ) a sort ( awe2 &1 sigh+1 sat d[n on ! v edge ( ! g>d5 b5* beside h]4 ,aft] a s+ul> v>iety ( ef=ts to take ! mo/ uncom=table position ( :i* he 0 capable1 he succe$$ to 8 satisfaction1 &1 gr[+ !n some:at m at 8 ease1 answ]$ h] "q4 8,fl[]s are se* gassy ?+s4 ,!y j bl[ out & t's ! end ( 'em4 ,i l ma*9e-%ops be/40 8,ah6 well1 t is a v useful lik+4 ,d y ev] inv5t ma*9]y y\rself80 8,sometimes10 said ,ab9adab1 ) a ba%ful smile4 8,!re's a little improvem5t ( m9e = c>pet-sweep]s up be=e ! pat5t-(fice n[4 ,don't "k :e!r !y'll run x ?r\gh4 ,"s ( ! *aps ,i saw 9 ,bo/on told me !y ?\ght !y w\ld d't 9 "t2 x takes an awful sight ( "t4 ,i'm alw]s fuss+ ov] some?+ ( ! k9d2 alw]s did1 s5ce ,i 0 a baby2 _h my little w9dmills & c>ts & ?+s2 us$ to sell 'em to ! o!r "y uns4 ,fa!r don't l x4 ,he wants me to /ick to ! f>m4 ,i don't l f>m+4 ,i feel l a fi% out ( wat]4--,mrs4 ,=cey!1 m>m60 ,he turn$ on h] ) an abrupt *ange ( tone1 s funny t %e c\ld ) difficulty reta9 h] gravity4 8,i he>d y say+ a sight ( que] ?+s ! o!r day ab\t heav54 ,clo1 %e's be5 tell+ me a sight m4 ,n[1 ,i nev] believ$ 9 heav560 8,:y80 8,because ,i don't believe10 said ! poor fell[1 ) sull5 decision1 8t a b5evol5t ,god ev] w\ld ha' made se* a d]n$ awkw>d *ap z ,i am60 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ repli$ by /epp+ into ! h\se1 & br++ out a f9e photograph ( "o ( ! be/ ( ! ,/4 ,georges1--a rapt1 yet v manly face1 9 :i* ! sa9t & ! h]o are wond]fully bl5d$4 8,i suppose10 %e said1 putt+ x into 8 h&s1 8t if y %\ld g to heav51 y w\ld be z mu* fair] ?an t picture z t picture is fair] ?an y are n[40 8,no6 ,:y1 w\ld ,i1 ?\gh8 ,jim-m9y6 ,:y1 x w\ld be wor? go+ =1 w\ldn't x80 ,! words 7 no less rev]5tly spok5 ?an ! vague rhapsodies ( 8 fa!r2 = ! sull5ness left 8 face1 & 8 eyes--:i* are pleasant1 & n unmanly1 :5 "o fairly sees !m--sp>kl$ s(tly1 l a *ild's4 8,make x all up !re1 maybe80 mus+1--8! girls laugh+ at y all y\r life1 & all8 ,t w\ld be ! bigg] heft ( ! two !n1 w\ldn't x8 = !y say !re a9't any end to ?+s up !re4 ,:y1 s x might be fair 9 ,him aft] all2 m'n fair1 p]haps4 ,see "h1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 ,i'm n a *ur*-memb]1 y "k1 & fa!r1 he's dreadful tr\bl$ ab\t me2 prays ov] me l a span ( m9i/]s1 ! old g5tleman does1 e ,sunday night4 ,n[1 ,i don't want to g to ! o!r place any m ?an ! next man1 & ,i've _h my times1 too1 ( ?9k+ ,i'd keep /eady & say my pray]s reg'l>1--x makes a *ap feel on a sight bett] t]ms ) himself1--b ,i don't see h[ ,i'm go+ to we> :ite frocks & /& up 9 a *oir1--nev] c\ld s+ no m'n a frog ) a cold 9 8 head1--x tires me m n[1 hone/1 to ?9k ( x1 ?an x does to d a week's m[+4 ,look at me6 ,d y s'pose ,i'm fit = x8 ,fa!r1 he's always talk+ ab\t ! ?rones1 & ! w+s1 & ! praises1 & ! palms1 & hav+ new names 9 y\r =eheads1 7%\ldn't object to t1 ?\gh1 by any means71 till he drives me into ! tool-h\se1 or (f on a spree4 ,i tell him if ,god ha9't got a place :]e *aps l me c d some?+ ,he's fitt$ 'em to d 9 ?is _w1 !re's no use ?9k+ ab\t x anyh[40 ,s ,auntie took ! hone/ fell[ into h] mo/ e>ne/ ?\ght = half an h\r1 & argu$1 & sugge/$1 & reprov$1 & help$ him1 z only %e c\ld d2 & at ! end ( x seem$ to h work$ into 8 m9d "s di/9ct & n unwelcome ideas ( :at a ,*ri/-l life mu/ mean to him1 & ( ! com+ heav5 :i* is s mu* m real to h] ?an any life outside ( x4 8,& !n10 %e told him1 8,i imag9e t y\r fancy = ma*9]y w be employ$ 9 "s way4 ,p]haps y w d a great deal m successful inv5t+ !re ?an y ev] w "h40 8,y don't say s60 said radiant ,ab9adab4 8,god w give y some?+ to d1 c]ta9ly1 & some?+ t y w l40 8,i might turn x to "s religi\s purpose1 y "k60 said ,ab9adab1 look+ bright4 8,p]haps ,i c\ld help 'em build a *ur*1 or hi/ "s ( _! pe>l gates1 or some?+ l60 ,^u t he said t x 0 "t to be at home & see to ! ox51 & %ambl$ awkw>dly away4 ,clo told u ?is aft]noon t he begg$ ! err& & ! fl[]s f h]4 ,%e says3 8#8,b9 ?9ks !re nev] 0 anybody l y1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 & ',b9 isn't ! only "o1 ei!r40 ,at :i* ,mrs4 ,=cey! smiles abs5tly1 ?9k+--,i wond] ( :at4 ,monday night4 ,i saw z funny & z pretty a bit ( a drama ?is aft]noon z ,i h se5 = a long "t4 ,fai? _h be5 roll+ out 9 ! hot hay ev] s9ce ?ree o'clock1 ) "o ( ! little ,bl&s1 & :5 ! %ad[s grew long !y came 9 ) flu%$ *eeks & tumbl$ hair1 to re/ & cool ^u ! door-/eps4 ,i 0 sitt+ 9 ! p>lor1 sew+ en]getically on "s sun-bonnets = "s ( ,aunt ,w9ifr$'s p d[n t[n1--,i f\nd ! heat to be m be>able if ,i kept busy1--& c\ld see1 unse51 all ! little tableaux into :i* ! two *ildr5 gr\p$ !mselves2 a new "o e in/ant2 9 ! %ad[ n[1--n[ 9 a quiv] ( gold5 gl[2 ! w9d toss+ _! hair ab\t1 & _! *att] *im+ d[n ! hall l bells4 8,o :at a funny little sunset !re's go+ to be beh9d ! maple-tree10 said ! blond-hair$ ,bl&1 9 a pause4 8,funny en\gh10 obs]v$ ,fai?1 ) h] sup]ior smile1 8b x's go+ to be a great deal funni] up 9 heav51 ,i tell y1 ,molly ,bl&40 8,funny 9 heav58 ,:y1 ,fai?60 ,molly drew h]self up ) a religi\s air1 & look$ ! image ( h] fa!r4 8,yes1 to be sure4 ,i'm go+ to h "s little p9k blocks made out ( x :5 ,i g2 p9k & yell[ & gre5 & purple &--,o1 s _m blocks6 ,i'm go+ to h a little r$ cl\d to sail r\nd 91 l t "o up ov] ! h\se1 too1 ,i %\ldn't wond]40 ,molly op5$ h] eyes4 8,o1 ,i don't believe x60 8,y don't "k mu*60 said ,miss ,fai?1 sup]bly4 8,i %\ldn't s'pose y w\ld believe x4 ,p'r'aps ,i'll h "s /rawb]ries too1 & "s g+]-snaps1--,i'm n go+ to h any old bread & butt] up !re1--,o1 & "s little gold apples1 & a lot ( play?+s2 nic] play?+s--:y1 nic] ?an !y h 9 ! %ops 9 ,bo/on1 ,molly ,bl&6 ,god's keep+ 'em up !re a purpose40 8,de> me60 said incr$ul\s ,molly1 8,i %\ld j l to "k :o told y t mu*4 ,my "m nev] told x at me4 ,did y\r "m tell x at y80 8,o1 %e told me "s ( x1 & ! re/ ,i ?9k$ out myself40 8,let's g & play ,"o ,old ,cat10 said ,molly1 ) an uncom=table jump2 8,i wi% ,i hadn't got to g to heav560 8,:y1 ,molly ,bl&6 :y1 ,i ?9k heav5's spl5did6 ,i've got my papa up !re1 y "k4 #8,"h's my little girl6' ,t's :at he's go+ to say4 ,mamma1 %e'll be !re1 too1 & we're all go+ to live 9 ! prettie/ h\se4 ,i h dreadful hurries to g ?is aft]noon sometimes :5 ,phbe's cross & won't give me sug>4 ,!y don't let y 91 ?\gh1 'nless y're a good girl40 8,:o gets x all up80 ask$ puzzl$ ,molly4 8,jesus ,*ri/ w give me all ^! beautiful f+s10 said ,fai?1 evid5tly repeat+ h] "m's words1--! only cate*ism t %e has be5 taught4 8,& :at w he d :5 he sees y80 ask$ h] "m1 com+ d[n ! /airs & /epp+ up beh9d h]4 8,take me up 9 ,8 arms & kiss me40 8,& :at w ,fai? say80 8,fank--y60 said ! *ild1 s(tly4 ,9 ano!r m9ute %e 0 absorb$1 body & s\l1 9 ! my/]ies ( ,"o ,old ,cat4 8,b ,i don't ?9k %e w feel mu* l be+ naughty = half an h\r to come10 h] "m said2 8he> h[ pleasantly h] words drop6 ,su* a talk quiets h]1 l a h& laid on h] head4 ,m>y1 sometimes ,i ?9k x is ,8 v h&1 z mu* z :5 ,he t\*$ ^? o!r little *ildr54 ,i wi% ,fai? to feel at home ) ,him & ,8 home4 ,little ?+6 ,i really d n ?9k t %e is consci\s ( any fe> ( dy+2 ,i d n ?9k x means any?+ to h] b ,*ri/1 & h] fa!r1 & p9k blocks1 & a nice "t1 & nev] disobey+ me1 or be+ cross4 ,_m a "t %e wakes me up 9 ! morn+ talk+ away to h]self1 & :5 ,i turn & look at h]1 %e says3 #8,o mamma1 won't we g to heav5 to-day1 y f9k8 ,:5 w we g1 mamma8'0 8,if !re _h be5 any p9k blocks & g+]-snaps = me :5 ,i 0 at h] age1 ,i %\ld n h pray$ e night to #8die out4' ,i ?9k ! horrors ( dea? t *ildr5 live ?r\gh1 unguess$ & unreliev$1 are awful4 ,fai? may ?ank y all h] life t %e has escap$ !m40 8,i %\ld feel answ]able to ,god = ! *ild's s\l1 if ,i _h n prev5t$ t4 ,i always want$ to "k :at sort ( "m t poor little ?+ _h1 :o ask$1 if %e 7 v good up 9 heav51 :e!r !y w\ldn't let h] g d[n to hell ,saturday aft]noons1 & play a little :ile60 8,i "k4 ,b ?9k ( x1--blocks & g+]-snaps60 8,i treat ,fai? j z ! ,bible treats u1 by deal+ 9 pictures ( tru? t %e c und]/&4 ,i c make ,clo & ,ab9adab ,quirk compreh5d t _! pianos & ma*9]y may n be made ( lit]al rosewood & /eel1 b w be "s synonyme ( ! ?+1 :i* w answ] j su* wants ( _! *ang$ natures z rosewood & /eel mu/ answ] n[4 ,!re w be ma*9]y & pianos 9 ! same s5se 9 :i* !re w be pe>l gates & h>ps4 ,:atev] enjoym5t any or all ( !m repres5t n[1 some?+ w repres5t !n4 8,b ,fai?1 if ,i told h] t h] heav5ly g+]-snaps w\ld n be made ( molasses & fl\r1 w\ld h a cry1 = fe> t %e 0 n go+ to h any g+]-snaps at all2 s1 until %e is old]1 ,i give h] unqualifi$ g+]-snaps4 ,! pr9cipal joy ( a *ild's life consi/s 9 eat+4 ,fai? beg9s1 z soon z ! light wanes1 to dream ( t gum-drop :i* %e is to h at b$time4 ,i don't suppose %e c outgr[ t at once by pass+ out ( h] little r\nd body4 ,%e mu/ beg9 :]e %e left (f1--no?+ b a baby1 ?\gh x w be z holy & happy a baby z ,*ri/ c make x4 ,:5 %e says3 8,mamma1 ,i %all be hung]y & want my d9n]1 up !re10 ,i nev] hesitate to tell h] t %e %all h h] d9n]4 ,%e w\ld nev]1 9 h] secret he>t1 ?\gh %e might n h ! hone/y to say s1 expect to be o!rwise ?an mis]able 9 a d9n]less et]nity40 8,y are n afraid ( mislead+ ! *ild's fancy80 8,n s long z ,i c keep ! two ideas--t ,*ri/ is h] be/ fri5d1 & t heav5 is n meant = naughty girls--pre-em95t 9 h] m9d4 ,& ,i s9c]ely believe t ,he w\ld give h] ! v p9k blocks :i* %e anticipates1 no less ?an ,he w\ld give back a poet 8 lo/ dreams1 or y y\r bro!r4 ,he has be5 a *ild2 p]haps1 incid5tally to ! unsolv$ my/]ies ( atonem5t1 = ?is v reason1--t ,he may "k h[ to #8prep>e _! places' = !m1 ^: angels d always behold ,8 ,fa!r4 ,ah1 y may be sure t1 if ( su* is ! happy ,k+dom1 ,he w n scorn to /oop & fit x to _! little ne$s4 8,!re 0 t poor little fell[ ^: gu9ea-pig di$1--d y rememb]80 8,only half2 :at 0 x80 8#8,o mamma1' he sobb$ out1 beh9d 8 h&k]*ief1 #8don't great big elephants h s\ls8' 8#8,no1 my son4' 8#8,nor camels1 mamma8' 8#8,no4' 8#8,nor be>s1 nor alligators1 nor *ick5s8' 8#8,o no1 de>4' 8#8,o mamma1 mamma6 ,don't little ,,clean--:ite--gu9ea-pigs h s\ls8' 8,i nev] %\ld h _h ! he>t to say no to t2 especially z we h no positive pro( to ! contr>y4 8,!n t scrap ( a boy :o lo/ 8 little r$ balloon ! morn+ he b\ght x1 &1 brok5-he>t$1 want$ to "k :e!r x _h gone to heav54 ,don't ,i suppose if he _h be5 tak5 !re himself t v m9ute1 t he w\ld h f\nd a little balloon 9 wait+ = him8 ,h[ c ,i help x80 8,x has a pretty s\nd4 ,if p w\ld n ?9k x s mat]ial & %ock+--0 8,let p read ,m>t9 ,lu!r's lett] to 8 little boy4 ,!re is ! te/imony ( a pill> 9 good & regul> /&+6 ,i don't ?9k y ne$ be afraid ( my balloon1 aft] t40 ,i rememb]$ t !re 0 a lett] ( 8 on heav51 b1 n recall+ x di/9ctly1 ,i hunt$ = x to-night1 & read x ov]4 ,i %all copy x1 ! bett] to reta9 x 9 m9d4 8,grace & peace 9 ,*ri/1 my de> little son4 ,i see ) pleasure t ?\ le>ne/ well1 & pray$ dilig5tly4 ,d s1 my son1 & cont9ue4 ,:5 ,i come home ,i w br+ !e a pretty fair+4 8,i "k a pretty1 m]ry g>d5 :]e9 are _m *ildr54 ,!y h little gold5 coats1 & !y ga!r beautiful apples "u ! trees1 & pe>s1 *]ries1 plums1 & :eat-plums2--!y s+1 & jump1 & are m]ry4 ,!y h beautiful little horses1 too1 ) gold bits & silv] saddles4 ,& ,i ask$ ! man to :om ! g>d5 belongs1 ^: *ildr5 !y 74 ,& he said3 #8,!y are ! *ildr5 t love to pray & to le>n1 & are good4' ,!n said ,i3 #8,de> man1 ,i h a son1 too2 8 "n is ,johnny ,lu!r4 ,may he n also come into ?is g>d5 & eat ^! beautiful apples & pe>s1 & ride ^! f9e horses8' ,!n ! man said3 #8,if he loves to pray & to le>n1 & is good1 he %all come into ?is g>d51 & ,lippus & ,jo/ too2 & :5 !y all come toge!r1 !y %all h fifes & trumpets1 lutes & all sorts ( music1 & !y %all dance1 & %oot ) little cross-b[s4' 8,& he %[$ me a f9e mead[ !re 9 ! g>d51 made = danc+4 ,!re hung no?+ b gold5 fifes1 trumpets1 & f9e silv] cross-b[s4 ,b x 0 e>ly1 & ! *ildr5 _h n yet eat52 !re=e ,i c\ld n wait ! dance1 & ,i said to ! man3 #8,ah1 de> sir6 ,i w imm$iately g & write all ?is to my little son ,johnny1 & tell him to pray dilig5tly1 & to le>n well1 & to be good1 s t he also may come to ?is g>d54 ,b he has an ,aunt ,lehne1 he mu/ br+ h] ) him4' ,!n ! man said3 #8,x %all be s2 g1 & write him s4' 8,!re=e1 my de> little son ,johnny1 le>n & pray away6 & tell ,lippus & ,jo/1 too t !y mu/ le>n & pray4 ,& !n y %all come to ! g>d5 toge!r4 ,h]e) ,i comm5d !e to ,almighty ,god4 ,& greet ,aunt ,lehne1 & give h] a kiss = my sake4 8,?y de> ,fa!r1 8,,m>t9us ,,lu!r4 8,,anno #aecj40 ,,xiii4 ,augu/ #c4 ,! summ] is slid+ quietly away1--my desolate summ] :i* ,i dread$2 ) ! dreams gone f its wild fl[]s1 ! cr[n f its sunsets1 ! ?rill f its w9ds & its s++4 ,b ,i h f\nd out a ?+4 ,"o c live )\t dreams & cr[ns & ?rills4 ,i h n lo/ !m4 ,!y lie "u ! ivi$ cross ) ,roy = a little :ile4 ,!y w come back to me ) him4 8,no?+ is lo/10 %e tea*es me4 ,& until !y come back1 ,i see--= %e %[s me--fields groan+ "u _! :ite h>ve/1 ) labor]s v few4 ,ru? foll[$ ! /urdy reap]s1 glean+ a little4 ,i1 p]haps1 c d z mu*4 ,! ways 9 :i* ,i mu/ "w seem s small & insignificant1 s pitifully trivial sometimes1 t ,i d n ev5 l to write !m d[n "h4 ,9 fact1 !y are s small t1 six mon?s ago1 ,i did n see !m at all4 ,only to be pleasant to old ,phbe1 & *>itable to ,meta ,tripp1 & fai?ful to my n v int]e/+ little s*ol>s1 & a bit wat*ful ( worn-out ,mrs4 ,bl&1 &--,b de> me1 ,i won't6 ,!y are s little6 ,b "o's self becomes ( less importance1 :i* seems to be ! po9t4 ,x seems v /range to me sometimes1 look+ back to ^? desp]ate w9t] days1 :at a *ange has come ov] my ?\ghts ( ,roy4 ,n t he is any less--,o1 nev] any less to me4 ,b x is almo/ z if %e _h rais$ him f ! grave4 ,:y seek ye ! liv+ among ! dead8 ,h] s(t1 compassionate eyes %9e ) ! "q e h\r4 ,& e h\r he is help+ me1--ah1 ,roy1 we und]/& "o ano!r n[4 ,h[ he mu/ love ,aunt ,w9ifr$6 ,h[ pleasant ! days w be :5 we c talk h] ov]1 & ?ank h] toge!r6 8,to be happy because ,roy is happy40 ,i rememb] h[ ^? fir/ words ( h]s /ruck me4 ,x does n seem to me impossible1 n[4 99 99 99 99 99 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ & ,i laugh at ea* o!r = talk+ s mu* ab\t heav54 ,i see t ! gre5 book is fill$ ) my que/ions & h] answ]s4 ,! fact is1 n t we d n talk z mu* ab\t mundane affairs z o!r p1 b t ?is "o ?+ int]e/s u m4 ,if1 in/ead1 x _h be5 fl\nces1 or babies1 or ,g]man philosophy1 ! gre5 book w\ld h fill$ itself j z unconsci\sly ) fl\nces1 or babies1 or ,g]man philosophy4 ,?is int]e/ 9 heav5 is ( c\rse no sign ( especial piety 9 me1 nor c\ld p ) "y1 w>m1 uncru%$ hopes ?robb+ ?r\gh _! days be expect$ to feel ! same4 ,x is only ! old pr9ciple (1 :]e ! treasure is--! he>t4 8,h[ spiritual-m9d$ ,m>y has gr[n60 ,mrs4 ,bl& obs]ves1 reg>d+ me respectfully4 ,i try 9 va9 to laugh h] out ( ! conviction4 ,if ,roy _h n gone be=e1 ,i %\ld ?9k no m1 probably1 ab\t ! com+ life1 ?an does ! m9i/]'s wife h]self4 ,b n[--,i _c help x--t is ! reality1 ?is ! dream2 t ! sub/ance1 ?is ! %ad[4 ,! o!r day ,aunt ,w9ifr$ & ,i _h a talk :i* has be5 ( m value to me ?an all ! re/4 ,fai? 0 9 b$2 x 0 a cold1 ra9y ev5+2 we 7 secure f call]s2 we light$ a few k9dl]s 9 ! p>lor grate2 %e roll$ up ! easy-*air1 & ,i took my cricket at h] feet4 8,paul at ! feet ( ,gamaliel6 ,?is is :at ,i call com=t4 ,n[1 ,auntie1 let u g to heav5 a:ile40 8,v well4 ,:at d y want !re n[80 ,i paus$ a mom5t1 sob]$ by a ?\ght t has be5 gr[+ /eadily ^u me ( late4 8,some?+ m1 ,aunt ,w9ifr$4 ,all ^! o!r ?+s are beautiful & de>2 b ,i believe ,i want--,god4 8,y h n said mu* ab\t ,him4 ,! ,bible says a great deal ab\t ,him4 ,y h giv5 me ! fill+-up ( heav5 9 all its pleasant promise1 b--,i don't "k--!re seems to be an outl9e want+40 ,%e drew my h& up into h]s1 smil+4 8,i h n done my pa9t+ by arti/ic me?ods1 ,i "k2 b x 0 n exactly accid5tal4 8,tell me1 hone/ly1--is ,god m to y or less1 a m di/9ct ,be+ or a m vague "o1 ?an ,he 0 six mon?s ago8 ,is ,he1 or is ,he n1 de>] to y n[ ?an !n80 ,i ?\ght ab\t x a m9ute1 & !n turn$ my face up to h]4 8,m>y1 :at a light 9 y\r eyes6 ,h[ is x80 ,x came ov] me sl[ly1 b x came ) su* a passion ( gratitude & unwor?9ess1 t ,i sc>cely knew h[ to tell h]--t ,he nev] has be5 to me1 9 all my life1 :at he is n[ at ! end ( ^! six mon?s4 ,he 0 once an ab/ract ,gr&eur :i* ,i /ruggl$ m 9 fe> ?an love to please4 ,he has become a liv+ ,pres5ce1 de> & real4 8,no dead fact /r&$ on ! %ore ,( ! oblivi\s ye>s2 ,b w>m1 sweet1 t5d]1 ev5 yet ,a pres5t help40 444 ,he 0 an inexorable ,my/]y :o took ,roy f me to lose him 9 ! gl>e ( a m inexorable heav54 ,he is a ,fa!r :o knew bett] ?an we t we %\ld be p>t$ = a :ile2 b ,he only means x to be a little :ile4 ,he is keep+ him = me to f9d 9 ! flu% ( "s summ] morn+1 on :i* ,i %all op5 my eyes no less naturally ?an ,i op5 !m on ,june sunrises n[4 ,i always h t fancy ( go+ 9 ! morn+4 ,%e und]/ood :at ,i c\ld n tell h]1 & said1 8,i ?\ght x w\ld be s40 8,y1 ,8 int]pret]1 h done x10 ,i answ]$ h]4 8,8 heav5 %[s :at ,he is1--don't y see8--l a fri5d's lett]4 ,i c\ld no m g back to my old grop+ relations to ,him1 ?an ,i c\ld make ( y ! dim & some:at apocryphal ,we/]n ,auntie t y 7 be=e ,i saw y40 8,:i* 0 precisely :y ,i h dealt ) ?is subject z ,i h10 %e said4 8,y _h all y\r life be5 direct$ to an indef9ite heav51 :]e ! glory ( ,god 0 to cr[d out all individuality & all human joy f ,8 mo/ individual & human creatures1 till ! 8,glory ( ,god0 _h become no?+ b a "n & a dread to y4 ,s ,i let ^? ?ree words slide by1 & tri$ to br+ y to !m1 z ,*ri/ br\ght ! ,twelve to believe 9 him1 #8= ! works' sake4' 8,yes1 my *ild2 cl++ human loves1 /ifl$ long+s1 cries = re/1 =gott5 hopes1 %all h _! answ]4 ,:atev] ! bewild]m5t ( beauties fold$ away = u 9 heav5ly nature & art1 !y %all /rive ) ea* o!r to make u glad4 ,^! ?+s h _! pleasant place4 ,b1 ?r\gh et]nity1 !re w be always some?+ beyond & de>] ?an ! de>e/ ( !m4 ,god himself w be fir/1--naturally & ( necessity1 )\t /ra9 or /ruggle1 fir/40 ,:5 ,i sat "h la/ w9t] ) my dead 9 my h\se1 ^? words w\ld h r\s$ 9 me an agony ( wild que/ion+s4 ,i %\ld h beat5 ab\t !m & beat5 aga9/ !m1 & cri$ 9 my hone/ he>t t !y 7 false4 ,i knew t ,i lov$ ,roy m ?an ,i lov$ su* a ,be+ z ,god seem$ to me !n to be4 ,n[1 !y /rike me z simply & pleasantly true4 ,! m ,i love ,roy1 ! m ,i love ,him4 ,he loves u bo?4 8,y see x c\ld n be o!rwise10 %e w5t on1 speak+ l[4 8,:]e w\ld y be1 or ,i1 or !y :o seem to u s mu* de>] & bett] ?an ourselves1 if x 7 n = ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,:at c heav5 be to u1 b a song ( ! love t is ! same to u ye/]day1 to-day1 & =ev]1--t1 9 ! my/]y ( an int5sity :i* we %all p]haps nev] und]/&1 c\ld *oose dea? & be glad 9 ! *oos+1 &1 :at is m ?an t1 c\ld live life = u = ?ree-&-?irty ye>s8 8,i _c /ra9 my fai?--or r my common s5se--to ! rhapsodies ) :i* _m p fill heav54 ,b x seems to me l ?is3 ,a fri5d goes away f u1 & x may be seas or worlds t lie betwe5 u1 & we love him4 ,he leaves beh9d him 8 little keepsakes2 a lock ( hair to curl ab\t our f+]s2 a picture t has caught ! trick ( 8 eyes or smile2 a book1 a fl[]1 a lett]4 ,:at we d ) ! curl+ hair1 :at we say to ! picture1 :at we dream ov] ! fl[] & ! lett]1 nobody kn[s b ourselves4 ,p h risk$ life = su* mem5toes4 ,yet :o loves ! s5seless gift m ?an ! giv]1--! curl m ?an ! "y =ehead on :i* x fell1--! lett] m ?an ! h& :i* trac$ x8 8,s x seems to me t we %all le>n to see 9 ,god ! c5tre ( all possibilities ( joy4 ,! greate/ ( ^! less] delights is b ! great] measure ( ,8 fri5d%ip4 ,!y w n mean less ( pleasure1 b m ( ,him4 ,!y w n 8pale10 z ,dr4 ,bl& w\ld say4 ,human de>ness w wax1 n wane1 9 heav52 b human fri5ds w be lov$ = love ( ,him40 8,i see2 t helps me2 l a tor* 9 a d>k room4 ,b !re w be %ad[s 9 ! corn]s4 ,d y suppose t we %all ev] fully feel x 9 ! body80 8,9 ! body1 probably n4 ,we see ?r\gh a glass s d>kly t ! temptation to idolatry is always our greate/4 ,gold5 images did n die ) ,paganism4 ,at times ,i fancy t1 some:]e betwe5 ?is _w & ano!r1 a revelation w come ^u u l a fla%1 ( :at s9 really is1--su* a revelation1 light+ up ! lurid backgr\nd ( our pa/ 9 su* colors1 t ! consci\sness ( :at ,*ri/ has done = u w be = a "t z mu* z he>t c be>4 ,aft] t1 ! my/]y w be1 n h[ to love ,him mo/1 b t we ev] c\ld h lov$ any creature or ?+ z mu*40 8,we s]ve ,god q z mu* by active "w z by special pray]1 "h10 ,i said aft] "s ?\ght2 8h[ w x be !re80 8,we mu/ be busily at "w c]ta9ly2 b ,i ?9k !re mu/ naturally be m communion ) ,him !n4 ,n[1 ?is phrase 8communion ) ,god0 has be5 worn1 & n always well worn4 8,pray] means to u1 9 ?is life1 m (t5 p5it5t confession ?an happy int]*ange ( ?\ght ) ,him4 ,x is associat$1 too1 ) a*+ limbs & sleepy eyes1 & nights :5 ! lamp goes out4 ,ob/acles1 moral & physical1 /& 9 ! way ( our kn[+ exactly :at x may mean 9 ! ideal ( x4 8,my be/ conception ( x lies 9 ! fri5d%ip ( ! man ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,i suppose he w be> ) him1 et]nally1 ! humanity :i* he took up ) him f ! ,judean hills4 ,i imag9e t we %all see him 9 visible =m l ourselves1 among u1 yet n ( u2 t he1 himself1 is 8,gott mit ihn502 t we %all talk ) him z a man talke? ) 8 fri5d4 ,p]haps1 b[$ & hu%$ at 8 de> feet1 we %all he> f 8 own lips ! /ory ( ,naz>e?1 ( ,be?any1 ( ,golgo?a1 ( ! *illy m\nta9s :]e he us$ to pray all night long = u2 ( ! des]t places :]e he hung]$2 ( 8 cry = help--?9k1 ,m>y--,86--:5 !re 0 n "o 9 all ! _w to he> x1 & !re 0 sil5ce 9 heav51 :ile angels /r5g!n$ him & man =sook him4 ,p]haps 8 voice--! v voice :i* has s\nd$ :isp]+ ?r\gh our tr\bl$ life--8,c\ld ye n wat* "o h\r80--%all unfold its p]plex$ mean+s2 %all make its r\gh places pla92 %all %[ u /ep by /ep ! m]ciful way by :i* he l$ u to ! h\r2 %all po9t out to u1 joy by joy1 ! surprises t he has be5 plann+ = u1 j z ! old fa!r 9 ! /ory plann$ to surprise 8 wayw>d boy come home4 8,& su* a #8communion1'--:i* is n too mu*1 nor yet en\gh1 to d>e to expect ( a ,god :o 0 ! #8fri5d' ( ,abraham1 :o #8walk$' ) ,eno*1 :o did n call fi%]m5 8 s]vants1--su* w be t #8pres5ce ( ,god1' t #8adoration1' on :i* we h look$ f af> (f ) despair+ eyes t wept1 !y 7 s dazzl$1 & turn$ !mselves away z f ! ?+ !y greatly fe>$40 ,i ?9k we nei!r ( u c>$ to talk = a :ile aft] ?is4 ,some?+ made me =get ev5 t ,i 0 go+ to see ,roy 9 heav54 8,?ree-&-?irty ye>s4 ,?ree-&-?irty ye>s40 ,! words rang !mselves ov]4 8,x is on ! humanity ( ,*ri/10 %e said aft] "s mus+1 8t all my o!r reasons = hop+ = su* a heav5 z ,i hope =1 re/ = f\ndation4 ,he kn[s exactly :at we are1 = he has be5 "o ( u2 exactly :at we hope & fe> & crave1 = he has hop$ & fe>$ & crav$1 n ! less humanly1 b only m int5sely4 8#8,if x 7 n s1'--d y take 9 ! ?\ghtful t5d]ness ( t8 ,a "m1 /ill+ h] fright5$ *ild 9 ! d>k1 might speak j s1--#8if x 7 n s1 ,i w\ld h told y4' ,t brood+ love makes room = all t we c want4 ,he has s\nd$ e deep ( a tr\bl$ & tempt$ life4 ,:o s sure z he to und]/& h[ to prep>e a place :]e tr\bl$ & tempt$ lives may gr[ s]5e8 ,fur!r ?an ?is2 s9ce he /&s z our great ,type1 no less 9 dea? & aft] ?an be=e x1 he answ]s = u _m ( ^! less] que/ions on ! ev5t ( :i* s mu* ( our happ9ess dep5ds4 8,%all we lose our p]sonality 9 a vague ocean ( e!r1--y "o puff ( gas1 ,i ano!r8-- 8,he1 ) 8 own w\nd$ body1 rose & ate & walk$ & talk$4 8,is all memory ( ?is life to be swept away8-- 8,he1 aris51 has =gott5 no?+4 ,he waits to meet 8 disciples at ! old1 famili> places2 z naturally z if he _h nev] be5 p>t$ f !m1 he falls 9 ) ! curr5t ( _! ?\ghts4 8,has any "o tr\bl$ u ) fe>s t 9 ! glorifi$ cr[ds ( heav5 we may miss a face de>] ?an all ! _w to u8-- 8,he made himself kn[n to 8 fri5ds2 ,m>y1 & ! two at ,emmaus1 & ! bewild]$ gr\p pray+ & p]plex$ 9 _! bolt$ room4 8,d we we>y ourselves ) speculations :e!r human loves c outlive ! %ock ( dea?8-- 8,m>y knew h[ ,he lov$ h]1 :51 turn+1 %e he>d him call h] by h] "n4 ,!y knew1 ^: he>ts #8burn$ )9 !m :ile he talk$ ) !m by ! way1 & :5 he t>ri$ ) !m1 ! day be+ f> sp5t4'0 8,& = ! re/80 8,= ! re/1 ab\t :i* ,he 0 sil5t1 we c tru/ him1 & if1 tru/+1 we please ourselves ) fancies1 he w\ld be ! la/ to ?9k x blame to u4 ,!re is "o promise :i* gr[s ^u me ! m ,i /udy x1 #8,he t sp>$ n 8 own ,son1 h[ %all he n also ) him freely give u all ?+s8' ,sometimes ,i wond] if t does n infold a beautiful d\ble ent5dre1 a h9t ( mu* t y & ,i h conjectur$1--z "o ?r[s d[n a h9t ( a surprise to a *ild4 8,!n !re is t pl$ge to ^? :o seek fir/ ,8 k+dom3 #8,all ^! ?+s %all be add$ unto y4' #8,^! ?+s1' 7 food & clo?+1 7 v>ieties ( mat]ial delight1 & ! words 7 spok5 to m5 :o liv$ hungry1 begg>$1 & di$ ! dea? ( outca/s4 ,if ?is passage c\ld be tak5 lit]ally1 x w\ld be v significant 9 its be>+ on ! future life2 = ,*ri/ mu/ keep 8 promise to ! lett]1 9 "o _w or ano!r4 ,x may be wr5*+ ! v]se1 n z a v]se1 b f ! gra9 ( ! argum5t1 to insi/ on ! lit]al int]pretation1--?\gh ,i am n sure40 ,,xiv4 ,augu/ #ae4 ,i ask$ ! o!r day1 wond]+ :e!r all m9i/]s 7 l ,dr4 ,bl&1 :at ,uncle ,=cey! us$ to believe ab\t heav54 8,v mu* :at ,i d10 %e said4 8,^! que/ions 7 br\ght home to him1 e>ly 9 life1 by ! dea? ( a v de> si/]2 he _h ?\ght mu* ab\t !m4 ,i ?9k "o ( ! ?+s t s mu* atta*$ 8 p to him 0 ! way he _h ( weav+ _! future life 9 ) ?is1 till x grew naturally & pleasantly into _! frequ5t ?\ght4 ,o yes1 y\r uncle suppli$ me ) half ( my pro(-texts40 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ has n look$ q well ( late1 ,i fancy2 ?\gh x may be only fancy4 ,%e has n spok5 ( x1 except "o day :5 ,i told h] t %e look$ pale4 ,x 0 ! heat1 %e said4 #bj?4 ,little ,clo came ov] to-night4 ,i believe %e ?9ks ,aunt ,w9ifr$ ! be/ fri5d %e has 9 ! _w4 ,auntie has become mu* atta*$ to all h] s*ol>s1 & has a r>e p[] ( w9n+ h] way into _! confid5ce4 ,!y come to h] ) all _! little int]e/s1--ev]y?+1 f sav+ _! s\ls to trimm+ a bonnet4 ,clo1 h[ev]1 is ! favorite1 z ,i pr$ict$4 ,%e look$ a bit blue to-night1 z girls w look2 9 fact1 h] face always has a t+e ( sadness ab\t x4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 und]/&+ at a glance t ! *ild 0 n 9 a mood to talk be=e a ?ird1 l$ h] away into ! g>d51 & !y 7 gone a long "t4 ,:5 x grew d>k1 ,i saw !m com+ up ! pa?1 ,clo's h& lock$ 9 h] tea*]'s1 & h] face1 :i* 0 wet1 upturn$ l a *ild's4 ,!y /roll$ to ! gate1 l+]$ a little to talk1 & !n ,clo said good night )\t com+ 94 ,auntie sat = a :ile aft] %e _h gone1 ?9k+ h] ov]1 ,i c\ld see4 8,poor ?+60 %e said at la/1 half to h]self1 half to me1--8poor little fooli% ?+6 ,?is is :]e ! dreadful individuality ( a human s\l irks me4 ,!re comes a po9t1 beyond :i* y c't help p40 8,:at has happ5$ to ,clo80 8,no?+1 lately4 ,x has be5 happ5+ = two ye>s4 ,two mis]able ye>s are an et]nity1 at ,clo's age4 ,x is ! old /ory1--a summ] bo>d]2 a little flirt+2 a little dream+2 a little pa92 !n autumn1 & ! nuts dropp+ on ! leaves1 & he 0 gone1--& knew n :at he did1--& ! *ild wak$ up4 ,!re 0 ! future2 to bake & sweep1 to g to sew+-circles1 & s+ 9 ! *oir1 & be> ! moonlight nights1--& %e lov$ him4 ,%e has liv$ ?r\gh two ye>s ( x1 & %e loves him n[4 ,reason w n rea* su* a passion 9 a girl l ,clo4 ,i did n tell h] t %e w\ld put x away ) o!r girli% ?+s1 & laugh at x h]self "s happy day1 z wom5 h laugh$ at _! "y fancies be=e h]2 p>tly because t w\ld be a c]ta9 way ( repell+ h] confid5ce1--%e does n believe x1 & my believ+ c\ld n make h]2 p>tly because ,i am n q sure ab\t x myself4 ,clo has a good deal ( ! woman ab\t h]2 h] introspective life is int5se4 ,%e may *]i% ?is sweet mis]y z %e does h] musical ta/es1 till x has /ruck deep root4 ,!re is no?+ 9 ! excell5t ,mrs4 ,b5tley's h\sehold1 nor 9 ,hom] any:]e1 to draw ! girl out f h]self 9 "t to prev5t ! dream f becom+ a reality40 8,poor little ?+6 ,:at did y say to h]80 8,y ought to h he>d :at %e said to me6 ,i wi% ,i 7 at lib]ty to tell y ! :ole /ory4 ,:at tr\bles h] mo/ is t x is n go+ to help ! matt] any to die4 #8,o ,mrs4 ,=cey!1' %e says1 9 a tone t is en\gh to give ! he>t-a*e1 ev5 to su* an old woman z ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 #8,o ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 :at is go+ to become ( me up !re8 ,he nev] lov$ me1 y see1 & he nev]1 nev] w1 & he w h "s beautiful1 good wife ( 8 own1 & ,i won't h anybody6 ,= ,i c't love anybody else1--,i've tri$2 ,i tri$ j z h>d z ,i c\ld to love my c\s9 ',b92 he's real good1 &--,i'm--afraid ',b9 likes me1 ?\gh ,i guess he likes 8 c>pet-sweep]s bett]4 ,o1 sometimes ,i ?9k1 & ?9k1 till x seems z if ,i c\ld n be> x6 ,i don't see h[ ,god c make me happy4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld be buri$ up & g to sleep1 & nev] h any heav56'0 8,& y told h]--80 8,t %e %\ld h him !re4 ,t is1 if n himself1 some?+1--somebody :o w\ld s mu* m ?an fill 8 place1 t %e w\ld nev] h a lonely or unlov$ m9ute4 ,h] eyes bright5$1 & %ad$1 & pond]$1 d\bt+4 ,%e #8didn't see h[ x c\ld ev] be4' ,i told h] n to try & see h[1 b to leave x to ,*ri/4 ,he knew all ab\t ?is little tr\ble ( h]s1 & he w\ld make x "r4 8#8,w he8' %e que/ion$1 sigh+2 #8b !re are s _m ( u6 ,!re's ',b91 & a pl5ty m1 & ,i don't see h[ x's go+ to be smoo!d out4 ,ev]y?+ is 9 a jumble1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 don't y see8 = "s p c't l & keep lik+ s _m times4' ,some?+ came into my m9d ab\t ! r\gh places t %all be made pla91 & ! crook$ ?+s /raight4 ,i tri$ to expla9 to h]1 & at la/ ,i kiss$ away h] te>s1 & s5t h] home1 if n exactly com=t$1 a little less mis]able1 ,i ?9k1 ?an :5 %e came4 ,ah1 well1--,i wond] myself sometimes ab\t ^! #8crook$ ?+s'2 b1 ?\gh ,i wond]1 ,i nev] d\bt40 ,%e f9i%$ h] s5t5ce some:at hurri$ly1 & half />t$ f h] *air1 rais+ bo? h&s ) a quick1 involunt>y motion t attract$ my notice4 ,! lights came 9 j !n1 &1 unless ,i am mu* mi/ak51 h] face %[$ pal] ?an usual2 b :5 ,i ask$ h] if %e felt fa9t1 %e said1 8,o no1 ,i believe ,i am a little tir$1 & w g to b$40 ,septemb] #a4 ,i am glad t ! summ] is ov]4 ,?is heat has c]ta9ly worn on ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 ) t k9d ( we> :i* slides p into confirm$ invalidism4 ,i suppose %e w\ld be> x 9 h] sa9tly way1 z %e be>s ev]y?+1 b x w\ld be a bitt] cup = h]4 ,i "k %e 0 always pale1 b ?is is a pal5ess :i*-- ,night4 ,a dreadful ?+ has happ5$6 ,i 0 9 ! middle ( my s5t5ce1 :5 ,i he>d a commotion 9 ! /reet1 & a *ild's voice %\t+ incoh]5tly some?+ ab\t ! doctor1 & 8"m's kill$6 ,o1 "m's kill$6 "m's burnt to dea?60 ,i 0 at ! w9d[ 9 "t to see a blond-hair$ girl runn+ wildly pa/ ! h\se1 & to see t x 0 ,molly ,bl&4 ,at ! same mom5t ,i saw ,aunt ,w9ifr$ snat*+ h] hat f its nail 9 ! entry4 ,%e beckon$ to me to foll[1 & we 7 half-way ov] to ! p>sonage be=e ,i _h a di/9ct ?\ght ( :at ,i 0 ab\t4 ,we came ^u a horrible sc5e4 ,dr4 ,bl& 0 try+ to d ev]y?+ alone2 !re 0 n a woman 9 ! h\se to help him1 = !y h nev] be5 able to keep a s]vant1 & none ( ! neighbors _h _h "t to be !re be=e u4 ,! poor husb& 0 gr[+ fa9t1 ,i ?9k4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ saw by a look t he c\ld n be> mu* m1 s5t him aft] ,molly = ! doctor1 & took ev]y?+ meantime into h] own *>ge4 ,i %all n write d[n a ^w ( x4 ,x 0 a sight t1 once se51 w nev] leave me z long z ,i live4 ,my n]ves are ?or\ghly %ak5 by x1 & x mu/ be put out ( ?\ght z f> z possible4 ,x seems t ! little boy--! baby--crept into ! kit*5 by himself1 & began to ?r[ ! cont5ts ( ! mat*-box on ! /ove1 8to make a bonfire10 ! poor little fell[ said4 ,9 five m9utes 8 apron 0 ablaze4 ,8 "m 0 on ! spot at 8 fir/ cry1 & smo!r$ ! little apron1 & sav$ ! *ild1 b h] dress 0 musl91 & ev]ybody 0 too f> (f to he> h] at fir/1--& by ! "t h] husb& came 9 f ! g>d5 x 0 too late4 ,%e is liv+ yet4 ,h] husb&1 pac+ ! room back & =?1 & cr\*+ on 8 knees by ! h\r1 is pray+ ,god to let h] die be=e ! morn+4 ,morn+4 ,!re is no *ance ( life1 ! doctor says4 ,b he has be5 able to f9d some?+ t has less5$ h] suff]+s4 ,%e lies p>tially unconsci\s4 ,w$nesday night4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ & ,i 7 ov] at ! p>sonage to-night1 :5 %e r\s$ a little f h] /upor & recogniz$ u4 ,%e spoke to h] husb&1 & kiss$ me good by1 & ask$ = ! *ildr54 ,!y 7 play+ s(tly 9 ! next room2 we s5t = !m1 & !y came 91--! f\r unconsci\s1 mo!rless little ?+s1--) ! sunlight 9 _! hair4 ,! bitt]ness ( dea? came into h] m>r$ face at sight ( !m1 & %e rais$ h] h&s to ,auntie--to ! only o!r "m !re--) a sudd5 helpless cry3 8,i c\ld be> x1 ,i c\ld be> x1 if x w]5't = !m4 ,)\t any "m all _! lives1--su* little ?+s1--& to g away :]e ,i c't d a s+le ?+ = !m60 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ /oop$ d[n & spoke l[1 b decid$ly4 8,y w d = !m4 ,god kn[s all ab\t x4 ,he w n s5d y away f !m4 ,y %all be j z mu* _! "m1 e day ( _! lives1 z y h be5 "h4 ,p]haps !re is some?+ to d = !m :i* y nev] c\ld h done "h4 ,he sees4 ,he loves !m4 ,he loves y40 ,if ,i c\ld pa9t1 ,i might pa9t ! look t /ruck ?r\gh & ?r\gh t woman's dy+ face2 b words _c t\* x4 ,if ,i 7 ,aunt ,w9ifr$1 ,i %\ld bless ,god on my knees to-night = hav+ %[n me h[ to give su* ease to a s\l 9 dea?4 ,?ursday morn+4 ,god is m]ciful4 ,mrs4 ,bl& di$ at five o'clock4 #aj?4 ,h[ su* a voice f ! heav5s %ocks "o out ( ! repose ( calm sorr[s & ( calm joys4 ,?is has come & gone s sudd5ly t ,i _c adju/ x to any quiet & tru/ful ?9k+ yet4 ,! :ole p>i% m\rns excit$ly2 =1 ?\gh !y work$ _! m9i/]'s wife h>d1 !y lov$ h] well4 ,i _c talk x ov] ) ! re/4 ,x j>s4 ,horror %\ld nev] be dissect$4 ,besides1 my he>t is too full ( ^? f\r little *ildr5 ) ! sunlight 9 _! hair & ! unconsci\sness 9 _! eyes4 #ae?4 ,mrs4 ,quirk came ov] to-day 9 great p]plexity4 ,%e _h j come f ! m9i/]'s4 8,i don't "k :at we're a go9' to d ) him60 %e exclaim$ 9 a gu% ( impati5t1 uncompreh5d+ sympa?y2 8y c't let a man take on t way mu* long]4 ,he'll worry himself sick1 & !n we %all ei!r lose him or h to pay 8 bills to ,europe6 ,:y1 he je/ /ops 9 ! h\se1 & walks 8 /udy up & d[n1 day & night2 or else he je/ sets & sets & don't notice nobody b ! *ildr54 ,n[ ,i've je/ b5 ov] mak9' him "s *ick5-pie1--he us$ to set a sight by my *ick5-pie1--& he made believe to eat x1 'cause ,i'd b5 at ! tr\ble1 ,i suppose1 b h[ mu* d y suppose he swall[$8 ,je/ ?ree m\?fuls6 ,?9ks says ,i1 ,i won't sp5d my "t ov] *ick5-pie = ! afflict$ ag91 & on iron+-day1 too6 ,:5 ,i knock$ at ! /udy door1 he said1 #8,come 91 & /opp$ 8 walk9' & turn$ z quick4 8#8,o1' says he1 #8good morn+4 ,i ?\ght x 0 ,mrs4 ,=cey!4' 8,i told him no1 ,i wasn't ,mrs4 ,=cey!1 b ,i'd come to com=t him 9 8 sorr] all ! same4 ,b t's ! only ?+ ,i h ag9 our m9i/]4 ,he won't be com=t$4 ,m>y ,ann ,jacobs1 :o's b5 !re k9d ( look+ aft] ! *ildr5 & ?+s = him1 y "k1 s5ce ! fun]al--%e says he's ask$ ?ree or f\r times = y1 ,mrs4 ,=cey!4 ,!re's b5 pl5ty ( 8 p 9 to see him1 b y hav5't b5 nigh him1 ,m>y ,ann says40 8,i /ay$ away because ,i ?\ght ! pres5ce ( fri5ds at ?is "t w\ld be an intrusion10 ,auntie said2 8b if he w\ld l to see me1 t alt]s ! case4 ,i w g1 c]ta9ly40 8,i don't "k10 sugge/$ ,mrs4 ,quirk1 look+ ov] ! tops ( h] spectacles1--8,i s'pose x's prop] en\gh1 b y be9' a wid[1 y "k1 & 8 wife--0 ,aunt ,w9ifr$'s eyes %ot fire4 ,%e /ood up & turn$ ^u ,mrs4 ,quirk ) a look ! l ( :i* ,i presume t wor?y lady _h nev] se5 be=e1 & is n likely to see soon aga9 7x gave ! beautiful scorn ( a ,z5obia to h] fair1 slight face71 mov$ h] lips slightly1 b said no?+1 put on h] bonnet1 & w5t /raight to ,dr4 ,bl&'s4 ,! m9i/]1 !y told h]1 0 9 8 /udy4 ,%e knock$ lightly at ! door1 & 0 bidd5 9 a lifeless voice to ent]4 ,%ades & bl9ds 7 drawn1 & ! gl>e ( ! sun q %ut out4 ,dr4 ,bl& sat by 8 /udy-table1 ) 8 face ^u 8 h&s4 ,a ,bible lay op5 be=e him4 ,x _h be5 lately us$2 ! leaves 7 wet4 ,he rais$ 8 head deject$ly1 b smil$ :5 he saw :o x 04 ,he _h be5 ?9k+ ab\t h]1 he said1 & 0 glad t %e _h come4 ,i d n "k all t pass$ betwe5 !m1 b ,i ga!r1 f su* h9ts z ,auntie 9 h] unconsci\sness ?r[s out1 t %e _h ?+s to say :i* t\*$ "s com=tless places 9 ! man's he>t4 ,no ,greek & ,hebrew 8orig9al10 no poli%$ dogma1 no l9k 9 8 /]eotyp$ logic1 n "o ( 8 eloqu5t s]mons on ! future /ate1 came to 8 relief4 ,^! 7 meant = happy days4 ,!y rang cold z /eel ^u ! w>m ne$s ( an afflict$ man4 ,br\ght face to face1 & %>ply1 ) ! blank heav5 ( 8 belief1 he /ood up f be=e 8 dead1 & grop$ ab\t x1 & cri$ out aga9/ x 9 ! bitt]ness ( 8 s\l4 8,i _h no *ance to prep>e myself to b[ to ! w ( ,god10 he said1 8 res]v$ m9i/]ial mann] 9 curi\s contra/ ) ! cag$ way 9 :i* he 0 pac+ ! room1--8,i _h no *ance4 ,i am tak5 by surprise1 z by a ?ief 9 ! night4 ,i _h a great deal to say to h]1 & !re 0 no "t4 ,%e c\ld tell me :at to d ) my poor little *ildr54 ,i want$ to tell h] o!r ?+s4 ,i want$ to tell h]--,p]haps we all ( u h our regrets :5 ! ,"l removes our fri5ds2 we may h done or left undone _m ?+s2 we might h made !m happi]4 ,my m9d does n re/ ) assurance 9 its conceptions ( ! heav5ly /ate4 ,if ,i nev] c tell h]--0 ,he /opp$ abruptly1 & pac$ into ! d>ke/ %ad[s ( ! %ad[$ room1 8 face turn$ away4 8,y said once "s pleasant ?+s ab\t heav580 he said at la/1 half appeal+ly1 /opp+ 9 front ( h]1 hesitat+2 l a man & l a m9i/]1 h>dly ready to come ) all ! le>n+ ( 8 s*ools & comm5tators & sit at ! feet ( a woman4 ,%e talk$ ) him = a "t 9 h] unobtrusive way1 def]r+1 :5 %e hone/ly c\ld1 to 8 cl]ical judgm5t1 & c>eful n to w\nd him by any ^w2 b frankly & cle>ly1 z %e always talks4 ,:5 %e rose to g he ?ank$ h] quietly4 8,?is is a some:at novel tra9 ( ?\ght to me10 he said2 8,i hope x may n prove an unscriptural "o4 ,i h be5 read+ ! book ( ,revelation to-day ) ^! que/ions especially 9 m9d4 ,we are nev] too old to le>n4 ,"s passages may be capable ( o!r int]pretations ?an ,i h =m]ly giv5 !m4 ,no matt] :at ,i wi%1 y see1 ,i mu/ be guid$ by ! ,^w ( my ,god40 ,auntie says t %e nev] respect$ ! man s mu* z %e did :51 he>+ ^? words1 %e look$ up into 8 hagg>d face1 convuls$ ) its human pa9 & long+4 8,i hope y d n ?9k t ,i am n guid$ by ! ,^w ( ,god10 %e answ]$4 8,i mean to be40 8,i "k y mean to be10 he said cordially4 8,i d n say t y are n4 ,i may come to see t y are1 & t y are "r4 ,x w be a peaceful day = me if ,i c ev] q agree ) y\r me?ods ( reason+4 ,b ,i mu/ ?9k ^! ?+s ov]4 ,i ?ank y once m = com+4 ,y\r sympa?y is grateful to me40 ,j z %e clos$ ! door he call$ h] back4 8,see10 he said1 ) a sadd5$ smile4 8,at lea/ ,i %all nev] prea* ?is aga94 ,x seems to me t life is always undo+ = u some?+ t we h j labori\sly done40 ,he held up be=e h] a mass ( old blue manuscript1 & ?rew x1 z he spoke1 ^u ! emb]s left 9 8 grate4 ,x smok$ & blaz$ up & burn$ out4 ,x 0 t s]mon on heav5 ( :i* !re is an ab/ract 9 ?is j\rnal4 #bj?4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ hir$ ,mr4 ,tripp's gray ?is aft]noon1 & drove to ,ea/ ,hom] on "s unexpla9$ err&4 ,%e did n invite me to g ) h]1 & ,fai?1 ?\gh %e teas$ impressively1 0 left at home4 ,h] "m 0 gone till late1--s late t ,i _h begun to be anxi\s ab\t h]1 & he>d ?r\gh ! d>k ! fir/ s\nd ( ! buggy :eels1 ) great relief4 ,%e look$ v tir$ :5 ,i met h] at ! gate4 ,%e _h n be5 able1 %e said1 to accompli% h] err& at ,ea/ ,hom]1 & f !re _h gone to ,worce/] by railroad1 leav+ ,old ,gray at ! ,ea/ ,hom] ,eagle till h] return4 ,%e told me no?+ m1 & ,i ask$ no que/ions4 ,,xv4 ,sunday4 ,fai? has behav$ l a wit* all day4 ,%e knock$ d[n ?ree crickets & six hymn-books 9 *ur* ?is morn+1 & ?is aft]noon horrifi$ ! assembl$ & dev\t congregation by turn+ r\nd 9 ! middle ( ! long pray]1 &1 9 a l\d & di/9ct voice1 ask+ ,mrs4 ,quirk = 8#8no!r ^? pepp'm9ts su* z y gave me "o ,sunday a good _m ye>s ago1 y 'memb]40 ,aft] *ur*1 h] "m tri$ a few ,bible que/ions to keep h] /ill4 8,fai?1 :o 0 ,*ri/'s fa!r80 8,j]usalem60 said ,fai?1 promptly4 8,:]e did 8 p>5ts take ,jesus :5 !y fl$ f ,h]od80 8,o1 to ,europe4 ,( c\rse ,i knew t6 ,ev]ybody goes to ,europe40 ,to-night1 :5 h] "m _h put h] to b$1 %e came d[n laugh+4 8,fai? does seem to h a h>d "t ) ! ,"l's ,pray]4 ,to-night1 be+ v sleepy & 9 a hurry to f9i%1 %e proce$$ ) great solemnity3--#8,our ,fa!r :o art 9 heav51 hall[$ be ?y "n2 six days %alt ?\ labor & d all ?y "w1 &--,oh6' 8,i 0 j ?9k+ h[ amus$ h] fa!r mu/ be40 ,auntie says _m su* ?+s4 ,i _c expla9 h[ pleasantly !y /rike me1 nor h[ !y help me4 #bi?4 ,dr4 ,bl& gave u a good s]mon ye/]day4 ,!re is an indescribable *ange 9 all 8 s]mons4 ,!re is a *ange1 too1 9 ! man1 & t some?+ m ?an ! hagg>dness ( grief4 ,i n only respect him & am sorry = him1 b ,i feel m ready to be taught by him ?an ev] be=e4 ,a c]ta9 indef9able humanness s(t5s 8 eyes & tones1 & seems to be creep+ into ev]y?+ t he says4 ,yet1 on ! o!r h&1 8 p say t !y h nev] he>d him speak su* pleasant1 helpful ?+s conc]n+ 8 & _! relations to ,god4 ,i met him ! o!r night1 com+ away f 8 wife's grave1 & 0 /ruck by ! expression ( 8 face4 ,i wond]$ if he 7 n sl[ly f9d+ ! 8peaceful day10 ( :i* he told ,aunt ,w9ifr$4 ,%e1 by ! way1 has tak5 ano!r ( h] my/]i\s trips to ,worce/]4 #cj?4 ,we 7 wond]+ to-day :]e x w be1--,i mean heav54 8,x is impossible to d m ?an wond]10 ,auntie said1 8?\gh we are explicitly told t !re w be new heav5s & a new e>?1 :i* seems1 if any?+ c be tak5 lit]ally 9 ! ,bible1 to po9t to ?is _w z ! future home ( at lea/ "s ( u40 8,n = all ( u1 ( c\rse80 8,i don't feel sure4 ,i "k t somebody sp5t 8 valuable "t 9 e/imat+ t all ! p :o h liv$ & di$ ^u ! e>? w\ld cov] x1 alive or buri$1 twice ov]2 b ,i "k t somebody else claims ) equal solemnity to h discov]$ t !y c\ld all be buri$ 9 ! ,/ate ( ,p5nsylvania6 ,b x w\ld be ( little consequ5ce if we c\ld n all f9d room "h1 s9ce !re mu/ be o!r provision = u40 8,:y80 8,c]ta9ly !re is #8a place' 9 :i* we are promis$ t we %all be #8) ,*ri/1' ?is _w be+ yet ! great !atre ( human life & battle-gr\nd ( ,satan2 no place1 c]ta9ly1 9 :i* to conf9e a happy s\l )\t prospect ( release4 ,! ,spirituali/ic notion ( #8circles' ( dead fri5ds revolv+ ov] u is to me intol]able4 ,i want my husb& ) me :5 ,i ne$ him1 b ,i hope he has a place to be happy 91 :i* is out ( ?is w(ul _w4 8,! old a/ronomical idea1 />s ar\nd a sun1 & sy/ems ar\nd a c5tre1 & t c5tre ! ,?rone ( ,god1 is n an unreasonable "o4 ,isaac ,taylor1 among 8 v>i\s conjectures1 incl9es1 ,i fancy1 to suppose t ! sun ( ea* sy/em is ! heav5 ( t sy/em4 ,?\gh ! glory ( ,god may be m directly & impressively exhibit$ 9 "o place ?an 9 ano!r1 we may live 9 diff]5t planets1 & "s ( u1 aft] its de/ruction & r5ovation1 on ?is same de> old1 happy & mis]able1 lov$ & maltreat$ e>?4 ,i hope ,i %all be "o ( !m4 ,i %\ld l to come back & build me a beautiful home 9 ,kansas1--,i mean 9 :at 0 ,kansas1--among ! happy p & ! famili>1 transfigur$ spots :]e ,john & ,i work$ = ,god s long toge!r4 ,t--) my de> ,"l to see & speak ) e day--w\ld be #8,heav5 our ,home4'0 8,!re w be no days1 !n80 8,!re w be succession ( "t4 ,!re may n be alt]nations ( tw5ty-f\r h\rs d>k or light1 b #8,i use ) !e an e>?ly language1' z ! wife said 9 t beautiful little #8,awak5+1' ( ,!rrm9's4 ,d y rememb] x8 ,d read x ov]1 if y hav5't read x lately4 8,z to our com+ back "h1 !re is an e*o to ,pet]'s ass]tion1 9 ! idea ( a _w "u a curse1 de/roy$ & reg5]at$1--! atonem5t ( ,*ri/ rea*+1 ) some?+ m ?an poetic =ce1 ! v s&s ( ! e>? :i* he trod ) ble$+ feet to make himself its ,savi\r4 ,t makes me feel--don't y see8--:at a ta9t !re is 9 s94 ,if dumb du/ is to h su* awful cleans+1 :at mu/ be ne$$ = y & me8 8,h[ _m pleasant talks we h _h ab\t ^! ?+s1 ,m>y6 ,well1 x _c be long1 at ! longe/1 be=e we "k1 ev5 z we are kn[n40 ,i look$ at h] smil+ :ite face1--x is always v :ite n[1--& some?+ /ruck sl[ly ?r\gh me1 l a *ill4 ,octob] #af1 midnight4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z sleep at pres5t4 ,writ+ is bett] ?an ?9k+4 ,aunt ,w9ifr$ w5t aga9 to ,worce/] to-day4 ,%e said t %e _h to buy trimm+ = ,fai?'s sack4 ,%e w5t alone1 z usual1 & ,fai? & ,i kept ea* o!r company ?r\gh ! aft]noon1--%e on ! floor ) ,m>y ,ann1 ,i 9 ! easy-*air ) ,macaulay4 ,z ! light began to fall level on ! floor1 ,i ?rew ! book aside1--be+ at ! end ( a volume1--&1 ,m>y ,ann hav+ exhau/$ h] attractions1 ,i surr5d]$ unconditionally to ! little maid54 ,%e took me up g>ret1 & d[n cell>1 on lop ( ! wood-pile1 & into ! apple-trees2 ,i fa?om$ ! my/]ies ( ,old ,man's ,ca/le & ,/ill ,palm2 ,i 0 h] gr&mo!r1 ,i 0 h] baby1 ,i 0 a rabbit1 ,i 0 a *e/nut horse1 ,i 0 a wat*-dog1 ,i 0 a mild-temp]$ giant1 ,i 0 a be> 8w>rant$ n to eat little girls10 ,i 0 a ro>+ hippopotamus & a can>y bird1 ,i 0 ,jeff ,davis & ,i 0 ,moses 9 ! bulru%es1 & ( :at ,i 01 ! "t faile? me to tell4 ,x comes ov] me ) a curi\s1 m+l$ s5se ( ! ludicr\s & ! horrible1 t ,i %\ld h sp5t ! aft]noon l a baby & almo/ z happily1 laugh+ out ) ! *ild1 pa/ & future =gott51 ! trem5d\s risks ( 8,i spy0 absorb+ all my pres5t2 :ile :at 0 happ5+ 0 happ5+1 & :at 0 to come 0 com+4 ,n an e*o 9 ! air1 n a prophecy 9 ! sun%9e1 n a note ( w>n+ 9 ! song ( ! rob9s t wat*$ me f ! apple-b\ghs6 ,z ! long1 gold5 aft]noon slid away1 we came out by ! front gate to wat* = ! *ild's "m4 ,i 0 tir$1 &1 ly+ back on ! grass1 gave ,fai? "s p9k & purple l>kspurs1 t %e might amuse h]self 9 mak+ a *a9 ( !m4 ,! picture t %e made sitt+ !re on ! %ort1 dy+ grass--! light :i* broke all ab\t h] & ov] h] at ! fir/1 creep+ sl[ly d[n & away to ! we/1 h] little f+]s l9k+ ! ri*1 bright fl[]s tube into tube1 ! dimple on h] *eek & ! love 9 h] eyes--has photograph$ itself into my ?9k+4 ,h[ h] voice rang out1 :5 ! :eels s\nd$ at la/1 & ! c>riage1 some:at sl[ly driv51 /opp$6 8,mamma1 mamma6 see :at ,i've got = y1 mamma60 ,auntie tri$ to /ep f ! c>riage1 & call$ me3 8,m>y1 c y help me a little8 ,i am--tir$40 ,i w5t to h]1 & %e lean$ heavily on my arm1 & we came up ! pa?4 8,su* a pretty little *a91 all = y1 mamma10 began ,fai?1 & /opp$1 /ruck by h] "m's look4 8,x has be5 a long ride1 & ,i am 9 pa94 ,i believe ,i w lie "r d[n on ! p>lor s(a4 ,m>y1 w\ld y be k9d en\gh to give ,fai? h] supp] & put h] to b$80 ,fai?'s lip griev$4 8,c\s9 ,m>y isn't y1 mamma4 ,i want to be kiss$4 ,y hav5't kiss$ me40 ,h] "m hesitat$ = a mom5t2 !n kiss$ h] once1 twice2 put bo? arms ab\t h] neck2 & turn$ h] face to ! wall )\t a ^w4 8,mamma is tir$1 de>10 ,i said2 8come away40 ,%e 0 ly+ q /ill :5 ,i _h done :at 0 to be done = ! *ild1 & _h come back4 ,! room 0 ne>ly d>k4 ,i sat d[n on my cricket by h] s(a4 8,%all ,phbe light ! lamp80 8,n j yet40 8,c't y dr9k a cup ( tea if ,i br+ x80 8,n j yet40 8,did y f9d ! sack-trimm+80 ,i v5tur$1 aft] a pause4 8,i believe s1--yes40 ,%e drew a little package f h] pocket1 held x a mom5t1 !n let x roll to ! floor =gott54 ,:5 ,i pick$ x up1 ! s(t1 tissue-pap] wrapp] 0 wet & hot ) te>s4 8,m>y80 8,yes40 8,i nev] ?\ght ( ! little trimm+ till ! la/ m9ute4 ,i _h ano!r err&40 ,i wait$4 8,i ?\ght at fir/ ,i w\ld n tell y j yet4 ,b ,i suppose ! "t has come2 x w be no m easy to put x (f4 ,i h be5 to ,worce/] all ^! times to see a doctor40 ,i b5t my head 9 ! d>k1 & li/5$ = ! re/4 8,he has 8 reputation2 !y said he c\ld help me if anybody c\ld4 ,he ?\ght at fir/ he c\ld4 ,b to-day--,m>y1 see "h40 ,%e walk$ feebly t[>ds ! w9d[1 :]e a fa9t1 gray light /ruggl$ 91 & op5$ ! bosom ( h] dress4444 ,!re 0 sil5ce betwe5 u = a long :ile aft] t2 %e w5t back to ! s(a1 & ,i took h] h& & b[$ my face ov] x1 & s we sat4 ,! leaves ru/l$ out ( doors4 ,fai?1 up /airs1 0 s++ h]self to sleep ) a dron+ s\nd4 8,he talk$ ( risk+ an op]ation10 %e said1 at l5g?1 8b decid$ to-day t x 0 q useless4 ,i suppose ,i mu/ give up & be sick n[2 ,i am feel+ ! reaction f hav+ kept up s long4 ,he ?9ks ,i %all n suff] a v great deal4 ,he ?9ks he c relieve me1 & t x may be soon ov]40 8,!re is no *ance80 8,no *ance40 ,i took bo? ( h] h&s1 & cri$ out1 ,i believe1 z ,i did t fir/ night :5 %e spoke to me ( ,roy1--8,auntie1 ,auntie1 ,auntie60 & tri$ to ?9k :at ,i 0 do+1 b only cri$ out ! m4 8,:y1 ,m>y60 %e said1--8:y1 ,m>y60 & aga91 z be=e1 %e pass$ h] s(t h& to & fro across my hair1 till by & by ,i began to ?9k1 z ,i _h ?\ght be=e1 t ,i c\ld be> any?+ :i* ,god :o lov$ u all--:o surely lov$ u all--%\ld s5d4 ,s !n1 aft] ,i _h gr[n /ill1 %e began to tell me ab\t x 9 h] quiet voice1 & ! leaves ru/l$1 & ,fai? _h sung h]self to sleep1 & ,i li/5$ wond]+4 ,= !re 0 no pa9 9 ! quiet voice1--no pa91 nor tone ( fe>4 ,inde$1 x seem$ to me t ,i detect$1 ?r\gh its subdu$ sadness1 a secret1 suppress$ buoyancy ( satisfaction1 ) :i* some?+ /ruggl$4 8,& y80 ,i ask$1 turn+ quickly ^u h]4 8,i %\ld ?ank ,god ) all my he>t1 ,m>y1 if x 7 n = ,fai? & y4 ,b x is = ,fai? & y4 ,t's all40 ,:5 ,i _h lock$ ! front door1 & 0 creep+ up "h to my room1 my foot cru%$ some?+1 & a fa9t1 w\nd$ p]fume came up4 ,x 0 ! little p9k & purple *a94 ,,xvi4 ,octob] #ag4 8,! ,"l ,god a'mighty help u6 b ,8 ways are pa/ f9d+ out4 ,:at ) "o ?+ & ano!r ?+1 t *ild )\t a "m1 & y ) ! crape n yet ru/y = ,mr4 ,roy'l1 x doos seem to me z if ,8 mann] ( treat+ folks beats all6 ,b ,i tell y ?is1 ,miss ,m>y1 my de>2 y je/ say y\r pray]s reg'l> & /ick to ,him1 & ,he'll pull y ?r\gh1 sure60 ,?is 0 :at ,phbe said :5 ,i told h]4 ,novemb] #h4 ,to-night1 = ! fir/ "t1 ,auntie fairly gave up try+ to put ,fai? to b$4 ,%e _h insi/$ on x until n[1 crawl+ up by ! bani/]s l a w\nd$ ?+4 ,?is "t %e tott]$ & sank ^u ! second /ep4 ,%e cri$ out1 feebly2 8,i am afraid ,i mu/ give x up to ,c\s9 ,m>y4 ,fai?60--! *ild clung ) bo? h&s to h]1--8,fai?1 ,fai?6 ,"m's little girl60 ,x 0 ! la/ de> c>e ( mo!rhood yield$2 ! la/ l9k snapp$4 ,x seem$ to be ! v bitt]ness ( p>t+4 ,i turn$ away1 t !y might be> x toge!r1 !y two alone4 #ai?4 ,yet ,i ?9k t took away ! /+4 ,! days are slipp+ away n[ v quietly1 &--to h] ,i am sure1 & to me = h] sake--v happily4 ,%e suff]s less ?an ,i _h fe>$1 & %e lies ^u ! b$ & smiles1 & ,fai? comes 9 & plays ab\t1 & ! *e]y morn+ sun%9e falls on ev]y?+1 & :5 h] /rong h\rs come1 we h long talks toge!r1 h& clasp$ 9 h&4 ,su* pleasant talks6 ,we are q brave to speak ( any?+1 s9ce we "k t :at is to be is be/ j s1 & s9ce we fe> no p>t+4 ,i tell h] t ,fai? & ,i w soon le>n to %ut our eyes & ?9k we see h]1 & try to make x almo/ ! same1 = %e w nev] be v f> away1 w %e8 ,& !n %e %akes h] head smil+1 = x pleases h]1 & %e kisses me s(tly4 ,!n we dream ( h[ x w all be1 & h[ we %all love & try to please ea* o!r q z mu* z n[4 8,x w be l go+ ar\nd a corn]1 don't y see80 %e says4 8,y w "k t ,i am !re all ! :ile1 ?\gh hidd51 & t if y call me ,i %all he>40 ,!n we talk ( ,fai?1 & ( h[ ,i %all com=t h]2 t ,i %all tea* h] ?is1 & gu>d h] f t1 & h[ ,i %all talk ) h] ab\t heav5 & h] "m4 ,sometimes ,fai? comes up & wants to "k :at we are say+1 & lays poor ,m>y ,ann1 sawdu/ & all1 ^u ! pill[1 & wants 8h] to(-a*e kiss$ away40 ,s ,auntie kisses away ! dolly's 8to(-a*e02 & kisses ! dolly's little "m1 sometimes ) a quiv] on h] lips1 b m (t5 ) a smile 9 h] eyes1 & ,fai? runs back to play1 & h] laugh ripples out1 & h] "m li/5s--li/5s-- ,sometimes1 too1 we talk ( "s ( ! p = :om %e c>es2 ( h] husb&'s fri5ds2 ( h] s*ol>s1 or ,dr4 ,bl&1 or ,clo1 or poor ',b9 ,quirk1 or ( somebody d[n t[n :om %e 0 plann+ to help ?is w9t]4 ,little ,clo comes 9 z (t5 z %e is /rong en\gh to see h]1 & s5ds ov] untold jellies & blanc-manges1 :i* ,fai? & ,i h to eat4 8,b don't let ! *ild "k t10 ,auntie says4 ,b m (t5 we talk ( ! life :i* %e is s soon to beg92 ( h] husb& & ,roy2 ( :at %e w try to say to ,*ri/2 h[ mu* de>] ,he has gr[n to h] s9ce %e has la9 "h 9 pa9 at ,8 bidd+1 & h[ ,he helps h]1 at morn+ & at ev5tide & 9 ! night-wat*es4 ,we talk ( ! trees & ! m\nta9s & ! lilies 9 ! g>d51 on :i* ! glory ( ! light t is n ! light ( ! sun may %9e2 ( ! 8little brooks0 by :i* %e longs to sit & s+ to ,fai?2 ( ! treasures ( art :i* %e may fancy to h ab\t h]2 ( ! home 9 :i* h] husb& may be mak+ ready = h] com+1 & wond] :at he has !re1 & if he kn[s h[ ne> ! "t is n[4 ,b ,i notice lately t %e m (t5 & m quickly we>ies ( ^! ?+s2 t %e comes back1 & comes back aga9 to "s lov+ ?\ght--z lov+ z a *ild's--( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,he seems to be--z %e once said %e tri$ t ,he %\ld be to ,fai?--h] 8be/ fri5d40 ,sometimes1 too1 we wond] :at x means to pass out ( ! body1 & :at "o w be fir/ consci\s (4 8,i us$ to h a v human1 & by no means slight1 dread ( ! physical pa9 ( dea?10 %e said to-day2 8b1 = "s reason or o!r1 t is sl[ly leav+ me4 ,i imag9e t ! suff]+ ( any fatal sickness is worse ?an ! imm$iate process ( dissolution4 ,!n !re is s mu* beyond x to occupy "o's ?\ghts4 ,"o ?+ ,i h ?\ght mu* ab\t2 x is t1 :atev] may be our fir/ exp]i5ce aft] leav+ ! body1 x is n likely to be a revolution>y "o4 ,x is m 9 analogy ) ,god's deal+s t a quiet process1 a g5tle accu/om+1 %\ld op5 our eyes on ! light t w\ld bl9d if x came 9 a fla%4 ,p]haps we %all n see ,him1--p]haps we c\ld n be> x to see ,him at once4 ,x may be t ! faces ( famili> human fri5ds w be ! fir/ to greet u2 x may be t ! t\* ( ! human h& de>] ?an any b ,8 own %all lead u1 z we are able1 beh9d ! veil1 till we are a little us$ to ! glory & ! wond]1 & lead u s to ,him4 8,be t z x may1 & be heav5 :]e x may1 ,i am n afraid4 ,) all my guess+ & my /udy+ & my dream+ ov] ^! ?+s1 ,i am only a *ild 9 ! d>k4 #8,nev]!less1 ,i am n afraid ( ! d>k4' ,god bless ,mr4 ,rob]tson = say+ t6 ,i'm go+ to bless him :5 ,i see him4 ,h[ pleasant x w be to see him1 & "s o!r fri5ds ^: faces ,i nev] saw 9 ?is _w4 ,david1 = in/ance1 or ,paul1 or ,c[p]1 or ,presid5t ,l9coln1 or ,mrs4 ,br[n+4 ,! only tr\ble is t ,i am nobody to !m6 ,h[ev]1 ,i fancy t !y w let me %ake h&s ) !m4 8,no1 ,i am q will+ to tru/ all ^! ?+s to ,god4 #8,& :at if mu* be /ill unkn[n8 ,?y ,"l %all tea* !e t1 ,:5 ?\ %alt /& be=e ,8 ?rone1 ,or sit z ,m>y sat4' ,i may f9d !m v diff]5t f :at ,i h suppos$4 ,i "k t ,i %all f9d !m inf9itely m satisfy+ ?an ,i h suppos$4 ,z ,s*ill] said ( 8 philosophy1 #8,p]haps ,i may be a%am$ ( my raw design1 at sight ( ! true orig9al4 ,?is may happ52 ,i expect x2 b !n1 if reality be>s no resemblance to my dreams1 x w be a m maje/ic1 a m delightful surprise4' 8,i believe no?+ t ,god d5ies4 ,i _c ov]rate ! beauty ( 8 promise4 ,s x surely c h done no h>m = me to take ! com=t ( my fancy+ till ,i am !re2 & :at a com=t x has be5 to me1 ,god only kn[s4 ,i c\ld sc>cely h borne "s ?+s )\t x40 8,y are nev] afraid t any?+ prov+ a little diff]5t f :at y expect might--0 8,might disappo9t me8 ,no2 ,i h settl$ t 9 my he>t ) ,god4 ,i d n ?9k ,i %all be disappo9t$4 ,! tru? is1 he has obvi\sly n op5$ ! gates :i* b> heav5 f our sight1 b he has z obvi\sly n %ut !m2 !y /& aj>1 ) ! ,bible & reason 9 ! way1 to keep !m f clos+2 surely we %\ld look 9 z f> z we c1 & surely1 if we look ) rev]5ce1 our eyes w be hold51 t we may n *eat ourselves ) mirages4 ,&1 z ! little ,sw$i% girl said1 ! fir/ "t %e saw ! />s3 #8,o fa!r1 if ! wrong side ( heav5 is s beautiful1 :at mu/ ! "r side be8'0 ,janu>y4 ,i write little n[1 = ,i am liv+ too mu*4 ,! days are /eal+ away & less5+ "o by "o1 & /ill ,fai? plays ab\t ! room1 ?\gh v s(tly n[1 & /ill ! *e]y sun%9e %imm]s 91 & /ill we talk ) clasp+ h&s1 less (t5 & m pleasantly4 ,morn+ & noon & ev5+ come & g2 ! sn[ drifts d[n & ! ra9 falls s(tly2 cl\ds =m & break & hurry pa/ ! w9d[s2 %ad[s melt & lights are %att]$1 & little ra9b[s are prison$ by ! icicles t hang f ! eaves4 ,i sit & wat* !m1 & wat* ! sick-lamp flick] 9 ! night1 & wat* ! blue morn+ crawl ov] ! hills2 & ! old words are /eal+ d[n my ?\ght3 ,t is ! sub/ance1 ?is ! %ad[2 t ! reality1 ?is ! dream4 ,i wat* h] face ^u ! pill[2 ! happy secret on its lips2 ! smile )9 its eyes4 ,x is ne>ly a ye> n[ s9ce ,god s5t ! face to me4 ,:at x has done = me ,he kn[s2 :at ! next ye> & all ! ye>s are to be )\t x1 ,he kn[s1 too4 ,x is slipp+ away1--slipp+4 ,& ,i--mu/--lose x4 ,p]haps ,i %\ld n h said :at ,i said to-night2 b be+ weak f wat*+1 & see+ h[ glad %e 0 to g1 see+ h[ all ! peace 0 = h]1 all ! pa9 = u1 ,i cri$1 8,o ,auntie1 ,auntie1 :y c't we g too8 ,:y c't ,fai? & ,i g ) y80 ,b %e answ]$ me only1 8,m>y1 ,he kn[s40 ,we w be brave aga9 to-morr[4 ,a little m sun%9e 9 ! room6 ,a little m ( ,fai? & ! dolly6 ,! ,sabba?4 ,%e ask$ = ! *ild at b$time to-night1 & ,i laid h] d[n 9 h] night-dress on h] "m's arm4 ,%e kiss$ h]1 & said h] pray]s1 & talk$ a bit ab\t ,m>y ,ann1 & to-morr[1 & h] sn[ man4 ,i sat ov] by ! w9d[ 9 ! dusk1 & wat*$ a little creamy cl\d t 0 fold+ 9 ! moon4 ,pres5tly _! voices grew l[1 & at la/ ,fai?'s /opp$ altoge!r4 ,!n ,i he>d 9 fragm5ts ?is3-- 8,sleepy1 de>8 ,b y won't h _m m talks ) mamma4 ,keep awake j a m9ute1 ,fai?1 & he>--c y he>8 ,mamma w nev]1 nev] =get h] little girl2 %e won't g away v f>2 %e w always love y4 ,w y rememb] z long z y live8 ,%e w always see y1 ?\gh y c't see h]1 p]haps4 ,hu%1 my d>l+1 don't cry6 ,isn't ,god naughty8 ,no1 ,god is good2 ,god is always good4 ,he won't take mamma a great way (f4 ,"o m kiss8 ,!re6 n[ y may g to sleep4 ,"o m6 ,come1 ,c\s9 ,m>y40 ,june #f4 ,x is a long "t s9ce ,i h writt5 "h4 ,i did n want to op5 ! book till ,i 0 sure t ,i c\ld op5 x quietly1 & c\ld speak z %e w\ld l to h me speak1 ( :at rema9s to be writt54 ,b a v few words w tell x all4 ,x happ5$ s naturally & s happily1 %e 0 s glad :5 ! "t came1 & %e made me s glad = h] sake1 t ,i _c grieve4 ,i say x f my hone/ he>t1 ,i _c grieve4 ,9 ! place out ( :i* %e has gone1 %e has left me peace4 ,i ?9k ( some?+ t ,miss ,proct] said ab\t ! op5+ ( t gold5 gate1 8r\nd :i* ! kneel+ spirits wait4 ,! halo seems to l+] r\nd ^? kneel+ close/ to ! door3 ,! joy t light5$ f t place %9es /ill ^u ! wat*]'s face40 ,i ?9k m (t5 ( "s ?+s t %e h]self said 9 ! v la/ ( ^? pleasant talks1 :51 turn+ a leaf 9 h] little ,bible1 %e po9t$ out to me ! words3-- 8,x is exp$i5t = y t ,i g away2 =1 if ,i g n away1 ! ,com=t] w n come40 ,x 0 "o spr+-l night1--! tw5ty-n9? ( ,m>*4 ,%e _h be5 9 less pa91 & _h *att$ & laugh$ m ) u ?an = _m a day4 ,%e begg$ t ,fai? might /ay till d>k1 & might br+ h] ,noah's ark & play d[n ^u ! foot ( ! b$ :]e %e c\ld see h]4 ,i sat 9 ! rock+-*air ) my face to ! w9d[4 ,we did n light ! lamps4 ,! night came on sl[ly4 ,%[]y cl\ds flitt$ by1 b !re 0 a blaze ( gold5 color beh9d !m4 ,x broke ?r\gh & scatt]$ !m2 x burn$ !m1 & melt$ !m2 x %ot great p9k & purple jets up to ! z5i?2 x fell & lay 9 amb] mi/ ^u ! hills4 ,a s(t w9d swept by1 & d>t$ n[ & !n into ! gl[1 & %ift$ x ab\t1 color away f color1 & back aga94 8,see1 ,fai?60 %e said s(tly2 8put d[n ! little camel a m9ute1 & look60 & add$ aft]1 b nei!r to ! *ild nor to me1 x seem$3 8,at ev5tide !re %all be light40 ,phbe knock$ pres5tly1 & ,i w5t out to see :at 0 want$1 & plann$ a little = ,auntie's breakfa/1 & came back4 ,fai?1 ) h] little ark1 0 /ill play+ quietly ^u ! b$4 ,i sat d[n aga9 9 my rock+-*air ) my face to ! w9d[4 ,n[ & !n ! *ild's voice broke ! sil5ce1 ask+ ,:]e %\ld %e put ! elephant1 & 0 !re room !re = ! yell[ bird8 & n[ & !n h] "m answ]$ h]1 & s pres5tly ! skies _h fad$1 & s ! night came on4 ,i 0 ?9k+ t x 0 ,fai?'s b$time1 & t ,i _h bett] light ! lamp1 :5 a few di/9ct1 hurri$ words f ! b$ attract$ my att5tion4 8,fai?1 ,i ?9k y _h bett] kiss mamma n[1 & get d[n40 ,!re 0 a *ange 9 ! voice4 ,i 0 !re 9 a mom5t1 & lift$ ! *ild f ! pill[1 :]e %e _h crept4 ,b %e said1 8,wait a m9ute1 ,m>y2 wait a m9ute10--= ,fai? clung to h]1 ) "o h& ^u h] *eek1 s(tly patt+ x4 ,i w5t ov] & /ood by ! w9d[4 ,x 0 h] "m h]self :o g5tly put ! little f+]s away at la/4 8,"m's own little girl6 ,good night1 my d>l+1 my d>l+40 ,s ,i took ! *ild away to ,phbe1 & came back1 & %ut ! door4 8,i ?\ght y might h "s message = ,roy10 %e said4 8,n[80 8,n[1 ,i ?9k40 ,we _h (t5 talk$ ( ?is1 & %e _h promis$ to rememb] x1 :atev] x might be4 ,s ,i told h]--,b ,i w n write :at ,i told h]4 ,i saw t %e 0 play+ weakly ) h] w$d+-r+1 :i* hung v loosely bel[ its little worn gu>d4 8,take ! little gu>d10 %e said1 8& keep x = ,fai?2 b bury ! o!r ) me3 he put x on2 nobody else mu/ take x--0 ,! s5t5ce dropp$1 unf9i%$4 ,i crept up on ! b$ beside h]1 = %e seem$ to wi% x4 ,i ask$ if ,i %\ld light ! lamp1 b %e %ook h] head4 ,! room seem$ light1 %e said1 q light4 ,%e wond]$ !n if ,fai? 7 asleep1 & if %e w\ld wak5 e>ly 9 ! morn+4 ,aft] t ,i kiss$ h]1 & !n we said no?+ m1 only pres5tly %e ask$ me to hold h] h&4 ,x 0 q d>k :5 %e turn$ h] face at la/ t[>ds ! w9d[4 8,john60 %e said1--8:y1 ,john60 99 99 99 99 99 ,!y came 91 ) heads uncov]$ & voices hu%$1 to see h]1 9 ! days :ile %e 0 ly+ d[n /airs among ! fl[]s4 ,once :5 ,i ?\ght t %e 0 alone1 ,i w5t 91--x 0 at twilight1--& turn$1 />tl$ by a figure t 0 cr\*$ sobb+ on ! floor4 8,o1 ,i want to g too1 ,i want to g too60 x cri$4 8,%e's b5 !re all day long10 said ,phbe1 wip+ h] eyes1 8& %e won't g home = a m\?ful ( victuals1 poor creetur6 b %e je/ sets !re & cries & cries1 an' !re's no /opp9' ( h]60 ,x 0 little ,clo4 ,at ano!r "t1 ,i 0 !re ) fre% fl[]s1 :5 ! door op5$1 creak+ a little1 & ',b9 ,quirk came 9 on tiptoe1 try+ 9 va9 to /ill ! noise ( 8 new boots4 ,8 eyes 7 r$ & wet1 & he held out to me timidly a s+le :ite c>nation4 8,c\ld y put x some:]e1 :]e x w\ldn't d any h>m8 ,i walk$ way ov] to ,worce/] & back to get x4 ,if y c\ld je/ hide x "u ! o!rs out ( sight1 seems to me x w\ld d me a sight ( good to feel x 0 !re1 y "k40 ,i motion$ to him to lay x himself betwe5 h] f+]s4 8,o1 ,i d>sn't4 ,i'm n fit1 ,i'm n4 ,%e'd re!r h y40 ,b ,i told him t ,i knew %e w\ld be z pleas$ t he %\ld give x to h] himself z %e 0 :5 he gave h] ! ,*9a p9ks on t di/ant summ] day4 ,s ! great awkw>d fell[ b5t d[n1 z simply z a *ild1 z t5d]ly z a woman1 & left ! fl[] 9 its place4 8,%e lik$ 'em10 he falt]$2 8maybe1 if :at %e us$ to say is all s1 %e'll l 'em n[4 ,%e lik$ 'em bett] ?an %e did ma*9es4 ,i've j got my c>pet-sweep] ?r\gh2 ,i 0 ?9k+ h[ pleas$ %e'd be2 ,i want$ to tell h]4 ,if ,i %\ld g to ! good place1--if ev] ,i d g1 x w be j h] do9's1--,i'll tell h] !n1 maybe1 ,i--0 ,he =got t anybody 0 !re1 &1 sobb+1 hid 8 face 9 8 great h&s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,s we are wait+ = ! morn+ :5 ! gates %all op51--,fai? & ,i4 ,i1 f my /ill] wat*es1 am n sadd5$ by ! music ( h] life4 ,i feel sure t h] "m wi%es x to be a *e]y life4 ,i feel sure t %e is %[+ me1 :o w h no mo!rhood by :i* to %[ myself1 h[ to help h] little girl4 ,& ,roy1--ah1 well1 & ,roy1--he kn[s4 ,our h\r is n yet come4 ,if ! ,ma/] w t we %\ld be ab\t ,8 ,fa!r's bus9ess1 :at is t to u8 ,,! ,,end4